Chapter 1: Road to Hell
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Nico found the limit of a demigod's strength after two weeks of starving himself in the fields of Asphodel. He fell, scattering shades, and he felt his heart fluttering, weakening. His vision darkened to a field of black.
His eyes opened to shimmering grey reeds writhing above him. His skull may as well have been fused to the ground, because he could not move. He welcomed it. Welcomed the darkness. He closed his eyes again, willingly this time.
A ghostly whisper echoed in his ears. He ignored it. The sound was too faint to make out; probably a curious shade poking at him. Then, like a drip of cool water on his skin, a kiss was pressed to his forehead.
He shot upright.
“Bianca?” He called out, searching the field. “Bianca!”
None of the shades turned to face him. Their low murmuring and wind-like whispers were the same as they always were, repeating fragments of their earthly conversations among themselves, endlessly looping through mundane, meaningless memories.
If Bianca had been there, she was gone.
Nico sat with his legs splayed. He'd passed out. Had he dreamed her? He had a sick feeling that she may have visited and then left again. It seemed like something she'd do. She had to be in this crowd somewhere.
Nico swallowed. He didn't want to accept it. But the truth was that he would never find Bianca unless she wanted to be found.
He didn't want to think about what that meant for him. He didn't want to question the reason for his searching. He could only go on, wandering, peering into the near featureless faces of the hundreds of thousands of shades.
If he couldn't find her, he could wait for her to choose to find him.
If he died in the process, it could only make it easier.
His stomach was eating itself, but he blocked out the pain, thinking of death. There was little else to think about in the fields of Asphodel. His mind was fuzzy on details. He was so deprived of sleep and food that it simply wasn't functioning at the moment.
The shades didn't feel tired or hungry. There was no want or need in Asphodel. It was grey and eerie and literally lifeless, but it was painless and quiet and in his grief, Nico envied every last one of the lingering ghosts. Whatever had troubled them on earth, they had been freed of the burden and left to rest for eternity. Who could ask for more?
Bianca, he thought. She could ask for rebirth. She might be brave and stupid enough. He couldn't imagine choosing more life, more struggle, when the silent darkness brought him so much solace in his pain. Grief was a knife through the heart no matter where you were, but at least no one in the underworld expected him to socialize.
He took a deep breath, steeling himself to try to stand. He would die down here eventually, which would be convenient. He weighed whether it was better to see his father while he was still alive, or after he was dead. He'd been procrastinating that little task for as long as he'd been down there, hoping to bring Bianca's shade before him so that they could both ask for her resurrection together. Dual puppy dog eyes had worked wonders for them in a pinch. But truthfully, if his father intended to even so much as hear him out, he could just as easily summon her shade to him.
Would Hades hear him out, though? Would he care? Nico didn't have reason to believe his father would deliberately refuse to talk to him, but he figured it would also depend on how busy he was. He didn't have the luxury of checking the underworld schedule and booking a time slot.
Didn't he?
Nico frowned. It began to frustrate him that his mind was so sluggish, because the idea that had coming to him was actually kind of good. Alecto would have Hades' schedule. She'd be able to pencil him in. If she wasn't willing to do that for a son of Hades, Hades would definitely not be willing to resurrect Bianca for him. He may as well find out from Alecto rather than his father.
He took another deep breath and rose onto wobbly legs. Find Alecto, he thought to himself. He had a vague sense of her in the distance. Furies were powerful beings, and this one he knew personally, so his attunement to the underworld ecosystem made it possible for him to just start walking in her direction.
He wandered through the fields, and within a few minutes he reached a clearing. There was a raised platform, circular, like a small arena. It was made of onyx, and the fury Alecto hovered off to one side of it, whip in hand, wings beating the air.
Three men in Greek chitons sat on thrones, set apart on a dais, observing silently. Behind them Nico could just see the fast flowing waters of the dark Styx.
“The punishment is decided,” the man on the right said, raising a hand.
A small figure in the center of the ring shuddered, his incorporeal form shimmering like water. Recently dead, not yet judged, Nico sensed, but as Alecto raised her whip, his interpretation changed. Judged and sentenced, awaiting punishment.
He watched as the fury descended on the huddled figure, and listened as he shrieked when the whip cracked down on his back. It didn't make a sound like a whip; it made more of a hollow thud each time it landed, like flesh hitting flesh. He thought he heard bones crack. That intrigued him.
He waited for the punishment to finish. The mans screams continued for much longer than the punishment, which had been swift.
Alecto fluttered off the platform and over to Nico the moment she was done. Nico eyed the whip in her hand.
“Enjoy the show?” She said, her voice like knives dragged across rusted metal.
Nico cringed at hearing it. It was so much worse when she wasn't pretending to be human.
“What was that about?” He asked.
“He beat his wife. He got her pain. Now he gets the fear,” she said, glancing back. He was still screaming and shaking.
“How long will it last?”
“They were married ten years before he finally killed her,” she said. “So you tell me.”
Nico nodded, understanding.
“Alecto, have you seen my sister? Her shade, I mean? I know she's here somewhere. I have to find her.”
“Yes, obviously,” she said. “She was judged two weeks ago.”
“Tell me everything you know.”
“You're not my supervisor,” Alecto said.
“I'm a son of Hades,” Nico said. He had no clue what that might mean to her, but he waited.
She frowned.
“Fine,” she sighed, and she sent an image to Nico's brain; her memory of Bianca's judgement.
The three judges stared down the twelve year old girl. She stared back at them defiantly.
“A heroic death for a young huntress,” the one in the center said. The other two nodded agreement. “You have merited Elysium,” he continued.
Bianca smiled softly.
“You may also choose rebirth, and attempt to win a place in the Isles of the Blessed,” the man said. “If you live two more heroic lives, you will have your entry.”
Nico wanted to scream at her, 'choose Elysium! Wait for me there!' If only he'd gotten there sooner, he could have intervened. He knew she was in Asphodel, though, knew it in his bones. How?
“I won't remember my past if I'm reborn,” she said, “Right? I won't remember...” She trailed off. She wouldn't remember Nico.
“Nothing will be left,” the center judge said. “Only your soul. No memories, skills, or experiences.”
“You leave with what you came in with,” the man to the right said. “Check your baggage at the door.”
Bianca looked distraught.
“I want to try,” she said. “But...”
The judges glanced at each other.
“We have other people to judge,” the man on the right said. “It's a simple choice. Rebirth, or Elysium.”
“Can I think about it?” Bianca asked.
His eyes nearly popped out of his head.
“That's against policy,” he said.
At that moment, a shadow behind him shuddered, and a man stepped forward who had been waiting, an invisible presence like living darkness. Bianca looked up at him, tall, thin, and pale, with long black hair.
“Daughter,” Hades said. “Come with me.”
He placed a hand on her head and they both disappeared into shadow.
Alecto and the judges stood for a moment, stunned. Then the man in the center called out, “Next!”
“He has her,” Nico said, the vision ending. He looked up at Alecto. “I need to find her. I need to speak with Hades.”
“He hasn't given me any instruction to bring you to him,” Alecto said. “Or to take orders from you. So, no offense to your father, but you can fuck off.”
She and Nico glared at each other for a moment. Nico noticed one of the judges approaching them, and they both turned to look at him.
He appeared to be in his forties, muscular and sturdily built, with a tan that must have been thousands of years old. He had a thick, glossy black beard, well groomed into shining ringlets, and gently curled hair that fell to his shoulders. His dark brown eyes examined Nico with curiosity.
“This is the brother,” Alecto said.
The man's curiosity doubled.
“I am Minos,” the man said, giving Nico a slight bow. “Once mortal king, now tiebreaker judge of the underworld,” he said. “A pleasure.”
“I don't care who you are,” Nico said. “If you won't help me, then stay out of my way.”
“You can't just walk into Hades' palace. It's guarded,” Minos said. “Cerberos will tear you apart.”
“Cerberos is over there,” Nico pointed toward the Styx. He'd narrowly avoided the beast coming in, and had remained very conscious of where it was located.
“Cerberos can be in two places at once,” Minos said. He seemed to think about it, then reached into a pouch at his waist. “Take this,” he said, holding out a hostess cupcake.
“Is this a joke?” Nico's stomach growled at the sight of it, but he put it out of his mind for the moment.
“Cerberos loves them. Especially the left head,” Minos said. “It'll get you through.”
Nico accepted the cupcake cautiously, eyeing Minos.
“Why are you helping me?” He said suspiciously.
Minos shrugged.
“I want to see what your father does,” he said. “This is a first. Humans have come in looking for people only a handful of times,” he said. “But never a child of Hades.”
Nico's vision wavered, and he staggered a little. Minos' hand reached out and steadied him. Nico shrugged him off.
“Whatever,” he muttered, and turned and started walking in the direction of Hades' palace.
“You're welcome,” Minos called out.
“Rude brat,” Alecto hissed.
Chapter 2: Ambrosia Overdose
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Nico faced down Cerberus.
“Good boy. Nice doggie,” he said. “I have a treat for you,” he added, pulling out the cupcake and waving it, mainly at the left head.
The left head started salivating.
“You want it? Go get it!” He said, tossing it as far as his weak little arm could manage, into the darkness. Cerberus ran after it, barking.
He walked into the onyx palace, climbing the stairs and wishing he'd eaten something. He thought of Bianca, and it propelled him forward. She could be waiting for him.
There were skeleton servants running all around, and braziers glowed with blazing coals in every corner, illuminating small patches of darkness with golden light. He saw large gemstones sticking out of the walls, sparkling with bright patches of color that made the palace go from foreboding to beautiful in Nico's eyes.
He was surprised to see side tables laden with food, mostly fruit and cheese, glistening and ripe. He was so hungry he could almost cry looking at it, but it made him think of Persephone and the pomegranate seeds and he didn't dare touch anything. He was grateful it was April and she wouldn't be there.
The palace was Greek in design, very open, and he could see Hades long before he was anywhere near him, his enthroned figure watching him weave around the columns to approach him.
Nico tried not to totally lose his cool. He knelt before his father, operating based on a vague idea of how he thought people did these things.
“Lord father,” he said, and waited. After a few silent breaths, he looked up and saw that Hades was frowning at him.
“I need to know where she is,” he said, as firmly as he could manage.
“She doesn't want to see you,” Hades said.
“What? Why?”
“I neither know nor care,” Hades said.
“Is she here? Is she okay?”
“Foolish boy,” Hades said. “Of course she is here, where else could she be? How can any harm come to her? It is over. She is dead. ”
Nico was devastated. He couldn't begin to process his disappointment; it was all so overwhelming. Tears welled up in his eyes and began streaming down his cheeks.
The lord of the underworld clucked his tongue.
“I don't know what you were thinking, coming here in such a state,” he said.
“Am I not supposed to be sad?” Nico snapped.
“I meant alive.”
“Oh.”
“If you wanted to be with her, you could have killed yourself,” Hades said. “And I told Orpheus the same when he was here on the same errand. You mortals are so selfish. You want to have your cake and eat it too.”
“That's plan B,” Nico said.
“I expressly forbid you from becoming a suicide,” Hades said. “If you dare, I'll ensure you never see your sister again.”
“I thought you didn't care!” Nico said, horrified that he was being forbidden his only other option.
“There is work on earth I often need performed by proxy,” Hades said. “And I hold a slim hope you may yet bring glory to my name. Very, very, very, very slim,” he added slowly.
Nico's soul felt crushed under an unendurable weight.
“Death will come for you in due time,” Hades said. “For all that you know, you could be hit by a discus next Tuesday. I recommend you relax.”
“But Bianca--” Nico said desperately.
“Bianca waits in the fields, in shadow, on some unknown purpose,” Hades said. “There is nothing you can do about it. And I will not get involved. It isn't my fault the two of you chose to get into a dispute shortly before she died,” he huffed. “Poor timing on your part does not entail an emergency on my part.”
Nico had no response to that. He sat, exhausted in body and spirit, hopeless beyond words.
“Now, about the work I need done in the mortal world,” Hades waved a hand and conjured up a piece of papyrus with bullet points in ancient Greek.
“I don't want to work for you,” Nico said. “That's not why I came here.”
“I don't care,” Hades said. “Consider it a fair consequence for barging into my home uninvited and disrupting my employees' workflow. I am on a tight schedule and I had to push back my 10:30 for you. Anyway, I need you to collect the bones of a martyr. Nyx has been bothering me about it and I owe her a favor,” he muttered. “And Apollo borrowed a magic ring from me a thousand years ago and never returned it. I need you to badger him a bit. And then there's Poseidon, he said he'd send me a hippocampus tail, which was also for Nyx-- I need to ask her what all this is for,” he frowned, “And Ganymede--”
The mention of Poseidon made Nico think of Percy.
“I'm not doing all of that,” he said.
“Ganymede borrowed Persephone's dress for a party and then had it dry cleaned, but he didn't pay the bill. They keep sending invoices. That should not be my responsibility,” he intoned angrily. “And you shall tell him so.”
“Please just let me kill myself,” Nico said.
“I'm having you put on Charon's no ride list,” Hades said. “You can be taken off it when your chores are done. Now take your list and go. Eat something before you leave. You'll not cheat your way out of your duty to your father by starving to death in my house.”
Nico snatched the list and stormed out of the room. He could not believe his bad luck. If he was on the no ride list, he'd be stuck living until he was done with his chores, leaving him no choice but to finish them.
The most infuriating part was that he couldn't even be properly angry with Hades. Bianca was deliberately avoiding him, and it was beginning to dawn on him, painfully, that he was far angrier with her than he was with his father. She'd abandoned him three times now-- leaving, dying, and then ignoring his attempts to contact her in the afterlife. He had no choice now but to try to force her to speak with him, and he had no idea if he could even do that.
He stood in the hallway and started pulling grapes off a nearby vine and eating them, thinking about how one would summon a ghost. He didn't know where to start. He'd done everything thus far by instinct, but it wasn't there now that he needed it.
As the grapes hit his stomach, he began to feel desperately hungry, but nauseous at the same time. It wasn't comfortable to continue eating, but his hand kept plucking the grapes and putting them in his mouth without pause. So that was where his instincts had gone, he thought, redirecting his steps to a table laden with a feast. Dishes of figs, overflowing vats of honey, succulent roast lamb and fish all covered the table. He slid onto one of the benches and started in on the figs, dipping them in honey and eating them with chunks of feta. It tasted literally divine, and he sampled everything he could. No wonder Persephone had eaten the pomegranate seeds, he mused. She must have had incredible willpower to avoid eating her weight in suckling pig with crispy skin.
Before too long Nico felt that he had to stop, because he was beginning to feel tired and sick in a different way from before, other sensations outweighing hunger. He was becoming very thirsty, and he took a gulp from a goblet on the table.
It was wine, a good red wine that tasted familiar, but it made him feel even thirstier. He set the goblet down and peered into a pitcher on the table.
It looked like golden honey and pale cream mixed together, but watery. It smelled wonderful. He sipped it.
It was the best thing he'd ever tasted. Suddenly his thirst was gone, his hunger vanished, and his mind felt clear. He took another gulp and felt like he could run a marathon.
He poured out the pitcher into the goblet, pouring it over the wine because he was in too much hurry to pour that out first. He took a long drink and sighed, his vision practically blurring with a golden aura of joy.
Actually, his vision really was blurring with a golden aura. He drained the goblet and refilled it, intrigued by the fuzzy feeling overcoming him. He took one final sip, then slumped over.
He had strange dreams and felt strange sensations. He heard voices above him, new ones and familiar ones. He felt cold hands lift him and carry him, Hades' voice muttering angrily. He felt those same cold hands brush across his skin, then warm ones, someone touching his forehead and the tips of his fingers.
And he remembered. He was in Italy with his mother and Bianca. He sat on the floor playing while his mother brushed Bianca's hair, the two of them chattering in Italian. He felt two large, cold hands lift him up from behind, and looked up to see Hade's face, smiling at him. He wrapped his arms around his father's neck and was carried onto a balcony. He looked out at a building he felt he ought to know the name of, a huge columned temple with a dome for a roof, with words written across the front that he couldn't read, but for one: Agrippa. It didn't mean anything to him, but it had been seared onto his young brain and preserved in memory.
“Beautiful, isn't it?” Hades said. Nico nodded. Hades said something to Maria over his shoulder, waved a hand, and then shadow traveled with Nico inside the building.
It must have been closed, because it was dark, but Hades waved a hand and lit torches around the room.
The dome of the ceiling made Nico gasp with awe. There was a round portal at the apex of the dome, surrounded by hundreds of square insets that cast fascinating shadows all around the room.
He reached up to grasp, not at the light streaming down from above, but at a shadow that flickered on the edge of the torchlight. As he reached for it, it reached back.
Hades laughed, an icy, bone chilling sound
“That's my boy,” he said. He waved a hand, and the dark shadows behind each torch took on the shape of animals that began dancing around the edges of the room.
Nico exclaimed with joy, “Belissima!”
Then the dream ended.
“Wake up,” Bianca said. “Wake up, stupid. I need you to wake up.”
He blinked his eyes open.
Chapter 3: Accelerated Adolescence
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Standing in a doorway was a figure it took Nico a moment to recognize.
“Minos?” He said, squinting.
Minos turned and ran down the hallway.
“Lord Hades!” He called. “He's awake!”
Nico sat up. His voice had been hoarse; he hadn't sounded right. He felt fine, and very awake, but something was off.
He was lying on a golden couch, with a white linen sheet pulled over him almost like a shroud. He went to pull the sheet off, then paused. He didn't remember his fingers being so... long. Long and white and elegant, like his father's. His nails used to be shredded to nubs, but they were perfect now. How long had he slept?
He pulled the blanket off of himself and gasped. He was not at all the same as he'd been before. He pulled it back onto himself, panicking, then slowly looked again.
He was not in the body of a malnourished ten year old anymore. He looked... Adolescent.
A chill went down his spine. Puberty didn't normally happen this fast, right? Had something happened to him?
He examined his skin. He was still very pale, with only the slightest hint of olive tone to his skin. His complexion usually looked unhealthy and nearly dead, but for some reason now there was a glow about him that actually looked... Nice? He couldn't call it a tan, but like he was hydrated, maybe? He'd never eaten healthy, exercised, or drank water really at all, so he didn't know what health looked like on him, especially in a new body.
Hades glided in, folding his arms across his chest and glowering. Nico looked up at him.
“What did you do?” They both said at once.
“I expressly ordered you not to kill yourself,” Hades said.
“I didn't!” Nico said. “I just fell asleep! What's happened to me?” He realized with horror that he wasn't hoarse, his voice had changed, and it was just deeper now.
“You overdosed on Ambrosia,” Hades said. “Hypnos had to put you into a coma to save your life. You do realize that ambrosia is expressly not for mortals, do you not? It's meant only to be ingested in small quantities. The camp didn't teach you that?”
Nico barely recalled paying attention to Chiron's lessons, even though he was only in them a few weeks ago. Still, they felt incredibly distant in his memory. He realized that his dreams, or what he had thought were dreams, had stayed with him. Everything he'd relived while he was unconscious was now seared into his mind as though it had really happened, visceral and emotive.
“Zeus killed her,” he said.
Hades raised his eyebrows.
“You remember that?”
“I remember everything. Italy. The explosion,” he said. “Alecto dunking us in the Lethe.”
“Ambrosia healed the memory loss,” Hades said. “That was... Unanticipated.”
“I drank a lot of it,” Nico said. “That feels so long ago now. But also like it just happened.”
“You are fortunate my wife took pity on you,” Hades said. “Without her skill you might have been lost.”
“Yeah,” Nico said. He was distracted looking for Bianca's shade. He still sensed her in Asphodel. That hadn't changed. “I still need to see Bianca.”
“Nothing has changed since last we spoke with regards to her,” Hades said. “Or with regards to your chores! Do you know how many invoices I've received for that dry cleaning in the time you've been lying here, lazing about?”
“How, uh,” he swallowed. “How long was I asleep?”
“Time does not exist in the underworld the way it does elsewhere,” Hades said. “There is no way to answer you.”
“But... I look older. A lot older.”
Hades shrugged.
“I have observed you regularly,” he said. “Merely to ascertain whether you would wake to complete your chores. I noticed no drastic change.”
If Hades hadn't noticed him growing older, it couldn't have happened that quickly after all. A pit grew in Nico's stomach. When he'd come down here initially, he'd felt so intensely focused on Bianca, and he couldn't be bothered to worry about missing camp. Now that he knew Bianca had waited in stasis all this time, though, it crossed his mind that things in the mortal world might be drastically different now. It was a frightening thought to have missed so much.
“Stand up,” Hades said, “Let me look at you.”
“But I don't want to--”
A glare from Hades set him to standing, yanking the sheet up with him for modesty. Hades squinted at him.
“I distinctly remember feeling that you resembled a drowned rat,” he said. “That ambrosia fixed it. You're far less of an embarrassment to me now.”
Nico hated himself for how good that felt to hear. He had such low self-esteem that even backhanded compliments were better than nothing.
“That's good, because I've added a few chores that might require a modicum of social tolerability,” he said. “I've got no confidence in you, but you may as well make an attempt at them if you're capable of refraining from giving offense.”
“I can't do stuff like that,” Nico said.
Hades ignored him.
“Where is my patient?” Persephone said, gliding in. She was a petite, soft looking woman in a pink dress, with long brown waves of hair woven with flowers. It was the first time Nico had ever met his stepmother, but she must have felt familiar with him after treating him, because she didn't seem at all uncomfortable.
“I was just telling him how you saved his life,” Hades said forcefully, glaring at Nico.
Nico fumbled with his sheet to be sure he was covered and bowed.
“Thank you, goddess,” he said, nervous at the introduction. Ancient Greek wives didn't tend to be kind to their husbands' extramarital offspring, a fact he'd learned from Mythomagic, and he felt very aware of it in her presence.
“It was no trouble,” she said. “I'm very pleased with my handiwork. My herbs improved you quite a bit,” she said, reaching out and tugging on one of his dark curls, which did look very shiny and bouncy. He hadn't realized his hair was grown out to his shoulders until she did that.
“Look at him, dear,” she mused. “Like you as a youth! If you were ever a youth,” she added.
“A secret lost to history,” Hades muttered.
Nico didn't see his father as handsome, more austere, but nobody compared mortals to gods in their appearance unless they were being hyperbolic. But if she'd given him herbs to make him look better--
“Come, pet,” she said. “Let's get you dressed up properly.”
“He has chores,” Hades said.
“You won't send him to see Apollo dressed in rags, my dear,” she said. “Nor Ganymede. Imagine the cutting little comments he'd make? I know it would reflect badly on our house.”
“Fine,” Hades sighed. “Go and appease her, boy. Be polite,” he intoned darkly.
She escorted him to another wing of the palace.
“This will be your room,” she said. “Do you like it?”
It was an onyx walled room with very little furniture beside a stone bed and a torch that was just a skull with flames coming out of the eyes.
“Yes,” he said, mainly talking about the skull. He shuffled around the room and looked around, feeling kind of awkward talking to her in just a sheet until he realized that was pretty much all anyone wore down here to begin with.
“You may be wondering why I've decided to tolerate you,” she said. “For one thing, I'm not Hera. I think the way she treats her stepchildren is tacky. Secondly, I'm only here half the time. Obviously our marriage is nontraditional, and we like it that way. Well, I do. Hades doesn't dare gripe about me being gone so long when proof of his infidelity is hanging around. That suits me fine.”
That made some sense to Nico, and it was a relief.
“I don't plan on being around much,” he murmured. “I won't bother you.”
She looked at him, puzzled.
“I wasn't under the impression you had anywhere else to go,” she said bluntly. “I know you don't have a cabin at camp. Your father is always ranting about the offense to him.”
He swallowed.
“I can figure something out,” he said. He looked down at his hands. “I'm older now,” he said. “I can take care of myself.”
She clucked her tongue.
“We don't mind you staying,” she said. “It's nice to have a little life down here. Your father is so bored and stressed out most of the time. It's good for him to have you shaking things up a little. Gives him something new to rant about.”
Nico found it hard to believe that, but he held his tongue.
“Get a couple chores crossed off that list, then come back,” she said. “He'll be pleased to see you, even if he doesn't say it. But in the meantime, go and live,” she said. “Enjoy your youth. Savor being up there with the sun and the sky,” she said, grasping his hands. “Then come back and tell me about it.
She left Nico to dress alone. She'd given him a very normal outfit, a plain white t-shirt and jeans, which he was grateful for. He'd probably swap the white for a band shirt and rip the jeans up a bit, but it would work.
He wished there was a mirror, but there wasn't. He hurried out to see his father in the throne room.
“Father,” he said.
Hades frowned.
“Shouldn't you be leaving?”
“I will. If you promise to help me speak to Bianca.”
Hades towered over him, throwing shadows all around.
“You dare make demands of me,” he snarled.
Nico wasn't afraid of him. They may not have a good relationship anymore, but Hades had cared for him too much when he was small to hurt him now. Even if it was for his mother's sake that he spared him, Nico knew he would.
Hades saw that he didn't tremble, and he retreated.
“For your cheek,” he muttered. “Another task. One you will find... Challenging,” he grinned cruelly. “When you complete it, along with the others, only then will I teach you a way you can summon the dead from Asphodel and speak to them.”
“Really?” Nico said, relieved.
“Really,” Hades said.
“Alright,” he said. “I'll get them done in no time. Just wait.”
He shadow traveled away.
Chapter 4: Hospitality
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He was nearly hit by a bus. He stumbled to one side, feeling a rush of air as the bus blew past. He stumbled, dazed, to a sidewalk, where he caught his breath, nauseous and exhausted from traveling.
Pedestrians gave him a wide berth, staring at him curiously. When he'd caught his breath, he stared back.
Everyone around him looked East Asian, and he could see Chinese characters on buildings and signage. He didn't know very much about Asian languages, so he couldn't be sure, but he thought he might be in China. He knew it was a huge country, so odds were good that was where he'd accidentally landed.
He walked down the street, his stomach rumbling. In the underworld he hadn't been hungry at all, an aftereffect of the ambrosia, probably, but now he was ravenous.
He found a familiar sign glowing in the distance and headed toward it. KFC, there was no mistaking it. He hurried inside and found a menu with pictures, and hastily pointed at the cheapest thing he saw.
It occurred to him too late that he had no money, until he patted his pocket instinctually and found something there. A credit card-- black, no writing on it.
He handed it to the cashier tentatively. She didn't seem put off by dealing with a foreigner who didn't understand what she was saying. She swiped the card and the order rang up immediately.
She handed it back, and before she could turn away, Nico placed another, much larger order. She took it in stride and ran the card again. No issue this time either.
Nico stood in a corner to wait for his food, heart racing. It made sense his father had given him some money; he was the god of wealth, after all, and Nico was working for him-- but the windfall was unexpected and very exciting. It struck him that he could go wherever he wanted, after some recovery time and maybe a little studying of maps. Time moved differently in the underworld, and it seemed like his father and Bianca both would wait at least a while longer. Nico could do literally anything.
A crushing sense of sadness invaded suddenly, as it dawned on him that without Bianca here, there was nothing worth doing anymore. He didn't want to see the world if they couldn't be together. He didn't know how to live without her.
He collected his food and found a park to sit and eat in. It had pathways lined with giant trees and a huge lake full of little boats. Families paddled around in the boats, laughing and making memories, and he watched them, eating mindlessly, feeling hollow.
Persephone had told him to appreciate this, he recalled, and he felt bad that he couldn't. He walked out to a bridge and stood on it, leaning on the railing and looking out over the water. He tried to see his face in the reflection, but it wasn't clear enough. There were lotus buds filling the lake beneath the bridge, but they hadn't bloomed, just little green bundles awaiting their glorious birth. The goddess of spring hadn't visited them yet, he thought, throwing a piece of KFC biscuit out to the ducks.
Suddenly, all at once, the lotuses burst into life, like an explosion of pink starburst colored glory. There was something about them that was larger, brighter, more vibrant than seemed entirely natural.
The people in the boats exclaimed with joy and began taking photos. Nico quirked a smile as Persephone spoke inside his mind.
“Try to have fun, dear. You're not dead yet.”
“Thank you,” he said, meaning it. He'd needed that small act of kindness. It helped push him forward.
Bianca, he thought. I have to do these chores if I want to see Bianca. He looked down at the list.
He didn't know the first thing about how to get in touch with these people, but a handful of them lived on Olympus, so that would have to be his first stop. It left a bad taste in his mouth, but if his father had refused to go there for decades, it only made sense that Nico would have to go in his place.
If he recalled correctly, Olympus was on the top of the Empire State Building. He didn't like his odds of making it all the way to North America in his current state, and he wasn't willing to risk drowning in the Pacific ocean, but it struck him that Olympus might still be reachable from Greece, too. There must be a way.
He'd need a computer, and wifi, and sleep, and some practice traveling. Okay, he could handle that, the thought, standing and heading to a tourist information booth.
The information booth worker was a friendly young man named Wang Jianyu. He spoke English, and informed Nico very helpfully that he was in Beihai park in Beijing, China. Wang Jianyu went out of his way to assist Nico in locating a place to stay.
“Thanks so much,” Nico said, armed with directions to an international hostel nearby. “I appreciate it.”
“Stay safe, young man,” the man added, smiling. “Enjoy Beijing. Be sure to try some local cuisine and not just KFC.”
“I will,” Nico said, and headed towards his temporary home.
The hostel staff all spoke English, and he booked himself a private room without issues. The hostel itself had a large courtyard with a koi pond and picnic tables, a game room, and a computer room with internet. He felt really lucky to have found it with Wang Jianyu's help. Yet another person had been kind to him today. He wasn't sure if he was really that pitiful, a child in a teenager's body wandering scared and alone in a foreign land, but even the hostel staff seemed worried about him. He'd have to try to be more stoic and collected if he were going to Olympus. He could do this, he thought. He had to.
He found his room with no trouble, walking in to find a small, tidy bed with the hostel logo printed on them. It was a little panda holding a sign saying “Welcome to Panda International Traveler's Lodge,” and winking.
Nico wasn't the biggest fan of cute stuff, but Bianca would have loved it. She adored pandas, baby seals, puppies, kittens, stuff like that. Tears filled his eyes, and he slumped on the bed, trying not to start crying. If he started, he'd probably never stop, and he had to keep pushing forward. He could see her again if he just persevered.
He glanced up and nearly jumped out of his skin. There was a mirror on the wall next to the bed. He'd caught a glimpse of himself and thought there was a stranger in his room. He stood slowly and peeked at this person in the mirror that he didn't recognize anymore.
He was tall, thin, but not skeletal like he had been. He actually had visible muscle tone on his arms. He pulled his shirt up and saw a flat white stomach with faint suggestions of abdominal muscles.
He ran his hand across them slowly, following them down to his waistband. He paused there, feeling like he wasn't ready to confront the rest of the changes yet. He'd been ten a few days ago. He didn't know a lot about puberty, and he felt overwhelmed thinking about all the weird, gross milestones he'd slept through. He'd deal with it later, he told himself, turning his attention to his face.
He did look like his father. He and Hades shared the same prominent nose, but Hade's was thinner and longer, and his was more Roman. His eyebrows were thicker and longer than before, squared, framing his dark eyes. His jaw was more square, his chin pointed like his dad's, and his cheekbones were visible; his face still looked thin as it always had, his skin white as ivory.
He was sort of handsome, he thought. Gross. He didn't like the thought of people looking at him and thinking that. He affected a glower. That helped him feel more like himself.
He was too tired to keep looking at himself. It was only exhausting him more with the weirdness of it. He crawled into bed, sighing deeply. He was a teenager. It was so weird, but worse, it was sad. He was older than Bianca would ever get to be.
He corrected himself. She'd become an immortal huntress at twelve; she'd chosen not to grow up. He'd have always out-aged her eventually. She'd chosen, happily, to leave him alone to age and die, without her, while she'd live out a fantasy of eternal youth.
And she'd died. So much for that. A deep, dark part of him found the irony almost funny. Almost. But he didn't want to think about that. He fell asleep, feeling angry and sad and sick.
After his nap, he woke up ready to research a way to Olympus. He headed to the computer room and looked up Mount Olympus on Wikipedia. 10,000 people climbed it each year. He figured at least some of those people had to be demigods visiting their parents.
How to get there, though... He'd have to travel a good distance west. He couldn't fly; he didn't have a passport or ID, so he'd shadow travel.
He went out shopping that morning and bought a few days worth of snacks and drinks, a black backpack and a dark grey sweatshirt. He replaced the sandals he'd gotten from Persephone with sneakers and got a black beanie for warmth.
The last thing he bought was a blanket. He tucked his supplies into his backpack, then stepped into a dark alleyway and took a deep breath.
“West,” he thought, picturing the landmark he'd seen on Google Images. “West. I can do this.”
He shadow traveled, and fell through darkness to an unknown destination.
It was night when he arrived. He looked around, squinting, but all he saw were square houses surrounding him, a residential neighborhood. Windows and doors were all shut. He saw nothing to indicate where he was.
He started walking until he found a bench he could nap on, to regain his strength for more traveling. He pulled out his blanket and pulled it over him.
He woke in the morning to an old woman shaking him awake. He couldn't understand her, so he just stood and apologized a few times, then ran away. To his surprise, she followed him, still talking, and he let her catch up to him.
She took his arm and dragged him to a house. A large family was sitting down eating breakfast. She shoved him in front of the table and indicated for him to eat with them.
“Do any of you speak English?” He asked. A few of them shook their heads no. “Bukhara?” He said, naming the city he'd intended to go to as a rough halfway point.
“Zimovki,” the old woman said. She pointed West. “Bukhara,” she said, indicating the direction with wave.
Nico was thrilled he'd gotten relatively close. After the meal he bid goodbye to them gratefully and traveled again, picturing heading west, to Greece, to Olympus.
He didn't make it. He was in a bustling city, with a huge domed building with minarets to one side of him. He found signs in English. Istanbul, he read, the sign swimming with ancient Greek and English and Arabic letters mixing up together. Hagia Sophia, he made out, and looked up at the building.
It was stunning. The weather was beautiful, and the city was full of interesting shopping, fragrant food, and fascinating architecture. He looked around, and, not seeing a convenient place to sleep that wouldn't lead to his arrest relatively quickly, he walked into the first hotel he found and rented a room. He ordered himself a ridiculous amount of room service, then fell asleep and forgot he ordered it.
He woke up to knocking on the door, and groggily stumbled out to find a tray full of food waiting for him. He'd ordered a bean salad, meatballs, dumplings, and a family sized pistachio baklava.
He devoured it all very quickly. It occurred to him that he was eating a lot more than he used to; he remembered that during his lonely days at camp he'd often subsisted on a handful of gummy bears and a piece of toast for an entire day of physical activities. Shadow traveling made him tired and hungry, but he wondered if he also had to make up for not eating during his Abrosia induced coma.
He glanced up and had an idea. He opened the window curtain and let the sunlight in. He didn't recoil from it, exactly, but it was a close one.
He put a piece of baklava on a plate and set it in front of the view, in the sunshine.
“Hi,” he prayed to Persephone. “Am I doing this right?”
The baklava disintegrated in a little flare of smoke and light.
“Hm. Pretty good,” she said through his mind. “Almost as good as the Greek kind.”
“Are those better?”
“I'm just kidding. They're both lovely. Although you can make up your own mind when you get to Greece. That is a beautiful view, though,” she said. “Keep going. I'll be watching over you.”
He felt her presence leave him, feeling brighter and warmer than he had before. He understood why his father had stolen her. He was becoming a big fan of his stepmom.
He thought about sleeping some more, but he wasn't tired any longer. He felt buoyed by Persephone's support, and decided to do something she'd approve of and explore for just a little bit longer. He walked to the Hagia Sophia and got a ticket to see the interior.
The scale of it was vast and indescribably beautiful, with intricate details throughout the imposing domes and archways inside. He was fascinated by the colors and patterns, the way the light glowed through the windows, and the quiet majesty that surrounded him.
For a little while, surrounded by so much beauty, his mind was quiet. He read the signs, learned the history of the place, and found himself thinking of Bianca a little less than usual. He walked out contentedly, and shadow traveled to Greece, his heart feeling a little lighter.
He arrived in the middle of the night, but he could tell immediately that he'd come to the right place. He could actually see Mount Olympus in front of him, looming in the night sky. It wasn't all that impressive looking.
He was standing in a parking lot, and he was pretty sure he'd made it to Litochoro, the town where Wikipedia said most hikers began their journeys. All he needed to do now was locate someone with a connection to the gods and ask if there was a trick to getting to Olympus. He really didn't feel like climbing all that way.
He strolled down the street, seeing small buildings, closed shops and offices. It looked like restaurants were still open. He wasn't too hungry or tired this time. Istanbul hadn't really been that far away compared to his previous journeys.
He passed by the small Greek restaurants, brightly lit and filled with music and lively conversation. It annoyed him that he could understand Ancient Greek but not modern. How unhelpful was that? They didn't even sound anything alike to his ears.
Luckily, he passed a restaurant that had a big picture of the leaning tower of Pisa and a picture of lasagna on the sign, and he stepped in.
“Do you speak Italian?” He asked the waitress, a dark haired young woman with tired eyes.
“Yes,” she responded.
“Can you tell me if there's anywhere I can talk to someone who knows about the ancient gods?” He asked. “Someone who goes up and down the mountain a lot?”
She frowned, thinking.
“My mom would know,” she said. “Come to the back with me.”
She led him to the back of the kitchen, where a middle aged heavyset woman was stirring a pot of soup.
“Mama, this man wants to know where he can find a history expert who also hikes,” the waitress said.
“Why?” The woman looked at him, baffled, gesturing her confusion. It made Nico smile immediately; it reminded him of his grandmother, who had gesticulated a lot even by Italian standards.
“Sorry, I should explain,” he said. “I need to talk to someone about a project I'm working on about the ancient gods. It needs to be someone who knows something about them, but they have to be really into it. Maybe in a way that seems almost religious? But not in a weird new age way.”
“Madonna,” she said, touching the cross that hung around her neck. “Do I look like I know anybody like that? You think I hang out with those crazy ladies?”
“I'm only asking you because I don't speak Greek,” he said. “I didn't mean any offense. Um, crazy ladies?”
“We have some weird people living in this town,” the waitress said.
“Those women drive me crazy,” her mother said. “Sit down. What's your name?”
“Nico di Angelo,” he said.
“Nico, I'm Rosa Bova and this is my daughter Maria.”
“My mom was named Maria too,” he said.
“We must have been destined to meet,” she smiled. “Your mother is no longer with us?”
He nodded.
Rosa stood and started getting him soup.
“I really don't want to bother you,” Nico said as she set a bowl and spoon in front of him.
“Too late to stop her now. It's just how she is,” Maria reassured him, patting his hand. “Oh. You're very cold. Are you okay?”
“Just how I am,” he muttered.
“Where are you from?”
“Venezia,” he said. “But more recently from the states. I was going to school there.”
“We're from Napoli,” she said. “But my stepdad was Greek. We moved here to be closer to his family. He passed away last year.”
“I'm sorry,” he said.
“He was the second father I've lost,” Maria said quietly, looking at her mother, who was pulling chicken out of the oven. “Mom had a heart attack a few months ago. She's not recovered, but she won't listen to the doctors and slow down. I'm... I'm sorry,” she said, looking embarrassed. “I'm not sure why I told you that. You don't want to hear my problems.”
“I understand,” he said. “I lost my mom a few years ago. And my sister died... Kind of recently. I guess not technically that recently, but it feels like it was.”
“It just comes and goes at random, doesn't it?” Maria asked. “My stepdad was a huge presence. A big, loud man. Everyone in town knew him and loved him. With him gone, it's like a big black hole in the world opened up. I'm just trying to keep my mom from falling into it. And me.”
“I know exactly what you mean,” Nico said.
“It's hard enough without my mom having health problems right now,” Maria said, pushing her hair out of her face. “I'm so scared I'm going to lose her too.”
Nico watched Rosa bringing plates out to customers. He could hear her voice chattering to them in broken Greek, words of Italian sprinkled in at random. There was a sense of death around her, hovering like a flock of dark birds, but it was hard to say if it was lingering from a brush with it or an impending, more final event. Probably both.
“I'm sorry,” Nico said. “I would be freaking out too if I were you.”
Maria sighed, leaning her head on her hand.
“Life is pain,” she muttered.
“It is,” Nico agreed.
Maria smiled at him.
“The ladies my mom was talking about live two houses down, at the Muses Cafe,” she said. “They're a bunch of weird sisters that put on performances and stuff. They do a lot of ancient plays and poetry recitals. Sometimes I think they really believe they are the nine muses,” she muttered. “Except their music and writing and stuff? No good. None of it. Nothing divine about them,” she snorted. “They don't hike, so I didn't think they were the people you were looking for. But my mom was right, they might be a good place to ask.”
Nico wondered about that. If they were the nine muses, they were supposed to be talented, right? He wasn't an expert on them, so maybe he'd misunderstood.
Rosa hurried back into the kitchen, wiping her hands on her apron that was covered in pictures of tomatoes and bulbs of garlic.
“Eat, child, eat your soup,” she told Nico. He nodded and started eating.
“I told him about the cafe women,” Maria told her mother.
“Good,” Rosa said. “Come here and help me make this tiramisu. And give our guest some of that focaccia I made this afternoon.”
“I really should go,” he said, stuffing his mouth full of the focaccia Maria handed him.
“Nonsense, the chicken's almost ready.”
Nico found himself trapped in the loving prison that was an Italian kitchen, as Rosa continued to feed him while dashing in and out of the restaurant to take care of the paying patrons, too.
“She's an unstoppable force,” Maria sighed, coming back to sit down at the table when all the restaurant guests had left and the place was empty. She poured herself a glass of red wine, and gave Nico one as well. “She'll want to talk to you long into the night. She misses other Italians. If you have somewhere to be, you ought to slip out while she's ringing up the tips.”
Nico hesitated.
“Yeah, I'll go,” he said, but Rosa stormed back into the room and shoved him back down into his seat.
“You didn't try my tiramisu,” she insisted. “We have to finish it off, it won't be good tomorrow.”
That wasn't true, but Nico didn't argue. Maria caught his eye and shrugged.
Rosa did seem desperate for someone to talk to about Italy, but it put Nico in a very uncomfortable position of having to conceal that he was from Italy in the 1930's and not the modern one. Fortunately, Rosa reminisced at length about her youth. She'd stayed with a friend in Venice for a summer as a teenager and had apparently had many mischievous and slightly raunchy adventures that she laughed while recounting.
“What do you think of my daughter? Isn't she pretty?” She said, apropos of nothing, shocking Nico. “You want to take her out sometime? A nice boy like you would be good for her.”
“Mama, he's too young for me,” Maria insisted.
“How old are you,” Rosa asked him.
“Eleven,” he said without thinking.
“Ah, you're making fun of me,” Rosa said. “I can't help myself, I want my daughter to be happy.”
Maria rolled her eyes.
“How old do you think I am,” Nico said suddenly. “If you had to guess?”
“Seventeen,” Maria said. “Am I right?”
“Yeah, that's right,” Nico said, a chill going down his spine. What in the hell had happened to him while he was asleep?
“I'm twenty two,” Maria said. “And happily single for now. I have enough problems without dragging poor Nico into them, Mama,” she insisted, making her mother laugh.
Nico listened more than he spoke, but the three of them ended up chatting late into the night just as Maria had warned, until he was yawning and Maria put her head down on the table.
Rosa could have talked forever, but eventually she looked at her watch and gasped.
“One AM?” She exclaimed. “Where does the time go?”
She looked at Nico, blinking tiredly, and clucked her tongue.
“You can stay on the couch,” she said, ushering him upstairs. He couldn't protest when she gave him a blanket and tucked him into the couch. His eyes closed quickly.
In the morning, he left as soon as he awoke, not wanting to bother them any further, but Maria was in the kitchen already washing up.
“You're very interesting, Nico,” she said. “There's something old about you. I can't put my finger on it.”
“Oh,” he said, at a loss for words.
“Come back if you need anything,” she said. “We'll be happy to have you. Good luck with everything.”
“Thank you,” Nico said. “Please tell your mom thank you from me. You've been really kind, cooking for me and everything.”
“Like I said, she can't help herself,” Maria said. “Take care. I'll tell her what you said.”
Nico stepped out into the glaringly bright Greek sun, the sky a cloudless, perfect blue, and took a deep breath.
Chapter 5: Apollo and Olympus
Chapter Text
He found the Muse Cafe easily; it was clearly labeled with a colorful sign hanging out front. The building itself was a two story house painted bright blue, with a mural on one side depicting nine women holding various books, scrolls, and musical instruments.
There was music coming from inside, and someone was singing, but most of the noise was from an argument between at least three or four women, based on what Nico could hear from outside. They were speaking Ancient Greek and trying to figure out who was to blame for leaving a container of yogurt out overnight. It did seem like the right place, Nico thought to himself, approaching the house.
Before he reached the front porch, however, an engine revved loudly, startling him. He stepped off the road and stood beside the house, watching as a car pulled up. At least, he thought it was a car, but it was hard to tell, because the lights on the front were blindingly bright, and he had to look away.
Nico blinked, his eyes struggling to adjust to the blazing headlights of the yellow convertible. A male figure opened the door and stepped out. He was wearing crisply pressed khakis and a white polo, with a gold chain around his neck. He looked brilliant, incomparable in Ralph Lauren sunglasses and boat shoes.
Nico watched as the man leaned against the car, folding his golden tanned, muscular arms. One hand lazily swept back gleaming bronze hair from his face.
Nico cold barely breathe, could barely think; he was frozen in place, arrested by this perfect figure. He was broken out of his shock by a woman running out of the cafe, the door banging against the wall.
“Babe!” She cried out in ancient Greek, throwing herself into his arms.
Nico regained his presence of mind enough to duck into an alleyway. His heart was pounding in his chest. He slammed his head back against the stucco wall of the cafe. He really, really, really had tried to ignore this, but it was impossible. He had to face up to the fact that he was a teenager now, and feeling attracted to people was just something he'd be dealing with from now on. Even still, this felt extreme.
He tried to distract himself and stay calm. He listened intently to the man's conversation with the muse.
“Hey, beautiful,” the man said, after a moment's pause probably caused by them making out. “Wanna go for a ride?”
His tone was suggestive and unsubtle; the muse's squeals were so high pitched Nico's ears were ringing.
“Yeah, baby, of course. I missed you so much. It's been too long. You never iris message me. Have you been getting the pictures I'm sending?”
“I have, Calliope,” he said, his voice like golden ambrosia. “I've just been busy. You know how it is. It ain't easy being Apollo.”
Nico's jaw dropped. That was the god Apollo? He'd met Apollo before, and he'd looked totally different, although his vibe had admittedly been similar. His car had been different too, and Nico realized he might be in his Roman form right now. He had to admit to himself that his perception had also completely changed since he'd aged up. It was an uncomfortable thought, but undeniable. Apollo was hot.
“You haven't been seeing other women, have you?” Calliope said.
“Sun sees a lot of things, baby girl,” Apollo said. “You'll have to be more specific.”
Apollo was hot and obnoxious.
Another muse ran out of the cafe. Nico heard the door slam and peered around the corner at the spectacle.
“Babe!” She said, running up to Apollo. She grabbed her sister's collar and yanked her off of him. “Get away, it's my turn.”
“No way! It's mine,” another muse said, coming out of the cafe. “You had him last week.”
The three sisters began arguing shrilly over who would get to go for a ride with Apollo. Apparently there was some confusion over a rotating schedule they had been using for the last thousand years.
Nico watched Apollo carefully. His initial infatuation had dissipated, and now he was just fascinated. He'd had such a strong, immediate reaction to the god's energy. No wonder the muses were fighting over him. It was a shame his personality didn't seem to match his good looks. Apollo just watched the muses fight with a smirk on his face and buffed an invisible spot out on the hood of his convertible.
Nico took a deep breath, steeling himself. He tried to stay cool, even though he was shaking in his combat boots.
He stepped out of the alley and approached Apollo. Be calm. Be collected, he told himself.
“What do we have here,” Apollo said, tweaking his sunglasses down to look Nico up and down with ravenous eyes. “Do I know you, handsome?”
The three muses who were arguing all turned to Nico with vicious glares that sent a chill down his spine.
“You look familiar,” Apollo said. “Were you in Mykonos last summer? Stavros, right?”
“My name is Nico,” Nico said, his voice sounding more cold and confident than he felt.
“You like to party, Nico? Can I call you Nicky?”
This annoyed Nico immensely. He had a very important mission and it felt as though Apollo was trying to distract him. He tried not to be put off by his obvious sexual interest; Apollo couldn't know that Nico was just a kid on the inside. Sort of.
“No thanks. Nico is fine,” Nico said. “And I'm here on business that I need to speak with you about. There's something you borrowed--”
“Pfft,” Apollo snorted. “You're no fun.” He turned back to the muses. “Now who's coming with me?”
“Excuse me,” Nico added. “This is important. I'm here on business for my father. Hades? You may have heard of him?”
“I should have known,” Apollo said, looking at Nico with annoyance. “Always the killjoy. I don't have time, kid. Tell your father I'll give him a call sometime in the next century.”
Nico couldn't wait that long; he didn't have a century to waste. He needed to speak with Bianca before she moved on.
“No, I really need it now,” he said. He pulled out his list. Apollo started laughing.
“You have a list?” Apollo snorted. “Oh, that is so sad. You're just a kid and he's already working you to death. He'll probably have you working for him after you're dead, too, you know.”
“Probably,” Nico said. “But that's beside the point. You borrowed a magic Stygian iron ring and he wants it back.” He glanced at Apollo's fingers. Long, golden, perfectly manicured. Nico swallowed. Focus, he reminded himself.
There was no ring on either of Apollo's hands.
“I don't have it,” Apollo said.
“Do you know where it is?” Nico asked.
“I don't remember.”
“It was a very valuable magical object,” Nico said, “So we need to locate it or you need to replace it with something of equal or greater value.”
“I don't like being told what to do by demigods,” Apollo warned. “I've had just about enough of this.”
“It's right here in his writing,” Nico insisted, pointing at the item on the list Hades had written. “I'm just the messenger. It's not my fault you borrowed the ring and then lost it, but I have to have something to bring back to my father. He'll just keep sending me back to harrass you,” he added. “I'm sure you have better things to do. I don't want to bother you either, but I have no choice.”
“Alright, alright, fine, fine,” Apollo said. “Look, I don't remember what I did with the ring, but let me see if I can give you something to shut you up. It's not like I don't have enough magical objects lying around back at my place. Just hop in the back.”
Nico glanced at the convertible, sighed, and climbed into the backseat. He had to get to Olympus anyway. He may as well accept the ride.
Apollo went up to the muses, grabbed Calliope's hand, and escorted her to the passenger seat. She flipped off her sisters, and they drove straight up into the sky.
It was a smooth ride, gliding along the air, with bright orange flames burning out of the exhaust pipe, but Nico felt like he was going to faint. He desperately missed having solid ground beneath his feet, and he held onto the edges of the seat for dear life. A quick glance told him there were no seat belts. This ride may have been smoother than the time Apollo had tried to teach Thalia to drive, but Nico found himself more anxious than before.
Calliope glanced back at him with annoyance.
“Does he have to be here?”
“Hopefully not for long,” Apollo sighed. “Uncle Hades needs something from me, unfortunately.”
“What a pain in the ass that man is,” Calliope sighed.
“I know, right?”
Nico was feeling too queasy to speak, but internally he was enraged. Apollo had borrowed something and then lost it, and he had the nerve to complain that he was inconvenienced? Were all the Olympians this obnoxious?
Apollo's convertible chariot skidded to a stop next to a large garden. Nico had been staring at his feet the entire ride and hadn't noticed where they went, but he figured they were on Olympus now. He glanced around and saw a winding gold staircase on one side that led up to what looked like pavilions in the clouds. There were pegasi flying around and sparkling waterfalls everywhere.
He rolled his eyes. What a ridiculous place.
Apollo's pavilion had golden suns splashed on everything. They came in different formats, some circles and spirals and some bright yellow with sunglasses on. He must have been pretty full of himself to splash his logo on everything he owned.
Calliope went to sit on a couch, and Nico was left standing while Apollo began digging through a pile of stuff in a chest.
While he waited, Nico noticed Calliope messing with something on her hand. He sensed a vague cthonic signature wafting from it.
“What is that?” He said, pointing to her hand. She glanced down.
“This old thing? Apollo gave it to me.”
“That's it,” Nico said, walking up to her. It was a shining black Stygian iron ring. “That's the ring I need. It belongs to Lord Hades.”
“Baby, he's trying to steal my present away,” Calliope shouted.
Apollo didn't hear her, his head bent over the chest. He tossed stuff out left and right, heedless of the fact that some of it was pottery getting smashed to bits on the floor.
“Here,” he said, pulling out a small golden box and tossing it at Nico's face. “Give it to your father. And tell him to leave me alone.”
Nico looked at the box in his hands.
“I don't need this,” he said. “She has the ring.”
“No, it's mine,” Calliope said.
“Babe, I'll get you a better one,” Apollo said. “I've got to get Hades off my back.”
“A better one, and a matching bracelet,” Calliope said. “And I want to be taken out again next week. I'm bored to tears in that cafe every day. My sisters never shut up. I can't focus on my poetry with them yammering day and night and picking fights. This is the only place I get any writing done.”
“I've told you a thousand thousand times, move out on your own,” Apollo said. “I miss hearing your recitations.”
“It's not that easy,” she said, pulling the ring off her finger and handing it to Apollo. “Every time I'm away from them too long, I start to miss fighting with them. There's no winning with sisters, you know?”
Nico took the ring Apollo offered him and made to hand back the box, but Apollo waved him away.
“Keep it,” he said. “And never darken my door again. Underworld stuff gives me the creeps,” he added. “No offense.”
Nico took great offense, but he managed to nod respectfully. He needed to ask where he could find Ganymede, but he wanted to get away from Apollo as quickly as possible, so he just dashed up the stairs, heedless of where he was going.
It occurred to him that Zeus might be around, and he walked faster, looking for anyone who might be able to point him in the right direction. To his good fortune, he found a landmark very quickly. There was a massive flame burning in the center of a circular pavilion, not far from Apollo's room. The flame was contained in a golden brazier, and it burned in many different colors all at once. It was an impressive spectacle. Once Nico had walked partway around, he noticed a young woman's face inside of the fire. Her eyes and hair were made of flame, but he could clearly make out the woman looking back at him. She had a kind expression, and he felt comfortable walking right up to her and speaking.
“Excuse me, goddess,” he said. “Hestia, right?”
“Vesta, child,” she said, smiling at him. “But close enough. What is it?”
He was glad he'd remembered at least something from camp.
“It's an honor to meet you, Vesta,” he said.
“What's your name, young man?” She asked.
“Nico di Angelo,” he said. “Son of Hades. I'm sorry to bother you, but I'm here on official Underworld business,” he added, trying to add legitimacy to his presence in case she wasn't a fan of his uninvited guests. “I need to speak with Ganymede.”
She conjured a door with the wave of her hand. It hovered in front of Nico, a gold eagle embossed on the front of it.
“Anything else?” She asked.
“No, that's perfect,” he said. “Thank you so much. I appreciate it.”
She nodded and melted back into the flame. Nico hurried through the door.
Chapter 6: A New Friend
Chapter Text
The other side was not what Nico had expected. He was on a rocky mountaintop, with lush greenery and trees dotted everywhere, overlooking a deep valley almost like a chasm. Little lambs frolicked on the hillside. A flock of geese flapped through a clear blue sky. There was a quaint country cottage perched on a grassy knoll nearby. Nico headed straight there.
He knocked on the door. There were morning glories dripping from the roof, and a little fountain with a statue of eagle on it dribbled golden ambrosia. Nico looked at it suspiciously. He wasn't going to be messing with that again anytime soon.
The door opened, and a handsome young man in lightning print boxer shorts opened it. He stared at Nico. Nico stared back at him. He had messy blonde curls and a freckled, cheerful face with a curious expression.
“Ganymede?” Nico asked.
“Yup,” Ganymede said. He had a container of Hot Cheetos flavor Easy Mac in his hand with a spoon sticking out of it.
“My name is Nico,” Nico said. “Hades sent me to collect on a debt.” He dug around in his pocket. “I have the invoice here somewhere,” he muttered.
“You can come in,” Ganymede said. He led Nico inside to a house that was cluttered and kind of filthy. A gaming computer had been left on pause, with headphones abandoned on the floor, the wire still connected. Empty cans of Redbull were littered everywhere. There was an animal in a tank on the far side of the room, but Nico couldn't see what it was behind the algae covering the glass.
“What's the debt?” Ganymede said, sitting in an oversized gamer chair and leaning back, propping bare feet on his desk. His toenails were painted electric blue. Nico thought that was pretty cool.
“Dry cleaning for a dress you borrowed from Persephone.”
“Oh, shit, I thought I paid for that,” he said, looking genuinely dismayed. “I'll take care of it now.”
Nico handed him the invoice, and Ganymede took out a phone and an electric blue credit card. He paid the invoice by waving the card in front of the phone.
“Paid up,” he said, showing Nico a confirmation screen. Nico nodded.
“Can you send that to Hades please?”
Ganymede nodded and fiddled with the phone some more.
“I can't imagine Persephone cared about a little dry cleaning fee,” he said, looking up at Nico with a twinkle in his eye. “She's married to the god of wealth.”
“It's the principle of the thing,” Nico said firmly.
“I can see why Hades sent you as his proxy,” Ganymede said, observing him wryly. “Are you his lover?”
“I'm his son,” Nico said.
“A demigod? Cool,” Ganymede grinned. “What's the mortal world like these days?”
“What's the mortal world like? It sucks,” Nico said. “Everything is hard and people keep dying. I hate it.”
“I miss it,” Ganymede said. “I visit sometimes, but it's been a while. Zeus made me this facsimile of Mount Ida, thinking I would miss it, but a field of sheep is a field of sheep. I miss the uncertainty. The change. I want to feel alive again. Feel something... New.”
“Feeling alive...” Nico thought of his intense hunger when he wandered in Asphodel, his fear when his mother had died in the explosion. The moment Percy Jackson told him his sister had died. “It's overrated,” he concluded.
“But you're young and handsome,” Ganymede said. “You should be living wild and free, dancing until the sun comes up and getting lost in bad neighborhoods. Spending more money than you have. Eating food that's too spicy for you. I could go on.”
Nico recalled his travels to get to Olympus.
“China was kind of cool,” he said.
“You've been to China?” Ganymede said excitedly, spinning his chair around. “You'll have to tell me about it. You can sit on the bean bag. Have a popsicle,” he said, tossing Nico a purple popsicle out of his minifridge.
Nico settled into the bean bag and enjoyed his popsicle, telling Ganymede about his brief time in China. Ganymede was so intrigued by his story that he told him about Uzbekistan and Turkey. Ganymede's home on Mount Ida was located in modern Turkey, and he had Nico describe every single food he ate while in Istanbul to see if any were his old favorites. They weren't, but he seemed pleaseed to hear about them anyway. Then Nico told him about Litochoro and meeting Apollo and the muses.
“You're lucky Apollo helped you at all,” Ganymede said. “I'm just a cupbearer, so I don't run around purposefully offending anybody, but Apollo really didn't need to pay you any mind. Nobody cares if Hades is pissed off at them. He's pissed off at pretty much all of us all the time anyway, for reasons we can't always remember, so it doesn't seem like it makes much difference. He's refused to come up here since the Great War.”
“He's refused to come up here since Zeus killed my mother,” Nico said.
“Oh, did he?” Ganymede said. “I'm sorry. I hate when he does stuff like that. You're not the first.”
Nico sat in silence for a moment, chewing his popsicle stick.
“You okay?”
“Yeah,” Nico said. “I expected you to defend him.”
“Zeus isn't perfect,” Ganymede said. “But I do think he does his best most of the time, and I love him for that. Everyone makes mistakes. Besides, holding grudges only makes things worse.”
Nico bit the popsicle stick in half. Ganymede held out a trash can and let him throw the stick in.
“Let's change the subject,” Ganymede suggested, smiling at him kindly. “I know it's tough. What led you to work for your father now?”
Nico explained everything. Bianca, his ambrosia coma, his memories returning. He wasn't sure whether it was a good idea to trust Ganymede with this information, but he was such a good listener that it was hard not to go on and on.
“What a whirlwind,” Ganymede said, his warm brown eyes wide with concern. “You demigods. Things can never be simple for you, can they?”
“I guess not,” Nico sighed.
“Even less so as a son of Hades,” Ganymede said. “There's not a lot of precedent for you to go off of, since he doesn't get out much.”
“Unlike some people,” Nico muttered.
“Hey,” Ganymede pointed a finger at Nico. “He may be a player, but he's still my man.” He reached into the minifridge again. “Pudding cup?”
“Sure. Thanks,” Nico said. “Um. Awkward question.”
“Shoot.”
“Didn't Zeus kidnap you?”
Ganymede cocked his head at Nico curiously, golden ringlets bouncing. Nico noticed he had a single sapphire pendant dangling from one ear.
“You're from the modern world,” Ganymede said. “It was different back then. I'm not sure you'll understand.”
“I can try,” Nico said.
“Zeus was and is my patron god,” Ganymede said. “The one I worship above all others. He's a force of nature. Submitting to him was as natural as breathing. And that moment when he lifted me in his talons,” he sighed. “I was in ecstasy. Like a religious and emotional and sexual frenzy, all at once. There was never any thought in my mind that I ought to fight him off.”
Nico thought of the physical arousal that had coursed through his body when he'd first seen Apollo; the way it had taken a force of will to tear his eyes away. How much more intense would it feel to be a normal human, with no exposure to the power of godhood outside of religious devotion?
“It might have looked like I was picked up by a big bird,” Ganymede said. “But it felt more like a sex tornado.”
Nico and Ganymede both started snickering.
“It's true,” Ganymede snorted. “But I know if I'd been a woman it would be different. They have to fear Hera, and their fathers and husbands,” he said. “Zeus can't protect them from his wife. All they can hope is to bear a son strong enough to save them. Or a daughter; I know times have changed. Thalia is supposed to be a wildcat, or so Zeus has told me.”
“He talks about his kids?”
“Sometimes,” Ganymede said. “I've never taken an interest in them, though. You're the only demigod I've spoken to in centuries. You're cool, though,” he said. “You have interesting vibes.”
“I do?”
“Yeah. You're easy on the eyes, too,” he winked. “You know if you catch Zeus' eye, I'll have to kill you.”
“Dude, I just told you he killed my mom. If he tries anything I'll kill myself for you. Except I'm on the no-ride list until I finish my chores.”
“Lame,” Ganymede snorted. “Do you wanna play a game with me?” He tossed Nico one of his Nintendo controllers.
A few hours later, Nico and Ganymede had eaten their way through three boxes of pizza rolls and were very invested in their game. That was, until Ganymede's phone beeped.
“Zeusie,” he said, answering the video call. “It's you!”
“Dearest,” Zeus said. “A little eagle told me there's been a man in your house all afternoon. Should I be concerned?”
Ganymede glanced over his shoulder at Nico.
“Yeah, he's here,” he grinned into the phone. “He's a real tough customer, too. You'd better get over here and save me before he ravishes me.”
“What is the matter with you?” Nico said, panicking. Ganymede giggled.
Zeus hung up the call and kicked the door open.
“Sky Daddy!” Ganymede said, running over to him. “You came!”
Zeus put an arm around Ganymede.
“This is him?” Zeus intoned. “He doesn't look particularly threatening.”
“Did I make you jealous?” Ganymede asked.
“A little bit,” Zeus said. “I'd never share you, dearest,” he said, kissing the top of Ganymede's head. Ganymede had looked like an adult in Nico's eyes, maybe college aged, but next to Zeus his small, lithe frame looked young in comparison.
Zeus was tall and thickly built. His long black hair had salt and pepper streaks zigzagging through dark curls, and his piercing electric blue eyes were set in a square, strong jawed face. His olive skin glowed with immortal power and there was an energy radiating from him that made Nico's hair stand on end. It was horribly familiar. He could smell the acrid stench of ozone radiating from Zeus.
This was the man who had killed his mother. A surge of hatred rose up in Nico. He swallowed hard, rising to his feet.
“I was just leaving,” he said quietly. He wasn't stupid enough to risk offending Zeus. He knew what the man was capable of.
“The polite thing is to introduce oneself and show the King of the gods some respect,” Zeus said, frowning.
Nico panicked, thinking he'd already screwed up, but Ganymede saved him.
“Oh, be nice,” Ganymede said. “You're always so mean to my friends. You know how lonely I get when you're not here!”
“I'm sorry, my dear, but--”
“I try to be strong for you,” Ganymede whimpered. “But it's so quiet and sad here when you aren't around. I see you so little these days.”
“Don't be upset with me,” Zeus said. “I can't help that I'm busy. You can see your little friend as much as you want if it pleases you.”
“You're so good to me,” Ganymede said, wrapping his arms around Zeus's neck. He pressed a kiss to Zeus's cheek. “You should go,” he said, glancing at Nico.
“Wait a minute,” Zeus said. “Who is he? What was he doing here?”
“He was just collecting on a debt I owed Persephone,” Ganymede said. “For that purple dress of hers I borrowed for that party.”
“You looked lovely,” Zeus told him. “A fine garment indeed. What is your name, young messenger of Persephone?”
“Nico di Angelo,” Nico said.
“Nico di Angelo, I take issue with your tone,” Zeus said, frowning down his nose.
“Oh, would you cut him a break?” Ganymede said. “You killed the poor kid's mother, you big meanie.”
Zeus raised his eyebrows, looking at Nico.
“I don't recall doing anything of the sort,” he said. “Anyway,” he said, clearing his throat. “Away with you, boy. I have business with Ganymede.”
He swept Ganymede up into his arms. Nico could not shadow travel away fast enough.
He slammed into the floor directly in front of his father's throne, gasping for breath. The speed and force it had taken to travel from the sky to the depths of the earth had winded him.
Hades stood, startled. Minos, too, was present in the throne room. He knelt in front of Nico and helped him to his feet.
“Are you alright, Nico?” He asked. “Are you hurt?” His touch on Nico's arm was ginger, tentative, and he let go as soon as Nico waved him off.
“Fine,” he coughed. “Just traveled too fast. I came from Olympus.”
Mino's eyes widened.
“Olympus? Really?”
“Out, Minos,” Hades said. “The boy is fine. Back to your business.”
Minos scurried away, looking back over his shoulder.
“You are well, child?” Hades confirmed.
“He was there,” Nico said. “Zeus.”
“You spoke with him?”
“I didn't want to. I couldn't leave, he started asking me questions,” Nico said. “He didn't recognize my name, and Ganymede told him he'd killed my mother.”
Hades took a deep inhale of breath.
“What did he say?”
“He said he didn't remember,” Nico said.
“Lies!” Hades roared. A vast wall of flame rose up behind him, and jagged stalagmites rose up out of the floor. Nico recognized the display for what it was; a display of impotent rage. He understood it, but he was no god. He was a young boy in way over his head.
“He--” Nico started to cry. “He's too powerful,” he said. He didn't have to say more; Hades put a hand on the back of his head and pressed Nico close to him. It wasn't a real hug, but it was meant to be comforting, and Nico understood it.
“Give no more thought to my brother,” Hades said, his voice resonating beneath his ribcage. Nico could feel every cold, hard rib his forehead pressed against, as though Hades was only skin and bone with no flesh to protect him. “Your vendetta against Zeus can only endanger you. Save your hatred for me. If I had been stronger, moved faster, your mother would not have died the way she did.”
“It wasn't your fault,” Nico said through his tears.
Hades was silent at that. It was a long moment before he spoke again.
“You are never to visit Olympus again,” Hades said. “I cannot protect you there. If you give the slightest indication of disobeying, you will never leave the Underworld for the duration of your mortal life.”
“Trust me,” Nico swallowed, wiping his eyes. “I have no desire to go back. I hated it there.”
“It is a distasteful place indeed,” Hades said. He cleared his stalagmites away and extinguished his wall of flame, heaving a sigh that seemed to come from the bowels of Tartarus. “If for any reason,” he said. “You encounter Zeus in the mortal world, you must return here. Do not answer his questions and do not linger. He is a creature of impulse and is unpredictable. I do not trust him not to finish the job on you if he takes the notion.”
“I will,” Nico said.
“And be careful with the way you use his name,” Hades said. “It attracts his attention. The only place we are free to speak as we wish is here. And perhaps beneath the sea,” he added.
Nico nodded again.
“And finally, if you are ever in mortal danger in the surface world, hit the ground twice with the palms of your hands. It will summon me. Emergencies only,” Hades said emphatically. “I do not fancy having my time wasted.”
“Can I even be in mortal danger while I'm on the no ride list?”
“Oh, your flesh will survive mortal wounds; though the damage would be as painful and debilitating as ever, you will keep breathing until you finish that list,” Hades said. “But as soon as your tasks are complete, Charon will pick you up immediately. It is merely a delay of the inevitable fate that awaits you.”
“So if I never finish the list, I live forever? I'm immortal now?”
Hades raised his eyebrows.
“Your body will decay, but yes, your soul is tethered to that list,” he said.
“Aren't you afraid I'll abuse my new invulnerability?”
“No,” Hades said. “You have made it clear already you do not fear death. More likely you will seek it,” he said. “As most demigods inevitably do. Perhaps more consciously on your part than it is on theirs.”
Nico shrugged, knowing Hades had read him right. Immortality sounded like a terrible burden. He thought again of the cool, dark quiet of Asphodel, the whispering reeds, and a flicker of peace came over him knowing it would be there, waiting, when he was ready.
“Come into my office,” Hades said. “You must recount everything you saw and heard on Olympus.”
Nico followed his father into a large office in a cavernous space carved from granite with obsidian accents. It was cold and sterile surrounding Hade's desk, which was a huge block of stone covered with piles of paper and a single glowing laptop. Next to him, however, was a riotous burst of color where Persephone had a pink azalea bush and a few blue and purple hydrangeas growing in pots around her desk of carved wood. She had a computer as well, but it was closed, and she was crocheting at her desk instead, with a flock of skeletal finches fluttering around her, singing in whispers of remembered birdsong.
“Nico!” She said, and her face lit up in an expression of delight. “You're back sooner than I expected!”
If Nico was not mistaken, she looked like she was genuinely happy to see him. He wondered how long she would continue to find him entertaining. Surely she would get bored eventually and see him as the nuisance he really was.
“My brother continues to insult me,” Hades intoned, moving to sit in his chair. He summoned a skeletal servant with a wave, who brought Nico a stool to sit on. “His arrogance knows no bounds,” he said, as Persephone stood and went over to him, putting her hands on his shoulders.
“I'm sorry, dear,” she said, smoothing his hair. “I wish there were more I could do to help.”
Hades brought her hand to his lips.
“Your presence is balm enough for my troubles, my love,” he said.
Persephone met Nico's eyes, smiling.
Nico bowed his head to her.
“Thank you for your advice while I was gone, goddess,” he said sincerely. “It was really nice of you to think of me.”
“But tell me what's happened,” she said.
She and Hades listened silently as he explained what happened in Litochoro and on Olympus.
“So, um,” he finished. “The ring you wanted,” he said, taking it off his finger and putting it on Hades' desk. “And the receipt for the dry cleaning should be in your inbox.”
“I saw it already,” Hades said.
“Ganymede also apologized in the email,” Persephone said, “Which your father will be preening over for years. An apology from an Olympian is rarer than a whale in the Sahara.”
“They're just the worst,” Hades muttered, clearing his throat. “Son, do you make a habit of putting on magical objects without knowing what they are for? How incredibly foolish of you.”
“What, the ring? I just didn't want to lose it,” Nico said. “I didn't even think about it.”
“What does it do?” Persephone asked.
“I have no idea. I can't remember. Which tells you how long Apollo has carried on this insult,” Hades huffed.
“Apollo gave me this, too,” Nico said, setting the gold earring box on the desk.
“As an apology gift?”
Nico thought about it.
“Um,” he said. “He said it was in exchange for never darkening his door again. Since he said Underworld stuff creeps him out,” Nico sighed.
Hades opened the box.
“I have no need of these,” he said, tossing the box back to Nico. “They're old and their magic is weak.”
“What are they?” Nico asked, looking at the earrings. They just looked like tiny gold loops to him, with little red beads threaded onto thin wire.
Persephone waved a hand in his direction, and a pomegranate-red smoke wrapped around the gold box. A symbol of a sun flashed briefly.
“They once carried a blessing of Apollo,” she said. “But it's worn to nothing now. You can take these to Nyx, and she can apply a new spell. Choose anything you like.”
“Choose once you collect one of her items on the list,” Hades interrupted.
“Let him have a little spell, dear, he's earned it,” she said.
“Underworld residents must earn their keep,” Hades said. “No exceptions.”
“Such a harsh taskmaster you are, lord husband,” Persephone said, winking at Nico. “Truly you rule your domain with an iron fist.”
“You are mocking me,” Hades grumbled.
“Never,” Persephone said, giggling. “Nico, go and see your room. I added some things to make it nicer for you. You ought to get some rest if you're to continue slaving away on chores.”
“Thank you,” Nico said, more than happy to leave the office. He wasn't uncomfortable talking to the two of them, but he needed to process everything that had happened on Olympus.
He headed back to his room, grabbing a bowl of olives off the table to snack on. He sat on his bed and looked around. Persephone had added a little bonsai pomegranate tree, more blankets and pillows, and had piled a stack of new clothes in the corner for him. There was a large candelabra, and the candles magically lit when he walked into the room.
“Knock knock,” someone said on the other side of the doorway.
“Minos,” Nico said, recognizing the voice.
“May I come in?” Minos asked hesitantly.
“You were watching me when I was sleeping the other day,” Nico said, talking around a mouthful of olives. “You didn't care about asking permission then.”
“I... Um...”
“Minos, why does Persephone do all this for me?” Nico asked, gesturing to the décor.
Minos looked around appreciatively, prodding the bonsai to be sure it was real.
“Why wouldn't she?”
Nico frowned.
“Isn't that obvious?”
Minos turned to face him. His navy blue chiton was ornamented with bronze clasps at the shoulders, Nico noticed, printed with the image of a bull. He looked tanned and fit, the same as he must have been in life, with broad shoulders and a wide neck. If he stood perfectly still, you almost couldn't tell he was dead.
“Obvious?” He asked, cocking his head. Large gold earrings hung from his earlobes, and when he cocked his head, one of them nearly grazed his shoulder. They were solid gold and shaped like bells, again with the bull head embossed on them.
“I'm not her kid,” Nico said. “My father had an affair. She should hate me.”
Minos shook his head, earrings moving with him.
“I'd have thought that way too, when I lived in the mortal world,” he said. “But down here, things are fair. Not always kind, but fair. I try to keep it so, as a judge,” he said, dark brows furrowing. “If she shows you mercy, it's because you deserve it. That's just how it is here.”
“I guess,” Nico said, sighing. The underworld is always fair. He knew that intuitively, but he'd never really thought about how it applied to him. He'd suffered a lot of unfairness in his life. Was Persephone trying to right the scales for him? Was it because she wanted to, or because she felt obligated to make up for her husband's lack of affection?
He ate a couple of olives in silence, feeling Minos watching him.
“Do you want one?”
Minos nodded and accepted an olive gingerly.
“What does it feel like to eat as a shade?” Nico asked him curiously.
“Nothing feels like much of anything,” he shrugged. “It's more like smelling an olive than really eating it. But it's nice to do the things I'm used to doing, even if it can't be the same.”
“Shades seem to like repetition.”
“Novelty is lost to us,” Minos said. “Echoes are all we have. I have retained much of myself, though,” he said. “I can't complain.”
“How does that work? Why are some shades stronger than others?” Nico wanted to know as much as he could about what Bianca was going through in order to better reach her.
“Those of us slated for reward or punishment must be somewhat whole in spirit if we're to reap said deserts,” he said.
“Is your being a judge a reward or a punishment?”
“Both,” he said. “Neither. I don't know.”
“I heard you were a pretty bad person,” Nico said.
Minos frowned.
“My worst deeds were the ones immortalized,” he said. “My best forgotten. I hate that you think of me that way,” he muttered.
“Why do you care what I think?”
Minos didn't answer.
“I should get back to work,” he said. “Thank you for the olives.” He left.
Nico didn't give him any more thought. He fell back onto his bed, letting his arm fall down to graze the marble floor, ice cold to the touch. He closed his eyes and let sleep carry him away.
Chapter Text
He was in the kitchen with Maria and Rosa. They were cooking and chatting over the roar of the blender as Rosa pulverized tomatoes for sauce.
“Do you think that nice young man ever found what he was looking for?” Rosa said. “What could he have wanted with the Muse sisters?”
“I've been wondering that myself,” Maria said. “But he never came back, so I guess he found something.”
“What was his name?”
“Nico di Angelo,” Maria said.
“Nico di Angelo,” Rosa said. “There was something about him. I can't put my finger on it. I'm glad we looked after him.”
“Mama,” Maria said, pausing in her work. “Do you ever think about moving back to Italy?”
Rosa frowned at her. “This restaurant is my life's work. I can never leave it.”
Maria glanced back into the dining room. Tiny, rickety tables with plastic covers crowded a small, stuffy dining room. A single light bulb flickered overhead.
“It's not much, but it's ours,” Rosa continued. “Why?”
“Nothing. It's just been a while,” Maria said. “Maybe I'm homesick.”
“Litochoro is our home,” Rosa said. She was a strong willed woman, Nico recognized, and she wouldn't be satisfied until Maria abandoned these expressions of discontent. “I think you're pining after that pretty young man.”
“Am not,” Maria said, blushing.
Nico woke up with a start. Persephone was standing over him.
“Napping?” She asked him.
“Trying to,” he said, deciding not to address the fact that she'd been watching him. Nobody in this house seemed to have normal boundaries. “I had a weird dream. It felt like I was watching people. Like, in reality.”
“Your ambrosia incident will probably have a lot of strange side effects,” she said. “I'd suggest you ignore them.”
He nodded.
She ran her hand across her braid. A strand of pink flowers folowed the path of her fingers, weaving into her dark brown hair. Her eyes were a very warm shade of brown, her eyes flickering with hazel green flecks. She even smelled like flowers.
“I want you to be comfortable here,” she said. “Are you?”
“Yes,” Nico said.
“You don't prefer it on the surface?”
“No, not really,” Nico said. “There's nothing wrong with this place. I just feel like I'm bothering you. Well, bothering my dad, really. He's so anxious for me to get the list done that I feel like lingering makes him mad.”
“You know as well as I do that nothing on the list is urgent,” she said. “Half of it he made up on the spot to keep you busy. He just doesn't know any other way to deal with you besides ordering you around.” She went over to his pile of clothing and ran her hand over it. On the bottom of the pile he saw something golden glinting. He saw her touch it gently and then move on. “Your father is so dedicated to his work, Nico,” she said. “He didn't choose this. But it isn't in him to give less than his best to the people who depend on him.”
Nico nodded. He hadn't looked at his father that generously, but he could understand where she was coming from.
“He has been treated so unfairly, yet he is the best of his brothers. I learned to love him. Do you think you could?”
Woah. Nico hadn't been expecting that.
“I already do,” he admitted. “Part of me does, anyway. When I was little, he would visit and spend time with my sister and I. He was actually really nice back then. Even having a handful of memories like that with him means a lot. Especially knowing who he is, and how little time most demigods get with their parents.”
“I'm so thrilled to hear that,” she said, and she looked deeply happy and relieved. A red peony blossomed in her hair vine and fell to the floor. “I had always wanted to see him as a father. Affectionate and warm and playful,” she mused.
“I don't see that happening,” Nico muttered. It was beginning to dawn on him why Persephone was so invested in him. She wanted to see a different side of her husband. “I'm sorry to disappoint you. Maybe if my sister had lived, it would have been different.”
Her face fell.
“Don't say that,” she said. “The fates have woven you here now, and her thread is cut. We have to make the best of it we can.”
He shook his head.
“I can't accept that. I have to bring her back. I have to convince dad to let me try.”
“Nico, what if it isn't possible?”
“You don't think it is?”
“I haven't looked into it, but... I doubt it.” She rested a hand on his shoulder and gave it a squeeze. “My own mother searched for me for a very long time after others told her to give up. She brought me back from the dead, in a sense. Given that, I can't find it in my heart to discourage you, even if I don't forsee you being successful.” She smiled at him warmly. “So long as your motivation is love, I will have your back.”
He nodded.
“I really appreciate it,” he murmured.
“I have a favor to ask,” she said, her eyes glinting.
“Whatever it is, I'll do it,” he said.
“I know you'll continue on your quest soon enough. Can you promise to come back on March 21st?”
“What's March 21st?”
“That's the day I leave this year. It's always difficult for your father when I go back to the surface. I'd like you to come home and try to distract him. He knows I'm asking you to do this,” she added. “He might be stubborn about it, I'm warning you now.”
Nico nodded.
“I'll try my best,” he said.
“I know you will,” she said, hugging him. “Keep in touch while you're gone,” she added. “I should get back to work.”
Her hug had felt like sunshine and springtime. How had he gotten so lucky to have a stepmother like her? He counted his blessings that he hadn't wound up with Hera instead.
He padded across the room in his bare feet, the granite floor cool against his skin, and looked at the stack of clothing she'd left him. He'd have to add it to his wardrobe. There were more shirts like the one he was wearing, and dark wash jeans, and socks and underwear. She'd gone out of her way to include things similar to what he'd bought for himself. He looked at some of the labels and saw that most of them were Gucci and Versace. Had she bought Italian brands because that was where he was from? That was such a weirdly thoughtful and endearing thing to do. It made him smile.
He changed into new clothes scented of violets and sunlight, feeling like a new man.
He looked like a new man, he thought, looking at himself in the mirror. He was more accustomed to his older face and body now, and it felt good to be at least a little bit comfortable in his own skin again. He still felt strange in a way he couldn't really explain, but growing up probably carried with it a lot of mysteries he had yet to figure out.
He turned to leave and spotted something glinting on the floor. He knelt to look at it, and realized it was the gold object Persephone had been fiddling with. It was a gold clasp attached to a piece of very fine black fabric. He'd never touched anything that felt quite like it before. It felt like something halfway between silk and a slippery polyester. It had a dark shimmer to it that was fascinating to look at.
It seemed like a rectangular piece of fabric, and he figured it was a Greek style tunic.
He touched the gold clasp and noted that there was a pomegranate embossed on it. At this point, it didn't even surprise him. It just made him feel more determined to do his best for Persephone. He wanted to be someone worthy of her investment.
He pulled out his list and read through it. He should work on Nyx's stuff, he decided. He needed the heart of a flawless bull calf. That seemed doable. And he needed the bones of a Christian martyr and a hippocampus tail. What sort of spell was Nyx concocting with those ingredients?
The martyr bones jumped out at him the easiest. He didn't know anything about livestock, and he had no clue what a hippocampus was, but he distinctly remembered seeing the preserved body parts of saints on multiple occasions when he was growing up. He'd need to do a little research, but he knew a good place to begin.
He grabbed a pair of sunglasses and shadow traveled to Rome, appearing in a shaded alley off a busy street. The traveling was incredibly easy. He guessed it might be because there was such a strong connection between the city and his father's domain. There were probably a few entrances to the underworld here. He could sense them, although getting exact locations was hard. He glanced around, but he couldn't get his bearings when all he saw were bags of stinky trash. He strolled out into the street.
The sun was too bright, blinding him a little, but he was in a busy piazza with a flower market. Riotous color gleamed in the sun, heaps of daisies, roses, peonies in every shade of pink and yellow and purple. He walked up to a stand and looked through a pile of roses until he found the most perfect yellow rose he'd ever seen. He waited until the vendor glanced away, then held it in his hand, sending a prayer to Persephone.
“Here, goddess,” he muttered under his breath. “I thought you'd like it.”
“Like it?” He heard her voice whisper on the breeze. The flowers around him shivered at her presence. “I love it! I love all of them.”
He laughed, and the rose in his palm slowly withered and died.
“Oh,” he said. “Didn't meant to do that. Sorry.”
“I'm used to it,” she said, sending a comforting lavender scent wafting towards him. “It's your nature. Not your fault.”
He hadn't realized killing flowers was his nature, since it had never happened before, but she seemed to think nothing of it, so he didn't dwell.
“Back to work,” he told her. “Just saying hi.”
“Don't work too hard,” she said, her presence leaving. As she went, all of the remaining buds started opening. Nico strolled away as the shoppers at the market began exclaiming about the miraculous sight.
He walked into the first Catholic church he saw, San Pietro in Vincoli, and strolled up towards someone who worked there.
“Excuse me,” he asked. “Are there any bones here? Saint's bones?”
“No,” the man shrugged, taking the question in stride. “San Pietro's chains are here, though.”
“Nah. Has to be bones,” Nico said, turning around and leaving. He walked a while and went into another one called Chiesa di Santa Maria ai Monti. No bones there either, or chains or anything as far as he could see.
He wandered around from church to church, but he didn't have any luck. He wasn't sure if saint bones were just not as common as he remembered, or if they were stored someplace he couldn't see them. There wasn't always someone around to ask or a sign with information handy, which made it harder.
He eventually saw one called Basilica di Santa Maria sopra Minerva.
“Sopra Minerva,” he muttered, looking at it. He didn't see anything that reminded him of Minerva, no owls or shields anywhere. He went inside.
The sign explained that the church was built atop a temple to Isis that had been misidentified as a temple to Minerva in the past.
“I figured it was something like that,” he said. “Minerva isn't so easy to outsmart.” He read further. “There's a saint buried in here!”
“There is indeed,” a woman said behind him. He spun around, alarmed. He'd been muttering under his breath. He could see how it might have been creepy, but it should definitely not have been audible.
The woman had a shaved head and rich coffee colored skin, with bright amber eyes and heavy swoops of eyeliner. Her face was inhumanly beautiful, with high sculpted cheekbones and wide, curving red lips.
“Isis?” He asked her, guessing easily. He'd just been reading about her, after all. He'd half expected to run into her.
“Do you always talk to yourself? It's weird.”
“It's a bad habit I picked up lately.”
Isis frowned at him.
