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“Taehyung, what do you want to talk to me about?” Jin is entering the storage room at the backstage of Melon music award, following Taehyung who quickly closes the door behind him and locks it.

“Taehyung-ah, are you playin-?” His words get cut off as Taehyung’s lip is now crushing into his lip, desperately. The kiss is messy and sloppy. Taehyung is invading Jin’s mouth harshly from every corner of his mouth, trying to gain access into his sinfully seductive lip. But Jin isn’t responding to the kiss, so Taehyung’s tongue couldn’t get inside and is staying and licking on the surface of his lip, all over the place. Jin clearly isn’t having any of these as he quickly broke off the kiss startling Taehyung who looks at him confusingly and disappointed.

“Hyung, I miss you. It’s been way too long” Taehyung whines at the disconnection between their lips and he pouted and is trying to kiss Jin again.

Taehyung clearly misses Jin a lot. They have been busy with all their tours and everything. They had just finished their Japan Tour and now they still need to prepare for all those yearly award shows and music shows that can’t seem to stop coming. With all days practices every weeks; of course, Taehyung couldn’t have had any alone time with Jin without having their members being around them.

No one in Bangtan knows about their secret relationship. Taehyung doesn’t seem to understand the point of hiding to their own members about it. He also doesn’t care what people would think or say if he is out to the public of the fact that he is dating or gay. What is so wrong about it. He loves Jin and he wants the world to know it. But sadly, there is nothing much he could do.

The only reason why he hides his relationship is because of Jin. He knows how much Jin wants it to be private and secretive. Well he understands that Jin doesn’t want to reveal it to the public because they would receive a lot of amount of backlash and hates but he doesn't see the reason why they can’t even let their own members or their close friends know about it. The only third party who knows about their relationship are proabably Yeontan and Odengie. Because all Jin and Taehyung do together is spending their time alone together in Jin’s room with their beloved pets.

Taehyung had talked to Jin about it. The older man told him the reason why they couldn’t let anybody know about it. Because when one person knows it, it would lead to another person, and then it will keep going around. And the next thing you know, everybody in the world will know about it. And Jin doesn’t want to his team to go down.

Taehyung tries to understand. But on some days, he just feels like the older man doesn’t love him at all or Jin must thinks that it was a mistake. Because after they are in a relationship, they have been so distant from each other. Jin has been too cautious about them to the point that sometimes people would see that Jin is ignoring Taehyung or that they have fought.

Taehyung lets out another big sigh after being rejected yet again by Jin. He tries to understand Jin. He tells himself all the time that maybe Jin is just not good at showing his feelings or just is very bad at relationship; after all it is the older man’s first relationship with a guy. But Taehyung is starting to have enough as well. 

“Taehyung-ah, we’re in public right now. People might come in and caught us, Taehyungie” Jin is trying to push Taehyung away as he feels the younger man’s big grip of hands, cupping his face pulling him into another kiss

“Hyung~ It’s fine. I locked the door, remember?” Taehyung grins as he proceeds to leave a peck on Jin’s lip lovingly, and softly biting the older man’s lip. Taehyung is startled as he suddenly felt a harsh grip on his hands pushing him away.

“Seokjin-hyung?” The pull is quite strong as it made Taehyung stumbled backward a little bit, hitting his back to the table behind him.

Jin really isn’t having any of these right now. To be honest, he is just so tired from all the long hours of practices all weeks that leave his body sore and weak. This morning, they needed to come to the rehearsal very early to rehearse and he didn't have his coffee which actually making him grumpy and sulky all day. And that has resulted in a poor performance during the rehearsal. He kept messing up his routine and making small mistakes that no one seemed to notice but only he, himself.

Jin is having a very bad day, and now he is worried sick about the fact that Taehyung is being difficult and that anybody could come up to them anytime and finds out that they are not having just a member-member relationship. Jin couldn’t risk having their achievements turns into ash; and their recognition turns completely ignored and forgotten. Especially after knowing how hard each of them have been working towards their dream and goals. They are at the sky right now, and very very high. He won’t let them fall back down. He wouldn’t hurt all of them just because of his naïve and uncontrollable feelings.

