Chapter 1: The Beauty of Disasters
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Explosions were always one of Clint’s favorite parts of his job. There was something satisfactory about their finality, their deadly beauty when enacted by his hand. There was nothing better than watching an arrow fly straight and true, hit it’s target dead on, and then light up in a plume of smoke and shrapnel. It was beautiful. Absolutely beautiful.
“The tower’s down!” Clint shouted into his com link. “You’re welcome!”
“Hawkeye...” Steve’s voice crackled over the link a moment later, clear and flat in its tone as it echoed across the battlefield. “That was the wrong tower.”
Clint grit his teeth, a groan sliding out between them as the plume of smoke in front of him continued to reach for the sky. Ok, so explosions could go wrong really quickly. “Are you serious? Why didn’t you guys tell me? Stark’ll pay for that, right?”
“I’m not going to be paying for anything if we can’t get these servers back online!” Clint rolled his eyes at Tony’s yell, the voice sharp even across their communicators. “Shoot better Katniss, this is literally going to cost me billions of dollars!”
“Not like you’re not good for it...” Clint muttered, knocking another arrow. He thought he heard Tony try to respond, but his voice was cut off by repulsor fire that Clint could hear without the help of his com link. The fight was getting close; that meant he was running out of time. He couldn’t believe he had blown up the wrong tower, Natasha was never going to let him hear the end of that one... even the thought of it made him groan. “Alright then, does anyone have a clue where the right tower is?”
“If we knew, do you really think we wouldn’t have told you?” Tony pointed out after he had finished blasting.
Clint grumbled under his breath, pulling his arrow back and aiming it at the ground below. There were only about thirty towers in this stupid power plant; how was he supposed to know the biggest one wasn’t the one hacked? Weren’t hacked servers supposed to have some obnoxious blinking red lights or something? How was he supposed to just guess?
None of the towers looked out of the ordinary, at least not from where he was standing. Clint lowered his bow, looking around for a better vantage point. He had to move quickly; even with Tony and Steve taking care of most of the goons, they didn’t have long. Every minute that the virus in these servers stayed where it was, more data was lost. Mostly Stark Industries data. Tony said there were a few backup servers, but the infected one would eat through those firewalls soon enough and destroy the secondary and even tertiary copies of the data till it was completely gone. Or something like that. Tony had used a lot of bigger words that Clint didn’t totally understand. But he had gotten the gist of it, and the fact that blowing it up would supposedly solve the problem.
That was, if he could figure out which tower needed to be blown up.
Clint darted along the cat walks over the power plant, sharp eyes scanning the ground below for some sort of hint as to his target. He had really thought it would be the biggest one. Maybe it would be the smallest? But if he was wrong again not only would Tony yell at him, but he could do serious damage to the company if he hadn’t already. He wouldn’t really feel bad doing that to Stark, but his employees were another matter. And Pepper Potts. He did not want to make her mad.
“Are we even positive that the virus is in one of these towers?” Clint asked over the coms as he continued to study the area. He could hear the fighting, could even see flashes from Tony’s repulsors in the distance. He did not have much time to stall.
“Yes, of course I’m sure!” Tony said, the sound of repulsor blasts echoing in Clint’s ears. “I told you, the signal’s coming from this plant! It’s a singularity, the virus lets out a very select signal on a specific wavelength that—“
Tony cut off, probably thrown against something by an enemy. Clint bit back a sigh of relief. It would not help his concentration to listen to Tony's explanations at the moment.
“Hurry up, Hawkeye,” Steve said. He sounded almost breathless, a rarity for the super soldier. “These guys are stronger than we expected. You probably have five minutes—“
Steve’s statement cut off with a grunt and a hard thump.
“Holy crap, watch out,” Tony’s voice crackled over the coms with more static than usual. “One of them slipped past us, he’s headed your way. Cap, where are you?”
Tony cut out again, and Clint didn’t hear an answer from Steve. That probably meant that the bad guy was coming right for him. Great. So much for five minutes.
He needed space. And a better visual. The catwalks were great, but not a great place to be cornered. He glanced around, hoping for some sort of vantage point. The towers themselves seemed to be the tallest things in the power plant, far taller than the chain link fence surrounding the area and far, far above the one brick building in the center. The catwalks were only about halfway up the towers, and Clint was quickly considering attempting to scale one of them, though that was probably not the best plan if he was planning to blow one— or more— of them up.
But then out of the corner of his eye, he caught sight of a ladder. And following it up, he saw that the ladder led up to some sort of tiny observation deck a few yards above his head.
Bingo.
It took him seconds to dart across the catwalks, just as easily as he would have run across the ground. In fact, probably even easier since he knew where he would have to put his feet. Tripping wasn’t an option on a catwalk either, and survival instinct always did wonders for his coordination. The ladder was connected to another tower, but this one wasn’t an electrical one. It looked like some sort of observation tower; perfect. He scrambled up the ladder quickly, and was soon perched on the platform.
It was so much better. The platform was small, jutting out just a few feet from the wall of the observation tower. There was a steel door set into the metal that probably led to a safer way up than the ladder he had taken, but after a quick check he found that the door was locked. He would be able to see anyone coming from below, which meant he should have plenty of time to figure out his target before he was inevitably attacked. He could see all of the towers at once, and he was high enough that they were now all completely below him. He went ahead and knocked his arrow again, pulling up his bow as he started to examine the terrain below.
Back to the problem of figuring out which of these stupid towers had the virus. But at least he had a better vantage point now. Not only could he see all of the thirty or so server towers, but he could also see both Tony and Steve fighting. They looked like tiny action figures with how far below they were. They were also fighting more people than Clint had expected. This was just a small, Stark-hating gang who wanted to usurp Stark industries’ hold on the world or something. The only reason that Steve and Clint had even come on the mission was that Fury had insisted they made sure that Stark’s weaponry files didn’t get leaked to this group— not that they really seemed interested in that, they were more interested in just destroying the information all together. But the sheer number of goons— Clint could count at least twenty five scattered like ants throughout the plant— made him think that Fury may have been right not to let Stark run in alone.
Wait... there were twenty-something bad guys. Five of them were fighting Tony, more than that were on Steve, at least ten were just knocked out on the ground... but then there was also a group away from the fighting. At least five guys were all clustered around one of the towers, one in the middle of the plant with some of the lights at the top blinking red...
That had to be it. Clint pulled up his bow with a grin. If he got it wrong again, well... hopefully he wouldn’t be the one to face Pepper.
He was about to let the arrow fly when suddenly there was a crash behind him. He whirled around, cursing as he saw a man tearing away the door to the observation tower. Of course, Tony had said one of the goons was after him. So much for locked doors and his entire plan. Instinctively Clint pulled his bow up, drawing the arrow back, only to remember that the arrow in his hand was an exploding arrow and he was literally three feet from the guy.
This was not a good situation.
The goon finished ripping through the cheap aluminum door and charged through, leaving Clint with about three seconds to make a move. He was at least two stories above the ground, only a thin railing between him and the drop, not enough time to draw a non-exploding arrow, and a guy who just busted through a metal door charging at him. Even if there was a good option here, there wasn’t enough time for him to find it.
He let go of the arrow and threw himself off of the platform.
There was a short scream above him, cut off almost instantly as the explosion was triggered. Clint was in free fall, already reaching back toward his quiver, but the explosion hit him hard enough to stun. For a moment his ears are screeching, the sound of the explosion blasting through his eardrums in a deafening cacophony that almost makes him scream out loud. And then, just like that, silence. In a single moment the only sound he could hear was the ringing in his own ears. The thought made him wince, even in freefall. There was another drawback of explosions. He hoped his aids were ok, or at least not completely fried. Eighty percent deaf was not an ideal position to be in during the midst of a battle.
Neither was splattered on the ground, which was what he would be in probably thirty seconds.
He tried to snap out of the daze that the shockwaves had thrown him into, forcing his muscles to reach back toward his quiver. Half of his arrows were gone, but he managed to get his fingers around one, one that had a smooth, thin stalk. It cost him an additional two seconds to register that it was the wrong one. He didn’t think any more than that, just let go and continued grasping until he caught another one. Bulkier, heavier, a bulge around the middle. Yes. He didn’t waste another second, just yanked the arrow out and did his best to knock it, to draw the string back despite the gravity pulling at him. It had to look awesome, firing the arrow in the middle of a free fall, little bits of debris raining down, the orange glow of the explosion still on his face, but it didn’t feel awesome. His muscles were strained and aching, his head pounding, ears ringing and sounds muffled... it sucked .
But the arrow hit home, buried in the side of the observation tower. The thin cord of rope that had streamed out after it drew taught in his hands, and Clint held on for dear life as he was jerked to the side, up and away from the ground and instead straight into the side of the tower. He had about half a second to brace himself before he hit. The tower was made out of aluminum or something... whatever it was, it was flimsy enough to dent when he slammed into it with a bone-jarring thud. The impact was rattling enough that Clint’s hands slipped, and suddenly he was back in free fall. Thankfully, the zip line arrow had done its job of slowing his fall, and he was just a few feet above the ground. But he still hit hard, the air completely knocked out of him, every single muscle stinging in pain.
Yep. That sucked .
Clint groaned, trying to get his bearings. His vision was blurry and he shut his eyes against it with a wince. Was the blurriness from the force of the impact or the dust from the explosion or just the ringing in his head? He had no idea. And the ringing hadn’t cleared up yet... he needed to check his aids, to see if the sound was coming from them or just his head, but he couldn’t quite make himself move. Everything was in pain— he definitely had at least one broken rib— and moving would definitely make it worse. He had to move, he knew he did, but for just a moment...
He cracked his eyes open again, just a sliver. Then they shot open, his heart rate skyrocketing. The tower was practically bent in half, the explosion sending debris raining down around him as the metal structure swayed. It was probably groaning in warning, but of course he couldn’t hear that.
To say this was bad was a massive understatement.
Clint finally got his body to respond enough to attempt sitting up, but the moment he did pain flooded him. He let out a cry that he couldn’t hear, gritting his teeth as he kept pushing. But he only got halfway up before he realized that he physically could not sit up. His arm was trapped, pinned under a piece of debris. His heart slammed into his ribcage, his pulse pounding in his veins. He tried to pull it out, but the pain was unbearable and he had to stop, his vision blurred again and sweat trickling down his forehead. Or maybe that was blood, he had no way to tell the difference. The moment his vision cleared he looked up again. The tower was teetering more dangerously by the second. No, no, it was not just teetering. It was falling, who knows how many tons of metal hurtling toward him and he couldn’t do anything, couldn’t run no matter how much he jerked his arm, couldn’t turn his probably damaged comm on in time, couldn’t do anything but brace himself and pray...
Suddenly, seconds before the mass of metal crashed down around him, it exploded. Some sort of red light flashed across Clint’s vision, knocking the structure away from him and shattering it into smaller pieces that rained down a few feet away from where he was pinned.
Clint blinked, then blinked again as he realized that he was still alive. Somehow. He probably shouldn’t be.
What had just happened?
His eye suddenly caught sight of a movement on the edge of his gaze, and he twisted his neck to see a figure moving toward him. For a second he saw the blue suit and thought it was Steve, but as they came closer he quickly realized it was none of his teammates. The man was wearing a blue, tight suit, but unlike Cap’s it was missing the red and white and instead had yellow accents. There was a tiny bit of red on a symbol across his chest, but it was surrounding an X instead of anything patriotic. Plus, the man looked totally different from Steve with short brown hair and muscles that were much less defined than the Captain's— not that anyone could really measure up to the super soldier’s physique. He was a lot shorter too, though again, no one looked tall next to Captain America. Except maybe Thor, but that was it. On top of that, the man was wearing a strange red and gold visor that covered his eyes and made him look like some sort of retro superhero from the 80’s. Definitely interesting.
Clint groggily realized that the man was talking, registered the sight of his lips moving, but he couldn’t hear a word. His aids were definitely damaged, if not totally broken. Fantastic. Plus, he couldn’t get his brain to work enough to read the man’s lips, and he had a good feeling this guy didn’t know sign language.
“Just a sec,” Clint interrupted, his voice barely audible to his still ringing ears. “Can’t hear right now.”
The man paused, and for a second Clint wondered if he had actually spoken out loud or if it was just in his head. That was honestly a solid possibility with how discombobulated he felt. But then the man nodded and stepped forward, his lips pursed together as he looked at Clint’s predicament. He made a face, which was understandable; the injury was probably pretty ugly. But he didn’t hesitate to reach down and grab the piece of metal, his face twisted in effort as he heaved at it. Clint bit back a cry of pain as his arm was jostled, instead gritting his teeth. The moment the weight had lifted he yanked himself away and scrambled to his feet. He was almost knocked over by the wave of nausea that followed, his arm hanging limply at his side and burning as he steadied himself.
“Thanks,” he croaked out, turning to the other man as he did. The brown-haired hero shrugged, but before he or Clint could say anything else the man whipped around. Clint followed his gaze, groaning as he saw what he was looking at. Three people were running at them, all three wearing all black and dumb robber masks. Some of the goons that were working to hack the towers. Perfect . Exactly what he needed.
Clint caught sight of his bow a few feet away and quickly reached for it, ignoring the pain screaming from his limp arm. He had no idea how he was supposed to use the weapon while he was down one arm, but he knew he would at least feel like he could do something if he had it. But before the weapon was even in his hand he saw a flash from the corner of his eye. He jerked up, bow in hand, to see the man who had pulled him out with a hand to his temple, bright red light exploding from his strange visor in a fearsome beam that had the goons scrambling. One of them was hit by the laser-like beam and let out a shout as they were thrown to the side, instantly going limp as they hit one of the metal towers. Unconscious, hopefully. Meanwhile the other two, a man and a woman, had gotten close enough to tackle the guy. The beam cut off as he moved into hand-to-hand combat. He was holding out well for himself, but Clint jumped into the fray anyway. His arm was in way too much pain for him to draw his bow, so instead he just pulled it back and hit the other man over the head with it. The goon stumbled but didn’t fall— not that it mattered, as Laser-Eyes quickly aimed a kick to his chest. That made the man crumple.
Meanwhile the woman had turned her attention to Clint. He was quickly put on the defensive, his usual offensive strategy essentially useless this close range, especially with his arm out of commission. He was off balance, in pain, and therefore not exactly doing great.
Clint grunted as the woman slammed him to the ground, his head bouncing painfully against the concrete. He could probably go ahead and add concussion to his list of injuries. But just as his head hit suddenly something screamed in his ears, slicing through the dull ringing that had been echoing around in his headspace. Sound burst through in crackling bursts as his hearing aids somehow shuddered to life.
Huh . That was one way to make them work.
He barely managed to roll out of the way of one of her punches, the thud from the impact echoing through his ears. He managed to get a knee up into the woman’s stomach and she grunted, but didn’t move. Her fist hit his injured arm and he bit back a scream as much as he could, filtering it into a strained whimper that honestly was probably even less dignified. He could see the woman smirk under her mask as she pulled back to aim for that spot again, but then she was tackled from behind by the other hero. Clint let out a gasp as the weight was pulled from his pained body, and took a few moments to breathe before jumping up. The sounds of the fight were clear in his ears now, grunts and thuds and then a short zap as another red flash of light shot from the man’s visor. It sent the woman flying back a few paces, and she was limp where she hit the ground.
“Neat trick,” Clint panted, nodding at the other man. “Are they knocked out, or...”
“Knocked out,” the man said simply. Then he frowned. “Wait, uh... can you hear? Or do I need to...”
“I hear you,” Clint said, though it was admittedly difficult. The aids were working, but there was a thick layer of static and the sound was choppy, cutting in and out once and awhile. And what he could hear was surprising, enough to almost make him fumble his bow. From the other man’s fighting he was expecting a deep, heavy voice. But that was not what he was hearing at all.
He realized the man was turning away, and he quickly blurted out a statement.
“Thanks. You kinda saved me there.” The man hesitated, turning around to give a shrug in response. Clint decided that he had nothing to lose by asking a quick question. “What was your name? Why’re you here anyway?”
The man gave a little frown, still only half facing Clint, his brown bangs falling across the top of his visor as he looked at the Avenger. The smoke from the tower that Clint had shot and the one that he had fallen from both streaked the sky, the grey whisps staining the otherwise blue sky just as soot stained the unfamiliar man's blue and gold costume. The frown on his face stayed where it was, firm and unmoving, and when he spoke his voice was infused with a confidence that came with repetition, as if he had prepared to say the words a hundred times before. “I’m Cyclops. Leader of the X-Men.”
With that he turned and sprinted away, leaving Clint standing in the middle of a group of knocked-out goons and smoking debris, dumbfounded. Not because that only answered half his question. Not because he had no clue what the X-Men were. Not even because of how much pain he was in.
That voice . It wasn’t just the static from his hearing aids, it couldn’t be. Something was off about the voice, it’s tomber, it’s pitch, everything about it . It was like no other hero that Clint had ever heard before, or even any other SHIELD agent. It was something that was distinctly, painfully, out of place in the fight that had just occurred.
Suddenly, Clint realized how small the other man was. Not just in comparison to Steve or Thor; he was probably shorter than Tony. And then there was the way his hair seemed just a bit too long, how it hung over his strange golden visor. There was the stuttering, the awkwardness that had shone through for just a moment before he had realized Clint could hear him. And again, his voice was a bit too high, just off enough to be noticable.
Clint sucked in a sharp, painful breath, ignoring the way his aching lungs screamed at him for it.
That wasn’t a man.
That was a kid .
Chapter 2: Turn on the News Once and a While
Summary:
“Hey Nat,” Clint said absently. “Have you heard of the X-Men?”
“The mutant hero group?” Natasha shrugged. “Hasn’t everyone?”
“How old are they?”
“How old?” Natasha asked, raising an eyebrow at Clint. “That’s a weird question.”
Notes:
Oops, I forgot to post the chapter count with the first chapter. Well, now you know! 2 chapters down, 52 to go!
Also uhhh how does this have more kudos than hits? That's not possible, is it? I mean THANK YOU HOLY COW but I didn't think that was possible??
But seriously, thanks for all of the support so far!! This is a fic that has been in progress for a long, long time, and finally seeing that people actually are READING IT is insane!! Thank you!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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“Hey there, hotshot.”
Clint winced a bit as his hearing aids squawked out Natasha’s voice. The noise was shrill, sharp, far harsher than it would be if the things were In the hours since their mission he had managed to sort of get them back into working order, but he was definitely ready for the chance to get a professional to look at them. Or even Tony. Really anyone who knew what to do with them a bit more than just hitting them until there were no more sparks.
But of course, he had injuries to deal with first; his ribs were aching, his head pounding, and his arm had numbed to a dull throb. He couldn’t decide whether that was a good sign or not.
Based on Natasha's expression, it was not. “You look like crap.”
“Gee, thanks,” Clint said with a roll of his eyes even as his own mouth twitched into a smile. “What are you doing here? I thought you were still on that assignment in Bengal?”
“I got it dealt with a bit sooner than Fury expected.” Natasha’s face twisted into a small smirk, and Clint suddenly felt a flash of sympathy for whatever crime syndicate Nat had been pitted against. “What about you? I heard Tony lost a few hundred thousand from a misfire.”
“It’s not like he’s not good for it,” Clint muttered, heat climbing his face. “And I got the right tower in the end.”
“Yeah. After...” She gestured to his roadkill-esqu state and he let out a groan. “Seriously, what did you do? Fall off one of the towers?”
Clint didn’t say anything, which only made Natasha snort out a little laugh. “I can’t believe you Clint.”
“Hey!” Clint protested. “I actually jumped off, for your information.”
“That does not help your case.” Nat shot him another small grin before crossing her arms, her critical gaze sweeping over him again. She hummed knowingly. “Someone’s not going to be too happy about this.”
Clint’s heart dropped in his chest. He ran his working hand through his hair with a groan. “Crud. I promised her a month of no serious injuries, didn’t I?”
“Yep.”
“Can’t you stand up for me?”
“Nope.”
Clint groaned again.
“Come on Hawkeye,” Nat turned, tossing her red hair over her shoulder as she started down the hall. “Let’s get you to Bruce. Hopefully he can clean up the damage a bit before Laura sees you.”
Clint didn’t protest, instead falling in step with Natasha as they walked through the halls of Stark tower. Well, Avengers tower now, apparently. Stark had rebranded it after the Battle of New York a few months ago. Since then it had become a sort of base of operations. Clint hadn’t really expected anyone to stay there but, to his surprise, it was actually really convenient and actually pretty nice. Steve and Bruce had basically moved in since the invasion. Sure, Steve had an apartment in town that he usually stayed at but he spent most of his days in the tower, and Bruce flat-out lived there now that his hide away in New Delhi had been found out; there honestly didn’t seem to be a better place to hide from the government than with Tony Stark. Tony of course was always in and out of the tower, especially now that Pepper was running the company. And over the past few months Clint and Nat both crashed there more and more often between missions. It just made sense; it was in the middle of New York, had state-of-the-art medical equipment and shooting ranges, a direct call line to SHIELD, not to mention an always-stocked kitchen. It was actually a pretty perfect base. The only “Avenger” who didn’t frequent the tower was Thor, who no one had seen hide nor hair of since the battle. Not that Clint totally minded; he liked the guy and all, but the longer he stayed on Asgard the less likely his brother was to escape. Clint did not like Loki. At all.
But apart from that, well, the five of them were actually operating somewhat as a team.
“Hey Nat,” Clint said absently, the thought of teamwork sending his mind wandering back to the fight from earlier. More specifically, the man who had saved his butt. The man who he could still have sworn sounded like a kid. “Have you heard of the X-Men?”
“The mutant hero group?” Natasha stopped at the end of the hallway, leaning forward to pull open the door so Clint could walk into the med bay without trying to maneuver his arm. She shrugged. “Hasn’t everyone?”
“Um, no,” Clint said with a frown as she stepped through the doorway. He tried to turn so that he could use his right arm to hold open the door for Nat, but by the time he did she had already ducked in behind him and the door was shut. “I have no clue who they are.”
“Turn on the news once and while Clint. It’s been all over the place. As soon as the alien threats died down, people found something else to turn their attention to.” Natasha held up her hand in a small wave, and Clint followed her gaze to see Bruce standing over by one of the five medical cots, Tony perched on the cot and muttering something about the cut on his forehead. The other man looked in much better condition than Clint, and Steve apparently hadn’t even been injured badly enough to warrant a visit. Sadly enough, this setup wasn’t out of the ordinary.
“So, what’s their deal?” Clint asked as he gingerly sat down on a cot across from Bruce and Tony. “What do they do?”
“They’re basically glorified mutant rights activists,” Natasha explained. She didn’t bother to sit down, but leaned against a nearby wall as she watched Bruce move over to look at Clint. “But they just surfaced recently. Within the past few months, I think.”
“Who, the X-Men?” Tony chimed in. The billionaire moved to get up, but Bruce shot him a look.
“Stay still Tony, I’m not done yet,” he said in his quiet, calm voice. It always kind of surprised Clint to hear. It was definitely not the voice of someone who could turn into a giant rage monster.
Tony snorted, slumping back in defeat before cutting back into the conversion. “I think they’re basically copycats. They saw what we’re doing as the Avengers and wanted in.”
“Maybe,” Natasha said with a shrug. “They might have started before we did, actually. We don’t really know anything about them. Just that they’re all mutants— that’s the only thing they’ve told the press, or anyone for that matter.”
“Wait, how could they have started before the invasion?” Clint asked, pausing to suck in a breath as Bruce moved over to start working on his arm. “I thought mutants were caused by the wormhole gasses or something?”
“That’s actually a common misconception.” Bruce stuttered a bit as he jumped in, his face flushing at the interruption. Banner was still pretty jumpy around, well, everyone, but he was slowly getting comfortable enough to awkwardly insert himself into conversations when he had something to add. “Mutants have been around for thousands of years, they’ve just been far quieter than they are now. Scientists have found evidence of the X-gene dating back to 100 B.C.”
“X-gene?” Clint cut in. Bruce moved away to grab some anesthetic. “That’s what they call it?”
“It’s the gene that dictates whether a person develops a mutation or not,” Bruce explained. “Most stay dormant for a person’s entire life, but some are apparent at birth or may come out if a traumatic event happens before puberty.” Bruce was talking faster, his eyes widening behind his wire rim glasses. “It’s actually fascinating. The gene is completely unique in the human genome; it changes entirely depending on the host. It adapts in order to fit the organisms’ needs, so no two mutants are the same.”
“Yeah, cool,” Clint said, though honestly Bruce had completely lost him at this point. “So, how old are they? Not mutants, the X-Men.”
“How old?” Natasha asked, raising an eyebrow at Clint. “That’s a weird question.”
“No it’s not,” Clint said automatically even as his face flushed. “I was just wondering.”
“Come on birdbrain, if no one even knows how many of them there are no one is going to know their ages.” Tony rolled his eyes dramatically.
“From the news reports I’ve seen it’s nothing exciting anyway,” Natasha supplemented. “Probably not much younger than us. I hadn’t really thought about it.”
“Why’re you so interested anyway?” Tony leaned back, his eyebrow quirking up. “I never pegged you as the inquisitive type.”
“Because Cyclops was at the fight today,” Clint deadpanned. The other three turned to him, their faces drawn in disbelief while Clint smirked briefly. Beating around the bush seemed pointless, and his teammate’s expressions were totally worth it. If Bruce had dropped the needle he was holding, it could have been heard across the tower. Well, maybe not by Clint, but by everyone else for sure.
"Cyclops?" Natasha echoed. "As in their leader?"
"Yep," Clint said firmly. "At least, that's what he told me."
Tony barked out a laugh. “Yeah right! No way was he there.”
“Yeah, he was!” Clint protested indignantly.
“Don’t you think Capsicle and I would have seen him? I’m calling your bluff.”
“No, none of us mentioned Cyclops,” Natasha pointed out. “Clint wouldn’t be able to actually retain a name, even if he did take the time to turn on a newscast. This is something he might remember.”
“ Thank you Natasha!” Clint said even as Tony snickered.
“But why would he be there?” Bruce interjected as he injected a needle into Clint’s right arm. The archer sucked in a breath at the sudden stab and sent a little glare toward the doctor. “From what I’ve seen, the X-Men only show up to mutant-related crises. That doesn’t correlate.”
“No, recently they’ve been doing more,” Natasha said. “Remember the earthquake a few weeks ago? They were seen pulling people out, and there was nothing mutant-related there.”
“Nothing proven,” Tony cut in. “These days you never know what’s a mutant problem and what’s not.”
Clint listened to them bicker as Bruce started binding up his arm. Half of his attention was on the pain, but most of his mind was occupied with the thought of the X-Men. He had to have been hearing things. His aids were totally jacked up, not to mention how out of sorts the whole fight had him. He was probably just imagining how young the man sounded.
Bruce had just finished with his arm and started on his other injuries when Clint’s phone buzzed in his pocket. At this point Tony and Natasha had turned to some completely different topic, but both turned to look as he checked the caller ID. The name was simple, unmarked, nothing that would attention, and yet made Clint's heart jump in his chest.
Laura.
“I gotta take this,” Clint said quickly. Bruce opened his mouth to protest, but Clint was already standing and heading toward the hallway.
“Ooh, someone’s got Barton in a hurry,” Tony called out. “Who is it? Fury? Your secret girlfriend?”
Clint rolled his eyes, turning back just long enough to catch Natasha’s knowing look. He grinned. “Something like that.”
Then he slipped out, his still-scratchy aids picking up Tony’s “totally his secret girlfriend” comment as he closed the door. Then all his focus was on the phone in his hands. As he looked he caught his breath, his mind racing. What was the date? Was it Wednesday already? Yes, according to his lockscreen, it was. And it was five o’clock too. He had lost track of the time. He meant to call Laura first, right when she got out of the doctor’s office. What was the time zone difference between Missouri and New York again? How late was he?
He quickly realized that if he didn’t pick up the call was going to time out. He cursed under his breath and fumbled the “accept call” button, quickly pulling the phone to his ear as his heart hammered. “Hello? Laura?”
“Hey honey.” Even through the static of his broken hearing aids, his wife’s voice was like music. He didn’t hear it enough, what with missions for SHIELD and the Avengers keeping him away from home more often than he was there. But even as her voice made his lips twitch up in an involuntary smile, he felt his heart drop. She sounded tired— no, not tired, exhausted.
“Are you ok?” He asked quickly. “Are you done with your appointment already? I’m sorry, I meant to call but I just got back from a mission and you know how time zones mess me up—“
“I just finished...” Laura’s voice echoed over the static, and Clint instantly halted. She didn’t just sound exhausted, she sounded on the verge of tears.
This was not the joyous call he was hoping for.
“What’s the news?” Clint asked, and even though dread was building in his stomach he tried to force hope into his voice. “Is... is it good?”
“Clint...” She paused, her usually musical voice dry and raw. “No. No, it’s not good.”
Clint’s throat was dry. “Not good as in...”
“We’re not going to be able to have kids.”
Notes:
Gotta love the expositional banter XD
Pepper, one of my main beta readers and an avid Clintasha shipper, very nearly slapped me for the inclusion of Laura in this fic. Sorry Pep, I had already written most of this when you made the point that Clintasha would have fit well for this! Plus, I'm more of a platonic Clintasha fan lol, and it was fun to explore Laura's character even if she really isn't in it much!
I don't have an exact plan for updating this fic as it usually takes me a full hour or so to actually post a chapter when I decide to and time is not often my friend. However, this fic is complete aside from some editing in some spots, so my goal is at the very least one chapter a week, sometimes more if I feel like it!
With that being said, comments and bookmarks are my weakness... I want to spread this out, but I can definitely be tempted into more frequent updates if you enjoy it!
Chapter 3: What Could Never Be
Notes:
I originally planned to update this weekly... but I've basically been updating it daily... oops
I'm going to slow down a bit to make sure this is spread out, but someone said that they were waiting for an update and this one is pretty short, so I couldn't resist! Hope you enjoy!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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The good news about his broken arm was that he didn’t need any more excuse to get a few weeks off the grid. What good was an archer that couldn’t shoot? It was easy to get some time off to heal. Fury was the only one who needed the messy details.
Laura’s third miscarriage.
The realization had struck him to the core. It had sucked the breath from his lungs and left him shaking, his chest empty, his very soul aching with an emptiness that he could not fill. He had closed his eyes as he ended the phone call with his wife, and they had been dry and itchy in a way that seemed so adverse to the tears that he could feel in his heart; tears for a life that had been lost, for a son or daughter that he could never meet, a third attempt at the life they strove for gone with a heartbeat. It was painful, the aching grief that had engulfed him, that he had carried close to his chest as he made quick excuses to his teammates and booked the first flight to Iowa.
He had hoped against hope that there was something to blame. Some sort of issue they could fix, some sort of problem they could solve, some sort of fight he could fight.
There was nothing.
He couldn’t shoot his way out of this one.
The doctors said it was nothing dangerous, nothing severe, nothing they could pinpoint. But it was dangerous to keep trying. “Some people just weren’t made to be parents” was their explanation. Clint had cursed them out for that. They were wrong ; Laura would make a great mother. The best. He couldn’t speak for himself, but he saw how loving she was to the chickens and the dog, how gentle she was with the plants she kept on the window sill and how wonderful she was with her friend Katie’s kids. The woman managed to even keep him in line, to keep him from getting himself killed. She had spoken about kids since the night they started dating. She was made to be a mother.
It wasn’t fair. It wasn’t fair at all.
They spent the week close together, not talking much, just taking in each other’s company and silently mourning what they never had. What they would never have. Laura was trying to be strong, to pretend she was ok, but there was a shadow over her that had started with her first miscarriage and had only grown darker since. At this point Clint was terrified that it would swallow her up, that it would suck out the sunshine from her eyes that was his only light in the darkness. Laura had saved him from himself in his darkest moments. He wanted desperately to pull her out of hers... but he had no idea how. This was a pain only a mother could face.
He was a mess himself. The huge farmhouse that he loved so much seemed far too big and far too empty now that he realized there would never be little Bartons running down the halls. The four empty bedrooms would never be filled, the old barn would never be converted into a playroom, the kitchen fridge would never be home to little crayon and marker drawings the way that he had always envisioned. It all seemed so empty and cold… and if he was honest his heart felt the same way.
The worst part was that he felt like it was his fault. Something in his genes. Something in the life he lived, the past he had. Something about his own dad, how terrified he was that he would turn out the same way. Maybe fate was doing him a favor by not giving him the chance.
Maybe he wasn’t meant to be a father.
He just wished that Laura didn’t have to suffer with him.
Halfway through the second week he needed a distraction. He couldn’t dwell on it. He had to keep moving, just like he did through all the tragedies in his life. If he just focused on a target, the rest of the world would fade away.
It was complete chance that he flicked on the TV just as the 3 o’clock news ran a segment on recent mutant incidents. It was chance that he turned from the fridge with his milk carton in hand just as they were showing a clip of the X-Men.
Maybe it was because he had kids on his mind. Maybe it was because he had hardly slept the night before. But as he watched the blurry clip play he could have sworn he saw a little girl with a ponytail running through the background in the bright blue spandex. A little girl. A child .
Clint nearly dropped the milk carton. He grabbed the remote, trying to rewind the broadcast, only to curse as he realized it was only cable TV and the news report had already moved on to a completely new section about a local coffee shop’s squirrel problem.
But there was no doubt about that, right? That girl couldn’t have been an adult, right?
Was he really just imagining things?
He left the news on in the background and darted to the other room, where he grabbed his laptop before running back to sit at the kitchen counter. The news report played softly in the background as he booted up the computer. The minute it was loaded up, he did a quick google search for “X-Men”.
Like Natasha and Tony had said, there wasn’t much. Only a handful of instances showed actual confirmed appearances of the heroes and then, of course, there were another hundred or so that were probably fake. And photos were even harder to come by. The ones he was able to find were mostly grainy bits of security footage or amateur iPhone videos. But as he combed through them, the 3 o’clock news slowly turning into the 4 o’clock news and even the 5 o’clock news, he started to become more and more sure. It was little details, things that you wouldn’t see unless you looked for them. Even things that he could be making up. But in one shot it looked like one of the X-Men’s shoes was untied. In another one of them was standing next to a man he had saved, and the victim had to be at least a foot taller than the hero. In one video shot shakily from a rooftop down into an alleyway where the X-Men were scraping anti-mutant graffiti distant voices could be heard; definitely the voices of bickering children, whether they were the X-Men or not.
Clint finally leaned back from his computer, his back starting to ache from hunching over the screen for so long. He paused for a moment, staring at all the tabs opened in his search bar. It wasn’t concrete evidence by any means. Fury would probably call him crazy. Natasha might too. Tony definitely would.
Was he crazy? Did he just have kids on his mind?
He didn’t have kids on his mind when he talked to Cyclops. It was only a few short sentences, but he was still sure.
He almost called Laura to ask her to double check him, to see if he was crazy, but he stopped himself. She was distracted, working in her garden and tending the chickens and slowly falling back into her regular routine. She had been doing better the past few days. He didn’t want to bring up the topic of kids in any way, just in case it hurt her all over again.
But as he stared at the screen at a grainy picture of three of the X-Men pulling people out of a supposedly mutant-caused fire, he just couldn’t shake the feeling.
Laura was finding things to distract her. Maybe this could be what distracted him.
Notes:
Thank you so much for reading, next update will probably be on Monday!
Chapter 4: The Weight of the World
Summary:
Helping an Avenger was a terrible idea.
It was a terrible idea, but he had done it anyway. Now there was nothing Scott could do but wait for the consequences.
Notes:
Alright, I'm going to make an attempt at consistency and say this fic is going to be updated on Mondays and Thursdays! I was going to update only once a week but honestly I can't bear that I really love this fic and it has been completed for a while lol.
Hope you enjoy this chapter, first look at another perspective!
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Helping an Avenger was a terrible idea.
Scott knew that the moment he and Kitty had noticed the fight. He had known the moment that they saw the tell-tale glint of Iron Man’s armor, just too late for them to back out. They should have left it alone. They were just walking home with groceries, a normal Wednesday excursion. They always passed the old Stark power plant on the way home. Sean always wanted to try flying around the tall, silver metal towers, and Scott always told him no. It was way too dangerous.
But not as dangerous as interrupting a fight with the Avengers.
He knew it was a terrible idea, and he tried to pull Kitty away. But she saw the tower shaking with the explosions, saw one of the Avengers throw himself off, and next thing Scott knew she was pulling him through the chain link fence and over to help, groceries forgotten on the ground behind them. They had their suits on under their civilian clothes of course. But it didn’t change the fact that it was an Avenger that they were helping. An Avenger, a group that Professor X had told them over and over again to avoid. A group that had the power to turn the public against them with one wrong move. A group that was better left completely out of their mission.
It was a terrible idea, but he had done it anyway. Now there was nothing he could do but wait for the consequences.
“Scott!”
Scott Summers was pulled from his thoughts by a shrill, high-pitched whine. There was a thump on the couch behind him and he turned to see a small, pale face popping over the top of the cushions, a brunette ponytail flopping over her forehead and her arms dangling over by his shoulder. Her bottom lip popped out and she turned big eyes on Scott as her arms pulled up to cross under her chin.
“Sean stole the last waffle!”
Scott shifted on the couch, a small sigh leaving his lips as he turned to better face Kitty. The black eye had nearly faded at this point, which was good. He was pretty sure she hadn’t gotten a concussion, which was also good. Kitty really needed to get better at hanging back on missions. She needed way more practice before she was really ready for field work. He reached out, quickly flicking the ponytail from her face. “Did you tell him you wanted it?”
She nodded vigorously, the ponytail flopping right back in her face as she leaned farther over the back of the couch. “Uh huh! I had it on my plate! And he snatched it!”
“Are you sure he heard you?”
“He was standing right there! Kurt was halfway across the room and he heard me!”
“Did he apologize?”
Kitty stopped, frowning. “Well… I mean…”
Scott gave his little sister a knowing look. “Did you give him the chance to? Or did you come straight to me?”
She didn’t answer, her fingers twisting guiltily into the blue fabric of the blanket that was draped over the back of the couch. Scott felt another sigh rumbling in his chest, but he bit it back and instead said Kitty’s name softly until she looked up at him. “Remember, no tattling. You have to try and work it out with each other first, then come to me. Understand?”
Kitty nodded begrudgingly, her bottom lip still stuck out in a pout.
“Now, what are you going to do?” Scott prompted.
“Go talk to Sean.”
“...And?”
“Tell him I’m sorry for tattling.”
Scott chuckled. “You don’t have to do that. But you do have to give him the chance to apologize, ok?”
She nodded, her pout fading a bit. “I can do that.”
“And are you still going to be mad if he apologizes?”
She shook her head, ponytail flopping with the movement. “He was mean, but that doesn’t mean I hafta be mean! I’m not that hungry anyway.”
Scott grinned and nodded. “Good job.”
Kitty beamed at the praise and promptly dropped from the back of the couch and out of Scott’s eyesight. He could hear the patter of her feet as she charged to the kitchen, hopefully to make up with Sean. With any luck, it would be a painless resolution. Kitty was usually the best at these kinds of things; quick to get upset and demand retribution, but also quick to recognize her mistakes and quick to forgive others. He was just thankful it wasn’t Warren and Sean fighting. That wouldn’t be resolved so peacefully.
Now that Kitty was gone, suddenly the weight of the argument settled on him. The actual argument was childish and simple, nothing to be surprised by. Of course they would argue. But the fact that it was over their last frozen waffle… that was something he hadn’t picked up on fully until the end of the conversation.
He groaned, slumping back against the couch as his eyes squeezed shut tight, tight enough that he was able to move his visor up and rub between his eyes. The pounding force of his power echoed the pounding force of his rising headache. They would need to get groceries again soon. He had been trying to put it off as long as he could after their last outing, but no matter how slow he was cautioning everyone to go, it seemed like food was disappearing. So were their savings.
The amount of money they had left was concerning. Scott was doing his best, but he knew that they could not last for much longer on what they had. Feeding six people was almost impossible, especially growing kids… what would they do once the money was gone? Scott knew he needed to get a job, but he was the only one legally able to. And if he was working, who would watch over his siblings? And even if he was working, how on earth would he make enough to sustain the six of them?
The questions weighed on his shoulders, heavy and tangible, the sort of heavy that made his chest seize up and his head pound harder…
“Yah ok, Scott?”
Scott quickly shoved his visor back in place with a start. He pressed it close to his face, made sure the seal was tight and solid, and still hesitated a moment before cracking his eyes open. The lenses tinted the living room red, and he let out a soft sigh of relief as he glanced up at Rogue. She was curled up in one of the armchairs across from him, one of Sean’s Rubix cubes in her gloved hands. The cube had almost one full side solved, but the rest was in complete disarray. It probably hadn’t been solved since it was bought, and it had been in the house longer than any of them had. The red head quirked an eyebrow at him through her white bangs, her lips pursed as she studied him with a critical eye. “‘Cause yah don’t look good.”
Scott cleared his throat, quickly shaking his head. “Yeah,” he said quickly. “Yeah, I’m fine. Just… thinking.”
Rogue snorted, her eyes turning back to the Rubix cube as she made a few moves. “Yah think too much.”
Scott chuckled, hoping it sounded less forced than it felt. Rogue was right, in some ways. But who else was there to think about it? Kitty was way too young. So was Kurt. Sean was getting older, but he was still immature— half the time he caused the things that needed to be thought through. And Warren? Well, that was a big no-go; the boy was still way too much of a wild card, way too new to their group for Scott to put any of that trust in him. So that left him and Rogue, and Scott was the older of them. He was the first one Professor X took in. He had to do the thinking.
It was his duty as the leader.
Helping an Avenger was a terrible idea, but there was no way to change it. No matter how much Scott wanted to change it. It had happened, and there was no going back. He just had to hope that it slipped back under the radar. He had to hope that Hawkeye forgot about the encounter, that he didn't care enough to think about it any further. He had to hope so, because Scott could hardly think of the consequences. Not now, when he had so many other things to occupy his mind.
He just had to hope that he would never see the Avenger again.
Notes:
Oh my goodness I'm already working on my next fic and comparing the word count of those chapters to these... *smh* I'm sorry these are so short oh my goodness.
But hey, first look at the kids! I actually love this chapter, just siblings being siblings and Scott trying his best... hopefully it sets the mood for the rest of the fic.
Next update should be on Thursday! :D thank you so much for reading, holy cow any time I see a new bookmark, hit, or kudo on this I go nuts!
Chapter 5: Can’t Stand Alone
Summary:
“If I’m right… we need to find them.”
She quirked an eyebrow again. “We?”
“Yes. Please Nat, I’m not capable enough to figure this out on my own.”
Notes:
Haha I said I’d have a chapter on Thursday but I forgot I was GRADUATING oh boy so hopefully starting now there will be some sort of consistency! :D
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
“You’re going to think I’m crazy, aren’t you Nat?”
Natasha rolled her eyes, nonchalantly raising a cup of tea to her lips. The steam wafted up from the mug, twisting in her red curls. Clint couldn’t understand how she could stand drinking it like that. She had just poured the water from the kettle, water that was literally boiling as it hit her cup; how could anyone survive drinking it that hot? “I’ve thought you were crazy for years Clint. I doubt you can do anything to surprise me.”
“I don’t know whether to feel reassured or offended,” Clint said honestly.
She shrugged, setting her tea down for a moment to stir it. “So, what is it? What did you have to drag me down here for? And more importantly—” she gestured pointedly toward the backyard before taking another sip of tea. “— what was so important that your wife couldn't hear about it?”
Clint sighed, running his hand through his hair, his fingers tapping idly on his computer keys. In his head, telling Natasha his theory sounded easy. When he had called her asking her to come to the farm when she had a day off, he had thought it would be easy. But now, face to face with his friend… yeah, he was definitely going to sound crazy.
“So…” he started slowly, the word let out with a long huff of air as he prepared himself. “You know the X-Men?”
“Yes.”
“The ones we were talking about a few weeks ago?”
“Yes.”
“The ones I saw at the power plant fight?”
“Still not completely sure about that, but yes.”
“Well…” Clint leaned back in his chair, the wood scrapping the tile as he tilted the legs in the way Laura hated. “I think they’re kids.”
Natasha’s expression didn’t change. She just watched him over the rim of her mug, her eyebrow quirking up ever so slightly as she took another long sip of burning water. Did she even have taste buds left in her mouth? Had she burned them away through years of practiced tea drinking? “Kids.”
Clint nodded, trying to determine how crazy she thought he was. “Yep.”
“As in under 18,” she said slowly, setting her mug down as she did. “Children.”
“That’s what I’m saying.”
“You know they broke up a bar fight last month?”
“Protecting that new mutant pop singer, Dazzler.” Clint nodded, his mouth quirking up in a wiry smirk. “I turned on the news a few times.”
Natasha nodded, and Clint thought he saw a flash of respect in her eyes. Or maybe it was just surprise that he had actually done research for once. “So,” she said calmly, stirring her tea with a spoon as she kept a careful eye on him. “What leads you to believe that these heroes— who have been stopping gang violence, street crime, and bar fights for months— are underage?”
“Cyclop’s voice,” Clint said quickly. “When I saw him that first time. You know—“
“—At the power plant fight, yes.” Natasha cut in. “Clint, your hearing isn’t exactly the most reliable source…”
“Which is why I dug deeper,” Clint said. He turned his computer to face Natasha, the photos and news reports he had pulled up scattered across the page. “They’re tiny, Tasha. And their fighting style… it doesn’t seem like an adult’s.”
Natasha frowned, her sharp gaze running critically over the pictures. “Clint, these are awful. You can’t tell anything from these.”
“They’re the best I could find. And you know I can Tasha. My hearing may be crap, but you know why they call me Hawkeye.”
Her eyes flicked up to meet his. “You’re serious about this.”
Her tone was intense, the sort of intense that Clint could easily pick up from working with her for so long. It makes his next words feel heavier, as if they carried weight and gravity. “Yeah. Yeah, I am.”
Her gaze does not waver. “Clint, this… this is a big accusation.”
“I know.”
“There’s no real proof.”
“I know.”
She hesitated, frowning, as if deciding whether or not she should say her next sentence. “...Clint, are you sure this isn’t just a product of…”
“ No. ” Clint said firmly. “No, I promise you it’s not.”
She looked at him, her eyes searching his with that piercing gaze that Clint always swore could see into his soul. It was sharp, truth-seeking… and Clint was sure he could see a hint of pity in it.
“Tasha, I promise you. It’s not that.” He slumped forward in his chair, the legs hitting the ground a little too hard as he braced his elbows on the table. His hand ran through his sandy blonde hair and he let out a sigh. He was right… right? This had nothing to do with him and Laura, what they could or couldn’t do. He had come up with this suspicion long before hearing the news. This was different. This was separate.
But of course, nothing was completely separate. He knew that, he had to admit that. “I would be talking to her about this, honestly. But… I can’t bring up kids right now. I just can’t.”
Natasha’s eyes flicked to the kitchen window, and Clint followed her gaze. Outside Laura was feeding the chickens, a basket of eggs in one hand and a bag of feed in the other. She was laughing, her face split in a smile as one of the hens pecked at her sandals. Clint’s gaze lingered on her, lingered on every detail of her smile, the way she moved as she bent down to move the shoo the chicken away, the way her lips puckered as she clucked teasingly at it. She was beautiful. She was happy. He couldn’t do anything to disrupt that.
He turned back to Natasha after a moment longer. Her eyes were already fixed back on him, watching him closely. The sharp, discerning eyes of a friend. Of a person he could trust with anything. “Call me crazy Nat, but I think I know what I’m talking about.”
Natasha watched him for another moment, her eyes searching his. Then they dropped back to the computer screen in front of her. She reached out and took another long, scorching sip of tea. “What if you are right? What then?”
There it was. The big question. Past the first layer of doubt, past the craziness of the suggestion. On to what to do. Did he have an answer for that?
He took a deep breath, his hand running through his hair again. “If I’m right… we need to find them.”
She quirked an eyebrow again. “We?”
“Yes. Please Nat, I’m not capable enough to figure this out on my own. Stark won’t want to help, Bruce is busy, Steve wouldn’t know how to even if he wanted to, Thor is who-knows-where, and Fury would have agents swarming over this in seconds. I don’t want that. I just want to get to the bottom of this.”
She stirred her tea again, her gaze lingering on the rising steam for a moment, watching it drift slowly into the air. The wisps of vapor dissipated slowly, leaving white trails traced through the air for a few seconds before they were erased and overtaken by new strands. Her hair fell across her shoulders, her brow crunched ever so slightly in decision as she watched the steam.
“You’re right about one thing,” she said slowly. “You’re not capable enough to figure it out yourself.”
Clint nodded. “Again, not sure whether to feel reassured or offended.”
“If they are kids, they could get themselves seriously hurt.”
“Unless someone stops them.”
“And if I say yes?” She turned her eyes back to him, pinning him to the spot with her contemplative gaze. “What’s our first move?”
“Find them,” Clint said simply, matching her stare. “They show up at almost any mutant-related crime. We keep an eye out, meet them there. Or find a pattern in their sightings, triangulate it back to a home base. You’re good at that.”
She held his gaze for another moment, her hands cupped around her tea and her eyes bearing the heat of it. Clint held steady, refusing to break contact. He needed Natasha in on this. He couldn’t do it himself, he would think he’s going crazy. But if she could see it too, if she could help him find real evidence… then they had to do something. He couldn’t back down from that.
“Fine.” The word was simple, but it was a blessing to Clint. “I’ll see what I can do.”
He could feel some of the tension leaving his body, relief setting in. And the timing could not have been more perfect— just as Natasha uttered the end of her sentence, the sound of the back door opening echoing through the house. No more talking about kids, not around Laura. But that was fine. Clint had what he needed.
He had an ally.
Notes:
Huge thank you for reading, sorry if its a little rough I am uploading this while watching Sonic the Hedgehog 2 😎
Should be updating again on Thursday!
Chapter 6: When You Least Expect It
Summary:
Clint felt like he was keeping an eye out everywhere, expecting a costumed crime fighter to leap into the fray every time he was fighting the villain-of-the-week, every time he passed a dark alley corner, every time he flicked on the news. He was always looking.
He was so busy looking that he almost missed them.
Notes:
Woah, Cyn actually updating when she said she would? Surprise! :D
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Chapter Text
His arm was healed and he was back on the job, but Clint’s mind was far from the field.
The more he dug into this case, the more he found himself digging. He had gone down hundreds of internet holes looking for information about the X-Men, usually coming up with nothing. He found plenty of names, plenty of possible members of the group, but almost no confirmation that they actually existed. He scoured missing persons cases across the city, but who was to say they were from New York? The city or the state? And the amount of brown-haired teen boys that had disappeared over the past few years… Well, it wasn’t exactly a small number.
Once he had started down the rabbit hole, it had taken over his thoughts. The X-Men were a mystery, one that was frustratingly impossible to crack. From members that had been clearly made up by the press to incidents that he heard about but never appeared in the news, every lead that he thought he had ended up in a dead end. From an agent whose job description often involved information gathering and infiltration, the lack of answers was becoming quickly infuriating. And yet, at the same time, every lack of information made him even more determined to pull together the truth.
It was bordering on obsessive at this point, he knew, but he couldn’t make himself stop. Half of the time, he thought he was stupid. He considered abandoning it, the sheer lack of proof glaring him in the face. But the other half he just knew. These were kids. He was sure of it.
Half of the time , at least.
It was even starting to distract him on missions. Not so much that Fury or Hill would notice in the reports, but enough that Natasha would throw him a knowing glance or Tony would make a joke about “hawk vision, ostridge focus”. He couldn’t help it. He felt like he was keeping an eye out everywhere, expecting a costumed crime fighter to leap into the fray every time he was fighting the villain-of-the-week, every time he passed a dark alley corner, every time he flicked on the news. He was always looking.
He was so busy looking that he almost missed them.
“Clint, are you coming?”
The archer grunted a little, rubbing his eyes as he leaned back from his computer screen. It was the middle of the afternoon on a dreary, wet Tuesday and he was in the middle of— yet another— deep internet hole of X-Men theories. Well, it was originally about the X-Men, at least. At this point it had completely spiraled away. He pulled himself away from the screen to look up at Steve as the question hung in the air. “Coming for what?”
“We just had a distress call phoned in to SHIELD,” Steve explained. Clint could see him tightening the straps for his shield against his bright blue sleeve. They really needed to get his suit updated or something, that spandex couldn’t offer much protection. Then again, it wasn’t like the super soldier needed it. “Some civil disturbance down at one of the old factories.”
“In this weather?” Clint grumbled, glancing out one of the large floor-to-ceiling windows on the common floor. The rain smacked heavily against the panes, and Clint wrinkled his nose at the thought of leaving the warm, dry tower. “Isn’t that a little below our pay rate?”
“We don’t get paid,” Bruce chimed in from his spot curled in an armchair across the room, his nose buried in a book. Clint felt a flash of pride at the scientist’s comedic timing and let out a good-natured groan.
“Right. I forget that wonderful detail.”
“There was a report of powered individuals on the premises. Fury wanted one of us to check it out,” Steve said, already striding toward the elevator. “Stark is in a meeting, Natasha is on a mission… I don’t need the backup, but it would be nice to have.”
Clint let out a huff, glancing down at the computer screen in front of him. The twelve tabs he had open glared back at him. If he was honest, he was making no headway. The words from articles were all blending together, and the internet hole he had gone down at this point had strayed from the X-Men and more into meme territory. He would have to try and make sure Nat didn’t see his search history; there were a couple pictures of her face edited onto a spider’s body that he was going to have to use for a prank at some point. But besides that, he hadn’t found anything useful in… was it hours or days at this point? Maybe even weeks? What exactly qualified as useful anyway?
With a small sigh he shut the laptop, shoved it to the side and stood up, stretching as he did. Maybe a quick mission would give him a chance to clear his mind. Otherwise his brain was going to melt out onto the keyboard. He didn’t feel up to cleaning that mess.
Steve waited impatiently as he took five minutes to throw on his “work uniform” and— much more importantly— grab his bow. Then the two made their way down to the garage level. Stark’s garage was always an impressive sight, but the pair ignored his flashy sports cars with only a slight protest from Clint and instead settled on a simple, silver Honda Civic. Nice and low key, which was more important in this case no matter how nice the Jaguars looked. From there it only took about ten minutes with Steve driving to get from the tower to the spot where the alert was sent from. Honestly, Steve was a somewhat reckless driver, and it made Clint glad that the rain had driven at least a few New Yorkers inside. It pelted against the windows as he strapped on his gloves and boots, already regretting his decision. Steve could probably handle whatever this was, and he would much rather be sprawled out on the couch doing research or just looking through the Internet than be out in this yuck. He would even pick up a book . It had to have been months since he read a real book.
But instead, he was stepping out of the car into the pelting rain outside of a creepy old abandoned factory that looked like it should have been a set for a medical horror show. Yes, definitely the place he wanted to be.
“So what exactly are we doing here?” Clint grumbled as he followed Steve into the factory. He was immensely thankful for an excuse to get out of the rain, even if the shadowed facility smelled like stale disinfectant and something burnt.
“I told you, it was a civil disturbance report. Someone a block away or so saw what looked like evidence of a powered individual down here, or at least a fight. That’s what Fury told me.”
They ducked under a thick steel beam, and Clint frowned “And did Fury tell you what that evidence was? What we might be up against?”
“Nope.”
Clint rolled his eyes. “Figures.”
The pair made their way deeper into the abandoned factory, rain still pouring outside. Clint could see drips of condensation forming on the walls, droplets dripping from what seemed like hundreds of leaks in the ceiling. No wonder this place was abandoned. However, there was no dust as far as Clint could see, and scrapes on the floor and some boxes piled in the corner indicated that the factory may have been vacated fairly recently. Whether that was a good thing or a bad thing… well, it was probably safe to assume it was a bad thing.
“Fury said something about them moving facilities due to gang violence,” Steve said, shrugging a bit as he stepped over a thick metal pipe. “That was months ago though. At least, from what Fury said.”
“What company was it?” Clint asked, glancing around the dank building. “It looks like a supervillain brand if I had to guess.”
“Not sure,” Steve said, completely ignoring Clint’s quip. The archer rolled his eyes, almost stumbling over a hole in the ground before catching himself. “But as far as I know this has nothing to do with the previous owners. It’s unoccupied now, and—“
Before Steve could finish his thought a shot echoed through the building. A gunshot . Voices echoed after it, muffled under the rain. The two heroes exchanged a glance, and then Steve was taking off in the direction of the sound, Clint on his heels. Because, of course, when you hear gunfire the best thing to do is to run straight toward it . The amount of times Clint found himself doing just that would make some people think he had a death wish. In all honesty, he might.
They burst out of a side door, and suddenly the shouting was loud enough that even Clint could hear it over the pounding rain. There was definitely a group of figures tousling in the alleyway outside the factory, but Clint was instantly distracted by a bright flash of red light. He ducked and lept out of the way as the laser beam slashed through the bricks behind him and cursed wildly while fumbling with his bow. He should have gone up to the rafters to snipe, why in the world had he stayed on the ground floor? What was he thinking?
The rain made his fingers and the bowstring slick, but he managed to get an arrow knocked. He pulled the bow back, his arms steady as the string went taut. His eyes sliced through the air, sharp and focused as he kept an eye out for another attack. However, he quickly realized that the laser must have been a misfire. The fighters didn’t seem at all interested in him; they were too busy fighting each other. The odds seemed to be three on two, wait no, at least four on three. It was hard to tell with everyone moving and fighting how many there were, let alone who was on what side. The rain didn’t help, in fact it had gotten worse in the few minutes he and Steve were in the building. It pounded down on his back and clouded his vision, making it even more difficult to make out the members of the brawl. But there was one thing he could be sure of; at least some of the fighters had powers, and were using them.
At least they weren’t out here for nothing.
Clint glanced to his side, trying to figure out what Steve’s plan was. But the super soldier was nowhere to be seen… nope, scratch that, he was somewhere; the middle of the fight. Clint let out a noise of frustration— for the guy who’s always telling Tony to make a plan first, Steve Rodgers really had no self preservation skills.
Then again, Clint was not one to talk about self preservation.
With a groan, Clint shoved his arrow back in his quiver and slung his bow over his back. He had no idea what side they were supposed to be fighting for here, and there was too much going on for him to be able to guarantee hitting the right people. Mostly because he had no idea who the right people were. So he settled for fists and feet, and followed Steve’s lead of throwing himself straight into the fight. He quickly zeroed in on a big-looking guy who was towering over a much smaller, more wiry man. The big guy looked ready to deal an intense blow, so Clint just followed his instincts and barreled into the man. He staggered, his attention turning from the little guy to Clint… who was now realizing that maybe he had made a bad move.
“Hey,” Clint said, raising his voice so he could be heard over the rain. Banter was good. Banter tended to help out in fights, especially when he had no idea who he was fighting for. “Hawkeye here, card-carrying Avenger. Maybe you’ve heard of me? Wanna fill me in on what’s going on?”
The big guy growled, somehow drawing himself up even taller as he prepared to punch Clint. But before he could he was blasted by a bright red flash of light. He let out a shriek and stumbled back as Clint’s attention was pulled to the man he had just saved moments before. He was a small, wiry man with long limbs covered in blue spandex, wet brown hair dripping over a weird gold visor over his eyes…
“Holy…” Clint muttered, his brain churning at a million miles an hour. “Cyclops?”
Clint was sure he heard the man curse, but it was lost under the static of the rain. “What are you doing here? ”
“Saving you, it looks like,” Clint said. As he did he pulled out an arrow, quickly knocking and pulling it back before sending it flying into the enraged bad guy’s leg— at least he hoped the big guy was the bad guy. Otherwise he just put a nice dude in the hospital and was going to have some serious issues with the X-Men down the road. “Think we’re even now?”
“I had that , I didn’t need help!” The boy’s voice was shaking with anger, and suddenly Clint was never more sure. The kid wasn’t trying as hard to be formal and intense like he had at the power plant fight. He was full of adrenaline, fighting for his life, angry, and that young voice was showing right through.
Before Clint could think of something to say suddenly a weight slammed into his back. He grunted as he was slammed to the ground, sharp fists pummeling his back. He dimly heard shouting, but was too busy throwing off the person on his back to tell what they were saying. He twisted around, loosening their hold as he used a move Natasha had shown him to slam the other person to the ground and roll on top of them— it was a move that typically worked great against grown men. What he wasn’t expecting was for a wing to hit him in the face halfway through the roll. He grunted and misjudged the move so that he ended up a few feet away from the two men. He took the chance to leap to his feet, only to find his attacker already standing and arguing with Cyclops. Clint hadn’t been making it up— the guy had wings, two giant white wings that flared as he spoke to the X-Man. Actually, he was wearing the blue spandex too… in fact, Clint was pretty sure he had seen pictures of this guy…
“Angel?” He said cautiously. The winged mutant whirled around, his blonde hair slick against his skull as he glared at the Avenger.
“You got a problem, sir? ”
“Don’t worry about it Angel, I’ve got this!” Cyclops shouted sharply. He gestured to something behind Clint. “Go help Banshee!”
Angel looked like he was about to argue, but a shout across the battlefield drew his attention. No, not a shout. That was a scream, a scream so sharp that Clint thought his hearing aids were about to short circuit. Angel cursed wildly and then his wings were slashing out against the rain, sweeping him up into the air and over the heads of the other men. Clint caught a glance of at least two of the bigger guys knocked out on the ground, a third and possibly the last one locked in a grapple with Steve. Next to them a crying child— no, judging by the blue suit a crying X-Man— was crouched on the ground holding his leg.
A shot of adrenaline surged through Clint and he moved to follow Angel, but Cyclops stepped into his way. The kid— he had to be at least a teenager, but no older than that— had his arms crossed and Clint got the distinct impression that he was glaring at him despite the fact that the boy’s eyes were completely covered.
“Hey, kid, listen,” Clint said firmly. “We’re here to help you, ok?”
“We don’t need help.” If Clint had thought Cyclop’s voice was angry before, now it was furious. The boy seemed to notice though because he paused and took a deep breath. When he spoke again Clint noticed that he had forced his voice to steady, to sound deeper. “We are the X-Men. We take care of our own.”
“Right, right, I don’t doubt that,” Clint said, even though he highly doubted the ability of kids to take care of each other. “But your buddy needs help. Banshee, right?” Clint tried to crane his neck to see the kid, but both Cyclops and the fight were in the way. “He looks like he’s hurt, we can get him help.”
“I already told you, we don’t need help .” Cyclops insisted. He took a step closer to Clint, a move that was probably supposed to be intimidating, but the fact that he was a decent bit shorter than Clint made it less effective. “We fight our own battles. You just need to stay out of them.”
Clint was about to argue, to say something quick-witted, to ask the kid how old he was or at least something , but he wasn’t fast enough. Before he could speak the last of the big bad guys fell at Steve’s punch. At the same moment Angel lifted Banshee up into the air, his broad white wings beating against the rain. Steve moved to intercept the kids, but Angel kicked him away and flew out of reach, the two of them disappearing over the top of the factory. Clint whipped around to face Cyclops again, only to see that the boy was already running away from him. He let out a shout and started to give chase, but the kid was already inside the factory and by the time Clint managed to make it through the doorway to follow, the leader of the X-Men had disappeared.
Clint stopped, breathing heavily. The fight had been short, but it was really his surprise that took the wind from him. The X-Men showed up. He actually saw them again. He wasn’t somehow making up what happened at the power plant. They were really out here, fighting crime, getting hurt.
Only a second after Clint entered the building Steve was beside him. The super soldier never really seemed to be out of breath, but the rising and falling of his chest was definitely a bit heavier than it usually was. There was a dim bit of bruising forming on his left arm, but Clint knew that the man probably could hardly feel it. Like Clint, it was probably more the surprise than anything as his blue eyes scoured the factory floor before turning to focus on the other man.
“Clint. Those were—“
“Kids.” Clint sucked in a shaky breath as he ran his fingers through his wet hair. “Yeah. They’re kids.”
Notes:
Look at that, they actually met again! Only took four chapters!
Thank you so much for reading, comments and kudos are admittedly my life blood
Chapter 7: A Name and a Face
Summary:
“I saw them the other day Nat, and I swear Cyclops can’t be older than sixteen. Not even, I don’t think. And Angel, he was right there with him, he had to be fifteen, maybe even…”
“Fourteen?”
Chapter Text
The rain was still pounding two days later when Clint found himself in Natasha’s room, his bow still in his hands from a training session with Steve. He had spent the last forty eight hours trying to talk the super soldier down from talking to Fury about the mutant heroes... a mission in which he just barely succeeded. It wasn’t that he didn’t trust Fury of course, it was just… he couldn’t quite trust Fury with this. Not yet, at least. Not until he had made contact with the kids for real. Not until he was sure they wouldn’t scare them off. Then they would need Fury, of course. But first they had to find the kids.
He just hoped that Natasha had good news.
“How’d the mission go?” Clint asked, flopping unceremoniously into one of the two chairs in Natasha’s room, his bow propped up against it haphazardly. She was sitting cross-legged on her bed, her hair half done in a braid that she was working on. One of her feet was propped up slightly on a pillow and wrapped in surgical gauze. Bruce had said it wasn’t broken, just a bruised bone. Whatever that meant, she still was supposed to stay off her feet for a while; hence why it was Clint barging into her room and not the other way around.
Natasha quirked an eyebrow at him. “You know how it went. You heard the report this morning.”
“Well yeah, ” Clint smirked. “But you know the official report always has to be tweaked.”
“Like how your outing with Steve the other day was a bust?” She shifted slightly, eyes on her hair as she twisted the red curls into a braid. “That you were too late to see anything?”
Clint’s smirk just deepened. “Exactly.”
Natasha hummed a reply, her fingers twisting expertly in her hair. It wasn’t even a normal braid, as Clint quickly noticed. It was one of those complicated fish-tail braids or something. And yet it looked flawless as she finished it up, tied it off and flipped it over her shoulder. “So maybe that two hundred thousand that ended up in the river didn’t exactly end up in the river.”
“Oh?” Clint propped his elbow on the armrest of the chair, grinning as he rested his chin on his palm. “And what may or may not have happened to the money that is definitely currently decorating some fish’s home?”
“Well, I can’t tell you for sure, of course,” Natasha winked. “But there may be a chance that the small businesses who were being ripped off by the boating scheme could have gotten a little bonus for their troubles.”
Clint let out a little whistle. “Now, if only that could have happened.”
“Wouldn’t it be nice?” Natasha shifted again, doing her best to reposition herself so that her leg was still propped up while she reached to grab a stack of papers on her desk. Clint started to move forward to help her, but by the time he had stood up she was holding the papers comfortably and smirking at him. “Well, as much as I like catching up, you know I asked you to come in here for something else.”
“ More like hoping.” Clint let out a breath and slumped back against the chair. “I’m getting nowhere with this. I saw them the other day Nat, and I swear Cyclops can’t be older than sixteen. Not even, I don’t think. And Angel, he was right there with him, he had to be fifteen, maybe even…”
“Fourteen?”
Clint looked up as Natasha pulled a piece of paper from her stack. She held it out and Clint pulled his chair closer to the bed so he could take it from her. It was a screenshot of a web page he was pretty sure, though the search bar and other elements had been cropped out by the printer. He could see a bar that indicated scrolling on the side of the paper, and the words cut off at the bottom to indicate more text somewhere. But it wasn’t the words that drew his attention. It was the large picture in the top left corner. A picture of a soot-streaked, glowering child. There was a little text below it that said it was taken four years ago, when the subject was ten…
“That’s him,” Clint said, his mind reeling with shock. “That has to be him… I mean, how many kids have—“
“Wings?” Natasha finished for him. Clint nodded wordlessly, staring at the image. There was no denying it. Clint may have only seen the boy for a few minutes, but that was plenty for him to be sure that the boy he met and the boy in the image were the same. They both had the same blonde hair, the same blue eyes, the same freaking wings… and beyond that, almost even more striking was the expression. The anger contained in that tiny, dirt streaked face. It was shocking, and it looked just like the yelling boy he had seen just two nights before.
“Nat,” he breathed, almost overwhelmed by the evidence, the physical proof in his hands. “Where on Earth did you find this?”
“Child Protective Services,” Natasha explained simply.
“How? I looked through all the available files in New York…”
“They only have the unadopted kids on file for the public to see,” Natasha said. “Luckily, it’s easier to access restricted web pages when in the middle of uncharted waters. CPS was hardly the hardest hacking I’ve ever done.”
“But that had to be thousands of kids,” Clint started.
“It was. I cross-referenced confirmed X-Gene status and then looked for the things you sent me.” Natasha gestured to the rest of the stack sitting on the edge of her bed. “I still had a hundred or so results, but thankfully Warren was easy to pick out.”
Warren. That was the first name they had gotten so far. Now that Clint took the time to slow down and look back at the paper he saw the name in bold print under the picture. Warren ??? . There were literal question marks on the file. Clint frowned.
“No last name?”
“Nope. CPS picked him up when he was ten, and he apparently refused to tell them. No DNA records either.”
“Well where was he for the first ten years of his life?”
“No one knows, but probably nowhere good,” Natasha admitted. “His time in the system was rough too, with such a visible mutation. It didn’t help that he almost ended up in juvie multiple times.”
Clint reached out and quickly picked up the rest of the papers Natasha had out. He flipped quickly through the files, glancing at the images as he did. There were plenty of kids, plenty of mutant kids, but he was hoping that maybe somewhere amid all the faces he would find one that he recognized… and then suddenly his eyes fell on one that stood out to him, a brown-haired boy with crossed arms and a familiar defensive stance. His eyes were covered by a swath of white bandages, and Clint was almost positive.
“Scott Summers,” he read off breathlessly. He flipped through the rest of the papers quickly, just to make sure there was nothing obvious that he missed, but there were only a few other brown-haired boys and none of them carried the same aura that this young kid had. “That’s got to be him. Cyclops.”
“You’re sure?” Natasha was watching him closely, her eyes taking on that intensity that they always did whenever she was serious. “You think that’s him?”
“Obviously I’m not positive , but I’d say…” Clint trailed off, humming before continuing. “Eighty five percent sure. At least.”
Natasha nodded quickly, reaching forward to grab the file from him. “I thought you might say that.”
“Really?” Clint gave her a disbelieving look as he flipped through the stack of papers again. “There’s at least forty kids in here. How’d you know I’d think it was him?”
“I didn’t know, I just had a suspicion,” Natasha retorted. “For one, Scott and Cyclops’ powers seem to line up from the descriptions. He would be about fourteen now, so the timeline matches up.”
Fourteen. That was even younger than Clint had been thinking. The thought of fighting with a fourteen year old kid…
“But most of all, it’s because there’s a similarity.”
Clint perked up at that. “A similarity?”
“Between Scott and Warren’s files.” Natasha flipped both papers over and looked at them a moment before nodding to herself and turning them to Clint. “Both of them were pulled from the foster care system.”
“Alright,” Clint said, his eyes scanning the information on the back of the sheets to find what Natasha was getting at. “That’s good, I guess…”
Then he saw it. The name of the guy who had adopted the two problematic mutants.
Professor Charles Xavier.
“They got picked up by the same guy,” he breathed as the realization hit him.
“It’s not a guarantee,” Natasha said. “But it's a pretty solid lead.”
“It’s more than just solid,” Clint said, excitement already building. There was an address listed on the files, a “school for gifted youngsters” that Xavier had supposedly enrolled both kids in. This was a huge lead. This could be where the kids were, where the X-Men were stationed. Xavier could be the guy behind all of this.
“I think I’m going to pay the Professor here a visit.”
Notes:
I just want to make it clear that I did little to no research on Child Protective Services before writing this fic and I do not pretend that anything in this story is accurate to real life.
Will we actually get a meeting soon? Who knows! >:D
Chapter 8: The Best We Can Do
Summary:
“I’ve been trying to figure out a way,” Scott muttered. “We will. Eventually.”
“Eventually isn’t good enough!” Warren paused to check his voice, his hand still tight around Scott’s elbow as he tried to keep the other kids from overhearing. “This isn’t good enough.”
Notes:
And here we have Scott Trying His Best <3
Hope you enjoy!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
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Sean was screaming.
It wasn’t a normal scream, a scream of excitement or a scream from the middle of a training session. It was a scream of pure, utter agony. The towel in his mouth managed to muffle most of it, but it wouldn’t hold up long.
“Almost there, bud,” Scott muttered, his fists clenching as he watched tears leak from his little brother’s screwed-shut eyes. His fingers dug into his skin, but the pain felt secondary to the muffled screaming. He hated it. He hated seeing Sean, seeing any of his family in pain. No matter how much he was supposed to lead them, no matter how much he was supposed to be the strong one, seeing them hurt tore him apart. Out in the field they were teammates and the most important thing was completing the mission with everyone in one piece. But the moment they stepped foot back inside the Institute, Sean was just his little brother again. And now Sean was hurt because of his leadership, his distraction.
It was fitting that watching hurt him so much. At least he could share a little bit of his brother’s insurmountable pain.
“Hol’ on Sean, ah’m almost done,” Rogue said calmly. Scott had no idea how she managed to stay so calm every time. In the heat of battle it was one thing to keep a level head, but this? At home? Through her brother’s screams? How she was keeping it together was beyond him. He felt like Sean’s screams might shatter him at any moment.
But he couldn’t. He was the big brother. He was supposed to be unbreakable. He had to stay strong so that Sean could stay strong.
“Scott, get another towel,” Rogue commanded. Scott nodded, breaking from his trance to grab another of the towels they had lying nearby. The one in Sean’s mouth was frayed, almost completely torn through. They couldn’t afford for his sonic screams to shatter another window in the house. Plus, it kept him from biting off his own tongue.
Rogue pulled back and stopped her work as Scott stepped up beside Sean. The younger boy was still crying, but he choked back his screams as Scott approached. The older boy gently took the frayed towel as Sean released it and tried to give the injured boy a reassuring smile.
“You’re doing great, Sean,” Scott murmured. “You’re strong. We’re almost done.”
Sean gave him a wobbly smile and a weak thumbs up. Despite himself, Scott could feel his smile deepen marginally. The kid really was brave. Scott wished he had some sort of pain meds to give him, but they just didn’t. This was how it had to be. He was thankful that Sean was able to handle it as well as he was. He offered the boy a drink of water that he gulped down shakily before opening his mouth so Scott could put the fresh towel in. The boy bit down on it, his face set with determination as his teeth dug into the brown fabric. Scott made sure he was secure, then turned and nodded to Rogue.
“This should be the last set,” she reassured him. Scott nodded one more time, and then Rogue went back to work. Sean’s fists clenched and he threw his head back, his screams already ripping into the towel as the needle once again plunged into his flesh. The gash was long, maybe the longest any of them had received yet. It wasn’t even from an enemy; just a piece of barbed wire in the wrong place at the wrong time. Maybe the man had meant to shove Sean into it, maybe not, but the injury was going to scar for sure. Scott kept telling Sean how cool it would be— his own battle scar, one of his first. He just wished it had been in a more worthwhile fight. He wished it hadn’t happened at all.
His fingers dug a bit harder into his palms, the sharp bit of pain mingling with the regret that was heavy on his mind. They shouldn’t have gone down. They had been to the Hope factory hundreds of times while it was open and operational. Why would they find anything new now that it was closed and cleared out? He should have known that they would be found by someone else instead.
And of course, it wasn’t just the gang that found them.
The memory made Scott’s teeth ground against each other, his fists clenching as he remembered the expression on Hawkeye’s face. He stared at the wall, the sound of Sean’s suffering grating at his ears as he thought again about the battle just a few hours before. Post-fight adrenaline still pulsed through his veins, and he wished for the hundredth time that he had just kept his team home for the night.
One encounter with the Avengers was bad enough. But two times , talking to the same Avenger … And the way Hawkeye had spoken, it was almost like he knew them. At least, better than he had the first time. What if he had done research? What if he was looking into them? What if he was trying to—
“There.” Rogue sat back, an air of finality around her as she snipped the thread connected to Sean’s leg. The excess fell away, leaving in its wake a long, red gash that was now covered in neat stitch marks. Scott felt his shoulders relax a fraction. The fact that Rogue knew had to sew was a blessing to them all. He couldn’t imagine what they would do without her patching them up. She reached over, grabbing the bottle of alcohol that they kept for injuries before pouring it as gently as she could over the freshly stitched wound. Sean let out one last muffled, blood-curdling scream before falling back, exhausted, against the bathtub. Rogue turned on the water so she could start cleaning up the blood, but Scott found himself momentarily distracted by the contents of the alcohol bottle. It was nearly empty. They had maybe one bottle left… yet another thing they would have no way to replace.
Scott shoved all of his thoughts aside, turning his attention to what was most important. He once again crouched next to the tub and gently removed the towel from Sean’s mouth. The younger boy gasped, panting slightly as the fire in his leg burned on. It could start healing now, but it was still going to hurt, Scott knew. It was going to hurt for a long time. But Sean was brave, and even now he was already trying on a weak smile.
“T…That was k-kinda cool.”
Scott chuckled and gently ruffled the little boy’s curly hair. “You did great Sean. Really, really great.”
“Can I have ice cream now?” Sean asked, looking up at Scott with wide, pleading eyes.
“As soon as Doctor Rogue declares you safe to move,” Scott forced a teasing note into his voice as he turned to his sister. She gave him a bit of a look, but nodded all the same.
“Y’all are clear. Yah did great Sean, yah deserve that recovery ice cream,” Rogue said, a small smile on her pale face.
The kid grinned happily at that, and Scott went about helping him up and out of the tub. It was painful, surely, but thankfully Sean did not scream again. They all knew how badly that could turn out. After wrapping Sean’s injured leg in one of the many newly tattered towels they now had, Scott promised Rogue that he would be back to help clean up the mess and then helped Sean to the living room. The moment they stepped foot across the threshold they were met with a hero’s welcome composed of Kitty and Kurt. The two littler ones were cheering from the back of the sofa, their faces split in wide grins as Sean triumphantly limped in.
“Good work little man,” Warren said, genuinely smiling at Sean from his spot sprawled out in one of the overstuffed arm chairs.
Sean puffed up a bit with the onslaught of encouragement. “Thanks! It’s gonna leave the best scar!”
That was met with a chorus of chatter from Kitty and Kurt, both of whom were eager to see the new injury, and Sean who was eager to show it off. Scott chuckled as he fended off the two curious kids, and tried to get Sean settled. It was not an easy task, not when the boy seemed to be working against him, but eventually the feat was accomplished. Once he was secure Scott dramatically bestowed upon him the remote to the TV— a well-coveted item only in use during recovery times and movie nights. “Remember,” he cautioned sternly. “Be careful flipping through channels. No—“
“Nothin’ bad, I know!” Sean was already squirming a little, which Scott quickly frowned at.
“And Sean, you have to try and stay still, alright? I know that’s hard, but you don’t want to open those stitches back up.”
Sean nodded, a bit too vigorously for someone who just came out of surgery. “I know Scott! I’ll be careful!”
Scott hesitated, but he knew that even Sean should be able to stay put with his leg so out of commission. Usually the kid would already have switched seats three times, but he couldn’t walk without help… there was no way the kid would stay completely still, but he should be limited enough to keep from jostling his stitches.
After getting Sean set up with plenty of pillows and blankets— particularly a few that he could bite on just in case the need to scream arose— Scott slipped into the kitchen to prepare a bowl of recovery ice cream. The flavor that they had at the moment was chocolate; Scott wished they had peanut butter, that was Sean’s favorite. But Kitty was allergic, and they could only afford to have one thing of ice cream at a time for special occasions. Maybe next time he’d have to splurge and get some so Sean could enjoy it. The problem was that it was getting harder and harder to let himself splurge…
Scott sighed deeply. He couldn’t let himself drown in his problems right now. He had to focus on taking care of his siblings; he could focus on the future in the future.
His hands shook as he scooped out a few spoonfuls of the chocolate ice cream as steadily as possible. There was still some left in the container, thankfully. At least enough for two more helpings. He could have probably split what he had in the bowl now, made it last longer… but no. Sean deserved a full helping tonight.
Once he managed to get the lid back on and the ice cream back in the freezer he made his way into the living room. Sean had already chosen a show and both Kitty and Kurt had settled happily on the other couch to watch; they had been instructed not to crowd Sean, but stay close in case he needed anything. They were perfectly happy to sit and watch TV, of course. Scott couldn’t help but smile when he saw Sean’s choice; Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. Nickelodeon always seemed to have reruns, which he was thankful for because it was a favorite for everyone. The appeal… well, the appeal was pretty obvious, wasn’t it?
“Here you go bud,” Scott said as he handed off the ice cream to his injured brother. Sean’s face broke out into a grin as he eagerly accepted his recovery treat. With that Scott took a step back and watched as the kids settled down to watch the cartoon. And that was that. That was all he had. Stitches, cartoons, ice cream… that was all Scott could do to help his brother.
Something curled up in his stomach, something ugly and bitter. His hands shook, and he clenched them into fists to try and steady them. The feeling of inadequacy was not something he could listen to. In theory he would love for Sean to go to sleep in a quiet room with a stomach full of healthy food… but he knew that was impossible. Despite how comfortable and content Sean may appear on the outside, Scott knew that there was no real hope for sleep, not without pain meds that they did not have. And fresh fruits and vegetables were yet another thing they were low on… besides, trying to get a kid to eat his vegetables after his leg got ripped apart just seemed cruel. It did no matter what the injury was. This was the best they had, the best way they could think of to help each other recover. And so it was the tradition.
It could be far, far worse.
Scott watched a few minutes of the cartoon, though he was mostly focused on Sean. The boy was obviously in pain, and every once and a while he would involuntarily wince. But he seemed as comfortable as he could be, and Kitty, Kurt, and Warren were all on stand by so, once the theme song started to play, Scott went ahead and slipped back to the bathroom to help Rogue.
But just as he was turning into the hallway, he felt a hand catch his elbow. He turned with a frown to see Warren, his face shadowed by the backlighting of the TV.
“Sean needs medicine, Scott.”
“I know he does,” Scott let out a sigh. “But we don’t have any.”
“Can’t we get some?” Warren’s voice was low and sharp, bordering on angry. His wings were twitching with apprehension, and Scott was sure he at least partially blamed Sean’s injury on himself. They all did. “There has to be some way for us to get some.”
“I’ve been trying to figure out a way,” Scott muttered. “We will. Eventually.”
“Eventually isn’t good enough!” Warren paused to check his voice, his hand still tight around Scott’s elbow as he tried to keep the other kids from overhearing. “ This isn’t good enough.”
“It was good enough for you when you broke your arm,” Scott pointed out. He was exhausted. He couldn’t deal with Warren tonight. He had enough to worry about, he didn’t need Warren repeating everything he was already telling himself.
“Good enough for me, yeah. It was fine. But he’s our little brother, he deserves better.”
“I know that, but it’s what we have!” Scott hissed. “We’re doing what we can Warren, that’s all we can do. He was my brother long before he was yours.”
Warren glared at him a moment, the tension pliable in the air. His wings twitched behind him, their white feathers oddly dark with the backlighting of the cartoon. He was upset, understandably so. But after a moment, he let go. Scott gave him a curt nod, discreetly rubbing his elbow before turning back to head down the hall. He still had to help Rogue. One problem at a time.
The place was nearly clean by the time he got there. All the medical equipment— if you could call a few cheap first aid kits that— had been put away, as had the unused towels and pillows. Really the only thing left to clean was the blood. That was always the hardest part. There was blood everywhere; the sides of the bathtub, the floor, the walls, the sink, even down the hall where Warren had practically dragged Sean in.
They had their work cut out for them.
Scott wordlessly took a sponge from one of the red, soap-filled buckets and kneeled next to Rogue. She was nearly done scrubbing the bathtub, though she kept pausing to brush her red and white bangs from her face. The two of them worked in silence for a while, scrubbing away their brother’s blood as best as they could. They never got it all, Scott was sure of that. Blood had become a permanent part of this room.
But blood was a part of life. Blood was the liquid of change. There was no advancement without spilt blood.
He had to remember that.
It took days to get the blood fully cleaned up. It was far too late to finish scrubbing the bathroom that night, so around twelve they called it quits. They got the bathroom done the next day, and then moved on to the hallway. Kurt and Warren both came to help while Sean graciously let Kitty choose a show. Kitty could help clean up, but Kurt insisted that he didn’t mind doing some of her work for her. It was fine. Kitty was the youngest, she didn’t have to help clean up blood trails. Not yet.
Thankfully it rained through the whole clean up process. The rain pounded down on the lawn outside, erasing any sort of evidence or trail that the blood could have left. They finished cleaning up around the time the rain finally stopped, which meant they could get the windows opened and get some fresh air circulating through the huge house. That was always nice; the air conditioning was always a gamble, and Scott preferred to keep the natural air flow going. It also gave him a chance to help Sean get outside for a bit. The fidgety boy had been getting up every few hours during his recovery to move around and keep his working leg strong, but getting him out into the fresh air was even better. He was already able to limp around on his own, which was a good sign. In a week he should be back to normal life, just with a bit of a limp. It would probably be longer before he could come on missions or even training sessions though, which was a hard blow. Sean was one of his go-to men. But Kurt was chomping at the bit to do more field work, so maybe it would work out. The important thing was to not rush Sean— it was so easy for him to do things before he was ready, and Scott wanted to do everything possible to avoid him breaking the stitches. Or the cut getting infected. Or Sean injuring himself in some other way, like watching too much TV…
“Scott!” Scott turned around to see Kitty running up to him, her eyes wide as she sprinted across the yard. The little girl was fast, something Scott was trying to teach her to take advantage of. It was a perfect skill for her to have.
“Yeah, Kitty? What happened?” He asked, lips twitching up in a small smile. Kurt had probably stolen her stuffed animal again, or something along those lines. He hoped that she had tried to talk to her offender before coming to him this time, but chances were she hadn’t.
To his surprise Kitty reached out and grabbed his hand, her eyes wide as she started to pull him back toward the house. “Come on!”
“What happened?” Scott repeated, this time worry seeping into his voice. Ten thousand problems and disasters swirled through his mind as he started jogging with Kitty. “Is Sean alright? Did something happen to him?”
“No, no!” Kitty exclaimed. She glanced over her shoulder, her brown eyes wide as she tugged Scott through the house. “Someone’s at the front door!”
Notes:
Me writing this chapter almost a year ago: this is the best thing I have ever written I am brilliant.
Me editing this chapter five minutes before posting it: it’s fine it’s fine it’s fine it’s fiNe—This always was one of my favorite chapters from the early parts of this story though, so I hope you enjoyed! :D
Chapter 9: A Stab in the Dark
Summary:
Clint recognized that visor. He recognized that guarded, tense stance.
There was no doubt about it. This was Cyclops.
Notes:
*hides at the sight of the word count* this chapter is extremely short ahhh but I feel like trying to bulk it up will just make it drag on so *throws this into the abyss* ENJOY, next chapter is coming out on Thursday!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The Institute was nice, Clint could give it that. It was huge too, at least five thousand square feet if Clint had to guess. Maybe. He wasn’t a great judge of square footage. Maybe it was seven thousand? It was twice the size of his farmhouse, he could tell that much, and that was including the barn.
The place was big.
It was also badly taken care of. There were vines all up along the creamy concrete walls and white pillars, and he could see at least two boarded up windows. Not that he was one to judge; the barn had a whole boarded up door back at home. But then again, that was a barn, and this was… well, he could only describe it as a mansion. It felt like someone should be taking care of it. Sure, vines could be an aesthetic choice… but the windows? It seemed neglected; a huge house with hardly anyone living in it. At least, that was how it looked from the outside, which was Clint’s perspective.
He stood on the doorstep, his hand running through his hair as he waited. It had already been a few minutes, and it was starting to get awkward. Would the doorbell even work? Should he knock instead? What even was his plan here? He had no idea if this was even the right place. This was just what he and Natasha had been able to dig up after some research. What if he was wrong? What if there was no one here at all?
He was just debating how long he was willing to camp out on the doorstep— which, based on his stake out experiences, was several hours— when the door opened a crack. Clint quickly straightened up and peered through the crack to try and see the person who had opened it while clearing his voice to speak. But there was no one in the doorway… no one, at least, until he thought to look down. There he saw a face; a small, little girl face peeking nervously out at him. The girl had long brown hair pulled up in a high ponytail and was wearing a faded pink T-shirt and shorts that looked a bit too big for her. She watched him with wide, curious eyes and a guarded expression.
“Hi,” Clint said lamely. In his defense, he was expecting an adult, or at least a teenager. This girl had to be closer to eight, at most. “Hi. I’m Clint Barton. I was wondering if I could, ah, talk to Professor Xavier?”
“Uh…” the little girl started, her eyes going wide for a moment before she glanced over her shoulder. “Just a minute, mister.”
With that she disappeared and the door slammed shut, leaving Clint in the exact same place he was before. Great . The good news was, at least someone was home. The bad news was, he had no idea how long it would be until she came back.
It ended up being seven minutes. Seven minutes out on the damp porch, debating whether he should knock again or just climb in a window. Climbing in a window was probably a bad impression to make, but it started to seem more appealing with every minute that passed. Especially since some of them were so obviously boarded up. It would be so easy to climb in through one of those. Thankfully, before he was quite desperate enough to follow through with it, the door opened again.
This time it opened fully. The little girl had disappeared, and was instead replaced by a taller, older boy. A boy with smooth brown hair, a particular frown, and a strange gold and red visor over his eyes. The sight made Clint’s breath catch in his throat. He recognized that visor. He recognized that guarded, tense stance.
There was no doubt about it. This was Cyclops.
“Hello,” the boy said slowly, his voice dripping with apprehension as he watched Clint. He seemed to be sizing him up, which was ridiculous because he was at least a few inches shorter than him. “Why are you here?”
“Hey kid,” Clint said. He would act dumb for a bit. There was always the chance that the kid didn’t recognize him, or that if he knew Clint was on to him that he would slam the door. Then again, the window option was always on the table… “I’m here to talk to Professor Charles Xavier.”
The boy’s frown deepened. “He’s not here.”
“Alright,” Clint said slowly, matching the boy’s apprehensive tone. “Then who’s in charge right now?”
The kid tried to draw himself up taller, to look more intimidating. “I am.”
Clint raised an eyebrow. “How old are you, kid?”
He paused a minute before answering. “Eighteen.”
“Ok, that’s a lie and we both know it,” Clint said sharply.
“Fine,” the boy said in a voice that made Clint think he might have rolled his eyes. Or maybe not. There was really no way to tell with the visor. “Sixteen.”
Clint let out a hum of disbelief. “Really?”
The kid held his gaze for a moment longer before his shoulders slumped ever so slightly. His folded arms crossed tighter as he grumbled. “Fourteen.”
“Now that, I believe.” Clint watched the boy closely. He was just a kid, that much was obvious. His feet were bare, his jeans were tight and his shirt was too big. The visor was throwing him off, but it was the only solid proof that he was right; this skinny kid was Cyclops. He just had to be. “And your name?”
Again, the boy hesitated, but this time he relented quickly. “Scott Summers.”
Bingo . Clint had been right about that too. “Great, nice to meet you Scott. I’m Clint. Now, are you really here without any adult supervision?”
Scott’s expression tightened, if that were even possible. The boy was already as stiff as a board, and yet somehow he got stiffer. “Why are you here?” He demanded sharply.
Clint blinked. He hadn’t quite expected that. Scott was turning downright hostile. He glanced behind the kid, further into the house, and noticed that their conversation had drawn a small crowd. The little girl from before was watching from a vantage point crouched at the foot of the stairs. There was one boy sitting next to her, and one more who was mostly out of Clint’s line of sight. But he could catch a glimpse of blonde hair… could that be Angel? And maybe the curly haired by bouncing in place on the steps was Banshee? He couldn’t tell, he hadn’t gotten a good enough look the other night…
Clint took a deep breath. Scott was waiting. Now was as good a time as ever to just come out and say it. “I’m here because three months ago I got my butt saved by a fourteen year old kid,” he deadpanned. He watched the boy’’s expression twitch, though it was hard with the visor thing blocking his eyes. “Want to tell me your name again, kid?”
Scott frowned at him, once again studying him sharply. His hands clenched and unclenched into little fists, his muscles tightening with each movement. Yes, the kid had muscles; even with the oversized T-shirt Clint was able to tell. Could that be a part of his mutation? Or his lifestyle? Either way, it was both respectable and worrying. So was the boy’s expression, the weight he seemed to be carrying as he considered Clint. It seemed like the kid was making a million decisions as he watched Clint, his brow creased under his brown bangs. His fingers clenched one last time, and then he let out a huff.
“Fine,” he muttered. He took a deep breath, carefully drawing himself up to his full fourteen-year-old height. His arms crossed tightly across his chest, his clunky gold visor catching the sun as he stared Clint down. “I’m Cyclops, leader of the X-Men. Now, what do you want with me and my team?”
Notes:
WOAH, it’s the scene from the story summary! We’re moving forward! :D
Thank you so much for reading, and thank you SO MUCH for 100 kudos on this fic that’s NUTS!!
Chapter 10: What No One Wants to Say
Summary:
“Sean,” Clint started slowly, following the kid’s lead of leaning against the table. “I came here to talk to the professor, actually. But from the looks of it…”
“He’s…” Sean’s accented voice was a bit shaky, and the little boy wouldn’t meet Clint’s eyes. “He’s not here.”
“So where is he?”
Notes:
And now Clint finally begins to see exactly how these kids are living… if he can get past Stubborn Scott Summers.
Slight warning for past character death!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
“So… what happened to the windows?” Clint asked. He raised an eyebrow at the large, boarded-up holes that assuredly contained glass at some point in time. Now most of them were completely bare, just a few sharp fragments clinging to the edges behind the shoddily nailed-up boards.
“Oh, well…” the small, sandy-haired boy chuckled. “That might have been me, actually.”
Clint let out a chuckle of his own. “You got something against windows?”
“No, I love windows! A lot actually, I mean, nothin’s better than a great big window, you know? Sometimes you can see squirrels running around outside these ones cause of that big tree out there, and that can be awesome . But I sometimes… uh…” he trailed off, biting his lip as his forehead crinkled in indecision. “Nah, Scott wouldn’t want me to tell you that… I do a-a thing, and that tends to break windows, you know?”
Clint nodded and murmured an affirmation, though the cut off made a dim sense of frustration flare up in his gut. That wasn’t the first time Sean Cassidy had trailed off during the past half hour or so. Every once and a while they would get to some detail that would make the kid pause and glance at Scott before correcting himself. Mostly it seemed to be stuff surrounding their powers or their identities as members of the X-Men, though Clint was pretty sure that the curly haired Irish kid in front of him was Banshee. Partially because he thought he recognized the sandy mop of hair, mostly because of the fact that the boy was walking with a heavy limp. The kind of limp that came with a handful-of-days-old injury; a kind of limp that Clint knew very well, of course. But seeing it on a kid was far different from feeling it himself. He could still remember the glass-shattering scream from a few days ago… how bad had it been? How had they treated the injury? Had the Professor done it himself, or had he taken the kid to a doctor?
The Professor. Clint wasn’t quite sure how to breach the subject. He had come to talk to Charles Xavier, but it was pretty obvious that the man was not there. And from the look of the house… either Charles Xavier was extremely neglectful, or he had been gone for a while. None of the kids had brought him up, no matter how many times Clint asked. It was starting to get worrying… where was the man? Did Charles Xavier even exist? Was he just an alias the kids used? Or was he really just out for the night? Or… there were so many hundreds of possibilities, some of which Clint was scared to think about.
But what kind of responsible adult would let literal children come home with a shredded leg? What kind of responsible adult would leave them alone after that?
He would never do that to a kid… would he?
“…And so we never did that again,” Sean laughed, leading Clint around a corner as he finished off his story. Something about how one of the windows had gotten broken, one of the times it wasn’t his fault. Clint had only heard parts of it, but that was fine… it was the tenth or eleventh story the kid had launched into. At least he had finished this one. Most of them he would stop in the middle of to start another and then never finish. Sean Cassidy was… a character, to say the least. Clint was really enjoying listening to the little kid— ten? Eleven? He couldn’t be older than twelve— ramble on about everything. Even if he kept pausing to reroute his stories he didn’t seem to ever stop, even to take a breath. He could see why Scott finally left the two of them alone. The boy could talk enough for both of them, and Clint could hardly get a word in edgewise to ask about anything important. And any time he did get a question in, Sean easily rerouted it into something completely different. The window question probably got the most straightforward answer of all of them. Plus, despite the heavy limp, the kid seemed to have a ridiculous amount of energy.
Sean, Scott, the kid who could be Angel— Warren?— and the mystery girl he had seen when he first came into the Institute were the only kids he had seen, so far. He couldn’t tell if there were any more, which was both good and bad. Good because four kids was already enough, already way too much for him to handle. Bad because, well, he had no idea if there were more. According to a lot of the X-Men reports he had seen there easily could be, though none of those reports were confirmed. In theory he could ask Sean… if the kid would pause to take a breath. And if he didn’t shut him down with his “Scott filter”.
At least Scott was no longer in the room. Clint could get nothing from the boy. Everything about him was guarded and closed off, even more so than it had been in the fights. His arms had hardly come uncrossed for a moment, and Clint was pretty sure that the kid would have slammed the door in his face if he thought he could. He probably almost did… but the window option was still on the table, of course. Especially now that Clint saw just how many broken windows were in the house; there were a lot.
It seemed like there were a lot of broken things in general. Windows, a few lights, plus Clint noticed that the air conditioning and heating were turned off despite the fact that it was still early spring. The draft from all the open windows— it seemed like whatever was still intact was open to let air in— actually helped, but Clint was sure that the house had to be freezing at night.
Surely none of that would be around if the Professor was around… right?
“And here we have the most important room in the house, of course!” Sean said proudly as he hobbled through a doorway. Clint followed, grinning as he took in the sight of a huge, actually super nice kitchen.
“Kid, you speak my—“
“I know! Food is the best part of the day!” Sean probably didn’t even notice he had interrupted Clint’s comment. It actually made Clint smile all the more how unintentional it was. “I love food. Scott always says I eat too much, and I guess I do but I mean, food is a big part of how we function so we gotta eat, right? I feel like I’m always hungry, but Scott just says that’s part of bein’ a person, you know? Everybody’s always hungry, that’s why people call it a “dog-eat-dog world”, right? I dunno, I think that’s what it means, I’m not really sure but it’s something Professor X used to say… all the time…”
Sean trailed off at the mention of the professor, his voice slowly petering out for what felt like the first time. He leaned against the island in the middle of the kitchen, a small wince crossing his face as he adjusted so that less weight was on his injured leg. But the wince didn’t totally leave, as if there was some other pain still hitting him in the brief silence.
That was it. Clint had to know what was going on.
“Sean,” Clint started slowly, following the kid’s lead of leaning against the table. “I came here to talk to the professor, actually. But from the looks of it…”
“He’s…” Sean’s accented voice was a bit shaky, and the little boy wouldn’t meet Clint’s eyes. “He’s not here.”
“Exactly.” This was harder than Clint would have thought. The little kid looked crestfallen, like part of the life had been sucked out of him at the mention of Charles Xavier. He didn’t want to press… but he had to know. “Where is professor Xavier?”
Sean’s finger traced a swirl in the granite countertop, his teeth nibbling at his bottom lip as he did. “He’s… well… Scott wouldn’t want me to tell you…”
Clint opened his mouth to respond, but before he could a door across the room opened. Sean seemed to perk up in relief, and Clint frowned, annoyed that the moment was lost. He was more than worried now. The professor was definitely missing in action, which meant the kids were here in this giant, run-down house without any adult supervision. This was a big problem, but before he could do anything he had to confirm what had happened to the Professor.
“Sean,” Scott strode into the room, a tall blonde boy on his heels. Clint’s frown deepened a bit. That must be the blonde boy he caught sight of earlier, who he thought might be Angel. The kid looked about the same age as Scott, and about the same as both Angel and the picture of Warren that Clint had seen. But he was missing one distinct, glaringly obvious feature; the wings. That was a pretty big thing. Maybe Clint had been wrong about that one. “You should head back to the living room now.”
Sean groaned, his curls flopping against his forehead as he propped his elbows up on the table. His forest green eyes were wide, his bottom lip trembling ever so slightly… man, Clint was glad he wasn’t on the other side of those puppy dog eyes. The kid was a master. Maybe that was why Scott was still wearing his Cyclops visor; it must have had some sort of built-in adorable filter because the kid just gave Sean a pointed look. The little kid sighed again before dropping his expression and obeying.
“I’m sick of layin’ around,” Sean complained, even as he limped back to the living room. The limp was worse than when Clint had first started talking to the kid about half an hour ago… that was worrying. Seriously, how bad was his injury? How well had it been treated? What medicine did the kid have? Clint wished that he had been wearing shorts so he could see how bad it was, but it was far too late for that. Now he had two more kids to focus his attention on… and these two looked much less friendly than the talkative pre-teen.
“Hey guys,” Clint started, forcing a smile as he looked at both kids. The blonde boy was a bit taller than Scott, just about the same height as Clint. He could actually pass for seventeen, at the most… but something about his facial features, the way his arms still looked just a bit too long for his body, Clint had to guess he was younger. Fifteen, probably closer to fourteen. He extended his hand to the boy. “I don’t think we’ve met yet. I’m Clint.”
The blonde didn’t hesitate before taking Clint’s hand and giving it a firm shake. He didn’t smile, instead narrowing his eyes at Clint in… suspicion? Anger? He couldn’t quite tell. Definitely not the most friendly expression. “Warren.”
“Warren…” Clint let go of the handshake, sufficiently bewildered. Warren on the file, Warren in the Institute… it checks out. But… the wings? Were they retractable or something? Would it be weird to ask?
Yes. That could wait. All the stuff about their powers and their hero identities could wait. He only had one… well, more than one, but one extremely important question to get answered. He had to just dive in and ask it. “Alright. Now, please, someone tell me… where is the professor?”
Clint could see the instant effect of his question. It was evident in the way Scott’s jaw tightened ever so slightly, the way Warren’s face darkened, his shoulders hunching a bit as Scott’s crossed arms pressed harder against his chest.
“Why do you want to know?” Scott asked sharply. “Why are you here?”
“I told you; I’m here because a kid saved my life.”
Scott’s brow creased. “I’m not a kid.”
“Uh, legally, you are,” Clint pointed out. “And legally you have to have a parent or guardian. Which is why I would like to talk to the guy who’s supposed to keep you safe.”
“I keep us safe,” Scott retorted.
“Really?” Clint raised an eyebrow. “Like it or not, Scott, but you’re still four years under age.”
“That doesn’t matter,” Scott said, his expression tight and unyielding.
“So who takes care of the maintenance on this house?” Clint gestured to the kitchen around him. “Who pays for groceries? Or bills?”
“ I do.”
Clint frowned and tried to ignore how heavy the frustration in his gut was becoming. “Scott, you can’t expect me to believe that.”
“Well, believe it,” the kid shot back, his mouth drawn tightly in a frown. “Because it’s true.”
“You have to have someone watching out for you.”
“No, we don’t.” The boy’s expression was almost hostile as he spoke, his teeth gritted and his arms crossed tightly across his chest. “We have this handled.”
“And what about when one of you gets hurt?” Clint asked sharply, frustration bleeding into his tone. The kid was stubborn, far too stubborn for his own good. “What then?”
“ We handle it.”
“Would Sean say the same thing?” That was going too far. Clint realized it the moment the words were out of his mouth. The conversation was nowhere near that level… and yet, he couldn’t stop himself. Sean Cassidy was proof that he was right to come here, to find out what was going on. Scott must have realized that because the boy’s tight posture dropped ever so slightly, his brow creasing with emotion.
But before he could respond, there was a loud shout of “ Scott! ” From the other room. The boy’s jaw tightened, and he called back to the other voice in annoyance. Clint was pretty sure it was Sean’s voice, but he couldn’t make out why they were saying. It must have been something important because Scott sighed, and once again Clint was struck by how heavy the boy looked. Like the weight of the whole world was on his shoulders. But the teenager looked back up and squared his shoulders, his visor-covered eyes sliding to pinpoint Warren before he nodded toward Clint. Then he muttered a word of apology and slipped hurriedly into the other room, leaving Clint alone with Warren.
The blonde kid crossed his arms, his sharp blue eyes boring into Clint. Clint couldn’t help but notice that Warren’s arms seemed thick under the baggy green hoodie he was wearing. He was probably as muscled as Scott, if not more. Again, something Clint couldn’t decide how he felt about. His blonde hair looked windswept yet neat, and he seemed to be debating something as he studied Clint.
“You said you want to know where the professor is, didn’t you?”
Clint blinked in surprise, hesitating for a moment. Did he just hear him right? The boy was just staring at him, giving no indication that he had spoken but an expectant look. “Uh… yeah. Yes.”
Warren glanced over his shoulder toward the living room. Then he gestured to Clint, quickly motioning him to follow. Clint, bewildered as he was, followed quickly. The boy led him to a side door that led out of the kitchen and into the backyard. Clint slipped out after him, quickly impressed by the size of the yard. It honestly didn’t seem to stop— the mansion backed right up to woods, so after what had to be at least a half acre of land it kept going, just with trees. Clint couldn’t help but wonder how much of that was an official part of the property… but yet again, he had much more important questions on his mind.
“Where are we going?”
“No one else is gonna tell you,” the tall blonde explained curtly. He didn’t elaborate, so Clint just shrugged to himself and continued to follow. Warren led him at a fast pace, a near jog as they made their way close to the tree line that bordered the left side of the house. They stepped into the woods a little ways, but not far before the boy stopped in a little clearing.
“You asked where the Professor is?” Warren gestured to the earth in front of them. “Well, here’s your answer.”
For a moment, Clint was confused. He glanced around the surrounding trees, half expecting a bald man in a wheelchair to be waiting for them. But that obviously wasn’t it. That wasn’t it at all. Warren was pointing to the ground, the dirt just before their feet.
The realization slowly set in, and Clint sucked in a breath. Oh. “He’s…”
“He died,” Warren’s voice was clipped as he stared at the spot. “About five months ago, give or take. Cancer, or something like that. We all saw it coming for a long time, but we didn’t know what to do. There was nothing we could do.”
“Why didn’t he go see a doctor?” Clint asked. His voice almost sounded distant to his ears, like he wasn’t quite in his body. He had been imagining a lot of bad scenarios, but this… he wasn’t expecting this. “I mean… cancer.. but…”
“He didn’t believe it was happening, I guess.” Warren shrugged tightly. “And I guess he didn’t trust human doctors. I dunno. The professor… he was something else.”
Clint crouched down, his fingers brushing the dirt. There was a patch, he could see it now, a patch of dirt where nothing seemed to be growing yet. Just a few sparse weeds that had managed to pop up during the winter; grass had yet to take root. As he looked his eyes caught on a small, shoddily-made wooden cross stuck in the ground. It reminded him of the grave he made for one of the circus show dogs when he was twelve. That thought somehow made the situation even worse. “You guys… you buried him yourselves?”
“Yep.” Warren shoved his hands in his pockets. “We couldn’t exactly call someone, or have his death officially reported, you know? He was a bit of a recluse anyway, so far as we know… no one really knows. So we took care of him.”
Clint stared at the dirt in disbelief. These kids hadn’t just been living on their own for a little while. They hadn’t just been living in a slightly damaged house. They had watched their guardian die, and then buried him . What kind of trauma did that have to leave? What kind of damage had been done to these kids?
“You said you want to help, right?” Warren’s voice pulled Clint from his trance, and he managed to nod stiffly. Then Warren snorted, which was enough to pull his eyes up from the dirt. “Yeah, well, that’s what all adults say. And they don’t mean it.”
“That’s not true,” Clint said defensively.
“As far as I’ve seen, it is.” Warren sighed a bit, his arms still crossed as he leaned against a tree. “But… I mean… Scott won’t ask for help. He just won’t.”
Clint nodded slowly. The kid was right about that, he was sure.
“But… I dunno…” Warren let out a huff, his frustrated gaze turned on the tree as he spoke. “Maybe… maybe you can help. Somehow. ‘Cause… Sean? I dunno…”
“I will.” The words were out of Clint’s mouth before Warren could finish talking, or before he could even finish thinking. But then he was just saying it again, even more sure this time. “I will . I promise, I’m not some adult making empty promises. I’m going to do everything in my power to help you guys.”
Warren turned so that he was looking at Clint instead of the trees. He held his gaze for a minute, his eyes narrowed. Finally, he gave Clint one, short nod.
“You better. Because Scott’s going to kill me if he finds out I showed you this.”
Notes:
Just a note: Charles Xavier was not a good guy in this fic. Basically he was a bit of an eccentric and saw no problem with putting literal children in danger to promote his ideals. This is really how he acts in canon from my perspective (Scott literally becomes leader of the the X-Men around 17, which is the entire reason I decided to write this exaggerated version of that fact!).
We’ll see how this affects the kids (especially Scott, who has been with him the longest) as the story goes on… ;)
Chapter 11: The Burning Question
Summary:
“And you’ve confirmed that they’re the X-Men?”
“Scott admitted it to my face.”
“So…” Natasha’s voice was slow, cautious over the phone. “What are you going to do with them?”
Notes:
Natasha and Clint have a chat while Clint is panicking at the idea of these *children* being absolutely alone.
Enjoy! :)
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
“Clint? How’d it go?”