“I know Minerva is supposed to be the smart one and I get where you were going with that,” she said, her mouth curving into a displeased line. “But I took offense to your little remark.”
“I'm sincerely sorry,” he said, his heart starting to pound. Shit. Shit! What had he done?
“Make it up to me,” Isis said, leaning toward him and looming threateningly. “Get rid of her.”
“Her?”
“Catherine,” Isis sneered.
Nico and Isis both turned and looked toward the altar. Saint Catherine's sarcophagus lay beneath.
“Get rid of her?” Nico swallowed.
“I want her head impaled on the obelisk outside,” Isis said.
“Really?” Nico looked at Isis. He studied her a moment. Yes, she looked beautiful and scary and kind of bloodthirsty. But the closer he looked, the more she seemed... Old. Tired. It was as though beneath her perfect, ageless face, there was a soul who was deeply unhappy.
“Please,” Isis said. “You're a friend of Persephone's, right? I sense her blessing on you.”
“You do?”
“Specifically on your Gucci sunglasses,” she said.
He adjusted them on top of his head.
“Right,” he said. “She's my stepmother. I was just talking to her a minute ago.”
“She was a friend of mine,” Isis said. “Long ago. We've lost touch in recent years, but I know she'd want you to help me.”
Nico nodded.
“I can try,” he said. “Maybe if I come back at night and break in--”
“What? No, now,” Isis insisted. “Go on, use the mist. Chase the mortals away.”
“I don't know how to do that,” he said.
“It's easy, just snap your fingers and picture what you want them to see. I'd do it, but I don't have a lot of sway in here at the moment. Catherine's sucking up all the juice.”
Nico took a deep breath, then pictured a scenario he thought might work and snapped his fingers.
He was in a formal hat and had a whistle that he blew loudly.
“Out, everybody out! Relic dusting hour, no visitors,” he said in both Italian and English. “Out, out!”
Tourists scrambled for the door. He kept blowing the mist-whistle until they'd gone. Then he shoved a chair in front of the door while Isis watched, grinning.
“Alright,” he said, extremely pleased with how well the mist had worked. “Time to collect some bones.” He and Isis marched over to the sarcophagus.
There was a young woman sitting on it. She had light brown hair coiled on the back of her head in a bun, and was wearing a plain looking dress. Her eyes had a strange light in them that gave Nico chills.
“I told everybody to leave,” Nico said.
“Yeah, bitch,” Isis spat. “Scram.”
“No,” the young woman said. “I don't think I shall be going anywhere.”
“We need in that box,” Nico said. “I'm sorry, but you have to move.”
“Make me,” the woman said, glaring at him.
Isis stomped her bare foot on the floor, anklets jingling.
“I've got muscle with me now. Your time is up. I told you my friends would come through for me.”
“Your friends don't frighten me,” the woman said, arranging her hands in her lap placidly. “That one there is one of mine.”
Isis gasped.
“Et tu, Brute?” She declared, looking at Nico in devastation.
“I don't even know you, lady,” Nico insisted. “I just need the bones and I'll be on my way.”
“My bones don't belong to you,” the woman, who Nico realized was Catherine herself, said.
“You're Saint Catherine?” Nico's jaw dropped. It had never occurred to him that saints were real in the way that the gods were. When he thought about it, he didn't necessarily see why they couldn't be, but the concept confused him on a fundamental level.
“I am. And you've been baptised, young man,” Catherine said. “You've obviously been corrupted by paganism, but I think I can fix that.”
“Paganism? Well, maybe,” he said. “But you both seem real to me, so...” He glanced between Isis and Catherine. “Is this, like, a roommate disagreement?”
“No,” both women said at once.
“My soul is not rooming here,” Catherine said. “It lives in heaven with God, obviously. This is only a fragment of my being. Part of me is also in Siena.”
“And I've got fragments of me all over the damn place,” Isis said. “Way more than you.”
“I get more prayers,” Catherine said.
“I can do magic,” Isis said.
Nico was getting a headache.
“I'm sure you're both very powerful and revered,” he said. “But Catherine, I'm taking Isis's side in this one. She gets very little worship in this area, and your people built right over her temple. She's not even on the signage; it's mislabeled. It says Minerva.”
Catherine flushed a little.
“What difference does it make what pagan demon is on the sign,” she muttered.
Nico remembered what he'd read about her on the sign.
“You were a brilliant scholar in life,” he said. “There's no way you're okay with a mistake on your sign.”
She huffed.
“Fine,” she said. “I'll give you a bone if you write a letter to the pope for me about getting the sign changed. I used to be famous for my correspondence, but I can't write to mortals anymore. I'll dictate for you.”
“Okay,” Nico said. “I can do that.”
“And I want you to knock down that ugly obelisk outside. It's phallic.”
“And what's wrong with that?” Isis said, furious. “You see, Nico, this is why I can't stand Catholics. They've got a superiority complex as bad as the pagan Romans with none of their open mindedness.”
“That isn't true,” Catherine said. “If you wanted to convert we could make a saint of you, too.”
“And give up everything that makes me, me?” Isis asked. “No thank you.”
“I offered,” Catherine shrugged.
“I'm not knocking anything down,” Nico said. “But I'll write your letter. Is that okay?”
Catherine nodded, and with a sigh of relief Nico hunted down a pen and paper from a side office. He took down everything Catherine said, realizing too late that the letter was going to be long, theological, and complex.
Thirty pages later he put the pen down.
“Your handwriting is horrendous,” Catherine said. “But it will suffice. Can you deliver that to the Pope, please?”
“Yeah,” he said. “I'll figure something out.”
She slid off the sarcophagus and he heard a click as it unlocked.
“Only take a little one,” she said as he leaned over and opened it.
“Her skull!” Isis shouted eagerly. “Her skull for my obelisk!”
Nico stared into the sarcophagus.
“Where's your head?” He asked Catherine.
“Siena,” she smirked.
Isis let out a wail of despair, falling to her knees. Nico reached in and pocketed a toe bone, which Catherine gave a nod of approval to. Then he turned back to Isis.
“I'm sorry,” he said to her.
“I need some air,” she said, walking outside.
Nico made to follow her, but then a thought struck him.
“Catherine, you were a martyr, right?”
“No,” she said.
“Seriously?”
“You read my signage,” she shrugged. “Nowhere did it say I was a martyr. I was highly respected in my time. You need to study more history, child.”
“Yeah, I guess,” he said, disappointed.
“And go to mass once in a while.”
“No thanks,” he said, striding out after Isis.
“Don't forget my letter!” Catherine called out after him.
Isis stood beneath the obelisk, looking up at it.
“You okay?”
“Eh,” she shrugged. “What's another defeat? I should be used to it at this point,” she said. “I'm not going to cry over it.”
He stood beside her in silence, looking up at the obeliesk, which was held by a stone elephant.
“I used to pride myself on the longevity of my worship,” she said. “Out of my pantheon, I enjoyed the most international success. My cult worship was something to behold,” she smiled. “That's how I knew Persephone. We were both married to death gods, and we both had cults.”
“What were those like?”
“They evolved over time, as everything does,” Isis said. “But the celebrations and initiations, the worship, they were all intense and magical and thrilling. There's been nothing like it before or since,” she sighed. “I've always coexisted happily with other gods,” she said. “These Catholic saints, or gods, or whoever they are, never embraced me. There were some pagan gods they accepted into the fold, in their own way, but it wasn't for me. I find them difficult to deal with.”
“You're honestly the first god I've met who has brought them up. I didn't know they existed. I mean, not in this way.”
“She said you're one of them,” Isis said. “You never heard of a saint before?”
“No, of course I have, I just... forgot about them, I guess.”
“They're strange. They have shrines and temples and relics, and people pray to them-- A good number of them were never real humans to begin with. But call them gods and they go ballistic,” Isis said. “Better to leave it alone. They have issues.”
Nico nodded. Isis was entitled to her opinions, but he wasn't sure he felt comfortable agreeing with them. Catholicism had been an important part of his grandmother's life, and the lives of many of the people he'd known growing up, and he knew how seriously they'd taken their beliefs. If saints didn't consider themselves gods, he felt inclined to respect the way they chose to identify. Who was he to determine who was right and who was wrong in matters of divinity?
“I'm sensing that Rome is a complicated place,” he said judiciously.
“You can say that again,” she agreed.
He looked down at the letter from Catherine.
“I guess I ought to get this to the Pope somehow,” he said. “Whatever Catherine is, I can tell she's nobody to mess with.”
“No, she isn't,” Isis grumbled. “I'll come with you. I need to vent.”
Notes:
This fic has Catholic saints in it. This is obviously a Percy Jackson fanfiction first and foremost, but be forewarned there are more intense Catholic themes and content later in the story. They are not a big part of the story until WAY later in this fic, when they become more prominent for a little while. It'll be obvious when that transition happens, and it's temporary, so even if that's not your thing, it may not be a deal breaker for you either. Please make your own judgment.
With that being said, I don't want to assume people know anything about Catholicism prior to reading, so I'm going to add helpful info on saints in the notes sometimes. I'm NOT promoting the religion, and I'm not going to tell you stuff that's not relevant to the character in the context of their fanfiction appearances. I just don't want people to feel like they are missing background information that other people might already know from their upbringing.
St. Catherine of Siena: Caterina di Jacopo di Benincasa, 1347 – 1380), known as Catherine of Siena. An Italian Catholic mystic and pious laywoman who engaged in papal and Italian politics through extensive letter-writing. Canonized in 1461, she is revered as a saint due to her extensive theological authorship. Her body is in a sarcophagus on display in Rome, but her head is stored separately, on display in Siena.
Chapter 8: A Night Out with the Gods
Chapter Text
Nico and Isis walked arm in arm through the streets of Rome, taking a long route toward Vatican city, winding down alleys and exploring every piazza they passed through. Isis told him the origin of every obelisk they passed by, as well as every Roman ruin and church. It made for extremely slow walking, but Nico hung on her every word. She'd had drama with both the Greek and Roman iterations of every god, and run ins with a lot of saints, too. It sounded like she was a very social goddess with a huge network of relationships and histories. She talked for hours and barely had time to mention her original pantheon back in Egypt, which said a lot for how long she'd lived.
Eventually they stood staring up at the walls of the Vatican.
“Uh,” Nico said. “How does this work?”
Isis glanced at the sky.
“He always has such good timing,” she said. Nico looked up and saw a wiry man in a microfiber polo shirt and tiny neon running shorts descending from the sky on winged sandals.
“Isis,” the man said, tipping his baseball cap to the goddess. “Nico di Angelo, I presume?”
“Yes, that's me,” Nico said. “Uh, Hermes?”
“Mercury,” he said.
“Sorry.”
“No big deal,” Mercury shrugged. “Nico, I have a package for you from Olympus,” he said, handing it to him from a shoulder bag.
“Thanks,” Nico said, taking it. It had a stamp on it with an eagle, which alarmed him at first until he saw that it was an eagle flying over Mount Ida. “From Ganymede?” He asked, knowing it to be the case.
“Yeah,” Mercury said. “Welp, better run--”
“Wait,” Nico dug out Catherine's letter. “This is for the Pope. Can you deliver it?”
“Sure,” Mercury said. “No problem. By the way,” he looked Nico over. “Who are you exactly, Nico di Angelo of the Underworld?”
“I'm a demigod,” Nico said. “Son of Hades.”
“You keep some company for a demigod,” Mercury glanced at the package in his hand and at Isis. “Correspondence with the Pope, huh?”
“It's a favor for St. Catherine.”
“Right. Yeah. Nothing weird about that,” Mercury laughed. “Whatever. I've delivered stranger mail. Take care, son of Hades! Good seeing you, Isis.”
Mercury flew into the Vatican and disappeared from sight among the gleaming white columns. Nico and Isis went to sit on a bench while he opened the package.
“You're a friend of Ganymede?” She asked him.
“We've only met once,” Nico said. “He's really nice, though.” Inside the package was a box containing a cell phone. It looked brand new and had a magical signature to it. There was a lightning bolt logo on the outside.
It started ringing. Nico picked up.
“Hello?”
“You got it!” Ganymede said excitedly. “Nico, you won't believe it! Zeus said I can come hang out with you in the mortal world!”
“Seriously?” Nico asked. “I thought he didn't like me!”
“He said any son of Hades would be sure to keep me out of trouble, since you're boring and a stick in the mud,” he said. “Isn't that great?”
“Boring? Yeah, that's great, I guess,” Nico said. “Well, I'm in Rome, but I'm actually hanging out with Isis right now--”
“I love her! I'm on my way.”
A few seconds later Ganymede soared down from the sky on the back of an eagle.
“Different eagle,” he said when he saw Nico's look of alarm. “Hey, dude,” he hugged him. “I'm so excited! I haven't been able to run around on my own in ages!”
“He's that protective of you?” Nico asked.
“No, I just get into too much trouble. Isis! So good to see you, gorgeous,” he said, hugging her. “You coming out with us tonight?”
“I wouldn't miss it!” She said, lighting up. They both looked at Nico.
“Where are we going?” He asked nervously.
“Where aren't we going?” Ganymede exclaimed.
First, the group went shopping. Ganymede's credit card was electric blue, and he bought so many strange items of clothing that Nico was almost tempted to see what parties on Olympus were like just to see if he pulled off some of the outfits. Isis bought a pink wig and a matching pink sequin dress. Ganymede settled on a neon green jumpsuit, and he talked Nico into a purple trenchcoat and made him promise to wear his sunglasses inside all night to complete the look.
The look they were going for must have been 'recently escaped from the insane asylum,' based on the reactions they were getting. But as the afternoon crept toward evening, and the shadows grew deeper, Nico realized he was actually having fun. Ganymede and Isis took his shy and broody demeanor as a challenge to make him lighten up as much as possible, and there was little he could do but go along with it.
After shopping, Ganymede took them to a wine bar where they drank and ate suppli. He caught up with Isis on about a hundred years of gossip, which Nico listened to with some disdain. Most of it was about Zeus, and it wasn't good, although Ganymede took his side in every incident he recounted.
He was explaining Dionysus's punishment when he caught Nico's attention.
“I had no idea Mr. D was being punished,” Nico said. “That explains why he was so miserable all the time.”
“Of course he's miserable; he's sober,” Ganymede said, snapping his fingers and refilling his companion's wine glasses. The bartender gave the three of them a confused glance, but he said nothing about it. “Poor bastard,” Ganymede continued. “I hope Zeusy forgives him soon. He got some time shaved off his sentence after the Titan War.”
“The what?” Nico asked.
“You must have been asleep,” Ganymede said. “A son of Poseidon saved the world from Kronos. Lots of people died. You know how it goes.”
“You mean Percy Jackson,” Nico said. Ganymede nodded.
“He was offered immortality and turned it down,” Isis supplied. “Little fool.”
“I heard he wanted to be mortal for his girlfriend, the daughter of Athena.”
“Annabeth,” Nico said.
“How embarrassing,” Isis snorted. “Giving up eternal life for a pubescent fling.”
“He might have had other reasons,” Nico said. “I'd never want to be immortal.”
“No? Why not?” Ganymede asked.
“I look forward to dying,” Nico said. “It's peaceful. Nobody bothers you anymore. Nothing bad can happen.”
“Says the kid whose home address is currently just, 'the underworld,'” Ganymede said. “Most mortals don't have the kind of insider knowledge you do.”
“That's true,” Nico said. “But maybe if they knew it wasn't so bad they'd be less afraid.”
“I think it's built in,” Isis said, draining her wine and waving Ganymede off when he tried to refill it. “A cornered animal fights. Beasts sniff out mates and hump. And humans fear death. And worse, they kill each other to buy themselves another day. It's pathetic, really.”
“That is a shame,” Nico said. He found the conversation thought provoking. Unlike the religious tradition he'd grown up with, the Greek afterlife was remarkably neutral. Life was so often far worse than neutral that most people should, logically, have not feared death. But then again...
“What about Christians?” Nico said. “Obviously they believe in their own type of afterlife. And ancient Egyptians-- Isis, do your followers go to my underworld, or do they go to the Duat? Does it depend on where they were born, or what time they lived in, or what they believed? And is there somewhere else depending on if they were in one of those cults?”
“Oh, honey, there are so many different ways death can play out. I have no idea how it's determined what afterlife one gets,” she said. “I answer prayers that are addressed to me, even if they come to me a little sideways. It's beyond me to try and pick through the specific religious and cultural beliefs of every person I work with. It's just too complicated, and frankly, it's none of my business. If I get a prayer, I'll try to answer it. Even if they only believed in me a little bit for the space of a few seconds, sometimes that's all it takes.”
“Right,” Nico said, not really understanding.
“Talk to my husband sometime,” she sighed. “He's good at explaining this stuff.”
“You should be asking your father all this,” Ganymede laughed. “He's the snobbish thinking kind of god, anyhow.”
“What kind of god does that make you?” Nico asked.
“The foppish drinking kind!” Ganymede exclaimed. “Gelato break?”
Nico and Isis followed eagerly, and they had gelato on the Ponte Fabricio overlooking the Tiber. Nico had straciatella flavor.
“I know a club in Termini we can check out,” Isis said.
Nico and Ganymede followed her to a tiny metal door in an alley. She knocked twice and it opened.
“Are you on the list?” The bouncer, who was a cyclops, asked.
“Always am,” she winked.
He stepped aside and let them in, his large eye following their every move as they entered.
Nico had to do a double take. The first thing that caught his eye was a satyr in the corner ferociously humping a tree. Then he noticed the tree was reciprocating.
“What kind of place is this?” He asked, seeing nymphs and satyrs dancing with wild abandon. There were some humans who he thought might be demigods spinning around with them, and a bunch of mortal women in states of undress who were smashing plates and screaming.
“It used to be one of Dionysus's haunts,” Isis said. “Until he was put on probation. The maenads run it now.”
So that's who the women were. Nico had never seen so many exposed breasts in his life. The scene was chaotic and loud and flashing with strobe lights, and he found it hard to take in.
“Ganymede, this isn't really my scene,” he said. “I should go. You have fun.”
“Give it a half hour,” Ganymede said. “Trust me.” He leapt over the bar and shoved the bartender out of the way. “Who wants shots?” He said loudly.
Everyone started cheering.
“Come on,” Isis said, grabbing shots for the two of them and pulling Nico to the dance floor. “I'll teach you to dance.”
Nico wasn't a very good dancer, but no one seemed to pay much attention to him when Isis was dancing, undulating in ways he didn't think a normal human body could pull off. He just danced awkwardly next to her and hoped nobody noticed how dumb he looked.
He took a break to check on Ganymede behind the bar. His mixology skills were terrifying; he was pouring something on fire up the throat of a Maenad whose friends were holding her upside down.
“I'll take a dance break soon,” Ganymede said, pouring a tower of rainbow shots and pushing a range of blues and greens towards Nico. “Start drinking. I saw that dancing. We gotta loosen you up.”
Nico was already several drinks into the night and was still awkward, so he was pretty sure it wasn't something alcohol could cure. Still, he slid onto a bar stool and drank, glancing over his shoulder at the mass of writhing bodies behind him from time to time, mostly to make sure the Maenads weren't throwing things in his direction.
A tall, elegant woman in a purple velvet cocktail dress strolled out of a back room. She got a few polite nods and muttered something to the maenads, then went to the bar.
“A pleasure to see you in the establishment,” she told Ganymede, who smiled at her over another concoction. “Would you do me the honor?”
“Anything for you, my lady,” he winked, mixing up a new drink for her. “This will knock your socks off. Guaranteed.”
She took a sip.
“Oh, that's something special,” she said. “It tastes like I'm watching fireworks on a beach!”
“Want one, Nico?” He asked.
“Sure,” Nico said. “Thank you.”
“I'm not sure we've met,” the woman said.
“My name is Nico di Angelo,” he said. “Demigod. Son of Hades.”
“Ariadne,” the woman said. “Immortal. Wife of Dionysus.”
“You're Mister D's wife?”
She chuckled.
“Mister D,” she said. “That's cute. Quite a few demigods frequent this place, but most of them are European. I've only had a couple from Camp Half Blood, and they all tell me my husband is a miserable lout to the children,” she said, twisting her mouth unhappily.
“I think he's lonely,” Nico said, trying to be diplomatic without feeding her platitudes.
She blinked back a single, elegant tear. She had thick, dark lashes, and her eyeshadow was a glittery silver. Her tear traced a line of silver down her face. It was a cool look, but Nico felt sorry for her.
“It just feels like Zeus is punishing me, too,” she said. “And I didn't do anything wrong. It's so unfair.”
“Oh, honey,” Ganymede said, leaning over the bar and reaching out to squeeze her hand. “I know. He's a meanie. But it'll pass. It's only time.”
She nodded, sniffling.
“I'm fine,” she said. “I should call him tonight and see how he's doing, my poor Mister D,” she said, giggling a little. “What did you get?” She asked Nico.
Ganymede had placed a martini glass in front of him with a pitch black substance in it that looked like liquid darkness.
“I had to whip up something spooky for the son of Hades,” Ganymede said, winking at Nico.
Nico took a sip.
“Woah, that's amazing!” He said. “It actually tastes like the fields of Asphodel!”
“Is that a good thing?” Ganymede looked at Ariadne like, what a weirdo.
“Yeah, it's cool and refreshing,” Nico said.
“Speaking of the underworld,” Ariadne said, stirring her drink and clinking ice. “How's my father?”
Nico had to think for a minute. He looked at Ariadne closely.
“You're Mino's daughter,” he realized. He had to backtrack in his mind through the story of Ariadne, Theseus, Daedalus and the Minotaur. Minos had been king of Crete, and had been responsible for everything that happened. Ariadne had been the rebellious princess that dared to stand up to him.
“Have you seen him around at all?”
“I see him a lot,” he said. “We were just talking the other day, actually. He's really nice.”
Ariadne raised her eyebrows.
“I see,” she said.
“I guess you guys don't have a good relationship?” Nico asked.
“We don't have any relationship,” she said. “He's dead.”
“Right,” Nico said.
“He's also an asshole,” she muttered.
“What made you ask about him?”
“I don't know,” she sighed. “Too much time on my hands with my husband gone. Just thinking about the old days.” She fiddled with her hair, her thick dark curls reminding Nico of her father's hair. She had the same amber highlights, and beneath the layers of hair he saw earrings flash, the same golden bell shape as Minos's, although hers bore a pattern like unspooling thread.
“He said something weird the other day,” Nico said. “That his worst deeds were remembered and his best forgotten. What do you think he meant by that? He didn't elaborate.”
She sipped her drink. Ganymede jumped back over the bar and slid into a seat beside Nico, putting an arm around his shoulders.
“He's probably just frustrated that his early years of ruling aren't brought up very often,” Ariadne said. “He was a great king, a progressive one. Crete prospered under his auspice, and he was Zeus's pride and joy, exalted among men. He was the golden child. He was a contender for godhood, in fact. And then he fucked it all up.”
“What did he do?”
“He refused to sacrifice a perfect bull calf to Poseidon. He wanted it for himself. It was a beautiful little thing. Big black eyes and a pink little nose, just precious-- but he should not have kept it. His sin of pride offended his uncle, who punished him by enticing my mother into her encounter with a bull-- You're probably aware of how that played out.”
Nico nodded.
“My father was humiliated, and devastated that his father, Zeus, never came to his defense. I watched as the great king I'd grown up idolizing became a laughingstock in the eyes of his subjects. In his panic to regain some dignity he made more bad decisions that compounded on each other until he was unrecognizeable. Jealous, angry, and bitter, he took the slightest disagreement as a betrayal.” She snorted. “He was dead to me long before he actually died.”
“So his fatal flaw was hubris?”
“I think so,” Ariadne said.
Nico felt like he understood Minos a lot better now. He was an ancient king, but he was also another demigod who'd desperately wanted to please his godly father. It was a story anyone at Camp Half Blood could relate to, at least to an extent.
“If it makes you feel better, he's very humble now,” Nico said.
Ariadne laughed.
“Of course he is,” she said. “He's gone down in history as a villain, and he has no one to blame but himself.”
Nico was satisfied with her answer. He continued sipping his drink.
“I wonder what my fatal flaw will be,” he said.
“Not partying hard enough,” Ganymede snorted. “Come on, down that thing and let's dance, kid!”
Nico obeyed, downing his drink, which he would have much rather savored. He was immediately hit with a familiar glow of ambrosia that startled him.
“I wish you'd told me ambrosia was in it,” Nico said. “I'm still gun-shy after my last incident.”
“I'd never put a dangerous amount,” Ganymede reassured him, leading him to the dance floor. Nico finally started to feel drunk.
“What else was in there?”
“A bunch of stuff you've never heard of,” Ganymede said, “And some of Dionysus's private stash he keeps in a hidden compartment. I know his tricks.”
No wonder the room was spinning. Nico's heart was pounding, and within the next few minutes he was dancing with the maenads, forgetting for the time being how scary they were. The music pounded in his bones, and he felt Ariadne take his hands and dance with him, and then Isis, and the Ganymede, and then it was a blur of music and laughter and joy.
Chapter 9: Little Fish in a Big Pond
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Nico blinked an eye open blearily. He was in bed, he realized, and sunlight was blazing through the window. He rolled over sleepily and nearly jumped out of his skin.
Ganymede was in bed next to him, completely naked. He glanced down, panicking, but he was still fully dressed, including his tacky purple trenchcoat. He had a blanket pulled over him like he'd been tucked in. He was reassured, and his initial shock subsided.
He looked around the room and ascertained nothing. It was just a normal white walled room with a big bright window overlooking a vineyard. He looked at Ganymede again. He was beautiful, lying there in the morning sunlight, the sun making his long, elegant limbs shine golden and lovely.
Don't think about that, he told himself, rolling over and staring at the opposite wall. It was really, really hard not to think about it, though. Being a teenager was so annoying sometimes.
Why was he so turned on? He wasn't into Ganymede in that way, at least he was pretty sure, but he couldn't help it. He dug his fingernails into the blanket and closed his eyes, trying to ignore his raging hormones and go back to sleep.
Ganymede rolled over and flung an arm over Nico. Nico flinched and pushed his arm back off.
That woke Ganymede.
“Mornin', sunshine,” he said. “Or should I say darkness,” he snickered. He threw his arm around Nico again and kissed him on the forehead.
“Can you stop, please,” Nico said, pushing him off again. “And put some clothes on.”
“Fine,” Ganymede said. “Grumpy much?” He stood and walked around the room. “I don't like sleeping restricted by fabric,” he said. He glanced at Nico. “Were you looking at my ass?”
“No,” Nico said, but his face turned totally red. Ganymede laughed, but it wasn't in a mean way.
“You can admit it. I know I look good,” he snickered. He picked up a sheet off the floor and wrapped it around his waist.
He sat on the bed again.
“Better?”
Nico grumbled something. Ganymede lay back down in bed where he was and stared at the ceiling.
“I don't have a crush on you or anything,” Nico said.
“I didn't think you did,” Ganymede said. “Attraction doesn't mean that much. You're just not used to being around gorgeous hunks like me.”
Nico couldn't help but laugh at that, relieved Ganymede didn't take it seriously.
“I think you're hot, too,” Ganymede said. “Just not my type.”
He knew what Ganymede's type was, so that didn't surprise him.
“I'm not hot,” Nico said. Next to Ganymede's tanned, athletic form, Nico felt like a cockroach with depression.
“Yes, you are,” Ganymede reassured him. “Just, like, a Timothee Chalamet hot.”
“What's a Timothee Chalamet? Is that good?”
“It's good. I can think of tons of guys who would be into you.”
“Really?”
“You're a beautiful youth! A son of the big three, well connected,” he added, pointing to himself. “Men would tear each other apart to be your erastes.”
“Erastes? What is that?”
“You don't know?” Ganymede raised his eyebrows.
“No. Should I? Does everybody else know?” Nico asked, panicking. “You've got to remember, I've only been a teenager for a little while. I'm not caught up yet.”
“That's okay, chill out. You're fine. An erastes is an older man who courts you until you agree to a relationship. Then they'd initiate you into manhood by teaching you about sex. And other stuff.”
Nico thought on that for a minute.
“Maybe they did that in ancient times,” he said. “Teenagers don't date grown adults anymore. I'm pretty sure it's illegal.” He could just imagine what the counselors at camp would have to say about that. Chiron didn't even let boys and girls in the same cabin.
“I still feel 19,” Ganymede shrugged. “But I'm actually thousands of years old. So who am I allowed to date? Another 19 year old? Or someone who feels forty but is actually also a few thousand years old?”
“But you're a god,” Nico said. “Of course that works differently.”
“Who says you can't date a god?” Ganymede shrugged.
Nico bit his tongue before he could say, “I wouldn't want to.” You never knew when a god might take offense, and besides, he wasn't sure it was a bridge he ought to burn. He'd met so many gods who were really nice... But he was being ridiculous.
“I'm nobody special,” he said finally. “I don't think that's gonna happen.”
“Well, nobody can say your fatal flaw is hubris,” Ganymede said. “I like seeing you come out of your shell more, Nico. Yesterday was exciting. I haven't had an adventure like that in a while.”
“Do you want to keep hanging out?” Nico asked hopefully.
“I was actually hoping you were free for the next couple weeks,” Ganymede said. “Zeus is working on a project and I have nothing to do.”
“I don't have to be anywhere until March 21st,” Nico said. He thought guiltily of Bianca, but he knew she could stand to wait a little longer. Time meant nothing to her now.
Isis strode into the room and flopped down onto the bed between them.
“I feel like performing some dark magic later tonight,” she said, staring at the ceiling. “Will you boys help me?”
“Of course!” Nico said eagerly, making her laugh.
“I made pancakes!” Ariadne called from the kitchen.
The three of them headed out to find her. The house they were in was a massive Tuscan style villa, with tiled floors and huge windows that looked out over a vineyard.
They headed down the hall. Nico noticed that the floor was tiled with a mosaic depicting maenads and Bacchus in a frenzy.
“This is Dionysus's house,” he said.
“Yeah, Ariadne invited us back after the club,” Isis said. “You fell asleep before the after-party even got started.”
“I think I'm okay with that,” he said.
Ariadne was in a large kitchen making ricotta pancakes on a large stove. The kitchen was bright and airy, with more huge windows providing views of the rolling hills of Tuscany and a massive vineyard stretching out across the horizon. She gestured for the three guests to sit at a table, where a young woman who appeared to be about Nico's age was drinking grape juice and reading a book.
“This is Semele, my mother in law,” Ariadne said. “Semele, the new one is Nico, son of Hades.”
“Greetings,” Semele said.
“You've come back from the dead,” Nico said, looking at her in fascination.
She nodded.
“Di brought her back after he was deified,” Ariadne said, setting a platter of pancakes and a pot of hot coffee on the table. As she waved her hand, an array of plates and cups appeared at each place, along with a large pile of grapes.
“The grapes just happen,” she added, looking at Nico with humor in her eyes. “I think of it as Di saying hello. Or Mister D,” she giggled. “I can't get over how funny that is.”
Nico settled into his seat and let Ariadne serve him pancakes, and found he could not stop staring at Semele. He could sense traces of the underworld still lingering on her, but she was clearly alive in a very real way, and immortal to boot.
“Staring is rude,” Semele said. She looked very young, and could have fit in at Camp Half Blood easily, or at any mortal high school, but her eyes looked much older than her face.
“Sorry,” Nico said. He tried to focus on eating pancakes like everyone else. The others put ambrosia syrup on theirs, which looked delicious, but he abstained. “I want to bring my sister back from the dead,” he finally said. “Exactly like your son did with you.”
“Then do it,” Semele said. “You're a god, aren't you?”
“I'd been meaning to ask about that,” Ariadne said. “Are you sure you're not a god? Because demigods don't usually hang out with us like this.”
“Wouldn't it be obvious if I was?” Nico asked.
“Not at all,” Isis said. “It's a vague term. I told you, I even think the saints are gods sometimes.”
“No. I promise I'm just a demigod.”
“It's a funny story,” Ganymede said, his mouth full. “He drank too much ambrosia and Persephone had to wake him from a coma.”
“Were you trying to forcibly deify yourself in order to get your sister back?” Ariadne asked. “It doesn't work like that.”
“I didn't have a well thought out agenda,” Nico said. “Would you mind telling me how Dionysus saved you?” He asked Semele, unable to help himself.
“I was in Asphodel and he came and got me. I don't know how he was able to.”
“I would think that if gods could resurrect people easily, they'd do it more often,” Nico said, thinking of his mother.
Isis nodded.
“Every situation is unique,” she said. “Fate has to weave a truly remarkable thread for it to happen. Semele was wronged and deserved a second chance. Her son was deified and was able to give that to her. That is a rare circumstance.”
Nico's own mother had been killed by Zeus. She probably deserved more time. But another glance at Semele made him feel differently. She'd clearly been a teenager when Zeus impregnated her. She would never have met her son if he hadn't brought her back. Nico's mother had lived more than twice as long as Semele, and had been a wealthy, educated woman who traveled a lot. She'd happily raised her children for over a decade with the support of a relatively involved Hades, and a close extended family. As much as his heart ached at losing her, he couldn't justify why she deserved more life than she had had. Especially not when her afterlife was more comfortable than most in Elysium.
Bianca, on the other hand, was only twelve when she'd passed. She'd just become a hunter of Artemis. She hadn't even regained her memories. There was so much they needed to right between the two of them. Nico had to find a way to bring her back. Semele's story only motivated him to believe it could be done.
“Bianca was a really special person,” Nico said. Although he couldn't articulate why, he knew it was true. “My father isn't supportive of my plan and Persephone doesn't think it's possible. Do you think if I asked Dionysus, he'd tell me how he did it?”
“I don't see why not,” Ariadne said. “But you say you aren't a god. How would you repeat what he did?”
“I don't know yet,” he said. “Maybe there's a chance Artemis might... No, I doubt it,” he said.
“What about Artemis?” Ganymede asked.
“Bianca was one of her hunters,” Nico said. “I thought there was a chance she'd help. But I barely know her. We've met, but she wasn't very nice to me.”
“That was the old you,” Ganymede said. “Now you're doing important work for your father, and you practically reek of Cthonic power. You're not just a dumb little demigod, you're somebody. She'll have to give you the time of day, at least.”
“Feel free to name drop me,” Isis said. “You helped me even though you're baptised. I don't want you to regret it,” she smirked.
“And me,” Ganymede said. “You got me out of house arrest for the first time in forever. I owe you one.”
“And me,” Ariadne added. “But you have to promise to give Di a care package from me. He doesn't like Hermes, so I hate sending them through him.”
“Yes, of course,” Nico said. “Thank you. You've all been very kind to me. I'm not sure what I did to deserve it. Helping you is what I'm supposed to do. I didn't expect anything in return.”
“Chiron taught you well,” Ariadne said, beaming.
“Dear, we're gods,” Isis said. “We know to invest in talent when we see it. Best to get in early.”
The rest of the morning was taken up by pleasant chat and delicious pancakes. Nico was quiet. The discussions of the day left him in a thoughtful mood.
It was fascinating to see how the immortals spoke to one another. They talked for hours, recounting old stories and gossiping about what people were up to now. They had neither minimums nor maximums when it came to food, so they grazed on fruit and pancakes until the sun was going down. Nico didn't mind it, because they were nice people who made him feel like he wasn't a burden. Their sense of time was just different. He respected it and enjoyed the simple day gratefully.
“We're probably boring you to tears,” Ganymede said. “You don't know half the people we're talking about.”
“I don't mind at all,” Nico said.
Eventually, as evening fell, Isis left to go see a man about a leopard and Semele went for a walk in the vineyard. Nico and Ganymede went to sit on a balcony overlooking the vines. They caught glimpses of Semele from time to time, running her hand along the vines, eating grapes here and there as she went. She didn't seem happy, but Nico hoped she'd at least found some contentment in her eternal life.
Nico took another look at his list. He added a couple of items on his own – Deliver Ariadne's package to Mr D, talk to Artemis, and find something to do with Catherine's toe.
“Do you want to do something tomorrow?” Ganymede asked. “Something low key, maybe? You're probably tired. Humans get tired a lot, I remember.”
Nico didn't feel tired at all.
“We can do whatever,” Nico said. “Have you been to Rome much? I haven't been since I was little. It seems like it would have a lot of fun stuff for a god to do.”
“Of course,” Ganymede snorted. “I went by Catamitus there. And let me tell you, I was worshiped. Maybe not as much as Greece, but...” He rolled his eyes. “Let's just say I still get name dropped. Sometimes in places I'd really rather not be,” he added. “Cough. The Vatican. Cough,” he said, pretending to choke on something.
Nico decided he didn't want to know.
“Do you have anything you want to see? Visit your papal friends?”
“I'm not visiting those freaks,” he frowned. “I deeply disapprove of their whole deal,” he said. “Let's go see some art. I like seeing art of me and Zeusy.”
“I'm down,” Nico said.
For the next few days Nico and Ganymede went to every museum in Rome. It was incredibly educational, because nearly every classical painting depicted people Ganymede knew, and he talked shit about everybody. He knew almost too much gossip, and it was clear to Nico that he had way too much time on his hands. Being a cupbearer was not a very demanding job to begin with, and he shared the responsibility with Hebe, so he had a lot of free time. Nico asked a couple of times about what Zeus was up to, but he never got anything out of him. Zeus was the one person Ganymede was careful talking about.
They left the Vatican museums as one of the last. It was large, crowded, and full of some of the most beautiful art Nico had ever seen.
“I've never been here before,” Ganymede admitted as they explored the long galleries full of Roman busts and portraiture. “I always get the feeling I'm being watched when I hang around this area. This is also the first time I've visited that they haven't told me they're closed for renovations. They always say that, but I can clearly see them letting other people in. So rude.”
“Who's watching you? Like, priests and stuff?”
“You know who,” he muttered. “Them,” he jerked a thumb at a painting of a fleshless Saint Bartholomew with his skin hanging around his neck. “I'll suck it up. There's a bunch of pictures of me that they're hoarding away. I have to see them. It's important.” He swallowed. “Thanks for coming with me,” he added. “I wouldn't have the guts if you weren't here.”
“The last saint I met was pretty reasonable,” Nico said. “They might not all be so bad. There's so many of them, at least a few ought to be nice people.”
Their explorations went uneventfully for most of the day, and they blended in with the huge crowds of people well enough that Nico was reassured they didn't stand out.
They were looking at a collection of pottery when Nico felt something strange.
“Someone just walked in,” he said, looking up and glancing around the room. Most of the tourists weren't interested in pottery, so that area was relatively empty. There was a family from India on the other side of the room, with two kids who were walking around quietly, but other than them, they were alone.
Wait, Nico thought, catching sight of movement in the corner. There was a teenage girl with dark brown hair standing directly opposite them, staring right at him.
“What is it?” Ganymede asked. Nico had locked eyes with the girl, but neither of them had moved. She cocked her head, seemingly waiting on him to do something. She was dressed in a well-tailored business suit and dress pants that looked crisp and modern, but there was an aura of power radiating off of her. He couldn't see anything to indicate it visually, but she looked as though she was lit from within, like there was an invisible light behind her eyes, a glow that could be felt but not seen.
“Nico?” Ganymede asked. “What are you looking at?”
The girl's eyes locked onto Ganymede, and she glared, her eyes turning hard. She started walking toward them.
Nico knew her intentions could not be anything good. As she took a step, he lifted the tile below her feet just a few inches using his power over the earth, and she immediately tripped and fell into the pottery display. Pots began falling over one by one, knocking down an entire row.
The tourist family must have assumed one of the kids did it, and they started shouting. In the chaos Nico dragged Ganymede by the sleeve and pulled him out of the room. They joined a crowd of people in line to see the Sistine Chapel, and Nico breathed a sigh of relief that she would have more trouble finding them there.
“You really couldn't see her?” Nico asked.
“See who?”
“A saint,” Nico said. “She was a saint. She had a – she looked like a teenage girl, but I think she had a halo. I couldn't see it, but I could tell it was there.”
“Di immortales,” Ganymede whispered.
“Don't say that in here,” Nico said angrily. “She'll come back! She looked at you and got really pissed off all of a sudden. I don't think you're welcome here.”
“No shit,” Ganymede said. “You know what, I don't care. If they didn't want me coming here, they shouldn't have had so many pictures and statues of me. I'm not afraid of those assholes. I'm gonna look at every damn piece of art I please, and I'm gonna take my time about it, too. If they want to start something, they're more than welcome.”
“Right,” Nico swallowed. “Uh huh. Okay.”
“I'm not fucking scared,” Ganymede said. “Are you?”
“I'm more scared for you than I am for me,” he said. “I'm Catholic.”
“You're WHAT?” Ganymede roared.
“I mean I used to be,” Nico cringed. “I shouldn't have said that. Please don't hate me.”
Ganymede looked at him warily.
“Just don't go praying to Jeemus or whoever about me,” he said.
“You mean Jesus?”
“Whatever,” Ganymede said. “I don't need that kind of heat. I'm just a little fish in a big pond here.”
“I'm sure it's fine,” Nico sighed.
They followed the line of people into the Sistine Chapel. Ganymede took photos on his phone with the flash on, mouth agape, heedless of the security guards demanding that he stop. Nico didn't get any feeling of supernatural light, so he let his guard down. That was a mistake.
Ganymede was arguing with the security guard about his photos when Nico felt a tug at his sleeve. It was the girl.
“We need to talk,” she said.
“I don't want to talk to you,” he said. “Leave me and my friend alone.”
“I don't want any trouble,” she said. “I just want him to leave. But first I want to speak with you.”
Nico glanced at Ganymede.
“If you want them to let him go, you'd better do as I say,” she said.
Nico reluctantly followed her off to one side of the room. He had to fight through the crowd, but it seemed to part for her. He noticed that her feet didn't fully touch the ground.
“I really don't want any trouble,” he said, his heart pounding. “I'm already in over my head with one pantheon, okay, I can't handle another.”
“You're baptised,” she said. “And we don't like to see our people hanging out with the likes of him. What's your story? How did you become connected with the heathens?”
“My being baptised wasn't my choice,” he said. “I don't even remember it. And it's none of your business what I do with the heathens, if that's what you want to call them.”
“How is it you're able to see me when he can't?” She finally said, and he realized that was what she'd really been wondering about.
“I don't know,” he said.
She stared into his eyes.
“I'm a demigod, okay?” He said.
“No, you're not,” she snorted. “If what you mean is you're descended from a pagan demon--”
“Yeah, whatever you want to call it,” Nico said. “It's just semantics.”
“That doesn't explain why you can see me. You're far from the only half-demon to be baptised. Neither your bloodline nor your baptism is relevant. My own believers shouldn't be able to see me. The demon you call Jupiter shouldn't be able to see me. Why, then, can you?”
“Nope,” Nico said, immediately looking away from her. “I'm not doing this.”
“What is that supposed to mean?”
“I'm not special. You don't need to take an interest in me. Please leave me alone.”
“But I have to figure out why,” she said.
“That's too bad,” he said. “I have about fifty million questions why. Why is a saint talking to me? Why are deities from two different religions interacting? Why can't you be more tolerant of other belief systems? Why are a bunch of geriatric, pedophilic homophobes hoarding half the world's art? And why can't you mind your own business?”
She stared at him, her eyes still hard as stone.
“I'm not going to get my answers, and I'm fine with that. I don't need to know everything. Have a nice day,” he said.
“My name is Thecla,” she called out after him once he'd turned around. “I'll be seeing you, Nico di Angelo of Venice.”
He whipped his head around, alarmed that she'd figured out his name.
“Baptised in 1932? You're looking good for your age, di Angelo.” She emphasized the words of his last name and smiled. “I'll be seeing you.”
She walked out of the chapel. That glowing feeling disappeared. He took a deep breath.
“They made me delete the pictures,” Ganymede said, strolling over, having been just set free by the guards. “They took a lot of interest in my camera roll. I told them if they scrolled any more I was going to have to start charging.”
Nico couldn't help but laugh in spite of the weird tension of the day.
“Come on, let's go look for you,” Nico said, linking arms with his friend. “That girl isn't going to bother us anymore.”
Chapter 10: Crushed by Valentine Part 1
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Nico and Ganymede finished exploring the Vatican museums with no further weird incidents. They kept exploring the city for a little while until Ganymede got bored of Rome and insisted they go somewhere else.
Nico had never intended to let his chores go by the wayside for so long, but Ganymede was very entertaining and he was learning a lot, so he didn't have a problem with it. They didn't spend all of their time together, but when he wasn't working, Ganymede had an endless list of things to see and do, and he was only allowed to go if Nico was there.
“You really keep me honest,” he said. “Zeus said I haven't been late for work once since I've been hanging out with you. That's because you always make sure I go back on time.”
“You've been late multiple times,” Nico said. “By over an hour.”
“Late by my standards is if I go over two hours,” Ganymede said. “What can I say? We didn't have clocks on Mount Ida.”
At his request, Nico took him to Istanbul and showed him the Hagia Sophia, as well as Beijing, since he'd taken an interest after Nico told him about his journeys. Nico got used to the rhythm of life sleeping in nice hotels, reading and researching whatever interested him, and waiting on Ganymede to show up. Ariadne had him over for meals regularly and asked him to share his memories of Dionysus at camp.
Isis also occasionally texted him to come help with something. She was working out of Ariadne's basement for the time being, in an empty cave tucked behind the wine cellar. He helped her with more than a dozen of her magic spells. They usually required him to hold back the head of a large animal for her to sacrifice or to pour out his own blood on an altar. It passed the time.
On one particular magical project, she asked him for Saint Catherine's toe and he carefully explained that he'd lost it. They both knew he was lying, but you didn't say no to gods directly unless you liked getting blasted to smithereens. She let it slide, but not without consequences.
“I need another saint's bone, if you don't have that one,” she said, her dark eyes flashing.
“I'll get one for you, goddess,” he said.
“Quickly,” she frowned.
Nico shadow traveled to the Basilica of Santa Maria in Cosmedin, in Rome. He'd marked down the location while he'd been researching the relics of martyrs in his spare time. He had hesitated to go after this particular relic because he wasn't sure how to replace the skull once he'd taken it. The skull of Saint Valentine was supposed to be prominently displayed here, and he knew Isis would see it as a great prize. Still, it would be noticed if he didn't pull off the heist perfectly.
He didn't want to keep Isis waiting, however. He'd have to figure it out on the fly.
He walked into the church and glanced over the sign. He always took care to do this after it had been so beneficial to him in dealing with Saint Catherine. This Basilica, he read, had been built overtop of a temple to Hercules.
That was a good sign. Hercules had a Disney movie. What saint could compete with that?
He went up to the spot where the skull was displayed, obscuring his activities from the mortals that were milling about the basilica using the mist.
There it was, sitting on a red cushion in a back: a skull that looked very old and very powerful. It was glowing a little bit, and Nico got a ringing noise sounding in his ears when he looked at it for too long.
He had to step back and take a deep breath. He'd never seen an object so magically powerful before, and it was kind of terrifying. Still, he stepped forward and prepared to smash the glass. This was scary, but an angry Isis was much scarier.
He shrugged off his jacket, balled up his fist inside the fabric, and made to bring it down on the glass hard. But as his hand made contact with the glass, he was suddenly hurled across the room.
His ass smacked into a pew, hard.
“Bad idea,” said a voice from behind him. Nico twisted his head around. There was a tall man sitting behind him that he assumed was probably Saint Valentine himself.
“You're going to tell me who sent you,” Saint Valentine said, in an overly calm voice. He didn't look at Nico, just stared forward at the altar with the crucifix above it. “I'm going to count down from five.”
“Nobody,” Nico said.
The slight ringing in his ears grew louder until it was painful.
“Four.”
“I don't have to tell you anything,” Nico said. “I don't work for you. Ow,” he whimpered. His brain felt like it was going to explode. It was like the worst headache he'd ever had.
“Three.”
The ringing in his ears grew louder again. Nico began to fear that his brain literally would explode. Would a saint really hurt somebody? Wasn't this religion supposed to be kinder than the Greco-Roman one? At least marginally...
“It was Hercules,” Nico said, knowing it was stupid. He feared a stranger less than a god he knew well, however. At least maybe Isis would back him up if Hercules came calling.
“I have Hercules thoroughly under control,” Saint Valentine said. “I know you're lying. And in the house of God, too? Big mistake.”
“Ah!” Nico crumpled to his knees on the floor, the pain unbearable. He was so stupid. He'd been such an idiot. How many people celebrated Valentine's day around the world each year? This guy was a powerhouse of epic proportions.
“Two.”
He didn't dare betray Isis. She had enough troubles with saints already, he couldn't add to it.
“One.”
“Wait, wait, wait,” Nico begged. “I'll tell you. It was Nyx. This skull is for Nyx. I have it written down.”
He pulled his chores list, crumpled and coffee stained, from his pocket. It said there, in clear writing, “Bones of a martyr for Nyx.”
“Finally, the truth,” Valentine said, scoffing at him. “I don't know this Nyx, but her servants are fools if they think I am the martyr to steal from.”
Nico nodded.
“I'm an idiot, just let me go, please,” he said. “I won't bother you again.”
“Hmph,” Valentine said. “Thomas Aquinas said mercy is the greatest of all the virtues. On this basis, I will let you go. But you shall never darken this doorstep again,” he said.
“Of course,” Nico said. “I won't. I promise.”
Valentine waved a hand, and Nico found himself outside with no idea how he'd gotten there. He was shaking all over. It reminded him of when he'd seen Zeus the first time; he'd been overwhelmed by divine power. It also reminded him of when Apollo had told him not to darken his doorstep again. That choice of wording was starting to feel personal.
He wasn't sure if he'd ever step foot in a church again as long as he lived. The thought of it made him want to throw up. But how could he possibly avoid it now? He still owed Isis a martyr bone, and fast. Not to mention he owed a second one to Nyx.
This wasn't fair, he thought in frustration. Isis was putting him in danger, and so was his father. Saints didn't want their bones taken, that was clear. Hercules also obviously hadn't shown up to bail him out.
For a moment, he considering hitting the ground twice and summoning his father. He imagined himself saying, “Papa, the bad saint in there hurt me!” And Hades swooping in and having Valentine dragged to the depths of Tartarus by a horde of skeletons. But he was pretty sure it wouldn't play out like that. More likely he'd get lectured and berated until he died of old age. Or worse, assigned more chores.
Nico took out his phone, took a deep breath, and tried to come up with a plan. Rome seemed like a rough place for this bone stealing exercise. He doubted there was a single place on earth the saints were more powerful.
After some Wikipedia reading, he read that Saint Valentine had some bone fragments on the Island of Lesbos in Greece. The church they were in seemed small, and there wouldn't be as strong of a presence of Valentine there. It was probably foolish to test Valentine's patience again, but Nico was feeling petty. Revenge against someone that powerful would taste pretty sweet, he thought, the temptation too strong to resist.
He shadow traveled to Lesbos, specifically to the Catholic Church of Assumption of Theotokos. Shadow travel was a lot easier with Google Maps, he thought, smiling as he stared at exactly the place he had intended to go. He immediately turned around and walked down the street, where he found an ATM.
He took out ten thousand Euros using his Cthonic credit card and shoved the large wad of cash inside his jacket pocket. Then he waited in an alley for it to get dark.
He waited until he saw a gaggle of teen boys walking together down the sidewalk. He evaluated them carefully to make sure they were the right kind: troublemakers. They kept shoving each other, and they catcalled a young woman who was leaving a laundromat. Nico frowned. He wouldn't feel sorry if these kids got a bit of a headache.
“Hey,” he said, stepping out of the shadows and startling them. “I need your help with something. There's money in it if you pull it off.”
The three boys froze, staring at him.
“Who are you,” one of them, a tall, scruffy looking young man with a shaved head said. He was wearing track pants and a white tank, and Nico could tell from his aggressive tone that this kid was likely brave enough for this task.
“I'm somebody who wants the bones of St. Valentine from that church,” he said, pointing. “Tonight. How much to get them for me?”
Their eyes widened.
“How much you got?” The leader said. One of his friends was grinning.
Nico pulled the entire stack of cash from his pocket. It was a lot of money, and the teens started salivating.
“This is the ATM receipt from the ATM over there,” Nico showed them. “It's all real.”
“Why do you want the bones,” one boy said, the shortest one who looked younger than the others. However the leader of the three was already moving as he spoke. The leader and the second tallest one both rushed Nico at the same time and grabbed for the money in his hand.
Nico shadow traveled a few feet away.
“Don't bother trying to take it,” he said, frowning. “And don't piss me off or I'll find someone else.” He was actually glad they'd tried to rob him, because it meant he would feel less guilty if Valentine exploded their brains.
The shadow traveling didn't go over well based on their reactions. The boys began arguing amongst themselves. Finally, the leader stepped forward.
“If they don't do it, I will. Fuck it.”
The other two stepped up, too.
“We're doing it,” they said. “But you have to tell us if the police are coming, or we have to be able to leave a lookout outside.
Nico guessed that this wasn't their first robbery, and that this kind of money would be a big deal for these kids. They didn't look like they came from nice backgrounds, judging by the state of their ratty sneakers.
He gave them a thousand each.
“You get the rest when you bring me the bones,” he said. “Go ahead and spend some of this really quick if you still have doubts. Whatever happens, I need the bones in my hands tonight. You can't go in there and then chicken out, no matter what you see or hear inside the church. I can handle the police. They won't see you.”
They went into three different nearby shops and bought cigarettes and candy at all of them successfully with his money. There was a new, greedy light in their eyes upon their return.
“Ready? I'll make it so no one sees you,” Nico said, casting the mist over the entire area of the church. “You'll look like electricians to anyone watching. Now go.”
The boys steeled themselves and went in.
It took less than fifteen minutes before the bones were in his hands. The boys had done a classic smash and grab technique, they explained. That was exactly what Nico had tried in Rome, but these kids had pulled it off better. He placed the money into sweaty, twitching fingers, carefully divided into perfect thirds.
“Stay out of church for the next few months,” he said. “Or forever, if you want to be really safe. Not just that one, all of them.”
“Fine by me,” the leader said.
“Not with me,” the youngest said. “Hang on, what did we just do? Are we excommunicated or something?”
“Erm,” Nico bit his lip. Shit, he thought to himself. He just wanted to protect them from Valentine's wrath, but now he felt like he'd left them bereft of spiritual guidance. “Ugh. Fine. Okay, here's my number,” he said, writing it down on one of the hundred Euro notes. “Text me if you want to go back to church and I'll see if I can work something out.”
The boy nodded, and Nico shadow traveled back to Rome without further tarrying. He couldn't afford to stand there dawdling. It had been a spur of the moment plan, and he'd gotten what he needed. The rest didn't matter.
He'd taken so long, he was worried Isis would be furious with him. Panting, he ran up to her, giving her half of the shards of bone he'd shoved in his pocket.
“Small,” she muttered. “But they'll do. Fast work,” she added. It dawned on him that she'd probably have considered a full week fast work, because she was immortal and time meant nothing to her. He was still operating on a mortal schedule.
He sighed and sat down on the stairs. So much for the urgency he'd wasted energy on. He watched as Isis set up a giant cauldron in the basement cave room and began singing to herself in ancient Egyptian, stirring her new concoction happily.
Nico put his head in his hands. He was losing sight of his goal, he could feel it. He'd checked something off the list today only by coincidence. He'd actually forgotten about the list multiple times over the last few months. And he hadn't forgotten about Bianca, but he was starting to see how he might be able to. That scared him.
He went upstairs and went to bed early. He didn't sleep that night. He just stared at the ceiling of the guest room, counting the cracks in the ceiling and trying to remember his sister's face. He had to see her again. He needed to get focused.
The next day, Isis was still very pleased with him. Her spell had come out incredibly potent, and she was in a great mood. She decided to treat herself and her erstwhile assistant, as well as Ariadne and Ganymede, to a picnic in the Borghese garden. The four of them spent a relaxing day laying out on the grass drinking aperol spritzes and eating melon and ham.
Nico looked up from his snacking to see a familiar rainbow shimmer in the air in front of him. An Iris message materialized in the air, and a familiar face appeared, smiling at him warmly.
“Persephone,” he said, feeling immediately guilty. “I'm sorry, I haven't been keeping you up to date like I promised.”
“No, don't be sorry. It looks like you're having fun. I've been following your adventures on the Gram. Is that Ganymede?”
“Hi, Persephone,” he said, his mouth full of melon.
“Hey, lady,” Isis said, shoving Nico out of the way.
“Isis! Oh, wow, hi.” Persephone said. “I didn't know you were there. How long has it been?” She seemed a little awkward, and Nico wondered if they weren't on good terms any longer.
“Too long, my friend,” Isis said, sitting cross legged in front of the message. “How come you never call?”
“I should have,” Persephone admitted. “Sorry. How are you?”
“I'm okay. Been better, been worse,” Isis shrugged. “I heard you have a musical on Broadway right now.”
“A musical?” Nico asked.
“It's called Hadestown,” Isis said. “I saw an ad for it. They have an actress playing Persephone, Hermes, the titular husband,” she said.
“Oh,” Persephone said, her face falling. “Is it about... Nevermind. I know what it's about.”
Nico didn't have to think particularly hard to know what she meant. He'd seen more than a few paintings and statues titled 'The Rape of Persephone.' Every single one had seemed problematic and unsympathetic, considering she was a real person with feelings. Not that the artists knew that, necessarily, but it still irked him.
He'd never brought it up to her, and he was sure he never would, but it seemed like the kind of thing she wouldn't want to relive.
“It's about Orpheus,” Isis said.
“Oh!” Persephone brightened. “That's nice,” she said. “Maybe I'll get a few new prayers out of it?”
“Maybe. I could use some. You think they'd write me in?”
“I have no doubt there are many young witches who look up to you, just like always. Hecate tells me witchcraft in back in vogue lately.”
“Not nearly enough,” Isis said. “It hurts to feel like you're being forgotten, you know? I think about my cult all the time,” she said. “Sometimes I can't believe it's over. I'd give anything to feel that love again.”
“Me too,” Persephone said. “I dream of the mysteries and wake up crying in ecstasy. It's heartbreaking that it's over. Heartbreaking,” she sighed. “Anyway. Tell me everything you've been up to.”
She and Isis wound up talking for hours. Nico listened to them and scrolled through his phone, slipping easily back into the slow pace of immortal life that his companions shared. He figured that as long as he was with gods, monsters wouldn't come bothering him, so he might as well enjoy it. He did research on the various people and places Ganymede told him about in the museums to help contextualize the gossip he'd absorbed over the last few months. He was learning a lot by that method. The one place he was lacking a lot of information about was the place most important to him, the Underworld, but he could research that better on his own, anyway.
“Nico, dear, when are you coming home?” Persephone asked.
“Soon,” he said. “Just need to make some more progress on my list.”
“Okay. I miss you! Don't forget March 21st.”
“I won't. I miss you too,” he said, smiling.
“Do you want to say hi to your father?”
“Not really,” Nico said, but Persephone had already shoved Hades in front of the Iris message.
“I heard that,” Hades said.
“Sorry,” Nico said, even though he wasn't.
“Quit playing around and get back to work,” Hades said, his signature glower looking extra creepy through the iridescent Iris sheen. “I won't allow you to see Ganymede anymore if he's a distraction.”
“I'm very helpful,” Ganymede chimed in, but Hades had already hung up.
“He's a real treat,” Isis said, lying back on her arms. “I missed Persephone. I'm glad we caught up.”
“I meant to ask her what she was talking about when she mentioned the Gram,” Nico said. “I don't have social media.”
Ganymede grinned bashfully.
“She meant Godstagram,” Ariadne said, speaking through a mouthful of grapes. She'd been sound asleep for half the picnic after too many spritzes, but she was awake now.
“Godstagram?” Nico said.
“It's exactly what it sounds like,” Ganymede said. “You've been tagged on it a couple of times. I forgot you don't have the app.”
“You've been posting me?” Nico said, alarmed.
“Not me. Gossip Goddess,” Ganymede said.
“And who is that?” Nico said. “Why do they have my photo?”
“Nobody knows,” Ganymede shrugged. “Everybody thinks it's me, but if you look at the photos, you can tell I didn't take them. I'd never post my bad side. Here, I'll give you the app. You can view as a guest, but I can't give you a profile since you're just a demigod.”
“I just want to see how bad it is,” Nico said. “I don't like the idea of pictures of me floating around that I don't know about.”
“You're just like your dad,” Ariadne said. “He once vaporized a nymph who took a Snapchat where you could see part of his shadow off to one side.”
Nico's first appearance on Godstagram was easy to miss. Someone had taken a picture of him talking to Ariadne in the bar in Termini. You could only see the back of his head, and the light was focused on her.
“Ariadne looking radiant in a wine-dark gown in Termini. What is she talking about to make her look so sad?” Read the caption.
She'd been talking about her father. Ganymede's arm was partly in the photo, and Nico observed that, indeed, he couldn't have taken it. He'd been mixing complicated cocktails at the time.
In the comments, Dionysus had written, “Talking about me, I'm sure. That better not be your new man!!!”
“That's my new friend Nico,” she said. “I'd never replace you, baby. You're my Mr. D!” She'd written a bunch of laughing emojis.
“Nico di Angelo?” Dionysus had written. She hadn't responded. He'd followed up with, “That's Mr. Big D to you.”
“Oh, that's not a big deal,” Nico said. “You can't see my face. I'm surprised Dionysus remembers me.”
“Sons of Hades are unheard of,” Ganymede said. “I'm sure you stood out to him.”
“I didn't realize he knew,” Nico said. “I left camp and went straight to the Underworld. I guess Percy told him.”
“No, I did,” Ariadne said. “He said he hadn't heard.”
“Huh,” was all Nico responded. So Percy had tried to protect him. Interesting.
He scrolled through Godstagram, but nothing jumped out at him. Well, there were a lot of dick pics, most of them posted by Ganymede, but he chose to ignore them, because he had a feeling Ganymede was waiting for him to comment on them specifically, and he didn't want to give him the satisfaction.
“Huh,” he said. “Pretty boring.” He smirked a little at seeing Ganymede's ego shrink slightly. “Di immortales,” he said suddenly, staring at his phone screen.
“Which one are you looking at?” Ganymede said, leaning over. “Oh. That's just a calendar. I thought it was my--”
“March 21st is next week!” Nico said. “I've been in Italy for six months!”
And Bianca had been dead for almost three years. Nico needed to get his shit together. No more playing around.
Notes:
Saint Valentine (Italian: San Valentino; Latin: Valentinus) was a 3rd-century Roman saint. Saint Valentine was a clergyman – either a priest or a bishop – in the Roman Empire who ministered to persecuted Christians. He was martyred on February 14, which has been observed as the Feast of Saint Valentine since at least the eighth century. His skull, crowned with flowers, is exhibited in the Basilica of Santa Maria in Cosmedin, Rome.
Chapter 11: The King of the Underworld
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On March 20th Persephone Iris messaged Nico and told him to meet her at dawn in a particular spot in Greece, not close to any major towns or cities. He shadow traveled to what appeared to be a cave entrance in the middle of nowhere, sat on a rock, and waited.
There was a chill in the air that seemed concentrated near the mouth of the cave. It was clearly an entrance to the underworld, but it looked normal and unassuming until you realized that a feeling of dread was emanating from the entrance.
He breathed it in and immediately felt tension leave his body. There was nothing to worry about, nothing to fear. The fields were there, waiting for him, cool and quiet and dark. It felt like home.
He heard a sound like the rustling of leaves, and a woman materialized next to him. She looked middle aged, with a rounded face and figure. She was very tan and freckled, and smelled like fresh bread.
He guessed who she was immediately, but all doubt left his mind when the wind blew and tiny flecks of grain flew out of her dark blonde hair. Part of her hair was pinned up on the top of her head, but most of it flowed down her back in long waves, shimmering like a field of wheat in the breeze.
Should he say something? He felt like she was waiting for him to speak, but he wasn't sure if that meant he should.
“Seems common courtesy is no longer common,” she said, glaring at him. Crap. He should have said something. “You're just like your father,” she muttered. “Rude. Unpleasant. Stand up straight, for goodness sake!”
He stood up straighter reflexively, but he scowled.
“I'm not just like him,” Nico said. “I'm sorry, goddess, but I wasn't intentionally trying to be rude to you. I just didn't know what to say.”
“Oh, hush,” she said. “I've no idea what she sees in you, but no matter. Nicky, was it?”
“Nico.”
“Well, Nicky, you had better repay my daughter's gift with your eternal devotion, because I don't think she should have bothered. I told her so, too.”
“She has my eternal devotion,” he said. “I don't know that I can repay her with anything else, but if I can, I'll try.”
“We'll see about that,” Demeter said. “There she is!”
“Mama!” Persephone bounded out of the cave and embraced Demeter. Flowers blossomed all around them, and the air grew warmer, sweeter, and fresher. Persephone and Demeter both glowed with power, and Nico looked away just in case their true forms might be revealed. Nothing like that seemed to happen, fortunately.
“I missed you,” Persephone said. Her hair was studded with daisies, and her eyes sparkled with a bright light that Nico had never seen before. “Oh, you met Nico! Hi, Nico, dear,” she said, kissing his cheek. “Thanks for coming.”
“Of course,” he said. “Don't thank me, it's the least I could do.”
She patted his hair and threaded her arm through her mother's.
“We have lots of work ahead of us,” Demeter said, looking at her daughter adoringly. “You've been well the last six months?”
“Very well,” she said, glancing at Nico. “Lots of exciting changes, you know. Change is the most fantastic thing. I'll never tire of it.”
“Well, we ought to go,” Demeter said.
“Look after your father,” Persephone told Nico. “Distract him. He's very mopey. I know he can be difficult, but don't let him get too stuck in his rut, okay?”
“I'll try my best,” Nico said.
She and her mother disappeared in a flurry of petals, and Nico smiled. He felt like he'd witnessed something very special. Persephone stepping back out onto the earth felt like every living thing in the vicinity let out a sigh of relief, as though death's inevitable encroachment had briefly paused, a reprieve. For a little while, birth would outpace death. It was a wonderful moment to behold.
Still, Nico was happy enough to march down into the darkness. Bianca was down there still, and she needed him. Also he was supposed to talk to his dad. He didn't feel so encouraged by that, but he was going to do it anyway.
The passage led down to a riverbank, the familiar black watered Styx. He saw Charon waiting with his boat. He was a hunched figure, horribly tall and bent, in a tattered black robe with screaming faces peering out from the folds. His face was in shadow beneath a wide brimmed hat, and his fingers were all that were visible of his body. They looked like skeletal hands covered in bits of rotting flesh, and he smelled like death, too, a sickeningly sweet garbage smell. It was more interesting to Nico than gross, perhaps because he wasn't sensitive to it. Decay wasn't something you encountered in the underworld proper, because it was in fact a living process. Bacteria, fungi, even bugs, all played a part in breaking down flesh, and they were all living things that had no place in the underworld. All of the dead he'd seen were either shades with no true physical form at all, or skeletons who'd been buried beneath the earth and were reclaimed by the underworld. They typically had no remaining soul attached, their shade departed elsewhere, and were reanimated solely by magic. Nico could intuit this, but he didn't really understand how it worked.
If Charon was decaying, it was an appropriate representation of the process of transitioning between life and death. Nico appreciated that about the underworld, that everything always made sense.
“Charon?” Nico asked. He'd seen him around, but he'd never spoken to him before. “Could you please give me a ride back to the palace? Here,” he said, digging a Euro coin out of his pocket.
Charon shook his head, refusing the coin, then gestured to let Nico into the boat.
“Thanks,” he said, appreciative of the free ride. “I know my dad put me on the no-ride list,” Nico said. “I guess that doesn't apply when I'm not dead yet, right?”
Charon made a slight movement that he decided was a yes.
Nico was comfortable with silence, which made Charon a good companion. After the bustle of Rome he was ready for the deafening quiet of the underworld. The roaring waters of the Styx were all the sound he needed.
He looked down into the water, seeing deep darkness and the suggestion of faces and figures in the river below. He wondered what dead souls thought when they saw it, not knowing where they were going or what it was like. What had Bianca thought? How had she felt? He hadn't even had the chance to ask her, after so many months. Anger flared in his chest, but he tried to ignore it. He'd see her again. He'd make her talk to him.
The boat wound down the river slowly. The journey was interesting; Nico saw areas he'd never seen before that he was interested in exploring later. When they arrived at the hall of judgement, he was sad it was over.
The moment he stepped out of the boat, Cerberos bounded up to the edge of the water, rocking the boat sideways. Nico panicked and briefly saw mental images of massive white teeth tearing his flesh apart, but Cerberos stopped and sat down, wagging his tails and cocking his monstrous head to one side.
Nico stared at the middle head, then the right and left in turn. They all had their ears floppy, tongues hanging out innocently-- the left one looked a little mischievous, but it always looked like that.
Tentatively, he reached a hand out, not to touch, but to see if the beast would growl at him. To his surprise, Cerberos shoved a massive head beneath his hand and forced Nico to pet him.
Delighted, Nico scratched him behind all six ears in turn, and Cerberos panted and whined happily.
“Are we friends now?” Nico asked him. Cerberos spun in a circle, making him laugh. “You're a big sweetie, aren't you,” Nico said, hopping out of the boat and hugging Cerberos around the middle. Cerberos licked his hair, leaving it coated in disgusting slime, but he thought it was worth it to win over such a dangerous creature's affection.
He heard the sound of an incorporeal throat clearing and looked up. Minos was standing before them with an amused look on his face.
“That's quite a friend you've made there,” he said. “He's given you an interesting hairstyle.”
“Can you believe it? He's being so nice. His slobber is really gross, though.”
“Here,” Minos said, hastily grabbing the edge of his long draped garment. “I can clean it up a little, if you want.”
Nico nodded, and Minos used the corner of his tunic to wipe dog slobber off his face. For a moment, it was funny. Then Nico glanced down and saw a sliver of olive skin revealed by the disturbed folds of the tunic. Minos' hairy, muscular thigh brushed close to his own. Though it was quickly hidden again, when Nico looked at Minos after he stepped away, it was with a slightly different perspective.
“You were gone for a long time,” Minos said. “How was your journey?”
“Good,” Nico said. “I met Ariadne.”
Minos' face became dark.
“Right,” he said. “Um, sorry for holding you up. I should let you go to your father. Excuse me.”
He scurried off before Nico could say anything. He felt bad; Ariadne wasn't spreading terrible stories, only what everyone already knew. And she'd asked about him, which was what Nico was going to tell him.
Nico continued on to see his father. He wove through Asphodel on the way to the looming black palace in the distance, Cerberos bounding behind him. His eyes began weaving back and forth across the presented mass of shades, searching for Bianca once more. He knew it was fruitless, but he didn't care. Of course, she wasn't there, and he entered the tall black columned palace and padded through to his father's audience hall. Hades wasn't there, so Nico continued to his father's bedroom.
He found it easily, sensing Hades' divine power following it to the source. The room was pitch dark, and he could see nothing besides a tiny shaft of light from the doorway that fell onto the bed.
“Hi, father,” Nico said, hovering in the threshold uncomfortably. Hades was lying in bed with an arm thrown over his face.
“What are you doing here?” Hades snapped. “Get out!”
“Persephone asked me to come,” he said quickly.
Hades sat up, peering at Nico suspiciously.
“Why?”
“She said you get depressed when she's not here and I should come annoy you with mortal business to take your mind off of her leaving.”
“I am a god, boy,” Hades snarled. “I don't get depressed.”
“I was just quoting her.”
“Yes, well,” Hades mumbled. “Still.”
Nico thought to himself a moment.
“Also, everyone already knows the gods have all the same emotions as humans. It's really obvious.”
“I was being hyperbolic,” Hades corrected him. “I meant I don't get depressed over something as routine as my wife leaving for Spring. I have far more pressing problems to deal with than that.”
“Like what?”
Hades pursed his lips and clearly drew a blank.
“Like you,” he said. “Taking so long on those chores.”
“Nyx asked you for the hippocampus tail in 1437,” Nico said. “I've had the list six months. Suddenly I'm the problem?”
“Oh, be quiet,” Hades said, “You aren't even trying. You've been eating gelato and having a grand old time. Don't think I don't look at your expenses. That ten thousand Euro withdrawal had better have a good reason.”
“I had to pay someone to steal the martyr bones for me. Also, I figured you'd turn the card off if you didn't approve.”
“Quite right. I ought to.”
“I didn't think the god of wealth would be such a miser.”
“I'm not the god of charity,” Hades scoffed. “What were you doing in Rome, anyway?”
“A lot of things,” Nico said.
“Has it changed much?” Hades asked.
“Since 1935?” Nico asked. “I wouldn't know. I didn't know it all that well to begin with.”
Hades nodded, his eyes looking sad and far away.
“I'll know Venice better when I make it back there,” Nico said. “Mom still has family in the city. But I wouldn't have anything to say to them. The only ones who might remember me are in their eighties. I'd never be able to explain why I'm not as old as them.”
“She was very close with them,” Hades said. “I'm sure they took her loss hard.”
Nico remembered the aftermath of the explosion in DC, of his father clutching him and Bianca to his chest protectively, screaming Maria's name. He'd set them down and carefully pulled apart the rubble, locating her body and lifting her out of the debris like she was made of glass. There had been blood all over her face. When Nico saw that, he'd started screaming and Bianca had put her arms around him, protecting him as their father had.
Hades had cradled Maria's lifeless form and sobbed for a long time before he'd summoned Alecto to take Nico and Bianca away to the Lethe.
Nico looked at his father and realized they were thinking of the same thing.
Hades cleared his throat and looked away.
“You might tell them you're her great-grandson or something.”
Nico hadn't thought of that. The idea of showing up on his relatives' doorstep and announcing himself chilled him to the bone.
“Eh. They probably wouldn't like me anyways,” he said.
“Probably not.”
Nico sighed, exasperated by his father's bluntness.
“Some things haven't changed,” he said, folding his arms and leaning against the doorway. “The Pantheon is the same. Do you remember when you took me there?”
“Of course,” Hades said. “It had fallen into some disrepair since it was built, but it wasn't as bad off as most of the city. I always thought it was impressive for a mortal construction. Though the architect was a son of Athena, naturally.”
“I'd been calling it the Agrippa in my head. That word always stuck in my mind and I never knew where it came from. I learned who he was when I went to see it again.”
“I had wondered what you meant,” Hades said. “You used to say 'Agrippa' at random sometimes. Your mother took it to be an indication that you would grow up to be a classical scholar one day.”
Nico snorted.
“Well, for the amount of time I've spent reading about ancient history online these days, maybe I should go ahead and get credentials.”
“What is it you are reading about?” Hades asked him.
“Just research for my errands,” he said. “It's not like I knew what a hippocampus was when you gave me the list.”
“You could have asked,” Hades said.
“Yeah, right. You'd just say you were too busy.”
Hades grumbled something to himself. Nico understood his father was feeling particularly lonely at the moment, but it didn't get him off the hook for being a jerk most other times.
“Nevermind,” Hades said, throwing his arm back over his eyes. “You're dimissed. I'm obviously unpleasant company for you, so no need to take pity on me any longer. Go play on your telephone or whatever it is you do.”
“Fine,” Nico said, frustrated. “At least I can tell Persephone I tried,” he shot back over his shoulder.
He stormed off to his bedroom and put up a wall of shadow across the doorway so he wouldn't be bothered. His father was such an ass, he thought to himself. He was trying to help, and they'd come so close to a half-decent conversation. He flopped down in his bed and stared at the ceiling. He didn't need Hades to like him, he reminded himself. He'd done as Persephone asked, that was all, and if he'd failed it was Hades' own fault.
He stewed over his resentment for a while, thinking of every terrible thing Hades had ever said to him at least twice, and rehearsing what he ought to have said in the moment to teach him a lesson.
“Nico?” Minos called out at his door.
“What do you want,” Nico said angrily.
“Not you too,” Minos sighed. “Nico, sorry to bother you if you're indisposed, but it's an emergency. Cerberus just bit Alecto's arm off.”
“What?” Nico sat up. “What did she do?”
“Stepped on his tail. They're at each other's throats and he won't stop barking bloody murder. Your father won't leave his room, and you're the person Cerberus likes next best.”
Nico lowered the shadow door.
“You and Hades are exactly alike,” Minos said, watching Nico get out of bed and put his shoes on. “He was lying around in the dark, too.”
“I don't want to hear about it,” Nico said. “Let's just go.”
While they ran over to Cerberus, finding him easily thanks to his loud barking and Alecto's hideous screams of rage, Nico tried not to feel stupid. He thought his father was embarrassing the way he moped about, and then he went and did the same thing. It was more humiliating being called out than he liked to admit. At least he was a teenager, he reminded himself. He could always use that as an excuse.
Cerberus was barking out of two heads, making a bone-chilling sound only slightly quieter than his full, three-headed yowl that made your skull ring with resounding, echoing horror. His third head was busy gnawing on an arm.
Alecto was lashing her whip at him, but Cerberus dodged it easily, shadow traveling back and forth to miss each lash. The two of them appeared locked in combat seriously, and it was an unsettling sight, Alecto with pointed teeth bared and bloody eyes gleaming with rage, Cerberus... Wagging his tail?
“Oh,” Nico panted. “I think he's just playing.”
“There's no way he's playing,” Minos said. “He ripped her arm off!”
“But his ears are up like he's playing. Let me talk to him.” Nico ran over to Cerberus.
“Cerby, here boy,” he said, whistling. Cerberus turned to face him, quirking his head to one side. “See, it's me, your friend,” Nico said. He snapped his fingers, summoning a skeleton from the ground, and unceremoniously grabbed the skeletons arm. He braced one of his combat booted feet on the ribcage and yanked the arm out of its socket.
“Cerby, fetch,” Nico shouted, throwing the arm.
Cerberus bolted after the bones, barking riotously.
“My arm!” Alecto said, turning to Nico in a rage. Her stump was bleeding golden ichor and dripping everywhere. “How am I supposed to get it back now?”
“I'll just play with him a while until he gets tired out,” Nico said. “He'll have to drop it eventually.”
“It's going to be covered in slobber,” she insisted.
“That ship has probably sailed,” Minos said, smirking. “Guess you'll be a one-armed fury from now on.”
“Here,” Nico said, yanking the other arm off the skeleton. “Can you use this in the meantime?”
Alecto looked at the skeleton arm with distaste.
“I don't even know where this thing has been,” she said, but she took it and jammed it into her socket. It began to work without delay, and she flexed her hand.
“Might hurt more hitting people with bone instead of flesh,” Minos suggested.
She frowned.
“We shall see,” she said, turning on her heel. “I'll test it out,” she said. “But in the meantime, Nico, I want that arm back within the next few hours or you'll hear from me about it.”
Nico and Minos looked at each other and shrugged.
“Guess I'll go play with him,” Nico said.
“Thanks for coming,” Minos said, waving as Nico ran off to find Cerberus.
It was easy to get the arm. Nico threw three skeletal limb bones at once and Cerberus dropped the Fury's arm to pick up the new one. The two of them ran around for almost an hour, Nico shadow traveling some distance, throwing bones, and Cerberus shadow traveling to find them. By the time he got the last bone, Nico was already throwing another some ways off.
“Nico,” a low, cold voice resonated behind him. Nico spun around.
“Father,” he said. “How long have you been standing there?”
Hades shrugged, watching as Cerberos bounded up to Nico and nosed at his hand, dropping Alecto's arm at Nico's feet. Nico picked it up. It was gnawed up, peppered with teeth holes and slobbery, but Alecto's manicure was still intact, which was something.
He tucked it under his arm.
“He likes you,” Hades said. “I have never seen him take to anyone like that.”
“I just figured he liked all your children,” Nico said, scratching behind Cerberos' ear.
“You're only the second to meet him while living,” Hades said. “And he didn't care for Dante.”
“One of my siblings?” Nico asked.
Hades nodded.
“I wanted to speak with you,” he said. “I was harsh with you earlier. You were doing as my wife bid you, and you deserve to be praised for that, not barked at. I'm sorry.”
Nico's jaw dropped.
“You weren't even... You don't have to... Um,” he swallowed. “Wow. I didn't think gods like you apologized. Like, ever. I'm shocked.”
“I pride myself on being morally superior to my siblings and their offspring,” Hades said.
“I already knew that you were,” Nico said. “But thank you.”
Hades nodded, satisfied. He waved a hand, and Alecto's arm disappeared, presumably going back to its owner. Then he whistled, and Cerberos bounded toward him. Hades gave him a few affectionate scratches and then beckoned for Nico to follow him.
“Since my beloved wife is away,” he said. “I thought you might like to visit your mother.”
Nico gasped, frozen still. It had never occurred to him that such a thing might be possible.
“You're... You're serious?”
Hades nodded.
“If you are up for it.”
“Yes!” Nico exclaimed. “Can we see Bianca too?”
“Bianca would have to consent to that,” Hades said. “I only offer because your mother won't mind.”
He was frustrated by the news about Bianca, but Nico knew when to shut up and be grateful. He followed as his father led him back toward the palace.
Chapter 12: Death Becomes Her
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
“It's a long walk to get to Elysium,” Hades told him as they climbed the stairs up to the palace. “And I can't permit you to interact with her.”
“You can't?”
“You'll understand when we get there,” Hades said. “Trust me.”
Baffled by the statement, Nico followed Hades back to the palace and through to a staircase on the other side. The palace perched over Asphodel from above, glowering above the mediocre residents there and reminding them who was King of the dead. Behind his palace was silhoutted a grand white stairway to an array of green mountains studded with white columns.
“I'm having the stairs rebuilt,” Hades said as he began to climb. “They're drab.”
“Are you going to hang a banner saying 'congratulations' for the new residents?”
“I would if it weren't trite and in poor taste,” Hades said.
“And on the downward direction it can say, 'Lasciate ogne speranza, voi ch'intrate.'”
Hades glanced down at Nico.
“You know where that's from, don't you?”
“L'inferno. Of course.”
“Are you familiar with it?”
“I read some of it in school,” Nico said. “I finished the rest on my own. I really enjoyed it. Even then I was way too interested in death for a little kid.”
“In that case,” Hades said with a slight smile. “I have someone else I'd like you to meet after you see your mother.”
Hades took him into the mist cloaked mountains that hovered behind his palace. Their steep hills were studded with gems and crystals that gave off light, all unnatural hues of blue and white and green. They were eerie, but not discomforting. Rivers flowed thick with mist and skeletal birds and animals darted about. Dark crystal flowers bloomed, glittering and blood red, in shaded nooks of stone.
“This place is so beautiful,” Nico said, running his hand over one of the crystal flowers.
“The gem flowers are my creations,” Hades said. “Persephone inspired me long ago.”
“I can definitely see her influence here,” Nico said.
Further in, he began to see shades populating Elysium. Some were swimming lazily in a wide river, with many more floating on tubes and reading or eating snacks. Groups of friends had spread out picnic blankets and were dining together. Nico could see ancient Greeks dancing, Romans reclining and talking politics, and for the most part people eating good food and spending time with their friends and family.
He looked around eagerly for a well-dressed Italian woman from the thirties, but he couldn't see her.
“I'll warn you when she's near,” Hades said.
They continued further up the mountain, and the scenery didn't really change. There were a few houses and buildings and doors that floated in the air on their own. Nico could hear people singing, watching TV, and having loud sex behind some of the doors if he listened closely.
“It's so different from Asphodel,” Nico said. “They're so awake.”
“They're more active, but their minds are at rest,” Hades said. “Or at peace, rather.” He paused outside a doorway. It was a magical door, not the first they'd passed, silent and unlabeled. “She's in here.”
Nico's heart immediately caught in his throat.
“My helm of darkness has kept us invisible until now,” Hades said. “I am going to keep it on. You must not speak to her.”
“Why not?” Nico asked. “Won't she remember me?”
“Of course she will,” Hades said. “But if she greets you now, she will also have to say goodbye. It is antithetical to the nature of this place for her to feel the pain of parting from anyone again, especially her child. If you ever wish to greet her again, it must only be as a companion to her eternally.”
“That could happen someday,” Nico said. “Right? Isn't that possible?”
Hades nodded.
“If you play your cards right,” he said. “Do your chores, et cetera.”
“So I can only look at her for right now? Fine,” Nico said. “I'll take it.”
Hades gestured for Nico to open the door.
It was a department store, a very fancy one, with a huge display of elegant dresses. Three women were going through each rack, one by one, talking loudly amongst themselves.
The one nearest to him, Nico recognized.
“Nonna Lola?” He said. She didn't look up. The second woman was his Zia Patricia. And the third...
He stared in silence. His mother, the quietest of the three, held up a blue dress in fine velvet.
“What do you think?” She asked her mother and sister. They both exclaimed.
“That's so perfect, Maria,” Patricia said. “Picture that at a state banquet!”
“That color suits you,” Lola said. “Maybe with pearls?”
“Mamma, you always say it should be pearls,” Maria laughed, running her hand over the fabric.
“They're classic. They suit you,” Lola said.
Nico soaked in his mother's presence. She was stunningly beautiful, in the prime of her life, her hair pinned up in an elegant chignon, a small hat perched on her head with a little veil. She had a natural grace to her movements that was exactly as Nico remembered. Every tilt of her mouth and every glance was exquisite. He took a step toward her, but his father held him back.
“Stay beneath the helm's radius,” he said. But he stepped forward along with Nico so that he could get closer.
She even smelled like her old perfume. It was that smell that triggered Nico to start crying. It made it too real, and it finally sunk in that this wasn't an illusion or just an image of his mother, this was really her, and she was right here in front of him.
He started sobbing too hard to look at her anymore, and Hades took him to a bench against the wall of the clothing store. Nico slumped down onto it, but he took a few deep breaths and was alright again.
Hades sat beside him, and the two of them observed her silently.
“She looks really happy,” Nico said. Her contented expression never wavered as she looked at dress after dress, only interrupted when she laughed at her sister's jokes and chided her mother for things. Nico remembered his Nonna very little, only that she'd had a strong personality, and he listened as her daughters teased her, smiling at the obvious bond of love they shared.
“She was always close to her family,” Hades said. “No wonder she wanted to spend eternity with them.”
“Is this all she does? She doesn't get bored?”