Sometimes, he thinks to himself that Taehyung might be better off with someone else; or maybe not with someone like him at all. Jin is not romantic; he is playful, childish, and whiny. Someone who has a mentality of a kid. He doesn’t hate that about himself. But he thought Taehyung deserves someone who could give him the loves and at attention that he wants and deserves. Someone that knows what they’re doing and loving him right. The biggest blow in their relationship is that Jin knows that he couldn’t even make Taehyung happy and he feels very reluctant all the time between them.

But he loves Taehyung dearly. He really does. He adores the younger man’s caring and selfless nature. How he loves and care for Jin. And how he has fought and stood up for Jin.

That is why he curses himself every day at how selfish he is for not letting Taehyung go.

Jin knows that if the news gets out; people would only point finger at him the most and not Taehyung. He is the older guy. So people would expect him to be the mature one. And that he should know well enough to not do something like that to his members, or to his band and especially to the public.

Plus, everything is completely new to Jin. He has never been with a guy before. He had never kissed a guy before until Taehyung. He has learned a lot of things from Taehyung about his new sexuality. So he is trying his best to not freak out every times he gets this weird aroused feelings whenever Taehyung is kissing him or making a small contact with him.

There was one time when they were in a waiting room. A day after they had sex. And Jin felt something in his stomach and in his dick, just because Taehyung was leaning over him, slightly brushing his arm as the younger man is trying to look at the video that Jin was watching on his phone. After that day that they had sex, Taehyung has made Jin feel so sensitive and vulnerable every times they were making contact or just from the thought of that night that their body became one. It got better though but sometimes Jin afraid that he would let it slip out and everybody would know and things will turn ugly. 

“Taehyung, stop! I don’t feel comfortable doing this right now!” Jin sees the hurtful look on Taehyung’s face. He feels regrets crawling to his face as soon he spitted those thoughtless words out of his stupid mouth. Jin doesn’t think he could ever forget this distressing and broken look that has appeared on Taehyung’s beautiful face.

“You don’t want this! You don’t want that! Do you even want us at all?!” Taehyung is very frustrated and desperate. He is so desperate for this foolish love of them to work out.

“What?! What do you mean..? Yes! I want US! Taehyung ah please..” Jin is panic as he quickly reaches out to grab the younger man’s hand. He suddenly feels scared at what’s about to happen between them. He doesn’t mean any of that bullshit act he has been doing to Taehyung. He wants to hug Taehyung. He wants to brush the younger man’s hair and smiles at him without having to control his facial expression. He wants to run to Taehyung every time he shoots this boxy grins of his to Jin and to kiss him senseless. He wants to cuddle and sleep in together without having to sneak out every night like they have committed a crime.

He knows they are wrong but….. but it is how they feel towards each other. But again, if somebody ever has to find out then it would mean the end for them and he can’t have that. But at the same time, he wants Taehyung! He wants Taehyung desperately in his life. He cannot let him go yet.

He is full with loves and admiration for Taehyung but his coward self isn’t brave enough to let it show. And that is how it damages and destroys their relationship and slowly withering whatever they have between them.

If people knows about Jin, they would know that he is struggling badly about this stupid dilemma that he is force to choose. 

“Hyung! If you’re regretting any of these, then we can just call it quit. It’s getting tiring, really” Taehyung ruffles the back of his hair; face is frowning with annoyance shown clearly on his face.

“Taehyung-ah, I’m…” Jin couldn’t get any of his words out as he is trying to fight back the tears that are almost dripping down his flushed chubby cheeks

“It’s fine hyung. I think it could be good for us. It might be good for us this way. We can’t even be normal anymore! After we started this so-called relationship, I can’t even hug you or touch you like before.” Taehyung words cut deep into Jin. But he knows that it is also hurting Taehyung badly as well.

“So Let’s just stop all of these, Hyung.” Taehyung looks at Jin calmly. Jin knows this look. Taehyung is being serious at all of these. Taehyung has really decided to call it quit between them.

