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Stress. That had been clouding your mind for so long. Stress and frustration. Not only had these murders continued, but there was also now a name for this killer Kira, and there was a website to praise him. It would list names of criminals who deserved to die. You hated the idea of such a site, it had consumed your entire night at one point, from you cross-checking names to see if these people listed were truly criminals or angry ex’s. Such a site is idiotic and if Kira truly is out there, I hope to whatever god there may be doesn’t get his information from such a site; there are known cases of the innocent being locked in gaol and receiving the death sentence. So, who is to say Kira hasn’t killed someone who was potentially innocent? You let out a soft sigh and closed out of the site. You couldn’t stand to look at it longer. You leaned forward on your desk, rubbing your eyes slightly, you needed to relax. That was what you needed. You needed to stop thinking about, school, life, and these damned murders. You just needed your mind to wander off to something else. Bed – bed was comfy, the clean sheets, the soft mattress, you could just curl up under the duvet and feel the warm comforting arms of Light snake around your waist – woah. Stop that.
You shook your head slightly and made your way over to sit on the bed. These thoughts had been trapped in your head for the past couple of days. And it never helped that you tended to see him not long after these thoughts and he always found a reason to touch you. You could swear that he would do it on purpose just to mess with you.
You stood near the bench, waiting for the kettle to boil, you had grabbed your teacup and had pulled out some biscuits from the cupboard. It would be a great study snack, although to be honest, you wanted to eat a million sandwiches. You heard footsteps behind you, you glanced around and saw Light making his way in, with a sort of skip in his step. You looked back at the kettle and put the packet back in the cupboard. You had almost dropped the kettle the moment you picked it up when you felt warm hands on your waist.
“Sorry, but you’re in the way.” Light has softly said to you, as his hands moved you slightly to the side.
He leaned over to the cupboard and opened it, only to look at it for a few moments before his hands were back on your waist to move you back to your original spot.
“Hmm, it seems like what I needed wasn’t there.” He quirked a smile at you, he would have had to have known he didn’t need that cupboard, even you knew everything that was in those cupboards. How could he not?
You looked up at him for a moment, you wanted to say something, but you were far too flustered to let words escape from your mouth.
“But I think I’ll take this.” He leaned forward, one hand still on your waist while the other reached out for one of your biscuits.
“Hey!” you giggled, while you reached out to grab the biscuit from him, you turned around to face him and he only held it up high above your head, “don’t steal my food.”
“You can grab a new one.” He offered; you felt your face flush while his hand stayed on your waist.
“Why are you like this oh my god, give me my biscuit!” you jumped up trying to grab it from his hand.
“I don’t see the big deal.”
“The deal is the lack of justice with my biscuit!”
“Oh, justice you say?” he smirked and held it to your face, “is me taking this from you injustice Ms. Lawyer?”
“Of the highest account, and I’m pretty sure I have a good case against you Detective Yagami.”
“Well then, I can’t argue with the law,” he said simply, before he leaned forward again, his chest pressed against yours while he put it back on your plate, you could feel the smirk on his face and hear his breath, “case closed?”
His voice gave you goosebumps, you could feel his hot breath against your ear.
You gave a short nod before you felt his hand make your way to your shoulder, he gave it a short squeeze before he stepped away from you.
“Don’t study too hard.” Were his last words.
You let out an angry sigh before you face planted into your pillow, letting out a muffled scream of frustration. Why does Light have to be such a – ugh!
The knock on your door broke you out of your thoughts and you made your way to open it, “Sayu?”
“I need some help with my homework, I’m not really getting it,” she showed you the papers, “we’re doing quadratic equations.”
You had a flick through the papers and looked through the questions, it was simple stuff, but you weren’t one to enjoy mathematics, you often avoided it at all costs. You looked down at her with a smile, “How about we both annoy Light?”
