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Summary:

Jason lifts a hand and waves goodbye. Even from this distance, Nico’s heart skips a beat—because he knows Jason is smiling from afar.

“I can’t believe you like him,” Percy mutters—evidently following Nico’s line of sight.

“Shut up, Percy,” Nico replies. But—

“You’re not saying no,” his big brother protests, because he’s really not.

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Nico di Angelo, son of Juno, may have a small crush on Jason Grace, son of Hades. And he is absolutely, never letting Jason know.

Notes:

Hi all!! As of tonight, it's still an hour and a half before Valentine's Day -- otherwise known as the day to celebrate Jason and Nico's least favorite god across all universes! Perfect time to post this, right? I'm so excited to finally share Dearly Departed's sequel with all of you! My personal life is busy, so I can't promise a rigid update schedule, but I hope I can make you fall in love with this story as much as you did with the first one! And if you want to skip all the build up and just read about two godswap boys, then this au is still for you! So please, enjoy this gift, and thank you for all of the love you've given me in 2020! Here's to MORE JASICO in 2021!!

Please note -- there are a few details that were changed between this story and over the rainbow, either for continuity or spoiler's sake! So some timeline things may not add up (or you may not notice!) but the timeline of over the rainbow is meant to be a little vaguer as applied to the Dearly Departed universe!

(See the end of the work for more notes.)

Chapter 1: officiant

Chapter Text

Summers in New Rome are actually cooler than Venice. Year-round, the weather fluctuates on a ten-degree scale that messes with Nico no matter the month or day. He likens his sensitivity to the weather to his father, which is normally combatted with a rightful catnap under the Jupiter Optimus Maximus—the Gaudiest and Most Obnoxious—until Percy or someone else from the Fifth Cohort fetches him so they can fulfill camp duties.

 

This summer’s a little different. Percy has gone home every summer that Nico’s known him, but now he has Camp Halfblood to default to. The Coliseum has been quiet for months since the war with Gaea—since Thalia decided to go on a road trip with her little brother instead of holding screamo concerts. Nico has Reyna all to himself.

 

There’s far less property damage. Reyna and he can get through all of the paperwork without forgery or listening to Percy and Thalia arguing over what color a water fountain should be in the barracks. Nico can technically do what he wants as praetor—but that’s also how nothing ever really got done before Thalia stepped down.

 

They have a little routine. Nico wakes up, knocks on the bathroom door until he’s annoyed Bianca into finish up, and they meet Reyna outside of the neighboring praetorhouse. Nico sips on his morning coffee—Thalia’s favorite nuclear bomb on the days he misses her the most—while listening to Bianca and Reyna work their way around appropriate topics. Usually, they settle on hunting. Nico’s banned himself as a topic of interest.

 

(He’s going to have to reiterate this when Percy comes back.)

 

It’s all mundane, like the end of the last war.

 

And—much better than traipsing across the world in a set of Bermuda shorts while dragging a twenty-foot-tall statue behind him. For the most part.

 

It gets a little less mundane, the closer they get to the end of June.

 

On a Saturday of all days, Nico’s forced to wake up to the sound of vacuum cleaner rather than the hot gossip of birds outside his bedroom window. Just a loud VROOOOOOM and the clatter of the cord as it flops about the wooden floor. It’s so loud that Nico’s inclined to believe that the vacuum cleaner is older than they are, and smoke and dust billows at the crack beneath his door.

 

There’s a loud rattle—then a swear—as Bianca evidently kicks the vacuum cleaner. “Confounded…stupid…

 

VROOOOOOOOOM

 

Then the century old vacuum cleaner cyclones yet again, leaving Nico with a sleepless morning. He peels himself unwillingly out of bed, pulls his bedroom door open—“BIANCA—!”

 

—and finds his sister happily vacuuming in the hallway, headphones lodged well into her ears as she floats across the hall. The vacuum continues to holler like an old man in a coughing fit, dust and smoke wafting into the air as it pretends to clean their already tidy household. Bianca flounces, head dutifully in the sky like it normally is.

 

Nico dutifully yanks the cord out of the outlet before he has to hear any more of Bianca’s ugly rendition of Hilary Duff.

 

“What—hey!” Bianca turns around, her demeanor twisting in offense. “Nico, I’m cleaning!”

 

“You’re making a mess,” Nico chides. He gestures to the crumpled rug behind him, lips contorted into a tired frown. “It’s Saturday. Can’t you do this later?”

 

They’ve argued over less. Cleaning isn’t usually one of those issues—but Bianca stares at her brother now, confused. “Why would I do this later?”

 

“Because I’m trying to sleep.”

 

“But Thalia and Jace are coming home today,” Bianca protests. She hops over the vacuum cleaner—and engages, still puzzled. “Aren’t you excited?”

 

“I can be excited and sleep at the same time,” Nico retorts—and he rubs the sleep out of his own eyes. Bianca, on the other hand, is already dressed for the day at whatever ungodly hour it is. “They’re not coming until this afternoon. Plus, they need to unpack—”

 

“And they probably won’t go grocery shopping yet,” Bianca reasons. She gestures to their overall home. “Ergo, we could a dinner here. I just need to clean—”

 

“The only mess in this house is your room,” Nico retorts. “Why don’t you focus on that disaster before bringing it out to the rest of the house?”

 

Bianca makes a sound, her cheeks flushing pink. “It’s not my fault this place is a mess!”

 

Nico sighs with exasperation and gesticulates wildly. “I cleaned yesterday.”

 

“Badly,” she retorts.

 

Excuse you—”

 

For as tiring as this part of their morning routine is, Bianca decides to punctuate their argument by snatching the plug. She pouts at her brother, looking seven rather than the sixteen that they celebrated two months ago, and a ribbon of electricity courses through her wrist to the tip of the metal prongs.

 

The vacuum comes to life, spewing a dust cloud from its brushes as retched and pitiful as Jupiter trying to speak over his siblings.

 

“Bianca,” Nico warns. “That vacuum’s older than the Trojan War.”

 

“Sorry,” she says—loudly, with her music running in her ears. “I can’t hear you over my mess.

 

“Stop being a brat!” Nico snaps grumpily.

 

I’m being a brat?” Bianca whirls around, and in that moment, her expression mimics his. “Who in this house has been sulking for months because Thalia and Jace are gone—”

 

Her hands billow with electricity as she waves the plug around.

 

“—and spends every drachma and denarii just to get a call with them—”

 

Bianca,” Nico warns. “That vacuum—”

 

“—and calls Percy in the middle of the night just to play video games?” Bianca goes on. “You know Jace is confused why you called him last week and suddenly hung up? Talk about rude—!”

 

BIANCA!” Nico shouts—

 

BOOOOOM!

 

—and the vacuum bag explodes, amassing the house in a cloud of dirt, dust, and forgotten uncooked elbow macaroni that fell to the floor instead of being devoured with last night’s dinner.

 

Which is how Nico spends another Saturday morning grabbing his pillow and walking next door to Reyna’s house. He’s tired, covered in a mixture of soot and dust as she opens the door. Reyna doesn’t question it anymore. She waves her hand in greeting and welcomes Nico to her couch before she showers.

 

Aurum and Argentum hop onto the small love seat and settle happily besides Nico as he slumbers.

 

He’s half asleep by the time their own returns from the bathroom, dressed for the day much like Bianca. Instead of an ancient vacuum cleaner, Reyna wakes him by waving a warm cup of coffee in his face, and Nico decides best not to argue a second time about waking up.

 

“So she decided to clean the house today,” Reyna summarizes while Nico grumbles into his coffee mug, “without forewarning?”

 

Nico rubs the sleep out of his eyes, then pushes hair out of his face. “I already cleaned yesterday. Is there something wrong with the way I clean?”

 

“You’re the only reason we could see the floor in the Fifth Cohort barracks,” Reyna says—and she shakes her head in disbelief. “I can only imagine how Percy’s doing at Camp Halfblood. The cleaning harpies eat you if your cabin isn’t spotless.”

 

He snorts, but he knows better than to ask if she’s joking.

 

Still, Reyna lets out a soft chuckle and nudges him on the couch. “That old vacuum was going to give out eventually. There’s a reason why Thalia never used it.”

 

That’s not the reason why Thalia never used it,” Nico mutters.

 

“You said Bianca’s mess is primarily in her room, didn’t you?”

 

“Only between sunset and sunrise,” Nico says. “Then the mess joins us for breakfast at Fabiano’s.”

 

Reyna shoots him a light, but stern look. “You don’t mean that.”

 

“I don’t,” Nico agrees—and the tiniest pang of guilt hits him in the chest. “She apologized and agreed the new mess was her fault. I just wanted to get some sleep this morning.”

 

“You and your sleep,” Reyna muses. She strokes Argentum over the head and smiles happily as the metallic pup stretches across her lap. “You’ve been tentative about this arrangement since you announced it. Are you really surprised?”

 

“No,” Nico agrees. He’s known since day one how easily the two of them rile each other up. Bickering with Bianca is just an expectation that he has—but he had far more energy to deal with it when he was nine than fifteen. “She’s just excited that Jason is coming back in town today. She’s doing this thing that Mammina taught us—an immaculate home is a perfect home.

 

Reyna makes a face. She arches an eyebrow in the air. “Didn’t you have a housemaid?”

 

“Nonna Laura wasn’t impressed with how slowly she folded our towels,” Nico admits—to which Reyna laughs.

 

“Well, aren’t you excited?”

 

Nico pauses. He bites the inside of his mouth, his hands curling softly around his coffee cup, and he absently stares at the remains of his beverage. “I—mean. I guess.”

 

He fiddles with the cords of his pajama pants, and from the corner of his eye, he catches sight of the new tattoo he’d received when they made it back to New Rome a few months ago.

 

The eagle still stretches its wings over his forearm, but it shares the space on his arm with the outline of a peacock. One of Juno’s symbols.

 

They sit as a reminder of his place as the son of the King and Queen of the gods. Years ago, he winced as an eagle and SPQR was burned into his skin. Nico had hoped any association with Jupiter would just disappear entirely from his person, instead of stacking like a merit badge. A scar rests through his father’s eagle—an example of how he’s honored his godly mother without realizing it—but Nico’s be happy all the same if Jupiter had never lain claim to him.

 

Getting the peacock tattoo had come with a sigh of relief, alongside the new stripe that recorded his quest to take the Athena Parthenos home.

 

It wasn’t just…his quest though. It was Nico’s quest—and the person he had to thank for even knowing his bloodline. His true parentage. The person Nico seems to think about daily now, since they’re no longer traveling together.

 

This time, Reyna’s other eyebrow arches in the air. “Thalia has been gone for two months and you’re telling me you’re not excited that today’s the day?”

 

Suddenly, Nico’s cheeks bloom red, and he shuffles awkwardly on the couch cushion. Hopes it doesn’t show that his mind is elsewhere. “Well, yeah.”

 

Yeah,” Reyna repeats—and Nico feels even more self-conscious under her presence.

 

“You’re seeing your girlfriend for the first time in two months,” Nico says, happy to change the subject. “How does that feel?”

 

Reyna breaks into a warm smile that she truly only saves for family. There’s a glint to her eye at the mention of Thalia Grace, her girlfriend, and she takes a longer sip of her coffee. “We were Iris Messaging last night. Honestly, this is the happiest that I’ve seen her since we’ve met. Being with her brother, I mean.”

 

“And with you,” Nico reminds her—and Reyna’s lips seem to stretch into a wider smile behind her coffee. He pauses, and frowns. “You two were IM-ing and didn’t invite me?”

 

That’s more like it,” Reyna teases—and Nico’s cheeks flush. She raises her hand dismissively. “Just girlfriend things. Jason’s excited to see you.”

 

Nico stares at the daughter of Bellona, wondering if he heard her correctly. He straightens in his seat and thumbs the brim of his cup. “Did he say that?”  

 

“He…said something about playing video games and Legend of Zelda.”

 

Again, Nico’s cheeks bloom red. He rubs his tattoo almost instinctively and finds himself a little more awake. “He remembered that?”

 

“He’s looking forward to it,” Reyna confirms—then she shakes her head in disbelief. “Thalia says he’s pretty much restless every day. Like he needs something to do. Honestly, if you and Jason can talk about video games, then you can stop letting Percy win at Smash Bros.”

 

“I don’t let him win,” Nico protests. “Percy loses on his own merit.”

 

Again—Reyna laughs, and Nico’s chest warms at the sight of it. Before he became praetor, he was just worried he’d never see her again. That he’d lose yet another sister without saying goodbye. Now, he’s enjoying her as his next-door neighbor and confidante, and watching as she smiles more freely at the thought of both the Legion and her girlfriend.

 

In some ways, Nico wishes he became praetor years ago. He owes a lot to an organization that made sure he grew up among family rather than a prince.

 

“Any plans for the night?” Nico asks. He places his coffee mug on his coaster.

 

“Try to keep up with Thalia’s surprises,” Reyna admits—and she sounds tired for the day, as she did when she signed paperwork for Thalia’s concerts when a No would’ve been much shorter on her tongue. Then she smiles, still far more in love with Thalia than she is tired. Some days, Nico’s envious of it. “We’ll probably sneak away after dinner. Jason insisted we spend some alone time together.”

 

“Thoughtful guy,” Nico comments. He does a bad job hiding his smile, but Reyna finds herself prattling on about something else anyway.

 

“Thoughtful indeed. I swear, they look nothing alike—”

 

“But they’re both very…”

 

“Thoughtful,” Reyna echoes for him. The edge of her lips lifts with amusement. “Of course, Thalia’s probably more than excited to see you. You’re welcome to—”

 

“No.” Nico shakes his head. “The last thing I want to be this summer is a third wheel. Time usually finds Thalia and I before we find it. I’m not worried.”

 

Reyna smiles happily at him—which is all Nico really needs to be satisfied with his own answer. A year ago, he was scared to be more than arm’s length away from three of his people. It stemmed from Bianca—of losing her in a hallway of the Lotus Casino and having his life change in the eye.

 

Nico went west, and Bianca went east. For how angry Nico was to lose his sister—angry at Thalia—he knew he never wanted to relive that pain. Watching Thalia, Percy, Reyna, and Hazel climb atop the Argo II was one of the most painful things he ever endured.

 

Now, Thalia was traveling with a little brother she never thought she’d see again. Percy could visit his mom and attend camp duties within an hour’s drive without the fear of monster attacks. Reyna and he leaned on each other to make the Legion better, and Hazel was having her second chance at life after wasted years running away from Hera’s rage, and found a sense of purpose.

 

(The last part Nico would have to talk to Mammina about, but he’s not sure if the cool-down period of demanding things from Olympus has ended yet.)

 

Nico has Thalia, Percy, Reyna, Hazel, and Bianca all in an IM’s reach—and that’s more than enough. Even if most mornings with Bianca feels like their own personal War Game with no Mural Crown at the end.

 

“What do you think you, Bianca, and Jason will be doing tonight?”

 

He makes a face. “Why would we be doing anything?”

 

“Well—because Thalia and I will be spending time together tonight. And as of right now, I think you and Bianca are his only friends in New Rome.”

 

“I’m sure whatever Bianca has planned for tonight will be more than enough.”

 

“And what about you?”

 

“What about me?” Nico asks.

 

Reyna arches an eyebrow and looks at him more curiously. “Am I wrong to assume that you’re excited to see him, too? You two traveled together for a sum number of weeks, and all he does on my IMs with Thalia is praise you—”

 

“I can’t imagine why,” Nico interrupts. His cheeks flourish pink and he folds his arms over his chest. Still, the daughter of Bellona flashes a studious look in his direction, evidently analyzing Nico like a war tactician trying to understand her opponent’s moves. “Yes, Reyna?”

 

“All I know is, you left Epirus with the full intention of giving your title to Frank, then accepted the position with open arms by the time we saw you again in Camp Halfblood,” she says—and she shakes her head.

 

“That’s not true,” Nico rebuts. “I still hate the cape.”

 

I personally have to praise Jason Grace for however he convinced you to become praetor.” Reyna blows a strand out of her eyes. “You’re very selective about what you’re willing to tell me about your quest.”

 

“That’s because I spent a good chunk of it unconscious,” Nico retorts—and his cheek blaze pink. He brushes the inside of his thigh without meaning to—and thinks of their time in France. What little of it he was awake for. “There’s really not much to tell.”

 

“That’s not what Hylla says.”

 

“What does Hylla say?” Nico cocks his head—and this time he catches Reyna’s innocent look.

 

“We talk,” Reyna says simply, “because someone here decided to withhold the fact his powers were turning him into a cloud.”

 

Nico rolls his eyes as the age-old lecture spikes up again. “You’re worse than Bianca.”

 

“Worrying about you as much as your sister?” Reyna snorts—and they set aside all things Hylla. She ruffles his hair. “I see no problem with that.”

 

Nico echoes her sound with a snort of his own, and nudges back. He studies how light she looks in her weekend civvies, dressed for the light summer heat. Reyna’s hair is still short from her time at Camp Halfblood. She’s relaxed in her demeanor—though still very much poised.

 

“Of course you’re worried,” Nico replies. “You’re basically my sister, too.”

 

At that compliment, Reyna smiles and finishes off the rest of her coffee.

 

Then she ends their morning with the same question. “You’re really not that excited about Jason moving here?”

 

Jason Grace, son of Hades. As Bianca liked to put it, one of the most mild-mannered demigods Nico’s ever met—especially compared to the rowdy sister that resembled Jason best in heart. Nico thinks about the last time they actually saw each other at Camp Halfblood—beneath the stars, catching a moment’s breath after weeks of agony on a quest. Months ago, Jason’s excitement of moving to New Rome was infectious.

 

“Of course I am,” Nico admits. “Jason’s really good to talk to.”

 

If he thinks about it long enough, he can just feel how tightly Jason hugged him, with a soft whisper of gratitude.

 

And—just like every other instance the thought has lingered, Nico grows flustered once again.

 

*

 

Nico ends up buying a vacuum cleaner for a number of reasons. For one—the one the Legion provided was probably older than some of the Lares that pranced about New Rome. While not the first order of business, he decides it was long overdue to introduce the house to a new generation of cleaning technology.

 

Second, it gives him more than enough excuse to spend time away from home while Bianca conducts her (wrong) version of cleaning their home. He stops by the electronics store first, in order to choose a more acceptable vacuum cleaner, then stops by Fabiano’s to grab both his sister’s favorite drink and some pastries as a peace offering.

 

Third—and absolutely the least important, he decides that if Jason is going to end up hanging out with them (Bianca) tonight, then an immaculate house feels sounder than the hurricane of Bianca’s wardrobe and his video games left out in the living room. For the first time ever, Jason is living elsewhere from Camp Halfblood, and Nico is compelled to show there’s far more out there in the world than a fickle, dramatic God of Whine and an absentee bumbling centaur.

 

(There’s a minute of mental somersaults at QuestBuy when Nico reminds himself that Jason’s seen more of the world with Thalia in the last two months, but he decides that replacing the dusty old vacuum takes precedence, anyway.)

 

Taking care of a house is far more exhausting than tucking the blanket over his bunkbed in the barracks. Nico would gladly take the simplicity of separating his clean pants from Percy’s sweaty socks over spending an hour looking at aesthetically pleasing salt and pepper shakers with Bianca.

 

(There’s no hesitation on Reyna’s part when she points out Nico is missing Percy. She knows, because Nico wouldn’t miss Percy’s stinky socks otherwise.)

 

It's not that Nico doesn’t like living with Bianca. He’s spent too many years longing for her presence and finding comfort in three of his favorite people during his lows not to miss her.

 

There are days where they seem to fall into a rhythm, completing each other’s routine while juggling a conversation that completes yet another puzzling piece of Nico’s childhood. He enjoys those days—the ones that feel like they never separated.

 

Then there are the days that remind him that they’ve lived different lives. Where Nico grew up past the age of ten, and Bianca is still trying to lecture him like he’s going to eat a booger. They aren’t in sync. Sometimes, they recount things to each other like strangers, who struggle to build the cadence that truly made them feel like siblings. It’s harder to navigate those days.

 

Nico’s learned that Bianca has a knack for photography the same way he enjoys reading comics. They’re things that existed when they were little—and time has only carried on with more incarnations of the hobbies they both loved. Bianca likes to take pictures and make things look nice, even for a second—to remember one tide in an ocean. It’s sweet.

 

(It also took three days to convince her to stop taking pictures of them in every inch of the house.)

 

Thus—Praetor di Angelo, son of Juno reminds himself that the good parts of his sister outweigh the bad on most days and comes home with a vacuum cleaner and bribery. Scones, specifically.

 

“Bianca,” he calls lightly as he enters through the front door, “I brought a peace offering.”

 

Their house is silent for once. The aftermath of dust bunnies and stale macaroni is nowhere to be seen, swept away by a broom. It’s clean. The last time Nico’s ever made a mess was when he littered his old bedroom with toys, but there wasn’t nearly as much space in his trunk in his barracks. Bianca has put away his controllers and folded their throw blanket nicely over their couch.

 

The novelty of how normal their home life is strange since Nico’s weekdays are spent wrangling legionnaires and weighing on Senate meetings—but he’s willing to admit that Bianca has cleaned in a way that their godly mother would approve.

 

He finds her sitting in their tiny backyard beneath an oak tree.

 

It’s his favorite part about living with his big sister—reliving the moments at the di Angelo Estate, where he sat in his mother’s lap and ate a nice picnic. This time, they’re much older. Bianca takes photos of the shadows of the leaves against the dull green grass—and still manages to look as lady-like as she wanted when they were little.

 

Nico announces his presence by clearing his throat. Bianca looks up, and by glance alone, he knows their argument is a thing of the past.

 

“Peace offering,” he says, and he pushes the box of scones in her direction. Bianca brightens at the coffee passed her way. “I bought a new vacuum cleaner, too.”

 

“Want me to pay you back?”

 

A duh rests on Nico’s tongue, but he shrugs and shakes his head instead.

 

Bianca is sheepish as she takes a test sip of her drink. “Sorry. I might have been a little compulsive this morning.”

 

“A little?” Nico asks—and she pouts. “Go on.”

 

Bianca looks hesitant. The California sun warms her skin, as it does for Nico every summer. Each day, he’s more startled by their similarities than their differences—including the self-doubt that seems to linger across her features.

 

“So Jace is coming back today,” she reminds him.

 

“First I’ve heard of it today,” Nico muses wryly—and she nudges him playfully.

 

“I…wasn’t the best to him before I left. I was really focused on myself.”

 

“I’m familiar with your big head, yeah.”

 

“Nico!” Bianca admonishes—but she sighs this time instead of threatening him with a waggled finger. Again, her demeanor shrinks—and despite all of the fun and frustrations they’ve had in the last few months, she grows as somber as she did when they reunited. “Jace was my first friend at Camp Halfblood. My best friend. I…just want to get back there with him, you know? I don’t want to screw it up.”

 

“Being back there is part of the reason why you didn’t work, Sis.”

 

Bianca withers, biting the inside of her mouth—but she doesn’t refute his claim. Nico feels a small pang of guilt. He breaks off half a scone and offer it to her.

 

“Just be better,” he advises. “Jason is trying to be better. Meet him there.”

 

She smiles at his advice—just a weak little thing. “Noted.”

 

“Good.”

 

“So…why did you hang up on Jace last week?”

 

Nico makes a face. His cheeks flush red, and he eyes his sister carefully before plucking his drink out of his cupholder. He shoves a full scone in his mouth, and bites back a grimace as Bianca just looks at him curiously.

 

“No reason,” he offers. Crumbs go flying from his lips.

 

Ew.” Bianca gags and scoots away before she can end up in his line of fire. “You’re being gross.”

 

“And you’re mulling over nothing,” Nico reassures. He swallows hard and takes a long gulp of his drink. “I buttdialed him. I was between meetings all week. We’re shorthanded while people are trying to figure out which camp they prefer, like Percy. I’m a couple centurions short after Octavian tried to tear the Legion apart, and we’re still trying to catch up on permits and paperwork after all three of us were called to action.”

 

Bianca stares at him doubtfully. “Sounds like you’ve been busy.”

 

“On the weekdays,” Nico agrees. Wryly, he adds, “that’s why I value my sleep on the weekends.”

 

She smiles sheepishly but doesn’t argue. “Well, the house is clean now. You’re welcome to sleep the day away until Thalia and Jason get here.”

 

“Thank you,” Nico says. He’s hesitant, but then he adds, “You…don’t have to hang out around here all day with just me, you know. You’re welcome to travel.”

 

He still feels guilty, being chosen over Calypso.

 

Yet Bianca stares at him, puzzled by the words.

 

“No need to pour your restless energy into over-cleaning the house,” Nico continues. “Or playing some happy homemaker. You’re my sister, Bianca. Not my wife.”

 

“Gross,” Bianca mutters.

 

Super gross,” Nico agrees—but he’d be lying if he didn’t notice some of Mammina’s tendencies coming out of his sister. Maybe they were innate, like when he accidentally helped deliver a baby a few months ago.

 

She tried to keep a tidy home and feed him every waking hour of the day. Nico’s had to insist more than once now for her to leave his games alone. It reminds him of days where his grandmother and Juno would compete to keep an immaculate home, with the Mother Goddess never quite meeting the di Angelo matriarch’s standards.

 

In a way, he pities his godly mother. Stuck in an unhappy marriage to an arrogant god and unable to show her radiance as the Goddess of Family to the parents of the only mortal lover she’s ever taken.

 

Nico thinks Bianca may be trying her best, too, to keep them together. With all the strokes that Nonna Laura would probably criticize.

 

Whether she realizes it or not, Bianca shrugs. She pulls a lock of hair against her ear and leans into him in a way they would settle after playing as children. “Things will get better when Jace gets here. I’ll be out of your hair for a while.”

 

“You’re never in my hair,” Nico dismisses.

 

She gives him a pointed look.

 

“You could stand to make your showers shorter,” Nico revises. “California is in a never-ending draught.”

 

At that admission, Bianca flushes. She laughs and kisses him on the cheek before splitting another scone for the two of them. “Look at my little brother—all grown up and offering sound advice.”

 

Red flutters in Nico’s cheeks. “And yet you only listen to half of it.”

 

Bianca shoots him another look, lips stretching into a pout.

 

“Kidding,” Nico dismisses once again. “I’m…glad that you’re thinking about working hard with Jason, Bianca. I know that’ll mean a lot to him.”

 

She smiles at him meaningfully, and Nico deduces it’s the best thing he’s said all day.

 

We’re…getting there,” she asks gently. “Right?”

 

Nico lifts his gaze at his sister—at her hopeful expression and calm stature—and nods his head in agreement. “I’d say getting there would be the perfect place to describe us.”

 

Again, Bianca beams—and Nico relishes in the moment of reprieve with his big sister.

 

*

 

Nico’s day off gets interrupted eventually. It’s the downside of being a leader—for all the time that Nico invested during his week, he’s always on call if a situation escalates. That typically included challenges waged by different soldiers, fights between Greek and Roman demigods, or a faun antic gone wrong.

 

Not officiating a wedding.

 

He makes it to Temple Hill—dressed in his praetor robes—as instructed by Dakota, and halts at the number of chairs strewn across from his mother’s statue. He sees the son of Bacchus, dressed in his best robes, and another boy with a similar build dressed in a tux. They both perk when they see him.

 

“Nico! You made it!” Dakota waves around a questionable flask and gestures for Nico to come close. The boy next to him looks nervous. “This is my brother, Pollux—we’re glad we could get you so short-noticed.”

 

There’s an arch of lotuses that decorates the Juno Moneta. It softens her features in the background as she stares down upon them. He’s inclined to inspect them, but his confusion wins over.

 

“I,” Nico says slowly, “would’ve dressed better had I known I was attending a wedding.”

 

“Really?” mutters Pollux. He sighs in relief. “Thank gods.”

 

Nico makes a face—but Dakota takes it all in stride.

 

“Your robes are official enough,” he says. “That’s good enough for everything.”

 

“For what?” Nico asks.

 

“Officiating!”

 

What?”

 

“Yeah!” Dakota slaps his brother’s shoulder blithely and holds his head high with the same gusto that Nico misses so much in Percy. “Pollux and Gwen were gonna have their wedding in front of Dad’s shrine, but I told them they should save it for the reception. I mentioned you were a son of Juno and all now, and Gwen was all for it.”

 

Nico stares at the son of Bacchus, wondering if he heard correctly. “All for what?”

 

“Blessing the wedding, of course!” Dakota says. “You have experience in that.”

 

“Yeah, with blessing swords,” Nico protests. He recalls times before this last summer where Vulcan children came to him with newly made imperial gold weapons. His cheeks grow hot and he looks up to Pollux, who suddenly looks more doubtful. “When I said you could call me for emergencies, Dakota, I didn’t mean for this! This isn’t part of my job description.”


Of course, Mammina’s statue suddenly leers at him, as if saying Take That Back.

 

Pollux suddenly looks distressed, the husband-to-be looking at his brother worriedly, but Dakota’s own brazen attitude seems to balance him out.

 

“You’re a son of Juno though,” Dakota protests. “Doesn’t that mean you’re meant for this?”

 

“Yeah, but—”

 

“Plus, you’re the highest ranked government official,” Dakota continues, and he makes tick marks with his hands.

 

“Okay, yeah—”

 

“And you’re a son of Jupiter,” Dakota finishes. “Also—Gwen’s known you since you were like, yay big, and she’s family. She’d be crushed if you couldn’t do this, man!”

 

Nico flashes Dakota an exasperated look. “I see you’ve been brushing up on your diplomacy skills with Percy.”

 

Dakota takes a healthy swig of his flask and vibrates in his normal sugar high. “It’s that girl he’s been dating, man. I swear Percy thinks in, like, 5-D now.”

 

“A scary thought,” Nico says wryly. He fiddles with the badge at his chest and smooths out the cloak over his shoulders, if only to look more presentable under his mother. “And they’re not dating. Otherwise I’d be blessing their union right now.”

 

Pollux perks, his eyes flashing pleadingly. “So you’ll marry us?”

 

“Gwen helped raise me in the Fifth Cohort. There isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for her,” Nico says. He hesitates—before adding, “With how tense things were after the war ended, I’m glad there are people out there who have genuinely found peace between our camps. It means a lot.”

 

At those sound words, Pollux looks less panicked than before. He holds a hand to his chest in relief, while Dakota relishes in his victory.

 

“Told you Nico was awesome,” Dakota says.

 

Nico can’t help but blush.

 

Mike Kahale shows up not too long after that, actually dressed for the occasion. There’s a moment’s greeting, where Mike and Dakota greet each other amicably. Then, Mike and Nico are ushered off to make Nico look more presentable and sooth Pollux’s nerves.

 

The son of Venus takes out a portable jewelry box, decked out with necklaces, earrings, bangles—and so on. The level of daintiness seems to vary—and Mike Kahale is not the type of demigod anyone would ever describe as dainty.

 

“And here I thought Thalia was the walking jewelry box,” Nico mutters, as Mike looks through headpieces. Headpieces!

 

“Fashion’s for everyone,” Mike dismisses.  

 

 It’s not often that they talk to each other. Maybe more after the war. Despite how close Mike Kahale was to Octavian, the entire First Cohort insisted their old augur was just that persuasive. Mike isn’t nearly as loud as his sponsor was. He’s thoughtful, quiet, and strategic— in all of the ways that Piper wanted to prove that children of Aphrodite could also be.

 

Watching Mike pluck jewelry and arrange his robes reminds Nico of Jason. All the quickness and the nimbleness of his fingers, working with something other than a sword and a knife. Nico imagines paler hands, curling around his own fingers to inspect them, and the sweet smile that had followed for most of spring.

 

“So when are you going to have one of these?” Mike asks abruptly.

 

Nico makes a face, his cheeks flourishing pink. “Why?”

 

“Your mom’s the goddess of marriage,” Mike points out. “I’m assuming it’s a lifelong goal or something.”

 

“You’re right. You’re assuming,” Nico retorts. He shrugs as Mike clasps a gold band on his arm. “My mom’s not even happy with her own marriage.”

 

Mike lifts an eyebrow, though he clearly doesn’t have a word for it. If Jason were here, he’d probably laugh. “I hope you’re not planning on putting that in your speech.”

 

“I’m happy for anyone who finds love like that,” Nico reassures. He crosses his arms over his chest and shifts uncomfortably. “But as of right now, I can’t say I’m the wedding type.

 

He decides to avoid Mammina’s gaze at that declaration.

 

“That’s a shame,” Mike continues. “Considering wedding season’s just started.”

 

Nico pauses. “There’s a season?”

 

“Early June through September,” Mike explains. “Usually, I get the invite because of my mom. And because of your mom…well. We’re probably going to be seeing a lot of each other.”

 

Nico stares at Mike in disbelief. As he opens his mouth to speak, Mike clasps a band on his other arm and then whips out a compact mirror. Nico stares at himself and tries his best not to grimace.

 

His praetor badge hangs neatly over his robes, while his purple cloak seems to look more regal under Mike’s touch.

 

There’s a headpiece at the crown of his head—a golden laurel that outshines the one on their camp shirt. An actual mural crown. In the olden days, it was given to someone who watched over the city. The protector. That alone feels like too much for him to wear at a wedding, but with the bangles on his wrists, the chains around his neck, and his blue eyes and hair…

 

“I look like my dad,” Nico complains.

 

Mike shrugs. “Just channel your mom.”

 

 

*

 

The ceremony is quaint. There’s a mix of Greek and Roman faces in the audience that Nico doesn’t see too often. Gwendolyn walks down the aisle, dressed in a beautiful trumpet gown that compliments her narrow frame, and she’s so giddy with happiness that she waves at Nico.

 

Everyone rises to their feet, and there’s a soft wave of adoration for the blushing, eloquent bride. Nico’s not sure how long Gwen and Pollux have been dating. He knows in Roman times, brides have been given away in less time, and with less love.

 

With the lives they live, it’s hard to cement whether they have another year, or another day—so he’s happy for someone from his own family who can find that instance of love, and the spark of adoration that comes in both small and heavy doses—but always grows with heart and conversation.

 

“Dearly Beloved,” Nico starts, unsure of how else to really officiate a wedding. “We are gathered here today to…celebrate the love between Pollux and Gwen.”

 

Speeches for a whole army can already be intimidating enough. A speech for two people who love each other enough to devote their lives to one another is something else.

 

Nico tries his best, hoping a speech about commitment and love can roll off the tongue as easily as Percy spouting nautical miles, or Thalia guessing the value of jewels and gemstones.

 

He can’t recall a time where he’s been to a wedding. Maybe when he was really young, and he and mortal mother strategized on how to get the biggest slice of cake. His own moms never married.

 

It’s the norm for demigods—for love or lust to happen in one stroke between mortal and god, and a baby after some time. Some were unlucky to ever see their beloved again—like Sally Jackson, who had a brief summer romance with the King of the Sea, and wistfully awaited Neptune’s return for twelve years.

 

Nico, though—has vivid memories of the Queen of the Gods in his childhood, holding his hand as he hopped along cobblestone steps and chattered back at birds. Love wasn’t something that Nico learned, but something he grew up with, between his adoring grandparents, his two mothers, and (sometimes) his big sister. He never had to question if it was there. Thalia, Percy, Reyna filled that hole when he thought he lost everything. They never let him fall.

 

And—with Hazel’s wake and Bianca’s return, that love only grew.

 

The other love—the one that Mike Kahale’s mother represents—is complicated. So complicated that not one, but two gods represent its intricacies. Love and marriage have two different goddesses because there’s power in both—good and bad. The disastrous strokes of passion that made Psyche see a monster in the middle of the night, and the commitment bound by trickery and malevolence between the King and Queen of the Gods.

 

Nico remembers very well what Eros said about his own love life.

 

Nico di Angelo—so insecure that he’ll never find love so long as he lives. No one who’ll ever understand him, no one who’ll ever see him past his father’s title.

 

He thinks he’s gotten better with his words. Or—whatever’s coming out of his mouth right now while Gwen and Pollux eye each other adoringly. Percy, Thalia, and Reyna have always loved him enough to shield him from the ogling eyes to his father’s name. Hazel and he are connected in spite of the King of the Gods, and Bianca is from a life before.

 

The older he gets, the further away the men in the alley of Venice feels. That different type of love that Nico learned came with good and bad and made him say, I want that.

 

After this past spring, he’s not the biggest fan of Eros, God of Love—or whatever that may entail. Dreams of starry nights and moonlit conversations are far from what Nico expects in his love life—and not something he’s ever really expected, after this century.

 

And he’s okay with that.

 

Nico gets to live in a world where Thalia, the daughter of Pluto who saved him all those years ago, is happily in love with her best friend. Where his hero, Percy, gets to go home and spend time with his mother. Reyna and he can map out a better future for the Legion, and he can go home and enjoy time with his resurrected big sister as they catch up with Hazel over IM together.

 

Nico’s happy.

 

So, because he doesn’t like to think of the bad that’s happened in the name of love and commitment—at a wedding of all places—he focuses on the good. Sweet conversations in the evening. Stars that filled the evening sky for love’s first meeting and love’s devotion.

 

Something about his speech must not suck. By the end of it, Gwendolyn is fanning herself, trying her best not to cry. Pollux arches an eyebrow, his wedding vows fisted in his hand, and Mike Kahale, son of Venus, is staring from the first row in amusement.

 

The first of many weddings of the season, Nico thinks tiredly.

 

Dakota gives him a thumbs up.

 

“I…believe the bride would like to say a few words,” Nico says next. He turns and faces the misty-eyed audience.

 

Then he listens to two people in love, gushing about how they can’t wait to share a life together.

 

*

 

Nico gets rewarded with cake.

 

Before he can sit down at his mother’s steps and eat it, he gets committed to two more weddings in the upcoming week and is asked to kiss a few baby heads. He’s still not sure how his time ended up here of all places. Kissing babies is definitely nothing like blessing imperial gold—but Nico trades accidentally cutting his mouth with getting his hair yanked.  

 

Gwendolyn is overjoyed about her wedding day. And Pollux, son of the God of Parties, is ecstatic that the reception is a hit. As far as praetor responsibilities and duties in the name of his godly parent go, weddings aren’t that bad.

 

“You seriously attend every single one of these?” Nico asks, after his third attempt to sit down is met with failure.

 

Mike shrugs. “Everyone wants love at their wedding. And you can’t beat free food.”

 

Given Mike’s other job is a quarterback for his high school team, Nico decides it makes sense that the son of Venus is a bottomless pit.

 

Between fun music, questionable (yet age-appropriate) drinks, and happy people, weddings are much less awkward than breaking up make out sessions behind the barracks. If Nico can find a civil ground with the First Cohort’s centurion, too, then it’s better for the Legion.

 

(He can already imagine Reyna ruffling his hair at that thought.)

 

It ends up being a pretty good time.  Nico crosses officiate a wedding off his list of things to do to honor Mammina, right under Deliver a Kid.

 

A tap on the shoulder makes him turn around, and Nico’s already open armed to kiss another baby.

 

“Give her here,” Nico instructs.

 

“Give who here?” Thalia’s grin is wily when he looks up. She looks completely out of place in her steel-toed combat boots, tattered jeans, and spiked leather jacket. Her hair somehow looks spikier than before—and in the middle of a wedding, she looks like Death. “Hey, Neeks.”

 

Nico matches her grin. He throws his arms around the daughter of Pluto.

 

She hugs him back in a bone-crushing embrace, evidently making up for all of the weeks Jason and she were gone. “Do I get one of those blessed baby kisses too?”

 

He laughs. “When did you even get back?”

 

“A couple hours ago,” Thalia replies. She gestures to the sky—which looks more orange than blue, and Nico realizes where his time has gone.

 

The edge of his lips lifts into the briefest smile—and then it diminishes. “I was supposed to be there when you got back.”

 

With all the ease that came with Thalia Grace, she waves a hand dismissively. Her smile incites reassurance. “Rey mentioned you got called away for praetor stuff. Didn’t know you were officiating weddings now.”

 

Nico wrinkles his nose and pulls away. He makes a face. “I don’t recall you ever having to do this.”

 

“That’s because no one ever wants to wish the Kiss of Death on their baby,” Thalia muses. “Pretty disappointing, honestly. I’ve been told I’m a great kisser.”

 

The edge of Nico’s lips twitch into a smile, his heart a little fuller in her presence. “What I wouldn’t give to see what you would say on stage.”

 

She snickers, a loving arm around his shoulders.

 

“I’m sorry,” Nico repeats. For how much he put off Thalia’s reappearance, he’s suddenly reinvigorated by her presence. And regretting ever downplaying it in front of both Bianca and Reyna. “I really wanted to be there.”

 

“You didn’t miss much. A couple of heavy boxes full of my boots and my Bullet for My Valentine album collection.” Thalia shakes her head dismissively. “Praetor duties, Nico. You never know when they’re going to hit—you’re just supposed to expect the unexpected.”

 

Marrying a couple was definitely on the list of things Nico didn’t expect.

 

“It’s different this year,” he says. “With Camp Halfblood and all.”

 

Between Camp Halfblood and Camp Jupiter, and the number of campers who wanted to shuffle in between—or wanted to enjoy New Rome’s amenities without enlisting for ten years. It’s certainly not for everyone. But—the last that Nico’s heard, Hazel has been a great camp leader at Camp Halfblood. He just wishes they could spend more time together.

 

“I didn’t even realize I signed up for this,” Nico mentions irately. He pushes a hand through his hair. “Dakota just said hurry.

 

Thalia laughs. “You should’ve let Reyna prescreen. That’s what I used to make her do.”

 

“I think you mean pawn things off on her and commit forgery.”  

 

“Pawn. Now that’s a word that’s in my vocabulary.” She smirks, and the gems in her ears seem to glimmer.

 

Nico sighs and rolls his eyes. “Where is Reyna, anyway? I thought you were with her.”

 

Thalia points in another direction, where Reyna is busy discussing things with Hank from the Third Cohort. There’s a camper standing beside him, dressed in orange rather than purple. Reyna has her recruiter demeanor on, clearly spouting the benefits of Camp Jupiter. There’s a pamphlet in her hand.

 

“Praetor’s job never stops,” Thalia muses. “That’s why she was the best.”

 

“You’re selling yourself short.”

 

“I know a diamond when I see one.” Thalia looks over to Nico, amused. Her smile is brighter than Nico’s ever seen, with a love in her eyes after two months. She catches Reyna in a glance, and their smiles broaden.

 

After months of contact through IM, Nico knows Reyna is ecstatic to have her girlfriend back in town. Every inch of Reyna’s smile is mirrored in Thalia’s own.

 

“Were you inquiring about my services?” Nico muses. “I charge in cake.”

 

Thalia grins, one eyebrow arched in the air. “Nico, we’re at a wedding on Temple Hill. We just happened to pass by on our way to Dad’s crypt.”

 

Nico shrugs—but his mind happens to latch onto her words. He cocks his head back to the daughter of Pluto. “We?”

 

He doesn’t have to wait long. A new song blasts from whatever stereo, and the precisive glee of his sister reaches him. “Jace, come dance with me!”

 

Nico zeroes in on Jason immediately.

 

At first, Jason stands there, dressed in a simple shirt and jeans in the summer heat. His hair is short and neat, like their first meeting. Fourteen beads rest across his neck—the time he’s poured into Camp Halfblood evident against his clavicle. Then, when Bianca squeals and yanks him to the dance floor, Jason’s smile stands out like a beacon.

 

His laugh is warm and contagious, drowning out whatever is blasting over the stereo. Nico sees dimpled cheeks and joyous glee, and his heart somersaults to the downbeat of the song.

 

“Ew,” is all Thalia says. “Jonas Brothers.”

 

As though Jason can hear them, he turns his head—and his eyes light up at the sight of them.

 

“Nico! Hey!”

 

Nico’s so busy relishing in that thought that he doesn’t notice Jason walking up. He’s lost in the way Jason’s smile dimples, and how white his teeth are. How bright his eyes are against the evening sky, and how honey sweet the tenor of his voice is.

 

“Uh…Nico?”

 

“Hi,” Nico replies, when he finds his voice. His cheeks flourish pink, and his first reaction is to extend a hand, like he’s recruiting a new camper or sponsor for Camp Jupiter. He wasn’t prepared for anything today—Bianca’s vacuum cleaner, officiating a wedding—and least of all Jason’s presence.

 

Still, Jason’s expression is light—much brighter than the crazy day that Nico’s having. His eyes flicker with a momentary confusion—and his smile spreads as he shakes Nico’s hand.

 

“You look nice,” he comments.  

 

Oh. Nico’s cheeks flush pink. He fiddles with the bracelet Mike clasped on his wrist.

 

“I’ve…” Nico hesitates. He clears his throat. “I…I’m flattered. Thanks.”

 

Jason smiles at him fully, and Nico’s pretty sure he exhausted his ability to speak earlier, after some emotional speech in the name of his mother.

 

“I’m gonna have some fighting words with the DJ. No one needs to suffer through pop music,” Thalia announces. She claps a hand on both their shoulders, her lips stretched into a warm smile. Thalia looks between the both of them. “So glad to have both my baby brothers in one room again.”

 

Nico’s chest swells. Two months is the longest he’s been without her since they’ve met.

 

As though she has the same sentiment, Thalia gives his shoulder one more gratifying squeeze. “We’ll catch up, Neeks. When you’re not drowning because of work.”

 

“So, never,” Nico corrects for her—and she grins.

 

Then, she’s off to find her girlfriend in the cluster of people surrounding the Juno Moneta. It’s strange to celebrate a joyous day beneath the One Who Warns—but maybe that’s why the Romans called her that. Don’t marry a chump of a god. Find someone who’s actually worthy of commitment.

 

“Been busy?” Jason asks, finding Nico through dumb thoughts. He looks better, after Tartarus and carrying the Athena Parthenos.

 

Nico sighs with exhaustion. Off in the distance he watches Dakota and Thalia trade bar tricks over a glass full of questionable Kool-Aid. The new Fifth Cohort centurion catches his eye and gives him a happy wave.

 

“Being praetor keeps me on my toes more days than not,” he admits wryly. He folds his arms over his chest, and the bangles chatter at his wrist.

 

Jason smiles at him, unabashed, and gestures upwards, towards his father’s crypt. “Want to get out of here?”

 

Nico’s heart skips a beat. There’s a way that Jason says it, as though no time has passed at all, while Nico is stumbling to find even footing. “Weren’t you hanging out with Bianca tonight?”

 

“I don’t think I can keep up with Bianca.” Jason’s smile widens with mirth, and he gestures over to a gaggle of women who are flocking towards Gwendolyn for the bouquet toss. Bianca is in the mix—but she’s acting more like a referee.

 

Of course she’d be more in her element at a wedding. More than he feels himself, anyway.

 

“Besides,” Jason continues in good nature, “I hear praetors make the best tour guides.”

 

Jason’s enthusiasm for him is unmatched by others. Nico feels his chest flutter. He looks to the scene in front of him and bites back a smile.

 

“I’d be a bad host if I didn’t show you around,” he agrees. “And we can’t have that.”

 

“Certainly,” Jason agrees. “Hera would never allow it.”

 

“Juno,” Nico corrects lightly. “You’re in new waters now, Ambassador Grace. It’d do well for you to learn the culture.”

 

Jason’s eyes seem to glitter beneath the moonlight. His lips spill into a smile—and as he laughs, Nico feels less unsettled.

 

*

 

The music begins to fade as they climb the hilltop towards Pluto’s crypt. They keep the topic light—how Nico managed to find himself in the middle of a wedding when he thought it was for some huge Senate meeting. How Mike Kahale conveniently showed up with jewelry and spruced him up.

 

Jason laughs as they make it up the hilltop. He crouches to the ground and gathers a bouquet of poppies. “Aphrodite kids. You never know what they’re going to bring to the table.”

 

“Percy’s a bit confused by them. Something about being too busy washing their hair and painting each other’s nails.” Nico wrinkles his nose—then adds, “His words. Not mine. Percy’s idea of a bath is dunking his head in the Little Tiber.”

 

Again, Jason laughs—and Nico’s chest grows warm. The son of Hades stands to his feet and hands the bouquet off. “The Aphrodite Kids are a different bunch from the Venus kids. No one really expects them to fight.”

 

“Nothing wrong with not fighting,” Nico says—and he swears Jason’s smile grows. He watches as Jason tidies the plate at the foot of Pluto’s statue. There’s care there, in the way Jason looks up to the Roman incarnation of his father. In just statue alone, Nico can match the kindness of Jason’s eyes to the King of the Dead. “Percy says that the Hades Cabin is like no other. Have…you had the chance to see it?”

 

“Not yet,” Jason admits. And he shakes his head. “Hades Cabin was the first one Annabeth wanted to build. She wanted my input before Thal and I left for our trip and kept that up. We talk just about every day now.”

 

Nico can’t help but feel a surge pride for Jason. He knows what a hard road it was for both Jason and Annabeth to get there. “That’s great, Jason. I’m happy for you.”

 

He hands the flowers back to Jason wordlessly, with little to be said about the exchange. Instead, Jason smiles, even happier than before. He sets the flowers at his father’s brazier and murmurs soft words—some in the name of the fallen. There’s a different energy to him.

 

Months ago, Nico remembers loathing Jason when they first met. Ambassador Grace, son of Pluto, who threatened to take Thalia away from him. He was formal in introduction, offering a handshake and a careful smile. Now, though—Nico didn’t think he would ever see Jason Grace on his knees, in a silent prayer to the King of the Dead. The father Jason had a love-hate relationship with when all Nico had for Jupiter was absolute exasperation.

 

“Was it a good trip?” Nico asks, as Jason dusts off his knees. When it comes to Thalia, Jason lights up.

 

“I haven’t seen that much of the world, in…well. Ever.” Jason rubs his forehead, and he grows sheepish. “Not since you, me, and Uncle Gleeson.”

 

“I’m sure your trip with Thalia was a lot more fun than the time crunch we were on.”

 

Jason chuckles softly. “You and I had our fun. I showed Thalia that varenyky place we went to in Odesa.”

 

Nico perks at that—the memory of the scent of the sea and older architecture coming to the front of his mind. “What about the museum?”

 

“No museum,” Jason reports. “She said learning was for nerds.”

 

 Nico snorts. “That sounds like Thalia.”

 

After two months with her, Jason’s expression is firm. Eight full weeks of nothing but getting to know his big sister. “Yeah, it certainly does.”

 

The corners of Nico’s lips etch into a smile of its own. He doesn’t know how he could be so against Jason and Thalia getting to know each other months ago. Thalia seems more at peace in retirement—with a brother and girlfriend in either hand, and Nico’s kindled a friendship that he’s grown to enjoy.

 

A lot.

 

“How’s praetorship suiting you?”

 

Nico settles in the slot beside the other demigod and sighs. “A lot of duties. Drills, in the morning. Mediation sessions between the Legionnaires who were loyal to Octavian and the ones who were loyal to Reyna and Thalia. Drills, in the afternoon. Moderating War Games—kissing baby heads. A lot of baby heads.”

 

“Deliver anymore newborns?” Jason asks, and Nico’s face grows hot.

 

“No,” Nico admits. “But we’ve tweaked the budget for parental leave. The moment anyone announces they’re pregnant, they go through the right facets to make sure their role within the Legion is all covered. Parents can stay with their children for as long as they need to and rejoin the Legion to finish out their ten years at their own pace. The gods already neglect to visit their children enough. There’s no reason to wish that upon their mortal children trying to start families, too.”

 

“That’s amazing, Nico,” Jason says. There’s a sense of awe in Jason’s voice that makes Nico’s cheeks flush pink.

 

His hand curls against his new tattoo—the one that appeared when he earned his last tick mark for bringing the Athena Parthenos to Camp Halfblood.

 

“I…wouldn’t have a family without the Legion,” Nico admits. “I like helping make it better for everyone. Not just for war.”

 

“And you’re doing a great job,” Jason continues. He smiles warmly—proudly—at Nico.

 

Nico thinks back to the words Reyna uttered just this morning. How it only took a trip with Jason Grace for him to consider praetorship a good idea. It’s…hard to describe that trip. How much changed between Jason and him, and how much had changed for himself.

 

When he described his lineage to the three people who he grew up with—his true lineage, they’d stared at him in confusion. Percy was close to taking it as another sleight against Jason, but Nico knocked that down before it could become an issue. There was no reason to dislike Jason. There never should have been.

 

“I have some big shoes to fill,” Nico says, and he rubs his tattoo again. “Thalia’s, I mean. She shielded me from this for as long as she could.”

 

“Thalia wouldn’t have chosen you as her successor if she didn’t think you were already a good leader,” Jason protests. “She’s a good judge of character. And I’ve seen you in action firsthand.”

 

With each word, Nico feels the heat creep up his cheeks. “I hope you’re not talking about delivering babies.”

 

“I’m…talking about all of you, Nico,” Jason says—and he stares at Nico oddly. With amazement, that Nico isn’t lifting with each word of praise.

 

Instead, Nico’s face burns scarlet—at all of him—and he resists the urge to hide his face under his cape.

 

“I know you’ve been working on expressing yourself,” Nico says slowly, “but I’m hearing a lot about me right now.”

 

Jason’s chuckle is effervescent. He’s so earnest to Nico’s words, shoulders light, that it’d be exasperating on anyone else. But on Jason, it’s fitting. A smile lifts across his face, and his cheeks dust pink.

 

“Sorry,” he says sincerely. “I’ve…just missed you. A lot.”

 

Oh. Nico bites the inside of his mouth, if only to prevent himself from saying something stupid. He shuffles in his seat, hands crossed over his lap, and feels both his face burn and chest swell at the same time. Reyna’s told Nico how excited Jason was to see him, but. It’s still hard to believe.

 

“I…” Nico stumbles over his words. “I’m. Yeah. It’s going to be nice seeing each other again. I’m glad you moved here. For you, I mean.”

 

It’s a lot more words than I missed you too. Still, Jason stares at them as though a moment hasn’t passed since their last meeting. There’s warmth and fondness in Jason’s eyes—far more than Nico expects—but he understands. After spending so much time together on their quest, Nico’s spent plenty of days aching for Jason’s company, too.

 

“Is that the new tattoo?” Jason asks suddenly—and he lights up. Again, for Nico’s sake.

 

Nico stares down at his mother’s symbol and extends his arm. He pulls up his sleeve, so Jason can get a full look at all of it. “Sometimes I forget it’s changed.”

 

That he’s not just Nico di Angelo, son of Jupiter, anymore. He upholds Juno’s lineage over Jupiter’s ichor—and has felt more comfortable with himself in the months since the realization.

 

“Wow,” Jason says—and he’s careful as he wraps a hand around Nico’s wrist. Then—slowly, he traces the curve of the peacock’s neck to the ends of its feathers, his thumb at Nico’s wrist bone.

 

Nico unintentionally recoils.

 

“Sorry—” And this time, Jason is the one to blush. “Um—too much?”

 

“No,” Nico says—and he extends his arm again, flustered. “I. Forgot how cold your hand were.”

 

Jason joins him in embarrassment, looking as self-conscious as he did months ago about his powers. About himself. “Oh.”

 

“It’s fine,” Nico says quickly. “I was startled. It’s…been a long day. Go ahead.”

 

This time, when Jason inspects his arm, he hovers at best. No touching. He looks at the simplistic design of the eagle and the peacock—and he smiles, as though the new ink is on himself. Jason hooks a finger beneath the glass beads of his necklace.

 

“Getting a tattoo marking all of your triumphs makes these feel a little less cool,” he admits.

 

“Considering you went to a camp that prioritizes basket weaving and camp singalongs, I’d say that a pretty homemade necklace is fitting, Jason,” Nico retorts—and Jason doesn’t even refute the claim. Nico hesitates—before adding, “But between the two of us, I…think we both know who actually got to have a childhood.”

 

“You did lose your sister,” Jason reminds him.

 

“I don’t think I get to say that anymore since she cheated death. Both of them now, actually,” Nico says with a wry amusement. “You…don’t have to downplay what happened at Camp Halfblood, Jason.”

 

With how rambunctious camp is, the parts where Camp Halfblood groomed Jason will forever leave a bad taste in Nico’s mouth. He’s seen the effects of Jason’s upbringing up close and knows what affect it’s had on Jason. No one needs their childhood stripped away, for the sake of a prophecy or in the name of their father, or whatever.

 

Yet, Jason’s dimples reappear as he smiles, touched by Nico’s words.

 

“I’m not,” Jason promises. He curls his hand around the necklace again. “This thing has my whole life on it, but…this summer’s gonna be the first year I don’t add a bead to this.”

 

“You’ve got more life to live, Jason.”

 

“I know,” Jason agrees—and his expression is tender. “Thank you for caring, Nico.”

 

“I’m—” Always going to care. “—just glad that you’re caring for yourself.”

 

“I should’ve figured out this whole self-care thing out a while ago. It comes with some nice benefits,” Jason jokes—and Nico snorts. Jason’s smile melts into a quiet laugh, and Nico doesn’t hide his next smile. Not when there’s ease between the two of them. “This is nice, Nico. We didn’t get to do this much while we were on the road.”

 

“Because we were busy fighting for our lives while Coach Hedge was buying Disney World memorabilia,” Nico grumbles. He rubs his knuckles in memory, after so many weeks of straining himself.

 

For all of the music that plays at the bottom of the hill, Jason’s laughter is a sound Nico enjoys more. Jason does just that with his small rant. There’s no tenseness to it, or a guarded air of someone who is focused on others rather than himself. On getting Hazel a teacher, on meeting Thalia, on making sure Nico’s okay. It’s just an honest Jason Grace, son of Hades, beneath the stars near one of Nico’s favorite places in New Rome.

 

The stars still look the same, he’d uttered once. When Jason wondered why Nico spent so much time outside.

 

Stars remained when monuments fell and people have died—but he thinks Jason Grace glows, now that he’s happy with himself. It’s a constellation that Nico’s proud to be a part of.

 

“We’ll have more time for this now that you’re here,” Nico says—and his chest bubbles. “Bianca’s already discovered the mall. There’s a movie theater in town, and some nice places to eat—”

 

“An Italian restaurant?” Jason perks. “For gnocchi?”

 

Nico stares at the son of Hades, amused. Jason only grows sheepish.

 

“Sorry,” he says. “We…tried to find a good Italian restaurant while we were in Venice. I mentioned your nonna to Thalia.”

 

“Did you find good gnocchi?”

 

“I think I need to know what great gnocchi tastes like to know if I had bad gnocchi,” Jason admits—and he flushes pink as Nico actually laughs. “I…don’t get out much.”

 

“I’ve noticed,” Nico teases. “But yes. If you want good Italian food, then I can take you.”

 

“Tomorrow for lunch?”

 

Nico’s brain hiccups in the middle of their conversation. He looks back at Jason, who stares back. There’s a gentle excitement to his expression as he smiles in Nico’s way, and Nico can’t help but feel his heart skip a beat. Then—

 

“No,” Nico says, and he presses a hand to his face. “There’s a new education facility open in town. I promised to attend. They’re feeding us.”

 

“What about for dinner?” Jason asks, which just makes Nico flush.

 

“War Games are tomorrow evening,” Nico says. “And…two weddings back-to-back the day after that.”

 

“Oh,” is all Jason can say. He’s disarmed by the answer, while Nico grows self-conscious.

 

“Sorry,” Nico offers. “You’re right. I’ve been busy. I…might’ve offered to take the load off of Reyna so she and Thalia can spend time together.”

 

Once he says that, he feels his own disappointment setting in. He’d pushed off Thalia and Jason’s return for a reason—but being here now, falling into the steps he is with Jason, makes him wonder if it was a good decision.

 

Judging from the look on Jason’s face, that sentiment is shared—which makes the rejection feel even worse. But, Jason nudges him in the shoulder.

 

“You’re free now,” Jason says—and Nico’s chest tingles.

 

“You missed the part where I gorged myself on wedding cake,” Nico grumbles, and his face flushes.

 

Jason laughs again. “I’m perfectly fine where we are, Nico.”

 

“Really,” Nico remarks with deadpan. “Here, on top of a hill, next to the King of the Dead, on your first day in New Rome, when your best friend and sister are nowhere to be seen, and I’m dressed in the gaudiest—”

 

“Nico,” Jason interrupts—and he drops a hand on Nico’s shoulder, amused. Then he drops it, regarding Nico’s comment of cold hands earlier. Still, the smile doesn’t wane. “Allow me to express how much I’ve missed your company.”

 

Nico stares back—at the cheeky flicker in Jason’s eyes, and the cute dimples at his cheeks. He coughs—if only to hide his own fluster—and smiles. “Look at you, using your words.”

 

The grateful look over Jason’s face means everything.  

 

“We could go back down to the Juno Moneta if you want,” Jason says gently. “It wouldn’t be the first time you and I crashed a wedding chapel.”

 

Gods. Nico ducks his head in a quiet titter and pushes a lock of hair behind his ear. “No…I’m. I’m good with here. If you are.”

 

He doesn’t think he’ll ever understand why, but that confirmation is good enough for Jason. Charcoal eyes flicker brighter than the constellations above them, and Jason happily obliges. “Me too.”

 

They talk for a long time. Nico doubts he’ll get any sleep before he goes to the event tomorrow—but he finds himself not caring.

 

Jason explores the details of all the places they went to—Pripyat (“You seriously went to the Nuclear Plant.” “I…wasn’t joking about that, Nico.”), Odesa, Moscow (“How’s our friend Ivan?” “He’s really enjoying pedicures now.”) and so on.

 

When Jason talks about the other places he’s been—where Thalia insisted that they go, now that she was an adult—he lights up. There’s a childlike gleam that wasn’t there in their first meeting, now that he has a big sister to fall back on.

 

And—of all the sisters that Nico’s had in his life, he’s first to admit that Thalia is one of the best.

 

Eventually, the music fades below them. Bianca finds them seated where they are, with her clothes tattered and askew, hair sticking in odd directions.

 

“You know what’s worse than people fighting over a bouquet?” she asks wryly—while Nico bites back a laugh. “Demigods who have combat experience.”

 

“You okay?” Jason stands to his feet immediately to inspect her—but Nico suspects a friendly gust helped separate everyone in Bianca’s immediate proximity. Still—the nerves have evidently eased for Bianca as she and Jason address each other.

 

“Weddings are violent as war zones,” Bianca mutters—in a fashion that’s too reminiscent to Nico himself. “Don’t forget that, Jace.”

 

“I…don’t think I’ll have to worry about that anytime soon,” Jason muses—and he flashes Nico an odd look. Nico can’t help but echo the sentiment. For all the battles he’s been a part of, Disney World’s wedding chapel is high on the list.

 

“It’s getting late,” Bianca says. She smooths out her hair until it looks presentable and flashes a look to Jason. “Looks like my brother stole you away for the evening, Jace. I didn’t even notice.”

 

There’s a rebuttal on Nico’s tongue—but Jason laughs.

 

“I don’t think I could keep up with you if I tried, Bee,” Jason says—and he gestures to Nico. “Nico’s more my speed.”

 

He smiles warmly—evidently deciding to cut off an infamous di Angelo argument. Nico’s had enough of those today. Still—he blushes.

 

“It’ll be an eventful day tomorrow,” Nico agrees—and he flashes a pointed look in Bianca’s direction. “And I’d actually like to sleep in tonight, Sis.”

 

Bianca flushes without argument—and shrugs. “The house is clean.”

 

Before anything else is said, Jason extends a hand out to both of them. His lips lift into a smile. “Allow me.”

 

The touch tingles as Nico curls his hand around Jason’s own. Whether it’s intended or not, Jason grazes the tips of Nico’s fingers like ages ago, and the smile on his face broadens.

 

For the first time in months, Nico drops into the shadows with Jason Grace.

 

*

 

He doesn’t realize how much he misses the tendrils of Jason’s darkness until he’s in it. It’s a sudden, incomparable rush—almost like a blast of cold air or a bucket of ice water. Once it happens, it suddenly stops happening—and they appear right in front of the praetor house.

 

Bianca sighs blissfully at the sight of her home, while Nico reorients himself.

 

“Welcome home,” Jason says. He points down the street and gestures to an apartment building, for Nico’s sake. “Thalia and I are over there.”

 

“Too far,” Bianca admonishes—but then she smiles. She hovers above the ground and pulls the son of Hades in an embrace. There are softer words murmured—words that Nico doesn’t get to hear himself—with the reaffirmation that both Jason and she both want to be close again. Then, “Good night, Jace.”

 

“Night,” Jason says—and his smile seems fuller.

 

Nico pushes away a needling thought. That despite the hectic battle Bianca saw at the wedding she and Jason look good together.

 

Then Jason turns to Nico, and his eyes light up like they did at the crypt. He opens his arms—

 

And Nico offers a hand, like their first reunion, before he can stop himself.

 

Jason blinks—and stare at the outreached hand in confusion.

 

Heat flushes over Nico’s face—and he feels the back of his throat dry. He opens his mouth to speak. Closes it.

 

“I smell awful,” Nico says finally. He gestures to Bianca behind him. “This one assaulted me with a vacuum cleaner this morning.”

 

Bianca makes a sound. “I did not—”

 

“Oh,” Jason says—and he blinks again. He smiles softly and meets Nico’s hand with his own. It’s…much like earlier, where his thumb brushed against Nico’s knuckles. “Good night, Nico.”

 

“Good night, Jason.” Nico decides not to think about how much his hand tingles at the contact.

 

Jason gives them both one last wave before he melts into the shadows again—presumably straight to his new room. Jason Grace, son of Hades. New Rome’s newest residence, with a benevolent smile and kind eyes.

 

 A yawn escapes Bianca’s lips, and she nudges him. “Time to turn in for the night, Nico.”

 

It takes a moment. Two.

 

“Yeah,” Nico agrees, after he gathers his bearings. Still, he finds it hard to peel his gaze away.

 

Bianca hooks an arm into his with an exhausted sigh, and he leans into her warmth. Then, for the second time in his life, his big sister pulls him, with the same three words from the alley way back in Venice at the front of his mind.  

 

*

Jason's Journal Entry, 06/11/20XX

 

Chapter 2: anniversary

Summary:

It's…all a work in progress. Even if Annabeth and he are still tentative in some of their conversations, it’s a life Jason wouldn’t trade back after last year.  

Life, with his big sister and his two best friends. With a new friend, in both Nico and Reyna. A new home away from Camp Halfblood—and all of the bad things that outweighed the good. The degree of free time he has is a change of pace from working at the med bay or helping out with classes or younger campers—but it’s time for himself.

At the end of the day, Jason’s happy that he moved.

Until the nightmares start up again.

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

It takes a couple of weeks in New Rome, but Jason finally hammers out a routine. He wakes up early for his morning runs. Then, with the three-hour time difference, he calls Annabeth to catch up as he waits for Thalia to rise.

 

Most of the time, Annabeth’s ramblings about architecture are white noise while Jason prepares for the day—but he gets to witness the hiccup in conversation, when Percy Jackson, more often than not, appears and calls her for Ancient Greek or Swordfighting classes. It's the happiest he’s seen Annabeth—being able to commit an entire summer designing new cabins for gods outside the court of Olympus.

 

“I can’t tell if Cabin Thirteen looks better or worse than the others,” Annabeth admits some days—critical of her own work and blueprints.

At first, Jason fell into a role of reassuring Annabeth that her designs were great. But the longer the summer has gone, that slot has been filled by someone else. Before Jason can even open his mouth—

 

“What if you installed one of those reinforced beams or whatever you were talking about?” Percy asks, before Jason can say a word.

 

The first time that happened, Annabeth raised her head, surprised, and the son of Neptune shrugged.

 

“Did I say it wrong?” he’d asked—which is when Jason knew Percy Jackson had a much easier time picking Annabeth’s brain than he did. Jason could offer design ideas from years of research as much as he wanted, but Percy apparently liked to hear her talk—including all the technical stuff.

 

It makes Jason feel less guilty for spending the summer (his first summer) away from Camp Halfblood—no matter everyone’s insistence that he can do what he wants.  

 

“Hades Cabin is ready for you whenever you’re here,” Annabeth promises him. Not a when you come back or, once you’re done with New Rome. Just—whenever, with a quiet countdown of when Annabeth will finally start college in the fall.  

 

(Admittedly she’s probably more excited about NRU. Jason would be hard-pressed to get between Annabeth Chase an architecture book.)

 

Percy and he keep conversation civil. There’s always a lifted eyebrow, or a calculated demeanor—which is how Jason knows that Percy Jackson, son of Neptune, is smarter than people give him credit for. Jason’s seen firsthand how much Nico values his relationship with his old co-centurion. And for all of the teasing Thalia gives the Fifth Cohort centurion, it’s always laced with a profound respect.

 

The first time he catches Reyna leaving the apartment in the morning, Jason has a fresh pot of coffee ready for her. She stares at him with tired eyes, while he greets her cheerily at the edge of dawn—and they have a strange conversation.

 

“You’re done with your run already?” she asks, while he cleans dishes in the sink. “Normally you’re still out by the time I leave.”

 

Jason arches an eyebrow at her straightforward comment. Normally they tiptoe around their current living arrangements (or therelackof.) “Sometimes I have to change it up. You…don’t have to sneak around me. You’re my sister’s girlfriend.”

 

Reyna stares at him oddly, in a way she did when they both lived in Camp Halfblood. She sets her mug down.

 

“We…never really discussed arrangements,” she says—and in another life, Jason wonders if they ever worked together. Reyna strokes her mug tentatively, evidently gauging his reaction.

 

“Oh,” is all Jason says, and he stares at her, puzzled. “I mean, is that something we have to discuss?”

 

“I play mediator for a lot of conflicts at camp, Jason,” Reyna says. “You’d be surprised how many feuds are started over someone claiming the wrong bunkbed. I…would like to avoid any potential drama over living arrangements. So, if at any point my presence is uncomfortable—”

 

“—you have your own house, where I’m sure you and Thalia go when you want more alone time,” Jason finishes for her. The corner of his lips lifts, and he offers her more creamer from the fridge. “I’ve had to stop a fight or two over a stolen teddy bear or blanket in Cabin Eleven, Reyna. I don’t think we’ll ever get that ugly.”

 

She flashes her own look of amusement as she stirs her coffee. “So long as you don’t feel like a stranger in your own home, Jason.”

 

Home, in New Rome with his big sister. With Bianca and Nico only a few doors down, and a university where his childhood friend would be attending in two more months. Jason’s chest swells at the mention of the word each time it’s used.

 

And he smiles, giving Reyna’s mug a gentle clink.

 

“I’ve got no complaints so long as my sister’s happy,” he reassures her. “And believe me—I’ve only ever seen her happy with you.”

 

Reyna blushes. She gives him another onceover. Whatever she notices, she doesn’t mention—but Jason can tell she’s in a better mood after that talk. Every now and then, they enjoy a quaint sunrise together while Thalia remains a night owl.

 

Breakfast usually follows at a bakery in town on the mornings Thalia insists Jason doesn’t need to cook. He’s not sure when the habit started. Jason’s used to enchanted plates from Camp Halfblood’s Dining Pavilion and Camp Jupiter had its own Mess Hall—but there’s something nice about having his own kitchen and his own pots and pans. Even if his skills don’t extend further than scrambled eggs in the morning.

 

On the mornings where he isn’t trying to busy himself, he gets to see Nico.

 

A sleepy, tired Nico who hardly seems awake with weddings and Reyna’s chores on his docket. Jason manages to swipe a slice of cherry pie out of Nico’s range more than once before the son of Juno can faceplant.

 

Even after Thalia and he get settled in, and Reyna takes back some of her own duties, both praetors both seem to have their hands full with integrating both camps. Weddings are apparently Nico-specific—and while he doesn’t seem to mind them, the weeks where they’re back-to-back leaves his voice raspy.

 

They usually get a word or two in over breakfast—before Reyna and Nico are swept away to the praetor’s office. Jason spends days with Thalia exploring San Francisco or New Rome—or with Bianca, trying to find the same cadence as easily as he did with Nico.

 

Two months without each other is different from a whole year and a half—with all of the tension of unsaid words in between. Maybe Bianca is trying to please him in the way Jason used to fall in line with her.

 

It's…all a work in progress. Even if Annabeth and he are still tentative in some of their conversations, it’s a life Jason wouldn’t trade back after last year.  

 

Life, with his big sister and his two best friends. With a new friend, in both Nico and Reyna. A new home away from Camp Halfblood—and all of the bad things that outweighed the good. The degree of free time he has is a change of pace from working at the med bay or helping out with classes or younger campers—but it’s time for himself.

 

At the end of the day, Jason’s happy that he moved.

 

Until the nightmares start up again.

 

*

 

Jason wakes up, gasping.

 

The ceiling fan spins above his head, and ambient light creeps through the window from the streetlamps. He feels around, hands outstretched with the expectation to reach the edge of his tiny twin bed at Camp Halfblood—but it reaches further, on his new full mattress. On his new bed, in his apartment in New Rome—with a nightstand holding his glass of water, and the journal he’s dutifully filled out every day on his desk.

 

It takes a moment for his pulse to settle. For the quiet to overcome the chaos of his bad dream. Jason curls a hand over his wrist, to ease the trembling between his fingers—and with steady breaths, eventually calms himself down.

 

He sees his bookshelf off in the distance, rather than the crowded array of twin beds and trunks. A poster on the wall, instead of a mural of winged shoes painted in the name of the Messenger God.

 

His own glass of water beside him, rather than…

 

Jason shakes his head. He rubs his forehead first, then curls his hand against the back of his neck. Two nightmares this week. Back-to-back.

 

It’s…not ideal. Jason reaches out for his journal, his fingers struggling to curl around his pencil. He scribbles his thoughts, as instructed by Mr. D. They don’t really make sense—not between exhaustion and confusion. When he can’t seem to make sense of his own thoughts, he shuts the notebook and lays back down.

 

Waits.

 

A second. Two.

 

A minute. Five.

 

And then eventually, Jason pushes himself out of bed and gets dressed instead. He pulls his tennis shoes out of the closet, double knots his laces, and goes for an evening run.

 

*

 

*

 

“Oh, you’re still in bed.”

 

Jason rubs the sleep out of his eyes and meets his sister’s gaze. Thalia looks at him from at the door of his bedroom, the surprise evident across her features. She’s dressed in her usual attire—some assortment of leather and fishnet—and most importantly, all things spiky, edgy, and black. She’s also more awake than most mornings. Jason had grown used to leaving her brunch in the microwave.

 

The edge of Thalia’s lips quirk into a smile. “You finally getting used to the time zone change, baby brother?”

 

“Which one?” Jason asks—and he smiles back sleepily. After traversing the world for the last two months, they’d learned to sleep on their own schedule. Thalia’s nocturnal clock seemed to adjust immediately when they got back to New Rome, while Jason’s was…well. A work in progress.

 

“It’s Friday,” Thalia reminds him.  

 

“Oh—sorry.” Jason stretches, a yawn at his lips. “I’ll get dressed.”

 

Fridays were breakfast days at Fabiano’s, where the Legion had an extra hour to themselves. In other words—neither Praetor Ramirez-Arellano nor Praetor di Angelo had to work right away. Thalia and her girlfriend’s schedule met a middle ground for waking at a reasonable hour.

 

He brushes his teeth and dresses quickly. Bianca, Reyna, and Nico are already in the living room, evidently waiting for his wake. Bianca perks first at his appearance, shifting enough weight on the couch that Nico rouses from his little nap, annoyed.

 

“Can you not?” Nico grumbles groggily—and he rubs his forehead.

 

“Morning, Nico,” Jason greets. Before he realizes it, the edge of his lips curl into a smile.

 

Nico stirs after a moment’s more, his blue eyes disillusioned by his sister, and he glances in Jason’s direction. Eventually he replies. “Morning, Jason.”

 

Thalia claps a hand on Jason’s back, a pertinent grin to her face, and they’re all ushered out the door.

 

Fridays were nice. The schedule seems to set itself up, rather than the other way around, as Jason tries to find things to fill his day. Watching Thalia’s eyes light up at the sight of her girlfriend—in a time of peace, rather than impending war—is always a better alternative. New Rome welcomes a normal to it that Camp Halfblood often lacked for Bianca—and Jason is finding that he really enjoys the change of pace from Long Island. The long, extended hills and the grassy valleys.

 

“You been running in the evenings now, Jason?” Thalia asks, when they finally settle into Fabiano’s.

 

“This past week, yeah.” Jason takes his rich brownie with a glass of milk.

 

Thalia shakes her head. “You know—for a retiree, you are way too active.”

 

Jason laughs awkwardly, arms crossed over his chest, and sips his milk. “I’m still trying to get into the swing of things. New Rome’s not really as…familiar to me as Long Island was.”

 

“The weather is much nicer,” Bianca interjects—and her eyes glimmer. “Like Venice.”

 

“I dunno—I don’t think he’s doing this senior citizen thing right,” Thalia jokes. She looks across the table, her lips curled in amusement. “What does the Senate say?”

 

One-half of the Senate is half asleep near the maple syrup. Jason gives Nico a gentle nudge, and the son of Juno is quick to wake.

 

“What?” Nico asks blearily.

 

Reyna arches an eyebrow—and reaches over to smooth Nico’s hair. “This senior praetor thinks you’re going to bed too late after you’re done with all of these weddings.”

 

Nico wipes the sleep out of his eyes once more and huffs. “Your co-praetor would like to remind you that his predecessor would have you sign off on city permits for screamo concerts that would make the whole city go to bed late.”

 

“Oh,” Thalia muses, “we haven’t had one of those in a while.”

 

“You won’t this week,” Nico says. “Someone booked the Coliseum for their wedding tomorrow evening. There’s going to be a duel to the death. I’m flying down on a chariot.”

 

Jason coughs and hides a laugh behind his fist. He watches as Nico’s eyes dart back to him momentarily, a flicker of amusement in his own eyes, while Reyna wrinkles her nose.

 

“Why do the Romans insist on a Duel to the Death?” Bianca asks, with a fraction of exasperation her tone.

 

“Why do the Romans do anything?” Nico rolls his eyes—and in one of the rare instances, the di Angelo siblings almost look like the same person in their bemusement.

 

“Honest to gods, who has so much money that they’re willing to rent out the entire Coliseum?” Reyna asks in disbelief.

 

“Babe,” Thalia replies. A grin spreads across her cheeks as she points to herself—and Reyna rolls her eyes.

 

“I know it’s not you,” Reyna retorts—but it gets a lively snicker anyway.

 

“People spend as much or as little as they think they should on a wedding. Kind of a scam,” Nico comments wryly. “At the end of the day, they all want the same thing for their relationship. A commitment.”

 

“Must be nice,” Jason says, “falling in love with someone and wanting to spend the rest of your life with them, I mean.”

 

And not having it completely blow up in your face, he decides not to say. Nico studies him carefully, a hand brushed up against his new tattoo, and he shrugs.

 

“Sometimes love isn’t even involved. Sometimes it’s a business transaction—or in Mammina’s case, blackmail,” Nico says—and Jason bites back another smile. “How’d we even get on this subject?”

 

“We were talking about how my brother spends his entire retirement just working on his eight-pack,” Thalia teases—and Jason feels the red blooming in his cheeks. “Seriously, I think the longest I’ve seen you sit still is to eat.”

 

Jason grows redder at his sister’s assessment, but Nico blinks.

 

“Your eight-pack?” he repeats, evidently still exhausted from his eventful days.

 

“I’ve been running in the evenings,” Jason translates—and he rubs his own bicep self-consciously. “Um. On top of my runs in the morning.”

 

“Jason gets his morning exercise before the cadets are even awake,” Reyna comments—which is something she can only say after a few weeks of staying at their apartment. “It’s a habit he hasn’t shaken from Camp Halfblood.”

 

It’s then that Nico frowns, slowly turning back to Jason. “Why?”

 

With Nico asking, Jason can’t help feeling self-conscious. He shrugs and rubs the back of his neck. “Just because, I guess.”  

 

To his surprise, Nico looks a little more awake. He stares for a moment, then opens his mouth to speak. Bianca beats him to the punch.

 

“You’ve been like this long before we met,” Bianca chastises—and she shakes her head. “You should slow down, Jace.”

 

“Hard to do that when the year’s almost halfway over,” Jason says—and his lips lift into a tired smile. He looks between their little group, with the realization that he’s the center of attention. Then, Jason sits a little straighter in his seat. “I’m fine, really. I’m just…used to doing things around Camp Halfblood. Basket-weaving. Candle blowing. Ancient Greek.”

 

Fighting, he doesn’t say. Training and planning.

 

“Which you don’t do anymore,” Nico says slowly, “because you’re retired.”

 

“Now he’s caught up,” Thalia says—and she laughs affectionately as Nico glows pink. “You’re welcome to come and go as you please, baby brother. Annabeth promised me Hades Cabin would look nothing less than badass.”

 

Something tells him that Annabeth and his sister may have different definitions of the word badass. Jason shakes his head, biting back the queasiness at the pit of his stomach. “Maybe another weekend.”

 

“You could attend the War Game tonight,” Reyna suggests. “Not participate—but they’re similar to Capture the Flag. You might enjoy yourself.”

 

“Another night,” Jason promises. “I…might have to, though. I’m feeling like the odd-one out for skipping out on those.”

 

To his surprise, Nico nudges him in the shoulder, with a careful look in his eye. His lips press into a flat line. “War Games aren’t for everyone. There’s plenty of other things to do in New Rome.”

 

In his head, Jason can almost hear their conversation from when he first came back. Fighting isn’t for everyone. He takes in Nico’s empathetic look and settles a little more in his seat.

 

Thalia gives him a gentle squeeze on the shoulder. “You okay without me tonight?”

 

“I’ll find something to occupy my time,” Jason says—and he gives her a reassuring squeeze.

 

Still—finding something to preoccupy his time may take the longest of all.

 

*

 

Thalia ends up parting ways to walk Reyna and Nico to the principia. As always, it leaves Jason and Bianca together.

 

They’ve talked occasionally since the end of spring. The more Jason sees her in New Rome, the happier Bianca seems—in a content, normal life without the fear of a quest or unavoidable destiny looming over their heads. Which—works out best for the both of them. Bianca gets what she wants, and Jason has one of his best friends again.

 

Most days are spent enjoying the ambiance. Bianca takes pictures around all of the buildings of New Rome, or they wander around San Francisco. There’s a year missing between them, where Bianca was a huntress before death, and Jason mourned everyone who died. They don’t approach that subject often.

 

In a way, they’re both still trying to get used to what New Rome has to offer compared to what Camp Halfblood lacked—a life within a safe haven, rather than a safe haven from life. There’s a relief in Jason, when Terminus strictly tells them that weapons aren’t allowed past the boundaries of the city.

 

Bianca is partial to the mall, where demigods can safely gather and go in and out of a store without the fear of monsters looming over them. She has a nervous energy that followed her in rebirth—all related to her new life and making things perfect with Nico. Making things right.

 

“Is Nico okay?” Jason asks—when Nico’s disgruntled demeanor lingers in his mind. “He sounds like he’s shouldering a lot this summer.”

 

Bianca shrugs as she rifles through clothes. “It’s the combination of wedding season and integrating both camps. If he’s not busy with one thing, then he and Reyna are busy with the other.”

 

“Integrating both camps is…a lot,” Jason says, and his lips press into a worried frown. “That’s basically twice as many people.”

 

“I volunteered to help him with the wedding stuff,” Bianca admits—and she lets out a tired sigh, “but he told me not to worry about it. I…think he still feels bad over the whole Calypso thing. Me deciding to stay rather than travel the world with her.”

 

Jason thinks of the Titan daughter that graced their presence at the edge of spring. He remembers how firm Bianca was about staying in Ogygia, until Zeus forced her against it. “Have you guys talked about it?”

 

“No,” Bianca replies blithely—and she pulls out a dress to look at. “That would involve talking about my love life, and neither of us want that.”

 

She’s pointed in her statement, her nose wrinkling, and Jason holds back a smile. Still—he notices her eyes dim with a quiet frustration. One that isn’t too far from what he’s seen in the past.

 

“If,” Jason starts slowly, “that’s something that worries you, maybe it’d be worth talking about.”

 

“Jace, my love life?” Bianca asks, and she looks at him with grimace. “When’s the last time you wanted to talk about yours?”

 

“Well,” Jason starts—and he stops soon after. He shifts uncomfortably. “Um.”

 

The last time he had to talk about his love life was with Eros—and he’s not keen on reliving those memories again.

 

As Bianca flashes him a guilty look, Jason’s not sure if it makes him feel better or worse. She hangs the dress back up. “Sorry. We can go back to my pathetic love life.”

 

“I hardly call having a goddess for a girlfriend pathetic.”

 

She smiles at him more tentatively than he expects. Then she pushes a lock of long hair behind her ear and guides him to another rack of clothes. “She and I were never going to last in the long run.”

 

“You’re so sure about that?”

 

“We didn’t want the same things.” Bianca glances back at Jason. “I mean—we both wanted a life where the gods didn’t have control over us. She was stuck on an island for thousands of years and I lost my brother because of something stupid I did when I was twelve. I got my brother back, and she got a life again. If…I was stuck on an island, where someone would leave every time they fell in love with me, I’d want to focus on myself, too. Because I want to. Not because I’m forced to.”

 

Jason thinks back to the vision he saw of Bianca in Ogygia. The one with her bare feet in the sand and dressed in a Grecian gown. Bianca looked as in her element in an island paradise as she did wielding a bow and electric arrows. She’d held onto Calypso’s hand like a lifeline, but…Bianca also changed lives like the clouds changed weather—so the atmosphere would fit her, rather than the other way around.

 

Still—he thinks of how hopeful she was on Olympus when she begged for Calypso’s freedom. How excited she was, her hands laced together with the goddess and a smile to her face. One moment, Jason saw his best friend in love—and the next, she was telling him how they’d broken up, with nothing but a sad smile to her face as she and Hazel got to know each other. It’s just…hard to imagine.  

 

“So,” Jason replies, “you’re really over it.”

 

Bianca looks at him—almost studying him in a way he’s grown used to with Nico—and nods in return. “I mean…it took a while, but yeah. I really don’t want to be with someone who doesn’t want to be with me. I deserve that much, don’t I?”

 

“You do,” Jason agrees. The corner of his lip curls into a smile. “When you put it that way, it doesn’t sound nearly as pathetic as you think it does.”

 

Her laughter is quaint. “The mindset’s half the battle, Jace. Actually finding someone who wants my company is another mission entirely.”

 

“I like your company,” Jason says—and she rolls her eyes.

 

“You’re a good friend,” Bianca replies. She folds a hand over a clothing rack and shakes her head. “Maybe I’ll just die alone. At least this way I can’t get roped into some loveless marriage.”

 

It’s an interesting thing, listening to Bianca joke about her previous life. She’s happier now. Truly, compared to her life before the Huntresses, when she pretended the prophecy didn’t exist. Jason used to enjoy those moments where they weren’t son of Hades and daughter of Zeus—but two teenagers, sneaking out and living.

 

Now they got to blend the two.

 

“I’m a son of Hades, Bee,” he reminds her. “I’ll enjoy your company in death, too.”

 

Bianca looks up to him, the corner of her lips lifting into another a smile. She puts away a dress and kisses him on the cheek.

 

“You’re going to make some lucky girl’s heart explode someday, Jace,” she declares. Bianca hooks their arms together. “Or boy.”

 

“I…doubt it,” Jason replies—and he decide against commenting on his own love life.

 

They check out of the first store with a few new outfits for Bianca. She has fun talking up the cashier—a pretty nymph that lives in the ficus behind the counter. Bianca’s eager to have conversations that blend the mortal world with the mythological one—and ends up getting an extra discount on top of her clothes.

 

“Do you even have room in your closet?” Jason asks.

 

“Let me worry about that,” Bianca promises—and Jason bites back another smile.

 

On their way out of the store, Jason spots two familiar faces. “Oh—I think that’s Leo and Piper.”

 

Sure enough, the son of Vulcan and daughter of Aphrodite are chatting with a satyr—a faun—that is waving around a mysterious mug. Jason’s not sure what to think of it.

 

“Oh?” Bianca perks. “Oh.”

 

And then she shrinks behind Jason, nearly taking his weight with her as she hides.

 

“Whoa—” Jason blinks, feeling one daughter of Hera sidle under his silhouette. “Um. Bianca?”

 

“I’m not here,” Bianca hisses hastily.

 

“What? Why?” Jason turns to face her—but she’s quick to shove his face frontwards. “Bianca, I’m confused.”

 

“Just pretend I’m not here,” Bianca repeats, “and shield me when they walk by.”

 

She uses the same tone of voice from when they would play Capture the Flag together, with an impromptu rescue mission for their comrades. Jason blinks and follows Bianca’s line of sight. “Is this because of Piper? I thought the two of you got along.”

 

“We—” Bianca glows, and she tugs at the back of Jason’s shirt. “—don’t hate each other.”

 

“That clears things up, Bee.”

 

“Your sarcasm isn’t appreciated,” Bianca retorts.

 

Jason turns his head again. “I just don’t understand—”

 

“Hey, it’s the Ghost Boy.”  Leo comes into their line of sight, a nefarious grin to his face as they come close. “And…friend?”

 

Bianca would’ve hid better if she hadn’t squeaked. When she does, Piper looks over, one eyebrow lifted into the air.

 

“Hi Leo,” Jason greets. “Hi, Piper.”

 

“Jason,” Piper replies—her tone courteous. She’s dressed in a tie-dye Powerpuff Girls tank top, a pair of loose-fitted jeans, and a dirty pair of chucks that look like they don’t belong with the outfit.

 

But—being the daughter of Aphrodite that she is, it comes together. It’s a far cry from the dainty image that Jason’s grown used to from Bianca.

 

“Bianca,” Piper says, as though sensing the contrast herself. “Hi.”

 

Jason finds himself at an impasse, with Bianca’s hands fisting the back of his shirt and both Leo and Piper staring awkwardly. Eventually, Bianca unfurls her hands from Jason’s back and peeks over his shoulder.

 

“Hi,” she offers—and Piper doesn’t look any less amused.

 

“You buy a new dress?” Piper asks.

 

Bianca stares back at her blankly—until Piper gestures to the bag in her hand. “Oh. Oh! Yes. I bought a dress. For me.”

 

The edge of Piper’s lips curl into a smile. “Cool.”

 

“Cool,” Bianca repeats. “Yeah. Cool.”

 

Jason stares at his best friend quizzically—at her nervous demeanor, and the way she curls her hand over the handle of her shopping bag. Then he looks over to Leo—who seems to be darting back and forth between both girls, demeanor filled with amusement.

 

“So,” Jason says eventually, to fill in the awkwardness. “How’s the weaponry shop doing?”

 

At the mention of his shop, Leo splits into a grin. He crosses his arms over his chest. “Pretty well, man! Business is booming this summer. You’d be surprised how well a souvenir double-edged sword goes for first-time visitors in Camp Jupiter.”

 

“I think you have a pretty good reputation after building a boat out of a dragon, Leo.” Jason smiles amicably, while Leo shrugs.

 

“Whatever pays for Festus’s parts,” Leo says. “My boy’s almost up and operational again. I’ll have enough money by the end of the summer to get all of the sheet metal I need to fix him up.”

 

“I…thought Festus was at Camp Halfblood,” Bianca says. She stares at Leo curiously.

 

“He is,” Leo reassures. Then he rolls his eyes and nudges Piper in the shoulder. “But this one is all the way out on the west coast. Hard to say no to a first-class ticket.”

 

Piper smiles back and nudges Leo affectionately. “First class means you complains less. That’s the only way I’ll have you, Valdez.”

 

“Beauty Queen, I will gladly fill in the gaps with something else to annoy you.” Leo snickers and ribs Piper back just as warmly. For two Roman and Greek demigods, they get along swimmingly—long before they had to worry about ballistae firing across New Rome. Jason can’t help but relish in their friendship.

 

Bianca looks over to Piper. “You’re…not at Camp Halfblood, either?”

 

Piper makes a face and shakes her head. “I think I’ve had enough demigod time being stuck in the Labyrinth for all of spring semester. I’d rather have some me time.”

 

“Here,” Bianca replies, “in New Rome.”

 

“Piper’s dad lives in Malibu,” Leo explains. “Not the quickest trip, but—”

 

“Much closer than going coast-to-coast,” Piper finishes for him. “After everything that happened this past spring, I just want to be close to family. You know?”

 

Bianca studies her carefully, a look of surprise passing over her features. Then she gives a reaffirming nod. “I know.”

 

“Hey—I’ve seen you with a bow and arrow. I’ve got some trick arrows I’ve been working on if you’re interested. Maybe some doggie armor for that ferocious hellhound of yours.” Leo grins and pulls out a business card from nowhere. “Hit me up, Bee.”

 

Bianca is reluctant, but takes the card anyway. “Jace is the only one that calls me Bee.”

 

“Ignore him,” Piper says—and she rolls her eyes. “Leo goes for girls out of his league to get a rise out of them.”

 

At that comment, Bianca’s cheeks flourish pink. And she repeats, “Out of his league.”

 

“Guilty,” Leo replies. “Though—you’re less out of my league and in the absolutely no fly zone.

 

At that comment, Bianca’s lips contort into a frown.  

 

“Ignore him,” Piper says again—to which Leo laughs.

 

“Yeah, ignore me,” Leo agrees. “So, you guys eat yet?”

 

Jason blinks as Leo’s eyes suddenly land on him expectantly, despite speaking with Bianca only moments before. Leo’s lips curl into a crooked smile, and he looks like a devilish Santa’s elf.

 

Bianca’s stomach erupts in a growl—garnering all of their attention. She flushes, red dusting across her cheeks as she looks back to Jason—equal parts hopeful and mortified.

 

“Sorry,” Jason says, and he pats his stomach. “Guess I could eat.”

 

*

 

The last time Jason talked to Leo was aboard the Argo II, when the son of Vulcan admitted how much he missed his family—the one he gained after coming to New Rome.

 

The stress of war had made Leo chary. For all of the ways both wars had affected Jason, he felt awful for putting Leo in a similar position. Still—they never got to revisit that subject after Gaea exploded. Jason spent a week in Camp Halfblood’s med bay alongside Will Solace and the rest of Cabin Six, but once he announced his departure, the expectation was to faze him out of a lot of the responsibilities at camp.

 

Leo and he saw each other in passing before he left. For the most part, Leo and the rest of his siblings from Cabin Nine seemed to enjoy hiding out in the bunker and fixing up their mechanical dragon. Hazel, Frank, and Annabeth knew Leo much better after months on the Argo II together. Jason’s time was split between the med bay, Annabeth, and Bianca’s sides before they all saw him off with Thalia.

 

It was…hard to let go. But also one of the most relieving decisions Jason was allowed to make.

 

War weathered everyone. The stress that came from a second civil war and the rise of Gaea made it more important to look out for each other—and harder to like each other. So Jason understands how Leo could grow antsy on a boat while away from his weapons shop and the blacksmiths that trained him.

 

With war aside, talking to Leo feels like their first few meetings before things grew tense between the Greeks and Romans. It’s light and easy—which is probably why Jason enjoyed the company so much to begin with. Now, though, Leo seems even more at ease with family on both coasts, and his best friend at his side.

 

Jason picks a chicken strip off his plate, while Leo and Piper recount a story of Capture the Flag from this past weekend.

 

“Man,” Leo says, and he claps his hands to the food court table. “What I wouldn’t give to break apart Clarisse’s spear.”

 

“And see what it’s made of?” Jason asks, the edge of his lips curling with amusement.

 

“No,” Leo dismisses, and he shakes his head. He leaves it at that.

 

On the other hand, Bianca laughs at her words and nabs a French fry from Jason’s tray. “Annabeth, Jace, and I used to team up for Capture the Flag. You put the three of us together and the Red Team basically had no choice but to handover their banner.”

 

At that claim, Piper’s expression flickers in surprise. Jason recognizes it from months ago, when Bianca called him a swordsman when Piper expected a healer. “Really?”  

 

“You should have seen it,” Bianca gushes—and she relishes their glory days with a sense of awe. “Jason was amazing. He shouldered all of camp back then—there wasn’t anything that he couldn’t do, but—”

 

She pauses, and glances over to Jason, who smiles tentatively in his seat, hand curled at his bicep.

 

“—but he’s retired now,” Bianca finishes, her vibrato lowering. She smiles at him, the vigor of her voice changing into something calmer. Jason can’t help but smile back.  “And he’s become one of the best healers that I know.”

 

“Oh—no, I believe that much. You can’t walk two feet in Camp Halfblood without hearing how Jason used to do this or that,” Piper says—though no exasperation lingers in her voice. She turns to Jason, and they share a glance that’s nothing more than neutral. “Cabin Thirteen looks badass. Annabeth did a good job with it.”

 

“So I’ve heard,” Jason replies—and he smiles tentatively.

 

“I was surprised to hear you played Capture the Flag,” Piper explains—and she turns back to Bianca more pointedly.

 

Bianca stares back, surprised. “Why?”

 

“You…just don’t seem like the fighting type. Not like Hazel, I mean,” Piper explains—and Bianca looks back, offended.

 

“You were literally holding onto me while we rode across camp and slayed monsters,” Bianca reminds her. She arches her eyebrow.  

 

“Sounds romantic,” Leo comments—and Jason holds back a laugh.

 

“I recall the dog doing most of the work,” Piper says—her voice much more even than Bianca’s own.

 

“You think hellhounds are easy to train?” Bianca asks. She looks more like her godly mother, her intonation sweet, but eyes daring Piper to say something rotten. “Jason, tell her how hard they are to train.”

 

Jason decides he’s better off not biting. He startles at the sound of his name and coughs. “I—uh. I don’t think I have a dog in this fight.”

 

“Jace, you literally own Mrs. O’Leary,” Bianca points out, and she uses a shrewder tone. He shrugs. “I was a huntress, too. I swore my life to Lady Artemis. I can fight.”  

 

“Didn’t you die?” Leo asks—and Bianca whips a frown in his direction. Immediately, he brings his hands in front of him. “Whoa, girlie—I mean that as least offensively as possible.”

 

He turns to Jason.

 

“Is that considered offensive?” he asks. “Asking someone who came back to life about their death?”

 

“I…can’t say it’s something you see very often,” Jason replies, as he gauges his best friend’s reaction. “So…circumstantial?”

 

“I didn’t mean any offense,” Piper says quickly—and she eases back into her seat. “To be fair, I didn’t exactly see much of you between Disney World and now. I just figured you were like most girls.”

 

“Most girls how?” Bianca asks, her voice wry and disapproving. She smooths out her hair over her shoulder.

 

“You know, most girls,” Piper replies, and she places her vegan burger back on her plate.

 

“What’s wrong with most girls?” Bianca frowns, while Piper looks uncomfortable to continue.

 

“Girls who just care about their looks and being with the alpha crowd.” Piper waves a French fry in Jason’s direction.

 

“Does Jason look like an alpha to you?” Bianca makes a face and shakes his shoulder.

 

“Again,” Jason reminds her, uncomfortable while Leo laughs. “No dog in this fight.”

 

“We were literally just talking about what a legend Jason Grace, Son of Hades is,” Piper protests. She shakes her head and spares Jason another glance before going back to her food. “Look, it’s a compliment. It just means you’re not like other girls. You shouldn’t be underestimated.”

 

Bianca studies the daughter of Aphrodite with an eerie silence. Then, “You think most girls are underestimated?”

 

“Well—I don’t think any girls should be underestimated.” Piper shakes her head. “But—you have to admit that there are a lot of girls out there who make it harder for the rest of us.”

 

“Us other girls,” Bianca supplies, her tone speculative.

 

“Like us, Reyna, Hazel, Thalia, and Annabeth, yeah,” Piper agrees—and she looks back at Bianca expectantly. “I mean—just because you like to get your hair done and look pretty doesn’t mean you’re any less intelligent. But the other girls who like that stuff—like my sister Drew—she makes it harder for the rest of us. People laugh at my cabin because all they care about is being popular and looking pretty.”

 

At the mention of Drew, Jason’s lips twist into a grimace. “That’s…kind of—”

 

“I’m a girl,” Bianca replies, her tone of voice steady. “And I like to dress up in cute clothes and get my hair done because it makes me feel good. Just like shooting arrows, and hunting, and winning Capture the Flag makes me feel good. Neither one makes me more or less of a girl. I’m all girl.”

 

Piper stares at her, confused.

 

“Just like how you wielded a knife, charmspoke the Labyrinth, and you care about your looks because they make you feel good,” Bianca finishes.

 

“I don’t care about my—”

 

“You’re dressed like that because you like the way you look.”  Bianca gestures to the daughter of Aphrodite’s ensemble—then to her hair. “And you did your own hair because you like how that looks. And Leo’s literally one of the Seven—so he’s every bit as popular as Jace is.”

 

“Care to tell my agent that?” Leo muses—and his grin spreads with Bianca’s charm.

 

Bianca sits a little straighter in her seat. “You’re pretty and powerful. Just like Drew. I sincerely mean that as a compliment—she’s a fun one to go shopping with.”

 

Piper stares back at Bianca, evidently not expecting the rebuttal. For a daughter of Aphrodite known for her charmspeak, she’s evidently speechless. Red flushes across her cheeks, embarrassed by her own words.

 

“Hey, Ghost Boy—” Leo leans across the table and nudges Jason with his own foot. “Who’s winning here? Because all I hear is Beauty Queen and Stargirl over there calling each other pretty.”

 

Bianca suddenly flushes as pink as Piper, and the daughter of Aphrodite shoots Leo a dirty look. Leo grins anyway, much more amused by the exchange than Jason.

 

“My mother is the goddess of family and women,” Bianca reminds Piper. She lifts a hand. “So from one demigod with a power goddess mom to another—how about we just agree that girls are awesome?”

 

Piper doesn’t look happy about being chastised. She stares down at Bianca’s hand and eventually reaches out with her own.

 

“Girls are awesome,” Piper agrees—and the corner of her lip curls into a steady smirk. “But you’re gonna have to put your money where your mouth is about Capture the Flag.”

 

Bianca takes in the taunt and grins. “It’s a date.”

 

They shake hands much more amicably than before—and Jason can’t help exhaling a sigh of relief. It’s rare he sees Bianca riled up—but she looks far less nervous now than she did when they exited that clothing boutique.

 

Then, Piper asks, “Is it now?”

 

Red flushes in Bianca’s cheeks once more. She’s quick to pull her hand away and go back to the food at her plate.

 

There’s a daft silence at their table, where no one speaks. Not until Leo gets fed up and asks, “So—do you like ketchup or barbecue sauce with your chicken strips, D.P.?”

 

*

 

“So why exactly do you not like Piper?” Jason asks much later, after a long day at the mall. They take the lengthy way back, after perusing few more shops. While Bianca’s arms are full of bags of new clothes, the surplus spills over to Jason.

 

Bianca flushes as they make it to the edge of New Rome, where Terminus gives them the slightest onceover before dismissing himself to ridicule another New Roman or camper not up to code. “I don’t dislike Piper, I just don’t know how to talk to Piper.”

 

“That’s a whole lot of not talking you did with her today.”

 

“I don’t remember you being this sassy before I died,” Bianca retorts—and Jason smiles sheepishly. “Piper’s nice. I get why Nico gets along with her, I just—don’t know how you’re supposed to talk to someone that pretty.”

 

“Like every other person from the sounds of it,” Jason says helpfully—and this time, Bianca rolls her eyes. “Sorry—I couldn’t really follow half the conversation. I think Leo and I were just trying to make sure it wasn’t going to escalate.”

 

Bianca stares at him weirdly. “Why would it escalate?”

 

“Because,” Jason says—and then he stops. “I mean…because it sounded like it was going to escalate?”

 

“You just don’t understand girls.”

 

“I hardly understand boys,” Jason agrees, and he stares back at her, flummoxed. Love and marriage. Jason thinks he’s given his heart too many times to the first one—all ending with more cracks than the first attempt. He’s not sure how Nico could summarize marriage as a business transaction when one seems essential for the other—but he also never thought he’d live long enough to consider it an option.

 

He still doesn’t.

 

“So are you going on a date with Piper?” he asks—and Bianca almost walks into a telephone pole. Jason yanks her back.

 

“What part of that conversation makes you think that Piper wants to go on a date with me?”

 

“The part where she said she wanted to see you in Capture the Flag, and you called it a date,” Jason says—and he watches as she glows pink. “It’s…not like how Calypso wants to travel the world. It sounds like Piper’s just going to be a few hours away.”

 

“You’re rushing this,” Bianca says miserably.

 

“I’m—not rushing anything.” They halt as they reach their residential block, and Jason’s eyebrows furrow together. “You know I’d never push you.”

 

Bianca’s demeanor twists—and they’re quick to diminish the topic of Piper McLean.  Instead, she turns to meet his gaze, and they approach another rough patch in their friendship. Where Bianca di Angelo did whatever she wanted and Jason Grace obliged because it was better to have her here, than gone.

 

“I know,” she agrees softly, and she curls her hands over her shopping bags. She touches his shoulder with some unknown strength (because seriously—her clothes were heavy) and rolls to the soles of her heels. “I don’t know—she hasn’t necessarily seen me at my best. I’m either arguing with Nico, or I’m saying something stupid.”

 

“I don’t think Nico would disagree with what you said today,” Jason protests. “Look, Bee—I’m not pushing you to do anything. I’m just asking questions. Honest. But you did call your love life pathetic earlier.”

 

Bianca snorts—and Jason can’t help but think it’s a habit developed after living with Nico again for so long.

 

“And,” Jason adds helpfully, “it sure beats dying alone.”

 

The corner of her lips lifts, and she looks more like herself as she leans into him. “What happened to always having you by my side?”

 

“I’ve reconsidered and respectfully decided you need someone who can keep up with you on the dance floor,” Jason informs—and she laughs.  

 

“We’ll see if fate allows us to meet again,” Bianca declares—and she pulls a lock of hair behind her ear. It’s hard not to think about their past lives—that twelve-year-old girl with her green cap and timid eyes, next to a just-as careful twelve-year-old Jason.

 

“That’s very poetic of you.”

 

“Less poetic when the Fates literally control our lives,” Bianca retorts wryly. They make it to her house, and she hands over more of her bags to unlock the front door. There’s a foot of distance between them, as peers back at him carefully. She takes the bags out of his hand.  “I’m…thankful that you’ve never pushed me, Jace. But a gentle nudge for you wouldn’t hurt.”

 

“A gentle for what?” The edge of Jason’s lips twitch.

 

“You,” Bianca says, “and your love life.”

 

Oh. Jason blinks and stares back at her, taken aback.

 

“Just a thought. I’m not pushing you to do anything.” Bianca echoes his words from earlier and lean against her doorframe. “But…next week will mark a year. You know?”

 

“I…” Jason starts. His nose twitches. “Um.”

 

“Even the King of the Dead doesn’t walk alone in life,” she reminds him. “You can’t keep up with me, but maybe someone else is already moving at your pace, Jace.”

 

Jason considers her reasoning. “My dad was a thousand years old before Persephone was even born.”

 

“And now he lives in the most faithful marriage known to demigod,” Bianca points out—which makes Jason smile. “It’s just a thought, Jace.”

 

Before he can protest—or give any response, really—she kisses him on the cheek goodbye and heaves a heavy sigh.

 

“Now I must find room in my closet,” she declares.

 

“You sound like you’re going off to war.” Jason smiles faintly.

 

“There will be many casualties,” she says forlornly—and then she smiles at him like she would have after a day trip to NYC. “Bye, Jace. Have a good night.”

 

“You too, Bee.”

 

She shuts the door behind her, leaving Jason alone with his thoughts. That thought.

 

*

 

Running around New Rome in the evenings has actually helped Jason learn the landscape better. There are fewer people out at night—no one but the critical Lares, who glowed in midnight’s dusk and waggle their fingers at him if he happened to run across their path. Jason doesn’t do that often—but tonight in particular, his head is elsewhere.

 

If it were any other demigod, they’d go right through the Lares—but Jason Grace, son of Hades, has a special knack for bumping straight into them. He apologizes profusely, of course—he’s been in his own thoughts in the last few days. Bianca’s gentle (unexpected) nudge seems to push him further into that headspace. Especially now.

 

He's always enjoyed running. No weapons to worry about, no people who need protection. Just Jason in his thoughts, without destiny clamoring at his ankles.

 

He drags his feet across different terrains—the asphalt of the via principalis, the grassy hills of the outskirts of New Rome—and the cobblestone steps within city limits. Jason runs a little further every day. West, in the opposite direction of Long Island and Camp Halfblood.

 

But, he knows the longer he goes west, he’ll circle back to east coast. His childhood home.

 

With Bianca’s thought on his mind, it blocks out some of the other reasons why he keeps his steady trek. At the same time, it makes those thoughts worse. Those nightmares.

 

Jason hadn’t given much thought to his love life—if ever. His heart was taken to the Fields of Punishment, where he wasn’t keen on going. After Eros’s arrows and piercing words this past spring, he’s even less inclined to want love than after his sixteenth birthday.

 

It’s just not something he gave a lot of thought to, since everything—everyone—focused on what would happen that day. Instead of the other days in Jason’s life, where he was just…trying to live. Trying not to die because he had a duty.

 

HIs camp beads are a heavy rope around his neck—much like the noose of the Achille’s Curse that pulled him out of the River Styx. Each bead he earned became a countdown until the very last one. The one that held the name of every other demigod who died for his destiny.

 

He thinks of Bianca’s words about Hades—how of the Three Kings, his father was the most faithful to his wife. For a long time, Jason struggled with the fact that the one time Hades, King of the Dead, was infidel was to sire a son who would deal with the heavy hand of the fate of Olympus. So, good and bad. Mostly bad, for Jason.

 

And some good, wedged in there like hope in Pandora’s Box.

 

Jason is enough, his mother had said. Jason Grace, the healer—someone to bring his mother out of the glamorous life that turned her into a hollow shell.

 

He’s retired from that life now, because there was meaning outside of Camp Halfblood and Olympus.

 

So—in his efforts to find a new meaning in his life—in cherishing his relationship with his sister, rekindling his connection with Annabeth, finding common ground with Bianca and understanding that Camp Halfblood did him as much wrong as he did it—maybe love could be there. For him.

 

“Maybe not,” he says almost automatically to his father’s crypt. His evening runs always seem to end up there—with Jason staring at his father’s small statue and offering new flowers or offerings in the brazier.

 

A lot has changed since last year. In going west—further west, he’s crossed Moscow, Odesa, and Croatia again. All of the places that made him feel better as a son of Hades when Jason questioned whether he should even be alive. Jason thinks he’s finally understanding what it means to be his father’s son—but whatever Eros and Aphrodite intend for his love life is a bad monster he’d rather keep in Tartarus.

 

Or—as of right now, in the Fields of Eternal Punishment. And getting it out of there feels…dangerous.

 

He’s so deep in thought that he doesn’t notice someone walking up behind him. “Jason?”

 

Jason smiles before he can help himself, his head bowed—and then turns to meet Nico’s gaze. Nico’s not dressed in the shining glamor of a crown or bangles or whatever other jewelry—just the same Camp Jupiter t-shirt in the summer’s heat and a praetor’s badge. It’s different from the regalia he’s adorned to officiate weddings, and the praetor armor Jason’s used to from their quest.

 

But, no less Nico, who flashes him a curious glance. “What are you doing up so late?”

 

“My evening run.” Jason takes a final inspection of his father’s brazier before standing to his feet and dusting of his knees. “Who won the War Games?”

 

He’s not expecting Nico to look at him so oddly, one eyebrow high in the air. “The First and Fifth, once they stopped butting heads.”

 

“Sounds like trouble.”

 

“So are most teambuilding exercises,” Nico remarks. “Reyna and I were announcing lights out when I noticed someone running through Temple Hill. Is this when you normally take your evening run?”

 

“Yeah.” Jason looks back at Nico, puzzled. “Why?”

 

“Because it’s a quarter past one,” Nico points out—and Jason flushes.

 

Jason touches the back of his neck self-consciously. “Dad’s crypt is my checkpoint. I usually run through a bit of New Rome before I head back home.”

 

Nico stares at him. Then he turns around and points to the red-roofed porticos off in the distance, near the boundaries of New Rome. “You go there.”

 

“Um. Yeah.”

 

“And—” Nico gestures past the via principalis, where both praetor houses and Jason’s apartment complex sit. “—you run past home.”

 

“Yes.”

 

“Across the Forum, up the hills of Temple Hill, all the way to your dad’s crypt?” Nico frowns and eyes him again. “That’s more running than I expect out of my cadets, Jason.”

 

There’s a way that Nico says my cadets that warms Jason’s heart. Nico’s grown into the role as praetor to the legion comfortably after a few short months. Jason can’t help but smile—but then he remembers he’s also on the hot seat with one son of Juno.

 

“No one else is out in New Rome right now. My only enemy is a phone booth if I’m not looking,” Jason jokes. “Easier to clear my head this way.”

 

“Do you need that these days?”

 

Jason blinks. When he looks back up, Nico sports the same look he did this morning, before Bianca interrupted him.

 

“I thought you said you were running just because,” Nico continues. His expression is less curious now. “You sure you’re okay, Jason?”  

 

The edge of Jason’s lips curl into a nervous smile, and he concedes. “Can’t get one over you, can I?”

 

Nico flushes and crosses his arms over his chest. “I can’t help it if I notice things.”

 

“I appreciate it,” Jason promises. “I just…you’ve been so busy these days that I didn’t realize there was something to notice.”

 

There’s a moment of hesitation, where Nico looks at the dirt at his feet, then slowly scoots his shoe across grass. He sighs and rubs the praetor badge pinned to his shirt, then shakes his head.

 

“You only touch the back of your neck when you’re nervous,” Nico says finally. “You did that a lot during our quest. It’s…hard, not to notice.”

 

Oh. Again, Jason blinks, and looks back to the son of Juno, who stares at him just as flustered as before. Even as he speaks, Jason realizes his hand is curled at the base of his neck.

 

“That’s where the curse is,” Nico says, “right?”

 

Wow. “I…really can’t get one over you.”

 

“You just have to look for the right things,” Nico says—and he stuffs his hands in the pockets of his pants. There’s a moment where Nico looks shy, but Jason can’t figure out why. “I…spent too long on our quest not looking for the right things. I. don’t really want that to happen again.”

 

Jason stares back at the son of Juno, taken aback once more. The pads of his fingers brush against the weak point of his neck—then he brings his hands to his sides.

 

“It was just a guess,” Nico continues quickly—and he brings his shoulders to his ears. “You can tell me I’m wrong and I’ll believe you.”

 

“It’s fine, Nico.” Jason sits against a patch of grass and pats the area beside him. Nico looks back, nervous, and slowly makes his way beside Jason. “You just surprised me. I don’t think Annabeth even knows.”

 

“Is that what’s bothering you?”

 

“Not necessarily,” Jason says—and he brushes his thumb over his neck again—as though it’s still raw and new. He remembers doing it almost a year ago and thinking about how his entire mortality was reduced to something smaller than a fingerprint beneath the knot of his necklace. “I had a weird conversation with Bianca earlier.”

 

“It’s Bianca,” Nico retorts—and Jason laughs. Then, “Weird, how?”

 

Jason breaks down their mall visit. How they ran into Leo and Piper, and the awkward experience of watching Bianca di Angelo and Piper McLean have a showdown about how awesome women are.

 

“Leo’s shop is doing that well, huh?” Nico notes. “I signed a document today so he could get a bigger booth at the Forum. Good for him.”

 

There’s no animosity there. Jason recalls awkward run-ins aboard the Argo II, where Nico and Leo tried to avoid each other—lest they both wanted to rub each other the wrong way. Now, though, Nico sounds sincere. Maybe it had to do with the shield Leo rushed to make before Jason and Nico diverted onto a quest of their own.

 

“I think they were flirting,” Jason says next. “Bianca and Piper, I mean. I’m not really sure.”

 

“Ah,” Nico says. He doesn’t sound surprised.

 

“You knew about them?”

 

“As little as I can possibly can.” Nico shakes his head and wrinkles his nose. “I try not to talk to Bianca about her love life.”

 

Jason bites back a laugh, after hearing the same sentiment echoed by Nico’s sister a few hours prior. He looks down to his hands and rubs his fingers. “Well…I told her I’d support her happiness no matter what, especially after Calypso. Then somehow we got on the topic of my love life.”

 

Nico blinks. He looks up to Jason—with maybe more surprise than Jason expects—and palms his new peacock tattoo. “Oh. Um. Why, exactly?”

 

“To see if it’s time to move on.” Jason heaves a heavier sigh than he intends. It’s easier somehow, doing it now in Nico’s presence. “To think about it, at least.”

 

“Oh,” Nico says again.

 

“Yeah,” Jason says.

 

“Is…it time to move on?”

 

“Hard to move on when there was nothing really there to begin with.” Jason rubs his forehead—and the same nauseating knots from when Bianca first mentioned it furl in his stomach. To his surprise, Nico brushes a hand over his wrist.

 

“There was something there,” Nico argues—but his voice is gentle. “Otherwise it wouldn’t have taken such a toll on you, Jason.”

 

Looking into the sky of Nico’s eyes, it’s hard to argue. No one’s seen Jason the way Nico has—in that cave in Croatia, where Eros prodded at his emotions—and every journey after that. Jason tried to keep his feelings tucked under a rug with all of the quests that loomed over their heads. But Nico’s right—it wasn’t nothing if there if he felt like there was something to hide.

 

“I…just always thought I would die before it really mattered,” Jason admits. Earnestly. He doesn’t know how else to put it. “I can hardly get my days together. How am I supposed to figure out dating?”

 

“Your days,” Nico echoes. Then, “You’re restless.”

 

Jason peers back at Nico, surprised, and the other demigod shrugs.

 

“We don’t exactly offer campfire singalong and basketweaving here,” Nico replies wryly. His tattoo seems to shine against his forearm, with the six inked stripes showing exactly what Camp Jupiter had to offer. “I…could talk to the New Rome Hospital for you. Maybe our infirmary. I’m sure they’d appreciate a helping hand.”

 

Jason hesitates. “Thalia offered the same thing. I’m…not even sure if I want to go back into medicine, if I’m being honest.”

 

He’d gotten into it to counteract every bad thing that happened last year. To heal, rather than add to the destruction of Camp Halfblood—but it’s one of those things that felt like a responsibility. The right thing to do. When he looks back up, he notices Nico frowning.

 

“Sorry,” Jason says.

 

“No—I’m glad you’re actually willing to admit that.” Nico makes a face of his own and rubs his tattoo again. “I…hate that New Rome makes you feel that way, though.”

 

“It’s just a different routine from what I’m used to,” Jason admits, and he touches his neck again. “I’ll find my way. Running helps.”

 

Nico looks doubtful, his gaze following Jason’s palm, but he doesn’t comment on it. Instead, he pulls a leg to his chest. “And the…other thing?”

 

“I…don’t know,” Jason admits—and even that answer feels tightly sewn into his heart. Talking about Luke was never easy—even when Jason found talking to Nico easier than most people.

 

With Annabeth, they had to navigate through the grief of each other’s emotional absence. Bianca tried to be careful of his feelings after so many years focusing on her own. Having Thalia as his big sister made him want to tell her everything—but maybe Nico was right. Talking about something so personal with his big sister felt…too raw.

 

“The anniversary of his death is coming up,” Jason continues. “I’ve…worked on getting past a lot of things, but it feels weird to get past that. You know—?”

 

“Wait.” Nico halts him with a hand, his demeanor shifting. “The anniversary of his death.”

 

“Um, yeah.” Jason stares at Nico in surprise.  “July 1st.”

 

“He died on your birthday,” Nico continues.

 

“I…yeah.”

 

“Jason—” Nico whips back to him, an incredulous look on his face. “—your birthday’s next week.”

 

Jason shifts uncomfortably on the patch of grass he’s sitting on, with Nico’s full attention. “Yeah.”

 

Nico sits a little more upright on the hilltop—and he stares at Jason with an unreadable demeanor. His fingers twitch over his arm, and he coughs. “Do you have any plans yet?”

 

Jason shakes his head.

 

“Do you…want to have any plans?” Nico asks next, and his voice is just as gentle before—mindful of how last summer was for him. “It’s the first birthday that you and Thalia would be able to celebrate together. I know that means something for the both of you.”

 

“We talked about it.” Jason purposefully keeps himself from rubbing the back of his neck again. “I don’t feel right celebrating. Not when so many people died. It feels…wrong.”

 

“What would you and my sister do in the past?”

 

“Escape Long Island for a couple hours and pretend we weren’t demigods,” Jason replies. “It…usually got overshadowed by some big battle or quest of sorts because of Kronos. And a countdown until one of us turned sixteen.”

 

And more bodies to bury, he doesn’t add.

 

“What about before Kronos?”

 

 Jason flushes red. He awkwardly scratches his arm, unable to look at the son of Juno in the eye.  “Same kind of countdown. But. Luke used to sneak in cupcakes from somewhere and we’d have our own little celebration. So it wasn’t all bad.”

 

Nico studies him carefully—to the point Jason grows nervous.

 

“I’ll…probably visit Camp Halfblood at some point between now and then,” Jason admits. “I just. I don’t know what to do about this.”

 

Nico draws a breath. Jason latches onto it immediately, looking back to the other demigod. So fast that it apparently startles Nico. Red flushes in Nico’s cheeks and he looks back at Jason suspiciously. “What?”

 

“Oh,” Jason says, and he feels his own face redden. He touches his own forehead awkwardly and splays his legs out. “I was hoping you’d tell me what to do.”

 

Tell you?”

 

“This is where you tell me to do what I want to do instead of what feels right,” Jason says—and his cheeks darken as Nico’s brow seems to lift higher in the air. There’s amusement there.

 

“Can’t get one past you,” Nico echoes from earlier. “Can I?”

 

“I…have a lot of respect for your opinion,” Jason admits—and he smiles as Nico blushes. Still as humble as ever, even with the title of praetor. Maybe that’s why Jason likes Nico so much.

 

“There’s a lot more you in that decision than there normally is.” A tentative smile etches across Nico’s lips. “So what do you want?”

 

Jason mulls over it. Longer than he probably should in one sitting—but Nico waits patiently, anyway. “Maybe…eventually, it’d be nice to have an actual birthday. One that doesn’t feel like it’s a countdown to the end of the world. But I don’t think anyone will be in a celebratory mood.”

 

“There’s more than enough to celebrate next week,” Nico argues—and he touches Jason’s shoulder gently. “Slaying Kronos. Toppling Krios. You, making it to seventeen.”

 

Of all the things in his sentence, Nico seems to place importance on the last thing. Jason’s chest swells. He peers back up to Nico and gives the other demigod’s hand a soft squeeze. “Thanks, Nico.”

 

Nico’s quick to recoil—which startles Jason.

 

Then—“Oh, sorry. Cold hands—”

 

“No,” Nico cuts off quickly, but he still thumbs his own palm thoughtfully. “Sorry—I’m. Exhausted.”

 

“I can imagine with your busy schedule.” The edge of Jason’s lips twitches—and he has a little more trouble hiding his disappointment the second time around. Moving to New Rome was a huge step that he wholeheartedly welcomed—but he thinks he sees Nico less now than he did before the war.

 

Before Nico can notice that, too, however, Jason stands to his feet. He extends a hand more cautiously this time.

 

“How about I take you home?” Jason asks.

 

Nico stares at his palm carefully. “You don’t want to talk about the other thing?”

 

The other…? “My love life?” Jason asks. “I don’t want to keep you up longer than I’ve already had.”

 

Jason thinks he’s gotten too good at pulling pie away from Nico’s face in the mornings.

 

Nico flashes another look, and he rubs his tattoo.

 

“I…know I’ve been busier this summer than anyone expected,” he says, “but. I don’t want you to feel like you can’t talk to me. I. I like talking to you, Jason.”

 

For a second time that night, Jason feels his heart swell with warmth. There’s something calming about it—in a way that running around New Rome couldn’t achieve for him. Jason’s smiling before he knows it, while Nico inspects the dirt wedged at the end of his own shoe.

 

“I,” Jason admits, “think my head and heart have to agree on that one.”

 

“What are they disagreeing about?”

 

“My…head says it would’ve been a longshot even if he was still alive.” Jason smiles sheepishly and rubs his own knuckles. His hands haven’t held a tremor in a while—not in a long time since the war with Gaea—but it’s hard to break the habit of looking at them. “Not like I ever had the guts to do anything about it before he left Camp Halfblood. And—you know, the age difference.”

 

Luke was nineteen when he left Camp Halfblood, while Jason was a pint-sized eleven-year-old kid.

 

“And…your heart?”

 

“Eros said it best.” The next smile is a little harder to muster. Jason palms his chest. “It’s still down in the Fields.”

 

Jason has moved past a lot of things since his sixteenth birthday—of what he had to do, and the path he had to take to get there—but Luke is always going to be something hard for him to pass. A sister’s love couldn’t fill that hole.

 

“Eros also tried to make you feel guilty for being conflicted between being Hades’s son and being yourself,” Nico points out—and he looks at Jason a little more confidently. “You…proved him wrong once already. You’re a son of Hades by being yourself.”

 

Jason stares at Nico, surprised. “You really think that?”

 

“I was there to witness it.” Nico shrugs—but then he flashes Jason another meaningful look—one that sports the same pride Jason holds for a son of Juno who became praetor on his own accord. “There’s…a perk to dating, you know. You get out there because you want to—not because some prophecy said so.”

 

“You…always know the right thing to say, don’t you?”

 

“You get some practice in after making speeches about loyalty and commitment,” Nico remarks wryly—and he rubs the sleep out of his eyes. Jason can’t help but laugh. “Don’t do what Bianca says, just because. Do what you want, Jason. When you’re ready.”

 

“You’re…really not going to push this?”

 

Nico eyes him—and Jason reminds himself that it’s a difference between Nico and his sister, rather than the little nuances he’s noticed of both di Angelo siblings. It’s one that Jason appreciates, and makes him hopeful for more of Nico’s company.

 

“If you’re going to spend all summer on your eight-pack, then you might as well not let it go to waste,” Nico replies dryly. Jason blushes. “But…don’t add dating to the list of things you don’t think you’re allowed to do because of what happened in the war last year, Jason. You’re allowed to be happy, too.”

 

At that reminder, Jason feels less unsettled than before. “You do always know what to say.”

 

Nico snorts. This time, he takes Jason’s hand and dusts himself off. “Make sure to mention that in my Yelp review for wedding officiants.”

 

Jason laughs. He’s surprised at how much lighter his heart feels.

 

“I feel better now,” he admits. “Thank you, Nico.”

 

At that gratitude, Nico flashes a tentative smile of his own. “Good.”

 

“Yeah,” Jason agrees—and the edges of his lips raise into a greater smile. “Good.”

 

He extends his hand—much more carefully this time, and watches as Nico’s gaze sit at his palm.

 

“Can I take you home now?” Jason asks. “I—can’t really do anything about the cold hands, but—”

 

Nico meets Jason with a hand of his own, with a sense of exasperation flashing in his own eyes. “Just ignore everything that I’ve said this evening.”

 

Um. “But…”

 

“Except for the important bits,” Nico revises. He sighs softly and pushes a hand through his hair. He hesitates. “I’d. Love it if you took me home. We’d be going in the same direction anyway.”

 

Jason bites back his excitement. It’s not often that he gets to escort Nico di Angelo home. “Okay.”

 

He gives Nico’s hand a gentle squeeze—and then they plummet into darkness.

 

*

 

They arrive at the front gate of the di Angelo residence, in the shadow of a streetlamp. Nico stumbles—not as used to shadowtravel as he once was after the Athena Parthenos. Jason steadies him with another hand to the shoulder.

 

Nico takes a step back once he’s reoriented—then looks over his shoulder. “That’s my stop.”

 

“Hope your driver was good to you,” Jason jokes.

 

Nico pats him on the shoulder.

 

“He’s always good to me,” Nico reassures. “Probably a little too good to me, sometimes.”

 

Jason’s heart warms, and he can’t help but laugh. “Can…I offer you some advice now?”

 

“There’s the little too good part,” Nico muses. He stares up at Jason, curious.  

 

“Block out some time for yourself if you need to. Like—actually block it out in your schedule so no one can bother you,” Jason replies. “There’s nothing wrong with scheduling some personal time for yourself.”

 

Nico stares at him skeptically. “I’m hearing this from you?”

 

“I learned it a little later than I should have,” Jason admits. A sheepish smile curls against his lips.  “After some trials and tribulations, and…a quest with a really nice guy who told me to treat myself better.”

 

Nico doesn’t respond right away. He studies Jason once more—evidently soaking up a wealth of information for what little time they get to see each other. “If…you want some company next week to Camp Halfblood, then I can go with you. It’s been some time since I’ve seen Hazel anyway.”

 

Jason blinks. “What about your busy schedule?”

 

“I’ll block some time out,” Nico quotes—and the edge of his lip curls in a way that makes Jason smile, too. “I think Reyna and Thalia can cut their honeymoon phase short for a day or two. If—you want me to, that is.”

 

“Nico, I’d love it if you could come with me.” Jason’s smile widens, and he watches as Nico’s gaze falls to the ground.

 

“Oh, good,” he says. “Great.”

 

“Great,” Jason echoes.  

 

Nico visibly bites the inside of his mouth. He crosses his arms over his chest and looks up. Surprisingly, there’s concern in his eyes. “You…gonna be able to sleep tonight?”

 

Oh. Jason peers back at Nico. Whose blue eyes are steady as he glances back. As Jason touches his neck now, it’s with the knowledge that Nico is watching, too.

 

“I…don’t think I’ll have any nightmares tonight,” Jason admits—and on cue, he finds himself yawning. “This might be the best sleep I’ll get since moving to New Rome.”

 

He can’t really tell under the streetlamp, but Nico’s face looks a little darker.  Nico keeps his gaze on Jason, his hand at his tattoo. “My door’s always open if you need someone to talk to. And…my couch. I know you sleep better with company.”

 

Jason can’t help but smile. “Another night. Thalia should be home this evening.”

 

Nico looks reluctant—far more observant than Jason thinks he deserves—but it’s a kind of concern that makes Jason’s smile grow.

 

“Rumor has it that you’re flying down from a chariot tomorrow,” Jason muses. “I don’t really want to keep you longer than I already have.”

 

Still, Nico’s gaze doesn’t waver.

 

“Okay,” he says carefully. “But I’m here if you need me, Jason. Don’t—”

 

“Don’t bear the burden on my own,” Jason finishes for him.

 

Nico blinks.

 

“Was I close?” Jason asks.

 

A flicker of amusement in Nico’s gaze. He reaches out and dusts grass off of Jason’s shoulder.

 

“Don’t forget we’re friends,” he says instead.

 

“Trust me, Nico.” Jason chuckles softly. “I…don’t think I could’ve survived the night without you.”

 

Nico averts his gaze, pink dusting his cheeks. “I’m…glad I ran into you then.”

 

“Me too.” Jason’s always glad to see Nico.  

 

Nico falls quiet. Contemplative. Then he peers back up tentatively. “Good night, Jason.”

 

“Good night, Nico.”  

 

Another moment passes before one of them actually moves. Then, Jason can’t help but watch Nico walk away. The houselights are already off, with Bianca long asleep—but he listens to the key as Nico unlocks the front door. Nico peers over once more, giving Jason one last glance for the evening.

 

When Nico is finally out of sight, Jason turns around and makes the slow trek back to his apartment complex. A steady sigh of relief flutters from his lips as he climbs the steps.

 

He looks at Nico’s house from the distance, feeling settled for the first time all week.

 

*

 

 

Notes:

Jason's journals by ariihen! Thanks for reading, please comment if you can!

Chapter 3: the fallen

Summary:

“So why not celebrate it?”

 

“Because of all of the terrible things that—”

 

“That coincided with his birthday,” Nico rephrases for her. He crosses his arms over his chest and stares at her expectantly. “This past year was hard on everyone, but—Jason’s lived with the expectation that he’d never make it past sixteen. That prophecy is behind him now. Isn’t that worth celebrating?”

He waits to hear her rebuttal—but she doesn’t have one. Instead, Annabeth turns to Percy, who shrugs. Finally, she looks back, and a sigh escapes her lips.

“Jason’s my best friend. I would love to celebrate Jason’s birthday,” she admits. “But you know I’m not the one you need to convince.”

At her concession, Nico can’t help feeling relieved. At least she doesn’t think it’s a stupid suggestion. “I know.”

“So what are you going to do about it, Neeks?” Percy asks.

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

Nico should be asleep. He’s not normally the type to struggle once his head hits the pillow.

 

But his thoughts are on Jason, and once that starts, it’s hard to stop.

 

There’s a way Jason smiled today that differed from his normal enthusiasm. It’s much more reminiscent to the boy Nico first met months ago—the one who was careful in letting others in. Who skirted the line of being honest with himself and doing what was right.

 

Nico never really liked that Jason. His track record of seeing Jason Grace in New Rome was often met with a scowl or a roll of the eyes before Eros happened. His past irritation of Jason is miserably embarrassing.

 

 But…seeing glimpses of that Jason in the present worries him.

 

Jason’s birthday is next week.

 

The anniversary of his death, Jason had called it. Luke Castellan, son of Hermes. Luke’s death first, Jason’s birthday second. A boy who had Jason’s heart in a way Nico knows but hasn’t quite grasped. It’s a heavy load on Jason. Nico…doesn’t really like that, either. Or the fact that Jason is weighing whether or not it’s right or wrong to celebrate.

 

So, before he can help himself, Nico tosses a drachma in the rainbow streams of sunlight at his window and calls a name. A cloud ripples in front of him. Nico gets the view of bunkbeds and wooden scenery, like the walls of a boat.

 

“Nico!” Percy’s grin is the first thing he sees. “You’re up pretty early for a Saturday, aren’t you?”

 

“Oh.” Nico blinks—his own voice coming out blearier than he expects. “I…was actually trying to get a hold of Annabeth.”

 

A hand appears in the corner of the cloud, the one stripe on Annabeth Chase’s arm prevalent from her short stint in the Legion. She looks up from a stack of books with the word Architecture written on the spines.

 

“I told him to take the call,” Annabeth explains—then she arches an eyebrow as she inspects Nico. She repeats the same sentiment. “You’re up awful early.

 

“I haven’t gone to bed yet,” Nico says—which gets both of their attention. “Why, what time is it?”

 

Percy stares at him oddly. “I dunno, like…5am, bro? Your time?”

 

Nico stares back blankly.

 

“You spend all night gaming again?” Percy asks.

 

“I…had a question.”

 

“Yeah? What’s up?” Percy’s image fades in and out, as though he’s trying to focus the cloud on himself.

 

“A question for Annabeth,” Nico corrects himself—and watches Percy pout with disappointment. “About Jason.”

 

At the mention of Jason, Percy’s pout turns into a frown. He eyes Nico suspiciously in a way that makes Nico want to roll his eyes—but Nico knows that isn’t enough to deter Percy. Very few things are. “What about Grace?

 

“Percy,” Annabeth warns—and she nudges the son of Neptune out of frame. She looks up to Nico, and the concern flickers in her eyes. “Something wrong with Jason?”

 

Nico hesitates.

 

“Well,” he starts slowly, “his birthday is coming up.”

 

Annabeth doesn’t hide her discomfort behind a smile the way Jason does. Her gray eyes waver—at a careful line between a warning and curiosity—and she sets her architecture book down. Then—she feigns a casual tone. “Is it?”

 

Nico eyes her carefully. For all of the awkward tension aboard the Argo II, he doesn’t know if it’s possible for Annabeth to forget her best friend’s birthday. Then he realizes her eyes hold a warning. The same one Percy often received when he was nothing more than Son of Neptune, Athena’s sworn enemy.

 

“July 1st,” Nico says. “He wants to go to Camp Halfblood for his birthday.”

 

This time, Annabeth’s expression twists with confusion. “He does?”

 

“For a memorial service of sorts.”

 

The moment he says that, Annabeth looks less surprised. She lowers her head into a short nod. “Ah.

 

She’s guarded in the way she speaks—but Nico can hear it in her voice. The, that makes more sense about Jason Grace. Nico’s lips twitch downward, and he slowly arches an eyebrow. “But not for his birthday.”

 

“Do he and Thalia have plans?”

 

“Yeah. To not celebrate it,” Nico says. This time, he can’t help the mild frustration in the tone of his voice. “I just can’t understand why.”

 

Annabeth gives him another look, like he’s handing over a loaded gun. He knows she’s smart—she wouldn’t be in charge of designing cabins for the gods at Camp Halfblood otherwise. But Jason’s birthday is clearly a more sensitive topic than he expects.

 

Which is why Jason doesn’t want to celebrate it, Nico reminds himself. Still, he can’t help but dislike the decision.

 

“Jason has complicated feelings about his birthday,” Annabeth says finally.

 

“I know,” Nico says—and he tries not to take what Jason said last night personally. How Jason’s heart was still in the Fields of Eternal Punishment. “The prophecy. When he—what happened to Luke. I know all of it.”

 

“Right,” he suddenly hears Percy mutter. A look of irritation flutters across Percy’s face and he crosses his arms over his chest. Percy’s been trying to follow the conversation—even if he isn’t too interested in the subject matter. “That guy.

 

If Annabeth notices, she doesn’t say a word. Instead, her expression darkens, and she settles in her seat. Nico knows that look well. He’s had it on his own face plenty, when he doesn’t want to talk about something.

 

“Jason said Luke used to bring him cupcakes on his birthday,” Nico continues. “I don’t mean to sound callous—but why not celebrate it?”

 

“Because Jason doesn’t want to,” Annabeth says.

 

“Jason doesn’t always do what’s good for him,” Nico retorts—and the words slip out more quickly than he intends. Red flushes in his cheeks as Annabeth and Percy stare at him oddly. “I mean—he’s doing it out of a sense of duty, like he always does. Has he ever had an actual birthday?”

 

“Well,” Annabeth says. “Bianca and he used to sneak out of Camp Halfblood and pretend not to be demigods for a day.”

 

“I know about that too,” Nico says. He’s sure he’ll find himself in front of Bianca’s bedroom door in the upcoming hours, but he’s not too happy about Bianca discussing Jason’s love life at the moment, either. “Has he had one that’s about him, though?”

 

Annabeth flashes him a hardened stare, her lips pressed into a straight line. “No. The prophecy’s hung over his head since Alecto brought him to camp.”

 

“So why not celebrate it?”

 

“Because of all of the terrible things that—”

 

“That coincided with his birthday,” Nico rephrases for her. He crosses his arms over his chest and stares at her expectantly. “This past year was hard on everyone, but—Jason’s lived with the expectation that he’d never make it past sixteen. That prophecy is behind him now. Isn’t that worth celebrating?”

 

He waits to hear her rebuttal—but she doesn’t have one. Instead, Annabeth turns to Percy, who shrugs. Finally, she looks back, and a sigh escapes her lips.

 

“Jason’s my best friend. I would love to celebrate Jason’s birthday,” she admits. “But you know I’m not the one you need to convince.”

 

At her concession, Nico can’t help feeling relieved. At least she doesn’t think it’s a stupid suggestion. “I know.”

 

“So what are you going to do about it, Neeks?” Percy asks. There’s a way that Percy stares at him that’s deeper than Percy will say aloud—but Nico refuses to acknowledge it.

 

Instead, Nico is silent for a moment longer.

 

“Do what I do best,” Nico says finally. “Confuse him.”

 

*

 

 

Thalia stares at him in surprise when he brings it up Monday morning on their walk to the praetor’s office. Nico doesn’t find himself uncomfortable in Thalia’s presence often—but in this particular case, part of him does wonder if he’s pushing too much.

 

“I,” he says slowly, “just don’t think a day that’s supposed to be about him should be turned into another day he worries about other people.”

 

“I know,” Thalia agrees. For the first time in her retirement, she looks aged. Nico doesn’t see it on her face often—but then he reminds himself that any time Jason Grace and Thalia were brought up in the same breath before, he’d turn a blind eye. Nico hated Jason at the risk of losing Thalia—and now they both stand in front of the principia with Nico pushing for her brother. Thalia’s brother, which Nico previously questioned the authenticity of more often than not. He wonders if she picks up on it too.

 

She sighs—looking wearier than Nico’s ever seen her.

 

“I’m new to this whole big sister thing,” Thalia admits, and she crosses her arms over her chest. “We spent two months on an extended vacation—but there were boundaries. Jason’s private. I’m…private.”

 

Nico would normally argue that Thalia is the most brash person he knows—but it wasn’t until the end of last winter that he learned Thalia’s last name and that she had a brother. The only detail she shared was that her mother was dead to her. After losing everything, ten-year-old Nico had taken that to mean they were the same.

 

He does have one argument, though.

 

“You’ve been the best big sister I could’ve asked for after what happened to Bianca,” Nico says. “My best memories in New Rome are the ones where you made sure my birthday was celebrated.” 

 

Her lips lift into a warm smile. She ruffles his hair—and if it were any other person, he’d protest. Instead, he smiles back, knowing she feels better.

 

“We did talk about it,” Thalia confesses. Her tone of voice gives away how disappointed she was in the way that conversation ended. “Jason told me he was just happy to be living in New Rome. He’s relieved to have that dumb prophecy behind him. I…just don’t want to push him into something he’s not ready for.”

 

“Being told he might die before he reaches sixteen is a hard thing to hear,” Nico agrees. “He’s not battling anyone, though. This is a celebration of his life.”

 

The longer Thalia stares, the sweeter her smile becomes. She arches an eyebrow.  “You’re really pushing for this.”

 

Red flushes in Nico’s cheeks. “I…have a lot of faith in your brother. He’s a good guy.”

 

“Hey.” Thalia gladly claps hands on either side of Nico’s shoulders. She grins. “That’s more than I can ask for, Neeks. My two babiest of brothers getting along peacefully.”

 

“Not a baby anymore,” Nico grumbles—and his ears tingle as she laughs affectionately in his ears. “You’re…okay with it, though?”

 

“Given I’m hearing it from the praetor who single-handedly convinced the court of Olympus to claim all of their children and honor all of the other gods—”

 

“Not singlehandedly.”

 

“—I’d be an idiot to trust anyone else,” Thalia finishes. She smiles warmly and claps her hands on his shoulders again. “I’ll be your fill-in on the day of, Praetor di Angelo.”

 

“You’re sure,” Nico continues skeptically. Her eyes hold the age as her SPQR tattoo does—the many years of service she’s given to the Legion and to taking care of him.

 

“A whole office to myself,” Thalia says, with a sparkle in her eye. “With my girlfriend.”

 

“Signing paperwork.”

 

“I’ll leave the important documents for your signature,” she reassures—and she waves her hand dismissively. Before Nico can sigh with exasperation, she studies him, her eyes dimming ever-so slightly. “We didn’t celebrate your birthday this year, did we?”

 

Unfortunately, Nico’s birthday was swept under the rug of the other Great Prophecy when Gaea was the bane of their existence. When building the Argo II was more important, and he found himself at the midpoint of Piper, Reyna, and Thalia’s love triangle. He keeps the Mythomagic cards Reyna gave him during their reunion close, though—along with the picture of Bianca. Not that he’d ever tell Bianca that.

 

“Make it up to me on my next birthday,” Nico says. “Right now I just want to make sure Jason feels appreciated.”

 

Thalia studies him once more, her lips spreading into a warm smile. “You and Jason.”

 

Again, Nico tries best to hide the flush in his cheeks. “What about it?”

 

“Nothing,” Thalia replies. “Just…thank you, Nico.”

 

Again—Nico flushes red. He kicks his foot into the dirt and rubs his tattoo thoughtfully. “So—here’s the plan.”

 

*

 

He gets his schedule moved around eventually. Even before he explains his reasoning, Reyna is more than happy to take back duties as praetor. There’s a way that Reyna perks at getting to work with Thalia again that shows just how much they care about each other. (She promises Nico that her excitement for Thalia and Nico taking a break aren’t related.)

 

In their impromptu senate meeting, they put pressure on their centurions to lead by example and get along with visiting Greek demigods. He emphasizes that ex-Praetor Thalia is already thinking of punishments for disobedience. Nico knows better than to trust a bunch of teenagers not to stir up drama—even in the most militant setting. For all he knows, Dakota is going to sign him up to marry penguins at the San Diego Zoo.

 

Everything seems to fall into place. Except for Bianca.

 

The morning before Jason’s birthday, Nico has his duffle bag packed. He finds his sister in the living room, editing photos from a recent trip Jason and she made to the Golden Gate Bridge. Nico takes a moment to glance over her shoulder and enjoy the sight of Jason with his imperfect smile, with the faint little scar. In front of the cloudy San Francisco Bay, looking like nothing more than a tourist instead a demigod counting down the end of his life.

 

“The lighting’s good in this one,” Nico comments over the couch. “Jason’s smile is nice.”

 

Bianca perks at his comment. She beams at his compliment, her hand hovering over the trackpad of her mouse.

 

“You have any idea how hard it is to get that smile on camera?” she asks. “It’s the one thing he can’t do on command.”

 

“Really?” Nico asks. “It’s been a long time since I’ve seen anything other than a smile on his face.”

 

“That’s because you’re not trying to get him to pose.” Bianca huffs—evidently with an inside joke that makes Nico a little envious. “I like this one, though.”

 

“Print it, then,” Nico says. He gestures to another thumbnail in her computer, where both demigods are together. “This one, too. This house could stand for more decorations.”

 

There’s a way that she beams at his words that makes his chest swell. She scribbles something in a notebook, then gestures to his duffle bag. “You running drills with everyone?”

 

“I’ll be gone until tomorrow.” Nico shakes his head. “Jason and I are heading to Camp Halfblood for a memorial service.”

 

Almost instantly, Bianca’s smile melts. She turns fully from the couch and stares at him in confusion. “I…thought there was a memorial service here. For everyone who died because of Krios.”

 

“Thalia and Reyna are handling it. Thalia was senior praetor when that battle happened, so it only makes sense.” For the first time since Saturday, Nico takes his brain off autopilot. He stares at her with just as much confusion. “Did I not tell you?”

 

“Neither of you told me,” Bianca says—and her expression twists into a frown. It takes a second before Nico realizes she’s offended.

 

“Jason wanted to go back for a memorial service, and I volunteered to go with him,” Nico says. “Thalia, Annabeth, Reyna, and I made a plan for his birthday.”

 

He opens his mouth to explain the rest of the plan, but it evidently irks her more. Bianca props herself on her knees and stares at him. “Annabeth knew he was coming?”

 

“Well, yeah—she’s his best friend.” Nico curls his hands around his duffle bag. “She’s the first one I called.”

 

“Nico, I’m his best friend, too. And I live across the hall from you.” Bianca’s hands curl into the couch and she frowns. “Jace doesn’t want to celebrate his birthday—there are too many bad memories about it.”

 

“Bad things that were out of his hand and fell on his birthday,” Nico corrects, for yet another person. “I thought of all people, you’d be all for celebrating Jason’s birthday.”

 

“Then why wasn’t I important enough for you to tell me?” Bianca asks—and she sounds hurt.

 

Nico stares back at her, stunned. “I—I thought you knew.”

 

“Of course not. Neither of you thought to say anything to me.” She furiously shakes her head and curls her hands on the couch cushion. “And—this whole thing is a bad idea! You’re out of your mind if you think what Jace needs right now is a birthday party.”

 

“I’m out of my mind?” Nico retorts, his cheeks flushing with an embarrassed heat. “What was going through your head when you told him to start dating again?”

 

Bianca stares back at him, with an expression that matches his own. Surprise—but maybe Nico hadn’t expected to bring that up, either. “You talked about that?”

 

“He was a ball of stress over it,” Nico chastises, and his lips press into a frown. The same lump swells at the pit of his stomach like when Jason first told him days ago. Not his own feeble jealousy over it—but his own frustration at his sister.

 

“Well—with everything going on, I figured moving on in his love life would make him feel better,” Bianca protests, and her cheeks grow with a flustered heat. “You’ve never even met Luke, Nico—what makes you think you know what’s best for Jace?”

 

“What makes you think you know?” Nico asks just as heatedly.

 

“I was actually there!” Bianca huffs once more—but this time the ire is all in her voice. There’s only anger and irritation at him. “I was there for those times with Luke—”

 

“No you weren’t,” Nico snaps. “You chose to leave, and then you died.”

 

Bianca’s argument dies in her throat. She looks back at him, stunned, and her eyes ripple like an overfilled pool.

 

He realizes the intensity of his own words—which is rooted in an irritation far before Jason Grace was ever in the picture.

 

A sigh leaves Nico’s lips, and he presses a hand to his face. “Bianca—”

 

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

 

Nico’s own voice diminishes. In the windows of the foyer, he sees the blurry silhouette of one son of Hades. Even from the other side of the glass, there’s no doubt in Nico’s mind that Jason is wearing a smile just as warm as Bianca’s photo.

 

He sighs. “Look—I’m sorry. I thought I told you. I thought—maybe Jason told you.”

 

“How could you when you’re hardly around to begin with?” Bianca’s voice cracks as she narrows her gaze at him.

 

Nico grimaces. He pushes the innate frustration far down to the pit of his stomach. And as evenly as he can make his voice, he explains, “I’m trying to ask if you want to come to Camp Halfblood with us, Sis.”

 

This time, Bianca is the one who flushes, flustered. “I’m not going to go to Camp Halfblood because you feel bad, Nico.”

 

“I’m not asking because I feel bad. I mean—I am, but—argh.” Nico pinches the bridge of his nose. “You’re putting words in my mouth.”

 

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

 

The door rattles again, and Nico can almost imagine Jason’s worried expression on the other side. He turns towards it, and Bianca pulls him back by the shoulder.

 

She stares at him pointedly. “If you had the right words to begin with then we wouldn’t be in this predicament.”

 

“Coming,” Nico calls to the front door—and then he turns back to his sister, annoyed. “This isn’t a predicament. You’re being difficult.”

 

“You’re being too simple-minded!” Bianca stands to her feet, laptop and camera gathered in her arms.

 

“Hi, Nico,” Jason says when he comes to the front door. The sight of his smile makes Nico’s stomach somersault. It’s almost enough for Nico to forget his frustrations—but Jason lets them in anyway, by peering overhead to Bianca. “Hey, Bianca. Thanks for letting me borrow your brother for a few days.”

 

For the first time since Nico’s known Jason, Bianca’s anger actually looks directed at the son of Hades, too. She boils over and scowls at him—to the point that Jason’s smile fades ever so slightly.

 

“Um,” he asks slowly. “Everything okay?”

 

“Fine,” she snaps venomously. “Perfectly fine. Thank you so much for telling me about your plans, Jace. You’ve always been so good at keeping me informed.”

 

“Stop that,” Nico snaps back with just as much ire. It’s then he turns—to see Jason blinking with confusion, gaze flickering between both son of Juno and daughter of Hera before settling on Nico.

 

“I—” Jason stops short, and his expression flashes with confusion. “Sorry, did I do something wrong?”

 

“Ignore her,” Nico instructs—and he gives the other demigod a reaffirming squeeze. “She’s just being a brat.”

 

“Brat?” Bianca reiterates—and her face flares with anger. “How dare you call me a brat—!”

 

“If you’re going to say no when I ask if you wanted to come, and scream at me, then I’m going to call you a brat,” Nico snaps back—and he heatedly starts pushing Jason out the door. He’s met with a body as stubborn as a brick wall, and eyes that ring with confusion.

 

“Um,” Jason says. “What’s going on?”

 

“Hold that thought,” Nico instructs—and he ushers the son of Hades just out of the door frame. Jason takes Nico’s duffle bag as it’s handed off—then the latter demigod shuts the door.

 

Nico paces back to the couch, where not even ten minutes ago, Bianca and he were in better spirits. This time, Bianca looks at him with a scowl that could match their godly mother’s. Nico waggles a finger before his sister can, jabbing it in her direction.

 

“When you cool off,” Nico hisses in a hushed tone, “call Reyna and Thalia, and they’ll tell you what’s going on.”

 

Bianca’s expression hardens, and her hands curl over her equipment. Her lips etch into a frown. ‘You think just because you’re a leader of this camp now that you can just boss me around like one of your cadets?”

 

Nico resists an aggravated growl and presses a hand to his face. “Bianca, I don’t have time for you to act like this right now.”

 

For some reason, that’s the tipping point for his sister. Suddenly, she stands taller at her place—looking bigger than before, but still very small as the tears shimmer in her eyes. Her face flushes red with anger, and she gets in his face.

 

“You’re right,” Bianca snaps at him. “You don’t have time for me. Neither of you do.”

 

And then she whirls around—marching straight to her room.

 

The door SLAMS shut as she closes it behind her.

 

*

 

Jason stands like a dutiful coat rack outside, one duffle bag curled in his hand and the other propped on his shoulder. He stares at Nico, as perplexed as before—while Nico feels awful. He’d rattled on the bedroom door a few times—but after a solid minute of silence, he knows Bianca’s hardheadedness had gotten the better of her.

 

“Everything okay?” Jason asks, when Nico finally drags his feet out the door. “Bianca’s—”

 

“In a mood,” Nico replies with deadpan. He takes his duffel bag from Jason, then laces their fingers together, pulling at the son of Hades like a gust of wind. “C’mon. I’m sure we’re already running late.”

 

Of course—with how tall Jason is, pulling him along is like dragging a tree behind Nico. Jason doesn’t budge. Instead, he looks onward with much more concern. “Are…you okay, Nico?”

 

Nico bites back a curse. He rubs his eyes tiredly and exhales a sigh. “There was a misunderstanding. But Bianca has her head so far up her—”

 

He halts, as he watches Jason’s eyebrow raise in the air, bewildered. Then he heaves a sigh.

 

“Nothing you need to worry about. You’ve already got enough to worry about,” Nico says eventually. Still, he can’t shake the frustration in his own chest at his sister. He forces it away—knowing Jason will only worry more if he finds himself in the middle. Instead, Nico gives Jason’s hand a gentle squeeze.

 

Still, Jason looks doubtful. Nico wants to smack himself, because there’s already a wrinkle between Jason’s eyebrow and they’re still a day away from his birthday.

 

“Jason,” Nico says—probably with more ire than he intends. “What would happen if you put yourself between Bianca and me?”

 

“I,” Jason starts slowly. He stops. “I wouldn’t get a word in.”

 

“Exactly,” Nico replies—and his cheeks flush as Jason’s lips twitch. “So, let’s get through your birthday—because this trip is about you, and getting through tomorrow. We can talk about me any other time.”

 

He readies himself for shadowtravel, his hand firm against Jason’s own. A second passes—and then another, before Nico realizes Jason is studying him.

 

“Okay,” Jason says gently. “But I’m holding you to that.”

 

He stares down at Nico, his charcoal eyes dutifully worried, and Nico feels the heat flourish in his cheeks.

 

Before he can muster a response, Jason sinks them into darkness.

 

*

 

Much like the last time they were at Camp Halfblood, everything is in chaos. Nico finds himself struggling to pay attention to everything happening at once.

 

This time, it’s not because of onagers, Octavian’s nasally voice, or a giant Mother Earth out trying to kill mankind. Instead—

 

Jason!”

 

Jason, son of Hades, gets assailed by a gaggle of children the moment they arrive at Camp Halfblood. They emerge from the shadows at the center of camp, hands intertwined. Nico manages to steal one last glance at Jason—to see Jason still staring at him with the same worry from the west coast.

 

Then—Jason is quickly snatched up by dozens of children, yanking and tugging at his arms with excitement. Nico gets separated from the son of Hades as a child no older than nine bustles next to the Jason, pushing in front of him while Jason looks puzzled.

 

“Careful,” Jason chides—light and effervescent, even from the meters of distance Nico suddenly finds himself in. Kids climb Jason like a hefty tree—and he stands, stable in their presence. “What’s the fire, guys?”

 

He collects a five-year-old, scooping her up in his arms, and she squeals with glee.

 

The orchestra of voices are garbled, but the sentiment is the same: “You’re back! You’re back! You’re back!”

 

Then, as Nico tries to process that, a set of hands cover his eyes and yank him close. “Gotcha!”

 

If it were anyone else, Nico would knee them. But—“Percy.”—is an exception.

 

He whips around, partly annoyed, and finds the son of Neptune grinning from ear-to-ear. Percy’s eyes light up at the sight at him—for the first time in person rather than over an Iris Message. “How’d you know it was me?”

 

“I know your BO anywhere,” Nico retorts—and then he matches Percy’s grin. Percy throws arms around Nico—and like always, pulls the son of Juno well off the ground. Much like the end of every summer, Nico finds his own gruffness melting with a grin as he hugs Percy back.

 

“That was a stern voice I was hearing from you,” Percy jokes. “Reyna’s stern voice is rubbing off on you, bro.”

 

“Who do you think taught her?” Nico jokes. From the corner of his eye, he catches sight of cinnamon brown hair—and Hazel’s sunset-colored eyes.

 

“Hey, big brother,” Hazel greets—and she smiles at him sweetly. She’s no longer on crutches, like how Nico left her in the spring. Burn marks decorate her arm—scathed from the final battle with Gaea. Hazel doesn’t let his gaze linger long. Not before rolling to the tips of her feet to greet him with a hug. 

 

“Hey, Sis.” Nico smiles and hugs her back, his frustration with Bianca shrinking into an ache to be dealt with later. “Hi, Frank.”

 

His old centurion smiles back at him, dressed in Camp Halfblood’s orange Pegasus shirt rather than the regal purple that Nico and Percy helped him fill. There are two stripes on Frank’s arm—one for retrieving the Fifth Cohort’s eagle staff, and another for his efforts in defeating Gaea—but Frank looks more comfortable here than he did on the west coast.

 

Ave, Praetor di Angelo,” Frank says. Nico bites back a laugh as the son of Mars goes as far as saluting.

 

“At ease, soldier,” Nico orders. “I’m a guest in enemy territory. I should be the one saluting.”

 

Frank makes a face, evidently flummoxed in any situation where Nico would salute him, and Hazel giggles. Percy claps him on the back with a warm laugh. Then, Annabeth Chase’s voice erupts from somewhere behind Percy.

 

“You would not believe,” she says, “how much of an uproar the kids made when they heard Jason wouldn’t be here this summer.”

 

She sports a look of amusement, her curly blond hair pulled back. In the sunny weather, Annabeth’s legion tattoo sits firmly on the inside of her forearm—but the assortment of colorful beads is louder around her clavicle. Almost as loud as Jason’s, who said his entire life was on one leather string.

 

Nico looks back so the son of Hades, who suddenly crouches at a third of his height to converse with the younger kids. There’s an ease to Jason’s smile that lacked the week before—and for the first time, Jason doesn’t emanate with the nervous energy that Nico had noticed on those midnight runs. But—it reminds him of the Jason he met a long time ago.

 

“He puts on a good act,” Nico notes aloud—which garners more attention than he intends.

 

Annabeth suddenly looks back at him, surprised, while Nico feels his cheeks flush.

 

“I didn’t mean—”

 

“He’ll get tired eventually,” she reassures him. “The trick is actually getting him to tap out.”

 

On cue, Jason peers up from his tiny cohort of children. His eyes fall to Nico first, and Nico feels his heart stutter. A tiny, apologetic smile curls against his lips—and Nico reluctantly lifts a hand to dismiss it.

 

He watches as Jason perks at the sight of Annabeth and manages to pry himself away from all but two children. Jason’s smile grows at the sight of his childhood friend.

 

“Hey,” he says—and Annabeth smiles back before reaching out for a hug.

 

“Hey, yourself,” she greets gently. She pulls away and looks at both of them curiously. “No Bianca?”

 

The mention of Bianca immediately sours Nico’s mood. It apparently shows on his face, too. He jumps as Jason touches him on the shoulder with a reassuring squeeze—before anyone else can notice his sore expression, too.

 

“No Bianca,” Jason affirms. His tone is tentative. “She had other things going on. I think.”

 

“Really?” Hazel asks, surprised.

 

“I,” Jason starts. Stops. He looks back at Nico. “I hope so.”

 

This time, Nico waves his hand a little more emphatically. “My fault. Don’t worry about it.”

 

Jason’s worried look is wasted on him. Nico is insistent on keeping him as far away from that argument as possible. What he doesn’t expect is for Hazel to lift a brow, while Percy slaps another hand to Nico’s back.

 

“You’re on vacation now! You’re supposed to be relaxing,” Percy declares. “We’ll have to row a boat out on the canoe lake. The naiads here are pretty funny. The Stoll Brothers taught me most of the bad words in Ancient Greek already. Oh—aw man, tonight would be perfect for Capture the Flag! Too bad we’re not having it.”

 

“Is tugging me around your idea of relaxing?” Nico asks dryly. Still, his lips etch into a warm smile, happy at the sight of Percy on the east coast. He turns next, to Jason, who’s already in a quiet conversation with Annabeth, his lips pressed into a tighter smile than before.

 

Nico catches a few words.

 

“…more people coming…ready for tonight…”

 

“Is that why there isn’t Capture the Flag tonight?” Nico interjects—which catches both of them off guard. He peels away from Percy’s grasp and faces both Annabeth and Jason instead. “I thought the memorial service was tomorrow.”

 

Jason and Annabeth exchange looks. The son of Hades shifts uncomfortably in his spot—but Annabeth curls a hand on his bicep to stop him.

 

“A lot of the battle was today,” she explains. “The evening is when a lot of kids fell. The last person to die—”

 

“Was Luke,” Jason finishes, and his expression hardens ever so slightly. “Right after midnight on my birthday.”

 

“Yeah,” Annabeth agrees, and she eyes him carefully. Nico remembers the visions—how Annabeth screamed in a pool of Luke’s blood, until her voice was raw. Jason’s trembling hands, and the look on Jason’s face, that no one else seemed to pay attention to. The one he didn’t want attention for.

 

There’s a way Jason’s hand twitches. He cradles it before it can tremble—and he smiles evenly. “We’ll celebrate today. It’s only right.”

 

“Then I should come with you,” Nico insists. He stands upright and gestures to his badge. “The camps are integrated now. I’m an ambassador from New Rome. I should be there to help things go smoothly.”

 

Annabeth and Jason exchange looks. Nico doesn’t even want to know what look Percy is giving him from behind. A contemplative look passes across Jason’s expression—and then he reaches out and touches Nico’s shoulder.

 

“I just want you to enjoy yourself,” Jason says finally. He gives Nico a gentle squeeze. “Relax while you’re here, okay? We’ll meet up later.”

 

“Relax how?” Nico’s lips contort into a frown, which sparks an amused smile across Jason’s face.

 

“In a way that doesn’t have you working.” Jason gestures to Hazel and Percy behind Nico, who both stare back curiously. The corner of his lip raises with amusement. “You’re in new waters now, Ambassador di Angelo. It’ll do you well to learn the culture.”

 

Nico’s cheeks flush at the words, flustered by Jason’s effervescence. There’s even a way that Jason smiles, filled with a warmth that makes his brain stutter.

 

“Okay,” Nico settles on finally—and he flashes a wary look. “But I’m here for you, Jason. Don’t forget that.”

 

Jason’s smile fades ever-so slightly. He tilts his head to the side, before a wider smile curls against his lips. “Thanks, Nico. I’m really glad you came.”

 

“Any time,” Nico says—when he remembers he can talk.

 

Jason gives him one last smile before he’s whisked away by Annabeth. Both of them are followed by a gaggle of children.

 

Nico can’t help but watch. At least until Percy slings an arm around him.

 

“C’mon, bro,” Percy says. “I’ll show you how to weave a peace treaty into a basket.”

 

*

 

Camp Halfblood looks better than how Nico left it a few months ago. Most, if not all the infrastructures have been fixed since the battle with Gaea. Annabeth has done swift work to construct new cabins for the minor gods.

 

Hazel dutifully tells Nico that the reversed-U shape will turn into a Greek omega, while Frank is more formal in the tour, explaining all of the benefits that Camp Halfblood has to offer—including campfire singalongs, enchanted plates, archery and swordfighting classes, and so on.

 

“Careful, Frank,” Nico muses. “You sound like you’re trying to recruit me.”

 

Frank flushes red and smiles sheepishly. “I just want to make sure you get the best experience out of Camp Halfblood while you’re here.”

 

Nico’s not sure if that’s possible, with Jason elsewhere and Bianca angry at him. But, he watches as Hazel giggles and hooks an arm around her boyfriend’s.

 

“He might still feel bad for choosing Camp Halfblood after everything that happened,” she explains blithely.

 

“Well,” Nico reassures, “no one’s stopping you from coming back.”

 

He holds back a laugh as Frank looks at a loss, tugging at his collar. “Um.”

 

Percy erupts with a cackle worthy of Thalia, slapping a hand to Nico’s shoulder, which makes the latter demigod smile a little wider. It’s the first breath of fresh air he’s been able to take since the summer started.

 

Which is exactly what Jason wanted, he reminds himself.

 

Which is exactly what Jason needs, he sourly points out.