“I….I-“

Jin couldn’t finish his sentence as they were suddenly interrupted by the vibrating from Taehyung’s phone.

Taehyung looks at his phone and sees that their manager is calling. Taehyung hung out on their manager and he rolls his eyes as he continues

“You are right, Hyung. People is everywhere, up in our asses even though we were just gone for a while. It was my mistake to force you into this relationship and dragged you into any of this bullshit. Everything is stupid and a mistake. So let’s just… call it quit.”

“We’ll be okay though… Just don’t worry too much about it..” Jin sees that Taehyung is hesitating to break up with him. Jin knows that Taehyung is also soft to break everything between them apart like this. Jin knows that Taehyung still love him and he wouldn’t do something like-

“Hyung”

“Let’s not let our break up affect our mood. After all, we don’t want anybody to find out that we used to date each other anyways.” Jin doesn’t see the hurtful and mocking expression on Taehyung’s face as he was saying those words.

“Let’s go, Hyung”

Taehyung’s opening the door in front of them and left the room. The door in front of Jin’s slowly closing shut as Taehyung is no longer at his sight and he feels his tears’ strolling down his cheeks.

Today just couldn’t get any better.

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One week has passed and Jin couldn’t help but feels his inside is about to burst out at any moment.

Taehyung really means it when he said to them about being normal.

Taehyung is back to being normal with Jin. He talks to him normally. Smiles at him normally. From time to time, he would have their little contact together. But that is just it.

Jin knows that no matter how Taehyung is trying to act normal; he knows that the latter is avoiding him. Especially avoiding all the small usual contact between them. Jin suddenly misses all those affectionate touches and the intimacy from Taehyung. He misses how Taehyung head would always find his shoulder and snuggle up to him. Misses the surprised back hug from Taehyung that Jin would always whine about it but secretly loves it. He misses Taehyung. And he misses what they had before both of them ruined it. Mostly, Seokjin’s own fault.

But he knows that they still have feelings for each other. At least that’s what he believe.

Jin could blame no one but himself. After all, it was him who got too delusional and cautious about every steps and actions him and Taehyung were doing all those time back then. Jin tells himself that it is okay and that he and Taehyung could go back to the way they used to be, in the future.

It just takes some time for both of them. 

But one thing that Jin couldn’t handle and keep it to himself is how extra touchy and affections Taehyung has grown towards other members. Jin can’t help it but feels jealous towards his own team.

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Jin learned it the hard way how jealous and possessive he gets when he knows that Taehyung is no longer committing to him. He knows that Taehyung is still in love with him but he can’t help but feels so restless and insecure when he saw the way Taehyung was giggling with Jungkook and back hugging him which caught the youngest by surprised, just like how he used to do it to Jin. He hates the way Taehyung came home most nights buying his members’ random gifts because he said that he remembered Jimin mentioned he wanted the snow globe or Jhope wanted that stupid frog plush. He hates how Taehyung remembers every members’ details or what they have said but he never seems to say anything about Jin or acknowledge his existence at all.

Jin thinks he is going crazy.

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It happened one time at their luxury dorm during their break. Some members were in the studio composing and practicing. While some other members like him and the maknae line was staying behind and just resting and chilling before recording their vocal.

***

Jin feels bored in his bed as he is scrolling through his twitter feeds when he receives a notification of Jimin V-Live. He watches it and laughs at how cute Jimin is until he saw Jimin in the screen opening his door to none other than Taehyung with Yeontan in his hand.

Jin feels sweat cold running on his forehead and the heaviness inside his chest as he is watching the two interacting and laughing fondly at each other.

“Taehyung, Yeontan is your dog. You should know what food he can eat or cannot eat” Jimin is giggling in his angelic voice as usual with his beautiful gentle smile on his face. His eyes are soft and Jin is so scared that Taehyung would be drawn to Jimin instead of him and Jin doesn’t want that. Jin smacks himself for feeling so selfish

“It’s okay. I feed him this before” Jimin continues as his hands proceeds to feed Yeontan something but he is suddenly stopped by Taehyung. The sight of them would be very hot for their fans while for Jin, it makes his heart clenches and a pang in his chest as he saw the intimate sight in front of him. He can know exactly what is happening. The two look at each other for a while until Jimin breaks it off; trying to laugh and erase away their awkwardness.