She grinned at the idea and immediately raced over to Light’s room, she was knocking on his door, going on about why he had his door locked, by the time you rocked up over by her side he had unlocked his door and was looking at the two of you.
“What on earth?”
“Sayu wants some help with quadratic equations, and I just informed her how much of a genius you were.”
He looked up at you while Sayu passed him her papers, “Oh is that so? How generous of you.”
“I also want to see if you mess up anything.” You chuckled.
He laughed slightly, “I’ll take up the challenge,” he gestured for the two of you to come in, you had to hold your tongue when you felt his hand on your lower back to let you into his room. You looked up at him with a confused look on your face and he merely just smiled at you, “All right Sayu, let’s see what you need to do.”
Light had pulled up a seat for Sayu at his desk while he helped her, although he seemed to get distracted at moments, at first you thought he had been randomly glancing at you from time to time, but you quickly worked out that he was always staring slightly behind you. Although that didn’t make sense. You didn’t want to press it so you just kept quiet and sat laid back on his bed while you listened to him explain the work to Sayu.
“Am I boring you?” you heard Light ask you while he finished up explaining a problem to Sayu.
“You bet, I wonder if any of this is sinking in Sayu’s head, I think I’d rather watch paint dry.”
Sayu laughed at your comment, “(Y/N)’s the only one who can pick on my big brother.”
“I’m feeling ganged up on over here.” He said in a joking tone, you could practically hear the smirk on his face.
“Maybe you should.” you joked back.
You all looked over at the door when you heard the routine call for dinner. Sayu had immediately ran out of Light’s room while he protested that she should stay and do the last few questions, only for her to shout she’d do it later.
He let out a sigh and leaned back in his chair, “Does she do this to you?”
“No, because I send her to you,” you laughed. You felt the bed sink next to you, when you looked over you saw that Light had also chosen to lay next to you, “has she drained you?”
He lifted up his hand, taking a look at it, “You know, if you look close enough, it looks like a corpse.”
You laughed and pushed his hand away, “You’re so dumb.”
“Says the one who wouldn’t help her.”
You rolled over to your side to look at him, “Why do that when I can get someone else to do it.”
He rolled over to face you, a slight smirk on his face, “I guess I see your point.”
There was silence for a moment between the two of you. Only, it wasn’t uncomfortable. Usually, you would be mentally writhing with embarrassment due to being so close to him. Yet at that moment, you were just happy to be close to him.
“Light, about that day with Matsuda.”
He seemed to pause for a moment and readjusted himself while he listened to you.
You paused for a moment, there were many things you wanted to say, how you didn’t like Matsuda that way, how you didn’t mean to make him mad if he was. Though you knew you could only settle with one, the others you knew would make this comfortable situation awkward, and that was the last thing you needed.
“How did you know where I was?’
He chuckled, “that’s your question? Ha, well, hard question, call it a hunch.”
“Your magic detective skills?” you teased.
“You bet,” he smiled, “have you seen him again?”
You shook your head and joked, “I’ve been hanging out with you too much.”
He smiled, “Better keep it that way then.”
There was silence for a moment before you spoke, “I should probably get down for dinner before Sayu yells that I’m missing out on some juicy scene with Hideki Ryuga,” you joked, while you sat up on the bed and stretched your arms up above your head. You could feel Light’s eyes burning into your back, you glanced back at him with a smile on your face, “you right there?”
“I’m perfectly fine,” he smiled before he sat up with you, he leaned against you slightly, “can you tell mum I’ll be a little late, I just want to finish up this work, I think maybe two more practice essays.”
“Fair enough, I can bring you up some food if you like?” you offered.
“Sure, I’d like that,” he smiled, he leaned his head against your shoulder for a moment, before he got up, “okay, I better let you go. Hanging around me is more boring than watching paint dry right?” he smiled at you before he glanced to the far corner, you almost wanted to ask him about it yet decided against it.