 

They make a beeline towards Hera’s Cabin once Frank’s tour winds down. Nico briefly sees Annabeth introducing Jason to the Hades Cabin, but Jason’s head is turned away from his line of sight. Trying to stifle his disappointment, Nico pulls his duffle bag over his head instead and opens the door to his mother’s cabin.

 

Hazel hooks an arm with his. “I’ll help you get settled in.”

 

Nico blinks at her—and how aggressively she’s holding his arm—but doesn’t protest. “Sure.”

 

Percy opens his mouth to speak—

 

“We’ll just be a few minutes,” Hazel promises, and she smiles in a sweet way that wouldn’t raise anyone’s suspicion.

 

“Sure,” Nico repeats, and he bites back his concern.

 

Seeing Cabin Two after all this time feels weird. The lily-lined garland and fire catch Nico’s attention—followed by the statue of his mother. Her appearance is different from the Juno Moneta—softer, somehow, without feeling any less regal. In the few months since learning his parentage, Nico’s gained a new tattoo and officiated ceremonies under her name, but each instance he isolates himself with his mother doesn’t feel any less strange. He’s Nico di Angelo, son of Juno, after so many years as his father’s kidnapped charge.

 

“I swear her eyes follow you around,” Hazel mutters—and she shudders.

 

“It’s because they do,” Nico says. “Mother knows best.”

 

The look Hazel gives him isn’t a pleasant one. “I can’t tell if you’re joking.”

 

“Neither can Frank,” Nico says. He sidles off his backpack and reaches into one of the pockets. Then, he places an offering in his mother’s brazier. The alter rests at the bottom of his line of sight, where months ago Jason and he rested after their long quest delivering the Athena Parthenos.

 

He squashes the disappointment in his chest, that Jason isn’t here with him now.

 

Instead, they walk to a space behind Hera’s statue, where two beds rest on opposite walls with only a wardrobe to separate them. There’s no doubt the second bed is for Bianca—two of the Queen of the Gods’ only children—but the sight of it just makes Nico more annoyed.

 

“Oh,” Hazel says, surprised. “I didn’t know that Hera’s cabin had beds.”

 

“It usually doesn’t,” Nico says. “But, if Mammina’s going to have a guest, then there’s no way she’d be a terrible host.”

 

The moment he says that aloud, Nico can practically hear his godly mother’s statue tutting—you’re not a guest, passerotto, you’re family.

 

The bed sheets are smooth and immaculately tucked.

 

“Are those Peter Pan bedsheets?” Hazel asks—which, sure enough, is decorated in Disney’s Boy Who Never Grew Up.

 

Nico flushes red. He throws his duffle bag on the bed. “I went through a phase.”

 

There’s a plush of Peter Pan sitting on his green pillow, which makes him wonder when Mammina realized he enjoyed Peter more than Tinkerbelle. Nico puts it on a nearby bookshelf, which is lined with weathered books. Some of them look like they could have come from his bedroom in Venice, nearly a hundred years ago.

 

“Bianca told me she didn’t stay here often,” Hazel says. “Only when she really needed guidance. And that led to her getting blasted to Ogygia.”

 

Nico’s not sure how often his two sisters talk. Hazel’s words don’t surprise him. He peers back before moving to unpack his minimal belongings. “Dad already had a tight grip over her fate. I think Mammina tried to loosen that grip, but the harder she tried, the further away Bianca actually ended up.”

 

Until she could no longer be claimed by either the King and Queen of the Gods. Instead, Bianca steered her fate towards Artemis’s Huntresses and drove straight into death. Nico’s blood boils at the reminder.

 

“So why is Bianca far away now?” Hazel asks—and she gives Nico a pointed glance. Too pointed.

 

Nico knows better than to dodge the question from Hazel. He heaves a sigh. “Because she’s a brat.

 

“Nico,” Hazel chides.

 

“Because I’ve spent the last four days trying to plan out Jason’s birthday and apparently neither of us mentioned to her that we were going out of town,” Nico says. “And because she’s a brat.”

 

Hazel doesn’t look convinced, so Nico continues his explanation. How the morning quickly turned into a battle of what was right for Jason, and how his sister wasn’t even willing to compromise, when her request was even more ridiculous than his own.

 

“What right does Bianca have to push Jason into dating again?” Nico rants, his face twisting with irritation. He thinks back to when Jason mentioned it, and just how that sentence seemed to make the son of Hades anxious.

 

“Why does that bother you?” Hazel asks. She lifts another eyebrow, evidently confused. “Whether or not Jason starts dating again?”

 

“Because it took him sixteen years to admit the Fates dealt him a bad hand,” Nico retorts. “And nearly a whole year to admit he was angry with her. Bianca really thinks she can just come back into his life and just push him into dating, after everything she’s put him through? That everyone’s put him through?”

 

Hazel stares at him even longer. “You feel very strongly about this.”

 

Nico bites the inside of his mouth and pushes hair out of his face. “I just. I know him.”

 

“Really,” she says suspiciously, “after a couple months, versus the sixteen years it’s taken for him to open up?”

 

“Traumatic quests will do that to you,” Nico replies wryly—which Hazel doesn’t protest. “Anyway—I apologized and asked her if she wanted to come. She told me she didn’t want to come because I felt bad.”

 

Hazel mulls over his words. “It sounds like Bianca just wanted to be mad.”

 

“Thank you,” Nico grumbles.

 

“So what’s she actually mad about?”

 

“What?”

 

“Bianca talked to Jason, and Jason came to you,” she replies. She gestures to him, the burn marks on her arm rippling like an open flame. “Her little brother. And then you went to Annabeth, his other best friend. And Thalia, his sister. Where does she fit in all of this?”

 

Nico wrinkles his nose. “Why would she need to fit in all of this?”

 

“She did, once upon a time,” Hazel protests—and she gestures to the other side of the room where Bianca’s bed has velvet dolls and a princess canopy.

 

The moment she does, Nico understands. His stomach twists into another knot and he massages his temples. “I really thought she knew. Between Jason and me.”

 

Jason, who went to Nico, who went to Annabeth, then to Thalia. Really—Annabeth was already out of Nico’s normal scope of people, but she felt needed for Jason.

 

Annabeth felt needed. Bianca apparently didn’t.

 

“You had a circle that took care of you when you got out of the casino,” Hazel reminds him, as though reading his mind. She nudges him gently. “Bianca had Jason.”

 

He sighs softly and leans into the bed, defeated. There was a passing thought when he was trying to formulate everything—one to tell Bianca—but it did just that. Pass over Nico’s head. “I just—I don’t think of her first. But I don’t do it on purpose.”

 

“Circle,” Hazel repeats. She touches his arm reassuringly. “Let her cool down first. Then call her.”

 

“Who says I’m calling her?” Nico huffs—and Hazel rolls her eyes.

 

“There’s a denarii with her name on it in your pocket—which I know because you always have some spare change for an Iris Message,” Hazel says. Nico blushes.  

 

“You seemed to get to the root of the problem quickly,” he notes.

 

At that comment, Hazel looks reluctant. She pulls a lock of hair behind her ear shyly and shrugs. Red stains her cheeks. “She’s not the only one that had to work to get into your circle, big brother.”

 

Nico stares back at her in disbelief. But sure enough, Hazel looks more timid with that admission. He thinks back to their first few days together, when he helped her fly and they both stumbled over their words. They seem so far away now, while this conversation flows as smoothly as a summer breeze.

 

He pulls her close into a hug and presses a kiss to her cheek.

 

“Thank you for the advice,” he replies honestly. “Have I told you you’re my favorite?”

 

At that question, Hazel bursts into laugh—one that makes Nico feel a little more ease.

 

At least one of his sisters still liked him.

 

*

 

True to his word, Percy tugs him around to see everything camp has to offer. It’s different from the militant lifestyle of Camp Jupiter. If Nico didn’t see it for himself, he wouldn’t have believed that basketweaving really was a part of Jason’s regiment growing up. Some kid named Malcolm leads the charge in crafting—and Percy doesn’t fail to explain how crafts alongside wit is what helped Annabeth find the Athena Parthenos.

 

There are swordfighting and archery classes, which are filled with an assortment of kids. Nico recognizes old Legionnaires, who much like Percy, found something on the east coast that they couldn’t find at Camp Jupiter. As they catch sight of him, some salute like Frank, and Percy slaps Nico in the arm until he waves back.

 

There’s an armory—but it’s far less formal than the Legion. Hazel informs Nico that Piper’s infamous knife belonged to Helen of Troy and just happened to be collecting dust in a far corner of the wooden shack.

 

(Hard to believe, considering that knife is the only reason Jason and he made it out of Disney World alive.)

 

It was good for demigods who weren’t sure what they wanted to pick up yet. Hazel’s own longsword came from wanting a blade that could stretch towards the sky—firm like their father’s lightning bolt with the ability to deliver a blow on the back of her demonic steed, Arion. Apparently, one of the reasons Hazel and Leo were so close was because he designed her a sword to that specification. She’s so sure in the way she wields it that Nico has no regrets approving the expansion of his ex-boyfriend’s shop.

 

Nico recalls the days where Frank, Percy, and he walked through the Forum with the hopes of finding a good fit for their newest legionnaire. While legionnaires had areas that they had a knack for or specialized in, everyone started with the same pilum and sword, and received the same standard training.

 

Nothing about Camp Halfblood feels standard or structured. Everyone is happy and carefree, despite having two wars under their belts.

 

Then, Nico remembers most of that structure and stress was put on the shoulders of one demigod, and that makes him wrinkle his nose more.

 

Eventually, both Frank and his sister get called away to teach classes. Percy apparently bribed someone to take his shifts for the day.

 

“Jason told me the satyrs raised him,” Nico says aloud after they pass the strawberry fields. He notices a handful of satyrs plucking fruit or blowing into their reedpipes. It’s a far cry from being buried in topsoil. “He galloped until he was five.”

 

Percy flashes him an odd look.

 

“What?” Nico tries his best not to frown.  

 

“Nothing,” Percy says innocently—and they slowly teeter towards the canoe lake and settle at the edge of the boardwalk. “You can’t seem to go longer than a few minutes without mentioning Grace.”

 

Red flushes in Nico’s cheeks and he glares at Percy. “I think this is literally the first time I’ve mentioned him.”

 

“Is it,” Percy asks with deadpan—which irks Nico more.

 

“Gee, Percy, I’m sorry I’ve taken the conversation away from Annabeth so much,” Nico replies dryly.

 

“Apology accepted,” Percy promises. Then—“Hey. I haven’t mentioned her that much.”

 

“Care to tell me more about how Annabeth faced Arachne with pipe cleaners and a makeshift net? How she built a giant finger trap?” Nico retorts. “Or how else Annabeth wants to draw inspiration from Camp Halfblood’s surroundings and old myths for the rest of the cabins? Or how funny she sounds when she switches to Latin and rolls her Rs—”

 

“Bro,” Percy says—and he punches Nico halfheartedly in the arm. “Shut up.”

 

Nico only nudges back—knowing full well that he has the son of Neptune cornered. Percy whips out two Kool-Aid’s from a cooler. Despite his annoyance, riling Percy only makes him smirk.

 

Nico doesn’t realize how much he’s missed Percy’s company until they’re together. At least he doesn’t have to worry about Percy unreasonably yelling at him. He doesn’t think he can ever really accept being Percy’s commanding officer, when he’s looked up to the son of Neptune so much.

 

He just wishes Jason wasn’t an issue for Percy.  

 

“I don’t understand why you dislike him so much,” Nico says.

 

“Funny. I can’t understand why you like him so much,” Percy grumbles—and he’s met with a swifter punch to the arm. “Ow!”

 

“Bro,” Nico mocks, “shut up.

 

Percy rolls his eyes. He readjusts over his place on the dock and takes a sip of his own drink.

 

“I think what you’re doing for Grace is nice,” Percy admits. “You’ve always been a nice kid, Neeks. But if Grace can lie to his own sister for months, then there’s no telling how willing he is to lie to his boyfriend.”

 

“If only we could all do whatever we want,” Nico remarks. “Instead of being told to save the world a thirtieth time because the Fates said do it.

 

Percy eyes him irritably. “Low bar.”

 

“That’s definitely what you’re going for.”

 

Percy hums in response. The orange Pegasus shirt is a different change of pace against his skin, but he doesn’t look any less like the son of Neptune that Nico grew up with. Which means he already has another tactical response on his tongue, as he wipes his blue-stained lips.

 

“You didn’t do the thing,” Percy notes.

 

Nico frowns—because Percy glances in his direction suspiciously. “What thing?”

 

“Tell me he’s not your boyfriend,” Percy says.

 

The irritation broils in Nico’s stomach. He fiddles with the plastic fastener on his Kool-Aid and nudges it into the floorboard. “Because he’s not.”

 

“Good,” Percy comments. “Keep it that way.”

 

“You need to stop,” Nico chastises. “If it weren’t for him, you’d still be possessed by a ghost and worshipping the Dirt Queen. Or worse.”

 

Percy doesn’t really muster a response. He makes a face, arms crossed over his chest. “Look—he’d be easier to hate if he wasn’t so damn nice.

 

“Is that why you hate him?”

 

“It’s a reason to,” Percy huffs—which aggravates Nico more. “If you’re going to date Jason—”

 

“I’m not.”

 

“—then be careful what you’re getting into,” Percy finishes begrudgingly. He takes another swig of his Kool-Aid like downing a shot, the reaches into the cooler for a second one. Percy flashes a skeptical look in Nico’s direction—one that’s less harsh—and annoyed for his other usual reasons. “A guy like that is only tightlipped when he has something to be tightlipped about. You’ll never know what side he’s on.”

 

“Percy,” Nico rouses once more. It’s not often that he gets irritated at the son of Neptune—but the longer they talk about Jason, the more he finds himself in that boat. “You were fine with him back on Olympus. You just sound like you’re needing a reason to dislike him.”

 

“I don’t need a reason to dislike him. That serves no purpose. He’s done a lot for Olympus and has had a pretty shitty life.” Percy shrugs. “I just don’t like him with you.”

 

“There is no him and me,” Nico insists. He tries not to sour at that declaration—but Nico lost sight of Jason hours ago. He’s not sure what he expected when he volunteered himself for this trip. Certainly not to be on Bianca’s bad side for a worthwhile reason. Or to get a dumb lecture from Percy.

 

Maybe more time with Jason than he’s been able in the past month. But that’s far too hopeful.

 

Percy stares at him carefully. “You’re planning something for his birthday, aren’t you?”

 

“Yes.”

 

You came with him to Halfblood for this anniversary or whatever, instead of Thalia or Bianca, didn’t you?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“You slept together in Hera’s Cabin,” Percy continues, “didn’t you—?”

 

Nico knocks the Kool-Aid out of his hand.

 

“Hey!”

 

“Don’t phrase it like that,” Nico snaps. “Why do you know about that?”

 

Percy is quick to will the sugary drink back in its plastic container—but they both look at the bottle, waiting to see if the son of Neptune will drink his juice with a few more splinters in it. Then, Percy snorts and salutes Nico halfheartedly. “Hi, Cabin Two Counsellor. Maybe you know me—I’m the camp counsellor who sleeps two doors down. Pleasure to meet your acquaintance.”

 

“Stop that. Nothing happened. Nothing will happen.” Nico looks back to Percy tiredly. “Now, please stop, unless you want me to give you the third degree about Annabeth.”

 

To his surprise, Percy arches an eyebrow, looking genuinely confused. “What’s there to give the third degree about?”

 

Nico stares. And stares. He opens his mouth to speak—but ultimately decides against it. Instead, he takes another sip of his Kool-Aid.

 

“You don’t have to worry about Jason and me,” Nico repeats. He pauses, after placing himself against the son of Hades. An ache settles at his chest, and he curls his hand against the neck of his drink. “There is no Jason and me.”

 

Percy studies him carefully, much to Nico’s chagrin. Nico considers demanding Percy to stop once again—but his old centurion finally concedes.

 

“Good,” Percy repeats instead—and he places the Kool-Aid back in the cooler. “Keep it that way.”

 

If it were possible to roll his eyes any further to the back of his head, Nico would.

 

“Keep it what way?”

 

Without warning, Jason’s head appears in Nico’s shadow. Percy yelps—and immediately slams his splinter-y Kool-Aid bottle into Jason’s head. The bottle explodes on contact—causing Jason to make a noise of surprise and disappear back into the planks.

 

“Jason!” Nico bolts to his feet. Then he turns around to Percy, who looks nothing less than annoyed. “Really, Percy?”

 

Percy looks at the mutilated kool-aid bottle in his hand and emphatically gestures to his silhouette. “I’m sorry Praetor di Angelo, that my reflexes are so quick from training that I went into attack mode with what could have been the palest, blondest, ugliest spider I’ve ever seen. At least it was that and not Riptide!

 

Take that back,” Nico snaps, and he jabs a finger in his old centurion’s chest.

 

“Which part?” This time, Jason appears from Nico’s shadow with Annabeth in-hand. He doesn’t look injured in any way—but his pale hair sports a bluer tint than usual. Jason rubs his forehead thoughtfully and looks back to the son of Neptune, who only huffily holds his guard. “Hard to forget that mean right hook of yours, Percy.”

 

Nico glares at the son of Neptune, who’s probably annoyed that Jason is willing to compliment him even after getting doused in sugar water.

 

“Sorry,” Percy grumbles finally—and guiltily. “My reflexes kicked in.”

 

“Good reflexes,” Jason compliments. The corner of his lips lifts into a tentative smile. He nods his head in Nico’s direction. “I’ll peek through Nico next time. I think he’s a little more used to me sneaking up on him.”

 

“Is he now?” Percy replies wryly—though whether Jason picks up on it is up in the air. Nico resists the urge to push Percy into the water.

 

“You get used to it when it’s Thalia’s favorite way to scare Reyna,” Nico explains. He peers at Jason from the corner of his eye. “And from traveling together.”

 

For the first time, Nico watches as pink glows in Jason’s cheeks. He awkwardly rubs his arm. “Sorry.”

 

“I wasn’t complaining,” Nico points out—and he feels his own face flush as Jason’s lips lift.

 

He almost forgets Annabeth is there, until she reaches forward to touch Percy’s arm with familiarity. She rolls her eyes. “It’s not much different from Nico or Hazel coming out of the sky, or you pretending to be a sea monster to scare the little kids during canoe lessons.”

 

Percy rolls his eyes and gives the broken Kool-Aid bottle to Annabeth’s expectant hand. “Yeah, but I actually like—”

 

He halts when he notices glares from both Annabeth and Nico.

 

“Good prank, Grace,” Percy grumbles finally.

 

“Um,” Jason replies, “not really a prank. But thanks.”

 

The black Pegasus on Jason’s chest suddenly catches Nico’s eye. Much like Percy and Annabeth, Jason sports Camp Halfblood’s orange shirt beneath his string of camp beads, looking like every other camper on the east coast.

 

“You changed fast,” he notes before he can help himself. Nico practically jumps when Jason’s gaze turns towards him. The sun catches in his Smurf hair—and still, Jason looks more embarrassed than anything.

 

“The Kool-Aid got everywhere,” Annabeth explains—and she pats Jason sympathetically on the arm. “At least you know where your closet is now, Jace.”

 

That nickname also catches Nico’s attention. For as long as he’s known them, Bianca’s the only one who’s ever called Jason that. But—he looks at them now, and notices Jason falling into Annabeth’s orbit more comfortably than before the war.

 

“Yeah,” Jason agrees—and he tugs at the hem of his own shirt. “Hard to believe there’s so much space in there now. It’s…”

 

He trails off.

 

“Spacious?” Nico guesses.

 

“Spacious,” Jason agrees with a mild sigh. He smiles in Annabeth’s direction. “You did a good job. It’ll feel weird not putting everything in a trunk when I come visit.”

 

Annabeth lights up at the compliment—just as lively as Jason. “Not that you’ve ever filled it before.”

 

“Are you still busy preparing for tonight?” Nico asks.

 

The exhaustion already shows in Jason’s eyes. Nico genuinely pities it. Then—Jason’s smile shrouds it. He reaches out to touch Nico’s shoulder. “We are. I just wanted to make sure you were okay after what happened this morning.”

                                              

Oh. Nico’s cheeks flush with heat, the concern from Jason overwhelming. He crosses his arms over his chest, the irritation swelling.

 

“Why, what’d you do?” Percy asks—and Nico resists the urge to smack him.

 

Jason’s eyes flit between Nico and Percy, evidently asking for permission.

 

“Nothing Jason needs to worry about right now,” Nico replies sternly. “I’m fine. Thank you, Jason.”

 

Much like Percy, Jason seems doubtful of his words. Nico has to ignore it so he doesn’t get annoyed again. Luckily, Jason doesn’t press further the way Percy has. “I’m surprised we found you out here.”

 

Percy eyes him carefully, then gestures to the lake. “Freshwater. It reminds me of the Little Tiber. I do my best thinking out here.”

 

Hearing that softens Nico’s irritation against Percy. But only a little.

 

“It’s a nice spot. I haven’t had the chance to visit yet today.”  Jason agrees. “I usually do my best thinking running.”

 

“Have you been doing more of that lately?” Nico asks. The question falls out more quickly than he intends—loaded since their talk the other night and almost out of place. Jason stares back at him curiously, evidently not expecting it.

 

“Jason’s spent all morning running around and checking in with all of the other cabins,” Annabeth points out. She crosses her hands over her chest, looking mildly tired, and nudges Jason in the shoulder. “Of course you haven’t had the chance to come by the canoe lake yet. Not that you’re much of a swimmer.”

 

“Not that we ever had a lot of swimmers out here,” Jason muses lightly. He keeps his gaze fixated on the edge of the boardwalk, then picks up Nico’s discarded drink fastener before tucking it in his pocket. “The lake’s a nice quiet place to get away from people.”

 

“You’re in no short supply of them today, Grace,” Percy remarks—to which Jason offers a tired smile.

 

“It’s like I never left,” Jason admits.

 

“You must be due for a break soon,” Nico says—and he gestures to the Kool-Aid glittering in Jason’s hair. “At least for a shower. From Percy’s reflexes and all.”

 

“Guilty,” Percy replies flatly—though he seems to have no intention of apologizing.

 

“I don’t think I’m much of a chosen one if I can’t handle a Kool-Aid bottle to the face,” Jason dismisses. “I’m fine. I’m really more worried about you, Nico.”

 

Red flushes in Nico’s cheeks, his hands twitching at his sides. He pretends not to notice Percy eying him with exasperation, and instead rubs the tattoo on the inside of his arm.

 

“Don’t be,” Percy says instead. He claps Nico on the back, amused. “I’ve got everything under control, Grace.”

 

Jason looks between the two of them, while Nico resists the urge to bury his head somewhere.

 

“A break, Jason?” Nico asks again, trying to keep his voice even.

 

Annabeth and Jason exchange looks. Jason opens his mouth to speak—and a clopping keeps him from answering.

 

“Jason,” calls a voice. “Annabeth.”

 

Off in the distance is a centaur with a distinguished face and a quiver full of arrows. It takes a moment—then Nico recognizes him as Chiron, the camp’s activities director. If not by the way he’s dressed, then by the way Jason’s shoulders sag.

 

“This will just take a second,” Jason promises. Then, Annabeth and he scamper off to join Chiron.

 

As Jason and Annabeth talk to Chiron, Nico thinks about the stories of Jason’s childhood again. How the fury Alecto brought Jason to camp’s borders and Chiron turned her away for being a bad monster. How one of the only adults at Camp Halfblood left a two-year-old to fend for himself and recruited more unprepared demigods for camp.

 

Even at the end of the war this past spring, Camp Halfblood’s adult supervision was a joke, and almost immediately fell on Annabeth’s shoulders with the announcement of a union between both camps. Nico hardly saw either of the camp directors, despite Dakota’s excitement to find a brother and see his dad.

 

Needless to say, Nico’s not the biggest fan of the “adults” here. Even less so, when Jason’s smile seems to fade. Jason looks over briefly, looking less assured than before. Nico can hardly help his own disappointment.

 

“I’m betting that’s a no to that break,” Percy guesses—and even he sounds less exasperated at Jason. More pitying.

 

Almost on cue, Chiron reaches out and nudges Annabeth and Jason in the opposite direction. Annabeth mouths a sorry over her shoulder—while Jason keeps his sight forward.

 

“You’d win that bet,” Nico begrudgingly agrees.

 

*

 

Calling the trip to Camp Halfblood a total failure would technically be a lie. While he doesn’t need an excuse to see Hazel, it’s nice to have one. She has a special niche of swordfighting, where she teaches students how to wield a longsword while riding a steed.

 

Percy laughs with the pegasi as he would with the unicorns at Camp Jupiter, calling it an accent and a dialect thing. Nico’s just glad that after almost a year awake, Hazel has found a place that makes her happy.

 

Her presence is almost a full cure for his bad mood. Almost. His fight with Bianca is at the forefront of his mind—with gods-knows-how he’s going to bare his teeth and apologize. If not the inevitable conversation with Bianca, then Percy’s pestering about liking Jason doesn’t lighten his mood either.

 

Nico doesn’t like to think about when he started liking Jason. It’s tangled in the stress of preventing a war and processing how Jupiter tried to erase his parentage—and by far the least important thing to happen on that trip.

 

At some point between Epirus and Long Island, Nico found himself in thought-provoking conversations with a smile that lit up the darkness in the hue of Jason’s eyes. It wasn’t the smile at the end of a courteous handshake, from Mister Perfect Ambassador Grace—but from an earnest teenage boy who spent too much of his life shrouding his emotions in shadows. Jason had a hard time finding pride in being a son of Hades. Nico is determined to never find it as a son of Jupiter.

 

Talking to Jason is easy. It’s different from the sisterly advice he receives from Reyna and Thalia, or the chatter with Percy—who all three helped build him into the person he is. Maybe without that support system, Nico would be different. Maybe he’d be a little more like Jason—a little lost in life and struggling to find solid footing for himself.

 

And maybe, Jason and him being alike is why talking to Jason is easy. Even if Nico finds himself fumbling over words as of late. Each conversation with Jason makes time feel irrelevant—something that Nico doesn’t have a lot of these days.

 

And, on the eve of his seventeenth birthday, Jason doesn’t seem to have a lot of it either. He’s pulled by Chiron, by younger kids, by older kids—and just the weight of the day itself.

 

At the end of the day, Nico can see that weight.

 

Dinner is filled with twice the feast—to offer double the offerings to their godly parents, and thrice as many to the King of the Dead, whom they pray will protect their late siblings in the afterlife. Nico dismisses a confused eye from Chiron and eats with his sister at Zeus’s table, all while making goofy faces with Percy from the Poseidon’s table.

 

It’s definitely the stupidest thing Nico’s ever heard of. For how big Camp Halfblood’s Mess Hall is, the tables are unbalanced with kids falling off the edge of full benches.

 

Annabeth tells him it used to be worse. Nico’s appalled at the idea of Reyna once being here, stuck at Table Eleven where Hermes is supposed to guide travelers. Why guide a person who already knows where she belongs—as the proud daughter of Bellona and praetor to the Twelfth Legion.

 

Seeing Jason alone at the Hades table is even worse. He’s fresh and clean—in yet another Camp Halfblood shirt and lacking Smurf hair—but by himself. Nico doesn’t know if Jason would be any less alone if he was still at the Hermes table.

 

Chiron corrals everyone with a speech—of how brave everyone is and how proud he is of everyone who fought. In all of his years as a mentor, he’s never seen a braver class. He holds Jason Grace up as a hero, which is met with a timid applause.

 

Nico would argue that isn’t fair that Chiron’s lived so many years, when there are many who no longer will. Many children and many monsters.

 

More than once, he looks over to Jason, who’s sitting quietly at his table. He debates on going over, but several other campers beat him to it—either to sit down and discuss something inaudible with Jason. To grieve, like they used to before Jason left. Nico’s not sure if Jason actually gets a bite of food in.

 

“You’re staring,” Hazel notes.

 

“No I’m not,” Nico insists—and he continues to look.

 

Then, they find themselves outside where Jason sits on a log next to Annabeth and kids go through the motions of campfire songs. As the sun stretches across the sky, so does the weariness of all the campers who relive the battle from a year ago. Each cabin takes turns recounting stories of their brave siblings during the Battle for Manhattan.

 

For Nico, the day started with Reyna and Thalia leading the charge on Mount Tam. It ended with Saturn’s throne usurped, and Krios’s ichor staining his sword. The day after that was a strange peace as the adrenaline to wear off—and every legionnaire received mandated counselling to discuss the only war that their generation had seen (so far.)

 

Camp Jupiter had grief counselling in place, advised from the daughter of the King of the Dead, and the daughter of war, whose own family was disrupted from her father’s PTSD. From Nico’s own experience losing his sister without a moment’s notice.

 

Camp Halfblood had Jason.

 

Sixteen-year-old Jason Grace who helped kill many monsters and demigods on the other side of the war, before taking a knife to his Heart. The one that now dwells in the Fields of Eternal Punishment.

 

The same Jason Grace who probably put up as many funeral rites as his sister, helped hang flags, and swore to see battle again. The one who’s back in Camp Halfblood’s shirt, accented by the fourteen beads at his collarbone, and wields the courteous smile that Nico despised so much when they first met.

 

Like he never left, Nico muses wryly.

 

The cabins take turns singing hymns in honor of their parents around the campfire. Even the ones with only one or two campers. Nico recognizes Pollux—who holds Gwen’s hand and offers food and prayer to his late brother. Nico makes a mental note to call Dakota later to make sure he’s okay.

 

“Maybe I should’ve gone to Camp Jupiter,” Percy murmurs regretfully—and Nico squeezes his arm.

 

“A year ago your mom wasn’t even sure if you’d make it home,” Nico reminds him. “I bet she’s happy you’re only an hour away right now.”

 

Percy smiles—but much like himself, Nico knows he’s exhausted. Death isn’t an easy subject for anyone. Not even for the children of the king—the daughter who was reluctant to push boundaries with a brother she thought was dead, and the son who put the anniversary of someone else’s death over his own birthday.

 

At the end of the last song, Jason finally rises—looking akin to every other camper there. The oranges of the fire warm his pale skin, and shadows paint his face. He holds a smile—but a troubled one.

 

“I,” Jason starts. His voice quickly diminishes, his gaze to his feet. He squares his chest and unfurrows his eyebrows, then surveys the crowd around the campfire. He fastens a hand over his notebook. Nico thinks back to the visions he had in Croatia—where in a blink of an eye and splattered blood, Jason went from Camp Halfblood’s fearless warrior to a teenager. A kid processing death.

 

Jason touches his neck because he’s nervous. Nico wonders if he’s the only one who notices.

 

Everyone is quiet in his presence. The chosen one.

 

“Last year was hard,” Jason says softly. “War is hard. So much so that no one god holds dominion over it. My best friend attest to that.”

 

Annabeth smiles tiredly—and even that is riddled with a trepid history.

 

“We didn’t sign up for a war. Or to be heroes. But. In the eyes of Olympus, we are heroes. Not once, but twice now,” Jason says. “Tonight we honor the ones who aren’t here. The ones who laid down their lives so we can still live. We…talked about this prophecy for years. Some child of the Big Three deciding the fate of Olympus. That…doesn’t make me a hero.”

 

Jason’s voice cracks. Nico wonders if anyone notices that, either. The camp is silent, with only the embers of the campfire kindling between them.

 

“I…didn’t get there without you all. Without them,” Jason corrects himself. “So please. Talk about them for years to come. They’re the real reason why Olympus is still standing. They’re the real heroes. I just—”

 

He pauses, and his eyebrows shrivel together. It’s a longer pause, before Jason relinquishes a sigh—evidently dismissing whatever he was going to say.

 

Jason stands, his shoulders square, one hand over the other. He smiles. “Here’s to the fallen.”

 

Annabeth curls a hand against his bicep and leans in closely. It’s a far cry from the image they must have shown a year ago. “To the fallen.”

 

“To the fallen,” echoes the camp, in various, quiet notes.

 

The same words fall from Nico’s lips, his hand curled against Percy’s as they think about the ones they’d lost last year, too.

 

After another silence passes, Jason finally sits. Someone—presumably from the Apollo Cabin—strums a chord on a guitar, and they try to brighten the memorial service.

 

Nico stands to his feet before he can help himself. His steps are deafened by the new, more lighthearted music—and when he blinks, he’s in front of both Annabeth and Jason, who remain seated at the edge of the campfire.

 

“Hey Nico,” Jason greets. His smile is dimmer than this morning. Dimmer than near the canoe lake.

 

“That was—” Nico starts. Stops. “I didn’t know you were going to deliver a speech.”

 

Jason laughs awkwardly and clasps his hands together. “Neither did I. Chiron kind of sprung it on me last minute. He said a victory speech would be. I…never really gave one last year.”  

 

So that’s what that was.

 

“Too much going on last year,” Annabeth supplies softly. She pats on Jason’s arm sympathetically and they exchange an aged look. Nico can only guess—the huge feud between them, the whole Luke situation, the whole reanimating thing. He doubts Jason was up for a victory speech after losing so much.

 

“You’re better with your words than you think you are,” Nico says.

 

The edges of Jason’s lips lift. “Thanks.”

 

“I…didn’t mean it like that,” Nico says—and his cheeks flush, unsure of how to follow up with that.

 

It registers eventually, as Jason lowers his head in acknowledgement. He rubs his palm thoughtfully and stands back up, parallel to Nico. “I…reckon I could use that break about now. If you’re still available.”

 

Nico’s chest flutters. He crosses his arms over it in hopes to mask it. “Reckon?”

 

Jason laughs softly, the sound as gentle as the embers—and lighter, despite the heaviness of his speech. “Would you be up for cheeseburgers, Ambassador di Angelo?”

 

Despite his own wariness, Nico feels his lips lift at the name. He opens his mouth to speak. “I—”

 

“Jason.” A girl intercepts them, another hand to Jason’s shoulder. “Would…you mind coming to the Demeter Cabin? Some of us would really like to talk about Rose’s death.”

 

Jason’s eyes flit back to Nico, reluctant.

 

Every part of Nico screams for Jason to say no. Instead, he shakes his head. “I’m in enemy territory now, Ambassador Grace. I’ll just…stay here. And watch.”

 

The edge of Jason’s mouth lifts in attempt to muster a smile—but it falls just as quickly. “Sure, Katie.”

 

With that, Jason turns around and departs with Katie from the Demeter Cabin. Nico watches as Jason’s silhouette shrinks—until Percy claps a hand on his shoulder.

 

“Hey,” Percy says gently—his tone directed more specifically at Annabeth, then to Nico. “Maybe some Go Fish will lighten the mood. In the Neptune—Poseidon Cabin?”

 

He gestures off in the distance, where Hazel and Frank are waiting for them.

 

Annabeth smiles gratefully and gives his hand a firm squeeze. “Thanks, Percy.”

 

“Always, Beth,” Percy promises—then he directs his attention to Nico. “You coming, Neeks?”

 

Nico waits until he can no longer see Jason in the distance. “Sure.”

 

Then, for the umpteenth time tonight, they go off in the opposite direction.

Notes:

Hi all! Thanks for being patient with me as life settles down and I find time to write again! I hope you enjoyed this chapter-- the boys haven't had much luck actually hanging out with each other so far. I can promise you it's leading somewhere. :) If you haven't seen it yet, rowan-scribbles made a lovely drawing of the boys here and ariihen made one here. Please give them as much love as they've given me! And as always, please comment as you can and stay safe out there!

Chapter 4: eulogy

Summary:

“It’s almost midnight,” Nico says finally. Hesitantly.

A heavy weight presses against Jason’s chest. “Yeah.”

“Your birthday,” Nico continues.

“The anniversary of Luke’s death,” Jason agrees. His fingers curl awkwardly against the door, and his gaze falls to his feet. “I…was going to go on a run. To get my mind off of—”

“Do you want company?”

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

 

Jason's Journal Entry, 06/30/20XX

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Jason's Journal Entry Afternoon, 06/30/20XX

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Jason's Journal Entry Evening, 06/30/20XX

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11:27PM is when Nico has a drachma curled beneath his finger, dabbling with the idea of calling his sister.

 

It’s been at least twelve hours since their argument, and Nico still isn’t sure how to have this conversation with Bianca. One that’s been a longtime coming since they had a Disney-esque heart-to-heart in a wedding chapel. Literally. Nico’s not sure where to start.

 

He stares up at the weathered books above his desk, with old bindings and covers from the 1940s. Then Nico looks across the room, to the princess canopy and dainty dolls adorning his sister’s bed. He can almost smell his grandmother’s cooking from the other side of the manor—first thing Saturday morning, when school wasn’t in session. When he’d clumsily (loudly) come into Bianca’s room and rustle her awake for homemade waffles.

 

“I’m sorry I made you angry,” Nico tests on his tongue, reminded of how she used to get upset that he’d topple over her dolls and ruin her tea parties. He fiddles with the coin between his fingers—then reaches for the denarii—the Roman currency.

 

It was the Romans, who took him in when he thought he lost everything.

 

But New Rome is different from the Rome that Bianca and he used to visit when they were little. When Mammina stayed with them more often than not, and their mother was happy. When they were all happy.

 

He remembers the days of insisting on saving a waffle for his big sister just as much as the ones where he bothered her. When she’d be excited to see him after a long day of school.

 

“I’m sorry I’m not five anymore,” he says aloud. Nico waits, sitting on his Peter Pan bed sheets, with the redheaded plushie tucked in his arm.

 

He sighs.

 

Really—at this point, it’s hard to tell who he’s apologizing to.

 

“Mammina,” he says, annunciating her name with exasperation. “I’m fifteen. Not five.

 

He can hear the fire crackling at her brazier—and almost hears the sassy remark of, the toys in your bedroom say otherwise!

 

“Those are figurines,” Nico grumbles in protest—to no one in particular.

 

Maybe he’s losing it.

 

He dabbles with both the denarii and drachma—before ultimately placing them back in his change jar. There isn’t enough light in Hera’s Cabin to send an IM anyway. Not that he can guarantee Bianca would be willing to answer him.

 

Not that she’s entitled to his call. If Bianca wanted to talk to him, then she should just call him.

 

So maybe she doesn’t want to.

 

Maybe it isn’t worth mulling over. After all—she’s the one who slammed the door on him.

 

After he told her he didn’t have time for her.

 

After he thought he had told Bianca he would be gone for two days.

 

Did Bianca even know how to feed herself?

 

Surely she did. She lived in Camp Halfblood.

 

(With enchanted plates.)

 

She probably had days where she fended for herself with the Huntresses.

 

(By hunting small game.)

 

So Bianca’s cooking prowess ranged between hunting and magical plates. Nico’s not even sure how Bianca pays for her food. Unless Jason did it for her. He thinks back to the crumpled five-dollar bill that Jason pulled out of his pocket back in Odesa, when Nico instinctively expected him to pay for their dinner.

 

Nico shoves his frustrations—and coinage—to the other end of the desk, the irritation pulsing at the front of his head.

 

“No apology sounds good over the phone,” he decides. “I’ll apologize in person.”

 

He awaits an approving crackle from his mother’s fire—but the embers echo with an indifferent beat, and a mother’s—you’ll do the right thing when the time is right.

 

“What happened to mother knows best?” Nico asks irately.

 

Silence.

 

“Mum’s the word, huh?” With that being the case, Nico huffs and throws himself into bed. He curls into the sheets, glaring at the shared wardrobe at the other end of the wall. Go Fish had been a good way to end the depressing night—but it doesn’t leave Nico feeling better. For a number of reasons.

 

One reason in particular.

 

With hesitation, Nico rolls back onto his knees. He leans over and peeks out the blinds, across the Greek Omega that Camp Halfblood’s cabins will soon come to be.

 

Across the dozen cabins that have settled in for the night, the Hades Cabin is still lit.

 

*

Even after a day like his, Jason still has trouble sleeping.

 

After catching up with the younger kids in the arts and crafts classes, and checking up on the infirmary under Will Solace’s watch—then getting informed by Chiron that an eloquent speech was in order, to remember the fallen—he’s still restless. The last one in particular drained him of his energy.

 

Still unable to fall asleep, as he stares at the ceiling overhead. After a month with his sister to himself, having to come back and dote on every camper at Camp Halfblood feels…expected. Like most of his duties at Camp Halflbood before he left—a routine of taking care of others before himself.

 

Jason thinks back to what Nico said after his anticlimactic speech—how he’s better with his words than he thinks he is.

 

They haven’t traveled together in ages—and have hardly seen each other since Jason moved to New Rome—but Nico still knows how to find him.

 

If only Camp Halfblood didn’t make Jason feel so lost while he was here. Between playing with the little kids, helping out with grief counselling, and still…trying to make sure everyone else is okay. Coaxing them, after the death of their siblings. After he reanimated them. Coaxing the survivors through what happened last year also means talking about what happened once their brother or sister fell.

 

No matter how many years, Jason doesn’t know if it’ll ever get easier.

 

So—like every customary thing he’s done since arriving at Camp Halfblood, Jason decides to go on a run.

 

He’s halfway through changing out of his shirt, when he senses a soul on the other side of his door. A staticky one.

 

Jason waits—knowing better than to spook someone. Not after getting one Kool-Aid bottle to the face today. But—no knock.

 

Eventually, he walks to the front door and opens it. “Nico?”

 

Nico startles when they lay eyes on each other. He peers up, dressed in a loose shirt and basketball shorts. It’s a far cry from what Jason’s grown used to—either Camp Jupiter’s laurel against a royal purple, or the praetor armor.

 

A deaf minute passes between them.

 

“Hi,” Nico says eventually, evidently gathering his bearings.

 

“Sorry. Did I spook you?”

 

“No,” Nico replies—and his gaze is suddenly set on Jason, shoulders square. His hand twitches at his side before he gestures to Jason’s hand. “Are you. On your way out?”

 

“Oh,” Jason says, and he follows Nico’s gaze. He puts the shirt on, oblivious to Nico’s staring. “I was about to go on a run. I—”

 

“Can’t sleep?”

 

Jason bites the inside of his mouth. Coming from Nico is almost expected—but he hasn’t had that happen in a while. That’s honestly spookier than sneaking up on someone. “Am I that obvious?”

 

Nico snorts, his hands curled over his chest. “Well, that and it’s only 8:45 in Cali right now.”

 

Jason’s lips lift into a smile. “I take it that’s why you can’t sleep either?”

 

“I’m. Usually playing games with Percy right about now. I think he and Annabeth snuck off somewhere.”

 

“Really?” Jason blinks. “Like, together?”

 

Nico makes another face—holding an exasperation that Jason saw earlier today when they were at the canoe lake. “Honestly, I’m not even sure if Percy could answer that question.”

 

“Neither could Beth,” Jason admits—and he notices Nico perk at the nickname. “She said it had an easy ring to it when they were on the Argo II together.”

 

“I can’t tell you what it must feel like to have the entire camp rooting for you to get together,” Nico muses wryly, “and have no idea what’s going on.”

 

The corners of Jason’s lips rise into a smile. Percy isn’t a subject he’s pressed yet with Annabeth—but Jason knows he hasn’t seen her this happy in years. “Neither can I.”

 

They fall into an awkward silence, Jason’s hand at the door and Nico across from him. It’s not until now that Jason realizes it’s the longest they’ve been together since this morning. The day’s been spent being pulled in opposite directions.

 

“It’s almost midnight,” Nico says finally. Hesitantly.

 

A heavy weight presses against Jason’s chest. “Yeah.”

                                                                                 

“Your birthday,” Nico continues.

 

“The anniversary of Luke’s death,” Jason agrees. His fingers curl awkwardly against the door, and his gaze falls to his feet. “I…was going to go on a run. To get my mind off of—”

 

“Do you want company?”

 

Jason halts. He peers back up at Nico, who stares at him somberly now. He thinks of the embers from the campfire, where the heat of Hestia’s hearth warmed Nico’s already-olive skin. It reminds Jason of travelling with the Athena Parthenos, with Nico in one arm, and Uncle Gleeson in the other. With less danger, and the same amount of heartache.

 

There’s less heartache on a normal day. This one just hits harder than the others.

 

Nico’s words are careful, with a light pleading. He peers up at Jason, cautious in demeanor, but sympathetic.

 

“I’d love nothing more,” Jason answers sincerely—and he widens the door for Nico to enter.

 

He already feels better when Nico crosses the threshold.

 

Jason watches as Nico inspects the exterior walls of Cabin Thirteen first—the abysmal black obsidian that seemed to suck daylight into its foundation. Torches with eternal flames hang on either side of an ornate entrance—pure gold, to signify his father’s other realm of power, decorated with a skull-shaped door-knocker and a spiked ring. Maybe Nico was too busy staring at the skull’s gem-encrusted eyes to knock.

 

Annabeth kept the interior simple. Gray wooden floors, gray interior walls. Jason has his trunk from his time in Hermes Cabin—practically empty from what he brought over to New Rome with him. After fighting over a bathroom with the rest of camp, she made sure he had one to himself.

 

Nico walks the length of the room, taking in the cabin silently while Jason watches from the door. Then, Nico stops. “Jason.”

 

“Yeah?”

 

“You don’t have any furniture assembled.” Nico looks over his shoulder. He gestures to an unopened box that holds Jason’s bedframe in disbelief. “Where were you going to sleep tonight?”

 

“I was going to assemble it,” Jason explains. “After my run.”

 

Nico stares at him as though he’s grown a second head. “The run you were going to take to tire yourself out.”

 

“Well, it’s only 8:45 in Cali,” Jason repeats—and the corners of his lips raise. Nico hasn’t looked at him this hard since he admitted to going to a nuclear plant. He reaches out and picks up an old alarm clock. “8:53 now, I guess.”

 

Seven more minutes until the anniversary of the worst moment in Jason’s life.

 

Nico pulls out a knife from who-knows-where.

 

“Um. What are you doing?” Jason asks.

 

“Getting your mind off of…things,” Nico says. He’s careful in avoiding Luke’s name. Nico strips the box of its plastic bindings and peers back up. “And building your bed. Something wrong with that?”

 

Jason opens his mouth to speak. Then closes it. He peers back to the door curiously.

 

There’s a short shuffle, as Nico pulls the large box closer to himself. He makes a face—one that Jason can’t quite decipher, but there’s reluctance there.

 

“Running has been…a solution. Maybe not the right one,” Nico says carefully. “Maybe a change of pace would be good for you.”

 

He eyes Jason, as though gauging his reaction. Nico doesn’t continue ripping up boxes. He doesn’t seem to want to, until Jason agrees. Which—is probably the first thing Jason’s allowed to decide all day.

 

A smile curls against Jason’s lips. “Maybe so.”

 

His bed comes in three parts—the bedframe, the headboard, and then his mattress—which is propped against the opposite wall. Jason decides against asking where Nico pulled his knife from—after all, Nico’s surprised him over less.

 

They alternate with the same knife, opening each box and crumpling packing sheets. Jason stares at the hilt of the knife—which is weathered from handling. It glows with an imperial gold sheen and looks like it’s never seen a dull edge.

 

“Thalia gave it to me.”

 

Jason looks back up, startled, where Nico is holding out a hand expectantly.

 

“I didn’t have a weapon when we left the casino,” Nico continues. “She keeps a spear in her mace canister. Thalia’s amazing at combat—but she knew she couldn’t keep her eyes on me at all times while making it back to camp. There was always a chance we could get separated.”

 

“Don’t I know it,” Jason murmurs. He hands the knife off and watches Nico slice open some oversized zipties.

 

Nico is thoughtful as he hooks the knife under plastic.

 

“Maybe losing you was the reason why she was so careful with me,” Nico points out. He grimaces in a way Jason doesn’t expect, then leans against the box. “It’s a bit of a stretch, but. Losing you is probably the only reason why Thalia was able to keep me alive. She didn’t want to risk losing someone else close again.”

 

Jason’s heart swells at the mention of his sister. He reaches out and slides panels out of the box while Nico holds it still. “I haven’t heard you talk about the casino in a while.”

 

Nico shrugs awkwardly. “Because I don’t like to.”

 

“Right. Sorry.”

 

Nico’s made it very clear when he’s uncomfortable discussing something. Jason’s learned the hard way. But—this time, Nico studies him as they push the empty box aside.His shoulders deflate. “It’s…just not a part of my life I like to remember. I…thought the worst thing that could happen to me was lose my sister. Then I found out it could get worse.”

 

He makes tick marks with his fingers, tapping each one carefully with his knife.

 

“My sister, gone. My mom, gone. Some guy with a lightning bolt thought he could stroke his ego and claim me as his kid and have me live out the next five years of my life as a total lie—” Nico’s tone is wry and annoyed—but Jason bites back a laugh. Only Nico di Angelo could reduce the King of the Gods to some guy with a lightning bolt. “Being gay is a sin—so my whole existence is just wrong because of my two moms.”

 

Jason’s heart hardens at the last one. Nico glares at his hands—but it’s with a rage that’s older than their friendship. “I’m sorry, Nico.”

 

To his surprise, Nico snorts and looks back up, irritated. “And everyone looks at you and offers their condolences—whether you want it or not. Like I’m a kicked puppy or something. No one would bat an eye at me if it weren’t the fact Jupiter was my dad.”

 

Oh. “Um. Sor—”

 

“No.” Nico closes his eyes and waves his hand dismissively. As quickly as his fire rose, it dies out. “Trust me, Jason. You’re the last person I lump with everyone.

 

Again, Jason can’t help but smile. “Good to know I’m special.”

 

There’s a pause before Nico replies again. Red flushes his cheeks, and he reaches for the instruction manual. “Would I be here if you weren’t?”

 

Something else swells inside Jason’s chest. He’s not sure how to describe it. Instead, he leans over Nico’s shoulder.

 

Nico drops the instruction manual. He curses under his breath and scrambles to pick it back up. “Sorry.”

 

“No problem,” Jason says—and he studies Nico now that he has the chance to. Nico’s wind-swept, rumpled hair—and his long, graceful frame that holds the noble poise of the queen herself. The peacock tattoo is starch on the inside of his forearm—but Jason thinks Nico looks more like himself now than he did half a year ago, when they first met. “I’d say your life is pretty different now.”

 

Jason met Nico di Angelo, son of Jupiter, but parted the past spring with Praetor di Angelo, proud son of Juno. Nico built a family around himself the way his mother would have wanted—and reunited with his long-lost sister. Jason has nothing but respect for Nico—who seemed sure of himself, even when he didn’t know who he was.

 

Nico peers back at Jason curiously before he lowers the instruction manual.

 

“It is,” he agrees. He grazes the tattoo on his arm, like he knows Jason is staring. His nose scrunches—and he curls his finger against the peacock with a sigh. “I don’t like to think about the casino because I don’t want to think about how differently it could have gone. If…I didn’t have Thalia there. Or Percy and Reyna. They made all of the attention at Camp Jupiter a little less miserable.”

 

Jason tries to imagine a world where Nico didn’t have a family to support him. He can’t. “Bianca used to wonder all the time how different things would have been.”

 

At the mention of his sister, Nico’s expression dims—like other instances throughout the day. For every moment Nico is solemn, Jason’s concern grows.  

 

“I still don’t know what happened this morning,” Jason reminds him quietly. “I just want to make sure you’re okay.”

 

For all the time Jason had taken away today, Nico was still at the forefront of his mind.

 

Nico sighs in defeat. “I’ve. Been trying to figure out the best way to apologize to her.”

 

“What’s making it hard—?”

 

“The fact I have to do it in the first place,” Nico replies almost immediately. He waves his hands around, irate—before letting his shoulders sag. Nico glances in Jason’s direction—then glares at the ground. “Sorry. You don’t need to hear about this.”

 

Jason reaches over and places a hand on Nico’s shoulder.

 

“I’ve spent all day worried about you,” Jason confesses. “If I can do anything to help, then I will.”

 

Nico studies Jason carefully. Then he knots a hand to the front of his t-shirt. “Did you…happen to tell anyone that you were going to Camp Halfblood?”

 

“Well, yeah. Thalia. And Annabeth, so she knew I was coming.” Thalia had been mute in her reaction when Jason mentioned it—but maybe he didn’t notice over his own anxiety over the day.

 

The hours leading up to their trip, Jason couldn’t sleep. Every time he closed his eyes, campers from a year ago stared back at him. In shock and fear. Dead and alive. He left a month ago—but Jason’s life circled the Great Prophecy. That fate, on his birthday.

 

There was nothing heroic about it. About Jason. But—he stopped himself from mentioning that in his speech. It wouldn’t help anyone.

 

“Did you happen to mention it to Bianca?”

 

Oh. “Oh,” Jason says—and he’s quick to cock his head back to Nico, who meets him with a grimace. “No, I thought—I guess—”

 

Bianca and he spent most days together when Thalia was doing her own thing, or with Reyna. They’d recently taken a trip to San Francisco to take pictures of the Golden Gate Bridge. Much like Thalia, Bianca only brought up the subject of his birthday once—whether or not he wanted to celebrate it.

 

And—Jason’s never had a reason to celebrate. Not when his whole life was lain out in front of him before he could even say his own name. Once he said no, weeks ago, the subject dropped, and they found something else easier to talk about.

 

“It slipped my mind,” Jason says incredulously. He rubs his forehead. “I. Wow. Oh, gods—no wonder she’s mad.”

 

To his surprise, Nico touches his shoulder. “You had a lot going on. It slipped my mind, too. I—she’s angry with me, mostly. For pushing.”

 

“Pushing?” Jason repeats—and he watches as Nico’s cheeks dust with pink.

 

Nico bites the inside of his cheek and looks reluctant. More so, than insisting on building Jason’s furniture. “It’s…a long story. I. Hazel thinks she may feel excluded. Between her little brother and her best friend. Since both of us were blond enough to forget mentioning it to her.”

 

He stops and looks specifically at Jason’s hair.

 

“No offense,” he supplies.

 

“None taken,” Jason says. He rubs his forehead again and reaches for the bag of nuts and bolts. “I—should we call her? I don’t want her to take it that way. This whole trip was on a whim—I’d probably be worse off if you weren’t here.”

 

At that admission, one of Nico’s eyebrows dart in the air. He stares at Jason inquisitively—and coughs. “I’m sure Thalia and Bianca would’ve come if you asked.”

 

“I didn’t want them to,” Jason admits—and his face swells with heat. The words leave his mouth before he has the chance to filter them. “I just. It’s not…”

 

It’s not a side of his life that he likes to talk about very much. Nor does he ever want to expose his sister to it. Bianca was gone before his birthday. Thalia knows him past this point in his life, and it’s taken almost a year to recover what he lost with Annabeth. What they’re still recovering.

 

Out of nowhere, he finds Nico’s hand on his own, rubbing smooth circles against his wrist.

 

“It’s not something you like to talk about,” Nico echoes, his expression somber. “I get it.”

 

Jason exhales a breath he didn’t know he was holding. “Thank you.”

 

“Anytime,” Nico replies—and he retracts his hand before Jason can miss it. “This…day isn’t the best for you. Nothing about it is great. I just. I didn’t want Bianca to be one more thing for you to worry about.”

 

Jason’s eyebrows knit together. “Nico, I’ve been worried about you all day.”

 

Nico twitches, biting the inside of his cheek once more. “Well, please don’t be. I’ll make amends with my sister when the time’s right.”

 

“Do you want to talk about it?”

 

“No,” Nico says gruffly. Sourly. And then it wanes—the weight of his own frustrations evident across his face. His lips press together in a straight line.

 

“Uh…are you sure?” Jason asks.

 

The irritation is concentrated—right under the rapping of Nico’s foot against the new wood floor.

 

Jason clears his throat. “I…know I’m not Percy, or Thalia—”

 

“I can’t be five years old again,” Nico says finally. He waves his hand so emphatically that Jason almost gets smacked in the process. “She used to get annoyed when I begged her to play with me. She always wanted to do her own thing—and I had to figure out how to do mine. I can’t help it that she’s not dead anymore—or that she left the Huntresses and broke up with her girlfriend, for me. I don’t need her to do that for me—I’m not that little kid anymore. I’m not worth the trouble.”

 

As he finishes his rant, Nico halts. He buries his face in his hand and groans, while Jason stares.

 

“Um,” Jason starts. Stunned. “Wow.”

 

“Sorry,” Nico offers again.

 

“No—don’t be.” Jason curls his hand around a baggie of bolts—then reaches to touch Nico’s shoulder. “I…can definitely tell you the one thing Bianca wanted more than anything in life was to be reunited with you. And you’re worth everything, Nico.”

 

Nico peers back up between his fingers, reluctant.

 

“She literally went to hell and back just for the chance to see you again,” Jason reminds him. He reaches out and brushes Nico’s hand from his face.

 

Nico snorts. “And all we’ve done since she’s arrived is argue. We argued in Disney World, over the right way to clean the house, over your—”

 

He halts, a glow to his cheeks. Jason stares back, confused.

 

“Over my what?” Jason asks—and Nico is quick to inch back.

 

“Over nothing.”

 

“Nico,” Jason chastises half-heartedly. It’s new for both of them, as Nico peers back at him, taken aback. “Oh. Um. Sorry—”

 

“I didn’t like her trying to push you to date again,” Nico confesses. He crosses his arms over his chest, his cheeks swelling to a darker shade of red. “It’s not her business.”

 

Oh. Jason stares back at Nico, surprised.

 

“It’s not my business either,” Nico quickly continues. His gaze is everywhere but Jason’s face, his hands curled over his biceps while he’s nervous. “But, for her to put it out there—now of all times—when she’s got her own issues with Piper, or whatever—I don’t agree with it. You—”

 

“I’ll date when I’m ready,” Jason finishes for him. Nico looks at him, taken aback at the affirmation, and Jason can’t hide his smile.

 

He heaves another sigh—realizing it’s the first time he’s said it out loud. Jason crouches, rearranging long ends of his bedframe. There’s a stutter of a second before Nico crouches too, and hands him the hex key.

 

“What…happened to your heart being in the Fields of Eternal Punishment and all?” Nico asks.

 

Jason’s chest clenches at the mention of that. “It is.”

 

For all he knows, it may always be in the Fields.

 

“But…someone told me that I’m allowed to be happy, too,” Jason says. He smiles as Nico’s cheeks warm—then places the hex key aside. The corners of his lips waver ever so slightly, and he studies Nico carefully. “I…want this day to be behind me. Some day. It’s just…getting there is a journey.”

 

A year ago, Jason was still stuck at the bottom of a pit, trapped with the Great Prophecy and the fears that came with being his father’s son. It wasn’t until this past spring that he felt like there may be an exit from the chasm. Coming back to Camp Halfblood is like walking over ice and waiting to for a crack.

 

Nico reaches over and places a hand on his shoulder and keeps him from falling.

 

“I’ve seen you on a journey,” Nico coaxes gently. “You’re pretty fearless, Jason.”

 

It’s Jason’s turn to blush. A smile curls against his lips, and he gives Nico a gentle squeeze. “Thanks. I had a pretty good quest partner.”

 

Nico mirrors his expression, a reddish glow to his own cheeks. He averts his gaze and pulls his hand away, quick to flip the page in their instruction manual. “Hardly. I’d still be condensation right now if it weren’t for you.”

 

For all of the stress that went into carrying the Athena Parthenos, he’s glad Nico and he survived through the trip. That this part of them did. Jason bites back another smile. “Can you believe we didn’t get a souvenir from Disney World? Not even a bad one.”

 

Nico snorts. “What—like a, ‘I Fought an Incel Near Mickey Mouse’s Head and All I Got Was This Lousy T-Shirt’ kind of souvenir?”

 

“Or, ‘Keep Calm and Zombie On’ snow globe.” Jason’s chest swells as Nico laughs.

 

“I’m sure if you asked Coach Hedge, he’d have something for you,” Nico says. “He stole a lot while we were in Florida.”

 

“I don’t think I want to relive the amount of property damage I caused in Orlando.” Jason’s cheeks dust pink and he smiles sheepishly. He sits straighter and glances over the Nico’s shoulder for the instruction manual again. There’s a lull in their conversation, where Nico hums in agreement—then Nico silently hands him the next plank. “I’m really glad you came here with me, Nico.”

 

Their hands brush together ever so slightly. Nico peers back at him, his expression thoughtful. Then he shrugs. “Bianca and Thalia would have come if you asked. I just. Happened to be there when you were thinking about it.”

 

“I think I do my best thinking when you happen to be there,” Jason confesses—and he watches as Nico flushes. He tries to think of a better way to explain it—but can’t. Even in this one instance, when the rest of the day found them at opposite ends of camp, Jason feels his worries alleviated. “You and Bianca will figure this fight out. I can mediate, if you want.”

 

“You absolutely won’t,” Nico admonishes—and he eyes Jason. “Last time you tried that, Orion threw you out of a church window.”

 

“I came back,” Jason reminds him.

 

“Yeah, with one less shoe.”

 

Jason bites back a laugh.

 

Nico heaves another sigh and rubs his temples. “I’ll figure things out with Bianca.”

 

“I know you will.” Jason hesitates before reaching out to touch the other demigod’s hand. “There’s…no instruction manual for how you’re feeling right now. I don’t know what the protocol is for dead sibling that’s now alive again. You…may not feel like you’re that kid anymore, but I think the fact that you guys are trying so hard proves you’re still as sweet as Bianca remembers.”

 

Nico heaves another sigh, looking slightly embarrassed—then concedes. “Thanks.”

 

“Always,” Jason says.

 

Another silence passes, where neither of them quite say anything. Under the dim light of the cabin, Nico’s eyes are still as bright as daylight. His hair hangs in a clustered fringe after moving around boxes, and the evening light seems to accentuate his narrow frame.

 

A flake of Styrofoam lays at the crown of Nico’s head. More than one. Jason considers telling Nico—but he loses his voice for a moment. He’s not sure why.

 

Then, Nico turns his head elsewhere and smiles. “Guess what?”

 

“What?”

 

Nico stretches out of Jason’s field of vision, then returns with the old alarm clock. He points to the time. “We’ve been at this for almost an hour.”

 

12:37AM.

 

Thirty-seven minutes past the moment Luke died.

 

“Oh,” Jason says, his throat dry. Just…

 

Oh.

 

He reaches out and cradles the alarm clock in his palms—unsure of how to follow up on that. There’s a gentle pulse as it clicks against his hand—counting the seconds as they got further away from Kronos’s defeat. Away from Luke’s death. Instead of bolts and gears, his hands were stained red last year. Red from Luke, red from fallen monsters and campers…

 

And now, Jason’s in a cabin of his own after fifteen years, building a bed and the time unnoticed.

 

Luke’s death, unnoticed.

 

He barely registers Nico tapping him on the shoulder.

 

“Every journey starts with footsteps,” Nico whispers gently. “You’re doing great so far.”

 

Jason stares at Nico for a long time. Longer than he probably should. There’s a heaviness to his heart—but he’s not nauseous.

 

Eventually, he crawls back to building the bedframe.

 

They carry on.

 

*

 

A stretch of time passes before Jason talks again. Specifically because he misses the handoff when Nico holds out the hammer.

 

It slips between Jason’s fingers and lands on his foot, without one yelp or recoil. “Oh—whoops.”

 

“Jason,” Nico says almost immediately, his own heart rate spiking when the hammerhead lands with an echoing CLACK.  

 

“I’m okay—I spaced out for a second.” Jason bends over and picks up the hammer like nothing happened. He makes another sound. “Uh-oh.”

 

He holds both parts of the now-broken hammer in either hand.

 

Nico knows better than to laugh—but he’s never seen anyone break a hammer on a stubbed toe before.  The tiniest chortle flutters from the back of his throat. Nico’s hand flies over his mouth—but for a moment, Jason’s gaze look a thousand miles away.

 

“Safe to say that builder isn’t in my future,” Jason mutters sheepishly. Fortunately, the handoff was to put the hammer away. He places it in a toolbox, and they push the bedframe against the wall near one of the only windows in the cabin. “Can you help me with the mattress?”

 

“Sure.” Nico hauls one end while Jason cradles the other, and they carefully lay it over the spine of the bedframe. It lands with a resounding plop. The moment the mattress settles, both Jason and he hop onto the bed with a victorious sigh.

 

Building a bed is a first for Nico. The praetorhouse came with furniture funded by the Senate. Standard and militant, focusing on the praetor part first, and a home dead last. Before the invasion of Bianca’s wardrobe, they supplied him with the barest of furniture. 

 

The Hades Cabin, on the other hand—is dark and almost cavernous—with only one window beside Jason’s headboard. The ceiling is lined with square light fixtures filled with Edison bulbs. Their concentrated brightness reminds Nico of torches.

 

“Pretty, isn’t it?” Jason murmurs, his own eyes still fixated on the ceiling. “Annabeth suggested keeping the light as minimal as possible. Gives me as many shadows as I need to leave.”

 

Nico glances back at the window, where he suddenly notices blackout curtains. “My cabin just has my mom judging me in my sleep.”

 

Jason laughs softly, the warmth of it swelling in Nico’s chest.

 

“Do you like it?” Nico asks.

 

A smile etched across Jason’s face. “It’s fitting for my dad, I think.”

 

“But,” Nico says again, “do you like it?” 

 

Jason peers over carefully, his eyes darker than every shadow. His lips raise into another smile, admirable, and he nods. “I do.” 

 

Nico’s cheeks tingle. He fiddles with the hem of his sleeve and peers back up at the ceiling. “Good.” 

 

A soft chuckle flutters from Jason’s lips, the sound reverberating against Nico’s chest. But eventually, it fades, disappearing into the darkness. Nico can’t help but look back at the son of Hades. 

 

The lighting sculps Jason’s face with shadows and seems to highlight his more chiseled features. The room is dim—but his eyes are darker. More somber, while the lack of that smile paints the line of his mood. 

 

“I used to wish I had my own cabin,” Jason confesses softly. “Not so much for the privacy. I…hoped that maybe if I had a cabin, I’d eventually have someone to share it with, too.”

 

“Looks like your wish came true,” Nico says. “But I think Thalia likes you better in New Rome.”

 

The edges of Jason’s lips etch into a smile—one that looks more comfortable on his face. Nico remembers the nervous tick in Jason’s demeanor when Camp Halfblood was first mentioned a few days ago. When this whole birthday and visiting was mentioned. But—Jason finds comfort in his sister’s name now.

 

“I…think in a weird way, I was better off in the Hermes Cabin,” Jason admits. His voice is as strained as when Nico pointed out the time hours ago. Jason stares at the ceiling—studying it, even, but Nico knows he’s looking further. “I…never felt like I fit in. Putting me in a cabin all by myself would’ve just made me lonelier. Luke was good at making sure I didn’t feel that. Alone, I mean.”

 

He scoffs wearily—which is a new one from Jason.

 

“For all the good that it’s done me,” he finishes softly.

 

Nico lays flat for a moment, following Jason’s gaze. Jason’s expression is harder now. More distant, as he gets lost in the past.

 

 

“What did you want to say tonight at the campfire?” Nico asks, after a heavy stillness. Nico curls a hand over his own heart and bites the inside of his mouth as Jason turns back to him. “Before you cut yourself off.”

 

“You noticed?”

 

Nico shrugs as nonchalantly as he can muster. It’s not a lot.

 

“It’s been a tough day for you,” he says eventually. Gently. “I…just think the last person who needs to be hard on you is you, Jason.

 

Again, the other end of Jason’s lips presses into a tight smile, grateful. It wanes ever-so slightly, and Nico waits.

 

“I,” Jason starts, with the same cadence as at the campfire. He stops. Waits even now, for Nico’s urging to continue. Every word after that is different. “I never wanted to be a hero. I never asked for Olympus’s weight on my shoulders. I…”

 

He pauses. Sucks in a breath.

 

“I never asked to be a son of Hades,” Jason continues in a soft murmur. “I…don’t want to celebrate this day. We won over Kronos, but…lives were lost. Too many. I…”

 

Again, he struggles, but again Nico waits.

 

“I took too many lives before they could find the peace they deserved,” Jason continues, his own voice cracking. There’s a gentle shimmer to his eyes, accentuating the harsh light fixtures, and he closes his them with a sigh. “For my own reasons. My own anger. My own heartbreak. I…took their agency. All of the other kids who were actually proud of their mom or dad, while I’m just…”

 

His voice diminishes, tone tight.

 

“I was just trying to get through the day,” Jason continues eventually.

 

Whether it’s part of his forgotten speech or just his own emotions, it’s hard to tell. But Jason clearly needs to say it.

 

Jason sits up on the bed, faster than Nico can register, and curls one hand over the other. “So I’m not a hero. I couldn’t even be proud as my father’s son a year ago. Not for what I did. I just…happened to be the unlucky kid that got chosen to do this. All the other kids—the ones that fought for their mom or dad’s throne, or for their families—they’re the real heroes. I’m just the kid that got stuck.” 

 

He laughs quietly, but only at himself. 

 

“I’m always going to be the kid that got stuck. Stuck remembering how many people died on my birthday,” he whispers softly. “Stuck knowing that each year this day passes, I get older while all of those other kids are gone. While Luke is—” 

 

He halts. The name sounds like sin on Jason’s lips—and it’s easy to tell that he’s only punishing himself. 

 

“Go ahead,” Nico encourages softly. 

 

Jason holds a breath. “Each year this day passes, I get older while Luke is gone, too. I get to remember every year on my birthday that it’s my fault.” 

 

Nico watches the silhouette of Jason’s back, as Jason falls quiet. He tries to think about the end of a war—where everything that could go wrong went worse. Where there was no coping mechanism for himself—not if he thought others needed it more. Even after killing his beloved.

 

He has to push the thought away. Nico came too close to losing one of those loves—Hazel—this past spring.

 

“Not much of a victory speech, huh?” Jason whispers, his voice gravelly.

 

Before he can help himself, Nico reaches out and brushes a hand against Jason’s shoulder blade.

 

“Your life’s pretty different now too,” Nico whispers back. “No prophecies. No quests. You’re a son of Hades by just being yourself. You’re retired, Jason.”

 

Eventually, Nico feels the tension wane beneath the tips of his fingers. Jason is slow in reacting. But he exhales again, reminding Nico so much of the boy in Croatia who finally let himself breathe again. Jason turns around to face him, one hand lacing around Nico’s own.

 

“Thanks, Nico,” he says softly.

 

“Always.”

 

They sit there a moment longer, hands intertwined as Jason grounds himself.

 

Nico…really doesn’t want to let go. He strokes the edge of Jason’s palm, thumbing his pulse the way he’s seen Thalia do a thousand times. The way he’s felt it.

 

His heart skips a beat, as Jason mimics the motion.

 

Then Nico bolts out of the bed—faster than a gust of wind—and he hardly registers the look of confusion that splays across Jason’s face.

 

“Um—Nico—?”

 

“We still need to find your bedsheets,” Nico interrupts, flustered. He keeps his face to the ground, heat boiling in his own cheeks. “Plus, there are bookshelves to be assembled. And another bed, for Thalia. I think this box is for a dresser. There’s not much use for it if it’s not assembled—not that you brought a lot of clothes anyway.”

 

He tries not to look back at Jason. The concern is apparent though—whether Nico chooses to look or not. “I…think they’re in the trunk.”

 

Nico pokes around carefully. He finds a black trunk sidled against the other side of the room, lost in the mix of many unboxed pieces of furniture. Nico can’t help but shake his head. What did Jason do exactly, after everyone went to bed? Where did he bother sitting?

 

“I can’t believe you waited this long to set up your bed,” he grumbles under his breath.

 

Jason laughs—having apparently heard him despite their distance. “I…didn’t exactly have the time to set one up today. I was fine with taking my mattress from Hermes Cabin.”

 

“I’ve seen the inside of Hermes Cabin. I don’t even want to know how old that bed is.”

 

There’s a silence. Then, “I’ve slept in that bed for most of my life.”

 

There’s no bitterness to Jason’s voice, just…a fact. A tired one, from a long, frustrating life at Camp Halfblood. 

 

Nico unclasps the trunk and rifles through it under dim lighting. For how little there is in the room, Nico wonders if he needs to start carrying a flashlight.

 

His fingers touch…something a little more solid. Nico pauses as he grazes against it again. Something long and bounded in leather.

 

A…sword.

 

Before he can help himself, Nico picks it up. He holds it as best he can to the light and studies it carefully, fingers brushing over the handcrafted leather. It’s…different from the gladiuses that are Legion standard—a beautiful mix of dark brown and black.

 

It’s also the last thing Nico would expect to find in Jason’s cabin.

 

“Jason,” Nico says, and he turns around. “Why do you have…?”

 

He trails off.

 

At the other end of the room, Jason Grace is asleep.

 

*

 

For the first time in weeks, Jason doesn’t have a nightmare.

 

He wakes up to the dim light of the cabin, with the sounds of birds echoing from the other side of the window. It takes him a moment to realize he’s not in his bedroom back in New Rome. That’s he’s not dreaming.

 

Jason opens his eyes to a ceiling filled with ornate light fixtures, feeling…

 

Better.

 

He reaches for his old alarm clock and reads the time. 9:13AM.

 

Jason can’t remember the last time that he slept in. It’s…late for him, even on west coast time. He reaches across the full mattress with his other hand—but doesn’t know why. His bed is bare of bed sheets. There’s a pillow under his head, and a blanket over him. Jason recalls Nico mentioning something about dressing the bed last night, then…nothing.

 

There’s a note sitting on his duffel bag when he finally gets out of bed—right on top of his missing sheets.

 

You looked too peaceful to wake up. Sleep tight, Jason.

-                   Nico

 

Jason sets the note down with a smile.

 

He makes his bed, washes his face, and gets ready for the day.

 

 

 

Annabeth finds him first. She looks up from the Athena table and stands to her feet before everyone else. “Hey. Did you sleep okay?”

 

“Yeah,” Jason admits easily. “Best I’ve slept in weeks.”

 

She stares at him curiously, taken aback. Slowly, she reaches out and touches his arm. “How did midnight go?” 

 

Jason’s heart wavers a little. He peers back up and catches Nico’s gaze from the Hera table. Nico’s dressed in a different shirt than last night—the same royal purple Jason’s used to. His hair looks more rumpled as usual—like someone dragged him out of bed before he was ready.  But, Nico perks as they lock eyes and raises a hand for a wave.  

 

“Honestly?” Jason admits. “I didn’t even notice.” 

 

He’s not sure what he should have expected last night. The anticipation was there—of holding a knife again to Luke’s neck and waiting for him to submit.

 

Instead, Jason opened boxes and assembled a bed. He had an easy conversation over the hardest day of his life.

 

It’s...not disappointment that he’s feeling. Jason’s not sure what to call it.  

 

“What about you?” Jason turns his attention back to Annabeth—who has a few lines under her eyes. They don’t hold the storm they did a year ago, though.

 

Annabeth pulls a lock of hair behind her ear.

 

“Percy kept me company while I counted down,” Annabeth admits. She falls quiet, her gaze flowing over to Hermes table. “Luke…hasn’t been at Camp Halfblood in a long time, but—”

 

“But he’s really gone,” Jason finishes for her. “I know. I’m…”

 

Really sorry. The words are a knot in Jason’s throat. Too much happened before he could get the words out last year—and then the hours after Luke’s death stretched into days. Weeks, with icy stares and hostile conversations that no one wanted. Months, until Annabeth disappeared. Jason could say sorry a thousand times, but he knows one word won’t bring Luke back to them. Dad wouldn’t let any words bring Luke Castellan back to him.

 

“You’re here, Jason,” Annabeth says softly—cutting Jason off on the apology that won’t matter. Her smile is soothing, even if it’s heavy. Then she hugs him. “Happy birthday, Jace.”

 

Jason tries to smile back. He tries to smooth out an ache in his chest and hugs Annabeth close. “Thank you.”

 

A table for Cabin Thirteen had been lain out. Jason sat alone last night for the first time, instead of hanging at the edge of Hermes table with the Stoll Brothers. He was visited enough by other demigods—those who needed to grieve or wanted his attention. He remembers last year eating in the infirmary, to excuse himself from having the rest of the Hermes Cabin staring at him after killing their brother. 

 

Today, he walks straight over to Hera’s table—where Percy, Hazel, and Frank have joined Camp Jupiter’s praetor. 

 

“Hey,” Nico says—suddenly looking more awake than he did from afar. 

 

“Hey,” Jason greets. He smiles even more now, looking at the son of Juno up close. Pink dusts his cheeks. “Sorry—looks like I passed out last night.” 

 

Nico flashes him a look of amusement. “Pretty sure you needed it.” 

 

“Wouldn’t be the first time you were right for me.” Jason flashes a sheepish look and touches the back of his neck. He watches Nico’s eyes follow. 

 

“You two hung out last night?” Percy interjects. He waves a hand in Jason’s line of sight, one eyebrow arched on the air. Nico glares in the son of Neptune’s direction, but it seems to bounce off Percy’s own dejected face. “You told me you were too tired for rapid fire Go Fish.” 

 

“Was this before or after you and Annabeth decided you would sneak into the woods?” Nico retorts wryly. Jason’s quick to glance at his best friend, who says nothing. 

 

“We went and talked at Zeus’s Shit for a couple of hours,” Percy corrects. 

 

“Zeus’s Fist,” Annabeth corrects halfheartedly. The corner of her lips lift into a smile. 

 

“He’s not wrong,” Jason protests. “All the kids just call it the big pile of poo.” 

 

“Thank you, Grace,” Percy replies triumphantly. He pauses and looks over to Jason when he realizes his own words.

 

Jason hears a quick snicker—and find Nico grinning. A laugh flutters from Jason’s own lips. He leans in closely and gestures to the faculty table, where Chiron’s gaze is unending. 

 

“I think Chiron’s afraid you’re going to start a food fight,” he notes. 

 

Blue eyes look back up. Nico shrugs nonchalantly. “Maybe he should be.” 

 

Jason blinks, confused—but Hazel laughs. 

 

“Nico told Chiron that it’d be an insult to have a representative from Camp Jupiter eating all by himself,” she explains. A twinkle of amusement flashes in her eyes. “Especially a roman officer as high-ranked as himself.” 

 

“Really?” Jason looks back over to Nico, who nods somberly. 

 

“Well,” Frank offers, “it’d be awfully rude to separate Camp Jupiter’s commanding officer from the rest of camp affairs—especially after coming off of what could be considered a second civil war. Camp Halfblood’s best interest would be to provide Praetor di Angelo with all available resources. From a tactical standpoint.” 

 

“Unfortunately it’s out of my hands,” Nico says solemnly. The corners of his lips lift into a pretty smile. “It’s all politics, Ambassador Grace.” 

 

Jason’s lips spread into a grin. Which turns into an impressed laugh, as he crosses his arms over his chest. “Clearly I need a lesson in that.” 

 

Nico arches an eyebrow and mirrors Jason’s smile. Percy claps him on the back and grins. 

 

“Seriously. And here I thought my best loophole was that Frank had to sit next to me since he’s my nephew,” Percy says. Nico flushes red at his approval. 

 

“I learned from the best,” Nico replies wryly—to which Jason laughs again. “If…you’re too stressed out today, I can make the same call for you.”

 

It takes a moment for Jason to realize Nico is referring to him. He peers back to the son of Juno, whose gaze is firm and filled with concern. The corner of Jason’s lips lift, and he turns to look at Annabeth, who looks just as amused from the turn of events.

 

“I need to see this one out,” Jason says. He flashes an apologetic look. “I’ll probably be busy all day again, Nico. I’m sorry.”

 

There’s a flash of something in Nico’s eyes. Then he shakes his head. “Don’t apologize. Take as long as you need.”

 

Another smile etches across Jason’s lips. He looks over to Hazel and Frank, who both flash reassuring glances—and knows for sure that Percy won’t leave Nico with a dull moment. Annabeth and he make their way towards the entrance of the Mess Hall.

 

“I have some classes to teach,” Annabeth says. She squeezes his arm again—which is when Jason realizes her grip never really left. “You gonna be okay?”

 

“I’ll try my best,” Jason promises. His lips press into a strained smile and he nudges his head towards the infirmary. “I’m sure something will keep me busy.”

 

A year ago, Annabeth would hardly look at him. She studies him now, one hand at his pulse.

 

“You come find me when you need a break,” she says. Warns him, if he doesn’t. “Promise?”

 

Jason’s almost startled by her tone of voice. But he nods in agreement. “Promise.”

 

She gives him another hug before walking in the opposite direction. Jason watches as her silhouette shrinks—then makes his way to the infirmary.

 

 

*

 

One drachma, one denarii.

 

Nico stares at both on his desk. He dusts the windowsill by his bed and pulls the curtains back, so enough lighting comes into the cabin. He makes his bed. He dusts Bianca’s bed. And he sits in between each chore, making the room look just a little more pristine before musing the thought of calling his sister.

 

“You know,” Percy says, after watching him pace for the umpteenth time, “Dad gifted me with this cool fountain when I came here at the beginning of the summer. It’s almost as efficient as texting, if you don’t mind the sound of running water—”

 

“No thanks,” Nico says, and he stares at both the Greek and Roman currency carefully. “You should go teach class, Percy. I’ll catch up later.”

 

Percy hops onto Nico’s bed and wrinkles Peter Pan’s face. “This seems important to you, bro.”

 

“It is,” Nico agrees, and he peers back to Percy, whose demeanor contorts with a frown. “I have it figured out, Percy. I’ve got it from here.”

 

“You sure?” Percy asks, pressing further. He sits up and crosses his legs. “I mean…we never really talked about it. You left with the Virgin Athena and then showed back up with an oversized puppy and your long-lost sister. Then I kind of left for Halfblood—”

 

“Which I fully supported,” Nico reminds him. He reaches out and holds the drachma between his fingers.

 

Percy’s expression is indecipherable. Nico’s not usually privy to those looks—the one shared by Reyna, Thalia, and the son of Neptune—but it’s come out more since the Argo II. Since Gaea tore their family apart and Juno tried to reunite her Greek and Roman children. It’s a little more solemn—and holds the promise of that thirteen-year-old kid who waltzed into the Senate meeting late, with sand in his hair and smelling like saltwater. A promise to keep Nico safe.

 

Nico’s not that little kid anymore, either.

 

“You talk to Grace about it last night?” Percy asks.

 

This time, Nico rolls his eyes. He knows better than to trust a Jason-question from Percy. “Jason and Bianca have been friends for a long time. So yes, we talked about it last night.”

 

“Okay,” Percy says, his tone askew. He gathers himself to his feet and gathers his flipflops. Then he claps a hand on Nico’s shoulder. “Just. Don’t forget. I’m here for you too.”

 

Despite yesterday’s frustrations, Nico’s chest warms. He looks back to Percy, who remains nonchalant. “Thank you.”

 

“Yeah, Nico.” Percy shrugs gently and makes his way towards the door. “Find me at the swordfighting classes, alright? Hazel and I are doing a demonstration.”

 

“Okay.”

 

With one lasting look, Percy exits the cabin.

 

As Nico turns back around, a cloud sits in front of his head.

 

“Call from Bianca di Angelo. Do you accept the charges?”

 

Nico bites the inside of his mouth. He stares at the iridescent tuft of air carefully. Then sighs. “Yes.”

 

*

 

For how many weeks that Jason’s dreaded it, the day passes quickly. He gets roped into helping Will Solace with a bad archery accident, then stitches up a spry twelve-year-old from the Ares Cabin. They’re quick to scream at the top of their lungs and go back into “battle.” Someone from the Hephaestus Cabin asks for a bag of ice after taking a mallet to the hand rather than to a raw sword.

 

Then, Will pushes him out of the infirmary. Jason settles into a basketweaving class, surrounded by kids under the age of eleven, who struggle to follow along with Annabeth as she explains the importance of good craftsmanship. How it can be a matter of life or death. She watches him from the front of the room, occasionally mouthing, are you okay? when her students are given a new task.

 

Jason wanders into an Advanced Ancient Greek class, where Connor Stoll is teaching idioms. When they meet each other’s eye, Connor’s smile broadens, while Jason struggles to maintain his own.

 

Despite the pomp and circumstance of last night, campers go through the motions of today as though nothing’s out of the ordinary. Jason can remember so clearly standing at the foot of Olympus’s throne room, soaked in the blood of the fallen, with red-stained hands as Zeus grazed over his victories.

 

They didn’t really feel like victories, he’d told Nico last night. They never will.

 

Today, Jason doesn’t smell like blood—or reek of ash, from burned funeral pyres. It’s…strange how different things were a year ago. He envies the people that are able to move on and strikes a chord with the ones who can’t.

 

When he sits down to talk with grieving campers, they tell him what they’ve done in their siblings’ honor. The survivors come in different ages and sizes—from a big brother who mourned his baby sister’s death, to small children who had no business being in the line of fire. Small children who had siblings who refused to let them be in the line of fire.

 

He remembers all of them from when they came to him last year, still winding down from the adrenaline of war.

 

“Do the nightmares ever stop?” someone asks.

 

Jason worries he’s out of practice.

                                                                                             

Getting back into the swing of things is hard.

 

Harder, because he has to remind himself that he’s just visiting. That he’s not in a chasm anymore. Part of him is afraid that if he forgets he’s visiting, he’ll…get stuck again. Here. Remembering that he’s visiting helps.

 

She looks past him, still in mourning from last year. But it’s easier for her to speak of death than it was a year ago. Easier for him, too. Having his first restful night in weeks helps him find a different solution.

 

“The Hypnos Cabin has special tea made from the leaves of the poplar branch they keep in there,” Jason says. He smiles softly and gestures to the tip of the cabins. “See if that helps. If that doesn’t suit you, they’ve also got warm milk and cookies. Tell Clovis Jason sent you.”

 

She absorbs the advice carefully. Then, she hugs Jason with a quiet thank you and scampers towards the cabins.

 

Frank eventually intervenes. He touches Jason on the shoulder when there’s enough of a lull between sullen campers, and gestures out the window of the Big House. “Time for a shift change, Jason. You’ve been at this for a while.”

 

The stars are out.

 

Jason blinks, as he settles back into reality. He touches his head as the exhaustion hits him, and stares down at the notebook and pencil in his lap. “I…didn’t notice.”

 

“You were very engaged,” Frank agrees. He pats Jason sympathetically on the shoulder. Jason’s known Frank in segments—as a fearful legionnaire, an animorph, and a centurion—but he adapts into the role of a counsellor the same way he would any animal.

 

They didn’t talk very much on the Argo II. Jason spent most of that trip trying to process what happened down in Tartarus. Trying to process losing his sister. Everyone avoided him—the estranged brother of Praetor Thalia Grace, and Annabeth’s least favorite person.

 

Frank looks to Jason now with a steady hand and a confidence in his position.

 

“Thank you,” Jason says, “for doing this.”

 

For taking one of the heaviest loads off his shoulders. It shows in his voice—more than Jason intends.

 

Frank only smiles. “Who makes a better war trauma counsellor than a child of war?”

 

Jason smiles back. “Everyone else has told me what a good job you’ve done around here.”

 

Despite his height and width, Frank blushes like a humble child.

 

“I wasn’t happy to be claimed by Mars at first. Not after how my mom died,” Frank explains. He scratches the inside of his arm, where his one tick mark from the Legion lays. “War’s the last thing on my mind. But—those are still going to happen. Talking about it helped a lot. At least this way I can help other kids too, y’know?”

 

“I know.” Jason’s smile warms. “Trust me, Frank. I’m sure Mars is plenty proud of the way you’ve handled things. I…started it, but you’ve really run with it.”

 

And Frank seems to have an easier time coaxing people through it than Jason does. Frank looks back at Jason, at a strange ease. He claps a hand on Jason’s shoulder. “I’m here anytime you need a talk too, man. I’m…sure today’s hardest on you.”

 

Jason blinks. Frank studies him a different way now that catches him off guard.

 

“Oh,” Jason says. “I—thanks, Frank. I should really go find Nico, though.”

 

 

 

After that, Jason is relieved of duty. His trip and responsibilities to Camp Halfblood are over in two days—after fourteen years serving on his father’s behalf.

 

Nico’s waiting for him in front of Cabin Thirteen, duffle bag already in hand.

 

“Sorry,” Jason apologizes. “I lost track of time.”

 

 Nico shakes his head. “I’m sure someone out there needed it.”

 

Jason really doesn’t get it. All of the stress and mourning from this afternoon is worth the smile he can conjure now. For all the time they’ve been apart in the last two days—in the past few months since their quest, Nico has only made him feel better. It’s a far cry from where they started—but it goes back to what they both echoed last night. They’re different now—and there’s solace in it.

 

The longer Jason stands across from Nico, the better he feels.

 

“But,” Nico continues, “what you need now is to get out of here. I’m sure there’s already a mountain of unsigned paperwork with my name on it.”

 

There’s a pained exhaustion in Nico’s voice. It’s hard not to feel disappointed that their time together is ending.

 

“Sorry I wasn’t around much,” Jason says. “I really hoped we would’ve been able to spend some time together before we left.”

 

He walks into his cabin and gathers his things. When he turns around, he notices Nico staring at him in disbelief.

 

“Jason,” Nico starts, “you do remember I came here to support you, right?”

 

“Well, yeah.” Jason’s cheeks flush with heat. He settles onto the bed and rubs his neck. “Kinda…hard to support me if I’m not here, though.”

 

Nico’s gaze narrows. He walks the length of the room and plops onto the bed beside Jason. “Well—from the looks of it, you still have a dresser that needs to be built. And that desk of yours is bound to break eventually.”

 

Jason’s guilt diminishes ever so slightly. He smiles. “Since when were you a handyman?”

 

“It’s on my resume. Somewhere between praetor, wedding officiant, and champion of Juno.” Nico wrinkles his nose and crosses his arms over his chest. “Or whatever else Dakota’s signed me up for while I’ve been away.”

 

Jason laughs. It’s a warmth in his chest after a cold day of mourning. As he settles, he notices Nico studying him. Giving him the same attention from last night.

 

“Everything go okay today?” Nico asks eventually.

 

“Yeah,” Jason says. He’s surprised by how much he means it. “I think everyone’s in good hands with Frank. Will practically shoved me out of the infirmary. It’s…weird to see camp turn around so quickly after yesterday. But everyone I talked to has been healing well. Or at least on the road to recovery.”

 

“Good,” Nico says. Then, “And what about you?”

 

Jason considers the question. He thinks back to their conversation last night. All of it. Jason ended the night on a downer—but he felt lighter in the morning because of it. Nico took the time to let him breathe.

 

“Confused,” Jason admits. He palms his chest, then curls one hand over the other. “I…dreaded this day so much that I don’t know the proper way to act. I just…don’t want to react in a bad way.”

 

His heart is calm. Jason’s spent many sleepless nights trying to steady it. Trying not to think about a year ago—but he’s fine. Steady, in his new cabin with Nico beside him.

 

“There’s no bad way to act, Jason,” Nico says. “Everyone mourns differently. No one should make you feel bad for that. Especially yourself.”

 

Jason glances back at Nico, chest tingling. “That sounds familiar.”  

 

Nico snorts. “Maybe if I say it enough times you’ll actually listen to me.”

 

Another laugh flutters from Jason’s lips—but it’s riddled with an ache. His smile is small.

 

“I think I said my piece last night,” Jason says finally. He reaches over and touches Nico’s hand. “Thank you for listening to me.’

 

Again, Nico peers back at him with azure blue eyes. It feels so much like last night, with the two of them awake against the quiet slumber of Camp Halfblood. Jason finds himself regretting that he fell asleep.

 

“Anytime,” Nico says softly. He’s quick to pull his hand away and stand to his feet. “Let’s…get you home. I’m. Sure Thalia misses your company.”

 

Jason’s chest swells at that thought. “Yeah.”

 

 A quiet evening with his sister sounds like the perfect remedy. Jason gathers his things—his clothes from the last few days, his leather jacket, his journal—and stuffs them inside his duffle bag. Nico is quiet the entire time Jason tidies up.

 

“Annabeth told me to come find her when I got a break. That kind of fell through,” Jason admits. He peers towards the window once more. “I wanted to see her before we left, but I’m…not sure where she went.”

 

“Architecture stuff probably.” Nico shakes his head and rolls his eyes. “Or she and Percy got into something.”

 

Jason can’t hide his disappointment. “I just…know this day is hard. Luke meant a lot to her.”

 

He startles when Nico touches his shoulder. Nico lowers his head sympathetically. “I’m sure she’s just as worried about you.”

 

Jason thinks back to the hug he received this morning. Both times. It filled the gap in Jason’s chest from when Luke left—the one that divided Annabeth and him. Every time they hang out now, Jason’s reminded how much he loved Annabeth’s company as much as Luke’s. Even if it is a different kind of love.

 

“She’ll be in New Rome soon,” Nico reminds him. “Trust me. Percy wouldn’t stop counting the days.”

 

Jason can’t help but smile. “Neither can I.”

 

As he finishes locking up the cabin and closing the blinds, he notices Nico staring thoughtfully at his storage trunk.

 

“Something on your mind?” Jason asks.

 

Nico looks reluctant. He looks back to Jason tentatively. “I…had trouble finding your sheets last night.”

 

“Sorry about that.” Jason peers back at the ceiling, where the Edison bulbs are starch in their lighting. “Maybe they’re not as great of an idea as I—”

 

“I found your sword.”

 

Oh. Jason pauses.

 

“Or—a sword. In your belongings,” Nico says quickly. His cheeks flush pink and he fiddles with the strap of his bag. “I wasn’t trying to snoop. It just caught me off guard. I didn’t even know you owned one.”

 

Jason slides his own bag off his shoulder. He walks the length of the cabin to his storage trunk and unbuckles each latch.

 

Sure enough, his old sword sits at the bottom of his trunk.

 

Stygian iron, three feet long, and sheathed in black leather. A skull decorates the pommel, while flowers are carved into the leather. Asphodels. Dad’s favorite flower.

 

It takes Jason a moment to collect his thoughts. A familiar wave of nausea hits him from a year ago.

 

“I forgot I put it in here,” Jason says. Eventually, when his thoughts catch up to his nerves. He looks back up to Nico, who stares at him differently now. More sympathetically. “I haven’t picked it up since last year.”

 

Nico is hesitant. But slowly, he walks towards the storage chest and kneels to Jason’s level. He inspects it under the dim lighting. “It’s beautiful.”

 

“It was a gift,” Jason explains. “From my godly brother. Zagreus.”

 

Nico perks at the name.

 

“He’s an Underworld god. God of rebirth, god of mysteries—”

 

“God of the hunt,” Nico interjects. His lips press into a frown.

 

“That’s the one,” Jason confirms. There’s a strain in his smile, as he rubs his sword-gripping hand. The back of his neck tingles. “He…gave it to me when I came out of Styx. Zagreus told me to make our family proud.”

 

Unfortunately, Olympus would frown on anyone from the Underworld being proud of anything. Jason doesn’t think he’ll ever hold anything but shame on his birthday. He smelled too much like blood. Like wood burned for the fallen, and too much like death.

 

Once he came back, Jason wanted death as far away from him as possible. His father’s kingdom grew—but Hades had one less mortal son willing to be a hero.

 

The sword feels even more foreign to him now than when his godly brother handed it to him, full of pride. Jason traces a hand over the hilt, then unsheathes an inch.

 

“It’s black,” Nico notes.

 

“It’s forged from an iron from the Underworld.” Jason crosses his legs, remembering the day very clearly. “It’s…as good of an amplifier as Diocletian’s Scepter was. It gets more powerful when it absorbs souls of the dead.”

 

Nico takes in the information quietly. There’s a slight shift in his demeanor—and Jason knows what question is on Nico’s tongue.

 

“I didn’t absorb any souls on the battlefield,” Jason says quietly. “It scared me too much. It—scared other people too much.”  

 

The dead were already rising with his rage. With his enhanced emotions from the Curse. Jason didn’t know the limits of his powers—and doesn’t want to.

 

“I wouldn’t believe you if you told me,” Nico admits. He falls into a silence again. “You…didn’t have that with you at the end, though.”

 

Jason nods. “A hero’s soul, cursed blade shall reap. With a sword like this—and the Curse, I. Didn’t want to chance it.”

 

Didn’t want to do something he’d regret even more. Jason laughs—but only at himself.

 

“Turns out a cursed blade can also mean a knife he gave to his kid sister,” he says softly. There’s frustration on his voice—but again, only at himself. Jason sheathes the sword and settles it on his lap. “I pretty much shoved this at the bottom of this trunk and hoped I’d never see it again.”

 

“This is what you mean when you said you’re no son of Hades,” Nico surmises. His voice is gentle.

 

Jason opens his mouth to speak. A year ago, he would have nodded along, unable to look anyone in the eye. “I…haven’t had much contact with anyone from the Underworld since then. Just my dad. I…think Zagreus was disappointed I wasn’t much of a hunter.”

 

“Because you’re not,” Nico agrees. “You’re a healer.”

 

Jason’s chest flutters. He thinks back to what his father told him back in Pripyat—why they named him Jason, of all things. Not after the hero—but to heal. His parents wanted that.

 

He peers back up with somber eyes, and notices Nico’s own gaze hasn’t wavered. Nico won’t let him forget that he’s a son of Hades in his own way—much like how Frank found peace as a child of war.

 

There’s an ease to Jason’s next smile. “That sounds a little better when you say it.”

 

“Good.” Nico reaches out and guides Jason’s hand into lowering the sword. And again, he repeats, “Maybe if you hear me enough times, you’ll actually listen.”

 

Jason laughs—and it hurts a little less. He smooths a hand over the flowers etched into the sheathe—then places it back in his storage trunk. As the latches close, Jason feels the heaviness hit is heart again. But…not as hard.

 

He doesn’t realize he’s still connected to Nico, until the son of Juno squeezes his hand.

 

“Ready to go home?” Nico asks.

 

Home, in New Rome with his big sister. With Bianca and Nico—and his best friend, who would move into the university dorms in…one more month.

 

Jason ducks his head into a nod. Breathes, with an ease. “Yeah.”

 

They stand to their feet. The lights flicker as shadows loom below them. With one step, Jason shadowtravels them to New Rome. Home.  

 

Notes:

Thank you for reading the chapter! I hope you enjoyed it. While writing this one, I listened to Butterfly by Demi Lovato a lot -- but whether or not it truly fits the theme of this chapter, I'll let you decide. Next chapter will be a little different, but our boys finally got to spend some time together! As always please review as you can and see you next time!

Chapter 5: jason's birthday

Summary:

“SURPRISE!”

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

Jason’s grip is tight over Nico’s hand the entire way home. No smile quite reaches his irises. There’s a weight that keeps him grounded. Shackled, to a day in history that means more as the anniversary of someone’s death than it ever will his birthday.

 

Nico wishes he could move that weight for Jason. Wishes he had the power to.

 

On July 1st, Jason doesn’t look as bright and eager as he did at the beginning of the summer. His grief overshadows everything else—including guilt over Luke Castellan’s death. Over everyone else, who died for a cause bigger than them. It’s something not even a few weeks of shadowtraveling across the world with the Virgin Athena could fix, when his fate filled a loom long before he was ever born, and before King Hades and Beryl Grace named him the healer.

 

But he sighs in relief when his apartment complex is against the horizon. When the fate of sixteen-year-old Jason is truly part of his old life, and they step foot into this new one.

 

Nico holds that fact as closely as Jason holds his hand. He waits, and watches as Jason stares down the street of the via principalis, truly embracing New Rome again.

 

As somber as it is, a tiny smile curls against Jason’s face.

 

“What’s that look for?” Nico startles when Jason’s hand squeezes his.

 

“Just thinking about the first time I came to New Rome after the war,” Jason whispers softly. His voice is hoarse from talking to other campers all day. It wasn’t too long ago that Nico called him restless. It’s only now, after two days in Camp Halfblood that he looks tired. Jason gestures gently between the two of them. “If someone told me eight months ago I’d be holding hands with Bianca’s little brother on my way back home, I don’t think I’d believe them.”

 

Nico feels the heat against his cheeks. He looks down to their fingers, heart fluttering in his chest.

 

“Yeah, well—” Nico swallows hard. “—if someone back then gave me an out from being Jupiter’s son, I’d think they’d taken too many blows to the head.”

 

He can’t help but enjoy Jason’s laugh. Jason sounds a little more like himself. “Too be fair, you didn’t believe me.”

 

“You really think the King of the Gods would admit to being in the wrong?” Nico retorts, his voice light—and Jason’s smile becomes warier. The past spring comes to mind, where both the King and Queen aired their dirty laundry for all of Olympus to see. Where the parentage of the di Angelo siblings was nothing more than an illusion.

 

Where Jupiter retroactively (finally) rewarded Jason for his merits—even if the son of Hades would never see them as well-deserved.

 

“No,” Jason admits. “I guess you’re right.”

 

“I…can be wrong, too,” Nico says. He hesitates as his mind wanders to eight months ago. When Jason Grace, Ambassador to Pluto, meant nothing to him aside from transit for his new sister. When Nico was hostile, from the fear of losing his other sister. “I’m…sorry that I treated you badly.”

 

To his surprise, Jason looks confused. A sheepish smile curls against his lips. “Not like I made it easy for myself by mentioning your dead sister, Nico.”

 

“Let’s assess how that turned out,” Nico muses dryly. “Now I have a roommate who uses all three of my closets.”

 

Jason laughs sweetly again, and Nico feels the nervous knot unfurl in his chest. He can’t help but smile back.

 

“We made up though,” Nico says. “Bianca called and we had a long talk.”

 

“Really?” Jason’s eyes seem to brighten a little more. “I was worried about that.”

 

Nico rolls his eyes. “I told you that you wouldn’t need to mediate.”

 

“I know. I’m just…I’m never going to be in a position where I’m not worried about you, Nico.” The words leave Jason’s mouth with ease. “Both of you, I mean.”

 

Nico fiddles with the strap of his bag. Red blooms in his cheeks. “Me too. Both of you.”

 

They fall into a silence in front of his praetorhouse. Every time Jason walks away, more time passes where they don’t get to see each other. Nico can’t help but hate it.

 

“We never did get that burger,” Jason suddenly says. He curls a hand over his own bag just as tentatively.

 

Nico peers back up, and notices Jason’s apologetic demeanor. He shakes his head. “Honestly, if it’s not an In-and-Out burger, I can’t be bothered.”

 

Jason laughs softly. Then, “How about I take you out for one? It’s the least I can do for pulling you out of New Rome—”

 

“No,” Nico cuts him off abruptly. So suddenly that Jason actually jumps.

 

“Oh,” Jason says. “Um. Okay—”

 

“I mean,” Nico continues hastily, “how about we go with Thalia and Reyna? Let me put my stuff up and we can go get them. I’ll even buy you a milkshake.”

 

Somehow, Jason looks more alleviated. Another smile laces across his lips, much firmer than the last. “I’d like that.”

 

Their hands stay together. Jason seems to need the comfort—even with the duties of his birthday behind him. Nico drops off his bag to an empty living room, where Bianca’s laptop and camera no longer lay. He notices Jason looking around in search of her.

 

“She said she’ll come with us next time to Camp Halfblood,” Nico says. “Invited or not.”

 

Jason’s lips press into a tired smile. “How do you feel about that?”

 

“She’s never been one to do as others tell her,” Nico points out. “Why start now?”

 

His question is met with a soft chuckle—one that sounds less restrained with each breath. Still—Nico can tell the day has taken a toll on Jason. From every moment leading up to the anniversary of the final moment—to coming down from that nightmare and processing that it’s behind him.

 

He…hopes last night helped. Hopes tonight helps, too.

 

“Do you have more weddings coming up?” Jason asks as they make it to his apartment complex.

 

“One in the morning. Then the grand reopening of a library that got destroyed from the Argo II’s ballistae.” Nico pushes hair out of his face. “No one told me praetorship was going to involve showing my face so much.”

 

“It’s a good face,” Jason says. He pulls out the key to his apartment and stops. “For what it’s worth, I really think you’re doing a good job. I don’t know anyone better-suited for the role.”

 

“You flatter me.”

 

“I’m definitely trying.”

 

Nico glances at Jason, who looks more like himself with each moment in New Rome. Jason offers him another smile, grateful, and Nico finds himself struggling to return it.

 

“I’m sure I can’t do any worse than Jupiter.” Nico rubs his tattoo awkwardly.

 

“No,” Jason agrees. “After all, you’re all son of Juno.”

 

Nico’s heart does somersaults in his chest. He thumbs his tattoo now, face glowing a pretty scarlet. “You can stop now, Jason.”

 

“But—”

 

“Please.”

 

Jason stares back at him, puzzled. “Oh. Um, sorry—”

 

“I—just. I don’t understand why you’re complimenting me when this day is supposed to be about you.”  Nico’s face blisters from more heat. He watches as the realization settles in Jason’s face.

 

The corners of Jason’s lips lift into a quiet, strained smile—one that places an ache in Nico’s chest.

 

“Thanks,” Jason says. “But this day’s never really been about me. I’m…just grateful there are days to look forward to after that. Here in New Rome, I mean.”

 

His hand curls against the doorknob—then he pauses. Jason glances back over to Nico, his gaze a little more intense than before. He reaches out to touch Nico on the shoulder, and the gentle graze tingles.

 

“I can’t thank you enough for coming with me today, Nico,” Jason whispers softly. “So please. Take the compliment.”

 

The words disappear from Nico’s mouth. He stares at his feet when Jason’s gaze becomes too great—

 

SURPRISE!”

 

—and smiles, as Jason startles.

 

*

 

The lights are on before Jason has the chance to flip them himself. Confetti explodes from every corner of the apartment in warm hues of purple, orange, and red. Streamers decorate every wall, along with black and white paper pompoms undoubtedly trimmed by his own sister. Jason sees the smile on Thalia’s face before he really sees her—then he sees Annabeth, and Bianca, and Reyna, and Frank—along with everyone else from the past spring—standing in his living room.

 

There’s a flash of a camera—but Jason doesn’t notice over the painted banner hanging on the wall.

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON!!—in green—his favorite color—with many handprints on every corner.

 

“I,” he starts. Halts, because he’s too shocked. “What’s—what’s this?”

 

He stares across the room and notices the smiles on everyone’s faces. Bianca, with her camera in hand and snapping a photo of every moment that Jason soaks in the warmth of the room.  Jason sees Annabeth dressed outside of her Camp Halfblood clothes. She smiles at him.

 

“It’s 12:03AM in Camp Halfblood right now,” Annabeth says gently. “Three minutes past midnight, and three minutes past the anniversary of Luke’s death. But here—”

 

“It’s three minutes past nine o’clock, on July 1st,”  Thalia finishes. She appears in front of them, dressed in her nicest skinny jeans and a fitted jacket. A broad smile curls against her lips. “The best day of my life, when my baby brother was born in Pasadena, California.”

 

She stands to the tips of her toes, and before Jason knows it, he’s wearing a bright blue party hat. He’s too stunned to speak.

 

Nico squeezes his hand—which is the only way Jason knows he isn’t dreaming. Jason turns to face the son of Juno, who doesn’t look the least bit surprised. Nervous, maybe—but then Nico smiles.

 

“Here,” Nico continues, “in your new life, in your days after the prophecy, as a retired son of Hades.”

 

Red blooms in Jason’s cheeks. He looks around again—from the warmth on his big sister’s face, to Annabeth’s reaffirming grin—and everyone else who just smiles at him reassuringly. Lovingly.

 

“I…” Don’t know what to say. A lump swells in Jason’s throat—and he looks back to Annabeth. The words are lost like they were a year ago—but she hugs him again.

 

“There,” she whispers, “is no reason why your birthday should ever be forgotten. Even for him, Jace.”

 

Thalia touches his arm carefully. Tentatively.

 

“I thought I lost you once already, baby brother,” she says. “I don’t know every decision you made before we met again—but you’re here. That’s worth celebrating..”

 

Oh. Jason’s eyes swell with warmth before he can speak. A nervous part of him sounds like an alarm—like it’s done every birthday, but it’s deafened by Thalia’s hug.

 

“Is this okay?” she whispers.

 

He’s never been allowed to feel small in his life. In his sister’s arms, Jason might as well be two again—clinging onto her warmth and her pulse like he did Alecto. He wonders if he used to bury his face in his big sister’s arms when he was smaller, too. He wishes he remembered.

 

The worry knotted in his stomach unfurls—turning into a rush of unsurmountable love instead.

 

“Yeah,” Jason breathes finally into her shoulder. “I’m—sorry. I. This…is more than I could have ever asked for.”

 

Thalia laughs softly and hugs him back just as tightly. Holds him close, after fifteen years apart.

 

“You need to ask more, Jace,” she says. “Seriously—I’m rich.”

 

A laugh spills from Jason’s lips, mixed with his tears. When they pull away, he turns around and finds Nico still standing there—with only a smile of relief on his face. Jason sniffles, his cheeks red from embarrassment.

 

“You knew about this?” Jason asks. “The entire time we were at Camp Halfblood?”

 

Nico’s cheeks flourish. He opens his mouth—

 

“Nico called me a few days ago and insisted that your birthday should be celebrated,” Annabeth interjects.

 

“He pointed out the window of time and everything,” Thalia says—and she beams proudly as Nico blushes.

 

Jason wipes a tear from the corner of his eye—and he smiles so hard that it hurts. “A loophole?”

 

Nico looks back to him, almost shy. His eyes are a pristine blue when he stares back at Jason, and the corner of his lips raise into a wry smile.

 

“I don’t control how time works, Jason,” he muses gently. He shrugs. “That’s out of my hands.”

 

Jason stares at Nico, speechless. He moves before he can find the words—and throws his arms around the other demigod. An unsteady breath leaves Jason’s mouth, and he focuses on Nico’s scent instead.

 

Nico makes a startled sound but doesn’t protest. “Jason, I—can’t breathe.”

 

“Sorry,” Jason says—but he struggles to let go this time. “I—sorry.”

 

There’s a moment of hesitation—then Nico hugs him back.

 

“You don’t have to apologize on your birthday,” Nico jokes. “You get a free pass.”

 

Jason sniffles through another laugh. He holds on a moment longer—longer than Thalia or Annabeth. Until—

 

Okay Grace,” Percy interjects from afar. “If you keep this up, we’re never going to make it to the birthday cake.”

 

Nico makes an inaudible grumble—but Jason pulls away, embarrassed. “Sor—”

 

He stops, as Nico stares at him warily—and another smile curls against Jason’s face. He looks back to the rest of the people in their apartment—and for the first time on his birthday, feels excitement.

 

“Um,” Jason says. He laughs aloud to himself. For himself. “So what comes next at a birthday party?”

 

*

 

In the years before New Rome, Luke used to sneak cupcakes into Camp Halfblood. Jason never understood how or even cared to ask—he was too enamored by the boy holding the four-pack of drugstore cupcakes with so much icing that he knew he’d puke later. It used to be the three of them—Annabeth, Luke, and Jason—sneaking out at the dead of night, behind one of the empty cabins and singing Happy Birthday over a single candle.

 

Annabeth had her brothers and sisters from the Athena Cabin to celebrate her birthday a few weeks later—July 12th. Jason had Luke.

 

Once Luke left, there was nothing to celebrate. Bianca insisted on sneaking out, away from that life rather than celebrating a fate that only led closer to the end of the world.

 

Jason’s never seen so many candles on a birthday cake before. Never thought he’d live long enough to.

 

Thalia presents a simple circle cake, filled with seventeen silver candles and a big 17 in the middle. Jason reads Happy Birthday Jason! on the face of the cake, over and over. He tries to listen to the words as everyone sings to him—but it’s overshadowed by his own awe.

 

“Make a wish,” Nico instructs gently.

 

Under the light of the birthday candles, Jason’s reminded of the night before—when Nico helped unbox his bed under the heavy strokes of his cabin’s Edison bulbs with the bit of Styrofoam in his hair. The heat of the embers paints a gentle ardor over Nico’s irises.

 

“I don’t know what to wish for,” Jason confesses, his voice still thick with surprise.

 

He has his best friend after six long years of self-imposed isolation. He has his other best friend—the one who understood the demands of the Great Prophecy and took her fate into her own hands.

 

Jason has a sister. Someone to finally share a life with, after being envious of the way Bianca would miss her brother. After looking over to the Athena table and watching Annabeth enjoy being a demigod in a way Jason never learned how.

 

He has a life after sixteen—in his new home with his big sister, with Bianca three doors down, and Annabeth soon to follow.

 

Thalia claps a hand to his shoulder, a glint in her eye. “You could always do what Kelp Head does. Wish for more wishes.”

 

“I’ll have you know I live a very bountiful life because of that,” Percy remarks. There’s no hostility to his voice.

 

“Really?” Nico grumbles. “Because two seconds ago, you were making demands for cake.”

 

“Who wouldn’t?” Percy retorts. “It’s from Fabiano’s—it’s good cake. The only thing wrong with it is that it isn’t—”

 

“Blue,” the entire room says in unison. Percy and Jason both jump at the choir of voices—but Percy is quick to shrink and shrug nonchalantly.

 

Jason laughs—a sound that apparently startles both Thalia and Nico. “I…take it he’s said it a few times today?”

 

“Try every year on every birthday that isn’t his own,” Nico mumbles—but he doesn’t look the slightest bit annoyed. Instead, the corner of his lips lifts into a mirthful smile. He reaches out and squeezes Jason’s shoulder gently. “Just make any wish, Jason. No one else can take this away from you.”

 

Jason peers back at his birthday cake where the candles are still burning strongly. He looks over to Thalia and Annabeth, who smile encouragingly with Nico’s instructions. Then to Bianca, who has her camera ready for a photo.

 

His gaze wanders back to Nico. Under every candle, Nico’s eyes reflect the embers like a campfire in the evening. None of the frustration of the last two days show on his face.

 

None of the heartbreak from last year shows in the room. Jason wishes he could’ve felt this happy for every birthday before seventeen. Wishes he could’ve had his best friends and his big sister, like he does today.

 

Jason blows out the candles—hoping for more happiness to come.

 

Hoping for more time with Nico, too.

 

There’s a sharp click and a brief flash.

 

“Now that’s a good photo,” Bianca says.

 

*

 

Presents come next. Jason’s received gifts before, but quests had almost made him numb to them. Missions always fell around his birthday, riddled with more bad news of the impending war than small celebrations. Luke’s attention and cupcakes were a beacon when the Great Prophecy overshadowed Jason’s life—until Luke wasn’t there anymore.

 

Annabeth’s gift is twofold—a colorful handmade spiral notebook filled with yarn and macaroni art pieces from the many kids upset Jason wasn’t in Long Island for the summer. He flips through the pages and runs a finger over the signatures, his chest swelling.

 

“They do love you,” she reminds him. “They were all over you in arts and craft today.”

 

Jason rubs his forehead. “They were really into the blue hair yesterday.”

 

He perks at her second gift. Strategic Minds in a War of Nations by Frederick Chase.

 

“Your dad signed this?” Jason asks. He lifts the book jacket—where sure enough, Annabeth’s dad’s autograph lays. “He had time?”

 

“He was delighted,” Annabeth says—and she nudges him gently in the shoulder. “We dropped by my house before we made it here. It’ll be nice, finally having my family and my best friend so close by, I mean.”

 

Jason traces a hand over the book jacket, and his excitement spills into a smile. He peers back at her, outside of her normal Camp Halfblood attire. She wears her father’s old Harvard University sweatshirt, fit with a pair of owl earrings and a smile. The one tick mark on her arm is proof that she’s more than ready to move.

 

“You’re…really okay with this?” Jason asks quietly.

 

Annabeth stares at him quizzically. He gestures to the room about them—at the party streamers, confetti, and Happy Birthday banner—and she all but smacks him with the book. Instead, she hugs him again.

 

“Let’s make your birthday a little less about me and more about you, Grace,” she says. There’s a wryness to her expression—but Jason knows she’s grateful all the same.  

 

Jason’s smile remains, but he still can’t help wondering. Annabeth picks up on it without fail.

 

“If we don’t try to move on,” she says softly, “then we never will. Besides—I think you’ve earned the right to take your birthday back.”

 

Before Jason can mull over her words, he catches Thalia’s gaze from the other side of the living room. She holds a present in her hands and smiles in a way Jason’s never seen while growing up. It’s enough to muster a smile of his own.

 

After every birthday filled with rituals, quests, and shame—Jason’s next breath feels easier.

 

“Are you okay with it?” Annabeth asks him gently.

 

“Yeah,” he says. “This is me trying.”

 

“Your dad having a hard time pushing his books, Beth?” Percy asks quizzically. Loudly, when they take too long. Annabeth rolls her eyes.

 

“Jace is a huge history nerd,” Bianca interjects. She pulls the camera from her face and they make tentative eye contact. Both Annabeth and she smile at each other. “Seriously—you could take him to the Smithsonian every day for a year and he’ll find something new to ramble about every time.”

 

“Really?” Nico says—and he turns to Jason curiously. “I didn’t know that.”

 

Jason shrugs as he sifts through the book. “Maybe one of these days I’ll actually get to see that museum in Odesa.”

 

Thalia laughs as she settles beside him. “Sorry, baby brother—”

 

“—history’s for nerds,” Jason finishes for her—and he smiles as she grins.

 

“No wonder you get along so well with these two,” Percy notes. He gestures to both Bianca and Nico. “They’re like, ancient.”

 

Bianca stares at Percy with dismay. Nico’s nose wrinkles, and he rolls his eyes.

 

“Sorry—did you say something?” he asks wryly. “My hearing aid quit on me.”

 

Before he can help himself, Jason laughs into the book in his hand, and the sound catches the attention of the rest of his friends. He catches Nico’s eye from across the room—and is only met with a smile.

 

Thalia gifts him with a photograph. Eighteen-month-old Jason Grace in their mother’s arms, his cheek to her breast. She’s dressed in a flowy gown, with ruby red lipstick and blond ringlets. The demureness of his father’s frame reminds Jason of a medieval gothic painting—with a tall stance and brooding elegance befitting the King of the Underworld, as he keeps an arm around her.

 

It’s even funnier beneath the leather jacket that Jason inherited. With his mortal children, Hades almost looks…human.

 

Little Thalia wears black devil horns over her pigtails, looking amply proud compared to an exasperated Beryl. Jason can tell that their father is wedged between them for a reason.

 

He stares at it for a long time.

 

“I’ve never seen a picture of the four of us together,” he says. He looks back up to his sister, who looks nervous. “I didn’t know we had any.”

 

Thalia’s eyes are dim, like they would occasionally get during their travels.

 

“I didn’t have the best relationship with Mom,” Thalia says quietly. “I pretty much destroyed everything I could after Nico and I came out of the casino.”

 

Jason thinks back to his mother in the hospital room, without the Hollywood glamour and makeup. His mother was wealthy in love rather than film roles, with the rest of her family by her side. For all the fame that Pluto’s riches helped her achieve, their little family was enough. Jason knows it’s not a point in his mother’s life that lasted long, but…

 

“But we were happy here,” Jason says—to which Thalia’s lips raise into a smile. She ruffles his hair like he’s a child, and he wishes he grew up with it.

 

“There were good moments. Here and there. Stapler incident aside,” Thalia adds wryly. “I want you to have proof of that.”

 

Jason’s chest warms. He smiles at his sister. “I love it.”

 

He gets a blank sketchbook from Hazel, along with some colored pencils. They aren’t particularly close—but she stares as respectfully as she did when she first came out of the tree.

 

“I heard you were trying to find a new hobby outside of New Rome,” Hazel says. “Drawing is mine.”

 

“Oh,” Jason says—taken aback more than he intends. Her expression is thoughtful as he peers back at her—reminding Jason very much of Frank. They haven’t talked often, but he’s touched. Hazel has found her footing in this decade since her first visit to New Rome.

 

“I wasn’t sure what to get you,” Hazel suddenly says. She glows pink. “Bianca and Nico just said—”

 

“No, I love it.” Jason runs his fingers across the black spiral and smiles at her fully. “Thank you, Hazel.”

 

Percy gives him a birthday card. Right beneath the Happy Birthday is an apology—Sorry for mistaking you for a tarantula—and a misshapen doodle of whom Jason can only interpret as an avante garde Arachne.

 

“Percy did what now?” Thalia asks, while the son of Neptune shrugs.

 

“You’re too kind, Kelp-for-Brains,” Annabeth says dryly. She’s quick to punch him in the arm.

 

“Ow!”

 

“Actually,” Jason says, “there’s a gift card in here.”

 

He shakes the envelope carefully—then reveals a bold blue gift card with the words, Sweet on America on it. Despite yesterday’s mishap, Percy offers him an introspective glance.

 

Sweet on America’s the candy shop my mom used to work at,” Percy explains. “Beth mentioned you liked to buy candy for the little kids. It’s got Mom’s signature on it. Her old boss might give you an extra discount.”

 

The room falls silent.

 

“What?” Percy asks. “I listen.”

 

“Yeah,” Nico mutters. “Because Beth’s talking.”

 

Hey—” Percy turns to refute the son of Juno—but he’s met with a pleasant kiss on the cheek by Annabeth. He freezes at the sudden gesture, and then glows red.

 

“You’re too kind,” Annabeth repeats—and her smile makes Jason smile, too.

 

“Thanks, Percy,” Jason says—and Percy’s quick to wrinkle his nose.

 

“Neeks—” Percy clears his throat as his voice cracks, and he turns to the other demigod. “—you should give Grace your—”

 

“I don’t have one,” Nico cuts off. He’s sudden in his response, prompting Jason to look back at him. Nico’s stance is awkward beside Hazel. Once they lock eyes, Nico’s cheeks blister pink, and he looks embarrassed. “I. Got busy.”  

 

Percy snorts disbelievingly—his own rendition of Nico’s usual exasperation. “You’re kidding.”

 

“Unfortunately, I’m not.” Nico mimics the same look towards the son of Neptune with twice as much irritation. Then his gaze softens when he looks back to Jason. “Sorry.”

 

Jason’s taken aback by the intense look in the son of Juno’s eye. He can’t help but flash a smile. “It’s alright, Nico. I’m not expecting anything.”

 

He’s still trying to wrap his mind around the party streamers and birthday cake.

 

There’s a look to Nico’s face—one that’s reminiscent to last night. Jason thinks he’s been around Nico long enough now to know when something’s bothering the son of Juno—but maybe he’s still playing catch up. Bianca stands to her feet next, flashing her brother a look—then extends something out to Jason.

 

“Consider this a present from the both of us then,” Bianca announces—which puzzles Nico.

 

Jason rips the wrapping paper carefully and blinks. “A photo album?”

 

“Nico helped pick a photo or two,” she explains, cradling her camera in her other hand. A shy smile curls against her lips—shyer than Jason’s seen in years. “The ones that you smiled the best in.”

 

Nico makes a noise. “I didn’t—”

 

Sure enough, the first photo is from their visit to the Golden Gate Bridge. Jason sees his own face in front of the bridge on a cloudy day, when Bianca instructed him to pose for a candid shot. He stares at it curiously—then continues to sift through the photos. “Bee, these are beautiful.”

 

She glows red, humble of her work. “It was kind of a rush job, all things aside.”

 

There are only three pages filled out. Jason is enraptured by the last one he sees—one from just a month ago, when he and his big sister moved into the apartment. He’s smiling in it—happier than he’s been in days, to have a key that made moving to New Rome official. That made putting Camp Halfblood behind him official.

 

“Hey, would you look at that,” Thalia muses. She gestures to the forgotten photograph of their family at the coffee table. “Now you’ve got two photos of our family—before and after Halfblood, baby brother.”

 

“Just wait until I’m done with the photos from today,” Bianca says. She smiles fully, her hand on the trigger. “There’re some good ones, Jace.”

 

Jason’s chest blooms with warmth. He closes the photo album and looks back to his bashful best friend. “I love it.”

 

He loves all of it.

 

*

 

The Grace siblings spend more time on the couch looking through old photo albums. Nico sits long enough to see the palest, cutest baby beneath a sunhat. He hears a conversation pass between Thalia and Jason—one that he decides he isn’t privy to—and leaves them to their own devices.

 

Hazel and Frank are clearly enjoying their time away from Camp Halfblood since settling there after the spring. Percy—as usual—is glued to Annabeth’s side, telling jokes and messily eating cake. Nico finds Reyna and Bianca going over photos already taken in the kitchen.

 

He bites the inside of his cheek nervously—then announces his presence. “Hey.”

 

Both Reyna and Bianca peer back up—and Nico locks eyes with his sister.

 

She smiles at him—looking as awkward as Nico feels. “Hey, Nico.”

 

“You did a good job orchestrating this, Nico,” Reyna interjects, before the tension can get to either of them. She smiles proudly at him, and Nico shakes his head.

 

“I barely did a thing.” Nico spent all of yesterday angry at his sister, annoyed with Percy, and building furniture until Jason fell asleep.

 

“You made Thalia happy,” Reyna dismisses. “I would hardly call that nothing.”

 

Nico peers back over Jason and Thalia. The party hat is lopsided on Jason’s head now—but he sits there, glowing as Thalia flips through a photo album Nico’s never seen her open. She holds herself differently than the Thalia Nico’s known since he was ten—but there’s just as much love. He thinks back to the way Thalia used to smile at him when they were younger, and how much fuller it looks now.

 

Bianca snaps her camera at the pair, unprompted. Nico wonders if they’re thinking the same thing: Jason and Thalia look the most like each other when they’re happy.

 

“I think Jason’s doing all of that by himself,” Nico says.

 

Reyna reaches over and ruffles his hair. “One day you’ll learn to take a compliment, Praetor di Angelo.”

 

Nico flushes red instead, reminded of the sentiment echoed not too long ago by a son of Hades. He follows Reyna’s line of sight as she looks over to her girlfriend—then feels his heart flutter as Jason peers back at him.

 

Jason waves, the smile on his face finding room to grow.

 

After a reluctant moment, Nico musters a wave back.

 

He notices Bianca looking back and forth in his exchange with Reyna silently. It’s not until now that Nico realizes Bianca’s always looked at them like that.

 

“I’m going to get a second slice of cake.” Reyna stands to her feet and looks between the two of them carefully. “You two…need anything?” 

 

“No.” Nico’s face tingles as Bianca echoes the sentiment.

 

After that, Reyna dismisses herself to the other room while Nico sits down at the dining table. He looks up to his sister, who’s dressed in a pretty lace top and black shorts. Bianca looks more poised than usual, hair pinned to the side with a lotus-shaped clip. Their mother’s symbol.

 

But, still fairly awkward under his gaze.

 

“Does the party meet the Bianca di Angelo standard?” Nico asks carefully.

 

A smile graces Bianca’s lips, and she looks up to him thoughtfully. Bianca’s gaze carries through the room. Then she snaps another candid photo of the partygoers in the living room.

 

“It’s better than anything I could come up with,” Bianca admits. “I…think even when Jace and I snuck out of Camp Halfblood, we were doing it because I told him to.”

 

Nico shrugs. “You were against celebrating because he was against it. You were trying to be respectful.”

 

“Nico, you found a loophole for today,” she protests—and she laughs as Nico glows pink. Bianca fiddles with her camera for a moment—then she pushes it towards him.

 

The photo is crisp. Jason sits in the center of a room illuminated by only candles, with his blue party hat askew. A bashful smile lights up his face—and despite all the people in their surroundings, Jason’s excitement is all towards Nico.

 

Nico feels the same flutter from when Jason smiled at him. He pushes the camera back to his sister.

 

“They look good,” Nico says. “I’m glad you decided to come.”

 

Bianca smiles at him shyly and pulls a lock of hair behind her ear. It fades ever-so slightly. “Look—”

 

“You don’t have to apologize again,” Nico interjects hastily. He fiddles with a fork left on the table. “We already had this talk earlier. I’m sorry we excluded you from the plans. It was never our intention to do that.”

 

He thinks back to his own careful, calculated words to her earlier at Camp Halfblood. It’s been a long time since Bianca was his first call in an emergency—but he’s always loved her first. Bianca has an irreplaceable part in his heart, right with their mom and godly mother. Nico’s capacity to love only grew when Thalia, Reyna, and Percy entered his life—something that would’ve been harder if he was left alone at ten instead.

 

(Or something along those lines. Reyna filled Bianca in on tonight’s plans, per Nico’s request—and Bianca looked far more sentimental over Iris Message than Nico would’ve ever anticipated.)

 

Bianca stares at him oddly.

 

“I was just going to say that I didn’t know you and Jace were hanging out.” Bianca tilts her head and studies him, while Nico feels his cheeks grow hot.

 

“We’re not,” he says. “Not really. Our schedules don’t line up.”

 

Bianca scrutinizes him even further—which feels a little too much like Percy’s own glower. Nico’s hand twitches on the inside of his arm, already dreading her next response. Instead, she pulls her camera close to her chest.

 

“I ran into him on one of the nights he was out on a run,” Nico supplies eventually. He struggles to look her in the eye. “That’s the only reason this came up. He told me he was worried about how to face today.”

 

He doesn’t mention that he’s stayed up every night since that first one, wondering if Jason’s been able to fall asleep. Nico’s seen Jason on a midnight run too many times in the last few days, trying to make sense out of heartache. It was only last night that Nico was able to muster up the courage and actually go to Jason.

 

“You two are from such different parts of my life,” Bianca says carefully. “I always knew you two would get along, but I guess it never occurred to me you’d actually meet. Let alone you would throw a birthday party for him.”

 

“We had some time to get to know each other before the end of the world.” Nico fiddles with the inside of his arm, where his peacock tattoo lays. Bianca watches as he does so.

 

Some time doesn’t really cover what that tattoo really means to either of them.

 

“You mean the world to him,” Bianca says. “All he ever does when we hang out is ask if you’re okay. He says good things about you.”

 

“You believed him?”

 

Bianca nudges him in the arm and rolls her eyes—which coaxes a smile out of both of them.

 

“Still—the lengths that Reyna and Annabeth said you went to pull this party off—”

 

“What lengths?” Nico peers back at her, hoping he doesn’t look nervous.

 

But—unlike Percy, Bianca isn’t blunt. She’s more calculative in her assessment—which is probably why Reyna and she get along in the first place.

 

“Just…that you were insistent that today be about him. No one’s ever made the effort to do that before,” she says. “Not since Luke.”

 

Being compared to Luke Castellan only rubs Nico the wrong way. he tries to ignore the way his chest aches and shrugs. “I’d hope there was something good about that guy for Jason to still be…”

 

In love with him, even a year after Luke Castellan’s death. After Luke left him at the age of eleven.

 

“Distraught,” Nico says instead, “about today.”

 

Bianca stares at him in a way he doesn’t like. She pushes the camera away, then looks over to the Grace siblings again. Annabeth’s joined them in conversation, and Jason looks even happier now.

 

“I came late to the party when all of that happened.” Bianca pushes hair out of her face, mulling over something from the life apart from Nico—and eventually rolls her eyes with a tired exasperation. “Luke was already a villain in my book. Neither of us wanted to have the fate of Olympus in our hands—but Luke made it harder on him.”

 

“I know.” Nico’s seen plenty of those memories in Croatia, when Eros beat them out of Jason. He also saw Jason try to recover as though it was nothing—as if the God of Love didn’t just rip his heart out to laugh.

 

The wavery smile Jason gave him back then, after picking up Diocletian’s Scepter, is incomparable to the one in the living room next to Thalia. Jason looks his age. And happy.

 

“Sitting between Annabeth and Jason for those war meetings were exhausting,” Bianca laments—and she rubs her temples. “I was already upset for what Zeus did to us. Now I had to prepare for war against some boy. And not just any boy—the one my best friend’s been in love with since he was six.”

 

Again, the love word is hard for Nico to wrap his mind around. He tugs on his sleeve. “I’m…sure it was hard, after the casino.”

 

Bianca raises her gaze and looks back to him with a faint smile—one she gives him every now and then in the lull of their arguments. It’s grateful that they’re together, even when Nico is sure they spend more time angry than happy. They’re here, despite their paths leading them astray for the last five years.

 

“Well—I had my out.” Bianca awkwardly rubs her arm—the one that was injured by Orion in Disney World, when she struck him with her arrows. “Jason didn’t. I knew after I died, he’d be the one to slay Kronos, I just…hoped that day would turn out better for him. Maybe I breezed over that too quickly when I came back to life.”

 

She bites her lip, fiddling with her camera lens cap.

 

“Maybe I shouldn’t have put the thought of dating out there for him,” she finishes softly. “Since I left.”

 

Nico takes in his sister at that moment. That certainly wasn’t part of the apology he heard earlier today. But now—Bianca looks at him more thoughtfully than their fight two days ago, with Nico’s frustration in mind.

 

“You…and I were just trying to get him to move on. Just in different ways,” Nico says. He fights the irritation that’s knotted so tightly with his sister’s words. “Everyone’s made his birthday about Olympus instead of him—Jason included. Luke’s another story entirely.”

 

Bianca sighs softly. It’s laced with a frustration that led her to Ogygia. But then she looks at Nico. “So you’re deciding things for Jace?”

 

“Not deciding,” Nico admonishes. “Reminding him that he’s allowed to make things about himself, too.”

 

Bianca laughs at his choice of words. She props her head against her hand, and stares at him warmly. The smile on her face fades ever so slightly.

 

“You did all of this so he would stop beating himself up over today,” she says. “I didn’t know you cared so much about him, Nico.”

 

Red creeps up Nico’s cheeks. He fiddles with his sleeve once more, staring at the peacock at the inside of his arm.

 

“I care,” Nico says. A lot. He only hopes for the end of the conversation.

 

But—Bianca scrutinizes him again, with a deeper intent. Nico knows it from their time together when they were younger. She stares so long that Nico wonders if she can see his pulse. “Care enough to keep him from dating anyone else?”

 

Nico freezes at her question. It’s almost inaudible—low enough so no one in the other room can hear. He peers back to her and notices the gentle warmth hasn’t changed in her demeanor. Just curious eyes. Too curious.

 

“You can tell me anything,” she offers gently. “I’m your sister. I’m the last person to ever judge you.”

 

For all of the vigor and ferocity that fuels their relationship, she’s delicate in her words. Nico glances back at her hesitantly. Once upon a time, he wondered if she would accept him for who he was. Who he liked. But—that was with different memories, when Jupiter ruled over their lives instead of their mothers’ love.

 

Then he looks back to the couch, where a boyish smile carries Jason’s motions, rather than the world around him. Jason looks more and more like himself as Thalia gestures to their old photo album, fitting together pieces that were separated far too early. There’s a light in the shadows of his eyes—one that Nico can see, even from here.

 

He…likes it just as much as the first time he ever noticed. A lot.

 

“There’s nothing to tell,” Nico says instead. “Jason told me he’d date when he was ready.”

 

She gives him old look from when they were younger, when a smaller Bianca tried to figure out if he was fibbing. Nico waits expectantly for her to jab a finger in his direction and tattle. Or accuse him, like Percy’s been doing for the last two days. But instead—

 

“Okay,” she says eventually. “I just wanted to ask.”

 

Nico suppresses a sigh of relief.

 

*

 

They play a few board games. Jason learns what Rapid Fire Go Fish entails—which almost starts a mini war in their living room. It’s a livelier time than the night before when he delivered a eulogy. Thalia perks in the presence of Reyna, Percy, and Nico—and the four of them play with a gusto that’s clearly been missing from the summer.

 

Annabeth, Bianca, and he play catch up. There’s a tentativeness between Jason’s best friends—one that’s only shown after Bianca came back to life. Annabeth is wary—but she brushes it off before Jason has a chance to ask. At the end of the night, Jason makes sure to pull Bianca aside and apologize.

 

“It really did slip my mind,” Jason tells her. He takes off the party hat when the guilt weighs on him too heavily. “I…just—”

 

“You had a lot going on,” Bianca interjects for him. She smiles at him. “This day is important to you.”

 

“I…” Jason can’t help curling a hand to the back of his neck. “Yeah.”

 

She observes him carefully, then kisses him on the cheek. “This day is important because it should be about you, Jace. Don’t forget that.”

 

Bianca makes a point to put the silly hat back on his head. She smiles at him, and Jason feels more grounded.

 

“I get you about every single day of the week,” she says. There’s embarrassment in her voice. “I mean—I was dead for a year. I shouldn’t be surprised that you’ve made other friends in that time—even if it is my brother.”

 

Coming from anyone else, the sentence would sound absurd. But at the mention of Nico, Jason peers back to the son of Juno—who looks more than happy to have the rest of the Romans with him. They’ve since looped Hazel and Frank into a game of Slap. Nico is grinning—something that’s lacked in the last two days because of his big sister. Jason’s not sure what the conversation between the di Angelo siblings was about, but he knows they’re both better.

 

He could laugh at what he said to Nico earlier in the evening. If someone told him a year ago that he would be leaving his life in Camp Halfblood and coming to New Rome, hand-in-hand with Bianca’s little brother, he wouldn’t believe them.

 

Not only that—but Nico isn’t just Bianca’s little brother. Not like when they first met. Two months ago, Jason swallowed the thought that he would have to take Bianca back to the Underworld. He met Nico di Angelo, saw both siblings reunite—and was about to be the reason they would have to separate again. One trip to Olympus later, and even his father bent the rules after losing his lieutenant for months.

 

He's not sure how to brave this new landscape—one where his best friend is alive, and Nico means as much to him as Bianca.

 

 “I wouldn’t have guessed it myself,” Jason admits. The edges of his lips press into a tired smile.

 

Bianca shrugs. “Guess it’s just strange to see how life’s moved on without me. To…see him, move on without me.”

 

She holds the same sad look from their reunion, looking over to Nico’s vibrant demeanor.

 

“He’s still there,” Jason reassures. “I mean—all the things you told me about him were true, they’re just—”

 

“He’s aged out of them,” Bianca cuts off. She pulls a lock of hair behind her ear thoughtfully, the lotus pin shimmering in her hair. “He’s grown up.”

 

“He’s still your little brother.” Jason reaches over and touches her shoulder. “There’s no instruction manual for how to go about this, Bee. You two are handling it as best as you can.”

 

Bianca sighs tiredly and shakes her head. “I used hang out with other friends and try to get rid of him. Now my little brother is running the entire show—and I’m the pathetic older sister who followed him to New Rome.”

 

“Hey.” Jason frowns and touches her shoulder. “He wouldn’t want you talking like that.”

 

“He wouldn’t want to talk about it,” Bianca corrects.

 

“Well—no. But we had a long talk about it,” Jason says.

 

The moment he does, Bianca’s eyes raise towards him curiously. “What do you talk about, exactly?”

 

“Um. Stuff, I guess.” Jason’s eyebrows furrow together as it welcomes more of her scrutiny. “Why?”

 

“Stuff like you dating again?”

 

Oh.

 

Jason stares back at Bianca, taken aback. She looks at him more curiously now, and Jason can feel his nose twitch again. He resists the urge to touch the back of his neck again. “I…mean. I’m. Not dating anyone, if that’s what you’re asking.”

 

Bianca’s lips press into a quiet frown, bothered. She reaches out and touches his arm.

 

“You don’t have to date until you’re ready,” she says slowly. “I just…it caught me guard. I didn’t realize it would bother you so much.”

 

“Bother’s a strong word.”

 

Bianca stares at him again.

 

“It’s…not the wrong word,” Jason says, after mulling over it a second time. He sucks in a breath, feeling his ears glow pink.

 

Instead of shaming him, Bianca soaks in his reaction. “I just don’t know why you didn’t feel like you could talk to me about it. I thought we were trying to get better after everything that happened this past spring. Aren’t we?”

 

“We are,” Jason reassures. He feels a knot twist uncomfortably in the pit of his stomach and tries to find the right word. From the corner of his eye, Jason notices Nico peering in their direction.

 

He notices Bianca notice, too.

 

Jason tries to put it into words. Nico and he were on amicable terms at best before Eros—and…Eros is a subject too heavy to bring into this conversation. The moment Eros happened—when every thought about Luke and Bianca and his birthday poured for the whole world to see—Jason wanted to bury it. Love laughed at his heartbreak. Nico wanted to talk him through it.

 

Nico…always wants him to talk through it. Like last night, when the burden weighed so heavy in Jason’s chest that he couldn’t even put it into words. Not for a glorious speech like Chiron wanted.

 

He thinks back to the moment where Nico had Styrofoam sitting on his head. There weren’t words exchanged between them then. Jason had caught himself staring at the lithe son of Juno, who invited himself into Cabin Thirteen to help Jason through midnight. For some reason, it enamored Jason. So much so that he didn’t notice the time.

 

Which was…confusing, considering how many weeks Jason dreaded midnight. Different.

 

“Nico’s different,” Jason concludes—though he’s not sure if he’s telling himself or Bianca. “I just…I feel like I can talk to him.”

 

Bianca doesn’t look content with the answer. Jason doesn’t know what to say about it.

 

“I’m sorry?” he says next—to which she rolls her eyes and pushes him.

 

“If Nico’s what it takes for you to talk about your feelings after seventeen years, then so be it,” Bianca admonishes. “Don’t worry about it, Jace. I just felt like I should ask about it.”

 

“Ask about what?” Nico suddenly interjects, after Jason and she have been talking too long. He arches an eyebrow, and Jason can’t help but smile as the son of Juno offers him another plate of cake.

 

“Hey,” Jason greets. He takes the cake thankfully.

 

“Hi.” There’s a look in Nico’s eye—one ready to engage in another fight on Jason’s behalf.

 

Bianca stares between the two of them, looking thoroughly exasperated. “Apparently nothing.”

 

*

 

At the very end of the night, everyone is ready to settle in. Hazel decides to spend the night with her siblings. Jason watches as Bianca and Hazel sleepily lead each other to the di Angelo residence only a few doors down. Percy opts to sleep in the barracks at least one last time before college next month—and happily takes Frank with him.

 

“Remember Frank,” Nico reminds gently, “you’re allowed to move back whenever you want.”

 

There’s a mischief to Nico’s eyes that makes Jason stifle a laugh. Frank looks flustered immediately. Before he can muster a response, Percy slaps him on the back and guides out of the via principia.

 

Annabeth opts to sleep on the couch with the intent of exploring NRU in the morning. Percy’s already promised her a full sweep of every inch of campus. Thalia gives Jason a lasting hug past midnight before Reyna and she retire for the evening.

 

Jason starts cleaning before he can help himself. He stacks empty paper plates and sweeps confetti off the floor, while his best friend is asleep with a School of Architecture brochure at her chest. He finds Nico in the kitchen, already washing silverware.

 

“Oh,” Jason says, startled. “I thought you went home with Hazel and Bianca.”

 

Nico stares at him tentatively, then flashes a pointed look. “I had a feeling you wouldn’t go to bed until the apartment was clean.”

 

Jason blinks.

 

“Un…less this is too much,” Nico continues. He turns the sink off. “I can—”

 

“No—I appreciate it. All of it.” Jason’s lips curl into a smile as Nico slowly relaxes at the sink.

 

“I’ve slept over at Thalia’s praetorhouse enough to know what her cleaning habits are like,” Nico carefully says. “Or there lack of.”

 

“Trust me,” Jason says, “no one is surprised not to find a bra in the fridge more than me.”

 

At that declaration, Nico flashes a funny look—one that makes Jason chuckle.

 

“I don’t mind it.” Jason starts gathering the discarded candles at the dining table, then passes used forks to Nico. “It—”

 

“Gives you a place for all that restless energy?”

 

Jason stares at Nico. Nico stares at him in a way that reminds Jason of Bianca—but Jason doesn’t feel unsettled. Instead, he ducks his head and shakes it in disbelief. “I don’t know how you do that.”

 

“Do what?”

 

“Know what I’m thinking before I do.” Jason throws the last of the disposable party wear into a garbage bag. He’s never cleaned up a mess after a party before—not like this. Jason peers up at the banner still hanging above Annabeth and thinks he could spend the rest of the night looking at it.

 

Nico finishes up quickly. He stands beside Jason and shrugs. “It’s…not that hard, Jason. I just don’t think anyone’s ever tried to.”

 

“Yeah.” Jason says softly, before he can help himself. Now he’s in a new life where everyone is trying.

 

“Was…this okay?” Nico asks hesitantly. “I…know you went along with it, but—”

 

“Nico, I loved every minute of it.” Jason doesn’t know if he can sound anymore sincere. He looks to the many handprints at the corner of his birthday banner—then to the presents gifted to him throughout the night. There’s only one slice of cake left from the bakery that he and his big sister frequent—and there’s even a notebook full of art from all of the kids from Camp Halfblood that missed his company.

 

His company. No son of Hades, no Chosen One. Just…him.

 

They both cock their heads towards Annabeth when she yawns—but she’s quick to turn and face away from them. Jason reaches over and pulls the blanket over her shoulders.

 

“Beth said I can’t move on if I don’t try.” Jason turns back to the son of Juno—and notices Nico looking relieved. “I…guess I talked about eventually putting this day behind me, but that means enjoying every part of it for myself too. You know?”

 

There’s a way that Nico smiles that Jason likes. Calm, with a little bit of pride. “Now you’re getting it.”

 

‘Every journey starts with footsteps,’” Jason quotes. He watches as Nico flushes red. The corners of his own lips lift into a tired smile. “Even if they are baby steps.”

 

Nico snorts and gestures to Jason’s feet. “Quite the shoe for baby steps.”

 

Again, Jason can’t help but laugh. He feels his cheeks tingle with heat. “Can…these big baby feet walk you home?”

 

Nico grins.

 

“That sounded as lame as I thought it would,” Jason admits. His cheeks glow pink. “I don’t know what I expected.”

 

They tiptoe out the front door, careful not to wake the rest of the apartment. A thought passes through Jason’s head that shadowtravel would’ve been easier. Faster. He decides against it in favor of Nico’s company.

 

“Praetor stuff should slow down next month. All of my centurions should be coming back for the school year,” Nico says. “Mike said wedding season ends in September.”

 

“Thanks for taking the time off for me.” A smile spreads across Jason’s lips. He gestures to the apartment complex behind him. “And throwing the party. Really, Nico—”

 

“It was nothing.”

 

“—it was everything,” Jason corrects. They stand in front of the di Angelo residence, and Jason watches as Nico look away. Beneath the streetlights, it’d be hard for anyone else to tell that Nico is red.

 

“I’ve been told I should learn how to take a compliment.” Nico’s tone is wry—and Jason can guess the piece of advice has come from one of his sisters. “So. You’re welcome. And…thank you.”

 

“Now you’re getting it,” Jason echoes. He smiles as Nico flushes a darker shade of red. They stand outside a little longer in a comfortable silence. There’s a goodbye and a thank you waiting on Jason’s tongue, but it doesn’t occur to him to say it out loud. He doesn’t want to.

 

Nico sucks in a breath of air, then lets his shoulders fall. “Wait here for a second.”

 

“Oh, sure.”

 

Nico disappears into the house. Jason sees the living room light flash from the door window—then Nico returns, looking more nervous than before. He holds out a gift bag. “Happy Birthday, Jason.”

 

Jason stares in awe longer than he intends. “You got me a gift?”

 

“Yeah.” Nico chews on his lip.

 

“I thought you forgot—”

 

“I just,” Nico hastily interjects, his cheeks glowing red, “didn’t want Percy to say anything stupid.”

 

“Oh.”

 

“You…can take the bag now, Jason.” 

 

“Oh—right.” Jason takes the bag gingerly. He stares at it in amazement, still flattered to be receiving a gift from Nico. Jason pulls the gift out with ease. “Oh—Nico, wow.” 

 

Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild

 

“I used to get anxious when Percy and Reyna would go on quests,” Nico starts carefully. “I mean—I knew what being in the Legion entailed. You just never know when you may lose someone.” 

 

He pauses for a moment, and they know they’re both thinking of the same person. 

 

“Percy got me into videogames, so I’d be preoccupied. And board games. There’s seventy years’ worth of games I missed out on because of the casino,” Nico says. “You mentioned liking Zelda. Maybe this will help you with some of that restless energy. I’ll bet you it’s more fun than cleaning.” 

 

Jason’s lips press into a smile. He runs a hand over the title. The artwork is pretty, with a silhouette of Link facing the horizon. “I don’t own a Switch.”

 

“Just ask Thalia. I’m sure she’ll be more than happy.” Nico flashes another look now—much surer of himself. “Just…whenever you’re needing to get your mind off of things. Or can’t sleep.”

 

“Nico, I…” Jason’s chest swells with another indescribable warmth. The longer he stands there, the more Nico’s smile makes him feel better. “I don’t even know what to say. Thank you.”

 

“You can think of me the next time you can’t fall asleep,” Nico says. He halts, then shifts awkwardly at his feet. “Well—not necessarily me. Or you can—if you need someone to talk to. You seemed in better spirits after last night. It doesn’t need to be me—Thalia and Bianca are also—”

 

“I’m going to be terrible at this game.” Jason laughs as Nico’s demeanor shifts in amusement.

 

“You can call me about that too,” Nico says. The corners of his lips twitch. “Just don’t feel like you need to hole yourself up for other people, Jason.”

 

Pink flutters across Jason’s cheeks. He runs a finger across the title once more. “I’ll ask Thalia first thing in the morning.”

 

“Good.” Nico smiles once more. “Try and get some sleep tonight.”

 

“Yeah,” Jason agrees. There’s a needling of disappointment at his chest. He looks up at Nico for as long as the rest of the evening will allow and leans forward with a handshake.

 

Nico opens both arms expectantly. They stare at each other.

 

“Oh,” Nico starts. He extends another hand. “Sorry, I just know you’re…a hugger—”

 

Jason yanks him close and pulls Nico into a hug. He knots one hand firmly against the game and buries his face in the crook of Nico’s shoulder.

 

“You’re right,” Jason agrees softly. “Sorry.”  

 

Nico doesn’t respond right away. But then he hugs back, squeezing Jason gently as he does so.

 

“No apologizing on your birthday,” Nico reminds him.

 

Jason laughs. It takes all of him to remember to let go.

*

 

Jason's Journal, July 1, 20xx

Notes:

Hope you guys enjoyed this one! I knew Jason's birthday was going to be important in the story, but didn't realize it would take up three whole chapters. This one was fun to do after the first few have kept them separated. Thank you so much for reading!

Chapter 6: the beach

Summary:

“What do you want, Percy?” Nico asks. He stares at the half-eaten mushroom pizza sitting in front of him and watches as Jason collects a slice for himself.

Percy peers back at him, annoyed. “What else would I want? We go every summer.”

“I could name a few things,” Nico says. He moves out of the way before Percy can kick him.

“Want me to put it in a way you understand?” Percy asks wryly.

“If you think it’ll help,” Jason says helpfully. Nico hides a snicker as Percy glares at him, too.

“Fine,” Percy says. He waves his hands around emphatically, slathering pizza cheese all over the table. “Beach episode!”

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

 August comes fast. Centurions and legionnaires alike come back to Camp Jupiter for the school year, including Percy and Annabeth, who eagerly move into the dorm rooms on campus. Nico and Reyna take the time off to help Percy move. Nico doesn’t visit NRU’s campus often, but he recognizes the faces of plenty of legionnaires. Many stop and say hello even when Nico’s hands are full of boxes.

 

Sally and Paul come by with their new daughter in tow. Not one corner of the residential hall goes without a photo. But—for all of the smart remarks Nico’s at the receiving end of during the school year, watching Percy humble and sweet with his family is always a side he likes to see.

 

“Nico’s a baby whisperer,” Percy says at one point, when the final box has made it to his dorm room.

 

Nico rolls his eyes, Estelle in his arms. “She says she likes me better than you.”

 

Estelle coos and happily brings a foot to her mouth.

 

Sally takes the opportunity to take her daughter back—but not before a smile graces her lips. “I hear you’ve really come into your own since the war, Nico. I’m proud of you.” 

 

Red flushes against Nico’s cheeks. “Thanks, Mom.” 

 

“And don’t worry—we’ll be here to move you in a few years,” Paul says reassuringly. He continues to take photos on a Polaroid. “Just let us know when graduation is, and we’ll be the ones waving the big sign!” 

 

“Sure, Paul,” Nico says. The corner of his lip twitches into a smile. “In two years.” 

 

Percy claps his hands in front of his sister, then animatedly rolls his eyes. “Well, I was supposed to move into someone’s praetor house, but someone let someone else call dibs.” 

 

“If only I could kick my own sister to the curb,” Nico says wryly. He pokes Estelle in the belly. The corner of his lip raises as she giggles. “That’s always a sound plan.” 

 

Percy shrugs. “Your loss.” 

 

“I think a single in the dorms is already an upgrade from the barracks,” Reyna interjects. She smiles as Estelle latches onto her finger and sticks it into her mouth.

 

“Look at all that baby drool,” Nico notes. “I see the family resemblance.” 

 

“Really?” Reyna jokes. “I think she’s too cute to be related to Percy.” 

 

Hey,” Percy rouses—though he doesn’t disagree, as Estelle insists to be held by her big brother. 

 

They stretch out the length of the Jackson-Blofis clan’s stay with a visit to the campus pizzeria.

 

Paul is excited when a dryad takes his order.  “There was a nest in her hair! With real birds!” 

 

“Never did understand why forest nymphs would want to open up a woodfire pizza place,” Percy notes. “That’s like me putting dandruff on a cheeseburger.” 

 

“There’s an art to it,” Reyna says. “The dryads don’t just live in the trees. They nurture them. Being able to shed some of the bark and infuse it in the taste of the pizza is something that they’re proud of.”

 

“So more like eggs from a healthy hen,” Nico translates.

 

Still, Percy makes a face. “More like taking one of the bricks out of the foundation of our apartment.”

 

Nico snorts. Reyna laughs.

 

Foundation,” she says. “Look at all the big architectural words Annabeth’s taught you this past summer.”

 

Percy throws a packet of cheese at her. “Dating Thalia’s made you meaner.”

 

“Try it out some day,” Reyna advises. “Maybe it’ll make you more sensible.”

 

“Unlikely,” Nico is quick to quip.

 

Sally places Estelle on the table as a mediator. Estelle cheers as she stumbles and leans forward into Nico’s grip. “No one gets to complain when they’re not paying for the food.”

 

“Yes ma’am,” Reyna and Nico reply politely.

 

“So Thalia’s busy today?” Sally asks. She looks between the three of them curiously.

 

“She’s helping Beth move into the girls’ dorms,” Percy explains. He shrugs nonchalantly. “I guess Jason asked? Who knows.”

 

Sally stares at her son curiously, then arches an eyebrow. “Who’s Jason?”

 

“Thalia’s brother,” Nico says—to which Sally’s eyes widen.

 

“Thalia has a brother?” she asks. “A new child of Pluto? Or—Hades? Is he…Greek, like Hazel?”

 

Reyna and Nico share exasperated looks—then turn expectantly to Percy.

 

Percy shrugs.  “It’s a recent development.”

 

“If you consider nine months recent,” Nico retorts. Once again, Percy shrugs nonchalantly.

 

“Who am I to count the time that Grace has been in our lives?” Percy asks halfheartedly. He waves around another packet of cheese. “His boyfriend?”

 

Nico kicks him beneath the table without warning.

 

Ow!

 

“It’s one of the…newer developments to come out of the war, Ms. Jackson-Blofis,” Reyna interjects for them. She eyes both her co-praetor and Fifth Cohort centurion curiously—but Nico is quick to wave a dismissive hand. “All you need to know is that Thalia has been happier since.”

 

Sally looks at the entire exchange—her grumbling son rubbing his shin, Nico, looking ready to blow Percy’s open cup out of his hand with a gust of wind, and Reyna’s exasperation between them. Despite the usual discord, she smiles at all of them.

 

“She sends her love,” Reyna says helpfully.

 

“I’m sure she does,” Sally says, though there’s a hint of disappointment in her voice. “She’ll have to introduce me the next time I see her.”

 

“Trust me—nothing in the Grace family compares to Thalia,” Percy reassures.

 

Sally’s eyebrows furrow together. “Grace?”

 

“Thalia’s last name,” Nico supplies.

 

“Thalia has a last name?” Paul asks.

 

“If you want to call it that.” Percy waves his hand dismissively—which is met with a swat from Reyna.  

 

The door of the pizzeria opens. Nico watches as Percy goes from nursing his injured arm to straightening in his seat. Then, Percy grins from cheek-to-cheek. “Annabeth! Hey!”

 

Sure enough, Annabeth Chase stands at the other end of the pizzeria in a New Rome University School of Architecture hoodie. A scholarly man stands next to her in a sweater vest and blond hair—undoubtedly her father. Nico’s heart flutters as Jason slinks in behind the pair, with both Bianca and Thalia in tow.

 

A grin spreads across Annabeth’s face, like they hadn’t seen each other two days ago. The host up front sits them at the neighboring table.

 

Reyna’s quick to stand to her feet and kiss her girlfriend.

 

“Annabeth,” Sally repeats slowly. She lights up and looks over to Nico. “The Annabeth?”

 

“The one and only,” Nico reassures—and Percy is quick to shrink.

 

“Frederick Chase,” Mr. Chase extends a hand in Sally’s direction. A smile appears at his lips and he arches an eyebrow behind his glasses.

 

“Sally Jackson—and my husband, Paul,” Sally says. “You must be the father of the girl my Percy’s so smitten with!”

 

“Mom!” Percy says, mortified.

 

“Oh,” Mr. Chase readjusts his glasses and turns to his daughter. “Is that the Poseidon boy?”

 

“Smitten’s probably the right word,” Thalia muses. A grin splays across her lips as she greets Sally. She winks at Nico.

 

A hand makes its way to Nico’s shoulder. Jason smiles from behind. “Hi, Nico.”

 

Red swells in Nico’s cheeks. “Hi.”

 

“You have a baby,” Jason notes.

 

“What?” Nico asks.

 

Jason’s lips press into a smile. He lifts the hand and gestures to Estelle, who’s made a home in Nico’s arms.

 

“Oh,” Nico says. “She’s not mine.”

 

“Smitten is definitely the right word,” Reyna agrees. Her eyes are elsewhere, as Percy continues to shrink in his seat.

 

There’s a brief pause, where Sally peers over and takes a look at Jason. She studies him carefully.

 

“Mom,” Thalia interjects. She claps a hand over Jason’s shoulder and smiles at her. “This is my brother, Jason. He’s a son of Hades.”

 

“The reaper?” Paul asks. “Wow!”

 

“You look familiar,” Sally says. Then she lights up. “Jason! Jason Grace! You used to come into Sweet on America all the time! You bought the big bags of lollipops. I always knew something was special about you!”

 

“Oh,” Jason says. His smile widens across his face. “Percy’s your son. He mentioned you didn’t work there anymore. I hope you’re finally getting back into school.”

 

“You stopped coming by!”

 

“I live here now,” Jason says. His cheeks grow a bashful hue. “With my sister.”

 

“Oh, honey,” Sally squeals and hugs him close. “I’m so happy for you!”

 

“Mom—” Percy stands back to his feet, his eyebrows furrowing in dismay. “You knew Grace? And that he was a demigod?”

 

“It was a hunch,” Sally says. “Jason always bought candy in bulk over the summer. He told me he worked at a summer camp for kids—plus that faun he was always with.”

 

“Satyr, actually,” Nico interjects. He pretends not to notice Percy pouting—and doesn’t pay attention to the way Jason’s smile widens.

 

Sally turns to Bianca next—and a grin stretches across her lips. “You’re the sweet girl that came in with them from time-to-time.”

 

Nico’s cheeks flush pink. “My sister, Bianca.”

 

Bianca stands tall and extends an amicable hand. “Nice to meet you officially, Mrs. Jackson-Blofis.”

 

“What, no Beth?” Percy grumbles—which earns an irritable look from the daughter of Athena. He’s quick to cower.

 

Jason and Annabeth look at each other. Jason brushes a hand against his neck awkwardly.

 

“No Beth,” Nico quickly says.

 

“We call those the lost years,” Annabeth confirms—then she brings Jason close for a hug.

 

“What a weird thought,” Percy interjects. He points a packet of cheese between Nico and Bianca. “You were only a mom away from meeting again.”

 

Bianca and Nico exchange looks.

 

“I guess in this case, a mammina,” Jason interjects. The corner of his lips lifts into a smile. 

 

Nico hides his own smile behind Estelle. “You’re saying it wrong.” 

 

Jason smile turns sheepish, and he shrugs. “Italian’s not my strong suit.” 

 

“Neither is flirting,” Percy reassures. Nico jabs him in the arm. “Ow!” 

 

Once the introductions are over, the tables are pushed together. Sally, Paul, and Mr. Chase have a riveting conversation about adult things. Nico watches as Bianca’s face twists at Percy’s explanation about hamburgers and dandruff, while Annabeth and Reyna discuss the amenities provided in the dorm rooms. From across the table, he catches Jason’s smile.

 

“What?” Nico asks.

 

“Nothing,” Jason promises. “Percy’s sister is cute.”

 

“Yeah,” Nico agrees. “They look nothing like each other.”

 

His chest warms as Jason laughs. The corners of Jason’s lips raise, looking much more like himself in recent days.

 

“You enjoying the game?” Nico asks.

 

Jason lights up almost immediately. “Yeah, I finally found the Master Sword. I can’t believe how good it looks.”

 

“You’d be amazed what improvements they’ve made from 8-bit to 3D.” Nico’s smile widens as Jason’s cheeks warm.

 

“Weird though,” Jason admits. “I’m used to Link being left-handed—”

 

“They’ve only changed it for two games,” Nico interjects. He rolls his eyes animatedly. “For Breath of the Wild and Skyward Sword. Something about it being intuitive for console mechanics. You’ve already got to switch between shields, bows, arrows, and runes. I’d say making him righthanded for console mechanics just butchers his lore.”

 

He stops his heated rant as he notices Jason staring at him. Red blooms in his cheeks.

 

Thalia claps a hand over her brother’s shoulder and laughs. “Nico was on the waitlist for that one for years. He was mad when they swapped consoles.”

 

“Please,” Percy grumbles halfheartedly, “Let’s not rehash the Wii U and Nintendo Switch argument again. Or lore.

 

“Video games have an insightful story behind them,” Nico protests.

 

“What,” Percy continues, “like the Mythomagic anime?”

 

“No,” Nico says. “That was garbage.”

 

“I like Zelda.” Jason smiles politely, fiddling with a straw wrapper in his hand. “You still haven’t shown me your game collection.”

 

Nico flushes pink. He tugs at the edge of his sleeve. “You remembered that?”

 

Jason’s lips spread into a wider smile. “You remembered I liked Zelda. Why wouldn’t I remember your games?”

 

“He stares at it every time he comes over,” Bianca interjects. “Which is every day.”

 

Red blooms in Jason’s cheeks. He smiles sheepishly once more. “The Switch has been good while Bianca edits photos.”

 

“I…should be a little freer with the centurions back in town,” Nico says. “Reyna and I both, I mean.”

 

Percy shoves a pizza pie between them. “Speaking of free, it’s almost the start of school and we haven’t done one thing.”

 

“Someone’s been busy following a girl to the other side of the country,” Thalia retorts.

 

Percy glares at her.

 

“Estelle, of course,” Reyna supplies helpfully. She holds the youngest Jackson in her arms and gives her another pepperoni.

 

“What do you want, Percy?” Nico asks. He stares at the half-eaten mushroom pizza sitting in front of him and watches as Jason collects a slice for himself.

 

Percy peers back at him, annoyed. “What else would I want? We go every summer.”

 

“I could name a few things,” Nico says. He moves out of the way before Percy can kick him.

 

“Want me to put it in a way you understand?” Percy asks wryly.

 

“If you think it’ll help,” Jason says helpfully. Nico hides a snicker as Percy glares at him, too.

 

“Fine,” Percy says. He waves his hands around emphatically, slathering pizza cheese all over the table. “Beach episode!”

 

*

 

The summer at Camp Jupiter always ends at the beach for the Fifth Cohort. Nico remembers being eleven, only a few months away from closing out his first year as a legionnaire. Romans weren’t known for their naval forces. Fourteen-year-old Centurion Jackson made a sound argument that a camp named after the Best and the Greatest should be ready for any enemy attack.

 

Sure, the Romans had a bad experience with Shen Lun in 1906—but that meant they should be prepared in case they had to deal with the sea ever again.

 

Percy won his argument, and the last weekend of the summer is always spent at the beach playing volleyball and sunbathing.

 

“It’s also pivotal for all Big Three demigods—according to Percy, anyway,” Nico explains from the backseat of the SUV.

 

Bianca makes a face beside her brother. “How?”

 

Percy makes tick marks with his fingers from the driver’s seat. “One: saltwater practice and sea creatures for me. Two: practice with the sea breeze for Nico. And three—Thalia’s basically a metal detector. It’s a game of concentration for her.”

 

“Something you never fail to ruin,” Thalia reassures.

 

Nico hides a smile as Bianca blinks in confusion. She looks over to Reyna.

 

“So the Fifth Cohort makes this trip every summer,” Bianca says slowly, “and as praetor, you approved it?”

 

“Reyna used to be a pirate,” Percy supplies helpfully.

 

“I support strengthening our naval forces. And team-building exercises.” Reyna lifts her sunglasses and flashes Bianca a look. “A good tan never hurt anyone, either.”

 

Bianca smiles back, looking less doubtful. The car jerks suddenly as they pass a car beside them. Nico—

 

“Oof.”

 

“Sorry—you okay?”

 

“I’m. Fine.”