“Jimin, don’t” Taehyung’s voice is very low as usual. The tone isn’t scary or anything but it is somehow….. it reminds Jin of their first night together, when Taehyung was making love to Jin for the first time. He remembers that tone. The manly demanding tone that made Jin shudder and his knee went weak underneath Taehyung at that time.

Without a second thought; not knowing exactly what he is doing, Jin has already dashed out of the door, leaving his room.

He knocks on Jimin’s door softly but enough to make sure the people inside could hear it. He tried so hard to not pounding on the door or finding the key to just break it in instead.

Jimin goes to open the door for Jin while Taehyung and Yeontan are still playing in front of the camera.

“Jiminnie, can you please tell Taehyung to come out for a second? I need his help finding my One Piece collection”

It was a bad excuse. Jin knew it. And he bet Jimin knew it too. But he has always liked the younger man how he is quick to understand the situation and not questioning him further.

“Taehyung-ah, Jin-hyung said he couldn’t find his one piece collection. You should go out and help him find it” Jimin stares at Jin for a moment before shouting to tell Taehyung who are in the room

“I didn’t take it”

Jin who are not in the camera sight, standing alone helplessly in front of Jimin’s door. He felt his face burning red from the rejection. He screams out

“Tae! Come here, you brat. Come out now! You came to my room last time and just took it away. Of course, you took it, you stupid! Come out! NOW!” Jin is trying to make it sound like he was joking and ranting off in a funny way as usual. But both of them know that Jin is very very desperate right now and humiliated by it.

Taehyung rolls his eyes not caring whether the camera would catch it or not. He gets up and says good bye to the camera, leaving Yeontan with Jimin.

They arrive at Jin’s room that is located at the last corner of their house.

Jin is relieved that Yoongi wasn’t in his room today. He closes the door and turns to Taehyung who had just rolls his eyes on him. Again. He swallows the pride and decides to ignore it.

“Taehyung… What are you doing?” Jin looks into Taehyung deepy hoping that it could bring all the loves and dying feelings from Taehyung to come back alive.

“Hah? What do you mean? You’re dragging me here, what are YOU doing hyung?” Taehyung with his typical puzzled look staring back at him annoyingly.

“Stop with the act, Tae” Jin shoots back at Taehyung in his hyung-voice. Jin continues “Stop flirting with everyone! Especially with Jimin”

“What?! Hyung! Wow you are unbelievable, really!!” Taehyung scoffs at Jin. Jin sees the look at Taehyung’s face, frustrated and speechless. Why did he make that face? Is he wrong about everything?

“But anyways, what is wrong with me flirting with other members?” Taehyung glares at Jin mockinly

“Tae, stop. You don’t mean that.”

“I don’t mean what hyung? What? You feel jealous now? You miss me now? Don’t tell me you’re so horny that you need something to pound into that hole of yours. Because we both know how desperate you were after we first fucked that night, Hyung. Or How much you love it.” Taehyung will regret it later on for sure but his mind is already on fire as he continues to mock Jin

“Ah I can see what you are now. You try so hard to not let your gay side shown on the outside but actually your mind is an actual big slut isn’t it?”

Jin breathes in a big amount of air, taking in and swallowing everything and chanting to himself pride is a stupid thing pride is a stupid thing.

“Taehyung. I’m going to pretend you just didn’t just say that. I’m going to forget about it because I know you don’t mean it.”Jin replies back after he has calmed himself and making himself believe that Taehyung actually didn’t just mean what he just said.

Taehyung after hearing what Jin was saying, feels the angers inside him boiling even stronger.How could Jin decides this and that for him. And why is Jin always choose to ignore his own feelings?

“Bullshit, Hyung! What’s about you then? Is there anything at all about you that you don’t mean it? You act like we are nothing when I was crazy and so desperate for you! And now that I am gone, you come running back and tell me to stop flirting with people!? What do you want?! Make your goddamn mind for god sake!”