“No. There is no boredom here,” Hades said. “Their experience of time is altered. Have you ever had the sort of day where you thought, if only every day could be just like this? That's typically the day they end up living eternally here.”
“So shopping with her mom and sister was what she felt like doing every day, forever,” Nico said. He watched as they moved on to purses.
“Later they'll move on to shoes, then hats,” Hades said. “They'll start trying on outfits. Some of them will be impractical, but she likes those the best. Always the fashion plate, Maria,” he said fondly. “And then they'll go out for coffee and talk endlessly about nothing. And then go shopping again.”
“That's it? For eternity?”
“Is that not enough?” Hades said.
Nico shook his head.
“If that's what she wants, then it's perfect,” he said. “Does she miss us?”
“Just listen to her for a while and you'll see.”
They sat and listened as the women chattered back and forth.
“Wouldn't this little pink coat suit Bianca?” Nonna Lola exclaimed, holding up a hot pink blazer.
“Oh, Mamma, stop it, she hates pink,” Maria laughed. “Maybe a nice blue or purple,” she suggested. “She has enough black already.”
“You always dress those children like they're going to a funeral,” Patricia said.
“It suits them,” Maria said. “They're quite serious like their father. I should look for a tie for him or something. Maybe later,” she shrugged.
“Where is that man of yours? We never see him,” Lola said.
“He took the kids out for gelato,” she said. “They'll be back later. Let me enjoy my break, would you? Motherhood can be tiring,” she said.
“That Nico is a handful,” Nonna said.
“Gee, thanks, Nonna,” Nico muttered.
“Nico is a darling,” Maria said. “He's my special one. I ought to get him a new coat, too. He's growing so fast.”
“She's shopping... For us,” Nico said.
“Of course she is,” Hades said. He was deliberately being gruff to hide that fact that he was moved, too, but Nico saw through it. “We should go,” he said. “I have other matters to attend to.”
Nico nodded. The conversation had moved on, and he'd seen all he needed to see. He followed Hades back outside.
“Thank you,” he said. “I knew she was okay, but seeing it... It really helps.”
“Good,” Hades said, shuffling a little awkwardly. “There is one more thing I thought I'd show you while we're here,” he said. “Unless perhaps you had other plans.”
“No, of course not,” Nico said. “Show me. I want to see what it is.” He secretly hoped he'd see Bianca after all, somehow, but he sensed she wasn't in Elysium. Still, he hoped.
Hades beckoned for Nico to follow him deeper into Elysium. They walked down into a valley that was densely populated by ancient Greek men.
“This is called the philosopher's grove,” Hades said. It was shaded with willow trees, and there was an agora where men were arguing and debating. Scrolls and books were being traded, and there was a library behind them.
“It says it's the library of Alexandria,” Nico read the sign on the front.
“Yes, after it burned down I ensured its preservation,” Hades said. “Come this way.”
He led Nico through the grove, the helm keeping them invisible.
“Is there a reason they can't see us?” Nico asked.
“I don't relish being bombarded with philosophical questions about death,” he said. “I find them tiresome and annoying. This realm existed long before I was tasked with its rule, and I daresay it will outlast me, somehow or another. Why they think I'm the expert I can't imagine.”
“Who is the expert, then?” Nico asked.
“Nyx, naturally,” he said. “And her children. Charon, Thanatos, the Fates, and so on. They were all working here when I started.”
“I still need to see her about the earrings,” Nico said. “I was going to wait until I had her ingredients. I haven't met Thanatos yet,” he added.
“He is very busy,” Hades said. “Here, this way,” he said, pulling aside a willow branch. Two men were sitting side by side on a riverbank, both of their feet dangling in the water. They were drinking wine from goblets that seemed to never empty, and they had a pile of books and scrolls stacked around them.
“But your line, forsan et haec olim meminisse iuvabit,” a man said. “What did you mean, truly, by iuvabit? Helpful, or joyful?”
“Ah, dear friend, we've been over this before,” the man next to him said.
“Humor me.”
“Well, the truth is--”
“Ahem,” Hades cleared his throat, removing his helm. The men turned around. One of them was a well dressed Roman man in a toga, wearing a crown of laurels, with a grey beard and a wide, pleasant face. The other man was in a familiar red hat and cloak, with an aquiline nose, a prominent chin, and small, dark eyes. Nico was sure he'd seen the man's face before, but he couldn't put a name to it until his father addressed him.
“Dante,” Hades said.
“Hello, lord father,” Dante said, inclining his head respectfully. “I'm honored by your visit.”
“Me as well, lord Pluto,” his Roman companion said. They both sort of tried to turn around, but neither took their feet out of the water or even set down their wine.
“Well, don't bother getting up on my account,” Hades frowned. “I was just coming to introduce my son, Nico di Angelo.” He gestured to Nico, who waved. “He's still alive,” Hades said. “He's only here for a visit.”
“Hi,” Nico said. “Are you seriously the actual Dante Aligheri? I'm a huge fan,” Nico said.
“That would be me,” Dante said, puffing up a bit. “Ahem, what year is it up in the world of the living?”
“Right now? It's 2022.”
“And they still study me?”
“Yes, of course,” Nico said. “I mean, I studied La Divina Commedia in the 1930's, but it hasn't changed. Every Italian knows your work. You're revered. It wasn't long ago, maybe a few weeks, that I was looking at your statue in Firenze. I don't know how to emphasize just how important you are to our language.”
“Just listen to him speak,” the Roman remarked. “I can hear your influence even now.”
“Where are you from?” Dante asked.
“Venezia.”
“Ah,” Dante said. “Well, brother, it's a pleasure to meet you. I relish every chance to interact with my fans, the more modern the better.”
“Yes, that's why I brought him,” Hades said. “He quoted you earlier and it occurred to me you might enjoy him.”
“He quoted me? I suppose I should not be surprised,” Dante said.
“I just made a joke about lasciate ogne speranze, you know,” Nico said. “I can quote more obscure stuff than that, though. I read l'Inferno very thoroughly. It never occurred to me that you were a son of Hades, but it makes complete sense,” he said.
“Certainly I couldn't reveal that in the text,” Dante said. “Imagine what the church of the time would have done to me. But I tried to enlighten the people of my time, and give a more gracious view of people from past eras,” he said, inclining his head to his friend.
“Of course, you're Virgil,” Nico said. “It's an honor. But, were you also a son of Hades?”
“Apollo,” he said.
“Gotcha,” Nico said. He turned back to his brother. “So, you came here when you were alive? And you met Virgil?”
“I did,” he said. “Father introduced us and I told him what a big fan I was. L'Inferno is loosely inspired by my explorations down here, as well as my Christian upbringing and some of my own unique imaginings.” When he said that, he got a weird look in his eyes, like he wasn't sharing all that he knew.
“That's so amazing,” Nico said, politely ignoring the weird look. “Have you written anything since you died?”
“No, not really,” Dante said. “Have you?” He asked Virgil, who shook his head.
“I've been meaning to,” Virgil said.
“For two thousand years?” Nico asked. Virgil shrugged.
“I'll get around to it one of these days,” he said. “When we finish our conversation.”
Nico glanced at his father, and they shared a look. That conversation would never end, he realized.
“It was really nice to meet you,” Nico said.
“You as well, young man,” Virgil said.
“Goodbye, brother,” Dante said. “Come and join us someday.”
“We'll see,” Hades said.
He and Hades descended Elysium and headed back to the palace.
“You didn't have much to say to Dante,” Nico said.
“Anything we've had to say to each other has been said,” Hades said. “He's been here 750 years.”
“Fair enough,” Nico said. “So, other than him, am I the only one of your kids to come down here while I was alive?”
“Yes,” Hades said.
“But we're so far apart in age,” he said. “What about the others? Wasn't there anyone in in the last 750 years who visited? I didn't find it hard to get down here,” he added. “I'm sure they wouldn't have.”
“You got down here because I let you,” Hades said. “And only because I thought you might kill yourself if I didn't.”
“Hmph,” Nico said.
“Thought yourself clever, did you?” Hades laughed his cold, bone chilling laugh. Nico rolled his eyes.
“So I guess Dante is never going to write anything again,” he said. “They'll just keep talking forever and ever. It's kind of sad, even if they do seem happy.”
“Without threat of impending doom, most people lose motivation,” Hades said. “The mere fact of death is the single greatest catalyst for life that exists.”
“I mean, why bother writing anything down if not to keep a piece of yourself alive in the world above?” Nico said. “Dante doesn't need to write a book to replace himself if he's just going to be here anyway.”
“Precisely,” Hades sighed.
“Unless...” Nico said. “His ego seems alive and well. What if you pitted them against each other? Made them write for a contest or something, to see who's the best dead poet?”
“A competition requiring a new piece of writing?” Hades said. “I've thought of that. It wouldn't work. I'd have to select a winner, and whoever lost would subsequently have a negative experience. That can't happen in Elysium.”
“But what if you didn't have to select a winner?” Nico said. “Just tell them you'll get around to it eventually and then never do it. They don't have a sense of time anyway.”
Hades blinked for a moment, deep in thought.
“Nico,” he said. “Your idea may have some merit to it.”
“Does it?”
“I believe it does,” Hades said, turning to him. “But I am too busy to implement it. Can you add this to your list? Not as a required chore,” he said. “But as a favor to me?”
Nico grinned widely.
“Any chance it might help me earn a spot in Elysium too?” He asked. “With mom?”
“You are growing too bold,” Hades said, scoffing at him. “I'm not one of the judges, in any case, so I could not tell you the answer to that. Do not overreach yourself,” he warned. Nico could see in his face that he was pleased, though.
If someone had told Nico a year ago that he'd be able to network his way into Elysium, he wouldn't have believed it. He'd always been a weird, annoying little kid, but somehow he felt he was not that at all anymore. As he walked with his father back to the palace, he wondered to himself quietly that Ganymede had been right. For a demigod, he was doing extremely well.
Notes:
This is probably my favorite chapter I have written so far. I really, really wanted Nico to see his mom again because he deserves that bit of extra closure. He's got enough problems, he deserves to know his mom is happy and safe.
Lasciate ogne speranza, voi ch'intrate: Abandon all hope, ye who enter here. The inscription on the gates of Hell in Dante's Inferno.
Nico is very familiar with Dante Alighieri and his famous work The Divine Comedy, as are most Italians. Typically it's studied in school, but I think Nico read it when he was young because he felt a connection to his brother.
Forsan et haec olim meminisse iuvabit: A line from Virgil's Aeneid where Aeneas is trying to cheer up his comrades. A quick Google says it's "Maybe we'll be laughing about even these things in the future" but my Latin teacher taught it to me as "Perhaps one day even this will be useful to you." There are multiple ways to translate and interpret the meaning behind it.
Chapter 13: Strange Dreams
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His father went back to work without a word, and Nico was left alone in the palace, unsure of what to do with himself. He went back to his bedroom and arranged his things on his bookshelf.
He set Saint Catherine's toe and Saint Valentine's bone shards carefully on the top shelf, then he paused. He ducked into the dining room and grabbed a bowl of wine, bringing it back to his room. He quickly drank it, then set the empty bowl upside down on top of the bones. He didn't want Persephone wandering in to drop off gifts and seeing them. It couldn't be good for her to touch things that belonged to other pantheons.
Nico sat on his bed and laid down, thinking of what he'd seen. His mother's face was fresh in his mind again. She was only a brief walk away from him even now. And somewhere nearby, Bianca was there, too, although he didn't know where she was or why she wouldn't see him. Still, it was something.
He folded his arms behind his head. The room was dark and gloomy, lit by a single candle shoved inside a skull. The atmosphere was perfect. It was only missing one thing.
He picked up his phone and typed something into Spotify. It took some searching, but he found an old recording of an opera album his mother had often listened to when he was little. He pressed play and closed his eyes, content to reminisce about the old days.
Slowly, he drifted off to sleep.
He was in a small apartment living room. He looked around, but he didn't see anyone there. Something about it seemed familiar.
He walked around the living room, inspecting the pictures on the wall, and saw faces he recognized. There was a photo of Rosa and the man who must have been her late second husband, taken in front of the Acropolis. He had sunglasses and a large moustache, and Rosa was wearing a big floppy hat.
Another was beside it, a picture of a young Maria in her first communion dress standing beside a priest. That must have been taken back in Naples, before she'd moved to Greece, he realized. She looked happy in the photo, not as weighted down with worries as she'd seemed when he'd met her in person. There was another photo of her in a choir, standing in the front. It looked like she might have been a soloist.
There was no kitchen in the apartment. They must have lived upstairs from the restaurant and cooked in the kitchen down there. That made sense, then, that Rosa had no life outside of work.
Nico walked over to an open doorway. He could hear the shower running, and someone singing. He smiled and listened for a minute. Maria was singing an aria, and frankly, she was killing it. He'd never have guessed she was so talented.
He went into her bedroom and looked around. It was odd; he'd expected to find pictures of her dad in her room, but she didn't have any.
She had stuffed animals on her bed, and her room was a mess. What a weird dream, he thought. It felt so real.
A door opened, and Rosa came in.
“Maria!” She yelled at the bathroom door. “We're going to be late for mass!”
“Go without me,” Maria replied.
“Quit singing and get out,” Rosa shouted, banging on the door as hard as she could. They started shouting back and forth, which made Nico laugh. It was refreshing to be around normal people. He'd spent too much time with gods lately.
They were still arguing when he opened his eyes to darkness. He was back in his room in the Underworld, where all was still and deafeningly silent.
He yawned and sat up, turning on his phone and checking the time.
He'd been asleep for two days.
How was that possible, he wondered. Time was so weird in the Underworld. His candle hadn't even burned down, and it wasn't a magic candle, or at least, he didn't think so.
He went out and peeked into his father's office. Hades was still sitting and working on his computer in the same place he'd been before.
Nico went back into the long black columned hallway and began to explore the palace, since it seemed overdue that he learn the layout of the place. He tiptoed into Hades' bedroom first, where he'd found him moping earlier. Now it was empty, and he could snoop among his things.
After lighting a few candles, Nico could see how miserable and depressing the room really was. There was a black single bed on a dais, carved from the same black stone that his own bed was made of, with a thin mattress and shiny black sheets tucked in neatly. There was a cabinet full of books and scrolls, and a TV, which he was surprised to see. Nico clicked the TV on. It was playing a Youtube compilation of dashcam footage from car accidents.
Wow, he thought. His dad was really not in a good place mentally. Although he inadvertently sat and watched it for about a half an hour, transfixed, so maybe he wasn't one to judge.
Nico headed to the room next door, which was much larger and nicer. It had big windows overlooking the misty glowing mountains of Elysium, and there were potted gems growing on the windowsill that gave the space a rare burst of color. The bed was king sized and had a modern mattress. It hadn't even been made yet, and Nico wondered if anyone came in here while Persephone was gone.
His dad clearly didn't, and Nico could see why. Persephone's clothes were strewn across the floor and on the bed, and she'd left hairpins, nail polishes, and jewelry all over the place. Hades probably wanted to avoid the constant reminders of how much he missed his disorganized, messy wife.
On the wall over the bed there was a giant mosaic of Persephone in the palace garden, gemstone flowers in her hair, holding a pomegranate. She looked very regal and beautiful. Hades wasn't depicted anywhere, but he probably preferred it that way.
Nico didn't go in that room beyond that one brief glance around, and he shut the door behind him. His dad would kill him if he was caught in there.
The next room over had the same large windows, but it appeared unused, with no coverings on the bed. There were pots of dead plants on the windowsill, but Nico couldn't find any signs of an occupant beyond that. It occurred to him that Persephone must have stayed there at one time. Who else would have tried to grow living plants in the realm of the dead?
He didn't linger long in that room, either. He knew when he was meddling in something that was none of his business.
He already knew that the dining room was beside the reception hall, but he hadn't yet checked on the door in the back of the dining room. To his surprise, there was a kitchen, blazing hot and smoky. There was a small wooden table where someone was sitting and eating a bowl of cereal.
A young man with white hair and golden eyes looked up at him. He was wearing a red chiton and matching cloak, which was carefully draped to avoid obstructing the wings on his back. His wing feathers looked fluffy and soft, and they were the same soft grey-purple of a mourning dove.
“Sup,” he said lazily. He took a slow bite of Cheerios and looked Nico over.
“Wait, let me guess,” Nico said, “Hypnos?”
“How did you know?” Hypnos said, surprised.
“You're wearing pajamas.”
Hypnos nodded, smiling.
“That I am,” he said. “That I am.” He appeared to lose interest in Nico after that, and Nico walked around the kitchen.
“Where did you get the cereal?” He asked.
“Summon a skeleton and tell them what you want. They make anything,” Hypnos said.
Nico snapped his fingers, and a skeleton crawled out of the ground.
“French fries,” he said.
In a matter of seconds there was plate of french fries on the table. Nico sat and pushed it in between him and Hypnos.
“And ketchup,” Nico added. The skeleton reached into a cabinet and handed Nico a small dish of ketchup.
Nico and Hypnos polished off the plate quickly, and it turned out that they'd been given the exact right amount of ketchup for the number of fries they'd had.
“So, you're the god of sleep?” Nico asked.
Hypnos nodded, folding his arms on the table and resting his head on them.
“What does that mean in terms of your day to day?”
“I sleep in my cave,” he said simply.
“You don't send people to sleep?”
“I'm supervising,” he said. “By sleeping.”
“Oh.”
“Gotta make sure it still works.”
“Right.”
“But I'm also starting to turn into your dad's errand boy, like everyone else around here,” he said. “I know you know how that is.”
“Oh, yes,” Nico said. “I got a chores list within five minutes of meeting him. It was horrible.”
“We all heard,” Hypnos said. “At least Persephone likes you. That makes half of your life easy. Shame you have to waste it down here working, though.”
Hypnos looked at him pityingly, which Nico appreciated.
“I had the weirdest dream a little while ago,” he said, feeling like Hypnos would be willing to hear out his weird dream story. He explained to Hypnos every detail he could remember of his dream about Maria and Rosa's apartment. Hypnos listened with his eyes closed, nodding at appropriate moments.
“You shouldn't be having dreams down here at all,” he said, which made Nico feel unsettled and more confused than ever. “I have no idea why you had that one. You said there were others?”
“One more like this, and while I was in the coma I dreamed about my childhood.”
“That was memory recovery after the Lethe,” Hypnos said. “Persephone mentioned that had happened. It wasn't supposed to. You're weird, kid.”
“But there's probably a good explanation, right?”
Hypnos shrugged.
“You can ask my son Morpheus,” he said. “Maybe he's messing with you, sending dreams?”
“Does he do that?”
“Nah,” Hypnos said. “Too much effort. He's pretty lazy. No clue where he gets that from.”
He set his head down on the table.
“Yeah, it's a real mystery,” Nico said, rolling his eyes. He'd have to add 'talk to Morpheus' to his to-do list.
He continued his explorations, and found the palace library, a circular Roman style room lit with large braziers with couches arranged in a circle ringing the room. There were shelves lining the walls stocked full of books and scrolls.
Nico had an idea. He summoned a skeleton with a finger snap.
“Bring me something that describes Morpheus. Specifically where he is.”
The skeleton grabbed a scroll and passed it to Nico. He unrolled it and squinted at the text. It was in Latin, and it mentioned a cave by the Lethe in the foothills of Elysium. He made a mental note to check in with him later.
The only room left was the bathroom, emphasis on bath. It was down a set of stairs and led to a full Roman bath area with multiple small pools of bubbling water that belched steam, and a large pool with water so cold ice had crusted on top of it. There was also a large, luxurious shower carved into the onyx stone of the wall, glittering in the darkness and calling Nico's name.
He took a shower just to try it out. Hot water poured out of a bronze replica of Cerberus' head, hitting him from three different angles. It felt like ambrosia in water form. There was a shelf full of soap and oils on a shelf inside, all of them smelling dark and rich and powerful. Nico washed his hair and zoned out for a while.
When he was done he summoned a skeleton to bring him fresh clothes and towels. While he waited on them to return, he sat on a stone bench and stared at the onyx wall for a minute. It wasn't mirrored, it was just shiny enough that he could make out his reflection like he was seeing himself through the shimmer of an Iris message.
He'd stayed in enough five star hotels to know when he had it pretty good. Life in the palace was nice. It was quiet, relaxing, and other than his father, the people were pretty okay.
He wondered whether Hades would let him and Bianca stay after he brought her back to life. Maybe they could both keep serving the realm and live out their mortal lives here. It was a short commute to Elysium to see their mother, and once they died they could just move in with her. You couldn't beat it for convenience.
He'd rather that than go back to Camp Half Blood. That was the place that had gotten her killed. It didn't make sense to resurrect her and then send her right back to be killed again.
Then he recalled that she was a Hunter of Artemis. Surely death would have ended that obligation, but suddenly he doubted. What if she didn't want to stay here with him?
That brought up more doubts. He didn't have a clue how to resurrect people to begin with. If he couldn't pull it off, he'd have to die in order to be with her. That wasn't a perfect solution either. It was unclear, but it seemed like she'd chosen to stay in Asphodel and then immediately had gone into hiding. He wouldn't go to Elysium without her, but he also wasn't willing to ditch eternity with his mom for a sister that was giving him the silent treatment. What if she kept hiding after he got to Asphodel? That was a real risk, too. He couldn't kill himself until he'd talked to her and straightened things out.
He was so baffled by it all. This wasn't normal. He had every right to see her shade, to talk to her and demand answers, and the infuriating thing was that she probably knew exactly how much pain she was causing him.
He was still left with two options. One, he resurrected her. Problem solved. Two, he spoke to her and they figured out a plan to be together for eternity. Then he could finish his chores, get off the no ride list, and die. Problem also solved.
He'd made little progress on option one. That left the second to work on. He'd need his father to summon her shade for him somehow.
Raising the dead was near to impossible, and yet at the moment it seemed easier than getting his dad to help him. That was a miserable thought.
As if he'd been summoned by Nico's resentful thoughts, Hades swept into the baths, his black robes flowing behind him like mist.
“What are you doing in here?” He asked Nico, narrowing his eyes and looking around for signs of mischief.
“I'm having an existential crisis.”
“Wrap it up,” Hades said. “I want you to read to me while I bathe.”
“Uh, pass?” Nico said.
“If you're going to continue imposing on my hospitality, you will do as you're told,” Hades demanded angrily. "Or you can find another palace to have your crises in."
“Alright, geez,” Nico muttered. "I'll read."
Hades snapped his fingers, and a scroll appeared in Nico's lap. It was a text on the Eleusinian Mysteries.
Nico was immediately intrigued by the topic, so he began reading in ancient Greek while his father soaked in one of his hot tubs. Nico was pretty sure the water was actively boiling, but maybe when you got to be thousands of years old you developed a tolerance for that kind of thing.
Hades still seemed tense, but slightly less so than usual. The baths were so beautiful and elaborate, maybe this was Hades' retreat where he went to unwind, Nico thought to himself.
He read until he got to what seemed like a natural stopping place, after the complex rites of the Mysteries had been explained in detail.
“What's all this orange stuff on the scroll?” Nico asked.
“Hypnos was eating Cheetos the last time he read for me,” Hades said. “You are marginally better at this than he is,” he said. “You didn't fall asleep, at least.”
That was probably as close as Hades was going to get to praise. Nico knew he ought to take advantage, but he wasn't great at talking to his dad about Bianca. Just thinking about it made his blood boil. Hades had been so cold and unfeeling when Nico had initially come to him for help. Years had passed since then, but to Nico it may as well have been five minutes ago. He'd never forgive him for his callousness and cruelty when he'd needed his dad the most.
“Well? Keep reading,” Hades said.
For a moment Nico's throat was choked with anger. He couldn't sit here and pretend things were okay when they weren't. What was he doing?
“Nico,” Hades said, turning around.
“I need to talk to her,” Nico said. He stifled the other things he wanted to say and waited for Hades response.
“You have your list,” Hades said. “I've nothing more to say on the subject.”
Nico wanted so badly to argue with him, to demand a clearer answer, and to throw a massive fit and yell and scream. Instead he decided to just keep reading. Making his dad mad wouldn't get him anywhere.
Maybe he was beginning to get a little wiser.
Chapter 14: The Ones Who Sing in the Dead of Night
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Nico decided the best investment of his time was in researching methods to bring people out of the Underworld. He began a campaign to read everything he could on Orpheus in Hades' library. There were a lot of scrolls on Orphism, which covered a pretty diverse range of topics related to resurrection. Dionysus had brought his mother back, Orpheus had almost brought Euridice back, and Demeter had been able to get Persephone back for half of each year.
Those three notable cases were all very different in their particulars, but Nico was able to piece together one immutable fact; all of them seemed like they'd had Hades' permission. He was the King of the Underworld, and while some got in without permission, it didn't seem like any got out.
That was upsetting, but not shocking. It left him confused, though. Dionysus was Hades' nephew and Demeter his mother in law. It wasn't surprising that he'd make exceptions for them. But Orpheus? What had he done besides evoke pity in the king's heart? And why the hell hadn't that worked for Nico? Forget taking Bianca out of the Underworld. He didn't even have visitation rights.
Nico needed to speak to Orpheus, he realized after he'd read through most of the books on the subject. There was no point spending more time reading about him when he was a few minutes walk away.
Nico left the palace and headed downstairs, scanning the amorphous milling crowds of the dead in the fields of Asphodel as he descended. He saw no sign of Orpheus, even when he'd walked among them for a while searching thoroughly. First Bianca, now Orpheus. It seemed like nobody wanted to talk to him.
That wasn't exactly true, he realized, when he looked over at the judges' stand on the Styx side of the fields. Minos caught his eye and waved at him.
He shadow traveled over to the dais the judging table stood on. There was a long line of shades waiting to be judged, trailing off in a winding line of dim figures all the way back to the bone gravel beach where the fields met the Styx.
“Hi, Nico,” Minos said. “Your father keeping you busy?”
“Not really,” Nico said. “Do you have a second?”
“For you? Always,” Minos said, turning in his chair to give Nico his full attention.
Having Minos' attention on him suddenly made Nico feel nervous, although he wasn't sure why he should feel that way. Minos was just another shade. A particularly nice, handsome shade with really pretty eyes and long eyelashes and full lips. Not that Nico cared about stuff like that, he thought anxiously.
“I was looking for Orpheus,” he said. “Have you seen him?”
“He's in Elysium,” Minos said.
Nico raised his eyebrows in surprise.
“He defied the laws of death and he still got sent there?”
“As I recall, it was Persephone's intervention. She wanted him with his wife.”
Nico thought for a moment, feeling for Orpheus's presence, and he found he could feel it, distantly, in the Elysian mountains.
“Huh. I should have realized. I guess it just made no sense to me,” he said. “Sorry to bother you.”
“Don't be,” Minos said. “You're welcome to come by and chat anytime.”
“Maybe when we're less busy,” Aeacus said sternly. He was a sharp faced man who always looked suspicious, and he had Zeus's eyes of piercing blue. Nico had an instinctive dislike of him.
“Eh, we're always busy,” Minos said. “A few minutes won't hurt anything.”
“I thought Hades told you to leave the boy alone,” Aeacus continued.
“Ignore my brother,” Minos said suddenly, taking Nico by the shoulder and walking a few feet away to the riverbank. “Sorry. He can be a thorn in my side at times. He wanted to be made tiebreaker, you see. Never got over it.”
“My father told you to leave me alone? You're not bothering me,” he said.
“I'm glad to hear it,” Minos said. “If I am bothering you, you can say so. Hades thinks I'm a bad influence. And I do have a reputation. I don't blame him.”
“Whatever you did thousands of years ago has nothing to do with me,” Nico shrugged. He paused for a moment, listening to the rushing waters of the Styx at his back. “Speaking of which, I'm sorry I brought up Ariadne all of a sudden the other day, when I first got back,” Nico said. “I should have guessed it was a sensitive topic.”
“It is, but you can talk to me about anything,” Minos said firmly. “I wish to have no secrets from you.”
Nico stared at Minos curiously. The shade appeared sincere, his brows lowered and over-serious, his lips thin. It gave him an anxious look. What did a ghost have to be worried about?
“That's generous of you,” Nico said. “Ariadne only asked how you were, that's all.”
“What did you tell her?”
“That you seemed fine. I told her you'd been very nice to me.”
Minos' lips quirked up in a tight smile.
“She didn't believe me,” Nico said, scuffing his shoe in the gravel of the riverbank. He turned up bone shards, teeth, and a few wedding rings among the rocks. “She told me you were once a tyrant king mad with power. That you didn't care for anything but glory,” he said.
Minos made a face. If he was alive, Nico thought, he'd be blushing.
“I've got to admit,” Nico said. “I don't see it.”
“I like the way you see me,” Minos said.
He said it simply, but there was something intense behind the words that made Nico's heart beat faster. For a moment, they just looked at each other.
“Minos!” Aeacus called out. “We are waiting!”
“Let him flirt with the kid,” Rhadamanthys said, shushing him. “Maybe Nico will ask Lord Hades to get us a minifridge.”
That ruined the moment thoroughly. Minos blushed.
“Ignore him,” he said. “We don't need a minifridge. I mean, it would be nice, but... Just ignore him. He's a fool. Always has been,” he stammered.
“Don't worry about it,” Nico said. “I wish I had the pull with my dad to get people fridges. Um, I think I'd better go.”
“Right,” Minos said, stepping back and smiling at Nico fondly. “Well, you know where to find me, I suppose.”
Nico nodded, returned his smile awkwardly, and shadow traveled to Elysium.
“Eurgh,” he said, immediately cringing and hiding his face in his hands. “Why am I so awkward?”
“Pardon?” Someone said.
He looked up. Orpheus was staring at him. He was immediately recognizable, by the lyre he held on his lap. He was lounging under a tree made of pink quartz crystal, and had a spiky mullet of black hair and very large, sad green eyes. His eyes looked very familiar, but Nico couldn't say why.
“Orpheus,” Nico said, sitting next to him on the green lawn of what appeared to be Astroturf. “I wanted to ask you some questions.”
“Such as why are you so awkward? I'm afraid I don't know,” Orpheus said softly, strumming his lyre.
“No, that wasn't my question. I think I have a crush on a ghost. Don't tell anyone I said that,” Nico said. “Uh, let's change the subject.”
“What better subject than love, and the pain it causes us,” Orpheus murmured. “I could sing of that for centuries and never tire of it.”
“One, I never said anything about love, so let's not go there,” Nico said. “And two, I have a suggestion for another song topic.”
“Do you? I take requests,” Orpheus nodded. “Go ahead.”
“Detailed directions for the route you were taking out of the Underworld,” Nico said. “And any notable landmarks you remember would be great.”
Orpheus frowned.
“He doesn't do things like that,” said a voice from up in the crystal tree. Nico glanced up and saw a woman who must have been Eurydice looking down at him. She was sprawled across the branches like a leopard, and was peering out beneath a crown of green moss-like hair. “He changes the facts to make the poetry better. He can't help himself.”
“I don't like that,” Nico said. “It seems dishonest.”
“Poetry is the most honest thing there is, especially when it's not the truth,” Orpheus said. “My mother taught me that.”
“Remind me not to ask your mom for directions either,” Nico said. “Wait, I know your mom,” he said. “Calliope, right? You have her eyes. And Apollo was your father.”
Orpheus nodded.
“I met them not that long ago,” Nico said. “Your dad gave me a ride to Olympus. Calliope was with him.”
“What brought you to Olympus?” Orpheus asked.
Nico went ahead and told Orpheus and Eurydice everything, from Bianca's death to his chores list and his plans for getting her back. Eurydice joined them on the Astroturf, listening intently. She had a dusting of freckles across her face and shoulders and looked a little sunburnt, even as a shade. Nico didn't see what was so special about her, to warrant her resurrection, but maybe people would say that about Bianca, too. He didn't judge.
“The tunnel collapsed behind him,” Eurydice said. “It no longer exists.”
Nico sighed.
“Maybe that's why Persephone said it was impossible,” he said. “I don't suppose you know what exit Dionysus used?”
“I heard he flew out over the Styx,” Orpheus said. “If Cerberus and Charon do not molest you, and the waters don't claim you, and Hades allows, it could work. I walked on mortal feet, so it was not possible for me.”
“And if Hades didn't allow?”
Orpheus shrugged.
“How would life be restored?” Eurydice said. “Would you not just be summoning a shade to the surface by another method, without his help? She'd fade in time.”
“I don't know,” Nico said. “You guys make a lot of good points. I'm gonna be honest, I came up with this idea when I wasn't really in a rational frame of mind. I'm sort of backtracking to make it make sense.”
“My advice,” Eurydice said. “Give up. You will see her again in due time.”
“Not necessarily,” Nico said. “She's refusing to speak to me at the moment. I don't know why, but I'm worried she never will if I don't bring her back to life.”
“Typical man,” Eurydice said, rolling her eyes. “Thinking a grand gesture will solve everything.”
“Grand gestures ARE everything,” Orpheus said. “Yes, I failed to bring you back. But now we have a Broadway musical about us. Who's the real winner?”
“You know about that?” Nico asked.
“Theater kids drop by when they're making the rounds. Sondheim is the next tree over,” Eurydice said.
Nico thought about that for a moment. Grand gestures are everything. There was something to that, but he wasn't sure what it was.
“You've given me stuff to think about, at least,” he said. “Thank you.”
“Would you like to hear some music?” Orpheus offered.
“Yes, please.”
Nico sat around and listened to Orpheus play. Time seemed to flow differently when his ornate golden lyre played, at times speeding up and at times slowing down. Silk flower petals grew on the tree and fell as he played, the little plastic blades of grass shivered, and Eurydice stood up and danced with slow, graceful movements.
Orpheus wouldn't compose anything truly new, and she'd repeat the same dances forever, but that wasn't so bad. They seemed content.
Nico wondered what eternity with Bianca would look like. Would they be able to just relax and hang out like this? They had so many unvoiced hurts taking up space between them. Eurydice was right. He was trying to patch things up with a grand gesture. But was that so wrong? Actions spoke more than words, right?
Nico was in no rush to leave their company, but eventually he parted ways with them and walked over to the Philosopher's Grove. He walked around for a little while and just listened to the conversations around him. Bearded men in chitons and togas all looked the same to him, but he noticed there were modern philosophers there too.
He paused and listened to a young man in modern clothing lecture a crowd of ancient Greeks about artificial intelligence and the dangers of a hypothetical robot apocalypse. Some of their questions were very insightful in spite of their chronological differences. He could have sat and listened for ages, but after a little while he decided it was time to visit his brother.
He found Dante and Virgil by the river where he'd left them last time.
“Hello,” he said, sitting beside Dante, who seemed happy to see him.
“Hello, my young brother,” Dante said. “Back again so soon?”
“Just in time for my recitation,” Virgil said.
“Of what?”
“The Aeneid, of course,” Virgil said.
“Like, the whole thing?”
Virgil and Dante both laughed, and Nico realized there was nothing stopping them reciting over and over and over... He considered making a run for it.
“In a while, dear friend,” Dante said, surprising Nico. “My brother and I need to speak alone for a moment.”
Nico had no idea what to expect, but he was excited to follow Dante down a winding path, until they reached a large petrified oak tree. Dante jumped, grabbing one of the branches, and pulled himself up onto a broad, flat section of the branch. He reached down and yanked Nico up after him.
“I come here sometimes when I need a break from Virgil,” he said, as Nico looked around with appreciation. “I didn't want anyone to overhear us.”
Nico could see the river below on one side, and the branch was broad enough to lay down. When he looked up through the bare branches, mist was gathered overhead like clouds, and glowing gems glittered far overhead. If one wanted to, it would be easy to mistake them for distant stars.
“I think we have important matters to discuss,” Dante said.
“You're not like them,” Nico said, and Dante shook his head.
“Dead is dead,” he said. “But you are right, there is something different in me. More self-awareness. Little more than that. A gift from our father.”
Nico stared at his brother. There was very little resemblance between them, and in fact Dante looked kind of silly in his red hat, but there was a dark flicker behind his eyes that Nico recognized as a trait they shared.
“So,” Dante steepled his fingers. “Tell me of how you came to be here.”
Without hesitating, Nico launched into the story of why he was in the Underworld and his plan to resurrect Bianca. He was getting tired of telling the story over and over. At this point he needed to type up a newsletter and start stapling copies to the petrified trees.
Dante looked at him with understanding and empathy.
“Our journeys are... Alike in some ways,” he said, seeming to stumble over his words. That was weird for someone normally so eloquent, and Nico got the sense something was off about him. “Yet some parts are different. There is much I would ask you... but I should not,” he said, looking frustrated. “How to go about it? Brother, do you know for certain that Bianca is here?”
“Bianca? I can sense her here, just not her exact location,” Nico said, growing nervous. “Why? Where else would she be if she wasn't here?”
Dante shook his head. Nico's heart started to pound. He sensed Dante was holding something back that he desperately wanted to share.
“Dante, where is Beatrice?”
Dante shook his head again.
“Didn't you come here to follow her?” Nico asked. “You loved her more than anything. You didn't want to spend eternity with her? Or you couldn't? Would father not let you?”
“I could,” Dante said. “But in the end, I decided here was where I belonged. It made some people angry, but I have not regretted my choice. In truth, I did not know Beatrice well. It was the loving her that I really loved. And here I found a deeper connection. One I hadn't known before. L'amor che move il sole e l'altra stelle,” he said, beaming.
“Virgil,” Nico said, the truth dawning on him. “You're a couple! I love that for you,” he smiled.
“Not in the romantic sense,” Dante said. “We are two halves of one soul, I think. After the Aristotelian fashion.”
Nico wasn't sure he fully understood, and he was disappointed, because for a second there he'd really shipped them. But as long as they were happy, it didn't really matter.
“But if you chose to be here,” Nico asked. “Does that mean that you could have been somewhere--”
Nico was so stupid. He cut himself off mid-sentence as the truth dawned on him.
“Paradiso,” he said, his eyes as wide as saucers. He almost fell out of the tree, but Dante grabbed him before he could slip off the smooth branch.
“Don't speak of it aloud,” Dante hissed, grabbing his shoulders and steadying him. “Not here. Yes, I walked between two worlds in my life. I chose this one. I merely wondered if Bianca--”
“No, she would have come here,” Nico said. “She was a hunter of Artemis.”
Dante nodded his understanding, looking relieved.
“So the Commedia wasn't just based on the Underworld?” Nico asked.
“It was an effort to make sense of my experiences, and the many things I had seen which were beyond my understanding,” Dante said. “That work was never meant to describe a place I had been in reality, but a place that existed in my soul. Conflicting divine influences tormented me during the course of my life. I melded them into a beautiful whole.”
Nico could barely wrap his head around it. Other afterlifes... It made sense, but at the same time, it didn't make any sense at all.
“Dante!” A booming voice barked out.
“Coming, father!” Dante said, slipping out of the tree and dropping to his feet before Hades. Nico followed after him.
Hades flicked his eyes between them suspiciously.
“Virgil was becoming distressed at your absence,” he said. “You know I can't allow that.”
“No, of course not, forgive me,” Dante said. “I shall rectify it immediately.”
With one last glance at Nico, he hurred back to Virgil's side.
“What are you up to out here?” Hades said, his eyes boring deep into Nico's soul. He shuddered.
“I was telling him about the contest,” Nico said.
Hades clucked his tongue.
“Do not ever let me catch you playing favorites again,” he said sternly. “Dante does not get special treatment here. You can share the contest information with all the poets at once, or with none at all. No exceptions.”
“No exceptions,” Nico said. “Got it.”
Hades didn't seem to suspect anything else, and his posture softened back into its natural state of only medium-high tension. It made it impossible for Nico to relax around his father, because his moods were infectious.
Without another word, Hades held out his hand to Nico and shadow traveled him back to the palace.
“Come,” he said. “You can entertain me as I dine.”
“Entertain you?” Nico said, irritated. He yanked his hand away and took a step backward. “I'm not a very entertaining person. Don't let me waste your time,” he said, thinking of how he'd rather do anything else. He had way too much on his mind, and he'd say something he regretted, he was certain of it.
Hades bit the inside of his cheek, frowning deeply, his frown lines like veins in marble on his pale face.
“Let me rephrase that,” Hades sighed. “Come and dine with me. And speak to me. I think there is much we need to discuss.”
Nico hesitated for the space of a breath. His father looked at him, his expression inscrutable. Nico's response had been rude, and he'd actually responded nicely. Maybe there was a chance they could speak without arguing today.
“Okay,” Nico said, and followed his father to the dining room.
Notes:
L'amor che move il sole e l'altra stelle: The Love that moves the sun and all the other stars. This is a famous quote from the end of the Divine Comedy.
If it wasn't already obvious, Nico and Minos are into each other. I know Minos is a ghost, but he's still an adult ghost, and Nico is not an adult, so if their age difference bothers you, don't worry! Nothing is going to happen between them anytime soon. Nico is too young for that right now. I don't know if anybody but me cares, but I want him to be safe. :) I'll put chapter notes at the beginning if anything changes in that regard.
Chapter 15: The Mother of Night
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Hades sat at the head of the long table and Nico took the seat to his right. The table was laden with tempting dishes. Nico's eyes lingered appreciatively on the glistening skin of a roast pig, bowls of soft cheeses, dishes of olive oil with herbs and crisp fresh baked bread. His mouth started watering. He was immediately glad he'd agreed to the dinner, because he realized painfully that he hadn't eaten in a while.
“I had the staff make some things special for you,” Hades said, gesturing at a covered platter in the center of the table. Nico lifted the lid and gasped. On the platter were dishes of pasta with clams, salt cod crostini, marinated sardines, and a large dish of tiramisu.
“I told the skeletons to find the best restaurant in Venice and copy the menu,” Hades said. “Is it to your liking?”
Nico had never been so excited for a meal in his entire life.
“Thank you,” he said, staring at his father in delighted surprise. “It looks amazing.”
Nico started grabbing plates and pulling them towards him, then he remembered his manners. He leaned over and carefully filled Hades' cup with wine first, followed by his own.
Hades' mouth twitched with the suggestion of a smile. He said nothing.
Formalities over with, Nico ignored his dad and starting eating like he'd never eaten before. All the dishes that had been made for him were excellent, and the Venetian ones really did taste like they'd come from a top tier restaurant. Everything that passed his lips was almost as good as ambrosia.
“How did you get skeletons to be such good cooks?” Nico asked, breaking the silence only after he'd tried a little of everything.
“Families used to offer up food and drink to their departed ancestors,” Hades said. “They still do, occasionally. The dead can develop highly refined palates as a result. When the offerings are made on the surface, near identical care packages are delivered to the shades. It is crucial staff provide only the best in such cases. I have the shades of Julia Child and Marcus Gavius Apicius host cooking seminars for the staff regularly.”
“I have no clue who those people are,” Nico said.
“They were formerly popular chefs,” Hades said.
“Oh,” Nico said, starting his second course of trying everything on the table. “That's nice.”
He was distracted by food for a good while longer until Hades spoke again.
“The last time I had this cake-- what is it called again?”
“Tiramisu,” Nico said.
“Your grandmother had made it,” Hades continued, cutting himself another slice.
“Nonna Lola cooked for you?” Nico tried to picture his father sitting at his Nonna's formal dining table, patiently waiting to be served cake and coffee like he was any other houseguest. Hades' aura was so oppressively dark that he found it hard to believe his Nonna wouldn't have denied him entry to the house, or at least called a priest for an exorcism while he was still on the soup course.
“I only met her once,” Hades said. “Her approval was a prerequisite of my courtship with your mother. I tried to get out of it, but family was everything to Maria.”
“Did you meet Nonno too?” Nico could only recall his grandfather vaguely. He'd been ambassador to the United States for most of Nico's childhood, and he'd been a busy, distant man, always in a formal pressed suit and tie no matter the occasion. One of Nico's most vivid memories regarding him was of being prodded with his cane and told to stand up straight. He'd also had a habit of reading the newspaper while smoking a cigar and subsequently falling asleep. His nonna had been scared he'd start a fire and would snatch the cigar out of his mouth and yell at him, and he'd start yelling back. Nico had laughed himself silly every time it happened.
“I never met him,” Hades said, “He refused to see me. He did not approve of the relationship, I was told.”
“I'm surprised Nonna approved of you,” Nico said, scooping up a second helping of tiramisu for himself. “She was really uptight.”
“Indeed. She did not trust me at first,” Hades said. “But when her daughter walked into her foyer wearing enough diamonds to buy Venice, she became acutely open minded.”
Nico snorted.
“That's funny,” he said. “Oh, Nonna.”
“Mortal minds are easily won,” Hades said.
“What did you tell Nonna you did for a living?”
“She never asked. She was not a foolish woman,” Hades said. “I believe she made an assumption that I was involved in organized crime.”
“That makes sense,” Nico said. “I was wondering something. How did she end up in Elysium? I remember her being really Catholic when I knew her.”
Hades tsked.
“I'm aware,” he said. “I do not know the details of her judgement. I would guess that being with her daughter was more important to her in the end.”
“How does that work with the other religions?” Nico pressed forward with his line of questioning, eager to learn as much as possible. “Do they have their own Underworlds, too? Can people just choose which one to go to?”
Nico had hoped he'd get more context to help him figure out what Dante had been trying to tell him, but Hades frowned.
“That subject is forbidden to speak of.”
“But--”
“It was a rule already made when I arrived here,” Hades added. “Do not test it.”
A shadow of doubt crept into Nico's mind that perhaps Hades was warning him in earnest. Maybe there were powers in the Underworld even he could not command. Nyx came to mind.
“Was that Nyx's rule?” Nico asked.
“I have no idea where it originated,” Hades said. “But she was the one to inform me. I made the mistake of bringing up a certain god I will not name-- A friend of mine from Egypt. I was told it was folly to speak of such things in this realm.”
It was so strange to think of Hades ever being new in town and making mistakes. He seemed to belong here, as though he and the Underworld were made of the same stuff. But that wasn't the case. Hades had been born on the surface, the same as all of his other siblings. He'd wanted Olympus for himself and been denied it, and he'd been sent to the Underworld to stew on his losses ever since.
Nico wondered what he'd been like during the Titan war, before circumstance made him bitter and distant. Was he close with his siblings? Was he happy?
“I have things to give to Nyx,” Nico said. The questions he really wondered about seemed too personal, and it was easier to stick to subjects he knew were safe. “Should I wait until I have the whole list, or just go and see her?”
“Meeting her for the first time can be disorienting,” Hades said. “It's best if I take you. Perhaps later.”
Nico nodded, stuffing his mouth with more pasta.
He ate in silence for a while, his father seeming to be lost in thought.
“This wine is from Bacchus's vineyard,” Nico observed, sipping some appreciatively.
“That's correct,” Hades said. “How did you know that?”
“I was there when I was in Italy,” Nico said. “Ariadne let me stay over for a while. She's really nice.”
“I don't know her well,” Hades said. “But Bacchus is a good sort. Not like the rest of his family.”
Nico laughed to himself.
“What are you laughing for?”
“You're his family,” Nico said.
Hades rolled his eyes.
“I'm sure I would be far more pleasant if grapevines were my charge, and not dead people,” Hades said gruffly, frowning. He tapped his pointed fingernails across the black marble tabletop in irritation.
“Fair enough,” Nico said. He glanced up at his father. Hades was being relatively decent at the moment. He might as well take advantage of it and ask some things he'd been wondering.
“How did you meet Mama?” He asked.
“Did you not get your memories back?” Hades frowned. “We told you that story many times when you were young.”
“Was that the whole story? I thought there would be more to it with the whole god thing.”
Hades shook his head.
“We really did simply bump into each other at the opera,” he said. “I was going up the stairs, she was coming down, and she bumped into my shoulder. I turned and told her quite sternly to watch where she was going, and she gave me a look of reproach that could have killed me where I stood, had she but the power to follow through on it.”
Nico smiled widely.
“That's the part I like about the story,” he said.
“I'm aware,” Hades said. “After the opera ended I offered to take her out to apologize, et cetera,” he said. “You know the rest.”
“And was the opera really L'Orfeo?”
“Naturally. I don't go to the surface to see just any opera. It was Persephone's idea, actually. She enjoys the theater, although it was spring at the time and she couldn't join me. I only went because she'd wanted me to see it.”
Nico nodded, still smiling. As a child he'd laughed until his stomach had hurt every time Maria had recounted the story. His father was always so gloomy, and stern, but after hearing the tale he'd started imagining his Papa cowering in fear before his Mama's stern glance. The image had made him more approachable in Nico's eyes, although he couldn't remember ever being truly afraid of him.
“I need you to fetch something for me,” Hades said.
Nico's stomach dropped. Of course, he thought. Of course his father would ruin this, like he ruined everything else.
“Was that what this was all about?” He asked, all good humor leaving him in a rush. “I should have known,” he spat coldly.
“I need manticore venom,” Hades said without looking him in the eyes. He fiddled with the stem of his wine glass. “I can tell you where to find it.”
“No,” Nico said, glaring. “I'm not getting you any more stuff.”
“All demigods must serve the gods, and many do it for far less reward than you have known,” Hades said firmly. “I am only asking for one simple task to be completed.”
“I already have a list I'm working on,” Nico said, raising his voice in frustration. “You can't just add stuff on when I'm almost done. That's not fair!”
“If you wish to live in my realm and continue to read its books and talk to its denizens, you have to serve me. I know you spoke to Orpheus and Dante of your plans to resurrect Bianca. Did you think I would allow you to attempt to subvert my laws without any consequences?”
“You're the reason I have to,” Nico shouted angrily. “If you'd summoned Bianca for me when I asked, I wouldn't have to resurrect her in the first place.”
“If she wished to speak with you, she already would have,” Hades shouted back, slamming his hands on the tabletop. “As I said, it has nothing to do with me. Do not lay it at my feet.”
“Too late,” Nico shouted. “This is all your fault!”
“I won't dignify that with a response. You are being ridiculous,” Hades said, his voice resonating with power. “You are a demigod! Pursuing glory on the surface is the purpose of your existence. And if you do not do this, I will make it so that you never see your sister again!”
Nico knew when he'd been beaten. He just wished it didn't hurt so much.
Nico folded his arms and stared at the table, seething.
Hades huffed.
“I did not wish to threaten you with Bianca,” he said, his voice softening. “You were the one who drove me to it with your refusal to cooperate. I tried to ply you with pleasant things first.”
“I don't care about the stupid food, or your stupid reminiscing,” Nico said bitterly. “That means nothing to me. All I care about is getting Bianca back. And when I do, neither of us is ever going to speak to you again. I swear that on the Styx.”
Hades flinched.
“You will never get her back,” Hades said darkly. Nico could tell he'd actually scored points with that one, which felt good. “And even if you did, I could not possibly care less.”
“Whatever. You suck. I hate you,” Nico said.
“Go to your room!” Hades roared.
“Fine!” Nico shouted back. “Gladly!” He got up from the table in a huff, kicked his chair over, and stormed off to his bedroom, flopping down facefirst on the bed. His father was the worst. How could one person be so unbearable so consistently? He was even worse when he was trying to be nice about being a jerk.
He screamed into his pillow for a while, then threw it across the room, then tried to distract himself by scrolling through Godstagram on his phone. Ganymede's recent posts showed him having fun hanging out with cool people in cooler looking places. He and Isis had gone skydiving together. Nico would never have gone skydiving in a million years, but it would have been nice to be invited. He should have known he'd be forgotten quickly. Who was he to them but a passing amusement? He was just another demigod; short lived and replaceable. In short, he was a loser. He was nobody.
Nico rolled himself up in his Stygian silk sheet like a burrito, encasing himself in darkness. He thought about demigods and Camp Half-Blood. Was Hades right? Was it his purpose to throw himself at monsters until he died, hopefully in a blaze of glory? Was that all there was? After Bianca died, he'd lost what little interest he'd had in the lifestyle. It seemed like such a pointless waste of time. The dying part didn't bother him, but the rest of it had. Camp was corny and the kids there were mostly idiots. And Percy was there. Fuck that guy.
Nico scrolled and scrolled, tapping the imaginary dislike button on every single one of the gods' pictures where they looked happier than he was. “Dislike,” he muttered to himself. “Dislike. Super dislike.”
“Talking to yourself?” Hades asked, hovering in the doorway.
Nico poked his face out of his cocoon.
“Godstagram needs a dislike button,” he said.
“I agree,” Hades said. “Come. I'm taking you to Nyx.”
Nico unrolled himself and stood, pausing to scoop up Saint Valentine's bone fragments from under the wine bowl.
“Don't forget your earrings,” Hades said.
“I didn't,” Nico muttered. He had. He grabbed them from the shelf and tossed both them and the bones into the bowl.
Hades shadow traveled with him to a part of the Underworld Nico didn't recognize. It was a pitch black empty space, with no sense of up or down, and no solid ground beneath his feet. He felt like he was going to fall down into nothingness, and he gripped Hades' arm for support.
“You will not fall,” Hades said, nudging him to stand on his own. Nico's feet stayed steady when he put weight on them, but his stomach was doing flips.
He looked around, but he might as well have been blind. There was no light anywhere, just empty, yawning darkness. It made him think of outer space if there were no stars, or sun. Just darkness that went on into infinity.
“Lady Nyx,” Hades said, clearing his throat. “Forgive the intrusion. I have something for you. The Martyr bones you'd requested. Accept my apologies for the delay.”
“You brought Nico, I see,” Nyx said. Her presence was nonspecific; it seemed as though she were surrounding them, as if they were submerged in her being. Her voice was soft and comforting, like a black velvet blanket rubbing against the inside of his brain. Nico felt slightly more at ease.
“Yes, he fetched them on my behalf,” Hades said. “You know of him already?”
She hummed, a low vibrating sound.
“I suppose you know everything that goes on in the realm,” Hades answered his own question. “Go on, son, present them to her.”
Nico held out the bowl with both hands. He had no idea what direction to face, so he tried a couple of different angles before a pair of pale white hands reached out and took the bowl.
He raised his head. A very tall woman was standing before him with long black hair that floated weightlessly behind her head, making her seem even taller than she was. Her skin was pale, like marble in moonlight, with a comforting soft white glow emanating from it. Her eyes glinted like tiny golden suns, sparkling at him.
He gasped, staggering back a step. His father nudged him forward again, and he swallowed hard, trying to steady himself. The power emanating from her was intense on a scale he'd never experienced before. It was like if Zeus had become radioactive and then he'd eaten Hades for breakfast. The only reason Nico didn't truly start to cower in instinctive fear was because she was smiling at him with genuine fondness in her yellow eyes.
She tsked, twitching her fingers at the contents of the bowl and then putting her fingers to her lips.
“Something wrong?” Hades asked, his voice betraying his tension.
“Very,” she said, cocking her head to one side. “These fragments are normal human bones.”
“What? They're supposed to be Saint Valentine,” Nico said, a pit forming in his stomach. “I'm sure he was a martyr. I don't know what could have happened. Maybe a mix up at the church...”
She hummed, popping the bone shards into her mouth and crunching on them like potato chips. He tried to fight a rising sense of panic welling up in him.
“Fear not,” she said lightly, once she'd eaten each fragment of bone. “I do not fault you. Perhaps you did not know, but it is easily tested. Taste the slightest mote of dust from the bone of a martyr, and pleasure will briefly become pain, and pain, pleasure. The sensation is quite distinctive.”
“I'm really sorry,” Nico said.
“You certainly will be,” Hades grumbled. “My apologies for wasting your time, Nyx. The boy is hopelessly incompetent.”
“I doubt that,” she said, running a cold white hand over Nico's hair, making him shiver like icewater had dripped down his back. “He is young. He still needs your guidance and protection. You will try harder to help him, Hades. I do not wish to hear of another precious child of the Underworld dying young and needlessly.”
“That-- I-- Hmm,” Hades said. He spoke no more.
“And what's this?” Nyx said, fishing out the earrings on the end of her pinkie finger. “Sweet of you, but the sun god has blessed these, long ago. Do you know what that means?”
“No?”
“It means they will clash with my wardrobe,” she said.
“I figured,” Nico said. “Persephone recommended I ask you to bless them for me. But since I messed up the bones, I won't ask you for anything. I'm not that hopelessly incompetent,” he said, flashing a look at his father.
“Nonsense,” she smiled. “You're more likely to bring me what I need if you're well-prepared, no? I will take the blessing of Apollo,” she said, waving a hand and suspending the earrings in the air before him. The light from her eyes and skin provided the only illumination to see what she was doing. “And turn it inside out. The light is hidden in a cloak of darkness. And so shall you be.”
“Did you just--” Hades said.
“I did,” she said. “Here.”
The earrings now consisted of a single black gem suspended from each gold loop. She shook them, and they turned invisible. She shook them again, and they reappeared.
“Invisibility,” Nico said. “You're giving me invisibility earrings?”
“I am,” she said. “It can even hide you from immortals.”
“This is the same mechanism as my helm of darkness,” Hades said. “It is too much power in the hands of a demigod. Give them back, son.”
“Annabeth has an invisibility hat,” Nico said.
“Athena's daughter?” Hades asked disdainfully. “Keep them, then.”
Nyx reached out to pat Nico's head again fondly, and impulsively, he reached out and hugged her. She returned the hug warmly, enveloping him in a comforting dark embrace.
“You will be great,” She told Nico. “Make us all proud.”
“I'll try,” he said. “Thank you so much.”
Hades bid her goodbye and shadow traveled with Nico back to the throne room.
“That was unexpected,” he said, holding his hand out for the earrings, which Nico gave him. “Come here.”
“What are you-- Ahh!” Nico was seized by the ear and yanked. He felt a sudden stab of pain in his earlobe.
“Don't whine,” Hades said, grabbing his other ear and piercing that one too. “If you'd found real martyr bones, you might have been having fun right now.”
“Well, I'm not,” Nico said, gently prodding his ears and wincing. The weight of the earrings felt strange, and the pain was already fading.
“Ow,” he said, looking at his father accusingly.
“Shake your head quickly to the left,” Hades said.
Nico tried it.
Hades stared at him. His long white face grew taut with worry, and he chewed the inside of his mouth.
“I don't like this,” he said, turning around and pacing before his throne.
“It didn't work?”
“Oh, it worked,” Hades said, wringing his hands, still pacing. “I do not mind your hiding from mortals and monsters, but gods? Given that we are no longer at war, it seems egregious for someone of your status. Does Annabeth's hat hide her from the gods as well?”
“I don't know,” Nico said.
“See if you can find out,” Hades said. “And if you have the opportunity to do so unnoticed, destroy her hat.”
“Annabeth was nice to me,” Nico said with annoyance, shaking his head again and reappearing. “I don't want to mess up her stuff for no reason.”
“I told you to do it; that's reason enough,” Hades said firmly, also growing annoyed. “I didn't even want you having this power, but Nyx has overruled me. That does not change the fact that it irresponsible on the part of Athena to let her daughter flit about with the ability to deceive gods. It's one of one million other overreaches Olympus has attempted over the years, and it needs to be rectified.”
Nico was still unsure how he felt about it, but he agreed just to get his dad to quit talking about it. Annabeth could always just ask her mom for a replacement hat, after all.
“Fine. I'll do it,” he said.
“And be certain never to tell anyone outside of the Underworld that I defer to Nyx,” Hades said. “If it got back to Zeus, I'd never hear the end of it. He doesn't understand how things work down here.”
“This is her realm,” Nico said, understanding completely. “It always was. It's like she owns the company and you're the CEO.”
“Precisely,” Hades said. “You understand.”
“I won't tell anyone,” Nico said. “Don't worry about it. So, the manticore. Is this the same Doctor Thorn that attacked Bianca and I at Westover Hall?”
“I highly doubt the manticore felt compelled to return to work as a Vice Principal,” Hades scoffed. “After its reformation it should be significantly altered from the version you knew. Whether it will recall anything from your previous encounter, I cannot say.”
“Is it still in Bar Harbor?”
Hades nodded.
“What do you need the venom for?”
“Pain that does not damage flesh has many applications,” Hades said. “You never know when you may need to torture someone. Best to keep it in stock. You are familiar with the beast? You can handle this?”
“With these earrings, I'm not scared of anything anymore,” Nico said. He hadn't been eager to do this new chore earlier, but he wanted to try out his earrings more than he wanted to keep being stubborn. “Besides, I know enough.”
“Do you?”
“I know it's got three thousand attack power and plus five to saving throws,” he said.
To his surprise, Hades laughed.
“You and your little game. Go, now, and try to be a proper demigod for once,” he said, waving his hand in dismissal. Nico disappeared into shadow.
Chapter 16: Heroism Fail
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He appeared on the grass of the soccer field of Westover Hall. Standing there in the moonlight, staring up at the imposing stone edifice that was his old school, he felt raw and exposed. Having a real sky above him was unsettling. How long had he been in the Underworld?
He checked his phone. It was late May. He'd gone below the earth on March 21st. Time had slipped away so quickly.
He looked up at the school for a while, and at the cliffs overlooking the ocean. This place had held his last memories with his sister before she'd met Artemis and decided to leave him forever. He felt a dark, choking bitterness rise up in his throat, and turned away. It was better if he didn't think about it. He'd get more done.
He stalked off into the forest, remaining visible, and thought about the manticore. It had human intelligence, so he doubted it would be content to live too far from human society. Maybe it still took human form sometimes, but he wasn't sure. The easiest method of finding it was to wander around Bar Harbor smelling like a tasty demigod snack. It would find him eventually, if he knew anything about monsters.
He wandered until the sun came up. The glare was so bright when the sun did eventually rise that he had to put his hood up, and he missed his sunglasses. His eyes needed time to get used to the surface. The sun was so obnoxious, just like Apollo, he thought resentfully. It burnt skin and gave people cancer. He couldn't imagine why anyone liked it.
He wasn't a big fan of the moon either. Nico laughed at himself a little, at the irony that if he lived long enough he'd probably grow to hate everything in existence, at the rate he was going. Maybe that was what had happened to his dad to make him so miserable to be around.
After he'd stalked and stomped around for nearly the entire day, Nico had the disturbing revelation that he was terrible at being a demigod. There was no denying that Percy Jackson and Co. would have already found and dispatched the manticore by now, or died trying. He'd found no trace of it.
Frustrated, tired, and losing focus, he climbed over a log and tripped in a hole, ripping his shirt on a thornbush in the process. He brushed himself off and staggered to his feet.
He'd fallen into a shallow pit, and there was a manticore in it.
The massive body of the leonine beast lay in front of him, snoring, its furry sides rising and falling with its breath. It smelled disgusting, like rotting meat and dried blood, and its tail twitched menacingly. Disturbingly, it looked a third larger than it had been the last time he'd seen it.
“Oh my god!” He said, nearly having a heart attack. He scrambled back against the log.
The creature opened a single eye in its eerily human face, this face entirely different from the one he remembered. It didn't even get up, just flicked its tail in his general direction and turned away.
An intense, burning agony sprouted in his chest. Nico looked down and saw his torso peppered with sharp, pointy projectiles.
Nico shadow traveled back to his father's throne room and started yanking the spikes out and tossing them on the floor.
“Ow, ow, ow,” he muttered. “Shit, ow!”
He heard his father walk in.
“That won't work,” Hades muttered. “Nico, it does me no good if the poison is in your body. I need the spikes whole and unused.”
He walked over and helped Nico pull them out of his chest, inspecting each one and sighing when he realized none were still useable.
“Go back and get more. Collect them properly this time,” Hades said. “First the martyr bones, now this? You really are incompetent, I don't care what Nyx thinks.”
“I don't have a fucking clue what I'm doing,” Nico said, running his hands through his hair in exasperation. He wasn't embarrassed to admit it. He was still in terrible, searing pain and he had no one but himself to blame. “I saw the manticore and just blanked. I haven't seen a monster in a really long time. Sorry,” he said. “I'll... I'll try again and figure it out.”
Hades sighed.
“I'm not sending you back to camp for more training. They've never respected me there,” he said. “But I suppose you have not had the level of preparation for battle that other demigods receive. I won't have it said that I sent my son out unprepared.” Nico knew he was thinking of Nyx and her warning. Hades snapped his fingers, and Minos appeared.
Minos saw Nico's wounds and gasped.
“What happened to you? Are you alright?”
“Never mind,” Hades said. “He'll recover. Minos, in the matter of his training--”
“Is that ichor?” Minos asked.
Nico and Hades looked where Minos was pointing, at Nico's chest. There were tiny streams of golden blood trickling down his white skin, seeping out of the tiny pinpricks where the spines had been embedded.
“What the...” Nico said.
Hades grabbed Nico's shoulder and shadow traveled him away.
Nico looked around. He was in a cave he didn't recognize, a humid, mossy, drippy cavern with bats flitting around. There were even holes in the ceiling that revealed the sky. In the center of the cavern was a massive cauldron that was smoking and giving off a noxious smell.
“Hecate!” Hades shouted.
A short, heavyset woman stepped out from behind the cauldron. She had long oddly colored hair down to her ankles and her feet were bare.
“Hi, boss,” she grinned. “What can I do for you?”
“You assisted Persephone in healing my son, did you not?”
Her smile dropped off her face.
“Yes. Why?” She asked, her voice wavering.
“What is this?” Hades asked, pointing at Nico's chest. “Is this ichor? Don't tell me I'm seeing things.”
She hesitated, stepping closer, seeming wary of getting too close to Hades.
“Ichor?” She asked. “Oh. Oh, that!” She cackled. “Oh, silly, that's not ichor! It's ambrosia!”
“Ambrosia?” Hades and Nico both said in tandem.
“Yes, of course. You overdosed on ambrosia. It will take a long time to work out of your system.”
“Ambrosia is a lighter color than this,” Hades said.
“But it's mixed with blood,” Hecate said, propping a hand on one rounded hip. “Naturally it won't be the same color as pure ambrosia.”
She was very curvaceous, Nico noted, with an amount of cleavage that would have been borderline illegal on the surface. Up close he noticed she had an insane number of tattoos visible beneath her sheer dress that seemed to move as he looked at them, and her hair was fried from being dyed too many times. It was currently henna red with a greenish yellow color at the roots.
Hades shook his head, glancing at the now-drying golden blood.
“Why would it be ichor? How strange that you'd even think that,” Hecate shrugged.
“Nevermind,” Hades said, frowning. “Meet me in my throne room. That's an order.”
Hecate was already waiting in the throne room alongside Minos when Nico and Hades returned, only somehow she'd had time to get a mug of tea and a lemon poppy seed muffin. She ate while Hades began speaking.
“Nico is not going back to Camp Half Blood,” Hades said firmly. “But I insist that he become a proper demigod. What little Chiron taught him, he seems to have forgotten.”
Nico turned red, but he couldn't deny it. He still felt like an idiot for freaking out at the manticore.
“I am ordering the two of you to teach him combat and magic so that he can be more efficient in his service to the realm. He owes Nyx and I quite a few magical objects, and I want him to fetch them in ways that bring honor to my name. No more swiping credit cards and getting other people to do your job for you,” Hades said, poking Nico in the back and making Nico turn even redder. That was also a fair callout, but it didn't feel good.
“May I ask why he's not going to camp?” Minos said. “Not that I want him to leave. I'm just wondering.”
“My kids are there and doing fine,” Hecate shrugged. “Nico can stay in my cabin.”
“If Chiron does not see fit to build me my own cabin, he has no business teaching my son anything,” Hades said angrily.
“'Kay, nevermind,” Hecate shrugged, unbothered. “Just a suggestion. I'll teach him what I can.”
“Me too,” Minos said, stepping forward eagerly.
“Watch it,” Hades said. “You will teach him swordsmanship. Nothing else. He's younger than he looks.”
Minos stepped back, smiling sheepishly. Nico rolled his eyes. Of course his dad had to go and ruin that for him, too.
“I completely understand,” Minos said, bowing his head. Hecate stifled another cackle.
Hades went back to his office, and was left alone with his trainers.
“I'll take him first. It's a slow death day,” Minos said to Hecate, who nodded and left. “Well. This was unexpected,” he said, turning to Nico. “But I welcome the opportunity to help prepare you to defend yourself.”
“Thank you,” Nico said. “So, what do I do, exactly? I had sword lessons at camp, but it was a while ago. I wasn't any good.”
Minos scratched his chin, thinking.
“You'll need a sword and shield,” he said. “The good thing about me already being dead is, you can slice me up all you want,” he said, patting his torso. “Nothing can hurt me anymore.”
“I'll have to get used to that idea,” Nico said. “You're not a very ghostly ghost. It'll still feel like I'm stabbing you.”
“Good. It gets you ready for the real thing.”
He brought Nico to the wide porch overlooking Asphodel and asked a skeleton to bring a sword for Nico. He had Nico run through everything he remembered learning at camp, which wasn't much. He'd been ten when he'd studied under Chiron, and now his height and center of gravity had changed. Rusty was an understatement for how ridiculous he probably looked.
In spite of that, Minos was incredibly patient with him. He corrected Nico's form every time in the exact same calm tone of voice, and demonstrated techniques over and over as many times as it took with no sign of growing frustrated with him. Having a ghost teach you things was a great idea, Nico realized. His patience was literally infinite.
Nico's was not. Quite the opposite; he hated every second of training.
“This is stupid,” he said in a moment of frustration. His arm hurt from practicing the various sweeps of the sword. “I can turn invisible and basically teleport myself. I don't have to duel anybody one on one. If I have time to do all these movements, I have time to just leave and come back from another direction.”
“I considered that,” Minos said. “But you need to get the basics mastered before you start doing things your way.”
“I'm just sick of this,” Nico sighed. “How long have we been practicing?”
Minos shrugged. “A few minutes?” He suggested.
Nico checked his phone.
“Try ten hours,” he said, tossing the sword to the ground. “Okay. I need a break.”
Minos agreed to work with him again another time, and Nico went to the kitchen and told the skeletons to make him some ice cream. He felt like he'd earned it. He sat alone at the wooden table in the kitchen and played on his phone while he ate, trying to get the repetitive movements of the sword training out of his head. How he'd held up for ten hours straight, he had no idea, but he was painfully bored of it now.
If Minos had flirted with him a little it might have helped, but he'd been depressingly professional. Nico added 'Scared off my ghost crush' to his already very long list of reasons he resented his father. It wasn't fair; he didn't think he was too young at all. He didn't even know how old he was, and Minos was dead, so who cared if they dated?
Maybe it was stupid to even imagine it. He was well aware that Minos was a shade, and naturally that made things weird. But he was a different sort of shade in Nico's eyes. Not like those other ones, who were forgetful and transparent and parroted the same words over and over again.
Still, although Minos had a special job in the Underworld, he was still very much dead. Was it insane to like a dead guy?
He had such good hair, though. And his skin still glowed like he'd just stepped out of the Cretan sun.
Nico finished his ice cream slowly, scraping the bottom of the bowl and staring off into space. There had been a little red maraschino cherry on top of the small sundae, and when he'd finished the ice cream he gently balanced the cherry on the rim of the bowl. He hated them, so he'd always left them on the side for Bianca whenever they had ice cream together.
He really didn't want to train any more. The initial humiliation of the manticore encounter was wearing off, and his usual combo of stressed-out, guilty, and kind of sad was beginning to return.
Bianca would have killed that manticore, he thought. She'd have loved training to fight it and hunting it down. If she'd been a huntress for longer, she might have chased down incredible monsters all over the planet, having adventures Nico couldn't even imagine. She'd had so much to look forward to. She could have had an incredible life.
A life Nico wasn't a part of. He pushed that thought down into a corner of his mind where resentful, bitter feelings about Bianca were denied and ignored. All that would be fixed once he had her back. She'd see how much he loved her when he gave her a second chance at life.
A toxic mass of anxiety twisted in his gut. What if he succeeded and she still wanted to go back to Artemis? He really, really didn't want to think about that. It couldn't happen. It wouldn't. He wouldn't let it.
To take his mind off it, he pictured Bianca walking through the woods outside Westover with him, searching for signs the manticore had left behind. He imagined them both drawing matching black swords, facing the monster down and fighting side by side. He'd have felt so much braver knowing she was by his side, watching his back, protecting him the way she always had. He'd never get used to feeling so alone in the world.
He drew in a deep breath, trying to stay motivated. It would be easy to give up, but she'd want him to keep trying. It might be a strange and crooked path that led to her resurrection, but he'd walk it.
He felt like, just maybe, it was a sign that his father had asked him to collect manticore venom when it was the first monster she and Nico had ever met. Westover was where things had started to fall apart, where Bianca had started making the choices that would lead to her doom.
Whatever the Fates had in store for him, he knew that getting stronger and serving his father would be a part of it. It felt right.
He stood up, wiping his hands on his pants since he'd gotten ice cream on them. Then he felt a stab of guilt, remembering the pants had been designer and bought specially for him by Persephone. Were there dry cleaners in the Underworld?
He caught sight of something moving out of the corner of his eye and turned around, thinking it might be his father, or Morpheus back for more cereal. Nothing was there. He turned back to the table.
The cherry was gone. He looked around the sides of the bowl, the floor, even picked the bowl up and checked underneath. The cherry was definitely gone.
He stood, frozen in the center of the kitchen, looking around desperately.
“Bianca,” he said, his voice cracking with emotion. “I know you're here. I know you're listening. Why won't you talk to me? Why won't you let me see you?”
The crackling fire in the hearth taunted him, making him think he was hearing things. He raised a hand and put it out with a cloak of shadow, smothering it.
“Bianca!” He said firmly, turning in a slow circle, examining every corner of the room for signs of a shade lurking. There was no response but silence and stillness.
“If you ever loved me, say something,” he said. Still nothing, and it crushed him. Near tears, he spoke again into the darkness.
“I can't go on like this. I can't live without you. I'm trying to bring you back, but it's so hard. I don't know if I can do it. If you want me to kill myself, I will. For you, I will, but I need a sign that it's what you want. I need to know you'll come to Elysium with me and be with Mama. She's waiting for us there. You could be with her now! I don't understand why you're not,” he trailed off.
Nothing again.
“We're the children of Hades,” he said weakly, sitting down at the table and leaning over the empty bowl, staring down into it hopelessly. “Death isn't supposed to be an obstacle for us. Why are you making it one?”
He sat in silence for a long time, staring into the bowl, a typical greek clay vessel with portaiture on the outside. There was also a figure in black painted at the bottom of the bowl. A man in a long, flowing cloak with vast wings. He didn't recognize who it was supposed to be.
Whatever vague indication of Bianca's presence he'd felt, it was gone now. He knew for certain that he was alone. He stood and, in a rage, hurled the bowl into the dead fireplace, shattering it into pieces. He rubbed at his eyes with his hands, pacing the room.
Had she always been this cruel?
He had a vague notion that maybe if he went to sleep, she'd tell him something. Maybe there was something wrong with her. Maybe she couldn't speak to him the way a shade normally would. He hurried to his room, pulled the sheet over himself, turned over and shut his eyes.
It wasn't easy to fall asleep, and he laid there for a long time just stewing in his miserable thoughts, feeling stupid for this desperate and unlikely idea. However, when he did eventually drift off to sleep, he had a dream immediately.
He was standing on a crowded sidewalk, and people were walking through him. That was weird, so he stepped to one side.
He glanced around and recognized the street lined with modest homes and small businesses under a wide blue sky, in the shadow of a familiar mountain. It was Litochoro, yet again. His hopes of seeing Bianca dissipated.
He looked inside the window of the nearest store. Maria Bova was buying tomatoes in a small grocery, humming to herself. He watched her pick through piles of vegetables for a few minutes, but he couldn't come up with any reason for why he was seeing her in his dreams.
He walked up to her. She was wearing a long floral dress with an ugly print that aged her ten years, and her hair was a frizzy mess. She needed a hairstylist, he thought with dismay, and a skincare routine. She didn't seem to be taking good care of herself, and it made him sad.
“Maria,” he said, standing directly behind her.
She turned and looked at him, and for a moment he thought she could see him.
“Morning,” Calliope said, walking through him and standing beside Maria.
“Good morning,” Maria said, watching as Calliope picked through the bin of onions. “May I ask you a question?”
Calliope gave her a disparaging glance. The two women appeared to be roughly the same age and ethnicity, but that was where there similarities ended. Calliope's hair was gleaming, her shining black curls pinned elegantly atop her head. Her sundress was off the shoulder and tailored to fit her perfectly, and she looked like an effortlessly natural beauty. Maria just looked effortless, full stop, and Nico could see her confidence wilting before Calliope's gaze.
Fortunately, he was pretty sure Calliope wasn't judgmental when it came to appearances, and more likely was composing epic poetry in her mind about her neighbor. Still, it was probably an unflattering chunk of verse.
“If it's about that noise complaint, forget it,” Calliope said sharply. “We're not quieting down.”
“My mother did that, not me,” Maria said. “I promise I don't mind your music. And your recitations. And all the arguing at all hours of the day and night. I mean, I don't like it, but I'd certainly never call the police on you.”
“Mhm,” Calliope said, turning away from her.
“Is your sister still offering music lessons?” Maria asked, blurting the question out like she had to get it over with. Nico wondered why she seemed so nervous to inquire about something so mundane.
“I think so,” Calliope said, brightening and giving Maria her full attention. “You play music?”
“I sing,” Maria said. “Opera, but I'm open to trying something new if she prefers.”
“Okay. Come on over tonight,” Calliope said. “We'll see if you've got something to work with.”
“Oh, I can't today,” Maria said. “I have to get the groceries home and start on prep for tonight. But I'll come by another time, if that's alright?”
Calliope shrugged and continued shopping. Maria left the grocery with a flush of excitement on her face.
Nico had no clue what this had to do with him. He stood in the narrow aisles of fruits and veggies, racking his brain for an explanation, when the walls started to shimmer. Suddenly they changed just slightly, and the words on the signs became Not-Greek. They looked like Greek, but he couldn't read them, and nothing made sense anymore. It was like his old dyslexia, which he thought he'd grown out of, had returned and been amplified.
Standing in front of him was Bianca.
“Is this what you wanted?” She asked. The sound leaving her lips was different from the shapes her mouth formed, and the timing seemed off. Nico felt like there was a film over his vision that was altering things. Still, she was there, and her dark brown eyes were looking at him with a distant expression.
Nico's knees nearly buckled with the emotional impact of seeing her again after so long. He felt weightless and dazed. It was really her, looking as she had the last time he'd seen her, wearing the exact same outfit.
Her black hair was pulled into a high ponytail with the same purple scrunchie. She'd found it on a public bathroom floor and kept it, and Nico had teased her about it, pretending it stank, although it hadn't. Gods, he'd been such an annoying kid, he thought, cringing at the memory.
Her shoes were muddy like she'd just been walking around outside. She even had the same pimple on her nose he remembered her having when she'd left him behind.
“Bianca?” He said.
She took a step forward, and his stomach lurched. Something was wrong. The way she held her mouth, her eyes, the way her weight shifted-- there was nothing shadelike about it. More importantly, shades didn't have pimples. They weren't frozen in the last form they'd taken, they were distilled into the purest shape of who they'd been, usually at their prime. The Bianca who'd hidden from him in Asphodel, who'd eaten the cherry from his ice cream, wouldn't look like this one.
“You're not really her,” Nico said. “You've come from my memories. Are you a hallucination? A dream?”
“I'm the dream you asked for,” she said. “The one you prayed for.”
“No you're not!” Nico said, quickly losing control of his temper. “You're not even close to what I wanted. You're fake! What the hell are you playing at, anyway? Are you trying to torture me? Is this some kind of a sick joke? What kind of way is this to treat grieving people? How dare you? Who the fuck do you think you are?”
Bianca's face crumpled, and she started to cry silently.
“I'm sorry,” she whimpered. “I was just trying to help.”
Nico's anger dissipated. It may not have really been his sister, but he still couldn't stand to see her cry.
“Hold on,” he said. “I thought you were Hypnos, but you're not, are you?”
Bianca shook her head.
“I didn't mean to make you cry,” Nico said awkwardly. He stood there scratching his head, unable to come up with the words to make her stop. He had a right to be mad, after all. Didn't he?
“I think there's been a misunderstanding,” he said. “Can I talk to the real you?”
Bianca shook her head and disappeared. Then Nico woke up.
Chapter 17: Dreamworld
Chapter Text
The return to reality was abrupt and disorienting. Nico blinked at the ceiling for a moment, then got up and headed out to the fields of Asphodel, determined to get to the bottom of what had just happened.
Departing from the palace, the Styx flowed on the left, and the Lethe on the right side, forming the borders of Asphodel. He headed right, walking along the riverbank and passing through crowds of shades as he moved towards the source of the waters. The river narrowed as he continued down a riverside path he'd never explored before.
“Alright, move along!” Hades shouted. “Form an orderly, single file line!”
Nico stopped in his tracks as his father loomed in front of him, standing on the banks of the Lethe beneath a gnarled poplar tree. Nico saw that his father stood beside a bone gravel path leading into the misty waters. There was a small group of shades standing before him, waiting in line. Alecto brought up the rear of the group, ensuring no one strayed and escaped back into the amorphous crowd. Escape was a real danger, since once shades joined with the shimmering mass of the other shades in the field, it was not easy to pick them out again amongst the horde.
“What about single file wasn't clear?” Hades barked. “Move it! I haven't got all day!”
He observed closely as the shades straightened into line and the first shade knelt by the waters and took a drink.
“A little more. Good. Next!” Hades said, pulling the newly Lethe'd soul to stand beside him to make room for the next shade.
Nico trembled a little watching them. He remembered vividly the sensation of the water pouring down his throat. Alecto's claws had gripped the back of his neck, and his father had looked on emotionlessly as he and Bianca had choked down the ice cold water of the river of forgetfulness.
Forgetting, at the time, had felt like a profound sense of relief. He'd been wracked with grief over his mother and terrified that another bolt of lightning was coming for him, too. The last memory he'd lost had been that of himself on that gravel riverbank, the mist coming up to his eyes, weeping in gratitude that the bad feelings were gone and he was finally free. After that, presumably his father had put him to sleep, and he'd woken up in the Lotus Casino, blissfully free of painful memory.
It was sort of like cheating death. It granted one with a profound sense that everything was over. Only it hadn't really been over at all.
That was glaringly obvious, he thought, as he awkwardly made eye contact with his Dad. Nothing had been over, just put on pause like a horror movie that was so scary you needed a break halfway through. His life had eventually resumed, and it had all gotten so much worse. Monsters. Chores. His sister dead. Summer camp. All horrors beyond imagining.
“Yes?” Hades said, raising his eyebrows. He supervised the shades closely as they drank, Nico observed, but he was glancing up at Nico curiously in between drinkers.
“Just going to see Hypnos,” Nico shrugged.
“Why?” Hades asked, nudging a shade with his foot to drink a little more.
“How do you know when they're done?” Nico asked, pointing at the shade.
“Their faces become featureless,” Hades said, kneeling down and turning the face of the last shade to drink to look directly at Nico. It now had only the barest suggestion of a face. Hades let go, and directed the shade to stand with the others.
“They're all going to be reborn?” Nico asked.
Hades nodded.
“Did it bother you having to wipe my memories? And Bianca's?” Nico asked. “Because you didn't seem like you gave a crap, the way I remember it.”
“There is no point in grieving the necessary,” Hades said flatly.
Nico rolled his eyes. It wouldn't kill his dad to show an emotion other than anger once in awhile.
“Wow. Father of the year,” Nico drawled. “Speaking of which, I had another question.”
“I await it with dread.”
“Bianca visited me earlier,” Nico said. “I mean, for real. But she wasn't visible, and she didn't talk to me.”
“How did you know she was really there?” Hades asked.
“I was eating ice cream and there was a maraschino cherry on it. I don't like those, so I put it to one side and--”
“She took it. She always did that,” Hades said. “I used to give her mine, too. But she didn't say anything?”
“No. I was wondering if maybe she couldn't. Like there was something stopping her from responding. I thought maybe you'd done something to her so she couldn't talk to me or something--”
“That is enough!” Hades said suddenly, his temper flaring. “Has it ever crossed your mind that the sole reason for my existence isn't to find new and creative ways to torment you? Do you think I have anything to gain from deceiving you about your sister? Do you ever plan to ask me a question that's not in bad faith?”
“Oh, great, here we go again,” Nico said. “I'm so sick of how you always talk to me. I get it already! I'm disobedient, I'm disrespectful, I'm incompetent and rude and a bad son, et cetera, et cetera, et cetera. I wouldn't be surprised if you were hiding Bianca from me. You probably think I don't even deserve to talk to my own sister.”
“Do you?” Hades asked.
“Boss?” Alecto had been hovering behind the line of shades, her eyes flicking back and forth between Nico and Hades as they argued.
“What do you mean, do I?” Nico said, feeling like Hades had just struck him.
“Boss,” Alecto repeated. “The shade is gone!”
Nico saw that she was right, and the last shade who'd been supposed to drink from the river had wandered back into the crowd. Hades began shouting a very long stream of ancient Greek curses. Nico knew there wouldn't be any time to waste. He ran into the crowd and quickly scanned the hundreds of shades that were hovering like human shaped smoke in the air before him. Peering into the haze, he saw one that had something slightly off about him that was hard to articulate.
Nico grabbed the shade firmly and marched him back out to the river.
“Please don't take me back,” the shade murmured, cowering behind Nico and trying to hide from Hades. Nico kept a firm grip on his arm so he couldn't escape again.
The shade whimpered in fear as Hades ordered him back to the riverbank.
“You have nothing to fear from him,” Nico told the shade quietly.
“You're sure this is the one?” Hades asked Nico, inspecting the shade.
“I'm sure,” Nico said. “He just got spooked because we were yelling.”
“Let's get this over with,” Hades sighed. “Drink.”
The shade reluctantly knelt by the water's edge. When he hesitated to drink, Nico knelt beside him.
“You chose this,” he reminded the shade.
“I don't know if I can do it,” the shade said, staring down at the churning mist. “I'm scared it'll feel like dying all over again.”
“What's wrong with that?” Nico asked.
The shade looked at him, his eyes glassy and unfocused. Despite his ghostly and relatively expressionless form, Nico could feel the tension and fear in him.
“Losing my life was one thing,” he said. “Losing my memories means losing me.”
“It doesn't,” Nico reassured him. “I've done this before, and trust me, you won't be that different. Same fatal flaw. Same heroic qualities. Just evolved a little.”
“Really?”
“I promise,” Nico said. “And all your memories are kept on file here. You'll get them back the next time you die. You'll see for yourself I'm right.”