 

—wedged well into Jason’s side, elbow in the son of Hades’ lap. A line streaks across Jason’s journal from his pencil. Jason looks at Nico from the window seat, lips pressed into a smile.

 

Nico scrambles back to his place in the middle seat and yanks at his t-shirt hem. “That’s...the journal Mr. D gave you.”

 

“You remembered?” 

 

“You remembered my game collection.”

 

Jason’s lips spread into a smile. He bookmarks the journal with his pencil and hands it over to Nico to observe. “Mr. D wanted me to write down my thoughts. I try to get an entry in at least once a day.”

 

Nico’s not sure what to make of it. He stares at it carefully and notices more pages filled out than not. “Looks like a lot of thoughts.”

 

“A few,” Jason agrees. “You can read it if you want.”

  

“No.” Nico gently hands the book back to Jason and eyes him carefully. “I trust you to tell me how you’re feeling.”

 

Jason’s next laugh is breathy. Nico’s ears tingle as he feels the soft exhale—then Jason retrieves the book. “It’s nothing too exciting. Mostly figuring out where to look for items in the side quests.”

 

“Side quests?”

 

“Yeah—like when I notice a lizard I might need for more opals later. Or what ingredients I need to make stealthy food.” Jason rubs his stomach thoughtfully. “Cooking in game always makes me hungry.”

 

Nico bites back a laugh. He hides it in a smile instead. “I’m glad you’re enjoying it.”

 

There’s an amusement to Jason’s next expression that Nico can’t help but enjoy. Jason tucks the pencil behind is ear and smiles. “All the fun of adventuring on a quest without all the high stakes. Who knew it could actually be fun.”

 

“I’m sure Zelda doesn’t mind,” Nico muses halfheartedly. “Being locked away by Calamity Ganon while you’re off finding iguanas, I mean.”

 

Jason flushes red and laughs quietly. “Maybe she’ll forgive me if I’m well-equipped to save her. And remember everything. There’re still too many spirit orbs to find.”

 

“How many are you going to try and find?”

 

Jason’s eyebrows knit together, perplexed. “Don’t you need to find all of them?”

 

“No,” Nico reassures. “But if you want to max out your hearts, Zelda will wait.”

 

“She could be better off on her own,” Percy calls from the front.

 

Nico resists the urge to throw Jason’s journal at the son of Neptune’s head. “You’re right. If Link’s too busy neglecting Zelda, she deserves to find a nice guy in the School of Hyrulian Architecture.”

 

At that comment, their resident daughter of Athena looks up from her textbook. The corner of her lips quirk into a smile—but she says nothing.

 

“Too bad,” Jason says obliviously. He chuckles softly to himself and crosses his arms over his chest. “I like both of them.”

 

“Can’t relate,” Nico says. “I’m partial to Link.”

 

Jason laughs. He peers up from his seat by the window, his lips spread with amusement. His voice is quieter, so Percy can’t intrude on their conversation. “I had a weird phase with Sheik for a while. Turns out I just liked all three of them.”

 

“I can imagine,” Nico notes. “Blond hair, blue eyes. The same qualities as—”

 

He stops himself quickly, before the L can tickle his tongue. Nico snaps back to Jason quickly to see if the son of Hades notices—and is relieved to find that he doesn’t. Jason looks at him oddly and fiddles with his pencil again. He smiles at Nico fully and nudges the other demigod with his leg.

 

“Blue eyes are nice,” Jason agrees. “You’ve got pretty eyes, Nico.”

 

Oh.

 

“Oh,” Nico says. Red creeps up his cheeks, and he subtly inches closer to his sister. “That’s um. Nice.”

 

He puts his sunglasses on and pretend to fall asleep.

 

Nico welcomes Percy’s next turn, when he veers into Bianca’s lap instead.

*

 

*

 

The water is a pristine blue when they finally make it to the coast. The sea breeze fills Nico’s nostrils, while the wind kicks sand into his skin. They find a place near the edge of the coast after hauling a cooler, some beach beds, and the volleyball net. 

 

He watches as Reyna dresses her girlfriend in a sun hat. Bianca is busy squealing and taking photos of hermit crabs in the sand. Normally, Percy sprints off into the ocean for hours, only to come back after some thought provoking (stupid and unnecessary) quest—but he’s got his knees planted in the sand, spitting out ideas as Annabeth decides to build a sand castle. 

 

“The breeze is nice,” Jason says—which is when Nico realizes the son of Hades hasn’t left him. “Percy picked a good day to come.” 

 

“It’s his favorite day of the year,” Nico says. He shrugs nonchalantly. “You come to camp where they think you’re a bad omen for some crime you don’t know about. Where else are you going to find pride in being a son of Neptune?” 

 

“From a son of Juno, I guess.” The corner of Jason’s lips lift into a smile, while Nico feels his face tingle. 

 

“No son of Juno back then.” Nico reminds him. “Only a ten-year-old kid who had a real thing for pirates.” 

 

Jason chuckles softly. “Hook for a hand and everything?” 

 

“My disappointment is derived from somewhere, isn’t it?” Nico snorts. He peers back at Jason, who’s settled nicely on a beach towel beside him. Beneath the California sun, Jason’s pale skin lights him like a beacon. He glances back to Thalia, who like every year, is already a little pink from the heat. “You need some sunscreen?” 

 

Jason shrugs nonchalantly. “I don’t really burn anymore.” 

 

“What about the curse?” 

 

“I don’t burn because of the curse.” 

 

“Achilles took a well-aimed spear to the heel. That’s all got to go somewhere.”  

 

Nico watches as Jason mulls over the claim.

 

Then Jason touches the back of his neck. “I guess death by sunburn would be a pretty humiliating way to go.” 

 

“And I’m sure no one wants to see Thalia have a fist fight with Apollo.” Nico reaches into Thalia’s black beach bag and plucks the bottle of sunscreen beside her bottle of aloe vera. “Turn around.”

 

Jason pulls his shirt off. Despite the pale skin and quaint disposition, Jason still has the build of a fighter. From…whatever workout regiment that’s supposed to keep him grounded, away from Breath of the Wild. The muscles in his back are heightened with lines streaming across his bare skin, flexing with each movement, and concaving into a sculpted midpoint at the hem of his swim trunks. His arms are firm and rigid, arched into a set of curves and dips.

 

And…well, there was that eight-pack.

 

“Nico?”

 

Nico clears his throat and remembers to exhale. “You didn’t need to take your shirt off.”

 

Jason’s eyebrows furrow together, confused. “But we’re going swimming.”

 

“Right.” Nico’s face burns hot. He’s quick to sidestep the son of Hades and stands on the tips of his toes. “Where is it?”

 

Jason brushes the spot at the base of his neck once more, right beneath the knot of his necklace.

 

Nico lifts the necklace carefully and gives Jason a small spritz. He almost drops the can as Jason flinches and shivers.

 

“Sorry,” Jason mutters. “That’s a lot more tender than I expected.”

 

Nico’s fingers twitch. “No problem—” His voice cracks. “I’ll be gentler next time.”

 

He resists the urge to shove his face into sand, like an ostrich.

 

Luckily, Jason elects to rub the sunscreen himself. The son of Hades turns around, smile bright against his lips as Nico hands the can off. He shakes the can lightly between his fingers and makes a silly face. “Arghh.

 

Nico stares.

 

“You know—like a pirate,” Jason says. He inspects the son of Juno from head-to-toe—but then his eyes are bright as he stares Nico in the face. “You’re looking a little burned already. Want me to do you?”

 

“No—I think I can handle myself for a little bit.” Nico places his sunglasses over his face.

 

“Neeks,” Percy calls from the ocean. “Hurry up

 

Nico sprints. He can’t hit cold water fast enough.

 

*

 

They spend a good amount of time in the water, listening to seagulls and basking in beach waves. Percy denies at least two quests from sea creatures and accidentally steals the new home of a hermit crab to use it as the centerpiece for Annabeth’s sandcastle.

 

Nico tans against the sand beside Reyna, occasionally glancing in Thalia and Jason’s direction, where they’re busy looking for lost coins. There’s a way Jason squints as he focuses on trying to summon a penny. Nico hides a smile in his arm. Every once in a while, they can see Bianca jostling Jason into taking a photo of her against the white sand.

 

Reyna hums. “Who knew Jason was such a—”

 

“Instagram husband?” Nico muses.

 

She flashes a look of amusement. “And that Bianca was—”

 

“So into herself?”

 

Again, Reyna eyes him, the corner of her lips lifting. “You have that ready off the dome, Praetor di Angelo?”

 

Nico shrugs nonchalantly and flips onto his back. “Camp Halfblood never let them have electronics because it’d attract monsters. Bianca took a lot of photos on a polaroid, but she didn’t realize she could actually put them somewhere. Like, online. She loves that camera.”

 

“It’s a nice camera,” Reyna points out. “And nice photos.”

 

“They are. We’re the children of a matron goddess who elevates her own marriage for others,” Nico points out. “Bianca liking Instagram makes perfect sense.” 

 

“And Jason?” 

 

“She wouldn’t trust me to take a flattering photo of her.” 

 

Reyna laughs and nudges him in the shoulder. “Your Percy is showing.” 

 

“Percy wishes he could be me.” Nico grins as Reyna laughs again. Then he gestures to the edge of the sand where Percy has been sitting still while Annabeth recreates the Taj Mahal. A seagull has joined them, mounted perfectly beside Percy and stroking its beak. 

 

“He seems to be handling himself just fine,” Reyna says.

 

“He went on a quest, spent months on a boat, and lived a whole summer a few doors down from Annabeth,” Nico says. “You sure he’s doing fine?” 

 

Reyna eyes him. “Compared to Thalia?” 

 

Four years of skirting around Captain—then Praetor—Ramirez-Arellano, only to wait for her to come back to Camp Jupiter with another girlfriend, fall into Tartarus, and still wait until the penultimate moment before Gaea’s death to finally get together. 

 

“Say no more,” Nico says. Compared to that, Percy and Annabeth are probably moving too fast. 

 

“So, what’s stopping you?” 

 

Nico turns his head ever so slightly and meets Reyna’s gaze. There’s a knowingness to her expression—one that’s been there since they met all those years ago. Still, Nico feels his nose scrunch. 

 

“Nothing,” he says. “I’m not going anywhere.”

 

He tries to dismiss it quickly, but they spend every day together in the praetor office. Reyna’s known him since he was eleven—and while she isn’t as blasé as Percy or nosy as Bianca, she knows him. It wouldn’t have bothered him so much that she went missing for the winter otherwise.

 

So she doesn’t just drop it. Not like Bianca. She doesn’t badger him into irritation, either.  

 

Nico groans into his beach towel. He peers at the Grace siblings through his bangs. Beneath the sea breeze and ocean spray, Jason’s hair looks wavier. The way he carries himself is different than the son of Hades that he first met. There’s a light smile on his face that’s carried through most of the summer.

 

“Am I that obvious?” Nico asks quietly. Miserably. 

 

“I’ve seen the way you look at him,” Reyna says. “You don’t give that look to anyone else.” 

 

Nico sighs tiredly and buries his face into sand. With one more inhale, he glances back up and notices Thalia drag Jason to her height for a photo-op. She grins from cheek to cheek. 

 

“He’s Thalia’s brother,” he says finally. “Thalia is the reason I ever got out of that casino…but then I spent weeks blaming her for Bianca’s death. I didn’t know she was holding guilt over her mom and Jason’s death, too.”

 

“She’d be absolutely thrilled if the two of you got together.” Reyna nudges him in the arm, to keep him from being harder on himself.

 

“And she’d be stuck in the middle if it didn’t work out,” Nico refutes. He shakes his head and pushes his sunglasses above his head. “He was already caught in the middle of things when Mammina did the swap. I wasn’t exactly nice to him when we first met. Thalia took it just fine back then, but there are higher stakes at play right now.”

 

“Higher than saving the world?”

 

“Your Percy is showing,” Nico remarks halfheartedly. He nudges her back as she smiles, the looks back to the Grace siblings. His chest swells, as Thalia takes off her sunhat and shoves it onto Jason’s instead. “He’s…been in the spotlight all his life without a choice and just took it. That Great Prophecy sculpted every choice he’s ever had to make.”

 

Reyna studies him curiously, her expression shifting. “I…heard rumors when I was at Camp Halfblood. About him and the Hermes boy—”

 

“Even more reason to never want anyone knowing what’s going on in his head,” Nico remarks grimly. He pushes hair out of his face, then glances at the tattoo on his arm. The eagle tattoo sits there, still as starch and annoying as the day it magically burned into his arm. “You, Thalia, and Percy made sure I still had my privacy when I was a son of Jupiter. The last thing I wanted to do was lead an army under my dad’s name when he’s the reason we got stuck in the casino in the first place. Jason didn’t have that.”

 

“Jason had the Hermes boy,” Reyna remarks—and Nico is quick to turn around.

 

He feels his face flush scarlet as she lifts an eyebrow. Nico goes back to laying his head back in the sand. He draws a breath. Reyna reaches over and squeezes his arm.

 

“Rumors mean nothing,” she reminds him gently. “We’re a bunch of teenagers running a gossip mill, Nico. Remember the month people swore Don the Faun was going to be Thalia’s replacement?”

 

 “I’m pretty sure that rumor started with Percy and ended with goat.

 

“You did a good job with that one.” Reyna squeezes his shoulder once more.  “The only thing that matters is what comes out of Jason’s mouth. Rumors don’t mean anything.”

 

Nico sighs into her warmth. He sticks a finger into sand and flicks it around.

 

if,” he says slowly, “I told Jason that I…I like him more than a friend, it’s just going to change things too much. It’ll trouble him. He’d go out of his way not to hurt my feelings.”

 

“From what I’ve seen he’s very considerate about other people’s feelings,” Reyna agrees. “It’s an admirable quality.”

 

“Not when he’s been a doormat to Olympus all his life,” Nico says wryly. He shakes his head and rubs his tattooed arm. Maybe more than he needs to. “I like where we’re at, which is where Thalia probably wishes we started. There’s no reason to rock the boat.”

 

“What makes you think he doesn’t like you back?”

 

“Because he doesn’t.”

 

“Really?” Reyna arches an eyebrow and pushes a bottle of water in his direction. “He takes you instead of his best friend or sister to Camp Halfblood for his birthday and talks about you nonstop, and you don’t think he likes you?”

 

“He’s just like that.” Nico waves his hand dismissively and rubs his temples. “He…also spent the night before his birthday telling me his heart’s down in the Fields of Punishment.”

 

He decides not to look up for Reyna’s reaction.

 

“Oh,” she says. “Ouch.”

 

“Yeah,” Nico agrees quietly. More enviously than he wants. He stops rubbing his tattoo when it reddens. Nico presses a chilled water bottle to his forehead. “It’s just a dumb crush, Reyna. It’ll pass.”

 

“How’s it working out for you so far?”

 

Nico snorts. He pushes wet hair from his forehead and props a cheek to the hand. “It’s a horrible work-in-progress, but I’ll manage. I don’t need anyone to hold my hand.”

 

“Really—?”

 

“Please,” Nico interjects. He lifts a hand and pinches the bridge of his nose. “There’s nothing important about how we hold hands. We just did that a lot while getting the statue to Halfblood. It’s a reflex at this point.”

 

Reyna stares at him again.

 

“Now your Percy’s really showing,” Nico grumbles.

 

“No,” Reyna says. She gestures to Annabeth and their resident son of Neptune, who is currently manipulating water currents to help build Annabeth’s moat. “I think that honor still belongs to you.”

 

Nico sighs. He considers burying his face in sand again. “Has Thalia noticed?”

 

“If she has, then she hasn’t mentioned it to me,” Reyna promises. She touches Nico on the shoulder gently. “She values her relationship and what you talk about with her the same way I do. You know you can come to her for anything.”

 

“Not with this one,” Nico mutters. “I’m going to get over it, Reyna.”

 

Reyna studies him carefully. Then she leans over and wraps an arm around his shoulders. “I’ll tap in the next time Percy stirs trouble. I don’t think Sally made it to the kindergarten stories at dinner the other night.”

 

Nico laughs quietly. He kisses her on the cheek and leans into her tiredly. “You’re the best.”

 

Really—an afternoon on the beach with his three favorite people, his big sister, and their friends. Nico doesn’t want anything to ruin it.

 

*

 

“Hey.”

 

Nico glances up.

 

Jason’s hair is wet and wiry, darkened to the color of beach sand. He’s no darker than when they first arrived, but he smiles with a vivacity carried by everyone else.

 

“Hey,” Nico says, when he remembers to reply.

 

Jason eases into a wider smile and grabs his beach towel beside Nico. He accidentally knocks over Nico’s water bottle. “Sorry—did I get you wet?”

 

“Wet,” Nico repeats, “at a beach. I’ve never been so offended.”

 

Jason laughs gently. Nico feels his own chest swell at the sound. He opens his mouth to speak again—

 

“Nico—did you remember to reapply? Did you remember behind the ears, too? You’re looking a little pink.” —and Bianca hovers close with a bottle of sunscreen in hand.

 

Nico bites back a groan and resists the urge to roll his eyes. “I’m fine, sis.”

 

Bianca frowns at him, looking very much like their mother in demeanor. “You’re going to get skin cancer.”

 

“I’m tanning. I’m making up for a summer spent indoors.”

 

She glares at him beneath her straw hat and flowy swimsuit coverup. Bianca lets her camera hang at her neck, then quickly shoves a baseball cap over an unassuming Jason’s head. “Jace, tell my little brother he’s too young to look like a shriveled prune.”

 

“Oh,” Jason says, readjusting the hat over his head. He looks between the two of them, suddenly looking less settled. “Um—”

 

“I’m almost a hundred,” Nico retorts.

 

“And you’re senile already if you think you should be sitting out here without sunscreen,” Bianca remarks. She waggles a finger in his face, while Nico tries not to bury his head in his hands from embarrassment.

 

Luckily, Jason changes the subject. “Is…that Piper over there?”

 

Nico doesn’t think he’s ever seen his sister blanch so quickly. She turns her head in the same direction.

 

“Oh,” Bianca says. “Yeah, that looks like her.”

 

Sure enough, Piper McLean is recognizable from far away with her choppy brown hair. She’s dressed in a wetsuit, with a surfboard under her arm. Nico doubts he would have noticed—but even when covered head-to-toe, the daughter of Aphrodite garners looks from other beachgoers. Likely to her disdain.

 

Bianca immediately hops over Jason’s shoulder and hides behind his frame. Jason yelps. “Bee—”

 

“I’m not here,” Bianca hisses.

 

“—I’m really not sure you can get away with this a second time,” Jason finishes.

 

“A second time?” Nico repeats. An eyebrow darts into the air, and he watches as his sister tries to make herself as small as possible.

 

Jason, despite towering over both of them, jostles easily under Bianca’s grip. He smiles awkwardly while Bianca cowers. He opens his mouth to speak.

 

“None of your business,” Bianca interjects hastily.

 

Jason closes his mouth. He looks between the di Angelo siblings while Nico tries his best not to stare at Bianca like she’s grown a second head.

 

“You should go talk to her,” Jason says politely. “You were mentioning wanting more friends.”

 

Bianca looks scandalized. She sits at her knees grabs him by the arm. “Not her.

 

“Why not?” Nico frowns. “I like Piper.”

 

His sister looks ready to bury her head in sand, which is the closest they’ve come to being related.

 

“Is it because I like Piper?” he asks dryly.

 

No,” Bianca says hastily. “I called her a misogynist after she made fun of my dresses.”

 

Nico looks over to Jason for an explanation—who has since settled into Bianca fiddling behind him.

 

“Actually,” Jason says, “I think she called your dresses cool.”

 

“Why?” Nico asks disbelievingly.

 

“And she wanted to take you out on a date,” Jason continues.

 

Again, Nico asks—“Why?”

 

Bianca all but kicks sand in Nico’s direction. She’s too busy staring dreadfully at her best friend. “Why are you doing this?”

 

“Because…I support your happiness?” Jason answers. Semi-asks.

 

“Something we agree on,” Nico says. He doesn’t miss the way Jason’s face seems to lift with a smile. Before Bianca can protest, Nico stands to his feet and cups hands around his mouth. “PIPER!”

 

The daughter of Aphrodite looks over the instant her name is called, hand above her eyes. Her posture straightens as she recognizes them from afar, and she waves. Bianca squeaks.

 

“She looks like she’s alone,” Jason says. “You should see if she wants to join us.”

 

“I don’t even know what to say to her,” Bianca points out.

 

Nico snorts, then picks up the bottle of sunscreen from his sister’s purse. “Go see if she needs to reapply.”

 

Bianca gives him a withering stare. “Nico, I’m going to—”

 

“Hey,” Piper greets. She comes to their fort of blankets, surfboard in hand, and smiles at them amicably. Piper turns and waves pleasantly to Nico. “Hi, Nico.”

 

“Hey, Piper,” Nico greets in return. He grabs Jason by the hand and begins to drag him elsewhere. “Bye, Piper.”

 

He drags Jason until they’re knee-deep in water. They watch from afar, from Bianca’s tense body language and Piper casually holding onto her board. Bianca gestures wildly with her hands, with the bottle of sunscreen still between her fingers. Nico startles as Jason swings their hands, reminding him they’re still interlocked.

 

“What do you think they’re saying?” Jason asks curiously.

 

Nico wrinkles his nose. Then, in a halfhearted impersonation—“What do you mean a bikini is sexist? Back in my day, being able to show above the knee was liberating.

 

Jason stares at him in disbelief. “I forgot how good that was.”

 

Nico grins. “You remember my game collection but not my flawless impersonation of my sister?”

 

“Guilty,” Jason says. He smiles sheepishly. “Guess we should fix that.”

 

Nico pauses. “Yeah. I mean—we could.”

 

It’s only been a few days since the centurions returned to Camp Jupiter, but the workload has already lightened. Reyna and he don’t have to micromanage cohorts filled with Romans and Greeks. Tensions have lightened in the months following the war—even if by a subtle margin. The Fifth Cohort was ecstatic to have Percy back, alongside Dakota.

 

A crevasse suddenly appears between them. A tendril of water yanks at Nico’s other hand while another pushes Jason meters away.

 

Jason blinks. “Um—”

 

“Volleyball time,” Percy cheers. He appears out of nowhere, lips split into a warm grin.

 

Nico shakes his drenched hand. It’s quickly filled with a volleyball, while Percy excitedly gathers the rest of their small group. He rolls his eyes as Percy gives him a look.  “There’s only seven of us. We’ll need an eighth for volleyball.”

 

“No problem,” Percy reassures. “Grace can sit out.”

 

Before he can help himself, Nico glares at the son of Neptune. Percy shrugs innocently.

 

Jason pushes wet hair out of his face. He recovers from the ocean floor and smiles.  “I’d be happy to sit out if you feel like you can’t win, Percy.”

 

Percy stares at Jason for a long time. And stares. He opens his mouth to speak—

 

Percy,” Nico warns warily.

 

“—aren’t you, like, retired?” Percy asks. He spins the volleyball between his hands, eyebrow arched suspiciously. “You know—rice pudding, bedtime at 4PM, teeth in a cup—retired? Like Bianca and Nico.”

 

Nico stares at the son of Neptune despairingly. He knows he’s not the only one. Slowly, everyone else turn to soak in Jason’s reaction.

 

“4:45, actually,” Jason supplies helpfully. “Rice pudding can take a while to thicken.”

 

Nico stifles a laugh in his hand. He doesn’t miss the way Jason eases into a smile.

 

“I don’t fight,” Jason agrees. “But—Camp Halfblood is a summer camp. We played volleyball a few times.”

 

“It was good for honing reflexes,” Annabeth explains. There’s an amusement to her smile as she nudges her best friend.

 

“The Romans have Death Ball,” Reyna interjects. “Also good for reflexes.”

 

For the first time since the construction of the Argo II, Percy actually looks impressed by one Jason Grace. The corner of his lip twitches, and the son of Neptune sizes Jason up.

 

“Okay,” Percy agrees warily. “So we’ll need an eighth.”

 

Nico and Jason glance at each other. He almost jumps at how quickly Jason returns his gaze—but then they look back to Bianca and Piper.

 

*

 

They set up the volleyball court with ease. Thalia draws lines in the sand with a gold bar she found on a stroll. She’s stained red from head-to-toe—but only grins when Reyna offers her more sunscreen.

 

“Mind reapplying for me?” Jason asks, snapping Nico out of his thoughts.

 

“Sure.” Nico’s careful this time as he spritzes Jason’s neck. Jason still jumps from the sudden change in temperature—but Nico expects it this time. He averts his eyes as Jason rubs it in.

 

Then Jason smiles at him. “Team?”

 

Nico grins.

 

“Neeks and I usually team up,” Percy interjects.

 

“Oh.” Jason blinks—but then looks over to Annabeth. “You…need a teammate, Beth?”

 

“She’s on my team,” Percy insists. Nico resists the urge to smack him.

 

“So I guess Jason’s on our team,” Annabeth concludes—and she beams while Percy emphatically rolls his eyes.

 

Nico yanks Percy by the arm, so hard that Percy almost yowls. He stares at the son of Neptune warily, gaze narrowed, as Jason and Annabeth busy themselves on the other side of their court.  “Will you please be nice to Jason?”

 

Percy shrugs nonchalantly. “I’m just keeping you in check.”

 

The irritation bubbles in Nico’s stomach. “I don’t—”

 

“Percy,” Reyna interjects.

 

They both turn around, and Percy is met with a volleyball to the face. Nico bites back a laugh while Percy falls to the ground.

 

“Stay focused,” Reyna calls from the other side of the net sternly. “I taught you better than that.”

 

Piper, Reyna, Thalia, and Bianca against Nico, Percy, Jason, and Annabeth. Nico watches as Reyna peeps warily at her ex-girlfriend—but Piper seems far more fascinated by Bianca. A few moments of awkward introductions later, and Bianca and Piper seem to be on better terms. Nico watches as Bianca nervously waves her hands and smiles.

 

Gods. He’s glad not to be in a situation like that.

 

“So your dad’s shooting a new film around here?” Reyna asks. Piper nods and rolls her eyes.

 

“He gets to film on location, and I get to enjoy the beach,” Piper says. Pointedly, she adds, “By myself.”

 

“How’s that working out for you so far?” Nico muses from the other side of the net.

 

The daughter of Aphrodite stares at him. The corners of her lips lift into a smirk. “I’ll let you know when we win.”

 

To the surprise of everyone, Thalia is the one who erupts in a laugh. She claps a hand to Piper’s back and grins. “Let’s see you put your money where your mouth is, McLean.”

 

Once that’s settled in, everyone finds footing in the sand. Nico makes note of Jason to the left of him, and Annabeth and Percy behind. There’s a grin to Percy’s face, giddy and boyish from a semi-casual volleyball game. After months with the son of Neptune as company, Annabeth looks more than ready to trade Capture the Flag for a different sport. Nico glances at Jason from the corner of his eye and feels his cheeks tingle as Jason smiles back at him.

 

“Remember,” Thalia iterates sternly. She looks at Percy. “The winner gets ice cream. Don’t ask Nico to buy you cookies and cream when you lose, Jackson.”

 

“Cocky for a girl with a losing streak,” Percy taunts.

 

“Is this going to end as bloody as Slap on my birthday?” Jason asks.

 

“No,” Nico promises. “Bloodier.”

 

He hides a smile at how Jason says his birthday instead of the anniversary of Luke’s death.

 

Annabeth tosses the ball in the air. Percy sprints towards the ball—“OW!”—and immediately trips over a gold nugget wedged into the sand. The ball lands beside him with a light plop.

 

Piper, Bianca, Jason, and Annabeth stare at him, puzzled. Nico only rolls his eyes.

 

“You can’t talk trash and lose the first point, Percy,” he berates. “You’re making me look bad.”

 

“Oh,” Jason says. “That kind of game.”

 

Percy rolls onto his back. His face scrunches into a pout—then he looks over to Jason daringly. “Don’t tell me you can’t keep up.”

 

“So far only one of you has faceplanted,” Nico points out. “I’m not impressed.”

 

“Sounds like it’s going to get bloodier than Slap alright,” he hears Annabeth mutter to Jason.

 

Nico’s ears bristle pink—but Jason splits into a grin in contrast.

 

The son of Hades reaches out and helps Percy back to his feet. “We’ll call that a warmup round.”

 

“No, baby brother,” Thalia reassures, “that point definitely still counts for our side.”

 

They agree to play until one team reaches fifteen. Piper, Bianca, Jason, and Annabeth—the Greek demigods—seem to pick up the game quickly.

 

Anything goes. Annabeth is intelligent and analytical, noting the ticks in their opponents—like how Thalia focuses on curbing Percy, and Reyna starts her charge for the ball with her left leg. Percy causes tremors to the beach that alarms mortal beachgoers—which trips all but Bianca, who hovers above sand and spikes the ball to their side.

 

Jason—

 

“I got it—”

 

“Oof!”

 

—dives for the ball when Nico does. They slam straight into each other.  Nico almost topples from Jason reaching for the ball—but feels an arm catch him instead. Jason reaches out, one arm wrapped fully around Nico before the son of Juno can plummet.

 

Jason stares at him, puzzled. “Are you—?”

 

The ball,” Nico says sharply—quickly—as the ball skirts Percy’s tap.

 

Jason’s head jerks towards the volleyball without a second thought—and a cold chill courses through Nico. A skeleton pokes its head from the ground and headbutts the ball towards the air. Annabeth is quick to recover to and slap the ball to the other side. Percy woops—while no one from the other team manages to recover.

 

“You okay?” Jason asks. His cheeks bloom pink, eyes flashing with concern. “Sorry—I wasn’t looking.”

 

“I’m—fine,” Nico says, when he finds his words. He tries not to stare too much. “Nice—” Abs. “—reflexes.”

 

“Foul play!” Bianca combs her hands against the volleyball net and pouts. “It’s four against four! You can’t add an extra teammate!”

 

“Are you kidding me?” Nico pushes out of Jason’s arms and eyes his sister angrily. “Jason’s using his absets!”

 

“Assets?” Reyna muses.

 

“I said that.” Nico’s cheeks blister with heat.

 

“Hey—you wanna count Grace’s new best friend as a teammate, then the same goes for Thalia’s little nugget friend that I tripped over earlier,” Percy retorts behind Nico. “Fair is fair, and fair is fair!”

 

“That’s fair is foul and foul is fair,” Bianca corrects. She places her hands on her hips and glares.

 

“Thanks Percy,” Jason says. “I didn’t know you cared.”

 

Percy waves his hand dismissively. “I care about a point when we’re one away from winning, Grace.”

 

Nico tries his best not to have his eyes roll to the back of his head. He stares Thalia and Reyna expectantly, who shrug.

 

“I can try other things,” Jason says. He raises a hand before Percy and Bianca can bite each other’s heads off.

 

“The point counts,” Percy insists. “You can’t knock a guy for using his powers! That’s like me telling Annabeth to stop being super smart or Reyna to stop kicking my ass.”

 

Nico bites back a laugh behind his palm and looks over to Jason—who looks every bit amused by Percy’s candor.

 

Bianca stares at Percy in disdain—then shakes her head. “Look, Jace—”

 

Hey—” Piper steps between the pair, exasperation on her face. Nico feels the butterflies clouding his head—but notices Percy and Bianca look even more taken. “—zip it.

 

Immediately, Bianca’s hand flies to her mouth. Percy accidentally smacks himself trying to get a hand to his face. Nico looks to Jason out of reflex—who wrinkles his nose and rubs his forehead.

 

“We’ll get that point back, di Angelo,” Piper promises. She winks and plays the volleyball in Bianca’s hand. “Just worry about serving.”

 

At first, Bianca flusters under Piper’s gaze. She falters at Piper’s wink, her fingers curling over the rivets of the ball—then glows red as Piper whispers into her ear.

 

Everyone reforms on either side of the net. Nico is mindful of Jason’s position this time—but he watches, as Bianca takes an irregular step from her previous serves. She tosses the ball upward—then shoots into the air and spikes it with enough force to carry a gale.

 

“My ball!” Percy sprints towards the volleyball. He yelps as it makes contact with his wrist. Nico can practically see how much force Bianca put into her serve—and can only guess what Piper charmspoke his sister to do. She’s certainly making use of her assets.

 

The ball ricochets off of Percy, pivoting left towards Annabeth. Annabeth pushes the ball back into the air. “Jace!”

 

Jason hits the ball to the other side. Reyna is quick to send it back, forward in stance as the ball meets her hand.

 

“I got it!” Nico blasts the ball with a gust of wind, pushing it higher into the air and slams it to the other side.

 

Thalia blocks with a wall of limestone. It erupts from the ground with a swift gesture—and whistles past Nico’s head.

 

Annabeth dives for the ball.

 

“Hey,” Piper calls through the noise of the game. “What’s over there?

 

Instantly, Percy, Annabeth, Jason glance leftward. Nico pulls on Jason’s arm before he can help himself. “Jason! The ball!”

 

That snaps Jason out of it. He comes out of the haze, his irises a marbled black, and glances towards the ball again. This time, instead of headbutting it with a skeleton, his shadow stretches the width the volleyball court. Nico almost dies watching the ball land—but it dissolves straight into the abyss instead.

 

Percy and Annabeth snap out of their charmspeak, stunned.

 

“NO!” Piper shouts. The ball remerges soundlessly in her shadow, and plops before she or any of her teammates can recover.

 

15-14.

 

“That hit the ground,” Reyna protests. “That can’t count.”

 

“You can’t prove that,” Nico refutes. “There was definitely more shadow than sand in that serve.”

 

She rolls her eyes, as though lamenting over Big Three demigods—but drops her shoulders in defeat.

 

Thalia dispels the giant wall of limestone and grins at her brother. “You know what this means, right?”

 

Jason’s quick to follow his big sister with his own smile. “Rematch?”

 

She nods emphatically. “Rematch!”

 

*

 

The sun is at the edge of the sky by the time they finish their last round. They take one last gander in the ocean before packing everything back into the SUV. Everyone agrees to dinner only a mile from the beach. Piper charms another beachgoer to steal their parking spot. Getting everyone to agree to dinner is the easy part. Having eight ADHD demigods stand still long enough to pick a restaurant proves harder.

 

It starts with Thalia and Reyna. Thalia points out a luxurious restaurant with an eight-course dinner, seated for two at a table.

 

“I…think that restaurant might be too couple-y.” Jason eyebrows knit together. He and Nico exchange funny looks.

 

“What’s wrong with that?” Thalia turns and gestures to the menu. “They’re serving fresh lobster.”

 

“I don’t think I’m up for being one of six third wheels for you and your girlfriend, Thal,” Percy remarks.

 

Thalia stares at the son of Neptune up and down, undeterred. “That sounds more like a personal problem.”

 

“I’d rather not have to fight over a heart-shaped dessert with Percy,” Nico admits tiredly.

 

The corner of Reyna’s lips lifts into a smile, and she gestures to Percy and Annabeth, who are immediately distracted by something else out of earshot. “You think you can detach them?”

 

“You think Percy would let me sit by anyone else?” Nico asks tiredly. He jerks his head to Jason—who perks at the gesture.

 

“Let’s just meet up afterwards,” Jason says. “I’m not sure I could finish off eight courses anyway.”

 

“Fine—but you’re missing out on premium seafood.” Thalia holds onto Reyna’s hand, and they disappear into the restaurant as two of the youngest attendees.

 

Piper perks at the sight of an all-vegan restaurant only a few doors down. She excitedly asks if Bianca wants to split a meal—and charmspoken or not, Nico’s sister willingly follows her inside. Annabeth drags Percy aside for a Cajun seafood restaurant with crazy colors and funky architecture.

 

‘Which one of these restaurants do you think is a trap?” Jason muses, when it comes down to the two of them.

 

“Definitely Percy’s,” Nico remarks, as the rest of their party scampers off. “Though all of the above is usually a pretty good answer, too.”

 

Jason laughs. It’s only then that Nico realizes they’ve been left alone.  The boardwalk is bustling with people, but it’s the only sound Nico takes in. No Percy to worm his way between them. No Bianca to give them odd looks—or Reyna to lift an eyebrow in their direction. Nico’s hoping to delay the day Thalia starts giving him that look, too.

 

They opt to split a large carton of seafood nachos and make their way down the pier—where the crowd of people becomes a few fishermen at the edge of the dock.

 

“Can’t believe we waited this long to go to the beach.” Jason remarks. He reaches to their carton and chomps on two chips.  

 

“Percy will find a way to put it on the calendar, even if the rest of the world has been blown into oblivion,” Nico says. He shrugs. “I think being on the west coast makes him feel close to both his parents. They met out here.”

 

“Must be nice.” Jason hums and leans against the guardrail. 

 

Nico shrugs. “It’s definitely one of the happier love stories with a better ending. Neptune even sent dolphins to Sally and Paul’s wedding.”

 

The corners of Jason’s lips raise into a smile. “Glad to see someone got the better end of that deal.”

 

“Percy’s named after the one Greek hero that had a happy ending,” Nico says. He flashes a wry look and plops another nacho in his mouth. “A son of Zeus. I don’t think Dad’s had a happy child in ages.”

 

“What happened to calling him a sperm donor?”

 

Nico shrugs. “It comes and goes.”

 

Jason laughs again. “My mom liked the name Jason. Not for the Argonauts—that guy died by—”

 

“Promising to love Medea forever before getting crushed by the weight of his own ship.”

 

“Uh, yeah.” Jason stares at him quizzically, one eyebrow arched in the air—and Nico’s cheeks stain red. “You knew that right off the dome?”  

 

Nico plucks another nacho from their carton and shrugs. “I used to be really into the stories.”

 

“Used to?”

 

“When I could read about Greek and Roman heroes on the back of a Mythomagic card and not have it apply to my life.” Nico shakes his head with disdain and rolls his eyes in exasperation. “Jason was one of those heroes. Favored by my mom, too.”

 

“I…don’t think we have that in common.” Jason smiles sheepishly and rubs his forehead. “Last time I saw your mom, she told me I needed a haircut and some sun.”

 

“She doesn’t always know what’s good for her.” Nico shakes his head dismissively. “That Jason also died sad and alone. It’s probably best you don’t have a lot in common with him.”

 

There’s a beat, where Jason doesn’t answer right away. Then—“Yeah, I guess you’re right. I’m happy and in good company.”

                                                                                                                   

Nico glances in the other demigod’s direction and finds Jason smiling.  It’s unbridled and relaxed against his lips. His necklace shines at his collarbone—lacking of the bead both Annabeth and Percy earned at the end of the summer in Camp Halfblood. It’s proof of the months of his life past the war. Jason is handsome when he smiles, with his short hair wavy from the ocean water.

 

Red creeps across Nico’s cheeks again.

 

“I—” He starts. Stops. “Yeah. Me too.”

 

He absently reaches for a chip—and startles, as Jason reaches for one too. There’s a featheriness to the way Jason grazes his knuckles. Nico’s heart skitters as they glance back at each other.

 

To his surprise, Jason reaches out with his other hand. He brings it close to Nico’s face. Hesitates. “May I…?”

 

Nico’s heart suddenly somersaults in his chest. “May you what?”

 

Jason’s eyes are as dark as the evening sky, with the same twinkle of every star. Nico holds his breath, following Jason’s sight.

 

The son of Hades leans close—closer than he should—then he settles, just a hair away from Nico’s proximity. “You have sand in your hair. Can I get it?”

 

Oh.

 

Nico clears his throat. “I—” Shouldn’t feel so disappointed. “—yeah, go for it.”

 

He lowers his head and tries not to focus on how close Jason is. Jason’s fingers brush against his hair gently, and he suddenly looks even more content than before. There’s even an airy chuckle above Nico’s bangs as grains of sand fall from the crown of his head.

 

“It’s been bothering me since we left the beach,” Jason whispers warmly. “Weird, huh?”

 

Nico twitches. He inches back slowly and feels his face flush scarlet. Hopes Jason doesn’t notice. “Must’ve been when I faceplanted getting the ball.”

 

“Didn’t realize you Romans could get more competitive than the War Games.” Jason finally inches back to his own side of the guard rail, a look of satisfaction across his face. “Pretty fun though. I’m sure Percy will appreciate the ice cream.”

 

“He certainly appreciated the smacktalk.” Nico fiddles with the edge of the guardrail, still flustered. He tries to focus on their game earlier. “Where did that come from?”

 

Again, Jason laughs. It’s a sound Nico normally enjoys—but his heart is still trying to find a calm. “Dunno. Life’s been pretty relaxing since moving to New Rome. Guess I just wanted to see how he’d react.”

 

“Keep it up. It’s a good look on you.” Even if it makes Nico’s heart rattle against his ribcage. The more he demands it to stop, the faster it seems to beat. “With or without a haircut, pasty skin and all.”

 

Another chuckle flutters from Jason’s lips. He touches his hair again, clearly musing a thought—but he hasn’t reached for his neck once. Nico doesn’t think he’s seen Jason look more at ease since they’ve met.

 

Then—because of Nico’s rotten luck, three things happen.

 

One—as they finish up the last of their nachos and ready themselves to find their friends, a crab scuttles across the guardrail. Nico wouldn’t think much of it—especially on a day off—but this one seems to stare at them pointedly, clacking its claws together as it foams at the mouth. It chatters in a way Nico’s heard from birds.

 

“Oh,” Jason says with surprise. “Kind of weird to see one of these so far off the coast, don’t you think?”

 

“Yes,” Nico agrees slowly, his gaze narrowing warily. He looks over to Jason, who flashes the same doubtful look. “But we’re having a day off.”

 

“Yeah, but—does this one seem like it’s singing?” Jason reaches for the crab, and it immediately snaps a claw at him aggressively. “Crabby little thing, isn’t it?”

 

Nico stares at Jason—who smiles.

 

“Um. No pun intended.”

 

“Maybe it’s more into a solo performance,” Nico muses wryly. He reaches for the crab, which waves its arms like a Broadway performer, foaming more from its chest and stomach. Then, Nico reaches to guide Jason out before the son of Hades can lose a finger. “Maybe we should—”

 

“Hey, Neeks!”

 

Second—Percy and Annabeth appear. Just as Nico’s reaching for Jason’s hand and the crab is singing a passionate melody of…whatever.

 

There you are. You two missed these awesome po…” Percy, of course, catches sight of the two of them together, and has the most exasperated look on his face. “Am I interrupting something?”

 

“No, not at all.” Nico glares at the son of Neptune, in a desperate demand for him to can it.

 

“This crab is…doing something weird,” Jason admits. He looks to Percy, oblivious to Nico’s irritation. “Can you tell what it’s saying?”

 

Percy makes another face—though he’s clearly as tentative as he was earlier in the day.

 

“This thing’s just belching about monsters,” Percy says dismissively. He reaches for the crab, which seems to stretch its claws for the son of Neptune’s embrace. “He’s probably too far from his own. Like—super far. He’s got an accent.”

 

“Crabs have accents?” Annabeth arches an eyebrow, amused.

 

“If birds can have accents, so can crabs.” Percy gestures to Nico knowingly, as though settling the debate—then gently tosses the crab back in the ocean. “Don’t worry about it. We’re on vacation.”

 

Third—because all things happen in threes—the boardwalk begins to tremble. The sounds of ocean water meeting the coast suddenly ceases—and the sky blackens into nothing. A sharp pulse shoots through the length of the pier and jolts through Nico like a lightning bolt. He grabs the closest thing to support, which just happens to be Jason. 

 

ZZZZZZZZZZT!

 

“I think we might need to worry about it,” Annabeth says dryly. She yelps as she stumbles into Percy’s arms, who shakes his head vehemently. 

 

“No way. Totally separate,” he insists. “That crab was singing nonsense!” 

 

“Your dad having indigestion again?” Nico asks. 

 

Jason makes a noise. “Wait—you’re serious?”

 

The fishermen are gone. Whether a coincidence or not, Nico isn’t sure. The ocean below them across the ocean air, before the sea begins to spin in a vortex.

 

WHOOOOOOOOOSH!

 

“Starting to think chucking a questionable crab might’ve been one of your worse ideas, Kelp Head,” Annabeth shouts.

 

Percy makes a noise. There’s a gleam as he uncaps Riptide, and he keeps himself steady with Annabeth at his side. “Look, if I had a nickel for every crab I’ve chucked back into the ocean coming to bite me in the ass—”

 

“You’d be as rich as Thalia,” Nico snaps with deadpan. “Now help me get rid of this thing!”

 

Through the flurry of howling winds and screeching ocean, Percy nods in agreement. Nico detaches himself from Jason’s side and summons a counterwind. Percy waves both hands, forcing the whirlpool to spin in the opposite direction. The winds deafen Nico’s ears. They spill past his hands, bristling against his hair as it pushes back against the violent current caused by some serenading crab.

 

Then it stops.

 

The ocean water comes to an unnatural calm, reflecting the moon off its surface. There isn’t a sound—not even a ship off the coast.

 

Fangs break through the surface tension of the water. A six-foot head rises from the ocean, with a long cantankerous body of a sea serpent, stretches from the water and raises towards the horizon. Four eyes larger than Nico’s head narrows at all of them before the beast lets out a blood-curdling scream.

 

SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEECH

 

“Look out!” Percy immediately yanks Nico back to join Annabeth. Jason isn’t so lucky.

 

The monstrous sea serpent thrashes about, carrying the water with it, and splits the pier in two—throwing Jason straight into the water.

 

*

 

The sea serpent rips through the air with a loud croon—then dives back into the water with a scaly arch.

 

JASON!” Nico launches towards the water—only to be yanked back by his centurion.

 

Hello, Neeks,” Percy says, “water’s my department. Let’s not get carried away and lose two demigods!”

 

The anger broils from Nico’s ears. He gestures emphatically at the crumbled dock in front of them. “You didn’t think to grab him too?!”

 

Percy stares at him, puzzled—but is quick to recover. He gestures to the ocean. “Sorry, I only have two hands.

 

“I can fly!”

 

“He’s, like, indestructible!”

 

Nico seethes, his hands curling into fists as he inches towards the ledge. “Somehow I don’t think that extends to drowning, Percy.”

 

Annabeth quickly wedges herself between the both of them. “The torrent stopped.”

 

“Yeah. Because Nico and I stopped it by magically getting along,” Percy grumbles. “Who knew that’d be a freaking feat these days—”

 

She clamps a hand over his mouth, and gestures down below. “Calm down and look.”

 

Sure enough, Percy relinquishes his irritation towards Nico. They both follow Annabeth’s line of sight—to find one pale blond head peeping above the water. Jason looks up at them tiredly, sopping wet. He waves.

 

Nico can’t help his sigh of relief. He’s amazed how it flows through his entire body.

 

“Jace!” Annabeth shouts below. “You okay?”

 

Nico doesn’t understand how—but Jason manages to muster a smile in his direction.  He wades in the water against one arm and gives a thumb up with the other.

 

“Sorry, man,” Percy shouts, following Annabeth’s cadence. “Need a lift?”

 

“I’ll be down in a sec,” Nico promises. He collects the winds at his feet. Nico wants to wrangle Percy for grabbing his arm again.

 

“Dude,” Percy says. “Let me get down there.”

 

Nico tries to stifle the frustration bubbling in his chest. Tries. “You need to stop this weird thing you have with Jason.”

 

Percy stares at him in disbelief. “What weird thing?”

 

“Percy—come on.” Annabeth actually places a hand between them, her eyes narrowing with exasperation. “Even I know about the weird thing.”

 

“Guys?” Jason suddenly calls from below, “I think you’re going to want to see this one.”

 

Against all frustration, Nico exchanges a look with his Fifth Cohort centurion. Percy passes a huffy look—but like most mythological scenarios, simply extends an arm for him. They plop from what’s remaining from the pier into the water. Jason wades around in the calm of the storm, unharmed.

 

Annabeth swims over and inspects him. “You okay, Jace?”

 

“Yeah—just a little waterlogged.” Jason flashes a tired look and tilts his head. He gestures below the surface. “We need to go below.”

 

Nico stares at the son of Hades.

 

Percy asks the question for him. “You want to go after the sea monster—”

 

“Trojan Sea Monster,” Jason corrects. He rubs his forehead.

 

“—the Trojan Sea Monster who snapped the pier in two and took you with him,” Nico finishes. He can’t withhold his disbelief a second time.

 

“Her, actually,” Jason says—and then he looks to Percy. “I can’t stay down there too long. Any way you can help with that?”

 

The water vibrates around them. Nico shivers as it creeps up his spine and wrinkles his nose.

 

Percy flashes another exasperated look—but nods. Not before ranting, “Just once, I’d like to have one of these beach days actually go as planned.”

 

“It could have been worse,” Annabeth points out. She flashes a dry look. “We could have brought eight demigods to the boardwalk and thrown one demonic crab at the Trojan Sea Monster.”

 

“Hey—that crab was completely unrelated,” Percy retorts. “It was literally just singing K—”

 

“Guys?” Nico interjects. “Jason’s request?”

 

Percy looks back at the both of them. Jason looks torn between amusement and uncertainty. Finally, Percy heaves a sigh and wades into the center, Riptide still in fist. “Yeah. Let me make a bubble.”

 

Seafoam flutters around them. Nico doesn’t realize how long it’s been since he’s quested with Percy until they’re covered in an orb of oxygen. They sink below the ocean water with a quiet sigh from Jason that makes Nico’s skin crawl. He pushes aside the panic he felt when Jason fell—knowing it’s been a long time since he’s felt that dread too. A buzzing whistle between Nico’s ears.

 

The sea serpent—Trojan Sea Monster—as Jason corrected them, howls and vibrates ocean water around it as it swims around the ocean floor. Each wail bounces off their bubble—and this time, Jason purposefully reaches out and latches onto Nico.

 

“Listen,” he says.

 

There’s a way the sea monster’s voice pulses and howls like the crab before it. Then—Nico finally hears it—THEY’RE COMING! THEY’RE COMING! OOOHHH THE GODS!

 

“That could mean anything,” Percy grumbles.

 

“Trojan Sea Monster, ma’am?” Jason shouts. If the situation didn’t feel dire, Nico could’ve laughed. Any other demigod getting smacked into the ocean would’ve drowned immediately—and here Jason was, still very formal in the eyes of danger. “How close together are the contractions?”

 

Contractions. Nico freezes.

 

As soon as that’s out in the open, Nico can distinguish the wails—the pained cries of a soon-to-be mother twisting as she combats labor. As clear as day, the Trojan Sea Monster’s stomach protrudes out more than the rest of her, pummeling and wriggling for freedom.

 

The Trojan Sea Monster sobs in pain, twisting and writhing like a lone spaghetti noodle. Years? Months? Seconds?

 

“How on Gaea did you figure out she was pregnant?” Nico hisses.

 

Jason shrugs. “Some…individual threw a wailing sea crab at her while she was trying to sleep off contractions.”

 

Percy makes a noise behind them. He’s quick to clamp a hand against his mouth.

 

“The screams just sound different. There’s a serpent that lives in the canoe lake in Camp Halfblood.” Jason doesn’t look the least bit alarmed. “Eventually you figure out that I want Diet Pepsi and I’m in the mood to kill are two different tones.”

 

Nico stares at the son of Hades in dismay. Then he turns to Annabeth for a further explanation—but she only nods like the day Nico explained Laistrygonian giants weren’t evil. Even if they were estranged at one point, Jason’s propensity for monsters only grew with age.

 

“The sea’s your domain,” Jason continues—and he turns Percy. “You hear it, don’t you?”

 

“Yeah—of course,” Percy mutters. He cups his hands over his mouth. “Trojan Sea Monster? Cetus Troi? Uh…can I call you Cate?”

 

Some insensitive jerk threw a crab at my head! Cate sobs. She wriggles about, and their bubble of air ping pongs within her proximity. I was finally having the most peaceful slumber!

 

“Wow,” Nico mutters. “What a jerk.” 

 

Percy rolls his eyes and claps a hand against Nico’s back. “Well—you’re in luck, Cate! We’ve got a son of Juno here that’ll knock your socks off!” 

 

Gods. Why

 

I haven’t worn socks in a millennia, sobs Cate. My feet have been far too swollen! 

 

“What feet?” Percy grumbles—at the same time that Jason nods in sympathy. 

 

“Nico’s pretty good at delivering kids,” Jason says. “He’s delivered a satyr before.” 

 

Cate stops bellowing in the water. She swims taut, until she’s only inches away from their bubbles. She takes a long whiff of all four of them—and her four eyes narrow. I smell Jupiter. I was slain by a son of Zeus, ages ago! 

 

Percy waves another hand. “Well, can you really go anywhere these days without smelling Jupiter, Cate? He’s—well, you know. He gets around.” 

 

She snarls in their direction and swims around their bubble again. Not a soul with his ichor is pure! That scoundrel Heracles cut me open from the inside! How can I trust you won’t do the same?! 

 

The four demigods look at each other curiously.

 

“Just...don’t eat him?” Percy supplies helpfully. 

 

Cate’s four eyes dart to Percy. 

 

“Jupiter was a sperm donor,” Nico says quickly, before Percy can interject again. He thinks he hears Jason stifling a laugh behind a cough. “Believe me when I say he was more than willing. I care to honor his name.”

 

Still, the Trojan Sea Monster looks reluctant. Cate opens her mouth and bares her teeth—but immediately, a shrill, pained cry erupts from her throat. 

 

“Looks like your contractions are getting closer together,” Nico says. He pokes a hand out of the air bubble and places a hand on Cate’s head. Tries not to grimace at how slimy it feels. “I’d say it’s about time to deliver.” 

 

He tries not to startle when Jason wraps an arm around his shoulder, still clearly in his element. “Nico’s all son of Juno, Cate. Favored by the queen herself. You’ll never have a cleaner birth.” 

 

At that promise, Cate’s ferocity wanes. Her tail ripples behind her, protruding belly obvious from below. Promise it won’t hurt?

 

Absolutely not. Nico doesn’t know how people make a career out of this after hearing Mellie’s own screams. “I’ll make sure it’s as smooth as possible.” 

 

*

 

Two hours later, Cate, the Trojan Sea Monster, gives birth to two beautiful sea serpents and a bear. 

 

“Most favor the dad,” Percy muses. 

 

Annabeth presses a hand to her head and sighs. “I just don’t understand mythology. I don’t.” 

 

The bear, of course, can breathe underwater. Because why not? 

 

It’s the size of an adult, with four eyes to match its mother, wiggles its limbs tentatively to swim. Nico’s sure that in a hundred years, it’ll aid some unfortunate demigod on a quest. Someone will tell tales of a son of Juno bravely delivering the children of the Trojan Sea Monster—rather than following the footsteps of a pompous older brother God of Heroes. Right now, Nico can’t tell if he’s wet from ocean water or sinewy from delivering triplets. 

 

Jason seems to have a good time as the baby monsters swim about. The bear roars happily in his direction before going to nurse on Cate the Trojan Sea Monster. He flashes a dimpled smile in Nico’s direction. “Good job, son of Juno.” 

 

Nico’s face blooms scarlet.

 

Demigods, Cate’s voice comes in a less cracking melody as her head rears in their direction. I can’t thank you enough for delivering my spawn! The sea will know your name—Nico di Angelo, sperm of Jupiter! 

 

Nico twitches. He hears Percy choke on a laugh behind him. 

 

“Son of Juno,” Jason corrects helpfully. He touches Nico on the shoulder. 

 

“You’re welcome,” Nico says politely. “Don’t mention it. Ever. Please.” 

 

“Let the whole sea know,” Percy says. “Dad would be proud—ow!” 

 

Ever,” Nico echoes emphatically. 

 

Cate, the Trojan Sea Monster and her three children swim westbound and away from the coast. Percy ushers them back to the surface—where the mist continues to veil the pier broken by a sea monster. Jason surprises them as he stumbles back on to the surface, rubbing his forehead.

 

“You okay?” Nico asks.

 

“Yeah,” Jason promises. He flashes a sheepish look, hair still wet from their sea adventures. “Bubbletravel is just a new one for me. Don’t think I had that pleasure when we were on the Argo II.”

 

“Consider it part of Percy’s weird skillset,” Nico says. “Along with talking to horses and translating crabs.”

 

“You can talk to horses?” Jason turns to Percy.

 

Percy stares back at him in disbelief, then gestures with his own hands. “You can tell when a monster says I want a Diet Pepsi and I’m in labor, and I’m weird?”

 

“Well.” Jason blinks, his eyebrows knitting together. “Yeah. You’re the only son of Neptune I’ve ever met.”

 

Despite his exhaustion, Nico can’t help a snicker. Annabeth joins him in laugher—forcing Percy from another smart remark.

 

They find the rest of their party hanging on the other side of the boardwalk. Bianca zooms straight into Nico and almost knocks him over with a hug. “Nico! We’ve been worried sick! Are you hurt? Why are you so wet? And…sticky?”

 

“I’m fine.” Nico’s cheeks fluster red. He doesn’t realize how sore he is until Bianca jostles him.

 

“Nico gave birth to triplets,” Percy supplies helpfully.

 

Bianca keeps her hands latched to Nico’s shoulders. She stares at Percy, speechless.

 

“Nico helped deliver triplets.” Annabeth rolls her eyes—but looks far less annoyed with the son of Neptune than Nico feels. “Jason figured out the Trojan Sea Monster was having contractions and asked Nico to deliver her babies. Two little serpents and a bear.”

 

Again, the rest of their group stares at them at a loss.

 

“Percy threw a crab at her head,” Nico finishes helpfully. “She went into labor.”

 

“I can believe that.” Thalia glances in Nico’s direction—then looks over to her brother. “You okay?”

 

“Oh, yeah.” Jason smiles at her, still undeterred by the day’s turn of events. “Helping Cate give birth was way more fun than slaying her.”

 

Thalia stares at her brother blankly. Then she turns to their resident son of Neptune. “You named the Trojan Sea Monster Cate?”

 

“Cate is way less of a mouthful,” Percy reasons. “Trojan Sea Monster probably isn’t even her real name. I hope the Papa Bear knew her better than we did.”

 

“A…real bear?” Piper asks reluctantly.

 

“What else is there?” Percy asks—to which she doesn’t she doesn’t argue.

 

Reyna touches Nico’s shoulder, holding the same amusement as she did at the beginning of their reunion. “You should’ve just agreed to lobster and a heart-shaped dessert. It was crème brûlée.”

 

Nico sighs.

 

At the very end of the night, they retreat to their SUV.

 

Piper stops short of entering. She smiles at them amicably, but Nico can tell it’s mostly aimed at his sister. “My dad’s probably home by now, so I should head back to the beach house. Thanks for letting me tag along.”

 

“Oh,” Bianca says—and Nico can practically feel the nervousness in her voice. She pushes a lock of wavy beach hair behind her ear. “Yeah—it was fun having you around. So was that salad—I’ve never had salad like that before. I mean—I’ve had salad. Just. Not like that salad.”

 

“We get it,” Nico says with deadpan. “You liked spending time with Piper.”

 

Bianca mimics the same look Nico had not too long ago—one of horror and ready to kill someone.

 

“He said you liked pasta salad,” Jason says halfheartedly.

 

“Pasta salad,” Piper repeats—and the corner of her lips raise into a smile. “I like pasta salad, too.”

 

As the smile reaches her eyes, Bianca’s face seems to glow redder. She matches Piper’s demeanor—and Nico decides to tune them out. He’s already dealt with one disaster this evening. Jason and he load into the far back row of the SUV, while Percy reaches for the driver’s door. Reyna snatches the keys out of his hands.

 

“I think you’ve already steered everyone into enough crazy adventures tonight.” Reyna arches an eyebrow in his direction, then gestures to the back seat. “Rest easy, soldier.”

 

“Fine by me.” Percy makes his way to the back and pokes his head towards the far back. “Got room for one more back there, Neeks?”

 

Even in the dark, Nico can see Percy staring at him pointedly. He snaps the middle seat in place, blocking anyone else from joining them. Beside him, Jason bites back a laugh.

 

“Looks like you’re stuck with me,” Annabeth remarks before Percy can protest.

 

As usual, his temper withers under the daughter of Athena. Percy peers back at her, Nico far from focus. The rest of their party loads the car, with Piper in the distance. Bianca reenters the car—and for the first time, Nico sees his big sister giddy.

 

“I got her phone number,” Bianca whispers in awe.

 

“Great,” Nico remarks. “Now you need a phone.”

 

That declaration only makes Bianca sillier. She turns to Jason, grinning from cheek-to-cheek so contagiously that it looks good on her. Jason laughs beside Nico—and beneath the rumble of the car, it’s easier to hear than on the pier.

 

“We can go first thing in the morning,” Jason promises.

 

Bianca squeals with glee—then makes a point to lean over the seat and kiss him on the cheek.

 

“Bianca,” Reyna calls from the front. “Seatbelt, please.”

 

“Oh—sorry.” Bianca settles back in her seat with a graceful flounce. In the darkness, Nico hears the soft click of her belt.

 

As Reyna drives them away from the beach, Nico sees Thalia reach out from the passenger’s side to caress her girlfriend’s hand. Annabeth leans her head into Percy’s shoulder without warning. Bianca is content in her window seat, thumbing a small slip of paper between her fingers.

 

His head thuds against Jason’s shoulder before he realizes what he’s doing. Nico startles awake on contact, his cheeks flushing pink. “Sorry.”

 

Nico can’t quite see Jason’s eyes—but feels his gaze beneath the shadows of the car. The cadence of Jason’s voice only makes Nico sleepier. “I can wake you up when we get home.”

 

It takes a long moment for Nico to muster a no. “It’s okay. I. Snore.”

 

“Really? Because—”

 

“I snore,” Nico repeats, and his cheeks grow hotter. He leans into the window to the right of him, cheek pressed against the cold glass.

 

Jason laughs again, quaint and soft. It takes a minute for Nico to realize Jason’s laughing to himself.

 

“What?” Nico asks.

 

“Just wondering if this weird quest would’ve been easier if we had Zora armor,” Jason whispers softly. “Then I remembered—”

 

“Zora armor helps you go up waterfalls and swim faster in Breath of the Wild,” Nico interjects. He wakes up a little more as the amusement lifts in his chest. “Don’t think that extends to delivering children.

 

Even at the end of the evening, he can’t help the smile on his face as Jason laughs. “Maybe Breath of the Wild isn’t as close to real-life questing as I thought it was, then.”

 

“There’s always room for improvement for the next one,” Nico says. A titter of his own flutters from his lips.

 

“Angering a sea monster by throwing a crab feels very Zelda-esque, though.”

 

“Very,” Nico agrees. “And probably easier since Link’s mouth doesn’t get him into nearly as much trouble.”

 

Jason laughs again, and it’s joined by a sweet snicker of Nico’s own.

 

“I heard that,” is the loud grumble in front of them. Before Percy can protest a second time, Annabeth nestles closer.

 

With one last chuckle, Nico rests his head against the window and shuts his eyes. The car hums at his cheekbone, with the sound of the ocean growing quieter with distance. The glass is cold against his forehead.  

 

The car makes a jolt as Reyna turns. Nico twitches as his forehead hits the glass, and he tries his best not to scowl.

 

“Seriously,” Jason whispers in the darkness. “I don’t mind.”

 

It’s harder to find his face in the darkness than it was at the pier. Nico thinks back to the evening before the Trojan Sea Monster. To Jason’s cold, but gentle fingers brushing up against his hair. His face, only a breath away from Nico’s own.

 

There was nothing romantic about that, so there isn’t anything romantic about this, either. Nothing to insinuate.

 

“Okay.” Nico settles against Jason’s shoulder after much reluctance—more comfortably than the car window. His heart flutters as the scent of sea water and sunscreen—but there’s something else mixed in there. Nico’s used to Percy’s affinity for the ocean from quests—but he’s quick to relax against Jason. His heart is, too.

 

There’s nothing there, he reminds himself. Just Jason being Jason. In this case—a comfortable body pillow. Literally.

 

Eventually, he finally falls asleep.

 

And some point in the ride, he feels a heaviness over his head as Jason drifts into slumber, too.

 

*

 

Notes:

We're gonna pick up speed with the next chapter, I think! Hope you guys enjoyed this chapter!

Chapter 7: slumber party

Summary:

“So you’re busy,” Jason finishes for the other demigod. He can’t help the disappointment bubbling in his chest.

Nico’s nose wrinkles. His cheeks bloom a mild pink. “Maybe a tad.”

Jason laughs softly, which seems to make Nico glow darker. It’s what he gets for wanting to be friends with the most popular demigod in New Rome—whether Nico enjoys that title or not. “It’s okay, Nico. I’m sure I can find something to—”

“Would you want to sleep over?”

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

High school comes in the days following the beach. According to his record at Camp Halfblood, Jason’s supposed to be a senior…ish. Whatever that means. Thalia handles all of his paperwork—the only paperwork she’s had to handle ever since retiring from the Legion. Jason’s only ever been homeschooled by the satyrs and occasional Chiron. Thalia tells him it’s the best way for him to make friends. After all—most of the people his age are legionnaires, waiting to serve the same ten years as his sister.

 

Bianca’s more excited than he’s ever seen. For the first time since they’ve met, school is something she can finally enjoy and be normal. Even if she’s in the grade below.

 

(Apparently missing out on a full eight months of school makes it harder to graduate on time—quest or otherwise. Who knew?)  

 

Jason’s never seen a more mundane setting filled with so many demigods. It’s hard for him to wrap his mind around: a school filled with all the demigods like Camp Halfblood, freely using their powers to charm (flirt), steal (prank), and engineer in a classroom setting nine months out of the year, while also receiving a baseline education.

 

No wonder Nico criticized Camp Halfblood so much.

 

It pushes Jason into a new routine—a seven-and-a-half hour day filled with school, and evenings filled with homework. He meets demigods who are familiar with him from the war against Gaea and her giants—and far too many teachers who don’t believe he’s Thalia’s little brother because obviously, she doesn’t have a last name.

 

Jason meets one familiar face in his AP Calculus class. Leo Valdez splits into a grin when they make eye contact and ushers him to sit nearby.

 

He shares AP Roman History with Reyna, who prefers to sit in the front of the class rather than the back, like the son of Vulcan. Their teacher prefaces that class will try to be more conscientious about addressing Greek demigods now that they’re no longer at war. Reyna promises to keep track of every instance their teacher accidentally slips up.

 

Lunches are with Bianca, where she gushes about normal classes and normal assignments, and how excuses involving fauns stealing backpacks and classes getting cancelled because a Ceres kid accidentally overgrew a tree are normal. She’s in better spirits these days. Jason catches her occasionally texting Piper under the table, with a gleeful smile at her lips.

 

Gym class proves to be more fun than Jason anticipates.

 

“I didn’t think there were a lot of cross-grade classes,” Jason admits, when he runs into Nico in the locker room. He’s seen Nico in the principia, in praetor armor, tangled in the Eiffel Tower of all things—but a school locker room is a new one. Nico genuinely doesn’t look like he belongs there, dressed in civvies with only a peek of the peacock tattoo beneath his sleeve.

 

Nico shrugs as he wrestles with his locker. “Gym class. Survival outside of New Rome, 101. Evil doesn’t really terrorize based on when you’re graduating.”

 

“I guess that’s fair.” Jason’s still taken aback at how there are just as many kids that aren’t in the Legion as there are. Reyna and Nico explain that many students are legacies, like Octavian, who had parents or family members who made their way through the Legion and then chose to settle down.

 

There are still too many demigods who come to New Rome as a safe haven—where Camp Jupiter provides room and board, and weekly allowances for them to have fun either within the city or in San Francisco. Leo happened to be an in-between—someone who found a family with the blacksmiths and earned his keep with his weapons shop.

 

Nico stares at him thoughtfully. He warns, “We do spar in gym class. If you want me to write a praetor’s note—”

 

“What—like a doctor’s note?”

 

“Of sorts,” Nico says. “Then I can get you out of those. We do those for our cadets who get chosen for quests.”

 

Jason recalls Annabeth’s time almost a year ago, when she stood before the Senate and agreed to go on a quest with Percy and Frank. “Don’t you need a majority vote for that?”

 

Nico waves a hand dismissively. Jason can’t help but laugh. He takes off his t-shirt—a crisp tee that Bianca insisted he get to spruce up his school wardrobe—and reaches in his locker.

 

“I appreciate it,” Jason admits. He looks back to Nico as Nico turns an eye. “But let’s see how far I get in school before I decide I need to skip class.”

 

“Right. Yeah. Sounds…uh. Good. Yup.”

 

Thalia spent the entire summer saying most students would adore the amount of free time Jason’s had. Time to stay up late, not worry about homework, and game all night between drills if you were one son of Juno with your best friend on the other coast.

 

“So what’s the justification for our art class?” Jason asks later, once their gym class is over.

 

Nico waves a hand dismissively at that, too. “Open to interpretation.”

 

Jason only laughs. He thinks he’s going to enjoy school.

 

*

 

“Hey, Bee.”

 

“Hi.”

 

Four days into the school week, Bianca comes by to do homework. She’s a lot more downcast than lunch time, dragging her feet across Jason’s carpet before throwing her backpack on the couch and slumping against the cushion. Jason wouldn’t put it past her for a dreary cloud to appear over her head. She pulls her phone out of her dress pocket and stares at it forlornly.

 

“Something on your mind?” Jason asks—only half-joking. He settles into an armchair adjacent to the coffee table and tucks his pencil behind his ear. Then, he reaches for his calculus book.

 

Bianca buries her face with her phone and delivers a muffled answer.

 

“One more time?”

 

She unsticks her phone from her face with an odd squelch and peers back at Jason despairingly. “Piper asked me out on a date.”

 

“That’s awesome, Bee!” Jason grins—but it wanes as Bianca doesn’t look any more gleeful. “Uh…trouble picking out an outfit?”

 

Bianca stares at him, scandalized. “Jace, I can’t go on a date with Piper—I have no idea what to say to her!”

 

“I thought you guys were getting along swimmingly since the beach.” Jason’s eyebrows knit together in confusion. “Haven’t you been texting all week?”

 

“Well—yeah,” Bianca protests. Her cheeks glow a heavenly pink as they have been since Piper McLean became an…issue. “But I can think about what I’m saying over the phone. I can’t do that in person.”

 

“Didn’t you two go on a date at the beach?” Jason asks, which makes Bianca even more flustered. “You know—bright and full moon, dinner for two—”

 

“That wasn’t a date,” Bianca hastily retorts. “If those were the only requirements, then everyone was on a date that night. Including you and my little brother.”

 

“Well—I don’t think dates normally end with helping a sea monster give birth.” Jason crosses his arms over his chest, the corners of his lips raising with amusement.  “But—that’s probably not going to go over well with Nico if you phrase it like that.”

 

Bianca groans. She takes one of his throw pillows and shoves her face into it.

 

“Not that I’m placing myself between you two,” Jason interjects. “I’ve been told I’m not allowed to do that.”

 

She pulls the pillow away from her face and studies him carefully. Then Bianca sits back up and stares him straight in the eye. “I need a chaperone.”

 

Jason stares at her in confusion.

 

“Jace—” Bianca scoots to the edge of her seat and touches him on the leg. “I need a chaperone at my date, so I don’t say something stupid. You need to chaperone.”

 

“But I’m doing calculus homework,” Jason says. His eyebrows furrow together and he gestures to the textbook at his lap.

 

“It wouldn’t be until next weekend—she and her dad are out of town for some movie thing or whatever.” Bianca stares at him pleadingly. “Pleeeaaaase?”

 

*

 

Shockingly, it gets brought up again during first period. Jason gets his homework done the night before—but it’s after an hour of Bianca listing off reasons why the date will go wrong if he isn’t there. He takes out his homework and places it on his desk. When he looks up, Leo Valdez is staring at him with the same effervescent amusement that Jason’s grown used to.

 

“You figure out the answer to number six?” Jason asks. He scratches his head and tucks his pencil behind his ear.

 

“I heard Piper finally worked up the nerve to ask Bianca on a date.” Leo’s hands jingle with…something. Screws and bolts, probably for shop class later. “After months and months of me kindly telling her to go for it.”

 

“Kindly?” Jason peers back up, and the amusement is clear on the son of Vulcan’s face.

 

“Months and months of annoying her into asking so I didn’t have to worry my ears shut,” Leo revises—which makes Jason laugh. “Not gonna lie—thought they were going to be joined at the hip this summer.”

 

“Bianca’s…been nervous about saying the wrong thing to Piper,” Jason says. He rubs his forehead. “Something about…calling her a misogynist…pasta salad…and swimsuits.”

 

Thinking about it again, the swimsuit thing might’ve been a Nico thing.

 

“Believe me, I’ve been on that side of the conversation.” Leo sniggers and makes tick marks with his fingers. “Something about coming off as a woman hater, accidentally charming someone into eating a three-course vegan meal—”

 

“I didn’t hear about that part.”

 

“She’s very self-conscious about dating people susceptible to charmspeak,” Leo says.

.

Jason resists the urge to touch his neck when it tingles. “I, uh. Can’t imagine.”

 

“Anyway—“ Leo waves a hand. “—di Angelo said yes, and I’ve been asked to mediate.” 

 

“Mediate their date,” Jason repeats. 

 

“Just in case something goes awry. You know—when one of them says the wrong thing at the wrong time and they talk about pasta salad instead of their feelings.” 

 

“I thought they were texting.”

 

“You can’t charmspeak over text,” Leo points out. “No one can read each other over text. Even memes are open to interpretation these days, Ghost Boy.” 

 

“But they’re going on a date. For sure,” Jason says. He can’t help feeling puzzled. 

 

 “Oh yeah. If Piper’s two hour call last night was any indication.” Leo rolls his eyes emphatically. “And trust me, she’s hoping they make it to a second date.”

 

“f it makes her feel better, Bianca wants to make it to a second date too.” Jason scratches his head. “She was hoping I’d chaperone.”

 

The conversation last night ended with Jason’s agreement—but mostly out of reluctance. Jason doesn’t like putting himself in other people’s love lives as much as other people have been in his own.

 

“So—I’m mediating and you’re chaperoning.” Leo flashes a look of amusement in Jason’s direction. “On a date that neither of us are a part of.”

 

His demeanor twists wryly in a way that reminds Jason of Nico—but it’s mixed with a chaotic energy of its own. Jason can’t help but impart a smile. “Well—I’m pretty sure I still owe you coffee.”

 

The bell rings. Jason too buried in his textbook to notice Leo’s grin inching wider.

 

*

 

Thalia shakes him awake later. She’s dressed in her normal ensemble of worn black jeans, denim vest, and graphic t-shirt. Over her shoulder is a duffle bag filled with clothes for the weekend, with Reyna at her side.

 

Jason rubs the sleep out of his eyes and smiles tiredly. “All packed for your trip?”

 

“Yup. Rey and I will be back by Sunday night—provided we don’t get stopped by some monster or a pissed off god.” Thalia waves a hand around dismissively—as though saying, could go either way. She studies him carefully, then the corner of her lips lifts into a smile. “You taking naps now, baby brother?”

 

“Yeah. I guess I am.” Jason looks around their living room, their afghan strewn across his shoulders. He’s not sure how it got there. Jason closes the textbook in his hands and gives Reyna a short wave. “Say hi to Hylla to me. Um—if she remembers me.”

 

“I’ll be sure to,” Reyna promises. “It’s not often the Amazons welcome a man in their facilities and let them go.”

 

Jason blinks. “What normally happens to them?”

 

“Enslavement,” Reyna says casually. “How else are the Amazons supposed to keep costs down?”

 

“Oh,” Jason says, trying his best to hold back his astonishment. “Uh, cool. Glad Nico and I, um. Didn’t fit that criteria.”

 

Thalia laughs as she notices the discomfort on his face. She claps a hand to his shoulder and shakes her head. “Don’t worry—once in a while, Hylla actually takes no for an answer from Reyna. She’s also got a soft spot for Nico.”

 

Jason tries his best not to make a face. He’s not sure he likes Hylla’s idea of a soft spot—considering that involved kidnapping Nico and tying him to a chair—but he reminds himself that was under Zoe Nightshade and the Huntresses. Hylla was at least nice to him for the five seconds they were there.

 

He snaps out of his thoughts when Thalia gives his shoulder a squeeze. She flashes a steady look. “You gonna be okay on your own for a few days?”

 

“I don’t see why not,” Jason says. Then, after a moment of thought, he adds—“I…haven’t had a nightmare in a while. If that’s what you’re worried about.”

 

Those have been few and far between since his birthday, when Nico gave him Breath of the Wild to play. His console sits beneath their TV, where he’s charged it during the school day and plays it close to bedtime if he still struggles to fall asleep. Jason’s not sure how far he’s gotten—but there’s something more appealing about collecting apples without anyone’s life in danger.

 

Plus—school has also kept him engaged. Jason likes the monotony and routine of it all. It…certainly beat a couple of months ago—when Thalia really had a reason to worry.

 

Talking about it aloud with his big sister is still weird. Thalia—for all of her spikes and hard edge—kisses him gently on the forehead. “See you Sunday, baby brother. Try not to spend the whole weekend doing homework.”

 

The edges of Jason’s lips lift into a smile. He rubs the spot where Thalia kissed him. “Will do.”

 

Then, Thalia and Reyna both melt into the shadows.

 

 

 

After another hour of homework, Jason returns his books to his backpack and makes the short trek to Bianca’s place.

 

Nico opens the door a knock later, looking bewildered. He’s out of the civvies that Jason’s grown used to seeing during passing periods and before gym, and back in Camp Jupiter clothes. “Oh—Jason. Hi.”

 

“Hey, Nico. I didn’t expect to see you.” Jason’s sure the surprise is clear on his own face, too. Seeing Nico outside of something planned is near impossible. Between praetor duties, wedding duties—and school on top of all of it, gym class is the only time he gets to have Nico’s company—but basic self defense and what to do if you get gorgon’s blood in your eye lessons don’t leave much room for catching up.

 

“Tell me about it,” Nico grumbles—and the exhaustion is clear on his face. His hair sticks up on ends, as though he just woke up from a nap, too. Nico yawns. “Bianca’s not home.”

 

“Did she end up going on that date?”

 

Nico blinks. He peers back at Jason, looking a little more awake. “Bianca had a date?”

 

Oh. “Maybe not. She told me she had one coming up next week,” Jason says. “Piper finally asked her out.”

 

“That’s news to me.” Nico smooths out his hair and leans into his door frame. “No. Hazel invited her to Vancouver for the weekend.”

 

“Really?”

 

“She didn’t tell you?”

 

“No—I guess that’s news to me, too.” Jason stares back at Nico, whose eyes suddenly twinkle with amusement.

 

“Sorry to be the bearer of bad news. Looks like neither one of us are our plus ones anymore,” Nico says. He rolls his eyes, but there isn’t nearly as much irritation towards his sister as there normally is. “You know—after a whole spat about your birthday party and not having time for her.”

 

“I—well, I did enjoy my birthday party.” Jason smiles faintly. “Do you have any plans?”

 

Nico stares at him, surprised.

 

“I mean—I’m sure you do. Busy guy and all.” Red climbs Jason’s cheeks and he crosses his arms. “Bianca’s in Vancouver and Thalia and Reyna are up in Seattle visiting Hylla. I’m not really used to having so much free time to myself. Kind of too early for my 2AM runs.”

 

A dark eyebrow arches in the air, and Jason’s greets it with a wider smile.

 

“Gotta find an extra place to squeeze some exercise in now that school’s in session,” Jason explains. “No bad dreams. I promise.”

 

His chest swells at just how much Nico cares—especially given how skeptical Nico is to believe him. Nico smooths out his bed hair, clearly mulling over Jason’s request. “Reyna being gone for the weekend means I’m out one praetor for the War Games tonight.”

 

“I could join you,” Jason says helpfully.

 

Nico’s eyes narrow carefully, his lips contorting into a frown. “You don’t fight.”

 

“I could spectate.”

 

“You don’t like to watch fighting,” Nico revises.  

 

“I could do my homework in the watchtower,” Jason rebuts—though the son of Juno looks unconvinced. Jason shrugs when Nico doesn’t move right away. “I—just. I’m just not really sure what to do tonight. Most kids my age are…well, you.”

 

“Me,” Nico echoes—which is when Jason realizes the farce in his sentence.

 

“In the Legion,” Jason corrects. A sheepish smile inches across his face. “Just…mind if I tag along?”

 

Which is how Jason finds himself in the watchtower at the edge of the Field of Mars, with his game console tucked in one of the pockets of his backpack. Nico still seems wary—like when he warned that gym class still involved sparring—but Jason promises to be on his best behavior.

 

The watchtower is just one of two tall buildings, where people are allowed to spectate. In a way, Jason thinks the War Games are Camp Jupiter’s version of football at other high schools. Even the campers seem livelier—reignited with classmates and siblings back from summer vacation.

 

“Beth!” Jason catches Annabeth lingering near the Fifth Cohort, dressed in a regal purple shirt and a chestplate.

 

She cocks her head in surprise and looks between Nico and him curiously. “Hey. Don’t tell me you’re participating.”

 

“He’s not,” Nico reassures—and he’s quick to place a hand in front of Jason.

 

“I’ve been instructed to stay put at the watchtower,” Jason informs. He smiles at his best friend, who continues to sport the same look of amusement.

 

“Nico’s instructing you now?” Annabeth asks.

 

“We’re hanging out after the War Games.” Jason turns to Nico, who still looks reluctant about the whole debacle.

 

“Okay,” she says.

 

“Bianca’s out of town,” Nico continues to explain. “It was either me—or…”

 

“Or Breath of the Wild.” Jason pulls out his game console and waves it near Annabeth. The daughter of Athena nods slowly, while Jason’s smile widens. He turns to Nico. “I can do both. I like this better, though.”

 

Nico stares back at him—looking both flustered and nauseated by the thought.

 

“You can do games and Nico?” Percy interjects from nowhere. He flashes a wry look and inserts himself into their conversation. “What a catch—ow! Nico—”

 

Before he has the chance to elaborate, Nico drags him off elsewhere, emphatically slapping a hand over Percy’s own.

 

Annabeth touches Jason by the wrist, a tentative look on her face. It makes him think of Thalia earlier. “You gonna be okay?”

 

“So far so good.” Jason rubs his forehead thoughtfully, the corners of his lips rising into a sheepish smile. “I won’t stay long if it starts to bother me. I promised Nico the same thing.”

 

Annabeth smiles—albeit reluctantly—before wandering off to pull Percy away from his praetor.

 

The last time Jason was on the Field of Mars, his amnesiac best friend had just made an appearance at Camp Jupiter. They weren’t on speaking terms before the swap before Reyna and her—so Jason expected nothing more with a daughter of Athena who hardly knew his name.

 

Thalia had asked if he wanted to watch in order to understand Camp Jupiter better. Maybe in hopes of him joining. Jason remembers hovering over the edge of the tower, speechless that after a war as bloody as Kronos’s, that there were demigods who celebrated war games as a sport. Camp Jupiter certainly took the fun out of being a demigod and focused on the practical side of things. Camp Halfblood hardly ever let him have fun at all.

 

Now—Jason sits in a watchtower with his game console in hand and a TV tuned into what’s going on below. Thalia and Annabeth both check up on him more after his birthday—Jason just has to remember to speak up, too. It’s still a little weird for him.

 

Every once in a while, Jason clenches when he hears an explosion—but it’s hardly as anxiety-inducing as the other war game he attended.

 

BOOOOOM!

 

One particular explosion makes him drop the console in his lap. Jason’s hand flies to the back of his neck—and he rubs the curse thoughtfully. Fretfully.

 

“You okay?”

 

Jason startles at the sound of Nico’s voice. He turns around to find the other demigod floating across from the open window, one wary eyebrow arched in the air.

 

“Uh—yeah.” Jason reaches out and picks up his console from the ground. “Shouldn’t you be moderating?”

 

“It’s early enough. Most of the legionnaires are still at the edge of the field. No one’s breached the fortress yet,” Nico says. He floats carefully, a gentle gale brushing against his bangs.

 

Jason can’t help but shake his head in disbelief. Early, and so many mines going off already.

 

“Jason—”

 

“What happens if someone gets injured during the War Games?” Jason asks. “No one actually dies, do they? Or like, miss school?”

 

“They get a good heaping of ambrosia and unicorn draught, and a praetor’s note if they’re still not feeling well on Monday.” Nico pulls into the watchtower. His demeanor shifts, looking a little more sympathetic. “No one dies during the War Games. Anyone who even threatens malintent gets thrown out of the Legion. Like Bryce Lawrence and his family.”

 

Right. Like Bryce.

 

“How about we meet up for dinner afterwards?” Jason asks finally. He flashes a sheepish smile—but it comes out far more embarrassed than he intends. “Maybe War Games aren’t the scene for me yet.”

 

“Sure,” Nico says. Then, “War Games don’t have to be the scene for you at all if you don’t want them to be.”

 

“Right.” Jason sucks in a breath and rubs his neck thoughtfully. He almost misses the way Nico reaches out to touch his hand.

 

“A burger sound good?” Nico asks.

 

“Yeah. A burger.”

 

*

 

Nico meets him later at the New Roman In-and-Out Burger. Jason perks from his booth when he sees the other demigod. He offers a wave and a smile, while Nico tentatively waves back. 

 

“Sorry—the game ran late.” Nico smooths out his hair as he comes to the booth. He’s missing part of a sleeve—scorched by some event or another, with his knife at his hilt. Jason studies the son of Juno from head-to-toe, examining him for injuries before he realizes it. He hardly hears Nico’s next question. 

 

“Did you already eat?” 

 

“Not yet.” Jason scoots out of their spot and starts their trek to the cashier.

 

“Let me get it,” Nico says quickly before they make it to the register. “Legionnaires get a discount.” 

 

“Oh—yeah. Sure.” 

 

Once the order’s in, they settle back into the booth on opposite ends. The restaurant is quiet. Most customers seem to be civilians with their families, with the occasional faun or nymph. Some wear New Rome University sweatshirts and fiddle away at their laptops. Other booths have highchairs with young children. All of them, without a doubt, are affiliated with demigods in some shape or form. 

 

“Sorry,” Jason says when they finally settle back in the booth. He fiddles with his hands and tugs on the sleeve of his shirt. “I didn’t mean to bail on the War Games.” 

 

One of Nico’s eyebrows arches into the air and he stares at Jason in surprise. “You didn’t have to go. I wasn’t expecting you to.” 

 

“I know.” Jason’s ears flourish pink. He dabs a French fry into his ketchup. “Maybe I was overzealous. I…was looking forward to spending the evening with you.” 

 

There’s a hiccup in Nico’s next response. Jason almost doesn’t notice. Nico vehemently shakes his head and waves a hand. “You should know by now that I’m the last person to drag you to the Field of Mars, Jason.” 

 

“I know,” Jason says again—and a ghost of a smile lifts against his lips. He’s careful as he takes a bite into his next fry. “I appreciate you looking out for me.” 

 

“I. Yeah, any time.” Nico quickly shoves a handful of French fries in his mouth. He sits upright in the booth, eyes at the tray in front of him. 

 

“Who won?” Jason asks--to which Nico shakes his head in disbelief. 

 

“The Fifth. Annabeth turned them into a well-oiled machine,” Nico says. “I know how Percy trains a cohort—I was a part of it for a long time. Last time I saw them do one of these together, they were biting each other’s head off. I think this game will get rid of any remaining tension against Minerva. She and Percy bounce off each other really well.” 

 

“Sounds like Annabeth.” A sliver of pride blooms in Jason’s chest. “She was always good at that.” 

 

“I’m sure.” Nico plucks a French fry from his pile and peers back up. “You, she, and my sister used to team up for these kinds of things, right?” 

 

“Not always. There were always enough kids between Athena and Hermes to pit against each other.” Jason smiles faintly. Before his French fry meets his mouth, he sets it down and crosses his arms over his chest. “But…yeah. For quests, it was normally the three of us.”

 

“So Annabeth and you were still close. Before…what happened last summer, I mean.” As always, Nico’s careful not to pull Luke into the conversation.

 

Jason shrugs and brushes a hand against the back of his neck. He thinks back to a few days prior, when Percy asked how Sally Jackson could know Bianca and him, but not their resident daughter of Athena. The Lost Years was a perfect way to put it. “We were closer when we were younger. Luke let me tag along with him, and Annabeth liked to tag along with Luke. Once he left camp and all, we didn’t really see eye-to-eye, but we were really the only ones who understood why he did it.”

 

He hesitates.

 

“I’m,” Jason says, “really the only person understood why he left. He’d tell me a lot. Annabeth was convinced we could change his mind. We were the only ones who wanted to get him back. So every quest that involved me, Annabeth insisted on going on, too. But once those were done, we always went our separate ways. Just Bianca and me, and then Annabeth with her siblings. Sort of like semi-friendly coworkers.”

 

“Trust me—you’ll get plenty of group projects like that now you’re in school, too.” Nico snorts and flashes a wry look.

 

“I’m sure that’s something to look forward to.” Jason struggles with his next smile. He doesn’t realize he’s still rubbing the back of his neck until Nico taps his other hand. There’s a warm spot beneath his palm from the friction.

 

Nico curls the edges of his fingers, his lips twitching.

 

“Sorry. I didn’t mean to bring him up.” Jason’s face burns sheepishly. He rubs his temples and props a hand to his cheek. First he bails on the War Games after his suggestion, then Luke finds his way into the conversation.

 

“Don’t worry about it.” Nico skirts his gaze. He reaches for his burger next.

 

“This…was easier on the beach.” Jason sighs. “No explosions. No awkwardness. Just—”

 

“Three Big Three demigods delivering the babies of the Trojan Sea Monster?” Nico finishes for him. He arches an eyebrow, looking somewhat less amused. Jason knows Nico left that whole experience exhausted.

 

“—the two of us without anything camp-related,” Jason says instead. He smiles self-consciously as Nico blinks. “I liked that.”

 

“Well.” Nico blinks again. “We can do that now, Jason.”

 

“Don’t you have praetor stuff in the morning?”

 

“That’s in the morning.” Nico places his burger back on his tray. “And not a lot. The Legion treats camp stuff like an extracurricular during the school year. Otherwise no one would ever graduate. I’ll probably go into the office in the morning and finish up some paperwork and homework. Then I have a wedding in the evening.”

 

“So you’re busy,” Jason finishes for the other demigod. He can’t help the disappointment bubbling in his chest.

 

Nico’s nose wrinkles. His cheeks bloom a mild pink. “Maybe a tad.”

 

Jason laughs softly, which seems to make Nico glow darker. It’s what he gets for wanting to be friends with the most popular demigod in New Rome—whether Nico enjoys that title or not. “It’s okay, Nico. I’m sure I can find something to—”

 

“Would you want to sleep over?”

 

*

 

Jason can’t recall the last time he was in the di Angelo residence with Nico. Normally Nico is shooting down the hallway, on his way to another event of sorts between praetor and wedding duties. It’s gotten to the point that Bianca says hi and bye in the same breath without ever looking up from her computer.

 

Once they finish dinner, they part ways so Jason can pack his clothes and Nico can clean up. Jason almost doesn’t notice the scorched sleeve until Nico gestures to it again. When he arrives at the front door of the di Angelo residence for a second time that night, Nico’s hair is damp from a shower. He’s dressed in a pair of shorts and a graphic t-shirt with some cartoon character that Jason doesn’t recognize. Both the peacock and eagle tattoos seem to stare at Jason from across the doorway—the emblems of the King and Queen of the Heavens.

 

Even from a distance, Jason can smell the airiness of Nico’s shampoo. He can’t help but smile. “You sure it’s okay if I sleep over?”

 

Nico arches an eyebrow. He opens the door wider. “I won’t tattle if you won’t.”

 

Jason’s smile unfolds into a quiet laugh. Per Nico’s request, he sets his stuff on the living room couch. Bianca’s camera and laptop are gone—likely in Vancouver with her. Some anime plays on the TV—a boy with red hair and green-and-black checkered outfit. He looks towards the subtitles—but Nico is quick to lower the volume.

 

“There are chips in the pantry. Cheetos and Doritos. I think gummy bears, too. Neapolitan ice cream in the freezer.” Nico eyes him carefully. “You hungry?”

 

“We…just ate?”

 

“Right,” Nico says, and he lowers his head into a steady nod.

 

“Did you go shopping?” Jason blinks in surprise as he watches Nico stuff junk food back into storage. They’ve hardly been separated half an hour.

 

“No. I just—I keep an extra line or two on the grocery list for other people.” Nico pauses as he shoves bags of chips back in the pantry. “Mostly Percy. My grandmother always believed in keeping a prepared household.”

 

“She must’ve gotten along with Juno really well then.”

 

Nico shuts the pantry, his demeanor shifting into something of a grimace. It very much reads no, not at all as he shakes his head. He plucks two Gatorades from an incredibly well-stocked fridge and places them on the kitchen counter. “Nonna was upset that Mammina never committed to my mom.”

 

Jason’s eyebrows knit together. “But she’s married.”

 

“That doesn’t stop Jupiter or any other god,” Nico points out—and he says it in a way that Jason surmises can only be an echo of the di Angelo matriarch. He punctuates it with a disbelieving shake of his head. “Don’t underestimate the wrath of an angry mother-in-law.”

 

After seeing the Queen of the Gods at work, Jason thinks he pities anyone who has Juno for a mother-in-law. He decides not to say that aloud. Instead, his gaze fixates on a yellow bag in Nico’s hand. “What’s that?”

 

Nico follows his gaze. “Chocolate chips. Percy rearranged my pantry when he was over earlier. I haven’t had the chance to put everything back in its place.”

 

“Chocolate chips,” Jason repeats. “Like, as a snack?”

 

For some reason, Nico looks as confused as Jason feels. “Once in a while, I guess. Bianca hoards the bag in her room every couple of weeks. I was going to make cookies sometime this weekend.”

 

“Cookies,” Jason repeats—and he blinks in surprise. “You can make them at home?”

 

Nico’s eyes widen. He sets the chocolate chips on the counter. “Jason—have you not had homemade cookies?”

 

“I—” Jason pauses, pretending to mull over any time he’s had anything homemade. “I haven’t had a lot of homemade anything. Thalia doesn’t really bake. We eat out most nights, or I make something simple.”

 

“How simple?”

 

“Peanut butter and jelly?”

 

Nico continues to stare at him in disbelief. Before Jason can say anything else, Nico presses a button on the stove top. “Cookies it is.”

 

Which is how Jason finds himself dressed in a frilly pink apron. It’s a little too small and feminine, clinging to him in strange places when Nico ties the waist back for him. Nico walks around the short space, before returning with every ingredient imaginable on the kitchen counter.

 

Jason lifts a container labeled brown sugar. He opens his mouth—

 

“It adds a depth of flavor,” Nico answers before he can ask. “Trust me. It makes the cookies taste better.”

 

“I…didn’t think the barracks had a kitchen to experiment with.” Jason sets the plastic container back on the counter and watches as Nico flies above the stove to grab a hand mixer.

 

“They don’t.” Nico plants his feet to the ground and peers back. “Sally—Percy’s mom—likes to bake a lot. So did my grandma and Mammina. I spent a lot of time hanging around the kitchen when I was little. I liked to watch the cookies bake.”

 

“You can do that?”

 

The corner of Nico’s lips lifts with amusement. “With just about most things, Jason.”

 

Jason can’t help feeling his cheeks glow red. He rubs his head thoughtfully and watches as Nico begins to separate ingredients. A few cups of flour here, some softened butter there. Nico stares into a recipe written on an index card so easily—but Jason still takes it in with astonishment. He’s seen Nico on the battlefield and commandeering armies, but baking cookies feels foreign.

 

“The satyrs tried to keep me on a vegan diet for a little while,” Jason confesses. He rubs his forehead again. “Though maybe not necessarily vegan. I think Uncle Gleeson tried to feed me dirt out of a can once.”

 

Nico raises his head. “Topsoil?”

 

“Loam, mostly. He said it had a lot of healthy minerals.” Jason shakes his head. “The tin can had a nice powdery taste to it.”

 

He smiles faintly as the son of Juno flashes him another look.

 

“Kidding,” Jason says.

 

“You better be.” Nico ties his hair back. Flour blankets his hair in light smudges—but before Jason can fixate too long, Nico shoves the eggs in his direction. “Why don’t you whisk the wet ingredients together?”

 

Jason watches Nico sift flour through a strainer and combine the “dry” ingredients. Nico lets him mix everything together, which is when Jason also watches Nico use dark chocolate chunks and semi-sweet chips from the bag earlier.

 

“I don’t think I’ve noticed what kind of chips Fabiano’s uses,” Jason confesses. Nico’s even careful to cover the bowl with plastic wrap and put in the fridge. Something about a better toffee flavor.

 

Nico shrugs. “I prefer their pie.”

 

“You and Ms. Jackson must be close.” Jason watches as Nico set a timer—then follows the other demigod to the living room. “That was her handwriting on the recipe, wasn’t it? I saw it sometimes at the candy store.”

 

Nico unties his hair and shrugs. “Percy took taking care of me pretty seriously. He…dealt with all of the nonsense that came with being a demigod and a son of Neptune—but I think he always felt worse for me. With—the whole casino and all.”

 

“He…was a mess after Thalia and Reyna fell,” Jason confesses. He watches Nico cocks his head, lips pressed into a grimace. The Percy Jason knew on the Argo II and the one in college are almost night and day. What binds them together is just how loyal Percy is to his friends.

 

“Percy said he couldn’t replace my sister or change who my dad is,” Nico mutters, “but he was more than happy to share a mom. I visit a lot.”

 

“That’s really sweet, Nico.”

 

At that moment, Nico flourishes red. He rubs the inside of his forearm self-consciously, and Jason can’t help but smile. The son of Juno sits straighter. “I’m sorry he’s been a jerk.”

 

“Don’t be.” Jason shrugs. “I don’t expect everyone to like me, you know. He has his reasons.”

 

“Stupid, lousy reasons,” Nico grumbles.

 

“What was that?”

 

“Nothing,” Nico says. He erupts from his seat on the couch and makes his way towards the entertainment center. “What do you want to do while we wait for the cookie dough to settle? We could watch tv, or go hang out outside, or—”

 

“Actually,” Jason interjects, “I’ve been stuck in one of the labyrinth temples for the last two days. Do you think you could help me?”

 

He reaches for his bag and pulls out his switch. When Jason looks back up, he’s met with a look of surprise across Nico’s face. Red creeps across Jason’s face as he realizes Nico’s staring.

 

“Is…that cheating?” Jason asks. “If I ask?”

 

“No—not at all.” Nico pulls out the switch dock. It’s only then that Jason notices the assortment of consoles Nico owns. He recognizes an old Nintendo 64 and some newer consoles—but they’re packed tightly with the rest of Nico’s game collection. There’s a bookshelf taller than Jason filled with videogames and boardgames alike—all in cases of different sizes.

 

“Percy got you most of those games?” Jason asks before he can help himself.

 

Nico peers over his shoulder. He follows the son of Hades’ line of sight, then shakes his head. “Some. Not all. He used to bring me back a game from one of his quests. Sort of like a souvenir. A, hey, I made it back mostly alive gift.

 

“Some of these look old.” Jason stands up and stares at the game collection. His lips spread into a smile as he sees one game in particular. “You have Ocarina of Time?”

 

“Yeah—both versions.” Nico grabs it from the shelf. “The 64 version was trickier to find. Percy snagged it from a Vintage Stock in Missouri.”

 

“Camp Halfblood’s had its copy for years. The sticker’s completely faded on it.” Jason continues to look through Nico’s game collection. They’re organized by console first—then alphabetized. He sees Smash Bros., and Mario Sunshine—and a few names he’s not familiar with, like Monster Hunter and Dark Souls. His gaze stops when he finds another Zelda title. “Wind Waker?”

 

“Oh—that’s a good one.” Nico reaches for the game case, fingers thumbing the binding, before he flips it over for Jason to look at. “Not as open world as Breath of the Wild, but—”

 

“He’s so cute.” Jason stares at the artwork, shocked to find a much younger, more animated looking Link on the front. “This is a game?”

 

“One of the best ones.” Nico studies him, then he grins. “We can play it if you want.”

 

“What about the cookies?” Jason asks—and Nico looks more amused.

 

“Cookies and videogames, Ambassador Grace,” Nico repeats. “That’s what I call a perfect Friday night.”

 

 

*

 

“This Link seems sassier,” Jason notes, after he watches the tiny, animated Link grimace at his new green tunic. He bites back a laugh.

 

“This Link knows how to serve looks,” Nico agrees. He laughs as Jason mimics one of Link’s cartoon-y grimace. “What else is there to do when they design you as a silent protagonist?”

 

“Grunt, I guess,” Jason says—which makes Nico laugh louder. He reaches for a cookie and almost veers off course when he sinks his teeth into it. “Oh my gods, Nico—these taste amazing.”

 

“Thanks.” Nico reaches out for a cookie of his own, his expression light and lips pressed into an easy smile.

 

It’s enough for Jason to pull his attention away from the TV. He drinks in the relaxed composure, with Nico at the edge of the couch cushion. Nico’s eyes capture the pretty blue that this Link lacks, and there’s a brightness to Nico’s expression that makes him…magnetic. Makes Jason want to look.

 

Nico taps on Jason’s knee and points to the TV.

 

“Pay attention to the lights here,” Nico instructs. “Don’t move under the barrel when the light’s shining on you—you’ll get thrown into jail by the bokoblins.”

 

“Oh,” Jason muses. “Like in real life.”

 

Nico snorts, his nose wrinkling—but then a wry smile compliments his demeanor. “Yeah, like in real life.”

 

They have a timer set for the cookies every twelve minutes. Nico gets up at least twice, listing off helpful hints and instructions for Jason from the kitchen—even when Jason changes dungeons without Nico near.

 

When the last batch of cookies leaves the oven, Nico plops onto the couch snugly next to Jason. He’s quick to put distance between them. “Sorry.”

 

“For what? I didn’t mind.” Jason smiles as he reaches for another cookie.

 

“I just—I mean—I. Never mind.” Nico’s tangent ends quickly while Jason pats the cushion. He slowly inches back, and their knees bump together. Jason bumps it back, and smiles when Nico finally settles.

 

Again, he gets a look at Nico’s face. The vibrant blue of his irises, and the flurry of hair that frames Nico’s face. There’s a smudge at the corner of his lip, from all of the cookies. They sit close enough that Jason can almost smell the sweetness.

 

His fingers twitch with the urge to wipe it off, like with the sand last week—or the Styrofoam from his birthday. He can’t place why.

 

Nico sets a tissue box in Jason’s lap. “You, uh, have crumbs on your face.”

 

“Oh—I do?” Jason snaps out of his stupor. “Uh—thanks. So do you.”

 

With one gentle swipe, the chocolate’s gone from both of their faces, but Jason’s urge lingers.

 

Then Nico taps his lap once more—this time a little more violently. “Watch out for that bokoblin. The green one.”

 

Jason jolts back into the game. “Got it.”

 

The controls on the Wii U are similar enough to the Switch that Jason adapts quickly—but it’s still an overload of buttons. Nico rattles off the right buttons on the fly, and Jason eventually gets the hang of bobbing and weaving.

 

In the end—Link’s sister, Aryll is safe, but Link gets kidnapped by the same bird that took his sister. He gets saved by a boat—which feels a little pointed to Jason. A blond haired, black eyed hero with a sister Link loved dearly—and a plucky, grumpy companion in the form of Tetra.

 

Nico only grins at him—proud, despite the number of times Jason dies. “Now you’re ready for the real game.”

 

It’s so infectious that Jason can’t help grinning back.

 

*

 

Jason wakes up to the sound of birds in the morning. From the foyer, he sees the bright streaks of purple and orange—but it’s the birds that catch his attention—singing a sweet melody for all to hear.

 

Stop that,” is the groggy response above him—which is when Jason realizes Nico is on top of him.

 

One of Jason’s arms is wedged in the crease of the couch. Of the three dozen cookies they baked last night, only eight remain on the coffee table in front of him. Nico’s face is buried in Jason’s chest, the scent of buttery brown sugar and rain filling Jason’s nostrils. He’s…softer when he’s asleep. Jason’s not sure how to describe it. From this distance, he can see the length of Nico’s eyelashes, and admire the definition of his cheekbones.

 

He traces the peacock painted over Nico’s forearm—and once more admires how soft Nico’s hair seems. This time, up close.

 

Jason readjusts when he realizes the Wii U controller is beneath him—evidently set aside when he dozed off last night.

 

When the birds chirp a second time, Nico swats an arm out and murmurs another complaint. It dispels the chatter at his doorstep, until all Jason can hear is Nico’s breath against his pulse. The son of Juno nuzzles closer to him with a sigh of relief.

 

On the TV, Jason sees Link laying down—fast asleep after being abandoned by his two players.

 

With a resolute smile, he moves the Wii U controller to the coffee table and settles back into slumber.

 

*

 

At some point, Jason has to get up and pee. He’s careful to inch Nico off of him and creeps to the bathroom. By the time he gets back, Nico’s already awake and putting things away. His hair’s a mess from burrowing into Jason earlier. Jason can’t help feeling disappointed to end their morning so quickly.

 

“You sleep okay?” Nico asks him.

 

“Best I’ve slept in a while,” Jason admits—and he watches as Nico glows a pretty pink. He doesn’t look close enough—but Jason thinks he sees Nico winding and unwinding the same controller. “What about you?”

 

“Uh, same.” Nico smooths out his own hair and turns to face the son of Hades. He studies Jason carefully. “You hungry?”

 

“Somehow, after all of those cookies.” Jason pats his own stomach—and smiles as Nico does.

 

“We used the last of the eggs for the cookies,” Nico says. He rubs his tattoo thoughtfully and turns towards the kitchen. “There might be Lucky Charms left, but I have a feeling Percy’s scalped all of the marshmallows.”

 

“As one does,” Jason jokes—just to see Nico’s lips twitch into a smile again. “How about I buy breakfast? You got dinner last night.”

 

Which is how they end up at an old diner that Jason’s convinced he’s only seen in movies. The floor tiles are checkered black and white. The inner walls are blue, and a pink neon sign at the window reads OPEN. There’s even a jukebox sitting near the entrance.

 

Jason stares at his bagel sandwich curiously.

 

“Something on your mind?” Nico’s quick to reach for a paper towel for his own face.

 

“Not really. Just—can you bake bagels too?” Jason asks—to which Nico laughs.

 

“You can,” Nico says, “but some things are just worth eating without all of the effort.”

 

He hums as he takes a bite of his pancakes. Jason stares at his own breakfast sandwich and smiles.

 

“Maybe I can make a breakfast sandwich as good as your cookies,” Jason says—and he watches as Nico’s expression shift with amusement. “Baking was fun last night. I didn’t realize what all could go into it.”

 

“It’s a good way to get your mind off things,” Nico agrees. He slices through one of his eggs. “Otherwise, you’re stuck with burnt cookies and no one’s happy with that.”

 

“You think we could put some walnuts in them next time?” Jason asks. “I think I’d like the extra crunch.”

 

“Next time?”

 

Jason looks up to find Nico staring at him curiously. “Yeah—next time I sleep over. If—that’s okay—”

 

“Yeah,” Nico cuts Jason off. He sits a little straighter in his seat, his lips etching a little wider. “Yeah, that’s definitely okay.”

 

There’s never a moment where either of them are ready to leave. They stop by Jason’s apartment to grab the rest of his homework, then he shadowtravels them to the praetor’s office. Manila folders filled with paperwork are stacked high on Nico’s desk. He doesn’t bat an eye as he flips through each page. Jason recalls seeing Thalia’s eyes glaze over more than once while filling out the paperwork for him to go to New Rome High.

 

(“You saved the fucking world—twice,” she’d grumbled. “Why the hell do you need a legal guardian?”)

 

Jason gets through the required reading for his chemistry class. Nico is three files in—and already ahead of the pile sitting on Reyna’s desk.

 

Eventually, they grab lunch. Deli sandwiches at some eatery near the Forum. Then they visit the shrines at Temple Hill.

 

“Wow,” Jason notes when they make it to Pluto’s Crypt. “Don’t think I’ve ever seen it in daylight before.”

 

Nico stares at him.

 

“I’m, uh—not joking.”

 

“Right,” Nico says. “One of your running stops.”

 

“Yeah,” Jason says—and he’s indescribably pleased with how Nico remembers. He places two of their remaining cookies from the night before on the brazier for his dad and prays for safe travels for both Reyna and his sister.

 

On their walk back to the principia, Jason notices the crisp white chairs lined up in front of the Juno Moneta, adorned in purple and red flowers. Several people walk around dressed in robes—looking akin to Roman senators, while a wedding cake sits on a table afar. Nico stops when he sees Dakota messing with records on a mix table. They have a quiet conversation, where Nico emphatically rolls his eyes, but is smiling the whole time.

 

Eventually, he makes his way back to Jason.

 

Jason takes in all of the scenery quaintly. “I don’t think I’ve ever been to a wedding before.”

 

Nico stares at him curiously—then shrugs. “You’re not missing much. They’re more fun when you know the person—so long as you’re not in the wedding party.”

 

“Wouldn’t you want to be in the wedding party?”

 

“Only if you’re ready to be at the bride and groom’s beck and call from the engagement all the way to the I do’s,” Nico says—and he snorts. His eyes teem with amusement as he crosses his arms. “It’s like working at your favorite restaurant. Once you know the secrets, the magic is gone.”

 

“You know that from experience?” The corner of Jason’s lips lifts into a smile.

 

“I’ve sat through enough of these now.” Nico shrugs, and they continue their stride. “You see the best and worst things from the wedding party—then they all make up right before walking down the aisle. Pretty standard for a rom-com.”

 

“You watch rom-coms?” Jason arches an eyebrow, his mind going back to whatever anime was on TV last night.

 

Nico stops in his trek, and his eyes glint mischievously. “Reyna’s favorite is 27 Dresses. Thalia loves The Proposal. Percy swears Good Luck Chuck is romantic.”

 

“I don’t think I’ve heard any of those.” Jason’s eyebrows knit together. “Are those movies?”

 

“All wedding related in one way or another.” Nico shrugs. “They make all of the drama look fun, at least. Ryan Reynolds makes a good plus one.”

 

Jason thinks about the name, then perks. “He was Deadpool.”

 

To his surprise, Nico’s lips twitch into a wider smile. “Like I said—a good plus one.”

 

Jason laughs—but another thought crosses his mind. “Do you get to bring a plus one?”

 

“The officiant?” Nico shakes his head. “No. Usually I’m there to watch them sign the marriage certificate and then try to exit quietly. There’s no reason for me to stay after that.”

 

“Really?” Jason asks. “Not to dance or eat cake or anything?”

 

“By myself?” Nico replies, looking even more confused. “The cake, sure—but there’s no one to—”

 

He stops for a second and Jason smiles from the other side of his desk.

 

“You mind if I tag along?” Jason asks.

 

*

 

Which is how their day carries on with Nico dragging him to the mall. It’s the most Bianca Jason’s ever seen out of Nico—not that he’d ever say that out loud. Nico nudges Jason towards a shop and instructs him to find a nice button-up shirt and a pair of slacks. Then—they’re in and out in less than an hour.

 

(In other words—the least like Bianca that Jason’s ever seen.) They almost take a lap towards a game shop, but Nico mumbles something about not getting paid for another few days.

 

The longest Jason is away from Nico is when they get ready. Nico mentions needing extra time in front of the mirror to look more like his dad—which Jason doesn’t really understand, but he agrees to change in the bathroom. He combs through his hair, with the mental note to get it trimmed soon. Maybe Nico knew someone in New Rome who could take care of it for him.

 

He sits on the couch and toes on a pair of dress shoes. Then, Jason looks up when he hears Nico down the hall. “Nico, you look amazing.”

 

A golden wreath decorates Nico’s head, shiny even under the dull light of the house. Bangles of gold shine on either of Nico’s wrist—pristine with the warmth of his skin-tone. There’s an ornate design on his purple cloak to show his status. His sleeves stop short of his elbow, to show the vibrant peacock tattoo proudly on his arm, rather than shroud his status as the son of the King and Queen.

 

There’s a vibrance in Nico’s blue eyes—accented with the sheen of his jewelry.

 

Nico doesn’t respond right away. Then he clears his throat. “You’re…not wearing black.”

 

Jason looks down to the shirt he picked out when Nico was busy eying the game shop. “Black didn’t seem appropriate for a wedding—funeral colors and all. Does it look okay?”

 

“It’s…blue.”

 

Again, Jason glances at his button-up and navy dress pants. His dark leather belt matches his shoes. “Too much?”

 

“No,” Nico says quickly. “You look great. It’s a good color on you.”  

 

Jason sighs in relief. “Good. I was wondering if I should’ve asked about the pants before we left.”

 

“The pants look perfect,” Nico confirms—and he visibly twitches. “Snug at all?”

 

“They fit like a glove,” Jason confirms.

 

“Cool.” Nico quickly makes a beeline towards the door. “Let’s go before we run late.”

 

“I can shadowtravel us there,” Jason reminds him.

 

Nico shuts the door quickly. “Right.”

 

 

 

The wedding itself is fairly intimate. Nico talks the two grooms into letting Jason sit off to the side in the front row—casually flexing his title as their praetor. He doesn’t call Jason his date—not at first—until Jason admits he’s Nico’s plus-one. Then they happily light up and request the usher set up another chair. Jason sits as far to the side as he can to stay out of photos. The grooms wear crowns of flowers—and based on the vibrant green hue of one of the groom’s eyes, Jason can only assume there’s a son of Ceres in their mix.

 

He has a hard time peeling his own eyes away from Nico.

 

At the foot of the Juno Moneta, Nico radiates with a poise befitting the Queen of the Gods. The robes seem effortless across his torso, and the bangles at his wrist chime with the same ease at the birds that woke Jason this morning. While Nico complained about looking like his dad, Jason only sees a son of Juno, as Nico’s laurel crown seems to mirror Juno’s pristine diadem.

 

He hardly hears Nico’s speech. Nico’s smile is even more radiant than the gold adorning his neck and earrings and crown and bangles.

 

“I don’t know how he manages to change it up every time,” mutters someone next to Jason. There’s a golden dove pinned to his lapel, and his skin drinks in a different warmth from the sun than what Jason’s seen from the di Angelo siblings. There’s something familiar about his face—but much like Jason, the demigod beside him is more focused on Nico’s grace as the grooms say their vows.

 

“You may now kiss the groom,” Nico announces.

 

Once the grooms kiss, the wedding guests erupt in elated applause. They ambush Nico with a kiss on either cheek—which is met with a decadent Awww from the crowd before the grooms and their wedding party march down the aisle as newlyweds.

 

Nico’s nose scrunches ever so slightly—and Jason covers his laugh with a cough.

 

When the wedding party is out of sight, people stand and stretch their legs. An aurae with a clipboard instructs everyone to transition to the reception in a big, billowy tent filled with warm lights of magenta, pink, and purple.

 

Jason startles when he feels Nico’s hand on his elbow.

 

“Now we wait for the wedding party to finish taking photos and then the toasts,” Nico says.

 

“Really? What do guests do in the mean time?” Jason peers back at the other demigod.

 

Nico shrugs. “Drink.”

 

“We’re underaged.”

 

“Then we sit and thank the gods that smartphones exist.” The edge of Nico’s lips twitch into a smile. He whips out his phone from who-knows-where, and Jason laughs freely now.

 

Once they make it to their table, something about Nico catches Jason’s eye. “Your badge is crooked. Want me to fix it?”

 

“Sure.”

 

Jason makes notes of the ripples and folds of Nico’s robes. For such a narrow frame, the fabric clings onto him well. It isn’t the first time Jason’s seen Nico in this outfit—he recalls something similar earlier in the summer—but didn’t get to enjoy it as much as he does now. Jason tries to focus on how Nico had it pinned to his cloak before the flurry of kisses from the newlywed couple.

 

“Right here,” Nico says. He taps his own collarbone gently, which invites the steady melody of his cuffs and bangles. “Not that I’m hard to miss at these things.”

 

Jason chuckles softly as he reattaches the pin. “What were the kisses for?”

 

Immediately, Nico’s cheeks bloom red. He twitches and smooths out the hair beneath his crown. “Longevity in marriage, I guess. Or the reminder every weekend that I’m single.”

 

“I’m sure you’ll meet Mr. Right someday,” Jason promises. “You’re a catch, Nico.”

 

He almost doesn’t catch Nico’s glance. There’s an ebony eyebrow in the air—but Nico doesn’t say anything more.

 

“Di Angelo,” calls another wedding guest. The boy from earlier comes to their table as Jason finishes with the golden pin. Up close, Jason notices that his width is also matched in height. His dress shirt is a ruby red—with the dove broach even more prominent now than before. He’s tall—taller than Jason, even, with barrels for arms.

 

It's a stark contrast to Nico’s lankiness. Nico turns away from Jason ever-so slightly and faces the other demigod. “Hi, Mike.”

 

“Some speech you gave there,” Mike says. He stops short of both of them, eyes darting between Jason and Nico.

 

“Jason, this is Mike Kahale. He’s one of the centurions from the First Cohort,” Nico explains. He gestures between them. “Mike, this is Jason Grace. Thalia’s little brother.”

 

“Pleasure,” Mike greets—and he extends a hand. His grip is firm around Jason’s.

 

“You’re in my chemistry class.” The corner of Jason’s lips lift as the realization finally soaks in.

 

The edges of Mike’s lips twitch into a smile, and his eyes glint.

 

“Your dog also saved my co-centurion from getting blasted into oblivion,” Mike says. “But yes—we do have chemistry together.”

 

Oh. Ohh. Jason’s eyes widen as he finally places Mike’s face. He thinks back to the forest surrounding Camp Halfblood, reuniting with his big sister for the first time since the Argo II—and the basketcase augur that tried to kill Thalia. Tried to usurp the entirety of the Legion.

 

“Yikes,” is the only thing Jason can muster—with evokes a wider smile from Mike Kahale.

 

“Mike’s invited to these as some sort of blessing,” Nico explains. He touches Jason’s elbow again. “We’re good now. Mike’s one of the centurions helping rebuild the Legion.”

 

“What’s more peaceful than the holiest union of love?” Mike asks. In his tone of voice, it’s hard to tell if he’s being genuine or sarcastic.

 

“Did they kiss you for good luck too?” Jason muses.

 

“No.” Mike’s eyes flash again. “But I can be persuaded.”

 

Nico nudges Jason in the arm once more—which is when Jason notices the wrinkle in his nose again. “We should take our seats for the toast.”

 

“Oh—yeah,” Jason says.

 

“Oh—my bad.” Mike looks between the two of them, one eyebrow lifted in the air. “Are you two together?”

 

“No,” Nico says sharply, at the same time Jason candidly says, “Yes.”

 

They meet each other’s eye, and Jason notices Nico is simmering now.

 

“Complicated?” Mike asks.

 

“I’m Nico’s plus-one for the evening,” Jason explains.

 

To his surprise, Mike doesn’t reply. Instead, Mike turns to Nico—who suddenly stands straighter to look like an officer addressing his subordinate. Nico arches an eyebrow—looking comically smaller than Mike Kahale, centurion to the First Cohort, but no less intimidating.

 

“Jason’s been keeping me company today,” Nico elaborates—though more tensely than before. “But no, we’re not together.

 

“You keep handsome company,” Mike comments—to which Jason blinks. His eyes glitter again as he looks to the son of Hades. “Blue’s definitely your color. Join me for a dance when this one gets busy blessing babies, okay?”

 

Again, Jason blinks. “Um.”

 

Before he can muster a response, Mike Kahale disappears into the folds of wedding guests to watch the wedding party deliver toasts. Jason’s so dumbfounded that he doesn’t feel Nico tugging him towards a table.

 

“Was he hitting on me?” Jason finally asks when they settle.

 

He asks the question before he notices the sourness in Nico’s expression. Nico’s lips are pressed into a disdainful frown, his eyebrows pressed together. The moment the question leaves Jason’s mouth, however, Nico’s expression shifts into disbelief.

 

After a brief silence, Nico replies, “I can’t tell if you’re joking.”

 

Jason’s cheeks swell pink. He coughs into his hand and fiddles with one of his sleeves.

 

“You’re not joking, are you?” Nico sits straighter in his seat and stares at Jason incredulously. “He asked you for a dance and invited you to make out with him, Jason.”

 

“Is that what that was?” Jason asks faintly. He turns to find Mike Kahale—but the other demigod is lost in the throng of people. Jason’s cheeks grow even hotter. “I thought he was just being nice.”

 

Nico doesn’t respond right away. Jason turns back to face him—only to find Nico staring at him with even more disbelief than before.

 

Jason awkwardly shifts in his seat. “Should I go find him?”

 

“Is…that what you want to do?” Nico snaps out of his stupor shortly after, his demeanor looking less irritable and more skeptical. Jason has a harder time reading it for some reason.

 

“Not really, no,” is Jason’s honest answer. He touches his neck awkwardly, unable to look the other demigod in the eye. “That was a bit too much.”

 

He hesitates.

 

He was a bit too much,” Jason corrects. He’s tempted to undo the first button of his dress shirt, heated in fluster. “I’m…uh. I’m not ready for…that.

 

“That,” Nico repeats. Slowly. Jason doesn’t realize how roughly he’s rubbing the back of his neck until Nico catches his hand.

 

“Boys,” Jason says, the dread already filling his voice. “Girls. Um. Dating as a whole, and…the after dating parts.”

 

Nico snorts. He brushes a thumb over Jason’s wrist bone—which is when Jason realizes he hasn’t let go.

 

“You don’t have to date until you’re ready,” Nico reminds him gently. “Your words. Not mine.”

 

Jason relaxes against his chair as waiters begin to serve food. “I…think I’m happier here. With you.”

 

He looks up timidly to take in Nico’s expression. Whatever terseness Nico had before evaporates now. Jason sighs in relief. Nico gives his hand one lasting squeeze before reaching for a soup spoon. He pulls the bangles away from his wrists and offers Jason a wry smile.

 

“I’d hate to lose my first and only plus-one to a wedding,” Nico admits—which makes Jason smile, too.

 

“Same,” Jason agrees. He pushes Mike Kahale’s whimsy as far from his mind as possible.

 

They listen to various people from the wedding party deliver warm wedding toasts in the name of both grooms. Dinner is a four-course meal consisting of soup, salad, outrageous filet mignon—and of course, the wedding cake as dessert. Jason stuffs his face with food and ignores Mike Kahale’s eye any time the centurion comes close.

 

(He’s a son of Venus, Nico explains—which is probably why Jason felt a little unsteady. Jason doesn’t quite get the explanation—for as attractive as Mike Kahale is, he thinks Nico almost steals the whole show from the grooms with how handsome he looks.)

 

Towards the end of the night, when the sun leaves them, the grooms have Nico witness them signing the wedding certificate, and Jason waits patiently for his return.

 

“Duties are done,” Nico declares. He stretches as he meets Jason at their table, a look of satisfaction on his face. “We can get going now.”

 

“Really?” Jason asks. “You didn’t want to dance?”

 

Nico stares at him in surprise. “”Did you?”

 

“I thought it was customary,” Jason admits. He stands to his feet, matching Nico’s height and then some. Jason smiles and offers a hand. “We should get at least one in, shouldn’t we?”

 

Nico stares at his hand curiously—but then he returns Jason’s smile. He still seems disgruntled from Mike’s presence earlier—but Jason can’t imagine spending the evening with anyone else. He’s hoping Nico’s grin echoes the same sentiment, too.

 

They go through a few songs with Dakota as their DJ. Most of them are poppy and romantic—with a few catchy songs that has the wedding guests and grooms singing rather than dancing. Nico’s grin is boyish all the same as they move around each other.

 

Jason’s not sure how long it goes. Well past midnight, maybe.

 

At some point, DJ Dakota announces last song for the evening, before the grooms will make their grand exit. A steady beat slows down the evening. A soft guitar echoes off the tent, and the lights above them glow delicately.

 

Nico stops short, his face flushed from jumping around. He tugs at the collar of his robes. “Guess we should get going.”

 

The rays of the lanterns reflect against Nico’s jewelry—but Jason can’t help thinking how gentle it makes Nico look. He’s reminded of this morning, when Nico was only a breath away in the morning’s early rays.

 

So, he asks, “Why?”

 

Nico stares at him in confusion. “Because it’s a slow song.”

 

“I can do slow.” A smile graces Jason’s lips. Again, he asks for Nico’s hand.

 

And once more—Nico stares at it. He’s more hesitant this time—before the same smile is mirrored on his own face.

 

Nico’s fingers lace carefully in Jason’s own. They don’t hover quite as close as they did this morning—but Jason can feel Nico’s breath all the same, with the son of Juno’s pulse beneath his palm. Like every other song, they follow the melody. It’s nowhere near as smooth as the grooms who’ve probably taken dance lessons—but Jason’s too fixated on Nico to care.

  

He acts before thinking at the second chorus and spins the son of Juno. Nico comes back to him, his necklace and bangles chiming. Blue eyes stare at him, surprised—but not necessarily angry. He’s even closer now, with Jason’s hand tucked at his waist. Jason soaks in the scent of Nico again—of buttery sweetness, of rain, and the pretty scent of flowers and cologne.

 

He drinks as much of Nico as he can, with the son of Juno’s heartbeat replacing the melody of the song.

 

When the song ends, Jason’s grip doesn’t. Nico seems just as reluctant, his hand firm at Jason’s bicep. They stare at each other—and the lanterns make as many stars in Nico’s eyes as there are in the sky.

 

Then they part.

 

Nico fades out of Jason’s grip carefully and smooths out his robes. Jason tries not to feel disappointed.

 

“This was nice,” Nico says, his voice obscure.

 

“Yeah,” Jason agrees, his own voice soft. He doesn’t feel compelled to let the rest of the world hear them. Halfheartedly, he jokes, “Thanks. For, um, dealing with me today.”

 

Nico arches an eyebrow.

 

“Thanks,” Jason repeats—this time revising his own words, “for today. It’s been a lot of fun.”

 

He glows as Nico eyes brim with warmth.

 

“I…wouldn’t mind another day,” Nico confesses. He looks up to Jason and rubs his arm thoughtfully. “Bianca and Thalia are still out until tomorrow. Care for another sleepover?”

 

Jason’s heart swells at the question. He’s reignited with a different excitement as he smiles. “I’d love to.”

 

So—as the grooms make a grand exit at the edge of the tent, Jason and Nico make their own and melt into the shadows.

 

*

Jason's Journal Entry, 06/11/20XX

 

Notes:

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Chapter 8: a question

Summary:

“So why haven’t you asked him out yet?”

Nico looks up immediately. Instead of Percy’s usual ribbing or disposition against Jason Grace, Percy looks at Nico…less than irately.

“I.” Nico’s flabbergasted. He’s not sure if he heard correctly. “Excuse me?”

“You,” Percy starts, creating tick marks with his hands, “planned his birthday. You insisted to go to Camp Halfblood with him. You spent the whole day at the beach with him, delivered triplets—and skipped out on waffles with Beth and me for a sleepover last week.”

Nico’s nose wrinkles. “I didn’t tell you that.”

“You just did,” Percy protests. “So when?”

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

On Wednesday, their coach for gym class instructs them to practice basic self-defense.

 

It isn’t nearly as strenuous as the combat training from the Legion, but not every demigod wants the militant lifestyle. No demigod seeks out danger, either. Their coach instructs them to pair up, and Nico gravitates towards Jason without a second thought.

 

“You sure you don’t want that praetor’s note?” Nico asks him, after they choose a reasonable space on the mats.

 

Jason flashes a pleasant smile—which makes Nico’s heart flutter even more as of late. The son of Hades makes tick marks with his fingers. “No explosions, no swords, all Nico. I like one of those things.”

 

“I’m a thing now?”

 

“Well—”

 

“Kidding, Jason,” Nico says. His lips etch into a mirthful smile and he crosses his arms.

 

Their coach—a bulky Legacy of Mars who’s never seen a cheat day—waltzes towards them. He blows into his whistle to the rest of their class. “Praetor di Angelo will demonstrate proper maneuvers, while Grace assails him.”

 

Nico and Jason exchange curious looks.

 

“I’d hardly call Jason an assailant, sir.” Nico says.

 

Their coach’s expression doesn’t waiver. He waves a hand dismissively. “I’m sure he’s made a cyclops or two falter before.”

 

Nico wrinkles his nose. “But—”

 

“Don’t worry about it, Nico.” Jason nudges him gently in the shoulder. He flashes an endearing smile. “Go easy on me, though—I’m a little rusty.”

 

Nico’s not even sure how to respond to that. He shoves the thought out of his mind—questioning if he’s putting too much thought into it—and they stand a meter from each other. Nico gets into a fighting stance.

 

“Go on now,” their coach says. “Growl like a ferocious monster, Grace.”

 

Jason blinks at their coach. Nico falters into a smile.

 

“Growl?” Jason echoes.

 

“Growl,” their coach confirms. He puffs out his chest—almost looking like half the man Coach Hedge is. “ARGHHHHHHHH! I’ll tear you limb from limb!”

 

Jason’s nose twitches, one second away from a laugh—while Nico clears his throat. The son of Hades takes a fuller stance, and delivers a halfhearted, “Arrgh. I’ll, uh. Take your lunch money.”

 

“It’s yours,” Nico humors.

 

Laughter erupts from their classmates.

 

Their coach looks less than impressed. “With more feeling, will you?”

 

Jason shrugs—but finally, he falls into a combative stance. His dapper smile betrays the illusion of a fight. He ushers forward, but Nico is agile enough to subvert him. Nico’s light on his feet as he twists around the son of Hades. 

 

“There you go,” urges their coach. He claps his hands enthusiastically and stands straighter. “See what makes a good warrior, class? Praetor di Angelo is a son of Jupiter. He’s as zesty as a gale. Use your environment and your abilities to your advantage.” 

 

Zesty? Jason mouths. 

 

Nico shrugs. It’s way better than sperm of Jupiter.

 

To further their coach’s lecture, Nico looks to their environment. The gym is padded with floor mats. All the windows are shut, without hint of a gust. The A\C drones loudly above him. 

 

Jason, ever the trained eye, follows his gaze. His mouth hangs in an O—

 

And Nico forces a burst of air from the HVAC above them. The bolts clatter while the vents click—and classmates yelp as it’s suddenly twenty degrees cooler. Air slams straight into Jason, forcing him backwards. Their coach claps in a zealous rap, shouting, “Very good, very good!” 

 

Nico charges forward with a fist. He can almost see Jason’s eyes narrow in real time before the son of Hades dodges. 

 

“This is kind of like volleyball,” Jason remarks. 

 

“This is nothing like volleyball,” Nico retorts, his own voice light. 

 

Jason smiles, and Nico ignores the way his chest tingles. 

 

 “You make a terrible enemy, Grace,” their coach admonishes. 

 

“Sorry, coach.” It’s only then that Jason takes the initiative to charge again. He swipes at Nico, and Nico twists out of the way. Nico tries to return with roundhouse kick—which almost connects, but Jason slides out of his radius quickly. 

 

“Wrap it up boys,” their coach says. “This is becoming less of a demonstration and more like a dance.” 

 

Jason’s eyes light up, and Nico twitches. His hands suddenly tingle from the past weekend. 

 

Something tugs Nico’s ankle before he can charge again. He looks down to a shadow climbing his leg. For as dark and abysmal as it is, Jason doesn’t seem to flinch. A cold chill climbs up Nico’s spine. He’s quick to pivot to his other foot, but Jason cuffs that one in a shadow, too. The action’s so sudden that Nico stumbles forward.

 

He blasts a cold current of air in front of himself to stand taut—and as a result, pummels Jason with a gust.

 

Jason falls on the ground, evidently not anticipating the sudden current. He blinks—and Nico thinks he can understand Jason’s line of thought: this whole self-defense thing is just weird. Jason tugs on a hand, and the shadowy cuffs around Nico’s legs tighten. Nico’s fingers begin to flicker with electricity. The vents howl.

 

The gymnasium light begin to flicker—but whether it’s from Jason’s darkness, or Nico’s electric current, it’s hard to place.

 

Their coach hisses into his whistle and wedges himself in front of them. “Alright, alright—according to the Senate, we can’t have intentional property damage to the school anymore. Otherwise we lose our funding.”

 

Jason blinks. He turns to look at Nico.

 

“Thalia’s not a big fan of school,” Nico explains, which is met with an ah and an understanding nod.

 

“Two heroes of Olympus,” their coach grumbles, “and neither one of you were willing to land a blow.”

 

Again, Jason and Nico look at each other, their looks of amusement falling in tandem.

 

“Technically neither of us are a hero of Olympus,” Jason says.

 

“We were more like a B Team,” Nico agrees. “Like an aside to the whole quest.”

 

“Yeah,” Jason confirms. “A side story.”

 

Another laugh erupts from their classmates—and their coach only sighs.

 

*

 

Percy meets Nico at their normal study spot for Wednesday evenings: a coffee shop at the edge of New Rome University, where the music is almost always drowned out by the howl of the espresso machine and the hissing of the milk steamer. Hanging out is harder now that they aren’t bunkmates at the barracks. For all of the ribbing Nico’s received about Jason, Percy’s pitch to meet up once a week—away from Legion duties and the rest of their friends—feels genuine.

 

Nico spends most Wednesday nights catching up on homework and watching Percy glare at his textbook until it’s willing to answer him. It isn’t nearly as endearing as watching Jason staring at a blank page, with a pencil tucked behind his ear—but there’s a peace, when Jason isn’t the subject matter. A sense of normalcy where Nico can hang out with Percy and not want to shove his face into a pie.

 

This particular week is different.

 

Percy makes a whole show of his entrance—opening the door of the cramped coffee shop with one full swing, his backpack slung over one shoulder, marching towards their normal two-top table before pulling out his chair, and plopping.

 

Then, he slides the phone across Nico’s textbook. “What’s this?”

 

Nico stares at the phone screen for a long time. “It looks like you dropped your phone in last night’s pizza.”

 

He reaches over with his mechanical pencil and scrapes pizza sauce off the screen. Percy is quick to take it back and wipe the stains onto his shirt.

 

“Beth wanted to try this new pizza—good chicken, Himalayan salt—hella saucy—way too saucy—” Percy makes a loud, incoherent grumble that would normally take him on an hour tangent about pizza toppings. Once his phone is slightly less grimy though, he shows the picture again. “Did you know I have zoology with Bart?”

 

“He and Tim are back from their honeymoon already?” Nico arches an eyebrow. The Juno Moneta is the first thing he sees in the photo—in her immaculate and pristine temple, with her peacock cape draped over her shoulders. She rests at the end of the aisle, with New Rome’s newlyweds staring at each other adoringly beneath her. Caught in the folds of their embrace is Nico’s own face, embellished in gold and silk robes.

 

He wrinkles his nose. Nico can only wonder how many of these he’s been a part of this past summer.

 

“They’re waiting for fall break. You know—extra day off and stuff.” Percy waves a hand. “They said you brought a date.”

 

Nico halts. He looks back up at Percy and notices the son of Neptune staring back at him disparagingly. A groan flutters from Nico’s lips.

 

“So, who’d you bring?” Percy asks—in a tone of voice that says, I know exactly who you brought.

 

“It wasn’t a date.” Nico pushes the phone back.

 

“Really? Because Bart’s got, like, an eidetic memory. He definitely said date.” Percy makes a face like the fast-talking groomsman and pushes his hair in a complimentary fashion to their Third Cohort son of Ceres. “’Tall, blond, handsome—with a butt so firm you could bounce a quarter off of it. Just like a well-made bed in the barracks.’

 

Nico makes a sound. He’s quick to kick Percy in the shin. “Please don’t say that again. Ever..

 

“Aha!” Percy points an accusatory finger on one hand and a fistpump with the other. “You’re not saying no.”

 

Nico tries his best not to hiss. He seethes instead, teeth bared—and drops his shoulders. “Jason asked if he could tag along. That’s it.”

 

“I could’ve tagged along,” Percy says helpfully.

 

“You were busy with Beth.” It’s a guess, but Percy’s quick to confirm it.

 

“Beth wouldn’t have minded.”

 

“Neither did Jason.” Nico leans back in his seat and stares at the other demigod in exasperation. “Which is why he came. And—I didn’t even expect him to want to go, Percy—it was all last minute.”

 

Percy gives him the same reproachful look. He swipes on his phone, and another image greets Nico.

 

Jason and him, dancing together. Jason, dressed in his impeccable dress shirt and form-fitting pants—and Nico, in Roman garb fit for a priest, decorated in a golden crown, shining earrings, and cuffs and bangles that he donned every weekend since becoming New Rome’s wedding officiant.

 

The ballad they danced to buzzes between Nico’s ears before he knows it.

 

Nico pushes the phone back to the son of Neptune, face red. “If you already had this photo handy, why bother giving me the third degree?”

 

“If I showed you this photo first, you’d make some outlandish excuse.” Percy shrugs. “I’m covering my bases.”

 

“You’re giving me a headache,” Nico retorts, his hand to his forehead. He narrows his gaze, and Percy shrugs.

 

“So why haven’t you asked him out yet?”

 

Nico looks up immediately. Instead of Percy’s usual ribbing or disposition against Jason Grace, Percy looks at Nico…less than irately.

 

“I.” Nico’s flabbergasted. He’s not sure if he heard correctly. “Excuse me?”

 

“You,” Percy starts, creating tick marks with his hands, “planned his birthday. You insisted to go to Camp Halfblood with him. You spent the whole day at the beach with him, delivered triplets—and skipped out on waffles with Beth and me for a sleepover last week.”

 

Nico’s nose wrinkles. “I didn’t tell you that.”

 

“You just did,” Percy protests. “So when?”

 

Never, Percy.” Nico rubs his temples and picks his pencil back up. “How many times do I have to tell you nothing’s going on between him and me?”

 

“Bullshit, Nico—Grace likes you.” Percy arches an eyebrow, looking sterner than Nico’s used to. “And you like him. So why—?”

 

“I heard you the first time,” Nico cuts in. “Jason and I aren’t like that, so I’d appreciate it if you stopped pushing your agenda.”

 

Percy shrugs. “You like him, and he likes you. So why don’t you two get together already so I can complain about how awful you are for each other?”

 

“Do you even hear yourself?”

 

“Do you?” Percy asks. He claps against his stomach. “Mister Absets.

 

Nico buries his head in his hands. “Why are you on this?”

 

Percy snorts. “Because I know you, Neeks. You don’t just skip out on after-War Game traditions for just anyone. You didn’t even do that for Leo.”

 

“We’re never speaking about Leo,” Nico snaps tersely. “And you may know me, Percy, but you don’t know Jason like I do. He’s just like that.”

 

Percy stares at Nico incredulously. He makes a grandiose gesture with one of his hands, almost smacking a patron behind him. “You know—most people say that when their friends don’t want them to get together. You hear yourself, right? You’re saying other people don’t get him, and he’ll never want to date you.”

 

“Other people aren’t as invested in my love life as you are. Which is nonexistent,” Nico adds on quickly. He glares and narrows his gaze. “So I’ll kindly ask you to stop.

 

“Look—you can’t go forever in denial here. You’re, like, dying age.”

 

“I’ll be even closer when this conversation’s over,” Nico mutters.

 

“So go for it while you can still chew your own food.” Percy crosses his arms over his chest definitively. “He likes you man—why else would he go out of his way to hang out with you?”

 

Nico shakes his head furiously and rubs his brow. He sighs. “If I buy you a scone, will you drop this?”

 

Finally, there’s a stutter in Percy’s accusatory pep talk. Percy may feel the need to cover his bases about Jason—but Nico’s learned how to do the same with his old co-centurion. Percy stares at Nico from the other side of the table, exasperated—but that’s all he does. Stares. He settles back in his seat, arms crossed over his chest, then shrugs.

 

“Fine,” Percy says. “But I reserve the right to keep disliking him for you.”

 

*

 

Percy’s declaration—as usual—sours Nico’s mood. He spends most of the evening annoyed despite the pleasant day at school. Percy drops the subject and glares at his marine biology book, mumbling about dolphins, dorsal fins, and Delphin, the god of dolphins. Even with his mouth full, Percy’s words still manage to bother Nico.

 

Grace likes you.

 

In truth, the week has gone by so fast that Nico hasn’t had the chance to process everything that happened in the last weekend. Jason and he spent all of Sunday sitting in their pajamas and finishing out Wind Waker. They never made it to the temple in Breath of the Wild—but Saturday evening turned into Sunday very quickly—only to be interrupted when Bianca came through the door and announced she was home much later in the evening.

 

They grabbed dinner together, and Nico listened to Bianca rattle on about everything that happened while she was in Vancouver—failing to mention the hiccup where Nico was informed and Jason wasn’t (but the date she has with Piper didn’t come up, either.) Jason mostly smiled and nodded, letting Bianca fill in the conversation and offer a status update about Hazel. When he said goodbye for the evening, it felt more pointed towards Nico than Bianca.

 

(Nico hated how victorious that felt. Bianca didn’t seem to notice.)

 

Nico doesn’t think he spent longer than a minute away from Jason’s side all weekend. And…much like gym class, he’s really enjoying Jason’s company. Too much.

 

He spends most of his study session with Percy thinking about the photo of Jason and him. Everything from the night before all the way to Sunday evening felt…right. There wasn’t an instance where Nico wanted to leave. Every word of his own invited Jason’s inquiry and conversation. Nico can’t remember the last time he had that much fun.

 

Which…makes it harder to get over Jason.

 

Getting over a crush was hard, when every new thing Nico learned made him like Jason more.

 

He’s lamenting the very thought after they part for the night. Percy leaves their coffeeshop with coffee cake and a caramel macchiato to bring up to Annabeth in the architecture building. He grumbles something about an intricate project due in two weeks. Nico gets the privilege of watching Percy mull over a proper dessert to buy his not-girlfriend and casually rattle off Annabeth’s order.

 

For how long it’s taken, Nico thinks it’s inevitable for Percy and Annabeth to get together. He wishes Percy didn’t expect the same of him—especially after Nico’s adamantly denied it.

 

There’s nothing going on. Nothing there. Jason likes—was—is—in love with Luke Castellan. His heart’s in the Fields of Eternal Punishment.

 

Bullshit, Nico can hear perfectly in Percy’s voice. Grace likes you.

 

Grace likes you.

 

Jason Grace, son of Hades, likes him.

 

“He’s just like that,” Nico mutters aloud—and then he pauses, as he realizes he’s saying it to no one on his route home. A groan flutters from his lips, and he rubs his forehead. Nico halts, as he realizes it’s a habit adopted by one son of Hades.

 

Nico makes haste, walking towards the via principalis to find his way home.

 

And again, he repeats: Jason’s just like that. Jason is sweet and earnest—with a cheesy sense of humor that’s been buried by the line of duty. For a demigod of darkness, there’s light in the hue of his eyes, in the essence of his laughter, and strength in his grip, as he reaches for others instead of having others lean on him.

 

Nico loves how it looks on this Jason rather than Ambassador Grace—son of Pluto, who carried an air of false confidence in efforts to please everyone. Nico remembers the way Jason skirted Annabeth’s gaze after they reunited—both in New Rome and on the Argo II. But he also saw this past weekend, how Annabeth and Jason welcomed each other with open arms at the Field of Mars, and how Annabeth touched Jason’s wrist with the same concern over being near a fighting arena.

 

The old Jason would’ve just rubbed the back of his neck raw with nervousness. This one speaks with a gentler voice and perks like a cute golden retriever.

 

With a butt so firm you could bounce a quarter off of it.

 

Nico halts in the middle if the street. He resists the urge to unzip his backpack and scream into it.

 

“Neeks!” Thalia’s voice carries from Reyna’s front porch. She waves at him, dressed in her normal wear of combat boots, ripped and tattered skinny jeans and a death metal band Nico’s never heard of. At her foot is a cooler full of popsicles, while both Aurum and Argentum are sound asleep on either side of her.

 

It’s almost an odd sight—the warmth of the sunset on the porch and Thalia’s grunge—but they blend together with the pleasant smile across Thalia’s lips. 

 

Nico waves back and makes his way to the porch. “Reyna inside?”

 

“She and Jason are working on a debate for Roman History.” Thalia makes a face and rolls her eyes in a Percy-like matter. “I’d rather gouge my eyes out with my spear.”

 

Nico snorts. He slinks his backpack off and sits on the bench with her. It sways at his weight—and he thanks her quietly for a popsicle. “You’d finally have a reason to wear an eyepatch.”

 

“Hah. You get it.” Thalia breaks into a warm chortle. The longer the Graces live together, the more their laughter falls with the same cadence. She’s relaxed as ever, with every stripe on her arm as rich as the day she received her first one. Her last one is what matters—brandished in her arm as she finally finished out her time with the Legion.

 

Something about it makes it easy for Nico to relax, too. He thanks her quietly when she hands him a popsicle.

 

“I haven’t seen you in a hot minute, kid.” Thalia nudges him in the shoulder. “What’ve you been up to?”

 

Gods. What hasn’t he been up to? Nico leans against the bench seat with sigh—and Thalia only laughs.

 

“That bad, huh?” she asks.

 

“You and Reyna made it look a lot easier,” Nico mutters. He crosses his arms over his chest and sinks into the cushion.

 

Thalia chuckles and nudges him again. “I never had to integrate the Greeks and Romans, kid. My job was a hell of a lot easier. But—”

 

She ruffles his hair.

 

“—for what it’s worth, I only hear good things about you,” she says—and the pride sparkles in her voice. “Everyone’s happy with the work you’re doing.”

 

Before he can help himself, Nico finds himself blushing from cheek-to-collarbone. He rubs his arm thoughtfully, bashful, and stares at his feet. “Hard to believe you were able to juggle praetorship, school, and…well, me.”

 

When Thalia’s eyes glitter, the resemblance between Jason and her is clearer. She reaches over again and ruffles his hair with a greater gusto. “You were always easy. School was always the beast.”

 

Nico smiles. He thinks back to the look of confusion Jason gave him during gym class earlier in the day over funding. After all, Thalia never failed to flaunt her riches. Many of Camp Jupiter’s purchases and sway came from her ability to provide. While many saw a child of Pluto as a bad omen, Thalia took the title and ran with it. Which was how she became New Rome’s praetor in the short years after her return.

 

Unfortunately—school was still school and wasn’t something Thalia agreed with. She was too headstrong and sharp-tongued with her teachers when she felt treated unfairly—justified by her rise in rank. In many ways, it reminds Nico of Percy—but Percy had always been a diligent learner after so many years of being pulled out of school for being the bad kid. Thalia couldn’t care less. Otherwise she’d be living on campus, starting her sophomore year of college rather than living out a life of retirement with her little brother.

 

“No praetor will ever throw a concert in the coliseum as rowdy as yours,” Nico says—which only makes Thalia’s smile widen. He unwraps his popsicle and clinks it together with Thalia’s.

 

“I only hear good things about Jason in school, too,” Thalia says—and there’s twice as much pride in there now. Once upon a time, Nico would’ve been wary about Jason taking her away from him—but now he’s happy at the contentment in her voice. “Reyna says he enjoys their history class. I’m glad for him. He needs something like that after all the shit Olympus has put him through.”

 

“He’s thriving,” Nico reassures—and Thalia’s age shows as she grins.

 

She turns her gaze to Nico curiously and claps a hand on his knee. “So—what’s up with my other baby brother? How’s life treating you these days?”

 

Nico sighs again—but Thalia chuckles in a way that lets him know she has nothing but time for him. He tells her his class schedule—AP magically-correct US History as told by the lares, trigonometry as rambled by an overly enthusiastic daughter of Vulcan—and so on. Most evenings are spent approving documents in the principia—then folding one manilla folder only to open a binder for class. He catches his breath over the weekends before getting ready to lead a wedding. They’re supposed to spread out and become sparse after September.

 

(Nico’s looking forward to it since he’s barely had time for Mythomagic Club.)

 

“I heard my brother went to a wedding with you this past weekend,” Thalia comments—and Nico’s cheeks set ablaze.

 

He rubs his arm thoughtfully and stares at the ground. Tentatively, he asks, “What all did he say about it?”

 

“All good things.” Thalia shrugs. “Last time I was at a wedding was with Beryl. She put me on baby duty while she flirted with the bartender.”

 

“Baby?”

 

Thalia gestures to the door behind her.

 

“Right,” Nico says. He thinks back to the tiny photo he saw of Thalia and Jason back on Jason’s birthday. It’s hard to imagine a young Jason and Thalia—especially together—but the small Thalia held her brother as close as today’s would.

 

“Believe it or not, I used to be able to pick him up,” Thalia muses. “Most pinchable cheeks in Pasadena.”

 

Nico laughs softly under his breath.

 

“So why the long face earlier?”

 

He peers back up. Thalia stares back at him, lips etched into her normal mischievous smile and eyes glimmering. She looks at him—knowing him in a way that hits differently from Percy and Reyna.

 

“No reason in particular,” Nico lies. Tries, anyway. This one saw his tears coming out of the Lotus Casino. A few meters away from Reyna’s front yard was practically nothing.

 

“Really?” Thalia straightens in the bench and pets Aurum’s head. “Because you looked two steps away from shoving your head in your backpack.”

 

Nico makes a face.

 

“Percy pissing you off?” Thalia guesses. “I could punch him.”

 

“No—well. Yes.” Nico hesitates. He thinks back to his conversation with Reyna on the beach. How he didn’t want things to change. How he still doesn’t want things to change.

 

But Nico also thinks about what Reyna said about Thalia. How she valued their relationship as much as he did—and the last few minutes has proven that. Nico isn’t privy to her company as often as before—not while he’s busy with school and praetorship and his sister—but Thalia’s never tried to make him feel less than important. She’s never told him not to come to her.

 

“Say the word,” Thalia says—and she cracks her knuckles. “You know I don’t need an excuse to brawl with Kelp for Brains.”

 

Nico can’t help his reluctance. He sighs and rubs his temples.

 

“Percy…” Nico trails off. “Thinks I like someone.”

 

Thalia’s eyes light up—thrilled in a way that reminds Nico of when Leo and he announced they were dating. But they dim, and she makes a pained face. “Aw, no—did he do something embarrassing?”

 

Nico resists the urge to offhandedly say his whole existence is embarrassing—because as fun as it can be to rib Percy, Nico’s enjoyed being able to catch up with his old partner. Instead, he sits straighter in his chair. “Not necessarily.”

 

“That’s unusual of him,” Thalia notes—regardless of what quip Nico does have ready.

 

The corners of Nico’s lips etch into a tiny smile. He rocks the chair.

 

“So,” Thalia says next. “Someone I know?”

 

“He’s not in the Legion. He…goes to my school.”

 

“Oh,” Thalia says, and a speculative look overtakes her. “Guess we’ll be hearing a lot more of that this year. Rey said a lot of Greek demigods transferred so they could get a safe education. That’s why I insisted Jason go.”

 

“Right. Jason.”

 

“So he’s Greek?” Thalia guesses—and Nico gives her that one. He nods ever-so slightly, still unable to look her in the eye. “And Percy thinks you like him.”

 

Again, Nico nods.

 

“How’d he figure that?”

 

“How does Percy figure anything?” Nico laments. He rolls his eyes emphatically and falls slack against the bench behind him. “If I so much as stare at a donut funny, he wonders if someone’s poisoned it.”

 

Thalia imparts a laugh—but it leans more into fervent cackle. “That’s what happens when you get the most obstinate guy in New Rome to be your big brother, Neeks. He follows your orders without a second thought.”

 

“Not this time.” Again, Nico’s mood sours from his talk with Percy. He catches himself before he can rub his forehead again. “I keep telling him he’s off base, but he just doesn’t listen.”

 

Thalia hums. “Well, is he wrong?”

 

“Absolutely,” Nico replies—and his cheeks fluster with heat as the corner of Thalia’s lips etch into a smile. He shrinks under her gaze.

 

“Is he actually wrong?” Thalia tries again—and she waits, to get the full sentence out.

 

Nico sighs and holds his head in his hands. “He’s…just. He’s not who I want to like right now.”

 

“Straight?”

 

“Bi, actually.” Nico peers back up and watches as Thalia takes in the information.

 

“Taken?” Thalia guesses again.

 

“No. Not that other people haven’t tried,” Nico mutters—more bitterly than he intends. His mind goes back to Bart and Tim’s wedding, where Mike Kahale laid it on thick for Jason, and the son of Hades looked like a deer caught in headlights.

 

Every ounce of Nico’s brain screamed mine, with the thought of wedging himself between Mike and Jason—but that quickly melted into painful embarrassment moments later, when he had to remind himself that Jason was his plus one, but not necessarily his…anything. It was drowned out by Jason’s own mortification when he realized Mike’s intent—which compelled Nico to shield Jason even more.

 

“So,” Thalia continues, “ask him out. What’s the worse that could happen?”

 

Nico wrinkles his nose. “It’s not that simple.”

 

He waits—though he’s not sure for what. Thalia studies him with a different charm from Reyna and Percy. She isn’t deterred—but she doesn’t try to annoy him into a decision, either. Nico’s grown so used to Percy’s persistence and Reyna’s inquisitive nature about the whole ordeal, that he feels compelled to continue.

 

“He’s not ready to date yet,” Nico continues. He fiddles with the end of his sleeve. “He—well, he said maybe someday, but not now.”

 

“So you have talked to him about it.”

 

“Yes. No. Sort of.” Nico resists the urge to smack himself, and sucks in another overwhelming breath. “Not about me. Mostly about him.”

 

“A guy who mostly talks about himself?” Thalia arches an eyebrow. “You want to date a narcissist?”

 

“He’s the most selfless guy that I know. To a fault.” Nico sits straighter in his seat—then realizes he’s giving a steely eye to Thalia of all people. He’s quick to shrink again. “He’s…really good to talk to. I could talk to him about anything.”

 

“Which is why you like him. Sorry—” Thalia clears her throat and makes a corrective gesture with her hand. “—why Percy thinks you like him.”

 

Nico snorts and smiles at his shoes. “It…could be a reason to, yeah.”                                                                                                                                

 

On a growing list of many.

 

“So far you haven’t told me a reason not to ask him out, Neeks.” Thalia whistles emphatically and rocks the porch bench. “Tell me the best thing that could happen.”

 

“There is no best thing.” Nico shakes his head defiantly. “It’s not—”

 

The word feasible sits at his tongue, but Thalia only smiles. She knows he heard him correctly—and that he’ll answer.

 

“He…could like me back.” Nico’s not sure how he feels as he says the words aloud. It’s not hope—but it’s not the usual sleight against himself, either.

 

Jason could actually, truly like him back.

 

Grace likes you, repeats in his head again. Nico planned Jason’s birthday, and they spent the whole day at the beach together. They spent the last weekend together, which easily sprinkled into the early minutes of Monday evening. As exhausted as Nico was, he didn’t regret a minute of it.

 

Jason wanted him to come to Camp Halfblood. Jason wanted to spend time with him, at the beach, and talked Nico up to the Trojan Sea Monster. Jason wanted to hang out with Nico—even if the War Games proved to be an awful start.

 

A, he’s just like that, rests at the edge of Nico’s tongue, but part of him doesn’t want to say it aloud. Not when Thalia is asking for a best scenario—and the idea of Jason liking him back makes his chest flutter.

 

Thalia claps a hand on his shoulder. “I’ll make it easy for you, kid. KISS.”

 

Nico looks back at the daughter of Pluto. Stares.

 

“Keep It Simple, Stupid,” Thalia recites. She waves a finger with each word, her expression pointed, and she narrows her gaze. “Don’t think about the praetor stuff or lousy exes, or Percy, Rey, or even me. The only people who matter in this scenario are you and whoever this mystery guy is.”

 

KISS sounds like something Percy would say.”

 

“Yeah? And between him and me, who got the girl?” Thalia throws an arm around him with a laugh, more boisterous than usual—and her grip is firm. When the laughter dies down, her hold doesn’t.

 

Nico feels ten again. He leans into her shoulder, like the cool nights where they rested on their way to Camp Jupiter.

 

“Don’t let the bad sike you out, kid. Otherwise you’re going to miss out on a whole lot of good,” she whispers softly. “Like—watching the girl you’re in love with go missing for two months, only to come back with a new girlfriend—then fall into Tartarus.”

 

Thalia and Reyna don’t speak of Tartarus often—but when she says the words aloud, her voice sounds far away.

 

Nico’s chest aches. Asking what happened down in Tartarus feels as taboo as saying the name aloud. He remembers how shattered Jason looked—and that was days after being saved in Rome.

 

“You got a kiss out of it,” Nico reminds her awkwardly.

 

The corner of Thalia’s lips lift. She suddenly looks less hollow—and instead, she ruffles his hair. “Now imagine how much simpler it would’ve been if I told Reyna that I liked her in the first place.”

  

“What if he doesn’t like me back?” Nico can’t help but asking. He smooths out a crease on his pants. “Things could get weird.”

 

Thalia shrugs. “Things could get bad. He could die, Nico.”

 

Nico looks back at her—and his lips contort into an awful frown. She doesn’t falter—not with a word associated with her father’s realm.

 

“We’re demigods, kid. We’re not promised a tomorrow.” Thalia shakes her head. “Just look at my brother. He slayed Kronos, and not even a few months later, he got thrown into the Pit, too. The Fates weave whatever story they want.”

 

“I don’t like that.”

 

Thalia holds onto his words. She gives his shoulder a resounding squeeze and kisses him on the forehead. “Your feelings are your own, Neeks. For all of things that are out of our control, don’t let anyone else try to sort those out for you.”

 

Nico considers her words. Before he can put more thought into it, Reyna’s front door opens.

 

Jason’s pokes out—and as his lips raise into a smile, Nico can feel his heart lifting with it. “Nico, hey.”

 

He makes his way onto the porch with Reyna close behind him. The straps of his backpack sit carefully on either shoulder, and he smiles fully for all to see.

 

“Hi, Jason.” Nico’s face tingles.

 

Reyna smiles in Nico’s direction—then kisses her girlfriend. “I was wondering why you were out here so long.”

 

Thalia kisses her back, then stands to her feet. The swinging bench rocks beneath her weight, and she curls a hand over Reyna’s waist. “I was in good company. You two finally done?”

 

“As prepared as we’ll ever be for this debate tomorrow.” Reyna looks over to Jason, approving. “Your brother knows how to throw out a good argument when it’s needed.”

 

“Does he?” Nico muses. He turns to Jason, who looks less than stern.

 

Instead, Jason shrugs, his hands curled against the straps of his backpack. Under Nico’s gaze, he blushes. “So long as it doesn’t pertain to my personal life.”

 

Thalia laughs. She reaches over and pinches one of Jason’s cheeks. “Running your mouth about everything but your own feelings. Maybe we are related.”

 

Jason rolls his eyes. His smile is firm again as he looks over to Nico. “You staying long?”

 

“Uh, no.” Nico skirts Jason’s gaze. He tugs at his sleeve again and stands up. “I was headed back. I promised Bianca we’d have dinner tonight.”

 

Jason stares at him curiously—then he raises an eyebrow in concern. “Bianca’s cooking dinner?”

 

“We’ll make our way to the dining hall. I can’t have another explosion in my kitchen.” Nico tugs on a belt loop and snorts.

 

“Oh. Well, I can walk you home if you want.”

 

Nico’s face tingles once more. He glances upwards towards Thalia and Reyna—both of whom give him different looks. Thalia looks none the wiser—only happy that they’re getting along. Reyna looks blasé—but there’s an eyebrow there, waiting for him.

 

“I think I can make it home,” Nico promises. The corner of his lip lifts into a wry smile and he gestures over the hedge. “Next door, I mean.”

 

“Oh, uh. Okay.” Jason’s eyebrows knit together—but he doesn’t say much else. There’s a look of disappointment on his face that makes Nico feel inclined to change his mind. “Then I’ll see you at school tomorrow.”

 

“Yeah,” Nico agrees. He fiddles with his backpack and takes a step back until he’s no longer lingering on the porch. “See you tomorrow, Jason.”

 

He makes his way to his own porch as the conversation between Reyna and Thalia fade into obscurity. As he climbs the steps to his front door, Nico catches a glance of Reyna’s smile, and the extra glitter in Thalia’s eye as she hangs onto her girlfriend’s words.

 

Jason catches his eye, too. He lifts a hand and waves at Nico.

 

The edges of Nico’s lips twitch, and he waves back.

 

*

 

Nico doesn’t get much sleep that night. His mind replays the conversations he had with two of the most important people in his life—and he’s not partial to either sentiment. Percy says he should ask Jason out so he can finally (“finally”) voice his disapproval. Thalia says he should ask…this mystery guy out before said mystery guy dies.

 

He thinks about his conversation with Reyna back on the beach—the only time she’s ever brought it up because she respects him—about how he planned on getting over it.

 

Nico’s had the whole summer and the last month to get over it. So he wishes it was as easy as promising that he would aloud. It isn’t. Every time he sees Jason’s face, his stomach does somersaults, and he’s compelled to smile when Jason does.

 

Luckily, Bianca dropped the subject months ago. Making new friends at school—who enjoy normal things while understanding the abnormal when it comes to being a demigod—has been a good look on her. It reminds him of their time in the casino and even before—when Bianca wanted to spend time with friends without anything strange going on.

 

When they were seven and five, strange was just a little brother who liked to stuff his shirt with food for the pigeons. Now Nico had a whole legion to command, while she spends most of her evenings either glued to her camera or her phone. She lights up during dinner when they run into classmates from her English class. It keeps her from noticing his disgruntled mood—because the last thing he wants is to get prodded by someone else, too.

 

Nico still doesn’t understand. Is he really that obvious?

 

(Apparently to everyone but Jason Grace—but if Nico had it his way, those feelings would’ve been locked in a box and thrown into the sea months ago.)

 

He’s obvious enough for Percy to notice after months apart. Obvious enough that Reyna feels the need to point out her observations. Just enough for Thalia to notice he’s been unsettled as of late.

 

Not obvious enough, to really know how to go about things with Jason—because he’s not really getting over it, and he’s not doing anything about it, either.

 

Something apparently sticks out to Jason the next day at school, though. Jason appears at his locker after first period, his pencil tucked cutely behind his ear and his eyes brimming with the smile on his face. “Hey.”

 

“Hey yourself,” Nico says—though there’s much less pep to it than the day before. His stomach is in knots, chest heavy.

 

Jason leans into Nico’s gaze, the warmth in his smile almost radiating. But there’s concern in his eyes. “I, uh—just wanted to check in with you about last night. You and my sister looked like you were having a pretty serious conversation outside—?”

 

“What? No,” Nico hastily cuts him off, his cheeks blooming with heat. He slams his locker shut—but doesn’t miss the way Jason flinches from the sudden sound. “You…didn’t hear anything, did you?”

 

Jason stares back at him, puzzled. “Reyna and I got pretty involved in our studies. She gets intense.”

 

A smile pulls across Nico’s lips. “Can’t say I’m surprised.”

 

“I…doubt we’ll even have to get two words in,” Jason says, and a goofy smile forms across his lips. “All she has to do is that wolf stare all of you romans have.”

 

“‘Us Romans’?” Nico repeats—and Jason shrugs. “Maybe the class will let you basketweave during intermission.”

 

Jason laughs, and the colorful collection of beads shimmer against his collarbone. There’s brevity in his chuckle—soft—compared to the heavy burden he carried around his neck. His cheeks dimple with his smile—and like always, Nico can’t help smiling with it.

 

“Yesterday was weird, right?” Jason asks him as they start walking to art. “Gym class?”

 

“I’ll say. I’m not sure if Coach wanted an Avengers-level battle or if he just wanted to rent the movie.”

 

“He wouldn’t have to worry about property damage that way,” Jason points out. “Though I’m not sure what all’s to be learned there. Between all the green screen and suspension cords.”

 

“A nice Trivia kid would learn the difference between a proper illusion and CGI,” Nico quips—which just makes Jason laugh again.

 

Before they make it past the doorframe of their next class, Jason catches Nico’s wrist. It startles Nico, but he doesn’t pull away.

 

“So,” Jason starts softly, the look in his eyes shifting into something else. He guides them out of the way for other classmates. “I…know whatever you and Thalia talk about stays between you and my sister. You two are close and all. But…if anything ever bothers you, I’m here, too.”

 

Nico’s face tingles with heat. He stares down at his wrist bone, where Jason’s thumb hovers.

 

Jason’s gaze is intense as ever—and it’s directed at Nico.

 

Nico’s quick to pull his hand away. He tugs at the hem of his sleeve and clears his throat. “Um, thanks. It’s—nothing, really. We, uh. We were talking about guy stuff.”

 

Jason blinks and stares at him curiously. And repeats, “Guy stuff.”

 

“Yeah,” Nico says. He rubs his tattoo thoughtfully through his sleeve and feels his face flush with heat. His eyes fall to the ground. “Uh…boys.”

 

“Boys,” Jason repeats—and Nico can actually see the lightbulb flicker above his head. “Oh—because of what happened this past weekend?”

 

Nico blinks. He stares at Jason.