Clint breathed a sigh of relief, muttering a thanks under his breath as Natasha’s voice crackled over the phone line. The phone had been ringing for too long, he was worried that his friend wouldn’t pick up. “Tasha, I need you.”
“What happened?” Instantly her voice took on an edge of concern, the emotion clear even through the rough cell service that Clint was getting. “Are you alright?”
“I’m fine,” Clint said quickly.
“What’s that echo? Where are you?”
Clint cringed, glancing at his surroundings. The bathroom was honestly extremely nice. Also huge, like most things in the mansion. Definitely not the worst place he had been forced to make a call for backup from before. Still, hiding in a bathroom from a group of kids? Embarrassing . “Doesn’t matter. I’m here at the Institute, and Tasha, they’re kids. They’re definitely kids.”
“Ok, so you found them?”
“Yeah, yeah I did.”
“And you’ve confirmed that they’re the X-Men?”
“Scott admitted it to my face.”
There was a breath through the phone as Clint’s words settled in. “And have you talked to the professor?”
“That’s just it.” Clint ran a hand through his hair, a long breath escaping from his lips as he sat down on the edge of the toilet seat. “He’s dead.”
There was a moment of silence on the other end of the line. “Dead.”
Clint nodded to himself, his gut still twisting at the implications of that word, of the shallow grave in the kid’s backyard. “Yeah.”
“For how long?”
“About five months. I think.” Clint frowned, trying to remember what Warren had said. Yeah, five months sounded right. “They haven’t reported it or anything. They buried him in the backyard. These kids buried their guardian themselves Nat, they—“
“Slow down Clint. Take a breath.” Clint complied with Natasha’s command, slowly inhaling as he tried to calm himself down. “So they’ve been living alone.”
“Yes. They’ve been completely fending for themselves.”
“So did the professor know that they’re superheroes?”
Clint groaned, burying his head in his hands. “I have no clue. The guy was some sort of recluse, a bit of an eccentric from what I can tell. Who knows what he knew about the kids. He could have even encouraged it.”
“So how many are there?”
“Of the kids?” Clint took another shallow breath, his fingers tapping against the back of the phone case as he did. “Four, I think. That I’ve seen.”
Natasha hummed on the other end. “Four isn’t bad.”
“Yeah, it’s not…” Yes, it was. Four kids. Four mutant kids. Four kids with no adult supervision living in a huge mansion that their guardian had died in that seemed to slowly be falling apart around them. Four kids that he had no qualifications to deal with. It was bad.
“So…” Natasha’s voice was slow, cautious over the phone. “What are you going to do with them?”
There it was. The question that kept stabbing at his brain, the question that needed to be answered. Clint rubbed his hand over his face, groaning quietly as he did. What was he supposed to do in this situation? What good solution was there? He shouldn’t be here. He should have just left it alone. But these were kids, they needed help and he was the only one here to help them…
They were in a bad spot.
“Well?”
“I think…” Clint breathed slowly. He had one idea. Just one. Really only half of one. And it was a terrible solution. It wasn’t even a solution, it was just… a temporary fix while he thought of a solution. It was also the only thing he had to offer. But it was all he had, so he breathed out slowly and said it before he could think about it. “I think I’m going to bring them to the tower.”
There was silence on the other end. “Clint… is that a good idea?”
“Do you have a better one?” He shot back, his stress seeping sharply into his voice. “You saw the files, the foster care system already screwed them over. And I can’t… I can’t in good conscience just leave them here…”
“What about Fury?” Natasha suggested calmly, her voice as flat as ever. “SHIELD could—“
“Toss them in a lab and try to figure out what makes them work?” Clint was shaking his head, even though he knew Natasha had no way to see the movement. “I love Fury, I love SHIELD, but you know how he handles unknown variables. Remember when they pulled Steve out of the ice? Just a few weeks later he had him fighting aliens.”
“That was different—“
“How different? How can we know?” Clint sighed slowly. “If I can keep Fury from getting wind of this… I think that’s ideal. For now, at least.”
Natasha was quiet for a moment, contemplating. “What about the others?”
“I say we keep it between us,” Clint said quickly.
“Well, it’s Tony’s tower. You know there’s no way JARVIS will keep harboring four kids from him.”
“Fine. We’ll talk to Tony.” Clint stood up, his boots thudding quietly on the tile as he began to pace. “And crap, we’ll have to talk to Steve. He knows about the kids, he already wanted to tell Fury the other night…”
“And you know Tony will tell Bruce. It would be cruel to leave him out.”
“Would it?” Clint asked. “What about the Hulk? Wouldn’t kids just be an added stressor?”
He could almost feel Natasha’s pointed gaze. “Wouldn’t surprise kids be even worse?”
Clint huffed, throwing up his left hand in defeat. “ Fine. All the Avengers will know, I guess.” Thank goodness Thor was off-world. The thought of the Asguardian around kids, especially ones as skittish as the X-Kids, was honestly terrifying.
“How long would this be for, Clint?” Natasha hesitated a moment before continuing. “We’re Avengers. Superheroes. Spies. We’re not prepared for this.”
“You think I don’t know that? I’m the least capable of us all. It’s just a temporary solution,” Clint reassured her quickly. And, more quietly, he reassured himself. “Obviously this couldn’t be long-term. I’ll figure something out. But…” He sighed, once again running a hand through his messy hair. “I can’t… I can’t in good conscience just leave them here.”
There was another moment of silence on the other end, a quiet moment of understanding. Then Natasha sighed decisively. “Alright. I’ll call the others, let them know what’s going on.”
“Yeah, yeah,” Clint said. His voice was a bit shaky as he spoke, but the fact that Natasha was on board gave him indescribable relief. “Yeah, that sounds perfect.”
“When were you thinking about bringing them over?”
“Tonight.” The word was out of his mouth before he could even think it. Clint inhaled, checking himself one time before nodding. “Yeah, tonight.”
“That’s… soon.”
“Tasha, half the windows are caved in. Half the lights don’t work, and I don’t think the heating does either. One of them has a huge limp, I’m not totally sure how bad it is but he needs medical attention. I saw their kitchen… they don’t have enough food for four kids.”
“Alright.” Natasha inhaled. “You’re right.”
“Thank you.”
“But do they want to come?”
Clint chuckled dryly. “They’re kids. They think they can take on the world.”
“Well, we can’t exactly kidnap them. I’m not sure what the legalities are in that situation, but the kids wouldn’t be happy with us.”
Laws. Legalities. Clint hadn’t even been thinking about that. Could taking the kids to a safe, secure location be qualified as kidnapping? What was the protocol with CPS when a guardian died with kids in their care? What was the legal way of doing this?
“We can worry about that later,” He decided, quickly shoving all of that to the side. In all honesty, he couldn’t bring himself to care. That could be tomorrow's problem. Today’s problems were big enough. “I’ve got some convincing to do.”
Notes:
Almost missed updating today because my plane literally landed half an hour ago after a trip… but WE’RE BACK and the update schedule is still on track! See y’all Thursday!
Chapter 12: Hanging on With Clenched Fists
Summary:
This was it. This was where he dropped the bomb of why he was here. This was when he told them CPS was on their way. This was when Scott’s world was ripped apart. Again.
“How would you guys like to come to Avengers Tower?”
Notes:
FINALLY, a decent sized chapter! We’re getting to the good stuff! Scott is stressing!
Hope you enjoy!
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Scott was panicking. He did not want to think of it as panic, but that was all it could be. It was the only explanation for the way his hands were shaking, his breathing shallow, his heart thudding in his ears. He hated it. He knew he couldn’t panic, couldn’t succumb to that. He had to stay calm. He had to stay calm.
There was an Avenger in their home.
It was like all his fears were coming true. Finally, finally he had managed to carve out a place for himself in the world. Finally, finally he thought there was a chance of stability, that he had built something that would stay. Even the professor had abandoned him. But this, his adopted brothers and sisters, they had made a place for themselves. He thought he could maintain that.
But now the Avengers were going to come in and steal it all away.
No . No, he couldn’t focus on that. He had to focus on the problems in front of him. One step at a time. One problem at a time. He couldn’t panic. Leaders don’t panic. Leaders don’t show weakness.
He couldn’t be weak.
His hands still shook as he fiddled with the remote. Sean and Kitty were going to watch a show, but Nickelodeon wasn’t working and he couldn’t get it figured out. He had to get it quick though; he didn’t like leaving Clint Barton alone. He was with Warren, sure, but Scott wanted his own two eyes on the man. It was bad enough he had to leave him with Sean for twenty minutes or so. That was a stupid decision, he shouldn’t have done that. He should have been trying his best to keep everyone out of sight. But it was most important that Kurt was hidden away, and of course Rogue wouldn’t want to risk being around unfamiliar people. They had to stay hidden, and Warren had to hide his wings, and Kitty had already been seen by the man and Sean was the best option to keep him distracted…
What did Clint Barton want? Why on earth was he intruding on what Scott had built?
Why couldn’t people just leave them alone?
Scott grumbled in frustration as he fumbled the remote. It wasn’t working. The channel was static. Was there some sort of subscription that had run out? Was something broken?
Yet another thing that they couldn’t fix.
He sighed, dropping the remote on the couch. “Guys, I can’t get it right now. I have to deal with our unwanted guest.”
“Hey, Mr. Barton’s pretty cool!” Sean exclaimed defensively. “I dunno why you’re so on edge. Isn’t he an Avenger?”
Kitty gasped from her spot curled up on the other couch, her eyes wide. “Is he really? Why did nobody tell me?”
“Because that’s bad! ” Scott said in disbelief. “We can’t have an Avenger here!”
“Why not?” Sean asked. “He seems cool!”
“Maybe he could fix the TV?” Kitty said innocently, her eyes narrowing as she shot a look at the static screen.
“No! Guys!” Scott let out an exasperated sigh. “What did the professor always say about people?”
“Not to trust them,” Kitty and Sean said in unison.
“Exactly.” Scott crouched down, shoving his anxieties aside for a moment to keep his voice steady as he looked at his siblings at their eye level. “You know what kind of bad stuff can happen to us, right?”
The two kids nodded, their eager expressions swallowed up by solemnity.
“Good. We have to be careful.” He offered them a smile. “We look out for each other, remember?”
They nodded again, this time a bit less subdued. Scott let out a small breath.
“Great. Now, do you think you can play a game or something while I go figure out what to do?”
“Sir yes sir!” Sean said, giving Scott a mock salute. The brunette chuckled, grinning at the two younger kids before straightening up. He made sure that the deck of cards they had was within Sean’s reach, then left him to help entertain the youngest as he headed back to the kitchen to figure out what to do with his problem.
Only, when he entered the room, he found it to be empty. Scott froze, his red-tinted gaze scouring the kitchen, hoping that he had just missed something. But it was undeniable that the room was empty. Clint and Warren were nowhere to be found.
“Warren?” He called out, another wave of panic pulling at his chest as he searched the room. He had been gone for five minutes, maybe ten. What could have happened in that time? Could the Avenger have called for backup? Could Warren have told him something he shouldn’t know? Could CPS be on their way to tear his family apart?
A million things could go wrong in ten minutes. A million things had already gone wrong that day.
Scott refused to let everything get torn apart again.
He was about to shout Warren’s name again when he heard his own name called from just down the hall. He quickly ducked into it, relief flooding through him when he found Warren standing outside a closed door. But then panic once again surged through him. “Where’s Barton?”
Warren nodded to the door next to him. “He had to go to the bathroom.”
Alright. That was fine. That was reasonable. But then the moment those thoughts entered his head he chased them off. No . Clint Barton was a spy, wasn’t he? What could he be doing behind closed doors? Was he calling for help? Was he figuring out a way right now to pull them apart?
“You shouldn’t have left him alone!” He didn’t mean for his voice to be so sharp, but the stress of the situation overruled his intentions and he almost flinched at his own tone. Almost .
“Chill out Scott, it’s a bathroom.” Warren rolled his eyes. “I’m sure he’s fine.”
“How can you be sure?” Scott pointed out. “He could be calling someone right now. He could be planning for CPS to come clear us out right now.”
Another eye roll. “It’s fine. He wouldn’t do that.”
“How do you know?”
“He’s an Avenger.”
“Oh, so we’re supposed to trust him?” Why did everyone keep saying that? Just because he was an Avenger didn’t mean he was some superhero. Well… it didn’t mean that he would help people. It didn’t mean that he would help them. Scott had enough experience with people to know that was never something they could expect.
Warren was staring at him with a level gaze, silence ringing between them for just a moment. Scott could feel the heaviness between them, and it made him pause. There was something in the air, he could feel it. “Warren.” The taller boy hummed, his gaze unwavering. He seemed disinterested in the conversation, but Scott knew him better than that. “What did you do?”
There was a brief moment where he doubted that Warren would respond. But then, without wavering in the slightest, the boy spoke. “I told him about Professor X.”
Scott blinked. The words took a moment to register. He was too in shock to understand for a moment. “You… you what?”
Warren held his gaze. “He would find out at some point. It's better to be honest with him.”
“ No, no it’s not!” Scott’s voice was raising and he forced himself to take a breath. He could see Warren’s posture tightening, but he couldn’t even process that at the moment. Something was curling in his chest, some ugly mess of anger and frustration that made his trembling hands tighten into fists. Warren never thought about what he was doing. Warren just did. He probably thought it was the right thing to do, no matter how obviously wrong it was. “Now he knows we don’t have a legal guardian. What do you think he’ll do with us now?”
“It was already obvious we don’t have a guardian!” Warren argued. His voice was rising too now, but he didn’t check it. “Sean needs medicine, Scott. Even if it’s just Tylenol. We can’t get that! Clint could!”
“We can figure it out,” Scott said slowly. He crossed his arms, hoping it would hide the fact that his hands were still shaking. “We always do.”
“Except that in five months we haven’t ,” Warren said sharply. “Face it, Scott. We need something.”
Scott opened his mouth to argue, but just then the sound of running water started, and a moment later the door handle was moving. He snapped his jaw shut and shot a glare at Warren just before the door opened and Clint Barton stepped out.
The Avenger halted in his tracks, eyeing Scott. His eyes flicked back and forth between the two boys. “Hey guys…”
Scott dropped his scowl away from Warren and instead focused it on Clint, his arms crossed tight across his chest. He hoped that his gaze, despite the fact it was marred by his visor, was brutal enough for the archer to feel his animosity. His stupid visor. Of course there was no way to even pretend they weren’t the X-Men. He gave them away even more so than Warren’s wings would.
And now he had to reap the consequences.
“So, uh…” Clint jabbed his thumb behind him, motioning to the bathroom. “I heard some of the conversation while I was in there.”
Fantastic.
“To one thing, Scott, I’m almost offended that you would accuse me of being on the phone in the bathroom. That’s gross.” Clint chuckled. “But I was also totally on the phone in the bathroom.”
Clint’s tone was lighthearted, trying at a joke. But the weight of the words stabbed at Scott. He shot another glare toward Warren, this one so fierce that he could feel the power flaring behind his eyes. For a moment he felt a flash of fear, but the visor held up. Of course, the fear didn’t go away. It just lent itself to the storm that was brewing in Scott’s mind. Clint did make a phone call. He did call for backup.
“Sorry, I know, weird, but I had to make that call. I wanted to let some people know about you guys, to ask them some things.”
All of Scott’s fears were being realized. Even Warren seemed to be tensing up now, realizing what he had done. Of course, now it was too late.
“Sorry. That’s not really… you know, I’m just going to get straight to the point.”
This was it. This was where he dropped the bomb of why he was here. This was when he told them CPS was on their way. This was when Scott’s world was ripped apart. Again.
“How would you guys like to come to Avengers Tower?”
There was a gasp behind them, and Scott was able to process that much faster than he could understand Clint’s words. He whipped around to see two little faces peeking around the corner.
“Sean! Kitty!” Scott hissed in exasperation. “I told you guys to play a game in the living room!”
Kitty at least had the decency to look guilty, but Sean just flashed him a gap-toothed grin. “We wanted to know what was going on,” he explained, excitement lighting up his face as he moved out into the open, his eyes fixed on Clint. “Are you serious? Avengers Tower?”
“Yeah, of course I’m serious.” Clint knelt down to Seans’s height, an encouraging smile on his face as he looked at the little kid. “I’m sure Tony has a spare floor in there somewhere.”
Sean gasped again. “A spare floor?”
“Heck yeah. Can’t make it too much of a downgrade from here, can we?”
Sean looked ready to launch into a barrage of excited questions, Kitty too. Scott jumped in before he was drowned out. “ No. Absolutely not.”
Kitty and Sean turned disappointed frowns on him. “Why?” The little girl pleaded, her eyes wide and confused. “That would be like, so so cool!”
“A million reasons!” Scott hissed. He couldn’t let the kids get brought to Avengers Tower. No. No, that could go so wrong in so many ways. Why would they want them there? What could they do to them there? How many hundreds of thousands of problems—
“Scott.” Scott glanced up to see Clint’s eyes on him. The archer looked… genuine. Worried? Concerned? No, no way. He had to be making those things up. Why would he be worried about them? “I know about the professor. You can’t stay here.”
Scott could feel his defenses rising. “Why not?” He snapped. “We’ve been fine so far. Better than fine. We’ve been doing great without your help. We don’t need it.”
“Yes, you do,” Clint pointed out. He gestured vaguely to the space around them. “You’re kids—“
“Not all of us.”
“—you can’t afford some of the repairs you need here. You can’t buy certain things. You can’t get jobs…” he trailed off, a perplexed expression on his face for a moment. “In fact, I haven’t the foggiest idea how you guys have bought the stuff you have.”
“The professor had some money,” Kitty said quietly. Scott shot her a look of betrayal.
“Great. But that can’t go that far, right? You need food, medicine, a house without shattered windows and cold rooms…”
“That sounds awesome ,” Sean said excitedly. “Could you really take all of us?”
Clint blinked, and Scott could see the surprise on his face even as he tried to hide. “Of course! But, ah, how many of you are there?”
“Oh,” Sean said, babbling on without thinking. “It’s just us four, plus—“
“This is it,” Scott cut in sharply with a harsh look at Sean. What was he thinking? Why did he think Kurt and Rogue were hiding right now? “This is basically it.”
Clint didn’t look convinced. He shot an equally sharp look at Scott. “Who else?”
Scott held his gaze. “It’s not important.”
“I think that another kid would be important.”
“Two!” Kitty added unhelpfully. Scott had to bite back a groan. Were they all trying to work against him? Did they want to be separated?
The thought was too painful to even joke about. Scott shoved it from his mind.
“Two more. Alright,” Clint said in a voice that said we’ll leave it at that… for now. “But yes, of course, all of you.”
“Even if—“
“ Thank you for the offer,” Scott said before Sean could give up any other information. “But no.”
“Why not Scott?” Warren’s arms were crossed, and he fixated Scott with a hard stare. “Give us one good reason.”
Scott glared at the other man. Warren knew why. Warren knew better than any of them why Scott was hesitant— at least, he should . After everything he’d been through, why on earth would he be supporting this ridiculous idea?
Then Warren tilted his head ever so slightly. Scott followed his gaze back over to Kitty and Sean. Or, more specifically, Sean. Sean with his injured leg, a leg that— despite the fact that he could now walk on it— still looked bad. Really bad. Sean had felt warm this morning, and he’d been so much more subdued than normal… if he was developing a fever, or the gash got infected… what could they do?
What if… what if Sean could go to a real doctor?
No! Scott discreetly shook his head, trying to rid his mind of the thought. No, there was a reason Professor Xavier avoided human doctors. There was a reason needles terrified Warren. There was a reason they all learned to avoid people in lab coats.
They could take care of Sean. They could find a way.
Somehow.
Everyone was staring at him now. Everyone was waiting, expecting something from him. Of course. He was the leader.
“Scott, please can we go?” Sean was looking at him with his best puppy dog pout. Kitty had a pretty good one on too.
Scott sighed, clenching his shaking fists as he slowly let out a breath. He was outnumbered, outvoted. There were good points for going. But there was so much that could go wrong… and they hadn’t even considered some of the most difficult variables.
“Alright,” Scott said slowly, but quickly interrupted Sean before he could start cheering. “ No, I’m not saying we’ll go. I’m saying we’ll talk about it. ” He glanced over his shoulder at the Avenger who was watching them, and cleared his throat. “ Alone.”
Clint put up his hands in mock surrender and took a few steps back. “Don’t worry. If you need me, I'll just be here… in the bathroom.”
Kitty giggled at the joke, and Clint sent her a grin before he closed the door and sealed himself into the bathroom. As soon as he was gone Scott inhaled deeply, let out the breath, and then turned to his siblings.
“Alright. Let’s go talk to Rogue and Kurt. Then we’ll make a decision.”
Notes:
It’s the thing that everyone says, but seriously, comments and kudos MAKE MY DAY! If you comment on this work I will literally read it like 30 times. Just because this story was prewritten doesn’t mean that comments don’t motivate me more for the story as I’m posting it! <3
Thank you so much for reading!
Chapter 13: How to Stay Together
Summary:
“You’re actually entertaining this?”
“I mean, there’s points for it,” Rogue pointed out. “It’s crazy, but…”
“That’s it. It’s crazy!” Scott shook his head. “There’s way too much that could go wrong. We’ve been fine here for months. There’s no reason to risk everything now.”
Notes:
We finally get to meet the full X-Men crew! Hope the characterization here is ok, and hope you enjoy!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
“Are yah serious?”
Scott shrugged stiffly. “Sounds like it.”
Rogue sat back, shaking her head for the third time in their five minute conversation. “No way.”
“See?” Scott crossed his arms, nodding firmly at Rogue’s statement. “I told you guys. It’s a bad idea.”
“But Rogue! ” Kitty bounced up to the other girl, her eyes wide and pleading. “Think about it! It’d be, like, so so cool!”
“There’s a big difference between cool and safe ,” Scott pointed out.
“Well, are we really so safe here?” Scott turned to glare at Warren, who was leaning casually against one of the walls as they debated.
“ Yes, we are,” Scott retorted sharply.
“Yeah. Sure.”
Scott was about to snap back, but Kitty spoke first. “I cut my foot on a piece of glass the other day.”
“Yes, but you’re ok now, right?” Scott said. Kitty didn’t respond, letting out a small sigh as she flopped back against the pillows of Rogue’s bed. She was quickly starting to look tired of the argument. They all were.
“Ah’m not sayin’ ah’m totally against it.” Scott whipped around to face the girl behind him, his eyes wide behind his visor as he stared at her.
“What? You’re actually entertaining this?”
“I mean, there’s points for it,” Rogue pointed out. “It’s crazy, but…”
“That’s it. It’s crazy!” Scott shook his head. “There’s way too much that could go wrong. We’ve been fine here for months. There’s no reason to risk everything now.”
“Because the fact that half the windows are broken doesn’t present a problem,” Warren snapped, sarcasm dripping from his heated voice.
“You’re right, it doesn’t .” Scott snapped right back. “We can deal with that. We’ll get them fixed.”
“By calling a repairman? Or buying a new window?” Warren rolled his eyes. “Oh right, I forgot. You’ve got to be over eighteen. And have money .”
“We have money,” Scott shot back.
“For how much longer?” Scott gave Warren a withering look, but the other mutant only rolled his eyes again. “We all know it’s running out sooner or later Scott.”
“Well, we’re both fourteen,” Scott said reasonably. “We’re old enough to get jobs, Rogue too soon.”
“Right. Because wings and lasers don’t cause concern in the workplace.” Warren crossed his arms. “And what about parental consent? Social security numbers? Taxes?”
Scott gritted his teeth. “I’m working on it.”
“Yeah, and every other day something else breaks.”
“Think about it Scott,” Sean pleaded, cutting in between him and Warren before their side battle could escalate. “ Avengers Tower. Where could we learn to be better superheroes better than there?”
“ Here .” Scott said firmly. “You really think Captain America is going to let a ten year old go out and fight crime? Do you?”
“Hey!” Sean protested confidently. “Ten is plenty old enough to fight crime! Cap would see that!”
“You want to ask him then?” Scott crossed his arms and raised an eyebrow at the younger kid.
“Yeah! I, I mean… he would be cool with it, right?” Sean suddenly looked less sure of himself, his hands twisting together as he looked between his siblings. “I mean, he was totally doing super stuff when he was our age, right? And he’s all ‘ out truth an’ justice an’ honor an’ all that. He’d be on our side, wouldn’t he?”
“We don’t know that,” Scott said. He hated the crestfallen look on Sean’s face, but he had to come down on this. He had to remind them of the truth. “We can’t trust them.”
“But they’re the Avengers— “
“And we’re the X-Men . They’re friends of “the people”. We aren’t.”
“That doesn’t mean they can’t help us,” Kitty pointed out.
“An’ then what?” Rogue cut in. She had been mostly quiet through the debate, contemplating the arguments, but now she leaned forward. “What ‘bout when we start showin’ our powers, huh?”
“They have powers too,” Sean pointed out.
“Yeah, but their powers ain’t like ours. They’re intentional.” Rogue glanced at her gloved hands. It was a quick movement, almost unnoticeable, but Scott caught it. “They’re designed to help, not hurt.”
“What about the Hulk?” Sean pointed to a poster on Rogue’s wall. Most of the posters plastered across the maroon paint were of bands and a few cute animals that Kitty had printed out, but right by the door there was a little one of the Avengers. It was an artist’s rendering of the heroes in the middle of the battle of New York, and the Hulk was one of the centerpieces. Behind Iron Man’s blasts and Captain America’s cool heroism the Hulk was ripping through a Chitauri speeder, his jaw hanging open and his eyes shot with rage as he roared silently on the paper. Sean grinned. “His whole thing is an accident, completely outta his control. He’s just like us!”
“‘Cept he’s not a mutant,” Rogue pointed out. “Big difference.”
Sean let out a huff. “Why’s everything gotta be ‘bout who’s mutant an’ not?”
“Because that’s how it is right now,” Scott said, his voice firm with finality. “That’s why we have to be able to do what we do. Remember Hope Industries?”
The room got quiet for a moment. The little kids dropped their gazes. Warren stiffened against the wall, and Rogue stared at her hands from behind her bangs. The silence reigned on for a heavy moment, and Scott let the weight sink in before taking a breath.
“We can’t fight them if we can’t fight,” he explained. “We can’t stop them if someone stops us. And the Avengers will stop us.”
“Not like people stopping us has actually stopped us before,” Warren said stiffly. “We could work around them.”
“You want to work around the Avengers ,” Scott said incredulously.
“Or maybe even work with —“
“That won’t happen,” Scott and Warren cut Sean off simultaneously. Despite himself, Scott felt a small flash of relief. Good. At least they were on the same page about that. Even if it was the only thing they were on the same page about, it was something.
Sean huffed and slouched back against the pillows right next to Kitty. “Jus’ sayin’.”
“And I’m just saying that we can figure it out.” Warren turned back to Scott, his arms crossed tightly across his chest. “There are more important things than being superheroes.”
“Like what? ” Scott snapped in bewilderment.
“Like making sure we’re all safe and healthy, for one.”
“Which we are—“
“Are we really?”
“What about the Professor's mission?” Scott swept his arms out wide in exasperation. How in the world could Warren say anything was more important than their jobs? Their calling? “What about our mission? Don’t you remember anything he taught us?”
“Of course I do,” Warren snapped. “It’s kinda hard to forget. We can still work his mission. But we gotta take care of ourselves first.”
“And we take care of ourselves by staying hidden.”
“And where are we supposed to stay hidden? Here? This place is falling apart!”
“No it’s—“
Warren shook his head sharply. “Don’t try that crap Summers. You may be blind, but the rest of us aren’t.”
Scott bristled. “What, are you saying we can’t survive on our own?”
Warren’s eyes flashed with anger. “Of course not.”
“Well then,” Scott crossed his arms and glared at the other man. “What are you saying?”
Warren held his gaze firmly. “I’m saying that maybe we can’t all survive on our own.”
Scott could feel the pressure building behind his eyes again, his emotions burning in his mind. He blinked furiously, trying to dispel the power and curb some of the mounting anger that he felt. The worst part was that in a way Warren was right. If it were just him, or just him and Warren, even just him Warren and Rogue it would be a whole other story. But they had Kitty, they had Kurt, they had Sean. And each kid had their own problem, each kid had their own qualities that made life hard and made simply surviving more difficult. He should know— he was one of the worst.
“We are never separating.” Scott could feel his voice tremble with the amount of emotion in his words. He paused, took a deep breath, then repeated it again. “We are never separating, alright?”
Warren held up his hands. Scott could see some of the animosity that had built in his friend dissipating. “Of course not. That’s not what I was saying—“
“And yet, you said it,” Scott pointed out bitterly. Warren tensed again.
“No. What I was saying is that maybe this is the best way for us to stay together.”
“I mean…” Rogue trailed off slowly, her voice quieter than usual. “If we don’t go… what do yah think Barton’s gonna do?”
Rogue, Warren, and Scott exchanged glances. The words were left unsaid, but the older three all knew the possibilities. There was no way the Avenger would leave them alone now. He would do something, call someone if he thought they weren’t going to comply. Child Protective Services. That was most likely. And if they went back into the system… there was no way the six of them would stay together.
At least this way… it sounded like they would.
“I… I want us to stay together.”
Scott looked up, almost surprised to hear the nervous, accented voice. It took him a minute to catch sight of Kurt; the little boy was crouched in the shadows near the foot of the bed close to Rogue’s feet, his bright yellow eyes flashing as his tail twitched nervously. Kurt hadn’t said a word throughout the whole discussion, Scott suddenly realized.
“I… I think we should go.”
“Really?” Rogue blinked, turning her attention to the little boy next to her. Scott was sure she had been carrying many of his same fears for Kurt. Out of all of the hundreds of reasons that things could go wrong going to the tower, Kurt was one of the biggest ones. The boy was just so… different . His mutation was so obvious . He could bring so much animosity so quickly… taking him to somewhere as public as Avengers Tower was such a risk. Out of all the kids, Scott had been sure he would want to stay here, where he was safe.
Kurt reached up, gently grabbing Rogue’s gloved hand. She didn’t flinch, just stared at him worriedly as she spoke. “Kurt… are yah sure? ”
“ Ja, ” Kurt said. He grinned slightly, his fangs flashing in the dim lamp light. “I think it would be best. For all of us!”
Rogue watched her brother for a moment, the two sharing a moment of silent conversation. Scott could see them going back and forth, their facial expressions speaking for them. Rogue pursed her lips, and Kurt lifted his blue chin stubbornly. His tail flicked as Rogue’s bangs fell in front of her eyes. She shook her head, but Kurt just held her gaze.
“Fine.” Rogue gave a little sigh, turning to look at the other kids. She huffed, blowing the white bangs from her eyes before nodding. “If Kurt wants tah go… ah guess ah’m in.”
“Really?” Kitty squealed, popping up from the pillow she had been brooding in. She bounced slightly. “Yes, yes let’s do it!”
“I’m so in!” Sean exclaimed, wincing as his outburst jostled his leg ever so slightly. Just a moment later his wide grin returned and he was almost bouncing with his excitement.
The little kids looked at Warren expectantly. The blonde boy caught Scott’s eye for a moment, and shrugged. “I think we should.”
With that all eyes turned to Scott. The weight of the decision hung heavy in the air, five pairs of eyes focused on him. Kitty’s eyes were pleading with him. Sean looked more excited than the day he found a frog in the backyard. Kurt looked excited, even if his blue tail was flicking with nerves. Rogue looked hesitant, but decisive. And of course Warren was watching expectantly, his eyes narrowed in challenge. Somewhere in the depths of that challenging gaze, there was something like hope that struck Scott to his core.
He was outvoted. Outnumbered. He was also way, way out of his depth.
There was no right decision here, no way to be totally safe. It was too late for that now. He just had to try and make the best decision out of a slew of bad choices.
Slowly, heavily, he heaved in a breath. Then he let it out in a sigh, praying he wasn’t about to make the worst mistake of his life.
“Fine. We’ll go.”
Notes:
Just saying again thank you so much for all the comments last chapter, holy cow reading those made my week!! It’s so encouraging to hear that people are enjoying this story as much as I am, thanks for reading! Leave a comment if you’re excited for the Avengers Tower Bonding Arc, it’s coming these characters are just so stubborn I swear—
Chapter 14: It’s Really Happening
Summary:
“Natasha said you’re bringing what into my tower?”
Notes:
Another Avenger makes an appearance and the crew finally packs up to go!
Hope you enjoy! :)
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Chapter Text
If Clint was honest with himself, he had no clue what he was doing. At all. At any point in time. Especially with this.
When he stepped into that bathroom to give the kids space, he was sure they were going to make him drag them out. And if it came to that… well, could he take them against their will? Was that legal? Would he even be able to overpower six mutant kids? He had no idea, he was just making things up as he went along.
But somehow, miracle of miracles, when he stepped out of that ridiculously nice bathroom thirty minutes later, the kids were packing up to go.
He nearly knelt down and sent up a prayer of thanks right then and there.
He could hardly believe it, and yet somehow they had been convinced. Maybe it was the promise of the Avengers. Maybe it was the promise of food. Maybe it was the promise of shelter with all the windows intact.
But suddenly, this was really happening.
Clint realized very quickly that his one Honda Civic was in no way going to have enough seats for six kids, and that asking them to ride illegally or sticking one in the trunk was not a good way to go about things. He debated calling up Natasha, but her foot was still healing; she would probably come if he asked, but she shouldn’t be driving and he already felt like he had asked way too much from her. So instead he dialed up Tony.
Maybe not his best decision.
“Natasha said you’re bringing what into my tower?”
Clint winced, hoping that none of the kids had super hearing. Actually, they might not need super hearing to hear Tony’s voice, even from upstairs. “So she's broken the news already?”
“Barton, I always knew there were a few eggs missing from your basket, but are you serious? I would have put this past you, but apparently I need to reevaluate my opinions of you.”
“Ouch. I need your help Tony.”
“I think I’m helping plenty already by not completely throwing this idea out the window!”
Clint sighed, running a hand through his hair as he listened to Tony’s increasingly loud voice. He definitely should have called Cap. Cap would have been way cooler about this… no, he would have given the exact same speech, just calmer and with more tact than Tony. Both were bad options, but hey, they were options. “I don’t have enough seats in the car.”
“Right. The car, might I mention, that you’re borrowing from me. ”
“I need you to come help carpool.”
He could hear a long groan on the other end of the line. “You have four seats in that car Clint. How many of these rugrats did you find?”
“More than four,” Clint replied. “If you want to know, come see for yourself.”
“I could sue you.”
“On what grounds?”
“I don’t know, I’d come up with something.”
“Well,” Clint rummaged in his jeans pocket. Luckily he had actually remembered his wallet, and luckily his wallet— for once— actually had money in it. “I’ve got thirteen dollars and sixty seven cents if you’re interested.”
“Wow, ok, that’s just sad Barton. You really do need help.” There was the sound of a car engine on the other end, and Clint smirked in triumph. “I’m coming, but it’s out of pity more than anything.”
“Sure,” Clint replied. “Whatever you say.”
Tony hung up without another word, which didn’t surprise Clint. What did surprise him was how fast the man managed to get there. When he hims made the drive, it took him at least an hour. It was a solid forty minutes away from the tower, and between the New York traffic and then the shockingly hidden back roads that lead to the Xavier Institute, he was expecting the wait to be a while. But just about thirty minutes after hanging up Tony Stark was pulling into the driveway.
Clint stood up, quickly stretching out the kinks he had from sitting on the stone porch for half an hour. He smirked as Tony shifted into park and stepped out of the car.
“What? No Audi?”
“You didn’t tell me how many buggers you found,” Tony pointed out. He shut the door to the SUV a little harder than it needed to be before heading up the gravel path to the porch where Clint was waiting. The billionaire looked a bit out of place next to the ivy-covered, neglected building in his sharp suit. It was nicer than the stuff he usually wore around the tower. He must have used this as an excuse to get out of some sort of meeting; figures.
“Oh, before I forget…” Clint quickly dug around in his pocket, leaning back for just a second until he was able to pull out the handful of dollars he had found. He held them out with a smirk.
Tony took one look at the cash and scoffed. “You can’t be serious Barton. Put that away, it makes me sad just looking at it.”
Clint shrugged, tucking the bills smoothly back into his pocket. “Your loss.”
“So,” Tony let out a sharp, “I’m-too-busy-for-this” sigh, and looked around. “Nice place.”
Clint shrugged. “It was .”
“Xavier’s?”
“Yep.”
“And he’s the dead guardian?”
“Also yep.”
“How many kids?”
“Six.” Clint paused for a moment there, contemplating. “I’m pretty sure.”
“And their… powers? Any clue what they can do?”
“None at all.”
“Great. Fantastic.” Tony let out a sigh, turning his gaze back to Clint. His eyes were shielded behind his usual expensive-looking red shades, the kind that only Tony Stark level people seemed to be able to pull off. “I swear if you bring some combustible twelve-year-old into my tower I’m going to make you pay the property damages. Even if you only have fourteen dollars.”
Clint blinked. “Wait. That’s a possibility?”
Tony snorted. “They’re mutants. Literally anything is a possibility. And from what I’ve seen, a lot of mutants tend to be pretty destructive.”
That wasn’t something Clint had taken into account. Sure, he knew the kids were mutants. It was on his radar, obviously. It was the whole reason he didn’t want to call in SHIELD and half the reason he didn’t want to call CPS. But he hadn’t thought to ask them about their powers yet, or thought about how those powers could possibly affect the other Avengers. What if one of the kids could literally blow up any minute? There had to be some reason as to why CPS seemed so eager to get rid of them….
No . Clint shook those thoughts out of his head before they could fully form. They were still just kids, mutant or not. He couldn’t leave them behind, no matter the unfortunate ability.
“So, what exactly is the plan here?” Tony asked, his voice pulling Clint from his thoughts. “Are they coming out here, or are we just supposed to sit on our hands all night?”
Clint sighed, running his hand through his hair as he nodded. “Yeah. Yeah. Let’s see if they’re ready.”
The two men slipped into the huge, echoing Institute, Clint’s brain still running at a million miles an hour as he tried to stay on top of everything that was happening. But there was just so much happening at once that he felt like he was still just trying to catch up.
He took a deep breath. He needed to focus. He basically invented making spur-of-the-moment decisions like this; he should be fine.
Everything was going to be fine.
To his surprise, the kids were already all downstairs. All of them. Clint could easily count six figures, and more than six bags of stuff. Not really bags; it looked like most of the kids had grabbed pillowcases to pack their various things in. Some definitely looked better packed than others, but the important thing was that they were packed, in some capacity at least.
This was really happening.
“Wow.” Tony was standing next to him, the shorter man nodding in what Clint could only describe as respectful disbelief as he regarded the crowd in the living room. “You actually weren’t kidding Barton.”
“Yep,” Clint murmured under his breath, still a bit in disbelief himself. “I even surprise myself sometimes.”
Tony huffed a small breath of laughter, slowly shaking his head as he looked at the kids. Of course, now all of the kids were looking at them.
“Hey guys,” Clint waved a bit, offering the kids a lopsided grin as he gestured to Tony. “I didn’t have enough room in my car, so I asked Mr. Stark to come by and help out.”
“ Woah .” Clint wasn’t all too surprised to see that it was Sean who had spoken up. The curly haired boy popped up from the couch where he had been sitting, quickly rushing forward to get a better look at Tony. “You’re the Tony Stark?”
Tony spread out his arms, and Clint had to take a step back as he took the spotlight. “The one and only.”
Sean’s eyes lit up with awe. “You’re Iron Man! You’re like, an actual superhero!”
Clint frowned in mock hurt. “ Ouch .”
Tony sent a wiry smirk toward Clint. “Oh, I like this one already.” The billionaire turned back to Sean with a chuckle. “Want to ride with the real superhero, squirt?”
Sean was practically bouncing up and down with excitement. The kid was so full of energy that Clint could almost forget about his leg. Almost . “Heck yeah! Let’s go!”
“Slow down, Sean!” And then there was Scott. The boy had looked tense all day; in fact, any time Clint had seen the fourteen-year-old he looked tense. But this was by far the worst yet; Scott looked ready to implode from pressure. Tony’s comment about combustible mutants darted across his mind and he had to quickly shove it away. “We need to coordinate. Does everyone have their stuff?”
The kids fell silent, all nodding to the older boy. Tony shot a glance toward Clint, who shrugged in response. It was somewhat impressive to watch Scott organize the group, even if he was wound tighter than a jack-in-the-box. Within just a few moments the boy had divided the group of six in half; one half to go with Tony, one half to go with Clint. Sean ended up in the Tony group, a fact that made Clint’s mouth twitch up in a grin. Kitty— the little girl he had briefly met earlier— and Warren were also with the billionaire, which left Clint with Scott and the two new faces.
“Hey you two,” Clint said as he helped lug pillowcases to the car. The baggage seemed strangely light, but that was not nearly his biggest concern at the moment; his focus was on giving the kids his most friendly, open smile possible. “I’m Clint, in case you didn’t catch it.”
One of the two kids looked at him, though it wasn’t exactly a friendly look. Her red hair was outlined with white bangs that framed her scowling, distrustful green eyes. But at least that was something; the other kid didn’t even look at him. He just kept his head down, his face completely covered with a baseball hat that was probably too big for him. Both kids must have been feeling the cold; despite the fact that it was solidly spring now, they were decked out in hoodies, long pants, even gloves. They must be from the south or something, because you had to be pretty cold sensitive to still be wearing that sort of outfit at this time of year.
The red head looked away, and Clint instantly felt warmer; for a kid, she had a frosty gaze. Maybe he would need a jacket now.
“Can I at least get names to work with?” He tried again once the bags were loaded into the trunk. He wasn’t really asking any of the kids in particular; just whoever would answer.
The answer ended up coming from the redhead, who let out a little sigh before relenting. “Ah’m Rogue,” she said, her voice thick with a southern accent as she jutted her gloved thumb over to the hoodie kid. “Tha’s Kurt.”
Well, Clint was right about the southern thing, at least. He thought about asking whether Rogue was her real name or a nickname, but the girl had already climbed into the car, Kurt hot on her heels. Clint let out a small huff of breath before slamming the trunk shut and glancing over at the other car. Tony was already sitting in the driver’s seat, Warren next to him and Kitty and Sean in the back. Clint gave the other Avenger a quick salute before waving Scott— who of course had been watching everyone as he helped load bags— over and into the car. Then it was just Clint left in the diriveway, Before he could think of anything else, he hopped into the driver’s seat and got the engine started. Just like that, they were backing away from the Institute, en route for Avengers Tower.
This was really happening.
Notes:
Honestly this is one of my favorite chapters purely for the conversations! I love writing Tony dialogue he makes me laugh.
THEY ACTUALLY GET TO THE TOWER NEXT CHAPTER, see y’all Monday! :D
Chapter 15: Hidden Things
Summary:
A grin slipped onto Clint’s face and he turned, ready to explain to the kids. But the words died in his throat before he could say them, choked out by a strangled sound of surprise that he barely managed to swallow.
It was Kurt that had gasped. Kurt, who up until now had been completely hidden from Clint’s view.
Notes:
Happy July 4th to any Americans reading! I have like 30 people in my house right now but didn’t want to miss an update! 😎
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Chapter Text
The car ride on the way home was somewhat painful. A solid forty five minutes of tense, uninterrupted silence. Well, not uninterrupted. Clint tried to start up conversation a few times. Many times, actually. But none of the three kids wanted to talk, and so after a while he dropped it and just let the silence take over.
But then finally, after a bout of agonizing traffic, they made it. Clint had never felt more relief pulling into the Tower’s garage than he did in that moment.
Tony’s car pulled in just behind theirs, and Clint could hear the loud gasps of excitement as he started pulling bags from the trunk. Yet again he found himself involuntarily smiling at the kid’s excitement while simultaneously panicking at the fact that holy crap this actually worked —
Scott and Rogue were both extremely tense, but Kurt seemed to have a bit of the other kid’s excitement with the way he was looking around the garage. Maybe. Clint honestly had no idea. He hadn’t even gotten a good look at the kid yet; any time he moved a bit closer it seemed that either Rogue or Scott were in his way. That was fine though; for now he was just focused on getting all of the kids safely inside the building and somewhat settled. And fed, he needed to get them fed too.
“ Food! ” The word burst from his lips just as he fell in step with Tony, a groan overcoming him as he walked. “I didn’t even think about food, how did I—“
“Relax bird brain, I’ve got you covered,” Tony said. Clint whipped around to face him in surprise. “Rhodes is picking up pizza right now.”
“Are you serious?” Tony nodded, and Clint let out a huge sigh of relief. “You’re a lifesaver, Tony.”
“Yeah, I know,” the billionaire said with a smirk.
“Don’t get used to me saying it though,” Clint corrected himself quickly. Tony chuckled, a snarky retort already on his breath, but just then the elevator doors opened. Clint’s first plan was to pile everyone in at once, but Tony quickly pointed out the fact that there were literally eight of them and that he did not want to accidentally step on a kid. The space was small after all, and soon the group was once again split into their groups of three. Tony went up first with Kitty, Sean, and Warren in tow. The younger two both waved to the other kids before the silver doors slid shut in front of them and Clint’s group was stuck waiting until the elevator got back.
It wasn’t until Clint got into the elevator himself that he realized he had no idea what floor Tony had taken the kids to.
He cursed under his breath, hoping that it was too quiet for the kids to hear as he glared at the elevator buttons. This was not ideal. What floors did Tony say were empty last time they talked about the tower construction? Actually, had they ever talked about the tower construction? Was there a user’s manual that would show it, or maybe JARVIS could pull up a map or—
Oh. Right.
“Hey, JARVIS?” Clint said, hoping he didn’t look too ridiculous talking to the ceiling. “What floor did Tony just head to?”
Instantly the AI’s voice was filling the elevator. “Hello Agent Barton. Sir got off at floor forty five. Would you like me to take you there?”
Before Clint could answer, actually before the AI had even finished speaking there was a loud gasp of wonder. A grin slipped onto Clint’s face and he turned, ready to explain the AI to the kids. But the words died in his throat before he could say them, choked out by a strangled sound of surprise that he barely managed to swallow.
It was Kurt that had gasped. Kurt, who was staring up at the ceiling in shock and wonder. Kurt, who up until now had been completely hidden from Clint’s view. Kurt, who apparently had bright blue skin. And fangs. And elf ears.
Clint cursed again, and this time the kids definitely heard it.
Everyone seemed to realize what had happened at the same moment. Scott hissed Kurt’s name, and Kurt’s yellow, pupiless eyes went wide and he ducked his head in a panic. Rogue stepped in front of Clint’s view, the red head’s eyes narrow with fury and challenge as she glared at him.
Clint quickly put up his hands. “Whoa, whoa, calm down guys.”
“Say somethin’,” Rogue hissed, her southern voice low and dangerous as she glared at the man. “Ah dare ya.”
“I’m sorry,” Kurt was stammering out an apology to someone— whether it was to Scott or to Clint, he had no idea. “I didn’t mean to, I was confused—“
“Don’t look at him,” Scott was practically growling, his voice hard and defensive as his hands curled into fists, his eyes dangerous despite the metal covering them. “Don’t even think about it, don’t even think about hurting him—“
“Woah! Guys, listen,” Clint’s voice was shaky, hurried, his mind racing at the pure aggression directed toward him. The two older kids were watching him, both bristled and hostile, to the point that he was actually a bit worried for himself. At the same time as a spark of fear went through him, a strange spark of admiration spread through his chest as well. The level of protectiveness that these kids had for each other… it was something else. It was something special.
Clint kept his hands raised, trying to show that he meant no harm. Slowly, cautiously, he crouched down till he was below both Rogue and Scott, and hopefully just about eye level with Kurt. The mutant had backed into one corner of the elevator as if to hide, his hat pulled down over his forehead as he tried to conceal his face. Clint blinked slowly, once again taken aback by the actual fear that the boy seemed to be feeling. And from what? Clint seeing his face? Was that really enough to garner this amount of aggression, this amount of fear?
By the looks that the other two were shooting toward him, Clint had the bitter, sinking feeling that maybe it was. It brought a sick feeling to his stomach to think about what that could mean.
“Hey, Kurt,” he said softly. He tried to keep his voice low, calming, steady even under the burning glares of the two older kids. “Don’t worry, buddy. You’re ok.”
Kurt didn’t move, and neither did Scott and Rogue. Clint’s brain was running a thousand miles an hour, trying to figure out a way to reassure the kid. He had to ground Kurt, to somehow diffuse the tension that was churning in the air before it choked him.
“That’s just JARVIS, by the way,” he said, the words somehow distant from his mouth. It was just something to say, to fill the air… but was it his imagination, or did Kurt seem to be listening? He decided to keep going. “He’s one of Tony’s AIs. An artificial intelligence, you know? He basically runs the whole building.”
“Really?” The voice was small, pretty heavily accented, but Clint took it as a positive sign. He slowly put his hands down, and neither Rogue nor Scott lunged at him; another positive sign. “Yeah. Not just the building, but Tony’s suits and stuff too.”
“Like… like the Iron Man armor?” Kurt was still pressed tightly against the wall, but he seemed genuinely curious.
“Yep, just like the Iron Man armor,” Clint said. “Don’t worry, he’s actually way cooler than Tony.”
That earned him a little giggle. “Mr. Stark is pretty cool.”
“Aw, is he though?” Clint pouted playfully. “I’m cooler though, right?”
Kurt uncurled slightly from his ball, the hat clutched in his gloved hands falling away from his face just a bit with the movement. Clint could see most of his face. The kid looked strange, for sure, almost like some sort of elf or goblin with his blue skin and sharp, pointed ears. But Clint ignored that and smiled encouragingly. “Right? I’m definitely cooler.”
“You shoot arrows,” Kurt pointed out slowly. “He has a suit of armor.”
“And which one of those do you think takes more skill?” Clint asked. He dramatically sat back, miming a bow and arrow motion in an as over exaggerated fashion as he possibly could. It was apparently funny, because soon Kurt was giggling. Clint tossed him a grin. “You know what, don’t answer that now. I’ll teach you how to shoot a bow. Then you can decide who’s cooler.”
“Really?” Now Kurt was looking entirely at him, his face only slightly hidden by the hoodie as he stared at Clint with wide, yellow eyes “You would do that?”
“Of course I would!” Clint said proudly. “I’ve got to secure my position as the coolest Avenger!”
Kurt’s grin faltered for a moment, and he glanced at the ground. “I uh, I don’t know if I would be good at shooting…”
He pulled off one of his little black gloves, and sheepishly showed his hand to Clint. Again the archer had to bite back a noise of surprise. The kid’s hands… well, they were blue, for one thing. For another, he didn’t have five digits, like an average person. Instead he had three thick digits, two fingers and a thumb. His face was no longer hidden by his hat, and his expression as he held out his hand looked almost like shame or embarrassment. The sight of it caused something to fill Clint’s chest, and he suddenly felt a need to get that look off of the boy’s face.
“You know,” Clint said slowly. “I think you might be able to get an even better grip than I can.”
Kurt looked back up, his eyes wide. “Really?”
“Oh yeah,” Clint said, his tone completely serious as he nodded. “I mean, look at those fingers! You’ll be able to grab an arrow easily!”
The little blue face split into a wide grin, one that showed off a row of fangs. “I have a tail too! I could grab them with that!”
Clint didn’t even let himself be surprised by that development. He just grinned encouragingly. “Maybe I shouldn’t show you. You’ll be taking my spot before I know it.”
Kurt chuckled. “No way. You’re the best archer ever.”
Clint was surprised at how much the words made him smile. “Hey, maybe not for long.”
With that he stood up, still smiling as he faced Scott and Rogue. To his relief, a lot of their hostility seemed to have faded. Both kids were regarding him cautiously, but they looked… was thankful the right word? For Rogue, maybe, but for Scott… it was something different for sure. The expression was complicated. But whatever it was… well, neither of them looked like they wanted to kill him now. He counted that as a win.
“Hey Kurt,” Clint said with a grin. The blue boy glanced up at him. “Why don’t you ask JARVIS to take us to the others?”
“Can I really?” Kurt asked, wide eyed.
Clint motioned to the ceiling. The little boy cleared his throat, both Rogue and Scott glancing at him as he spoke. “Mr. JARVIS?”
“Hello, sir,” came the digital voice. Kurt jumped slightly at the sound, but he grinned in excitement.
“Uh, Mr. JARVIS, could you please take us to Mr. Stark and the rest of my family?”
“Of course, sir,” JARVIS replied, and Clint could have sworn he detected a note of happiness in the AI’s voice. Just like that the elevator was moving upward, and carrying the four of them with it. Clint found himself glancing at the beaming blue kid multiple times throughout the ride until finally they stopped at the forty sixth floor. Then the doors slid open, and Clint let all other thoughts slide to the side.
Now it was time for pizza. Then getting the kids to bed, he supposed. Then in the morning… well.
That was when he was going to have to start actually thinking this through. But for now… the bare minimum of keeping the kids alive and safe was his main goal.
Notes:
I love Kurt so much I hope I did him some justice, leave a comment if you want I gotta go blow some stuff up—
Chapter 16: Shiny, Fancy Tile
Summary:
Sean never thought that Scott would actually agree to come, and now that they were here actually standing in Avengers Tower… he couldn’t imagine going back home right now just when they had barely gotten there!
They had to stay at least one night, and he didn’t mind sharing a room anyway.
Notes:
And the adventures of the X-Kids at Avengers tower begin! Y’all sound like you’ve been super excited for this part and I’m so glad, because we’ve got a lot coming!
Hope you enjoy!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Avengers Tower.
Avengers Tower!
Sean could not believe it. At all. Not one bit. Well, obviously he could believe it a bit because holy crap he was standing right there, in the middle of it, his sneakers scuffing against the cool marble floor— wait, was it marble? Marble sounded fancy, he really had no clue what marble was supposed to look like with flooring or architecture or really anything of the sort— maybe it was just plain old tile or something but whatever, the floor was hardly the coolest part of Avengers Tower! There were literal superheroes in the same building as them! He was standing next to Iron Man! Well, he had been standing next to Hawkeye too, but Iron Man!
He didn’t know how the others weren’t absolutely bursting at the seams with excitement. Warren just had his arms crossed, eying everything with a sharp glare and a small smirk like he usually did—they should really call him Hawkeye, he was more bird than Mr. Barton was— and Kitty was starting to get just a little annoying. She had been so super excited in the car just like him but now that they were actually in the tower she was getting kinda clingy, constantly reaching out to hold his hand for reassurance and looking around at everything in fright and wonder. Sean was seriously considering just shoving her to Warren; he was in front of Avengers, he wanted to look cool and tough! Maybe if he did he could impress Mr. Stark, then when he showed him his powers the man would be so impressed that he invited Sean to join the team, and then—
The ding of the elevator cut through Sean’s thoughts, and he glanced up to see Mr. Barton stepping out of it with the rest of his siblings in tow. Scott was bringing up the back, his arms crossed and that usual suspicious, angsty look on his face with his eyebrows close together behind his visor and his jaw tight. Then there was Rogue, her hands shoved in her pockets as her eyes scanned the room from behind her white bangs, sticking close to Kurt as she always did. But then there was Kurt. He was the surprising one, probably the reason Scott and Rogue were so tense. His hat was off, like the thing that kept people from seeing his blue face was gone , and he was walking right next to Mr. Barton.
Sean whipped around to shoot a look at Warren. The older boy looked just as surprised as he did, good, this wasn’t a part of the plan that nobody had told him and it was actually weird. Sean had thought it was a little silly to try and hide Kurt the whole time of course, like the kid was literally blue anyone with eyeballs could see that he was a mutant and everyone knew they were mutants anyway so why bother, but he also knew that this was not supposed to be happening and crap, was Kurt alright? Mr. Barton hadn’t tried to hurt him or anything, right? He was an Avenger, he wouldn’t do that… right?
Mr. Stark was there too, which was bad because he wasn’t being nearly as cool and calm as Mr. Barton who looked pretty much totally unbothered by the blue boy next to him. Mr. Stark’s mouth had fallen open, his eyes darting down to Kurt and then up to Mr. Barton— only for the other Avenger to shoot him a sharp gaze. Oooh , Sean recognized that look. That was very much a “ don’t say a word or else ” look, Warren was a master at those. And apparently so was Mr. Barton, because Mr. Stark held it for about three seconds before shutting his mouth and pulling his expression into check.
“Hey. Hey, guys. So, here we are,” Mr. Stark said, his words a little flumbled at first, but by the end of his statement completely in focus without betraying his surprise in the slightest. That was impressive. Sean wished he had a superpower like that . No, actually, his powers were pretty cool. Most of the time, at least. Though right now he definitely wished he had something like a healing factor like Kurt’s old circus friend had. That would be nice; his leg still hurt and it was making it a bit hard for him to keep standing in the middle of the great big room, no matter how excited he was.
Mr. Stark swept his arm out to indicate the room they were standing in to the rest of the group. It was big . Like, they lived in a mansion-slash-institute and all but this was big . Sean had already taken in most of the surrounding area— on the right side they had a table, check, chairs, check, fridge, check, oven, nope, no oven that he could see but there was at least a microwave so check, basically just a mini kitchen and dining area whereas on the left they had couches, check, more chairs, check, TV, check, all the good hang out area stuff. It was pretty cool and pretty nice, so much more sleek than the Professor’s old stuff which was all dark and a little musty and sometimes made Sean sad if he thought about it for too long. This was bright and open and in the middle of Avengers Tower.
“Don’t worry, I had Happy try his best to baby-proof it,” Mr. Stark said to Mr. Barton, which should make Sean feel offended that he was calling them babies but this was Iron Man talking so that made no matter what he was saying extra cool. Plus, he was probably talking about Kitty and Kurt anyway. “This is just one of the guest floors that we have stashed away. It used to be in case anyone had to stay overnight for a business conference or anything of the sort, and now… well, I guess this is what it’s going to be used for.”
“How many rooms are there?” Sean easily recognized Scott’s voice as he cut into the conversation. He had his adult voice on, and Sean glanced over his shoulder to see his big brother glowering at the two Avengers. He had better be careful, he didn’t want to burn a hole in one of them.
“Only four on this floor,” Mr. Stark said with a shrug. “Makes room for this kitchenette and living space. Each one also has a full wash and bath.”
Mr. Stark said it casually, but Sean knew that was a lot for them to have, especially when Mr. Barton had literally just decided to let them come stay in the tower. Scott didn’t look impressed. He never seemed to look impressed though. At least not with adults. Sean had impressed him the other day when he splintered wood with his powers. The mess he made that night at dinner, well, not so much… “We each had our own room back at the Institute.”
“I don’t mind sharin’ Scott!” Sean burst out. The older boy turned to him, and Sean quickly did his best to look encouraging. He never thought that Scott would actually agree to come, and now that they were here actually standing in Avengers Tower… he couldn’t imagine going back home right now just when they had barely gotten there! He hadn’t even met Thor! Or Captain America! Or Black Widow! Or the Hulk! They had to stay at least one night , and he was totally fine with sharing rooms anyway. “It’ll be fun! Like a sleepover! Y’know, there’s all the movies ‘bout sleepovers an’ stuff, now we’re havin’ a real life sleepover! It’s cool!”
For some reason Scott still didn’t look like he thought it was cool. But he didn’t protest any further, and after a glance between him and Rogue, Sean took that as enough of a hint to go sprinting— well, a little more like limping— off to check out the rooms that he hadn’t ventured into. His leg kinda made it difficult to sprint, no matter how badly he wanted to. It hurt to put weight on, so he had to settle for a quick-trot-limp that he really really hoped didn’t look too dumb to Mr. Stark. Kitty and Kurt were soon on his heels, and the others were probably not far behind. There was a short hallway that extended from the middle of the main area, and off of that hallway branched four rooms. Sean flung open all the doors in excitement. They, like the main room, were huge! Maybe even bigger than his room back home! All four were huge, spacious, with a ginormous bed and a great big dresser and even a little seating area in the corner… they also all kinda looked the exact same but that was fine to Sean, he already knew which one he wanted. He wanted to run through each room, check it out to the fullest, but the stab of pain each time he put his foot down made running around a bit difficult. So instead he just peaked into each one and then parked himself next to the first one off of the main room on the left. He could just tell it was better than the others so obviously he had to stake his claim quickly.
“This one’s mine!” He exclaimed, slightly breathless from the exertion. But hey, one has to be quick if one wants a cool room and he by far had the coolest . But then he remembered his claim that he didn’t mind sharing, and with a quick cough reiterated his statement. “Someone can come share with me though!”
“Could I share with you Sean?” Kitty bounded up, her ponytail flopping against the back of her head as she grinned at him.
Sean opened his mouth, about to issue a begrudging yes— only begrudging because Kitty had a bad habit of getting nightmares and he didn’t want to be the one she woke up at midnight— when Scott stepped in.
“Nope. You’re sharing with Rogue, Kitty.”
“Huh?” Kitty turned her wide eyes on Scott. “Why?”
“Because I said so,” Scott said matter-of-factly.
“Wait, ah didn’t agree to that.” Now Rogue stepped over, her white bangs falling over her forehead as she frowned at Scott. “Ah ain’t sharin’ with anyone.”
“Well, I don’t want Kitty to be alone,” Scott pointed out.
“Hey! I’m fine alone!” Kitty protested.
“And she wouldn’t be alone!” Sean pulled his little sister a bit closer to him, even as she tried to wiggle out of his grasp. Sure, he didn’t necessarily want to share a room with his sometimes whiny little sister, but he totally could! “She’d be with me!”
“Yah can put Sean and Kitty together, it’s fine,” Rogue said as Scott looked at her. “We’re all basically siblings.”
“Oh, so you’d be ok bunking with Warren?”
Rogue snorted. “ Obviously not, but ah already said I ain’t bunkin’ with anyone .”
“Well then where’s Kurt going to go?” Scott crossed his arms. “Warren’s not going to want anyone with him.”
“Ah can take Kurt, maybe .” Rogue huffed, blowing the bangs from her eyes as she did. “But couldn’t someone be with you?”
“Kurt could stay with Kitty and I!” Sean interjected. The idea was hardly on his mind before it was out of his mouth, and he loved it every second he thought about it. Late night games, movies, messing with the others, having—
“Absolutely not,” Scott and Rogue said in sync.
Sean huffed. “Why not?”
“We want you to sleep , tha’s why not,” Rogue pointed out.
“What if we put Sean and Kurt together?” Scott asked. “Then I guess I could take Kitty.”
Rogue shrugged. “Ah don’t really care. If anythin’ doesn’t work tonight, we can fix it tomorrow.”
Sean was about to interject again when he saw a figure moving toward them. Oh, Mr. Barton was coming over.
“Hey guys,” the archer said with a smile. “I know you want to duke it out over rooms, but I’m going to put a pause on this for a minute.”
“How come?” Sean asked automatically.
“Well, pizza will be here in just a minute—“
“Wait, pizza? ” Sean exclaimed. Excitement burst in his chest as Mr. Barton nodded. Pizza! It had been ages since they had gotten pizza, even the frozen kind from the grocery store! Well, no, they had that a few weeks ago, but it still felt like ages . And maybe this was frozen pizza, but these were Avengers they would get take out, probably , right? It was Tony Stark, he didn’t seem like the frozen pizza kinda guy. When was the last time they ordered pizza? Sean couldn’t even remember. Was it when Warren came to live with them? Or even when Rogue and Kurt had? It was at least a year ago, definitely when the Professor was still… no, no, he didn’t want to think about that, it was too much of a happy day for stuff like that. They were having pizza! “What kind is it? Did you get the kind with like, pineapple an’ stuff? I like that kind, Warren doesn’t though but he’d eat it, we’d eat anythin’ I mean—“
“I’ll be honest, I don’t really know what kind it is,” Mr. Barton confessed. He chuckled, his hand running through his sandy hair as he shrugged. “Tony’s friend is picking it up. I’m not sure what kind he’ll get.”
“But it is like, to-go pizza?” Sean blurted out. He wanted to be sure. Frozen pizza was good and all, but actual pizza was way better. “Like, not frozen?”
To Sean’s excitement, Mr. Barton nodded. “But before it gets here, we’ve got something to take care of.”
“And what is that?” Scott cut in sharply. Sean turned to glance at his brother. Aw man, while they were talking about rooms Scott had seemed to relax at least a little bit. Now his arms were all crossed and his fists all clenched and his posture all tight again. Should Sean be crossing his arms too? Maybe he shouldn’t have acted so excited about the pizza, or the Tower, or the Avengers, but it was just so hard not to act excited when everything around him was so exciting!
“That leg,” Mr. Barton said, nodding toward Sean.
“My leg?” Sean glanced down. Oh. Yeah. Duh, his leg that was currently hidden under his long pants and a thick layer of bandages. He must’ve been limping too much. Which stunk, because it didn’t hurt that bad. It just hurt when he moved and stuff. And put weight on it. And thought about it at all. But it was fine , it was a battle wound! He wasn’t going to be a baby about it! He glanced up at his older brother to see Scott glowering at Mr. Barton.
“He’s fine,” Scott said stiffly. “We took care of it.”
“Still, I’d like for us to have a look at it,” Mr. Barton said. “Don’t worry, just a quick look. Just to make sure.”
Scott didn’t look convinced. Not at all. Oh boy, he looked about as convinced as that time Sean tried to cover up the fact that he was the one who tracked mud into the Professor’s study… while still wearing his muddy boots. It wasn’t his best lying attempt, and even his best usually didn’t get past Scott. That was how convinced he looked about this. “Thanks, but no.”
Mr. Barton frowned. Then he looked at Sean. “Does your leg hurt, buddy?”
“Yea—“ Sean cut himself off, glancing at Scott. His brother’s visor-guarded gaze had turned to look searchingly at him. Scott was always telling him to be strong, to be brave. He wanted to be strong and brave, and admitting that his leg hurt from walking through all the rooms probably wasn’t strong and brave. He decided to change his answer. “Nah. Nah, not really.”
Mr. Barton hesitated a moment, as if trying to weigh how best to speak next. He didn’t really look like he believed Sean. Not quite Scott’s level of not-believing, but still. He glanced over his shoulder, probably at Mr. Stark or something, then back between Scott and Sean. His eyes settled on Scott, and he took a small breath. “You can be right next to him,” he said, his voice a little slow as he spoke. It was like he was trying out the words, to see if they would work. It almost sounded like he was asking a question, which Sean thought was pretty funny. “You can watch everything we do, and we’ll stop if you ask us to, alright?”
To Sean’s surprise, Scott hesitated. He could almost see his brother’s eyes darting between him and Mr. Barton… not quite though, the visor kinda blocked all view of Scott’s eyes. Maybe he was making up the movement. Either way, Scott didn’t respond… which meant he also wasn’t saying no, to Sean’s surprise.
“I’m ok Scott,” Sean said reassuringly. Was that true? Sorta. He felt pretty fine, unless he y’know, put weight on his leg. Or thought about it too much. Then it felt less fine, sometimes more like he was going to throw up. But generally it felt fine. And Scott really didn’t look like he wanted him to go, for some reason. “It doesn’t hurt that bad.”
“But it does hurt?” Scott’s voice was a hushed whisper, which also surprised Sean. Scott didn’t whisper. Not often, at least. Like, of course he did during missions and really late at night, but that wasn’t even really whispers that was just him talking quietly. Scott didn’t often whisper or shout, he just spoke in a slightly more quiet or a slightly more loud voice. But this was an actual whisper , like he was less sure about what he was saying.
“Um… I mean yeah, a bit,” Sean said a little shakily. “But not bad , like I’m fine you don’t need to worry about it…”
Sean found himself trailing off as he spoke, and kinda coughed to try and cover it up. The more they were talking about it the more he was thinking about it and wow , maybe his leg did hurt? Maybe he should let Mr. Barton look at it? But maybe if he did something bad would happen?
Scott was frowning as he watched Sean closely. Then he turned to look at Mr. Barton, his voice going back to normal as he spoke. Well, almost normal. Maybe a bit harder than normal. Like he was trying to force the earlier tremor out of his voice. “If you do anything to hurt him, we’re leaving. You won’t be able to stop us.”
Mr. Barton looked almost surprised, but Sean may have been making that up because he covered it quickly. “Don’t worry. You can trust us.”
Scott held Mr. Batron’s gaze, but didn’t respond. Sean could almost hear the words in Scott’s head. Of course they couldn’t trust them! The professor always said they couldn’t trust anyone. Scott never trusted anyone , let alone someone they met like, just a few hours ago. There was no way he would trust Mr. Barton, and Sean knew that meant he shouldn’t trust the Avenger either. But they could let him help, right? Apparently yes, because Scott inhaled deeply and turned to look at Sean.
“Alright. Let’s go get your leg looked at.”
Notes:
A new perspective!! 😱✨ hope y’all like how I write Sean, there’s honestly not a ton of canon content but I love his character so I just kind of took him and ran with it. Let me know what you think!
Also I was totally channeling my little brothers for the arguing-over-rooms bit, tell me I’m wrong that they just pick a random room and decide it’s the best for no reason at all 😆
Chapter 17: Hurts to Heal
Summary:
“You don’t need to treat it,” Scott argued. “We already did. You were just looking at it.”
He needed to let Bruce stitch the leg. That much was obvious to pretty much everyone in the room. The stitching wasn’t horrible, but it wasn’t good either. It needed to be done properly.
Scott had to step aside and let the adults handle this.
Notes:
Totally not rushing to post this chapter because I almost forgot to post it AHHH—
Thank you so much to everyone reading this, just checked my statistics and this has passed my zombie apocalypse fic in popularity! Whoo! Honestly super satisfying since this one is much longer than that one (though if you like how I write Clint, you might want to check Silent Stillness out!).
Anyway, enjoy another chapter of stubborn siblings!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Natasha had seen some crazy things in her life, especially in relation to Clint Barton. She had watched the man fight aliens with nothing more than a bow and arrow and manage to outsmart some of the greatest criminal masterminds in the world after growing up in the circus. It was always something new, always something crazy with Clint. And he always seemed to be taking in strays somehow; the old Labrador that wandered into his property, any new SHIELD agent who needed some help on their first day, and of course the ex-Red Room agent who had been sent to kill him. Clint Barton had liked his strays, and Natasha had seen it front and center over the years.
So why not take in six mutant kids?
She chuckled almost silently to herself as she walked down the hall, still in slight disbelief over the past few hours. He actually did it. He actually found the X-Men, he was actually right about them being kids, and he actually managed to convince them— and convince Tony to let them— to come to the Tower. She didn’t exactly doubt him, but the fact that it had all actually come together… well, she wouldn’t have expected it when he pitched the idea to her a few weeks ago. And yet here she was, walking down to the infirmary after receiving a “ we’re here ” text from her friend. She didn’t quite know what to expect. She had the information she had researched from CPS and what Clint had told her in his short phone call, but that was about it. Other than that she was walking in blind. Her boots tapped unevenly against the floor, though the limp did not show at all. Technically she should be using crutches. Realistically, she didn't need them. Her gait had not faltered once by the time she made it to the infirmary and pushed the door open, and her face fell into an instinctive mask before she had even entered the room.
The scene that greeted her was nothing out of the ordinary. Bright room, medical cabinets open, one of her teammates hovering to the side while Bruce went about his work. Static energy in the air that told of tension, hunched shoulders that portrayed Bruce’s concentration. It looked like a typical day in the medical bay if you ignored the fact that the person Bruce was tending to was a literal child.
The kid in question looked up as she walked in, his sandy curls flopping against his forehead as wide green eyes stared quizzically at her.
“Woah!” After only a second the kid’s expression lit up, and Natasha instinctively froze as he started bouncing lightly on the table. “You’re Black Widow!”
Surprise filtered through Natasha, and she felt her mask melt a tiny bit as a small smile pulled at her lips. This little kid recognized her. He seemed excited to meet her. It wasn’t exactly the first time, but reactions like that, especially after years of being just “the defector” to SHIELD, never ceased to surprise her. “You a fan?”
“Oh, totally!” The kid grinned widely, showing off crooked teeth. “You’re like, the coolest! You kick serious butt.”
Natasha let her emotional mask slip enough to show a bit more of her smile. At the same time, she had to strengthen it a bit to hide her surprise. This was one of the X-Men, the infamous mutant rights crime fighters? He couldn’t be older than twelve. How old was he? He was missing at least two teeth… when did kids stop losing teeth? Or could that be from a fight?
Natasha was an expert in a lot of things. Children were definitely not one of them.
Bruce stepped forward, frowning cautiously at the squirming child. That brought Natasha’s attention to the reason the boy was on the cot, the reason he was in the infirmary in the first place. His leg was stretched out on the medical paper that covered the bed, a large portion of it wrapped in thick white gauze. Cheap gauze, from the look of it. The injury was long enough that the boy’s pants had been discarded in a haphazard lump on one end of the bed and he was only wearing his boxer shorts so as to let Bruce properly examine it. Speaking of Bruce, the doctor actually looked fairly comfortable in the setting, possibly even more so than he did when he was operating on any of his fellow Avengers. Now that Natasha wasn’t distracting the boy, Bruce had taken up a conversation with him, one that she had probably interrupted on her entry. It took her a moment to remember that he had been very involved with helping the children in New Delhi while he was taking refuge there. He was probably way more comfortable than she was in this situation.
In fact, he was probably the only comfortable one in the room. The little kid on the cot seemed to be nervously rambling as Bruce gently prepared to inspect his injury, constantly shifting from his nerves. Meanwhile Clint was standing next to the cot opposite the occupied one, his hand occasionally sneaking up to run worriedly through his hair. Natasha could practically see the stress and panic coming off of him in waves, and she almost offered him a smile to try and relieve some of that. She decided to save it though. Then there was the second kid, one standing right next to the one on the cot on the opposite side of Bruce. He had his arms crossed, his entire posture tight as he watched the doctor move with a sharp eye. Well, Natasha was assuming he was watching. It was a bit hard to tell with the odd visor that covered his eyes, a piece of red and gold metal that blocked most of his expression from view. That one must be Scott Summers, she decided quickly, based off of the CPS files Clint had picked out. And he had to be Cyclops— the visor was the same that the superhero wore. Why was he wearing it now? And his eyes had been bandaged in the CPS picture too, hadn’t they? Could it have something to do with his mutation? Was he blind? Or was it just a coincidence?
She couldn’t quite place her finger on who the other kid could be based on her CPS files, but by Bruce’s conversation his name was Sean. He was talkative, that much was obvious. Fidgety too. The kid couldn’t seem to sit still, even as Bruce told him he was going to need to so he could pull back the bandages. Before he made any move though he glanced toward Scott, as if for permission. That made sense. He was the leader of the X-Men, he was likely the oldest or at least the most experienced. It made sense that he would be here, overseeing what was happening. Four kids, that was what Clint had said. There were only two in the room, which meant there were at least two somewhere else in the building. Probably level 13, if she could remember what Stark said correctly. Two more mutant kids besides the ones in front of her.
She moved over to stand next to Clint just as Bruce cut open the bandages. He peeled them back as she walked behind him, her view marred by his back until she was standing by her friend. She heard Clint’s inhale, as muffled as he attempted to make it, before she got a good glance at the injury.
It was a gash. A long , jagged gash slashed into the kid’s leg, stretching from his calf almost to his ankle. The main injury was fairly uniform, but the entire leg was somewhat mangled from smaller scratches that were already starting to heal. It didn’t look like knife work, nor did it look intentional. A piece of metal, a shard of glass maybe. A terrain injury more than an injury directly from an enemy, though of course that did not mean an enemy could not have caused it. And it had to be deep. There was stickwork, at least, but it was messy and jagged. The stitches looked like they had been done with regular needle and thread instead of medical grade, and the injury around them was red and angry. The whole thing did look like it was healing, but in short… it looked like a mess. A mess that should be on a grown man, not a child.
Natasha Romanoff was no stranger to child soldiers. She was one. That didn’t mean the sight of an injured child disgusted her any less.
“So,” much to Bruce’s credit, he was holding together well. His voice was calm, steady, and friendly as he talked to Sean, as if the injured mess in front of them was something simple and not horrifying. It was good that Clint had agreed to bring the doctor in on the situation; neither of them would have been as qualified to deal with this. “How did this happen?”
Before Sean could answer, Scott cut in. “Do you have to know that?”
Bruce held the slightly older boy’s gaze. “It would be helpful, I can tell you that.”
There was no sign of give in Scott’s stance. “But not necessary .”
“It could be, while I am cleaning out the wound. I need to know if there is anything I need to look for, any sort of debris that could be stuck in there.”
“It’s days old. We already cleaned it.”
“All the more reason to make sure it is done properly, right?”
“It was—”
“Barbed wire!” Sean blurted out, cutting the older boy off before he could spit out his sentence. “It was just a bit of barbed wire, y’know? Easy to get cut on—“
“Cut the crap you two,” Clint said, his voice tired and just a bit sharp as he spoke. The tone was heavier than Natasha would have expected, and she had a feeling he had not meant to be so harsh. The night was probably taking more of a toll on him than he expected. Natasha was willing to bet he hadn’t eaten since the morning, and it was steadily getting later. He probably forgot to drink anything besides coffee either. The man was smart, but not so much when it came to basic necessities. “I saw you. You were in a fight.”
“Well, I didn’t say we weren’t in a fight,” Sean pointed out, one hand waving around to emphasize his points. “A bad guy shoved me and I fell into some barbed wire. So technically I wasn’t lyin’!”
“I see,” Bruce said. His fingers ghosted over the injury under Scott’s watchful gaze, and Sean flinched at the movement. “And what were these “bad guys” doing that you had to go in and stop them?”
“Well, they were—“
“Again, I don’t see how that’s important,” Scott interjected. Natasha couldn’t help but feel a flash of respect for the kid. Dodging questions. Filtering information. He knew what he was doing.
“If I know the circumstances, I can better treat the injury,” Bruce explained in his defense.
“You don’t need to treat it,” Scott argued. “We already did. You were just looking at it.”
Natasha arched her eyebrow and shot a glance at Clint. The archer caught her gaze and gave a bit of a tired nod. From the looks of it, Scott had been pushing back against things all day. Again, a quality that Natasha could understand, even respect. But he did need to know when to back down and let the adults handle things. Again, something she could understand being a difficulty.
“This thread won’t dissolve,” Bruce explained, gesturing gently to the injury. “I have some that will. Then you won’t have to pull it out once the injury starts to really heal. It will also lessen the risk of an infection.”
Scott glowered at him hesitantly. Then he glanced at Sean. The little boy was fidgeting nervously, the white medical paper crinkling beneath him as he shifted.
“You’re… you’re gonna do the whole thing again?” He asked in a small voice. “I-I mean I-I can, but it really doesn't hurt that bad, it’s fine how it is…”
“It will heal faster with the proper medical materials,” Bruce pressed. “And we could sedate you. You wouldn’t feel a thing.”
Sean’s mouth fell open at Bruce’s words, and he jerked his head up to stare at the man. “You can do that? ”
Bruce’s smile was slightly amused, slightly strained. Natasha got the feeling that this wasn’t the first child he had treated that had no idea how much of a blessing painkillers could be. “Yeah. Yeah, we can do that.”
Sean blinked, then glanced back at Scott. The older boy’s expression had hardly changed, but Natasha could see he was deep in thought.
He needed to let Bruce stitch the leg. That much was obvious to pretty much everyone in the room. The stitching wasn’t horrible, but it wasn’t good either. Neither was the angry red color of the injury. It could get infected easily, if it wasn’t already. It needed to be done properly.
Thankfully, it seemed that Scott was beginning to understand that.
“You’re sure it would help?” Scott interrogated Bruce.
The scientist nodded. “Absolutely.”
“And you can make it so he won’t feel it?”
“Yes, we can.”
“And that is all you’ll do to him?”
“You can watch me the whole time. I won’t hurt him.”
Even as Scott stopped to ponder again, Natasha couldn’t help but dwell on that last question. She had heard a lot of rumors about mutants and how humans had handled them, especially after looking into the X-Men for Clint. She and Bobbi Morse had gone through a conversation just a few weeks ago where she had mentioned a lab she and her husband had broken into, one with more than one mutant held hostage. What stories had these kids heard? What stories had they experienced? What exactly was Scott Summers trying to protect Sean from?
“What do you think?” Scott’s attention zeroed in on his fellow X-Man. Sean held his gaze nervously, still shifting on the cot. “Do you want him to redo it?”
Sean frowned. “I… I dunno. Did Rogue not do a good enough job?”
“She did a great job. Dr. Banner here just…” Scott inhaled slowly, almost painfully. “Dr. Banner has better materials than we were able to get.”
Sean hesitated. He turned to look at Bruce, his curls almost covering his eyes. Both kids needed haircuts. Their hair was just a bit too long to be intentional. “You’re sure it won’t hurt as bad?”
Bruce chuckled. “What kind of painkillers did you have the first time around?”
“None, I don’ think.”
He chuckled again, the strain barely evident in his voice. “Then it definitely won’t hurt as bad.”
Sean hesitated a moment longer, then glanced back at Scott. “If it’ll heal faster, that’d be good, wouldn’t it?”
Scott nodded begrudgingly.
“Then should we do it?”
Scott hesitated. “If you’re up for it. Only if you’re up for it.”
Sean nodded, pulling himself up as if to look more brave. “Yeah. Let’s do it.”
Scott still looked wary, but he turned his attention to Bruce. “You’ll need to get him something to bite down on.”
Bruce shook his head. “Like I said, the painkillers—“
“Just in case,” Scott cut in. He inhaled again, his fists clenching as he let out the breath. Then he turned back to Sean. “I’m going to be here every second, ok?”
The little boy nodded. “Ok.”
Bruce stood up from his crouched position, turning as he did to face Natasha and Clint. He nodded to the door. “You guys should probably step out. Two is enough of a crowd during something like this.”
Clint looked like he wanted to protest, but Natasha quickly took the man’s elbow and gently pulled him toward the door. He relented, falling in step behind her as they slipped into the hallway. Sean shot them both a wave just before Natasha shut the door, and then her attention was on Clint.
“So. You actually did it.”
“Yep.” He exhaled deeply, his hand running through his hair. “Those were the kids.”
“Half of them.”
“Not even half. There’s actually six.”
Six . Even better. “So four more…”
“Down on level 13. They’re waiting for Tony’s friend to get back with pizza.”
“Speaking of pizza,” Natasha gave him a critical look. “Have you eaten yet today?”
He huffed a laugh. “Breakfast… I think. Maybe.”
“Clint, it’s getting late.”
“I’ve been just a little bit busy,” he pointed out sarcastically. At Natasha’s unimpressed look, he let out a small breath. “Yeah, I know. Don’t worry. I’ll have some pizza once it’s here.”
“Good.”
“And speaking of taking care of ourselves,” he frowned at her in disapproval. “Shouldn’t you at least be using crutches?”
She snorted. “Yeah right. We both know I’m fine.”
In truth, her foot did hurt. Not badly enough that she was going to deal with crutches, but badly enough for Clint to frown disbelieving my at her. “Just don’t make me drag you in to see Dr. Banner next.”
Natasha rolled her eyes. Then her mood sombered as she thought about the kid in the room next to them. “That looked bad.”
“Yeah,” Clint exhaled again. “It was worse than I was expecting, to be honest. But at least Scott’s letting us help him.”
“He’s been difficult?”
“You have no idea.” Clint groaned, leaning tiredly against the wall as he did. He looked like he was fighting a yawn. “Kid’s been pushing back against every little thing I say. It’s like he doesn’t trust a word coming out of my mouth.”
Natasha shrugged. “Can’t blame him.”
Clint huffed, but he seemed too tired to come up with a comeback. He looked almost dead on his feet. He probably hadn’t gotten any afternoon coffee either. Natasha smirked, glanced at the door next to him, then held out her hand for her friend. “Come on, Hawkeye. They’re not going anywhere; let’s get some coffee in you, then after the pizza session we can all go to sleep and deal with the rest of our problems in the morning.”
He hesitated a moment, glancing back at the door. “You’re sure they’ll be fine?”
“Of course. We’ll be back long before they’re done.”
Clint smiled gratefully and reached out to take her hand. “Natasha, have I told you you’re my favorite Avenger?”
Her smirk deepened. “Don’t worry. I know.”
Notes:
Natasha POV! It’s a little rough but eh, I like it anyway!
If you’re reading this later, once it’s gotten longer, you should take a break! Get some water, get some sleep, do that homework I’m sure you’re putting off. This fic will be here when you’re done! And if you’ve read this in one day or something holy cow, you’re amazing, thank you!
Hope y’all are enjoying so far, thanks for reading!
Chapter 18: A Man Without a Plan
Summary:
With an internal groan Clint glanced up to see Steve Rodgers staring pointedly at him, that usual stern concern all over his face.
“We need to talk.”
Notes:
Ahh I’m uploading this in the car as I go through the mountains and I’m pretty sure it just took out all of my italics which really stinks because my writing style like, depends on italics. Hopefully I fixed most of them, but sorry if the chapter reads a bit weird because of that!
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Coffee helped. Coffee helped a lot. He was still exhausted, could still feel the stress of the night pulling at him, but the coffee helped take the edge off. So did food. The pizza was there by the time he brought the newly stitched-up Sean and the still-tense Scott back down to the rest of the kids. To answer Sean’s earlier question, yes Rhodey did bring Hawaiian pizza. And cheese. And pepperoni. And about ten other kinds.
“You said you brought kids to the tower!” Was the excuse Clint heard as he exited the elevator. “That could mean any number of things. Everything was the safest bet.”
As helpful as coffee and pizza were, what he probably needed was sleep. Even with the caffeine he was zoning throughout the rushed explanation that Tony gave Rhodey. But of course, the kids came before sleep. He had to get them each situated, make sure the rooms were all properly set up, make sure they all ate enough— which was no issue at all, they devoured the pizza— and just do his best to make them feel comfortable. He had no idea what he was doing, he was just doing his best to do something and hoping it would work.
Thankfully, the action of the day seemed to have the X-Kids tired out. Kitty fell asleep on the couch, her plate of pizza still half-finished next to her. Sean was soon to follow, the sedatives that Bruce had given him enough to drain even his endless supply of energy. Once Kurt dropped, the older three did their job of carrying the little ones to bed. Thankfully. Clint didn’t think he could handle trying to tuck kids into bed or read bedtime stories or anything. Did they even do that? He had no idea. It was best just to let them handle themselves, the adults silently decided. Just make sure they stay safe and in one place… that was the goal for now.
Once he was sure they were all secure, Clint followed Tony and Rhodey up to the common floor level. Finally. He let out a shaky breath, his hand running half-consciously through his hair. He was practically shaking from… what? Exhaustion? Adrenaline? Stress? All of the above?
He needed a long, long shower and a few minutes to process what the actual heck he was thinking. If he was thinking at all, he could not tell at this point.
He stepped out of the elevator, fully prepared to either collapse on the couch or head to the shooting range. Instead he nearly ran face-first into pure American muscle. With an internal groan Clint glanced up to see Steve Rodgers staring pointedly at him, that usual stern concern all over his face.
“We need to talk.”
Great.
Clint glanced over his shoulder, but the doors were already sliding shut as Tony asked JARVIS to take him and Rhodes up to the next floor. The man gave Clint a little smirk that obviously said “I’ve helped you enough today”. Double great.
Clint turned back to the super soldier, who was waiting expectantly. “Look, Steve, can it wait for the morning? It’s late.”
As Clint expected, Steve shook his head. “You can’t bring six kids into the tower and just wait it out.”
“Yes, I can,” Clint argued, fully aware that he was not fully aware of his surroundings. Yep, definitely exhaustion kicking in. Was it Steve's attitude that was draining him, or did that pot of coffee really wear off in only a few hours?
He tried to push past Steve, which quite obviously didn’t work. It was like trying to push past a brick wall. Instead Steve’s hand clamped down on his shoulder and he half-guided, half-dragged Clint to the couch. The archer didn’t protest, just flopped down heavily as Steve sat opposite to him. Steve gave him a level gaze.
“Alright. So you got them here.”
Clint let out a sigh. “Why does everyone sound so surprised?”
“How long do you plan for them to be here?”
He shook his head. “I haven’t gotten that far yet.”
“Well you need to get that far,” Steve pressed. “We’re Avengers. Superheroes. Not babysitters.”
“You think I don’t know that?” Clint could hear himself snapping. “You think this was the plan? I’m the least capable of all of us, but hey, I wasn’t about to just leave them there—“
“I know that. I agree with what you did.” Steve shifted on the couch, leaning forward with his elbows on his knees. “But Clint, you can’t expect to stash them here for long.”
Clint nodded. “Well, you’re right about that.”
“So what’s your plan?”
“I… I don’t know.” Clint rubbed his hand over his face with a groan. “I have no clue what I’m doing, Rogers. All I know is that I’m trying to help.”
“Great. Then let me help you.” Steve spread out his hands. “What are our options?”
Clint dropped his hand from his face. “I don’t know.”
“Well, SHIELD is one…”
“No.” Clint shook his head before Steve even finished speaking. “No. I don’t think Fury should know about this.”
Steve cast him a confused look. “Why not?”
An exhausted half-laugh, half-grunt left Clint’s lips. He glanced up at the super soldier. Really. Of all people, Steve Rogers should know why he thought Nick Fury shouldn’t know about the kids. He found Steve in the ice and what did he do? A month later he had the man fighting aliens at SHIELD’s request. Did Steve even realize what his life was? The constant battle that followed him?
From his expression, the answer was no. Clint brushed aside his arguments with a wave of his hand. “I just think it’s for the best.”
“Alright then.” Thankfully Steve dropped it and moved on. “Then what?”
“Child Protective Services, I guess,” Clint said slowly. “But I don’t want that for them. At all.”
“Why not?”
“Did you ever watch Annie?” Clint asked. When Steve shook his head Clint quickly said “That’s going on your list. You need to watch Annie. But I think these kids have been through a couple of Miss Hanigans and I don’t want them to end up there again.”
Steve looked confused, and Clint couldn’t help but mutter a few lines of “It’s a Hard Knock Life” under his breath. Blame the sleep deprivation.
“I guess the biggest thing is that they’re mutants,” Clint explained slowly. “I dunno if mutants were a thing back in your day…”
Steve shrugged. “I think I heard a rumor that Hitler was using mutants as soldiers once, but I know more about them from now. I could see why that would be an issue.”
“Yep.” Clint popped the “p” at the end of the word, resting his chin on his hand as he tried to think. “What else is there?”
Steve was silent for a moment. “Orphanages?”
“Same Annie issue.”
“Do they have any other family?”
“If they did, would they have been in the system in the first place?”
Steve let out a breath. “Did Xavier have anyone?”
“Not that I know of. He seemed like a recluse.”
“Well, I guess you could—“
“I’m not leaving them at that Institute,” Clint said, cutting off Steve’s words before they even came out.
Steve offered him a shrug. “It’s probably what they would want.”
“Yeah, well, kids want a lot of things.” Even as he said it, Clint had some doubts. Was there a way they could make that work? Where the Avengers checked up on the kids or something? Got some repairs done? Left the six mutant kids alone to fend for themselves? No. No, he didn’t like the sound of that.
“Then what?” Steve asked, his eyes trained on Clint. He didn’t quite have Natasha’s searching stare— not even Fury could hold that kind of power— but he had something similar. “We can’t keep them here.”
“I know.”
“Then those are the options.” Steve tapped his fingers against his knees. “They’re kids. They need stability. The sooner we get this figured out…”
“…The better for everyone,” Clint finished. Steve was right. They had to figure something out, sooner than later. He let out one, long, heavy sigh. “I’ll find their CPS files, see if Nat and I can track down any remaining family. I’ll look up Xavier too… who knows, maybe he had someone who would take them.”
Steve nodded. “I’ll do some research. I’ve heard of some mutant specialists… I’m sure there’s someone working with CPS who would be able to help.”
Clint chuckled dryly. “Let’s just hope they’re in the phone book.”
“Hey,” Steve protested. “I’m learning how to internet.”
Clint let out another huff of humor. “Alright. Fine. Then we have a plan. Happy?”
Steve nodded. “I know none of the options are good… we just have to find the one that’s the least bad.”
“Alright,” Clint let out a breath. “Yeah. We’ll just have to do that.”
Steve nodded slowly then stood up, wishing Clint a good night before leaving the area. Silence settled in, leaving the archer with his buzzing brain. Kids. Decisions. Arrangements. Explanations. He let out a soft groan, burying his head in his hands as thought swirled through his brain. Too many decisions. Too many plans.
Forget a shower. Clint needed a coma.
Notes:
Steve: you need a plan man
Clint: *drinking a third pot of coffee for the day* I literally don’t know the meaning of the wordSee y’all Monday! :D
Chapter 19: The Worth of Waffles
Summary:
He should be used to the rapid change, after how often he had seen it. Still, every single time, it never ceased to shock him just how much damage twenty four hours could do.
Notes:
And in this chapter, Scott once again tries to be The Adult and Clint once again doesn’t know what to do. This time, with Warren foreshadowing!
Hope you enjoy!
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Falling asleep on the couch was nice. Sometimes. It could be a great experience, one that meant that the night had been a relaxed experience resulting in casual unconsciousness wherever was most comfortable. Sometimes, it was the best way to sleep. Other times it sucked .
This, of course, was one of those times.
Scott groaned, arching his back as he stretched. His whole body felt thick and stiff, as if the tension of the day had settled in his shoulders and frozen there. It was a sensation that was annoyingly familiar, though usually not to this level. His muscles ached, his side stiff from where it was pressed against a hard pillow. Weird. All of the Professor’s pillows were worn and used from pillow fights and forts, not to mention training exercises. And the living room was never so bright—
Scott sat straight up, despite the protesting in his muscles. Of course. They weren’t in the Institute. These weren’t the Professor’s pillows.
This was Avengers Tower.
Scott stood up as quickly as he could, his panic momentarily interrupted by his relief that he fell asleep with his visor on. Thank goodness . That could have been a disaster.
Not that it wasn’t a disaster anyway.
He should be used to the rapid change, after how often he had seen it. This early morning panic where he woke up in unfamiliar surroundings with the world shifting beneath his feet should not unnerve him anymore. Still, every single time, it never ceased to shock him just how much damage twenty four hours could do.
Scott shook his stiff muscles out as best as he could and looked around the room. It was morning, that much he could tell. There were floor-to-ceiling windows at the one end of the common room, and through them he could see the New York skyline outlined in grey, the sun still hidden behind the skyscrapers. It was early morning. That was good. Hopefully no one would be up yet.
First things first. He quickly made his way past the couch he had spent the night on and down the hallway to the bedrooms. One by one, he peeked into the rooms. Sean was still out cold, twitching slightly and with his newly stitched leg propped up on top of the covers. As much as Scott didn’t want to admit it, the curly haired kid did look a little better, a little less pale… just a little. Kitty was sleeping in the bed across the room, her purple stuffed dragon clutched close to her chest. In the next room, Rogue and Kurt both slept soundly. Everything looked fine, but Scott still frowned at the sight. They would have to be more careful about Kurt. Rogue too. Yesterday was bad enough… they would be lucky if Clint Barton or Tony Stark hadn’t already called someone about the blue boy, and if anyone touched Rogue… well, it wouldn’t be the first time someone tried to send her to an asylum. Scott shut their door softly, trying to take deep breaths to keep the tightness from returning to his chest. No. They were here to avoid being separated. He had been convinced to come this far… one wrong move and he didn’t care what the others said, they would be gone.
His fists were clenched as he cracked open the third door, tension still heavy on his shoulders despite the fact that almost all of his siblings were accounted for. The door creaked, and as soon as it swung open he felt his breath hitch. The room was empty. Empty bed. Empty room. Empty .
He could feel his breath quickening, heart pounding even as his mind struggled to process the sight in front of him. No . This couldn’t be right. What had happened, who was able to get past him when he was right there , right in the middle of the room, no one could have come down the elevator without him waking up so how —
“Mornin’, red eyes.” Scott whipped around, his heart thudding in his chest as he locked eyes with the blonde, smirking mutant behind him. The tension left him for a brief moment, replaced instead by a heavy relief. Of course. Warren was always an early riser. He was the only one up before Scott most mornings. And out of all of them, minus maybe Scott himself, he was the toughest fighter. Of course he was fine. Of course nothing had happened.
“Morning,” Scott muttered, his voice still a bit dry from sleep. The cracking made him wince, and he instinctively reached up to rub at the skin around his visor to chase away the remnants of sleep. In front of him Warren chuckled, his wings twitching slightly in amusement…
His wings.
“Warren, where’s your harness?” Scott dropped his hand instantly, his voice rising to a harsh whisper as adrenaline spiked again in his chest.
Warren simply shrugged. “In my room. I didn’t feel like strapping it on yet.”
Scott felt his fists clenching as his chest tightened. “You need to put it on.”
The command only earned him an eye roll. “Chill out man, it’s like five AM. No one’s awake yet.”
“We don’t know that! They could come down any minute!” Scott gestured to the space around them. “Besides that, there’s definitely security cameras down here. They could be watching us right now!”
Warren glared at him. “ Chill Scott. No one’s watching us. You’re being paranoid.”
“So what?” Scott exclaimed. “That doesn’t mean it’s not true!”
“It’s fine Scott,” Warren shot back, his wings flaring slightly in agitation. “I had them bolted down all of yesterday so can you just chill for a second?”
Scott grit his teeth sharply. Warren hated to contain his wings for too long. He knew that, he knew that having them strapped down must have been uncomfortable. But still, he cared about their safety a lot more than their comfort. “We don’t know when they’ll come to check on us.”
“ Exactly ,” Warren pressed. “It could be hours from now. Come on, no one’s going to—“
As Warren was speaking there was a noise from down the hall: the noise of an elevator opening. Scott shot Warren a furious glance, one that was returned with fervor. Warren’s wings had been arched from their argument, but as soon as footsteps exited the elevator they instinctively pressed against his back, a flash of badly-hidden fear flitting across his face as he and Scott whipped around. In an instant he found himself face-to-face with a frozen Clint Barton, fresh off the elevator with a large bag in his hand and a slight look of shock on his face.
For a moment, no one moved. It was as if the air itself had frozen over.
Eventually, Clint cleared his throat. “Hey guys…”
“Hey Clint,” Warren said. The winged mutant recovered more quickly than Scott was able to, pulling his face into a mostly neutral expression as he looked at Clint; his wings, however, stayed flat and tense against his shoulders. “What’s up?”
The archer stared a moment longer. Then, his lips twitched into a smile. “I knew it. Or, at least, I thought it. I thought you were Angel. I had a hunch, at least.”
Warren blinked, his expression flat with a forced calm. Usually, he was better at maintaining this sort of air, the sort that made him look as though he did not care what anyone in the room was thinking. This time, however, Scott could see the way that he was straining beneath the weight of his own act. The wings stayed firmly folded against his back. “What made you think that?”
“Well, I did see you in costume,” Clint pointed out, oblivious to the tension in the air. That, or he was purposefully ignoring it. He looked curious, as well as a bit rough, almost as if he had just rolled out of bed in his purple t-shirt and jeans. “I couldn’t be sure though since, y’know, I thought the wings would be a pretty big give away. I guess not… how do they work? Do they retract?”
Warren shook his head, and the smile that he had plastered on looked nothing like a real smile. It looked like the grin of a dog trying to show its teeth as it was backed into a corner.
In that moment, any sort of argument between them did not matter. Scott stepped forward as Warren stepped back, planting himself firmly between Clint Barton and the winged mutant.
“What are you doing here?” Scott cut in, his voice sharp and hostile. He could feel Warren’s presence over his shoulder but did not look back at the other boy. It did not matter if he was annoyed or grateful for Scott’s help; it would have come either way.
Clint only looked slightly bothered by the interruption. After only a second of hesitation he held up the large white bag he was carrying, shrugging as if it was an answer. “I brought breakfast. Thought you guys might want something better than the cereal Tony left.”
“We’re fine, thanks,” Scott replied sharply. He had already resolved not to touch the cereal, or the eggs, or anything else the Avengers put in the fridge. He could figure it out; they brought food from the Institute, and he would eventually be able to slip out and get them… something. Somehow. But he didn’t want to use the Avenger’s food, especially stuff they brought themselves. He didn’t want to depend on the Avengers any more than they already were.
Clint shrugged again, but the bothered expression on his face only became more dominant. “You sure? I mean, it’s waffles…”
“ Waffles?” Scott had to swallow a groan as he turned to see Kurt poking his head out the door of his and Rogue’s room. Seriously? The one time the kid decided not to sleep in till noon. “Really?”
“No,” Scott pressed. “We’ve got food.”
“You don’t have to eat them if you don’t like them,” Clint pointed out.
“I like waffles,” Scott said sharply, his face burning at how childish he sounded. He liked waffles. Really, he did. But good food wasn’t worth the sacrifice of safety. Even if they were obviously restaurant waffles, not frozen grocery store waffles. Even if he could smell them, even if they smelled really good… “But we can take care of ourselves.”
Warren stayed silent, his arms crossed over his chest. Thank goodness. If he disagreed, Scott would be outvoted… again. But this time the other teen kept his mouth shut, so Scott held his ground.
Clint looked like he wanted to argue, but wasn't sure how. After a moment, he tried for a nonchalant shrug. “Alright. Suit yourselves.” He shook the bag a little. “I guess I’ll see if the other Avengers want these.”
He hesitated a bit longer, as if waiting to see if Scott would crack. But he didn’t. He stayed strong and held the archer’s gaze until, finally, the man gave one last shrug and turned back to the elevator.
“I’ll be upstairs if you need me,” he said before pressing the button. “Ask JARVIS for me. Or just come on up. Probably the common floor, JARVIS’ll know where to take you, or… yeah. Just talk to JARVIS.”
Scott didn’t acknowledge Clint’s words. The man waited a few more moments, then awkwardly stepped into the elevator. It wasn’t until the doors slid shut behind him that Scott felt like he could breathe again.
“Waffles would have been nice,” Kurt said softly from behind him. Scott let out a long, silent sigh, then turned to his little brother.
“Maybe, but it’s alright. We’ve got good stuff, our own stuff, stuff that we don’t have to worry about whether or not it’s safe, alright?”
Kurt nodded slowly, but he seemed unconvinced. Scott had to bite back another sigh. He glanced at Warren, daring the other teen to challenge him.
“Hey, I agree.” Warren shrugged nonchalantly.
“Good,” Scott said. He paused a moment, then gestured to Warren. “You should get your harness on.”
Warren rolled his eyes, but headed toward his room. Scott did not miss the tension that still remained in his feathers, but he did not press. Instead, he turned back to Kurt. “And you should get your clothes on for the day. I want you to keep a hood over your face as best as possible. Is Rogue awake yet?”
Kurt shook his head. “No, but she’ll probably be up soon. I don’t think she slept well.”
Scott nodded. He didn’t like to hear that, but at least it wasn’t out of the ordinary. He’d have to see if he could get her to talk about her nightmare this time. “Alright. Want to help me make breakfast once you’re ready?”
Kurt nodded eagerly and disappeared back into his room. Scott took another deep breath, then made his way to the kitchenette. It didn’t matter if the others thought he was paranoid or overprotective. He was trying to keep everyone safe.
Waffles weren’t worth safety.
Notes:
Warren Worthington is an underrated character that I basically just hit with a stick until I got characterization that I liked. He’s suffering, but so are they all! :D
Seriously the amount of support that this fic is getting is just incredible. Thank you for reading!!
Chapter 20: You Think it’s a Lake When it’s an Ocean
Summary:
“Warren, who knows; Kitty, parents dead; Sean, parents dead…”
“Ok. So it looks grim.”
“Yeah. That’s a word for it.”
Notes:
Welcome back to any other chapter! Today, we have a healthy scoop of Exposition and some hints at Plot to balance out the fluff that this fic has been so far! Time to get some things set in motion and find out a little bit more about the X-Kids!
Some slight warnings for this chapter:
//Mentions of death, suicide, abandonment, etc
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Having the kids in the tower was… weird. Everyone knew they were there. Everyone felt their presence. But it seemed as if everyone was just trying to ignore it, to just go about their days as normal. And after the failed breakfast attempt, Clint decided that it probably was for the best to just leave them be. For now, at least. A lot had changed in twenty four hours. They all needed time to adjust.
That was it. It wasn’t that he had no idea what to do with these kids. Of course not.
Clint munched on some of the leftover waffles as morning slowly turned into afternoon, pouring over the CPS files Natasha had pulled together as he did. There were probably five hundred files printed and spread out over his room. There were hundreds of pictures of hundreds of kids, most of them confirmed mutants. Somehow —over the course of a few hours of sifting through paperwork— he had found matches for most of the kids that now occupied the fourth fifth floor of the tower. He had found matches for all but one, actually. It took some digging, and it didn’t help that everything was on paper instead of digital. But now, with the five files in front of him, he was confident that he found them.
Scott Summers. That one was the most obvious. The kid had told him his full name, and the file was what helped Clint find the X-Men in the first place. The boy was five years old when he entered the system, after a plane crash killed his mother and father. Something had happened in the crash, something that was very vague on the file, something that definitely had to do with his mutation, but it seemed CPS was too scared to say what. After that he bounced around between seven different homes in the five years before Xavier came in and pulled him out of the system. After that, he was off the grid, the first on the list to be taken in by the Professor.
Warren . No last name, not much solid information. He didn’t show up in the system till he was ten, and when he did show up he was in rough shape… but again, the file brushed over that information. “Rough shape” could mean anything, but that was about as specific as it got. From there his file was similar to Scott’s, though most of the homes returned him for the fact that the kid would get into fights. It was unclear who started them, but Warren seemed to take most of the blame. The kid surely would have ended up in juvie if the professor hadn’t grabbed him just over a year ago. He must be the newest to the group, and probably only a few months older than Scott.
Anna Marie . As far as he could tell, that was Rogue’s real name. The young girl in the picture had the same red hair and white bangs, the same cold expression, the same gloves pulled over her hands. Again, there was definitely something about her mutation on the file, but it was vague as could be; all that Clint could tell was she left a trail of coma patients in her path. With a quick bit of additional googling, he found that some recovered. Some didn’t. Marie got bounced around even more than the first two, probably because when she was seven —three years after being put in the system by her father after the death of her mother— she got into the habit of running away. A lot. She wasn’t picked up by Xavier, because when she was eleven her attempt to run was successful. Clint could only assume that the professor had found her while she was on her own.
Sean Cassidy . Definitely of Irish heritage, just as his accent suggested; his father was an Irish immigrant, though some faulty paperwork sent him back overseas for what should have been just a few months. Instead he never returned, as the ship he boarded sank in the middle of the Atlantic Ocean. His mother commited suicide when she heard the news, leaving a five-year-old Sean in the system. He was only there for about a year, and the family that took him in was pretty steady until an incident that required every window in their house to be replaced. Just before Sean’s seventh birthday the good old Professor Xavier showed up, once again stealing the kid off the grid. From the dates, Sean would have likely been the second kid the Professor gathered.
Kathrine Pryde . She was currently six. Six. She went in the system the earliest at only a year and a few months old. When CPS found her, she was the only survivor of a devastating earthquake that just about leveled her neighborhood. Yikes . To make matters worse, the family that brought her in was going steady until a massive fire burned their house to the ground. And then the second family that took her very nearly lost their lives to a tornado. The kid must have some sort of weather powers, invulnerability, or was just the luckiest little girl to have ever gone through CPS— depending on if you counted surviving so many disasters lucky . All of that happened in the span of four years. It was unsurprising that no one wanted to take her after the third incident… that is, of course, until Professor Xavier showed up.
That was all of the information he could find, up until Xavier. The rest was history… history that Clint still didn’t know, of course.
Kurt was the only one he couldn’t find a trace of, which meant he probably wasn’t in the system at all; he would be a hard one to miss. Honestly, that didn’t surprise Clint. Out of all the kids, it was easy to guess that Kurt would have had the most unorthodox childhood so far. Besides, his German accent was thick… who knew how long he had even been in America, let alone the foster system. Maybe Clint would be able to figure his story out: Kurt seemed like one of the ones more likely to talk about things, after all. Finding files on five out of six of them wasn’t bad. He had much more information than he had the day before.
No families. He hardly had to do any research to figure that much out. These kids had mostly dead parents—minus Marie’s dad, but since he was the one to give her to CPS that was hardly an option. No siblings— well, according to the news Scott’s mom may have been pregnant, but that hardly made the matter better— no extended family that Clint could find… and even if he could find them, he had a feeling there wouldn’t be much for the kids to go back to. Otherwise, wouldn’t they be there now and not ten floors beneath him?
That brought him to option two, which meant a whole lot more googling.
It was almost two pm when someone opened his door. He glanced up, unsurprised to see Natasha standing there. “Hey, Tasha.”
“How’s it going?” She walked into his room and flopped down in one of the chairs next to him. Clint tried to get an eye on her foot… was it the left one or the right one that was injured? He couldn’t even remember any more. She was moving around like normal, despite the fact that she should definitely still be on bed rest. “I heard Steve got onto you about planning ahead.”
Clint sighed. “Something like that.”
“Well, I’ve known you for years and I know that’s never going to happen.” Natasha smirked at him, propping her chin up with her hand as she watched him type something into his computer. “For example, have you called the missus yet?”
Clint felt his stomach drop, his heart plummeting and his feet suddenly feeling cold. Crap . What was he going to tell Laura? Hey honey, I know we’re having a hard time right now, but I majorly screwed up… as usual. Crap. “I didn’t even think…”
“That’s what I thought.” Natasha’s voice lost most of its snark, instead replaced by a tone that sounded almost comforting. “Hey, don’t worry. Laura’s a strong woman.”