“Will you be here?” He asked. “You'll make sure I get them? You won't forget me?”
Nico laughed.
“I'll be here one way or another, I guess,” he said. “Yeah, I promise. Now quit stalling for time,” Nico said, reaching into the Lethe and cupping a handful of water in his palms. “I know you're not a coward, or you wouldn't be here.”
“No, I'm not,” the shade said, smiling at him. There was almost a sparkle of excitement in his eyes. “Thank you,” he whispered. He drank the water from Nico's hands, three mouthfuls, until Nico could see that he was finished. His face went even more featureless than before, and it was obvious that the inside of his mind was like a blank slate, ready to begin a new life.
Nico stood and handed the shade off to his father.
“See how easy it is not to grab people by the neck and shove their faces into the river?” Nico said, glaring at Alecto.
“Now we're behind schedule by three entire minutes,” Alecto snapped.
“They're people, not cattle,” Nico said. “You're running this place more like a slaughterhouse than an afterlife.”
“And what's wrong with that?” Alecto shot back. “Slaughterhouses are both organized and efficient, and that's precisely what Lord Hades wants!”
“That's enough, Alecto,” Hades said. “I think it's time for your break.”
Alecto stuck her tongue out at Nico and flew away, her dark leathery wings flapping in the darkness.
“Is that what you want?” Nico asked his father.
“With our current volume of traffic, it's the only way to operate without risking falling into complete chaos,” Hades said. “As I said before, there is no point grieving the necessary.”
“But is it what you want?” Nico asked.
Hades sighed heavily. He sighed a lot. Nico thought sometimes that his father looked like he hadn't slept in centuries, and today he looked worse than usual. He recalled that Persephone wasn't around, and Hades had no one to talk to other than him. That was the whole reason Nico was there in the first place, and he felt a pang of guilt that he'd forgotten that, instead becoming absorbed in his own problems.
“I'm sorry I picked a fight with you earlier,” Nico said. “I know Bianca is choosing to avoid me. I don't know why I felt like I had to accuse you of doing it.”
“I hate Demeter down to the marrow of my bones,” Hades said. “I resent her for Persephone's absence half of each year. I know it was Persephone's decision to leave. But it's easier to blame someone else.”
“Yeah,” Nico agreed. “I get that.”
“I know you do,” Hades said. “I understand you better than you understand yourself. It's the only reason I did not disintegrate you for your impudence a long time ago.” To Nico's surprise, Hades ran his hand over Nico's head affectionately. “I think Persephone would have liked to have seen what you did for that shade,” he said. “And I respect you for advocating for him. Perhaps you are not as incompetent as I thought.”
“Thanks,” Nico said quietly. He watched as Hades gathered the shades and led them away into the darkness, taking them to be reborn. Another time, he'd have liked to watch the process and maybe speak to his father a little more, but he had unfinished business with someone.
Nico traveled along the shore of the Lethe for a long time. He was familiar enough with the Underworld to sense the odd, inconsistent time dilation that sometimes happened, and he felt time flowing around him more and more slowly as he approached the source of the Lethe. The water itself even appeared to move more slowly the further he walked into the darkness, reciting a passage from the Aeneid that he'd memorized for this purpose when he'd researched Hypnos earlier.
“Ibant obscuri sola sub nocte per umbram perque domus Ditis vacuas et inania regna,” Nico recited from memory, looking around him. He began to see more more caves appearing in the distance. If he wasn't imagining things, which he might be, the poem was helping. It was growing darker by the second as he traveled closer to the homes of Nyx's many children, and he was beginning to depend more on the sound of the water than on his vision. “Something something, vestibulum ante ipsum primis in faucibus Orci Luctus et ultrices posuere cubilia Curae;” he mumbled. “Okay, that first cave was probably Orcus's. The stalactites on it look like teeth. I forget what comes next. I should have asked Virgil for simpler directions. Senectus, Metus, Fames, Egestas,” he said, pointing at each cave and guessing who might live there. He had no desire to meet any of them, but the number of caves and the numbers of names he remembered seemed to be matching up.
He heard a distinctly familiar cackle come from above him, and he remembered Alecto was on break. For a second he froze, thinking she was cackling in eager anticipation of swooping down and disemboweling him with her talons. Then he heard a man's voice speaking.
“In the criminal justice system, sexually based offenses are considered especially heinous. In New York City, the dedicated detectives who investigate these vicious felonies are members of an elite squad known as the special victims unit. These are their stories.”
A TV show theme song started up, a catchy yet ominous tune that Nico was unfamiliar with.
“We've seen this one,” a harsh woman's voice said.
“Shut up, I haven't,” Alecto responded. One of her sisters must have been with her.
Nico walked quietly so as not to draw their attention. From the acoustics of the TV show, it became apparent that their cave's entrance was in the upper part of the wall, only to be reached by flying.
He passed a few cave mouths, but he realized that Nyx had plenty of winged children and the number of caves might be a lot higher than just those he could see from ground level. He was a little curious about some of them. Old Age sounded okay. Pestilence and Fear, not so much. Still, he knew better than to judge a book by its cover. Most of the gods he'd met in the Underworld had been nice.
Somnus, AKA Hypnos, was supposed to live in the cave next to Thanatos, but that didn't help Nico much. He just knew that Hypnos's cave was the source of the Lethe.
He followed the sound of the water as far as he could, until it disappeared into the mouth of a dark cave with white poppies in front. The water was reduced to a tiny trickle, and the sound was so quiet he almost couldn't hear it.
The cave was pitch black, and he tried to walk as quietly as he possibly could. It was so dark, however, that he tripped on something and fell flat on his face on the ground, knocking something over that clattered to the floor loudly.
He rolled over and got to his feet. There was no sound of anyone waking or moving but him, so he went ahead and turned his phone flashlight on.
The cave was a large, airy dome of black rock with very little furniture. There were thin curtains hanging from the ceiling, and he could see that they'd been embroidered with strange creatures, symbols, and many images of winged children. Nico had knocked over an empty hydria that had been set beside a hole in the ground; that had been what he'd tripped on.
He knelt over the hole. It wasn't very deep, and it was filled with water from the Lethe. The source of the river was just above it; a small fissure in the rock was producing a tiny trickle of water that filled the little cistern in the floor. The water that overflowed their cistern continued out of the cave and eventually formed the Lethe.
Fascinated, Nico dipped his fingers into the water and felt it tingle on his fingers, cold and familiar.
“Thirsty?” Someone whispered.
Nico turned around. A young boy, maybe eight years old, was standing before him. He was pudgy and rosy cheeked with curly brown hair, and he had little black wings sprouting from his back. The boy yawned and rubbed his eyes. He was wrapped in a blanket printed with pictures of Ninja Turtles.
“No,” Nico said. “I'm good, thanks.”
The boy stepped past him and reached into the cistern, slurping the water greedily from his hands. Nico noticed with distaste that he was getting spit in the water when he put his chubby little hands in to scoop up more, but he didn't think there was a point in saying anything. This was obviously where the boy lived, and it was his water well.
“I'm looking for Morpheus,” Nico said. “He's the one that turns into people in dreams, right?”
“I'm Morpheus,” the boy said shyly. “Are you here to hurt me?”
He looked up at Nico with big brown eyes, and tears formed at the corners of them. He blinked his long eyelashes, and Nico's heart melted. He looked like a sad puppy.
“No, of course not,” Nico said quickly. “I actually came to apologize. You were just doing your job and the way I spoke to you was really obnoxious. I'm sorry I made you cry.”
Morpheus reached out and took Nico's hand, which Nico accepted. He tried to ignore how damp it was.
Morpheus led him past more wall hangings, deeper into the cave. Nico brushed one hanging aside and gasped.
White haired Hypnos was sound asleep on a king sized bed in the back of the cave, snoring, and more small winged children in a wide range of ages were lying on the bed beside him, on the floors, and in hammocks. Nico realized that what he had taken for wall hangings were actually just hammocks that had been unpinned from the ceiling; their owners must have been flying around on earth bringing people dreams.
“What--” Nico began to say. Morpheus waved his hand, and Nico's vision blacked out.
Suddenly, he was back in Hypnos's cave, and everything looked the way it had a minute ago. He took a step and turned around, however, and where the dark entrance to the cave had been, now there was sunlight and green grass, and a grove of poplar trees.
Stepping out into the light, he saw that the trees were more green and vibrant than any trees he'd ever seen, and the leaves rustling in the wind made sounds like soft music. There were enormous apples hanging from the tree branches, bright red and shining.
“My Papa made this place for us,” Morpheus said. “When he was teaching us to craft dreams. Now it's where we come to talk. We don't talk in the sleeping chamber,” he admonished Nico with a stern look.
“My bad,” Nico said.
“He said you wanted to ask me something,” Morpheus said.
“That's right,” Nico said, remembering his original purpose for his interest in Morpheus. “It's not really a big deal, but I've been having these dreams.” Nico explained his visions of Maria Bova in Litochoro.
“Those aren't dreams,” Morpheus said.
“Oh.”
“It must be a vision of some kind, because I didn't send any dream other than the one with your sister and the one we're in now. Papa told me he didn't send you any either. He doesn't do much lately,” he said, looking a little sad. “He said he has to delegate to me, because I'm the oldest.”
“That's a lot of responsibility,” Nico said.
“I don't mind appearing in dreams and sending messages,” Morpheus said, brightening. “Sometimes I get to take the shape of a god and give an ominous warning. That's always interesting. But I like taking the forms of people's relatives the most. Usually I get hugs, and I like hugs. Most people don't yell like you,” he added.
“So you like your job?” Nico asked.
“Yes,” Morpheus said, taking a seat cross-legged on the ground, where Nico joined him. “I like my job, but lately I barely have time to do it. My siblings need to be supervised, and they don't like me telling them what to do. They always say, 'You're not Papa, you can't tell me what to do!' But if I don't tell them, who will? Papa's too busy, and I'm the oldest,” he sighed.
Nico had a gut wrenching vision of himself screaming at Bianca that she wasn't his mom on more than one occasion. He'd been such a brat sometimes, and it made him sick to think about it.
“What happened to make your papa so busy?” He asked. “Is Hades giving him more work? He mentioned something about that.”
“I'm not sure,” Morpheus said. “It's like that for everyone these days. We're working faster and faster, but it seems like more and more people keep needing dreams, and getting old, and sick, and dying, all that stuff.”
“You mean things are harder for all of the children of Nyx. As well as her grandkids,” Nico said, gesturing at Morpheus.
“Yes,” Morpheus said, flopping over onto his side and rolling over on the grass. He sighed heavily, toying with a tiny white poppy that had sprouted in the grass before his eyes. “We're all tired. The oneiroi are always tired, but this is different,” he said. “You know?”
“I'll ask my father about it. Maybe he can give your papa more time off to help you with stuff,” Nico said.
“We don't need help with the dreams,” Morpheus said. “I just wish we could spend time together. I miss weaving dreamscapes with him. And it would be nice if my Mama could visit. The last time she came to see us we were working too much and she got upset. She said Aphrodite doesn't give her enough PTO to waste it.”
“She works for Aphrodite?”
Morpheus nodded.
“Do you know what PTO means? I didn't want to ask while she was yelling.”
“No clue.”
“Oh. Okay.”
“You and your papa seem close,” Nico observed.
“Oh, the closest,” Morpheus said. “Are you close with yours?”
“Not really.”
“Lord Hades scares me. Are you scared of him?”
“No,” Nico said. “What's the worst he can do, kill me? That would inconvenience him more than it would me.”
“Is that so?” Morpheus asked skeptically.
“I think we both want to get along better,” Nico said. “But you know how he is.”
Morpheus gave him a look. He might have the appearance of a child, but that look in his eyes was thousands of years old. Nico knew Morpheus saw right through his excuses.
“Okay, maybe it's not all him,” Nico sighed. “I've got an attitude problem. I can admit that. But I have my reasons,” he added weakly.
“If you could work things out with him, he might help my Papa,” Morpheus said. “If you're really sorry for yelling at me, you'll try.”
“I will,” Nico said.
“In the meantime I'll ask my aunts and uncles about your visions,” Morpheus said. “It is very odd that you only experience them while sleeping. Normally visions can come at any time.”
“Strange,” Nico murmured.
Nico lay back on the grass beside Morpheus, staring at the sky. He reached up and pointed at a cloud.
“The clouds aren't moving,” he said. As he said it, the cloud twitched.
Morpheus rolled onto his back and watched.
“Point at it again,” he said.
As Nico lifted his finger and pointed, the cloud shifted further, then shuddered and morphed into a square shape. He withdrew his hand, and the cloud popped back into its normal shape.
“One more time,” Morpheus said.
Nico waved his hand at it again. The cloud began to move to the right.
“Did I do that?” Nico asked.
“Yes,” Morpheus said. “Are you sure you're not one of my brothers?”
Nico and Morpheus talked for a long time about dreams. Morpheus helped him practice altering the dreamscape, and it was a fascinating experience, although Nico was only able to change very small details with great effort. If he worked hard enough at his new ability, maybe one day he'd be able to fall asleep and live in a paradise of his own creation every night.
Eventually Morpheus said he had to return to work. Nico knew he needed to continue his training, so he went directly to Hecate's cave.
Chapter 18: Demigod Training
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
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“Hello?” Nico called out. He'd shadow traveled to the same cave that his father had brought him to earlier. He knew it was the same cave, because the big black cauldron was sitting front and center, but Hecate was nowhere to be seen.
He walked toward the center of the cave where the enormous cauldron sat on a platform and peeked into it curiously. He saw eyeballs, toad legs, butterfly wings, and mushrooms floating inside. It was pretty much what he'd expected from the goddess of witchcraft.
Whatever she was cooking, it smelled delicious, but he didn't dare taste it. He wasn't in the right headspace to cope with being turned into a newt. He was worried he'd enjoy it too much, crawl into a mossy nook and live out his days eating slugs. It sounded better than what he was currently dealing with.
He walked past the cauldron and went deeper into the cave, calling her name to no answer. His gut twisted with anxiety over the thought of getting accused of trespassing, and he called her name loudly one more time.
“Back here!” He heard her call in response.
Relieved, he hurried over to the far side of the cave. As he passed, he noticed she had nooks carved into the walls for activities other than witchcraft. There was a sitting area with couches, a bedroom with a four poster bed with black lace curtains draped around it, and an enormous bathtub made of gleaming copper. A cursory glance at the bathtub revealed that it was also full of bubbling magical liquid, so it seemed that magical projects were very much her focus at the moment.
As he walked he also registered that the place was a mess. The cave floor was sticky, there was bat poop piled against the walls, there seemed to be a layer of dog hair stuck to everything, including his pants. He almost tripped over a giant quartz crystal that was growing out of the floor from a dangerous angle, cursing and rubbing his ankle.
She was in the furthest nook, where a wooden worktable was covered with metal scraps, gemstones, crystals and leather strips. Two chunky black labs were lying at her feet; they both ran up to greet Nico, snuffling at his pockets looking for treats.
Hecate was bent over her work, her multi-colored hair pulled out of her face in a messy bun. It looked like she was carving tiny sigils into small pieces of wood the size of human fingers.
“Come sit with me,” she said, patting the bench next to her. “I'm making protective amulets. Watch and learn.”
That was all the instruction he got from her for the next few hours. She was a hands on teacher, and she demonstrated only once before she began guiding his hands in carving the symbols on the wood. He painted evil eyes on beads, etched images onto cameo stones, and engraved Latin curses into thin sheets of metal. Finally she had him carefully wrap wire around crystals that were then put in smelly jars to be infused with herbal concoctions.
It was interesting work, and he helped her for quite a while before it occurred to him to ask how this was supposed to help with the manticore he was training to fight.
“Oh, I don't know,” was Hecate's answer. “I was just behind on my to-do list. I promise tokens like these in exchange for potion ingredients. I have an order to finish for Artemis; she's my biggest supplier of monster parts. Tell you what, you help me finish her order, and I'll teach you some offensive spells.”
“Okay,” Nico said. Hecate brought out a large bar of silver from her pocket and waved her hand, splitting it into two pieces and shaping them into crescent moons. Nico recognized what they would become immediately.
“Those are the lunula amulets the huntresses wear,” he said.
“Yeah, she's planning on at least two new girls this year,” Hecate said, adding the finishing touches to the little miniature moons.
Nico stared at them, biting the inside of his mouth. His sister had worn one of those necklaces. If it had been meant to protect her, it hadn't worked.
“What exactly do these necklaces do?” He asked.
“I'm not sure. Artemis puts the spells on them herself,” Hecate said. “I think it's either a tracking device or something to sustain their immortality. Maybe both. She could make the amulets on her own, but she says I give them a particular glow,” Hecate said proudly.
“You two are friends?”
“We're the best of best friends,” Hecate said.
Nico filed that information away and focused on the Lunula necklaces. His job was just to polish them, but Hecate made him polish until his hands hurt. Apparently that special glow was just elbow grease and tears, because it took a long time to get them shining to her standards.
She added the finishing touches, and the necklaces were ready to infuse. She popped them each into jars of a glowing silver substance she called liquid moonlight and left them to soak.
“Is it weird that I feel really exhausted,” he said, shaking his hands.
“Not at all. You're not used to making magical objects,” Hecate said. “Your magical abilities aren't bad. You sure you're not one of my kids?” She said, nudging him.
“I know you're joking, but it's funny you say that,” Nico said. “Morpheus asked me earlier whether I was one of Hypnos' kids. It turns out I can manipulate dreams a little.”
She didn't seem the least bit surprised.
“Hades wouldn't keep you around if you weren't good for anything,” she said. “Now comes the hard part.”
“Oh. I was hoping that was the hard part.”
She gave him an armload of books and scrolls and sent him to the living room to study. He read so many ancient Greek spells and incantations that his brain hurt. One of the scrolls had been written on in bright red ink across the top, “Medea's notes, do not touch!” He set that one aside nervously.
He set the stack down after many hours of painfully confusing reading.
“Hecate, do you mind if I take a break?” He called out. She agreed, waving him away, and Nico shadow traveled back to the palace.
He sat in his room for a while, not physically tired enough to sleep, but mentally exhausted from reading for hours on end. He shut his eyes in the dark and tried to clear the spells and incantations out of his brain. It was nearly impossible. He still had curses running through his mind when he took out his phone and texted Isis that he was learning magic. They texted back and forth for a while about the things he was learning, and he found chatting with her to be an excelledn distraction. She had a lot of good things to say about Hecate.
He was beginning to draw a map of connections in his mind between the various goddesses he'd gotten to know. Persephone had asked Nyx and Hecate to help with reviving him from his coma when he'd overdosed on ambrosia. Nyx was sort of like Persephone's boss, and Hecate her coworker. They were probably friends, too. In addtion to that, Isis had once been close with Persephone and she seemed to really like Hecate. And Artemis was definitely Hecate's best friend. Since all of the dark magical goddesses seemed to like him-- it was probably 99% pity, but he could live with that-- was it possible he'd have some pull with Artemis too?
It seemed as though, inadvertently, he'd made all the right connections to gain her attention. He knew she hated men, but if all of her female friends were on his side, she might cut him some slack.
She had also taken responsibility for Bianca and then immediately let her get killed. So, you know, there was that. If she felt an ounce of duty toward the young girls she brought into her fold, that ought to mean something to her.
Realistically, only an Olympian like Artemis would be willing to help him defy his father and resurrect Bianca. Hecate, Nyx, and Persephone would feel bound by their duty to the Underworld, but Artemis wouldn't have the same limitations. It had seemed an unlikely path before, but now a new possibility began to form in his mind.
Nico knew his break could be as short as five minutes or as long as five years; it would all be the same to Hecate. He decided to mull things over and walk around for a while in order to work on formulating the new plan. He hadn't taken a shower since his training with Minos, which was sort of gross if you thought about it. Even though the Underworld was icy cold and he hadn't sweat a drop, that many hours of training ought to do something to you. He decided to take a shower, thinking that hopefully he'd come up with ideas for approaching Artemis; showers were good for inspiration that way.
He walked over to the bathroom and opened the door. His dad was sitting in the large steaming tub in the center of the room.
“Nevermind,” Nico said, immediately spinning around and trying to leave.
“Not so fast,” Hades said. “Hypnos, take a break. Nico, you read.”
Hypnos ran out of the bathroom so fast he almost knocked Nico over in his rush to get out the door. Nico wondered how long he'd been stuck there. He walked over to the bench by the wall where Hypnos had been sitting, a copy of the Divine Comedy sitting open where he'd left it. There was even more Cheeto dust on it than last time.
“He's turning this thing orange,” Nico said in disgust, lifting the book. “Have some respect for literature. Geez.”
“He makes terrible smacking sounds when he eats as well,” Hades said, sinking lower into the dark water of the pool. “Awful.”
Nico turned the pages.
“But you put up with him anyway. You're that lonely.” Nico stated.
Hades didn't respond. Nico thought guiltily of what Persephone had asked of him, and of Morpheus's request for more time with his dad.
“You can give Hypnos a break,” Nico said reluctantly. “I'll read to you. I mean, like, whenever.”
“Really?” Hades asked, surprised.
“I do a better job anyway, you said.” Nico opened the book and started from the last page with orange fingerprints in it.
He wasn't sure how long he read for, but eventually Hades waved at him to stop. Nico glanced up and noticed his dad had redressed and was preparing to leave; he'd been too engrossed in reading to notice. A skeleton had come in at some point and was standing beside the tub with an armful of monogrammed towels and a pile of clothes.
“I must return to work,” his father said. “But... No, never mind,” he said, leaving in a hurry.
Nico laughed a little bit after his dad had left the room. He knew his dad was happy Nico had done something nice for him without complaining. He was such an awkward dude. Nico didn't necessarily regret the offer to read to him more often, but he harbored a secret hope that he could get his dad into podcasts instead. Then he'd be off the hook, and everyone would be happy.
He almost took a shower like he'd planned to, but then he looked at the bathtubs curiously. It was similar to a Roman bath system with multiple different tubs of varying shapes and temperatures, only they were all in the same room and appeared to feed from different Underworld water sources. That was part of its appeal to Nico-- he was curious what properties the different water might have. Maybe one of them could manticore-proof him.
The one his dad had been in was the hottest. He thought it probably was heated from the flaming river Phlegethon, because it had a sulfuric, smoky smell to it. He touched a finger to the surface and drew it back in shock at the heat. He went to another and found it was covered in ice. He cracked a hole in it and swished his hand around. That one felt non-lethal, and he knew some Ares campers at Camp Half Blood had sworn by ice baths in preparation for battle. He went ahead and jumped in.
It was icy cold, obviously, but tolerable since he was used to the cold of the Underworld already. He stood for a second, breathing through the cold, and went pleasantly numb after a moment.
He gently reached a hand over to the next pool and felt that it was the perfect medium-warm temperature, so he clambered up out of the ice bath and stood, preparing to jump into the next one.
That was a huge mistake, because the pool was full of blood. He reeled back quickly, but he slipped on the slick tile floor and slid directly into the blood pool, submerging immediately.
Immersed in slimy hot blood, he grabbed for the edge of the tub and felt his hands slipping and sliding on the tile, unable to get a good hold to pull himself out right away. He sat in the tub for a second and calmed himself down. It was gross, but it wasn't doing any harm to him. He should be relieved it wasn't Lethe or Styx water, which would have had far worse outcomes than just feeling icky.
He was determined to assume it was animal blood, because the alternative was too terrible to think of. He finally dragged himself out successful, finding it was easier when he wasn't in a panicked scramble to escape.
Feeling slimy and really stupid, he took a normal shower like a normal person. The whole time he showered, the skeleton stared at him with his empty eye sockets. He was pretty sure the skeleton was judging him.
After his very weird shower experiences, he went and found Minos at the judge's stand. Minos rose and went over to him eagerly.
“Back for more training?” He asked, smiling. His teeth were brilliantly white, and Nico returned his smile without hesitation.
“If you can take a break from work, I'd like that,” Nico said.
This time, Minos took him up to the palace garden, where Persephone attempted her plant related experiments. Poplars, poppies, and pomegranates appeared to be thriving, but that was it. A dead rosebush sat in the center of the garden, abandoned and sad looking.
“I know your heart isn't in this,” Minos said, giving him a sword and taking one up himself. “But it's good for you to learn anyway. It expands your skill set.”
“How do you know my heart isn't in it?” Nico asked, moving into position across from him to practive blocking attacks.
“I'm a judge,” Minos said. “It's my job to read hearts. I don't miss much.”
That was humbling. Nico was sure it was obvious he had a crush, but he realized it was probably really, really obvious to the ancient king, moreso than he'd thought. Maybe it had been from the beginning.
Minos began running through the same drills and sparring they'd done before.
“I wish you could teach me how to read people,” Nico said. “I suck at it.”
Minos laughed, which let Nico know he agreed with that evaluation.
“I would if I could,” Minos said. “But it came from experience. Something you don't have yet.”
“You must know some tips or something,” Nico said.
“Maybe,” Minos said. “One thing that helps is asking questions. What do they most want? And what is their fatal flaw? Those two things are always in conflict.”
“Can you give an example?” Nico asked, curious.
“Me, for example,” Minos said. “I wanted my father to reward me with immortality. When I knew I was close to achieving it, I grew cocky and offended Poseidon. In scrambling to regain my honor, I made things worse. My hubris led to my downfall.”
“I guess that makes sense.”
“Many demigods want their parents' approval above all else, but battle with hubris as they grow in strength,” Minos said. “It's because they feel so much more powerful than normal humans, and yet so much weaker than a god. You're pulled in two different directions.”
“I don't have that problem at all,” Nico said. “I don't care what my dad thinks of me. And I feel like I'm a giant loser most of the time, so hubris isn't a thing.”
“You're far from a giant loser,” Minos said. “I also don't think you're that indifferent to your father's opinions. But I agree that it isn't your primary motivation.”
“So you already know what my fatal flaw is? What is it?”
“Ahem,” Hades said, suddenly appearing in the doorway. “I hear too much talking and not enough clanging.” His arms were folded, and his brows were drawn down in an expression of disapproval.
“Sorry, Lord Hades,” Minos said. “I'll try harder to keep him on task.”
Hades stood and observed Nico's practice for a while, and the more he watched, the more skeptical he appeared.
“Unimpressive,” he said. “Work harder.”
Then he left.
Nico and Minos exchanged looks of relief when he'd gone.
“He gave me a very stern lecture about you after our last practice,” Minos said.
“Again?” Nico said, horrified. “I'm sorry. I don't know why he's like that.”
“He thinks I'm trying to gain your trust in order to manipulate you into hunting down Daedalus for me,” Minos said.
“Daedalus? You've never even mentioned him,” Nico said.
“He's my arch nemesis,” Minos said. “Or, he was. But I told Hades, even if I intended to do that, there would be no point. If you can't even face a manticore, Daedulus would be hopelessly beyond your capability. Just being honest,” he shrugged.
Nico sighed.
“True,” he said. “But how is Daedalus still alive? That shouldn't be possible.”
“I don't know, but he's never shown up here. Not even once,” Minos said. “I've tried to get Hades or Thanatos to hunt for him, but they don't have time.”
“If I hear anything about him, I'll let you know,” Nico said. “But I wouldn't get your hopes up.”
“He'll be found eventually,” Minos said. “I'll bide. Anyway, regardless of the validity of his reasons, your father is trying to protect you. He doesn't trust me. I respect that, even if I wish it were otherwise.”
“I'm old enough to decide who to trust,” Nico said stubbornly. He was pretty sure he was, anyway. He didn't actually know how old he was, but that was irrelevant.
“You did say earlier that you suck at reading people,” Minos said.
“Well, yeah, but,” Nico stammered. “You're nice. I like you,” he said, trying to will himself not to blush and failing miserably.
“I like you too,” Minos said. “But this is the kind of thing I have been ordered not to talk to you about, and I must obey Lord Hades. Let's focus on training from now on, shall we?”
Nico tried to engage him a couple more times, but Minos was, once again, strictly professional with him. He hated it, but there was nothing he could do.
Nico, again, grew really sick and tired of the practicing, but he tried to push through, because he knew he would be forced to keep doing it until he'd made up for what he'd missed by not going to camp. The campers weren't particularly disciplined, so that was a reasonable goal and shouldn't take long, but even so, it grated on him.
Minos tried to offset his frustration by switching the weapons to spears and showing him an entirely new set of moves, but Nico still felt understimulated and short-tempered. He didn't want to act like a brat in front of Minos, but his responses got snippier and his energy waned.
“There,” Minos said, setting down his spear. “I think it's time for a break. The only thing more important than practicing, after all, is not practicing.”
“Not practicing?” Nico said, dropping the spear and backing away from it like it was covered in spiders. He was really ready to be done. “What does that mean?”
“It means it's important to take breaks.”
“Oh.”
“I didn't come up with that,” Minos said. “My son's trainer said it to me once. I never forgot it.” He sighed. “Tychon. He was a wise man. He tried to help me when...” He trailed off, remembering.
“When?” Nico prompted, excited to get to talk about something interesting once more, and not stupid instructions on how to hold a spear. There were endless opportunities to make spear talk flirtatious, but Minos had missed all of them.
“My son Androgeos was killed in a bullfight,” Minos said flatly. “I didn't handle it well and I took it out on Tychon, saying he hadn't trained him well enough. It was unfair. Tychon loved Androgeos far more than I did. He trained him for the Panathenaic games, and he won.”
“That's impressive,” Nico said. He hadn't really intended to make Minos open up about his dead son, but Minos was a shade, so it wasn't as awkward discussing it with someone whose emotions had been blunted by death, as well as thousands of years of distance.
“We went to watch him compete at the games as a family,” Minos said. “Cheering for him in the stands and watching him win was probably one of our last good times together before things started falling apart. Before I started falling apart, I guess.”
“So it was your son's death that caused you to start changing for the worse?”
“I wish I could blame it on him, but no,” Minos said. “My hubris was always a part of me, and there were other factors besides his death. It's just easier to fake being a good person when your life is going well.”
“You weren't faking,” Nico said. “This is you. Who you always were,” he said.
“I know,” Minos said. “I didn't phrase that well. I don't actually believe in good and bad people. I simply judge based on actions,” he clarified. “Most souls, like mine, are benign and even pleasant to deal with. You'd be surprised how many of the sweetest shades did terrible things in the world of the living. Circumstances can corrupt even the purest. Few are strong enough to overcome their context. Those that do, end up in Elysium.”
“Is that how you decide who goes where?” Nico asked. “I've been wondering.”
“That's one factor,” Minos said. “It's difficult to articulate my decision process. I won't bore you with it. You should rest, and I ought to return to my post. Really rest this time,” he added. “You're still alive. It's important that you take care of yourself.”
Nico was disappointed not to keep talking about something he found so interesting, but he decided to obey his trainer and go take a nap. This time, there were no dreams, just a deep sleep.
He awoke to a soft shuffling noise. He sat up, and saw that Hades had quietly slipped into his room and was standing by his bookshelf.
“Papa?” He asked, yawning. “What are you doing in here?”
Hades looked unhappy at being caught.
“I'm setting something on your shelf, and then I'm leaving,” he said. “Goodbye.”
“What are you setting on the shelf?” Nico asked before Hades could disappear again.
Hades frowned and handed Nico three small photographs. They were slightly worn black and white photographs of Maria di Angelo.
Nico gasped.
“You've had these all this time?” He asked, flipping through them. He'd seen them before, recognizing one from his nonna's family photo wall at her house and the other two from an old photo album of his mom's.
“I had Thanatos steal them from your grandmother's house when he collected her soul back in the sixties,” Hades said. “On a whim. I have no use for them, so you may as well keep them.”
“You can see Mama anytime in Elysium,” Nico said, seeing through him. “Did you take these for Bianca and I? Were you going to give them to us?”
“Not necessarily,” Hades said. “I may have used them as leverage in order to get you to do something. I have enough leverage over you anyway, now, so they aren't useful any longer.”
“Mhm,” Nico said, smiling and looking at the photos again.
“I'm not doing this to be nice,” Hades said. “I wouldn't reward you for nothing. It's bad parenting. I just want these somewhere Persephone won't find them and ask questions.”
“Don't worry,” Nico said. “I'd never accuse you of being nice.”
“Good,” Hades said. “Fine. I'm done speaking with you. Go back to sleep.”
Nico smiled and looked at the photos fondly, remembering better days, and went back to sleep as he was told.
When he awoke, he had a feeling his father wanted him to read again, and he found him in the baths and read to him once more. He pitched the podcast idea, but Hades wasn't interested. He trained with Minos again, and once again was frustrated by his total refusal to flirt. He went and helped Hecate with potions, and he exhausted himself attempting to memorize spells in Ancient Greek, and he stared at the lunula necklaces on the shelf and he thought about Bianca. He was doing it for her, he told himself. All of this work was for her sake, and it was going to pay off. He had to believe that.
The routine repeated itself over and over, and sometimes he ate and slept and bathed, but there was no sense of time passing until one day, he walked into the palace and felt that something had changed.
He looked around, but his father was nowhere to be seen. The cold black walls echoed with his footsteps, and he peered around every corner, looking for the source of the different-ness.
“Nico?” A familiar voice called out.
Notes:
The blood pool that Nico falls into was my little Zagreus reference for the day, since he has to climb out of a blood pool every time you die in the game. I'm so excited for Hades 2 it's not even funny. :)
Nico says in this chapter that he doesn't know how old he is anymore. Yeah, I don't know either. I don't even have a number in my head, and I'm the one writing this... That's very intentional. Since Nico doesn't know, neither do we. I hope your mental guesstimate will slowly increase as Nico grows in his skills, confidence, and maturity over the course of the story.
Chapter 19: Stygian Iron
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He turned around and saw Persephone with her arms outstretched, and he ran to meet her.
She smelled like sunlight and flowers and happiness. She squeezed him so tightly that he thought his ribs would crack, and it was literally the best thing ever. She looked resplendent in a deep red dress the color of pomegranates, with her dark hair piled on top of her head and secured with a matching red ribbon and pins topped with rubies. She was like a brilliant explosion of rich color in the greyscale world Nico had inhabited for so many months, and it filled him with joy just to behold her.
“I thought about you every day while I was on the surface,” she said, brushing his hair back from his face and kissing both his cheeks. “I want to hear everything you've been doing. Your father says you've been training? How is your chores list going? Have you made any progress on helping your sister?”
She and Nico sat in the dining room and talked for what felt like mere moments, although Nico guessed it was probably a very long stretch of time that simply passed unheeded. He told her everything, holding nothing back, even telling her about Minos and how he felt about him. He didn't hesitate, he just spilled everything that was in his heart, the way he always had with Bianca.
“But Papa is really against us even getting to know each other, let alone, you know,” Nico admitted. “Maybe I'm just being stupid.”
“You are very young,” she said, patting his hand. “But... I'll talk to him. We'll see.”
“You don't think it's weird that I have a crush on a ghost?” Nico asked.
“Minos isn't a normal ghost,” she said. “He came very close to becoming a god once. Having fallen short of that, he's still a valued member of our team. I'm no more surprised at your liking him than I would be if you said you liked Hypnos or Hecate.”
“Or Thanatos,” Nico said.
“That's how I know you haven't met Thanatos,” she said. “He doesn't like anyone.”
“No, I haven't met him,” Nico said. “His name just popped into my head for some reason.”
“So is this your first crush?” She asked eagerly. “I find that so precious.”
“Maybe my first adult crush,” Nico admitted. “I liked this boy back at Westover and had a meltdown because I realized I was gay. I told Bianca everything, and she had to console me. She was the best,” he sighed, his heart aching with love for his sister.
“Why did she have to console you? Isn't it normal for boys to have crushes on each other at that age?” Persephone asked.
“I guess it is, but at the time I felt like a freak of nature. On the surface, people sometimes have messed up opinions about that stuff,” Nico said. “But nobody down here even knows about that, so I guess it doesn't matter now. Um, anyway. Enough about me. How were spring and summer? I want to know what it was like, since I missed it this year.”
He listened to her talk for hours, but he wouldn't have minded if she talked for days. She described for him in rich detail the blossoms on the cherry trees in Kyoto, the vibrant colors of the tulips in the Netherlands, the intoxicating scent of the lavender fields of Provence, and the bountiful harvests that her fields had yielded all over the world. She went on and on, and Nico lost himself in listening to her speak, seeing everything in his mind's eye like he'd been there. The only reason they stopped talking was because his father swept in.
“Persephone,” he said gently, taking his wife's hand. “The boy has nothing of interest to share with you; I think you've talked more than enough. You've only just gotten back after so long, and already you've left me by myself again. Have I not spent enough time alone these past six months?”
“If you're lonely, sit and talk with us,” Persephone said. “Nico is very interesting if you give him a chance. And he's been here to keep you company, you haven't been alone like usual. I thought I told you to spend time with him. Did you not?” She asked suspiciously.
“He's hardly a replacement for you. Nico, go and occupy yourself elsewhere for a few hours,” Hades said, grabbing Persephone by the waist and pulling her back towards their bedroom.
Nico stood and began to shadow travel away, thinking that he couldn't possibly get out of the palace fast enough, if he was reading the room correctly. But Persephone grabbed his wrist and stopped him from leaving.
“No,” she said to Hades firmly. “I want the three of us to talk. I insist.”
Hades sat at the table, looking slightly embarrassed at his failure to monopolize his wife's attention. If Nico wasn't mistaken, he thought his father might have been a little jealous of him.
Nico refrained from rolling his eyes. Persephone's interest in Nico was surely just a passing whim. The least his father could do was let him enjoy it while it lasted.
“What sort of abilities do you have in combat? And outside of it?” Persephone asked, suddenly growing serious. “You mentioned the manticore-- Do you feel ready to face it again?”
“Um, yeah. I'm not going to embarrass myself again like before,” Nico said. “That was just because I was rusty, I think. I can shadow travel and summon skeletons and turn invisible with these,” he said, tapping his earrings. “Minos says I should be fine on defense, so long as I react quickly.”
“Your father texted me about your earrings. I'm thrilled you have them,” she smiled, her warm brown eyes glowing with pride. “I trust you to use them responsibly. But what about offense?”
“I'm working on it,” he said. “I'm not a natural with the sword or spear. It still feels awkward, but I think I'm making progress.”
“And your magic?”
“I haven't been able to do anything impressive. I've studied really hard, but Hecate says it's about willpower, and it's not going to be obvious whether my work has paid off until I'm using it in a real world scenario.”
“That's true,” Persephone said. “But you feel comfortable with the incantations themselves? You'll remember in your time of need?”
“Yes. I practice all the time. I'm good at memorization.”
“That is true,” Hades said. “I often notice him reading certain passages of the Divine Comedy aloud without looking at the page. I have not yet heard an error.”
Persephone's eyes lit up.
“You're reading together! That's wonderful news,” she said. “And you haven't been arguing anymore?”
Nico and Hades both refrained from answering. She laughed.
“Alright, maybe that was a little optimistic. Still. I'm proud of you both for making the effort, as I'd asked you to. Nico, I think you've earned a little gift. Something to make your sword practice easier. Perhaps more intuitive?”
“You don't mean... Persephone,” Hades said. “He's got the earrings already. He's more well outfitted than many demigods with those alone.”
“Don't be so conservative,” Persephone chided him. “What are you holding back for? He's the only child you have left. Let's lavish gifts on him while he yet lives, for Olympus' sake! Nico, grab your practice sword.”
When Nico had fetched the sword and returned, she took Hades' hand and beckoned for Nico to follow. The three of them marched down to the banks of the Styx, the shades of Asphodel stepping aside and bowing to make way for her. Nico smiled to himself; he'd only ever seen them shrink from Hades. They must have loved Persephone just as much as he did.
The three judges on the dais also bowed respectfully to their Queen when she arrived, and she greeted each of them individually.
While she was chatting with them, Hades was drawing up metal from the earth, using the practice sword as a guide to form the new metal into the same shape. Eventually the metal of the practice sword fell away and was replaced by the new ore.
“I've been saving this,” Hades said. “Don't make me regret giving it to you.”
“What was that, my love?” Persephone asked, coming up behind him and putting a hand on his back.
“Nothing, dear,” Hades muttered.
Nico watched in rapt silence as Hades forged the sword in his hand. It wasn't a fast process, although he was probably the only one who noticed it taking a while. Persephone hummed happily over Hades' shoulder, watching her husband work with a pleased smile on her face.
“How do you do that?” Nico asked eventually, seeing the metal folding over itself and then flattening out, the pattern repeating again and again. “Make it so flexible and smooth?”
“Practice,” Hades muttered.
Nico studied what he was doing carefully. Then he glanced at the discarded metal on the ground.
“This is just scrap, right?”
“Mhm,” Hades muttered. “Stop distracting me.”
Nico reached out and picked up the metal, flattening it out in his hand. That wasn't so hard. Mashing it flat was easy, it was just force. Then he fiddled with it for a few minutes until it was twisted over itself, forming a corkscrew. He bent it into the shape of a bracelet and put it in his pocket, then went back to watching his father.
Hades was wrapping up the forging process, if it could be called that.
“Nico,” he said, holding out the hilt of the sword, now shining in jet black.
“Be careful,” Persephone said. “Don't touch the blade.”
Hades checked that Nico was gripping the hilt firmly, then pointed at the water of the Styx.
“I just dip it in?” Nico asked.
“Hurry,” Hades said, nudging him toward the water.
Nico stared down at the familiar dark, churning water for a second, then submerged most of the blade in, kneeling on the bone gravel shore. The water was moving up and down and splashing the edges of his shoes; he tried to shuffle backwards.
Hades put a hand on his back, preventing him from retreating. He put his other hand overtop Nico's on the sword hilt, and shoved Nico's hands under the water.
Nico gasped the second the water splashed his hands, but Hades didn't let him pull back. It felt like burning ice, like a deep ache of cold, even more intense than the manticore venom, and worse because the movement of the water meant the sensation came and went unexpectedly.
He gritted his teeth and tried to ignore it. It was horrible pain, but it must be harmless, or Persephone would have protested by now. After a moment, the pain became familiar, and he started to be okay with it. It was just the Styx, after all, and he was a child of the Underworld. It caused a lot of pain, but it was just powerful, not dangerous. It felt as though the Styx itself were reassuring him it was okay with what he was doing, and it was trying not to hurt him too badly.
Finally, Hades pulled him back, and the pain in his hands stopped. In his hands was a Stygian iron blade, black as a nightmare.
“Stygian iron,” Hades said. “It destroys the essence of things. This is no Celestial bronze. It will obliterate whatever it touches. It is meant for Underworld purposes, for fights where death is not victory enough.”
Nico held it away from himself, his eyes growing wide.
“You can touch it, you've earned it from the river,” Hades scoffed. “Go on.”
Nico touched the blade and felt it sucking at the essence of his soul, trying to pull him somewhere. It seemed to stop when it realized who he was.
“I'm so proud of you, darling,” Persephone said, kissing his cheek. A crown of black poppies appeared on top of her head. “Ah,” she said, reaching out and touching them. “I've never made these before. I like them!”
“They look lovely on you,” Hades said. “As does everything. And nothing. Speaking of which, we should go now.”
She laughed, standing on her tiptoes to kiss Hades on the lips.
“Thank you for indulging me, husband,” she said, as he put his arm around her shoulders. “Nico, I trust you'll be responsible with that?” She said, looking back at him.
“Yes, I will,” he said. He couldn't imagine what he'd use it on. He hadn't even been asked to kill the manticore, let alone obliterate its essence. He could see why his father had hesitated to give him this weapon of incredible destructive potential. “I can't thank you enough for this gift. I'll try to make you proud. Both of you,” he added, looking at his father, too.
They both disappeared into shadow, and he looked down at the sword, staring at it in fascination. The three judges walked up to look at it along with him.
“I've never seen anyone but Lord Hades wield such a thing,” Aeacus said. “And you're so inexperienced! I wonder what Persephone was thinking.”
“If anyone knows to use caution when taking a life, it's Nico,” Minos said. “He understands the gravity of what he holds.”
“I wish I didn't,” Nico agreed. “Am I right in thinking I can't train with you if I use this?”
The judges all backed away.
“Well, no,” Minos said. “You'd destroy me. I'd rather you didn't. I'm having a pretty good afterlife, for the most part. There's only one shade that I think would want to train you with that thing, and I'm not sure I can convince him to come out. Aeacus, you're better with him than I am,” Minos said, “What do you think?”
“I have a few favors I could cash in in Elysium,” Aeacus said archly. “But I don't think I will waste them on this. Ask me again in a hundred years, maybe I'll relent.”
Minos looked at Nico apologetically, shrugging.
“That thing belongs in a scabbard or something,” Rhadamanthys said nervously, his eyes not leaving the blade.
“Lord Hades turns his into a ring,” Aeacus said.
“Oh, is that what that is?” Nico asked. “I've seen him summon it once. He waves his hand--” He stepped back a few feet, to the ghosts' great relief, before moving the sword an inch. He waved his hand over it, and it turning into a shining black ring. “Hm. That was so much easier than the bracelet.”
“I saw you make that,” Minos said. “You never mentioned anything about earth or metal manipulation.”
“I've done stuff here and there,” Nico shrugged, thinking with chagrin about the crack he'd left in the floor of the pavilion at Camp Half Blood. He pulled the bracelet from his pocket and ran his thumbs over it, massaging it into a semblance of a pattern on its curved surface. “Here,” he said impulsively, holding it out to Minos. “For training me. Thank you.”
Minos stared at it in awe. His brothers snickered behind him, but he took no notice.
“I'm the one that should be giving you gifts,” he said. “But... I appreciate it.” He accepted the bracelet and let Nico slip it on his wrist.
Nico marveled at how lifelike his hand seemed as he touched it, the bracelet a perfect excuse. It was ice cold, of course, but so was everything in the Underworld. If he didn't know better, he'd never know Minos was dead.
With the training over, and Persephone on his side, Nico felt more confident that he had a shot. He caught Minos's eye and smiled, and Minos smiled back.
“Alright,” Aeacus said grumpily, leaning on his elbow and frowning at Nico. “Let me cut you a deal.”
Nico looked up at him.
“A deal?”
“I'll arrange things with your new trainer if you get me that minifridge I asked about before. It has to come fully stocked!
“Oh, good, just in time for the busy season. Would sure be nice to have a cool beverage at hand when we're working overtime,” Rhadamanthys said.
Nico looked at Aeacus skeptically.
“Who is this trainer, anyway?”
Aeacus started to respond, but Minos stopped him.
“Let it be a surprise, Nico,” Minos said. “Trust me.”
Nico wasn't in any hurry to train more than he already had. The manticore was a dangerous beast, but the delays were getting a bit frustrating; he knew he was ready to face it again and fetch those spines. After that, he still had to save his sister and finish his chores, and time was passing quickly.
“I'm not waiting on him,” Nico said. “I can deal with the manticore on my own now. I'll train with the dude if I have time, I guess.”
“You'll have time,” Aeacus said, smirking.
“Fine. Fridge time?” Nico asked.
“Yes,” the three said in unison, brightening considerably.
Nico, after a brief Google, shadow traveled to a random Home Depot in Idaho, walked in, and slapped his hands on a minifridge next to the checkout counter. It had the Pepsi logo emblazoned across it and was filled with sodas and iced teas. In seconds he'd returned to the Underworld with it.
“Here you go,” he said, to a chorus of cheers. It had been so easy to fetch it that he wondered why Hades hadn't gotten them one before.
They situated it beside their table, talking excitedly about whether an amphora of wine might fit inside it. Nico watched them for a few minutes, wondering where they planned to plug it in, when he realized that they had no idea that was a thing. Rhadamanthys actually sawed the power cord off with his belt knife and tossed it into the Styx.
“That looks much better,” he said, his fellow judges nodding their agreement.
“Halt!” A grating voice shrieked. It was Alecto, flying up to them on her leathery wings and planting herself firmly in front of the table, her hands crossed in front of her chest. “That fridge is not regulation!”
The four of them started arguing loudly, and Nico quietly stepped away and shadow traveled to Hecate's cave, intending to show her the new sword and ask about its magical properties.
“Hecate? I have a surprise,” He called out.
“Me too!” Hecate said, her voice calling from the far side of the cave. “Come check this out,” she said.
He wandered over to the work table, but she was actually bundled up in her bed instead. Nico walked over to her.
His jaw dropped.
“What the heck is that thing?” He said, pointing at the small bundle in her arms.
“That's my son,” she said, holding out the baby so that Nico was looking at his small pink face. “Say hi to him!”
Nico knew Hecate was a little weird and unpredictable, but this was really on another level.
“Hi,” he said awkwardly. “Uh, wow. I had no idea you were expecting... Congratulations?”
“Thanks,” she said. “Pregnancy is a bit inconvenient, even for a goddess, so I don't let it drag on for too long. But I do like babies. They're best when they're fresh. I just want to gobble him up!” She said.
Nico watched tensely to make sure she wasn't actually going to eat the baby, but she just smooched him on the top of his head.
“Don't look so weirded out. You know I'm a goddess of childbirth sometimes. Not to mention I'm a protector of children,” she laughed. “I didn't come into the titles with no qualifications. Haven't you met some of my other kids?”
He'd met an entire cabin full of them already, all close in age. She must have been having kids often, but he'd never pictured them being born in the Underworld, even on the outskirts of it where her cave was located. He wondered if he now knew more about their origins than they did.
“What's his name?” Nico asked.
“I try to let the mortal parents name them,” Hecate said. “Ever since my son Alabaster chewed me out for having unorthodox naming preferences. I've been told that his name got him made fun of in school. I can't help it! Don't you think this one looks like he ought to be called Cobweb?”
“You want to name him Cobweb?” Nico said, horrified.
She sighed in disappointment.
“Your facial expression tells me all I need to know,” she said, looking down at the baby. “Sorry, Cobweb. You'll probably end up being something normal like Philip or Tim. A missed opportunity.”
“When are you giving him to his dad?” Nico asked.
“Soon,” she said. “I'll feed him a couple more times to make him strong. Then I'll head over to Matt's house and leave him a little surprise,” she smiled. “I'm sure he'll be thrilled.”
He watched Hecate playing with her baby and marveled at how different it was for mortals to have children. He was no expert on parenting, but he knew that he and Bianca had been their mother's entire world. She'd doted on them constantly. He recalled her breaking down in tears on his first day of school when she had to let go of his hand and leave him with his teacher. He'd been wailing and screaming hysterically, begging her not to leave him, which had probably made it much worse than it needed to be for his poor mother.
Almost ninety years later, he thought, and he hadn't changed a bit.
Hecate, on the other hand, would send this baby on its way in a matter of hours and would rarely speak to him ever again. He was used to giving gods the benefit of the doubt, and he knew they were fundamentally different than humans in ways he couldn't possibly understand, but it was hard not to feel a little judge-y about this in particular. Even Hades had at least visited him and Bianca regularly.
“Do you agree with that Percy kid? That we should be more involved?” Hecate asked.
“What about Percy?” Nico asked, snapping out of his reverie.
“When he defeated Kronos, Zeus offered him a boon. Percy asked, in lieu of immortality, that the gods acknowledge all their demigod children before they turn thirteen.”
“That's what he picked?” Nico frowned. “Interesting.”
“There's a whole backstory to it. You slept through a lot,” she said. “Answer me. Do you think I should be more involved in Cobweb's life?”
Nico sensed a test in that question, although she was trying to sound casual about it. He had to think for a minute, then he answered.
“You said earlier that one of your divine roles is being a protector of children. If that's the case, I don't think you need to be told how to parent by Percy Jackson. Or me.”
He wasn't sure that was the most totally honest answer, but it was technically true, and it sounded respectful. She seemed really pleased to hear it, which was all that mattered in the end.
“Good job, di Angelo,” she smiled warmly at him. “You're right. What I do, I do for my own reasons. There's no need for anyone else to understand. Right, Cobweb?” She cooed at her small demigod son. “Nico, be a dear and do me a favor. Take those lunula necklaces to Artemis, would you?”
She looked up at him with a bright green glint in her eye, and he sensed clearly that she knew exactly what he had been thinking all of those days at the workbench, looking up at the necklaces in their jars.
“I-- Yes, absolutely,” he said. “Of course. Thank you so much!”
“Tell her I'm busy and that you go with my blessing,” she said.
“Thank you so much, Hecate,” he repeated. She nodded, and he hurried over to the bookshelf, grabbing the jars.
“Do I take them out?”
“Leave them in the jars,” she said. “Don't shadow travel with them, it's bad for the magic. Walk straight out the door and call Charon. Ask him to take you up the Acheron until you get to the Necromanteion exit. I'll text her to meet you there.”
Chapter 20: Meeting Artemis
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Nico was really excited at his new chance to meet Artemis, but he was also panicking. He hadn't rehearsed what he was going to say to her, and his mind was blank.
He walked out the doorway of Hecate's cave; he'd never walked there before, just shadow traveled, but he knew the river in front of him was the Acheron. It was wider and less deep than the others, and the shore here was a mix of smooth stones and sand. The air that flowed in with the river smelled fresh and organic, like the mortal world was close at hand.
Juggling the jars awkwardly, he pulled out his phone. He was sure he didn't have Charon's number, but he checked just in case.
“Charon, Charon,” he muttered. “No, I don't see it. Oh!”
Charon had appeared in front of him, a tall, looming figure in black rags. His boat was behind him, bobbing on the surface of the Acheron.
“She meant to just literally call you out loud,” Nico said, realizing.
Charon nodded, his broad brimmed hat dipping forward.
Nico hopped into the boat, and Charon took his post at the front, guiding the boat out to the center of the water. They began to float in the direction of the surface.
“Thank you for the ride,” Nico said, smiling at Charon. He liked the grimy, decaying skeleton man. He was quiet and reliable and he had really good vibes.
Nico sat and enjoyed the boat ride. The Acheron gradually widened, and the boat slid over the shallow, sandy bottom even when most boats would have gotten stuck. They traveled through the winding cave passage hollowed out by the river. Eventually there was light in the distance, but they didn't proceed towards it, instead docking at a set of stairs leading upward into a dark passage.
“The necromanteion?” Nico asked. Another nod. He collected his jars and climbed the stairs.
He passed through stone walled corridors that twisted and turned like a maze. Everything was eerily quiet. Nico was used to quiet, but this particular brand of quiet unsettled him. He realized it was because he should have been able to hear the river and he couldn't. The exit had sealed itself off behind him.
He felt shades lurking in the corners watching him. One approached, a brave one in the form of a middle aged woman in an ancient Greek dress.
“Hi,” he said. “What's the story with this place? I've come across the name in passing, but I'm not an expert. I know it's a temple of Hades.”
“It is indeed,” she said. “It was a place where worshippers traveled to commune with the spirits of those who'd gone before them.”
“Why are you all hanging around here?”
“I can't speak for the others,” she said. “But I was summoned here by my husband. I don't know if it was his fault or the priest's, but the ritual was botched and I got stranded. I was in Asphodel and then suddenly I was here.”
“That's awful,” Nico said.
“It is awful,” she agreed. “I was content in the fields, waiting for my children to join me. Now I'm stuck here, and they're probably there by now, wondering where I am. My only solace in death was seeing them again, and I was robbed of it. What did I do to deserve this?”
Nico's gut twisted with a deep and intolerable sense of wrongness. He knew that there were supposedly shades lost all over the earth who'd been lost or summoned like this one. Mortals spotted ghosts all the time, and Nico hadn't heard his father mention anyone going to fetch them back. It technically should have been Thanatos' job, he guessed.
Nico couldn't just sit and do nothing. This woman was on the doorstep of the Underworld; it was unacceptable that she be stranded so near where she was meant to be. He couldn't imagine how frustrating that must have been for her.
“What's your name?”
“Lyside.”
“Lyside, I'm going to help you find your way back,” Nico said. “I've got something I need to do first, but I'll come back for you.”
“Mmhm. Sure,” she said, unconvinced.
“Just wait and see,” he said.
He proceeded onward through a room with a pattern on the floor made of inlaid bones and gems and past a set of doors, climbing upwards. At some point, electric lights had been added here. He stopped and read a sign affixed to a wall and realized his father's temple had become a tourist site. No one was there at the moment, however.
He proceeded to the exit, his heart pounding with anticipation.
No wonder the temple was deserted; there was a thunderstorm raging outside. He glanced around, looking for the glow of moonlight radiating from a young girl, but Artemis was nowhere to be seen. He ducked back inside the temple and waited. And waited. He slumped down against the wall and looked at the jars. They both glowed with a pale white light, the silver lunulas gleaming brightly.
He remembered the first time he'd seen Bianca wearing her lunula amulet. She'd been gleaming with fresh immortality, moving with an unfamiliar confidence and grace. She'd even styled her hair differently, sporting a fancy multi-strand French braid the other hunters had plaited for her. That had bothered him more than anything else, because she'd often asked him to help braid her hair and he'd never been good at it. The new braid had driven the point in like a nail; she was starting a new journey, and she'd traded in the annoying kid brother for the cool older sisters she'd probably always wanted.
“Was it worth it?” He said bitterly, speaking to the lunula in the jar. There was no answer.
After a little while, a shadow appeared in the doorway. The figure was hunched over, soaked from the wind and rain.
He scrambled to his feet, preparing to greet Artemis.
A young woman ducked inside the entrance to the Necromanteion. She lowered her hood, dripping water all over the floor.
“You,” he said, stopping short.
Thalia Grace stood before him. She had the same choppy black hair and blue eyes he remembered. She looked like her father. It didn't give him a good feeling about seeing her again.
“Do I know you?” She asked, reaching back and holding her bow, ready for anything.
“It's Nico di Angelo,” he said.
Her eyes widened in surprise. She wasn't rocking as much eyeliner as before; Artemis probably liked her crew to have a more natural look. “Has it been that long? You're tall now.”
The last time he'd seen her, she'd seemed like a cool, tough, older girl. Now, although she looked stronger, with a supernatural glow and a wired alertness about her, she seemed like a middle schooler, eternally fifteen. He was about six inches taller than her, which hadn't been the case before.
Was this how it would have been with Bianca? Him endlessly getting older, her staying the same? Every time he saw her, the distance between them greater?
She'd chosen that, he reminded himself.
He shoved that thought to the back of his mind, refusing to think about it.
“Were you her replacement?” He asked dryly.
“Her replacement? Oh, you mean...” Thalia's expression grew defensive. “I'm sorry about what happened to Bianca. But it was a long time ago.”
She reached out for the jars, and he held them behind his back.
“Not to me,” he said.
She stared at him.
“I don't know what you want from me, but I need those necklaces,” she said sternly.
“I need to speak with Artemis.”
“Why? If it's about her funeral rites, we made sure--”
“I know you did them,” Nico snapped. “That's not what this is about. I'm going to resurrect her. I need Artemis' help.”
Thalia just stared at him. A strange mix of emotions passed over her face; pity, secondhand embarrassment, and a little bit of fear. She was soaking wet, her hair a mess and her cheeks red from wind, but she still looked more put together and healthy than he probably did. He saw himself briefly through her eyes; pale white, strung out, and way too skinny. Not a look that inspired confidence.
“I feel bad for you, Nico, but you're fucking crazy,” she said bluntly. “Have you tried therapy? You need it.”
“I'm not crazy. I'm taking my time, learning everything I need to know. Talking to the right people. I'm the son of Hades. If anyone can do this, I can.”
“I don't know about that,” Thalia said, narrowing her eyes skeptically and looking him over. She clearly didn't think he was capable. That stung.
“Look at how old I am now,” Nico said. “You can see how long I've been down there. If it were really impossible, don't you think I'd have realized by now?”
“No, not if you're fucking crazy. Which is what you probably are, like I said. They have therapy on apps now,” she added. “I'm so serious, just download it. It'll take five seconds.”
“Why would my father put up with me if I was crazy? Does that sound like something Hades would do? Would Zeus ever cut you slack like that?”
“No,” she said, beginning to look at him differently.
“No. I'm working down there, doing tasks for my father, and in exchange he's letting me look into this,” Nico said. He took a deep breath and looked Thalia in the eyes. “Listen to me. Please. Bianca was one of you once. But she died before she could even begin. If I'm willing to do the hard part and resurrect her, the least you could do is hear me out. All I ask is one conversation with Artemis. That doesn't cost you anything! You know Bianca would want you to help me. Even if it's just out of pity for her crazy brother.”
Bianca heaved a sigh.
Nico didn't have a response, so he just stared at Thalia. He could see her start to grow uncomfortable under his gaze. Another power he could chalk up to being a child of Hades, he thought. He hoped it would work. They stared at each other intensely as the storm raged just outside the temple archway.
“Fine,” she said, sighing like she'd just lost an internal battle with herself. “But don't act like a dumbass in front of Artemis. You'd better have a real plan and not just be bullshitting.”
“Okay. Thanks,” he said. “You've got nothing to worry about. I know what I'm doing.” He tried to sound confident and cool, but he wasn't sure it was effective. Thalia still looked unsure about him.
“Our camp is at a lake near here. We're hunting a dragon,” Thalia said. “Don't get in the way of the hunt, and if Artemis says no, get the fuck out, immediately. Cool?”
“Cool,” Nico said.
“It's a bit of a hike,” Thalia said. “I hope you've been doing your Underworld cardio.”
They stepped out into the storm. The wind was so intense that it blew the rain directly into Nico's face, and he could barely see anything. Seeing in the dark was easy for him, but this wasn't the same thing. In the chaos of the storm, Thalia's huntress-glow was the clearest thing he could make out, and he knew he'd get lost if he didn't follow her.
She took off at a jog, and Nico scrambled to follow her. He wasn't able to keep up, probably because he absolutely had not been doing Underworld cardio, since there wasn't any such thing. He was way too accustomed to shadow traveling everywhere, and it was really bothering him that he wasn't able to while he was holding the lunulae.
The wind was screeching, and lightning flashed in the distance, sending a horrible chill down Nico's spine. He had a brief, intense realization that Zeus might be watching him right now, and it came on so suddenly and clearly that he felt absolutely certain it was true.
Shortly after realizing, he tripped over a log and nearly dropped one of the lunula jars.
“Give me those, you're gonna drop them,” Thalia said.
“Nope,” he said, holding them away from her and frowning. “Not falling for that.”
“I'm a hunter of Artemis, not a thief,” she said, offended.
“I said no,” he said. At the end of the day, she was a daughter of Zeus and an Olympian affiliate. He wasn't going to fully trust her until she'd earned it. Zeus's divine eyes on him made him feel paranoid.
“Ugh. Fine,” she said, frustrated. “We can walk, but you'd better be careful.”
He followed her, the pace more reasonable now. Unfortunately, going slower meant he noticed the storm and the lightning more than ever.
“Why are you taking such deep breaths,” she asked. “Don't tell me it's still too fast? I'm practically crawling.”
“No, I'm just... I don't like this kind of weather,” he said. He remembered the first really nasty storm at Camp Half Blood, when he'd still been living in the Hermes cabin, unclaimed. Chiron had insisted campers keep to their normal schedule despite the terrible weather, for conditioning, but Nico had skipped the whole day, hiding under his covers in his bunk and pretending to be sick to get out of it.
At the time, he hadn't remembered why he hated lightning. Now, the reason was all too clear.
“What, rain?”
“Lightning storms,” he said. “My mother was killed by one of your father's lightning bolts.”
Thalia stared at him.
“What? Why?”
“He wanted to kill me and Bianca,” Nico said. “My father managed to save us, but he didn't get my mother out in time. Your dad wanted to be sure that one of his kids would be the child of the prophecy.”
“I see,” Thalia said, looking uncomfortable. “This was back in the forties, right?”
“It feels like yesterday to me,” Nico said firmly.
“I get that,” she said. “Sorry,” she added in a lower voice. “If it makes you feel better, I can control lightning. I won't let it get near you. Not that I think my dad would try to hit you or anything, but--”
“I think he would,” Nico said. “What's he got to lose? My father already hates him. I'd be one less problem.” He knew Zeus was listening, knew it in his bones. Thalia looked up at the sky, and he realized she knew it, too.
“Maybe we shouldn't talk about this,” she said quietly, climbing uphill a little faster. “Let's hurry and get to Artemis. So, um, how is it, working in the Underworld? How is Bianca? Is she also on board with this resurrection thing?”
“Why wouldn't she be?” Nico said, knowing better than to admit she wasn't speaking to him. “Wouldn't you want to be?”
“No, definitely not,” Thalia said. “I'd want to be legit reborn, starting from scratch. I like the idea of earning an honored spot in the Isles of the Blessed. Have you seen them?”
“Haven't made the trip,” Nico said. “Elysium ought to be good enough for anyone, in my opinion.”
“I guess it doesn't matter to me now,” Thalia said. “I don't have plans to die anytime soon. Not that immortality means something can't still happen,” she added quickly. “But, you know, I probably have time.”
“Probably,” Nico said.
“I want to tell you something,” she said, looking at Nico. They'd climbed up the side of a ridge, and Nico could see a lake in the valley below them. The rain was beginning to ease up, and the wind had quieted. She folded her arms across her chest and looked down at the misty valley, her expression thoughtful. “I'm a little jealous of Bianca right now. You don't know this, but I have a younger brother. My mom had two kids with Zeus. Well, one with Zeus and one with Jupiter. What you're doing, trying to resurrect her? Jason wouldn't do that for me.”
“Bianca's the only family I have left. She was my best friend. I don't want to live in a world she's not in.”
“Well, that's sad, if you really think that way,” Thalia said. “But she was lucky to have a brother like you.”
“Thanks,” Nico said, staring into the distance, his heart heavy. He ached to go back to the Underworld as soon as possible. He may not be able to see her, but he missed feeling her close by. He decided to change the subject. It was better he face Artemis in a less emotional state. Without waiting on Thalia, he headed down the ridge, clutching the jars carefully and walking slowly, taking caution not to slip.
“So you and Jason aren't close, I take it,” Nico said.
“I thought he was dead until last year,” she said. “It's a long story, but basically we lost track of each other for a long time. I ran into him questing and was shocked to see him alive and kicking. Obviously we don't get to hang out much. He lives in the Bay area. I don't get out there often.”
“At least you didn't know about him when you signed up for the hunters,” Nico said.
“Unlike Bianca?” she said. “Do you resent her?” She added, looking at him curiously.
She was a little too perceptive for Nico's liking.
“Of course not,” Nico said immediately, shooting her a dark look. He wanted to say something nasty to shut her up, but he controlled himself, although her question really pissed him off. “So, Jason's a son of Jupiter.” He said. “Do you have different abilities? Jupiter is much more controlled than Zeus, right?”
“Jason can fly,” she said proudly. “I'm not entirely certain that I can't, but I, um... Let's just say it's not happening anytime soon. All of his air based abilities are stronger than mine. He also seems like he always has his shit together as a leader in a way I never did. He became praetor at 15.”
“Praetor?”
“Like a leader at Camp Jupiter?”
“Camp Jupiter?”
Her eyes went wide. The sky above her darkened, and a cloud started to rotate overhead in a threatening manner.
“Oh, shit,” she said. “Oh, fuck me. I don't think I was supposed to say that to you.”
“What's the matter?”
“I can't say any more,” she said, blanching in panic. She ran her hands through her hair, biting her lip. She glanced up at the sky, and he could tell she was trying to ascertain whether her father had overheard her. Thunder rumbled in the sky, and she flinched as the wind picked up.
“Thalia,” Nico said, sensing something very useful had just happened for him. “Did you think I didn't already know about that?” He forced out a fake laugh. “Don't worry, you're good. I'm not affiliated with Camp Half Blood anymore, so it doesn't matter what you tell me.” He was pretty sure Camp Jupiter was exactly what it sounded like,
“Oh,” she sighed. “Thank goodness. So it doesn't matter?”
“No, not at all,” he said. “I was just messing with you. Here, I do need you to hold these for a minute,” he added, handing her both jars and smiling at her.
“Oh, now you trust me?” She smirked, watching him type on his phone. Some of the dark clouds above them started to dissipate, and she looked up. The sun was beginning to peek out. Her father had been appeased.
“I need to do something on my phone.” He started typing on his notes app.
“Demigods aren't supposed to use phones,” she said.
“Ganymede gave this to me. It's safe,” Nico said.
“You're friends with Ganymede?” She snorted. “Funny, that sounds like it's a euphemism for something.”
“So funny,” Nico said, grinning at her and holding up the phone. On his notes app, he'd written,
'You are off the hook with your dad for the moment thanks to me. I definitely didn't know about the other camp, and I don't think he'll be happy that I know now. If you don't want him to find out exactly what you just did, you'd better put in an EXTREMELY good word for me with Artemis when we see her.'
“You sly motherfucker,” she said under her breath.
“Speaking of Ganymede, I think I owe him a phone call,” Nico said, closing the app and putting his phone in his pocket. “What do you think, Thalia?”
This was a major gamble. He had no idea how much pull her word might have with Artemis, and the way that she was glaring at him, he had definitely just made an enemy of her. She'd agreed to help him from the goodness of her heart, and he'd chosen to manipulate her unnecessarily, for his own benefit.
But he had weighed his odds. It was nice of Thalia to bring him to see Artemis, but he had no guarantees that the goddess would agree to speak with him once he arrived. He needed a lot of help from her, and he was asking for something huge, something never before attempted. He couldn't afford to pull his punches if he wanted the slightest hope of getting Bianca back.
“I'm waiting,” he said, looking Thalia directly in the eyes and staring her down.
Sparks of electicity began to burst from her fingertips, and the top layer of her hair began to stand on end.
“Think it through,” Nico said carefully. “I'm here for an hour, tops, and then I'm out of your hair forever. You're stuck with Zeus for eternity. You don't want to fuck this up.”
She huffed out a breath of frustration.
“You're a real piece of work, di Angelo,” she said, turning around. “Hurry up. I want this over with.”
Thrilled with his victory, Nico trotted down the hill after her. He let her keep holding the lunulae; it seemed to soothe her.
They arrived at a cluster of white tents where teen and pre-teen girls were sitting around a fire roasting meat on a spit, poring over maps, and polishing weapons.
“Thalia, what is that? Please tell me it's not a boy,” one of the hunters said.
“Ew, it smells,” said another hunter, covering her nose. “Quick, spit him and roast him!”
“I wish I could,” Thalia sighed. “Sorry, girls, but this one needs to talk to Artemis. He's Bianca's brother, and it has something to do with her.”
The group went quiet and simply stared at him with pity. Nico had preferred the mockery.
Thalia silently led him to Artemis's tent.
“I don't want to speak to the boy,” Artemis said from inside, her voice the same as Nico remembered from their first encounter many years ago. “Have him leave the amulets and go.”
Of course she'd somehow known he was coming. But Nico wasn't leaving without a fight.
“Artemis, I promised him he could speak to you. He wouldn't give us the amulets otherwise,” Thalia said.
“I don't care. He needs to go. I don't owe him anything; I've paid Hecate in advance. Send him away.”
Nico was immediately vindicated for his manipulation of Thalia. She looked at him, visibly steeled herself, then took his arm and pulled him along with her into Artemis' tent.
“Thalia? What's gotten into you?” Artemis said. She'd been sitting cross legged on a bearskin rug in her tent, sharpening a long knife of gleaming silver. She glared at Nico and Thalia. “I told you to get rid of him!”
Her appearance hadn't changed at all in the years since they'd seen each other. She still had short brown hair in a practical cut and dark eyes that were giving him a very nasty look.
“Artemis,” Thalia said, dropping to her knees. Nico dropped to his along with her. Thalia reached out and clasped Artemis' knee with her hands. “Divine sister, please. Nico needs to speak with you, and it's really important to me that you hear him out. If you've ever trusted me, if I've ever earned anything from you, I need to cash it in now. I really, really need you to speak with him. He has something you need to hear.”
Artemis stared at Thalia in shock.
“Absolutely not,” Artemis said. “You're not yourself, Thalia. I don't appreciate the theatrics. Please go back to work and let's forget this happened. I'll discard the boy myself if I must.”
She rose, and divine power filled the tent.
Thalia looked close to tears.
“I'm sorry,” she mouthed to Nico emphatically, trying to convey her message silently. “Please don't tell him! I tried, okay?”
“It's about Bianca,” Nico said, looking Artemis in the eye and trying to look pathetic. “I'm doing this for her sake, goddess. I would never presume to bother you otherwise, but she sends me here with a message. I'd hoped that as her chosen patron, you'd be willing to hear it?”
“Oh,” Artemis said, sitting. “Why didn't you lead with that? I'm always happy to hear messages from the dead. Speak, son of Hades, and tell me what she wished me to hear.”
Nico felt Thalia staring at him. She knew he was lying; there was no message, and she knew he'd have mentioned it earlier if there had been.
“I've been working with her for years now on a plan to resurrect her and bring her back into your service,” Nico said. He saw Artemis's eyes light with interest. “My father is skeptical of my ability to do it, but Persephone is supportive,” he emphasized. Artemis grew even more serious, he could tell. “I'm working with Hecate to develop stronger magical abilities to facilitate my mission,” he added. Artemis leaned in further. “Isis has been helping me as well.”
That was nonsense; Isis had taught him to use the mist, briefly, ages ago, and she'd never offered to help with Bianca's resurrection, but Artemis didn't know that. The goddess nodded.
“I find that very interesting,” Artemis said. “But how do you intend to pull this off?”
“As a daughter of Hades, her shade is fully conscious and not subject to the same limitations as normal shades,” Nico said, repeating what he'd learned from Dante. “I'm familiar with the exits and entrances to the Underworld, and distracting Cerberus and the Furies will be simple.” That was also something he was confident was true. “I can shadow travel like my father, and I can bring her with me out of the exit--”
“What about the Doors of Death? Thanatos holds the keys to them,” Artemis said. “Souls can't escape without his allowing it, typically.”
“I was getting to that. I can handle Thanatos, too,” Nico lied. “The Doors will be open.” He had no clue what she was talking about, but Thanatos had been tricked before, and he'd trick him again if necessary.
“So what do you need me for?” Artemis asked.
“I'm not hubristic,” Nico said firmly. “I can't do this without divine aid, and, honestly, I don't have every last detail figured out. If you name your terms, goddess, I think we can both gain something from this. Let's make a deal.”
Artemis stared at him for a moment, then she snorted.
“I was wondering when you were going to admit that you have no clue what you're doing,” she said. “No, you really do need my help. You're so like your father-- 'Let's make a deal,'” she repeated, mocking his deeper and more serious voice. “I'm not buying it. I wasn't born yesterday. I think your intentions are good, and I would be thrilled to have her back. I mean that-- I barely had time to meet her and she was already gone. But I don't want to waste my time on false starts. Sorry, kid. Maybe if you were a greater hero with glorious feats to your name. But looking at you, you don't seem like the type. The ugly truth is, the Fates don't give children of Hades happy endings. I'm not sure you're even meant to exist.”
That was crushing. Nico's heart wrenched in his chest. Her words rang true-- He didn't feel he was destined for happiness either.
“Bianca deserves better,” Nico said. “She deserves a hand better than the one she was dealt. You took responsibility for her. You owe her a shot at living the life you promised her.”
Artemis' eyes bored into his soul.
“You have made a lot of bold statements,” Artemis said. “That may have been your boldest. But I respect a bit of daring now and again. You're interesting. I think I'll give you a test. At the very least, you'll give the girls and I some entertainment.”
Nico's eyes burned with tears of relief.
“I'll do whatever it takes,” he said quietly.
“Kill the dragon,” Artemis said simply.
There was no further instruction. He wasn't offered a map, a weapon, or an indication of where the dragon was. The hunters herded him outside the border of their camp and then continued their meal, watching him and laughing while he tried to make a plan on the fly.
Nico stared out at the great bowl shaped valley. There was no cover. As far as he could tell, there were steep mountain ridges and shallow, grassy valleys and not much else.
He walked up to the side of the lake and stared at his reflection in the water.
What was he thinking? He hadn't even faced the manticore, and was only armed with a sword he'd never used before. He'd never done anything like this, and now he had to wing it? There was a good chance he'd die.
He pictured that possibility with dread. He was on the no ride list, so whatever injuries he sustained, he'd have to suffer with them until he fetched that dreaded hippocampus tail, the flawless calf, and the martyr bones. Why hadn't he gotten that list done ages ago? He was such an idiot. He was going to be dragging a broken and dismembered body around the world running errands. He'd be the world's first goth teen zombie.
Staring deep into the water, he saw something moving. He knelt down on the sandy lake shore and watched a little salamander crawl out of the water. It was cute, with a pudgy, rounded face and little frills on the side of its head. It was also scaly, and had spines going down its back, and –
He stood. That thing was no salamander. It wasn't just a salamander, anyway. He picked it up and brought it to Artemis.
“Nope,” she said. “You're not smart-assing your way out of this.”
“Worth a shot,” he shrugged.
“No it wasn't,” she said. “The point of testing you is to see what you're capable of. I've already clocked you as a sly little trickster.”
“That's a little harsh,” he muttered, walking away dejectedly.
As he headed back to the lake, he heard Artemis call out to the girls, “This guy thinks he can bring me a baby dragon and it still counts. I literally can't even deal with men.”
They cracked quite a few more jokes about men, but his mind was racing. It was a baby dragon, as he'd suspected.
He looked at the lake. The baby dragons must live inside it somewhere. Maybe there were underwater tunnels leading to a cave deep in the hills. He stared at the nearest mountainside and tried to use his connection to the earth to sense whether there was a cave. He hadn't practiced sensing the earth too much, or at least he didn't think he'd been practicing. But he realized that the Underworld was so dark that he'd been using his instinctive knowledge of the earth to find his way more than he'd really be aware of.
He was certain that there was a cave in the mountain, and it was massive, and something lived inside it.
The dragon was breathing out slowly, its heartbeats rumbling the earth in a slow pattern. The dragon must have been asleep inside the cave. That was an amazing development. Nico could handle that exact scenario better than pretty much anything else.
He shadow traveled to the outside of the dragon's mountain, pressing his hand to the rock, feeling the cracks and fissures and veins of ore running through it. Then he reached out to the shadow inside the hill, the darkness of the cave, and turned it solid.
The dragon began to struggle. He tightened the blanket of shadow, smothering it, and for good measure, brought massive boulders down atop the beast. Soon he could no longer feel its heartbeat.
He created an air pocket, traveled inside, slapped a hand on the dead lizard's neck and brought it straight into Artemis' camp.
The hunters exclaimed in surprise.
“But you didn't do anything!” One of them shouted.
Artemis gazed with narrowed eyes at the dragon's body, massive and grey green beneath a layer of rock dust.
“I'll admit that you have displayed... Abilities, after a fashion,” she said. “But you've gravely miscalculated one thing.”
“Oh no,” Nico said, seeing her face, every angle of which read 'Failure'.
“As the goddess of the hunt, I declare this kill unsporting,” she said. The hunters gasped as though he'd committed a felony. “This was a mother dragon peacefully resting in her cave. It was a cheap kill done in a way that meant you risked nothing.”
“I did what you asked,” Nico said. “And it died quickly. Isn't that more merciful than a drawn out hunt?”
“How dare you!” Artemis said.
“I'm sorry, I-- Okay, what do you want from me?” He asked.
“Nothing,” Artemis said coldly. “Except to see you run.”
“Run?”
“I would,” she said.
A massive dragon, twice the size of the one he'd just killed, swept across the sky. The huntresses moved to take up arms, but Artemis stopped with with an outstretched hand.
“It wants revenge for its mate,” she said. “Nico shall give it a fair fight. It's the least he can do.”
Notes:
More familiar characters to come, guys! I can't wait for them to make their appearances. :)
Lyside was a real person, I think. I swiped her from the wiki page on the Necromanteion. She was a man named Periander's wife and there is a brief story about their family in Herodotus' Histories.
There also is a lake in Greece called Drakolimni lake with salamanders in it and a legend about dragons associated with the area. In real life it's a 30 hour walk from the Necromanteion, but this is a fanfiction so we'll pretend it was a moderate hike for Nico and Thalia.
Chapter 21: Dead Dragon Taming
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
The second dragon was twice as large as the first, and it looked a lot angrier.
The enormous creature flew directly over the camp and continued on past it. As it flew, its massive reptilian shape was silhouetted in black against the golden glow of the sun setting behind the mountains. It continued straight ahead for a few seconds, then swept around in a wide loop, coming back toward them.
The hunters dove for cover inside their tents, their reaction time instantaneous. Nico grabbed onto the dead dragon's wing and yanked on it, pulling it out just enough to form a space underneath. He barely managed to duck beneath it when a spray of a foul green substance hit the top of the wing like someone had sprayed it with a hose. He covered his mouth and tried not to breathe it in as a bright green mist fell over everything in the camp. He wasn't sure if it was poison or acid or both, but it smelled horrible.
He crawled out from beneath the leathery wing only after the dragon's shadow had passed over the camp for the second time. He knew he had only a handful of seconds before it looped around for another attack. Nico had a terrible shock when the first dragon's body began to dissolve into dust, in the typical monster fashion, at the worst possible time.
That was his only shelter; there was no way he would be allowed inside a tent. Artemis had told him to make a run for it. He could shadow travel out of there, go back to the Underworld and forget this ever happened. This was the chance, if he planned to take it, and he was running out of time to make his decision with every beat of the dragon's wings as it started to turn back towards him.
No, he thought quickly. He wouldn't run. Artemis had been right to call him out on killing the mother dragon in the way that he had. She'd wanted to know if he was a hero, and he'd demonstrated exactly why he wasn't one.
He was trying to resurrect someone from the dead. Trying to do the impossible. He needed to show her that he was the kind of guy who did impossible things.
There was something stirring in his chest, something he'd never felt before.
He knew he could do this.
“Stay,” he said, pointing at the dragon corpse. The dissolution halted, and the missing edge bits that had already dissolved all reformed. He sensed that the monster wouldn't go to Tartarus until he allowed it to.
He dove under the wing again as the dragon passed overhead a second time, spraying its poison as it had before. He felt Artemis' eyes on him, watching his every move. She was probably wondering why he hadn't run yet.
He'd show her that he could handle this.
He tried to think fast. The dragon was trying to avenge its mate; it wouldn't stop until Nico was dead. If the poison didn't work, it was only a matter of time before it tried to kill him with teeth and claws instead.
An idea came to him.
He hunched beneath the wing and flattened both of his palms against the side of the dragon's corpse. He took a deep breath, tried to concentrate, and began to chant. He'd never attempted this spell before, but he knew it would work, he could feel it in his gut. The magic functioned exactly as Hecate had told him it would; in his time of need, instincts kicked in.
It started working. It was slow, but he felt it. The dead dragon started stirring beneath his hands. The other dragon was already coming back, though. It wasn't working fast enough.
Nico bit his thumb hard enough to draw blood. Then he pressed his thumb to the beast's scaly side and smeared his strange golden blood across it. He'd seen Hecate do it to some of her amulets, and it always seemed to have a dramatic effect, so he had nothing to lose for trying. He put his hands on the bloodstain. Suddenly, he felt a vibrating tension fill the air, and the dragon's corpse began to stir in earnest. It raised its head and and stretched out its wings, blinking empty eyes.
The other dragon stopped in midair and let out a horrible shriek of confusion as it watched its mate begin moving again as if it had come back to life.
Nico had no time to waste. He quickly climbed on top of the bound dragon's back.
“Get me next to him,” he ordered his dragon. It hissed, an eerie rattling noise accompanied by a wet spray of mingled blood, poison, and lumps of tissue. The zombie dragon beat its wings and launched into the air.
Nico immediately regretted every choice he'd ever made. He dug his fingernails into the dragon's neck as hard as he could and fought to keep his eyes open, even though the sight of the ground moving further and further away made him tremble with fear. Being airborne did not sit well with him, but he reminded himself he had the situation-- or at least a massive dead dragon-- under his control.
The wind whipped past his ears, so much colder than it had been at ground level. His face began to go numb, and his hair was blowing around in front of his face, but he took deep breaths and tried to stay calm.
The dead dragon pulled up beside the living one, and it hovered the same way its mate was hovering, beating its wings directly up and down to stay aloft.
The other dragon was staring at it. Nico knew it was only a matter of time before his mount was accurately identified as a zombie. If he was seriously about to kill this other dragon, he'd have to hurry up and do it.
Nico watched the dragon carefully, trying to estimate the exact perfect spot to shadow travel onto its back. Was this plan insanely stupid? It had seemed like a good idea when he was standing on the ground. Now, not so much.
He hesitated too long, scared of estimating the distance inaccurately. The living dragon roared in anger, seeming to realize its mate wasn't really as it appeared to be. Maybe it had gone too long without responding to its partner's anguished cries, or the stench of death had become too noticeable, or it had just seen Nico and realized he was up to no good.
It crashed into Nico's dragon with a roar, slamming it backwards in midair, both dragons flapping their wings furiously in order to stay aloft. They become locked together in midair combat as the larger dragon dug its talons into the flesh of the zombie, screeching in rage.
Nico hadn't had a solid handhold, and he was suddenly knocked backwards into the air, beginning to free fall downward at astonishing speed. The ground was coming toward him faster than he could process what had just happened.
As if by some miracle, the sun chose that moment to dip below the horizon, and the valley grew instantly darker, the mountains casting black shadows that fell across the open fields below. Nico opened his eyes and saw the shadows now covering almost everything in the previously exposed valley. It wasn't perfectly dark yet, but it was a massive turn in his favor. All fear left him, and he smiled, reaching out to the shadow directly beneath him. It reached back to him, and met his fingertips.
He shadow traveled to a safe place on the ground and breathed a sigh of relief. He'd been inches from impact. If the sun hadn't set at that exact time, he'd be a pancake.
“Thank you, Nyx,” he whispered, feeling her presence all around him, enveloping him as surely as if she was giving him another hug. He knew the shadows had been her gift.
He'd have to thank her more later, but now, it was time to finish what he'd started. He looked up at the dragons and whistled, calling the zombie back down to him.
It was a horrific, ruined mess now. He could see the white rib bones and, when he looked past them, saw directly inside the chest cavity. It was empty, but there were large chunks of gore littering the open plain. Its mate had made a valiant effort to destroy it, but it hadn't broken the legs or wings, or torn enough muscles to disable it totally. The female dragon wouldn't be free of Nico's control until he willed it, no matter how badly its body was damaged.