 

“When you said weddings were a reminder that you were single,” Jason says helpfully—which, of course, makes Nico think about the comment that followed after that.

 

You’ll meet Mr. Right someday.

 

Nico studies Jason in the same manner as the wedding—to find the hidden meaning behind Jason’s words. Jason isn’t nearly as relaxed as a week ago. Instead, he stares at Nico with a thoughtfulness and concern that usually undoes him.

 

You’re a catch, Nico, had followed that sentence.

 

“Assuming that I…ever did find someone,” Nico says, choosing his words carefully, “how would you feel about that?”

 

Jason blinks again, clearly confused. Nico feels his face flush with heat.

 

“Never mind,” Nico continues—and he immediately turns to enter the classroom.

 

“Not great,” Jason admits after minutes of pondering. He smiles mirthfully and shrugs. “I’ve already got to share you with the rest of New Rome and Percy. That new guy’s gonna have to get to the back of the line.”

 

Nico stares at Jason.

 

“Plus,” Jason continues, rubbing his forehead as usual, “I’d miss hanging out with you too much. I really liked dancing with you.”

 

Nico feels the heat rushing to his cheeks again, and he ducks his head. His heart flutters.

 

For all the nonsense that happened yesterday between Percy and Thalia, her other words stick out in the back of his mind.

 

What’s the best thing that could happen, if he asked Jason out?

 

Nico clears his throat, his hand tight over the straps of his backpack. “You…remember that museum we passed in Odesa?”

 

Jason raises his head curiously and then nods. “Yeah, of course I do—”

 

“We should go,” Nico says quickly—nervously—before Jason can finish his sentence. He shifts his weight between his feet. “Tomorrow, just—you and me. We could go to that varenyky place—or we could go to an Italian restaurant. I could—I could finally show you good gnocchi, and we could…dance there, too, if you want…or, don’t want.”  

 

By the time he gets to the end of his sentence, Nico thinks he’s blacked out from most of their conversation. Jason looks back at him, and Nico’s heartrate spikes. There’s no neck-touching, or odd eyes—but Nico struggles to read his body language.

 

Then, Jason frowns. “Oh, um—sorry, Nico—”

 

“It’s fine,” Nico says quickly, and he’s quick to spin around again. “Forget I said anything.”

 

“—I’m busy tomorrow. Would Saturday work?”

 

Nico halts. He turns around again and is met with Jason’s candid smile. The worry from before washes away from the son of Hades’s face—replaced only by its usual charm. Nico’s hands twitch over his backpack again.

 

“You want to spend time with me,” Nico says. Asks. He’s not quite sure how it sounds coming out of his mouth.

 

Jason stares at him, puzzled.

 

“You want to spend time with me. Alone, in a different country, looking at museums and eating Italian food,” Nico elaborates, and his voice cracks just a tad in disbelief.

 

This time, Jason holds back a laugh—but not at Nico’s expense. The edges of his lips raise, and he touches Nico’s shoulder again. “Nico, I’ve been trying to spend time with you all summer.”

 

There’s an earnestness Jason’s voice that always manages to make Nico’s heart stutter. His chest hiccups—but this time it’s giddiness. Nico stands firmly on his own two feet, taller. “Okay. Okay, so we’re doing this.”

 

Nico’s acutely aware that Jason hasn’t let go of his shoulder yet. Instead, Jason smiles and tilts his head. “Yeah, I guess we are.”

 

At that moment, the bell rings.

 

They take their seats in art class, side-by-side. Their teacher—a barrel-chested legacy of Ceres with a low baritone voice and chiseled face greets them at the front of class. Nico had never known their art teacher in the Legion—but he speaks with an air of authority that most of his centurions would be jealous of. So would their gym teacher.

 

(Nico was never much of an artist—but it was the only class that Thalia ever spoke highly of.)

 

“Alright, class,” their teacher says with a grandiose wave. “Today, we’ll be making portraits. Capturing the essence of another’s soul!”

 

As their teacher waves his arms, Jason flashes Nico a funny look. Nico shrugs. Most teachers at New Rome High were a speech away from playing Mark Antony.

 

“First,” their teacher continues. He picks up a plate from his desk, giddy. “Everyone gets a spinach puff. Then find your partner!”

 

Much like gym class, Nico and Jason look at each other out of instinct. Nico would be lying if he said it didn’t make him giddier.

 

“You know, if you ask,” Nico says, “he might give you his spinach puff recipe.”

 

Jason’s laugh helps carry Nico’s grin for the rest of second period.

 

*

 

Nico’s evening is amassed by Bianca’s closet. There’s a trail of her clothes beginning from the foyer and ending at her bedroom when he opens the door. He hovers over the trail of obsolete fabric and makes it to her room, where she’s pacing back and forth, creating a storm out of apparel.

 

Nico wrinkles his nose. He knocks on the door lightly. “Sis?”

 

Bianca whips around quickly. Eerily so.

 

“It’s too early for spring cleaning,” Nico remarks. He picks up the pile around him and creates a pathway for himself in the room.

 

She has a bootie on one foot and a sandal on the other, with the sleeve of a cardigan dangling from her arm, and two bralettes overlapping a t-shirt. Bianca stares at him despairingly. “I have a date tomorrow.”

 

“Do you now?” Nico asks, without really asking. He thinks back to his discussion with Jason this past weekend—how one of them knew that she was in Vancouver, and only one of them knew about this date.

 

Bianca studies him carefully, then she miserably plops onto her bed. “I have nothing to wear.”

 

“Really? We can go shopping in the living room if you’d like.” Nico gestures to the hellfire of clothes outside her bedroom door—then slowly invites himself in. “I don’t understand why you’re so nervous. You were never this bad growing up.”

 

Bianca lifts her head and glares at him. “Forgive me for assuming I’d stay dead before I reached my formative years.”

 

“Forgive me for thinking you’d stay dead, too.” Nico leans into a bed post. He looks up at her curiously, and she throws a pillow at him. “Oof—okay, okay—aren’t you usually using Jason as a mirror? Where’s he?”

 

“Going over calculus homework with Leo.”

 

Hearing Leo in the conversation tugs something in Nico’s chest. He stands straighter, lips pressing into a frown, then turns to his sister. “I didn’t know they had class together.”

 

Bianca shrugs and lays her head back into the mattress. “They’re in the same grade. I should be too—if, you know, if I hadn’t died and all.”

 

“We’re getting very casual talking about your death here.”

 

She lifts her head and looks at him curiously—carefully—and Nico only shrugs. Bianca lets out another sigh and lays back down.

 

“Don’t take this the wrong way—but you did have a goddess for a girlfriend for a while.” Nico eyes her—then slowly begins to clear the floor and place the clothes on his sister. She doesn’t protest. “I’d think that half a goddess would mean half the trouble.”

 

Bianca lifts a tank top from her eyes and stares at the ceiling forlornly. “That was different.”

 

“How?”

 

“We were two people stuck on an island with each other for like a relative year. And I was the only girl that was ever thrown into Ogygia.” Bianca wrinkles her nose. She sits up, and a waterfall of clothes cascade off her torso. “An island is only so big. I’ve got to compete with the rest of Malibu for Piper’s attention.”

 

Nico considers her words. “Didn’t she give you her number?”

 

“Well, yeah.”

 

“And didn’t she ask you out on a date?”

 

“Yeah.”

 

“So what’s your problem?”

 

Bianca pouts again, her lips pressed into an impossible pout. “I have—”

 

Nico gestures to the aftermath of her tornado of clothes, and she ceases her claim. “What did Mammina used to say about meeting others?”

 

Bianca pauses, her hands over her chest. “Always present your best self.”

 

“Your first meeting with Piper was getting catapulted from Prince Charming’s Royal Carousel after getting devoured by undead skeletons.” Nico stares at the ground and plucks a lace top from the floor. “Your second meeting was riding on a hellhound across Camp Halfblood.”

 

Bianca groans. “I wouldn’t call that my best self.”

 

Nico shrugs. “I’d call that pretty cool.”

 

For the first time, Bianca doesn’t respond with a biting remark. She looks at him again with interest.

 

“Be yourself,” Nico says, and he plucks a pair of shoes from the ground. “And build an outfit around a good pair of running shoes. Just in case you run into something while you’re out there. Like a Trojan Sea Monster halfway through labor.”

 

Bianca stares at him in surprise—then offers an arched eyebrow. “You’re being suspiciously nice right now.”

 

“Oh—there’s an ulterior motive. I’d like to see my floor again before tomorrow,” Nico retorts half-jokingly. He climbs to his feet and finds that Bianca hasn’t disagreed with the lace-up boots he placed in her hands. Nico reaches for a complimentary top while she smiles. “Don’t sweat the small things, Sis. Otherwise you’re never going to enjoy the big ones.”

 

This time, Bianca’s lips spread into a wider smile. Nico would be lying if he said his conversation with Jason didn’t carry most of his day.

 

She pushes the heap of unworn clothes off herself and fiddles with her hair. “Any suggestions on hair?”

 

*

 

An evening with Bianca where they aren’t at each other’s necks is hard to discount. Nico ends up formulating an outfit for his big sister worthy enough to conceal her knife—and make her look cute for a date. It’s a far cry from when he used to barrel into her room, interrupting eloquent tea parties by pretending to be Peter Pan with a trail of stuffed animal Lost Boys tied to his waist by a bed sheet—or his pirate phase with Toucan, his toy parrot.

 

The whole thing is weird, of course—Nico was around to watch Reyna and Piper make googly eyes at each other while Thalia pretended neither of them existed. Piper showing up in Orlando and Bianca locking eyes with her almost immediately was also weird (not already counting the part where his sister was suddenly alive.)

 

But, Bianca is happy at the end of their session together, and Nico has a clean floor.

 

The next day in school, Jason taps him on the shoulder after gym class. “So—Odesa is ten hours ahead of New Rome.”

 

Nico pauses and stares at him curiously. “You…stewed on that?”

 

“Yes? Well, no,” Jason says, and his cheeks dimple as he smiles. He rubs his forehead carefully. “It slipped my mind after art, but—it’s one of those weird things. My internal clock is pretty accurate. Thalia thinks it’s like a time of death kind of thing, converted for locals. Like Percy’s Spongebob senses.

 

Nico snickers, while Jason offers him too charming of a wry smile.

 

“Also Thalia’s words,” Jason offers.

 

“So,” Nico starts, his chest teetering with nervous excitement.

 

“So, the museum opens at ten and closes at five. If we want to have enough time there, we’ll probably have to pull an all-nighter. Sort of.” Jason smiles again, looking a little more excited. “How about we meet up after the War Games, like last time?”

 

A flutter streaks across Nico’s chest. He closes his locker shut and stares at the other demigod curiously. “Don’t you have plans tonight?”

 

“They should end at the same time.” Jason looks up into the air, then nonchalantly shrugs. “We can just crash back at my place once the day’s over. Thalia likes to keep the apartment dark, anyway. Something about—”

 

“Keeping the mood of a Pluto kid?” Nico finishes for him—and the explanation reminds him very much of Cabin Thirteen.

 

The corner of Jason’s lips twitch, and he nods. “If you’re good with that.”

 

“Yeah, we could do that.” Nico thinks back to Jason’s own statement the day before—how he had fun dancing. It’s just proof that the past weekend has lingered in Jason’s mind as much as it has his own. “What are you doing, anyway?”

 

The bell starts to ring midway through Jason’s sentence—and they have to pick up the pace to separate for their next class. Nico hears the statement clearly, though:

 

“Leo and I are chaperoning Piper and Bianca’s date.”

 

*

 

That statement hangs over Nico’s head. He thinks about it through all of seventh period, unable to focus while taking Vitellus’s pop quiz over the Industrial Revolution. Nico opts out of class discussion—because the statement Leo and Jason are chaperoning is louder than anything he could add to the lar’s inflated history lesson.

 

It’s annoying, that despite how long it’s been since Leo and he broke up, that Nico can suddenly feel a rush of irritation beneath his skin.

 

Hanging out was one thing—Leo and Jason met long before Jason and Nico started hanging out. And they got along. Jason gets along with most people—usually to his own detriment.

 

He’s just like that.

 

Which, of course, carries Nico on a wild thought for the rest of the afternoon while Percy drags him straight home to get ready, insisting dibs on him for the rest of the day.

 

Jason’s just like that, nice to everyone. Even Percy, who feels the irrational need to draw a line in the sand for the son of Hades.

 

Jason’s chaperoning Bianca’s date.

 

Jason’s going on Bianca’s date, with Leo.

 

Jason’s going on a date with Leo.

 

But we were supposed to—starts in Nico’s head, before he realizes he asked Jason out on a date without ever using the word date. Maybe out of reflex since Jason freaked out so much after Mike Kahale hit on him.

 

Jason’s just like that, he repeats. Jason’s like nice to everyone.

 

“Bro, you’re like a billion miles away,” Percy claps a hand on his back and eyes him suspiciously. “What’s wrong—?”

 

“Nothing,” Nico says quickly, and a shameful heat rushes to his cheeks. He can hear Bianca in the next room, getting ready for her date with the outfit they chose together and working on the hairdo they collaborated on last night. It’s almost a silly thought—Piper’s notorious for being a beauty who purposefully hid it. Their two godly mothers and grandma always emphasized for them to present their best self.

 

Nico’s best self is currently—somewhere. Wallowing, wondering how on earth Jason could stare him in the face all week and fail to mention going on a double date with Piper, Bianca, and Leo Valdez, son of Vulcan.

 

Maybe Jason didn’t want him to know.

 

Except it’s just chaperoning, Nico corrects in his head—as best he can in Jason’s voice. This is the same demigod who was put off by all of Mike Kahale’s advances and then ushered Nico into a slow dance.

 

Jason’s just like that.

 

Jason’s just like that. Nico’s been saying that all summer.

 

So, maybe tomorrow isn’t a date. Today, with Leo, isn’t a date either. Nico can gladly go back to the other side of the line as Jason’s friend and confidante, and they can go to Odesa—just the two of them, all day at one of Jason’s past times—after Jason did some careful research, and Nico’s grand suggestion of taking Jason to a restaurant that serves good Italian food—as friends.

 

Friends, who spend all weekend together, go to weddings together, baking together, cuddling on the couch together, and are willing to go to the other side of the world just to spend time together.

 

“Dude—I think your head’s, uh. Smoking.”

 

Nico swats above his head almost immediately, airing out an unwelcomed haze. “My head doesn’t smoke. It. Condensates.”

 

Percy stares at him, partly amused—and Nico bites back the obvious claim from the other day.

 

Grace likes you. (No, he doesn’t, he’s just like that.)

 

“My head doesn’t smoke,” Nico repeats, his voice filled with a steely ire.

 

“Sure, sure. Oh—you know what it is?” Percy shakes his head while Nico moves to the closet to change into clothes for Camp Jupiter. “Valdez’s head smokes. It did that all the time on the Argo II once his fire powers got out.”

 

Fire powers. Nico twitches—because although he’s heard about Leo’s blessing of fire in passing and recounts, it’s something that never came up while they’re dating. Then he fidgets again because he wonders if Jason knew.

 

Bianca is humming Katy Perry from their shared bathroom.

 

“Dude, seriously—you look ready to puke. What’s up?”

 

“Nothing,” Nico says. “C’mon—we’re going to be late to the watchtower. I’m all yours for the evening, remember?”

 

Percy lights up at that—which will buy him a couple more hours before Percy will circle back to interrogate him again. Nico says goodbye through the bathroom door without voicing good luck—and he’s very aware he does it on purpose.

 

He wants Bianca to have a good date—but not if that means Jason has a good date, too.

 

(Not a date. Chaperoning. Could be a date.)

 

(Basically a date.)

 

Which—means tomorrow is definitely not a date, if Jason is on one right now. If Jason is interested in Leo.

 

Nico is in an even worse mood through War Games. It’s Death Ball tonight—which means a Russian roulette of poisons, powders, and paint in a rigged paint ball gun. He buys a little more time when Annabeth shows up. Percy is busy with her, but—

 

“You look tense.”

 

—Nico has to come up with an excuse for Reyna as to why he’s annoyed, too. Reyna protrudes in a different way from Percy—and Nico normally is okay with it.

 

Nico exhales, dressed in protective armor in case something threatens to melt off of him. “I’m fine.”

 

Reyna arches an eyebrow.

 

“I might have done something stupid,” Nico says vaguely, and he rubs an elbow.

 

Reyna arches an eyebrow. “Percy related?”

 

Nico stares at his Death Ball gun and wrinkles his nose. He nods his head. Then shakes it. Shrugs.

 

“Thalia related?” Reyna guesses next—but Nico’s reaction is more-or-less the same. “Jason related.”

 

Nico doesn’t move with that one. His grip tightens over the Death Ball gun, finger hovering over the trigger.

 

Reyna stares at him, then she arches an eyebrow. In a much lower voice, she asks, “Did you…?”

 

“No,” Nico interjects. It’s with less ferocity than usual. His next statement holds his irritation. “That’s never happening.”

 

“Okay,” Reyna says. “So what’s the problem—?”

 

“I think he’s on a date with Leo tonight.”

 

“Oh,” Reyna says—and her eyes widen. She’s careful in reaction because she knows Nico will soak in every moment of it—whether he should or not. “And you’re sure about that?”

 

Nico almost immediately regrets saying it aloud. He presses a hand to his face—then stares up at Reyna in disdain. “Bianca and Piper have a date tonight.”

 

“Okay.” Reyna nods slowly.

 

“And Jason and Leo are chaperoning.”

 

Reyna lowers her head into another nod—but only one swift jerk. She crosses her arms over her chest. “Okay. So they’re chaperoning.”

 

Nico stares back at her. “This doesn’t scream double date to you?”

 

“I can’t say that it doesn’t.” Reyna pulls his hand away from the trigger before he can hurt himself. “Then again, I spent all summer thinking there was something going on between the two of you and nothing came of it—”

 

“There’s nothing there,” Nico says—reflexively—more than he intends. His jaw twitches, and he hates how ashamed he feels—for a variety of reasons.

 

“—so Leo and Jason potentially going on a date shouldn’t bother you as much as it does,” Reyna finishes, and Nico’s cheeks stain a miserable red. “But I understand. Because—”

 

“It’s Leo.”

 

“—and—”

 

“It’s Jason.

 

“—and you did say he’s just like that.” Reyna makes a hand gesture that echoes of Nico’s own wave. “So, hear him out. You never know—there’s probably not anything there.”

 

Nico makes a face. He lets the death ball gun dangle from his waist and crosses his arms over his chest.

 

“And,” Reyna adds finally, “if you’re so concerned about this being a thing, then you know what you need to do.”

 

“I do?”

 

Reyna gives him another look. She claps both hands on his shoulders and stares him straight in the eye. “Talk to him.”

 

*

 

It’s a quarter past nine by the time Nico makes it home. The house is still empty—which would make it easier to unwind in normal circumstances. In his current one, he’s only a bundle of nerves. Nico packs his backpack—with his own game console, with a set of clothes for the evening and personal vanities.

 

He’s…practically lurking as he stares out the window in five-minute intervals. His heart is pounding in his chest, and there’s an awful taste in his mouth, reminding him that Jason said this…chaperoning won’t take very long.

 

At a quarter to ten, Nico hears it. Soft laughter that makes him shoot straight from the couch to the front window.

 

He sees Leo and Jason as they turn the corner on the via principalis and slowly make their way past Nico’s house. They stop, for some reason, and Nico’s lips tug into a straight line.

 

Jason wears his normal smile, cheeks dimpled. He’s relaxed as he looks to the son of Vulcan, thumbs hooked into his front belt loops.

 

And Nico is very familiar with the way Leo grins, mischievous and full of glee. Leo rocks back and forth between his feet. Nico can almost hear the jingle of his pockets.

 

Jason gestures to the house, eyes turning in their direction. Nico is quick to duck.

 

He sees Leo’s grin spread ever so slightly, and Nico twitches. Jason’s expression changes into…something unreadable, and his smile fades ever so slightly.

 

Before he can help himself, Nico bolts out of the house. He slams the door behind him and marches towards them. Stops, before he reaches the front gate of his house.

 

Both Jason and Leo snap to attention, eyes locking immediately with Nico’s.

 

The smile on Jason’s face widens. “Hey, Nico.”

 

Leo lifts a brow, and Nico wishes he didn’t feel so irked by it. “Yeah. Hi Nico.”

 

Nico stares between the two—his hands curled over his backpack straps. “Hi. You’re in front of my house.”

 

“Oh—yeah,” Jason says—and it shouldn’t bother Nico so much how casual he is about it. “I was just telling Leo that you and I had plans after this.”

 

“Is this ending?” Nico asks warily. He doesn’t miss the way Leo studies him.

 

“Maybe a couple minutes sooner than I would’ve liked,” Leo remarks. He gestures down the end of the via principalis, where Jason’s apartment complex lays. “I have to make sure my date gets home safe and sound.”

 

Nico’s eyes flit to Jason—to see how Jason will react to the D word. Jason doesn’t even flinch.

 

Instead, Jason’s lips press into a goofy smile. He turns to Nico. “I can meet up with you in a few—”

 

“I didn’t know you could be so thoughtful, Leo.” Nico’s blood turns to ice. He turns to Leo sternly and watches as Leo’s expression shifts. Misses the way Jason’s seems to fall in confusion.

 

Leo stares back at him, the whimsy of his smile fading. His hands jingle in his pockets—something he’s always done when he’s not calm—and he shrugs. “What can I say?”

 

“Speechless for once?” Nico bites. He can’t help it.

 

It’s more than satisfactory when Leo’s smile drops for good, and his gaze narrows at Nico. His lips press into a firm line, and he shifts the weight between his feet. “No—just keeping my cool. What about you, di Angelo? You good, bro?”

 

Nico’s face burns scarlet, but he holds his ground. He can’t help it—the irritation in his chest, and the scowl at his lips. Nico should keep his cool. He shouldn’t have escalated this quickly.

 

He should’ve calmed down, when Jason touched his shoulder. Jason flashes him a look, but Nico can’t bring himself to take it in. “Maybe we should calm down before we say something we’ll regret.”

 

“Yeah,” Leo agrees, and he crosses his arms over his chest. “Maybe we should.”

 

Nico’s hands curl into fists and he tries not to look at the other hand Jason has coiled around the son of Vulcan’s shoulders.

 

He takes in a breath.

 

Two.

 

“Good night, Leo,” Nico says curtly. He uses the same full dismissal he remembers from his own godly mother and grandmother. Leo’s gaze narrows, annoyed.

 

But his shoulders fall. Leo snorts and lets his hands bustle in his pockets. He turns to Jason. “Good night, Ghost Boy.”

 

“Oh,” Jason says. “Um. Good night, Leo.”

 

Leo turns pointedly to Nico, staring him up and down. “Good night, Tia Callida.

 

Nico’s not sure how to feel about the comparison between himself and Leo’s babysitter-slash-Mammina. He takes the victory of Leo shrinking around the corner—and waits for Leo’s silhouette to disappear altogether.

 

Jason’s hand hasn’t him. “Nico…are you okay?”

 

Neither has Nico’s irritation. Nico shrugs off Jason’s grip and opens the front gate to his house. Still, he can’t seem to look Jason in the eye. “I’m fine.”

 

He had a whole plan. Reyna said talk to Jason. Figure this out. And—after the stupid reasoning by Percy and the morbid encouragement by Thalia, talking it out didn’t seem like such a bad idea. After all—that’s what Nico liked so much about Jason. Being able to talk late into the night.

 

But this—with Leo, irks him to the ends of the earth and back. And Nico hates how fixated he is on that.

 

Jason sidesteps him—not that Nico knows where he was intending on going anyway. “Are…you sure?”

 

“Where are Bianca and Piper?” Nico asks. “I thought you were chaperoning.”

 

Jason is perplexed by the question—but Nico’s been confounded by the situation since this afternoon. “They went to the movies. Leo and I have just been hanging out.”

 

Again, Nico finds himself more annoyed. No amount of breathing can fix that. “So you finished chaperoning.”

 

Jason takes in his observation, still confused. But he nods slowly, his gaze gleaming with undeserved concern. “Yeah, I guess.”

 

“You said,” Nico reminds him, “that you were chaperoning, and that we would meet up when you were done.”

 

It’s a technicality at best, but Nico can’t let it go. Not with Leo. His chest is warm with envy, and his head is pounding with technicalities. The chaperoning, the he’s just like that, and the Date word being thrown around so easily by Leo-freaking-Valdez.

 

Jason stares at him now, and that concern only grows. “Were you waiting long?”

 

“That’s not the point.”

 

“Then I think I need help getting to the point.” Jason’s eyebrows contort with worry. When Nico begins pacing, Jason toes after him. “I don’t understand why you’re so upset.”

 

Nico stops in his trail, and he feels Jason stop behind him. His point is on his tongue, but he yanks it to the back of his throat before he can accidentally blurt it out. Tries to, anyway. Nico’s hands twitch at his side and he touches a hand to his forehead.

 

What’s the point, he thinks. What is the point? How’s he supposed to spin this?

 

“Forget it,” Nico says, and he looks back up to Jason, trying to stuff the feelings of irritation down past the pit of his stomach. He holds a hand out. “Let’s just go to Odesa.”

 

He never should have let Percy needle the thought into his head. Never should’ve let it make it to Thalia.

 

Never should’ve made Bianca look so good for her date. Maybe if Bianca looked bad for once in her life, she would’ve made Jason rush her home and cancel this double date-not-double date.

 

That thought angers him as much as Mike Kahale’s flirting did—because Nico has to remind himself, Jason isn’t his.

 

He’s alarmed because Jason doesn’t reach to hold his hand right away, like Jason normally does. Jason studies Nico, looking up and down with a wrinkle between his brow, and his lips pressed into a frown. There aren’t any dimples from his smile. There isn’t a glow in his eye—just worry. For Nico.

 

Jason touches Nico’s hand, but only to lower it.

 

“I don’t want to take you out of town if you’re upset, Nico,” he says slowly—and Nico’s face heats with rage again.

 

“You went on a date,” Nico snaps, “with my ex-boyfriend.”

 

Jason recoils from the sound of his voice. Nico can’t remember the last time he yelled at Jason. Thunder claps above them—and Nico rolls with it.

 

“You’ve let me sit in class all week like an idiot, without once mentioning that you were going on Bianca’s date,” Nico continues, and he makes a broad gesture towards the corner of the via principalis. A streak of lightning follows his wingspan behind him. “Not to mention that of all people, it’s with a jerk like him!”

 

Jason startles at a second clap of thunder. His eyes dart towards the sky, and then back to Nico. His lips twitch, confused. “Nico, I—that wasn’t—”

 

“What, it wasn’t a date?” Nico finishes for him, because the irritation only seems to swell like the dark clouds in the sky. “So what’d you talk about in the last hour? Did he talk about what a major nerd I was? How selfish I am for not wanting to take praetorship? Was I a bad boyfriend?”

 

“No—”

 

“Maybe it’s hard to take seriously since he spins everything like a joke, including our relationship,” Nico continues, and his gaze narrows angrily at Jason.

 

Jason’s gaze flits between the clouds above and Nico’s own face—and Nico can’t separate his fluster. He knows he’s annoyed about this Jason and Leo situation—but he’s even more annoyed at himself for freaking out over it.

 

The fact that Jason is calm and quite under the brewing storm makes it worse. Jason’s gaze lowers to him, only worried. “No, Nico. It wasn’t a date, and…we didn’t talk about you.”

 

“Really? Because I’m pretty sure I heard him call it a date, Jason.”

 

Jason stares at him again, puzzled. “I—I don’t think he meant anything by that.”

 

Nico can’t help feeling more annoyed. He presses a hand to his face in frustration and seethes.

 

“Nico, I don’t understand why you’re so upset right now—”

 

“So what exactly constitutes a date for you, Jason?” Nico’s eyes flit back up and his jaw tightens. “If it’s not literally going out with my sister and Piper, why bother clamming up over the word?”

 

If it’s not spending two days together, doing nothing but breathing each other’s air on the couch and grazing each other’s leg while they talked or played games—or going to the other side of the world for a museum and a restaurant for two, Nico doesn’t think he understands.

 

Apparently, Jason doesn’t either. “I. I don’t understand.”

 

Nico tries for a calming breath. Tries, hard.

 

One deep breath. Two. Inhale, exhale. Nico points his toes back to his front gate.

 

“Forget it,” Nico echoes, and he skirts Jason’s eye. “We don’t need to go on this trip anymore. Let’s just—put a raincheck on this.”

 

“Wait—” Jason snatches him by the arm. “Nico, I don’t want you to be angry with me—”

 

“Jason,” Nico says sharply, and he yanks his hand away, “let’s just cancel the date. Just because I like you don’t mean I want to keep dealing with—”

 

Nico freezes. His brain comes to a halt, and his throat dries.

 

He watches as Jason’s eyes widen, hand falling to the son of Hades’ side.

 

They stare at each other, neither of them saying another word. 

Notes:

Things are picking up! Thanks for reading!

Chapter 9: the right answer

Summary:

Nico likes him. 

Nico likes him

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

There’s a storm looming above them. Clouds fold into dark masses, swelling and boasting with a rage—

 

—while Nico stares back at Jason, looking as white as a sheet. For as fervent the storm and his words only minutes ago, he’s speechless now—halted by his own rage.

 

Jason stares back, stunned. Still unsure if he heard correctly. His jaw hangs loose, eyebrows still pinched together from worry over Leo and Nico moments before—but more ridges appear at his brow as he soaks in the words.

 

“I’m,” Jason starts. Stops. “I’m…sorry—”

 

Nico snaps to attention. He reanimates, his hands twitching at his side, and the heat of his words diminish over the look on his face.

 

“What,” Jason starts again, his throat drying, “did you say—?”

 

“Nothing,” Nico says hastily. “I didn’t say anything.”

 

Jason’s hands twitch at his side, and he tries to search his thoughts—because he definitely heard Nico’s words. They both did. Jason’s mind is sounding like an alarm, while Nico just stares at him, mortified.

 

For how frightened Nico looks, Jason wants to voice reassurance—but he’s at a loss. Stunned.

 

“I should go,” Nico says finally—and he sidesteps Jason.

 

“Wait—” Finally, Jason’s brain catches up with him when he realizes Nico wants to leave. He’s at Nico’s heels, reaching for Nico’s hand—but the son of Juno swiftly side steps him, like in gym class. He’s so agile in dodging that Jason is afraid to reach out again.

 

Nico keeps walking, hurriedly storming back to the other side of his front gate. It shuts with a loud CLAP.

 

“Nico, please stop,” Jason says—begs.

 

Nico is fluid in motion until his hand is hovering over the doorknob. He doesn’t turn around. Doesn’t move. He waits. He’s trembling, and Jason doesn’t know what to do. What to say.

 

Jason drops his hands on the fence, his throat dry. “I.”

 

I, what?

 

“I don’t know what to say,” Jason confesses—and he can see the jerk of motion, where Nico winces.

 

Nico’s frame locks up. He tenses—and then his shoulders descend. He turns around, rubbing his arm profusely, and doesn’t meet Jason’s eye. “Let’s raincheck Odesa.”

 

He quickly disappears behind the door with a—

 

SLAM

 

—and rain falls in a downpour.

 

*

 

Jason’s not sure how long he stands outside. Long enough that he’s sopping wet, dripping from head to toe. He rattles a hand against the door, but it’s deaf against the rain. He begs, “Nico, please talk to me—”

 

But genuinely, he doesn’t know what to say back. 

 

Jason runs Nico’s words through his mind as many times as he can. Date. Odesa. I like you. 

 

Nico likes him. 

 

Nico likes him? 

 

Nico was red with fury the moment Leo was thrown into the mix—and Jason didn’t know what to say. 

 

He still doesn’t know what to say. 

 

Jason doesn’t know how long he stands at the door. Too long—or maybe not long enough. At some point, he teeters back and stares at the lightless windows, as though Nico’s home had swallowed the son of Juno into an abyss. 

 

“Jason,” someone says, to catch his attention. 

 

He jumps easily and turns. Reyna meets his gaze from her front yard, umbrella shielding her from the storm above. 

 

“It’s the middle of the night,” Reyna points out. “What are you doing out here?” 

 

Jason stares at her for a long time. It’s hard to find his voice.

 

“I—” Had a date. Not a date. Jason stares past her, trying to find the right words—but he’s been out of luck for hours now. 

 

Out of luck, out of words—out of time. 

 

“Nico and I were supposed to hang out,” Jason says hoarsely. 

 

Reyna lifts an eyebrow, and Jason fears she finds more in his words. Fears that she does. Instead, she raises her gaze to the house itself. If she has any thought over his words, she doesn’t voice them. Instead, her lips press into a tight line, and her shoulders fall. “It’s late. Why don’t you go home?” 

 

Jason doesn’t move. 

 

“You can try again in the morning,” Reyna urges, as though hinting at something. “Maybe the rain will clear up by then.” 

 

The morning. Jason could try again in the morning. 

 

He gives one odd jerk of a nod, then walks down the steps of Nico’s porch. Jason looks over his shoulder towards the darkness of Nico’s home—hopeful—but none of Nico’s lights shine. 

 

Thalia either isn’t home or isn’t awake when he gets back. Jason’s alone.

 

His shoes squelch through the apartment hallway. He sits on the bed with a swift thump, and stares at nothing. 

 

At some point, he reaches for his journal. Beads of water plop onto the pages, wrinkling paper in his lap—and Jason…stares. 

 

Jason doesn’t know what to say. 

 

Doesn’t know what to write. 

 

*

 

The rain follows Jason through the evening. The storm holds strong, rattling against his window in loud swirls and bellowing waves—but Jason is locked in a stupor. Morning comes—but he wouldn’t have known any better if it weren’t for the ringing of his phone.

 

It vibrates in the pocket of his jacket—despite a full night without a charge. Jason pulls it out, and the last name makes his heart skip a beat. Di Angelo. “Hello?”

 

His voice is raw from standing outside Nico’s front door. From knocking and begging Nico to come back.

 

“Jace!” Bianca practically sings through the phone. “Last night was so great, Piper and I spent the whole night talking about the movie, and we had the most romantic time just sitting out in the rain—”

  

He hears Bianca rattle off everything. Jason can practically hear her walking on air—but he struggles to listen. He doesn’t absorb the words the way he normally would with Bianca—not until the last part of her ramble.

 

“—what about you? Did you and Leo have a good date after we left?”

 

Jason’s chest aches.

 

“Jace? You still there?”

 

“It…wasn’t a date, Bianca.”

 

Last night had been fun with Leo and Piper—but true to Bianca’s request, Jason was only there to chaperone. He watched his best friend fumble with her words to the daughter of Aphrodite she was so smitten with and saw Leo’s lips quirk with amusement as he offered quips between Piper’s words. At some point, Piper and Bianca steered their own conversation—and they watched as both girls left for the movie theater without guidance.

 

 He’s happy for Bianca—but the mention of Leo makes Jason’s mind go to the fury in Nico’s eyes. The scowl at Nico’s lips, and the way his fists shook with rage, with…with hurt.

 

Nico looked hurt.

 

Jason’s chest tightens once more. He hardly hears Bianca.

 

“…just figured, since Piper and I were there, and you and Leo were there—”

 

“Is Nico there?” Jason cuts her off. He sits higher on his bed, as if to will the son of Juno to the receiver.

 

Bianca’s surprised at the inquiry. “Oh—I don’t think he’s awake yet. He was asleep already when I—”

 

At that moment, Thalia knocks on Jason’s door. He cocks his head to meet her gaze—and catches her in time to notice the look of surprise at his surly appearance.

 

Jason stares back at her, the receiver of his phone pressed to his cheek.

 

“Hey, baby brother,” Thalia starts softly. Slowly. She looks at him from head-to-toe. “You okay?”

 

Jason stares back at her. He hears the drawl of Bianca’s words over the phone—something about Piper—but his own brain can’t quite form words.

 

“What’s wrong?” Thalia’s eyebrows knit together, and she walks into the room. She glides a hand across his forearm and studies him again. It’s only then that Jason realizes he hasn’t changed. He’s in the same clothes from the night before—half dry in a stale t-shit while his hair is gross and murky against his forehead. “You look horrible.”

 

“I…” Still don’t know what to say.

 

Jason thinks back to the other night, when everything was fine. When he peered outside Reyna’s house and saw his big sister talking to Nico. They looked warm and happy together. Comfortable, in a way Jason envied since he never got to grow up with his big sister. Admirable, because he liked the way Nico smiled in her presence.

 

Jason’s hands twitches. He hangs up his phone, unable to look his sister in the eye.

 

“Did you get any sleep last night?” Thalia asks carefully. “I heard you come in.”

 

“I.” Jason stares at his knees. He shakes his head. “It. Rained last night.”

 

He follows Thalia’s gaze as she looks out his window. There’s a flicker in her gaze—one that Jason isn’t familiar with—and her lips seem to press in a frown. “You’re right. It rained all night.”

 

There’s a way she carries her voice that’s reminiscent to Reyna. Jason’s pulled into it—the way Thalia furrows her brow, and how somber it is. When she looks back at him, he jumps. If Thalia notices, she doesn’t say.

 

“Rain like this doesn’t happen very often,” Thalia explains carefully. “Not this kind of downpour.”

 

Jason stares back at her, unsure of what to say. When she looks at him, everything feels heavier. Like there’s a hidden meaning to her words—and Jason isn’t quite sure what to expect.

 

“It works up a nice appetite,” Thalia continues. “Something warm. Fabiano’s has some nice soup options. How about I call Reyna and we go there?”

 

Jason looks out the window, where he can see the di Angelo praetorhouse in the far bottom corner of his street. His hands twitch, aching to knock again. He looks back at Thalia, who seems to hang onto his actions with the same poise.

 

Then, he asks, “Will Nico be there?”

 

*

 

Thalia makes him shower and change into clean clothes. It doesn’t wash away the anxiousness he feels from the night before, nor the worry that he has. Jason doesn’t really feel…clean afterwards. Not while it continues to rain. Water from his shower reminds him of the angry look on Nico’s face. No matter how much Jason scrubs himself with soap, he won’t be able to wash away the fury in Nico’s eyes.

 

He stands in the bathtub for longer than he intends—but Thalia waits for him.

 

Thalia reaches out for his hand after they’re both ready. Jason stares at it.

 

“Reyna and Nico are going to meet us at the bakery,” she explains.

 

Jason stares at her hand. He offers a slow, jerking nod.

 

They shadowtravel to Fabiano’s. Jason perks every time the bell rings—but is met only with disappointment. Thalia tries to talk to him—but much like with Bianca, he hears her without being able to listen.

 

“Jace.” Eventually, Thalia reaches out for his hand. Jason startles at her touch—but even more at the look of concern that flashes across her face. “You’re scaring me. You haven’t said a word all morning. Talk to me.”

 

Jason looks back to the crease between her brow. The small wrinkle, where her lips curl downwards, and the overwhelming concern that swells in her eyes. All for him, like it was at the beginning of the summer.

 

But he thinks back to the wily grin she had on her face only a few nights ago, as she rocked on Reyna’s porch with Nico. To the way she smiled and ruffled his hair, and the calm of it all.

 

Guy stuff, Nico had said they talked about. Boys.

 

Me, Jason realizes—and his mind falls blank again.

 

He’s not sure what to say about last night. Jason’s not sure what he’s allowed to say. But he’s not sure if he can lie to his big sister, either. Jason swallows hard, and watches as Thalia thumbs his wrist in familiar circles. “I…”

 

The door chimes as it opens.

 

Reyna and Nico appear at the front of the bakery, dressed in raincoats and brightly colored boots. Jason watches as Nico rakes a hand through wet hair—and his breath stalls as blue eyes look up toward him. As they finally make eye contact.

 

Nico quickly jerks his head towards Reyna, his body language tense. A look of horror surges across his face, and he darts out the door.

 

Thalia says, “Nico, hey—”

 

—just as Jason flies from his seat and follows Nico outside.

 

“Nico, wait—” Jason sidesteps a puzzled Reyna and toes after Nico. He’s slapped in the face with a violent gust and heavy rain—wet all over again—but Jason tunnel visions on the son of Juno, who’s steadfast and determined to leave the scene. “Nico, please—I just want to talk—”

 

“We don’t need to talk,” Nico hollers over his shoulder. He ups his pace, hands stuffed in the pockets of his jacket.

 

Another gale slaps Jason in the face, but he’s determined to teeter after the other demigod. Jason blurts out, “We’re supposed to be in Odesa right now.”

 

Nico stops in place, halted by Jason’s words. He doesn’t turn around. His shoulders are a tense line from curve-to-curve, and the only thing louder than the pattering rain is his discomfort. Slowly, he turns around, and the eyes that Jason is fond of are at the ground, ill at ease.

 

Jason’s heart aches as he takes Nico in. The listless line of his mouth, and the awkward furrow of his brow. Nico’s eyes are everywhere but Jason’s face, and even they tremble.

 

“I—” Jason starts again, his voice already hoarse. “—I…I knocked on your door last night.”

 

He can’t help feeling dumb saying it aloud. They both know how long he stood outside.

 

To his surprise, Nico’s shoulders heave. With a short breath, Nico nods. “I know.”

 

It only pushes Jason to continue. He takes a step forward, and watches as Nico watches him move. “Leo and I weren’t—”

 

The moment Leo is mentioned, Nico’s eyes dart up dangerously. The rage in his eyes is chilling.

 

“—it. Was a misunderstanding,” Jason finishes softly. “I made the misunderstanding, Nico—I’m—you have no idea how sorry I am.”

 

Nico’s gaze is crisp now. “You went on a date with my ex-boyfriend, Jason.”

 

“It wasn’t a date,” Jason replies urgently. He shakes his head profusely, but Nico’s stance only gets tenser. “I—when we first met, I got him into some trouble and promised I’d buy him coffee, and then it just—it never actually never happened.”

 

Nico doesn’t respond immediately. His jaw is tight, and his gaze is heavy as he looks at Jason.

 

“I knew you two dated,” Jason continues, and his cheeks feel cold with his discomfort, “but I didn’t know—you never talk about your love life, or the guys you like. If…if I’d know that you…”

 

His voice trails off. It’s only then that Jason realizes he hasn’t said it out loud. Nico looks nauseous at the thought of him saying it at all.

 

After a painstaking hiccup of silence, Nico fills the void for him. “You would’ve what, Jason?”

 

“I wouldn’t have agreed to meet up with him, Nico—not if I knew how hurt you’d be.” Before Jason knows it, his eyes are warm. His hands tremble at his sides, and he forces himself to hold them steady. “I—I never want to—you’re…I don’t ever want to hurt you.”

 

It’s a struggle to find the right words. Jason’s afraid of the wrong ones—but he hopes the sincerity shines through in his voice.

 

Nico has helped him through a lot. Through the pain of Luke, through the strain of Annabeth. He’d still be restless, aching for a sword in his hand while dreading it if it weren’t for Nico telling him to put himself first. That Jason deserves to put himself first, to be selfish, and to be the little brother that Thalia missed so much.

 

He’s also shown Jason how to have fun after the age of sixteen. After dreading the Great Prophecy and his birthday for so long, Jason’s never smiled the way he has with Nico at his side.

 

Neither of them smile now. Jason stares at Nico, pleading, while Nico’s eyebrows remain pinched.

 

“Do you like him?” Nico asks quietly.

 

“No,” Jason replies immediately. “I was serious when I said I wasn’t ready to date yet. And even if I was, I’d much rather it be with—”

 

He halts, and Nico raises his head ever-so slightly to the words. His eyes are hard and pristine as they look to Jason, waiting for that sentence to be finished. The words don’t quite make it out of Jason’s mouth—and Jason struggles to have them form in his head, too.

 

“I,” Nico says, after another lapse in their conversation, “don’t talk about my love life because I never intended for you to find out about it.”

 

Jason locks eyes with the son of Juno. “But…Odesa—”

 

“Could have just been a trip to Odesa,” Nico finishes steadily. He crosses his arms over his chest, stand-offish, and gaze locked with his shoelaces. He massages his temples, his lips pressed into a scowl—and Jason realizes it’s not directed towards him. “It didn’t need to mean anything.”

 

He sounds like he’s trying to convince himself.

 

Jason’s eyebrows furrow together. “We…we can still go—”

 

“But,” Nico continues, his voice minute. He sucks in a breath and looks up towards Jason. “I can’t keep…doing this with you. I can’t keep going out on a limb for you, or reserving my whole weekends for you, or just—just sitting there listening to you talk about how you’re in love with someone else—”

 

His voice is strained, and Jason’s breath stops again. Nico refuses to look him in the eye. The son of Juno rubs his arm, and his face is marred by a scowl.

 

“—when I have feelings for you,” Nico says. His voice is rigid—but the words are loud for both of them.

 

Nico has feelings for him. Nico likes him.

 

A lump swells in Jason’s throat, and he stares back at the son of Juno, unmoving. Unsure of what to say.

 

“It’s fine,” Nico says quickly, and he places a hand in front of him to stall other thoughts. He’s quick to turn again. “I’m not—I’m not angry, or whatever. I don’t expect you to like me back, Jason. Please, just—forget everything that happened last night. I’m certainly trying to.”

 

Jason cocks his head at Nico’s words. He doesn’t want to drop the subject—doesn’t think he can. Jason doesn’t want to be the reason Nico is hurt.

 

So, before he can help himself, he asks—“Can I think about it?”

 

It’s harder to read the look on Nico’s face after Jason’s request. There’s a tentativeness in his demeanor, lips pressed into a reluctant grimace—and Jason holds onto each shift in demeanor.

 

“I have an answer,” Jason says. “I—please. I do. I just—I want to give the right one.”

 

Nico’s gaze narrows, and he looks even more reluctant than before. He’s skeptical. “There is no right answer, Jason, you—you either don’t like me back, or—”

 

“There’s a right answer,” Jason cuts him off. He’s never missed Nico’s smile as much as he does now. “Please. Just—just let me think about it.”

 

*

 

They don’t go back to Fabiano’s together. Jason mentions Thalia is waiting, and Nico looks nauseated. Jason still doesn’t know what they talked about the other night—guy stuff, boys, Jasonbut Nico wants alone time. The rain doesn’t let up. Nico’s hesitant over Jason’s terms, demeanor obscure when Jason insists there’s a right answer.

 

“Don’t…say you like me back because you feel like you have to,” Nico tells Jason tersely. The look on his face is unreadable—but entirely because Nico doesn’t want Jason to read it.

 

Jason makes the slow trek back to Fabiano’s and stops at the entrance.

 

Through the window, he sees Reyna and Thalia at their booth. They bloom in each other’s presence. Jason can tell from the way Thalia holds Reyna’s hand, and how closely Reyna just looks at Thalia how much they love each other.

 

In this case, Reyna holds a familiar look from last night. The knowing one from the past evening, that seemed to know the heaviness Jason is feeling.

 

When she looks at him again from the other side of the window, Jason can’t muster words.

 

Thalia looks over her shoulder and looks at him too. Jason can’t hold her gaze.

 

There’s a right answer. There has to be.

 

And—for both Nico’s sake and his own, Jason doesn’t know if getting Thalia and Reyna involved is the right choice. They’re…Nico’s support system, not his. Jason’s already done wrong by Nico once with Leo.

 

The battery on his phone is low. Jason has a few text messages from Bianca. A few—Is everything okay? You hung up suddenly—and—Hello??—but Jason’s mind is spinning.

 

He’s not sure how he feels. Between last night and meeting Nico, Jason didn’t think it was important. He wanted to make sure that Nico was okay—that Nico wasn’t upset like last night.

 

Now Jason needs to work through his own feelings.

 

Because unlike Mike Kahale, saying no is harder than he expects.

 

Jason finds himself at New Rome University’s architecture building before he knows it. A college student lets him inside and tells him where to find freshman studio.

 

Annabeth is sitting at her drafting table, with stacks of empty diet pepsi cans. Each one has been gauged and shredded for whatever project that she’s working on. Percy is nearby, nursing a soda of his own while he stares out the window with a frown.

 

Jason almost doesn’t want to interrupt—but Annabeth spots him first.

 

“Jace,” she says—and a sigh of relief flies from her lips. She pulls her phone from the immaculate stack and pushes away from her desk. Annabeth opens her arms for a hug—but she stops midway through. “You’re soaking wet! Bianca said you were weird over the phone this morning. Are you okay?”

 

Jason looks between Annabeth and Percy, who turns his head at just the right time to arch an eyebrow.

 

All Jason can do is dumbly nod his head. “I got rained on.”

 

“Really?” Percy offers. “Couldn’t tell.”

 

Annabeth is quick to smack him. She turns back to Jason and clamps a hand on either of his shoulders. “What happened?”

 

“I…” Don’t know where to start. Jason slowly raises his gaze back to the son of Neptune, who looks less than thrilled.

 

“Don’t mind him.” Annabeth waves a hand in his line of sight and steers Jason’s attention back to herself. “He’s been like that all morning. The rain’s been messing with his mood.”

 

“It’d mess with your mood too if you had a brother who could flex a finger and cause a tornado,” Percy grumbles, and his sights are set at the window again.

 

Jason looks to Annabeth for guidance.

 

She rolls her eyes again. “Bianca’s never been one to cause that big of a storm. Stick to marine biology, Doctor Kelp Head. Sometimes a storm is just a storm.

 

“Actually,” Jason interjects, his voice soft. They both cock their heads towards him, and Jason loses his words again. “This…might be my fault.”

 

Percy frowns, and his eyes narrow dangerously at Jason. “And why would that be?”

 

Jason hesitates. He looks to Annabeth, who rolls her eyes again.

 

“Percy,” she says, “go find a towel so Jason can dry off.” 

 

There’s no sweetness to her tone. Annabeth and Percy look at each other. The son of Neptune reaches over and grips Jason’s shoulder. Immediately, the water falls off of Jason and into a puddle on the ground.

 

“Talk,” Percy demands calmly. 

 

Jason stares at the puddle at his feet. He raises his gaze back to Percy, who easily mimics the wolffish stare that Jason’s grown used to with Nico. 

 

“My gods, Percy.” Annabeth rolls her eyes. “If you’re that concerned about the rain, just go bug Nico. Seriously.” 

 

“No way—it’s complicated.” Percy huffs and crosses his arms angrily over his chest. “Besides, I’m not allowed to.” 

 

He says it so pointedly that Annabeth and Jason only stare. Percy rolls his eyes and waves a hand. 

 

“We have a system,” Percy explains. “If I went to Nico every time there was so much as a sprinkle outside, I’d drive him crazy. He comes to us when he’s ready. There’s three of us.” 

 

“Really?” Annabeth asks wryly. “What do you call the last six months?” 

 

“Normal,” Percy reasons, and Annabeth sighs. 

 

“Jace,” she says with a heavy amount of ire in her voice, “do you mind Percy being normal right now?” 

 

Jason stares at the unperturbed son of Neptune. The puddle doesn’t quite disappear from his feet. Despite the sudden dryness, he still feels cold. Jason swallows the lump in his throat, hand twitching at his knees. 

 

“Nico,” Jason starts softly. Stops. “Nico asked me out on a date.”

 

Both Percy and Annabeth stare at him in surprise. The son of Neptune is first to react. He gestures to the window outside, incredulous. “And you said no? What on Jupiter is wrong with you?”

 

Percy,” Annabeth chides sharply. She turns and gingerly places a hand on Jason’s shoulder, the wryness not quite leaving her expression. The gravity of her look keeps Jason stationed where he is—filled with a softness she doesn’t allow others to see. “How does that make you feel, Jace?”

 

“I…” Jason tries to put his emotions into words. He’s been so focused on trying to make sure Nico is okay that he hasn’t been able to ponder his own feelings. It’s still a struggle. Still—he finds himself sitting straighter in his seat now that he’s being asked directly.

 

How does it make him feel?

 

“I didn’t know he liked me,” Jason confesses. He raises a hand—and slowly presses a palm to his chest. Jason looks back up, his brow furrowed. “I didn’t—I didn’t know.”

 

This time, Percy throws his arms into the air. “Are you kidding me? Tell me you’re kidding!”

 

Jason stares at the son of Neptune, who looks equal parts furious and disbelieving. As dumb as Jason feels, he only shakes his head. Once he does that, Percy looks ready to punch him again.

 

“Nico has been head-over-heels for you since the war! He literally planned your birthday!” Percy fumes now, attracting the attention of other architecture students from nearby tables. “That kid is always thinking of your wellbeing, and you’re telling me you didn’t know?”

 

Jason startles at Percy’s strokes of anger, inching back ever-so slightly. His brow furrows together and he rubs his forehead. “I—I thought he was just like that.”

 

The look on Percy’s face isn’t a candid one. He reminds Jason of a bag of popcorn swollen in the microwave, one kernel away from exploding. “You’re telling me—are you out of your—?”

 

He paces the length of Annabeth’s studio floor, opens one of her textbooks, and screams. It isn’t muffled in the slightest.

 

“Percy,” Annabeth snaps. She yanks the book out of his grasp and taps him gently over the head. “Take five. I’ve got it from here.”

 

Percy calms after a second smack, but his shoulders are still to his ears. He glares at Jason—fuming—but Annabeth’s stern look is even harder. With a huff, he turns around and marches off to who-knows-where.

 

“Beth,” Jason breathes, and his eyebrows furrow together again. Jason touches his forehead. “He asked me out on a date, and it didn’t even cross my mind that it’d be a date. We’ve just—we’ve been hanging out so much these past few weeks, I didn’t think—I didn’t know that—I—”

 

“Jason,” Annabeth cuts him off. She pries his hand from his head, and she gives it a gentle squeeze, much like Thalia this morning.

 

She doesn’t look furious, like Percy. But she doesn’t look surprised, either. Instead, Annabeth pulls a chair from her workbench and sits across from him.

 

“Is…was it obvious?” Jason asks instead, his voice hoarse. “Or is it because Percy’s just—Percy?”

 

Annabeth looks over her shoulder, where Percy is busy staring out the window and manipulating raindrops. From afar, Jason can see the outline of swear words—and some unpleasant images.

 

“Percy’s been a curmudgeon about you and him since you guys left the Argo II,” she explains, and Jason makes a noise in surprise.

 

“That long?” Jason’s eyebrows furrow together, and he rubs his forehead again. “Nico and I…we weren’t even—he hasn’t even liked me as a person that long.”

 

“No,” Annabeth agrees, observant in a way that Jason can’t quite wrap his head around. “But it’s not like Nico hid his…disdain for you before we left on the ship, Jace. Then when you guys came back from Split—things changed between the two of you.”

 

Split, Croatia.

 

Eros.

 

Jason grips the stool beneath him a little tighter, his chest clenching at the memory. Split will always be an unpleasant memory for many reasons—highlighting all of Jason’s worst memories and hanging his emotions bare.

 

“Nico was—” Jason starts, and he watches as Annabeth soaks in the words. “We…found common ground in Split.”

 

Nico was there for him in Split. Nico was there for him for conversations after Split, too. You’re a son of Hades by being yourself.

 

He doesn’t realize Annabeth is still holding his hand until she gives him a gentle squeeze.

 

“And I am so glad,” she says softly, “that after all of these years, you found someone you felt like you can open up to, Jason.”

 

She doesn’t lead anywhere else with her encouragement. Instead, Annabeth looks at him with the same steadiness as before. Waiting. Jason realizes he’s seen that look plenty growing up—and where.

 

“I…haven’t felt like I could in a long time,” he admits hoarsely. “Not since…”

 

Annabeth nods, but the name holds still on Jason’s tongue. He remembers being under Annabeth’s scrutiny when they were younger. When Jason tugged on Luke’s left hand, and Annabeth on Luke’s right, while they fought for his attention. Other than Annabeth, no one’s known him best since Luke.

 

He’s said Luke’s name many times since Split—but it’s almost always been in past tense. Luke stopped being Luke ages ago—gone with Jason’s heart down in the Fields of Punishment. He’s…never had to think of Luke in this context though. With Nico in the same boat.

 

A different boat, his mind insists. Nico is different from Luke.

 

Nico knows it all. The weariness of Jason’s heart, locked away in a cavern in his chest because Jason believed it’s what he deserved after all this time. The weight of his mind as it bears a load on his shoulders and reminds him why he existed. What destiny he was always going to take, and all of the actions that led him to the foot of Olympus with Luke’s blood on his hands. Nico even guessed the noose around his neck—the one that dragged Jason out of the River Styx when he accepted his fate.

 

But—Nico knew—Nico knows him after that life, too. Nico encouraged him to have a life after sixteen and to be happy.

 

“Do I…act differently around Nico?” Jason asks after a minute of ministrations. He looks back to his best friend, who takes in his words with a pointed look.

 

“Gee, Jace, I’m not sure.” Annabeth takes a step back and crosses her arms over her chest. “You’ve only spent the whole summer talking about him and hanging out with him. I’m pretty sure he’s seen more of you than I have.”

 

Her look isn’t accusatory. It’s as factual as Annabeth could present.

 

“But you were in Halfblood,” Jason protests, and he looks back to the daughter of Athena, his ears stinging with fluster. “Nico and I…when we took the Athena Parthenos, he and I just came back—we came back getting each other.”

 

Jason, finally accepting how he is as a son of Hades. Nico, understanding there was more beneath the fog of his parentage than Jupiter being his father.

 

“I can imagine,” Annabeth agrees, and her voice is distant. She gestures to Percy, who looks so red with fury that the condensation on the window seem to steam with his anger. “Percy and I hit it off when we went to Alaska.”

 

There’s a soft yearning in her voice that Jason isn’t used to. He thinks back to all of the offhanded comments that Nico and he have made about the pair—together—and his eyebrows knit together again. “Do I—do I flirt with Nico?”

 

Do you?!” Percy whirls his head back from the window, louder than ever—but Annabeth gives him the evil eye.

 

“Don’t make me ban you from studio,” Annabeth says sharply. Percy harrumphs. Then, she turns to Jason with less patience, her hands at her own seat. She reaches over to her desk and extends a mug full of hot cocoa. “Jace, if I’m being honest, I’ve known you since we were six, but this is unmarked territory for me. Other than Luke, I’ve never seen you like anyone before.”

 

Jason bites the inside of his mouth. He’s rubbing circles into his knuckles before he knows it. Truthfully, Jason’s not even sure if he knows what it looks like. Mike Kahale caught him off guard at the wedding.

 

But…he knows he liked dancing with Nico. He liked spending the evening with Nico, watching the kitchen lights touch his face and flour whiten Nico’s hair to the color of Juno’s veil. He liked making Nico laugh, and following Nico’s lead when the rest of the world felt unsteady. He likes looking over during class and knowing Nico is beside him.

 

He liked the way Nico looked that night, on the eve of his birthday in Hades’ Cabin, where the light seemed to paint Nico’s face in gentle strokes, and he knew that every word of sternness was laced with a reassurance and a strength for him.

 

Jason dreams of that night often.

 

“He…told me we couldn’t keep going the way we were if I didn’t like him back,” Jason says softly.

 

“And how does that make you feel?”

 

“I love the way we are,” Jason says, almost unprompted. The words fall out of his mouth with such ease that he surprises himself.

 

Annabeth, however, doesn’t look shocked.

 

“I…” Jason’s eyebrows knit together, and he finds himself squeezing his own hand yet again. “I don’t want to disappoint him.”

 

As those words leave his mouth, he watches Annabeth’s demeanor shift ever-so slightly. Off in the corner, Jason can see Percy glancing in their direction, lips pressed into a tight line.

 

“I think,” Annabeth starts gently, “that through all of this—if you’re more worried about upsetting Nico more than about what you want, then you’re already disappointing him.”

 

Jason’s shoulders drop. He bows his head in shame and curls a hand to the back of his neck.

 

“But—listen to yourself, Jace. You just said you loved the way you are with Nico.” Annabeth reaches out and gives his wrist another gentle squeeze. “Just imagine how much happier you could be with more. You’re practically there already.”

 

Jason mulls over her words carefully. His hand twitches in his grip.

 

More with Nico. More…dances, more late nights with Nico at his side. More drinking in Nico’s smile, and getting lost in his laughter. In…everything about Nico.

 

They’re practically there. Almost.

 

“I,” Jason starts. He touches his neck again and chews on his lip. “I might’ve accidentally gone out with his ex-boyfriend last night.”

 

Annabeth lets go of his hand. She arches an eyebrow. “How do you ‘accidentally’—?”

 

“The same way I accidentally agreed to go on a date with Nico,” Jason finishes. His cheeks glow scarlet, and he refuses to look her in the eye.

 

“Oh. Oh my gods, Jason—” Annabeth sighs and presses a hand to her face.

 

“I know,” Jason agrees quickly. He stands to his feet and swallows hard. “It’s not my proudest moment—but. I. I think I know how to make things right.”

 

*

 

Leo isn’t hard to find. His new booth spans twice the width of the old one—just like they talked about last night. The winds are harsh, rustling against the red banner that reads Weaponry by Valdez – Commander Toolbelt Extraordinaire (Yes, that Commander Toolbelt)  while swords and shields closest to the storm clatter as they’re pinpricked by raindrops.

 

Jason arrives in time to see Leo struggling to catch a banner as it flaps loosely in the wind. He reaches up and snags the end of the banner—which is enough to startle the son of Vulcan.

 

“Look—it’s the Ghost Boy,” Leo remarks. There’s a wryness to his tone, and Jason can’t tell of it’s laced with ire, or Leo’s usual sarcasm. Leo is a fireball compared to the cool and thunderous temper of this storm or Percy’s fluid rage. It’s an unsettling change of pace as he grins at Jason.

 

“Hi, Leo,” Jason says. Nervously.

 

If Leo notices, he doesn’t point it out. Instead, he enters his store, clearly expecting Jason to follow. “Fun night, right?”

 

“Um—”

 

“Here, put this on the top shelf for me.” Leo picks up a large box from the ground and wobbles from its weight. The box rustles with cold metal—then he plops it in Jason’s arms. He gestures to an empty space above Jason’s head. “Make sure the handles face the wall. If I ever have to take it down myself, I don’t want the pointy end accidentally stabbing me.”

 

“I—okay.” Jason is quick to look at the contents of the box—which is filled with imperial gold daggers similar to the one Jason’s seen on Nico’s hip.

 

“The Legion needs a supplier for all of the people they recruit,” Leo explains. He waves his hand dismissively. “They change it up once in a while. Since I’m an amazing Hero of Olympus and all—”

 

Leo puffs out his chest and deepens his voice to Zeus’s likeness.

 

“—sales have gone up,” he finishes in his normal pitch. “Plus—they make a good novelty item for tourists. I can engrave a sick Boo on one for you if you want.”

 

“Boo?”

 

“Yeah. You know—the marshmallow ghost from Mario.” Leo turns around and stares at Jason with the normal amount of amusement.

 

“I’m…more of a Zelda person myself.”

 

Leo arches an eyebrow curiously. It seems to double as a response to Jason’s explanation.

 

“I—”

 

“Right. The strong silent type that gets roped into everyone else’s messes.” Leo shrugs. “That sounds fitting.”

 

“I…” Jason twitches. “Thank you—?”

 

“Anyway,” Leo continues. “Last night, right? Can’t believe it took so long for your girl and my girl to get together. Or that they were so bad at this that they needed to be chaperoned.”

 

The string of words come out eloquently, as though they never segued into video games. Leo turns the mental dial from Boos and video games effortlessly. He doesn’t blink—he simply loads Jason with other boxes to put on shelves.

 

“I…actually need to talk to you about last night,” Jason says.

 

“Yeah? Shoot.” Leo swipes a clipboard off a desk marked Inventory.

 

“I…” Jason opens his mouth to speak. Closes it. “I think there was a misunderstanding about last night.”

 

“Misunderstanding, huh? Which part?”

 

Jason swallows hard. He feels the knot at the pit of his stomach. “The…part where I didn’t realize we were on a date last night.”

 

Leo’s smile drops. He whirls back around, his expression wrinkling. “What?”

 

“I—I’m so sorry. I didn’t realize—I didn’t mean to mislead you—”

 

“Dude—chill.” Leo breaks into a cackle. He picks up a dagger from a workbench and tosses it into the box in Jason’s hands. “Believe it or not, but I’m very aware of when I’ve been thrown into the friendzone. Not the creepy, I only see you as a Sex God and you owe me kind of way, but—you know, friends.”

 

This time, Leo flashes Jason a look more mischievous, like when he mocks their calculus teacher. There isn’t an air of malice or frustration in his demeanor—just the ease that Leo’s always carried.

 

“But I—” Jason’s eyebrows furrow together. “You called last night a date.”

 

“I also call my ex-boyfriend his royal highness because I know he hates it.” Leo snorts and places his clipboard down.

 

Jason tries to recall the night before the storm—which is hard, when he can’t think of anything past the hurt and frustration in Nico’s eyes—and remembers Leo and Nico beside each other, irate. Nico flashed a look that Jason hadn’t seen in a long time—distaste and heavy disdain. Leo looked disinterested with each of Nico’s words last night—but he can’t help but wonder the intent behind the words. If that was the intent.

 

“That’s…not very nice,” Jason says finally. He notices Leo’s lips twitch a tiny centimeter—and the irritation that blooms with it.

 

“Okay,” Leo says. he shrugs nonchalantly. “So I’m not nice. Big whoop.”

 

“You literally agreed to help me tame a dragon the first time we met.”

 

“And you promised me coffee and a leather jacket in return.”

 

Jason halts, at a loss for words—but Leo is already laughing again.

 

“Seriously,” Leo says, “I don’t care. I’m, like, the saint of not caring, Ghost Boy. You made it pretty clear last night that it wasn’t a date.”

 

That only puzzles Jason more. “I did?”

 

Leo arches an eyebrow at him—but it carries a different weight from the way Nico’s done it in the past. He holds himself differently and gesticulates with his hands. “When Piper and Bianca left all gross and lovey-dovey for the movies and I asked you, Wanna keep hanging out? And you said, I can’t stay too long, me and Nico are traveling halfway across the world to go dancing.

 

Jason’s face burns scarlet. If not for the words from Leo’s mouth, then from the pitch of the other demigod’s voice. “I—that wasn’t a…”

 

Except it was, he reminds himself. Nico asked him out on a date, and Jason was so excited at the aspect of hanging out with Nico again that he…didn’t really think about it. Date or no date, Jason truly enjoys Nico’s company.

 

The struggle shows on his face. Leo shakes his head in disbelief and picks up his clipboard again.

 

You, my friend,” Leo says, “are a himbo.”

 

Again, Jason’s face burns. His face twists with uncertainty. “I’m a what—?”

 

“A sweet, well-meaning super-hot idi—individual.”

 

Jason makes a face. Something tells him he just got the censored definition. Leo waves his hand in a theatrical display, trying to usher away Jason’s confusion.

 

“Look, I don’t give a faun’s enchilada whatever goes on between you and Neeks,” Leo says—which catches Jason off guard. He’s heard Percy and Thalia refer to Neeks plenty—but it slides off Leo’s tongue as easily as the rest of their conversation. “But you’re one hilt short of a sword if you don’t think that traipsing to the other side of the world in the middle of the night to eat pasta and dance isn’t romantic as hell. You should know—your dad and stepmom basically invented romance in hell.”

 

“The Underworld isn’t hell,” Jason corrects almost immediately.

 

Leo stares back at him, hands jostling his pockets. “That’s your takeaway?”

 

“No,” Jason says immediately—and his face glows red. “Or—yes? I mean—I’m. I’m not very good with my feelings.”

 

He doesn’t like the way Leo stares at him in amusement. Jason’s hand bristles against the back of his neck, and he can’t help feeling uncomfortable. To his surprise, Leo’s demeanor shifts.

 

“I get it,” Leo admits. He hesitates before adding, “sometimes it’s easier to work on a chassis and tighten bolts. We get blessed with their many gifts—including their ineptitudes—no matter how much we try to run away from them.”

 

There’s a look on his face—one that Jason hasn’t seen since they hunted for a dragon in the forest. Leo holds the demeanor for an instant—but he’s quick to change it. Quick to keep others from looking at him.

 

“I,” Jason starts—but like many times today, he can’t find an end to his sentence. Can’t find his words.

 

Leo seems to latch onto that. He waves his clipboard again and shrugs nonchalantly. “Or maybe your inner turmoil and angst runs a little deeper. Like—down in the Underworld deep. Full of anguish and emotional angst, packed up into some fishnet gloves and black skinny jeans.”

 

Jason looks at Leo in confusion. He stares down at his blue jeans. “I…think you’re mistaking me for my sister.”

 

Leo laughs again—a chary cackle that defines the rest of his mood. It almost reminds Jason of Percy—but there’s a fire there that the son of Neptune lacks. Something that isn’t easy to tame. “Trust me, Ghost Boy—no one is going to mistake you for Thalia…whatever her last name is.”

 

“Grace.”

 

Leo stares at him. “I was kidding about the last name.”

 

“She has one,” Jason reassures—then he rubs his forehead thoughtfully. Slowly, Jason looks up and stares back at Leo carefully. “Can…I ask about you and Nico?”

 

Again, Leo stares at him. This time, he looks at Jason warily. Very much a, you really want to go there? Leo may not care about the result of their own outing yesterday, but suddenly he looked as tense as when Jason voiced his opinion over his royal highness.

 

“I hurt a lot of feelings yesterday,” Jason explains. “I stepped on a lot of toes. I know there’s more there. I want to understand.”

 

Leo stares at him carefully. Then he offers a low-pitched whistle. “So your idea of making it up to di Angelo for going on a not-date with his ex-boyfriend is to ask his ex how we broke up?”

 

“I—” Jason’s nose twitches. He knows it’s not his best plan, but… “I owed you an apology, too.”

 

“So after apologizing to me for taking me on a not-date, you want to ask my ex-boyfriend’s M.O.?” Leo arches another eyebrow.

 

Jason sucks in a breath. He lowers his head tiredly—but Leo doesn’t reem him again.

 

Leo tilts his head to the other side and crosses his arms. That look comes back—the one from the forest. His lips press into a flat-line, and he looks hard-pressed to share. But eventually, his shoulders heave.

 

“We…both like nerdy things,” Leo says finally. He shrugs a shoulder. “Games. Comics. Movies. Movies about comic books and games. And I think—”

 

Leo’s voice becomes clipped with exasperation.

 

“—the fact I wasn’t worshipping the ground he walked on like the rest of New Rome put me in a better running,” he continues. He rolls his eyes. “I mean—they say never meet your heroes. Even Robin’s in charge of gassing up the Batmobile. You get me? I’m just there adjusting stage props for the actual star.”

 

Jason stares at Leo, eyebrows furrowed.

 

“Nico’s not that bad. I never believed the rumor that he was running an underground mob,” Leo says casually. “We got along enough and I liked his company while I worked. But, dating someone as A-List as a freaking son of Jupiter comes with a ton of BS. A Brother and two Sisters.”

 

Jason’s eyebrows knit together. He thinks about the careful look Reyna gave him last night, and the pensiveness in Percy’s demeanor in studio. Even Thalia stared at the rain peculiarly this morning—but Jason would hardly call that BS. He knows how close Nico is to that bunch. “They drove you away?”

 

“Oh, no. They were supportive. Super supportive. Made for an awkward time on the Argo post-breakup.” Leo shrugs. “Everyone knows how close Nico is to those guys. Percy’s his right arm. Praetor Ramirez-Arellano is his brain. Thalia’s his whole heart. They’re worse than Full House. And I…don’t have that.”

 

Leo doesn’t quite look Jason in the eye. There’s a frown against his lips, and he fiddles with the zippers on his jacket—which Jason can only assume is a nervous tick.

 

Jason recalls what Leo said about how he was raised. How Leo ran from foster-home to foster-home until Vulcan finally guided him to Camp Jupiter. The blacksmiths of New Rome took care of him and helped Leo make a decent living—but Jason doesn’t know much of Leo’s personal life aside from that.

 

Nothing put a dent in Thalia, Reyna, and Percy’s relationship. Annabeth and Percy were joined at the hip most days, while Frank and Hazel were happily in Canada. Of the Seven—Leo was here, out in the Forum while the rest of the Heroes of Olympus was preoccupied with other things.  

 

“I don’t do all of that emotional stuff. Way more complicated than motherboards and automatons,” Leo says. He speaks with a dismissive tone, but he refuses to look Jason in the eye, like he’s trying to convince himself as much as he is the other demigod. “Turns out some relationships want that stuff. Nico told me about living in the 40s, and I…didn’t want to talk about anything.”

 

There’s an uncomfortable heaviness to Leo’s shoulders, like back in the woods.

 

Eventually, Jason puts the pieces together. “He didn’t know about the fire.”

 

The way Leo grimaces only confirms it. He tries to play it off, but Jason’s familiar with the behavior from his time as a grief counsellor at Camp Halfblood—from the kids who struggled to admit the wars were traumatizing.

 

“Turns out redirecting all of that care and concern into humor might be a bad coping mechanism.” Leo shrugs nonchalantly—or as best as he can convey. The smile on his face holds more bitterness than Jason would expect, despite the lightness to Leo’s tone. He’s trying his best to convince both of them that it doesn’t bother him. “You heard it from his royal pain himself—I treat everything like a joke. Including our relationship.”

 

“Leo, I’m sorry.” Jason’s expression shifts. “I can speak from personal experience that trauma is hard to share. Sometimes it…just takes the right person before you can even get the words out.”

 

Jason’s mind goes back to Split. Sometimes it involves spending a whole day sitting in a cave, with someone patiently waiting for those words to be found. Someone with a steady grip to soothe trembling hands.

 

“If you explained that to Nico, he’d understand where you were coming from,” Jason says. “Maybe you two could even—”

 

Jason doesn’t finish his sentence. For some reason, he can’t. Leo latches onto that fact immediately.

 

“What, get back together?” Leo stares at him doubtfully and waves a hand dismissively. “Don’t get me wrong—Nico and I had our fun, but that was bound to crash and burn at some point. I feel sorry for whatever poor sap has to get the shovel talk from those three and his two other sisters.”

 

Leo narrows his eyes pointedly, while Jason’s cheeks grow warm.

 

“Want my blessing now?” Leo asks halfheartedly.

 

“No. I—um. I just wanted to make sure you were okay,” Jason says, when he straightens out his thoughts.

 

Leo tilts his head and scans Jason up and down. He shrugs nonchalantly. “Well—can’t say I’ve ever been on a date and friendzoned by a guy in less than twelve hours before—but I think I’ll live. I’ll still help you with calc homework if you need it.”

 

Jason smiles—but even that is a struggle. “Thanks, Leo.”

 

“No problem. So, Ghost Boy—” Leo arches an eyebrow. “Whatcha gonna do now?”

 

*

 

Jason spends the rest of the night thinking. He makes cookies. The weekend before pops into his head, and he recalls every ingredient—every measurement—with ease. He thinks of the bit of flour that decorated Nico’s hair as the son of Juno went through instructions, and the quiet stroke of Nico’s smile when Jason admitted he never baked. Of Nico’s laugh, and just…the ease of it all.

 

As he waits for his next batch to bake, Jason stares at his portrait for art class. The lines are rough—anything but perfect—but maybe that’s why he likes his art class so much.

 

Much like baking, it’s an interest he’s picked for himself. It’s something Jason’s working towards because he wants it.

 

Their art teacher told them to capture the essence of their partner. Nico warned that he himself wasn’t much of an artist—but Jason didn’t care. Jason was just happy that Nico wanted his company as much as he wanted Nico’s.

 

“That your sketch for art class?” Thalia startles him.

 

Jason peers up. His sister smiles at him from the kitchen entryway.

 

“The apartment smells great,” Thalia notes—and she gestures to the oven. Then she makes her way to the kitchen island. “I didn’t know you could bake.”

 

Jason shifts uncomfortably at his space. “Something new I’ve been trying out.”

 

She sinks a bite in one of the cookies and perks. “Oh—these have a crunch to them.”

 

“I added walnuts. And a pinch of extra cinnamon.”

 

“A pinch, huh?” Thalia muses. “I didn’t even know we owned baking sheets.”

 

“We didn’t,” Jason confirms. “I, uh. Bought some.”

 

Thalia eyes him with intrigue.

 

“I think I really like baking,” Jason says helpfully—and he watches as Thalia smiles.

 

“You bake to your heart’s content, baby brother.” Thalia smiles broadly at him. She stares at him steadily—with a demeanor that’s often reserved from Nico.

 

In any other circumstance, it would warm Jason’s heart—but he can’t help feeling another knot furl in his chest. It reminds Jason how close his sister and Nico are—and the knot in his chest begins to rot.

 

Before he can dwell, Thalia brushes a hand over his.

 

“I haven’t seen you all day,” she notes gently. Her gaze focuses on Jason’s face. “You kind of disappeared this morning. You and Nico both.”

 

At the mention of the son of Juno, Jason worriedly cocks his head. He sees Thalia’s expression morph ever so slightly, soaking in his quick reaction, and his gaze falls back down on his portrait.

 

“Did the two of you get into a fight?” Thalia asks gently. She gestures towards the kitchen window, where the pattering of rain still hasn’t ceased. “Is…this your doing?”

 

Jason grimaces. He brushes a thumb over his knuckles—and struggles to form the words.

 

Maybe for too long. Thalia touches his shoulder. “I haven’t talked to Nico yet. But—I’m your sister, Jace. You’re allowed to come to me when something’s bothering you. Nothing should ever feel so big that you can’t do that. I’ll shove a gold bar up anyone’s ass who tries to give you a hard time—even Chiron.”

 

The corner of Jason’s mouth twitches.

 

Thalia nudges him encouragingly in the shoulder. “There’s that smile I like to see.”

 

Jason’s shoulders slowly sag. The oven beeps, and he instinctively reaches for his mittens. Thalia patiently watches him pulls out the newest batch of cookies and transfer them to a wire rack.

 

“I,” Jason starts. Stops. The longer the day goes, the more he realizes he’s fallen back into the habit. Back into the fear or not knowing what to say. Thalia looks back at him with patience behind her mirth—and Jason reminds himself that this is where Nico learned it from. Thalia values her role as his—as their big sister. “You…really haven’t talked to Nico yet?”

 

Thalia’s eyes dull ever so slightly. She shakes her head. “Not yet. Reyna told me she had to drag him out of his bedroom this morning. If I knew the two of you had gotten into a fight—”

 

She pauses, and sighs wearily before pinching the bridge of her nose. Jason hangs onto the gesture with nervous anticipation.

 

“I can’t get ahead of myself here. I don’t know anything about what happened. Rey thinks she knows, but that it’s not her place to tell me—girlfriend or otherwise.” Thalia holds up both of her hands and casts a steady gaze. “But—I’ve known him a long time and you’re my brother. We spent the summer getting to know each other, Jason—that doesn’t get wiped away because you and Neeks had a fight big enough to flood the Golden Gate Bridge.”

 

She narrows her gaze, reassuring, but it leaves him feeling nauseated.

 

Eventually Jason finds words. Something to say. “I…don’t want to get between you and Nico.”

 

“You won’t,” Thalia says. She squeezes his arm reassuringly and reaches for another cookie. “We’re focused on you right now, Jace. Don’t worry about Nico and me—I know how to talk to him.”

 

Jason draws a breath. He presses his hands firmly to the kitchen counter and feels the heavy itch at the back of his throat.

 

Thalia waits for him. Everything about their trip over their summer had an ease to it—where Jason could feel like himself—but this is hard.

 

“Nico told me that he liked me last night,” Jason whispers softly. The whole day has passed—but he still can’t believe it.

 

Thalia’s hand falls from his shoulder. Her eyes widen—and despite their earlier conversation, she looks taken aback.

 

Jason can’t imagine what’s going through her head right now. Guy stuff. Boys. Him.

 

Not him, based on the way Thalia is staring at him. Her eyebrows furrow together and she presses her hands against the kitchen island. “And you two got into a fight about it? That doesn’t sound like him.”

 

“No—I upset him. I…” Jason sucks in a breath and shuts his eyes. “There was a misunderstanding. I went out with Leo last night.”

 

Oh.” Her next look is less forgiving. Thalia’s lips descend into a grimace, and she crosses her arms over her chest. “I had no idea you and Valdez were—”

 

“We’re not,” Jason says quickly. His cheeks stain red with embarrassment and he rubs his neck out of worry. “I went to see Leo earlier. We cleared things up. He and I are just friends.”

 

“Still,” Thalia insists—but she loses her vigor. She stares into the air, vexed. “Their breakup wasn’t pretty.”

 

“I know.” Jason hangs his head with shame. “I…needed the full story. I didn’t mean to hurt Nico’s feelings. Or Leo’s.”

 

Thalia considers his words. “But…Nico asked you out?”

 

With the words aloud by his own sister, Jason feels his cheeks heating up again. He brushes the back of his neck self-consciously, and nods. His chest aches. He hears his sister’s soft—oh, gods—but doesn’t know what else to say.

 

“And,” Thalia continues slowly, “you told him you weren’t interested?”

 

Jason’s hand twitches. He looks back at his portrait of Nico—of the uneven lines that capture his face, and the subtle waves of his hair. Jason knows it’s not a perfect photo—perfection only comes with practice.

 

But…nothing’s made him want to persist more than getting Nico’s face right. To capture the way he smiles, and the little twinkle in his eyes that matches his love of stargazing. Even the delicate lines of his face helps Jason hear the steady vibrato of Nico’s voice.

 

“That’s the thing,” Jason says softly. “I…I don’t know if I’m…not interested.”

 

He thinks back to Annabeth’s words—about how being with Nico means being what they are now, but better.

 

It’s…terrifying. Jason doesn’t know what to think. What to expect.

 

Thalia only smiles. Percy was absolutely enraged at Jason—but his sister’s lips lift gently from cheek-to-cheek, and she places both hands on his shoulders.

 

“Jace,” she says gently, “do you like Nico?”

 

Red blooms in Jason’s cheeks. He averts his gaze, his chest fluttering. Being…more with Nico means more time with him. More late night evenings, talking and playing video games and making cookies. More of Nico’s smile and his laughter, and more of Jason’s own to mix in its harmony.

 

He doesn’t want that to go away. Doesn’t know if he can handle it.

 

The longer he waits to respond, the quicker Thalia’s smile seems to wane.

 

“Hey,” she says finally. Thalia gives his shoulder a firm squeeze. “You’ve had a lot of things pile on your shoulders during your life, baby brother. You deserve love to come easy to you after everything that’s happened.”

 

“What…happens if I hurt him again?” Jason’s eyebrows furrow together.

 

“Then I hurt you,” Thalia says automatically. “And if he hurts you, I hurt him.”

 

She says the words with ease—but Jason isn’t sure if he believes her.

 

And—Jason can’t muster the thought of Nico hurting him. Not after everything they’ve been through.

 

After a day’s worth of agonizing—Jason finally blurts out an answer. “I don’t know what to say. Or what to do. I’m—I don’t know, Thalia.”

 

His words ache at the back of his throat, and Jason’s eyebrows knit together again.

 

“I don’t know,” he repeats.

 

Thalia stares at him curiously, and a look of sympathy flashes across her eyes.

 

“It’s scary,” she agrees. “But it should also be easy, Jace. Reyna and I—I knew for a long time how I felt, but everything else made it complicated. It falls into place the way it’s supposed to—even if that means having to fall into the pits of hell first.”

 

Her tone is wry—but a tiny smile dons across her face.

 

“I just—” Jason thinks of the elation he felt when Thalia and he came back from their trip this past summer. Of the way he ran into Nico, dressed in the garb of a Roman official. After sixteen years of shoving his feelings into a pit for the Great Prophecy—talking to Nico was easy. Especially after Luke.

 

But…describing how he feels around Nico isn’t easy. The words take a bitter halt in Jason’s heart every time he tries to say them aloud.

 

The…heart that Jason thought was down in the Fields of Punishment.

 

Thalia touches his shoulder and pulls him out of his thoughts.

 

“I know Nico—and he just respects honesty,” she says. “No one loses when you’re both honest with each other. And to yourself.”

 

Be honest with himself. Right. Jason stares at his drawing again—of the long strokes of Nico’s eyelashes and his candid smile. Thalia surprises him with a hug.

 

“No one loses a sister over this, either,” she tells him. “So don’t be hard on yourself.”

 

Jason falls into her embrace. Eventually, he hugs her back—and feels the tiniest load lift from his shoulders. “Thanks, Thal.”

 

The oven clicks with a gentle ding—signaling the completion of Jason’s last batch of cookies.

 

*

 

Jason wraps his best batch in a Tupperware container. The rain doesn’t subside. He walks the short length between their apartment complex to the di Angelo residence. Jason stops short of the front gate—where only twenty-four hours ago, Nico angrily stood. The strokes of his anger—of the enraged wrinkle between his brow and the scowl at his lips—is something different than what Jason’s grown used to since his months living in New Rome.

 

He…really doesn’t want to see it again.

 

Slowly, Jason ambles to the door and delivers a gentle knock. Bianca appears—her demeanor as vibrant as their evening before. She grins at him first—then scans him from head-to-toe. “Jace! I’ve been trying to get ahold of you all day—what happened? Where have you been?”

 

“Around.” Jason smiles weakly, but it doesn’t last long.

 

Behind Bianca, the living room is sparse. He sees her computer set up for photography—otherwise nothing.

 

“Is Nico home?” Jason asks. His voice is unsteady.

 

Bianca nods. Her face twists into something of annoyance, and she crosses her arms. “He’s been holed up in his room all day. The wedding he was supposed to attend got cancelled because of this rain. Weird since I can’t will it away. Reyna managed to get him out of his room this morning, and then he went straight back in there when he got home. Probably video games or something.”

 

“You…haven’t talked to him?”

 

She rolls her eyes and shrugs. “He gets like this.”

 

Like this doesn’t put Jason’s mind at ease. Nico and Bianca’s bickering is notorious—but it only makes Jason more nervous.

 

“Anyway, I need to tell you about last night after you and Leo left—Piper and I had such a good time!” Bianca squeals, and she reaches out to cradle Jason’s hands. “We were out all evening and even hung out in the rain—I wish I could have taken a picture of it, Jace—”

 

“I’m not here to talk about last night.” Jason cuts her off again. He raises a hand to halt her train of thought. It falls instead, and he nervously thumbs the base of his neck. “I’m…here for Nico.”

 

“Um. Okay.” Bianca crosses her arms over her chest, expression shifting. “I’m warning you though, Nico’s not in the best mood.”

 

“Maybe I can do something.”

 

Bianca looks unconvinced—but lets him inside. Jason takes in the room with a better eye. He looks towards the kitchen, where the lights have been turned off for the evening. Down the hallway, he can hear keyboard tapping and explosions tapering off in the distance—no doubt from Nico’s videogame bender.

 

“Good luck,” Bianca mutters. She returns to her blanket nest on the couch, eying Jason as oddly as she did at his birthday party.

 

Swallowing his nerves, Jason makes his way to Nico’s bedroom door, where it’s shut tight. Knocking on that one proves even harder.

 

Eventually, Nico yanks it open. “Bianca, I told you to—”

 

He pauses. There’s irritation across Nico’s face before it diminishes. Nico looks up at Jason with the same mortification from this morning—and Jason feels worse.

 

“Hey,” Jason whispers softly. “Can I come in?”

 

Nico looks as reluctant as he did this morning. He peeks his head out of his bedroom door, where Bianca has decided to cover her ears with headphones and ignore them. Slowly, he raises his gaze back up—and already looks nauseous. “Sure.”

 

Nico’s bedroom is a different environment from the rest of the house. Jason realizes that he hasn’t seen much of it during his visits. Last weekend was spent on the couch playing Legend of Zelda and eating cookies—but Nico has a nest of his own in the corner of the room.

 

There’s a game flickering on his computer that Jason doesn’t recognize. Above the desk are shelves lined with figurines. Jason sees Greek chitons and an overzealous plastic figure overcompensating with a giant lightning bolt—but he has a harder time placing the rest.

 

“You can sit here.” Nico moves an ottoman in Jason’s direction. There’s an oversized pokemon sitting on it. Jason’s long forgotten the name—just that Clovis enjoyed it because it slept all day and lazed about. Nico’s quick to toss it on the bed.

 

Jason plops down. “I—”

 

He stops.

 

Starts again.

 

“I made you cookies.” Jason extends his hands out and reveals the Tupperware container. Nico stares at it in surprise. “They’re like the ones we made last week, except—I put walnuts in them. I added a little cinnamon, too, so they’re sweet.”

 

Nico looks upon his outstretched hands and takes the package carefully. He opens the lid, stares at the cookies, and reaches for one. “They…look good.”

 

“I thought about you the entire time.” The words fall out of Jason’s mouth before he can help himself.

 

The other demigod snaps to attention, his eyes raising at the words—and suddenly, Jason hears himself. Red flourishes across his face, mirrored in Nico’s own cheeks. Nico places the cookie back into the Tupperware container, and they fall into silence.

 

“Sorry,” Jason murmurs.

 

“It’s fine,” Nico says. He intentionally averts his gaze—when Jason wants nothing more than to stare the son of Juno in the face.

 

Jason sucks in a breath and tries again. “I went to see Leo today.”

 

This time, Nico’s eyes flicker with annoyance. He keeps his gaze fixated on his many shelves of figurines and action figures.

 

“We cleared things up about last night. It wasn’t a date. It was never supposed to be a date.” Jason pauses, his hands curled against his jeans. “I mean—at one point, maybe it was supposed to turn that way—Leo was trying to ask me out again—”

 

“If—” Nico cuts in. He holds a hand up and rubs his temples. “—this is your idea of making me feel better, I suggest you quit while you’re ahead. Seriously.”

 

“Sorry,” Jason says again. The wrinkle in Nico’s nose his clear, followed by an uncomfortable grimace. Jason looks down at his hands, which are now bare of everything. No cookies, no pencil. No sword.

 

Nico heaves a sigh and leans against his bed. “It’s…okay. So, you cleared things up with Leo.”

 

“I…wanted to know how you two were together,” Jason says, when he finally finds his words again. “I wanted to make sure I didn’t hurt you in a way you’ve already been hurt before, Nico.”

 

Nico’s grip clearly tightens over his bedsheets. He rubs the tattoo at his forearm, his lips pressed in a tight line.

 

“Sorry,” Jason says, “about seeing Leo, too. Um—”

 

“Please stop apologizing.”

 

“Right. Sorry—” Jason pauses as the next apology rolls off his tongue—but Nico snorts. Jason rubs his own wrist bone. “I’m…not very good at this. I’ve…never been in a situation like this before.”

 

“Neither have I.” Nico’s expression morphs awkwardly—and again, he doesn’t meet Jason’s eye. “I told you, Jason—we don’t have to talk about this. We can just forget this happened and go back to normal, it doesn’t need to be a thing.

 

“When did you know?”

 

Nico’s expression halts. His lips press into another line, and he curls his hands into his lap. “When did I know what?”

 

“That…you liked me.”

 

Nico twitches. Based on the look on his face, he clearly doesn’t want to answer.

 

Jason quickly changes the subject. He shifts uncomfortably on the ottoman again and drops his gaze. “Sorry. We don’t have to—”

 

“Odesa.”

 

Jason halts.

 

“We went to the varenyky place in Odesa—just the two of us. Coach wasn’t there.” Nico heaves a sigh and his shoulders sag. Red blooms in his cheeks, and he stubbornly refuses to look Jason in the eye. Instead, he finds something interesting in his bare toes. “We were just talking. Not just about the quest. I don’t…I didn’t get that a lot here. I…have Thalia, Reyna, and Percy, but it’s—different. Most people just think Jupiter, or see this—”

 

Nico waves at the room around them, at the many figurines. Jason notices Link and Sheik sitting in the corner, with a miniature Hyrulian shield.  

 

“—and realize I’m just some pathetic nerd,” he finishes, and his cheeks glow miserably for a different reason. “Not some cool Herculean son of Jupiter.”

 

Jason thinks back to Leo’s words. This was why Leo and Nico got along so well. All of the other reasons aside from the figurines and comic books and action figures were why they couldn’t stay together. The emotional part.

 

“You knew that long ago?” Jason asks quietly.

 

Nico’s cheeks darken, and he shakes his head. “I didn’t know. But. The closer we got during the quest…and the closer we got to Camp Halfblood, I didn’t…”

 

He sucks in a breath.

 

“I didn’t want that feeling to end,” Nico mumbles. “I didn’t want…us to end.”

 

There’s a lull in their conversation as Jason processes Nico’s words. He hears it in Nico’s voice now. The miserable fear, drenched in embarrassment from last night. There’s a don’t laced in Nico’s didn’t—and he knows neither of them thought they’d be here. That they’d feel as awful as they do.

 

“I really like talking to you, too, Nico,” Jason whispers softly. He leans over and reaches to squeeze Nico’s hand.

 

To his surprise, Nico inches out of the way to avoid his grip. And again, Nico refuses to look at him.

 

Jason withdraws his hand, shoulders falling. He’s reminded of Nico’s words—of how they can’t do…this anymore. Jason’s next breath is hard.

 

“I’ve never been in a situation like this before,” Jason repeats. He reaches and touches the back of his neck instead. “I’ve…always thought I was going to die before I made it to sixteen. The only time I ever fell in love, I…”

 

Jason was burned. Jason swam to the bottom of River Styx, with the reminder on the back of his neck that Luke Castellan was his noose as much as the son of Hermes was his anchor, and his birthday would forever be drowned in the blood of Luke’s death.

 

“I know,” Nico mutters—which is when Jason notices the subtle twitch of Nico’s hand. The need to reach out is innate. For as close as they are in Nico’s room, they keep a frigid difference. They have to.

 

Jason…thought his birthday would forever be lost in Luke’s death. He couldn’t call it anything else than Luke’s anniversary until this past summer.

 

Nico was the reason Jason could call his birthday his.

 

He thinks back to what Annabeth and Thalia have both said. If Jason worried only about Nico, then he’s already lost the right answer. And…he needs to be honest. To use his words.

 

“I really like you, Nico. I…haven’t felt connected to anyone like this in a long time,” Jason admits. He looks back up to Nico with a pained breath, and slowly exhales. “But I…I don’t think I’m there yet.”

 

Silence.

 

Nothing, but utter silence.

 

Then: “Okay.”

 

Jason peers back up, nauseated—and Nico’s blasé expression is all he sees. There’s no rage in Nico’s eyes, or a simmering heat—just a straight line at his lips. As Nico moves, Jason collects to his feet. “Nico—I don’t want—”

 

“Things can go back to normal then,” Nico interjects. He picks up the Tupperware container from his bed and slowly ushers to the bedroom door. “We’re fine, Jason.”

 

Jason stares at Nico—whose expression is firm. “Are…you sure?”

 

There’s the tiniest crack in Nico’s demeanor. He rubs his temples slowly—and allows only the slightest bit of hesitation. “There’s…nothing you’ve said tonight that I didn’t expect, Jason. I already knew about Luke. We’ve discussed him plenty.”

 

“But I—”

 

“Jason,” Nico cuts the other demigod off. This time, he flashes Jason a more certain look. “We’re okay. The only difference here is—you know I like you and I know you don’t. Nothing’s changed. I’m never going to be Luke.”

 

That revelation shakes Jason. It shocks him out of a response—but Nico is already opening the door.

 

“You can go home now,” Nico announces. There’s no impasse behind his words. Nico carries no smile, nor frown—but he cradles the cookies close. “I’ll see you at school on Monday.”

 

Jason struggles to move. He’s left with nothing but a nod from the son of Nico—and slowly exits. Nico shuts the door slowly, after they both mumble a quiet goodbye.

 

Bianca’s dozed off at her place on the couch. Before Jason leaves, he readjusts the blanket over her shoulders.

 

He’s reluctant to leave. Jason’s eyes remain on Nico’s door until he reaches the foyer—and even then, Jason wants nothing more than to go back to Nico’s side and apologize profusely.

 

Nothing’s changed. Nothing’s supposed to change. We’re okay. Nico and he are okay.

 

They can still be them.

 

No, he realizes as he takes a step outside. They can’t.

 

The storm continues to howl as Jason makes the wet trek home.

Notes:

Hi everyone! Sorry for the long delay on this chapter -- life picked up right after the last update, so I haven't had time to write. This story's now picking up after all the ~foundation~ of cute fluff -- now we move on to ANGST!! I hope you enjoyed the update! As always -- stay safe out there and thank you so much for reading!!

Chapter 10: moving on

Summary:

A month passes.

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

A month passes.

 

September is painful and agonizing to get through—and far too reminiscent to the last time Nico went through a breakup. Except…this wasn’t a breakup because Jason was never his in the first place.

 

Reyna knows. She’s known since that first night in the rain—and had dragged him to Fabiano’s not to dwell. She keeps the pace of their day and helps Nico pretend everything is normal—but in the hiccups of their routine, Nico knows she handles everything he says with too much care before responding. He knows she spends most evenings in the Grace household with Thalia—and likely has more courage to look Jason in the eye than Nico does.

 

Nico hasn’t spoken with Thalia about it. Hasn’t wanted to. He wants things to be normal—for the entire incident to be one blemish over his friendship with Jason—but their circle is small. Reyna knows, so Thalia knows.

 

Percy is a firecracker over the whole ordeal. He barged into the praetor office, ranting about Jason’s lack of awareness—and fumed.

 

For someone insistent that Nico and Jason were bad for each other, Percy seems the most upset that they aren’t together. Nico takes Percy out for ice cream just so the son of Neptune can’t go on a tirade with his mouth full. Especially with slander against Jason.

 

And…Jason.

 

The Monday morning following the…incident with Jason, Nico passes in his art project to Professor Kronk. He’s too embarrassed to show Jason the crooked stick figure he spent hours drawing and overcorrecting in attempt to capture Jason Grace’s “essence.”

 

I like you, but I don’t think I’m there yet.

 

I like you, but I don’t think I’m there.

 

I don’t think I’m there.

 

Jason doesn’t like him. Not in the same way. Jason Grace’s essence is a son of Hades with kind eyes as dark as the night—as black as coal that’s been thrown into the flames time after time. A demigod who’s lived with demons long before he earned the privilege to smile this past summer.

 

Eventually, even the blackest coal diminishes to ash when thrown into flames. Nico has long refused to be the ember that turns Jason into dust.

 

So, he’s okay that Jason’s not there. He’s known Jason won’t be there. Nico’s known he’s not Luke. He won’t ever be.

 

Things should be normal now. Nico can muster the courage to sit across from Jason in art class or change into gym clothes and carry on a conversation like the past weekend didn’t happen. He has to, so things can go back to normal.

 

Except normal is different.

 

Their normal involved everything Nico said he couldn’t keep doing because he likes Jason. Spending entire weekends with Jason when they didn’t cross paths before the war. Listening to Jason somberly talk about how he’s in love with someone else, and Nico compulsively trying to make things better because he likes Jason so much. Nights, falling asleep in Jason’s arms after a full evenings in each other’s company.

 

Their normal is…too much. Too many gateways that makes Nico fall for Jason a little more—which is bad. And they both know it’s bad.

 

So, they can’t talk like they used to. Things get weird at school. Jason (maybe) looks flustered as he hands his own drawing to their art teacher, but Nico doesn’t bother to ask. He doesn’t want to know what Jason thinks of his essence. Nico got a perfectly good idea of what Jason thought of it over the weekend.

 

They don’t talk. Jason can’t seem to look at Nico without worry swelling in his eyes. There’s almost an artistry to the way Jason’s eyebrows knit together. To the way Jason’s shoulders straighten. He opens his mouth, with a whole novel at his tongue—but they can’t even say two words to each other.

 

Nico can’t hold Jason’s eye because he can’t stand to see that look in Jason’s face—a lost puppy looking for approval from his owner. (Which—side note: Nico can’t believe he’s even making that comparison for a number of reasons.)

 

He hopes the awkwardness will subside after a few days. It doesn’t. Jason still looks at Nico with big, troubled eyes, and Nico…can’t look back.

 

He waits a week.

 

A few weeks.

 

By the time a month passes—when their gym teacher tells them to find partners to spar—Nico sprints in the opposite direction. When their art teacher romances a paint brush and tells them to give each other insightful criticism, Nico lets his stick figures bear the brunt of someone else’s eyes rather than Jason’s endeared smile.

 

Nico knows Jason falters every time it happens.

 

Nico wants things to go back to normal—but their normal is different.

 

Their normal can’t have whispered conversations in the night, or hands curled against one another when everything else in the world feels like too much.

 

Nico can’t have his heart swell every time Jason laughs at one of his jokes or get lost in the expanse of Jason’s eyes when their dark hue fills with stars.

 

He—gods—he really needs to put those feelings away and get over them, like he swore to Reyna months ago at the beach.

 

Nico really needs to stop liking Jason so they can be friends again.

 

Because everything should be perfectly fine—nothing needs to escalate.

 

He just really wishes it would stop raining.

 

*

 

They’re on their fourth week of drowning in rain when Percy makes his unceremonious entrance in the praetor’s office.

 

Percy is dry, of course, but he doesn’t look any less annoyed. He tracks muddy footprints across their carpet and drags a chair in front of Nico’s desk. A grin splays across his face, and he ruffles his own hair. “How’s it hanging, Neeks?”

 

“Dirty,” Nico replies wryly, and he gestures to Percy’s messy footprints. Aurum and Argentum rouse from their naps to inspect Percy’s trail. Even without noses, they recoil from the scent and hide behind Nico’s legs. “Reyna’s going to kill you if you keep doing this.”

 

“Hey—I can keep myself from getting wet.” Percy makes gestures with his hands. “Mud’s a whole other story. It’s this whole culmination of water and soil—”

 

“I get it,” Nico cuts him off after hearing the protest for the umpteenth time. “The son of Neptune has a weakness.”

 

Percy’s never been one to feel emasculated. There was an incident once when they were younger, and Reyna had him hold a purse—but anything related to water tends to make him more sensitive. He makes a face and immediately waves his hands around. “It’s not a weakness—”

 

“Neptune—King of Atlantis, god of the sea, horses, earthquakes, dolphins, and so on.” Nico makes tick marks with his fingers without lifting his gaze. “I guess mud is too blurry of a line for earth and sea.

 

“Very funny.” Percy rolls his eyes emphatically and waves a finger in Nico’s direction. “You want to talk amalgamations, Neeks? We could talk about your dad and your mom and your other mom.”

 

“Can you spell amalgamations?”

 

“Can you, without looking at your manga collection?”

 

Nico rolls his eyes while Percy grins. He knows better than to egg on Percy’s shenanigans.

 

He’s dealt with a lot of Percy’s shenanigans in the last month. Percy only continues, taking a nonsensical victory from Nico’s silence. He perches higher in his chair and digs his elbows into the other side of Nico’s desk. “So, what are we doing tonight?”

 

Nic rolls his eyes again. He yanks his history homework out from beneath Percy’s grip. “I’ve got paperwork to sign.”

 

“Bullshit—how long does it take you to write Nico di Angelo?”

 

“Longer when someone prints my name Nico D-period-Angelo,” Nico says. He gestures to a manilla folder marked with a giant V for the Fifth Cohort.  

 

“Yeah,” Percy insists. “Nico D. Angelo. Your middle name.”

 

“My middle name is Rafael.”

 

“Nico R. Angelo?”

 

“You’re insufferable.” Nico reaches over and swats a grinning Percy. He settles in his seat and closes his textbook, knowing he won’t get any other work done until Percy leaves. (So, never.) “What makes you think I don’t already have plans tonight?”

 

“Because only normies want to get married while it’s sunny and too many people are out with a cold from the last time we did tactical terrain maneuvers for the War Games,” Percy points out. “We could go to the mall. Is there a new game out?”

 

“Nothing I can’t just download on my computer at home.”

 

“C’mon—that’s boring, Neeks.”

 

“That’s a privilege now that I don’t have to share a bunker with twenty-four other guys.” Nico arches an eyebrow, while the son of Neptune continues their song and dance. It’s a familiar rhythm Percy and he have fallen into since…that day.

 

Nico’s wedding duties have fallen to half because of the constant rain. For as many couples that suddenly see him as a good luck charm as a son of Juno, they don’t want their pictures ruined because of a storm. It’s the only time he’s found solace in his rotten genetics. At least this way he gets some of his free time back.

 

Mike (for how little Nico’s wanted his company) says weddings make people superstitious. Nico is signing contracts for dates a year out for many couples who wish to hold their wedding on a dry day. We’re not responsible for acts of god(s) isn’t a good enough excuse in the demigod world.

 

Ever since…that day, Percy’s presence has been constant. Nico’s not sure how the incident made it down the grapevine. Even telling Reyna felt odd. Telling Reyna how things went with Jason feels like a precursor to how Thalia will react—and while Nico’s looked for their advice while growing up, putting Thalia between Jason and him feels…wrong.

 

By extension, putting Thalia’s girlfriend in the middle as an intermediary feels worse.

 

Percy is a constant—but he brings Jason up more than Nico, who is trying very hard to pretend things are normal. Because they are.

 

(Even if Nico doesn’t sit next to Jason in art class anymore.)

 

(Even though Nico’s moved his gym locker to an aisle far, far away from Jason.)

 

Yeah, but we gotta make the long-distance thing work.” Percy claps his hands on either side of the office desk, mirroring baby Estelle like an overeager child. “I can’t just poke my head down anytime you’re snoring—”

 

“I don’t snore.”

 

“—and I can’t swat you with my pillow when your Switch brightness is too damn high anymore.” Percy fakes wiping a tear from the corner of his eye. “It’s the little things you start to miss, man.”

 

“You’re trying too hard.” Nico closes his textbook and submits. He looks up to Percy’s ridiculous crocodile tears and rolls his eyes. “If you keep this up, you’ll have to give the same speech to Annabeth. I’m surprised she isn’t missing your company.”

 

“Gotta practice somewhere, don’t I?” Percy grins cheekily and flashes a pointed look.

 

“Good to know I’m still your buffer.”

 

“No buffer needed. Besides—Beth’s got some huge project due for class or something.” Percy waves a hand dismissively. “I’ve been told that I’m a distraction.”

 

“No, really?”

 

“C’mon—quit dogging me. You know you’re going to say yes.” Percy grins evenly and leans his head against a palm. “Since when have you ever said no to hanging out with me?”

 

Nico sighs.

 

*

 

Never is usually the answer to Percy’s question. And—granted, Percy and he spent a lot of time together outside of the Legion as much as they did as co-centurions. Before the past summer, the war was the longest the four of them went without seeing each other. Reyna, Thalia, and Percy stitched the tear in Nico’s heart after the Lotus Casino.

 

Percy might be trying to stitch another wound at Nico’s heart. (And testing his sanity at the same time.)

 

They end up at one of three stores that Nico enjoys—a game store that has games and consoles from all generations from around the world.

 

Luckily for them, there is a new game out. Nico decided against downloading it online for this very scenario. There used to be late nights where Percy and he would camp out for hours for a new game release—but life has made that a little harder.

 

Percy hands a copy of God of War to Nico, looking smug. “Nothing beats a hardcopy, huh, Neeks?”

 

Nico thumbs the cover gently while they peruse the rest of the store. And, admittedly—“It’s not as satisfying if you can’t tear the plastic off, no.”

 

From the corner of his eye, he watches Percy ease into a wider smile. The son of Neptune throws an arm around Nico’s shoulder, and they dig deeper into the store. There are novelty items and wooden and copper figurines intermixed with amiibos and FunkoPops. After years of living in New Rome, there was always a possibility that a cursed relic was decorating a shelf with a red sticker marked $5.99—EXTRA 50% OFF!

 

“How come we don’t hang out anymore?” Percy asks.

 

“Because you got a girlfriend,” Nico says without missing a beat.

 

Percy twitches—but his ears undoubtedly turn red. He shoves Nico gently in the shoulder. “Shut up, no I didn’t.”

 

“You’re right. Probably because you smell like ripe sea water.”

 

“Hey—”

 

“I like Annabeth,” Nico redirects, before Percy can get too riled up. “I don’t understand how you’ve spent over half the year with her and still haven’t asked her out.”

 

Percy bats his hand dismissively. He pulls an amiibo off the shelf and pretends to inspect it. “It’s complicated. You wouldn’t understand—it’s—”

 

“Straight people problems?”

 

Percy wrinkles his nose and crosses his arms. “Geez—it’s like we never left the barracks.”

 

“You’re right,” Nico agrees. “You were single then, too.”

 

Percy grumbles but resigns. Nico is smug for all but a minute—until one in particular catches his eye.

 

 The Legend of Zelda figurines are lined neatly. Princess Zelda, in her royal blue adventuring outfit. Link, with his bow and arrow, a Guardian, a Bokoblin. A Sheik figurine sits pristinely at the end, creating a bridge between the Zelda figurines and those from Super Smash Bros. Nico can’t help picking it up.

 

He looks to the vibrant golden hair and the intense eyes—along with the combative pose. Nico vibrantly remembers being twelve years old and thrown for a loop when he learned Zelda and Sheik were one and the same.

  

His mood immediately sours.

 

“Oh—nice, they finally have Sheik in. You’ve been waiting on that one for a while.” Percy leans over and he inspects it curiously. “Wanna snag—?”

 

“No.” Nico sets the figurine down and shoves the sourness of his own mood as far away as he can. “I’m. Not really playing much Zelda these days.”

 

“Really?” Percy arches an eyebrow. “But you love—”

 

“It’s fine, Percy.” Nico makes a hasty retreat to the cash register. The naiad cashier pulls up his membership without question. A few discounts and rewards points later, Nico pulls out his wallet and is met with Percy’s frown.

 

“Don’t tell me he ruined Zelda for you, too.”

 

Nico’s blood boils. He sucks in a breath, thanks the naiad, and shakes his head. Stifles the irritation that simmers. “No.”

 

Percy gives him a withered look—which is when Nico decides to dart towards the exit. He knows Percy is on his trail, practically breathing over his shoulder. “Okay—well what about dinner? Where do you want to go next—?”

 

“I’m not hungry.”

 

“Bullshit.”

 

Percy—” Nico whirls around, with the irritation burning in his chest—but stops, as he sees Percy’s frown. He coils his hands tightly around his bag, then waits for his anger to simmer. Nico’s very aware that Percy is watching it happen. Then, finally—he relents. “I…guess I could go for Chinese.”

 

*

 

They take one of the rental SUVs from camp and head into San Francisco. Why Percy thought it was a good idea to traverse the heavy (rainy) traffic of San Francisco on a Friday afternoon, Nico doesn’t know. All American Rejects blasts through the stereo, while Nico has his face firmly pressed against the window. His new game sits on the floor of the passenger’s seat, while Percy taps his hand to the rhythm of whatever song.

 

“Bianca out on another date tonight?” Percy asks.

 

“She doesn’t tell me these things.”

 

“Does she…” Percy’s tone slows thoughtfully. “Know about the Grace stuff?”

 

Percy’s pitch comes carefully in a way that Nico doesn’t like.

 

Nico stares at the smudge left from his face against the car window. “I don’t tell her those things.”

 

Truthfully—Bianca’s presence has been sporadic. They don’t cross paths at school. Most of her evenings are spent glued to her phone texting Piper and planning weekend visits. The breathing room has been…nice, despite the circumstances it evolved from. There was a time where Nico would’ve been upset that Bianca wanted to have a life away from him—but this whole circumstance with Jason is one he doesn’t want to explain.

 

Bianca got together with Piper—surprising no one. Nico doesn’t understand how someone as alt as the daughter of Aphrodite could lean towards someone as prim, laced, and proper as his sister, daughter of Mammina—but it keeps Bianca out of his hair. And—after the way things crashed and burned with Calypso almost immediately, Nico’s happy that his sister’s happy.

 

He just wishes it wasn’t the catalyst that started this whole ordeal.

 

“Well,” Percy says, interrupting Nico’s thoughts, “have you considered it?”

 

“Considered what?”

 

“Telling her those things.”

 

“No.” Nico unglues his face from the car window.

 

“Well—what if you did?”

 

“No, Percy.”

 

“Why not?”

 

“Because there’s nothing to talk about, nothing to regard—and nothing she needs to concern herself with.” Nico crosses his arms over his chest. “We keep business as usual.”

 

“Business as usual?” Percy repeats.

 

“You’ll understand when you’re older,” Nico reassures. “When you and Estelle can have an intelligent conversation.”

 

“Hey—don’t count her out. She swindled me out of two cookies this past summer.” Percy takes a left at a stoplight, his good mood undeterred. “I’m just saying though—maybe if you get your sister on your side—”

 

“I’d what?” Nico flashes Percy an irate look. “I’d get her off of Jason’s?”

 

Percy doesn’t respond to that point blank. He shrugs nonchalantly.

 

“What goes on between Jason and Bianca is none of my business—just like what went on between him and me this summer is none of hers.” As an immediate afterthought, Nico cocks his head and waves a finger. “And nothing went on between us.”

 

There’s a biting quality to Nico’s words—one that he doesn’t intend.

 

Percy’s lips pull into a frown, and he makes a vague gesture. “Okay, but considering you’re her little brother—”

 

“No.”

 

“—and how much she’s been trying to be on your good side—”

 

“No.”

 

“—that this could be a good—”

 

Nico reaches for the volume dial and cranks it to the right.

 

The car pulses, “—SEE YOUR FACE HOPE IT GIVES YOU HELL—”

 

Percy tilts his head back and screams over the music—"—AND THE TWO OF YOU COULD BOND OVER DUMB FRILLY THINGS—

 

NOW WHERE’S YOUR PICKET FENCE LOVE—”

 

“AND WE CAN KEEP HANGING OUT—”

 

“Percy.” Nico turns the dial back and gestures outside. “We missed the turn.”

 

WHAT?” Percy turns the wheel and shakes his head. “No, bro—we’re trying a new restaurant tonight. You need a change of pace.”

 

Nico blinks in surprise. Percy’s never one to stray away from new experiences—but the past month was filled with comfort items (for the lack of a better word.) Percy took him shopping for new games, played late into the night and—occupied his time more than before the war. Change of pace feels off—since Nico’s been trying to steer around Percy’s mood.

 

“Don’t make that face,” Percy reems almost immediately. “Sometimes I mean well.”

 

Percy was trying to make him feel better—despite Nico’s insistence that he was fine. Nico looks back to Percy, but the son of Neptune looks set on his quest.

 

“It’s a grand opening.” Percy grins, trying to look as helpful as he can. Nico groans.

 

“That’s a three hour wait,” Nico retorts—but Percy’s mind is set.

 

Percy drops Nico off at the restaurant and goes in search of a parking spot. Nico has no doubt that the restaurant is already double booked with other reservations—but Percy insists. The parking lot is filled with a crowd of cars. Before Nico bothers getting out of the vehicle, Percy slaps the turn signal to call dibs on a nearby spot. The current parking spot owner in question is an old couple slowly shuffling around puddles to make it back to their car.

 

The lobby is full—but Nico knows Percy will be more offended if he doesn’t put their name on the list. He gets a whole stool to himself near the host’s stand. It doesn’t make the restaurant feel any less crowded. Nico shirks and writhes out of the way when parties are called, but he isn’t any less skeeved out by the horde of people. He tries to tune them out—but his stomach only growls.

 

At some point, one of the hostesses calls out a name. “—nabeth, party of two!”

 

The crowd bustles and grumbles amongst itself, with no response.

 

“Annabeth—party of two? Your table’s ready.”

 

Nico pauses. Then he freezes. From the other side of the lobby emerges someone—who is definitely not Annabeth.  Blond hair. Dark, charcoal eyes, and a pale, dimpled smile.

 

Jason waves at the hostess. “That’s me—um, us. My friend’s still in the rest—Nico?”

 

His smile drops almost immediately. He turns to Nico, who’s still wedged in the corner of the hostess booth, and Jason stares at the son of Juno in surprise. Nico stares back, just as shocked.

 

The hostess is none the wiser—clearly invested in her seating chart. She gestures to Nico without looking up. “That your friend?”

 

Nico stares at Jason, his throat dry and eyes wide. Jason looks as shellshocked as Nico feels.

 

“Hello,” the hostess asks sharply. “Party of two?”

 

“No,” Nico says immediately, as Jason combats with, “Uh—yeah.”

 

Jason’s face glows, and Nico’s gaze burns into him.

 

“We’re friends, but we’re not together,” Jason continues, and he gestures at Nico. “Um—he’s not an Annabeth, ma’am.”

 

The ma’am barely looks older than either of them. She lifts an eyebrow and raises a dry erase marker. “So, a party of three?”

 

“No,” Nico says, while Jason says, “Well—”

 

The front door opens, revealing Percy in his glory as he swings the key ring happily around his finger—just as Annabeth appears in the crowd with her long, blond curly hair.

 

“Neeks!” Percy chirps, “you’ll never guess what parking spot I—”

 

“Jace,” Annabeth says, “how close are we to—Percy?”

 

“Beth,” Percy says, slack-jawed.

 

They stop short of each other.

 

The hostess taps her dry erase marker into the stand loudly. She smiles at them sweetly with her eyes burning holes into their skulls.  “So, are we a two-top or a four-top, Mister Annabeth? I can sit you at a booth, just make a decision.”

 

Nico hates that Jason’s gaze defaults to him—that same stupid worry glowing in his eyes.

 

“Um,” Jason says again—since he hasn’t been able to say more than two words to Nico in a month.

 

“Hey,” Percy whispers angrily behind them to Annabeth, “you told me you were busy tonight!”

 

“I am,” Annabeth rebuts, and she glares at him.

 

“Party of four,” Nico interjects. Jason looks at him in surprise, his eyebrows lifting.

 

“You sure?” Jason asks—but Nico refuses to look back.

 

“Lead the way, Miss,” Nico says—which seems to put her in a better mood than ma’am. The hostess looks between all four of them, makes a mark on her seating chart, and ushers them into the main dining room. It’s the most agonizing walk of Nico’s life—especially with Jason hovering over his shoulder.

 

Over the loud orchestra of clanging silverware, clacking plates and chatty servers, Nico can easily make out the whispered bickering of both Annabeth and Percy—

 

“You’re eating dinner with Grace—how’s that busy—?” “You’re making a big deal out of nothing—look—”

 

“You,” Nico hears from behind him softly, “sure you’re okay with this?” 

 

Nico’s ears heat up. He can’t tell if it’s embarrassment, rage—or both. He looks to Jason as evenly as he can, lifting an eyebrow in Jason’s direction as the host guides them. “What’s there not to be okay about?” 

 

Jason blinks, clearly startled.

 

It’s the first time in weeks since Nico’s fully looked at Jason. At Jason’s handsome face—his charcoal eyes, and the sweet imperfect scar against his frown. Jason’s shoulders are stiff, face full of worry. More than Nico wants to see, and certainly more than either can take in.

 

Jason opens his mouth. “I just. Um—” 

 

“Here’s your seat,” the host announces. She gestures to a booth and distributes the menus across the table. “Enjoy.” 

 

Nico sits down immediately. He watches Percy and Annabeth slide onto the other side of the booth—begrudgingly—and tries his best not to cradle his head in his hands. Percy doesn’t realize what he’s done until his shoulder is against the wall.

 

He blinks at Nico—then scowls at Jason.

 

Which is almost as bad as Jason staring from the aisle, confused. “Um—”

 

“Nico,” Annabeth interjects, “why don’t you swap with me?”

 

Nico flashes a grateful look as they shift seats. The hostess is long gone, leaving the four of them quietly nestled in their booth. Their table is dead silent—but Nico can feel Percy’s gaze as he looks to Annabeth.

 

“Date night?” Nico asks dryly.

 

Nothing. Jason’s eyebrows furrow at worry towards Nico. Percy’s stern scowl is directed towards Jason’s face. Annabeth’s exasperation burns into Percy.

 

“First projects were assessed and graded today,” Annabeth explains. Her lips slowly spread into a smile. “I got a B-Plus.”

 

“Wait—Patchouli gave you a B-Plus?” For how annoyed Percy was moments ago, he suddenly lights up, grinning. He plants his hands against the booth table and leans in. “That’s like a 110% in architecture-speak!”

 

Nico arches an eyebrow. Percy reaches out to high-five Annabeth, and her grin widens with Percy’s approval—but it’s quick to fall as Percy catches himself.

 

The son of Neptune sidles back in his seat and clears his throat. His face betrays his posture as he tries to play it cool and fumbles instead. “I mean—cool. That’s nice.”

 

Annabeth’s smile falls an inch, and she looks mildly annoyed once more.

 

Jason looks between them, looking as uncomfortable as Nico feels. “We…decided to celebrate. Annabeth mentioned this restaurant—”

 

“Had its grand opening today, and that we’ve been counting the weeks to go to it since it happened to be the same week your project was being graded?” Percy asks, his arms crossed over his chest.

 

Annabeth looks more irritated.

 

“In fewer words, I’m sure,” Nico notes.

 

Again, Jason looks between the three of them and rubs his forehead. “So…this…was date night?”

 

Percy falters as quickly as he did back in the game shop. His ears glow, while Annabeth presses a hand to her face.

 

Nico snorts. He tucks his nose behind his menu, but the sound doesn’t go unheard by Jason.

 

“This was a celebratory dinner with my best friend,” Annabeth corrects, glossing over the glower on Percy’s face. She places a hand on Jason’s shoulder, “before he goes away for the weekend.”

 

“What a treat,” Percy mutters. “Where are you going, Grace?”

 

“Uh—Camp Halfblood.”

 

Nico stops in his tracks. He looks up to Jason, who has finally found interest in the menu in front of him. There isn’t anything particularly rotten about his demeanor—not like back in July. Granted—this whole situation is suffocatingly awkward for all of them—but Nico thinks he sees new worry lines between Jason’s brow. Maybe under his eyes.

 

“Any particular reason why?” Nico asks before he can help himself.

 

Jason looks up from his menu, and Nico’s chest knots. The son of Hades opens his mouth to speak—

 

“Hi! Welcome in today, guys—” Their waiter wedges himself at the edge of the booth, with an energetic grin. “—how’re we doing?”

 

The four of them look at each other uncomfortably. There’s a resounding grumble that bounces between all of them.

 

“Well,” their waiter comments, “don’t you look cute in that get-up? Very Danny Zuko of you.”

 

Nico twitches. He looks back up and catches Jason’s bewilderment. The server’s smile is charming—and annoying. His name tag reads Fred. 

 

“Oh. Uh.” Jason looks between the server—some blue-eyed, blond guy who doesn’t look too much older than them—and Nico. “No thank you.” 

 

His eyes flit to Nico once more, and his gaze drops, heat glowing at his ears. Nico lifts an eyebrow. 

 

Fred the server blinks at him. 

 

“Four waters,” Nico interjects. He slides his menu to the end of the table. “And a basket of bread. Thanks, Fred.” 

 

“Uh, right. Four waters and a basket. Coming right up.” Fred arches an eyebrow at Nico and tilts his head. “Sorry to offend.” 

 

He disappears down the aisle, leaving their group in an awkward silence. 

 

“Well,” Jason mutters. “This isn’t awkward.” 

 

“Could’ve fooled me,” Percy comments. “Need me to translate? I can tell you—most servers aren’t just like that.” 

 

Nico’s blood boils. “Percy—”

 

Annabeth slams her menu into the table before Nico can get another word out. “Percy, butt out.” 

 

Percy and Jason both startle at the sudden sound. Percy stares at her, mouth agape. “Me?” 

 

“You want to know why I told you I was busy tonight?” Annabeth sneers. “Because we can’t go five seconds without you flipping out over Jason!” 

 

“Beth—” Jason reaches out to stop her—but Percy is louder. 

 

“Excuse me?” Percy slams his fists into the table and guffaws. “How am I the bad guy here? Grace has literally spent months leading Nico on!”

 

“You shouldn’t be any guy here!” Annabeth’s voice grows shrill and she rubs her temples. “You shouldn’t be involved at all. But you can’t go two seconds without treating Jace like he’s—he’s a criminal, and—holy Hera, if I could take a shot for every time you’ve mentioned him when we hang out—”

 

“When we hang out?” Percy repeats, his own voice shrill. He throws his hands in the air. “When does that happen anymore? Apparently I’ve gotta be penciled in between studio and Grace over here!”

 

“Percy,” Jason interjects—his tone much more hushed in comparison. “I—understand where you’re coming from, and I’m sorry, but—”

 

“You’re sorry?” Percy whirls his head to the son of Hades, huffy. “You break my little bro’s heart, and you’re sorry?”

 

Nico’s face burns. He watches as Jason’s fumble of words turns into a full stop. Whatever protest Jason had dies on his tongue.  Loud and rambunctious are practically synonymous with San Francisco—but all Nico hears is Percy’s mortifying words in the bustling restaurant. 

 

Nico stands up and marches out of the restaurant.

 

He hears, “Wait—Nico—” from Jason, followed by something not nearly as friendly from Percy.

 

Rain slaps the ground so loudly that Nico barely hears the footsteps behind him. He makes it to the edge of the parking lot when he hears Percy’s keys jingling.

 

“Sorry, Neeks,” Percy starts, “I didn’t think—”

 

“I’m going home.”

 

“Oh—yeah, sure. You walked past the car though—”

 

“I’m flying.”

 

“What?” Percy’s confusion blooms through. “Why—”

 

“You need to stop.” Nico whirls around and shoves a finger in Percy’s face. He’s so furious that the rain sizzles as it hits him. Thunder booms above him, and he grits his teeth as Percy’s astonishment flickers with the lightning.

 

“Stop what?”

 

This!” Nico shouts, and the thunder crackles behind him again. He throws his hands into the air. “Annabeth’s right—you aren’t part of that equation. You never were, Percy!”

 

Percy looks taken aback. He doesn’t furiously snap like he did at Annabeth and Jason—but his eyebrows furrow with confusion. It only angers Nico more. “C’mon, bro—I’m just trying to make sure you’re okay—”

 

“Percy, I was okay. Everything was okay!” Nico’s voice cracks and his hands tremble. He throws a splayed hand towards the restaurant. “I told you that nothing was going on between Jason and me and you couldn’t keep your head out of it!”

 

“That jerk broke your heart!”

 

“He turned me down because nothing was going on, like I told you!” Nico’s vision blurs and his jaw locks. His face burns with rage. “Now he can’t even look me in the eye and I don’t blame him!”

 

 

“Neeks—” Percy reaches out. “C’mon, don’t blame yourself—”

 

I don’t blame myself,” Nico snaps. He rubs his temples with frustration. “And I don’t blame him. I blame you!” 

 

Percy stares at Nico, stunned. He frowns and gestures to Nico. “Nico, Grace has been bad news from the start. I told you—”

 

No,” Nico snaps. He jabs another finger in Percy’s face, his other hand coiled into a fist. “You don’t say I told you so. I’m not just going to forgive you because you’re you, Percy—I’m not ten anymore! Get your own life!” 

 

Percy’s demeanor unravels. He stares back at Nico, speechless. 

 

Before he can form another word, Nico takes off in the air. He leaves, alone.

 

*

Nico’s anger doesn’t waver on the flight home. He lets the rain hit him, like tiny needles pricking the cool façade he’s been clinging onto over the last few weeks. The anger, frustration—humiliation—leaks with each droplet. He can’t get Jason’s bewildered look out of his mind.

  

He can’t get Annabeth’s scowl to disappear from his thoughts.

 

He can’t get Percy’s voice out of his head—berating Jason, and constantly reminding him how different things are. Nico’s anger burns with a heat that makes the air around him steam. Jason can’t muster anything but a self-conscious frown. Annabeth knows—everyone knows—because Percy knows and Reyna knows, and Thalia absolutely knows—

 

And nothing is normal, no matter how Nico wants it to be. He proved just that when he lashed out at Percy.

 

Annabeth proved it, when she and Percy started a fight that shouldn’t have involved either of them.

 

When Nico lands, the puddle at his feet splits like a broken window. He makes his way into the house—where Bianca is busy snuggling on the couch with Piper. Ugh. 

 

“Nico!” Bianca sprouts from the living room couch, her face beet red. She smooths out her skirt and hair in a frenzy. “I—um, I thought you—and Percy—”

 

“Hi, Nico.” Piper turns around and waves.

 

“Hi, Piper.” Nico smiles as politely as he can muster and wrings out his wet t-shirt. (It isn’t very polite.) “Change in plans. Just pretend I’m not here. Or—” He stares at his sister very pointedly, while Piper arches an eyebrow of amusement. “—be very aware that I am.”

 

He starts the stride towards his room, with the full intention of disregarding Bianca’s flustered squirm. Instead—

 

“Why are you wet?” she asks.

 

Nico halts, only a meter from his door.

 

“It’s raining outside,” Piper reasons.

 

“And we’re Zeus’s children,” Bianca says. “We don’t get wet.”

 

“You don’t?” Piper’s voice sounds of confusion. “What about when—”

 

“That’s different,” Bianca says hastily. Nico takes the opportunity to burrow towards his room again—but his sister has other plans. “Nico, what’s wrong?”

 

The question shouldn’t make Nico’s chest quiver as much as it does. It eerily strikes a chord—one that Nico hasn’t had to deal with in years—a full century—and his eyes sting. He’s quick to shut it down when he remembers how they got here.

 

“Nothing.” Nico waves off her hand. “If you’re worried about me getting sick, I was about to take a hot bath. Happy?’

 

“Did you and Percy get into a fight?” Bianca bulldozes through with her question. She sweeps around him like a graceful gust and observes him carefully. Nico hates it. “That’s not normal for the two of you.”

 

“I’m fine,” Nico says. The irritation begins to swell again. He tries to sidestep her, but Bianca is busy staring at him head-to-toe. “Since when do you care?”

 

The words sound harsh, even to Nico’s ears—but he’s too irate to take it back.

 

Bianca, of course, takes that the wrong way. Her demeanor shifts, taken aback, and her gaze narrows. “That’s not very nice of you.”

 

“I meant what goes on between Percy and me,” Nico corrects, and he tries to sidestep her again, his stance growing tense.

 

“You’re being unreasonable,” Bianca admonishes.

 

“You’re being too much.” Nico attempts to move past her, but Bianca plants both her hands firmly on either side of the doorframe, erroneously persistent as usual.

 

“Well, you’re being rude,” Bianca retorts—and they stand at a stalemate, with matching dissatisfaction.

 

“Maybe I should leave,” Piper suggests.

 

“No,” Nico and Bianca both say in tandem, neither of them breaking eye contact.

 

“This rain is ridiculous, you’re safer here,” Bianca explains.

 

“My sister’s simply being a rude host—something Mammina would condemn,” Nico says tersely. His jaw locks, and his gaze narrows at his sister. “You wouldn’t want that, would you, Sis?”

 

Bianca’s frown grows bigger.

 

“That’s alright—I’m bunking with Leo,” Piper reassures—but it’s hardly heard.

 

Any mention of Leo’s name, of course, just makes Nico’s fury burn.

 

“I know what you’re doing,” Bianca bites, igniting another flame. “Insult me all you want, Nico, but that’s not going to distract me from the fact that you flew home soaking wet and look upset. I know you better than that.”

 

Nico’s rage ignites into a fire. “You’re really going to big sister me so you can look good in front of your date?”

 

There’s a visible crack, where Bianca clearly isn’t expecting his insult—but she looks as very bit grating as she used to when he was a child. She stands tall, even if it’s been a long time since she’s been taller. “I am when you’re going to act like a jerk about it.”

 

Nico’s tone is sharp as he bares his teeth. “You don’t get to chastise me. You lost that right when you left me in the casino.”

 

Bianca’s demeanor changes from her usual persistence—and she stares at him with a flicker of confusion. Her eyes flit to her girlfriend, her face red. “Nico, I just—I’m worried about you.”

 

“No—you’re just twice as annoying now,” Nico snaps. He jabs a finger in her direction, his shoulders as tight as they were during his argument with Percy. “Maybe if you were half the good sister that you think you are, then you would’ve noticed something was wrong weeks ago!”

 

His voice is thunderous—as unyielding as it was with Percy—and has the same effect. Bianca’s arms fall from the door frame, at a loss, and Nico seizes the opportunity to break past her.

 

He grabs a change of clothes and reenters the hallway, where Bianca stands slack.

 

“Well?” Nico asks—while she stares at him, baffled.

 

Bianca says nothing. Piper stares from afar—and again, nothing.

 

Nico doesn’t bother looking at her on his way to the bathroom. His heart pounds out of frustration—at her, at Percy, and at himself.

 

He waits behind a closed door and draws his bath.

 

*

 

Nico soaks in a hot bath filled with Epsom salts and lets his foul mood fade with the heat. He calms down eventually. It takes a while. Nico is sure to soak in the lax air. He plays with the steam that rises, coiling it in the air as though it’s a cloud. Then, Nico thinks back to his conversation with Percy only earlier in the evening—of Neptune, God of the Sea and Earthshaker, with no blurry line for mud in between.

 

His thoughts eventually wander to his own parentage—Jupiter, the sperm donor of the sky, and Juno, Queen of the Gods. There’s a line, where Nico can force a haze and a storm—but he needs Percy for a typhoon. Nico has all the powers of the King of the Heavens, with all the rage of the queen.

 

Which—on its own, holds more weight than most tales about the gods. Juno’s anger is as infamous as her husband’s infidelity—and she’s never remembered in a benevolent light.

 

Eventually, his rage fades into another emotion both his parents lack. Guilt.

 

He lets the cloud of steam fall with his mood, into hot rain drops against his skin. With each calming breath, the steam dissipates until he can see his toes.

 

Then, Nico sighs and dips his head under the water. More guilt consumes him.

 

When he’s finally ready, Nico drains the water and dries himself off—much less wound up than before. He changes into a new set of clothes and pokes his head out into the hallway.

 

Nothing.

 

The light remains on, with the TV flickering in the living room—but Nico sees no sign of human life.

 

Nico swallows his pride—knowing there’s nothing to the taste aside from bitter shame and humiliation. He toes his way towards the main room of their house. “Bianca?”

 

He finds her fiddling with her camera at the dining table, sifting through what Nico can only assume are more photos that have been taken in the past month. The house is warm with the scent of tomatoes and chicken broth—which is when Nico’s growling stomach reminds him that he stormed off before he could eat.

 

Bianca looks up from her work—expression hardened in the way only a di Angelo could—and she continues to sift through her work. The child in Nico is reflexively nervous. It’s also instinctively defiant.

 

She gestures to the stove. “Minestrone. Don’t worry—I ordered in. I put it on the stove to keep it warm.”

 

Nico inspects the countertop for poison just in case. Instead, he finds the bag with the restaurant’s logo, and no signs of other foods eaten. Bianca ordered it specifically for him.

 

“Where’s Piper?” he asks. He ladles the soup into a bowl and makes the conscious decision to sit across from his sister.

 

“Over at Leo’s,” is Bianca’s curt response. Her fingers pad the arrow key on her laptop, while Nico plays with the veggies floating in his soup.

 

His cheeks flush. There’s a soft clang as his spoon rests against his bowl, and his gaze slowly lowers. “Sorry about that.”

 

Her gaze is as sharp as any arrow flitting through the air. Nico busies himself with his soup, glaring more than he intends at his spoon.

 

“I…didn’t mean to scare your girlfriend away,” Nico continues. “I like Piper.”

 

Bianca snaps her laptop shut. She stares across the dining table, garnering a look too reminiscent to Mammina. A wary mother. And calmly, she replies. “I’m going to pretend that you didn’t yell at me earlier.”

 

What good would that do, is Nico’s immediate thought—but he’s careful with the spoon in his hand. Nico watches her movement, demeanor cool while Bianca mirrors his expression.

 

“I’m,” she continues just as warily, “going to forgive you—despite the fact your apology was about Piper and not how you treated me—”

 

“Well, if you didn’t like the sound of your own voice so much, you’d realize your apology was ne—” Nico halts the spiteful words at his tongue, as Bianca looks dangerously angry. He ceases the storm of his own temper and sets the spoon down. Then, Nico tucks his hands at his lap with a sigh. “Go on.”

 

“—because you were clearly throwing a tantrum long before I asked you what was wrong,” Bianca finishes.

 

The T word alone is enough for Nico’s temper to erupt again. “It wasn’t a tantrum. You can’t say you’re the bigger person when you still treat me like I’m five.

 

Bianca scowls. “Then don’t act like you’re five.”

 

Exasperated, Nico stands from his seat, swiping his bowl in one hand. “Forget it. I’m not playing this game with you again when you clearly just—can’t understand—why the last few weeks have just been so—so—”

 

Awful. Humiliating. Frustrating. Terrible—

 

Bianca grabs his hand carefully. Gently. He looks back to her and is met with her calm composure. When her demeanor shrivels—reversing from a looming storm, Nico realizes how much they look alike in the moment. Unnecessary irritation, from years of reflexively bickering with the other.

 

Desperation for reprieve, from living with each other in the last few months with the constant reminder that they aren’t five and seven anymore. Ten and twelve. Nico is fifteen, and Bianca is…only a few months older now, after deciding to come back for him.

 

“Then please,” she says softly, “tell me in a way that I can understand.”

 

Her eyebrows remain furrowed, and she focuses her attention on him.

 

When he doesn’t respond right away, Bianca continues. “I said I’d forgive you for yelling. I didn’t say I wasn’t listening to what you were saying.”

 

Nico’s irritation ceases in that moment. He studies the intensity in her eyes—and slowly lowers back onto his seat, soup still in hand.

 

Bianca slowly releases the grip on his wrist. She pushes her laptop and camera away, leaving only Nico in her path.

 

Silence.

 

Nico cradles the fleeting warmth around his bowl of soup. Bianca’s gaze is steady and direct. Not precise and gauging, the way Reyna’s is. Not divisive, like Percy’s. Not…well—Nico’s made a point not to seek Thalia out these days. For Jason’s sake.

 

His chest sours like it did at the game shop. But unlike earlier, Nico doesn’t think he has the energy to dodge Bianca’s inquiry.

 

“Percy and I,” Nico says eventually, “had a fight. You got stuck in the crossfire of our argument.”

 

He pointedly lowers his head to look at her, while Bianca stares at him peculiarly.

 

 “I’m sorry,” Nico says quietly, “that I took it out on you.”

 

Bianca arches an eyebrow. “What was the fight about?” 

 

Nico stares at her skeptically. Whether it’s because Bianca is pressing for more, or the fact she looks genuinely confused, he doesn’t know what feels more astounding. “Just…about everything that’s been going on lately.” 

 

Her eyebrows knit together carefully, which Nico can’t help but be reminded of Jason’s own tendencies. She all but rubs her forehead as she ponders his statement—but eventually, she just looks stumped.

 

“You’ve been busy with Piper.” Nico crosses his arms awkwardly over his chest, unable to look her in the eye. “I…preferred you to be busy with Piper.”

 

To his surprise, that explanation seems to click. Bianca lowers her head slowly. “And what was I too busy with Piper to notice?”

 

Nico twitches. He finds interest in the tomato slices in his soup.

 

“Nico—”

 

“That I like Jason.”

 

Silence.

 

Nico glances up from his soup, but Bianca’s reaction is nothing like he’s seen before. Her eyebrows furrow together, and she stares at him again, clearly wondering if she heard correctly. Bianca’s mouth opens—then closes. And opens again. It’s a repetitive cycle that makes Nico’s face grow hotter with embarrassment with each passing second.

 

“You—” Bianca starts and stops. She tilts her head. Straightens her posture. “I—”

 

Her sputtering is punctuated with painful silences, while Nico resists the urge to slam his head into the table. He stares her dead in the eye.

 

Bianca sucks in a breath, her shoulders rising to her ears—then exhales. “Like, more than a friend?”

 

Nico arches an eyebrow.

 

“Right,” Bianca says awkwardly. Painfully so. “So, when I asked you a while ago…if you and Jason were—”

 

“I lied.” Nico’s grip tightens around himself. He bites the inside of his mouth and taps the back of his foot awkwardly against the floor.

 

“But why would you—” Bianca’s confusion spills with her words. She does rub her forehead this time and looks at him introspectively. “I—I’m your sister—I told you that you could tell me anything.”

 

That claim makes Nico’s eyes fill with warmth.

 

“It wasn’t your business,” he says hastily—but he regrets his tone the moment he hears his own voice. Nico leans back in his seat and forces himself to unwind his grip. HIs voice shakes. “I. You’re his best friend. It would’ve been. Weird.”

 

Weird, he can feel Bianca mouth. Her reaction is a stark difference compared to the others. Bianca is bewildered and taken off guard. Percy had let it go in one ear and the other—claiming bullshit just like he did earlier this evening. Reyna was his confidant—but now she talks to him like she’s diffusing a bomb.

 

“And—Jason. Jace—he…he knows?” Bianca rubs her temples again, clearly trying to settle on the fact. “Percy…your fight was about—about that?”

 

Nico stares at her in disbelief. It overshadows his embarrassment. “You really didn’t know?”

 

Bianca fiddles with her hair and chews on her fingernails. However—as he asks that question, she focuses on him. Her stature straightens, and she reaches across the table.

 

“I…haven’t been in a position to speculate how you feel since the casino.” Bianca curls her hand over his wrist, but there’s reluctance there. The sentence is clearly a struggle. She looks back up to him carefully—grimaces—and lets her shoulders fall. “You…don’t come to me first anymore when you have a problem—” She quickly adds, “—and that’s okay. I’m forever indebted to Thalia, Reyna, and Percy for taking care of you. You’re right, you’re not five anymore, and you don’t have to come to me first.”

 

She sighs and leans back in her seat. A sigh of acceptance—and defeat.

 

“So,” Bianca says, “when I ask you a question, and you answer—I’m going to take what I can get. Because I trust you.”  

 

Again, Nico’s eyes warm. Before he knows it, he’s blinking away tears. He turns his head away and wipes his face with his sleeve.

 

Bianca startles at this. “Nico—”

 

“I’m fine—” No, he isn’t. “I’ve. I’ve—I. I really like him, Bianca.”

 

Before he can help himself, the words pour out of him. All of them—between liking and disliking Jason Grace—of getting to know him over the journey to the House of Hades, of learning everything about Jason over getting the Athena Parthenos home. Nico misses the nights under campfires, in the quiet reprieve before they had to leave. He misses the dimples in Jason’s smiles—divots that traced the curve of the son of Hades’ lips like the glittering line between constellations.

 

Jason hardly smiled like that before the war. Not that earnestly. Nico likes to think he helped that rigid son of Hades finally understand his self-worth and how much he means to others—

 

But. He also hasn’t seen that smile lately. Nico knows why he hasn’t.

 

He’s not angry at Percy for how tonight went down. Not really. Nico’s mortified that with each passing day, his feelings for Jason have grown so much that he had no choice but to tell Jason—as ugly as it became. He’s angry that those feelings ruined their friendship. That—that he ruined their friendship.

 

They can’t go back—because Nico can’t keep feeling that way about someone who’ll never feel the same.

 

They can’t go back because for all of the times Jason thought he couldn’t say no, he…finally did. The right answer Jason begged to give is what’s right for himself. Nico has nothing but respect for that.

 

He just wishes he didn’t fall for Jason the way he did.

 

That…it wasn’t as ugly as the storm outside.

 

He wishes Leo Valdez—Commander Toolbelt and Major Annoying Extraordinaire—didn’t still get under his skin. The son of Vulcan who treated their entire relationship as a cruel joke was the one who scored a date with the boy that Nico was—has strong feelings for.

 

Not a date, Nico miserably reminds himself for the umpteenth time. Like every evening he’s mulled over how he ruined his friendship with Jason Grace. Jason meant well. Nico’s sloppy confession was his own mistake.

 

He’s not sure how much of his rambling Bianca actually picks up. Enough to understand why he’s frustrated.

 

“You like Jason,” Bianca says finally, after what feels like a long silence. “And I made Jason go out on a date with Leo.”

 

“It wasn’t a—” Nico halts. He rubs his temple in a similar manner. “Yeah. With my ex-boyfriend.”

 

“Your ex-boyfriend,” Bianca laments. There’s a moment, where her tone ceases, and she stares at him endearingly. “You had your first boyfriend and I missed it.”

 

Nico looks at her wryly and snorts. “You were in a committed relationship with a goddess on a magical floating island. Consider us even.”

 

Bianca’s cheeks grow red with heat, and she waves a flustered hand. “Fair enough.”

 

At the end of it, Nico’s spout runs dry. He settles back in his seat—feeling…feeling, after a month of trying to pretend everything was normal. What he doesn’t expect is for Bianca to leap out of her seat and throw her arms around him. “Oof—I—Bianca—”

 

“Nico,” she starts, her voice swelling with guilt, “I am—I’m so sorry.”

 

She holds onto him tightly. Nico is tense for a long moment, but eventually he lets it happen. It’s not a hollow feeling. He feels…a little better.

 

“You didn’t know,” Nico reminds her. Pointedly, he adds, “I didn’t want you to know.”

 

“Yeah—but if I’d known, I would’ve asked you to go on that double date instead of—”

 

“Jason doesn’t like me like that.” The statement is hard against Nico’s throat. He pulls away, his expression stern as his frazzled sister peers at him. But he smiles at his sister, who is genuinely considering his feelings. “It wouldn’t have mattered.”

 

Bianca’s demeanor shifts, and her eyebrows knit together. “He hasn’t said a word to me.”

 

Before Nico can provide an explanation, her expression changes once mor.

 

“He knows I’m happy.” She sighs. “So he didn’t want me to worry. I’m not the person he goes to first, either.”

 

A pang of sympathy swells in Nico’s chest. He awkwardly averts his gaze again.

 

“Looks like I don’t need to be on a magical floating island to be completely oblivious to what my best friend’s going through.” Bianca crosses her arms over her chest, miserable. “Again.”

 

Nico scratches his arm. He mirrors his sister’s posture and shrugs. “This…is a nice change of pace compared to how everything else has been playing out.”

 

Speaking his piece for once feels like a breath of fresh air. Bianca looks back at him.

 

“I don’t need Percy and Annabeth to bicker over Jason and my behalf,” Nico explains. He rubs his temples in an attempt to negate an incoming headache. “So thank you. For listening.”

 

When he looks back up, he catches Bianca’s look of surprise. Then the endeared smile that follows.

 

Before she responds, the doorbell rings. And rings. And rings, persistently, while the door knocker clatters repeatedly. Nico can’t help but groan. Only one person would ever do that.

 

“Guess who?” he muses tiredly, while Bianca’s nose wrinkles. Nico ambles to his feet, but Bianca is quick to place a hand on his knee.

 

“Do you want to see Percy right now?” she asks.

 

Nico considers her question—then shakes his head. Another thread of guilt sews into his chest. He’s not sure how he’s supposed to come back from what he said to Percy quite yet. Or if he’s ready to.

 

“Say no more.” Bianca pats his knee gently and gives him a kiss on the forehead. In a graceful swoop, she hands him his untouched soup and stands to her feet. “Go to your room, play whatever game you want, and eat dinner. I’ll deal with Percy.”

 

Nico stares at her, surprised. “Are you sure—?”

 

“Yup.” Bianca sighs into her smile and readjusts his t-shirt. Normally he’s against her meddling—but in the moment, finds himself not minding as much. “Focus on yourself, and I’ll make Percy scram.”

 

Scram isn’t the word he expects to hear. “O…kay.”

 

Nico cups his soup carefully and slowly makes his way to the edge of the hallway. He’s reluctant to leave, as the rattling at the door continues—but much like earlier, Bianca smooths out her skirt and looks prim and proper as she glides towards the door. Nico peeks out the corner of the hall.

 

BANGBANGBANGBANG

 

Then—

 

Bianca yanks the door open. “You will NOT abuse my door, Percy Jackson!”

 

There’s an “OW!” and a “What the fuck, Bianca?”

 

Nico jumps.

 

He scrambles towards his bedroom door, closes it, and is sure to turn the music up on his computer.

 

*

 

The argument extends longer than Nico cares to be around for. He knows Percy is loyal to a fault—even after a huge blowout in the parking lot—and Bianca will determinedly seek the end of whatever she sets her mind to. Plus—given they were on strange ground to begin with, Nico wouldn’t be surprised if the argument lasted ten minutes or ten hours.

 

(He's not sure who he pities more.)

 

But Nico decisively escapes through a window when he doesn’t want to hear their voices in the background. He effortlessly avoids the rain with a clear mind—and just…flies. The winds carry him away from his house into the peaceful pattering of the storm against cobblestone steps.

 

Eventually, Nico finds himself at Temple Hill. He takes refuge in a crypt and watches as the storm bellows and rolls. Nico’s not sure how long he sits there. Any sign of daylight disappeared hours ago—long before Percy and he made it to the restaurant.

 

“Nico?”

 

He snaps out of his thoughts long enough to realize where he’s really flown.

 

For the second time that evening, Jason Grace stares at him from across Pluto’s crypt. Jason’s dressed in a windbreaker, ears and hair tucked beneath a hood. His face is wet from the rain. 

 

“I wasn’t—” Nico starts. Wasn’t what? “I didn’t—”

 

He stops again, not even sure what he wants to say. Percy and Bianca have both run him dry of words. Nico guesses that Jason’s at the midpoint of his run—and knows that he’s right. He just doesn’t expect himself to be here.

 

Unlike earlier, Jason doesn’t seem to be as on edge. There’s confusion in his eyes—but Nico doesn’t expect anything less when it comes to the son of Hades. To his surprise, the tiniest (nervous) smile curls against Jason’s lips. Jason closes the distance between them. He stops in front of Nico—painfully precise—and gestures. “May…I…?”

 

Probably not the best idea.

 

“Yeah. Sure.” Nico pats the spot beside him.

 

Jason sits—immediately thigh-to-thigh with him. Nico all but jumps. They both react at the same time—charcoal eyes darting to sky blue—and they’re quick to inch far away from each other. Nico doesn’t stop moving until his other leg hits the wall. From the corner of his eye, he catches Jason doing the same. A red Jason.

 

“Um,” Jason murmurs, “sorry—”

 

“—it’sfine,” Nico quickly says back. He tucks his legs beneath his arms, unable to look the other demigod in the eye. Nico doesn’t see Jason thoughtfully rubbing his own knee.

 

A silence follows. One that’s even more awkward.

 

“I…uh. Habit,” Jason mutters.

 

 “I get it.” Trying to figure out what’s going on Jason’s head after a crumb like Camp Halfblood is a habit Nico can’t quite shake, either. Otherwise he wouldn’t have ended up in Pluto’s crypt.

 

Nico doesn’t notice the backpack around Jason’s shoulders until the son of Hades is shucking it off.

 

Jason digs through it and pulls out a rectangular Tupperware container. He takes off the lid. “Cannoli?”

 

Nico stares at it in surprise. He’s met with beautifully golden pastry shells coated in powdered sugar and filled with decadent cream—and salivating before he knows it. “Sure.”

 

Jason sets the container down between them. Nico inches forward. Before he can take one, the container twitches from Jason’s grip. The sound isn’t pretty. Nico peers back up at a sheepish Jason.

 

“I, uh.” Jason ducks his head, suddenly redder than Nico’s seen him. “I tried bringing them over earlier, but…”

 

“Bianca and Percy have been arguing in the front yard for who knows how long,” Nico says. He resists the urge to roll his eyes. “I don’t blame you.”

 

Jason takes in the sentence carefully—but he doesn’t respond to that. He works out his first sentence. “I…uh. Chickened out. Twice.”

 

Oh. Nico stares at the cannoli in his hand. When he was younger, he used to hold them like his grandfather’s cigars. He inspects the golden shell—which is far from perfect. From Fabiano’s standards, anyway. “Did you make these?”

 

Jason smiles bashfully.

 

Nico takes a bite. It’s crisp and crunchy as he sinks his teeth into it. Sweet cream and chocolate fill his mouth, and suddenly Nico is reinvigorated from the sugar. He takes a second bite before he can swallow his first, and he’s on his fourth before he can finish his third.

 

“Um—” Jason interrupts him before Nico can completely devour it. “—how’s it taste?”

 

“Really good.” Nico’s tone is incredulous. He stares at his half-eaten pastry, almost annoyed that he was interrupted from dessert. Nico turns—and almost misses Jason’s extended hand. Almost.

 

Jason is quick to withdraw, suddenly leaning against the other end of the crypt. He tucks his extended arm beneath his armpit, suddenly looking uncomfortable again. Then, he points to his own mouth. “You have some chocolate on…uh. Here.”

 

Nico wipes his mouth on his sleeve. “I didn’t know you knew how to make these.”

 

Jason looks at him oddly. “I didn’t know how to bake before you showed me.”

 

Red flourishes across Nico’s face. It’s a feeling he’s grown used to in Jason’s presence—but before he can dwell on that can of worms, Nico makes himself speak. “What sparked the interest?”

 

“I dunno. I saw them at Fabiano’s and they looked nice. They made me wonder how they got the cream in there—”

 

Nico bites back a laugh—which is easy to do when a crumb gets lodged in his throat.

 

“—and then I looked up a few recipes. Tweaked what I didn’t like. Tried some different ratios. Like I did with the cookies.” Jason rubs circles into his own hands—and then he smiles at Nico—careful, but unabashed. “Turns out I like baking. I’ve…um.”

 

There’s a stilted pattern in his speech. Jason kneads his own hand like one would dough—and he looks back at Nico, almost timid.

 

“I’ve…really wanted you to try them,” Jason admits finally.

 

Nico’s grip loosens over the cannoli. He stares down at what’s left. His heart starts to swell—“Well, I…hope I was worth the wait. It’s really good.”

 

He peers back at Jason’s smile—and Jason’s shoulders show more slack. Jason pushes the container towards Nico. “Take it. I made quite a few. I. I’ve really—”

 

He stops again. Purposefully. There’s a somber quality to Jason’s eyes, matched by a troubled scrunch in his nose. Then he coughs into his fist and rubs his forehead. Nico thinks he understands.

 

It’s hard to pretend things are normal, when…this is their normal.

 

Nico places the half-eaten cannoli back in the container and closes the lid. “Thanks.”

 

Silence follows.

 

They listen to the rain as it pelts the grass. The scent of soil and grass is stronger, wet with Jupiter’s domain. After a while, Jason stops rubbing circles into his hands. He tucks them into his lap.

 

“I’m really sorry about tonight,” Jason says eventually.

 

“Why?” Nico’s gaze darts back to him skeptically.

 

Jason jumps at the immediate response. “I mean—because. Um.”

 

“Because of Annabeth and Percy? Because that waiter hit on you?” Nico sits straighter over the crypt, his chest tight with envy and jealousy and—irritation, really. Jason grimaces. “I’d work on your delivery if you aren’t interested. No thank you can only get you so far.”

 

Jason coughs into his fist—which is when Nico knows the son of Hades is biting back a laugh when he’s too nervous. There’s a smile to match, as tiny as it is—but it quickly falls.

 

“Jason,” Nico starts. He reaches for Jason’s shoulder before he can help himself—and they both stop, as his thumb rests against the son of Hades’ collar bone. Nico’s reluctant to pull his hand away. He holds his own wrist, to keep from reaching out again. “You already turned me down. I know you’re not interested. If…you want to see other people—”

 

“I don’t,” Jason insists. “I wouldn’t do that to you. You’re the last person I ever want to hurt, Nico.”

 

Nico stares at Jason—who stares back at him with a fervent intensity—but then falters.

 

“Yeah, okay.” Jason presses a hand to his face, rubbing his own forehead again. “I just heard it. Sorry.”

 

If it wasn’t so awkward, Nico thinks he’d laugh. “If you want to see other people, I’m not your keeper.”

 

Jason nods in agreement, rather than shouting another brazen statement. It’s a short, hesitant thing, where he hardly looks Nico in the eye.

 

“As for Annabeth and Percy—I should apologize for how Percy has been acting.” Nico’s voice grows irritable. He wants to yank his hair out and scream. “Gods—I just want them all to mind their own business, but this friend circle is just so small, that I can’t even so much as sneeze without people at my door. I just need time, to—to—”

 

“Heal?”

 

Exactly,” Nico seethes. And then he stops his impending tirade.

 

Jason is looking at him, both observant and hesitant to observe. It reminds Nico of their missteps—when Jason first told him of his lineage. Nico di Angelo, son of Juno. Son of the king and queen. Nico hadn’t reacted to that well—and had little time to react.

 

“I…just.” Nico covers his face with a hand. His shoulders fall. “I just need time.”

 

Time to process. Time to heal. But Nico constantly feels like he needs to deter Percy’s complaints and talk on equal, awkward footing with Reyna. And now—Bianca’s sudden quest to be the best big sister makes things even more awkward.

 

Jason clears his throat. “I’m…really sorry—”

 

“It’s not your fault.” No one’s fault. His fault.

 

“Maybe…I should go—”

 

“No.” Nico massages his temples. It’s not a conversation he wanted this evening. He peers back up, where Jason hasn’t moved. Where Jason is awaiting Nico’s permission to continue. Ugh. “You’re going to Halfblood this weekend?”

 

There’s more disdain in Nico’s voice than he intends. Maybe just enough.

 

Jason nods. He touches the back of his neck. “It’s fall break on the east coast. Frank wants some help with the younger kids.”

 

Oh.

 

“Something wrong?” Jason asks.

 

“No.” Nico rubs his brow again and tucks his legs beneath his arms. He can’t help feeling sheepish. “When you said you were going to Camp Halfblood earlier, I was…worried.”

 

Jason doesn’t answer right away. Nico grows self-conscious.

 

“Oh,” Jason says himself. He touches his own neck, while Nico rubs the tattoo on his arm.

 

Another silence follows. When Jason reaches into his backpack, it’s the loudest sound in the crypt. Jason pulls out his leatherbound journal. He cradles it carefully, conscious not to get it wet. “I’m…going to talk to Mr. D about a few things too. He…sent an IM asking if I was feeling okay—”

 

“Are you still having nightmares?” Nico interrupts before he can help himself. The inquiry startles Jason, who stares at him curiously. Nico’s cheeks glow with heat, but he persists. “It’s…a quarter to midnight and you’re on a run. You’re going to Camp Halfblood. It’s an easy assumption.”

 

Again, Jason doesn’t respond right away. The gaps between his responses seem to grow, like the time since the incident. Nico’s afraid to look at Jason’s face.

 

“Yeah,” Jason mutters, and he rubs his forehead gently. “We may be talking a little about that.”

 

A knot furls in Nico’s stomach. He sits straighter. “I’m…still here if you still need someone to talk to.”

 

Jason stares at him curiously.

 

“Things…” Suck. “Aren’t the best right now. But. I’m here. If…you ever need an ear or someone to talk to.” Nico curls an arm over his bicep. He flashes Jason a thoughtful look. “Of everything that’s come out of this, I don’t want that to change about us. I miss talking to you, Jason.”

 

He waits for Jason’s thoughtful silence. The fearful reluctance. Instead, Jason leans in closely. There’s a hesitation in the way he reaches out—but then he places a hand on Nico’s own. “I’ve missed talking to you too, Nico.”

 

Nico’s chest fills with a warmth, while a smile curls against Jason’s lips. Jason’s touch lingers, with a thumb brushing against his knuckles.

 

Words can’t begin to describe how much Nico’s missed it. Missed Jason’s touch, his smile, the little flicker in his eye—

 

“Right.” Nico awkwardly pats Jason’s hand with his own, and inches back. He clears his throat. “Well—so long as we have that cleared up. Things can go back to—”

 

Normal, even though they really can’t.  

 

Jason snaps to attention, and reels away with a short nod.

 

Silence.

 

“Um,” Jason offers after the tension seems to swell. “You…should visit Thalia.”

 

Nico cocks his head back to him, intrigued.

 

Jason shrugs halfheartedly, evidently grateful to find a change in subject. His shoulders fall once more, as he’s caught in a thought, then he peers back at the son of Juno. “She’s not off limits. Just so you know. She…she really misses you.”

 

“Right. I…really miss her.” Nico’s chest swells at the thought. His eyebrows pinch together, as it truly hits him how much he misses his surrogate big sister. “Bianca’s not off limits either. She’s worried about you.”

 

There’s a minor epiphany in Jason’s eyes—but he doesn’t say anything aloud. Nothing related to Bianca, anyway.

 

Silence. Then—

 

“This is really hard,” Jason says aloud. So earnest that Nico could miserably laugh with it.

 

“So hard,” Nico agrees. He pinches the bridge of his nose and sigh with frustration. “We just—we need—”

 

“Time,” Jason finishes.

 

“Yeah. Time.” Nico’s shoulders fall. There’s less tension in his chest, despite how nervous he is around Jason. It’s a familiar comfort that he knows he should ignore—but he misses it as much as he misses Jason’s company. As he peers back at the other demigod, he notices the same slack in Jason’s shoulders. The same nervousness churning in the wrinkle of Jason’s brow. “But. I’m always here for you, Jason.”

 

Jason peers back, with those charcoal eyes. They don’t smolder with ash. There’s…a light in them, like the first star in the evening sky. “Thank you, Nico.”

 

“You’re welcome, Jason.” To his surprise, Nico finds that he means it.

 

The next lull between their conversation is comfortable. There’s less weight to Nico’s shoulders. He sneaks a second cannoli under the evening sky—with a mindful effort not to lean into Jason’s warmth. It’s…odd. But it’s what’s needed.

 

“I should get going to Halfblood,” Jason says finally. “I was supposed to be there hours ago.”

 

Nico stares at the son of Hades incredulously. “It must be close to 4AM over there. Why would you wait that long?”

 

Jason’s demeanor shifts. The bashfulness returns to his face, as he curls his hands beneath the straps of his backpack. He averts his gaze, kicking his foot into the grass. “I’m…just glad I ran into you.”

 

His eyes hover over the box of cannoli.

 

“Yeah. Me too.” Nico doesn’t intend to share them. He places the lid over the box and stands to his feet. “I should get home. Maybe Bianca and Percy have finally tired out.”

 

Before he moves forward, Jason’s hand is extended. “Let me help you home.”

 

Nico stares down at Jason’s fingers—cool and pale from the autumn rain. His own hand itches to touch it. His chest aches at the thought. He ducks his head before he can help himself. And shakes it.

 

“No,” Nico says. “You should get going. No need to wait for me.”

 

“Are you sure?” Jason’s expression changes, puzzled.

 

“I’m sure.”

 

“Oh. Um.” Jason’s confusion shines through, but he lowers his own head understandingly. “Okay.”

 

The shadows swirl at his feet. Nico feels the goosebumps rise against his own skin, cold—colder than the rain—and watches as Jason is slowly enveloped.

 

Jason assesses himself slowly, then looks back to Nico. The hue of his eyes are still dark. His smile is still gentle. He raises a hand in a shy wave. “Bye, Nico.”

 

With great reluctance, Nico waves back. “Bye, Jason.”

 

Finally, Jason descends into the shadows. Nico waits—until the air warms, and the storm overcomes Jason’s path. Until Jason Grace is finally gone.

 

With a sigh, he takes off towards home. Alone.

Notes:

Hi everyone! Thank you so much for all of the lovely words in the last few months! Life has been busy, but it slowed down enough for me to finally finish this chapter. I hope you enjoyed reading this one! I think you'll really like where the story is going. Thank you so much for reading and as always, please stay safe and let me know what you think!

Chapter 11: karaoke

Summary:

SO LIGHT EM UP UP UP, LIGHT EM UP UP UP,

 

 

LIGHT EM UP UP UP, I'M ON FI~IRE!

 

SO LIGHT EM UP UP UP, LIGHT EM UP UP UP,

 

LIGHT EM UP UP UP, I'M ON FI~IRE!!

 

OOH OH OH OH (IN THE DARK, IN THE DARK)

 

OOH OH OH OH (IN THE DARK, IN THE DARK)

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

Camp Halfblood is…different since the last time Jason was there. The anxiety of Luke’s death is…an ache, rather than an open wound on his heart. One muted by the sounds of children and year-rounders happy to wake at Jason’s arrival when the darkness lifts. Darkness, because Long Island Sound hasn’t been spared from San Francisco storms.

 

Sunlight is minimal—between the incoming winter months and the rain. The dirt roads around camp are muddy. Streetlamps are working overtime during the day. Will Solace is one to get antsy during a storm when the sun isn’t out, along with the rest of the Apollo Cabin. Dryads, fed up with the rain, have planted umbrellas into the ground so their homes don’t become overwatered.

 

The naiads are—well, thriving, but many outdoor activities have been cancelled. No archery. Minimal capture the flag games. Canoeing apparently became a Percy Jackson specialty over the summer. Jason gets tasked by the younger children to bring back a pile of drawings to the son of Neptune himself—which he decides is a problem he’ll have to sort out later.

 

(Annabeth was apologetic about the restaurant encounter. They ended up eating a whole basket of bread and tipping what they’d put aside for their meals. It was…embarrassing, to say the least.)

 

“How long has it been raining like this?” Jason asks at breakfast in the morning. The Mess Hall is dim, lit by dreary weather alone.

 

Hazel, who sidled up to the Hades table and sat down without a second thought, shrugs. “Katie said a while. I hardly notice anymore.”

 

“Really?”

 

She arches an eyebrow, her sunset-colored eyes flickering in wry amusement. “Level with me, Jason. Who rules the skies?”

 

Jason’s demeanor shifts, almost worried to be wrong. “Your dad.”