“Stop flirting with Jimin! Period. You don’t mean that! I know! And I don’t want you to hurt Jimin” Jin’s voice is firm trying to fight back to the furious Taehyung

“Tsk. How do you even know I don’t mean it?”

“I mean, who knows right?”

Jin gathers everything that is left in his body voicing back to Taehyung; his voice slightly cracks no matter how much he tries

“Yes! Taehyung! I saw how you look at him! I heard the tones and saw the faces you are making with him! I remember that face! Because it was once used to be on me. Only for me. So stop doing that to other people. Stop pretending that! Stop giving him that look because you don’t mean that! Pleasee Taehyung”  Jin’s voice is firm in the beginning but later on, you can hear the trembling and cracking in his tone. He reaches his hand to grab Taehyung’s hand; hard, not willing to let it go.

“Hyung! You stop!” Taehyung brushes away Jin’s hand that is grabbing his, away.

“I think you are wrong. Because maybe I wasn’t pretending at all about any of these with Jimin.”

Jin tries to breathe in for the hundred time; trying so hard to breathe and not fainting from all these desperation and disastrous feelings inside him.

“Maybe I am actually in love with him”

Taehyung then leaves Jin high and dry yet again, for the second time. Except this time, Jin has felt every word from Taehyung runs deep into his soul, cutting and piercing every part of his body. Jin has felt the real heartbreak today. It feels like the end of the world. No amount of pain has ever felt so agonizing or concentrated. It's like a giant hole was crushed into his chest, with no hope of repair.

***

Taehyung is very mad at the situation. Why can’t Jin admit his own feelings? Why did he come and accused him that he had a feeling for his friend?

But at the same time, Taehyung also regretts a lot of things as well. First of all, it was an asshole move of him to lie to Jin that he is in love with Jimin. Also… he doesn’t even want to think about it.He couldn’t forget the look on Seokjin’s face when he tried to fight his tears as soon as the words slut slipped out from Taehyung’s mouth.

Taehyung now is frustrated at how he allowed himself to disrespect and belittled Jin like that. He still loves Jin. He has never once stopped having his feelings for the older man. But it was too hard being just a normal dongsaeng to Jin. But that still didn’t justify the fact that he had hurt Jin tremendously. 

Taehyung was contemplating whether he should go to Jin’s room and apologize or not. Because maybe the latter didn’t want to see his face right now.

His thoughts are interrupted by a knock on his door.

“Hyungie, what do you want dinner? We take out today”

Taehyung looks at the clock and it is already 8pm.

“Jungkook, Jin-hyung doesn’t cook tonight?”

“Oh. Jin-hyung won’t be at dorm today. I think he said he is going to his parents. It was weird, though. He already bought all the grocery saying he is cooking us special meal tonight. But now he just gone.” Jungkook is pouting and whining; being the youngest brat he always is.

“So, Hyung? What do you want for dinner?”

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It’s been three nights and Jin is nowhere at their dorm. Taehyung has tried calling him but of course, Jin is not going to pick up a call from someone like him. So he had gone to Namjoon hopfully he could get anything at all.

“Hyung! Where is Jin-hyung? He hasn’t been home for a while now”

Namjoon looks up to see Taehyung is entering his studio

“Taehyungie, I thought you know. Seokjin-hyung will be at his home for a while. He will be missing a few practices as well”

“Did he mention why?”

“He said he has not been feeling well”

“Is he okay? That is weird. We could have taken him to the doctor and he could stay here with so that we could take care of him, we would-”

“Taehyung! Calm down” Namjoon with his shocked expression wide eyes and o shaped mouth.

“He said he is feeling better today. I just talked to him. Don’t worry, he’ll be back soon”

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Taehyung left Namjoon’s studio, making his way back to the dorm. He is right. Jin is avoiding him. He doesn’t pick up when he called, but he picked up Namjoon’s call.

He felt stupid and heartbroken. He doesn’t mean for things to turn out that way. It was never his intention to hurt Jin that way. He was just not in his right mind at that time, he-

Taehyung realizes that he is crying as he feels his cheeks are getting wet and warm liquid streaming down his face.