Nico jumped on top of his dragon and wrapped his arms around its neck, far more tightly this time. They launched into the air once more, soaring around in circles, carefully avoiding the other dragon.
Now he had to try to kill it again. This time, he intended to succeed.
Hesitation and shadow travel calculations had failed him on the last attempt, so he decided to just jump for it and hope to land on the other dragon's back. If he missed, he'd fall again, and shadow travel once more to safety, as he'd done the first time. The amount of time airborne wasn't going to feel good, but he knew this was the fastest and, more importantly, the most heroic way to accomplish his goal.
He could see Artemis on the ground, small as a tiny speck, the white glow of her skin giving her away. She was staring at him from the center of her camp. He knew she could see him perfectly well even from a distance. He had to impress her and do this like a huntress, so he steeled himself for a very risky attempt at a display of physical skill.
He directed his dragon to take him overtop of the other dragon, as close as possible, and luckily, just as they passed above it, another glob of congealed blood and mush fell onto the other dragon's head, confusing it briefly so that it stayed in place.
Nico slipped off of his dragon and dropped directly on top of the other one. He almost didn't hang on, his feet slipping on the scales of its back, but he managed to scramble to a position he could hold for the brief moment he needed.
He waved his hand and materialized his Stygian iron sword in mid-air, then sunk it deep into the dragon's hide.
The living dragon dissolved into dust beneath him.
He hadn't expected it, but his zombie dragon managed to catch him as he fell. He held on for dear life as it flew him to the ground.
It slammed into the ground in the center of camp, hitting hard. He heard ribs crack, and the poor thing couldn't seem to lift its head up any longer. He rubbed her neck fondly.
“Thank you,” he said, waving his hand and sending her to Tartarus.
He turned and saw Artemis and the hunters staring at him.
“Before you say anything,” Nico said, drawing in a deep breath. “I know that was gross, and I know you probably would have preferred if I had just gotten eaten or something. But you should know that for the entire time my feet weren't touching the ground, I was literally the most scared I've ever been,” he said. “So if you wanted to see me suffer, I promise, you already did. Every second of that was a nightmare for me.”
“Good,” Artemis said. “Glad to hear it.”
He stared at her.
“It was an entertaining hunt,” Artemis admitted reluctantly. “I've never seen anything quite like it.”
“There's never been anyone quite like me,” Nico said, folding his arms and trying to project heroic confidence and capability. He didn't quite feel it, but he was closer now than he'd ever been.
She pulled her braid over her shoulder and ran a hand over it, seeming to be contemplating something.
Finally she raised her hand, and one of the lunula jars flew into her palm. She threw it to the ground, smashing the glass. The lunula amulet rose, spinning in the air, and she slipped a small white finger under the thin silver chain.
“Take this boon from me, Nico di Angelo, for your sister,” Artemis said. “Hang this around her neck, and I will exert my will on her soul from the outside, summoning her back to me. If you get her soul out of the Underworld, I will restore her mortal body and ensure she remains among the living.With both of us,” she said, and Nico realized she was actually acknowledging his ability, “We may succeed.”
Nico grabbed the amulet.
“Thank you so--.”
“Enough,” she said, waving him away. “Tell no one I gave you this. Now go away. I don't want to see you again without your sister.”
“You won't,” Nico said. “I swear it on the Styx.”
Nico almost shadow traveled back to the Necromanteion, but he wasn't sure whether it would harm the lunula. He decided to err on the safe side and walk.
The hike back to the Necromanteion was long and punishing, his legs burning as he climbed up and down ridge after ridge. The earth was sopping wet from the earlier storm and his shoes were getting soaked, leaving him with cold, wet feet.
It didn't bother him much. He was too busy thinking about all that had just happened. He'd killed two dragons in the span of a few minutes. Where had that come from? Was his divine ancestry finally granting him the heroic instincts he'd always worried he lacked?
It wasn't as though he'd done anything that difficult. Manipulating earth and shadow came naturally, and the temporary reanimation of the dragon wasn't all that different from controlling a skeleton. It was basic necromancy, and far from the hardest spell he'd worked on with Hecate.
His abilities weren't shocking. More surprising was the fact that he'd come up with so many good ideas on the spot. Hecate had been right; he couldn't possibly have known what he was capable of until he was in a real world scenario. Nico finally started accepting the fact that his initial manticore encounter, the one where he'd screamed and fallen over like an idiot, had really been a fluke. He didn't suck at being a demigod. He was competent.
More than anything, Nico wanted to run to his father's throne room and tell him everything. He knew exactly how Hades would react; he'd grumble and say something about beginner's luck, but he'd beam with pride at the same time. Then Nico would tell Persephone and Minos and Hecate and Nyx, he'd text Ganymede and Isis and Ariadne and thank them for believing in him. They'd all helped in their own way, after all.
Only, he couldn't tell anyone. He wasn't sure how good Artemis was at keeping secrets. Surely some of her hunters had friends outside of the group. Word would eventually get out about having seen him. But her gift of the lunula might not be mentioned, even if the rest of the tale was told. It was smarter if he pretended none of it had ever happened, just in case.
But Nyx knew. He'd felt her presence, and he knew she'd been protecting him. He could talk to her. There was no point pretending she didn't already know everything he was planning regarding Bianca; he was sure she did. It would be a good opportunity to find out more about Thanatos and the Doors of Death, too.
His heart was racing. There was more to figure out, but he had a real chance at this now, thanks to Artemis. Bianca might really come back to life. He'd get to talk to her, hug her. He'd get his best friend back.
Only, in exchange for her life, he'd had to sell her back to Artemis. He accepted that it had probably been inevitable. Bianca had chosen eternity with the goddess, after all. He hoped, desperately, that Bianca would find a way to make time for him in spite of that. Surely she'd make it a priority to see him frequently after everything he'd done for her.
He saw the Necromanteion in the distance and quickened his pace. He had to stay focused. Fretting about their relationship could come after she was returned to life. They would have time to sort things out, but he had to stay on task.
“Lyside!” He called out as he entered the temple. He hurried down the stairs and past the lit area with informational signs. He clutched the lunula in his fist, the chain wrapped around his hand. “Lyside?”
He stood in the chamber with the bones and gems set into the floor and looked around, sensing her presence lurking nearby. She was hiding, resisting him for some reason.
“Lyside, come out,” he said firmly. “I know you're here.”
Lyside shimmered into being in front of him.
“Oh, dang it,” she muttered.
“Where were you?”
“Um well, the truth is,” she said, brushing ghostly hair out of her face. “I was hiding.”
“Hiding? Why?”
“I don't know,” she said. “I got nervous about the prospect of seeing my children again. What if they're angry with me for leaving them? What if it's awkward?”
“I'm sure they'll be happy to see you,” Nico said.
“I may not even recognize them,” she admitted.
“You will,” Nico said. “You're their mom. You know their souls better than anyone.”
“I hope so,” she said, still worried. “I don't know what came over me. I've been alone here for so long I suppose I got used to it.”
“That's not your fault,” Nico said. “You're not where you're meant to be. That needs to be set right.”
Lyside shimmered anxiously, her semi-translucent form wavering like water.
“Take my hand,” Nico offered.
She took his hand, and her form solidified. Her hand felt cool, but not corpse-cool, in his. He looked down and saw long fingers covered in rings, muscular from weaving, with manicured nails.
A new light entered her eyes, and she looked at him curiously, her mind becoming more lucid than it had been in millenia.
“I'm Nico,” he said, seeing the question about to come to her lips. “Son of Hades.”
“Oh, my,” she said, eyes going wide. “You honor me with your notice, divine prince.”
“I'm nobody special,” Nico admitted. “Although I am having a pretty good day today. I just killed two dragons.”
Nico told her the entire story of the dragon slaying, leaving out the part about why he was doing it, for ease of storytelling. All the while, he and Lyside walked down the dark and winding passageways of the Necromanteion until they reached the exit.
Lyside had been sufficiently distracted by the story up until the waters of the Acheron came into view. She hesitated at the top of the narrow stair, gripping Nico's hand tightly.
“Charon?” He called out. The boat soon floated around the bend, and Charon tipped his hat to them as he docked before the stairs.
“Does she seem familiar?” Nico asked Charon. Charon tilted his head affirmatively.
“You know what, I think I forgot my coin,” Lyside said, a look of sudden panic entering her eyes. “Let me run back and grab it.”
“I'm not letting go of your hand,” Nico said, smiling at her. “Come on. Last boat ride ever. You should try to enjoy it.”
She nodded and followed him into the boat. They sat together at one end as Charon pushed off the dock and proceeded back into the Underworld.
“You don't have to pay twice,” Nico reassured her. She didn't seem comforted.
He knew that holding her hand was making her experience this more consciously, and that letting go would help her relax, but he didn't want to risk her disappearing. He'd seen shades slip in and out of sight unexpectedly, faster than the eye could track them, more times than he could count. He also didn't mind if she was a bit nervous. It didn't seem cruel to let her experience the feeling one last time. Quite the opposite, Nico thought that if it was him in her place, he'd want to feel everything for as long as he could, so long as there was a definite end point. And for her, there was. Soon she'd never have another worry for the rest of eternity.
“I envy you,” he said. “I would give anything to be with my family forever.”
“Is there a reason you can't?” She asked.
“I'm hoping someday it will happen,” he said. “There's just things I have to do first.”
She nodded.
“My husband pushed me down the stairs after an argument,” she said. “I wasn't ready to die. The death itself wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I just wish I'd had time to get my affairs in order. I left my things a mess, and I know my daughters fought over my jewelry. I'd have labeled who got what if I'd only had time.”
“I'm sure they worked it out eventually,” Nico said.
“I guess I'll find out soon enough,” Lyside said. She was beginning to look a little more hopeful about her return to the Fields.
They passed the entrance to Hecate's cave and wound further upriver until they stopped at the edge of the Fields. The shades began to crowd together on the shore to see them. Nico had to wave them away, pushing them backwards so that Lyside had an open space to disembark.
“It feels good to be here again,” she said, looking around. “Like coming back to your own bed after traveling.”
Nico glanced around and didn't see any shades that appeared to know her.
“Say your children's names,” he told Lyside.
She spoke four names aloud, and Nico repeated after her. As he spoke, four shades appeared before them in turn.
After a moment of confusion at being summoned, each of them exclaimed their joy and embraced Lyside excitedly. She apologized profusely for her absence, but Nico stopped her.
“None of this was your mother's fault,” Nico said.
“We know,” said one of her sons. “She's always been like this, taking too much blame on her shoulders. It's time to quit worrying now, mother!”
Lyside was soon surrounded by her children and the grandchildren and great grandchildren she'd never met, her parents and friends and neighbors, and she did indeed look like all thought of worry had left her. Nico watched her gradually become a part of the mass of shades, and her speech, once intelligible, began to sound like all the other soft whispers of the fields. The brief spark of happiness at reunion faded into a bland and uneventful eternity, one where she could be at peace, spending forever with the people she'd always loved.
She gave Nico one last glance, whispered, 'thank you,' and disappeared.
Nico stared at the grey mass of shades for a while and took it all in.
He'd killed two dragons today, and gotten the magical necklace that would bring Bianca back to life. He'd finally started acting like a half decent demigod, surpassing every expectation he'd had of himself.
Somehow, bringing Lyside home felt a thousand times more heroic.
He couldn't stop smiling. His heart felt full, but he was beginning to feel a deep exhaustion creeping in after the events of the day. He walked back to the palace and headed straight to his room, collapsing on his bed with the lunula clenched tightly in his hand. He held it over his heart and closed his eyes.
Sleep took him unexpectedly, almost violently, as he was yanked into a dream alongside Maria Bova in Litochoro again. She was in the kitchen, speaking quietly on the phone that hung from the wall.
Nico was at the small table in the kitchen, looking at a sheet of raw pasta dough sitting on the table that was waiting to be cut into the proper shapes. He could hear Rosa in the dining area talking in heavily accented Greek with the guests, which made it hard to eavesdrop on Maria.
He stood and walked over to stand beside her, leaning against the wall.
“I know, Zia, but she won't listen to me,” Maria said, her voice tight with fear. “She says the doctors here don't know anything. They don't impress me either, but isn't that all the more reason to get a second opinion? Can you try to convince her-- I know she's stubborn, but this is serious, she could-- She could... I've got to go,” she said. “No, she's not coming, I just can't keep talking about this. I have ravioli to make, and you're not being helpful.”
Maria hung up the phone hard, slamming the receiver into place and breaking down in tears of frustration and fear. Nico guessed that her mom's heart wasn't doing well and she was scared for her health. He wished there was something he could do, but he wasn't sure what anyone could do short of tranquilize Rosa and tie her to her bed. It was Rosa's life, and hers to spend as she wished. She sounded happy, laughing loudly in the dining area even as her daughter wept into her pasta dough in the next room.
Nico sat at the table and watched as Maria rolled out the dough expertly. She shifted her weight and moved with the rolling pin rather than rolling with her arms; probably to save her arm strength for more kitchen tasks later.
Maria had to keep stopping and wiping her eyes. Nico watched helplessly, wanting more than anything to give her a big hug. He didn't need to see it to know that she'd probably never started the singing lessons with the muses that she'd been looking forward to in his last dream. Maria would never spend time on herself when her mother needed her, especially not when she was sick.
This beautiful young woman with the voice of an angel was trapped in this kitchen and miserable. Nico sighed, pressing a finger into the pasta dough. Normally he'd never violate good pasta like that, but he was in a dream and couldn't actually harm it.
“Maria,” he said. “I know it feels like you're alone, but you're not. I promise I'm here and I'm looking out for you. I don't think there's anything I can do right now, but someday I'll pay you back for what you did for me. That's a promise.”
He woke up after finishing his sentence, and didn't have time to register the indentation his finger had left in the dough.
Notes:
I got my copy of Emily Wilson's translation of the Odyssey today. It's great, I'm really enjoying it so far. If anyone is interested in reading the Odyssey but has had trouble getting started, her version is very clear and approachable, the writing is modern and easy to follow, and it has a great, fast paced flow. I highly recommend it!
Chapter 22: We Need a New Plague
Chapter Text
“Wake up, sleepy,” Persephone said. Nico opened his eyes and saw Persephone standing at the end of his bed, gently shaking his ankle.
“I'll wake him,” Hades said, lurking in the doorway.
“We're not pouring water on him,” Persephone snapped. “See, he's awake. Nico, hi, hello! Did you rest well?”
“Where have you been?” Hades snapped. “Charon said you went out. It's not easy to get details out of him.”
Nico sat up, blinking groggily. His vision was still overlapped with Maria's kitchen, and he had to concentrate to snap back into reality.
He waved his hand and lit the candles in his room so that he could see them better, using a fire spell Hecate had taught him.
“That was good! Very graceful,” Persephone said. “Hecate's taught you well. Were you with her? She's out, too, but she's hasn't come back yet.”
Persephone sat on the end of his bed, and Hades leaned against the doorframe, his arms folded. Nico quickly tried to remember the version of the story he'd decided to tell them.
“Hecate sent me to deliver new lunulae to Artemis,” he said. “She's dropping off her new baby at the dad's house.”
“She didn't tell me there was a new baby!” Persephone said in dismay. “Sometimes she lets me smell them. Did you know that new babies smell exactly like springtime? What did this one smell like?”
“I didn't hold it to find out,” Nico said. “I felt like I'd be a bad influence on him.”
“You're just like your father,” Persephone scoffed. “You don't give yourself enough credit. You two have kind and loving hearts. What's the bad influence in that?”
There was a brief, awkward silence where Nico felt both uncomfortable with the praise and skeptical that it applied to his father in the same way it did to him.
“Anyway,” Hades said loudly. “I see you have a lunula there. Why do you have that? You know I don't care to have Olympian artifacts lying around.”
“I'm an Olympian artifact, dear,” Persephone smiled.
“You're the exception,” Hades said. “But I don't like for Artemis to be giving you gifts and influencing you unduly, Nico. She is clever and likes to play games with people. She rarely loses, either.”
Nico was pretty sure Artemis's mindset had been closer to that of her brother Apollo when he'd thrown the earrings at Nico as he was leaving his room on Olympus-- 'Take this and lose my number.' He doubted Artemis expected to see him again.
But he couldn't explain that to his father, or he'd have to tell about her helping him resurrect Bianca. Hades had allowed Nico's research, but he would never tolerate an Olympian meddling in something so personal for him.
“Artemis gave this to me because it was Bianca's,” Nico said. “I think she felt guilty about what happened. It's just a memento.”
Hades looked down at it in Nico's hands.
“I doubt she feels guilty, but you may keep it. Perhaps having something of hers will help you to move on.”
Nico's immediate reaction was to get very angry at the implication that he'd ever move on from Bianca, and he would have said, or more likely shouted, something nasty to show his father how unwelcome the comment was. But he held back, because Persephone quickly reached out and grabbed his foot through his blanket and squeezed it to get his attention.
“It's okay,” she said once he was looking at her. “We know you need to move at your own pace. Your father just wants you to be happy.”
“That is not the only reason I want him to let her go,” Hades said firmly. “But never mind. Dear, don't you have a meeting to prepare for?”
“I do,” she said. “Nico, I want you to attend the all-hands meeting on the Asphodel terrace. I'd like you to wear the uniform I got you.”
“Uniform?” Nico said. “I didn't know that was a thing.”
“I'm trying something new,” she said firmly. “You'll understand when I go over it at the meeting. You know the outfit I'm talking about? The special one?”
He nodded, and she and Hades left to go prepare for the meeting.
Nico went over to his pile of clothing and picked through it, looking for his uniform. He had designer t-shirts, athleisure, and a cool leather jacket-- he set that aside for later. Then his fingers touched something that was undoubtedly special.
He picked it up and examined it. It was a simple black chiton made of Stygian silk. At a glance it looked like a handful of shiny black fabric, but it felt cool to the touch and lighter than air.
Stygian silk was a safe choice for an Underworld uniform, he thought, since he'd seen all the Cthonic gods wear it at some point or another. A Greek chiton was also a safe choice, because everyone would already be used to them. Everyone but him, anyway.
He looked at it in confusion. How did one wear a rectangle, exactly?
He picked up the golden pomegranate pin that had come with it, and tried to pin the chiton on a couple of times. He must have been doing something wrong, because it was open on the side. Nobody from ancient Greece would bat an eye, but it was showing way too much skin for his liking. Nico couldn't even look in the mirror without yanking it closed and trying to pull the bottom of the skirt down further.
He fought with the garment for a few minutes, growing increasingly frustrated with himself. He'd seen about a million of them depicted both in art and in person, but he'd never thought to study the mechanics of how you draped and pinned it so that one part of you or another wasn't hanging out for the world to see.
“Knock knock,” someone said from outside his doorway. Nico froze, chiton wrapped awkwardly around his frame. He glanced at the open doorway and saw that Minos was standing there watching him.
“Queen Persephone sent me in case you needed help,” Minos said. “Do you?”
Ancient Greeks weren't phased by nudity, so he knew Minos was just politely looking and not staring. Nico wished he could feel that casually about bodies, but he had been raised Roman Catholic and the damage had been done. He tried not to blush and stutter his way through his response.
“It's probably obvious that I don't know what I'm doing,” Nico said, embarassed that he hadn't been able to figure out something so simple. “Can you help?”
“Sure,” Minos said, strolling in. “Stygian silk,” he observed, running his fingers along the fabric of the chiton. “That's fine stuff. It suits you,” he said, smiling fondly at Nico.
Nico flushed, and Minos hesitated with his hands on the chiton, taking in Nico's nervous posture.
“I'm not making you uncomfortable, am I?” Minos said.
“I asked you to help me,” Nico said.
“I know. But if you change your mind, feel free to say so,” Minos said, pinning the top part of the chiton together on Nico's shoulder with the golden pomegranate pin. “I'm here to serve you.”
This tanned and broad shouldered ancient king, here to serve him? Nico's heart pounded. This situation was exactly what he'd been hoping would happen, and he was questioning whether it was real or if Hypnos was sending him a really awesome dream.
“If I want you to stop, I'll tell you to stop,” Nico said firmly. Minos grinned.
“Thus speaks the prince of the underworld. I'll obey your every command,” he said playfully, tucking a lock of black hair behind Nico's ear.
“I'm not the prince,” Nico muttered.
“You are to me,” Minos said softly, making sure the diagonal fold on the front of Nico's chiton was arranged neatly. He walked over to the side table with the pile of clothing on it, picking up a thin belt that Nico had missed. He tied it around Nico's waist, and the chiton was complete, no longer partly open and in danger of accidentally flashing everyone in the meeting.
“Why didn't I think of that?” Nico said.
“You've really never worn this before?”
“No,” Nico said. “The Aphrodite cabin hosted traditional dress parties sometimes, but I never went. I wasn't big on participation.”
“That's a shame,” Minos said. “The look suits you. You'd have been the most beautiful one in the room. No one would be able to take their eyes off you.”
“At an Aphrodite kid party? Be serious,” Nico said, thinking the idea was ridiculous. If Aphrodite kids were staring at him, it could only be because they'd mistaken him for a sewer rat and were planning on chasing him out with a broom.
“I stand by what I said. I don't know why you think so little of yourself,” he said, putting a hand on Nico's shoulder and turning him to look in the mirror. “You are greatly admired.”
Nico looked at his reflection, seeing a tall, pale and thin young man staring back at him. His nose was too long, his cheekbones too prominent, and he had dark circles under his eyes. There was nothing special or princely about him. But he caught Minos's eye in the mirror, and he saw the way Minos was looking at him.
“Greatly admired?” Nico said. “By who? Cerberus?” He wanted to hear Minos say it outright. It was hard for him to believe it was possible that anyone could want him. Because of that, if Minos left the slightest hint of doubt, Nico would seize on it and gaslight himself into thinking that Minos was just humoring him. He wanted more certainty.
They were standing so close that Minos could probably hear his heart beating.
“By everyone,” Minos said, breaking their eye contact in the mirror and turning away.
Nico reached up and placed his hand on top of Minos' where it rested on his shoulder.
“Minos,” he said, turning around to face him. “I--”
“We're running late,” Minos said quietly. “We shouldn't keep the King and Queen waiting.”
Disappointed, Nico withdrew his hand and stepped away.
“Oh,” he said. “Fine.” He tried not to be bitter about it, but he felt like he'd just been rejected, again. He'd rather Minos ignore him than lead him on. He thought about telling him so, but Mino had reached into a fold of his himation and drawn something out.
“Before we go, I got you something,” he said quietly. “Nothing particularly rare, but I hope you'll accept it. After you gave me the bracelet, I couldn't help myself.”
Nico saw the bronze bracelet flashing on Minos's wrist and smiled. He'd forgotten about that, but he supposed if Minos was still wearing it, it was a good sign.
He held out his hand, and Minos placed a small ring onto his palm. It was pale white, carved from human bone. It would only fit on his pinky.
“I found a good quality femur in the Styx and worked on this between judgements,” Minos said. “What do you think?”
Nico slid it on his finger and smiled.
“I really like it,” he said. “Thank you.”
Minos nodded.
“Perhaps it's better if you tell your father it came from someone else,” he added hesitantly.
“I know. Don't worry,” Nico said. “We'll keep it between us.”
“If this were my palace,” Minos said, looking a bit sad. “I'd give you roosters with fine plumage and lovely bull calves for sacrifice. Everything a youth could want. But we are in a different time and place, and now I am a mere servant in your father's kingdom. What I can do is very limited.”
“Don't feel bad about that,” Nico reassured him. “It's the thought that counts. I'm not sure what I'd do with roosters anyway,” he added. “I really like the ring.”
“Good,” Minos said. “But as I said, please be careful not to speak of it to anyone. Let's not test your father's patience too much, or I doubt we'll so much as speak to each other for the rest of eternity.”
“Yeah. You're right,” Nico said, smiling and touching his new ring. “I'm ready to go now.”
He followed Minos out to the Asphodel balcony, in a far brighter mood now that he'd been reassured his affections were returned. On the balcony, he saw that Persephone was standing at the edge, looking out over the fields with her hands behind her back. Nico was looking forward to hearing her speak to her staff. It would be his first time at a formal Underworld meeting, and he was sure it would be interesting.
Minos went to join the other judges. They were standing in the center of the balcony beside the Furies, who were tapping their taloned feet and glaring at the late arrivals. Charon stood at their side, his hat tilted over his face. Nico thought he might be asleep.
Hades stood off to one side with Cerberus at his feet, and Nico went to stand with him, giving the big dog a good scratch behind all six ears. He had to be careful to avoid ruining his new clothes with globs of dog slobber. Cerberus rolled over and even let him rub his belly.
“We're still waiting on people. Nearly everyone is late, as usual. What is this, Olympus?” Hades said, making Nico laugh.
“Do most people down here even have a way to tell time?”
“No, but that's no excuse,” Hades said. “I may send you to wake Hypnos up if he takes much longer.”
“Am I finally going to meet Thanatos?” Nico asked.
“No, he wasn't invited,” Hades said. “He is far too behind on his work to afford to attend lengthy meetings. Is that the uniform? Persephone did an excellent job, as usual,” he said proudly. “Though I'm not sure her plan will bear fruit, I am supporting her efforts nonetheless, and I expect you to do the same.”
“You know I will,” Nico said. “I'd do anything for her.”
“I know,” Hades said, and smiled down at Nico fondly. “You could have at least run a comb through your hair,” he added, growing stern again quickly.
Nico grumbled and ran a hand through his curls, feeling self conscious.
“Ah! You must be my fellow model,” Hecate said, walking up to stand beside Nico. She was wearing a near identical chiton, in the longer feminine cut, with the same golden pomegranate clasp on her shoulder. “It's comfy, but it's not really my style,” she whispered.
“Not your style? This isn't even my time period,” Nico laughed. “You know these clothes are ancient history to me, right?”
“I think of them as timeless,” Hecate said. “I just prefer a bit of color. It looks great on you. But your hair is a mess. Here.” She waved her hand at Nico's head, and, although he couldn't see it, he could tell she'd styled his hair for him.
“Better,” Hades grumbled.
“When's the fashion show?” A familiar voice called out. Hermes floated down to the center of the balcony on his winged shoes, forcing the judges and furies to move backward quickly to accommodate him. He glanced around at everyone curiously, and his animated demeanor and constant movement making him stand out from the others like a sore thumb. Nico immediately felt annoyance radiating off of his father.
“Soon, Hermes,” Persephone said, turning around for the first time since Nico had come out. She had a small stack of flashcards clutched in her hand. “How are you?”
“Busy, busy, busy,” he said. “Just the way I like it. What's the matter with you? You look worried.”
“Not worried, just trying to organize my thoughts before I make my announcements,” she said, glancing over Hermes' shoulder at Nico and smiling at him. She turned back around just in time to see Hypnos and Morpheus flying up to land on the balcony as well.
Hypnos greeted Hermes politely, and Morpheus ran straight over to Nico and hugged him.
“Hey, dude,” Nico said, patting his head of fluffy curls. “What's up?”
“You kept your promise,” Morpheus said quietly. “Thank you.”
“You're welcome,” Nico said. He'd almost forgotten that he'd been reading to his father to give Hypnos more time with his family. It had stopped feeling like a chore quickly and become a normal, even relaxing way to spend time with Hades. Odd that giving Morpheus more time with his father had helped him to get along better with his own.
“Boys, hush,” Hades said, as Persephone turned around and cleared her throat. Hypnos stepped aside to stand with Hecate, and Morpheus stayed in front of Nico.
Persephone was not tall for a goddess, but standing before everyone, she commanded the crowd, and no one looked anywhere but at her. She glowed with confidence, grace, and authority, and Nico was thrilled to see her acting in her formal capacity as the Queen of the Underworld for the first time.
“First of all, thank you to everyone for being here. I know we all have busy schedules to keep, but it's important we don't lose sight of the forest for the trees. With respect to everyone's time, I'll try to speak straightforwardly. The work we do here is crucial to the functioning of all human sleep and death on the surface, and we need to keep our team operating at the highest possible level of efficiency if we have any hope of keeping up with the increased demands of these times we are currently in. Population growth has kept us on our toes for the last few centuries, but I wanted to share something with you that I read from a mortal scientific journal.”
“Pfft. What do those mortals know about anything?” Hermes said.
Cerberus growled at him, and Hades muttered something threatening, but Persephone pretended she hadn't heard.
“The good news is, the mortal population is expected to peak in 2080,” she said. “That is the hardest our work will ever be, and from there it should begin to grow easier once more!”
There were scattered cheers, and Hypnos applauded quite a bit. Morpheus tugged at Nico's chiton and looked up at him.
“I'm so relieved,” he said.
Nico frowned, but said nothing.
“What's the bad news?” Alecto croaked.
“In 2080, the global population is projected to peak at 10.4 billion people,” Persephone said calmly.
The balcony went silent.
“That has to be a typo,” Hypnos said flatly.
“How is that possible?” Aeacus demanded. “There's not enough farmland to feed all those people, is there?”
Minos glanced at Nico, panicked. Nico felt for him. Minos couldn't imagine a world with high-rise skyscrapers full of thousands of people packed closely together, living in cities where hundreds of identical towers full of people stretched to the sky, all of them fed by mass produced packaged food. It was beyond explanation to someone whose reference point lay thousands of years in the past.
“How many are we at now?” Hermes said, frowning.
“Around 8 billion,” she said.
“That's a twenty five percent increase in sixty years time,” Hermes said. “More than that, actually.”
Everyone began talking at once, mainly exclaiming their disbelief and horror. Morpheus sat on the ground and started crying.
“I can't do it,” he whimpered. “I can't. It's just too many dreams.”
Hypnos looked too shell-shocked to comfort his son, so Nico knelt beside Morpheus and patted him on the back.
“It's just sixty more years, and then it will get better,” Nico said. “It'll be over before you know it.”
“This is why the news had to come from her,” Hades said quietly. Nico suddenly understood better than before why his father was so worn out and short tempered. His job was growing harder by the day at an exponential rate.
“Did everybody just stop using contraception all of a sudden?” Hecate asked Nico, looking confused.
“People aren't having that many children,” Nico said. “But modern medicine keeps the ones they do have alive for almost a century each. The diseases that killed kids I went to school with have all been cured now.”
“Selfish fucks,” Hecate spat. “New plague! Who's with me?”
“Apollo tried that already,” Hermes said. “It barely made a dent.”
“Everyone, please quiet down,” Persephone said sternly. “The population is outside of our control. We need to focus on the aspects of this that we can do something about. The most important thing is that we help each other as much as possible. Most of this burden will fall on Hypnos and Thanatos, who will be serving populations larger than they ever have before. As their lieutenants, Morpheus and Hermes, you will be expected to expand your roles to assist them.”
Morpheus was already doing that, and he was at the end of his rope. Nico squeezed his hand reassuringly, but it didn't seem to help much. Morpheus just hung his head in despair.
“I can't work any more hours down here than I already am,” Hermes said flatly.
“Hermes, we've discussed this,” Persephone sighed.
“Ad nauseam. It's not happening,” he shrugged. “Complain to dad if you don't like it.”
Persephone looked defeated, but she moved on quickly.
“I know we have a great team down here and we will all be supporting when and where we can,” she said. “We will also be implementing new efficiency plans. We've identified a bottleneck in processing at the punishment stage that we'll address in a follow up meeting--”
“I can't whip any faster!” Alecto snapped.
“And we have new tools to assist in teamwork and communication. Nico, Hecate, if you please.” She waved them over, and Nico and Hecate walked over to stand in front of the group.
Rhadamanthys wolf whistled at Nico, elbowing Minos obnoxiously, but Hecate pretended it was for her and winked at him, making everyone laugh.
“These are the new uniforms,” Persephone said. “Completely optional, but they will be made of Stygian silk, custom tailored for each of you. It's a top of the line performance material that helps you move ten percent more quietly and five percent faster. It's also sweat wicking and allows total freedom of movement. Studies have shown that uniforms increase feelings of belonging and cooperation, and new clothes are effective mood boosters as well. And aren't they just too cute?”
Hecate did a little spin, but Nico was too uncomfortable in front of the group to show off. He just stood still and waited for it to be over.
“Thank you, Hecate. Nico, hang around a moment longer,” Persephone said, taking Hecate's spot beside him and putting her hand on his shoulder. “Another announcement! For those who don't already have them, you will be receiving new top of the line Iris brand cell phones to aid speedy communication. Each phone have an app called 'Styx' pre-installed that you can click on to see up-to-date metrics and projections on the latest sleep, dreaming, and death statistics.” She waved her hands, and black cell phones identical to the kind Nico had appeared in the hands of the judges and the furies, as well as Charon. Everyone else pulled out phones that were buzzing, presumably with the notification of a new app being downloaded.
“I'm hoping we can find a young and hip volunteer to teach everyone how to use them,” Persephone said, poking Nico in the back.
“I volunteer,” he said.
“Wonderful!” She said happily. “Now for awards. Morpheus, can you come over here, please?”
Morpheus approached her, his mood appearing to lift at the mention of an award.
“Morpheus, in recognition of all you do to serve your father and this realm, you are chosen to receive this year's Cthonic god of the year award!” She said, waving a hand and crowning him with laurels. Instead of real laurel leaves, the crown was instead fashioned with perfect imitation laurel carved from ebony. It was beautiful, shining and black and very sharp. Morpheus touched it with awe, grinning, as everyone applauded.
“Congrats,” Nico said. He moved to step aside so that Morpheus could have the spotlight, but Persephone didn't let go of his shoulder.
“We also have a new program called the Sticker of Helpfulness that will be given out weekly,” Persephone added. “Nico, Charon nominated you for this week's sticker for your assistance in rescuing a lost shade from the Necromanteion! Everyone, Nico found a shade who'd been improperly summoned to the temple and had gotten stuck. Somehow he got her unstuck and managed to bring her back to Asphodel. And he didn't even mention it to anyone, he just helped because he wanted to. For that, he earns the sticker.”
She waved a hand, and a big purple pomegranate sticker was stuck to the front of his chiton.
“Thanks,” he said, feeling bashful.
“No, thank you,” she said. She shooed him back to stand with his father and continued her presentation. She went over various graphs and charts for a while, which Nico found interesting enough that he managed to pay attention until the end. After she wrapped up the presentation, she encouraged everyone to convene in the dining room for complimentary snacks and beverages.
She and Hades went back to their office, Cerberus trotting along behind them, and Nico shuffled over to the dining room with the others. Charon stood awkwardly in the corner while everyone else took their seats at the long table laden with the usual feast.
“You can sit next to me,” Nico said, beckoning him to sit beside him on the bench.
Charon sat down and stared at the food, unmoving.
“He doesn't eat,” Hypnos said, sitting on Nico's other side. He looked more worn out than usual.
Nico watched as Charon tried to put his new phone in his mouth and bite it.
“Uh, you don't want to do that,” Nico said, gently pulling Charon's skeletal hand away from his jagged, rotten teeth. “I'll show you how it works later. Thank you for nominating me for the sticker, by the way.”
Charon inclined his head silently.
Nico turned his attention to Hypnos. He was looking at Morpheus, who was sitting further down the table. He was excitedly bragging to Hecate about his new crown, which he was looking forward to wearing for the next year.
“He really earned that,” Nico said.
“He did,” Hypnos said. “I'm so proud of him. I just wish things weren't going to get so much harder. I can handle whatever, but he shouldn't have to carry my burdens. He's still so young.”
Nico was going to say something about Morpheus being thousands of years old, but he remembered that Hypnos had hypothetically been born at roughly the beginning of time, and Morpheus had been born sometime between the Trojan war and the time of Ovid's writing. No wonder Hypnos saw him as a child; the gulf between their ages was fairly immense.
“I'm trying to relax and not think about it. There's nothing I can do about the human population,” Hypnos said, tucking into some fried halloumi with a sigh.
Nico served himself some food, too, but as he ate, he was distracted with listening to the conversations around the table. The Furies were telling Hecate about their murder shows, Morpheus was already downloading games onto his new phone, and the judges were arguing with Hermes further down the table about how the minifridge worked. Unsurprisingly, they were dead certain it was functional despite Hermes' attempts to explain that it needed electricity to work.
Nico found that, to his surprise, he really did feel a sense of comraderie with them. He wouldn't have minded hanging out and chatting with them all day. It was nice to feel like he was part of a team and perhaps contributing to something larger than himself.
It was a shame he wouldn't be sticking around much longer once he resurrected Bianca. He was going to miss them all.
“Hey,” Hermes said. In typical Hermes fashion, he'd moved from one side of the room to another faster than Nico could see. He sat down across from Nico. “Long time no see. I didn't realize you were working here.”
“For the moment,” Nico said.
“You say that like you're going somewhere,” Hermes said, raising his eyebrows. “Leaving so soon?”
Nico felt weirdly unsettled by Hermes's questioning.
“Work peaks in sixty years, right?” Hermes continued. “That aligns pretty well with your projected lifespan. Seems like your old man would want to keep you on for at least that long. Maybe longer.”
“Longer?” Nico frowned.
“After you died, wouldn't you just keep working here like nothing had happened?” Hermes asked lightly.
The suggestion bothered Nico. That was totally out of line with all of his other plans, but he understood why Hermes had jumped to the conclusion. Minos, Aeacus, and Rhadamanthys had once been demigods, too, and now they were employed for eternity.
“Actually, I have other plans for my life and afterlife that don't involve working here forever,” Nico said. “It's no secret I'm resurrecting my sister Bianca, and then I'm out of here. We're out of here,” he corrected himself quickly.
“To do what?”
“Whatever she wants, I guess,” he said, thinking about her obligation to Artemis with dread.
“Wasn't she a hunter of Artemis?” Hermes said, picking up a carrot stick and crunching on it slowly, his eyes never leaving Nico.
“Mhm,” Nico said tersely.
“Seems to me the hunters of Artemis wouldn't care too much for draggin' a man around with them,” Hermes said, smirking at Nico as he emphasized the word 'draggin'.
Nico hesitated. He hated that Hermes obviously knew what happened with the dragons. His gut twisted with fear. If Hades found out the Olympians knew more about Nico than he did, he wouldn't be happy.
“I know it's complicated,” Nico said. “I'm just tackling one thing at a time.”
“Fair enough,” Hermes said, still looking amused in a way that made Nico nervous. If an Olympian was happy, it was probably at his expense, he knew instinctively. Hermes may have worked down here part time, but his demeanor made Nico suspect he didn't feel a sense of camaraderie.
“Are you and Thanatos the only psychopomps?” Nico asked.
“Yep,” Hermes said.
“That's not true,” Hypnos snapped. “Charon is one too.”
“Meh, he doesn't really count,” Hermes said.
Hypnos glared at Hermes, and Nico looked at Charon. He hadn't moved or made any sound, but Nico could tell he was hurt by Hermes' dismissal.
“You definitely count, Charon,” Nico said. “Sorry, I should have realized that before I asked. Um, anyway, Hermes, I was asking because I was wondering if Thanatos already knows about the population growth projections.”
The table went silent.
“Uh, no,” Hermes said. “And we've already decided we're not telling him.”
“Why not? Isn't it going to effect him more than anyone?” Nico asked.
“Yeah, which is why he can't find out,” Hermes said. “That guy is a weirdo; there's no telling how he'll react to big news like that.”
“Change is hard for old gods to cope with,” Hecate said. “Thanatos has been struggling for a long time as it is. It's not as though we know for certain the projections will come to pass. It would scare him needlessly.”
“Hypnos, you look like you don't agree,” Nico said.
Hypnos scratched behind his ear, looking like he'd rather talk about anyone else.
“It's true that my brother is sensitive and a little unpredictable lately,” he admitted. “I know him better than anyone, and I can't say how he'd react to the news. If he's going to hear it from anybody, it ought to be from our mother, but she's so detached from human affairs I think she'd laugh if we told her some scientists had predicted something with math, you know? So it's probably best to just drop it.” he said.
Beside him, Charon groaned quietly, and Nico sensed the two of them were of one mind. It seemed like Thanatos was an issue everyone would rather avoid, but something about it didn't seem right to Nico.
“Nico, dear, come here a moment,” Persephone called out.
“Coming!” Nico said. “Don't eat your phone, Charon,” Nico said, patting him on the shoulder and leaving.
Chapter 23: Aristos Achaion
Chapter Text
Nico went to the office where Persephone and Hades were waiting. Persephone was seated at her desk, working on her computer, and Hades had pulled his chair up beside her to look at her screen.
“You guys aren't eating with everyone else?” Nico asked.
“No, not this time,” Persephone said. “I wanted to do a postmortem and see if there was anything I could have improved in my presentation.”
“Improved? I thought you were perfect,” Nico said.
“Agreed,” Hades echoed him.
Persephone chuckled to herself.
“You boys are sweet. But I enjoy the challenge of trying to improve myself from time to time, even if it isn't necessary. Nico, I want to talk about the Necromanteion.” She clicked through a few pages of her spreadsheet. “How many other shades did you see there?”
“I'm not sure,” Nico said. “At least thirty or forty.”
“How did you get the one to return?” Hades asked.
“I just talked to her,” Nico said. “She tried to make a run for it a couple of times, but I managed to keep a hold of her.”
“How would you feel about bringing back the rest?” Persephone asked, smiling at Nico endearingly.
“Sure, no problem,” Nico said immediately.
“Fascinating,” Hades said dryly. “Immediate acquiescence, with no shouting or complaining? If I didn't know better I'd say you liked her better than me.”
“Duh,” Nico said. Persephone and Hades both laughed.
“Oh, Nico,” Persephone sighed, beckoning for him to walk closer to her. “I was so proud of you today. I don't have the words to describe my joy at having you here with us.” She reached up and cupped his cheek, looking into his face with affection. “Nico, there's something I want to tell you,” she said, swallowing hard.
“Yes?” Nico asked. Hades turned and looked at her curiously.
She hesitated, then seemed to think better of what she was going to say.
“It's alright. Go back to the meal with the others. I've kept you long enough,” she said, turning back to her computer screen.
What was it she'd wanted to say? Nico couldn't begin to guess, but he had an odd feeling it was something important. He walked out of the room and paused. On impulse, he ducked around the corner, shook his head to activate his earrings, and snuck back to the office, waiting just outside the door.
“What was that about?” Hades asked.
“Nothing important,” she said tersely.
“It sounded important. Is there something you aren't telling me?” Hades insisted. “Normally I let you keep your secrets, but if it involves him, don't you think I ought to know?”
She hesitated to answer. Nico peered around the door and managed to see her face. She looked... Guilty?
“You want to make him immortal, don't you,” Hades said softly. “I can read you like a book, my love.”
She turned to him.
“You can, can you?” She said. “Well, what do you think of the idea?”
“It's not worth discussing,” Hades said. “He'd turn it down. I doubt any of my children would have ever sought such a thing. It's against their nature.”
“You're sure about that?”
“Definitely,” Hades said. “Once this mess with Bianca is resolved, he'll want to be with his mother in Elysium. If you'd seen him when I brought him to visit her, you'd understand how important it is to him.”
Persephone heaved a sigh.
“I was afraid you'd say that,” she mumbled.
“You'll still be able to visit him,” Hades said. “Don't worry. Your little pet's not going anywhere.”
“He's not my little pet,” she said sharply. “He's my stepson. He's part of our family.”
“It's a nice sentiment, my love, but I want you to keep your expectations realistic,” Hades said. “He is only here so long as it suits him. He won't hesitate to betray us if he thinks it will help him revive Bianca.”
“You don't know that,” Persephone said.
“I do. His single minded devotion is a trait he gets from me,” Hades said, putting his arm around his wife's shoulders. “I'm sure you've noticed.”
Persephone nodded, her frustration and disappointment evident on her face.
“I don't want to talk about him anymore,” she said. “Here, look at this pivot table for me and tell me what you think.”
Nico snuck back out of the room and became visible again in the hallway. He'd had no idea Persephone liked him enough to make him immortal.
He was grateful to her, but he was even more grateful that his father had talked her out of it. Hades had been right. He wasn't planning on giving up eternity with his mother for anything. If not for Bianca, he might have already joined her eternal shopping trip by now.
His father understood him almost too well, Nico thought to himself. He recalled the deal he'd made with Artemis and felt a little less guilty knowing his dad expected him to do something like that. When the time came for Nico to steal Bianca from the Underworld's clutches and give her back to her patron goddess, Hades might not like it, but he'd understand. Hopefully he could help Persephone to understand, too. Nico wouldn't hope for any more than that. If they never spoke to him again, so be it.
He went back to the dining room and rejoined the group. Hermes had gone, and the atmosphere was much more relaxed without him. Nico attempted to explain to Minos and his brothers how a cell phone worked. He'd intended it to be a brief overview, but it wound up taking many hours to walk the judges through the process of making a single call. By the end of it, everyone had managed to dial his number at least once unassisted, and he thought that was pretty good progress.
Over the next few weeks, Nico busied himself with all of the various Underworld responsibilities he'd accumulated so far. He held more phone training sessions, went back and forth to the Necromanteion until all the shades were cleared out, and he distributed leaflets in Elysium about the poetry competition. He enjoyed the work, but more importantly, the tasks helped alleviate his guilt that he was eventually going to have to let Persephone down. He cared about her, even if he cared about Bianca more. He made time to see her frequently and talked to her about whatever she was in the mood to discuss, which ranged from advanced botany and demography research to her art, music, and fashion preferences in the modern era. She had him leave the Underworld a half dozen times to check on particular trees she wanted to Facetime with, but otherwise, they just spent quality time getting to know each other. Talking to her was like talking to someone he'd known forever, and he hated that he was keeping secrets from her.
Sometimes, when he looked at her, there was something behind her eyes he couldn't wrap his head around. She was a goddess, so that was normal. But he couldn't help but wonder whether she was keeping secrets from him, too.
As he worked in the Underworld, it slowly became evident that he had grown in his abilities quite a bit. Every spell he'd once struggled with now came as easily as breathing. For fun, he practiced manipulating stone, redesigning his furniture and rearranging his bedroom dozens of times. It helped that his furniture was mostly ebony and obsidian, which were challenging materials to work with. He liked challenging himself when no one was watching, when he could just relax and have fun with it.
He rarely saw his father without Persephone present, but on one occasion that he did, he asked whether he ought to go back to the manticore or try to make progress on his other chores. Hades told him that he ought to prioritize the tasks Persephone had given him, and worry about Hades' chores when it was just him around. That made sense to Nico, so he set those concerns aside, along with advancing his plans for Bianca. At least for a little while, he'd make Persephone happy. He owed her that much.
He slept regularly, each time hoping to encounter Maria Bova again, but he never saw her. He hoped it was a sign that things were better for her, but he weighed visiting, just in case. He just never seemed to find a good time, and there was always too much to do.
One day, he held another phone training on the banks of the Styx. Charon was the only attendee, and Nico was helping him set up an email account. The ferryman had indicated an interest in seeing the human population projections, but he needed an email address for the data to be sent directly to him. For some reason, his Styx app wasn't accessing the spreadsheets.
When he was finished talking with Charon, Aeacus came up and tapped him on the shoulder.
“I promised you a new sword trainer,” he said. “Today is the day.”
Nico followed him back to the judges stand, where the line of shades waiting for judgement had been put behind a rope divider. The judges had hung a sign on it that said, 'ON BREAK', and the shades had gathered behind the rope in a crowd of hundreds. Minos grabbed Nico's arm in excitement as he approached.
“This is an incredible opportunity for your training,” he said, looking the most excited Nico had ever seen him, which was to say, slightly. “Ask him every question that comes to mind, and try to absorb everything. This is probably the only chance you'll ever have to learn from him.”
“Who's him?” Nico asked, feeling perturbed by the unexpected change of plans. He'd forgotten all about sword training, hadn't been practicing, and was tempted to ask to reschedule.
“My grandson,” Aeacus said casually.
Nico wasn't sure why he was supposed to care about Aeacus's grandson coming to train him. Then he turned around and saw two shades approaching. One of the shades was bathed in the ethereal glow reserved for only the most powerful among the dead, like Orpheus, Dante, and the judges. The shade beside him glowed slightly less, and they walked hand in hand, slowly, through the crowds of Asphodel.
They were grown men in ancient Greek clothing, both appearing to be in the prime of their lives, one slightly taller, darker, and bearded, and other blonde and blue eyed, glowing like the sun. Their postures were relaxed, and their expressions only vaguely interested in what was going on around them.
“Aeacus, we have come to complete your request,” the taller man said, as Nico stared frozen in awe. “Who is this young hero?”
Minos shoved Nico in front of them immediately.
“Nico di Angelo, son of Hades,” Minos said. “He's a multi-talented lad, but no great master of the sword or spear. Any advice you can give him would be invaluable.”
Patroclus and Achilles both turned to look at Nico.
Nico thought he was going to pass out.
“Oh my god,” he said. “Sorry. Uh, hi. Sorry, I don't know what to say. It's actually you. I've heard so much about you.”
Achilles sighed, and Patroclus gave Nico a small, slightly sad smile.
“We're used to overwhelming our audience,” Patroclus said. “Take a moment to breathe.”
Nico had, in fact, forgotten to breathe, so the reminder was helpful.
“This is why you two needed the permit,” Aeacus said, smiling smugly. He seemed thrilled at Nico's reaction, obviously glad for the opportunity to show off his celebrity grandson.
“What was the permit for, if you don't mind me asking?” Nico asked.
“Privacy fencing for their villa in Elysium,” Aeacus said. “They had some break-ins by devoted fans.”
“Yes, and we appreciate your assistance in helping us preserve our hard-earned peace. But let us cut to the chase. What did the boy do to earn this favor from you?” Patroclus asked. Achilles gave Nico a look up and down, and raised his eyebrows skeptically.
“He fetched us a rare and coveted magical item,” Aeacus said. “Behold, gentlemen, the mini-fridge of the judges of the Underworld!” He smacked the fridge proudly, rattling the amphorae inside.
Patroclus and Achilles examined the mini-fridge closely. Nico prayed fervently that they wouldn't know what it was or that it could be fetched from appliance stores worldwide with relative ease.
“Fascinating,” Achilles said, the first word he'd spoken since his arrival.
While they discussed the fridge, Nico glanced up at the palace and thought of his father. They'd read the Iliad together during their reading sessions, and Hades knew it back to front. He'd spoken often of his admiration for Achilles' skill in battle.
Nico was probably about to get the most humiliating beatdown of his life. His father would be devastated if he missed it.
Nico whistled for Cerberus, who came bounding up to him excitedly.
“Go and fetch Hades,” he told the monstrous canine. Cerberus bounded off again, barking and scaring the shades as he ran through the fields.
“I see Cerberus has affection for you,” Achilles said. Nico turned, and grew nervous again under the intense gaze of the great hero. “Tell me, are your skills with the sword as poor as my grandfather claims?”
“Worse, probably,” Nico said. “But I'm also out of practice. I can't train with my sword, or I risk destroying my trainer.”
He summoned the Stygian iron sword and showed it to Achilles.
“Grandfather told us about that. Not to fear. You will not touch me,” Achilles said confidently.
“Are you sure? Not even by some freak accident?” Nico asked. “If I destroyed you, I don't think that would go over well.”
“You won't touch him, lad,” Patroclus assured him calmly. “I'd never let him risk his immortal soul if I thought it were possible,” he added, smiling at Achilles fondly.
“One thing you must know before we begin,” Achilles said sternly, a celestial bronze spear appearing in his hand. “I do not hold back in combat. I won't allow you to, either. You need to come at me with everything you've got.”
“Oh. Okay. Feel free to kill me. If you want. I mean, I'd rather you didn't, but if you do that's totally cool. Don't worry about it. I'm on the no-ride list, so I can't actually die, I'd just die later. Not that it matters that much, since I'm already here,” he said.
“Please stop talking,” Achilles said, looking like he'd rather be anywhere else.
“I'm starting the timer,” Patroclus said, pulling an hourglass from his pocket. “You get five minutes.”
“Halt!” Hades shouted, appearing between Achilles and Nico in a shimmer of shadow. “No one is starting any timers until I get a picture of the two of you together. Nico, get next to Achilles.”
He took a few dozen photos of Nico smiling excitedly next to Achilles.
“Lord Hades, if you could hurry, I'd like to get back to my afterlife,” Achilles said with annoyance.
“I am sorry,” Hades said, actually seeming slightly regretful about it. “But I must insist you let me film this, and I need to find a good angle.”
“Persephone couldn't come?” Nico asked, as his father circled, looking for camera angles.
“She is talking with Nyx and asked that I not disturb them,” he said. “She'll be devastated if I don't get a good video of this. Alright,” he said, pausing, holding his phone sideways and bending slightly. “That will suffice. Proceed.”
Achilles raised his spear.
“Starting the timer,” Patroclus said.
“Wait,” Minos cut in. “Just so we use his time efficiently, what if we focus on a particular move rather than demonstrating multiple?”
“I'm not demonstrating anything,” Achilles said. “I'll attack, and he'll learn by blocking them.”
“Blocking your attacks?” Minos said, biting his lip. “Erm, I'm not sure he's ready to handle--”
“Do you know how many myrmidons I trained?” Achilles snapped. “I know how to do this. Just let me work, damn it.”
“I'm starting the timer for real now,” Patroclus said firmly. “Go ahead, Achilles.”
What happened next was a blur. Achilles moved like a whirlwind. He'd smacked Nico with the side of the spear before he could even register what had happened.
“Pay attention,” Achilles said. “Don't just stare at me, move.”
He attacked over and over again, and Nico floundered. He was hit from every direction at once, it seemed. Achilles wasn't stabbing him with the blade at the end of the spear, but Nico was getting bruises and nicks every time, and they hurt.
“You can do it!” Minos said encouragingly. Hades' flash kept going off. Nico was hopelessly distracted.
“Three more minutes,” Patroclus warned.
Achilles came at Nico faster and more aggressively, knocking him down onto the hard stone of the platform. He slammed the spear down into the floor millimeters from Nico's ribcage, his bronze speartip leaving a thin graze down his side.
“You aren't taking this seriously,” he said viciously. “Stop holding back and show me what you're capable of.”
“Sorry,” Nico said, rising. “I wasn't prepared for this. If we only have a couple of minutes left, I'd rather just talk to you.”
“No,” Achilles snapped. “Sparring or nothing.”
Nico obliged him, making his best effort to fend off his next attack, which came lightning fast and mercilessly. He was knocked to the ground again, hitting even harder.
“You're disrespecting me as your opponent, flopping around on the ground like a fish,” Achilles said, glaring down at him. “This can't be the best you can do.”
“I warned you I'm not good at this,” Nico said, jumping up to his feet quickly. “I'm not forcing you to spar with me.”
“You're a sad excuse for a demigod if this is all you've got.”
Nico was taken aback, and he could see in his peripheral vision that the judges were muttering among themselves. Hades just looked amused.
“Seriously? That's not fair,” Nico said, growing a little defensive. “You don't even know me.”
“You're showing me exactly who you are,” Achilles said, slashing at Nico. This time Nico shadow traveled to move away, determined not to be knocked down again so easily. That made Achilles' eyes light up.
“You're a spoiled little prince,” Achilles continued. “Not the first I've dealt with, and not the last. You're a pathetic waste of my time.”
Nico didn't care that he was being humiliated in front of his father, who appeared to be loving every second of it, but he hated that he was reflecting poorly on Minos as his trainer. More than that, he was feeling deeply disappointed. He wasn't sure what he'd expected Achilles to be like, but it hadn't been this.
“You couldn't just be patient with me for five minutes and let my father get some pictures? You have the rest of eternity! Your time is literally worthless!” Nico said. As Achilles made to attack him, he shadow traveled out of the way, again and again. Achilles almost got him with one insanely fast anticipatory stroke of his spear, but Nico raised a stone block from the ground to protect himself. Achilles' spear scraped against it, sliding off.
“Quit whining. You know I'm right,” Achilles rebutted. “There's no point in you learning from me. You're scrawny, hopeless, and full of excuses! You will never be known as a hero. You must be a great disappointment to your father.”
“I know,” Nico agreed. “But I'm fine with that. At least I'm not a spoiled brat who begs his mother for help the second I don't get my way.”
“How dare you!” Achilles said angrily. He threw his spear at Nico, but Nico shadow traveled out of the way. Aeacus had to run and grab it to give it back to Achilles, and during the brief pause, Nico seriously thought Achilles might try to strangle him, he looked so angry.
Once he had his spear back, Achilles moved to attack Nico once again. Nico rolled his eyes, evading him.
“Will you just stop? I don't want your help anymore,” Nico said, now on the other side of him, coming dangerously close to the angry myrmidon. He didn't have any desire to try to slash Achilles with his Stygian sword, just on the off chance he might succeed, but it made him feel better to demonstrate that it was possible that he might be able to. “You're a jerk,” Nico added bitterly. “This is exactly why they tell people not to meet their heroes-- Hey! I told you to stop!” Nico snapped. Achilles had thrust at him with the spear again, and when Nico moved out of the way, Achilles had slammed into him, trying to shove him off the judgement platform. “What is wrong with you?” Nico said. Achilles had grabbed him with his big, meaty arms, which might have been kind of nice in a different context, but in this case he was really hurting Nico. Nico had no intention of getting thrown off the platform, and he just focused on wriggling out of Achilles' grip, intending to shadow travel. Instead, he stepped backwards and Achilles slipped right through him.
Nico took another step back and realized that he hadn't shadow traveled at all. If he had, Achilles would have gone with him. He'd just escaped somehow.
That was new. He didn't have any time to think about what had just happened, however. Achilles attacked him again in a fury. The guy was absolutely relentless, and Nico was sure their timer had run out a while ago. Patroclus had probably turned it off so that Achilles could continue to work out his anger issues.
Achilles' spear flashed like lightning, and he moved with graceful purpose, but he kept missing Nico. Nico glanced at their audience, looking only for the briefest of seconds, since there was a crazy ghost trying to kill him. Nobody seemed bothered by the fact that he'd asked to stop and was still getting slashed at.
The tiny moment of inattention was a big mistake. Achilles tripped him with the spear, knocking his feet out from under him. Nico went down hard.
“That's what you get for not paying attention to me,” Achilles said. He made to stab him with the spear, but Nico did what he'd done earlier and just disappeared.
Well, he sort of disappeared, and he sort of didn't. He didn't go anywhere, he just stopped being totally solid for a second. The spear clanked against the stone, and Nico rolled to the side and got up before Achilles had a chance to withdraw his spear and comprehend what had happened.
“Maybe I should find Hector and ask him to train me,” Nico said, feeling a lot safer since he'd figured out how to do that. “I bet he'd be nicer.”
Achilles glared, and said, “Maybe I should find your sister and train her instead.”
Nico had been keeping his emotions somewhat under control throughout the encounter. That now went out the window.
“Don't you dare talk about my sister!” Nico shouted.
“You really thought you could bring her back to life? You're making a fool of yourself,” Achilles said. “She's dead. Get over it already.”
“You have no idea what you're talking about!” Nico said. He sent a ribbon of darkness to wrap around Achilles' throat and start choking him. “I'm not going to stand here and take abuse from a war criminal who desecrated the body of a hero. You don't deserve to be in Elysium.”
Choking didn't exactly work on people who were already dead, but Nico hoped it would be a humbling experience in spite of that. He broke Achilles' spear and encased his body in rock.
“We're done here,” Nico said angrily. “You should have stopped when I told you to stop. Who do you think you are? Does this look like Troy to you? You're dead! You don't get to do whatever you want anymore. You also went way past the five minutes we agreed on, which was not cool, and you didn't teach me anything! Why are you smiling at me? Do you think this is funny?”
“Yes,” Achilles said, his eyes bright with humor. “I enjoyed that. Thank you.”
Nico stepped back, his eyes widening.
“You know I can't feel real anger or battle-frenzy any longer, right?” Achilles said, raising his eyebrows.
Nico released him from the stone and shadow he'd been stuck in and watched Achilles step out of it. Patroclus came up to him, also looking pleased.
“Were you just faking?” Nico asked, completely shocked.
“I'm a good actor, right?” Achilles said.
“He's had a lot of practice with the real thing,” Patroclus said.
“But that was horrible,” Nico said. “Is this some kind of a sick joke? Why would you do that?”
“Partly because it was fun,” Achilles said. “And partly because I could tell at a glance you were no good with the sword. You were holding back your other abilities, which I think we all wanted to see for ourselves.”
“Your powers are fascinating,” Patroclus said. “I've never seen anyone quite like you.”
“That's to be expected,” Minos said, hurrying to Nico's side. “He's only the fifth child of Hades to ever exist. We all watch his progress with great interest. Thank you for helping him showcase his abilities, Achilles. I appreciate you taking the time.”
“Not a problem,” Patroclus said.
“Come see us sometime,” Achilles said to Nico.
Nico felt mentally and emotionally exhausted. He waved goodbye to Achilles and Patroclus, and Aeacus left to walk them back to Elysium. Rhadamanthys removed the barrier and let the shades line up for judgement again. Nico glanced after his father, but he'd wandered off with Cerberus toward the river.
“Are you alright?” Minos asked Nico.
“Not really,” Nico snapped. “Did you know it was going to be like that?”
“I didn't realize until he started taunting you,” Minos said. “I don't know anything about myrmidons, but Aeacus told me it's a tactic of theirs. He was just assessing your skills. It's nothing to be upset about.”
“Maybe I didn't want to be assessed,” Nico said. “I didn't even get a chance to prepare.”
“Are you upset?”
“Minos, I was terrible,” Nico said, “Don't pretend I wasn't. I wasn't able to get anywhere near him.”
“He's dead, but he's still Achilles,” Minos said, amused. “Don't tell your father I told you this, but he spars for entertainment in Elysium sometimes. I've seen him reduce legendary warriors to tears with his prowess. You demonstrated impressive skill.”
“Yeah, well, I'm not sure I believe you,” Nico said.
“You subdued him, did you not?”
“That wasn't the same,” Nico said. “He's just a shade. I could do anything I wanted to him down here. If he was alive, and we were on the surface, I'd have been killed in seconds.”
“I'm not so sure about that, but let's not speak of it any longer,” Minos said. “You made your trainer proud. Let that be enough.”
Minos smiled at him, and reached out as if he meant to touch Nico's face. Then he glanced over his shoulder and stopped.
“You should talk to your father,” he said, touching Nico's arm instead. “I'll get back to work.”
Nico's stomach flipped over when he touched him, but before he could say anything, he'd walked away. Why did Minos have to be so nice and handsome and unattainable? It just wasn't fair.
Nico strolled up the bank of the Styx for a while, watching the familiar, comforting motion of the dark water and taking a moment to process what had happened.
After a few minutes of walking, he saw Hades up ahead, sitting with Cerberus by the river. Cerberus was lapping up Styx water with one of his heads and looking back at Nico with another. The third was on Hades' lap.
Hades didn't look up at Nico as he approached. Nico watched as his father methodically brushed Cerberus's coat. From a distance the large dog appeared to be black, but if you looked closely, he was more of a reddish brown brindle coloring. Long dark hairs were flying off of him as Hades brushed him with gentle but firm strokes.
“Hi,” Nico said.
“Hello,” Hades said. It was odd to see the normally tall and imposing god sitting on the ground, dwarfed by an oversized mastiff monster, and Nico found the image kind of funny.
“What did you think?” Nico asked.
“Oh, are we interested in my opinion now?” Hades said sarcastically. “I didn't think you cared.”
“Maybe I don't,” Nico said. “Maybe I was just asking to be polite and I don't really want to know.”
He sat on the other side of Cerberus and tried to pet his middle head, but instead the one that had been drinking Styx water pulled his head out of the river and plunked it on Nico's lap.
“Ow,” Nico said, feeling the burn of the water that Cerberus had just drenched him in. He was getting used to the feeling now. He rubbed the dog's big, stinky head and let him lick his hand.
“Now that you've met them, you might be able to visit Patroclus and Achilles in Elysium,” Hades said, ignoring Nico's question.
“I'm not sure why I'd bother. I didn't really enjoy meeting them the first time,” Nico said.
“They receive very few guests. It's a rare opportunity.”
“Apparently they hold sparring matches at their house,” Nico said. “That can't be right. The losers would have a bad experience, wouldn't they?”
“Why do you think I want you to visit them?” Hades said. “I need their little fight club investigated and shut down. You're not opposed to wearing a wire, are you?”
Nico sighed. The to-do list never ended.
“I can visit them the next time I go to Elysium to check on the poetry contest. I should see Mama while I'm there,” he added. “That's alright if I stay invisible, right?”
“You ask as though you did not peek in on her the last time you were there,” Hades said, raising an eyebrow.
“Oh. Yeah, I guess I did do that.” Nico had snuck a brief look, invisibly, but he'd thought no one noticed. “I just wanted to make sure she was still okay.”
“Very little occurs in this realm that does not get back to me, one way or the other,” Hades said.
“I know,” Nico said. He worried suddenly that Hades would have heard about the dragons he'd fought for Artemis, and the true purpose of the lunula he'd brought home, but there was no sign of accusation in his father's face.
“Your demeanor with Achilles was quite interesting to observe,” Hades said. “You seemed more competent than it seems you have a right to be. That gave rise to my suspicion.”
“Suspicion?”
“I'll be blunt. Have you been training with someone other than Minos and Hecate?”
“No!” Nico said. “Not at all.” He was glad to be able to be honest about this one thing, at least. “Isis taught me a couple of spells once, but that was it.”
“I would know if you'd left the Underworld. All of your comings and goings have been accounted for,” Hades said, turning and giving Nico his full attention. He set the brush down. “Has Hermes been training you?”
“No, absolutely not,” Nico said. “What would he even be teaching me?”
“He is a psychopomp. I thought he'd have been a natural person to ask for assistance in your quest.”
“Oh. No, I didn't bring it up,” Nico said. “Maybe I'm paranoid, but I don't trust him.”
“Paranoia is both healthy and rational,” Hades said, which made perfect sense to Nico. “Hence my questions. I grew suspicious when I realized I had not heard anything about your investigations into Bianca since the staff meeting. There was a time when I thought you'd tell your tragic backstory to every god and monster both here and on the surface, but you abruptly stopped. There must have been a reason.”
Hades was so annoying sometimes. He could be moody and defensive and stubborn. He had a temper and was very strict about things like respect, duty, and chores. He had good qualities, but most of them were reserved for Persephone, and Nico felt like he just got the leftovers. If they weren't related, his dad was the type of guy Nico would cross the street to avoid.
Unfortunately, Hades also understood Nico equally well, if not better. Nico didn't like what that probably said about their similar qualities. He didn't want them to have anything in common if he could help it.
There was no point trying to hide the truth from him.
“I heard what she said,” he admitted.
“I knew it,” Hades hissed. “Eavesdropping in my own palace! You have a lot of nerve.”
“I know,” Nico said, looking down at Cerberus' head in his lap to avoid his dad's angry expression. “But I don't regret it. I took a break from my quest for Bianca so I could focus on doing the things Persephone wanted me to do instead. It was the least I could do, since she... You know.”
There was an unspoken understanding between them when it came to Persephone. Nico knew Hades wouldn't punish him for what he'd done.
“That was a good decision,” Hades said. “You should let Bianca go and focus on serving Persephone full time, if you truly want to please her.”
“That's the one thing I can't do,” Nico said. “But anything short of that, I'll try.”
Hades sighed, saying nothing.
“It feels like I tricked her into loving me,” Nico said. “I don't deserve it.”
Hades remained silent. He ran a hand across Cerberus' coat, scratching the middle head behind the ears while the left head licked his face.
“No, you don't,” Hades said finally, after a long pause for thought.
He left it at that. Nico wasn't offended; he doubted Hades thought anyone deserved Persephone, including himself.
“So what am I supposed to do?” Nico said. “She wouldn't force me to become immortal, would she?”
“Never,” Hades said, rising and brushing dog hair off his clothes. “She knows it's against your wishes. I have no advice for you. You've already demonstrated your priorities are in the right place, at least for the moment. However, I do have a new order. You need to busy yourself elsewhere for the second and third weeks of March.”
“Why? Didn't you just say you wanted me to prioritize doing what she wants?”
“She leaves for spring on the twenty first,” he said. “I have no interest in sharing her limited time with you.”
Nico checked his phone.
“That's so soon!”
“I know all too well,” Hades said. “And what perfect timing for you to perform an extra chore as punishment for eavesdropping.”
“Papa,” Nico whined. “Come on. I didn't even do the manticore one yet! And that's not even on the original list!”
“You can get the manticore spikes too. Thank you for reminding me. As for the new chore... I'll call you when I think of something.”
Chapter 24: Crushed by Valentine Part 2
Chapter Text
On his last day in the Underworld, Nico made sure to give Persephone a very heartfelt goodbye. Neither of them made a big deal about it, but he could tell she would miss him almost as much as he would miss her. If you'd told him years ago that he'd feel this affectionately toward his divine stepmother, he'd have died laughing. Life was strange.
He walked out of the palace, planning on running one final errand before leaving for the surface. He'd been working on his plan in the back of his mind, and was confident he could make the most of the two weeks before he'd be expected back in the Underworld. Those two weeks were probably the most distracted Hades would be all year, which meant that it was the perfect time to work on resurrecting Bianca.
His next step was to ask Thanatos about the Doors of Death, since they were the obstacle preventing Bianca from leaving. At this point, Nico had spent years in the Underworld, but he hadn't seen Thanatos once. Everyone said the god of death was rarely around, and secluded himself in his cave anytime he wasn't collecting souls.
Nico went to have a chat with Minos before he looked for Thanatos. The judges were in a rush trying to process a backlog of shades, and Nico had pulled up a chair beside Minos to talk it over in between judgements. Minos was the tie-breaker, so he had a few breaks to try to answer Nico's questions.
“The doors of death, hm?” Minos said, his attention half on Nico and half on the shade currently standing on the judges' stand, trembling in fear. He'd been an investment banker, a staunch atheist who thought altruism was a myth. Nico couldn't blame him for his nerves.
“Do you know anything about them?” Nico said. “I doubt Thanatos will help me. Everyone says he's a nightmare to deal with. I need to know as much as possible before I talk to him.”
“I don't know anything about the doors, no. Not my department. And nightmare is putting it strongly,” Minos said. “He's just a little stand-offish.”
“He's an asshole,” Aeacus said. “I don't like him.” He frowned at the investment banker's shade and made the gesture for Asphodel, with the addition of punishment.
“What is that for?” Minos asked.
“He returned a rescue dog to the shelter,” Aeacus said. “Only gave the poor pup 48 hours. Dogs need more time to settle in.”
“So he needs to be whipped?” Rhadamanthys asked incredulously. “I don't think so.” He made the gesture for Asphodel with no punishment.
Minos sighed, and agreed with Rhadamanthys, stamping the paperwork for Asphodel. The banker stumbled off the stand and disappeared into the crowd of shades in the fields, looking relieved.
“Well, Nico, I wish I had better advice for you,” Minos said, as he filled out the soul processing paperwork to complete the transfer. “I barely know Thanatos. He's a lot like his mother, Nyx. Very detached, keeps to himself, and not often seen.”
“But Nyx is cool,” Nico said. “She hugged me once. There must be something I can do for Thanatos. Maybe a gift I can give him? His mom really likes martyr bones. Would he want some, too?”
“I don't think Thanatos has ever wanted anything,” Minos said. He stamped the form and set it aside, waving up the next shade to the stand. “I'm sorry, I wish I could help more.”
“No, you're busy, it's okay. I can figure it out.” Nico watched Minos start to fill out another form. He could watch him write all day. His thick muscled wrists and ringed fingers formed the lines of the ancient Minoan hieroglyphs smoothly and efficiently. Nico couldn't read a word, but it looked very pretty.
He clasped Minos on the shoulder affectionately, thanked him again, and disappeared into shadow.
He stood outside Hypnos's cave and watched the small stream of Lethe water trickle past his feet. He wasn't sure why he was so nervous to meet Thanatos, but his stomach was doing flips.
He looked up towards the entrance to Thanatos's cave home, carved out of the rock to the left of Hypnos' cave and slightly above it. It was too dark to see anything but an empty black hole.
Nico shadow traveled up to it and stood just inside the entrance. All he saw was darkness. Maybe that shouldn't shock him, given that Thanatos had so much in common with his mother, but it was hard to imagine living in such pitch blackness all the time.
“Hello?” he called out. There was no answer.
Feeling confident no one was there, he turned on his phone flashlight. What he saw surprised him. There was almost nothing in the cave. Everywhere he turned, ebony walls reflected his own blurry face back at him. He did see some torches, so he turned off his phone light and magically lit them.
A dozen torches encircled the room, hanging upside down. The flames glowed pale white, and they illuminated the chamber brilliantly. Only, there was nothing to illuminate. There was no furniture, no art, no sleeping baby gods in hammocks anywhere.
Something caught Nico's eye. He knelt on the stone floor and looked closely at it, seeing strange markings marring the otherwise shining and flawless surface. Someone had carved something into the stone.
It took a second for Nico to realize he was looking at the outlines of hundreds of tiny butterflies carved into the rock. They were carved very lightly, and were barely noticeable unless you were looking for them. The images they made were hard to make out because they overlapped, seeming to form strange patterns.
Nico ran his fingers over the markings, tracing the wings of the butterflies. He tried to picture a stern, winged god lying on his stomach on this cold floor, carefully scratching hundreds of butterflies one by one.
Nico laid on the floor for hours, staring at the pattern. He traced hundreds butterflies with the tips of his fingers and imagined what it would be like to be Thanatos, collecting thousands of souls and finally coming home to this empty, dark, cold room full of nothing. He couldn't fathom doing that for eternity and not losing his mind.
He sat up and checked his phone. He'd waited a long time, and there was no sign of the death god yet. With a last glance around, Nico left the Underworld.
He stepped out of the shadow of a tree in the Borghese Gardens in Rome. It was mid-March, and the sun was setting. The gardens were bathed in a perfect golden light. He sat under a tree, breathing in a deep breath of surface air. It had been a while since he'd smelled as many living plants and trees as this. He leaned his head back, taking it all in and feeling the waning sunlight warm his face.
Persephone was preparing to leave for spring again. Looking up, he could see the tiny buds peppering the tree limbs above him, all of nature trembling in anticipation of her return. They wouldn't have to wait much longer. The speed of time terrified him. He didn't want Bianca to be dead a moment longer than she had to be, but the days were passing like sand slipping through his fingers.
He hadn't seen his sister in over four years.
That was in surface time. Time in the Underworld was different. Sometimes it seemed like it moved in circles, and sometimes it seemed like it skipped ahead too far by mistake and then went backwards for a while to catch up to where it was supposed to be. He had no idea how long it had really been for him. He didn't look any different than he had when he'd woken up from his coma, so it couldn't have been that long.
He really hoped Bianca hadn't felt the years passing. If she had to be stuck in Asphodel, hiding and waiting and whatever else she was doing, he hoped she wasn't suffering.
He took a deep breath and closed his eyes.
“Bianca, I miss you,” he said quietly. “I don't know what to do with myself without you around. I just want to show you stuff, and take you places, and have fun like we used to. I want to show you Beijing and Istanbul and Greece. We can go back to Venice together. I guess we'd need to find a way to get your memories back, but we can figure it out. As long as we're together, everything will be okay. I just need you back.”
He didn't hear her voice, and he didn't feel her presence. There was nothing, just birdsong and the city noise and the sound of families enjoying an evening in the park.
A terrible thought drifted through his mind, unwanted and unwelcome: That he had not meant what he'd just said.
“Who's Bianca?” A young woman's voice said from above him. He glanced up and saw a dryad looking down at him, blinking large green eyes in a green tinged face. She reminded him of Eurydice, but this one spoke Latin and was probably far younger than her famous cousin.
“My sister,” he sighed. “She's dead. I'm trying to bring her back to life.”
“Cool,” the dryad said. “They say Asclepius used to bring people back from the dead.”
“Asclepius?” Nico said, frowning. “I'm sure it looked that way to the mortals, but I think he was just a really good healer. I've been researching this long enough to know.”
“Oh. Probably,” she agreed. “He just came to mind because his statue is over there,” she pointed.
Nico looked in the direction she was pointing. On the far side of a duck pond, there was indeed a large shrine to Asclepius, with his name in Greek printed across it.
“Does he come here often?” Nico asked, thinking it wouldn't hurt to pick his brain just in case.
She giggled with a sound like creaking branches.
“You haven't heard? No one has seen him in decades,” she said. “He's lost.”
Another lead that wouldn't go anywhere. Nico waved goodbye to the Nymph and strolled around the gardens for a while, deep in thought. His next lead would be Nyx, since Thanatos hadn't shown. He'd need to ask for her help with the doors of death. He didn't intend to go to her empty-handed. Last time, he'd tried to bring her martyr bones, specifically the bones of Saint Valentine. Instead he'd handed her normal bones and made himself look stupid. This time he'd leave zero room for error.
He traveled to the front of the basilica of Santa Maria in Cosmedin, where many months ago he'd encountered Saint Valentine in a very painful confrontation. Back then, trying to steal the saint's skull out of its display case had been ambitious and highly stupid. Nico had changed since then. He had new abilities, and he was certain he could sneak past Saint Valentine now.
He obscured himself with the mist so that mortals wouldn't see him activate his invisibility earrings and disappear from view. Once he'd become invisible, he also became intangible in order to walk straight through the crowd of tourists waiting in line to stick their hands in the Bocca della Verita. He was still getting used to the new ability, but it seemed really useful so far.
Once inside the church doors, he hurried over to the niche on the left side, where Valentine's skull was displayed in a small glass case.
It glowed with intense power. His skin prickled at the thought of touching it with his bare hands. Nyx couldn't say no to any request he might make of her if he gave her a prize like this one.
He glanced over his shoulder to check whether he was being watched, but there was no sign of anyone. Hesitation could only bring more risk, so he swallowed his fears and reached for the skull. He became intangible just before his fingers touched the glass case, and reached in further, holding his hands around the skull and feeling the intense power wash over him like he was holding a miniature version of the sun itself. Now he just had to figure out whether he was brave enough to grab it.
Before he could decide how to proceed, a dark figure rose behind the glass case. It was a familiar tall, stern man with greying dark hair framed by a golden halo glowing glaringly bright in the dim light of the church. Nico's stomach sank.
“You are one very determined young man,” Saint Valentine said. His voice was gentle, yet terrifying at the same time, like the kind of person that would hit you and then say, 'It pains me to do this.'
“Hi,” Nico said, not sure what else he was supposed to say. He didn't have any excuse to make; he'd simply been caught red handed.
“Determined,” Valentine repeated, “But unwise. First you tried to rob me. I caught you and let you go, showing you mercy. Then you rob me in Lesbos instead.”
“Those weren't your bones,” Nico said, looking him in the eyes and trying not to lose his cool. Valentine hadn't done anything yet, but his ears were ringing with the memory of the pain he'd suffered at his hands last time. He reminded himself that he'd changed; he could get out of it this time. Valentine had an intimidating presence, certainly, but Nico had killed dragons. He'd fought Achilles. He could handle this.
“It's the principle of the thing,” Valentine said coolly. “Now you've come back to try again. I can't imagine why you thought that was a good idea.”
It hadn't been, obviously, Nico thought, but he didn't bother replying. It was time to get the hell out of there.
He stepped away from the skull case and shadow traveled out of the church, but instead of slipping away in shadow to a safe location, he found himself smacking against the front doors. He fell back on the ground, his head spinning. He dug his fingers into the carpet that ran down the center of the nave, looking around frantically. Those doors had been open the last he'd checked, and there had been mortals in the church. Now he couldn't see anyone but Valentine, who was observing him with a look of amusement.
Nico tried to shadow travel again, to the same result. Then he became intangible and tried to walk through the doors, and then the walls. He could pass through furniture, but not through any exterior walls or flooring.
“How are you doing this?” He asked Valentine. He was panicking, and his fight or flight response was beginning to give up on flight, but he couldn't muster up any will to fight Valentine. He had no clue what the saint was capable of, and his stare of slight amusement gave Nico an indication that he definitely did not see Nico as a threat.
Valentine stepped into the central nave and gestured at Nico. Nico felt something shift within him, and was overcome with a strange feeling that something was seriously wrong.
“Come along,” Valentine said, grabbing him by the collar. Nico tried to pull out of his grip, but Valentine's strength was incredible. Either that, or Nico was suddenly weak as a kitten for some reason. He tried to become intangible and found that nothing was happening. His chest grew tight, and he started hyperventilating.
“What did you do to me?” He gasped.
“Sealed your powers,” Valentine said. “You clearly don't know how to use them responsibly.”
Nico was suddenly marched down a flight of stairs and unceremoniously shoved into a dark cell. The door was slammed behind him, and glowed with an image of a strange golden seal once it clicked shut, as if to remind him once more that his magic would be useless against it. Not that he had any magic left.
Nico pressed his hands against the door anyway, pressing his forehead against the stone.
“I'm such a fucking idiot,” he muttered.
“I feel you,” a man's voice said from behind him.
Nico spun around. There was someone in the cell with him.
“A new cellmate, huh?” the man said, shifting in the darkness. “That'll liven this place up.”
He had a deep, resonant voice, and Nico could make out the figure of a tall and broad shouldered man with the physique of a pro-wrestler sitting on an overturned bucket in the corner.
“What's your name, kid?” He asked in a curious and friendly manner.
“Nico di Angelo,” Nico said. There was something about the man's speech that bothered him. It took him a second to realize what it was.
“You're speaking Latin,” Nico said.
“I am,” the man agreed.
“How long have you been down here?” Nico started to panic. Was he going to be imprisoned for that long? He was on the no-ride list-- what if his dad forgot to take him off of it and he was trapped in that cell for a thousand years?
His cellmate started laughing, a deep, booming laugh that shook the walls.
“Don't worry,” he said, switching to modern Italian. “I promise it hasn't been that long. I think it's been three weeks or so.”
“Are you sure?”
“Yeah. I have to listen to mass every Sunday,” he said, glancing upward resentfully. “It's only been three. I addressed you in Latin because I assumed you were a god, too.” He squinted at Nico. “Guess not, unless I just haven't heard of you.”
“I'm a son of Hades,” Nico said.
“A demigod! I remember those days,” he grinned. “Fighting monsters, having adventures, winning renown. Well, the good times didn't last,” he added sadly. “But still. It wasn't all bad.”
“You're Hercules,” Nico said, remembering reading that the church had been built on top of one of his temples.
“You sound like you're disappointed.”
“I am. Not that it isn't an honor to meet you, but if you're stuck in here, there's no hope of me getting out.”
Hercules tsked.
“Have I been able to escape? No. Did I try everything I could think of? Yes. Does Valentine come down here and laugh at me sometimes? You bet he does. But that is no excuse for giving up!” He declared. “Now that you're here, I have a new resource at my disposal. That means we've got a chance at getting out of here together.”
“I guess that's one way to look at it,” Nico said, not very comforted.
“You and me? We're getting out of this joint,” Hercules said. “Just hit the ground twice and call your dad.”
“What? Oh, no, please don't make me do that,” Nico said.
“Why not?”
“Spring is in a couple of weeks and he kicked me out so he can have Persephone to himself. If I bug him now, I'll never hear the end of it.”
“Well, I can't exactly call Jupiter,” Hercules said stubbornly. “He's in Thailand with Ganymede and he didn't take his phone.”
“You must have other connections.”
“There are very few gods who can compete with the power of a martyr in his own temple this close to the Vatican,” Hercules said, his expression turning glum. “Outside the big three, and maybe Venus, I wouldn't have a lot of hope.”
“So, Venus and Poseidon,” Nico said. “Are those options?”
“I called Poseidon. He said his service was bad and he couldn't hear me. Pretty sure he was making ocean noises into the phone,” Hercules said. “I didn't try Venus, but I doubt she'd even take my call.”
“I've never met her,” Nico said. “But maybe it's worth a try?”
Hercules pulled out his phone and dialed her number. He and Nico sat, waiting tensely.
“Hello?” She answered.
“Venus! Good to hear your voice,” Hercules said, grinning in triumph. “Listen, I need a little favor. I'm trapped in the basement of a temple in Rome. Not one of ours...”
“You mean a church,” Venus said dryly. “Remind me, what was it Jupiter said about churches... Let me think... Pretty sure he said we ought to stay away from them at all costs, and if we disobey, we're on our own. Wasn't that what he said? What do you think, Hercules?”
Her voice sounded sweet and charming even through the phone, and Nico was immediately filled with goodwill towards her, although the content of what she was saying wasn't what he had hoped to hear.
“You're totally right,” Hercules said, “It was stupid of me, but now I'm stuck here with a kid named Nico and we need an extraction, ASAP.”
“Nico? I've heard about him,” she said, perking up. “I'm curious to get a look at him in person. Where are you?”
“Santa Maria in Cosmedin,” Hercules said, giving Nico an excited thumbs up.
There was a click.
“She hung up,” Hercules said, staring at his phone.
“Damn,” Nico said, disappointed. He and Hercules sat in silence for a moment.
“Okay, small setback, but we're moving forward,” Hercules said. He smiled at Nico, and Nico felt his spirits lifted by Hercules' positive attitude. It made sense that Hercules would have an indomitable force of will, since he'd overcome so much in his mortal life. If Nico had to be trapped here with someone, he was glad it was him.
“Tell me about yourself. What you can do, how strong you are, what sort of tricks you've got up your sleeve as a son of Hades.”
Nico explained his abilities and how they'd failed him as soon as Valentine had placed that seal on him. He could feel it like a binding wrapped around his chest, preventing him from connecting with his divine blood.
“Yeah, I've got one of those too, or these walls would have been smashed a long time ago,” Hercules said. “I'm reduced to the strength of a mortal man, so this is my progress,” he said, pointing at a place where he'd been trying to punch a hole in the wall. He'd made a fairly deep indentation in the stone, but Nico could see the dried ichor on the outside of his knuckles.
“We need the seals removed,” Nico said.
“That would be great,” Hercules agreed.
Nico slumped against the wall, his brain running through a hundred different terrible ideas.
“It's no use,” he sighed. “I've got nothing. I just-- This is so unlike me to do something like this. I've made mistakes before, but most of them were because I didn't know what I was doing. This time, I knew exactly what I was walking into. I've faced Valentine before and gotten my butt kicked. For some reason I thought this time would be different. I've gotten a lot stronger in the last year, but still. I majorly miscalculated.”