 

“Would you put it past my dad to let it drizzle a little too long? To remind people that he’s around?”  

 

“I guess not.” Jason can’t help a small chuckle and smile. Bianca hasn’t batted an eye about the storms in the last few weeks. Neither did Nico last night. Once his thoughts drift to Nico, Jason can’t help asking about the son of Juno. “Have…you kept up with what’s going on with Bianca and Nico?”

 

Hazel arches another eyebrow. “Bianca is smitten with Piper—but I’ve been telling her to go for it for months.”

 

Jason chuckles. “What about Nico?”

 

“What’s going on with Nico?” Hazel splits a beignet between her hand.

 

“I—” Don’t know if it’s his place to say. “Well—”

 

Nico said Bianca isn’t off limits, so Jason wonders if Hazel isn’t, either. But. That also isn’t his place to decide.

 

“Um,” Jason settles on. He clears his throat, but it doesn’t ease the tension. Scratches his head. His hand drapes over his shoulder, where the briefest touch of Nico’s fingers made him tingle in the evening before.

 

He’s not sure how long the flutter lasts.

 

Hazel takes in every small gesture and lifts an eyebrow. “You’re acting odd.”

 

“I am?” (He knows he is.)

 

Hazel flashes him another wry look—and for how long it’s been since Jason has seen the sky demigods in one room, Jason’s very much reminded of Bianca and Nico. Mostly Nico. Hazel relents with a shrug and settles back in her chair.

 

Frank appears not too long after that. He stops short of the Hades table, exchanging looks with his girlfriend, and eventually shrugs. Hazel places the other half of her beignet on his plate without looking. He kisses her on the cheek and smiles. “Hey, Jason. Long time no see.”

 

“Yeah.” Jason smiles back. “Long time.”

 

“Did you get in late?” Frank asks. “I thought you were planning on coming after dinner with Annabeth.”

 

“I—” Waited until he could find Nico. “Plans changed. I got here late last—I mean. This morning.”

 

“You need some rest?” Frank asks.

 

“I…” Maybe. “Maybe.”

 

He startles more than he expects when Frank claps a hand over his shoulder. A smile curls against the other demigod’s lips, much firmer and more confident each time Jason sees him. “I’ll take the shift. Trust me—with this rain, the kids aren’t going anywhere.”

 

“I…yeah. Yeah. Okay.” Jason stands to his feet. He rubs the sleep out of his eyes. “I can do that.”

 

Or try, at least.

 

He turns before he can notice the couple flashing an odd look. On his way out, Will Solace flashes him a grin. Mitchell and Lacey shyly wave. Katie Gardner gives him a hug. Jason makes the short, muddy trek to his cabin. He gets all the way to the front door, hand hovering over the knob and…hesitates.

 

After mulling another minute, Jason turns around and makes his way to the Big House.

 

*

 

Nico spends a whole hour ruminating whether to call Jason. His fingers hover over a bowl of denarii specifically for that. (For…calls. Not necessarily for Jason.) He reworks the greeting in his head for a straight ten minutes—which should be acceptable, since they’re still friends. Jason would expect a call from Nico. He should expect a call from Nico.

 

Absolutely.

 

Nico just happens to mull over that thought for a second too long, wondering if it’s a good idea that Jason would expect a call.

 

Which has him rewording the phrase another time—wondering if he should just ask Thalia to shadowtravel him to the east coast—but then he feels like a jerk. After a month of dodging her company, Nico doesn’t want his first words to be, Hey, Thal, can you take me to go see your brother?

 

Because she deserves better than that. And—Nico knows going across the country to check on his not-boyfriend on an innocent visit to Camp Halfblood more than treads the line between friend and more than friend.

 

(In the long run, he decides not to call Jason.)

 

Instead—

 

“Big brother!” Hazel’s voice is cheery across the rainbow ripple. “A bit too early to start on math homework, isn’t it?”

 

“It is.” Nico smiles—truly—despite his nervousness. “Hey, Sis.”

 

“I’m actually at Halfblood right now.” Hazel guides the Iris Message until Nico can see over her shoulder, where a dozen nosy kids stare back at him in fascination.

 

“Oh—are you? I. Had no idea.” Nico self-consciously begins fiddling with one of his sleeves.

 

Hazel arches an eyebrow. There’s a soft whistle of air as the cloud comes back to her. She turns her head and says something inaudible to the campers—then the cloud follows her out of the building. “Frank wanted to come back and see how people were handling things post-war. I figured I’d come as emotional support. Plus, I wouldn’t put it past Dad to have another kid or three pop up out of nowhere.”

 

Nico snorts, a little more at ease. “Yeah. I wouldn’t be surprised, either.”

 

“I actually didn’t bring my books with me.”

 

“That’s okay. I.” Nico crosses his arms over his chest. “I didn’t call for a study session.”

 

“You didn’t,” Hazel echoes—but there’s no question in her voice.

 

“I just. Miss you,” Nico says. He gestures awkwardly.

 

“Miss you too, Nico. Always,” Hazel says—and Nico’s smile carries a little wider. “Everything okay?”

 

Everything…wasn’t not okay. Nico thinks back to the evening before, sitting in Pluto’s crypt and meters away from Jason. Conscientious not to touch each other. Finally looking at each other. It was…

 

Unsettling.

 

“Yeah,” Nico says—which isn’t necessarily a lie. He knows better than to pine for Jason’s affections. Their conversation last night was the most they’ve spoken in a month. Getting back to a comfortable place may take longer, and…Nico knows he needs the time to heal and prepare for that.

 

“Jason seemed worried about you.”

 

“He did?” Nico perks—and is met with Hazel’s arched eyebrow.

 

“Yeah—just asked if I’d talked to you recently.” Hazel ruffles her own hair, which blooms like one of their father’s rainclouds. “Want me to let him know you called?”

 

“I—no. No, that’s okay.” Nico’s cheeks grow with heat. He gestures with his hands for all but a moment, almost destroying the IM cloud in the process. “Thank you, Hazel.”

 

His sister looks unconvinced. “And you’re sure you’re okay?”

 

A dozen big eyes stare at Nico from over Hazel’s shoulder. It makes him more self-conscious to answer. But, Nico is quick to recover. “Yeah—I’m golden, Sis.”

 

“Okay,” Hazel says—which means she knows better than to just agree with him but won’t prod. Somehow it just makes Nico feel worse. “Well—”

 

“Sis,” Nico addresses—which may be one too many.

 

“Yeah?” A round of giggles erupts from behind her.

 

Let’s…have a powwow between your kids and my kids soon,” Nico says eventually. “From one camp leader to another.”

 

Hazel’s smile brightens through the IM. Her posture straightens, and the smallest inkling of her excitement is enough to make Nico smile, too. “I’d like that, big brother.”

 

“Yeah,” Nico agrees. His own smile grows to match hers. “Me too.”

 

“Anything else?” she asks, almost teasing.

 

“No, I don’t think so. Wait—” Nico stops himself. “—I love you.”

 

The IM shakes with the effervescence of her laugh. There’s a round of awwww’s from the kids behind her. “Love you too, big brother. Bye.”

 

“Bye, Sis.”

 

As the IM fades, Nico falls back into his bed with a sigh. He buries his face into a pillow and screams.

 

Nico waits for a moment of solace. Then another.

 

Fixing things with Jason is going to take…healing and time. No amount of calling Camp Halfblood—worst of all, his sister—is going to help them be normal again. Whatever normal is supposed to look like for them now—which is a whole other question of its own.

 

Eventually, the frustration fades. In its place is dissatisfaction.

 

And finally, Nico decides there is a normal that he misses. A lot.

 

He dresses for the day and heads towards the Grace Residence.

 

*

 

“Cousin,” Mr. D greets Jace, without peeling his eyes away from his hand of cards.

 

His opponent is a nervous-looking satyr holding half-eaten cards. At the sight of Jason, Pebble the Satyr perks and timidly waves. Pebble chomps on one of the cards in front of him before throwing it on the table.

 

“Hi, Mr. D.” Jason stands across from the table for all but a moment before Mr. D tells him to sit.

 

“We’re playing poker. Stakes are a six-pack of grape soda that Pebble has fermenting in his den.” Mr. D tilts his straw hat and looks at Jason sharply. “What are you willing to wager, cousin?”

 

“I—” Jason never likes the piercing glance of any god—including the one that he’s grown up with. Pebble the Satyr deals him what’s left of the chewed up deck before Jason can protest. “Isn’t grape soda artificially sweetened, sir?”

 

Mr. D snorts derisively. “Pebbles here has guaranteed that it’s 100% real fruit.”

 

When the god of wine isn’t looking, Pebbles wildly shakes his head. Mr. D notices anyways.

 

“Pebble,” Mr. D says, finally laying out his cards. “Go back to your den and make sure this grape soda uses 100% real fruit. If this drink can’t be fermented into wine—”

 

“Sir—yes sir.” Pebble makes a show of standing to his hooves and awkwardly saluting. He trots off nervously into the light rain, reminding Jason of the sullen dryads tired of the storm.

 

Jason smiles, despite the nervousness swelling in his chest. “That’s…quite a roundabout way of getting what you want, isn’t it sir?”

 

“I know what I want.” Mr. D inspects his cards, despite lacking a player. “Can I say the same for you, cousin?”

 

Mr. D’s tone is pungent and sharp, like the driest of wines. Despite the forced sobriety, Jason’s never liked sitting too close to his so-called cousin. The scent of fermented grapes and alcohol always made his nose wrinkle. He thinks of his mother, and then of Alecto…and then his whole childhood displays itself in front of him. Not the good memories.

 

“Come on, now—” Mr. D waves a finger, and his deck reforms. He magically distributes enough cards for Go Fish. “—what does it say about the Mighty Hero of Olympus, slayer of Kronos, if he’s bested by a slew of words? We raised you better than that—”

 

“I’m retired, sir.” Jason’s tone is steelier than he intends. Maybe from the tired evening, hoping to find Nico—or just…how sleepless the nights have been in general.

 

Mr. D doesn’t seem to mind. There’s a flicker in his eye—and an irksome smirk at his lips. “That you are, boy. Thank you for the reminder.”

 

“Sorr—” Jason begins his apology—but stops short. Instead, he nods his head. “You’re welcome.”

 

“Any twos?” Mr. D asks, decidedly done with their initial conversation.

 

“No, sir.”

 

They play the careful game of Go Fish while the rest of camp wakes up. Jason doesn’t feel any more at ease than before he left California. Time with Mr. D has always been…tricky. One-sided. Jason doesn’t remember much—but he knows Thanatos was benevolent when the God of Death came for his mother. Alecto was kind. Most monsters were.

 

Chiron was…cautious. Mr. D was indifferent. Grover liked to tell the story of when he carried Jason around in a baby bjorn made of large leaves and twine. Being taken care of by satyrs, Jason was subservient to the God of Wine whether he liked it or not.

 

“How’s my brother, sir?” Jason asks. “Zagreus?”

 

“Zagreus,” Mr. D repeats, after besting Jason out of a pair of jacks. “Once in a while he remembers you exist.”

 

“Good to know.”

 

“If you’re so concerned about your brother, go visit the Underworld yourself,” the god of wine admonishes. “I don’t deal with family affairs.”

 

If Nico were here, he’d voice what Jason is thinking—that Greek and Roman myths are nothing but family affairs—but it’s not a conversation that Jason is willing to hash out so early in the morning. Especially not with Mr. D. “I haven’t been to the Underworld since last summer, sir.”

 

“Oh, I know,” Mr. D grumbles. “All the freedom in the world and you decide to come back here.”

 

Yeah. Here. 

 

“What brings you here, cousin?” Mr. D asks, to fill in Jason’s gap. 

 

Jason hesitates. He reaches into his backpack and pulls out his leather-bound journal once more. He thumbs the bind carefully. Nervously. 

 

A purple aura surrounds the book. Mr. D snatches it out of Jason’s grasp and magically sifts through the pages. 

 

“Hey—” 

 

“Not a lot of pages filled out, are there?” Mr. D muses. He doesn’t look up from his hand. “A few months. Looks like you stopped not too long ago. August—“ 

 

“That’s mine, sir.” Jason reaches out and snatches his book from mid-air. He clutches it close to his chest, knuckles tense against the bind. The worry shows on his face whether he likes it or not—and he can’t help feeling pried open.

 

Mr. D arches an eyebrow, while Jason’s face glows with heat. “No longer interested in writing, cousin?” 

 

It takes a moment for Jason to answer. Everything has been taking more time. “I haven’t been able to.” 

 

This clearly intrigues the god of wine. He sets his cards down and inspects Jason carefully.

 

In return, Jason hangs his head low. The words are reluctant past his lips—to the point of shame. He’s never struggled with it—not like this before.

 

Jason’s tried every night to write—including the evening before he left to find Nico. The thoughts are…all-consuming. They cloud his head, each etched in painful black ink until his mind feels drenched in darkness. When he found Nico near the crypt, Jason’s heart fluttered—hoping it’d chisel away some of the confusion—but he left for Camp Halfblood with a different feeling.

 

Disappointment.

 

“You come to me to feel inspired?” Mr. D muses, when Jason’s been quiet for too long.

 

“I—well, I came to see how campers are handling trauma from the past years.” Jason sits straighter in his seat and looks the god in the eye. “It’s a lot for one person to shoulder. Frank shouldn’t have to do that himself.”

 

“And your own?”

 

“My own what?” Jason’s eyebrows knit in confusion. His face heats up as he realizes what Mr. D is asking. “Oh—I—um. Mine’s not an issue for me, sir.”

 

“Well that’s not very entertaining,” Mr. D grumbles—which picks at Jason in a way he dislikes.

 

“I’m sorry I’m not very entertaining, sir.”

 

“That’s alright. You weren’t entertaining while you were here, either, Jason.”

 

The dig is enough for Jason to frown. He fiddles with the notebook at his chest and sets it in his lap. “I actually have a life now, Mr. D. I go to school. I like my art class. I…even like to bake now.”

 

Without hesitation, Jason reaches into his backpack and pulls out a smaller container of cookies. He pushes it across the table towards Mr. D, but the god of wine does nothing with them. Mr. D leans back in his seat, manspreading his legs and observing Jason’s actions with displeasured interest.

 

“Kid of many talents, aren’t you cousin? Always have been.” Mr. D waves a hand, and a diet coke appears in his fist. “How old were you when Chiron taught you how to shoot this out of my hand, cousin? Five? Six?”

 

Jason’s demeanor shrivels, his cookies overlooked. His hand twitches, remembering the rock Chiron encouraged him to fling. “That wasn’t a talent.”

 

Before he can put the lid back on his cookies, Mr. D snag ones. “Fine. What would you call it?”

 

“A lesson. One of many.”

 

“That silly centaur made sure you were good at it.”

 

“I…had to be. For the war.”

 

“You didn’t have to be. We have my brother’s children to be sharpshooters. Athena’s kids to be know-it-alls.” Mr. D waves a hand dismissively (derisively, once more.) “If you weren’t going to slit some monster’s throat, it would’ve been another halfblood with a sword or an arrow—”

 

“No one else had to train as hard as I did to kill Luke,” Jason cuts off sharply. His chest is tight—wound with an irritable anger—but as he forces himself to look Mr. D in the eye again—all he sees is a gleeful smile. It’s only then that Jason realizes what name he uttered. His face grows with heat. Shame. He’s quick to correct himself. “I—Kronos. No one else had to train as hard as I did to kill Kronos.”

 

Jason hates the way Mr. D stares at him.

 

Mr. D looks devious as he leans back in his seat. He takes a long sip of his diet coke and chomps on a cookie. An annoying, salacious hum follows. “Took you long enough, Jason Grace.”

 

Jason blinks. His eyebrows shrivel together, while Mr. D kicks his feet over the table. He looks silly in a Hawaiian shirt, Bermuda shorts, and rain boots—but Mr. D wears his outfit with poise. “I…don’t understand, sir.”

 

“You wouldn’t. Not after…how old are you, boy? Thirteen?”

 

“Seventeen, sir.”

 

Mr. D sighs once more and pulls off his straw hat. He rifles through the Tupperware for another cookie. “Fourteen long years of Chiron beating this nobleman’s attitude into you, so you don’t die a Greek hero’s death. So you overcome every possible human flaw and choose the gods over Grandpa Dearest and that corrupt plan to destroy Olympus. That’s just so…”

 

He makes a face, then waves a hand abstractly.

 

“So, what, sir?”

 

“Boring,” Mr. D complains. He takes a long sip of his soda. “Your tale made you boring, Jason.”

 

Jason’s face flushes with red heat. Not out of embarrassment—but frustration. A wounded pride, as the son of Hades and as himself. “I’m not—”

 

“This Jason Grace,” Mr. D continues, as though he never stopped in the first place, “the one that came to me before the summer and told me he was leaving—now that one wasn’t boring. Where’s that boy?”

 

Jason stares at Mr. D in disbelief. He tugs at his cookie container. “I’m right here, Mr. D—”

 

“No. No, no, no—” Mr. D waggles a finger defiantly. Crumbs crust the underside of his fingernail, and he shakes his head in tandem. “That boy didn’t compartmentalize things he did in the war. He accepted that the cards—” Mr. D throws his hand of Go Fish on the table, with the Jack of Hearts toppling the rest. “—were not in his favor, and finally decided to do something about it.”

 

Mr. D scandalously places a hand to his chest.

 

“Merciful me,” he says. “That much emotional censorship is enough to drive a god insane.”

 

He rolls his eyes dramatically—then looks at Jason expectantly.

 

The son of Hades blinks, his hands cradling his journal carefully. Jason looks down to the cover his book, then back to the god of wine. “What…does that have to do with me not being able to write, Mr. D?”

 

Again, Mr. D rolls his eyes. His lips press into an irritable line—disappointed, even. “Are you happy with this life, cousin?”

 

“Incredibly so.” Mostly. “Just…”

 

Mr. D arches another eyebrow. “So you’re not.”

 

“Not necessarily.” Jason’s hands fidget over the spine of his journal. “The summer was good, things just. They’ve been…They’re.”

 

Different. Not the normal that Jason was used to after the war. And…he knows very well that he hasn’t been able to write when that normal went away. Hasn’t been able to write or sleep. Haven’t been able to speak the way he wants to, with the ink blots drowning his brain.

 

He's…desperately hoped no one would notice after how things went with Nico weeks ago. It’s. Just an awkward subject in their household. Jason knows Thalia is sad—for many reasons. He hates that Thalia walks around with a heavy heart and guilt. Hates that he’s the cause of it, as they try to tread different ground.

 

Bianca’s had her head in the clouds with Piper—which is for the best. Annabeth tries between the architecture classes to check on him because they both want to be better, but. Jason knows last night at the restaurant broke her heart in more ways than one.

 

Jason wishes he could talk about it. But along the way, he’s not sure he remembers how.

 

“What did you write about?” Mr. D asks, when Jason is too quiet again. “You certainly had one recurring subject.”

 

“I did?”

 

Mr. D stare at him again—then rolls his eyes. He sets his coke on the table. “Do you know how wine is made, boy?”

 

“It…depends on what kind?”

 

“An acceptable answer.” The soda can in Mr. D’s had changes into a wine glass. The drink still smells of diet coke—and fizzles, as he stirs it. “A simple white wine—one such as yourself—is extracted from the juice. No skin—only the purest meat of the fruit.”

 

The drink changes again—to something pink and carbonated.

 

“But a fine rosé,” Mr. D continues, never one to like being interrupted, “is allowed to keep its skin, if only a little. Man doesn’t strip everything right away when the grapes are harvested. There’s a hint of that depth still in the bottle. Something that still ties it to its roots. And the richest, reddest wine—do you know what, it has, boy?”

 

“I…” Jason mulls over the question. “No, sir. I’m afraid I don’t.”

 

Mr. D smiles pleasantly—and the drink turns into Mountain Dew Red. It’s a disgustingly sweet smell that makes even the god of wine grimace. “A rich, red wine takes that must—the pulp, stem, seed and skin—and allows it to age together. Whole, no matter how crushed.” He taps a finger to his temple. “If you want to understand why you can’t write anymore, cousin, you have to let all of the parts ferment together. Otherwise you’ll never write a fine whine ever again.”

 

“Whine?”

 

“I’m a father, cousin. I’m allowed to make a double entendre.” Mr. D waves his hand dismissively—and Jason can’t help but smile. “Never say I didn’t treat you well.”

 

“You gave me to the satyrs.”

 

“You enjoyed it.” Mr. D takes a long sip of his Mountain Dew and recrosses his legs.

 

Jason opens his mouth to protest—but a glance at Mr. D’s steady intrigue stops him from protesting. It’s only then that Jason realizes that before the war, he never would protest. Never cut off Mr. D on one of his tirades. Mr. D is pushing his buttons for a reason.

 

“You…really think keeping things bottled up like that was going to drive me mad?” Jason asks finally.

 

Mr. D shrugs nonchalantly. “There are as many grapes as there are ways to drive a mortal mad, boy. An annoying ringtone. An unattainable itch. A phrase. Fear. Guilt. Even love.”

 

He studies Jason, mid-sip from his drink, while Jason grows self-conscious.

 

“Crazy how all of that can bleed together, cousin,” Mr. D says. “What would you make of it?”

 

“I…don’t know if I’m ready for that, Mr. D.”

 

“Why not? You’ve already got a knack for mixing things together.” Mr. D arches an eyebrow and pointedly reaches for a cookie. The last one.

 

“That’s—um. Nico’s recipe.”

 

“Ah, yes. That brat.” There’s nothing but amusement teeming in Mr. D’s tone. If Nico were here now, Jason could see the son of Juno standing straighter with annoyance. He could imagine Nico’s thin frown and defiant eyes. But—it’d all be for naught. Mr. D looks willfully satisfied to have the son of Juno mentioned. Jason can almost hear—now that’s an entertaining demigod right there. But he doesn’t.

 

“Do you…have something to say about Nico, sir?” Jason doesn’t realize that he’s inching to the edge of his seat.

 

“No,” Mr. D says. “Do you?”

 

“I—” Jason stops, just like he did with Hazel. His fingers twitch on either side of the seat. No string of words is simple enough to describe Nico, he thinks.

 

For how little he’s been able to interject, Mr. D doesn’t make fun of him again. Instead, the god of wine studies him carefully. He closes the lid on the Tupperware container and shoves it back in Jason’s direction. “Go now, cousin. You’ve got plenty to work with for the weekend.”

 

Jason stares at the god reluctantly—but once Mr. D makes up his mind, he isn’t likely to change it again. He collects the Tupperware container and places it back in his backpack.

 

Pebble the Satyr reappears as Jason ambles up to leave.

 

“Took you long enough!” Mr. D berates, while the satyr flinches. “So? 100% real juice or not, Pebble?”

 

“100% vegetable, my lord,” Pebble says brazenly. His knees buckle. “The i-ingredients say high fructose c-c-c-corn syrup.”

 

The menacing look Mr. D gives Pebble is one Jason wouldn’t wish on anyone. Jason guides Mr. D’s line of sight with a waved hand, letting the god of wine scowl at him instead. “Have a good rest of your morning, Mr. D.”

 

Like a sharp wine, Mr. D is already red with rage. “Corn syrup—?

 

Jason disappears before he can endure the rest of their camp director’s tirade. He starts the short trek back to Cabin Thirteen, and…stops two cabins short of his father’s.

  

Connor Stoll answers the door when Jason knocks. His expression brightens, one corner of his lips more upturned than the other. “Jacey Gracie. Holy shit, I had no idea you’d be in town this weekend.”

 

“Hi, Connor.” Jason’s smile is strained. His fingers are tight around his journal. “Do you, um, mind if I crash here for a little?”

 

“Oh—sure. Whatever, man.”

 

Connor opens the door wider. Jason walks the familiar path across the cabin, his hand tight around his backpack straps. He stops short of his old bed—empty and neat for the first time in years since other cabins have been built for the children of other gods.

 

It’s…quiet for once, in the Hermes Cabin. Not crowded.

 

Jason sheds his jacket and places it on the foot of the bed. The bed squeaks as he lays down and stares up at the ceiling. He waits.

 

Pulp, stem, seed, and skin.

 

*

 

“Hi, Reyna.”

 

“Hi, Nico.” Reyna greets Nico at the door of the Grace apartment, dressed in a fringe-covered ACDC shirt. She stares at him in a way that Nico’s been used to as of late. “Are you here for…?”

 

“Thalia.” Nico rubs the tattoo on his arm thoughtfully, too self-conscious to look her in the eye. When he does look, Reyna greets him with a smile. For the first time in weeks, there’s a level of comfort in her demeanor that makes it easy for him to breathe. “But—if you two are busy, I can—”

 

“You’re always welcome in both of our homes.” Reyna tilts her head thoughtfully and guides him in. “You know that.”

 

“I—yeah.”

 

The Grace residence is…a well-orchestrated mess. Nico sees black leather booties strewn across the foyer floor. He sees dirty Tupperware sitting on the dining table, flaked with crumbs familiar to the cannoli he scarfed this morning.  A patchwork denim jacket strewn across the couch—along with…socks, and more crumbs…and a kitchen towel, for some reason.

 

“Looks like a fun night,” Nico muses—while Reyna sighs.

 

“How quickly this place unravels when Jason is gone for the weekend,” she grumbles. She gestures down the hall. “There isn’t a crumb anywhere near—”

 

She stops herself—per usual, when Jason is the subject—and grimaces.

 

Nico plucks a shirt from the couch and begins to fold it. “It’s like I never left Thalia’s praetorhouse.”

 

Reyna snatches the shirt from Nico’s hand, her face red. “You don’t need to do that.”

 

“Noted.”

 

“Stop smirking.”

 

“This is just my face.” Nico presses a hand innocently to his chest.

 

Reyna rolls her eyes. “I’ll go wake Thalia.”

 

She disappears down the hall, shirt bundled up in her hands. Nico takes the time to look around the rest of the Grace residence. It’s…(shamefully) been over a month since he was here last. Maybe longer. Pictures line the wall. He catches a few from Jason’s birthday, and their time at the beach. The kitchen is more packed than before. Nico sees a muffin pan sitting in the drying rack. A metal tin sits on the stove with a utensil holder. Before he knows it, Nico begins to tidy up and move things to the sink. He’s disappointed not to find more of Jason’s cannolis.

 

“You don’t have to do that,” he hears.

 

Thalia’s voice makes his chest tingle almost as much as Jason’s did. Maybe more.

 

“A habit from our first quest together, I guess,” Nico quips.

 

Thalia snorts. Her hair sticks up in more ends than usual. Much like Reyna, Thalia sports an oversized band t-shirt and nothing else—a true sign that she woke at her girlfriend’s request. Thalia shuffles a hand through the crown of her head. “Back then I didn’t know if we were going to die by monster or starvation.”

 

“Or a bear following a literal crumb trail,” Nico mutters.

 

He thinks back to days following the casino—where they both were disconcerted after losing years of their life. Thalia often got lost in the moment. There were too many moments while getting back to Camp Jupiter where she struggled to gather her thoughts. Nico quickly learned to fend for himself before the legion tattoo burned its way across his forearm.

 

She chuckles softly—fondly—at the thought, and then they fall into a painful silence like the ones with Jason last night.

 

Nico’s hands fidget ever so slightly.

 

“I’m really so—” “Kid, I’m—”

 

They both halt. Nico glances at Thalia. Thalia looks back to Nico. She mirrors his image of…nervousness.

 

Falling into the motions with Thalia feels less painful than with Jason.

 

Nico clears his throat and makes his way to her small dining table. He settles in, determined not to leave without Thalia’s smile. “Jason—”

 

Her demeanor shifts, already hanging onto every word. Every shift in his tone.

 

“—told me that you weren’t off limits,” Nico finishes lamely. He tugs at one of his sleeves, knowing how silly the words sound.

 

He expects her expression to twist into the same amusement. Instead, Thalia arches an eyebrow. She sits down across from him. “You two are talking now?”

 

“Somewhat.” Nico fidgets with his sleeve again. He crosses his arms over his chest.

 

“Did he sound okay?”

 

Nico mulls over her question. His chest tightens as he shakes his head. “It…wasn’t a long enough talk to find out.”

 

As he looks up, he notices Thalia’s posture mirrors his own. Her hand tugs at one of her sleeves, gaze a thousand kilometers away. “Ah.”

 

“Has he been distant?”

 

Thalia sighs and ruffles her hair again. Nico can see her carry on a thought—one that’s been so clearly itching to be heard—but she peers at him before shaking her head. “I…don’t know if it’s something I can really say.”

 

“Right.” There’s a pang of annoyance in Nico’s chest—one that dislikes the idea of Thalia hiding anything from him—but it’s a delicate line that he was determined not to cross. One that he was far past from the moment that…those feelings for Jason arose. Nico fidgets again, annoyed.

 

The irritation is apparent on his face. Thalia looks back at him. “When…we were talking outside, on Reyna’s porch—?”

 

“That was about Jason.”

 

Thalia’s face hardens. “And…when I told you to ask that person out—?”

 

“Jason,” Nico confirms again. He fixates on a crumb in front of him, unable to look her in the eye. Nico bites in the inside of his mouth until it hurts. “I…”

 

“Neeks,” Thalia reaches out and squeezes his hand. It’s insane how small they are compared to his own now. “If I had known—”

 

“I didn’t want you to know.” Nico’s cheeks burn. His chest heats with frustration—all at himself. He pulls his hand away and begins to gesture nervously. “I didn’t want anyone to know. I—never wanted to put anyone in this position, least of all you, between your brother and—and me.”

 

He feels his head pounding and tries to ignore the tremor in his own voice. Nico hates hard conversations more than anything—especially this one.

 

But—Thalia reaches for his hand. She squeezes it firmly, gaze swelling.

 

“First of all—nothing could ever come between the two of us, kid.” She raises a hand before Nico can protest. “Not even my brother. Because you’re just as important to me as he is.”

 

Nico massages his temples. “But the two of you—”

 

“Are the two of us. Just like you and me.” Thalia squeezes his arm again. “I don’t ever want you to feel like you can’t come to me, kid. Got it?”

 

A knot tightens in Nico’s chest. He’s reminded of the night before, sitting in the rain with Jason—and of every other instance Thalia has spoken those words to him. So much of what he’s become after the casino is intertwined with Thalia’s words and advice. It makes him feel worse for not coming sooner.

 

Before he can dwell, Thalia reaches over and hugs him. Nico hugs back, melting into her grasp.

 

There’s my Neeks,” she mutters against his ear.

 

“I’m—sorry that it took this long,” Nico whispers back.

 

She pulls away with a sadness in her eyes. The corners of her lips raise, and she ruffles his hair. Thalia mulls over his words and makes a face. “You didn’t want to get between him and me. Jace didn’t want to get between us. You two are made for each other.”

 

“No, we’re not.” Nico’s chest tightens again. He digs his hands into his legs and glares at his knuckles, stifling himself before he can simmer in anger. Frustration. Worst of all, envy, over Luke Castellan of all people.

 

Thalia’s demeanor fades into something else that Nico’s never liked—pity. “Sorry. I don’t mean—”

 

“I know.”

 

Thalia pinches the bridge of her nose. “Yeah. Okay. This is difficult.”

 

“Sorry.”

 

“No! No.” Thalia reaches out again and touches his shoulder. “Difficult isn’t impossible, kid. It just means it’s harder to navigate.”

 

She sighs, and the corner of her lips lift into a tentative smile.

 

“I’m just gonna have to get used to the idea that you can’t come to me for everything,” she declares. She squeezes his arm again. “And I’m going to support whatever decision you feel like you need to make. Just remember that I’m always going to be here for you, kid.”

 

Nico’s eyebrows furrow together. Thalia’s arms are open before he ever leans in, and they hug once more.

 

Relief floods through him. Thalia keeps him propped up and supports them both. Nico loses track of how long they hold onto each other.

 

“Thank you,” he whispers, held only together with a tiny sniffle. 

 

“Always, kid.” Thalia hugs him tighter. 

 

Eventually, they let go of each other. Nico feels even better than he did the night before. When he looks back up, he’s met with Thalia’s devious smile.

 

“You know,” she says, “if you really want to make it up to me…”

 

Nico knows the end of her sentence before she finishes. He grins.

 

*

 

It’s early afternoon when Jason makes himself presentable. He makes his way to the Big House after dwelling over his own thoughts in the Hermes Cabin. Mr. D is nowhere to be seen. Jason opens the front door—and stops. “Grover?”

 

“Jace!”

 

Sure enough, there’s a satyr—a different satyr—chatting with Frank at the edge of the hallway. To any mortal, Grover looked like a short college-aged stoner, wearing an NYU t-shirt under his Camp Halfblood windbreaker. Two horns peek out from the sides of his head, furling with the curls in his hair. A set of reedpipes rest at his collarbone. Before Jason has a chance to move, Grover gallops over and hugs him with a cheerful bleat.

 

Jason’s too stunned to hug back.

 

“I heard you were back for the weekend,” Grover gushes. He claps his hand three times on Jason’s shoulder. “The California sun’s been good to you, brother.”

 

“I. Um. Thanks,” Jason says, when he can find his voice. His ears grow with a flustered heat—different from the one he’s been used to as of late. “It’s. Been raining a lot.”

 

“Yeah, here too.” Grover makes a face. He hums a soft tone into his reedpipes. One of the plants on the windowsill wiggles with very little life left to give. “Juniper’s been in a mood over it. But—when the big guy upstairs acts like—this—”

 

There’s an egregious flicker of lightning, and Grover’s grin fades into a nervous grimace.

 

“I, uh. Well. Yeah. That.” he mumbles with less vigor.

 

“Narcissist,” Hazel grumbles from her spot beside Frank.

 

Frank, much like Grover, nervously clears his throat. “Were you able to rest, Jason? Connor told me you swung by the Hermes Cabin.”

 

Grover’s expression pales. “The Hermes Cabin? But you haven’t—”

 

“Yeah,” Jason says. He clears his throat until it drowns out the satyr’s nerves, and he awkwardly grazes the back of his neck. “It. I. Just laid down and thought about some things.” 

 

Grover is quick to open his mouth in protest, but Jason shakes his head. The exchange isn’t discreet. Jason notices Hazel and Frank looking between them.

 

“Ready for a shift change?” Jason asks instead. 

 

Hazel and Frank look at each other. 

 

“Actually, it’s been pretty slow,” Hazel confesses. “Why don’t you and Grover catch up? He was just telling us how it’s been a while since he was in Halfblood. The two of you have that in common.” 

 

“Oh—I used to change Jace’s diapers.” Grover splendidly grins and touches Jason’s shoulder. “We go way back.”

 

At that comment, both demigods look ready to laugh.

 

Jason can’t help his own smile—his own nerves finally settling for the first time in a while. He makes sure to look back at Frank. “And…you’re sure?”

 

There’s a silent song and dance between the daughter of Zeus and son of Mars—but it ends with a look on Frank’s face that Jason hasn’t seen since his birthday. “Definitely. Take some time for yourself, Jace. Uh—Jason.”

 

“You can call me Jace,” Jason reassures. “My friends call me that.”

 

Frank offers his own goofy smile and shoos them off.

 

*

 

Under normal circumstances, Nico would be signing a permit for Thalia to reserve the Coliseum and host one of her screamo concerts. Being praetor came with many perks—but it’s the one that Thalia loved the most. With the rain amok, it limited their options. Thalia Grace was many things—but immune to the common cold wasn’t one of them.

 

The next best thing? Reserving a karaoke room at Thalia’s favorite place in San Francisco. Thalia is adamant that they dress up, and Reyna is never one to say no to her girlfriend. Nico realizes he’s a third wheel on his two big sisters’ date, but the smile on Thalia’s face is so big that he doesn’t care.

 

Per her request, Thalia does his makeup. Nico has the smokiest eyeshadow and richest black eyeliner, along with three new (fake) piercings decorating his ears. Reyna indulges and paints his nails black. She places little braids in his hair and tops off the setting power on his face with a kiss to the cheek. Thalia throws him her tightest skinny jeans and a Metallica shirt. They top off his outfit with a menacing skull ring and complimentary bands.

 

Neeks,” Thalia grins as she finishes tightening the spiked choker around his neck. “You look bitchin.

 

Her smile is infectious. Nico looks over to Reyna—who only nods in approval. Part of her hair is pinned and spiraled to look like a side cut. A matching stud decorates her nose.

 

“Do we have to sing a full Metallica album?” Reyna mutters when Thalia is distracted.

 

“It’s not really singing,” Nico reminds her. “Percy just likes to do the guitar riff.”

 

Reyna arches her eyebrow. “Percy’s not here.”

 

Right. “Right,” Nico says—and beneath the heavy makeup he feels his face heating with embarrassment.

 

He doesn’t get to dwell long. Thalia snatches both their arms and practically yanks them through a shadow portal. She lets out a howl when they appear at the front desk. Cadie, the greeter, doesn’t bat an eye. She waves them on to their private room and stamps Nico’s membership card, oblivious to the lares that follow in after them.

 

“I’m a personal fan of Every Breath You Take,” Vitellus, the Fifth Cohort Lar tells them.

 

Not the stalker song,” Nico protests. He snatches the booklet before Vitellus can protest.

 

The lar’s chest grows big and spirit billows red. “Back in my day Praetor di Angelo—”

 

“Stalking was legal, got it. Zip it, V,” Thalia says.

 

A glowing zipper appears across the lar’s face, and he waves his arms in protest. “MMPPHMMPHHHHH!!”

 

Thalia hangs over Nico’s shoulder and skims the list. A grin spills across her lips. “Green Day?”

 

“Last time you headbanged to a Green Day song we had to pay for damages,” Reyna tuts.

 

“I don’t mind,” Thalia says.

 

“We do,” Nico reassures—which is met with a cheek pinch. “Queue up whatever you want, Thal.”  

 

Thalia of course, vibrates with excitement. Her fingers fly over her phone, where she taps through at least twenty songs that will keep them busy for the next hour. She hits the play button, almost thrashing it into oblivion.

 

The loud, sharp sound of Fall Out Boy billows from the stereo. Thalia rattles her hand against the length of the microphone, grinning.

 

“Sing the opening with me,” Thalia demands.

 

Reyna rolls her eyes, but there’s only affection there. Vitellus starts headbanging.

 

Nico,” Thalia calls next—and she throws the microphone in his direction. “C’mon!”

 

Nico catches without a second thought. Then—at the right beat, they both jump onto the table.

 

“Be careful making wishes in the dark,” Thalia sings, her voice dropping a pitch. Her boots clank against the table and she bobs her head to the rhythm of the song, looking at Nico expectantly. “Can’t be sure when they’ve hit their mark—and besides in the meantime I’m just dreaming of tearing you apart—”

 

“—I’m in the details with the devil—so now the world can never get me on my level,” Nico joins, as Thalia yanks him by the arm. “—I just got to get you out of the cage—gonna need a spark to ignite—"

 

Thalia tilts her head back, singing with gusto. “My songs know what you did in the da~a~ark—”

 

She holds a third microphone out to her girlfriend, and both Nico and Thalia stare at Reyna expectantly.

 

Reyna only grins. Then, in unison—

 

SO LIGHT EM UP UP UP, LIGHT EM UP UP UP,

LIGHT EM UP UP UP, I'M ON FI~IRE!

SO LIGHT EM UP UP UP, LIGHT EM UP UP UP,

LIGHT EM UP UP UP, I'M ON FI~IRE!!

OOH OH OH OH (IN THE DARK, IN THE DARK)

OOH OH OH OH (IN THE DARK, IN THE DARK)

 

The TV screen flashes and explodes with fireworks, while Thalia riffs on one leg across the coffee table. Nico laughs through the cadence of the song, passing grins with his co-praetor as Thalia’s enthusiasm summons more ghosts to fistpump and headbang. The lights above them flicker—but whether it’s from the otherworldly presence or because the bulbs are strobing, Nico doesn’t know.

 

They go through a few more songs—more Fall Out Boy, then Bullet for my Valentine. Marianas Trench then Nothing But Thieves. Just like every karaoke session, Nico has to pay for another hour for the room. Cadie the greeter remains unphased, while Thalia is screaming Centuries at the TV.

 

“Feeling better, kid?” Thalia asks in a lull, when the lares are trying to agree on their one allowed song for the evening.

 

Nico’s face hurts from laughing. His throat is raw from shouting—the only way Thalia wants them to sing—and there’s an adrenaline in his body different from fighting. He’s overjoyed from Thalia’s contagious gusto—but there’s a lightness in his own chest.

 

And—he hasn’t thought about Jason all day.

 

“Yeah,” Nico admits. “Much better.”  

 

Reyna reaches over and wipes his cheek with her thumb—probably an eyeliner smudge. “How about you choose the next one?”

 

Thalia throws her phone in his hand before he knows it, and Nico filters through the songs. Eventually, his finger lands on one.

 

Both of his sisters dangle over his shoulders, and Thalia makes a low whistle. Reyna arches an eyebrow.

 

“Really? Without Percy?” Reyna asks.

 

Oh. Nico’s reminded of the other person he hasn’t thought of since this morning.

 

“Never mind,” he says.

 

*

 

Time with Grover is always comfortable. They end up walking through the rain and into the forest. Jason is sure to grab a bag of sugar cubes for the myrmekes, while Grover whistles a tune into his reedpipes. Grass and plants around them wriggle and stretch, like they’re reaching for the sun before the rain disappoints them. Jason isn’t sure what to expect. There isn’t tension there—but he doesn’t feel quite settled, either.

 

After a good minute of walking, one of them finally speaks.

 

“Haven’t seen rain like this since Bianca showed up,” Grover notes.

 

“Yeah.” Jason rubs his forehead. He doesn’t keep a hood against the storm or an umbrella.

 

“Have you come back often?”

 

“Not really, no.” Jason shakes his head. He…secretly dreaded this trip. Going to Camp Halfblood this time was more nerve-racking for his birthday, and he couldn’t place why.

 

You know why, says a voice in his head.

 

“Hades Cabin looks really nice. I, uh, peeked in it earlier. Not as creepy as I would’ve expected.”

 

“Yeah, I like it.”

 

They hop over a set of rocks deep into the woods—and halt, at the sound of Grover’s hesitation.

 

“Um,” Grover begins.

 

Jason stops long enough to notice a fearful look on Grover’s face. It’s only then that he realizes how far they’ve gone in their trek. Grover thumbs his reedpipes nervously now, his shoulders concaving into a sideways C. It’s much less enthusiastic than in the Big House.

 

“I’m really sorry,” Grover says finally, “that I wasn’t there after the final battle for you and Annabeth. After…y-you know…what happened…with Luke.”

 

Jason’s chest tightens.

 

His mind goes back to Camp Halfblood—their home-turned-battlefield days after his birthday, lighting funeral pyres and taking head counts of survivors. The war was over, but Jason’s battle for solace quickly began. His battle against his own grief about Luke—before Hazel erupted from Camp Halfblood’s only oak tree, and they had to prepare for another war. Bianca was gone. Annabeth thought he was a monster. Grover was deep into speeches with the Council of Cloven Elders and spreading Pan’s message.

  

“Pan was always your journey,” Jason reassures. He shakes his head. “I never held that against you.”

 

Jason always had so many people coming in and out of his life—those who were only a stitch on the tapestry of his duty to Olympus—that he had no choice but to take it in stride.

 

And…so many chapters have been added to his story—his life—since his last encounter with Grover. Many good, many bad.

 

Some…heart-wrenchingly painful. Too painful.

 

Frankly—to have someone close to him care about something else other than the Great Prophecy brought great relief.

 

Grover—Jason’s first friend and big brother—looks ready to cry. He sniffles and wipes a tear from his eye.

 

It pulls Jason out of his own head. “Aw, Grover…”

 

“No, I’m good—I’m fine,” Grover says quickly. “You know—fate of Olympus and all—was no longer at stake thanks to what you, uh…did. Now I could spread Pan’s message and help the earth. Then Mother Earth kind of intervened…and put a setback on ending global warming—”

 

“Yeah,” Jason mutters, “she certainly setback some things.”

 

“—and then suddenly we heard word from Olympus that all demigod kids have to be claimed now. Greek and Roman?” Grover continues. He shakes his head in utter disbelief. “And—I’m dusting off my searcher’s license, looking for kids everywhere. High schools, colleges, shelters. That’s such big news.”

 

Suddenly Jason can’t help but smile. A chuckle, even. “Nico did that. He bent Zeus’s arm and all of Olympus until they agreed to claim all of their children.”

 

Grover latches onto those words. He stares at Jason incredulously. “So it’s true then. Bianca and her brother—they’re both really alive?”

 

“Alive and living together in New Rome.” As an afterthought, Jason adds, “and getting along perfectly well.”

 

His own face twists in disbelief over the fact.

 

Grover only looks confused. “What’s that supposed to mean? Do they not normally?”

 

The question is so innocent that Jason laughs. It only makes Grover look more perplexed—and makes Jason realize that his satyr brother is serious. 

 

“Well,” Jason starts. Stops. “Nico and Bianca have a hard time getting along because they were taught differently.” 

 

Grover arches an eyebrow. Jason’s familiar with the look from when he was younger, around the time Annabeth and Luke appeared. It’s aged well. “Because they realized Bianca is Greek and Nico’s Roman.” 

 

“Yes—well, no. Not exactly,” Jason says. “I mean—maybe? That would make a lot of sense, but—”

 

With every passing word, Grover looks like he understands less.

 

Jason takes a breath, and then finds his words. “Bianca used to tell stories about how sweet and happy-go-lucky her little brother was. And he’s like that—the sweet part. Nico’s really cool. But, it’s like Bianca still thinks that Nico’s ten, and Nico’s older than that now. Fifteen, you know?”

 

“I…know?” Grover nods his head slowly in agreement, though still looks perplexed.

 

“Nico’s just…amazing,” Jason reasons—and he tries to figure out what string of words would describe the son of Juno. It’s harder to put into words than he expects. “You’d think that he’d be all high and mighty and arrogant, like…Zeus, but he’s not. He’s…really patient. And funny. And—” He stops long enough to laugh. “—creative. On our last quest, he asked these birds to distract the empousai by pooping on them—”

 

Grover makes a nose. “Nature’s fertilizer?”

 

“Yeah.” Jason’s chest tingles as he smiles—but he notices Grover still looks disbelieving. “You—just. You had to be there.”

 

His satyr brother nods skeptically. They start walking again, while Grover seems deep in thought. “So, um…you ended up having to go on another quest then. After the big one.”

 

There’s an unsteady shift in Jason’s chest. “Yeah.” 

 

“I’m sorry—”

 

“No, it’s okay. I’m…actually in a good place now.” Jason rubs his chest thoughtfully, remembering just how painful it felt when he realized they’d be going into a second war. “It…was really rough, but I think I’ve finally found my boundaries for that. I don’t fight anymore. Nico’s made sure of it.” 

 

Again, Grover’s eyebrow finds its way in the air—which goes unnoticed by the son of Hades.

 

As they make it to the myrmekes, Grover clears his throat.

 

“Bianca’s little brother sounds cool,” he concludes.

 

Jason’s lips twitch into a smile and he can’t help but nod. “Yeah. He’s…he really is.”

 

“I’d like to meet him. You know—after everything Bee’s said about him.”

 

There’s a wave of excitement that courses through Jason at that request. He’s ready to prattle on about all the reasons Nico lives up to Bianca’s tales and more—about everything they’ve done together since Jason moved—but he stops short. Jason’s smile fades ever-so-slightly. His hands twitch at his sides, and he runs his thumbs over his palm thoughtfully.

 

That doesn’t go unnoticed by Grover, either. Grover touches him on the shoulder, a worried look well on his face. “Something I said, brother?”

 

“I—” Yes. “No, it’s—” Complicated. “—not anything you said, just—” What Jason didn’t say. What he’s struggling to say, even now.

 

He rubs his forehead thoughtfully, only to find his hair wet beneath the rain. His chest tightens—in the way it always does when he thinks about how things are with Nico now. The reedpipes fall from Grover’s hands, only to dangle around his neck. He reaches out and touches Jason’s shoulders, his eyes filled with an empathetic worry.

 

“You know you can talk to me.” Grover gives Jason a soft squeeze, and Jason is reminded of his time before the cabins. Grover’s voice still carries the same weight as when he was little. Still—Grover’s look falters nervously. “I mean—I-I know I’m not Luke…and I was sent out a lot, but…I always worry about you, prophecy or not.”

 

Jason’s lips twist into a nervous grimace. His hands twitch at his side once more, and he curls a thumb over the knuckles of his other hand once more.

 

I’m never going to be Luke, Nico had said.

 

Continues to say, over and over in Jason’s mind as he runs the night through his head. As he tries—every night since that one—to figure out what he could’ve said to change things. So that Nico and he could truly go back to the way things were.

 

Jason desperately misses it. Even though he knows Nico can’t keep going on.

 

Not like that. Nico liking Jason was—is—a chasm with no treasure at the end. No heart. Because—because Jason’s not there yet.

 

And every night he asks himself, why can’t he be there yet. Why couldn’t he just give Nico a yes and why couldn’t he just make Nico happy—

 

“—son. Jason. Jace—”

 

Jason peers back and realizes Grover’s been shaking him. Grover squishes his cheeks like a small child, frantic.

 

“You’re like a million miles away,” Grover says. His hands are no longer on the pipes, and the nervousness has disappeared from his voice. Instead, he frowns, and Jason’s never felt more like a child.

 

“Sorry,” Jason apologizes—which comes out more like, showwy.

 

Grover glances at him, up and down, and Jason grows more self-conscious. “What’s…that thing you keep doing with your hands?”

 

Jason’s expression twists with confusion. He stares down at his own hands, realizing he’s long since put the sugar cubes away. Instead, he cradles his left hand in his right, rubbing soothing circles into his knuckles. His thumb pads the top of his other hand in a gentle stroke—all in efforts to calm himself.

 

It strikes Jason that he doesn’t know how often he’s fallen into this habit. He just knows he’s done it a lot in the last few weeks.

 

And…he thinks about the first time it truly calmed his nerves.

 

“When the war ended,” Jason says softly, “I could barely stomach the idea of holding a sword again. The one that Zagreus gave me. Any weapon. I just—”

 

He sucks in a breath and squeezes his eyes shut to force the image away.

 

“—I just kept thinking about how much blood came out when I killed him,” Jason says—and he feels the tremor of fear at the tips of his fingers once more. He can hear Grover gulp. “But. Nico…he…any time I felt overwhelmed on the boat, he’d just…grab my hand, like this.”

 

He holds his hands out in front of himself and imagines the nimble fingers of one Nico di Angelo curling against his own. Jason used to steady the panic in his chest with the calm pulse of Nico’s touch—whether he realized it or not. He’d focus on the circles Nico would paint into his palm, and…just be able to breathe again.

 

For all the noise in the world, Nico grabbing his hand created the only steady rhythm Jason yearned for. It…made him feel…

 

“Nico makes you feel what?” Grover asks—interrupting Jason’s thoughts by shaking him again.

 

“I—um. Don’t know.” Jason feels his own face redden under the cold rain. “What was I saying?”

 

Grover arches another eyebrow at him, unconvinced. “You said Nico grabbed your hand and made you feel things.”

 

Oh, gods. “I what?”

 

“Jace, brother,” Grover says, steering their conversation elsewhere. “What could Bianca’s little brother do so bad that’s got your throat so thorny?”

 

“He’s not just Bianca’s little brother,” Jason repeats. He shakes his head emphatically and gives his palm a firm squeeze. “Nico, he’s just. He’s Nico.”

 

Nico is…amazing. Kind-hearted and smart, and witty. Gentle, and proud in a way that Jason struggled to find in his seventeen years as Hades’ son.

 

He’s not Luke. But.

 

Jason swallows hard. His gaze falls, and he struggles to look the satyr in the eye.

 

Nico wouldn’t punish Jason’s heart the way Luke did. Everything he’s ever done—from the sternness of his reassurance to the soft stroke of his thumb against Jason’s palm—has been nothing like Luke.  

 

“Jace?”

 

“He…” Jason’s voice softens. “He told me that he liked me. And I couldn’t say it back.”

 

“Oh.” Grover’s expression changes into surprise. “Like, like like?”

 

Jason nods, hanging his head in the same shame he’s carried for weeks. He uncomfortably takes a step forward, moving their party closer to the myrmekes. “Sorry. We don’t have to keep talking about this.”

 

In the past, Jason’s gotten used to his steady dismissal deterring other people from his head. It was better for him to steer the conversation away from his head—and before the second war, it’s not like anyone really cared. Except—Grover wasn’t like most people.

 

“Why couldn’t you say it back?” Grover asks instead, while tailing after the son of Hades. “Because of Luke?”

 

Jason’s demeanor shifts with discomfort.

 

“Oh,” Grover says. He bashfully scratches his beard.

 

“Yeah.” Jason replies. “’I mean—no. Not. Not that, exactly.”

 

“Because you don’t like him back?” Grover guesses. “Because he’s Bianca’s kid brother?”

 

“No,” Jason says—and he rubs his forehead sleepily.

 

“Because…he’s not attractive?” Grover guesses again. “I mean, sounds like you two get along emotionally with that whole…hand massage thing.”

 

“No—that’s not it. Nico’s plenty handsome.” Jason squeezes his own hand once more obliviously—and opts to stuff them in his pockets when he notices. Red glows in his cheeks, and he hopes it goes unnoticed. It won’t be long before Grover compares him to a rosebush.

 

“I hate to say it Jace, but if you’re just not interested in him, then you did the right thing.” Grover’s eyebrows furrow together, and he quickens his gait to show his doubt.

 

Jason can’t help but frown. He doesn’t meet Grover’s eye, but—he’s heard that answer a thousand times in his own head. “I know. I. Just.”

 

“It’s understandable if you’re getting over Luke,” Grover continues, when Jason can’t fill in his own gap. “And I get it, I’d feel the same way if I had to find someone other than Juniper. I don’t want anyone to replace her—”

 

“I’m not trying to replace Luke,” Jason interrupts—and he shakes his head with more frustration than he intends. He plants his feet to the ground, his thoughts finally steady. “Nico’s not Luke, and—I don’t want him to be. I don’t want to fall for another Luke again.”

 

Luke ripped his heart out and took it away to form an army.  Luke shattered his heart into a thousand pieces when he chose Kronos, even at the very end. For of the redemption Luke sought in ending the war, he valued his own skin more—leaving Jason nothing but the miserable guilt of what he did to get them there. Killing. Resurrection. More blood. Luke’s blood.

 

For all the missteps in delivering the Athena Parthenos to Camp Halfblood, Nico never made him feel that way. Jason never wants to feel the way he did with Luke ever again.

 

He misses how Nico made him feel—even if he can’t quite name what it is. Putting it into words feels suffocating and hard—but. Jason wants to. 

 

“I want to fall for Nico,” Jason confesses finally. The words are timid in his mouth—but they feel right. He stands taller in the mud, then turns to Grover. “After Luke, I. I deserve to fall for someone like Nico.”

 

He deserves better than someone who manipulated his heart. Jason deserves better than Luke. With each word, his own chest swells, until it’s finally easy for him to breathe. Jason wants to fall for Nico. For someone who guides his heart rather than shattering it into a thousand pieces. Someone who praises him for his happiness and didn’t let the anger and frustration fester from within him.

 

Jason wants nothing more than to be with someone like Nico. To be with Nico.

 

As he looks back to Grover, he notices his satyr brother smiling with approval.

 

“So…how long’s it been since the weird hand massaging’s stopped?” Grover asks. “Because it sounds like you’ve changed your mind since that first time, brother.”

 

At that question, Jason’s chest hardens to clay. Rather than soothing his own nerves against his palm, he presses the tip of his finger to the back of his neck. 

 

Grover stares at him curiously. “Jason—?”

 

“A month,” Jason says. One long, painful month since that first moment. That last moment.

 

“So—over a year since Luke’s death, and a month since you and he talked.” Grover claps a hand on his shoulder. “Sounds like you’ve got it figured out….but—”

 

Jason peers back at him, saddened. Grover jumps under his gaze—but he only mirrors Jason’s expression.

 

“But you don’t think you do,” Grover concludes.

 

“I.” Jason hesitates. For the first time, he knows the answer. Why he couldn’t answer the way he wanted to with Nico weeks ago to keep their normal. He thinks of Mr. D’s words—of the mute and the seed and the pulp of his life that made it so unsweet and painful to enjoy. “Because Nico deserves to be with someone who doesn’t hurt him. Who…hasn’t hurt him the way I have.”

 

Luke’s name is a painful ulcer in his mouth—one that Jason’s carried since the son of Hermes left him. For as much as Jason wants to be with someone like Nico, he can’t shake what brought him here. Every year of his life hangs on his neck, laced in a leather string to remind him what he did on his sixteenth birthday.

 

“I’m going to keep hurting him so long as Luke is with me.”  Jason’s chest clenches tightly, and he flattens his palm against it. “And he’s the last person I ever want to hurt. I. I need Luke gone if I want to be with Nico and I’m just—I’m not there yet.”

 

With each word delivered, Grover’s smile slowly falls. He’s silent as he soaks in Jason’s words.

 

“Oh,” Grover says.

 

“Yeah,” Jason says—and he swallows hard. It lands in his stomach like a deadweight rock, rattling through the hollow shell where his heart once was. “Oh.”

 

*

 

After three hours of karaoke and dinner in the city (a much better trip than the night before, to Nico’s relief) they make it back to New Rome. The lares wobble and stumble about Camp Jupiter, claiming hearing loss despite no ears. Thalia is high off her own excitement, grabbing Reyna in a way that lets Nico know it’s time to stop being the third wheel.

 

“Want to come in and watch a movie?” Reyna asks, when they make it to the front of her praetorhouse.

 

Nico shakes his head. “I think I’m gonna swing by NRU.”

 

Thalia and Reyna both exchange looks—then kiss him on either cheek. Under normal circumstances, he’d groan and roll his eyes—but it only warms his heart.

 

“Good luck, Neeks,” Thalia says. “And hey—if his head is still up his ass, I’ll lend you my foot.”

 

“Thanks.” Nico flashes a tired smile. He takes off into the sky and heads towards New Rome University.

 

The last person he expects to see on his way to Percy’s room is Annabeth. As he turns the corridor on the second floor of NRU’s residential building, he catches her rounding the opposite corner. They stare at each other outside of Percy’s room, awkward.

 

Nico grimaces and fiddles with one of the bracelets on his wrist.

 

“Hi,” Annabeth greets, unprompted. She’s dressed in a purple NRU hoodie two sizes too big, with a slung across one of her shoulders. Nico can only guess that the sweatshirt isn’t her own.

 

“Hi,” Nico greets back. He’s not sure what else to say.

 

“You should go first.” Annabeth bows her head and takes a step back.

 

He stares back at her, surprised, and she shrugs.

 

“That fight that you guys had yesterday,” Annabeth continues, “looked…”

 

“Ugly?”

 

“Ugly,” Annabeth agrees, and Nico snorts. She smiles awkwardly and hugs herself.

 

“What happened inside the restaurant between you and Percy wasn’t okay either,” Nico says, and he awkwardly tugs at the end of his sleeve. “That…was—”

 

“Also ugly.”

 

“Yeah.” Nico’s face twists. “Also ugly.”

 

Annabeth clears her throat and tugs on the straps of her backpack. A sigh escapes her lips. “I’m…really sorry that this whole thing blew up. What happened between you and Jace is your own business, and no one needs to know except for the two of you.”

 

Nico sighs in relief and part exasperation. “Thank you.

 

Annabeth nods. She starts to turn around. “I’ll just come back later.”

 

“Wait.”

 

She stops and turns to him curiously.

 

“Percy really messed up with you,” Nico says, and he arches an eyebrow. “Why are you the one going through the trouble?”

 

Annabeth takes in his words carefully and stuffs her hands in her pockets. There’s a meticulousness to her expression that reminds Nico of Jason—but he’s quick to shove the thought away. Her demeanor changes to something Nico saw during the war—the ghost of a grudge, but also a warning.

 

“Jace…is very important to me. I get why you like him,” Annabeth says finally. “But I know that liking him comes with…certain baggage. Baggage he might not ever be able to get rid of. I—I’m sorry that—”

 

“I don’t need your apology,” Nico interrupts, almost automatically—and the corner of Annabeth’s lip twitches.

 

“Right,” she agrees. “Not my business. But—I have to put his best interest at heart. And I respect that Percy feels the same about you. It’s why I like him in the first place.”

 

She says the last part so brazenly that Nico’s not sure if he heard correctly. Annabeth doesn’t blink—she only fiddles with her backpack more.

 

“But,” she continues, “there are limits.

 

She rolls her eyes, sounding wary. Nico decides better than to ask what limits Percy’s apparently tested. Instead, he nods. “Sounds like a talk worth having then.”

 

“A talk without either of you,” Annabeth declares. “It’s better if he hears it from you first so he understands what he’s losing if he doesn’t listen.” 

 

There’s a weight to her voice—one that holds Nico’s relationship with Percy. His chest tingles as she stares at him carefully. 

 

“Thank you. For looking out for Jace, I mean.” Nico twitches. “I know that it must be harder for him here.”

 

Annabeth arches an eyebrow. There’s a certain look to her face, but she says nothing. Instead, “Ditto, for what it’s worth.” 

 

Nico smiles an odd smile, which is matched by the daughter of Athena. 

 

“Let me know when to tap in,” she says—and she disappears around the corner. 

 

Nico waits a moment longer at the door in front of him. His chest is in knots before finally rapping a hand against the door.

 

The door swings open—“Neeks?”

 

—and Nico stares. “Did Bianca beat you up?”

 

Percy stares back at him in surprise—then irate confusion. He doesn’t look worse for wear—other than a comically large bag of ice pressed to the side of his face. Nico had left long before he could see the result of their argument—though he’s suddenly curious on who won out.

 

“Your scary-ass sister,” Percy starts, “gave me a three-hour lecture about manners and how rude it was to insert myself in your love life instead letting you figure it out for yourself.”

 

Nico blinks.

 

“—and when I tried to get away, she yanked my ear so hard that I’m pretty sure she dislocated it,” Percy continues. He grumbles and removes the ice pack. Sure enough, Percy’s left ear is frighteningly swollen. “Then I got a lecture that proper hygiene included washing my hands and feet, and to stop slouching. I’m pretty sure Bianca gave me tinnitus.

 

Nico snorts. He crosses his arms over his chest and stares at the son of Neptune in amusement. “You have to look that one up?”

 

Percy rolls his eyes—but then locks onto Nico, staring from head-to-toe. “Why do you look like an emo panda bear?”

 

“Thalia did my make up.” Nico instinctively begins to walk through Percy’s door—but stops himself.

 

Percy opens the door wider, alternating hands with the icepack on his ear. “Karaoke?”

 

“Karaoke,” Nico confirms.

 

He feigns interest looking around Percy’s room. Percy’s bed is unmade—to no one’s surprise. A fish tank consumes his bookshelf, decorated like Bikini Bottom. There isn’t one clear surface on Percy’s desk—where Nico notices a mountain of textbooks, homework, and a slice of half-eaten pizza.

 

Nico waits an awkward moment. “You…should have been there. We couldn’t sing half the songs without you.”

 

Percy doesn’t have a quip loaded. He closes the door behind himself. “You wanted me there?”

 

Nico fidgets. “Might not have been as fun for you. With the tinnitus and all.”

 

Percy snorts. He grimaces as he pulls the ice pack away from his ear and paces it on his nightstand. Then, he awkwardly shuffles until he’s across from the son of Juno. “Yeah…well. There…might’ve been some truth in what Bianca was yelling at me.”

 

One look at the son of Neptune and Nico notices the begrudging look of guilt.

 

“Go on,” Nico says—and he arches an eyebrow.

 

Percy stares up into the ceiling disparagingly and rolls his eyes—hard enough that he winces and holds his ear. He crosses his other arm over his chest and heaves a sigh. “I…shouldn’t have been a dick at the restaurant. And I shouldn’t have pressured you into telling Grace how you feel. You were right. That was none of my business.”

 

“And?”

 

“And what?”

 

Nico’s jaw squares, and he crosses his arms over his chest. “You were incredibly rude to Jason for no reason. I hope you plan on apologizing to Annabeth and him, too.”

 

“Are you kidding me?” Percy’s expression changes with burning disbelief. He waves his hands profusely. “No way—you can’t keep defending him! That jerk should have enough sense to know what he was doing—he kept Reyna hidden at Halfblood, for fuck’s sake!”

 

“I’m not defending him,” Nico protests—and before he knows it, he’s waving his arms, too. “You need to stop acting like he’s a criminal—he’s the only reason I came out of the war alive! If you want a chance with Annabeth, then you need to give Jason a chance, too.”

 

Percy balks, his demeanor twisting with exasperation. “A chance with—? Nico--I know that asshole upset you—otherwise New Rome wouldn’t be two plank boards away from building Noah’s Arc.”

 

“Noah’s Arc—” Nico pauses, and then he stares at Percy in disbelief. “You think this rain is because of me?

 

“Of course it is!” Percy waves his hands in the air. “Neeks—it rained for two weeks when you first got here and you were trying to figure out Bianca’s death. Reyna was missing for months and Camp Jupiter was covered in fog. Hell—it rained for three days when your favorite character from One Piece died.”

 

At the last quip, Nico’s face burns scarlet.

 

Before he can protest, Percy barrels through the rest of his explanation, face red with rage. Percy scowls and jabs a finger at the window. “There’s a monsoon happening outside my dorm window, and I know how much you liked him. I know you’re crushed. The fact that you’ve done so much for him since you’ve met the guy and can’t see what a catch you are is—is—”

 

Percy growls into the air and shakes his fist—then winces again as his ear stings.

 

“Balls,” he hisses. “‘Just like that,’ my ass.”

 

Nico stares at Percy, speechless. He’s reminded of Annabeth’s words—of Percy only having his best interest at heart—and doesn’t know what to say. Not while Percy is pacing and fuming on his behalf.

 

He takes a breath—then exhales.

 

“Percy,” Nico starts. Stops. Percy looks at him with a moment of fury—but it quickly diminishes into begrudging defeat. “I helped Jason because he’s my friend. Just like how you and Thalia helped me grieve.”

 

Percy looks back to him reluctantly.

 

“I…started liking Jason because…because I just did.” Still do. Nico’s chest aches at the thought, but he continues anyway. “I can’t help that. But. I need to be the one in control of my feelings. And I just. I need time to move on.”

 

Time and healing.

 

“No amount of slander against Jason is going to make me feel better,” Nico says—and he ruffles his hair until his hands knot into one of his braids. There’s warmth at the tip of his fingers, remembering Reyna’s gentle care in doing his hair. “I just spent the day singing Fall Out Boy with Thal and Rey, and that made me feel better. I really wish you were there for that.”

 

Percy’s demeanor shifts, looking much softer than his hate for Jason Grace.

 

“I. Didn’t mean what I said about not needing you in my life anymore,” Nico says, and a lump swells in his throat. He rubs his arm awkwardly. “I’m sorry. I mean—if anything, maybe you’ve saved me from embarrassment. I’d still be sneaking peeks at Jason in the locker room if it weren’t for you.”

 

“You’re welcome for that,” Percy says automatically—and Nico rolls his eyes. Then—Percy reaches out and slings an arm around him. “Neeks—if I had a dime for every time you used the, I’m Not Ten Anymore argument, I could buy another one of you from Build-A-Bear. Cape, eyeliner and all.”

 

Nico rolls his eyes.

 

“I won’t butt in anymore with your love life. And I’ll stop rightfully calling Grace out—”

 

“I’ll yank your other ear.”

 

“—I will back off and stop being a dick to Grace,” Percy corrects. Begrudgingly, he adds, “and if I happen to run into him again, I will apologize.”

 

The corner of Nico’s lips twitch into a smile. He reaches out and throws his arms around the older demigod. “Thank you, Percy.”

 

A sigh of relief escapes Percy’s mouth—clearly anxious for this conversation all day. He throws his arms around Nico, too. “I just wish I could help. I mean—”

 

“Just let me ride this one out, Centurion Loyal to a Fault.” Nico nudges Percy pointedly, and the other demigod doesn’t protest. Reluctantly, Nico adds, “You…can still take me out to buy games. I do like hanging out with you again. Deal?”

 

Percy grins from ear to ear (with minimal pain) and they fistbump. “Deal.”

 

“I’d stay, but your girlfriend wanted to talk to you next.” Nico makes his way to the dorm room door, while Percy processes his words. “Something tells me you’re going to need flowers for that one.”

 

Per usual, Percy’s face morphs and glows red. “She’s not my—”

 

“Bye.”

 

On his way out of the residential hall, Nico gestures to Annabeth in the common area to go visit Percy next. She smiles at him pleasantly and packs her bookbag once more. Nico leaves New Rome with much less of a weight on his shoulders—and satisfaction, from being able to see Reyna, Thalia, and Percy today for the first time in a long time.

 

He studies the gray clouds looming above him, stumped.

 

Why was it still raining?

 



 

Notes:

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Chapter 12: treacherous

Summary:

Jason’s heart suddenly drops like a rock in his stomach. His hands tighten over the straps of his backpack, while he tries to catch up with the conversation. “Wait—Nico—you’re going on a quest?”

“With my sisters, yeah.” Nico nods and looks back to Bianca. “I had to go around and clear it with all of our teachers.”

“I—” Jason sputters. “Don’t you need praetor approval for that?”

Both Nico and Reyna stare back at him, evidently confused.

“Jason,” Nico says slowly. “I am a praetor.”

Notes:

This chapter title (finally got one!!) comes from Treacherous by Taylor Swift. The Last Time and All Too Well are also good songs to listen to. Enjoy!

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

Jason gets back the following Monday.

 

While not a morning person, Thalia is awake bright and early at 6AM—or likely never went to sleep. She comes into the kitchen when she hears him cleaning and hugs him. “You have a good time at Halfblood?”

 

No. “It was okay.” Jason hugs her back. He catches sight of glitter on her cheek. “Did you have a fun weekend?”

 

There’s a way her grin glows. Thalia crosses her arms. “Nico, Rey, and I went to karaoke. We had a blast.”

 

At the mention of Nico, Jason’s chest warms for his sister. “Really? You two talked?”

 

“Yeah—it was good. You’ll have to come with us next time—we haven’t put you behind a mic yet.” Thalia winks and nudges him playfully. She straightens out his rain jacket while he’s in the middle of washing dishes, then inspects him closely. “Did…you get enough rest while you were at Halfblood?”

 

Not really. “Enough,” Jason parrots. Before he can help himself, he yawns.

 

“I can write you a note, baby brother,” she says—then she makes a face. “Not that you really need a note if you don’t want to go to school. But that’s my two cents.”

 

“No, I’m okay,” Jason says—and he shakes his head insistently this time. “I. We’re picking our partners in chemistry today. I don’t want to get last pick.”

 

Thalia looks reluctant, and Jason almost doesn’t blame her. Instead, she ceases, and claps both hands on his shoulders. “Okay. Just call me if you want to ditch, Jace.”

 

“Okay.” With that, Jason is out the door.

 

He doesn’t normally walk to school. Jason favors shadowtraveling for more than one reason—but decides to use the time for his thoughts. He thinks back to his somber conversation with Grover, and the heavy realization that…he may never get over Luke, no matter how much he wants better.

 

Him not being there yet may mean never at all.

 

And that

 

Sucks.

 

“Oh—Jason.”

 

“What? Oof—” Jason knocks into a trashcan as he turns a corner—then looks up to find a curious Nico.

 

Nico’s dressed in different clothes from the other night. A nice, Sherpa-lined denim jacket against the October chill, well-fitted pants, and white shoes—then a shirt with a pokemon that Jason can’t put his finger on. There’s a smudge of black beneath his eyes—almost faint, but they only accentuate the blue of his eyes.

 

Plenty handsome, Jason had told Grover.

 

“Are you waiting on Bianca?” Nico asks. “She flew.”

 

“Oh—no.” It’s only then that Jason realizes he wandered in the opposite direction of school. The di Angelo residence, to be exact. “I…guess I got turned around. Are. Are you running late?”

 

Nico shakes his head and curls his hands over his backpack. A skull ring rests on his finger—one that Jason recognizes from Thalia’s jewelry box. His eyes are at the sky. “No. I figured I’d walk to school today and enjoy the rain.”

 

Oh. “Oh.”

 

“What about you?” Nico asks, and he looks to Jason again. “Don’t you normally shadowtravel?”

 

“Normally. But.” Jason fumbles into a smile and curls his hands into his backpack. “Guess the rain was too hard to pass up for me, too.”

 

“Oh,” Nico says.

 

Um. “Do…you want to walk together?” Jason asks tentatively.

 

Nico peers back at him again, his eyes looking even more striking than before. Then, just as thoughtfully, he nods. “Sure. Yeah. That’s not a bad idea.”

 

The walk isn’t normally a long one. Normally fifteen minutes or so—eight, if Jason is running his normal trail—but it uncomfortably drags. Nico and he are both silent past the first block, simply letting the rain and rolling thunder echo instead.

 

“I heard you and Thalia talked,” Jason interjects, when it becomes a tad too uncomfortable. “She told me you two had a lot of fun this weekend.”

 

Nico looks back, and he thoughtfully twists the ring on his finger. There’s a warmth to his smile as his lips lift—one that completes the look Thalia gave Jason this morning. “Yeah. It was a much-needed break, from…”

 

He trails off, voice growing stiff.

 

“I’m glad,” Jason says. He rubs his chest awkwardly, trying to find something else to say, but his mind blanks. He’s just happy that Thalia and Nico can speak to each other again.

 

“What about you?” Nico redirects. “Did—well—”

 

He fumbles over his words, demeanor twisting in a way Jason’s not used to.

 

“Was Camp Halfblood nice to you this time?” Nico lands on finally. His tone reeks with displeasure—and if Jason wasn’t so stunned, he’d laugh.

 

The tiniest chortle makes it past his lips, and Jason clasps a hand over his mouth. “Sorry.”

 

Nico’s face glows adorably pink, and he tucks his hands in his pockets. “I…might have been a little worried.”

 

“I…really appreciate that, Nico.” There’s a gravity to Jason’s words. Despite his worries with Grover, something about Nico’s admission makes Jason’s chest flutter. He recalls the events of the weekend, his hands tight over the straps of his backpack.

 

His conversation with Mr. D. Then his conversation with Grover. The rest of the weekend was…strange.

 

“Frank didn’t think it’d be good for me to see too many kids,” Jason admits—and he fights the feeling of embarrassment. “He really picked them up over the summer. A lot of them preferred to see him.”

 

To his surprise, Nico looks relieved. “So, they didn’t spread you thin.”

 

“Not really. I saw Mr. D—Dionysus—about. Well, me.” Jason begins to stroke his hands—then stops when he notices. Heat glows in his cheeks, and he nervously fiddles with his backpack straps again. “He…compared me to wine and told me I was boring.”

 

He ambles forward a few steps, only to realize Nico has stopped.

 

Nico stares at him with surprising irritation. “The god that was supposed to help you with your mental health said you were boring?”

 

“Um. Yeah.”

 

Nico looks even more annoyed. “The one that dumped you with the satyrs?”

 

“Actually—that’s another thing. My brother Grover was there.”

 

This time, Nico doesn’t look like he knows what to do with that information.

 

“Grover is—”

 

“The one that taught you how to gallop.”

 

Jason stares. Nico stares back. And—slowly, neither of them looks tense. Jason’s lips stretch into a smile, and he laughs. It’s only egged on when he notices Nico snickering, too. “Yeah, that’s the one. I hadn’t seen him since after the first war. We ended up hanging out with each other.”

 

“That’s…good,” Nico remarks tentatively. “What did you guys end up doing?”

 

Brutally talk about Jason’s heart and feelings. “Um—” About Nico. And Luke. “Well—not very much. It was raining pretty badly over there.”

 

They stop short of the school entrance, where other students are already filing in. Jason sees Bianca off with her friends, and Reyna in the distance.

 

“Wait,” Nico says. To Jason’s surprise, however, Nico’s demeanor shifts. His eyebrows furrow together, lips curling into a frown. “It rained in Long Island? Like this?”

 

“Um. Yeah, I guess.” Jason stares up at the sky curiously. The rain is steady—but nowhere near an angered rage from a month ago. “Hazel said it’s been like that a while.”

 

“A while,” Nico repeats. Ire grows in his voice. “Did she say how the weather looked in Vancouver?”

 

Jason mulls over Nico’s words quizzically, then shakes his head. “No, I didn’t think to ask. But she didn’t—”

 

“I’ll need to ask her then,” Nico cuts in abruptly. He pulls away from Jason, stroking his chin.

 

“Oh,” Jason says—“I was thinking we could go to art class—”

 

“Sorry, Jason.” Nico changes course, suddenly yards away. He stops short of Bianca’s group of friends and looks over his shoulder with an apologetic look. “Bianca—”

 

“—together,” Jason finishes to no one.

 

Nico disappears into the school, yanking at his sister’s arm, and leaving Jason by himself.

 

*

 

Nico doesn’t show up to class. They hadn’t paired up—not in a long time—but based on Nico’s reaction this morning, Jason can’t help growing worried. Professor Kronk doesn’t address it—he just throws them into the next art project. Nico skips out on their gym class too—and while Jason has tried not to draw too much attention by staring at Praetor di Angelo, son of Juno, he can’t keep from looking down the locker room hall, trying to find Nico.

 

The rain continues outside—more of a nuisance than a light drizzle, but nothing painful. Jason’s attention redirects to the window each time there’s a rumble of thunder or a slight patter against the window.

 

Bianca’s missing from their lunch period. Her friends carry on without her.

 

“Is Nico okay?” Jason tries to ask Reyna during their history class.

 

Reyna looks startled—likely because Jason brings the son of Juno up—but they never get to finish the conversation. Their teacher begins talking about the Trojan War, and class is spent…doing something. Jason spends the entire hour racking his brain over what could make Nico so annoyed and doesn’t get the chance to ask Reyna before they part ways for their next class.

 

By the end of the day during chemistry, Jason doesn’t have the energy to protest when his teacher assigns his lab partner.

 

He’s just lost in the thought of how nice Nico looked today, hair brushing his cheekbones in gentle strokes, with a smile that Jason sorely missed. Talking about Mr. D and Grover was—a mess, sure—but it never felt hard when it was with Nico.

 

Jason deserved to be with someone like Nico, he’d decided. He’s confident. He’s just—he’s not there yet. Not freed from the emotional cage of Luke when Nico deserves so much.

 

It just doesn’t keep Jason from worrying.

 

He finally catches them—Reyna, Bianca, and Nico—right outside of the school when classes end. There’s a dismal air between all of them. Reyna has her arms firmly crossed over her chest. Bianca holds a frown—one that Jason hasn’t seen since before the first war, and Nico has his hair tied back.

 

“…should probably leave tonight,” Bianca says. She stops as Jason approaches. “Jace—hi.”

 

Nico and Reyna both meet his gaze, neither looking particularly happy.

 

“Is everything okay?” Jason asks. The question floods with his own worry—which festered over the course of the day.

 

Reyna and Bianca immediately default to Nico, who doesn’t bat an eye. Nico raises his gaze upward and shakes his head.

 

“No,” he says. “It’s this rain. Normally a couple of days is fine, but it’s been going on for weeks. A whole month.”

 

“Hazel said she wouldn’t put it past Zeus to let it drizzle a little longer,” Jason says—which Nico doesn’t look any happier about.

 

“I called Hazel during gym class,” Nico explains. “It’s been raining in Vancouver and Long Island. She says she’s lost track of how long it’s been storming. If it was just for a week I wouldn’t mind, but—”

 

“Something must’ve happened with Papa,” Bianca concludes. Her eyebrows knot together.

 

“The sperm donor must have done something stupid,” Nico corrects, his voice growing with irritation. “I suspect that if we went anywhere in any direction that it would be storming.”

 

“Okay,” Jason says. “So, what do we do?”

 

The trio in front of him falls dead silent.

 

Nico raises his head, one eyebrow cocked in the air and his lips suddenly marred by a frown. “We do nothing. You’re retired.”

 

Jason’s thought process halts, flummoxed. “Wait—"

 

“Bianca and I need to meet with Hazel. We’re going to fly to Vancouver. The three of us will start our quest from there.” Nico turns his head to his co-praetor for confirmation. Reyna nods her head in agreement.

 

Jason’s heart suddenly drops like a rock in his stomach. His hands tighten over the straps of his backpack, while he tries to catch up with the conversation. “Wait—Nico—you’re going on a quest?”

 

“With my sisters, yeah.” Nico nods and looks back to Bianca. “I had to go around and clear it with all of our teachers.”

 

“I—” Jason sputters. “Don’t you need praetor approval for that?”

 

Both Nico and Reyna stare back at him, evidently confused.

 

“Jason,” Nico says slowly. “I am a praetor.”

 

“Right.” Heat burns in Jason’s cheeks, but he racks his brain. He touches the back of his neck, which suddenly flairs with his pulse. “But—I mean—are you sure?”

 

“Confident that my sperm donor is making life harder for the rest of us?” Nico retorts. His aggravation is clear for the god above.

 

“Okay,” Jason continues, and he racks his brain again. “Well—I. I—let me go with you then. You’ll get to Vancouver faster if I shadowtravel you.”

 

The weight of Nico’s gaze is disarming. He narrows his blue eyes—the ones that entranced Jason this morning—and he seems to stand firmer. Nico repeats—“No, because you’re retired.

 

Jason’s at a loss. His head spins. “But—”

 

“Jace,” Bianca interjects. She places a hand on his shoulder, her own eyebrows pinching with worry. “No offense, but you don’t have the best rapport with our dad—”

 

“Sperm donor,” Nico cuts in.

 

“—anyway,” Bianca finishes. A grimace curls against her lips. “Nico’s right. Even if you were still fighting, it’s probably better that you sit this one out.”

 

“But I can fight,” Jason protests, the pink creeping up his cheeks in a violent shame, “I’m not—I mean—”

 

“You’re retired,” Nico repeats, his voice stern. “You don’t fight—”

 

Nico,” Jason persists. He raises his voice louder than he intends.

 

They both halt when they come to that realization and stare at each other.

 

Nico blinks at Jason, bewildered. He turns to Reyna and Bianca, both also taken aback by the spike in Jason’s voice. “Give us a second.”

 

“I—” Jason begins to protest, but he shuts up the moment Nico drags him away by the wrist. There’s a lingering flutter as Nico’s hands graze his skin—then they’re nestled in the corner of the school, tucked away with Jason’s panic and Nico’s frown.

 

“You don’t need to do this,” Nico says.

 

Jason stares at Nico in disbelief. “You don’t need to do this. Nico—”

 

“The gods,” Nico continues, as though Jason never interjected, “including my dad—especially my dad—have taken a sick pleasure of throwing you around two wars since you were born. This quest isn’t for you.”

 

“But—” A lump swells in Jason’s throat, and he’s unhappy. “Nico, I can fight, I—”

 

“You gave up fighting,” Nico corrects, and his eyes narrow threateningly. “I get that you have this sense of duty, Jason, but I’m not letting you near this quest. I’m not letting you fight again.”

 

“But—I—” Jason stops. His stomach is suddenly in knots, with nothing making it past his mouth other than the sudden desire to vomit.

 

“Grace.” At that moment, Mike Kahale appears. “You ready for our study date?”

 

At the mention of study date, Jason’s skin crawls. His entire body tenses—and he watches the sudden disconnect in Nico’s eyes. Nico pulls his hand away from Jason’s own, leaving a cruel sting of loneliness. 

 

He eyes Mike Kahale bitterly, and Jason swallows hard. 

 

“That’s not—“ Jason sputters. “—I mean, we’re not—“ 

 

“Michael,” Nico addresses wryly. “A few more minutes. Then you can have Jason. Sound good?” 

 

Once more, Jason is caught in the middle watching Nico stand ground with a demigod twice his size. 

 

Mike arches an eyebrow, amused, and takes a step back. “Alright. Hope you brainstormed some ideas for chem, Jason.”

 

Right. 

 

As Mike busies himself doing…something Jason couldn’t care less about, Jason turns back to Nico, cheeks red with even more shame. 

 

“We’re just chem partners right now,” Jason explains quickly. “He and I—it’s not that kind of date—“ 

 

“Jason.” Nico’s gaze is hard, tone poignant. There’s a crease at his nose as his face scrunches, and he sighs softly. “We’ve…already had this conversation. I’m not—”

 

He ceases, his own cheeks blistering pink and jaw tight. 

 

“You and I aren’t dating,” Nico concludes. “You already turned me down, so you don’t owe me anything. And. Mike is. Nice, I guess.” 

 

“But I don’t—” Jason pauses. Nico is already averting his gaze. The words are tight, as Jason finally finds them. Shaken. “I don’t want to hurt you again.” 

 

Nico looks reluctant at the statement. He crosses his arms over his chest, fingers twitching. “I. Just do me the favor of sitting this one out. I want you safe. Okay?”

 

No, absolutely positively not—“Okay,” Jason says. The word aches in his throat.

 

“Okay,” Nico repeats. He stands straighter and turns towards Reyna and Bianca. “Bianca and I need to prepare. There’s no telling what—”

 

“Wait.” Jason snatches him quickly by the hand.

 

The gestures startles them both. There’s a moment, where the gentle brush of Nico’s hand against Jason’s own halts his pulse. His eyes carry to Nico’s wrist bone—then the blue of Nico’s own irises, where the son of Juno stares back at him in confusion.

 

But…he…thumbs Nico’s palm as carefully as he did during the war—because he’s almost lost Nico once before.

 

Jason doesn’t want to let go of Nico’s pulse beneath his own—or let go of Nico at all.

 

“Yeah?” Nico asks—after who knows how long.

 

“I.” A lump swells in Jason’s throat. “I just.”

 

Jason’s mind just cycles into a vicious twister in his chest, where all he feels is his own helplessness. 

 

He hugs Nico. Tightly. Jason throws the weight of his feelings into Nico, grasping what he can of his anxiety between his arms.

 

He feels Nico tense and stumble—but to Jason, he’s finally grounded.

 

“Jas—”

 

“Please,” Jason whispers, “please, please be careful.”

 

Nico relaxes into the embrace eventually. “I’ll…try my best, Jason.”

 

Jason nods inaudibly, relishing in the sound of Nico’s pulse. He’s reminded of the days that he used it as his beacon. Nico hugs him back—and it hits Jason how much he misses holding Nico like this. Knowing every inch of Nico, and just…Nico, in general.

 

There’s a calming scent that brushes his nose the further he buries himself into the nape of Nico’s neck.

 

“You smell nice,” Jason murmurs—though he can’t quite place the scent. Chamomile? Bergamot?

 

“Lavender,” Nico answers for him. There’s a shift in his tone. “It’s—Reyna’s, I. Well, I mean, I slept over—I.”

 

He pulls away with a glow to his cheeks. Nico doesn’t quite look up.  

 

“I should go,” Nico says finally. There’s a distance in their embrace, leaving nothing but the echo of his hand against Jason’s.

 

Slowly, he makes his way back to Reyna and Bianca. Jason hates it.

 

*

 

Focusing on chemistry is hard. With each flip of a page, Jason’s thoughts go straight back to Nico. He’s mortified. Jason burns holes into his textbook as he taps his foot into the floor of Starbucks. He chews on his pencil, skimming through the words of his textbook without really learning.

 

Every time his fingers brush against the edge of the page, he thinks of Nico’s hand against his own. Nico’s embrace.

 

Nico, dying.

 

Jason breaks his pencil. He’s interrupted from his current quandary when Mike Kahale waves a hand in front of his face.

 

“Hungry?” Mike asks. “I could—”

 

“No thank you,” Jason cuts him off, nervous. “Are we almost done?”

 

Mike arches an eyebrow, looking mildly amused. “We just got here.”

 

“Oh.” Jason looks to the clock hanging above the entryway—where sure enough, they are only a quarter past five.

 

“Anyway,” Mike continues, “like I was saying—”

 

“I’m not—” Jason cuts the other demigod off, his ears glowing pink. “—I’m not interested.”

 

Mike stares back voicelessly. The son of Venus isn’t unattractive—far from it. There’s a warmth to his skin that hasn’t been dulled by the autumn rain. He has rich, chocolate eyes and well-maintained dark hair, combed in a way that accentuates his chiseled face. There isn’t any doubt who his mother is.

 

He's…just not Nico. Not Nico’s striking blue eyes or soft, lavender-scented hair—or anything like the curve of Nico’s mischievous smile.

 

And—that smile’s been out of Jason’s reach for a long time.

 

Could be longer, depending on how this quest goes.

 

Could be never again—

 

Mike shuts his textbook. He points into the air. “Are you doing this?”

 

Jason stares at the son of Venus in confusion. He follows Mike’s line of sight—where the lights are simultaneously flickering on-and-off to Jason’s own pulse.

 

“I—” Jason starts. He stares at them long enough to keep them from flickering. “Sorry. I didn’t—um. I’m just.”

 

“Nervous?” Mike asks. “Unfocused?”

 

Jason grimaces.

 

“Worried about Praetor di Angelo?” Mike guesses. “Worried he might die on this quest?”

 

SSSSSSST!

 

The lamp on their shatters.

 

Jason and Mike both jump at the sound—then Jason is scrambling to pick up the pieces of broken glass, apologizing.

 

“Sorry,” Jason starts, pushing glass into a napkin with his bare hand. “Sometimes—I just—when I’m nervous, I siphon light—it hasn’t happened in a while—”

 

“Grace,” Mike interjects, looking extra appalled. “You’re going to cut yourself.”

 

“Oh.” Jason stares down at his own hands, where bits of glass bury themselves in the creases of his fingers. He flexes his hands, and shards fall into his napkin. “No. It’s fine.”

 

Mike stares at him like he’s grown a second head. The stare only makes Jason more uncomfortable—especially after the death comment.

 

“Can I—” Jason stops and sucks in a breath. “May I be excused?”

 

He gets up from his seat and marches to the bathroom. Jason discards the shattered glass in the trashcan and locks the door behind him. He takes in a starch (retched) breath and cradles his head in his hand.

 

His chest hurts.

 

Every thought of Nico getting hurt on this quest—on their quest—runs through his head. He thinks back to after the Argo II, trying to get the Athena Parthenos back to New Rome—to every instance where Nico got hurt on his watch and nearly turned to nothing.  

 

Jason thinks of when he held Nico—when the edges of Nico’s fingers faded with the strain of his powers. For how much Nico’s helped Jason, the calm of his pulse had almost gone away. Nico could’ve died on that quest—Nico could die on this quest—

 

And Jason’s breath hitches.

 

He stands to his feet, staring at the shadows at his feet. He needed to be there.

 

You’re retired, Nico reminded him.

 

Except—Jason could shadowtravel—he could get the sky siblings together faster than they would on their own—and just be there to protect Nico.

 

Hades—if the rain was the problem, Jason could just shadowtravel to Zeus and shake the God of Storms awake himself.

 

At that thought, the back of Jason’s neck tingles. He thinks of the bristling look worn by the King of the Gods—one that insisted Jason was far beneath Olympus.

 

There was nothing wrong with checking on Nico—Jason could lock onto the son of Juno’s steady pulse and just—go, like this morning. He sought Nico out when his heart’s been rattled far too long. 

 

“Just,” Jason mutters under his breath, “one trip.”

 

I’m not letting you fight again, Nico said adamantly.

 

His ankle makes it through the portal before he decides it’s a terrible idea.

 

(Except maybe it isn’t?)

 

Jason resorts to the alternative. He reaches for a large shard of glass from his broken lightbulb, angles it towards the dim bathroom light, and turns on the sink. He fishes for a drachma and rattles off a name.

 

“Grover,” Jason greets immediately. 

 

“Jace,” Grover greets with surprise. “What—”

 

“Nico went on a quest,” Jason interjects, his own voice obscure. His hands tremble his sides, and he cradles a fist in his hands. 

 

“Oh—um,” Grover says. He blinks, evidently taken aback. “Okay, brother, how does—”

 

“I don’t want him to go on this quest,” Jason says. He paces the length of the bathroom, his voice trembling. 

 

He takes a long breath, head still in his hands. Grover doesn’t respond right away. Instead his satyr brother digests the words.

 

“Don’t the Romans go on quests all the time?” Grover asks eventually. He strokes his goatee carefully. “From the way Percy explained it, the process is pretty rigid--they have veterans in almost every city--”

 

“That’s not—” Jason interrupts, not the slightest bit deterred by Grover’s reasoning. “That’s not the issue. Things. Things change, Grover.” 

 

Things could go badly, like losing a scepter in the middle of the quest. Satyrs getting kidnapped--Nico getting kidnapped. Nico getting hurt. 

 

“Yeah, buddy--you’re like the king of quests. That’s the worst part, waiting for people to come home. Trust me, I had plenty of these concerns when you, Annie, and Bianca would go,” Grover says evenly. “There’s no telling what the Fates intend, but you can only hope for the best.” 

 

“I don’t want to do that,” Jason protests. He peers up at Grover, unsure of how else to say that. “Grover, I--I can’t wait for that. He could get hurt, or--or--”

 

The lights flicker above him once again, shimmering with abysmal darkness and the IM. Grover’s words come in muffles— 

 

Whoa—buddy--down--breath?” 

 

Jason sucks in a deep breath. He sets the broken glass on the sink and cradles his forehead. Slowly, the tips of his fingers glide past his forehead and rest right beneath the knot of his camp necklace. “Grover, I need to be there.”   

 

Grover stares back at him, clearly confused. “Okay--well, if they haven’t finished picking people for their quest, then volunteer.” 

 

“No--I’m. I’m not allowed on that quest. He told me I was retired.” Jason grimaces as the thought of Nico’s unhappy demeanor in their whispered conversation. 

 

“Oh,” Grover says. There’s a sound of approval in his voice. “Well, I respect that.” 

 

“I need to be there,” Jason repeats. He places a hand over his chest, where it’s ached ever since Nico walked away from him. “I. My heart hurts, Grover.”

 

Grover’s eyebrows furrow together, and he looks at the son of Hades sympathetically. “Jace—I…don’t want to be a downer. You said yourself that you want to be with someone like him.”

 

“I do,” Jason agrees. He hesitates. “At least. I. I think I do.” 

 

“I think you do too,” Grover agrees gently. “Pan’s Pipes, Jace—I think you deserve the full retirement—broken hip, shuffleboard and all. You need someone who can grow old with you, and that’s…that’s not going to be Luke.” 

 

That was never going to be Luke. Jason thumbs his rib cage, the pad of his fingers pressed against his heartbeat. “I. I don’t want to be with another Luke, ever again.” 

 

“Then don’t be, brother.” The corners of Grover’s lips raise into an encouraging smile. “Take your heart out of the Fields.” 

 

“I.” Jason curls his hand against his chest, fist clenched over his shirt. And he repeats, “I need to get my heart out of the Fields.” 

 

“You deserve that much after everything. Don’t you think?” 

 

For the first time since Nico’s departure, Jason finds a focus. And he nods—this time more confidently than before. “Yeah. I think I do.” 

 

*

 

After an awkward apology to Mike, Jason goes home. He walks the length from New Rome—cursing each raindrop as he does so—and remains stuck in his own head. 

 

Realizes, how long he’s been stuck in his own heart. 

 

He thinks of Mr. D’s silly metaphor about seed and skin and pulp and mute. Everything that Jason’s tried to separate in his mind for the longest time in order to…to keep order. To stay sane and just make it to sixteen.

 

He was a demigod, so he needed to make it to Camp Halfblood to learn how to survive. 

 

He was a son of one of the Three Kings—so his fate was tied to Olympus. 

 

He was the son of Hades—and his father would never be welcomed there. 

 

He…loved Luke. 

 

Kronos was the enemy. Luke was Kronos.

 

Kronos had to die. Luke had to die.

 

Bianca—could’ve—been the child of Prophecy. She…found an out. Jason hated her for doing it. Jason understood why she did it. 

 

Thalia is his sister. Thalia is Roman—and he had to keep Camp Halfblood a secret. He had to keep Reyna a secret. 

 

Nico…Nico liked him. Nico liked him, and wanted them to go back to normal.

 

Jason wants their normal back. 

 

He’s tried so hard to keep those thoughts and feelings separated—to just keep moving and get past the next day so they never get as bad as his sixteenth birthday. As bad as dropping a knife in the bloodbath of a dead Luke Castellan, who was only inches away from killing Jason’s beloved best friend. 

 

Those…thoughts haunted him anyway, like ghosts of his past. Eros forced them out. Eros mocked him for trying to fix things despite all the terrible things he’d done as a son of Hades. Jason was ashamed for trying to remove himself from his father. 

 

You’re a son of Hades by being yourself, Nico had said.

 

Nico was there in Croatia when separating those thoughts became too much. He held Jason’s hand in the noise of it all—and for the first time since Luke, Jason didn’t feel the obligation to silence himself. He’d sobbed that day. 

 

The richest wine came from all parts of Jason’s life—from his love of Thalia and Grover and Annabeth—to the deep-seated hate for Bianca, for Kronos, for the gods and his own mother—and. From every form of love and anguish and anger towards Luke. 

 

From kindness, patience, and effervescence through Nico di Angelo. 

 

Jason stares at his journal, drinking in every page that he’s earned since the end of the war. Every instance with Nico, where he felt…full. 

 

Can I go where you go? 

 

He runs his fingers against the ink from their dance. Jason’s reminded of the warmth of the wedding lights. They’d glowed in the hue of Nico’s eyes, like the first stars of evening’s light. Nico held a smile, far more elegant and consuming than the grooms, and Jason wanted to follow every move and cadence. He wanted…that feeling to last. The one that filled Jason to the brim every time he could feel Nico’s breath. 

 

It’s a feeling he’s held for a long time. 

 

Jason likes Nico. 

 

And he wants to be there. 

 

Jason packs a bag. He packs a first aid kit, two changes of clothes, and two surprisingly well-made sandwich combos.

 

Thalia happens to catch him on his way out. She stares at him, confused. “Where are you going?”

 

His cheeks flare with heat, hands curled nervously around the straps of his backpack. 

 

“Jason?” Thalia asks, when he doesn’t answer right away.

 

“I’m,” Jason starts. Stops.

 

“You can’t tell me,” Thalia guesses, and Jason’s face flushes awkwardly. “Okay.”

 

Jason looks back at her, taken aback. She doesn’t look thrilled—but she doesn’t look angry, either. “O…kay?”

 

Thalia crosses her arms over her chest, demeanor twisting. “Is it Nico-related?”

 

Jason twitches, awkward. His sister only sighs.

 

“You can’t tell me,” she repeats.

 

“You…trust me?” Jason asks doubtfully.

 

“Jace, I’ve never not trusted you.” Thalia reaches out and touches him on the shoulders. Jason can’t help but feeling small under her touch. She strokes his cheek affectionately, her lips curling into a tame smile. “Come to me when you’re ready.”

 

The tiny gesture is so soft and delicate for his hardy sister that Jason feels a pang of guilt. He tightens his grip over his backpack and nods slowly. “Um—if. You don’t mind writing a note to my teachers—”

 

“Sure—permission to ditch.” Thalia pats him on the shoulder. She pulls him down and kisses him like a small child on the cheek. “Don’t forget to call when you get there.”

 

Jason’s face tingles from her touch. “But you don’t—”

 

“That’s okay, Jace.” Thalia touches his face again, looking no less loving than before. “Really.”

 

Jason lets go of a breath he doesn’t know he was holding. For…all control that he’d lost after his sixteenth birthday, he finally gained someone who loves him unconditionally. The realization hits him hard—how much his life has changed after Luke.

 

He holds his sister in a close goodbye before finally leaving.

 

Jason stops at Camp Halfblood first. He erupts from the shadows into Cabin Thirteen—and he’s brought back to the evening that Nico looked different. Where a single flake of Styrofoam at the crown of Nico’s head on the eve of Jason’s birthday made him want to focus on no one else.

 

He takes in a deep breath, his hands twitching at his sides, and unlatches his storage trunk. His old sword stares back at him, dark and abysmal with its rose-carved sheath and skull pollum.

 

Jason equips his sword.

 

Finally, with a shaky breath, he sinks through the shadows and into the Underworld.

 

*

JournalEntry: "I want to be with someone like Nico. I want to be someone Nico deserves."

*

 

Preparations are easy. Nico notifies both his teachers and Bianca’s. He lets Reyna know he’ll be gone for—a short while—and texts Thalia and Percy the heads up. Going through the proper channels for a quest is always a headache—notifying the right people, arguing with the Senate, going behind the Senate’s back when he disagrees—but after a month of this rain, Nico knows it’s necessary.

 

After all of that, Bianca and he head to the airport, where Nico flashes his Legionnaire papers to a Roman veteran, and they saddle into a private jet with Vancouver set as their destination.

 

All the while, Bianca examines the SUV that they arrived in, studies the airplane transporting them, and stares at the legal documentation for their absence from school.

 

“And Camp Jupiter really just covers this,” she says for the umpteenth time. “They have paperwork and procedures to handle going on quests.”

 

For the first time since the war, she’s out of her skirts and sweaters. Bianca looks more like a huntress, with her hair braided down her back and puffy jacket. Her quiver of arrows sits at her feet with her bow, while she polishes her silver hunting knife. Nico would hardly think this is the same sister that spends too long in the bathroom and shrieks when he tracks mud into the house.

 

“I’m afraid to ask what Camp Halfblood doesn’t have,” Nico remarks.

 

Bianca shakes her head, still overwhelmed by Camp Jupiter’s structure. “It’s better if you don’t know.”

 

Their aurae stewardess instructs them to put all chairs in the upright position and conceal all knives and other sharp objects. The plane takes off without fault, and they ascend high into the clouds past the irritating rain.

 

“So, are we going to talk about it?” Bianca asks.

 

“Talk about what?” Nico peels an earbud out of his ear and opens an eye.

 

“That weird moment between you and Jace?”

 

Nico bites the inside of his mouth. He sinks lower in his seat and places his earbud back in his ear. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

 

“Excuse you?” Bianca plucks the earpiece out of Nico’s grasp. “Do you need a reenactment? Where he pulled your arm like this—” She tugs his wrist, and Nico shakes it off.

 

“He’s just like that.” Nico reels his own hand back and pulls the sleeve of his rain jacket over his wrist. In doing so, he tucks away his Legion tattoo and Mammina’s peacock emblem. Nico fiddles with his fingers, brushing against every digit Jason grazed.

 

It was…familiar. Nice.

 

From the corner of his eye, Bianca stares at him in utter disbelief. “’He’s just like that’? He just felt the need to sweep you off your feet in the most graphic embrace that high school allows?”

 

Nico’s face burns with heat. He pulls the hood of his sweatshirt over his head and tugs at the aglets of his drawstrings.

 

“Oh, c’mon—”

 

“When you say it like that it makes me less inclined to want to talk about it,” Nico snaps irately. He crosses his arms over his chest. “Keep that in mind for all endeavors, Bee.”

 

Bianca firmly grasps at his shoulder, a look of exasperation clear on her face. She huffily crosses her own arms over her chest. “I’m just saying. I’ve known Jace a long time and I’ve never seen him get that upset over something before.”

 

“How often do you think he’s heard no when it comes to going on a quest?” Nico refutes. He arches an eyebrow and watches as Bianca investigates the air for an answer. “Jason doesn’t even let himself say no. He’ll be fine.”

 

He thinks it’s the end of their conversation, but a moment later finds Bianca burning holes into his jacket.

 

What?” he cries.

 

“I’m just trying to figure out what you two talked about, since neither of you are willing to tell me,” Bianca protests. She gestures with her hands and points to herself. “I mean—I’m going on this quest, too. I didn’t get one of those hugs. I’ve had Jason Grace hugs before. Jace is a hugger.”

 

Nico rolls his eyes and props his head against the palm of his hand. “Okay, so we hugged.”

 

Falling into Jason’s arms felt like the most natural thing in the world—especially after the last few weeks of awkward encounters. There was a space in Nico’s chest, where he wanted to bury himself into Jason. He thinks Bianca’s right—Jason is definitely a hugger. One that held on with all of himself, with a nervous breath at the nape of Nico’s neck.

 

Which was a bad thing.

 

Bianca glares at him.

 

“What do you want me to say?” Nico protests. He rolls his eyes. “Maybe that means he likes me back? I should hold out over a stupid crush?”

 

“Well—” Bianca makes another gesture with her hands and nods emphatically. “Yeah.

 

“Pass.” Nico crosses his arms defensively over his chest. “We should be focused on this quest.”

 

“One of us has actually died before, and I didn’t get one of those hugs,” Bianca mutters.

 

“Yeah,” Nico agrees. “Try not to do that again.”

 

Bianca flushes pink, her lips pressing into a frown. She’s silenced by her own embarrassment.

 

Nico rubs his temples gently and places his headphones in his lap. He stares down at his palms again, reminded of the tiny glee he felt when Jason held them earlier. Their morning was…tentative, with clumsy conversations on their way to school, but it felt…right.

 

Then the gravity of Jason’s embrace, and the vibrato of his voice against Nico’s ears sent his heart soaring. Jason cared—too much—and Nico wanted that abundance to fill the painful gaps in his chest that he desperately tried to ignore.

 

Spending the weekend with Bianca, then Thalia and Reyna, and making up with Percy helped. He got to make awkward amends with his sister, scream his heart out—and finally, truly enjoy laughing again with Percy.

 

One stroke of Jason’s hand against his own heart was enough to unsettle him again. To make all of him spark with a hope that Jason did like him back. That all of those looks and smiles and gestures meant something

 

But they were a normal that Nico knows they can’t go back to because Jason’s just Jason. The reminder to Bianca is a stronger one for himself.

 

“I,” Nico says finally, his voice taut, “really need to use this trip to get over Jason.”

 

He can’t keep holding onto that thrill of seeing Jason’s smile. The disappointment is too painful when he comes down from that high.

 

Bianca touches his arm gently, her expression changing into one of sympathy. Finally, she doesn’t protest his decision. Instead, she leans into his warmth and lays her head on his shoulder.

 

Nico leans into her. He traces the lines of his palm—and forces himself to stop when his mind wanders to Jason.

 

*

 

The Underworld isn’t any less intimidating. As soon as he erupts from the shadows, Jason’s stomach flops, trying to make sense of up and right and down and left. A chill bristles through the underside of his skin, goosebumps erupting like volcanoes across his skin. The back of his neck burns as it senses the River Styx nearby, and his hand flies to cover it.

 

The sounds of the Underworld scrape against Jason’s earbuds. He hears them crawling at the base of his neck, while the rest of his body feels stiff. Jason can’t focus until he feels someone shaking the life back into him. His vision blurs for all but a moment—and then he focuses his line of sight.

 

“Mom?” he asks.

 

Jason gets a flash of her mist disguise—a woman with weathered skin and straw-like brown hair in an unsuspecting, modest sweater and jeans—then the image of Alecto, leader of the Furies, stares back at him with large, pupiless gold eyes.

 

She hunches parallel to him, large battish ears poking out in front of her straggly hair. Her bony fingers are gray and long, claws curled against Jason’s shoulder, with both wings outstretched around them. Alecto’s pug nose gives him a long, thorough sniff, and she bares her yellow fangs in a warm grin. “Hello, little pup.”

 

Jason’s chest swells at her voice. It’s a gravelly whisper, laced with a well-earned fondness. He looks around to figure out where he shadowtraveled—and finds himself at the entrance of his father’s palace. Sconces of green flames light the trail in an unnatural hue—to remind everyone that they’re in the land of the dead. “How…did—”

 

“The King keeps track of his children’s whereabouts,” Alecto explains. Her wings wrinkle and fold at her back—and before Jason knows it, he’s being guided into the palace by the hand. “If they make it to the Underworld, then He must know why.”

 

Jason swallows nervously. “Oh.”

 

“Children of Hades can come in two ways,” Alecto continues, “alive or dead. If you are dead, little pup, you better have a good reason, or he will send you back.”

 

“No—I’m definitely alive, Mom.” Jason looks around the palace halls, taking in familiar sights from his last visit. He allows himself to take in the sight of extravagant portraits, guarded by uniformed skeletons from all walks of life. Roses made of gold decorate corridor tables, while the walls paint the story of the King of the Underworld’s love for his wife.

 

Alecto makes a sound of interest, her tongue clicking. “A quest?”

 

Well—technically not a quest. “No, Mom, I’m retired.”

 

At that sound, Alecto’s eyes glow, and her grin stretches until her fangs are fully bare. “A family visit?”

 

Jason hesitates. “Well—”

 

“Splendid! A celebration is in order—the King and Queen will be pleased!”

 

“Wait—the King and Queen—?”

 

WOOSH!

 

Alecto expands her wings with chary excitement and rushes them down the many corridors. Jason recognizes the pathway to the throne room only right before the entrance. Then—they stop upon entry, and Alecto unfurls her claw from Jason’s palm.

 

She adjusts her maternal stance to one of a subordinate, then slowly lands into a kneel at the foot of the throne. “My king and queen—the young master has arrived.”

 

“Jason?” he hears his father’s voice, piqued with curiosity. There’s a kind rhythm to his voice that makes Jason less nervous. “He’s here?”

 

Jason’s hands twitch at his side. He presses his thumb to his palm and gives it a gentle stroke. And—slowly, he rounds the corner and enters the court of the King and Queen of the Underworld.

 

Hades and Persephone, King and Queen of the Court, stare back at him in curiosity.

 

“Hi, Dad,” Jason starts—and he carries his gaze to Persephone. “Queen Persephone. I…um—Zagreus?”

 

In his father’s gaze, Jason no longer feels the formality to kneel. The sight of the Queen makes him apprehensive—but Jason isn’t prepared to see a third god in the throne room.

 

Zagreus stands a foot taller than Jason himself, with a more expansive width. His skin is the color of a tombstone, with a chiseled, handsome face that reminds Jason of a timeless statue. His Greek chiton is inked darker than shadows and painted richer than the reddest rose—and he adorns the skulls of the spoils of his enemies.

 

Much like last summer, Jason almost sees a reflection of himself—a version of a true, better descendant of Hades—but it’s quick to dismiss. Zagreus holds their father’s somber demeanor, with a derisiveness to his eyes that reminds Jason of Mr. D and a confidence that knows he’s the son of the King and Queen.

 

There’s a sneer at Zagreus’s lips. One that keeps Jason from finishing his greeting.

 

“Halfling.” Zagreus glares.

 

“I—” Jason starts. Stops. His mouth hangs, at a loss. The sword on his back grows heavy.

 

“Jason, my boy,” Hades greets more candidly. There’s a richness to his tone that disarms Jason—and a smile that livens the King of the Dead. “You’re just in time for family dinner.”

 

*

 

The last time Jason saw his father was in the throne room of Olympus, hobbled over a measly stool. For as comical as it looked for the King of the Dead, his pride for his two children made up for it. Jason truly felt like he’d done his father proud after the second war.

  

The image in front of him now—his father, dressed in black silk robes that billow with wailing souls—is a different image than the black jumpsuit in Pripyat. It’s an echo of last summer, where Jason truly understood how all-encompassing his father’s realm could be.

 

Right before he realized how easily the line between life and death could disappear so quickly on the battlefield.

 

Except this time, Jason doesn’t find himself uncomfortable. Nervous, sure—but a different reason entirely. From across the long dining room, Hades looks up from his beloved wife, and the smile on his face knows peace.

 

The room adjacent to the dining hall bustles with noise as ghostly servants prepare their dinner.

 

“How’s school, my boy?” Hades asks, after a long silence.

 

Persephone and their shared son hold a different look. She’s nonplussed by his presence, while Zagreus shows displeasure from across the empty table.

 

“It’s—um. It’s going well.” Jason wipes sweaty palms on his knees. “My teachers really like me. They’re always surprised to find out that Thalia and I are related.”

 

“So am I,” Zagreus grumbles in a low, scathing baritone.

 

Jason bites back a grimace. “Mostly, um, because they don’t believe she’d ever have a last name.”

 

“Grace,” Hades answers pleasantly. “Just like your mother, the starlight. Beryl Grace.”

 

At the mention of his mother, Jason wants to shrink. He watches Persephone’s demeanor shift into an unpleasant leer and scrambles for his backpack. His hand flies through a folder. “I—actually, I really like school. I. Brought my report card. Calculus is a bit of a struggle, but I like solving the puzzle—”

 

Out of nowhere, the folder glows a rosy pink. It flies across the table, in front of the queen herself. Persephone stares at it peculiarly. “What is this?”

 

It takes Jason a moment to decipher what this is supposed to be. His face turns scarlet as he realizes what she’s staring at. “That—um—a drawing I did for my art class. I got a good grade for it.”

 

“What a fine drawing,” Hades remarks. He leans into his wife’s air.

 

“Zag, look at your little brother’s drawing,” Persephone continues. She waves her finger, and Jason’s drawing faces him once more.

 

“Two eyes and a mouth,” Zagreus mutters. “Just like every other mortal.”

 

“That’s—my friend, Nico, actually,” Jason says, and his cheeks glow.

 

“Juno’s boy,” Hades recalls.

 

“Ah,” Zagreus says. “Thalia’s little adoptee.”

 

My little brother,” Persephone gushes. She strokes the drawing, and Jason resists the urge to snatch it back. “He’s a cutie, isn’t he? I heard he gave Daddy a mouthful.

 

“Ah, you captured his essence quite well, my boy,” Hades says, inspecting the drawing once more. “You drew this?”

 

“I—yessir.” Jason’s hands twitch.

 

“What a lovely job. Mortals like to hang their childrens’ work, don’t they?” Hades asks. He waves a hand, and an ebony frame appears over Jason’s drawing.

 

“I—well, on the fridge, usually,” Jason stammers. “It’s not—”

 

“Very well,” Hades says. “Alecto, be sure this makes it to the refrigerator. Use one of those dog magnets. The one with the long body, will you?”  

 

Oh boy—if Jason makes it out of this conversation alive, he hopes he doesn’t have to tell Nico about this one. “I—um—”

 

Alecto appears out of nowhere. She appears at Hades’ side—and even she looks delighted at the drawing. “At once, your grace.”

 

“His grace, actually,” Hades says. He gestures towards Jason, and Jason tries hard not to hide beneath the table.

 

A moment later, the door to the kitchen bursts open. One of Alecto’s sisters, Tisiphone, emerges with a bar cart filled with entrees. A chef’s hat sits past her bat ears, while an apron is tied behind her wings. She gives Jason a pleasant wave and passes out plates.

 

“Tonight’s salad has been carefully selected from the Queen’s garden,” Tisiphone announces, “with Cap’n Crunch croutons, followed by a bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch with milk personally delivered by Meneotes for the benefit of the young master. Dessert will be Lucky Charms.”

 

“Oh, wow,” Jason says. He stares at the lavish produce, decorated with cereal in such a way that it looks like berries. 

 

Tisiphone beams at the compliment.

 

Hades sighs forlornly. “Very well.”

 

“Jason, darling,” Persephone starts—in a nurturing tone that surprises Jason, “is the cereal too hard? Too cold? Would you like Tisiphone to blow fire on it for you?”

 

“I—no ma’am,” Jason says stiffly. He stares at his salad curiously.

 

“Not a fan of greens?” she continues. “Perhaps a cow would suffice—”

 

“Let him fend for himself, Mother,” Zagreus interrupts tiredly. He eyes Jason from across the table. “He’s made it clear he doesn’t welcome our help.”

 

Jason shifts awkwardly in his seat.

 

“Come now, Zagreus,” Hades chides. “That isn’t the way to talk to your brother. I believe family dinners are enjoyed in silence for most households.”

 

“Darling,” Persephone says. She reaches out and touches her husband’s hand. “Only in lonely households.”

 

“Aren’t they busy eating?” Hades asks. “Jason—how are dinners enjoyed on the surface?”

 

Jason stares at his father, unsure of what to say. “I—well—”

 

“Ignore him,” Zagreus grunts brutishly. He turns his line of sight from their father and stares gravely at Jason once more. “The spring and summer leave him with social skills to be desired. I’ll ask the question that everyone here is so blindly overlooking.”

 

Jason stares back at his brother, whose hallowed expression leaves him feeling ill at ease.

 

“A year ago, you came to this palace and asked for our father’s blessing. You sought the power of the River Styx. Alecto and I led you there,” Zagreus continues, hardly taking in Jason’s discomfort. “You were to bring pride to the House of Hades. What do you do instead, halfling?”

 

Jason swallows hard. “I—”

 

“You make a mockery of our father’s realm. You become a joke. A healer. You toss aside a sword meant for our father’s Hero and become nothing.” Zagreus’s gaze narrows. “You’re no different than the other mortal fools who flirt with our father’s kingdom and denounce Death. So, what task up there is so important that you flatter us with your presence once more, little brother?”

 

He gives Jason a hardened stare, while Jason presses a hand firm against his own knuckles.

 

“That’s far too heavy of a topic for dinner conversation,” Hades mutters. He slices through his Lucky Charms breakfast bar neatly with his knife and fork. “Alecto has assured me that this visit is not for a quest. Isn’t that right, Jason?”

 

Jason peels his eyes away from his irate godly brother. He turns and faces his father instead.

 

“Go ahead,” Hades urges. “You won’t be silenced here.”

 

“No, Dad, It. Isn’t for a quest,” Jason agrees finally. “I’m…sorry it’s taken so long for me to come visit.”

 

“Nonsense,” Hades says. “Someone must have the pleasure of enjoying my beloved’s spring. Be sure to pack cereal for your trip back to the surface, my dear boy.”

 

“Your father is right, Zag.” Persephone rests a hand to her cheek and studies Jason. “The surface is far more interesting these days. Your brother knows how to summon armies. How to foster bloodshed. He’s made quite the stir on Olympus—Daddy is positively upset at his existence. If Jason’s become a healer, why shouldn’t he learn to lick his wounds between fights?”

 

“I. I don’t fight anymore, ma’am.” Jason fumbles with his own hands. “I’m—well. I’m not really a healer these days, either.”

 

Persephone’s chorale of his feats disappears with confusion. With disappointment that makes Jason feel worse. “Then what are you?”

 

“A good student,” Hades says. “And quite the artist, from the looks of it. You should draw the family portrait.”

 

“Whose family?” Zagreus grumbles.

 

“Dad,” Jason says, skirting his brother’s gaze. “I…have a request.”

 

“What a surprise,” Zagreus mutters.

 

“Hush now, Zagreus.” Hades sets down his knife and fork. And once again, he looks at Jason patiently. “Very well, my boy. Tell me your non-quest request.”

 

Jason sits taller in his seat. His stomach flops in anxious knots—worse than reorienting himself for the Underworld.

 

“I’m…ready to see him.” The words are hard at his throat, bubbling with apprehension. He curls his hands into his knees to keep them from shaking. “I want to see Luke.”

 

“Oh,” Hades replies. “Well, of course not.”

 

Jason stares back at his father—whose expression falls from benevolence to sternness quickly. Zagreus looks delightfully smug at the immediate refusal. Jason places his hands on the table, eyebrows furrowed. “But—Dad, I’m…not asking you to reverse the judgment on his life this time. I just—I need to see him.”

 

“That Hermes boy is not to be removed from the Fields of Eternal Punishment. It’s called Eternal for a reason,” Hades admonishes. “Removing him from his prison puts not only Olympus at risk, but my kingdom as well. Need I remind you about the state of the Doors this past spring?”

 

“No. I understand that risk. But—I’ll take fault for that if anything goes wrong,” Jason says.

 

Hades stares at him more disapprovingly than before. “This isn’t a matter of taking fault, my dear boy. Luke Castellan was judged accordingly. His time has passed.”

 

“But my time with him hasn’t,” Jason protests. He presses a hand to his chest. “Dad, I still—I. I need to talk to him.”

 

“You can hardly talk about him now.” Hades stares at him, deadpanned. “Nothing has changed since you were here last, my dear boy. He remains down there.”

 

“Dad—I’ve changed. I’m better off than I was a year ago. I don’t fight anymore, I—I go to school now. I have a life—one that I know is worth living,” Jason reasons. “You don’t understand how hard it was for me to get there.”

 

“No, my boy. I believe I do.”

 

Jason’s chest is tight as Hades stares back at him, unwavering. His father looks far more serious than before, his cereal bar pushed aside.

 

“Your brother’s words aside, I’m well aware of the revival you’ve had up there.” Hades studies him. “I know what a moment’s hesitation nearly cost you—cost all of Olympus--before you ended his life. I’ve never shamed you for the path you chose after your sixteenth birthday, my son. It’s treated you well.”

 

Hades sighs gloomily into the air.

 

“But I’m also aware your path has given you great pain, between the death of your friend and that boy. It’s a path that’s led to Tartarus for both my children,” he continues. “You take the judgment of my council to heart, Jason—something other mortals happily overlook. You’ve earned several lifetimes in Elysium already. This path is much better for you.”

 

His expression dims with discontent, and the sconces hiccup with his upset.

 

“I will not foolishly allow you to cause yourself more pain, so long as it is in my control.” Hades clasps his hands together, offering nothing in the way of sympathy for his son. “You are my rule-follower, Jason. I strongly recommend you keep it that way.”

 

Jason’s throat grows dry. “But—”

 

“Expressly forbidden,” Zagreus interjects, smugly placing a hand on the table. “Do try not to embarrass this family any more than you already have, halfling.”

 

Jason’s jaw tightens. He stands to his feet, palms flat on the surface of the table until he’s face to face with his older brother.

 

Zagreus stands as still as a corpse, hands crossed over his chest. He stares at Jason, chin held high, as if to rile him further.

 

“Go ahead,” Zagreus goads. “Prove me wrong.”

 

Jason—

 

—can’t.

 

He doesn’t reach for the sword at his back, nor does he ever want to give into that temptation. Jason’s far too familiar with this contempt from Mr. D—and he knows better than to give into that itch. Not again.

 

Instead, he sucks in a breath, and sits back down.

 

A silence follows, where Jason is forced to push around his Cap’n Crunch croutons and stir the Cinnamon Toast Crunch in his bowl.

 

Eventually, Hades asks, “So, what comes next after a mortal family dinner?”

 

*

 

Despite the tense family conversation, Hades urges Jason to retire to a bedroom. Jason isn’t kicked out for his absurd request or made to leave. In fact—there are silk pajamas neatly folded on his bed.

 

His bedroom in question is stark. There isn’t the homely feeling of his books lined up on his shelf, or pictures from the past summer. It’s barren of his own personality—something that Thalia insisted shine through when they moved in together. Even Cabin Thirteen felt more like a home. For how much inspiration Annabeth wanted to draw from the Underworld, she insisted he needed to feel comfortable, too.

 

He understands why his room is empty—for the exact reason Zagreus berated him during dinner.

 

Jason fell well past the Underworld into Tartarus long before coming back to visit his father. He feared it, after how his sixteenth birthday went. Even with Nico’s resolution in the spring, Jason avoided it. He…was happy, for the first time since Luke’s death.

 

He is happy, with the way things are, living with Thalia. All the pain and strife his father brought up ended with a life in New Rome with his big sister and friends.

 

His life didn’t end, he corrects himself. It’s still going. Jason doesn’t want to lose that.

 

Gods—trust his father to finally care about the things he was doing when Jason wanted nothing more than to be ignored. 

 

Jason lands in his bed and glares at the canopy. 

 

“Now what?” he mutters.

 

He’s…not sure what to make of Zagreus’s slights against him. Or his father’s claims to keep him safe. Jason doesn’t like the stark divide between himself and his family, after so long trying to avoid it. Loving Thalia has made him a better person for himself—for all that Dad actually let him protest. 

 

And then it hits him. 

 

Jason sits up from the bed—almost too fast. He cocks his head out the window and stares off into the vast distance of the Underworld. 

 

He’d have to break the rules. 

 

If Dad won’t let him summon Luke, then Jason needs to break into the Fields of Eternal Punishment.

Notes:

Thanks for reading!! I hope you guys are excited for the next chapter!! Ariihen made this cute drawing of Jason that kind of applies to the next few chapters. I can't guarantee an update next weekend with the holidays, but I can definitely tell you that it'll be a doozy. Stay safe!

Chapter 13: keep you safe

Summary:

Zagreus’s grip is tight on his shoulder, as though to hold him back. “Traveling to the Fields is easy. It’s leaving that will present a challenge.”

“Anything you recommend?” Jason asks.

“Yes,” Zagreus says. “Don’t be stupid enough to go in.”

Notes:

For the longest time I knew the vibe of this chapter was going to be Hello My Old Heart by the Oh Hellos. It was also going to be the chapter title! But -- Keep You Safe by Lindsey Ray also embodied everything I love about this chapter too. So -- two song recs for you guys. I hope you enjoy this one!

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

Frank and Hazel are waiting for them at the edge of the Zhang Estate when Nico and Bianca finally make it to Vancouver. The rain is even more unpleasant, dropping in fat strokes as though Jupiter’s taken notice of his three children in one spot. Frank opens Nico’s door, and Bianca bursts through hers to greet Hazel with a hug.

 

“Praetor di Angelo,” Frank greets. He stands at attention and with a one-handed salute and an umbrella in his other fist.

 

“At ease, soldier.” Nico tries his best to look serious for Frank’s sake. The son of Mars is quick to relax, while Nico takes notice of the Zhang household. “You two live here?”

 

“Just during the school year,” Hazel explains. She’s quick to hug her brother beneath the rain. “Frank inherited the house after his grandmother and mom. It seemed…wrong, just to abandon it.”

 

“Just the two of you? By yourself?” Nico asks, while Frank grows red.

 

“We—well, Hazel and I have separate rooms—”

 

“He’s teasing, Frank.” Hazel rolls her eyes and slaps Nico in the arm.

 

“Am I?” Nico asks—which further evokes his image of fear for the son of Mars.

 

They make their retreat to the kitchen, where Hazel prepares tea. Nico salivates at the smell of food on the stove, while Frank makes them dinner.

 

“You said there was rain in Camp Halfblood? The whole weekend?” Nico recalls.

 

Hazel nods. “The whole flight, and when we touched down at the airport. I didn’t mind too much—the fog kept us hidden from monsters.”

 

“And it’s been raining like this here, too,” Bianca says. “This past month?”

 

“Pretty much. Vancouver’s used to a rainy day, though.” Hazel distributes tea for all of them and settles at the head of the table. She makes a face. “But—to be honest, when it comes to Dad, I just—”

 

“Ignore it,” Bianca and Nico agree in unison.

 

Hazel smiles and blows a stray hair out of her face. In her thick sweater, it’s hard to think they’re a dinner away from leaving for a quest. “Duty calls, I guess.”

 

“And you’re okay with it?” Nico asks Frank.

 

Frank makes a face before distributing plates filled with gumbo. He settles beside his girlfriend. “To be frank—”

 

He pauses, his face shifting. Nico, Bianca, and Hazel bite back a laugh.

 

“To be me,” Frank continues anyway, “I don’t like the idea of sending my girlfriend off for a quest. But I know Hazel can stand her own ground.”

 

Across the table, Bianca throws her arms in the air and gestures towards Nico with her hands.

 

Nico rolls his eyes and ignores it. “What a perfectly reasonable way to react about your girlfriend going on a quest, Frank.”

 

“I. Thank you?” Frank’s eyebrows furrow together, trying to find the trick in Nico’s statement.

 

“What’s an unreasonable way to react?” Hazel asks.

 

“The way Bianca’s reacting,” Nico says.

 

“Gee, I dunno—maybe having a total freak out in front of the whole school.” Bianca glares at Nico defiantly.

 

Hazel and Frank stare at each other curiously. 

 

“Jason didn’t take your departure too well then?” Hazel guesses—which is when Nico chokes on a piece of shrimp.

 

It takes Nico a moment to catch his breath, while Bianca triumphantly throws her hands in the air.

 

“Who said anything about Jason?” Nico wheezes, his fist pound his chest.

 

All the while, Hazel stares at him without batting an eye. She arches an eyebrow instead. “Well—because he likes you.”

 

Nico’ s face turns scarlet.

 

“Jason hugged Nico and told him he smells nice,” Bianca interjects. She looks over to Frank and taps him repeatedly on the arm. “Frank, do you think Hazel smells nice?”

 

Frank stares at Bianca, once again looking at loss over a trick question. “I—”

 

“And you like her,” Bianca continues. “I bet you’ll hug her before we leave.”

 

“And kiss,” Hazel assures.

 

Kiss?” Nico wheezes again, which makes the son of Mars shrink in his seat. He reaches out and grabs Bianca. “Stop. I already told you that I was using this quest to get my mind off Jason.”

 

“Wait—the two of you actually got together?” Hazel turns in surprise and stares at Nico.

 

At this point, Nico’s expression sours. He pushes his spoon across the plate of gumbo, while Bianca (surprisingly) backs down.

 

“I told Jason that I liked him, and he told me that he wasn’t there yet.” Slowly, he turns his head to Bianca and stares at her in irritation. “Happy?”

 

Bianca’s demeanor shifts, not nearly as hasty as before. Hazel, on the other hand, stares at them in surprise.

 

“Really?” she asks. “But—”

 

“Yes,” Nico cuts her off, before he has to endure another hour of prodding. The frustration evidently shows on his face as Hazel soaks in his words. There’s a burning silence that passes between all four of them—one that Nico hates. “That was over a month ago, and now I’m trying to move on. So, I would appreciate it if you’d listen to me for once, Bianca.”

 

“But—we do homework together every Tuesday.” Hazel’s eyebrows furrow together. “You haven’t mentioned it.”

 

“I didn’t want you to worry.” Nico feels a pang of guilt. “This…felt more like an in-person kind of thing to say.”

 

Nico looks back at her, not necessarily prodding for a response. He’s had this conversation so many times—between Reyna, Percy, Thalia, and Bianca—that the look of pity just feels like his signature now.

 

Hazel doesn’t look too happy. But she nods. “I appreciate the honesty.”

 

She doesn’t pry any further. Nico gives a withering look to Bianca—and the conversation falls to a natural conclusion.

 

A silence follows, where no one speaks.

 

Eventually, Frank clears his throat. “Could you pass the salt, Nico?”

 

*

 

Jason waits until the dead of night, when nothing but eerie green sconces light the palace halls. He stares out his window into the deep abyss of the Underworld and tries to draw a map in his head.

 

The River Styx is a starch burn at the back of his neck. Jason knows his mother is in the Fields of Asphodel—he’s even visited her soul on more than occasion. For as rich and powerful as she was in her life, Beryl was a hollow shell now, wandering and withering in nothingness. He’s…avoided going to Elysium plenty, knowing he doesn’t deserve to be in the presence of the many other demigods that passed for him to succeed in slaying Kronos.

 

Finding Luke’s soul in the Fields of Eternal Punishment isn’t easy. It’s…been a long time since Jason’s looked. He remembers the rage of Luke’s soul. The bitter loathing of Olympus, and the hatred against Hermes, the Messenger God.

 

With Kronos, it was arrogant and deafening, festering the hate that Luke held. The day Jason couldn’t separate one from the other was a painful one.

 

“Got it,” he whispers.

 

Searching for Luke’s soul amongst the noise of fear and blood curdling screams makes Jason’s own anxiety spike. (He’s thankful to find only Luke’s.)

 

It’s a sucker punch to the stomach that hits Jason past the Curse. Jason’s hands grip the edge of the windowsill, and he locks onto the bitter darkness of Luke’s soul. He secures his backpack over his shoulders.

 

Shadows swirl at his feet, and he falls—

 

WOOOOOOOSH

 

“Whoa!”

 

—backwards.

 

Jason’s shadow is yanked from beneath his feet, and he’s dragged through the darkness. An unnatural wind blows against his face, his heart pounding in his chest until he feels like he can’t catch up. He erupts from the darkness and lands with his face in the dirt.

 

Greenery fills his vision, and he’s suddenly surrounded with ornate flowers and luscious fruit. Warmth touches him from all sides, with beautiful roses and orchids.

 

“Clever boy,” he hears. Persephone stares at him from the inside of a gazebo wrapped in floral garland, impressed. “You were planning to go to the Fields, were you?”

 

“I.” Jason’s cheeks grow hot. He pushes off the ground. Suddenly his plan washes down the drain, while the Queen of the Underworld catches him red-handed. “How did—?”

 

“The shadows gave you away. You’re lucky I found you before your father did.” Persephone stares at him from her seat, unbothered.

 

It takes a moment, but Jason realizes there’s no anger in her tone. He doesn’t often interact with his stepmother—in the Underworld or otherwise. She’s a beautiful, poised goddess with multi-colored eyes painted in the colors of spring. Those hues dance around in her long, smoky dress, like the souls that accompany his father’s robes.

 

For how delicate as she looks, there’s an eerie coldness in her flesh that only the Underworld brings. Her lips are as red as a rose—but also as rich as blood. Much like her son, skulls and spikes adorn her dress to show her two realms of power—the life of spring and summer, and the Iron Throne of the Queen.

 

Persephone looks at him with much less derision than her son. “Charmed?”

 

“Confused,” Jason admits. He tries to stand his ground—for what little good it did him moments ago when he tried to shadowtravel. All the while, she doesn’t bat an eye. Jason swallows hard. “I…wasn’t—”

 

Well, he absolutely was about to sneak into the Fields.

 

Persephone notices his pause. “Not a very good liar, are you?”

 

Jason shifts uncomfortably at the foot of the gazebo. “I…no. Not really.”

 

“What would you say If I were your father, catching you in such a state?” Persephone asks next. “After he expressly forbade it?”

 

Jason frowns. But unlike the dining room, he stands his ground. “I deserve to see him.”

 

“Why?” she asks. “To change the fate of an undeserving criminal?”

 

“So I can finally forget about him.” Jason’s hands coiling into fists at his side. “My…whole life was wrapped around this prophecy, Queen Persephone. My loved ones were tangled in it before I could even try to protect him, and he died. When…that happened, I was so busy trying to help other people move on that I. I never got that myself. I never got that closure.”

 

Persephone takes in the weight of his words without a twist in her expression.

 

Jason’s stomach turns into knots. “I’m…sorry, to go against my dad’s wishes, but I can’t—”

 

“Very well,” Persephone says finally.

 

He stares back at her, dumbfounded. Persephone continues anyway.

 

“I advise against using the shadows. My husband will know instantly where you are, and will not hesitate to bring you back,” she says. “You will want to take the long path. It shouldn’t be but half a day’s journey. Getting to the Fields is the easy part. Hades and I love to visit during our morning stroll.”

 

She carries on the conversation as though talking about the weather. For Jason, she might as well be.

 

“But,” he says eventually, “I. I thought—Dad said it was against the rules.”

 

Persephone scoffs. Something about it reminds Jason of Nico. “If I listened to my mother when she spouted rules, Jason Grace, my kingdom wouldn’t exist.”

 

Her tone reminds Jason of Hera—the Queen of the Sky and all of Olympus. In his father’s realm, the world is different. Persephone’s tone is different from dinner. Jason’s studied the story of his father’s marriage to Persephone many times, but the change of Persephone’s pitch sheds a different light.

 

For as cold as Persephone appears as the Iron Queen, there’s a depth in the way her demeanor shifts. Jason can’t tell if it’s as Queen of the Underworld or as Goddess of the Seasons.

 

“My husband does not leave his kingdom often. Only on rare occasion—such as with your dreadful mother. He’s set in his ways. Death is nothing if not final and absolute. It does not change,” Persephone says. “Yet the seasons are ever-changing. A seedling in the early spring is the sunflower you find at the end of the summer. Mortals are the same. You cannot stay stagnant in your grief.”

 

“What if my dad finds out?”

 

Persephone waves her hand dismissively. “Just don’t get caught.”

 

“I.” A lump swells in Jason’s throat. “Queen Persephone, thank you.”

 

She smiles at him warmly. To any other demigod, Jason thinks it would be chilling.

 

“Now,” she says, “you will need a guide.”

 

She waves her hand gently.

 

WOOOSH!

 

A shadow swells beside Jason, and Zagreus pops out of the ground like a daisy.

 

“What on—” Zagreus lands more eloquently, his eyes roaming about the garden. His gaze locks onto Jason—then to Persephone. A scowl mars his lips. “Mother.

 

“Zagreus,” Persephone greets. “You will take your brother to the Fields of Punishment.”

 

Again—Zagreus’s gaze jolts to Jason, who thinks better than to wave. Zagreus’s anger comes in a terrifying simmer, rather than hot rage. “I recall Father saying it was—”

 

“Just don’t get caught,” Persephone reiterates.

 

Mother, this is absurd,” Zagreus snaps. “There is no reason for him to be down there. Who are we to just let him come and go as he pleases—”

 

“I don’t care,” Persephone interrupts.

 

“I—” Jason raises his hand to cut the tension between mother and son. “—can just get to the Fields myself. I don’t mind.”

 

Zagreus sneers at him. “Good. Let him fend for himself for once.”

 

Jason feels a knot coil in his chest. He frowns, hands curling into fists. “I’ve fended for myself plenty.”

 

“You were about to expose yourself to your father pointblank,” Persephone refutes. “Zagreus knows the ins and outs of the Underworld better than any mortal. You will arrive swiftly and unnoticed by my husband.”

 

A rigid stare passes between Persephone and Zagreus. He crosses his arms over his chiton, lips pressed into a stern frown.

 

Persephone’s cold demeanor is even more chilling.

 

Jason raises his hand once more. “I can—”

 

“No,” they both say.

 

“I had plans,” Zagreus protests.

 

“Splendid. You can work on your silly mystery novel and fuck my alcoholic brother after you take care of yours.”

 

Zagreus makes a noise. “I’m not—”

 

“Wait—” Jason interjects before he can help himself. He looks at Zagreus, speechless. “You and Mr. D?”

 

His godly brother gives him another, incinerating look that makes Jason want to shrink. Instead, Persephone takes reign of the conversation.

 

“Your father may not notice you sneaking out of the Underworld, but my roots see all.” Persephone waves her hand once more. “Now, go.”

 

*

 

A stroll to the Fields of Eternal Punishment by himself sounds way less scary than going with an angry Zagreus. Before they can put up another protest, Persephone spits them out in front of the palace gates. Zagreus swears loudly into the dark air, while Jason tries to reorient himself.

 

Jason reequips his sword and straps on his backpack. He looks down to Zagreus’s own blade. “You—”

 

Zagreus snatches his sword from the ground and starts walking.

 

It takes a moment, but Jason eventually follows. “Thank you, for—”

 

“If you value the possibility of ever getting reborn,” Zagreus snarls, “then you will not talk to me.”

 

Jason swallows hard.

 

They walk in silence. It’s a stark difference from last summer when Zagreus treated guiding Jason to the River Styx like being handed a gift. Zagreus doesn’t look at him. He doesn’t smile, nor does he care in the slightest of Jason’s existence.

 

Jason doesn’t blame him. Every word is true. He hasn’t bothered visiting the Underworld since last summer out of fear and shame. There was frustration when all Zeus could speak of was how Bianca should’ve been the child of prophecy, and when Hades gifted Jason with only a cupcake. Jason feared his powers and wanted to separate himself from the gruesome air of his father’s name. He wanted to be Jason Grace without being a son of Hades.

 

It's…only recently that he’s been able to wear his lineage proudly. And to say it out loud.

 

“I’m sorry that I’ve been radio silent since last year,” Jason says aloud, after the first mile. “I…that was bad of me. After everything that happened with the war—with my friends and Luke, I...”

 

Lost himself in his own guilt. He couldn’t separate himself from the bloody events of his own anger and it scared him.

 

“I wasn’t sure how I could be a son of Hades and still be myself. I felt like I could only be one or the other,” Jason confesses. He gives his own palm a firm squeeze. “I guess…I got lost. And I just. If I couldn’t figure that out, then I didn’t think I deserved to show my face to Dad. To this family. I just—”

 

He pauses and takes a breath.

 

“I…don’t think I can ever be proud of what happened on that battlefield,” Jason says. He feels his eyes grow warm and wet. “But. I know that what happened is because of the gifts that Dad’s given me. And the Curse. And I just—I feel like I’m in a constant battle with myself to figure out what the right answer is.”

 

Zagreus doesn’t respond.

 

“Maybe…putting down the sword and not fighting anymore isn’t the right answer,” Jason continues, “but it’s the first time I’ve ever felt like me in a long time.”

 

Again, Zagreus doesn’t answer him.

 

They continue past the edge of the palace. The architecture reminds Jason of Olympus: immaculate walls, garnished with vines from his stepmother’s rule. Light blooms in small crevasses, welcomed kindly into the darkness without being invasive. Without the sky, there’s a dark mist overhead that reminds Jason of Calamity Ganon and Hyrule Castle.

 

Jason talks when he feels awkward again. “Nico says—”

 

“For the love of Elysium,” Zagreus bemoans. He throws his arms in the air. “I didn’t know your vocabulary was so large.

 

Jason halts. He stops at the foot of a yellowed hill, while Zagreus’s gaze darts to him in anger. “Oh. Um—”

 

Zagreus glares at him hostilely once more.

 

“—we can talk about something else,” Jason says finally. “You…and Mr. D are dating?”

 

Zagreus keeps walking. Jason is quick to trot after him.

 

“I didn’t know that you were visiting Halfblood,” Jason continues. “I mean—if I’d known that, I would’ve said hi.”

 

He’s met with an unruly scowl from his godly brother. 

 

“Right,” Jason realizes. “You probably didn’t want to say hi to me when you and Mr. D are, um…” 

 

He trails off, ears red. 

 

“Well, he and I saw each other this past weekend,” Jason says. “He…compared me to white wine and called me boring.” 

 

“You’re doing a fantastic job selling yourself, halfling,” Zagreus grumbles. 

 

Jason stops in his tracks. Zagreus manages to swiftly glide yards away before the God of Rebirth finally turns around and stares at him, unsurprised. 

 

“Finally going to prove me right?” Zagreus rouses. 

 

“I don’t know what to say to you,” Jason admits, his own voice filling with annoyance. “You don't have to accept my apology, but I shouldn’t have to feel bad for not living up to your expectations. To anyone’s expectations.” 

 

“Forgive me if I’m having a hard time distinguishing this bumbling fool with the proud warrior that came to Father’s throne in the heat of summer,” Zagreus berates. He peers at Jason once more, and his stoic expression changes into disbelief. “You expect me to believe you’ve chosen this life of peace on your own? The mortal boy who could summon undead armies and wield any weapon like a great hunter? Now you’re reduced to refrigerator art and report cards.” 

 

Jason stares back at him, gaze hard. “I wasn’t happy back then, Zagreus.” 

 

The sentence hurts as it makes it past his mouth.

 

“Your mother is the goddess of seasons,” Jason reasons. “She said that people can’t stay stagnant in their grief. And—Dad told me that my mom and your mom loved all of him. Not just for the riches or death. Before he told me that, I was just…I was scrambling.

 

Scrambling for solace. For any part of his life that he could get back.

 

“You’re a disgrace,” Zagreus admonishes.

 

“No, I’m finally myself.” Jason glares at his godly brother. “As much as you’re the god of rebirth and the hunt, and—mystery novels. You’re just jealous that Mom and Dad respect that.”

 

Zagreus stares at him, disgruntled—and Jason realizes his slip up.

 

Your mom and our dad,” Jason corrects, his face glowing. “I—oh. I need to call Thalia.”

 

“Thalia?” Zagreus repeats.

 

“She asked me to her know when I got here.” Jason rustles through his pocket until he finds a drachma. He fishes out a prism and flashlight from his backpack—and some other stuff he’d forgotten about. “Do you want a sandwich?”

 

Zagreus stares at him, at a loss. “A sandwich?”

 

“Yeah—I made them myself. I put some dill relish in the mayo.” Jason wrinkles his nose and hands his brother one of the sandwich bags. “I’m, um, not the biggest fan of crust. I hope you don’t mind.”

 

His brother takes the bag speechlessly, while Jason begins setting up his IM. “What on Asphodel are you doing?”

 

“The Underworld doesn’t produce natural light outside the palace. This is the only way I can make a rainbow and call my sister. Our sister,” Jason corrects. He drops to his knees and aligns everything perfectly. Behind him, he hears the faintest utterance.

 

“…sn’t like crust and managed to find a way around an Iris Message…”

 

“What was that?”

 

“Nothing,” Zagreus grumbles. He’s quick to unravel the sandwich bag.

 

Jason brushes off his godly brother’s comment. Instead, he crosses his legs and summons his sister.

 

“Jace!” Thalia’s vibrant voice fills the field. Then she freezes. “Where the hell are you?”

 

Jason shifts awkwardly. He clears his throat. “Funny you should mention that.”

 

“Is that Zag behind you?” Thalia asks. “Is he eating a sandwich?”

 

Over his shoulder, Jason sees Zagreus cross-legged and sulkily eating a sandwich from yards away. Zagreus waves angrily.

 

“I,” Jason starts. Coughs. “I’m on my way to the Fields of Punishment, Thal.”

 

His sister is deathly silent for all but a minute. Then she slams her hands on whatever surface is on her side of the call. “What the fuck, Jace—?!”

 

“I have a good reason,” he says quickly. “I’m doing it for Nico, Thalia. I—I really like him.”

 

“And you had to go to the Fields to prove that?” Thalia demands. She halts and rubs her temples. “Okay, wait. You like Nico now.”

 

Jason’s chest flutters. “Yes.”

 

“And you’re going to the Fields for what?” Thalia asks. “Validation? Stupidity?”

 

“Closure,” Jason corrects—though he feels more doubtful than when he had the conversation with Persephone.

 

“I expressly forbade it,” Zagreus interjects from behind him. Jason tries his best to push their godly brother out of view. He catches a glance of Zagreus licking dressing off his fingers.

 

Dad expressly forbade it,” Jason corrects. “And I—I took a page out of your book. Zagreus is helping me sneak into the Fields.”

 

This time, Thalia’s anger lessens. “You?”

 

“Me,” Jason confirms dreadfully.

 

“And you?” The force of Thalia’s irritation is enough to move the IM from Jason’s face to Zagreus’s, who startles.

 

“Against my will,” Zagreus corrects with disdain—though he eyes Jason’s second sandwich bag.

 

Thalia is quiet for a long time. Then—“Baby brother, you have my blessing to break as many rules as you like.”

 

Jason sighs in relief.

 

Zag, if my brother does not come back to me alive, then I will rip out your scrotum and use it as a muffler at my next screamo concert,” Thalia says next—with an icy force that rivals the queen. “Don’t be a dick to Jason. Understood?”

 

Jason tries his best not to wince.

 

Zagreus doesn’t flinch—but his eyes narrow with aggravating disdain. Then, he nods. “Understood.”

 

The cloud moves back to Jason, with a fizzle of anger in between the mist. Thalia’s own gaze locks onto Jason. “We’ll discuss your punishment when you get home.

 

“I—understood.” Jason swallows hard.

 

“And Jace?”

 

“Yes?”

 

“I hope you find what you’re looking for.” The corners of her lips lift into a smile. If she were in front of him, Jason’s sure he’d receive a kiss to the cheek. “Good luck.

 

She disappears into a fizzle without another word.

 

*

 

They make it past Elysium. The light beyond the gate is warm and inviting, glowing against Jason’s skin with only a feeling of happiness. A woman at the gate lifts her hand in a gentle wave. She’s delicate in nature, with an enticing smile that makes him want to stop, too.  

 

“Not now, Macaria,” Zagreus calls to her. He snatches Jason by the arm and marches them further south.

 

“I haven’t met her yet,” Jason notes.

 

“Annoying lot,” Zagreus grumbles. “The both of you.”

 

Jason doesn’t know how long he gets dragged. As light begins to fade away, they enter the Fields of Asphodel, where the hues of color fade into gray. The stagnant noise of the Underworld becomes wailing, distraught spirits that aimlessly part as Jason and Zagreus trudge forward.

 

He doesn’t look for his mother. The last time Jason tried to find her in the masses of mindless souls, she stared right through him as though he was a fellow ghost. Beryl Grace had long forgotten him in life to ever remember him in death.

 

But—for the many souls who were not good enough for Elysium, Asphodel is much longer. Jason turns to his stoic brother and decides to try his luck again.

 

“You and Thalia get along well,” he says humbly. “Well—except for the scrotum part.”

 

Zagreus eyes him tiredly. “Unlike you, she knows herself. She never once doubted her place as our father’s daughter.”

 

Jason frowns. “Do…you have a Roman equivalent?”

 

For some reason, that question is enough to halt Zagreus’s steps. His eyes glitter with something other than disdain, for once. “I do not. Rebirth needs no other form.”

 

“But you met Thalia,” Jason continues, “before the Gods said the Greeks and Romans could interact. You broke the rules.”

 

Zagreus eyes him suspiciously. “What’s your point?”

 

“Well—I’m breaking the rules now. That’s a little less like me and more like her.” Jason asks. “That’s good, right?”

 

“That’s not—” Zagreus whirls around hastily, his lips stretching into a frown. “—Father expressly—”

 

“Would Thalia listen to Dad?”

 

Zagreus pauses. He makes a sound and storms off. Jason trots off after him, and the kingdom becomes smaller in the distance.

 

“Persephone said you wrote novels,” Jason says, once Zagreus’s steam settles. “Do you—um. Have a favorite genre?”

 

His brother’s eyes dart to him threateningly.

 

“Right. Mysteries.” Jason clears his throat and pads behind Zagreus’s steps. “Well—do you like to write them more? Or read them? Do you like to listen to them?”

 

“I have all the literary greats at my disposal,” Zagreus mutters. “An annoying bunch. Never meet a writer. They’ll vainly gush over their work of art and ruin it for the rest of you. Don’t even get me started on Hollywood directors. Everything they do is so predictable.

 

“That’s…nice,” Jason says, landing on the best word he can find. “What about podcasts?”

 

Zagreus makes a face. “What on Asphodel is a podcast?”

 

“Oh—they’re like TV for your ears,” Jason says. He mimes earbuds in his ears. “There aren’t any visual cues—just audio ones. You kind of have to place everything in your head yourself.”

 

“Audio cues,” Zagreus repeats.

 

“I like to listen to them on my runs. If you ever want to try something different, I think there’s a genre for that kind of stuff. Mysteries, I mean.” Jason rubs his forehead. “True crime?”

 

Again, Zagreus doesn’t look nearly as annoyed as before. In fact, he seems to genuinely debate it.

 

“I…think it’s cool that you’re passionate about stuff like that,” Jason continues. “It…took me a while figure out that I could do that too. I mean—I’ve been working in my baking. I’m getting good at making cannolis. I’m not very good at drawing yet, but Thalia took Professor Kronk’s class, and it’s cool to share that with her. I’m.”

 

He stops—and Zagreus shockingly stops with him.

 

“I’m sorry that I didn’t live up to everything you hoped I could be,” Jason says, once he finds the words. “But I. I really need to spend some time figuring out what I want to live up to.”

 

He unhooks the sword strapped to his back. Jason traces the flowers carved into the leather sheath, and gently thumbs the skull pollum. He holds the sword out in front of him.

 

“What are you doing?” Zagreus asks.

 

“Give it to the next Child of Hades. One who can fight in Dad’s name.” Jason curls his hand across the blade—but for how long it’s been since he’s wielded it, his hands still tremble.

 

Zagreus pushes the sword back to him. “This sword isn’t just to fight in Father’s name. It’s meant to protect you. Keep it.”

 

Jason stares at him in confusion.

 

“Use it as a hunting knife. Carve some turkey breast for your next sandwich. I don’t care,” Zagreus grumbles. “Just don’t shove it in an ill-forgotten trunk and forget about it until some other halfblood brings it to your attention again.”

 

Jason stares at his godly brother in confusion. It finally hits him. “Wait—were you just mad that I—I left it at camp—?”

 

No,” Zagreus snaps. “Either way, you may need it for the next leg of your quest. We’re here.”

 

He gestures off into the distance, and Jason’s gaze follows.

 

At the foot of the hill begins the Fields of Eternal Punishment.

 

*

 

Jason straps the sword to his back. He stares out into the unassuming field. Off in the distance, he can see a large boulder slowly being pushed up the slope of a mountain. There’s a modest building with tantalizing smells that can be picked up from miles away. There isn’t a gate, like there is for Elysium. Anyone could walk into the Fields of Eternal Punishment. Like Persephone mentioned earlier—it’s a half day’s walk and a simple stroll.

 

 “That’s…too easy,” Jason remarks.

 

Zagreus’s grip is tight on his shoulder, as though to hold him back. “Traveling to the Fields is easy. It’s leaving that will present a challenge.”

 

“Anything you recommend?” Jason asks.

 

“Yes,” Zagreus says. “Don’t be stupid enough to go in.”

 

Jason resists the urge to roll his eyes. Instead, he turns around and meets his brother’s gaze. “I can feel him from here. I’ll be fine.”

 

Zagreus places his second hand on Jason’s other shoulder, the gesture reminiscent to Thalia before he left. “Go straight to the Hermes boy, little brother. Don’t get distracted. Once you leave, retrace your steps. Follow my soul back once you’re done.”

 

“You’re going to wait here?” Jason stares at his godly brother in surprise. And then, he repeats—“Little brother?”

 

“You seem to forget that Father will kill both of us if you don’t make it back alive,” Zagreus admonishes. There’s a halting rhythm to his hands—before he taps the pollum of Jason’s sword.

 

Against his back, the sword burns with an icy heat. Jason yelps.

 

“Stay safe,” Zagreus says. “This will be your compass out, should you not be able to sense me on your own.”

 

Jason’s fingers brush past the back of his neck slowly—then rest at the pollum of his sword. As he takes a step back, Jason pauses. He throws his arms around Zagreus in a warm hug. Zagreus grumbles something angrily under his breath—then slowly hugs him back.

 

“Thanks,” Jason whispers softly.

 

Then—without remorse, Jason walks into the Fields.

 

*

 

The back of Jason’s neck tingles the further he’s in the Fields of Eternal Punishment. He keeps his gaze forward, concentrated on the tartness of Luke’s soul. As he trudges in the thick of the field, he hears Sisyphus ambling uphill, pushing a giant boulder with all his might. Eagles echo off in the distance, and Jason hears a man crying in agony.

 

There are other prisoners Jason isn’t as familiar with. The scent of smoldering debris fills his nostrils from afar—from a hated mortal burning alive in a building. He passes a row of nooses, with mortals who beg him to stop and help.

 

Jason’s blood curdles with each shriek. It’s nauseating to move forward.

 

He makes the mistake of getting distracted.

 

“HELP!” he hears—the cry of a child. “HELP!”

 

Jason turns around.

 

“It’s okay sweetie.” His mother’s voice chimes in a minor chord. Beryl Grace sits in the driver’s seat of a car, her pale ringlets gnarled and frazzled around her face. Her makeup is nothing past a smear on her face, her lips wrinkled with a scowl. She’s dressed to the nines in a sparkly, elegant gown—but it’s desaturated as she steers in their measly sedan.

 

Jason—finds himself at age two, strapped into the front seat of a car with the baby seat buckle uncomfortably pinching at his leg.

 

He squirms—but the more he writhes, the more it hurts.

 

“Mommy,” he hears little Jason say. “Mommy, hurt—”

 

“…don’t think Beryl Grace is good enough to be the on red carpet anymore—they’ll regret the day they turned me away,” Beryl grumbles. She reaches for a large bottle nestled in her cupholder, and the stench of liquor makes little Jason’s eyes tear up. “Darling—”

 

The car jerks, as Beryl turns to face him.

 

“—we’ll be home soon enough, I’ll have the au pair put you down,” Beryl says. She takes another swig of her drink—and Jason knows he doesn’t like it.

 

“Mommy,” Little Jason whines, his voice nothing above a whisper. It never could be when Beryl liked to hear herself talk. “Mommy, I hurt—”

 

“Jason—” Beryl’s voice is harsh, and she whips her head around. “I told you to be qui—”

 

CRAAAAAAAAAAAAASH

 

The car reverberates with a sickening SLAM. Little Jason’s head bobs uncontrollably as the car collides into a tree. He squeezes his eyes shut and wails, fear consuming him. The car shrieks and glass shatters around him. Something hard hits him in the head—the bottle from his mother’s hand, and he cries once more.

 

With tiny fists, little Jason cradles his head and sobs.

 

As the dust settles, he looks around—and finds nothing but a bloody leg past the dashboard of the car.

 

“Mommy?” Little Jason asks once more, his voice hoarse. He reaches out—

 

—to touch the bloody body of Silena Beauregard.

 

Clarisse LaRue is sobbing over the ill-fitted armor.

 

Sixteen-year-old Jason has moved past the crowd. He drops to his knees to take in the sight of the Aphrodite Cabin’s camp counselor, whose pulse is weak in his ears—and his heart grows cold as he sees the scythe charm hanging at her wrist.

 

“I’m sorry,” Silena whispers. It’s deaf compared to Clarisse’s tears—but it’s all Jason hears. Tears swell at the corners of her sapphire eyes—and the blood at her chest is ripe.

 

Even at death, she stares at him in a way he’s hated since Luke left Camp Halfblood. The one that can see all the broken pieces of his heart.

 

“I didn’t want to go this far,” she says with a shaky breath. “It’s just, Luke—he was just so charming—and then he. He killed Charlie…

 

Luke fooled her too.

 

Present Day Jason can feel the rage burning from back then. The anger—and the poisoning hate.

 

“Don’t do it,” he tries to say. Warns. Begs. “Don’t do it—”

 

But much like the rest of his life, sixteen-year-old Jason was silenced—this time by his own fury. Sixteen-year-old Jason holds Silena’s hand, expression hard, as Clarisse continues to bury herself into the dying daughter of Aphrodite with a love too raw for this world.

 

“She died a hero,” Clarisse shouts to the crowd that lingers. She scowls at everyone who stares at her swollen tears, Silena’s hand at her heart. “You understand me?! A hero.

 

“She’s not done,” Sixteen-year-old Jason says in a voice more chilling than death. Her blood stains his hands, and he stands taut at his feet.

 

Jason is angry, on the eve of his sixteenth birthday. Stupidly, stupidly angry—that he’s not the only one that fell for Luke’s charm. That he believed so hard that Luke could be redeemed, and they could put all of this behind them.

 

Clarisse makes a fearful sound—scared, for once in her life—as Silena suddenly jolts into the air with an eerie creak of her armor. “S-Silena—?”

 

“You want to avenge Beck?” Sixteen-year-old Jason asks angrily. Demands.

 

Silena Beauregard’s silhouette is terrifyingly ugly. Red bleeds between the creases of her armor. There’s no soul behind her blue eyes—only a hollow shell of a person, whose heart shattered the moment Charles Beckendorf died—but even Present Day Jason can see fear. The fear of a person who hasn’t fully died but is no longer alive.

 

“You fight,” Sixteen-year-old Jason snarls. “Instead of hiding like a coward.

 

There’s a shriek amidst the crowd. The creak of bloody armor and bones snapping back in place. Bodies sprout into the air of fallen comrades—and the campers around them no longer look like soldiers. They’re terrified children, watching their brother or sister resurrect in the worst way possible.

 

Jason,” Annabeth says—something that sixteen-year-old Jason doesn’t hear. Her voice is small, eyes wide with worried tears.

 

But the anger is pulsing through Jason harder than his own heartbeat.

 

“We’re not done,” Sixteen-year-old Jason snarls. He holds the stygian iron of his brother’s sword, the skull pollum directed at the ground to raise the rest of the fallen. “Not until I kill him.”

 

Each pulse of fury brings another camper to life. Castor snaps his head back on his shoulders. Michael Yew strings his bow with his teeth. And those—stuck at the precipice, bleed tears and cry blood. He orders them to charge towards the Empire State Building—towards Olympus—

 

But they don’t.

 

Silena Beauregard latches onto Jason’s neck from behind, and Present Day Jason gasps.

 

“What—” Jason hears his voice—his own, present voice—“are you doing—”

 

Michael Yew latches onto Jason’s arm in envy, the blood pouring out his shoulder socket. Lee Fletcher groans and drags Jason by his feet.

 

Jason looks down, to catch himself—and only sees blood.

 

A sea of it.

 

Not done, Silena hisses in his ear. Not done. Not done. Not done

 

Kill him, Michael and Lee chant. Kill him. Kill him. Killhim.

 

“Stop,” Jason hears himself again. “Don’t—”

 

A hand slams into his mouth, and the voices grow louder.

 

Kill him. NOT DONE. Kill him. KILLHIM—NOT DONE—CHOICE—

 

“HE HAD A CHOICE!” Annabeth shrieks in his ears.

 

The ground beneath Jason’s feet becomes an ocean of blood—

 

HAD A CHOICE. HAD A CHOICE. HAD A CHOICE.

 

WE HAD A CHOICE.

 

Silena wails in his ears in bitter agony. Michael Yew climbs Jason’s body, his bloody teeth chattering at the nape of Jason’s neck, and Lee Fletcher drags him, until Jason pummels into the bloody ocean, gasping for air. They all cry in curdling pain—and it’s the sound Jason hears when he prolonged their path to peace in Elysium.

 

When he demanded they fight his fight.

 

Jason sobs. He stares at his sword, haphazardly flung across the ground, and scrambles to pick it up—

 

—he picks up the celestial bronze knife, and he’s soaked head to toe in everyone else’s blood but his own. Annabeth stares at him in horror. His palms shake—riddled with the reality of death in front of him and around him.

 

They had a choice. Jason took it from them—the way it was taken from him, the moment his mom crashed the car—the moment he pulled her attention away, begging for someone to hear him and almost killing them both—

 

“You haven’t slept,” he suddenly hears. A new voice.

 

Nico’s voice.

 

*

 

Jason remembers looking up from the berth in Thalia’s Cabin on the Argo II. Black painted the walls, and posters lined each corner in a way that was unfamiliar to Jason back then. A lamp rested in the corner—a skull encrusted with jewels that seemed to laugh at Jason’s guilt. His discomfort.

 

Nico had visited him that night—the one right after Eros. After spending the day in a cave letting those thoughts churn into the bitter wine that ruined Jason’s life. There’d been a shift in Nico’s tone since Jason let someone else in. A change in perspective and the way Nico looked at him.

 

“You haven’t slept,” Jason hears again from the cabin door. Nico’s voice was calm across the room. “Why?”

 

Jason looks at him now as a third party—at the concern that brimmed in the hue of Nico’s brilliant eyes, while the Jason laying in the berth was still trying not to drown in his own guilt.

 

“Jason,” Nico said. There was a gentle urging in his voice.

 

“Nightmares,” Jason hears his younger self saying. A cry for help he never knew he deserved—one that still bled with shame.

 

He was weak back then. The stench of blood would never leave him—will never leave him.

 

But—neither did Nico.

 

Nico settled into the shag carpet beside Jason’s berth. He fell into Jason’s comfort without hesitation. “You know what helps me with my nightmares from the first war?”

 

“What?” Jason asked—asks in unison, with his own voice in present day.

 

“I talk about them,” Nico said. “So talk.”

 

A tone of regality swelled his voice—of a stern prince from the King and Queen of the Heavens—sewn with a gentle love that was relearned from Thalia. Jason had talked that day for the first time in sixteen years. About Luke and Bianca—and while Jason had a long way to go, no one had let him get there yet with his own emotions.

 

Here, accepting his own grief and hate.

 

Here, with Nico.

 

The words didn’t come easily—not for a moment he tried so desperately to forget, but—

 

Nico reached out every night with a hand on Jason’s wrist, so Jason didn’t get lost in his own head. Across the berth with a tether that didn’t choke him. That didn’t silence him. 

 

“It’s okay, you know,” Nico murmured softly. “You don’t need to talk about everything right away. Just remember that you’re allowed to feel, Jason. Just like everyone else.” 

 

Jason was allowed to love and hate. Allowed to feel. 

 

The Jason from back then had stared at Nico with each passing evening, searching for a bitter truth in Nico’s guidance. Everything he’d ever learned—ever found relief in from Camp Halfblood, came with the caveat that his sixteenth birthday would undo the world. Jason was a son of Hades that should be able to stand up to the ghosts of his past—because those would be far more important to save his sister in Tartarus than accepting how scared he was. 

 

But—that Jason also wanted to believe Nico. Believe that maybe he did deserve every ounce of emotion that Nico said he did.

 

“Okay,” Jason—that Jason—murmured. 

 

Eventually, Nico let go of his hand. Nico settled back into the carpeted cabin floor and closed his eyes for slumber. 

 

The Jason in the berth watched Nico fall asleep. He fell asleep to the steady pulse of Nico’s heartbeat from only a few feet away, calmed by the sensation of Nico’s palm against his own. 

 

And then—Jason had fallen asleep for the first time in ages. 

 

Jason, now, slowly lowers himself beside this Past Nico. 

 

He stares at the evening strokes painted against Past Nico’s jaw and gazes at the silhouette that’d yet to move the Athena Parthenos across the world. 

 

“There’s plenty of room over here,” Jason hears next.

 

Over his shoulder he sees a different Nico—one dressed in his imperial gold praetor armor. His leg was bandaged, face gaunt from fighting a fever that followed them from Transylvania. They weren’t at their best, but Nico still looked at Jason with persistent directness at the back of the cave in Paris.

