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Miles and (Y/n) have always been together.
They couldn't think of the last time they weren't attached to each other’s hip. In every class they sat beside each other, every bus ride was with them sitting together. When someone saw Miles, (Y/n) wasn't far behind. They were always together.
Which explains why Miles was currently tangled in (Y/n)’s arms, crying his eyes out on his bed.
“I just— I don't understand, I'm doing everything right, aren’t i??” He asks pitifully, grasping onto (Y/n)’s sweater for dear life, like they would disappear if he didn’t.
“Miles, i know- i know, its..” they couldn't find the words. Gwen didn't like him. That was the plain truth of it,she just, didn't like him like that. There should have been no underlying achievement, but this was the perfect opportunity for (Y/n). They felt disgusting for saying that, but it was true. Miles gets his heartbroken over Gwen, (Y/n) steps in to comfort him, and he realizes the person who’s been there for him during everything, the person who’s been with him since day one, would always stay by his side. It would have been perfect, the ideal situation.
But of course, life didn't really work like that, did it?
“You didn't do anything wrong. She.. I know, it hurts, Mi. i know it feels like, like a little guy with a jagged rock is trying to rip out from your heart.” They hoped to get a giggle out of that, but to no avail. “And, if i'm being honest… It's gonna hurt like that. for a while, actually. That little guy isn’t going to fully go away yet.”
They gave it a minute, letting Miles breath in and out, letting him understand what they were saying. Right when they were about to speak up, Miles cut them off.
“If this is supposed to be makin’ me feel better, its doin’ an awful job.”
They chuckled sadly at him, putting their hand gently on the back of his neck.
“Shut up, dork face, i'm not done” They thought meticulously about what they were about to say next. “..It’s gonna suck. You’ll wanna rip your hair out when you see her, you’ll spend days and nights critiquing yourself, wondering what was wrong with you, why didn't she like you, but.. it's not anything wrong with you. You’re a good guy, Miles. You’re sweet, artistic, funny, a fucking genius, youre like- youre awesome, is what im trying to say.”
They gave it another second, collecting their thoughts.
“But, one day, it’ll become manageable. You won't wanna rip your hair out, you can stomach seeing her with other people. And if you're lucky, the feeling will go away.” They said this part more quietly, petting his thick ass hair. They always loved his hair.
The next few moments were covered in silence, only Miles' occasional sniffling was heard. (Y/n) realized pretty quickly the ‘ideal situation’ was never gonna happen. The ideal situation of course wasn't the reason they where comforting Miles, in love with him or not, they’d always be there. But a kid could dream, right?
(Y/n) knew about Miles being spiderman, about the spider verse, the whole shebang, they were there for most of it. They knew about the interdimensional portals, how Miles was currently trying to study those to see his friends, they knew everything. He couldn't hide anything from them, it just came out of him like an open book.
Miles was about to say something, when suddenly, random objects in his room started to fly up.
“What the fuck-“
They were cut off shortly after they started talking, Miles seeming perfectly fine now, giddy even. They were very confused until they finally looked up.
A portal.
And who came out of that portal but Gwen Stacy, almost falling on top of (Y/n).
“Oh shit- sorry guys, was i interrupting something?” Gwen says quickly and apologetically, looking over to (Y/n), then Miles. Miles ignores this question in favor of a hug.
They watch as Miles wraps his arms around Gwen, holding her just above the thinnest part of her waist and squeezed tight. The way his hands grasp almost desperately at her suit, his head falling into the crook of her neck, it almost hurt. Who were they kidding? It did hurt, but nothing they could do about it. They kept quiet. They watched the two friends reunite, it was cute, in some bittersweet, gut wrenching way.
Once Gwen let go, she turned to (Y/n), giving her a smaller, but equally nice hug.
“Ohmpf- Hi Gwen!!” They said happily, a bit of anxious shock in their voice. Them and Gwen could be qualified as friends, but they didn't really know if Gwen actually missed them like she did with miles.
“Hey, sorry! Guess I kinda just, got a little excited.” Gwen cheerful demeanour is a little off putting, but welcome nonetheless. They watch Gwen walk around miles room, pointing to various items with questions and comments of her own. The conversation quickly became about the spider verse. (Y/n) kept quiet.
While (Y/n)didn't necessarily feel excluded when it came to talks like this, they definitely made them feel out of place. These were spider-people!! They fight crime, bad guys, save the world, and (Y/n) was just.. there? They sort of just lingered, looking around and twiddling their thumbs. They aren't as important as these people, not by a long shot. Again, they were just..
Kinda there.
“(Y/n)?” Gwen spoke up, (Y/n) realizing they were being incredibly rude and tuning out the conversation with someone that havent seen for a year jesus christ could you be a little more polite??—
“Sorry?’ (Y/n) picks at their socks, looking in between Miles and Gwen. Miles seems to be just smitten, staring at Gwen with hearts in his eyes.
“Oh, me and Miles are gonna go for a swing so he can show me his ‘cool new moves’, wanna come?” Gwen asked, her hand on her cocked out hip and a friendly smile on her face.
(Y/n) wasent stupid, they werent going to fuck this up for Miles. It doesn't matter what their feelings are. They’d let him have his moment, it's his to experience. They wouldn’t just screw up his first time seeing the girl he's in love with, just because they could get a little jealous. They’re not that petty.
“I'll take a raincheck, I don't wanna weigh you guys down while you're swinging.” They stated simply, like it was the most obvious thing in the world. They honestly thought Gwen was just being nice. Asking them was a weird thing to do, they didn't have any web shooters or powers, they’d ruin their flow. Besides, they dont wanna cock block Miles.
“You sure? Me or Miles could just carry ya.” Gwen proposed, sitting down next to (Y/n) on the bed. They couldn't help that their hand went to their mouth, they really couldn't!! Picking their lips right up until they bled was always something they seemed to do in times of anxiousness.
They didn't even bother to see/think of what Miles' reaction to holding them would be. In a perfect world, he’d blush and stutter while looking away. But this wasn't perfect. They cuddled and hugged seemingly all the time, it was no issue for them. They’d assume Miles wouldn’t want to infront Gwen, though. The thought of him holding them close to his chest while the love of his life stood not 4 feet away seemed cruel to the both of them.
“I’m sure. Plus, I already told Mrs Morales that I'd help with decorating for Jeff's promotion party. Miles, don't forget the cake.”
In reality, the promotion party wasn't until 5 and it was currently 1, but who’s counting? Surely not them. They gave Miles a playful glare as they said that last bit. They knew he’d probably forget and they’d have to text him a gazillion times anyways, but they’re not complaining. Any chance to get to talk to him more, they thought.
“I won't, promise.” Miles said sweetly. His voice was just like honey, wasn't it? Smooth and pretty. Ok, stop being down bad, dumbass.
“Whatever you say, dork.” (Y/n) said playfully as Gwen got up from the bed, walking over to Miles and the window.
“See ya in a bit, loser.” Miles returns just as silly, both of the spider people falling out the window and swinging away.
….Well, this sucked.
Don’t get them wrong, they’re very happy that they got to see Gwen. She’s cool, pretty, funny and chill, she’s basically everything they looked for in a friend. She’s just.. she's Miles' type. Granted, (Y/n) didn't actually know what Miles' type was, but they figured it was Gwen considering Gwen's the first girl Miles seemed interested in since Kelly in the third grade.
No point in moping around though, not when there's a party to prepare.