“I've been there, kid,” Hercules said. “You train, you learn, you become stronger than you ever believed possible-- and then hubris kicks in. It's like a drug.”
“I guess I thought I was immune to it. I've never had great self-esteem,” Nico said.
“Valentine made an enemy of you. You got strong and tried to teach him a lesson about who he was messing with. Don't be too hard on yourself,” Hercules said. “This is good for your career in the long run. Our greatest triumphs come from our failures. Nobody understands that better than I do.”
“I believe you,” Nico said. “But I still feel really shitty right now.”
“I feel you,” Hercules said kindly.
Nico was huddled in the corner of the cell, still deep in gloom, when someone approached the door. His heart was pounding in fear when Valentine walked in.
“I brought the two of you a little treat,” Valentine said. “Here.”
He pulled out a bowl and splashed Hercules with holy water he flicked off his fingertips. Hercules screamed and writhed, shouting, “Gross! Stop! Ew!”
He splashed Nico, too, but it didn't hurt, and Nico had no reaction. Valentine stared at him.
“What?” Said Nico.
Valentine bit his lip.
“I want to punish you for what you did,” he told Nico. “But I'm conflicted.”
Nico raised his eyebrows.
“You could show me mercy again,” Nico said, “Like Thomas Aquinas said? Let me go and I'll promise never to bother you again!”
“I need to see a sign that you've actually learned from your mistake,” Valentine said. “You know what? I think I'll test you. Why don't you sit through mass with me this morning?”
“Don't do it, Nico, it's a trick,” Hercules said frantically.
“I'll go,” Nico said firmly. All things considered, Valentine had been pretty decent to him, and he'd tried to rob the guy three times. He knew he should look at the saint as his enemy, but he couldn't find it in himself to actually do it.
Nico followed Valentine out of the basement and into the church. They slid into the pew furthest back from the altar and waited for the service to start.
“Can't people see you?” Nico asked him.
“No, only you,” Valentine said. “Try not to make it look like you're talking to yourself. Just pretend to pray.”
“I'm talking to a saint,” Nico smirked, finding the situation slightly funny. “I'm already praying.”
They went through the entire mass without anything bad happening. He wasn't struck down by lightning, wasn't dragged to hell, and he actually found it relaxing and nostalgic. He thought about the old days when his Nonna would take him, Bianca, and their little cousin Gio to mass with her every Sunday. Gio would always try to crawl beneath the pews, and Bianca would try her hardest to ignore him, standing up straight and looking straight ahead like there wasn't a three year old untying her shoelaces. Nico always had to struggle to keep from laughing.
“Is something funny?” Valentine asked him.
“Just memories I'd forgotten,” Nico said. He was smiling still, unable to help himself. He hadn't known it at the time, but those days had been some of the happiest of his entire life. Before the war made them move to America, before Zeus killed his mother, before his father had stolen their memories and left him and Bianca alone in a strange place, empty shells of the happy children they'd once been, in order to spare them pain and keep them alive.
After mass ended and people filed out, Nico felt Valentine staring at him.
“You have goodwill towards us, in spite of the company you keep,” Valentine said. “I sensed it before, but it's obvious now.”
“Maybe,” Nico admitted. “But I have to try to keep it quiet. It won't go over well with my dad if he finds out.”
“Do you really need your father in your life that badly?” Valentine asked. “Does he offer you comfort in your suffering? Care for you when you're sick? Give you guidance when you're lost?”
“Yes,” Nico said immediately. “Or at least he tries. He's not perfect, but I'm not cutting him out of my life and converting, if that's what you're hinting at.”
“I don't expect you to do that,” Valentine said. “Today,” he added. “But he will let you down. They all will, mark my words. Inevitably, you will see their faults and seek something greater.”
“You guys aren't perfect either,” Nico said.
“I didn't say we were,” Valentine said. “But we're better than the alternative. Your Roman ancestors saw that. Someday, you will too. It's never too late.”
They were alone again in the church. Nico glanced back and saw that the doors had been closed and locked again after the mortals had left.
“Come with me,” Valentine said. “I want to show you something. I think it will help you to understand why I am taking a special interest in bringing you over to the winning side.”
Nico followed him up to the baptismal font. He looked inside. Everything seemed normal, but Valentine was watching him expectantly, like something was about to happen.
“What am I looking at?”
Valentine grabbed Nico's head and dunked it under the water. Nico took in a mouthful, and his vision went white.
Suddenly he was looking at a scene from above. He saw his mother and grandmother talking next to a different baptismal font in a different, but very familiar, church; the same church he and his cousins had attended with their Nonna in Venice. It was dark, lit only by a few candle on the altar.
“Maria, are you absolutely sure you want to do this?” His Nonna, Lola, was saying. She was in a formal dress with a veiled hat. She gripped her purse handle tightly between her fingers, her lips a thin line in her face.
“I'm sure,” Maria said. She looked younger than Nico remembered. She was wearing a black dress with a very eye catching necklace hanging around her neck. It was a string of blue diamonds the size of grapes, set in silver, each of them encircled with a ring of tiny white diamonds. She'd told Nico once that it had been a present from his father to celebrate his birth.
She held a bundle wrapped in white lace in her arms, and Nico saw his own tiny hand reach up and grab at her necklace. He was watching his own baptism, he realized.
The priest walked up to the two of them, his eyes nearly popping out of his head when he saw Maria's necklace.
“Did you tell anyone we were coming?” Lola asked him.
“No, I did as you instructed in your letter, but I would like to understand why all this secrecy is necessary,” he said. “I don't normally perform baptisms at midnight.”
“I told you, the baby's father doesn't approve,” Lola said. “I've tried to tell her it's not worth it, but she won't listen.”
Nico couldn't believe what he was hearing. For as long as he could remember, his Nonna had insisted on going to church every week, and bringing her grandchildren with her as much as possible. He'd never seen his mother attend even once. Why was Maria the one who wanted him baptised?
“Are you concerned at all that the father will retaliate?” The priest said. “I've heard the rumors about what he does for a living,” he added, giving Maria a dark look
“He won't find out,” she said. “Just hurry, please.”
The priest and Lola exchanged worried looks, but the priest bravely took Nico into his arms and proceeded with the ritual, speaking the words and dunking baby Nico into the water.
Afterward the priest and Lola stood to one side and had a long, drawn out conversation that Nico couldn't hear. While they spoke, Maria tried to calm baby Nico, who'd started crying the second he'd been separated from her, and still hadn't stopped. She walked with him around the church, showing him the colorful stained glass windows and trying to distract him.
One of the windows had a depiction of the sun, moon, and stars set in a beautiful indigo glass. Baby Nico stopped crying when he saw it. Maria took the opportunity to speak to him softly.
“You were very brave, little one,” she said. “Don't be angry with Mama, alright? I just want you to have every protection I can give you. Your papa says he will watch over us, but I worry it won't be enough.” She shifted him in her arms, looking up at the glass. “I've brought you into a very dark world, my son. I can't shield you from it forever, but I'll do what I can.”
She went back to her mother. The priest had left.
“I hope you're satisfied,” Lola said, sounding exasperated.
“I'd have preferred to dip him in the river Styx,” Maria said, “But I guess this will have to do.”
“I'm not in the mood for your jokes tonight,” Lola said.
“I wasn't joking,” Maria said, smirking. They walked out together.
Nico pulled his head out of the water.
“Did you see it?” Valentine asked.
“Yes,” Nico said, still stunned from what had just happened. “I had no idea my mother did that for me.”
“You see why I felt a slight measure of responsibility toward you,” Valentine said. “At least in regards to saving your eternal soul.”
“My soul is spoken for,” Nico said, picturing his mother in Elysium. “But that was interesting. Thank you for showing it to me.”
Valentine nodded.
“I would push harder for immediate conversion if I thought it was necessary,” Valentine said. “But I have experience with cases like yours. A friend of mine was like you once,” he said. “His mother was one of your types. When he could do something for her, of course, he had to hop to it immediately. But when he needed her most, she wasn't there,” he said darkly. “She let him down one too many times. Fortunately, in this vast and strange world that we live in, there is no shortage of mysteries. He found a better path, one that never let him down.”
Nico thought about how quickly Venus had hung up on them when Hercules had told her what church they were trapped in. It might be a coincidence, but then again...
“Mark my words, Nico di Angelo,” Valentine said. “Someday, they'll let you down too. And you'll be back.”
He waved a hand, and the golden seal that was on Nico's chest disappeared. It felt like he could finally breathe again.
“Thank you,” Nico said. “But...”
“I know you want to free him,” Valentine said. “I'll allow it, but I want you to swear to me on whatever it is you hold sacred that you'll never enter another church with intent to steal, or cause property damage, for as long as you live.”
“I swear on my mother's soul,” Nico said.
“There are an abundance of martyr remains in the world,” Valentine said. “A resourceful young man like you shouldn't have trouble finding some that don't belong to a sanctified place. Fortunately, I don't think they can be used to harm anyone, so I don't need to know why you need them.”
“Maybe I should think about getting them from a museum or something,” Nico said bashfully.
“Hmph,” Valentine said. “Go. Hurry, before I change my mind.”
Nico hurried down to the cell and opened the door, beckoning for Hercules to follow him out. Hercules pushed past him and made a run for it, jogging out into the sunlight in front of the church and running a victory lap, pumping his fists in the air.
“You did it!” He said triumphantly. “It feels so good to breathe non-denominational air again. How'd you pull it off?”
“We just talked for a while,” Nico said. “He let me go after I promised never to do it again.”
Hercules looked disappointed the answer hadn't been more interesting, but Nico couldn't tell him the details of their discussion. It felt too personal, and he needed time to process what it all meant.
“Wait, Hercules,” Nico said. “Your seal's still there. You need to ask him to remove it.”
Hercules pawed at his chest, trying to peel off the symbol, but it did no good. There was still a shining golden seal keeping his godly powers in check.
“I'm not going back in there for anything,” Hercules said.
“I'd try Isis,” Nico said. “She's used to dealing with interfaith issues.”
Hercules nodded.
“I'm not worried,” he said. “I've never met a challenge I couldn't handle.”
He seemed almost pleased to be left with something to work on overcoming. Nico thought he probably missed the challenges of his mortal life, at least a little.
Nico glanced around the square and realized he was totally, completely, and eternally sick of Rome. It was just too complicated, and there were way too many immortals lurking everywhere.
He dialed a number on his phone.
“Ariadne, are you busy? Would you be opposed to a visit?”
Chapter 25: Manticore Round 2
Chapter Text
Nico brought Hercules to Ariadne's villa in Tuscany, where she welcomed them both with open arms, insisting they stay and recover from their ordeal. She shooed them upstairs to shower and scrub off the holy water residue while Maenad servants hurried to prepare a lavish meal. A grand feast was laid out on a patio table beneath a grapevine arbor laden with overripe, flawless purple grapes.
Ariadne was at the large wooden table waiting when Nico and Hercules returned, freshly scrubbed. Selene was sitting with her, looking vacant and uninterested as usual.
Immediately Ariadne asked to hear their story. Nico let Hercules do most of the talking, because he framed what had happened as a grand adventure and greatly exaggerated the supposedly terrible things Valentine had done to them.
“He dragged Nico upstairs and forced him to sit through an entire Catholic mass,” Hercules said ominously.
Ariadne gasped.
“That sounds awful! Are you alright?” She asked.
“Obviously not,” Hercules said. “He's got a terrible, haunted look to his eyes, can't you tell?”
“He had that before,” Selene said.
Their meal stretched long into the night, filled with wine and dessert and interesting discussions, and as they relaxed they enjoyed a perfect sunset, the hills of Tuscany bathed in hues of pink, purple and gold.
“It's been good to see you again,” Ariadne said to Nico, drawing him aside to speak with her as she leaned on the balcony, gazing out over the vista. She had a large, overfull wine glass in her hand, and her cheeks were rosy, almost the same color as the wine. “I don't suppose you had a chance to go back to camp?”
“My father is opposed to the idea,” Nico said, not mentioning the fact that he was also against it. “But if I do end up there, I promise I'll check on him for you.”
“Thanks,” she said, swirling the wine in her glass, staring at it pensively. For just a moment, the golden sunlight shone on her, highlighting her profile, and he could see that she and her dad had the same nose. They also had the same mouth, shaped perfectly, and often smiling.
Nico's heart skipped a beat for a moment. He'd give anything to have Minos with him on this balcony instead of her, he thought secretly as he stared at her. Was his hopeless crush ever going to dissipate? It felt like he'd wanted Minos for ages and he'd still never done anything about it.
“Nico?”
“Hm?”
“I lost you for a bit,” she laughed. “For a second I thought you were going to try to kiss me.”
He turned red and turned away.
“Sorry, I was just zoning out,” he said. “I wouldn't do that.” Not to you, anyway, he thought to himself.
She shrugged.
“I know. I don't think you're the type,” she said, smiling with amusement and looking back out at the sunset. “I like your new ring, by the way.”
He looked down at the bone ring Minos had made for him, and ran his finger over it self-consciously.
“A friend gave it to me,” he said.
He changed the subject, asking her about the grape harvest, and they moved on from the weirdness. Nico would rather jump off the balcony than tell Ariadne he had a crush on her dead dad.
Isis came over the following day to help Hercules. She was happy to see Nico again, but she was very pushing about making him help remove the seal on Hercule's divine powers. Nico cautiously extricated himself from the obligation, saying he had a task for his father that couldn't wait, and he left Isis and Ariadne to work on seal removal alone.
He was dead set on finding martyr bones quickly. It took a full day of museum visits, online research, and some email exchanges that ended with people threatening to report him to the police, but he finally found an unscrupulous museum docent in Milan that he was able to cut a deal with.
“Have you got the stuff?” Nico asked, meeting the docent in the alley. The docent was a scrawny, studious looking man who didn't seemed at all fazed by the deal he was making.
“It sounds suspicious when you put it like that,” the docent said. “This isn't a movie. You ought to greet me like we're friends or something.”
“I just always wanted to say that,” Nico shrugged. “You sound like you've done this before.”
“Just take them,” the docent said, thrusting a brown paper package at Nico.
Nico unwrapped the bones, which were a set of five mismatched fingers. He took one out and licked it. He dug his thumbnail into the side of his index finger hard, trying to test the pain blocking properties of the bone.
“Not a martyr.” He handed the bone back to the alarmed docent and tried the next. He tasted the next one carefully, pressing his nail into his skin again. The harder he pressed, the more it felt like little pleasant tingles were being sent up his spine straight to his brain.
“This one's definitely a martyr,” he told the docent. “Nice work.”
The man just stared at him, horrified.
Nico tested the remaining bones carefully, but they weren't martyrs. He was satisfied he'd gotten one, at least. He handed the docent the cash and disappeared.
When he slipped back inside the house, it was quiet, except for the sound of chanting emanating from the basement, where Isis was presumably still working on Hercules.
As Nico continued forward, he heard another voice ring out.
“Okay,” Ariadne's voice echoed from the kitchen. Nico started up the stairs quickly, not wanting to eavesdrop on her conversation. “I know, but what else can you say at this point? You've tried everything,” she continued.
She must have been talking to Dionysus; she always had the same sad, angry, and frustrated tone whenever he came up in conversation.
“Nico's back; I've got to go. Love you. Bye.”
She stomped out of the kitchen, still holding her phone.
“I'm gonna steal you for a minute. I need to vent.”
Before Nico could respond, she grabbed his hand and dragged him outside.
There was a purple convertible parked on the gravel driveway in front of the villa. She hopped into the driver's seat, and Nico climbed in the passenger side, not daring to question her intentions when she was in this intense mood.
The second she turned the key in the engine, pop music started blasting. She put her foot on the gas, and they took off down the driveway and began speeding through the hills of Tuscany. Nico stopped looking at the spedometer once they hit 180 kilometers per hour.
“You good?” He shouted, after a few minutes of reckless driving. She'd turned the music up three times, and his ears were almost bleeding, not so much from the volume, but because he just hated pop music that much.
“No, I'm not good,” she shouted back. “Sorry about the music, but I don't want Zeus to hear what I'm about to say.” Her dark hair was whipping around her head like she was caught in a tornado, and in that moment, she looked as wild as a maenad in a frenzy.
“He's in Thailand with Ganymede right now,” Nico shouted back. “No guarantee, but I bet he's more distracted than usual.”
“Oh, good,” Ariadne said, turning the dial down slightly. “Because, fuck, I am so done with that jerk! I am this close to going to New York and rescuing Di myself,” she said, making a pinching gesture with her fingers that left her with only one hand on the wheel. They swerved slightly off the road, and Nico gripped the handle on the door for dear life.
“Are you not allowed to visit?”
“I've visited a couple of times when we begged Zeus to take pity on us, but now we're out of favors to cash in,” Ariadne said. “I've even offered to help him run the camp, but being separated is part of the punishment. What did I do wrong?” She asked, pointing at herself. They swerved again.
“What did Dionysus do wrong, is what I'm wondering,” Nico said, when he was brave enough to open his eyes and saw that they were still safely on the road.
“It's about some nymph or something, but it doesn't really matter. This isn't a punishment, it's a power play,” Ariadne said. “Di and Zeus have a complicated relationship. I've never understood it. All I know is, he never pulls this crap with Apollo!” She said, smacking the center console in exasperation.
“Does anyone in this pantheon not have a complicated relationship with Zeus?” Nico asked, watching the clouds drift over the green fields and the endless acres of grapevines flash by. It was hot and sunny and exposed, which wasn't usually his thing, but Tuscany was too pretty to complain about the weather. Though it would be prettier if it wasn't currently being obscured by a speed blur.
“You can say that again,” she snorted. “He was my grandfather before he became my father in law. I can't escape the guy.” Her face fell, and she finally slowed the car down as her eyes welled up with tears. “I can't stand that my husband is suffering and I can't help. He was there for me when I was at my lowest point. And now I'm letting him down when he needs me.”
“I'm sorry,” Nico said gently. “I'm sure he knows you'd be there if you could.”
She sighed heavily.
“When I was stranded on Naxos, I thought my life was over. Then Dionysus found me, and showed me that life was still worth living. I mean, really living,” she smirked. “But now, he's stranded on his Naxos. A desolate place where hope goes to die.”
“Long Island,” Nico said gravely.
Ariadne shuddered.
“The worst part is that I can't be there for him! What kind of a wife am I?”
“I don't know anything about being a wife, or a god,” Nico said. “But I do have a dad. We have our issues, and sometimes they can get really intense and complicated. I would never want someone else getting involved in our problems, no matter how well-meaning. It would just escalate things unnecessarily.”
She stared at him for a minute.
“You know, Di has told me a hundred times to quit meddling, but I was too caught up in my guilt about not being there to listen,” she said. “I assumed he was just trying to let me off the hook. But maybe there's stuff he and Zeus are working through that I don't understand. You'd think I'd have picked up on that, after what happened between me and my dad,” she sighed. “But I've always been stubborn in that way. If you tell me to sit down and shut up, I'm guaranteed to do the opposite. I get that from my mother,” she said grimly. “It's not always a good trait.”
“You became a goddess, though,” Nico said. “Obviously you did something right.”
“Obviously,” she grinned. “I was a badass demigod princess who got to marry a god. I did a lot of things right. But as a mortal, I didn't know what I had to look forward to. I often felt lonely and hopeless and unsure I was doing the right thing. It's probably why I trusted Theseus too much. I felt like I'd finally met someone who understood and respected me. And he did understand, but the respect part? Not so much.”
“He sounds like an idiot,” Nico said. “Typical son of Poseidon.”
She burst out laughing.
“Yeah, maybe a son of Hades would have been better,” she said. “You're a better listener, that's for sure. You're a very unusual type of demigod, Nico. I'm curious to see how your story will end. Maybe you'll become a god like me.”
“If I can be with my family in the Underworld for eternity, that's enough for me. Sometimes even that feels unattainable.”
“Well, I'm rooting for you,” Ariadne said. “So, do you want a turn driving?”
“Me? Drive this?” Nico asked, shocked. “I don't know how,” he admitted, although his hands were itching to take the wheel.
“Don't worry, it's easy!”
They switched seats, and Nico cautiously pressed on the gas with the very tip of his toe.
“Just gun it,” she said. “You'll figure it out.”
He nearly crashed multiple times, but Ariadne was able to grab the wheel at the last second and save them before anything terrible happened. She was completely relaxed, which Nico figured was a privilege of immortality. It was impossible to be anxious with her making jokes and singing along with the radio, so eventually he got the hang of it and managed to drive around the country lanes with relative ease.
“That was so much fun,” Nico said after he'd pulled back into the driveway.
“Take it for a spin anytime you like,” she said. “Or better yet, get your dad to buy you one and let's race. The maenads go crazy for that kind of thing. I have to keep giving them enrichment activities while Di is gone, or they'll set the house on fire. They've tried.”
“Thank you for teaching me,” Nico said. “You're awesome.”
“I like you, Nico,” she said, ruffling his hair. “You remind me of my sons when they were your age. Maybe you'll grow up to be a great mortal king like they were.”
“Do you miss them?” Nico asked.
“Sometimes,” she said. “But they lived great lives full of adventure and glory. I can't weep for that. And I still have their descendants to remember them by.”
“There must be a lot of those by now,” Nico said.
“Oh, yes,” Ariadne smiled. “Who knows, maybe you're one of them! Now come inside, it's pizza night.”
Nico could have stayed with Ariadne forever, but it wasn't meant to be. As soon as they went back inside the house, Isis called up from the basement asking for assistance ASAP. Ariadne and Nico both rushed down the stairs, but Nico immediately started hacking and coughing, his lungs burning like he was breathing pure acid.
Ariadne saw his struggle and nudged him back up the stairs, shutting the door behind him. He lay on the floor of the hallway, hacking up blood onto the tile and trying to catch his breath.
Two of the maenads, who had ignored him up until that point, stopped and looked at him.
“Are you good?” One of them asked, kicking him. He pulled himself up onto an elbow, wiping his face.
“Look,” the other maenad said, pointing at the bloodstain. It was still gold, looking just like ichor.
Nico wiped it up with his sleeve immediately, but they'd seen.
“It's a long story,” he said, as one of the maenads helped him up and into the kitchen, and the other got him a glass of water. “Don't tell anyone you saw that, please.”
The maenads exchanged a look, but he wasn't sure if they would obey. That wasn't their strong suit at the best of times.
Seeing that he was taken care of, they left him alone, heading back out into the vineyard to frolic, or whatever it was they did that made so much noise in the middle of the night. Nico sighed and finished his water, staring at the marble countertop and tracing the veins in the stone.
He waited for hours, but there was no sign of Ariadne, Isis, or Hercules coming back up from the basement yet, so he went to the living room to find a book to read.
Semele was already occupying the couch, so he walked past her quietly and went to the bookshelf. It turned out Dionysus and Ariadne weren't big readers, which he probably should have guessed. There were plenty of books, but most of them were about wine. He took a copy of the Dionysiaca off the shelf.
“Can I sit with you?” He asked Semele. She gestured at the opposite side of the very large couch, and he took a seat.
Reading about Dionysus's many daring exploits made him feel self-conscious about his own laziness as a hero, and he shut the book not long after opening it, choosing instead to check out the show Semele was watching. It was a Greek drama about a forbidden romance in a small Cretan village.
“What is this called?” Nico asked Semele.
“Sasmos,” she said.
“Do you watch a lot of TV?”
She nodded.
“I've watched this twice already,” she told Nico. “It's safe.”
“Safe?” He was pleasantly surprised to hear her opening up. “What do you mean by that?”
“I mean it's not about robots and space ships,” she said. “The characters live in normal houses and not metal skyscrapers. I can cope with the modern world when I have to,” she said. “But I get overwhelmed. This feels safe to me.”
“I see,” Nico said.
“I've been thinking about you and your quest,” she said, pausing the show and turning to look at Nico. “Since you're here, maybe the fates have decided we need to have this conversation.”
“What conversation?”
“The one where I tell you not to resurrect your sister.”
Nico was stunned into silence for a moment.
“I don't recall asking for your opinion,” Nico finally snapped.
“I'm speaking on her behalf,” Semele shrugged. “I simply don't think she will want to come back to life.”
“You don't know her.” Deep down he knew Semele had good intentions, and that his own doubts were making him scared and angry. But his hurt feelings drowned out the wiser part of him. “You have no idea what you're talking about. She wants it.”
“Go ahead and get defensive. It won't change the fact that I'm right.”
“You're wrong,” Nico said firmly.
“You're the son of Hades. You should know that death is final,” she said. “Do you think it feels good to defy nature? It doesn't. It feels wrong. Like a stain that won't wash out.”
“You're ungrateful,” Nico said. “Do you know how hard it is to resurrect someone? Dionysus loved you. He did something impossible for you. How can you have the nerve to complain about it?”
“He didn't love me; he didn't even know me,” she said. “And he didn't ask me what I wanted. He was much like his father in that way,” she said bitterly.
“So you resent him?” Nico said.
“I've forgiven him,” she said. “I had to. And now, I get by,” she said. “But I don't want to be here. I was at peace. I'm not sure I'll ever find that again.”
“You live in one of the most beautiful places on earth,” Nico said. “You have everything you could ever want at your fingertips. If you can't find a way to be happy here, that's your problem.”
“I know that,” she said. “I was never a happy young woman. I always found life hard. But death solved that problem, and my son unsolved it,” she said. “That's the problem. And I think you know that.”
“You have some serious issues,” Nico said. “Don't project them onto my sister. She's not like you. She'll be happy to be resurrected.”
“I can see I won't change your mind,” Semele said, turning her show back on. “Just do me a favor. Ask her what she wants before you do something to her that can't be undone.”
That was just unfair. Nico would have loved to ask Bianca what she wanted, but she was making it impossible. He shook his head, tossing the book on the table, and stormed out of the room without another word.
Nico shadow traveled directly to the manticore's den, still fuming. He needed to take his anger out on something, and the manticore was an old enemy. It was also one of the obstacles standing between him and Bianca.
He stood a few hundred yards from where the pit lay, where he could see the beast pacing. He fought the urge to become invisible using his earrings. He wouldn't do this on easy mode. He needed to practice his other skills and grow in confidence as a demigod. Semele had rattled him, and he needed the reassurance that, by some measure, he had his life together.
Still, he wasn't going to be foolish about it. He evaluated the layout of the pit. The side closest to him was a shallow slide into the smelly hole in the ground, where he'd fallen in last time. The far side was a small cliff overhanging the pit, casting its far side in shadow.
He had an idea.
He shadow traveled into the far side of the pit, stepping out of the shadow under the overhang. He stomped on the ground.
“Remember me?” He called out. “Come say hi. Your favorite student's come back for a visit.”
The manticore saw him and charged right at him, jaws opening in a roar, showing off long fangs dripping with gore. Nico shadow traveled out of the way just before the manticore slammed into the earth of the far side.
Rocks and chunks of dirt rained down on top of it. Nico encouraged a good sized boulder to break loose and clunk the massive beast on the back. He was aiming for the head, but the manticore was agile, and had turned to escape before the boulder could plop out. It whacked him on the butt instead, causing the manticore to shriek in incoherent rage.
When it tried to escape the falling earth, the manticore slammed into a wall of hardened shadow at the far side and found itself trapped under the overhang of earth, which was growing at Nico's command. The cliff curled overtop of the beast like the curve of a large ocean wave, and the shadow on the far side grew smaller as the space for the manticore got more and more cramped.
When he was done, the pit had been transformed into an earthen cage. The majority of the pit was surrounded by earth and stone, and Nico hardened it, reinforcing the barrier so that the beast couldn't escape even with its impressive strength. He left a wall of shadow at the edge as a window so that he could still see it.
The manticore ran around the tiny enclosure frantically, throwing itself against the walls over and over, howling its frustration. Nico smiled when he saw that the percussion of the beast's body against the earth merely hardened the wall with each bodyslam. Eventually, though, the entertainment factor began to wear off. The longer he watched the manticore formerly known as Mr. Dodds, the more it became obvious to him that the manticore had reformed this time as a beast of far less intelligence than it had possessed the last time. It didn't seem to have the same level of human cunning, and it definitely didn't seem able to communicate verbally.
It reminded him of an animal, and watching a trapped animal made him sad. It had been different with the dragons. One, he hadn't been able to see, and the other had been trying to kill him. And Artemis had been watching, and he'd felt the pressure of trying to impress her. This time, his choices were all on him.
He'd been prepared to put the beast to sleep using a spell and steal the spines, leaving it to starve to death in this pit. Could manticores starve? He didn't know. But watching it, suddenly the cruelty felt petty and unnecessary. Maybe Mr. Dodds had deserved it, but this wasn't Mr. Dodds anymore.
He watched it for a while longer, appreciating what he'd accomplished, and he snapped a picture on his phone as proof. Then he raised his hand and chanted the words in ancient Greek that Hecate had taught him, and watched as the manticore yawned, laid down, and closed its eyes, falling deeply asleep.
He removed the shadow wall and walked into the pit, approaching the tail. He stopped short.
There were no poison spines. In fact, there was no tail on this beast at all. It looked like it had been hacked off with a sword, and now there was just a nub oozing gore.
He felt so stupid. How had he not seen that? That should have been the first thing he'd looked for and he'd totally missed it. He'd noticed it out of the corner of his eye, but he'd been so focused on his stupid earthwork enclosure project that it hadn't registered in his mind that the tail was gone.
He looked around the pit and couldn't find a single spine. This was absolutely ridiculous. What was he going to do?
Enraged at his own stupidity, and also at whoever had cut off the tail and left the beast without its most valuable bits, he began pacing around the pit just as the manticore had been a few minutes ago. What the hell was he supposed to do now?
He hated to think of having to go back to his father empty handed. He couldn't face his father, or Minos, or Hecate, without the spines. They'd trained him so diligently, and he'd taken so long to get even this far.
There was only one thing he could think to do that might take the edge off his failure. He straddled the manticore's head, yanked it back, and invoked Hades, dedicating the life of the manticore to his father. He slit its throat in one clean slice using his Stygian blade, and the blood poured out like a flood, soaking his new, clean shirt. Great, he thought. The outfit had been designer, one of Persephone's gifts. Now he was a failure that also looked like an expensive, bloody mess.
Because he'd dedicated it to a god, the body didn't dissolve into dust like it would have otherwise. He grabbed the head and heaved it up into his arms. It was heavy and awkwardly shaped, and smelled disgusting, but maybe his dad would like that about it. If he didn't want it, Hecate could have it for a potion. Or maybe Cerberus would eat it. He knew it wouldn't go to waste in the Underworld, so he was taking it.
He tossed the head out of the pit and crawled out. He turned around and chanted the fire spell, and the body began smoldering in a red-orange glow. It smelled kind of delicious.
Nico sat beside the head and stared, watching as the body slowly cooked into nothing.
“What am I gonna do?” He muttered, glancing at the head. “You're cool, I guess, but you're not on my list.”
The manticore head didn't respond, just stared up at him with glassy dead eyes.
Nico wasn't ready to give up. Someone had stolen that tail. Who could it have been?
“I found it,” someone called out in the distance. Nico's head shot up. Someone was here. Of course! The tail stump hadn't healed, it was still oozing. Of course the wound had been fresh. The tail thief was still around!
Nico decided that direct confrontation was the best way forward. The voice sounded young, and he had a very hopeful feeling that the tail thief was a camper from Camp Half Blood. He could definitely take the tail from a bunch of dumbass campers, no problem.
“The smoke is coming from the manticore!” someone's voice called out. A young girl of about twelve ran to the edge of the pit and stopped short when she saw Nico.
She was short with curly red hair, pale skin, and freckles. Her eyes widened, and Nico saw that they were a very familiar spinach green color. She reminded him of someone, but he couldn't place her.
“Who-- Who are you?” She stammered, grabbing a knife from her belt and holding it in front of her.
Nico stood.
“Relax,” he said calmly. “I'm not going to hurt you.”
The girl didn't relax. Nico, in a moment of self awareness, realized he was covered in blood with a severed head beside him.
The girl's eyes flicked between him, the manticore head, and the pit.
“What happened here?” She asked. “How did you do this?”
“I have ways,” he shrugged. “It doesn't matter. I need this guy's tail, and I think you have it.”
The girl paled even further, her eyes widening.
“Annabeth!” She yelled, panic in her voice.
Nico gritted his teeth and hissed. Anyone else would have been better than Annabeth. He didn't know her all that well, but from what little he'd heard, she was one of the most stubborn and brilliant demigods alive. It would not be easy to take a war prize from her if she didn't feel like cooperating.
Annabeth ran up to where the girl was, stopping wisely at a safe distance from Nico.
She was taller than he remembered, and prettier, too, her dark skin gleaming flawlessly in the sun . She stood confidently, without any of the teenage awkwardness she'd had the last time he'd seen her. Her braids were coiled into a bun on top of her head that made her look regal and mature. Her gray eyes flashed brightly at him, and her gaze held a terrifying intelligence that made him feel like he might as well give up now.
“He says he wants the tail,” the redheaded girl said, her voice wavering.
“Niamh, go back to the others,” Annabeth said, not taking her eyes off of Nico for a millisecond. “I'll handle this.”
Chapter 26: The Smartest Woman Alive
Chapter Text
Nico and Annabeth faced each other alone.
He didn't want to be interrogated or dragged back to camp, but he couldn't blame her for having questions. Nico had run away many years ago and hadn't been in touch with Chiron, Percy, or any other campers since. The only one from that old crowd he'd spoken to had been Thalia. Maybe she'd told Annabeth about him?
“My name is Annabeth,” Annabeth said, speaking confidently and clearly, her hand resting cautiously on the knife at her belt. She made no move to shake his hand. “What's yours?”
A wave of relief washed over him. Thalia hadn't told her, and she didn't recognize him. That made things so much easier. Maybe they could get this over with quickly, with no drama necessary.
“My name isn't important,” he said calmly. “You have something I want. I'd like to make a deal with you.”
“The manticore tail,” she said. “Yes, I have it. What do you want it for?”
“I actually don't want the tail itself,” he said, trying to smile in a neutral, non-threatening way. Based on her expression, it didn't really work, so he gave up and frowned the way he normally did. “I want the spines along the edges, assuming there are some left. I don't need all of them. We can split them. I'm prepared to give you my prize in exchange,” he said, gesturing at the severed head. “You'd go home with two big war prizes and I'd have what I need. Does that sound fair to you?”
“No,” she said.
“Excuse me?”
“You heard me.” She stared him down. “No.”
Nico's frown became a glare.
“I think my offer was more than fair,” he said. “Generous, even.”
“That's a matter of opinion,” she said. “Here's my counteroffer. You leave. Now. Take it or leave it.”
Her reputation for stubbornness was very deserved, but he didn't intend to let her push him around.
“On what basis are you ordering me to go?” He said. “I haven't done anything wrong. In fact, I rid the world of this nasty monster over here,” he gestured at the now empty pit. “Which is objectively a good thing to do. Heroic, even,” he added. “And something you clearly failed at. You just took the tail and left him to murder more innocent people. I mean, look at this,” he said, hopping down into the pit and grabbing something he'd noticed sticking out of the dirt earlier. “This is a human femur. The manticore was a menace to the good people of Bar Harbor. Were you just going to leave it?”
“We removed its most dangerous part,” she said.
“No you didn't!” He said, shaking the femur at her. “The spines' poison isn't deadly. Those teeth, on the other hand,” he pointed at the head. “Lethal.”
She tried to hide it, but he could tell she had been under the impression that the spines were, in fact, deadly, and he'd piqued her interest.
“Maybe you're right,” she said. “And maybe you're full of shit. I don't know you, and I don't trust you. I've got no desire to make a deal with you, so you might as well move along.”
“I'll prove it to you,” he offered. “I'll stab myself with one of the spines. If I live, I'm telling the truth. If I die, I'm not your problem anymore. Either way, you learn something.”
She thought about it for a minute, and he knew he'd gotten her number.
“I've encountered the manticore before, and its spines weren't dangerous back then, just painful,” she said. “But I was told by someone I trust that after the beast reformed, it became less intelligent and more deadly. They were certain the spines could kill. If they were lying, I need to know so that I can find out why.”
“So we have a deal?'
“Yes. If you're willing to be a guinea pig, I'll use you,” she said. “Come on. It's this way. But don't try anything funny.”
Nico followed her back to where her group had set up a temporary campsite about a quarter of a mile away in the woods. He carried the manticore head along with him.
As they walked, Nico saw something extremely interesting on her backside. Specifically, a hat. It was a blue Yankees cap, just as he remembered, and it was hanging from a carabiner on her belt loop.
He had to destroy it as his father had asked. Deciding how to go about it was tricky. He thought that it might be easier once she let her guard down after he proved he wasn't lying. He could always turn invisible and snatch it, but he'd rather do that after he'd gotten what he needed from her.
“I noticed you burned the rest of the carcass,” she said, looking back over her shoulder. “Why?”
“A holocaust for my patron god,” he said. “Why else would I bother?”
She chewed the inside of her mouth for a second, her eyes flicking to the beast's head, and he knew exactly what she was going to ask.
“If you offer the monster as a sacrifice to a god before you kill it, you consecrate the death. If it's a significant enough monster, it won't dissolve for a long time. That gives you time to harvest it for parts and use them,” he said. “I could have just killed it and let it disappear, but then none of us would have bits to play around with.”
“Where did you learn that?”
“What, Camp didn't teach you about it?”
She flipped him her middle finger. He snorted.
“Classy,” he said. He was weirdly fascinated by her, he realized. He'd felt sort of neutral towards her based on his first impression years ago, but she was older and much more accomplished now. She'd played a large part in defeating Kronos, from what he'd heard, and her vibes were powerful, confident, and intelligent. He would have liked to be able to get to know her better.
It was a shame that it wouldn't be possible. He didn't want to get involved with anything to do with Camp Half Blood, and he couldn't trust a daughter of Athena.
There weren't many other campers with her, only five, most of them younger teens. Niamh appeared to be the youngest. There were three boys who looked like typical Hermes kids and an Aphrodite girl with a snotty look on her face. There was a ring of orange tents set up, and a small campfire had been built in the center.
Nico went right up to the manticore's tail and reached for a spine.
“Wait,” Annabeth said, grabbing him by the shoulder. “Do it where I can watch you. No funny business. Go stand over there and I'll bring you one.”
He would have cursed her for outsmarting him, but he was kind of happy about it. He'd decided as soon as he saw the tail that the best course of action was to shadow travel away with the entire thing, but he was tempted not to go the easy route for the sake of getting more intel on the hat. Now she made him stand a few feet back from the tail while she wrapped her hand in a bandana and ripped out a spine, careful to keep the tip away from her skin.
“Hold out your hand,” she said. He obeyed. She took the spine and looked him in the eye. “Ready?”
“Go ahead,” he said mildly. He'd been stung by a dozen of them at once before, so one didn't worry him in the slightest. It was sort of funny to see her taking it so seriously.
She nodded gravely, then stabbed him in the palm. He stood there, watching her calmly, feeling the wave of pain throbbing in his hand and radiating up to his shoulder.
“Oh my god, he's gonna die!” A Hermes boy shouted.
“I'm fine,” Nico said, shaking his hand to encourage the poison to dissipate. He rubbed the tiny pinprick wound with his thumb, making sure to smear the blood away so she wouldn't see the golden color. “It's just pain. It's already fading. Are we done?”
“Let's give it a couple minutes to be sure,” she said, examining the spine in her hand. “But... Um... Yeah. It looks like you might have been right. Potentially. Do you want some water?” She asked, smiling at him.
“Sure, I guess,” he said, surprised at her change in demeanor. “Thanks.”
She called out for some water, and the Aphrodite girl got them both unopened water bottles from a cooler. She handed one to each of them.
“Nice to meet you,” she said, leaning down to hand Nico his water. She leaned down way further than necessary to ensure he had a really good angle to look down her shirt. Nico didn't have the heart to tell her she was wasting her time.
“Thanks, Drew,” Annabeth said firmly. “You can go away now.
Annabeth twisted the cap off of her water and held it out to him for a toast. He humored her, tapping his water to the side of hers.
“Saluti,” she said, smirking at him.
“Sa--” He stopped. “Annabeth,” he said, his tone warning her.
“Problem, Nico?”
Of course she knew. He'd been naive to think she wouldn't guess. She was one of the smartest people in modern Greco-Roman America.
“You recognized me,” he said, frowning. “You could have just said so.”
“Actually, I didn't recognize you at all,” she said. “Nico di Angelo should be roughly fourteen. You look like you're in college. That shouldn't be possible. But I knew you were most likely in the Underworld these past few years, and time can work differently there, so I realized that, in fact, anything was possible. At least I didn't have enough info to confirm otherwise.” She took a sip of her water, looking smug. She had Nico fixed in her bright and disconcerting gaze. “I didn't know for certain until you started arguing with me, and I picked up on a habit of yours that I'd noticed the last time we met. I don't think you realize how much you talk with your hands.”
Nico just stared at her in silence for a second. That was such a dumb reason to be figured out. He wasn't even consciously aware of his hand movements when he spoke, but it must have made an impression on her.
“I see,” he said slowly. “I'm not the only person that does that,” he added defensively.
“I considered that possibility. A lot of the immortals gesture like that too; it's typical of the wider Mediterranean region. I had to take into account, however, the fact that you're here in Bar Harbor; a place that held significance to you and your sister. And you killed the manticore, which was the first monster you had ever seen. The conclusion that you were Nico di Angelo was obvious. Too obvious, in fact. I'll admit the gorgon imagery on your shirt gave me pause. I thought maybe my mom was your patron and you were sent to test me. She does stuff like that sometimes. I thought a t-shirt was too obvious for her. But then again, maybe she'd want me to think that, and it was all part of the test.”
“My shirt?” Nico could barely remember what it had looked like before he'd gotten it soaked in blood. “The Medusa head. The gorgoneion. Symbol of Athena?” Annabeth said.
He looked down at his shirt, then back up at her.
“You got me. I work for your mom,” he said, deadpan.
“What? Really?” Annabeth's grey eyes went wide in disbelief.
He started laughing.
“What's so funny?” She asked.
The daughter of Aphrodite, Drew, who'd been listening to their conversation along with the other campers, rolled her eyes.
“Girl,” she said. “Get it together. That's the Versace logo.”
When Nico saw Annabeth's face, he started laughing even harder. Annabeth looked shocked, then confused, then embarrassed.
“Okay,” she said, blushing. “I'll admit, I didn't know that. I haven't had a lot of opportunities to wear designer, alright?”
“You should try it,” Drew said. “You dress like crap.”
“I'm not flush with cash at the moment,” Annabeth muttered. “We can't all be children of the god of wealth.”
“Wait, what?” Drew said. The other campers went silent, staring at Nico. “Wait, what?!” She said, even louder and more shrill the second time. “That's Hades, isn't it?”
All the campers started talking at the same time, except for one, who no one had yet noticed was missing.
Suddenly, a shriek sounded in the air.
“Niamh?” Annabeth said, jumping to her feet. Everyone looked at where Niamh had gone.
She was standing next to the manticore tail with a spine stuck in her hand.
“Ow,” Niamh whimpered.
“It'll wear off in a second,” Nico said. He stood. He'd seen the horrified looks on everyone's faces, and he didn't care to sit around being stared at any longer. He had other places to be.
He went over to the tail and started plucking spines off, ignoring the campers talking behind him, asking Annabeth questions like, “Who is he? Where did he come from?” and “Is he one of the ones who fought for Kronos?” Nico rolled his eyes. He'd slept through the Kronos debacle, and they were making negative assumptions based on nothing. The sooner he got away from the campers and their ignorant opinions, the better.
Niamh was sniffling in pain nearby, but he ignored her, too focused on the delicate task of collecting spines without hurting himself to pay attention. He was just coming to the realization that he was going to need a plastic bag or something to put all the spines in when Niamh collapsed on the ground.
“Niamh?” Annabeth said, hurrying to her side and examining her. Niamh's face had swollen up and it looked like she was struggling to breathe. “Nico, what the fuck, this stuff is dangerous! You lied to me!” Annabeth shouted.
“I didn't lie,” Nico said, but Annabeth stood and marched toward him, rage in her eyes. Her hand flashed at her side, and before he could blink, she had her knife at his throat and a hand wrapped around his shirt fabric.
She was no stranger to violence or confrontation. He could tell from her posture and demeanor that she was a warrior, already planning a thousand strategies to disarm him if he attempted to escalate.
“You lied,” she said coldly. “That's one thing. But nobody fucks with my campers,” she emphasized slowly. “You've made a grave mistake.”
He was totally unconcerned, and he could see that his lack of reaction disturbed her. She pressed the blade of the knife harder against his throat until it stung.
It crossed his mind that it might be a very easy way to go. It might even hurt less than the manticore poison. Bleeding out would leave him physically whole enough to finish his chores and get off the no ride list. He could join his mother, and drop the whole Bianca thing entirely.
But he couldn't do that. He wanted Bianca back, right? Why was he relieved at getting out of it?
He couldn't die today. He had too many obligations. More importantly, he had a feeling Annabeth wasn't serious about killing him. There was too much about him she didn't know. She'd never leave that many questions unanswered.
He became incorporeal and let her lose her balance, stepping forward and through him with a look of pure horror. She was smart enough to recalculate quickly, and she did, but not in time to stop him from getting far enough away to shadow travel well out of reach.
“I didn't lie. Look at her,” he said, pointing at Niamh were she was lying on the ground. “Does that look like poisoning to you?”
Annabeth quickly knelt beside Niamh and listened to her breathing. It sounded like she was sucking air through a straw, and her face and lips were swollen and turning blue.
“It does resemble anaphylaxis,” Annabeth said hesitantly. “But that might be intentional. I think you took an antidote before I stabbed you.”
She glanced down at her knife, then looked back up at him.
“I never needed your permission to take those spines,” Nico told her, deciding frankness was his best option. “I could have taken them anytime I wanted. Is this how you repay my gesture of respect? Distrust and accusations?”
Drew shoved a chunk of ambrosia into Niamh's mouth, and it seemed to help her breathe a little, but after a few seconds, she got worse again.
“I'm not being disrespectful, I'm being cautious,” Annabeth said. “Niamh is a daughter of Hecate. You may have been sent to kill her on some sordid Underworld business.”
“Cthonic gods don't treat each other like shit, unlike Olympians,” Nico said angrily.
“We can't give her much more ambrosia,” Drew said. “She's getting warm. It could kill her.”
“Keep trying. I knew we should have brought an Apollo kid. No one has an epi-pen in a med bag? There's supposed to be one! Look again, all of you.” She called out over her shoulder. She turned back to Nico. “Look, I don't know you, and I don't know who you might work for. Trust is earned, and you don't have mine. I'm not taking any chances.” She stood and pulled out a silver cell phone. “I'm calling her an ambulance, and then I'm taking you back to Camp,” she said to Nico. “You can prove your innocence there.”
“You've got to be kidding,” Nico said, mildly amused. “I'm not letting you kidnap me. Obviously you've been voted camp counselor of the month one too many times and it's gone to your head.”
Annabeth started dialing 911, even though there was no way an ambulance would get there in time. They weren't far from the road, but they were in too remote an area.
She kept looking at him while she spoke to emergency services. She looked at his hands, his waist, searching him for weapons. She even glanced at his rings, correctly guessing that they were more than met the eye; at least one of them was. He'd basically just teleported in front of her a few seconds ago, not to mention turned incorporeal. She wasn't dumb enough to be under the impression she could take him back to camp against his will; she was just saying that to sound in control. She must have been very scared, both of him, and for Niamh. She was just good at hiding how she felt.
Annabeth hung up.
“Twenty minutes,” she said. “At least. We'll keep giving her ambrosia as long as we can.”
“She's already reaching the limit,” Drew said worriedly.
It was a tense situation. Niamh was limp in Drew's arms, struggling for every breath. If Nico left now, which he certainly could, Niamh would die and he'd be blamed.
As soon as he'd heard she was Hecate's daughter, he'd known that there was only one right thing to do.
“Give her to me,” Nico said firmly. “I'll take her to her mom. Hecate will heal her.”
“You're out of your mind if you think I'm going to let you take one of my campers to the Underworld,” Annabeth said.
“She's going one way or another,” Nico shrugged. “You've got nothing to lose.”
“Annabeth, he's right,” Drew insisted. “Just let him try!”
Annabeth bit her lip, her mind racing. She checked the time, then looked at Niamh. The ambulance was too far out. She had no choice.
“If anything happens to her, you're dead,” Annabeth said.
“Don't threaten me with a good time,” Nico said.
Annabeth was scarily angry, maybe more at the situation than just at Nico. She obviously hated feeling trapped in a decision. Her grey eyes were swirling like storms.
It occurred to him that he could take Niamh to her mom, bring her back healed, and they'd still think it was connected to some nefarious Underworld plan. He needed to clear his name, and there was an easy way to do it.
“Look, you don't trust me? I'll prove this isn't my fault.” He said.
He grabbed a manticore spine, shadow traveled behind Annabeth, and stabbed her in the back. She screamed and swung her knife at him, but he was already gone, traveled out of her reach.
After about five seconds, the pain abated, and Annabeth stood before everyone, unharmed.
“Okay,” she said, taking a deep breath. “So it probably is anaphylaxis.”
“Told you so,” Nico said. He earned a glare from her, but not the same sort of glare as before.
“She's getting really hot,” Drew said. “We need to do something fast!”
“Okay, okay,” Annabeth said. “Fine. Take her,” she said.
Nico raised his eyebrows.
“Oh, now you want me to take her?” He said, unable to resist being a little obnoxious about it.
“Nico, she can't breathe!” Annabeth said.
Tears were streaming from Niamh's eyes as every muscle in her chest fought to draw in air.
“Nah,” Nico said. “My rate for Underworld transport just went up. I want the tail. The whole thing.” It had hundreds of spikes on it; a veritable pain poison treasure trove. He looked forward to presenting it to his father.
Annabeth glared at him.
“Fine. But you'd better bring her back alive and well.”
“I can't promise that,” he said. “Sometimes people die and it's not my fault. Go figure.”
Annabeth watched him scoop Niamh up into his arms, obviously restraining herself from hurling some choice curses his way. The little redhead was turning blue, and she was reaching out for Drew's bag of ambrosia desperately. Her eyes were starting to glow a little yellow, and it was clear that she couldn't have any more without risking overdose. Nico threw Niamh over his shoulder, grabbed the manticore head in his hand, and put his arm around the tail carefully. Then he shadow traveled into Hecate's cave.
He was immediately greeted by her dogs, who started trying to gnaw the manticore head. He had to kick them away from it a few times before Hecate whistled for them, calling them off.
“Nico?” Hecate poked her head out from behind her cauldron. “What's all that stuff you've got there?”
“Manticore trophies for my dad,” he said. “And a pre-teen for you.” Nico said, dropping the manticore stuff and carrying Niamh over to Hecate. “She's dying.”
“Dying?”
“Not really. She's not fated to die today,” he said, stating something that had been obvious to him all along. He didn't know how to explain it, but she had an aura about her that indicated a long life to come. “I think that's because you're going to save her life right now. She's your daughter, so I assume you'll want to.”
“Of course!” Hecate said, taking her daughter in her arms. “Oh, it's little Niamh! I could never forget that lovely hair. You poor thing,” she clucked. She dumped Niamh, who was now limp and blue, into her cauldron and started stirring with an oversized spoon. Only Niamh's face could be seen poking up occasionally out of the black, shimmering liquid inside.
“What happened?” Hecate asked.
“She had an allergic reaction to manticore venom.”
“Ah. Alrighty,” Hecate said. She reached into a nearby jar and pulled out a single mushroom, dropping it into the cauldron. Nico heard Niamh stir, then she grabbed the rim of the cauldron and dragged her head up out of the liquid, spluttering and gasping for breath.
“There, now,” Hecate said, pulling her out of the cauldron and holding her in her arms like she weighed nothing. “Catch your breath. You'll be good as new in a few minutes. Let's get you into some dry clothes.”
She brought Niamh around to the far side of a screen, and when they came back after a few minutes, Niamh was wearing a black dress that was way too big for her and had a woolen shawl wrapped around her shoulders.
Nico had found himself a seat in Hecate's living room area, where an episode of Gilmore Girls had been left paused. Hecate brought Niamh over to the couch and sat down beside her, then pressed play on the TV. Niamh stared at the screen blankly and silently.
By the time the episode was over, Niamh appeared to be fully recovered. She still seemed to be in shock, but not the dangerous kind of shock, just the emotional kind.
“This is the Underworld?” Niamh asked, looking around.
“Yes,” Hecate said. “My little corner of it.”
“And you're my mom,” she said shyly, looking up at Hecate.
“The Lorelai to your Rory, so to speak,” Hecate nodded.
“I love Gilmore Girls,” Niamh said, smiling.
“Me too!” Hecate said. “Do you like boba tea?”
“I love boba tea!” Niamh said, her face lighting up.
“Me too! I'll get you some,” Hecate said, going back over to her cauldron.
While Hecate brewed the tea, chanting incantations over it, Niamh looked over at Nico.
“Thanks for saving me.”
“You're welcome,” he said. “Your mom is the one who really saved you. I was just your ride here. But I have to ask, why the hell were you touching the spines anyway?”
“I was curious,” Niamh said. “I thought they'd make good potion ingredients. You know, I could hear you and Annabeth arguing that whole time. I kept hoping you'd just grab me and get it over with, but everytime I thought you were done, you two kept blabbering. That was really not cool.”
“Yeah, sorry, that was kind of cruel,” Nico admitted. “But a son of Hades can't just go around grabbing young girls and dragging them to the Underworld willy nilly. I don't really want to feed into the negative reputation my dad already has. I knew you'd be fine, by the way,” he said. “You have a lot of life left ahead of you.”
“That's good to know,” she said, seeming comforted by her new secret knowledge.
Hecate came back over to the couch with two boba teas.
“Oh, Nico, did you want one?”
“No thanks, I can't stay. I have to take care of some stuff,” he said. He glanced at the TV. Lorelai and Rory had just arrived for Friday dinner at Lorelai's parents' house, and things between Lorelai and her mother Emily were getting tense and snarky. “I mean, I guess one episode won't hurt,” he said, settling into the couch.
He actually sat through quite a few episodes, but then he realized he really needed to get going.
“Niamh, I have one more thing to take care of with Annabeth. I don't want to rush you...” he said, noticing she was still glued to the screen and not even done with her tea.
Niamh looked at her mom.
“I can take her back to camp later,” Hecate said. “She had a rough day. I think she's earned a few new spells.”
Niamh gasped with delight.
Nico smiled and left, hoping Niamh enjoyed hanging out with her mom and didn't look too closely at her boba tea. He didn't have the heart to tell her that Hecate preferred hers with frogs eyes instead of tapioca pearls. They tasted great if you didn't think about it too hard.
Chapter 27: Hat Trick
Notes:
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Chapter Text
Nico went over to his pile of manticore parts and shadow traveled with them to his bedroom. He had planned to just drop them off and leave, but it felt so good to be home after a couple of weeks away that he simply laid down on his bed and sighed contentedly. The air in the Underworld was more refreshing than surface air, and his mind felt more alert already. His eyes adjusted back to the familiar darkness, and he fought the urge to curl up in his blanket and put on an opera record, to just relax and recharge for a while.
He forced himself to sit up and look at his new prizes, the manticore head and the tail covered in spikes. They weren't going to disintegrate right away, but he couldn't dawdle for long. Time slipped away too easily in the Underworld for that.
He considered bringing them in front of his father's throne and getting it over with, but he didn't like the idea of leaving loose ends untied. He had way too many of those already, and it was getting hard to keep track of them all. He resolved to finish what he'd started before trying to collect any reward.
He did allow himself a short break to shower and change clothes, relishing the feeling of not being covered in drying, stinky manticore blood any longer. Looking at his wardrobe made him laugh, thinking of Annabeth and the Versace t-shirt. He put another one on just for amusement's sake.
When he was ready, he shadow traveled back to the forest outside of the campsite.
Annabeth and the campers were busy packing their things and talking quietly among themselves. The atmosphere was tense, and he figured going home short one camper felt pretty miserable.
He watched silently from the shadows. It was already early morning of the next day. He must have watched way more Gilmore Girls than he'd thought.
Annabeth was busy taking down her tent. She was wearing an oversized camo raincoat and her hood was up, since it was drizzling a little bit. It was a typical wet and cold spring day; great conditions for flowers to grow; terrible conditions for disassembling a campsite.
Her blue cap was sitting unattended on top of her backpack getting rained on, and her back was turned to it.
Nico shook his head, activated his earrings, and became invisible. He silently crept up to the backpack and snatched the hat, shadow traveling away the second it was in his hands. Annabeth whipped around, having sensed movement behind her.
He expected her to shout something about her hat being missing, but she didn't. That was weird. She scanned the camp, and he had an eerie feeling she knew he was there. That shouldn't have been possible, but she was a remarkable demigod. He didn't want to take any chances.
He continued to observe invisibly from the forest, and on a hunch, he traveled extra far away to ensure he couldn't be seen. Then he looked at the hat closely. Blue Yankees cap, normal in appearance.
Her hat was an incredibly powerful gift from her mother. It was so rare that Hades didn't even think she ought to have it. How could she look at her bag, see it was gone, and not react immediately?
Annabeth was always ten steps ahead of everyone else; she was too smart not to be. She reminded him of the way Minos had described Daedalus.
He recalled something Minos had told him offhand once. Outsmarting Daedalus was impossible because he always accounted for every possibility, and he built redundancies into every plan.
Nico stared at the hat and realized there was absolutely no way she'd leave something so valuable sitting on top of her backpack. This wasn't the same hat.
He examined the hat carefully, but couldn't see anything weird about it. He became visible, deactivating his earrings, and went to put the hat on.
Then he stopped. She was ten steps ahead of everyone, so why was he acting like she hadn't predicted this, too? Hat thieves would eventually wear the hats they stole, so there would be some kind of mechanism to account for that. A built in redundancy.
He became invisible again and went back to camp, setting the hat on the ground like the wind had blown it away. It was a few minutes before one of the Hermes boys grabbed it and put it on, as Nico had hoped they would.
“Aaaaaah! Ow ow ow, that hurts,” the unlucky boy screamed, trying to yank the hat off.
“Found my hat thief,” Annabeth said, looking smug. “Let that be a lesson. I know stealing is in your blood and all, but some things you really need to learn to leave alone.”
“What did you do to this thing?” The Hermes boy asked.
“The inside is a vise that will keep tightening on your head automatically,” she said. “I had the Hephaestus cabin make it for me based on my designs. The mechanism is really interesting.”
While she was explaining the mechanism, seeming very happy to lecture on the subject at length while the Hermes kid squirmed, Nico unzipped her backpack. He found her real hat inside, secured with the same silver carabiner he'd seen on the belt loop of her jeans, this time clipped to the inside of the bag.
He didn't dare touch anything, and he was careful to disturb the backpack as little as possible. The carabiner looked a little wide on one part, and he thought it was probably designed to open with her fingerprint. He definitely had no intention of touching that.
Luckily, he didn't have to. He knew the hat was valuable. Naturally she had lots of security measures on it to prevent it from being stolen. But Nico wasn't stealing the hat, he was destroying it. The one thing Annabeth was probably not worried about was someone NOT taking it. She'd never imagine someone not wanting it. It wouldn't make sense to her.
That was precisely why it would probably work. He waited until the wind was blowing away from Annabeth and the campers. Then he pulled out his phone and began recording, and very carefully recited the same fire incantation he'd used on the manticore, trying to be as quiet and precise as he could. He burnt the hat to cinders, leaving the rest of the backpack unharmed.
Nico was glowing with a sense of accomplishment. Annabeth hadn't even stopped talking long enough to notice. He checked, and she was trying to explain to the Hermes kid how to safely remove the hat, since it got tighter the more he pulled on it. He wasn't listening very well, and it was very entertaining to the other campers to watch him struggle.
Nico carefully moved the backpack to lie next to the fire where Drew had been standing and making coffee. She'd left the fire briefly unattended to laugh with the others, and Nico made sure the backpack was unzipped and lying just close enough to get slightly scorched.
He waited until Drew said, “Whose backpack is that?” Then he traveled back into the woods to a safe distance again to observe.
He was too far away to catch every word, but he saw Annabeth start crying. He tried not to let it bother him, since it had to be done. His father's words rang in his head: There was no point grieving the necessary.
He didn't love it when his dad was right, but in this case, he totally understood why the hat had to go. Annabeth simply didn't need it; she was already too scarily powerful without it. He felt certain she would know it had been him, and he didn't like thinking about her hot on his trail seeking revenge.
He had an idea to attempt to mitigate the odds of her realizing that he was the culprit. He shadow traveled back to Hecate's cave, where he found her and Niamh still watching TV.
“Back so soon?” Hecate asked.
“Yep,” he said, sitting back down in the same seat he'd been in before.
“You're not going to believe it, but Rory slept with Dean, and her mom is pissed!” Hecate said.
“Why?”
“He's married!” Hecate and Niamh both said in unison.
“I see.” He had a feeling it was going to be a while before Niamh started working on her new spells. It could be months before she got back to camp Half Blood. “Uh, Niamh, I wanted to call Annabeth and let her know you're okay. I know she has a phone.”
“Her mom gave it to her,” Niamh said. “If it's from a god, it won't attract monsters.”
“Yeah, that's how I got mine,” he said.
“She needs it because she's redesigning Olympus after the Titan war destroyed everything,” Niamh said. “She's working directly with Athena on it,” she added, a little jealousy creeping into her voice.
“I didn't realize they saw each other so frequently,” Nico said. That didn't bode well for him. If his hat trick was sussed out, Athena would be out for his blood.
“Do you have her number?”
Niamh shook her head.
“Okay. I'll get it from someone else. I bet she and Athena don't watch Gilmore Girls together,” Nico added, making Niamh smile.
“They're missing out,” Hecate said, sipping her tea.
Nico walked over to the far side of the cave and dialed Ganymede.
“Hi,” he said, seeing his friend's face popping up on the screen. “How are you?”
“I'm the same as always,” Ganymede said. He was playing a videogame, and wasn't looking at the phone. “Zeus and I just got back from Ko Samui. It was wild. Let me tell you-- He'd never been to Thailand, but I've got him hooked!”
Ganymede began to detail a long, involved story about the trip that involved levels of craziness that Nico could hardly comprehend. It involved a truck full of monkeys, a rigged ladyboy beauty competition, and a celebrity yacht that Ganymede had accidentally sunk. Nico turned down the volume on his phone so that Niamh wouldn't hear some of the more sordid details.
Olympian hijinks were often wantonly destructive and lascivious, but they were super interesting to hear about. Nico always hated to hear of Zeus having fun, but Ganymede was too well-meaning and likeable, so Nico couldn't find it in his heart not to be happy for him. It did sound like a cool vacation.
“But I guess you don't care about my trip,” Ganymede said. “You're too busy with Underworld business to party with me anymore.”
“No, of course not,” Nico said, wary of accidentally offending a god, even one as laid back as Ganymede. “Anytime you want to hang out, I'll be there.”
“I was just teasing you,” Ganymede said. “Persephone told Demeter, who told Hera, who told Zeus, who told me, that she wanted you down there with Hades while she's gone. I wouldn't want to mess with her plans. Maybe we can party with Ariadne. She's crazy about you; she brought you up like a million times.”
“Oh. That's flattering,” Nico said, caught off guard. Ariadne liking him was sweet, but he was even more surprised that gods like Demeter and Hera were talking about him. He couldn't imagine why they'd care about a weird little demigod like him.
Then again, Annabeth was working on Olympus now, and Percy Jackson had recently been offered immortality. Maybe demigods were just in vogue.
“I'm assuming you called because you need a godly favor,” Ganymede said, the sounds of his videogame beeping in the background. “Go ahead.”
“Just Annabeth Chase's phone number. Athena gave her a phone.”
“That's a very minor godly favor,” Ganymede said petulantly. “Makes me think you see me as a very minor god.”
“Never,” Nico assured him. “And I really mean that. You keep the gods connected with each other and help everyone to get along and have fun. Maybe they don't always notice what you do, but it's important.”
Ganymede paused.
“Oh,” he said, and he sounded a little taken aback. “I was just joking around, but... Huh. No one's ever said that to me before. I've got to run, but I'll send you that number.”
He hung up. Nico smiled at his phone, glad he'd been able to catch up with his friend. Ganymede was well liked, but that wasn't the same as being appreciated. Olympians had a bad habit of taking people for granted, so Nico was happy to show Ganymede that he'd noticed how important he really was.
He'd actually been holding back in his compliments, because he was pretty sure Ganymede represented the best of what Olympus had to offer. He was outgoing, enthusiastic, with a lust for life and a strong instinct to keep the large extended family together and in harmony. He sought out gods like Isis and Ariadne who were feeling isolated and disconnected, and he made them feel like they were part of something. Nico knew he did it very intentionally.
Most of all, Ganymede was a mollifying influence on Zeus's intense and overbearing personality. Nico wondered how many people like him Ganymede had spared Zeus's wrath over the years. Most of them probably didn't even know he'd helped them. Based on his history with Zeus, Nico knew there was a good chance Ganymede had saved his life more than once, and he'd never forget it.
Olympus was the complete opposite of the Underworld and its gods, Nico thought, looking over at Hecate, who was still watching TV with her daughter quietly. Cthonic deities liked to keep to themselves and focus on their work. They cooperated more easily than the Olympians because they kept a respectful distance most of the time. The only god that seemed to be supplying any drama down there was his father, and that was because Hades was a displaced Olympian assigned to middle management in a place he wasn't native to. He felt things intensely and cared deeply about doing his job well, and such strong emotions were always destined to be at odds with a place that was literally dead. Hades had been set up to fail, which made sense, since the throne of the Underworld hadn't been intended as a reward.
Life was so weird. Nico had only ever wanted to bring his sister back to life. Somehow along the way, he'd made friends. Real ones. And they were gods. Who could have seen that coming?
His phone buzzed with a text from Ganymede containing Annabeth's number.
Nico video called her and went to sit on the couch beside Niamh.
“Hi, Annabeth,” he said, seeing her face appear on the screen. “It's me again.”
Based on her facial expression, she was still very upset about her hat.
“Where is Niamh? What have you done with her?” Annabeth snapped.
Nico pointed the phone at Niamh and Hecate. Hecate's face must have taken up most of the camera, because Annabeth snapped, “Who the fuck is that? I said where is Niamh?”
“Excuse me?” Hecate said angrily. “Is that any way to address a goddess?”
“I'm right here, Annabeth,” Niamh said, taking the phone. “That was my mom.”
“Lady Hecate, I'm so sorry,” Annabeth said. “I've just been... I lost something very important to me today, and I--”
“I don't want to hear excuses,” Hecate said. “You are very fortunate I can't send my dogs to maim you through the phone.”
“I'm okay, Annabeth. Nico saved my life,” Niamh said. “I'm with my mom now and everything is fine. She said she'll bring me back to camp later.”
“Yes, I'll drop you off. Will this girl be there?” Hecate said.
“Uhhh, I don't know, maybe,” Niamh said, alarmed. “Or she might have a thing. Probably.”
“I will be working with my mother Athena on Olympus for the next week,” Annabeth said.
“Oh,” Hecate said, snorting. “Well, how nice for you. Maybe I'll skip the maiming for now. But watch your back at the crossroads.”
Annabeth hung up.
“Did she just hang up on me?” Hecate snorted angrily and threw Nico's phone into her cauldron. Nico ran to go and fetch it. It worked fine when he drew it out, so he decided to let it go. Divine egos were easily bruised, and it was better Hecate take it out on his phone than on Annabeth.
“Rude little girl,” Hecate said. “Whatever. I'm over it. I'm making margaritas.”
Hecate told Niamh her margarita was virgin, but they realized too late that Hecate only meant it didn't have ambrosia nectar in it. They didn't figure out the misunderstanding until Niamh fell off the couch. Hecate had to make a potion to sober her up, and they got a good laugh out of it.
Eventually, Nico slipped away, leaving them to their mother-daughter bonding time. Now he needed to prepare for father-son bonding time, which for him meant standing in his room, taking a lot of deep breaths and steeling himself for disappointment.
It wasn't that Hades was that bad, usually. But Nico had worked really hard to collect the manticore spines, head, and martyr bones, not to mention destroying that hat. He was wary of getting his hopes up that his dad might be happy with him. It was easier to fail than it was to have his success ignored.
He grabbed his manticore head and tail and shadow traveled into Hades' office.
He wasn't there. Nico knew he'd arrive soon; gods had a way of knowing when people were looking for them. While he waited, he went and looked at Persephone's desk.
To his surprise, she'd framed a photo of him with Achilles. Achilles looked bored, but Nico was grinning from ear to ear. That was when he'd still been fanboying over the hero, before their fight had left him disappointed. Nico wondered for a minute why Persephone would want that photo when she could have chosen one without Achilles in it. He was pretty sure she'd snapped quite a few of them over the months they'd lived together.
Then he realized that this was probably the picture he looked the happiest in.
He stared at his own face in the photo. His eyes were bright and his smile was genuine, his face alive with excitement. He could recall exactly what he'd been thinking in that moment; he'd been remembering Mythomagic. Achilles had been one of his rarest cards, and seeing him in real life, or real death, rather, had felt as exciting as the day he'd gotten the rare new card in a mystery pack at a gas station in DC.
It was funny. Persephone hadn't known him very long, but she'd seen this photo and recognized that it captured a part of Nico even he forgot existed sometimes.
“Do you remember Mythomagic, Bianca?” He said aloud. He'd felt her presence enter the room while he'd been looking at the photo. “You used to listen to me talk about it for hours. That was before we'd ever heard of ADHD hyperfixations,” he said. “You were really patient. Most of the time, anyway.”
Of course, she didn't respond. He wasn't surprised at this point. He turned around and stared, realizing that he knew exactly where she was standing. This mystery about her intentions had gone on for so long, but Nico wasn't new to this anymore. He knew how shades worked, how to control them, how they liked to slip away and hide in shadows, and their natural skittishness. He knew children of Hades were more conscious, that their minds were almost as sharp and clear as they'd been in life. Whatever Bianca was doing might have been weird and mysterious, but it was deliberate.
“Bianca, pretty soon, Thanatos will open the Doors of Death for me,” Nico said. “I'm going to take you out of here, and someone will be waiting on the other side to renew your mortal body.” He wasn't dumb enough to speak Artemis's name in his father's palace. “The plan is almost complete, and it's going to work. Just hang on a little longer. I promise everything is going to be okay.”
No response, obviously.
“Still giving me the silent treatment, huh?” He said coldly. “Disappointing. But we can talk about it when you're alive again.” He had nothing more to get out of speaking with her. He turned back to Persephone's desk, looking at her other photos; one of her mother, one of her with Hades, and three of trees she was close friends with. “Just go, Bianca,” he said finally, realizing she hadn't left yet. “I mean it. I--”
He stopped, staring at the photo of Hades and Persephone together. Hades was holding his helm of darkness under his arm. Nico realized that in all these years, he'd never seen the helm even once.
He turned back around and looked toward where Bianca had been standing, but she was gone.
His father walked into the room.
“I thought I'd find you here,” Hades said. “Is this what I think it is?” He gestured at the manticore parts.
“Yeah,” Nico said, turning around. He stared at his father suspiciously. “Papa, where do you keep your helm of darkness?”
“My bedroom. Which you are not permitted to enter,” Hades said. “Don't tell me you broke your earrings already?”
“No, I was just curious,” Nico said. He walked toward the manticore parts, which Hades was now examining. He'd picked up the tail and was counting the spines.
“This is what you wanted, right?” Nico asked. He cursed himself immediately for saying it. He didn't need to be praised, he told himself firmly. He didn't care what Hades thought of him, he was just ticking things off the list because he had to.
“Is this what I wanted?” Hades asked, looking up at him. “I think that's obvious, unless you know something I don't. Cerberus will appreciate the treat,” he added, pointing at the manticore head.
At least someone would be happy. Nico nodded. Hades seemed satisfied, and Nico would have to accept that his dad wasn't the type to reward his son for following orders.
Hades waved a hand, extracting the spines, and a briefcase appeared on top of his desk with a foam insert. The spines floated over to the briefcase and arranged themselves in neat lines, embedding themselves securely in the foam. The briefcase clicked shut and slid into Hades' desk drawer.
“Is that all?” Hades asked expectantly, raising his eyebrows at Nico.
Nico swallowed, determined not to take the bait. He was so tempted to point out that his dad hadn't thanked him yet, but he held his tongue.
“There's one more thing, actually,” Nico said. He pulled his phone out of his pocket and showed his father the video of him burning Annabeth's hat.
Hades' eyes widened.
“Is that it? Are you certain?”
Nico nodded.
“Annabeth started crying when she saw. She had a decoy set up, but I didn't fall for it.”
“And she has no proof that it was you?” Hades asked tensely.
“None,” Nico said.
Hades played the video again, then again, then again.
“You outsmarted Athena's smartest daughter,” he said quietly. “I never actually expected you to pull this off, let alone get away with it.”
Nico shrugged.
To his utter shock, Hades reached his hand out and ruffled Nico's hair, then leaned down and kissed the top of his head lightly.
“This is a great victory for me over the Olympians,” Hades said. “Thank you, son.”
Nico was speechless for a second. Hades turned away and played the video again.
“You're welcome, I guess,” Nico said, now feeling uncomfortable, though he wasn't even sure why.
“There's something else,” Hades said, looking up at Nico and handing him back his phone. “Persephone said that Demeter told her that Apollo said that you killed two dragons for Artemis? Why did you keep that from me?”
“I had to do it in exchange for the lunula,” Nico said, hoping Hades would accept the answer without prying further. “She was hunting the dragons anyway. I just helped.”
“I knew she wouldn't have given it to you for free,” Hades said. “Still, you've killed two dragons and a manticore, brought Cerberus a treat, and destroyed one of Athena's most powerful tools. I had expected you to arrive with a spine or two and demand a reward, but you asked me for nothing in exchange for all this. I have to say,” he said, drawing himself up proudly. “I think my parenting strategies have proven themselves effective.”
“Wait, what?” Nico said.
“You've finally developed a proper sense of respect and a modicum of heroic instinct,” Hades said. “All thanks to me.”
“No, not thanks to you,” Nico said, his previously controlled temper resurfacing. “All you did was give me chores and make me feel like crap.”
“Precisely,” Hades nodded, walking behind his desk and sitting down in his chair. “You understand.”
“You are completely wrong,” Nico said. “Everything I've accomplished has been in spite of you, not because of you.”
“That is a ludicrous accusation,” Hades said angrily. “You've lived like a prince in my home! I've provided you with trainers other demigods could only dream of!”
“Those trainers are the ones who get to take credit for my accomplishments, not you,” Nico said. “I may have inherited my powers from you, but how many of them have you taught me to use? I figured them out on my own,” he said. “Achilles taught me more in five minutes than you taught me in ninety years. You only gave me my sword because Persephone told you to. My earrings came from Nyx. Seriously, what have you actually done to help me? Name one thing, go ahead.”
“I have no interest in litigating this with you,” Hades said. “I gave you your existence. I should think that's more than enough. Besides, why would I want to waste my time teaching you things? On the off chance you revive your sister, you'll never speak to me again, as you so defiantly swore on the Styx. If you fail there, I doubt you'll bother living much longer. Where, then, would be my return on investment?”
“Return on investment?” Nico repeated.
“I mean the ratio of profit to cost would not be in my favor--”
“I know what it means,” Nico said. “I can't believe you just said that to me. I'm not an investment portfolio, I'm your son!”
“Don't be so sensitive,” Hades said. “I didn't mean it like that.”
“Yes you did,” Nico said.
“Once again you choose to take my words in the worst possible way,” Hades said. “I can't have a conversation with you when you get like this,” he tsked. “Disappointing.”
Nico's eyes welled up with tears, and he shadow traveled out of the room immediately. He went back to his bedroom and sat down on his bed, sniffling. He couldn't stand feeling like his father was calculating his every interaction for maximum return on the least possible parental input.
He curled up into a ball and cried bitter tears. Maybe he was a foolish child for taking his dad's stupid comments to heart, but when Hades talked down to him like that, he did feel like a child again. He couldn't help it.
He thought things over for a while, turning the lights out so that he was in pitch dark. He thought more clearly when he had no visual inputs to distract him. After a while mulling over his feelings, he decided he hated most of all the fact that, when he really thought about it, Hades' strategy had worked. He'd outsourced Nico's training, did the bare minimum of parenting, and set the goalposts high with a long list of difficult tasks, knowing Nico would be forced to work hard in order to finish them. Hades was getting exactly what he wanted from Nico. His reputation benefited as Nico made new friends; he got to taunt Zeus with Nico's success, and when Nico came home, Hades only had to be nice to him when it was absolutely necessary to keep Nico pushing forward.
As Nico's familiar emotions of anger and resentment welled up inside him more and more, he decided he couldn't remember a time when Hades had ever been nice to him, ever at all. He was within his rights to never speak to the god again.
He put on an opera record and just listened in the dark for a while, and it made him feel better. Then he lit a few candles and read his copy of The Inferno until he fell asleep, lulled into feelings of peace by the familiar rhythms of the poetry.
He fell asleep with the book open on his chest, drifting into deep darkness. Then he saw a light. Specifically, a street light. He glanced around him.
He was standing on the sidewalk in front of a Greek hospital. His heart sank. He saw Maria Bova sitting on the curb, her head in her hands.
He went and sat beside her. She wasn't crying; she was still as a statue, frozen in such deep sadness that tears couldn't even fall.
Had the worst come to pass? Was Rosa gone? Nico instinctively tried to put his arm around Maria, but it passed through her.
He wanted to go and see her, but the idea seemed ridiculous. She probably didn't remember him. She might think he was weird, like an obsessed stalker. How did you explain that you'd been seeing someone in your dreams?
He just sat there.
“I'm so sorry,” he said. He remembered the shock after his mother's violent death. First he'd screamed, and then he'd been frozen in the same silence Maria was experiencing. He'd gotten relief from the Lethe soon afterward, but that wasn't an option for Maria. “I'm here,” he said. “I know you can't hear me and you have no clue I can see you. But I'm here. I don't know what I'm supposed to do,” he added, feeling helpless.
He watched as she pulled her rosary out of her pocket and started praying silently. He just sat with her and listened, wondering what it all meant. Why was he dreaming of her? Why was his life so weird?
He woke up in his cozy, dark little room, lit by a single candle at his bedside. His issues with his dad didn't seem nearly as important after his strange nap; Maria obviously had much worse problems. Hades was a real jerk at times, but at least he was never going to die. That was a major point in his favor; Nico was tired of grieving.
His copy of The Inferno was still lying open on his chest. His picked it up and his eyes fixed on the line, “Non temer; ché ’l nostro passo non ci può tòrre alcun: da tal n’è dato.”
It was a nice line, but he didn't see how it was relevant. He shut the book and sat up.
To his surprise, there was a plate sitting on his bedside table. On it was a pomegranate that had been cut into quarters, arranged in a neat circle. Nico picked up a piece and ate a few seeds, wondering if Hades thought sliced fruit made up for the fact that he'd made his son cry.
Under the plate, there was a piece of notepaper that just said, 'Bibliotheca'. Nico wondered what that was about.
He sighed in resignation. He might as well find out what his father wanted now.
Hades would probably pretend nothing had happened and try to give him more chores. Nico would argue at first, then he'd go along with it, then he'd resent Hades for it, and later they'd have another big fight. Such was the rhythm of life in the Underworld.
Notes:
'Non temer; ché ’l nostro passo non ci può tòrre alcun: da tal n’è dato' - This line has a pop translation of 'Do not be afraid; our fate
Cannot be taken from us; it is a gift' but all the more literal translations I read in my research were more along the lines of 'Fear not; because our passage None can take from us, from such great height it is given.' Hopefully that's enough for you to get the gist!
Chapter 28: Family Night at the Plutonium
Notes:
https://www. /arjuna-vallabha/687799670200729600/underworld-gate-and-temple-of-hadespluto-in
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Before going to the library, Nico took a detour to Hades' bedroom. He'd been forbidden to enter, but he couldn't care less about that. He walked inside and waved his hand, lighting every candle in the room.
It looked the same as he remembered the first time; Spartan décor, and a large bed facing a TV. Hades had left it paused on a movie called Life is Beautiful. Nico had never heard of the film, but he was glad his father was trying to cheer himself up by watching something wholesome.
Nico looked under the bed, behind the furniture, and inside every cupboard, nook, and cranny. There was no sign of the helm of darkness anywhere. Nico doubted that Hades would have bothered hiding it, since no one but Nico was dumb enough to go in his room.
Nico was pretty sure Bianca had the helmet. He didn't want it to be true, but it just made sense. He'd never seen a shade hide from him successfully before, and many had tried when he'd cleared out the Necromanteion. Bianca clearly had help.
He walked over to the library. Hades was standing at the bookshelf, his arms full of scrolls, books, and clay tablets.
“Where is your helm of darkness?” Nico asked flatly.
“I told you, it's in my room,” Hades said.
“No it's not.”
“You were told not to go in there,” Hades said, turning to frown at him. “Why do you need to know?”
“Because I'm pretty sure you gave it to Bianca,” Nico said. “And I really don't want it to be true, but I think it is.”
Hades set the pile of books down and sighed.
“Congratulations,” he said. “You caught me. My dead daughter asked me for a favor and I loaned her my helm. Do you want to yell at me for that?”
“I just want an explanation,” Nico said, trying not to freak out. Hades went up to Nico and put his hands on his shoulders.
“She asked for my help shortly after you began looking for her,” Hades said. “Begged me, in fact, for one last boon-- to hide her from you. I couldn't talk her out of it, and I felt obligated to do her one last favor, as her father.”
“Why didn't you tell me?” Nico asked.
“What difference would it make, other than making you angrier with me? I didn't glue the thing to her head,” Hades said. “I stand by my original statement-- your feud is not my problem. I don't know what happened between you two to cause this, and I don't care. But I am very tired of dealing with it.”
“And you think I'm not?” Nico said.
“You can end it,” Hades said. “If you choose to let go. But I know you're not going to anytime soon,” he said, looking at Nico's face. “Are you satisfied? Can we change the subject?”
Nico nodded. Hades seemed equally frustrated with both of them, and Nico reluctantly accepted that Hades was off the hook for this one.
Hades took a seat on one of the reading couches and gestured for Nico to sit beside him.
“I wanted to apologize for my poor choice of words earlier,” Hades said. “It was not my intent to sound so callous. I'm still adjusting to Persephone's departure. It takes me a few days, as I think you're aware.”
“I forgot about that,” Nico said, feeling a little guilty he hadn't tried harder to work things out instead of getting upset.
“Well, it doesn't matter,” Hades admitted. “I can't use her as an excuse. She would be furious with me if I did. Things were much better between us while she was here, and I promised her I would try to keep the peace while she's away. I tried to tell her you were hopeless and a lost cause, but she's an optimist to a fault,” Hades shrugged.
Nico laughed, knowing his father wasn't being serious about calling him hopeless.
“In any case, I thought I might teach you something, since you were so aggrieved that I hadn't,” Hades said.
“Wait, really?” Nico asked excitedly. “You don't have to if you don't want to. I was being a little overdramatic about that.”
“You are overdramatic about everything,” Hades said. “But if you can keep that in check for a while, I will instruct you in ancient summoning techniques. Just this once.”
“Thank you!” Nico said. “I promise I'll be the best student you've ever had.”
“We'll see,” Hades said skeptically. He picked up the stack of books, scrolls, and tablets and began sorting them into a particular sequence.“Take these and read them in order. Come to me when you've memorized each incantation, and we'll begin your training.”
“Okay!” Nico said, thrilled that he was about to gain a new ability.
Hades went back to work, and Nico began to read through the texts. The magical instructions were very cool and spooky to read about, and he could feel the spirits of the dead stirring around him when he murmured the incantations under his breath. The memorization came to him quickly, like he'd already known the chants and was just refreshing his memory.
He tore through a text on human sacrifice and couldn't put it down, but the next book after that was just records of the priesthood of Pluto, and it got kind of boring. He needed a break, and he knew exactly what he wanted as a distraction.
Minos suddenly appeared in the middle of the library. He looked around curiously.
“Did you just summon me here?”
“I did,” Nico said, going over and giving him a hug. “It's good to see you again,” he said, “I have so much to tell you about the last couple of weeks.”
Nico sat on his reading couch, and Minos sat on the one opposite, facing him. He listened intently to Nico's story of his defeat of the manticore and the destruction of the hat.
“Do you know what impresses me the most about your tale?” Minos said, scratching his beard thoughtfully. “It's the wisdom you are developing. The Nico of a few years ago would have grabbed the decoy hat immediately and run off, bringing back the wrong one to Lord Hades. Instead you outwitted a daughter of Athena.”
“I don't think I'm really any wiser,” Nico said, slightly embarrassed, “Because Papa and I got into another fight over something stupid yesterday. Although we did work it out eventually.”
“I would be more surprised to hear that you didn't argue,” Minos shrugged. “He's always been the type to claim that he hates drama, and then go around creating it so he can complain about it some more. Your arrival was the first time he's gotten out of bed since Spring. And now he's already back to work, which usually takes at least two weeks.”
Nico smiled. His dad drove him absolutely crazy at times, but it was nice to know that his presence improved Hades' mood to that extent.
“I can't imagine how proud he must be of you,” Minos said. “You are a truly remarkable demigod, Nico. I know I compliment you often, but it really can't be understated.”
“Thank you, Minos,” Nico said, blushing at the compliment. “How have you been? You're always so supportive of me, but I feel like I never ask about you.”
“It's not as though my answer will ever be interesting,” Minos shrugged. “I'm fine as always. Bickering with my brothers from time to time, and very busy with processing shades, but otherwise, I'm content.”
“I was thinking about you earlier because I was reading this book on human sacrifice,” Nico said, showing the book to Minos. “It doesn't mention the labyrinth, but I made the connection anyway. You said Daedalus is still alive, but you didn't mention whether the labyrinth was still in Crete?”