 

“I noticed you haven’t slept as well as you did on the ship,” Nico said. 

 

“I’d love that,” Jason echoes, as his previous self utters the same. 

 

A finger pokes his forehead. “You’re thinking too loud.” 

 

They sit in a teacup, where a stir of confidence in Nico’s voice set him apart from the first leg of their journey. He looked at Jason more directly, refusing to let anything else distract him. Not even his estranged sister. 

 

Jason was overwhelmed in Disney World. Lost, in a sea of overwhelming emotions when Zoe Nightshade berated him for winning the Game of Heroes and letting so many other people die. They needed to get to Camp Halfblood after losing so much time. 

 

“You’re thinking too loud,” this Nico repeats. 

 

Because he could just tell that. 

 

“I can tell,” this Nico agreed. “But I’m understanding that no one’s taken the time to notice. Not even Bianca.” 

 

This Nico refused to look away ever again. 

 

“Sleep, Jason,” this Nico whispered. “No more nightmares tonight.” 

 

Jason lays his head down. 

 

He’s brought to the foot of Hera’s statue, where the flame is as warm as home in her cabin. 

 

Past Nico opened the door gently with a different Jason in tow. His head was high on his shoulders after declaring himself Juno’s champion. After denouncing Jupiter for the sake of his family. His hand was warm in Jason’s own, and Jason could feel the benevolent beats of Nico’s heart against his palm. 

 

“We deserve some rest, don’t we?” Nico asked. It was almost teasing in air—after so many weeks of throwing themselves into one battle after another. 

 

They’d settled side by side, and Nico watched his every move. The familiarity of home painted the delicate strokes of a son of Juno, despite it being his first time in his mother’s cabin. Nico had found a new family when he thought his life had been torn apart—which was his identity long before Jupiter could even try to claim him.

 

Nico found Jason in the noise of it all and encouraged him to feel every emotion between the love and hate that Jason wore every day around his neck. 

 

“Sleep,” Nico murmured against Jason’s ear. He hooked a finger into Jason’s own and buried his face in the crook of Jason’s neck. There was a smile at Jason’s shoulder, that Jason traces now against his own collar bone. Nico teased, “I know better than to beat you there.” 

 

Nico makes Jason feel safe. Safe and heard and alive past an age Jason never thought he’d live to see. One he never would’ve seen if Nico didn’t tell him it was important. 

 

That Jason is important. 

 

“If…you want some company next week to Camp Halfblood, then I can go with you. It’s been some time since I’ve seen Hazel anyway.”

 

“It’s almost midnight…Your birthday…Do you want company?” 

 

“Every journey starts with footsteps. You’re doing great so far.” 

 

“You’re a healer.”

 

“You don’t have to apologize on your birthday. You get a free pass.”

 

“You can think of me the next time you can’t fall asleep. Well—not necessarily me. Or you can—if you need someone to talk to. You seemed in better spirits after last night. It doesn’t need to be me—Thalia and Bianca are also—”

 

“I. Just do me the favor of sitting this one out. I want you safe. Okay?”

 

Jason thinks of their dance. The image of Nico appears before him, adorned in gold jewelry and silk robes, with a smile more captivating than any god. Where he fell into the cadence of Nico’s steps as music swelled around them, and he wanted Nico’s same smile once more against his chest, safe and sound. 

 

He brushes hair that’s clumsily fallen in Nico’s line of sight. His palm tingles as Nico titters and leans into his warmth. Nico’s laughter is better than any wedding song, playing a gentle tune with his sweet heartbeat. When Nico leans forward into the rhythm, Jason follows. 

 

He caresses Nico’s jaw, the smile infectious, and brushes the corner of Nico’s lip as the beautiful son of Juno leans into his palm.

 

When he leans forward, the room changes. 

 

Jason’s back in the middle of Thalia’s cabin where it all started. Where it’s empty. 

 

A knock at the closet door startles him. 

 

Jason’s chest hardens. Slowly, he walks forward and opens it. 

 

Huddled in the far corner of the closet is a shaking Luke Castellan. 

 

*

 

The Luke in front of Jason is sickly. The rings under his eyes are darker than the shadows of the Underworld, and he trembles in the far corner of the closet with hands over his ears. Luke is twenty-three or twenty-four—but Jason lost track a long time ago when Luke stopped being his Luke. Luke, for how tall he is now, hunches until he looks like a scared nine or ten. Much like the scar against his eye, there’s a jagged wound that starts at his armpit from where Jason stabbed him.

 

Jason’s hand is numb against the closet door. He doesn’t know what to say. How to start. “Luke?”

 

The name hurts against his throat.

 

Luke raises his head at the sound of his name, eerily too mechanic. At first, those desaturated blue eyes meet Jason’s gaze—but then he realizes Luke is looking past him.

 

“Is she gone?” His voice is raw, like paint peeling on a canvas.

 

“Who?” Jason asks almost automatically.

 

As Jason looks around the closet, he remembers. The horrid vision of Luke’s past, and what drove him to run away. A woman’s voice echoes from behind Jason. Luke’s eyes grow so wide that he looks like a small child.

 

“No,” Luke whispers, “no, no, no, no—”

 

Jason reaches out—

 

No,” Luke says more fiercely—more fearfully. The way Luke’s face changes into a menacing scowl unsettles him. “Don’t touch me—”

 

Jason grabs Luke hastily by the knee and shadowtravels them out of the closet of the remade Castellan residence.

 

They erupt from the ground into the Fields of Asphodel near a wooden bench. Luke hurriedly looks around, reorienting himself—and the look of terror subsides.

 

“Y-You,” Luke sputters, “you got me out of that house. Where—where are we?”

 

“The Fields of Asphodel.” Jason gestures to the many aimless souls wandering and groaning into the abyss.

 

“We escaped,” Luke whispers numbly. “You set me free—”

 

“Actually—” Jason’s demeanor shifts into a grimace. His hand is tight against Luke’s shoulder, unrelenting—and the son of Hermes finally notices it. Luke stiffens beneath his palm. “—I’m not here to set you free. I’m—well, I’m not actually allowed to do that.”

 

Luke stares at him. They stand at the same height, staring at each other eye-to-eye. It’s been ages since Jason has stood so close to the son of Hermes. He’s…foreign, in a way that’s different even from Kronos’s vessel. His skin is desaturated from its old warmth. The circles beneath his eyes look even darker away from the Fields of Punishment. Haunted. There’s anger swelling deep in his irises, and Jason feels worse.

 

Then a bitter smile twitches against his lips. Luke sizes Jason up in a way that makes his stomach rot.

 

“Here to torture me then?” Luke asks. His tone is icy. “As if throwing me into the Fields of Punishment wasn’t enough—you had to punish me with my mother—like that—”

 

“I—” Jason cuts him off, his grip tighter against Luke’s shoulder. “—have asked my dad at least a hundred times to move you from the Fields of Punishment.”

 

Luke halts. He stares at Jason warily. Suspiciously.

 

“He said no,” Jason continues. “I’m not even allowed to summon you, Luke—I snuck into the Fields to see you.”

 

At that, Luke snorts. He stares at Jason with even more disbelief. “You?”

 

“Me.”

 

“Why?’ Luke demands.

 

“I.” Jason’s cheeks suddenly swell with a red heat. His hands twitch, and he brushes it against the nape of his neck. “Well, I really like this boy, and I need some advice.”

 

Evidently that isn’t the answer that Luke expects. The vicious rage in his soul suddenly morphs into surprise. Shock. Luke’s expression twists into nothing but confusion and—for a second, he looks like his old self. Jason’s Luke.

 

“Wait.” Luke raises a hand in a time out gesture. “I’m sorry, what?”

 

“I like a boy,” Jason repeats, his face growing another dark hue, “and I need advice.”

 

“From me?” Luke asks, with comical disbelief.

 

“Oh,” Jason says, and he grows even more embarrassed. “Well, yeah. Because I’m—well, I was in love with you.”

 

Luke cradles his head in his hands, eyes wide. His jaw falls. And again—“What?

 

They settle on the nearby bench. Jason makes sure to bind Luke’s hands together. He awkwardly inspects the rope until it’s taut, then ties the stray end to one of his belt loops. Luke scowls the entire time—but there’s a passive quality to it, born from Jason’s untimely confession. Jason’s awkward confession.

 

So, they sit together for a while.

 

“I’ve, uh.” Jason says eventually, self-conscious. He strokes a thumb into his other palm. His voice cracks as he drowns in his own embarrassment. “I’ve had a crush on you since I was six, Luke.”

 

That confession is enough to rattle Luke from being angry. The rope between them grows tight as Luke raises his hand and rubs his forehead—clearly trying to figure out if this is a dream. Or worse—a nightmare.

 

“I…thought you had a crush on Silena Beauregard,” Luke says finally, squinting into the distance.

 

“Who didn’t?” Jason remarks. His own smile grows tight—as he tries to remember Silena before resurrection. Her sapphire blue eyes and glossy black hair. Anytime the pegasi didn’t want Jason around, she blamed them, not him. After the way the war ended, Jason doesn’t think he deserves to think of her that way anymore.

 

Plus—before today, no one compared to Luke. Not even the prettiest, nicest girl at camp.

 

“Right. Both. I’m evil,” Luke mutters, “but I’m not biphobic. That’d be pushing it.”

 

Jason uncomfortably rubs his arm.

 

“You liked me,” Luke repeats.

 

“I love you,” Jason corrects—and Luke’s eyes seem to grow twice in size in utter disbelief. Jason flushes a dark shade of red, and he clumsily sits up on the bench. The motion causes Luke’s wrist bindings to follow him. “I mean—I don’t think I do now, I—I like Nico.”

 

More than like.

 

“Nico,” Luke repeats. It’s a name that Jason doesn’t like on the son of Hermes’ tongue. There’s a surge of protectiveness that courses through him. “You came all the way to the Fields of Eternal Punishment for—for what? To ask for my blessing? Does it even matter?”

 

There’s a dismissiveness to Luke’s tone that riles Jason. He supposes it makes sense—of course Luke couldn’t care less about Nico.

 

Of course Luke couldn’t care less about what Jason does. How he feels.

 

“I came,” Jason says softly, “because you took my heart and I want it back, Luke.”

 

There’s a deafening silence between them. Luke makes a face—so close to the Luke Jason loved and less like the hollow shell Kronos created.

 

“Jayjay,” Luke says—and it cuts through Jason like knife to jello. Jason’s heart wrenches at the pet name—one he hasn’t heard in a long time. It’s been over a year since Luke has even addressed him—and there’s a pity in his voice Jason was always too afraid to hear. “You...what are you—sixteen?”

 

“Seventeen,” Jason corrects.

 

Luke’s eyes show a distance far past Asphodel. Jason can see the realization. It’s been over a year since Luke died. Hiding out in a closet of May Castellan’s house has taken all the time away from him. “You…have to understand that…I’m—”

 

“Too old for me,” Jason finishes for him. “Trust me, I understand. I—never intended to tell you. Ever.”

 

Luke studies him carefully. There’s an echo of his old self—once again, and it just makes Jason uncomfortable. “Then why go through all the trouble of this? Why…say that you need your heart?”

 

“Because you took it from me,” Jason blurts out with much more vigor than before. He startles himself—but the sudden outburst surprises the son of Hermes even more.

 

Jason glares at his hands—and he clutches his chest, which was a husk of nothing for the last six years. It hurts how dismissive Luke seems to his feelings.

 

His eyes burn. “Luke, how could I not be in love with you? You made sparring fun instead of a weight over my shoulders, like Chiron. You—you used to sneak me in your bed in the middle of the night when I was too scared of the prophecy. We’d just talk and I’d tell you how I really felt when the rest of camp would just—just pull me in different directions for the sake of the prophecy.”

 

Jason halts, and he looks at Luke—who’s silenced, yet hanging onto every word. It isn’t like Zagreus brusquely brushing him off. The more Jason talks, the more Luke seems to consider his words and their shared past.

 

“And it turns out you were just pulling me into a different direction, too.” Jason’s voice cracks. “I told you how I hated being a son of Hades and hated being a demigod—and I thought that you listened, but…I was just a chess piece for you and Kronos. You just wanted a vessel. And when you left—”

 

His hand is tight over his chest.

 

“—you took those thoughts with you. Everything I had ever said. It was like I helped you get so far with Kronos because you knew I was unhappy. I helped make you leave, and I was responsible for your betrayal,” Jason continues. His throat hurts. So does his chest.  “All I could do was stand there and watch you leave. Someone had to save camp—and it—it had to be me. It was always going to be me. You took my voice, everything I ever told you, and weaponized it.”

 

It wasn’t just his heart that Luke took—but trust and faith for anyone ever again. Jason’s fears inspired that war—of being a mistreated demigod, who was lessor because of his father’s name and still unforgettable because of his domain. For all the silences in Jason’s voice, he thought those nights huddled with Luke kept him loved and protected. Those nights were where he could finally breathe.

 

But Luke twisted every thought and told him to leave. He wanted Jason to burn Olympus to the ground—or get out of the way.

  

“You took my heart and made me do unspeakable things on my birthday,” Jason continues. His voice brims with the pain that’s weighed down the empty husk of his heart for too many years. “I’m a son of Hades, but I—never want to do what I did that day ever again.”

 

Luke is quiet. He lets Jason talk—feel, for the first time since he left Camp Halfblood—and all Jason feels is frustration. Remorse. Hate, for loving Luke so much, and anger at himself for trying to find the gestures of the old Luke. Jason’s Luke.

 

“If you aren’t allowed to summon me,” Luke mutters eventually, “then how on Gaea did you not go insane looking for me?”

 

Jason thinks about it. Because he almost did. The answer comes to him so quickly that he almost laughs at its simplicity. 

 

He reaches out and brushes the spot beneath the knot of his necklace. 

 

“I had nightmares every night for almost a year after my birthday,” Jason whispers softly. “Those nightmares…are my punishment. There isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t think of everyone who died in the war. But…that boy, Nico, coaxed me through them. He’s done it so often for me now that it’s…it's a habit for me now. My mind just goes there. He…makes sure I feel safe.”

 

Even in the pit of his own thoughts.

 

“Good,” Luke says. “You should be allowed to feel safe, Jayjay.” 

 

Jason looks at him, eyebrows furrowed. 

 

“Those nights you came to me, I never had an ulterior motive. You were a scared kid, and everyone kept making the world scarier.” Luke shakes his head—and Jason sees it in his furrowed brow. The silhouette of the Luke he loved so much. “You never deserved what happened to you. None of us did. But—“ 

 

His expression changes into something darker. 

 

“—you never understood that the end justified the means,” Luke says. “You didn’t understand how deep the war was.” 

 

Jason’s chest hardens. His jaw tightens. “I understood plenty.” 

 

“No. You didn’t. Everything about the way they treated us—it’s cyclical, Jay. Any time anyone shows defiance against the gods—when they’re right, it gets shut down. Called evil because the gods refuse to admit when they’re wrong.” Luke’s own demeanor tightens, and his lips press into a straight line. “They treat us like shit—they put me down here and call me evil because I don’t believe in the way they treat their kids. They’re evil.” 

 

“Killing so many of our own is evil, Luke,” Jason reasons. His eyes narrow, hands curling into each other. “Ethan, Chris, and Beck, Luke. You used them like pawns—”

 

The argument is rhythmic in its cadence—because it’s not the first of many arguments they’ve had over the years after Luke left. Luke shakes his head, almost on cue, and his hands curl into fists in their bindings.

 

“It was for the greater good,” Luke reasons. And he repeats, “The ends justified the means.”

 

Jason shakes his head fiercely. He cuts off the running thought that used to make him wonder whether Luke was actually right. “Not our friends, Luke. You’re no better than the gods when you use them like that.” 

 

Luke gives him a hateful gaze, looking crueler.  “Look at you—even a year later. When you talk like that, you’re just their lap dog, Jay. These arguments get drawn out, and the gods win for no reason because you just roll over and take it—“ 

 

“No,” Jason interrupts. He sits taller in his seat. “I do.” 

 

Luke stares at him, while Jason’s hands tremble. 

 

“I get to choose what happens to me. I get to put myself first, Luke.” Jason’s eyes grow warm with well-earned tears. “I finally get to win.” 

 

Luke looks at him at a loss. 

 

“You told me I didn’t deserve what happened to me. I’m doing what I need to do so I can be happy. Without fighting.” Jason’s voice is tight. “Without killing others.” 

 

Luke studies him skeptically—and eventually scoffs. “That’s awfully selfish of you.” 

 

Jason’s irritation burns. “What—and recruiting an eleven-year-old to fight and kill other demigods is selfless to you? It doesn’t make you better than the scary adults, Luke.”

 

“You’re not—”

 

“What about trying to kill Annabeth when I couldn’t promise you Elysium?” Jason continues, his entire body growing tense now. “Would killing her justify the means?” 

 

“That’s not—” Luke raises his own head with gusto. His face is scarred with rage—and then he stops. His anger is diminished by the mention of his younger sister. He leans back into his seat. “Forget it.” 

 

They aren’t going to come to an agreement. Not now, even after a full year—after years of these arguments. They fall into a silence, where the jagged dragon scar across Luke’s eye looks more prominent against his bleached skin. Luke’s anger started long before he left—and Jason was pulled in too many other directions to pacify that. If he ever could.

 

“She’s doing great,” Jason whispers. He watches as Luke lifts his gaze in curiosity. “She’s studying architecture in New Rome.” 

 

Luke manages to look in his direction, tentative. “New Rome?” 

 

“Roman demigods exist,” Jason explains. “I have a sister.” 

 

Luke stares at him again, surprised. “A sister?” 

 

“Yeah. We live together. I go to school now.” Jason’s lips lift with a mild amusement, after repeating it so many times. “And I’m starting to get into baking. A little drawing.” 

 

Luke stares at him. Doubtful—but also surprised in a good way. Once they’re away from talking about the war, Luke even looks human again. “That sounds…nice.” 

 

“The Romans really have it figured out,” Jason agrees. “We’ve changed a lot about Camp Halfblood for the better, too.” 

 

He explains how life has been after war. How campers have stepped up to lead ever since Jason left, and that every demigod must be claimed by the age of thirteen. How Annabeth had helped design cabins for every minor god, starting with Cabin Thirteen. Luke’s expression eventually shifts, far from the resentment and bitter rage that pulled Jason into the Fields. 

 

“The kids in Eleven doing okay?” Luke asks quietly. 

 

Jason knows it’s been ages since he’s asked. “Connor’s been taking care of everyone since Travis is in college.” 

 

A ghost of a smile appears on Luke’s face—before a real one does. One filled with pride. “That college campus is screwed.”

 

“I stopped trying to find the receipts for everything Travis has brought home.” Jason smiles too, despite the discomfort. “Lot of overpriced football memorabilia.”

 

Luke erupts in a laugh—one Jason hasn’t heard in a long time. Then, Luke is silent. That light fades from his face, and he stares at his feet. 

 

“I think you have this heart thing figured out, Jayjay,” Luke says finally. “Between me and that Nico guy.”

 

Jason’s chest aches—but not in the way he expects. It doesn’t hurt for a lost lover—but for a long-lost friend. “I…think you’re right.” 

 

He likes Nico. Jason’s liked Nico a long time—and for all the days he grieved his heart in the Fields of Eternal Punishment, Nico helped him heal that hole in his chest. Nico helped him mend his relationship with Annabeth. Jason found his unconditional love for Thalia. 

 

And his love for himself. 

 

Luke stands back to his feet. “You should take me back now. I wouldn’t want you to get in trouble for breaking the rules.” 

 

His tone is glum—but there’s still that inking of security that Jason clung to when he was a child. Jason watches as Luke stares off into the distance, taking in all the forgotten souls of Asphodel. 

 

“I…can see if he can soften your punishment,” Jason whispers quietly. “Most of what you did…it was because of Kronos.” 

 

To his surprise, Luke shakes his head. Luke doesn’t ask for Elysium a second time. 

 

“I thought I could win if I let him take over one last time,” Luke says. He shuts his eyes, hands curling together. “The fact he almost took Annie’s life…the fact I almost let him—that’s selfish of me. That’s why I deserve to be in there.”

 

Jason’s eyebrows knit together—but much like before, Luke already has his mind set. 

 

“Will you let her know I’m sorry?” Luke asks. 

 

A pang of guilt hits Jason hard. “Yeah. Of course I will.” 

 

He reaches over to grab Luke’s shoulder—only to be surprised when Luke grabs back. Luke pulls him into a hug. The force of it makes disarms Jason—and he keeps himself from shaking.

 

“I’m sorry that I made you do all of those things, too.” Luke whispers. “I’ve always wanted the best for you. Even if we think those are different things.” 

 

Jason’s heart aches. 

 

“It’s…been a long and windy road,” Jason replies softly. He places a hand to his chest once more and finds his heart at a pleasant calm. “But I…think I finally like where it’s taking me.”

 

Luke smiles at him. The old Luke. 

 

Once more, Jason reaches for the son of Hermes. They plummet into the shadows and back to the Fields of Eternal Punishment. 

 

*

Journal Entry: I saw Luke off to the Fields of Punishment Today. When he left, I felt nothing. I can't wait to see Nico.

 

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Chapter 14: family dinner

Summary:

The bartender is a too-cocky venti who looms at a billowing height as they trudge forward. He sizes Nico up as he cleans a cocktail glass. “You don’t look old enough to be here.”

“Don’t care.” Nico slams his palm on the counter. He pulls his sleeve up and gestures to the scarred eagle on his forearm. “We’re looking for the god of this guy. Rumor has it that you have him holed up in the back room.”

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Chapter Text

Hades inevitably finds out about Jason sneaking into the Fields of Punishment. Zagreus wants to strangle him.

 

“I told you to follow my soul back from the Fields,” Zagreus laments. “I charmed your sword to find me. Mother explicitly told you not to shadowtravel in this realm and you snuck a war criminal out of his prison. What on earth do you have to say for yourself?”

 

Jason can’t think of an answer past shrugging. He’s deep in his head, shocked by his own revelation and how full his heart feels. Jason’s changed since his sixteenth birthday—and all for the better. Before today, he never would’ve talked to Luke the way he did. The feeling of defiance was always there—but never before could Jason say it aloud.

 

“Zagreus,” Hades says sharply from his place at the throne, “I’ll be doing the lecturing.”

 

Zagreus and Jason stand once more at the foot of the throne room. Hades stares across from them, dressed in a puffy black bath robe with fuzzy slippers. The souls croon and groan with their king’s disappointment. Persephone, on the other hand, remains in her perch, her nightgown effortlessly billowing into the different colors of her satin robe. There’s a smugness hidden behind her indifference.

 

Zagreus harrumphs, his arms crossed over his chest.

 

“What do you have to say for yourself, my boy?” Hades asks finally.

 

Jason lowers his head. He kneels stiffly at his father’s feet.

 

“I’m sorry,” he says sincerely. “I went against your wishes and betrayed your trust, Dad. It was never my intention to take advantage of your hospitality. However long it takes, I’ll make right by you and Mom again.”

 

That answer apparently befuddles the King. “Your mother?”

 

“Oh—uh.” Jason stumbles as he peers back up. He bows his head respectfully. “Queen Persephone.”

 

Persephone gasps, her hands to her cheeks. It’s hard to tell, but Jason thinks she’s mouthing the three-letter word.

 

“Mother,” Zagreus berates.

 

“Sorry,” Jason says again, his cheeks glowing with heat. “It’s been a long day.”

 

Hades is as still as a corpse. He stares at Jason for a long period, before sighing in defeat. “Did you find what you needed down there?”

 

Yes. Unequivocally, absolutely yes.

 

Jason presses a palm to his chest. The pain of losing Luke Castellan has shrunken into nothing more than a weathered scar—healed with Thalia’s unconditional love, Annabeth’s rekindled friendship, and…Nico.

 

Gods…Nico.

 

“Yeah,” Jason says—and he feels the happy ache of his too-big smile before the corners of his lips lift.

 

“Very well,” Hades says with finality. “Just don’t do it again.”

 

“But you can still visit,” Persephone chimes in, evidently still endeared. “We’ll set up the battle arena like they have at camp. The Underworld’s own Coliseum, where you may crush as many skulls as you like.”

 

“Mother,” Zagreus reminds her, “this one doesn’t fight. Thalia does.”

 

Jason stares at his godly brother as though he’s grown a second head.

 

Persephone unpleasantly gestures to the sword still strapped to Jason’s back. “Then why bring a sword all the way to the Underworld?”

 

Again, Jason looks at his godly older brother. He expects to be berated once more—or to meet nothing but a goading sneer—but much like Jason only moments ago, Zagreus shrugs.

 

“Um,” Jason settles on eventually. “To cut crusts off of sandwiches. I like to cook.”

 

That piques Hades’ interest even more. He makes a noise. “You cook?”

 

“I’m learning,” Jason corrects himself. He touches his neck self-consciously—and reminds himself he’s not in any danger. “I—nothing fancy yet. But I really like it.”

 

When he looks back at his father, Jason is met with a pleasant smile.

 

“Very well,” Hades says. “You’ll have to make something for me sometime in the future, my boy.”

 

“I—sure. My chocolate chip cookie recipe is getting pretty good.” Jason strokes his chin thoughtfully, thinking of batter consistencies and different types of chocolate. He stares back up to his family curiously. “Do I have to leave already?”

 

All three of them stare at him in surprise. Jason blushes bashfully.

 

“I just,” Jason says, “I’m not here often.”

 

The smile on Hades’ face grows, and Jason finally sees a reflection of himself in his father.

 

“My boy,” Hades says, “you don’t even need to ask twice.”

 

*

 

After a long and harrowing week and a half, they find Zeus passed out at some magical bar above the Space Needle in Seattle. Nico and his sisters hop amongst the clouds after a sultry aurae ushers them out a window. Hazel has a limp after an unnecessary run-in with a gorgon. Bianca’s hair is riddled with static electricity after summoning lightning to disintegrate a cyclops.

 

Needless to say, Nico isn’t a happy camper. He’s soaked in rain and mud and stinks.

 

He kicks the door to the bar open, where Fly Me To the Moon is playing on a retro juke box.

 

An audible gasp shakes the bar—where nymphs, satyrs, and amicable monsters alike all stare at the three children of the sky.

 

The bartender is a too-cocky venti who looms at a billowing height as they trudge forward. He sizes Nico up as he cleans a cocktail glass. “You don’t look old enough to be here.”

 

“Don’t care.” Nico slams his palm on the counter. He pulls his sleeve up and gestures to the scarred eagle on his forearm. “We’re looking for the god of this guy. Rumor has it that you have him holed up in the back room.”

 

The stupid venti, for how little he has in his head other than air, doesn’t blink. Instead, he coughs and move on to a different glass. “Who would be foolish enough to hold the King of the Gods hostage? I don’t want that trouble here, halfblood.

 

Nico smiles menacingly at him, after too many days trekking wetlands with muddy combat boots.

 

“Who’d be foolish enough to tell the King of the Gods no when he demands quarters for a lay?” he berates. “I suggest you give him up now. Nothing is more foolish than protecting this guy out of fear—” He gestures to the eagle, then to the peacock tattoo beneath it. “—and risk the wrath of this goddess. My mother.”

 

If storm spirits could blanch, the barkeep venti looks as white as an untoasted marshmallow.

 

“—he always like this on quests?” Nico hears Hazel ask in the background.

 

“I’m not sure,” Bianca whispers back. “But I’m starting to understand how he swindled Nonno out of two slices of pie for dessert.”

 

Timothy—the now-wise venti—turns a horrid gray, like the sky that Nico’s gotten sick of. He sets the cocktail glass beside the bar sink and slowly makes his way around the counter. “Right this way.”

 

The crowd of magical creatures behind them go back to their quiet utterances. Nico thinks he hears his proper name and title being thrown around—Praetor di Angelo?! Demigod of the King and Queen?! Madness!—but he’s quick to dismiss them. Instead, his sisters follow behind him. He can hear Hazel hobbling on one leg, supported by Bianca as they make their way to the backroom.

 

It only irritates him more.

 

Timothy unveils a magical room filled with burning lights that reeks of sex and essential oils. Sure enough, the King of the Gods is hunched over a mattress beside a bowl of rotten grapes and various vials Nico refuses to name. He’s (somewhat) dressed in his pinstriped suit, buttons unsnapped and unfurled, and pants not quite over his hips.

 

Nico reaches to cover Hazel’s eyes. Bianca covers his—and her own, all three of them grimacing with disgust.

 

“He came by with a pretty little thing a few weeks ago,” Timothy explains eventually. His entire smoky form ruffles at the ripe scent. Nico all but gags. “She came out alone. He—well, he’s been drunk and passed out for who knows how long now.”

 

Bianca, Hazel, and Nico look at each other tiredly.

 

Nico starts. “Six weeks—”

 

“Four days—” Hazel continues.

 

“And twelve hours,” Bianca finishes. “He left quite the trail.”

 

Timothy stares at the trio, impressed. Nico’s too tired from the rest of their mission to care.

 

“Fantastic detectives,” Timothy comments. His stormy form trembles. “I considered waking him up, but…well—”

 

“You didn’t want to interrupt the slumber of the King of the Gods,” Nico grumbles. “Understandable.”

 

“He’s been eating me out of wine and cheese when he rouses,” Timothy grumbles fearfully. “Even hit on me a few times.”

 

“Oh,” Bianca pipes in. “Are you single?”

 

Hazel nudges her a little too roughly, while Nico glares at her for the umpteenth time this quest.

 

“We’ll get him off your hands,” Nico reassures. “Go back to entertaining your bar.”

 

Timothy stares at them doubtfully—but quickly scurries off like a gust of wind to the front of the bar. Against his will, Nico walks over to the backroom door and shuts it. Jupiter’s loud snoring vibrates against the backroom like rolls of thunder.

 

Nico looks over to his sisters. “Who wants to do the honors?”

 

Hazel stares at him in amusement. “You seem like you’re on a roll, big brother.”

 

He sighs. Nico peers over to the King of the Gods, who is face-first buried into the mattress. He pulls out his gladius and nudges Jupiter in the hip. “Wake up.”

 

“Mmngghmm?” Jupiter stirs from his slumber, voice raw and hazy like fog. As he sits up, he sways—eyes looking everywhere except for the three children in front of him.

 

Typical.

 

“Gross,” Hazel grumbles, and Bianca turns her away.

 

Jupiter’s gaze drops down to his unzipped pants, which he slowly shimmies over himself. He pushes salt and pepper hair past his widow’s peak—which puts most birds’ nests to shame. Then he looks between the three of them.

 

“Papa,” Bianca starts—and Nico elbows her.

 

“Do you know where you are?” Nico asks irately.

 

Jupiter takes a loud sniff. It’s disgusting. He brushes his nose with a finger and finally focuses on his children. His shoulders grow taut, demeanor changing into something more annoying. “I’m Jupiter, King of the Gods. Ruler of the sky. Protector and Father to all gods and humans.”

 

“That’s not what I asked you,” Nico retorts.

 

“Father to all sounds about right,” Hazel grumbles behind him.

 

In an instance, Jupiter’s Roman form ripples, and he looks slightly less grizzled. Slightly. Zeus peers over to Hazel with curious eyes and wakes with a smile. “Is that my darling daughter I see?”

 

Hazel’s nose wrinkles. Her gaze flits over to both Nico and Bianca—who both subtly shake their heads.

 

Nico pokes Zeus with a sword again. Jupiter appears. “Do you know how you got here?”

 

When Jupiter’s nose crinkles, he almost looks like his Greek daughter. He scans the room—and with each waking second, seems to grow in height to commandeer the room. “This vixen of a naiad—I found her not far from here. Wherever here may be.”

 

“Seattle,” they all say in unison.

 

Jupiter stares at them, impressed—then rifles through his pockets. “It appears she had her way and left with my wallet. A shame.”

 

“Do you know how long you’ve been passed out, Papa?” Bianca asks—and her voice is exhaustingly polite. Zeus stares back at her. “Almost two months.”

 

“Best sleep I ever had,” Zeus says. He stretches and spreads his legs. All three of them look away as his chiton splits.

 

“You let a nymph fuck you and steal your money,” Hazel says with deadpan. Nico and Bianca both jump at her vulgarity.

 

“When you live as long as I have, a change of pace is needed,” Zeus reasons. He turns to Nico and Bianca. “Your mother—”

 

“No,” they both say.

 

“You understand, don’t you, my nimbus?” Zeus turns back to his other daughter. “That Mars boy you’re seeing—as a changeling—”

 

“No,” Hazel cuts him off with much more vivacity.

 

“Papa,” Bianca interrupts one more time. She falls into a loving crouch—one that Nico would strongly advise against. “It’s been raining everywhere. Can’t you put a stop to it?”

 

Zeus stares at both his daughters with a drunken love. As he sobers, he looks less like a bumbling idiot and more like the half-respectable king that Nico had the pleasure of arguing with months ago. “My children—concerned enough for my wellbeing that they’ve come looking for me. I’ve no idea what to say.”

 

“Say less,” Nico snaps. “Do more. You’re ruining Halloween for everyone.”

 

Jupiter stares back at Nico with—something less than amusement—but he waves a hand. “Very well.”

 

The difference is subtle from the inside of the bar. Nico feels an ease of breath from the sky—where his own powers aren’t constricted by the breadth of the King of the Gods. Despite the month of drunken eating and sleeping, Jupiter seems to sober quickly at Nico’s request.

 

“I heard you tried to court my brother’s son,” Jupiter says out of nowhere. “That Grace boy.”

 

Nico’s blood boils. His jaw tightens, and he entertains the idea of sheathing his sword between his father’s legs.

 

“My heart goes out to you, my son,” Jupiter continues—oblivious. “I, too, know the heartbreak of not getting what you want. Your mother’s quite good at making that happen.”

 

“Nico,” Bianca warns, as Nico’s hand twitches at the hilt of his sword.

 

“How kind of you to say that,” Nico grumbles instead.

 

“If you would like to drown your sorrow with a pint of mead, I see no reason not to do so with your old man.” Jupiter strokes a beard too nice for his personality and studies Nico. “I’ll set you up with one of my own, my son. Perhaps two. Ganymede is surely eager.”

 

A blood vessel throbs in Nico’s neck. He turns to Bianca expectantly.

 

“Papa,” Bianca addresses. Their sperm donor changes form accordingly. “Nico is in the process of getting over Jace in the way he sees fit. Which means he’s going to go at his own pace and process on his own terms.”

 

She flashes him a look that definitely means, Sorry for the headache I’ve given you for the last eight days.

 

“…of course, if he won’t comply, you could always force him,” Zeus mumbles, as though hearing nothing. “I’ve had much luck with that. I can even offer my services—”

 

ARGHH!” Nico drops his sword and charges. His sisters both pull him back by either arm.

 

“Dad,” Hazel says, while gripping Nico tight. “If you could just—pay your tab—”

 

“And go home,” Bianca continues, “I think that would be enough.”

 

Zeus doesn’t flinch at Nico’s anger. He stands to his feet, and Greek sandals appear beneath him. His robes smooth themselves out until he looks immaculate, and he effortlessly combs a hand through his hair until he looks like an arrogant movie star. Then—he pats his hips.

 

“Well?” Nico seethes.

 

“As I told you earlier, little one—” Zeus places his hands on his hips. “—it appears I’m broke.”

 

“Then I’ll pay.” A fifth voice cuts through the room—unpleasantly annoyed, like Nico feels.

 

They all turn to the edge of the room, and Nico’s anger fades.

 

“Mammina,” he says.

 

*

 

Jason emerges in Temple Hill. The sky is dark and gloomy—but rainless. He stares at the clouds curiously and find them at a calm. Slowly, Jason turns to face his father’s crypt, where the statue of Pluto stares onward to the rest of New Rome. A smile curls against his lips.

 

He places three asphodels at his father’s brazier. One for Hades, one for Persephone, and one for Zagreus.

 

Then, Jason makes his way down the path.

 

He stops at the Juno Moneta, with a basket of ripe fruit in his and a bouquet of flowers. His heart pounds in his chest as he stares at the statue of the Queen of the Gods. It doesn’t quite capture her essence in the way Jason’s familiar with from this past spring—but he isn’t any less nervous.

 

The temple is flawlessly clean. The Romans would be foolish not to upkeep the temple of the Queen, but Jason thinks it looks better since Nico started officiating weddings down here. An arbor of greenery hides behind Juno Moneta’s form, adorned in lotuses and other beautiful flowers. Her brazier is filled with gifts from newly wedded couples, couples who’ve long tried for a child, and those who simply want to show their respect for the Queen in their old age.

 

If Jason turns around, he can imagine the floor where Nico and he held each other in an eloquent dance. He wonders what the Juno Moneta thought of that.

 

“Hi,” Jason says finally when he gathers his nerves. He sets the basket at the foot of Juno’s temple and plucks two luscious pomegranates from his harvest. He lowers himself into a kneel in front of the Juno Moneta, who looks far above him. “I’m…not sure if you remember me—you told me I had scraggly hair and I look pale.”

 

Jason rifles a hand through the scruffy mop he’s been growing out since he moved to New Rome. He grimaces.

 

Maybe that isn’t the best way to start out this conversation.

 

“I helped your son remember who you are,” Jason continues, trying to focus on the positives. He pauses. “Well—then again, you were trying to keep that hidden so Nico wouldn’t meet an untimely fate. Like Bianca.”

 

Jason strokes his chin.

 

“But I summoned Bianca past the Doors of Death,” Jason continues. He falters once more. “Into Tartarus.”

 

This went a lot better in his head when he was in his room in the Underworld. Maybe Persephone was right—being down there too long just made people—and gods—socially inept.

 

Jason takes a deep sigh and places the pomegranates in her brazier. He reaches to fix the lotuses floating in the small pond at her feet—but they wilt to his nervous touch.

 

“I,” Jason starts, setting into a cross-legged sit, “have a complicated history with your son. With both of your children, actually.”

 

The Juno Moneta doesn’t answer.

 

“I know you better as Hera,” Jason continues—and the corners of his lips raise into a tiny smile. “I’m Greek if you didn’t know. Jason—Jason Grace, son of Hades. If…you also didn’t know.”

 

It was always hit or miss with the gods, based on his dad. Jason was either infamous or forgettable.

 

“Bianca came to camp when I was twelve. She used to cry because she missed her brother so much. I…used to get jealous,” Jason admits. He presses a palm flat on his chest. “Because even as a child of the Big Three—she had someone before this life. As a demigod, I mean. I…thought I had no one. I…didn’t have a life outside of being a demigod.”

 

Nothing but the prophecy.

 

“But I do now,” Jason continues. “I have a sister. I think you know that—being the Goddess of Family and all. And my dad doesn’t mind that I’m retired. I’m…in a better place than I was a year ago, and I have Nico to thank for that.”

 

Nico, down in the cave in Croatia. In the Argo II, on the umpteenth night that Jason was too afraid to fall asleep—and so many other nights.

 

“Your son is really amazing,” Jason whispers softly. He curls a hand against his heart—where it swells at the very thought of Nico di Angelo. “I know you know that. Without him, I’d…still be holed up in Cabin Eleven and counting the days towards death.”

 

Jason runs his hand past his chest and traces the lace of his camp necklace gently. It’s a bead short of his time in Camp Halfblood this year—all because Jason knows he has a life past that now.

 

“I really hurt your son the last time I saw him,” Jason confesses. He feels a pang of guilt. “And I’m sorry. If I could take it all back, I’d just—I’d go to Odesa, like he wanted, and maybe we’d just be together right now. But. I’ve learned that not everything can go perfectly and I’m—I’ve never seen myself as perfect. Your son is perfect. I mean—not in the infinitely perfect kind of way, but. He’s learned to move forward. He’s taught me to move forward.”

 

Jason takes a deep breath and looks back to Hera’s Roman statue.

 

“All of that to say,” Jason whispers, his voice tight, “I know I told him I wasn’t there yet back then, but I’m there now. I want to be with your son. Whatever it takes.”

 

The weight in his chest shrinks. His heart swells, with every opportunity that he’s able to say it aloud: he wants to be with Nico. There aren’t enough words to describe how he feels.

 

“So,” Jason concludes softly, his lips rising into a more confident smile. “I hope you’re okay with that.”

 

*

 

The bargoers clam up at the sight of the King and Queen of the Gods come out of the backroom. Mammina—Juno—looks elegant as ever in an impeccable white silk gown. Unlike her husband, the skirt of her own dress splits at her leg with class.

 

Her black hair cascades over her shoulder in effortless waves, her lips a rich ruby red. Mammina looks dressed for a cocktail party—while her bumbling idiot of a husband jostles his hands in his pockets for nothing. Cuffed at her left wrist bone is a bracelet with the carvings of peacock feathers.

 

Nico, Hazel, and Bianca all follow behind Juno as she goes up to Timothy and hands him a blindingly shiny gold piece.

 

“Y-Your majesty,” Timothy stammers—

 

“Keep the change,” Juno says smoothly. “You’ll need the coinage for Charon when your time comes.”

 

Timothy’s form ripples nervously from behind the bar counter.

 

Her gaze is chilling. She leans forward with a palm to the surface of his workstation and whispers something so menacing in his ear that he turns as white as snow.

 

Nico imagines it’s something like, I can arrange that sooner if you ever let this happen again.

 

There’s a sudden scent of rain concentrated specifically behind the bar, and Nico decides better than to wonder if the storm spirit wet himself.

 

“Why are you like this?” Jupiter grumbles unhappily, the tempo of his voice capturing the sound of looming thunder.

 

“Come along, children,” Mammina says next. She doesn’t bat an eye. Mammina glides out of the bar too small for her presence and guides them to a long white limousine with a peacock in the chauffeur seat. Another peacock bows in her presence—then opens the back door.

 

She stops short of entering. Instead, Mammina looks up to her husband and points. “Get in.”

 

Jupiter stares at her, disgruntled. Nico resists the urge to hold his backside, from when he was young and used to get spanked. He notices Bianca standing more upright, her hands also tucked behind her.

 

“Who do you think you are, woman?” Jupiter asks. “I’ll remind you that you’re speaking to—”

 

Get. In.” Juno’s stature tightens. She looks even scarier as a smile spreads across her blood-red lips, in a move that clearly says, Don’t make me cause a scene, dear.

 

This time, Jupiter is smart enough to gulp. He crawls into the back seat of the limo—and before Nico knows it, his mother’s gaze is on them.

 

Nico climbs into the backseat of the limousine without protest, with both Bianca and Hazel following in suit. They huddle together one end of the car while the peacock struts over to the other car door and assists Juno into the seat beside her husband.

 

They take off in silence.

 

Jupiter leers angrily out the car window, where the rain has evidently subsided for good.

 

“Quite the ride, Mammina,” Bianca starts respectfully. She sits like a prim and proper lady, almost mirroring Juno in posture.

 

“Thank you, stellina,” Mammina says in a saccharine-sweet tone.

 

“I…didn’t know there were limousines that could fly,” Hazel remarks as she stares out a window.

 

The way Juno looks at her strikes too close a chord to her husband. Nico can’t help placing an arm over Hazel protectively.

 

“Come now, passerotto, you act as though I’d harm a fly,” Juno says innocently. Jupiter scoffs in his corner, manspreading. “Yes, Hazel Levesque. What is a chariot if not a limousine in these current times?”

 

“At least take me home in something more lavish, my love,” Jupiter grumbles. “A Tesla, perhaps. Even a rocket would suffice.”

 

“And miss out on the opportunity for you to wear your scarlet letter on your bosom, my darling?” Juno asks, her tone as dazzling as broken glass. Only Juno could make the word bosom sound like a threat. “You’re lucky that I haven’t ripped that nymph’s eyes out and used them as a broach. As if I would indulge your cock any further by letting you get a Tesla.

 

With each word, her rant grows into a shrill, painful rant.  

 

“And to get the children involved,” Juno continues, annoyed. “They have school, you buffoon! How is my little starlight supposed to make it into an ivy league college if she’s busy herding your erection? She’s already been dead a year!”

 

Oh gods.

 

Please don’t put it that way,” Nico interjects, raising his hand. He’s sickened.

 

“I’ll have you know that they came of their own accord,” Jupiter refutes. He glares tiredly at his wife. “And what I do in my own time is—”

 

My business,” Juno hisses, her voice wry and sharp like daggers, “because we are married. Your affairs affect this family, you optimus maximus pile of shit.

 

“Mammina and Papa are fighting,” Bianca whispers in disbelief.

 

“Sperm donor,” Nico corrects in the same tone of discomfort.

 

“If you two are so unhappy with your marriage,” Bianca interjects, “you could always—”

 

“No,” Jupiter and Juno say in unison.

 

In an eerie rehearsal, Jupiter explains, “You children are just too young to understand the depths of love.”

 

“Your father is simply an idiot who must be taught,” Juno reassures.

 

Suddenly Nico wonders if Catholicism would be less painful for his godly mother and sperm donor.

 

If you think so ill of me, my love,” Jupiter continues irritably, “I’ve taken plenty interest in the lives of our children. Nico here humbly asked me to mend his broken heart.”

 

Nico glares menacingly at the King of the Gods. “I’d sooner castrate you.”

 

Nico,” Bianca admonishes.

 

“You seem mistaken, husband,” Juno snaps in the same angered tone. “Two of these children are mine. The third one over there is the only one stuck with you as an embarrassment of a father.”

 

Nico looks over to Hazel, who only crosses her arms over her chest, unfazed.

 

“As for Jason Grace, you are the last person my little sparrow should be going to for advice,” Juno snarls. “I’ll handle that one myself.”

 

“With what technique? He’s far better off with me!” Jupiter snaps back. “The only mortal you ever bedded, you could not even court properly.”

 

It’s then that Juno turns as red as her makeup. She grows in her seat, almost suffocating in size, and she reaches for Jupiter’s throat. “Because of YOU!”

 

Her voice quakes the entire limo and causes them to veer off the laneless road. Nico, Bianca, and Hazel all cower together in fear, while Jupiter looks like he’s about to follow in Timothy’s footsteps and wet himself.

 

Then—the limo stops.

 

Juno shrinks to the poise of a seven-foot fall woman, her makeup untouched by anger and hair as pretty as a painting. One of the peacock chauffeurs trots up to the car and opens the door.

 

Jupiter stands to his feet, his lips twisted into an irritated frown. He grumbles something under his breath as he exits the car, his pinstriped suit smooth.

 

The Queen of the Gods shifts her demeanor as she slides out of the car. She doesn’t look as angry as she did seconds ago. “Come along now, children. It’s rude to be late.”

 

“Late to what?” Nico asks.

 

“Why,” Juno says, “Family dinner, of course.”

 

*

 

To his absolute surprise, there is a room for Nico in Olympus.

 

He hates it.

 

It’s covered in black and white baby photos from before the Lotus Casino—and then moments of Nico’s life he absolutely did not recall a camera for. There’s a cut out from his praetor ceremony when he took the title over from Thalia.

 

The duvet is a blown-up high school yearbook photo from freshman year, where Nico forgot it was picture day. There’s a dresser from his old bedroom full of his clothes before the age of nine. Nico’s heard of mothers capturing every moment of their children, but he feels like he’s standing in his own tomb.

 

Fortunately, Mammina doesn’t pull out his tiny suspenders and news cap. Instead, an aurae flounces around Nico after his first bath in days, brushing and shaping his hair, while a second one fits him in a suit that fits too well.

 

At the end, Nico’s hair no longer smells like bird poop and mud. It’s unbelievably soft as it’s combed back, with a three-tail golden earring dangling from his ear. His dress shirt is well-fitted, and his cufflinks match the green and turquoise feathers from his mother’s own bracelet.

 

When he’s dressed in his blazer, he’s reminded of his grandfather. Nico brushes his nose against the lapel, almost hoping to find Nonno Rafael’s cigars.

 

“So handsome,” giggles one of the aurae.

 

“Such beautiful hair,” coos another.

 

A third one reaches for a bottle of cologne. Nico steps out of her way.

 

“Oh, I don’t—” Nico stops.

 

She stares at him curiously.

 

“It’s just—” Jason liked the scent of his hair as it was. But the moment that thought travels through his head, Nico falters. “Never mind.”

 

The aurae spritzes him in a scent of sandalwood and rain. Nico reaches for a pair of brown oxfords—and they’re on his feet before he has a chance to touch the shoelaces.

 

For as irritated a Nico feels, his heart lifts the moment he sees his sisters. Bianca’s rat’s nest of hair has been eloquently curled and draped gently over her shoulders. Her makeup accentuates all the features Maria di Angelo kissed into existence, and she looks every bit the proper lady she tried to be when they were little in her emerald gown.

 

She’s arm-in-arm with Hazel—who’s dressed in flawless braids adorned with accessories meant for only children of the King. The fabric of Hazel’s dress makes Nico think of a setting sun over the beach.

 

He reaches out and kisses them both on the cheek.

 

“Don’t talk,” he muses lightly to Bianca, “you both look great.”

 

“Not the kind of reception I thought I’d get after finding Dad with his pants down,” Hazel says wryly, “but I’ll allow it.”

 

“Exit nearest to us is a glassless window,” Bianca reports—as their normal backup plan at this point. “In case something goes bad.”

 

They all nod sagely. The first rule of being a demigod: it always goes bad. They’re escorted down a hall by bubbly and effervescent aurae, where walls depict the great stories of the Olympian gods before they came to America. Nico wrinkles his nose at the three-hundred-year celebration of the marriage between the King and Queen of the gods—including his father’s ugly courtship, and the wives before.

 

“Three hundred years, huh?” Hazel mutters. “Must’ve been some really great wedding presents if they aren’t ready to part with each other.”

 

Nico snorts—and leans into his sister’s warmth.

 

“Papa was married a few times before Mammina,” Bianca explains. “Like Metis—Athena’s mom. Talk about irreconcilable differences he ate her. Then Themis—”

 

“Goddess of Justice, Fairness, and Divine Order,” Nico continues. “Not even she could keep his ego in line. A nice a goddess, though. I’m sure she and Jason get along swimmingly.”

 

At the mention of Jason, Nico pretends his sisters aren’t eying him sympathetically. Between their wild shake down of Aeolus in Colorado and an uncomfortable experience in Voluptas’s brothel in Vegas, Nico has all but talked through his feelings for Jason. Not that he wants to. But he doesn’t like that his first thought mid-spritz is whether or not Jason would find him handsome.

 

“Not to mention all the other lovers he’s taken over the years. Letus, Selene, Electra, Demeter—and so on. There’s probably an STD for every god or goddess he’s ever stuck a finger in,” Nico says, to negate that conversation. “And then some.”

 

Nico,” Bianca admonishes once more—but Nico shrugs. The aurae in front of them titters nervously—probably not used to anyone less than a god insulting Jupiter in his own home.

 

“Not that I’m complaining,” Hazel continues, unfazed, “I’m glad we’re siblings. But your mom…seems…”

 

“Prideful?” Nico guesses.

 

“Particular?” Bianca adds on.

 

“Above Dad,” Hazel says, with a careful tone. Bianca and Nico can’t help but not in agreement. “If Dad’s willing to take and drop lovers—like my own mom—” There’s a sigh hidden in Hazel’s tone, but whether it’s of frustration or disappointment, Nico can’t tell. “—then why is she determined to stay with him?”

 

“To protect her own reputation,” Nico says, and he smiles grimly, arms crossed over his chest. Hazel looks at him in confusion. “Mammina didn’t want to be with him. That’s the thing about Dad—he’s every 90s romcom playboy who enjoys the chase. Mammina was celibate before Dad turned to her. She wasn’t interested, so he tricked her.”

 

“Tricked her,” Hazel repeats.

 

Nico gestures to the small birds dancing around Hera and Zeus on the alter. “Dad turned into an injured cuckoo bird and Mammina tried to nurse him back to health. Then, when she went to bed, he—”

 

“Oh,” Hazel says—and her eyebrow wrinkle together.

 

“—‘forced’ her,” Nico finishes, using every bit of the venom that he felt when Jupiter suggested he do that to Jason in the bar. His chest is already boiling with rage.

 

Bianca touches him on the shoulder in efforts to calm him down. She flashes an exasperated look. “No god is flawless, despite what they want you to believe. Even my lady—I mean—sister Artemis.”

 

Nico snorts. He had the headache and very vivid memories of Jason snapping at Zoe Nightshade to back up that claim.

 

“But—Mammina’s tales have expanded far past that story. She’s the Mother Goddess, and the Goddess of Family,” Bianca says, trying to steer the conversation away from Nico’s bad mood. “And she’s the queen. She’s—”

 

“Notoriously known as hysterical and jealous by mortals,” Nico grumbles. He forces his own jealousy down from—not once, but twice now—when Mike Kahale had the nerve to hit on his Jason.

 

Not his Jason—he has to correct in his mind. Which makes him feel worse.

 

Hazel stares between both her siblings. “It was pretty cool how she made the barkeep wet himself. All she did was look at him.”

 

At that reminder, Nico’s anger subsides—at least a little. The corner of his lip lifts. “Yeah, that was pretty cool.”

 

The aurae in front of them finally stops. Nico’s stomach growls loudly as the scent of savory food fills his nostrils.

 

“Now presenting,” the aurae announces grandiosely, “Bianca and Nico di Angelo and Hazel Levesque—children to the King and Queen of Olympus!”

 

“Just the first two, Thalassa,” Juno corrects. “My little starlight and sparrow—my pride and joys! Hazel Levesque on the other hand—”

 

“Mammina,” Nico cuts her off with a warning tone.

 

Ever the typical mother, Juno rolls her eyes light-heartedly and shakes her head towards the rest of the dinner table as though to say, Kids just don’t understand.

 

Nico see sees Jupiter at the head of the table—disgruntled in face alone, infuriatingly dressed to the nines in a well-cut Italian suit and penny loafers. Athena is dressed more modestly, with her helmet having taken residence next to a dinner plate. Mars has his feet propped up against the table—and Aphrodite’s gown is better suited for the Met Gala, sparkling like a disco ball. It sparkles, as Apollo continues to smile kindly beside her.

 

It's then that Nico realizes he’s staring at twelve chairs meant for the court of Olympus.  

 

Mammina is effortlessly dressed in her white dress, ever the beautiful host. Her face softens in the presence of her children. She kisses them on both cheeks, and they instinctively lean into her warmth.

 

“Why, don’t you just look every bit like your mother, stellina?” Mammina whispers warmly to Bianca. She clasps both her hands on Nico’s shoulders. “And my sweet passerotto—such a handsome man! I can only wonder where you get it from.”

 

“Mammina,” Nico says again, “when you said family dinner—”

 

“I invited the whole family, obviously,” Juno finishes for him. She ushers them towards the dinner table, where the other eleven Olympians are indifferently waiting for them. “Get comfortable now! It’s not every day that we get to have everyone here.”

 

“Didn’t have to be,” Neptune mutters half-heartedly. “I had plans tonight.”

 

“Neptune,” Juno berates, “nobody cares. Fix your collar. Athena, dear, take your helm off the table. Mars—your feet are such a bloody mess! Why can’t you be more like my Nico?”

 

On cue, Mars’ head snaps to Nico with a myriad of cracked bones. Nico pretends not to notice. Instead, he’s cognizant in taking a seat between both his sisters to keep an eye on them both. They end up at the far end of the table, between Apollo and Hermes.

 

“Suck up,” Mars grumbles brutishly.

 

“Today we celebrate the resurgence of our king and Allfather,” Juno announces lavishly. She lifts a champagne glass from the table. “We thank our heroes, who perilously searched for him in this irksome rain, and brought him back in one piece!”

 

They all stare at her blankly—then she shoots a frightening smile.

 

Jupiter is first to lift his glass, his eyes dulled by the irritation of being caught. “Let’s celebrate the victories of our heroes and feast well tonight. Let the aurae pour wine for all except for Bacchus.”

 

There’s a grumbling closer to Nico’s side of the table—which is when he notices the God of Wine sullenly sober and popping a can of Diet Coke.

 

They feast, while the Muses in the corner sing a warm melody to set the mood of family dinner.

 

Bianca sweetie,” Aphrodite chimes in a warm tone, “you and my Piper are just so cute! I can tell she’s just head-over-heels for you!”

 

“Oh,” Bianca replies, startled. Her face glows red under the presence of the Goddess of Love. “Wow, that’s so good to know. Thank you.”

 

“Piper?” Juno repeats from the other side of the table. Her demeanor shifts into something else. “What happened to Calypso?”

 

Nico stuffs his face full of ambrosia salad. He watches as Hazel shifts in her seat, likely finally healing her sprained ankle, while Bianca pales.

 

“Well,” Bianca says slowly, “we, uh. Broke up a while ago. Piper and I have been seeing each other for a few months now.”

 

“Broke up?” Jupiter parrots, abhorred. “Why let her off that island then?”

 

“Because sometimes change is important,” Nico interjects between bites. His plate changes to a succulent slice of roast chicken that makes his mouth water. Nico ignores it long enough to try and catch his godly mother’s eye. “Sometimes when you’re stuck in a certain way for a long time, it loses meaning. Other things become important.”

 

“Well, that doesn’t help your sister’s broken heart,” Juno says obliviously, “now does it?”

 

Nico deflates. Hazel pats his arm sympathetically.

 

“Piper was the mediator between Greek and Roman demigods during the war, Mammina,” Bianca explains. “She was in the Labyrinth with the Fifth Cohort. She got them to Long Island.”

 

“Ah,” Juno says, penchant.

 

“They’re adorable,” Aphrodite gushes happily.

 

“And m’boy Frank,” Mars interjects, a hand happily on the table. He leans close towards Hazel. “You keeping him on his toes, little missy?”

 

Hazel arches an eyebrow at the little missy comment—and Nico hides a smile behind his fork.

 

“Frank did a good job preparing the funeral for his grandmother,” she settles on finally. “She and his mom would have been proud.”

 

At that comment, everyone turns to see how the god will react. Mars studies her even more carefully than before—and the corners of his lips lift with the surprising familiarity of his son. “Firecracker of a woman, that one. She’s still looking over him even in the afterlife.”

 

He says it with such certainty that no one questions him.

 

“Now,” Jupiter says with a finality that makes Nico’s skin crawl, “about your own love life, my son—”

 

“I don’t have one,” Nico interrupts, “let’s just eat.”

 

Jupiter,” Juno admonishes. She smacks him playfully like a loving wife—and Nico tries not to get annoyed by it. “I already told you that I’d handle that myself, my love.”

 

“Oh! The Hades boy,” Aphrodite coos—and Nico definitely feels his chest tighten. “Don’t you two have a colorful history? He’s just so sweet—

 

“So pale,” Juno tuts. “Nothing like my darling children. Look at them—kissed by the sun themselves—”

 

“Ha!” Apollo’s laugh is almost as annoying as their father’s. He puffs his chest out and winks at both Bianca and Nico. “I did a good job with them, didn’t I?”

 

“Please don’t touch me,” Nico says.

 

“He would look good with a tan, wouldn’t he?” Aphrodite comments.

 

Nico goes to roll his eyes—but then he does a double-take on the Goddess of Beauty. The form she takes disarms him. When he first stepped foot in the room Nico saw hints of his mother, with her perfect caramel skin and mischievous smile—but it almost looked wrong with the way Aphrodite carries herself.

 

It looks even worse, with the curve of Jason’s jawline and pale blond hair. The dimples of Jason’s smile stare back at him, with eyes that glitter like the evening of a new moon. Aphrodite’s Jason wears the suit Nico helped him pick out months ago, for Bart and Tim’s wedding.

 

Nico pushes his plate of food out of the way. He crosses his arms over his chest and looks away.

 

“Oh, a tan,” Aphrodite Jason repeats, looking at herself in a compact. “What a beautiful smile—imagine it with blue eyes! Such a beautiful jaw—he’d look quite bookish with some glasses—and some golden color in that hair of his—”

 

“Jason’s perfect the way he is,” Nico snaps. His cheeks glow red as he feels his sisters’ gaze. “Besides—your scar’s on the wrong side of your mouth.”

 

Aphrodite Jason looks back at him with charcoal eyes that are too annoying and too self-serving. A bubbly laugh falls in the timbre of Jason’s voice, and the scar reappears on the correct side of Aphrodite Jason’s face. “Thank you for checking me out, Nico di Angelo.”

 

Nico’s jaw tightens angrily. He feels both his sisters grab him from beneath the table. They didn’t want a repeat of what he did in Vegas.

 

“Aphrodite,” Athena calls from closer to the front of the table, “all you’re describing is a smart Apollo.”

 

“Oh—if it’s me you want to date, little brother,” Apollo interjects, “then I have the perfect son for you—”

 

“Not interested,” Nico snaps.

 

“My little sparrow is right,” Juno agrees. “He’s already in a committed relationship with Jason Grace. They came to me at a wedding altar in Disney World.”

 

Nico makes a sound. “I did not—”

 

“I think what Nico means is,” Bianca interjects—and she spouts the same words from earlier, “he’s going to decide who he wants to date, without godly interference. Or familial.”

 

Aphrodite and Juno both make a sound.

 

“Without godly interference?” Aphrodite Jason whines. She’s suddenly wearing glasses over Jason’s charcoal eyes. “That’s like making a cake without sugar!”

 

Date?” Juno echoes, scandalized. She stares at Nico, her perfect demeanor changing into confusion. “Why would you try to move on from him, passerotto? I’ve given him my blessing.”

 

Disney World was circumstantial, Mammina.” Nico’s cheeks emblazon with more heat—this time with anger. “And I’ve already told you that I don’t want to talk about this. We aren’t together and he turned me down. So please respect my wishes.”

 

Before Nico can figure out how lethally he can wield a fork and soup spoon.

 

Mammina is silent for a long minute. She turns across the table and looks at Aphrodite curiously. “I’m not mistaken, am I? The attraction is mutual.”

 

“Oh,” Aphrodite Jason waves her hand dismissively. “He’s just stuck on a different chapter of their story. Now—Jason Grace—

 

“As I’ve said before, my son,” Jupiter says out of nowhere, having finished over three-quarters of his plate, “nothing is out of your reach. You are my son. If you wish to bed the Hades boy, simply demand his hand and take it by for—”

 

“I—” Nico slams his hands on the table. “—will never do anything to align myself with the likes of YOU!

 

Silence resonates across the dining hall. None of the gods flinch. Jupiter is content simply driving a knife through the steak on his plate.

 

“Dramatic tonight, are we?” he mutters. “Obviously you get that from your mother.”

 

Nico is a comment away from lunging across the dining table with a steak knife in his hand. He notices the chary amusement in the air between all his godly siblings—and the natural poise Juno holds in the air of her husband’s stupidity. Nico looks between Hazel and Bianca, who would readily drag him back to his seat at his request.

 

Instead of gauging Jupiter’s eyes out, Nico sets his silverware down.

 

“May I please be excused?” Nico asks. He glares at his mother.

 

“Why—of course, passerotto,” Juno agrees. “Such polite manners. Nothing like your father.”

 

Nico politely places his linen napkin back on the plate.

 

Then he storms back to the creepy mausoleum of his room.

 

*

 

Sulking in his bedroom is the lesser of two evils when it comes to his family. Nico doesn’t want to hold the giant pillow of his head—but he knows just outright leaving his sisters to fend for themselves isn’t a good idea, either. He intends to go back to family dinner. Juno just happens to beat him back into the room.

 

Mammina glides across the length of the room like an angel and soundlessly sits beside him. Her hands are a feathery touch between his shoulder blades, like when he was little. “Have you calmed down, my sweet?”

 

Nico huffs angrily. “I don’t get why you’re still with him.”

 

“Who? Your father?”

 

“He is not my father,” Nico snaps viciously—and the hand on his spine ceases. When his anger isn’t followed up by a response from his mother, Nico loses steam. “You don’t even like him, Mammina. You never did.”

 

She doesn’t respond right away. Trust his luck that after his outburst, this would be the disrespectful thing that would get him kicked out of Olympus. Instead, Nico finds her staring out of the window thoughtfully.

 

“True,” she admits. “As his sister I find him a pompous ass. As his wife—at least he cleans up nicely.”

 

That’s your takeaway?”

 

“I can’t say I had the best male role models in life,” Mammina says wryly. “After all—most of my childhood was spent inside my father’s stomach. So far I’m doing better than Jupiter’s first wife.”

 

Nico snorts—and it’s the one ripple in his demeanor that Mammina takes. She reaches and pinches his cheek lovingly. “Mammina—”

 

“There’s that dashing smile,” she teases lightly. “Better than all the others at the dinner table.”

 

His smile fades, and he crosses his arms over his chest. “I’m not going back out there.”

 

“I’ve gathered,” she chimes, and she strokes his hair again. She sighs an old sigh. “Always in a rush with you. As soon as you were done eating your dinner, you wanted to go straight back into playing outside. Your nonna used to chastise me for letting you go.”

 

For as fond as she sounds, Nico feels the familiar sense of wistful yearning from his childhood. The one that always reminded him how far away that life was now—no matter the suspenders his mother put on him, or the way she brushed his hair.

 

“I saw a vision after we left you at Disney World,” Nico confesses quietly. The memory comes back—of his godly mother and grandmother standing around the kitchen and making dinner for all of them. “Nonna and Nonno gave you their blessing and their rings. They wanted you to marry Mom.”

 

Juno’s hand curls against the small of his back. Her voice soft—in the same tone that Nico finds ringing in his chest. “Did you find the rings?”

 

Nico has them propped against one of the shelves in his bedroom, for…whatever reason. He doesn’t know if one will come anymore. “Why couldn’t you just marry Mama? You loved her.”

 

He feels what all other demigod children feel. Nico’s seen the love grow in Sally’s eyes when she speaks of her summer romance with Neptune. He knows the depths of love Beryl Grace had for the King of the Underworld, and how Thalia and Jason were both loves from different parts of her life. For the gods, it’s a fraction of a second in their eternal lives, but for mortals—it changes everything for them.

 

Bianca, Nico, and Hazel changed everything for their mothers.

 

Nico never wanted Jupiter as his father. Not if that meant getting kidnapped and separated from his big sister. Not if it meant he followed in the tales of Jupiter’s infidelity and dishonor, while also being held as the so-called Allfather and King of the Gods. Nico liked the title of praetor so much better when he came into the role for family rather than to wield power. He knows the way Juno loved Maria di Angelo was different than the other gods.

 

Just like the love of her children inspired her to make broad (terrifying) strokes by placing them in a dining room with the rest of Olympus.

 

However, no matter the frustration in Nico’s voice, the Queen’s own tone doesn’t change.

 

“Oh, passerotto,” she whispers softly, pushing hair past his face. “What I had with your mother was irreplaceable. But the longer I stayed, the more I put my family at risk. And—some risks aren’t worth taking.”

 

“He gambles all the time,” Nico mutters. “For a nymph that stole his wallet, for gods’ sake.”

 

“A strong fiber in his tapestry,” Juno agrees. “Much like marriage is in mine.”

 

The question burns on Nico’s tongue once again—begging for his mother to leave—but after their dispute in the limo, Nico feels discouraged.

 

“Maria and I lasted as long as the Fates would allow,” Juno continues. She pulls him until his head is on her lap, and he feels small again. “I’m lucky they allow me to be a part of your second life, my sweet. I know your reluctance. You remember the part of my tale that is often hidden by the laughter of mortals.”

 

“Marriage isn’t the same as it was back then,” Nico reasons. “You could sue him for all he’s worth.”

 

“What worth?” Juno asks wryly. “He lost his wallet.”

 

At that comment, Nico can’t help another smile. He knows his mother catches it, too.

 

“While it’s true that our love story differs from most, I didn’t lose that day, passerotto. I think of the good that came of it. I am the goddess of marriage. Family. Commitments.” Juno sits taller—and through the nurturing nature of her tone, there’s still regality. “I am the Queen of Olympus. The children fall in line for him, but they gather for me. That part of my tale goes unnoticed—because I’ve outshined it with my own actions.”

 

Nico shudders at the confidence in her voice.

 

“So don’t feel bad for me, passerotto. I may be married to a buffoon—” Her tone turns mischievous. “—but he must suffer with me.”

 

His anger settles. He falls on his back and stares up at her. Mammina meets him with a kiss to the forehead, and the rest of Nico’s anger leaves with a quiet sigh.

 

“Feel better?” she asks.

 

“No.”

 

“That’s my son. Always so truthful,” she muses—and he rolls his eyes. “Now—about that boy, Jason Grace, and this blessing—”

 

“It’s…okay, Mammina.” Nico sits up from her lap and places a hand in front of himself. “I understand what you’re trying to tell me.”

 

If Nico wanted to recover from rejection, then he needed to focus on the good parts about Jason. The things he loved so much—without falling in love.

 

*

 

From the corner of his eye, Jason swears he sees Percy approaching Temple Hill. He thinks he also sees son of Neptune blatantly turning around and trying to scurry away.

 

“Percy?” Jason calls out.

 

The other demigod stops dead in his tracts, feet away from Juno’s shrine. Slowly, Percy turns around in a one-eighty, robotic spin and greets him with everything less than enthusiasm.

 

“Hi,” Percy says wryly.

 

“Hi,” Jason greets.

 

They stare at each other, with the steps of the Juno Moneta separating them from equal height. Percy sports a New Rome University sweatshirt, with the trident tattoo vibrant against his forearm. A crease appears between his eyebrows, and he looks nothing less than underwhelmed by Jason’s appearance.

 

Jason clears his throat. “I didn’t expect to run into you here.”

 

“I can say the same about you.” Percy shrugs nonchalantly and gestures to the temple. “I come and pray each day for Nico.”

 

Oh. “That’s really sweet.”  

 

They stare at each other a moment longer, with Percy refusing to bat an eye. Silence carries between them. Jason speaks first. Percy follows half a beat later.

 

“I was actually going to—” “—so I promised Nico—”

 

Again, they stare at each other, evidently not expecting the other to speak.

 

Jason clears his throat. “You first—”

 

“I promised Nico,” Percy continues, unprompted, “that the next time I see you, I’d apologize for acting like a dick at the restaurant.”

 

The argument between Annabeth and Percy feels so long ago that Jason has trouble remembering which restaurant Percy is referring to. Jason rubs his forehead thoughtfully. “Oh, uh. Thanks.”

 

“That wasn’t the apology,” Percy corrects. He grabs Jason by the shoulder and squeezes it, looking at the son of Hades carefully in the eye. “I’m sorry for being a dick at the restaurant. There. That’s the apology.”

 

“Uh…thanks. Again.”

 

“You’re welcome. I also promised that I would stop butting into his love life because my Care Bear Little Brother isn’t ten anymore and doesn’t need me to meddle,” Percy continues. He gestures into the air half-heartedly, and his expression hardens.

 

Jason had seen Nico and Percy arguing weeks ago in the parking lot—but Nico seemed fine the following Monday. Supposably, before his quest.

 

“So,” Percy declares, “I’m also sorry for trying to push you and him into a relationship in these last few months so I could sabotage it and point out why you were bad for him.”

 

“You did?” Jason’s eyebrows pinch together.

 

Percy gives him a look that reminds Jason way too much of Nico. The, I can’t believe you’re serious right now kind of look. “Whatever goes on between you and Nico is none of my business—and from what I’ve been told, nothing is going on. So, consider me a lifeguard off duty.”

 

“Okay,” Jason says.

 

“Now—what were you going to say?” Percy asks. He scans Jason from head-to-toe, makes a face, and then looks to the Juno Moneta. “What are you doing here anyway?”

 

“Oh, I—to ask for Hera’s blessing.” Jason feels his cheeks redden with heat.

 

“Blessing for what?”

 

“To ask Nico out.” Jason’s entire face burns, while Percy stares at him funnily.

 

Percy stares even longer. And squints. His mouth falls open, agape.

 

“Um,” Jason continues after an awkward beat, “actually, I was going to talk to you about—”

 

Wait—” Percy puts a hand up. “Wait, wait, wait—”

 

He pauses. Jason waits patiently.

 

“You like Nico?” Percy asks. “You like Nico? You—”

 

“Yes,” Jason cuts him off and pushes the hand out of his face. “I’m—I’m crazy about him.”

 

The corners of his lips rise. The more changes he gets to say it aloud, the more confident Jason feels. Percy, on the other hand, is staring at him as though Jason’s got a third eye.

 

“I was going to come to you next,” Jason continues, and he awkwardly brushes the back of his neck. “I…know that you and I haven’t seen eye-to-eye in the past—actually, you gave me a bloody nose, which—I’m…still trying to figure out.”

 

(Like always, his nose twitches at the memory.)

 

“But, I also know that for you that it comes from a place of love, and after witnessing it for myself with my own sister, I—I know why you’re so adamant about keeping Nico’s heart safe. I respect that.” Jason’s face twists doubtfully. “I…also hurt that. I don’t intend to do…that anymore. Ever again. So, it’d mean a lot if I could get your blessing too.”

 

Percy stares back at him, aghast. For every word that fumbles from Jason’s lips, Percy’s expression changes, until the son of Neptune has arms crossed over his chest. Then, Percy rubs his temples.

 

“You,” Percy says slowly, “like Nico.”

 

Jason pauses, wondering if he hasn’t elaborated enough.

 

“Dude,” Percy says next, his expression twisting with disbelief. “Holy shit, I was right—you like Nico!”

 

Jason nods again.

 

“Oh my gods, finally—he can stop sulking and this rain can go away—”

 

“Actually, I’m pretty sure this rain is from Zeus.”  

 

“—he’s probably on his way back now,” Percy continues. He vibrates with excitement, shaking Jason back and forth with a wide grin. “Holy shit, I called it. What are you going to say to him?”

 

“I—” Jason stops and grows embarrassed. “I’m not sure. I’ve never asked anyone on a date before.”

 

Just as quickly as Percy’s smile appears, it fades. He stares at Jason in disbelief.

 

“Wait, wait, wait—” Again, Percy waves his hands in front of himself in a Time Out. “—you asked for a blessing from Neek’s mom. And from me.” He pauses, then tilts his head expectantly. “Thalia?”

 

“You first,” Jason says. He thinks about it a little further, his heart swelling. “But—she kind of gave her own blessing a while back. I was planning on finding you after I was done here. Then Reyna’s.”

 

Percy stares at him more intensely. “You asked for my blessing before Thalia’s? Hold up—”

 

Again, Percy waves a hand in front of himself, looking at a loss.

 

“No one even asks for blessings anymore!” Percy says, his voice cracking with more dismay than Jason expects. “Geez—Grace—did you just crawl out of the 50s or something?”

 

Jason flashes a look, and Percy looks less condescending.

 

“Okay,” the son of Neptune says. “Fair point.”

 

“I—haven’t asked anyone out before,” Jason repeats, his face glowing scarlet. He gestures to Hera’s Roman statue. “Plus—I’d rather be safe than sorry with her as his mom.”

 

Percy pauses for another second. “Also a fair point.”

 

“Do…you know how to ask someone out?”

 

“Do I look like I’ve ever asked anyone out?” Percy cries. He yanks at his hair with his own hands—then pauses. Percy groans. “I can’t help you. I just promised Nico I’d stop meddling in his love life.”

 

“Well—”

 

“But he’s only like this because you turned him down,” Percy says—and he starts pacing the length of the temple. “And if I help you get there, then he can’t be mad at me.”

 

“Percy, it’s—”

 

“But he’s just good at finding a loophole in everything,” Percy laments, and he shakes his fists at the air again. “Gods, Grace, why are you so inconsiderate?”

 

“Percy—you really don’t need to help me if you can’t,” Jason says. He raises a hand before the son of Neptune can continue spiraling. “I just want to make sure you were okay with me asking Nico out after our…colorful history.

 

Mostly red. Jason’s nose twitches again.

 

As an afterthought, he adds, “Not that I need your permission. Just…figured it’d help, along the way.”

 

Percy stares at him thoughtfully—which at this point could either be a good or bad.

 

Before he can protest—Jason gets a sense. His heart soars in his chest—as the familiar sensation of Nico’s soul sparks against it. He cocks his head past temple hill and catches Percy following his gaze.

 

“Time to prove it, Grace,” Percy says.

 

*

 

The moment the di Angelos are back in New Rome, the clouds part. The setting sun reveals itself in the horizon—and even a rainbow stretches across the sky, as Iris the messenger goddess celebrates the end to the rainy season. Jason and Percy aren’t the first ones to greet the di Angelos. Thalia, much like Jason himself, must have sensed their souls back in New Rome. She and Reyna are in the middle of a group hug with the son of Juno—

 

“Bro!” —and before Jason can intervene, Percy also picks Nico up in a bear hug.

 

Instead, Bianca kisses Jason on the cheek. She smiles and stares at him from head-to-toe. “Well, don’t you clean up nicely?”

 

“Me?” Jason asks—but he grows distracted by his best friend’s own ensemble. Bianca wears a floor-length emerald dress that reminds him of a 1940s singer. A quiver of arrows hangs near her backpack—looking comically out of place, but very fitting for Bianca di Angelo, daughter of Hera and ex-huntress to Artemis.

 

“Long story.” Bianca sighs and pulls a lock of hair behind her ear. She lights up. “I should show Piper.”

 

He laughs at her excitement—and seizes when he sees Nico.

 

If Bianca looked beautiful, Nico was a knockout.

 

“Oh,” Jason hears himself say softly. “Wow.”

 

Nico, in a well-tailored suit and elegantly brushed hair. He looks…softer than before they left for their quest, and yet even more poised with his mother’s symbols at his cuffs. He holds the vivid shades blues and turquoise in honor of the Queen so eloquently—and when he raises his gaze to meet Jason’s eye, Jason’s heart skips a beat.

 

There’s a moment of displeasure before they lock eyes—and then a shift to Nico’s expression. The hue of the sunset only shows off his warmth. 

 

“Jason,” Nico greets—and with his name on Nico’s tongue, Jason feels another feeling swell in his chest.

 

Relief, because Nico came back alive.

 

“Nico,” Jason breathes.

 

“Why do you look like that?” Nico asks next.

 

Percy makes a noise. “Dude, you look like Mister Rogers.”

 

Jason blinks—and after a second remark about his looks, he takes the time to inspect himself. His normal jeans have been replaced with a pair of tan slacks. At his feet are a pair of penny loafers, accentuated with long gray socks. He wears a warm fall sweater and—his ears are suddenly cold. Jason reaches to touch his hair and realizes somewhere between Temple Hill and the di Angelo Residence, he got a trim.

 

“Worse,” Thalia says—and she makes a gagging noise. “You look like a JCrew model.”

 

“You did not look like that when we left the Juno Moneta,” Percy remarks.

 

“I—well,” Jason starts. Stops.

 

Nico’s eyebrows furrow, and he turns back to the son of Neptune. “You two left my mother together? Why?”

 

He shoots Percy a look that makes the son of Neptune stand straight. Percy’s demeanor shifts nervously—clearly fearful of meddling.

 

“Percy found me there,” Jason interjects—and Nico looks back at him. The golden earrings glisten against his ear and shines against Nico’s jaw.

 

Nico doesn’t look any less suspicious. “Why were you there?”

 

“Um.” The words, to ask for Hera’s blessing settles at his throat, as Jason realizes—he might’ve gotten Hera’s Blessing, like Ares to Clarisse or Aphrodite to Piper. He’s stunned by his own fit—and the very comfortable belt.

 

“Because Grace has something to tell you,” Percy blurts out. His voice startles Jason out of his stupor—and the son of Neptune gestures wildly with his hands.

 

Nico looks even more annoyed at his Fifth Cohort centurion—his posture growing tight. He crosses his arms over his chest expectantly. “Okay.”

 

Reyna, Thalia, and Bianca stare curiously—and Jason looks back to Percy helplessly.

 

“We need to leave,” Percy announces—and he herds Thalia, Bianca, and Reyna. Bianca makes a sound.

 

“Percy,” she snaps, “do I need to lecture you again?”

 

“No,” Percy snaps back—and he cradles his ear. “Trust me, this is important.”

 

Jason catches Thalia’s eye—and watches as her smile grows across her lips. She touches him on the shoulder.

 

“We’re going to have a talk after you’re done with this,” Thalia says—and she ruffles his hair.

 

“Okay,” he says—and he can’t help the smile.

 

They all disappear to—who knows where. Jason’s eyes lock with Nico once more, and nothing else matters. His heart swells at the sight of the son of Juno—and he’s too overjoyed to speak.

 

Nico opens the gate to the di Angelo praetorhouse, none the wiser. “After you.”

 

*

 

After how frustrating the quest to find Jupiter was, the only thing Nico wants to do is change and go to bed. Seeing Jason first thing after that disaster of a dinner is worse.

 

Especially since the last time they were together in Nico’s bedroom, Jason told Nico he wasn’t interested. That thought rots in Nico’s chest—and he tries his best not to let it show on his face. Jason follows him silently, while Nico shucks his quest backpack to the ground.

 

They’re silent for a long time. There was a time where Nico’d feel awkward—because he knows Jason must feel awkward—but all he feels now is tired irritation.

 

“How’d the quest go?” Jason asks softly. He sits on the same ottoman from last time, too.

 

Nico tries not to let that hit a sour chord. But he opens his closet door and screams.

 

“Oh,” Jason says after a long minute. “Uh—okay.”

 

“Mind if I get changed?” Nico grumbles. He shirks off his suit jacket and digs for a spare t-shirt. He’s relieved to be in a room that isn’t covered in his own face.

 

“Oh—um, sure.”

 

“What did you want to tell me?” Nico asks. He takes the earring out and finds relief to be in his own clothes. There’s a beat of silence between Jason and himself—one palpable enough for Nico to feel uncomfortable.

 

“I,” Jason starts softly, “was really worried about you.”

 

Nico’s heart flutters in his chest. He desperately demands for it to stop. Once he’s settled in a pair of comfortable sweats, Nico sits across from Jason on the end of his bed. He stares up at Jason and…tries not to get stuck in Jason’s orbit.

 

Except he’s already caught in the gravity of Jason’s eyes—like the dark depths of space. Aphrodite’s Jason was a poor (cruel) imitation of the softness in Jason’s face—and the delicate curve of his smile. Jason’s outfit is…abnormal for him, away from Hades’s leather jacket and weathered jeans—but it’s nice.

 

(Strangely, it reminds Nico of his mother.)

 

“I—” Nico starts. Stops. He’s reaching for Jason’s hand before he knows it—and knows better than to fulfill that gesture. Instead, Nico tucks his hands in his pockets, if only to protect himself. To make Jason feel less uncomfortable. “I told you that everything was going to be okay, Jason.”

 

“I know,” Jason says—and there’s a fullness to his voice. “I should’ve believed you.”

 

“Believe in me more next time,” Nico muses dryly—and his smile grows as Jason’s does.

 

His heart swells at the elation that fills Jason’s face. Nico thinks he could trace the dimples at the edge of Jason’s smile—deepened with every sweet word and gesture ever shared in their friendship.

 

And…that’s where Nico needs to stay, after an exhausting quest and revelation with Mammina. In their friendship.

 

“Um,” Jason starts again. He reaches out—reluctant—and suddenly holds Nico’s hand. His thumb pads Nico’s wrist bone. “So, after you left, I…kind of had a revelation—whoa.

 

Zzzzzt!

 

Nico shocks him. An anxious jolt passes through across their palms and forces a yelp from Jason.

 

“Sorry,” Nico says quickly—and he pulls his hand out of the way, cradling it between his fingers. “I didn’t—”

 

“That’s okay, really—” Jason waves his hand, which smokes—but then he holds his palm flat. “—I hardly felt it. The curse helps.”

 

Nico stares back at the son of Hades, at a loss. He holds his hand close to his heart—frazzled, from Jason’s sudden gesture after a full week and a half apart. Nico hates it. He rubs his temples instead and stands to his feet. “Sorry, Jason—I’m just. I’m not feeling very well.”

 

“You’re not?” Jason’s voice is filled with immediate concern. There’s a potent glee in the crevasses of Nico’s chest.

 

“Let’s just pick this up tomorrow at school,” Nico declares. He trudges towards the door, hopeful that Jason can’t notice the glow of his cheeks. “Okay?”

 

“I—” Jason stops.

 

Nico already has the door open, staring expectantly. Guilt wells in his chest—but Nico tells that feeling to stop, too.

 

Jason stares back at him, blond eyebrows furrowed together. He looks no different from their night at the crypt, when neither of them could find the right words. But finally—he gathers to his feet from the ottoman and slowly makes his way past Nico.

 

“Okay,” Jason agrees weakly. “Tomorrow.”

 

“Thank you,” Nico says—and he looks everywhere but Jason’s face.

 

“I…” Jason hesitates for just a moment. “Bye, Nico.”

 

“Bye, Jason.” Nico listens until the di Angelo Residence is free of footsteps. Once Jason is gone, Nico lets out a sigh of relief. He shuts the bedroom door behind Jason—and crumples pathetically at the door.

 

Notes:

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Chapter 15: nonna nicola

Summary:

“I—” Really want to get closer. Really want to hold Nico like in his dreams. Jason is there with Nico, but still too far way. “—I think…I’m ready to date.”

Notes:

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Chapter Text

Jason quickly realizes he has a problem.

 

When he goes to take off his fancy new sweater, a new one shows up in its place. He tries to slide off his loafers, but they’re glued to his feet. When he fiddles with the belt on his hips, nothing happens. (He runs into a strange loophole when he needs to relieve himself—but when Jason tries to leave the bathroom, his pants magically climb over his hips, and he trips over the door threshold.)

 

Thalia tries to cut him out of his pants. The scissors break.

 

“You went to the Underworld—and Proserpina forced Zagreus to take you to the Fields of Eternal Punishment,” Thalia recounts, as she tosses aside the dented scissors. She picks up their kitchen shears. “So you could get your heart back from that douchebag, Luke Castellan—and now you’re into Nico.”

 

“Well—not exactly.” Jason holds out his hand and lets Thalia hook the shears into his sleeve. “I…think I’ve always liked Nico.”

 

He’s just finally ready to move forward and embrace that feeling fully.

 

“And now you think Juno cursed you,” Thalia says. Their kitchen shears break, and she moves on to her dagger.

 

“I think I have Hera’s blessing,” Jason corrects—but he pauses. His eyebrows pinch together, and he stares at himself. “You think she cursed me?”

 

“Unless you like looking like a JCrew model,” Thalia remarks. She wrinkles her nose in distaste. 

 

“I…don’t mind it,” Jason admits—but his mind goes back to earlier—when Nico looked upset. “Do you think Nico likes it?”

 

At that question, his sister stares at him. She reaches over and ruffles his hair—then pauses. “Yikes, baby brother. It’s like moving a hand through jello.” 

 

“Nothing changed?” Jason asks. He reaches for a mirror and inspects himself. Sure enough, his fresh Good Church Boy haircut remains perfectly intact.

 

“I think Nico will just be happy with whatever you’re comfortable with. Mr. Rogers sweater and all.” Thalia flashes Jason a wry look. She wedges her knife into his shoe—and nothing happens. She curses under her breath—something about Pale Ken Dolls. “We should talk about you going to the Fields, though.” 

 

Jason gulps nervously. 

 

Thalia studies him carefully—and a sigh escapes her lips. She settles into the dining chair beside him. Instead, she addresses Nico again. “So you tried to talk to him and he pushed you out?” 

 

“Yeah.” Jason tries not to let the disappointment swallow him. Nico was incredibly quiet when he ushered for Jason to come in. 

 

There was a look of irritation that overshadowed everything else—and the words got lost in the back of Jason’s throat. All he wanted was hold Nico and reassure him everything would be okay. 

 

Tomorrow, he remembers repeating. Maybe Nico would feel better tomorrow. 

 

Thalia taps him on the knee when he becomes too lost in his thoughts. 

 

“I’m not happy you went to the Fields. I’m proud of you for breaking the rules,” Thalia quickly corrects, then flashes a pointed look. “But you’ve received your fair share of trauma in the last sixteen years. Agreed?” 

 

“Agreed,” Jason admits. 

 

“So how about this: I won’t stop you from trying to ask Nico out in the meantime,” she says. Then she aims a finger at him, semi-threatening. “But you’re grounded from your first date.” 

 

Jason smiles. He reaches over the table and gives her a tight hug. It faintly reminds him of his godly brother—but Thalia’s embrace is always warmer, with no strings attached. 

 

“Thanks, Thal,” he whispers. 

 

“No problem, baby brother,” she whispers back. 

 

Now, Jason just needs to figure out how long this blessing (or curse?) was going to last. 

 

*

 

Percy shows up at Nico’s door bright and early in the morning. He and Bianca stare at him eagerly the moment he steps out of his bedroom. 

 

Nico stares at his sister tiredly—who still has her perfect waves and looks too nice for her normal school blouse and skirt. 

 

 “Well?” Bianca asks immediately. 

 

“You two are together,” Nico grumbles. “That can’t be good.” 

 

They follow him to the bathroom and Nico adamantly shuts the door before they can join him on the toilet. He relieves himself, washes his face, and brushes his teeth. When he opens the door, Percy stands between him and the hallway like a giant wall.

 

Well?” Percy asks, just as eager.

 

“Well, what?” Nico asks in irritation. He stares at both demigods tiredly.

 

“How’d last night go?” Bianca pushes an unassuming Percy out of the doorframe, her lips split from ear-to-ear. “Percy told me everything. Did you and Jace talk?”

 

“None of your business.” Nico pushes past them both—and pauses in front of the son of Neptune. “What do you mean Percy told you everything? What were you and Jason doing hanging out at my mother’s statue anyway?”

 

“I—” Percy stops—and Nico can see the plan formulating in his head. “—actually, I was there praying for your safe passage home. I ran into Grace. And I apologized.”

 

He looks sincerely proud of himself.

 

“Really?” Nico is genuinely surprised. Knowing how badly Percy could hold a grudge, he half-expected the son of Neptune to turn around and disappear before Jason could notice him.

 

“Well, yeah.” Percy flashes him a look of faux offense, a hand on his chest. “Do you think I ever go back on my word?”

 

“Well,” Nico starts. He stops at the edge of his bedroom and leans into the frame. His gaze narrows at the son of Neptune. “For a second I thought you were going to tell me that you went there to threaten Jason into dating me. Which would be meddling. You wouldn’t meddle after making a promise to me now. Would you?”

 

He stares at Percy expectantly—and just like the day before, he doesn’t like the way Percy straightens under his gaze. When Percy does that, it means there’s something to hide.

 

Bianca pats the son of Neptune sympathetically on the shoulder. “It’s been a rough quest week for him.”

 

“All the more reason you should go see Grace to cheer you up,” Percy reasons. He claps both hands on Nico’s shoulders.

 

Nico groans emphatically. “Percy, don’t meddle. Bianca?”

 

He waits to hear her recite the same words from yesterday—move at his own pace and when he’s ready.

 

“I actually think Percy’s right on this one, Nico,” Bianca says instead.

 

“C’mon, Neeks—the birds are chirping, the sun’s shining for the first time in weeks! Don’t you want to celebrate that?” Percy shakes him with more verve. “You could, like, have a gay picnic at the Garden of Bacchus or something.”

 

Bianca’s demeanor twists and she looks between Percy and Nico. She mouths, Gay picnic? and Nico waves his hand dismissively.

 

“I want to sleep,” Nico corrects, and he opens the bedroom door behind him. “I’m writing a praetor’s note for myself.”

 

Percy’s expression immediately drops. “What—to ditch school?”

 

“To recover from this disaster of a quest.” Nico flops back into bed, face first.

 

“But Jace is at school,” Bianca protests.

 

Exactly.” Seeing Jason last night all but made Nico calmer. He thinks of the way Jason traced a pattern into his forearm—and how his entire body tingled at the touch. The last week and a half had him thrown into the wilds trying to find Jupiter—and was spent with the gods rubbing his rejection in his face.

 

For as much as Nico missed Jason since his departure, seeing him was only going to add salt to the wound.

 

“Neeks. Bro.” Percy crouches beside him on the bed, staring him adamantly in the eye. “I really think you want to go to school for this one.”

 

Nico makes a muffled response.

 

“What?”

 

He lifts his head. “I said I’ll write you a note, too.”

 

Percy’s demeanor shifts. He looks over to Bianca—apparently at a loss—and then looks back to Nico. Nico sighs.

 

“I just really want to sleep and play video games today,” Nico mutters. He crosses his arms over his chest and looks back to his old centurion partner pleadingly. “Can we do that?”

 

*

 

Jason paces the porch of the di Angelo residence, his heart beating anxiously in his chest. His penny loafers make a strange sound as they hit the floorboard, and he tries to ruffle a hand through his hair. Unfortunately—it glosses back into place, and his palm smells like hair balm. He goes to readjust his bowtie—and finds it still intact despite his restless (excited) sleep last night.

 

The door opens, and Jason fixes his posture.

 

“Nico—” He starts. Stops, when Bianca meets his gaze instead, surprised.

 

Bianca stares at him from head-to-toe, her eyebrows knitted together. Then her eyes fall to his hand. “Where in New Rome did you find a florist open this early in the morning?”

 

“Um. New York,” Jason’s voice cracks.

 

She studies him carefully until Jason grows self-conscious—and she shuts the door behind her. “Nico’s not feeling well after the quest. He decided to take the day off.”

 

“Oh.” The flowers in Jason’s hand wilt with disappointment. He quickly shakes them back to a merry blossom. “Is he okay? Does he have a fever? I can check on him—”

 

“He just really wants to be alone right now,” Bianca interjects, hand grasping at the doorknob. “With Percy.”

 

“With Percy?” Jason echoes. The disappointment rattles through him again, but he pushes it away. “Oh, um. Okay.”

 

“Want to tell me what you’re doing on my front porch with flowers?”

 

Jason blushes. He shakes the bouquet again until the roses are in full bloom and feels his stomach doing somersaults in his heart again.

 

When he looks at Bianca's face, he’s met with a charmed smile. She reaches out.

 

“How about I put those inside?” she asks. “Nico’s Get Well Soon flowers.”

 

“Right. Right,” Jason sucks in a breath and tucks hands into his trousers. He’s surprised by how roomy they are. “Get Well Soon flowers.”

 

She flashes him another smile that knows too much—then disappears into the house. When she reappears, Bianca links arms with him and guides them towards school. “Odd choice to wear that outfit two days in a row, isn’t it?”

 

“Is it?” Jason pretends he isn’t disappointed that Nico doesn’t follow his sister. Sure enough—he can count two souls still huddled in the di Angelo residence. He looks down to his sweater and trousers. “Thalia thinks your mom cursed me.”

 

Bianca stops them before they turn the corner. She stares at Jason, confused. “What?”

 

“When I asked for Hera’s blessing.” Jason jingles his other trouser pocket. There’s coinage there, like every old man over the age of fifty. “I…think I got her Blessing.

 

They don’t budge, while Jason inspects himself again. This morning he tried taking a shower. Not only was it a catastrophe trying to wrestle out of his sweater, but Jason came out of the bathroom smelling even more like magazine cologne.

 

When he peers back at Bianca, he sees her vibrating with excitement. Oh, right.

 

“So,” Jason starts—

 

“Why were you asking for her blessing?” Bianca asks innocuously.

 

Jason flushes red. The words all swell into a lump at his throat—but he finds himself unexpectedly shy to say them aloud. Instead, Jason tucks both of his hands in his pockets and shifts awkwardly between his feet. “I…um.”

 

Bianca continues to stare at him eagerly, while Jason feels his face flow darker.

 

“I—”

 

“You like Nico,” Bianca blurts out for him.

 

Jason jumps at her vivacity. He looks at her cautiously—then nods slowly. 

 

“And you asked him out yesterday,” Bianca continues, practically floating with excitement—then she stops. Halts. “But he was pretty upset this morning. Which wouldn’t make sense, considering how much he was sulking over you during the quest. I’d think he’d be excited to hear from you.”

 

“He was?” Jason—doesn’t know what to do with that information. He turns his head towards the di Angelo residence, wondering if his time would be better spent with Nico. If…Nico wanted his company.

 

“Well—he was sulking for a good reason. The gods—they…” Bianca’s eyebrows furrow together, and she pushes a lock of hair past her ear. “Well, you know how they like to get under your skin. They find a weak point and rip it open.”

 

Jason soaks in her words cautiously. He knows all too well what that’s like—with Eros, Orion, and Kronos belittling him for one reason or another—but the idea of the gods ripping Nico apart leaves him burning.  A protective surge swells in his chest. And another thought occurs to him.

 

“Oh.” Jason hates how it sounds in his ears. “I’m a weak point.”

 

“You did ask him out,” Bianca reiterates slowly. “Didn’t you?”

 

Jason looks back at her with the new revelation. His eyebrows knit together with frustration, and he slowly shakes his head. “No—I. I mean, I…started to, but. Then he just…looked so exhausted from his quest that I thought I’d wait until today.”

 

Truthfully, Jason wasn’t sure how he was going to say what he wanted to say. For the last two weeks in the Underworld, Jason tried to compose the right words for Nico--the perfect recipe for how he felt. But that involved…the gentle brush strokes and the richest ingredients. Jason had a thousand things he could say to Nico, but after how awkward things have been in the last few months, they had to be the right thing.

 

Which is why Hera’s blessing is so important. And Percy’s.

 

Nico had looked so handsome and stunning in that suit that Jason was at a loss of words for a different reason. Then…the thunderous look on Nico’s face—especially after Jason reached out for the hand he missed so much—made Jason want nothing more than to hold Nico and make sure he was okay.

 

Much like the first time Jason was in that room, it was over before he could ever get started.

 

Bianca only stares at him. With something he can’t really decipher. “Okay, we have to go back.”

 

She yanks at his arm, and Jason stumbles under her force. “We do—?”

 

“He’s only sulking like that because he thinks you don’t like him,” Bianca laments. “Oh my gods, what a drama queen. Jace, you need to tell him right now.

 

“We—wait, Bee—” Jason anchors himself to the ground and Bianca halts like a small dog on a short leash. “We’re going to be late for school. Aren’t you worried about all the classes you missed?”

 

Bianca stares at him in horrid disbelief. She gestures wildly with her other hand. “Late for—Jace, what’s one more day? Trust me—if this will get Nico out of his funk, then he needs it. Holy Hera, I’ll tell him—”

 

“Bianca.” Jason pulls her back, and she’s grounded back to reality.

 

She whirls around and stares at him expectantly.

 

“If…he needs a day with Percy after a bad quest, then he should have one.” Jason crosses his arm over his chest. “And…I think I need to be the one who tells him. When the time is right.”

 

When he could figure out the right way to ask Nico out, too.

 

Bianca grins. Her lips quirk into an overzealous smile—and she places hands on his shoulders.

 

“So,” she says softly, “you’re telling me you’re finally ready to date again? After Luke?”

 

Jason’s chest swells. Bianca’s smile is infectious—and his own lips lift. He pauses, and awkwardly brushes the back of his neck—fingers tucked into the collar of his shirt. “We…never actually talked about what happened between Nico and me. You and me, I mean. Um.”

 

He clears his throat.

 

“Not my business,” Bianca gives him a reassuring squeeze and smiles. It fades ever-so slightly. “I’m…really sorry that I made you go on that first date with me.”

 

If it weren’t for that, Jason wonders how things would’ve gone in Odesa with Nico instead. He…wonders if they would’ve gone to the museum in Odesa and revisit the varenyky place Nico enjoyed.

 

He’s thought about that place every night since he told Nico he wasn’t ready—before Jason realized that he was. If Jason could take it all back, he would—but he’s not sure how much longer it would’ve taken to find his heart in the Fields. If he ever would.

 

And—Jason is determined to commit all of himself to Nico.

 

“To be fair, I didn’t realize it was a date.” Jason rubs his forehead self-consciously. “Leo called me a himbo when I apologized.”

 

(Whatever that was.)

 

Bianca bows her head and giggles.

 

“Oh—” Jason stares at her humbly. “Are…you okay with me asking your brother out?”

 

She stares at him curiously. Then with amusement. “Are you asking me for my blessing to ask Nico out?”

 

“Well—”

 

Bianca jumps up and down. She throws her arms over his shoulders and squeals with glee.

 

*

 

The first hour of hooky is spent playing video games. Percy is nice enough to go to Fabiano’s and bring back a dozen donuts. Nico nibbles on a chocolate donut with sprinkles and beats Percy in three rounds of Mario Kart. The second hour is spent teaching Percy how to play Bloodborne and retrieving the PlayStation controller after Percy’s twentieth death.

 

They get through the first few story points of the Last of Us and take a break for lunch (half-eaten delivered pizza delivered by Don the Faun.) Percy and he play a few rounds of Among Us with noobs. After the fifth ejection, Nico realizes his poker face isn’t even good enough to deceive twelve-year-olds on the internet.

 

“Bro—did you know there are flowers at the front door?” Percy asks him.

 

Nico lifts his head from a bowl of over-buttered popcorn. He pulls a kernel off his face. “I think Bianca got them for me. The Get Well Soon card is in her handwriting.”

 

Percy doesn’t respond right away. “A bit extra for a Get Well Soon gift from your sister, don’t you think?”

 

Nico gestures to the countless picture frames that cover the walls of their house. “We’re di Angelos, Percy. Extra is normal.”

 

“Uhuh,” Percy says doubtfully—though Nico has since given up trying to decipher the oddities in the son of Neptune’s voice. He rounds the coffee table and places the flowers in front of Nico. Sure enough, there’s a Get Well Soon card written in Bianca’s neat cursive. “So, you ready to talk yet?”

 

“No.” Nico gestures vaguely to his game shelf. With his other fist, he crams popcorn into his mouth. With some herculean effort, he manages to say, “Load up the next one.”

 

Percy rolls his eyes emphatically—but agrees. He stands to his feet and scans the shelf. “Dude. Your games are out of order.”

 

“Don’t even joke about that.” Nico pushes to his feet and brushes off Cheeto crumbs from his shirt.

 

“Chill out, it’s just the one.” Percy’s lips twist with a familiar (stupid) amusement and he plucks the misplaced game from the bookshelf.

 

Nico feels another punch in the gut as soon as he sees it. He sits back down and sighs.

 

“You didn’t overwrite our Windwaker file, right? That’s the first time I’ve ever one-hundred-percented—” Percy turns around to the image of Nico sprawled over the couch, moping in his sea of popcorn and donut sprinkles. Percy puts the game down. “Oh my gods. He actually ruined Zelda for you.”

 

“Don’t. Meddle.” Nico raises a hand from his cocoon. He stares at the bouquet.

 

Twelve roses stare back at him. He reaches out and thumbs the petals. Beneath his finger pads, they feel like velvet. Of the dozen in front of him, eight are fully bloomed, delicately dressed, and saturated in hue despite the November cold. Four seem to be past their life—in the beginning stages of wilting.

 

“Did you know my dad helped Pluto court Proserpina?” Nico asks quietly. “He grew beautiful rose bushes that enamored his daughter and gave Pluto the credit. Proserpina was so impressed that she was swept into the Underworld.”

 

And so went the centuries-long debate of the Rape/Kidnapping of Persephone and Narrative-Changes that Suit Only Jupiter, the Most Annoying and Stupid.

 

“Uh…no.” Percy scoots the flowers out of the way and takes a seat across from Nico. “Thalia only likes to tell the metal stories about her dad and stepmom.”

 

“Dad also annoyed Ceres into marriage. Or an affair—depending on who you ask. He lives in the drama of debate,” Nico mutters. He crosses his arms over his chest. “Or worse.”

 

“Right. Scholars,” Percy mutters. “You and Reyna. Nerds.”

 

Nico blows a bang out of his face. He turns and faces the son of Neptune in a half-hearted wolf-glare.

 

Again, Percy sighs. He rips the lone rose from Nico’s hand. “You haven’t called Jupes your dad in like eight months. What the hell happened during this quest?”

 

Nico exhales a tight breath. He turns to his side and buries his face into a couch cushion. To his surprise, he feels Percy nudging him in the shoulder.

 

“C’mon, Neeks,” Percy urges. “It’s just you and me now.”

 

Nico peers back to his old co-centurion. He knows from the look on Percy’s face that Percy’s just been humoring his bad mood. Percy doesn’t usually mind going through the motions with him. So long as they led somewhere.

 

“You told me you were fine about the whole Grace thing,” Percy reminds him. “And you were moving on.”

 

“I told you I just needed time to move on,” Nico grumbles into a throw pillow. “Time punched me in the face. And forgot to give my dad pants.”

 

And made a whole mockery out of Jason’s entire life—but Nico decides he should save the sympathetic misery he had for Jason’s life for after dinner.

 

Percy makes some noise—whatever it’s supposed to mean.

 

Nico sits up and ruffles his hair. He lets out another sigh and rubs his temples.

 

“We started at Pike’s Peak with Aeolus.” Nico picks up a bowl and collects the popcorn kernels scattered across the couch. “The plane ride goes smoothly from Canada. Our stewardess turns out to be a harpy, and we jumped out of a plane. We take a day’s journey in the snow. I hate snow.”

 

He wiggles his fingers unprompted, so they can graze over the Nico Turned Into a Cloud conversation.

 

“—a venti hits on Bianca. I punch him. Bianca’s blackmailed by Aeolus into hosting Channel Six news,” Nico mutters. “I get a conversation how this month-long storm is my fault because of my unrequited feelings for Jason, and I just don’t want to admit it.”

 

Percy sits up straight in his seat. “Oh. Okay, but—”

 

“Aeolus gets kneed,” Nico says simply. “And he says sometimes after a long day of work, the gods like to unwind by going to a brothel in Vegas. Where they’re still legal. Bianca tells me to hit on the bouncer. We’re stalked by Lamia.”

 

“Lamia?”

 

“Some thirst trap who thought she was smarter than my mother,” Nico mutters. He waves a hand dismissively. “My dad had an affair with the bogeyman.”

 

“Sounds about right.”

 

“Lamia tries to tell Hazel she’s worth nothing and my dad will abandon her too.”

 

“You kill her?”

 

“Naturally,” Nico says. “Then we go to Voluptas’s brothel—”

 

“Voluptas?”

 

“Goddess of pleasure,” Nico says—and he makes awkward gestures with his hands. “Where I get—thrown into a room full of—”

 

“Okay,” Percy raises a hand. “Fast forward on that one. Give me the tl;dr.

 

“Dad found a pretty nymph—per usual—and took a hop and a skip to Seattle for a quick screw. She stole his wallet.” Nico smiles grimly. “Then Mammina karened the barkeep and whisk us away to Olympus for a terrible family dinner for everyone to remind me that Jason Grace doesn’t like me back. And dear old dad tells me to just force my way with him.”

 

There’s a silence between them.

 

“Oh-kay,” Percy says finally. He scratches his head loudly. “Level with me here, Neeks. You ever consider…just maybe Grace likes you back?”

 

“Have you been listening to a word I’ve said?” Nico’s eyes dart back to Percy, and he notices Percy twitch.

 

“Well, yes.” Percy strokes his chin awkwardly and leans back against the coffee table. “But—”

 

“You threw a week-long tantrum when I told you he turned me down,” Nico interjects. He glares at the son of Neptune, annoyed. “I had to take you out for ice cream just so you’d calm down. We had a fight over it, Percy.”

 

Percy stares back at him, twitching. He shifts awkwardly. “Okay. I know I promised I wouldn’t get involved—”

 

“Then don’t.”

 

“But—”

 

Percy.

 

They sit across from each other tensely. Percy clamps his mouth shut and shakes his fist tensely. Nico’s arms remained crossed over his own chest, gaze narrowed.

 

Finally, Percy bows his head and exhales. “Okay. I have something that may cheer you up. Jason Grace-free.

 

*

 

Class goes by at an excruciatingly slow pace. Jason can’t change for dodgeball, so he’s stuck flopping around in his penny loafers. He gets a ball to the hair, and his head returns it as twice the velocity. In art class, Jason drops a glob of paint on his trousers, and it dribbles to the floor. (They don’t stain.)

 

Leo laughs at him for a straight five minutes in calculus. Reyna arches an eyebrow during history class, and Jason reassures her he’s gotten the full Mr. Rogers and JCrew jokes. Leo managed to make a fine comparison with the Man in the Yellow Hat.

 

Mike Kahale is…less than thrilled to see him in chemistry. Jason awkwardly rubs the back of his neck, trying to figure out the best way to apologize.

 

“I’d, um, offer to make it up to you. Somehow,” he says slowly, “that might backfire with. My plans. For—”

 

“Uhuh.” A clap on the shoulder from Mike is almost enough to make Jason fall out of his seat. “Look—as a son of Venus, I respect you. As a straight-A student—”

 

“I’ll, uh, tell the teacher I ditched.” Surely, it wouldn’t surprise one of their teachers that Thalia Grace’s little brother could do such a thing.

 

After reminding their teacher that Thalia had a last name and serving a (reluctant) detention, Jason leaves school while the sun begins to fall behind the hills of New Rome. Annabeth is waiting for him at the edge of the school. She halts as she scans him from head-to-toe, and she goes to ruffle his hair.

 

“You look like my dad,” she muses. “When he’s giving a lecture at school. He’s in sweats when he’s playing with his model airplanes, you know.”

 

“Sounds like your dad is Hera’s kind of guy then,” Jason remarks. His hair returns to its Frat Bro Chad style and he rubs his forehead.

 

Annabeth stares at him in amusement, as they make their way towards the via principalis. “You really got detention?”

 

“Yeah.” Jason awkwardly shrugs. “He was pretty reluctant to give it to me. He keeps forgetting I’m Thalia’s brother.”

 

“Because you admitted that the note Thalia wrote for you wasn’t because you were sick,” Annabeth reminds him, from their text chain.

 

“I’ve also got a grounding to look forward to. Eventually.” Jason rubs his forehead again and looks to the daughter of Athena. They stop at the corner of his apartment complex. “Being a normal teenager is weird.”

 

“You…going to tell me about why you needed to take a sudden trip to the Underworld?” Annabeth asks, arms crossed over her chest. There’s a rigidity to her voice—one that Jason recognizes from his own. “All of a sudden, after over a year? With no warning, except for news I have to hear from your sister?”

 

Jason’s chest aches. “I…saw Luke.”

 

He can almost feel her heart stop. Annabeth’s gaze grows hollow. She looks at him, lips pressing into something worse than a frown. Her mood flips like a switch immediately, and Jason can practically see the fumes coming out of her ears. “You did what?”

 

“I—”

 

Jace,” Annabeth seethes—and she yanks at the front of his shirt. “You are the last person that needs to be down there, talking to him of all people! What if you’d gotten hurt? What if he tricked you again?!”

 

“I didn’t,” Jason reassures, his hands raised in the air. “He didn’t.”

 

Her gaze is fierce as she drags him down to eye-level. Jason knows better than to argue—after all, if there was anyone in New Rome that could snap him in two from a judo-flip, it’d probably be his best friend. There’s so much fury in her gaze that it takes a moment for Jason to realize it’s directed at someone else. Not him.

 

“You’re…mad at him?” Jason asks quietly. “Not…me?”

 

That’s enough to disarm her. And to get her fist out of his shirt. Annabeth inspects him—where sure enough, his bowtie and sweater remain perfectly intact, then she crosses her arms over her chest.

 

“You’re not off the hook for going down there,” Annabeth chastises. There’s a way her eyebrows furrow, where she looks conflicted. “As for Luke…that’s—”

 

“Complicated,” Jason finishes for her. A mixture of love and hate, with the urge to move on and the weakness of drowning in all of Luke Castellan again. “He wanted me to tell you that he’s sorry about everything that happened.”

 

Her expression changes until Annabeth looks small. Like they’re six and seven again, holding on either one of Luke’s hands.

 

Much like with Luke, Jason sits her down at the nearest bench. He…focuses on the Luke aspects more than Nico. Knows that it’s important that she hears about him more. For most of the conversation, she’s quiet. Her eyes flit to Jason when he finds himself struggling—but eventually, he gets to the end.

 

Annabeth cocks his head back to him, eyebrows pinching together. “You…didn’t try to convince your dad to change his sentence?”

 

Jason shakes his head. “He didn’t want me to. Luke’s choice was to stay down there.”

 

Once again, she falls quiet. For all the times she yelled at Jason until her voice was raw, she looks softer now. Jason isn’t sure what to expect from his best friend. What to say. Then—“How are you feeling?”

 

Jason mulls over her question. He’d written in his journal for the first time in months how he felt after leaving the fields. Nothing, for Luke. Yet…everything, for Nico at the same time. It’s an aged scar against his heart—something he finally has back. He’s not drowning in remorse, like he used to.

 

“Like I can finally move forward,” Jason says finally. “And…finally stop feeling bad about it.”

 

Annabeth’s expression shifts. The corner of her lip curls into a smile and she nudges him in the leg. “Had to go all the way to the Fields of Punishment to learn that lesson? To get your heart back?”

 

Jason flushes red, like he did with Bianca. “Dad always said the easy path wasn’t the right one. This one, it…felt like the right one.”

 

She laughs quietly and leans into his warmth. “You tell Grover?”

 

“Sort of. I’m sure I’ve got a patented, ‘I didn’t mean it like that—'” Jason pitches his voice and wiggles his shoulders. “—coming for me soon enough.”

 

Again, another chuckle leaves Annabeth’s lips. It’s a chary sound—then it fades into an emotion that Jason knows all too well. Grief.

 

He wraps an arm around her and presses a kiss to her forehead. A year ago, Jason was relieved that she’d gone missing. Now he’s happy to have her by his side. “How about we go to dinner to take our mind off things?”

 

Annabeth turns to him in curiosity. “What about Nico?”

 

Truly, Jason’s mind has been nowhere else but the son of Juno all day. But—a quick scan of the via principalis lets him know that Nico’s nowhere near them. Neither is Percy. And—if there’s anyone that can make Nico feel better, then it’s the son of Neptune that loved him like a brother.

 

Still, Jason tries not to let the disappointment show. He struggles with a smile. “What’s another day?”  

 

It’s much easier to get through as Annabeth smiles back.

 

*

 

They started this scheme when Nico first got to Camp Jupiter. He didn’t know very many people and refused to be with anyone other than Thalia for the first few weeks. Percy was a magnetic presence who helped relieve Thalia of big sister duty when Nico became too much. Because…back then, when he lost Bianca, Nico knew it was because he was too much.  

 

So, he spent many weeks as a new legionnaire toddling after Percy. Percy was a…steady presence the weeks after the Casino. And erred on making Nico smile more than soothing him back to sleep when he missed Bianca.

 

Percy reasoned, that if Nico was from the 1940s, then he deserved the senior citizen discount at most restaurants.

 

Every restaurant argued they already received a legionnaire discount and politely said no (after giving Nico an unnecessary happy meal.)

 

Also—Nico didn’t look old. So, Nonna Nicola was born.  

 

And according to Percy, no one argued with a senile old lady when she waved a cane at you. People did that plenty in New York.

 

It’s a stupid idea. Nico’s almost twice the height he was at ten. Percy makes the unwise decision to raid Bianca’s closet for something loose and old-timey and puts one of her scarves over his head. He reaches for spectacles from who-knows-where—and Nico’s transformation is practically complete.

 

“You know this is dumb, right?” Nico asks. “It’s been five years. You told the sushi place I was 103—they’re bound to wonder why your grandma is still alive.”

 

Percy snorts—maybe a little too proudly. He conjures a cane from somewhere obscure and molds Nico’s hand over the handle. “Like Thalia would ever let you die.”

 

That’s your takeaway?”

 

“Hey—either you’re my immortal grandma or you scare them into thinking you’ll be New Rome’s next lar.” Percy readjusts the shawl over Nico’s shoulders and pushes him into a crouch. “Don’t forget to work on your voice. You’ve got to sell it.”

 

Nico rolls his eyes. All this to get an extra scoop of fried ice cream at dinner.

 

“Wow, you look so hot, maybe a lar will pick you up.”

 

Nico whacks him with his cane.

 

“Ow!” Percy rubs his shin dramatically.

 

“Sorry, polpetto—I’m getting into character.” Nico pitches his voice into a raspy tenor. Instead of Percy cursing him to oblivion, the son of Neptune doubles over laughing. The shift in the air is enough to make Nico laugh, too.

 

They hobble down the streets of New Rome, while Nico channels what his own grandmother would’ve been like in old age. It involves a lot of reeling Percy back when the son of Neptune walks faster than his old bones and pinching Percy’s cheeks as roughly as possible when they run into people.

 

“You…were a legionnaire?” asks Hector, an unsuspecting child of Apollo from the Third Cohort.

 

“Was I in it?” Nico mocks in his best impression of Nonna Laura with a thick Italian accent to boot. “I was too good for it! You’re looking at the only woman to ever go through Camp Fishblood.”

 

“Nonna Nicola has a very good rapport with my dad,” Percy explains with grace. “We came from pirates.”

 

“Oh,” Hector says. “Like Praetor Reyna.”

 

“Praetor Reyna wishes her family was as cool as mine,” Percy gloats—which is where Nico whacks him again. “OW! Grandma!”

 

“Don’t be disrespectful, polpetto,” Nico snarks. “But yes, our family is very cool.

 

Nico makes a note to invite Nonno Reyes at a different time. Reyna liked to see how their civilians acted without leadership around.

 

They make their way to the sushi restaurant at an impossibly slow pace, Nico arm-in-arm with his seabound grandson. The hostess doesn’t blink twice when she sees Nonna Nicola and Percy. She matches Nico’s pace to the nearest booth, while Nico showers her with compliments.

 

“My grandson is still single,” Nico remarks when they’re settled with menus. “Don’t worry about him asking you out—he’s not known to follow through.”  

 

Hey!” Percy looks ready to strangle him—but Nico only raises a gloved hand.

 

“I say the things I do out of concern, polpetto.” Nico hides a smirk behind his menu and eyes their hostess—Jan—lovingly. “He’s a cranky boy before his eggrolls.”

 

“Gee, Nonna,” Percy mutters, “maybe no eggrolls tonight. You know how gassy you get.”

 

Jan, the hostess, gasps on Nico’s behalf. Nico reaches out with all the power of the Goddess of Mothers—and gives Percy’s cheek a rough pinch.

 

“Just like every dirty diaper I used to change when you were a baby, polpetto,” Nico remarks in a sickeningly sweet voice. He almost scares himself. Nico looks back to Jan in good humor. “We call him meatball for a reason.”

 

She smiles at them uneasily—the true sign of a too-close family in public. But—Jan nods her head respectfully in Nico’s direction. “Let me know if you need anything, ma’am.”

 

Then she scurries back to the hostess desk.

 

“Feeling better yet?” Percy muses.

 

“Please. I’m on edge until we get that ten-percent discount on the receipt,” Nico mutters tiredly—but the edges of his lips are curled into a good smile.

 

Percy scoots closer on the booth bench with a righteous chuckle. “I can’t believe we’ve been in the Legion this long and haven’t had to use Nonna Nicola as a tactical maneuver.

 

“Who says I haven’t?”

 

“Without me?” Percy looks offended.

 

The waitress comes by and brings them water. Percy jests for an extra glass for Nico’s teeth, and Nico holds back the comment of needing a kiddie menu for his childish grandson. True to Percy’s question though—he does feel better. Nico is no longer in his prison of stale popcorn and rose petals.

 

“Hey—this means we can start up the War Games again,” Percy remarks. “It’s the first sunny day in months. You know the Fifth is itching to thrash some people.”

 

“That should be fun.” Nico finds himself genuinely looking forward to it. He also has a string of winter weddings that must be performed over the weekends—but it’s a conversation for another day, after his own schoolwork.

 

“So,” Percy says eventually, “I was thinking after dinner, we could stop by—”

 

“Is that Jason?” Nico cuts him off.

 

Sure enough, Jason and Annabeth walk into the restaurant and greet the hostess. It takes all but a second for Jason to freeze—and turn in their direction once more. Nico’s heart skips a beat when Jason’s eyes fall onto him.

 

“Oh,” Percy chimes, “perfect.”

 

Annabeth suddenly peeks over Jason’s shoulder, and her expression twists—which is when Nico remembers he’s still dressed like an old lady. He’s ready to bury himself in his girdle when Jan walks past them. He’s ready to bury Percy when the son of Neptune waves his hands.

 

“Hey!” Percy waves his arms emphatically to flag her down. “Beth, Grace—come sit with us!”

 

Nico yanks his hand down. “What are you doing?”

 

Percy stares at him in confusion. “Getting them to join us.”

 

“We do not—”

 

“Are you all together?” Jan asks when she makes it to their table.

 

Nico locks eyes with Jason and feels his nerves bristling. It’s a cold reminder of their disaster of a dinner only a few weeks ago.

 

“Um,” Jason starts slowly—the same time Percy emphatically says, “Yeah!”

 

Again, Nico whacks Percy with his cane.

 

Ow! Nico!” Percy rubs the bump on his head, and then slams his hand on the table.

 

“Nico?” Jan echoes, one eyebrow arched in confusion.

 

“We’re just close, darling,” Nico reassures—and he watches as Jason’s demeanor breaks into something of a laugh. Red glows in Nico’s cheeks and he ignores the impending doom swelling in his chest. “Yes, I forgot. They’re with us. You can sit them here.”

 

Jan eyes them curiously—but does as she’s told. She disappears in a scurry once more—probably to get away from their weirdness. The waitress comes by and grabs their drink order. Then—

 

“Beth, Grace,” Percy starts—he looks back at the bewildered Greek demigods. “Have you met my grandma? This is Nonna Nicola.”

 

Annabeth is the first to break. She shoots Percy a look of disbelief—something along the lines of, What Did Your Kelp Brain Do Now?—but she rubs her temples. “Do I even want to—this is a joke, right? Please tell me this is a joke.”

 

“We’re related on my dad’s side,” Percy continues without missing a beat. “They give us a senior discount when she visits.”

 

Annabeth looks like she doesn’t know whether to laugh or bury her face in her hands.

 

“What do you think, Grace?” Percy moves on, throwing an arm around Nico enthusiastically. “Do you see the family resemblance?”

 

Jason reanimates at his name. With Percy’s words, he looks between the pair. “Um—”

 

“Didn’t you wear that yesterday?” Nico interjects, free of his shrill Italian accent. He inspects Jason once more—from the well-kept hair, sweater, and bowtie and—slacks, that Nico had noticed from the entrance of the restaurant.

 

The son of Hades startles at his question—more than Nico expects. Then Jason reaches up and rubs his own forehead. He ruffles his hair—which then magically fixes itself. “I…think your mother gave me her blessing last night.”

 

Dread coils in Nico’s stomach. He sits up straighter in his seat, jaw tightening, and his gaze narrows. “My mother did what?”

 

Percy waves a hand in front of them. “Gonna stop you right there. Jan—hey, Jan! Mind getting Beth and I a different booth?”

 

The startled hostess stops in front of them, confused. “Aren’t…you having dinner with your grandma?”

 

“Oh, she’s fine. Grace’ll keep her company,” Percy reassures. He slides out of the booth and holds out a hand expectantly for Annabeth. She stares back at him, distraught—but agrees to sidle out of her side of the booth.

 

Percy,” Nico hisses, and he reaches for Percy’s other wrist. “You said you wouldn’t meddle.”

 

“I’m not meddling.” Percy looks scandalized. “This is me getting out of your hair. Grace doesn’t mind. Right, Grace?”

 

Jason blinks. “Well—”

 

“Cool,” Percy says—then he yanks Annabeth’s hand along. “C’mon, Beth.”

 

Jan, once more—eyes them all curiously—but doesn’t protest. Nico makes a mental note to leave a generous tip before he leaves. As of right now—he’s stuck in front of a very confused Jason and wants to pluck his own eye out with a fork.

 

“Are…you avoiding me?”

 

The question is quiet. The timbre of Jason’s voice makes goosebumps rise against Nico’s skin, and his palm tingles from their conversation last night. Nico raises his gaze, and he’s once again met with the charcoal hue of Jason’s irises. There’s sadness there as Jason’s pale eyebrows lightly knit together.

 

“No,” Nico says quickly, his voice raspy on its own. “That’s not—I wasn’t—”

 

Yes. He was avoiding Jason.

 

Jason looks troubled—which suddenly feels worse than avoiding him. Nico thinks about Aphrodite’s Jason from the night before—too arrogant and lavish for his taste. This Jason is much more muted in emotions—which only makes the worry on his face feel so loud.

 

Then he clears his throat when Nico is too frazzled to give a right answer. “Bianca…told me that the quest was rough.”

 

Nico twitches. He tries not to feel annoyed about that.

 

“Bianca told me the quest was rough,” Jason repeats, suddenly fiddling with the hem of his sleeve, “because of me.

 

Nico thinks he’s going to throw Bianca’s phone into the ocean as soon as he gets home. But—he doesn’t deny it. Nico doesn’t even breathe. He doesn’t inhale or exhale—he just looks at how self-conscious Jason grows, looking even less comfortable than before the quest happened.

 

“I came by this morning,” Jason says next, when Nico doesn’t respond. He touches the back of his neck awkwardly. “Um—there was something yesterday, that I…really wanted to talk to you abo—”

 

“I’m sorry,” Nico cuts in. He pushes the old-lady spectacles up and pinches the bridge of his nose in frustration. He doesn’t think he could squeeze hard enough.

 

“Do…you want to talk about what happened?”

 

Did Nico want to talk about the excruciating experience of traveling across the States to find his horny dad so it would stop raining? To prove that the storms weren’t his fault and that he was handling this ordeal with Jason perfectly fine? Yeah, right.

 

But—one look at Jason makes him realize the son of Hades is serious. Nico’s been getting a lot of those faces from Jason lately. Less of those dimpled smiles and quiet laughs that made his chest bubble. There’s a no on his tongue, like Nico’s told Percy all morning. But—dressed in a girdle and spectacles, Nico doesn’t know if he could hit a lower rock bottom in front of Jason.

 

“My…dad made a comment that rubbed me the wrong way,” Nico says finally. He fiddles with the pearl bracelet on his wrist and taps his foot into the floorboard.

 

That statement apparently confuses Jason right off the bat. “Sorry. Your dad?”

 

“Jupiter,” Nico says—and he smiles bitterly. “I…don’t really want to get into the specifics.”

 

There’s no way to candidly mention that Jupiter insisted he just force himself onto Jason. Jason could probably brace the news—but that didn’t mean he needed to hear it. Or—Nico was overthinking it—and that thought made him even angrier.

 

To his surprise, Jason reaches over and brushes a hand over his. It doesn’t startle Nico like it did yesterday—not the firmness of Jason’s grip.

 

“That’s okay,” Jason says quietly.

 

Nico stares at their interlaced hands longer than he intends. An awkward moment evidently passes—and Jason self-consciously slides his hand back. A sigh escapes Nico’s lips. He feels as old as he’s dressed.

 

“I’ve, just—” Nico starts, fiddling with his skirt. “—I’ve spent the last eight months doing everything that I can to honor my mother. We’ve reconstructed parental leave for all legionnaires. I’ve blessed every wedding this past summer. I’ve—I’ve delivered more babies than most gay teens can say in their lifetime.”

 

He flashes a tired look and finds Jason smiles mirthfully. Nico ignores the way his ears glow pink.

 

“Yet—Jupiter…he makes one comment, and it…just reminds me about everything I hated about being his son.” Nico’s throat constricts. “He didn’t even bat an eye when he called Bianca and me his children. It felt like any time I raised my voice, he was right. And I hated that.”

 

There’s very little Nico will ever thank Jupiter for. Jupiter’s the reason why their family was separated. Jupiter was the reason why he forgot his own mother—for a gamble that Nico never wanted to be a part of. Nico could get many things based on his father’s name—but that didn’t make it right. Much like how blackmailing Juno into marriage wasn’t right, either.

 

And—Aeolus was probably right. The first few days of storms were Nico’s fault—but that was what he hated about Jupiter. They continued for six straight weeks, festered by his godly father.

 

“Nico—”

 

Nico can’t help his grimace. He didn’t even say what Jupiter kept insisting, but he’s afraid for Jason to hear it. Jupiter is every part of Nico that he hates.

 

“You’ve…acted like a son of Juno long before I met you.”

 

It takes all of Nico not to scoff. Jason doesn’t deserve his irritation.

 

“I’m serious,” Jason says quickly when it shows on Nico’s face regardless. “Remember? You were telling me about your childhood, and I got confused because I thought you already knew.”

 

At that recollection, Nico grows reluctant. He peers back up at Jason doubtfully.

 

“You,” Jason begins, holding up fingers as tick marks, “are the reason why all three Roman children of the Three Kings get along so well. You kept order on the Argo II after Thalia and Reyna fell to Olympus. I mean—I’m still trying to figure out how you got in the middle of the Mediterranean.”

 

“With eagles.”

 

“Yeah—but for a journey that long they probably wouldn’t have made it. Or worse—they might’ve needed to be put down by the time they landed,” Jason reasons. The corner of his lip curls into a smile far too sweet. He shrugs emphatically. “You got them there because you were worried about everyone. Your family.

 

Nico wrinkles his nose. He shakes his head. “I…don’t know if it works that way.”

 

Jason is quiet for a long time. Nico worries his attitude is far too foul for the son of Hades.

 

“Speaking as someone with a lot of dad issues myself,” Jason muses quietly. “I can tell you that you seem to shine the brightest when you’re doing things for Percy and the rest of them. And—”

 

Nico peers back up to him doubtfully. Jason reaches out once more, one thumb brushing over Nico’s knuckles.

 

“—I can say that I definitely feel better around you,” Jason finishes.

 

The touch is delicate across Nico’s hand. He feels the hairs on his arms tingle with Jason’s graze—and the knot of anger in his chest loosens. For one unguarded moment, Nico lets himself drink in Jason’s reassurance—and it floods him with a peace that was lost earlier today.

 

“Thanks,” Nico says quietly.

 

“You’re welcome,” Jason whispers in the same soft tenor. He hooks a thumb around Nico’s wrist bone, and Nico lets the touch linger this time—finding solace in Jason’s comfort. “Plus—”

 

He tightens a hand over Nico’s wrist so quickly that Nico’s pulse skyrockets.

 

Jason’s demeanor shifts—into something of an odd smile. “Your sperm donor kind of sucks.”

 

Nico stares at Jason. He’s not sure whether to laugh or make some other sound. “You called him my sperm donor.”

 

“Well—” Jason’s demeanor change—into its usual cuteness when he’s perplexed. “—that’s what you call him.”

 

“Yeah, I just—” Nico rubs his arm thoughtfully, where his legion tattoo stares back at him. “—I can’t even get Bianca to call him that. I mean—maybe we have a different relationship with him. I certainly do a lot more yelling.”

 

“For her benefit,” Jason reminds him. “For everyone’s.”

 

For mine, Nico almost hears. He can see it in Jason’s eyes. Jason says the words with such a certainty that Nico’s flattered.

 

Red glows in Nico’s cheeks. He’s caught in a bind—the fine line laced between bliss and worry. Jason’s hand remains on his own—but the back of his head yells something else. Against every part of him that wanted this to continue, Nico pulls his hand away from Jason’s own. He’s afraid to look at Jason’s face a second time.

 

“Pretty crazy you remember all of that,” Nico murmurs softly, trying to keep the nervous tremble out of his voice.

 

“I’ve…uh.” Even Jason’s voice sounds shaky, and Nico hates that he let the moment last too long. “I’ve had a lot of time to think about things, I guess.”

 

“Yeah?” Nico asks faintly.

 

“Turns out my delivery of that news could’ve been better,” Jason continues, his own voice strained. “I mean—well, I’m not. Very good at words. At least I wasn’t back then. Maybe I’m still a little fuzzy on them.”

 

Nico snorts. “I’m not sure. That was quite the speech you just gave.”

 

Jason doesn’t have an immediate response. His demeanor is timid—and Nico wonders if he said something wrong.

 

“Tell me more about this,” Nico says hastily—if only to salvage their conversation. 

 

For some reason, Jason startles at that, too. He (cutely) readjusts the bowtie on his neck and clears his throat. He looked everywhere but Nico’s face. “I…was. Um. I showed up at Temple Hill after…well.”

 

His voice is more stilted the longer he talks. More timid. Nico’s chest burns with annoyance. “My mother did this?”

 

Jason peers back at him—then nods.

 

Nico recalls Jason’s words—and again, his jaw tightens. “My mother gave you her blessing.

 

Again, Jason nods—and he’s red, likely suffocating from the bowtie around his neck. “I—”

 

It dawns on Nico what happened—based on his conversation with Mammina from the other day. He lets out a loud groan and buries his face into the table.

 

“Um. Nico?”

 

“I am so sorry,” Nico says. He peers back up, chin resting across his arms, and he glares at Jason. More specifically—Jason’s outfit. “My mom. She’s got this weird idea in her head that we’re married.”

 

“What?” Jason’s voice cracks.

 

“Because the first time we summoned her was at a wedding altar in Disney World,” Nico reminds Jason. He smiles with exasperation. “Do you remember what she said to us?”

 

Jason’s eyebrows knit together, thoughtful. Then, verbatim—“Am I here to bless a union?”

 

Again, Nico groans. He wants to bury himself in the appetizer Percy and he ordered. “I’m sorry. Going on this quest means I was pretty much the butt of every joke and taunt that the gods could come up with.”

 

“That shouldn’t have happened to you,” Jason says immediately. Fiercely. His hand is on Nico’s again. “But…Nico, I don’t think…I mean—”

 

“Are you in pain?” Nico interrupts. He pulls his hand away and inspects Jason carefully. Again, Jason’s eyebrows furrow with discomfort, and Nico forces himself to inch back.

 

“Well,” Jason says, “figuring out to pee was a struggle. And I had to shower with my clothes on after gym. But, Nico, I really don’t—”

 

“I’ll help you fix this,” Nico says. He rubs his temples tiredly. “I mean. I’ve never been on the receiving end of one of Mammina’s blessings—but there has to be a way to fix this.”

 

Jason doesn’t answer right away. He settles into the booth cushion behind him, his expression changing into something else thoughtfully.

 

Nico grows nervous in his silence. “Anything to add?”

 

At that question, Jason meets his eye. Then, Jason coughs awkwardly, ears growing red. “Um…no. I don’t think so.”

 

He seems meek. Nico feels awful. Again, he apologizes. “I’m so sorry.”

 

“It’s not—” The corner of Jason’s lips twitches. “It’s fine, Nico. I’m just glad we’re spending some time together.”

 

Nico’s chest flutters. He shoves the feeling as far down as he can, his hands twitching. Before he can say, me too, he asks—“Okay. So let’s think of how to get you out of those clothes.”

 

Jason stares at him in amusement, and Nico flushes red.

 

“Figuratively speaking,” Nico corrects himself. Not…the other way.

 

They both fall quiet in thought. Nico pretends not to notice Jason staring—knowing if he took in Jason’s line of sight that he’d only grow more self-conscious. He thinks about the realms that his mother rules—marriage, childbirth, family, so on—and everything that could undo his mother.

 

Divorce comes to mind, but Nico is only reminded of his irritation when Jupiter and Juno both dismissed it. Reyna explained that Piper, Hazel, and she found Juno in a cage, but Nico hardly thinks putting Jason in one of those would help him feel better. 

 

Then Nico sneaks a peek at Jason, as the son of Hades also tries to find a solution while they eat. Jason doesn't look upset about the ordeal, but Nico knows from experience how far down Jason is willing to shove his feelings for others. So, Nico stays irritated for them both, knowing Jason’s only comfort is brushing the cursed spot on the back of his—

 

Nico puts his chopsticks down abruptly. “Jason.” 

 

Jason startles at the address. “Nico?” 

 

“You said that sword of yours was made out of a special metal forged in the Underworld,” Nico says. “Stygian iron. From the River Styx?” 

 

Jason stares at Nico with large, coveted black eyes. And As Nico predicted, Jason raises a hand to the back of his neck. “I—yeah.” 

 

Nico grins. “The oath-binding river?” 

 

“Yes,” Jason confirms. His eyebrows furrow together. “Where are you going with this?” 

 

“The River Styx is so powerful even the gods fear it. We made them swear over the river this past spring to keep their end of the bargain.” Nico’s practically vibrating. 

 

Jason’s eyes adorably widen as he finally catches on. “So what’s more powerful—”

 

“The Goddess of Commitments,” Nico finishes for him, “or a sword of oaths?”

 

*

 

Nico seems so thrilled by his own plan that nothing else matters. Jason sees the light sparkling in Nico’s eyes with excitement—so he gives into it. They finish dinner quickly—which looks odd while Nico is wearing spectacles and a shawl. Jason ignores the waving Percy does in the booth behind Nico’s head—instead taking in Nico’s enthusiasm.

 

When they stop outside the restaurant, Nico’s expression changes. Jason’s afraid he’s messed up somehow.

 

“Is going to Camp Halfblood okay?” Nico asks quietly. “And—I mean—that sword. If…there’s another way that you’d like to find—”

 

“Oh,” Jason says—and he can’t hide the smile in his voice. Trust Nico to be worried about him. “It’s actually here in my apartment. I took it home with me.”

 

Nico peers back at him now, looking curious beneath his cat-eyed spectacles. Black eyebrows pinch together, and Nico leans on his cane. “Why?”

 

“Um—” Because nothing terrified Jason more than having Nico out on a quest without him, and Jason needed every part of him in one place for Nico di Angelo. “—to…cut sandwiches?”

 

Nico stares at him, confused. Jason didn’t imagine he’d get so tongue-tied in Nico’s presence.

 

“Absorbing the souls of the grains is…good seasoning,” Jason says lamely. “The point is, it’s here.”

 

“Okay,” Nico says—and he doesn’t press further.

 

“I could shadowtravel us there,” Jason blurts out next. Nico jumps at the volume of his voice.

 

The son of Juno arches an eyebrow under his narrow spectacles—but unlike so many times before, he doesn’t immediately dismiss the thought. Instead, he reaches out for Jason’s hand. Beneath the shawl, headscarf, and glasses, Jason’s compelled to offer his elbow.

 

They appear in his bedroom. Jason picks up his sword from his middle shelf. He runs his fingers over the roses carved into the sheath and brushes his hand over the skull pollum.

 

Jason pauses, as he notices Nico inspecting his room curiously.

 

“Something wrong?” Jason asks. He can’t help feeling self-conscious.

 

“No,” Nico admits. “It’s just really clean in here.”

 

Jason looks around himself. Books he’s picked up over the years line his shelf. His bed is neatly made, without a dirty shirt in sight. His notebooks are neatly stacked on his desk, with every pencil put away in an NRU mug Annabeth gifted him. His journal sits beside his Nintendo Switch.

 

“My mom do this too?” Nico asks.

 

“No,” Jason says—and he can’t help his own smile. “That’s, uh. All me.”

 

“Are you sure Thalia and you are related?” Nico muses. “Because right now I’m not sure if you’re the same species.

 

Jason can’t help but laugh at that one. “Well—she keeps calling this a curse.”

 

“This,” Nico echoes lightly—then he scans Jason’s outfit once more. “Right. How do you want to do this?”

 

Jason considers his question. He unsheathes the sword carefully and inspects his bowtie. Slowly, he wiggles the bowtie with what little give he’s graced and slides the edge of the sword beneath the knot—where hilt met blade. Jason gives it a firm shove—and nothing happens.

 

“Darn it,” Jason whispers—and he gives it another forceful swipe.

 

Sssst!

 

The smallest rip fills his ears.

 

“Oh,” Jason says, propping his arm cumbersomely, “I think it’s working.”

 

His heart does a somersault when Nico tugs at his hand. Nico moves the sword out of Jason’s grasp and stares at him with wary eyes. “I don’t think I like how close that sword is to your neck.”

 

Jason stares at the other demigod. “Why would that—?”

 

Oh, right. His hand flies to the back of his neck, and Nico looks like he’s biting a laugh.

 

Jason tries to untuck his shirt. He yanks at his leather belt, then tries to toe off one of his penny loafers. Much like this morning, it ends with more physical exertion than he intends, and his sweat smells like magazine cologne. Nico studies him the whole time, while Jason settles on the bed with a heavy sigh.

 

“Um,” Jason says—and he stares at the hem of his trousers. “I…guess you could stick my sword up my pants?”

 

This time, Nico stares at him with amusement. There’s no telling how red Jason’s face is.

 

“You’ll have to hold the sword carefully,” Jason says instead. He slides off the bed into Nico’s orbit. The moment his leg bumps into Nico’s, he feels the other demigod stiffen. Jason scoots an inch away. “Oh—um—”

 

“Go on,” Nico says tersely.

 

Jason exhales gently. “This…blade is—”

 

“Meant to absorb souls,” Nico finishes for him—despite how long it’s been since Jason’s told him that.

 

“Right. So don’t let your fingers go past the hilt,” Jason says. The hilt feels foreign between his fingers after such a long time—but it doesn’t shake him nearly as much with Nico at his side. Nico molds his hands around the handle with due care, eyes fixated on the intricate design of the blade.

 

“Okay.” Nico pulls the spectacles away from his eyes, rips off his headscarf, and ties the shawl around his hips like a jacket. “Get back on the bed.”

 

Jason swallows hard. He obliges, sitting at the edge of his bed with Nico knelt on his floor. He extends a leg out, while Nico studies him. Too long. “Uh…Nico—?”

 

“You’re sure this won’t hurt you,” Nico says carefully.

 

“Oh—no. Just like yesterday,” Jason says. He waves his hand from last night. “I shouldn’t feel a thing.”

 

There’s a shift in Nico’s expression—rotten, for some reason.

 

“Right,” Nico mutters, “like yesterday.”

 

Before Jason has the chance to ask, Nico takes hold of his foot—like an old Italian shoeshiner. Jason shudders as cold metal presses against the bare span of ankle. Nico halts.

 

“No, it’s fine,” Jason says. “Keep going.”

 

Nico nods reluctantly. He angles the sword carefully into Jason’s pant leg—three-feet of stygian iron pressed against Jason’s trouser. There’s an awkward silence, as Nico twists the sword, and the outline appears against Jason’s fabric.

 

“Not a lot of room to work with,” Nico muses. “You okay?”

 

“Surprisingly comfortable,” Jason admits.

 

Nico is crouched against the edge of Jason’s bed, fingers curled firmly into the handle of the sword. He—jimmies it, gently, jostling Jason’s foot as he does so.

 

“You could be a little rougher,” Jason says—and he pauses as Nico looks back at him. Jason’s face glows red. “Um—”

 

“Right.” Nico stands to his feet. He wields the sword carefully in one hand as he does so and reaches for Jason’s desk chair. “Let’s…do this.”

 

Without request, Nico props Jason’s foot into a chair. He plants one hand against Jason’s nightstand, then squeezes the sword firmly. It’s an odd feeling of blade against Jason’s thigh—but he’s fixated on the way Nico’s hair sways with each swift jerk. No matter the way Nico’s hands glide across the blade, his touch is gentle.

 

“Okay,” Nico says eventually. “I think I’ve got this.”

 

“I trust you,” Jason says softly.

 

Nico peers back at him with bright blue eyes—teeming with a clever electricity. It’s the same hue Jason spoke wonders about to Grover only weeks ago. “Okay. One. Two. Three—”

 

RSSSSSSSSSST!

 

“Whoa—” “—oof!

 

He yanks the sword hard against Jason’s pantleg like a lever. The seams of Jason’s trousers snap thread-by-thread, with his own blade firm against his thigh. Nico falls forward, headfirst into Jason himself—and Jason quickly catches the son of Juno by the shoulders to prevent a first-class concussion. The force against the bed is so sudden that Jason’s nightstand shakes—and both his journal and Switch fall onto the floor.

 

“Ha!” Nico shouts, his eyes glued to Jason’s leg.  There’s a grin on his face—handsomely victorious. Then—“Oh—”

 

He scrambles off Jason’s lap and practically flies back to the floor before Jason can process what’s happening.

 

“Sorry—” Nico says—and he drops the sword on the ground. “I didn’t mean—”

 

“No, Nico—it’s fine.” Jason’s quick to stand to his feet.  He gestures to the wide fissure in his pants—then instinctively removes his belt. It comes off with ease, and he waves his bare leg in the air. “See?”

 

Nico stares at him, practically burning holes in Jason’s hands. He shakes at his place across from Jason, and the son of Hades feels his own heart rate rising.

 

“Nico,” Jason continues again, “I’m fine, I promise—”

 

“Two demigod children of the Big Three,” Nico mutters incredulously, “and we didn’t think to snap your belt with the sword first.”

 

Jason pauses. When he looks at Nico next, the son of Juno smacks a palm against his own forehead. Nico lets out a sound—and it’s hard to tell if it’s frustration or a laugh. Jason hopes for the second one. He chuckles softly, shimmying out of his tattered pants.

 

“We got there in the end, didn’t we?” Jason asks. The pants pool at his feet—and he’s satisfied to find them staying off. Jason works on the tail end of his shirt next.

 

Nico clears his throat.

 

“Oh.” Jason pauses midway through. He peers back at Nico, only to find the other demigod, red in the face. Jason’s own ears glow, flustered. “Um, sorry—”

 

“Nothing I haven’t seen before. Because of gym class,” Nico corrects himself—and he’s quick to walk the length of the room. “Sorry—I made a mess out of your room.”

 

“Nothing I haven’t seen before in this apartment,” Jason echoes lightly—which thankfully lessens the tension.

 

Nico smiles, as clumsy and reluctant as it is. Then, he reaches around Jason’s neck and pads fingers around Jason’s collarbone. Slowly, he untucks Jason’s camp necklace out from beneath the horrendous Chad sweater. All thirteen beads.

 

“There,” Nico says gently, in his sweet tenor. There’s a glow to his cheeks—hair in a flurry from their current task, but his gaze is steady. He…looks at Jason, a firm glow to his irises and steady in pulse. “You already look more like yourself.”

 

 Even more now, his graze is a feathery touch against Jason’s heart.

 

“Let’s,” Nico starts, moving to the mess around him, “get your room back to—”

 

“Nico,” Jason cuts in. He reaches for Nico’s hand before the other demigod can pull away—to capture every strand of hair and refraction of light against Nico’s warm skin. Jason drinks in the sight of Nico di Angelo like every time before—but with Nico’s pulse beneath his thumb. His chest bubbles with a comfort he’s felt since his birthday, when Nico came to see him in his cabin—and maybe even longer. Definitely longer.

 

“Yes?” Nico asks—after who knows how long. “Jason?”

 

“I—” Really want to get closer. Really want to hold Nico like in his dreams. Jason is there with Nico, but still too far way. “—I think…I’m ready to date.”

 

The words are soft at Jason’s mouth. He stares at Nico hopefully, at his heart flips into the air, waiting for the other demigod to catch it.

 

There’s a flicker in Nico’s eyes that Jason doesn’t recognize. Nico’s gaze lingers a moment past comfortable, into something else. Then—

 

“Oh,” Nico says—his voice in a slight discord. “Well, that’s. Nice.”

 

Nice? “Nico—”

 

“I’m glad I—that you—” Nico pulls away from Jason’s air, his gaze on the ground. “—it’s nice that you feel comfortable enough to tell me that.”

Nico picks Jason’s opened journal—with a sudden silence.

 

Jason swallows hard—every thought about Nico di Angelo ever written sitting at the palm of the son of Juno’s hand. “Nico—?”

 

“I should go,” Nico says curtly. He sets Jason’s book back on the nightstand and skirts Jason’s glance. “I—let me know if you need help with that.”

 

“But—”

 

“Bye, Jason.” Before Jason can protest, Nico is out the door—and gone, again.

Chapter 16: war games

Summary:

The next time Jason sees Reyna is their history class. She slings her backpack over her seat and stares at him with the intensity of a wolf.

“Uh,” he says. “Hi.”

“Hi,” Reyna greets. “I need you to ask Nico out.”

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

The Saturday after Nico helped Jason out of his pants (figuratively speaking), Percy has a big dumb grin on his face.

 

“So?” Percy asks, the pitch of voice almost repetitive from the day before. He plays with a pen on Nico’s desk before going to feed the principia’s resident goldfish.

 

It’s the same look he gave Nico after returning from Olympus. Nico’s nose wrinkles in the same fashion as he readies himself in wedding attire. He’s dressed in longer robes, looking more like a priest to Jupiter and less like himself.

 

You acted like a son of Juno long before I met you. Jason’s voice is as gentle in his ears as the quaint chime of his earrings.

 

Nico hates how much his heart bubbles at the thought.

 

Neeks,” Percy practically begs, “what the hell happened between you and Grace after you left?”

 

“Something happened between you and Jason?” Reyna asks curiously. She returns to the room with Nico’s headpiece, and he curses as she pinches his hair.

 

“Not really,” Nico mutters. He inspects himself in the mirror. “I took a sword to his pants to get him out of his clothes.”

 

Reyna pauses, while Percy chokes on—something. Julius Seastar the Goldfish spirals in his fish tank.

 

“Neptune’s beard, Neeks,” Percy says—

 

“Could you repeat that?” Reyna interrupts.

 

Nico rolls his eyes as he latches the second earring to his ear. He feigns annoyance—but only to overshadow the rotten envy in his chest. “My mom—she blessed Jason after this stupid conversation that I had with her and the rest of Olympus. You saw him the other day—he was dressed like—”

 

“Beth’s dad?” Percy asks, while Reyna chimes in with, “Bill Nye?”

 

“—a northeastern Chad,” Nico adds on without missing a beat. He pauses long enough to look the son of Neptune with suspicion. Nico’s reminded of his own irritation. “Where did you go last night, anyway? What kind of grandson leaves his nonna stranded at a restaurant by himself?”

 

“Nonna,” Reyna repeats carefully—then she looks ready to laugh. She turns to Percy. “You rolled out Nonna Nicola?”

 

“Could’ve used your back up, Nonno Reyes,” Percy says solemnly. He pats the daughter of Bellona gently on the back—then meets Nico’s irate gaze.

 

“Well?” Nico asks, pulling as much of his mother’s command as he can.

 

“Hey—we were two booths over,” Percy says quickly. “You two looked plenty happy on your own little date—”

 

“What date?” Nico repeats, fuming. “I was wearing a girdle. You literally hopped out of the booth and took Annabeth with you.”

 

“Did you and Annabeth go on a date?” Reyna asks curiously.

 

“What? No, of course not.” Percy shakes his head, baffled, then looks back to Nico’s red face. “Look, Neeks—keep going. You got Grace out of his pants, right?”

 

Nico’s ears glow—but he knows the son of Neptune is only choosing his words to spite him. So, Nico selects his next words just as prudently. “We were trying to figure out how to undo the blessing. Otherwise he was going to smell like hair balm and magazine cologne until Mammina thought I divorced him.”

 

Which—might lead to another undeserved punishment for Jason that would only anger Nico more.

 

Percy raises a hand before Nico can continue. He massages his brow. “Okay. Are you sure you have the right idea about your mother’s blessing?”

 

“Do I think I recognize whether or not my mother turned Jason Grace into a Grade-A prep boy for her own pleasure?” Nico asks wryly. He places a cuff on his wrist.

 

“Yes,” Percy says—and then he stops himself. “Well—okay, no. Jason and I were—”

 

“Anyway,” Nico continues, looking to Reyna instead, “Jason has this sword made of Stygian iron that was forged in the Underworld. So, it raised the question—what’s more powerful—a sword of oaths—”

 

“Or the goddess of marriage,” Reyna finishes for him. She looks at him approvingly. “Impressive. And your findings?”

 

“The sword won,” Nico says. There’s a childlike glee that’s hard to hide from his voice. Everything up to that moment was really cool.

 

“Wait—” Percy interjects again, hopping onto Nico’s desk so he can’t be ignored. “—so, the two of you didn’t go on some magical date.”

 

“Not unless you count his bedroom as a date,” Nico says flatly. He raises a hand as Percy flashes a look. “Not like that.

 

“But you got him out of his pants,” Percy repeats.

 

“Figuratively speaking,” Reyna chimes in—and Nico flashes her a grateful look.

 

As he settles into his wardrobe for the afternoon, Nico lets an inkling of…that disappointment fester in his chest. He stares somberly in the mirror, knowing it’s the same look he held when he stormed out of the Grace apartment. The feeling had hit him like a sledgehammer when Jason uttered the words aloud.

 

“Jason,” Nico mutters quietly, “finally decided he’s ready to date again.”

 

The excitement Nico felt after his plan worked lasted only for a moment after those words. Jason had looked boyish and handsome—but most importantly, more like himself—after they figured out the puzzle. Nico was adamant that Jason wasn’t to go on the quest to find Jupiter—but…it was nice to finally spend time with Jason again after so long. It reminded Nico of their last quest together.

 

He didn’t know his heart could hurt so much—having Jason look him in the eye so earnestly and say something completely different.

 

Percy drums his hands against the desk in an excited beat. “Okay? And what did you say?”

 

Nico groans. He shrugs and begins to fold his civvies. “I told him good for him.”

 

There’s a silence that passes between his co-praetor and old co-centurion. Nico looks up and notices their looks of disbelief. Red burns miserably in his cheeks. 

 

“I’m fine with it,” Nico insists, even though he knows it’s very much the opposite. “Jason has been averse to dating for a long time. I’m—proud that he’s come this far and…feels comfortable enough to tell me that.”

 

Even if that meant Jason was ready to date other people. Anyone and everyone.

 

Except for me, Nico thinks miserably.

 

“Okay,” Percy says, his tone of voice carrying little nuance for Nico’s feelings. He claps hands on Nico’s shoulders. “But—bro, level with me here. Are you sure Jason wasn’t trying to ask you out on a date?”

 

Nico stares at the son of Neptune suspiciously. A frown curls at his lips. “Since when have you ever called Jason by his first name?”

 

Percy uncharacteristically looks ready to scream. He holds his head in his hands—then jostles Nico. “How on Neptune’s white sand is that your takeaway from all of this?”

 

“You don’t exactly have the best track record when it comes to Jason,” Reyna chimes in. She begins making tick marks with her fingers. “You two started on great terms. Then you punched him and called him a traitor. Then you entrusted him with Nico and stood up for him at Olympus. Then—”

 

“Hey—I can dislike someone and respect his shit life at the same time,” Percy reasons. He turns back to the son of Juno, who is already frowning. “Now—”

 

“You’ve exceeded your time with the Nico meter.” Nico raises a hand in front of the son of Neptune.

 

“But Neeks,” Percy wails. He throws his arms in the air, exasperated.

 

“You’ve cried wolf too many times, Percy,” Reyna muses.  

 

“Whose side are you on?” Percy relents. He snatches her by the shoulder and shakes it.

 

“Percy,” Nico chastises sharply. “Be nice to your grandfather.”

 

“Nico.” Reyna taps Nico on the shoulder. “Normally I don’t mind playing devil’s advocate for both you and Percy—but have you considered that his word may have some merit here?”

 

Nico hesitates. He thinks about the night before in Jason’s room. Jason had such a quiet personality that it disarmed him to be in a room filled with Jason’s essence. There were many books on his shelf—mostly nonfiction. Nico noticed his gifted copy of Breath of the Wild sitting by its lonesome on a shelf of its own, and glee filled his chest. He kept himself steadfast on a tightrope between platonic and pleased in Jason’s room—if only to keep from disappointing himself.

 

Standing close in Jason’s presence, only a breath away from Jason’s smile, made him stumble.

 

Hearing, I’m ready to date again made Nico plummet into disappointment.

 

And—when he picked up Jason’s journal, Nico fell face-first into nausea. Then guilt.

 

“Pretty confident,” Nico reassures. He can’t even muster a wry smile. “I…snuck a peek in his journal by accident.”

 

Luke’s name was written in large letters. Nico was blinded by his own sadness to read the rest. Not that he should—he respects Jason’s privacy.

 

“Okay,” Percy interjects. He waves his hands again, “Let me guess what it says then—Nico’s so short and cute and amazing, his mom says hi—he’s a huge nerd, I want to date him?”

 

Nico glares angrily at the son of Neptune. His cheeks glow with a heat—but only out of its usual irritation when it came to Percy and Jason. “Nothing that concerns you.”

 

Reyna, on the other hand, curls a hand over his shoulder. “Something disheartening, from the looks of it.”

 

Nico shifts awkwardly—but leans into her warmth.

 

“It’s not really my place to say,” Nico says—much softer in her presence. The closer he leans into her warmth, the more he wants to spill his heart. “But…yes.”

 

Percy makes another noise and starts pacing the length of the principia. His loud grumbling consists of—stupid Grace and stupid journal and stupid something else that Nico can’t quite gauge. Then he comes back, clapping both hands on either one of Nico’s shoulders. “Neeks. I just really think—”

 

“That you shouldn’t meddle?” Nico reiterates, an eyebrow arched in the air. “I agree. Wholeheartedly.”

 

The son of Neptune picks up a book. He screams into it. Loudly. Then he looks back to Reyna with an exasperated look. “Please tap in?”

 

“I think Nico is perfectly capable of solving this one on his own,” Reyna says. Her smile only grows as Percy’s demeanor morphs with utter despair.

 

Nico, on the other hand, presses a kiss to her cheek. “Want to be my plus-one?”

 

“How could I say no to endless wedding cake?” Reyna brightens at his request. “I hear there’s a chocolate fondue fountain.”

 

“And a cheese one,” Nico agrees. “Play your cards right and we might be able to take some home with us.”

 

“Oh—I like a challenge.” Reyna grins.

 

Percy wedges his face between them. “You know—you could be having this exact conversation with—”

 

“I don’t care,” Nico cuts him off. “Close up, Percy. Don’t forget to read Julius Seastar his bedtime story.”

 

He swears Reyna is holding back a laugh.

 

When they finally leave the principia for the afternoon, Nico thinks he hears Percy swearing.

 

*

 

Jason tries to hunt Nico down over the weekend. Bianca excitedly greets him at the door—only for a storm of disappointment to show on her face when he explained the situation. She makes another attempt to confess to Nico for him—but Jason is quick to dissuade her. He’s still confused why Nico bolted—and decides better than to get Bianca involved. Their Saturday is spent getting Bianca ready for a date with Piper.

 

(There’s an odd moment, where Percy corners him while he’s in a coffee shop, shaking his fists—but the son of Neptune shakes his fist at the sky and does a u-turn, grumbling something about meddling.)

 

Thalia volunteers to burn the Hera outfit—but Jason isn’t sure that’s the right move, either. The sweater still smells like magazine cologne when he brings it to his nose. Jason runs a hand across the long cut made by the son of Juno—and all he thinks about is the victorious grin and hearty ha! Nico made.

 

Working with Nico made Jason realize how much he missed the son of Juno. Not just their normal, but all of him. So Jason needed to get it right.

 

The Monday after the whole de-pantsing incident, Jason tries to clear things up with Nico. He’s…still not quite sure how their evening went south so quickly, but he’s determined to make things right. He cares too much about Nico not to.

 

When he enters their art class, Nico locks eyes with him. Jason’s heart does a somersault in his chest, taking in the sight of the son of Juno.

 

And it falters, worried that Nico is still upset with him. Eventually (reluctantly) Nico raises a hand to wave. The corner of his lip twitches into a tentative smile. Jason eagerly slides into the chair next to him.

 

“Hi,” Jason greets—his voice glowing with excitement.

 

Maybe—too much excitement, based on the way Nico blinks at him.

 

“I mean—good morning,” Jason tries next—his cheeks growing hot.

 

“Good morning,” Nico says. His hand twitches over his sketchbook, fingers curling across the cover. Jason wishes he could reach out and hold it, like the day before.

 

“I—um. I missed you this weekend.” Jason’s eyebrows furrow together worriedly. Nervously. He drinks in every ounce that Nico is willing to give him—the tiny wrinkle in the son of Juno’s brow, the slight crease at the corner of his lip, and the careful way Nico pushes hair behind his ear. Jason catches sight of a gold band on Nico’s wrist.

 

“I got called into officiating a wedding,” Nico explains—and he wrinkles his nose with a quaint exasperation. “The first one in almost two months. Mike told me they were supposed to slow down after school started, but because of my stupid father—

 

“Sperm donor,” Jason corrects almost instinctively. His hairs stand on edge as Nico’s gaze raises to him.

 

A curve stretches across Nico’s lips—and he looks less tense than before.

 

“My stupid sperm donor,” Nico agrees, “I’m suddenly backlogged into…wedding festivities.

 

“Seems only fitting for a son of Juno,” Jason says—and he relishes in the way Nico’s shy smile settles into something more comfortable. “I. I bet you looked nice.”

 

He tilts his head towards the gold cuff at Nico’s arm.

 

Slowly, Nico’s hand goes past the peacock tattoo at his forearm, and he tugs his sleeve over his hand. He shrugs and rests a cheek to his palm. “No less gaudy than usual. Reyna had fun, though. She enjoyed the fondue machine.”

 

“That’s, um. Nice,” Jason says. He curls his fingers over his art supplies, hands twitching. “I…could’ve gone with you. If you were needing a plus one. I…”

 

Really liked dancing with Nico. Jason finds himself dreaming of it constantly—and all the different ways that night could’ve ended that would change how they are now.

 

That thought swells in a nervous lump on his throat.

 

Nico’s reaction is the opposite of he expects. There’s a flicker of…something in Nico’s eyes, and he tears away from Jason’s gaze with great reluctance. “It’s…okay. You would’ve been bored.”

 

“What?” Jason can’t help his own surprise. His gaze narrows at the son of Juno. “Nico—I love hanging out with you.”

 

Nico gives him a familiar look—one that Jason’s come to associate when he’s said too much, too earnestly. Before going to the Fields, Jason couldn’t place why he insisted on certain words with Nico with a blind intensity—but they fit in his heart like a puzzle. One just for Nico.

 

“Look,” Nico says, averting his gaze one once more, “Jason—”

 

“We,” Jason says quickly, “should talk about what happened the other day. After the whole blessing thing.”

 

Nico startles at his sudden interjection. There’s a doubtful look to his face—one that shines through beneath the tentative smile he greeted Jason with earlier. One that’s doubtful of Jason.

 

“Okay,” he says slowly. Carefully. “If…that’s what you want.”

 

“I.” Really wanted to kiss Nico right there and then. Hold him and make him feel the same elation Jason felt when Nico’s fingers brushed against his necklace. “Um.”

 

Really, really wanted to make it up to Nico after their missed chance in Odesa.

 

Before Jason knows it, his fingers are curled against his necklace. “I just—I want to make sure you understood what I was trying to say.”

 

Another wrinkle appears in Nico’s brow. He looks away, fiddling with the tattoo on his arm in a way Jason’s come to associate with unsettled nerves. “You’re ready to date again. Which…I’m happy that you’re still comfortable with telling me, after…everything—”

 

“No,” Jason says quickly, alarmed—and then he hesitates. “I mean. Yes, but. I.”

 

“You, what?” Nico asks, clearly trying to divert the subject.

 

“I, um. I need…” To clarify.

 

“Help?” Nico guesses, looking less than enthused.  

 

“Yes,” Jason agrees—and then freezes. “I mean—”

 

The bell rings before Jason gets the chance to correct himself. Their art teacher scurries into the classroom with a plate of spinach puffs in tow, then requests that they pair up for their next art project. Jason eagerly reaches for Nico’s knee—who startles at the touch.

 

“Sorry,” Jason says quickly—flushing with embarrassment. “I—um.”

 

“Sure,” Nico agrees. Reluctantly.

 

They’re quiet for the first half of their project. Jason sneaks glances at the son of Juno every chance he can get—but it feels like Nico doesn’t want to look at him.

 

Eventually, Nico clears his throat as Professor Kronk surveys the room. “If…you need help getting back into dating, then I…”

 

“Nico, I—” Don’t want to date anyone else except for the boy sitting in front of him. But the thought sits on Jason’s tongue, and he’s worried to find the same look of reluctance on Nico’s face again. The same discomfort. The words seem to twist in knots at his throat—and he’s reminded of the odd request he asked of Percy. Before he can help himself, he admits—“I’ve never asked anyone out before.”

 

“Excellent!” Professor Kronk greets them with a gusto, placing a hand on both their shoulders. “Such intensity here. I can tell your drawings will turn out great!”

 

Nico makes the face anyway. He looks away, and Jason tries not to drown himself in charcoals.

 

*

 

The rest of the week is a frustrating blur. Nico has to catch up on a week and a half of schoolwork. The wedding that took his weekend is the first of many. Mike Kahale had flashed him a spiteful look for—whatever reason that Nico could care less about. He thinks of Jason’s earnest confession—that Jason was ready to date again—and it just worsens Nico’s already sour mood.

 

Mike was tall, dark, and handsome—even if he wasn’t Nico’s type. He already made a pass at Jason once—and there were…worse candidates for a boyfriend for Jason. Like a plank of wood.

 

But—Mike’s demeanor changed when Jason’s name and chemistry project were brought up after the wedding ceremony.

 

“He’s all yours, di Angelo,” Mike said—and Nico vehemently denied this.

 

Reyna’s concern carries through the week, while Nico is cursing his homework assignments. One of Professor Kronk’s makeup assignment includes drawing a day in the life of a squirrel—which Nico is less than enthused about. He alternates between land permits, new grants, and algebra homework.

 

“I,” Nico announces unenthusiastically, “told Jason that I’d help him find a date.”