“Oh, so much worse,” you smiled while you walked to his door, when you glanced back at him, he shot you a short wink before he looked back at his desk, opening his side drawer, to grab a notebook, probably one of his study books.
You were taken aback but just turned away and went downstairs. Sayu had a bright smile on her face while she told you your show had just come on so the both of you could watch it together. You had grabbed your plate and sat on the lounge next to her, Sayu was gushing over Hideki Ryuga. You found it hilarious what a blushing mess she would turn into.
“Have you had a boyfriend, (Y/N)?” she asked you, taking a bite of the last bit of her food.
You paused for a moment, you had been in ‘relationships’, you had never truly counted them as something serious as you just found the most of the people you had been with turned out to be idiots that you didn’t want to have anything to do with, you gave a simple shrug, “Yeah but nothing significant. Boys in school are just silly.”
“You think that?” she tilted her head.
You gave her a nod, “Definitely, they’re far too immature for my taste.”
“What about Light though?”
You paused slightly, you knew you had to pick your words carefully, you didn’t want to break it to her that Light was your Hideki, “Oh Light is a different case,” you laughed, “he’s far above the boys in my grade.”
“I always picture you two being together,” she walked to the kitchen with her plate, you had started choking on your food.
“Um, why would you say that?”
Sayu - the sweet innocent child, just smiled brightly, “You’re the only girl he brings home and the only one he talks about.”
Oh, you sweet, naïve child. I love you.
“I don’t think that’s how it works, Sayu.” You laughed, you got up to put your own plate in the sink.
Sayu just jumped excitedly before she hugged you, “But imagine! If Light married you we’d be sisters-in-law! We’d be one huge family.”
You pat her on the back, “We’re already a family, and you’re the best little sister I could ask for,” you ruffled her hair and laughed to yourself.
“I know silly but even closer! Oh! Could I be a bridesmaid!”
You pushed her off you while you laughed, “You might want to slow down there, no wedding vows will be exchanged you brat.”
Sayu was cut off from whatever she was going to say next by the TV changing. The soap opera changing to a news broadcast. The both of you raced to the lounge room to see why this happened.
It all hit you so fast. Lind. L. Tailor. His death. L. Kira. Kira was in Japan. Kira was in Japan. Your theory was right, Kira was a person. A person passing judgment. A fool. How could someone pass judgment like that on the public? What made him think he was worthy? No, no, you could understand it. But killing the decoy? Doesn’t that only show that whoever this was was a naïve child who didn’t understand the weight of his choices? You felt your heart pounding in your chest, tears welled in your eyes. This couldn’t be happening. You turned the TV off. Sayu didn’t need to see that, you pulled yourself together, wiping your eyes, you knew you had to be strong for her, “I think we should put on a movie; don’t you think so Sayu? What’s that romance movie you like, the one with Hideki in it? Actually – how about you put it on, and I’ll go give Light his dinner? I think that’s a solid plan.” You picked up Light’s plate from the kitchen and made your way upstairs, you had to talk to Light, he would understand your worries, he would understand you.
Your footsteps echoed throughout your head like the heartbeat in your chest. You felt heavy; it couldn’t be real. You knocked rapidly on Lights door, your heart was pounding so loudly in your ears. When the door eventually opened after being unlocked, you faked a happy voice, just in case Sayu could hear you, you knew Light could see right through it, “I brought you your dinner Light. Here you go.”
You knew he could see your watery eyes. You knew he could see you were overwhelmed. He took the plate from you and gestured for you to come in, “hey, how about you come in, it’s okay.” He whispered.
He let you walk in and your heard shuffling of him putting his plate down and the opening and closing of a drawer. You had just stood in his room, far too nervous to do anything, too overwhelmed, you hadn’t even noticed that you had started biting your thumbnail. You stopped when you felt Light grab your shoulders, you looked up at him, “(Y/N) are you okay?”