He is sorry. He is devastated. He is devastated at how he has been treating Jin. He wants to see Jin, to pull him into a hug. Kisses his cheeks and comforts him when he is feeling down from all the haters and people that always find flaws in him or not appreciating him enough.

He wants to be there for Jin when the older isn’t strong enough to fight for what he deserves. He wants to be there for Jin when his heart is not strong enough to handle criticisms that are thrown at him. He wants to be there by Jin’s side, embracing him warmly but tightly, whispering to him how precious he is and that things will be okay when he stays alone at night crying himself to sleep because some days things are just too much sometimes. He wants to tell Jin that he would never ever letting Jin go, no matter what……-

Taehyung cries himself even harder as he realizes that he is now has become one of the cause that has made Jin cry himself to sleep.

***

Taehyung arrives at their shared dorm alone; he opens the door to Jin’s room and finds it empty, just like his feelings right now at this moment, completely empty and nothing there at all.

Back to his room, he has cried himself to sleep after leaving multiples missed calls and message to Jin. Around 2AM, he wakes up to commotion outside his room. He doesn’t know what is happening but he hears a lot of noises coming from, probably Yoongi and Namjoon talking quietly outside.

Taehyung exits his room as he spots 2 familiar figures which really are belonged to be Namjoon and Yoongi. But his eyes shoots open, his heart starts beating rapidly as he has spotted a tall, broad-shoulder man hanging around Namjoon’s side blabbing about something he couldn’t make out.

Taehyung dashes towards three of them and and pulling all three attentions to him.

“Hyung! What happens to you?” Taehyung looks at Jin whose body is reeks with alcohol. He then looks at Namjoon and Yoongi for answer.

“Hyung is drunk. We got a call from Jaehwan-hyung. Apparently, they were at their usual hangout place but later they went to the club. Jin insisted they went dancing. And he- Yah! Taehyung what are you doing? Where are you going?!”

Namjoon is shouting at Taehyung is taking Jin away and dragging him into his room.

Yoongi seems to have a little idea of what exactly is happening between those two as he shushes Namjoon telling him to just let Taehyung go.

Taehyung drops Jin on his bed gently; removing his shoes and changing him into more comfortable clothes.

“Taehyungie? Hey, Taehyungie…. Long time no talk, huh?” Jin is drunk. He smells nothing but alcohol. If it was other members, Taehyung wouldn’t go anywhere near them. He hates drinking and doesn’t see why one would drink until they are drunk and has no control over themselves like this.

But Jin isn’t just any person.

“Hyung. Let me help you get this shirt off you. We’ll change into something more comfortable that that stupid sleeveless shirt of yours.” Taehyung is already bombarded with a lot of questions inside his head when he first spotted Jin in those revealing clothes. Jin doesn’t wear this kind of clothes. When he does, it means Jin wants to oppose or go against Taehyung; or just simply wanting to make his blood boils.

Taehyung could feel the heat rising and his anger crawls into his face as he sees a few hickeys on Jin’s neck.

“Hyung. Tell me what did you do in there?”

Jin chuckles. “Taehyung-ah, what do you care?”

“Seokjin-Hyung” Taehyung’s tone is serious and commanding. He is so calm right now; too calm considering what Jin might had done in the club.

“Seokjin-Hyung. Tell me.”

Jin whines at Taehyung. “Yah, Kim Taehyung. Who are you to command me like this? I’m still your hyung, you disrespectful brat” Jin’s voice is cracking at the end a little bit, you almost couldn’t catch it; but Taehyung sure does.

“Hyung? Did you kiss someone?”

“I think we did more than just a little kissing-”

“Who is he? I know where you went. Tell me his name”

“You can’t command me to do anything! I will do whatever I want; Kiss whoever I want, and touch whoever I want to touch”

Taehyung is checking over Jin’s body; looking at everywhere that has traces or marks on the older’s smooth delicate skin. His heart aches for the thought of somebody else touching his hyung. He isn’t mad at Jin anymore. He is mad at himself for allowing it to happens.

