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Tobio knew that he had messed up, he understood that he hurt them..
But did he really deserve to die..?
~*~
Tobio froze for a second before turning around to the sound of the ball hitting the ground. He saw no one, not a single person in sight before he turned to the back of the court and saw them all staring at him.
He immediately knew he messed up, he didn’t understand yet but the look from his soulmates made his heart know that he messed up. Tobio heard his coach call for him to come to the bench, he walked with a hast he hadn’t expected and sat down. After a few more minutes, the game continued as he sat there staring at the ground, trying to come to terms with what went wrong and why they were all looking at him so oddly.
‘Did I say something wrong? Did my face do something weird again?’ He thought as he tried to control the tears that threatened to fall, he just doesn’t understand what happened or what’s going on. ‘Its my fault though, I’m being punished for not saving Ojiisan, since I couldn’t save him I’m not allowed to have anyone else. That’s it, isn’t it?’
The soft sound of breathing began to become hitched and fast paced, if the coach or the other teammates on the bench noticed, they didn’t say anything.
Besides,
‘It’s Kageyama’s fault..’
~*~
After the match, Tobio was the first one out the area, he sped walked to the closest restroom, he roughly wiped his eyes with the sleeve of his team jacket, trying to understand what’s happening and why everyone is so angry.
As he was about to turn, he felt a hand on his shoulder and then being thrown against a wall. Tobio gasped softly and looked up from the ground, his eyes vibrating as he tried to focus on what’s in front of him. One of his elder soulmates, the one who disliked him, the one who believed he was too unworthy to be a soulmate to the four of them.
Oikawa Tooru. A name that used to make Tobio swoon, but all he felt now was fear when he saw the same look he saw on Kindaichi's and Kunimi’s faces, the hand on his shoulder tightening, making him wince softly.
Oikawa growled out, wanting to make his point clear, “You really had to mess up another group of people, didn’t you, Tobio-chan? This is disrespectful after EVERYTHING I had to lose and sacrifice so you could be perfect and fucking flawless.” The grip on Tobio’s shoulder tightened even more, making him tear up, all he felt was confusion, he still didn’t understand what had happened to gain such a reaction from so many people with cruel eyes.
When Oikawa notice the lack of focus in Tobio’s eyes, he growled out once again, being driven by anger as he moved his other hand to grip Tobio’s other shoulder, both hands gripping down hard as he pulled Tobio closer to just throw him back against the wall, a small, pathetic gasp leaving his mouth.
Oikawa wouldn’t stop though, “Is it really that hard for you to comprehend two fucking sentences?! You’re honestly pathetic, don’t embarrass yourself and try to go to Aoba Johsai, no one there wants or needs to see you!” Oikawa let go of the small, tearful boy before taking a step back and looking into his eyes, “I reject you, you’re a pathetic king who can’t even do the one thing he’s supposed to be good at.. And you know the others want to too, we’re all tired of you ruining everything..”
Tobio’s face fell to the ground before he was able to watch Oikawa leave, and once the boy was out of sight, he gasped painfully as he felt his bond break, his left wrist burning as the once beautifully colored picture of a carousel began to dull and dark, almost black, dark maroon began to cross out the soul mark that marked him as Oikawa’s.
Tobio cried silently, his lungs hurting more than before when he was crying although he couldn’t say why. He stood on weak legs before trying to walk out so he could go home but as he got closer to the door, he was stopped by two other of his soulmates, they stared at him with the same look as Oikawa’s and he squeezed his chest in acknowledgement of what is gonna come from the two boys.
It was surprisingly Kunimi who spoke first, the usually quiet and tired boy’s face scrunched in a way that can only be described as disgust, “King.. We’re done, both of us reject you as our soulmate. We don’t want to be soulmates with someone as controlling and selfish as you.” Kindaichi then took over, but Tobio couldn’t decide if that was better, “You’re pathetic.. I feel bad for whoever is stuck with you as a platonic soulmate, because if I were them, I’d cut off my right wrist immediately.” They then walked away, cluelessly of the damage they caused, having learned too little from their teachers over rejecting soulmates.