“I know, I know.” Clint shook his head forcefully. “The timing just sucks .”
Natasha hummed. “Yeah. Yeah it does.”
“Sucks” wasn’t a strong enough word for it. This was exactly the kind of stuff that Clint didn’t want to worry Laura with… kids . He couldn’t talk kids with her. Not right now.
“I can’t tell her,” he breathed before his thoughts could even come to that decision. “I just can’t. I’ll have it figured out soon. This isn’t permanent.”
Natasha watched him, her gaze sharp and even. “Are you sure that’s a good idea?”
“Yeah.” Clint nodded, driving away his uncertainty as he did. “Yeah, I mean it's one of my ideas so I’m not sure I would call it good , but I think it’s better than any other option. She doesn’t expect me home for a while. I’m on active duty. I should have plenty of time to sort all of this out. Then , once it’s over and done, I’ll tell her.”
Natasha watched him closely for another moment. Then she nodded. “Maybe you can plan.”
Clint grinned. “Why don’t you tell that to Rogers—“
“Because it takes me to get you to make a plan, obviously.” Clint feigned a look of hurt while Natasha smirked at him. Then she leaned forward. “So. What have your genius planning skills come up with so far?”
Clint sighed softly, then turned his computer so Natasha could see it— after he hid the tab of her-face-on-spiders of course. “I managed to find pretty much all the kids in the files you printed. So then I googled each of them—“ he scrolled through the open tabs on his computer. “—no family, as far as I could find. Marie’s dad might be alive…”
“Marie?” Natasha cut in.
“Yeah, I’m pretty sure that’s Rogue’s real name. Anyway, her dad might be alive, but as far as I can piece together he’s the one who turned her into CPS, so that’s probably a dead end. Scott had an uncle, but he disappeared a few years before his parents were killed. Warren, who knows; Kitty, parents dead; Sean, parents dead…”
“Ok. So it looks grim.”
“Yeah. That’s a word for it.” Clint sighed again. “So now I’m looking up mutant-friendly foster care agents. Hoping I can find someone.”
“And have you?”
Clint grimaced. “Well, there’s this guy called William Stryker… but doesn’t that name just sound shifty? Like he’s going to hit someone?”
Natasha rolled her eyes. “Clint, you can’t judge someone based on their name.”
“Oh yeah? Check out this one.” Clint clicked to another tab. “ Emma Frost . She sounds like some sort of discount Elsa. She runs a great big boarding school; does that not sound like something straight from a comic book?”
“Clint, we’re superheroes. We practically live in a comic book.”
“Still,” he grumbled, clicking between the two tabs. “I don’t know if I like them. They’re private organizations, and while they have some notable placements, it looks like a lot of the kids aren’t recorded. Especially on Strkyer’s side. Frost’s they just look…” He frowned at the home page of Miss Frost's boarding school. There were plenty of pictures, all boasting smiling mutant kids beneath bright, sunny skies. “…too photogenic. I don’t trust that.”
“Alright,” Natasha said with another roll of her eyes “Have you found any people with normal names? Or less appealing pictures?”
Clint hesitated a moment, then clicked to another tab. “Well… there is this lady. Moira MacTaggert. She’s an ex-FBI agent, believe it or not. I guess federal investigations weren’t hard enough for her.”
“She’s got a nice record,” Natasha said approvingly, peering over Clint’s shoulder as she read the article. “Look, she even placed some kids with Stryker and Frost…”
“Ok, I get it, don’t judge people on how ridiculous their names are,” Clint said grumpily as Natasha chuckled. “But I like the look of Moira better than the other two. Even if her name is a little silly as well. I mean, the double initials are a bit much...”
“Then email her.” Clint glanced up at Natasha. The spy pointed to the little “contact me” portion of MacTaggert’s webpage, her expression deadpan. There was no hesitance or exaggeration in her tone, and Clint suddenly felt like he was scrambling to keep up.
“Right now?”
“You want these kids taken care of as soon as possible, right?”
Clint sighed. He did not feel like typing out an email right now. But Natasha was right… the sooner he got it going, the sooner it would be done. With a grumpy scowl at his friend he loaded up his email box and started a new message to the lady. Natasha sat with him, checking grammar once and a while and suggesting wording here and there.
To: Moria MacTaggert
From: Clint Barton
Subject: A Large Job
Hello Ms MacTaggert. I recently discovered a group of six mutant kids living on their own after their previous caretaker unfortunately passed away. As I said, all six are mutants, and I don’t trust the usual Child Protective Services to serve them as well as someone more specialized. I am currently watching over them, but I’m hoping you will be able to help me find a more stable option. I understand this is a very large job, as it would be ideal for these kids to be placed together, but if you would be interested in helping out then let me know and I will send you their information. The sooner, the better.
Regards, Clint Barton.
““ Regards ” sounds way too formal,” Clint grumbled as he read over the email.
“It’s supposed to be formal.”
“It sounds like I’m asking her to come pick up a bunch of puppies.”
“Well, that’s not too far off.”
Clint groaned. “This is a bad idea. The email sounds dumb. Let’s take a break, then I’ll send it after I—“
Before he could even finish speaking Natasha looked him dead in the eye, reached over, and clicked send. Clint blinked for just a moment, trying to process what happened. “Tasha!”
“I know you Clint. You never would have sent it.” She stood up, reaching out her hand to him. “Come on. Now we can take a break.”
Clint scowled at her, but took her hand and let her pull him up from his chair. She was right. He probably would have hesitated too long on his own. The email would be fine. And who knew if Moira MacTaggert would even be able to help them. He had to get it out there, otherwise he would have no time to find other options when the need arose.
They couldn’t have the kids at the tower for long. The sooner they found another option, the better.
Notes:
Random Fun Fact: I wrote a version of this scene pretty early on in drafting this story and had like a whole page on Kurt’s backstory that I later cut because it didn’t make sense for Clint to know 😆 there are so many deleted Kurt scenes from this fic if I’m honest
Don’t worry, next chapter is pure fluff and bonding! As for past that… well, we’ll see, won’t we? See y’all Monday!
Chapter 21: Fun and Games
Summary:
Warren reached out, lightly punching Sean, who was standing on the couch next to him. It appeared that Sean was the one shouting. “I told you to quiet down, dork!“
Notes:
Just a note, this entire fic was written before the Hawkeye show came out so it doesn’t follow that at all. It’ll become more evident in later chapters that this was pre-Hawkeye, but for now it mostly shows in the fact that Clint is already deaf!
Thanks for being here for another chapter y’all!
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Chapter Text
Clint didn’t go down to check on the kids again until almost dinner time. Maybe he should have gone earlier. Maybe he shouldn’t have gone at all. He had no idea. He had no clue what he was doing. So he went down around dinner. He didn’t really know what to expect. The kids would be being kids, right? Hanging out? Maybe playing video games? Maybe watching a movie? He had no clue what to expect.
But he definitely didn’t expect screaming.
The sound was enough to take a year off of his life expectancy. Clint practically bolted from the elevator, panic thrumming through his veins. Crap, he should have come down sooner, why on earth did he think it was a good idea to leave six kids unsupervised , that was exactly why he wanted to bring them to the tower in the first place! Why wasn’t he down there? Why wasn’t he keeping an eye on them? They could be hurt, or—
—or staring at him as he burst out of the elevator, frozen in the middle of the room with cards in their hands.
They were playing a card game.
Warren reached out, lightly punching Sean, who was standing on the couch next to him. It appeared that Sean was the one shouting. “I told you to quiet down, dork! Now look what you did!”
“No!” Sean crossed his arms. “You told me to quiet down because I could—“
“Sean! Off the couch!” Scott hissed sharply, his distrustful gaze piercing Clint from behind his visor. He still had it on. The kid definitely had some sort of issue with his eyes.
Sean looked a bit guilty and dropped heavily from the couch, his cards in his hands as he kept his arms crossed— Clint couldn’t help but think the action made him look a lot like Scott, whose arms were similarly crossed. Meanwhile Kitty reached out, quickly picking a few cards from the top of the deck and handing them over to Sean with a grin. The curly haired boy took them with a huff, adding them to the cards he was holding. Uno cards, by the look of it.
Scott held up a hand, as if to pause the game, but Clint quickly put up his own in a sign of surrender. “Please, dont stop because of me. It was just getting boring upstairs, so I wanted to see what was going on down here.”
Scott obviously didn’t trust him— did he ever? — but Warren, who was sitting next to Sean, had already made his move. A simple blue three now topped the stack, and then it was Rogue’s turn. She also put down a blue card, her sharp green eyes flitting distrustfully to Clint every few moments. Clint went ahead and sat down, legs crossed as he watched Kurt go next. The blue boy had donned a hoodie that looked at least two sizes too big for him, and had the hood pulled up over his head so Clint could hardly see him. That made the archer frown. After the moment on the elevator, he hoped that he would get to see more of the little blue kid. Apparently he still felt the need to hide. Come to think of it, Warren’s wings were gone again too.
Trust was not an easy commodity with these kids.
“How’s your leg Sean?” Clint asked as both Scott and Kitty played their cards.
“Oh, it’s good!” Sean all but threw down a card before squirming around to look at Clint, beaming as he gestured to his still-bandaged leg. “It doesn’t hurt at all! ”
Clint felt a flash of relief at that. Sean’s recovery was probably one of the biggest reasons the kids were able to be convinced to come, and he wanted it to go smoothly. Warren leaned forward to put down a card, a yellow six on top of Sean’s yellow two. Suddenly all six kids lunged forward, smacking the card as they did. In seconds there was a pile of five hands on top of the card, Kitty pouting as hers hit last.
“No fair!” She whined as Sean handed her a card from the top of the deck. “I wasn’t ready!”
“That’s the whole point,” Warren chuckled as Rogue leaned forward to set down her next card, leaving Clint blinking in confusion. Rogue’s card was a yellow five, but before Kurt could go Kitty suddenly jumped in and placed her own yellow five on top with a triumphant giggle.
“Wait,” Clint said slowly. “It wasn’t your turn, Kitty.”
“Yeah it was!” She grinned up at him, her long ponytail flopping against her shoulder as she gestured to the pile. “I had the exact same card!”
Clint started to protest, but noticed the other X-kids nodding along and the game continuing from Kitty’s position, so he sat back. Another six was played, and again the kids slapped the card. Then a 2x card was played, but instead of Scott taking two cards, he set another 2x on top. Kitty gave a malicious grin and placed a 4x on top of that, leaving everyone to turn to Sean… who groaned in defeat. He held out a hand, his eyes closed as Warren and Kitty both held out cards to him. Without looking he grabbed Warren’s, peaked at it, and then groaned again.
“I can’t trust you guys,” he grumbled sourly, Warren’s card disappearing into his hand as he drew eight cards from the deck. He was no where near Uno. He was looking closer to Veinte. If this was even Uno that the kids were playing… it almost looked like they were making up rules on the spot.
Warren put down his next card and shouted out “Uno” seconds before Sean and Kitty did. All the hands— expect for Sean’s, of course— were getting pretty low. Kitty called out Uno when it was her next turn, and then Warren had to draw a card… and just a few moments later Kitty was popping up with a cheer as she placed her last card on the pile.
Congratulations went around as the little girl did a bit of a victory dance, one that Clint couldn’t help but think of as adorable . The kid was a good dancer. But soon she stopped in favor of grabbing the card she had just set down and a pen that Scott offered her. She jotted something down, then slipped the card back into the deck that Scott was shuffling. The boy was watching him closely, his visor-covered gaze narrow as he kept a suspicious eye on the archer.
“You wanna play this round Mr. Barton?” Sean asked, bouncing up and down as he turned pleading eyes on Clint. The older three looked a bit reproachful, but the younger three— even Kurt— looked toward him hopefully. Clint couldn’t help but chuckle.
“Sure, I’ll play. If no one minds.”
None of the kids voiced any apprehensions, though some of their faces showed them. Still Clint scooted forward so he was next to Kitty and Sean, and watched Scott begin to deal out the cards. “And, uh, what exactly are we playing?”
“It’s Uno!” Kitty giggled.
“But spicy!” Sean added.
“Spicy Uno?” Clint said. The two nodded.
“We kinda made it up!” Sean explained. “Kinda. Scott played it before in a group home or somethin’, then he taught us what he remembered an’ we made up the rest! It’s super fun!”
“Alright,” Clint said slowly. “So how do you play?”
“It’s basically just like Uno, but a couple more rules. Right?” Sean looked around the room, but no one disagreed with him. “Yeah. So on sixes, you gotta slap it, and the person who slaps it last gets a card. On sevens you can’t talk at all! Well, I guess unless it’s something like the rules, y’know? Or if the house was on fire! But usually if you talk, you get a card, and it stops when another seven is played. The 2x cards can be stacked on top of each other an’ stuff, so if there’s three 2x then it’s like a 6x which can suck , an if you’ve got a card identical to one someone lays down like a blue three on top of a blue three, you can jump in no matter when your turn is!” He again looked around for confirmation. “Is that it?”
“Ah think you got it covered,” Rogue said.
“It’s literally Uno on steroids,” Warren said with a shrug.
Clint returned the shrug, grinning as he did. The game sounded fun. Confusing, but fun. “And what about when Warren have you a card?”
“Oh, you can donate cards if someone can’t play!” Sean said. He shot a glare towards Warren, who snickered. “Don't trust it though, half the time people don’t help.”
Warren shrugged, his expression clearly reading “guilty”, but not looking bothered by it. Clint chuckled and picked up his cards, ready to play.
He planned to go easy on all the kids and not really try to win. He didn’t expect Uno to get so competitive. Soon he was as ramped up as Sean… and not oblivious to the fact he was getting somewhat targeted. He didn’t need to worry about going easy on the kids, because they had no qualms against bombarding him with cards. He had at least fifteen in his hand by the time that Warren laid down his last card, claiming his place as the victor with a cheer from Sean; he had gotten hit by a 2x stack via Scott earlier, and really just wanted anyone but him to win.
“Great job,” Scott congratulated as he handed Warren the winning card— a wildcard, smart strategy— and started to shuffle the deck. Warren grabbed the same pen Kitty had used to write his initials on the card; something Clint had noticed throughout the deck. Almost every card had a set of initials on it, most had multiple. There were lots of KP’s for Kitty Pryde, even more SC’s, some SS’s that looked old and faded while ones like R, KW, and WW were bolder and newer, though less common. R was probably the most rare initial, and Clint couldn’t help but notice that it was her superhero name, not her actual name that she used for her card. And all of Warren’s initials had two W’s instead of just one. And now that he was thinking about it, he had no guesses as to what Kurt’s last name was. He would have to ask about those at some point.
“Well?” Sean asked excitedly, turning to Clint as he did. “Whaddya think?”
Clint grinned and handed his cards back to Scott. “Best version of Uno I’ve ever played.
Sean and Kitty both let out a cheer, and Clint could see Kurt’s tail lashing in excitement. Oh yeah. The kid definitely had a tail. Wow.
“I can’t belive I hadn’t heard of it before,” Clint admitted. “It sounds just like the kind of game we would play in the circus, but I don’t remember—“
“Wait,” Kurt exclaimed, then fell silent as he realized he had interrupted. When Clint didn’t continue he sheepishly spoke. “You were a part of a circus?”
“Oh yeah!” Clint said with a cocky grin. “Where do you think I learned my charisma and charm?”
Kitty and Sean giggled, and Kurt forgot all about his hood as he tilted his head up, blue face lit up with excitement and tail thunking against the ground as he grinned. “I grew up in the circus too!”
Clint felt his smile grow wider. That made so much sense. Of course Kurt was the kind of kid who would be brought into the circus; he was an attraction without any need for training. And with that in mind of course he wouldn’t be on CPS’s radar. That was the whole reason Clint himself was in the circus for as long as he was; no one looks for circus kids.
“Awesome!” Clint reached out, and Kurt didn’t even hesitate before giving him a high five. The little kid was grinning so widely that Clint thought he might hurt himself. “What circus?”
“Der Jammareket!” Kurt said, tail lashing as he spoke. His hoodie had fallen back to show more of his face, but he seemed too excited to care. “Back in Deutschland! I was an acrobat!”
So he was definitely right about Kurt being from Germany. And he had to admit, he felt himself getting excited about the fact that he had something in common with the kid. There were so many things from the circus that no one else on the team could relate to, things ingrained in him that no one else understood. Like the need to be unnecessary showy with his shots, so different from Natasha who went straight for the target without any distraction. It was one of the things that made their partnership difficult when she first joined shield, a part of his fighting style that she could never quite get… but by the look of excitement in Kurt’s wide, pupiless eyes, he probably knew a trick or two. He understood the need for attention.
It sucked that the kid had to hide so much.
Scott was already dealing the cards back out, and at his sharp look Clint decided to drop the circus bit for now and focus on the game. His favorite play quickly became the seven. None had been played the round before, but this time he got to see the difference between the chattering gameplay and the hush that followed a seven being laid. Plus, the kid’s looks of confusion when Clint signed “your turn” to Sean were priceless.
“Sign language,” he explained once the seven had been turned off— much to the relief of Sean, who let out a very noisy and over dramatic gasp the moment they could talk. “I’ll have to show you guys some.”
“ Sign language? ” Sean asked in wonder. “That’s so cool! Why do you know that? Is it a spy thing?”
Clint chuckled. “Somewhat. But it’s mostly a deaf thing.”
He turned his head so Sean could see his ears, and pointed to the purple hearing aids he was wearing. He was kind of surprised that none of the kids had asked about them yet. “I’m eighty percent deaf, actually.”
He could hear Sean’s gasp. And he turned back to see the kid with his mouth open. “But how? You’re a superhero!”
“Just because you’ve got some struggles doesn’t mean you can’t be a superhero,” Clint explained. All the kids were looking at him now, and he was very aware that he had just shared one of his biggest weaknesses as a hero. Not even the other Avengers knew he was deaf for a long while after the battle of New York… Thor had no idea, since he had already left before Natasha was able so make him share. But trust goes both ways; if he wanted the kids to share their insecurities, it was only fair he showed them his. “Sure, it makes it harder sometimes, but it also can be surprisingly helpful. I mean, if we ever fight someone who hypnotizes through their words or something…” Clint laughed and cupped his hand around his ear. “What’s that? Did you say something? I’m too busy kicking your butt for the twenty percent of me that can hear to care.”
All three of the younger kids burst out laughing, and he even got a chuckle from Warren and Rogue. That was already a huge win in his book— then he caught sight of Scott’s lips twitching. Just for a second, his mouth pulled up in a smile. It was gone in a flash, but it was there.
Now that was a real win.
Notes:
Not sure if any of y’all have played “spicy uno” before but I play it all the time with my brothers and friends and it just felt like a game the kids would play… honestly this was a totally self-indulgent chapter but I think it turned out pretty cute!!
Also if you watched Thor: Love and Thunder then quick shoutout to myself: i just posted a story called Sweet Child O’ Mine that basically makes Axl (Heimdal’s son) the main character for no reason. It’s got some sibling dynamic vibes like this story, and the first chapter is out if you want to go check it out! :D
Things are going to happen next chapter… I know we’ve got some Rogue enthusiasts reading this story so just saying, y’all are getting a POV chapter soon! ;)
Chapter 22: Call Me by My Name
Summary:
Clint wanted to groan. He probably needed more coffee; he just didn’t feel like he could take Scott this morning. “How about you do? Listen, I don’t feel like I know anything about you kids.”
“And I think that’s fine.”
Notes:
Clint: *has had to be a responsible adult for over 48 hours* this is about to get very bad very quick
Enjoy! :)
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Chapter Text
Clint left the kids to their own devices for dinner, but only with the promise that they would let him bring something down for breakfast… an agreement that he was beginning to regret. Sleep had been choppy, at best. He woke up with a pounding headache, his side aching from some old injury or another from some fight that had probably been won. It didn’t matter what it was from; it hurt, and it put him in a pretty foul mood. He wanted nothing more than to shut off the lights and crawl away from the migraine that was already aching at the bottom of his skull.
But the kids were his responsibility right now. He was pretty sure they were eating, but despite the muscle that Warren and Scott sported all six of them seemed pretty scrawny. Hadn’t Bruce mentioned a theory about mutants having enhanced metabolism? And no matter what money the Professor left them, six kids wouldn’t be able to support themselves well for months, let alone when they had to move out of the blue… so yeah, he had made breakfast non-negotiable, and he knew he should not go back on that no matter how much he wanted to avoid people at the moment.
The other issue was, of course, his cooking abilities. If one could even call them “abilities” without laughing— none of the other Avengers could, that was for sure. Laura was the cook of his household, and while he had improved with her teaching he was still banned from the kitchen on almost all occasions. But at the same time, he couldn’t exactly order Chick-Fil-A for six high metabolism kids on a SHIELD salary, and there was no way he was going to ask for more money from Tony at the moment. He had already received enough ridicule from the waffle failure.
So the plan was a Kroger pancake mix. He just had to hope it wouldn’t be an absolute disaster.
He was rubbing his eyes, his side throbbing duly with the kind of pain that was more of an annoyance than an actual aggravation as the elevator doors slid open. To his mild surprise, all six kids were up and about in the living area. He supposed it made sense since he had come down a bit later than the day before. Kitty was playing on the carpet with some plush toy while Sean bounced lightly on the couch, his leg still tightly bandaged. Rogue was sitting near him, her oversized hoodie almost matching Kurt’s. Warren’s wings were hidden, Kurt had his hood up and face hidden, and Scott of course had his visor on tight over his eyes.
Clint took a deep breath and stepped off the elevator.
“So,” Clint said, setting the small shopping bag he had grabbed on the counter as he faced Scott. “Do you sleep in that thing?”
Scott didn’t answer. He just glared at the Avenger, his arms crossing as he made his way into the kitchenette.
Clint tried again. “Seriously. Do you always wear it?”
Again, Scott didn’t respond. Clint resisted the urge to roll his eyes. He probably should have eased into that, but it was difficult to think about dealing with Scott this morning. He had yet to see the boy’s eyes, or honestly half of his face thanks to the odd contraption. It was part of his superhero costume, a part that completely gave away his identity. Why would he wear that constantly unless there was a reason he needed to? But of course, would he share that information with Clint? Unlikely.
There were a few moments of tense, awkward silence. Thankfully some of the other kids migrated over; Warren stood nearby, leaning on the counter as he watched Kitty and Sean bound up to look at what Clint was doing. Sean was still limping, though it seemed a bit less heavy this morning. Hopefully that was a good sign. And of course Kurt and Rogue stayed back in the other room, away from the action. Clint could see Kurt watching curiously and he debated calling out to him, but quickly decided against it. Rogue was glaring at him just for glancing over, and that was not a battle Clint felt like fighting. This morning it felt best to focus on the four kids in front of him.
“I brought pancakes,” Clint announced, pulling the box out of the bag as he did. “They need a little work though. Anyone want to help?”
Kitty and Sean of course jumped up in excitement. The older two stayed back, but that was fine by Clint. He quickly started gathering up the materials they would need, raiding Tony’s expensive-looking cabinet for a mixing bowl and spoon and then the fridge for eggs, milk, and the like. Before he even had all the ingredients he was directing Kitty and Sean to start getting stuff in the bowl, careful to divide up the jobs so that they would each have ample opportunity to dump things into the mix.
“Look, Mr. Barton!” Clint glanced up to see Kitty bouncing excitedly on her heels, the milk she was supposed to be measuring momentarily forgotten as she held something out for him to see. It was a dragon. A stuffed dragon at that, a soft purple stuffed dragon with worn wings, stitches along its belly, a hole or two evident in the arms. There was a happy smile stitched onto its face in spite of the condition it was in. The creature had obviously been very well loved over many years. Clint was pretty sure he had seen Kitty carrying the stuffed animal earlier, and despite his mood the sight made him smile.
“Yeah. Yeah, that’s super cool.”
“His name’s Lockheed!” Kitty announced. “I’ve had him a long, long time!”
“Yeah?” Clint wasn’t quite sure what to say. He didn’t really know why Kitty was showing him her stuffed dragon. It was adorable, but he had no idea how to respond . He was really horrible with kids.
Kitty somehow seemed satisfied despite his non-answer, and Lockheed was set on the counter so she could go back to pouring the milk. Clint let out a small sigh of relief. This was going well. Definitely.
Scott was still glaring daggers at him as Clint helped Kitty and Sean stir up the pancake batter. That was fine by Clint; he had already decided that this was a big mistake. There was batter everywhere, and where there wasn’t batter there were eggshells, spilled milk, flour… it was a mess. And this was a box mix , the kind where you only had to add two or three ingredients. He understood why Laura banned him from the kitchen now… this was pretty bad.
It didn’t help that, before they even finished mixing, Sean was trying to claim the first pancake.
“I called it!” He pointed out only to be met with a pout by Kitty. “So I get it!”
“That’s totally not fair! ” She said, crossing her arms and looking every bit the six-year-old she was. “You always get things first!”
“Not true!” Sean tried to grab at the spoon that Kitty was holding in the batter, but she moved it away from him. “You’re the one that whines about everything!”
“I don’t whine !” Kitty whined. “You’re always such a baby!”
“You’re literally a baby!”
“Am not !”
“Yeah you—“
“Guys!” Scott’s voice was a low hiss, one that cut off Clint’s weak protests. The arguing was not helping his migraine, and reaching to grab stuff from the cabinets had definitely not helped his hurting side. He was glad that Scott was jumping in as the referee, even if it did mean he was probably cutting off some sort of information that Clint should know, as per usual. “Cut it out.”
“He started it!” Kitty said loudly.
“Nu uh!” Sean jumped to defend himself, his arms flying as he gestured wildly. “Come on, you always take her side!”
“No, I don’t,” Scott said firmly. Clint could feel Scott’s eyes sliding over to keep an eye on him, which was ridiculous. What was the kid so afraid of letting slip? The argument was over pancakes , there was absolutely no information Clint was going to get from that. What the heck was the deal with the secrecy?
His migraine was definitely getting worse.
They somehow managed to get the pancakes mixed and on the griddle he borrowed from upstairs— borrowed, not stolen, no matter what Tony said. It was a communal griddle, he didn’t need permission. Scott was still as sour-looking as ever, Warren was watching with mild curiosity and wariness, Rogue was glaring grumpily from the couch, Kurt was pressed into the cushions with his hoodie over his head, and even Sean and Kitty looked a bit grumpy despite the fact that their argument had fizzed out. The tension was so thick it was almost breathable, and Clint was getting tired of it.
“So,” the pancakes sizzled on the griddle as he turned back to the kids. “Why don’t you guys tell me a bit about yourselves? So we can get to know each other?”
The words weren’t even out of his mouth before Scott was cutting in with a sharp “How about we don’t? ”
Clint wanted to groan, and he barely swallowed it back. He probably needed more coffee; he just didn’t feel like he could take Scott this morning. “How about you do? Listen, I don’t feel like I know anything about you kids.”
He could see the term ‘kids’ making Scott tense up. At least, it may have been the word. Or it may have just been the fact that Scott was tense all the freaking time . “And I think that’s fine.”
“Come on, anyone?” Clint asked, hoping that one of the other kids would jump in. His sharp gaze swept the room. Warren’s look had gotten more guarded, Kitty and Sean were avoiding his eyes, Rogue had tensed up even more and Kurt seemed to be curling into himself. And of course Scott wouldn’t offer anything up.
“Seriously, guys.” Clint set down the spatula, fully turning to the kids as the pancakes sizzled. “I’m trying here, but it’s a little hard for me to help you when I hardly even know your names!”
“We don’t need your help—“
“Seriously Scott?” Clint had to bite himself back, a low groan rumbling in his throat as he tried to keep a handle on himself. His head was throbbing, making it harder and harder to properly deal with these kids. He was just getting so tired of the secrecy, and it had hardly been two days. He gestured to Warren. “Like Warren, why’d you sign the Uno cards with two W’s?”
The winged— well, usually winged, not like anyone had told him how that worked— kid tensed up, his usually relaxed posture tightening as he crossed his arms. “Style.”
Clint let out a huff of laughter without any humor. He wasn’t about to buy that. Even just Warren’s posture made him look guilty of something. “Yeah. Right. What’s your last name then?”
The tension thickened and Warren’s cautious gaze turned to a glare. The kids were pretty dang good at glaring. “I don’t have one.”
“Yeah, I believe that,” Clint muttered, unable to avoid the sarcasm in his voice. He was being a jerk, he knew that, but his headache was worsening and the pancakes were a mess and he was just sick and tired of the secrets. “What, are you going to tell me that Rogue is Marie’s real name?”
Silence filled the room. It was like the life had suddenly been sucked from the space. Even Sean stopped fidgeting for a moment to blink in shock. Clint glanced over to see Rogue staring at him, her eyes colder than ever. He felt as if he could get frostbite just from being the subject of that glare.
“ Never call me that.”
“Call you what?” Clint asked, some of the sharpness fading from his tone. The silence that followed the name drop was a bit worrying. “Anne Marie? Is that not—“
“That's not my name.” Her voice held such an intensity that Clint nearly took a step back. Rogue stood up from the couch, her cold, harsh eyes burning holes in him as she stomped off to what Clint assumed was her room. The door slammed behind her, leaving more silence in her wake.
“So you’ve been spying on us?” Scott said sharply, his fists clenched as he threw the accusation at Clint. The archer shook his head firmly, frustration rising in him once again. Of course that was Scott’s first assumption.
“Of course not!”
“Then how’d you know that name?” Scott snapped. “What are you after?”
“Is it so hard to believe that I’m actually trying to help you —“
“Yes, yes it is!”
Clint let out a heavy groan. “Why? Why can’t you trust—“
“Why can’t you just leave us alone? ”
“You're right, I should have!” Clint could tell he was snapping, tell he was being harsh, and it didn’t help that as they were yelling he could suddenly smell something burning. He glanced over his shoulder to see smoke rising from the pancakes, the batter no longer sizzling because it was completely black around the edges. Great. Absolutely fantastic . Clint ran a hand through his hair so hard it was painful, a heavy breath leaving his body. “This was a bad idea,” he mumbled to himself, hopefully quietly enough that the kids couldn’t hear. He wasn’t quite sure what he was calling a bad idea. The pancakes? Bringing up the names? Bringing the kids to the tower in the first place?
He wasn’t sure anymore.
The kids were staring at him, waiting to see what he would do. It was actually Scott who moved first, leaning forward to turn off the griddle before the fire alarm went off. With that Clint moved into action, mechanically scrapping the failed pancakes together to dump them in the trash. He went ahead and dumped the unused batter with it, then started sweeping the mess off of the counter.
“There’s cereal in the cabinet,” Clint muttered as he finished the shoddy cleanup job, the kids still watching him as he did. Kurt had disappeared, Scott had moved to help him once or twice, Sean and Kitty were watching nervously, and Warren hadn’t moved since Clint had brought up his name. Fine. Clint could hardly bring himself to care at the moment. He dropped the last wooden spoon in the sink, then half heartedly gestured to the cabinet. “Knock yourselves out.”
With those words he stalked over to the elevator. None of the kids spoke, so he jabbed the button, willing the elevator to come quicker. The moment the doors slid open he stepped on and asked JARVIS to take him up to the common floor, then quickly corrected himself and asked to be taken to his room. He was done. This day had been a load of crap so far, and it wasn’t even noon. He was going to go back to his room, drink a tall glass of water, then collapse on his bed for an hour and try to will his headache away. And of course, forget that this had ever happened.
Yeah. Great plan.
As the elevator moved he felt a buzz in his pocket. With a groan he fished out his phone to glare at the screen. An email. If it was Fury with a mission assignment, Clint was at least seventy percent sure he would literally jump out a window…
It was Moria. Moira MacTaggert. The lady he had emailed, the social worker.
To: Clint Barton
From: Moria MacTaggert
Subject: A Large Job
Hello Mr. Barton. I would be honored to take on this project for you. I understand your need for a more specialized source, and I hope that my skill set will be sufficient. I will send you information on my pay rate once you send me the information you have on the children, though I must warn you that this is a very tall order. The chance of me finding a home that will be willing to take all six are slim. However, I will do my best. Please keep them in your care for now, and I promise to work as quickly as possible.
Regards, Moira MacTaggert.
The timing couldn’t be better. Clint hardly hesitated before typing back a quick thank you and attaching the files he had dug up on the kids.
He needed this taken care of. The sooner the kids were taken off his hands, the better.
Notes:
It can’t all be good times now, can it? :)
If you’re reading this as a completed fic, now would probably be a good time to take a break! Get some water, eat a meal, don’t start a new chapter if you have an important class in three minutes… you know, the usual!
We’re going to start getting into the action now… thanks for reading, see y’all Monday!
Chapter 23: A Brewing Storm
Summary:
“You guys should come see this,” Scott said, his voice much less intense than it had been. Now there was another tint to his voice, one that Rogue recognized as his Cyclops voice.
“What is it?” Kurt asked.
“Warren flipped on the news.”
Notes:
Rogue enjoyers wake up!! She’s got a POV like she deserves!!
Hope I wrote her alright, let me know what you think! 😅
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
“Rogue?”
Rogue rolled over on her bed, propping up her chin in her hand so she could glare at the door. It felt as if it was glaring back, accusing her for ignoring the first attempt of someone coming to check on her. She hadn’t been going to answer the knock. She didn’t want someone to come check on her. She didn’t know exactly what her plan was after storming off, only that it included being alone.
But… that was Kurt’s voice on the other side of the door. He was the one person that she thought she could tolerate at the moment.
With a heavy sigh she pulled herself up from the bed and stomped over the door. She only opened it a crack, which was all her little brother needed; there was a soft pop , a plume of smoke, and she was coughing on the stench of brimstone as Kurt appeared in their shared room.
“Scott wouldn’t want you doin’ that while Clint’s down here,” Rogue pointed out sourly.
Kurt looked a little guilty, his tail twitching to wrap around his leg as he stood in the middle of the room. “Sorry. I wanted to come check on you, and—“
“You know I don’t care,” Rogue grumbled, sitting down on her bed again as she spoke. She played with the strap of her gloves and watched out of the corner of her eye as Kurt cautiously dropped into his signature bow-legged crouch, tail twitching behind him. She could tell he was curious, a bit guarded. The soft movements of his tail and his wide yellow eyes made him look almost catlike in his crouch, and she let out an involuntary huff as he cocked his head at her.
“What…” he trailed off cautiously. “What Mr. Barton said…”
“Yeah?” Rogue pulled her gloves up a bit tighter, trying to keep the bitterness in her voice to a minimum. It was a losing battle. “What about it?”
“I.. I didn’t know that was your name,” he said slowly, one hand moving to rub his arm as he watched her carefully.
Rogue looked away, tension running through her veins. There it was. She knew the question was coming. It would probably come from everyone now, just when she had finally started to believe that she would never hear that name again. Where had he found it? Had he contacted one of her old foster homes? Had he found her CPS file? Had Xavier kept some sort of documents she didn’t know about?
The leather of her gloves bit into her skin, and she decided that she didn’t care how he had gotten it. It didn’t matter. A piece of her past had been dragged up, one she had hoped to leave buried.
Kurt’s ears twitched, and it took Rogue a moment longer to hear the sound of raised voices down the hall. A minor flash of guilt shot through her, but she quickly shoved it away. Sure, Clint Barton had been nice the past two days or so. Sure, he did seem to be trying to help. But how long would that really last? How much did he actually care? Chances were that once he saw what they could all do— more specifically, what she could do— he would want to drop them like rocks. In all honesty, she could hardly blame him.
“It’s not my name,” she said softly, her attention turning back to her little brother as she spoke. He straightened up ever so slightly, eyes trained on her. “Not anymore, at least.”
Kurt blinked slowly, his posture still catlike as he shifted on the balls of his feet. “Why not?”
Rogue shook her head. She didn’t want to talk about it. Not to Scott, not to Warren, heaven forbid she talk to Clint Barton. This wasn’t something she could share, even with Kurt. This was her personal torture, the particular brand of pain and permanence that she had carried in her name for years. It was her decision to let that memory lie, and she was going to stick to it. “It doesn’t matter. I’m Rogue now. That's what’s important.”
Kurt looked a bit hesitant, and Rogue turned her head to stare at the wall in hopes that he would get the hint and drop it. His heart was too big sometimes. He wanted to help too many people. He needed to learn that some people couldn't be helped.
Including her.
But it was still touching that he cared. More touching than she would like to admit. So after another moment she sighed and shifted over on the bed, patting the space next to her to invite him up. She could see the moment that his expression lit up and then he was next to her, the space covered in a single acrobatic bound as he jumped up beside her and nestled into the blankets. Rogue could feel his eyes on her, waiting, silently asking, and with a soft huff of air she stretched out an arm. He took that as permission to lean against her, small arms reaching out to squeeze her into a gentle— yet surprisingly strong— hug as her arm fell across her back. Rogue was a bit taken aback by the force behind the hug, but she could feel herself involuntarily melt into it. She couldn’t let anyone else touch her. It was far too dangerous. She didn’t want to hurt anyone. But Kurt… Kurt knew to be careful. He knew to make sure he had permission. And well, if she was honest with herself, she needed the physical affection. They both did.
Rogue meant for it to be a quick hug, mostly just to satisfy Kurt’s little-brother need to comfort her. But it turned out to be longer than that. They just kind of sat there in companionable silence, only occasionally permeated by a soft murmur of German from Kurt that Rogue couldn’t understand. She wanted to stay upset, but by the time there was another knock on the door the tension in her shoulders had involuntarily eased. It returned a bit as the door was pulled back to reveal Scott, and she shot him a soft glare as he glanced between her and the younger boy still tucked against her side.
“You guys should come see this,” Scott said, his voice much less intense than it had been… how long had then been off on their own? Twenty minutes? An hour? Maybe even more? He no longer sounded angry, which meant that Clint Barton was probably long gone. Now there was another tint to his voice, one that Rogue recognized as his Cyclops voice.
“What is it?” Kurt asked, his head popping up as he pulled gently away from Rogue.
“Warren flipped on the news.”
That was all Scott had to say: his grim tone told them the rest. Rogue and Kurt both got up, the younger of the two disappearing in a puff of smoke as he teleported across the room so he could walk out the door. Rogue coughed on the smoke he left, frowning as she did. Yeah, Scott wanted him to practice his teleporting, but she needed to lay down some ground rules of not practicing powers in her room. It was going to start to stink permanently if he kept this up.
Well, hopefully they wouldn’t be in the tower long enough for that.
She followed the two boys out the door and into the common room. The other three were already gathered there, staring at the TV hung across from the couch. It was a nice TV… obviously. It was Stark brand, just like everything else in the tower. It was definitely nicer than their TV at home. The wide screen was huge and high definition, proudly displaying a crystal-clear image of a paper towel brand.
“Really?” Rogue said, sarcasm dripping involuntarily from her tone as she stared, one eyebrow raised disbelievingly at the screen. “Yeah. This looks enthralling.”
“Just wait a sec,” Warren muttered. The oldest was tense, tenser than he usually was, his face drawn into a sharp frown as he glared at the screen. “It’s supposed to be coming on after commercial break…”
Just as he was trailing off the ad faded to a shot of a newsroom, in which sat a brightly smiling lady dressed in a nice, sharp-looking dress shirt. She was speaking into the camera, welcoming the audience back from the break, but before Rogue could really catch on to what the news anchor was talking about the shot switched to show a man. He was smiling too, but it was less bright and news-worthy and instead made him look smug and sinister. At least, it did to Rogue. But maybe that was just because she recognized the man, that she knew his game.
“Trask,” she breathed sourly.
Scott nodded, the grimness from his earlier tone seeping into his facial features as he stared at the TV screen.
“ So Mr. Trask,” the reporter started, the camera switching back to her in the newsroom for a brief moment as she began to speak. “ Explain to me the importance of this new facility to Hope Industries.”
“Well ma’am, as you know Hope Industries is a budding company.” Trask, who was once again on screen, gestured behind him. He was in front of a building, one that looked nearly complete but for a few people milling around in hard hats that suggested things were still under construction. “This new location will have state of the art technology, top of the line resources, not to mention much more space than any of our previous factories. It’s a necessary upgrade to accommodate our recent growth.”
“Yes, there has been a lot of support for your company recently, isn’t that right?”
Trask grinned, once again showing off a sinister smile. At least, it looked sinister to anyone in the room that Rogue was standing in. “Indeed. Our growth has been exponential over the past few months. I can send you the charts.”
The reporter laughed. “And do your charts show whether this has anything to do with your recent work in mutant research?”
Mutant research. Yeah, that was a way to put it. Rogue could feel the aggression around her rising. Even she felt a flash of indignance, especially when Trask had the audacity to wink at the camera.
“I do believe so. The charts definitely point to it. I believe that many people see the value of our experiments to the future of mankind, and have invested accordingly.”
“But there is also opposition. That is another reason for moving facilities, is it not?”
Finally Trask’s confident smirk faltered for a moment. “Yes, that was a slight factor. But more so we are looking forward to the future of the company.”
“More than a slight factor, jerk,” Sean muttered. Scott shushed him sharply.
“Speaking of the future, when is the facititly set to open?” The reporter asked. “I heard the dates may be moving up, and the opening of this facility is bringing nearly hundreds of jobs to the Winchester area.”
“Indeed, with any luck our doors will be open in a little over a month, so long as everything goes smoothly,” Trask said confidently. “The majority of our supplies is set to be arriving Thursday night, and from there it is just making sure that everything is moving securely before we bring in the new hires.”
“Exciting! The jobs that this new factory will bring should prove invaluable to—“
“Wait a minute!” Kurt burst out, his tail twitching as he blinked worriedly at the screen. “That is—“
“Three days from now,” Warren confirmed. The reporter was going on to talk about how many people would be able to get jobs at the new Hope Industries location, but Rogue was only half listening. The weight of that date was settling in.
“I thought we had another month!” Sean said, bouncing slightly on the couch as he stared, wide-eyed at the screen. “Isn’t that what he said the other day?”
“They really moved it up,” Scott muttered.
“—So that’s the plan for the new Hope Industries factory-labratory,” the reporter was saying as she closed out the segment. “Thank you to Mr. Trask for his time here today.”
“No, thank you for having me!” Trask gave another too friendly smile to the camera. “And of course, thank you to our friends at Worthington Industries. Their research is what we lay our groundwork on, and without their support this facility would never have even been dreamt of.”
The TV cut off instantly. Rogue’s eyes slid over to Warren, who was holding the remote. The oldest boy had a tense expression on his face, a sort of venom that almost surprised Rogue. When he caught her eye, he just snorted bitterly. “I didn’t want to listen to that anymore.”
Rogue shrugged slightly. She did not exactly want to hear about them gloating over their new building— a building that they were only creating because the X-Men had forced them to clear out their old warehouse— and she could not say that she was upset that Warren had cut it off. Then her eyes slid over to Scott. He was staring at the screen, the reflection of the dark TV bouncing off of his gold visor as he glared at it. His gaze was firm, his pose solid. Not tense exactly, just determined. She didn’t even have to ask, she was sure she knew what he was thinking. And yet, she asked anyway. “Do you think…”
“We have to go.” Scott’s voice was firm,
“Did you forget, y’know, where we are? ” Rogue asked with a roll of her eyes. Yeah, of course they needed to go. But did Scott really think they could sneak out of Avengers Tower without someone realizing? Or that the Avengers would somehow give them permission? Or not care?
“It’ll be fine.” Apparently he did. Scott’s arms crossed against his chest, his brow crunched in concentration as he glared at the TV. “Best-case scenario, we slip in and out without anyone noticing. Worst-case scenario, we break a window.”
“ Really? ” That had to sound ridiculous, even to him. “ That’s your plan?”
Scott shot her a look. “What else can we do? Just leave it alone?”
No one, including Rogue, replied. The answer was an obvious, glaring no. They had to do something.
And chances were that was going to be something dumb.
Notes:
What, you think I’m going to give out a character’s backstory 20 chapters in? THINK AGAIN, ONLY FORESHADOWING! Anyway look at that, we’ve got plot coming!! But also HUGS—
Rogue and Kurt’s sibling relationship is everything to me, I love these two. In this fic Rogue and Kurt met before Xavier found them, so that’s why they’re a bit closer than the others… and why Kurt is literally the only one that Rogue let’s hug her. Rogue needs some hugs, ok?
See y’all Thursday!
Chapter 24: Right Under Your Nose
Summary:
Yeah. Sneaking out of Avengers Tower without the Avengers noticing. Great plan.
Notes:
Ok I’m just going to say this now: I don’t know what floor of the tower the kids are supposed to be on. I think at some point I said it was 40-something and I know at one point I said it was 13. From now on it is canonically floor 13, if it was ever something different I’m sorry that was an editing mistake 😅
With that said, enjoy!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
“This is dumb. This is so, so dumb.”
“Do you have a better idea?” Scott asked flatly.
“Just because I don’t have a better one doesn’t mean it still isn’t dumb.”
Scott didn’t reply. Warren didn’t really expect him to. He let out a small grunt, trying to move into a position that didn’t have his feathers scrunched up against the wall as he focused on the tiny slit of light shining under the door.
Over the past three days they had spent hours going back and forth, debating how best to get out of the tower without the Avengers noticing. Yeah. Sneaking out of
Avengers Tower
without the Avengers noticing. Great plan.
There definitely weren’t many ways to do it. Luckily, the Avengers seemed to be avoiding them. Clint Barton was the only one they had seen much of, and he had only been down once or twice to check on them the past three days. Warren could care less— Sean had gotten help, that was all he cared about— but it seemed a bit disappointing to the younger three. But even with that in mind, they couldn’t exactly just waltz out the front door. Who knew what the Avengers were up to on the other floors, not to mention the fact that JARVIS would probably alert Tony Stark if they were to try and use the elevator. Which meant they were stuck using what they had on their floor, a floor thirteen levels above the ground. Plus, they were in the middle of New York City. In other words, it was not a great situation.
Warren breathed shallowly, trying to keep himself steady. He wished that he could just have just jumped out a window, snapped open his wings, and carried his friends out. That would be the easiest, fastest way. But of course, there were hundreds of problems with that… who would see them from the ground? How would he carry everyone at once? What would the Avengers think when they found a broken window? It was a working way, but Scott had figured out a better plan… well, “better” was subjective. Warren didn’t like putting the weight of the mission on the shoulders of the two youngest. But Scott insisted, and it was definitely more low key…
So there they were, stuck hiding in a supply closet on the first floor as they waited for Kitty and Kurt to find the best exit.
“If a janitor comes right now, we’re screwed,” Warren muttered. Scott didn’t acknowledge him, but Warren didn’t really care. He could feel his heart beating a bit faster with every minute that passed in the closet. He had to focus on breathing, to focus on clenching his teeth and keeping himself grounded. He had to focus on the light under the door and let the darkness hide how small the space was. He had to just ignore the fact that his wings were pressed up against the wall behind him and pretend that the room was much bigger than it was. He had to pretend that he could spread out his wings if he needed to, he had to forget—
Suddenly the door was opening, and relief sliced through Warren’s thoughts. He shoved it away ferociously, trying to ignore how good it felt to take a deep breath of air that wasn’t stale, how thankful he was that his wings were able to lie comfortably against his back once again. None of that mattered. What mattered was that Kitty and Kurt were waving them forward, that they probably only had a few minutes to get out and move on before someone would wander into the little side hall they were hiding in.
“We can’t go out the front!” Kitty exclaimed in a hushed tone, her yellow boots tapping softly against the tile floor as she took a step back, Kurt still holding the supply closet door open behind her. “There’s too many people!”
“Wow, who would have expected that?” Warren said with a roll of his eyes. He felt much better being out in the open air, but he was still more on edge than he would like to admit.
“We found a back door that we could use,” Kurt cut in, his voice just louder than Kitty’s whisper. “We didn’t try it, but I think it would get us out!”
“Did it have any red tape on it?” Scott asked quickly.
“Uh…” Kitty screwed up her face in concentration, Kurt’s expression similarly strained. “I… I think so…”
Scott shook his head. “It might be a fire exit. That could set off an alarm.”
“We also found a whole big window wall,” Kitty said a bit more slowly. “I… I think I could phase someone through…”
“And… and since it’s windows I could probably ‘port someone out,” Kurt said, his tail twitching. He sounded even more uncertain than Kitty.
Scott and Warren exchanged a glance. Warren’s eyes narrowed slightly… bad idea . It was bad enough that Kitty had to phase them down a floor so they could take the stairs. They were only a few minutes into this mission and the little girl already looked exhausted. And Kurt had a hard enough time teleporting himself more than a few feet. The few times he had actually managed to teleport with a passenger, he had nearly passed out. Plus, the two youngest kids would still be responsible for sneaking them back in later… not to mention they still had the entire mission ahead of them. If they could at least get out of the building without using up the rest of the kid’s energy, that would be ideal.
Scott seemed to realize this too. He frowned for a moment, his arms crossed as he glanced between the three other members of his team. Then he nodded to Kitty. “We need to hurry. Let’s go check that exit door.”
Kitty nodded quickly, and Kurt flicked his tail for them to follow. The supply closet door shut softly as the four mutants took off running down the hall. At least it was only the four of them. If Rogue and Sean were with them too… yeah, it was definitely best that those two were staying behind, for their sake more than anything else. No matter what Sean said, he was not ready to be fighting again. Kitty and Kurt really didn’t need to be fighting either… but they had to look at what powers needed to be used, and those two were definitely the pair to get them in and out of places. At least, that was Scott’s reasoning. Warren hadn’t stopped him.
With only the four of them, it only took a minute or two to sprint through the halls and to find the door. Scott stepped forward to inspect it, frowning as he tried to figure out whether or not it would set off an alarm. Warren stood to the side, watching down the hallway they had just passed through so he could warn the others in case someone came. He glanced back at Scott briefly. It did look like there were words on the door, bright white letters against the red tape, but it only took Warren a second of looking at it before he slid his eyes back to the hallway, where he could do some good.
“It says exit , not fire, ” Scott said slowly. His voice was firm, if hesitant, and as he nodded a second time he seemed more sure. “But that doesn’t mean there’s not other alarms.”
“Here, I got it!” Kitty stepped forward, quickly reaching into the door. Her arm disappeared just above the handle, and she stuck her tongue out in concentration as she wriggled her submerged fingers around inside the door’s lock mechanism. There was a quiet crackle and then she pulled herself back, swaying ever so slightly as she regained solidity in her arm.
Scott reached out, cautiously pushing on the door. As he was slowly easing it open Warren caught a flash of movement in the corner of his eye. He turned sharply, suddenly noticing the sound footsteps echoing down the hall. His wings flared instinctively and he whipped around to shove the others through the door.
“Time's up, let’s go guys!”
Scott threw the door open the rest of the way and the four of them burst out, straight into an alleyway behind Avengers Tower. The door shut heavily behind them, and Kitty and Kurt exchanged a high five.
“Celebrate later,” Scott hissed. “We’re out. Now we’re on part two.”
Part two. Right . Actually getting to the secure facility they had heard about on the news: the one that was nearly an hour away, and required getting out of the most crowded city in America.
Thankfully, they had experience in this particular field. New York cab drivers were surprisingly chill as long as the fee was paid. Plus, some of them were happy to go a bit faster for a good tip. Warren had an eye for these kinds of people; they were usually the ones that leaned forward just a bit too much while waiting for the traffic to move, or who had a few bumper stickers on their back window. Flag down one of those people— a woman in her mid-forties with bright pink hair who had a whole pile of cheap coffee cups on her dash— couple that with some money provided by Scott, then throw out a few loud comments about comic con and cosplay to cover their costumes, and they were all set. Thank goodness for bad Disney channel reruns that detailed the culture of conventions. It was roughly half an hour before the four of them were piling out of the car, Scott handing up the money as Warren pretended to be fixing the “attachments” of his wings to help sell their act. Not that the lady was paying any attention; she was already chugging down some more coffee and nearly pulled away before Kurt was out of the car.
As she pulled out, Warren’s fingers brushed over the base of his wings, the ugly area where feathers had never quite grown back all the way. An involuntary shiver ran down his spine and he dropped his hand away as a familiar sense of bitterness flared in his gut. He shoved that feeling aside, saving it for later. Those scars were exactly why they were standing outside the new Hope Industries complex. He didn’t want to think about it any more than that.
“They’ll get the trucks in around the back,” Scott said firmly, dropping the cosplayer act as the lady tore away from the curb. “Let’s get back there and find a stakeout point.”
“How do we know they aren’t already in there?” Kitty asked, her eyes wide as she stared at the facility in front of them. It was big, much bigger than it looked on TV. Even Tony’s Stark TV did nothing to give this sweeping campus justice. Warren almost snorted at his own thoughts. Justice was not a word that deserved to be associated with these people. Not in any way.
“We’re just going to have to hope.” There was a note of grimness in Scott’s commanding voice. “We’re not going in, not tonight. We’re just going to rescue anyone that they’re taking in. Don’t be afraid to let them see you. We want to make a statement.”
Warren gave Scott a curt nod, as did the other two. They all knew the plan, as rough of a plan as it was.
Watch for the trucks. Rescue any mutants they were planning to experiment on. Blow the rest of their equipment sky-high.
Warren cracked his knuckles and smirked grimly. “Let’s do this.”
Notes:
I’m sure this is going to end well! :)
Tiny explain action of Kurt and Kitty’s powers for this AU:
-Kurt can teleport himself a few feet at a time, but he has to be able to see where he is going. He can teleport through glass, but not a wall. Doing it often tires him out, and if he teleports with someone else it hurts them and himself and probably knocks both of them out.
-Kitty can phase herself as well as other people, but it tires her out very quickly. When she phases through electrical objects it Shorts them out.Thank you again for all the kind comments holy cow there’s been a lot lately, y’all are amazing 😭✨
Chapter 25: You Forgot to Try
Summary:
“That’s only helpful if the kids stay on that floor. You letting them gallivant around in costume is going to—“
“Wait, wait,” Clint interrupted him sharply, waving his hand as Tony spoke. “They left the floor?”
Notes:
I just hit 100,000 words in total on my account and literally half of that is this fic and I love that! Thanks again for all the support on this story, it means so much!! <3
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Chapter Text
Tony strode into the common room of the Avengers Tower, hardly having pressed the “end call” button on his cell phone before he was announcing his presence to the room. “Where the heck is Barton?”
Steve glanced up from the book he was reading— he was probably the only Avenger who ever read actual paper books around the tower, a fittingly archaic activity for the Capsicle— and frowned slightly. “Probably in his room or the range, if he’s not in the kitchen. How come? Did Fury send a mission?”
Tony shook his head, already starting toward the elevator as he did. His footsteps were loud and sharp against the floor of the common room, and he let out a huff that was probably a touch too dramatic. A part of him wanted to be a little dramatic though. He deserved it for the headache that Barton was putting him through. “He’s going to give my employees a heart attack or a migraine if he doesn’t keep those kids under control. I’ve got to remind him that this isn’t a daycare.”
Out of the corner of his eye he could see Steve watching him still and a flicker of movement as Bruce glanced up from the digital article he was reading— or maybe writing, half of the research Tony did still pulled up articles by the man— with a curious glance. Natasha was in the kitchen, and her gaze on his back was the one he could feel the most.
“What do you mean?”
Tony paused a moment next to the elevator, waving his phone as he jabbed the button. “I just got a call from the security desk asking if a group of cosplaying kids had clearance to be in the building.”
Natasha pinned him with a sharp gaze. “And?”
“I told them I’d look into it,” Tony replied. He could hear the elevator sliding to a stop, and he was walking toward it before the doors even slid open.
“JARVIS, take me to bird boy’s nest,” Tony said quickly. The doors slid shut with a quick “as you wish, sir” from his AI. With that he let out a brief sigh, flicking through his phone as the elevator glided upwards. It wasn’t that he minded the kids. There was an open floor in the tower, they needed a place to stay, great. He could provide an Airbnb. Whatever. As long as he didn’t have to look after them, it was fine. He would never leave a group of children in a gross, rotting mansion like the one Clint had found them in. But he was Tony Stark. He had a reputation to uphold, employees to pay, press to keep off their tails. If one of the news outlets caught wind of this, it could be a disaster. Six kids in Avengers Tower… Channel 6 would have a field day with that. Especially if it got out that they were mutant kids; their political opinion would plummet. Senator Kelly already had issues with the Avengers, and from a Stark Industries standpoint he had to keep some sort of friendliness with Hope Industries and Worthington Industries… Tony has spent months of work trying to keep the Avengers from taking any sort of political side on the whole mutant issue, purposefully rebutting any theories that Captain America or Black Widow or the Hulk or any of them were products of the X-Gene. It was hard work, and having mutant kids running around the tower would not help a thing.
Especially if those kids were the X-Men. He was really going to have to make sure that Larry down at the desk didn’t post about this on his conspiracy theory blog. “X-Men; Secret Avengers Branch”… yeah, that would go down great with everyone.
The doors finally opened and Tony put away his phone so he could stride down the short hallway to Clint’s bedroom. He didn’t even bother knocking, just shoved his way into the room while already thinking of a list of other likely places for the archer to be perched. The shooting range was definitely the next best bet. Not that it was necessary; the man was right there, fiddling with a set of his trick arrows. His head shot up when Tony dropped in, his eyebrow cocking up at the sight of the man.
“You could knock, y’know.”
“Don’t mess with those.” Tony flicked his hand toward the arrows. “You’ll break them.”
“Oh, really?” Clint’s eyebrow quirked up further. “I think I know how to handle my arrows.”
“But do you know how to handle an electro-fiber insulation seal with a forty gammabyte trigger reactor?” That shut Clint up. “Thought so. You also don’t seem to know how to handle kids.”
Clint was speechless for another moment before he frowned. “I told you Tony, I’m working on getting the situation sorted. I’ve been emailing with a specialized social worker, and—“
“Yeah, I told you I don’t care that they’re here,” Tony cut in with a wave of his hand. “That ship has sailed, whatever. But my employees aren’t really in the know, and you said you’d keep it that way.”
Again, Clint frowned. “I thought you said no one would go up to the thirteenth floor?”
“And no one does,” Tony said. “But that’s only helpful if the kids stay on that floor. You letting them gallivant around in costume is going to—“
“Wait, wait,” Clint interrupted him sharply, waving his hand as Tony spoke. “They left the floor?”
“Yeah, Larry down at the security desk just gave me a call,” Tony flicked his phone out, tapping it in an attempt to pull up the security footage. “He was more confused than anything, but come on, this guy runs a conspiracy theory blog. Not a good one, mind you, but—“
Clint was already standing up, dropping the arrow on his bed as he did. Tony very nearly protested at that— Come on Barton, did the words kinetic-thermal tigger mean nothing— But Clint was already talking. “I can’t believe this. Crap. You said they were in costume?”
“Yeah, yeah they were,” the video loaded and Tony projected it into the middle of the room as Clint started toward the door. Sure enough, four figures were darting through the hall out the exit door. That door should have set off an alarm, according to Larry. But just before opening it the smallest one, the little girl with the ponytail, did something strange and stuck her arm through the door. Needless to say, that was enough to pique Tony’s interest. “Woah. Did you know she could do that?”
“No.” Clint was already halfway out the door, and Tony turned to follow him as the projection flickered out of sight.
“You mean you haven’t even figured out their powers yet?”
“They don’t really want to talk about them,” Clint defended lamely.
“And from the looks of it you didn’t know they left their room?”
“Nope. Why did you hire a conspiracy theorist as a security guard?”
“He doesn’t know I know he’s a conspiracy theorist. It’s helpful to be able to casually slip cover up stories to a guy who supposedly has inside info.” They pulled to a halt as Clint jabbed the button for the elevator. “Seriously, are you even keeping an eye on these kids? They—“
“I’m working on it,” Clint muttered through gritted teeth. Tony rolled his eyes at the taller man. Seriously, he knew Clint Barton was irresponsible, but he kind of expected him to at least know the kids' powers and such by now. They were mutants, after all.
“You better work faster. I’m still not convinced that one of them won’t spontaneously combust.” Tony clicked around on his phone, already working on isolating the security stream that had caught the kids. He didn’t want to erase it, that would look suspicious, but he could definitely tamper with it a bit so their mutations weren’t caught on camera. As long as everyone could believe the blue boy and wings were cosplay; which, honestly, with the amount of cosplayers that Avengers Tower got, it wouldn’t be too far-fetched. Some of them were impressively intricate. “What do you think this is? Electrical manipulation? Technopathy? Phasing?”
Clint didn’t answer, instead stepping into the elevator and asking JARVIS to take them to the thirteenth floor. Tony followed, rewatching the video clip a few times as they moved downward. It had to be some sort of phasing, the girl’s arm went clear through the door. Maybe something about the molecular shift in density interrupted the electrical flow of the circuits?
He saved the clip. He would have to run it by Bruce later.
The doors slid open again, and Clint practically stormed out and onto the kid’s floor. Tony stepped out a bit more cautiously, the thoughts of the kid’s powers now circling through his head. They had no clue what these mutants could do. Maybe they could camouflage, cast illusions, cause earthquakes… really, who was to say? The amount of known mutants in their world had a deadly array of powers, one that seemed to be growing by the minute. He really needed to perfect Mark 42; having a suit that could come to him telepathically would be pretty handy in situations like these.
Not that he was scared of a couple of kids. Obviously.
There were two in the room when they entered, both sitting on the couch and playing some sort of card game between them. It was the redhead and the curly haired boy… Sean, if Tony remembered. The one who messed up his leg and seemed to have way too much energy. He couldn’t remember the redhead’s name, but she reminded him of Romanoff; similar hair, similar posture, similar death glare that focused on the two adults the moment they entered the room.
“Where is everyone?” Clint’s voice was sharp, harsh, and obviously stressed. For fair reason, of course; more than half of the tiny terrors he had brought to the tower were missing.
“Hi Mr. Barton! Hi Mr. Stark!” Sean waved, his bright smile showing off a gap in his teeth as he grinned toward the men. “Do you wanna play? Rogue and I were just finishing the round, and we can deal you in if you want!”
Clint shook his head. “Don’t play around, Sean. Where is everyone?”
“Does it matter?” Rogue was glaring coldly toward them, her green eyes sharp as she watched them. Her voice was thick with a southern accent, which was a slight surprise to Tony. “Don’t you have better things to do?”
“I know they’re not here,” Clint said bluntly. He let out a sigh, running his hands through his spiky hair as he tried to back off a bit. “Listen, no one’s in trouble, I just… someone saw them in the lobby, and they were leaving. Is that true?”
Rogue shrugged. “They’re workin’.”
“Working?” Tony asked. He didn’t like being left out of the conversation.
“Don’t worry, they’re just stoppin’ some bad guys!” Sean once again showed his gap-toothed grin. Rogue shot him a warning glance, which he ignored. “They’ll be back soon! Come on, you guys know all about stoppin’ bad guys, you’re the Avengers!”
“What bad guys are they trying to stop?” Clint asked, jumping on the opportunity.
“It doesn’t matter,” Rogue cut in. She set down a card, an ace of hearts, on top of whatever game she and Sean were playing. “They’ve got a job to do. They’re gonna do it.”
Clint let out an impressively quiet huff of frustration. “Alright. Fine. Cool. But can you two please stay here?”
Rogue shrugged indescribably, but Sean nodded. Clint seemed to take that as good enough because he spun around to get into the elevator. Tony followed.
“Want me to lock them in?” He asked once the doors were closed. It would be easy. JARVIS could lock down any floor he wanted. It would at least keep those two in while they found the other four. He probably should have implemented that protocol sooner.
But Clint shook his head before Tony could make the move. “No, no, don't do that. It’ll make them feel trapped and… I don’t think that’s the best way to handle this.”
Tony raised an eyebrow. “Are you sure—“
“Of course not but hey, I’m still shooting.” Clint’s voice was strained, and Tony wasn’t sure he had ever seen the archer like this before. Maybe right after Loki’s mind control. That was something similar, where the man seemed to be beating himself up from the inside. He groaned a bit, his hand running through his greasy hair. “This is my fault. I’m stupid, stupid…”
He was muttering to himself more than he was talking to Tony, but the shorter man still felt like he should say something. “I mean, I’m not going to disagree…”
“I should have been watching them more, should have tried more…”
“Probably.”
“I could have at least attempted to apologize to Rogue, even if I don’t know what I even did wrong…”
“Sounds like it. She doesn’t seem to like you.”
“You don’t have to agree with everything I say,” Clint muttered, shooting a sharp pout in Tony’s direction. He shrugged in response.
“Well, it definitely sounds like you need to take more responsibility here.” Ha. Tony Stark talking about responsibility; even he could see the irony. But Clint needed some sort of advice, and they did have four tiny mutants running loose around New York. “I’m just providing the tower. Nothing’s gonna change if someone’s not making sure they’re honoring curfew and whatnot.”
Clint muttered something or other under his breath, which Tony didn’t really pay attention to. The doors were sliding open again to show Clint’s room, and the archer strode in without hesitation. He grabbed his bow and arrows— which he shoved into a quiver in a very unsafe manner— and plucked a suit from his closet. Then he ducked into his bathroom for about three seconds to change before emerging with the pants on and the shirt halfway over his torso. “I don’t even know where they are, but when I find them…”
“Found them.” In those three seconds or so Tony had pulled up the security camera feed again. Luckily he had a camera in the alley above the door the kids had used for their escape, and was able to use that to catch the license plate of the cab they climbed in. A little bit of clicking and searching, and he found their stop. He turned it to show Barton with a smirk. “Don’t say I never did anything for you.”
“Where is that?” Clint asked, staring at the nearly-complete building site.
“The new Hope Industries complex.” What a coincidence. “That company run by Bolivar Trask. You know? The one I was telling you about the other day?”
“I probably wasn’t listening,” Clint said bluntly. Tony rolled his eyes. “How long ago was this?”
“About two hours.” Tony double checked the timestamp, then nodded to himself. “Just over. You really don’t have a handle on these kids, do you Katniss?”
“I’m going to get a better one,” Clint muttered to himself. He was already heading to the elevator. “Suit up Stark, we’ve got some kids to wrangle.”
Tony smirked. “I don’t remember agreeing to that.”
“Your tower, your reputation. Don’t want anyone to figure out Tony Stark’s wayward refugees were messing around with a business partner, huh?”
His smirk deepened. “Good one Barton. I’m in. Pepper won’t mind if I’m late to another meeting.”
Notes:
Larry the security guard with his bad conspiracy theory blog: the Avengers are actually aliens spawned by Loki and this was his plan all along and Nick Fury is actually a shapeshifter
Tony Stark: *thumbs up*Things are going to go DOWN next chapter. See you Thursday!
Chapter 26: The Destruction of Disasters
Summary:
He looked older in the rapidly dimming light, his visor flickering with the reflection of the flames, his brow creased as he stared at Clint. It was easy to see how no one had made the connection between this man and the fourteen-year-old kid he really was.
This was Cyclops, and he looked every bit the terrorist news reports made him out to be.
Chapter Text
Clint was furious. With himself, with the kids, he didn’t know. No, no he did know. It was definitely with himself. How could he be so stupid? He should have been watching them. He should have been putting forth more effort, or… or something. He had insisted on bringing them to the tower for exactly this reason, to make sure someone was watching out for them and keeping them out of trouble… and yet here he was, trespassing across the Hope Industruies campus because he was too stupid to actually keep an eye on them.
Night air swirled around him and Tony, bringing all of his doubts and self-accusations with them. But there was no time for those, because there were bursts of light up ahead, flashing through the trees along the road leading to the back of the building. And as they got closer, Clint began to realize that the wind was also carrying sounds; shouts, blasts, the screech of metal. There was definitely a fight.
And Clint was positive that he knew who had picked it.
The sun had almost disappeared behind the New York skyline as Clint burst through the small tree grove with Tony following right above him. He did not know what to expect, let alone how to stop it and get the situation under control. He expected something bad.
What he saw was somehow even worse than he expected.
There, in the middle of the road that led up to the complex, stood three mutant children in the middle of a group of grown adults, flames flickering around them. Only they didn’t look like kids; if Clint didn’t know better, he would have guessed that they were in their twenties from how they were fighting. A dark figure with indigo skin that hardly looked familiar now had his tail wrapped around a man’s throat, choking the air out of him to knock him out. His yellow eyes were flashing from the light of the fires, and he looked more terrifying than any eight-year-old should. Meanwhile Warren— well, Angel right now, Clint supposed— was a solid ten feet in the air, his huge white wings keeping him steady as he shouted to one of his teammates. Against the fading light, he looked as angelic as his hero name implied, minus the fact that there was a huge bruise blossoming on his muscled forearm and fire flickering beneath him. And Scott— Cyclops— was in the thick of it, holding back two men while his visor shot forth blasts of red energy to pockmark one of the four trucks that were parked haphazardly along the road. One of the trucks was already smoldering and burning, and the air was filled with the smoke from it. There were at least six men and women passed out on the ground around the X-Men, multiple guns pulled from their hands and tossed in a pile away from the destruction.
Because that’s what this was: pure, utter destruction.
“Looks like the whole ‘X-Men are terrorists’ thing isn’t that far off,” Tony’s voice crackled over their comm link.
“Shut it, Stark,” Clint snapped, trying to debate how to approach this situation. This was not what he was expecting. These were not the sweet-if-still-hostile kids he had seen a bit over the past few days. These were mutants, vigilantes… these were the X-Men.
Oh boy, he hoped there was a good explanation for this.
Before he could make up his mind as to how to reveal their presence, Warren’s head swiveled around. By the way his eyes narrowed, he must have seen Tony… who wasn't exactly trying to hide himself. Clint was surprised he hadn’t been noticed sooner.
Warren shouted something down to Scott and Kurt that sounded like “we’ve got company”. Clint couldn’t be quite sure though; his hearing aids were mostly picking up the crackling fire and the sound of Scott’s laser beams going off. But he decided that it was as good a time as any to step forward… so step forward he did.
“What…” he said slowly, the kid’s eyes turning to him as Kurt set down his newly-knocked-out guard and Warren landed on the ground. “The heck is going on here?”
Scott stopped laserbeaming the truck to turn to Clint. The boy somehow looked less tense than usual, with his hand held out threateningly to two unarmed men and a truck next to him absolutely obliterated by his powers. He looked older in the rapidly dimming light, his visor flickering with the reflection of the flames, his brow creased as he stared at Clint. It was easy to see how no one had made the connection between this man and the fourteen-year-old kid he really was.
This was Cyclops, and he looked every bit the terrorist news reports made him out to be.
“You’re not supposed to be here,” the boy said, his voice full of a fierceness that almost had Clint hesitating.
“And you’re not supposed to be destroying property,” Clint shot back. He gestured wildly to the burning truck behind him. “Let me ask you again. What the heck is this?”
“Us doing our job,” Scott said firmly. He was completely unwavering as he stared Clint down, his posture firm and his arm still held out toward the two men. They were far older than Scott, Clint knew that, but with the position that Scott was in it would be impossible to tell otherwise.
“Your job is to attack a caravan of medical supplies?” Clint asked incredulously. He had to admit, he had heard a bit of Tony’s Hope Industries rant from a month or so ago. He didn’t pick up any details other than the fact they dealt with biotech and also apparently with Stark Industries, but it was still something. “How is that helping anyone?”
The reflection of flames shimmered in the depths of Scott’s red and gold visor. “That’s not just medical supplies.”
“Oh really?” Clint shot back, his voice sarcastic. “I would say we should look and check, but you blew up the truck!”
“That’s the only way to stop them!” Scott’s voice was getting louder, the same way that Steve’s would when he was trying to project his voice to a crowd; the same as Steve’s voice when he was acting as the leader of the Avengers. Scott waved a hand at the two men behind him, and Clint did not miss the way that the unarmed guards flinched at the movement. “They need to be stopped.”
“They need to be stopped?” Clint could not help the incredulous tone. He lifted his own hand, gesturing wildly to the destruction around them. “Scott, you need to be stopped!”
For just a moment, Scott’s posture tightened, and Clint saw a flash of the defensiveness that he was used to. It was gone in a flash, instead replaced by the sick professionalism of a man who had just blown up a truck and was busy justifying it. “That’s not my name.”
“I don’t care what your name or your title or anything is! There shouldn’t be a difference!” Flames crackled, accentuating Clint’s point as he spoke. “Scott, you're a kid. You obviously don’t know what you’re doing!”
“I’m not a kid,” Scott replied, his voice flat and factual, and for once Clint thought that he might actually believe him. “You don’t know what is going on here. You need to leave us alone.”
“No, this is exactly why you can’t be left alone.” Clint thought he saw Scott’s hands curl into fists, but in all honesty he did not care. All he could see was the massive amounts of damage that the X-Men, that the kids, had caused. How had this gotten so out of hand? How on earth would they think that any of this could be defensible? How were kids capable of this? “You can’t destroy things like this and expect it to be ok!”
Tony chose that moment to drop dramatically from the sky, landing next to him before raising a repulsored palm toward the kids.
“Yeah, this is not a great look for you guys,” Tony said, his voice metallic and overly projected as he surveyed the scene. “I like Trask about as much as the next guy, but…”
“We’re here for a reason,” Scott insisted. Clint raised an eyebrow.
“Oh yeah? It better be a really good—“
“Guys!” A high-pitched, undeniably young voice interrupted the conversation. Kitty Pryde was jumping down from the second to last truck, waving to the others as she did. “Guys, I found someone! She—“
Suddenly everything happened at once. One of the two guys that Scott had left conscious opened his mouth in shock; maybe at Kitty’s voice, maybe at her size, maybe whatever it was she found. Clint had no idea because before he could say anything, Warren clocked him over the head with one giant wing. The man fell to the ground, instantly knocked out. At the same moment the second man lunged forward, his hands outstretched as he reached to tackle Scott. The mutant had been distracted by his younger teammate and barely had a moment to turn and face his adversary before the man was on him, struggling in an attempt to get the mutant in a chokehold. Clint started to move but not before Warren rushed forward, his wings flashing as he ripped the man away from the other boy. But with that motion a guttural cry followed; not from the man, but from Cyclops… who no longer looked like a cyclops. The man who attacked him had gotten a hold on his visor, a hold that he kept as he was thrown away from the young teen, leaving the boy maskless.
Clint had been waiting to see Scott’s face without the visor. But, now that it was gone, he found that it was impossible. The moment the visor was gone his entire face was obscured by bright, blinding red light.
The humming, zapping noise that Clint had heard earlier as he peppered the trucks with shots of his lasers suddenly escalated into a deafening, vibrating sound as light suddenly shot from Scott’s eyes. The boy had looked powerful earlier, when purposefully using his mutation. He looked dangerous earlier. Now all three of the other mutants were screaming, ducking for cover as beams of pure energy poured from the kid’s eyes. Clint didn’t mean to follow their example but before he knew it he was on the ground, dirt biting into his palms as he jerked his head back to see what was happening. Scott was facing the tree line, and trees snapped and cracked under the force of the beams as they shot through them. The boy jerked back, the force of his own power sending him reeling and stumbling as he struggled with it. His gaze swiveled around, narrowly missing Warren—who had all but thrown himself on top of Kurt— and completely tearing through the truck that was on fire. The mess of metal was thrown back at least twenty feet from the blast, crashing into a tree that buckled under the weight. It would probably catch fire in a few moments, but Clint’s attention was torn from that to the fact that Tony had stepped forward, maybe to try and help, maybe to try and get the boy to stop, maybe to detain him in any way possible. It didn’t matter what his intention was; Clint heard his comm link crackle and short out before he even registered the fact that Tony was flying backwards, suit crumpling as he hit a tree with a sickening thud. The light flickered out from the suit's eyes, and he was motionless.
“Tony!” Clint screamed, but it was lost in the violent blasting of Scott’s powers.
The boy finally pulled his gaze to the ground, still crying out as his eyes began to bore a hole in the earth beneath him, dust and dirt thrown up around him. He collapsed to his knees, his fists pressed against his eyes. Then, finally, suddenly, it all stopped.
The light was gone as quickly as it had come. A stunned hush fell over the road as the thrumming hum faded. The silence was only broken by ragged, choked breathing.
It was only a few seconds, in total. Maybe twenty.
Clint found himself breathing heavily, the pure sight of what had just happened enough to knock the wind out of him. The dirt beneath him felt cold in comparison to the fires that had suddenly grown so much larger. The twisted metal of the trucks had expanded the area of the battle and stretched it out across the road, and the tree line had now been gouged and gutted where trees had snapped in half and left only jacket stumps behind. Clint could hear the sound of panting over the crackle of the flames, and with a glance he realized that even the other X-Men were still cowering in apprehension. There was a sense of fear in the air, as if everyone was waiting for another wave.
He had thought there was destruction before. It was nothing compared to this.
And sitting in the middle of it, palms pressed to his eyes, his shoulders shuddering with heavy breaths, was Scott Summers.
Notes:
Clint: *sees Scott blasting laser beams from his visor*
Clint: I’m sure this has no connection to his mutation or the fact that he never takes that thing off whatsoeverPlease leave a comment, I’m really excited to see some of the reactions to this chapter!!
Chapter 27: Rose Colored Lenses
Summary:
At some point in his life Scott had heard a saying about how “rose colored lenses” made everything look better than it actually was. He hoped that wasn’t true, because every time he looked through his red-tinted visor his life seemed to be burning before him.
He couldn’t imagine this being any worse.
Notes:
In which Scott suffers… oh wait, that’s just everything Scott is in.
Enjoy!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Scott saw the world in shades of red.
Really, it was impossible for him to see any other way. The ruby quartz in his visor was red, so everything he saw was filtered through with red. Sean’s hair was bright red. Kurt’s skin was a deep purple. Warren’s feathers were a soft pink. Sometimes things took on a blur from the thickness of his visor, but that never mattered to him. The fact that he could see at all was a gift, and he knew that. He would never complain about how he was able to see. Shades of red: that was how he saw the world.
That was, at least, until his visor came off.
Then everything was crystal clear. Every color was violently vibrant, every edge sharp and clear and defined. He could see everything as it was, only the very edges of his vision blurred with red. Without his visor every single thing that he looked at was preserved in bright, clean, shocking clarity.
And every single thing he looked at was utterly destroyed.
He was pretty sure he screamed, but if he did it was drowned out by the pound of blood rushing in his ears, the violent hum of his powers as they blasted from his eyes. They were painful, powerful, and far out of his reach. He knew he had to shut his eyes, he knew he had to get himself under control. But he couldn’t. He couldn’t shut his eyes, he couldn’t control their force, he couldn’t aim them or stop them or do anything . The only thing he could do was scream and watch— with perfect, bright, colored vision— as he destroyed everything in his sight. He could see the trees snapping and cracking under the force of the blast. He could see the truck thrown twenty yards away. He could see Iron Man thrown back, his armor crumpling and the lights fading from his eyes. Scott saw it all in perfect, absolute, unfiltered clarity.
He must have screamed because his throat was raw when he finally managed to drag his eyelids shut and trap the burning, blazing light behind them. The moment he could he instantly pressed his palms to his eyes, burying his head in his hands as he fell to his knees in a fetal position. It was pure instinct to curl up, to try and make himself as small as he could as if it could mitigate the damage he caused. The silence that followed felt heavy, suffocating, codeming in a way that pressed down on his shoulders and made his breath shutter.
He hurt Iron Man .
He might have killed Iron Man.
Bile rose in his throat, and for a sickening moment he was sure he was going to throw up.
“Cyclops!” There was a noise next to him, a soft bamf that cut above the crackling fire to his right. The stench of brimstone burned his nose as he inhaled heavily. There was a hand on his back, a small, three-fingered hand, and then Scott felt something being pushed toward him. “Here, here!”
Scott let his right hand reach out, his left hand still pressed tightly against his eyes as he grabbed the object that Kurt was offering. The smooth, bulky metal he knew so well slipped into his grasp, and he clutched at it like a lifeline. It wasn’t until he had the visor slipped over his eyes and firmly, tightly sealed against his face that he dared to open his eyes, even the smallest crack. The humming in his ears finally quieted from a roar to a dull buzz, and he felt as though he could take a breath. Then, slowly, he blinked more, until he was fully able to take in his surroundings.
At some point in his life Scott had heard a saying about how “rose colored lenses” made everything look better than it actually was. It was a saying of optimism and naivety, one that had stuck with Scott from even before he was able to see again. It was a bunch of crap. At least, he hoped it was, because every time he looked through his red-tinted visor his life seemed to be burning before him.
He couldn’t imagine this being any worse.
Kurt was sitting bowlegged next to him, his tail lashing with nerves as he watched Scott recover. Warren was just standing up, shaking dirt off his wings— dirt that had probably come from the trench that Scott dug while trying to snap his eyes shut. Kitty was on the other side of him, her eyes wide and her shoulders shaking as she watched him move. And Clint… Clint had rushed over to Tony.
Tony still wasn’t moving.
Scott cursed under his breath, hopefully quietly enough that Kitty and Kurt couldn’t hear it. Warren, on the other hand, was not so subtle. He swore loudly as he caught sight of the crumpled Avenger.
“Scott, did you just…”
Scott inhaled deeply, his eyes fluttering shut as he did before opening again on the red-tinted world. He didn’t dignify Warren’s comment with a response, and to his relief the winged mutant had the decency to shut up. Already his eyes were practically pulsing with his power… or maybe it was the need to cry— no. He cut off that thinking before it could even form, shoving it harshly to the back of his mind. He had shown enough weakness. He had to get himself back under control.
The Professor had tried to drill control into his head. It was his hardest lesson, his most important lesson, the thing that they went over again and again . He should be better than this. He should have control.
He lost control. And now Tony Stark was…
This shouldn’t have happened .
It was all Scott could do to dig his fists into the ground and to pull himself to his feet. His body was aching— from the fight, from the power surge, from all of it— but he couldn’t afford to sit back down. Professor Xavier’s voice echoed in his head, a mantra that sunk in his bones and burned in the front of his skull. You must fight to the last breath . You are the face of mutantkind. You must fight for your people, not yourself.
The professor would be so disappointed in him right now.
Scott sharply shook off those thoughts, ignoring the stabbing pain in his mind. He felt heavy-headed, like a weight was pressing down on his brain, making it hard for him to function. But he shoved those thoughts aside, instead focusing on turning to Kitty, who was still watching with wide eyes.
“You said you found someone?”
Kitty nodded wordlessly, and after a moment she ducked into the truck. Her movement seemed to shake Kurt and Warren out of their daze too. Kurt bounded to the truck on all fours, and Warren took to the air just behind them.
Scott refused to look at the Avengers. He focused on the mission at hand.
He moved to open the back door of the truck; Kitty hadn’t bothered to use it, opting instead to just phase through the wall of the vehicle. The door was locked. Of course . Scott only hesitated a moment before taking a deep breath and focusing his eyes on the lock. His hand moved up to his visor, gently easing open the shield every so slightly. There was a pulse somewhere behind his eyes as suddenly the energy had an outlet, and it rushed forward to meet it before Scott slammed the visor shut once again. A tiny zap, and the door handle was a smoking mess.
Just like everything else in his life.
He shoved those thoughts aside. Focus. He needed focus. The word alone sounded like Professor Xavier’s voice, and he could almost see the man staring down at him as he struggled through yet another exercise.
Are you an X-Man or not?
The door swung open easily now, and Scott stepped inside with a deep breath. The truck was cold, like a fridge, and the whole inside was covered with futuristic-looking metal and strange, beeping machines. Kurt hopped up next to him, creeping forward cautiously on all fours. Warren stayed back, still hovering slightly in the air with careful wingbeats.
There was Kitty, just inside the truck. She crouched next to a metal bed that was tucked into the back corner. She waved Scott and Kurt forward, quickly pointing toward the bed as she did.
“I-I was gonna phase through, try and set her free but, like, look at all these wires! I didn’t wanna—“
“You’re good, Kitty. Good work.” Scott forced his leaderly tone back into his voice, forced himself to stop shaking. His fists were still clenched into tight balls, and he slowly willed himself to let his fingers spread so he could reach out to the edge of the metal bed. There was a girl strapped to it, a young woman who appeared to be asleep; or knocked out, more likely. Her mouth and nose were covered by what looked like an oxygen mask, though Scott doubted that was all that was being pumped into the lady’s lungs. Both her wrists and ankles were secured by metal bonds, and Scott could see some sort of vitals flickering across a small screen on her left cuff. There was nothing notably “mutant” about her besides the fact that her long dark hair seemed to be a brilliant shade of purple, but there was no doubt about what she was. Scott knew the games these sorts of companies played.
He carefully directed Kitty to phase through the girl’s bonds. The movement made the technology fizz out and disconnect, and then Scott removed her gas mask. The woman seemed to breathe a bit more deeply with it gone. Scott quickly took up the responsibility of gently pulling her up from the metal bed, one of her arms slung over his shoulder as he awkwardly hauled her from the truck. All she was wearing was a paper medical gown, the back of which was open to show most of her back. Through his red lenses Scott could see marks across her back; stitches. Medical stitches. He averted his gaze, instead focusing on getting down from the truck. The woman was about as tall as him, maybe even a bit taller, and it made maneuvering her a bit difficult. Thankfully Warren stepped forward to help, pulling the woman into his arms as Scott made his way out of the truck.
“Is she the only one?” Scott asked, glancing back at Kitty. She nodded quickly as she hopped down from the van with Kurt following just behind her.
“I think so. I checked every other truck!”
“Good.” Scott waited until Kitty and Kurt were clear, then he turned his gaze back to the truck. He dilated his visor, carefully opening it a bit wider this time. Power shot from his eyes, heat surging forward to slice through anything in its way; the metal bed, the bonds, the weird control panels all were blasted away. Something caught fire as his gaze passed over it, and soon the whole truck was in ruin.
He shut the visor, then turned to the last truck. He went ahead and double checked it, and once he confirmed that it was only filled with supplies, he set about burning that one too.
That was what he was good for, anyway. Destruction . He just had to be glad that the Professor taught him to aim in the right direction.
“Scott!” He turned to see Clint walking up, his face lit by the fires Scott had set. It was drawn up in shock, anger… maybe? Probably. There was no way he wasn’t angry; it was the only emotion that made sense. The man stepped forward heavily, his eyes wide as he took in the mess around them. He didn’t seem to know what exactly to say. “What… why… ”
Before he could decide, his eyes fell on Warren and the woman he was carrying. That, at least, was enough to make him hesitate. “Who is that?”
“A mutant,” Scott said, his voice as smooth and commanding as it could be. “She was part of this “ medical supplies” shipment.”
Clint blinked. “She… what? Do you know her?”
“No, but we know plenty of people like her.” Scott crossed his arms over his chest, jutting his chin out as he did. It was a commanding pose, a leaderly pose. He needed to look like a leader right now. “So, you want to yell at us for sneaking out? Do it.”
Clint shook his head, almost numbly. His hand reached up to brush through his hair. “I… I can’t… you guys…”
“What?” Warren stepped forward, his wings flaring even as he supported the unconscious woman. “Hard to come face-to-face with the darker side of things?”
“No— well, yes …” The man let out a groan. “You four, you snuck out without telling me, you destroyed a bunch of property, you… Tony… ” The name sent a stab of guilt through Scott’s chest, but he did his best to hold his ground. He couldn’t think about that, not now. Clint groaned again, waving his hand at the scene around them in frustration. “Look at this! You guys could have been hurt, don’t you see that?”
Scott blinked, his red vision flickering a bit. That wasn’t what he was expecting. “Yeah? So?”
“This isn’t your fight,” Clint started. Scott interrupted him.
“Of course it is. Who’s fight would it be?”
“An adult’s,” Clint deadpanned. “Someone older, more experienced.”
That made Scott frown sharply. What did Clint think they had spent the past few years and Xavier’s doing? What did he think all their training was meant for? “We’re plenty experienced.”
“What would Professor Xavier say if he saw this?” Clint asked, once again waving his hands to the surrounding flames. “Would he want you out here? Risking your lives?”
“Of course he would!” The leaderly note in his voice broke, and Scott cursed himself. No, no, no. Stay calm. Stay in control. Focus. Control . He took a shuddery breath and forced the cracks from his tone. “This is what he trained us to do: to fight for a world that hates and fears us.”
Clint looked like he had been hit with something. He stared at them a moment, a mass of emotions flitting across his face in the firelight. Shock? Disbelief, maybe? More anger? Whatever it was, it forced a heavy, draining silence over the clearing. The tension was heavy in the air, and Scott— despite himself— could feel his stomach churning as he waited for the man’s response.
“Tony needs medical attention.” His voice was quieter as he spoke, and Scott almost lost it over the sound of the flames around them. He took a deep breath and let it out slowly. “Come on. Let’s go back to the tower. We can… we can talk more there.”
The archer turned away, and Scott felt something inside him deflate. That tired tone. That strange mix of emotions coming from the Avenger… disappointment? Maybe? It must be. Disappointment and anger. Those were the emotions Scott always seems to bring out in people.
And from where he was standing, surrounded by flames and destruction… well, he couldn’t say he didn’t deserve them.
Notes:
I really love this chapter, Clint and Scott are both going to have to think about their actions after all of this.
Any Tony enjoyers reading this? If so I’m sorry—
Chapter 28: Even Still
Summary:
“They didn’t seem to care about their own safety,” he muttered to himself. “They were just focused on completing the mission. I hate that I can totally see why the media labels them the way they do…”
But they were still just kids. They could have been hurt.
Notes:
Sorry about the super late update today y’all, I worked all day and my commute was like an hour instead of ten minutes because I literally moved yesterday lol! Crazy day but of course I gotta update the adventures of X-kids and birdbrain :D
Hope you enjoy!
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Chapter Text
Tony was alive. Barely.
He was in critical care at the moment. Bruce Banner, Helen Cho, and at least three other multiple PHD doctors were by his side. He had been stabilized, or at least so Clint had heard. He wasn’t sure exactly what was happening, no one had really bothered to fill him in. Great. Yeah. No need for a “thanks Hawkeye”, it wasn’t like he had dragged the armored billionaire halfway across New York or anything, but a situation summary would have been nice, at least.
Instead he was stuck pacing outside the medical wing, waiting for any sort of update on his friend’s condition, trying not to think about why he was in critical care.
He had broken bones, at least. A concussion for sure. And with the way his suit had crumpled… Clint had no clue what kind of damage that could do. More broken bones? Internal bleeding? Crushed organs? And for a guy who already had heart issues…
He paced a bit faster.
The other Avengers had made their way down as soon as they heard. Steve was pacing at the other end of the hallway, his heavy feet practically wearing a divot in the tile floor with each pass. Natasha was sitting in one of the flimsy folding chairs set up in the hall, hunched over and with her hands clasped beneath her chin. Bruce was in the room with Tony, since that was a privilege that multiple years of medical school provided. And then there was Clint, also pacing, trying to make sense of everything that had happened that night.
The kids sneaking out.
The Hope Industries shipments.
Scott’s powers. The utter destruction.
Tony…
“Stop beating yourself up, Clint.”
It took him a moment to register Natasha’s words. He hesitated, glancing up at her as he did. Her eyes bored into his own, and he could feel the pointed edge of her words. Another moment passed, then he walked over and sat heavily in the folding chair next to her, a sigh slipping between his lips.
“I’m not—“
“Don’t even try that, birdbrain. I know you.”
Another sigh. His fingers ran through his tangled, soot-streaked hair. Natasha turned her knowing gaze on him, watching him as he breathed heavily. He let out a groan, his voice rough. That was probably from smoke inhalation. Or exhaustion. Honestly, it was probably both.
He spoke slowly, the words more of a breath than real words. “I don’t know what I’m doing, Tasha.”
He saw her nod out of the corner of his eye. “I know.”
“I’m in way over my head.”
“I know.”
“I messed up.”
“I know.”
“This is my fault— “
“I’m going to stop you there. It’s not.”
“But it is. ” He shook his head to emphasize his point. “I asked Tony to come, I didn’t bother to figure out what Scott’s powers were… I had no clue what he could do, that it could be this bad …”
“It’s not like he was exactly eager to tell you. None of them were.”
“But still. I should have tried harder.” He buried his head in his hands, his breath hot against his face. “I should have been watching them, I should have been keeping an eye on them…”
“Xavier should have been keeping an eye on them, not you.”
“But he’s dead, ” Clint pointed out. His voice was meant to be bitter, but he probably just sounded more tired than anything. “He’s dead, and… and I don’t know if I could have left them with him even if he wasn’t.”
She didn’t speak. She just waited, probably to see if he would elaborate. It worked. “The things Scott was saying, Tasha… it’s like he trained them for this, or something. I just can’t believe…”
“Yeah. Because child soldiers are such an impossibility.”
He winced instinctively, pulling his head from his hands to look at Natasha. But her expression didn’t match her words, the intense mask filtering out any sort of bitterness about her past. Of course child soldiers weren’t an impossibility. He was sitting right next to one. She had seen firsthand what kind of terror the Red Room wreaked, and he had seen a lot of it through her. And the Red Room was just one example. Was it really such a surprise that someone would want to train young super-powered kids to grow up to push their agenda?
He wished it was.
He let out a breath, turning back to stare at the wall. He could see Steve, still pacing, out of the corner of his eye. Part of him wished the super soldier wasn’t in the room. Most of him couldn’t muster up the energy to care.
“They didn’t seem to care about their own safety,” he muttered, more to himself than Natasha. She probably already knew this from experience. “They were just focused on completing the mission. A mission that totally made them look like terrorists, by the way. I hate that I can totally see why the media labels them the way they do…”
He couldn’t even entirely blame them for their mission. The woman in the medical center with Tony was proof of that. She had woken up just a few minutes after being brought to the Tower; she panicked, of course, but once she was talked down she was able to at least give her name; Betsy Braddock. Clint had been able to look her up, to call her apartment and find out that she was behind several months of payments. It seemed like she had just been picked up randomly, despite the fact that she had a life; a family, even. Pepper Potts had taken over from there, getting in contact with the woman’s real estate agent and family members to arrange for her to be taken home. So yeah. There was a valid reason for the mission.
But they were still just kids. They could have been hurt.
He had almost been fooled for a bit there. The strong, leaderly voice Scott put on, the burning trucks around them, the men knocked out in the dirt… but then Scott’s visor was off, and in those seconds of unfiltered power Clint saw it. The transformation from Cyclops, the leader of the X-Men, to Scott Summers… he was just a fourteen-year-old boy. A kid with the weight of the world on his shoulders, a kid who could level buildings with just a look. A kid who had been trained to fight for a world that hated and feared him, just for what he was…
“What am I supposed to do, Tasha?” His voice was small, so much smaller than he would have liked, but he could hardly care. He just felt exhausted, guilty, horrible for everything… and completely, utterly, totally out of his depth. As per usual.
Natasha was quiet for a moment. “Moria hasn’t found anything yet, has she?”
“No.” Clint had already checked his email four times since getting back. It was useless, he knew. Her last message told him that it could be months before she found anything remotely fitting. It had hardly been two weeks.
“And you’re still set on keeping them here.”
It took Clint a moment to respond. “Yes. Yeah. Maybe… yes . I can’t… I don’t think—“
“So yes.” Natasha saved him from the embarrassment of attempting to put his scrambled thoughts in order, much to his relief. Now was the moment that he was the least sure about keeping the kids in the tower… but it was also the time he was the most sure. Seeing what they could do, what could be done to them… at least with them here, in the tower, he could keep an eye on them. But they deserved better than him, didn’t they? Wasn’t tonight proof of that? But then, wasn’t it also proof that there were much, much worse possibilities?
It was a mess. All of it was a mess, and Clint felt responsible for helping create it.
“They’re just kids,” he found himself saying. The words were hushed, ragged, and his voice caught as he breathed them out. They were also true, painfully true. The winged hero that had flown above the fires was a kid. The blue devil that had choked a man with his tail was a kid. The masked girl that had directed her team to the woman that needed help was a kid. The unmasked leader that had destroyed had put Tony Stark in the hospital with just a glance and then had crouched, screaming, in the dirt… he was a kid . “They’re just kids .”
“I think…” Natasha’s voice was slow, pondering, and it sliced through the whirlwind that was Clint’s mind. “…It sounds like they’ve had a lot of experience with being told what their role is. They’ve been told who they should be.”
“You think?” Clint barely bit back a groan, his fingers digging into the roots of his scalp as he stared at the tile floor. This is what he trained us to do… what did that even mean ? What did Xavier do to train these kids? What did he tell them to make them fight like this? “Who let him adopt? How many people just overlooked this?”
How many people didn’t care ?
Natasha’s gaze weighed heavily in his back. “I think what they need is a good influence.”
Clint snorted. “Yeah. Let me know if you can find one.”
“I am.”
Clint snorted again. Natasha’s gaze was still burning into his side, heavy and focused. It took him a second to look at her, to see just how sharp her gaze was, the way it was boring into him with an intense determination. He blinked.
“What? You can’t seriously mean me, Nat.” She shrugged. “Come on. You know me. I’m the worst influence. I’m a mess, I can hardly take care of myself, let alone… I’d probably just make it worse—“
“You didn’t make it worse for me.”
That shut him up for a moment. “Tasha, that… no, that’s different, you’re different…”
“I was just like these kids, Clint.” To anyone else, Natasha’s voice would sound the exact same as ever. But Clint had known her long enough. He could hear the tiny tremor in her voice, so subtle that it was hardly there. The tiny detail that showed just how serious, just how emotional she was, and somehow helped to make her words even more firm. “I know what they’re feeling. And I know just how much changed when a certain archer reached out to me for the first time.”
Clint didn’t know what to say. It didn’t make sense to him. He could barely take care of himself… what was he supposed to do with six kids? Six messed up, brainwashed, mutant kids?
They were supposed to stay here. He was supposed to find them someplace better. That was it. He had already tried reaching out, and it had failed .
But Natasha’s gaze was still on him, and Clint was beginning to wonder if she had a point. Maybe just coexisting in the Tower with the kids was doing more harm than good.
“They’re going to be here for a while,” Natasha pointed out. Her hand settled on Clint’s shoulder, and she gave him a gentle squeeze before continuing. “Just spend time with them. Reach out. You never know what impact you’ll have.”
Clint sighed, his hands tangled in his hair. “You really think that’s a good idea?”
“I don’t think.” She caught his eye one more time, her gaze burning with intensity. “I know.”
Notes:
BREAKING NEWS: CLINT IS STARTING TO GET WITH THE PROGRAM!! Bonding is ahead!! Also, Natasha being a good bro points.
I hope the Betsy cameo wasn’t too disappointing, a couple of people called it last chapter but I honestly did not know how to write her so she really just acted as a come-and-go plot device that probably opens up a lot of plot holes in the story but shhh please pretend you don’t see those so we can have family bonding moments in the coming chapters
Betting pool: who’s going to be damaged more by Tony’s injuries, Tony or Scott? :)
Chapter 29: For Everyone's Safety... talk
Summary:
The kids stared at him; the younger three looked excited and hopeful, but the older kids were suspicious. Warren’s face was drawn tight and unrevealing, Rouge was glaring at him from beneath her white bangs, and Scott… yeah, Scott definitely didn’t believe him. And honestly, Clint couldn’t blame him.
But he did need to convince him.
Notes:
Whoa, we're halfway through the fic! That's crazy!! Thank y'all for sticking around so far, if you've read this far that's INSANE!
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Chapter Text
Be a good influence. Yeah right. Like Clint Barton knew how to do that. He was the worst influence, he had to be. He hardly knew how to take care of himself . He was an absolute mess, definitely the worst Avenger… why was he the one who found the kids? Why couldn’t it have been someone responsible like Steve or Natasha? It should have been Natasha. She would be so much better at this than him, no matter how much she claimed that she was terrible with kids. But no, he had found them. This was his responsibility.
And she was right. Someone had to do something to help these kids.
He knew he couldn’t stall forever, as much as part of him wanted to. He waited until he got the assurance that Tony was alright— four broken ribs, a concussion, and a punctured lung, but alright— and then, after being told he couldn’t see his friend yet at least four times, headed up to the thirteenth floor. He did not want to talk to the kids right now. All he wanted was to drink a whole pot of coffee or collapse in bed. Maybe even both. But Natasha was right. Having the kids in the tower would mean nothing if no one was putting forth the effort to check in with them.
So there he was, putting forth the effort.
Oh man, he hoped this wasn’t a horrible idea.
The elevator slowed, and then after a moment the doors slid open. Clint took a deep, steadying breath, and stepped out.
The kids were gathered in the living area, all six of them. It was a familiar scene, reminiscent of the one or maybe two times that Clint had come down to check on them. But this time they weren’t playing games and hanging out like they had been in the past. There was no competitive screaming or playful banter this time. Instead there was a sort of tension hanging over the space, a soberness as six sets of eyes turned to watch Clint enter the room.
“Hey guys,” he started. Wow. That was lame. Great start, Barton. He inhaled softly, taking in the scene a bit more fully as he did. The kids were standing in the middle of the room; well, Sean was mostly standing. He kept sitting on the couch, then popping up, then sitting back down as if he couldn’t decide whether to sit or stand. Each movement made him wince, but he just moved again. Kitty was crouched on the ground, meticulously building a house of cards with the Uno deck. The house definitely should have fallen down by now; luckily, its rickety structure was being supported by the spaded tip of a blue tail that was connected to a little boy trying very hard to not look like he was helping.
The younger kids were a somewhat silly sight, and Clint couldn’t help the smile that pulled at the corners of his mouth. Then his eyes caught on the oddly-familiar sight of pillowcases piled in the corner, and he frowned.
“What’s all that?”
“We went ahead and packed.” Scott’s voice was rough, thick with the sound of sandpaper and gravel. As far as Clint could remember, the boy hadn’t said a word since they had gotten back to the Tower, and hardly anything at all since his visor had come off; a visor that was now solidly secured in place, to Clint’s almost shameful relief.
“Packed?” Confusion clung to Clint’s voice, and he shook his head. “What for, we…”
He trailed off as he was speaking. Oh. Oh. That’s why the room seemed so hollow and lifeless. That’s why the kids weren’t playing games. That’s why Kitty was sniffing ever so slightly, and why Sean wouldn’t meet his eyes as he fidgeted numbly with the hem of his shirt.
They didn’t… did they actually think he was going to ship them off, just like that?
“No, guys, you’re not going anywhere.” Clint shook his head firmly, hoping they could hear just how serious he was. “I, I mean yes, this is supposed to be temporary, but… no, no, you’re staying here. For now. Until I can find a better solution, but…”
“Wait a sec,” Sean spoke up, cocking his head a bit with his green eyes wide. He was on his feet again, his leg trembling slightly with the effort of standing. “You’re not kicking us out?”
Warren nudged the younger boy sharply, but Clint was already shaking his head even more forcefully. “Of course not.”
“Don’t lie to us,” Scott’s voice was practically dripping with doubt and distrust. But it also sounded rough, hoarse. Nothing like the leader that Clint had talked to a few hours prior, before his visor fell off and…
Clint shoved those memories to the side. They weren’t helping anyone.
“I’m not lying,” He said forcefully. Truthfully . He almost felt a flash of regret for checking his email with Moira so many times. These kids were expecting to be abandoned. That wasn’t right, it wasn’t right at all. “You six are staying here. As long as you need to, at least.”
The kids stared at him; the younger three, Kitty and Sean mostly, looked excited and hopeful. But the older kids were suspicious, to say the least. Warren’s face was drawn tight and unrevealing, Rouge was glaring at him from beneath her white bangs, and Scott… yeah, Scott definitely didn’t believe him. And honestly, Clint couldn’t blame him.
But he did need to convince him.
He stood awkwardly for a second, then kind of crouched so he would be at their eye level. But that was even worse, so he just sat on the floor with a huff. Thankfully, the kids followed his lead, sitting in a sort of semi circle a few paces away from him. Scott was the last to sit, his brow creased and his fists loosely clenched.
Clint let out a sigh, running his hand through his hair once before looking evenly at the kids. “Look… I’m going to be honest with you guys. Alright?” He waited until he got a few nods. “I'm probably not the best person for this job. Probably not even the best Avenger… for this or anything else, honestly.”
“You said you’re the coolest Avenger!” Sean blurted out. He waved his hand toward Kurt, who ducked his hooded head in embarrassment. “Tha’s what Kurt told me!”
Despite himself, Clint chuckled. “Maybe. I guess sometimes I am. It depends on the day.” He shook his head lightly with another half snort, half laugh rumbling in his throat. “I don’t feel very cool today, that’s for sure.”
“How come Mr. Barton?” Kitty blinked up at him with wide, innocent brown eyes.
“Well…” he said slowly. “I don’t feel cool because…” he hesitated, trying to decide how to word his thoughts. “…there’s these really cool people, right? And I found out about them, and I wanted to be friends with them.”
Kitty and Kurt giggled, and Clint saw Warren roll his eyes, but he continued. “But I’ve been kind of a jerk to these people. I wasn’t spending any time with them, I wasn’t trying hard enough to help them, and then suddenly I found out that they could have gotten hurt. So I got scared.”
He turned his attention to the older three, watching them closely and trying to channel Natasha’s firm, honest intensity. “I want you here. All of you. I want to get to know you, and I was kind of a jerk with how I went about it.” He made eye contact with Rouge, carefully meeting her glare and hoping that she realized that a lot of this apology was aimed toward her. Even if he didn’t know the story behind why she didn’t want to be called Marie, he still messed up and he wanted to make things right. “I’m going to try to be better now though, alright?”
Was it just him, or did Rouge’s glare soften? He thought so. He hoped so. He let out a soft breath, closing his eyes for a brief second before turning his attention to Scott. “I’m never going to just kick you guys out. But, we do have to work on communication. I can’t jump over your boundaries, I know that… I’m trying to learn that. But you have to talk to me, ok? We have to try and trust each other.”
Scott didn’t reply, but he didn’t outright disagree either. So Clint braced himself and decided to just go for it. “Like your powers. I know you don’t want to talk about them, and I’ve tried not to ask. But I think it’s best for everyone if you just tell me.” He had moved to look at some of the other kids, but now he zeroed back in on Scott. “I don’t blame anyone for what happened tonight. Alright? But it’s for everyone’s safety— ours and yours— that we all know what’s going on.”
Scott held his gaze a moment longer. For a moment he kept up that strong, stubborn air, and Clint was worried that he was going to shut him down. What would he do then, if they literally couldn’t make progress? He had no idea, and the thought scared him. How was he supposed to help the kids if they wouldn’t talk? How was he supposed to avoid another event like tonight?
But then it was like Scott deflated, something inside him gave in, and once again Clint saw a glimpse of the scared little boy he actually was. His fists clenched tighter. “Well, I guess you already know what I can do,” he muttered, dropping his gaze to stare at the ground. “I’m the most dangerous.”
“No, Scott!” Sean interrupted loudly, his wildly curly hair flopping against his skull as he shook his head. “I break stuff with my voice! I’m a lot worse!”
“Don’t flatter yourselves, we all know I’m the worst of us all,” Rouge snapped bitterly. “If anyone should leave—“
“No, Rouge!” Kurt jumped in, his yellow eyes wide and his voice pleading. “We… we all know I scare people. I’m the one that should go, if—“
“No, no , guys,” It took him a moment to catch on, but the moment he did Clint was gesturing wildly, shaking his head as he silenced the argument. “Didn’t you hear what I just said? No one’s leaving. No one’s getting kicked out. Ok? This is just so I know. Just so there’s no more surprises.”
He wanted to add that they weren’t dangerous, to assure them that their powers wouldn’t hurt anyone, but… well, Tony was still in the emergency room. And he still had no idea what half the kids could even do.
No one spoke up. They were all avoiding his gaze, staring at the walls, the ground, anything. Clint waited a moment, watching them quietly until finally he caught the eye of one of them. “Kitty,” he said gently, hoping that his voice was somewhat coaxing. “What’s your power?”
The little girl looked startled, and instantly looked toward Scott for reassurance. When the older boy didn’t object, she looked back at Clint, her finger twisting in a strand of her brunette hair as she spoke. “I… uh… I can walk through walls.”
“Woah,” Clint whistled, not even having to play up the awe he felt. “That is super cool!”
Kitty nodded, a bit more eagerly. “Yeah. I-I mean, I think it is.”
Clint smiled encouragingly, then looked through the other kids. “Sean, what—“
“I’ve got sonic screams!” The little kid burst out before Clint even finished asking. The archer couldn’t help but smile a bit. “I can break stuff with my voice, like glass and stuff!”
“That’s definitely something I need to see in action!” Clint said with a chuckle. “Preferably outside though. I don’t think Tony would like us breaking up his tower.”
The mention of Stark caused a bit of the life to be sucked from the room. But it also gave Clint a chance to look over at Scott— who, if possible, looked even more beaten down. Crap. “Scott, I’ve sort of got an idea so if you don’t want—“
“They’re concussion beams.” His voice was sharp, still rough and raw from the fight earlier. He didn’t look up while speaking, his focus on his clenched fists. “And no, I can’t stop them. Unless I close my eyes. Or wear this thing.” He shrugged in reference to the clunky gold visor over his eyes. “Special metal or something. It stops them. It lets me avoid destroying buildings without going blind.”
Clint could tell that he was trying to keep his voice flat, emotionless, but there was more than one tremor through his short speech. And Clint… well, he was having a hard time finding a response.
He couldn’t stop them. He couldn’t control them. Scott couldn’t open his eyes. Not without destroying something .