“Well Taehyungie, if you really insist it. I will tell you. Remember the guy who confessed to me? Kang Daniel? Yes Taehyungie, we kissed. I just happened to see him in the club as well. So I just walked up to him and the next thing was we were some at corner of the club, making out. I kissed him first Taehyungie! Are you going to call me a slut again, my dear dongsaeng?” Jin is chuckling but if you look closer, you would see that he is at the brink of crying. Taehyung doesn’t have to look closely; he could just tell by the crack sound in Jin’s voice. Taehyung’s thought is soon confirmed.

“Taehyung, do you really think that I am a slut?” Jin is turning into a crying sob

“I was just trying to control myself, Taehyung. I didn’t understand why am I feelings a lot of things when it comes to you? Both physically and emotionally. It hurts, Taehyung. It does”

It is painful to see Jin like that. He could see Seokjin’s tiny fist clenched together; could hear his internal screaming and crying, swallowing his every pride he has hold onto.

Jin continues

“Okay! I admit it that it is my fault that I was neglecting you and ignoring you. But that gives you no right to-”

Jin suddenly feels a soft and warm skin kissing his lip. Taehyung kisses him slowly and softly, and full of loves. It isn’t aggressive or forceful. Jin’s eyes are half closed as he allows the access to Taehyung. He nudges his nose against him and their mouth fall sleepily together, soft and open. Everything goes completely silence and quiet, only the sound of shallow breathing fills him with longings. Taehyung’s breathing is slow and his gaze jerks up “Seokjin-hyung, stop talking and kiss me back. Please, hyung”

Jin could not hold the pain and the aches of his heart any longer as he let out his great sob and fall into Taehyung’s arm. His eyes are wet with tears and he wipes his cheeks every few seconds. He mumbles incoherent things through his hands and chokes on his sobs “Taehyungie…. I’m so sorry.. I didn’t mean- I didn’t mean to do a lot of things…. But I did anyways… I am so sor-”

“Hyung. Please. It is okay. We have done nothing but hurting each other. Let’s move on from there and try to love each other right Hyung? I am very sorry for what I have done to you either. You don’t deserve that, Hyung” Taehyung cups Jin’s face, feeling the wet tears soaking his hands. He wipes Jin’s tears away and kiss him on the lip

“Hyung, I have never once stopped loving you.”

“I don’t think I ever can”

“Loving you is like breathing. I do it everyday, every times; without realizing, without thinking and without really knowing how to stop. What I have for 6 years with you is too strong to break me apart from you. The love I feel for you, the love you have for me; they are unconditional, unexplainable and indescribable.”

“I know that sometimes it can be scary but I want you to know that we will always have each other in this relationship; me and you together, fighting for this love. You need to remember that it is not you who against the world, Hyung. It’s us against the world; whether you’ll like it or not. You stuck with me” Taehyung’s hands are always warmth. They are in perfect size cupping Seokjin’s face pulling him forward, foreheads touching each other.

“I love you so much, tateae” Jin is feeling the immense loves and cares from Taehyung. He gazes up to Taehyung looking back at him. It is just like a magnetic or an automatic reaction as they both are leaning closer for a kiss.

Jin thinks he want to kiss Taehyung forever.

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Jin broke out a moan as he closed her eyes, feeling the younger’s lips on the back of his neck, feeling his fingers tracing the length of his spine; caressing his delicate skin. Taehyung laid Jin on the bed and slowly was crawling on top of him. Taehyung started leaving butterfly kisses everywhere on Jin’s face – his forehead, his nose, his cheeks and down to his chins. He made his way down into Seokjin’s neck, kissing and sucking his flesh skin which turns into a purple mark on top of the already bruised skin.

While sucking his skin, Taehyung’s hand traced down to play with his sensitive nipples which received a pleasure moans from his Hyung. After marking almost everywhere around Jin’s neck, he made his way down sucking the pointy harden nipples. He licked it one trace, then opened his mouth to bite over it, sucking it hard and twirling his tongue around it a few more times. Jin’s moans were getting louder and louder. His body was reacting so much that he started rutting against Taehyung’s bugle on top of him.