You shook your head before he hugged you tightly, whispering that it was going to be okay. He held you tightly to him before he sat you down on the bed, “Is this about what was on the TV?” when you had nodded, he hugged you once again, “it’s okay (Y/N). Hey lay down, trust me, just lay back.”
You listened to him and laid down on his bed, resting your head on his pillow, the same pillow Light would lay his head on every night when he went to sleep. Something about that was already comforting that you had stopped crying. You then noticed the lights had been turned off and you then saw him make his way over to you, he took his shoes off and moved the duvet cover, “Get under the covers, Ms. Lawyer.” He said while he got into the bed with you, and you got under the covers. He brushed the hair from your eyes before he gestured for you to come closer. When you shuffled near him, he pulled you to him, hugged you close.
“It’s all going to be okay.”
“How do you know that?” it was all you could think to say.
“Because we’re facing this together.” You could feel the vibrations of his voice while your head resting on his chest.
You laughed slightly, “You’re terrible.”
He chuckled, “I like to think that I’m a romantic.”
Your world stopped but you stayed calm, “What like Keats or Hugo?”
“I’d like to think: Yagami.”
You smiled slightly, “Cheesy.”
“I try,” he hugged you tighter, to which you returned, you never would have imagined you’d be in this position ever in your life, the circumstances didn’t make it any better. But you knew deep down, on the other hand, that you were comforted by the fact Light would do this for you.
You closed your eyes for a moment, taking in the scent of his body wash. How did he always smell so perfect? How was he so perfect? How was his heartbeat so relaxing, how was it able to calm you down so perfectly?
Under your breath, you heard yourself mumble a thank you to him. You didn’t feel stupid. There was nothing stupid about thanking him for helping you, for taking you into his family, for being your friend, for keeping you sane, for everything.
“It is my honour,” he whispered back to you, you could feel his breath on your hair. Did he like the smell of your hair? Did you feel awkward against his body? Did he feel weird holding you, was he hoping it would end soon? Were you meant to go back to your room once you had calmed down?
“(Y/N), while I love that you have an active mind could you please settle it down so we can get to sleep?”
You froze completely, your eyes snapped open. You couldn’t make out much in the room, you could see the rough outline if him, his shoulder, arm, covered by the duvet.
“All right then,” you heard him say before he moved to lay on his back and he pulled you closer to have your head rest in the crock of his neck, “now that’s better. What’d you think?”
You just nodded slightly, his arm was under your back, as though he was hugging you, hesitantly you decided to return the favour, you rolled to your side and wrapped an arm over his chest. His free hand rested on top of yours. In a perfect world, the two of you were a couple. In this world though, the two of you were – his best friend. It was the only thing you could settle with, he didn’t love you. Not in the same way he would love a girlfriend. But for now, this was enough.
“(Y/N),” he broke you out of your thoughts – something he seemed to have a true talent of – there was a slight tone in his voice that sounded like he was about to attack you with tickles, “you’re doing it again. I can practically hear your thoughts.”
“Oh yeah?” you questioned with a raised eyebrow, you wanted to play it off cool, “what am I thinking then?”
“Oh, woe is me, I’m missing out on my favourite activity: watching paint dry,” you could hear his smile, “or at least something along those lines, am I correct?”
You smiled slightly, “wow you know me far too well.”
He pulled you closer and you relaxed far more than what you were before. It felt natural. You nearly started barking apologies when in a moment where he readjusted himself and – as though in sync – you had too, except you felt so stupid when you felt your leg over one of his. Entangling yourself with him. You knew Light, if he didn’t want this, he would push you off and be quite stern with you, he knew his boundaries. Yet, he let you stay there. You could feel your heart beating far too hard in your chest, as though it was going to burst through your chest, you felt as though he could hear it. There was no way he couldn’t. All you could think about was how close your leg must have been to his crotch. Yet he was still fine with this?!
As though to calm you down, he squeezed your hand while the other squeezed you slightly. Your eyes soon closed, and you fell fast asleep.