Tobio just stared forward, feeling dazed and as if there was something stuck in his throat, he tried to call out for them to come back but it came out as just a squeak. He whimpered softly before running out the door, not caring if he was supposed to get on the bus with the rest of his team, he couldn’t take the pain, his chest felt too tight, his vision blurred over as he tried to understand why this was happening, what he did wrong, why?
why..?
~*~
After a while of aimless walking, Tobio fell to the ground near a park, coughing violently, tears streamed down his as he couldn’t even get the sobs out from how much his throat burned and felt closed off. After a particularly violent cough, a small yellow hyacinth.
Tobio stared at it with fearful eyes, especially when the coughing didn’t stop, multiple yellow hyacinths falling from his mouth, all stained with blood, but then two new flowers appeared, yellow carnations and black dahlias. Tears fell from his eyes rapidly as he choked and sobbed with every flower that left his mouth.
He curled up on the ground as he began to vomit nothing but flowers and his own blood, as he took a look at the trees beside him, he finally realized what he did wrong, why this was happening to him.
‘I shouldn’t have ever said anything when I myself am flawed.’
Tobio used what he believes to be his last breath,
“..hel… …help..”
~*~
When Tobio felt his eyes barely open, his vision was still blurred, he looked up with what small vision he had and saw a figure with blonde hair, an angel? The figure sounded like an angel, but he knew it couldn’t be, he didn’t deserve that.
He opened his eyes completely and saw a girl with blonde hair staring at him, his eyes jerked towards her with fear and he jumped back, fearful and wondering what she wanted. ‘Who’s the girl? Why is she here? What happened?’ Not noticing the soft pink soul band that wrapped around his right wrist or the sting that came with it.
He then remembered what happened, the flower petals that clung to his chin being proof of what he went through, he began to wheeze softly as he tried to breath and call out to the strange girl, his throat ruined and scratched. Although the angel-like girl moving towards him and gently pats his back, helping the flowers that clogged his throat exit.
After the last flower left, he looked at the girl, his eyes softening, “Thank.. Thank you.. Who are you..?” he asked with slight fear in his tone, scared of the coming of ruin ‘It’s too late to worry about that.’ A small voice in his head told him.
“..My name is Yachi, I’m your platonic soulmate, at least I think so..” The angel, Yachi, said Tobio then turned to look at his right wrist, trying to push away Kindaichi’s words that tainted his memories. He looked back up at her and said, “I-I’m Kageyama, sorry if I worried you,” with embarrassment leaking through his voice.
When he looked up and saw Yachi’s face to be just as red as he believed him to be, he couldn’t help but giggle softly and so did she. The angel smiled softly before beginning to speak in her soft voice again, “You’re fine..! Are you feeling okay, I can call an ambulance if you need..!” Tobio then seems to remember why he’s in this position in the first place, “..I’m okay.. I was.. ..rejected is all…” He said with shame as he looked down at the ground and took a small glance at his left wrist where a carousel used to rest.
He then felt careful arms wrap around his body. After he got over his shock, he looked down at the blonde before wrapping his own arms around her as well. After a few minutes, she pulled back and looked up at him, “Well I’m here now..! I-I don’t even know you to know you didn’t deserve it..!” She said with such kindness that Tobio couldn’t understand why she was being so kind to such a cruel, unforgiving, disgusting, monster like him.
He still smiled softly at her before standing up on his weak legs and gently helping Yachi stand, she gasped and squeaked softly as she looked up at him and his towering height, but he couldn’t help but giggle softly before speaking again, “That’s.. kind of you to think.. I don’t know if it’s very true though.. Could you please help me to the hospital..?” Yachi nodded softly before gently helping lead him to a subway to head to the hospital. All Tobio could think of though is Kindaichi’s words, wondering if he’ll ruin this girl like he ruined his four soulmates.
~*~
After he was checked into the hospital with help of an explanation from Yachi, she was made to leave, Tobio waved to her as she left, a promise to inform her of what happens in the morning.
As the nurse checked over him, answering questions that he barely proceed, now that the angel is gone, all he could think about was his four soulmates, Oikawa, Iwaizumi, Kindaichi, and Kunimi, and how he ruined them, because it’s not like they did something wrong, they would never.
He.. He deserved this, he was a mistake, he should’ve been buried right beside his Ojiisan.
‘I’m sorry.’