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What if Hoolay won?
The fic starts as with Jiaoqiu as Hoolay's slave but around halfway through the focus changes to Mozeqiu.
Hard to summarise this one, its basically an excuse for me to whump Jiaoqiu for 60k words. Please check the tags ;o;I use random bits of luofu lore while completely ignoring or changing other bits. Especially borisin stuff I just did what I felt was hot.
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In which Courtney doesn't know why she can't just let herself love.
rated T for some weird twisted form of internalized homophobia and self hatred.
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- Part 7 of flufftober/whumptober 2025!
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This will be a collection of poems I've written. Some relating to some of the stories I've already written. Other just personal dabbles.
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suffer a fool (but do not suffer gladly) by intothewildblueyonder
Fandoms: Conclave (2024), Conclave - Robert Harris
07 Oct 2025
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"I do not think you have been eating enough." Vincent delivers this as if it is a simple fact, no judgement, but Thomas still burns. He feels like a child; he is a child. Under Vincent’s gaze his self-sacrifice is stripped of its purity, its nobility, down to the bare bones. Pathetic.
“I do not have much of an appetite, these days.”
“I cannot accept that.” Vincent’s voice is polite yet inflexible. “This papacy, as troubling as it may be to you, will last as long as God sees fit – and who can ever know His ways? Do not tell me you intend to go hungry all year.”
“And if I did?”
“Then I would feed you.” Vincent gestures to the tray. “With my own hands, if that was what it took.”
A thousand different emotions course through Thomas, shame, irritation, wonder, want – he shrinks away from this but it is there, undeniable and pulsing like the beat of his heart. He has only ever felt Vincent’s hand against his, or on his arm. What would it feel like against his lips? What would it feel like to take whatever Vincent wanted to give him?
(Chapter Four: In which wounds begin to heal, confessions are made, and a long-buried secret comes to light...)
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"Wherefore is it that thou frownest? Art thou having any inconvenience?" They regret speaking. The Spawn must be dissatisfied with them for engaging in a conversation with such a disgusting person.
"Oh, am I really that obvious?" He chuckles nervously, and somehow he seems to flip the coin faster. Two Time wonders if it's some sort of tic they have, or a simple coping mechanism. He scratches the back of his neck, seemingly uncomfortable with what was asked. "Sorry, I might just be a little under the weather"
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Or, Chance is sick, Two Time takes care of them, then Two Time gets sick too and Chance takes care of them.
Or or I love sickfics and wanted to write one myself.
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“Was it like… a flashback? To the fight?” Mira asked.
“The fight?” She asked, looking at Mira.
“The Idol Awards, fighting with Gwi-Ma, or you know. Any part of it.”
The implication laid heavy in the room, because of course Mira was talking about the three of them behind the stage. Divided. Scared.
“I don't know, maybe,” She shrugged, trying to shake the night from her head. It wasn’t that big of a deal, not enough to be having flashbacks, or panic attacks, or whatever.
It could have been the fight with Gwi-Ma, probably, definitely was.
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Huntr/x is determined to start their comeback tour on a positive note. The girls are healed, together, reunited. That is until Rumi begins to have flashbacks, leaving the team struggling to regain their footing with each other. -
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„Bitte, Albrecht. Dieses Mal möchte ich doch alles lesen, das du noch schreiben wirst. Wenn du auch bereit bist, dich selbst für diese glückliche Zukunft zu vergeben, dann … dann bin ich zu allem bereit. Auch den … auch den Justus noch einmal wiederzusehen.“
Eine Geschichte, in der Albrecht nach Friedrich sucht, Jaucher bekommt, was er verdient hat, und Siggi zum ersten Mal lacht.
[Please be mindful of the tags.]
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- Part 5 of NaPolA Before The Fall: 20th Anniversary
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block every path, bind every wrist by SpeedingCheetah
Fandoms: 天官赐福 - 墨香铜臭 | Tiān Guān Cì Fú - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
07 Oct 2025
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Xie Lian dug himself out of the grave, dirt grey around him and vile in his mouth. The sky broke open when the soil did. But, this time, he saw a red-draped ghost kneel above the ravine of nails, looking down at him with one singular eye, wider than the moon itself, or the grave that Xie Lian had been forced into roughly three months before. Ah. What a stranger.
(or: xie lian has been in many graves. he digs himself out of each one. but the most recent grave is broken into by a ghost in red—and xie lian knows him.)