 

She stares at him in surprise—to a point where even Aurum and Argentum rouse in interest. Her demeanor shifts into something more unpleasant. (For Nico, at least.)

 

“Is that a good idea?” Reyna asks—and Nico sighs in frustration.

 

“I don’t know,” he admits. He looks up from his paperwork and rubs days of makeup homework from his eyes. What was once excitement that Jason was in his classes now felt like a constant need to be supportive of Jason’s choices.

 

And Nico was—is—supportive of Jason’s choices. To an extent.

 

Reyna closes her own textbook. She studies him curiously and taps her pencil against the spiral of her notebook.

 

Nico cradles his head in his hands and sighs miserably. “Am I stupid?”

 

“No,” she replies—maybe more quickly than Nico appreciates. “I…understand that you and Jason have been trying to find common ground for the last few months now. I can’t say this feels like the right route to go.”

 

“Because?” Nico asks flatly. He peers through his hands.

 

Because…maybe Percy’s point does have some merit,” Reyna finishes. She tilts her head ever-so slightly, as if physically weighing the words in her head.

 

Nico shakes his head vehemently. “It doesn’t.”

 

“And what makes you so sure of that?”

 

“Because no matter what Percy says, it’s always going to be with some grudge against Jason in some way.” Nico continues—and he takes a careful pause in his rant. “Bianca and Thalia—they’re trying to be considerate of both of us, and you…”  

 

“And I’m dating Thalia, while you and Jason have been trying to figure out this whole ordeal,” Reyna finishes for him. She arches an eyebrow. “What you tell me stays between the two of us. You know that.”

 

“I know.” Nico’s eyebrows furrow. Otherwise, things wouldn’t have ended up as awkward as they did with Thalia. He traces the tattoo on his arm once more as he dwells.

 

Nico can see it so clearly—Jason’s smile on the other side of the booth of their favorite sushi restaurant. For all the ways Mammina brushed Jason’s hair, cuffed sleeves and tightened bowties, there was no way to undo the chary way the son of Hades smiled at him.

 

Your sperm donor kind of sucks, Nico can hear—in a warm tone Jason didn’t share with others. It felt so very much like them before he stupidly confessed.

 

“I went on that quest hoping that I could get over him so we could be friends again,” Nico says softly. Miserably. He rubs his temples as he replays how poorly the quest went—despite their success. “And I was fine. I actually got to spend some quality time with both my sisters. Percy and Nonna Nicola even made me feel better, but—the moment I’m around Jason I just—I forget all that.”

 

Nico’s chest bubbles with warmth every time he sees Jason’s smile. He tried so hard this past summer to keep those feelings at bay—locked away in a chasm that never should’ve seen the light of day. Finding out Jason went on a date with Leo wasn’t just a crack—but a fissure that Nico couldn’t seal back up.

 

For how desperate Nico was to move past the most embarrassing moment of his life—each time Jason so much as grazed his hand made cuckoo birds sing in his ears.

 

Ugh.

 

“I…told you this past summer that I was trying to get over him,” Nico continues. “It’s…good if he finds someone to date.”

 

Even if it wasn’t Nico.

 

“It means I can finally move on,” Nico says firmly. He just hates that it’s more for himself than for Reyna.

 

She’s quiet longer than he expects. Nico doesn’t like any sort of discomfort with the daughter of Bellona—so he looks at her hopefully to ease his mind.

 

“Still think I should consider Percy’s merit?” he asks awkwardly. “Anything left for me to ponder?”

 

The corner of Reyna’s lips raises. She crosses her arms over her chest. “Nothing that would sound better from me than from Jason’s own mouth.”

 

“Exactly.” Nico throws another hand in the air, annoyed. “If—Percy was actually right, I’d hope to hear from Jason by now—and not just my mother’s twisted idea that we’re married.

 

Reyna flashes him a tired look and rubs her own brow. “You might have to explain that one to me.”

 

Nico scoffs disparately at his textbook. “Nothing but another bad punchline in my love life.”

 

Terrible trip to Disney World aside, Nico can’t help feeling flattered how quickly Jason recalled their horrible quest the other day. Jason held him dear—even…if it wasn’t romantically.

 

“Guess I should start asking Jason what his type is,” Nico mutters halfheartedly. Between Luke Castellan and Legend of Zelda, he thinks he already has a good idea. Blond hair, blue-eyed, and charming. (If you could call a mute hero who died strange deaths that.)

 

“Okay.” Reyna rises from her chair and pulls the spiral notebook away from Nico before he can start a list of all blond hair, blue-eyed New Romans that he knew. “How about we take out some of that pent up frustration on some cadets instead? I know some centurions that have been slacking with the rain.”

 

Nico sighs. “That sounds better.”

 

He takes her hand gratefully, and they slowly make their way towards camp instead.

 

*

 

The next time Jason sees Reyna is their history class. She slings her backpack over her seat and stares at him with the intensity of a wolf.

 

“Uh,” he says. “Hi.”

 

“Hi,” Reyna greets. “I need you to ask Nico out.”

 

Jason chokes on part of his protein bar. He pounds his chest, while Reyna continues to look at him, unwavering. Eventually, he manages to wheeze, “Wow, um. Okay.”

 

Suddenly it explained the odd look Reyna kept giving him during dinner last night. She stares at him expectantly, as though trying to will something into existence.

 

He sits straighter in his seat and looks at the clock nearby. “I…guess you and I never talked about what happened.”

 

Reyna and he had an odd relationship—dating back to when she first arrived at Camp Halfblood almost a year ago. They definitely weren’t on bad terms—Reyna stayed more impartial than the rest of their little group—which Jason appreciated after a painful month and a half trying to navigate new territory with Nico.

 

But, she raises an eyebrow and looks at him humorlessly. “Is there something you feel needs to be discussed?”

 

“Well,” Jason starts. Stops. He mulls over his next words carefully. “I…think what happens between Nico and I needs to be between the two of us. But. You, Thalia, and Percy—”

 

“Say less,” Reyna urges. She raises a hand emphatically. “You’re right.”

 

“I am?” Jason can’t help wondering if he’s taking a test.

 

Reyna stares at him mirthfully—a tiny spark in her eye that softens her wolfish gaze. “Nico is…particular about who he confides in. We have a rule. Who we share our feelings with is who is supposed to hear. Some people are better at following that rule than others. Some are worse.”

 

There’s a wryness in her tone that Jason can’t attach to any one person. He thinks of Percy muttering curses outside his bedroom window in the last few days—but also thinks about how adamantly Nico made it aboard the Argo II, despite his post as a praetor in New Rome.

 

“I can only guess you’re aware of Percy’s…attempts recently,” Reyna guesses, as though reading his mind.

 

Jason shifts uncomfortably in his seat and thinks of Bianca insisting on dragging him to Nico’s door. “He doesn’t need to do that.”

 

“It doesn’t do much.” Reyna shrugs and shakes her head. “I know Nico well. He’s sensitive to your feelings after everything you’ve been through in the last two wars. Percy can yell and scream as much as he wants, but unless Nico hears it from you, he won’t listen.”

 

Jason feels his heart flutter at that news. It never ceases to amaze him how thoughtful Nico is. “Wow.”

 

“Focus,” Reyna chides lightly. She waves a hand in front of his face. “I imagine your efforts aren’t going too well.”

 

“What gave that away?” Jason asks unenthusiastically.

 

It’s not that Jason hasn’t tried. He has a week-and-a-half of homework to catch up on—including Following the Day in the Life of a Squirrel. (That was proving to be more difficult since—well, animals didn’t like him.) Nico seemed to be nose-deep in their art class, trying to perfect scraggly lines, while gym class hadn’t been very exciting. Coach Barkin was reluctant making them partners again after their lackluster spar.

 

And—when Jason did manage to get Nico’s attention, the words seemed to hide at the very end of his throat. He’d caused enough frustration with Nico that he knows he needed to be precise.

 

(Liking someone when the world wasn’t in danger was proving to be a lot harder than Jason anticipated.)

 

“Nico thinks you want help finding someone to date,” Reyna explains, arms crossed over her chest. She arches an eyebrow. “He’s making a list of potential candidates.”

 

Jason is mortified. His eyebrows pinch together and he looks at Reyna in utter confusion. “What list? He’d be the only one on that.”

 

“Tell him that,” Reyna says.

 

“I’m—I’ve been trying.” Jason rubs his forehead thoughtfully. “It’s just. I. Difficult.”

 

To his surprise, Reyna reaches over and touches his shoulder. “I understand difficult. I’m dating your sister.”

 

“How did that get difficult?”

 

Reyna shoots him a look, and Jason rubs his forehead once more.

 

“Right. The swap. Tartarus.” Jason sits straighter in his seat and sucks in a breath. He decides batter than to mention Piper.  “Okay. I’ll ask him out today. Maybe we can go somewhere.”

 

“Nico’s in an extended study hall so he can be done with his makeup work,” Reyna says. She shakes her head. “Apparently his art teacher’s got some convoluted squirrel assignment that isn’t going too well. He thinks the robins near his house are trying to start a turf war.”

 

“No wonder it’s a tough assignment,” Jason mutters—though he decides not into the specifics of a squirrel that shattered its teeth when it tried to bite him. “Um—okay. What about after that?”

 

Reyna shakes her head again. “It’s the first Friday of a full week without rain. Campers are looking forward to the War Games.”

 

Jason’s eyebrows knit together. “There’s always tomorrow.”

 

“Tomorrow he’s busy with another wedding,” Reyna counters.

 

He holds back a groan. Jason’s greatest enemy was either going to be his own conscience or Nico’s busy schedule. Reyna waves a hand in front of him again.

 

“Don’t get discouraged,” Reyna chides lightly.

 

“I’m not.” Jason tucks his pencil behind his ear and rubs his forehead. “I just. I’m not sure how to fight Nico’s schedule to spend time with him.”

 

As he peers back to the other demigod, he notices amusement in her smile.

 

“Something I said?” he asks.

 

“No,” Reyna says brazenly. “It’s just more forthcoming from you than I was expecting.”

 

Jason shrugs awkwardly at his desk. He shrugs. “I…get it. He’s in high demand because he’s a praetor.”

 

“He’s the only known son of the Queen of the Gods, who people believe can bless unions,” Reyna says. “And a competitive contender in the War Games. Part of the reason he was against the title change was because he enjoyed time with the Fifth Cohort so much.”

 

“With his family,” Jason says. He likes to think that if Nico were here, Nico’s face would light up with that same smile from art class.

 

Instead, he’s met with something more devious across Reyna’s face—more akin to the look Nico gave him when it came to Jason’s sword. Jason’s not sure what to think of it.

 

“Um…now is it something I said?” Jason asks.

 

“What’s the old saying, Jason?” she asks. “If you can’t beat them, join them?”

 

“I think so,” Jason says. Then—his eyes widen, with nauseating realization. “Oh.”

 

*

 

Study hall is the only solace Nico manages to find since coming back from his quest. Nico catches up on his terrible stack of homework with time to spare and puts a stop to the turf war between the squirrels and the birds that live in his backyard. After that, he passes out for another hour before changing out of civvies into Camp Jupiter’s familiar purple. He actually gets to sleep.

 

Then—he attends a lively dinner in the Dining Pavilion, where all five cohorts gather excitedly for the first war game in months. For as exhausted as Nico is from his schoolwork, he enjoys the sight of the lares, aurae, and many campers mingling and murmuring strategies to break through the barricades.

 

He can’t hide his smile, watching as Annabeth and Percy greet Dakota with a hearty high five. They plop at a table. Percy, without a doubt, summons a ritual dinner for good luck and blue pudding for dessert.

 

“Excited?” Reyna asks beside him from the stage.

 

“How could I not be?” Nico remarks. He dips a chicken strip in honey mustard and rubs his forearm. “It’s the first war game in two months. Not only that, but my sperm donor has taken his place back at the throne instead of whipping out his cock for everything that moves.”

 

She stifles a laugh behind a french fry. “Calling him your sperm donor again?”

 

Nico snorts. “I can’t think of anyone more deserving of that title.”

 

He thinks of Jason’s whimsical laugh and the boyish smile that charmed him a week ago from across a booth. Nico brushes a hand over his knuckle where Jason squeezed his hand.

 

Your sperm donor kind of sucks, he’d said.

 

Admittedly, Nico was feeling more like himself as he officiated weddings rather than sulking under rain clouds.

 

“You could join them, you know,” Reyna points out. She gestures to Annabeth and Percy’s table. “I wouldn’t mind.”

 

Nico stares back at her oddly. “And just have one surveyor?”

 

“I’ll ask Thalia,” she says. Aurum nips her—and she’s quick to feed him a fry.

 

“Thalia,” Nico repeats, one eyebrow in the air, “on the back of a Pegasus?”

 

“From what I understand, it wouldn’t be the first time she’s done it.” Reyna leans into her food. “Go. Let’s just say I already have her approval for tonight’s festivities.” 

 

“Approval before you’ve asked?” Nico remarks halfheartedly. He drenches a second chicken strip in sauce. “Sounds like an excuse to make out.” 

 

Reyna flushes red and rolls her eyes. “You really think I’d sneak Thalia onto the Field of Mars just to make out?” 

 

“I’d say despite having a praetorhouse and an apartment, I’ve seen much more of Thalia than I expected in the principia,” Nico retorts—which only makes Reyna glow a darker shade of red. He waves a chicken strip her way in good humor. “And by that—”

 

“I have no idea what you’re talking about.” On cue, Argentum nips at her leg. Reyna makes a quiet yelp and Nico can’t help a snicker. “Alright, Praetor di Angelo. Last chance. Since you’re in such a stellar mood, would you like to participate in the games?”

 

Nico considers the offer. He looks over to the table filled with his old cohort once more, where Dakota and Percy are trying to balance goblets on their heads. Annabeth entertaining their competition, while two aurae continue to fill their cups, unfazed by the Fifth Cohort antics. They’ve managed to gather a small crowd.

 

Not too long ago, that was him refereeing Percy’s balancing act.

 

“Sure,” he decides. “Why not?”

 

He decides to wait until after dinner to sneak back into the Fifth Cohort. Nico’s more excited than he should be to slip back into imperial gold armor. He happily unclasps the cape from his armor and appears at the foot of the watchtower with his helmet and plume in hand. When he arrives, he catches Percy, Annabeth, and Reyna in a private conversation.

 

“…re you crazy?” Percy demands. He pinches the bridge of his nose. “You clearly haven’t witnessed Nico doting over—”

 

“Doting over what?” Nico interjects. To his surprise—Percy jumps.

 

Percy stares at him, dumbfounded. “Why are you dressed like that?”

 

“Nico isn’t spectating today. He’ll be playing,” Reyna explains. She inspects her co-praetor, mildly disappointed. “No cape?”

 

“Regular cadets don’t wear capes,” Nico says—maybe a little too smug. He turns back to Percy and Annabeth taking in their amusement. And again, repeats, “What exactly do I dote over?”

 

Percy’s expression goes through every emotion between excitement and exasperation. His shoulders rise to his ears—then he holds out a hand.

 

“You know what?” Percy turns to the daughter of Bellona. “I’m choosing not to meddle.”

 

Nico arches an eyebrow. He looks over to Annabeth—who seems to carry on a secret conversation with Reyna from eyes alone.

 

“So long as no one gets hurt,” Annabeth says carefully.

 

“I promise no one is anywhere near danger,” Reyna replies.

 

Nico snorts. It didn’t make for a very good War Game if their cohorts couldn’t figure their way out of danger.

 

Thalia makes an appearance not too long after that. She appears through Reyna’s shadow in a loving embrace, and the daughter of Bellona doesn’t even flinch. Instead, she rolls her eyes, while Nico gives her too knowing of a look.

 

“Haven’t seen one of these in a while,” Thalia remarks. She points a finger gun towards Nico and Percy and winks. Their armor shudder under her powers. “I expect a good show tonight.”

 

“Don’t be too disappointed then,” Percy grumbles under his breath—but Annabeth is quick to jab him. “Ow! Fine—let’s not waste any more time then.”

 

Thalia and Reyna wave them off. Nico follows Annabeth and Percy to the meeting spot for the Fifth Cohort. He watches as Percy’s shoulders sit in a stiff line before Annabeth nudges him. Eventually, Percy’s shoulders ease, and he flashes Nico an odd look.

 

“Something wrong?” Nico asks suspiciously.

 

“No,” Percy mutters—at the same time Annabeth asks, “Have you talked to Jace recently?”

 

Nico halts at the question. He meets Percy’s gaze suspiciously—who averts way too quickly. Then, Nico looks back to Annabeth, who looks far too innocuous.

 

He tries not to think of the envy bubbling in his chest. “Only about classwork. I’ve been busy.”

 

Truthfully, they hadn’t brought up the whole dating thing again all week. Nico’s been catching up on homework—but he has a feeling Jason’s concerned about his behavior. He has to figure out what to say to Jason about this whole ordeal.

 

“He misses you,” Annabeth continues. “He looks like a sad puppy when you aren’t around.”

 

Nico’s cheeks glow with heat.

 

“How romantic,” Percy mutters loudly. Nico kicks him in the calf. “Ow!

 

“He’s just like that,” Nico reasons. “I’ll see Jason again. Soon.”

 

Dakota is ecstatic to see Nico on the battlefield. He gives Nico an excited nudge, and then goes over a plan with Percy and Annabeth. Nico is happy to observe as they animatedly go over different plays, with the rest of the cohort hanging onto each word. He’s taken aback when they look to him for final approval.

 

“I’m here to observe,” Nico reminds them. “Treat me like a cadet.”

 

He catches Percy’s gaze, and watches as the son of Neptune halfheartedly rolls his eyes. Nico wasn’t a cadet very long before becoming Percy’s co-centurion. Eventually, Percy grins, and Nico feels the excitement sparking beneath his skin.

 

The Fifth Cohort falls in line.

 

“Fifth,” Percy addresses. “Un incepit fidelis sic perminet.

 

Nico repeats the phrase under his breath, as the rest of the cohort says it aloud.

 

Aut vincere aut mori!” Dakota declares.

 

AUT VINCERE AUT MORI!” shouts the rest of the cohort. Conquer or die.

 

Armor clacks and clinks—and the cohort marches forward, with Nico tucked in the first row behind the two centurions. There’s less division in the Fifth Cohort than any others. Nico falls in step easily, remembering the motions of Centurion Jackson in front of him. He doesn’t miss the way Percy and Annabeth flash excited looks to each other.

 

Then—at some point, Nico hears…something. He cocks his head south.

 

“Something wrong?” Annabeth asks him.

 

“I heard something.” Nico’s hand tightens over the handle of his gladius.

 

“Why don’t you go check it out?” Percy asks—and Nico eyes him curiously. The son of Neptune shrugs, arms crossed over his chest. “Not much for you to observe if we get ambushed at the beginning of the games, don’t you think?”

 

Nico considers the words—then nods in agreement. “Keep going with the plan. I’ll be there shortly.”

 

“Really?” Percy sounds surprised—then, “Yeah, yes. Sounds good. Go!”

 

If he didn’t know any better, Nico would’ve sworn the son of Neptune fistpumped as he left.

 

Nico opts not to fly and stays low to the ground instead. Their terrain for the evening is a savanna. The grass is tall—coming up to Nico’s chin when he stands at a full length. He has no doubt the Ceres kids had a fun time terraforming the land for their first war game. Nico hears the stomping of animals far in the background—likely Hannibal, the Elephant stretching his legs as well with the Fourth Cohort.

 

BOOM

 

There’s an explosion east of them. Nico stands at full height, his heart falling to the pit of his stomach. Landmines, no doubt planted by children of Vulcan and Hephaestus moving in tandem.

 

BOOM

 

BOOM

 

BOOM

 

He hears an uproar from Percy’s voice, leading the Fifth Cohort forward—and the itch to rejoin his old co-centurion overwhelms him. Nico is quick to pivot on his foot and leap into the air—but a rustling catches his attention next.

 

“Show yourself!” he shouts.

 

The rustling ceases for only a moment. Then—

 

Nico sprints across the length of the field and blows a gust of wind towards the source of the sound. He pins the source against the ground.

 

“Oof!” Charcoal eyes stare back at him from the ground, bewildered.

 

Nico makes a sound of disbelief and pulls his sword away. “Jason?”

 

“Um—” Jason swallows hard. “Hi—”

 

BOOM

 

Another landmine explodes to the left of them.

 

*

 

Jason acts quickly. He grabs Nico in a tuck and roll, yanking at the son of Juno’s wrist—and shadowtravels them out of the Fields of Mars into the first place he can think of. They tumble off roof of the Jupiter Optimus Maximus, and Jason lands back-first into the ground.

 

“Ack,” he hisses—more out of reflex than anything.

 

“Jason!” Nico shouts. He straddles the son of Hades from above—and while Jason tries to reorient himself, Nico is throwing his helmet and plume to the ground. Nico inspects him, hands flying everywhere across Jason’s body before settling with hands over Jason’s shoulders. “Are you okay? Are you hurt?”

 

Jason stares back at the worry-worn face while Nico is in a flurry of concern. He’s so taken by the wrinkles of concern between Nico’s brow and the grimace on his face, that Jason almost forgets to respond. “No—I’m fine. Are you okay?”

 

He sits upright as he finally distinguishes up from down and left from right. Jason inspects Nico carefully, falling back into an old habit while Nico is coming down to a calm. Nico’s safe.

 

“You’re safe,” Jason says, and he breathes a sigh of relief.

 

Nico settles in Jason’s lap. Then—he scrambles off, decidedly too close for comfort. Jason misses his warmth already.

 

“What on Gaea,” Nico starts, dusting himself free of savanna dirt, “were you doing on the Fields of Mars?”

 

“I—” Jason gets tongue-tied over the vivacity of Nico’s concern. His brain is lost over Reyna’s metaphor of the Trojan Horse and Jason hiding inside, waiting to seize his moment with Nico. “—um. I…wanted to hang out with you?”

 

Nico looks more flabbergasted than before. “So you came to the Field of Mars?”

 

“Well—” Jason wasn’t fond of the idea. The explosions were no less anxiety-inducing than they were months ago, when Nico and he would hang out together. His hands flex and twitch, and he coughs awkwardly.

 

“Jason,” Nico says—with a new layer of exasperation, “why wouldn’t you just ask?”

 

“Because. Um.” Jason’s ears glow red. He wants to make his feelings precise and succinct—and to reduce the risk of Nico running out on him again before he can explain himself.

 

Nico’s had his nose to the easel in their art class, dodging Jason’s attempts at conversation. They kept topics light when they were near each other—and Jason didn’t think that declaring how much he liked Nico was appropriate while they were playing flaming dodge ball in gym.

 

Nico’s expression changes into something different. It only makes Jason more worried.

 

“I can bring you back,” Jason says—though every part of him screams do not do that. “I mean—”

 

“No.” Nico directs his gaze to the Fields of Mars off in the distance, his expression irate.

 

Suddenly the guilt settles into Jason’s chest, and he stands to his feet. “That…was the first war game in months. I’m…sorry—”

 

“There’ll be other war games,” Nico chides—and he turns back to Jason, looking slightly less irritated—but no more lulled. “You should never put yourself in harm’s way just to hang out with me, Jason—what if you’d gotten hurt?”

 

“No—Nico, it’s okay.” Jason reaches for Nico’s gladius and give the blade a firm squeeze. “I have the curse, remember?”

 

Nico is quick to swipe the blade and sheath it in its leather bind. His gaze doesn’t waver. “I don’t just mean the curse. Those explosions—

 

“Didn’t hurt,” Jason promises.

 

“—are not good for you or your mental health,” Nico finishes huffily. He jabs a finger in Jason’s chest, eyes narrowed. “So please don’t do that again. If you want to hang out, just ask me.”

 

Jason stares back at the other demigod, speechless. Nico looks angry—all for his sake. Jason decides Reyna’s explanation isn’t worth sharing. Instead, his heart flutters with Nico’s gaze, and he lowers his head guiltily. “I’m—okay. I’m sorry.”

 

Nico’s glare lasts a moment longer. Then his arms fall slack, and he rubs his temples. “I’m...sorry that I haven’t been the most available this week. I’ve been—”

 

“Catching up on schoolwork. I know.”

 

Nico looks caught on another thought. He fiddles with one of the straps on his chestplate. “I’ve…been giving some thought. About what you said.”

 

“What did I say?” Jason asks. His mind draws a blank now that Nico is nearby.

 

“About. Dating again.”

 

Jason’s face bubbles with warmth. He watches as Nico’s eyes fall to the ground, all but enthusiastic about the subject at hand. He looks more like the Nico from earlier this week—the one who could hardly stand the sight of Jason.

 

And, Jason knows he has to make things right.

 

“I wanted to talk to you about that,” Jason says finally.

 

Nico draws a breath, a wrinkle appearing in his brow. It’s a reluctant look. “Okay. I’m ready when you are.”

 

Jason eagerly wants to shake the look off Nico’s face. He wants to look Nico in the eye and firmly tell Nico that he’s ready, too. Because that was all it boiled down to—how much Nico helped heal the hole in Jason’s chest when he thought his heart was gone. Each crack had been sealed shut by the son of Juno in front of him—the one that firmly said his mental health was more important than his curse.

 

“Do you want to grab dinner?” Jason asks instead. He looks hopefully to Nico. “We can split french fries.”

 

Nico’s eyebrows furrow together. “But I already…”

 

Jason’s stomach growls loudly between the two of them—a rigid sizzle that makes red glow in his cheeks. He clears his throat. “Um. Do burgers sound good?”

 

Nico stares back, astonished. Then—for the first time since their accidental escape, Nico laughs.

 

 

 

They end up at the same New Roman In-and-Out Burger, where Nico flashes his legion ID for their discount. Jason feels…fretful at their booth. He notices Nico studying him, as though still trying to find a wound after the war games—and suddenly Jason feels guilty for following through with Reyna’s advice. Maybe throwing himself head-first into danger was a poor decision. He’s frazzled on what to say next.

 

Nico sits down with their trays of food. He eagerly plops his straw into his milkshake and leans back—looking less like a legionnaire on the battlefield and more like a normal teenager.

 

“How are you feeling?” Jason is compelled to ask. “After…you know. The quest and everything?”

 

Nico’s face shifts. Jason hangs on to every subtle change—before he watches those blue eyes roll.

 

“Exhausted.” Nico rubs his temples and settles back in his booth. “Professor Kronk’s makeup project caused a turf war between the squirrels and the birds that live in my backyard. Do you know how many ways you can kill someone with an acorn? It’s more than you think.”

 

Jason bites back a laugh. He’s taken with the way Nico relaxes in front of him now. “Did you draw a lot of good pictures?”

 

“No,” Nico fumes. “They were moving around too much. I’m not sure how he expects me to capture the essence of a squirrel.

 

“I guess their inner anger,” Jason remarks. “Squirrels seem to have a lot of that.”

 

“Greedy animals,” Nico grumbles under his breath. “They know the birdfeeders aren’t meant for them.”

 

At that, Jason laughs. He doesn’t miss the way that Nico’s frown eases into a smile.

 

“Other classes are going okay. Hazel’s helping me with some of the lessons that I missed. I’ve been…on call for some more weddings,” Nico says.

 

“For your mother,” Jason affirms. “Juno.”

 

(He loves the way Nico nods at that fact.)

 

“I’m starting to like them,” Nico admits. He traces a hand over his sleeve, where Jason knows holds the peacock dedicated to his mother. “I think I missed them. People look at me differently than before.”

 

“Because they can tell you’re enjoying yourself.” Jason’s smile widens. “I mean. I…definitely look at you differently now.”

 

He watches as Nico soaks in his words. There’s a subtle way that Nico’s gaze flickers with acknowledgement. The red swells in his cheeks, like clouds forming in the sky. Jason wonders how he’d never noticed before—how soft Nico looked when he’s blushing.

 

“What about you?” Nico says, decidedly changing the subject. “How’s life post bowtie and hair balm?”

 

The corner of Jason’s lips raises into a smile. He runs a hand through his own hair and settles back in his own chair. “Pretty good. Though I’ll miss looking nice first thing in the morning.”

 

“You’re perfect just the way you are,” Nico says—with a startling insistence.

 

They both stare at each other, evidently both confused. Jason feels his own face glow warm as Nico stares at him intensely.

 

Nico flushes a darker shade of red and sinks in his seat, looking shameful. “I. Mean. It’s…a long story.”

 

“I like stories,” Jason says quickly, gaze fixated on the way Nico glows. His mind goes through all the other things he likes about Nico—his voice, his eyes, his smile, his dry sense of humor. Nico.

 

“I’d,” Nico says instead, “rather not say.”

 

He glowers at his milkshake, and the mood of their meal takes a heavy shift.

 

“Oh,” Jason says, unsure of why Nico looks so tense. “Um. Okay.”

 

It follows with a crease in Nico’s nose, and the son of Juno pushes a lock of hair behind his ear. Nico sits straighter in the booth. “So—you’re ready to date again.”

 

“I—” Jason feels his own hands twitch around his food, and he feigns interest in his French fries, unsure of what to say. “Um. Yes.”

 

“Why the sudden change?” Nico asks. His tone is careful. Guarded. Jason’s been on the other end of this tone many times before—but he doesn’t want to be there now. He watches as Nico sidles into the booth, trying to look comfortable with the topic at hand, and knowing full well that Nico isn’t.

 

Jason isn’t sure where to start. The idea of losing Nico to this quest sent Jason into a panic. They had too many close calls while dragging the Athena Parthenos across the world. Jason lost himself in trying to keep Nico safe, and Nico steered him into being comfortable with himself.

 

Nico still tries to keep him comfortable with himself. The idea of losing all of that—all of Nico on a different quest was painful.

 

“Jason?” Nico chimes, after a long silence.

 

“Um.” Jason brushes a hand beneath the knot of his necklace, and the journey to Luke comes to mind. “It…just felt like it was time. I.”

 

Wanted to stop living a life where Nico wasn’t part of his routine. Jason missed Nico too much in their weeks apart—that even a glance from Nico’s direction made him want more. Annabeth was right—he could just have more of what relationship he already had with Nico—and the idea of that has never made his heart fuller.

 

“Jason?” Nico asks, once more—sounding more concerned. “You…don’t have to force yourself to date if you’re not ready. We’ve been over this—”

 

“No—no. I’m definitely ready.” Jason sits straighter on his side of the booth. He catches Nico staring at his hand—the one pressed to the back of his neck—and is quick to pull it away. Nico was—is observant.

 

This was the demigod that called Jason out when he was thinking too loud. Jason takes a deep breath.

 

“You’ve,” he starts, “been really good to me, Nico. You’ve…always been really good to me.”

 

Nico picks up his drink carefully and takes a long sip. “I wouldn’t say always.”

 

“No, Nico, seriously.” Jason’s lips press into a warm smile—and the son of Juno flashes him another wry look. “Okay—well, what if I don’t count that time?”

 

“Then I’d say sometimes covers it better.”

 

“Definitely not sometimes.” Jason ponders the thought, then makes a declarative gesture with his French fry. “Most of the time. Not even most of the time—you’re always nice to me now. There was a cutoff.”

 

“A cutoff,” Nico echoes. He reaches over absentmindedly for a French fry, and Jason slowly inches his tray closer to the demigod. “Okay. When was that?”

 

“Eros.”

 

Nico pauses mid-bite. His nose wrinkles once more, as though inhaling something rotten, and he smushes the fry between his thumb and pointer finger. There’s more disdain in his eyes than ever.

 

“Eros,” he echoes, his tone flat, “is a bully. No one needs to have their love life splayed out like a Broadway musical. He had no right to do that to you—”

 

“Nico,” Jason interrupts, before Nico can continue his rant. There’s a smile against Jason’s lips, ever charmed by Nico’s fervor. “It’s okay. I’m fine.”

 

Again, Nico’s gaze narrows at him suspiciously, looking less than pleased now that the love god was mentioned.

 

“I’m fine,” Jason reemphasizes. He reaches out and curls a hand over Nico’s, fry forgotten. “Because I had you to help me through it. You invalidated everything that, he…um.”

 

Made Jason breakdown over. Admittedly, that feels weird to say out loud.

 

That reluctance is enough for Nico to scowl. Nico crosses his arms over his chest with finality. “He still sucks.”

 

Jason laughs—quietly, and more timidly than he intends, but still less nervously than before. “Yeah. He really does.”

 

“Terrible god aside,” Nico says suddenly, “he didn’t completely ruin it for you, if you’re willing to date.”

 

“Yeah. Yeah, you’re right.” Jason’s lips stretch into an eager smile—while Nico’s expression looks more calculating.

 

“So,” Nico starts. He rubs his tattooed arm over his sleeve once more. “What…are you looking for in a guy? In…a girl? Have you figured out what you’re into?”

 

Jason blinks, taken aback by the bluntness. He rubs his forehead thoughtfully. “I…mean, I like both.”

 

Nico nods, already looking done with the subject.

 

“I’m, um, bisexual,” Jason supplies helpfully—and Nico snorts.

 

“And I’m gay,” he says. He extends a hand half-heartedly. “Nice to meet you.”

 

Jason stares at the extended hand in confusion. He catches the amusement gleaming in Nico’s eyes—and again, finds his lips stretched into a smile. “I just—I mean. I’m not picky.”

 

Nico arches an eyebrow, silent longer than Jason expects.

 

“Is…that not the answer you’re looking for?”

 

“Your love life is one of the times you’re allowed to be as picky as you want, Jason.” Nico places his milkshake on the table and crosses his arms over his chest. He tugs at his sleeve awkwardly, looking everywhere but Jason’s face. “What…was it about Luke that made you like him so much—?”

 

“I don’t want to talk about Luke,” Jason cuts off immediately. His own skin bristles as Nico peers up at him, surprised. Red glows in his cheeks—but Jason is acutely aware how much that name makes them both wince. It’s as bad as Eros. Worse. It took Jason a long time to realize he deserved better than Luke Castellan. And—Nico’s always been better, Eros cutoff aside. “You’re not Luke.”

 

For whatever reason, Nico looks tense with those words. He fiddles with the hem of his sleeve, jaw tight, and bows his head. “I’m aware.”

 

“No.” Nico’s I’m not Luke declaration replays in Jason’s mind, and he feels his heartrate spike. “Nico—”

 

“But you liked something about him,” Nico continues, his voice hoarse. He glares at his drink, spinning it between both his hands thoughtfully. “And. You and I are over the hump of. My feelings. At the very least, I would. Like to be.”

 

His face grows redder with the difficulty of each word, which only makes Jason more alarmed. “Nico—”

 

“It’s fine, Jason.” Nico holds a hand up dismissively, then looks back up to the son of Hades. “What was it that made you like Luke so much?”

 

Luke was charming. His smile made butterflies swell in six-year-old Jason’s stomach, and he made Jason feel safe—but that feeling could only last so long. Jason rubs his forehead—and the conversation he had with the son of Hermes settles at the front of his mind.

 

“Jason,” Nico says again, when he’s quiet for too long. “We don’t—”

 

“He…was nice to me,” Jason says finally. He looks back at Nico. “I like people that are nice to me.”

 

Again, Nico stares at him. Jason can’t help wondering if he chose another wrong answer. Nico clears his throat. “That’s a pretty low bar, Jason. They should be nice to you, period.

 

“I—well.” Jason’s eyebrows knit together. “You’re nice to me and we have fun together.”

 

“Yeah, but we’re not talking about me right now.” Nico waves a hand dismissively. “We’re talking about you.”

 

If Percy were here, he’d probably rip his hair out in frustration. But he isn’t—and Jason stares at Nico, wondering what on earth to say to get their conversation back on track. He went all the way to the Fields of Mars to gather Nico—and Jason definitely doesn’t want to lose his shot.

 

“I…like us, though,” Jason says tentatively.

 

Nico braves his nervous gaze and looks Jason skeptically in the eye. “Us isn’t dating.”

 

But I want to be, is at the tip of Jason’s tongue.

 

Nico makes another face, and Jason’s pulse spikes with worry.

 

“What’s wrong?” Jason asks.

 

“Nothing.” Nico shakes his head and scoffs at himself. “Maybe if I took my own advice on that, Leo and I wouldn’t have crashed and burned as badly as we did.”

 

“I like that you crashed and burned,” Jason says quickly. Otherwise he never would’ve had a shot with Nico. The idea that Nico would date anyone else suddenly appears in his head—and Jason wants to jettison the thought far out into space.

 

Still, Nico arches an eyebrow, his lips suddenly contorting into a frown.

 

“Let me start over?” Jason asks.

 

“Please do so,” Nico says.

 

“I—just.” Jason swallows hard and stares at his food. He fiddles with a fry between his fingers. “I…don’t know if we’d know each other as well as we did if you had a boyfriend. I…already miss being around you now.”

 

The frown on Nico’s face fades ever-so slightly. Jason refrains from sighing in relief. He hopes Nico missed him as much as he missed Nico. But—

 

“A date doesn’t mean a commitment right away. I guess we could start there.” Nico pushes his drink away and taps his foot against the ground. “So—we can think of other things you like. You have a type. You’re into blonds. And blue eyes. Right?”

 

Nico’s azure blue eyes—definitely. Jason nods along—and then pauses. Again, he looks at Nico in confusion. “I have a type?”

 

One of Nico’s eyebrows arches in the air. He begins to list out fingers like tick marks. “Luke Castellan—blond hair and blue eyes. Link. Blond hair, blue eyes. Zelda. Blond hair, blue eyes. Sheik—

 

“Nico—” Jason holds his hand up in timeout, his ears glowing red. “That’s not—”

 

“That…weird server from the restaurant we went to a few weeks ago,” Nico continues. He fiddles stubbornly with his sleeve. “Blond. Blue eyes. What was his name? Forrest? Finn?”

 

“Fred,” Jason recounts—and he watches as Nico’s expression sours even more.

 

“Right. Fred. The one who called you a cute Danny Zuko.” Nico glares at his straw—then self-consciously looks at Jason, his face red. “Not…that I’ve been keeping tabs.”

 

Jason stares at Nico, at a loss. He clears his throat.

 

“I mean. I haven’t,” Jason says helpfully.

 

Nico is quick to wave a hand dismissively, the embarrassment evident on his face. The longer he talks, the more worried Jason feels. Jason scrambles for a change in subject—to get back to why he wanted to be with Nico in the first place—but struggles.

 

“I…had a crush on a girl at camp,” Jason settles on finally. He fiddles with the carton of French fries in front of him. “This Aphrodite girl. She was nice to me.”

 

“Again—” Nico looks appalled. He waves a hand in front of Jason’s face. “—a low bar. You deserve more than someone just being nice to you, Jason.”

 

“She was more than nice,” Jason promises—and the corner of his lip lifts warmly, smitten with how adamant Nico sounds. He laughs softly. “The pegasi at camp didn’t like me. So she tried to show me what flying on one was like without a pegasi. On a broom. I felt weirder galloping on a broom than I did waltzing around with Grover and Uncle Gleeson.”

 

He hears Nico snort—and looks up to meet Nico’s amused smile. It’s less guarded than the rest.

 

“I…don’t think I saw her,” Nico says eventually. It takes a moment for Jason to realize he’s referring to Eros again.

 

“Silena was easily the prettiest girl at camp,” Jason says. Before he realizes it, Jason finds himself brushing a hand over his camp beads. His hand rests on the one decorated with names. “Blue eyes and black hair. It was hard not to have a crush on her.”

 

Nico is quieter than Jason expects. A thoughtful look crosses his face—and then he asks, “Okay. So…why not her?”

 

His voice is as tight as it was with Fred the Weird Server.

 

“She’s taken,” Jason says quickly, to alleviate the situation. “And—she’s dead.”

 

Silence. The words are so curt out of Jason’s mouth that he doesn’t realize how callous they sound until Nico’s eyes grow wide. Jason’s hand brushes over the bead once more, and his stomach bubbles nauseatingly. He regrets saying anything immediately.

 

Jason’s mind goes back to the vision he had in the Fields of Punishment—the one where his streak of anger touched the soul of every dead body on the battlefield. Where Jason truly felt the fury from everything Luke and Kronos had put him through, bursting at the thought that even someone as smart and nice as Silena Beauregard could be tricked, when she already found love in Charles Beckendorf.

 

Maybe—just maybe if he was able to hold his frustration in a few moments longer, that the war could’ve been won a different way. He didn’t deserve to think about Silena Beauregard in a loving light—not after what happened. Jason doesn’t deserve a lot of things.

 

“Jason.” Nico points to the lights above them—which flicker with the same nervousness as when Jason was with Mike Kahale. People around them start to stare.

 

“Sorry.” Jason rubs his forehead and stares at the headlights until they settle.

 

Nico’s expression shifts into something different from before. The guilt swells in Jason again—this time for a different reason.

 

“Sorry,” he says again. Jason rubs his forehead and props an elbow against the table. “I ruined dinner.”

 

He really didn’t want to mention Luke, or Silena. Anything from before Nico di Angelo came into his life.

 

“No.” Suddenly, Nico reaches over and brushes a hand over his. Nico gives Jason a firm squeeze. “You didn’t. We just took a detour from what we were talking about. There’s nothing wrong with that. I’m the one that’s sorry.”

 

He brushes Jason’s hand with his thumb, in soft, soothing circles. Jason feels himself grow steady at the touch. He thinks of the other feeling that came after the gods-awful vision that haunted him for months. The one that made him feel protected in Nico’s presence.

 

To his surprise, Nico’s expression shifts into something different. Nico’s nose wrinkles.

 

“What’s wrong?” Jason asks.

 

“Nothing. I was trying to figure out how many blue-eyed brunettes that I knew,” Nico confesses. He runs a hand through his hair, looking less than pleased. “The only one that came to mind was my sister. Good luck tearing Bianca away from Piper. I’ve seen how she kisses.”

 

He makes another face, looking disgustedly blue in the face.

 

“All tongue,” Nico grumbles.

 

Pfft—” Before Jason can help himself—he bursts into laughter. He bows his head, hand tight over Nico’s own. It only gets better as Nico laughs, too. They both laugh until Jason’s stomach hurts—and once again, his too-big smile aches in the presence of Nico di Angelo.

 

Nico looks back at him with dazzling eyes, the amusement clear—and Jason finds more room for his smile to grow.

 

Finally, Jason settles on something else. “I’m not sure. They kind of made a mess of things.”

 

Nico snorts once again—but it doesn’t resonate with another laugh. Instead, he falls silent once more, staring at their entangled hands.

 

Right. Their mess. One that could’ve been avoided if Jason understood what Nico wanted when he asked for them to go to Odesa. Jason’s smile shrinks, too, as the realization hits him.

 

Nico pulls his hand away before Jason can protest. “So far some likely candidates are that annoying waiter, Fred, from the restaurant, or some…blue-eyed brunette. Wherever we can find one of those.”

 

Jason stares at Nico, speechless. He’s not sure how to be clearer that he just wants Nico—especially with how sour Nico suddenly looks again.

 

“That’s, uh, also Mr. Chase’s name,” Jason says out of the blue. “Frederick Chase.”

 

The corner of Nico’s lips raises into another mischievous smile that makes a lump swell at Jason’s throat.

 

“Ah,” Nico muses. “Also blond.”

 

Jason chokes on his soda, mortified. Red stains his cheeks. “Also too old for me.

 

“So was Luke,” Nico remarks. He pauses, and they stare at each other blankly. His face glows. “Sorry. That was mean of me.”

 

“No. I mean, he was.” Jason’s eyebrows knit together, unsure of what he’s feeling now. “I mean. You’re…old, too.”

 

To that, Nico actually laughs—and Jason feels his thoughts center on Nico’s amusement.

 

“The Nonna Nicola costume,” Jason says, “was cute—”

 

Shh.” Nico reaches over and presses a finger to Jason’s mouth. The son of Hades startles at the touch. “No one needs to know that’s a costume. Percy thinks it’s New Rome’s best kept secret.”

 

“Is it?” Jason asks, puzzled—though he’s suddenly fixated on how close Nico is.

 

“He thinks it is.” Nico rolls his eyes and climbs back to his side of the booth. “Percy thought it was a good way for me to meet people, since I wasn’t so happy being…” He makes a halfhearted gesture. “Son of Jupiter.”

 

“Son of Juno,” Jason corrects instinctively. He flushes as Nico eyes him. 

 

“They were darker times,” Nico explains. He leans back in his chair and crosses his arms over his chest. “But…yeah. Nonna Nicola is feeling more like a son of Juno these days.”

 

“I like how she looks.” Jason smiles softly. “Girdle and all.”

 

Nico rolls his eyes—but the corner of his lips lift. He holds his head high, looking as poised and regal as the queen of the gods. There’s an elegance to the way Nico carries himself—has always carried himself, that felt too good for the king of the gods. Jason is glad to be in the presence of Nico as he grows into this role.

 

“I…” Really liked Nico. For his wry humor and sharp, azure eyes. For his way with words and how stubborn he was for the people he considers family. Jason feels his heart skip a beat as Nico looks back at him.

 

“Yeah?” Nico asks, after Jason finds himself lost in the motions of the other demigod.

 

Most of all, Jason really didn’t want to ruin this moment with Nico. Not a second time. Jason wants more—he’s ready for more—but he wants Nico to be able to look him in the eye without skirting his gaze. Jason is there, but he knows they wouldn’t be here without that friendship they built, between Nico and him getting along sometimes or most of the time.

 

“Nothing,” Jason decides, a moment later as Nico arches an eyebrow. “I’m…glad I could be here with you. As friends.”

 

Nico responds well to that. He doesn’t avert his gaze or hold a sour look in his face. Despite the busy schedule, Jason thinks Nico is at a calm with him, too.

 

“Me too,” he says finally. “As friends.”

 

“Let’s…put a pause on my love life,” Jason says finally. Sheepishly.

 

“Okay.” Nico draws a skeptical eyebrow. “What’s left to talk about?”

 

“Everything,” Jason says immediately. He pauses, as Nico blinks—and red glows in his cheeks. “I…mean. What’s new with you?”

 

Nico snorts. He flashes another look—filled with the mirth that Jason found endearing. “You really want to know?”

 

“Always,” Jason says. “I like talking to you.”

 

There’s reluctance in Nico’s gaze—but eventually it fades. He falls back in his chair—looking far less stiff than before, and nods. “Yeah. Me too.”

 

The rest of the night is spent catching up. Jason fills Nico in on his current progress in Breath of the Wild and his knack for cooking. Nico laughs when Jason tells him about the crustless sandwiches. There’s a moment, where Nico’s concern grows about Jason’s sleep—but Jason hasn’t had a restless night since coming back from the Underworld—only an eagerness for Nico’s company again. Nico hints at a new game that he’s playing—separate from his duty as a son of Juno and praetor—and divulges more, with Jason’s encouragement.

 

They talk well past closing for the restaurant. Jason thinks he could spend an eternity just listening to Nico’s voice.

 

“I should get going,” Nico says eventually. “I have a wedding and a building opening to attend tomorrow.”

 

“I could shadowtravel you home,” Jason says—and once more, he hopefully holding a hand out as they make it out of the restaurant.

 

Nico stares at it for a moment—and Jason swallows hard, worried to be left hanging again.

 

“Actually—” Nico gestures to the sky—filled with many stars above New Rome. “It’s a beautiful night. Why don’t we walk home together?”

 

Jason’s heart lifts at the thought. “I’d love that.”

 

It’s worth the smile that raises across Nico’s face. “Yeah. Me too.”

 

For the first time in a long time—they follow each other home.

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Chapter 17: chocolate

Summary:

“You don’t like me anymore?”

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

Reyna and Thalia are waiting for him when he gets home. Thalia’s eyes sparkle like jewels. “Well?”

 

Jason peers back at them from the front door, in a daze. His face aches from an evening smiling in Nico’s presence—which doesn’t fade, even now. Jason slowly shucks off his shoes. “We talked.”

 

“About your feelings?” Thalia prompts.

 

“About Nico’s feelings?” Reyna asks.

 

“No,” Jason admits—and they both halt in front of the couch.

 

“Percy said Nico fell for the bait—hook, line, and sinker,” Thalia says. Her lips contort into a frown, and she looks at her brother with more confusion. She turns back to Reyna. “Do I not understand Kelp Head’s lingo anymore? Or is his head full of sand?”

 

“Could be both,” Reyna remarks, and she shrugs. “Though I thought I saw everything from the back of Scipio. You grabbed him.”

 

“I did,” Jason agrees. He shucks off his jacket and hangs it in their coat closet. “Then we went to eat burgers.”

 

Reyna’s eyebrows furrow together in confusion. Then her demeanor shifts, and she shakes her head in amusement. “Of course he wouldn’t say no to you. Even for a second dinner.”

 

“It wasn’t a date,” Jason protests lightly. He settles into an armchair across from his sister and her girlfriend. They both stare at him, no wiser than before—and Jason’s face glows scarlet. “I mean—I tried to ask him out. I just—”

 

Kept getting caught up in his words. In Nico’s smile, and the relief of still finding it every time Jason got tongue-tied.

 

Thalia waves a hand in front of him. “Jace?”

 

“I liked just talking to him,” Jason says. He curls his hands against the armchair and looks back to both Roman demigods. “We…hadn’t done that in a long time. I just—I hate ruining that by trying to tell him I like him.”

 

Again, Thalia and Reyna stare at him—suddenly looking very similar to one Percy Jackson, son of Neptune.

 

Jason rubs his forehead. “I know how that sounds. I’m figuring it out.”

 

“There’s a chance tomorrow before he officiates,” Reyna says. “We’ll dress you up. I’ll tell the emcee to let you dance. He’ll be in your arms by the end of the night.”

 

Jason flushes at her confidence. He clears his throat and leans back in his seat. “As…nice as sounds, I think it’ll take more time than another wedding.”

 

It took two months for Nico to even look at him normally again. And—Jason missed that even before he went down to the Fields of Punishment. Nico was never going to listen to him if they couldn’t even talk to each other. Nico’s company tonight was as irreplaceable as it was before the Fields. Jason was just too blinded to notice.

 

“It’ll happen,” Jason says with more emphasis. “With time.”

 

*

 

A few weeks pass. Nico finally catches up on all of his missing schoolwork before the semester is over. Professor Kronk gives him a B-minus in art—which is far better than he expects. The grade is every bit worth it when Jason lights up for his sake. Nico takes a break from officiating weddings. He’s fine with catching up—but draws the line at summoning light snow for northern California.

 

(The New Romans should know better than to ask that of him.)

 

Instead, Nico settles into a handsome routine between his three favorite people. Nico signs off on one of Thalia’s screamo concerts. Reyna and he assess War Game performances. Nico gets his evenings back with Percy. Bianca and he even get along on occasion when they’re home at the same time. Everything is normal—save for a few strange redirects that always involve Jason in some capacity.

 

Hanging out with Jason feels better. They’re able to get back to conversations of Legend of Zelda and other video games—or trivial things that happen in class. Jason doesn’t seem as tentative with his words—and Nico thinks he can look Jason in the eye without his heart aching. Rebuilding their friendship is certainly worth it.

 

So long as they don’t go anywhere near the subject of Jason’s love life. Better yet—either of their love lives.

 

(Nico makes this point very clear in front of Percy and Reyna when they both give him disastrous looks.)

 

Instead—Nico spends the first weekend of winter break planning his field trip with the children. A class of twenty fifth-graders from New Rome Elementary School, who’ve been permitted to go to Long Island for a few days.

 

“You sure you want to do this?” Bianca asks him the morning of.

 

“Mammina is the goddess of family. Which means it’s my duty to uphold her dream of her family reuniting,” Nico says. He packs his suitcase lightly—and wrinkles his nose at his lack of sweaters. Northern California got cold, sure—but nowhere near the brutal weather of New York. As he turns around, Bianca meets him with an oversized scarf. “Oof—is this really necessary?”

 

“You’ll thank me later,” Bianca scolds. “Nothing crazy with your powers.”

 

Nico resists the urge to roll his eyes. This new partnership with Percy was only going to drive him crazy if they were both going to police his safety. “If you’re that concerned, you could just come with—”

 

“No.” Bianca is quick to refuse, and her cheeks grow red.

 

“What time is Piper coming in?” Nico finishes. He crosses his arms over his chest, unsurprised, while his sister glows a darker shade of red.

 

“This…um. Afternoon,” she says. Bianca grows quiet, squirming between her feet. “I just think—well, some time apart—

 

“Save it.” Nico raises a hand to his sister. Then, he kisses her on the cheek. “And have fun.”

 

She stares at him suspiciously, one hand tracing her cheekbone.

 

“I mean it.” Nico smiles and fixes the scarf over his neck. “Bye, Bee.”

 

“O…kay. Okay, bye.” Bianca gives him a more confident hug. “You have fun too. Tell Hazel I said hi.”

 

He runs into Jason on his way to the elementary school. Jason lights up at the sight of him, his lips pressed into a sweet smile outside of his apartment complex. Nico’s inclined to smile back.

 

“Jason,” Nico greets. “Hi.”

 

“Hi, Nico.” Jason wipes sweat off his brow. Nico tries not to stare as Jason lifts the collar of his shirt to do so. “On your way out?”

 

Nico stares anyway, at the little creases against Jason’s stomach, folding into his absets—“Yes. I mean. Yeah.”

 

He clears his throat and tries again.

 

“So, this weekend—”

 

“You’re taking twenty kids on a field trip to Camp Halfblood to promote a happy union,” Jason finishes—and Nico feels the warmth glowing in his cheeks. Somehow—like always, Jason manages to smile a little wider.

 

“Yeah,” Nico says. “That. I’m—I didn’t know you. Knew.”

 

“You told me you were planning something with the kids before break started.” Jason crosses his arms over his chest in a more pleasant manner. “I listen.”

 

“Do you now?” The corner of Nico’s own lips lift—and he mimics Jason’s stance.

 

“I’ve—always listened.” Jason arches an eyebrow, looking amused by the query. “You’re very interesting, you know.”

 

Nico snorts. “Now you’re just trying to flatter me.”

 

“Well—” Jason pauses very briefly. “Obviously.”

 

Again, Nico’s cheeks flourish. His hands tighten over his duffle bag, and he studies an interesting speck of dirt next to his foot. He tries to find a witty remark on his tongue, but it comes a little too late.

 

“Um,” Jason says, when Nico is inevitably too flustered, “I. Could…shadowtravel everyone there.”

 

Nico stares at Jason in surprise. He clears his throat. “No—I. Couldn’t ask you to—”

 

“I don’t mind,” Jason replies quickly. “I don’t—um, have any plans this weekend anyway. I was just going to wait…until. Until you got back.”

 

Again, Nico stares at the son of Hades, while Jason’s warm smile from before seems more uncertain. It teases…that line, between friendship and feelings, but Nico thinks he finally has an iron grip of where Jason’s intentions are coming from.

 

“Is that a good idea?” Nico asks instead. “Should you be…shadowtraveling above your weight class?”

 

Nico’s seen Jason travel firsthand—and has been the one to hold Jason’s hand. His fingers twitch at the thought of it. While the Athena Parthenos wasn’t the only thing that ran Jason ragged, it certainly didn’t help.

 

“Twenty fifth-graders around ninety pounds and a half-pound praetor,” Jason remarks. He holds out his hands like a scale. “A twenty-foot statue. I think I could swing that.”

 

Nico balks. “Did you just call me half a pound?”

 

“Well…yeah.” Jason arches an eyebrow, confident in his answer. He reaches out steadily, hands hovering either side of Nico’s frame—before they curl away from him. “I’ve carried you.”

 

Still, Nico feels his face burn brighter. He’d rather not bring up how many times he’s thought about Jason carrying him.

 

Jason clears his throat. “So—”

 

“Well,” Nico says instead, inspecting the speck of dirt next to his foot once again, “Percy’s not the biggest fan of planes, anyway. And I’d…rather not have Jupiter think he’s in my good graces by getting on one.”

 

“I’m a Grace,” Jason volunteers—and Nico bows his head in a soft laugh.

 

“Okay. You’re hired. But—” Nico places a firm hand on Jason’s chest. “—no pushing yourself.”

 

“No pushing myself,” Jason echoes, his soft tenor honey sweet. “I promise.”

 

Nico stares at the outline of Jason’s pectorals beneath the sweaty shirt. He peels his hand away, very aware of how soaked his palm is. There’s no doubt it shows on his face too—based on how red Jason suddenly looks.

 

“Oh, um. You…can come upstairs to wash your hands,” Jason says. “While I show—”

 

“Let’s do that.”

 

*

 

Thalia is flocked by ten-year-olds, no doubt trying to distract them with accursed, pretty, shiny jewels and scary stories while Reyna is taking attendance. Percy is in the middle of placing stickers on each of their shirts—coordinating each child with their godly parent’s cabin.  

 

“I need you to come to Camp Halfblood with me.” Nico pulls the other Grace sibling by the arm.

 

“Done,” Thalia says. Then—“Why?”

 

Nico feels his face flush. He lifts his gaze to find Jason—who’s fresh and clean after his shower—only to find that Percy’s dragged him who-knows-where. “Jason volunteered to shadowtravel Percy, the kids, and I to Camp Halfblood so we don’t have to get on a plane.”

 

“Ah,” Thalia remarks. “That’s certainly the more economical idea.”

 

Nico resists the urge to roll his eyes. He knows economical spoken by the daughter of riches carries less weight than a penny. His eyes flit over to Jason, whose hair is still damp from his shower. Nico can practically smell the pinewood from their walk over.

 

“Jason,” Nico starts, “has shadowtraveled a twenty-foot statue across the world, but constantly doing that…wasn’t good for his mental health. On top of the other stuff.”  

 

The gravity of his words makes Thalia frown. She crosses her arms over her chest. “O…kay.”

 

There’s a brief moment where Nico wonders if he’s too concerned. But—his thoughts go back to finding Jason in the Fields of Mars. For as nice as hanging out with Jason has been, Nico hates how brazen Jason is about possibly getting hurt.

 

“I worry that too many people might be too much,” Nico says. He looks over to Jason—and feels his heart sprint as he realizes Jason’s staring back at him.

 

The corner of Jason’s lips lifts into a soft smile. He waves at Nico—before Percy swings his arms more dramatically.

 

“And I’m not sure what to expect if Percy keeps…being Percy around Jason,” Nico finishes wryly.

 

Thalia waves her own hand dismissively. “Ignore Kelp Head. He’s deprived of saltwater.”

 

“But you’ll go?” Nico asks hopefully. Reyna makes her way over to them, clipboard in hand.

 

“I already said yes, kid.” Thalia’s smile is affectionate as she kisses her girlfriend on the cheek. “Jace and I will shadowtravel the brat pack with all of you, you and Rey can give your be on your best behavior lecture and I’ll…do whatever there is to do in the meantime.”

 

“You could terrorize Chiron,” Reyna muses. “Word is, he’s still confused by Praetor di Angelo’s visit last time.”

 

“Ah,” Thalia says. “Jason’s birthday.”

 

Nico snorts. “What a surprise.”

 

“That he’s still thinking about you?” Reyna asks.

 

“That he puts thought into anything,” Nico says.

 

Ha!” Thalia chortles between them both—then shrugs. “I guess as a former praetor—who am I to subvert his expectations?”

 

Nico grins—and sighs in relief.

 

Eventually, Reyna claps to gain everyone’s attention. “Class. We’re going to shadowtravel to Camp Halfblood instead of taking a plane.”

 

There’s a murmur of confusion across the many ten-year-olds. Nico follows in suit of his co-praetor.

 

“This year has been defined by the union of Greek and Roman demigods, after centuries of fighting. Olympus considers everyone a family,” he says.

 

“Yeah,” Percy says—then he raises a hand emphatically. “But without the blood.”

 

Thalia hits him, while Nico rolls his eyes.

 

“Let’s honor this union by taking a mode of transportation by the children of the eldest brother in Olympus. The ones that represent his two forms—Roman and Greek,” Nico concludes. He tries to look annoyed when Thalia pulls him into an embrace, but a smile fights it. From afar, Jason’s approving look doesn’t escape him. “So—gather around. Everyone, hold hands.”

 

Jason makes his way towards Nico, the dimples of his smile crisp under the morning sun. His eyes seem to glitter. “Nice speech.”

 

“Thanks.” Nico’s cheeks flush.

 

“Ready to go?” Jason holds out a hand.

 

“Absolutely.” Nico darts across the length of the circle and wedges himself between two kids.

 

He tries not to notice Jason’s look of confusion.

 

*

 

Just like their itinerary dictates, Nico and Reyna give the class of fifth graders the stay on your best behavior lecture. Hazel gives him a delighted hug, and they start the tour with a lot of ooh-ing and aah-ing.

 

Nico’s familiar with the layout from his last few visits, but he notices Reyna lighting up at the opportunity to show her girlfriend her favorite places. Percy enthusiastically requests a lap around Zeus’s Fist, and Hazel doesn’t correct him after he calls it the Pile of Poo.

 

Finally, the children are separated by godly parent or legacy. Head counsellors meet them in the mess hall and guide each child to their designated table. Nico considers scolding Chiron over the segregation of tables—but after his recent family dinner, decides a moment of peace is needed before the next bout of chaos.

 

He startles Jason when he places his tray at the Hades table.

 

“Nico,” Jason says, mouth full. “Hi.”

 

“Hi.” Nico offers a smile after a long morning of tours and conversations of political alliances with a puzzled centaur. He inspects Jason’s plate. “What’d you summon?”

 

Jason stares down at his own plate. “No summons. I made a sandwich.”

 

“Even better,” Nico remarks. He’s surprised to find Jason looking more bashful.

 

“I got used to eating off of enchanted plates that suddenly food didn’t taste the same.” Jason shrugs nonchalantly. “Not…bad, just not—”

 

“Yours,” Nico finishes. The corner of his lips lift into a smile. “Jason Grace, son of Hades.”

 

There’s a lull in their conversation, where Jason stares at him with intrigue. Then the rivets of his dimples appear at his cheeks, and he smiles back just as fully.

 

“Yeah. Mine,” he says. The mess hall light doesn’t do justice to the saturation of Jason’s eyes. He clears his throat. “The…bread was a little tricky. It took a couple of temperature adjustments, and I run cold—”

 

“Wait, wait, wait.” Nico places a hand up—then stares at the son of Hades in disbelief. “You made the bread?”

 

Jason somehow looks both flustered and accomplished. He reaches for the other half of his sandwich and offers it to Nico.

 

Nico stares at it.

 

“I haven’t taken a bite out of this part,” Jason says. “Promise.”

 

Without another word, Nico sinks his teeth into the sandwich. Immediately, he’s compelled to take another bite of it. There’s a pleasant crunch of the bread against his teeth, followed by the savory sweetness of different cuts of meat and cheese. “Jason, this tastes—amazing.

 

“Really?” Again, Jason lights up—and Nico freezes before he can eat the rest of the other demigod’s lunch by accident.

 

“Yeah,” Nico says—and he passes the sandwich back. “It’s really good.”

 

“Thanks.” Jason looks more pleased with himself—which is good enough for Nico. “What about you? What’d you enchant your plate with?”

 

Nico stares down at his plate. Then he pushes it ever-so slightly towards Jason. “Gnocchi.”

 

Again, Jason’s eyes grow with intrigue. “Really?”

 

“Yeah. It’s—not the same as my nonna used to make. Or the restaurant Mom took us to after they passed.” Nico shrugs, stubborn to admit liking anything at Camp Halfblood—but he knows he likes Jason very much. “It’s not bad. It’s just not—”

 

“Yours,” Jason echoes—and they pause again.

 

Nico peers up at Jason and notices the other demigod staring at him very intently. There’s a gleam of…something in his eyes.

 

Jason clears his throat. “I—”

 

“—listen,” Nico finishes. He stares back at Jason, amused. “So do I.”

 

“Maybe we…could go?” Jason asks suddenly.

 

Nico blinks. He arches an eyebrow. “Go where?”

 

Red glows in Jason’s cheeks. He sits taller in his seat, eyebrows knitting together.

 

“Jason?” Nico asks.

 

“Um—”

 

Percy sets his tray down beside Nico, followed by the rest of their Roman crew—and a weathered Annabeth.

 

“Switching things up again, Neeks?” Percy asks cheerily. He obscures Nico’s view of Jason—and for a split second, Nico thinks he see Jason’s lips contort into a frown. Percy insistently waves a hand in front of Nico’s face. “You hear me?”

 

“Nico’s exercising his rights as praetor and ambassador, like last time,” Jason says. There’s an ease to his demeanor—as though the frown never existed.

 

“He sure is. Those kids have the fear of Juno instilled in them,” Percy muses. He makes a face, while both Reyna and Annabeth roll their eyes.

 

From afar, Chiron gives them an odd look. Good.

 

“That reminds me,” Nico says finally. He reaches into his backpack and digs for his gift. He extends it out to Hazel. “I thought you’d like these.”

 

“How sweet.” Hazel opens the box and stares at it in surprise. “Chocolate?”

 

“Ah.” Reyna leans into the daughter of Zeus. “New Rome’s best blend. We give it to the legionnaires for…certain issues.”

 

Hazel blinks at the box—and suddenly, her face glows red. She arches an eyebrow at Nico suspiciously, while the son of Juno stares back in confusion.

 

“Nico’s really good at remembering to give those out,” Thalia remarks—and she gives Nico an affectionate ruffle of the hair. “Sometimes he’d just show up to the principia with a basket of them. Still does every so often.”

 

Percy snorts next, shoving his face full of a slice of pizza. “Believe me—if I knew what time of the month you’d be—”

 

Reyna and Thalia stare at him warily.

 

“—more likely to accept chocolate,” Percy finishes gracefully, “then I’d be doing that, too.”

 

“That’s…thoughtful,” Hazel says, choosing her words carefully. She raises her gaze back to Nico. “How did you know?”

 

“I—don’t know,” Nico says—and he shrugs. He grows self-conscious as they all stare at him. “I just figured you haven’t had any yet.”

 

His gaze darts over to Annabeth, trying to keep his cool.

 

“I can send you a care package next week,” he says.

 

She arches an eyebrow—then looks over to Percy. Then—she makes tick marks. “Queen of the Heavens. Goddess of Marriage, Family, Childbirth, and—”

 

Percy slams his hands into the table, eyes wide. “Ohhh. And women. That’s why Nico has a period radar.”

 

Nico stares at the son of Neptune and makes a sound—not sure how to feel. “A what?”

 

“Bianca used to do the same thing,” Annabeth offers. “I just thought our cycles were synced.”

 

Cycles?” Nico repeats—and suddenly he feels as confused as when he helped deliver a goat. He turns his head to Jason—who shrugs.

 

“You turned into a cloud,” Jason reminds him. “Anything’s possible.”

 

He hates that Jason just looks more impressed. Frank certainly looks more fearful of him. Nico crosses his arms over his chest, baffled.

 

“Aw, kid—it can’t be that shocking, is it?” Thalia asks. She munches on a chicken nugget and looks at Nico affectionately. “Either you were being a thoughtful little brother or you were going to have another power crop up from your mom. Is it really that bad?”

 

“No,” Nico concludes after a second thought. He rubs his temples and holds his hands out.  “One talent helps me pacify half of my legionnaires and keep them loyal to me. The other one ends with me falling from someone’s leaky roof into a bucket.”

 

He hears a stifled laugh—and his gaze darts to Jason immediately.

 

“Something funny?” Nico asks wryly.

 

“No,” Jason says. His smile grows on his face. “I just…enjoy seeing how committed you are to your family, Praetor di Angelo.”

 

Nico feels his face grow hot. He waves a finger. “Family isn’t a laughing matter. I expect a good time while I’m in Grecian territory, Ambassador Grace.”

 

Jason grins. “Done.”

 

Another lull presents itself, where Nico feels his heart do a somersault. He suddenly wishes the Hades table was just the two of them again, if only to hear Jason’s laughter even closer. Then—all at once, everyone else at the table stands up—

 

“Suddenly—” “—Have to get to the Athena Table—” “Capture the Flag won’t plan itself—” “I dropped a drachma over there.”

 

—besides Nico, Jason, Hazel, and Frank. The rest are gone before Nico can blink—and he’s left with only the son of Hades by his side.

 

Nico presses a hand to his face, while Jason coughs.

 

“What was that about?” Nico asks.

 

“It’s best you don’t think about it too hard,” Hazel says sympathetically. She waves her gift around with half a smile.  

 

“I should get going and check on how the Mars kids are…integrating,” Frank says—which sounds something closer to, are still alive. “Want to come, Hazel?”

 

Nico’s gaze narrows at Frank half-heartedly. “Trying to ditch us, too?”

 

Frank stares at Nico, his ears immediately glowing pink. He looks awkward under his presence. “Well, um—”

 

“Frank,” Hazel says, her tone wry, while Nico’s lips spread into a smile.

 

“Oh.” Frank’s nerves seem to settle. “Oh. Right.”

 

“Have fun.” Nico raises a finger. “Tell them I have eyes in the back of my head if they think about getting into any trouble.”

 

Again, he hears Jason turn a laugh into a cough.

 

Hazel rolls her eyes once more, then presses a departing kiss on her brother’s cheek. “See you in a few hours, big brother. Thanks again for the period chocolate.”

 

After that, Nico’s left with no one else than Jason.

 

“Subtle,” Jason remarks quietly. He rubs his forehead—and oddly looks more pink than usual.

 

“What?” Nico asks. He turns to the other demigod, one eyebrow arched. “Something wrong with just the two of us?”

 

“I—no.” Jason sits straighter in his seat—and again, looks nervous. “I like it when it’s the two of us.”

 

“I—” Do too. Nico stops himself from saying the words aloud, in the careful rhythm of their conversation. He knows better than to do so—as Jason looks at him with the same inked eyes. The intensity of his gaze is…startling, as though Jason is studying him from inside-out.

 

“About,” Jason starts, “what I was saying earlier—um—”

 

A girl slams her hands on the table, so loudly that Nico practically jumps into Jason’s lap.

 

“Hi, Drew,” Jason says—with a strange air of weariness. Nico slowly inches away from the son of Hades.

 

“Hi, handsome,” Drew greets. She waves a pretty, well-manicured hand. There’s a bubbliness to her voice, laced with a spice that makes Nico’s skin crawl. Her gaze darts to Nico, her dark ringlets swaying perfectly. “Why don’t you introduce us?”

 

Nico twitches under her gaze. He turns to Jason, who looks more uncomfortable by the second. Nico stands his ground. Or—more specifically, sits firmer. “We were kind of in the middle of—”

 

“Drew, this is Nico di Angelo,” Jason says. “Nico, this is Drew Tanaka. Um—daughter of Aphrodite.”

 

He sounds more uncomfortable.

 

“di Angelo?” Drew repeats—and she gasps in an unpleasant way. “You’re Bianca’s little brother.”

 

Nico stares at the other demigod warily. He’s learned by now that Bianca’s name could go either way. He wouldn’t put it past her to be able to ruin his day from the other side of the country. “I am.”

 

“You know about the good chocolate,” Drew guesses. There’s a devious quality to her smile.

 

“I—what?” Nico stares back at her, baffled.

 

“Bianca and Drew hung out a lot before Bianca’s, uh…” Jason makes a gesture.

 

“First death,” Nico finishes. He nudges Jason appreciatively and watches Jason’s smile grow. “I…guess I can see the influence.”

 

Unlike Bianca’s girlfriend, Drew’s style isn’t choppy or abstract. She’s dressed in a nice wool coat, filled with elegant pastels. If it weren’t for the Camp Halfblood shirt, she’d look like she’d walked off the set of a K-Pop shoot—and even then, she’s done a good job making the shirt look…less blinding.

 

“We used to make out,” Drew says helpfully—and Nico makes a sound. “I could read it on your face. In fact, there was a time or two where I asked Jace here—”

 

“We didn’t,” Jason finishes quickly—his face looking more blue than red. “I, uh, definitely didn’t want to.”

 

“Spoil sport,” Drew grumbles, while Nico debates on the best way to leave. “You’re coming with me.”

 

It takes a moment for Nico to understand who she’s referring to. “Excuse me?”

 

“Bye, Jason!” Drew yanks Nico along without another word.

 

*

 

Nico is yanked into Barbie’s Dreamhouse. He’s seen Aphrodite Cabin from afar—but it’s immaculately clean and lacey on the inside. Nico meets Lacey two minutes after that, after Drew Tanaka orders her to bring the cart of nail polish. A boy named Mitchell delicately takes off Nico’s boots and soaks his feet in hot water.

 

“You don’t have to do that,” Nico says. He feels his ire growing before he can help himself. Jason’s half-pound comment comes to mind, with how easily Drew Tanaka dragged him into the cabin. Then, Nico grows even more annoyed at the idea of being apart from Jason.

 

“Oh—don’t be boorish,” Drew dismisses quickly. “Mitchell gives the best mani-pedi on this side of Long Island. You’d be a fool not to let him do it.”

 

From the way Mitchell beams, Nico realizes the compliment is genuine. He’s not sure if he has the capacity to argue. “Is this what you would do with my sister? Mani-pedis and gossip?”

 

“Please. Do I look like the type to gossip?” Drew asks, looking partly scandalized. “I start gossip.”

 

“Am I supposed to be impressed?” Nico asks. He crosses his arms over his chest, still annoyed.

 

Drew rolls her eyes in a manner Nico’s seen plenty with Mike Kahale. “Well, aren’t you a brat?”

 

“Forgive me,” Nico says wryly. “I’m not normally taken by the people Bianca makes out with.”

 

Drew flips her hair. For a daughter of Aphrodite, she’s much different from what Nico’s grown used to with Piper in his house. “It’s not like you put up a fight.

 

“Not like you gave me a choice,” Nico grumbles—though he knows she’s right. A second longer with Jason and Nico wasn’t sure what to expect. What he’d end up doing and making a fool of himself again.

 

“Your sister and I would go shopping together. Impeccable taste,” Drew remarks. She nudges Lacey with her toe, then passes Nico a face mask. “And Jason—those strong arms are perfect for carrying bags. And—other things.”

 

“Things,” Nico echoes halfheartedly. He crosses his arms over his chest—and Jason’s words before they left for New York come to mind.

 

Well…yeah. I’ve carried you.

 

Nico wants to drown himself in foot water. He yelps as Mitchell clips too close to his foot.

 

“Anyway—your sister and I used retail therapy whenever we were suffering,” Drew continues. “She’d show up at my door with the right chocolates, we’d cry, we’d hug, we’d—”

 

“Let’s stop there,” Nico interjects—and Drew looks too gleeful.

 

“Then—she swore her life to bows and hunting knives. Silena would bring back chocolates at the end of every school year from her dad’s work, but they weren’t nearly as good as whatever magic Bianca worked when she brought me chocolate,” Drew remarks. She blows a kiss into the air.  “She always gets it right. Magical.”

 

Nico rubs his temples tiredly. “Sure. Of all the powers our mother could grace us with, why not add magical chocolate to the list?”

 

Drew makes a face. “I’ve heard that you deliver a goat. Nothing’s more terrifying than that.”

 

Nico eyes his again—then eyes her curiously. Another thought crosses his mind. “You…mentioned a Silena?”

 

Suddenly, Mitchell stops working on his toes. Lacey and he share a solemn look, and even Drew’s eyes seem to flicker thoughtfully. Nico resists the urge to smack himself in the face. He’s reminded how quickly Jason’s own face dropped at the mention of the late daughter of Aphrodite.

 

“Please forget I said anything,” he says. “I—that was rude of me—”

 

“Is this about Jason Grace’s old crush on my late sister?” Drew guesses. “Or your crush on that chiseled stack of ice?”

 

Nico makes another sound. His jaw tightens, and he scowls at Drew, heat burning in his cheeks. “Excuse me?”

 

“Please. You’re in the Aphrodite Cabin. I could smell your crush before you stepped foot in this camp.” Drew inspects her nails. “And don’t even get me started on Jason’s super hot crush on Luke—

 

“I’m leaving.” Nico stands to his feet, his ankles splashing around the spa bath.

 

“What?” Mitchell looks abhorred. “But I was going to do a French tip!”

 

“No.” Nico whirls around and narrows his gaze to the daughter of Aphrodite. “I didn’t come to Camp Halfblood to get mocked and berated by a cabin full of—of—”

 

“What?” Drew finishes for him, deadpan. “Barbies?”

 

Please. You think I’d reduce you to plastic? The centurion of my first cohort is a son of Venus who helped to usurp me.” Nico rubs his temples once more, exhausted, and wobble out of the spa bath.

 

“Usurp you where?” Drew asks instead. “As praetor, or in Jason Grace’s love life?”

 

Nico boils with the anger of a wounded pride. For a moment, he’s reminded of being in Eros’s cave all over again—but a glance at Drew Tanaka’s face shows more substance than her annoying godly sibling.

 

“Usurp: to take a position of power or importance illegally or by force,” Drew says. “You’re looking at an Aphrodite girl with an SAT score of over 1300. I’m smart, and I can tell that you like our resident skeleton. And that he turned you down.”

 

Nico feels a vein popping out of his neck. He’s one nail file from slitting the throat of the Aphrodite girl in front of him.

 

Obviously charmspeak isn’t going to work on you,” Drew decides. She crosses her arms over her chest. “So what have you been doing to get over him?”

 

Nico glowers at the daughter of Aphrodite in front of him. He can feel both Lacey and Mitchell looking between them like a ping pong match—but Drew doesn’t waver.

 

“Praetor di Angelo, I’m Asian. With an Asian mom,” Drew continues. “You’ll have to do better if you’re trying for withering disappointment. So sit down and give Mitchell your other foot.”

 

Charmspeak or not, Nico finds his eyes glued to Drew Tanaka. He settles back in the spa chair and deflates like the cushion beneath him. Then, Nico opens the mask packet and molds it over his face.

 

Mitchell stares at him meekly for the other foot.

 

“Nothing,” Nico confesses finally. He rubs the serum into his forehead. “Percy spent the whole summer trying to get us together so he could tell us why we were bad for each other.”

 

“You, and tall, pale, and cool?” Drew asks. “But you make an attractive couple.”

 

Thank you,” Nico says—then he pauses. He presses a hand to his face. Red burns in his cheeks. “Forget I said that.”

 

“So what—you asked him out and he turned you down?” Drew continues. “Why are you still following him around like a lost puppy?”

 

“I am not.”

 

“You’re right. Jason’s the puppy—no doubt about that.”

 

What?”

 

“You’re a praetor, di Angelo,” Drew continues. “You delivered a goat and brought an end to the war between both camps. More importantly—you walked into the mess hall, past my table, and straight to Camp Halfblood’s most eligible bachelor.”

 

“He’s not ready to date yet.” Nico halts, as Drew looks at him unflinchingly. “I mean—he is ready. He told me that himself.”

 

And Nico’s been eternally grateful that they’ve managed to avoid that subject in the last few weeks.

 

“He lives in New Rome now,” Nico says, if only to try and gather his bearings. “He’s just. We’re friends. Nothing more. I’m not even his type.”

 

“Nothing more?” Lacey asks—and she immediately squeaks, as both Nico and Drew look at her.

 

“Lacey,” Drew says snidely, “what did I say about—”

 

“Nothing more,” Nico answer for Lacey. He struggles to divulge more—before leaning into Drew as she begins to brush his hair. “We’re…trying to be friends.”

 

“Really?” Mitchell pipes in. “Because it looks like you were flirting. Like, Jason was flirting with—”

 

“Jason doesn’t flirt,” Nico cuts off, his face red. “He’s just like that.”

 

All three of them share a look—one that Nico wouldn’t expect Drew, the Queen Bee, to be capable of, and Nico’s irritation only grows.

 

“Any time it gets closer to being…more than that,” Nico says carefully, “I stop it.”

 

Mitchell and Lacey both gasp collectively, while the brush pauses in Drew’s hand.

 

“You’re flirting with Camp Halfblood’s very own Twilight star,” she says, appalled, “and you stop it?”

 

“Because he doesn’t understand when he goes too far.” Nico bites the inside of his mouth, reluctant to continue.

 

The last few weeks with Jason had been great—being able to fall into the rhythm Nico loved so much after their quest. The comfort he had around Jason was as innate as breathing—but so was falling for Jason. For the way Jason stared at him with the bashful smile and rich eyes.

 

Nico’s known for a long time that he values his friendship more with Jason to ruin it.

 

“I just—have to navigate when he starts…acting weird,” Nico says. “Carefully.”

 

To his surprise, all three Aphrodite children stare at him blankly. Mitchell stops putting separators between his toes.

 

“Nico,” Drew says finally—her tone of voice sounding less vain. “Do you want to know the best way to get over someone?”

 

Nico hesitates. He thinks back to how intensely Jason stared at him at the Hades table—or just earlier where he smeared sweat over Jason’s chest. They were both awkward about it. Nico hoped by now after promising Reyna months ago that he’d be over Jason, but. He wasn’t.

 

So, he says, “I’m listening.”

 

*

 

Date someone else.

 

Yeah. Like that was easy—Nico just needed to get together with the first guy he saw after Jason. The closest Nico came to other boys these days was their B.O. in the gym locker rooms Or worse—Percy’s loud company still insisting that something was there. Between praetorship and school, Nico doesn’t have time to find another guy. And he certainly doesn’t want to.

 

Which—Drew also does not hesitate to call a problem.

 

Lacey liked to say that dating someone else was also an easy way to make Jason jealous—but she was quickly shushed by her more annoying sister.

 

From the way Jason described Silena Beauregard, Nico wondered if she was insistent and pushy like Drew—or wary and alternative like Piper. He decides against asking after how crestfallen Jason looked.

 

He can practically hear Drew tutting in his ear as he trudges through the snow. Don’t think about Jason if he wanted to get over those feelings.

 

Nico pushes her voice out of his mind and wanders around camp, keeping tabs on all twenty children. He finds Reyna and Annabeth overseeing a class over Ancient Greece and explaining when traditions were adapted for Rome. Hazel is leading a painting class. Percy leads a swordfighting class, trying instigate a legacy/child of Poseidon team against the Ares Cabin.

 

Eventually, Nico finds Jason in the medical bay. He stops at the edge of the building—and watches as Jason converses with some…blond Apollo kid. One Nico recognizes but can’t quite place the name of.

 

As the other boy explains something, Nico watches an easy smile etch across Jason’s lips. The Apollo boy looks…charmed. Engaged with Jason’s presence, and Nico feels the displeasure rotting in his chest.

 

Then—the Apollo kid catches Nico staring. Jason’s gaze follows in suit—and Nico’s pulse spikes.

 

“Nico—hi.” For the third time that day, Jason greets him with a wave. There’s a look of…something on his face—between surprise and amazement. “You look…wow.”

 

Nico hesitates—before stepping foot into the building. He sighs in relief as a cloud of warmth hits him and tightens the giant scarf around his neck. “I got kidnapped.”

 

“Worse,” the Apollo kid muses. “You got Drew-napped.”

 

Nico stares at the son of Apollo warily. He’s reminded too much of the god himself.

 

“Nico,” Jason says, “you remember Will, right?”

 

“Hard to forget,” Nico forgets. He studies Will—from the golden fringe of his blond hair to his blue eyes.

 

“Same to you,” Will muses. “You get adopted by another sister?”

 

“Excuse me?” Nico asks.

 

“You know—to add to your collection. Bianca, Hazel, Reyna, Jace’s sister, Thalia—” Will makes tick marks with his fingers and stares at the ceiling. “—every female legionnaire, like ever, probably?”

 

Jason laughs into a cough, his dimples apparent. Nico’s face burns.

 

“Are you done?” Nico asks. Then—he holds a hand in the air. “Scratch that. I’m deciding you’re done.”

 

Will stares at him—a too-blinding sparkle of amusement in his eye.

 

Jason clears his throat. “Um. I’m done. I’ll…see you later, Will?”

 

“Looking forward to it,” Will says—and he grins in Jason’s direction. “You know I love seeing you here, Jace.”

 

Nico does not like how candid Jace sounds on his tongue. Then—suddenly, Jason is spinning Nico back towards the door and guiding them outside. Nico’s stroke of jealousy lasts only a few moments before it’s replaced by the flutter of Jason’s touch.

 

“I was hoping to hang out with you before Capture the Flag tonight,” Jason confesses. “Is that okay?”

 

“It’s…okay,” Nico agrees. He can’t help looking over his shoulder. Will, the son of Apollo, meets his gaze, and Nico quickly turns away, mood sour.

 

“Um. You sure?”

 

Nico peers back at Jason and notices how nervous the other demigod looks. He massages his temples gingerly. He wouldn’t be surprised if Juno’s infamous rage and jealousy was on the list of many things he inherited from his mother.

 

But—he’s aware that his irritation is all him, and Jason doesn’t need to deal with any of it.

 

“Yes,” Nico says, hoping to distill the worry from Jason’s face. He sighs, and a huff of cold air falls from his lips. “Any chance we can go somewhere warm?”

 

“Oh, sure—I have hot cocoa in my cabin.”

 

They make their way towards the Hades Cabin. Nico’s reminded of the last time they were here—when he tentatively knocked on the door on the eve of Jason’s birthday. Jason looks less reluctant than the first time.

 

This time, Jason pulls up a chair for Nico to sit. Nico doesn’t know how after just one afternoon—but the tornado of black leggings, makeup, and array of CDs ends where Jason’s clean, perfectly made bed begins.

 

“Wow,” Nico remarks. “That didn’t take her long.”

 

Jason, unfazed, goes to a small coffee bar and begins making hot cocoa. “What makes you think the fishnet isn’t mine?”

 

Nico snorts. “Like you could squeeze your legs in a pair of fish nets.”

 

My legs?” Jason echoes, mimicking Nico’s emphasis. “What’s wrong with my legs?”

 

Nico freezes. His eyes fall down Jason’s backside instinctively, and his face burns. He certainly got a very good look at them this morning in their much warmer New Rome weather. And—from all angles when he shoved a sword up Jason’s—

 

He double-wraps Bianca’s scarf around his neck.

 

“Nothing,” Nico concludes, muffled beneath the fabric. “They’re just. There.”

 

Jason makes a sound—close to a quiet chuckle. He comes back with two mugs and extends one to Nico.

 

“Thanks.”

 

“Drew didn’t include a nice wool coat with her makeover?” Jason asks. “Her…”

 

“Drew-napping?” Nico finishes wryly. His teeth clatter over his mug, and he risks the tongue-burn.

 

Jason flashes an apologetic look. “Sorry. Cabin Thirteen’s not the warmest place to be. I can—”

 

“It’s not that. It’s…all of it.” Nico makes a vague gesture above his head.

 

Again, Jason looks amused. “All of Long Island?”

 

“Yes.” Nico wrinkles his nose in disdain.

 

He doesn’t expect Jason to laugh—but the chary sound makes him less tense. To his surprise, Jason shucks off his jacket and drapes it over Nico’s shoulders. The sharp scent of Jason’s shampoo fills Nico’s nostrils—and he grows lightheaded.

 

“Any better?” Jason asks.

 

“I—” Nico doesn’t know what should come after that. He stares at Jason from across his seat—who’s dressed in nothing more but a light t-shirt. “How are you not cold?”

 

Jason blinks—then he shrugs. “The Underworld is colder. Plus—”

 

He brushes a thumb over Nico’s knuckle—and Nico almost drops his mug as he yelps. Chiseled stack of ice describes Jason’s touch perfectly.

 

Jason retracts his hand almost immediately, expression sheepish. “I…normally run colder during the winter.”

 

“I don’t remember that from last year.” Nico rubs his knuckles into the warmth of his mug, hand tingling for more reasons than one.

 

“We…weren’t really friends last year,” Jason reminds him.

 

“Right. That.” Nico blows cold air into his cocoa and takes another sip. “The cutoff.”

 

“Yeah.” Jason arches an eyebrow, looking just as pleased as he was with the legs comment. “The cutoff.”

 

Nico takes a thoughtful sip of his mug. He catches himself in Jason’s mirror and wrinkles his nose.

 

Drew primped and shaped his hair in a way that flying against obnoxious winds couldn’t capture. She put him in an itchy sweater that molded to his frame well—but left little to keep him warm. Nico’s hands and feet were well taken care of thanks to Mitchell. He didn’t even mind the eyeliner—but drew the line when Drew insisted on body glitter.

 

“Please explain to me why Drew-napping doesn’t surprise anyone,” Nico says—and Jason chews on his lip as he smiles bashfully.

 

“Drew kind of…” Jason makes a gesture. “Likes to align herself…with…”

 

He trails off.

 

“What,” Nico asks flatly, “people in the position of power?”

 

“Yes. And attractive people,” Jason says. He stares at him expectantly, and Nico processes the word.

 

“She finds me attractive?” Nico asks.

 

“She’s…not the only one,” Jason says—and he stares at Nico thoughtfully.

 

Red glows in Nico’s cheeks—but he reminds himself what he told the Aphrodite kids. He stopped it when Jason went too far. Nico huffs and crosses his arms over his chest. “She seems like she just likes to flex being a counsellor.”

 

“Well, yeah.” Jason makes another face. He smiles and crosses his arms over his chest. “But she’s nice. A little rough around the edges, but…nice. Her favorite kind of therapy is retail therapy. When Silena died, she helped keep them distracted.”

 

Nico’s irritation withers ever so slightly. He definitely knows what it means to lose a sister.

 

“She also took me shopping when I tried to help her, too.” Jason offers. “That was a weird one.”

 

“All you wear are white shirts.”

 

“I do,” Jason confirms. “She said white shirts really brought out my…uh.”

 

He glows red, looking bashful again.

 

“Your what?” Nico asks, suddenly less annoyed.

 

“I’d. Rather not use the word she did.” Jason stares down at his own chest mindfully and rubs the back of his neck, looking a pleasant scarlet against the white and blond.

 

Nico snorts—and finds himself snickering as Jason blushes. “Stop letting Bianca and Drew dress you. I thought you looked handsome when you were my wedding date.”

 

“You did?”

 

“Less Twilight star and more normal teenager. Actually—better than the average Percy.”

 

Jason looks a little less pink—and he leans forward. “You chose the colors.”

 

“You made the colors look nice,” Nico corrects. His tone is stern, if only to emphasize his point. Jason has the nerve to look humbled by the compliment.

 

“Thanks. I’ll keep that in mind.” Jason rubs his forehead, and the corners of his lips lift into a grateful smile.

 

Nico’s chest flutters again as he sees it. His fingers curl over the jacket against his shoulders—only to be stricken with the scent of Jason’s shampoo once again. It fills his lungs in the same way Jason’s smile livens him—and makes him nervous. Reminds him that he needs to remember when to stop, too.

 

Evidently, it shows on Nico’s face. Jason coughs only a moment later, looking ill at ease. He traces the brim of his cup. “Sorry I let her drag you off. I was…very confused.”

 

“She doesn’t take no for an answer very well,” Nico mutters. He shrugs, as Jason looks more apprehensive. “She was harmless. Because she wanted to be.”

 

“I…was pretty reluctant to really talk to them. During and after the war.” Jason’s eyebrows furrow together, evidently contemplating his own words.

 

“Because of what happened to Silena. Their sister,” Nico says. He watches as Jason hesitates, reaching to touch the back of his neck once more to calm his nerves. The tone of their conversation changes already.

 

“Be…cause I was afraid they’d be able to see how crushed I was over Luke,” Jason says instead. He fiddles with his drink, unable to look Nico in the eye.

 

“Oh.” Nico’s fingers curl over his mug—and the rotting feeling returns to his chest.

 

Fun makeover or not, the jacket over his shoulders suddenly feels too heavy. It sags over his neck—and he’s surprised to feel Jason fixing a lapel.

 

“I was reluctant to talk to anyone after the war,” Jason continues. “Until you. Well—”

 

He makes another face, pondering his words again.

 

“—Eros,” Jason corrects. “The cutoff. Um.”

 

Jason takes another breath.

 

“I’m not saying this right,” he concludes.

 

“Now you’re ready to date again,” Nico guesses for him. His chest grows tight.

 

“Yes—yeah. I am.” Jason scoots his chair across from Nico, suddenly rejuvenated with a wave of energy.

 

Nico inches back into his own seat carefully. He stares down at his drink, muddied by the cocoa Jason mixed with it. It’s sharp in flavor and sweet—and despite how cold Jason’s touch felt moments ago, Nico can’t help focusing on how thoughtful Jason is. His fingers thumb the zipper lining of the jacket.

 

As he looks up, he catches Jason studying him, expression so earnest it’s almost somber.

 

Nico’s convinced he knows where to go from here. “Will’s your type.”

 

Jason blinks, visibly taken aback.

 

“Blond hair. Blue eyes. Nice, I guess.” Nico fiddles with the handle of his mug once more. “If not a bit obnoxious, but—aren’t all of Apollo’s children? Look at Octavian.”

 

“Nico—” Jason’s eyebrows knit together. “What…are you saying?”

 

“You’re seeing him later,” Nico continues. “Let me guess. A date?”

 

He practically yelps again as Jason reaches to touch his arm.

 

“I—Nico.” Jason pauses, looking every bit as confused as the puppy Drew described him as earlier. “Nico, no.”

 

“Why not?” Nico asks—finding himself genuinely curious. He thinks of the Jason that Aphrodite dared to sculpt—a golden boy that still dimmed in comparison to the real Jason Grace. What did Athena call it—a dumb Apollo? Nico feels the same about Will, dumb son of the dumber sun god.

 

But—his relationship with Jason is…going to be in this fragile state until something happens. Jason looks baffled. His shoulders jerk to his ears in a stiff shrug.

 

“I mean—” Jason’s gaze is everywhere but Nico’s face, clearly thinking of something. His ears even glow pink. “I mean, we…”

 

Nico’s mood sours, much more bitter than any chocolate. He mindfully pushes that feeling away. “You’re thinking about it. I know when you’re thinking too loud.”

 

Jason ceases with those words. He settles in his chair, once again averting Nico’s gaze. “Will and I worked closely together in the med bay. Nothing really…romantic came out of it. Not like—”

 

“Not like Luke. All the more reason why it’ll be good for you.” Nico rubs his arm thoughtfully, his Juno tattoo aching for no reason.

 

He thinks about their so-called cutoff. Not just the one where Nico had a change of tune because of Eros—but the one where Nico’s feelings continued on a romantic route and Jason’s came to a dead stop.

 

Nico can’t keep getting annoyed. Can’t keep getting jealous because he knows other people are interested in Jason Grace, son of Hades. For as much as Jupiter’s escapades have annoyed Nico as of late, he hates his mother’s infamous rage even more.

 

The words come out in a rigid manner—but they come out, none the less.

 

“We’re…not going to stop being friends if you start dating someone.” Nico rocks his cup of hot cocoa carefully. “This is enough, Jason.”

 

The next lull between them is heavier than Nico expects. It isn’t the air that Nico is used to—not around Jason—but Nico’s spent many weeks avoiding accepting it after Jason said he was ready to date again.

 

So, he tries not to look like he’s holding his breath when Jason finally says something.

 

“You don’t like me anymore?”

 

Nico glances back at Jason. For all the tentative energy he’s given all afternoon, the question comes with a sudden gravity from Jason’s tone of voice. Jason hasn’t said those words aloud. They danced around the subject since rekindling their friendship—and suddenly he breathes a cloud of air back into the thought.

 

Drew’s right. Nico hasn’t done anything to actually get over Jason. Hasn’t wanted to.

 

“I don’t,” Nico lies. “You’re right. We’re better as friends.”

 

For all the light teasing that happened earlier, Nico can’t read Jason’s face now. There’s a streak of…something in his demeanor.

 

“Oh,” Jason says—and his voice sounds stilted. “Um.”

 

“You have my blessing to go out on a date with that Will guy,” Nico says. He shifts uncomfortably in his seat, knowing better than to fixate on Jason again. In good humor, he tries to add, “that comes without any of my mother’s strings. Just ignore her.”

 

It's best Nico follows his own advice. Otherwise he was going to get stuck in a rut like Mammina.

 

The sound of children piques Nico’s interest from outside. He hears prepubescent cheering—followed by the heavy tenor of much older kids, Percy’s voice included.

 

Nico stands to his feet. “Must be Capture the Flag time.”

 

Jason stands to his feet almost too fast. The force of it almost knocks Nico back into his seat. He stares at Nico, his charcoal eyes rich in hue and intensity as lines crease between his brow. Nico’s startled by it.

 

“Something you want to say?” Nico asks. He tries to look everywhere but Jason’s face, if only to solidify his stupid half-pound stance. “You can have your jacket back.”

 

“I—” Jason falters. For a long time.

 

“Jason?” Nico asks, after a moment too long. “Jason—”

 

“I guess not,” Jason whispers finally.

 

Nico is disarmed by the pitch of Jason’s voice. He shucks off the leather jacket, hands still tight around the collar. “Are…you coming?”

 

The corner of Jason’s lips lifts into an odd smile. He cradles one of his hands gingerly. “I don’t belong there.”

 

Nico’s chest aches. He wants to smack himself for his stupidity today. “Right. Yeah, okay. I’ll—”

 

See you later suddenly feels worse on his mouth. Nico can’t place why.

 

“Yeah,” Jason finishes for him. “I’ll be in the med bay if you need me.”

 

With Will, dumb son of Apollo.

 

“I’ll try not to,” Nico says. He relinquishes his grip on the jacket. Finally, he lets go for Jason.

 

*

 

Nico catches up to the rest of the campers in the forest. The New Roman fifth graders are enchanted by their head counselors, armed with wooden swords and shields. Nico’s apprehension fades until he also feels like a kid with his gladius in one hand and shield in the other. He’s reminded that he didn’t get to do the war games a few weeks ago—since he hung out with Jason instead.

 

Which—would never be bad. But Nico does need to enjoy the things that he missed most before praetorship.

 

“Dude,” Percy greets, head already adorned by a blue helmet, “where’ve you been? Why do you smell so nice?”

 

Nico rolls his eyes. “I got Drew-napped—”

 

“Oh,” Percy says. “Yeah, that’ll do it.”

 

Nico glares, once again irritated that it Drew-napping was just a thing.

 

“Wait—” Percy lifts his helm. “We left you with Jason.”

 

Nico shifts uncomfortably, messing with the strap of his sheath. “I was just with Jason.”

 

“How did that go?” Reyna asks, appearing from nowhere with Thalia in tow.

 

He looks between his co-praetor, the daughter of Pluto, and Percy rigidly, hand on the hilt of his sword. His chest aches in knots—but mostly, confusion. “It was fine.”

 

“And?” Thalia asks.

 

“And what?” Nico’s eyebrows press together more tensely than usual. “I gave him my blessing to ask out that Apollo kid from the med bay. He and I are just friends.”

 

The last thing he expects is for his three favorite people to stare at him in stunned silence. Nico is wary of the look that Thalia gives him.

 

“Okay,” Percy starts slowly. Calculatingly, for a Kelp Brain. “Does Grace know that?”

 

Yes,” Nico says irately—angrily. He knows it’s more at himself than Percy. “I made that very clear.”

 

Further out in the field, Annabeth claps her hands beside Hazel and Frank. “Okay! First round of Capture the Flag with our Roman field trip pals—”

 

“Beth,” Percy exclaims from afar. “Beth, Beth, Beth—hold on a minute—”

 

He sprints off in her direction and drags her off to the side. Nico turns away before he can see the inevitable bickering arise between them both—one that’ll surely end with a headache for everyone else.

 

“How are we playing this today?” Nico turns to Reyna and Thalia—who still hold strange looks.

 

“Reyna’s monitoring the kids on the Blue Team,” Thalia says.

 

“Which means I’m monitoring the Red Team,” Nico surmises. He looks around and notices the colored plumes between his friends. To his delight, Hazel and Frank are also decorated with red plumes. Another thought occurs to him. “Percy’s on the Blue Team?”

 

“Annabeth’s on the Blue Team,” Reyna supplies helpfully.

 

Nico rolls his eyes—and notices the same is true for Thalia, too. “So…me, Frank, and Hazel? Against Percy and the both of you?”

 

“Hopefully we trained you well, kid.” Thalia smiles deviously—but there’s an air of concern laced in there. “You gonna be okay?”

 

“Of course I will be.” Nico’s grip tightens over his helmet. “I’m not ten anymore.”

 

Thalia laughs and ruffles his well-groomed hair. “No—but they are.”

 

She gestures to the many kids, equally distributed amongst the group. Annabeth returns, looking more annoyed with Percy by her side and defeated. Nico looks over to his mini-cohort and mindfully pushes all thoughts of Jason out of the way.

 

They separate into the forest, and Nico wrinkles his nose from the reminder of the last time he was here—watching Thalia and Jason both try to talk Octavian down from killing the Greek demigods. Hazel is excited to see him again.

 

“Looks like my kids and your kids are getting along,” she teases. “I can’t wait to see what you have planned for Saturnalia.”

 

Nico smiles back at her. Sure enough, the kids were more than happy to talk about Greek and Roman traditions. “Sorry I’ve been unavailable. What’s the plan?”

 

“A scouting mission,” Frank explains.

 

“The three of us?” Nico asks.

 

They shake their heads.

 

“Frank and I are leading the charge to the flag,” Hazel says. “We figured you could take some kids with Connor. Give them a lesson in reconnaissance.”

 

Oh. “So we’re separated,” Nico says.

 

“We’re paired off,” Hazel corrects. “Is that okay?”

 

Nico hesitates. There’s Annabeth and Percy, Reyna and Thalia, Hazel and Frank, and Nico and—some other kid. Even Bianca was probably happily playing house with Piper on the other side of the country—and still managing to annoy him via Drew Tanaka.

 

But there’s no use feeling childish when he prepared this trip as a babysitter. So, Nico nods. “Yeah—that makes sense.”

 

Plus—Hazel looks delighted to be in the lead for once. She smiles and looks over her shoulder. “Connor?”

 

“Present!” Connor—a curly-mopped brunet with blue eyes appears, dressed in the same chestplate and plume as the rest of them. There’s an upturn to his brow and smile, elfish in his features.

 

The introductions are quick. Connor Stoll, son of Hermes—co-camp counselor to Cabin Eleven. He hands a wallet back to Frank—which the son of Mars didn’t realize he was missing. Nico is wary enough to guard his own pockets.

 

“There’s a reason he’s with you and not with Clarisse,” Hazel explains wryly.

 

“Son of Hera, huh?” Connor asks, hands tucked in his own pockets. He has a Band-Aid on his cheek, which he reassures is from a fun prank gone right.

 

“Juno, actually,” Nico corrects.

 

“Right, right—and Mister Steal Yo Girl,” Connor quips. “Worse thief in history. Can never get away with it. Mad respect for your mom for catching him each time, though.”

 

Hazel, Frank, and Nico all stare at him.

 

“My dad?” Hazel guesses.

 

“That was really bad,” Nico says—which is when Frank and Hazel slowly try to disappear and implement their plan.

 

“You’re right,” Connor says flippantly. “Which means we’re due for something good to happen later.”

 

The logic is about as Percy as it can get from someone who isn’t the son of Neptune—so Nico decides to roll with it. They take a group of four with them—two Greek and two Roman kids. The Romans stand tall and salute their praetor like little legionnaires. The Greek ones default to Connor for guidance.

 

“Careful,” Connor says, when they start towards enemy territory. He’s low to the ground with his sword in hand—magnetic enough that all four children look to him curiously. “It’s harder to see in the dark—which means we need to be more aware of our surroundings. There’s a branch there.”

 

One of the girls stares curiously, and a childish oh falls from her lips.

 

Nico stares at him peculiarly.

 

“You disagree, Praetor D?” Connor asks—which is a strange nickname Nico doesn’t expect.

 

“No,” Nico says. “You forget that when you got that Band-Aid?”

 

“What—this old thing?” Connor points to his face—and grins way too deviously. “No way. This is a hard-earned battle wound.

 

“From…pitpocketing?”

 

“From pissing Clarisse off,” the son of Hermes says.

 

“So you didn’t get away with it,” Nico says—and Connor shrugs candidly beneath his armor—like the Scarecrow from Wizard of Oz.

 

“What good is a prank if people don’t know how good you are?” Connor rubs his cheek thoughtfully.  “Besides—it looked worse before. Willie talked my ear off before he let me have the ambrosia.”

 

“Willie?”

 

“Willie. Willbert. William.” Connor shrugs—and the Roman boy they have with them lights up.

 

“Will!” he says. “He’s my brother.”

 

“Oh,” Nico says—and he wrinkles his nose.

 

“Worth it.” Connor grabs one of Nico’s fifth-graders. “There’s another branch there—we don’t want them to hear us coming.”

 

The fifth-grader in question stares in awe, and Nico guides her around.

 

“These look lain out on purpose,” Nico speculates. He maneuvers them through the woody path. “Probably to try and hear us coming. Connor’s right. Keep your voice low and your footsteps light.”

 

“Stay whelmed,” Connor advises.

 

“Exactly,” Nico says. Then—he turns. “What?”

 

“You know—not overwhelmed or underwhelmed. Whelmed. Calm. Alert,” Connor says in a hushed tone. He stretches an arm in front of Nico next. “Wait.”

 

Nico’s startled by the touch—and how quiet it seems against his chest. “What?”

 

“An anthill,” Connor says. “No point in unnecessary battle scars, right?”

 

Nico stares at the son of Hermes—flummoxed—but Connor shuffles through helpful advice and a silly personality enough to keep the kids engaged. They make it into enemy territory—shrouded by an array of bushes—and Nico no doubt hears Percy’s voice. Three other campers are with him, strategizing.

 

“Hey,” Connor whispers. “Ollie. Why don’t you try shooting one of Jackson’s sentries?”

 

Ollie—the Roman son of Apollo who enthusiastically claimed Will earlier—stares at Nico for approval.

 

Nico nods. “It’ll be good practice.”

 

Ollie’s eyebrows furrow together beneath his oversized helmet. He stares down at his bow doubtfully. “I won’t hurt Centurion Jackson, will I?”

 

“No, no,” Connor reassures—and he gestures to the plunger end of Ollie’s arrow.

 

“Just his pride,” Nico guesses.

 

Connor hands Nico his dagger. “You can have this back. Just in case you need it.”

 

Which is when Nico realizes it’s his own dagger. He makes a noise. “When did you—?”

 

“Hey—deep breaths, Ollie. No worries. You’re already a better shot than Solace. Trust me.” Connor goes back to helping their nervous mentee. “Aim for the chest. Don’t worry if you miss. You’ve got plenty of other arrows to go with. Right, Praetor D?”

 

Nico doesn’t expect the nickname again—but nods. He leans on other side of Connor. “Reaction time is everything. Worry about your next second as much as your first, Ollie.”

 

It takes a moment—but Ollie nods. “Okay.”

 

Over the head of the Roman child of Apollo, Nico catches Connor winking at him.

 

Ollie accidentally shoots the tree past Percy’s sentries. The four Blue team members jump, and Percy turns to inspect the tree.

 

Percy’s face scrunches in confusion. “What the—?”

 

Then Ollie impales Percy in the head with another plunger arrow.

 

“OW!” Percy falls forward.

 

Nico claps a hand over his face to cover a laugh—but a loud chortle makes it past Connor’s lips anyway.

 

“Dude,” Connor snickers, “Nice—!”

 

INTRUDERS!”

 

“Uh-oh,” he says instead. “Alright kids—prepare for bat—”

 

A sword comes towards Connor. Nico is quick to draw his gladius against Riptide—and looks into the grinning face of his old co-centurion.

 

“Me first, huh, Neeks?” Percy muses. “You game?”

 

“Are you?” Nico counters. “You just got hit in the head by a ten-year-old.

 

The plunger sticks out of the side of Percy’s helmet very clearly. Ollie beams behind them—and Percy waves his hand dismissively. “Lucky shot. Oof—!”

 

This time, Ollie nails him in the eyes. There’s another cackle from Connor, and a Nice! cheered behind Nico—but Nico takes Percy’s stumble to parry. After years of training under the son of Neptune, Nico knows how quick Percy is to recover. The moment Nico swings, Percy blocks him with Riptide.

 

Behind him, he hears the children drawing their wooden sword.

 

“So,” Percy starts, “About Jason—”

 

Nico makes an aggravated sound. “Now?”

 

“Well—”

 

Nico hooks a leg with Percy’s and tries to trip him. Percy stumbles—and once more Nico swings his sword.

 

“I just—” Percy says, yelping as he blocks Nico’s blow. “—think, that it’d be a good idea if you—”

 

“We’re just friends,” Nico snaps—and he watches as the kids stare at him curiously. Red burns angrily in his cheeks. “Please stop.”

 

Percy makes a face—one that irritates Nico even in the dark. He charges towards Nico. “If I beat you, will you listen to me?”

 

“No.Nico finds himself back-to-back with Connor. He startles at the touch behind him and glances at the blue-eyed brunet.

 

Connor grabs him gingerly by the shoulders—and Nico gets a full look at the elfish grin on Connor’s face before he’s nudged in a different direction. “Let’s switch dance partners.”

 

“What—” Suddenly, Nico’s thrown into the fray against the other three Blue members.

 

“C’mon!” Percy whines. “I really need to talk to him!”

 

Nico reorients himself quickly as he notices Percy’s teammates nabbing his children. He swings a gust of wind in their direction—and two of them break free. The third one starts running with Ollie as a hostage.

 

Before Nico can help himself, he tries something he hasn’t before.

 

“Stop right there young lady,” Nico snaps. “You drop him right now.

 

The Blue teammate halts—frozen in place. Percy and Connor are both disrupted from their battle, puzzled—while Ollie drops to the ground. Ollie scrambles for his bow.

 

“Go to your room and think about what you just did,” Nico orders. He points in the direction of the camp—and all three of Percy’s teammates stand tall and nervous, hands at their rear end. Then, they scramble off towards campgrounds.

 

Percy and Connor stare at him, stunned. So do the kids—who clutch their own backsides.

 

“Oh my gods,” Percy says. “You just momspoke them to their rooms.

 

“Momspoke’s already got a word, bro.” Connor scratches his head with the hilt of his sword. “It’s more like. Nagging?”

 

Nico glares in their direction, his lips in a heated scowl. Connor grins—and Percy squeaks.

 

Percy,” Nico scolds, “you’re grounded. No TV for a month.”

 

A month?” Percy echoes, mortified. Then—“Oof!”

 

He plants face first into the dirt—very much grounded.

 

Nico keeps his stern look. He thinks if he laughs, he’ll break the spell. Then—he walks around Percy’s incapacitated form and looks back to his children. Nico gestures deeper into enemy territory. “Coming, kids?”

 

Ollie and the rest of the ten-year-olds nod enthusiastically and trot after him.

 

Nico!” Percy yells into the grass—which sounds more like NEEEKO. “Wait!”

 

“Nice mind control, man.” Connor trots after them—with what looks like Percy’s wallet. “How’d you know you could do it?”

 

Nico frowns. He halts in his tracks—and reaches for the wallet. He ends up clanking armor against Connor instead—and bumping noses.

 

Connor stares at him, unfazed and still cheery.

 

“I don’t know,” Nico confesses—finding himself surprisingly on edge. “Why are you so good at that?”

 

Connor’s smiles, errantly too charming. He swivels Percy’s wallet around, and Nico reaches for it again. To his surprise, Connor once again holds his dagger—the one Thalia gifted him. Connor gleefully makes jazz hands. “A talent of my dad’s. And a little misdirection.”

 

Nico’s face scrunches. He’s inclined not to like Mercury. But his thoughts go to something else. “You’re calling that momspeak mind control? A talent of my mother’s?”

 

“Well—yeah. It’s basically both, right?” Connor arches an eyebrow—flashing a look that’s different from the brotherly one he’s given the kids and the trollish one Nico’s tolerated. “Your mom mind-controlled Heracles.”

 

Nico stares at him.

 

“I did my research on your mom,” Connor continues helpfully. “Someone that willing to shake things up here is pretty awesome, you know?”

 

Nico’s face tingles. His cheeks swell at the words pretty awesome. He’s baffled at the idea that he’s worth anyone’s research.

 

Connor hands him the dagger willingly. “Is that okay?”

 

“That was AWESOME!” yells one of the kids—and Ollie jumps up and down happily.

 

Totally wicked,” he exclaims.

 

That elfish quality doesn’t really shake from Connor’s face—but he’s definitely staring at Nico with intrigue. Again, the red glows in Nico’s cheeks.

 

“Yeah,” Nico says eventually. “I—guess that’s fine.”

 

Connor grins again. He nudges Nico in the shoulder and cocks his head eastward. “C’mon. I know where Annabeth likes to hide the flag.”

 

Nico frowns. He tries to find firm footing. “We’re on a reconnaissance mission.”

 

“And we’ve reconnaissanced that you have the power to ground people. Literally.” Connor inches deeper into the woods. He gestures to their gaggle of children. “Kids. Raise your hand if you like to win.”

 

Without hesitation, the hands of all four kids shoot into the air. Connor only stares at Nico expectantly, smiling fuller.

 

“Praetor D,” he continues. “You’ve been outvoted.”

 

Nico rolls his eyes. He hesitates—but his eyes follow the mischief of Connor Stoll’s smile.

 

With great reluctance, he follows the son of Hermes.

 

Notes:

I could lie, but there is only more angst and misunderstandings to come. Cheers! 8)

Chapter 18: something good

Summary:

Percy makes another sound. “Bro—”

“Percy,” Nico snaps, “Don’t—”

“Jason likes you!”

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

They end up winning Capture the Flag. Nico barks orders for Reyna and Annabeth to go stand in the corner and threatens Reyna’s mini-cohort by saying he has eyes in the back of his head—which is egged on by Connor, Ollie, and the rest of Nico’s kids. Hazel and Frank are confused to see him—but it fades quickly into excitement as they realize what’s in Nico’s hands.

 

Campers push to carry Nico on their shoulders, but Nico ushers their group of four kids to the front of the line instead. The flag is big enough for all four of them to carry.

 

“Go on,” Nico encourages—and he’s startled by a nudge to the shoulder from Connor Stoll.

 

Connor offers a toothy grin. “You earned it.”

 

Ollie and the rest of the kids stare at each other, awestruck—and then they’re whisked away, celebrated by the rest of the Red Team for retrieving the flag.

 

Off in the distance, Nico sees his bemused Roman siblings. Percy spits out what looks to be a rock from his grounding, covered from head to toe in a muddy mixture of dirt and snow. There’s a look of approval on Reyna’s face that only makes Nico blush—and Thalia, as always, looks delighted to see him thriving. Nico lifts a hand in a wave.

 

Once again, the son of Hermes shakes Nico by the shoulder. “I’ve got a stash by Zeus’s Fist. Better than what crap you can find in the Mess Hall.”

 

“Big brother,” Nico hears. Hazel appears, helmet already discarded. “You coming to dinner?”

 

Nico looks between Connor Stoll and his sister. Then to his Roman siblings—where Percy is definitely jumping at the opportunity to discuss Jason again. Annabeth marches over and gives him a weary look.

 

Annabeth and Percy. Reyna and Thalia. Hazel and Frank. Nico and…not Jason, who was probably busy curing wounded campers at the medical bay with Willie, son of dumb.

 

“I think I’m going to hang out with Connor for a bit,” Nico decides. “Is that okay?”

 

Hazel stares at him in surprise—but nods. “Yeah—have fun, Nico. Bring my brother back in one piece, Connor.”

 

Connor grins, and Nico’s dazzled by the mischief.

 

Nico’s whisked away into the evening, taken down a beaten path that they didn’t cover during their tour. Eventually, they make it to Zeus’s Fist, where Connor moves a pile of rocks and reveals a plastic bin full of junk food.

 

Nico should know that a nutritious dinner on an enchanted plate would be more filling for the evening. But the fifteen-year-old boy in him jumps at the sight of Sour Patch Kids, Oreos, Cheetos—and all the other garbage they advise their cadets against when getting them back into shape for the summer. They sit at the edge of Zeus’s Fist, and Nico pops open a root beer.

 

The atmosphere is quaint. It’s certainly easier to carry on a conversation when they aren’t monitoring children. Nico brings them up anyway.

 

“You’re a good caretaker,” Nico notes. “My kids liked you a lot.”

 

Connor shrugs nonchalantly, taking a swig of his own drink. “They all start in my cabin the same, you know. Including your sisters for like, five seconds. You find ways for them to build trust in you.”

 

The words are casually selected, but poignant. Nico tries to imagine his sisters going through the Hermes Cabin—but finds that even those five seconds are hard to place. Bianca and Hazel both have too strong of a presence for him to see them as lost.

 

So instead, he thinks about their longest camper.

 

“Or the ones that didn’t have a cabin yet,” Nico says. “Like Jason.”

 

He’s not sure what to expect when he mentions Jason’s name. Connor’s grin is unwavering. He gives Nico a candid nod.

 

“Yeah, like Gracie,” he confirms.

 

Nico snorts. “You give everyone a nickname?”

 

“Dunno. I’m not usually given much face time with your crowd,” Connor says—which Nico makes a sound about.

 

Then again—Nico’s current Halfblood reputation involved delivering a goat and then disappearing. Nico can’t put a name to a face of everyone he’s met—not when he’s so busy trying to keep his own legionnaires in control.

 

“Jason I know well.” Connor shrugs. “Well enough to know he usually keeps to himself. He was here way before my brother and me. Jason could might as well be Eleven’s counsellor if he weren’t so adamant against it.”

 

“Because he’s not a Hermes kid,” Nico says almost automatically. “He’s a son of Hades.”

 

It startles him now Connor’s eyes dart his direction with intrigue. Nico feels his face grow warm with heat.

 

“What about you, di Angelo? What’s your story?” Connor pops open a bag of cheetos and extends a hand over to Nico. Nico bustles at how close the bag is. “You, your cohorts, and your crew.”

 

“My crew,” Nico echoes. Connor looks pleased that he repeated the sentiment. “Oh. Percy and them.”

 

“You seemed pretty eager to ditch them,” Connor notes—and Nico makes a face. “Find me that charming, your praetorship?”

 

Nico flushes a stubborn red. More like obnoxious sits on his tongue, but he can’t bring himself to say it. Not that it would be anywhere close to the truth, anyway. Still—for as much as Connor says Jason keeps to himself, Nico doesn’t like to divulge too much either.

 

But after the last few months he’s had, Nico doesn’t have the will to care.

 

“I just needed a break,” Nico confesses. “They’re just…”

 

“A lot?” Connor guesses. “I get it.”

 

Nico eyes him suspiciously, and Connor doesn’t take too kindly to it. Connor laughs instead—which isn’t nearly as warm as Jason’s soft chuckle, but…whimsical, somehow.

 

“Hey—I’m a little brother, too.” Connor tosses a Cheeto in the air and catches it in his mouth. Between bites, he adds, “My brother Travis worries about me. All of us. Especially after Luke.

 

Connor hums.

 

“Luke is—”

 

“I know who Luke is.”

 

Connor shrugs. “Travis got stuck with head counsellor duty after Luke left. Jace helped as best he could, but—”

 

There’s a careful halt to the rhythm of his voice, almost hard to miss. Instead, he makes a vague, abstract gesture that Nico can’t really decipher.

 

“—he had other demons to fight,” Connor concludes casually. “Travis and I both took care of Cabin Eleven while Jace was handling those demons. We both worried a lot that someone in the cabin would defect. Travis worried about me, I worried about him—so on, so on.”

 

Nico tries to picture everyone from the Hermes Cabin that was on the Red Team. Admittedly, he ended up focusing on the four kids with them. It was important when there were younger demigods involved. “Sorry. Which one was Travis?”

 

For some reason, Connor looks amused. He shakes his head. “Travis is in Vermont with our mom. I said I’d hang out here for a few weeks before Christmas.”

 

“Oh.” Nico looks back at Connor in surprise. “You have the same mortal parent.”

 

“Yeah. Like you and Beans.” Connor shrugs. Nico decides he has to ask why Bianca’s nickname is Beans later.

 

“Is…that hard?”

 

“Not really. Trav and I are together so often that people can’t even tell us apart these days.” Connor laughs wickedly—but there’s a weariness to it.

 

“Let me guess,” Nico says, wryly. “you’re the more handsome one?”

 

There’s a spark of amusement Connor’s eye. He pats the top of his head. “Close. The shorter one.”

 

There’s too much amusement in Connor’s eyes. Nico finds himself flushing again.

 

“He’s been at uni this past year. The time apart was—weird. But needed,” Connor says. He shrugs. “Sometimes us little bros just need some time to breathe, you know? Otherwise your whole identity is just going to be the Stoll Brothers—even though you’re the one who put itching powder in Clarrisse LaRue’s boots.”

 

Nico finds himself relating to that more than he expects. He thinks how torn he was about Reyna, Percy, and Thalia hopping onto the Argo II. For as much as Jason insisted Nico’s familial bond helped the eagles make it to the ship, Nico didn’t realize how important that was until they were truly apart.

 

“Anything I can help you with?” Connor asks next. “While you’re on your break from them?”

 

“I. No.” Nico shakes his head and cradles his root beer bottle carefully. “Everything I feel has already been said. They just need to accept that.”

 

And get back to accepting that Nico isn’t just going to change how he feels. Jason and he are friends. Nothing more. They have to be.

 

“Deep,” Connor muses. “Hey—wanna ditch arts and crafts tomorrow and go see a movie?”

 

Nico freezes—and then Connor whips out two paper tickets.

 

“Spider-Man,” Connor says, “No Way Home, center seats. There’s a diner next door—best chicken tenders in town—”

 

“Like a date?” Nico blurts out. His face burns now—as Connor’s smile fades—and they both look baffled.

 

“Oh,” Connor says—and he waves his hand until the tickets disappear. “Well—not necessarily.”

 

Suddenly, Nico is mortified. His face is red—but now it grows cold in awkward embarrassment. The reason Connor reminded Nico of Percy was evidently more than just his sense of humor— “Sorry. I read that—very wrong—”

 

“I mean,” Connor ponders, “it can be if you want. I was supposed to go with someone else, but he picked up an extra shift at the infirmary tomorrow.”

 

Nico tries to pick apart the words through his own embarrassment. He hears can be and he—and is even more confused. “It was supposed to be a date?”

 

Connor looks sheepish. As sheepish as someone can look while being a tyrant—but in a way, it makes Nico think of Jason. He shrugs. “Sort of.”

 

“With someone else,” Nico continues. “Not me.”

 

“Can be a date if you want,” Connor offers—which only makes Nico more baffled. “Or a friend date. Full disclosure, Drew said the best way to get with someone is make them jealous.”

 

Nico groans. Of course. Drew Tanaka. He glares at the brim of his drink again—but doesn’t have the energy to scowl. “She also said it was the best way to get over someone.”

 

“A win-win,” Connor offers—and Nico halts again, feeling the irritation bubble in his stomach the same way it did in the Aphrodite Cabin. “No worries, man. I’m not gonna pry.”

 

Nico glances back at Connor and finds the son of Hermes surprisingly honest.

 

“Best way to get the kiddoes to trust you is to let them open up when they want,” Connor says.

 

“You want to take me out on a date,” Nico says wryly, “to make some guy at the infirmary jealous?”

 

“Well—you mentioned the D word,” Connor points out—and Nico twitches. “But yeah. I guess that’s my modus operandi if getting over someone is yours. Plus, it’s Spiderman. I’m not letting that go to waste, man.”

 

Nico stares at Connor. “Modus operandi.”

 

“Son of Hermes. God of languages.” Connor smiles cheerily. “Feeling the aster yet?”

 

Nico ponders that one. “The opposite of disaster?”

 

“Now you’re getting it.” Connor waves the tickets in front of Nico once more, letting them appear from nowhere. “So—want to come?”

 

Nico hesitates. Drew did say it’d help him get over Jason. But—there’s no reason Nico should even listen to her. Connor is nice enough—and willing to keep it platonic.

 

Or—apparently let it be more if it ends up there. Wherever it might end. At the very least, it’s hard to say no to a free movie in New York.

 

“I’ll…think about it,” Nico says finally.

 

Connor cheers. “Told you.”

 

“Told me what?”

 

“I said a bad joke earlier,” Connor reminds him. “So we were due for something good to happen.”

 

*

 

Jason is distracted in the medical bay. Terribly so. Will has him filling bags of ice and handing out lollipops each time an injured camper from Capture the Flag swings by—but it doesn’t feel like enough. At one point, the lights flicker, and Will makes him go outside for a breather.

 

He does feel bad—given he’d volunteered to help in the med bay to feel useful. Nico and the rest of the Romans were being proactive integrating the camps. Jason—felt like he needed to do something while he was here. Camp Halfblood always makes Jason feel like he needs to do something.

 

“I’m…not normally like this,” Jason says, when Will decides it’s time for Jason to take a break. “I’m—um—”

 

“The Chosen One, great hero, cool as a cucumber in the face of danger,” Will recites. “That’s great. I can’t have you wasting ACE bandages like toilet paper. Go get some fresh air.”

 

Will is friendly—until anything involving his infirmary goes awry. Jason’s only seen that side of Will Solace twice—when the di Angelo siblings insisted on delivering Uncle Gleeson and Mellie’s baby, and anytime Connor Stoll was messing around.

 

So, Jason tries to stay on his best behavior. His mind just keeps replaying Nico’s declaration in his head.

 

This is enough.

 

Jason doesn’t think there’s an end to his feelings for Nico. His heart filled to the brim after saying goodbye to Luke in the Fields of Eternal Punishment. Not for Luke—but excitement for Nico. Every gesture and every smile Jason received secured that feeling and only made him feel fuller.

 

But—he’d forgotten that while he fell for Nico, Nico’s desperately tried to keep those feelings stifled. To move on. Their friendship was enough for Nico, despite every encouragement to find more. Jason never imagined a life after sixteen, but Nico insisted there were no bounds. Jason gets to enjoy every year past sixteen the way he wants.

 

But—if Nico doesn’t want that, then Jason’s at an impasse. The words he wants to say are at a wall of Nico’s insistence.

 

Their friendship is something Jason cherishes and what he clung onto before Luke—but it doesn’t feel like enough.

 

He wanted to dazzle Nico in the New York City snow, and actually show the son of Juno all the good things he actually enjoyed from his childhood—how few that might be. He wanted an evening like their last one together in Cabin Thirteen, where Jason was fixated on the fleck of Styrofoam in Nico’s hair—or the evening months ago beneath the moon. Nico’s disdain for the weather only made Jason want to enchant Nico more.

 

He…didn’t see Nico handing his jacket back.

 

Didn’t expect Nico to say enough. Nico’s been considerate of his feelings ever since Split, Croatia—but Jason realizes Nico deserves the same.

 

Should have realized a lot sooner. If Nico thinks it’s better to stay friends, then Jason can’t force that any further. He respects Nico too much to push.

 

Still—like the many conflicts in Jason’s head and heart, it’s easier said than done. Harder said aloud.

 

And it doesn’t stop everyone else from prying.

 

“Jace,” Annabeth whispers softly beside him during dinner. She waves a hand in front of him. “You’re far away right now. What’s wrong?”

 

Jason hardly hears her. He looks around and is met with the gaze of everyone else.

 

“I—” Don’t really want to talk right now. The words die in Jason’s throat. He’s quick to survey for Nico at the Hades Table, like earlier today—but Nico’s nowhere to be seen. Jason gets the sense that Nico is elsewhere on the campgrounds, but searching for him feels awkward.

 

“Bro, we need to talk.” Percy jostles Jason’s shoulder less gently than Annabeth. “What the Pluto am I hearing about Nico thinking you’re just friends?”

 

Jason shifts uncomfortably in his seat.

 

“Have you or have you not been trying to ask Neeks out?” Percy continues. He turns to Hazel and Frank to carry on his rant. “Or do I just not know what that looks like?”

 

“You don’t,” Thalia assures him.

 

Beside Jason, Annabeth rolls her eyes. She touches him on the shoulder once more. “What happened, Jace?”

 

“I—” Don’t know. Jason’s not sure how the morning could start off so strongly and now run his mind into another wall. Instead, Jason gets up—decidedly uncomfortable. “I need some air.”

 

“Good,” Percy says. “Go find Neeks.”

 

Jason only feels himself grow more reluctant. He looks back to the table—and Hazel pipes up.

 

“He and Connor went to Zeus’s Fist,” she says.

 

“Oh,” Jason says. “Okay.”

 

He knows where to avoid until he gets his thoughts sorted out.

 

*

 

Nico ends up out later than he expects. Connor and he talk about nonsense—video games, comic books, and so on. They make it through the full plastic bin of treats instead of a healthy dinner—and while the company is nice, Nico decides after a failed crush on Percy Jackson and a witty ex-boyfriend with a sense of humor that could err on the side of cruel—maybe a prankster isn’t the best next boyfriend.

 

But—a boy friend is nice after all the odd Nico di Angelo, Champion of Women and Menstrual Cycle theories.

 

“Is making some guy jealous really the foundation you want for a relationship?” Nico asks, as they walk back to Cabin Two.

 

Connor shrugs. “We can’t all be Jason Grace-level saints.”

 

Nico makes a face as they make it to the front door. Comparing Connor to Saint Jason Grace is another reason he refused to consider that.

 

“That guy would lay himself on the line for anyone,” Connor remarks.

 

“Which I’ve told him is not okay,” Nico replies automatically, the ire in his voice before he can help himself. When he looks up, he notices a quirk in Connor’s smile. Red burns in Nico’s cheeks again.

 

But—Connor says something Nico doesn’t expect. “Thank you for that.”

 

Nico blinks. He stares at Connor curiously, but the son of Hermes simply shrugs.

 

“It’s…complicated—with—”

 

“I won’t pry,” Nico interjects. Though he can take a guess at what complicated means for Jason and Camp Halfblood.

 

Connor looks pleased with that answer. “See you tomorrow?”

 

Nico hesitates. “Still…thinking about it.”

 

Still very on the fence about it.

 

“Alright. Your move then, Praetor D.” Connor winks at him again—and Nico would be lying if he said he wasn’t flattered. Connor gives him a mock salute that isn’t even close to proper form, then trots off to Cabin Eleven.

 

Nico waits until he can’t see the son of Hermes anymore—then opens his door. He almost smacks Percy in the face.

 

“What was that?” Percy asks. Nico isn’t even surprised to see the son of Neptune. Not these days.

 

“That was Connor,” Nico says calmly. He sheds of his hat, then his scarf, then his jacket, then his other jacket—and just about everything that Nico hated about having to wear just to feel slightly less cold in New York. “We hung out.”

 

“You hung out?” Percy echoes, looking far more offended than he should.

 

“What’s wrong with that?” Nico asks, inevitably annoyed. “You should be happy I’m making friends in Camp Halfblood. That’s all the more reason for me to come here when you do.”

 

There’s a break in Percy’s demeanor, where he seems to consider the thought.

 

To Nico’s surprise, Reyna and Thalia are also in his room, strewn across his sister’s bed and idly looking at his books. They perk when they see him.

 

“Because we need to talk,” Percy continues. “Why are you and Jason just friends?”

 

The question is so blunt that it strikes Nico more than usual. He’s back at that pit between his three favorite people, before the break he had with Connor Stoll at Zeus’s Fist. Nico tries his best not to feel annoyed—but it doesn’t work.

 

“Because we’re just friends,” Nico says—and he begins to dress down for the evening, too. “We discussed it. In great lengths. He seemed fine about it.”

 

“Did he?” Thalia asks.

 

Nico shrugs. The words were hard enough to get out when Jason and he were together. Nico isn’t keen on repeating them.

 

“I thought things were going well between you and Jason,” Reyna remarks next. “You’ve been joined at the hip again, like this past summer.”

 

This past summer, where Nico was hopelessly infatuated with Jason. His love life has been lain bare in front of all three of the people in his cabin, his sisters—and the gods. Nico hates people in his business more than anything. It’s why the title of son of Jupiter never worked for him. Ironically, Jason found that out the hard way when they first met.

 

“Hardly,” Nico reasons. “It’s…better now. We’re on the same page.”

 

Percy makes another sound. “Bro—”

 

Percy,” Nico snaps, “Don’t—”

 

“Jason likes you!” Percy exclaims. “Like, like-likes you. Why is your head so up your ass that you can’t see that?”

 

The anger boils in Nico’s chest—into a tipping point. “You think my head is up my ass?”

 

Nico’s tone is unnerving. Percy’s demeanor flickers once again—but for a much different reason. “Well—I mean—yeah—”

 

“You think I like how these last few months have been? That I like getting upset with you? Avoiding Thalia? Putting Reyna and Bianca in the middle of Jason and I just because I couldn’t keep my feelings in check?” Nico rages and waves a finger in Percy’s face. “You think I like getting jealous every time someone shows even the slightest interest in Jason? I don’t.

 

Power was always the greatest weakness spoken of children of Jupiter. Nico did everything he could for five years to avoid it. But—rage? Irritation, that Reyna was ripped away from him by his mother?

 

Furious, that Jason Grace dared rock the boat of the family Nico created for himself in New Rome? It’s familiar—and much like his mother, Nico doesn’t like a blemish or a disruption to that family.

 

Even more like his mother—Nico’s burned in jealousy at Mike Kahale, at that stupid server in San Francisco, and stupid, stupid Will Solace because of how they flirt with Jason.

 

But what Jupiter and Juno both have shown him is that those behaviors don’t work for a happy marriage, or the life that Nico’s found peace in.

 

“Kid,” Thalia starts, and she rolls out of the measly twin bed. Her voice is steadier than Nico’s. “You and I talked about this. I’m here for both you and Jace—but Percy’s onto something here. My brother likes you. He’s liked you for months now.”

 

Nico could laugh. Months is a stretch when it was only this year that Jason could even admit how heartbroken he was over Luke Castellan. Connor Stoll’s older brother.

 

“Okay.” Nico turns to her. He hardly ever focuses his anger on Thalia of all people—but his tipping point has turned into a flood—and the three of them are in his way. “So he likes me. And then maybe we date. Maybe we date for a long time, or—or we find out we’re not compatible. Or we have a bad break up. So bad that neither of us can even look at each other. What happens then?”

 

Thalia frowns.

 

“You have to choose a side. Jason shuts down, because he’s so considerate of my feelings that he’s considerate of everyone’s feelings,” Nico answers for her. “Percy tries to punch him again, even though the breakup’s probably my fault, or Jason finds another way that I’m not like Luke Castellan, and I hurt either way. I end up hiding behind Percy again because I’m too much of an idiot again for convincing myself that it’d work out. And Jason isolates himself, like he did before he moved to New Rome.”

 

“Nico,” Reyna interjects next, “we know what you’re going through. Thalia and I—we weighed for years whether or not getting together was a good idea. We went through all of those scenarios, like you did—”

 

“—and we’re better together,” Thalia finishes. She touches her girlfriend’s arm gingerly. “You and Kelp Head knew that way before either of us did.”  

 

Nico keeps his attention on Reyna for a moment. “You agreed not to get involved.”

 

Reyna—much like Thalia and Percy—makes an impossible expression. “Yes, Nico--but the three of us—you know if we’re intervening it’s because we have your best interest at heart.”

 

Nico glares. “My best interest is the reason this entire mess started. When—”

 

“When I told you to go for it,” Thalia reasons—and she splays a hand to her chest. “Even when I didn’t know for who. But I’m telling you, Nico—this battle’s worth it.”

 

Nico’s chest hardens.

 

“I’m your brother too,” he says. “I don’t get to tap out so I don’t get hurt?”

 

Nico,” Percy says—his tone so flippant that it’s infuriating, “you just aren’t understanding how Jason’s feeling right now.”

 

“Are you kidding me?” Nico throws his arms in the air. “All I ever do is consider Jason’s feelings! Why is it that none of you can consider mine?”

 

“Because you’re being an idiot!” Percy snaps back.

 

“Jason likes you,” Reyna reasons.

 

“Yeah?” Nico snaps. “Then I don’t like him.”

 

“Nico,” Thalia tries once more. “C’mon—you’ve got to hear us out—”

 

“I’ve heard all three of you out. Nothing that’s been said this year has gotten me closer to Jason in the way you think it should,” Nico crosses his arms over his chest. He gestures to Reyna. “The only people that need to be involved here are Jason and myself. And I want out. I’m going on a date tomorrow.”

 

That catches all three of their attention.

 

“Now,” Nico finishes, “please let me go to bed.

 

Percy steps in front of him. “No, you’re not.”

 

Nico makes a sound. “Yes, I am.”

 

“No,” Percy continues, “no, no, no—you’re not. You’re not going on a date tomorrow.”

 

Nico’s scowl worsens. He reaches for his coat and marches into the snow.

 

“Kid,” Thalia says behind him. “C’mon—”

 

Neeks,” Percy begs.

 

“Nico—”

 

Nico knocks repeatedly on the door of Cabin Eleven.

 

Connor opens the door on the thirteenth rap. “Nico—”

 

“We’re going on a date tomorrow,” Nico declares.

 

A grin spills across the son of Hermes’ lips. “Awesome! I’ll come bug you tomorrow night then.”

 

“Good.” Nico hesitates—before adding, “Good night.”

 

“Night, Praetor di Angelo.”

 

Nico trudges back to Cabin Two. He’s sure to keep a smug look past his three favorite (annoying) people.

 

*

 

Jason doesn’t get much sleep. Instead—he’d spent the night mulling over his conversation with Nico. Jason needed to wrap his mind around it.

 

He knows how he feels about Nico. How every facet of his heart fills with a joy every time Nico comes into the room. But—he knows the last few months have been painful—not just for them both—but for everyone around them. Percy and Annabeth fought over it. Thalia was forced into a stalemate. Getting Bianca involved in any capacity was—something terrifying.

 

And if Nico just decided to stop having feelings for Jason, then—Jason can’t do anything about it. He was so focused on getting their friendship back after so many months of awkwardness that he didn’t realize the window of Nico’s feelings had closed. Jason still had a hand on the doorknob of his old life—the one that held Luke as a skeleton in his closet.

 

Nico said he understood Jason’s feelings clearly. That he wasn’t Luke.

 

Jason knows he deserves better than Luke. Than the life that didn’t care about him after the prophecy. He just—knows that he’d never step on Nico’s feelings after Nico’s been so careful with his heart.

 

Jason said he was going to tell Nico how he felt with time.

 

Nico had spoken even earlier, saying he needed time to heal.

 

Each stroke forward past sixteen for Jason was a tick back for Nico, so they could maintain their friendship.

 

Jason wants to respect that. He just can’t keep from wanting Nico more. And—drawing the line where he values Nico’s feelings and where Jason wants Nico is hard.

 

Harder than his favorite Luke and Luke, the enemy, ever was.

 

He’s not sure what time he gets back to Cabin Thirteen. Before going to his shift, Thalia rouses from the other side of their screen.

 

“Hey,” she says, gently, despite her rough exterior. “Where’ve you been?”

 

“Thinking,” Jason tells her through the curtain. He changes into a new set of clothes and stops himself before he reaches for his jacket. His fingers brush over the lapel, in the same gentle stroke as when he fixed it over Nico’s shoulders. He remembers the scent of lavender, even if it’s been a long time since Nico’s fallen into his embrace.

 

“There’s something you should know about Nico,” she says in a gravelly tone. “He—”

 

“Just wants to be friends,” Jason says. “I know.”

 

Thalia is quiet for so long that he wonders if she’s fallen back asleep. Reyna answers for her. “What are you going to do about it?”

 

Jason doesn’t know. What can he do about it? “I have to respect his decision.”

 

Another thoughtful pause passes between the screen. He’s not sure who responds. “But you said—”

 

“What I want and what I say,” Jason interjects, his throat tight, “doesn’t really matter if it’s not what Nico wants.”

 

Jason wants it to be an easy decision. Everything points to it being an easy decision—but his heart is even louder in his chest than before, screaming at the expediency that pinballs through his head.

 

When Thalia doesn’t respond, Jason makes it to the med bay for his morning shift.

 

With his words clear, Jason tries to keep his head in front of his heart—unless he wants Will to kick him out again.

 

“Thanks for covering my shift this afternoon,” Will says gratefully. “You sure I can trust you while I’m gone?”

 

Only Will Solace could make that sound like a threat. Jason stares at the other demigod thoughtfully—who clearly took time this morning to look nicer.

 

“Were…you ever interested in dating me?” Jason asks finally—and Will’s demeanor shifts.

 

“That’s not an answer to my question,” Will remarks.

 

“Sorry.”

 

“No,” Will answers anyway—and he shrugs.

 

“Really?” Jason continues before he can help himself. “After the war—you…let me hang out here.”

 

“Yeah, Jace,” Will agrees, one eyebrow arched in the air. “You’re a hot guy with dimples who wanted to watch me mend a broken arm and hand out lollipops to the kids. Exactly where am I losing here?”

 

Jason flushes. “But—I thought the flirting—”

 

“Oh, there was flirting,” Will reassures. “There were even private lessons, remember?”

 

A bit too well since Nico brought it up. Jason already teased the line of flirting and earnestness with Nico too much before he realized what was going on. Before Odesa, because he adored Nico’s company. So—sunny Will Solace felt too hard to answer yesterday despite nothing romantic ever coming out of it.

 

“Why?” Will asks, evidently more intrigued than refilling the cotton swabs and popsicle sticks. “This you asking me on a date, Jace?”

 

“I—no,” Jason says. Quickly.

 

“This you telling me you wanted to ask me on a date?” Will guesses next. “Because we can both agree you weren’t in the right headspace last summer to be dating.”

 

Jason’s not sure what’s on his face. He’s just very uncomfortable. Will makes that observation too.

 

“There’s your answer,” Will remarks. “I would’ve said no—hot or not.”

 

“I—wasn’t—” Jason doesn’t know if he feels flattered or offended.

 

“You were a mess,” Will says. “You’d go on your runs, check in here and report who needed what, and help me out in the infirmary. Hell, I don’t know how you got time to sleep between this and grief counselling for the other campers. You were just being your model hero self.

 

Jason didn’t—but that’s not something he easily divulges. “I was trying to—”

 

“Find stability,” Will finishes for him. “I know. That’s me with my patients. It’s half for them—but a lot for me, too.”

 

Jason stares at the son of Apollo again. Will wasn’t a fighter—he takes pride in being a healer. Jason had hoped to follow that philosophy when he put his sword down—but it ended when he went to New Rome. Healing people had come with such a devotion to never kill again that Jason made himself miserable keeping that wall up. He’s much happier figuring out his place in his art class—or baking. Actually living, like a regular kid.

 

“You…didn’t say anything last summer,” Jason says instead.

 

“Dude.” Will arches an eyebrow now—all medical supplies fully forgotten. “You didn’t want to say anything. You left camp the first chance you got and genuinely seemed happy for once. That was enough for us.”

 

Jason mulls over those words, too. “I…didn’t think really noticed that I wasn’t.”

 

Will gives him the stink eye now—something that makes Jason feel like a speck of dirt beneath the sun. He was good at that when he was training Jason how to bandage wounded campers properly. “You’re the freaking son of Hades. Of course we noticed.”

 

“No one’s said anything,” Jason protests. “At least—about my…behavior.”

 

“Connor’s first rule of campers in Cabin Eleven—let them open up to you first,” Will says flatly. He flashes Jason a look—one that says Jason should know that rule very well. “We can’t all be Praetor di Angelo and force our way into your feelings.”

 

Jason feels a cold dread at the back of his neck. “What do you know about that?”

 

“Nothing,” Will says. “What do you want to say about it?”

 

He stares at Jason again. In some ways, it feels goading like with Zagreus or Mr. D—but in others, Will seems genuinely patient.

 

“I…” And again, Jason finds his throat as tight as he did last summer. “I’m. Not very good with my em—”

 

“Yeah, yeah.” Will waves his hand dismissively—though his numbness to Jason’s hesitation only raises more questions in Jason’s head. “We know.”

 

Jason never wanted people to know. He just wanted to help people move on. The thought is at the tip of his tongue, but even now in Jason’s confusion, he can hear Nico’s viscosity. He’s allowed to feel—and grant himself the same patience and remorse he gives everyone else.

 

It's then that the infirmary gets its first patient of the morning. Connor Stoll walks in without a knock, practically skipping the length of the room. Jason notices he does it more now that he’s not joined at the hip with his brother Travis—that there’s an extra arch to the corner of his lip.

 

He doesn’t even get the chance to say hi. Will addresses Connor first.

 

“What trouble did you bring me now?” Will says with deadpan. “Who’d you piss off?”

 

“What makes you think I pissed anyone off?”

 

“If you haven’t, that means you’re about to piss me off. Drop that.” Will reaches for the jar of cotton swabs in Connor’s hand—but it’s already too far out of his reach.

 

“Here,” Connor says. “Hold this.”

 

He holds the jar high above his head, arching his back against one of the beds for the swabs to be out of reach. Then, he gives Will his other hand.

 

Any other person would be kicked out of the med bay. Jason would know—Will criticized him yesterday for overdoing ACE bandages. But—Connor and Travis twisted and turned around rules and order the same way Connor bends now just to get a rise out of Will Solace.

 

And, Will’s temper dissolves ever so slightly. He inspects Connor’s hand like a palm reader. “Paper cut?”

 

Connor shrugs. “You said no more big injuries.”

 

“I can grab a bandaid,” Jason offers.

“No need,” Will says. He hums a hymn, albeit unenthusiastic pitch. “Happy?”

 

“Always, Willie.” Connor waves his free hand around. He place the jar back on the table, over Will’s shoulder. “You two talking about anything interesting?”

 

Jason’s startled by the directness. He glances in Will’s direction, their conversation coming to the front of his mind—and the discomfort grows.

 

“Not really,” Will says instead—Jason long dismissed. “Jason’s taking my shift this afternoon. Thought I could use a break.”

 

“Really? You, a break from your second home?”

 

Jason fades into obscurity, having lost importance to the conversation. Bits and pieces of it make it to his ears—he had no idea Will and Connor were close, let alone friendly—but a lot had changed since Jason left before the summer. Frank had taken the role of a grief counsellor, Hazel was a camp leader, and Jason had little to shoulder now.

 

Which—should be a good thing. The last few months in New Rome have been good to him. That alone should be enough.

 

This is enough, rings Nico’s voice again.

 

“I’ve got a date tonight,” he hears Connor say instead.

 

Jason doesn’t look, but he hears a pause in Will’s voice. “You? A date?”

 

“Yeah,” Connor says. “You weren’t free for the movies, so I asked someone else.”

 

“Who?” Will sounds even more annoyed than when Connor juggled the cotton swabs.

 

“Praetor di Angelo.”

 

That catches Jason’s attention. His head snaps back to the only two other demigods in the infirmary, wondering if he heard correctly.

 

“Sorry,” he says, his throat growing tight. “Who?”

 

Will glances back, clearly not expecting Jason to eavesdrop on a private conversation. He looks annoyed, but—

 

“Y’know, that son of Hera,” Connor says anyway. “Nico di Angelo.”

 

“Juno, actually,” Jason corrects. His mouth works before his body does—for once.

 

“Yeah, sorry. Juno,” Connor says—though there’s a brevity to his voice that doesn’t understand how important the distinction is for Nico. Not like Jason does.

 

“I didn’t know you were interested,” Will carries on, as though Jason isn’t there.

 

“We hit it off during Capture the Flag last night,” Connor says, no less distraught over Will’s tone of voice. “What’s wrong, Willie? Jealous?”

 

“No,” Will says with exasperation. “Whatever. Jason—you look pale. What’s wrong?”

 

“Nothing’s wrong,” Jason says quickly—though his head spins. “Everything’s fine.”

 

Nico, on a date with someone else. Nico, on a date. Connor’s managed in one evening what Jason’s struggled with for months

 

And the feeling drowns his lungs with lead.

 

Except Nico’s allowed to date—more than allowed because Jason and he are just friends and that should be enough. Their friendship forming as it has is why Jason likes Nico so much.

 

Their friendship being so intimate is why Nico wants their friendship to just be enough, and Jason needs to respect that.

 

He expects them to shrug it off and leave him alone. But—Will’s words are suddenly starch again in his ears. He’s the freaking son of Hades. Connor looks at him now, and the trollish look he so often carried is replaced with something else.

 

“Jason,” Connor addresses, “Will’s right. You look you’re about to flip a lid—”

 

“I’m not,” Jason says—even more quickly than before—though his mind is running in laps, chasing down a thought that’s so desperately trying to keep Jason in his place. Jason wants Nico, Nico wants friendship, Jason has to respect Nico’s decision as much as Nico respected his—

 

Nico’s going on a date with someone else. Because Jason spent too long with a palm at the doorknob of his old life, while Nico moved forward.

 

CRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK

 

*

 

No one is waiting outside of Nico’s door to bother him when he wakes up. Good. He’s forced to bundle up against the cold just to wash his face—dressed in long pajamas, his wool coat, Bianca’s scarf, large boots, and a hat to trudge through the snow.

 

Nico glances at Cabin Three’s window—where Percy has swapped his brain off to sleep in for winter break. Reyna is probably already at the mess hall, assessing how their kids are feeling. Nico passes a few who seem ecstatic about their placement for the weekend.

 

He passes by the infirmary on his hobble back to Cabin Two. The front door is propped wide open—and he notices his evening’s date with a broom.

 

A very annoyed Will Solace is rippling through bed sheets, where glass shuffles between the folds. Glass has been swept away in heaps—and Nico notices the infirmary is lit by daylight alone.

 

Nico looks around. “Where’s Jason?”

 

Despite the look on Connor’s face earlier, he perks now in Nico’s presence. “Hey, Nico! What’s up?”

 

Nico would be lying if he said the enthusiasm didn’t surprise him. Connor addresses him with a familiarity that felt much larger than their meeting last night.

 

“Jason left,” Will answers—sounding much saltier than the annoying warmth he spilled yesterday. “He was causing too much of a fuss.”

 

“Jason? A fuss?” Nico’s frown worsens. He doesn’t like the way Will looks at him—and his innate need to defend Jason flares up.

 

“Willie, don’t be like that.” Connor waves a hand in front of Will’s face if only to distill the tension. “Jace offered to help clean the mess.”

 

“He caused this mess,” Will corrects. “Or do you want to take the blame for this one?”

 

Connor shrugs. “Why not? You already blame me for other things.”

 

Nico tunes them out. He looks to the ceiling—and finally notices the shattered light fixtures. Structures tilt by wires, dangling or swinging with a soft breeze. It certainly wasn’t the sterile and pristine lighting that it was yesterday. He’s baffled to hear that Jason is the cause of it.

 

“What did you do to him?” Nico turns his attention to Will—his tone demanding.

 

Will looks back at him, appalled. “What did I do? You’ve got a lot of nerve to think I did something, di Angelo.”

 

“It’s your infirmary, so probably your fault,” Nico berates. He jabs a finger in the son of Apollo’s direction. “I knew it. I leave him alone here for a day and you upset him.”

 

“Hey now, Nico—that’s not really fair.” Connor wedges himself between the two of them now, as a vain throbs in Will Solace’s annoying face. “Wait—do the two of you not get along?”

 

“Like I care,” Nico spats.

 

“Enough to get in my face about it.” Will glares, looking wearily annoyed. “If you’re so worried, go find him yourself. I’ve got an infirmary to clean up thanks to your boyfriend.”

 

“Boyfriend?” Nico repeats, flabbergasted. “You’ve—”

 

“Friend, son, whatever. I don’t care,” Will waves the broom around. He flicks a shard of glass out of the way, interest gone. “Get out.”

 

Nico’s temper flares.

 

“You and the rest of this camp not caring is exactly why you deserve this to happen to you,” Nico snaps. He turns his attention to Connor, who startles at the swivel. “I look forward to our date tonight, Connor.”

 

He doesn’t look back to check—but he hopes Will is fuming.

 

Nico trudges back into the snow on his search to find his son of Hades. He’s just not sure where to start.

 

“Nico—wait.” Connor hops after him, gliding much more easily through the trenches. “Try the edge of camp.”

 

Nico turns back to him, suspicious. This time, Connor doesn’t greet him with a smile. Instead, the concern is evident across his face—as thoughtful as he was with the kids last night. Maybe even more so.

 

“He went there a lot after my brother Luke left,” Connor says—and Nico hates how the mention of Luke’s name immediately turns his stomach into tin. “I know you don’t think we care—but we do.”

 

His tone isn’t anywhere as pushy as Percy’s last night. Nico isn’t sure what to make of it.

 

Edge of camp could mean anything—but there’s certainty in Connor’s voice.

 

He finds Jason pacing back and forth at the edge of camp. A line of footprints makes a moat at the border. Overall, Jason’s form is—rigid. Tense. He doesn’t even notice Nico as he passes.

 

“Jason,” Nico starts.

 

But—Jason halts when he hears. “Nico. Hi.”

 

His voice is stilted. Snow fills his hair, looking whiter than blond—and against the winter weather, Jason puts Queen Elsa to shame. Still—Nico is quick to untie his own scarf and wrap it around Jason’s neck.

 

“Why aren’t you wearing a jacket?” Nico chides. “It’s freezing.”

 

He gets a better look at Jason’s face—which looks more anxious by the second. Jason looks everywhere but Nico—which bothers Nico even more. He’s slow to look at the splash of color against his collarbone. “Sorry. Head full of thoughts.”

 

“You’re going to get a cold,” Nico says.

 

“No—I’m fine.” And then he’s quick to turn around and continue his pace.

 

Nico, baffled, stays on his heels. “Why are you doing this?”

 

“I’m—just getting some energy out,” Jason says, his back swaying as he paces. The scarf around his neck swivels.

 

“But I thought—” Nico has to jump out of the way when Jason pivots. “—you normally go on runs to sort your thoughts out.”

 

He’s startled as Jason glances at him—but it’s quick. Then Jason keeps trudging.

 

“My thoughts are sorted,” Jason reasons. “I’m not upset.”

 

“Jason—”

 

“I just need to—work some energy out, so no one has to worry—” Jason continues, “—and I’m by the gate, so if anything bad happens, like—the Minotaur shows up, or a new camper, I’m the first to see it.”

 

He pivots once more at the edge of the entrance, and almost charges into Nico. Again, Nico’s baffled.

 

“You’re here, so no one has to worry about you,” Nico surmises, “and so you can catch the first scent of danger? How does that make sense?”

 

Jason shrugs with the slightest jerk of his shoulder. “It’s fine.”

 

“Jason, I’m worried about you.” Nico interferes with Jason’s next lap. He steps in front of Jason and fixes the scarf. Jason flinches at his touch—a second later than Nico expects—and Nico grows more irritated. “What did Will do to you?”

 

“Will?” Jason echoes. “I—nothing. Will didn’t do anything. We’re not dating.”

 

The good comes to Nico’s mind quicker than he wants to admit—then Jason is off on his charge again. Nico shadows him. “Connor said you’d come here a lot after Luke left. Is it—for this?”

 

So people couldn’t see him freaking out?

 

As always, the mention of Luke’s name makes Jason freeze. Jason turns around, and—for the first time, looks Nico in the eye. There’s something…frantic about his gaze as they look at one another. Then, Jason’s eyebrows knit together, in a mixture of confusion and something Nico can’t pick apart.

 

“Jason—?”

 

“Nico,” Jason starts. “Please excuse me.”

 

Then he slips into Nico’s shadow.

 

*

 

Jason didn’t mean to break the infirmary lights. He’s normally in better control of his emotions—which is what he insisted on before the son of Apollo concurred with, we know. We know, Will knows, Connor knows now—Jason doesn’t want to know who all knows—he just knows it’s all bad.

 

He tried to help clean the broken glass. It rained on them like the storm that hit New Rome. Connor and Will were caught in the stream—and after that, a simple hymn wasn’t going to fix all the damage. Everything Jason touched felt like it’d break or explode—all because he couldn’t make sense of his mind. Every sound between his ears is loud—like the explosion of glass vacated the infirmary and settled in his ears instead.

 

Will ended up kicking him out a second day in a row—and would likely be taking that afternoon shift back. Jason paced against the border of camp to steel his nerves—but Nico found him anyway.

 

Nico was really good at finding Jason when he really wanted to. That was bad right now—not when Jason couldn’t get a clear space in the typhoon of his head.

 

Jason sprouts from Annabeth’s shadow. Percy startles at her side—but doesn’t waterboard him with the nearest bottle of Kool-Aid this time.

 

“Dude!” Percy exclaims when they see each other.

 

“Jace?” Annabeth lifts an eyebrow and flashes a look of concern. “What’s wrong?”

 

Jason hardly takes notice of the pier, or the canoe lake around them. “Nico’s going on a date.”

 

“He is?” Annabeth asks, taken aback. “With who—?”

 

“Connor Stoll,” Jason cuts in. “Connor asked him out.”

 

“Oh—I think they met at Capture the Flag last night.” Annabeth hesitates—before asking, “But weren’t you—?”

 

“He beat me to it,” Jason interrupts once more. Of course it was Capture the Flag. One of the things Jason didn’t do anymore. “Nico told me he just wanted to be friends.”

 

“With Connor—?”

 

“With me,” Jason clarifies.

 

Percy and Annabeth glance at each other. Jason hardly sees the exchange—but he does hear Annabeth’s next statement.

 

“—rcy, what did you do?”

 

Percy makes a sound. “Nothing! I swear—”

 

“What did you do?” Jason asks—and he sees it now.

 

Percy’s clear look of dismay. “He told Rey, Thal, and I about the whole friends thing last night. I told him that you like him, and he said he had a date with someone else.”

 

“That’s not nothing,” Jason says, his voice cracking. “Why would you do that?”

 

“I mean, he didn’t at first!” Percy insists. Then his demeanor falters. “I called his bluff! And—then he called mine.”

 

Jason stares back at Percy, at a loss. He turns to Annabeth, urging for an answer—and she looks furious.

 

“Percy,” she snaps, “Nico told you not to meddle.”

 

“I didn’t! I mean—I haven’t been!” Percy says, and he waves his hands around drastically. “Thalia and Reyna were there too—they were agreeing with me! Nico was trying to tell us why the two of you wouldn’t work out, he wasn’t understanding your feelings—”

 

“Jace is the only one that should be telling Nico how he feels,” Annabeth reasons. “You are the last person to be sticking your nose in there.”

 

“The last?” Percy repeats. “Look—”

 

“Nico just wants to be friends,” Jason says once more, before the pair can deviate into an argument he doesn’t have time for.

 

“Does he?” Percy counters. He gestures to Jason’s neck. “Because I know that’s not your scarf.”

 

“It’s what he told me,” Jason says—and much like with Thalia and Reyna, he repeats his first sentiment of the morning. “I—I have to respect that.”

 

Except—the thought of Nico moving on with someone else was—is—awful.

 

A fish rises to the surface of the canoe lake, belly flopped.

 

“That’s…different,” Annabeth notes.

 

Then a second. And a third—

 

“Dude,” Percy says—and he turns back to Jason. “Are you killing—?”

 

“I should go.” Jason turns around before he can accidentally create a cemetery out of their canoe lake. He speeds off the pier at a quick pace—to his next destination.

 

Connor’s somehow made it to the basketball court, ironically teaching some of the younger campers how to steal in a game. Jason grabs the son of Hermes by the arm and drags him to the sidelines.

 

“Whoa—” Connor starts, taken aback. “—uh, hey, Jace. You feeling better—?”

 

“Why him?” Jason asks. He doesn’t take note of the others surrounding the basketball court—just Connor Stoll, with the high peak in the arch of his eyebrow and the elfish smile that all of Hermes’s children possessed.

 

Connor stares back at Jason, bewildered. “Um—”

 

“First—” Jason clasps both hands on either of Connor’s shoulders. He scans the other demigod as best he can for wounds. None. “—I’m sorry about the lights. The infirmary lights. Will’s lights.”

 

“Willie’s lights,” Connor repeats, his other eyebrow arched in the air. “It’s fine—I mean, he ended up kicking me out too—”

 

“Why him?” Jason asks a second time.

 

“Who? Will?”

 

“Nico.” Jason grows antsy, the further he is in conversation, and the more distant he grows from the son of Juno. He’s not sure why people are having such a hard time understanding him right now. “Why did you ask him out?”

 

Connor stares at Jason with a set of blue eyes that unnerve him. They’re nothing like the vast evening sky of Nico’s irises—but they’re too much like someone else’s. Connor opens his mouth to speak—

 

“Why did you mention Luke?” Jason continues, his voice tight. “Nico and I—we were—”

 

The words stall at the edge of his tongue.

 

Connor evidently notices that. He lifts an eyebrow. “You were what?”

 

Jason doesn’t know what to say. Friends—absolutely. More than that—in every one of Jason’s dreams. Past that—in Nico’s eyes. Friendship is enough.

 

“Look, Jace—” Connor continues, “—I’m not trying to step on any toes here—”

 

Then why are you? sits on Jason’s tongue. Connor pauses, anticipating his response. He continues when Jason isn’t able to let the words fall past his lips.

 

“—but I only mentioned my brother because I figured that’s where you’d go.”

 

Jason’s chest clenches. His arms fall slack against the other demigod, while Connor nudges him back with the basketball.

 

“What is up with you?” Connor continues. He guides Jason well off the court so others can’t keep staring. “I’ve never seen you get like this.”  

 

Again, Jason is stunned. He stares at Connor, who doesn’t blink—and his throat grows tight. “Luke and I—I mean.”

 

Connor stares at him patiently.

 

“Your brother,” Jason continues—though he doesn’t ever get much further than that. There was a lot to be said about what wasn’t said after Luke’s death to Cabin Eleven. The rest of Luke’s siblings—who Luke addressed bittersweetly at their last and final meeting.

 

Will was right—Jason threw himself into a routine of trying to be that model hero, which involved separating Jason Grace from son of Hades. Jason found peace between those two parts of his life, but.

 

The Hermes Cabin was a part of his life, too. Almost as much as the rest of Camp Halfblood and training for that stupid prophecy.

 

“Dude, it’s okay,” Connor interrupts, before Jason can go down that rabbit hole. “I get it. You and Luke were close. We all knew that.”

 

Jason’s afraid to ask how close Connor thinks they were. He knows what happened in the walls of the Hermes Cabin was fair game in this conversation—and that makes him feel worse.

 

“I know Halfblood was bad for you. I mean—it can either be a haven or a shithole. You could be a Will,” Connor continues, “or you could be an Ethan. But you ended up being—”

 

“What does that have to do with Nico?”

 

Connor’s gaze doesn’t waver. He’s not as tall as Luke was—that honor probably went to Travis—but he has that head counsellor look down, even though Jason hasn’t been a resident in almost a year. “This is the longest conversation we’ve had since Luke left. Because of di Angelo.

 

“That’s not—” Jason’s cheeks flare. His eyebrows knit together. “—I was here not too long ago for the other campers. You saw me.”

 

“I saw you go straight to Luke’s old bed and just stare all intense and what not like you were performing a séance,” Connor says. He makes a vague gesture with his eyes and hands, which only makes Jason’s face grow hotter. “Look—don’t get me wrong, I know it was bad for you here. Last summer was—a lot.”

 

Jason desperately does not want to divulge further into the conversation. He wants to defend himself like he did with Will—that he did everything after his birthday to negate everything, but that felt worse. Connor somehow notices that too.

 

“But you’re not to blame for what happened to Luke,” he says. “I’m—sorry that we weren’t there for you more for the prophecy. You weren’t a Hermes kid, but you were our cabinmate, and we should’ve treated you better. The camp, Cabin Eleven, Travis and me—”

 

“Connor, I hated it here,” Jason interjects before he can help himself. Once he realizes the words are out of his mouth, he grows cold. “I mean—I’m. I’m happy, with my new life. I…”

 

Jason has his sister, and school, and hobbies outside of the stupid prophecy, thanks to Thalia and Nico—but those words are hard to get out. He doesn’t want to feel like he has to prove himself.

 

Connor nods in agreement. “And up until this year I bet you’ve never said that. Not so loud though—I’ve got baby campers to entertain.”

 

Jason stares back at Connor warily.

 

“I’m just saying—the pressure’s off you. Hazel’s handling the leadership thing. Frankie’s got the grief counselling. Travis and I have Hermes Cabin under control. Mostly me now. Believe it or not, Willie does miss you.” Connor looks back at him thoughtfully. “You could come back here and have a better time.”

 

Jason doesn’t know what to say. What to think. His running thought about Nico is halted by Connor’s proposal, but—then another thought occurs to him.

 

“Did…you just ask Nico out,” Jason says, “to get to me?”

 

Connor stares at him with those familiar blue eyes—then his expression contorts with a scoff. “You really think I’m that underhanded?”

 

Luke was.

 

Jason’s never been more grateful to hold his tongue on those words. But—he thinks of the last thing Luke uttered to him. An apology.

 

“Maybe I just want to go see Spiderman like the rest of mankind,” Connor says. He waves tickets around from who-knows-where. “Best tickets I ever swiped.”

 

“I don’t want you to go out with him,” Jason does end up blurting out.

 

Connor arches an eyebrow at that. One that looks too familiar to when Luke’s name was mentioned—and Jason finally finds a calm in the storm of his head.

 

“I just—” He starts. Jason has to respect Nico’s feelings.

 

But he wants Nico to be his more than anything. He doesn’t want that window to close.