“He’s like Superman!” Sean pointed out. Maybe he was trying to relieve the tension, maybe he was just speaking his mind. “But, like, he doesn’t burn stuff so much as he just throws it back, y’know?” He swept out his arm to indicate the motion as Scott snorted humorlessly.
“Yeah,” he muttered darkly. “Like Superman.”
It was obvious that he did not feel super, and Clint couldn’t even think of a response.
“Mine’s pretty obvious,” Warren cut in before Clint could say anything. The oldest boy shrugged tightly, a small smirk on his face as he spoke. “Just thought I’d get it out of the way.”
“Yeah, about yours,” Clint said, deciding to take the chance to get the focus off of Scott. He nodded to Warren, who— despite his claim that his mutation was obvious— was quite notably missing his wings. He looked like any average teenager; tall, lanky, pretty normal. “You never told me how they work. Are they retractable, or…”
Warren chuckled, though it seemed more dry than his earlier words. He shifted, turning slightly so that Clint could see more of his back, then lifted a portion of the pale blue shirt he was wearing. Clint caught sight of a flash of feathers and what looked to be some sort of leather-and-metal straps. “I’ve got this harness thing. Keeps ‘em under wraps, if you know what I mean.”
Clint blinked. No wonder Warren’s movements always seemed so stiff and restricted. “That… that looks pretty uncomfortable.”
Warren gave another tight shrug as he turned back around. “I’m used to it.”
“Well, don’t feel like you have to wear it,” Clint said quickly. “If you don’t want to, at least. Come on, one of our guys is the Hulk, no one’s going to care about a pair of wings.”
Warren shrugged again, and Clint couldn’t really get a read on how he felt. So he turned his attention to the other physically mutated kid. “You too, Kurt. You don’t have to try and hide how you look. I’ll punch anyone that makes fun of you.”
Kurt giggled, sheepishly tugging down the hood he had been wearing. “I can teleport too!”
It took a second for Clint to register that statement, and he grinned. He hadn’t expected Kurt to offer up any other sort of power, but he was kind of glad to hear that the kid had something going for him other than his… unique looks. “Really?”
“Yeah! Not very far yet, but I’m working on it!”
“Good to hear!” Clint said with a smile. Then he caught the gaze of the last kid. Everyone else, he had at least an idea of what they could do before this; Kitty’s powers were somewhat shown in the security footage, he had theories about Sean based on the broken windows at the institute, and the other three… well, besides some fuzzy details, they made theirs pretty obvious. But Rouge… he hadn’t seen a single thing about her that made her “ mutant” .
“Rouge? What about you?”
The girl stiffened. Her green eyes dropped to look at the floor, avoiding Clint’s gaze. “I…” she said slowly, her arms crossed as she spoke. “I hurt people, that’s what I do.”
Clint and Kurt both made noises of protest at the same time.
“It’s true and you know it,” she said sharply, her words directed to the little blue kid next to her. Then she sighed deeply. “I can’t touch people. I take their life force, their energy… I can use other people’s powers an’ such, but… it hurts them. And I can’t turn it off.”
Wow. The words sunk in and left Clint reeling. He thought it was bad that Scott couldn’t see without his visor. This girl couldn’t be touched… No wonder she was always wearing long sleeves, always standing away from the group. The trail of coma patients on her CPS files… How long had her mutation been active? How long had it been since she had physically touched another person?
Clint almost didn’t want to know the answer to those questions.
The tension was heavy in the air. The kids were watching him suspiciously, guardedly. Crud. Did they still think he was going to get rid of them? Try to kick them out for their powers or something? Who put that idea into their heads? Foster parents? Xavier? Both?
“Great,” he let out a breath, forcing down his feelings of… well, he didn’t know exactly what he was feeling. There was a whole mix of emotions churning in his gut, most too complicated to even attempt thinking about right now. He glanced over toward the kitchenette, where a clock glowed against the stovetop. 11:38. Wow, it was getting late. When did these kids usually go to sleep? Should he start enforcing a bedtime?
One step at a time, Barton . He was hungry, very hungry. That meant the kids probably were too. That would be step one. Step two would be getting all their packed up stuff put a way, to help solidify the fact that they were staying, for now. Step three… well, the fact that he had two steps already was impressive enough. He’d make up step three later.
For now, he had to find some food that wouldn’t be as much of a disaster as pancakes.
Notes:
GUYS THEY'RE TALKING, THEY'RE MAKING PROGRESS!
We're about to dive headlong into like a 20-chapter Bonding arc, so I hope y'all are ready for a lot of fluff, angst, and (FINALLY) some understanding! :D This might be a good spot to take a break if you're reading this as a completed fic! Go drink some water! <3
Chapter 30: Plans and Progress
Summary:
That’s perfect. I want to run the plans for the day by you first.”
Scott frowned, shifting a bit in his seat on the couch as Clint sat on the edge of the coffee table in front of him. “Plans?”
“Yeah. And before you shut it down—“ Clint interjected quickly. “Know that I’m giving you the choice, ok? We’ll do what you want to do.”
That took Scott back another level.
Notes:
Haha, that word count is getting pretty big, huh? Well I hope you're prepared for it to keep going up because we're moving into the bonding arc! :D
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This was it. Scott was sure of it. He didn’t care what Clint Barton said; he knew when he was defeated. He knew when the adults were going to want to take charge of the situation. He could feel it, feel himself teetering on the edge, just waiting for his whole life to be ripped away. Again.
And yet, for some reason, Clint insisted on helping them unpack their belongings— belongings that probably seemed pretty meager, based on his raised eyebrows.
“You guys each have, like, three outfits.”
“Yeah.” Scott shrugged as he shoved Sean’s shirts back into the dresser he had been using. “We do a lot of laundry.”
The archer hesitated at that. “You guys have been doing your own laundry?”
Scott shrugged again. “There’s a washer and dryer in the kitchen, isn’t there?”
Clint made a little hum that led Scott to believe that he didn’t even know about the appliances. He wanted to be able to find humor in that, but… well, humor was hard for him to grasp at the moment. He was too busy waiting. He was waiting for the bomb to drop. He was waiting for the shoe to fall. He was waiting for the inevitable certainty that always came with his powers getting out of control.
But after eating food— Clint could make decent scrambled eggs, especially with Rouge adding pointers— and heading to bed— not that Scott would sleep much at all, but the younger ones were practically dead on their feet— and waking up in the morning, Scott began to realize a pretty big, pretty important thing.
They were still in the tower.
He was waiting for it. He was waiting for the moment that CPS or SHIELD officials— he honestly wasn’t sure which was more likely at this point— would walk into the tower and take him and his siblings away. He had spent half the night lying awake, tossing and turning on the couch in the front room as he tried to make a plan for how to keep his family together. He was sure it was coming. How couldn’t it be, with how he lost control? Any chance of the Avengers letting them stay any longer was gone. It had to be.
But instead of SHIELD bursting out of the elevator in the morning, Scott was greeted by Clint’s smiling face.
“Hey Scott,” Clint waved his hand in a sort of half-salute, a wiry grin on his face. “Sleep well?”
Scott gave him an unamused frown, but muttered a quick “fine”. If Clint noticed the slight tinge of sarcasm, or the way Scott’s hair was probably a mess from tossing and turning, he didn’t say anything. Instead he glanced around the empty space.
“Is anyone else up yet?”
Scott hesitated, but slowly nodded. He knew the others were up; he could hear them even from his spot on the couch, though he hadn’t bothered to move yet; he wanted to be there, ready and on the front lines the moment that the ax fell. He was his family’s only defense; he had to be ready.
“What are they up to?”
Again he hesitated, a bit longer this time. Not that there was really any use; he was beaten. “Kitty and Sean are hanging in their room, Warren’s probably doing his workout, Rouge’s just chilling, and Kurt’s still asleep.”
Clint quirked an eyebrow. “It’s almost ten, isn’t it?”
Scott shrugged. “Kurt sleeps late.”
“Hey, I don’t blame him. If I had a choice, I would probably still be in bed too.” Clint grinned to himself, then rubbed his hands together. “That’s perfect. I want to run the plans for the day by you first.”
That sounded ominous. Scott frowned, shifting a bit in his seat on the couch as Clint sat on the edge of the coffee table in front of him. “Plans?”
“Yeah. Basically, I was thinking, well, since it didn’t look like you guys had much stuff when we were unpacking last night,” Clint looked genuinely excited, though Scott was genuinely confused so far. “I thought maybe we could go on a shopping trip today. You know? To get you guys some clothes that— no offense— fit?”
Scott blinked. Then he blinked again, his red vision flickering in and out with the movement. Shopping? Clint Barton, Hawkeye, the Avenger, was thinking about taking them, the X-Men, the people who had just put his teammate in the hospital… shopping?
“And before you shut it down—“ Clint interjected quickly. “Know that I’m giving you the choice, ok? We’ll do what you want to do.”
That took Scott back another level. He blinked again. He did not trust himself to speak.
“Basically there are three main choices.” Clint held up one finger. “One, we all go to the mall and have a shopping day. Right? Fun, friendly, admittedly somewhat cheap because I’m not made of money, but cool. And we’d get food after or before, something fun like that.” He put up a second finger before Scott could protest. “ But I know, there’s problems with that. I can think right off the top of my head two big reasons why that wouldn’t work too well.”
Kurt and Rogue . Neither of them had to say it out loud.
“So option two is we could leave them here while the rest of us go out, and they can pick some stuff out online. But I don’t really like the ide of separating you lot, and I’m sure you like it even less than I do.” Clint put up a third finger. “So, of course, there’s option three. We all stay here, and we all order stuff offline. We could get some takeout, eat it here, make a day of it. Not quite as fun, but if it makes you feel safer, then… we’ll do it.” He dropped his hand to his side and shrugged. “Or, of course, there’s the unofficial option four. None of the above. But please, don’t choose that one. Again, no offense, but you guys need some new clothes, and I don’t think Captain America’s hand-me-downs would fit any of you.”
Scott stared at the man, who had fallen silent and was waiting for him. Even after almost a full minute, he was still waiting. He was just waiting for… for Scott’s choice? This had to be a trick. Or a test. Or something. Scott didn’t trust it. He didn’t trust any of it.
“Which one do you want?” Scott asked slowly, testing the waters. There was always something that the adults wanted. He wasn’t stupid enough to think otherwise.
Clint shook his head. “I told you I’d be honest with you Scott, so I am. I don’t care which you choose.”
“We don’t have enough money.” Scott had counted their stash while he laid awake in the night. They had a bit under a hundred dollars. That needed to be for emergencies only.
“I told you. It’s on me.”
Scott frowned deeper. “And what if we don’t want to do it at all?”
Clint shrugged. “Like I said, I don’t like that option, because then you guys are still going to be wearing the same three pairs of clothes each. They’re already worn out Scott, I’m shocked some of them aren’t falling apart. But if you honestly, truly don’t trust me enough…”
He trailed off, but Scott got the picture. It sounded like Clint really did want to help. But it always sounded that way at first.
But… they could use some new clothes. There was practicality behind agreeing.
There was no way they were going to be separated. And Scott did not like the idea of taking Kurt and Rogue out in public. He met Clint’s eyes, still frowning as he did.
“Online.”
Clint‘a smile didn’t waver. If anything, it got bigger. “That’s awesome, Nat’s a wiz with online coupons and such. Not that it’s a necessity or anything, but hey, a few dollars off is always nice.”
Scott waited, but there was no “ but… ”. No protest, no change of plans from Clint. Even as he kept talking, brainstorming how the day could go, he didn’t once beret Sott for his choice… something that sent Scott reeling in more ways than one. Clint had actually listened. He hadn’t changed the choice or even told him why he was wrong, even though Scott was sure he would prefer to be out of the tower. He hadn’t done anything .
What kind of test was this?
“That brings us to a more important question,” Clint had pulled out his phone, flicking through something before looking back up at Scott. “There’s a lot of food-delivery options in New York. Got any preferences?”
Scott shook his head honestly.
“Are you just saying that?”
He shook his head again. Food was food. He had no preference.
“Well, what about everyone else?” Clint asked.
“They would probably care,” Scott said slowly. “But if you ask them all to try and make a decision, it’ll probably be lunchtime before they can figure it out.”
Clint let out a laugh, and despite himself Scott felt his lips twitch in a smile. “Don’t worry, the team does the exact same thing. We can’t decide on anything together… saving the world is a piece of cake, but ask us to figure out a movie for movie night—”
Just like that Scott’s tiny smile disappeared. The team . The Avengers. Tony Stark. The man he put in the hospital… He felt his fists clenching involuntarily, his breathing sharpening as he tried to stay steady. He had to ask. He didn’t want to, but… he had to. He had to take responsibility for his actions. He had to take responsibility for the consequences, and he wanted to know what those consequences would be for. He had to know. “How… how’s Stark?”
He almost winced at how weak and quiet his voice sounded. But he couldn’t force it to be any firmer. At least it was steady, unlike how he felt. The distinct need to throw up was back in his mouth.
Clint was staring at him with a complicated look on his face. “He’s fine, Scott.” Yeah right. Scott couldn’t believe that. “Hey, look at me.” He hesitated, but after a moment looked up to meet Clint’s eyes. “He’s alright. You don’t have to beat yourself up about it, ok?”
“How bad is it?” Part of him was scared to ask, but he knew he had to. He didn’t deserve to be scared about that. He had to know ; he had to know how much damage he had caused.
Clint let out a slow, deep breath. “Are you sure I should tell you?”
Scott gave him a firm, solid nod. “Don’t hold any of it back.” He waited a moment, then added a quiet “please.”
Clint looked unsure, but he nodded. “He’s awake now. I was able to talk to him last night.”
He was awake. Good . That meant he really was alive. The relief of the matter settled on Scott for just a moment, and he was able to breathe.
“He’s got four broken ribs, I think. One punctured his lung, but they got that patched up quick. He’s just upset that he can’t talk nonstop at the moment.” Clint let out a little huff of amusement that Scott couldn’t feel. “Apart from that just a concussion and a bruised ego. I’ll admit… you did some damage, Scott. But I’ve seen Tony walk away from a heck of a lot worse.”
Scott’s breathing was shallow. It was bad. Of course it was. It was always bad.
But somehow, he believed Clint. There was something about the tone of his voice, something about the sincerity in his eyes… he was being honest with Scott. He wasn’t holding anything back.
Listening to Clint made him believe it would be ok. Or maybe that was just what he wanted to believe.
He shoved those thoughts away as quickly and ferociously as he could. He didn’t trust Clint Barton. Not for a moment. He couldn’t trust Clint Barton, and he couldn’t let himself want to either… but he had to work with the man. He seemed to be keeping his promise, for now. Scott didn’t want to upset that. He didn’t want to risk the small, miraculous time that they were getting. So, instead of voicing his distrust, he crossed his arms and glanced toward the hallway with the bedrooms. “Should I get the others up?”
Clint nodded, leaning back a little as he let out a huff of air. “Sounds good to me. But we’ll have to be careful not to start World War III over where to get food. A plate of scrambled eggs can make a shockingly formidable weapon.”
Scott didn’t laugh this time. He just nodded, stood up, and headed to the rooms to gather his siblings.
Clint was being nice. But anybody could be nice. That didn’t mean they were trustworthy.
Scott couldn’t let his guard down. Not now, not ever.
Notes:
Well, Clint's starting to get it... now how long will Scott take?
Every single time I read a foster care AU/adoption AU or anything along those lines, there is ALWAYS a shopping chapter. I swear it's like, a staple of these fics... so we're getting that on Monday! XD It was bound to happen eventually, these children need some stuff!
Hope y'all enjoyed this chapter! And hey, if you're reading this as a complete fic and ignored the break advisement at the end of the last one (don't lie to me I know at least one of you did) then stop, take a break, go get some water or do some homework or whatever it is you're putting off. I know your type, don't ignore irl too much! ;)
Chapter 31: Your Choice
Summary:
These were orphaned, abandoned kids. He was offering them choices.
Somehow Clint Barton always managed to do just the right thing, usually without even knowing he did it.
Notes:
This chapter somehow feels really short but also pretty long at the same time so I'm just going to go with it. It's the obligatory shopping chapter!! Hope you guys enjoy!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Despite the fact that she had been supporting Clint since the moment he started looking into the X-Men, Natasha had hardly spent any time with the kids herself. She had briefly met Scott Summers and Sean Cassidy while the younger was getting his leg bandaged, but apart from that she hadn’t done much with them. She prefered to stay in the background, doing research and background information to help them out. Finding the CPS files for the kids, checking that Moira MacTaggart was actually legitimate, and now looking into Hope Industries… those were all one thing. Those were spy work, work she was used to. Kids? Not so much. She wasn’t good with kids, not in her own mind. It made more sense for her to she stay away.
But if Clint needed help, she would always be there, even if it was a somewhat funny request. Online shopping? Honestly not the strangest thing he had ever asked for. And at least he seemed to be taking her advice to get closer to the kids seriously… for once.
Besides, the whole “shopping” thing was actually brilliant, though of course she didn’t plan to tell him that. Buying things could make something feel permanent, like how a new house feels like home once you move in the first piece of furniture. And while going out and buying a handful of clothes was one thing, Clint was consulting the kids. They were picking them out. That choice held power that Clint couldn’t know.
She would never admit it to him, but she still remembered the first day he took her shopping. It was months after she defected from the Red Room. Months after she joined SHIELD. Weeks after Budapest. Clint hadn’t thought anything of it when she stepped away to purchase the small, silver-chained arrow necklace. He had just teased her when he saw the design.
He would never know that was her first free-will purchase, the first one that wasn’t entirely driven by survival. He would never know just how much it impacted her. He would never know the feeling of that first choice.
These were orphaned, abandoned kids. He was offering them choices.
Somehow Clint Barton always managed to do just the right thing, usually without even knowing he did it.
“So… I’m guessing this isn’t coming out of Tony’s account?”
Clint winced, and glanced toward the bedroom hallway. The six kids were just now starting to emerge and migrate into the main room; the tallest boy, Warren, was in the kitchen with the red-haired girl— Rogue, apparently, Clint had warned Natasha not to use her given name— where they were both helping to divvy out the breakfast items. Kitty Pryde and Sean Cassidy leaned over to watch as they worked, and both of the younger kids would occasionally shout out directions or suggestions about sauces and who should get more nuggets; Chick-Fil-A had been the food choice consensus after some tribulus voting. Scott Summers was still in the other room, busy waking up Kurt. That was probably who Clint was looking for… if Natasha had to guess, Tony Stark would be a touchy subject to the boy who had put him in the hospital.
“Of course not. I got to talk to him last night, I definitely wasn’t about to ask if I could raid his wallet to help house the kids that…”
He trailed off, and Natasha hummed, propping her chin up with her elbow against the couch’s armrest. “Does he blame them?”
“No… I don’t think so. He gets that it was an accident… I hope.” Clint glanced up again. Scott Summers was still nowhere to be seen. “Scott does, though. Blame himself, I mean.”
Natasha hummed a second time. She wasn’t surprised. Scott was a fourteen-year-old kid trying to take on the responsibility of caring for five others, plus being a superhero. Of course he would blame himself.
“This isn’t going to be cheap, you know.”
Clint nodded with another wince. “It’s gonna be a hard one to explain to Laura, for sure.”
“Not if you told her why.”
Clint let out a dry laugh. “One step at a time, Tasha. I don’t think either of us are ready for that.”
Natasha pursed her lips, but didn’t respond. Maybe Clint was right, that it would be better for his barren wife to not be around kids. Maybe he was wrong, and it was just what she needed.
But she would stay out of it. For now, at least. It was his decision to make, and she wouldn’t rush him.
As they were speaking, two more figures joined the others in the kitchen area; Scott Summers and Kurt. They were easy to recognize. She had already met Scott when watching Sean get his leg stitched up, and Kurt was a pretty hard one to miss, even if she was just going off of Clint’s descriptions. She didn’t catch sight of his whip-like tail or his oddly shaped fingers and toes, but the hood of his oversized sweatshirt was down and she could see his blue skin as well as his wide, yellow eyes. They blinked curiously in her direction, his head tilted slightly to the side as he nervously watched her. Natasha offered him a small smile, and found herself glad that it seemed to put him more at ease.
Clint let out a soft huff, pushing himself up from the couch as he set his computer aside. Amazon was already pulled up and ready, but obviously food came first. The only thing that took priority to food in Clint Barton’s mind would probably be coffee.
He moved over to help the older three kids divvy out the helpings, and Natasha followed just behind. When Clint had said they got two whole catering platters of nuggets, Natasha had thought he was being a little over the top. Apparently, she was wrong. The kids devoured the food, almost as quickly as Thor would have. Had Bruce said something about enhanced metabolism in mutants? That theory definitely seemed probable based on the kid’s consumption rate. Both nugget trays disappeared within just a few minutes, leaving the kids happier and more relaxed now that they had been fed. Then Clint moved everyone to the living area, where he got his Amazon cart pulled up once again.
“Alright.” Clint rubbed his hands together, an almost boyish look on his face as he turned an excited look toward the kids. “Here’s where we have some fun, and probably light my bank account on fire.”
The kids looked a bit hesitant. Most of them at least— Sean hopped up right away and settled in next to Clint, and Kitty was close behind him. The other four were slower; Rouge sat away from the group at the very edge of the couch, and Kurt curled himself up next to her in an almost cat-like manner. Warren settled himself in the middle of the couch, arms spread across the back as he craned his neck to see the computer screen. Scott stayed standing, his arms crossed and a distinct frown on his face. “Resting-grump-face”, Tony would probably call it. Natasha recognized it as the look of someone distinctly uncomfortable with the safety of their situation; an animal ready to fight their way out of a corner if the need arose.
It was a look she knew well.
“Remember,” Scott muttered, looking toward the other kids as he spoke. “We’re looking for essentials, just in case we stay here longer.”
“Wrong, actually.” Clint held up a finger pointedly. “We’re looking for fun stuff. Essentials, yes, because I’m pretty sure you guys will be here for at least another month, but also I want to get each of you something fun. Just nothing too crazy, like a Stark phone. Alright?”
Scott shook his head. “No. That’s not necessary.”
“Oh, but it’d be fun, Scott!” Sean was bouncing in place, his sandy curls flopping against his forehead as he turned pleading eyes on the older boy. “Come on, please?”
Scott shook his head again, more firmly this time. Clint started to make a noise of protest, but Scott cut him off. “We’re only doing this so we’re not causing a burden on you by living here. We don’t need to be doing this at all.”
Clint and Natasha exchanged a glance. The man shrugged. Good . Scott probably needed to have his opinion heard and accepted. “Alright then. We’ll stick to the essentials. My bank account will thank you for that, at least.”
Sure enough, the boy looked mildly surprised. But the expression was gone in an instant, covered by the clunky old visor over his eyes and the frown on his tight lips. Natasha could see the apprehension and distrustfulness rolling off of him. Rouge looked hesitant as well, and the little blue boy was sticking close to her. But even Warren looked a bit curious, and all six kids leaned in as Clint started pulling stuff up.
They started simple; four packs of black socks, two in a small size and two in large that should cover everyone. Then some simple toiletries; new toothbrushes all around, toothpaste to last a month, that sort of thing. Then they moved onto clothing, which Natasha was sure would end up being the most difficult. After a few unproductive minutes of random clicking in the kids section of Amazon, she gently suggested to Clint that each kid took a turn.
“Yeah, yeah that’s a better way to do it.” Clint turned to the kids, but before he could attempt to select a candidate Sean had his hand up and waving in the air.
“Can I go first? Please, please?”
Clint chuckled. “Alright. Go for it, kid.”
Natasha watched as he shifted the computer toward Sean. The little boy was soon reaching forward and clicking through it as the rest of the kids craned their necks to watch. She couldn’t help but pick up little details; the way his eyes skimmed right over the words, lingering on pictures— he was ten, right? What school level should that place him in?— the way that he was still twitching as he clicked around on the website, the way he would wince once and a while as he shifted and jostled his still-bandaged leg. Her spy-wired brain couldn’t help but pick apart these details, to form questions about the kid… but mostly she noticed the smiles. Not smiles that came from the buying so much— though there was definitely that— but the genuine smiles that came from the kids quietly teasing each other, goading each other on as the computer slowly transferred hands. She noticed how under Clint’s watchful gaze and kind comments, the kids each began to pick out their own styles, their own likes. Sean had a collection of comic-book-like T-shirts in the cart while Kitty had chosen some cute, pink shirts with just enough frill for the younger boys to gag. Rouge opted for more of her band T-Shirts and hoodies, a choice that Kurt followed pretty closely. Warren seemed to have the most fashion sense, all of his chosen outfits carrying the same aethstetic, while Scott was obviously practical with simple, pocket-filled pants and shirts.
Scott was hesitant, to say the least. He watched every move that Clint made with careful defensiveness, his eyes locked behind the red shield of his visor as he glared at the man. He was suspicious, wary, on guard, all of the above. Clint had not been exaggerating. Scott didn’t trust him, let alone her. And yet, as they worked their way to the checkout screen, he stayed quiet. Watching. Waiting. He was letting them make the move.
A smile pulled at Natasha’s lips. Scott Summers may be stubborn, but so was Clint Barton. She knew him, had known him for years, and knew that he had a sort of feeling about him. He was a good man, a man that you wanted to trust, no matter how much you wanted to avoid trust.
He had reached an ex-KGB soldier— a Black Widow, an assassin— and pulled her into the light. He had changed her life no matter how much she pushed back or how much she tried to shut herself off from him. He had still reached her.
She had no doubt that he would be able to reach these misguided kids too.
Notes:
“Here’s where we have some fun, and probably light my bank account on fire.” -- me when I walk into any comic book store and start looking at the X-Men and Hawkeye comics
Also little headcanon in there about Natasha's necklace that she wears in Age of Ultron and such, I hope y'all liked that! I also hope you liked the Avenger POV because the next couple chapters are going to go a bit more in-depth with that... how do the others feel about all of this? I guess we'll see!
Chapter 32: Just a Check-Up
Summary:
With everything that had happened, Bruce knew should feel nervous going to check on the kids. He should be on edge; they had just blasted his best friend into a tree, after all.
But he understood what it was like to have something inside you that you could not control.
Notes:
Hey, I kinda forgot that I wrote this chapter! And I think it's pretty good! Yay! :D
Hope y'all are having a good day/night/ect, enjoy!
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Chapter Text
Bruce rubbed a hand over his eyes, the heat of his coffee mug seeping into his hand as he walked. The first-aid kit in his other hand felt heavier than usual. He was tired, very tired. How much sleep had he gotten over the past three days? Not much. Not much at all.
Tony was… Tony was in rough shape. For a while there… Bruce didn’t want to think about how it was for a while. That alone was enough to cause nights of sleeplessness, but then there was the girl, Betsy Braddock, as well. She was so drugged up that it took her nearly twenty four hours just to regain a semblance of lucidity. Helen Cho took point on helping her, but just the thought of the girl was enough to drive Bruce to work to keep his own memories at bay. And then, of course, there was the thought of Scott Summers. The catalyst of all of this: the mutant kid who had taken down an Avenger with a single miss aimed glance.
He should have told Clint to be more careful with the kids. If anyone should have guessed they could have dangerous abilities, it should have been him. He should have seen this coming.
But he didn’t. No one did.
Bruce sighed softly to himself, rubbing the side of his coffee mug as he took a moment to just stand in the hallway. He had to center himself. To breathe.
The Other Guy was quiet today. Maybe he could sense that this was the kind of stress Bruce Banner had to handle. He seemed to be getting better at that since New York.
Bruce shook his head to himself, then continued on down the hall. Focus on the steps in front of you, Banner . It was like the scientific process, or like solving a chemical equation. Sleeplessness plus coffee equals productivity… except for the fact that biochem was nothing like mechanics. One plus one did not always equal two because biochem felt with living things, not robots. Robots could be programmed. Living things acted on instinct, living things made mistakes.
Mistakes, like putting an Avenger in the emergency room.
Bruce took a slow, measured sip of his coffee. He liked the kids. When he had checked out Sean Cassidy’s leg laceration, it was almost impossible not to smile next to the boy. He shouldn’t have been so surprised. He always liked kids, whether it was the kids he helped out back in Rocinha or New Delhi or his friend’s kids that he would watch from before the… accident. He liked kids a lot. They should make him more nervous, and at first they did. He was terrified that the Other Guy would come out while he was treating some little child, that his heartbeat would rise just a little too fast to be safe. He was terrified that he would hurt them. But somehow with kids, the Other Guy just… didn’t come out as much. It was almost like he somehow liked kids too.
But of course, these weren’t… normal kids. He knew that from the moment Tony burst into his lab ranting about Clint’s latest crazy idea. He had been surprised, nervous, and at first tried to avoid the young mutants… but of course, Sean Cassidy needed help. And once Bruce met the bright, energetic little boy and his tense, stubborn brother… well, he was glad that Clint had brought them in. Even if it was only for a little while.
He hadn’t expected it to take this turn.
With everything that had happened, Bruce knew should feel nervous going to check on the kids. He should be on edge; they had just blasted his best friend into a tree, after all.
But he understood what it was like to have something inside you that you could not control.
His coffee was half drained by the time he got to the elevator. He stepped in, and JARVIS took him down to the thirteenth floor without question. The first aid kit in his hand trembled ever so slightly with the movement of the elevator. He should have checked them out the day of the fight. But he was so preoccupied with… with everything else that it didn’t even cross his mind until this morning. Better late than never, that’s what he kept telling himself. If they were hurt, they were liable to try and hide it. They seemed capable; they might have already tried to handle any injuries themselves. This way he could ensure they were alright, plus he would be able to check that Sean’s stitches had come out fine.
He gulped down the last half of his coffee far too quickly as the doors slid open.
The room was brightly lit with morning sunlight streaming through the floor-to-ceiling windows in the main room. It cast the whole space into an almost golden glow as Bruce stepped awkwardly out of the elevator. He hadn’t actually been down to this level yet, and he took a moment to orient himself— living area on the left, kitchenette on the right, a hallway that presumably led to bedrooms straight ahead— before even noticing the lack of people in the room. The whole main space was empty, and for a moment he felt a flash of worry. But then he heard the sound of laughter from down the hall, and he cautiously ventured forward.
There were four doors, two on each side of the wide hallway, and the sounds seemed to be coming from the first door on the left. It was only about seventy-five percent closed, and he could see movement inside. Bruce hesitated a moment, then gently knocked on the wall next to the door. The noises came to a halt, and Bruce felt a flash of uncertainty. Maybe this was a bad idea . These kids hardly knew him, and from what Clint had said they were skittish as squirrels, and that was before the whole accident. He didn’t want to startle them, or scare them, or anything of the sort and showing up unannounced, without Clint could easily accomplish any number of those things…
His heart rate was rising slightly, and he was immensely thankful that the Other Guy stayed silent.
Then the door opened, and Clint Barton stepped out.
“Bruce!” The archer grinned in surprise. He stepped farther out into the hallway, but didn’t close the door all the way behind him. “What are you doing here?”
It took Bruce a moment to gather his thoughts, relief flooding him at the sight of his friend. “Clint. I-I didn’t know you’d be down here.”
Clint seemed to deflate ever so slightly. He ran his hand through his scruffy hair, his eyes sliding to the door behind him. “Yeah, yeah I know. I haven’t been very good about it. But… I’m trying something new.”
Bruce almost asked what he meant by that, but thought the better of it and just nodded. He raised the first aid kit weakly. “I, uh, I just had the thought that the kids probably hadn’t been, uh, checked out or anything. After the fight.” He winced a little at how uncertain his words sounded. “I’ve been kind of caught up with.. you know. But I thought they should probably be checked over just to be sure, and, uh, better late than never, right?”
“Of course!” Clint’s hand flew to his face, and he shot another glance over his shoulder toward the door before cursing under his breath. “How did I not… yes, yes, please. I didn’t even think to check—“
“Hey, it’s ok,” Bruce said quickly as he watched emotions flicker over his friend’s face. “There’s been a lot going on.”
Clint shook his head, and muttered something else under his breath. Maybe another curse, it was too quick and quiet for Bruce to tell. “I thought to get them new clothes but not to check if they hurt themselves in a literal firefight. I’m an idiot. Absolute idiot.”
Bruce shrugged, though he didn’t contradict the man. “I’m a literal doctor and I didn’t think of it.”
“Come on, let’s… or, actually, just stand here…”
Bruce nodded, though Clint was hardly talking to him at that point. He was mostly muttering to himself, as if he was trying to plan out what it was he was doing before he nodded to himself and pushed the door open all the way.
Now Bruce could see the whole room. He blinked. Clint had told him that there were six kids, but thus far he had only actually met Sean and Scott. Now all six were staring at him, a forgotten game of what looked like Jenga in the center of the room.
“Hey, Sean,” Clint spoke up with a smile. “You remember Dr. Banner?”
Sean Cassidy jumped up from one corner, a wide grin on his face that showed off his gap tooth. He waved a hand in the air. “Hi, Dr. Banner!”
Bruce couldn’t stop the smile that spread to his own face. He gave the boy a small wave in return.
“Dr. Banner is one of our…” Clint glanced at Bruce, as if trying to remember how to introduce him as a normal person instead of “the guy that turns into the Hulk”. Bruce couldn’t decide if that meant the archer needed to spend more time with normal people, or if Bruce spent too much time in the tower. Probably a bit of both. “…Well, one of our doctors. Obviously. He just wanted to come make sure none of you got hurt the other night.”
“We’re fine.” Now that was a voice Bruce recognized well. It only took him a moment to find Scott’s face in the small room. The lanky teen was standing off to the side, his arms crossed tightly across his chest and his brow creased over the golden rim of his clunky visor. Bruce felt a pang in his chest. Somehow the boy looked even more tense than when Bruce had first met him. He wouldn’t have guessed that was possible, and yet here he was. “You don’t need to check anything.”
“Just to be safe, Scott,” Clint said.
“And if not, that’s fine.” Bruce’s voice finally felt steady as he spoke. Obviously it wasn’t fine, they needed to be checked out. Already he could see bruising around the edge of Scott’s visor and a large discoloration on the arm of the tall, blonde boy in the other corner. But he wanted to be cautious about this. “I’m mostly here to look at Sean’s leg. Just to make sure the stitches came out alright.”
“It looks great!” Sean was bouncing forward before Scott Summers had the chance to stop him. The little kid was still limping a bit, but it was almost unnoticeable as he beamed up at Bruce. He lifted his leg, strenuously balancing on one foot as he tried to show Bruce the injury. “See? It looks cool now!”
Bruce chuckled and crouched down to Sean’s level so he could see the injury better. Sure enough, the stitches were gone, a pale scar line in their place. It still looked somewhat raw, but it was completely closed up now and hopefully wouldn’t reopen… well, as long as Sean wasn’t moving around too much. Which, by the look of it, would be hard. He could hardly sit still, and Bruce had barely gotten a decent look at the scar before he was back on his feet, bouncing in place.
“What d'ya think, what d'ya think? Does it look cool? Kitty doesn’t think it looks cool. She said so.”
He motioned vaguely behind him, where a little girl in a ponytail and a purple t-shirt wrinkled her nose. “I did not! I just said it looked, like, gross!”
“That’s basically the same thing as saying it’s not cool!” Sean pouted.
“No, I think they're different.” Another young voice joined the chatter, and Bruce’s gaze was drawn to a boy sitting next to Kitty, a large gray hoodie drawn up so that most of his face was in shadow. Kurt. Bruce’s scientific curiosity perked up at the thought of the physical mutation that Clint had told him about, but he very quickly shoved it down. These were kids, not science experiments. But that thought couldn’t stop him from observing. The range of accents surprised him; Kurt’s was probably German, Sean’s was definitely Irish, Kitty almost had a faint Brooklyn tint to her voice… and then a fourth of the kids spoke up, a red-haired girl that Bruce couldn’t remember being told the name of.
“I dunno, y’all didn’t see at first. That was gross.”
Southern. Very southern. This group of kids had a whole mix of accents and cultures: the most beautiful kind of family.
“We’re talkin’ ‘bout it now Rogue, not whenever.” Sean rolled his eyes. “It’s cool now , right?”
“Well,” Bruce cut in with a soft smile. “I think it looks pretty cool.”
“ Ha! Told ya so!” Sean turned a triumphant gaze on his friends. The little girl, Kitty, stuck her tongue out at him, and he quickly returned the gesture.
Bruce chuckled, hoping that the sound wouldn’t get caught in his throat. He knew they were kids. He knew it. But… they were so young . He had thought Sean was the youngest. But he was ten, and there was no way Kitty was that old. And from what Bruce had heard, she was one of the ones out fighting.
“Kitty?” Bruce said, still crouched on the ground eye level to where Sean was. The little girl looked up at him with wide, curious brown eyes. “Did you get hurt at all the other day?” He could feel other eyes in the room boring into him, so he shot a glance at Scott Summers. Even with the visor, the boy’s gaze burned. “If you don’t mind me asking.”
“I…” Scott had obviously been about to protest again, but then he shot a look at Clint. The boy hesitated. His arms stayed crossed, his fists clenched. Kitty watched him, waiting for his signal. Scott looked down at the ground. “Yeah. Whatever.”
That was enough of an answer for Bruce, no matter how much Scott didn’t like it. He turned his attention to Kitty, who shifted under his gaze.
“I’m, like, totally fine,” she said quickly.
“Are you sure?” Bruce asked, unable to keep the concern out of his voice.
She shrugged. “I-I mean I scraped up my elbow or something, but it’s not, like, bad or anything.”
“Does it hurt at all?”
She shrugged again. “I mean a little, but…”
“Here.” Bruce pulled out his first aid kit and began to rifle through it. Soon he produced a type of neosporin and a box of bandaids. “Want me to put something on it? Just for fun?”
Kitty hesitated, but soon curiosity seemed to get the better of her and she scooted closer. Bruce held up the bandaids with a grin. “I hope you like Avengers. I think Tony gets a discount or something.”
Clint snorted behind him. “You really think Tony Stark would care about a discount? He probably just likes that they have his face on them.”
Kitty giggled at that, and Sean soon trotted over to look at the bandaids as well.
“These are so cool! ” He exclaimed, taking the box from Bruce to better see the bandaids. Kitty craned over his shoulder as best as she could to see them until Sean sat on the floor and began spreading the bandaids out across the carpet. “You’ve got all of ‘em!”
Bruce chuckled. “Yeah, we do.”
“Look!” Sean held up a bandaid, one that had a print of Captain America on it. “He’s the coolest! You should take this one Kitty!”
Bruce exchanged a glance with Clint, and chuckled quietly at the archer’s expression of mock offense. Meanwhile Kitty shook her head, her nose wrinkled.
“Here, here’s Hulk!” Sean bounced up and down, shoving another bandaid at Kitty. He grinned and lowered his voice into what was probably supposed to be a Hulk impression. “Hulk, smash!”
Bruce had to choke back his reaction. He shot a pleading look at Clint. He didn’t really sound like that, did he?
Clint grinned mischievously. “You like Hulk, Sean?”
“Oh yeah!” Sean jumped up so he could bounce on his toes. “Yeah, yeah, the Hulk is so cool! I don’t know, Captain America is awesome but Hulk might be even cooler! I wanna meet him!”
Clint grinned at Bruce, who’s face had started to flush red. “Maybe not a good idea,” he said with a soft, slightly strained chuckle.
Sean shook his head. “Hulk’s a cool guy,” He said stubbornly. “He saves people, he saved a bunch of ‘em in New York ‘n stuff. Even if he does smash a lotta stuff, I bet he’s pretty awesome.”
Bruce could feel something in the back of his mind. A presence. He was quiet, but he was there. It almost felt like he was smiling.
Bruce echoed the smile on his own face. Sorry, Big Guy , he thought. I guess I doubt you too much .
He could almost hear his grunt of agreement.
“I don’t care, I want this one.” Kitty‘s words shook Bruce out of his silent thoughts. She pulled out a purple bandaid, then rolled up her sleeves to show Bruce the cut. It was a bit more than just a scrape— her elbow had been torn up, probably by gravel based on the shape and size of the abrasion. It had probably been messy the first night, but it looked like it was already on the mend. Bruce just had to hope that it had been properly cleaned and taken care of to avoid any infections. He should have come sooner… but there was no use worrying about that now. He just smiled at Kitty, gently rubbed a bit of ointment on the graze, and then placed the chosen bandaid over as much of the cut as possible. It didn’t nearly cover the whole thing, but it made the little kids grin in excitement. A covering wouldn’t really help at this point anyway; the neosporin should do plenty.
It wasn’t until Bruce had finished treating the wound that he noticed what bandaid it was that Kitty had chosen. The sight made him smile. A Hawkeye print. He shot a grin up at Clint, who looked a bit dumbfounded.
He must have been doing something right these past few days. Most kids went for Iron Man or Captain America.
His eyes traveled from Clint Barton to Scott Summers: the boy who had led the excursion. He was definitely sporting a bruise under his visor, probably a black eye… but then, Bruce had a feeling he wouldn’t be able to do much to help with that. Who else went on the “mission”? Clint had said there were four.
“Does anyone else have something they want me to look at?” Bruce asked hopefully. It didn’t look like any of the kids were banged up too badly. The red head, Rogue, looked untouched and he had a feeling that Sean didn’t go because of his leg. He couldn’t really make a call on Kurt, but the boy didn’t seem to be in pain. It was Scott and the blonde boy— Warren?— who seemed the most battered.
“No. We’re good here.” Scott said definitively.
Bruce’s gaze over again flicked to the bruise on Scott’s face. That one was obvious and visible… but there was probably no way he would get the boy to take the visor off. He didn’t even want to ask. “…are you sure?”
“Yes.”
He glanced over at the blonde boy. “How about you? I can, uh, see that your arm’s bruised…”
The mutant shook his head. “No. No, thanks.”
“Are you—“
“We’re fine, ” Scott snapped. His arms were crossed, so tightly that Bruce was worried he was going to end up with another bruise. But then he looked down at the ground and sighed slowly. “Seriously. We’re fine. But… thank you.”
Bruce was taken aback by the sudden sincerity. It was masked by a thick level of apprehension, but it was there.
He smiled softly at the boy. “You’re welcome.”
Scott didn’t reply. Sean bounced up and down, the Captain America and Hulk bandaids still in his hand. “Can I take these?” He blurted out. “They’re cool!”
Bruce chuckled. “Of course.”
Sean fist pumped the air in triumph, and little Kitty rolled her eyes. Bruce went ahead and stood up, closing up the first aid kit as he did. He waited one more moment, just to see if someone would suddenly volunteer an injury. But no one did, so he gave them one last smile and turned to the door.
Clint set a hand on his shoulder as he left. “Thanks, doc. Seriously.”
Bruce smiled at him. “Call me up if they seem like they are more hurt or anything. Scott and Warren are definitely bruised, but it looks surface-level. I… I hate just leaving, but…”
“—you don’t want to push them.” Clint chuckled, his hand running through his hair. “Yeah, I wish I had figured that out sooner.”
Bruce smiled. “I think you’re doing just fine. Really.” He glanced back to the room behind the archer. “They… they seem to like you.”
Clint rolled his eyes. “You play Uno with someone long enough, they either love or despise you. Not sure which side I’m falling on yet.”
Bruce chuckled. It was true. Some of the kids— Kitty and Sean in particular— they really seemed to like Clint. The others… they seemed more hesitant. But they were all in there. They were all playing a game. They were acting like kids . As someone who had been used for his… condition many times before, he had a feeling that they hadn’t experienced much of a normal childhood. This was good for them.
“I…” He wasn’t really one to give advice about this. Not in any way. “…I think they just need time. Effort.” He gave Clint a smile. “And I think you’re covering that.”
The archer let out a breath. “You know, Natasha said something similar…” he trailed off, then nodded. “Thanks again, Bruce.”
“I mean it. Call any time.” Bruce glanced at the floor. “They… they seem like good kids. They deserve a chance. Thanks for giving it to them.”
Clint huffed. “We’ll see…”
With that he gave Bruce one last nod, and then disappeared back into the room. From the sound of the shouts that soon followed, the Jenga tower had already reached its demise.
Bruce smiled, and the weight of the first aid kit in his hand felt less heavy. His empty coffee cup felt less draining as he turned toward the elevator.
Somehow, he was less tired than he had been.
Notes:
Clint: I'm an absolute idiot
Literally every other Avenger: I mean...Thanks for reading, comments make me smile uncontrollably even if I take a bit to respond! :')
Chapter 33: The Business of Blame
Summary:
This wasn’t a walk-it-off set of injuries like he usually got from their missions. This wasn’t even from a real mission.
The fact that a fourteen-year-old child could cause this sort of damage had been a big portion of Tony’s thoughts over the past five days.
Notes:
Does anyone here like Science Bros? Here, have some Science Bros; it's a treat :)
Also we're finally going to see what Tony thinks about all of this after Scott almost killed him, yay!
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Chapter Text
Being out of commission sucked. Really, really, sucked .
Yeah, it meant that he got out of a few meetings. That was a plus, a big plus. There were conferences with Hope Industries and Worthingtonton Industries on the horizon, and Tony did not feel like attending those after everything that had happened. He still hadn’t yet decided if he would cut all business with Hope yet. There was still research that needed to be done for him to confirm whether or not the kid’s accusations were true, or if maybe the entire “mission” had been a fluke. And if they did have some merit, Worthington was so close to Hope that he wouldn’t be convinced that the two weren’t working together. He would happily leave them up to Pepper for now. But while he was very happy to avoid the meetings, at the same time he hated leaving her to clean up his messes and cover for his absences when she was already working so hard. Plus, while he would be getting back to meetings and the like soon enough, it would be even longer before he could even train with the team again, let alone go out on missions. Recovery was a long and boring process, and being out of commission generally sucked.
Tony Stark was never one to sit around, and being forced into it? That made it even worse.
Like right now. Bruce was glaring at him from behind his wire-rimmed glasses, a stern expression echoing his words of “ you should be resting, Tony ”. It made Tony want to groan and ram his head into a wall just to give himself something to think about other than the nothingness he had been up to for the past week.
“ Relax , Bruce,” Tony insisted, his voice still rough from the punctured lung. He really hoped that wouldn’t last much longer, the rough edges totally threw off his charm. “I’m fine.”
“Tony, you are nowhere near fine,” Bruce deadpanned.
Tony smirked, then continued reaching toward the top cabinet for a coffee cup. “Barton’s right. You really are starting to develop a sense of humor.”
“Tony, I’m not—”
“No, it’s a good thing! I like the whole flat charm you’re working toward, it really—”
He cut off with a sharp gasp, pain raking up his side as he stretched just a bit too far. The coffee cup that had been almost in his hand wobbled dangerously on the edge of the shelf as he buckled, his hands instinctively going to his side. He sucked in another breath as pain washed over him in waves, straight from his ribs.
“Broken ribs take a lot longer than five days to heal.” Suddenly Bruce was beside him, coffee cup in hand. He set it safely on the counter, stern gaze fixated on Tony as the man winced. “I don’t even know how you made it this far, honestly. You shouldn’t be on your feet at all.”
Tony tried for a wiry smirk, but it probably came out as a grimace. “Come on, I’m Tony Stark. Didn’t you hear I’m developing my own mutant powers?”
Bruce gave him an unimpressed frown. Tony didn’t respond; despite his banter, he was nearly doubled over from the pain now. Once his ribs were aggravated, it was like all of his other injuries— the lacerations and bruises from his broken suit, the concussion, the blunt force trauma, all of it— decided to flare up as well.
There was a gentle hand on his shoulder, and Tony unintentionally slumped into it. He could hear Bruce sigh, but his voice was firm. “You're going back to the Med Bay, Tony, or I’m calling Pepper.”
Tony groaned, but didn’t put up a fight as his friend began dragging him away. He did, however, toss one longing look over his shoulder at the coffee station. “Coffee?”
“Nope. You know the deal— coffee doesn’t mix with pain medications.”
Tony groaned again. He knew he should be thanking Bruce: the man had been by his side nonstop for the past five days to make sure he didn’t do anything stupid. But it just sucked that he couldn’t do anything . Usually when he was injured on a mission it was a broken arm, or a concussion, some particularly deep cuts, things of that sort. Then it was nothing but a hindrance; usually a very annoying hindrance, but he could still do things. Usually he could still go down to the lab, or slip into meetings, or at least coach the team through whatever exercises they were doing.
But this wasn’t a walk-it-off set of injuries like he usually got from their missions. This wasn’t even from a real mission .
The fact that a fourteen-year-old child could cause this sort of damage had been a big portion of Tony’s thoughts over the past five days.
This coffee station was on the same floor as the Med Bay— Tony had made sure of that after the amount of times he and the team ended up here at unreasonable times of night— so it didn’t take long for Bruce to usher him back to the prison that was his recovery room. Tony made sure to be over-dramatic about it, collapsing into the chair with a great sigh as Bruce helped him in. That was a bad idea though; he instantly winced as his expanding chest shifted his still-broken ribs and sent another wave of pain through his body. He gritted his teeth and leaned his head back.
“This sucks.”
“It will suck less if you actually stay here and rest,” Bruce pointed out. As he was speaking he reached up into one of the cabinets and pulled down a bottle of what Tony quickly recognized as painkillers. He gratefully took them when the doctor offered, and the pills slid down his throat easily with the help of some metallic tasting tap water that Tony wrinkled his nose at.
“You know I’m not good at that, green bean.”
Bruce rolled his eyes. “Hence why it takes you twice as long to heal.”
“Not true.” Tony pointed a finger at Bruce. “Everyone else has speed healing. I just heal normally.”
Bruce raised an eyebrow. “Steve and Thor, yes, but Clint and Natasha?”
“Clint has to be hiding some sort of secret healing power.” Tony took another sip of bad tap water. “Have you seen how much he gets his butt kicked? No way does he recover normally.”
Bruce snorted.
“And Natasha doesn’t need it, obviously.” Tony shrugged, forcing his smirk to stay on his face despite the flash of pain in his chest. “She only gets injured if she wants to be.”
Bruce shrugged, but didn’t deny it. The doctor turned to riffle through some cabinet or another, and Tony carefully reached over to the nearby table where his laptop was. He pulled it into his lap and booted it up. It wasn’t like he could do much else anyway.
There were probably hundreds of tabs that loaded in the minute he turned on the computer. He had literally reinvented the way the StarkTech computers ran a few months ago to better support the amount of tabs he usually had opened. Usually half of them were Stark Industries related, half of them were Avengers related, and the rest were just whatever was on his mind at the moment.
Right now a website glared at him, an almost garishly bright blue banner across the top reading, quite simply, “ Mutation ”. The rest of the tabs in his current, crowded browser were pretty similar.
Tony had basically become an expert in astrophysics in one night when Loki attacked Earth. And once he saw what exactly Scott could do… well, he had basically become an expert on mutants as well.
Bruce glanced up as the computer came out. He frowned slightly. “Are you sure you’re relaxing , Tony?”
“Come on, Brucie. You know this is how I relax.” Tony scrolled through his tabs, smirking as his eyes caught on an article he had pulled up the night before. “You had a spelling error in your article, by the way.”
“I know it’s… wait, a-are you serious?”
Tony smirked, flipping the laptop around so it was facing Bruce. “Yep. ‘The Variability of the X-Gene’ , paragraph four, line six.”
Bruce walked a bit closer, pushing his glasses up the brim of his nose as he glanced at the website. He cursed under his breath. “You’re serious.”
Tony kept smirking. “I would hope so. I had no idea that andesite was a component in the biological makeup of mutants.”
“It’s supposed to be adenine,” Bruce muttered, more to himself than anything. He let out a soft groan that ended in a bewildered half-laugh. “I can’t believe that. Scholars read those, you know. Emmanuelle Charpentier, Hank Pym, Jennifer Doudna, Erik Selvig, Hank McCoy…”
“I was reading some of their stuff. Pym even referenced you. I can hack in and fix it real quick.” Tony’s fingers were already searching for the source code of the website, practically flying across the keys as he searched for an access point.
“No, no, don’t bother, I-I’ll go in and edit it later,” Bruce quickly stuttered.
“No need.” Tony had already bypassed the website's very flimsy firewalls and located the error. “You want me to work on making this thing a bit more secure? Anyone could change up your words with this cyber wall. I literally think a five year old could hack it.”
“N-No, it’s fine,” Bruce insisted, his face flushed red with embarrassment. “You guys aren’t supposed to even see those.”
“Come on, I read all your work Bruce.” Tony saved the fix, then shot Bruce a more serious smile. “It’s way more informative than some of these, trust me.”
Bruce seemed to hesitate, but after a moment he walked around to glance over Tony’s shoulder. “What other ones were you looking at?”
“As many as I could find,” Tony said honestly. He strolled through the tabs, trying to remember which ones had brought up interesting points or contradicted Bruce's article at all. There were not many; Bruce’s was a very open, informative speculation on the geonomial growth of the X-gene and how it developed. Some of the other articles he read were much less factual, much more opinionated, to a level that honestly surprised him. “Worthington Industries had a few, of course. But they just got really deep into the anatomical theory, you know? Physical mutations, bone structure, that kind of stuff. Good stuff, but it’s not like they had live test subjects or anything. This other guy, Charles Xavier, he did one on the less physical stuff, like mental powers, and that was… interesting.”
“Charles Xavier?” Bruce leaned forward. “Isn’t that the guy that took in the kids before…?”
Tony shrugged. “Yeah, it might be.”
“I knew I recognized that name when Clint mentioned it. I didn’t think it would be from a genetics study.”
“I mean, if he was a professor and he was a mutant, it would make sense that he’d have some published work on the subject.” Tony shrugged again as spoke, his eyes flickering over the article as he did. It had definitely been an interesting piece to read. It was actually just an excerpt from a novel-length paper the man had written, ‘The Key to Our Evolution’ . Tony hadn’t gotten around to reading the rest yet, mostly because it was a strange style, to say the least. Reading it felt almost like the guy was just rambling some great speech for pages upon pages. There was good information, but it was buried under a mess of tangled thoughts. He had some… extreme views about mutant martyrdom that bled into his work.
If this was the guy who had trained the X-Men, Tony could see why they had turned out looking like terrorists.
“This Hank McCoy guy really knows his stuff,” Tony said, moving on to another article. “Another one about the more physical aspects of mutation, and also a bit of the social effects.”
“Really?” Bruce seemed to shake himself out of his thoughts. “That’s an interesting focus.”
“Probably helps that he is a mutant, a physically afflicted one at that.”
Bruce hesitated. “Is afflicted the right word?”
“Well…” Tony stared at the screen a moment, his cursor hovered over the index of Hank McCoy’s paper. The tip of the mouse was just over the title “ The True Test” , a section he remembered vividly. It was part where the doctor shirked the science of mutation and dived into the sociological theories and debates; the test of society versus change, culture versus evolution. It tackled the topic of those stricken with physical mutations and how society could— and would, according to the author’s own experiences— react. It also talked about the debate over what to do with mutants whose powers were uncontrollable, detrimental to themselves and others. Mutants who had the capability to hurt others whether they wanted to or not. Mutants who were dangerous by chance, not by choice.
Mutants like Scott Summers.
Tony breathed out slowly. “That’s a good question.”
Bruce pulled one of the flimsy folding chairs closer and sat down slowly. He glanced at Tony and then looked down, his wire-rimmed glasses reflecting the sterile lighting as he fiddled with the edges of his shirtsleeves. He opened his mouth, closed it with a frown, then cleared his throat and tried again. “Have you… thought about the kids any more?”
Tony cast him a sidelong glance. “Kind of hard not to ponder the reason you’re under house arrest, huh?”
Bruce didn’t laugh. “Do you…”
“…Blame them?” Tony supplemented. Bruce didn’t respond, but the silence that followed was answer enough. Tony leaned back a bit further in his chair, another thinly-dulled shot of pain running up through his chest as he moved.
Did he blame Scott Summers? The kid had shot him. Plain and simple, the kid shot him into a tree, crushed his armor, and shattered his ribs from just a look. On paper, at first glance, yes. It was the kid’s fault. He had been playing superhero, he had put himself in a stupid situation that had gotten out of hand and gotten Tony hurt. And in the moment, in those brief seconds when he saw that red, burning gaze turn toward him, the answer was yes. Yes, Tony Stark had a moment of complete, unfiltered blame toward the kid.
But this wasn’t that moment.
He obviously couldn’t blame the kid. Not entirely. Maybe not even at all. Scott hadn’t been aiming for him, first of all. Secondly, he definitely wasn’t in control of his abilities. Third… well, Tony just wasn’t in the business of blame.
It wasn’t like the kid had chosen to shoot laser beams from his eyes. There were so many factors that went into mutation, it was almost incomprehensible. Mutation in relation to the X-gene was something that was almost always related to a traumatic event, something that demanded quick and drastic development in order to ensure the survival of the mutated individual. Barton had mentioned something about an accident, hadn’t he? A train wreck, maybe a plane crash? There was something along those lines, something that this child had gone through that had forced his cells into enough stress to cause literal evolution. That was not his fault. Plus, from the look of it, the kid couldn’t turn it off. It could be the nature of the mutation, could even be a form of brain damage from the accident. They had no way to know. They had no way to know what had happened to Scott Summers, let alone what had been going through his head when he had shot Tony.
But whatever it was, it wasn’t malicious. It was an accident. It wasn’t the kid’s fault.
“No.” Tony breathed out slowly. “No, I don’t blame him. Any of them.”
Bruce nodded, and Tony almost thought he heard a sigh of relief. “Good.” There was a pause. “They’re good kids.”
Tony raised an eyebrow, and twisted to get a better look at his friend. “What was that?”
Bruce shrugged sheepishly, like a deer in headlights. He fiddled with his shirtsleeves a bit more and avoided Tony’s gaze. “I-I just said they’re good kids, you know?”
Tony smirked. “Awww, Bruce’s got a soft spot!”
Bruce shook his head, but he was grinning. “You’re ridiculous, Tony.”
“You like the little mutants!” Tony chuckled at the doctor’s embarrassment. “I never expected you to be a fan of kids.”
“I worked with kids a lot in New Delhi,” Bruce said, rubbing his arm as he did. “They… well, they’re not as complicated as adults most of the time.”
Tony let out a mock gasp, pressing his hand to his aching chest. “What are you saying? That I’m complicated?”
Bruce didn’t hesitate for a second. “Yes.”
Tony gasped again. “I’m insulted. Absolutely insulted.”
Bruce grinned, but soon it faded into a more serious look. He took a deep breath, then finally met Tony’s eyes. “So… you’re not going to… kick them out, right?”
Tony’s humor evaporated. “What?”
“I mean, i-it’s understandable. If you were planning to, I mean.” Bruce looked away, once again rubbing at his arm. “They think you are. After Scott… but I mean, it’s not the first time you’ve kept someone dangerous in your building, right? I’m still here.”
A shot of pain went through Tony’s chest, and this time it wasn’t from the broken ribs. “Bruce. You—“
“Don’t try to deny it Tony,” Bruce chuckled, but despite his efforts it sounded like broken glass. “I just… Clint’s still working on the arrangements. And I… I don’t like the prospects for these kids if they don’t stay here. For now, at least.”
Tony opened his mouth, but for once it wasn’t the busted lung that was making it hard for him to speak. He hated it. He hated that there was nowhere else for them to go. He hated that Bruce felt like he was dangerous. He hated that these kids felt the same way about themselves.
He hated that they were right .
But, no matter how out of commission he was, he was not about to give up on any of them. That was not a question. He was Tony Stark, and Tony Stark was never one to give up.
“I wouldn’t let them leave if they tried.” Bruce glanced up at him, and Tony chuckled. “I don’t mean that literally. Well, maybe I do. And I still want them out of my tower as soon as Clint can figure out a better solution. But kicking them out? I mean, Rogers is still here, isn’t he?”
Bruce chuckled slowly. “Yeah, yeah he is.”
“If I can put up with him, I can definitely put up with that lot.” Tony bit back a tentative I hope , instead turning his attention back to his computer screen. The article about difficult to control mutations still stared at him, like an accusation. He looked at it for a moment, thinking.
“Hey.” Tony tapped his finger against his chin thoughtfully. “What’s the stuff that Scott’s visor is made of? Do you have any idea?”
“Yeah, yeah. Clint mentioned it. Or maybe Natasha did. Someone dragged it out of Scott.” Bruce frowned in thought. “Ruby quartz? I think that’s what it's called. It’s apparently the only thing that can block his blasts.”
Tony snorted. “Sounds like something out of a 60s comic.”
Bruce shot him a sidelong glance. “Well, so does a man that dresses up in a flying metal suit to fight aliens.”
Tony smirked. “Touché. You really do have a sense of humor, doc.”
Bruce flushed sheepishly. “I’m working on it.”
“Keep going. Maybe you can teach some of it to The Other Guy.” Tony’s fingers started to flick across the keyboard, a familiar feeling running up his spine. An idea . “In the meantime, I need your brain. There’s got to be a better solution for Scott than that ugly visor, right? Something more practical?”
Bruce grinned, an air of grateful relief clinging to him as he stood up. “I’ll go grab some paper.”
Tony smirked. “Good. This is going to be a lot harder without coffee.”
Notes:
Hope you guys enjoyed this chapter, honestly this one was a lot of fun because I love Tony and Bruce's dynamic. They're a lot of fun to write! The next chapter is honestly one of my favorites though, so I hope y'all are excited for Thursday!
Chapter 34: Spars Cover Scars
Summary:
Steve was not sure what to think about the kids. The Avengers were superheroes. Their line of work was dangerous. Distractions could be costly to them, and even being near them could be putting the children in a position of danger.
And yet… maybe they were more capable of surviving in the Avenger's world than Steve had realized.
Notes:
Haha, as the word count might show this is one of my favorite chapters! :D I had a lot of fun with this one and it explores one of my favorite side characters in this fic, so I hope you enjoy!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
There was no telling who would be out at midnight in Avengers Tower. Every night there would be someone different wandering the halls. No one ever knew who would be coming back late from missions, suffering from insomnia, from nightmares. It was like a game of roulette to see who might be awake and wandering.
Steve hoped that he was the only one awake tonight. He felt shaky, uncertain, distant in a way that made him want to be alone. He wanted to keep this to himself. He didn’t want the rest of the team to see him like this. He was Captain America. He was the country’s poster boy, far more so now than he had ever been back in 1941. He had an example to set, a duty to fulfill.
That duty did not include waking up in a cold sweat because he dreamt he was drowning.
Steve’s footsteps wore a well-known trail into the tile floor to the elevator. His movements were automatic to the point that he hardly thought about them. He just stepped into the elevator and quietly asked JARVIS to take him to the gym floor. The elevator had already started moving by the time he had finished speaking; even though Steve couldn’t quite understand it, he recognized that Tony’s AI recognized his patterns. He could never decide if that fact brought a sense of comfort or a sense of shame.
“JARVIS,” Steve said after a moment of silence. “Is anyone else in the gym?”
He hoped not. He had nowhere else to go. But it would be better to know beforehand than to be surprised.
The elevator seemed to slow as JARVIS thought. That is, if an artificial intelligence could think… Steve was really fuzzy on the details of how it worked.
“Yes sir. There is one other person awake at the moment. They are currently present on the floor that you are heading to.”
Steve bit back a sigh, his eyes fluttering shut for a moment. There was one other person in the whole tower awake. Of course they would be in the gym. Should he turn back? Just stay in his room? No, no he couldn’t do that… he had too much emotion inside of him. The silence of his room would drown him. He had to do something, and the gym was still the safest place. “Do you know who…?”
“Mr. Warren.”
Steve’s internal turmoil halted for a moment. He was expecting Natasha or Tony, maybe Clint if the shooting range had already done him its due. He didn’t even recognize the name Warren.
It was as if the AI could sense his confusion— for all Steve knew, it could. “He is one of Mr. Barton’s temporary wards, sir.”
“Oh,” Steve said slowly. Right. The X-Men— or, more accurately, X-kids. He rubbed a hand across his face. “I thought they were staying on level 13?”
“They are, sir,” JARVIS replied. “But Mr. Warren has been coming down here once every few nights.”
“And you allow that?”
“Mr. Barton said not to lock them in their room. I have monitored closely to ensure he conducts himself in a safe manner.”
Steve was about to ask what exactly that meant, but the elevator had stopped and the doors were sliding open. Steve went ahead and looked up, out into the huge, expansive gym. What he was faced with… well, it wasn’t exactly what he was expecting. Not that he knew what to expect. But he definitely wasn’t expecting a shirtless boy in a pair of oversized black shorts doing summersaults ten feet off the ground. Oh, and the wings. He definitely wasn’t expecting the wings.
Steve stepped out of the elevator, but that was all he could get himself to do for a moment. He was struck motionless by the kid’s movements. It took him a moment to get over the wings— because that in itself was enough to shock him into silence— but next he noticed the boy’s fighting style. He was obviously fighting… not anything visible, not anything real. But he was doing some sort of training regimen, one that consisted of a style Steve had never seen before. It was fast, ferocious, almost animalistic in its bluntness. He had a punching bag— one of the hundred pound ones Steve used on nights like this— up there with him where he was hovering under the twenty-foot high ceiling. The goal of his exercise seemed to be to keep the bag above the ground in whatever way he could, mostly by slamming his shoulder or entire body into it. Every time he hit the bag, sand rained down on the floor.
Steve was not sure what to think about the kids. On one hand, he respected Barton for taking on the responsibility. They were kids— they needed help somehow, and if he were in Clint’s place he would want to give it. But, at the same time… kids. Mutant kids, living in Avengers tower. It was crazy. They were superheroes. Their line of work was dangerous. Distractions could be costly to them, and even being near them could be putting the children in a position of danger.
And yet, watching this kid enact his unique midnight training exercises… maybe they were more capable of surviving in the Avenger's world than Steve had realized.
It was a solid five minutes before the bag finally slipped. The boy had landed a weak punch, one that didn’t force the bag up enough, and even though he dived to catch it the bag had already hit the floor with a resounding thud . Steve heard an annoyed curse muttered from the boy as he stretched out his wings and fluttered to the ground, apparently ready to pick up the bag and try again.
But then he saw Steve.
There was an instant change in the air. The boy— Warren, Steve supposed his name was— froze instantly. His posture tightened. His wings— which had been spread out in full twenty-foot-span glory— snapped to his back and pressed between his shoulder blades so tightly that Steve could hardly see them. It could have been a trick of the fluorescent lighting, but it seemed as if the color drained from his pale face. The heavy, free breaths that he had been taking shortened into small, almost silent gasps that left the room eerily quiet. In an instant, there was nothing left but the two of them staring at each other.
Steve Rodgers suddenly felt out of place. Suddenly, it seemed like he was intruding. Sure, he was an Avenger. Captain America, at that. He had more of a claim to this room than the kid did. But he also knew what it was like to have a moment like this. This was a moment of private struggle, where there was no mask; just raw, unfiltered emotion.
He wasn’t supposed to be here.
“Um… hi.” Steve cringed at the way his voice carried. It was a gym. It was practically made to amplify noise. The fact that it was two or three in the morning did not help; he could probably whisper and it would still sound as loud as a shout. “You’re… one of the X-Men, right? Warren?”
For a moment the kid stayed frozen; wings tight, expression pale, hand still reached out toward the punching bag on the floor. But then he seemed to steel himself and tried to relax. Steve could tell it took effort; his smirk was forced, his arms still tight as he crossed them with feigned effortlessness. The wings, despite a few twitches, remained pressed so tightly against his back that Steve almost couldn’t see them.
“Yeah. And you’re Captain America, aren’t you?” Steve nodded slowly. The winged boy chuckled dryly. “My little brother thinks you’re cool.”
Despite himself, Steve smiled. “Really?”
“Oh yeah. He’d be jealous if he found out I got to meet you before he did.”
Steve instinctively glanced around the room. Despite JARVIS’s report that Warren was the only one awake, he half expected another mutant kid to pop out of the shadows around the gym’s corners. “Are any of them…?”
“Awake still? Nah.” Warren shrugged with what looked like nonchalance, but it was an oddly tight shrug; probably because of the fact that his wings had not yet relaxed. And despite his light tone, the boy seemed to be regarding Steve with a very guarded look. The tension in the air was pliable. “At least, none of ‘em are down here.”
Steve looked around the huge, empty room, then at the punching bag at the boy’s feet. The lighting was dim— only half of the gym’s lights were on— but they were enough for Steve to see that Warren had wrapped his hands, that his shoulders and forehead were glistening with sweat. He had obviously been driving himself for a while.
The question slipped out before he could consider the repercussions of asking. “And you're down here because…?”
The boy hesitated. At least, Steve thought he hesitated. It was only a moment before he gave another shrug and another smirk. “No one’s down here right now. I’ve wanted to scout it out… Scott’s been having us do some exercise up in our area, but that doesn’t really compare to a gym, y’know?”
Steve watched the boy, unsure if he believed him or not. “JARVIS said you’d been down here a couple times.”
There was a longer beat of hesitation. “Well, you can’t fully scout something out in one visit, right? Plus, I like it. Y’know, it’s… quiet.” His voice lost a bit of its nonchalant tone, petering off slightly as he dropped his gaze to the floor. “Gives some space to think.”
Steve found himself nodding before he even processed the boy’s words. It sounded just like what he was thinking as he came down the elevator. A quiet place. A safe place. A place where your emotions could be filtered out through action, where things could make sense.
Warren seemed to notice how quiet it had gotten, because he shook himself awkwardly. “Want to spar, or something?” He blurted out, his brow furrowing even as he spoke. “I mean, I’m assuming you’re here for a reason…”
Steve raised an eyebrow. He noticed that the kid didn’t offer to leave… a bold move. A good move, in his eyes. He also didn’t ask what Steve’s reason was… something he appreciated. Even if he’d come down looking for solitude… somehow, even in this short conversation with a teenager he barely knew, his nightmare had faded slightly and the coldness in his chest seemed to have eased. Just slightly, but… it felt good.
A spar couldn’t hurt.
Before he knew it, they had squared up on the mat and were circling each other. There was an official sparring ring in one corner of the gym, but Warren made no move toward it, so neither did Steve. It really wasn’t necessary. It was an overly nice gym, in Steve’s opinion, with a section marked out for everything— sparring, weightlifting, both treadmills and a track for running— when really all that was necessary was a punching bag and a mat. Then again, Steve hadn’t even had access to those things growing up, so anything felt like overkill to him. Still, he appreciated that Warren seemed to have the same mindset. There was no need for anything fancy; just two men going up against each other.
Well. A man and a teen, at least.
“How old are you, kid?” Steve asked as he stepped around the mat.
The boy smirked, and Steve could see his fists clench in anticipation. “What? You gonna go easy on me?”
Steve mirrored his smirk and found himself surprised at how easily it came. “Just for accountability.”
The kid shrugged. “Eighteen.”
Steve raised an eyebrow. He didn’t believe that for a moment. How old had Clint said the kids were? They were definitely under age. Warren was close enough to almost pass, but still a bit too lanky and gangly to be a legal adult.
But hey, Steve had lied on his enlistment form. He had lied on it many times. So instead of challenging the kid he kept his mouth shut and waited for Warren to throw the first punch.
He didn’t have to wait long. Warren sized him up for a few seconds, then jumped forward with a simple punch. Steve dodged easily, but Warren quickly changed into a kick that nearly hit its mark. Thankfully Steve’s reflexes were fast enough for him to react, but he had to admit that the kid was already exceeding his expectations. Even as his kick fell short, he was already transitioning into another punch, and as Steve blocked that he was already aiming a jab for the ribs. He was quick. His attacks were fast, furious, and Steve found himself honestly forced onto the defensive. He barely managed to block most of the hits, and Warren even got a few honest licks in. But once he got over his initial surprise, Steve started to find openings in the boy’s attacks. Soon Steve parried a blow from his fist and managed to get enough of a hold to kick the boy in the shin. Warren didn’t fall, but he faltered enough for Steve to turn the tables.
Even as he was forced on the defensive, Warren still seemed to be pushing. He kept getting hits in, despite the fact that he was spending most of his time blocking. He had a certain style in his movements, in which there was no style to his movements. He wasn’t like Natasha, who had a dancer-like grace to her fights, and he wasn’t like Clint who was constantly working to put distance between himself and his opponent. He fought with an erratic energy, the kind that came from being self-taught and used to fighting people twice his size. Steve could pick it out, because it was his fighting style... at least, before he got the serum and had to relearn how to make his body function. It was the fighting of an underdog, and Steve found himself enjoying the fight more and more as it drew out.
Soon he couldn’t even tell who was on the offensive and who was on the defensive. Despite his age— whatever that may actually be— the kid fought hard. The only time Steve had to pull his punches any more than he would have with any one of the Avengers was when he accidentally hit Warren’s forearm. The boy faltered at that, his face twisting in a wince, and Steve noticed the evidence of a fading bruise in the dark light. It was probably from the fight they were in the other night. Steve hesitated, almost expecting the kid to take a second to nurse his wound, but Warren struck back almost instantly with a renewed force that had Steve blocking once again.
Warren was grinning the whole time. It was not the forced smirk that he had been wearing earlier. This was a genuine grin of exhilaration and despite his earlier melancholy, Steve found himself grinning too. It felt good to get his blood running and to get his heart pumping once again. It was the exact opposite of how he felt under the ice. Here, he felt alive.
Warren seemed to be relaxing too, to the point that his wings were hanging more limply by his sides; enough so that Steve remembered that he wasn’t fighting a regular human. He dodged to Warren’s left and watched as the wings pulled hastily out of the way, nearly flapping to give the kid balance before he planted his feet and turned back to face Steve.
“Aren’t you gonna use the wings?” Steve asked between heavy breaths.
Warren’s next punch hit a bit harder. “Wouldn't be fair, would it?” He swept his leg, attempting to knock Steve over, but pulled back before Steve could take advantage of the outstretched limp. “Aren’t you gonna use the super strength?”
Steve’s smile deepened. He aimed a quick punch at the kid and watched as he dodged it. “Wouldn’t be fair, would it?”
Warren ducked away from another blow and charged at Steve, as if to barrel him over. It was not the first time he had tried that trick. It had nearly taken Steve out the first time. This time he was ready for it; he edged to the side so that he took about half of the boy’s intended blow, and stuck out his foot as he did to trip him. Warren would have regained his balance if Steve hadn’t already been reaching out, pushing the boy down even as he fell.
Warren ended up sprawled on the mat, face down, wings splayed out over him. Steve steeled himself, half expecting the kid to pop back up and keep fighting— he had the past two times Steve had knocked him down, after all. But this time he seemed to accept his defeat.
“Well, now I can tell Sean I’ve been beaten by Captain America,” Warren wheezed. Both men were breathing hard, but the younger one managed to chuckle. “He’ll still be jealous.”
“Barley,” Steve said between breaths, chuckling as he whipped sweat from his eyes. “You almost had me there a few times.”
Warren pushed himself up slightly, his wings shifting as he did. “Be honest. Were you going easy on me?”
“No, actually I—”
Even as he spoke, Steve cut off. As Warren was shifting into a sitting position, he couldn’t help that his eyes drifted to the point where his wings connected to his back. But as he looked, he found himself frowning. At first he thought it was a trick of the fluorescent gym lighting. Or maybe it was just something with his mutant biology. But as he looked closer he realized no, no there was definitely something wrong with the base of his wings. Where there were obviously supposed to be feathers, there… weren’t. There was a twisted mass of tissue that only sported a few bent bits of plumage, ones that seemed to be growing almost in the wrong directions. And more than that, there were marks around the wings, around his shoulders… it only took Steve a moment to realize that they were scars . There were scars painted across the mutant’s shoulders in thick, consistent ribbons that made the untouched skin look like an oddity. They were distinct, almost like gouge marks in their placement and frequency. There were a lot, so many that each scar seemed to bleed right into the next. The whole base of his wings was covered in scar tissue.
Warren turned over and pushed himself into a sitting position. Steve quickly glanced away, but he could tell that it was not quickly enough. He could feel the boy’s eyes burning into his back, cold and accusatory in a way that made his skin crawl with a strange, unexpected guilt. So Steve looked back at him… only now he noticed that there were marks on the boy’s front too. Sure, there was the fading bruise on his forearm and another on his side, but there were more; older marks that were long since scarred over, but were there all the same. Steve couldn’t help but stare at the marks: a fine line across his abdomen. A faded slash down his ribcage. A long, dark mark straight down his chest. There were scattered across his lithe body, more than Steve could count, most of which strangely symmetrical in their placement. Were those cuts? Gouges? Surgical marks?
Steve was only able to take in the scars for about two seconds. The next Warren was on his feet, his wings once again drawn in tightly against his back.
“What?” The boy snapped. All of the mirth that had danced in his movements as they spared was gone. His voice was cold and sharp, and his eyes bored into Steve with a ferocity that chilled him to the bone.
Steve blinked. He inhaled slowly and tried to deflect the question. “I… have you had Bruce look at those bruises yet? They look bad.”
Warren snorted. He did not buy that excuse. The tension in the air was pliable, the only sound in the whole, giant room the sound of two men breathing heavily. No . Not two men. One man and a boy … a boy who knew full well what Steve had seen.
Warren stared him down for a moment longer. Then he turned sharply, heading toward the elevator.
“The gym’s yours,” he called back over his shoulder. He did not turn around. His wings stayed tight against his back, so tight that the feathers covered his scarred joints and hid them from view. “Thanks for the spar. Hope you can deal with the reason you’re down here.”
Steve didn’t respond. He wanted to, but it was too late; Warren was already stepping into the elevator. Steve could only watch as the doors closed behind the boy. The soft, usually unnoticeable sound of them sliding shut echoed deftly in the empty space. For a moment there was a hum as it slid away. Then, the sound was gone.
Steve let out a long, slow breath, and it echoed in the silence.
What was he thinking? He had completely forgotten who this kid— kid — was. He was a child. A mutant. He was a mutant child, one who had obviously been through some things in his short life.
Steve had been too caught up in relating to the kid to remember everything. He had forgotten just where they had come from. He had forgotten why they were here. He had forgotten how these kids had put Iron Man in the emergency room just over a week ago.
Steve let out another sigh. It echoed in the empty room. Loud . Empty . Hollow . Suddenly the feeling of coldness was back, and it was harder to fill his lungs with air.
His movements were mechanical, but fast; practiced, but hurried. He walked to the supply cabinet, pulled it open, and wrapped protective bandages around his hands. It was familiar. He walked rehearsed steps back to the bag that Warren had dropped on the floor. He picked it up. Hung it on the hook. Punched it till it flew off, only to pick it up and start it back again. Then he repeated the motion, easily falling into the rhythm that was ingrained into his skull. Punch the bag. Pick it up. Hang it up. Repeat . He did it again, and then again; anything to keep his blood flowing, to keep some semblance of warmth in his veins.
The kids were just that… kids . He was an Avenger. He had a job to do. They all had jobs to do. They had jobs that kids couldn’t— shouldn’t — be involved in.
The bag flew off the hook again. This time sand leaked out of it, much faster than it had when Warren used it.
Steve just dragged it back to the hook to punch it again.
Their lives were dangerous. They all had their nightmares. He didn’t want these kids to be dragged into their mess.
He hated to think that they might already have their own.
Notes:
Shoutout to one of my beta readers, MsDoodle, who dubbed these two "spar duo" and I love that. It made me really sad that we don't see more of these two interacting throughout the fic because honestly I feel like they play off of each other really well.
Steve kind of has a minorly antagonistic role in this story, but he's really just trying to do his best for the team and is still struggling with his own emotions :( also Warren is going through it and I'm sure whatever happened to him won't have any negative repercussions coming up :)
Have a great weekend y'all!
Chapter 35: Cookies Crumble
Summary:
“Obviously,” Kitty said with as much certainty as she could muster. "Don’t you know? Mutants need sugar to survive. It’s like, better for us than vegetables.”
“Definitely!” Sean agreed, nodding furiously. “Especially better than brussel sprouts. Y’know, we don’t have to eat vegetables at all.”
“Well then,” Mr. Barton said in mock seriousness. “We better get to it!”
Notes:
Y'all ready for a fluff chapter?? Because that is what this is. It is a fluff chapter. It is pure, home-cooked fluff. Enjoy! <3
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
“This is kinda stupid, Kitty.”
“Nu uh!” Kitty shook her head sharply, pouting at Sean. “It’s not stupid!”
Sean crossed his arms. “Is too .”
“Is not! Mr. Barton’s been super cool so far!”
“ Obviously, but Scott said we gotta be careful!”
Kitty rolled her eyes. Careful? When was Sean ever careful? Like, ever? He was the least careful and the least likely to listen to Scott of all of them! He was obviously just trying to act tough and older, even though the two of them were in the middle of playing with his Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles toys.
Maybe it was stupid. But she didn’t think it was.
Kitty Pryde had never really had a dad. Sure, the professor was, like, there for a while and she really really liked him, but he seemed a lot more interested in the older kids or her powers. He wasn’t, like, a dad, at least not like she saw in movies and TV shows. He wasn’t like Andy Griffith or even Master Splinter… he was more like Sensei Wu, the wise old guy who told the good guys what to do and who to fight. He wasn’t a dad, he didn’t eat dinner with them or help them with homework— not that Kitty had ever done homework at all— or anything like that. Of course, Mr. Barton wasn’t a dad either. That was silly, at least that’s what Scott said. And she believed Scott completely. Scott always knew what he was talking about; he was her big brother, after all. He always knew what to do.
But he did not know how to make cookies, so when Kitty decided that she really really wanted cookies… well, it wouldn’t hurt to ask, right? Mr. Barton had been really really nice so far, ever since the crazy mission that they had gone on. Scott kept saying that he was gonna kick them out— well, not saying it, but Rogue said that was what he was thinking— but it had been, like, a whole week and they were still here. And Mr. Barton was super nice. He bought her the really cool Black Widow shirt she was wearing! He was, like, the coolest guy she knew. He would totally help them out!
At least, if her brother would stop being a butt and let her ask already.
Kitty tried walking past Sean and into the kitchen, but he stepped in front of her and pushed her back. She didn’t fall, but huffed at him in annoyance. Then she tried walking past him again. He moved to block her, but she ducked quickly to avoid his hand. It took him by surprise and he let out a noise of protest, his leg moving up to kick her as he did. Kitty saw it coming and concentrated, concentrated hard , concentrated so hard that her body felt all tingly and funny and his foot went right through her. Phasing was so weird. She couldn’t feel anything for a moment, and yet she felt his lame kick slide through her, like a ghost or something spooky like that. Then his foot was gone and she stopped concentrating so she could sprint past him and into the kitchen, giggling the whole time and only pausing to stick her tongue out at him.
She bounded into the kitchen and stopped just soon enough to avoid crashing into Scott. Her older brother looked down at her, his visor glinting in the light from the fluorescent kitchen lights as he raised an eyebrow at her.
Kitty chuckled, her finger twisting in a piece of her long brown hair as she looked up at her brother. She knew Scott would be in the kitchen, but suddenly her cookie idea did seem a little bit silly. Only a little though. “H-hi Scott!”
Scott opened his mouth to reply, but another voice got there first. “What are you up to, Kitty?”
Kitty popped up on her tiptoes to peer over the table that Scott had been leaning against. Leaning against the other side, smiling a lopsided smile, was Clint Barton. Kitty waved, a flash of her confidence surging back as she returned his smile. “Hi, Mr. Barton!”
“What happened, Kitty?” Scott’s voice took on a little bit of an edge as he glanced over her shoulder, and Kitty followed his gaze to see that Sean was sprawled out on the carpet. “Is Sean alright?”
Kitty quickly shouted a “ yes!” , even as Sean let out a moan that sounded like a “ no” from the adjacent room.
Both adults tensed up, and Mr. Barton pushed himself away from the table as if he were going to run over there. Kitty even felt a flash of fear for her brother… but then she saw the little grin on Sean’s face and frowned.
“He’s just faking!” She whined.
“I’m wounded! ” Sean called out dramatically, stretching his hand to the ceiling as he let out another moan. “I’ll never walk again!”
“You’re fiiiine!” Kitty put her hands on her hips and let out a huff that blew her bangs from her face… at least, she tried to. They didn’t really move. She tried one more time, then gave up. How did Rogue always do it?
“I’m not fiiiine!” Sean called out, his hand flopping against the carpet as he let it drop. “Kitty brutally attacked me, and now I’m parsalized!”
“That’s not a word, dummy!”
“Ooh, now she’s insulting me! Scott, Kitty’s insulting me!”
“Alright, that’s enough.” Scott stepped forward before Kitty could get another word in, and shot her a stern look as she stuck her tongue out. “Kitty, you’ve got to be careful. Sean is still hurt.”
“No! I’m fine!” Sean protested his own defense, abandoning his sprawled-out state to jump to his feet as if to prove Scott wrong. It backfired though, because the moment he put weight on his left foot he stumbled a bit. He recovered quickly, his arms crossed over his chest as he jutted his chin out at Scott. “See? I’m totally fine!”
“Told you he was faking,” Kitty murmured. Scott didn’t say anything, but she heard a little chuckle behind her. She turned, and she could see Mr. Barton smiling at her. A bit of worry and self-consciousness flashed through her, and she found herself fiddling with her hair again. “Well he was. He’s, like, super dramatic sometimes.”
“I believe it.” The Avenger nodded seriously.
“I didn’t even touch him!” Kitty said, the self-consciousness fading as she turned to fully face Mr. Barton. She grinned mischievously at the truth of her words. “It’s not my fault he can’t touch me!”
Mr. Barton laughed at that, and it bolstered Kitty’s confidence enough for her to hop up on one of the stools and prop her elbows up on the table. “Brothers can be annoying.”
He nodded seriously, sliding into the seat across from her as he did. “You could say that again.”
“Brothers can be annoying ,” Kitty repeated with a grin. Mr. Barton laughed. He had a really nice laugh, the kind of laugh that sounded warm… like wood and smoke instead of like plastic or something. She always felt like her laugh sounded like plastic. “Do you have any brothers, Mr. Barton? Or sisters?”
The man stopped laughing, and for a moment she thought he looked a bit sad. But then he smiled. “Not really, but I have some really close friends that give me a taste of what siblings are like.”
“Like the other Avengers?” Kitty glanced up to see Sean climbing up onto the stool next to her with help from Scott. Sean’s eyes were wide as he looked at the Avenger, and his wide grin showed off the gap in his teeth as he practically bounced in anticipation of the superhero’s answer. Kitty couldn’t help but feel a flash of annoyance at her brother butting into their conversation, but Mr. Barton just chuckled.
“Yep. Exactly.”
“The Avengers are a lot cooler than brothers an’ sisters,” Sean said. Kitty whipped around, her ponytail hitting the back of her head as she shot a wide-eyed look at her brother. Hurt flashed through her, despite the annoyance she had been feeling. Yeah, the Avengers were cool , but did he really think they were cooler?
“Not my brother and sisters though!” Sean said quickly. He was grinning broadly, and he reached to throw an arm over her shoulder and pull her into a hug. “I’ve got the coolest siblings.”
Kitty made a noise of protest and squirmed to get out of Sean’s side-hug, but she couldn’t deny the relief that seeped into her features. He scared her for a second. Sean was more than her brother, he was like her best friend… when he wasn’t being a jerk, at least. And when Kurt wasn’t around. When Kurt was around they were tied, but she had known Sean for longer than she had known Kurt. She didn’t like the idea that he liked the Avengers better than his family.
Clint gave him a smile as Kitty pushed his arm away. “I can tell.”
Kitty couldn’t help but grin a bit… though she tried not to let Sean see that. He had still been mean a lot today.
Then her grin deepened into a mischievous smile. She leaned further against the table, her arms stretched out against the chilly marble. “Y’know, Mr. Barton, Sean coulda hurt his leg.”
Sean probably didn’t know where she was going with this, but he didn’t need any more prompting to play along. “It hurts ,” he sighed dramatically, leaning against the table with his palms pressed to his cheeks. “I’m dying.”
Kitty rolled her eyes, but continued. “Y’know what would totally help him feel better?”
Mr. Barton was regarding them with slight suspicion, the grin still on his face. “I’m almost scared to know.”
Kitty pushed herself up so that she was as close to eye level with the man as she could be, and shot him a look of complete sincerity. “Cookies.”
Sean let out a dramatic groan for emphasis, obviously having completely forgotten his earlier insistence that they don’t ask. “ Yes, cookies…”
Mr. Barton raised an eyebrow. “Oh yeah?"
“ Obviously ,” Kitty said with as much certainty as she could muster. She had to do her absolute best to convince him. “Don’t you know? Mutants need sugar to survive. It’s like, better for us than vegetables.”
“ Definitely! ” Sean agreed, nodding furiously. “ Especially better than brussel sprouts. Y’know, we don’t have to eat vegetables at all .”
For a moment while Kitty was talking it looked like Mr. Barton actually believed them. But then Sean said that and the look passed, and he put on an expression of over-exaggerated sincerity to match their own.
“Well then,” Mr. Barton said in mock seriousness. “We better get to it!”
Kitty and Sean cheered, the older of the two throwing up his hands in so much excitement that he nearly tumbled off the chair and onto the floor. Kitty laughed at him, then shimmied down from her stool and darted toward the fridge to start pulling out ingredients… and almost ran into Scott again. She had pretty much forgotten that her older brother was in the room. She glanced up at him, and suddenly she felt worried. He had his arms crossed and he was frowning, the way he usually did when he was about to say no to something. And he had been really, really strict with telling them to be careful around Mr. Barton. Maybe Sean was right; maybe this was something Scott wouldn’t like. But would he really stop them from making cookies?
Scott looked down at her for a moment, then sighed silently and stepped to the side. Kitty took that as a green light and shot her brother a big grin before resuming her run to the fridge. She used to make cookies all the time with Miss Julie, the foster lady she lived with before… well, before Professor X took her in. Miss Julie always made the best cookies, especially because she always let Kitty put in the chocolate chips. Kitty didn’t have the recipe, but she was pretty sure she remembered all the ingredients… chocolate chips, obviously , milk and eggs… how many eggs? Eh , she’d just grab the whole cartoon and they’d figure it out.
Kitty was tall enough to grab the milk, but the eggs were way out of her reach. She tried to reach for them, but fell back on her heels with a pout. She turned to see Sean snickering at her, and her frown deepened. She turned a pleading look to Scott. His stony expression twitched into a small smile and he moved forward to help, easily reaching up to grab the eggs and set them on the table. Kitty couldn’t wait until she was tall like her siblings. She didn’t want to be the smallest forever, it was so annoying.
The ingredients were soon on the table, and Kitty soon found herself lost in a flurry of flour. Mr. Barton figured out that there was a recipe on the back of the chocolate chips, so he read stuff off while she and Sean dumped things into the bowl. She mostly followed his direction, but she definitely put a bit more sugar in. More sugar means they taste better, obviously .
Turns out Mr. Barton knew way less about making cookies than she did. He almost mixed up the sugar and salt measurements, and he forgot to start preheating the oven until after they had mixed everything up. But Kitty hardly noticed because she was completely focused on how fun it was. Mr. Barton was hilarious; he made funny jokes the whole time, and told them a story about a time that Tony Stark picked up donuts on a mission. Sean laughed so hard at that story that he almost dumped the whole bottle of oil in the bowl. Thankfully, it mostly ended up on the counter instead. So did the flour. And some of the eggs. It was awesome! And Scott just stood and watched them the whole time, only stepping in if they really, really needed help with something. He didn’t say a single word of protest, which meant that baking cookies had to be ok!
Once they had the cookie dough done, they just had to wait for the oven to preheat. As they were waiting Mr. Barton pulled out four spoons and scooped out some of the cookie dough, then offered one to each of them.
Kitty gaped at him. “Are you going to eat the cookie dough?”
“Of course!” Mr. Barton winked at her. “That’s the best part, isn’t it?”
Kitty’s mouth was still open in shock. Sean’s mouth was already full of cookie dough, his flour-dusted face nodding emphatically. She had seen her siblings eat cookie dough the one or two times that they tried making it back at the institute, but she had never seen an adult eat raw cookie dough! That was crazy!
“But there’s eggs in it!” She protested, just in case he didn’t remember. “ Raw eggs!”
Mr. Barton shrugged. “Yeah, I mean there is…”
“That’s bad for you!” Kitty pressed. “It can make you sick!”
“True, it can,” Mr. Barton said, shrugging again. “But I’ve been eating it since I was your age and I’ve never gotten sick.”
“Really?” Kitty asked warily. She was getting hungrier by the moment, and the cookie dough did look pretty good. “Are you sure?”
“The cookie dough is the best part!” He assured her. He leaned forward, putting up a hand to whisper to her conspiratorially. “I’ve made cookie dough before just to eat it raw. I didn’t cook any of it!”
Kitty’s mouth fell open even more as she gaped at the Avenger. Then she glanced at Sean, who had taken Scott’s spoon and already licked that clean as well. She tried to remember if she had seen him get sick after eating cookie dough before… but it had been so long since they’d made it themselves that she wasn’t sure.
If Mr. Barton was eating it, it had to be safe, right?
She shrugged and stuck the spoon in her mouth. Instantly her eyes widened. It was so good! Just like cookies, but better somehow!
Mr. Barton laughed at her expression, and Kitty found herself laughing too through the mouthful of deliciousness. The unbaked cookie dough always looked a little gross, she couldn’t believe how good it was!
They ended up only putting about half of the cookie dough in the oven. The rest they ate while they were waiting. Once the cookies were baking Sean got up and ran off, but Kitty stuck around to help Mr. Barton clean up the huge mess that they had made. Scott helped too, still quiet even as Kitty and Mr. Barton chatted. He was so cool ; he listened to her as she talked, and he gasped and laughed at all the right times when she told him about the time she and Sean had convinced everyone else to play Ninja Turtles with them— Sean was Mikey, Kurt was Donnie, Rogue was Karai, Warren was Raph, Kitty was obviously April, and Scott was Leo. Technically the Professor was Master Splinter, but of course he didn’t really do anything. Kitty couldn’t help but think that Mr. Barton would make a much better Master Splinter, but she kept that to herself.
It was a good thing that they ate most of the cookie dough, because halfway through Kitty’s recountanance of Kurt’s surprisingly impressive bo staff skills they could smell smoke. There was a slight panic as they realized that the cookies were literally on fire and they barely managed to get them pulled out before the fire alarm went off.
Once the pan had been set on the counter, Kitty found herself staring at the black, smoking lumps on the tray. Involuntary sadness bubbled up in her chest, and she could feel tears forming in her eyes. It didn’t make sense. How had they burnt? They were right there watching them! It wasn’t fair!
She bit her lip, staring at the cookies, trying not to let the smoky smell remind her of Miss Julie’s house. She tried not to think about the smell that clung to her clothes, to everything around her as she phased through the flames. It was a foggy, hazy memory, like a thought you couldn’t quite remember… but she remembered enough to hate the smell. She remembered it enough to be sad.
“Well, I think they turned out well!” Mr. Barton’s voice was bright, sarcastic. Kitty couldn’t muster up a smile, too busy trying not to think about the smoke to think about anything else. He glanced down at her, and she must have looked upset because his joking tone faded. “Hey, are you alright Kitty?”
She blinked furiously, hoping that it would clear her eyes. It didn’t work very well. “They’re ruined…” She said softly, still staring down at the black cookies.
“No, they’re not.”
She sniffed, trying not to inhale the smoky smell as she looked up at the man. “Yeah they are! They’re burnt!”
“Not too bad though!” Mr. Barton hesitated, then reached out. He grabbed one of the blackest cookies, and without hesitation popped it in his mouth. Kitty watched, wide eyed as he smiled… then made a face. He gagged suddenly and ran to the sink, where he stuck his head half under the faucet and gasped as he started gulping down water.
“They’re good!” He exclaimed through gasps. “They’re just… hot!”
The sadness disappeared from Kitty’s mind and she nearly fell off her stool laughing. As Mr. Barton kept his head in the sink she reached over to the pan of cookies and grabbed one for herself. It was black on the bottom and it nearly burnt her hand, but she bit into it anyway. Instantly she stuck her tongue out and gagged. It was terrible! The extra sugar was a horrible idea— it threw off the whole cookie, made it way too crumbly, made it hard and brittle and gross even without the burnt part.
Kitty found herself laughing even louder. “They’re terrible!”
“Hey, I warned you!” Mr. Barton pulled back from the faucet, his hair dripping with water, and shook his head so that droplets showered the kitchen. Kitty squealed, dropping the half-eaten cookie as she tried to duck and cover.
“No! You said they were good!”
“I said they were… well, I did say that, but—”
“Next time you’re not putting the timer on!” Kitty said, still laughing. “You burnt ‘em!”
Mr. Barton was laughing too. “I’m not the one who dumped an extra cup of sugar in!”
The commotion had drawn the attention of not just Sean— who had been playing something or other in the adjacent room and was now reaching to try one of the burnt cookies himself— but Warren and Kurt as well. Both of them had come into the other room while the cookies were baking, and Kitty could see them grinning at the failed attempt. Warren leaned against the hallway wall, watching the event with a smirk, while Kurt’s yellow eyes were wide under his hoodie as he grinned at Kitty from across the room. She shot him a thumbs up that was covered in burnt cookie crumbs.
It didn’t take long to clean up the rest of the cookie mess. The good news was that only about half of the cookies actually caught on fire; the rest were pleasantly burnt, to the point that they were still edible, at least. Not that they were very good, but they were edible. And Kitty had so much fun making them that she really didn’t care how they turned out.
Mr. Barton left to head back up to the Avenger’s part of the tower a bit after, which was probably good because it was getting pretty late and Kitty was starting to feel tired— not that she would admit it, of course. But she was sad to see him go.
As she was watching the elevator doors close, Scott walked up beside her. He was silent as the elevator slid away, watching it with his usual wary expression. Once he seemed sure it was gone, he crouched down so that he was eye level with her and put a gentle, brotherly hand on her shoulder.
She cocked her head at him. “Scott? You ok?”
He sighed, glanced over at the elevator, and then back to her. “We need to remember to be careful, alright Kitty?”
She nodded, her finger twisting in her hair. “I know Scott. But… Mr. Barton’s not, like, a bad guy… right?”
Scott was quiet for a moment. Kitty could see herself reflected in his red visor as he hesitated. “We need to stay alert,” he finally said. “Alright?”
She nodded again. Scott nodded too, and pulled her in for a tight hug. Kitty squeezed him back, and then her big brother stood up to corral Sean— probably to keep him from getting a bellyache from eating all the burnt cookies. Kitty watched him go, but found herself glancing back at the elevator before long.
Scott was right. Of course he was right. He was always right, it was part of his job as the big brother. He knew what they needed to do, so if he said to be careful, then she would. Yeah . She would be careful.
But… maybe she could trust Mr. Barton just a little bit more than Scott did.
Notes:
"I'm PARSALIZED" might be one of my favorite things I've ever written tbh I make myself laugh with that line XD
This chapter was a lot of fun; just some bonding fluff with an extra helping of Sibling Dynamics because Kitty is a little six-year-old who loves her big brothers and sister and still has a bit of that childhood innocence left despite everything that these kids have gone through.
Also if anyone was wondering about that little fire and earthquake thing mentioned in Kitty's CPS file from like thirty chapters ago, the girl was just super unlucky and lived through two pretty big disasters that she survived thanks to her phasing abilities. That's right; even the six-year-old has trauma, I'm sorry :'D
Chapter 36: On Target
Summary:
Mr. Barton grinned. “Cooler than Tony Stark yet?”
Kurt grinned, glancing up at the Avenger from under his hoodie. “I mean… he still has the suit…”
Mr. Barton made a coughing noise and for a moment Kurt was worried that he actually offended the man, but he quickly realized that he was exaggerating. The grin on his face proved it. “Seriously? Well then, I better prove myself before teaching you, huh?”
Notes:
Kurt chapter!! Kurt is one of my favorites and he really gets a backseat in this fic (which is fine, I have two or three very Kurt-centric fics in the works) so it was fun to actually dive into his story a little for a chapter!
Also btw, all the German in this chapter was google translated because haha, I'm not bilingual :'D translations are provided in the end notes, and in the last scene you can just assume that Kurt is speaking all German even though it is written in english!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
“Really?” Kurt asked in astonishment, tail flicking wildly despite his attempts to sit on it. They were at the end of an Uno game, one that Warren had won for the third time in a row. That had been enough for Sean to quit, and Kitty and Rogue had already moved on to other things two rounds ago. Kurt had almost gone with them, but he had stuck around because… well, Mr. Barton was there. He hadn’t forgotten about Mr. Barton’s words in the elevator on their first day, the Avenger’s promise to teach him how to use a bow and arrow. After the first few days, he had kinda been sure that Mr. Barton had forgotten, but that didn’t matter. Obviously he was still hoping to hear the man bring it up, but he didn’t really realize how much he had stopped expecting it until Mr. Barton mentioned it. “Like, right now?”
Mr. Barton nodded with a quick smile. “Yeah. I mean, I told you I’d teach you, right?”
A grin split Kurt’s face, but before he could express his excitement he was interrupted by a stern voice. “I don’t think that’s a good idea.”
Kurt glanced up to see Scott towering over him with arms crossed and in full big-brother mode. Scott was the only one left in the main room; Warren had gotten up right after Sean had, leaving Kurt and Scott alone with Mr. Barton. Kurt realized self-consciously that his hoodie had fallen down during the game, and he hadn’t pulled it back up. Was that why Scott didn’t want him to hang out with Mr. Barton? Probably . Scott always thought it was best for him to cover up his features. Which made sense, of course, but…
“Please Scott?” Kurt asked, putting on his best pleading expression. He really wanted to learn archery from Mr. Barton.
But Scott was already shaking his head. “Kurt, I don’t think…”
“You can come of course,” Mr. Barton jumped in. Scott’s visor-covered gaze turned to focus on the man. “Supervise and whatnot. Or I can teach you too? That way it’s not just me and blueberry down there.”
Mr. Barton kind of stuttered at the end of his sentence and he glanced down at Kurt, as if to see if he was offended. But Kurt was grinning even wider, unconsciously puffing up at the little nickname. His tail twitched happily behind him.
Scott, on the other hand, did not look happy. He was frowning, arms still crossed tight as he glowered at the Avenger. “Why?”
Mr. Barton’s eyes fluttered shut for a brief moment. What was that? Exasperation? But then he was shrugging again. Nothing devious or underhanded.
“I told the kid I’d teach him archery, and I like to keep promises.” He hesitated, then glanced down at Kurt with a flicker of uncertainty across his features. “Only if you want to, of course, I don’t…”
“ Ja !” Kurt blurted out, flushing as he interrupted the man. He pulled his tail closer to himself and tried to make himself seem smaller before continuing. “Yes. Yes, I mean, I very much would like to learn…”
Mr. Barton seemed to relax a bit, and he turned his gaze back to Scott, who had not relaxed a bit. “Come on, Scott. The archery range is just two floors under us. We’ll only go for an hour or so… we’ll be back before you know it.”
Kurt felt a tiny flash of disappointment that it would only be an hour. But then… a whole hour of archery with Mr. Barton, superhero and fellow circus kid. Kurt wanted any time he could get.
“ Please, Scott?” He turned a pleading gaze on his brother, his tail curling around his leg as he sent up a silent prayer to the Lord that Scott would say yes. It seemed like a silly prayer, but he shoved that thought away. It didn’t matter if it was silly. He had faith, faith that his God answered even the silliest of prayers…
Scott let out a sigh, his fists clenching. “One hour.”
Kurt’s head shot up and he jumped to his feet, excitement coursing through his veins. Did he hear him right? “Really?”
“I’m coming with,” Scott said sternly, his gaze sharp even behind his visor. But Kurt didn’t even care. He hopped forward, wrapping his arms and his tail around Scott in a tight hug.
“ Danke, thank you , thank you!” Kurt let go, bouncing in excitement as he gave his brother a toothy grin.
Despite the obvious tension in his features— which Kurt felt a flash of guilt for— Scott chuckled and gave him a tight smile. “Alright, alright.” He reached out, playfully nudging his shoulder and simultaneously tugging Kurt’s hoodie up over his head. He didn’t even care. He was way too excited. “Let me go tell Rogue. Then let’s get it over with.”
Kurt nodded quickly, his tail lashing. He quickly grabbed Scott’s hand and dragged him toward the rooms before he could change his mind.
“Rogue!” Kurt rapped on the door to the room he and his sister were sharing, almost shivering with anticipation. There was a noise of affirmation from inside, and Kurt quickly pushed it open. Rogue and Kitty were sitting inside on the carpet, a decent distance from each other as Rogue helped Kitty sort through the clothes that Mr. Barton had gotten them a week or so ago. It had been a while, but Kitty kept pulling them out every few days or so and trying to make new combinations with them. She had already stolen one of Sean’s shirts as well as one of Kurt’s… not that he minded. He was already wearing one of Rogue’s new hoodies, and probably would have borrowed Kitty’s cat t-shirt if it wasn’t too small for him. That was just how clothes worked with them, how anything worked with them really. Things got passed around all the time, and no one item really belonged to anyone in particular.
Kurt shot Rogue a toothy grin as Scott stepped up behind him. “Scott and I are going out with Mr. Barton for a little bit!”
Rogue raised an eyebrow. “Y’all are goin’ out? ”
“Just down a floor or two,” Scott interjected. “To the archery range.”
Rogue huffed, blowing her white bangs out of the way so she could properly fix them with a cold green stare. “Why?”
“Because Mr. Barton’s gonna teach me archery!” Kurt blurted out. “Remember? He promised, and now he said he’s going to really show me!”
“Aww, that’s no fair!” Kitty piped up. She crossed her arms and frowned. “I wanna hang out with Mr. Barton!”
“This isn’t “hanging out” ,” Scott said sternly. “Kurt’s doing some extra training and learning a new skill. Plus, he’s getting Barton off our backs for a bit. That’s all.”
Kurt nodded, but there was no feeling behind it. Because, well, he wasn’t going just to learn archery… he kind of wanted to hang out with Mr. Barton. He wanted to hear about his circus experience. He wanted to find out how he became an Avenger. He wanted to listen to his stories. He wanted to listen to someone other than his siblings who would actually bother to talk to him.
But he also wanted to make Kitty feel better. She was his best friend, and he didn’t want her to feel left out, so he nodded a bit more firmly. “Just extra training. Do you want extra training?”
Kitty made a face so quickly and violently that Rogue snorted a bit. Kurt just grinned and stepped forward to give his little sister a hug.
“Can we play when I get back, katchzun? ” Kurt asked. “I want to finish our pirate game!”
Kitty hugged him back tightly, giggling as she did. “We never finish it!”
“Exactly!”
Kitty giggled again and then pushed him away. Kurt let himself fall, then turned to his older sister and waved. Rogue frowned, brushing her bangs back again before glancing at Scott.
“Yah sure ‘bout this?”
“Course not,” Scott muttered even as Kurt nodded enthusiastically.
Rogue’s eyes slid to Kurt momentarily, then back to Scott. “What if I went instead of you?”
Scott shook his head. “No. I want to keep an eye on him.”
“And I wanna keep an eye on both of ‘em.”
“It’s fine, Rogue!” Kurt shot a pleading look at his sister, his hands clasped in front of him and his tail lashing. He loved Rogue, he loved her so much, but he could recognize that protective glint in her eyes. Scott was already so close to keeping him from going. If they hesitated for too long, there was no way he would ever get to do this. “I promise we’ll be ok! And we’ll be back soon!”
Rogue turned her sharp green gaze on him. Her eyes were narrowed and cold, but Kurt held her gaze. He’d been with Rogue longer than he’d been with any of the other X-Men. He had been her brother long enough to know that the harsh gaze was just out of concern.
After a moment, she let out a breath. “If you come back with an arrow in your foot, I’m not pullin’ it out.”
Kurt pretended to pout, though his lashing tail probably gave him away. “You don’t think I’ll shoot well?”
Rogue chuckled. “Nah, I know you will. Jus’ make sure you’re aimin’ at Barton and not Scott.”
Kurt laughed before giving her a quick salute. He gave one last reassuring grin to Kitty and then bounded out to where Scott was waiting in the doorway. He grabbed Scott’s hand as quickly as he could and half-dragged him back to Clint Barton. It was a short walk down the hallway, but he didn’t feel like it was short enough.
“Can we still go?” He asked the moment they were in the same room as the man. Clint had been sitting on the couch looking at his phone, probably scrolling through something. The archer looked up in surprise as they burst in, and he chuckled in amusement.
“It’s only been two minutes, Kurt. I’m not about to change my mind just like that!”
“Some people do,” Kurt pointed out, his tail lashing nervously. Lots of people changed their minds really quickly. Mr. Barton didn’t seem like that kind of person, but sometimes it was hard to tell. Kurt wanted to be sure.
Mr. Barton’s smile faltered momentarily. Then he stood up and waved Kurt and Scott forward. “Come on, let’s go see what you can do.”
Kurt’s tail lashed in excitement. He hoped that he got a chance to show Mr. Barton what he could do, and he was just as excited to see what the Avenger could do. What had Mr. Barton done in the circus? Had he been an acrobat at all? Would he recognize some of the moves Kurt had learned? Would there be a chance for him to show off at all? He couldn’t help but hope that there would.
The trio made their way to the elevator, which opened almost automatically. Once they stepped in, Mr. Barton glanced down at him. “Wanna ask JARVIS to take us to the range?”
Kurt felt himself flush. He glanced up at Scott, but his older brother was basically just watching Mr. Barton. So he just ducked his head, tail flicking self consciously as he spoke.
“Um… Herr JARVIS?” Kurt said uncertainly.