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you and me, inseparable by Autumn_Lover
Fandoms: The Amazing Digital Circus (Web Series)
07 Oct 2025
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If it wasn't for the people that should hate him, Jax would be dead. Or homeless. And he tried so, so hard to get them to give up on him. They dragged him into their little found family and he was kicking and screaming the whole time, but by now, he's learned to just get on with life. They'll give up eventually, they have to.
or,
someone really needs to check on our purple buddy
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(ABANDONDED) Actions Speak Louder than Words by unreliablestoryteller
Fandoms: Percy Jackson and the Olympians - Rick Riordan, The Heroes of Olympus - Rick Riordan
07 Oct 2025
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Percy Jackson - aged 17, admitted 27/05/16 for 3rd suicide attempt, hasn’t spoken since arrival, won’t participate in much of anything, underweight, often tries to escape, needs constant watch, 4 instances in which he’s become violent, easily one of the worse patients in the ward, no background on family life. No recorded visits from either parent
Nico Di Angelo - aged 16, intern looking into psychiatry, was referenced by Mr. Bruner, Mr. Di Angelo, and Dr. Dyonisis. Started 30/05/17. Excellent with patients. Assigned Nurse: Dr. Annabeth Chase
Assigned Patient: Percy Jackson. -
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Basically a retelling of Chapter 1 book 1 of Piggy on Roblox; but, with my own added twist to it.
Player is trying to interview the Piggy Family - concerning their youngest child that had recently gone missing; But, things go south quick!
Promptober Day 7
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╔════▣°🌑✨ Kamurocho's Stray Monster ✨🌑°▣════╗ by HimetaSetsubou
Fandoms: 龍が如く | Ryuu ga Gotoku | Yakuza (Video Games)
07 Oct 2025
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Majima's learned to survive in Kamurocho's shadows, keeping his true nature buried deep. But with Saejima and Yasuko growing closer, the weight of his secret threatens to break him. If they knew what he really was, they’d run. And Majima can’t afford to be left behind again.
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- Part 2 of Between Fangs and Flesh - 牙と肉の狭間で
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Grand Failure by Anonymous
Fandoms: Mortal Kombat (Video Games 2023-), Mortal Kombat - All Media Types
07 Oct 2025
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After the whole dispute of over realms and timelines, everyone settles back into their lives. They had won, and that was that. There was no more to worry about for now.
Except a certain someone.
[AU Info in beginning notes, TLDR provided]
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Passerine (Tucked Beneath The Pines) by Vibin_Sponge0212
Fandoms: ジョジョの奇妙な冒険 | JoJo no Kimyou na Bouken | JoJo's Bizarre Adventure
07 Oct 2025
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“Please let me do right by him.” He whispered in the silent, empty room.
Bruno wondered if he was right for him. If he could reason that feeling of being out of his depth. Everything he wanted yet...He’ll be more like his father than his mother, right? It scared him more than he could make known. He felt helpless to a degree. A soul-crushing doubt.
Leone wondered if he was good enough. He never saw parenthood in the cards for him. Is he strong enough to have the patience needed? Having grown up with a cold father himself and a mother who turned a blind eye, he could understand that doubt clearly now.
There was a fear there. A wonder if they could do them right. If they were properly equipped for their abilities. The answers wouldn’t come easily. They knew. They would have to adapt.
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A third collection of Bruno and Leone being parents for each of their children and understanding of their supernatural ablities. +1 BruAbba moment of understanding each other.
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- Part 3 of Cold Is The Night
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Dean has been really pent up lately, not being able to drown himself in women as much as he used to. He gives in to a lingering fantasy that has haunted him for years, and now worries what he’ll do to his brother.
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Soap’s faith says it’s wrong. His heart says it’s Ghost. Caught between belief and longing, he tries to bury the truth under missions and prayers. But the man behind the mask has his own demons, and loving him might be the only salvation left for them both.
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Hermitcraft family au/oneshots by Ashes_Embers237, Eddie_Forgetti_Spaghetti
Fandoms: Hermitcraft SMP
07 Oct 2025
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The hermits are students at a boarding school for troubled students where they work through there trauma. (this was originally posted on my wattpad account-Ash)
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abuse
mental health issues
bad coping skills
schools
parental issues
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Something’s boiling up to the point we crash out and stop everything. There’s no time to function correctly, there’s no opportunity to be brave and confront what we have made.
Being surrounded by these emotions only makes me sick.
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A Dream of Days Gone By by plausiblephenomenon
Fandoms: Heathers (1988), Heathers: The Musical - Murphy & O'Keefe
06 Oct 2025
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Some time after the events of Heathers, Veronica's life is going as well as it can considering everything that led up to this point: she has an apartment, a job, and something passing for hobbies if you squint. Her mental health struggles, sure, but everything's settled into a comfortable enough routine until she gets a post card in the mail - an invitation from Heather McNamera to Westerburg High's 10 year high school reunion.
It's inevitable that she'll go, but what happens when she's confronted with faces she'd hoped would stay buried in her past? What will she do when she's confronted with faces she thought were long buried, six feet under?
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Trust is difficult to gain from dogs that have been abused. It’s a long and extensive process. Are hounds even capable of love? It was something Sandor Clegane never expected to find. It seemed as if the whole of Westeros, not just women alone, recoiled at the mere sight of him. He had his brother to thank for that. No one thought it possible for a gruff, scarred man like him to be capable of the feeling. He didn’t even think it was possible himself. So who would’ve guessed it when the Hound found trust within a Lannister of all people?