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Nene feels like it has been a lifetime since she has seen Hanako’s face. Emotions suffocate her when they run towards the crumbling stone building. Water is cold, almost as freezing as the hand she is holding. She wonders when had cold started to feel like home. In another life she might have chosen differently. But in this one she chooses grief and soul crushing love. Nene sees Hanako in everything, his eyes in the golden sky of sundown and his grin in the stars Hanako so loves. Her infinite curiosity has turned into something much deeper.
Go on, go on
Leave me breathless
Come on
Hey, yeah
Hanako holds her as she sobs. It echoes in the hall, noise bouncing from wall to wall, and makes everything infinitely more devastating. Every sob is a laceration in Hanako’s meekly beating heart. Her warmth surrounds his whole being in an odd metaphor of their relationship. She is fire like he is ice, in both literal and figurative way.
The daylight's fading slowly
But time with you is standing still
I'm waiting for you only
The slightest touch and I feel weak
Nene knows their time together is limited. Anger and happiness take turns in filling her in a way that makes her anxious. Hanako sounds bitter when he mentions he’s dead. It makes Nene flinch. She knew it all already. He moves unnaturally and does what he wants. His strangeness sets him apart from her. Any semblance of understanding between them was always taken away by him. It makes her restless and agitated. An old fear of hers resurfaces when he refuses to confess his feelings. Always the one who never gets picked. She quivers when embarrassment upsets her.
I can not lie
From you, I can not hide
And I'm losing the will to try
Can't hide it (can't hide it)
Can't fight it (can't fight it)
Hanako likes everything about Nene. He busies his hands with the hem of his top. For a moment he feels alive, like a normal nervous teenage boy. Nene’s hair is glowing slightly when few droplets of water slide down her long locks. Hanako notices how she holds herself, clearly distraught. There is nothing he can do to hide it anymore. He throws his arms around her and buries his face in the crook of her neck. Nene is stiff, but doesn’t push him away. There is a distant pinch in his heart, so faint it risks not being noticed. It’s all wrong in every single level. Hanako moves and she shudders. For this time only, this is alright.
So go on, go on
Come on, leave me breathless
Tempt me, tease me
Until I can't deny this
Loving feeling
Make me long for your kiss
Go on, go on
Yeah, come on
Yeah
Hanako almost admits his feelings for her sheepishly. There is a tension coiling up inside her heart she needs him to release. And this time he does. His hands are silky smooth ice. Every brush of his fingers against hers earns a shaky inhale from Nene. Hanako’s face is cherubic and pleading as his eyebrows furrow. There’s unusual seriousness in the air. She is engrossed in his glowing eyes. Nene tries to paint a picture of this single moment to her memory. His eyes soften as hers glimmer with shyness. Nene tries to hold on to it all, to every little sweep of fingers. She loves him desperately and sweetly, and wants him to love her back. Hanako swallows roughly and places one hand on her cheek.
And if there's no tomorrow
And all we have is here and now
I'm happy just to have you
You're all the love I need somehow
He loves her skin. It’s baby soft and warm. He loves her eyes. Even when they shine with tears right now, they are beautiful like rubies. He loves how she says his name. Especially the way the corners of her mouth curve upwards like his name is something precious. He takes a deep inhale and thinks of how it would feel to hear her say Amane. He loves her fiery spirit. Even when she yells at him. He loves how she never gives up. In retrospect he should have guessed she would come after him. But most of all he loves how she makes him feel. Nene closes her eyes, her long eyelashes fluttering down and a single teardrop escaping. Little droplet falls on his hand on her cheek when he chases her slightly parted lips.
It's like a dream
Although I'm not asleep
And I never want to wake up
Don't lose it (don't lose it)
Don't leave it (don't leave it)
It’s a chaste and shy kiss. More of a press until Nene remembers to tilt her head like the heroines of her mangas do when kissed for the first time. Hanako feels warmer than usual, or perhaps it’s her own body radiating heat. They have had more skin contact than usual today. It should feel wrong but instead it feels like a fairytale. When he tries to pull away, she clutches the front of his top. They look at each other with half-lidded dreamy eyes.
So go on, go on
Come on, leave me breathless
Tempt me, tease me
Until I can't deny this
Loving feeling
Make me long for your kiss
Go on, go on
Yeah, come on
Few more tears run down Nene’s cheeks when Hanako presses another kiss on her lips. He notices a small hint of her strawberry lip balm. There is a desperation to how they hold each other with Nene gripping his top like her life depends on it and Hanako bunching up the hair at the back of her head in his fist. He hates talking about himself and his feelings. But if the girl in his arms would ask him if he loves her, right now he would answer.
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
And I can't lie
From you, I can not hide
And I've lost my will to try
Can't hide it (can't hide it)
Can't fight it (can't fight it)
They are breathless after the kisses. She holds onto him tight and buries herself into his embrace. Questions about what will happen next bubble inside her but she refuses to acknowledge them for now. She tells him how happy she is and he hums, choked up by his own emotions. Flush climbs on his cheeks now and Nene smiles when she notices the red tint at the tips of his ears. She takes a moment to appreciate the absurdity of the situation. While nesting her head on his shoulder, she feels at home.
So go on, go on
Come on, leave me breathless
Tempt me, tease me
Until I can't deny this
Loving feeling
Make me long for your kiss
Hanako snakes one arm around her waist and the other in her hair. He has held her before, mainly because of his clingy nature, but never quite like this. It’s quiet around them and Hanako can hear Nene’s heart beating. He tried to save her. It was the first time he had cared if someone lived or died. Nene feels like his future, which makes it all the more bittersweet to know how limited their time together is. He is already sure he won’t be able to move on from her. Times like these make Hanako want to pinch himself, just to make sure he isn’t dreaming. His soul is surrounded by everything that is Nene. The smell of her body wash on her neck is intoxicating. From now on, his skin would hurt in the absence of hers.
Go on, go on
Come on, leave me breathless
Go on, go on
Come on, leave me breathless
Go on, go on
Come on, leave me breathless
Go on, go on