“It moved constantly. Daedalus was the only one who knew how to find the entrance,” Minos said. “Which was very frustrating for me once he escaped. Although it turned out that he'd told Ariadne how to find it, too, but I didn't know that at the time.” He shook his head sadly. “Those were dark days for my mental health. I'm quite glad it's over.”
“Would Ariadne still be able to find the entrance, do you think?”
“I have no idea,” Minos said. “It's been thousands of years. I guess it would depend on whether he still trusts her. If not, he may have changed the entry process. Why do you ask?”
“Just wondering,” Nico said.
They continued to talk for a long time, content in each other's company, but all good things had to end. Hades eventually loomed in the doorway, frowning.
“Minos, you're on the clock,” he said sternly.
“Sorry, Lord Hades,” Minos said, scurrying away.
“Nico,” Hades said warningly.
“We were just talking!” Nico said. “What, I can't have friends?”
“I was not born yesterday, young man,” Hades said. “You're not the first boy to become enamored with his trainer, and you won't be the last. Leave Minos alone and you'll forget him quickly. Mortal hearts are fickle.”
“I don't have a fickle mortal heart,” Nico said firmly. “And I'm old enough to make my own decisions. I don't need you protecting me!”
“It's not about protecting you, it's about following the rules,” Hades said. “We have a workplace fraternization policy for a reason. I can't allow my son to date my employees. It could throw the realm into chaos. Did you finish your reading?”
“Not yet,” Nico said.
“Then get back to work,” Hades said, leaving once again.
Nico didn't feel like going back to work, but he couldn't go after Minos without getting him in trouble. Instead he went back to his room and grabbed the martyr's finger bone he'd collected in Italy. Maybe this was the right time to see Nyx and ask about the doors of death.
He shadow traveled to her realm, where he was surrounded by endless darkness that went on forever in every direction.
“A visitor,” she said, her voice soothing and pleasant. “And it's Nico again. It's nice to see you, dear.”
“You, too. Lady Nyx, I brought you the martyr bone you asked for,” he said. “I confirmed it's real. Sorry again about last time.”
“Give it to me.”
She appeared before him, tall and glowing, her black hair floating around her head like a halo. He handed her the bone, and she took a small bite. Then she slid her fingernail down her arm, leaving a bright golden line of ichor visible on her white skin.
“Perfect,” she said approvingly, “And high quality, too. Thank you.”
“You're welcome. How do the bones work exactly?”
“I don't know,” she said. “They aren't from our pantheon, so I am afraid they're a mystery to me. That's one of the reasons I like them.”
Nyx was the only person in the Underworld permitted to talk about this subject, so Nico decided to go for it.
“I'm actually kind of curious about the other pantheons,” Nico said. “And how they interact with this one. Valhalla and the Duat are real, too, right? And Helheim? And Heaven and Hell?”
“That's a complicated question,” Nyx said. “It depends on your definition of 'real'. Maybe they are real for some people. But what does it matter to you, Nico?”
“I'm not interested in theology or the meaning of the universe or anything like that,” Nico said. “I just thought it would be cool to go and look at the other afterlifes and see how they're different.”
“You are already deeply embedded in our ecosystem here,” she said. “I doubt you'd be allowed very far into the secret places of other pantheons without making some promises that would be hard to keep.” “There's not a tourist visa I can apply for? I won't take pictures or anything,” Nico said.
“We don't offer it to them, so I doubt they would be any more generous toward us,” she said.
“But that's not exactly true,” he said. “My grandmother came here when she died, and I know she was a Roman Catholic her entire life.”
“She came in under the transiting policy,” Nyx said. “My son Thanatos collects all souls on his list and brings them to a holding area. If they belong to another pantheon, they are transferred out almost as soon as they arrive, and their chosen pantheon has custody from that point onward. The souls left behind are those destined to remain with us. Your grandmother probably found out her daughter was here and decided to stay.”
“So the Catholics are using Thanatos to collect their souls? No wonder he's so much busier than everybody else down here,” Nico said. “I've never even seen him.”
“When the Roman empire made the transition to Catholicism, some of our processes became entangled,” Nyx said. “Many people were clinging to old beliefs at the same time that they were learning new ones. Thanatos's extra work is an unfortunate result of our lack of coordination between pantheons. We've never been able to negotiate a resolution due to serious ongoing communication issues.”
“Can't he just quit and force them to figure it out?” Nico asked.
“He could,” she said. “The Catholics are more than capable of being self-sufficient. But only he can make that choice. Part of the problem stems from the fact that he has trouble letting go.”
“He's not the only one,” Nico said. “Well, if you see him, can you please tell him I want to talk to him?”
“I will, but he's very busy,” Nyx said apologetically. “What little time he has to spare is generally not devoted to socializing.”
Nico recalled the butterflies covering the floor of that empty room. Thanatos had so much on his plate; it made sense that he needed to recharge in peace and quiet.
“Okay,” Nico said. “I don't suppose you can explain anything about the doors of death to me?”
“No, dear, those are solely my son's responsibility.” Nyx said, “I cannot tell you without his consent.”
“I understand,” Nico said.
“And now I need you to swear you will tell no one about what we spoke of. Do you swear it?”
“I swear it on the Styx,” Nico said. Nyx nodded her satisfaction.
“Good. For your reward, why don't you keep a bit for yourself, dear? It's a lovely sensation, especially when the pain is severe.”
“Thank you,” Nico said. She bit off a chunk of bone and dropped it in his palm.
Nico went back to the library, tucking the bone in his pocket. He was intrigued by the inter-pantheon issue Thanatos seemed to be struggling with. The saddest part was that Thanatos was cut off from support. The Cthonic deities were mostly kind and helpful, but they couldn't do anything to assist when the subject was forbidden to talk about. It probably didn't help that Thanatos had a reputation for being difficult. But they didn't know the full scope of what he was dealing with.
It was odd to think that he'd never met Thanatos, and yet he might know more about him than gods that had known him for millenia.
Nico finished his assigned reading, taking breaks to browse the other books in the library, looking for information on the doors of death, but he found nothing.
He went to find Hades, who was in his office, typing away at his computer.
“Some of these macros Persephone invented are ingenious,” Hades said unprompted. “But unfortunately beyond my skill level. I think I've just broken one of her spreadsheets.”
“Like you ripped it?” Nico asked.
“Pardon?”
“Did she weave it or something?”
“Spreadsheet,” Hades said. “Not bedsheet. You are the youngest person in the Underworld. I should be asking you these questions,” Hades said.
“I know how to email, I know how to text, I can use the internet,” Nico said. “I even figured out how to add Charon to the work group so he could look at the demographic reports.”
“Those reports are a type of spreadsheet,” Hades said.
“Oh! In that case, I think I do know what you're talking about,” Nico said. “I was just calling them files.”
“Also, Charon wasn't supposed to be added to the work group,” Hades said. “He was left out deliberately.”
“But that's mean!” Nico said. “He wanted to be part of the team.”
“Charon is part of the team,” Hades said. “But we were concerned he'd accidentally break one of the spreadsheets.”
“Like you just did,” Nico said.
Hades made a displeased face.
“Why are you here? You'd better have finished your homework,” he said.
“I did,” Nico said brightly. “I'm ready for my lesson now.”
Hades nodded, relieved to have an excuse to get away from broken spreadsheets. He had Nico take his hand, and suddenly, they were on the surface standing beneath a dark sky painted with stars.
“Where are we?” Nico asked, looking around and seeing ruined columns and half fallen walls.
“Pamukkale, in Turkey,” Hades said. “More specifically, we are in the ruins of Hierapolis, where my temple, the Plutonium, once stood. See?”
He pointed to statues of himself and Cerberus, obviously modern replicas. They stood on a raised platform with a deep pit in front of it, surrounded by stairways that resembled a small, square arena with the pit at the center.
Nico ran up the stairs to examine the statue closely. He touched the statue of Cerberus on the leftmost head, his favorite.
“They made him way too small,” he pointed out.
“Focus, please,” Hades said.
“I read about this place,” Nico said, energized by his excitement. “This leads to the Underworld, right? And it releases poisonous gas.” He ran down the stairs to get closer to the pit, pointing at an archway in the wall. It was blocked with a big rock, but it had once been an opening to a cave located directly beneath the statue of Pluto.
“It did, until the Catholics closed it off,” Hades grumbled. “I can't remove the stone because it has one of their seals on it.”
Nico dropped into the pit, which had a foot of water on the bottom of it, and splashed his way over to the opening. He touched the stone and saw the golden seal appear.
“Don't touch that,” Hades said, descending into the water to yank him away from the stone. “There's no telling what traps they've set for us.”
“It's not a trap,” Nico said. “It's just there to keep us from moving the rock. A saint put this here, probably to protect the tourists. There must be a relic nearby.”
“How do you know that?” Hades asked suspiciously.
“Just an educated guess,” Nico shrugged. He could sense the presence of the saint not far away, but he was pretty sure they wouldn't interfere.
“Where are you getting all of this information about them?” Hades asked, frowning.
“I grew up surrounded by Catholicism,” Nico said. “I have a rough idea of how they operate. It's not that big of a deal. So what's next?”
“I had you read multiple versions of this ritual,” Hades said, climbing the steps to stand in front of his statue. Nico remained in the pit looking up at him. “For you, here, it will not matter which one you use, it will work, too well, in fact. You will be mobbed with shades unless you control them. I want you to find the most powerful among the crowd and dismiss the rest. Demonstrate complete control over the souls of the dead.”
“Why does this feel more like a test than a lesson?” Nico asked.
“Just do it,” Hades snapped.
Nico knew what he needed to do. First he googled local farms, then he traveled to a nearby sheep field. He grabbed the nicest looking black ram and brought it back to the pit. Then he shadow traveled to a local grocer, became invisible, and grabbed two boxes of cookies, a chocolate cake, and a bottle of wine. He returned to the pit and set the food on the steps, hurrying back to his ram. It had started chewing the scattered greenery at the edges of the water.
Nico grabbed it and dragged it to the blocked archway. It started chewing on his pant leg instead.
“What do I do now?” Nico asked, looking up at Hades.
Hades turned around and started brushing dust off of his statue, ignoring him.
“Okay, guess I'll figure it out,” Nico muttered. He heard a splash and glanced down. The ram had fallen over. “Oh. That was fast.”
Nico knelt in the water and quickly recited the first incantation that came to mind, summoning the spirits of the dead to feast on the food he'd brought. Very quickly, shades began shimmering into view all around him, all of them ravenous, pushing and shoving to get to the ram.
Nico set one plastic tray of cookies on top of the water and floated it over to them. Then he poured out the bottle of wine. Then shades began cupping water in their hands, drinking, munching on the cookies, and a few started tearing into the ram's flesh. The water next to the cave entrance ran red with blood. Nico kept chanting under his breath, scanning the crowd, but all the shades looked the same to him. How was he supposed to single one of them out?
None of the shades looked distinguishable from one another. It had seemed simple in the books. Even Odysseus had managed to summon Tyresias, and he'd been working with a hole he'd had to dig with a sword. Nico went to get the second tray of cookies and saw an older female shade trying to tear open the cake package. She was tall and thin, with dark hair arranged in a complex braided hairstyle, and was wearing a long white dress.
“Hey, quit it!” Nico said. “That's for everyone to share.”
She glanced back at him, looked him up and down skeptically, then turned back to the cake. She managed to open the plastic top and remove it, then she stuck a finger in the frosting and brought it to her lips.
She gagged, making a face of disgust.
“What is that?” She said in Latin. “It tastes horrible.”
“It's a chocolate cake,” Nico said, taking it out of her hands. He brought it to the larger mass of shades and hand fed it to them, feeling eerily like he was at a petting zoo for dead people. After a couple of minutes, he just dropped it into the water. They seemed to like wet cake just fine.
When he turned around again, the woman had torn into the second cookie package and started eating them.
“These are adequate,” she said primly. “Can you run and get more wine?”
“Not right now,” he said. She did seem like a powerful shade, he thought, studying her for a moment. She didn't glow the way Achilles had, but she was present and alert where the other shades were mindless, hungry shadows. “What's your name?” He asked.
“Macaria Ferentina,” she said. “I was a Vestal Virgin,” she added in a snobby voice.
Her name sounded familiar, but he couldn't recall where he'd heard of her. She looked strangely familiar, too.
“And who might you be?” She asked.
“Nico di Angelo,” he said. “Son of Hades.”
“I see,” she said, looking at him somehow with even more skepticism than before.
A shadow fell over them. Hades stood at the edge of the pit, looking down at them.
“Nico,” he said. “I see you found your sister.”
Nico and Macaria ascended the stairs to join their father, Nico dismissing the remaining shades. Hades kissed Macaria's cheek in greeting, and the three of them sat on the edge of the platform.
“It's nice to meet you,” Nico said, sitting beside her. She was eating from the cookie tray, a bored expression on her face. “Did you know you were a daughter of Pluto while you were alive?”
“I did,” she said. “Vesta told me in a dream the night I joined her Vestal Virgins.”
“Nice. What was your life like?”
“Not bad,” she said, “I carried out a great number of poisonings of high-ranking senators,” she smiled proudly. “After I retired, I moved here with a few friends. We spent our last years relaxing in the hot springs and watching the sacrifices in the Plutonium. I'm buried in the necropolis up the road.”
“That sounds like a great life,” Nico said. “You know, Artemis told me once that children of Hades never had happy endings. She said we weren't meant to exist.”
“Olympian propaganda,” Hades snorted.
“Our brother Dante did well for himself, too. It seems like it's only lately that we've had bad luck.”
“What changed?” She asked.
“Zeus,” Nico said bitterly.
“You mean Jupiter,” she corrected.
“Him, too.”
Hades cleared his throat loudly.
“Nico, your lesson is complete. You can speak to Macaria in Elysium anytime.”
“I'd like to register my displeasure at this summoning,” Macaria said sternly. “I only just arrived in Elysium, and I resent being forced out before I've had time to get properly settled in.”
“You've been dead for two thousand years,” Nico said.
“Oh,” she said, fiddling with one of her braids. “Well, in that case I suppose you can visit me in the hot springs, if you feel you absolutely must.”
“Don't worry, I won't be a pest,” Nico laughed. “It was nice meeting you, sister.”
He looked up at Hades.
“I should stay and clean up all this food. And the ram carcass. There might be tourists tomorrow.”
Hades raised his eyebrows.
“How responsible of you. I was going to send a skeleton to do it. But yes, you ought to stay and clean. It will build character.”
“Mind this one, father,” Macaria said. “I think he wants to be the next high priest of the Plutonium. The old one had better watch his back.”
“He's welcome to apply, but I doubt he'll like the job requirements,” Hades laughed. “Come, I will escort you back to your hot springs.” With that, they left.
Nico summoned a team of skeletons to clean up, then he went back to the grocer and stole a bottle of expensive red wine, another chocolate cake, and a bag of apples. He came back to find the pit spotless once more. He dismissed the skeletons, dumped the apples into the water, and began chanting again.
Shades reappeared, but he handled them better this time. He looked each one in the face, and if he didn't know them, he sent them back to the Underworld immediately.
One by one, they appeared and were dismissed. He was determined not to lose this opportunity, and so he waited diligently until she arrived.
Maria di Angelo walked up to an apple and lifted it out of the water, taking a small, dainty bite. She'd always eaten like that in life, biting with her front teeth to preserve her lipstick. In the dark of the night, she looked straight out of a black and white movie, her hair, clothing, and makeup making her a perfectly preserved relic of peak 1940's fashion. To Nico, she was more beautiful than any goddess.
Seeing her was one thing, but he needed to encourage a connection between them. Here, she was just another mindless shade until the magic entered her that allowed her to connect with the living once more. Macaria had divine blood to aid in that, but Maria only had Nico, and he wasn't sure how to pull off the trick.
He chanted louder and faster, but she just ate her apple and stared into space. Finally he got frustrated and just said, “Mama! Say something!”
“Nico?” She glanced up at him, smiling. “My son! I didn't recognize you at first! Look how much you've grown!”
He threw himself into her arms. She didn't feel the same as she had in life, but it was a lot better than nothing.
“I've missed you so much,” he said, wiping tears from eyes.
“I'm sorry for leaving you, my love,” she said. “I hope you're not angry.”
“Never,” He said. “It wasn't your fault. I don't know how long this spell will last, so I don't want to waste time talking about bad things. So, how is being dead?”
“It's sweet to do nothing,” Maria said happily.
“I want to come join you, but I have a lot on my plate at the moment,” he said. “Hopefully someday.”
She paused, looking like she was about to say something, then thought better of it.
“What?” He asked, seeing the odd expression that passed over her face.
“Nothing. Just remember to make the most of this life you have,” she said. “I'm in no rush to see you dead, my son. No mother wishes for that.”
“I've come to see you a couple of times in secret, but I'm not supposed to interrupt your afterlife. As far as I know, this is the only exception to that rule. But now that I know how to do it, we can talk anytime,” he said excitedly.
“You know I'm always here for you. At least in the ways I still can be,” she said, “But my hope was that your father would step in when I could no longer care for you. Did he? Is he doing a good job?”
“He's trying,” Nico said. “But he's not like you.”
She pinched his cheek fondly. The gesture was so familiar and comforting that more tears fell from Nico's eyes.
“Maybe that's for the best,” she said. “I think I coddled you a little bit,” she smiled.
“What? I'm not coddled!” Nico insisted.
He noticed in his peripheral vision that his mother was beginning to fade as the sun rose in the distance. Then he saw another, brighter light, different from the sun, on the horizon. And it was growing closer.
“Child of Hades,” a voice boomed over the hills. It was as loud as thunder, and it shook the ground like a small earthquake. “A reckoning is upon you.”
“What the fuck?” Nico said. He dismissed his mother back to the Underworld and watched as the light moved toward him.
A massive, glowing goddess had descended from the clouds. She marched up and stomped directly on Hades' statue, crushing it beneath her golden sandaled foot. The small statue of Cerberus crashed into the pit near where Nico was standing with a splash.
He recognized the bright silver eyes and gleaming bronze helm, the aegis shield and aloof expression. It was Athena, and following behind her was a young woman who was struggling to keep up with Athena in her statuesque, oversized Olympic form. Annabeth looked terrified, and her face was streaked with tears.
“Uh oh,” Nico said.
“Nico, run!” Annabeth screamed.
Chapter 29: Drone Chase
Chapter Text
“Athena, I don't have any evidence it was him,” Annabeth said. Her voice was fearful, but still strong. “This is premature. We can't kill Nico when he may not be the one responsible.”
“I trust your deductive reasoning skills,” Athena said coldly, her gaze never leaving Nico. “You're my daughter, after all.”
Nico tried to shadow travel away to safety, but before he could move, a bright spotlight clicked on above him. It shined a blazingly bright beam of light down on him. Every way he turned, another light clicked on, until he was bathed in light from all angles. Anywhere a shadow might be cast, when he turned to find it, another light was in his face, blinding him.
“Nowhere to hide,” Athena said.
The lights were paining his eyes so badly he could barely keep them open. Nico turned invisible and tried to duck and run away, but the drones followed his every move with precision.
“Naturally they're equipped with heat sensors,” she said. “Invisibility will not help.”
He could do nothing with shadow in the bright light, so he chanted a fire spell and saw the flames glance harmlessly off the drones. They sprayed him with mockingly small jets of water, making him stagger back.
“I commend you on your success at outwitting my daughter,” Athena said. “But if there is one thing that never fails me, it's my ability to learn. I will not make the mistake of leaving a precious item of mine vulnerable to flame, ever again. But by all means, throw everything you have at my drones. It's just more data. We love data, don't we, Annabeth?”
“Yes, mother,” Annabeth said. “But there's still data we're missing. We can't execute him without proof.”
“I'm aware of that, obviously,” Athena said. “Which is why the drone just extracted the data from his phone. Oh, did I fail to mention they could do that?” She laughed, seeing Nico's panic. “My uncle has a terrible habit. He likes to gloat over his petty victories. I think they keep him warm during the long, lonely summers.” She set Annabeth down in order to look at her own phone without putting down her shield. “Ah, yes. As I suspected,” she grinned. “We have found our hat burner. Zeus can't fail to ignore this insult to me.”
Nico tried to run again, but he was immediately hit by multiple tasers at one. He crumpled. The electricity shooting through his limbs reminded him of the lightning that had killed his mother. He didn't die, didn't even lose consciousness, but the pain was crippling and he couldn't move a muscle or even think straight.
“It's me,” Athena said, her phone against her ear. “Yes, I sent you a link to the video. Permission to kill? Understood. Thank you, Papa,” she added, her voice growing just a tad bit sweeter than its normal monotone stern authority. Nico would rolled his eyes if he could have. Even the great and wise Athena had to suck up to Zeus. He really hoped that wasn't the last thing he ever got to hear.
Suddenly the drones launched a massive jolt of electricity through the taser connections. The pain was overwhelming. Nico's brain whited out with pain, but he remained conscious, although he started involuntarily screaming his lungs raw.
The jolts stopped. He promptly threw up all over his shirt and collapsed into the water, unable to convince his muscles to move a millimeter.
“That was lethal voltage,” Athena said. “Twice the lethal voltage, in fact. He should be dead. Something is off. I'm going to recalibrate this.”
“Mom, stop!” Annabeth screamed. She grabbed her mother's skirt and tugged on it in a desperate bid to get her attention. “It's Hades that's to blame, not Nico! Listen to me! There has to be another way!”
Athena sent one of her drones flying over to Annabeth. It tased her. Annabeth crumpled to the ground, trembling, and then going still.
That brief extra second Annabeth had bought him was enough. Nico reached into his pocket and grabbed the tiny shard of martyr bone. He'd just slipped it into his mouth when the next shock hit him.
The pain he'd been feeling completely transformed into the most perfect, golden feeling of warmth and comfort and light that he could imagine. All anxiety, tension, and fear left his body in an instant. All he was left with was ecstasy and a sensation of floating.
The blue sparks of electricity coming from the tasers lost all power over him. Now unafraid, he simply reached down and removed the taser darts, unable to keep from smiling.
He held the bone very carefully in his mouth, pressing it against the roof of his mouth with his tongue. He couldn't let Athena find out about it, and he hoped he'd gotten it in his mouth fast enough to evade her notice. He had absolutely no interest in ever feeling that electric shock again.
Athena stared at him. Nico was now composed, even smiling at her.
“What did you do to my drones?” She asked.
He couldn't answer with the bone in his mouth, not that he really wanted to anyway. He was finally able to think straight, or at least relatively clearly despite the strange and wonderful feelings coming from the bone.
He became intangible. Had Annabeth told Athena about that ability of his? It seemed like she hadn't, because Athena began typing furiously on her phone's drone program.
The drones fired more tasers, then lasers, then jets of fire. Obviously it all passed through him, which she quickly realized. She tapped some more. He was pretty sure she was trying to quickly program something new, and he had no doubt she would be able to overpower his intangibility somehow eventually.
He made a run for it.
The drones were hot on his heels the entire way, still firing various projectiles in his direction. He thought some were bullets, but he tried not to think about it. He ran for dear life, moving on instinct like a scared animal, with no idea where he was going.
He tripped over his own feet and skidded in the dirt of the road, having lost control of his intangibility for a second. He should have been practicing it more, but it was too late to regret that now. He was so panicked that he found it impossible to hold the focus he needed to sustain it.
He heard the buzzing drones right behind him, closing on him fast, and in the span of a heartbeat, he ducked into a small stone building, becoming intangible just long enough to fall through the grate that barred the door.
The inside was dark and empty, and the drones weren't able to follow him inside. He sat and peered through the grate. The drones camera lenses focused and unfocused on him, and then, to his shock, they drew back, settled at a distance, and shut their lights off.
Nico breathed a huge sigh of relief. He'd been certain that they were about to slice through the bars with their lasers.
He took the bone from his mouth and put it back in his pocket, his strength leaving him. He sat on the ground, shaking uncontrollably. He wasn't sure if it was fear, adrenaline, or coming down from the high that made him feel so weak, but he could barely move.
“Um, do you mind sharing why I was in your mouth?” A man's voice asked.
Nico jumped. There was an old, bearded man in a robe sitting across from him, who had suddenly become visible.
“Sorry, what did you just say?” Nico asked.
“That was my bone,” the man said.
Nico pulled the bone out of his pocket and held it up.
“This... Is you?” He asked.
The man nodded.
“Oh my god,” Nico said immediately. “You must be... Uh, sorry, I actually have no clue who you are. What's your name?”
“Philip.”
“Philip? You were a martyr?”
“And an evangelist, and an apostle, but who's counting?” Philip said.
Nico was speechless for a moment. Getting caught with Philip's own bone in his mouth felt like a crime of the highest order for some reason.
“Are you upset with me?” He asked worriedly.
“No. Relics are meant to be used. And I'd have heard if one of them were stolen,” Philip said. “A few bits and pieces were lost long ago, so I assume it's one of them?”
Nico nodded.
“I bought it from a museum.” He wasn't going to mention Nyx, not for all the diamonds in the earth. “I promised Saint Valentine I'd source it ethically.”
“I'm glad you kept your promise,” Philip said. “It seems it led you to sanctuary, so it was a good thing you had it.”
“Jumping in here saved my life,” Nico said. “This is your tomb?” He asked, looking around outside the grate again. The drones were now sweeping up and down the road that ran through the Necropolis, while one stood guard outside. To his horror, he saw Athena staring straight at him, although she was standing at a great distance away, and looked frustrated.
“It is,” Philip said. “And you will be safe here. Stay as long as you need; she can't touch you here.”
“I don't know how to thank you,” Nico said, clasping his hands in gratitude.
“You know how to thank me,” Philip said, raising his eyebrows.
“Uh. No,” Nico said.
“Uh, yes,” Philip said firmly.
Nico glanced back at Athena.
“I can't venerate you where she can see me,” he said. “I know that sounds like an excuse, but it's true. I'm in enough hot water as it is. I promise I'll thank you properly later, assuming I make it out of here. I swear it on the St-- On everything I hold sacred,” he corrected himself.
“Mhm,” Philip said skeptically. “We'll worry about that once you're safe, I suppose. Do you have a plan?”
“I need to call my dad,” Nico said, pulling out his phone. He hit the button, but it didn't work. The screen was black and dead. “Crap. This thing is fried.” He looked up at Philip. “Can I shadow travel from here?”
“If you're talking about using some magical power of yours, then no,” Philip said.
Nico knew that hitting the ground twice was the method to summon Hades. His dad had said to use it for emergencies, and this qualified. But it probably wouldn't work in Philip's tomb, and it would be disrespectful to Philip to try.
The problem was, the second Nico left the tomb, the spotlights would be on him again, and shadow travel would be just as impossible as it was inside the tomb. He could hear the drones buzzing outside like a swarm of angry bees. What if Athena had calibrated the tasers again, and this time they really would kill him? Worse, what if they didn't, and she ended up taking him back to Olympus and handing him over to Zeus? He had no clue what would happen, but he was scared out of his mind.
“My usual transportation method isn't an option,” Nico said. “I think my only bet is to get into the Underworld somehow. I can go through the Plutonium if I can get through the rock, but there's a seal on it.”
“My bone will absorb that,” Philip said.
“Wait, really?” Nico said. “That's perfect! I think I might have a chance, then.”
“I'll distract that horrible demon,” Philip said, waving his hand at one of the drones. It glowed with a golden seal and crashed to the ground, twitched. Athena frowned and began tapping at her phone trying to fix it.
Then it exploded.
“Go now,” Philip said. “And good luck!”
Nico ran towards the pit as fast as his legs could take him, invisible and intangible, the drones tracking him the entire way. While he ran, he held the bone in his hand, ready to bite it if they tased him again.
He reached out his other hand and managed to break one of the drones with shadow, but true to Athena's word, the others quickly learned not to leave the light of the others for long, and they moved too quickly for Nico to focus on them. He gave up and concentrated on running.
He made it to the Plutonium without being zapped once. He figured Athena had decided it didn't work any longer.
Right before he was going to jump into the pit and pass through the entrance to the Underworld, he looked up at the pile of rubble where the statues of Hades and Cerberus had been.
Annabeth was still lying there unconscious. Nico hesitated only a second before he grabbed her and dragged her down into the pit with him.
He used the bone to remove the seal, feeling the power absorb into the tiny sharp bone in his hand. His whole hand glowed gold. He tried not to let it worry him too much; he had no choice. This was life or death.
He passed through the stone intangibly, but Annabeth couldn't pass through with him. Instead, he shoved her under the water and carefully maneuvered her unconscious body through a small gap beneath the stone. Fortunately for her, the stone was in place to prevent tourists from entering the poisonous caves on the other side, but it wasn't blocking the entrance completely, just the part that wasn't submerged underwater.
Nico got her safely on the other side before she drowned. He could hear the drones firing at the rock, but the inside of the cave was otherwise quiet and dark and homey.
He took a deep breath. Finally, his body could relax, and he knew he was going to be okay. He'd made it.
Just when he started feeling safe and happy again, Annabeth started gasping for air. She was struggling to breathe, althought not in the same Niamh had been. He'd forgotten in his rush that, while he was immune to the poison cave, she definitely was not.
He hugged her tightly against himself and shadow traveled into the palace throne room. Her breathing immediately eased, and some color came back to her face, but she didn't wake up.
Hades swept into the throne room and stopped short in between the columns of the entryway.
“No. No, no, no, no, absolutely not,” Hades said. “Put that thing back where it came from.”
“She's not a thing; this is Annabeth,” Nico said. “Athena's daughter.”
“I don't care if you're in love with her, she's not staying,” Hades said flatly. “I have a bad enough reputation as it is.”
“Papa, please be serious,” Nico said, already emotionally exhausted by the events of the day. It was slowly dawning on him that it might be a long time before he could go back to the surface safely. “Athena just tried to kill me over that stupid hat.”
“She dared do such a thing!” Hades said, dark flames bursting into life all around him. “What happened? Why didn't you call me? ”
“She had a swarm of drones she'd programmed specifically to trap me,” Nico said. “She broke my phone and shined a bunch of horrible lights on me so I couldn't escape. It's a miracle I survived.” Poor choice of words on his part, he thought, cringing, but Hades didn't seem to notice.
“But what does she have to do with it?” Hades said, pointing at Annabeth.
“Annabeth tried to help me, and Athena knocked her out,” Nico said. “I just saw her lying on the altar and grabbed her. Athena trashed the Plutonium, by the way,” Nico said. “She kicked your statue down.”
Hades roared with rage, dark spikes rising from the ground, a cloud of darkness swirling in a raging spiral all around them. Skeletons burst forth from the ground, and in the distance, Cerberus howled a plaintive wail.
“I got some flames. The statue gets a rage tornado and a skeleton army?” Nico said. “Nice priorities.”
“Children are temporary,” Hades said. “Temples are forever. Now, take the girl and go lock her up somewhere. A child of Athena is far too dangerous to leave unsecured.”
“Do I have to?” Nico said. “She tried to help me. She might be cooperative. It's not like she can escape without us allowing it.”
Hades sighed.
“I don't know what you were thinking, bringing her here,” he said, rubbing his temples. “It will only enrage Athena further.”
“So what? She already wants me dead,” Nico said. “She even got permission from Zeus to execute me. I'm not sure why she needed it.”
“She didn't,” Hades said. “She's just stroking his ego. That sort of behavior is how she became his favorite in the first place. I can see you pretending to sleep, Elspeth!” Hades snapped.
Annabeth opened her eyes and sat up.
“How much of that did you hear?” Nico asked.
“All of it. You need to send me back to camp immediately,” she said firmly. “Kidnapping me is not going to help your case.”
“I disagree,” Nico said. “You're the only leverage I've got to negotiate my way back to freedom.”
“If you think negotiating with my mom will get you anywhere, you're delusional,” Annabeth sighed, rubbing her face, which was covered in dirt and mud from getting dragged through the cave. “She never picks a fight she isn't sure she can win.”
“In this case, I unfortunately have to agree,” Hades said. “It's easier if you give up on ever seeing the sun again, Nico. Keeping Annabeth here is unlikely to change anything for you, and will likely make things worse.”
“But--”
“No more argument,” Hades said. “If it makes you feel better, you can torment her for a little while, but I want her gone by the time I finish this next spreadsheet. Send her back with Charon; you are not permitted to leave. Now get out,” he shooed them both out of his throne room.
Annabeth followed Nico out silently. He stood in the hall, feeling shell-shocked and disappointed. Maybe there was nothing that could be done, but it felt wrong not to at least try something.
“I'm not angry that you kidnapped me,” Annabeth said, resting her hand on his shoulder in a gesture of comfort. “You panicked and it seemed like a good idea at the time. Been there, done that. But with that said, I need to go back to camp now. When I get there, I'll talk to my mom and see what I can do.”
He shrugged off her hand, not wanting her pity.
“You talking to her won't do any good,” he said. “I saw how she treated you.”
“It doesn't mean I can't try,” Annabeth said, determination shining in her face. Nico was touched that she actually gave a damn. He didn't expect anything from her after what he'd done.
“I wouldn't waste your breath,” Nico said, softening a little. He trusted Annabeth enough to be honest with her. “My dad gave up as soon as he heard that Zeus was involved. I could see it in his face. Zeus murdered my mother, you know,” he added. “He tried to kill Bianca and I, but our dad saved us.”
“Di immortales,” Annabeth said quietly. “I had no idea.”
“Zeus has been waiting for an opportunity to finish the job on me for a while now. Right now he's probably telling Athena to aim for the head next time.”
“That's an angle I wasn't aware of,” Annabeth nodded. “But it makes sense. The moment I suggested it was you, she took it and ran with it, even though I presented a few other plausible explanations to ensure my bases were covered.”
“I mean, obviously I did burn the hat,” Nico said. “But what does the architect of the gods need with a stupid magic hat anyway?”
“The hat was important to me,” Annabeth said. “But it wasn't worth your life. I think you're a good person, Nico.”
“I appreciate that,” Nico said, smiling at her. He was reminded of how he'd known immediately upon meeting her that he wanted to be her friend. But with everything that had happened, maybe it wasn't possible. That was a disappointing thought.
Annabeth looked at him, hesitating.
“How about I stick around a little longer and try to help you make a plan? Maybe there are options we haven't explored. I'm not equipped to outwit my mom, but I can come pretty close at times.”
“Okay,” Nico nodded. A faint glimmer of hope remained. “That would be really cool.”
He showed her where she could shower and clean up, and loaned her some of his clothes to wear, since hers were caked in mud. He got cleaned up too, still feeling shaken and altogether weird.
He had skeletons make them a fruit plate and some lemonade, and then he escorted Annabeth to the library.
Upon entering, she tried to play it cool, but Nico could tell she was excited to check out the books. She began checking out the books on the shelves one by one. Part of Nico was simply glad he'd made her happy, but another part of him was calculating how much he could ingratiate himself with her in the short time they had left. She might not believe she was capable of outwitting her mother, but Nico wasn't so sure that was true.
“I'm not familiar with this script,” she said, squinting at a magically preserved scrap of parchment.
Nico looked down at it.
“Minoan,” he said.
“Linear A,” she said. “I've been meaning to pick that up in my spare time.”
“It's pretty easy. You can knock it out in an hour, probably. That text talks about the rituals that were done each time a group of youths were sent into the labyrinth to be sacrificed to the minotaur.”
“I've always found tales of the labyrinth fascinating,” Annabeth said. “Daedalus was a son of Athena, you know. I have great admiration for him as an engineer and architect. He was one of the greatest minds that ever lived.”
“He's still alive,” Nico said.
Annabeth whipped around to look at him in amazement.
“He never showed up here for judgement,” Nico said. “He's found some way to extend his life. Minos told me; he's been on the lookout for Daedalus for millennia now. He's most likely hiding in the labyrinth to this day.”
“The labyrinth still exists?”
“Minos and I think so,” Nico said. “I wish I knew more about it, but I've had other priorities.”
“Such as?”
Nico launched into the now very familiar routine of explaining his plan to resurrect Bianca. He couldn't count how many times he'd repeated the story, but it was getting old, and that must have been obvious from his tone.
“You don't sound very excited about this idea,” Annabeth said. “It's been about three or four years, right? Are you sure she's still here?”
“I know what I'm talking about,” Nico said. “And don't bother trying to critique my plan, because I know more about this stuff than you. It'll work, okay?”
“I believe you,” Annabeth said. “I just wonder if you're prepared to be her older brother, the next time you see her.”
“What do you mean, her older brother?”
“I said it's been four years, but you look my age. I told you that the last time I saw you,” she said. “Bianca will still be twelve. That's going to be a strange transition for both of you.”
The thought had crossed Nico's mind, but it wasn't one he liked to dwell on.
“There's no point in thinking about stuff like that,” Nico said dismissively. “This is something I have to do. She's the only family I have left.”
“Sure,” Annabeth said. “I get it.” He was pretty sure she didn't think it was a good idea, but she wisely refrained from saying so. “I've been thinking about your situation,” she continued. “It's a tough problem. Athena has decided you're her enemy and you need to be eliminated. It's not going to be easy to change her mind. And we do have to change it. She can't be brute forced. Even if Zeus himself ordered her to leave you alone, she could just make it look like an accident.”
“So what do we do?”
“My mother has weaknesses, like all gods,” Annabeth said. “And she's wise enough to have mastered all of them. She's planned for every possibility, and it's probably impossible to trick her. She--”
“Enough already, I get it, your mom's wise,” Nico said. “I can see why my dad gave up so fast. Is there a point to this brainstorming, or is your mom basically omniscient?”
“There's a point, which I'm getting to, if you'll let me finish speaking,” Annabeth said. “I told you earlier that she never fights battles she can't win. That's irrelevant in this case. Against you, of course she can win. But!” Annabeth held up a finger in triumph. “She also never fights battles that aren't worth fighting.”
“Okay,” Nico said, seeing that this made sense. “So how do we make it not worth it for her to kill me?”
“If Zeus needed you alive for some reason, she might consider stopping,” Annabeth said. “Which is irrelevant in your case, since he wants you dead. I doubt she'd kill you if you were a child of Hephaestus, either. From what I've seen, it seems like she partners with him on a lot of new magical technology.”
“I'm not a child of Hephaestus, though,” Nico said.
“The only other person I can think of is Hera,” Annabeth said. “Hera is in charge of the Olympus restoration project, and she has veto authority on every design Athena brings her. She's way more worried about aesthetics and themes than she is about cutting edge architectural innovation,” Annabeth said, scoffing. “Athena almost clawed her eyes out last week over Hera's suggestion that we add in some barn doors. The ones that slide sideways? That was a close one,” Annabeth shuddered.
“So if Athena pisses Hera off, Hera could start vetoing her designs?” Nico said.
“Exactly. Things are already very tense between them,” Annabeth said. “If she doesn't want Olympus to look like it came from a Target in North Carolina three years ago, Athena has to stay on Hera's good side.”
“We can use that!” Nico said.
“I think we can,” Annabeth agreed. “Athena won't touch you if she thinks it will make Hera angry. No matter how badly she wants to, her wisdom won't allow her to throw away her project for a petty vengeance. She's probably one of the only gods capable of that kind of restraint. In that way, you're lucky it's her who's mad at you.”
“The only thing that's lucky is that I have you here to help,” Nico said earnestly. “I'm glad I kidnapped you.”
“Or you could have just called me, but, sure,” Annabeth said.
Hades walked in. Nico was beginning to suspect Hades timed his entrances intentionally at the worst possible times. At least it felt that way.
“Time to go,” Hades said to Annabeth.
“But we were just starting to really get somewhere with the plan,” Nico said. “Papa, I think there might be a way to outsmart Athena on this one!”
“I doubt that,” Hades said dismissively. “Come, Elizabeth. Time to go back where you came from.”
“Okay,” she said calmly, standing. She went over to Nico. “I'm sorry I couldn't be more help,” she said. “But I think you're pretty smart. You can do this.”
“Thanks for the strategizing session,” he said, shaking her hand. She had a firmer handshake than he did, which just made him like her even more.
“I hope I get to see you again on the surface sometime,” she said.
“Me too,” he said.
They left, and Nico stood alone in the library. What was he going to do? He didn't know almost anything about Hera, what she wanted, or how to make her care about what he was going through. He walked around and started tidying up the books, lost in rumination over his very uncertain future. Then he paused.
Where was that parchment?
He looked all around, under the pillows and on the floor, but the Minoan parchment on the labyrinth was gone. He grinned. Maybe Minos would get his wish after all.
He went back to his room and took a break to rest and think over everything that had happened. He'd gotten so lucky to escape after what Athena had put him through. And now, he owed Saint Philip a favor-- a big one. But for the moment, he was stuck in the Underworld, with only the beginning part of a plan.
Chapter Text
Nico took a break for a while, then decided to call and check on Annabeth to make sure she made it home safely. His phone was still broken, he realized, after trying and failing to turn it on. He was pretty sure it ran on magic, so he went back to his magic trainer for help.
He shadow traveled to Hecate's cave. She and Niamh were working on amulets at the work table. There was someone new with them, a young man with dark blonde hair and green eyes, who was diligently carving an amulet out of wood.
“Hi, Nico,” Hecate said. “Come help us!”
“Sure,” Nico said. “If you'll help fix my phone.”
“Deal,” she said, beckoning him over. “How have you been?”
He picked up a little wooden amulet and spoke a spell over it, watching the protection spell carved around the edge start to glow.
“I haven't been great,” he said. “Athena wants to kill me. I'm stuck down here for the time being.”
“What?” Niamh gasped. “Why?”
“I destroyed Annabeth's invisibility hat.”
“Nice,” the boy sitting beside Niamh said, smirking.
“Do I know you?” Nico asked.
“Nico, my son Alabaster,” Hecate said. “Alabaster, Nico. He's Hades' kid.”
“Nice to meet you,” Nico said.
Alabaster just frowned at him suspiciously. Nico was not a fan of the vibes this guy gave off.
“I remember Hades losing his marbles over that hat a few years ago,” Hecate said, ignoring her son's hostile demeanor. “I think Athena was in the wrong for that one. Invisibility is your dad's thing. We gods get pretty territorial about our symbols.”
“Speaking of symbols, she also trashed the Plutonium,” Nico said.
“The green glowing stuff?” Niamh asked.
“It's also the name of an important temple of Pluto's,” Hecate said. “That's a very serious offense against your father, Nico,” Hecate said. “He didn't deserve that. But what else is new? He's a joke to those Olympians,” she said bitterly. “Like me. I only just got my cabin after the war. Too little, too late. Alabaster here was exiled from camp.”
“Why?”
“I don't want to talk about it,” Alabaster muttered. “I can't concentrate with this talking. Can we put the thing back on?”
Hecate gave Nico a look that said, 'Can you believe this kid?', but she pressed play on her phone.
They were listening to a podcast. Nico zoned out and worked on his amulet some more, happy to take his mind off his problems for a few minutes. Then he realized he recognized the voice that was speaking.
“I just want a conjugal visit every other day,” the voice said. “I don't think that's asking for a lot! I mean, how would Zeus like it if-- Nope, not gonna go there,” she said, clearing her throat. “Anyway, you see my point.”
It was Ariadne, talking about her husband. Nico listened intently.
“Not really,” a sharp, aggressive voice said. “Either tell us what he did to deserve it or we can't make a judgement on whether the punishment is fair.”
“You've already made that clear,” Ariadne said. “That's not what I'm here to talk about.”
“You're here to whine and bitch, obviously,” the harsh woman said.
“Ariadne has every right to feel unfairly hurt by the punishment of Dionysus,” another, gentler sounding woman said. “It wasn't her that did wrong.”
“She probably has and she's just not saying anything,” the harsh woman said.
Ariadne raised her voice in her own defense, and the three of them started bickering with each other. Eventually they managed to return to the interview format.
“So, tell us,” the nice woman said, regaining her composure. “What is your plan moving forward?”
“A friend of mine told me once that father-son relationships are complex and sometimes hard for others understand. I'm giving my husband and Zeus some grace to work things out without my interference. But if Di is expected to be a good camp leader to those poor children, especially with the new war on the horizon, I think sex and alcohol should be permitted to him, at the bare minimum. Without those two things, I fail to see how anyone is expected to be a productive member of society.”
“And with that,” the nice woman said. “We conclude this episode of Judgement Junkies. Tune in next week, as we talk to Polyphemus about his healing journey after the loss of his eye, and ask the question which is now very familiar to our regular listeners; should we be permitted to drag souls out of Elysium and beat them up? Just, like, a little bit sometimes? Next time, on Judgement Junkies.”
“Judgement Junkies?” Nico said. “What is that?”
“Themis and Nemesis are the hosts. Themis is the nice one, and Nemesis is the salty one,” Hecate said. “They talk about interpersonal issues gods are having, give advice, and sometimes make judgements of who is an asshole.”
“According to them, Zeus is never an asshole, even when he is,” Alabaster said bitterly.
“What about Athena?” Nico's mind was already racing with ideas. “Would they let me on the podcast?”
“Of course not,” Alabaster said. “It's for gods.”
“Or immortals,” Hecate said. “Are you either of those things, Nico?”
“No,” Nico sighed. He handed Hecate his finished amulet, and she exchanged it for his now repaired phone.
“Can I listen to that podcast on this?” He asked. Hecate nodded, adding the app with a tap of her finger.
Nico went back to his room and checked out the new app. It was just Spotify with a sigma instead of an S, and it had a section of playlists for each god. His father didn't have one, but Persephone did. It had songs like 'Walking on Sunshine' and 'Build Me Up Buttercup.'
Now thinking of her, he checked her Godstagram. Her most recent post was of a cherry tree covered in stunning pink blossoms, with the caption, “Peak bloom is over :( ”
He texted asking her, “How was cherry blossom season this year?” His phone started ringing, as he'd hoped it would.
“I've missed you!” She said. “Do you want to come and see this dogwood I've been working on? It's probably my best yet.”
“I really wish I could, but I'm actually not allowed to leave right now.”
“Not allowed to leave? Nico, no, I don't ever want you to feel that way,” she said, growing concerned. “What happened?”
He told her everything, and she had the exact reaction he'd wanted to hear, which was to get even angrier than he was.
“If Athena wants to kill you, she's within her rights,” Persephone said. “But we can and should help you to overcome this! Athena helped Odysseus survive the trials Poseidon threw his way. Hades and I will do the same for you.”
“I appreciate that, but Papa isn't on the same page,” Nico said. “He thinks it's easier to give up and just keep me down here forever.”
“I'd ask to speak with him, but I'm slammed right now with spring duties,” Persephone said. “Tell him I said he needs to help you figure this out. You can't spend eternity in the Underworld.”
“I mean, I'll spend eternity here eventually no matter what,” Nico said. “But I do have stuff left to do.”
“Right, of course that's what I meant,” she said quickly. “Gotta go!” She hung up abruptly.
Nico shrugged off her odd behavior and checked out the podcast section on his phone. All of the Olympians ones were labeled, “Gossip Goddess Network Productions.” He looked for one featuring Hera, and found it on a podcast called “Pythia Pod.” It was a podcast where Apollo talked about prophecies with various guests. Nico listened to Hera's episode, where she and Apollo talked about something called the prophecy of the seven.
Nico was surprised to hear that she'd been preparing for the prophecy for years. She explained to Apollo that she'd been prepping some of the chosen demigods since they were toddlers. It seemed like she was very anxious about making sure everything went off perfectly, and the prophecy could start in earnest at any moment.
“The one piece I'm missing is the seventh demigod,” she said. “They should have been obvious by now. I'm truly stumped. We've blown past the last three projected start dates. Identifying the final demigod is what we're waiting on.”
“Well, you've got Jupiter, Poseidon, Hephaestus,” Apollo rattled off. “Aphrodite, Mars, and Athena. Obviously it's one of my kids that's missing from the roster!”
“Yours are all accounted for,” she said. “I've checked them thoroughly. Someone is hiding a very powerful demigod from me, and I intend to find out who.”
Nico's stomach flipped over. Was he the missing demigod? Was he the reason the prophecy hadn't come to pass? A sick feeling grew in the pit of his stomach. He had no interest in fighting Gaia or fulfilling a prophecy. He needed to resurrect Bianca and focus on extricating her from her commitments to Artemis. It also sounded like Percy was going to be in this crew, and he wasn't interested in being stuck working with him.
Nico shut off the podcast and went to find Hades immediately.
He appeared in Hades' office in an anxious rush, hurrying over to his desk.
“Papa, I need you to be honest with me,” Nico said. “Am I one of the demigods in the prophecy of the seven?”
“No,” Hades said. “Who told you about that?”
“I heard it on a podcast,” Nico said, showing Hades the episode he'd listened to.
“You are not supposed to have this app,” Hades said. “It's for immortals only. Who gave it to you?”
“It appeared on its own,” Nico said.
“A likely story,” Hades said. “Anything you heard cannot be shared with other demigods, do you understand? It's important that no one meddle with this particular prophecy. Another Gigantomachy is nothing to play around with.”
“I can keep a secret,” Nico said. “I've known about Camp Jupiter for months, and I haven't told anyone.”
Hades looked at him in consternation.
“I am not going to waste my time asking how you found out about that. It doesn't matter, since you're not going to be leaving here anytime soon,” he said. “In fact, I was just about to tell you that I have some files that need alphabetizing. It should be enough to last you a decade, give or take.”
“Are you positive I'm not the demigod in the prophecy?” Nico asked, suddenly realizing that maybe he wanted it to be him after all, if paperwork was his only other option. “You know it mentions the doors of death, right?”
“I'm aware, although I'm not sure how they are going to be involved,” Hades said. “Thanatos has complete control over them, and he's too busy to trouble himself with prophecies. Regardless, although I understand why you assumed it was you, it's not. It's a demigod that only I know of.”
“Who?”
“Do not waste your time asking,” Hades said. “I cannot tell you, so you can drop the subject. That's an order.”
Nico nodded, still ravenously curious.
“Are you alright?” Hades asked him suddenly.
“Huh?”
“Earlier you said Athena tried to kill you,” he said. “But what happened, exactly? Did she injure you at all? You don't seem wounded.”
“She had her drones tase me a lot,” Nico shrugged. “It hurt, but I lived. What's one more electricity related trauma, right?”
“You are very fortunate she didn't use a lethal amount of voltage,” Hades said, looking sickened by the thought. “We will not give her another opportunity to try. But you should eat something. And then I want you to explain to me in more detail exactly what she did.”
Hades ushered Nico into the dining room and made him eat a plate of carbonara while he watched him warily.
“Why are you staring at me?” Nico asked.
“It just occurred to me that you don't eat very often,” he said.
“I eat when I'm hungry,” Nico said.
“Are you sure that the electricity didn't kill you?” Hades said. “You're on the no-ride list. It's possible you were killed and didn't realize it.”
“I didn't even think of that,” Nico said, suddenly realizing. “Athena was talking about calibration or something... I thought she just hadn't given the drones enough juice. Wouldn't I have noticed?”
“I don't know,” Hades said. “I would think you'd have gone unconscious, at least.”
“She zapped Annabeth and knocked her out instantly, but that was after she did me,” Nico said, relaxing. “I'm sure if the drones had been working properly, I'd have been knocked out, too.”
“You may be right,” Hades agreed. “But how did you get away?”
“Dove through the rock blocking the entrance,” Nico lied. “I think the seal had worn off more than we thought.”
Hades sighed.
“I know you're keeping something from me, but I have greater concerns. My temple has been damaged. Something must be done about it.”
“Let's blow up the Parthenon,” Nico said, deadly serious.
Hades laughed out loud.
“Someday, son. Someday,” he smiled sadly. “For now, I need to focus on repairing what was broken. The Plutonium is important to me.”
“I know,” Nico said. “Your cup isn't exactly overflowing with temples. By the way, Persephone said you have to help me figure a way out of here.”
“You already told her?”
“Yep. And she said she doesn't want me to be trapped down here with you forever.”
Hades made a face of displeasure.
“That does sound like her,” he said unhappily. “You have seen exactly how little Athena fears me. If I knew how to easily revenge myself upon the might of Olympus, I'd have done so in 1942. I consulted with Nemesis at length on the matter. Zeus' power is absolute. I am limited to small vengeances, one of which is keeping you alive when he'd rather you weren't,” he said. “And to my credit, I've been successful in that endeavor. You've made it into your nineties.”
“I'm basically a cockroach,” Nico said. Then he was struck by a sudden inspiration. “Wait. Did you say you talked to Nemesis?”
“She's one of my oldest friends,” Hades said.
“Why does that not surprise me,” Nico said. “Look, I have an idea. You know her podcast? What if you were to go on it?”
“You must be joking,” Hades said.
“I'm serious. Annabeth told me that Athena's priority right now is the reconstruction of Olympus. Hera is her supervisor, and she has the right to approve or veto all of Athena's designs. Athena's really stressed out trying to get her to approve stuff, because they disagree on farmhouse style décor.”
“Hera has always been a bit behind on aesthetics.”
“You're one to talk,” Nico said. “Where do you furniture shop, the Pompeii Museum?”
“It's timeless,” Hades said, looking at his Roman couches fondly.
“Anyway,” Nico continued. “I heard Hera on this other podcast talking about the prophecy of the seven. She's managing the whole hero lineup. She's been watching some of them for their entire lives in preparation for the gigantomachy. But she's still missing one hero, the one you apparently won't tell anybody about. Hera has been looking everywhere for them, and she's stressed out that they're not going to show up on time. In fact, she thinks they're running late.”
“They'll arrive when they arrive,” Hades said. “Prophecies can't be rushed.”
“What if it was me?”
“I already told you that it wasn't.”
“I know, but what if Hera were to hear about me? What if someone led her to believe that I was the missing hero from the roster? If I could jump to the conclusion, so could she.”
“She is good at that,” Hades said, beginning to look inspired by the idea.
“If she found out Athena tried to kill her missing hero, she'd go nuts!” Nico said. “Olympus would look like a farmhouse in no time!”
“That is... Quite ingenious,” Hades said. “Positioning yourself that way would make you untouchable, at least until the real hero arrives. It would also be a very satisfying vengeance.” Hades smiled his most, evil sickening grin. “I shall speak on this podcast.”
“Yes!” Nico said triumphantly. “Let's teach Athena a lesson! And next time she'll be wise enough not to mess with the Underworld.”
A few phone calls later, and Nemesis was in Hades' office.
“Thanks for doing this,” Nemesis said, grinning. She had a slight, youthful appearance, with short cropped black hair and lots of piercings and tattoos, and two slender black feathered wings on her back. Nico thought her band t-shirt and ripped jeans looked really cool. She ignored his presence completely, stealing Persephone's desk chair and pulling it up next to Hades' desk so that they were sitting facing each other.
“I think it will be mutually beneficial,” Hades said, smiling coolly. He watched as she set up the microphones and a laptop. She video called Themis, and Hades suddenly appeared on the video call screen.
“The video isn't posted anywhere, is it?” Hades asked.
“We livestream and upload clips to Godstagram,” Themis said. “Also, hi, nice to see you too.”
“No one told me it would be live. I don't want the camera on,” Hades said, smoothing his hair nervously.
“Do you know how viral this interview is about to go? No one ever hears from you on the socials,” Nemesis said. “We've got to have the stream up so people can tune in.”
“Hera's more likely to see it if they can make it go viral,” Nico said. He went over to his father and straightened his himation, and tried to make his hair look less boring. Hades wasn't bad looking, no god was, but he never looked like he put much effort in. Nico had seen himations look really elegant, but Hades wore his more like a comfy blanket sometimes. “You look great. Very godly and important,” he said.
Hades shot Nico a warning look, because he knew Nico didn't really mean it. Hades was clearly camera shy, but hopefully he'd get over it when he had the opportunity to start ranting. Nico sat on the edge of Persephone's desk and watched anxiously.
“Ready?” Nemesis asked Themis.
“Ready,” she replied. “3, 2, 1... Hi everyone, Themis here, goddess of justice, coming to you live from sunny Mount Olympus.”
“And I'm Nemesis,” Nemesis said. “Goddess of Vengeance, balance, but mostly the goddess of being a badass bitch. I'm talking to you from my hometown, the Underworld.”
“Does it feel good to be home, Nem?”
“Hell yes it does, Them,” Nemesis said. “It's quieter.”
“Yes, we have some construction going on right now, so apologies if we have a little background noise,” Themis said. “Welcome back to another episode of Justice Junkies, where we cover all things that are just and vengeful. Today, we have a very special guest who needs no introduction, you already know him, the King of the Underworld, Lord of the Dead, the eldest of the Olympians, Hades!”
Hades cleared his throat.
“Hi,” he said, leaning in toward the computer.
“No need to lean, you're mic'd up,” Themis said.
“Okay,” Hades said, leaning in again to say it.
Nemesis sighed.
“So, Hades, you and I have been friends for millenia,” Nemesis said. “I know you have a lot of chips on those pointy shoulders of yours. Tell me, who offended your dignity this week?”
“Athena,” Hades said firmly, glaring into the camera.
“Tell us everything,” Themis said excitedly.
“Long ago, at the dawning of the Olympian age,” Hades said. “The cyclops Brontes forged my helm of darkness. It was a symbol of my power, equivalent to Poseidon's trident or Zeus's lightning bolt. I loaned the helm to Athena briefly many years ago, and after she returned it I found out she'd made an imitation helm and given it to Perseus. I overlooked it at the time, because I'm very generous in spirit and really quite a forgiving god. But then word came to me that her daughter, the demigod Annabeth, had an invisibility device, a baseball cap. Again, I let it go. I am very merciful and truly just want us all to get along. But Annabeth kept the hat after the defeat of Kronos. I thought, that's going a little too far! She's an architect now, she has no need for it.”
“I see,” Themis said. “So you decided to talk to Athena about it?”
“That would have been a waste of time. I sent my son Nico to destroy the hat, and he did so, causing no harm to Annabeth in the process. I was simply enforcing my rights to exclusive use of my intellectual property.”
“If the hat no longer exists, why are we discussing it?” Nemesis said.
“Because Athena decided to take revenge for the hat by killing my son,” Hades said.
“I believe your son is sitting behind me right now,” Nemesis said. “A different one?”
“No, Nico escaped Athena's wrath and came home, but she is still out for his blood. Now, normally, I would say it's all good and well. It's healthy to cull demigods now and again, to remind them of their place. But as you are probably aware, we're in the runup to another important prophecy's unfolding,” Hades said. “And I'm afraid Athena has been so caught up in her architectural work that she failed to check with me whether it was okay to kill Nico.”
“Okay, now I see where we're going with this,” Nemesis said. “You're telling us Athena almost killed one of the seven in the prophecy? That's a serious accusation.”
“Very serious,” Hades said, affirming without actually affirming what had happened.
“But Athena couldn't possibly have known that,” Themis said. “No one knows who the seventh demigod is. Are you certain it's Nico?”
“I don't know if I should answer that,” Hades said, “I wouldn't want to get Athena into trouble. All I am saying is that there are very few powerful demigods in this age, and Jason Grace and Percy Jackson, my brothers' children, are among the seven. I think it follows logically that one of my children will fill the remaining spot.”
“You are absolutely right,” Themis said, looking genuinely shocked. “Killing or even seriously injuring Nico puts all of Olympus at risk, in that case. Athena almost caused us to lose the gigantomachy.”
Nico could not stop smiling. This was all totally made up, but he didn't care. Athena was in so much trouble, he could practically picture her curdling with rage on Olympus.
“That's really serious,” Nemesis said, her eyes glowing with dark fire. “Please tell me you're plotting a scheme of elaborate revenge.”
Hades smiled a dark, evil smile.
“Me? Vengeful? Never,” he said. “All I ask is that, with her incredible talent for craftsmanship, Athena replace the statue of myself and my beloved dog that she destroyed at the Plutonium.”
Themis tsked.
“Desecrating your temple? Killing demigods is whatever, but that's serious. We can't set a precedent for that being acceptable.”
“That deserves vengeance,” Nemesis hissed.
“Well, you two would know better than I would,” Hades said. “I just want to make sure the prophecy proceeds smoothly. I'd hate for something to happen to Olympus,” he said.
“Wow. Inspiring,” Nemesis said. “And now we'll cut to commercial.” She hit mute and turned off the camera briefly. “That was some groundbreaking content,” she said. “You killed that. You had me a little nervous at the beginning.”
“What can I say,” Hades smiled. “I had to speak my truth.”
“Guys, we just dropped the identity of the seventh demigod of the prophecy!” Themis said. “What an incredible scoop!”
“Our views are going insane right now,” Nemesis said. “Okay, back from break in 3, 2,1... Welcome back everyone! So, what else have you got for us, Hades?”
“I think I've said all that I intended to,” he said hesitantly.
“Come on, I know you're angry about way more stuff than just that.”
“I'm not prepared to discuss anything else without consulting with my wife first,” Hades said.
“Fine,” Nemesis said. “Nico, swap in.”
“Me?” Nico said. Hades nodded and let Nico take his place.
“Hi,” Nico said, fidgeting with his hair nervously. He realized why his dad had started off awkward; being live on camera was unsettling, especially when he glanced at the number of people watching.
“Nico, of the seven, you're the first to find out that you're a part of the prophecy,” Themis said. “How does it feel to hold the fate of Olympus in your hands?”
“Fine,” Nico said. It was all made up, so he couldn't exactly say it weighed on him.
“So, I assume you're aware that it's your destiny as the son of Hades to do battle against Alcyoneus, eldest of the giants,” Themis said. “Any comments on your training routine to prepare?”
“I don't have any comments on Alcyoneus, specifically,” he said. “I have great trainers, though. Minos and Hecate. They're both awesome.”
Hades hissed to get his attention and whispered, “Mention Achilles.”
“I also sparred with Achilles once,” Nico said.
“Trained by Achilles himself!” Themis said. “You heard it here first!”
“Alcyoneus, watch your fucking back,” Nemesis said, thrilled. “I have to admit it, I'm kind of thrilled about you being in the seven. Underworld representation matters.”
“I agree,” Nico agreed.
“Can you talk about your decision to train here rather than Camp Half Blood where you traditionally would have been training?” Themis asked.
“There was no Hades cabin when I was there,” Nico said.
“But thanks to Percy Jackson, didn't they build one?” Themis asked. “Speaking of Percy Jackson, he was a major hero in the titanomachy a few years ago. He's the top pick to be the hero of the gigantomachy, too. Do you plan to try to surpass him in glory?”
“I won't even have to try,” Nico said. “I hate Percy Jackson and always will. He knows what he did.”
“A rivalry! We love to see it,” Themis said. “Any doubts at all? Any concerns? The odds of all seven making it back alive are slim to none, you know.”
“I don't fear death,” Nico said. “It just means coming home.”
“He's not just saying that to sound cool, guys,” Nemesis said. “That's the strength of a child of the Underworld. Other demigods can't relate. To wrap things up, Nico, anything to say to Athena, who almost killed you before you could live out your epic, incredible destiny?”
He smiled.
“Better luck next time,” he said.
Hades insisted on calling Persephone and telling her all about his great triumph, which he gave Nico some small credit for assisting with. She cheered for their victory and promised she'd watch the recorded livestream the minute she was finished with the daffodils for the year.
Hades' and Nico's phones began ringing nonstop after the stream, and they fielded calls about Nico's prophesied destiny for hours. Nico talked to Ariadne, Isis, Hercules, Ganymede, and to his shock, even Artemis checked in to double check that he was still planning to resurrect Bianca before he fought Alcyoneus. He told her he was, of course, and she hung up immediately.
Hecate, Hypnos, and Morpheus came to see Nemesis, and Hypnos was thrilled to see his sister after a long absence. Nico was surprised that they were so close, since they seemed really different. Nemesis picked Morpheus up and let him sit on her lap once they convened in the dining room for an impromptu celebratory feast.
Nemesis gave a long speech about justice and fairness, and how important it had been for Athena to be taught a lesson about interfering with fate. Nico and Hades avoided looking at each other, but Nico knew the same thought had occurred to both of them. Lying to her had probably not been the best idea, and his deception would inevitably be found out when the war really started.
Nico enjoyed the dinner, but as it dragged on, he started to stress out more and more. He saw how many views the clips on Godstagram were getting; he was checking his phone compulsively under the table. So many gods were in the comments talking about him. Some of it was positive, but a lot of people said he sounded cocky.
He didn't mean to. He'd been totally fabricating a destiny that belonged to someone else; he was just winging it, channeling a confident demigod who knew it was their fate to join a pro hero team and take on giants. In reality Nico had no intention of going anywhere near Alcyoneus, and he absolutely under no circumstances ever wanted to be a part of a group project with Percy Jackson.
He just hoped the real seventh hero would understand that he'd had no choice.
At one point during the meal, Hades stepped out to accept a call from Hera. He spoke with her for a long time, which made Nico nervous, but when he came back, he gave Nico a nod. He was safe to leave again. Athena would leave him alone.
Nico slipped out of the party after many, many hours of celebration, and went to find the only person he really wanted to talk to.
Minos was at work, unaware anything had happened on social media that had changed Nico's entire life, probably permanently. He saw Nico watching him stamp paperwork and stopped, leaving his desk to come and talk to him. Nico's heart leapt. He loved how Minos always made time for him.
They walked together along the banks of the Styx while he told Minos all that had happened. Minos listened intently, his expression thoughtful as usual.
“You seem very worried,” Minos said. “Why? Haven't you triumphed?”
“I just feel like the lie was too big,” Nico said. “A gigantomachy is nothing to mess around with. What if this all blows up in my face someday?”
“The way I see it, the worst case scenario is, you have to kill a giant,” Minos said.
“I can't do that,” Nico said.
“I think you underestimate yourself,” Minos said.
They just stood and looked at each other for a minute, Nico's heart starting to beat faster and faster as he debating whether he ought to push the moment further.
“I don't know how to say it,” Nico blurted out finally.
“Say what?”
“What you mean to me,” Nico said. Deciding to be brave, he reached out and took Minos's hand, looking at the bracelet he'd put around his wrist. Minos ran his thumb across Nico's ring.
“I think of you often,” Minos admitted, caressing his hand. “You distract me from my work at times. It takes something quite special to do that. I think of what we might have been, had we met while I was still a king.”
“What do you think we'd have been?” Nico said.
“You might not understand, even if I tell you,” Minos said. “You're from a different age.”
“Tell me anyway.”
“You'd have been one handsome youth in my court among many,” Minos said. “You'd play music and recite poetry, showing off your good breeding, trying to tempt me without looking too eager. I'd give you fine gifts until you lit up every time you saw me.”
“I already do that,” Nico said, his heart beating out of his chest. He'd never felt this way about anyone before, and he hardly knew how to contain all that he was feeling.
“I'd slowly win your heart,” Minos said. “Until you couldn't keep away from me. And I'd teach you all the secret things you didn't know before. I'd keep you close to me, always near enough that I could grab you and pull you onto my lap. You'd pour wine into my mouth, and I'd feed you fruit and meat and have you lick the honey from my beard after a feast.”
Nico blinked a couple of times. He hadn't expected Minos to go into such detail. It was interesting, but Nico was more concerned with making out than being fed fruit and meat.
“Alas, it can't be,” Minos said. “I'm not a king any longer. Just a bureaucrat. And I'm behind on paperwork. Nico, you are young, in the prime flush of youth. You have limitless options for romance. You can easily find someone better suited for you than me. You ought to be the lover of a god. You have every quality they could want. You may not see it in yourself, but I will not be the only one who sees it in you.”
“I'm tired of you and my dad telling me what I'm supposed to want and not want,” Nico said, hoping to reassure Minos that he was just as desirable as any god. “I can make my own choices. I'm not a child anymore.”
“No, not a child,” Minos said. “But I think still a little naive.”
“No I'm not,” Nico said, wounded. “It isn't that complicated. I want you, Minos, and I'm not giving up until I have you.”
Impulsively, he tried to kiss Minos, but Minos turned his head to the side so that Nico only got his cheek. Nico stared at him in hurt surprise. He didn't understand how Minos could go on and on about how great he thought Nico was and still not want him.
Minos just smiled his same old mild smile at him, and Nico immediately left, embarrassed beyond description at the rejection.
Nico considered sulking back in his room, but it seemed a childish way to respond. He didn't want to cry over someone that didn't want him, so he decided to drown his feelings instead. He went back to the party and tried to forget his romantic failure by downing cup after cup of wine.
Everyone was now playing a complicated dice game that Nico didn't know, so Morpheus taught him the rules so he could join the game. Nico did well at it, and it helped keep his mind off his disappointment.
Hades played with them for a while, but eventually he went to bed. After he left, Hecate, Hypnos, and Nemesis decided to start imbibing some very potent mixed drinks made with a magical elixir Hecate had been keeping in a flask hidden in her cleavage.
“I think you're a little young to handle this stuff,” Hypnos told him, hesitating to share the drinks with Nico.
“I'm not young, I'm almost a hundred years old,” Nico insisted firmly, grabbing and downing the magical cocktail. “On the surface I party with Ganymede and Ariadne. I know what I'm doing, okay?”
“Okay,” Hypnos said. “If you say so.”
That was the last thing Nico remembered.
Chapter 31
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“You were really funny last night,” said a boy's voice.
“Huh?” Nico said.
They were in Nico's room. Morpheus was standing over his bed, staring at him.
“You tried to cheat at dice, and when Nemesis called you out, you yelled at her and waved your arms around,” he said, moving his hands in imitation of Nico's habitual gestures.
“I don't remember that,” Nico said.
“After that, you passed out at the table,” Morpheus said, giggling. “Hecate was going to sober you up with magic, but your papa told her to let you suffer.”
“I feel fine,” Nico said.
“You're still sleeping. Hey, let's play dice some more later! That's what I came to say. Bye!”
Waking up felt like dying. What had been in that flask? Nico didn't want to know, but his mouth tasted like newt's eyes.
Hades, true to form, chose that moment to barge in and turn all of Nico's lights on. They were just a handful of tiny candles, but they felt like blazing suns roasting his eyeballs.
“Please go away,” Nico said, pulling his sheet over his head.
“Nope,” Hades said. “You need to get cleaned up. You have plans today.”
“I don't remember making any plans,” Nico said, as Hades grabbed him by the wrist and began dragging his resistant body towards the bathroom.
“Hera wants to meet with you,” Hades said.
Nico's blood ran so cold that it barely got any colder when Hades pushed him into the icewater pool in the bathroom. The shock of the freezing water woke up all of his nerves at once and made his head start throbbing. He silently swore he would never drink another magic cocktail for as long as he lived.
“I can't meet with Hera! This has gone way too far!” Nico said after he'd recovered from the shock sufficiently to breathe. He was shivering so violently that his teeth were chattering. He had to take a few deep breaths before he started adjusting to the temperature.
“This is a consequence of your ingenious plan,” Hades said, looking down at him pitilessly. “Now that you've made your claim to the role of seventh hero, you have no choice but to keep up the ruse. It's only to be expected that Hera will want to speak with you.”
“The real hero is going to be pissed at me when they show up,” Nico said.
“Don't worry about them. When the switch has to be made, we'll explain that it was an innocent misunderstanding.”
“Ow! Hey, get off of me!” Three skeletons had clambered into the water with him. They all started dumping magical shampoos and soaps on his head and were scrubbing him with what felt like scouring pads.
“Listen,” Nico said, trying to get his point across despite feeling attacked from all angles. “My plan was to imply that I could be the seventh hero, not to explicitly say I was. I definitely didn't plan to do an interview about how I'm going to singlehandedly beat Alcyoneus. I know it was my idea and this is mostly my fault, but that doesn't mean we should keep doubling down on the lie. It's not just Hera that I'm worried about.”
“Have you never heard the saying, in for a drachma, in for a pound?” Hades shrugged. “You don't understand how these things work. The attentions of gods are fickle. By the time the gigantomachy really does begin, the gods will have forgotten all about you. They won't even notice when you're replaced by the real hero, so enjoy this while it lasts.”
“I'm not enjoying it at all,” Nico said. “It feels too dangerous. For me, anyway. You're obviously loving the attention.”
“I am not,” Hades said.
“I saw your face when you got back from talking to Hera,” Nico said. “I think you're excited to see her.”
Hades became flustered for a moment, and Nico knew he'd caught him.
“You missed her, didn't you?” Nico said.
“Mind your own business,” Hades snapped, storming out.
Nico sighed, and submitted to the skeleton's violent scrubbing, seeing that it was hopeless. For the most part, he was happy that his dad was reconnecting with Hera. They'd grown up together inside of their dad's stomach, after all. Presumably, at least back then, they'd been close. Still, Nico seriously hoped he wasn't eventually going to be forced to pay a price for his father's social victories.
Whatever the skeletons had put on him, it smelled great, like fresh basil and apricots. His hair looked nice and shiny, too, but he was still annoyed with the skeletons for scrubbing too hard. It was a miracle they hadn't scrubbed holes into his delicate mortal skin, he told them in a stern lecture. They stood obediently for their chastisement, but he was pretty sure they weren't listening.
He went back to his bedroom to find his phone lit up with a new message. Persephone had texted him instructions on exactly what to wear to his meeting with Hera.
“This is a big deal to your father,” she'd said. “Hera can be touchy, so try to hold back some of your sass. I might think it's cute, but she won't.”
“I just can't get over the idea that we're taking this lie too far,” he responded.
“Think of it this way,” Persephone wrote. “In the worst case scenario, you're back where you started from, hiding from the Olympians. Try to enjoy your celebrity. It's only temporary.”
That successfully reassured him. She was right. Even angry Olympians could only reach so far, and he'd been in a dire situation before the lie had straightened everything out. Maybe it would blow over quickly.
He put on the outfit she'd picked out, a sensible white button down shirt with black pants. Persephone had even reminded him to tuck the shirt in. The final look was simple and inoffensive, like he was going to work in a boring office. He looked wistfully at some of the t-shirts he'd bought himself, most of which had skulls on them. Those probably weren't Hera's style.
He went to find his father, who had also made an effort to look nice, combing his hair and putting on a necklace of what looked like human teeth. Hades seemed to have an excess of nervous energy, and was fiddling with his tooth necklace obsessively.
“We're meeting at the Plutonium,” Hades said. “It's a gesture of respect from her.”
“That's a pretty big deal, isn't it?” Nico asked.
Hades didn't answer. Nico couldn't imagine what it meant to his dad for Hera to ask to see him like this, accompanied by a gesture of humility. He'd been in his feud with Zeus for decades now, and this was a major step towards someday reconnecting with him. Whether that was something Hades wanted, Nico wasn't sure.
They traveled to the Plutonium, where Hera was standing on the platform beside the pile of rubble where Hades' statue had once been. When Hades approached, she gave him a nod, and gestured at the ruined statues, re-forming them to look brand new.
“Thanks,” Hades said awkwardly.
“You're welcome,” she said. “Have you been well?”
She was the same height as Hades, wearing a dress of shining gold and a cloak of peacock feathers that floated behind her. Her hair was braided and twisted into a tall bun, and she had a simple golden crown on her head. Her regal demeanor was communicated more through her bearing and tone than her outfit, and she made an imposing figure. Nico instinctively tried to hide slightly behind his father, hoping she'd forget he was there.
“I am fine,” Hades said. “And you?”
“Fine,” she said.
They sort of stared at each other for a moment.
“Nico, go and occupy yourself for a few minutes,” Hades said. “I need to speak to my sister alone.”
Nico walked along the road into the old ruined town, desperately curious to know what they were talking about. Still, it was a relief to be out of Hera's line of sight. His encounter with Athena left him spooked by Olympian goddesses, even ones that supposedly came in peace.
He knew he'd have a few minutes while the two gods were talking, so he became invisible and snuck into Philip's tomb.
“Hi,” he said, becoming visible once inside. “It's me again.”
Philip didn't appear physically, but Nico sensed his presence in the small chamber, a powerful energy, intangible, but present.
Nico knelt in the middle of the tomb, steeling himself.
What he about to do was probably the stupidest, most dangerous thing he'd ever done in his life-- and he was racking up bad decisions like crazy lately, so that was saying something. But he silenced the instincts that were screaming that he was risking everything. He kept his promise, and briefly, silently, prayed to Philip.
Nothing happened. His dad didn't come barging in to disown him. Zeus didn't zap him with a thunderbolt. Philip didn't even say anything.
Nico was terrified anyways. He knew he was playing a dangerous game. But what else was new?
As he invisibly walked back out to the ruins, he thought about his mom. She'd baptized him knowing it would cause him to walk a perilous line. She'd thought it was worthwhile.
She'd been right; he'd be dead if not for Philip. He'd still be trapped in a basement if Valentine hadn't recognized him as a sympathiser. But Nico had pushed his luck far enough already. He decided he'd do his best never to associate with the saints again. It was just too risky.
He knew it was the responsible decision, but even so, the thought made him sad. They'd seemed like interesting people.
He waited at a distance, visibly, until he sensed that Hera wanted him to approach. He appeared before her, trying to look like a good little pagan and not like someone who'd just venerated a saint practically under her nose.
“Young mister Di Angelo,” she said. “I have been waiting on you for quite a long time.”
“It's nice to meet you,” he said politely.
She grabbed Nico by the chin and examined his face roughly, her fingernails digging into his skin.
“I was expecting him to look more like the last son of yours, the poet. What was his name. Damian? Delorean?”
“Dante,” Hades said.
“Yes, he was unfortunate looking, although I suppose that gave him more incentive to stay home and write,” she said. “This one is quite handsome. He's also charmed a fair number of gods. I wasn't expecting to hear so many good reviews of his personality. He came off slightly cocky on that podcast, but I think Nemesis was egging that on.”
“He has a litany of flaws, but that's not one I'm worried about,” Hades said.
“What are you worried about? If I'm going to use him, I need to know.” She dropped Nico's face and looked at Hades, speaking as though Nico wasn't even there.
“He's deceitful, argumentative, and spoiled,” Hades said without hesitation.
“Deceitful is fine for my purposes. Argumentative and spoiled are your fault. You've been too lenient with him,” Hera said. “Some demigods require a firm hand. Have you considered sending a Fury to chase him across Greece with a whip?”
“I'll look into it.”
“Oh, it's too late now,” Hera said. “I'm taking custody of him from now on.” She turned to Nico. “I have discussed you with Athena,” she said. “You are in no danger from her, nor from any other god on Olympus, now that I am your patron.” Only me, was the part Nico felt was implied.
“My patron?” He asked, trying not to sound as horrified as he felt.
“Indeed, I am the patron of all seven demigods of the prophecy, at least for the time being,” Hera said. “I've taken on the responsibility of preparing you for the gigantomachy to come. If we falter, all of Olympus, and the Underworld, will be at the mercy of Gaea.”
Nico looked at his father, who nodded gravely.
“The Underworld is more at risk than I'd assumed,” Hades said. “Apparently I've been excluded from some extremely important emails, or I'd have known that. Regardless, from now on, whatever Hera asks of you, you must obey. There is more at stake than you can possibly know.”
“I intend to start the war in one year's time,” Hera said. “We've delayed long enough. All of the heroes involved are of age, and will soon be positioned appropriately. The next step, now that I've found you, is information gathering. And I will need your assistance in that task. You see, your social media buzz has given me an idea,” she said. “There are some gods expressing interest in meeting you, if you catch my meaning.”
“Um, okay?” Nico said, not understanding.
“I'm not ready to place you yet, but I will come to collect you very soon. I don't know if you mix potions or do rituals or anything like that, but prepare for a long absence from the Underworld. For now, you need to list my name in your phone as something discreet,” she said. “I suggest 'Harold.'”
Nico's phone buzzed with a contact invite from 'Harold.'
“That is all for now,” Hera said. “I can't spare any more time. Now, go, and await further instructions.”
She disappeared. Hades and Nico returned to Hades' throne room, where they both stood in stunned silence for a moment.
“What was that about?” Nico finally asked, his voice echoing in the dark hall. “What is she expecting me to do?”
“I don't know,” Hades said. He turned away, refusing to look at Nico. “I have my speculations, but I do not think it will serve you at this point to tell you what they are.”
Nico wrapped his arms around himself.
“So I have to leave? For a long time? What's a long time? Until the war starts?”
“I don't know,” Hades said again.
Nico tried to imagine what Hera was going to ask of him, and he couldn't come up with anything. He didn't know how giants operated or what could be done against them, especially outside of open battle. He knew literally nothing about war; he'd been in a casino for World War II and asleep for Titanomachy II. He had no idea what to expect.
“Papa, I can't do this,” Nico said finally. “There must be a way out of it.”
“There isn't. But you should be honored to have such an important responsibility entrusted to you.”
“But I can't be Hera's spy,” Nico said. “I'm trying to resurrect Bianca! I have to finish my chores so I can die! I was down to just two left.”
Hades looked at him angrily.
“How can you hear that war is coming and have the gall to still be concerned about your chores? Did the gravity of the situation go completely over your head, or are you really that self-absorbed? Besides, what would be the point in resurrecting Bianca just to get her killed again in a war?” Hades said.
“But this is all based on a lie!” Nico said. “Hera can't start the war in a year because she hasn't found her seventh demigod! If they don't arrive in time, we'll lose, and it will be my fault!”
“The seventh demigod is my responsibility,” Hades said. “For now, it is better you start believing your own lies. It will make you more convincing to those you seek to deceive.”
“But how long can I expect to get away with it? They have to catch on eventually.”
“You lie to me constantly. You're an expert at it by now,” Hades scoffed. “
“I-- That's not--” He had no argument. “Papa, please, I don't want to do this,” Nico said. “Can we at least try to think of a way around this? It worked for us before.”
“Absolutely not,” Hades said savagely.
Nico took a deep breath.
“Okay,” he said. “The war is more important. Got it. I don't really know what a Gigantomachy will be like, but if I have no other choice, I'll do what Hera wants. But I'm not stupid. This sounds dangerous. Really, really dangerous. And I'm still on the no-ride list, right?”
“I don't remember taking you off it, so yes, obviously,” Hades said sarcastically.
“If there's a good chance I could get seriously injured, I think it's only fair you take me off the list. Otherwise I'll have to suffer with whatever horrible wounds I get for... Indefinitely, I guess,” Nico said. “Can you go ahead and do that, just in case?”
“No,” Hades said quietly.
Nico blinked a couple of times, sure there was some misunderstanding.
“Papa, I think letting me die if someone runs me through with a sword is like, bare minimum human rights,” he said, trying to make light of the request. He had to make light of it, because he was scared of the alternative. “I could get hacked to pieces and feel everything, forever. I'm not scared of dying, but not dying might go really, really badly for me,” he said.
After no response from his father, his breath started coming faster.
“Please just do it,” he said quietly.
“No,” Hades said. He turned to Nico. “Hera was right. I have been too lenient with you. You were the only living child I had left, and a favorite of my wife's, and I let that influence me. I allowed you to behave above your station. No more.”
Nico was used to Hades saying hurtful things in anger that he later recanted. He'd done it himself, many times. This was different. Hades was speaking almost kindly.
“Open your eyes, child,” Hades said. “There is a great war coming, and you are less than the tiniest speck among the gods, giants, and titans. Everyone you know, this realm and the gods in it, the world itself is at risk. You are told that you can do something to make a difference, and you whine that it inconveniences you. You ask me to help you find a way out, to make it easier. But you're only a demigod. Here for a short span of time, and then gone. My duty was to bring you into this world and help you survive to adulthood. Hera's duty, now, is to make use of your abilities. It's time for you to realize your own duty. Which is to do as you are told, no matter how difficult. There may come a time that you take a mortal wound and still have to keep fighting. It would be wrong of me to deny our forces that advantage when it's in my power to give it. I will remove you from the list when the war is won, and no sooner.”
Nico wanted to argue, wanted to advocate for himself or try to make his father feel sorry for him, but he knew there was no point. Something about Hades' tone prevented him from feeling angry. Instead he felt ashamed. Like he must have misunderstood something.
“I am not indifferent towards you,” Hades said. “You know that. Perhaps under different circumstances... But this is part of the problem,” he said, seeming to grow frustrated with himself. He looked at Nico pityingly. “Nico, I'm sorry that I taught you to love me. I should have made you worship me instead. From the start, I have gone about this wrong, but I will do things right from now on. Go and collect your things, and wait for Hera to call you. I don't wish to see you until you are released from her service.”
Nico walked away.
In his room, he sat on his bed and stared at the wall. He didn't feel angry or sad or hurt, really. He just felt stupid. Hades had tried to tell him so many times that he was obligated to do as he was told. Nico hadn't wanted to listen. He'd known Hades cared about him, and he'd used that. He'd known Persephone loved him, and he'd used that, too. He'd wanted to be treated better than what he had been entitled to. And he'd almost gotten away with it. He could have lived out his life in the Underworld, hiding from Athena and doing paperwork. He'd have been fine, but instead he'd had to push his luck with the stupid podcast.
Now reality was hitting. He was just another pawn of the gods, to be used and thrown away.
Maybe his mother had been right about coddling him. He thought back to the night before, when he'd tried to kiss Minos after being warned multiple times to leave him alone. Minos cared about him, and Nico had tried to use that to get what he wanted, even though he knew it could get Minos in serious trouble. He felt sick to his stomach just thinking about it.
Now his fate belonged to Hera. At least for now, Hades and the Underworld were done with him. Would Bianca keep waiting? It had been years. He had no reason to think she wouldn't. It felt horrible to leave her as an untied loose end, but he didn't see any way around it.
He laid down on his bed and went to sleep, feeling angry with himself and sick with fear.
He dreamed of Maria Bova. She was asleep on an air mattress, lying on a hospital room floor. A machine beeped, and she turned over in her sleep.
Nico blinked awake. He still heard the beeping. It was his phone, with a message from Hera.
It was time to go.
Notes:
This is the end of what I think of as part one of this story. The second half of this story gets darker and has more intense themes. There will be more mature content and (mostly non-graphic) sexual content. There will be a lot more death, especially. I will be giving content warnings where applicable in notes at the beginning.
Nico's trials and tribulations will continue, but in the story going forward I am treating him as an adult character. A young adult, but you get the point. More ships for Nico are going to be added to the tags, but if you are looking forward to Jasico content, don't let other ships in the tags discourage you! Jasico will absolutely have its time to shine. :)
I have never written anything like this before and I want to say thank you to everyone who reads this, leaves kudos, bookmarks, or comments. You are so encouraging and wonderful and I seriously love this character and I love that other people love this character with me!