The AI responded immediately. “ Guten Tag, herr Kurt.”
“Can… can we go down to the archery range?”
“ Jawohl, einen moment.”
The elevator started to move, and Mr. Barton blinked. “Was that… German?”
“ Ja ,” Kurt said sheepishly. He grabbed his tail and began nervously running the spaded tips through his thick fingers. Mr. Barton probably wanted a bit of an explanation. “I-I mean, yes. Deutsch— German—is my first language, a-and herr JARVIS knows it, and so…”
Mr. Barton grinned as he trailed off. “Sounds like you and JARVIS are buddies now.”
Kurt felt himself flush even further, to the point his face was probably purple. Did Mr. Barton know how much he talked to JARVIS? Had he guessed somehow? He hadn’t told Scott, or Kitty, or even Rogue how he had been talking to JARVIS, and he told Rogue everything . Only Warren knew because he was the one to venture into the elevator to go train in the Avenger’s gym, which was how Kurt had ended up sitting outside the elevator and talking to the AI after the first few nights. It was just… JARVIS was super cool, and more than that he was easy to talk to. Plus, Kurt could talk to him in German, something that none of his siblings understood besides the few phrases he used constantly. So when he couldn’t sleep at night… it was nice to just be able to gush out his feelings and not worry about tripping over the words he still didn’t know, or be self-conscious and embarrassed when he forgot a word in his own tongue. JARVIS was a good listener.
But whether he knew about Kurt and JARVIS’s midnight conversations or not, Mr. Barton turned away. His attention was now focused on the doors, which were already sliding open.
Kurt was snapped out of his thoughts as his jaw dropped in awe. He had seen archery ranges before, of course, but usually they were ones set up in the circus tent for practice and were not much more than two or three targets. This was an entire floor of the tower covered in targets! There were targets all along one wall, big windows on another, a third covered in what looked like white boards for keeping score, some of which hadn’t been erased. Kurt couldn’t read the names, but something told him that the one with tally marks almost completely filling up the board was Mr. Barton’s.
He thought he couldn’t have gotten any more excited; he was wrong.
“Let’s see…” Kurt bounded over to Mr. Barton, who had already stepped out of the elevator and over to a long silver counter, where a bunch of bows were sitting. The Avenger was frowning as he looked at them. “I wasn’t thinking about this… not sure if we have any child-sized bows…”
“I’m not really a child,” Kurt said quietly. Mr. Barton raised an eyebrow at him.
“Remind me how old you are?”
“Seven.”
“Yeah, sorry kid, but you’re not even halfway adult yet.”
Kurt stayed quiet, shooting a glance over at Scott as he did. His older brother didn’t say anything either, but Kurt could tell by his expression that he disagreed. Kurt did too. Sure, he wasn’t that old yet, but if he wasn’t even halfway adult, then did that mean Scott wasn’t an adult either? That couldn’t be right, because Scott was definitely an adult.
He thought Mr. Barton was wrong on this one, but he still decided not to say anything to be polite.
The Avenger picked out three bows. The smallest one he handed to Kurt— who was admittedly almost the same height as the weapon— and the second he offered to Scott, who turned it down. The third he selected quickly, with practiced ease and relish.
“I like to call this one Ringer,” Mr. Barton explained as he led Kurt over to the shooting range, a quiver of arrows slung over one shoulder and the bow held out proudly in his hand. “See? There’s like a ring around the tips here, and here. It makes her look cool. Plus, I usually use her to try and hit the rings around the target.”
Kurt cocked his head. “I thought you were supposed to aim for the spot in the middle?”
“The bullseye is wherever you’re aiming,” he said with a shrug. “That doesn’t always have to be the middle.”
They stopped in the middle of the room, where a dark black line on the floor marked that they were some distance from the targets. Mr. Barton went ahead and drew an arrow, lined it up in the bow, and pulled it back.
“Call a ring.”
Kurt blinked, then looked across the room and squinted at the targets. “Uh… yellow?”
“Right next to the bullseye?”
Kurt nodded uncertainly.
He hadn’t even stopped moving his head before the arrow was whizzing through the air. He turned to watch it, but by the time he did it had already hit the target with a deft thunk that echoed through the huge room. Kurt’s mouth fell open. Mr. Barton had nailed the arrow squarely through the yellow ring.
“ Woah. ”
Mr. Barton grinned. “Cooler than Tony Stark yet?”
Kurt grinned, glancing up at the Avenger from under his hoodie. “I mean… he still has the suit…”
Mr. Barton made a coughing noise and for a moment Kurt was worried that he actually offended the man, but he quickly realized that he was exaggerating. The grin on his face proved it. “Seriously? Well then, I better prove myself before teaching you, huh?”
Kurt gave a playful shrug, watching in excitement as Mr. Barton pulled out three more arrows. He hardly even saw the arrows fit into the bow; they flew out like bullets, each burying itself in the exact center of three different targets. They hadn’t even stopped quivering before the archer pulled two more arrows and hit two more targets— once again, dead center. With five neat bullseyes in the span of about twenty seconds, Mr. Barton sent him a smirk.
“Impressed yet?”
Obviously he was dumbstruck. But Kurt twitched his tail and grinned at the man. “I thought you said the middle was an easy target?”
“I just said you don’t have to aim for the middle… but I gotcha. You’re a circus kid, right?” Kurt nodded eagerly. “Makes sense. Ok, then I’ll really need to impress you…”
Mr. Barton seemed to size up the targets for a moment, his eyes narrowed ever so slightly as he studied them.
Then he pulled out three arrows at once, pulled all three back on the single bowstring, and let them fly. In one swift shot they zipped through the air, spreading out as they flew. There were three simultaneous thunks as they landed in the bullseye of three of the targets he had already hit, and before Kurt could even gape about the fact that he just fired three arrows at one time he was already pulling out another. And another. And another . They slipped through his fingers like grease, faster than a pistol shot as they nailed the middle target. Soon there were about seven perfectly placed arrows around the outer ring of the target, just on the edge so that any farther and they would be in the wall.
“Now, back in the circus I had rings of fire and such,” Mr. Barton wasn’t even out of breath, he was just loading up another arrow. “Which we obviously don't have here, so we’ve got to get more creative.”
He turned so that he was facing away from the range, his arrow pointed straight at the whiteboards. Then he crouched slightly and leapt into the air. Kurt watched in awe as he twisted into a backflip, bow still in hands. When he was halfway through the flip, he let the arrow fly. It hit straight in the middle of the target. He did a second backflip and hit the fifth target, and then loaded up one last arrow and shot it into the ceiling.
The whole display took about thirty seconds.
“Tony hates when I hit the roof.” Mr. Barton gave him a smirk. “It’s concrete. You’re not supposed to be able to get an arrow to stick in concrete.”
Kurt’s mouth was hanging open, and he looked up at the last arrow. It was stuck firmly in the ceiling— along with a bunch of others that he hadn’t noticed before— and the rest were stuck fast in the targets.
Mr. Barton was still grinning at him. “Impressed yet?”
Kurt couldn’t even pretend. He just nodded dumbly. “Wow .”
Mr. Barton laughed. “Come on, let’s get the arrows. Most of ‘em should work fine for another round or two.”
With another nod Kurt followed Mr. Barton out to the range. He half expected the man to pull out more arrows; he could probably shoot one through the window before they would even realize what was happening. He tossed a glance over his shoulder at Scott… even his older brother looked at least a little impressed, and Kurt couldn’t help but be excited about that.
“What do you think?” Mr. Barton started pulling arrows from the first target. Kurt’s eyes widened as he noticed that the second arrow he had fired at the target had actually split the first arrow. Glancing at the other targets, he realized that this was true for all of them. “Am I as cool as Iron Man yet?”
“ Way cooler.” Kurt grinned widely. “He just has a suit of armor, right?”
Mr. Barton fist pumped the air, and Kurt giggled. Soon they had an armful of arrows, most of which they would be able to reuse; excluding, of course, the five that had been skewered.
“That should be all of them,” Mr. Barton said as he plucked the last from the ring around the middle target. Then he gestured up to the ceiling with a smirk. “Except for that one, of course, but we can’t exactly—“
“I can get it!” Kurt burst out. Mr. Barton stopped, raising an eyebrow at him. But Kurt didn’t wait to hear what he had to say… this was his chance! So he quickly ran and darted to a corner of the huge room, the one where the target wall met the wall with the elevator. The walls were smooth, sleek, made out of some sort of plaster. There were no handholds at all… but that, of course, didn’t matter to Kurt. He lept into the air, quickly kicking at the wall as he did. It gave him just enough traction to move up so he could kick at the wall again. He was basically able to run up the corner, kicking alternatively at each wall, until he had parkoured up to the ceiling. It was made of intersecting tiles of concrete that had thick supports running between them. Kurt was able to grab the supports, his strong fingers nearly sticking to the surfaces even as gravity dragged at his fur. He glanced down long enough to see Mr. Barton staring at him, then grinned and scuttled along the ceiling to where the arrow was embedded. Soon he grasped it, pulled it out, and waved it at Mr. Barton in triumph.
“Got it!”
The Avenger made a noise of affirmation and shock that had Kurt grinning even wider. He quickly shoved the arrow into the pocket of his hoodie, then quickly shimmied along to where a few more arrows were stuck. Those also disappeared into his pocket, and then he glanced at the floor. How high up was he? It wasn’t that far… maybe twelve feet? He had to make an impressive finish. This was cool, but it wasn’t real showmanship…
Yet .
Kurt looked down, made eye contact with Mr. Barton, then let go of the ceiling. Instantly he was dropping, upside down as he began to fall. He could hear a loud gasp and grinned. He quickly twisted, tucked himself into a ball, squeezed his eyes shut, and concentrated. He had to grit his teeth and strain, but after a moment he smelt brimstone and a cloud of smoke engulfed him. Then he was further down, only six or seven feet above the ground. There was no time to waste; he quickly twisted into a flip, a twist, and then landed in a crouch on the floor of the archery range.
There was a minute of stunned silence. Kurt was breathing pretty hard, but he grinned hopefully at Mr. Barton. Was that too much? Too little? Was he trying too hard to show off?
Mr. Barton blinked slowly, his mouth open as he ran a hand through his sandy blonde hair. “ Wow. ”
Kurt’s tail twitched. That was a good “wow”, right? It sounded like a good “wow”. And Mr. Barton’s shocked expression had morphed into an open-mouthed smile. He chuckled.
“You weren’t kidding. You’re definitely a circus kid.”
Kurt took that as a cue to hop up and bend over in an over dramatic bow. “The incredible Nightcrawler, mein freund!”
Mr. Barton laughed again. “Is that what they called you? Because that was definitely incredible.”
Kurt kept his smile and shrugged, despite the little twinge of self-consciousness that ran through his shoulders. He called himself that. And Logan had. That counted, right? “Logan did all the time,” he added for good measure.
“Logan? Mr. Barton bent down to pick up a couple of arrows; he must have dropped them while he was watching Kurt. “Was he your ringmaster?”
Kurt felt his back go rigid. No. No. He shook off the feeling as quickly as he could, but the “ No! ” that he tossed at Mr. Barton came out a bit sharper than he intended. He swallowed quickly and felt himself trying to shrink back. “I-I mean no, he… he wasn’t, he wouldn’t—”
Mr. Barton looked up at Kurt as he cut off with a sharp inhale. He didn’t want to continue that thought. He didn’t want to think about the ringmaster, and he definitely didn’t want Mr. Barton thinking that Logan was anything like that. Kurt blinked, his tail twitching anxiously behind him as he tried to get his mouth to move. He felt shaken, his brain felt jumbled. Focus. What was the word in English? What was the word in German? He couldn’t quite remember what Logan’s role was in the circus… and he didn’t really want to.
But he did remember Logan, and the thought of the man made his grin return. He grabbed the memories and held them tightly, forcing them to exist over any bad ones. Soon, he was smiling again, and he pressed forward. “He was my friend,” he said simply, more fuzzy memories coming back as he spoke. “He was also a mutant. And he could heal from anything! ”
Mr. Barton smiled. To Kurt’s relief, he did not seem to notice the way that he had faltered. That was good. There was nothing wrong. There was no reason to think about it any more. He could just focus as Mr. Barton spoke. “I don’t know if there were any mutants in my circus. Maybe the strongman… he was always a colossus. But the acrobats were some of my best friends.” He nodded up at the ceiling, where Kurt had dropped from. “Is that what you did? Acrobatics?”
”Uh,” his smile faltered again and he glanced away, flicking his tail as he focused on pulling the arrows out of his pocket. Would it be a lie to say yes? He… No, no , he was an acrobat, of course he was an acrobat. He smiled again, quickly shoving certainty into his voice. “Yeah, yeah that's what I did!”
“I always loved the acrobatics show,” Mr. Barton said with a little shake of his head. “You guys are always the act people come to see. Archery's just a side thing.”
Kurt felt a tiny flash of guilt, like he was an imposter. But he quickly shook it off. He was an acrobat. He was . If he believed it, then everyone would believe it. “No way! You’re the world’s greatest marksman, you’re the guy people want to see!”
Mr. Barton chuckled, and Kurt grinned. “Well, let me show you how I got started…”
They were standing at the black line again, and Mr. Barton handed Kurt his smaller bow back and started talking him through the process. Stringing the arrow, notching the arrow, how to pull it back, how to keep control… it took Kurt a few times to actually get the arrow to fly, but by the end of the hour he had hit the target a few times. Nowhere close to the bullseye, but Mr. Barton assured him that he hadn’t even hit it his first time training. Kurt wasn’t sure if he believed that, but he didn’t say anything. It was the circus. Reality could be whatever you wanted it to be.
He was still buzzing with excitement long after Scott shut down their practice and took him back to their room. Even by the time he was sitting in the living room that night, long after the others had all fallen asleep, he still itched with the excitement from earlier. Would Mr. Barton ask him to try shooting again? He hoped so, he really hoped so. Scott hadn’t said anything against going again… but, then again, he hadn’t said much of anything about it. Kurt really hoped his brother wasn’t upset at all. He hated when his brother was upset, especially when he was the cause.
He sighed into the silent room, leaning against one of the walls near the elevator. Tentatively, he spoke. “Herr JARVIS?”
“ Guten nacht, Herr Kurt.”
Kurt smiled at the sound of his AI friend’s voice. He curled his tail around his leg and rubbed the blue spade between his thick fingers as he looked out the nearby window. The whole city was bright under the dark indigo sky and hardly any stars were visible against its glow. “Herr JARVIS, did… do you know if Mr. Barton knew we’ve been talking?”
“ No, not that I am aware,” the AI said, still in German.
Kurt rubbed his tail a little more before responding, also in his native tongue. “Have you… told anyone?”
“ No.”
He smiled, breathing out a small sigh of relief. “Thank you.”
“ Do you not want people to know that we talk?”
He shook his head quickly. “No, no, you’re my friend! I don’t mind if people know.”
The AI’s voice didn’t quite carry emotion, but Kurt thought he sounded slightly concerned. “ Then why were you worried?”
He kept his eyes fixed on the short carpet beneath him. Not that there was really anything to look at, but… It was like JARVIS could sense that there was more than minor embarrassment in his thoughts. His tail twitched under his fingers. His fangs poked at his bottom lip, and he had to inhale and shut his eyes against the sudden surge of emotion. There were so many things that he had told the AI. There were so many nights when he had just talked without thinking, without caring if he was speaking German or English, without worrying about the concerned glances that his siblings would give him or the questions that would come with his fears, with the scars that he carried, with the fact that he had never been a part of the performances and acrobats or anything that would let him step out of his cage—
No. No . He didn’t want to think about that, about any of that. JARVIS wouldn’t tell anyone about his nightmares, or… or anything. No. None of that mattered.
He was an acrobat. A circus kid. And Mr. Barton didn’t mind how he looked.
That was all that he wanted to think about.
He let his tail drop against the carpet and he leaned back against the cool elevator doors. He thought again about the archery lesson, and he latched onto the warm feelings that came with that. It was good. It was fun. It was one of the best things that had happened to him since he met his siblings. Clint Barton was so cool, and he was really a circus performer. He was a circus performer who was kind and who didn't care how he looked. It was amazing.
After another moment, he spoke. “Herr JARVIS?”
“ Yes?”
“Do you think Mr. Barton is a good guy?”
“ Yes, I do.”
Kurt let out a small breath and smiled into the darkness. “I think so too.”
Notes:
Kurt has bonds with literally everyone including JARVIS <3
Also they boy has been through a lot, he needs some hugs. But don't worry, hugs are coming... None of these kids really have any innocence left, but Kurt is trying to pretend that he does. It's not working as well as he thinks it is.Hope you guys enjoyed this one! Totally a fluff chapter and not at all angsty! :D
German translations via Google Translate:
Ja= yes
Danke= thank you
Kätzchen= kitten
Herr= Mr.
Guten Tag= good day
Jawohl, einen moment= yes, just a moment
Deutsch= german
Guten nacht= good night
Chapter 37: Boundless Energy
Summary:
“Lots of energy today, huh?”
“Yeah, tons!” Sean said, maybe a bit too enthusiastically. “But, y’know, makes sense since I’m finally really back on my feet now, I know the stitches came out a while ago but…”
“Yeah, yeah, I get it, trust me I’ve had plenty of the post-injury jitters myself.” Mr. Barton grinned. "Plus, you’ve all been cooped up in here for weeks. What if we get out of here for a little while?"
Notes:
Sean chapter!! Whoo!! I love this guy, I don't feel like he gets enough attention in fics OR canon.
Just so you know there's a bit of talk about ADHD in this chapter from a person who does not have ADHD, so I apologize if it reads badly in any way!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
It was awesome to be able to finally run again. Like, really run around without Scott or Rogue or someone yelling at him for almost breaking his stitches or aggravating the cut or messing with the healing or anything like that. His leg didn’t hurt at all now so he could run and run as much as he wanted and no one could stop him. He wished he had super speed powers so he could really run off all the energy that seemed to be running through him, constantly demanding he move or run or do something other than sit in a boring old room and do nothing like everyone else was. How could other people just sit around? He had been sitting around for way, way too long while his leg got fixed up, and now all of his energy was bursting at his seams and itching beneath his skin. He was going to go nuts if he couldn’t move and get some of it out —
“Sean!” He skidded to a stop, his thoughts scattering as he turned sharply on his heel to face a sharp glare from Rogue who oh crap, she looked mad, she definitely looked mad. She was sitting on the couch, her white bangs drifting into her eyes before she blew them out of her face with an annoyed huff. “If you don’t stop, I’m gonna hafta take the gloves off and knock you out to make you sit still for once.”
Sean let out a laugh. “Yeah, yeah, I know I know!” Her glare didn’t leave him. She wasn’t serious. Right? No way was she serious… right? Oh man, yeah, he should probably be safe at least, just… just in case…
He slowed down enough so that he was just trotting as he left the living room, but as soon as he ducked into the hallway and was out of Rogue’s sight he sped up again. He ran to his room and threw himself on his bed with a mighty leap that nearly tangled him in the mess of blankets that he had left completely unmade and then rolled over so he could sit up. He pulled up his leg to look at his scar for probably the fifth time that day, who knew how many times throughout the week. It was gnarly— that’s what Dr. Banner had called it when he and Scott had gone to get it fixed up the first time. “Gnarly” didn’t really sound like a science word, which surprised him, since Dr. Banner used so many science words like lac— lacera— laceration? Was that the word? Sean couldn’t quite remember, but it was a really big word that basically just meant a cut and Sean asked why he didn’t just call it a cut and Dr. Banner laughed which made Sean feel pretty good. He liked making people laugh, especially Dr. Banner because he was so smart so if he could make a joke that made a smart person laugh there was no way he could be as dumb as he felt sometimes. Right? Yeah, that made total sense.
His leg looked so much cooler with the scar, and he couldn’t wait to see it fade more so that it was just blended into his skin, like the scar Scott had on his arm from one of their fights or the ones that Kurt had on his back and didn’t like to talk about, but Kurt’s looked different of course because he was blue obviously. Warren had some cool scars too, but he didn’t really like to talk about them either and Sean had never really seen them clearly. He didn’t know why, the Professor always said that battle scars were memories and marks of fights that had been overcome, stories to tell. But then, Warren didn’t know the Professor as long as he and Scott or anyone else had. But Warren was always super tough anyway; Sean hoped his scars would make him a bit more like Warren. His scar was still a bit red, still kinda fresh, and if pressed on it too hard it still hurt a bit, but it was good enough to the point that the little scratches had faded away and all the stitches were totally gone and he could really be active again. Scott would probably let him do missions now, if they were going to do missions at all. It was so much harder since Scott insisted on them going around the Avengers, and they hadn’t even done anything since the one he hadn’t been allowed to go on— which had still been totally unfair but whatever. He was back to training, at least, that was a good thing, but they were only doing little exercises and things because they only trained and practiced when Mr. Barton wasn’t there. They couldn’t even practice their powers, like, at all because Scott didn’t want Mr. Barton seeing their powers if they could avoid it. And, y’know, broken widows always seemed to be something everyone was worried about.
Mr. Barton had been coming down every single day since the mission. Like, every day for more than a week, more than two weeks, almost three weeks now. Three whole weeks! And that meant they had been at Avengers Tower for more than an entire month! Sean still couldn’t quite get over his excitement that they were still here. It seemed surreal. Scott had told them so many times that they would leave soon, and at first he had believed that, he had really believed it after the mission, but then after a while it had been harder and harder. And now they still hadn’t left! He was a little disappointed that he hadn’t seen more Avengers yet, despite the fact that he kept asking Mr. Barton about them. He knew that Iron Man was hurt at the moment so he couldn't really see him again right now and that Thor was in space or something, but he hadn’t seen Captain America yet, or the Hulk, and Black Widow was only, like, twice. Yeah, Hawkeye was cool and he was starting to think he was cooler and cooler the more he hung out with him, but he still was, like, the sixth Avenger. He wanted to at least meet Captain America before they were moved somewhere else, like Scott kept saying they totally would be.
He hoped that Scott was wrong. He liked it in the tower, maybe even more than he liked it at the Institute. But… Scott was his big brother. And Scott was never wrong.
Sean huffed, already bored and already sick of sitting on his bed. So he hopped up and started to run back toward the living room/kitchen area to see if he could find anything to do… and the moment he was out of his room he ran straight into Hawkeye.
Sean stumbled back with an “oof”, and Mr. Barton just blinked in surprise for a moment before fully registering what happened. “Woah! Woah, sorry Sean, I—“
“S’okay!” Sean said quickly, already back on his feet. “Sorry, my fault, I was runnin’ too quick and I wasn’t lookin’ where I was going, my bad!”
Mr. Barton let out a little laugh. “Lots of energy today, huh?”
“Yeah, tons!” Sean said, maybe a bit too enthusiastically. “But, y’know, makes sense since I’m finally really back on my feet now, I know the stitches came out a while ago but…”
“Yeah, yeah, I get it, trust me I’ve had plenty of the post-injury jitters myself.” Mr. Barton grinned. “Kitty told me you’ve been driving everyone a little nuts.”
Sean flushed. “Aw, come on, she’s only saying that ‘cause I took the last of the cereal she likes this mornin’. I’m not actually drivin’ anyone nuts…” He paused. “Well ok, maybe Rogue, but everybody ‘cept Kurt drives her crazy somehow. Have you noticed that? I dunno what he does. Everyone drives her nuts.”
Mr. Barton laughed again at that. “Well, I mean, you’ve all been cooped up in here for weeks. You’re bound to start driving each other a little crazy.”
Sean nodded furiously. “I know! I mean, I love it here, don’t get me wrong, this is still like the coolest thing in my life ever, but it’s one floor and again it’s awesome and I love it but, like, all of us in here at once is crazy! ”
Mr. Barton grinned playfully. “All of you guys anywhere is crazy.”
Sean laughed loudly, the way his dad used to when he was really, really little. His dad always had the coolest laugh, the kind that stuck in his mind no matter how long it had been.
Mr. Barton chuckled with him for a moment, then turned to the side. “Hey, what if we got out of here for a bit? The three of us?”
Three? Sean blinked in surprise, suddenly noticing that Scott was in the hall with them. How had he not noticed him sooner? Probably because he was just watching them with his usual Scott-copyrighted stare that meant they couldn’t get away with anything. That stare had been pointed at Mr. Barton pretty much any time he had been in the room with any of them over the past month, which was nice because it meant that Sean got a break from being the default subject of the look but also kinda annoying because Mr. Barton hadn’t done anything at all and Sean really didn’t want Scott to scare him away. Scott could be really, really scary when he wanted to be, but that was usually just when he was fighting bad guys. Sean didn’t understand why he would want to be scary around an Avenger, it didn’t make much sense to him.
“What do you mean?” His brother asked suspiciously. Even though he was still being hesitant and scary, it did seem like the suspicion in his voice had gone down over the past month at least a little bit. Scott seemed to be more tired than actually hostile at this point.
“Don’t worry, nowhere super public or anything,” Mr. Barton said with a shrug. “And it’s cool if not. But just a park or something. Central Park’s too… well, central , but I know some smaller ones that would let anyone who wants to come run off some energy. If you wanted.”
Scott frowned at him. “Really? Just like that?”
“I mean, we’re not doing much else… unless you had plans?” Scott kept frowning. “Come on, Scott, when’s the last time you’ve been out of this tower? You guys need some fresh air.”
“ Please , Scott?” Sean pleaded. Now that the idea was in his head, he felt like he had to get out of the tower. It was super cool, obviously, and he still hadn’t stopped freaking out about the fact that he was actually in Avengers Tower but he had also been in Avengers Tower for the past month, and even the coolest walls in the world got old after a while. “Please, please, please?”
Scott kept his arms crossed, but after a moment he sighed and let his shoulders droop. That was plenty good enough for Sean, who let out a loud whoop of excitement.
“Just us three,” Scott said slowly, though Sean thought it looked like he was glancing toward Kurt’s room where he and Kitty were playing with Warren. Maybe. It was so hard to tell where Scott was looking with the visor. But that would make sense; Scott probably didn’t want to have Kurt outside, they’d had way too many close calls for that. And Rogue would want to stay with Kurt… Warren or Kitty probably could come and it seemed a little unfair to leave them, but Sean was just happy that they were going at all and he wasn’t about to complain.
He was running toward the elevator before Mr. Barton and Scott even stopped talking. Did they mean right now? It sounded like they meant right now. He hoped they meant right now. He was ready to go right now!
He heard Mr. Barton laugh, and then the other two were following. Sean was practically vibrating with excitement as they piled into the elevator. Soon they were down on the ground floor, and Mr. Barton and Scott were making the decision to walk to the park instead of driving or taking a taxi. Sean liked that idea, he liked it a lot. Even if he couldn’t run ahead because Scott grabbed his hand and kept a hold of him the whole way so that he wouldn’t get lost in the crazy New York crowds it was awesome to walk. And the fresh air — well, as fresh as New York air got at least. Rogue had lived in more country places for a long time, and she didn’t like the city air. Sean liked it though. He and his mom and dad had lived in the city even before he lost them and ended up living with other people. He liked the city a lot. The only place he wanted to go other than the city was Ireland, and that was only because of how much his dad used to talk about it and how cool it was. Ireland probably wouldn’t have city air.
The park didn’t have as much city air either. It was bright and green and open and there was so much space! There were people there, but Sean didn’t care; the moment he could pull away from Scott he was darting around, looking at everything! The trees, the grass, the dirt, the acorns, all of it seemed so much cooler than it usually would because it had been so long since he’d been outside. He used to be outside all the time because they had such a huge backyard at the Institute and he always liked to be outside when he was at foster homes and stuff. But now since they had moved into the Tower it had been so long since he’d climbed a tree, since he’d rolled in the grass, since he’d looked up at the sky and been able to see so much of it!
He had no idea how long they were at the park. Scott didn’t like it at first, and Mr. Barton didn’t really seem to know what he was doing, but Sean soon pulled them into the fun. It wasn’t hard to get Mr. Barton to climb a tree with him, which Scott watched from the ground until Sean dropped enough acorns on his head to goad him into a grin. By the time they began to slow down, the sun had started to disappear behind the buildings and the park was bathed in gold. At that point Mr. Barton flopped down on the grass with a dramatic groan.
“How do you still have energy? ” Mr. Barton gasped, his limbs splaying out against the grass as he shut his eyes.
“How do you not? ” Sean grabbed Mr. Barton’s hand and tried to pull him to his feet, but the man just laughed.
“Seriously, I’m wiped, kid.”
“Come on, please!” Sean pulled harder, but the Avenger didn’t budge an inch. Even Scott seemed exhausted as he stood a few feet away, but Sean still had energy. Yeah, he was tired, but that didn’t mean they were done! He could keep going! “Just a li’l longer?”
“You know, Bruce— Dr. Banner— he mentioned something about you maybe having ADHD.” Mr. Barton laughed. “I don’t know much about how that works, but I think he might be right.”
Sean stopped pulling and cocked his head. “AD-what? What’s that?”
Mr. Barton groaned and pushed himself into a sitting position in the grass. He ran a hand through his hair and squinted one eye in concentration. “Active… something. Huh. What does it stand for…” He pulled out his phone, and Sean flopped down on the grass as he typed something into Google. “Ah, here we go. Attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder.”
“Disorder?” Sean frowned. He didn’t like that word. He didn’t like that word at all. That’s what those jerks at Hope Industries and Worthington Industries and other jerky places called things like mutation even though mutation was actually super cool. It was a mean word.
“ Disorder is a bad word for it.” Mr. Barton frowned at his phone before reading something else off. “It says it’s a “chronic condition including attention difficulty, hyperactivity, and impulsiveness”. It just means you have a hard time… sitting still and stuff, oh know? And you have a ridiculous amount of energy in some circumstances.”
Sean frowned harder. He did have a hard time sitting still. And he did have a hard time keeping his mind on one thing sometimes. He just always had a lot to think about, a lot that he wanted to do. Was that not normal? Was that not how people usually thought and acted? Was that why he annoyed Rogue and Kitty and Warren sometimes?
Was there something bad about that?
“Hey, Sean.” Mr. Barton leaned closer, and Sean looked up at him. “It’s nothing bad! Don’t think that.”
Sean sniffed and rubbed at his eyes. They were suddenly itchy. “Can you read minds?”
Mr. Barton laughed. “No. But I didn’t mean to make you feel sad or anything. ADHD is really cool, honestly.”
Sean frowned. “It doesn’t sound cool.”
“That’s cause Google can be dumb.” Mr. Barton glared at his phone, and Sean couldn’t help but laugh a little. “You’re right. It doesn’t sound very cool here. But it just means your brain is wired a little differently. It means you’re unique.”
Sean perked up a bit at that. Unique was a good word. He liked that one. It was a lot better than disorder . “Really?”
“Yeah,” Mr. Barton nodded. “I mean— this might be a bad example— but take my hearing aids.” He turned his head and tapped the little purple device in his ear. Sean kept forgetting those were there. “I can’t hear well. Does that make me a worse superhero?”
“ No! ” Sean exclaimed. “No, you’re awesome Mr. Barton!”
The man grinned. “And you’re awesome too Sean. ADHD’s a lot different than, you know, deafness. It’s almost like an extra superpower.”
Sean puffed up a bit at that. He liked superpower a whole lot better than disorder . “Bein’ deaf is like a superpower too!” Sean said quickly. Being deaf had to be sucky; he didn’t want Mr. Barton to think that he wasn’t a good Avenger because he couldn’t hear. “If anyone attacks you with sound, then you don’t have to worry about it!”
Mr. Barton chuckled. “That’s true, that’s true.”
“And all the hand motions you and Miss Tasha make!” Sean tried to imitate some of the movements he had seen the two spies making with their hands, but he couldn’t quite remember any. “It’s like you got a special language!”
“Well, we do.” Mr. Barton made some hand movements as he spoke, probably signing out the words he was saying. Sean watched in amazement. “It’s called sign language— ASL. You don’t have to be deaf to learn it… I could teach you, if you want?”
Sean bounced up and down, excitement throbbing in his chest as he nodded vigorously. “That would be awesome! ”
Mr. Barton chuckled, then groaned and moved to stand. “Tomorrow, though. Not tonight. I’m about to fall asleep on my feet.”
Sean laughed heartily. “You can’t fall asleep on your feet!”
“I can, and I have.” Mr. Barton shot him a wink. Then the Avenger was leading them out of the park, with Sean clamoring for the sleep-on-feet story while Scott followed at their heels. As it turned out, Mr. Barton was a really good storyteller.
Just like Sean’s dad.
He missed his dad. And his mom, of course. But it was the hazy, bittersweet kind of missing. He knew his dad wasn’t here anymore, just like the Professor wasn’t here any more; now he had Scott, and Kitty, and Rogue and Kurt and Warren.
And maybe even Mr. Barton.
They’d been hanging out with Mr. Barton for a long time now. Sean was slowly starting to think that he was cool. Not Captain America cool, but maybe he was, like, the fourth or third Avenger.
Scott kept saying they shouldn’t trust Mr. Barton. That they’d move on soon. And Scott was never wrong. But… Sean couldn’t help hoping that maybe, just this once, he was.
Notes:
Just a note, I do not personally have ADHD and I honestly almost rewrote the end of this chapter entirely out of self-consciousness but decided to stick with it because I think it's a sweet moment. I based this version of Sean off of my little brother who I am 90% sure has ADHD, and the conversation between Sean and Clint was kind of based off of the conversation that my brother had with my parents when he was diagnosed with dyslexia. Also, one of my beta readers has ADHD and read over this chapter for me (thanks again Blizzy!). All of that to say I do not personally have ADHD but I did my best to write this conversation as accurate to a ten-year-old being told he has an "attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder" as possible, and I hope it turned out alright! <3
Anyway I don't know why I've always thought of Sean as a super active character but listen, there's not a ton of content with him compared to the other characters in this fic so I was kind of incorporating a lot of personal headcanons into his character, lol. Let's give it up for Sean, probably the least traumatized of these six kids with his two dead parents and history of foster parents getting fed up with him for being so energetic! :D
Chapter 38: On Top of The World
Summary:
She felt it. She felt her blood running with the pure adrenaline of anticipation, her heart pumping in time with the base, and every word seemed to bring the music closer. She could feel the thrumming excitement of the crowd and she could hear a hundred voices singing out with her own as each song played. It felt like she was a part of something bigger than herself, even despite the distance.
But somehow, she knew it still wasn’t the same.
Notes:
Someone pointed out the "hugs used as a plot device" tag like 20 chapters ago and HERE IT IS, the main reason that I included that tag (which is one of my favorites on this fic haha)! I'd say this is a fluff chapter but no there's definitely a dash of angst so I guess it's a hurt/comfort chapter... comfort that has been deserved for a long, long time.
Enjoy!!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
“A concert?”
“Yeah? The opening act, at least.” Clint’s confidence had obviously ebbed with every word, to the point that he was now rubbing the back of his head awkwardly as he spoke. “I can see how that could be a bad idea though. You totally don’t have to. I just… you know, you’re always wearing band t-shirts… actually, do you even like The Score? I was just kind of assuming, it’s completely fine if you don’t, but I saw they were the opening of a concert later this week and I thought…”
Rogue gaped at him as he began to ramble despite her attempts to keep her cool. A concert? Was he serious? There was no way he was serious.
There was so much wrong with this situation. All of it. She had expected them to be long gone by now. She had expected Clint Barton and the Avengers to ship them off to foster care long ago, and she had long given up on staying together as a group. She had been fully prepared to be stuck back in foster care, fully prepared for things to go wrong and for her to have to run. Again.
And yet here she was, over a month into living with the Avengers, and Clint Barton had bought tickets to a concert. For her.
This wasn’t how it was supposed to go.
“Again, we don’t have to go if you don’t like them. I can just—“
“No!” Rogue exclaimed without thinking. Doubts shot up inside her, asking her why he was doing this, what his motive was. She shoved those thoughts aside, casually brushing her bangs out of her face as she did. “I mean, yeah, I do like The Score… how’d ya know?”
He chuckled and pointed to her hoodie. “I mean, when we were buying stuff your only request was for band names and long sleeves. You seem to wear that one a lot.”
Rogue could feel her pale cheeks flush as she glanced down at the hoodie, which clearly said The Score . Right. Of course it was obvious that she liked them. But… well, none of her foster families had ever noticed things like that, no matter how wildly she dressed. It was one of her little acts of defiance, she supposed, to take their mind off of her mutation. But most of them just ignored it, maybe chastised her for it. It never seemed to make a difference. No one actually acknowledged that it was something she liked .
She frowned, her memory flashing back to the morning that Clint had leaned across the kitchen table, his voice sharp as he addressed her by her given name. She had been sure that was it, that he was just like all the fosters she had lived with before she ran. Everything was back to black and white. Everything was clear for just a moment.
But since then… she couldn’t make sense of his actions.
Why was he doing this?
“I just noticed they were in town,” Clint was continuing to ramble. “I need to talk to Scott, but…”
“I can talk to Scott,” Rogue cut in. She wasn’t blind. She knew that Scott had been hovering sulkily over everything all month. She knew he didn’t want any of them alone with the Avengers… but she also knew that he understood that she could handle herself. She knew that Scott would trust her and Warren on their own with the man more than he would trust any of the little kids. In all honesty, that was probably the only reason that he wasn’t in the room at the moment. That, and the fact that he was preoccupied by Sean’s latest crazy idea, which Rogue was firmly set on staying out of. He wouldn’t like this, that much was obvious.
But she wanted to go. She loved concerts, and to see one of her favorite bands? She would convince Scott one way or another. She could make him see.
But she didn't understand it. What was Clint trying to get out of this? Plus, concert tickets had to be expensive. Every adult cared about the price tag on an activity.
She gave him a frown, then threw out the question. “What about money?”
“It’s a Central Park show, so it’s relatively cheap. Plus…” Clint laughed. “I’m past caring about money, honestly. To a point. I’ve got plans to get a friend to wire me something so that I don’t go completely broke, but I work for him so I’m sure I can find an excuse.”
Rogue frowned. She didn’t like the sound of that. She didn’t want to feel like she owed him. Plus, which of the Avengers had the most money? “That friend isn’t Tony Stark, right?”
The smile disappeared for a moment. “No. No, I’m not going to be asking him for money for a long time.” Her expression must have changed because he quickly raised his hands. “Not because of anything you guys did. I mean, yes, Scott… but no. It wasn’t any of your faults. It was my own.”
He sounded genuinely sorry. Rogue wasn’t sure how to feel about that, so instead she focused on the money question. That was what a lot of foster parents seemed to care about.
“Then a work friend?” Rogue’s frown deepened. “SHIELD?”
Clint nodded, and Rogue felt an uncharacteristic flash of panic. SHIELD could mean so many things, so many things that could be so much worse than foster care. Warren and Kurt were both proof that there were worse things possible for them. Rogue would do anything to keep Kurt from going through even a sliver more of what he had already survived. If there was even a chance that taking money from SHIELD could lead to her brother being locked up again, then she wanted nothing to do with it.
“Don’t worry, don’t worry,” Clint said quickly, apparently concerned by whatever expression crossed her face. “No one at SHIELD knows about this, somehow. Phil’s a good friend, he knows that I wouldn’t ask for an expense if it wasn’t necessary. I’ll write it off as something related to my last mission, he won’t ask questions, and I’ll probably end up doing something else for SHIELD off the books later on. That’s how we work.”
Rogue couldn’t help the suspicion that she felt. She always thought Scott was overbearing, but right now she totally understood his endless concerns. “Why would you do that?”
Clint paused. “What do you mean?”
“That's a lot of trouble to go into for us. Especially for concert tickets.” She regarded him suspiciously, her eyes narrowed and her arms crossed tightly against her chest. “That’s not exactly a necessary expense.”
“The clothes were, though. And food.” He sighed, running his hand through his hair. “I’m sorry. I don’t want you guys to think that I’m being overbearing or anything. Or that you’re being a weight by being here. I’m only talking to you about the money stuff because I promised to be more truthful with you guys. I’m not sure if I'm doing it right.” He winced a bit, then chuckled. “But it doesn’t really matter. Some people are worth that trouble.”
Rogue snorted. Yeah. Sweet . He obviously was trying to mean her. BS . She knew what she was worth, and it sure wasn’t concert tickets.
But she did want to go. She had no idea how Clint had guessed how much she had always wanted to go to a concert, the thrill that shot through her those few times that she had stuck herself outside the gates of some artist or another as they played, wishing she could be in there and share in the energy of the crowd. But of course, she never had money. And even if she had been able to slip into the crowd, there was one huge reason she never risked it. Well, almost never.
She dropped her head, her white bangs falling across her forehead. Her hands suddenly felt conspicuous, and she pulled at them to make sure her gloves were on tight.
“I… I couldn’t go. Even if I wanted to.” The words physically hurt her to say, but she knew they were the right ones. There was no way. She couldn’t. It wasn’t worth the risk.
Clint’s smile broadened. “Actually— please don’t be offended— I thought about that. I’ve got it all figured out. In fact, I don’t think we would even technically even have to pay, if that really bothers you.”
Rogue raised an eyebrow. Clint’s excitement from when he first offered up the idea returned, and he nodded.
“We’ll have our own seats, totally away from everyone. You don’t have a problem with heights, right?”
Now she was even more intrigued. And even more confused as to why Clint was doing this.
But the thought of the experience had her shoving caution to the side. Whether it was a bad idea or not, you only get to live once… she wasn’t naive enough to think an opportunity like this would come up again.
“I’m gonna talk to Scott,” she said. “And I guess we’ll see…”
Talking to Scott definitely took work, but three days later Rogue was walking out of the tower next to Clint Barton. Honestly, for what it was, the conversation had been easier than she had expected. Scott didn’t seem happy, but his arguments seemed half hearted. It almost felt like he was struggling to find a reason for her not to go. Of course he still found plenty of reasons, but those only hardened Rogue’s resolve and by the time they had come to a conclusion, she was confident in her decision. Scott simply seemed resigned, at this point.
The sun was going down by the time the pair made it to the park. The darkness that fell did nothing to help with the heat, which Rogue was suffering though in full jeans-hoodie-gloves fashion as per usual. To his credit, Clint hadn’t said a word about that. Instead he’d chatted about… well, everything else. He commented on the weather, the sunset, the trees and the people and the animals and everything that came with Central Park. He was like Sean, a nervous talker, and the thought made Rogue smile a bit against her will. He talked, they walked, and soon they were in the middle of Central Park.
Suddenly Rogue realized how strange it was to be alone. Not alone, exactly, but without the people that she had begun to think of as siblings. She hadn’t been away from the other X-Men for… years . Ever since she’d found Kurt… how long ago was it? Two years now? Since then she’d either had Kurt by her side or, once Xavier found them, one of the other X-Men. Sure, she’d go off on her own once and a while, but in reality she hadn’t left like this to go just do something for fun… well, for two years.
It was strange. She wasn’t sure if she liked it or not.
“Come on.” Clint’s steady stream of chatter slipped into a more targeted, focused train of thought. He shot a cocky grin at her and nodded away from the growing crowd around the ticket booth. “This way.”
Rogue didn’t argue. She followed after him as he started along a path that seemed to wind around the back of the marked-off area. Already she could feel a buzz of energy around her, the excitement of chattering teens walking the opposite direction clinging to her as she followed Clint farther into the park. They walked under the trees for a bit until he stopped, nodding to a giant metal pole stuck in the ground to one side of the path.
“You said you’re fine with heights, right?”
Rogue was not about to back out now. She nodded, and followed Clint’s lead as he pulled open a door on the side of the pole. It was thick, about the width of a tree trunk, and had just enough room inside for Clint to squeeze in. Soon he was shimming up a ladder that was bolted to the inside, and Rogue quickly followed.
“This is a maintenance hatch for one of the flood lights.” He called down as they climbed. “It’s probably supposed to be locked, but it never is. Turns out it makes a pretty good free seat.”
There was an echo around them as they neared the top. “How’d you find it?”
“Well, I’d like to say I know the repairman, or I found it while trying to break in or something.” He pulled himself up to the top of the ladder, then turned around and reached out a hand to help her up. Rogue carefully avoided it. “What actually happened was I found it while fighting the Chitauri, believe it or not.”
“Chitauri?” Rogue heaved herself up the last rung of the ladder and carefully scooted out onto the wire-mesh floor. They were high up; the little holes in the floor made that obvious. Rogue swallowed quickly before glancing up at Clint, who was standing in one corner of the small space. “Like, the aliens?”
“The ones from the New York fight, yeah.” Clint motioned her forward to the front of the space. It was like a little box with the ceiling cut off, nothing but the wire mesh floor keeping them and the giant floodlight twenty feet off the ground. “I chased a few back here at one point… ok, maybe it was more of them chasing me. Or both, I’m not sure. I saw the ladder, climbed it in a panic— I mean, to get a better visual. So I could shoot them with my arrows.”
Despite herself, Rogue smirked. “Obviously.”
“ Obviously . Anyway, I looked out and I remember thinking ‘man, this is a great way to get free seats’.” He swept a hand out over the side dramatically. “Well, what do you think?”
Rogue stepped over to him and cautiously peered over the edge. The moment she did she inhaled sharply. The giant flood light was just to the side of them, already shining on the stage in the rapidly increasing darkness. But it only blocked a fraction of the view, a view that encompassed nearly the entire park. In every direction the green of Central Park spread out, trees and grass dark in the light of the setting sun until they stopped abruptly at the gray edge of the city. And right there in the middle was a crowd, a huge, teeming crowd surrounding a small stage. Well, in reality the stage was probably huge as well, but in the midst of all of those people it could very well have been a stump in the middle of a field. There were a few figures milling about on the stage, adjusting whatever final touches to the equipment needed to be added while the crowd moved about on the ground— and they had a perfect view of all of it.
She had been expecting something amazing. Somehow, this was even better.
“It should be starting in…” Clint glanced at his phone, but before he could finish speaking someone stepped onto the stage and picked up a microphone.
“Ladies and gentlemen! Welcome!” Apparently there was a speaker also mounted to the light pole, because the voice boomed out just below them. It was loud, so loud that the metal beneath them shook with its force. A thrill went up Rogue’s spine, and Clint laughed.
“Now, I guess!” Clint shouted over the roar of the crowd. “Guess we have good timing!”
Rogue rolled her eyes. She thought about adding some kind of sarcastic comment, but the voice on the speakers was far too loud for him to hear anything she said. Plus, the energy was so thick in the air that she couldn’t keep back the grin that was splitting her face.
“…And now, please give a warm welcome to tonight’s opening band… The Score!”
The crowd roared below them, and Rogue had to shout with them. The exhilaration was pumping through her veins, and Clint let out a whoop next to her as the lights on the stage brightened, changing colors to create a bright flash as the band members stepped onto the stage. Almost instantly a familiar guitar rift started, and Rogue’s grin somehow widened even more.
“It’s Unstoppable!” She shouted over the noise. Clint nodded furiously, grinning down on her in just as much excitement as she felt. No , that couldn’t be true, because there was no way he was nearly as excited as she was. She felt like every nerve was on edge as she leaned over the flimsy railing as far as she dared, the crowd practically throbbing beneath them as they all moved forward. Each note was amplified by the speaker next to them, to the point she could feel the music literally thrumming in her veins. Soon, there were lyrics accompanying the music.
There’s a moment, in your bones when, when the fire takes over.
She felt it. She felt her blood running with the pure adrenaline of anticipation, her heart pumping in time with the base, and every word seemed to bring the music closer.
It was soon pretty obvious that Clint had no idea what the words were to any of the songs. But Rogue didn’t care; she mouthed the lyrics for Unstoppable, but by the time a few songs had gone by and All of Me started up, she was belting each line. It was impossible not to; even from up on the floodlight, the energy from the crowd was contagious. She could feel the thrumming excitement of the crowd and she could hear a hundred voices singing out with her own as each song played. In a way, it felt like she was a part of something bigger than herself, even despite the distance.
But somehow, she knew it still wasn’t the same.
About five songs in, the concert seemed to slow down a bit and the lead singer took a small break to talk to the crowd. His voice was booming out next to them, but it was calm enough for Rogue to hear Clint as he grinned down at her.
“So?” He panted, both of them a bit breathless from the excitement. “What do you think?”
“It’s…” Rogue shook her head, smiling broadly as she tried to think of the best way to say what she was thinking. “ Incredible .”
“Yeah, it is.” Clint looked down at the crowd as the next song started up, his face bright in the blue-tinted lights. The people below looked like one huge mass of teaming, pulsing energy. From this high, it was impossible to tell one person from the next. He chuckled. “Looks like we got the best seats. I mean, look at that— it wouldn’t be as fun to be down in that.”
“Yeah…” Rogue trailed off. The exhilaration dulled for a moment, covered up by a familiar aching numbness that settled in her chest. She glanced down at the writhing crowd, their energy and noise only serving to add to the weight that she suddenly felt. Her fingers worked along the hem of her sweatshirt, as if she was trying to find something to hold onto. “I guess.”
“I mean maybe it’s not quite as fun but…” Clint’s excitement seemed to trail off as he noticed Rogue’s downcast expression. “Hey. You ok, Rogue?”
Rogue opened her mouth, but she couldn’t make herself say yes like she knew she should. She should be fine. She was on top of the world, watching her favorite band next to her favori— one of the better adults she’d met in her life. Clint Barton wasn’t bad, not like a lot of people she had met. He was nice. He helped them, for some reason. He even apologized— or at least, attempted to apologize— when he messed up. He seemed almost good . She should be happy to be here with him.
And yet that weight in her chest was still there, growing heavier by the moment as she stared down at the crowd below her. Melancholy. She had heard that word somewhere, in one of the many homes she had been through. Some English professor trying to help her put her feelings into words… at least, she had been trying to before Rogue’s fingers had accidentally brushed against her hand. Now the word was burned into her brain.
“I like crowds, y’know.” She had no idea where the words came from, let alone what let them slip out. But once they did, she couldn’t stop them. “I love ‘em. I always see big crowds like this on TV or out the window and I can feel that energy. Y’know? When you’re part of a crowd, it’s like you’re part of somthin’ bigger than yourself, something bigger than you’ll ever be.”
She took a deep breath, her eyes squeezing shut as words continued to tumble from her mouth. She should stop. She knew she should. “But I can’t. I’ve tried. I’ve gone into crowds before. I thought long sleeves could be enough.” A dry laugh passed her lips. “It was a circus. That’s where I went. It was the best night of my life… until I saw a whole row of mutants. A whole row, in cages. It scared me, I stepped back and I ran into a little boy. My sleeve slipped, he was grabbing popcorn, and it just…”
She had to stop; her breath was coming in short bursts, and she felt a stinging sensation behind her eyes. “I left four people knocked out that night. I… I don't know what happened to ‘em. I ran.” She shook her head. “That’s what I’m best at, anyway.”
Clint was quiet. “Running?”
“That’s why I go by Rogue. That’s what I am. I always run from my problems.” More of that truth built on her tongue, and she hesitated, eyes cracking open to stare down at the crowd below. The unsaid words tasted bitter, and she knew they would simply rot if they were left in her mouth. She’d already said so much… what did she have left to lose?
“My… my mom’s name was Marie.” Even just saying the name out loud sent a stab of pain through her heart. “Anne-Marie. At least, that was what they told me. I never met her. I killed her.” Bitterness welled up in her, adding somehow to the weight pulling at her chest. “Right when I was born. Dad thought it was the mutation; that’s why he gave me up. He thought I was a killer, a curse, somethin’. And after a while…” she glanced down at her gloved hands. They were shaking. She hadn’t even noticed. “I couldn’t really disagree.”
There were a few beats of silence between the two, punctured only by the roaring crowds and music from below. Somehow, despite the speaker right next to them, it felt more distant. Rogue almost wished that a louder song would start, if only to provide a distraction from the look that Clint was giving her.
“So you changed your name because it reminded you of her?”
Because I didn’t deserve it. The words once again hovered on her tongue, but these ones she choked back. “I ran away a few times. Some of the other kids started callin’ me Rogue. I decided it fit.”
The silence returned. Rogue felt her heart pounding almost unnaturally in her chest, nearly in sync with the pulsing drums from below. She didn’t recognise this song, but it was one of their slower ones.
I’ve been living on high hopes, now they’re crashing through…
She let out a huff to herself. Part of that was definitely true for her.
“Rogue.” She kept staring at the crowd until Clint said her name a second time. Then she glanced up at him, watching him cautiously through her white bangs.
What was she thinking? Had she ever talked that much about her past before? To anyone? Why on earth had she decided to spill so much to Clint Barton, of all people?
She couldn’t quite read his face in the brightness of the lights below them, but she was sure he had to be scared. Revolted, maybe. Or even pitying. There was a range of possible emotions, none of which she wanted to see.
She should have kept her mouth shut. This was a nice night. She shouldn’t have ruined it. But she always managed to suck the life out of a situation… why did she think this would be any different?
“Can I give you a hug?”
She blinked. The words hung in the air along with the music, and she wondered if she had heard them wrong. “What?”
“Only if you want to,” Clint said. His voice was calm, steady. It was not afraid. It was not pitying either, but there was definitely a deeper emotion behind his eyes. “I don’t want to make you uncomfortable.”
Rogue hesitated for another moment as she tried to process what he was saying. It didn’t work. She didn’t even know what she was doing as she gave him a tiny nod.
Clint scooted over, and the next thing she knew strong arms were wrapped around her shoulders. She froze, her eyes wide for a heart stopping moment as images and memories flashed through her head, and she held her breath as she waited for Clint to drop, to crumple like dead weight and the horrible rush to fill her as his life force rushed into her skin.
But it didn’t.
He was careful, and he didn’t brush her skin in the slightest. Her hoodie was thick, her gloves still pulled tight over her hands, and he was aware of that. And as that realization came— the realization that she wasn’t going to kill him, that he wasn’t going to be hurt the way that everyone was— she found herself melting involuntarily into the touch.
There was a solidity to his hug. She could rest her head against his shoulder, and he did not move away from her. He was warm, his arms were gentle and strong, and she found that she couldn’t help but cling to him. She could smell the scents that clung to him— coffee and sweat and whatever the Avengers shooting range smelled like in the mornings— and it was oddly comforting in a way that she hardly knew another person could be. It felt wrong and right at the same time, the feeling of something alive touching her. It was so foreign to her that it was terrifying, as if it would suddenly stop any moment.
When was the last time she touched someone like this? Kurt. That was it, and only because he had learned to touch her safely while they were on the run together. And that was because she knew that he needed the physical comfort even more than she did. Scott, Sean, Kitty, Warren… she had refused to let them touch her. Gloves or not. Maybe a passing brush, or when she would tend to injuries with her gloves on tight, but not if it could be avoided. Not for something as trivial as a hug.
Professor Xavier had wanted her to practice her powers with them, and that was the place that she drew the line. She would do a lot for Xavier after he gave her and Kurt a place to stay, even to the point of using her powers against people that they fought. But practicing her powers against her siblings … no. She just couldn’t risk it. Not even in a safe environment, not even in a passing touch… it was too much. These people meant too much to her. She couldn’t risk hurting them in the way that she had hurt so, so many people in her life. Hugs were never something that she even considered.
She hadn’t hugged someone other than Kurt in… more years than she could think of.
Clint seemed to sense the intensity in her grip, and he tightened his own. She could feel him breathing, his chest rising and falling under hers, and part of her mind screamed to pull away before she hurt him… but she couldn’t make herself. It felt too good to touch someone else and know that they were alive . She wanted this. She shouldn’t but she did , and she hadn’t realized just how much she had until Clint had offered it.
“It’s ok, Rogue.” His voice was barely a murmur next to her ear, to the point she wasn’t even sure if she was supposed to hear him over the music. “It’s ok.”
There was stinging behind her eyes again, but this time it felt strangely good. The weight in her chest shifted. It didn’t leave, but suddenly… it didn’t feel so bad.
She wanted to believe his words. And, somehow, it actually seemed like she might.
She had no idea how long they stayed like that, but Clint never pulled away. It wasn’t until she finally pulled back that he let go.
She sniffed, rubbing a hand across her eyes as inconspicuously as she could. Whether or not her glove came away wet, she wasn’t sure. Clint’s gaze had drifted out to the crowd that was still throbbing below them. He was smiling, his face illuminated by the bright purple and yellow stage lights beneath them. The smile looked genuine, somehow. It looked more genuine than anything she had seen in a while. Beneath them, the crowd continued to roar.
Rogue leaned back and found that she was more relaxed than she had been in a long, long time. The lights continued to shift on the stage below, and the mass of people on the grass were impossible to make out individually. Her eyes slid back over to Clint. He was looking away from her, eyes focused on the concert below them, tapping his fingers to the beat of the song. It was a completely different one than it had been earlier, another one that she didn’t recognize.
I’ve been breaking these walls in my mind and whoo…
They’re breaking down.
The music pulsed in her ears, and Rogue felt it somewhere deep within her chest. It was powerful, and it somehow matched the way that her skin seemed to simmer beneath her hoodie. She felt good . Fragile, in a way, but good . She felt better than she had in a long, long time. Suddenly, she realized that she didn’t mind the distance of the crowd as much anymore. Now, it felt better to simply watch from above.
“Maybe these are the best seats,” she admitted after a moment.
Clint’s gaze slid over to her, eyes widening ever so slightly in surprise before softening into something else entirely. The expression was something comforting. A cocky smirk slid onto his face to cover it, and he leaned back to mirror her.
“Told you so.”
She grinned, brushing her bangs back so he could see her roll her eyes. The song continued to blast through the pulsing crowd beneath them, and each note sent a small thrill down her spine.
I’m on top of the world…
A small smile slipped across Rogue’s lips. For once in her life, she really was.
Notes:
Is this an unrealistic representation of a concert? Heck yeah. These two would be waiting for like an hour for the opening band to come out and there probably aren't even floodlights like this in Central Park. But honestly we have enough awkward refusing-to-talk scenes in this story, so I decided to rush it for the sake of Bonding.
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Also yes making Rogue's favorite band The Score was 100% self indulgent because that is my favorite band, please go check them out they are SO COOL!!
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Chapter 39: Better Not to Breathe
Summary:
"Yes, coffee and M&Ms go well together.”
“Really?” Warren wrinkled his nose. “I don’t know about that.”
“Don’t bash it till you try it!” Clint pointed a finger at Warren jokingly. “You never know, alright? It’s good.”
Notes:
Ok this is another of my absolute favorite chapters in this story. Warren deserves more love from the fandom! Hope you enjoy this one!
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Chapter Text
At this point, Warren probably knew Avenger’s tower as well as the Avengers themselves did. Well, maybe not as well as the Avengers; their floors were the only ones he avoided, after all. But a visitor to the tower? He could probably direct them anywhere they needed to go. The bathrooms on the first floor? To the left, down the first hall, can’t miss ‘em. Need to have a meeting with Pepper Potts, or some other Stark Industries person? Main meeting rooms are on the third, fourth, and fifth floors— A-D on third, E-H on fourth, I-L on fifth. Avengers-related meeting? Those are up on floor twenty. Need to get from floor to floor without the security cameras catching you? Yeah, he had that figured out too.
Scott knew that he roamed the building. They didn’t need to discuss it. There was a silent agreement between them— Warren made sure that they knew the ins and outs of the building, Scott left him alone to do it. It was a good truce; it gave Warren the space he needed, and it kept him from crowding Scott’s style. Sure, it meant that he spent some time away from the others, but sometimes he needed that. Sometimes they needed that.
Warren tried not to feel isolated from the others, he really did. But sometimes… he just needed to be by himself. And Scott was their leader, the oldest brother. It didn’t matter that Warren was actually the eldest— Scott was the first X-Man, the one to welcome each of them into the family. Warren was the new guy, the question mark. In terms of trust, he was the youngest despite his age.
Sometimes, it was hard not to feel isolated.
Warren took a turn down a random hallway. He was on the fourth floor now. There were four main meeting rooms on this floor, all of which were currently unoccupied. The bathrooms were to the left, across from the elevator. The stairs were in the back right corner, one room away from the vending machines. The ventilation system overhead connected each room. It also connected them to the floors above and below. They were small vents, not quite big enough to crawl through like the ones that piped into the gym. Warren had paced this floor hundreds of times, to the point he could do it in his sleep. Plus, there was only one security camera in each conference room; he could walk the halls without concern of surveillance; hence why it was his go-to spot whenever the others were “training”.
That was the other thing. The whole “ mutant martyrs ” deal. Maybe it was because he only knew Professor X for a few months, but… it had never clicked with him. Yes , he wanted to help, yes, he saw the value in the X-Men. For him, for Scott, it was a way of life. They were fighters; soldiers. Both of them had been made into that, whether they wanted it or realized it. But the way Xavier preached it to the younger ones, to the kids… Warren always found it better to step out when they were being trained to fight for the rest of their lives.
He grit his teeth, rolling his shoulders tightly to distract himself from his thoughts. His harness felt tight today. Extra tight, somehow, even though he always wore it as tight as it could go. He could feel his feathers cramping up, and his muscles were stiff and sore from an intense self-training session the night before. Usually the harness didn’t bother him, at least not much, but today it felt like it was digging into every part of his wings.
He rolled his shoulders again with a wince. When they twinged again, he found himself glancing over his shoulder. The hallway behind him was empty. The entire floor was empty. He was away from the cameras. He didn’t plan to leave for another half hour, at least. Maybe he could…
Just as he was debating shrugging off the harness, there was a soft whirr sound behind him. He whipped around, fists instinctively drawn up to his sides . Elevator . And he had paced himself right into a corner, the hallway with a straight shot to the elevator doors. Anyone who came out would see him instantly. They would have questions.
He set off in a mad sprint, hoping to at least be able to duck into one of the conference rooms before the elevator stopped, but his hand was only just on the handle as the doors slid open to reveal…
Clint Barton.
The mutant froze, and the Avenger blinked.
“Warren?”
“Oh. Hey, Clint.” Warren slipped easily into a nonchalant voice, quickly readjusting his position so that instead of desperately grabbing at the door handle, he was leaning casually against the wall. He forced himself to relax, or to at least look like he was. Then, he topped off the look with a smirk. “Fancy seeing you here.”
“Same.” Despite Warren’s forced relaxation, Clint’s voice was lined with light suspicion. He stepped out of the elevator, his eyes darting along the hallways as if he expected more of their group to jump out. “Are the others…?”
“Back in the room,” Warren shrugged as loosely as he could… which honestly, wasn’t very. But Clint seemed to relax a tiny bit.
“Alright. You scared me for a second there.” He raised an eyebrow. “What are you doing down here?”
Sheepishness flitted across Warren’s features despite his attempts to keep a cool demeanor. Totally not hiding from my adopted family. Totally not trying to avoid watching my little siblings teach themselves to be weapons. Nothing like that . He decided that the best answer would be to turn the question right around on the Avenger. “What are you doing down here?”
Now it was Clint’s turn to look sheepish. “I asked you first.”
“No, no, I’m actually curious now,” Warren pressed. “What brings an Avenger down to some random conference floor?”
Clint chuckled, his hand running through his sandy blonde hair as he glanced to one side. “Ok, look. These vending machines are an entire dollar cheaper than the ones up on the Avenger’s floor. A whole dollar! I refuse to get ripped off by Tony Stark.”
The smirk on Warren’s face was no longer just a facade. “Really? That’s why you’re down here?”
“Hey!” Clint protested seriously. “You laugh, but a SHIELD salary is what a SHIELD salary is. I can’t afford to pay ridiculous prices for M&Ms.”
Warren shrugged again. “These ones are still ridiculous.”
“They are, aren’t they?” Clint sighed, but shrugged. “Well, I’m in too deep now. It’s an addiction.”
“I thought coffee was your addiction.”
“Who told you that? Natasha?”
“She didn’t need to. You have ‘coffee problem’ written all over you.”
“ Problem? ” Clint shot him a glare, but it held humor behind it. “That’s it. I was going to offer to get you something, but never mind. You can find your own two dollars for the ridiculous vending machines.”
Warren chuckled. “You know you can get the same thing at the grocery store for, like, a fraction of the price.”
“They don’t taste the same,” Clint muttered, half to himself and half to Warren as he started walking down the hall. Warren went ahead and followed him, hoping that he had successfully derailed the topic from what he was doing on a floor that he technically wasn’t supposed to be on. He wasn’t sure what excuse he could give… that he got lost? Got lost doing what? Hopefully he could just skirt the question.
Of course, the best way to do that would be to keep the conversation going. As they walked, Warren tilted his head toward Clint. “So… M&Ms?”
“A man can have multiple addictions,” Clint said defensively. “And yes, coffee and M&Ms go well together.”
“Really?” Warren wrinkled his nose. “I don’t know about that.”
“Don’t bash it till you try it!” Clint pointed a finger at Warren jokingly. “You never know, alright? It’s good.”
Warren shrugged disinterestedly. Clint scoffed. They stopped next to the vending machines, and he reached his hand into his pocket to dig for change.
“That’s it. I’m buying two packs of M&Ms and you’re coming with me to try them with coffee.”
Warren leaned against the wall with a smirk. “Again, you could get a giant bag of them from Kroger or something for the same amount.”
“Yeah, but we’re not at Kroger, huh?” He kept rummaging in his pocket, frowning as he tried to find money. “I thought I had some… You know they make coffee M&Ms, right? Like, M&Ms with coffee beans.”
“Sounds gross.”
“Sounds like art . Whoever made those is a pure genius. Those are the best M&Ms by far, I—“
Clint was still speaking when suddenly Warren heard something. It was a whirr from the other side of the floor, one from around the corner where they just came from. It was a familiar noise, one that he had heard just moments before. Elevator.
Warren nearly cursed under his breath. Really ? He had come to this floor dozens of times throughout the past month, and never before had someone come down while he was checking the place out. And now two people in one day? What was with his luck?
Clint had apparently heard it too, because he shot Warren a slightly panicked glance. Warren almost wanted to laugh at the Avenger being panicked at being found by the vending machine, but voices could be heard now as people stepped out of the elevator.
Their eyes locked, and Warren could tell they both had the same instinct; run .
Vending machines abandoned, Warren and Clint sprinted down the hall as silently as they could. The noise of footsteps was already coming closer; there were at least four people, from the sound of it, one of them a Stark Industries employee who was showing them around. A business meeting? Really ? Even though Stark was still recovering from Scott’s blast? It must have been urgent, or maybe it was just something Pepper Potts was handling. Whatever the case, it didn’t matter; the group was between them and the elevator, and to get to the stairs they would have to cross the gap and totally expose themselves. Clint shot Warren a quick glance before yanking the nearest conference room door open. Both of them ducked inside just before the group rounded the corner. Warren waved Clint forward, quickly leading him to the farthest corner of the room where two cloth-covered tables were shoved for future use or something. Warren vaulted over them and Clint followed, the two of them crouching quickly in the small space between them. Soon the sound of their heavy breaths was the only thing in the room. They shot a look at each other, and Warren couldn’t help but grin at the look of exasperation on Clint’s face. The man met his eyes, and soon they were both snorting out quiet, breathless laughter.
“The timing there.”
Warren smirked. “Bad luck.”
“At least we got out before they saw us,” Clint hissed, glancing over his shoulder in the direction of the door. “I’m probably not supposed to be down here. There’s three other rooms, right? There’s no way they—“
Clint didn’t even finish his sentence. As he spoke, the door was shoved open and the bright voice of whatever Stark Industries employee was leading them filled the room. Clint clamped his mouth shut and shot Warren an incredulous look of pure “ you’ve got to be kidding me ”. Warren returned it with a roll of his eyes, barely biting back a laugh. Was the situation ideal? No. But it was pretty funny .
“—but of course, it shouldn’t be too long. I will send Miss Potts down here as soon as possible. It shouldn’t be longer than ten minutes.”
Clint groaned silently, leaning his head back against the wall as he did. Warren bit back a chuckle.
“Of course, of course. That’s perfectly fine.”
The unuttered chuckle died in his throat.
Clint shot him another glance, mouthing “ come on” as he did, but this time, Warren couldn’t return it. Suddenly he was frozen in place, his blood running cold as he tried to process what he had just heard. That voice—
“We’re happy to wait.”
No.
He had to be hearing things.
“Wonderful. Thank you for your patience.” The door opened again, and they could hear it shut as the employee left. Warren tried to force air into his lungs.
It wasn’t… well, no, it was perfectly possible, wasn’t it? Of course it was, but no, no, that couldn’t be—
“So what now? We just wait?” Another voice, probably the voice of some company representative. It fell flat and almost distant on Warren’s ears, as if he was bracing himself for whatever else he might hear.
“I suppose so. Like she said; it shouldn’t be long.” The second voice echoed like a bullet through the silent room. Warren felt like a bucket of ice had been dumped over his head.
No. No.
Beside him, Clint’s grin had dissolved into a mildly concerned frown. He mouthed Warren’s name silently, but Warren didn’t acknowledge him. His breathing was heavy, to the point that he was worried that the people in the room would hear him. They were talking, but Warren was too shell-shocked to make sense of what was being said.
No . It couldn’t be. It just couldn’t be—
Determination welled up in Warren’s chest, and he grit his teeth. He had to know. He had to be sure. Before he could think better of it he leaned up, his heart pounding as he peered over the table as quickly and as inconspicuously as possible.
There were three people in the room, two men and a woman. Two of them had pulled out chairs from the conference table in the center of the room and taken a seat. The third was still standing, his back to the corner they were hidden in. He was wearing a suit, chuckling quietly at something one of the other two had said. He was tall, blonde, perfectly pressed and punctual as he nodded sharply. He was familiar .
The laugh. The suit. The hair.
Warren stopped breathing.
One of the two sitting nodded at something the man had said, their lips almost moving in slow motion as they smiled. “Well put, Mr. Worthington.”
Warren’s blood turned to ice.
Something moved in the corner of Warren’s vision and he instinctively flinched. There was a hand on his shoulder and he jerked away, barely catching himself from knocking the table over. His heart was pounding in his chest, his blood rushing in his ears. He could feel the floor beneath his hands, but he could hardly tell what the material was. All he could feel was his skin crawling, itching, burning with memories of all the things that came with that voice.
No , no , no , no. This had to be another nightmare. It had to be, it had to be.
But in a nightmare it was always him back there, not… not him here, not in the tower, not this .
Everything was too close. The walls were closing in, trapping him. The space was too small, his lungs too small… he had to stop breathing so heavily. They would hear. Then he would… no, no no, Warren couldn’t go back, he wouldn’t go back—
But what if that's why he was here? What if someone had let it slip, what if they hadn’t been cautious enough, what if one of the Avengers told him that they were in the tower?
He couldn’t breathe.
“Warren?” Someone hissed his name in his ear, and Warren pulled his hands up in defense. Not that it would do anything to protect him, it never did, it never helped but he could still try. He had to protect himself as best as he could, hope that somehow it would do something and not just make his punishments worse—
The air was thick in his lungs. Why couldn’t he breathe?
“Warren?” There was the voice again and Warren couldn’t answer because he knew they never wanted an answer, they never wanted him to speak, they only wanted him to be still and to be quiet even if he couldn’t because it hurt, it hurt so much—
Maybe it would be better if he couldn’t breathe. Then at least he wouldn’t feel it when they cut him open.
“Warren!” There was a hand on his shoulder now, and Warren’s fist moved even as he flinched away. The hit was clumsy though— he couldn’t see where he was hitting. What was he hitting?
All he could think of was that voice, that voice calmly asking for statistics, asking for results. Or not so calmly. Always demanding more, always taking and taking and taking— what would it be this time? No, no, no , he couldn’t lose his wings. Not again. Not again —
His vision was black and spotty, and he realized that he really couldn’t breathe.
What point was there in breathing anyway?
“Warren!” The voice was louder this time. Calloused hands grabbed his own, and suddenly he felt something moving under his fingers. “Feel that? Feel me breathing?”
That wasn’t the voice in his memories. That wasn’t the voice that brought pain.
Warren nodded shakily.
“Good. Good. Focus on that, ok?” The voice was a whisper, but somehow it cut through the blood rushing in Warren’s ears. “Alright. Try and breathe with me. Can you do that?”
Warren tried. He tried to inhale. But something told him that he had to be silent, and again fear rose up to choke him.
“It’s ok Warren. Just breathe.”
The voice was steady. Warren wanted to believe it. He wanted to breathe.
Air filled his lungs— choppy, uneven, but still air. He inhaled again. And again.
Slowly, painfully, the world came into focus. He could feel the short, rough carpet beneath his hands. He could see the black table cloth inches from his face. He could feel the steady breathing of Clint Barton, who had Warren’s hand pressed to his chest. He could feel the rise and fall of the man’s chest beneath his palm. He could feel it grounding him.
As things came into focus and his heart slowed its pounding, Warren cast his eyes toward the archer. Clint was staring at him, his chest moving with heavy breaths as his wide eyes locked onto Warren’s. There was something in his eyes— a panicked look, but also one of… familiarity? Concern? Sympathy? Maybe all of the above, probably more.
The look of someone who had experienced this sort of panic before. It was the look of someone who had pulled someone out of this sort of panic before.
They sat there a moment, just breathing. There was still blood rushing in Warren’s ears, but it was quieter now. He felt shaky. He felt lightheaded.
He felt terrified.
“Are they—“
“They’re gone.” Clint held up his phone. “Natasha helped us out.”
Now he could really breathe. It felt good to let his chest expand, to let the weight lift off of it. He could breathe. He could also really realize what just happened.
He lost it. He panicked. He panicked in front of Clint Barton. But of course, why wouldn’t he panic? His— that man was in the same building as him.
The thought was almost enough to make him spiral again, but he held on with gritted teeth and clenched fists. He couldn’t spiral. He had to be steady. He had to.
Clint was still staring at him in concern. “Warren—“
“I’m fine,” Warren muttered as firmly as he could. His shaking voice didn’t help.
“No. No, you just had a…” Clint paused, and took a deep breath. It was as if he didn’t want to say it, so he pressed on instead. “Warren, who was that? What just triggered… that ?”
The question was loaded. It was so loaded that it almost took Warren’s breath away again. Instead, he forced himself to speak“I don’t know.”
“Yes, you do.”
He opened his mouth to deny it again, but no words came out.
Clint’s gaze was even and steady, if a bit confused. “That was one of Tony’s business partners, right?”
Warren didn’t speak. But when Clint refused to go on, he gave him a tiny nod.
“Alright then… is he the Hope Industries person? The one you guys fought?”
Warren shook his head before burying it between his knees.
“Then who was it?”
He didn’t respond.
“Warren, I don’t want to push you. I just want to know what’s going on so we can avoid it in the future.”
He stayed silent.
“…You know, I can ask Pepper, or the lady at the desk, or even Tony. But I’d like to hear it from you.”
A sigh slipped past Warren’s lips. He was exhausted. He was stressed. He was still shaking, however much he wanted to stop . He just wanted it all to stop .
He grit his teeth, and muttered the name. “Worthington.”
“…Worthington?”
“Worthington Industries. That’s who that was.”
“And that means…?”
Warren pressed a palm against his eyes, willingly forcing spots into his vision. “Just google it.”
There was a beat of silence. Then he could hear the sound of typing.
He could see it now. The google page that he knew he should never look at… and yet any time he logged onto a computer, he couldn’t help it. The website for Worthington Industries would pop up first, under that would be the most recent articles about the company’s latest innovations, their growth, whatever mindless charity form had been filled out to make them look good. Stuff about their vocal concern about the “mutant menace”. Stuff about their adamant search for a “mutant cure”. Maybe even stuff about how their research leapt forward about fourteen and a half years ago with no true explanation. And whatever article, video, or website that Clint clicked, there was sure to be the same man smirking in his suit and tie as he waved at an adoring crowd. There was sure to be that man, the one with his demanding laugh and cruel smile as he proclaimed that he was working for the good of humanity.
Warren could hear the occasional tap as Clint clicked his phone, his eyes undoubtedly scanning the pages. The gears in his mind must have been turning, his mind processing the images that he scrolled through. For a while, that was the only sound in the room.
“Alright,” Clint said after a moment. “Warren Worthington.”
“The second,” Warren muttered bitterly.
He could feel Clint’s eyes slide to him. “Yeah.”
It wouldn’t take a genius to figure it out. They were carbon copies of each other. They had the same blonde hair. They had the same blue eyes. They had the same angular shoulders, the same build and complexion, the same sharp laugh. They even had the same name.
Warren just had wings.
He waited for the questions to come. He waited for Clint to make the connection, to demand why exactly he panicked. He waited for the man to demand why exactly he was here, in the tower, with a ragtag group of orphan mutants when his father was just in the same room.
He balled up his fists, grit his teeth, and waited.
“Alright.” Clint moved next to him, grunting a bit as he stood up. “Nat’s distraction isn’t going to last much longer. They’ll be back for their meeting any minute; how about we make our escape before they get here?”
It took the words a few moments to get through Warren’s skull. He blinked, and lifted his head from his knees. Clint was already standing, glancing toward the door to make his point. Warren waited again, but there was nothing else. There were no questions being asked, no answers being demanded. There was nothing. Nothing was being taken from him, and that confused him more than anything.
“That’s it?”
Clint glanced down at him. A small, almost sad smile twisted the corners of his mouth. “I’m not going to ask,” he confirmed, as if that was not an impossible statement on its own. “If you want to tell me, you’ll tell me. I just needed to know who to avoid.”
It was an assurance. It was an invitation. Warren glanced down at the ground, his wings digging into his back beneath his harness. He wasn’t going to talk. He didn’t want to think about… about anything. He didn’t want to be associated with that man. Even more than that, he didn’t want to see the pity that would be in Clint’s eyes. He didn’t want to be seen for what he was.
Beaten .
Broken .
He was supposed to be the strong one, the wild card, the one willing to do things the younger ones couldn’t. He was supposed to be the fighter, the survivor, the one who had seen the world and had survived.
Not the caged animal who shut down at the sight of his captor.
He still expected more. He expected Clint to pry, to demand to know, to go after the wings… that was all anyone ever wanted, after all. The wings . They always wanted the wings .
But the room was still silent. There were no questions. No answers. Nothing .
Clint reached out his hand, and Warren flinched. But no blow followed the movement. There was no pain. Clint just kept his hand outstretched, waiting to see if Warren would take it.
After a moment, he did.
Notes:
*munches on M&Ms innocently* sooooo... what'd y'all think? :)
Chapter 40: Nothing Makes Sense
Summary:
Scott squeezed his eyes shut, his visor shifting ever so slightly as he rubbed a sore spot between it and his temple. It really had been sore lately. He had hardly taken the visor off since the incident, since the night that he lost control.
What exactly could he do? What would be his defense if the Avengers were to try something?
Why was it getting harder and harder to imagine Clint Barton trying something?
Notes:
IT'S A LIGHTER CHAPTER TODAY I PROMISE!! Or maybe "lighter" isn't the right word, but definitely not as dark as the last one, dang.
The Avengers have gotten bonding chapters, the X-Kids have as well, everyone seems to actually be building a bit of trust... how is Scott handling this?
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Chapter Text
Scott couldn’t understand it.
The games. The clothes. The kind words.
Clint Barton.
There was nothing about the man that he understood. There was nothing about the man that followed anything that he had come to expect. There was nothing about this entire situation that had gone the way that it was supposed to, the way that it was meant to, the way that it always did . This was supposed to be the point where it fell apart. It was supposed to have fallen apart a long time ago, back when he had first stared Clint Barton in the face and said ‘ no ’.
He had pushed back against the man’s every word. He had lost control. He had hurt someone. He had tried to shove the Avenger away, tried desperately to keep his family close even as he prepared himself to lose everything. He had done everything in his power to make things harder for Clint, both intentionally and by accident.
And yet… they were still there. All of them. They were still in the tower.
It just didn’t make sense.
How many times had this happened in his life? How many times had he slipped, had he lost control? How many houses had taken him in, only to cast him out the moment his guard weakened? How many times had he hurt people? How many times had he been stuck in the same cycle?
He had thought he had finally beaten it. He had thought he had found a real place, with someone who truly cared. Charles Xavier saw his brokenness as something good … or at least, something that could be used for good. He thought he had a purpose. But of course, the Professor left him too. So then he thought he’d escaped it, made his own life with his siblings. He thought he’d be able to carry on the Professor's mission on his own. Then he thought the system had snatched him back, trapped him in the same cycle once again with Clint Barton as the just latest installment of a never-ending stream of people.
Now… now he didn’t know what to think.
Nothing made sense. Nothing followed the patterns. Nothing matched what he had come to expect.
Clint Barton made no sense.
Scott buried his head in his hands, breathing slowly. The room was empty. His siblings were dispersed between the four rooms, probably playing Jenga for the hundredth time since Clint had bought it for them. They loved that game. They loved the tower too. They loved that Clint was coming to visit daily now.
Despite everything, Scott wasn’t blind. He could see what was happening. He could see how Clint was bonding with his siblings, how he was steadily worming his way into their lives.
Kitty practically idolized him. He played with her, talked about her favorite cartoons, never made fun of her for acting like a little girl. She would talk often about the latest cool thing that Mr. Barton had told her, and would usually be the first to greet him when he came down for his daily check-ins.
Kurt seemed to strive for the man’s approval. Between the commonality of their circus background, the archery lesson, and the fact that Clint didn’t care about his appearance, the eight-year-old would do almost anything from a smile from the Avenger. And it wasn’t hard for him to earn them; Clint Barton only had to look at the little boy for a grin to cross his face. And yet, somehow it didn’t seem connected to how Kurt looked, his skills, his tricks, anything of the sort.
Scott had caught Sean slipping up, accidentally calling Hawkeye his favorite Avenger despite his past devotion to Captain America and Iron Man. He and Warren would have long arguments about which Avenger would win in a fight, and suddenly Sean was convinced that Hawkeye was the strongest. At some point over the past several weeks he had gotten a purple Hawkeye T-shirt, and he wore it more often than all his other Avengers T-shirts combined.
Even Rogue had warmed to the man. After the concert that Scott had begrudgingly let her go to she seemed… almost different. She was less cold toward the Avenger. She had definitely forgiven him for the “Marie” incident, though she brushed off Scott’s questions as to why. He had even seen him touch her— a hand on her shoulder, a friendly nudge— without her snapping at him. Even with her dangerous skin covered, that was not an easy feat.
And Warren… something had happened between him and Clint, even if Scott had no idea what it was. The slightly older boy was still the newest of their group, had still only been with them for a bit over a year, but that didn’t mean that Scott couldn’t sense the change in him. He was more comfortable around the man. At this point, he was even comfortable enough to let his wings out, something that he hadn’t even done at the Institute for a full month. And honestly, at this point, Scott didn’t have the energy to stop him.
He squeezed his eyes shut, his visor shifting ever so slightly as he rubbed a sore spot between it and his temple. It really had been sore lately. He had hardly taken the visor off since the incident, since the night that he lost control. He hadn’t even taken it off to sleep. He couldn’t risk it; he couldn’t risk jeopardizing the fact that, for once, his siblings seemed happy . Even if he didn’t trust it, he couldn’t deny it. He also couldn’t deny the fact that he could ruin it all in a moment.
Maybe Clint was being nice to his siblings. Maybe he claimed that everything was ok. But that didn’t mean Scott wouldn’t still face retribution. He knew it would come. He kept expecting it to come. What exactly? SHIELD? CPS? The Avengers themselves?
He didn’t even know anymore. They shouldn’t be here, at the tower. He had already ruined it.
So why were they still here?
His head shot up as he heard the elevator, and he quickly shook himself out of his thoughts, a familiar tension settling in his shoulders. It was almost noon, that’s when Clint usually came down. That was why Scott was settled on the couch, keeping guard.
“ Keeping guard ”. That was almost laughable. What exactly could he do? What would be his defense if the Avengers were to try something?
Why was it getting harder and harder to imagine Clint Barton trying something?
The hum of the elevator was difficult to hear under the patter of rain against the windows. It had been raining all day, much to Sean’s annoyance. He had been hoping Clint would take them back to the park, maybe with all of them this time. Scott couldn’t bring himself to tell the kid anything other than that the gray, cold weather was too bad for that. Was it really getting cold already? Where had the summer gone?
The elevator doors slid open, and Scott stood up with a quick inhale. He was prepared for Clint Barton to be there. The man had been coming down every day, and it had become almost familiar. There was a rhythm that they were falling into, as strange as it was. Some things, Scott had even begun to expect.
What he wasn’t expecting was for there to be another person on the elevator.
Scott inhaled again and this time, it was almost strangled.
That was Tony Stark walking out of the elevator.
Clint walked out first, smiling and exchanging banter with his friend as Tony followed. But then he caught sight of Scott. Almost instantly he froze, and alarm flashed over his features. His eyes darted to Stark, then to Scott, then back to Stark. “Oh! Crap, I didn’t think this through, uh… Scott, I forgot you’d be right here—“
“You know what, this is perfect.” Stark stepped forward, clamping a hand on the taller Avenger’s shoulder before shooting Scott a wide, showy smile. “This keeps the awkward transition out of the way, doesn’t it?”
Was the man waiting for a response? Scott couldn’t tell. And if he was, he wasn’t sure he could give it. His tongue was dead weight in his mouth.
Tony Stark. Iron Man. The Avenger he had put in the hospital .
What was he doing down here? Why on earth was he smiling at him , of all people?
Scott glanced over his shoulder, his gaze sliding over toward the hallway to the other rooms. His siblings were all safe, right? No one could have slipped past him. He had been there, in the main room, all day. No one could have passed without him knowing.
But this had to be it. This had to be when the news came, when they took them away. Why else would Clint bring his victim down here? Scott was just surprised it wasn’t sooner, when the wounds were fresher. Then they could really show him what exactly he had done.
“Sorry to spring this on you…” Clint was speaking, his voice covered lightly by a forced tone of casualness. “Tony wanted to talk—“
“ Wanted ? ” The word must have come out more coated in disbelief than Scott intended, because Clint grimaced. He couldn’t find himself to care. Tony Stark didn’t want to see him, not unless it was to kick them out. He knew this. He wasn’t naive.
“Yes, wanted .” Tony Stark stepped forward casually. His usual suit-and-tie look, the one he had worn when he helped pick them up originally, was replaced by a pair of sweatpants and a T-shirt. That didn’t diminish his air of… of Tony Stark-ness. The way he jutted out his chin, the way his goatee was groomed, the way he shoved his hands into his pockets, the way he somehow looked down on the rest of the room even though he was almost shorter than Scott… it all gave him the air of a businessman, of a genius, of the person who owned the building under their feet.
The person who could decide the fate of the X-Men.
The person that Scott had nearly killed.
“—some people just insisted that I “rest” and “recuperate”,” Stark was speaking, his fingers making air quotes around a few words as he rolled his eyes. Scott tried to zone back in, to ignore the full sense of pani that was crawling up the back of his throat. “Honestly. You banged me up a bit, kid, but I was fine weeks ago. Banner kept me in there way too long.”
Clint made a little noise of disagreement, but shot a look at Scott as he did. Scott didn’t acknowledge the look. What was their game here? To play down the damage before ripping the rug out from under him? To lull him into a sense of security?
That wouldn’t happen. Scott was wound tighter than the bolts in Iron Man’s armor.
Tony Stark’s chatter had continued, but it stemmed off for a moment as he seemed to realize that Scott wasn’t going to respond. He snorted a little, then tossed a glance over at Clint. “He’s a cheery one, isn’t he?”
A long-suffering look flickered over Clint’s face. It was shoved away as quickly as it came, but Scott saw it. He saw the exhaustion, the resignation, the acceptance in the Avenger’s gaze. Why did it send a flash of hurt through him? “Yeah, he is.”
“Alright then.” Tony Stark stepped forward, striding across the room in Scott’s direction. Scott forced himself to stay still and to not cringe away from the advancing man. Stark stopped a few feet in front of him, just across the coffee table, and set a briefcase down on the surface. He flashed a magazine-cover smile at Scott, the same sort that he would flash to the press in interviews. “Let’s get down to business.”
Dread settled in Scott’s chest, and he could feel it sinking slowly down to his stomach. This was it . This was when his mistakes were finally addressed. This was when everything that the Avengers had bothered to give them in the past few months was taken away and replaced with everything that they deserved… that he deserved. He couldn’t let his siblings be grouped in with him… not for this.
Tony Stark started talking again, but Scott decided to beat him to it. “Don’t send them away.”
Stark had been undoing the buckles of the briefcase, but at Scott’s words he paused and looked up at the X-Man. The billionaire wasn’t wearing his usual sunglasses, and Scott could see his eyes clearly as emotion flashed through them… well, as clearly as he could see anything through his own thick lenses. He must not be seeing as clearly as usual, because it almost looked as though there was confusion in the Avenger’s eyes. “Excuse me?”
“Don’t. They… they like it here.” The words were painful to say, almost like poison in his throat. Scott swallowed harshly, casting his gaze down at the floor. “I don’t care where you send me. But please, let them stay. Even just a little longer.”
“Scott—“
“I’m sorry.” He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to lessen the pressure building behind them. Was it just his powers flaring up? Or was it the weight of his words settling on him? “It was my fault. You know that. Please… please don’t drag them down with me. They’re good kids. They… they really like you guys.”
He hated to say it. He hated to admit it. He hated to realize that the Avengers could give his siblings something that he couldn’t. He hated that he was depending on the Avenger’s grace to preserve that… but there was nothing else he could do. This was what it had come to and, if it would make his siblings happier, he would bend to it. He would beg. He would leave. He would do anything to just preserve this for his siblings, just for a bit longer.
There was a beat of silence. The two adults must have been looking at each other. Or maybe just staring at him. Scott didn’t have the energy to check. He had been thinking about this for the past two months. He had been waiting for the moment that Tony Stark would come to ship them off. At least it was just him bearing the news, not armed guards. That meant that Scott’s plea still had a chance, even if it physically hurt him to say.
They could do anything to him. Anything was worth it if his siblings could be happy. Anything was worth it if they were safe.
And despite everything… maybe they could be safe here. Maybe.
“You… you still think we’re going to kick you out?”
It took Scott a moment to realize that was Clint Barton’s voice. He glanced up and raised his head just enough to see the archer staring at him. There was a complicated look on Clint’s face, but it seemed to be made mostly of surprise, maybe even hurt.
Scott really must be having trouble seeing today.
“That’s not what I’m here for, Summers.” That was Tony Stark shaking his head, his jaw firm and voice certain as he spoke. “If I was going to kick you out, I’d have to do a lot more than come down here and say you’re gone.”
“You own the building,” Scott pointed out, his voice emotionless and deadpan as he stated the facts.
Stark gave him a wiry smirk. “Actually, only about twelve percent of it. Besides, even if I had the power to issue an eviction, I think that guy would put up a fight.” He jerked his thumb over at Clint Barton and chuckled. “Between you and me, I think he’s gotten a bit attached.”
Clint made a noise, but Scott couldn’t tell if it was a noise of protest or affirmation. Protest . It had to be a protest.
Tony Stark was still staring at him, and Scott could not understand that. He could not understand why they had waited so long, and he definitely couldn’t understand why they were still dragging it out. “Just get on with it.”
“I am,” Tony said with a shrug. “I got on it pretty quick, actually. That was the first thing that they asked when I woke up.”
“Where we should go?” Scott tried to clarify, because that had to be the question.
“If you could stay,” Tony corrected. “And I said yes.”
“I hurt you.” What kind of cruel joke was this? It was bad enough that they had left him turning in his inner turmoil for two months. It was bad enough that they had forced him to squirm for this long. Why couldn’t they just get on with the downfall already? “I lost control. I put you in the hospital .”
Stark nodded casually. “Yep. Yep. Yep. All true. I guess we haven’t gotten the chance to talk about all that yet, have we? Well, you’re officially forgiven.”
Scott blinked. “No, I—“
“Nope. No protests. It’s done, it was done two months ago.”
“That’s not how it works.”
“Yes it is. It’s forgiveness. I get to choose who I give it to.”
Frustration bloomed in Scott’s chest. “But I—“
“Here, if you don’t believe me…” Stark’s focus had gone back to the briefcase in front of him, and he lifted the lid before turning it to face Scott. “…this is what I’ve been working on. Well, Bruce and I. But mostly me.”
Scott didn’t want to look in the briefcase. He expected to see papers and documents. He expected to see his siblings foster care records, his foster care records, the paper copies of his failures. But Stark’s tone, his words, nothing about this situation pointed toward what he expected. So he let his eyes slide over to the case and cautiously took in the contents. When he did, frown slid onto his face.
“What?”
“Go on, it’s not radioactive or anything.” Stark smirked and chuckled. He gestured toward the case, as if he wanted Scott to pick up the strange object inside. “It’s just ruby-quartz.”
“Ruby-quartz?” Scott echoed numbly, hardly even believing his own ears. He knew that word well. It was what Xavier had told him before he was able to see safely for the first time in almost four years.
“Yep. Bruce figured that was the stuff your visor was made of. I honestly expected it to be a little more interesting, but it’s literally just red quartz. Pretty easy to find and mess with.”
Scott could hardly hear what Stark was saying. He was focused on the open case in front of him… well, focused was a strong word. It was more like he was just staring at it, trying to understand what was there without even really seeing the object. “What is it?”
“Glasses,” Stark said with a shrug, like it was simple. “Special prescription, of course.”
Scott could see that they were glasses. He could see the sleek red lenses, the darker metal outline surrounding them. That didn’t change the fact that he didn’t know what this was. He was dumbfounded. He didn’t know what to say. He didn’t know what to do. Stark was smiling. Why was he still smiling? What did he not understand about this situation?
Why was Scott still standing in the tower?
“Go on.” Stark waved a hand flippantly, that cocky smile still on his face. “Try them on.”
“No!” Scott snapped out of his daze to shake his head. What was Stark thinking ? He couldn’t. It didn’t matter what the glasses were made of. His visor was the only thing that could stop his eye-beams. It was the only way he could see without destroying anything. He couldn’t risk it, couldn’t risk hurting Tony again, or Clint, or his siblings in the other room… he could slice the whole building in half if his eyes were unchecked, it was too dangerous, he couldn’t—
“I promise they’re safe, Scott. They’re not going to hurt you.”
“ Obviously,” Scott snapped. Somewhere in the back of his mind he felt a flash of regret for his venomous tone, but he couldn’t tame down his frustration. Obviously the glasses wouldn’t hurt anyone. What was this? What were they trying to do? Didn’t they understand what he was? That he was a weapon?
“Scott.” Clint Barton stepped forward, and Scott turned his gaze toward him. The archer looked almost sad, almost concerned, but those emotions were swiftly covered by a look of determination. “Scott, it’s ok. Trust me, I’ve seen Tony test them. They’re perfectly stable.”
“The glasses might be, but—“ Scott cut himself off, inhaling sharply. He had to keep a hold of himself. But how could he? He was the unstable variable here. Clint and Tony couldn’t seem to understand that, though they must have realized what he had been going to say. Clint, at least, because that look of sadness flashed across his face again. But then the determination was back before Scott could tell if he was just seeing things again. He strode across the room, reached into the briefcase, and pulled the glasses out himself. Then he knelt down next to Scott and fixated him with an intense gaze, his blue eyes boring into Scott’s. The glasses were clutched tightly in his fist, and his voice was steady when he spoke.
“I trust you, Scott. I think you should try them.”
Scott stared dumbly at him. Trust? How could Clint trust him? Scott didn’t trust him. He thought he had made that clear. He thought he had been adamant in not trusting the man. He couldn’t trust Clint Barton. And Clint Barton couldn’t trust him.
Scott couldn’t even trust himself.
But here Clint was, his gaze set with firm determination, only repeating those same words at Scott’s silence. “It’s ok. I trust you.”
It was hard to breathe. Scott didn’t mean to nod, but he must have because Clint reached out. His fingers brushed the rim of Scott’s visor, and for a moment breathing was impossible. Clint hesitated.
“I don’t want to force you into it. If you really don’t think it’s a good idea, then you don’t have to.”
Scott didn’t reply. He couldn’t find the words to protest.
Clint waited for another beat. The visor slowly shifted.
“Wait!” Scott grabbed Clint’s wrist, his eyes slamming shut instinctively. Clint was right in front of him , what was he thinking? Scott had put Tony Stark in the hospital for two months when he hit him from ten yards away while he was wearing a full suit of armor. What was Clint Barton doing?
Clint waited. Scott breathed shakily, his eyes still shut tight.
“Here.” Clint’s hand settled on his shoulder. There was a bit of pressure, and Scott realized that he was gently turning him. “Face the window. If anything bad happens, the window is the only thing that’ll get hurt.”
Scott slowly let go of Clint’s wrist and let himself be turned. He could feel the archer shifting with him, but he only registered it dimly. He could feel blood rushing in his ears and drowning out everything around him in a surge of adrenaline. What was he doing , there was no way this would work, he needed to get stop this now before—
His visor slipped off. The air conditioning felt cold and foreign against his raw skin, and he could feel his chest heaving with uneven breaths. The pressure behind his eyes seemed to double with every inhale. There was nothing between his power and the world, nothing but his eyelids holding back the horrible force.
Scott squeezed his eyes shut as tight as he possibly could.
Then he felt something slip over his face, settling in the visor’s spot. It was lighter, so much lighter. He could feel the material slide smoothly over his nose and settle gently behind his ears. It pressed against his skin, boxing his eyes in like the visor did… but it felt so much more loose.
“Ok. I think they’re steady.”
It felt too loose.
“You can open your eyes, Scott.”
No, no he couldn’t. There was too much risk. It was too dangerous. He was too dangerous.
“Scott.” There was a hand on his shoulder. “It’s ok.”
A breath emptied Scott’s lungs. His eyelids fluttered, already tired from holding back the pressure. That brief moment of weakness was enough. He could feel the power surging out, rushing between his eye lashes, lashing out wherever it could… and just like that, it was gone.
Slowly, slowly, he blinked. Once. Twice.
Then his eyes opened fully.
Everything was still red. Of course it was. Everything was always shades of red. But it was so… so crisp . There were no borders. He couldn’t see the top and bottom of his visor boxing him in. Everything was outlined sharply, less muddled than usual. He could see out the window, out over the city. Every building was outlined against the sky, against the dark clouds. He could see little details that usually blurred into the background: windows, telephone poles, wires crisscrossing between alleyways, tiny cars moving about on the far below streets. It was all clear .
Without even realizing that he was moving, he took a tentative step forward. His palm pressed against the glass of the window. It was smooth and cold under his hand, and he could feel the tiny tremors of raindrops splattering against the glass… or maybe he just thought he could feel it because of how clearly he could see them. Each individual raindrop splattered into a million droplets and trickled slowly down the glass, and he could see it . He could see it all, every little individual drop. They were so clear . And he wasn’t wearing his visor.
He could see, and nothing was destroyed.
“What do you think?” Scott risked a glance over at Tony Stark, his heart hammering in his chest as he waited for the flimsy, lightweight glasses to break. But they didn’t. He could see Tony Stark without any issues. The man was beaming proudly, his chest puffed out and his chin held high as he watched Scott take in the view. “We couldn’t get the dimensions of your visor, obviously, so we were guessing a bit. It was Bruce that figured out how exactly your beams worked, how your unique connection to the electromagnetic spectrum enhances your red light versitability and how the immersion of red light refracts—“
“And no one really cares about that part,” Clint cut in. Scott couldn’t decide if he was relieved or if he wanted Stark to continue. He didn’t even know how his eye-beams worked. All he knew was that they destroyed things, and that the quartz stopped them. A part of him wanted to hear more. A part of him couldn’t take more.
Mostly, he was just overwhelmed.
“It’s interesting!” Tony defended himself quickly. “Come on, I worked on those for two months. I mean, Bruce helped, that whole part was him, but it was my idea and I designed them. Give me a little credit.”
“Credit given, Tony, you really deserve it this time.”
“Yeah, I know. As long as they work—“
“ Tony !”
“—Which they obviously will since, again, I designed them. This visor just looks thicker, a lot thicker, how do you see out of this thing… but those are working, aren’t they Scott? How do they feel?”
Scott had been too focused looking at his hands to pay much attention to the adult’s conversation. Nothing was blurry, not in the slightest. He could see every callous in his fingers, every line across his palms. Everything was in sharp focus, almost as much as it would be if there was nothing over his eyes. The glasses were light, so much lighter than his visor. He could hardly even feel them. They didn’t rub his skin the way the metal did, didn’t grate against his ears or squeeze his skull. And yet somehow they satisfied his power, somehow they blocked his beams.
They were perfect .
“I… I can’t accept these.” His voice was shaking. He wished he didn’t sound so unsteady, but he couldn’t think clearly enough to smooth out the tremors.
Stark snorted as if he had made a joke. “Of course you can.”
“I can’t . I don’t deserve this.”
“This has nothing to do with deserving and not deserving.” Clint was still crouched next to him, and he set a firm hand on his shoulder. “This is about helping you. I promised I would.”
“Excuse me, I’m the one who designed them, Everdeen.” Tony Stark smirked. “The birdbrain’s right though. They’re yours, kid. I’m not gonna wear them, and they don’t quite match Bruce’s prescription.”
Scott shook his head again. His throat felt thick, and it was hard to swallow. “No, no I can’t…”
Stark opened his mouth to say something else, but before he could the watch on his wrist buzzed. He glanced at it as the digital face lit up, and smirked. “Well, you’re going to have to, because I’ve got to go.”
Clint Barton raised an eyebrow. Scott could see it so much clearer than before; the slight twitch of his lips, the way his left eyebrow was split ever so slightly, the wrinkle between his eyes as he frowned. “Did something happen? Or is that for a meeting?”
“Neither. I told Steve I’d beat him in a spar.” He winked at Scott. “Yep, I’m back to Avenger’s stuff already. And you bet I’m going to knock that supersoldier on his—“
“ Tony .”
“You know what I mean. And yes, yes, I’ll be careful, blah blah blah, you’re welcome .”
Scott was dumbstruck, confused, overwhelmed, all of the above and more. But as Tony Stark stood up to leave he managed to loose his tongue enough to throw out a weak “thank you”.
The man smiled genuinely. “Seriously, don’t thank me. You look good with the shades. Heck of a tan line though, make sure to get out in the sun some.”
Scott couldn’t think of a response, and Stark didn’t wait for one. He grabbed the empty briefcase, tossed some comment over his shoulder about calling if anything went wrong, and then vanished into the elevator. Scott was left blinking and speechless in his wake.
What was the game here? What was he supposed to do?
“Tony’s right. About the tan line, at least.” Clint was looking at him, and there was a complicated expression on his face. Scott couldn’t make an excuse about it being difficult to see, not with how clear everything was… but he still didn’t understand the expression. It looked conflicted, as though Clint wanted to say more… about what? The marks that his visor left? Why would those be important?
In the end, Clint just shook his head. “We’re gonna have to make some more trips to the park, as long as you’re good with it.” He said, grinning slightly. “You really pull ‘em off. I thought Tony was the only one who could make the red shades look work, but you rock it.”
Scott couldn’t even offer the man a smile. He couldn’t comprehend what had just happened. He reached up, his fingers ghosting over the side of the glasses. “Clint, I—“
“If you say you don't deserve them again… I don’t know what I’ll do, but I’ll do something.” Clint shook a playful finger, but Scott still found no humor in the situation. “I’m serious, Scott. Tony doesn’t hold a grudge. I don’t hold a grudge. No one blames you.”
His hand dropped away from the glasses. “And…”
“And you’re staying here, all of you. Until I find a good solution.” He tacked that last part on, almost like an afterthought. And even then, it was a weak afterthought. But it was still there. Scott had to remember that it was still there. Clint smiled again, then patted Scott’s shoulder one more time. He had almost forgotten the man’s hand was there. “I’m going to go check on the others, ok? You can come, of course.”
Scott nodded numbly. But when Clint stood up and headed toward the rooms to hang out with his siblings, he stayed put. He stood there a moment, watching the rain against the glass as his finger ran across the shades. They were good. They were perfect .
None of it made sense.
None of it at all.
Notes:
HE HAS THE GLASSES Y'ALL, HE FINALLY HAS THE GLASSES. IT ONLY TOOK 40 CHAPTERS. Do I deserve the slowburn tag?? I hope I do because MY GOODNESS--
Fun fact! That stuff about how Scott's eye beams work? That's actually canon! I found an article about it somewhere... basically it's the spectrum of red light that Scott's eyes emit that make them dangerous. It doesn't have to be ruby quartz, he could literally use any sort of red filter to block his beams. ALSO, Scott in the comics is a NERD. This man can do spatial geometry IN HIS HEAD. If he wasn't forced into a leadership position and stressed 24/7, he could have been a literal mathematician or something, but Xavier didn't even let the kid go to COLLEGE so oh well...
Please Marvel let Scott Summers be a nerd and get a degree, he deserves it :')ALSO shoutout to Lynxbatics who called Tony giving Scott his glasses back in chapter 33, you have NO IDEA how excited I was to write this part. Literally building up to a pair of glasses for 40 chapters. I hope it was as satisfying to y'all, the readers, as it was to me, the writer. <3
OH! And you may have noticed, this work is now a part of a series! I just posted a little one-shot with how Rogue and Kurt met, so go check that out if you want! I'm planning to write a couple other little bonus scenes for this AU, but I won't talk about them any more right now because this end note is already really long as it is <3
The Tower Bonding Arc is coming to a close... what will be next??
Chapter 41: Not Attached... Of Course Not.
Summary:
“You're distracted. Again.”
“Hey, you’re the one who told me to spend time with them,” Clint grumbled. “It’s not exactly easy.”
She nodded. “And has it been worth it?”
Notes:
WHOOO, updating late today because I somehow totally forgot that it was monday, lol.
Fun fact; I had to split this story between two main google docs to keep it from crashing my computer because of how long it is, and this chapter is the first that I'm pulling straight from that doc! Random behind-the-scenes milestone, lol
Anyway as always, hope you enjoy! <3
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Clint Barton was not getting attached.
This was temporary. He knew that. It had to be temporary. It couldn’t be anything else.
Sure, he had stopped checking his email quite so frequently for updates about possible solutions. But Moira MacTaggert said she’d get back to him eventually . It could take weeks. Months, even. There was no need for him to hold his breath as he waited for her to find suitable placements.
Sure, he had been going down every day to spend time with the kids. But that was just his duty, the duty that he had initially shirked. He was just trying to reach out to them and make their time at the Tower better, no matter how short or long he expected it to be.
And sure, maybe he had one of Kitty’s little crayon art pieces tucked away in the corner of his room. Maybe that corner happened to be very visible. Maybe the paper was not so “tucked away” as it was hung up on the wall.
But he was not getting attached.
His thoughts were interrupted by a flash of pain in his side, sharp and sudden. He stumbled, his stance faltering for a brief moment. In that brief moment there was another flash of movement, and his legs were swept out from under him. He let out a yelp as he crashed into the floor, shoulder first, and ended up sprawled out on the mat with the wind knocked out of his chest.
He groaned, rolling over so that he could see his attacker. Natasha stood over him, casually brushing aside a strand of hair out of her face as he moaned into the mat. The corner of her mouth quirked up, her lips moving clearly as she spoke. “See? You’re getting sloppy. You’re distracted.”
“Am not,” Clint muttered. Natasha reached out to help him up, but he ignored her outstretched hand and forced himself to his feet. She waited until he was facing her again to continue.
“Oh yeah? What state was Fury thinking of sending us to?”
Clint fell back into a fighting stance, hoping it would cover up his slight grimace. Crap . That meeting was just an hour ago. He should be able to remember that, shouldn’t he? “…Ohio?”
Natasha’s leg swept out, and he barely jumped over it in time. “Tennessee.”
“Come on, I probably wouldn’t have remembered that anyway.” He swiftly blocked Natasha’s punch and attempted to relay his own. She dodged fluidly, so he took the opportunity to scamper back a few steps. “What on earth is in Tennessee anyway? A country music supervillain?”
“There’s a lot more in Tennessee than country music.” She moved forward. He moved back. “Which you would know if you were paying attention in the meeting.”
“I tried , but I was…” Clint scraped his mind for a good excuse. “Uhh…”
Natasha’s lips moved, a smile twitching at the corners of her words. “Busy thinking about the kids?”
“No!” Of course not. He was focused on the mission. He was itching to get back in action after months of inactivity. Obviously he was listening to every word Fury said on the call. But he was hoping to get the kids out at some point soon, maybe drive them out of the city limits, maybe even get them somewhere that Warren could stretch his wings and Kurt could practice his teleporting. He had spent the afternoon listening to Sean explain how their mutant muscles needed exercise and how his voice felt rubbery without using the full range of his vocal cords. Clint wanted to give them all the chance to use those abilities, but he didn’t want to put too much on Scott, not when he just felt like he might be making the tiniest bit of headway. Scott was actually wearing the glasses, and had been wearing them multiple times in the week since Tony gave them to him. Not much of the bruising that his apparently way-too-tight visor had left around his eyes had healed yet, but the fact that the pale skin was exposed for what seemed to be the first time consistently in probably five years was important. It was so important. Scott trusted Clint, he trusted himself enough to wear the glasses when he had obviously spent years with his eyes covered so tightly that it left physical marks around his eyes. That had to mean something …
Natasha hit the back of his knee, and Clint went down again. His palms hit the mat and he barely avoided face planting for a second time. He grunted in annoyance, and when he rolled over he could see Natasha’s shoulders shaking as she chuckled.
“Distracted. Again.”
“Hey, you’re the one who told me to spend time with them,” Clint grumbled. “It’s not exactly easy.”