“Taetae…..” Jin moaned Taehyung’s name like a melody only he knew how to play. Taehyung came up and nudged Jin into another yet passionate kiss before slowly taking both of their boxers off.

Jin quickly opened his legs and parted it widely as he was waiting for Taehyung who got up to get the lubes. Taehyung chuckled at the sight of his needy Hyung.

“Hyung… you are so cute like this…” Taehyung totally ignored Jin’s bottom part intentionally; he made his way and kiss Seokjin’s face again, taking his time.

“Taehyungie… please” Seokjin gently nudging Taehyung down, signaled him to take care of him down there and that he needed it right now. Enough with the foreplay.

Taehyung bit his lip one last time before making his way down to prepare Jin.

Jin hasn’t had sex for a while so Taehyung took some times in preparing him carefully. Three fingers were inside with his warm hole with a lot of lubes; scissoring him and opening him up slowly. Jin’s back was arching, head was throwing in the air with slightly parted lip. Taehyung knew that Jin was enjoying the pleasure right now.

So he started to increase his pace with his fingers and watched Seokjin’s breathing became hotter and heavier. Now Jin was a moaning mess, screaming and moaning his name as Taehyung was finger-fucking him. The sight of his hyung getting wrecked just by his fingers made his dick twitch and with the soft moaning sounds from Jin; Taehyung had never been this hard. He slowly removed his fingers and coated his cock with lube before thrusting into Jin slowly and deeply.

Taehyung fucked Jin slowly filling with loves. And then increased his pace accordingly.

Taehyung can fuck Jin very very slow but at the same time, he would also accelerate into Jin in a full speed; fucking him senselessly making their headboard, their mattress moving and making annoying creaking sound and as for Jin, when Taehyung was fucking him like that, he definitely lost it. He would feel over-stimulation and Taehyung would watch how the older man’s body was shaking and trembling; his hands doesn’t know where to rest or hold so he just let out his screaming and moaning that seemed to be the only way Jin could release his tension with.

“Hmm… hyung…..” Taehyung moaned as he felt himself getting closer

“Taetae…. Hyung is gonna cum…”

Taehyung kept thrusting into Jin who was underneath him. He kissed Jin everywhere on his face as if to sooth the rough and deep thrust he was doing. Jin knew when Taehyung is really close as he could feel the younger man’s speeding it up and rutting into him in god speed, his head fell back; eyes screwing shut. It was also such a sight for Jin.

“ahhhhhhh~ fuck!”

Jin felt a warm cum dripping down from his hole when Taehyung pulled out.

“Hyung…..” Taehyung falls back besides Jin who was still sensitive from his own orgasm. His breathing and his whole body is a shaking mess. Taehyung saw that and pulled the older guy closer and embraced him, hands patting his head and kiss his cheeks.

“Is it good, Hyung?” Taehyung asked whispering into Jin’s cute ear that he always likes to play with.

“It is” Jin left out a tiring chuckles. His eyes still closed shut.

“That’s good, Hyungie” Taehyung had a big grin on his face, hugging Jin tighter

“Taetae…..” Jin voice was so soft Taehyung could barely hear it

“Hmm hyung?”

“do you want to go another round?”

Taehyung lifted Jin’s chin up to look at him. They both staring at each other but with Taehyung who had a big and surprised face on him; it was almost funny-looking.

Jin was feeling shy as he shifted his face and gaze away from him, playing with his own fingers.

Taehyung turned Seokjin’s face towards his and staring deeply into the older man, again. He couldn't believe how cuter his hyung could get.

His hands who were playing with Seokjin’s arms made its way to his face; tracing and caressing the older man’s face and jawline softly.

His voice is low and husky as he leaned closer to Jin. Staring eyes to eyes; their nose is touching and Jin could feel Taehyung’s hot breath as the latter spoke

“Hyung, I think we could do this all days and nights if you want to.”

Taehyung was giving Jin the brightest and sexist smile he had ever seen before from the younger.

Taehyung pulled him into another heated, and passionate kiss. And Jin leaned forwards and smiled into the kiss.