 

“Hey now—” Connor pats him on the shoulder. “Save your breath, Jace. I’m not the one you need to explain yourself to.”

 

*

 

Eventually, Nico finds him.

 

Jason is sequestered beneath Hazel’s oak tree after his conversation with Connor. His head’s…in a different place than this morning. But definitely not better. He mulls over Connor’s words—about everything that’s changed since he left.

 

Hazel is a camp leader. Frank is a grief counsellor. Connor and Travis have always been the head counsellors of Hermes Cabin but—now Connor wants him to feel included. Jason is instinctively averse to that.

 

And—he knows why that aversion comes so immediately. He’d told Luke as much down in the Fields. Luke took his words and thoughts and feelings—and Jason realizes he hasn’t quite gotten back what Camp Halfblood had taken from him, either. His tether to Luke in the River Styx felt like a noose. The memories on every bead of Jason’s necklace weighed him down, like the weight of the world.

 

When Nico arrives, he settles next to Jason with two protein bars in hand. “Have you eaten yet?”

 

Jason glances at the son of Juno—who’s still dressed in pajama bottoms. Nico’s as bundled up as he was this morning—minus the scarf that sits around Jason’s neck. Jason wonders why he hasn’t changed.

 

But—Nico’s focus is elsewhere. He waves the protein bar again. “Jason.”

 

Jason shakes his head. Then he agrees to take the energy bar.

 

“Another hiding place?” Nico guesses. “Hazel told me the first time you two met was under this tree. I—figured I’d try my luck here.”

 

As distraught as Jason feels, his heart warms at the thought of Nico finding him.

 

“I hate the snow,” Nico grumbles grumpily. He splays his legs in front of him, snow boots hitting the ground. “It just makes me think of Russia. Russia had too much snow.”

 

The anger is clear in Nico’s voice—but it’s still light. Jason knows what Nico’s doing—trying to start a dialog so Jason can feel comfortable. He’d done it back when Eros loomed over them.

 

“I think you look beautiful in it,” Jason says quietly.

 

The snow gathers at the crown of Nico’s head like the halo of his namesake—or a crown, fit for the son of the King and Queen. Even more so—it dusts over the fringe of his hair like a quiet realm of constellations, and Jason’s reminded of the eve of his birthday, when the Styrofoam had fallen against Nico’s bangs in just the right light, and he was more fascinated by how soft Nico could look under bulbs that accentuated the harsh lines of shadows of Cabin Thirteen.

 

But the eve of Jason’s birthday was also where his heart still drowned in Luke’s blood—and the blood of every camper that fell so he could win. The end justifies the means, Luke recounted—over and over again throughout the years.

 

Nico doesn’t look flattered by the compliment—however earnest it is as Jason breathes life into it. He looks nervous. Fearful, even—and Jason realizes that the time he insisted on to recover their friendship was a hard line that Nico never intended on crossing. Before, during, or after Nico’s original confession.

 

Instead, Nico brings his knees to his chest, clearly huddling for some kind of warmth. Jason wants to wrap an arm around Nico and help—but suddenly he’s not sure if that’s the right move.

 

“Want to tell me what’s wrong?” Nico asks quietly. “Talk to me, Jason. It’s what we do best.”

 

It’s what got them this far. What brought Jason’s heart back at full force.

 

“The…entrance,” Jason says quietly, recounting their first conversation this morning. “I was the first one to greet Luke and Annabeth when they came through. Grover was with them.”

 

Nico mulls over his words carefully, his expression quaint. There’s no mistaking the subtle shift of his brow, though. “That’s why you go up there? To remind yourself of Luke?”

 

“I go up there to remind myself what’s at stake,” Jason says. “Everyone at Camp Halfblood—and the world. Luke always tried to tell me it was worth rebuilding. He said Olympus needed to be broken down brick-by-brick.” 

 

He’s lost count of how many times he’s told Nico the story about Luke. Nico’s listened every single time—before and after hearts and feelings were thrown into the mix.

 

“I always wondered how right he was,” Jason continues quietly. “And—it meant I needed to prove he was wrong even more.”

 

It’s a dilemma that brought too much trouble in his heart the way Nico does now. Luke’s methods were never the right answer. Respecting Nico’s desire to be friends should be the right answer.

 

Good decisions and bad decisions, Jason had once advised Nico. Never easy ones.

 

“You don’t need to carry that burden,” Nico says after a pause, his voice tentative. “This camp—it should’ve treated you better. They should still be treating you better.”

 

He speaks with an anger that sounds fresh from today. Jason can’t guess where it’s from.

 

“Connor said the same thing,” Jason says eventually. “That I should give Camp Halfblood a second chance.”

 

Nico snorts derisively. “What’d you say to that?”

 

“I didn’t.” Jason shrugs. “I don’t know what to say.”

 

“Good. I trust the adults here about as far as I can throw them,” Nico mutters.

 

“But I want to trust Connor.”

 

Nico pauses. There’s an apprehensiveness to the way he carries himself. A careful wariness over a situation neither one of them want to address. “Connor seems…nice.”

 

“He’s not as underhanded as Luke,” Jason continues. “I heard you’re going to the movies with him.”

 

It’s Nico’s turn to feel uncomfortable. Jason can see it in his eyes. Moreover—he’s fully aware that the uneasiness never really left since that first night in the rain. They were always going to be at this level of discomfort unless something changed between them.

 

“Oh,” Nico says. He doesn’t sound like he wants to elaborate. “That. Yeah.”

 

“He’s nice. Good to have on your side in Capture the Flag,” Jason says. “Sorry I’m not much use for that kind of stuff.”

 

“That’s fine,” Nico fills immediately. “You’re retired.”

 

The fact that he’s so quick to reassure Jason’s feelings makes everything so much harder. It makes falling for Nico easier—and it swells in Jason’s heart, growing far past that line that was drawn between them. Nico wants to move on.

 

Jason doesn’t want him to.

 

“I don’t want you to go on a date with him,” Jason says. Nico should be going on a date with him. They should’ve gone to Odesa—months ago, even if the thought of the closing door on Luke terrified Jason. He wasn’t there yet with Nico back then. That shouldn’t have mattered—because Jason thinks all roads would’ve brought him to how he feels about Nico di Angelo now.

 

But there’s a shift in Nico’s tone. It’s so swift anytime they tease that line between friendship and love that Jason has never seen it so clear before today.

 

“You don’t want me to,” Nico repeats slowly. Steadily. He’s trying to keep his voice even in the situation—but Jason can tell he’s failing. There’s a laugh one—a thinly veiled attempt to keep calm—which Jason didn’t expect between them. It’s an awkward subject for them—this date. It's a sore subject for Nico. The date they never had. “I don’t think—”

 

He pauses. Halts, intentionally.

 

“—you don’t really get a say of what I can or can’t do, Jason,” Nico says instead. His tone is more forceful.

 

“I know,” Jason says quietly. He respects Nico too much to just charge forward. He has to. But—“I don’t want you to.”

 

Nico’s gaze hardens. It doesn’t often do that. Not towards Jason. “Jason, I’m—trying really hard to be your friend here.”

 

That was the problem.

 

“We’re talking about you right now,” Nico continues, his tone wary. “Something’s…amiss. Please. I want to understand what upset you.”

 

“I don’t want to be friends,” Jason continues.

 

His hand curls at the knot of the scarf—and he halts, just as Nico did. Even before they uttered a word this morning, Nico went into taking care of him. Jason doesn’t want to just be friends. The fabric is soft against the pads of his fingers. It’s woven with the time and care Nico always takes with him—and Jason wants to be able to do the same.

 

He deserves that after how much Luke’s messed with his head—and he’s afraid that Luke—all of this—is going to keep messing with head until he can find solace. He needs to be stitched together as the tender love and care that went into Nico’s desire to keep Jason warm this morning.  

 

So, the other thought comes to Jason’s mind. “I…think I need to stay here a little longer. After you and Thalia leave.”

 

This time, the lull in their conversation feels like a gap. A deep fissure as Nico looks at him, stunned, and Jason can’t quite meet his eye.

 

“What?” Nico asks. “You’re—actually considering Connor’s offer?”

 

“It’s not just that,” Jason says. “It’s—not just Connor. It’s everyone here. The second chance—”

 

“So you’re just going to leave Thalia in New Rome?” Nico asks. Demands. “You’re going to leave Annabeth? Bianca? Me?”

 

They lock eyes for the first time. Jason sees the pristine blue—the azure hue of Nico’s irises that are as boundless as the sky. But they tremble now—with the storm of the same fury as that first day—when they met. Jason would never guess that he could get a rise out of Nico the same way Bianca could.

 

But Nico’s last question hangs in the air. The me? is so palpable that Jason can practically feel it against his lips.

 

Nico falters when he realizes it too. The space between his brows shrivels—and against the cold, his warm skin glows red for a different reason. Shame. Frustration. Exasperation. Acceptance.

 

“Sorry,” Nico mutters—though Jason is confused why the son of Juno is apologizing. “It’s just too easy to keep going back there. Here.”

 

Jason stares in confusion, trying to figure out what here means to Nico. “Nico—”

 

“I can’t do this with you,” Nico says finally. He stands to his feet and bows his head with frustration. “I—I spent all morning looking for you Jason. I searched every inch of this camp, and you just disappeared. I can’t just—I can’t drop everything for you, all the time—and then just—”

 

He takes a breath.

 

“—get this ounce of hope that something’s going to happen because you don’t want me to go on a date with someone else,” Nico snaps. “I get it. I’m not Luke. But you can’t expect me to wait around on a whim for you. I have my own life. I don’t want to keep riding that line—”

 

“Nico, I like you.”

 

Nico halts. Jason almost doesn’t hear the words himself as they pass his lips—but he knows he said them. Nico’s mouth falls open—speechless for all the times Jason hasn’t been able to say the words aloud.

 

“I like you,” Jason says the words with a greater emphasis—a greater vibrato now that he can get them out. “I spent the day flipping out at the idea that you could possibly go out with someone else. I killed half the canoe lake at the thought of it.”

 

Again, Nico doesn’t say a word. He’s stunned into silence.

 

“I’ve been trying to tell you for months,” Jason continues. “I wanted to tell you that yesterday. But every time I try to get the words out, I…I freeze up. Because…of Luke, because of other people. Because of us.”

 

Jason pauses.

 

“Because of me,” he says. “They get…caught, because I’m so afraid of what’s going to happen again. It’s not just with you, it’s—it’s with everyone.”

 

Jason locked up the moment Connor addressed him. His past with Luke. Will stared him straight in the eye and expected failure. It isn’t just with them—for the last few months since Nico’s confession, Jason couldn’t bring himself to look Thalia in the eye. He weighed the consequences of getting Bianca involved—and Annabeth was thrown into the mix because of how close she and Percy are.

 

Somewhere down the line, Jason lost the ability to feel with anyone again. Camp Halfblood had beat it out of him because feelings didn’t help save the world.

 

Nico coaxed him out that hardened shell—the shield over his heart so it wouldn’t hurt as much when Luke died—but it’s still a struggle. Jason hates it when his words go against his heart—and his heart aches, when he can’t find his way.

 

And—he doesn’t want to burden Nico with those thoughts and feelings that he can barely wrap his mind around himself. Luke wasn’t always going to haunt him—Jason’s made peace with it. But the rest of his life—the streams and creeks of blood that stemmed from the river of Luke’s death—are filled with ghosts. The kind he couldn’t just forget.

 

Mr. D had said it best. The pulp and stem and seed and skin—those were all the things that defined him. Camp Halfblood was always going to have a part in Jason’s life—no matter how much it made him anxious.  

 

A year ago, he never would’ve talked back to Dionysus—let alone any god. He couldn’t admit out loud how much he hated Camp Halfblood, either.

 

“I need to make peace with Camp Halfblood,” Jason says. “Otherwise I’m never going to really move forward like you have.”

 

He wants a future as boundless as the sky in Nico’s eyes. And—if he were better at them, maybe the window wouldn’t have closed on Nico.

 

“So what?” Nico’s voice is shaky. “You’re really turning me down a second time?”

 

Jason’s head snaps back.

 

Nico’s words hit Jason so hard that the back of his throat dries. Nico’s eyes aren’t boundless—they’re upset.

 

What?

 

“Nico—”

 

“I don’t get a say in this? You’re just—you’re going to do it?” Nico continues. He stands to his feet, putting as much distance as he can from the other demigod. “You tell me you like me—and that you’re leaving?”

 

“Nico, I thought—” Jason’s mind jumbles once again, shuffling with the mix of anger and frustration that reignites in Nico’s eyes. “It’s—I’m. It’s me, it’s complicated—”

 

“It’s not complicated. You like me,” Nico says, “but that’s not enough, if you’re still considering leaving. For this camp. For Luke.

 

“No! No, Luke’s not a part of this,” Jason says—and he’s quick to his feet, too. He holds his hands out to pacify Nico—but he’s not sure what to do. What’s allowed, what’s appropriate, what will actually make Nico feel better. “You’re not Luke, Nico.”

 

That doesn’t make Nico feel better. He seethes—softly—before cradling his head in his hands. And then he laughs. A pathetic thing.

 

“This,” Nico declares, “is a mess.”

 

Jason stares at Nico, at a loss.

 

“This is why it doesn’t work,” Nico continues—and he gestures with his hands tiredly. “I told them it wouldn’t work.”

 

“Nico—” Jason halts. “I—”

 

He stops. But—just like the others before him, Nico stares at him expectantly.

 

“Go ahead,” Nico says.

 

Jason doesn’t know what to say. He’s scared to say anything to upset Nico further.

 

But much like Nico’s feelings, the clock runs out for Jason here, too.

 

“Do what you want, Jason,” Nico says. “I have a date to get ready for.”

 

He stomps away—and for a second time, the window shuts before Jason can follow.

Notes:

Things always get worse before they always get better. 8') Stay safe and thanks for reading!

Chapter 19: saturnalia

Summary:

Io, Saturnalia, Jason.”

Notes:

You by benny blanco is a great song to this story! The acoustic version, preferably. Enjoy!

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

“Oh—I wasn’t sure if you’d still be up for this. You okay?”

 

Nico hadn’t brought many clothes with him. The kids were only supposed to be for the weekend—so he has a few Camp Jupiter shirts alongside his sweaters and wool coat. Nico definitely doesn’t look his nicest. He doesn’t feel that great, either.

 

“I’m fine,” Nico says—though he feels himself growing sourer by the minute. “Just let me grab my coat.”

 

He bundles back up in his wool coat and Sherpa hat. Nico rifles for his scarf—only to remember it’s missing.

 

“Did,” Connor asks from the front of Cabin Two, “you and Jace happen to talk?”

 

Nico can’t control his icy mood. He stares back at Connor, hoping it’d make the son of Hermes falter—but it doesn’t.

 

“We talked,” Nico says. He doesn’t divulge more.

 

Connor does look surprised by that. “And you still want to go on this date?”

 

“Why wouldn’t I?” Nico asks. “I’m trying to get my mind off of him.”

 

Riiight. Okay, then.”

 

Nico doesn’t really question the methods Connor uses to get them a car. Camp Halfblood’s Pegasus emblem is stamped on one of the windows—otherwise, it’s inconspicuous. Given the holidays, they’re stuck in traffic for a while. It’s as bad as San Francisco—but worse, with snow.

 

Connor taps his hand rhythmically on the steering wheel. “So—”

 

“Jason said you asked him to move back.”

 

Connor’s hand pauses at the wheel. His face is all too charismatic, emoting a Yikes without all the words. “Well—not necessarily.”

 

“He shouldn’t have to,” Nico says fiercely. “Halfblood’s been nothing but cruel to him.”

 

He hates that Connor nods. “Yeah, it has been.”

 

Nico’s scowling before he knows it. HIs jaw is tight, hands stuffed in the pockets of his wool coat.

 

“We want it to be better for him,” Connor continues. “I mean—things have changed a lot. You made sure of that this past spring—and everything’s better for it. It’s not fair that CHB was a haven for some and hell on earth for others, you know? If things are on equal ground now, then Jace can live a more comfortable life here.”

 

“He shouldn’t have to come back to Halfblood just because you all feel bad all of a sudden,” Nico rebuts. He glares at Connor from across the console. “He has a good life for himself in New Rome. His sister is there. He’s got school. You shouldn’t be twisting his arm and making him do something he doesn’t want. It’s up to him what he wants.”

 

“Yeah,” Connor agrees again—which Nico especially doesn’t like, “but doesn’t that work both ways? If I’m advocating for him to stay and you’re advocating for him to leave—then Jason’s not really saying what he wants.”

 

Nico mulls over those words.

 

“Jace has a lot of guilt over my brother Luke,” Connor says. “I mean—I know it and he knows it. No one’s really addressed it.”

 

I’ve addressed it,” Nico says. “Thalia’s addressed it. Annabeth’s addressed it.”

 

Connor hums. He doesn’t look discouraged—or halt. Gracefully, he says, “Okay, I’m wrong. People have addressed it. But—there are more people who owe him an apology.”

 

“He doesn’t have to hear it just to make you feel better.”

 

“No,” Connor agrees. “But there’s always a chance it’ll make him feel better. Don’t you think?”

 

Nico can’t answer. Because Connor is right—that’s a question Jason has to answer himself. And—for some stupid reason, it was enough for Jason to consider staying.

 

Not stupid, Nico corrects in his head. Stubbornly. Reluctantly.

 

But something else was.

 

Jason saying he liked Nico and admitting he wasn’t sure if he could go back to New Rome.

 

Nico’s crushed.

 

But he shouldn’t be. He said yes to this date so he could finally close that door and get his mind off Jason.

 

But—getting confessed to and turned down right away hurt a hundred times harder than the first confession. The accidental one. Because Nico didn’t even see it coming.  

 

He thinks about the evening before, when he sat across from Jason in Cabin Thirteen and they huddled together drinking hot chocolate. Jason had looked at him with those magnetic eyes, and Nico was glued to their weight. He always was.

 

Was Jason really going to say something then?

 

Would he’ve said something, after Nico said their friendship was enough?

 

No. Nico doesn’t think he would’ve. Jason would’ve—did—accept Nico’s declaration and never uttered a word, if he thought that was the right thing to do. Jason was always trying to do the right thing.

 

Leaving was not the right thing. Not when they were so close to—

 

To what?

 

Nico tried to nip it in the bud in every corner. He stomped on those feelings all summer and watched them bloom into a field of Underworld-loving roses, like Pluto and Proserpina.

 

He said it was enough and chose to go on a date to finally move on. And—one stroke of worry brought Nico back into his feelings and worry over Jason—because it always did.

 

“So we’re in too deep to make a U-ie here,” Connor remarks reluctantly. “But—if you’re changing your mind about going on this date—”

 

“No,” Nico says. “I need to get my mind off things.”

 

Connor hums in acknowledgement.

 

They go on their date and eat chicken tenders. It’s a platonic thing—where Connor fills the gaps where Nico is too bitter to contribute. Nico isn’t as harsh as he would be with Percy. He isn’t patient, like he would be with Reyna—or even funny. But Connor carries on anyway—and at the very least, Nico appreciates that the son of Hermes has enough enthusiasm for the two of them.

 

The movie is good. Except Nico keeps thinking about Jason. Why he’s angry at Jason. Why he doesn’t want to be angry with Jason.

 

Overall—he understands why Jason is considering it. Jason is doing something Nico has been emphasizing since that day in Croatia—put himself first. Be selfish.

 

But—Nico has to follow his own advice. He needs to put himself first, too.

 

The date is enjoyable. It just doesn’t get his mind off things like he wants.

 

*

 

Jason promises Thalia that he’ll be back for Saturnalia in a few weeks. Overall, she’s not happy with his decision. But she’s supportive—Thalia always is.

 

“I don’t want you to have a bad time at Halfblood,” she tells him after he explains Connor’s notion. “But I kind of want you to have a bad time at Halfblood.”

 

The smile doesn’t quite reach Jason’s eyes. He knows it’s telling—Jason’s only gotten like this around her in one other instance—and it’s almost a repeat of that. Worse. Jason hurt Nico a second time—and Jason doesn’t think he’ll get a third chance. He thought Nico had moved on. Months have passed since that first confession—and every stroke of Jason’s courting was ebbed away with a nervous gaze.

 

Maybe Nico’s right. Maybe Camp Halfblood has done so much irreparable damage that he should just let it be. Maybe he should just turn his back on all of it, and just keep his new life in order. Maybe—maybe if he turned his back on things now and followed after Nico—disregarded everything—that Nico would be okay with that.

 

But—for as much as a pillar as Nico’s been for him, Jason knows he has to be careful with Nico’s heart. Nico isn’t Luke—maybe the way he phrased it wasn’t the best. When Luke left, Jason struggled to turn to anyone—even his closest friends. When Nico and he fell out the first time—Jason struggled with that, too.

 

Nico’s better than Luke ever was. But—that emotional burden that just eats Jason up inside and locks him up is—too much for one person. Too much to give to another. And it does have a source. Camp Halfblood screwed with his head even before Luke and Annabeth ever entered the picture.

 

Jason helps shadowtravel the kids back to New Rome. Nico doesn’t make eye contact with him. Nico stands at the far end of their circle so they can’t even breathe the same air—and he’s too focused on making sure the little ones get home safely to notice Jason.

 

Yeah. That’s probably what it is.

 

Percy doesn’t intervene. Maybe because of the mortified look Jason gave at the canoe lake—maybe because Nico asked him not to. Either way, it’s not Percy’s business. Or Reyna or Thalia’s, or Frank or Hazel’s.

 

Annabeth gives him this lookone he knows thinks he’s crazy for staying—but it’s subdued by his reasoning. After all—their time at Camp Halfblood was plenty different even before Luke left.

 

When they return to New Rome, Jason packs a fuller bag for the upcoming weeks at Camp Halfblood. He doesn’t expect to come out of his time in Long Island wanting to stay, per se—but he hopes to find that peace.

 

It’s…harder to do that while his mind is still on Nico. Jason should have seen that coming.

 

The days are quiet at Camp Halfblood. Just regular classes taught by head counsellors and camp directors. Ancient Greek, archery, swordfighting, gardening—and so on.

 

Really—Jason’s not really sure if he’s doing camp right. It was easier last summer when he had a rigid routine to keep him busy—but that’s all it was. To keep him busy to get through the next night of bad dreams. To make the days pass so people could stop staring at him funny.

 

Jason is eventually allowed back in the infirmary. At the end of the first week, he covers a shift for Will so Connor and the son of Apollo can go on a date. Which Connor addresses in a moment of privacy between them both, after Jason explains his decision to stay.

 

“Nico and I went on a friend date,” Connor explains. He scratches his cheek, having the decency to look guilty. “I was trying to make Willie jealous. Sometimes it’s hard to get him to put down the stethoscope, you know?”

 

“That’s…” Underhanded, Jason wants to say. What he said Connor wasn’t like, to Nico. Not like Luke. “A strange way to start out a relationship.”

 

Something about that strikes a chord with Connor. He lifts an eyebrow beneath his curly hair. “Strange is part of my resume, Jacie. Right under conman and before trickster. Willie’s gotta like all of me, don’t you think?”

 

Jason doesn’t know what to say to that. All of him is why Nico left. All of Jason is a mess.

 

“Sorry,” Connor continues—with a care that’s usually reserved for the younger campers, “that I got between you and Praetor di Angelo. I had an idea there was a story between the two of you, but—well.”

 

Connor makes a gesture. Follows, with a half-hearted attempt at a joke.

 

“I’m dyslexic,” Connor says. The joke doesn’t land. It withers away from Connor’s face with an almost audible Yikes, and Connor looks more serious. “I’m glad you stayed though. Maybe I can help out somehow.”

 

Underhanded doesn’t describe Connor. Not in the way it did with Luke. Connor looks genuine in his statement—and Jason weighs what Nico said to him.

 

I can’t…get this ounce of hope that something’s going to happen because you don’t want me to go on a date with someone else.

 

“So,” Jason ends up asking, “it was a favor?”

 

Connor’s been reading him since Jason decided to stay. Jason doesn’t really know what his face really says—but more than last year. More than Jason cares to hide—even if he can’t quite put the feeling into words.

 

“He said he wanted to get his mind off of things,” Connor says finally. “Move on.”

 

Move on, Jason repeats in his head. Move on, past that ounce of hope. Jason was terrified of one date—one that Nico made because their friendship should’ve been enough—and Nico was tired of being led on. Except—Jason didn’t intend to lead on, he wanted to pour the same amount of love and care into his feelings for Nico as Nico had done for him. Nico didn’t reciprocate because Nico didn’t want to get hurt—

 

And Jason ended up hurting him anyway.

 

“Want to talk about it?” Connor asks.

 

“I.” Jason starts. Stops. “No.”

 

Not yet.

 

“Have fun on your date, Connor.”

 

Connor doesn’t look like he wants to leave Jason—so that’s a start.

 

Otherwise, camp is boring. Camp makes Jason antsy. He’s not fighting, or training—and he made the realization that as much as he tried to heal, he doesn’t necessarily enjoy it. Not like his kitchen in his apartment. Not like art class—or even the silly games they played in gym.

 

Annabeth is in Camp Halfblood, at least. She has practice being a year-rounder and as a summer camper. She’s promised Percy she’ll be back by Saturnalia—Frank, Hazel, and them are all supposed to go—but she reasons with Jason that her dad is much easier to visit these days while she’s at college. It’s okay she’s not there. And she tells him she wants to keep a close eye on him.

 

Obviously—they’ve talked since the first war. Better than before Luke left—but Jason knows he has a tendency to default to Nico first. And that he has Nico to thank for restoring their relationship in the first place.

 

“Did he ask you to keep tabs on me?” Jason asks out of the blue one day—and Annabeth shakes her head. They’re sitting in Cabin Thirteen—where the room has much more open space and peace than the Athena Cabin, no matter how much she loves her siblings.

 

On a lot of nights, it’s too much space. Jason looks past the curtain as he would down the hall for his big sister—and his heart only aches for her company.

 

“We barely said two words to each other. It’s okay—we’re just like that.” Annabeth shrugs.

 

“Oh.” He can’t hide his disappointment. That ounce of hope that Nico talked about—Jason hoped the same, if Annabeth was monitoring him so closely.

 

But—if Nico made one thing clear, it was that this date with Connor was to move on.

 

Much like Connor and Will, Annabeth reads his face anyway.

 

I wanted to keep tabs on you,” she confesses immediately. Annabeth looks at him directly in the eye. Her irises are stormy—but not in the way that used to make Jason wince. Instead, they’re thoughtful. “I should’ve done a better job of that when we were here together.”

 

Jason shifts in his seat, his hand curled around a spiral notebook. He’s doodled six Triforces and has a running grocery list for when he gets back to New Rome. He’s uncomfortable with the idea of bringing their past back up.

 

Then again—being uncomfortable in Camp Halfblood is why he decided to stay to begin with. To find some peace within himself and…all that.

 

“You…haven’t asked me what happened with Nico,” Jason says—in the spirit of getting comfortable with Annabeth keeping tabs on him.

 

Annabeth shrugs once again. A wry part of Jason thinks, all the context clues are there. Jason messed up—he accidentally turned Nico down a second time in a moment of acceptance—where Jason thought Nico just wanted to be friends. Jason had uttered the words in defeat—convinced he missed his window and firm on his moral code to respect Nico’s feelings.

 

Even if all that moral code’s ever really done is hurt him emotionally.

 

“I want you to feel like you can come to me. Not pry—or meddle, like some people.” Annabeth’s tone takes an irritated turn—and Jason is prickly about it.

 

“I—” Jason starts. Stops. “Thank you.”

 

To his surprise, Annabeth continues to study him.

 

“Or,” she says softly. Not as calculating as Jason knows she’s capable of—if only to keep him at ease. Comfortable. “Is it easier for you if I ask?”

 

Jason’s taken aback by the question. He wasn’t given a lot of opportunities before the war to use his voice. Even worse—no one really asked him how he felt, either. Jason never gave them the opportunity, too scared that they’d find out how terrified he was.

 

Nico refused to budge until Jason was willing to talk. And—eventually, it turned into: Talk to me, Jason. It’s what we do best.

 

Jason was back to fear by the end of that conversation. Fear of saying something wrong, fear of losing Nico—fear of losing everything he’s built since leaving Camp Halfblood.

 

“Jason?”

 

Jason manages to raise his shoulders half an inch closer to his ears. It’s a stiff jerk. Uncomfortable.

 

He might as well keep going.

 

“I…thought I lost him,” Jason says softly. “That I…waited too long. I thought—letting him go was the right thing to do because he wants to let me go. I told him I liked him because I didn’t think it’d change anything. And then I thought—why am I like this? Why can’t things be easy in my own head?”

 

Annabeth is silent. But she doesn’t wave a hand, like Will. Or just pretends he knows, like Connor.

 

“I guess—” Jason mulls over the words. It’s hard to carve out his feelings—the hard abyss that’s existed since his mother passed. “—I guess when Connor proposed staying, I was hoping I could get an answer to that question.”

 

Jason tucks his knees beneath his chin. He’s never been allowed to feel small in his life—not when there was a big prophecy ahead of him—but he feels that now.

 

“Camp Halfblood really screwed me up, you know?” he says quietly. It’s not a question. It’s a loud fact that everyone knows, and just let Jason deal with for the last fourteen years. “If I could make amends with Camp Halflbood, maybe everything that’s happened with Nico wouldn’t have felt so hard. With you, with my sister—”

 

Jason makes an idle wave with his hand.

 

“With me,” he says, “being me.”

 

Annabeth crawls onto the bed and gives him a hug. She holds him tightly. It’s hardly the first time that they’ve hugged since moving to New Rome—but it’s a loving embrace that takes Jason’s heart with it. He finds himself biting back a sob—and immediately begins to apologize for it.

 

“Sorry,” he breathes. “I—sorry—”

 

“No,” Annabeth whispers at his ear. “Let it out, Jace.”

 

Another sob makes it past Jason’s throat. Then a second one. A third. He trembles in her arms—and it’s probably a release he needed a long time ago. Telling Nico how he felt seemed like the next logical step—but what was he supposed to do if Nico suddenly wasn’t there anymore?

 

That thought terrified Jason so much that he had to go down to the Fields of Punishment and get his heart back.

 

Nico was gone long enough that Jason struggled to let anyone in. And—in a lot of ways, it was difficult, like right after Luke left. People were there this time, sure—but the problem was still Jason. Letting people in. Nico’s asked him to share that burden—but Nico wasn’t a Titan to be punished by the world of Jason’s all-consuming thoughts.

 

Annabeth sniffs—which makes Jason feel better about sniffing, too. About sobbing, and crying, even a little.

 

He hated it here. He misses New Rome. He hates everything Camp Halfblood’s done to him that’s affected his life in New Rome.

 

Annabeth thumbs a tear from the corner of his eye, even though he’s too embarrassed to look her in the face.

 

“You want better memories of Halfblood?” Annabeth asks him softly. “You got it.”

 

Jason’s laughter is nervous. “I don’t fight anymore, Beth. I’m—kind of boring if I can’t teach anything.”

 

Annabeth rolls her eyes. She pulls his hand—and takes it as a challenge.

 

The first thing Annabeth does is make Jason assist her in arts and crafts. She has a new love for it after having to find the Athena Parthenos. Jason’s made to sit with kids in the front row, fiddling with pipe cleaners and cotton balls. The kids have always been excited to see Jason—but normally he’s interrupted to fulfill other duties. The fun things at camp weren’t normally meant for him.

 

Grover is pleasantly delighted to see him when he comes back from recruiting some kids. He’s advised to take Jason to the vineyard and try his hand at the strawberries. Jason’s never been good at growing things before—they even wilt at his touch because of how lousy he feels.

 

“That’s okay,” Grover tells him. “Try again, brother.”

 

There’s encouragement in his voice—with no life or death at stake. He pours water, praying that whatever sentiment Persephone feels for him shines through with a flower.

 

It doesn’t sprout—not right away since he’s no child of Demeter or Persephone—but within a week it begins to bloom. So does Jason.

 

Annabeth, Grover, and he go into the city to catch a movie when they aren’t watching campers. In the evenings, they sit by the campfire and sway to songs—laughing into the embers and reminiscing over old days that didn’t revolve around the Great Prophecy or Luke’s departure.

 

He's excused from anything that involves holding a sword or pulling back a bow—but it doesn’t keep Chiron from asking. Hazel shoos him off and says she’s teaching the kids how to use a longsword. Frank calls Chiron to the archery range before the centaur can even look in Jason’s direction.

 

Jason takes his place at Hades Table—but each night he’s joined by someone new. Connor calls it the di Angelo special—but retracts when he realizes it’s too soon. Instead, kids and older campers clamor to Jason’s table to talk about the day’s events, about Christmas—and the upcoming Saturnalia event held in New Rome.

 

Jason…does find peace. One that isn’t born from a victory on war or a lull after a battle.

 

And—he comes to a realization about Camp Halfblood. What makes staying so enticing.

 

On the eve of the first day of Saturnalia, Jason almost doesn’t want to leave. Almost, because he misses his sister and his friends far too much. Doesn’t want to—because he’s not sure how to face Nico.

 

They haven’t talked in a few weeks. Thalia and he call each every other night to make up for the distance. Nico’s apparently been busy in preparations. He’s buried himself in them. To move on.

 

Jason—doesn’t want to lose their friendship. Worries he already has. Not talking to Nico like this makes things worse. Or—is it better, to give Nico time? To give them both time?

 

Love is out the door. Thalia has no advice for him when he eventually braves the question.

 

“We stayed out of it, and nothing happened,” Thalia says. “We got involved and—things got worse.

 

She’s apologetic about that. The date with Connor was out of spite—otherwise, Nico was on the fence.

 

Jason mulls over the apology—but dismisses it. “It’s my fault for letting it get out of hand.”

 

He just has to prove that this time apart—this chosen separation—was worth it. And hope Nico will reciprocate in some form.

 

Not just romantically. Jason wants to make sure everything shines through.

 

When he’s off his call with Thalia, he makes a final check of everything in his bag. Frank, Hazel, and Annabeth are to meet him at Cabin Thirteen so he can shadowtravel them back. Jason collects his toiletries from the bathroom. He takes one last glance at the mirror—

 

And freezes.

 

He looks at his reflection.

 

His altered reflection.

 

“Uh-oh.”

 

*

 

Saturnalia preparations are different this year. Last year, the holiday swept Nico by, easily forgotten because of his newfound sister and buried because it was their first Saturnalia without Reyna. This year—as praetor, Nico also gets elected as Saturnalicius Princeps—or, Ruler of the Saturnalia, Master of Ceremonies for all proceedings.

 

Or—as Percy liked to call him, Emcee Saturn, Sailor Saturn’s cousin.

 

As Emcee Saturn, Nico gets to order Percy not to call him that. Percy actually has to listen.

 

It also means that Nico is in charge of running the entire event, with Reyna overseeing and acting as an advisor. The Forum is adorned in lights—which is Nico’s favorite part. Warm candles in the evenings helps Nico enjoy his home more.

 

Nico’s signed off on the meals for the convivium publicum—the public banquet—to be held on the first day. Basically, everything. New Romans, nymphs, fauns all gather in small crowds to gamble in every nook and cranny of the cobblestone streets, hailing, Io, Saturnalia! to familiar faces.

 

Leading to the week of, vendors have started selling sigillaria—clay and wax figurines of Roman gods, goddesses, and famous figurines.

 

Of course—there were some modern liberties taken into account. Instead of flammable candles, some houses wore Christmas lights.

 

Gifts weren’t limited to pottered goods—Percy likes to give Nico bootleg Mythomagic figurines every year. Last year was some ugly bear and Hercules hybrid with Bearcules written in comic sans on the container.

 

One year, Thalia got him a singing, dancing reindeer—accidentally mistaking it as the mascot from one of Nico’s favorite anime—and Reyna never fails to add to Nico’s book or knife collection.

 

Red signs paint the Forum street, each day increasing the discount—30% OFF!! 50% OFF!! 99.9% OFF! FINAL SALE OF THE YEAR! 0% Financing on new unicorn!

 

Nico doesn’t even bother with the mall—he’d rather not breathe the air of hundreds of other people and end up sick. He makes note of sending gifts to all his teachers, and to burn something heavenly in the name of Mammina later.

 

He walks the streets of the Forum—which have since turned itself into its own Via Sigillaria—to take notes of all the temporary booths that have sprouted for winter festivities. One good thing about being Emcee Saturn (side from banning no one but Percy to call him that) is that no one can flinch if he disagrees with something. The lares try to tell Nico how Saturnalia was run back in their day and they have to listen when he tells them to zip it.

 

Nico does a headcount of all the booths. He intends to mention them in his opening statement at the public banquet. Patrons stop him, hail a happy Io, Saturnalia!, and invite him to ogle their display of figurines and knickknacks. Some even offer a special praetor discount—but Nico politely declines. Some parents give him an early gift to show their gratitude in taking their kids to Camp Halfblood.

 

Eventually, Nico takes refuge at a booth that seems sparse in inventory. Items have already been picked and prodded, in high demand—so Nico assumes eager holiday shoppers have swept the booth well.

 

Jupiter—a main contender—is well gone. As annoying of a dad as he is, he’s the Thor action figure that all the kids want. The rest of the Capitoline Triad—Minerva and Juno—have also been well plucked. Nico’s got no doubt that Percy nabbed the best Minerva figurine he could find for Annabeth.

 

Nico peruses what’s left. There’s a Bellona, well-carved—and three Plutos, painted head-to-toe matte black. Upon closer look though, Nico notices finer details: a collection of rings painted in lavish colors against Pluto’s hands, accented in a shiny gold.

 

Instead of a toga or a Greek synthesis, the Pluto wears a suit—one accurate to the one Nico saw this past spring in Olympus. The creases in his folds are organic. There’s a wispiness at his lapels—which Nico realizes are supposed to be the souls that croon in the folds of the King of the Underworld’s dress shirt.

 

“Impressed?” asks the vendor.

 

The moment Nico hears the voice, his mood rots. He sets the figurine down—and Leo Valdez stares at him with intrigue.

 

“Fine craftsmanship as always,” Nico remarks. He should’ve known better. Leo’s armory is adorned in Christmas lights and garland—but the sign is still there. There’s even a model figurine of Festus with a Santa hat sitting on one of the high shelves. “Bye.”

 

“What—” Leo muses—because that’s just how he operates, to get under Nico’s skin. “—you’re not going to make a royal decree for a restraining order against me? Your royal highness?”

 

Nico glares at a silver ornament—because he knows Leo will find a way to make fun of him if he directs his glower at the son of Vulcan instead. If he has any remark. “That wouldn’t be very mature of me.”

 

Leo balks. “You’re going by Emcee Saturn. What part of that screams mature?”

 

Nico snorts. “Maybe ignoring you is how I’m inciting my chaos.”

 

“Well—you’re not doing a very good job of it.”

 

Nico bites back a response. He resigns himself to a sigh and turns around to get a better look at Leo. Leo’s wearing an ugly Christmas sweater with working lights. There’s a whole marquee effect knitted to his chest that reads Io, Saturnalia! and an animated Rudolph. It’s the gaudiest sweater Nico’s ever seen. And very well-executed.

 

“What?” Leo asks. “Still angry at me?”

 

Nico’s face scrunches.

 

“C’mon, Neeks—”

 

“Don’t call me that.”

 

Ay, your highness,” Leo corrects with a wry salute. “We can be buds. Percy and the rest of them are good with me. I’m bringing my famous nachos to the convivium.

 

“Sounds delicious. Are we done?”

 

“Technically—not until I hear the royal decree.” Leo jostles something around in his toolbelt. It’s foolish to think he wouldn’t be wearing it. Leo pulls out a whittle knife and a cylinder of wood, and idly begins to carve. “So what’ll it be, Emcee Saturn? Gonna give me the boot?”

 

Nico hesitates. He looks around Leo’s booth once again—then to the block of wood in Leo’s hands. Leo’s the engineer that steered the construction of the Argo II—so it’s hard to think he could have such a delicate touch crafting the sigillaria between them.

 

Then again—Nico’s seen the way Leo crafts swords and other weaponry. One of the gifts Nico had a hard time parting with was a dagger Leo had skillfully crafted before their breakup. Another was a tiny knickknack Leo had affectionately named Bro-bot.

 

He takes another look at the garland and tinsel—and eyes the array of colorful Christmas lights carefully.

 

“I never noticed you never light your booth with candles,” Nico says before he can help himself.

 

Leo arches a high brow at the remark—probably with the thought that Nico’s managed a sentence without hiding behind Percy. He shrugs—and that tense look comes back to his face. One that often preceded something rude when they were dating. When they ventured into a topic that Leo didn’t like—and drove that same dagger into their relationship.

 

A three-legged table hobbles from Leo, donning a tiny Santa hat and a little wreath. It tilts its seat and allows Leo to sweep scraps on the head.

 

“Just because I can light a wick with my finger doesn’t mean I want to,” Leo reasons. He keeps molding the sculpture with his knife, not one finger out of place. “Plus my goodies are made out of wood. Talk about a fire hazard.”

 

Nico hesitates. He’s seen Leo work at the blacksmith’s—and it occurs to him that he’s never seen Leo get burned. Whether it was out of skill or his powers, Nico’s not sure—but he definitely never considered the latter.

 

He considers asking Leo about it. Decides it’s not worth it.

 

“Jason found out by accident, y’know,” Leo remarks, when Nico’s quiet for too long.

 

Nico peers back up at Leo—but Leo doesn’t meet his eye. Maybe it was easier that way. Jason. Nico’s tried very hard not to think about that name in the last few weeks. It’s been easier, while setting up Saturnalia. But—memories with Jason are also very easy to relive.

 

They’d gotten into some trouble, Jason had explained. When Leo and he first met—and that not date was a coffee date.

 

“That’s how my boy Festus and I met,” Leo continues. “I followed a hot boy into the woods because he offered to buy me a drink, and then a giant automaton breathed fire on me. Pretty nuts, am I right?”

 

“You didn’t get hurt,” Nico speculates.

 

“I didn’t get hurt,” Leo echoes—and he shrugs. “Then Jason thought it was fit to give me a full-on therapy session while I fixed the disks. We…talked, about the fire thing. My dad. My mom.”

 

“Good to know all it took was the right person,” Nico mutters—and the errant jealousy manages to spike at the pit of his stomach again.

 

Leo shrugs nonchalantly. “Jason said the same thing.”

 

Nico’s jaw tightens—but he keeps his cool. He crosses his arms over his chest.

 

“I mean—that guy’s all over the place. Super collected and quiet—but such an airhead.” Leo leans his head towards Nico. “I called him a himbo.”

 

“Are we done?” Nico asks again—and Leo rolls his eyes.

 

“I’m getting to it,” Leo reassures, and he glares at the whittled block of wood in his hands. The longer they talk, the more it looks like a person. “I never thought you’d actually bother to speak to me again, or that the fire thing would actually come up. So…I’m sorry. I turned our relationship into a joke because I was afraid that you’d reject me like the rest of my family.”

 

Leo makes another shrug.

 

“My Aunt Rosa still calls me el diablo for what happened to my mom,” he mutters.

 

There’s a venom to his words. Frustration and bitterness that Nico knows too well. It strikes too much of a chord with Nico.

 

“You…didn’t have to tell me that,” Nico says. “Now, I mean.”

 

Leo sets the figurine on the shop counter and shrugs again. “Saturnalia is as good a time to bury the hatchet as any.”

 

Nico shifts uncomfortably at his place across the booth. He hangs on, suspicious to be the butt of a joke—but nothing follows in suit. Leo makes an emphatic nod.

 

“Now we’re done,” Leo tells him. He shrugs awkwardly, stiff. “You can make a restraining order against me now or whatever.”

 

It’s a joke to alleviate the tension—it always is. There’s no bite to it, like when Leo would purposefully push him away.

 

“I wouldn’t have rejected you.”

 

Leo’s whittling knife stops. He’s too nervous to look up from the figurine—something Nico probably would’ve noticed more if he wasn’t so angry when they were dating.

 

“We could’ve talked about it. Gotten you into grief counseling,” Nico continues. He shrugs just as rigidly, surprised to even get this far with Leo. “But the idea that I’d reject you is absurd.”

 

Leo’s grip is tight over the knife. “Maybe so.”

 

He sets the knife down. His fingers rattle against the counter.

 

“Not sure how long it would’ve taken me with a grief counsellor,” he muses. “You’re on the money about that right person thing. Even if it took an eight-ton dragon and a flamethrower to get there.”

 

That green envy bubbles in Nico’s chest once more. Worse off—he knows it’s because he’s jealous of Leo. It hardens into cement in his heart and weighs him down like stones tied to his ankles. Nico is quick to push it out of his mind. He tries to, at least.

 

“Here.” Leo plucks one of the Pluto figurines and hands it out to Nico. “Special ex-boyfriend discount. One-hundred percent off. You were thinking of getting one for Jason, right? His first Saturnalia?”

 

Nico’s jaw tightens.

 

“C’mon,” Leo says—and he waves the Pluto figurine in front of Nico’s face. “You and I both know that my skills are top-notch. If you want to get him something, then your best bet is—”

 

“We’re not talking.”

 

Leo blinks. He arches an eyebrow. “What? Like—right now?”

 

“Ever,” Nico says—and his chest fills with irritation. “We’re not friends anymore.”

 

Again, Leo stares at him, his face scrunching in a way Nico’s not used to. It’s probably something Jason’s seen—which rattles Nico even more. Even saying the words aloud ache in the back of his throat. They hurt his heart.

 

“Why? What’d you do?”

 

“What did I do?” Nico snaps—and immediately, the anger steams in his ears. Fury bristles at his chest—so used to Leo’s jeering. “He’s the one that decided we weren’t friends anymore.”

 

Leo doesn’t flinch at his tone of voice. He raises an eyebrow, looking far less like a troll and more adamant in his question. “Well that doesn’t sound right.”

 

No—it didn’t—but Nico put up a wall so he didn’t have to wonder. If he wondered, then he hoped—and if he hoped, he was going to get his heart broken a third time. Percy, Reyna, and Thalia didn’t even bother trying to change his mind this time. Agreeing to Connor’s date had mostly been a spiteful whim.

 

“Look,” Leo starts, when the sour look on Nico’s face is too telling, “Jason’s an airhead, but he’s a weirdly considerate airhead.”

 

“Why do you care?” Nico glares warily.

 

Leo makes a face. Then his head bobs left and right, as though playing ping-pong with a thought. He takes his knife to his block of wood. “Well—this apology never would’ve come about if it weren’t for what I thought was him hitting on me.”

 

A common theme. Nico squashes the irritation as it forms—and focuses on the first half of Leo’s statement.

 

“We’re talking about a guy who pissed you off and then came to me to figure out how I pissed you off,” Leo points out. He makes a face. “He weighed both sides. Which—as a friend, I’m pretty grateful. As your ex-boyfriend—I’m shocked he’d even bother. Especially considering how much he likes you.”

 

He looks at Nico expectantly, as though waiting for a rise.

 

Nico squeezes his bicep in anger—but doesn’t blow. He smiles grimly instead. “Apparently liking me’s not enough anymore.”

 

For how simple it should all be.

 

“Oh—he actually got the nerve to say it?”

 

Nico doesn’t know what to say to that. He stares, wondering if he heard correctly. “You knew?”

 

“Dude.” Leo arches an eyebrow. “Everyone knows. He’s been trying to ask you out for like, the last two months.”

 

“What do you mean everyone?”

 

“Um—literally all of your siblings? All the centurions?” Leo shrugs. “Probably that Olive Garden north of the tunnel—”

 

“That’s not funny.”

 

“Believe it or not I’m not trying not to make a joke right now.” Leo snorts—and he sets the figurine down. “If it’s taken him two months just for you to notice him, senpai and you’re not happy about it, then he’s probably trying to balance out the problem somehow.”

 

“There’s no problem,” Nico retorts. “If he likes me then that should be enough. Except it’s turned into a huge mess with everyone that no one can seem to leave alone.”

 

Leo glances at him, one eyebrow in the air. “Ese, that’s a problem.”

 

Nico halts. Leo places the sigillaria in his hand—which is when Nico notices the details. The Jason sigillaria isn’t much bigger than Nico’s hand—but the craftsmanship is immaculate. He sees the part of Jason’s hair, and even a smooth line that decorates Jason’s mouth. Nico could recognize it anywhere.

 

In his other hand, Leo places a Pluto sigillaria.

 

“I told you—”

 

“Take both,” Leo says. “Free of charge. You don’t think I’d actually be able to sell Jason Grace figurines, do you?”

 

Nico looks warily between both figurines, his chest in knots. He peers back up, unsure of…sureness, really. “Why do you care so much?”

 

Leo arches another eyebrow. “Apparently at some point in time I thought it was a good idea to date you.”

 

Nico scowls.

 

“I care because we worked well together. For a brief stint. Like, marginally.” Leo jostles his hands in his toolbelt—but he doesn’t look ill at ease this time. “If it were up to me—”

 

He pauses expectantly, and Nico flushes irately. The which it isn’t is starch on Nico’s tongue—but he refrains from saying it.

 

“—I’d give Jason another shot. I watched the guy risk everything and exposing Camp Halfblood before it was time so he could save it,” Leo says. “I mean—you and I’ve been broken up for over a year and you still want to bite my head off, Neeks.”

 

Nico’s mouth twitches. Leo stares at him expectantly—then waves a dismissive hand.

 

“Right. Royal decree or whatever.” Leo shrugs. “Don’t turn Jason into something like that. There’s no way you’re ever going to stop seeing Thalia, and my girl is dating your sister—so you and I are like, weird in-laws now—”

 

“Don’t call us that.”

 

Leo stares at Nico dryly.

 

Nico wrinkles his nose. “Go on.”

 

“—so give him a second chance. Or—a eighth chance or whatever.” Leo cocks an eyebrow. “Your mood swings are hard to keep track of.”

 

I don’t have—” Nico seethes—but the gleeful glint in Leo’s eye knows the sentence is just to rouse him. He counts to three, coils his hands around the sigillaria like squeezing a stress balls, and exhales. “I don’t want to do that.”

 

It’s Nico’s turn to wait and see what aggravating rebuttal is on Leo’s tongue, but the son of Vulcan simply stares at him. Nico’s mind goes back to what his three favorite people said. What he argued, so he could protect his heart—even if saying them aloud felt like toothpicks in his throat.

 

“I’m always the first to consider his feelings,” Nico continues. Monitoring Jason’s emotions came as naturally as breathing for him. Nico watched every breath—saw the tiniest change in Jason’s brow when the nerves wore on the son of Hades. Even now, Nico’s eyes seek the crypt at Temple Hill, in case he can find Jason there.

 

And—every time Nico tried to draw that line between himself and Jason, he’d break his own rules and run to Jason’s aid. It wasn’t as easy as just stopping, like he told Drew. Nico couldn’t even enjoy his date—because as furious and betrayed as he felt by Jason, it angered him more that Connor Stoll had the gall to ask Jason to stay at Halfblood.

 

Nico knows how to fly. He practically floated before he knew how to walk. Jason was the first time he’d fallen—and hearing that his feelings were reciprocated had him feeling light.

 

But for Jason to immediately try to leave—Nico felt himself plummeting. In anger, in frustration—and humiliating heartbreak. Falling was not a feeling that he wanted to feel again. Not with Jason Grace, if it was going to leave him buried in sorrow.

 

“The most important thing I ever taught him was to put himself first,” Nico elaborates, when it’s clear that Leo isn’t just going to make fun of him. “Which means I need to do the same for myself.”

 

“Ah.” Leo ducks his head in an affirming way. “That’s pretty selfish.”

 

Selfish—?”

 

“Isn’t it a good thing then,” Leo continues, “that liking you isn’t enough? Neeks, you’re just mad that you finally taught the guy to say no and you’re the only person he’s comfortable saying that to.”

 

“Don’t call me—” Nico halts. He leers up at Leo—but the words have already been carved into his head with the whittle knife. “Go on.”

 

Leo snorts once more—derisive and no less irritating—but he narrows his gaze at Nico with an underlying seriousness. “Nico, the guy went on a date with me because your sister wanted adult supervision.

 

He makes tick marks with his fingers.

 

“He took us to the House of Hades after who knows how long in Tartarus because his sister asked. You heard what your mommy said on Olympus last spring. The guy’s spent his entire life training for some dumb prophecy and saved the world and all—and your dad just gave him the door. He wasn’t even planning on saying anything—he’s a total pushover. You’re the one that insisted he needed to be honored.”

 

“Because he needed to be!” Nico retorts—and he freezes at just how instinctively he jumps to Jason’s defense. Even now after so many weeks spent in anger.

 

“Bro, exactly.” Leo waves his arms around—which is when Nico realizes the son of Vulcan is just mimicking him.

 

Nico doesn’t know what to say. He’s dumbfounded by the tactlessness of Leo’s tone—but it doesn’t make it any less true. He stares at Leo in disbelief—but for as much as Leo liked to be annoying, there were facts laced in his tone.

 

“Go make up with him, Neeks. That ugly scowl you have isn’t doing anything for your old man skin.” Leo pokes him between the brow.

 

Nico slaps his hand. “Stop that.”

 

Leo shrugs.

 

“I…need to get going and finish preparations,” Nico says. He curls his hands around the two sigillaria, staring at both carefully—and hesitates. “Leo?”

 

“Yeah?”

 

Io, Saturnalia.”

 

Leo stares at him in surprise. Then—the genuine, boyish grin that Nico found attractive once upon a time. “Io, Saturnalia, your highness.”

 

 

 

Preparations eventually lead Nico to Temple Hill. A path of lights paints the slopes and planes, leading to the Temple of Saturn far off in the distance, where Nico and the rest of the Senate would be in charge of unbinding wool from the statue of Saturn’s ankles.

 

An act of liberation, he’d be explaining to the younger campers and elementary students. Celebration of the freed man. After that, they’d carry a couch to town square and celebrate with the convivium.

 

Saturn’s temple is starch and well-preserved. It’s garnished in garland and candles—looking even more extravagant than the booths in the Via Sigillaria. Priests roam the many halls of the temples, while Saturn is decorated in elegant robes. It more-or-less looks pulled from the Roman Empire itself. Reyna gives her stamp of approval on everything.

 

Despite all the preparations, Nico’s thoughts are lost with Leo’s statement—that he was just mad that Jason said no to him.

 

That Jason was comfortable saying no to him.

 

Leo isn’t wrong about Jason’s feats. Before that cutoff that Jason had talked about, the son of Hades had done a lot of things for everyone else—to the point he was miserable. Admitting that had taken a lot of effort on Jason’s part, often changing the subject so he couldn’t. Jason didn’t consider his feelings important. He didn’t have time to.

 

Nico thinks back to what Jason had done when the son of Hades moved to New Rome. Troubled, Jason had cocked his head to Nico for a solution right away.

 

Oh, he’d once said. I was hoping you’d tell me what to do.

 

For as brief as they’d known each other beforehand, Jason trusted Nico so much that he eagerly sought a solution to a weight he’d carried for a whole year. Nico wasn’t sure what to make of it. Jason’s birthday party came into fruition—but it wasn’t going to wipe away the grief that took many lives from Jason’s life.

 

And in their last meeting—Nico forced himself to relive the words, no matter how suffocating they felt.

 

Jason wanted to tell Nico how he felt. But he froze up.

 

Because of Luke Castellan. Because of other people.

 

Because of them.

 

Because of me. Jason’s voice is crisp in Nico’s ears.

 

His mood only worsens. He’s the first to leap to Jason’s defense—because very few did so before. Connor was right—the decision to stay at Camp Halfblood was Jason’s alone—no matter how much it made Nico’s heart ache.

 

There was a right answer, Jason had said before. He just wasn’t sure what it was.

 

Jason wasn’t there. Yet, he’d said.

 

Jason didn’t feel the same way as Nico yet.

 

Jason was trying to balance out the problem.

 

How long would it take for Jason to love him back?

 

Nico’s quick to shove the thought out of his mind. His lips press into a bitter frown, chest tight—and he drowns the thought.

 

“It’s a mess,” Nico reminds himself angrily.

 

“Is it?” Reyna says beside him. She looks puzzled as she follows Nico’s line of sight. “I think the temple looks lovely.”

 

Nico’s face burns red—but whether it’s from frustration or embarrassment, he’d rather not say. Instead, he nods along with her and gestures to the temple. “No. You’re right—it looks good.”

 

Reyna looks towards him suspiciously.

 

“There’s time before the ceremony,” Nico says. “I’m going to take a nap.”

 

He waits to see if she’ll add commentary. But—much like Thalia and Percy, she only nods with his decision. “Be sure to come back in the right attire, Nico.”

 

“Right.” Nico has enough fancy robes in his closet to build a pillow fort.

 

Nico climbs the roof of the Jupiter Optimus Maximus as the sun begins its descent across the sky. He hated to admit it—but it still had the best view of the stars in the evening sky. It took several months, but people were finally associating him more with Mammina’s name than his sperm donor’s.

 

So—it was an optimal place to hide so people wouldn’t bug him. Percy would barge into the principia as he pleased. Bianca would annoy him at the praetorhouse. Thalia—would gladly welcome his company if he asked, but he wants to be alone.

 

At least—he thinks he does.

 

The longer he’s alone with his thoughts, the more Nico lingers over Leo’s words. He thinks of Jason, and his heart just…hurts.

 

“Stop that,” Nico mutters. He wasn’t going to fall again. It was never part of the plan. They weren’t lovers—and now they weren’t friends.

 

If Nico had never scaled off this roof the first day—then he’d never have to meet Jason.

 

He’d never have to deal with this heartache.

 

“Ahem.”

 

Nico reaches for his gladius—before he realizes it’s not on him. Instead, he grabs one of the sigillaria gifted to him and presses it to the neck of his invitee. He freezes.

 

Blue eyes stare back at him—from a face of golden skin warmed by the sunset. The orange hue paints across tan skin—against the strong lines of a tan neck, jaw, and clavicle. Nico doesn’t recognize the face at first—but he compares it to the figurine in his hand now, gawking.

 

Because no other person he knows has a scar on their lip.  

 

“Um. Hi, Nico.”

 

Jason?”

 

*

 

It’s definitely not the reunion Jason is expecting. He startles at the wooden figurine shoved in his face first—then his heart does a somersault in his chest as he gets to look at Nico’s face. It’s the first time he’s looked at those eyes in weeks. Even under the orange sun, they’re a vibrant violet.

 

They also stare at him from head-to-toe—mortified as they take in Jason’s altered appearance. Jason has an idea how dumbfounded Nico is. He didn’t recognize himself when he looked in the mirror—between the cropped cut blond hair and blue eyes. Worse—for the first time in seventeen years, he has a suntan.

 

While Nico takes him in, Jason stares at Nico’s weapon of choice. He makes a sound at the triangle shape.

 

“Is that supposed to be me?” Jason asks, puzzled.

 

Nico blinks. He stares at the figurine—then back to Jason. He turns a pretty hue of red—but chances are, it’s probably from the rays of sunset. Then he shoves the figurine in his pocket with a force he probably wants to use to strangle Jason. “You look like my dad.

 

“Sperm donor,” Jason corrects offhandedly. He watches as Nico twitches—and feels his own face glow with heat. “Wait—there’s more.”

 

Jason reaches into his pockets and pulls out a pair of glasses. He places them on his face.

 

Nico stares back at him, somehow looking angrier.

 

“That—was supposed to break the ice. Sorry.” Jason peels the glasses off his face. He mindfully rubs his ears—which have since gotten colder since his impromptu haircut. “They came with—”

 

“What happened?” Nico asks. He sounds even more furious than before.

 

It cuts through the apology Jason planned. Meeting up with Nico like this is…risky, in a way. Jason didn’t expect Nico to say a word to him. Doesn’t think he deserves it.

 

Jason.

 

“I…don’t know,” Jason admits. He scratches his head—and finds himself missing the extra hair he’d grown in the last few months. His head just felt too much like the rough side of a dish sponge. “I got off a call with Thalia yesterday and looked in a mirror. I just looked like this all of a sudden. I’m not sure why.”

 

Nico looks even sicker. Angrier—and more furious.

 

“Sorry—” Jason starts instinctively—which Nico latches onto. Jason stops himself—because he’s sorry for a lot of things. He’s put a lot of thought into what he wants to say—written it down, even—but now isn’t the time to do it.

 

“You were looking for me?” Nico guesses. He doesn’t sound pleased at the thought.

 

Jason’s always looking for Nico—in some capacity.

 

“I couldn’t help myself,” Jason admits, and he rubs his cold forehead thoughtfully. “You helped me the first time when I asked for your mom’s blessing.”

 

Finally, Nico’s streak of anger lessens. It breaks with confusion—and he looks even more horrified. “When you did what?”

 

“When I asked for her blessing,” Jason repeats. He gestures to his collarbone, where the bowtie once was. Jason would prefer smelling like magazine cologne again over Axe body spray. Thalia had more or less told him she’d rather house a skunk. Nico looks baffled—which only makes the heat rise in Jason’s cheeks. He takes a breath. “Um. So—before you got back from your quest, I went to the Juno Moneta—”

 

He gestures to the neighboring temple, where he can practically hear the song of their dance from the summer.

 

“—and asked if Hera would be okay if I dated her son,” he says. Nico looks as still as a statue—so Jason continues. “Then I asked Percy. And Bianca. Reyna kind of—well, gave it to me, and Thalia’s just…been supportive in general.”

 

Nico still doesn’t move.

 

“Then—I think your mom blessed me, and—it. Kind of went from there.” Jason brushes a hand over his knuckles, a nervous knot twisting in his throat. “If…I was going to ask you out, then I wanted to do it properly after everything.”

 

He hesitates. But—for only a second.

 

“And I didn’t. I…hurt you. Again,” Jason says. He tightens his grip over his hand. “You didn’t deserve that. I’m sorry. This apology—it—”

 

He pauses.

 

“—it doesn’t begin to describe how sorry I am,” Jason says.

 

He’s afraid to look Nico in the eye—in fear of saying something wrong. But—he looks anyway—because anything is better than the distance that’s been between them.

 

Nico stares at Jason, not a word uttered back. He looks stunned, lips pressed into a firm line.

 

“Nico—”

 

“I,” Nico says finally, the ire still present, “think I know who did this to you.”

 

A spark zips over Jason’s heart. An ounce of hope, as Nico peers back at him.

 

“Oh,” Jason says. “Okay.”

 

*

 

They end up at the Temple of Venus—or as she was more aptly known—Venus Felix, the Bringer of Good Fortune. Right now, Nico is certain he has the worst luck in history. He doesn’t look behind him—he just knows Jason is toddling after him silently. Nico wants to keep it that way. He’s not sure what to do with Jason’s blessing.

 

Mammina’s blessing. His head spins at the thought of it.

 

“Aphrodite?” Jason asks, when they make it to the Venus Felix. “Are you sure—?”

 

“Absolutely.” Nico’s irritation burns even brighter. Once Jason started talking—with those awful blue eyes and blindingly blond hair. What had Athena called it? Dumb Apollo?

 

Jason makes a face—perplexed with eyes that are too flashy to be his own. “I…might need a little more explanation here—”

 

“Venus turned into you,” Nico says, “when she was mocking my feelings for you.”

 

Jason doesn’t finish his question. Nico doesn’t want to look him in the eye—far too blinded by his own anger.

 

“She was there,” Nico mutters unwillingly, “when I went to find Jupiter.”

 

Right across the table during family dinner, when Nico was ready to strangle the King of the Gods for making a disgusting comment about Jason. Nico’s angry again before he knows it.

 

“Nico—” Jason pauses. “—I’m so sorry. I don’t know what happened, but—”

 

“It wasn’t like with Eros,” Nico says immediately. “It’s fine.”

 

Aphrodite’s badgering was nothing like the bully of love and war. It was a twelve-course utter disaster that could only make Nico nauseous—and hate everything.

 

“It’s…really not, Nico.” Jason’s voice is soft.

 

Nico’s heart aches at the thought of it. When he can brave a glance, he’s met with a look of upset that seems foreign on Jason’s face. Nico can’t tell if it’s because of the obnoxiously blue eyes—or because it’s on Jason’s face of all people. Jason doesn’t normally get upset. Not in this way.

 

Jason was super collected and quiet, like Leo said. Mild-mannered.

 

Jason might be trying to find a balance, Leo had speculated.

 

Nico shoves the thought out of the way. He faces the Venus Felix in her grandiose glory—who’s also adorned in Saturnalia garland and ornaments, and his chest hardens. Various sigillaria and other offerings sit at her brazier.  “Well, Lady Venus? We’re here. Fix him.”

 

Silence.

 

Her statue doesn’t move. It doesn’t budge or make a sound. Instead—she stares off in the distance in a coquettish manner that makes Nico more irritated.

 

“This isn’t funny,” he snaps. “And you still got the scar wro—”

 

The words hit a wall in his mouth. He’s as angry as he was when Mammina dragged them to Olympus—but saying the words are harder.

 

One glance at Jason, and he knows the other demigod is intrigued. Jason blinks idly, but his hand slowly makes it to the blemish at his mouth.

 

Nico’s chest tightens—until even his mouth clamps shut.

 

“Nico, do you want—?”

 

“No.” Nico doesn’t want to talk about it. He doesn’t ever want to bring up that headache of a family dinner again. Instead, he crosses his arms over his chest—if only to feign some semblance of calm.

 

Jason takes his hiccup quietly. Nico doesn’t look—but from the corner of his eye, he gathers Jason’s stature changing.

 

“Aphrodite…turns into whoever’s beautiful in that person’s eye,” Jason speculates. Because of course he does. He hesitates, before looking at himself. “So…um.”

 

He pauses.

 

“Did…she turn into me?” Jason asks.

 

Nico’s bites back a scowl.

 

“Is…this how you want me to look—?”

 

No,” Nico snaps—and he seethes at the son of Hades—who looked too much like a dumb Apollo. Worse—just another one of Jupiter’s bastard children. Nothing like the soft lines Leo had carved into the sigillaria of both Jason and Pluto. “I told her that you’re—”

 

Perfect just the way he is. Nico comes to a dead halt before he can ever say those words aloud again. Jason jumps at the viscosity of his words.

 

“You…” Jason starts hesitantly, “told her what?”

 

And Nico simmers. He glares at the brazier and considers kicking it over.

 

He had to stop. Needs to stop, before he falls down that stupid rabbit hole again because of Jason. But every time he gets this close, breathing Jason’s air—it’s hard.

 

Too hard.

 

“Forget it,” Nico mutters. He whips around and begins to walk away—but can only get as far as the edge of the temple.

 

There’s a moment of silence—before Jason traces his footsteps. He’s so quiet that Nico would’ve believed that Jason erupted from his shadow like that first time.

 

Eventually, Jason sits. He’s careful to put distance between them. Respectful. Their silhouettes stretch against the ground as the sun begins to hide.

 

“Nico,” Jason whispers. “Please talk to me.”

 

Nico doesn’t want to. Every conversation with Jason always devolves into wanting more—and Nico doesn’t want that. Doesn’t need that.

 

“I,” Jason continues, “really miss talking to you—”

 

“Why should I?” Nico cuts in. His jaw is so tight with tension that he feels his voice crack. “I don’t even know why I’m helping you. You don’t even consider us friends anymore, Jason.”

 

It shuts Jason up. Good.

 

“I said that?” Jason asks, confused—which hurts even more.

 

Nico whips back to Jason—until the crack in his throat feels like the crevice that divided them. He’s so furious that he can’t keep the cracks from appearing. Everything just explodes out of his mouth, like a bomb.

 

“You hurt me,” Nico snaps. “Do you get that? Not once, but twice Jason. Three times.

 

Jason flinches at his tone. Nico can’t even tell what it sounds like anymore.

 

“I don’t even care that you turned me down a second time,” Nico continues—and the steam billows in his ears in an all-consuming rage. “You looked me in the eye and told me you didn’t want to be friends. It was better when you didn’t say anything—because I could at least turn it off. I didn’t need to think about how our friendship was enough—because I didn’t even have to like you.”

 

With every word, Jason grimaces—but he doesn’t rebuke. He doesn’t fight—he just takes it.

 

“I thought—” Nico’s ears are hot. His face is warm. His eyes are wet—but he carries on, pushing his words through the painful cracks he’s tried so hard to ignore. “—I thought our friendship at least meant something, Jason. That was enough to keep me from feeling this—this stupid heartbreak. But then you decided to leave. Do you even get how much that sucks?”

 

Jason doesn’t respond. He moves with each of Nico’s words—but his mouth is clamped shut.

 

For all the rambling Jason did earlier about Hera’s blessing, he’s silent now. Nico hates it even more.

 

“When I said that,” Jason says finally, “the words came out wrong.”

 

He caresses his own forehead gently—and exhales with a deep sigh. Jason stares at the ground like it holds all the answers.

 

“I meant that I couldn’t go back to being friends,” Jason continues, and he does the same motion with his hands, brushing them in smooth strokes. “But I…I panicked because I couldn’t get the words right. I was trying to respect your decision to move on, but. I.”

 

Jason shifts in his spot, squeezing his left hand firmly.

 

“I wanted you more than I could respect your decision,” Jason says quietly. “And that’s—hard for me, Nico. There’s no one I respect more than you.”

 

Nico doesn’t know what to say.

 

“I…broke a few lamps at Starbucks with Mike after you told me you were going on that quest,” Jason admits. There’s embarrassment in his voice. “I…shattered the lights in the infirmary when I found out you were going on that date with Connor. Killed a few fish.”

 

He rubs his forehead again—and then takes another breath.

 

“You have every right to move on after everything that’s happened,” Jason says softly. His stature grows rigid. “I just. I don’t want you to.”

 

Even now, the sentence sounds like a struggle past his lips.  Nico can hear the tightness in it.

 

Nico has to move on. He needs to move on to get past this—this stupid anger that’s festered since Jason thought it’d be a good idea to leave. The stupid shame he felt for ruining their friendship. He could step past the platform and walk back to the Temple of Saturn. He could walk away from Jason.

 

He just. Can’t get himself to. Because he doesn’t want to.

 

Nico sways—and then he falls into a sit beside Jason, with the gap very prominent between them.

 

“Staying on the other side of the country do that many wonders for you?” Nico asks. He can’t keep his voice even if he tried—so he focuses on the words. No matter how bitter they sound.

 

Jason looks uncomfortable. He jerks a shoulder to his ears. “Not as much as I’d hoped.”

 

Nico wishes he didn’t feel so satisfied about that.

 

“If,” Jason starts—suddenly sounding shyer. He stops—but more importantly, he keeps going. “If I…ever get the chance to fall in love again, I…don’t want to lock up. Not like I did with…”

 

He trails off—that name too hard for him to say—but they both know it.

 

The words are already on Nico’s tongue. He’s just surprised they’re on Jason’s, too.

 

“I deserve better than that,” Jason says—and he’s back to flexing and smoothing out the ridges in his hands. “But I understand what happened to me also hurt the other people around me. I mean—Beth, and me. Bianca, and…Connor, and the rest of them.”

 

He pauses.

 

“You,” Jason says quietly. “I don’t want things to end up the same way they did with him. You’re too important. It’s…all too important. If I can’t get it all right, then I lose it all again—and I can’t—I can’t afford that—”

 

“Jason.” Nico stops the other demigod, as Jason’s voice increases in momentum and tightness. “When are you going to allow yourself to make mistakes?”

 

Jason falls quiet.

 

“Focusing on getting it all right is how you can end up getting it wrong. Just look at how Camp Halfblood tried to train you for fourteen years,” Nico mutters. The same anger festers in his chest. “Look how that ended up—how hard it was for them to feel—”

 

“Isn’t it all the more important that that I try to fix it?” Jason asks. “Trying to get myself to be able to…feel again?”

 

Nico halts.

 

“Am I,” Jason continues softly, “really allowed to make mistakes? With you?”

 

Of all the words, those seem the hardest.

 

Jason was comfortable, Leo had said. To say no to him. No matter how much it hurt. But right now—Jason looks too uncomfortable. Too small, for how much of a gentle giant that was behind the fierce façade that Camp Halfblood beat into him.

 

And still, Jason was trying his hardest to get this conversation to work. He didn’t leave—not when Nico was ready to kick over the brazier in anger for the gods making fun of his feelings. Again.

 

This really was just like Eros. Nico sighs and buries his head in his hands.

 

“Only if I’m allowed to make mistakes,” Nico mutters, “with you.”

 

Jason blinks with those azure blue eyes—a consequence to all of this.

 

It’s a hard lump in his throat. Nico cradles his head gently and takes a careful breath.

 

“I lied,” he said quietly. “When I said I was over you. I went on that date because I thought it would help. It just.”

 

Made him feel worse.

 

“Made me feel worse,” Nico repeats in tandem with his own thoughts.

 

Nico exhales another breath.

 

“I had a crush on Percy forever ago,” Nico mumbles. He rubs the tattoo on his arm awkwardly. Stubbornly. “It was…really obvious and stupid. And the way he turned me down, it was—gods-awful embarrassing.

 

He thinks of being eleven, his heart rattling in his chest—and his face hurting from smiling too much around Percy Jackson, centurion to the Fifth Cohort. Nico was excited to be his co-centurion. He hated it when other people, like Gwendolyn, would get his attention instead.

 

And—Percy, for as kind as he was, let him down in the most subtle way he could.

 

(So, not at all.)

 

Wow, Percy had said. That girl looks pretty. Nymphs are pretty. Girls are so cool. I really like girls, Nico. Like a lot. Girls are awesome.

 

His tone of voice was stilted and awkward, like shards of glass hidden in a bed of beach sand. Nico would rather dunk his face in garbage than let that happen again.

 

“By the time Leo and I got together he was super supportive. They all were,” Nico continues. “And the way that ended was…awful, too. We ended up on a ship together.

 

Nico ponders the thought—the best way to say the words aloud.

 

“When it came to you, I—didn’t want to like you. Not as a friend. Not as a person.” Nico’s lips press tightly together. “And then it happened anyway. I…like you a lot as a friend, Jason. And I’m proud of who you’ve become as a person.”

 

He hesitates, the same hard ball that troubled Jason swelling in his own throat.

 

“I ended up liking you more than a friend before I knew it. Because of who you are,” Nico mutters. “But I didn’t want to get the others involved in this mess because I understand what’s at stake. And I didn’t want to end up hurt over these stupid feelings.”

 

Nico takes a breath.

 

“And then Jupiter, my hell-bent sperm donor and self-proclaimed father,” Nico continues, annoyed, “told me that if you weren’t interested, then to just force my way on you, like he did—like he does with everyone, including my own mother. I was forced to sit at a family dinner and watch them pretend that he didn’t have a six-week stint at a bar in Seattle, like it was normal.

 

“Nico,” Jason says, “nothing you could ever do could turn you into him—”

 

“I’m not done,” Nico continues quietly. Firmly. He needed to get the words out before he went into hiding again. He shakes instead, while trying to keep his voice steady. “Venus sat down the table from me, looking like this—”

 

He gestures to the ugly representation of Jason Grace in front of him.

 

“—and I hated it. Love was in an arm’s reach,” Nico whispers, “and I said that you were perfect just the way you were.”

 

Jason doesn’t say anything. It’s worse than when Nico left Camp Halfblood.

 

“Oh,” eventually leaves his mouth. Oh to what, Nico doesn’t know.

 

Nico cared about Jason so much that not even the goddess of love could encapsulate that. She didn’t try to—she wanted Nico to say it aloud.

 

“What about now?” Jason asks quietly.

 

Nico shrugs. “Now, I’m here. And you’re in Long Island.”

 

And they really couldn’t go back to how things were. Not to their friendship—not to that seed of hope that wanted to bloom every time Jason was near.

 

“It’s a mess,” Nico mutters. “My sisters, Percy, Annabeth—this with the gods. So long as this is between us—it’s always going to be a mess. I don’t know what the solution is, Jason—I just know that we can’t—”

 

“We can’t go back to the way things were,” Jason finishes for him.

 

“We have to move forward.” Nico shrugs again, his chest tight. “Wherever that might be.”

 

Silence swells between them—the distance still too great. Nico doesn’t move. Neither does Jason.

 

“I,” Jason says quietly, “still want that to be right next to you.”

 

“Yeah.” Nico’s chest is tight. He exhales softly, shrinking the knot in his throat as much as he can. He doesn’t want to hold a grudge. Leo was right. Nico didn’t want to go any longer burning in anger at Jason. He liked Jason’s company too much.

 

And—if fixing things with Camp Halfblood is what Jason needed, then Nico had to respect it. And move forward.

 

“Was taking me to Olive Garden really your idea of a date?” Nico asks. He tries to keep his voice even—which works. The more he thinks about it, the more ridiculous it seems.

 

Jason blinks—startled by the question, but he flushes. “Well—Percy wanted breadsticks. And…said you were Italian.”

 

Nico snorts. “Sounds like Percy just wanted breadsticks.”

 

“Well—” Jason pauses—and his eyebrows knit together. For as saturated as they look, they can’t take away how cute he looks when he’s confused. “—yeah, okay. Maybe Percy just wanted breadsticks.”

 

“Pfft—” Nico snorts loudly—and laughter erupts from the back of his throat. The warmth fills him like a familiar buzz—and he bows his head with a grin. Out of all of this—at least his best friend and Jason could finally get along.

 

“At least he doesn’t hate my guts anymore,” Jason remarks out of the blue. “I’m sure that was stressful for you.”

 

Nico blinks.

 

“What’s wrong?”

 

“Nothing—I. Was just thinking the same thing,” Nico says. He shrugs. “It’s Percy. A healthy dose of stress is good.”

 

Jason chuckles this time—and the sound revitalizes Nico’s soul. It feels like ages since he heard it.

 

“So,” Nico says—and he scoots to the edge of the step. “How are we going to fix this Himbo Apollo look?”

 

Jason stares at him—looking bewildered. Red burns in Nico’s cheeks.

 

“Sorry. Force of habit.” Nico gestures to the too-golden hair and annoyingly blue eyes. At the very least, Jason still shines through. “How should we do this?”

 

It flips a switch between them—to focus on something aside from their feelings. Jason’s eyes flicker with a thought—and they fall into a comfortable cadence. They were used to strategizing with one another.

 

“We could try the sword again,” Jason offers.

 

“On what? Your Axe Body Spray?” Nico lifts an eyebrow and scans Jason again. The hair and eyes were one thing—but everything else about Jason was normal. He wore his signature leather jacket and blue jeans. Beneath that was the hideous orange Camp Halfblood t-shirt, with the Pegasus and all. No matter how ugly Nico saw it, he doubted taking a sword to Jason’s pants would be the solution this time.

 

“Yeah,” Jason mutters—and he awkwardly rubs the back of his neck. Red paints his cheeks. “Trust me when I say not even elephant dung got rid of that.”

 

Nico’s rendered to another snicker. Another snort.

 

Jason ponders…something. His eyes widen—and then he shakes his head.

 

Nico arches an eyebrow. “What—?”

 

“Nothing.” Jason cuts him off immediately—then clears his throat. “Just an idea—but not a very good one. We’ll just…have to find other ways to counteract the Goddess of Love. There’s beauty, too. And…other things. But maybe we can focus on that.”

 

Nico stares suspiciously—but he nods. Venus Felix—the Goddess of Good Fortune. Other aspects about Venus/Aphrodite—the Goddess of Beauty, Love, and…other things, as Jason put politely.

 

Oh.

 

A streak of embarrassment courses through Nico. Then irritation. Then…a stubborn acceptance.

 

He peers back at Jason, whose gaze is elsewhere. Jason’s body is tense. His brow’s knitted—perplexed and troubled, but thoughtful for a solution. Any other solution.

 

Nico grimaces. “Jason.”

 

“Yeah, Nico—?”

 

Nico leans over and kisses him.

 

Inching close is easy. By now, Nico wouldn’t be surprised that he’s sought Jason beside him during their conversation. It’s natural for him. He props a hand against the shiny floor, palm flat, and brushes his lips against Jason’s own.

 

Jason’s mouth is…soft. Surprisingly so. It’s warm at first—heated like the gold rays of the sun. Nico never imagined a kiss with Jason—because he always stopped himself before he could get that far.

 

And…slowly, Jason animates. Like life being breathed back into a statue. He kisses back, with a hand against Nico’s cheek. The pads of his fingers are cold as they brush against his jaw—like flakes of snow dancing against his skin.

 

Nico feels something swelling at the back of his throat. The feeling grows in his chest—sweet and thick like honey.

 

He doesn’t want to look when they part. Jason’s hands are cold as they cradle his face, but familiar. Nico reaches to pull Jason’s hands away—but as his fingers curl against Jason’s wrists, he finds that he can’t. He’s missed the intimate touch for months—even if they’d never gotten this far. Nico’s eyes remained shut—his forehead pressed against the snow of Jason’s face.

 

Jason starts. His voice isn’t above a whisper.  “Nico—”

 

“Please.” Nico’s too afraid to look up. The honey at his chest makes his heart float—but he knows how quickly it’ll harden. So again, he begs, “Please don’t say anything.”

 

If they say something, then the moment passes. They move onto the next second—and they move forward. Nico doesn’t want that. He wishes Saturn could make time stand still.

 

There’s no telling how long they sit there. The sun is far past Temple Hill—hiding behind their shadows that have long intertwined. The stars are high in the sky, but for the first time, Nico doesn’t have the desire to look.

 

The stars don’t change, he’d once said. After newly-erected monuments and deforestation, and the death of many in the last century—the stars stay the same.

 

Jason and he’ve changed since then. Many times. They never should’ve tried to get that friendship back because they were far past it.

 

They just needed to move forward.

 

“Saturnalia’s about to start,” Nico says finally. He peels away, not bothering to inspect Jason again. “I need to go get my robes.”

 

Nico knows without a doubt that it worked.

 

Jason doesn’t say a word. If it’s out of shock or out of obedience, Nico doesn’t know. It’s better if he doesn’t.

 

“Yeah,” Jason whispers eventually. “Thank you, Nico.”

 

Anytime is not the right answer this time.

 

Io, Saturnalia, Jason.”

 

*

 

Journal Entry: I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry it's hard for me to say my feelings. I'm sorry I'm...me.

Notes:

Research for Saturnalia was taken with the same due care Rick Riordan took with Greek mythology. So, I read the wikipedia article. 8)

It's been a great run, guys! Thank you so much with sticking with me after this two year long commitment! Please let me know what your favorite parts have been in the comments! I can promise you the next chapter is gonna be great.

Chapter 20: ready now

Summary:

“You should make your birthday a holiday,” Percy proposes one day. “It falls on a Friday this year, Neeks. We could have a three-day weekend.”

Notes:

Welcome to THE LAST CHAPTER!! Some song recs that aren't already linked in the story:

ready now by dodie -- this was a song that was picked out halfway through Dearly Departed, so I always knew that'd be the title of this last chapter
Say You Won't Let Go by James Arthur -- very much a Jason song for this chapter and his overall feelings for Nico

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

Journal Entry: Rule #1: Respect Nico's decisions. Rule #2: Put myself first. Rule #3: Figure out what the right answer is.

 

*

 

 

The first night of Saturnalia goes without hitch. Jason had no doubts Nico could pull it off.

 

He stays far back in the crowd. Roman aspect or not, celebrating anything with Kronos’s name attached is hard for him. He watches from afar as Nico, adorned in formal Roman robes, conducts the ceremony to unbind wool from the ankles of the statue of Saturn.

 

An act of liberation, Nico explains to the crowd. Lights illuminate the path to the temple, like a trail of stars for the son of the King and Queen of the Heavens. They accentuate the warm hue of his tan skin and show the royal purple on his robes. Nico’s voice echoes through the crowd, but Jason can practically hear it in the shell of his ears.

 

The public banquet goes smoothly. Nico avoids Jason—but at this point, Jason’s grown used to it. He’s come to expect it. Plus—as Emcee Saturn, his duties are split. On the first night of Saturnalia, Nico looks happiest with his Legion. With the family he built for himself—laughing and drinking as they trade insults and get a rise out of each other. Somehow—by royal decree—the evening escalates to a drunken handstand and pushup competition that Frank humbly wins.

 

They celebrate Hazel’s birthday the day after the banquet. The Argo II crew reunites at the di Angelo residence—which is adorned in garland and candlelight. Bianca had apparently insisted on a Christmas tree—which is filled with horrifically wrapped presents.

 

“Never was my strong suit,” Jason overhears her sheepishly explain to her girlfriend.

 

Piper only laughs and gives her a kiss. “That’s what makes them perfect.”

 

Nico and Jason do end up interacting. It’s just…different. Hastened and shallow because of the holidays. Because of duties. There’s warmth to Nico’s greetings, with the dimness of a kitchen stove on its lowest setting. Jason doesn’t really know what to say—he’s just inclined to follow Nico’s lead. Their conversations are low. Lethargic. Everyone walks on eggshells around them—or ignores the situation entirely. No one knows of the kiss.

 

Because if either of them told anyone, then everyone would know.

 

If Nico smiles, then Jason smiles.

 

Even if it doesn’t seem to reach his eyes.

 

Time, Nico had said. He just needed time to get over Jason.

 

Time, Jason had thought. He just needed time to figure out what he needed to say to Nico.

 

On the third day—Sigillaria—Nico surprises him with a gift. It’s first thing in the morning—when Thalia is still passed out from a late night of partying. Romans were nothing if not festive. Nico’s dressed in silk pajamas, his hair sticking up in different directions when he shows up at Jason’s door.

 

“Oh,” Jason says, startled. Nico looks like he’s just rolled out of bed—having no time to change.

 

Then he remembers Thalia mentioning that Saturnalia was when people wore clothing different compared to normal day. There was apparently an outlandish unconventional materials fashion show a few years back—but the silk pajamas look much better and bring out the color of Nico’s irises. That azure blue certainly looks a lot better on Nico than it does on Jason.

 

“I didn’t expect to see you,” Jason confesses.

 

“Yeah, I’ve been busy,” Nico mumbles. He runs a hand through his hair tiredly—the shadows heavy beneath his eyes—but doesn’t look deterred. “I wanted to make sure you got this. Would’ve given it to you last night, but—”

 

“—then it turned into a boiled egg eating contest between Percy and my sister,” Jason recounts.

 

“Some of those eggs still had shells on them,” Nico mutters. He rolls his eyes, and Jason laughs.

 

They carry the conversation in a casual tempo. Whether it’s fatigue or something else, Nico doesn’t falter with reluctance. And—Jason doesn’t want to end up ruining it by saying the wrong thing.

 

Except sometimes the wrong thing is okay, he reminds himself. Everything isn’t always right the first time.

 

“I got you something too,” Jason says. He retrieves a small gift bag from his kitchen counter and gives it to Nico.

 

Nico looks surprised, to say the least. “Jason, you didn’t have to. You’re not even—”

 

“Nico, I wanted to.”

 

His directness causes Nico to stop in a dead halt. He’s certainly more awake. Jason’s cheeks flush with embarrassment.

 

“Um. Sorry—”

 

“No. Don’t apologize,” Nico says. Reluctantly, he adds, “Thank you.”

 

He opens the gift and pauses. Nico looks at the white dog in curiosity.

 

“Thalia said you normally give each other gag gifts. I…saw it on a shirt you wore once.” Some eight-bit white dog that made Nico look cuter. Jason shrugs, as Nico looks charmed by the thought. “Figured it’d be a safe gift.”

 

Nico’s smile only widens. “It’s a great gift. You’d like this game, Jason.”

 

“Really?” Jason’s heart flutters in his chest. “You’ll have to—”

 

“I have to go,” Nico says. He wrinkles his nose and pushes hair out of his face. “Percy’s family landed this morning for Sigillaria. I told him I’d interrogate the plane to make sure no one got hurt.”

 

He says it with such a straight face that Jason doesn’t know what to say. And—when it comes to Percy, it’s very likely the plane itself. “Okay—”

 

“Bye, Jason.” Nico waves his gift and falls back in his step casually. “Thanks for the gift.”

 

The conversation is as casual and light as every other conversation before Sigillaria. Like every conversation after their kiss on the steps of the Venus Felix.

 

Jason can’t forget the kiss. He doesn’t want to.

 

After Nico leaves, he traces the heat from Nico’s touch against his wrists. He can still feel the phantom of Nico’s mouth against his own—like a clementine. Nico was succulently sweet, with a subtle tartness that made it worth coming back for more.

 

And…Jason wants more, while Nico wants to move forward.

 

He ambles to the couch and opens his gift. At first—he expects a pottered or carved figurine of Pluto. Maybe the odd dorito-shaped one Nico had a few days ago. Instead, there’s a note.

 

To help when you run cold. – Nico.

 

Jason blinks. He parts the tissue paper—and feels his heart flutter as he sees what’s beneath it. A laugh flutters from his lips.

 

And finally—Jason comes to a decision.

 

*

*

 

Jason leaves for Camp Halfblood after the first of the year.

 

Thalia informs Nico that she signed off on it. It’s not uncommon for legionnaires to have weeks—or months, at a time—gone from school, they just need to turn in their assignments at some point. Nico doesn’t know why Jason even bothers—if his decision is to stay in Long Island, then there’s no point in staying enrolled at a school on the other side of the country.

 

But—he doesn’t give it much thought aside from Thalia’s initial explanation. If he did, then it’d mean absolutely nothing has changed between Jason and him. That nothing’s gotten better. So, instead, Nico focuses on his own work.

 

He ignores Professor Kronk accidentally calling Jason’s name on the first day of the new semester in Art II. Thalia doesn’t offer much comment on it. After all—she can shadowtravel. Annabeth looks a little more solemn, but Percy keeps her company.

 

People stop commenting on Nico’s feelings for Jason, and Jason’s feelings for him. Finally.

 

Things feel…back to the way things were before Jason entered their lives. Their activities continue, with Thalia and Reyna bouncing off each other and Percy avoids his centurion duties by focusing on Juilus Seastar, their goldfish. Nico has wedding services to perform—because people want to start their new year married. War Games continue without a hitch, despite Nico’s solemn mood. Bianca and he even get along.

 

Things feel normal, until:

 

“You should make your birthday a holiday,” Percy proposes one day. “It falls on a Friday this year, Neeks. We could have a three-day weekend.”

 

Nico snorts, not even bothering to look up from the paperwork on his desk. “Are you trying to get out of an exam?”

 

“Hey—you’ll appreciate those three-day weekends when you go off to college. Right, Beth?” Percy asks. He kicks a hacky sack around casually, while Annabeth studies beside him.

 

Normally, she’d look annoyed to be interrupted in her studies—but she nods. “You really do.”

 

“And give you a formal way to ditch?” Nico asks, arching an eyebrow.

 

“It’s not ditching if you sign off on it as a holiday,” Percy reasons.

 

“What kind of praetor would I be if I signed off on my birthday as a public holiday?” Nico asks, giving it idle thought.

 

Reyna hums from her own desk. “A successful one. Most praetors and roman emperors try their hardest to leave their mark on history, Nico.”

 

Yeah. To inflate their ego. Nico decides to entertain the thought a little further. It wouldn’t be the craziest thing asked of him since his time as Emcee Saturn. “And what—I should just sign off on that?”

 

“Why not?” Thalia interjects. “You and Reyna sign off on my screamo concerts all the time.”

 

“Actually—I’m senior praetor. You only need my signature,” Reyna says—and Percy whoops.

 

“We should spend it at Camp Halfblood,” Bianca suggests. “Hazel was happy to celebrate her birthday here. She’d be more than happy to return the favor there.”

 

Nico looks between everyone in the principia—who appear to be waiting for his approval. What started as an odd thought has now turned into a full weekend of festivities—and he ends up defaulting to Thalia and Reyna for final approval.

 

“We’ll all be together for your birthday this year,” Reyna reminds him. At that thought, Thalia smiles and presses a kiss to her cheek.

 

Nico sighs. He feigned annoyance long enough. All that’s left is to playfully roll his eyes and smile. “Fine.”

 

Everyone cheers.

 

*

 

Nico’s last birthday was a mess. It ended up getting lost in the shuffle of building the Argo II, the awkward love triangle between Reyna, Thalia, and Piper, and Nico’s angry prayers to have the mast of the Argo fall on Jason Grace the same way The Jason died.

 

He was offended to receive a birthday present from Jason and flattered at the same time. After all—why did this suspicious troublemaking Ambassador to Pluto know so much about a big sister that Nico had long mourned and made peace with? It wasn’t fair.

 

(Also—adding salt to the wound and bringing Nico’s ex-boyfriend on board to build that stupid ship was ridiculous.)

 

This year, things are already better. Reyna’s right—they’ll be together for his birthday this year. All of them. Thalia and Reyna are a couple. Percy’s found joy in Camp Halfblood—and excitement to stop by the Jackson Residence in Manhattan. Nico ends up inviting Leo—as a way to bury the hatchet. The fact his ex-boyfriend is excited to see everyone in Cabin Nine is encouraging.

 

Bianca is alive. Which—is something that Nico wouldn’t have believed last year.

 

They’re in the middle of packing Wednesday evening, so they can shadowtravel right after school tomorrow. Bianca (shockingly) knocks on his bedroom door.

 

“Care for an early birthday present?” Bianca asks. She’s uncharacteristically shy at his door frame.

 

Uncharacteristically shy, he thinks—but then Nico remembers that’s how he thought of her before her rebirth. “No. I guess not.”

 

Bianca whips out a colorful gift bag—which looks far better than the Saturnalia presents she’d wrapped. She floats to his bed—then immediately throws her arms around his shoulders. Nico makes a disgruntled noise.

 

“Bianca—”

 

“Sorry, sorry—it’s the first birthday I’ve gotten to spend with you since you turned ten.” She sniffles. Which is when Nico realizes she’s not being shy, she’s just trying to keep her composure. “I never thought I’d get the chance again.”

 

That makes Nico emotional too.

 

“Hazel and I picked out the colors together,” Bianca explains—and she rolls her eyes with exasperation. “That way you can’t complain about my fashion taste.”

 

“The night’s still young,” Nico remarks wryly—but the end of his comment is met with a smile—and carried onto Bianca’s own face. Knowing Hazel and Bianca picked it out together only makes his chest warmer. He opens his gift. “A hat and a scarf?”

 

“Yes,” Bianca says—and her tone turns just as dry. “For the California boy who seems to forget how cold it is in New York.”

 

Nico flushes red. “That sounds like a New York problem and less of a me problem.”

 

“Hey—if this means you won’t be turning into a cloud anytime soon then I’m fine with that.”

 

He holds back a groan. The worst thing to ever happen is Bianca and Percy teaming up to dote on him. “I can dress myself fine.”

 

“Your rain cycle said otherwise!” Bianca chides. “Keep your ears warm!”

 

“You keep your ears warm,” Nico grumbles loudly.

 

“Nico—”

 

He surprises her with a kiss on the cheek. “Thanks, Sis. I love them.”

 

Nico puts the trapper hat on. Sure enough, his ears are warm. It’s not his normal style of wear—he’s never been one for hats in the first place. It’s a muted grey that accentuates the blue of his irises. Nico drapes the scarf over his shoulders, which Bianca is quick to tie and readjust.

 

“Warm enough?” Bianca asks.

 

“Practically sweating,” Nico muses.

 

“Good!” Bianca sounds very pleased—and Nico decides to let her have that one. “Try not to give this scarf to Jason too, got it?”

 

Nico flushes red. There’s a snarky rebuttal at the edge of his tongue—but it coils into a lump instead. Nico stares at himself in the mirror—then looks to the Toby Fox figurine Jason had gotten him for Saturnalia. For how small of a sentiment it is, Nico would be lying if he said he wasn’t touched. He picks it up thoughtfully and runs his hand over the white plastic. Jason really would like this game.

 

And before he knows it, he’s down again.

 

“Sorry—” But Bianca is quick to apologize. They’ve all danced around Jason’s name since he left for Camp Halfblood. “I didn’t mean—”

 

“It’s fine.” Nico places the figurine back on his dresser. “It’ll be good to see him. Hopefully Halfblood is treating him well.”

 

Nico has icy words for Chiron and Dionysus if it hasn’t.

 

“Have you talked to him recently?”

 

Nico pauses. “No. But we’re fine.”

 

They kept things amicable. Nico holds no hate in his heart for Jason. And Jason—made it pretty clear that staying in Camp Halfblood was important to him. He was going to follow through with whatever he needed in Long Island. Nico respects that.

 

So he isn’t angry. Just…bummed. He couldn’t muster up the courage to IM Jason—because he doesn’t want that feeling to swell into deeper disappointment.

 

Bianca still stares at him oddly.

 

“Why?” Nico asks next, looking suspicious. “Have you?”

 

“Once a week,” Bianca says. “He hasn’t gotten much sleep lately—”

 

“He hasn’t?” Nico asks—and he frowns. “Why? What happened?”

 

Bianca stares at him, one eyebrow arched in the air—while red burns in Nico’s cheeks once more. “Well…”

 

Nico waits anxiously. She studies him carefully, and the anticipation only makes Nico more irritated. “Bianca—”

 

“You can ask him yourself,” Bianca decides. “I promised you I wouldn’t get involved, remember?”

 

Nico groans—but stops himself from getting upset.

 

These days, he should be better at controlling that need to take care of Jason. Should being the key word. He resists the urge to glare at his sister—and concedes. “Okay.”

 

*

 

Camp Halfblood is somehow even colder. Nico’s disgusted by it. He coils in his wool coat, new hat, and scarf—but the only thing that provides warmth is when Hazel hugs him. She practically lifts him off the ground, filled with love—and Nico feels as stiff as a stale marshmallow as he’s bundled up and still not at a comfortable temperature.

 

“Hey Sis,” Nico whispers, his voice already raw from the crisp cold. He wrinkles his nose.

 

Bianca squeals and throws her arms around them both. “A month is too long! We should be getting together like, every evening!”

 

Hazel’s gaze glitters with them. “That’s why I’m so glad you convinced Nico to make his birthday a holiday—that way we can—”

 

“SHHHH!” is the unison answer from Percy, Thalia, and Reyna.

 

“Hazel,” Percy says hastily, “he doesn’t know about the—”

 

Thalia elbows him in the stomach.

 

OW!”

 

Hazel jumps from their intrusion—and Nico rolls his eyes.

 

“Gee—a three-day weekend with my entire family,” he remarks with deadpan. “What a perfect time to have—absolutely nothing planned for…?”

 

He stares at Reyna and Thalia expectantly.

 

“Tomorrow evening at 7PM,” Reyna tells him, her expression sheepish.

 

“I’ll not plan accordingly,” Nico promises—and he hides a smile as both Reyna and Thalia grin at each other.

 

Hazel and Bianca both hook arms with him.

 

“Would a sleepover in Cabin One be okay?” Hazel asks. “I think the…not plans are going to be in Cabin Two tomorrow.”

 

If any other person asked, Nico wouldn’t entertain the thought of sleeping in Zeus’s Cabin—but he’s soft for Hazel. “Maybe we can finally get rid of that gods-awful statue in there. Frank won’t mind?”

 

Hazel stares at him curiously. “Why would Frank—oh, stop. He’s not even here to spook. He’s at the Big House.”

 

“Just warming up.” Nico smiles deviously—and is only met with an affectionate roll of the eyes.

 

It’s strange how quickly they all go their separate ways. Percy and Annabeth have retreated to the Poseidon Cabin. Reyna and Thalia are getting settled in the Hades Cabin. Nico didn’t think twice to go with Hazel and Bianca. Last year he dreaded the passing of his birthday because it brought them closer to the war.

 

It hasn’t even been a year since he got his memories back about Mammina. About his lineage.

 

There are three cots set up in Cabin One. Nico hears Bianca relinquish a wistful sigh—returning to an old home for the first time in months. Years, even.

 

She collects something from a dresser, and Nico feels his chest tighten. Her green hat. Bianca places it at the crown of her head and stares at a mirror.

 

“Your best fashion choice yet,” Nico says—and she smiles.

 

They spend the next few minutes installing a curtain to go across the room. Thank gods for flight. The cabin reminds Nico too much of Olympus: cold and pristine, with white columns, and a ceramic storm in perpetual thunder at the domed ceiling. It’s clearly a temple first and a home second. Anything related to being a home was likely store-bought from Hazel or Bianca themselves.

 

In the meantime, they catch up on new classes for the semester. How things are going with Frank. Then Piper.

 

“Drew doesn’t normally kidnap a second time,” Hazel promises. “But we’ll keep an eye on you.”

 

“Good.” Nico bites back his irritation. Aphrodite is still on his bad side. No matter how shiny those face masks made his skin look. Once they’re finally done unpacking, both Bianca and Hazel stare at him expectantly. “What?”

 

“Jace is working in the infirmary tonight,” Bianca says. “If you wanted to go see him.”

 

Nico flushes red. He looks over to Hazel—who looks unsurprised. “Why would I do that?”

 

Bianca arches an eyebrow. “Because you were asking about him yesterday?”

 

“Because you normally go to him?” Hazel asks—and Nico flushes harder.

 

“No. I’m here for family this weekend,” Nico says. He hooks arms with them once more. “If anything, we should go to the mall for an outfit. Just in case something is happening.”

 

Hazel and Bianca look doubtful—but the mention of mall is enough to change their course. Nico has plenty of chances to see Jason this weekend. Seeing him by dinner is inevitable. Seeing him tomorrow is inevitable.

 

Eventually, they make it back outside. Nico sighs in exasperation when he has to bundle back up—gloves, scarf, hat, coat, and all—just to make it to Cabin Three to see if Percy would also like to go to the mall.

 

Except—the moment he steps outside, something else catches his eye. Pale blond hair as it exits the infirmary.

 

“Neeks?” He hears.

 

Nico watches as the figure from across camp pauses—and offers a short wave.

 

And—his heart flutters immediately.

 

“Nico?”

 

Nico starts towards the infirmary before the words leave his mouth. “I’ll be back.”

 

It’s been almost a month since they’ve seen each other. Jason looks—the same, but it doesn’t keep Nico from looking. His hair is shorter than how he had it in New Rome—closer to like when they first met. Nico hates that Venus thought it wise to give the son of Hades a crew cut, like the rest of his legionnaires—because the longer length made Jason look more his age. It accentuated his dimples more—and gave Jason a boyish look compared to Himbo Apollo.

 

Jason waits for him in the cold. Nico wished the reunion didn’t make his heart leap out of his chest and feel like he was floating on air—but here they were. With Jason’s smile finding room to grow like it always did. “Hey, Nico. You look nice.”

 

“Hi,” Nico says. He expects an awkward lull after nearly a month of not seeing each other—but instinctively examines Jason instead. “Why aren’t you wearing a jacket?”

 

“Um. Because I was just inside?”

 

Nico feels his cheeks glow despite himself. The question is dumb—but it makes him more determined to prove his point. After all, all Jason wore right now was his jeans, his signature white t-shirt and—“Oh.”

 

His eyes fall to Jason’s hands immediately, which are covered with Nico’s Saturnalia gift—a pair of fuzzy mittens in the colors of the bi pride flag.

 

Jason follows his gaze almost immediately—and the way his lips lift just makes Nico feel lighter. “I didn’t get to thank you for the gloves. They’ve been helpful.”

 

“I. Well.” Nico didn’t think Jason would actually wear them. Even if he had mindfully picked them out, knowing how self-conscious Jason was about his own body temperature. Even if Nico was motivated by how little color Jason wore. Instead—pink brushes Nico’s cheeks, and he stubbornly stuffs his hands in his pockets. “Good. I’m. Glad.”

 

They fall into a lull. Nico’s not sure about the tempo of their conversation. He feels awkward. And light. And misses Jason—but that’s another train of thought entirely. Nico watches as Jason’s eyes dart elsewhere for a moment, rubbing his neck with a fuzzy glove.

 

“I thought you didn’t like working in the infirmary,” Nico says finally—and Jason blinks.

 

“Oh. Well—I picked up a few extra shifts so Connor and Will can hang out.”

 

Nico bites back a snarky remark. He crosses his arms over his chest, and the anger he felt the last time he was at Camp Halfblood’s infirmary comes back full force. He never did resolve that before he left. “They’re not taking advantage of you again, are they? I heard you weren’t sleeping well.”

 

Jason blinks once more, clearly not expecting the inquiry. “Well—for their date, yes.”

 

Nico can’t help simmering. Jason looks endeared by that.

 

“Nico, I’m okay,” he says.

 

“You’re not working tomorrow night, are you?”

 

Jason blinks—and stares at Nico in confusion. “No. Why?”

 

That shouldn’t bother Nico as much as it does. He bites the inside of his mouth and rocks on the balls of his feet. “I think they’re throwing a surprise party for me tomorrow night. 7PM.”

 

“You think?”

 

“They…always throw a surprise party for me.” With last year being an exception. The war and all—but Nico decides not to bring that up.

 

The corner of Jason’s lips curl into a smile—maybe more eager than Nico expects. Then again, Nico could be reading into it.

 

“Right,” Jason says. “Your birthday.”

 

“Yeah.” January 28th, Nico can hear in Jason’s voice from last year. So light and careful. Jason sounds pleasantly surprised—but that’s where Nico’s unintended disappointment lies. The fact that Jason sounds surprised.

 

Stop that, he tells himself.

 

“I wouldn’t miss it for the world, Nico.” Jason leans into the doorframe, looking more comfortable with the thought.

 

“Good,” Nico says—and he matches Jason’s change of stature. “I. Expect a good time when I’m with you, Ambassador Grace.”

 

Jason arches an eyebrow, the amusement teeming in his voice. “We’re back to Ambassador now, Praetor di Angelo?”

 

Nico snorts, his hands fiddling with the seams of his pockets. “Show me a good time and maybe we can get more familiar with each other, Ambassador.”

 

Jason laughs softly—and the sound puts Nico at ease. Maybe because he hardly heard it until after the war. Or because Jason always seemed to do it more around him.

 

“Okay,” Jason decides on.

 

“Okay,” Nico says—and his own smile is encouraged by Jason’s.

 

Falling into this cadence is easy. Which means slipping out of it—staying platonic—is hard.

 

Once again, they fall into an awkward silence—because they’re very aware of that space. That limbo, where Nico can’t help his verbal dance to make Jason laugh—because it makes him feel good, too.

 

“So actually,” Jason starts, “about your birthday—”

 

“Hey—Jace. You coming back in or what?” Will Solace pops his head out, looking obnoxiously vibrant and annoying as Venus’s curse from a few weeks ago. Worse, with how he touches Jason’s shoulder familiarly. He catches Nico’s eye—and then arches an eyebrow with this air of…something that rubs Nico the wrong way. “Hi, di Angelo.”

 

“Will.” Nico doesn’t bother to wave.

 

“Oh,” Jason says, and he turns to meet the son of Apollo. “Yeah, sure. Nico—”

 

He turns his head back, and he pauses. Nico doesn’t understand why—then he realizes he himself is frowning.

 

Jason reaches out, unprecedented, and touches Nico on the shoulder. “—I’ll see you tonight?”

 

Nico blinks. “Sure—but the party’s tomorrow.”

 

“Party?” Will muses—and he’s sure to lean into Jason’s shoulder, if only to annoy Nico more.

 

“You’re not invited,” Nico says pointblank—and he catches Jason laughing into his fist.

 

He hates that Will just looks more entertained.

 

“I hope not,” Will says—which feels more coded than Nico cares to decipher.

 

“I’ll catch you later, Nico,” Jason says—distilling tension before it can crop up between them. He pulls his hand away from Nico’s shoulder and delicately readjusts the fuzzy gloves against his hands. He’s careful with them, for how silly they look.

 

“Later,” Nico hears himself say. “Get some sleep while you’re at it, Jason.”

 

Jason pauses before he heads back through the door. When he smiles, the dimples shine against his cheeks, and the gray lines beneath his eyes seem unimportant. He gives a playful, friendly salute. “Aye, Praetor di Angelo.”

 

Nico flushes red before he turns back towards Cabin Three.

 

Friendly, he reminds himself. Jason is friendly.

 

*

 

They end up at the Manhattan Mall about an hour and a half away. Normally—the distance is enough to deter Nico from wanting to travel in the first place—but they commandeer Camp Halfblood’s large minivan and shadowtravel there in one unit. Thalia predicts she’ll have to sleep in the back on the way home.

 

Everyone inevitably pairs off. Thalia and Reyna. Hazel and Frank. Bianca and Piper. Percy and Annabeth. Nico and—well—before Nico is stuck with Leo, the son of Vulcan declares he’ll alternate being a third wheel for Hazel and Frank and Bianca and Piper. He gives Nico this wink, like—let’s avoid that disaster.

 

Annabeth isn’t the biggest shopper, Nico learns—but she does make them go into a store to pick something up for Jason.

 

“He wanted to pick it up before tonight,” she explains—and Nico’s confused by a lot of things.

 

“No,” he mutters to himself.

 

“What, dude?” Percy asks, one eyebrow arched in the air.

 

Nico shakes his head. He hesitates. “Nothing. Jason acted surprised about my birthday being tomorrow, so I. Just wouldn’t expect that to be a present.”

 

Annabeth gives him the same look Bianca gave the other day—but she’s far less expressive of her thoughts than his sister. “Well—he insisted on it. And asked me specifically, so Bianca couldn’t get carried away shopping.”

 

Nico actually laughs at that.

 

“He didn’t seem too bothered if you’d be there,” Annabeth continues—which makes Nico brush off the idea of a birthday present. Surely—Jason would be more secretive about that kind of thing.  

 

On the ride home, Nico finds himself in the front seat with Percy while the rest of their party is passed out in the back. What was once a spacious vehicle is now overhauled by countless bags—most of them Bianca’s. Nico bought an outfit for himself—but specifically for tomorrow’s event.

 

At one point, he’d found himself fixated on a cashmere sweater at one of the stores. It wasn’t his taste—but he’d thought how nice it would look on pale skin. And wondered if it’d feel as satisfying to see Jason wear it like with the Saturnalia gloves. But—that thought was quickly buried. He shoves it out of his mind again before he can linger.

 

“Bro,” Percy says out of the blue, “what’s up?”

 

The question is idle. Far less incriminating than Nico’s grown used to in the last few months. Still—Nico eyes the son of Neptune suspiciously, while Percy keeps his eyes on the road. In the rearview mirror, Nico can see Thalia passed out against Reyna’s shoulder.

 

“Why didn’t anyone invite Jason to my birthday?” Nico asks before he can help himself.

 

Percy arches an eyebrow, taken aback. He taps his hand against the steering wheel in a casual beat—to some All-American Rejects song, and shrugs. “Must’ve slipped some people’s minds.”

 

“Then get them back on track,” Nico refutes. “Jason’s my friend. There’s no reason why he shouldn’t be there.”

 

“Well—is he free tomorrow?”

 

“Yeah. I told him about the party.”

 

“Then it sounds like you invited him yourself.”

 

Nico pauses at the conclusion—but Percy looks certain of his answer. Suddenly, red dusts Nico’s cheeks and he crosses his arms over his chest.

 

“I just,” Nico starts, “expected people to be more considerate of his feelings.”

 

“Well,” Percy says, keeping his tone candid, “it sounds like you were.”

 

Nico makes a sound. Frustration. Percy shrugs.

 

“You two have been weird the last few months,” Percy says, his voice taking a different tone. Weird is obvious, but the son of Neptune keeps it obscure. “No one’s going to force anything between the two of you. If you want him there, then he’ll be there.”

 

Nico flushes. They’ve avoided this conversation since he spitefully asked Connor on a date. Percy doesn’t sound—defeated, per se. Just stating facts after months of the other weird dance Jason and he’ve had.

 

“He’s been picking up double shifts at the infirmary,” Nico mutters. “Maybe he’s not interested.”

 

He’s more doubtful than he intends, and Percy makes a noise.

 

“Neeks, c’mon.” Percy eyes him, looking disbelieving. “It’s Grace. It’s not like he can say no to you.”

 

Funny. Nico begrudgingly remembers a conversation with Leo about how mad he was that Jason could say no to him. He crosses his arms over his chest instinctively—if only to shield his heart, but. Nico’s not sure from what.

 

There’s another pause—where nothing but the light snoring behind them fills their ears.

 

Percy sighs—and then places a hand on Nico’s shoulder. “Bro, look. You and Grace—or just you—all any of us want is for you both to be happy. Couple or not.”

 

Nico’s chest flutters. Percy eyes him from across the car console, and there’s nothing but love there. The words are sincere.

 

“Did you really have to tell him to take me to Olive Garden?” Nico asks finally. There’s a snicker. Nico’s not sure from where—but everyone’s been in his private business for months now.

 

Percy looks confused at first—but then he tosses his head back into a laugh. “What can I say—they have pretty good breadsticks.”

 

“No,” Nico insists, “they really don’t.”

 

It only makes Percy laugh louder—and Nico finds ease there, too.

 

“Grace was cool with it,” Percy says. Then—reluctantly, he adds, “Grace is pretty cool.”

 

Nico doesn’t know what to expect. He mulls over the words once more, trying to find the trick behind them—but can’t. So, he agrees.

 

“Yeah,” Nico says. “Jason’s pretty cool.”

 

They get back late. Far be it from Nico to abide by Camp Halfblood’s schedule of camp activities, so he doesn’t care—but he’s disappointed to find the infirmary lights still on a quarter past 11PM. They’d gotten dinner at the food court—figuring it’d be their only time to eat a real meal while stuck at Halfblood. Nico considered buying a doggy bag for Jason while they were out—but that was probably weird after how they’d left things.

 

If…he could even define how they left things.

 

Everyone pairs off. Again.

 

Before Reyna and Thalia retire for the night, they both give him kisses on the cheek.

 

“Happy early birthday, kid,” Thalia says. She tilts his hat and ruffles his hair. “We’re going to spoil you rotten.”

 

“Please,” Nico mutters—and he fixes his hat, already annoyed at even the slightest hint of cold. “You already do.”

 

The answer’s enough to please her. They walk towards Cabin Thirteen, looking at only each other, and Nico watches everyone else do the same.

 

Hazel and Frank are…going wherever feels like their haven. Percy walks Annabeth to the Athena Cabin. (Nico mouths kiss her very obnoxiously and he’s met with a middle finger.) Bianca hops along to the Aphrodite Cabin with Piper—likely to say hi to Drew Tanaka as well. Leo—

 

“Well, good night, Neeks.”

 

—leaves him alone. Leo salutes him halfheartedly and finds a path into the forest.

 

So, Nico’s alone. He catches Will Solace and Connor Stoll cuddling around the campfire and glares icicles—but quickly waves back when Connor spots him. They hold hands tightly, burrowing against the warmth of the campfire and glow in each other’s presence.

 

I want that.

 

Nico buries the thought. Instead—he gets ready for bed. He draws the curtain in Cabin One, so he doesn’t have to stare at the obnoxiously ugly Hippie Zeus statue and loads a game on his Nintendo Switch. Nico bundles under six layers of blankets—and still grumbles as it doesn’t feel like enough.

 

A knock on the door catches his attention.

 

“It’s unlocked,” Nico calls from the other side. He doesn’t dare budge from his blanket cocoon.

 

But—as the door opens, something feels amiss. The footsteps aren’t light, like Nico’s used to with his sisters. They’re more….clacky?

 

Nico puts his Switch down.

 

The steps continue in an odd rhythm. Then—“Um—is there a N-Nico di Angelo in he—?”

 

Stop right there,” Nico commands. “Go stand in a corner.

 

There’s a yelp—and a bleat?—but then the footsteps trot to the nearest corner on the furthest end of the cabin.

 

Nico curses the cool temperature of his father’s cabin. He collects his coat and fuzzy slippers—then draws the curtain open.

 

On the other side of the obscenely white space is a faun—a satyr—hunched over a bust of Zeus, quivering. He wears a fluffy sweater—almost looking like a sheep instead and is pantsless from the waist down. Nico would be threatened—except the gawky satyr is hunched over and whimpering, looking like a lowercased r.

 

“That’s bad for your posture,” Nico remarks—and almost instantly, the satyr stands as straight as a ruler and yelps.  

 

The satyr’s shoulders are almost as high as his horns. “S-Sorry for i-intruding.”

 

Nico dispels the momspeak. He arches an eyebrow—and decides not to go for the gladius he has tucked beneath his coat.

 

“Sorry,” Nico says. The sincerity behind his words is up for debate. “My mother told me to be wary of strangers.”

 

The satyr twists his back, mumbling something about a chiropractor. Then he looks at Nico curiously. Up close. “So you’re Nico. I’ve heard a lot about you.”

 

He stares at Nico with a familiarity that Nico can’t help finding irritating. Nico’s lips twitch into a frown. “Should I be flattered?”  

 

“Sorry—um—sorry,” the satyr stammers, and he looks Nico up and down. “You might want to change.”

 

“Excuse me?” Nico taps his fuzzy-slippered foot into the ceramic ground.

 

Funnily, the satyr looks terrified. He gulps. “I just—well. My brother’s going to worry if you’re not dressed comfortably for your date—and he hasn’t been sleeping much these days, so—”

 

“A date?” Nico echoes, no less annoyed. “With your brother? Who, Coach Hedge?”

 

The satyr has the audacity to look amused by that. “Jason.”

 

“Jason.” Nico startles immediately. “Jason Grace?”

 

The satyr nods—and Nico makes a sound. Suddenly he’s mortified.

 

You’re Grover?”

 

“Oh—he talks about me?” Grover’s eyes light up—and there’s a way his head perks that screams Jason Grace. The way he holds himself, arms tucked beneath his armpits, and even the coy smile against his lips.

 

Nico stares, dumbstruck. He just momspoke Jason’s satyr brother. “Did you say a date?”

 

Grover Underwood, much like his brother, looks uncertain—but seems to roll with it. He gestures to Nico’s slippers. “I suggest something warm.”

 

Fifteen minutes later, Nico’s dressed again. He wears his new sweater from the mall, along with his wool coat, new scarf, and trapper hat. Nico is wary of any advice Grover Underwood is willing to give him—but then Grover guides him into the woods.

 

He tries not to get annoyed at the amount of snow at his feet. He vaguely recognizes the path. “You’re not going to kill me now, are you?”

 

Grover bleats nervously—like Nico’d said, I’m going to kill you instead.

 

But—then Jason comes into view, and Nico can’t carry on a second thought.

 

“Oh good. There you are.” Jason stands beneath the oak tree from their last meeting.

 

Nico’s used to Jason’s white shirt and leather jacket, like a monochrome greaser vampire. Usually, the only splash of color Jason wears is his fourteen camp beads—the constant reminder that he’s lived at camp longer than some of the campers have been alive.

 

The beads are gone.

 

A blue sweater molds around Jason, followed by a pair of dark jeans and rich chocolate brown boots. Nico’s fixated on the hue of that sweater—how it’s not quite navy, but not quite periwinkle either. The shade is something that he can’t quite place—but he knows it makes Jason look lighter.

 

Wow.

 

“Wow,” Nico says aloud before he can help himself.

 

Nico’s staring again before he knows it—at the easiness of Jason’s shoulders and the lax way the smile seems to lift on pale lips. Normally he’d worry about the fact that Jason isn’t wearing a jacket—but every time he stares at Jason, all he thinks is the color blue.

 

“Wow, brother—you look amazing.” Grover addresses Jason with the same familiarity from earlier—and Jason has the audacity to look self-conscious.

 

“You think so?” Jason asks. “Beth helped me pick it out. It’s not what I’m used to—”

 

“It looks perfect,” Nico blurts out—and suddenly the red glows in his cheeks instead. He hears another sound from Grover—maybe a bleat, maybe a laugh—but Nico doesn’t care. He’s fixated at how handsome he knew Jason could always look.

 

“Did the two of you get acquainted?” Jason looks between Grover and Nico, and Nico turns a darker shade of red.

 

“Oh, we got acquainted,” Grover mutters, still rubbing his back. He squeaks as Nico’s gaze turns to him. “Have fun, brother. I’ll make sure no one notices you’re missing.”

 

Grover trots off before Nico can question it—so he turns to Jason instead. “You’re breaking curfew?”

 

Jason tilts his head curiously. “Well—we’re breaking curfew. If you’re not too tired.”

 

Nico’s even more confused.

 

“Sorry to drag you all the way out here,” Jason continues—and he looks sheepish. Is sheepish. “I didn’t think it was anyone else’s business what we did tonight.”

 

Nico almost doesn’t hear Jason. His head is heavy with Jason’s handsome silhouette—dressed in that pretty blue and hair neatly parted, almost like their first meeting. He resists the urge to pinch himself to make sure he didn’t fall asleep playing Undertale.

 

“And,” Nico says, when he finds his voice, “what. Is that exactly?”

 

A smile graces Jason’s lips—so irresistibly charming that Nico doesn’t know what to do with it, and still so careful.

 

“It’s a quarter past midnight,” Jason says. “I wanted to be the first person to wish you happy birthday.”

 

Nico’s face reddens.

 

“And,” Jason says even more boldly, “I wanted to give you your birthday present.”  

 

He holds his hand out and Nico continues to grow flustered. Jason’s fuzzy gloves meet his gaze—looking almost out of place next to Jason’s outfit, and yet so perfect, just like the rest of the son of Hades.

 

“I.” Nico hesitates. “No—Jason, it’s late. And you haven’t gotten much sleep, after your double shifts—”

 

“Nico,” Jason interjects immediately—and he smiles fully, not the slightest bit deterred. “I want to. Please.”

 

Nico’s heart skips a beat. He hesitates—and slowly, curls a hand against Jason’s own. “Where are we going?”

 

Jason lights up immediately.

 

“It’s midnight here,” he says. “But your birthday’s just getting started in Odesa.”

 

*

 

The ocean’s as blue as Nico remembers. The air is fresh as they sprout into the morning light beneath the pale shadow of a statue with a plaque that reads Duc de Richelieu, right before the Potemkin Steps. It’s amazing no one pays no heed to them—but Nico is biasedly fixated on how nice Jason looks.

 

For Nico’s birthday.

 

Nico tries to squash that thought—but the brisk wind suddenly picks up. He clicks his tongue and instinctively huddles close for warmth—but as he squeezes Jason’s hand out of habit, he startles when Jason squeezes back.

 

“Careful,” Jason murmurs, “I’ve got you.”

 

He stands parallel to Nico, no lowercase r to be seen in his posture. Instead, the rich colors of the rococo cityscape only accentuate the ink of his dark eyes. Jason is solid across from Nico. And—muscular. Very muscular.

 

Nico finds his other hand on the inside of Jason’s elbow and quickly pulls it away.

 

Jason thinks nothing of it. “There’s a place open for breakfast. I figured we could start there and enjoy the sites.”

 

Nico doesn’t have time to think. He toddles after Jason as their hands remain intertwined, and he’s perpetually stunned.

 

Odesa is beautiful. Many of the buildings are interestingly constructed, if not vibrant in color. The last time they were here, they were trying to get the Athena Parthenos to Long Island. Jason and he were getting to know each other after a fateful (appalling) encounter with Eros.  To come back with Jason not blinking an eye is—well, eye-blinking.

 

“Jason,” Nico says. He’s not sure why. The air is so peaceful, with hardly another soul out so early in the morning sun. He wants to cherish Jason’s company, but the doubtful voice in the back of his head makes it hard. “Aren’t you tired?”

 

They stop on a dark gray pathway. It accentuates the gold of the building beside them. Jason looks back towards Nico, puzzled—and gives Nico’s hand another gentle squeeze.

 

“No,” Jason admits easily. Too easily. “I’ve been looking forward to this all day.”

 

Nico stares at the son of Hades, even more at a loss. “I…thought you forgot my birthday.”

 

Jason gives him a funny look, one eyebrow arched in the air.

 

“Nico,” he says, “I gave you a photo of Bianca for your birthday last year.”

 

Red glows in Nico’s cheeks. He’ll never admit to his sister that he keeps it in his dresser. “I know, I just.”

 

He hesitates.

 

“Things between us haven’t exactly been the best,” Nico says finally. He inadvertently gives Jason’s hand a squeeze—the gesture noticeable by them both. Nico knows it’s because he’s missed this touch between them. “I didn’t want to assume—I mean—you were so surprised about the birthday party tomorrow.”

 

“Oh,” Jason says. He at least sounds conscientious of that. “I hadn’t figured out what time we were coming to Odesa yet. I didn’t want to kidnap you by accident.”

 

“What do you call this?” Nico retorts before he can help himself.

 

It’s his own mistake. For how tired Jason looks, his lips curl into a bright enough smile. “I’d say this is the good time you requested earlier, Praetor di Angelo.”

 

Oh.

 

Jason reaches out for Nico’s other hand—intentionally, and he brushes a thumb against either of Nico’s palms. His expression is gentle. Remorseful. No—that wasn’t the right word.

 

“I,” Jason says softly, “haven’t been the best at making my intentions clear. Will you give me another chance?”

 

A lump swells in Nico’s throat. His hands start to shake—but he can’t fathom why. He doesn’t know what to say.

 

And his mind runs a million kilometers a minute.

 

“And,” Nico says—hearing his own voice sound so unsteady, “if I say no?”

 

Jason’s motions seem to follow whatever rhythm is there—and before Nico knows it, Jason is rubbing soft, soothing circles into his hands.

 

“Then this can just be two friends going to Odesa,” Jason tells him—recounting words much more easily than Nico uttered himself months ago. But there’s something in his eyes that Nico didn’t have when he asked the first time—something Nico’s not used to seeing in Jason’s eyes.

 

Sureness. Hope.

 

Nico pulls his hands away from Jason’s own. He’s terrified of a lot of things. Heartbreak. Misery. Loneliness. But.

 

He slowly uncoils the scarf from his own neck.

 

“Then at least humor me,” he mutters, “and try to keep warm in this weather.”

 

He bundles the scarf securely around Jason’s collarbone—and the other demigod blinks, clearly not expecting it. Nico is smug to catch Jason off guard.

 

But the smugness only lasts a second. Jason’s expression teams with excitement and relief—and he holds his hand out again. Nico’s chest flutters as he laces fingers with the son of Hades once again.

 

“Hopefully you’ll like my birthday present then.”

 

Nico makes a sound. “This isn’t it?”

 

He gestures to their intertwined hands unintentionally—then realizes what he’s doing. Red burns in his cheeks once again.  

 

Jason only chuckles—soft and tentative, and yet somehow so confident. “Not even close.”

 

*

 

The breakfast is fantastic. Nico almost forgets that he ate only a few hours prior. The waiter brings them English menus after Jason greets him. Nico orders pancakes, which are plated as high as a tower, blanketed in Nutella and decorated with a fan of apple slices. He’s salivating before it ever makes it to the table. Nico almost forgets it’s Jason’s late dinner until he sees a hearty cheeseburger and french-fries.

 

Nico stares at the other demigod as Jason dabs a french-fry in ketchup. “How is it?”

 

Jason looks up from his plate. As the morning light gleams through the window, it produces a subtle glow against his otherwise sharp jawline. The colors of the restaurant seem to follow the rest of the city’s scheme—in beautiful golds and rich teals—but Jason is a portrait of calm pastels. The scarf at his neck is delicate—and it’s not a word that’s often associated with the son of Hades.

 

The smile on his face is something Nico doesn’t even know how to describe. Jason touches the corner of his own mouth. “You have some nutella here.”

 

Nico flushes red. At first, he goes to wipe his face against his sleeve—but then reaches for the linen on his lap.

 

“Good,” Jason says—though if it’s about his entrée or Nico’s dirty face, Nico isn’t sure.

 

“Can I ask you something?”

 

“Always.”

 

Nico’s face tingles once again. Jason’s tone is confident and forward. Nico, on the other hand, is tentative with the fork and his knife in his hands. “Why’ve you been picking up so many shifts at the infirmary? You said that medicinal work wasn’t your cup of tea.”

 

Again, Jason looks confused. Then, “How many do you think I’ve taken?”

 

It sounds like a trick question. Nico’s not sure if he should feel dumb for asking. But—he doubles down on his question. “Plenty.”

 

Jason’s demeanor twists, and he looks more amused. More flattered than Nico can even fathom.

 

“I’m making up some shifts,” Jason explains. “It’s mostly jetlag. Or—shadowlag, I guess. I was on the road a lot last week, so Will asked if I could make them up this week. He and Connor are really hitting it off—”

 

“Wait, wait, wait—” Nico waves a hand in front of the other demigod. He stares at Jason, even more confused. “Bianca said you haven’t been getting much sleep.”

 

Jason’s eyebrows knit together, looking even more bemused. “I…do recall telling her that.”

 

“Because of the double shifts,” Nico continues, wary.

 

This time, Jason shakes his head. “I…told you that. I think.”

 

Nico stares at Jason suspiciously. The I think makes him wonder if they should be headed back so Jason can rest. “If you have to think about it, then they’re definitely working you too hard.”

 

Jason chuckles softly—sounding adorably endeared, but it only makes Nico antsier. “Nico, I’m fine. I promise.”

 

“Shouldn’t I be the judge of that?”

 

“Well,” Jason starts. Stops. He seems to study Nico carefully, before his eyebrows knit together, perplexed. “You…normally don’t let me finish talking.”

 

Nico stares at the other demigod, mouth falling open. He feels the heat as it gathers at his ears—then at his cheeks. He closes his mouth. Opens it again.

 

“Nico, it’s not like I mind—”

 

“You should,” Nico interjects—then he clamps a hand over his mouth again.

 

Jason chuckles again—this time so loud that it tingles against Nico’s ears.

 

Nico looks back at the other demigod, hand still at his lips. He makes an odd gesture with his shoulders and deflates in defeat. “Go on.”

 

The dimples shine against Jason’s cheeks. His eyes glitter with the sunlight. He takes the fuzzy gloves off and sets them carefully on his lap. “I spent the last few weeks traveling to see the best places to take you. The best restaurants, like this one. The best sightseeing, and then some.”

 

“And then some,” Nico repeats.

 

“Yeah. Thalia said she was okay with it. I’ve been keeping up with my schoolwork, and I’ll be back after this weekend—”

 

Nico makes another incoherent sound. He stares back at Jason, stunned—and watches as Jason’s gaze narrows at his mouth, unsurprised by the interruption.

 

“You’re,” Nico says, “coming back to New Rome?”

 

Jason blinks—once again looking confused. He rubs his forehead habitually. “Yeah. Frank...um. He offered last summer to help counsel me through some things and I took him up on it. Then we made sure everyone else made the full transition to him so I’m not needed as much. I told Thalia to let everyone know.”

 

Nico stares at Jason in disbelief.

 

“Did…she not tell you?”

 

Thalia’s explanation comes back to mind. Maybe it was longer than Nico remembered—but he blocked out everything after Jason left for Camp Halfblood. If he allowed himself to hear the explanation, then it’d only hurt him more. The voice at the back of his head told him not to seek out that heartbreak.

 

It's the same voice that keeps wondering if they should end this outing.

 

“She must’ve told me,” Nico mutters eventually, and he fiddles with the linen napkin in his lap. “I just. I didn’t listen.”

 

He’s not even sure what to think. Nico’s embarrassed. Self-conscious, and confused.

 

But Jason leans forward, conscientious of keeping himself in Nico’s line of sight. A smile graces his lips. “Well, listen now.”

 

Nico’s skin buzzes as Jason’s finger curls against his own beneath the table.

 

“Absolutely nothing,” Jason declares, “could keep me away from you, Nico.”  

 

The back of Nico’s throat grows dry. He doesn’t know what to say, with Jason’s full attention on him—with that affectionate smile and warmth. The tips of Jason’s fingers are as frosty as snowflakes, but Nico’s suddenly never liked the cold more.

 

There’s a second too long of a pause between them. Jason looks more doubtful. Concerned.

 

“Unless,” Jason says, “you, um—would rather I—”

 

“You—” Nico interjects—and stops, as he realizes he’s cut Jason off yet again. They both do.

 

They lock eyes—and the very corner of Jason’s lips twitch. It’s then that Nico realizes Jason’s nervous, too.

 

Nico clears his throat—pushing both nerves and the giant glob of Nutella from the back of his mouth. He sits straighter in his seat—but he doesn’t let go of the finger hooked beneath his own. “You said there was more?”

 

Again, Jason lights up. For as dark as his eyes are, they’re suddenly filled with stars. “Yeah.”

 

They walk along the city garden next. The pathways are filled with rose-colored benches at every corner, which gain people as the day goes on. The trees are tall and wiry, dusted with snow like the powdered sugar that decorated their beignets.

 

At one point, Nico slips over ice and Jason catches him by the waist.

 

“Careful,” Jason warns again—and Nico grows self-conscious.

 

As they keep walking, neither comment that Jason hasn’t let go.

 

Eventually, they find a vendor selling hot chocolate. Jason pays before Nico has the chance to reach for his own wallet. They find a bench next to a gazebo, where a band plays music.

 

A small crowd of children giggle happily to the strumming guitars. Nico catches the eye of a little boy—no more than five or six, who stares at them curiously. He waves—then blows the steam from his cocoa. Nico paints shapes into the air. A few stars, some squares. A stick figure.

 

The boy gasps and runs to get his mom.

 

“I didn’t know you could do that,” Jason remarks.

 

 Nico jumps at the sound of the other demigod’s voice. He glances at the son of Hades, and realizes Jason’s been watching him the entire time.

 

“Steam’s nothing but hot air,” Nico says. He shrugs halfheartedly—though his ears grow warm again beneath his hat. “I’m full of that.”

 

Jason tilts his head curiously—and actually scoffs. Laughs all adorably like lone snowflakes dancing in the air. “Hardly.”

 

Nico flushes again. He takes a long swig of his hot chocolate—then huffs into the air until he can see his breath. Again, Nico paints pictures with his finger. Another stick figure. Triangles. A bird (though, really, more like a fat circle with stick legs.) He spells a name. J-A-C-E.

 

And once more, Jason makes an observation Nico doesn’t expect. “I don’t think you’ve ever called me that.”

 

He clings onto that fact with awe, and Nico’s chest swells for some reason.

 

“I’ve heard it enough,” Nico remarks. He takes a sip of his hot chocolate. “Your friends call you that.”

 

“Yeah, but I don’t want to just be friends with you.”

 

Nico chokes on his drink—and his head snaps back to Jason. His throat burns as hotly as his face as he stares at Jason, dumbfounded.

 

Jason stares back at him, just as mortified. He’d jumped the moment Nico made a noise—and now his face is just as red—if not redder. “Oh—I. Um. I—”

 

He stares at Nico.

 

Nico stares at Jason, mouth ajar. (Hot chocolate probably dribbling from the corner of his mouth.)

 

“I’m. Not sure I said that right,” Jason mumbles, and he retreats into himself, embarrassed. He takes a long sip of his hot chocolate and averts his gaze. “What I meant was—”

 

He stops again, looking…worried. That nervous look appears again at his eyes, and it distills some of the shock Nico feels. Jason’s mindful of the last time a phrase like…that was said. Mistakenly.

 

“Um,” Jason mutters. Nico has no idea what he’s thinking—but the look on Jason’s face is telling. “Sorry. I—”

 

“Don’t apologize,” Nico cuts him off. The words are out of Nico’s mouth before he can help himself—and then he realizes he’s interrupted. Again. Nico mutters a curse under his breath and rubs his temples. “Sorry.”

 

“Don’t apologize.”

 

Nico peers back up—and Jason is smiling again. Conscientiously—but it’s there. 

 

Between them both, there’s more than one sigh of relief.

 

Eventually, they keep walking. Nico forgets he’s cold while Jason’s by his side. They walk the sidewalks as people of Odesa wake up for the morning. There’s a hiccup, when they stop at the same steps as last time. Jason’s eyes are on the high arches of a building with white panels and vibrant bricks.

 

Nico certainly can’t read the sign out front, but he hears something along the lines of…fine art museum.

 

He gives Jason’s hand a firm squeeze. “We should go.”

 

Jason’s surprised by that. “That’s okay, Nico, we don’t have—”

 

“Jason.” Nico turns to the other demigod, the certainty there. “You want to. So I want to.”

 

“Oh.” Jason turns as pink as the building. “Okay.”

 

Sure enough, they have English brochures. They tag along an English-speaking tour guide as he explains the origin of Ukrainian and Russian paintings that line the walls in ornate frames. At one point, Nico peeks up and notices Jason hanging onto every word as the guide explains the building used to be the residence of a Count Pototsky.

 

They separate long enough to examine a painting by someone named Ivan Aivazovsky. His brushstrokes paint the stunning tides of the sea—and breathe life into clouds at sunset.

 

“My nonna would’ve loved having one of these in the foyer,” Nico comments. He points to the large sail on a detailed ship. “My mom probably would’ve convinced me that this was Captain Hook’s ship.”

 

Jason makes a soft hmm.

 

When Nico looks back to the other demigod, he notices Jason studying at the painting with gentle intrigue—as though tracing every brush stroke and change of color with his eyes. At first, Nico thinks he might’ve finally bored Jason into exhaustion. Then he realizes Jason is studying the lighting.

 

He gives Jason’s hand a squeeze, if only to catch the son of Hades’ attention. Nico can’t help his own laughter as Jason snaps out of his thoughts.

 

“Bianca said you could spend every day in the Smithsonian,” Nico recalls. “I thought she was exaggerating.

 

Jason looks bashful—which fits him just as much as those charming, dimpled smiles do.

 

“All the stories Camp Halfblood ever told about my dad were about how scary he is,” Jason explains. “Chiron wasn’t sure how we’d fare in the war. He never failed to mention that my dad was on the losing side of most of them.”

 

“Well he’s supposed to be dead,” Nico grumbles. “I wouldn’t call him a reliable source.”

 

Jason laughs softly, even now.  He tilts his head thoughtfully and brushes his hand against the engravings on the plaque, which explains the history of Aivazovsky. “Ghosts are part of my dad’s realm. Museums capture their history. Their life’s story. You know—”

 

He makes a wry expression, light-hearted as it may be.

 

“—the morality of looting and colonization corrupting preservation aside,” Jason continues—and Nico bites back a snicker. He has to, as Jason’s face softens. Jason’s palm flattens against the plaque, and Nico understands why the gesture is so meaningful. “It keeps them from being taken at face value. There’s more to them past their ghost, you know?”

 

More to them. More to Hades. More to Jason.

 

After they left Odesa the first time, Nico learned plenty more about Jason Grace, son of Hades. Still has plenty to learn, from the looks of it.

 

Nico gives Jason’s hand a firm squeeze. “I know.”

 

His chest blossoms as Jason smiles at him. Best of all, Nico’s not afraid of the feeling.

 

They buy souvenirs at the gift shop. Jason’s insistent on a small keychain of the building for Annabeth. Nico buys a hand puppet of a famous artist that Percy will inevitably just call some Ukrainian dude.

 

“You’re welcome to call me Jace,” Jason says when they finally leave. “All my friends call me that.”

 

Nico can hear it in his voice. Jason is still regretting the last time those words came out wrong. Surprisingly, Nico isn’t upset about it. His hand is coiled around Jason’s fuzzy gloved fingers, and the grip is solid.

 

He shrugs carefully. Daringly. “Maybe I want to call you something else.”

 

They start to walk—but Jason stops them, confused. “Like what?”

 

The b word is on Nico’s tongue—but suddenly he feels less bold.

 

Luckily—some town square bell rings on the hour. Nico’s surprised when Jason searches for the clock—and when that handsome grin spreads across his face again.

 

“It’s 10AM,” he announces.

 

“A bit too early for lunch,” Nico muses. Teasingly. He omits a sigh of relief—but Jason only laughs.

 

“It’s midnight in New Rome, Nico,” Jason says. “Happy birthday, Nico.”

 

Oh.

 

Nico glows pink, beguiled. And Jason chuckles with a melody sweeter than the town bell.

 

“Again,” Jason adds as an afterthought. He rocks their hands between them as they walk, their gift bags on either side of their stead.

 

“Again,” Nico echoes.

 

*

 

They end the day near the sea. Jason finds a hilltop with an apex high enough to watch the sunset over the coastal line. They grabbed lunch at the place Nico found varenyky last time they were in Odesa with Uncle Gleeson. Jason wouldn’t have gone anywhere else.

 

All the while, Nico’s hand never left Jason’s. They fit together, like they did a year ago.

 

Well, close.

 

Better, Jason thinks.

 

“You sure you aren’t tired?” Jason murmurs—because admittedly, he’s sleepy himself. It’s got to be nearing 10AM or 11AM in Long Island.

 

“Are you kidding me? It’s a three-day weekend. This is usually when I’m playing my best Valorant rounds,” Nico reassures.

 

A silence follows between them.

 

Nico groans and presses a hand to his face. “That…didn’t even sound cool in my head.”

 

Jason laughs—but it’s light. He finds Nico far too endearing to worry whether or not it sounded cool. “Is that anything like that game you were telling me about?”

 

It’s been weeks. Over a month, actually—since Nico mentioned it. So there’s no way he should know it offhand.

 

“Undertale?” But he does. Nico sounds surprised Jason remembers—but he props himself up on the picnic blanket. Jason insisted on buying one. After all—he knew how much Nico hated snow. “No. Nothing like that. But I’ll show you Undertale next time.”

 

“I’d love that,” Jason says earnestly.

 

Nico hums in a casual tone—and it’s proof that the day has softened his guard. The air is as comfortable between them for the first time in ages—and falls the same cadence as before.

 

But again, Jason can only think about how much better it feels than before.

 

“I had fun today Jason,” Nico whispers. True to his word, he doesn’t sound tired. It’s his voice alone that keeps Jason awake.

 

And the reassurance.

 

“Not sure how anyone else is going to top this birthday present,” Nico remarks—though he tugs at his trapper hat delicately and eyes the scarf around Jason’s neck. 

 

Jason still has the other scarf folded away in his cabin. He’d considered swinging by New Rome and delivering it to Nico’s house—but something about it made it difficult for Jason to part ways.

 

“Oh,” Jason says with surprise, and he looks over to the other demigod. “This wasn’t your birthday present.” 

 

Nico makes another noise. Jason’s not sure how to describe it—the son of Juno has been making it a lot throughout the day. It’s only made Jason’s chest flutter, being able to surprise Nico in this way. “Jason, you can’t be serious.” 

 

“I am,” Jason says—though as he tucks his fingers around the small box in his pocket, he finds himself self-conscious. Even more so than when he flubbed their flirting earlier today. Nico looks at him with those blue eyes as colorful as the sky, and Jason can feel the worry filling his heart. 

 

There’s a fear that Nico will reject it. After all—last year, Jason gifted Nico with that picture of Bianca, and neither acknowledged it until well through their quest. Jason’s not sure why he did it. Maybe so Nico di Angelo knew Jason was on his side—or maybe to part with that burden of Bianca’s death on his shoulders. Regardless—Jason had a lot of feelings last year that he couldn’t begin to put into words. 

 

“What are you thinking?” Nico asks. Because he always asks. Maybe Annabeth was right—Jason still needs that after all this time. 

 

“That we weren’t close around this time last year,” Jason confesses. His hand is tight around the box. 

 

Nico’s gaze flickers—undoubtedly reminded of the same truth. It’s hard to wrap his mind around how Nico unraveled the tight ball of stress and duty and obligation that caged Jason’s heart for sixteen years. 

 

“Last year was rough,” Nico remarks. In more ways than one, before and after the war. “But you don’t have to go through Reyna this time.” 

 

“Yeah,” Jason agrees faintly, and grows flustered. “I just. I’m not sure if it’s appropriate, or if it’s just…selfish of me—”

 

“Jason.” 

 

“Yeah?” 

 

“I have my hand out.” 

 

Jason peers back up, where he realizes he was lost in his thoughts again before he knew it yet again. True to his word, Nico’s hand is out. His face is flushed from the Odesa cold, with a charmed smile fitting the son of the Queen of the Heavens. Nico was here to stay. Here for Jason. 

 

So, with a deep breath, Jason pulls the small box from his pocket. He’d wrapped it delicately a few weeks ago, more than eager to give it to Nico after Saturnalia—but determined to make sure he had Nico’s fullest attention. 

 

Nico takes the neatly wrapped box, and the edge of his lip curls in good humor. As he undoes the bow and inspects the contents, his smile falls. He stares, and the next few seconds are the longest that Jason’s ever been a part of. 

 

“Jason,” Nico says eventually, “this is your necklace.” 

 

“Yeah,” Jason whispers. “It’s all of me.” 

 

Nico lifts the beads from the box—and the second epiphany shows on his face. The lace has been shortened, so nothing but the freshly cleaned glass beads take the length of the string. All fourteen beads, shining colorfully as a bracelet. 

 

“At least—it’s what I thought was all of me,” Jason continues, as Nico continues to hold it with a look of awe. “That bead right there—the one you’re holding. That one was the first one I ever received.” 

 

The oldest bead—nearly as old as Jason—is black, with a skull painted on it. Jason wore it for a long time before he understood the significance of it. 

 

It’s the bead that showed his burden as a son of Hades. The one that truly cemented his fate. 

 

“I got it just a little over a month after my third birthday,” Jason continues, “The Apollo Cabin usually chooses a design based on the most significant event from the summertime. I’d been at Halfblood since February, but they still chose me as the most important event since I was the first Big Three child in a century.”

 

Nico’s face softens. He thumbs the bead gently—and from the way he moves his fingers, it doesn’t feel as suffocating. 

 

“When I was old enough,” Jason carries on softly, as Nico cradles the gift, “I would think about how many beads I would have around my neck by my sixteenth birthday. I—” 

 

Jason makes a face, as the realization hits him. 

 

“—I guess thirteen, like my father’s cabin. And then I got that fourteenth one, and I had to build the funeral pyres for all of the people that we lost during the war.” Jason reaches out and traces the last bead. Nico doesn’t blink. He readjusts his hands so Jason can brush his finger across the bracelet, and the old familiar lump swells in Jason’s throat. “That one’s always been the heaviest.”

 

“I still don’t understand,” Nico says, and he’s thoughtful in his words as Jason cradles the hands that hold his necklace.  “You’ve had this since you knew you were a demigod. Why would you want to give this to me?”

 

“Because this is my life,” Jason says without missing a beat. He smiles as Nico’s eyes widen. “Every single one of these beads were earned knowing that one day, I’d be the one to slay Kronos. That he was my destiny. And—I didn’t know what else was out there for me. What happened after the war was worse than anything I could think of. I lost your sister, I lost Annabeth, I lost Luke—”

 

There’s a way Nico jerks, his eyes flitting back to Jason. Jason struggled to get the name out last time. He always struggles with that name—but he’s there to meet Nico’s gaze with confidence. 

 

“—and I gained a sister,” Jason says. “I gained you.” 

 

Jason’s eyes are warm. He sees an extra gleam in Nico’s own, as the son of Juno stares at the bracelet-turned-necklace with such gentleness. 

 

“You,” Jason continues—because nothing can stop him now that he knows what the right words are, “taught me to let someone else bear part of my burden, so I don’t have to carry that weight on my own. To give a piece of myself in exchange for someone else. I…”

 

 Jason swallows the lump in his throat, hands still intertwined with Nico’s own. The beads glow under the warm rays of fleeting sunlight. 

 

“That’s hard for me. I wouldn’t have been able to learn that on my own.” Jason lets out a sigh. Lets out a breath—the tight knot in his chest. Everything, because he can feel. 

 

He thinks of the last time they were like this—together beneath the roof of the Venus Felix. For all of the anxious thoughts that consumed Jason, Nico brought a calm. 

 

Right now, Nico is glassy-eyed, holding Jason’s old life at the palm of his hand. 

 

“So why are you giving this to me?” Nico’s fingers tremble. His voice is hardly above a stunned whisper. “I don’t have much else of myself to give, Jason. Not for your life.”

 

He’s so certain in his words that Jason doesn’t know what to say. He laughs—because he just wants to keep smiling in Nico’s presence. “Nico, you’ve already given me everything.”

 

Nico’s gaze flits back up, speechless. 

 

“This,” Jason starts, and he reaches out again, pressing a hand to the warmth of Nico’s palm in a way he’s desperately missed, “is my old life. Of the me who knew that I had the fate of the gods in my hands and would either win or die trying. I—I used to think a part of me died when Luke did. And then he just ended up haunting me anyway. I thought if I did my part in the next war, I could just keep pushing that aside and it’d just go away. You—”

 

Jason laces their hands together and wraps the string of colorful beads around Nico’s wrist. The touch tingles, and the bracelet is as warm as the sunset. Warmer. 

 

“—you’re part of a new life,” Jason whispers. “One where I get to spend every day with my big sister. Where you made sure my best friend and I talked to each other again. Where Bianca is here for the both of us. You did that for me.”

 

“I didn’t do that.” Nico shakes his head stubbornly. Each one makes the bracelet twinkle brighter and the sound lightens the load on Jason’s heart. “You did that all on your own.”

 

“No,” Jason says with certainty, never sounding so firm. He wants to make sure all of his words are clear. Are his own. “I told you. I wouldn’t have been able to do that on my own. You helped me get here.”

 

There’s gravity to Jason’s words. He refuses to look away ever again.

 

As the sun sets, Jason sees the evening sky in Nico’s eyes. That first star—followed by another. Nico’s eyes shine bright with the words, and Jason has never seen a sight more beautiful.

 

“I’m giving you my life, for what you’ve given me,” Jason whispers. He curls a hand over Nico’s, then pressed the other to his chest. “And I’m giving you my heart. If you’ll still have me.”

 

The words are succinct. For how much Jason’s stumbled or faltered today, he knows those are the right ones. The ones that described how he felt for Nico perfectly.

 

Still, Nico’s eyes shimmer like an evening light reflecting against a pond. He cocks his head, and Jason can feel the stagger as Nico catches his breath.

 

“I’m sorry,” Nico says, his voice hardly above Jason’s own. “Could you repeat that?”

 

Gladly. Jason smiles wider than there’s room on his face—because there’s always more room in his heart for Nico di Angelo. He leans close, so all he can hear is Nico’s pulse.

 

“I want to give you my heart,” Jason says, close enough to feel Nico’s breath against his lips, “if you’ll still have me.”

 

He kisses Nico.

 

Nico’s warmth blooms against Jason—like the first flower after the winter frost. It paints the picture Jason’s dreamed of since the Temple of Venus Felix—so welcoming and sweet like their first evening together, where they baked cookies and nestled in Nico’s praetorhouse, exchanging soft laughs and welcoming each other’s company away from quests and missions.

 

They were just them.

 

And Jason understands what Nico means when he said he sat across from Love and she couldn’t be anywhere near perfect as the demigod in front of him.

 

He doesn’t want to part. The last time they kissed, Nico didn’t want the moment to end. He didn’t want to move forward.

 

But—Jason knows they have to. He wants to, with Nico by his side.

 

So he pulls away, his forehead warm against Nico’s own. Nico is a breath away—one stick figure or star from Jason’s own mouth. And his eyes are soft.

 

When a second too long passes, Jason braves the silence with a modest glance.

 

“Told you,” Jason says, his smile turning sheepish. Shy, despite himself. “A selfish gift.”

 

Nico kisses him back. Jason makes a noise—taken aback by the sudden gesture—but no less enamored. The warmth finds Jason again, with those flowers encompassing him in the marvel of Nico’s touch.

 

It’s over before Jason can savor it—but not for long.

 

The beads shudder against Nico’s wrist as he reaches to touch Jason’s face—and it’s the second most beautiful sound Jason’s heard.

 

“Keep being selfish,” Nico murmurs. “It’s the best gift I could ever receive.”

 

His palm is gentle against Jason’s cheek, grazing Jason’s jaw like a cloud in a clear sky. His eyes are blue—as captivating as every other moment Jason felt his heart grow in Nico’s presence. And again, Nico presses his lips against Jason’s own, the beads chiming with each stroke. The merry heat melts every other feeling in Jason’s chest—until all that’s left is joy.

 

“Me?” Jason asks softly, when they inevitably part again. Nothing but a breath separates them—a cloud of heat that keeps them agonizingly far.

 

Nico laughs softly.

 

“You,” Nico whispers. It couldn’t be any clearer unless he drew it in the tuft between them. “Me?”

 

Jason laughs too. He cups Nico’s face—feeling the other demigod shiver—but Nico is still determined to lean into Jason’s hand.

 

“There’s no one else,” Jason says. No one to ruin the life that Jason earned for himself, after the fourteen beads against Nico’s wrist.

 

Nico’s eyebrows furrow beneath the shadows of Odesa—and for as fierce and proud as New Rome’s praetor was, Jason got to know him as that courageous, loyal son of Juno before anyone else. He can see the worry in Nico’s eyes—the same fret that tried to pull Jason away many times before because he was too scared.

 

But—Jason refuses to be scared ever again. Not with Nico.

 

“Hey,” Jason teases. “Stop thinking so loud.”

 

He kisses Nico once again, determined to squash the last of their anxieties. Jason melts into Nico’s touch, focused on the spring that carried them through their journey with the Athena Parthenos—and the heat of summer, where they enjoyed themselves to late nights and wedding dances. Jason’s enjoyed every season in Nico di Angelo’s presence—and he’ll keep enjoying it.

 

Because he deserves that happiness. They both do.

 

*

 

At long last, the sunlight fades—and the winter stars exist in a space for them both. Jason grazes Nico’s face with his hands, relieved to have that touch restored between them.

 

And again—Jason contradicts himself.

 

Because this is better, too. Nico holds onto him as though holding Jason’s heart, and Jason’s ready to pull that out of his chest and give that to Nico, too.

 

They huddle together until the constellations reflect against the sea. Jason feels Nico’s pulse against him, keeping him awake and lulling him into a quiet slumber all the same. He keeps Nico tucked beneath his chin, and Nico’s hand curled against his own—as close to one being as humanly possible.

 

Nico’s chuckle breaks their silence. Jason’s grateful for that sound.

 

“We should get back,” Nico declares—though there’s no urgency in his voice. “Any longer and they might actually fill out a missing child report. Percy’s been trying to get my face on a milk carton.”

 

Jason laughs. “I believe that.”

 

But instead of standing up, Jason pulls his phone out of his pocket.

 

“One last selfish request before I shadowtravel us back?” Jason asks.

 

Nico’s eyes glitter with amusement.

 

“I hope not the last one,” he jests lightly. “The first one paid off splendidly.”

 

Jason blushes—shyer than he intends. Nico only laughs—and rewards him with a kiss. When Jason’s mind finds a clear moment, he pushes past the tens of notifications from their friends. He presses play when he finds the song and wills himself to his feet.

 

Jason makes sure to leave a hand behind so Nico can grab it.

 

Nico stares at him curiously—but holds on without question. He stands close—and Jason’s other hand molds into the small of Nico’s back.

 

“I’ve,” Jason whispers, “been wanting to do this again for a really long time.”

 

Something shines in Nico’s eyes. It’s better than every panorama of the evening.

 

A soft guitar strums into the night air, and Jason retraces the steps of their wedding dance from months ago. He glides with Nico at his side, as though walking in air. They’re far from Hades and Persephone—but each step continues the pen strokes of their own love story. Jason wants to cherish every page.

 

He's deaf to the music as Nico’s sweet laugh fills his ears instead. Jason dips the other demigod—and commits the image of that Nico to memory: sanguine cheeks and whimsical hair painted against his face. A smile that Jason didn’t want to share with anyone else.

 

“What would’ve happened if I said no to Odesa?” Nico asks eventually.

 

Jason shrugs. “Then Odesa wasn’t the right move.”

 

“What would’ve been the right move?”

 

“Most likely a bunch of wrong ones,” Jason admits—and he watches as Nico’s face changes into something else. Jason shrugs once again—at ease in their dance. “As many wrong ones as there needed to be until I found the right one.”

 

Nico evidently considers his words. He makes another face—ever a devil’s advocate. “And if I wanted you to stop?”

 

“Then I made a lot of wrong moves,” Jason remarks—and he laughs as Nico snorts. They pause in their dance—and the other lesson Nico taught him comes to mind. “Then I’d have to take a breath. I’d have to relax, and remind myself I’m allowed to make mistakes. No one should expect me to be perfect and get it right the first time. Especially not myself.”

 

Nico’s demeanor softens. Whatever other doubtful question was once on his tongue is suddenly gone.

 

“Besides,” Jason continues, picking up the melody of the dance, “I was willing to take the gamble.”

 

“Why?” Nico asks. He follows all of Jason’s motions without missing a beat.

 

“Because no one else would consider getting me gloves,” Jason remarks. He squeezes Nico’s hands for emphasis—fully aware that Nico’s gaze has wandered to his hands all day for more reasons than one.

 

Nico flushes—but doesn’t deny it.

 

“Guilty,” he grumbles.

 

“And the other thing.”

 

“The other thing?”

 

Jason laughs. Once more, he dips Nico, watching as the son of Juno falls into a smooth pose. Ebony hair bristles in the wind. Jason pulls Nico close—closer than what would’ve been appropriate for the wedding months ago. He’s a breath away from Nico and still too far.

 

“You can’t kiss me like that and not expect me to want more,” Jason whispers mercilessly. “Praetor di Angelo.”

 

Nico makes an irreprehensible sound—and Jason presses another kiss to Nico’s mouth. Long and slow to stretch the time—and to enjoy every second more in Nico’s warmth. Nico doesn’t leave him hanging. He kisses Jason back. If they’re going to move forward, they’re moving forward together.

 

Eventually, Jason’s song fades with their bliss. The next one plays—and Jason unwillingly detaches from Nico’s mouth.

 

“Oh no,” he mutters, “that’s the dirty version.

 

“Dirty version?” Nico repeats—but Jason is already leaning over his new boyfriend(?), trying so hard to stay tucked in Nico’s warmth and reach his phone as the catchy melody of—can you stay up all night? Fuck me till the daylight—overstays its welcome.

 

Nico already has his head back, barking with laughter until Jason can finally change the song.

 

“Whoops,” Jason mumbles. His face burns like fire. “I—um—that. Was an accident. Sorry.”

 

Nico’s grin is wide and boyish.

 

“Hey,” he teases, “can’t always get it right the first time.”

 

He punctuates his statement with another kiss—and Jason is happy to lose the argument.

 

*

 

Eventually, they amble back to Camp Halfblood. Nico certainly doesn’t want to.

 

The door of Cabin Two is decorated with a ridiculous arch of balloons. It couldn’t be more obnoxious unless there was a large Happy Birthday Nico! Banner across the front and a pinata.

 

(So—tamer than Nico’s used to.)

 

Before they step into the cabin, Jason tugs on Nico’s hand. There’s a spark in his eyes. “Let me take you out to dinner tomorrow.”

 

Nico stares at his new boyfriend suspiciously, his eyebrows knitting together. No matter how happy they left Odesa, there’s no doubt that Jason still looks tired, and his voice sounds groggy. “You should rest. We can go to dinner any time.”

 

He turns to guide them into the party, but Jason only tugs him back. “I can rest after our first date.”

 

Nico makes a sound—but by now, he’s not sure why he’s still surprised by anything Jason says. “We spent a whole day in Odesa. We bought souvenirs. We kissed. A lot. How is that not a date?”

 

He can almost see Jason’s brain wander at kissed a lot—but the other demigod only shrugs.

 

“Thalia said she’d ground me before we could have our first date,” Jason explains. “So Odesa can’t count.”

 

He pauses, mulling over something Nico can’t see.

 

“But if it does count,” Jason says, “then I guess I broke the rules.”

 

He looks pleased for some reason.

 

Nico laughs—because there isn’t one rule Thalia’s ever followed. “Now I know you’re tired.”

 

“Nico,” Jason says, “please?”

 

He stares at Nico pleadingly, his lips raised into an unfaltering smile. It’s brighter than the gray lines beneath his eyes. Jason’s so certain about this too, with little flakes of snow on his cheek, that Nico doesn’t have the heart to say no.

 

Nico decides he’ll need to learn how to say no to that face, otherwise Jason was going to win every future argument they ever had. Instead, he brushes flakes off Jason’s nose and pecks Jason on the mouth. “Fine, but I’m holding you to that.”

 

The tender look Jason gives him is worth every loss Nico anticipates. “You won’t regret it.”

 

A tornado of people lunges toward them when he opens the door. No, SURPRISE!! Just a huge crowd.

 

Nico—”

 

“—Jace—”

 

“Where’ve you been—”

 

—at are you holding—”

 

“—king everywhere for you—”

 

“Why—

 

A barricade of people stands between Nico and the heater.

 

“Okay,” Nico calls—waving a hand in front of his worried siblings. Thalia, Reyna, and Percy stare at them. Bianca and Hazel, Annabeth and Frank, Piper, Leo—too many people in too small of a space. “Some room to breathe please?”

 

The beads—Nico’s most precious gift—clatter against his wrist bone, drawing silence like a whistle.

 

Suddenly everyone stares at them. At the intertwined hands between Jason and Nico.

 

“Wait,” Percy says. He gestures between the two of them, stunned. “Wait.”

 

He gestures to their hands—then to either of them. Stares at them. Individually. Together.

 

“Jace,” Annabeth whispers—and she sounds as stunned as Percy. “Your necklace, it’s…”

 

Percy makes another gesture. Another noise. “Wait—”

 

Thalia is grinning. She’s practically vibrating. “Something you guys want to tell us?”

 

Nico snorts—but it’s hard to hide a smile. “Isn’t it obvious?”

 

No,” Percy laments. “We took a hard left from obvious eight months ago. Paint a picture for us!”

 

Nico rolls his eyes, while Reyna sighs. She starts, “Percy—”

 

“We’re dating,” Jason interjects. “Um. Surprise?”

 

The words echo off the columns of Hera’s Cabin. The crowd stares back at them, frozen, as though Jason and Nico were still in front of a painting at the Odesa Fine Art Museum.

 

Then they cheer—a loud jovial shout as colorful as the many party streamers and birthday balloons hanging from every nook and cranny of the cabin. FINALLY!! is shouted from somewhere—but Nico couldn’t care less.

 

Annabeth squeals and throws her arms around Jason a heartbeat later. The force is so great that Nico forgets that Jason and he are holding hands until he’s pulled into the gesture. Thalia punches her little brother affectionately in the arm. Bianca and Hazel flash excited grins in Nico’s direction, and Nico feels the heat flourish in his cheeks.

 

“You two are so cute,” Annabeth gushes, and Nico finds himself yanked into a hug a moment later. At first, he protests—but Jason laughs so sweetly that Nico melts.

 

“Guess this is a Greek thing,” Thalia muses, and she unabashedly lifts Nico’s hand. The glass beads are warmer beneath his mother’s light.

 

“No,” Bianca reassures, and she grins again. “A bead or two is one thing. A whole necklace is a Jason thing.”

 

Nico is present for the sight of his boyfriend’s cheeks painting red, flustered, and it’s as great of a gift as the bracelet.

 

When things settle down, Jason gets accosted by Bianca, Annabeth, and Thalia. Nico doesn’t think he can muster returning Bianca’s look of approval quite yet. Instead, Nico slinks over to Percy, Reyna, Hazel, and Frank.

 

Hazel gives one glance down to Nico’s wrist, smiling, and kisses him on the cheek.

 

“Was everyone really that worried?” Nico asks.

 

She shrugs. “I wasn’t. I knew you’d go to him.”

 

Nico blushes. A question hangs on his tongue—whether Hazel knew what Jason was planning—but he thinks he knows the answer. Odesa was all Jason.

 

Across the room, Nico watches Jason’s smile reach his eyes again. Just the small stroke of Jason’s lips makes his own heart flutter, and Nico’s hand flies to the important piece of jewelry on his wrist. They catch each other’s gaze, and somehow, Jason’s smile looks a little fuller. Nico’s chest feels even lighter.

 

Frank saunters towards the son of Hades—and they begin a curious conversation Nico will ask about later. He has plenty of time, knowing Jason will be back next week.

 

Percy ruffles Nico’s hair. “I fucking called it.”

 

Nico rolls his eyes. “You called nothing. You caused like, eight delays.”

 

“Hey—the destination’s right,” Percy protests.

 

Nico laughs—but it’s not an argument worth his time.

 

Eventually, Reyna finds him. She lays a hand on his shoulder, a loving smile to her face. “You feeling alright?”

 

Nico peers back at her. He looks around the room—to the faces of every demigod he’d known a year ago but didn’t necessarily like. A year ago, he still thought of himself as a miserable son of Jupiter—doomed to live his life known only as his father’s son.

 

Now—everyone he considered family stood beneath the roof of his mother’s cabin. Mammina.

 

He glances at the demigod who brought him to that path. The one with oily black eyes and a smile that found strength in peace.

 

A smile that Nico would never get tired of.

 

Hi, Jason mouths from across the room.

 

Nico has no choice but to mouth it back. He smiles back and leans into Reyna’s warmth. “I’m perfect.”

 

*

 

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Thank you so much for reading!! If you haven't already, you can read over the rainbow to see how these godswap boys are doing and how they interact with canon! Otherwise, catch me and my updates with Rewrite the Stars and maybe some future godswap stories!<3

I hope you had a wonderful time on this journey. There may be an epilogue and some other small shorts, but for now, consider the boys happy and in love! Please comment if you can and stay safe as always! It's been a wonderful two year journey with you all!

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