She nodded. “And has it been worth it?”
Clint didn’t respond, instead grunting as he pushed himself up from the mat for the hundredth time. Yes. It was totally worth it. Hearing Kitty’s laugh? Watching Kurt’s little tricks? Listening to Sean’s endless stream of commentary? Hugging Rogue? Trying to understand Warren? Watching Scott put on those glasses? It was all worth it.
But obviously he couldn’t say that . This was temporary. Of course it was. He was just trying to make their time here better than it could be. That was it.
And Natasha was already smirking triumphantly. He didn’t need to fuel that fire.
“It’s been three months, Clint.” She shrugged, rolling her head to pop her neck. “It’s natural that you’ll get a bit attached.”
“I’m not ,” Clint protested. Natasha lunged swiftly forward, and he managed to dance out of her range before bringing a kick up to her chest. She grabbed his foot instead, nearly twisting him off of his feet. But he managed to keep his balance, instead using the momentum to yank away and get back on his own feet.
She seemed about to say something else, but then she glanced over Clint’s shoulder. Clint wasn’t about to fall for the distraction. Instead he lunged forward, hoping to throw her off-balance… but she moved swiftly, grabbing Clint’s arm and swinging him around so that he was suddenly in a headlock. He gasped, struggling in her grasp for a moment before he saw that he had been pointed toward the elevators, and that there was someone standing there watching.
“Oh. Hi Steve.”
Clint watched the super soldier’s shoulders rise and fall as he chuckled. His mouth moved, and now that Clint could actually see the man he was able to piece together his words. “—said that. Did you hear me?”
Clint frowned, still struggling to breathe in Natasha’s headlock. “Yeah, no, I didn’t.”
Steve looked like he was going to say something else, so Clint rapidly tapped Natasha’s arm, and she finally let him go. He rubbed his neck and shot her an exaggerated frown.
“You could have just, I don’t know, pointed to him or something.”
She shrugged, her usual small smirk pulling at the corners of her mouth. “That was more fun.”
Clint grunted, but he knew better than to argue. Instead he hopped swiftly over the border of the boxing ring and walked over to the benches against the wall. There he grabbed the towel he had set his hearing aids on, quickly popping them into his ears as he whipped sweat from his brow. Noise crackled in his ears, and after a moment he turned toward Steve. “What were you saying?”
The super soldier looked embarrassed, and Clint couldn’t help grinning. “Sorry Clint, I didn’t realize—“
“Hey, it’s cool. I just didn’t want to risk someone busting them—“ he shot a pointed glance toward Natasha, who just grinned smugly. He rolled his eyes. “So what were you saying?”
Steve nodded slowly, and Clint could hear him clear his throat a bit before continuing. “I was asking about Fury’s mission.”
“The one in Tennessee?”
Steve looked mildly impressed. “So you were paying attention.”
Clint smirked. “Yeah, I know, such a surprise.”
“I had to tell him.” Natasha was leaning against the ropes of the boxing ring, smoothly taking a sip from a water bottle as Clint huffed in annoyance and Steve nodded. “He thought it was in Ohio.”
“That makes more sense.”
Clint rolled his eyes, grabbing his own water bottle off of the bench. He tossed the cap at Natasha half-heartedly, but she caught it with ease and sent it whizzing back to smack him in the forehead. Clint rubbed at the spot with a wince, but a moment later he was grinning. “Whatever. There’s nothing in Tennessee anyway.”
“That’s what I thought too,” Steve admitted, crossing his arms as he let out a thoughtful breath. “But if Stark was down there…”
“Stark was down there?”
“Seriously, Clint? Did you listen to a word Fury said?” Natasha asked, her expression deadpan.
Clint felt his face flush. This was moving on from funny to actually embarrassing. He had been paying attention. Or trying to. Somewhat. Yeah . Hadn’t he? “Yes, of course I did!”
Natasha raised an eyebrow ever so slightly. “ Really .”
“Yeah!” Clint’s indignance flared up and he gestured with the water bottle. “He was talking about… the mission, obviously. In Tennessee. That Stark probably started.”
“He left a suit in the hands of a 10-year-old.”
“That's right!” Clint pointed at Natasha, nodding vigorously. “And that’s when I stopped paying attention.”
“That’s when you stopped paying attention?” Steve asked incredulously. “All of that is information that we just told you!”
“I know. I forgot, but just for a second!”
“And so you didn’t hear the whole rest of the meeting?”
“Well the picture of the kid looked so much like…” Clint’s defense petered out, and he felt his face flushing more. Oh great . Natasha was rolling her eyes now, and the smirk was solidly back on her face.
“Like what?” Steve asked.
“Well, what other curly-haired blonde 10-year-old do we know?” Natasha asked. She was enjoying this.
Steve made the connection. He didn’t think it was quite as humorous. “One of the X-kids, I’m assuming?”
“Come on, can you blame me?” Clint defended himself, his embarrassed grin widening a bit. “That kid… Harvey? Harlem? He looked just like Sean, obviously my mind wandered…”
“Be careful, Clint.” His attention was pulled from Natasha’s teasing expression and back to Steve. The man’s arms were still crossed, his brow creased in mild concern. “You can’t get distracted like that. What if you needed to know that information on the battlefield?”
“Well then I’d be sure to listen,” Clint said quickly. “But Fury even said this probably wouldn’t be a problem. Stark’s dealing with it, isn’t he?”
Steve’s frown deepened, though he looked more sad than upset. “And he would have finished dealing with it two months ago if he hadn’t been put out of commission, you know.”
“Steve.” Natasha’s voice was short and clipped; a warning.
Clint’s grin dropped away. “Hey, that was an accident— “
“I know, I know… but that’s exactly what I’m saying.” Steve’s blue eyes bored into him. His brow was creased, almost apologetic, but his voice was firm. “How much longer are they staying here?”
Clint felt like the super soldier had just punched him. His next breath was shallow, his chest heaving in unnaturally before he steadied himself. Yes, this was all temporary. Yes , he was working on finding a solution. Yes, he knew that there had been substantial accidents. But what was Steve saying? What gave him the right to ask that?
“I’m working on it.” His teeth were gritted, his fists clenched. He took a step forward, though he hardly registered the movement. “What? Do you want me to just get rid of them? Get them out of your hair?”
“Clint.” This time Natasha’s cautionary tone was targeted at him. Suddenly she was next to him, her presence firm and protective. Protective of him? Of Steve? Of the kids? It didn’t matter. Her presence was enough to make Clint pull back slightly.
Steve deflated as well, visibly backing off. “No, no, he’s right. That was uncalled for. I know you’re working on it. And I don’t want them gone.” His leaderly expression came back, and he gave Clint one more look. “Just remember… you’re an Avenger first. We have responsibilities.”
Clint didn’t smile, but he nodded. “Yeah. Whatever.”
To his credit, Steve did look genuinely remorseful. That was something, at least. Clint inhaled deeply, forcing his muscles to relax. Steve was right, of course he was right. And he was right to bring it up. He was their leader, technically. He just wanted to make sure Clint knew what he was doing if Fury did end up sending them down to Tennessee. Which was fair, because Clint hadn’t known what was going on. He didn’t need to get so defensive.
He took another deep breath. “Sorry, man. I’ll focus up.”
A flash of relief crossed Steve’s face. “That’s all I’m asking for. Thank you.”
Clint nodded curtly. Then he swiftly moved back over to the bench, where his phone sat. He and Natasha had already been sparring for almost an hour. He was ready to call it a day, this just gave him an excuse to. He could take the chance to go— no, he had already gone down to the kids that morning. Maybe he would just go down to the archery range. He needed to release some tension still.
Then he glanced at his phone, and he felt his heart jump. There was a missed call on screen.
Laura Barton.
The tension in his shoulders eased. He raised the phone in the air. “Well, looks like Fury’s not the only one I’ve not been paying attention to. I gotta go take this.”
Steve didn’t stop him, just gave him a respectful nod as he passed. Clint returned the nod with equal respect.
Once he was on the elevator, he noticed that Natasha had followed him.
“Where to, sir?”
“Uh…” Clint was looking at his phone, and he took a moment before answering Jarvis. “Archery range, please.”
“Of course, sir.”
The doors slid shut in front of them, and the two spies began to move up.
Natasha shot him a sly side-eye. “You got defensive.”
“What?” Clint knew it was pointless to argue, but he still gave it an attempt. “No, I didn’t.”
“Completely defensive, Barton.” Her eyes were back on the elevator doors, but Clint could see her lips quirked up in a teasing smirk. “You’re attached.”
Clint didn’t argue this time. Was he attached to the kids? No, no, he… well… “Did you just come in here to make fun of me?”
“Possibly.” Clint rolled his eyes. The elevator slowed as Natasha turned to nod at the phone in his head. “Was that from Laura?”
Clint nodded, a smile sliding across his face. “Want me to tell her you said hi?”
“Of course. I miss her.” Natasha’s smirk deepened into a genuine smile. “Are we still doing Thanksgiving this year?”
Clint nodded, smiling down at his phone as he did. “I bet that’s what she’s calling about now. Every year she asks if I want to invite anyone else.”
“Are you going to?”
“I mean, who else would I invite?” The elevator doors slid open, and Clint stepped out into the archery range. “Maybe Phil and Maria, but they couldn’t make it last year. I might ask them, but I won’t hold my breath.”
Natasha was quiet for a moment, a thoughtful look on her face. “Didn’t you mention something the other day about getting the kids out of the tower some?”
“Yeah, yeah, I’ve been thinking about that.” Clint tapped his fingers against his phone. “It’s just so hard to find places in New York that are in any way secluded, you know?”
“And Laura wants more guests for Thanksgiving?”
“You know how she is with hosting things. It’s not her fault I don’t have any friends.”
Natasha was watching him. “So.”
“So what?”
“Connect the dots, Barton.”
“What do you…” Clint trailed off. Oh. Oh, he knew exactly what she meant. His eyes widened. “Wait a minute. That’s crazy, Tasha.”
“Is it?” Her intense green eyes bored into him. “Think about it.”
Clint was thinking about it. It sounded crazy. Bringing the kids home? To his house? For Thanksgiving?
And yet, it made so much sense. How had he not thought of it sooner? His farm was in the middle of Missouri-nowhere. It was completely secret and completely off the grid. No one was around for miles. The kids would have literal acres of land to run; Warren could stretch his wings, Kurt wouldn’t have to worry about hiding at all, Rogue could feel the wind on her skin, Sean could run and run to his heart’s content…
Except there was one big, big obstacle. It was the whole reason he had a secret farmhouse. It was the whole reason he always went home for Thanksgiving.
“I would have to tell Laura.”
“Yeah. You would.” Natasha watched him closely. “But isn’t it time to?”
Clint swallowed, his throat suddenly dry. Was it? Could he really do that? Could he really do this to his wife?
“Clint.” He looked up at Natasha. Her eyes were sharp and more sincere than ever. She set a gentle, firm hand on his forearm. “Laura is strong. You know that. And she loves kids.”
“I know that too,” Clint whispered.
“Exactly.”
“But…” He glanced down at his phone. “But these kids… and after… after everything? Everything with us , with our own…”
“What helped you move on from everything?”
Move on? The question surprised him. Had he moved on from the idea of never having kids of his own? Had he really moved on from the fact that he and Laura would never be able to create their own family like they had always dreamed of? Was it even possible for him to move on from that? His automatic answer was no … but at the same time, the moment the thought crossed his mind, so did an image of the X-kids.
What if… what if Laura did like them? What if they liked the farm? What if Moira MacTaggart couldn’t find a home…
No. That was crazy. That was too much.
But at this point… well, maybe he would visit them once Moira found them a home. He probably would. He couldn’t imagine just letting them pass out of his life without some sort of continued connection.
At this point… maybe Laura deserved to know, for better or worse.
He let out a slow sigh. “Thanks, Natasha.”
She smiled her small, sincere smile. “I’ve tried not to poke my nose in, but Thanksgiving would be so much more fun with them there.”
Clint grinned and elbowed her in the side. “What’s that? Do I hear a note of… attachment?”
She rolled her eyes and let go of his arm. Then she turned back to the elevator, which was already sliding open for her. “Tell Laura they have my approval and that I’ll make sure to pack last year’s turkey sweater.”
Clint chuckled. Soon the doors shut behind Natasha and left Clint alone in the archery range. He took a deep breath, and before he could chicken out he called Laura.
“ Hey, honey!” Her voice was sweet in his ears, bright and lighthearted even over the phone’s speaker. He could almost smell the open country air around her, and he could easily imagine her out on the back porch with the chickens. “You know what time it is… are Maria and Phil going to be able to come this year?”
Clint couldn’t stop the smile that split his face. “Always straight to business, huh?”
“Listen, you’re not doing the cooking, hon.” Laura laughed on the other end of the line. “This takes planning.”
“We still have a month!”
“And I need that whole month!” She laughed again, and Clint joined in. “Natasha’s in, right? It’s been too long since I’ve seen her.”
“I don’t think she’d take a no for an answer. She says she’s bringing her turkey sweater.”
“She still has it? Aww, she’s the sweetest…”
“I mean she just beat me up in a spar, but ok.”
“So what about Phil and Maria? Or Melinda? Do you think any of them will be free?”
Clint shook his head to himself. “I’m not sure. There’s still so much to clean up from the New York fight… they’ll probably be busy.”
“Of course, I hope they’re doing well with all of that…” Clint could vaguely hear some sort of rustling, probably the sound of paper. Knowing Laura, she was already making a list. “So just Natasha? Are you sure I can’t convince you to bring anyone else?”
Clint let out a breath. This was it. This was the moment. “Actually… I think I might surprise you this year...”
Notes:
Just_AnotherFangirl got it, we got through the Tower Bonding Time and now we're heading into some FARM BONDING TIME--
Also that's right, we've got some Iron Man 3 subplotting in here! Just for fun :P
Minor references to plot?? What's this?? I dunno, we're heading to the far, that's a problem for later--
Chapter 42: No Plan Could Prepare
Summary:
The grin he had been wearing now was deeper, brighter, and there was a nervous excitement glinting in his eyes as he glanced back at the minibus. “Right! I almost forgot about our special guests!”
“You almost forgot?” Laura asked, a teasing tone quickly covering a tiny flash of real indignation.
Notes:
Woah, y'all remember how Laura was important at the beginning of this fic?? WELL SHE'S BACK!!
Btw I wrote this fic before Hawkeye came out and I realized that Laura was a part of SHIELD so oh well, she's just been chilling at the farm and such because I couldn't think of anything better for her to do when I wrote this. My characterization of Laura is probably OOC, but hopefully it's consistently OOC!Also, Lucky is here because Pizza Dog is the best and I wanted him here even before he was brought into the MCU. Yay!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Thanksgiving was always a whirlwind for Laura Barton. Even with only a few guests the month of November was always spent in a frenzy of planning, organizing, cooking, cleaning, a wonderful burst of stressful energy that carried on to Christmas and didn’t peter out until New Years. Thanksgiving was the beginning of that busy, full season, the time of year when having a farm and open acres of room for people felt the most wonderful. Every time that she hosted an event it was a process, one that required preparation and planning to ensure that everything went as smoothly as she could have it go.
Laura loved it. She loved the holidays, and she thrived under making sure each celebration was as perfect as possible, that each box was neatly checked off of her ever growing preparation list.
But this Thanksgiving… this took the season to a whole new level of stressful.
When she married Clint Barton, she knew that she was signing up for something bigger than herself. She knew about his secret-agent life, knew that he would be away from home more times than he would be able to stay. He had tried to talk her out of dating him for months , had even tried to talk her out of marrying him even after he had proposed. Throughout it all, Laura didn’t care. She loved him too much, and she loved the way he was completely opposite of her. She loved his disorganization, his scruffiness, his inability to think ahead and his habits of rushing into things. Even if he gave her a heart attack almost every time he came home with tales of his latest escapades, she loved him. She learned to expect the unexpected from Clint Barton, and after living a life of careful planning, it turned out that he was exactly what she needed.
So to hear that he was bringing six kids —six mutant kids that he had apparently been looking after for months without telling her— home for Thanksgiving… well, Laura did what she always did. She did the same thing she did any time Clint came home with an injury, the same thing she did the first time he introduced her to his terrifying Russian assassin partner, the same thing that she did when he announced he was unofficially a part of an alien-fighting superhero team: She took a breath, made a plan, and kept an open mind.
Lucky was barking his head off as she stepped out onto the porch, a hastily thrown on jacket covering her latest stress-knitted sweater. There was a nip in the air and the forest across the rolling hills of their property was full of orange trees that were quickly losing their leaves. The gray-blue sky was streaked with wispy clouds, the sun still warm enough to chase away the sharper bite of the wind without discouraging a cup of warm tea or apple cider. It was a perfect fall day, the exact kind that Laura would have ordered if she were able to put in a request for the weather.
She had done all she could. Now she just had to hope that everything else was as perfect as the weather.
The car stopped just in front of the house, the tires digging into the grass as it veered off of the gravel path. Laura reached out a hand, scratching Lucky behind the ear as he continued barking by her side. Could he recognize that it was Clint? It was a different car than the ones he would usually borrow from SHIELD— those ones were usually small, sleek, and low-key. This one was a large minivan. Maybe not even a minivan, it was more like a minibus; a large black, boxy car that rocked as it finally came to a stop. Lucky must have known who it was regardless of the vehicle, because the moment the hum of the engine abated the golden retriever leapt forward, still barking his head off as he ran around the car. The sound of a car door opening echoed through the open farm fields, instantly overlayed by Clint’s voice as he laughed at the overexcited dog who had tackled him. Laura took that as her cue to step down from the porch and make her own way around the car to see her husband.
Clint was busy trying to fend off Lucky’s attacks but he really only succeeded in encouraging the golden to jump on him with more vigor. Clint had already relented, crouching down to let the dog properly lick his face. His blonde hair was scruffy and uncombed, he was wearing a T-shirt from some extravagant gas station he had been to a handful of times, and there was a bandage across his left eyebrow from some reason or another, but Laura watched him laugh at their dog and knew that he was the most handsome man she would ever meet.
“Honey, I’m home,” Clint said, his usual lopsided grin splitting his face. He gently pushed Lucky away and finally managed to get to his feet. The golden was still prancing around his feet, tail wagging furiously, but he seemed satisfied enough for Clint to move over to Laura.
She didn’t bother saying anything, not yet. She just strode the last few paces to her husband and wrapped her arms around him. He instantly did the same, embracing her tightly. His lips brushed her cheek, and a grin pulled at her own as she hugged him. She understood the job, she really did. She understood why Clint was gone so often, and she took it in stride. But the loneliness that would settle in her chest whenever he was gone, when she had this huge, sweeping farmhouse to only herself… it was daunting. And yet, every time, all it took was one hug from Clint to send that loneliness blooming into something far, far sweeter. The loneliness only served to make the time together all the more precious.
They stood like that for a moment, just drinking each other in. Then there was a noise behind them. Lucky started barking, and Clint chuckled, his voice husky and warm in her ears. He pressed a quick kiss to her cheek, then pulled away. The grin he had been wearing now was deeper, brighter, and there was a nervous excitement glinting in his eyes as he glanced back at the minibus. “Right! I almost forgot about our special guests!”
“You almost forgot? ” Laura asked, a teasing tone quickly covering a tiny flash of real indignation.
Lucky’s barking was getting louder, and Clint had to chase the overexcited dog away from the car. A flash of anxiety flashed through Laura as she wondered if Clint had mentioned Lucky yet. Did the kids like dogs? Did any of them have allergies? What if they didn’t like Lucky, or were scared of him? Why didn’t she think of this, she could have put Lucky in the barn or in the house until the kids had gotten properly settled in, she should have thought of that…
Thankfully, Clint had already wrangled Lucky in and had a hand on the dog’s collar. He moved forward, trying to drag Lucky over to Laura, but the golden retriever bucked and twisted and nearly escaped Clint’s grasp. He shot an apologetically pleading look at Laura, and then at the car.
“Just keep him from licking their faces off!” Laura called, trying to ignore the spark of anxiety in her chest. Her feet carried her to the door of the minibus, where she hesitated. She took a deep breath, telling herself that she was prepared , then pulled the door open.
There was a lot of movement in the front part of the bus, but about half of it froze the moment the door slid back. Laura quickly processed the scene in front of her. There were four figures cramped into the front row of the bus; two still in their seats, two standing to help the others. The boy in the back was the tallest, and that detail plus his blonde hair made it easy for Laura to recognize him as Warren. His height was a sharp contrast to the smallest of the group, the little ponytailed girl still sitting in her seat and watching the boy next to her. That had to be Kitty Pryde, she was far too young to be Rogue. And the boy she was watching was definitely Sean Cassidy. He was still strapped in his car seat, twisting and squirming as he attempted to unfasten his seatbelt, his sandy curls flopping with each movement. And right next to him, trying to help— or at least, he was before Laura opened the door— was Scott Summers. For that one, Laura didn’t even have to guess.
Everything that Clint had told her in their many, many phone calls leading up to this was confirmed. His brown bangs. His tight posture. The way he stiffened at the sight of her, the way he seemed taught and stubborn with just a look, the way he was hovered protectively over the other boy. And, of course, the glasses. The sleek, red glasses covering his eyes, shielding them from doing any damage. They looked almost normal, but of course Laura knew better. Clint had told her all about Scott’s dangerous, terrifying mutation, not to mention how difficult it was to convince the boy to wear the glasses and not the old, clunky visor to the farm. There were still faint bruises around the boy’s eyes, even after over a month of wearing mostly the glasses. Laura couldn’t imagine how bad it must have looked a month ago, and she couldn’t imagine what sort of power would drive a kid to wear such an obviously uncomfortable dampener.
Sean was still struggling, his focus entirely on the seat belt even as the other three’s eyes were on him. He grunted as he pulled at the belt, his sandy curls flopping against his forehead as he shook his head. “ Scott, I can’t get it off! ”
Scott Summers seemed to snap out of his stare down with Laura. He quickly averted his gaze— at least, Laura assumed he did, it was hard to tell with the glasses— and focused on his younger brother. His brow was creased in concern as he leaned forward to mess with the seat belt, but it was obvious that he was having no luck. Kitty looked concerned, and Warren was holding back, his arms crossed as his eyes shifted from Sean to Laura and back to Sean.
Alright . Laura took a breath as quietly and subtly as she could muster. Four kids . Rogue and Kurt were probably in the back. She had to take this one thing at a time. Sean needed help, so that was her first priority.
She stepped forward as gently as she could, trying not to seem threatening. She smiled in Scott’s direction and hoped that he would turn his attention to her. “Hey, do you need some help?”
Scott’s head turned slightly toward her. His brow creased further, his chin tight as he spared her a glance. “No. Thanks.”
And there it was; the infamous Scott Stubbornness. Clint had warned her about that. She was prepared for it.
She stepped forward, carefully approaching the two struggling kids. Scott seemed to tense more, though he was so tense already that it was hard to tell if there was a real difference. So she held back, just looking on. There . It was easy to see the problem when you knew what to look for.
“Try twisting it,” Laura said as casually and non-commandingly as she could muster. Clint had said the kids could be skittish in their own right. But what did that mean? Was she doing the right thing?
Scott didn’t move his head. Maybe he glanced at her, maybe he didn’t… but suddenly there was a click, and the seat belt popped out of its socket. Sean let out a whoop, and Scott barely had the time to jump out of the way before the little kid had thrown off the seatbelt and leapt from the car. Laura stepped quickly to the side to avoid being barreled over, a smile jumping involuntarily to her face as she watched the curly-haired kid race off to literally collapse in the grass.
“ Finally! ” Sean rolled over in the grass, his face to the sky as he let out a dramatic gasp for breath. “That was awful! ”
“It wasn’t that bad!” Clint protested.
“Warren hogged the whole seat!” Sean protested, his hand reaching dramatically to the sky before falling back against his face. “And you didn’t have to sit through Kitty’s Paw Patrol the whole time!”
Clint made eye contact with Laura, wide eyed and exhausted. It was bad , he mouthed. Laura bit back a chuckle.
“You wanted to watch Paw Patrol!” Laura’s attention was pulled back to the car where the rest of the kids were now making their exit. Kitty was the first to drop down, her arms crossed as she attempted to blow her brown bangs from her face. “You like it!”
Sean rolled over again, this time maneuvering into a sitting position. “I don’t!”
“Yeah, you do!”
“No!”
The two kept bickering as Scott quickly stepped between them. He knelt down to talk to them as Warren stepped out of the car, looking relieved to be out of the confined space. His wings were covered, but Laura could see him shifting his shoulders to loosen the muscles. Just behind him were two more figures emerging from the back. A young girl stepped down, quickly brushing her white bangs out of her face with a gloved hand as she looked around almost suspiciously. Just behind her was another boy who landed on all fours when he jumped from the car, a long blue tail lashing behind him. The boy was wearing a hoodie, but he seemed to have forgotten about it because he neglected to pull it up over his head as he stood up and stared, open mouthed, at the country landscape around them.
Kitty and Sean’s bickering had died down, placated by their stern older sibling. The two had already made up, and Sean was back on his feet and running over to Clint. Kitty, on the other hand, was wandering over to Laura.
Kitty looked up, her brown eyes wide. “Are you Mrs. Barton?”
Laura hadn’t even noticed that she was smiling, but she was. She couldn’t help it. “Yeah, that’s me, sweetie.”
Kitty grinned, and quickly wrapped her arms around Laura’s leg. It took her by surprise, and yet she didn’t hesitate. All of her previous planning on how to interact with the kids left her mind, and she acted purely on instinct as she crouched down and scooped the little girl into her arms. Kitty hugged her tightly and Laura hugged right back.
“Your husband’s really nice,” Kitty whispered into her ear.
Laura could feel her heart melt. She squeezed the girl a bit tighter before setting her down. As she did, she heard a shout. She whipped around, eyes wide,
Apparently Lucky had escaped Clint’s grasp, because the dog had tackled Sean. Clint was hovered over, attempting to pry him off, and Sean was laughing his head off.
“You have a dog! ” The little kid laughed loudly as Lucky licked his face. “You have a dog! ”
“Lucky!” Clint finally succeeded in dragging the dog off of Sean. The golden retriever barked, dancing away from Clint as soon as he could. Sean jumped up from the grass, whipped some slobber off his face, and instantly ran after the dog. Clint watched, his hand reaching up to comb through his messy hair as he shook his head. A laugh bubbled up in Laura’s chest, and she let it out. She couldn’t help it. She was smiling so much that she was almost worried that her face would be sore later. She probably would be worried about it if she weren’t so focused on the six kids in front of her.
They were wonderful .
Laura got herself properly introduced to the kids— most of them, at least, Sean was still out chasing Lucky— and then wasted no more time in getting them unpacked and hustled into the house. The kids were almost shockingly helpful, even the youngest three. No one entered the house empty-handed, and they had the whole minibus unpacked in no time at all. Laura had a whole plan laid out beforehand. She had tried to work it out to the finest detail. But no amount of planning could have prepared her for this; the whirlwind of activity, of noise, of warm voices echoing through the usually silent halls of her home. Laura felt all of her anxieties melting away. Well, not all of them. No, she was still plenty anxious, but it was a different kind of anxiety. She was no longer anxious about the fact of the kids coming, about the fact that Clint was bringing home six children— no, no as crazy as it was, she was completely on board with that now. She just wanted to make sure that the kids were having the best possible time they could have.
Clint had explained things to her; the bits and pieces he knew, at least. He had explained how Kitty was the sole survivor of two disasters thanks to her powers. He explained how Kurt had been a part of a circus. He explained Sean’s family passing. He explained Rouge’s inability to touch another person. He explained Warren’s possible abusive parentage. He explained the sheer amount of times Scott had been returned to the foster system. Last of all, he explained the fact that they had all been subject to a man telling them to fight for a world that would hate and fear them.
Each new story and every new detail that she learned about these children made her understand a little more of the situation at hand. More importantly, it let her understand the kids themselves a little bit more… and as a result, she realized just how much she wanted to understand them more.
She wanted to know why Kitty was so adamant that she made sure not to burn anything in the oven. She wanted to know why Kurt flinched when Clint attempted to twirl a knife in the kitchen. She wanted to know why Sean wasn’t vocal to her about his dislike of certain foods despite the fact that he obviously couldn’t stand them. She wanted to know why Rogue liked the music that she liked. She wanted to know why Warren wouldn’t show his wings around her. She wanted to know why Scott was so tense every moment, as if he thought something was going to collapse on top of him if he let his guard down even slightly.
She was surprised to find just how quickly she got attached.
At first, Laura had been hesitant. Once she had agreed for the kids to come, she had become nervous, even anxious to have them in her home. For a while, she had been sure that she wouldn’t know how to act or how to handle them. For a while, she had even begun to doubt the whole thing. She had even caught herself wondering why Clint would let himself get into this situation.
All it took was five minutes with them for her to know. Suddenly, she was taking things all together instead of just one at a time.
There had been a hole inside her. It had been there for a long time, way before they had gotten back that final test, before they had confirmed that she would never have children of her own. She had known in the back of her mind the truth long before the doctors did. But as she and Clint joined each other in bed that night, with the six mutant kids all settled in the massive guest room just down the call, she realized something strange.
That dull ache, the hole that had been inside of her for so long… she couldn’t feel it. There was a warmth where it usually was, some sort of joy that had settled deep in her chest the moment that the little six-year-old girl had come up and hugged her.
Natasha would join them the next morning, and then it would truly feel like a holiday. The kids and Clint were home for a week. Thanksgiving was that Friday, and they would have to head back Saturday morning in order for Clint to not be missed.
Laura planned to make the most of every moment.
Notes:
IT'S THE FARM BONDING ARC!!! WHOO!! Mutants at the farm, what will they do??
My weekend is a bit more packed than usual, so there's a chance that I might skip Monday's post this coming week! A chapter will definitely go up as usual on Thursday, I'm just not sure about Monday... sorry in advance if I miss that one!
Hope y'all enjoyed!!
Chapter 43: Something You've Never Quite Felt
Summary:
When Clint asked if they wanted to spend Thanksgiving with him, it was a bit of a surprise. When he had told them that it would involve a trip, that they would actually be going to his home, Rogue had been sure that it was some sort of trick.
It all felt surreal, like they had managed to step into a movie that they weren’t made for.
Notes:
Thank you guys so much for your patience on this chapter! This week has been ridiculously busy, but we're back with more bonding!! Whoo!!
Hope you enjoy!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
“ Watch out !”
The shout came just in time for Rogue to duck. The whistle of something hard and fast whizzed past her head, and she heard a distant thunk as the object hit something— probably the tree just a few yards behind her— and presumably fell to the grass below. Moments later a familiar bamf echoed through the air just beside her. Rogue inhaled, and instantly she found her lungs filled with smoke. She coughed, her hand slicing through the air in an attempt to wave away the smoke as a soft apologetic gasp slipped out of the fog.
“Are you ok, Rogue?” She coughed again before turning a bit of a half-glare toward Kurt as the boy popped up from the crouch that he had teleported in. The cloud of smoke was beginning to fade, though Rogue’s coughing made her little brother wince. “Sorry, sorry, I didn’t mean to get so close—”
“You’re fine Kurt, it’s fine.” Rouge wrinkled her nose at the taste of sulfur that lingered in her mouth, but it did not take long for her to shake it off. This was Kurt, after all. She could never stay upset with him for long. “Just give me a little warning.”
“Sean did shout to you,” Kurt pointed out slowly, his tail twitching innocently behind him as his little fangs bared in something of a sheepish, mischievous grin. But it dropped before Rogue could say anything and was instead replaced by a wide-eyed look of concern. “We didn’t hit you, did we?”
Rogue snorted at the worry on her brother’s face before she shook her head. “Nah, you missed by a longshot. It’s over there somewhere, I think.”
She waved lazily behind her and Kurt’s gaze snapped up, his tail twitching excitedly as he located the runaway frisbee. “Thanks Rogue!” He chirped out, bouncing a bit on his toes before giving her a bright grin. “I’m gonna do it!”
Rogue frowned. “Don’t you dare—”
The words were hardly out of her mouth before her little brother was gone in a burst of smoke and stink. Rogue once again found herself coughing on sulfur and she rolled her eyes before glancing over her shoulder. Sure enough, Kurt already had the orange frisbee in hand and was jumping up and down in his excitement before running back toward the game. Sean’s cheers welcomed him back to the field, and it wasn’t long before they were joined by a loud whoop from Clint. Rogue could see the way that Kurt’s tail flicked up at the Avenger’s praise, and she watched as her little brother darted across the field and once again disappeared into a burst of smoke, only to reappear at Clint’ feet.
He shouldn't be teleporting that much; it was still a new skill, one that he hadn’t even obtained until after he and Rogue met and just before Xavier found them. She could see him breathing heavily even from her position on the spidlines, and it made something hot and protective curl up in her chest. But of course, it was all to show off for Clint… and when the Avenger grabbed Kurt and hoisted him up into the air, letting the kid clamor onto his shoulders as he whooped and giggled with joy, Rogue found it hard to begrudge the kid for exhausting himself.
Her lips twitched up into a smile, then pursed into something more of a line. She picked at the grass beneath her knees, humming slightly as she studied a particular blade or leaf. The grass was fairly dry— it was the middle of fall, after all— and yet Rogue found herself entirely comfortable sitting in it, the sounds of her family’s laughter in her ears as she watched from the sidelines. There was a soft breeze that was perfect for her hoodie and gloves, and it brought with it the pure scent of fall from the acres of land around them. There was no one else around for miles; it was just her, her siblings, and Clint as they all raced around after a bright orange plastic frisbee. Kurt and Kitty were laughing as they attempted to use their powers to make up for their height disadvantage. Sean was shrieking to the point that Rogue was sure something would eventually be cracked. Warren had his wings spread out, and on occasion he would swoop up and take air to snatch the frisbee when it was too high for everyone else. Even Scott was involved in the game; not using his powers, of course, but chasing after the frisbee all the same. He was playing and, when he ran past Rogue, she was even sure that she saw him grinning .
It all felt surreal, like they had managed to step into a movie that they weren’t made for.
When Clint asked if they wanted to spend Thanksgiving with him, it was a bit of a surprise. When he had told them that it would involve a trip, that they would actually be going to his home , Rogue had been sure that it was some sort of trick. She was sure that this was just a lie, a ruse, something to convince them of one reality when in truth, there was something else going on.
At least, that was what her mind had told her. However, her heart was not in any of her protests. She tried, of course, but any sort of scenario that she came up with somehow felt fake. Her mind wanted her to figure out what the game was, but nothing felt right. The only thing that felt right was sincerity, but that couldn’t be right.
It was strange. It was confusing. Still, Rogue couldn’t find it in her to protest.
Based on Scott’s slumped shoulders and balled fists throughout the entire debate, her older brother was struggling with a similar feeling.
In the end, they had agreed. The younger kids were excited about it. Clint was excited about it. Even Rogue caught herself counting down the days, though she could not tell if it was anticipation or dread that filled her chest whenever she looked at the calendar. After a time, she decided to stop asking. Instead she simply took it as it came.
That did not mean that she knew what to expect.
Clint’s house was nice. It felt like something out of a storybook. It was warm, welcoming, and clean in a way that felt lived-in. The farm itself was huge. There were acres of land surrounding them, all open and available for them to explore. The air was open and clean, crisp and cool with the fall atmosphere. The skies were almost cloudless, and the sun warmed the cool earth as her siblings ran through the grass. Clint had initiated this game of frisbee almost two hours ago now. It had taken Scott an hour to join in, and since then it hadn’t slowed down. They were all having fun, so much fun that it made Rogue’s heart ache. It was a good sort of ache, an unexpected sort of ache. It felt like something that she had not had in a long, long time… maybe never.
For some reason, she felt emotional about that.
“Rogue?” For a brief moment, the voice made her stiffen. Rogue glanced over her shoulder quickly, then found a strange mix of surprise and minor disappointment when she saw the woman standing behind her, right outside of the screen door that led back into the house. Of course she knew that Laura was the only one in the house, so logically it would be her speaking. Still, Rogue couldn’t help the minor disappointment that she felt at the near-stranger speaking to her. Had she been hoping for one of her siblings, or had she been hoping for Clint? Or was she just hoping for anyone but Laura?
The question was something that she decided to push away fairly quickly. It was not something that she particularly wanted to ponder. All she knew was that of the eight people that were staying in this house for the week, Laura was probably the one that she was least comfortable with.
She hoped that sentiment was clear in the silence that followed the woman’s question. She turned away and once again focused her gaze on the frisbee game before her. Sean had just managed to trip Clint, who barely recovered before sprawling on the ground. Kurt was still perched on his shoulders and was shrieking with delight the entire time, and Rogue once again began to smile at the sound.
There was a soft noise behind her; a sequence of light footfalls. They came closer and changed tone as the feet stepped off of the dirt path and instead hit the grass. The tension in Rogue’s shoulders tightened as the footsteps stopped just behind her, somewhere to her left. She had to steel herself to keep from turning around to face the woman, just to keep her in her sights.
“Do you mind if I sit down?”
Rogue felt herself shrug noncommittally. There was another moment of silence, and then she saw something move on the edge of her vision. Just like that, Laura Barton had taken a seat in the grass next to her.
Rogue braced for… something . She didn’t know what, exactly. Laura didn’t seem like the kind of person to take out her anger on someone, especially over nothing. Plus, she didn’t even seem angry at the moment. If anything she seemed content, just like Rogue was. There was a small smile on her face when Rogue glanced at her, and she seemed focused on the game in front of them. She was sitting a few feet away from Rogue; still there, but at a good distance. She made no move toward Rogue, not even when she noticed that the redhead was staring. Then she only met her eyes and offered that content smile toward her.
“I hope you don’t mind me barging in,” Laura said with a small tilt of her head. “Natasha won’t get here for another few hours, so I thought I’d come watch.”
“Natasha’s coming?” Rouge asked, trying to remember if Clint had mentioned that. He probably had, at least briefly, but Rogue had been focused on other things at the thought of the trip.
“Yeah, she is. She usually comes, she has for years,” Laura explained. Her smile was something fond, like she was remembering past Thanksgivings. “She’s pretty much a part of the family now.”
But we’re not . Rogue couldn’t help but remember that. They weren’t invited, not by Laura. They were invited by Clint and his wife had just been dragged into it. Laura didn’t seem upset about it… not yet , but the thought was sobering. Rogue felt a twinge of tension in her shoulders, and another frown began to tug at her mouth.
“Are you doing alright, Rogue?” Laura’s voice wasn’t pushy or tired, the way that most mothers Rogue had interacted with tended to sound. She sounded the way that her smile looked; warm, content, maybe slightly concerned when Rogue didn’t respond. “Has this been ok so far? I know it has to be a big change for you all to come here.”
“No,” Rogue found herself saying. “No, it’s been… it’s been good.”
It had been. It had been more than good. It had only been about twenty four hours since they had arrived at the Barton’s farmhouse, and every moment had been wonderful. Maybe that was what had her so hesitant. Maybe that was what felt so off; everything had been so good that it was strange.
A part of her knew that it couldn’t last. A part of her kept insisting that the rug would be yanked from beneath her eventually. A part of her knew that she should be on guard. And yet, she was content. She was happy .
Laura still looked slightly concerned. She glanced between Rogue and the game going on in front of them. “Did you want to play with everyone else? You don’t have to sit over here if you don’t want to.”
“No, I’m fine,” Rogue said. It was the truth. She was concerned about her mutation, of course, but more than that she just preferred to sit where she was and watch. “I think it’s more entertaining from a distance,” she said after a moment, just to make sure that Laura knew she was sincere.
To her mild surprise, a look of understanding passed over the woman’s face, and she nodded. That was it. She didn’t push, didn’t insist that Rogue should want to play. She simply accepted it and settled, her palms pressed against the dry grass as she leaned back. “It is, isn’t it? I think this is a lot better than professional sports.”
Rogue found herself nodding slowly, a part of her still waiting for some sort of reprimand. When none came she forced herself to relax and turned her attention back to the game. Someone had thrown the frisbee a bit too high, so Warren had to make the catch again. Sean was in the middle of a dive for it, for some reason, and he rolled through the grass before popping back up and shouting at his airborne brother. The sight pulled an amused huff from Rogue at almost the exact time that Laura let out a chuckle.
“Who’s winning?”
“Beats me.” Rogue shrugged. “I don’t think that any of them know either.”
Laura laughed, and it was a warm laugh. It reminded Rogue of something soft, like a blanket. It was a stupid comparison, but it was the first thing she thought of. “You know, I think that means they’re all winning then.”
The sound of more laughter cut through Laura’s words, and Rogue watched as Kitty snatched the frisbee right from Warren’s hands and ran off with it. Sean and Kurt both gave chase after her, and Warren was close on their heels with his wings beating slightly. Kitty didn’t bother to throw the disk, instead opting to simply cling to it and laugh as she ran across the lawn. There was no way that it was a legal frisbee move, but no one seemed to care.
Rogue couldn’t help but agree with Laura. Everyone was winning in this game.
“I love that sound.” Laura’s smile grew as more laughter filled the air, and Rogue found herself watching as the woman let out a slow breath. “It can be quiet here. This… this is a nice change.”
“Really?” Rogue tilted her head slightly, a startled scream following just behind her voice as someone— probably Warren, based on the beating of wings— caught up with Kitty. She could see him grabbing her out of the corner of her eye, and she had a feeling that he was about to take off with the girl in his arms. “You didn’t ask for us to be here.”
Laura blinked, then turned back to meet Rogue’s gaze. There was something like surprise, maybe even hurt in the woman’s eyes. Rogue didn’t flinch. She was right. Laura hadn’t asked for them to show up. From what Clint had told them, it sounded as though she didn’t even know about their existence until a month or so ago. They were barging into her home. She had every right to be upset about the laughing and screaming that now filled her yard. Most of the foster parents— the people that were paid to put up with kids— that Rogue interacted with would have been bothered by it. Laura easily could be.
And yet, she was not. At least, she didn’t seem to be.
She only smiled, then nodded. “Yeah, really. I’m… I’m really happy that you’re here. All of you.”
Rogue watched her, frowning, waiting for something to break. She waited for some crack in Laura’s kindness. She waited for some sort of ramification, some sort of rebuke. And yet, none came. Nothing that she expected came.
Somehow, that felt right.
Maybe Clint Barton was making her defenses come down too much. Maybe she should be more wary around Laura. But the screaming and giggling of her siblings was in her ears, the November sun was on her skin, and Laura’s presence next to her was more comfortable than it should have been. The grass beneath her was warm and dry, and Rogue couldn’t help but feel as though this was right. It felt warm. It felt happy.
Maybe, even, it felt something like home.
Notes:
Oh, what's that? The chapter count went up? And that might be part of the reason there was a bit of a delay on this chapter? Hmm? Well, I thought that the Farm Arc felt waaaay too short as I was reading it over (as in only two chapters, ouch) so... now it's not that :) hope you enjoy the extra three chapters of (practically) pure fluff!
Oh, and btw I dumped a whole bunch of FTY memes in my discord server the other day which, I dunno, they made me laugh at 3am, so just a reminder that if anyone wants to join this and chat about fanfic, you're welcome! It's super small and chill, so come hang out!
See y'all monday! <3
Chapter 44: Sunshine
Summary:
Natasha could feel something inside of her melt at the sight. It was a strange feeling, one that she could not think of if she had felt before. It felt like there was something warm in her chest, something that sank into her heart and made a smile push against her cheeks.
Natasha was not an expert on children. She hardly knew how to interact with them. In the past, it had not seemed worthwhile… now, however, she could feel nothing but warmth as she watched the kid blink up at her with wide, innocent eyes.
Notes:
AHHHH, I'm so sorry I missed yesterday's update y'all!! I really have no excuse, I just forgot until I was working on a different project and then looked at the clock and OOPS, it was 2 am and I was falling asleep. These next few chapters have been a bit heavier on editing, which stinks because I do NOT want to become an unreliable author as we start to get to the climax that would be the WORST :'D
All that to say, this one's a bit late, but hopefully the fact that it is very soft and cuddly will make up for that! Enjoy! <3
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Holidays were something that Natasha never got to experience as a child.
Maybe she had, once. Maybe there was a time before the Red Room and before her ledger became stained with red when she had been able to have a normal life. Maybe at some point in that mystical, far away time, there had been celebrations. Maybe there had been holidays. Maybe there had been excitement, gifts, an overwhelming sense of family that filled her up to the brim until she was ready to crack from annoyance or love or a mix of the two. Maybe, buried deep within memories of a childhood that was gone too soon, there were days like that. If they were there, though, they had long been forgotten. Any memories of holidays that she had as a little girl had long been drowned away in endless days of dark rooms and cold nights, each one the same as the last.
Besides, even if she had experienced a holiday as a child, it would not have been Thanksgiving. Despite her many aliases and alliances, she was still born Russian.
It was Clint Barton who had introduced her to an American Thanksgiving. The second year after she had defected from the Red Room, the first year that she had been a part of SHIELD, he was the one who asked if she had anyone to spend the holiday with. Back then, she had not been entirely honest with him. It would not be until years later that she would confide in him the dark, cold nights or the lack of holiday memories. No, then she would simply give him a single layer, a layer that would lead to an invitation and then, years later, a tradition. Once Clint married Laura, it was never a question of whether or not Natasha would be invited to the Barton family Thanksgiving, no matter how large or how small the crowd was that year. Most often, the crowd would simply be the three of them, maybe with Coulson or Fury or Hill joining. Somehow, that crowd never seemed to matter. Somehow, through a holiday that she was not native to and traditions that she was unfamiliar with, Natasha had found something deeper; that true holiday feeling, the one deep inside that warmed the soul and made the heart want to burst. Somehow, in the midst of dying leaves and shriveling grass, Natasha found life. Somehow, for the first time that she could remember, she found a family.
The Bartons had that effect on people. They breathed life as they moved, no matter what it was that they were doing. They made others feel welcome and at home. They made people want to smile and laugh and live in ways that were almost captivating. She was fairly sure that neither of them realized the effect that they had. They would shrug her off if she explained how profound they were.
Still, Natasha could see the truth. She could feel it in herself. She could see it in the faces of the other SHIELD agents.
And, even more drastically than any adult that she had watched encounter the Barton’s kindness, she could see it in the faces of the six children that they had welcomed into their home for this holiday. She could see it in every grin, big and small. She could see it in every wonder-filled blink as they explored the farmhouse. She could see it in every hesitant movement as they tried to find their place in the household, only for Clint and Laura to coax them out of their enforced shells and into some childish activity or another. She could see it in the way that the kids got to be kids , and— more importantly— how foriegn it seemed to them.
In the strangest way, she felt as though she could understand the warmth in these kid’s eyes better than anyone else could. She could understand it because it was the exact thing that she had been deprived of for her entire life. She could understand it because she knew first-hand how precious that warmth was.
She watched the children interact with the Bartons, and she hid her smiles in her cups of scalding hot cider. Not even the kids seemed to realize just what was happening. They were hesitant, clumsy, some of them moving through the motions of the holiday and others fumbling as if they had never celebrated one before. None of them seemed to know how to cope with the warmth that came from the adults, and the adults did not seem to know how to cope with the pure fondness that was obvious in every move that they made.
They were perfect for each other, even if they did not realize it.
They would, eventually. It was a fact that Natasha had slowly come to accept. She had been hesitant, at first, even suspicious when the children had first come to the Tower. She had never quite doubted Clint, but she had certainly wondered at times just what his plan was in this situation. Sometimes, it seemed as though there was no plan… but then, that seemed to be the way that Clint operated best. Plan or no plan, intended or not, he was bonding with these kids. Whether or not either party could see it, they were becoming closer.
Natasha had seen it coming for weeks now. She was content to sit back, sip her cider, and watch as the Baton’s unintentional magic unfolded.
“ Natasha .”
She glanced up from her mug of cider and away from the TV screen. There was a movie playing, though she had hardly been paying attention. She had been absorbed in the fact that Sean had taken to leaning against her arm at some point during the first ten minutes. It was the entire reason that she was still holding her cider; it had long gone cold but she found herself unwilling to move to set it down for fear of disturbing the child at her side.
She turned her gaze toward Clint, and a grin twitched at the edges of her lips as she realized that he was in a similar predicament. He was staring at her, his eyes quickly flicking between her and the kid that had taken up residence next to his arm… or, more accurately, on his arm. There was a twisted mass of blue limbs tangled up in the sleeve of Clint’s orange sweater. A foot rested in the crook of his elbow, and two tiny hands were twisted into the fabric near his shoulder. A tiny blue face was pressed against his bicep while curly black hair brushed against the orange sweater. To top it off, there was a thin sinewy tail wrapped all the way along Clint’s forearm, the spaded tip resting just along his wrist.
Clint’s wide-eyed expression was possibly the best part. Natasha found that she was hardly able to swallow a chuckle.
Look , Clint mouthed to her, nodding slightly as if she was not looking straight at him. Look at him .
He’s clingy , Natasha mouthed back, careful not to make a sound with the words. The warm hum of the TV would likely cover their conversation, but it felt as though it would interrupt the atmosphere. The Great Pumpkin Charlie Brown had a captive audience for the first few minutes, but the long day had left the current members of the Barton house tired and everyone was beginning to doze. The night was warm, quiet, sleepy in a way that spoke of a full day and a safe home. It was a precious feeling. Natasha did not want to jeopardize it.
He’s tiny , Clint said silently. He glanced back down at the blue mutant in his arms, and Natasha followed his gaze. He was right. Kurt was small, hardly any bigger than the six-year-old who had nearly appropriated Laura’s entire lap. It was difficult to notice past the blue features and the oversized hoodies that he wore, but he really was small for an eight-year-old.
He is , Natasha’s lips moved, the words nothing more than a breath as she stared at the tiny blue child clinging to Clint’s arm.
Clint’s expression had twisted into something slightly concerned, and his eyes slid up to meet Natasha’s. He’s light too, he mouthed. So light .
It was true, Natasha could see that much. The kid had practically wrapped himself around Clint’s arm, and there seemed to be no strain whatsoever on the limb. Clint was a trained professional; an archer, at that. He had strong arms… but still, the weight of an eight-year-old child should affect him somehow. There should be some sort of strain.
The kid was too small, and it was obvious.
He’ll be alright , Natasha let her lips move into the simple, silent phrase without much thought. She did not need to think about the statement. It was simply the truth. It was shown in the way that Kurt clung to Clint in a way that he never would have two months ago. It was shown in the way that he didn’t bother to try and hide his blue skin and tail. It was shown in an unintentional relaxation between the child and the adult, the trust that had been built between them over months of slow, steady effort. Already the little kid seemed to be doing better… they all did, both physically and mentally.
But that was too much to try and convey through unspoken words and mouthed phrases. So she left it with he’ll be alright , and watched as Clint nodded solemnly and held the blue child closer. The sight made her smile deepen, and she let a long breath leave her lungs as she watched Clint’s eyes remain fixated on Kurt’s little three-fingered hands where they gripped his sweater.
Something shifted against her side, and Natasha tensed instinctively. She glanced down and soon felt herself relax. The movement was nothing out of the ordinary; it was only Sean shifting slightly, his green eyes blinking rapidly as he tried to lift his head toward the TV screen in front of them. Natasha watched as the little boy yawned, his mouth opening wide and his curly hair bobbing as he shook his head. The moment that he stopped his features seemed to droop, only to be once again shaken
Natasha chuckled softly. She thought it was too quiet to hear, but a moment later Sean was shifting again, this time tilting his head to face her. His eyes were wide and droopy, obviously tired, but still awake as he blinked up at her. Natasha could feel something inside of her melt at the sight. It was a strange feeling, one that she could not think of if she had felt before. It felt like there was something warm in her chest, something that sank into her heart and made a smile push against her cheeks.
Natasha was not an expert on children. She hardly knew how to interact with them. In the past, it had not seemed worthwhile… now, however, she could feel nothing but warmth as she watched the kid blink up at her with wide, innocent eyes.
“Hello, солнышко ,” she said softly, almost without meaning to. Her arm remained as still as she could keep it, her chest only moving slightly as she breathed. She tried to keep as motionless as possible in order to keep from jostling or startling the obviously sleepy boy.
He blinked up at her. His face was pressed against her arm, his curls bright in the glow of the TV against her black jacket sleeve. His nose wrinkled as his mouth turned down in a little frown, his brow creasing as he tried to process what he had heard. The confusion on his tired face was nothing short of adorable. “Sol-nush-k-what?”
Natasha chuckled, a note of soft surprise tickling her throat. She had hardly meant to say the word. She was somewhat surprised he had managed to hear it in his half-asleep state. “It’s pronounced ‘sol-nysh-kuh’,” she repeated, careful to enunciate the word. “Sol-nysh-kuh. Солнышко.”
He wrinkled his nose even further. “Sol… solnushkah?”
Natasha chuckled softly, very aware of the fact that the noise made her shoulder shift ever so slightly beneath the boy’s head. “You’re close,” she said, even though he hardly was.
Sean frowned, his curls bouncing against her jacket sleeve as he shook his head. “Wha’s’it mean?”
“Oh.” Natasha bit the inside of her cheek ever so slightly. “It means sunshine.”
“ Sunshine ?” Sean asked. “Why didn’t ya just say that? That’s a lot easier than sol-no-kuh.”
Natasha did not comment on the fact that his pronunciation had grown even further from the word. “Well, it’s in Russian,” she explained, her voice hardly a whisper above the voice of Charlie Brown from the TV. “I’m from Russia, originally. So that’s the language I speak.”
Sean tilted his head slightly, a yawn splitting his jaws before he shook it away. “Like… like how Kurt sometimes jus’ speaks in gibberish?”
“That’s not gibberish, that’s German,” Natasha said, carefully biting back another chuckle. She cast a sidelong glance to where the blue boy was still curled up in Clint’s arm. “That’s where he’s from, I assume.”
“Nah, he’s from a circus. Tha’s what he always says.” Another yawn had Sean’s head dropping back against her arm as he slumped with apparent exhaustion. “Why’d ya say that anyway? It’s dark out.”
It took Natasha only a moment to realize that he had backtracked to the sunshine comment. She was surprised to find her face warm at the reminder. Embarrassment was not usually an emotion that she was familiar with. Embarrassment was something second-hand, a detached emotion that was unnecessary in her line of work. To be embarrassed meant to care about someone’s opinion of you, and it became very difficult to care about another person’s opinion when you were stripped of any sense of self. It was one of the Red Room’s curses that she could almost shoulder gladly; too many people were too focused on their embarrassment and the opinion of those who did not matter. Natasha had no room in her life for embarrassment, and she was perfectly content with that.
This, however, was different. This was not a humiliating act of self-deprecation that was necessary for a mission or training. This was not some inconsequential slip-up in front of a stranger who could care less who she was. This was a child staring up at her with sleepy eyes and a disgruntled expression, a child who was innocently asking her why she had referred to him as sunshine. Ths was Sean Cassidy, a ten-year-old with energy that far exceeded himself, a small child who talked eagerly about his likes and his dislikes and his hopes and his thoughts and the world as a whole with inexhaustible energy. This was a boy who grinned a bright, brilliant, gap-toothed grin every time that someone bothered to listen to him ramble for even a moment. This was a boy who shone as bright as the sun, and he wondered why she called him sunshine.
But that was too complicated to explain in hushed whispers beneath the music of Charlie Brown. So instead Natasha simply smiled down at him. “It just slipped out. It’s a term of endearment.”
Sean tilted his head, his brow once again furrowing. “Endear…”
“Endearment?” Sean nodded, his chin rubbing against her elbow as she continued to speak. “It means that I like you. It’s a form of verbal affection.”
Sean made a noise, but it was lost in the fabric of Natasha’s jacket as he buried his face in her carefully still side. “It’s a funny word,” he said, his words almost slurred with sleep as he spoke. “Sol-somethin’. Funny word.”
Natasha chuckled, and she debated if she should do something more. Maybe she should move her arm and rest it on the kid’s back. Maybe she should shift so that his head could rest on her knee, and therefore let him lay horizontally. Maybe she should move him so that he could cuddle with Clint or Scott instead, someone who would actually know what to do with him. She did none of those things. She simply stayed as she was, her arm still so as to avoid jostling him, a tiny, fond smile on her face any time that she glanced down at the child.
After only a minute or two, she could feel another twitch against her arm. The little kid jolted, shook his head, and then settled back against her side with a massive yawn. It looked as though he was beginning to doze off, which was unsurprising with how exhausted he seemed.
“Sean.” Natasha watched him tilt his head back, his ear still pressed against her arm as she tried to coax him. “You can sleep, you know. You don’t have to finish the movie.”
The frown on Sean’s face deepened, and he shook his head sharply. “No,” he said, his voice as firm as it could be for an exhausted ten-year-old. “No. I’m awake.”
“Uh huh—” Natasha began, but she cut off with the sight of another massive yawn. “You look tired.”
“‘M not.”
“Really?”
Sean hesitated at that. “I don’t wanna sleep,” he declared sleepily after a moment.
“Don’t want to sleep?” Natasha glanced again to the kid at her side. His little arms had crossed over his chest, though he made no move to lean away from her arm. “Why don’t you want to sleep?”
“I…” the kid broke off to yawn once again, and when he slumped against her arm he seemed to snuggle even closer. “I don’t wanna sleep through stuff.”
“It’s ok,” Natasha murmured. “We can restart the movie in the morning. You can rest.”
“No, no .” Sean’s tone turned grumpy and he waved an arm sluggishly. It fell against his side and against the couch with a soft whump . “I don't wanna sleep through Mr. Barton time.”
Natasha blinked. She shifted her gaze over to the archer on the other couch. He obviously had not heard a word of their conversation. His head had slipped to rest against Laura’s shoulder at some point. Kurt was still cradled in his arm, Kitty in his wife’s lap. Both of them looked just on the brink of passing out, if they had not already. Kitty and Kurt were both fast asleep, as was Rogue, who was just a little bit to Clint’s left with her arm brushing his. Warren was perched on a chair a few feet away, his wings tucked up around him and far more relaxed than they had been when he sat down. He looked like he was still awake, though he seemed to be fading fast. Scott was the only one who seemed as though he was fully awake as he sat rigidly near Warren, though it was impossible to tell with his glasses. There was a chance that he was already asleep. It had been a full day, after all, and it was undoubtedly a sleepy night.
“You’re not missing much,” she promised, her voice still soft as she spoke to Sean. “I think everyone else is sleeping too. See?”
Sean did not lift his head to look. He only shook his head with his face still buried in Natasha’s arm. “Still time,” he murmured. “I wanna keep it.”
“You have plenty of time,” Natasha said.
“No. We only got like, two days left here.” Sean shifted slightly. “An’ Scott says we gotta leave the Tower ‘ventually.”
“Scott says that?” Natasha questioned. She let her eyes drift up from where Sean was snuggled into her side and looked over at Scott. The boy was curled up on the same couch that they were, but he was in the opposite corner. His chin was resting on a balled-up fist, and his brown bangs fell over the rim of the new red glasses that he wore. The light of the TV glowed against his skin and traced the contours of his new red sweater. Even in the sleepy living room atmosphere there were stress lines carved into the boy’s brow and a ridginess to his posture, but despite that Natasha couldn’t help but notice how relaxed the boy looked. Relaxed may not be exactly the right word, but he was certainly less tense. Maybe that was just an effect of the defeated exhaustion that he had been shouldering for the past several days.
“Yeah. ‘Ventually, but I don’t wanna. So I can’t…” he broke off to yawn before he could protest sleeping any further.
Natasha watched the small child yawn, and she felt a twinge deep in her chest. He looked so small as he snuggled there, hardly more than a warm weight next to her arm. He was healed now. His leg, the one that had been shredded when the six children had first been brought to the Tower, bore nothing more than a scar now. That injury had been what brought the kids to the Tower in the first place, and it was nothing more than a memory now. So much had changed in the three or four months that the children had become a part of their lives.
Maybe even the plan to give them up.
That stray thought surprised her. Natasha almost shook her head, only stopping because she did not want to disturb the child next to her. In a way, that sounded insane. In a way, it sounded like the only option. Either way, it was not her decision to make. Her plan to stay out of it may have fallen slightly short, but she still did not want to influence Clint’s decision.
Not entirely, at least.
She let out a soft, silent breath, and took in the room. There was something peaceful about the quiet sleepiness of it. There was a restfulness that came after a full day of activity. There was a restfulness that was only made possible by an instinctive level of trust and acceptance. There was something right in the room.
Natasha finally shifted her arm. She did it almost haltingly, almost clumsily, but she shifted it. She gently moved the kid so that he was resting against her side instead, her arm finally free to pull up a blanket to cover him. The moment that she did he snuggled in, his eyes already shut as he opened his mouth in a wide yawn. Natasha did nothing to stop the soft smile on her face, only patting the kid’s shoulder gently.
“You can sleep, солнышко ,” she murmured. Sean mumbled something, but it was lost in the fact that his breaths were already becoming more even. Natasha’s eyes slid up to the couple on the other couch, each one with a child wrapped in their arms, and she found her tone solid when she continued. “I think you still have time.”
Notes:
This was definitely an impulse-add chapter but holy cow I think it's cute. This story needed more cuddles. Cuddles are very important. I loved writing this!
Hopefully the next chapter will actually come out on time! I still need to write a teeny bit of it so comments would be greatly appreciated (they always are, but I'm using this as en excuse to ask for some <3) because those always motivate me to write so much!!
Chapter 45: Giving Thanks
Summary:
Laura nodded definitively, leaning forward to hug her husband more fully as she cast her gaze back out the window. They stood there a moment, his chin brushing the top of her head as they watched their kids play in the yard. Well, not their kids, of course. Not permanently.
But she could enjoy the temporary, couldn’t she?
Notes:
Ahh, this is why I try and prewrite my fics instead of updating as I write because this chapter is way off-schedule. However, I'm pretty sure it's the longest chapter in the whole fic (over 8k words, haha) so hopefully that makes up for the wait!
Also it kinda bothers me that this is getting posted near Halloween rather than Thanksgiving, but oh well at least it's during the fall and not the middle of spring or something! XD This was so fun to write it's literally just self indulgent fluff, enjoy!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The week of Thanksgiving had never been more busy. It had never been more hectic, never been more loud. The little Barton farmhouse had never felt quite so full , likely because it never had been so full. It especially had never been so full of children. There were loud noises at every corner and running feet across the hardwood floors at every turn. It was hectic. It was stressful.
The week of Thanksgiving had never been better any year that Laura could remember.
She spent the first two days connecting with the kids; games, movies, carving pumpkins, everything she had planned and so, so much more. They were distant at first. They were comfortable around Clint, even Natasha once she came in the night after they arrived, but by Thursday night they were beginning to relax around her as well. Warren discarded the harness he wore in favor of letting his wings hang out loosely. Kurt only attempted to cover his face the first day before unabashedly letting his blue skin show. Sean showed her just how strong his sonic scream was— strong enough to splinter wood, apparently. Rogue helped her out with the cooking and played her favorite music in the kitchen. Kitty tried to help too, but Kurt and Sean quickly pulled her away to help chase Lucky across the property for the hundredth time.
So much happened in just a few days. It was loud, busy, and wonderful.
Laura hardly stopped smiling. Clint didn’t either. They kept sharing glances, tiny snippets of his eyes asking “ is this ok?” only for her to beam at him.
On Thursday afternoon, with all six kids out in the yard, he pulled her away from the final food preparations for that night.
“Laura. Be honest with me.” His eyes seared into hers, uncertainty deep in his eyes. “Is this ok?”
It was not the first time the question had been spoken. He had asked it a few times throughout the week. And each time Laura gave him the same answer that she gave him this time. She rubbed his arm and nodded. “ Yes. Yes, it is Clint.”
“Really?”
“Yes.”
“You’re not mad? At all?”
Laura opened her mouth to reply. Then she hesitated. The worry in Clint’s eyes deepened. She watched as it increased and she listened to the distant, muffled sounds of children laughing through the wooden walls. She hesitated, and after a moment she found her lips forming a new answer. “Actually, yes. I think I might be.”
The worry vanished, instantly replaced with dread. “You are?”
“Yes,” Laura cut him off before he could say anything else, before he could attempt to stutter out an apology. She rubbed his arm harder and smiled, hoping that her smile would convey everything that she felt. “I’m mad that you didn’t bring them sooner .”
Clint hesitated, his mouth moving a moment before he spoke. “Really?”
“Clint, these kids…” Laura glanced out the window above the sink. In the distance, they could see the kids running through the field. Lucky was twisting in and out between them, barking and chasing after Sean as the little boy let out a shriek of joy. Warren was flying just above him, and by the look of it he had Kitty in his arms and was dipping and weaving through the air as Kurt reached toward them from a tree that he had clamored up. Rogue was sitting to the side, a smile on her lips as she tilted back her face toward the sun. Scott was near her, his sharp gaze focused on his siblings through the red-tinted lenses of his glasses, and a small smile on his face. They looked like they were having fun, and Laura was glad that they had chosen the spot outside of the kitchen to play while she finished cooking. Natasha was out there with them, watching on, but having them in view made Laura feel better. All she had to do was look up to see them, and all she had to do was see them for an involuntary smile to climb her face. She let out a soft breath. “They’re wonderful . You should have brought them sooner.”
A flash of relief flooded Clint’s eyes, and he chuckled, his hand running through his hair. “Yeah. Well, three months ago I could hardly convince them to come to the Tower, let alone do… well, anything else.” Clint glanced out the window, his gaze soft as he watched the kids play with Lucky. “Lucky loves them.”
Laura hummed, her gaze following Clint’s. She leaned against her husband, his shoulder warm next to her own as they watched the movement outside. The dog was running around, now barking at the tree that Kurt was in as the little kid shrieked and laughed. Lucky did love the kids. And honestly, she didn’t think that Lucky was the only one.
“You have to bring them back,” she murmured.
Clint let out a breath, and Laura saw the smile on his face falter. But then it was back almost as soon as it was gone. “Yeah. As long as MacTaggart doesn’t find them a place too soon.”
“Right. Of course.” MacTaggart. The social worker. The one who would get the kids to good homes; permanent homes. Why did her name send a pang through Laura’s chest? She had only known the kids for six days.
And yet… she was dreading them leaving the next morning. Even just six days of laughter and life in the usually quiet, lonely halls of her home, just six days of being around these kids and learning what little bits she could… she couldn’t stifle the rising urge to protect them and to keep them close. It was a strange feeling, one that she felt as though she had been missing despite the fact that she had never quite felt it before. Maybe that was the urge that was filling the hole in her soul that had been festering for the past few months.
“But that could be a long time.” Clint’s eyes were still on the kids outside, his gaze distant and unfocused. “A long, long time.”
“At least past Christmas,” Laura agreed quickly.
“Maybe even Easter.”
“It could be a whole year.”
“Even two.”
“There’s plenty of time for another visit,” Laura nodded definitively, leaning forward to hug her husband more fully as she cast her gaze back out the window. They stood there a moment, his chin brushing the top of her head as they watched their kids play in the yard. Well, not their kids, of course. Not permanently.
But she could enjoy the temporary, couldn’t she?
They stood there until a loud beeping sliced through the silence, and Laura remembered just how close she was to getting the food together. She quickly got Clint sent on the mission of setting the table as she pulled out the turkey and prepped the final pieces of the meal. Then she checked over everything. Then she checked it over again. And one more time, just to be safe. She had it all planned, but she wanted to make sure it was perfect . Who knew if the kids had celebrated Thanksgiving with Xavier? From what she gathered from Rogue, they didn’t, or at the very least they didn’t have a real Thanksgiving feast. Laura wanted to provide them with that.
Thanksgiving was a time for family. And as Laura called to Clint to bring the kids inside for dinner, she couldn’t help but think of how natural it felt.
Natural . That was how it looked when they all sat down at the table. Usually, Clint would sit to one side with Laura next to him, and whatever guests they had would choose a seat at random. Usually, there would be plenty of open seats. Usually, there would be a slight sense of loneliness that came with the space. This year, there were no empty seats. This year every spot was taken, and Natasha even had to pull an extra chair in from the kitchen. This time Clint and Laura sat on opposite ends of the table, mostly because Kitty insisted that she had to sit next to Laura and Sean wanted to sit closest to the mashed potatoes, a spot that he claimed meant he had to have the corner seat despite the fact that the bowl of potatoes could be passed. Natasha sat next to him at one end of the table and carefully ensured that everyone still got mashed potatoes, despite Sean’s occasional protests. At the opposite end of the table sat Warren, whose wings were carefully and tensely spread out behind him on either side of the chair’s back. To Clint’s left sat Rogue, and Kurt claimed the seat right next to her. To Clint’s right sat Scott, with his folded arms and furrowed brow as he watched the murmur of his siblings around him. With all of them there, the table looked full. It looked natural. It looked right .
Maybe this was what family was supposed to look like.
Laura brought the steaming, sliced turkey in from the kitchen, and when she set it down as the final crowning jewel of the feast she found herself met by enthusiastic cheering from the younger kids. Soon that cheering was followed by clapping from the older three, and then even Clint and Natasha were joining in with the surprise applause. Laura laughed, her grin growing in the thick of it as she bowed dramatically.
“Dinner is served,” she announced with a wink, and she was awarded for her theatrics by another enthusiastic cheer from Sean. The boy was practically bouncing in his chair, his elbows on the table and his eyes wide as he stared at the heaping mounds of food in front of him.
“Does that mean we can eat?”
Laughter erupted around the table, and it was a warm sound. It filled Laura’s ears and her heart, and she felt as though if her smile grew any more, she wouldn’t be able to eat the food in front of them. As soon as she had the thought, she realized that it didn’t matter. Even if she couldn’t eat the food, she somehow felt as though it would be worth it; the grins from the kids made that obvious. Even Scott smiled a bit as Clint relented and told the kids to dig in. Laura could sit back and watch, and she found herself perfectly content to simply observe as the kids began to devour what she had made.
She had made a hundred plans over the past month. Over the week some had worked out, some had been tossed to the wind to make way for new ones. In the end, it didn’t matter what had gone to plan and what had been a surprise. All that she knew was that this was perfect .
“So then…” Clint was the one to speak up first. Little bits of splattered conversation petered out as he pulled the attention of the dinner crowd to himself. The kids looked up one at a time, their eyes wide as they watched Clint smile at them. Laura watched as well. She watched the way that his eyes sparkled, the corners crinkling with the smile that stretched across his face. He had to clear his throat before he spoke, as if something had gotten caught in it when the kids had looked at him. “So. It’s Thanksgiving. You all know what that means?”
“ Food ,” Sean exclaimed through a mouth half-full of mashed potatoes. Laura found herself chuckling in amusement as Kitty laughed aloud and Warren let out a snort. Instinct took over and she reached to her left to gently tap at the ten-year-old’s shoulder, a smile still on her face.
“Don’t talk with your mouth full,” she scolded gently. The words almost surprised her, and so did Sean’s quick nod as he swallowed.
“S’rry Miss Laura,” he said, grinning with all of his gap-toothed glory. He turned back to look at Clint and Laura felt that grin burned into her mind.
“Food, yes,” Clint continued with a laugh of his own. “But other stuff too.”
“You mean like the pilgrims?” Kitty asked, her eyes bright and eager as she tilted her head. “I think I saw that in a movie once.”
“Pilgrims too, yes. That’s why we have the holiday, so I guess that’s pretty important.” Clint gave her an encouraging nod, and Kitty beamed at the praise. “But that’s not all. Why do you think it’s called Thanks giving?”
There was a moment of silence, just long enough for Laura to see Kitty making a face of concentration and Kurt’s tail twitching as he cocked his head to the side. As she was looking at the kids she found her gaze traveling to Natasha. The two women caught each other’s eyes for just a moment, and Laura found herself reminded of Natasha’s first Thanksgiving with them. Explaining traditions, providing a warm welcome, unknowingly welcoming a new member into their family… it was strange to think of a time before Natasha joined them for Thanksgiving, and she wondered if in a few years it would be the same for the six children around them. Perhaps it was a wishful thought, but she had it all the same.
“It’s so people can give thanks,” Scott said, cutting through the warm atmosphere. His voice was flat, and he was staring at his plate. The tentative smile that he had been wearing a moment before had dropped away at some point and was replaced instead by a neutral expression. The food had hardly been touched, and Laura realized that this was Scott’s first time speaking since they had sat down. “Y’know. For good things.”
“Yeah. Yeah, it’s a time to give thanks.” There were a few small oh ’s from the younger kids as they put together the meaning of the holiday’s name. They murmured to each other while Laura found herself looking at the young boy across the table from her. Scott hadn’t looked up yet, and Laura was surprised to find how much worry twisted in her chest at his expression. Was there something wrong with the food? Was he remembering something? Was there anything she could do to help?
She didn’t know.
Clint was focused on the younger kids across the table, and he smiled encouragingly at them as the teenager sat tensley next to him. “Come on everyone, it’s not Thanksgiving if we don’t talk about what we’re thankful for. Does anyone want to say anything?”
“I’m thankful for a lot !” Kitty declared. She put her palms on the table and straightened up, her face split into a proud grin as all eyes turned to her. She lifted up one hand and began to dramatically lift her fingers. “First, I’m thankful for, like, the pie we’re gonna eat after dinner! It’s gonna be really, really good, cause Miss Laura and I made it.”
Laura chuckled as the six-year-old looked up at her with wide, sparkling eyes. Kitty had been in and out of the kitchen the entire time that Laura had been cooking, though she had quickly learned to be careful about letting the little girl actually put in ingredients. She had a habit of adding extra of something just because it sounded like a good idea.
“Also—” Kitty held up another finger pointedly. “Lucky is the best, best, best dog ever!”
“Hey!” Sean shot up in his seat, and for a moment it looked as though he was going to jump out of it entirely. “No fair, that was my thing! I wanna be thankful for Lucky!”
Somewhere in the background there was a bark, and it made Laura chuckle. Lucky had been left outside for the mealtime to prevent stolen food, but it was almost as though the dog could tell he was being argued over. She placed a gentle hand on the shoulder of each of the kids flanking her. “You guys hear that? That’s Lucky saying that you can both be thankful for him.”
Sean shot her an over-exaggerated pout. “But that was my thing.”
“Well, do you have anything else?” Laura asked encouragingly. “What else are you thankful for?”
Sean frowned, then brightened. He jabbed a finger straight into his food, and Laura couldn’t decide if she should laugh or scold him. “Mashed potatoes! These are the best !”
“Hey, I wasn’t finished!” Kitty whined behind her, and Laura turned her attention back to the six-year-old. She still had two fingers held up, and her eyebrows were raised as if she was trying to make a point. “I had a lot, lot more! Like, twenty!”
She held up seven fingers to enunciate the word twenty , and something about that made Laura smile even more. “I know, sweetie,” she said with a gentle nudge. “But that's a lot , so let’s let everyone else say something too, ok?”
Kitty pouted slightly, but she nodded and leaned halfway out of her chair to put her head against Laura’s shoulder. The woman quickly tugged the girl’s chair so that it was almost touching her own, then put an arm around her before glancing up at the other kids around the table. “Kurt? Rogue?”
The two blinked, then glanced at each other. There was a brief moment of a staredown, bright yellow eyes connecting with deep green ones, and then Rogue said “Kurt” at the same time that Kurt said “Rogue”. Kurt started giggling instantly and Rogue joined in after just a moment. Kitty let out a little hey! and Warren made a sound of mock-offense, both of which made Kurt jump slightly.
“I’m thankful for you all !” The blue boy said quickly, his tail twitching as he looked almost nervously at the kids around him. “Really, really! Just…”
“I’m glad I found this guy first,” Rogue said when Kurt trailed off, and Laura watched as the girl almost hesitatingly put an arm around her little brother’s shoulder. Kurt instantly leaned into the touch, and Laura watched as the momentary tension seeped out of Rogue. There was a second of deep, deep emotion on her face, but it was only there for an instant before she gave a flippant half-shrug. “I dunno if I could have taken all y’all at once.”
There was laughter at the table, and the two siblings grinned cheekily at the rest of their family in a way that made Laura’s heart warm. A part of her wondered what exactly those two had gone through before meeting the rest of the kids, and another part of her wondered if she even wanted to know.
Beneath her arm, Kitty squirmed a bit. “That was another of mine,” she muttered, frowning slightly as Laura looked down at her. To her left, Sean also made an exclamation that amounted to the same sentiment.
“I bet you’re all thankful for each other,” Laura said, her heart warm at the very enthusiastic nods that she got for that. These kids loved each other more than most biological siblings would. She had seen it in every interaction, every little argument and make-up, every little comment and hug and act of small, pure intimacy that she had witnessed over the past week. It made her heart swell despite the fact that she had only known the kids for a while. There was something so incredibly sweet about the way that they were all so attached to each other, the way that they looked at each other like they would give the world for one another.
It made her wonder if that look had ever crossed her own face.
“I’m thankful for the air out here.” The comment pulled Laura out of her thoughts before she could ponder it any further. Warren’s voice was casual, his shoulders moving in a slight shrug as he spoke, but Laura caught the underlying tension to his words. His wings were pulled a bit closer to his back, and his blue eyes were focused on something off to his left rather than anything at the table as he spoke. “You know. It’s really open and… yeah. I’m thankful for that.”
The comment ended with an almost clipped noise, and Warren’s jaw clenched slightly as he spoke. Somehow, the simple comment of thankfulness seemed to be far more personal than it sounded. There was something just slightly broken in the boy’s words, and Laura couldn’t help but think that was what made them so beautiful.
“I have to agree on that one,” Natasha commented when there was a lull of silence at the table. She nodded to the window that was behind Warren, a window that opened up to show off most of the side yard and garden. “It’s a lot more open here. Definitely a nice break from the city.”
“Especially in the summer,” Laura commented before she could even think about it. Once she had said it though, she found eyes shifting to her and she continued. “The city gets so busy in the summer. Plus, it’s much warmer, then. You guys could run around out there for hours. You’ll have to come see it.”
Natasha shot her a knowing look with a small, almost unnoticeable smirk. Laura mentally brushed it off, ignoring the slight buzz under her skin as she realized that was not at all what she planned to say. Next summer was months away. Anything could happen until then. Who even knew where the kids would be ?
And yet… she found that she didn’t care. She had only known these kids for six days, but she wanted them to come back. She wanted them to be there next summer, screaming and laughing and running around chasing Lucky through the grass outside as she watched on. She wanted their voices to fill the lonely, unused house and for their smiles to brighten up the dull walls. She did not want this Thanksgiving to be a one-time event, like it had been planned to be. She wanted this to happen again. She wanted to see the kids again, no matter where they ended up in the months to come. Maybe it would take planning with foster parents. Maybe they would get lucky and the kids would still be with Clint at the Tower. She did not care. The plan could come later; at this moment, she wanted to assure them that they were welcome back; that they were wanted back.
Apparently, this sentiment was needed because Sean nearly jumped up in his seat. “We can come back?” He asked, all but shouting as his eyes widened in surprise. “Really? We can do this again?”
“Of course,” Laura said firmly. The words were out of her mouth before she even thought to glance at her husband. Thankfully, when she did, he found that there was no challenge or hesitation there. The only thing in his eyes was a mix of surprise, relief, and determination. Yes . They would do this again. Somehow, no matter where the kids ended up, this would happen again. They did not have to talk to be on the same page for this; they simply knew.
“That’s going to be what I’m thankful for, then,” Clint declared. He grinned down at the kids, and he gave Sean a little wink. “A preemptive thankfulness, you know?”
Kitty shifted beneath Laura’s arm again. Laura started to move her arm away to let the girl sit up, but the moment she did she felt a tiny, strong grip wrap around her wrist and pull her arm back. She chuckled beneath her breath as Kitty leaned against her, a small frown on the girl’s lips as she scrunched up her nose. “Pre-what?”
“ Preemptive ,” Natasha clarified with a smile. It shifted into something closer to a smirk as she shot a look over toward Clint. “A pretty big word for him, huh?”
Kitty giggled and Clint let out a squawk of offense. “Hey, I use big words!”
“Nu uh!” Sean exclaimed. “Dr. Banner and Mr. Stark use the big words!”
“I do too!” Clint exclaimed again, and it almost would have sounded like he was offended if not for the fact that he was laughing as he spoke. “I use big words all the time! Right, Laura?”
Her husband looked to her for help. She caught his gaze, hesitated for a moment, then grinned and tilted her head. “Well…”
The rancorous laughter from Sean and Kitty made the look of slight betrayal on Clint’s face entirely worth it. “No fair. You’re taking their side?”
Laura instinctively tugged Kitty a bit closer and tried to give him an innocent look. “They’re a lot cuter than you.”
Clint gasped dramatically, and by this point everyone had joined in on laughing. Warren even reached across the table to pat Clint’s shoulder good-naturedly. “Don’t worry old man—”
“Oh, I’m old now?”
“—yep, but you’re still plenty smart.”
“And cute!” Kitty added between giggles.
Clint groaned and leaned back in his chair, slumping away from the food-laden table as he ran a hand through his hair. “I’m being ganged up on. This isn’t fair.” He pointed an accusatory finger at Laura, but there was mirth in his eyes. “You’re picking favorites.”
“I don’t know what you mean,” Laura said, her grin wide and mischievous as she spoke. To her left Sean leaned against her arm, so she quickly reached out and tugged him closer so she could watch Clint groan. Sean squirmed happily in the embrace.
“That’s right!” He said enthusiastically, his gap-toothed grin wide and his eyes sparkling as he leaned over the table toward Clint. “That’s right! Miss Laura likes us better than you, da—“
The word cut off and Sean’s eyes widened. There was still laughing at the table but Sean, usually the loudest of them all, was suddenly silent. His mouth opened, then closed, then looked desperately at Laura as if to see if she had noticed.
She had.
She had noticed the half-formed word on Sean’s tongue. She had noticed the look of minor panic, of minor fear on the kids face as he looked at her. She noticed the way that the fear increased as his green gaze darted to the man across the table from them.
Clint had noticed too. It was obvious on his face, the way that his jaw was slack and his eyes were wide. There was something similarly panicked in his gaze, and for a brief moment Laura felt a flash of dread. Why she wasn’t sure, but there was a new tension in her shoulders, something fierce and protective in her chest as she looked at her husband and braced for his response.
But then Clint’s expression melted. That was the only word to describe the shift. His open mouth spread into a wide, wide smile, his eyes crinkled as he blinked quickly. “Yeah,” he said, and he had to clear his throat after the word. He sounded almost choked up, and any subconscious worries that Laura had fell away. “Yeah, I… I’m not surprised.”
Sean laughed in response, but it seemed shy. The usually boisterous boy had his head ducked, his curls framing his face. He pushed away from the table and pressed into Laura’s arm, but then seemed to realize he was doing that and tried to shrink into himself rather than her. It was strange seeing the most out-going and loud of the kids suddenly acting so sheepish, and without thinking Laura gently pulled him closer. Soon he was mirroring Kitty, practically burrowing into her side as she rubbed a hand up and down his arm, her mind whirling as she did.
She could have heard him wrong. The little “da” really could have just been a slip-up. Maybe it meant nothing, and she was interpreting this wrong. But… it had sounded like “ dad ”. It sounded like Sean had been about to call Clint dad . If it really was just a casual slip of the tongue that meant nothing, then the kid wouldn’t be this embarrassed. But now he wouldn’t meet Clint’s gaze… because he almost called him dad .
Laura’s heart swooped at the thought, and she wondered how on earth these six kids had managed to capture her heart in just a few short days.
“Wait, Miss Laura!” There was a tug on her right arm, and Laura looked down to see Kitty staring up at her with wide eyes. “You didn’t say what you’re thankful for!”
“Oh,” Laura said with a small, surprised chuckle. She glanced up and found Clint looking at her. His eyes were shining slightly, and Laura thought that they looked almost wet, but he quickly motioned for her to go ahead. “You’re right, Kitty, I almost forgot.”
“Well?” Kitty asked, her little hand tugging again at the elbow of Laura’s sweater. “What are you thankful for?”
There were plenty of ways for her to answer that. Laura Barton was thankful for a lot of things. In past years she had made comments about being thankful for Clint, or for their house, or for the fact that a particular storm passed them by or that a particular plant had grown well in her garden. Really, she had hundreds of choices available to her. It was a simple question, and usually she would think about it for a bit longer before she answered.
This year, there was no hesitation in her answer. She looked up at the smiling faces around her, and she could feel her heart in her throat. There was a warmth in the air that permeated her heart and filled a space that had been aching for months. The laughter and chatter filled the house as if it should have always been there. Everything felt right in a way that she couldn’t believe she had missed in the past.
“I’m thankful for you,” Laura said without hesitation, gently squeezing Kitty’s shoulder before shifting her gaze to look at Sean, who was still huddled beneath her other arm. “And you, Sean.” One by one, she looked at the children around the table— six of them, six smiling faces that she had never even known about a month before, and yet now she wondered how she had gone so long without knowing them. “Kurt. Rogue. Warren. Scott.” She looked at each child individually, smiling as she did. She hoped they realized just how much she meant it. “I’m thankful for you ; all of you.”
Kitty scooted closer to her— if that was even possible— and she could feel Sean squirming so that he could wrap his own arms around her middle. Rogue ducked her head, but Laura could see a smile on her face. Kurt’s eyes were wide, his tail lashing as he gave her a fanged grin. Warren’s wings twitched, a healthy sort of twitch that ran through his feathers and showed in his surprisingly sheepish expression. All of the kids looked happy at her simple words, and Clint’s watery eyes seemed to almost spill over.
And then, there was Scott.
Her gaze alighted on the boy last, and she found herself pausing. The kid had his head bowed, just like it had been when the question first came up. His eyes were shielded as they always were by his thick red glasses, but she could see his eyebrows pushing together and the crease in his forehead as he stared at his plate. The food was hardly touched, and the kid looked… old . His back was rigid and his jaw was set, the same way it had been all week as he watched his siblings and tried to shoulder the responsibility of them all. Clint had told her plenty about Scott’s overprotectiveness, of his attempts to be a leader for his siblings. She wondered if her husband saw the tense boy the same way she was seeing him; a fourteen-year-old kid trying to be an adult, complete with a sense of responsibility that he shouldn’t shoulder.
He was far too young to be this old.
Laura bit her lip as the conversation started up again around her. Soon the warm atmosphere was again filled with voices, and soon the clink of forks hitting plates was becoming more prevalent. She turned to her own food and began to eat once Sean pulled away, once again bouncing in his seat as his embarrassment faded into the background. Kitty pulled away after a while as well, though it was only to attack the pie that Clint brought in from the kitchen. The dessert was gone even faster than the food was, and the entire time was filled with warm laughter and light, familiar conversation. It felt perfect. It felt right , just like a Thanksgiving dinner should.
The only thing that was off was the teenaged boy with the weight of the world on his shoulders.
After dinner, the clean-up became a team effort. Scott made sure of that, quietly directing his siblings to help wash up the dishes while he took it upon himself to begin putting away the food. The system was underway before Laura even realized what was happening, and she walked into the kitchen bearing her own dirty plate along with a small helping of surprise.
“Oh, Scott, you guys don’t have to do this,” she said the moment that her eyes found the ringleader. He had paused in whatever it was that he had been doing in order to help Sean reach a particularly high shelf to put a serving platter away, and he only glanced toward her when she spoke. “I was planning to do it tonight, it’s fine where it is right now.”
“No,” Scott said simply, dropping back to his feet from where he had been standing on his tip-toes to reach the shelf. Sean made a noise of protest and turned to leave, but Scott caught the sleeve of his t-shirt and turned him back to the awaiting pile of clean dishes that Kitty had finished drying. The boy then looked toward Laura, but instantly seemed to drop his gaze behind his glasses. “No, we’ll help. We want to help.”
“Are we almost done though, Scott?” Sean asked rather loudly, two more plates in his hands as he opened up a cabinet to put them away. For some strange reason, it warmed Laura’s heart that he actually knew where the dishes were supposed to go; a small testament to just how familiar he had become with the house in the short week that he had been there. “Kurt and Warren are already back outside! I wanna go!”
“Kurt and Warren were checking on the chickens, remember?” Scott’s voice lowered, almost as if he didn’t want Laura to hear it. “They’re doing work too.”
“Well I could have checked on the chickens!” Sean insisted, obviously not as concerned as Scott was about his volume. “That’s a whole lot more fun than borin’ old dishes!”
Scott looked as though he was about to say something back, but Laura decided to step in. “Why don’t you go help them with the chickens then, Sean?” She smiled as the little boy lit up, then turned to Scott.
“Come on Scott, can I?”
Scott frowned, but then his eyes seemed to slide up toward Laura. It was difficult to tell with the glasses, but he let out a breath. “Yeah. There aren’t many dishes left anyway.”
Sean let out a whoop, and was gone the next instant. “Don’t slam the screen door!” Laura called after him, and she heard a rushed yes ma’am! before a soft bang echoed down the hall. At least it was only a soft bang rather than a hard one; that was enough for her, and she smiled fondly in the rambunctious child’s wake. Then she shifted her gaze to the other kids present in the kitchen; the two girls were watching her, Rogue still washing a saucer as Kitty all but abandoned her job of drying to stare at her. Laura shifted her gaze to Scott, whose arms had once again folded across his chest.
“You’re right, Scott. There aren’t many dishes left,” Laura pointed out. It was true. The kids had managed to clean up shockingly fast with all six of them. Laura had hardly even realized it was happening, and almost all of the dishes had been washed, dried, and put away. Scott obviously knew how to deploy his siblings as a team… the only problem was that he felt the need to do that at all. She hoped this would help diffuse it slightly. “Why don’t you and I finish them up, alright?”
Kitty perked up, her eyes wide as they darted between Laura and Scott. Rogue set down the dish that she was working on hesitantly, but expectantly. She even smiled a bit when her gaze met Laura’s for a brief moment, and the simple gesture made Laura’s heart soar.
For a moment, there was a tense silence. Then, Scott nodded and dropped his gaze. “Yeah. Yeah, that makes sense.”
Kitty had jumped down from the stool she was perched on before Scott even finished speaking. She darted by, pausing only for a moment to latch on and wrap her arms around Laura’s leg in a quick hug, but she was gone before Laura could even process the movement. Rogue was a lot slower, the redhead taking her time as she slid off the rubber gloves that she had been using while working in the sink and quickly replacing them with her usual black gloves. She then stepped back from the sink and nodded to Scott and Laura before slipping into the other room; maybe she was going to join Clint and Natasha out front, where they were preparing the bonfire pit for one last smores session. That, or maybe she was headed to mess around with the old guitar that Clint had bought years ago. She had been picking at it some the night before, and Laura honestly thought she sounded better than Clint ever had.
Just like that, it was only Laura and Scott in the kitchen. The silence closed in, soft and a bit more tense than she had been expecting. It almost felt as though there was a sense of expectation in the air, like Scott was waiting for something. Laura brushed off the feeling and chuckled as she glanced over at the boy. “You didn’t have to ask Warren and Kurt to check on the chickens. I do that every night.”
“I know,” Scott said, his voice uncharacteristically soft as he spoke. He frowned, the expression hardly twitching as he glanced over at the half-stored boxes of leftover food that he had been working on packaging up. He shrugged tightly. “I thought you could use a break.”
“ Aw ,” Laura said before she could think better of it. She could see the way the tension bunched in Scott’s shoulders and his face flushed in embarrassment, but she couldn’t help it. “Scott, that’s… that’s really sweet of you.”
Scott’s face flushed again, his pale skin almost as red as his glasses as he shrugged a second time. His frown deepened, and his brow was creased even as he looked at the floor. “It’s not a big deal.”
“I think it is,” Laura said. She watched Scott’s expression as she continued with gentle conviction. “It’s really sweet of you to think of me. It’s been a long week for you, I’m sure.”
Scott already looked as though he was scrunched in upon himself with the way that his shoulders were hunched. Her words only seemed to increase his sheepishness though, and his posture somehow got even tighter. It was a curious effect, almost as if he didn’t know what to do with the compliment, as if no one had taken much notice of his efforts before.
Scott was the child that Laura had spent the least time with over the week. The boy was… distant. He was stubborn. He was tense. He seemed to be trying to keep up walls that were actively turning into sand beneath his hands. It did not seem as though he knew what to do with the fact that his responsibility wasn’t needed out here. He had spent most of the week quietly watching on, and Laura was pretty sure that this was the first time she had been alone with the boy. She hoped she could make it count.
“You don’t have to help,” Laura offered as she moved over to the sink. It was mostly the plates left, plus some of the serving dishes that still held food that needed to be packaged up and put away. Really, there was not much left, and she did not want Scott to feel as though she was singling him out from his siblings. “I can take care of the rest, you can go help Clint with the bonfire if you want.”
“No,” Scott said, and that seemed to shake him out of his stupor. He stepped forward, his movements stiff and determined as he took up a spot next to her at the sink. “I want to help.”
“You’d be helping Clint,” Laura pointed out as she turned on the water. “I’m sure he could use it… though Sean and Warren will probably end up over there in a bit, I’m sure he’d still like you to be there.”
“No,” Scott said again. However, this time he seemed to reconsider his words, because something flickered over his expression and he took a small step back. “I mean, I can go. If you don’t want me here, I can…”
“No, no, I want you here.” The words were hurried and almost stammered as Laura tried to backtrack. She hadn’t meant for him to feel like she was turning her away. She may not have interacted with Scott as much as she had his siblings, but she still knew enough about the boy to know that he did not get flustered. His words were usually clear and precise, just enough to get his point across. This— the sheepishness, the way his head was ducked, the way he took a step back at her words— was not normal. “I was just saying that you don’t have to stay. It’s your choice.”
Scott’s gaze lifted, and Laura felt his eyes meet hers from behind his glasses. They lingered there for a moment, and she wished that she could see them. She could feel the emotion in his eyes, but she couldn’t see it.
“I want to stay,” he murmured softly. Laura simply nodded, then tugged over the small footstool that Kitty had been using as an invitation.
Scott, of course, did not need the footstool. The kid was tall, hardly an inch shorter than Laura herself. The stool was still helpful though as Scott took up the job of putting dishes back in cabinets while Laura scrubbed them down. It was a simple job for them both, and soon the two lapsed into silence that was only interrupted by the occasional clink of dishware. It was soft. It was domestic. It was nice in a way that Laura never thought cleaning dishes could be, and she couldn’t help but be thankful for the time alone with the boy.
The word thankful got caught in her head. It had just been a passing thought at first, but then she finished washing the last dish and moved over to the leftover food, and the word came with her. Thankful . That was what the whole holiday was about, wasn’t it? Thankfulness; something that she had never had more of than she did that day. She was thankful for the weather. She was thankful for her home. She was thankful for the food. She was thankful for her family… well, her husband and the six kids that he had brought home.
She was so, so thankful.
She was pondering the idea of the word while a few dishes clinked softly behind her, and she found herself thinking about the conversation at the dinner table. Something had been missing there. She hadn’t thought about it too hard until now, but there had been a gap in that conversation.
Scott was beside her in just a few moments. The boy began to reach for the bowl of mashed potatoes before Laura even realized he was done with the dishes, and she found herself caught between chuckling at his eagerness to help and making a sad sound at the sight of him already moving on to the next task. The noise that came out was somewhere in between, and the boy glanced up at her as she cleared her throat to get it under control.
“Scott, you can go play,” she said after a moment. “You’ve helped plenty. This is your last night here; you should have fun.”
The boy frowned at her words. She had not even realized the frown had left, but it was clear that it had in the instant that it returned. He turned his gaze back to the food in front of them, his right hand already moving to pull the aluminum foil closer. “I’m fine.”
“You don’t want to play?”
“I don’t play a lot.”
This time, Laura was able to carefully swallow her sad noise. “You should. You’re still a kid, Scott.”
For some reason, that simple statement gave Scott pause. The kid’s hand hovered just over the top of the mashed potato bowl, his brow furrowed and his jaw tight as he stood there, quietly, almost frozen in the dark kitchen. The expression on his face was complicated, twisted, as if he was processing her words. Maybe he was trying to think of an objection to them. Maybe he was trying to come to terms with them. Maybe he hadn’t heard those words enough to remember their truth.
For some reason, Laura could feel something seize up in her chest. It was almost like a choking sensation. It took ahold of her lungs and squeezed, gentle and insistent. It was an urge that made her want to step forward, to sweep up the kid in her arms and to help him find his place. It made her want to hold him like he was much, much smaller than he was, as if she could protect him from everything that was pulling him down in that complicated expression.
But it was Scott’s own mind that he was trying to fight right now. There was nothing she could do, so she pushed away the strange, instinctive urge, and instead kept herself content with watching the boy process. That was all she could do, after all. And despite the complicated expression, it seemed as though he was processing her words. That was all she could hope for. That was all that mattered.
In the end, Scott said nothing. That was perfectly fine. His silence carried a pondering with it that Laura could only hope would lead to something good. She did not need to hear his thoughts out loud. She was content to let them hover in the air as she moved to dump the leftover corn into a tupperware container. After a moment, Scott began to move again, and soon that comfortable silence stretched between them again.
As the silence stretched, Laura found herself once again coming back to the question of the day… thankfulness . It was such a simple question, and yet such a complicated one at the very same time. She was glad that Clint had asked the cheesy classic at the dinner table… however, she was also aware of the hole that the conversation had carried. There was one small thing that the exchange had lacked, and she couldn’t help but wonder how it had gone overlooked before.
“Scott?” The boy jumped slightly— very slightly, just barely noticeable— as she interrupted their silence. He glanced up toward her, and she tilted her head to the side. “You never mentioned what you’re thankful for at the table.”
Scott’s brow creased. “What I’m thankful for?”
“Yeah. Remember, Clint was asking at dinner.” Laura shrugged slightly, and she wished there was some way to plan for conversations like this. “You never got the chance to answer.”
“Oh.” Scott looked down at the plate of food in his hands. He had started packaging up the turkey. There was still plenty to go through, and Laura was already planning to send most of it with Clint for the ride back to the Tower the next day. “I forgot.”
“That’s ok,” Laura said softly. She set down the corn, then went ahead and reached for the asparagus that had hardly been touched. Something told her that she should keep her hands busy. “I just wondered. And it’s ok if you don’t have anything.”
“No, I…” Scott paused, his breath hitching as he fumbled his words for the second time that night. “I… I know what I’m thankful for.”
“Oh?” Laura asked, very aware of the way that his voice had gotten quieter at the end of his sentence. “What is it?”
There was a moment of silence where Scott hesitated, and for a moment Laura wondered if he was even going to speak. Maybe she had pushed too much. Maybe she should have left them in the comfortable silence. Maybe she should have just taken this time as it was rather than try to see what was behind Scott’s tense exterior.
“This,” Scott breathed, the word so light that she hardly even heard it. “I’m thankful for this.”
“This?” Laura asked, her words careful and her hands busy as she listened to the boy.
“All of this.” The words were hardly more than a whisper, and Scott sounded conflicted as he spoke. His expression was twisted, his frown deep and his brow wrinkled and his eyes hidden behind the thick, red glasses that he wore. “I’m… thank you.”
“It’s just food, Scott,” Laura murmured softly.
“No.” Scott’s hands were clenched into fists now, one on each side of the plate of turkey. He wasn’t even looking at the leftover Thanksgiving dinner in front of them. He was looking ahead, somewhere that Laura couldn’t quite pinpoint; the house, maybe, or the window and the yard outside of it. Maybe from his position he could see his siblings, if they hadn’t already gone around front to help Clint with the bonfire. Maybe he wasn’t looking at anything in particular, and was simply trying not to look at Laura herself. “I mean, yes, the food, but…”
Everything . That seemed to be the word he was looking for. Something similar to that, something that would encapsulate more than just the dinner and hospitality.
Laura could not read Scott’s mind, but this time she wished that she could. She wished that she could see what was going on inside the boy’s head. She wished that she had a plan, a script, anything to tell her exactly how to respond to this beautiful, broken boy in front of her. She wished there was some way to assure him that she cared about him. She wished there was some way to show him that it was ok if he was not as strong as he tried to be.
It was instinct that guided her to slide closer. It was instinct that guided her hand to his shoulder, that let her rub it in just the right way to get a tiny bit of the insurmountable tension to finally fall away. She imagined that it was an audible sound, an audible pop that left the boy when he finally relaxed even that marginal amount. It wasn’t all of it. It wasn’t perfect. But then of course it didn’t have to be. She was thankful for what she could get.
She had so, so much to be thankful for.
Thanksgiving had never lived up to its name more.
Notes:
Shoutout to Cas (Just_AnotherFangirl) who said I should add another scene when I asked Discord if I should or not, because without that the whole Scott and Laura scene wouldn't have existed and I feel like that was necessary <3
Also, fun fact, any time that I've told people what the longest thing I have ever written is, I have said 130,000 words in reference to this fic, because that's how long I thought it was. However, we're still like 12 chapters from completion and we're AT 130k so.... I have no clue how long this thing is, but it's longer than I thought XD
This chapter was honestly pretty hard to write so thank you all for the comments on the last one because I definitely noticed that there were more than usual and ahh, that fueled me so much. Hope you enjoyed this!!
Chapter 46: Creeping Comfort (is this wrong?)
Summary:
He couldn’t get comfortable. He couldn’t.
But when Clint Barton said “let’s go home”, the first thing that popped into Scott’s head was a picture of Avengers Tower. It was not the Institute. It was not Charles Xavier. It was the Tower and his siblings and Clint Barton.
Since when had that happened?
Notes:
Back on track to close out the Farm Bonding Arc! Thank y'all for your patience with those updates because I personally think that the extra Bonding Time was totally worth it and needed.
Now, to see how a certain child feels about it...
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Leaving the farmhouse was hard. It was much harder than Scott had expected. It should have been easy, since he never wanted to be there in the first place. He had been wired all week, just waiting for something to go wrong. Leaving should have been a relief. Leaving should have been easy.
But leaving was hard. Leaving was extremely hard.
It wasn’t until he was helping to load their bags into the back of the minibus that he realized how much he was going to miss it. He was going to miss the open, clean air that the farm had. He was going to miss the warm, almost quaint house and the atmosphere that came with it. He was going to miss the people… but he didn’t want to think about that. He shoved another bag into the back, and he felt keenly aware of the material beneath his fingers. It was smooth, some sort of polyester or other plasticy material that held up well against the bulging weight of the clothes still packed inside. It was some sort of bright color; blue, probably, though it appeared more like purple through Scott’s glasses. All of the bags were like that; strong, bright material, new and cheerfully colored. They were real bags, actually meant to hold clothes and items.
Scott had never had a real bag when moving houses. Pillowcases and trashbags were always more accessible. They always worked. No one had ever bothered to buy him an actual bag to move, let alone for something as simple as a trip.
He shut the back door of the minibus before he could let himself dwell on the thought for too long.
Natasha had to leave late Thursday night in order to go on some SHIELD mission or another, but she made sure to play one last round of Uno with them all and promised to see them soon. Lucky didn’t want them to leave, especially Sean; that much was obvious by how many times he stole the boy’s shoes as they tried to get things packed up. Packing had taken them all morning, and Scott had begun to feel that strange bittersweetness settling in more and more as time led up to them standing just outside the farmhouse and packing the last few bags into the back of the bus. It felt strange, heavy, and he wasn’t sure quite what to do with it.
Scott was expecting it to be an emotional goodbye for Clint and Laura. He was not expecting for that emotion to turn to them next.
Laura hugged each of the little kids individually and tightly. Scott could hear snippets of her murmuring to each of them, mentioning some adventure that they had over the week or some little memory that she had with them. She told each of them how much she loved having them and how much she would miss them, and Scott watched as they hugged her back tighter and told her the same thing. Kitty didn’t seem to want to let go, and she hung close to Laura even when she moved on to the six-year-old’s older siblings. The woman hugged Warren as well, which put an almost shocked look on his face, his wings still out and twitching slightly as he awkwardly hugged her back. She held back from Rogue, opting for a tight squeeze of her gloved hand instead, which seemed to mean just as much to the girl based on the grateful smile on her face.
Scott wasn’t expecting a hug. He held back and stood away from the group, trying not to think about the night before. He tried not to think about the dark kitchen as the sun set, the sound of dishes being put away before a warm hand rested on his shoulder and a kind voice told him to go play. You're a kid too . He tried not to think about that, tried not to want that. He had only known Laura Barton for a week. He shouldn’t be watching her hug his siblings and long for that himself. He was the oldest. He was the adult here. He should stay focused and strong, the way he was supposed to be.
He kept his eyes on the ground, and only looked up when Laura approached him. He stayed silent and held out a hand, hoping for a handshake or maybe even a squeeze like Rogue’s. That would be nice , a traitorous part of his brain whispered, and he was so surprised by the little voice that he almost took a step back. It was a traitorous thought, but… maybe he wanted a squeeze. Maybe he wanted something warm, something meaningful. He shouldn't want that . He knew he shouldn’t. He should be ready for the quick handshake that he knew he would get, thankful for the fact that she was acknowledging him at all, ready to leave and not holding on to this fantasy that he knew could never be his…
And then there was a hand on his shoulder. It was warm, wonderfully warm, and for a moment Scott was rigid beneath the touch… but then the hand moved and he was sure that it was leaving until it instead pulled him forward. Arms wrapped around his shoulders and for a moment he couldn’t breathe as the pressure increase. For a moment he didn’t even realize what was happening… but then, slowly, it registered. This was a hug . He was getting a real, solid hug , and he realized that he didn’t even know how to react to that.
“You’re such a good brother, Scott,” she murmured, her voice low enough that only Scott could hear it. Her arms tightened around him, warm and real against his frozen skin. “Really. You really are.”
Scott’s words were stuck in his throat. He swallowed, tried to process what was happening, tried to think of a response, but his mind was moving slowly and he was hardly even able to register how real the embrace was. Everything had felt like one long, long dream lately… it was not until she was pulling away, until the chill of the Missouri air reminded him how warm the hug was, that he realized he still hadn’t said anything.
He needed to say something. He needed to say anything .
“Thank you,” was all that he managed to croak out. His voice was weak, shaky, flimsier than the blades of grass that he was standing on. He himself felt like a blade of November grass; brittle, dried out, too weak to do much more than hope he could cling on through the coming December. It didn’t feel like enough. The two words could do nothing to encapsulate the confusing whirlwind of longing and self-betrayal swirling in his chest, but they were all that he could say.
He hoped that she knew he was thanking her for everything .
Laura Barton smiled at him as she pulled away, and he was stuck between wanting to shrink away from that gaze or lean further into it. A part of him couldn’t stand having that kind warmth directed at him, terrified of what it could mean… but a part of him longed for it. A part of him— selfishly, horribly, desperately — wanted to cling to this. He wanted to latch on to this small bit of warmth and hold it close to his chest, as if it would stay with him throughout the winter. That part of his mind scared him, because he couldn’t have that. He couldn’t cling to this. Why on earth would he want to cling to this?
He wasn’t supposed to get comfortable. He knew that kindness could only go so far. He knew that this could end any day. He knew that this would end. He couldn’t get comfortable, he couldn’t .
But when Clint Barton turned on the engine of the minibus, waved to his wife, and turned around to smile and say “ let’s go home ”, the first thing that popped into Scott’s head was a picture of Avengers Tower. It was not the Institute. It was not Charles Xavier. It was the Tower and his siblings and Clint Barton. Those were the things that he thought of when he heard the word home .
Since when had that happened?
He found the question churning in his mind on the drive to the Tower— not home, don’t think of it as home . His red-tinted gaze turned to stare out the window, trying to focus on passing landscapes as his mind . He was in the passenger seat, right next to Clint as he drove. His siblings slept in the back, still full and happy from the food the day before. There was a sense of fullness from the entire week; emotionally, physically, mentally, everything seemed to be simply satisfied. It was like the feeling of a freshly drained cup of cider that you could still feel lingering in your throat. The drive felt… relaxed. It felt content. It felt normal in a way that made Scott’s heart lurch and his skin burn.
It shouldn’t feel like that. He knew it shouldn’t.
How many foster homes had Scott been in? More than he could count, at this point. Did the ones that only lasted a few days count? The three that only lasted a few hours? What about the Jacksons, whose property he had barely stepped foot on before they took one look at his bruised, blind, mutant self and turned to the social worker and said “ No. We changed our minds ”? And that was back when he was trying to be likable , or at worst was apathetic to it all. It was back when he did everything he could to survive the day without being a nuisance, to minimize the space he took up, to be a good kid . It was back when he cared enough to hope that there might be a better option, before Charles Xavier had shown him how to make his own option.
With Clint Barton, he had done the opposite. He had openly opposed him from the beginning. He had pushed back against everything that the man said. He had tried and tried to distance himself at every turn. He had openly shown his distrust of Clint, had made it blatantly obvious that he did not want himself or any of his siblings at the Avenger’s mercy. He had far overstepped his boundaries at every single moment.
And yet, for some reason, Clint Barton was still there. He had not left. He had not left or thrown them out, despite the fact that they had been in the Tower for months longer than they should have been.
When was the last time that someone had kept him?
Xavier . Xavier had kept him for years . He showed Scott that he could be useful, that he didn’t have to be a burden. Xavier had his friend make Scott the visor so that he wouldn’t be blind, so that he wouldn’t be useless. Xavier showed him how to channel his powers and to help others afflicted with the X-gene just like he was. Xavier had given him everything ; a place to stay, a way to see, a reason to live. Xavier made him into something useful for the first time in his life.
So why was the Professor’s voice being replaced in his mind? Why, when he thought of safety, was Clint Barton’s smile the thing he saw? Why, when he thought of expectations, was it Clint Barton’s voice saying “ I trust you, Scott” ?
It wasn’t right. It wasn’t what he had been taught. It wasn’t how the world worked.
And yet, there he was, sitting in the passenger seat of a minibus with his siblings safe and happy in the back, and Clint Barton in the driver’s seat. The Avenger had his hands on the wheel. Scott did not. He could close his eyes if he wanted to. He could keep staring out the window. He could doze off like his siblings. They weren’t worried. And somehow, he wasn’t either.
He wasn’t in control of the situation. His hands weren’t on the wheel. IAnd, somehow, he was ok with that.
Why was he ok with that?
Anything could happen. The car could go off the road. His glasses could fall off. A tire could blow. Clint could pull over here, could stop and pull them out and hand them over to SHIELD, or CPS, or Hope Industries. Anything and everything could tear them apart at any moment. Any wrong move could have him alone again.
But his head was resting against the glass of the window. His muscles were relaxed, and he didn’t feel the need to tighten them or prepare for an attack. He could close his eyes and rest. Or he could keep watching trees pass on the highway. It didn’t matter. Clint Barton was in control.
Was this what trust felt like?
No, no, it couldn’t be. Scott had learned long, long ago not to trust. The last adult he trusted was Charles Xavier. But that was an exception, a trust between a soldier and a general. He trusted his siblings, but that was different too. They were his responsibility. He trusted them, but he was the one responsible for them. It was his job to keep them safe.
He didn’t trust Clint Barton. He couldn’t trust Clint Barton.
He couldn’t .
Clint Barton was still an adult. He was still someone with power who thought he could make decisions for Scott and his siblings just because they were young. He was an Avenger. He was still looking for somewhere else for them to go. This was still temporary.
It had to be. Nothing in his life was permanent. He couldn’t count on anyone but himself to protect his siblings. But… maybe he could rest. Just for a moment. Just while Clint was driving.
He wasn’t old enough to drive anyway.
It was a long drive. A long drive. Pretty soon Sean was awake, and as soon as Sean was awake so was the rest of the car. But no one seemed to mind. In fact, it was even more enjoyable to hear the sound of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles theme song as Warren helped cue up the DVD player, especially as three young voices all chimed in to sing it. Those three voices were soon joined by a fourth, Clint Barton laughing as he fumbled through the words to the song. Warren soon threw his dignity to the wind and started singing as well, and— with heavy encouragement from Kurt— Rouge’s voice was soon muttering the lyrics. Scott found his own mouth moving, even after the theme song stopped and the actual episode started. This was the first episode. They all knew it by heart, and the three youngest were practically chanting each line.
It was a story similar to their own, after all. Mutants . Siblings . A world that hates and fears them for what they are, and yet they still protect it, just like they protect each other.
Scott frowned to himself as the thought settled into his mind. He hadn’t been protecting much as of late. It had been months since the X-Men had made their last appearance, and they hadn’t managed to get out since. It hadn’t felt right, not after the way that everything had gone down. His X-Man costume had been left back at the Tower when, back at the Institute, he would have worn it beneath his clothes like a second skin. Now, he could hardly remember the last time he bothered to pull it on. He hadn’t even turned on the news in over a week. They had hardly even been training, let alone actually helping people.
Was that wrong?
Professor Xavier would say yes. He was pretty sure Clint would say no.
Scott wasn’t sure what voice he should listen to.
They got through two whole seasons of the show by the time they finally made it back to New York. The trip was long, cramped, and the sight of familiar buildings had his siblings chattering with excitement. The sun was beginning to set as they pulled into the tower, golden light flooding the windows as they arrived at home.
Home .
The word sat in Scott’s chest, heavy and loaded as he helped unload bags. Real bags, bags made of polyester and fabric, not the pillowcases they had unpacked when they arrived at the tower. It was yet another thing that Clint Barton had provided for them without prompting, another thing that sat heavily in Scott’s mind as he tried as hard as he could to ignore it.
There was too much for him to ignore properly. The backpack straps were solid beneath his fingers.
They got into the elevator, and Kurt excitedly chatted with Jarvis as they moved up to the 13th floor. Dr. Banner met them there as they were unpacking, just to say hi. Tony Stark popped by too, with the excuse that he was on the way to a meeting even though he seemed in no hurry to leave. Even Steve Rogers came down to welcome Clint back and acknowledge them. Each of the Avengers seemed genuinely happy to see them.
Just like the little farmhouse in Missouri had been, it was welcoming. It was warm. The walls were achingly familiar, the halls of the tower so recognizable that Scott could walk them with his eyes closed. He knew exactly where everything was. He was able to easily navigate the space on autopilot as he carried real bags to his siblings’ rooms, rooms that felt like their own and were personalized with pictures and drawings and posters tapped up on the walls. He set down the bags in each room before going back to help the little kids unpack. Unpacking didn’t even feel strange, the way he knew it should. It felt natural, as if they were going to be staying.
Scott felt comfortable. He was far, far too comfortable.
He knew it wasn’t right. He knew he should be on guard. He knew he should be ready to jump into action, to be the leader that Xavier had taught him to be. He knew that he shouldn’t care about lingering touches, about warm hugs, about real bags and the permanence of unpacking clothes. But it was so hard to be on edge when everyone around him was so relaxed. It was so hard for him to hold on when everyone around him was so, so happy .
The thing that made it the hardest was that he was happy too.
Slowly, painfully, guiltily , he was beginning to wonder if that was such a bad thing.
Notes:
Scott is being dragged kicking and screaming into the Family Dynamics whether he likes it or not.
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Chapter 47: Focus
Summary:
He pulled his phone from his pocket, and he couldn’t help but desperately hope that he was not about to see the social worker’s caller ID.
And he didn’t. In fact, once he looked at the phone’s screen, he found that there was actually no caller ID at all…
Oh no.
Notes:
I don't know what to say other than sorry for the late update (more on that later) and hope you enjoy!
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Chapter Text
“I won’t make you say it.”
“You don’t have to.” Clint smiled, shaking his head a bit as he glanced over at Natasha. “You were right.”
Natasha smiled, a small grin that would be barely noticeable to someone who was not close to her. “Told you so.”
“I already said it, didn’t I?” Clint shot her a look, but his mouth was twitching with a smile just like hers. “You don’t have to rub it in.”
Natasha shrugged, turning around so that she was facing the cabinets across the kitchen from Clint. Even with her back to him Clint could tell that there was a smirk in her voice. “Laura loved them.”
“How can anyone not ?” Clint gave up trying to hide his smile and let it slip onto his face, leaning back in his chair as he let the happiness sink in. It wasn’t difficult to embrace the feeling since he had been practically swimming in it for the entire holiday. The first day? That was hectic. A fifteen hour long drive with six highly active, incredibly special kids? Horrible. Fun in a few ways, but mostly horrible. And the first few hours… he was sure something would break, or someone would get hurt, or Laura would hate them or the kids would make a break for the woods or a billion other ways everything could go wrong… but it didn’t. Everything went right for once in his life. Everyone was happy, everyone had fun, everyone seemed to genuinely enjoy the time.
And, well… this Thanksgiving had truly felt like a time for family. It had felt the way that the holiday was meant to feel more so than it had in years. It was perfect.
He nodded, a dumb grin settling deep in his features. “Those kids… they’re great. They’re amazing.”
Natasha glances back at him with a smile. “They have a pretty great caretaker too.”
It took Clint a moment to process her words. Then he snorted in disbelief. “Yeah right.”
“I’m serious. You handled that perfectly. They all loved it.”
“That was Laura’s doing,” Clint pointed out. “She had a whole plan, she knew what to do to keep them busy and happy, I just—“
“Was the one that took them in?” Natasha interrupts coyly. “Was the one to give them a place to stay, to take them down there, that has been looking after them for four months?”
“Four months?” Clint shook his head in disbelief. Had it really been that long? Had it really been that short ? He had to have known the kids for longer than four months. He had to have. So much had happened. And yet, it felt like he was only just starting to know the kids, only just now getting through their defenses— they were only just now letting him through their defenses. It felt like just yesterday that a tiny brunette girl had opened the door of a dilapidated house and peaked out at him, only yesterday that he had heard Cyclops’ voice and realized just how young the hero was. It couldn’t have been four months. And yet… well, it had to have been so much longer, didn’t it?
Clint only thought about it for a minute before he decided he didn’t care. Four months, three, five, who cared? The kids were amazing . He was thankful for any time that he had with them whether it was too short or too long.
Natasha chuckled at his expression, then turned her attention back to the kitchen cabinets. It took Clint a moment to realize that she was looking at some of the top shelves, the ones that were a few feet out of her reach. He quickly slipped out of his chair and stepped around the kitchen island. “Here, let me help you, Tasha—“
Natasha rolled her eyes, quickly hopping up on the counter before Clint could make another step. He let out a noise of protest, but by the time that he did Natasha was already back on the ground, a jar in her hand. She shot a little teasing smirk at him.
“I’ve got it.”
“Well, I can see that.” Clint rolled his eyes, and Natasha’s smirk deepened. “But I—“
Clint cut off, his words dying in his mouth as he felt a buzzing in his pocket. Confusion washed over him, as did a small spark of panic. What if it was Laura and something had happened to her? What if it was one of the other Avengers calling from downstairs because something had happened to the kids? What if it was Moira MacTaggart, what if she had found placements for the kids and was coming…
That one shouldn’t fill him with dread, but as he pulled his phone from his pocket he couldn’t help but desperately hope that he was not about to see the social worker’s caller ID.
And he didn’t. In fact, once he looked at the phone’s screen, he found that there was actually no caller ID at all…
Oh no.
Clint cursed under his breath. Natasha quirked up an eyebrow, eyeing him questioningly. He turned the phone around so she could see the screen, and her expression morphed slightly. She didn’t say anything though, just nodded, so Clint sighed and clicked the accept call button.
“Hello, this is Mario’s pizzeria,” Clint said in the most bored voice that he could muster up. Natasha snorted behind him, and he could see her trying to swallow back a grin. That only encouraged him more. “We’ve got a sale going around on the anchovies and jellybeans pizza, only 2.99 a slice—“
“ Stop messing around, Barton .” The voice crackles out of the speaker, sharp and commanding. Clint stopped speaking, but he was still grinning like an idiot.
“Sorry, Nick. I couldn’t help it.”
“ Focus up, Agent.” Nick Fury’s voice was still commanding, still had that tinge of annoyance, but Clint was sure he thought it was at least a little funny. He’s put up with Clint’s antics for long enough now that Clint is sure he secretly enjoys them. “ The situation has gone downhill. ”
“The situation…” Clint’s brow furrowed, and he frowned a bit. Situation? What situation? What was the last mission they had been talking about… there was one that he mentioned right before Thanksgiving, right? Wasn’t Stark dealing with that one? What exactly was it, he couldn’t quite remember…
Across the kitchen Natasha rolled her eyes. “ Tony’s mess ” she mouthed to him.
“Right, right!” Clint chuckled, trying to cover for himself. “Tony’s thing. Yeah. Down in…” He glanced to Natasha for help again. “Tennessee. Right. What exactly was the deal with that again? Someone steal a John Deer tractor, or—“
“ This is serious, Barton. ” Fury’s voice was even sharper now, and Clint decided to shut off the antics for a bit. As best as he could, at least.
“Wasn’t Tony supposed to be handling that?” Clint leaned against the counter, his frown returning.
“ This was Stark’s first official mission back in the field. He made more of a mess than he thought.” Fury paused. “Speaking of him being out of commission, none of you bothered to give me an explanation for that. ”
“Oh, you know, it’s Tony,” Clint quickly brushed that off. Though even as he did, he hesitated a bit. Fury somehow still didn’t know about the six mutant children that he was harboring. He hadn’t been planning to tell him at all, originally. He had been planning to wait until after MacTaggart had figured something out. But now that the kids had been there for so long… no , no, he shouldn’t mention it. For their safety, if nothing else. He was extremely close to Fury and he trusted the man with his life… but with the kids’ lives? Especially after seeing the recent way that SHIELD treated 084s, unknown entities, people like Captain America… yeah, it would be better to just not mention it. How would he bring it up now anyway? He would get a lecture for sure.
Yeah, it was better to brush it off for now. That was exactly what he did, quickly turning the conversation back to Tony. “He’s getting himself hurt all the time, that’s just how he is.”
Fury hummed, though it was not a very believing hum. “ Well, whatever happened, Stark made a mess and can’t clean it up himself. I’m calling you in.”
Clint could feel the moment his heart dropped. The feeling was heavy, heavier than lead. He should have expected this, of course. He had been on the bench for months— first for his arm injury and everything with Laura and then for Thanksgiving… he had not been on a mission, an actual SHIELD-sanctioned mission since… well, since the day he met Scott.
Which, of course, was exactly why he felt so hesitant now.
“Really?” Clint choked out, quickly trying to recover and sound as normal as possible. He leaned more heavily against the counter. “Why me, exactly? Not that I won’t, obviously, just… isn’t Steve free?”
“ Rogers is going to be headed out tomorrow for a separate mission. ” Clint winced a bit at the harshness in Fury’s tone this time. And the fact that he was sending Steve out again . Hadn’t he been on a mission just before the holidays? It was not like the super soldier had much else to do, but it seemed like he was always on mission. “You’re the best one for this job.”
“I’m flattered, truly. But uh, how,” Clint cleared his throat awkwardly. “How long are you thinking it’ll be, exactly?”
“ Could be a week, could be just an overnight. Could be a month, if Stark’s screwed it up any more.” Clint winced again. “How come? Don’t tell me you’ve broken your arm again .”
The voice is still stern, but Clint has known Nick Fury for a long time. He could pick out the slight edge to his voice, a double edged sword. One edge was the commanding, annoyed tone of a leader whose orders were not being followed. The other was the tone of a man concerned for his friend, genuinely worried about why he was hesitating. That part touched Clint. The other part concerned him.
He couldn’t turn down the mission. This was his job , and Fury was his boss. Whether he liked it or not he needed a paycheck, and whether he liked it or not that required work.
But a whole month ? That thought sent a literal shot of panic down his spine. Tennessee was in the south or something. Deep south. Hours away. He was finally making progress with the kids, he couldn’t run away to some back-road state that was 20 hours away. No way .
But Fury only said that it could take a month. There was no way it would, right? He also said it could just be an overnight thing. Clint could do an overnight thing. The kids would be fine for that long. They would even be fine for a week… right?
Why was he so horrified at the thought of leaving them anyway? It’s not like they would be alone. They would have Bruce, they would have Natasha. Those two would look after them, he was sure. Even now Natasha was watching him closely, silently providing support. The kids liked her. They liked Bruce. And it was not like they’re not self-sufficient. They would probably even be fine alone— not that Clint would ever leave them alone. Last time he didn’t supervise them well, they ended up downtown blowing up a research lab. But they wouldn’t be unsupervised this time. He had to remind himself of that. They would have Tasha, they would have Bruce. And… maybe by now they trusted him? Maybe?
He couldn’t turn the mission down. Fury would be worried, suspicious even, and he would start asking questions. Clint was trying to keep the kids away from fights. If Fury found out about them, they could easily end up in the same position as Steve.
Besides , it would only take a few days. It would be a week at most. What trouble could they really get into in that mount of time?
His thoughts were swirling, but he could only stall for a few seconds before he had to snap back to the present. Fury was still waiting on the line. The last thing he wanted to do was make his famously-paranoid friend suspicious.
“Yeah, yeah, just wanted to be sure,” he said quickly, his brain still rushing to process even as he spoke. “Guess I just let the downtime get to my head, huh?”
Fury made a noise over the phone. Maybe a sigh, maybe a chuckle— Clint’s brain was racing too much for him to be completely sure. “Fly out tomorrow. You can meet Stark in Rose Hill.”
“Rose Hill?” Clint wrinkled his nose. Even the city name sounded painfully country. “What is that, a perfume place?”
He could see Natasha roll her eyes. “ It’s the town, Barton, the town Stark got stuck in .” It was definitely an annoyed sigh on the other line. “ I’ll send May or someone to pick you up. That way you’ll actually get there. ”
Clint snorted. “Just as long as it’s not Ward. I’ve got a bad feeling about that guy.”
Fury grunts, then goes quiet. For a moment Clint thinks that is that, and that the man already hung up. But before he ends the call Fury adds one more thing. “Glad to have you back in the field, Barton.”
Clint swallowed hard. To anyone else, Fury’s comment sounded almost flippant. It was just a quick acknowledgement. But for anyone that knew him, really knew him, they could hear that note of sincerity in his voice. There was true gratefulness there, even a tone of appreciation.
It made Clint feel guilty for that niggling bit of doubt in the back of his mind. The kids would be fine . Just like Steve was saying, this was his job. This was his duty. He had to do this, no matter what he wanted to do.
“Yeah,” he said carefully, filtering his voice as much as he could before he spoke. “Glad to be back.”
Notes:
And the plot begins to resurface...
If you're reading this as a completed fic you can ignore this, but if you're reading this update-by-update just know that I'm changing the update schedule of this fic for the next month! I'm cutting updates back to once a week on Wednesdays for the duration of November. It's NaNoWriMo and we're moving into the climax, I do NOT want to miss updates going into that so I'd rather make the decision to space it out more now! As soon as November is over we'll be moving back to the usual Monday/Thursday updates. I'm so sorry about that, hope you all still stick around!
Chapter 48: Reluctance
Summary:
“What if you get hurt?” Sean worried at the hem of his shirt, twisting and turning it around in his fingers as his curls bounced against his forehead. “What if… what if someone breaks your hearing aids? What if you can’t hear? What if, what if you get really hurt and then you don’t…”
“He’s going to be fine, Sean.” Scott stepped forward for the first time since Clint announced that he would be leaving, his hand gently going to rest on Sean’s shoulder. Scott’s words were steady and Clint couldn’t help but look up at the boy, hoping to see some sort of hint in his expression as to his thoughts.
Notes:
Thanks again for the patience on this chapter! I feel like I say this a lot but I really like this one <3 hope y'all do to!!
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Chapter Text
“You’re leaving ?”
Clint winced. He really hadn’t expected the kids to be so distraught when he told them about the mission. Well, maybe he hoped they would be a little upset. But he really thought they would be fine.
He really didn’t expect Kurt to latch onto his leg with a death grip, or for Kitty to tear up, or for Sean to start adamantly begging him not to go. Ok, maybe he expected Sean’s instant stream of commentary… but he definitely didn’t expect the concerned look that Rouge was giving him, or the wary, tight-shouldered posture that Warren had fallen into. It caught him off-guard, and it made the simmering guilt that was already churning in his gut worsen.
“You can’t leave!” Sean said for probably the tenth time in the last five minutes. “You just can’t!”
“I know,” Clint murmured, wishing for a ludicrous moment that he didn’t have to go. For just a moment he wished that he could just take the kids and go back to the farm, back to those few picture-perfect days over Thanksgiving and just forget about his job, his other responsibilities, and simply focus on the kids that he had grown so attached to…
No. No, work had to come first. This was never meant to get in the way of his duties. He couldn’t let it, no matter how much he might want to.
“What’s the mission?” That was Warren’s voice, and it made Clint look up at him. The boy had his arms crossed and seemed like he was trying to look nonchalant, but the facade was given away by the tremors that ran through his wings every now and again.
Clint ran a hand through his hair. “It’s… it’s classified. I’m just helping Tony out though. It shouldn’t take too long.”
“Is it dangerous?” Clint blinked at that question, glancing over at the eldest again. Warren’s wings twitched, his blue gaze sharp and steady as he watched Clint. His eyes were sharp and almost… concerned? Worried?
“No,” Clint shook his head, swallowing hard at a surge of emotion that seized his throat. Was the kid really worried about him ? Is that what he was getting at? The thought was touching, and Clint had to swallow again before continuing. “No, it shouldn’t be. Tony just dropped some stuff and we’ve got to go get it. Because he can’t clean up his mess by himself, so he’s got to call in backup… as always.”
Kitty giggled a bit at the joking tone that Clint took on at the end of the sentence. Sean didn’t look so convinced. Neither did Warren, but Sean was of course the one to speak first.
“ Really not dangerous, right?” He asked, bouncing on his heels with nerves. “Like, really not dangerous. You’re not gonna be fightin’ a bunch of people, right? Cause I mean that’s awesome and you’re a superhero an’ all but I just—“
“I’m going to be fine, Sean.” Clint chuckled a bit and tried to bend down to his level, but found that was a bit difficult with the little blue barnacle that was stuck to his leg. He grinned down at Kurt as the boy ducked his head, his face pressed tightly into the material of Clint’s jeans.
“Kurt.” Clint said the name softly, his fond grin deepening as Kurt just held tighter to his leg, the boy’s spaded tail twisting around his ankle. Kurt had become clingy over the past few weeks, far more so than Clint would have ever been able to guess when the shy, curious boy had first come to the tower. He hesitated for a brief moment and then bent down, gently pulling the boy away from his leg. The moment he did Kurt latched onto his arm, stubbornly pressing his face into the crook of his elbow as if to hide. Clint chuckled and lifted the boy up, holding him close to his chest as he crouched down so that he was eye level with Sean. The ten-year-old was wearing an expression that was surprisingly similar to his older brother’s; wary, worried, and far too old for his young face.
“It’s alright, Sean.” Clint gave him a soft smile. “I’m a professional. I’ll be fine.”
“You better be fine!” Sean exclaimed. “You better be super fine and super safe, an’… an’ don’t let anybody beat you up cause I’ll wanna beat them up an’…”
“I’ll be careful,” Clint said, almost chuckling at the expression on the hyperactive boy’s face.
“What if you get hurt?” Sean worried at the hem of his shirt, twisting and turning it around in his fingers as his curls bounced against his forehead. “What if… what if someone breaks your hearing aids? What if you can’t hear? What if, what if you get really hurt and then you don’t…”
“He’s going to be fine, Sean.” Scott stepped forward for the first time since Clint announced that he would be leaving, his hand gently going to rest on Sean’s shoulder. Scott’s words were steady and Clint couldn’t help but look up at the boy, hoping to see some sort of hint in his expression as to his thoughts.
Clint couldn’t get a read on Scott. His face was like a mask, tight and tense, unreadable. His brow was tight over the lip of his red glasses, and his jaw was set in a familiar, stubborn, distant line. It was so similar to how he was when he first came to the tower that Clint could feel his heart drop in his chest. No, no , they were finally making progress! They were finally building something, something that might have even been trust … this wouldn’t send them back to square one, would it? No, it couldn’t . He would only be gone a few days. He would only be gone a few days and then he would be back. He would prove to Scott that he would come back, that he would always come back to him.
Until MacTaggart calls you back, a niggling, intrusive bit of his brain whispered. Clint quickly shoved that thought away. That was a worry for another day.
Right now, he had six kids to worry about.
“Scott’s right.” Clint’s eyes darted from the older boy to the younger, and he smiled as reassuringly as he could. “I’m Hawkeye, remember? I’m a card-carrying Avenger.”
Sean broke out into a grin at that. “Yeah, yeah, you are! Nobody’s gonna hurt you! You’ll kick their butts!”
Clint chuckled, but he could tell that his words only placated Sean. And maybe Kitty, who was now leaning against his side, still sniffing slightly but also smiling. Rouge’s glower was as dark as ever, dark with concern, and Warren hadn’t shifted his eyes off of Clint. Even Kurt, curled up tightly in his arms, was still tense.
It made Clint’s heart ache that these kids were still scared, that they didn’t quite believe in superheroes. But it also touched him deeply just how worried they seemed.
“I don’t want you to get hurt,” a soft voice said. Clint turned as best as he could to see Kitty, who was looking up at him with big brown eyes as she leaned against his side. Clint slung his free arm around her, pulling her close.
“I won’t get hurt, Kitty,” he promised. “I won’t get hurt, and I’ll be back soon. Alright?”
Kitty nodded, seemingly satisfied with his words and the weight of his arm against her back. Then Clint turned his gaze back to the older three.
“I will be back. Soon,” he stressed, even as a bit of doubt twisted in the back of his mind. They did want him back, right? What if they didn’t? What if they were excited he would be gone, happy that they wouldn’t have someone breathing down their necks and…
No . No, they only looked hopeful at the words that he said. The tiniest bit of tension seemed to leak from Warren’s shoulders as he spoke. Rouge was still glowering, but there was something soft in her eyes. The three younger kids were still gathered around him, holding on as if they didn’t want to let him go. They were all clinging to each other in their own ways, whether physical or mental. No matter what his mind whispered, Clint could tell that all of these kids wanted him to come back.
Except for Scott. Scott… well, Clint couldn’t quite read the boy’s expression. Even with the glasses being the only thing blocking his face, his expression was so tight, so guarded, that Clint couldn’t take a guess as to what the boy was thinking. He cursed in his head, his gaze slipping away from the young teen.
He didn’t want to leave Scott like this. He didn’t want to leave any of them like this, glowering and tense and scared for him , of all people. But Scott… his trust was so tenuous as it was. They had just been making progress, if any of that was broken…
But this was his job. He had to go.
He would be back. He would be back soon, and then he could rebuild anything that was broken between him and Scott. It might take time, sure, but Clint was patient. He had time.
He hoped he would have time.
The man shook his head. No . He wasn’t going to think about that right now. He had to focus. He gave Kitty one last squeeze, then started to stand up— however, he wasn’t even fully on his feet before Sean hit him full-force with a tackle hug. Clint’s surprised huff turned into a chuckle as he wrapped his arms around the boy… well, one arm, the other was still full of a tiny blue boy that definitely had the grip of an acrobat. Sean was still babbling on about how he wished Clint wasn’t leaving, how he had to come back, did he have to go now, how long would it be, did Mr. Stark really lose his armor, if not what did he lose, would Clint get to use it, because that would be cool, and when would he be back? Clint just chuckled and answered the questions to the best of his abilities until he had to gently remind Sean that he was going to be late. The boy finally pulled away, his expression a mix of sad and excited, as if he couldn’t decide how he felt about the situation and was therefore resigned to feeling all of it at once.
Then Clint turned his attention to Kurt, who still had his arm in a death grip. Clint tried to coax the boy to let go, but he only buried his face further into Clint’s elbow. The archer could feel his heart clench. Kurt was so small . His appearance was so distracting that it wasn’t exactly the first thing anyone noticed, but the boy was tiny . He was only a bit taller than Kitty, and curled up like this he looked even smaller than usual, like he could disappear just by curling into himself. He was light too, still just skin and bones despite the recent Thanksgiving feast. It made Clint a little worried, but he was even more focused on how tightly Kurt was clinging to him. It was like he was terrified of the man leaving. It made him want to hold the tiny, blue boy close and promise to never let him go.
But he had to right now. So he gently coaxed Kurt out, gently pried him from his arm. Kurt let himself be pulled away, but first he lifted his head, his golden eyes burning deeply into Clint’s.
“You’ll come back.” The words were whispered, hesitant, more like a plea than a question or command. Kurt’s tail twisted around Clint’s wrist, his little fangs worrying at his lip as he stared pleadingly up at Clint. “You’ll come back… right?”
Clint pulled the kid in tight, careful not to crush him while also trying to shove every emotion he could into the embrace. He could hear a tiny, surprised gasp from Kurt, and it only made him hold tighter. “Of course, blueberry,” he murmured, his words landing right in Kurt’s pointed blue ears. “Of course I’ll come back.”
Kurt seemed to relax in his grip, and his misshapen fingers twisted into Clint’s purple shirt as he hugged him back. A moment later Clint gently set the boy down, and this time there was no resistance. Then he turned to Rouge.
The girl huffed, attempting to blow her white bangs from her face. They didn’t quite comply, and Clint instinctively reached out toward her. He hesitated for a moment, but when she didn’t flinch away he pressed on, gently reaching out to brush her bangs behind her ear. Rouge was trying to seem like she didn’t care, but he could see the way her eyes widened ever so slightly, the tension in her shoulder as she watched his movements closely. But he was careful, not even grazing her skin as he tucked the white locks behind her ear.
Clint smiled softly. “I think you all might need hair cuts when I get back.”
Rogue snorted, the tension still heavy on her shoulders. “Says you.”
Clint gave a small, over-exaggerated gasp. “ Excuse me, I have the best hair on this team and that is a fact .”
Rogue rolled her eyes, a smile twitching at the corner of her mouth. “Yeah, go on and tell yourself that.”
Clint just chuckled this time. Then he hesitantly held his arms out, offering a hug. Any tension that had faded with their banter returned to Rogue’s form, her eyes sharpening in what looked like fear. They darted over to Kurt, then back to Clint, who froze on the spot. Crap, was that the wrong move? He was already pushing it with the hair thing, would she really want a hug from him, what was he thinking—
But before he could convince himself to step back Rogue moved forward, quickly stepping into Clint’s arms. He was taken aback for only a moment before he wrapped his arms around her, hugging her tightly. His mind raced, warnings to be careful surging through his mind, but there was really no need. He was wearing long sleeves, Rogue had on one of her thick hoodies and her gloves. There was no danger for either of them. Rogue didn’t seem to remember that though— she was as stiff as a board, so tense that he was worried she would snap.
“You can breathe, Rogue,” he whispered as quietly as he could, so quietly that he wasn’t even sure if she could hear it. But he could feel her chest move against his, a breath entering her lungs, and he smiled. He gently rubbed a hand against her back, pulling her in even tighter. “It’s ok.”
After a moment she relaxed into his embrace, her breathing steadying against his chest as he rubbed her back. She hurried her head into his chest, her eyes squeezed shut as she lingered there for a moment.
It was over too quickly, the girl pulling away just a second later to pin him with a sharp, stern stare.
“Don’t get hurt,” she said, her voice steady and commanding as she spoke.
Clint just smiled as sincerely as he possibly could. “I won’t.” He hoped she could hear everything that he meant by that.
Warren was standing just a few feet away, and Clint turned to him next. The boy still had his arms crossed, his wings shivering where they pressed into his shoulder blades. Had he gotten taller over the last few months? He was almost Clint’s height, and Clint was tall. Warren would probably end up being taller, at some point. The height alone was almost enough to forget that the boy was only fourteen… almost.
“Don’t do anything stupid,” Warren commanded, his voice low and serious. “Keep your weapons on you at all times. Get out of there if things look bad. Don’t let anyone back you into a corner, that’s where they do the most damage. You have to watch your back, and watch Tony’s. He’s still recovering, he’ll need your help…”
“Warren,” Clint said quickly, forcing a smile as he did. It did not come as easily as he would have liked. He hated how serious the boy was being, how his words seemed inlaid with experience. The kind of experience that only adults… no, not even adults should have. But all he could do was reassure the kid, as hard as it was. “This is my job, you know. Believe it or not, I’m not entirely incompetent.”
Warren did not look convinced. “You’re an Avenger. People will be after you.”
“Well, I’m Hawkeye ,” Clint pointed out, his eyebrows raising. “I don’t think anyone is going to care to come after me.”
“Are you kiddin’?” Sean cut back into the conversation, his eyes wide as he bounced on the couch just behind Warren. “You’re the best Avenger, of course they’ll want to take you out!”
Clint laughed. “I thought Captain America was your favorite?”
Sean’s mouth stayed open for just a minute. “I-I mean I still think he’s super cool, obviously, but like, I think you could beat him in a fight, like he’s cool and all but… I, I mean, you were the one that said—“
“Don’t worry, I won’t tell him,” Clint said with a wink, trying to brush off just how much the boy’s words hit his heart. Then he turned back to Warren, seriousness seizing his tone once again. “But I will be careful. You don’t have to worry about me.”
Warren didn’t respond. He hesitated for a moment, and Clint did too, unsure what he should do with the eldest… until Warren seemed to make up his mind and uncrossed his arms, striding forward to wrap Clint in a quick hug. His wings followed the movement, something that seemed to surprise them both, and Clint felt like he could barely breathe when he felt the feathers brush along his sleeves. They snapped back as soon as Warren stepped away and the boy’s face flushed red as he tried to maintain his nonchalant atmosphere. It didn’t fool Clint though. He could see the tension in the boy’s features, and though he was still figuring Warren out he knew enough to know that it was a big deal for the boy to even have his wings out in his presence. The feeling of his feathers tickling his skin lingered, and Clint smiled. Warren gave a hesitant, guarded smile back.
Then Clint turned to the last kid; the one that had been silent almost this entire time. The unreadable one. The stubborn one.
Scott Summers did not uncross his arms. He hardly even turned to look at Clint. His attention was all on his siblings, and even when Clint was focused on the boy he stayed unmoving. His eyes were pointed anywhere but the Avenger, not even the glasses able to hide the avoidance in his gaze.
“Scott,” Clint said slowly, trying to filter the hurt out of his voice as he spoke. He tried to keep his voice strong, light… he wasn’t quite sure if it was working or not. “Scott, are you ok?”
The boy didn’t respond. He didn’t even look at Clint— the archer could tell by now. He could sense whether Scott was really looking at him or not. And now his eyes were far away, focusing on the sight of Rogue sitting down next to Kurt on the couch rather than the man speaking to him.
“Scott…” Clint trailed off and found himself at a loss for words. What was he supposed to say? They had been making progress, hadn’t they? Was he making it up? Did Scott trust him at all? “Scott… are you ok with me going? I’ll be back, I—“
“You have a job to do.” Scott’s voice was steady. Flat . Emotionless . “You need to go do it.”
Clint wasn’t sure how to respond. Yes , he did have a job to do. Yes , he needed to go— Agent May would be at the airport in just a few hours, and the drive would take at least two. But Scott’s posture said something far different from what his voice did. He was tense, so tense , and that couldn’t be a sign of apathy. Could it? “Scott. I’ll be back. It won’t take long, I promise.”
Scott didn’t respond. His shoulders were tight, his face tighter, and Clint… Clint didn’t know what to say.
He heard something just behind him, and glanced up. The elevator doors were sliding open behind him, and when he looked at them he could see Natasha and Bruce standing there, waiting.
“Clint.” Natasha held up a phone, and it was easy for Clint to see that it was his. He could also see a number of missed calls recorded on the cracked screen. “Come on. You’ve got to go. Your ride’s only an hour out.”
Clint had to swallow a curse. Of course . He had left his phone upstairs, hadn’t he? And of course May was early, come on… he glanced back at Scott, but the boy still wouldn’t meet his eyes. Clint wanted to fix that, wanted to reach out, wanted to reach Scott and pull him into a hug and show him that he meant everything he said… but there wasn’t time. There wasn’t anything he could do but take a step back, regret settling in his chest as Scott’s expression remained unchanging.
“I’ll see you guys soon, ok?” Another smile crossed Clint’s face at the chorus of responses that he got. He itched to give each kid another hug, but Natasha and Bruce’s eyes were boring into him, and he was already running behind. So he settled for one last grin at the kids, then turned around to join Natasha and Bruce on the elevator.
The doors shut deftly, and Clint could swear the sound was louder than usual. It felt final, like some sort of sentence, but he couldn’t focus on that because he did not want to think about that. Plus, the two Avengers were looking at him expectantly. Clint took a moment to breathe, then frowned at them. “What?”
“Well?” Natasha quirked an eyebrow at him as Bruce spoke up. The doctor looked nervous, his forehead creased behind his wire frame glasses as he twisted his hands together. “W-what are we supposed to do with them? Do you… do you have tips, or, or do they have allergies, or… anything?”
Clint bit back a groan. Of course . He should have thought this through more. Leaving the kids in Bruce and Natasha’s care just sounded so easy, he didn’t even think about what looking after six mutant kids would entail. “Right. Right. Uh… Tasha, you’ve helped me with them already. You know some stuff, right?”
Natasha shrugged unhelpfully. “I haven’t really interacted with them much. Other than last week, I mean.”
Clint shook his head, running his fingers through his hair as the elevator continued to move them up. “Right. Uh… well, I don’t think they have allergies…”
“You don’t think ?” Bruce clarified, the nervousness in his tone only increasing.
“You can ask them,” Clint pointed out. He huffed, trying to think. “Ok. You can’t touch Rogue. Skin-to-skin contact is what triggers her mutation.” Natasha nodded, aware of this one, and Bruce looked a mix between nervous and intrigued. Clint decided to jump on that before the scientist could get any sort of ideas. “Don’t ask her about it though, it’s a sore subject. In fact, don’t ask any of them about their powers unless they offer it, ok? Kitty and Sean are pretty comfortable with it, but the others… not so much. And you really don’t want Sean using his powers inside, so don’t encourage it. He’s really active by the way— I think you were right about ADHD, Bruce— so a trip to the park or something would probably be nice. Multiple, if I’m gone long. You can just smile and nod when he talks, because he will talk for hours and it’s always nice when someone listens to him. Warren will probably hide his wings, don’t worry about that and don’t ask him about it. He doesn’t like to have them out around people. Same with Kurt, just treat him normally and he’ll love you. He’s the sweetest thing, and if he climbs on the ceiling don’t worry he’ll be fine…”
“Climbs on the ceiling ?” Bruce asked, his mouth slack as he stared at Clint. Natasha just nodded calmly next to him.
“Yeah, don’t worry about it. And if Kitty wants to bake something please humor her, but don’t expect the product to be edible. Oh, and she can walk through walls, so don’t let that freak you out. Oh, and speaking of food, they all eat a lot so be prepared for that, there should be plenty of extra snacks and stuff in the fridge but I give you full permission to steal from Tony’s cabinets and blame it on me. Oh, and do not, I repeat do not knock Scott’s glasses off.” Clint shook his head fiercely, his hand once again tangled in his hair as he scrapped his mind for anything else. “I mean you know that Bruce, you helped make them, but…”
“Don’t let the glasses come off.” Natasha nodded sharply, her confident posture a sharp contrast to Bruce, who’s eyes had widened with every word that Clint said. “Got it.”
“Really?” Bruce shook his head, muttering under his breath with a slightly panicked look on his face. “How are we supposed to remember all of that, I mean…”
“Don’t worry,” Clint assured him quickly, his hands up as he tried to encourage the doctor. “They’re just kids.”
Bruce gave him a deadpan look. “They’re your kids.”
Clint’s mouth froze open, and Natasha chuckled as Bruce seemed to realize what he said. He and Clint both started spluttering, Bruce trying to apologize and Clint trying to say that the kids obviously weren’t his, but the words kept getting stuck in his throat. Thankfully they were saved by the elevator doors sliding open at Clint’s floor. All three Avengers stepped out of the awkward elevator as quickly as they could, quickly trying to brush off the comment.
“Well. Anyway…” Clint quickly shook it off, trying not to dwell on those three words. Because they weren’t his kids… but he didn’t want to dwell on that thought either. Why were both sides of that equation so painful? The best thing was to just think about neither of them, to just move on to the next thing. “Thank you, guys. Thanks for looking after them.”
Natasha smirked a bit, but she nodded. “Go. You’re going to be late.”
Clint nodded, hesitating just a moment before walking down the hall to grab his suitcase. He tossed one more glance over his shoulder, where Bruce gave him a shaky, nervous thumbs up.
The kids would be fine. They were in the hands of two Avengers. He had no reason to worry.
The kids. Not his kids. Obviously. Right?
Clint winced at the thought, shaking his head as he pushed his door open. Enough . They would be safe. That’s all he needed to think about.
Maybe Steve was right. Maybe he was getting a bit too distracted from his duties. He had a mission to complete. Then he could come back to the kids. Then…
Well. He would figure the rest out then.
Notes:
Well I'm sure this won't hurt anyone at all :)
Also Clint explaining how to deal with these mutant kids to a very overwhelmed Bruce is one of my favorite things lolSee y'all next Wednesday, leave a comment if you want to I really appreciate it! <3
Chapter 49: Selfish
Summary:
Scott was the one that had been telling everyone to be careful. He was the one insisting this entire time that they couldn’t be attached, that the Avengers were dangerous, that they couldn’t trust them.
So why was he the one that couldn’t look Clint in the eye when he announced that he was leaving?
Chapter Text
Clint was leaving.
It was for a good reason, of course. It was for a mission. It was for his duty to his team. It was something he had to do, something that would help people. It was his job. It was the way that he kept people safe. It was the reason he was and Avenger. It was a good reason to leave.
And he was coming back. He kept saying that he was coming back.
Why was it so hard for Scott to believe that?
The thought barely crossed his mind, but it was enough to make Scott snort to himself. He had plenty of reason not to believe that. He had every reason not to believe Clint’s promise.
Right? Didn’t he?
Clint hadn’t lied to him yet. Not that he could think of. But… everyone else did. Everyone else had lied to Scott when they said those words, when they promised not to leave. And now Clint was leaving too. And Scott knew he would. He knew this wouldn’t last, that this was all just temporary. Everyone had said that from the very beginning, Clint and Scott most of all. He knew it would come to an end, and he wanted it to come to an end… didn’t he?
If he did, then why did it hurt so much? Why couldn’t he look Clint in the eyes to say goodbye?
Why was there hurt in Clint’s voice when he said goodbye? Shouldn’t he be happy to be getting away from them for a bit? He had been saddled with them for months now. They weren’t a responsibility that he had wanted, they weren’t a responsibility that he needed . He had no reason to take them in, he should be glad to finally be able to get back to his job… right?
Why hadn’t it felt that way?
Scott sighed, his shoulders shuddering as he buried his head in his hands. It was late. How late, he wasn’t quite sure. It was late enough that he had seen Warren slip down to the gym and had seen Kurt pop in and out of his room a few times. It wasn’t just them; everyone was restless tonight. It had taken at least an hour for Natasha and Dr. Banner to convince the younger kids to go to bed, and it had taken Scott another hour to settle them down after the two Avengers had left. Even now he was sure that only about half of them were asleep— Kitty had gone out like a light, and after a bit of assurance Sean managed to fall into an uneasy sleep, but he had seen Kurt and Warren out and about and he wasn’t sure if Rogue had fallen asleep or not. Everyone seemed worried about Clint despite Scott’s assurances that this was his job , that he was a professional, that he would be fine.
He hated how flat and lifeless his words sounded, but somehow he couldn’t make them sound any other way.
He knew that this was Clint’s job. He knew that the man had things he needed to do. He knew that this was temporary.
Why did it still hurt ?
Scott was the one that had been telling everyone to be careful. He was the one insisting this entire time that they couldn’t be attached, that the Avengers were dangerous, that they couldn’t trust them.
So why was he the one that couldn’t look Clint in the eye when he announced that he was leaving?
Scott squeezed his eyes shut tight and rubbed at his temples, roughly massaging the space just behind the rim of his glasses. It felt almost strange to go through the familiar motions now that they weren’t needed; the glasses didn’t cut off his blood flow the same way the visor did, but at this point it was just a habit. It felt grounding, and Scott felt the need to be grounded. If he wasn’t, he would spend too much time thinking about things that he did not need to think about.
Scott let a sigh slip past his lips. It had to be late— no, early. It was long past midnight, he knew that for a fact. At this point he was not going to get any more sleep. It would just be a waste of time to try, but he couldn’t bear to sit alone with his thoughts any longer. The longer he sat, the more his worries and anxieties twisted through the silent air and pressed down on his head to add to the migraine behind his eyes. Even worse than the worries were the questions ; so many questions and insecurities that crept in from the shadows and threatened to curl around his throat, press against his neck, choke him with their blurry, confusing forms… no . No, he had to distract himself. He had to do something to distract himself.
He was half tempted to join Warren down in the gym, but… no, he couldn’t do that. He felt choked up, and he couldn’t let the older boy see him like that. Scott was supposed to be the leader. He was supposed to stay strong. He had to stay strong. Besides, going down would leave the other kids defenseless. That was why he was out here, sleeping on the couch, wasn’t it? Wasn’t that why he was here most nights? He had to keep them safe, to keep them all safe. Who else would?
Clint Barton would . The thought slipped into his mind, instinctive and unwelcome, so unexpected that Scott had to shake his head and stand up and move. It wasn’t long before he was pacing and his feet were wearing a track into the carpet beneath him. No . This was all temporary. He had to remember that. Clint Barton wasn’t even here. He couldn’t protect them. He wouldn’t stick around.
Would he?
No . No one stuck around for Scott. No one stuck around for any of them.
Clint said he would be back. But a lot of people say a lot of things, and a lot of times they don't mean them. Scott had to remember that. It was a fact of life. It was a fact of his life, a life of broken promises and fractured trust that urged him to stay on guard for not only his sake, but his sibling’s sake. He had to remember those facts.
But… Clint hadn’t broken a promise to them yet. Had he?
Scott stopped in his tracks mid-pace. There it was. There, right there, was the thing that Scott was so scared of. The reason— well, one of many, he supposed— that he could not sleep.
He couldn’t feel hope, he shouldn’t feel hope. Not for this. This was temporary. This would be over soon. It always was, but especially this.
Clint Barton was an Avenger. He had a job to do; this mission was proof of that. This whole arrangement was because he had pity on a few kids. None of this would last.
So why, why on earth , did Scott want it to?
His path in the carpet was worn down more with each step. It felt like there was a weight on his shoulders that pushed each step further into the floor with the significance of his thoughts. It left a bitter, rancid taste in his mouth. That was the truth, wasn’t it? He wanted this. He wanted this safety, he wanted this security, he wanted the weight of leadership taken off of him…
Was that selfish?
Yes , a part of him screamed. He didn’t deserve this. Why would he? He was a mutant, a freak, a bringer of destruction. He had to work for his place in the world. He had to fulfill his duty, he had to be the leader. That had been drilled into his head for years. His life was an uphill battle. He couldn’t rely on anyone, he had people relying on him . He couldn’t afford that.
And yet,… it felt so good . It felt so good to have Clint’s eyes on him— concerned, happy, patient, ready to help. It felt so good to step back, to watch him interact with his siblings. It felt so good to have someone ask him if he was ok .
Somehow, in the dark, quiet room, Scott found that he was laughing to himself. It was just a soft huff, one that left his chest empty as he inhaled and shook his head to himself. Selfish . That was exactly what that was. He didn’t deserve this, any of this.
He wanted Clint to stay. He wanted it so badly that the thought made him sick to his stomach. He knew he shouldn’t, he knew that he couldn’t . All of this was temporary . It would all be gone soon, just like it always was. Attachment just made it more painful. It wouldn’t last.
He didn’t deserve for it to last.
Scott let out another breath, this one less of a laugh and more of a sound of defeat. His pacing had led him to the coffee table in the middle of the dark room, and after taking another brief moment to breathe, Scott reached out. He felt around for a brief moment, easily finding the TV remote in the darkness. He was used to being blind, after all.
The TV soon flooded the room with its blue glow, and Scott instantly muted it so he would have the chance to turn the volume down to a level that hopefully wouldn’t wake any of the others. In fact, after a moment of consideration, he turned on subtitles instead of the volume. It would take more focus for him to understand the TV, and it would be less likely for his siblings to hear. The more focus it took, the less he would be lost in his thoughts. It wasn’t hard for him to find the “closed captions” setting in the TV’s menu. Clint had shown him how to do it just a few weeks earlier.
Scott shut his eyes, shook his head, and quickly searched for something, anything , to get himself out of his mind.
Scott usually wasn’t one to watch TV, at least not of his own accord. He didn’t have time for it. He usually just watched whatever the younger kids were watching, unless he was turning on the news.
The news . How long had it been since they checked the news? They hadn’t had the chance while traveling, and since then… it had slipped Scott’s mind. What if something had happened?
He really was a terrible leader.
Scott’s limbs felt heavy as he clicked through the TV. He didn’t want to turn on the news. He wanted to shut his brain off, to stop thinking. The news would accomplish the exact opposite.
But it was his duty, wasn’t it?
He clicked onto the news.
The flood of information was instantaneous: reports of a fire somewhere downstate. A couple interviews with those whose homes had been lost. Then a section talking about the continued repair efforts from the Battle of New York— apparently there had been some updates on the question of some building permit or another. A new man was running for a Senate seat, a man named Robert Kelly that Scott had never seen before.
At least it drove his feelings to the side. Scott needed that. He needed to think about someone other than himself.
Scott slowly sat back down, sinking onto the couch as he watched images flit past, stories delving into his brain. Most of it was rerun material from earlier in the day, or so one of the news anchors said through the subtitles. Scott didn’t care. He just focused on the words, the stories, the information that wasn’t necessary to anything that he was doing. Occasionally the subtitles went too quickly and he found himself struggling to keep up, but that was good. It made him struggle to understand. It made him focus. It kept him out of his head.
At least, it did for a minute. And then it made it worse.
Scott had just about given up on reading the subtitles, his focus on the images moving across the screen, when suddenly an image popped up that made his blood run cold. A logo flashed across the screen that made his heart pound, and his hands fumbled with the remote as he frantically turned up the volume— he couldn’t afford to miss a word of this.
“…another update on the world-changing Hope Industries ,” a female reporter said, her voice layered over the static image of the company’s logo before it faded into a video of the new building— a building that was now complete, Scott realized with dread. “ Despite some setbacks from just a few weeks ago, the company’s latest compound has reached completion and has begun work within the facility .”
Scott leaned forward, blood pumping in his ears. No . No, that didn’t make sense. It was too soon. Even without their interference, it should have been longer than this. There was no way they could have gotten it active this quickly, and yet according to the news they had . Somehow they had, all while Scott had been enjoying pumpkin pie and Uno games with the Barton family.
How could he have let this happen?
“The head of the facility, Bolivar Trask, declined to speak tonight, but just last night it was announced that tomorrow they would be performing some of the first field tests of their X-Gene vaccine.”
If Scott’s blood had been cold before, now it was pure ice.
The reporter said it like it was a good thing, a happy report. Like this was supposed to be a lull, some good news after the fires and political drama. Like it was some sort of exciting, interesting development, not a threat to Scott’s entire species.
“There is, of course, still speculation surrounding the ‘mutant cure’, but Trask has assured us that the benefits of the vaccine outweigh the consequences…”
Another huff left Scott’s lungs. It was a bitter, disbelieving exhale, one that left him colder than before. Benefits ? They wanted to use this vaccine to wipe out mutant kind, to destroy the gifts that they had been given. Out of what? Fear ?
You must fight for a world that hates and fears you . Professor X’s words swirled through his mind, the words that had been drilled into his head for the many years he had spent with the man. Yes , they were dangerous. Yes , there was reason for normal humans to fear them. But that was exactly why the X-Men existed. They were there to provide a good example, to show what mutants and humans could be. Professor X had been clear about that.
But sometimes more force was needed. Professor X had been pretty clear about that as well.
Scott knew for a fact that Hope Industries was not the great, benevolent company that they painted themselves as. He knew for a fact that this was not the first “ real ” testing they had done, that the people they were testing on probably were not volunteers. He knew that he had rested too long, that they needed to stop this.
It was his duty, wasn’t it? It was his duty as team leader, as an X-Man.
Scott fell back against the couch, the remote clutched tightly in his hand as he watched the news story fade, another one coming to the forefront. He hardly even registered the different images on the screen. The Hope Industries logo was burned into his mind along with the guilt, anger, and self-loathing that roiled in his gut and pressed behind his eyes. He should get up. He should deal with this. It was his duty. He was an X-Man. Wasn’t he?
He had to get up. He had to get up and…
And what? Wake his siblings up? Tell them it was time to throw on their superhero suits, to go running out into a battlefield to fight against an enemy that would have weapons specifically targeted at them? To throw them all in danger?
Yes his brain said automatically, Xavier’s voice filling his mind. Of course they had to go. If they didn’t, who would? This was their burden to bear, the burden of their species. No one else would help them, not in a way that mattered.
So why was Scott just sitting on the couch? Why did he feel a bone-crushing weight at the idea of standing? Why did he want to stay there, to close his eyes, to pretend that he never saw the broadcast and just fall asleep? The thought should sicken him. It was so selfish. It was so, so selfish , and yet it was all he wanted. He wanted to go to sleep, to forget what was going on, to wake up in the morning and see Clint Barton walk out of the elevator, for him to smile and say everything was alright…
Scott groaned, once again burying his face in his hands. No . He shouldn’t think that. He couldn’t think that. It didn’t matter if he wanted to rely on Clint Barton… he couldn’t rely on Clint Barton. No matter how hard it was not to, no matter how much he just wanted to let Clint take the wheel so he could let go and let someone else worry about everything… he couldn’t . He couldn’t do that.
Clint wasn’t even there. Scott was the only one that could look after himself, his siblings, mutantkind as a whole. It was his duty. He had to man up. He had to be an adult.
Another sigh heaved from Scott’s chest, his shoulders shuddering with the movement. Slowly, almost painfully, he moved. His limbs felt heavy as he hauled himself to his feet, and a familiar weight settled on his shoulders as he rose.
He couldn’t rely on Clint. That was a fact. No matter what selfish, childish instincts were curling around his throat, he couldn’t give in, not when so much was at stake. He had to take care of things himself.
If he didn’t, who else would?
Notes:
*knock knock* oh no its the plot, watch out--
Seriously tho it's about to pick up and once it does it's not slowing down.Scott is finally acknowledging Feelings, he just has no idea how to process them :')
Chapter 50: Written on the Walls
Summary:
“If we have to do it ourselves, let’s just do it already,” Warren said quickly. The longer they stayed, the less time they had to destroy whatever “cure” the company had been working on.
Scott nodded, moonlight flickering across the dull gold of his visor as he moved. “Alright. Come on.”
Notes:
I fell asleep last night and realized WAIT THE CHAPTER-- happy Thanksgiving to all my American readers, happy day in general to everyone else! <3
Anyway holy cow this is chapter 50, buckle up this is where it starts to pick up.
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Chapter Text
Warren’s feathers were a mess.
To be fair, they usually were not very well-kept. They were usually twisted and flat from being kept beneath his harness, even if he still tried to clean them up once and a while. They hadn’t been truly neat in years, if ever. But tonight they were particularly a mess. There was still sweat glistening on the blades, and his wings were ruffled and crumpled from the exercise session he had just been having. He had been trying to work out some of the tension in his muscles. He was really wishing that it had worked better.
“Are you sure this is the right thing to do, Scott?” Warren had a feather between his fingers, one that had come loose as they walked up the road. It was smooth, white as porcelain in the darkness. The point of its vane scraped his fingers as he glanced over at the slightly younger boy.
Scott did not reply. His eyes were once again covered by his visor, the thick metal glinting in the moonlight as he crouched next to one of the bushes at the edge of the tree line. When he got no response Warren just sighed under his breath, his eyes drifting up to look at the sky. It was late. Well, early, actually. Probably about two in the morning now. Scott had woken them all up almost as soon as he had seen the broadcast; by the time Warren had come up from the gym he was faced with his half-awake siblings all half-dressed for battle. After a rushed explanation from Sean and a flurry of getting prepared, briefing, and slipping out of the tower… well, here they were, waiting just outside the facility.
A cold wind blew through the trees, strong enough to remind them that it was nearly winter. Warren shuddered, pulling his messy wings in closer as if that would keep out the cold air. They were already digging into his shoulders painfully; not that he cared, of course. He needed his wings close, as close as possible.
Warren was not nervous. No . He was not nervous at all.
But he was concerned. He was concerned for his siblings, his friends, the little kids that were dressed up in superhero suits as they stood next to him, staring out of the trees and across the yard to the facility. He was concerned about what was in there, what those little kids could see. Even just the thought of it made old scars ache, his wings shuddering involuntarily against his back. He did not want his siblings to see what happened inside these places. They had an idea of course, but as far as he knew they had not seen it. He wanted to keep it that way. Concerned . That was all that he was.
And he was angry. Oh, he was angry .
Warren breathed heavily, the force of his breath leaving a cloud in the dark, early morning air. Warren Worthington II was inside Avengers Tower just a few weeks ago. Ever since that interaction, ever since he had broken down in front of Clint Barton, Warren had been turning it over in his mind. He quietly stewed over the moment, silently tore it apparent in his thoughts. At first it was out of fear, fear of what could happen if that man realized he was there, if he came back… but no, he knew now that the man wasn’t there for him. He thought he was dead, after all. And Clint had said he was there for a business meeting. That meant… well, business. Funding for projects. Projects that tore people apart, figured out how they worked. Things of that nature.
Needless to say, this anger had been burning in his gut for a few weeks.
But the anger was his own. That was his own private battle. It stemmed from experiences and grudges that lay heavy in the back of his mind. It was grown from old scars and broken feathers. It led to more of the things that he did not want his newfound siblings to see.
Which was why he was not sure this mission was a great idea.
But Scott wasn’t going to budge. Warren had known him long enough to know that. Sure, Warren was the newest to their group. Sure, he had only been an X-Man for a few months before Xavier passed. But that had been plenty long enough for him to see just how dedicated Scott Summers was to his siblings and to the mission that Xavier put before him.
Warren didn’t disagree with this particular mission. He knew it was important. He knew they had to take drastic action to stop this whole mess. But the overarching one? The whole “protect a world that hates and fears you ”?
That world could burn, for all he cared. He had his world right here, surrounding him. He just wanted to keep them close, wanted to be able to spread his wings over them the moment it was needed. He didn’t care what the costs were, what he had to do in order to achieve that. And if it was to follow them into a battle that he would much rather be enacting on his own… well, he would just worry about making sure they were all safe. That was all he could do.
Speaking of having people under his wings, Kitty was shivering. She was standing next to him, her little face drawn up in determination… but it was a thin determination. Really, she just looked miserable, her tiny arms wrapped around her body, her limbs shivering with each twisting breeze that slipped through the air. Warren watched her for just a moment, then carefully stretched out his wing, coaxing it from its place pressed between her shoulder blades. Wind hit his feathers and cold jolted down his spine, the air around them making him keenly aware of just how exposed, just how fragile his wings were at this moment… but then his wing was resting across Kitty’s back and she was snuggling into his side, sighing slightly at the warmth radiating from his feathers, and Warren knew it was worth it.
Warren could understand why Scott brought everyone. It was tactical. Kitty and Kurt were their best chances of getting into the facility. Their powers were the most useful in this sort of situation… they just also happened to be the youngest. The smallest. The most fragile.
Warren had to bite back a sharp sigh, one full of frustration and bitterness that stung his throat as he swallowed it down. They were kids , weren’t they? Even him and Scott, technically. Legally, they were kids. But actually? Well, at what point does one become an adult… after you reach a certain age, or after you’ve seen too much?
By those standards, they could all be considered adults. Warren supposed that was why they were out here.
“Can we go home , Scott?” The silence was broken by a single voice, one that made Warren glance up and over at the others. Rogue was leaning against one of the trees, her breath making soft clouds in the air as she glared through her frosty bangs toward the facility. Kurt was just next to her… well, slightly above her, actually. At some point during the few minutes they had been standing in the trees he had climbed right up one, his tail flicking silently as he stared out from the shadows with his bright yellow eyes. Scott was still staring out at the facility, his face unreadable behind his visor, not even bothering to acknowledge the voice behind him.
And of course, the voice belonged to Sean, who was really not taking the whole “wake up in the middle of the night and sneak out into the cold” thing very well. Warren really couldn’t blame him for that. The boy was on his back, his curls spread across the rock that he was lying against as he groaned again. This wasn’t his first protest of the night, which Warren had already taken note of. Usually Sean was excited for the idea of going out and being a superhero… but right now, in the middle of the night, in the cold… well, anyone who actually wanted to be out here was a little crazy.
Sean huffed again, his breath clouding the air. He stared up at it, glowering in the moonlight. “Look at how cold it is! Look at it! I can see my breathing ! I wanna go back to bed …”
“This won’t take long,” Scott finally spoke up, his voice steady and commanding like it always was on a mission. “Then, we can go back… to the tower.”
His words faltered ever so slightly on “ tower ”, but apart from that there was no waver to his voice. Warren could almost believe that his brother actually knew what’ve was doing. Almost .
For once, his steadiness did not seem to placate Sean, who let out another grunt. “Can’t we just let someone else do it?”
“No one else is going to do this, Banshee,” Scott said firmly, already using Sean’s code name to address him.
“The Avengers might,” Sean muttered, sitting up so that he could cross his arms with a violent shiver. Warren resisted the urge to step over and pull the little boy under his other wing, only stopping because Kitty was now half asleep against his leg. “I bet Mr. Barton would come beat these guys up. They’re bad.”
Scott opened his mouth, his words gaining an edge as he snapped back at Sean. “Mr. Barton isn’t here.”
Sean winced slightly. “But, but I mean if he was —“
“He’s not.” Scott’s voice was still sharp. “We have to take care of this.”
Warren found himself narrowing his eyes, his wing tightening just slightly around Kitty. Was Scott right? Did they have to take care of this? Whatever he thought about the mission, it still seemed right. Warren would have been sure a few weeks ago, but now…
He couldn’t decide how he felt.
Would the Avengers help if they asked?
Warren didn’t like the fact that he was even considering it. Yes, he was the first one to decide that Clint Barton could help them out, but that was just a means to an end. Sean was hurt. They couldn’t help him, the Avengers could. It only made sense to go with them. It just made sense for them to stay now. It made sense , that was why he was for them staying with the Avengers. That was it. It wasn’t supposed to be something that stuck around.
He hated the fact that there was now doubt clinging around his thoughts.
“If we have to do it ourselves, let’s just do it already,” Warren said quickly. They had been clinging to the tree line for almost ten minutes now. The longer they stayed, the less time they had to destroy whatever “cure” the company had been working on. And the longer they were away from the tower.
That last thought was fleeting, and Warren quickly shoved it away. He just wanted to be done with this, obviously. He wasn’t hoping that Clint would be home by the time they got back. Obviously .
Scott nodded, moonlight flickering across the dull gold of his visor as he moved. “Alright. Come on.”
He started forward, Sean grunting before jumping up to follow, seemingly happy to just be doing something. Rogue followed as well, with Kurt hopping down just behind her. Warren brought up the tail end of the group, gently nudging Kitty awake as he started to move.
The facility was big. It had seemed big when they first visited it, and it was just as big now. Possibly even more so; it hadn’t been complete when they had first come.
Warren could understand Scott’s urgency now, the fact that he woke them all up in the middle of the night. Anything could be happening in there. Heck, they had already done it. They had made a “cure”. The thing that these companies had been working on for years , that the X-Men had been trying to prevent for just as long. How had they just let this happen?
Warren shook his head to himself and tried to shut his thoughts down, instead focusing on his steps as he followed his siblings. Well, he supposed they were his teammates, right now.
Yeah . The fearsome X-Men. The terrorist heroes, one of which was currently asking to be carried because she was still half asleep and cold. Yeah . They were terrifying, weren’t they?
The facility was… surprisingly easy to get into. Really, Warren was expecting more. With the amount of highly experimental… well, experiments in this building, he expected something a little bit better than the security cameras and walls they were faced with. Really, it was easy.
It was too easy.
It was warmer inside the building, but somehow Warren felt colder. His wings were back to being folded against his back so tightly that it hurt, and he could feel every breath that he took, the sharp smell of chemicals already scraping his lungs from the lobby. They tested terribly familiar, and he had to force himself not to gag on the memories that they drug up.
Don’t panic . One step at a time.
He was there for two reasons; to wreak havoc and protect his siblings. Those were the only two things that mattered. Nothing in his mind mattered. He had the present to worry about.
Warren focused on that thought as he stepped through the stark white hallways, shoving everything else to the side as he did. He could think about his memories and his scars and the Avengers and Clint Barton and everything else later … or maybe not at all. Thinking was overrated, in Warren’s opinion, and it was definitely not needed now, in the middle of a mission…
His eyes slid across the walls, catching for just a moment on a row of photos lining the wall. His soft, stealthy footsteps faltered, his heart jumping into his throat as his wings tightened ever so slightly.
A few shafts of moonlight filtered in through the large, floor-to-ceiling windows. The light was dim, almost blue. It illuminated the space just enough for Warren to make out the pictures on the wall, just enough for him to make out the familiar cold smile, the blonde hair and blue eyes that haunted his sleepless nights.
Suddenly it was harder to breathe.
No. Warren shook his head sharply to himself, trying to ignore the ache that twisted through the muscles of his wings. It reached into his bones and rattled his core, but he shoved it back. He had to force himself to breathe, no matter how hard it was to get air in his lungs. He couldn’t spiral. Not here. Not now. They were on a mission , weren’t they? He had to keep it together. He had to breathe.
And just like that there was a voice in the back of his head. It was a comforting voice, one that helped to loosen the tightness in Warren’s chest as it coaxed him to breathe .
Ok . Maybe he could think about Clint just a little.
His breathing was steady by the time they reached the end of the hallway, and he shoved his confusing feelings to the side as quickly as he could. He did not want to think about the inflections of Clint’s voice in his head. He had other things to focus on; like the laboratory doors that Scott was already pulling open. There was already a blast of air slipping out through the doors, heavy with the scent of chemicals and disinfectant.
Warren felt another flash of panic, but he was able to shove this one away much more quickly. It was fine . He was entering this lab of his own accord. He was here to destroy everything within its walls; that had been his goal for years , even before he joined the X-Men. This was what he wanted, even if it was just happening faster than he had expected.
He was under control. He was breathing, even as his wings dug divots between his shoulders.
The innermost part of the Hope facility was large, as one may expect from a facility like this. But Warren did not expect it to be quite so… open . Everything was built… largely. That was the only description for it. The ceiling had to be forty feet above their heads and was equipped with massive lights that hung down from the rafters, all cold and dark at the moment. Huge tables took up most of the floor space, wide walkways leading between stations that were built open-faced, their contents proudly on display for anyone to see. The only closed off rooms were walled with glass, in a way that their contents were still very much visible. Those looked less like stations and more like containment chambers, things created to show off their prisoners.
It was a place that was built to look impressive. The thought put a bitter taste in Warren’s mouth. The fact that he could practically see his father’s fingerprints in the design did not help.
The tension in the room was as pliable as the silence. The only noise that broke the heavy sound was the quiet tap of boots against smooth tile and the constant hum of machinery that was almost unnoticeable until you focused on it. Warren found that sound almost deafening, with the way it seemed to come from every surface of the room. It was as if every station was armed and waiting to test its metal on them. Which, if Warren knew anything about these laboratories, they likely were.
Scott stopped just shy of the center of the huge room. His visored gaze was impossible to read as he looked around, carefully scanning the space. Warren wondered if he was feeling the tension as well, the feeling that this was all too easy. If he did, he did not show it.
Scott raised a hand and gestured to the space around them, silently signaling them to spread out and search the place. It was not a very clear sign, just an open hand motion that they had developed before Warren had even joined the team. Clint could probably teach them more accurate signs now.
Warren shoved that thought from his mind, focusing on his footsteps as he stepped over to one of the flat metal tables. Almost as soon as he glanced at the table he had to pause and focus on breathing for a moment. Memories had to be shoved to the back of his mind, his focus drawn back in as he balled up his fists. He had to remember the goal.
Find the “cure”. Burn it. Keep his siblings safe. That was all that mattered.
Warren let out another breath, his wings digging into his shoulders painfully. Focus. He had to focus.
He moved forward again, carefully stepping around the long metal table. He heard a soft noise and glanced over his shoulder to see Kitty following at his heels, her footsteps a bit louder than his in the stale air. A small smile ghosted over Warren’s face, and he paused just long enough for her to catch up to him. She still looked tired, a yawn nearly escaping her as she once again leaned against his leg. Warren’s expression softened even more, the tension in his shoulders lessening ever so slightly. It was almost enough to get him to stretch out his wings again.
But then he heard something, something that made his blood run cold and his movements freeze. He heard something that made his wings go tight against his back, so tight that he should be feeling pain. He felt no pain. He felt nothing but an incessant, unwelcome, sickening fear . It was the kind of fear that fills your mind, that chokes you, that makes it hard to breathe.
He heard a voice. It wasn’t a comforting voice, like Clint’s had been when he remembered the man telling him to breathe. This was a voice that swamped out anything else in his mind, that reminded him of cold laboratory walls and statistics and pain . This was a voice that he never wanted to hear again.
"What is this?"
Warren heard the voice, and suddenly he couldn't breathe.
Notes:
I wonder who that could be...
Hope you enjoyed! :)
Chapter 51: Breaking Point
Summary:
“Don’t even try that,” Warren snapped, his voice a sharp blade in the air. “You’re not going to cure anyone. We’re going to destroy it. We're going to destroy you.”
The man simply hummed. “And that is where you are very, very wrong.“
Notes:
Just an FYI, we’re back on the Monday/Thursday update schedule! Usually I put this sort of note in the end notes but… well… y’know what just read the chapter :)
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Chapter Text
The voice was stern, surprised, and impossibly loud in the quiet, stale air. The echo of the words seemed to reverberate through the room, through the floors and the walls, through the very flesh of the X-Men.
Everyone froze.
Silence ticked by for a few moments. The air was thick, heavy, suffocatingly tense as the realization set in. For a moment, no one moved.
Someone was in the building. And, unlike them, that person was probably supposed to be there.
Scott could feel his heart thudding in his chest. He could feel his limbs burning, his hand half outstretched as he had been moving to pick something up from one of the tables. A fleeting thought flashed across his mind, the wish that his mutation allowed him to turn invisible, but he shoved that away as quickly as it appeared. Even if he was able, he couldn’t turn invisible now. He was the leader. He was the one in charge, the one who brought everyone here. There was no time for fear, there was no time for hiding.
Scott Summers squared his shoulders, and slowly turned around.
Sure enough, a man was staring at him from the other end of the room. He was fairly tall, dressed not in a lab coat like Scott was expecting but rather a sharp business suit. He had blonde hair and piercing blue eyes that seemed to widen the longer that he looked at them, the surprise of the situation etching itself coldly across his chiseled features.
They stared at each other for a moment, for two. Scott tried to draw himself up taller, crossing his arms as he tried to channel some confidence that he did not have into his posture.
The man muttered something under his breath that Scott could not quite catch. “You’re the X-Men.”
“Yeah, we are!” Scott forced his face to stay steady as Sean jumped forward, his fists balled up as he glared at the man.
“I’ll handle this, Banshee.” Scott kept his voice low, steady. Adult. In control. He took a step forward, motioning Sean to the side as firmly as he could. “Keep looking.”
Sean opened his mouth as if to protest, but Scott quickly sent him a sharp look. The boy thankfully understood, and scurried away to help search.
The man ahead was just watching. Not the slack, dumbfounded look that they usually got when someone recognized them. Not even the slight terror that they sometimes evoked. No, his gaze was something… different. Cold . Calculating . It made Scott’s skin crawl, made the tension in his shoulders tighten. The fact that the man had something almost like a smile twitching at his lips did not help.
“So. You did show up.”
Scott did not respond. Instead he cast his eyes slightly to the side, just enough to check that his siblings— no, his teammates , right now they were his teammates— were moving again. Sure enough, they seemed to have snapped out of the trance, and were once again searching for the “cure”. Well, most of them. Warren was not moving at all.
When Scott’s eyes landed back on the enemy, he found that the man was also staring at his teammates. More specifically, he was staring at Warren’s frozen form. Something in the man’s calculating gaze faltered.
“Warren?” The voice was still cold, but this time it was hardly more than a whisper. Scott could hear something more behind it… confusion? Surprise? Or perhaps that was just what he was feeling. Who was this man? How did he know his teammate? “Could it…”
“Shut up.” The man did not get the chance to finish his sentence, because Warren’s voice sliced through the air between them with a cold fury that matched the previous voice. “Just shut up .”
The man froze for a moment, considering the scene before him. Then mouth twitched ever so slightly, and he let out a small huff. “Well. I suppose it is.”
“I told you,” Warren’s voice had a tremor now, a thick, wobbly tremor that dripped with anger as he practically spat the words. “Shut up.”
The man paused for a moment. “I’m glad you’re back,” he said simply, nodding as he did. “I mean that sincerely.”
Warren was practically growling now. He still hadn’t moved an inch. “I’ll bet.”
“Angel,” Scott kept his voice steady. He filtered out all of the confusion he was feeling and focused his words on the question at hand. “Who is this?”
“ Angel ,” the man’s voice echoed in the room again, an almost musing tone clinging to it as he nodded. “Of course. I should have made the connection before now. You always were one of a kind.”
“Who is this?” Scott repeated, pointedly ignoring the man in favor of looking at his teammate. Warren, on the other hand, could not seem to tear his gaze from the figure in front of them. Kitty was still clinging to his leg, her eyes wide with fear as she glanced between her frozen brother— no, not frozen, even from a few yards away Scott could see that Warren was trembling— and the black-suited man in the doorway. Scott’s eyes slid back and forth between them, the tension in the room tightening with every passing heartbeat. Two men. Both tall, both lean, both with that slightly wavy blonde hair, both with blue eyes that glinted coldly in the stale, thick air.
Scott could feel his pulse thudding in his veins, almost in time with the clicking of similarities between the two men. No . That was crazy, here was no way—
“As I said, I’m very glad to see you’re not dead, Warren.” The man fiddled with the cuffs of his suit, apparently nonchalant about the whole situation. Scott had seen Warren pull the same nonchalance many times, always a farce to cover his true emotions, the anger that burned inside of him. He never thought to ask where Warren had learned that tactic from. There were a lot of things he had not asked Warren about. There were scars on his wings that went unquestioned, origins that were never spoken of. All of them knew that Warren hadn’t been in the foster system for his whole life, but one of them knew exactly where he had come from before it.
They all had their demons… Scott just never expected to come face to face with one. But here he was, a man that looked like a carbon copy of his friend, smiling without warmth as he once again raked his icy blue gaze over the X-Men.
“I’m glad you’re here,” the man repeated. “It will give us a familiar place to start. Now we can finally cure you of this disease.”
“Don’t even try that,” Warren snapped, his voice a sharp blade in the air. “You’re not going to cure anyone. We’re going to destroy it. We're going to destroy you.”
The man simply hummed. “And that is where you are very, very wrong. We’ve been planning this, you know. You six are late.”
The words were said simply, like he was stating the weather, which didn’t make sense. The odds were in their favor; he was one man, they were six. And yet as he said those simple words, Scott could feel the temperature around them drop, something sinister laced into the very air around them; or maybe that was just the fear running cold in his veins.
Professor Xavier always said fear was a weapon. It could be used to control them. Scott could not afford for them to be controlled.
“Planning this?” Scott echoed the man’s words cautiously. He stepped forward again, arms dropping back to his sides as if to help shield his team from the man in front of them. He did not know who this man was, or why his words seemed to carry so much weight, let alone how had managed to freeze the strongest of their members. But Scott knew that there was something in the air, something dangerous. He knew that it was up to him to make sure his team was safe. “Who are you? What are you getting at?”
The man’s smirk deepened; not a friendly, cheeky smirk like the one Warren often wore. This smirk had no warmth behind it. The only emotions that Scott could pick out in the man’s face were malice, curiosity, some sort of deep searching that made Scott’s skin crawl.
“Well, I am honestly a bit offended that you don’t recognize me after all this time,” the man said, and his tone really did carry a note of offense. He fiddled with his shirt cuff a bit more, a slight frown passing over his face before he pulled his expression back into nonchalant confidence. “But I suppose I can’t expect you to have done your research. You can’t be much older than this boy, now, can you?”
Scott felt his fists clench a bit more as the man nodded toward Warren. He decided the best response was to avoid the question. “You didn’t answer me.”
“The name is Worthington,” the man said, confidence twisted into his tone. Scott felt the realization dawinging over him before he even finished speaking. “Warren Worthington II.”
Of course . That was why he looked vaguely familiar. He was the head of one of the companies that the X-Men had been fighting against for years . This man was a secret solicitor of mutant experiments, an adamant funder of the “mutant cure”, a man who undoubtedly had blood on his hands based on the things the X-Men had seen.
Now, Scott was forced to wonder just whose blood was on his hands. He was forced to wonder just where their Warren had gotten the scars that he hid. He was forced to wonder if it was just a coincidence that these two men bore the same features, the same name, that Worthington looked right at Warren as he emphasized the suffix of his name. The implications made Scott sick to his stomach.
But he couldn’t afford that right now. None of them could afford that. They were on a mission. Everything was laid out here, all the cards were on the table. Xavier always told Scott how he was just a piece in the grander game, that they all were. They could not afford for their judgment to be clouded here; the greater good came before themselves.
It should be easier to shove the concern for his brother— for his teammate , this was a mission— from his mind, but Scott found it clinging stubbornly to the edge of his mind.
But even if he chose to indulge that selfish, narrow thought and reach out to his brother, he did not have the time to act on the impulse because suddenly, the tense quiet of the room was shattered by something loud. There was a grating noise that echoed through the space, loud and thundering and strong enough to nearly shake the floor with its noise. Out of the corner of his eye he could see Warren— unshakable, reckless Warren— flinch at the noise, Kitty pressing herself even closer to him in fear. Somewhere across the room Kurt nearly fell off the shelf that he was searching through as he covered his ears, and Sean’s head shot up as he looked around with wide, panicked eyes. Simultaneously there was a sudden shout, and a gloved hand went up from a station on the opposite side of the laboratory.
“I found it!” Rogue’s voice was nearly swallowed up by the metal-churning noise, but she waved at Scott with determination. “Over here!”
“Hit it, Cyclops!” Sean shouted from behind Scott. And Scott was prepared to do just that. All he needed was the target. Now, with Rogue running out of the way, he had the chance to wreak havoc.
But before he could even raise his hand to his visor, the wall behind Worthington began to crumple.
“The entrance was supposed to be more subtle than that…” the businessman was grumbling, once again fiddling with his cufflinks. Only now Scott realized that those were not just cufflinks after all. There was something metal around the man’s wrist, something shiny and glowing in the dust and debris around them; a watch of some sort, or maybe just a control switch. “Oh well. We’ll rebuild.”
The man spread his arms, and this time his smile looked almost more than cold. Almost . Maybe it was because of the small chuckle that came with it as something rose from the dusty shadows behind him. Worthington tilted his head back, his voice echoing through the room as if he was giving a presentation. “X-Men, allow me to introduce you to one of Worthington Industries greatest creations.”
The thing behind Worthington moved. It towered up so that the dim light of the room was able to catch on the metallic plating that lined its joints. It was vaguely humanoid, but far, far too big to be anything remotely human. There was a dull glow coming from the massive, dead eyes, and it sent a chill of pure dread down Scott’s spine.
“This is the Sentinel.” Worthington grinned down at them, the glint in his eyes far colder than the metal monster behind him. “Thank you for volunteering for his first test run. He’s been waiting for you.”
With those words, the thing behind Worthington lunged forward.
Scott quickly shouted at the others, his hand raising to his visor to fire. But he was too slow, and he was right in front; he had hardly touched the dial on his visor before he was suddenly thrown backward by a metal hand that was as big as his entire chest. Scott grit his teeth to keep from screaming as he hit the ground hard . Pain shot up his back and the arm that had been crushed under his body, but there was no time to be in pain, no time to acknowledge how hard he had been hit. He could hear his teammates shouting and could hear the heavy footsteps of the monster that were shaking the floor beneath him. There was no time for anything other than jumping to his feet and allowing himself five seconds to get a handle on the situation.
One. Two. He glanced at their attacker. The creature, beast, monster… Scott wasn’t sure what to call it, but it was massive , at least twice his height, with a gleaming metal body that shook the floor beneath them with its heavy, pounding footsteps. Every move it made seemed calculated, pointed, and utterly packed with power.
Three. Four. He glanced at his teammates. They were shouting, scrambling to the side as the metal monster stepped forward. Warren had finally snapped out of his trance, at least enough to throw an arm protectively between Kitty and the enemy. On the other side of the room Sean and Kurt were both scrambling backwards, terror showing on their faces even as they attempted to fall into some version of battle posture. All of them were utterly dwarfed by the towering metal beast.
Five . He found Rogue, her hand now dropped to the side, her green eyes sparking with a mix of fear and defiance as she backed up closer to the wall, closer to where the supposed cure was. He could see her gloved hands balling into fists, her eyes darting between the metal creature and the cure that they needed to destroy.
In the five seconds that it had taken Scott to look around the room, the robot had taken another step. It was obvious now that it was moving toward Rogue, and it was obvious that she was trying to decide what she needed to do.
Scott didn’t have time to take a breath. He didn’t have time to feel his wounds. He was the leader. It was time for him to step up to his duty.
“Banshee!” Scott ignored the way that the word burned his lungs, his hand going to his visor as he jumped back to put some distance between himself and the beast. He was still between it and Rogue, and it was between him, Sean, and Kurt. The math quickly flashed through Scott’s head, rough and theoretical. The force of his blast plus the force of Sean’s… they had practiced this before, and even just the five second window told him that this was the best plan. “Hit it high!”
He could see a bit of movement behind the monster that he assumed was Sean, but it was soon outside of Scott’s eyesight as the metal beast turned toward him. Scott did not hesitate: he turned his gaze low and opened his visor. Instantly power surged through the gap in the ruby quartz, blasting out so viciously that Scott almost had to take a step back from the force. But he held his ground, blasting at the robot’s knees so forcefully that it nearly toppled over then and there. That was when a sharp, piercing scream cut through the air, a scream so high pitched that Scott could see it tear a wave through the air just behind the monster. It hit the thing hard, so hard that its legs shot out from under it as it keeled over from the force hitting its back.
Scott slammed his eyes shut a moment before the beast hit the floor, the crash shaking the ground beneath him as he quickly shut his visor. When he opened his eyes again the world was once again red, and there was a brand new robot-sized crack in the smooth tile floor. Smoke rose from the thing’s twitching metal parts, and Sean’s hoarse cheer echoed through the room.
“Take that you senti- null !” Sean shouted, his fist punching the air as he danced in place. “You thought you could take the X-Men ! Jokes on you, dummy!”
“Fascinating,” Scott whipped his head around, his muscles tense and his feet planted against the ground. The businessman was still standing there, one hand rubbing at his chin as he surveyed the scene. More specifically, it seemed, as he surveyed Scott . His sharp blue eyes were tinted with a sort of hungry curiosity, a kind of expression that made Scott’s skin crawl and his defenses go up. “What was that, exactly? Energy beams? Force generation?”
Scott clenched his jaw, his skin prickling beneath the weight of his hungry gaze. The way that the man was staring at him felt inherently wrong. It felt like his gaze alone was trying to pick him apart, to take away everything that made him up in order to break him down. It rippled through him and made his hair stand on end, and he found himself clenching his fists on instinct.
Worthington didn’t seem too surprised when Scott didn’t say anything.
“We’ll find out later then, I suppose.” The man nodded toward the robot, another small, cold smile creeping onto his face. “It’s time for round two.”
Scott opened his mouth, debating a response, but he was interrupted by a groan of metal behind him. He whipped back around, and realized with a jolt that in the few moments that he had been distracted, the robot had moved. Sean let out a shout, motioning frantically to the beast.
“Sc— Cyclops! Cyclops, it’s—“
“Mutant forces detected ,” the thing said slowly. It’s voice was metallic, low, as if it was being piped through a tin can and out of the robot’s unmoving mouth. It was painfully automated; nothing like Jarvis, whose voice sounded almost human half of the time. This voice was nothing but machine, nothing but a computer analyzing the competition. “Recalibrating.”
“Recalibrating?” Scott could hear Sean’s voice edging into a pitch of panic. “What does that mean, what does that mean? It sounds bad!”
“Probably because it is bad!” Rogue shouts back unhelpfully. Scott glanced over his shoulder to see her once again waving him toward the station with the cure. “Take the shot now, Cyclops!”
Scott didn’t even waste time nodding. He turned his back on the robot, his fist raising to his temple as he quickly went to reopen his visor. However, his hand was only halfway up before a sudden tremor in the floor sent him staggering, nearly falling forward as the ground practically rocked beneath him. He regained his balance quickly, but by the time he turned back around the robot had as well.
It was really tall, wasn’t it?
Scott quickly shoved any fear and hesitation to the back of his mind, raised his hand to yank open his visor, and fired. The blast hit home, forcefully slamming into the metal monster’s chest with a burst of humming red light. Only this time, the thing did not even stumble. This time it stood firm, dead yellow eyes staring at Scott with an empty vacancy that chilled the boy to the bone. Then it took a step forward. Then another. Then another, until it was walking at a normal pace, straight into Scott’s force beam.
Scott could heard shouting somewhere in the background, but the humming noise of his blasts was thrumming in his ears, growing even louder as he opened his visor more. Energy shot from his eyes, heavy and deadly, but the Sentinel hardly hesitated. It just kept coming, which— in all of the many, many stunts Scott had pulled with his powers over the years— shouldn’t be possible.
Scott could hardly even register the shock before the monster was towering over him, at least twice his height even before it raised its fist. Scott barely had the chance to shut his eyes and dive for cover as the thing swung at him, a grunt going through him as he once again hit the floor. There was more grace to his fall this time and he quickly rolled, blind until he had the chance to pause and reach up to slam his visor shut. Only then was he able to properly regain his feet and look up at the thing again. Sean and Kurt were both attacking it now, and Sean’s screams were having just as much effect as Scott’s eye beams were: next to none. The boy’s face was going red, his unruly curls flat against his head with sweat, but the robot didn’t even spare him a glance. Instead its dull eyes were focused on Kurt, who was having a bit more luck. The blue boy was leaping through the air, flashing in and out of sight in bright purple puffs of smoke as he dodged around in his showy, circus-born fashion, his claws and tail scraping against the beast’s metal plating. But despite his efforts the metal was mostly holding up, and even from a distance Scott could see Kurt’s pace slowing, exhaustion climbing his features at the amount of energy expended with each crackling bamf. The robot, on the other hand, showed no signs of fatigue at all. Instead it seemed to be watching Kurt, its giant hands swatting at him once or twice before it settled into a strangely still stance.
“ New mutant forces detected. Recalibrating.” Scott watched as the robot stilled for a moment, its movements completely freezing in place. In those few moments Kurt landed on it’s head, quickly skittering down its back with his acrobatic agility and sinking his tiny claws into every possible inlet. However, before he could do much damage, the robot snapped back to life. Its hand lifted, much more speed behind it this time. Kurt squeaked, a puff of smoke enveloping him as he teleported away. When he reappeared behind the Sentinel the thing was already moving, almost as if it could guess where Kurt would be, swinging before the boy even fully appeared. It was only a series of acrobatic movements that kept Kurt from being hit. As he moved away, Sean let out another screech. Logically, he should have stopped at this point and accepted that the sonic blasts would do no damage, but it was a good thing that he did not because this time, the blast made the machine stumble. It even ripped up a bit of the metal plating, just like it had the first time, and Sean cheered hoarsely before running at the monster again.
The whole altercation took only seconds, but in those seconds Scott quickly figured out what was going on. The Sentinel was adapting . Somehow, it was able to resist their powers. But, more importantly, it seemed like it could only resist one or two at a time.
The information flashed through Scott’s head, and he quickly worked to form a plan. They could beat this. They had to beat this. They were the X-Men. The stakes here were high, and Professor X would be telling them that the risks only increased the value of victory.
His first priority needed to be destroying the cure. But the Sentinel was now in between him and the station, and it was obvious that the robot was determined to move in that direction as well. So he had to get the Sentinel out of the way, before it could do any more to protect the cure or hurt one of his siblings— teammates . They were in the middle of a fight, the most important time for him to remember that they were teammates. This was the most important time for him to be a leader.
“Nightcrawler!” Scott’s voice boomed over the thud of the Sentinel’s steps as he shouted to Kurt. “Nightcrawler, get back! Banshee, circle around to Rogue! Angel, I need you and Shadowcat over here!”
Scott shouted the order before even glancing back toward Warren… and once he did, he felt the words catch in his throat. He had been wrong earlier, when he had thought Warren had snapped out of his stupor: Warren was still very much shaken. Usually the winged warrior would have already joined the fray long ago. In fact, usually he would have landed the first punch. But he was still hanging back, his arm cast over Kitty as conflicting emotions flickered across his face. He didn’t seem to be paying any attention. Scott could not even tell if he had heard the order.
He cast a look back at the advancing Sentinel and cursed. Kurt had retreated like he asked and was now panting on the sidelines, almost on the verge of passing out, and now the Sentinel’s focus was entirely on Rogue and Sean, who was running to meet her. Scott cursed again. He should have gotten Warren and Kitty in position first , he messed it up, he—
He didn’t have time. No . He had to stay focused. He shook his head, shouted at Banshee and Rogue to hold the thing for just a moment, then ran a few steps closer to Warren and Kitty.
“Angel!” He shouted. Warren’s head snapped toward him, his blue eyes unusually wide. “Angel, I need you and Shadowcat in here now.”
Warren’s head was shaking before Scott was even finished speaking. “No.”
“No?” Scott took a moment to even process that. He and Warren may butt heads sometimes, but out in the field the older boy usually listened to him. Well, maybe not usually, but he usually at least agreed even if he did something different. He usually did something rather than stand on the sidelines. “Angel, I need you to fly Shadowcat up there. The Sentinel is a robot, a machine, if she can phase through it—“
“ No ,” Warren said again, a bit more forceful this time. His hold on Kitty tightened. “I don’t want Kitty anywhere near that thing.”
“ Shadowcat. Remember, code names.” Scott barely glanced over his shoulder as Warren’s glare shot past him, but oddly it didn’t seem to be directed at the towering metal monster, but the man that was still standing in the shadows just beyond the fight. Scott didn’t have time to even think about that though, let alone ask Warren about it. The robot was getting closer to the cure station, and it must have already recalibrated to block Sean’s powers because they were no longer having an effect. The realization filled Scott with a sharp panic, and he turned back to his teammates with a renewed layer of urgency. “Angel, we’re on a mission, we need—“
“—to get out of here,” Warren interrupted sharply.
“Warren, the mission—“
“Screw the mission, we need to get our siblings and go before things get worse. That thing is going to get out of control, we need—“
“—to take it down, which you and Shadowcat can do. Listen, just—“
“I’m not taking Kitty over there, Scott!”
“ Code names —“
“What for!?” Warren was shouting now, his eyes full of a panic and venom that Scott had never seen before on the older boy. “Scott, we’re not superheroes. They’re not superheroes!”
“Yes, we are,” Scott shot back. “We have a duty here, Angel, we have a whole world of people to protect—“
“What about us ?” Warren shouted, his voice trembling dangerously. Whether it was from anger or fear, Scott could not tell. “Your family? Scott, we are all kids ! Who cares about a world of people— this is not our responsibility!”
Scott opened his mouth to argue, but he was cut off by a loud scream from across the room. His head whipped up, heart jumping to his throat as he saw the Sentinel swing. It’s arm was crashing down, and Scott watched with wide, red eyes as it swept Sean off of his feet, the boy’s scream echoing through the room as he went careening off to the side. There was a crash as he fell straight through one of the displays. He didn’t get up.
“Sean!” Kitty shouted, her eyes wide as she lunged forward. Only Warren’s arm kept her back, his grip still tight around her middle and holding her tight against him.
“Sc—Cyclops, Cyclops we need you over here!” Rogue shouted. She looked in his direction, and Scott saw the briefest look of panic in her eyes before she was running at the robot to attack it with her bare hands. She didn’t stand a chance, not alone.
Scott cursed under his breath. His gaze darted back to Warren, who’s eyes were even wider than his own. His wings were practically invisible with how tightly they were pressed into his shoulder blades, and Scott could see the way his chest was heaving as Warren met his eyes.
“Warren, I wanna help! “ Kitty tugged at the older boy’s arm, dragging his gaze down to her. Her face was drawn up in determination, a sharp frown on her face. “I wanna help!”
Warren looked down at the younger girl, surprise showing briefly in his expression before disappearing under something more conflicted. “No, Kitty, it’s too dangerous.”
“I don’t care!” Kitty pulled harder at his arm, a determined frown on her face. “Scott’s right, it’s our duty! We gotta help!”
“Do it for Sean and Rogue!” Scott shouted. He threw a hand behind him, gesturing wildly toward the towering metal monster behind them. Sean still hadn’t gotten up. Another flash of panic shot through his chest, and he suddenly realized just how little time they had. They had no time. The robot was practically on top of them both, Rouge’s hits doing little to no damage as it stomped closer to the spot that Sean had crumpled. The realization shook Scott to the core, and he didn’t even look back at Warren and Kitty: he ran . With any luck Warren would shake himself out of his stupor and come help… but if not, plan B: hit the thing when it's back was turned and pray it did damage.
Scott’s feet hit the floor sharply, each step pumping more adrenaline into his veins. The robot was just steps away from the cure station, where Rogue and Sean were now cornered. At this point Sean had managed to lean up a bit, and Scott could see that his face was red from screaming. At this point, it didn’t matter if the robot was impervious to his shouts or not. There was hardly a sound coming out of his mouth; he had completely screamed himself hoarse. They were defenseless, and the robot was mere steps away.
Scott planted himself in the middle of the room, yanked at the dial on his visor, and blasted the robot with everything he had.
The screeching of metal sounded horrific, almost like a screech of pain. The thing stumbled, staggering to one side as Scott’s beams tore through its side. Scott didn’t let up. He carefully took a step forward, the pressure in his eyes pounding at his skull and filling his consciousness with blinding red light as he bore a hole into the side of the robot. A wicked headache was beginning at the base of his skull, but Scott grit his teeth and continued to fire. He just needed Sean and Rogue to move, then he could turn his destructive gaze on the cure station as well and end this…
“ Recalibrating… ” Scott barely registered the noise coming from the robot before it was moving, lunging toward him. Scott tried to blast it, but his eyes did nothing to damage the robot this time, nothing to deter its movement at all. Its metal fist collided before Scott even had the chance to close his visor, and for once he did not see red. He saw black, pure pitch blankness as the metal hit his body, the sheer force of the impact enough to nearly knock him unconscious. He didn’t even register that he was flying backwards until about two seconds after he hit the ground, while he was still skidding across the tile. That was when the instinct to reach out and stop himself kicked in… and that was when the pain hit him.
Scott was the leader. He was the strong one. He had to be.
But in that moment no sense of duty in the world could hold back Scott’s scream.
He didn’t even have time to fully register it, to fully feel the white hot pain that was coursing through him because simultaneously, his eyes flew open. Energy poured from his still-open visor, and Scott could feel the effects, could hear crashing in the distance… but everything seemed to be coming at him from underwater. Everything was muffled, everything was distant, because everything was secondary to the sheer pain he was in.
But his pain was what needed to be secondary . The thought flashed through his brain as he choked on another scream, his body arching with the force of his blasts and the pain wracking his body. But no , that wasn’t what he was supposed to focus on, there was a mission , a mission that they were in the middle of, an important mission… But it hurt so much , it hurt so much that he could hardly hear Xavier’s voice in his mind telling him to get up, see it through, put your pain second and put the cause first—
He managed to get his eyes shut, but that was about all he had the strength to do. At some point, he had stopped moving. There was definitely something broken in his body, and all that Scott wanted to do was curl in on himself and sob. But he couldn’t do that, he couldn’t because he was the leader, he had to be the strong one, he had to get up and keep pushing and come up with a plan and stop being such a child about his duty…
The floor beneath him shook, and Scott could hardly attempt to push himself up before he was suddenly yanked into the air. Pain rippled though his body, sharp and burning and almost enough to tear another scream from his lips. But his need to scream was overcome by the panic building in his chest, the fact that he couldn’t even see for fear of opening his own eyes. He tried to lift his other hand to shut his visor, but the moment he tried to move his left arm a wave of sickening pain ripped through him so sharply that he nearly threw up then and there. Distantly, he could hear shouting. Distantly, he could hear his siblings. Distantly, he knew that he had to fight, that there was still a mission that had to be completed.
Presently, he was in pain. He was exhausted. He was drained. He could feel his body trying to tear itself apart from the simple task of breathing .
Presently, he was beaten.
“ Threat neutralized. ” The robot’s voice was flat, candor, and Scott slipped from its grasp like a limp rag doll. He barely managed to roll with the fall, just enough to make sure that his left arm did not hit the floor too badly. The attempt was basically worthless though; he still nearly choked on his own tongue in his attempt to swallow another screech of pain as agony ripped through his body. The ground shook again with the robot’s footsteps as it moved away from him, onto the other targets.
The other targets.
His teammates.
His siblings .
Pain rippled through Scott’s body, and it was more than just the pain of his injuries. It was a panic, a gut wrenching panic as he realized that the screams that were now echoing in his ears were no longer his own; they were his siblings, his little siblings who he had dragged out of bed in the middle of the night and into this fight that they did not ask for…
He brought them here. They were screaming because of him … and what was he doing? He was on the ground. He was on the ground, pain throbbing through his broken body, broken and blind and helpless . He coughed, the taste of blood and copper filling his mouth as a tremor shook his body. He brought his siblings here, and for what? What was the point of the mission if they couldn’t walk away from it?
What if he lost one of his siblings here, tonight?
The cause is more important than any one person. We must fight for a world that hates and fears us. We must lay down our lives so those after us may have hope for their tomorrow . Xavier’s words flooded his brain and demanded that he get up off the ground, demanded that he pull himself together and to throw himself back into the fight, demanded that he be the leader he was made to be. But Scott couldn’t , he couldn’t get up and he couldn’t help his siblings, he couldn’t complete the mission and he couldn’t do anything.
What kind of leader was he?
A pitiful one . He couldn’t tell what that voice that was. Maybe it was Xavier’s, maybe it was his own, maybe it was both, maybe it was just the truth. He was a pathetic leader. He was failing his team, he was failing his family . He couldn’t even open his eyes, he couldn’t even see who it was that was screaming at this moment.
Sean was down. Kurt was in no shape to teleport. Warren… Scott had no idea what was going on with Warren, but he was in no shape to fight apparently. Kitty was exhausted before they even stepped into the fight.
Scott was down . The rest could be falling right now, and there was nothing he could do.
There was nothing he could do.
The thought was a horrifying, painful realization that seared through his veins, forcing him to take a shuddery, painful breath through aching lungs. The breath alone nearly made him scream again, and try as he might he couldn’t push his pain to the side. He couldn’t lift himself off the floor, and he couldn’t protect his siblings.
There was nothing he could do .
They were not going to win this fight.
Why did they think they could, anyway? They were kids . They were all kids, just a group of kids fighting a robot that was built specifically to target them, to block their abilities, to take them down without hesitation. They were fighting for their lives, for thousands of other lives that could be ruined by that cure… and yet, they were going to be beaten. Was it too selfish to wish that someone would fight for them for once? Was it too selfish to wish that this burden could be shifted to someone else?
Was it too much to ask for someone to help them?
Another gasp wracked Scott’s body. Slowly, painfully , his shaking hand reached up to his visor. Slowly, painfully, excruciatingly , he managed to fumble with the nob enough to close the thing. Then, even more slowly, evenmore painfully, he looked up at the battlefield.
That was what it was now. A battlefield . Debris had been thrown about, a thick track of rubble and ruin maring the laboratory space where Scott’s own eyes had gouged out a violent, erratic path through the floor and the ceiling. The Sentinel had done plenty of damage too, from the crater where it hit the ground to a whole mess of overturned tables and smashed cabinets as it chased after a figure that Scott assumed must be Rogue. Warren had finally snapped into action and was swooping at the metal beast, but rather than using Scott’s plan he was just trying to hit the thing as hard as possible. Scott couldn’t see Kurt, but Kitty had run over and was kneeling next to Sean. The boy still hadn’t moved.
It looked bad. Everything looked bad.
They needed something. Anything .
Scott’s hands were shaking, shaking so violently that he could hardly feel what they were doing. His right hand, the one that he was able to move without puking, slipped into the belt of his suit. Slowly, shakily, his fingers closed around a small, smooth shape.
A phone. A flip phone.
“ For emergencies ”, Clint Barton had said. He had given it to Scott ages ago, back when they were shopping for clothes or something. There had been a joking tilt to his words, but a serious look in his eyes. Scott had accepted it reluctantly, with a silent swear not to use it. He had practically forgotten it was in the pocket of his suit. He couldn’t even remember when he had put it there.
His fingers trembled as he flipped the phone open and hit the dial button.
It rang. It was quiet, nearly inaudible under the sound of the fight, and Scott felt the sheer hopelessness of it. What was the point? Clint Barton was in another state. Even if the man picked up, it would be too late. The fight was already lost. The fight was already horribly, utterly lost.
He was horribly, utterly lost.
The phone rang anyway, vibrating quietly in his shaking hand.
Once .
Twice .
Silence.
Then… “ Hello?”
“Clint?” Scott’s voice was like broken glass in his chest and in his mouth, but he forced the words out.
“ Scott? ” Clint’s voice came through the speaker, and Scott nearly sobbed in relief at the sound. He didn’t even have the energy to berate himself for that. “Scott, are you ok? What— “
“Clint.” Scott swallowed harshly, the words catching in his throat as he spoke. They came out broken, desperate, and Scott couldn’t bring himself to care. He was broken. He was desperate. There was no use in pretending anything else. There was only one thing he could say, the one thing that he never wanted to say, the one thing that Xavier would never let him say. “We… we need help.”
The moment those words left his mouth, something moved in the corner of his vision. Something— a foot— came down on his wrist, and Scott realized a moment before it hit that it was his bad wrist; the one that hurt so badly already that he was trying not to throw up.
Scott let out a scream, and the pitiful flip phone snapped as it hit the ground below him.
Notes:
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Chapter 52: Good News
Summary:
“You know, I think I get it a little more now.”
Clint cocked his head. “Get what?”
“You and those kids.” Tony chuckled, resting his head against the metal behind him. “I mean, I liked them, but I didn’t really get it. There’s something about looking at a stubborn, wild little kid and realizing that he looks up to you, for some reason."
“Yeah,” Clint’s voice was soft, quieter than he meant for it to be, and he had to swallow before continuing. “Yeah. There is something about it, isn’t there?”
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Nick Fury had completely overreacted.
The man had made it sound like he could be gone for weeks, but that was hardly the case. The mission had been easy, almost stupidly so. It certainly wasn’t something that required Avenger interference. It wasn’t exactly that Tony didn’t need his help, but he would have had it covered. Maybe.
Ok, so a gang had gotten their hands on the tech, and yes it was a little bit difficult to liberate. It had been especially difficult since Tony had gotten himself in a bit of a pickle that involved nearly breaking his arm for some reason that Clint still didn’t entirely understand. Clint hadn’t even known that Tennessee had gangs, let alone ones that would be bold enough to try and steal bits of Iron Man’s armor. The two of them had to take down the entire group in the process of retrieving Tony’s stolen goods… Tony probably would have been able to handle it if Fury had given him a bit more time, but it was admittedly faster and cleaner with the two of them.
Plus, Clint got to meet the Harley kid. He was cool. He threatened Clint with a potato gun; quite a respectable move.
But while it maybe hadn’t entirely been a waste of time, Clint was exceedingly thankful to be headed back to the tower. Nick Fury had really been exaggerating; it had hardly been a full day before they had taken care of the gang and gotten all of Tony’s missing tech accounted for. There was no chance of that group recreating any of the Stark tech that they had encountered, though Clint was fairly certain that their interference was not necessary for that. The group didn’t exactly seem like the type to successfully do… well, anything with technology if he was brutally honest. But they definitely wouldn’t be able to now that their entire organization had been dismantled.
Clint was just grateful that it had been easy. It gave him a sort of confidence. It was like a breath of relief knowing that it was entirely possible for him to go on a quick mission and then return to the kids. There was a part of him that had been terrified that this thing would take ages, that the days would turn into weeks and into months… but now that he was on the plane, already flying back in the direction of the tower, he felt better. It wouldn’t be long now until he was seeing the kids again, telling them “I told you so” and pointedly covering up the bruise on his left arm so that Warren didn’t punch him for getting himself a bit banged up. He could see Rogue’s unimpressed look already. Sean would rant for an hour and demand all of the details of the entire mission while Kitty and Kurt tried to drag him into some sort of game or another. Even Scott would probably try to lecture him.
The thought made a fond smile creep across his face, and Clint leaned back against the quinjet’s leather seat. It was a smile that he welcomed, and that alone surprised him. Just a few weeks ago, he would be trying to shake off the happiness that settled into his chest at the thought of the kids.Just a few weeks ago, he would never have imagined that he would be racing home from a mission and looking forward to a lecture from a fourteen-year-old kid.
When exactly had he gotten so attached?
He was startled out of his thoughts by the sound of a heavy, rattling sigh. He glanced up to see Tony striding in from the front of the jet, his short black hair ruffled and messy and the bags under his eyes looking about as heavy as the metal suit he had dragged onto the jet. His arm was now bandaged safely in a sling, and Clint couldn’t help but feel a twinge of guilt at just how flippant he had been about the mission. Ok, maybe Tony had needed his help a bit. There was no way that the billionaire would admit it, of course, but this was still his first mission back on his feet after the whole incident with Scott. Clint shouldn’t have been so reluctant to help… after all, it was sort of his fault that Tony wasn’t at his full capacity. But despite his uncharacteristically rough exterior, Tony was smiling as he flopped down with a dramatic groan.
“I need a cup of coffee.” He announced. “No, no, make that two cups. Maybe three.”
Clint snorted. “Three? I’m going to drink a whole pot. No cup required.”
Tony wrinkled his nose at him, and Clint laughed at the look of both disgust and respect that warred on Tony’s face. “I hate that you do that, Barton. I respect it, but I hate it.”
“Not all of us have the extra money to spend on Starbucks, Tony.”
“It doesn’t have to be Starbucks. It just needs to be a quality cup of coffee.”
Clint rolled his eyes. “You don’t think anything is quality unless it costs an arm and a leg.”
Tony hummed. “Your arm and your leg, maybe. I'm in a different class of limbs.”
“I’m going to ignore that statement and just say that is exactly what my point is.”
“You just contradicted yourself.” Tony pointed at him accusingly, but there was still a grin on his face. “You can’t acknowledge my statement with a counterargument after saying you would ignore it. That’s not how it works.”
Clint shook his head, but he was grinning too. “And I’m going to choose to ignore that too.”
Tony groaned, leaning his head back against the wall of the quinjet. The aircraft trembled under them ever so slightly, the muffled hum of wind whipping against metal all around them as they flew. “This is why I need coffee. This is what I work with on a daily basis. I blame you for my addiction.”
“Come on, we’ve all talked to Pepper. We all know that you had a problem long before any of us got here.”
This time Tony did not throw out a counterargument, just shrugged with a thoughtful look on his face. “You know, that’s fair—“
He was halfway through the shrug before he cut off, a small gasp escaping his lips and a flash of pain crossing his face. Clint sat up, ready to run across the jet to his friend if it looked bad… but thankfully Tony’s face had already relaxed into something that was merely annoyed as his left hand rubbed at his bandaged arm. The man cursed lightly under his breath, and Clint almost chuckled at the way he glared at his arm as if it had personally wronged him.
“You good?”
“Yeah, yeah,” Tony muttered under his breath, wincing once more before shaking his head fiercely. “It’s not even broken or anything, it’s literally just sore. Sore and stupid.”
“It’s not stupid Tony,” Clint said with a quick eye roll at the way Tony snorted. “Oh come on, it could have been a lot worse.”
“Yeah.” Tony’s easy, light attitude faded for a moment, briefly overshadowed by a look of seriousness. “Thanks Clint. Thanks for coming.”
Clint blinked, a bit taken aback by the man’s words. Tony wasn’t serious often, especially about something like gratitude. “Don’t mention it.”
Tony hesitated, a thoughtful expression on his face as he regarded Clint. He hesitated a bit before he spoke, which was instantly a red flag. Tony never hesitated before speaking. “You know, I think I get it a little more now.”
Clint cocked his head. “Get what?”
“You and those kids.” Tony chuckled, resting his head against the metal behind him. “I mean, I liked them, but I didn’t really get it.”
There was a crease in Clint’s brow as he frowned. “I still don’t really know what you’re getting at.”
“Well, I don’t really either.” Tony said with another chuckle. He made a vague gesture with his working hand, as if he was trying to write his words in the air. “But there’s something , you know? There’s something about looking at a stubborn, wild little kid and realizing that he looks up to you, for some reason. There’s something about realizing that he could use some help, and that you can help him.”
“Yeah,” Clint’s voice was soft, quieter than he meant for it to be, and he had to swallow before continuing. “Yeah. There is something about it, isn’t there?”
Tony nodded, and a comfortable silence fell between the two men. Clint found himself looking at his hands, breathing slowly as Tony’s words seemed to echo in his ears. There was something about it, wasn’t there? There really was something about watching a kid, something about seeing them grow, seeing them change. He couldn’t quite put it into words, but it was something. A whole tumble of emotions rose up in Clint’s chest with each passing moment, emotions that made him want to laugh and cry at the same time. They were emotions that he didn’t know how to process, but that he wanted to feel all the same.
“I don’t know how you’re handling six though.” Tony laughed, shaking his head with closed eyes. “And mutants too! Harley was bad enough, and he’s just a freakishly smart kid with a horrid family life.”
Clint smiled, the fond feeling in his chest warming all the more as he glanced back at Tony. “What, are you going to kidnap him?”
“Thought about it,” Tony said, his voice just serious enough that Clint had the feeling he actually had considered it. “But nah, I can’t take that sort of responsibility. I can’t be trusted with that.”
His voice started out flippant, the same joking tone that he usually had. But there was a shift in there somewhere, a quiet seriousness that wormed its way back into his tone and sat there, hanging heavily in the silence. His voice was just a bit too dull, a bit too strained, and it made Clint hesitate. He recognized that tone, that creeping doubt that clung to Tony’s words, recognized it so much that it felt like a punch in the gut. That undeserving tone, that feeling of inadequacy… he felt just like that when the kids first came to the tower.
Heck, he still felt like that.
“My…” The words started before he truly thought them through, and Clint almost choked on them as they started out of his mouth. But Tony was looking at him now, his gaze expectant and distantly bitter at something, and Clint decided to just throw caution to the wind and follow his instincts. “My dad was pretty bad at his job, you know?”
Tony’s gaze on him seemed to intensify, and there was a sense of understanding that filled the air. “Yeah. Mine too.”
Clint hummed lightly, trying not to choke on the emotional tension that had filled the air. He breathed deeply, the knot in his chest hardly loosening with the movement. These were thoughts that he had not vocalized to anyone yet; not entirely, at least. They were thoughts that he was trying his best to ignore entirely, not share with a teammate. He did not want to think about any of this. Yet, somehow, he felt like he had to say it. For his sake, for Tony’s sake… it was something that needed to be said. With that thought, he tried to force the words out. “I don’t know what to do. I don’t…”
“You don’t want to turn out like him.”
“Exactly.” The words burned in Clint’s throat. He did not want to be his dad. He wasn’t his dad. He would never raise a hand against the kids in his care, he could never imagine himself hurting them… and yet, even as he thought that he couldn’t, he could. He could imagine himself raising his hand in frustration, because what if he did? What if it was in his genes, in his DNA? He saw his father in himself in more ways than he ever wanted to admit, despite conscious effort to be nothing like the man… should he really be trusted with the care of children?
But Tony had the exact same look in his eyes, that exact same sense of burden that Clint carried with him most nights. Clint knew without a doubt that if Tony were to ask him that same question, his answer would be yes . Well, not exactly without a doubt; Tony did have some habits that were unhealthy for himself and for those around him. It would take work, it would take self improvement… but Clint had seen him interacting with that little firecracker of a kid as they gathered stashed materials from his garage, and he couldn’t help but smile at the thought. Tony had seemed different. He had seemed genuinely thoughtful, more gentle than Clint had ever seen him despite his attempts at flippancy. Even now, as he and Clint stared each other down across the quinjet, the concern in his gaze made Clint sure of it. Maybe not today, maybe not with Harley Keener, but someday.
“You could make a great father, Tony.”
Tony snorted at that, a quick and flippant thing. “Yeah. Let’s not go that far, Hawkdad.” Even as he said it, Clint could see the gratitude in his eyes, but he let Tony pull the conversation out of its serious tone and into a more teasing note.
“Hey, same goes for you,” Clint shot back jokingly. The knot in his chest was gone, and the smile on his face had deepened into something heartfelt and painfully genuine. “I’m not a hawk-dad. They’re not mine or anything, this is still just temporary.”
“You keep saying that, and yet they’re still in my tower,” Tony pointed out, smirking a little as he raised an eyebrow. “I’m going to have to start charging rent, Barton.”
“I’m working on it!” Clint protested, pulling out his phone as he did. “Look, she still hasn’t answered my email!”
“More like you haven’t checked your email, probably.”
“Not true.” It was totally true. It had been a solid week since Clint had glanced at his personal email… because he was so focused on work, obviously. Yeah. No matter the fact that he had only been assigned this mission a few days ago, that was totally the cause. Regardless, he loaded up his personal email now; half for the thought of it, half to prove to Tony that his latest email to Moira MacTaggart had still gone unanswered. “See, I…”
The words trailed off in his mouth, dying on his tongue as he squinted at the screen. Across the jet, Tony chuckled.
“Oh man, you actually have an email, don’t you?” Tony laughed again, but it died out as he realized that Clint was not joking back with him. “Clint?”
“Yeah. Yeah, it’s an email.” Clint’s voice felt far from his ears, as if he had taken his hearing aid out. But he hadn’t, the device was working perfectly fine… it was his brain that was having trouble processing. His thumb hovered over the small, blue bubble of a new message, his stomach churning at the name that followed it, the subject name of the email.
Good News!
The sinking feeling in his gut told him that the news was anything but good.
Clint tried to swallow, but his throat had gone painfully dry. He coughed anyway, trying to clear it a bit as he hesitantly clicked on the email. It could be anything, he assured himself as it loaded. It could be any sort of update. It didn’t mean anything, not yet. He hadn’t heard from Moira in months … it was a good thing that he was getting an update from her, wasn’t it?
He tried to remind himself of that fact as he read the opening lines.
To: Clint Barton
From: Moira MacTaggert
Subject: Good News!
Hello Mr. Barton. I have good news! I have managed to find homes for all six of the—
Clint didn’t even finish reading the sentence. He stopped in the middle of it, his breathing heavy in his chest as he stared at the words. They seemed to register slowly, burning their way into his brain as he kept looking at his phone screen. Homes. All six. Good news.
Why did he feel so terrible?
His eyes scanned over the rest of the email, hardly registering the words that were on the screen as his eyes moved. Sorry they aren’t all together… I did the best I could… good homes… good people … the phrases hardly meant a thing to him. His brain was completely latched onto that first sentence: I have managed to find homes for all six of the children. They can be safely settled within the next few weeks.
The next few weeks.
“Clint?” Tony’s voice had lost all humor, and any trace of a laugh was gone. “Earth to the bird. Is everything good?”
“Yeah…” The word was distant, detached, and Clint hardly registered that it had come from his own mouth. He cleared his throat again, trying to ground himself in reality as he stared at the email on his screen. “Yeah… it’s… it's good news.”
“Is it?” Tony didn’t sound convinced. Clint didn’t feel convinced.
“Yeah, it is,” he said anyway. He laughed, but it wasn’t because there was anything remotely funny. It was purely a laugh of shock, an attempt to find something steady as the world seemed to shift under him. “She found something.”
There was a brief moment of hesitation from Tony. “Who?”
“Moira MacTaggart. She’s the social worker. I hired her.” Clint ran a hand through his sandy hair, which was still streaked with dirt and sweat from the mission. He hardly felt it. “She found homes. Foster homes, but… she found places for all of them.”
There was a moment of tense silence. Tony blinked, the words settling in slowly. “…Oh. She did?”
“Yeah.”
“All six?”
“Yeah.”
“That’s… that’s great.”
“Yeah. It is.”
There was no enthusiasm in either of their voices.
Clint didn’t bother replying to the email. For some reason, he simply couldn’t at the moment. He couldn’t even read it right now. His hands were shaking, and his left hand became tangled in his hair as he clenched his fist, his head dropping and phone hanging by his side. What was this timing? Just when everything was going right? Just when he was starting to think he could do this, that he could help these kids? Just when they were making progress? Was this some sort of sign? He and Tony had just been talking about the legacies of their fathers, about not wanting to follow in their footsteps… could this be the universe telling him to stop before that could happen?
He tried to breathe, and realized that it was far harder than it should be.
He should be happy. He should be so happy to see that email, to see that good homes had been found for the kids. These were homes that, while they may not be forever, were more permanent than the one he was offering. Was what he was offering even something that could be called a home? This was temporary. He knew it was temporary. It was always supposed to be temporary.
He should be happy . He should at least be able to recognize this as a good thing. Because it was a good thing, wasn’t it? The people that Moira Magtaggart had found would be much more equipped for this than he was. They would know how to handle the kids, how best to help them and… he didn’t. Right?
Clint wasn’t sure what was right. He just knew that the thought of the kids leaving suddenly flooded him with regret, with sadness, with a protective desire that honestly surprised him. There was a note of bitterness too, a bitterness that surged up in his chest and made his grip on his hair tighten. Why? Why was he so hesitant? This was what was best for the kids. That was what he wanted, wasn’t it? It should be what he wanted. This was the whole point, the whole time that the kids were at the tower. It was all temporary , a place for them to stay until something more permanent came along.
Here was something more permanent. Here was something good. Why couldn’t he even properly read the message?
His phone buzzed in his hand, and Clint’s fingers dug even deeper into his hair. At this rate he was going to be ripping his hair out, but Clint couldn’t quite bring himself to care. He couldn’t bring himself to look at his phone, terrified that it was going to be Moira MacTaggart calling him directly to tell him the good news.
Couldn’t he ignore it? Couldn’t he pretend he hadn’t seen the message for just a little longer?
The phone continued to buzz. It seemed like a cruel way to remind him of reality.
Clint’s hand slipped from his hair, instead rubbing across his eyes as he slowly glanced at the phone’s screen. Now that he was looking down at it, Clint could see that his hands were trembling just slightly, and the blue glow of the screen was wavering in front of his eyes as he managed to read the caller.
He didn’t recognize the number, but it wasn’t Moira MacTaggart’s.
The phone buzzed again in his shaking hand.
Once.
Twice.
Clint accepted the call, and hesitantly lifted it to his ear.
“Hello?”
“ Clint? ” The voice on the other end of the call was something small, something so utterly broken and cracked that it should have taken Clint a moment to place it. Instead Clint recognized the voice instantly, and he sat up straighter in his seat.
“Scott?” Clint could feel his heart thrumming in his throat, and the surprise that he felt at hearing his voice was almost instantly replaced with a rising, suffocating fear as he took in the brokenness of the boy’s tone, the harsh breathing that was coming from the other line, the sound of crashing and shouting in the background, the fact that Scott just called him on the burner phone that he only left for emergencies, Scott Summers called him on the emergency phone— “ Scott, are you ok? What—“
“ Clint .” Scott’s voice was rough, the same texture as shattered glass. Even over the phone, Clint could hear the pain that was seeping from his tone. Pain and the exhaustion dripped from every word, and Scott’s voice was shaking so much that even the single word that he had offered seemed like it was going to shatter. The boy sounded every bit the child that he was, and it terrified Clint. “ We… we need help .”
Clint opened his mouth, panic pulsing through his veins as he started to ask what Scott needed, where was he, if he was hurt— but before he could even get a word out there was a sudden scream from the other end of the phone. The sound was sharp and pain filled and horrible and, just like that, the call cut off. Clint was left listening to a dull, dead ringing in his ear and the pound of his heart in his chest.
“Scott?” Clint asked, desperation creeping into his tone as his grip on his phone tightened. “Scott? Scott? ”
“What is it?” Tony’s voice cut through his thoughts, but Clint was having a hard enough time breathing , let alone answering his friend. How long had they been on the quinjet? How close were they to New York? Where was Scott? How many of the others were with him?
That scream —
“Clint!” Clint’s head snapped up, his breaths ragged in his chest as he caught Tony’s eyes from across the quinjet. The other Avenger’s eyes were wide, worried, and Clint could tell that the man could feel a bit of the fear that he was feeling. And he hadn’t even heard the phone call, the crashing and the screams…
Clint stood up, shoving every bit of panic that he was feeling to the side as he did. Determination sparked in his chest, determination and protectiveness and a hundred other things that set a burning fire in his heart. Tony stood with him, waiting expectantly.
“How far are we from the city?” Clint gasped, his words short and clipped.
“About half an hour,” Tony said, and his voice was firm and steady. There were no jokes now. They could both tell that it was not the time for it.
Clint cursed, panic already returning. He choked it back as quickly as possible, but that didn’t change the fact that it wasn’t fast enough . They didn’t even know where the kids were, they had to get back now .
“I could get us there in ten.” Clint’s head snapped up again, his eyes once again locking with Tony’s. The man was dead serious, his eyes burning with a determination that nearly matched Clint’s own. “Is it that serious?”
Clint didn’t even have to think before he was nodding. “Yes. Yes, it is.”
“Give me your phone.”
Clint didn’t hesitate. He handed his phone over, and Tony took it quickly, his fingers moving before Clint could even see that he had connected anything to the phone. “I’m tracking your call history right now. Go get the suits.”
“Will they work?” Clint asked, remembering the cracks and tears in the half-salvaged suit that he and Tony had liberated from the gang just hours before. The thing didn’t look flyable. Even Tony’s newer suit looked like it had a few bangs from the fight.
“Well enough,” was Tony’s only answer, and that was good enough for Clint. In fact, even if he had said no, Clint wasn’t sure that it would have stopped him.
In fact, he was fairly sure that nothing was going to stop him.
Notes:
Would I leave y'all off on almost the same cliffhanger just from different perspectives two chapters in a row? Whaaaat? Now why would I do that?
Thank you for the comments especially as we're nearing the end it really means so much! :)
Chapter 53: Just a Kid
Summary:
“I thought you were older, if I’m honest.” Scott’s eyes remained shut, his teeth grinding against each other as he tried to keep himself from crying out. Every shift in his body, every little jostle of his bones… it hurt, it hurt so much… “But you really are just a bunch of kids.”
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Scott was the leader. Scott was the strong one. Scott was the one that decided they had to be here for this fight. Scott was the one that carried on Charles Xavier’s mission. Scott…
Scott was tired.
Scott was tired and in pain and wanted to go home .
What exactly did that mean? How could he go home ? Where was home? Was it the Avenger’s Tower? Was it the Xavier Institute? Was it the home that he had lived in with his parents before they were taken away from him? Did it even matter, in reality?
No. In reality, it didn’t matter at all. It didn’t matter because “home” was not a place, was it? A home is the people around you, the people you love and cherish. A home is the people that you hold closest, because you know that they will hold you close. A home is the people you protect.
Scott was supposed to protect his siblings. He was supposed to be the one they could depend on, the adult, because he had to be . No one else would take care of them. They had to take care of themselves. They had to help others at the cost of themselves, because what did it matter that no one would help them; it wouldn’t help anyone if they just returned the favor. They had to help others, because otherwise what was the point?
But what is the point of helping others if it costs you everything, with absolutely nothing in return? What is the point of helping some stranger if it costs a brother, a sister, a life?
Scott was supposed to protect his family. He was supposed to protect mutantkind. He was supposed to set an example, to be a hero.
But he was a fourteen year old mutant kid , and he couldn’t do it. He couldn’t do it.
He was so tired.
The boot on his arm was heavy, and the pain that pulsated from it was enough to bring Scott to tears. Or, maybe that was the thoughts swirling erratically through his head. Maybe the water trapped behind his visor was simply a result of the lifetime of doubt crashing over his head. Maybe it was the recognition that he couldn’t do anything. Maybe it was the bitter acceptance that he was just a kid.
Don’t cry, soldiers don’t cry, leaders don’t cry … the voices echoed in his head, and yet the tears pooled anyway, hot and wet and trapped against his cheeks by the visor over his face. There was no blinking them away because there was nowhere for them to go. If there was space for his tears to escape, there would be space for his deadly mutant abilities to escape. Somehow, selfishly, he wished that there was. Just once, he wished that he could truly unleash his emotions, even if it was only the pain that burned through his crushed wrist. It hurt.
The man towering above him looked… disappointed. He looked intrigued, thoughtful, and disappointed.
“I knew the Sentinel was strong,” he murmured slowly, and Scott couldn’t quite tell if the man was talking to himself or to Scott. “But I expected more from Cyclops.”
Scott shut his eyes, the burning that hummed beneath his sore eyelids distracting him momentarily from the immense pain that rippled through the rest of his body with every move, every breath. Everything hurt, everything felt horrid and suffocating and painful . The noise of the man’s words grated against his ears, the sounds of the battle behind him stabbing at the headache that had formed at the base of his skull. His arm, the one that was trapped under the man’s heel, was bending in a direction that was definitely not natural, and even the thought of it flooded his gut with the need to hurl or cry or do anything to lessen the sickening pain. But instead all he could do was grit his teeth and choke back a groan as the heel dug deeper into his arm.
“Those blasts though… those are not a disappointment.” Worthington was still speaking above him, his tone thoughtful and calculating in a way that made another wave of sickness crash through Scott. “Wings were interesting, but those are something else entirely. Those are powerful.”
Scott thought about spitting some of the bile in his mouth at the man’s feet, but he wasn’t sure he had the strength. There was blood in his mouth too, sharp and coppery where it sat on his tongue and leaked from one of the hundreds of scrapes that seemed to litter his body.
He couldn’t keep lying there, his vision going from red to black to red again as he sluggishly fought to stay conscious. But it was hard, so hard to even stay awake with the pain coursing through him and the thick exhaustion that drug at his limbs. He needed to move. He needed to fight. He needed to help his siblings.
But he couldn’t , no matter how much he tried to move, he couldn't . He was too hurt, and the man’s foot on his broken arm did not help. No matter what he tried he couldn’t move, and every attempt only added to the growing pool behind the thick ruby-quartz of his visor.
Apparently his weak movements were humorous, because he could hear Worthington chuckling.
“This is what the media is scared of nowadays. This is what we moved our whole facility for.” He sighed, and suddenly the weight on Scott’s arm was gone. He almost let out a sob of relief, but before he could there was a hand grabbing his face and yanking him up, the pain suddenly tripling. Scott grit his teeth, squeezing his eyes shut and clawing at the hand that grasped his chin, desperately forcing himself to swallow another scream as he was forced to tilt his head up toward Worthington.
“I thought you were older, if I’m honest.” Scott’s eyes remained shut, his teeth grinding against each other as he tried to keep himself from crying out. Every shift in his body, every little jostle of his bones… it hurt , it hurt so much… “But you really are just a bunch of kids.”
Yes he wanted to scream even as a part of him reared up to say no! He was not a kid. A kid wouldn’t be here in the middle of a battlefield. A kid wouldn’t be able to swallow the screams that were itching at the back of Scott’s throat. A kid wouldn’t be able to do anything that his siblings were capable of. They had seen too much, been through too much, had too much forced upon them to be kids any more. They couldn’t be kids.
And yet, he was a kid. Whether he felt like it or not, Scott Summers was a kid, and he was a kid that was hurt and tired and who wanted to go home.
Maybe Worthington could read his pathetic thoughts. Maybe he could just see the defeat on Scott’s pain-ridden face. Either way he laughed, a cold chuckle that felt like ice water against Scott’s skin, the sound mingling with the distant crash and crumble of the fight behind them. “Don’t worry, Cyclops. It’s almost over.”
Now that was what finally pulled another sob from Scott’s mouth. He could hear the sounds of the fight behind him, could hear the sounds of his siblings getting hurt, but he couldn’t do anything . He couldn’t do anything. He was helpless, defenseless, and alone .
He was Scott Summers. He was Cyclops. He was the leader of the X-Men. He was supposed to be the strong one. He was forced to take up that burden since Professor Xavier first told him his plans, long before Sean was even brought into their care. Scott was forced to be the adult as his siblings joined the team and grew. He had to take up this role that was designed for him, because if he couldn’t protect his siblings… well, then who would?
No one. And yet, still, he had failed.
Worthington’s hand dropped away, and Scott fell back to his knees. The jolt that traveled through his broken body was almost enough to make him black out. Somehow, he didn’t. Instead he just crumpled, useless and broken and painfully aware of everything . He was aware of the pain in his body, aware of the Sentinel’s footsteps shuddering through the building, aware of Worthington taking a step backwards, aware of the sound of shattering glass overhead, aware of the shouts of his siblings… whoever was still standing, that is. That thought alone was more painful than the agony coursing through his body, and he wished that something would just end it already. He was beaten, wasn’t he? Couldn’t he pass out now? Couldn’t he just give into the darkness? Couldn’t he just let go ?
No. No, he couldn’t. He had to stay awake. He had to stay alert, to hear the horror of his choices if nothing else. He knew that he needed to do more than that. He needed to get to his feet, to help his siblings, to do anything other than listen to the blasting in the distance, to the hum of energy in the air...
Energy?
Wait. No, that couldn’t be right. The robot didn’t have energy blasts, did it? He hoped not, he desperately hoped not, though a quick blast may be better than the horrible, crushing pain he was feeling. He hoped, he desperately hoped that none of his siblings were hit as hard as he was. He didn’t want any of them to suffer through this agony and aching. An energy blast would be better, he thought.
But those energy blasts weren’t coming from the Sentinel.
No, those were something else entirely. Scott had turned just enough that he could see the fight, and he could see the Sentinel staggering— staggering , it was actually staggering— under the fire of the bright blasts. The blasts were coming from a man, a man that was flying in from overhead, a man in a familiar red and gold suit that glinted with the debris of broken glass from the skylight, a man who Scott had once seen without the red filter of his visor…
No. There was no way.
Scott had to be seeing things. His visor was thick, so much thicker than the glasses that he was becoming accustomed to. There were still half-shed tears clinging to the metal and quartz, drowning his eyes and blurring his vision. He wasn’t thinking straight, there was no way he could be.
But suddenly there was someone running toward him, someone who was in the midst of firing three arrows simultaneously into the back of the staggering robot even as he ran backwards. He was a man dressed in black and purple vinyl, a man who’s sandy blonde hair and sharp voice as he shouted over his shoulder were too familiar, far too familiar. There was a man running toward him who’s mere presence was making Scott tear up all over again.
Soldiers don’t cry .
There was no way he was here. He was supposed to be states away. He was supposed to be out of reach, completely and utterly out of reach.
Leaders don’t cry .
There were tears in Scott’s eyes, and he had already long accepted the fact that he was not a leader at the moment. He was not a leader, not a solider, not the spearhead of Professor Xavier’s dream or the X-Men’s brute force. At the moment, he wasn’t even sure if he was a brother.
He was a kid. He was a kid, and he needed some help.
Clint Barton didn’t even bother to say anything. He didn’t spare the man hovering somewhere behind Scott a single glance, and he hardly even slowed down out of his sprint before he was falling to his knees, his bow slung across his back and his hands reaching out toward Scott.
Scott knew he should pull away. Scott knew he should at least hesitate.
There was not a single part of him that hesitated. Clint Barton reached a hand out to him, and Scott latched on like it was a lifeline.
“Scott, Scott, Scott…” Clint’s voice was a frantic, hushed murmuring, and Scott didn't even bother protesting the use of his real name. What did it matter? The mission had fallen apart. The mission had fallen apart because he couldn’t lead, because he had decided to drag their siblings to a death match. He didn’t deserve a hero name, he didn’t deserve a leader’s title. He didn’t deserve the name Cyclops, the burdens and duties that came with it. He couldn’t bear to think of those failed duties. Instead he clung to Clint Barton and he clung to the lifeline that the warm hand provided. Distantly he felt guilty, distantly he felt pathetic, distantly he felt like a failure. He was all those things, he was sure of it. But in this moment, he couldn’t bring himself to care about anything other than the warmth of Clint Barton’s hand clasped around his own. He just couldn’t care.
“Scott… what happened? Are you… are you ok?” Clint’s voice was jumbled, nearly incoherent to Scott’s ears in his half-conscious state. The only thing he could really register was how comforting that voice sounded, how familiar it was.
Clint came.
Somehow, some way, Clint came.
Another sob rose up in Scott’s chest, and this one held an entirely new pain. His grip on Clint’s hand had to be so tight, it had to be painful at this point. Yet, still, Clint made no move to pull away. In fact, he moved closer , and before Scott even knew what was happening there was another hand on his back, gently pulling him closer to the man in front of him. Scott collapsed into the movement, and before he knew it he was wrapped in an embrace.
“I’m… I’m sorry, Clint.” Scott’s voice was trembling so heavily that he was shocked he could make words at all. But once one word slipped out, the rest began to crash through like a tidal wave. “I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry . I messed up, I-I failed, I know, I messed up, I’m so sorry, this is my fault, I just… I can’t, I can’t—“
“Slow down, Scott.” The words weren’t harsh, weren't even commanding, but they made Scott shut his mouth all the same. His back shuddered against the hand that rested against it, pain ripping through his body with the shuddery inhales that he choked into his lungs. The pain was horrible, tearing him apart with each wave of agony, but now he had someone to lean on. Somehow, it made all the difference. “Slow down. Breathe.”
Scott did breathe, though he didn’t deserve to. He didn’t deserve this, he didn’t deserve any of this. He didn’t deserve to be crouched here in the middle of a battlefield, sobbing into another man’s arms because of a little pain. He didn’t deserve for Clint to come. He didn’t deserve this, he didn’t deserve this, he didn’t deserve this —
“ Breathe .”
Scott inhaled sharp, bitter, painful, his lungs shuddering and his shoulders shaking and everything within him screaming that he was a failure, a mess, nothing like the leader that he was supposed to be.
But he didn’t care. Right here, right now, he didn’t care.
It was selfish. It was self centered. It was the last thing that a leader should be doing. But he just wanted to sit here, hurt and tired and safe . Clint Barton was here, and that meant they were safe. They were all safe. Even though he did not deserve it. Even though he was not supposed to have it. It was here , it was here in the heartbeat in the chest that his head was pressed against, and it was here in the hand on his back.
“Everyone’s ok, Scott.” The voice was quiet, still a jumbled murmur, close to his ear and so sickeningly comforting at Scott almost let out another sob right there. “You’re going to be ok. I’ve got you.”
Scott believed him. Scott trusted him.
A quiet, relieved, choked sob broke through Scott’s lips, his chest heaving in its wake. Scott’s head rested against Clint’s chest, his fingers still wrapped tightly around the man’s hand. His knuckles were white, his grip as tight as his grip on consciousness.
“I've got you.”
Scott breathed out heavily, and then he let go.
Notes:
SCOTT GETS A HUG?? AFTER 53 CHAPTERS?? Is this how y'all were picturing it??? :D
Chapter 54: Yes, They Are
Summary:
“You’re an Avenger, aren’t you?” The man waved a hand to the scene behind Clint as a creaking groan of metal echoed through the laboratory. “Look at the damage here! This needs to be stopped. These creatures have been antagonizing my company for months. These are terrorists—”
“These are children.”
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
The Hope Industries complex was a mess.
In fact, that was a generous description. Clint could feel the wind on his back, harsh winter gusts that were making their way in through the shattered skylight that he and Tony had come in through and through the huge hole in the wall that looked like it had come from Scott’s eye blasts. Clint was crouched next to one of many blackened trenches in the rubble that all seemed to have come from the same source. There was an almost continuous rain of debris from the ceiling, and occasionally tiles would crash down and add more dents to the already ravaged flooring. The stations along the walls were hardly distinguishable from each other now, any equipment along them shattered and smashed by something or other. That stuff was probably expensive. It would probably cost the company millions of dollars to rebuild everything in this room.
Clint could care less. The whole place could burn. The whole place should burn.
His hands trembled as he held Scott close, trying not to let the boy’s state cloud his vision. But how could he not? The blood streaking across the broken floor, the rips and tears in his once blue, now dusty gray uniform, the way his arm was twisted sickeningly behind him, the way that his breaths were too fragile…
Clint was going to hurt someone.
Clint was going to kill someone.
And chances were that it was going to be the man that had been standing over Scott just moments before.
The man was still hovering by the giant hole in the wall, his once sharp suit dirtied with gray dust and bits of rubble. There was a hallway behind him, a good escape point, but the businessman was hesitating, fumbling with something on his wrist. Clint knew this man, recognized him easily from hours of research and memorization. Clint was a SHIELD agent, trained to profile people from just a look, and it was easy for him to recall everything he had on this man.
Warren Worthington II. Head of Worthington Industries, close business partner of Hope Industries. Multiple PHDs, mostly in business. His company had made strides in the fields of biotechnology and pharmaceuticals, particularly those focused on mutant research. He had been considered for a Nobel peace prize for his advancements in the field. This was the man that had been coyly guiding Tony into a partnership for several months now.
This was the man whose voice had been enough to send Warren into a panic attack at just the thought of them being in the same room together.
Clint’s fists were clenched, his fingers digging into the back of Scott’s torn X-Man uniform. The boy in his arms had slumped into unconsciousness, his breathing ragged and soft. The sound of the fight roared around them, echoing in Clint’s deaf ears. Everything felt more muffled than usual, even with the help of his hearing aids. It was as though everything had been dulled down to the figure in his arms and the figure in front of him; the man responsible for all of this. The man controlling the robot that had been beating these kids to a pulp without mercy. The man who had caused Warren to have a panic attack. The man who had driven Scott Summers to call for help.
Clint was going to kill this man.
Worthington was cursing under his breath, still tapping frantically at the thing around his wrist. If Clint had to guess, it was probably the thing controlling the giant killer robot that Tony was currently fighting somewhere behind him, the robot that had already rendered at least two of the other X-Kids unconscious on the ground. He could feel the rumble of its footsteps in the broken floor beneath him, and he watched as Scott’s unconscious face twisted minutely at the feeling. There was pain suppressed just beneath the surface of his expression, and Clint could feel the way that it made him seethe.
He had no idea when he moved, but suddenly his bow was in his hand, an arrow drawn back and pointed straight at the man’s chest. “Stop it,” he barked out, his voice sharp and so heavy with venom and loathing that it almost surprised Clint. “Shut it down now .”
Worthington startled, his head whipping up to look at Clint. There was a flash through his expression, a flash of fear that didn’t quite fade away as he tried to cover it up with a mask of indifference.
“These terrorists attacked my facility,” the man said defiantly. He matched Clint’s gaze as they stared each other down, a note of pleading slipping into his voice that did not match his expression. “I’m just defending myself and my company!”
“Shut. It. Down,” Clint growled.
“You’re an Avenger, aren’t you?” The man waved a hand to the scene behind Clint as a creaking groan of metal echoed through the laboratory. “Look at the damage here! This needs to be stopped. These creatures have been antagonizing my company for months. These are terrorists—”
“These are children ,” Clint spat viciously. He could see Worthington recoil slightly at the venom in his tone, and a small spark of satisfaction burned in his gut. His bow was gripped tight in his hand, and he stood, careful not to jostle Scott too much as he let the unconscious boy rest against the cold floor. It felt so wrong to pull away, but he had to. He had to put a stop to this before anyone else got hurt.
The man in front of him blinked, shaking his head as if he didn’t believe Clint’s words. But Clint could see the glint in his eyes, the harshness there that said Worthington knew exactly who he was fighting. Clint’s fingers tightened on his bowstring as the man spoke again. “They are still breaking the law. They are still here trying to destroy what I’ve built.”
“I don’t care.” And there it was, the honest truth, the bitter fact that nearly made Clint laugh. He could care less what was happening at the moment, the fact that the X-men had caused damage and attacked this lab. He could care less what the reason was, what was going on… the hurt kid unconscious at his feet was the only thing that he cared about at the moment. “Shut the thing off. Now .”
A bit of Worthington’s mask broke, his eyes darting between Clint, the drawn bow in his hands, and the fight behind him. From the sound of it, there wasn’t much fight left; that robot, as impressive as it was, really had no chance against Tony’s repulsive blasts. Still, Clint kept his arrow steady, trained on the man in front of him.
“What do you care?” Worthington spat, his nonchalant air finally cracking as he seemed to realize that the Avengers were not about to help him. “These kids are terrorists! You should be taking them down, not me!”
“Too bad,” Clint stepped forward, his movement causing Worthington to falter a bit. “You shouldn’t be hurting kids .”
There was so much venom in that word that Worthington flat-out flinched. The look was gone in an instant though, quickly replaced by sharp eyes and bitter defiance. “So? They’re not yours.”
“Yes,” Clint bit back, his voice hard and fierce and so full of truth that he surprised himself. “Yes, they are.”
He let go of the arrow before the man could say another word.
There was a shout, a scream… then silence. Two more arrows slipped through Clint’s fingers, rage still simmering under his skin as Worthington clawed at the arrow sticking from his suit, pinning him to the crumbling wall just behind him. The clawing stopped as the second arrow skewered the cuff of his suit, the third pinning his other arm. He was rendered nearly immobile in seconds, his jaw slack as he stared at the Avenger in front of him. It was hardly enough, not if everything Clint thought he knew about the man was true. His anger was still simmering and seething beneath his skin, but he held himself back. He couldn’t exactly murder a businessman on the spot… this would have to do.
Clint stepped forward, rumble and plaster crunching under his tactical boots as he moved. Worthington twisted, trying to pull himself free, but it was a useless motion. There was nothing that he could do as Clint approached. Soon Clint’s hand closed around his wrist, ripping the watch off of his arm without any sort of preface. He held it for a moment, breathing heavily as the businessman glared at him.
“You are choosing the wrong side,” he said, his voice steely and cold as he tried to stare Clint down. “I thought you were supposed to be the one with the good eyesight. Can’t you see I am the victim here?”
“Well, I’m also the deaf one,” Clint deadpanned. “So I can’t hear you.”
A bit of Worthington’s facade faltered. But he still managed to keep a bit of his composure as he watched Clint. “Well hear this; these children would be better off here, where someone can help them.”
“They don’t want to be helped,” Clint pointed out, his voice sharp and vicious. “Not by you. Not your way.”
“It doesn’t matter if it’s what they want.” Worthington snapped. “It’s what’s best for them. It’s what’s best for everyone around them.”
Clint could feel his jaw tightening as his teeth grit together. “You don’t have the right to make that choice.”
“One of them is mine,” the man spat the words out, his lips curling as if they left a bad taste in his mouth. “One of them is legally, biologically mine. I have the right to take him, if nothing else.”
Clint was practically growling as he stared the man down. “Not any more. You forfeited that right a long time ago.”
He dropped the device that was in his hand, letting it clatter to the floor briefly before crushing it with one swift stomp. Worthington stared down at the misshapen bit of metal, his chest heaving underneath his suit as he breathed heavily. Clint could see him struggling for some bit of composure as he stood there, pinned to the wall and utterly trapped in his own actions. There was no way out; not with the Avengers against him. He seemed to be realizing that.
“I… I have lawyers. They’ll come after you, after you all…”
“Well, we have lawyers too,” Clint shot back. “I hear child endangerment is a bad wrap. Child abuse and human experimentation is even worse.”
Worthington’s jaw hung open, then slowly closed. Clint gave him one last glare before turning around, pointedly moving his attention away from the man and back to the battlefield.
It wasn’t much of a battlefield anymore. Apparently, crushing the controls had done the trick because as Clint turned there was a massive, foundation-shaking crash that echoed through the wreaked facility. The robot was finally down, its metal corpse lying motionless against the crack-riddled tile, finally and wonderfully still. Just over it hovered Warren, his chest heaving under his blue and yellow suit as his wings beat the air. Tony was on the ground, his left hand still raised and ready to shoot a repulsor blast if the robot dared to move, his red and gold armor streaked with dust as it rained from the cracked ceiling above. Just behind him there was a small bit of movement, and Clint caught sight of Kitty and Kurt stumbling to the sidelines, the two of them each struggling to hold the other up as they watched the robot warily. A bit closer to Clint, a few yards away from the robot’s corpse, Rogue was crouched next to Sean, gently helping the little boy sit up as he rubbed groggily at his head. A breath of relief filled Clint’s lungs as his eyes darted back and forth, slowly taking account of everyone, checking that everyone was there.
Everyone was accounted for. Everyone was safe.
It was far easier to breathe now.
Clint looked down, his heart once again jumping to his throat as his eyes landed on Scott. He was still knocked out, but he was still breathing. Everyone was breathing.
Clint found himself kneeling down, his usually steady hands shaking as he gingerly wrapped his arms around Scott’s broken form. The boy’s face twisted into a wince, a sharp breath leaving his mouth as Clint started to lift him. The little gasp made Clint freeze, his heart pounding in his chest. Crap , he had no idea just how injured Scott was, he had no idea how hard he had been hit… should he be moving him? He needed medical attention, he needed help, moving him could make it worse, it could make it so much worse…
Clint moved back ever so slightly, pulling away subconsciously as he debated if he should move the boy. But before he could fully decide there was a slight pressure on his wrist. He looked down and blinked as he saw the small, soot-streaked hand grasping at his own. It was a weak movement, but it was there all the same, and the desperation of it showed in the pain that flickered across Scott’s face as he fought to hold on.
“…please…” Scott’s voice was quiet, so faint that Clint almost thought he was imagining it. But no, Scott’s lips were moving, his brow furrowing in pain and desperation. “…please. Stay… once, just once… Please …”
The words trembled, wobbled, and were hardly more than a breath. Scott probably wasn’t even fully conscious, with the way his grip was clumsy and weak, the way his head lolled back against Clint’s arm. But the desperation, the panic in his voice was clear. That was real, that was raw, that was fragile and vulnerable.
Clint didn’t hesitate any longer. He pulled Scott close, as gently and carefully as he could, and stood up with the boy cradled in his arms. He could feel soft, ragged breaths against his neck, and each one filled him with a strange feeling. It was panic, but it was also relief; he was breathing, yes, but it was so shallow and so rough that each one made Clint’s heart jump in his chest. He was suddenly overwhelmed with the fear that each breath could be the last one that he felt, and every wave of fear was accompanied by a wave of relief as the next breath came.
Clint wanted to protect him. He wanted to protect the child in his arms, the five others that were scattered throughout the shelled-out room. Even from the distance that he was at, he could see the fear and exhaustion on their faces. A few of them were limping. A few of them were unconscious. All of them were hurt in some capacity, and it made Clint’s chest ache with a fierce protectiveness that he had never felt before. He wanted to pull them all close at once and never, ever let them go again.
No one was going to hurt these kids again. Not on his watch.
No one was going to hurt his kids.
He caught Tony’s eye as the man’s faceplate raised, his eyes flicking down to the boy cradled in Clint’s arms. Tony’s movements faltered, his expression shifting from one of cocky triumph to a sudden shock that made his eyes widen, his jaw going slack as he stared at the unconscious boy. Something like fear and panic flickered through his gaze as he looked up at Clint.
“Wait, is that—?”
“Tony,” Clint interrupted. “You have lawyers, right?”
Tony blinked. “Well, yeah , I run a multibillion dollar company, of course I have lawyers.”
“Are you willing to sic them on a possible business partner?”
A grim smirk crawled onto Tony’s face. “After tonight? I think they’ve got plenty of evidence to go off of.”
“Evidence against your pet mutants!” Clint felt his back go ridgid, and he slowly turned to look in the direction of the shout. All semblance of calm and nonchalance had completely left Worthington’s face. The man was fuming, his words dripping with spite and disbelief as he stared down the Avengers. “I can’t believe this. Those things attacked this place, destroyed thousands of dollars worth of equipment, years worth of work… you can’t just take their side!”
“We can, and we are,” Tony shot back. Worthington seemed to pale slightly as the billionaire stepped forward, his head tilted slightly as he seemed to consider the man where he stood, pinned to the wall by Clint’s arrows. Tony hummed, an unimpressed look on his face. “Warren Worthington, right? You were asking for a partnership grant, weren’t you?”
Worthington opened his mouth, but Tony didn’t even let him reply.
“Yeah, I don’t think it’s going to work out. Stark Industries is going in a bit of a different direction than your company, a direction that doesn’t encourage human experimentation and the suppression of natural human abilities. Sorry, nothing personal, just business.”
“Natural human ability—“ Worthington coughed, disbelief clinging to his words as he shook his head. “I am trying to help these people, trying to correct the flaw in their genetic code, trying to—“
“Alright.” Tony raised his gauntlet covered arm, cocking his head in the other direction. “This, on the other hand… this one is personal.”
Worthington opened his mouth, his eyes wide as an argument started in his throat, but the words never left his mouth. He was cut off by a sharp hum, a blast of blue light filling the wreaked lab. The hum echoed briefly as the man slumped like a ragdoll, only held up by the arrows in his suit. Tony’s gauntlet smoked slightly as his arm dropped back to his side, and there was a hard expression on his face.
Clint blinked at Tony. The man just gave him a side-eye and smirked grimly. “Don’t worry. It’s a concussion blast. He’ll be fine once the police get here.”
Clint blinked again. “The police?”
“Yeah. I went ahead and made a few calls. Which, speaking of, we should get going. Bruce is ready and waiting back at the Tower, and I think he might strangle one or both of us if we wait any longer in getting these kids back there. He’s freaking out that he let them slip by him, and I really don’t want to have to fix a Hulk-sized hole in the place.” Tony’s faceplate shut briefly, his eye slots glowing before it moved back so he could look at Clint once again. “Natasha will be here any minute, Steve’s on his way to the tower, and Pepper is already calling up our lawyers. They are going to have a field day with this… you know, I never liked Hope Industries, there was always something fishy about them…”
“Wait.” Clint shook his head. “Steve? Wasn’t he on a mission?”
Tony shrugged, wincing at the way his injured arm shifted under his armor before shooting Clint a smile. “Well I was just planning to call Nat, but apparently he caught the transmission.”
“But his mission…?”
“I think his exact words were “we have responsibilities”.” Tony shrugged again, and the wince that crossed his face was a bit sharper this time. “I need to stop doing that… anyway, the second he heard, he turned around and came this way. He’ll meet us at the tower.”
Clint opened his mouth, then shut it slowly. It was already so much that Tony was here, helping him. But Natasha was on her way, Bruce was waiting back at the tower, Steve was on his way…
“Hey. These kids are something special, Clint.” Tony cocked his head, his grin deepening a bit as he nodded to Scott’s form in Clint’s arms. “You’ve… you’ve really done something here. We all thought it was something crazy, and maybe it is… but hey, some things are worth it, right?”
Clint was smiling, and he only just realized it. The realization made him chuckle softly, and he found himself nodding numbly. “Yeah. They really are.”
“ Mr. Barton! ” A loud shout filled up the brief silence, and Clint found a found smile crossing his face as suddenly a body slammed into his side. He stumbled, a laugh escaping his lips as a child attached to his leg, a surprising amount of strength in the grip for someone who was passed out on the ground just a few minutes earlier. “Sean, Sean… should you be up? You looked like you were hurt, you—“
“I got hit a ‘lil hard, but I’m fine, I’m fine!” Sean interrupted him quickly even as he winced with his own words, rubbing at his head quickly before looking up at Clint. He was smiling, but the smile quickly disappeared as he caught sight of his brother in Clint’s arms. A look of panic overtook his freckled, dust-streaked face, and his eyes widened in fear. “What ‘bout Scott? Is Scott ok?”
The words hit Clint hard. He looked down at the boy in his arms, trying to think of how to answer that question. Scott looked bad. There was no stepping around that. He had obviously been hit hard by something, and Clint was really in no position to guess how bad it was. But the way that Sean was looking up at him… the little boy feared for his brother’s life. He had to say something, no matter how unqualified he felt.
“He’s going to be ok, Sean. He’s going to be ok.”
Sean’s face scrunched up, worry and concern sinking into his features. “Why’re you carryin’ him then?”
Clint forced himself to smile. “Everyone needs to be carried sometimes. Even big brothers.”
Sean stared up at him. For once, the little boy didn’t speak. He just nodded slowly, a soft grin on his face as his curls bounced against his forehead.
There was tug at Clint’s arm, and the next thing he knew there was another grip at his leg. Clint chuckled, glancing down fondly to see that Kurt had attached himself to the limb. The boy’s grip was weak, exhaustion obviously weighing on his little frame, but he was smiling as he looked up at Clint.
“You came back.” Kurt was smiling up at him, his little blue face completely drawn in exhaustion, but his yellow eyes bright as he grinned up at Clint. The grip on his leg tightened, and the little boy buried his face in the material of his pants. “You really came back.”
Clint smiled, one hand slipping free from holding Scott just long enough to give Kurt’s tiny shoulder a squeeze. “I told you I would, didn’t I?”
Kurt nodded, his voice muffled as he spoke softly. “I believed you.”
Clint wasn’t sure why the words hurt so much, but they did. It was a good kind of hurt, but a hurt all the same. It was the same sort of hurt that he felt as he looked up to see Warren and Rogue approaching as well, Kitty right on Kurt’s heels and crossing her arms as she realized there wasn’t much room for her to hug him with three of her other siblings already taking up space. It was the kind of hurt that made him want to smile and cry and pull all of his kids close at once and never, ever let them go.
“I promised not to get myself hurt,” Clint said, a trace of a laugh and a slight tremor in his voice as he spoke. “I thought it would go without saying that you guys should do the same.”
Rogue’s face fell into a look of exhausted exasperation, and she shook her head slightly. Warren shrugged, and Clint noticed that it seemed even tighter than usual, his eyes fixated on the unconscious man behind Clint. At first both kids looked fine… but then Clint saw the rip in Rogue’s suit, the blood that was dripping from a mangled tear along her shoulder and another on her forearm. And Warren.. Warren was more shaken than Clint had ever seen him. His wings were pressed so tightly against his shoulder blades that Clint was shocked he could even breathe with the pressure, and it hurt Clint even looking at him. And Kitty, six-year-old Kitty, was shaking where she stood, pretending to look defiant as blood dripped from a cut over her left eye and a tremble in her lip gave away the fact that she was on the verge of crying.
Clint was never letting these kids out of his sight. Never, ever again.
“Clint, we—“
“Not right now,” Clint said gently, cutting Rogue off before she could say anything else. He gave her a soft smile, hoping that she could understand just a bit of the emotion sitting in his chest even if he couldn’t. “We can talk about it all later, ok?”
Rogue hesitated, but Clint could see tension leaking out of her shoulders as she nodded. That was enough for him. That was plenty for the moment. Everything could wait until later now that he had his kids back at his side. He never wanted to make this mistake again.
“Alright.” Clint let out a breath, his grip on Scott tightening gently. “Let’s go home.”
Notes:
Holy cow. This chapter felt insane to edit. I can't believe we've come so far.
Comments are always so greatly appreciated, I really want to hear how y'all feel about these chapters <3
Chapter 55: Too Big, Too Real
Summary:
It almost felt like their fight had triggered a real impact. It was almost like they had made a real difference. It was almost like they might have really won.
Notes:
This chapter goes out to AslansLittleLioness, because it’s her birthday today!! Crazy timing!!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Everything felt… big.
The robot was huge. That much was obvious. It had shaken the entire building when it finally toppled. It had been six times bigger than any of them. It had been a miracle that none of them had been flattened by the thing’s bulk even before it crashed to the ground, let alone once it was taking up a large percentage of the floorspace. However, it was more than just the robot.
Within minutes of the fight ending, the complex had been swarmed by police. There were more than there ever usually was for an X-Men sighting, and for once the guns were pointed away from them. The flurry of movement that followed the police’s arrival felt big as well. Natasha had arrived just before them, and she had quickly ushured them all out before they could be properly seen by the law enforcement. Something about confidentiality, she had said. Maybe there had been something about protection; it all felt like a blur. It was more attention than their fights ever normally warranted, and that alone made it feel like a larger event than it was. Or, perhaps, it was a larger event then they had realized.
The reports sure made it seem that way. The bottom levels of the Tower had been swarming with people in suits and ties before they even got there. Natasha had brought them all in through a back door, throwing around the same words of “saftey” and “anonymity” that made it all seem like such a big deal. It was nothing different than they had experienced before… and yet, wasn’t it?
Even the stakes of the mission had been so, so much higher than usual. The mutant cure was something that Hope Industries and Worthington Industries had been partnering on for years. It was the thing that all of their efforts had been directed toward stopping. It was something they had been fighting against for longer than most of them had been a part of the team. Usually, their efforts were nothing more than a drop in the ocean. Usually, they could only guess if what they had done could really slow the processes they knew were going on behind locked doors.
This time, they had all seen the bottles and vaccines. This time, they had seen the shattered glass that was left behind. This time, there were people outside of them that were looking into this. This time, it was bigger than just their group of six.
Everything felt bigger than it usually was. It almost felt like their fight had triggered a real impact. It was almost like they had made a real difference. It was almost like they might have really won.
Warren couldn’t quite grasp the reality of that. He couldn’t quite grasp the concept that it might really be over.
Nothing really felt within his grasp at the moment. He felt as though he could hardly hear the bustle and buzz of the insane amounts of activity around him as he followed Natasha through the maze of reporters. At some point Tony had splintered off, probably to do some damage control or to guide the army of press that he had magically summoned. Clint had rushed to the medical bay instantly with Scott still in his arms. Sean had been whisked off in that direction quickly afterward, and Rogue had gone with him to help and get her own injuries dealt with. It was easy for her to drag Kitty and Kurt with her as well, but that was because both of the kids were practically dead on their feet. There was a good chance that they were already asleep in their hospital cots.
Warren knew he wouldn’t be able to sleep. He didn’t even want to try. He was able to brush off a medical visit for now. His injuries were superficial anyway.
Somehow, in the midst of the confusing chaos, he found himself in the gym. It was unintentional. Natasha had helped usher his siblings off to the Med Bay, and he was fairly sure that Bruce was already waiting there. Tony was doing press control, and Clint was of course with his siblings. Maybe he should be there too. At the moment, he couldn’t think of doing anything. Even stringing up a punching bag felt like too much.
Everything felt like too much.
Warren had no idea when he fell to his knees, but at some point he ended up on the ground. His back was pressed against the wall and when he breathed in, he could smell the familiar scent of sweat and salt that always came with the gym. It was grounding, and he focused on that as he tried to calm the rushing heartbeat in his ears.
It was over. His father had been arrested. His nightmare had been captured. The thing that haunted his mirror with cold glances, calculating words, and demanding hands was finally caught in the act. There was something happening.
Was it even real?
Warren couldn’t tell. At this point, he couldn’t tell what was real. Maybe the past four years had all been a construction of his mind. Maybe he was still trapped in that tiny, cinderblock cell as his father stared down at him, waiting to see how well his wings were regrowing. Maybe the stress had finally killed him and this was all some strange limbo, a reconstruction of his life that his mind made for him to imagine after he was gone. Maybe it was all just a long, tantalizing dream and he was about to wake up to find his father’s eyes on him, never satisfied as he turned away and asked “what next?”
Or, maybe, this was real. Maybe that was more terrifying than any other scenario.
Warren buried his head in his knees, and he could feel his wings shuddering at his back. Every breath made the feathers clatter slightly, the vanes thick and stiff with a mix of sweat and dirt and any number of other things. They had started the night as a mess, and nothing from the fight had helped them in the slightest. But, despite their pitiful state, they were there. He could feel every twitch of the feathers, every one serving as a physical reminder that his wings were attached. Despite the superficial scratches, he wasn’t in pain; not the way he used to be in pain every day. It had been years since he had been cut open and, now, the man who had ordered it done was in custody. According to Natasha, he would be behind bars before long.
It didn’t seem real.
Everything about his father had always seemed untouchable. For the longest time, getting away seemed to be the best thing that Warren could ever hope to do. Even that seemed out of reach until he had managed it. From there, simply surviving with his wings attached seemed like enough of a defiance. Then he had met Xavier and had been brought into the X-Men and, while he wanted to keep the younger kids far, far away from anything Worthington Industries ever had a part in, it was satisfying to be able to do something to hurt the company. It had never felt like enough, but it had been something, and Warren was sure it would never go beyond that. Now they were here, with the press on their side and with the Avengers at their back. Now the man that had seemed untouchable for so long was in cuffs. Now, things were starting to change.
Everything about this was so big that it made Warren feel horribly, infinitesimally small.
The familiar hiss of the elevator doors sounded as if it was coming at him from underwater. There were footsteps, but he could hardly register the sound. It seemed so distant, so much bigger than Warren was in that moment. He could hardly even comprehend that there was another person in the room until he heard a voice right next to him.
“Warren?”
Even though he had distantly heard the man’s approach, Warren still jumped. He could feel his wings pull tight against his back, as far out of grabbing reach as he could possibly manage even though he knew that not a single person had yanked his feathers in the entire time he had been at the Tower. It didn’t feel possible that it could be safe to have the most vulnerable and valuable part of himself so exposed.
And yet, no hands reached for his feathers. Instead of seeing cold, calculating eyes when he looked up, Warren found himself staring into dark blue ones that were deep with emotion. There was concern there, maybe something like understanding, and a whole slew of other emotions that Warren couldn’t quite decipher. The eyes were familiar, and Warren felt a small bit of the tension in his shoulders ease.
“Hey,” he said carefully, trying to keep his voice from shaking too much. It didn’t work as well as he had hoped, and a part of him wished that Clint was there with him, coaxing him to breathe.
Clint, however, was not there. He was with Scott and the others. Instead, it was Steve Rogers looking down at him, that slight concern still evident in his eyes. “Hey,” the man repeated back.
Warren watched, waiting for… well, he didn’t know exactly what it was that he was waiting for. All that Steve did was sit down, his legs folded against the cold floor in a way that was not dissimilar to Warren’s own position. They sat there for a moment, a relative silence falling before Warren finally broke it.
“Did you come down to clear your head?”
Steve let out a breath, and it edged into a bit of a chuckle. “Not this time. I came to find you, actually.”
Warren blinked. “Me?”
“Natasha said you slipped away,” the man explained simply. His eyes slid from Warren to the room around them, one eyebrow quirked up slightly. “I thought you might be here.”
Warren snorted. “What gave you that idea?”
“Just a hunch.” Steve was quiet for a moment, and Warren looked away. He could feel the man’s eyes sliding back to him, but he kept his gaze focused on the spot where the floor met the wall just a few yards away. “It seemed like you might need some space to think.”
Warren could feel the vanes of his feathers itching as his wings pressed into his back, and he snorted harder this time. “What gave you that idea?”
“Well…” Steve leaned back furthur, and when Warren glanced up briefly he could see the man’s face tilted up toward the ceiling. “You just helped take down a massive company. You made a bold statement against this mutant cure, and now a lot of people are going to look at it more closely. You went about it in a way that got your siblings hurt.”
The heavy weight in Warren’s chest seemed to be pulling him down. He looked back at the ground. “Yeah.”
“I think we both know that this could have gone differently…” Steve paused. “But we’re also both wondering if a different approach would have done anything.”
The words were more true than Warren wanted to admit. “Yeah.”
“Plus…” Steve hesitated, and Warren could feel his gaze shifting to settle on him once again. “I have a feeling that you had some personal stakes in this one. Beyond your siblings, I mean.”
Warren stiffened. The note of calm understanding in Steve’s tone chilled him to the bone, and he could feel his wings digging into his shoulder blades. “Did Clint—“
“No, no, of course not.” Steve shook his head, and his voice was sincere enough that Warren found himself tentatively trusting in it. “He would never do something like that. I didn’t even know that he knew.”
“He doesn’t,” Warren said quickly, though even as he said it he doubted his own words. A google search was one thing. At this point, Clint had seen them both in the same room. He had seen Warren’s reaction to the man. There was no way that he didn’t know. “He didn’t tell you?”
“No,” Steve shook his head again. “I pieced it together myself. At least, parts of it.”
Warren shot him a look, his mind whirling as he tried to piece together what he was hearing. “How?”
“Well, let’s just say that I’m a bit more aware then some people think.” This time, it was Steve’s turn to look down at the floor. “Some people assume that because I go along with something, I don’t understand it. I mean, I have to do that for WiFi, and for memes, and for AIs and all these other new technologies that are way ahead of my time.” He chuckled, but there was not much humor in the sound. “The team seems to think that, since I can’t see how an iPad works, that means I can’t see how… other things work.”
Warren found himself frowning. “Other things?”
“I’m no stranger to human experimentation, Warren.” Steve looked back up at him, and the years that he had lived seemed heavy in his eyes. “I am a human experiment. I was a volunteer, yes, but I know what it’s like to be used for something that you never wanted to be used for.”
There was a feeling crawling up Warren’s throat. It was almost like bile, maybe like gratitude. It came with a wave of memories, sharp voices and sharper tools, all proclaiming that this will help people. This is a small sacrifice. This will be worth it.
The mutant cure wasn’t all that far off from a war, was it?
“The point is, I think I get it.” Steve paused, considering himself. “A little bit of it, at least. Maybe more than the others, maybe less. But I’m sure that coming face-to-face with your past like that…”
“It sucks,” Warren said, and he was surprised that he said it. He was surprised that he managed to force the word out through his gritted teeth, and he wrapped his arms around his legs like a child as he shook his head. “It absolutely sucks.”
That made Steve huff out a laugh. “Yeah. That’s a good word for it.”
“I could think of other words,” Warren muttered.
Steve let out a hum. “I don’t know what I would have done if I had come out of the ice to find out that Hydra still existed.”
“It’s not like that.” Warren shook his head. He didn’t know exactly why he was speaking, but the heavy weight that had settled in his chest at the end of the fight felt a bit lighter as he spoke. “It’s different than that.”
Steve gave him a side-eye. “What’s it like?”
“It would be like if Hydra did still exist,” Warren said after a moment. “It would be like if they took everything from you and you got away, but you knew they were still out there. You just had to hope that they really thought the ice had killed you even though every moment you’re expecting them to drag you right back to where you were.”
“And then it almost happens,” Steve said slowly.
“Yeah.” Warren let a shiver run through his matted feathers. “And then it almost happens.”
There was a pause in the conversation. Warren could feel his breathing deep in his chest, and he was surprised at how even it was. “But it doesn’t.”
“It doesn’t.” Warren nodded, and the weight in his chest shifted. “It doesn’t happen. You win and… well…”
What now? The words were left unsaid, but Warren could feel them in his throat. There was a longer pause, after that. The air itself seemed heavy.
“Warren,” Steve said slowly. “Do you know why I joined the Avengers?”
The question caught Warren off-guard. He had just joined the X-Men when the Battle of New York happened, and he didn’t know much about the heroes that had assembled. Sean had tried to educate him on the team, but Warren hadn’t paid too much attention. “SHIELD recruited you, didn’t they?”
A small smile twitched at the corner of Steve’s mouth. “Something like that. It was more like they pulled me out of the ice and then threw me at the first fight they couldn’t win.” The smile faltered. “I took it, though. I didn’t ask too many questions, at least not at first. You know why?”
Warren watched the man as he spoke. “Why?”
“I didn’t know what else to do. I was a soldier. I fought wars. It was what I had been built up to do.” Steve’s gaze slid away from Warren’s. “It’s what I’m still doing.”
“Even though Hydra’s gone?”
“Yeah. Even though Hydra’s gone.” Steve let out a low, slow breath. “I haven’t come face-to-face with my past… not like you have. I think I know a bit of what you’ve been through in the past few years. I know how it feels to go without that sort of closure.”
Warren frowned. “But you beat them, didn’t you?”
“That’s what they say,” Steve said slowly. He was like a glacier in his movements; everything was slow, steady, cold in a way that spoke of decades of age. “I never saw that end. All I saw was the height of their power and then… well, then I was here.”
Warren’s frown deepened. “What are you saying?”
“I’m saying that you don’t have to be like me.” Steve looked back up, and the decades were visible in his gaze as he met Warren’s gaze. “Sleepless nights are going to follow you no matter where you go. All I’m saying is that you don’t have to linger on them.”
Even as Steve spoke, Warren could feel his doubts. What if it’s wrong? What if he doesn’t go to jail? What if he does? What if this really is the end… what happens then?
He had spent so long running from his past that now, in the face of being free from it… he felt small.
“You said that we helped take them down…” Warren said slowly. He mimicked Steve’s glacial movements, his fingers moving slowly as he clenched and unclenched his fists. “Do you really think… they’re coming down? Do you really think this is it?”
Steve let out a slow, careful sigh. “He has lawyers. He has a company. He has public opinion on his side.”
Warren grit his teeth. “Of course.”
“...But, we have evidence. Tony’s already started poking around Worthington and Hope Industries, and he’s found some seriously condemning files — even some that can be referenced legally, despite some of Tony’s methods. It might not be enough…” Steve trailed off there, and Warren could feel something hanging in the air.
“But?” There was more hesitation, and Warren grit his teeth tighter. “Come on, I can hear you thinking it. What?”
Steve gave him a look. It was a long look, one that almost made Warren ask what it was again. Then, the man spoke. “An eyewitness testimony would do the trick. If someone who really knew what was going on behind closed doors spoke up…”
Cold knives, sharp pains, data and collections and always demands for more. Every drop of blood and sweat and tears that helped make the foundation for the destruction of his species…
“You’re saying I could speak,” Warren said slowly, distantly. “I could speak in court.”
“If you did…” Steve nodded slightly. “There wouldn’t even be a case.”
“It would be…?”
“It would be done. He’d be gone… for good.”
The scars that were hidden beneath his torn, battered X-Man uniform ached. They felt like cords of ice running beneath his skin, cold and painful. Hundreds of memories surged up, bubbling beneath the surface of his thoughts.
“Wouldn’t there be problems with that?” Warren asked numbly. It felt strange to even be talking about this. “I mean… I’m fourteen.” The words felt strange on his tongue, and he felt the out-of-place urge to laugh as he spoke. “I’m fourteen, and I’m the oldest of us. I can’t exactly represent myself in court.”
“You wouldn’t be representing yourself,” Steve told him gently. “Not if you didn’t want to.”
Warren blinked slowly. “I wouldn’t?”
“One of us could stand in for you,” Steve said with certainty. “Or if we couldn’t, we’d find someone who could. You wouldn’t have to see him again.”
“You would do that?” Warren asked distantly. It didn’t seem real.
“Any of us would, Warren.” Steve’s gaze was piercing as it settled on his shoulder. Warren could feel his wings twitch beneath the gaze. “The others… well, they would hear about everything. Clint and I would as well, and I’m not sure if you want that. But if you were willing… we wouldn’t make you go up against him.”
“No.”
“No?”
“I want to do it,” Warren said slowly. The words started out flimsy, but he found himself nodding firmly as he continued to speak. “I want to speak against him. I want to see his face as he gets put away.”
A small smile twitched at the edge of Steve’s mouth. “I thought you might say that.”
“But still,” Warren said quickly. “It’ll be a while till they can get an actual trial, right? What if we aren’t here when that happens?”
The smile on Steve’s face deepened. “Actually… I think that something might have changed with that.”
Warren felt his wings twitch involuntarily. “What?”
“Come on,” Steve said. He didn’t answer the question, instead pushing himself up from the floor with a grunt. Once he was on his feet, he reached out a hand to Warren. The smile on his face sharpened, and he raised one eyebrow in a challenge. “Want to spar?”
Warren raised an eyebrow in return. “Really?”
“Well, we’re down here for a reason, aren’t we?”
Warren let a grin slip onto his face. He reached out and grasped the hand that was offered to him, and allowed Steve to pull him to his feet. When he stood, he found that his wings were a bit looser than usual.
Everything felt a bit too big, still. Everything felt weirdly real, and Warren didn’t quite know how to process it. He did, however, know how it felt to wrap his hands in familiar tape. He did know the exhausted feeling of adrenaline in his blood felt like. He knew what the heavy weight of his wings felt like as he spread them out to his sides, and he was surprised to find that it was more comfortable than usual.
Maybe, with the Avengers at his back and his siblings at his sides, he could know what it felt like to be free.
Notes:
Confession; this chapter was probably not edited very well because I have had a LONG day, so I apologize for any mistakes. Happy birthday again to AslansLittleLioness, thank you all for reading! Two chapters left!!
Chapter 56: What Could Really Be
Summary:
Scott inhaled sharply, evenly. He had to breathe. He couldn’t cry, not now, not when he had already cried so much… But he had no idea how to process this, any of this. None of this made sense.
None of this should be happening.
Notes:
Hi editing this chapter made me want to cry, I hope it might affect you the same way <3
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Scott woke up in pain.
The realization hit him like a wall. It felt just like the fist of the giant robot that had caused him so much pain in the first place, and instantly everything came rushing back in a hot, burning wave of pure panic . He sat up in a rush, his head spinning and bile rising up in his throat and pain sparking through his side as his mind began running a mile a minute. Where were his siblings? Where was the robot? Had they been captured? Where were they, where was he, everything hurt so bad but there were more important things to think about, he had to move —
“Scott!” There was a hand on his chest, a gentle, steady hand, and Scott inhaled sharply at the slight pressure against his skin. The breath expanded his lungs and Scott winced as pain ran up his side… but now that the initial wave of panic had abated, he realized that it was better, so much better than it had been when he was last conscious. He started to realize other things too, like the soft beeping of a heart monitor off to one side, the white walls that surrounded him, the person leaning over his bed, staring at him with wide, concerned, kind eyes that grounded him to reality, helped him realize where he was, who was beside him…
It was Clint Barton. Clint Barton was staring at him. His hand was on Scott’s chest, and there was concern washing across his features as he watched the boy closely. He seemed poised to stop Scott if he tried to get up again, but the pressure was so gentle that Scott could hardly feel resistance. That was the only thing holding him down; not cuffs, not restraints, not whatever else Hope Industries would have strapped him down with if they had captured him. Somehow, someway, they had made it out of that destroyed laboratory.
Of course. He had called Clint Barton …
Everything came rushing back once again, and Scott felt the horrible, choking urge to cry. He swallowed hard, forcing the feeling deeper into his chest as he tried to keep some semblance of steadiness. Not that there was any point. He had already shot down any hope of keeping a strong facade, hadn’t he? He had called for help .
And Clint had actually come .
The need to cry surged back up, and it was even harder to choke it back this time. Scott found that he couldn’t look at Clint, and his eyes dropped down to the blanket that covered him, a thin hospital sheet that twisted as Scott clenched his fists into the white fabric. It looked pink through his vision, and Scott realized that he was still wearing his visor, the thing tight over his face and keeping his abilities carefully contained. But when he glanced briefly at his surroundings he noticed that there was a small table next to his bed, that his red glasses were resting there, ready in case he wanted to trade them out. There was a glass of water there too, full and untouched. It looked like someone placed the items there intentionally, as if they cared about his well being and wanted to make sure he was comfortable.
Scott inhaled sharply, evenly. He had to breathe. He couldn’t cry, not now, not when he had already cried so much…
But he had no idea how to process this, any of this. None of this made sense . He had failed. He had failed so badly last night or… or whenever the mission had been. He was disoriented, he had no idea how long it had been. But he knew it had been bad, he knew that he had utterly failed, that they should be captured or worse right now. He knew should be in pain, and yes he was in pain, but it should be so much worse than this.
Clint Barton should not be here. Clint Barton should not be leaning over his bed, gently pressing his hand to his chest and ensuring he didn’t panic, making sure that he was ok…
None of this should be happening.
“You ok, Scott?” The voice cut through Scott’s thoughts, and he debated looking up at its source. But he couldn’t convince himself to, so his gaze stayed trained on his fists where they were entangled in his blanket. “Does anything hurt? I mean, probably, I’m sure something hurts, but how bad is it? I’m sure Bruce can get more painkillers if it’s bad…”
It wasn’t bad, now that Scott’s panic was over, and that was half the problem. It was hardly a dull ache, the pain in his side, and he could feel the tightness of bandages wrapping his chest under the white shirt he wore. His arm was thickly bandaged, a cast keeping it immobile and fairly painless where it lay against the thin blanket. He could feel the stick of bandages against his skin on his cheek and his neck, could smell the scent of medicine and antiseptic all around him, painkillers making his movements sluggish and painless… everything was far too painless. It didn’t make sense . He should be in pain right now, he should be facing the consequences of his actions.
He shouldn’t be in bed, he shouldn’t have someone taking care of him. He should be taking care of his siblings, helping them clean their wounds before pulling out the ice cream and letting the worst injured choose a show to watch as they rested for the next fight…
Oh man. His siblings .
“Where are the others?” His voice was rough, his throat dry and raspy, and all that he could think was good . He was finally feeling some discomfort, finally getting a bit of what he deserved for the train wreck of a mission that he had led. The guilt too, the immense guilt that his first thought had been himself, not his siblings. Who knew where they were, what state they were in… why hadn’t that been his first thought? “Are they ok?”
“Here, you sound awful…” Just like that Clint was leaning over to the side, grabbing the glass of water off of the table and offering it to Scott. Clint was acting as if it was a problem that his throat hurt, as if he deserved any relief from the scratchiness. “Don’t worry, everyone else is safe. They’ll probably be in here at any minute, actually, they would have already been here except Tasha finally managed to drag them out to get them some food…”
“So they’re ok?” Scott’s voice was rough, but he made no move to take the glass that Clint was offering. “They’re all here?”
“Yep. Everyone’s here and accounted for.” Clint seemed to sense that his answer didn’t fully satisfy Scott, and he quickly went into more detail. “We’re all back in the Tower, by the way. You’re in the Med Bay, both you and Sean. He managed to get his same leg ripped back open so he’s a door or two down, resting up from the new stitches. He’s asleep right now, but apart from the leg and a bit of a concussion he’s ok. He’s just completely bemoaning the fact that he can hardly speak. Kitty and Kurt were pretty much fine, just exhausted and overworked. Kurt especially, he threw up on the way here and definitely shouldn’t be ‘porting any time soon, but after a hefty night’s sleep they were fine. Warren too… well, he had no physical injuries, at least. Rogue had a couple nasty gashes, and she was running a bit of a fever… You’re by far the worst off, Scott.”
The words made him relax a bit, and by the time that Clint had finished his report Scott was breathing much easier.
He could be lying , a small voice whispered in the back of his mind, but Scott was able to wave it off easily. Clint was not going to lie to him. He knew that now.
What he didn’t know was why . Why on earth was Clint being so truthful to him? Why was Clint being so gentle?
Why was Clint here ?
“Scott?” His voice was so soothing to Scott’s ears, and the thought completely terrified him. He shouldn’t be feeling comfort right now. He shouldn’t . “Scott, are you going to take this?”
Scott blinked in mild surprise, and he realized that Clint was still holding out the glass of water, waiting for him to take it. It bumped lightly against his fist, a fist that was still twisted into the white hospital blanket. Scott made no move to take it. He just stared at it, at the hand that held it.
“Are you ok, Scott?” There was so much concern in Clint’s voice, true and utterly real concern, like he was actually worried about how Scott was feeling. “Do you feel sick? Or in pain? Do I need to go get Bruce?”
“No,” Scott said, his voice quick and clipped against his raw throat. He shook his head slightly, wincing as he felt the pressure of a headache bearing down on his brain. Good . He deserved to feel some of the pain.
“...Alright.” Clint didn’t sound convinced. The glass of water bumped against Scott’s hand again, gentle and insistent. “Then drink a little. Please… you’ve been out for hours, your throat’s got to be dry.”
Scott shook his head slowly, unable to even form words. But… he couldn’t take the water. Yes, his throat was dry. It felt like a desert, and swallowing was painful. But how could he drink, how could he give himself that relief after how badly he messed up? Especially with the painkillers dulling everything else to aches and phantom pains… he had to feel something, some sort of retribution for the mission that he had completely botched… he didn’t deserve the relief that the water would bring. He couldn’t drink it, he just couldn’t…
After a moment Clint’s hand moved, and the water disappeared. There was a soft thunk as it was set back down on the table, but Scott didn’t glance at it. That would mean seeing it, seeing the glasses that had been set there with it, and Scott couldn’t… he couldn’t do that. He couldn’t process what those few items meant… he couldn’t process what Clint being here meant. What was he doing ? Why was he here?
Nothing made sense, and it was beginning to become overwhelming. The need to cry once again rose up in Scott’s throat, even though there was absolutely no reason for it.
“Scott…” There was a hand on his shoulder now, and Scott couldn’t cover up the flinch that crossed his features. “Scott, can you talk to me? What’s wrong?”
“Stop.” Scott shook his head, his voice rough and real in his throat. It felt much more real than the caring hand on his shoulder, a hand that just couldn’t be reality. “Just stop.”
There was a hesitation in the air. “Stop what?”
“That. This. You.” Scott’s words started to come easier, slipping out of his mouth before he could even think them through. “Everything. All of this.”
“What’s wrong with it?”
“ You .” There was a tremor in Scott’s voice now, a tremor that shook his words slightly. His fists clenched, twisting tightly into the blanket that he was holding. “You, you being here. Acting like you care.”
The hand on his shoulder tightened, but not unkindly. There was something like hurt in Clint’s tone, but it was soft and gentle. “I do care, Scott.”
“No. No, you can’t .” Scott shook his head, ignoring the pounding at the base of his skull, ignoring the way that his words tasted like a lie on his tongue. None of this made sense, none of it made sense, none of it was the way that things were supposed to be…
“I do—”
“Don’t even say it, I know it’s a lie.” His fists were practically ripping the blanket. “It’s always a lie. You can’t care, no one cares. No one ever cares.” His voice was no longer the only thing trembling, his words tumbling over each other as his shoulders shook and his fists clenched and his head pounded. “No one ever cares, everyone’s always just waiting for us to screw up so they have an excuse to get rid of us because we’re a hassle, we’re too much work, I’m too much work and I always mess up and I’m not worth it so everyone leaves !”
The words were out of his mouth, and now the tears were out of his eyes. No matter how much he squeezed them shut, no matter how much he tried to choke them back. They leaked out and splattered against his visor as he ducked his head, chin to his chest and shoulders shaking with each ragged, painful breath. None of this was right . None of this was the way that things should be, how they had been all his life. There shouldn't be a kind hand on his shoulder, there shouldn’t be a glass of water for him on the table, there shouldn’t be a clean bed and clean bandages and painkillers because no one should care enough to give those things to him. Certainly not Clint Barton. He was nothing to Clint Barton; not a soldier, not a weapon, not even a tax break. Clint had never once asked Scott to pay back what he had been given, had never asked for a reason to help. Scott had purposefully tried to shove the man away, to avoid his help. He had done everything in his power to make things as difficult as possible for the man. There was absolutely no reason for Clint to keep him around.
But he was still here. His hand was still on Scott’s shaking shoulders, he was still sitting at Scott’s bedside as he sat choking on barely controlled sobs. He was making no move to leave. Why was he still here ?
“Scott…”
“Please.” Scott choked out, his voice thick and shaky and horribly, horribly weak. But he had nothing else to give. “Please, don’t say it. I don’t…”
I don’t deserve it. The words stayed on his tongue, heavy and stuck somewhere between his throat and his lips. He couldn’t get them out, and he didn’t know if he wanted to. He didn’t know if he wanted that truth to be out in the air, or if he wanted to keep it close to his chest, like he always did.
The hand on his shoulder tightened again. Firm. Grounding. “Scott, look at me.”
He shook his head. He didn’t want to. He wasn’t even sure he could, even if he did want to.
There was no hand on his chin, nothing forcing him to follow Clint’s command. There was no retribution for disobedience, just a quiet voice. “That’s ok. Just listen then.”
The hand on his shoulder was still firm, still comforting. Scott couldn’t decide if he wanted to lean into it or jerk away from it.
“I do care, Scott. I care more than I'd like to admit.” There was a soft chuckle, something that sounded like Clint was truly surprised himself. “I really, really care about you guys. I almost had a heart attack when you called me last night. I thought I was going to kill someone when I saw how hurt you were. I still kind of want to, if I’m honest.”
“You…” Scott was still choking on his words. “You actually came.”
“Of course I did. I came as fast as I could, and I wish I could have come faster.” The hand stayed steady on his shoulder. “I’ll always come when you call, Scott.”
“No, no you won’t.” His words hurt his throat, and it wasn’t just because of the dryness. He shook his head, bangs flopping against the metal of his visor as he moved. “This… this is just temporary. This is just until you can figure out what to do with us, until that lady emails you back.”
Because that was the truth of it, the truth of this all. It didn’t matter how nice Clint Barton was, how different he was. Because he would still leave, he would still leave just like every other person in Scott’s life.
There was a silence that settled in the room, a silence that was thick with tension and only permeated by Scott’s uneven breaths. Clint shifted, the hand on Scott’s shoulder wavering ever so slightly. “Actually… she did email me back. Last night.”
The silence returned, this time even heavier because it was missing something; Scott’s breathing. He found that his lungs were empty, unable to draw in another drop of oxygen as those words sunk into his bones.
“Scott. Scott?” The hand on his shoulder shook him lightly, then a bit harder. “Please, Scott, breathe. Breathe with me, ok?”
Another breath entered Scott’s lungs, but it felt hollow. Everything felt hollow. The pain in his side was nonexistent now, the texture of the blanket under his fingers dull and detached from his body, all of his senses somehow distant and meaningless. He felt numb, far away, as if nothing around him mattered as those words echoed in his ears.
There it was. There was Clint’s excuse, his reason and his way to finally get rid of them.
“Scott… I haven’t answered her yet.” At that, Scott paused. “I, uh… I wanted to wait until you were awake until I said anything.”
“Why?” It was surprising how calm Scott’s voice was. After everything, this was what got his voice to steady? Maybe it was the familiarity of it, the routine feel of being abandoned. This was how it was supposed to go, wasn’t it? Scott had gone through this enough times. This, finally, felt like reality. “This is what you’ve waited for, right? That’s what you’ve wanted.”
There was another hesitation in the air. “Well… that’s the thing.” Clint chuckled slightly, but it wasn’t really a humorous chuckle. It was more like he was just trying to fill the void that his words left behind them. “Is that what you’ve wanted?”
A frown, a small and insignificant thing, pulled at Scott’s mouth. “What does that matter?”
“Because…” Clint hesitated, and there was a low intake of breath before he spoke again. “I don’t know if it’s what I want.”
Confusion flooded Scott’s mind, as jumbled and mixed up as it was. He finally managed to tear his gaze from his hands, his eyes drifting up to look at Clint. Now it was the Avenger who was avoiding eye contact, his face turned to look at one of the blank white walls that surrounded them. His right hand was still resting on Scott’s shoulder, his left running though his shandy blonde hair as he let out a deep, slow breath. “I… I don’t know. I mean, I do know, but I don’t know what you think, what any of you guys think. I mean, this is supposed to be temporary, right? We’ve said that the whole time. But…” Clint let out a harsher breath, then turned back. His eyes connected with Scott’s, a sort of determination and terror burning deep within them. “Let me just be honest. Ok? I got that email, I saw that she had places lined up for you all, and I just… I shut down. I couldn’t imagine it. I don't want you to go.”
Scott stared at him. He couldn’t be hearing this right. He couldn’t be hearing this right. He must have a concussion, he should definitely have a concussion after a hit like that. That would explain everything, that had to explain everything.
“Why?” The word was hardly a whisper, and Scott hardly realized that he was asking until after the word was out of his mouth.
Clint just laughed, this time full of exasperation and disbelief. “Why? Because you are six amazing, talented, wonderful kids. Because you’re crazy, you’re flawed, and you’re incredible. Because being around you guys makes me smile without even trying. Because I love you guys, alright?”
Scott could hardly see. He felt like he was drowning in tears, each new drop trapped behind his visor and stuck up against his eyes as he tried to blink them away. It was impossible at this point. “But why ?” He choked out, his words gritty and painful against his raw throat. “Why… why us, why me ? Why are you still here for me ?”
People were supposed to leave him. They were supposed to see what he could do, the mistakes he inevitably made, and they were supposed to leave. Everyone had left him; his parents, the new foster parents every few months, Xavier… by choice or by force, they all left him. And that was ok, because he was used to it. He grew up, he took care of himself, he relied on himself . People were supposed to leave him, and he was supposed to fend for himself.
People weren’t supposed to stay crouched by his bed, a comforting hand on his shoulder, a smile on their face and kind words on their tongue. People weren’t supposed to be so genuine and real and here.
And yet Clint Barton was.
The Avenger tilted his head slightly to the side, and there was a wobbly smile on his face. “Would you believe it if I said it was because I want to be here, Scott?”
Whatever answer Scott had, it was drowned out by the sob that finally burst from his mouth. His shoulders were shaking once again, and the tears that were trapped under his visor were nearly impossible to see through. But he didn’t need to see, not now. The hand on his shoulder moved to be on his back, and Scott leaned forward as it pulled him in, another arm wrapping around him to encircle him in a warm, comforting embrace. Another sob ripped though Scott’s aching chest, and he buried his head into Clint’s shoulder.
“I’m sorry…” the words came out brokenly, shattered and slipped in between sobs. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry… I’m supposed to be the leader, I-I’m supposed to, to keep us safe but… b-but I just can’t , I didn’t, I couldn’t…”
The hand that was on his shoulder now rubbed his back slowly, and he could feel the Clint’s voice in his chest as his ear rested against it. The man wasn’t saying anything in particular, just hums of acknowledgement, hums of comfort, until finally Scott’s voice was gone, the ache in his throat too heavy for him to choke anything else out. Then, as he breathed choppily, Clint spoke again.
“You don’t have to be the leader anymore, alright? You can just be a kid, Scott. You’re still just a kid.”
“But I can’t be,” Scott managed to find his voice one last time, the words weak and feeble as they slipped past his chapped lips. “I have to… I have to protect us.”
Clint’s arms tightened around him, and when he spoke his voice held a determination that Scott had never heard before. “I’ll protect you, all of you. I’ll never let any of you get hurt, not if I can do anything about it. I’ll be right here for as long as you need me, even if you don’t think that you do.” Clint’s voice caught ever so slightly, and his grip loosened. “But… but only if that’s what you want.”
Scott couldn’t say anything. His voice was gone, rubbed raw and choked away by emotion. But he nodded, he nodded violently and choked on his tears and held onto Clint as tightly as he could.
He didn’t deserve this. He didn’t deserve any of this. It was too good to be true, far too good for him to have.
But he wanted it. He wanted it so badly.
And as he nodded fiercely into Clint’s shoulder, as the Avenger’s grip tightened around his shoulders, he started to realize that maybe, just maybe, it could be real.
Notes:
Holy cow. This is it. This is almost the end.
Thank you all so much for sticking through this long, long family bonding session. Seriously, it means so much. I'm so happy that we've gotten to this point of tears and hugs. It's been a wild ride to get here.
One last time; I'll see y'all Thursday.
Chapter 57: The Healing of Disasters
Summary:
He would never truly get used to this. At the same time though, the thought of it being gone was completely foreign now. This was their first Christmas together and, yet, it seemed impossible to imagine anything different.
Time was a strange thing, when you were spending it with those you love.
Notes:
I cannot explain how happy it makes me that this chapter is coming out just a few days before Christmas. I could never have planned that when I started posting this pic several months ago. Somehow, God's grace is shining on this little fan fiction.
I'll save the sappy stuff for the final end note. For now, I hope you enjoy!
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
The day was perfect.
The landscape outside was blinding, and the bright morning sun was reflecting off of the blanket of white that covered the surrounding hills and fields. The snow had been steady for the past day or so but had stopped at some point during the night, so the powder outside lay fresh and untouched. The trees in the distance were iced with a cover of snow, and the windows frosted by the cold. A few fluffy gray clouds hung in the crystal blue sky in a way that comfortingly promised more snowfall, but did nothing to block out the almost-warm sunlight. The entire landscape seemed to wrap around the small farmhouse nestled in its center, as if the world itself was working to make everything look right.
It was a picture-perfect white Christmas, the kind that you would see on a Christmas card, or at the end of a cheesy Hallmark movie.
But, in all honesty, the picture-perfectness was the last thing on Clint’s mind. It was great, yeah, but he hardly paid the snow a second thought. There was something even better than the pretty scenery, or the immaculately decorated tree, or the smell of warm food in the air, or the soft crackling of flames in the fireplace, and that took all of his attention.
The most perfect thing was the voices.
The voices were something that a Christmas card could never capture. The voices gave a liveliness to the perfect-looking scene, and gave life to the little farmhouse. The fire was nice, but it was the voices that gave the true warmth that filled Clint up and made it impossible for him to stop grinning.
The house was warm and loud and full , and Clint had a feeling that it was going to be a long, long time before that simple fact failed to make him smile.
“Scott!” Sean’s voice was sharp, shrill, and Clint winced instinctively as the tinkle of shattering glass echoed down the hall. “Oh no! Sorry, sorry miss Laura, I didn’t mean to—“
The apology was quickly cut off by a soft, “It’s ok, it was an accident Sean. I guess we’ll have to start replacing the glass ornaments too, huh?”
There was a snort, and Clint could hear Kitty chiming in that “plastic ornaments are ugly though!”, a comment that was only met with more laughter. Clint’s grin widened, and he chuckled softly to himself as the sounds of light bickering filled the air.
Yeah. He would never truly get used to this. At the same time though, the thought of it being gone was completely foreign now. This was their first Christmas together and, yet, it seemed impossible to imagine anything different.
It was hard to think of just how much had changed in the past few weeks, so much more than just the fact that they had to replace all of their glass cups with plastic ones. Had it really only been a few weeks? It felt like so much longer, yet so much shorter… it was like his entire life had started just a few short weeks ago. In a way it had, hadn’t it? A whole new chapter of his life had begun, one that he had opened without really understanding that it was the beginning of a new book.
Time was a strange thing, when you were spending it with those you love.
Clint chuckled, shaking his head to himself as he carefully set down the last of the boxes in his arms. He had meant to put them out the night before, he really had… but Sean had been completely set on having a Christmas movie marathon, and while Clint expected it to go late he hadn’t expected it to go quite so late… and after a long day of trying not to burn the kitchen down while Laura tried to teach both him and the kids how to bake cookies and helping Rogue patch up the chicken’s coop to make sure none of the snow would get in, well… turns out it is much easier than he would have guessed to fall asleep to Home Alone 3.
But the presents were under the tree now, and once the kids were wrangled they could have a true Christmas morning; not that it wasn’t a true Christmas morning already. In fact, Clint was pretty sure that this was the most Christmas-like his little farmhouse had ever felt.
“Sean, Kitty!” Clint poked his head into the kitchen, and a warm feeling flooded his chest as he saw the two hovering around the oven. They were both peering into the little window, and Clint chuckled with a small twinge of concern. “Nothing’s burning, right?”
Sean shook his head fiercely, and Kitty looked a bit offended as she puffed out her chest and fixed him with a glare. “Hey! You’re the one that burns stuff! We’re, like, tons of help in the kitchen!”
Clint laughed and decided not to point out the fact that Kitty was absolutely not to be trusted in the kitchen. Thankfully, Laura was just behind the two, and when Clint looked up he found that she had a breakfast pan in hand, and was absolutely beaming. Under her watchful eye Clint had no doubt that any disasters were avoided… and Kitty wasn’t exactly wrong in pointing out that he still had the worst kitchen record of them all. He was fairly confident that time would change that though; it had only been three weeks, and Kitty was already starting to give him a run for his money.
Somehow, the thought of the house burning down didn’t sound so horrible if it was Kitty Pryde who started it. That fact alone was probably dangerous, but Clint still couldn’t imagine being mad at his little girl; not when the simple thought that she was his made him want to tear up.
He swallowed back the emotion that was building in his chest. There would be plenty of time for that later, after the kids opened presents. For now, he just nodded. “Alright, alright, I’m sure it’s going great!” He grinned his eyes darting up to Laura for confirmation.
His wife chuckled, her voice bright and warm and so full of life that Clint felt himself getting warmer at merely the sound. She nodded discreetly, sliding the breakfast the rest of the way into the oven before straightening up, her hands dusting against her ugly Christmas sweater as she nodded once again. “That should have about forty minutes on it, and then we can eat.”
“Forty minutes?” Sean gasped, his face falling as if he had just heard some horrid decree. “But I’m hungry! Can’t it be ready now?
“Nope! Just think about how good it will taste once you’ve waited for it!” Laura knelt down, her finger tapping Sean’s nose with a teasing little smile. Sean batted her hand away, but there was no malice behind his move and half a second later he was bouncing on his heels, trying to peer into the oven to see the food as it cooked. Casserole? Coffee cake? Clint couldn’t quite remember what Laura had planned; he just knew that it smelled heavenly, and that the company he would be eating it with was far more important than the food itself.
“Come on,” he said, waving a hand at the two little kids as he gestured toward the living room. “Let’s go get the others, and we can each open a present before the food is ready.”
Sean’s mouth fell open, his eyes wide. “Presents?”
Clint laughed, but before he could even attempt to respond there was a blur of a small child running past him, charging into the room he had just come out of. Clint heard Sean squeal in excitement, and with the sound came the shattering of another bulb. “Oh no! Uh, oh, I’m sorry, ah—“
“It’s ok Sean, just don’t step on it!” Laura called, already reaching for the dustpan and broom that sat leaning against the wall as Kitty followed her brother’s path to the living room. Laura chuckled, shaking her head in fond exasperation. “That’s the fourth ornament today. I told you we should have gotten plastic ones.”
“Well, now we know for next year,” Clint said with a laugh and wow , if those words didn’t make him just want to burst at the seams from happiness. Next year . There would be a next year now, wouldn’t there? There would be a next year, and a year after that, and another and another as they got to watch their kids grow and change and laugh and cry and live, right there, with them. Their kids.
The thought was terrifying and tantalizing at the same time, and it just made Clint want to break down into a panicky mess of disbelief and happiness.
From Laura’s expression, she felt the exact same.
“This is crazy, isn’t it?” Clint breathed, his hand running through his sandy blonde hair as he smiled giddily at his wife.
She grinned right back at him. “Absolutely.”
“And you’re not—“
“Clint, if you ask me if I’m upset one more time, you’re not getting a single bite of the Christmas cookies.”
Clint quickly put his hands up in surrender, laughing. Of course. He had asked Laura that so much over the past few weeks, ever since he sent the email back to Moira MacTaggart to tell her that he had something else in mind for the kids. Of course, he hadn’t been thinking clearly enough to realize every little detail that came with that decision… but Laura had been on board before he even told her. The moment that he mentioned it she had let out a breath of relief and told him that she had been thinking the same thing. She was just as dedicated to the kids as he was.
For all her planning, Laura was incredible at adjusting to his spur of the moment decisions, always ready to wrangle them into something that could actually be a tangible reality. He really could never be thankful enough for her.
“No way!” Clint smiled at the sound of Sean’s voice, loud and boisterous and full of shocked excitement, and he peeked back into the living room to see that the little boy was staring at the tree with his jaw hanging open. “No way, no way these are all for us?”
“Well, who else do you think they would be for?” Sean’s nose wrinkled as he tried to think of an answer, and Clint just laughed happily. “Why don’t you guys go wake Kurt up? He was up later than all of us, but I think he made it to his room at some point. And while you’re at it, I think Rogue’s still in her room too.”
“Actually, she’s out with the chickens,” Laura called from the kitchen as Sean and Kitty both ran down the hall toward the bedrooms. Clint leaned back into the kitchen to see his wife washing the last bits of breakfast baking off of her hands, a smile on her face as she nodded toward the kitchen window. “She went out just a little while ago.”
Clint chuckled, knowing that “a little while ago” could easily mean an hour. Rogue had been missing from the movie night dogpile when Clint had woken up and gone to pull out the presents, and he wouldn’t be surprised if she had been out there all morning. He would never have guessed that Rogue would take such a liking to the farm animals, but she loved those chickens. It made Clint so happy to see her and Laura out there together, just making sure all the animals were fed and accounted for. It was always a warm sight, and Clint had added plenty of pictures to his phone’s camera roll when the two weren’t looking.
“Warren’s out there too,” Clint added, already walking over to the kitchen door to grab the jacket that was hanging on a hook. He was still in his pajamas, but that didn’t matter to him… it wasn’t like he was going to be around anyone but his family today. “I think he said he wanted to stretch his wings.”
Laura’s smile faltered slightly, a flash of concern flitting through her features as she glanced out the window again, at the snow on the ground. “Should he be doing that? I mean, in this weather… that’s got to be cold, and that can’t be good for his feathers. I mean, I was reading an article just the other day about how birds have a hard time thermoregulating, and I wanted to ask him about if he’s been warm enough…”
“Honey, I’m sure he’s fine.” Clint gave Laura a reassuring smile. “Warren’s smart. I’m sure he knows his limits.”
Laura shot him a disbelieving look, and he honestly couldn’t blame her.
“Don’t worry, I’ll go drag them both in now,” Clint said quickly, his boots sliding onto his feet with a swift jerk. “Try to make sure Sean doesn’t tear everything open before we have everything, alright?”
The concern on Laura’s face stayed for another brief moment, but then she left out a breath and nodded, her smile once again returning. “Alright. But be quick, ok?”
“We won’t keep you waiting long!” Clint promised, his hand already on the door handle as he moved to step outside. Honestly, he probably should have done this in the opposite order… the older kids had much more patience than the younger three. But honestly? It wasn’t perfect, and he didn’t care. It felt perfect anyway, it felt right just to have his family close.
The thought was insanely domestic, and he rolled his eyes at himself as he stepped out into the cold.
Snow crunched under his boots, soft and powdery as he headed toward the chicken coop. Sure enough, there was already a fresh set of footprints in the white snow, a simple track that led straight across the field to the small structure that sat at the edge of the yard. Clint followed them, another smile climbing his cheeks as he caught the familiar sight of red hair standing out against the white background. Rogue was sitting down, her back to the coop as she leaned against the chicken wire, absentmindedly staring up at the sky while she sat in the snow.
Clint stepped up beside her, then slid down into the snow without any preface but a soft, happy sigh.
“It’s freezing out here.” He said. Rogue chuckled, and her eyes slid over to meet his as a small smile climbed her face. It was a simple, content little smile, but it was more than Clint had gotten from her the whole first month that they had been in the tower together. He didn’t think there would ever come a time that he took that little smile for granted, and he found himself grinning back. “Merry Christmas.”
“Merry Christmas,” Rogue replied, rolling her eyes as she spoke. Her bangs shifted slightly, but there was no need for her to try and blow them out of her face; they were neatly cropped now, her short red hair framing her face with the new haircut that Laura had expertly delivered after a couple of practice rounds from cutting the boy’s hair. That streak of white was still there though, bright as the snow against her red hair, and Clint gently reached out to brush it back behind her ear before slinging his arm over her shoulders and pulling her in close. There was hardly any hesitation now; Rogue leaned into his side, sighing at the warmth that he carried from inside as she rested her head against his shoulder. That was something that Clint would never take for granted either.
Rogue gestured up toward the sky, to the soft gray clouds that hung in the bright morning sky. “Warren’s up there somewhere. He was makin’ a big loop before you came out.”
“How’s he doing?” Clint asked, glancing down at Rogue as he spoke. She shrugged lightly, and Clint could feel it against his side.
“Better.”
Clint hummed, rubbing a hand against Rogue’s shoulder as he looked back up at the sky. Almost on cue, he caught sight of the small, circling figure up between the clouds. From this distance he could almost be mistaken as a bird, but Clint recognized him instantly.
Warren had been… quiet over these past few weeks. Coming face-to-face with his father… it had been rough for the boy. But Warren Worthington II was on trial now, and Clint had a feeling that there was no way his legal team could beat Tony’s fleet of lawyers… especially when you even looked at an ounce of the evidence against Worthington, both the company and the man that ran it. Especially since Warren had agreed to speak out about everything he had been through. The boy himself carried enough evidence to sentence Worthington to prison for three lifetimes in Clint’s eyes, maybe even more. He couldn’t word how proud he was of Warren for being willing to speak about everything he had been through.
But still, there were things that couldn’t heal in just a few days. Even the trial wouldn’t be enough to completely bury the past; Clint knew that, and that was ok. He was ready for it to take as long as Warren needed, even if that was forever.
Forever hardly seemed like a bad thing if it meant days like this, watching the sky as the familiar shape made another turn while another familiar figure rested her head on his shoulder. Not even the biting cold of the snow was enough to leech the warmth from this moment. If forever was like this, then Clint wanted it to come sooner.
The younger kids might have a problem with them spending forever like this though. They were probably dying from anticipation. Plus, Laura had a point about Warren’s wings getting too cold. Even Rogue with all her usual layers had to be feeling the wind.
“We have presents inside,” Clint said casually. Rogue glanced up at him, and Clint could see surprise sparkling in her deep green eyes.
“Presents,” she echoed, her tone edging on disbelief.
“Yeah, of course.” Clint chuckled. “What’s Christmas without presents? Just this?”
Rogue hummed hesitantly, leaning against him a bit more as her eyes shifted back to her brother up in the sky. “This isn’t so bad.”
Clint felt warmth in his heart, and he smiled softly down at her. He couldn’t help but think that she was right. They really didn’t need anything else… presents or no presents, good food or something burnt, they were all together. Clint would have never guessed just how much of a difference that would make.
All the same, they did have presents. And it was cold outside. Clint shivered as a sharp wind crossed the property, and he patted Rogue’s arm gently. “Well, if we don’t hurry, Sean’s probably going to go nuts. Want to see if you can call Warren down while I go get Scott?”
Rogue smiled, a soft sigh leaving her chest before she nodded and pulled away. Clint followed her, standing up as she did and rubbing at his own shoulders as he did. How had she been out here for so long? It was freezing . Rogue really reminded him a lot of Natasha; similar red hair, similar withering glare, similar resistance to the elements… he couldn’t help but wonder if the girl would one day follow the same path that he, Nat, and Laura all took and join SHIELD. She definitely had what it would take; all of them did.
Maybe that would be when he finally told Fury about the fact that he adopted six mutant kids. That would be a fun reveal.
Clint chuckled at the thought, shoving his hands into his pockets as he gave the sky one more look. Warren was circling now, and he seemed a bit closer. Clint gave the boy a wide wave, hoping that he could see it, then turned back to Rogue.
“Speaking of Scott, have you seen him? If he was inside I missed him.”
Rogue nodded, gesturing vaguely in the direction of the barn. “He headed out there this morning. Not sure what he’s working on this time.”
Clint nodded. That made sense; Scott had been out in the barn a lot over the past few weeks, ever since they had all moved down to the farmhouse for the holidays. It was still undecided as to whether or not the kids would come back with him to the Tower once he was inevitably called back to the city, but with the way that each of them had started to find their own little nooks of the farm— Scott hanging out in the barn, Warren clinging to the skies above the farmhouse, Kitty constantly slipping into the kitchen with Laura, and Rogue always hanging around with the chickens— it seemed like they really were making a home here. The other Avengers would probably be a bit miffed, but Clint was starting to see the kids staying home more and more.
It was going to be hard to keep the six of them from Fury. Clint had wanted to wait until they were a bit older at least, but he was going to be taking so many more days off now that the man was bound to get suspicious. Thankfully, both Phil and May were in on it at this point, and Clint knew that they were happy to help out in pulling Fury’s blinders down for just a bit longer. At this point, it was just funny.
Snow crunched softly under his boots as he headed down a familiar track to the barn. It was covered in a soft layer of white, just like everything else under the morning sun, and the roof was sparkling and shimmering brightly in the cold air. The handle of the door was cold under his ungloved palm, and the wood creaked as he pushed it open with a huff of breath that was white in the cold air. The door swung inwards, and little flakes of snow drifted down on Clint’s head as he stepped inside.
The barn was dimly lit, sunlight filtering in through dirty glass panes that were frosted over with the cold outside, a few electric lanterns flickering where they were hung up by the big, empty horse stalls. Most of the barn was empty, actually, since they had stopped keeping horses years ago. Usually the only thing in here was the long-broken tractor — something that he was still trying to find some excuse to get Tony to fix — and Lucky whenever he slipped in through the broken boards in the back left corner. The building probably needed some repairs, if Clint was honest, and now that they had a couple reckless little kids running around it might finally be time to invest in that; he didn’t even have to stretch his imagination to know that it would not be long before someone got hurt out here, with the kid’s habits.
A bark from the shadows told Clint that Lucky had indeed made his way out into the barn today, and Clint grinned as he heard a soft curse from somewhere in the corner at the dog’s sudden noise.
“Scott?” Clint called into the decrepit building. His voice echoed back at him. “Are you out here?”
The second muffled curse was all that Clint needed to confirm his suspicions. His grin deepened and he stepped further into the barn, peering around the heap of sheets that the old tractor hid under, looking for the boy in the shadows.
“Come on,” Clint called. “We’ve got about half an hour before breakfast is ready, and I think Sean’s going to want to open at least one present before then…”
“Wait, wait!” There was a muffled crash, and Clint did anything but wait. He practically ran around the corner, his boots skidding on the dusty dirt floor as his heart jumped into his throat, a flash of panic flickering through him at all the possibilities of that noise, all the things in the rickety barn that could have fallen or broken or…
…or been dragged down by a teenage boy as he desperately tried to cover something up, and fairly unsuccessfully too. Scott was breathing hard, one arm out to block the old workbench that was attached to the wall behind him. His bangs no longer hung over the rims of his red glasses, and his furrowed brow was more visible now as he frowned. He and Clint stared at each other for a moment, a tense silence hovering in the cold air between them, both breathing a little bit harder than usual. A knocked-over crate of arrows lay on the floor, bits and pieces strewn in the dirt beneath them. Lucky let out a bark, hoping up from the corner to sniff at the items while Clint and Scott had their stare-down.
“Scott?” Concern and confusion filled Clint’s voice, his eyes darting from the floor to the boy in front of him. “Uh… what are you working on, bud?”
Scott winced as Clint’s eyes caught on the scattered arrowheads, and a strange sort of guilt seemed to settle on his shoulders as he shifted awkwardly. His glasses were settled firmly over his eyes— a new pair, actually, one that Tony had insisted was even better despite Scott’s utter protests— and his left arm still tightly wrapped in a cast. There were still bandages wrapped around his torso too, Clint knew, but the scrapes across his face had mostly faded by this point, only one or two leaving scars behind. The boy ducked his head, fiddling with the sleeves of his red hoodie as he glanced guiltily at the table that was shoved up against one wall of the barn. There was something on top of it, but Scott had managed to drag at least one box mostly in front of it.
“I, uh… I thought you’d be inside for a bit longer.”
“Well, I’m not,” Clint said casually. He tried to get a better look at whatever it was that Scott had been working on, but the boy moved a bit further in front of it, his head still tilted down in embarrassment. “What’s got you out here so early, Scott? It’s Christmas Day.”
“Exactly!” Scott blurted out quickly, his cheeks flushing as he said it. The boy looked incredibly embarrassed, and despite himself Clint couldn’t help but grin at his flustered expression. “I couldn’t finish it last night, and I thought I could get it done before you got up…”
Clint felt even more confused now, and he tilted his head slightly. “Finish what?”
Scott groaned quietly, his right hand raising up to run through his recently cut brown hair. A bit of fondness flickered through Clint at the familiar gesture, at the way Scott’s bangs no longer flopped over the top of his glasses, but it was overcome by curiosity as Scott once again ducked his head, muttering something that Clint couldn’t quite make out.
“What was that?”
“Nothing.”
Clint frowned. “Scott…”
“I was trying to make you a Christmas present, ok?”
Clint blinked, his brain slowly catching up as Scott clenched and unclenched his fists in front of him. The boy seemed wound tight, and there was more tension in his shoulders than there had been for the past several weeks. It was surprising, especially as Clint realized exactly what it was over. The thought made him melt a bit.
“Really?”
“Well, yeah .” Scott huffed lightly, kicking at the ground as he squirmed under Clint’s caring gaze. “You… you guys have done so much for us, I… I wanted to say thank you somehow…”
“Scott,” Clint chuckled lightly, shaking his head. “You don’t have to thank us. And if you really want to, all you have to do is say it.”
“Yeah, well sometimes saying it doesn’t feel like enough,” Scott admitted, his voice quickening a bit as he spoke. “Sometimes I just want to do a bit more.”
Clint bit his tongue, swallowing another comment that Scott didn’t have to do anything to thank them. Instead he just quietly smiled and quietly watched as Scott shifted awkwardly. Lucky had stopped sniffing at the fallen arrows and was instead nudging at Scott’s hand, and Clint watched fondly as the boy relented and scratched the dog behind the ears. The silence reigned for a bit longer before Clint decided to speak. “Can… can I see it? Or do you want to wait until we get inside?”
Scott shrugged, then paused and shook his head. “I mean, it’s really not much, but you’re already out here, so…”
Clint stayed quiet as Scott hesitated for another brief moment, then seemed to shake himself off and make his decision. He scooped the item off the desk, his back to Clint for a brief moment as he grabbed it and then shoved it out before he could hesitate any longer. “I was having trouble wrapping it, so just… here.”
Clint wanted to chuckle at Scott’s awkwardness, but the moment that he saw the thing in the boy’s hands everything in his throat died. He reached out, his hands shaking ever so slightly as he took the item,
Scott was quiet, but Clint could feel his eyes on him as he ran his fingers over the corners of Scott’s gift. He could see where the boy was having a bit of trouble wrapping it; the thing was fairly rough, and it looked like it had probably ripped the paper at least once. The exterior was wood, wood from around this very barn, if Clint had to guess. Maybe it was from one of the old crates lying around, maybe it was one of the planks that had fallen away from the back left corner. Wherever it was from, it had been completely repurposed, cut down and thinned slightly till it was a square roughly the size of a large book. Which, as Clint turned it over, he realized that was what it was; two slabs of wood fashioned together into a large, roughly covered book. He cracked it open, grinning at the brightly colored pages, cocking his head to the side as he realized that they were blank. Every page in the book was blank except for the very first one, a bright green page that was mostly covered by a large, printed picture that Clint instantly recognized and that instantly made him inhale. It was from Thanksgiving, a picture that Natasha had taken of the eight of them, the kids and Laura and him all standing out in the field, laughing as Sean chased Lucky across the yard. It was beautifully unposed, wonderfully real, and it was of all of them. All of them just living , being with each other, laughing.
Lucky trotted over, offering a curious bark at the item in Clint’s hands as the man stared at it, emotions swirling through his chest as he tried to think of words to say.
“It’s supposed to be a photo album,” Scott blurted out, his voice wavering with doubt as he said it. “Or whatever you want to use it for honestly, I just… well it’s what I could think of and what I could make…”
“Scott…” Clint said slowly, and he was surprised at just how much his voice wavered. The emotions that he had been feeling all morning were rising up in his chest again, and he had to swallow hard before he could continue. “I didn’t, uh, didn’t know you were the crafty type.”
“I’m not,” Scott deadpanned, and that made Clint laugh. “I made the measurements and such, the easy stuff. Sean had the idea originally, Warren found the wood, Rogue helped me actually put it together, Kitty insisted we did all the pages in different colors, Kurt said we should put at least one picture in it for you and… well, everyone agreed with that so…”
“I’m glad,” Clint said, his voice nearly breaking as he spoke. He blinked quickly, clearing his throat before continuing. “That’s my favorite part.”
Scott glanced up at him, something akin to suspicion on his face as he waited for confirmation. “Really?”
“Definitely.” Clint smiled wider and crap , were those tears in his eyes? He certainly felt choked up, and his throat was definitely closing up a bit as he sniffed, one hand rubbing at his eyes as the other gripped the photo album tightly. “I love it, Scott. I love it so much.”
Scott still looked on guard, as if he didn’t quite believe Clint’s words. “Really?”
“Yeah, bud.” Clint moved forward, gently setting the album on the table next to them before wrapping his arms around Scott. The boy stiffened slightly in surprise, but it only lasted about a second before he was hugging Clint back, a heavy breath shaking his shoulders as he leaned into the embrace. “Yeah, I really love it.”
They stayed like that for a moment, just leaning into each other. Lucky sniffed at their ankles, but even the dog stayed quiet. It was as if he could sense the reverence of this moment, and Clint almost laughed. The dog was smarter than he was, sometimes.
“You know…” Clint said slowly, his arms still tight around Scott as he spoke. “Since I got an early peek at my present… it's only fair that you get a hint at one, right?”
Scott shifted under his grip. “You didn’t have to get us anything.”
Clint laughed. “Yeah right. That thing about wanting to give something? That applies to adults too, you know.”
Scott didn’t even object to not being included with the adults. The thought warmed Clint’s heart, and he smiled quietly.
“Besides, this one isn’t completely a surprise,” he said slowly, thoughtfully. “It’s just paperwork. Nothing super exciting.”
Clint could hear the hitch in Scott’s breathing. “Paperwork?”
“Yeah, I know. Kinda boring.” Clint grinned mischievously, rubbing a hand over Scott’s back as he tilted his head to the side. “It’s for something important though, so…”
“What paperwork?”
“You know, just… paperwork.”
“ Clint .” Scott pulled back a bit, his eyes meeting Clint’s from behind the protective lenses of his glasses. “Are you saying…”
“It’s official. Everything went through.” Clint hesitated, then shrugged a bit. “Well, mostly , I mean there’s always some little strings that need to be tied up and everything, but the main stuff is in place…”
“Are you serious?” Scott’s tone was flat, disbelieving, and the boy shook his head. “No way, that’s too fast, that’s… that’s impossible.”
Clint chuckled, shrugging a bit, his hands still gripping Scott’s shoulders gently. “What can I say? Turns out Tony’s lawyers are really efficient. Like, scarily so.”
“But—“
“No buts. They got it through.” Clint smiled softly, squeezing Scott’s shoulders as he did. “We’re not leaving, Scott. We’re not going to be leaving you.”
Scott’s shoulders started shaking again, this time with something more than just a heavy breath. He threw himself forward, his arms wrapping around Clint in a strong embrace that Clint returned with fever. Now was when Lucky decided to bark, and Clint had a feeling that the dog was concerned about the tears that were forming in both his and Scott’s eyes. This time, neither of them made an attempt to wipe them away.
“Come on,” Clint said softly, running his hand through Scott’s hair as he did. “Sean’s not going to wait for us much longer, if he’s still waiting at all.”
Scott chuckled, and it was a beautifully broken sound. No, Clint thought. It was not broken. Cracked, sure, but it was a wonderfully, wonderfully whole sound. It was the sound of something that had been broken and pieced back together, a picture that was slowly, surely, being formed into something new. It was the sound of healing. It was the sound of family.
Clint had a feeling that they were going to be putting that photo album to good use.
Notes:
Wow. That's it. We're done.
This fic has meant so much for me for quite a long time. I wrote almost this entire thing before I posted a word of it, but being able to put it here and share it with people? To be able to see reactions, to see the frustration at character's stubbornness, to see other people begin to love these characters the way I do? This is absolutely surreal. I am so, so thankful for this opportunity. If you made it this far, then thank you.
This won't be the end of this AU! I've already got a little Kurt and Rogue prequel up, and I have a couple of one-shots in the works that I'll probably post some time in January, and then just whatever else pops up in my mind! I'm way too attached to this AU to stop writing them, lol.
One last time, I want to invite everyone to my Discord server! I'm going to spend the next several days rambling about could-have-beens with this fic, including the original twist that would have added 50k+ words, deleted characters, and how scenes changed from the first draft to the final. Plus, I'm going to start talking about my next Big Fic, (which is like half the size of this but still pretty decent) which will start going up in January! All that to say we have fun on the server and would love to have you chime in, come hang out!
Thank you again for sticking through this journey. Whether you comment or are a silent reader, I really appreciate you being here and experiencing this with us all. It means so much. Really.
I hope you enjoyed this story, and remember to stay creative <3
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