Chapter 32: Summer Internship
Notes:
This chapter is a bit late, but I'm trying to get back on schedule with the next one. :)
Chapter Text
Nico was sitting in the green room of Aeolus' studio, waiting for him to finish giving the weather broadcast. He listened to Aeolus's booming voice declaring the windspeed, direction, and intensity of every wind in the world, talking so rapidly that it was impossible to follow his words.
Nico went over his notes. Aeolus was absolutely batshit insane, and far too erratic to carry out a complex agenda on his own. He wasn't clever enough to deceive the gods, but he was easily manipulated. He'd jumped at the chance to welcome Nico into his summer internship program, and he'd never even asked Nico why he wanted to be there. He was so vain, he took it for granted that Nico was a huge fan of his weather show.
Nico was certain that someone in Aeolus' circle had been planted by the giants to influence him to their side. The question was who. He'd outlasted a dozen other interns at this point, many of whom Aeolus had blown out of the window of his studio with a puff of breath from his lips. Those interns had made the mistake of doing literally anything other than suck up to Aeolus, which was the strategy that had kept Nico on terra firma thus far.
Nico's first priority had been to get Aeolus to trust him enough to let slip who his Giant contact was. That was probably pointless, because the Giants' spy wouldn't be stupid enough to give a nutcase like Aeolus info that could compromise them. Gaea and her forces were the opposite of stupid.
The next priority was assessing whether there was any hope of keeping Aeolus on the side of the gods. If it was a lost cause, Hera would move Nico onto the next potential traitor immediately rather than blow his cover.
“How was I?” Aeolus asked, walking into the green room. His face was caked in TV makeup, and he looked like a crusty old biscuit.
“That was great,” Nico said cheerfully. “You have amazing stage presence.”
“I know; it's a gift,” Aeolus said. He flopped down into an armchair and held out his hand. Nico quickly set a cup of coffee into it. “Absolutely scorching, just how I like it,” Aeolus said. “You make coffee so much better than the last kid I had. What was his name? Obsidian? Anyway. I'm keeping you,” Aeolus winked at him.
Nico smiled and nodded mildly, wondering if Obsidian had been blown out the window like the others. The key to making Aeolus an acceptable coffee was to cast a tiny fire spell on it to make it ridiculously hot right before he took a sip. The key to not getting fired was the crushed up Xanax Nico put in every cup. Aeolus was an anxious mess, and he'd begun to associate Nico with feelings of calm.
“Since you're keeping me, I'm happy to start shouldering more responsibility to help you out,” Nico said. “I can do anything. Filing, accounting, desk organization...” He really needed to go through Aeolus' personal files as part of the investigation, and he didn't have a key to the cabinet or his desk drawers yet.
“All in good time. Tell me, how are my socials looking? That's the reason I hired you, because you could help me go viral, and I don't think you've done it yet. I haven't been feeling any symptoms, anyway.”
“Um, let me check,” Nico said, looking at the last picture Aeolus had posted. It was a selfie with the wind, which meant it was just a picture of Aeolus in front of the sky. It had a handful of likes from the other winds, but nothing impressive. “Hmm,” he said, frowning deeply at the screen.
“What?”
“Uh oh,” Nico said. “I hate to tell you this, Aeolus, but... Someone's shadowbanned you.”
“Shadowbanned?” Aeolus jumped out of his seat, spilling boiling coffee everywhere. “What's that?”
“They're sabotaging your social media posts to make sure you don't get any likes,” Nico said. “Someone wants you to think you're unpopular,” Nico said.
“I knew it!” Aeolus said. The clouds on his blue suit turned into grey thunderclouds. “I knew I was contagious!”
“Viral,” Nico said. “But, yeah, someone is up to something. Do you have any enemies?” He asked, fishing for literally any info Aeolus might slip up and give him. He'd already tried tricks like this a few times, but it couldn't hurt to try it again.
“I have countless enemies,” Aeolus said. “I couldn't possibly name all of the people who are rooting for my failure. Olympus has always tried to keep me down, you know,” he said conspiratorially. “They're against promoting me to a god, despite millenia of loyal service. There are so many weather requests, all the time, and they can be so demanding on short notice! And yet every time I ask for my well-deserved promotion, I'm denied. I don't think they're ever going to recognize me for what I do,” he said.
There was a crazed and desperate light in his eyes, and it clicked for Nico, finally, that anyone who offered to deify him would have his instant loyalty. He needed to talk to Hera about this development.
“That's so unfair,” Nico said. “You deserve to be a god! After all you've done for them, how can they not see that?”
“I know,” Aeolus moaned. “Woe is me. Sometimes I fear it is my destiny to be slighted like this forever.” He sighed. Then an alarm went off on his phone. “Oh! I see it's time for therapy. Have more coffee waiting for me when I get back,” he said. “For some reason I'm finding I don't even need therapy after a few cups.”
He headed back to his office. Nico turned invisible and followed him in, walking straight through the locked door.
He'd listened in on the therapy before, but hadn't heard anything interesting yet. Aeolus mostly just whined and complained about how overworked he was.
“Aeolus,” his therapist, Khione, said, when he logged into the Zoom meeting. “How are you?”
“Terrible!” Aeolus said. “I've been shadowbanned from Godstagram!”
“Shadowbanned, hm?” Khione said. She had a very cold and professional demeanor most of the time, although her temper peeked out at times. “And what does that mean for you?”
“It means someone doesn't want me to go viral!”
“And who do you think runs Godstagram?”
“I think it's part of the Gossip Goddess network,” Aeolus said. “Isn't that Aphrodite? I never liked her.”
“It's run by all of the Olympian gods,” Khione said. “They all have it out for you.”
That immediately rang alarm bells for Nico. He'd also kind of guessed that Gossip Goddess was Aphrodite, although no one knew that for sure. The Olympians were definitely not all co-administrators on her family of apps; that didn't make any sense. And even if they were, Khione couldn't possibly know that. As far as Nico could tell, she was just a daughter of Boreas who had worked for all of the masters of wind at some point over the years.
“The Olympians hate you,” she said. “You know we've been working on setting boundaries?”
“Yes,” Aeolus said.
“Let's put some of that in practice,” she said. “Stop hiring demigods. In fact, stop helping them with anything, ever.”
“But I like my new assistant,” Aeolus said. “He gets my coffee order right.”
“I will come assist you in person for a while,” she said. “Trust me. He may be a son of Hades, but that Nico di Angelo has Olympian connections. I've done some research, and I don't trust him.”
“You were the one who told me to hire him in the first place!” Aeolus said.
“Shh,” Khione hushed him. “He could be listening.”
Nico had heard enough. He texted Harold saying he needed to check in, and she sent him an address of a Starbucks near Pike's Peak.
He saw a little old woman in a purple sweater with a peacock on it sitting at a table in the corner.
“Mind if I sit with you?” he asked her. She nodded, and he took a seat across from her.
“Something to drink?” She asked him.
“The coffee here is disgusting,” he said. “Can I just report and get it over with?”
She nodded.
He explained everything he'd learned and observed since his last check in, mainly emphasizing the fact that Khione was almost definitely working for the giants.
“But the weird thing is, he said she was the one who wanted to hire me?” Nico asked. “But at the same time, she suspected me? What's up with that?”
“They want to turn you to their side,” Hera said. “You won't remember this, but in the Titan war, Kronos wooed dozens of demigods over to his cause. Most were children of lesser gods, but many were children of powerful Underworld gods as well. His champion, Luke, was a son of Hermes. Children of Olympians would be the most coveted targets, because they could become double agents, embedded in one of the camps. You are a very tempting target for them.”
Hera had told him in an early briefing about Hecate, Hypnos, Morpheus, and Nemesis all siding with Kronos. Even Hades had remained neutral, keeping Persephone and Demeter safe in the Underworld until it was all over. That was one of the reasons Hera was so invested in repairing the relationship with Hades, she'd told him. They couldn't afford to repeat what had happened.
“Is there anything else?” She asked, steepling her fingers and frowning.
“I guess not,” Nico said. “If you don't promise to make Aeolus a god, he'll find someone else who will. It's that simple.”
She sighed.
“We'll need to write him off as a lost cause,” she said. “I'll ensure he knows you quit. It's time for your next assignment.”
“Wait, that's it? You're not even going to try? You could at least lie to him, right?”
Hera shook her head gravely. Nico didn't understand, but he was used to her withholding information from him at this point.
Nico wondered who his next assignment would be. Circe had been his first mission, and Nico had seen Gaea for the first time on her island, which had been swarming with monsters. He'd never seen so many in one place, and many were varieties of monster he didn't recognize, even with his Mythomagic knowledge. When the earth had started moving and speaking, he'd almost given up and shadow traveled the hell out of there.
But he'd stayed, and he'd listened, hiding behind a column invisibly. He'd heard her plans in great detail, and had reported every word back to Hera.
It had sickened him to see the earth controlled by someone other than his father. It didn't feel unnatural, but it was unsettling, a reminder that there were gods older and more powerful than the Olympians.
It was a stark reminder of his place in the grand scheme of things; a demigod, whose lifespan was a blink compared to primordial beings like Gaea. And he'd felt the full gravity of his responsibility on him in that moment. He could teleport, walk through walls, and hide from the gods themselves-- he'd been blessed with powerful gifts, and he was the only demigod that possessed them. He had an opportunity to make a difference in the war in a way no other demigod possibly could.
The burden of responsibility weighed heavily, but his primary motivator was the fact that Gaea scared the shit out of him. It didn't help that he'd put himself at number one on her hit list with his podcast stunt. That stupid Godstagram live video had caused a ripple effect he never could have seen coming. If he wanted to live long enough to have a happy life with his sister, he had no other option than to help defeat Gaea as soon as possible. If Bianca had to wait another year, safe in the Underworld, to emerge into a world that wasn't at war, he could live with the delay.
His next assignment had been to see Nereus. He'd been difficult to deal with, and Nico hadn't spent much time with him. Just being near the ocean made him nauseous, and Nereus lived on a pier. He'd told Nico outright that he was on the fence about his allegiances, and Poseidon had been dispatched to deal with him.
Nico had then been sent to investigate Phobos and Deimos, who'd wanted the social clout of being seen partying with him. They were textbook social media whores, and Nico had gone to several nightclubs and underground raves to be introduced to their friends and take photos with them. The more his face was on the divine social media, the easier the job was for his fixer, Hera had informed him.
The two of them were decently okay to hang out with, but they partied insanely hard, and Nico was pretty sure he'd almost died multiple times from alcohol poisoning, magical overdose, and dancing for too many hours without stopping. In the end it became clear that they had no interest in joining Gaea. On the contrary, they were looking forward to kicking her ass, in their words, and were already planning their social media strategy to maximize their glory in battle. To them, glory was the same thing as likes and shares. Nico had excused himself to the restroom and just ditched them one night, and he was pretty sure they hadn't noticed he was gone yet.
One interesting thing had come out of that mission. On a random night, in a random club, under dim and pulsating purple strobe lights, some random guy had kissed him. Nico had just gone with it; it was the kind of crazy atmosphere where that was sort of a normal occurence. It had been brief, and he never ran into the man again.
Nico was actually glad it had happened that way. He'd obviously hoped his first kiss would be with Minos, but he'd let himself get so worked up about his crush that he had been kind of obnoxious about it. He knew Minos liked him back, he'd made that super clear, but Minos was bound to follow Hades' rules. Nico hadn't respected that, and he'd gotten hurt as a result.
Nico wasn't over Minos, not by a long shot, but his crush didn't seem as important in the grand scheme of things anymore.
Hera finished up her coffee as Nico sat in silence, wondering what the next assignment would be.
When she got up to leave, he stood, too.
“Are you leaving? Were you going to tell me about my assignment?”
“It will take time to make the arrangements. It's going to be a long posting, and your most challenging yet.” She looked at him almost pityingly. “You should go home and rest. You've earned a break.”
It had been months since he'd been back in the Underworld, and it was now June. He felt like the distance had done him good, and he and Hades had made a relatively clean break. It was easier to just keep moving and not think about it.
“I'm good,” Nico said. “I'll get a hotel room. I'll wait on your call.”
“Fine,” Hera said. “One piece of advice? Study the Roman emperors.”
Nico was only given a few days to read up on them before he had to meet his contact in New York City. Later that week, he went to the location Hera had indicated. She'd told him to wait across the street from Trump Tower on 5th avenue.
Nico arrived early and stood around waiting. He was bored until two more people arrived to stand with him. One young man and one young woman stood on either side of him.
“Are you two waiting for the TH shuttle?” The young man asked. He was wearing a sweatshirt that said 'New Rome University,' and he looked anxious and sleep deprived.
Nico nodded. The young woman ignored the question. The young man started pacing back and forth across the sidewalk.
“They're paying a lot of money for this gig,” he said. “And it's only a few hours. It seems too good to be true, right?”
“Yeah,” Nico said, playing along. “Way too good to be true.”
The three of them, as he understood it, were supposed to be wine pourers that evening at a party thrown by Triumvirate Holdings, a shell corporation run by three deified Roman emperors. There had been a job posting for demigod workers, and they had been offered ten thousand dollars apiece to be there for the day. The amount did seem a little suspicious. Nico had just assumed the figure included hypothetical tips, and they weren't likely to make anything at all.
“They're going to shit on us,” the woman said, without looking up from her phone. She had a typical Aphrodite kid look, efortlessly beautiful with no evidence of makeup, and radiating confidence.
“What?” The guy said, alarmed. “No way. That's insane.”
“It's a thing,” she shrugged. “Look it up. Just think about the money and get it over with.”
“She's joking, right?” The guy said, looking at Nico incredulously. “Right?
“Somebody's never been to Dubai,” she said, smirking. “Poor thing. Did you think you were here to pour drinks?”
The two of them started arguing over whether she was making it up to try to scare him. Nico turned away and looked down at his notes on his phone, ignoring the rest of their conversation. The triumvirate in question was made up of Caligula, Commodus, and Nero. They were known to be meddling in shady business dealings, but Hera didn't know if they planned to fight on the side of the Giants in the war or not. He was supposed to figure that out, but their security would be excellent, and they were known to be dangerous and paranoid. This was the only mission she'd explicitly warned him might require him to fight his way due to the likelihood they'd prevent his escape.
A self driving car picked the three demigods up and took them to a parking lot beneath a skyscraper marked with a golden triangle on a purple square. There, a tall blonde man in a suit directed them into an elevator that took them all the way to the second floor from the top.
They were told to change into wait staff uniforms first. The guy Nico had been picked up with was still chatty, and Nico learned that his name was Kyle and he was a son of Mercury. He'd been thrown out of New Rome University for his expensive magical drug habit and was here to make quick cash to pay off some debts.
Nico introduced himself truthfully as a son of Hades. He'd gotten the job because of his social media notoriety anyway, so that was no secret. He also made up a story about needing money to pay off credit card debt after his dad cut him off. Kyle believed him immediately and seemed to decide they were friends.
“Listen,” he said. “I'll watch your back if you watch mine, okay? Nobody has to get shit on tonight.”
Nico wished that was all they had to worry about. Unfortunately, Kyle was going to die that night.
Up on the roof, the sun was beginning to set. The three of them were given buckets of rose petals and told to cover the surface of the pools with them. The rooftop had five beautiful tiled swimming pools, two with swim up bars. There was also a dance floor with a DJ, three more bars, a buffet, and a lot of scattered lounge areas with couches and tables.
Nico had just dumped out the last bucket of petals when a servant ran up with a bottle of wine and a white cloth. The guests would arrive any minute, he was told. The bottle would never run dry, but he had to make sure the guests' glasses didn't either.
The people that walked in shocked Nico with how mortal most of them were. He saw politicians, musicians, and movie stars mingling with nymphs, fauns, naiads and aurae. The mist must have been very hard at work.
Nico began filling glasses and scoping out the crowd. After an hour or so of making rounds, pouring drinks, and avoiding eye contact with Taylor Swift, he decided he needed to explore further. He manipulated the mist to make everyone's glasses seem permanently full, then he wandered to another area of the roof.
He wanted to find out where the triumvirate gathered, since apparently they didn't feel like mingling with Tom Cruise and Meryl Streep. He found no sign of them.
After a thorough search of the roof, he saw that Kyle had been grabbed out of the crowd by two men who looked like guards. He was being escorted back to the elevator. Nico ducked behind a plant, turned invisible, then followed.
He squeezed into the elevator, thankful he could be intangible and invisible and go unnoticed in the tight space. Kyle was still blabbering nervously. He had no clue what he'd been grabbed for, but Nico could see on his face that he was worried about what the young woman had mentioned.
“It's not that I'm not flexible, it's just, I've never done anything like this before,” Kyle said. “A little warning in advance is kind of helpful, you know?”
One of the guards inserted a special key into the elevator button panel, and the elevator moved upward to a floor that existed somehow above the roof itself. Kyle, the guards, and Nico walked into a large penthouse apartment with glass walls and a glass ceiling. The Manhattan skyline surrounded them, the city lights bright and sparkling like colorful stars.
Nico swallowed. The sky was way too big and empty for his liking, and it made him sick to look down at the vast distance to the ground. He'd rather be anywhere else, but he had a mission he needed to focus on.
There was a large triangular table in the center of the room where three men in purple mantles and shining gold togas sat, one on each side. One of them had a horse sitting next to him.
Nico stared at the horse. This mission was going to be weirder than he'd expected.
“Can we wrap this up?” One of the emperors said. He had curly brown hair and a physique like he hit the gym quite regularly. His toga was pinned up on his shoulders to show off his massive biceps. “We're missing the party.”
“Yes, yes, we're all eager to meet Meryl,” another of the emperors said. “But someone has to volunteer to take point on the cyclops order.” He was more stocky and rotund, with short dark hair and a wicked expression on his face. Nico shivered; he gave off a malevolent energy that made him wish he could be anywhere else.
“Fred volunteers,” the emperor on the third side of the table said. He pointed at the brown and white spotted horse next to him.
“The horse can't sign paperwork!” The stocky emperor shouted, his voice instantly turning from bored to furious. “How many times do we have to have this discussion?”
“You shut the fuck up! You don't know what you're talking about!” Said the horse emperor, standing and putting his arms around the horse's neck. “I'll have you know Fred is a notary public!”
The two of them began to scream at each other about whether Fred was actually qualified to notarize anything. Nico watched them closely and decided the horse freak was definitely Caligula. He was also pretty sure the buff one was Commodus, meaning the scary guy was Nero.
“You!” Nero suddenly turned and pointed at Kyle, who had been hovering by the door. “Get over here!”
Kyle walked up to him, shaking like a leaf and clutching his wine bottle.
“Pour wine on this idiot,” Nero said, pointing at the horse emperor.
Kyle turned to look at Caligula.
“Uh...” He stuttered.
“Do it!” Nero repeated.
“Don't even think about it,” Caligula said, narrowing his eyes.
Nico was silently thinking, 'Don't do it, Kyle! Run for it!', but Kyle's death aura was growing darker and larger with every beat of his heart. He knew there was nothing he could do that would change his fate now. He was next up on Thanatos' list.
Kyle dribbled a tiny drop of wine onto Caligula's arm, his hand shaking violently. Before Nico had time to blink, Caligula had grabbed Kyle by the neck and thrown him out the window, shattering the glass into millions of tiny pieces. Just like that, Kyle was gone.
They were so high up that Kyle would be falling for quite a few seconds. Nico waited, holding his breath, until the faint signal of life in Kyle's now very far away body became undetectable.
He breathed out, relieved it was over. Kyle wouldn't have to suffer anymore, and soon, Thanatos would take him to the fields where he could be at peace.
Nico desperately wanted to leave and call Hera, to tell her that these people were clearly evil and insane and up to no good. But he'd been sent to find out if they were working with Gaea, and he didn't know that for sure yet.
The emperors continued the meeting as though nothing had happened, Nero's rage momentarily sated, and Caligula ended up agreeing to go check on the cyclopean project, whatever that was. He left, and Nero and Commodus both headed to the elevator.
Nico slipped into the elevator with them.
The three of them stood close together, Nico invisible and intangible beside them. Nero and Commodus exchanged a glance.
With a casual motion, Nero unclasped his purple velvet mantle from around his shoulders. He casually held it in front of him, shaking it out as though it had dust on it.
Then he flicked his wrist, whipping the mantle at Nico. It flew at him as though it were magnetized to his body, slamming into him, the thick fabric pinning him to the wall. He'd been intangible, but he'd either slipped up when the fabric hit him, or otherwise the mantle was magically overriding his powers. He didn't have time to think about it. Commodus's thick, muscular hands went around his neck.
“You'll have to try a lot harder than that to assassinate me, you bastard!” Commodus said. His fingers felt like they were as hard as iron, digging into Nico's neck and squeezing. “Take the mantle off him, Nero, I want to watch the light leave his eyes!”
Nero, yanked the mantle back, leaving Nico both visible and more vulnerable to strangulation. Nico was about to summon his sword when he looked into Commodus's eyes. There was a crazed expression of joy in them that was terrifying to look at.
Suddenly, his grip loosened, and he stared at Nico with a look of confusion.
“Wait. I know you,” he said. “You're the one from Godstagram.”
“I'm not an assassin,” Nico choked out.
Commodus looked at Nero, who shrugged. He let go of Nico's neck.
“I'm not here to kill you, I swear,” Nico said, struggling to breathe.
“Then why are you invisible?”
“I thought it was better to check you out before I agreed to work for you,” Nico said, inserting as much of the truth into his explanation as possible to make it sound believable. “I've heard you're dangerous.”
“Damn straight,” Nero said. “Kill this kid, Commodus.”
“I'm not killing him, I need him,” Commodus said frustratedly. “I hired him myself. He should have been brought straight to me when he arrived.”
“I'm hard to pin down,” Nico said. “Usually,” he added, glancing at the mantle Nero was reattaching around his shoulders.
“So, you were checking us out, huh?” Commodus said. “Maybe you don't get how this works. You work for me now, and you'll do as you're told. I don't care if you think I'm dangerous.”
“Kids today and their safe spaces,” Nero said, shaking his head.
Nico stood there in the elevator in silence, feeling Commodus' eyes boring holes in his skin. Nero hit the elevator button, and they started moving again. Nico had been too busy being strangled to notice they hadn't been moving for a while.
The elevator doors opened, and Nico ran out, grateful to have space between him and the two emperors. Their godly aura was less intense than he was used to, since they were relatively minor gods in the grand scheme of things, but they were still very powerful.
Commodus beckoned for him, heading back into the throng of partygoers, and Nico followed him.
Commodus brought him to a couch on the far side of the rooftop overlooking the city. He summoned a drink for himself out of thin air and stared Nico down as he took a few leisurely sips, studying his new employee like he was determined to find out all his secrets.
Nico took a deep breath and tried to stay calm. He looked out at the Manhattan skyline sparkling in the dark. It was beautiful, but he was still a little worried he was about to be dropped off the side of the building like Kyle had been. Commodus was perched on the couch like a lion; appearing relaxed, but also ready to pounce at any moment.
After a few minutes, Commodus set his glass down and sighed.
“You've really fucked up, kid. I need to be able to trust the people I work with, and now I don't.”
“Would you rather not know I could turn invisible?” Nico asked.
“No. But now I have to keep a close eye on you so you can't sneak up on me,” he said. “And I'm worried you might be annoying to have around all the time. Are you?”
“I can be. Especially if you ask me about trading card games.”
“Pfft,” Commodus snorted. “So you're a nerd. Okay, less intimidated by the invisible thing, now.” He leaned further back on the couch, narrowing his eyes at Nico. “From now on, you don't leave my sight for a single second. If you do, I'll assume you're trying to assassinate me and I'll kill you the next time I see you. And I don't hesitate. Ever.”
“Understood,” Nico said.
“Fail to be useful to me, I'll kill you for that, too,” he said.
“Okay.”
“Disobey? I'll kill you.”
“Okay.”
“Look at me funny? I'll--”
“I get it,” Nico said. “Why don't you go ahead and tell me what you need from me? And I'll tell you why I came here today. Maybe you'll trust me more once we understand each other better.”
“You're going to be my new necromancer,” Commodus said.
“Okay,” Nico said. “Great. I'm here because I want to learn how to become a god.”
Commodus raised his eyebrows.
“What if I don't feel like telling you?”
“I'll try to pick it up from just watching you, I guess,” Nico said.
Commodus threw his head back and laughed.
“You go right ahead, and good luck with that. You seem like an idiot, but as long as you can summon the dead, that's fine by me.”
“What do you need a necromancer for?”
“My old one isn't working out,” he said. “I've gotta get rid of him.”
“What is he doing wrong?”
“He's not summoning the right shades,” Commodus said. “Gotta kick him to the curb.”
Nico had the power to summon any shade he wanted to stand in front of Commodus right now, but he wasn't going to give him what he wanted so easily.
“It can be tricky,” he said. “Not everyone is as skilled as I am. But I can get you what you need.”
“You'd better.” Commodus turned his focus elsewhere, getting up to mingle with partygoers. He stayed in sight of Nico, and glanced back every few minutes to make sure he hadn't moved.
Nico studied Commodus. For a Roman emperor, he came across as a very modern man. He didn't radiate with a godly aura, just a weird chaotic energy he'd shared with his fellow triumvirate members. That said, his physical strength was unbelievable, and definitely divine in nature. Nico could still feel the spots on his neck where Commodus' fingers had pressed into his skin.
Commodus took his shirt off and dove into the pool, starting an underwater wrestling match with the biggest man in the water. He seemed to be entertaining and funny, making his guests laugh quite a bit. He was definitely the type of person whose behavior could be described as 'antics.'
Was he insane? Nico googled him again, reviewing what he'd already read, and couldn't find a conclusive answer. Commodus had both experienced tragedy and inflicted it on others in his lifetime. He'd professed loudly his desire to be a gladiator rather than an emperor. It had been viewed as bizarre and disgraceful, but Nico wasn't able to venture a guess at a mental health diagnosis just based on that.
Caligula, though? It was harder to figure out what not to diagnose that guy with.
As the night wore on and Commodus got into more underwater wrestling matches, followed by some drinking contests, followed by a dance-off, Nico grew bored. He stood up and walked a short distance over to the edge of the rooftop.
That felt like tempting fate, given what he'd witnessed earlier. He kept an eye out behind him for angry emperors that might want to give him a shove. Heights scared the hell out of him, but he couldn't help but look anyway, wondering what it would feel like to fall.
Kyle had fallen for ages before he'd died. What had he thought during those long seconds with the wind rushing past his face? Nico could summon him and ask, but Kyle wouldn't remember. He was a shade in Asphodel now. Thanatos had collected his soul, and Minos had judged him, and the paperwork would be processed in three to five business days. It was nice to know some things in this fucked up world could be relied upon, Nico thought, smiling to himself.
He peered over the edge briefly, then stepped back, spooked. He chided himself. He couldn't die at the moment, so unless he wanted to experience what it was like to be a human milkshake streaked across the sidewalk, he'd better keep his distance from the railing.
“What the fuck do you think you're doing here?” A familiar, unpleasant voice said. Nico turned to see a blonde, green eyed young man striding toward him, a suspicious glint in his eyes. Alabaster Torrington stood in front of him.
He didn't look happy. He had dark circles under his eyes, and his lips were a thin line.
“New job,” Nico said. “You?”
“Old job,” Alabaster said, a bleak, hopeless look spreading across his face.
“Oh,” Nico said. He glanced back at Commodus, who had gotten in a fistfight on the dancefloor for some reason. “Don't tell me you're the--”
“I'm the one who failed, yeah,” Alabaster said viciously, panic stirring behind his eyes. “Thanks for signing my fucking death warrant.”
“I didn't know,” Nico said, panicking.
“Fuck you,” Alabaster said. “I'm not going down without a fight.”
He leapt at Nico and pushed him towards the edge of the roof.
Chapter 33: Necromancy Summer
Chapter Text
If Nico had been any closer to the edge, he'd have fallen. Alabaster slammed Nico's head on the railing, leaving him stunned.
Alabaster got a couple of punches in before Nico turned intangible. He stood up and got behind Alabaster, reached for the shadows, and tried to wrap them around his assailant.
Alabaster summoned some kind of magical protection shield at the last second, and the shadows fell uselessly to the ground. Then he pulled a knife out of his belt. Stygian iron glinted in his hand.
Nico's heart started pounding. Even the slightest graze would dissolve his soul into dust, and there would be no afterlife. The idea of nonexistence sent a cold shock of fear down his spine. He couldn't hold back while fighting someone with this weapon.
He motioned with his hand, summoning his own sword.
“Fuck yes!” He heard Commodus shout from nearby. “Necromancer fight!”
“We didn't have to bring Stygian iron into this,” Nico said. “We can still figure something out.”
Alabaster launched himself at Nico, muttering a spell that threw up a cloud of toxic green smoke. Nico's lungs burned, and he tried not to breathe in.
The smoke obscured his vision. Three shapes formed in the thick green smoke, all vaguely Alabaster shaped figures that lunged at Nico. He dodged them again and again until he realized none of them were real. They were mist creations.
It became apparent that the smoke wasn't going to clear on its own. In fact it was expanding its range, and some of the party guests who'd come closer to watch them started coughing. Nico sensed death in the air.
Suddenly, Commodus ran up to him. He snatched Alabaster out of the smoke and held him dangling by his collar like a kitten. Then he gestured, turning the smoke into a harmless purple cloud that evaporated immediately.
“Idiot,” he barked at Alabaster, shaking him. “You almost killed Tom Cruise!”
Nico breathed a sigh of relief, glad they'd been stopped before he'd been forced to kill Alabaster. He looked at the crowd. Partygoers had gathered around a short, dark haired man who was coughing up blood on the patio tile.
The crowd suddenly parted as Nero approached, striding up to the man and staring down at him with a cold, terrifying look of glee.
Nero leaned down to look over the man, blocking Nico's view. When Nero stood back up straight, the man was dead.
“That's for Nicole,” Nero said, kicking the man in the ribs and smirking.
“What the hell?” Commodus yelled furiously. “I liked Mission Impossible!”
“Shut up!” Nero said. “And get your stupid death boys out of my party before I throw all three of you off this roof!”
“Let's go,” Commodus said, quickly grabbing both Nico and Alabaster by the upper arms and hustling them across the roof and into the elevator. “You are fucking dead,” he told Alabaster after he'd pressed the button for the seventy ninth floor. He slammed Alabaster's face against the wall again and again until Alabaster whimpered and begged for him to stop. Commodus let him fall to the ground, where he curled up into a ball, shaking.
Nico stared at the numbers on the elevator's floor indicator, watching as they descended from the top floor. Number after number counted down much too slowly for his liking. Maybe Alabaster deserved that for trying to murder him in two different horrible ways, but the energy they'd created in the elevator was really difficult to be around.
Once they reached the seventy ninth floor, Commodus led them out into a massive apartment. It was designed with a weird mishmash of Roman and modern styles. In the entryway there was a skylight in the ceiling sitting overtop an impluvium full of rainwater. The living room area had a huge TV and videogame setup that was surrounded by a semicircle of Roman dining couches. And naturally, the entire space was peppered with statues and mosaics depicting Commodus, most often in his gladiator outfit or his Hercules cosplay.
“Nico, make yourself at home,” Commodus said. “I'm gonna go smash this dude's skull in in the shower.”
“What if he became my assistant?” Nico said quickly.
“You'd better not need an assistant. You're supposed to be better than him,” Commodus growled.
“I don't need him, I want him.” Nico clarified. “He can pick up the food and manage the animals. It saves time for us to focus on getting you as much time with the dead as possible.”
“Alright, fine,” Commodus said, letting Alabaster go roughly. “I'm sick of dealing with this. You two work it out.”
He flopped onto a couch, put on a headset, and started playing video games.
Alabaster walked over to the kitchen table and sat down, putting his head in his hands. Nico could tell that it would be dangerous to try to approach him right away, so he occupied himself exploring the apartment instead.
The kitchen counters were crowded with protein powder tubs and dirty blenders. The trash was full of more blenders. It seemed like Commodus thought they were one use only. The fridge was a little better; it was full of jars of fancy imported olives and little else.
There was a large bedroom in the back that could have passed for an uber rich mortal's bedroom, only there were tacky purple and gold logos on the bedsheets, rug, and curtains.
The attached bathroom had three huge bathtubs featuring hot, cold, and tepid temperatures. The setup reminded Nico of his dad's bathroom, minus the boiling pool and the blood pool. It made him homesick to think about the luxurious shower he'd had to leave behind in the Underworld.
He kept an eye out for anythind that might aid the investigation. Financial records or email communications would show whether the triumvirate had been working with Gaea, supplying weapons or funding. He couldn't find any physical files or paperwork anywhere. Commodus didn't appear to own a single book.
Nico went back into the kitchen and found paydirt. On the kitchen table, next to Alabaster, was an iPad.
He went up to the table cautiously.
“I'm not thanking you,” Alabaster said, lifting his head to look up at Nico. His face was a bloody mess, and his eyes looked haunted.
“I didn't expect you to,” Nico said, more interested in getting his hands on the iPad than in talking. He snatched the iPad, glanced over his shoulder to be sure Commodus was occupied, then turned it on.
It was a fingerprint lock, with a backup password that was 4 characters long. Nico tried to think of what a Roman emperor might have come up with for a four letter password, and on a whim tried SPQR. It didn't work.
He set the tablet down, not wanted to appear overly interested in it in front of Alabaster. It would be wise to get an idea of the guy's loyalties before he proceeded. Alabaster could be an agent of Gaea himself, Nico realized. Maybe part of his antagonism toward Nico was based in more than just self-preservation.
“Why are you here?” Nico asked bluntly.
“None of your business.”
“If you want to keep your skull intact, I'd advise you to play nice with me,” Nico said.
“Is that why you saved me? So I'd owe you?”
“I doubt you feel like you owe me anything,” Nico said. “I saved you because I like your mom.”
“Well, you just wasted your time,” Alabaster said. “She disowned me.”
“Why?”
“None of your business!” Alabaster snapped.
Nico sighed, trying not to let himself get baited into a fight. Alabaster still seemed to be itching for one. His hands were shaking, and he was tapping his foot like he was still anxious Commodus might hurt him. His nerves were on a hair trigger.
“Why don't you just tell me what I can expect from working here?” Nico asked. “What is it you've been doing for Commodus?”
Alabaster looked down at the tabletop, digging his nails into the sides of his fingers until he'd left red indentations in his skin.
“He has me summon old Roman ghosts so he can taunt them,” Alabaster said. “But I can't get the right ones to show up. That's why he...” He swallowed.
“Is that all?”
“Yes,” Alabaster said, still refusing to look at Nico. “Most of the time I'm locked in this apartment alone.”
“He won't do that with me,” Nico said. “He's paranoid I'll assassinate him if he doesn't supervise me. He can't keep me locked in here if I don't want to be.”
“I told him about your abilities,” Alabaster said. “He saw you on Godstagram and was really interested. I thought he was just attracted to you. I didn't think you would agree to work for him. Why the fuck are you even here?” he said. “Don't you have anything better to do? I know your father didn't kick you out.”
“Shows what you know,” Nico glared. “He did kick me out, actually. Not that it's any of your business.”
“Really? Why?” For the first time, Alabaster's accusatory look softened into a more neutral expression. Nico realized that if Alabaster saw him as a fellow shunned demigod, he'd be able to gain his trust.
Nico sighed heavily, trying to look resentful of his father.
“He said I was getting ideas above my station and not acting like a demigod is supposed to.”
“True,” Alabaster snorted. “My mom said you were allowed to do whatever you wanted all the time. That Hades treated you like a prince.”
“I admit there's truth in that,” Nico said. “But Hades is still a jerk for letting me get used to it and then ripping the rug out from under my feet.”
Alabaster chuckled a little.
“I think you're a spoiled brat, but I guess I get why you're pissed off at him,” he said, his posture relaxing. “Gods suck. I hate them all,” he said, his voice growing very quiet.
“Then why are you here?” Nico whispered.
“That's cheating!” Commodus said, leaping to his feet. Nico and Alabaster both jumped, turning to stare at him. Commodus threw his controller onto the rug and started stomping on it. “I'm going to hunt that Brayden down and crucify him!”
“Brayden?” Nico said.
“This kid I play Apex with,” Commodus said. “Also, you're in trouble,” he said, pointing at Alabaster. “Nero just texted. People are upset about Tom Cruise and you're going to have to take the blame for it.”
“Who is Tom Cruise and why do people care that he's dead?” Nico asked.
They ignored him. Alabaster stood up.
“Let me make a mistform version of him,” he said. “I promise no one will know the difference.”
“Go do it, then,” Commodus said. He snapped his fingers, and Alabaster disappeared.
He turned to Nico.
“Alabaster said you want to summon Roman shades,” Nico said. “People you knew in your mortal life, I'm assuming?”
“Yes,” Commodus said, taking the seat across from him at the table. He picked up his iPad and used his fingerprint to unlock it. He opened the notes app and showed Nico a list.
There were dozens upon dozens of Roman names on it. Most were crossed off, but a handful were not.
“We summoned ghosts every day for weeks,” Commodus said. “I've seen a lot of these people multiple times already. I don't get why the others aren't showing up.”
“Shades are elusive,” Nico said, taking the iPad and reading through the names. None of them meant anything to him. He was tempted to shadow travel away with the iPad and call his work done, but he didn't know for certain that the info he needed was on it. It was too early to burn bridges.
He handed it back to Commodus.
“Do the ones that are missing have anything in common with each other?”
“They were the people I was closest to,” Commodus admitted. He ran his hands through his thick brown curls. “I just don't get why they won't come.” His voice sounded a little strained, like this had been weighing on him. Nico could relate all too well, unfortunately.
Nico looked at the names again. What Commodus didn't know, and what Nico definitely didn't want him to ever find out, was that Nico could summon every single one of those shades easily without the trappings of a ritual. But he needed more time for the investigation.
“It will take a while, because using my powers is draining,” Nico said. “But I can summon one person from the list per day.”
“And they'll show up?”
“I guarantee it. I can force them to appear and stop them from leaving. That's what Alabaster couldn't do for you that I can.”
“I want to start as soon as possible,” Commodus said, sitting back in his seat and looking pleased.
“When Alabaster gets back I'll give him his shopping list,” Nico said.
“Goats and stuff, right? I just made the goats for his summonings.”
“Made them?”
“Created them with my divine power,” Commodus said. “Can't I keep doing that?”
“No. It's not the same,” Nico said bluntly. He was making that up, of course, but he wanted to sound like he knew what he was talking about. “No wonder you had trouble getting the ones you wanted.”
“I knew Alabaster was a hack from the second I set eyes on him. I can't believe how much time he wasted,” Commodus said, twisting one of his rings. He looked angry enough to smash Alabaster's skull after all.
Nico looked at the list of names. Alabaster had summoned plenty of shades for Commodus already. It wasn't his fault some had refused to show up.
“It's not fair to compare him to me. I'm the best necromancer alive,” Nico said. It felt like an obnoxiously cocky statement, but it was probably true, given his innate abilities. “I was trained by Hades himself.”
Nico made a mental note that Commodus responded really well to confidence; he smiled and looked at Nico approvingly, leaning forward.
“I don't want anybody working for me who's not the best. Otherwise what does that say about me?” He said. “Speaking of Hades, what's the story there? Why didn't you ask him how to become a god? It would have been easier than asking me to teach you.”
“When I asked, he told me I should know my place,” Nico said, pouring bitterness into his voice.
“And you think your place is among the gods?” Commodus said. “You think you deserve it?”
“Why does that matter?”
Commodus burst out laughing.
“I like you,” he said. “Stay on my good side, and we'll see if I can't give you a few pointers. You'd better impress me tonight.”
He went into the fridge and pulled out a jar of olives. He didn't offer any to Nico.
“Another question,” he said, speaking around a mouthful of olives. “Why are you doing this now instead of preparing for the war with Gaea?”
“I want to use the war as an opportunity to be deified,” Nico said. “Now is my only time to research how to pull it off.”
“Makes sense,” Commodus said. He sat down again and started working on his iPad. Looking at it upside down, Nico saw that his inbox storage was at 99% full, and he grew dead certain that the tablet had the info he needed for Hera somewhere in that inbox.
When Alabaster came back, Commodus leapt up from his seat and hustled them both out the door. They took a self driving towncar to Central Park, where Commodus said they'd been doing all of their sacrifices.
Alabaster had chosen a secluded spot near a large rock where the door of Orpheus was hidden. Nico sensed the Underworld's nearness and felt a pang of homesickness.
“This was where I came out of the Underworld,” Alabaster said.
“I thought Orpheus' path was blocked off,” Nico said.
“It was. Niamh and I dug it out. My mom made me drop Niamh off at camp, but I came back to the city afterwards.” He stared at the opening, his hands in his pockets, clearly thinking of his mother with resentment.
“Chop chop, gentlemen!” Commodus barked at them. “Get digging!”
Nico texted Alabaster a shopping list and sent him on his way. Then he summoned a team of skeletons to dig a new pit, loudly remarking that Alabaster's had been sloppy. Commodus was delighted with the skeleton crew, and Nico made sure to summon way more of them than was actually necessary. He could have made the pit with his earth powers, but he was worried they'd have a lot of time to kill waiting on Alabaster. Nico had no idea where the guy was going to get a goat in Manhattan.
Alabaster made great time by skipping the goat entirely. He returned to the pit leading a Central Park carriage horse by the reins.
“Wow, good thinking,” Nico remarked.
“The driver won't wake up for another hour.”
“Where was this all the other nights?” Commodus said. “Maybe if you'd brought this instead of the little dogs, we'd have gotten the shades I wanted!”
“It makes no difference,” Nico said. “He could sacrifice a herd of elephants and still fail. Only I can do this.”
Alabaster gave Nico a death glare, but Nico ignored him and proceeded with the ritual.
He made sure to chant the most obscure and complex prayer he could think of, one that would sound wildly different from whatever Alabaster had used. He ignored his assistant, but he could feel his resentful glare without having to see it.
He sacrificed the horse to Pluto, deliberately choosing verbage for the sacrifice that indicated that he was a priest of Pluto serving his patron. He thought his dad would appreciate the formal distance the ritual put between them. It was a more appropriate god/demigod dynamic than the one they'd shared before.
Chanting the words reminded him of the time not long ago when his father had taught him how to summon shades. He'd been so excited, but not because of what he was learning. What had thrilled him was the fact that his dad cared enough to teach him something.
It was just a memory now. He drew the sacrificial knife across the horse's neck. Hot blood poured out into the pit. Nico indicated for Alabaster to dump out the food, too. Alabaster knelt and popped open Chinese food takeout containers of fried rice and sesame chicken, along with a 2 liter of diet Coke.
Commodus observed the process silently, judging each minute detail, his eyes narrowed. He'd probably studied the previous summonings just as closely, trying to discern what Alabaster was doing wrong. He'd probably done everything perfectly; souls that didn't want to be summoned would not be tempted by the food.
During the two summonings Nico had already performed, the crowd of souls had been a random assortment of vague, ghostly shapes, but Commodus was so significant to so many people that the pit and the surrounding area was immediately crowded with Ancient Roman shades, all with a bone to pick with him. Some of them started shouting curses. Nico dismissed them all with a quick gesture.
“That's better,” Commodus said. “I'm sick of listening to them complaining. I heard enough of that when I was mortal. Can we hurry this up? Who are you summoning for me?”
Nico gestured for Commodus to approach the pit. The emperor came up to the edge and looked inside.
Crouched at the bottom, picking at pieces of rice, was the shade of a young boy.
“Who is that? I can't see him well,” Commodus said.
“Your younger brother Marcus.”
Commodus stepped back from the edge, looking shocked. For a moment, he didn't say anything.
Nico knew, based on his expression, that his plan had worked.
“He wasn't on the list,” Commodus said, his voice hollow.
“There were multiple Marcus' on the list. I just assumed you'd want to see him. Sorry about that. I'll send him away.”
“Don't!” Commodus said, grabbing Nico's arm to stay his hand. He walked up to the edge of the pit and looked down at his younger brother.
Nico jumped down into the pit and boosted Marcus up onto the edge. Commodus reached out to help him up, then stopped, remembering that his hand would pass through him.
“You can touch him,” Nico said. Marcus felt corporeal and weighty in his arms, almost like a living body. Commodus hesitantly reached out and pulled Marcus up by the hand.
Marcus resembled his brother, with the same thick curly brown hair. Nico kept a hand on his back, which helped his appearance to be even more distinct.
“Say something so he'll recognize you,” Nico told Commodus, who probably knew how this worked, but was in shock and needed a reminder.
“Marcus,” Commodus said. “It's me. Lucius.”
The boy stared at him, then smiled.
“Hi,” he said. “I didn't think I'd ever get to see you again.”
“Yeah, I never ended up in the Underworld after all,” Commodus said. “I'm a god now.”
“I heard. What's it like?” Marcus asked.
“Not what I expected,” Commodus admitted. “Nico, can you give us some space? You're crowding me.”
“I'll go as far as I can,” Nico said, happy to give them a chance to talk alone.
Nico backed off as far as he could. Marcus seemed only mildly interested in hearing what Commodus had to say, which was typical for a shade, but Commodus had a lot to get off his chest.
Nico didn't eavesdrop on their conversation. He should have, since the whole point of working for the Triumvirate was information gathering. But Commodus wasn't going to tell his dead little brother Nero's secret plan to fund Gaea's war. Whatever he needed to say, it was personal.
Marcus eventually started fading, and Commodus brought him back over to Nico.
“Fix him,” he said, nudging the little boy in front of Nico.
“I want to go back,” Marcus said.
“Stay,” Commodus prodded. “We have a lot to catch up on.”
Marcus looked up at Nico with big, pleading brown eyes.
“It's not good for him to stay too long,” Nico lied, pitying the little shade. “I can summon him again tomorrow.”
“Fine,” Commodus said. Nico dismissed Marcus back to the Underworld.
Commodus stood and stared at the space Marcus had left behind.
“You okay?” Nico asked awkwardly.
Commodus glared at him.
“Are we done?” Alabaster said, walking over. He'd been watching from a distance, sitting on a rock.
“Clean this place up,” Commodus said. “Nico, come with me.”
Commodus walked to a nearby restaurant called Traviata Pizza and ordered three slices. He made Nico pay for them with his Cthonic credit card. Then he sat on the curb and ate in silence.
He finished two and gave the last one to Nico. He sat hunched over, staring blankly ahead, and watched the traffic go by. The sun was rising, and the sky was growing pink, but it was still dark in the shadow of the tall buildings surrounding them.
Nico ate the slice of pizza, wondering if it would be his last. Commodus seemed to have mixed emotions, but he might still end up getting rid of Nico permanently for what he'd done.
“He wasn't on the list,” Commodus said, finally breaking the silence. “Why did you summon him?”
“I told you, I must have mixed him up with a different Marcus.”
“No you didn't. Tell the truth,” Commodus said.
He didn't sound angry. Nico turned and met his eyes.
“My older sister died a few years ago. I haven't been able to see her since. It's a long story. I did some research on you before I came. I thought... I don't know what I thought. It just seemed like the right thing to do.”
“I'm a very dangerous and volatile god,” Commodus said. “I kill demigods all the time. You shouldn't be worried about the right thing to do, you should be worried about keeping your head attached to your shoulders.”
“Maybe I have a death wish.”
“I don't know what's wrong with you, but I'll figure it out,” Commodus said. “I don't like unpredictable people. And everything about you screams 'assassin.'”
“Is it that hard to believe I was trying to do something nice for you?”
“Yes,” Commodus snapped.
“Fine,” Nico said. “Next time I'll summon some dead senators and let you scream at them like you wanted.”
“Fine,” Commodus said.
Alabaster walked up to them, his hands dirty and his clothes stained with horse blood. In the growing light, it was apparent that the day was wearing on him; he had dark circles under his eyes and bruises forming on his face.
“I cleaned up what I could and hid the rest with the mist,” he said. “I need coffee.”
Nico and Commodus followed him into a Starbucks nearby. Alabaster got a cold brew and Commodus ordered a strawberry frappucino.
“You're not getting anything?” Alabaster asked Nico.
“Their coffee is terrible,” Nico said.
“Are you some kind of coffee snob?” Alabaster scoffed.
“No, I'm Italian,” Nico said.
“Same difference,” Alabaster said, rolling his eyes.
“Both of you, shut up,” Commodus said. “Nero is calling.”
Nico listened intently to the half of the conversation that he could hear, but picked up nothing useful. The three of them went back to the apartment, and Commodus went into his room to speak on the phone privately.
Alabaster laid down on one of the couches and immediately fell asleep. Nico took the opportunity to try the iPad again. He tried the password MARC, but it didn't work. He tried ROMA, NERO, and INRI, just in case Commodus was a secret Christian. He got nowhere, and gave up when Commodus came out of his room.
“It's tomorrow,” he said loudly. “Time for summoning again.”
“That was only a few hours,” Nico said. Alabaster started to peel himself off the couch, his eyes dead and empty with exhaustion. If this was his schedule, it was no wonder he was falling apart.
“I need more time to recover,” Nico said firmly.
“I don't care. You said once per day. Today is a new day. Let's go.”
“I said no,” Nico said, pulling out his phone and looking at it.
Nico tried to appear aloof and unconcerned. Alabaster stared at him, open mouthed with shock.
Nico knew how to deal with gods, and he knew that projecting confidence was the best way to handle them sometimes. Setting boundaries with Commodus over something this low-stakes would protect him from worse abuse in the future. It was the same method he'd employed with Aeolus on his second day working for him, when he'd put his hand on Nico's knee in a decidedly unprofessional manner. Nico had looked him dead in the eye, said, 'That's not what I'm here for,' and stared him down until he'd stopped. It had been scary in the moment, but afterwards he was proud of himself. It gave him the confidence to try it again now, in a much more dangerous scenario.
Commodus seemed more confused than angry.
“Do you want to get your skull smashed in? What's wrong with you?” He said.
“If we're going to work together, you need to honor my terms. There are other gods that could use my skills,” Nico said, raising his eyebrows. “I chose to work for you. I'm not here to be your slave.”
Commodus huffed.
“The second Hades has another kid, I'm destroying you,” he snapped. He was smirking a little, but was trying to hide it.
“Okay,” Nico said, turning back to his phone. He thanked his lucky fates that he was unique enough to register as a demigod worth putting up with.
Commodus dropped his request, but he took his revenge in another way. Nico was immediately ordered to follow him to the kickboxing gym, and then to a Muay Thai class. There were a lot of ripped guys with their shirts off there, so Nico didn't mind watching them spar and work out. He met Commodus' gym bros, who were all massive and intimidating buff dudes. Nico wondered what sort of supernatural backgrounds they came from, and whether it would matter to his research.
Commodus's ultimate vengeance happened when he forced Nico to play racquetball against him. Commodus was a vicious competitor, and his sheer physical strength and skill was several times greater than what Nico had to offer. Nico didn't even know the rules, but he knew better than to push his luck by refusing to play.
Starting out, while Nico was getting familiar with the basic skills of the game, Commodus whispered in his ear that if he didn't make an effort to pose a challenge, he'd make Nico spar him in kickboxing next. That was just a veiled way to describe beating him to a pulp, so Nico picked up the skills a lot faster after that.
They played for four brutal hours. Nico couldn't count how many times he'd slid on the floor and slammed into the walls before Commodus said he was done. But afterwards, Commodus helped him up and gave him a water bottle.
“You weren't as terrible as I expected,” Commodus said, slapping Nico on the back really hard. “I think we should play racquetball every day from now on!”
A gaggle of gym bros had been there cheering him, and they all went up to the roof to drink beer and eat pizza together. Nico slunk off to a corner to work on his notes for a while. When Commodus had insisted on watching him, he'd worried he wouldn't get the chance to update them, but it turned out that as long as he wasn't trying to assassinate Commodus, he couldn't be less concerned with what Nico was doing.
He read back what he'd noted so far and added new points. Commodus was very athletic and competitive; he'd known that from his research. He was obviously the least insane of the triumvirate emperors. Whether he was insane at all was up for debate; Nico hadn't seen much sign of it. Commodus seemed like he enjoyed playing sports and hanging out with his buddies. There was no hint of a motive for him to work for Gaea.
Nico didn't doubt that Nero and Caligula were in league with her, but why would Commodus go along with it? Why did he work with the two of them at all? They seemed to be very different people with different priorities. Commodus must have ambitions that Nico hadn't yet learned about.
After it grew dark, Commodus gave Nico a significant look. They picked up Alabaster and returned to the park.
The next day was similar, and the next, and the next. Gym, pizza, summoning, over and over for the next couple of weeks. Nico summoned senators from the list as requested, and they never brought up summoning Marcus again. The benefit of the routine was that Nico and Commodus grew comfortable with each other, and each became less scared of the other trying to kill them. Nico wasn't naive enough to forget what Commodus was capable of, but he felt himself growing to like him in spite of everything. He chipped away at the emperor in bits and pieces, convincing him to reveal info about his mortal life and his feelings about Triumvirate Holdings and the other emperors, but he got no closer the the iPad password. Nico felt like he was making more progress on learning to like his new job than he was at fulfilling his true mission. Even worse, he was also starting to enjoy racquetball.
There was one odd thing Nico had noticed, and it was beginning to worry him. After summonings, and before the gym, Commodus often spent time working alone in his room. Alabaster typically went to sleep immediately, and Nico almost always put some time into working on his notes, even if he was only noting what ancient Roman ghost he'd summoned or what passwords he'd tried in the iPad earlier. Every night for the last week, he'd fallen asleep on the couch before he'd typed more than a handful of words.
It was weird. He'd never needed much sleep, and summonings usually energized him, so he wasn't sure what was wrong with him. Demigods were immune to most illnesses, but he wondered if he'd picked up a bug somewhere. He mentioned it to Alabaster, who suggested it was withdrawals from being away from the Underworld for so long.
That theory made sense to Nico. One of the reasons he wasn't used to sleeping much was because the magic of the Underworld gave him enough energy that he didn't need it; at least, he'd always assumed that was the reason. It disturbed him to think that he would grow less powerful over time if he didn't visit. The concern prompted him to text his dad about it.
He hadn't totally ignored Hades over the last few months. He'd texted once, a few days before his reassignment, asking whether he'd left his sunglasses on his bookshelf. He hadn't, but Hades had asked him how things were going, and he'd said they were fine. It wasn't exactly a heart to heart, but he hoped Hades knew there were no hard feelings on his end. It was simply time for him to leave the nest, and he was okay with that. Mostly, anyway.
He asked about the sleeping thing, but Hades responded that he had no idea whether Alabaster's theory was correct. The only way to find out was for Nico to go home, but neither of them brought that up.
“Is it true that you are at TH?” Hades texted him.
“How did you know?”
“Godstagram,” Hades said. “Be careful.”
He didn't say anything more. Nico checked Godstagram and saw that Commodus had posted Nico to a long series of Godstagram stories. One of his gym bros must have put a racquetball highlight reel together for him, and Nico was in all of the videos. In one, he got smashed in the face with a racquet, which said a lot about what Commodus considered a highlight.
Nico's phone buzzed with a text that shocked him; it was from Apollo.
“STAY AWAY FROM COMMODUS,” the text said.
“Why?” Nico texted back. Before Apollo could respond, Nico's eyes closed. He fell sideways on the couch, fast asleep, his phone falling from his hand and dropping to the floor.
Chapter 34: Airsickness
Chapter Text
“Get up, it's leg day!” Commodus shouted. Nico blinked awake to the familiar sound of the blender roaring in the kitchen.
He rubbed his eyes groggily, then glanced down and saw his phone lying on the floor. He picked it up and saw that Apollo had never responded to his question. Useless, he thought, putting it in his pocket.
Alabaster walked out of the bathroom, drying his hair with a towel. Commodus ignored him, heading over to the couch to sit next to Nico.
“You ought to start drinking these,” he said, waving his protein shake at him. “Then your racquetball swing might not look so much like a twig waving in the breeze.”
“I'm good,” Nico said. He watched Commodus drink his stinky shake with disgust. He'd asked him before why he drank them when he was a god and had a perfect physique no matter what, but Commodus said he just didn't didn't understand the Alpha mindset.
Alabaster went to the front door and grabbed their breakfast. They had to order delivery if they ever wanted to eat, since Commodus only stocked the place with olives. He handed Nico his breakfast sandwich and they ate in silence.
Commodus got up to add more olives to his shake, and Nico leaned over to Alabaster.
“I'm sure there's something wrong with me. Yesterday I fell asleep so fast that my phone fell out of my hand. That's not normal.”
“Did you not notice me passing out in like, three seconds flat?” Alabaster said, his mouth full of bagel. “We're being run ragged all day, every day. I'm barely able to keep my eyes open.”
Alabaster had spent a lot of time doing errands during the day lately, not just for Commodus, but for Nero, too. Nico wouldn't be surprised if a promotion was headed his way soon, because he seemed to be trusted with some high level tasks. He should probably ask more about what he was doing, but Alabaster still wasn't Nico's biggest fan, so he doubted he'd get anywhere with it.
“This is just what life in the city is like, dude,” Alabaster said. “Get over it.”
Maybe Nico was overthinking things, but something still felt wrong about the whole situation.
Commodus insisted that they summon the dead during the day because he had a meeting with Nero at three, after which he wanted to hit the gym. That meant that this was the earliest they'd ever done their ritual, and Central Park was packed with people. It was a hot summer day, and Nico had to clear out a bunch of tourists from their spot by marching over and emanating dread near them.
Alabaster hid their little group with mist and they prepared the pit as usual. After the first week or so, the carriage ride company had grown suspicious about the missing horses, so they'd had to resort to stealing dogs and sacrificing them instead.
Today's victim was a brindle mastiff named Misty. Nico tried not to look into her eyes when he sacrificed her, because she reminded him too much of Cerberus. He'd have given anything to see the three headed monster dog. He even missed his terrible breath that made him want to vomit.
He was distracted from his sad thoughts when Commodus suddenly announced, “I want to see Marcia.”
Nico and Alabaster made surprised eye contact. Marcia had been Commodus's lover when he'd died. She'd tried to poison him and failed, and she'd sent a hit man to strangle him in the bath shortly after her first attempt. Commodus had actually added her to the list under the note, “Do not want to see!!!”
“Okay,” Nico said, not sure what to make of the sudden request. Something must have changed for him.
He summoned Marcia and cleared all other shades from the pit. She climbed out of the hole on her own and stared Commodus down. She was a very pretty Roman woman in an elegant dress, and she had an alert and intelligent look in her eyes despite being dead. She didn't seem the least bit surprised or intimidated at seeing her deified ex after thousands of years.
“I knew it would be my turn eventually,” she said, looking at him with amusement and putting a hand on her hip. “Go ahead and do your worst. You can't hurt me now.”
“I never hurt you,” he said. “You were the one who hurt me. You murdered me.”
“You were going to murder me first!”
“Because I knew you were going to murder me if I didn't murder you first! You-- Forget it,” he said, cutting himself off. “We both know what happened. I just want you to know that I hate you. I still hate you, and I'll always hate you, and if I had the power to hurt you now I'd torture you for the rest of eternity. I'd chuck you in Tartarus and laugh as the monsters devoured you.”
“Funny, I feel the exact same way about you,” she said.
“But I don't care. I'm a god, and you're nobody. I'll live forever. I'll curse your name until the world is destroyed and the universe ends. I'm starting a new empire, you know. One named for me-- Commodianapolis,” he said, grinning and gesturing with his hands like he was making a grand announcement. “And I'll ensure my people use your name in place of the word traitor forevermore!”
“Good. I hope you do,” she said. “I like the idea of being remembered forever. I always feared being forgotten. I told you that once, but I don't think you were listening. You only ever heard what you wanted to hear.”
Commodus was red with rage, but it was an impotent rage.
“In that case, I'll just forget you! I'll strike your name from history,” he snapped. “I'll make it illegal to speak the name Marcia!”
“Go ahead. Sounds good,” she said.
“Stop it,” he said quickly. “Stop playing games with me, woman! You're messing with my mind just like you always did!”
“You make it too easy,” she smirked.
Commodus rushed her, knocking her to the ground. He slammed into the dirt with a hard thud, and she hit with a very soft whoosh of air.
Nico was on both of them before Commodus had time to try to hurt her further. Nico grabbed Marcia and sent her back to the Underworld instantly.
“What did you do!” Commodus screamed in his face. “I had her!” He took a swing at Nico, but it passed through him harmlessly.
“Yelling is one thing,” Nico said. “But I won't let you attack my shades. They're entitled to a peaceful afterlife, and I'm not going to let you interfere with it.” He spoke calmly and coldly, certain he'd die on this hill if he had to. Seeing a shade pushed around like that made him feel deeply disturbed. He wasn't capable of letting it slide, not even a little, not even for a second.
“Who do you think you are to deny me what I want?” Commodus yelled. He literally couldn't touch Nico, and it seemed to be making him go insane with frustration. “These aren't your shades, you're just a demigod! You don't matter to anyone! No one cares what you do! You don't have responsibilities to anyone but me, and I'm ordering you to let me hurt her!”
“You can't hurt a shade. They won't feel any pain. You're just offending her dignity, and my father's. And it ends here,” Nico said. “If you've got a problem with that, I'll call my dad and let him explain it to you.”
“You said you cut ties with him,” Commodus said, glaring with suspicion. Alabaster also glared.
“I told you, Commodus,” Alabaster muttered. “We can't trust him. He's still loyal to his father.”
“What was that?” Nico said, shocked that Alabaster and Commodus had been talking about him behind his back. “This isn't about Hades,” Nico clarified. “He really cut me off and threw me out. But this is bigger than me and him. This is – I don't even know how to explain it. It's the laws of life and death we're messing with. If we don't respect those, everything else falls apart.”
“You're a hypocrite and you make no sense,” Alabaster said. “You're trying to resurrect your sister! So the laws don't apply to you, but they apply to everyone else?”
“Why are you taking his side?” Nico snapped at Alabaster. “You were born in the Underworld, you should know better! Occasional resurrections are established to be permissible under extenuating circumstances! That's not the issue here! Commodus,” he said, turning back to his furious boss. “I'm trying to help you. You really, really don't want to offend my dad by breaking these rules, okay? Please trust me. Don't try to hurt shades. Use your words from now on.”
Commodus glanced at the entrance to the Underworld concealed within the rock nearby.
“I don't believe you,” he said. “You're not trying to help me. Your loyalty is to your father after all. You're just a traitor. You're a Marcia!” He said, pointing. “Marcia, Marcia, Marcia! Now quit being a wispy freak and let me hit you!”
“I'm not a Marcia,” Nico pleaded. “I'm trying to save you from getting in trouble, that's all.” He looked at the entrance to the Underworld. It would be so perfect if his dad stormed out and smacked Commodus around a little just then, but no such luck.
Suddenly, there was a noise of paws on stone. Cerberus leapt out of the entrance, barking, snarling and slobbering.
“Told you Hades would be angry with you,” Nico said, thrilled to see Commodus actually looking frightened. Cerberus leaned down on his front legs, growling at Commodus.
Nico threw himself in front of Cerberus. His breath was just as horrible as he remembered.
“Down, boy, don't hurt him,” Nico said. “He won't do it again.” He tried to make a show of protecting Commodus from the vicious beast, but Cerberus kept licking him and making him laugh, which made Commodus get over his fear quickly.
“Alright, I get it,” Commodus said with annoyance. “No hitting the shades. Fuck this, I have a meeting to get to,” he scoffed. “This was a stupid idea anyway. Talking to Marcia never got me anywhere when she was alive. I'm not sure why I thought it would go better now.”
Nico breathed a huge sigh of relief.
“I missed you, boy,” he whispered to Cerberus, petting all three of his heads and kissing his middle nose. “Tell Papa thank you for me, okay?”
Cerberus trotted back into the stone and returned to the Underworld. Commodus was already calling the car. Alabaster hung back, staring at the stone and frowning.
“Fuck you,” Nico said. “If you'd backed me up, that would have been fine. What's your problem?”
“Oh, sorry, were you under the impression we were besties?” Alabaster shoved him, hard. Nico shoved him back.
“Nico!” Commodus yelled. “Get over here!”
Nico followed him, shooting a look back at Alabaster. He got into the car with Commodus, sitting across from him.
Commodus set his phone on the seat beside him, sighed, then jabbed a foot out, hitting Nico square in the chest. The air rushed out of his lungs, and he struggled to breathe for a few seconds. Commodus pushed his foot into his chest hard enough that his ribs felt like they'd crack, but after a few seconds, he withdrew it.
“If you ever interfere with my business again, it won't end well for you. And if I ever find out you and your father are in communication, I'll rip your organs out through your nostrils like a fucking pharaoh,” Commodus said.
“Every horse, rat, and cat we sacrifice is a direct dial to Pluto. Did you forget that? We've been communicating with him on a daily basis for weeks. You were doing it long before I came into the picture. But fuck me for trying to keep you in his good books, I guess. I know what his bad ones are like. You don't want to go there,” Nico said. “Trust me.”
“I don't trust anyone.” Commodus said bitterly
“I've noticed,” Nico said.
They sat in silence for a moment, then he asked, “What does it take to change that?”
“What are you talking about?” Commodus asked, seeming thrown off by the question.
“This isn't Roman politics,” Nico said. “I'm not involved with your TH corporate drama. I'm just your ghost guy. If you can't trust your necromancer, who can you trust?”
“No one,” Commodus said. “I said that already.” But he looked at Nico a little differently.
“You know exactly what I want from you,” Nico said. “I was upfront with you from the beginning. Why are you so convinced I'm up to some nefarious purpose?”
Commodus shook his head and said nothing.
They stopped in front of the TH tower, and the doors automatically unlocked. Commodus didn't move a muscle, so Nico waited for him.
“You want to know why I have trust issues?” Commodus asked. “I'll tell you. When I was a kid, my favorite god was Apollo.”
“Oh,” Nico said. He felt the weight of his phone in his pocket, suddenly thinking of Apollo's unprompted, unexplained message.
“He wasn't the most popular god in Rome by a longshot,” Commodus said. “Everyone was into Mars back then. Or Hercules, or Jupiter. But I was an Apollo kid. Statues, mosaics-- Couldn't get enough. I used to have this fantasy where I was a gladiator, and I fought another gladiator. He wore golden armor that shone like the sun. And we fought to a draw, and he told me I was the best fight he'd ever had. And he would reveal his true face,” Commodus smiled, but there was pain behind his smile. “And he was perfect.”
“You were a fanboy,” Nico said.
“Given my status, I'd always hoped he'd check me out one day. And when I was sixteen, he showed up in the guise of one of my friends. He seduced me and revealed his true identity. It was the happiest I've ever been.”
“You slept with Apollo?” Nico said.
“He'd probably tell you it was a fling, but we were lovers for years. He was everything to me. We used to say that when I became a god, we'd be together for real. I thought I'd found somebody who'd have my back. Who'd love me for who I was and not for who they wanted me to be. Who could never die and leave me.”
“That sounds...” Nico said. He didn't finish. It sounded like everything he'd ever wanted.
“When I was nineteen, the day I became emperor, he left me, like gods always do. Part of me hoped I'd be different, but I wasn't. Then I was stuck being emperor, which sucked. When Marcia poisoned me, and I knew it might be the end, my only solace was that I'd become a god. I'd get to see him again, and maybe we'd get another chance to be together.”
“And then?”
“That first poison failed to kill me. I was sweating it out in the baths when this massive guy came in and started strangling me. I wasn't expecting Marcia to be quite so determined, but it wasn't really that shocking. Then my attacker looked at me. He looked straight into my eyes, and I saw who he was.”
“Who?”
“It was Apollo,” Commodus said. “Apollo killed me.”
Nico stared at him in silence. Commodus's phone buzzed.
“Time for the meeting,” he said, exiting the car.
Nico followed him inside in stunned silence the whole way.
“Get him out of here,” Nero said the second he saw Nico walk into the conference room.
“He's with me,” Commodus said.
“He has Olympian connections,” Nero said. “He's a demigod of prophecy. We can't trust him.”
“He's the best necromancer alive, and I'm not settling for anyone else,” Commodus snapped. “Drop it.”
Nico sat on a bench in front of the window and tried to focus on the meeting, but it was difficult to keep his mind from racing. Knowing what Apollo had done to him, all of Commodus's motivations were suddenly clear. Nico was dead certain now that Commodus had supported Kronos, too. How could he resist helping anyone who promised to bring down Olympus? If Nico were in his shoes, he'd have done the exact same thing.
Nero turned on a large TV screen and connected his computer, which was showing a Zoom window. Caligula dialed into the meeting, and his face popped up on the massive screen, taking up almost the entire wall.
“Shall we begin?” Nero said.
“No,” Caligula said firmly.
“We're starting,” Nero snapped.
“Fred is still in the waiting room,” Caligula snapped back.
Nero began muttering to himself.
“Just let the fucking horse join the meeting,” Commodus snapped. “I'm missing Krav Maga for this.”
Nero clicked on his computer, and a familiar brown and white horse appeared in a new Zoom window.
“That's better,” Caligula said primly. “So, you should know, the cyclopes haven't made any progress on our order.”
“What?” Nero and Commodus both shouted in unison.
“No way,” Commodus said. “I'm going down there to crack some skulls.”
“Inadvisable,” Caligula said. “Neptune tasked the little mermaid with supervising me. Apparently verbal abuse is frowned upon in the Cyclopean forges,” he said, rolling his eyes.
“No wonder they're not making progress,” Nero said. “Look, I don't care if Triton doesn't like it. We need our onagers on time and made to spec. Make it happen.”
“I'm trying, but Neptune is suspicious, and Triton keeps grilling me about what they're for. He doesn't believe our cover story.”
“We never agreed on a cover story,” Commodus said.
“I made it up on the spot. It was a brilliant cover, if I do say so myself,” he grinned. “I said they're for a horse theme park ride.”
Commodus started laughing. Nero slammed the computer shut, and the screen went black.
“This buffoon is going to ruin everything,” Nero said. “This is why they say if you want something done right, do it yourself. We're going to the forges and we're getting this order moving. Tonight.”
“We're? We're not doing anything,” Commodus said. “I don't have time for a business trip to the bottom of the ocean right now. It's leg day. And I've been making progress on my shade summonings.”
“I could not possibly care less about your legs or your ghost taunting hobby,” Nero said. “It's the twenty first century, move on. Your real enemies aren't in the Underworld.”
Commodus grumbled. Nero stormed out of the room.
Nico wanted to ask about Apollo, but he didn't want to push too hard, too fast. Instead he went up to the triangular table and perched on the corner of it.
“What's an onager?” He asked.
Commodus rolled his eyes.
“You don't know basic weapons of war? What do they teach you at Camp Jupiter?”
“I'm a Greek demigod,” Nico said. “I went to Camp Half-Blood.”
“No wonder you don't know anything,” Commodus said, smirking. “So, I had this idea. Is there a way to trap shades in a big cage?”
“No,” Nico said.
“You could do it,” Commodus said, his voice cajoling. “Come on.”
“What would you do with them? Build the Commodianapolis Ghost Zoo?”
Nico had been being sarcastic, but Commodus' eyes lit up.
“What's up with Commodianapolis, anyway?” Nico asked, although he felt it was pretty self explanatory.
“Just a project I've been working on. It will be my primary seat of rule, my sacred city, where the streets are paved with gold and my face is on the money. I have sketches. Wanna see them?”
“Maybe later.”
“By the way, you're coming on this trip,” Commodus said. “I'm not leaving you behind to get up to mischief. And there's dirt and dogs in California, so maybe we'll get a few summonings in. Tell Alabaster to pack my things and meet us downstairs; we'll take a car to the airport.”
“Airport?” Nico said, heart racing.
“What, afraid of flying?”
“Who, me? No,” Nico said, “Of course not. Um, we don't really need Alabaster for this, do we?” he added.
“I need him,” Commodus said. “You worried about him shoving you out of the plane midair?”
Now he was. Nico shivered.
“Are you sure you trust him?” Nico asked.
“He's loyal.”
“You almost smashed his skull in a few weeks ago. You really think he'll be loyal to you after that?”
“The kid used to work for Kronos. That was nothing to him,” Commodus laughed.
Soon, way too soon for Nico's taste, they boarded a private jet labeled with a giant TH logo and took off for California. Nico tried his best to hide the crippling fear he felt the moment the wheels left the ground, but he didn't hide it well enough. After a few minutes of gritting his teeth and digging his fingernails into the armrest, Nero came and sat beside him.
Without a word, he reached over and raised the window cover. Nico accidentally got a glimpse of the clouds below them, and the wide open sky, and broke out in a cold sweat.
“Nice day out, isn't it,” Nero grinned, relishing Nico's fear. Nico came very close to shadow traveling back to the ground, but he knew it would spell the end of his employment with TH. He hoped Hera was grateful for all he was suffering.
Nico stared at the floor between his shoes.
“I love flying,” Nero said. “I love the clouds and seeing the buildings so small down on the ground. Technology these days is incredible, isn't it? We're able to be suspended over thirty thousand feet in the air, moving more than five hundred miles an hour. Marvelous, isn't it? Do you fly often?”
“Not really,” Nico muttered.
One of the flight attendants, who appeared to be a type of air nymph, offered them glasses of champagne. Nico downed it quickly and grabbed another, desperate to calm his nervous system before he actually had a panic attack in front of Nero.
“Go tell the pilot I'm in the mood for a little turbulence,” Nero told the attendant. “And ask if he does loops. Is that a thing?”
He strolled away after enjoying Nico's suffering for a little longer. Needing a distraction, Nico moved to sit next to Commodus.
Alabaster was watching a movie in the next row with headphones in, and Nero had pulled one of the flight attendants onto his lap and was trying to get the others to start dancing for him. It seemed like as good a time as any to do a little more investigating.
Commodus seemed to be in a grumpy mood. He was slouched down with his iPad watching sports highlight videos, and his expression was sour.
“What's up?” Nico asked.
“I hate that we have to make this trip. Caligula is an idiot. And dealing with Neptune and his people is always a nightmare. You'll see.”
“Mhm,” Nico said. “So, about what you told me in the car--”
“There's nothing more to tell about it,” Commodus snapped.
“I get it if you don't want to give details, but something must have happened between you two to make things go so badly. I've met Apollo, and he was a total jerk. But gods don't normally go out of their way to personally assassinate mortals if they haven't wronged them somehow.”
“I never did anything to offend him, if that's what you're asking. I never stopped making offerings to him.”
“Did you ever ask him why he did it?”
“I'd kill him on sight,” Commodus snarled. “I'd burn the world down to get to him. Also, he avoids me.”
“I see why,” Nico said.
“In Commodianapolis, I'll force everyone to worship me and perform sacrifices,” he said, his mood lightening at the thought. “We'll expand our borders and take over America. Then, we'll bring down Olympus. I'll rip it out of the sky if I have to.”
“You know, when you first brought up Commodianapolis, I was skeptical. But I understand your reasons now. Maybe it could work. If Olympus was substantially weakened,” Nico added casually.
He watched Commodus' smile grow.
“Wouldn't that be covenient,” Commodus said, trying to sound casual about it.
Nico nodded. He had heard more than enough to understand Commodus and what he wanted. All he needed now was evidence of the link to Gaea, and some info on her plans.
“Can I look at those sketches you mentioned?”
Nico watched Commodus log into his iPad wistfully. He needed the data on that tablet.
Commodus always used his thumbprint to unlock it. Like most gods, Commodus didn't need to sleep, and Nico had never seen him do it. It probably wasn't considered Alpha behavior. For that reason, borrowing his thumbprint while he was sleeping wasn't an option.
Luckily, Commodus wasn't very creative, as the sketches of Commodianapolis illustrated clearly. Whatever he'd picked for a password was probably something obvious and personal. Nico had a gut feeling he could figure it out if he put his mind to it.
He looked at the sketches. Most of them were little cartoon drawings of Commodus in his Hercules outfit standing over a crowd of stick people.
While he scrolled, the flight attendants brought them over more glasses of champagne, and handed Commodus a jar of olives. He immediately poured his champagne into the olive juice and started drinking it like a cocktail, which Nico watched in fascinated horror.
“Do you know Hercules well?” Nico asked when he tore his eyes away and looked back at the pictures.
“He takes my calls sometimes,” Commodus said proudly. “Since you're so interested in deification, I'm surprised you didn't try to talk to him about it already.”
“Who says I haven't?”
“You'd have given up if you did,” Commodus said. “That was one of the only topics I could get him to chat with me about. He has some weird theories. He makes a pretty good case for them, I'll admit.”
“Like what?” Nico asked.
“Well, basically, he thinks gods are born, not made,” Commodus said. “That the fates spin us our golden threads long before we're born, and we just walk the paths they lay out before us until we realize our destiny. Maybe he's right, but anytime anybody brings up the fates, my brain kind of shuts down. I never understood any of that.”
“I don't either,” Nico said. “But being destined to become a god isn't the same thing as being born a god. Hercules was a demigod like me once.”
“Or was he?” Commodus said. “He thinks he was always different and just didn't notice for a while.”
“I mean, you can convince yourself of anything in hindsight, I guess,” Nico said skeptically. “What about you? You were mortal once.”
“I have a different theory. I think being worshipped is what makes you become a god. I started proclaiming myself a god while I was alive-- Well, I actually claimed I was the reincarnated Hercules, which he had a long talk with me about-- That's not my point. My point is, all the announcements and rituals at my official deification ceremony-- I think they were just a formality. I'm dead certain I was already a god before I died.”
“What made you so sure?”
“I started bleeding ichor,” Commodus said casually.
Nico choked on a mouthful of champagne and started coughing. Before he could respond, the plane dipped dramatically in the sky and twisted to the left, and he tumbled out of his seat and slammed into the back of Alabaster's.
Commodus sighed.
“They let Nero into the cockpit again,” he said. “You might want to put your seatbelt on.”
Chapter 35: The Little Mermaid
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Nico held onto his seat for dear life for a few minutes and tried to be brave as the plane shook, but after too many loops and mid-air drops, he turned to Commodus, gritting his teeth.
“I'm not doing this,” he said. “Tell me where to meet you.”
“Are you kidding? I'm coming too,” Commodus said. He showed Nico the address in San Francisco, and Nico grabbed his hand and shadow traveled there with him. They arrived in the shadow of a large red brick building called the Argonaut Hotel. It was next to a yacht marina, and the Golden Gate Bridge was visible in the distance, partially hidden by a bank of fog.
“You forgot Alabaster,” Commodus said, dropping his hand immediately.
“Fuck Alabaster! Who cares?” Nico said. He immediately felt a massive sense of relief at having his feet on the earth, but he was furious with Nero and on the edge of a panic attack at the ichor thing, so he wasn't in the mood to think about his annoying coworker.
“You can't speak to me like that!” Commodus shouted. “I-- Hang on.” He read a text message. “Caligula wants us to meet for dinner. I guess Nero can join when he gets here.”
The restaurant they were meeting in required suits and ties, but fortunately, Commodus could magically dress them appropriately with a wave of his hand.
“See, that's not something you could do before you died, right?” Nico swallowed. “Only gods do stuff like that? Create things out of nothing?”
“I guess,” Commodus said, shrugging. “Being emperor, I got whatever I wanted all the time anyway, so it wasn't a big change.”
That eased Nico's mind a little, but he was still reeling. It was impossible, right? He was just a demigod. Why would he be a god when there was no reason for him to be?
The restaurant was a very fancy Italian place, and their party had been seated in a private room in the back. Caligula was sitting at the head of the table wearing a sailor suit, in defiance of the dress code, and he had a horse sitting next to him, in defiance of every health code on the planet. A pair of waiters stood at the ready against the wall holding bottles of wine with little white cloths on their arms.
Caligula acted thrilled to see Commodus, although Commodus didn't share the sentiment, and returned his hugs and kisses with reluctance.
“Let's get this over with,” Commodus said, sitting across from Caligula at the circular table. Nico took a seat next to him and grabbed a piece of bread out of the basket on the table. He needed to eat, he reminded himself. Gods didn't eat unless they felt like it. He was definitely a plain old normal demigod.
To double check, he looked at the piece of bread and tried to will it to turn into an Oreo cookie. Nothing happened. He ate the bread and tried to stop obsessing, but it was impossible to get out of his head.
“Um, I have to make a call,” he said. He slipped a steak knife into his pocket, got out of his seat and walked out to the bathrooms. Neither emperor even noticed him leaving.
There was no one in the bathroom, which smelled like lemons and was full of pictures of Frank Sinatra and the Leaning Tower of Pisa. He slid the knife out of his pocket and made a small cut on the pad of his thumb. It still bled golden ichor, just like it always had. His stomach dropped at the sight.
He looked at his own face in the mirror. He still looked the same as he did the day he woke up from his ambrosia coma; nothing weird about that. He didn't feel special or powerful, he just felt like Nico.
He ran his thumb under the water and stepped into the narrow, dimly lit hallway, taking out his phone. He stood just outside the bathroom door and called the only person he knew to call.
“Hi, Hecate,” Nico said. “It's me.”
“Nico! I haven't heard from you in ages,” she said. He could hear her cauldron bubbling and her dogs barking in the background. “What are you up to? I heard you're working at TH now?”
“Summer internship,” Nico said.
“Be careful with those guys. They can be dangerous,” she said. “I've been brewing my potions, making amulets, the usual. Artemis asked about you the last time I dropped off an order, but all I knew to tell her was that apparently you're into racquetball now. Is there a reason you called? I'm assuming you don't just want to chat?”
“I-- I don't even know how to ask this. It's going to sound so stupid,” he said, tripping over his words. “Do you remember when my dad and I visited that first time? And he asked you why my blood was golden?”
“Yes,” she said.
“Um. Were you being completely honest with us about that? Because it feels like that should have worn off by now. It's been years since I drank that ambrosia. And it's still happening.”
“Um, Nico,” she said. “I'm sorry if I gave you the impression it was only temporary, but there's a chance it might be permanent. I'm not experienced with healing ambrosia overdoses, and between me, Persephone, and Nyx, we were trying to figure it out as best we could.”
“Wait, Nyx? Nyx helped heal me too? Did I know that?”
“Well, she weighed in on the process,” Hecate corrected herself. “It was mostly me and my potions, obviously. Persephone did her herbs. We work well together.”
“Sure, whatever,” Nico said, running a hand through his hair anxiously. “But... You're saying... What are you saying?”
“I'm saying I'm sorry you thought it could go away, but you've permanently stained your blood,” she said. “I can see how that could cause some confusion if someone else sees it and jumps to conclusions. I really don't want to apologize again, though. I did my best, and I think some gratitude is in order.”
“No, of course,” Nico said quickly. “Yeah, it's caused some confusion, but it's really okay. I didn't mean to make you feel like I'm not grateful.”
“Just try not to bleed, I guess,” she said. “I don't know what else to tell you. And you know what, I've got to go, something's come up.”
“Sorry,” Nico said quickly, but she was already gone. He sighed heavily. He felt bad for bugging her; of course she'd done the best she could. He needed to stop overthinking things. He smiled, thinking about how ridiculous a thought it was. Him, a god? There was no way.
His phone buzzed with a text from Persephone.
“Everything good?” She asked.
“Fine,” he said. “Very busy with work. How is summer?”
“Good, also very busy,” she said. She sent a heart emoji, and he sent one back. It was nice to hear from her, and he'd needed the mood boost to get through the rest of the evening.
Feeling relieved, and slightly more positive, he started to walk back out to the table, when two men in suits brushed past him, bumping into his shoulder. There was a smell of fishy seawater in the air. It wasn't a particularly pleasant smell.
“Watch where you're going,” Nico said.
They both stopped and turned around. One of the men looked like he was in his forties, with wavy salt and pepper hair and green eyes. The other also had short dark hair, but was younger, with a mean look on his face. He had a necklace around his neck with a tiny conch shell hanging on it, visible because the top of his shirt was unbuttoned. The older man looked terribly familiar, but Nico couldn't place him.
“You watch where you're going,” the young man said, growing very angry very quickly. His eyes were a dark blue green, and they swirled with emotion.
The older man put a hand on his shoulder. He looked so familiar, and Nico kept looking at him and trying to figure out who he was. The man seemed to be doing the same thing to him, but he gave up and turned to the younger man.
“Focus, son. He's not worth it.”
They turned around and went into the bathroom. Nico hesitated in the hall, then he became invisible and followed them into the bathroom, passing through the wall invisibly.
As he suspected, they weren't actually using the bathroom, other than as a place to talk.
“Alright, remember your agenda points,” the dad said. “What were they?”
“New payment terms,” his son said, pacing back and forth with his hands in his pockets. “Push out delivery dates. And communication has to be done by an intermediary. Caligula has to go.”
“You forgot the first one,” his father said. “Relationship building. Remember, we have to keep their business. We can't walk away without a deal.”
“But we're not going to let them walk all over us!” His son insisted.
“You won't allow that,” his dad sighed. “Try not to look so angry, Triton, you'll scare them off.”
Nico hurried out of the bathroom and went back to the table, visible once more and reeling. Neptune and Triton were here, in this Italian restaurant, right now? He hadn't anticipated that.
Nero had arrived since he'd stepped out, and he'd brought a couple of the nymph flight attendants with him. They were flanking him at the table in skimpy dresses. Alabaster was sitting in his old seat, so Nico took one further from Commodus on his other side.
There were two empty seats at the table left, even though the emperors had all arrived. The servers were pouring the wine and setting out the aperitivo already.
“Since when is this a meeting with Neptune and Triton?” Nico asked. “I thought it was just dinner.”
Everyone stared at him in confusion except Caligula, who said, “Surprise! They cancelled the order and I convinced them to renegotiate tonight over meatballs!”
Nero and Commodus actually began yelling at him so loudly that the server ran out of the room. Nico hissed at them to stop.
“Guys, they're already here,” he said. “They'll walk in any second.”
The other two emperors glared daggers at Caligula, but relaxed slightly.
“I guess we might as well get it over with,” Commodus said.
“Neptune himself, huh?” Nero said, smirking. “It's not easy to get him out of Florida these days. They must really need our business.”
Neptune and Triton walked into the room. Nero took the lead, immediately greeting them and seating them between Nico and the horse, Fred.
Triton sat next to Nico and gave him a suspicious look. More wine was poured for everyone, and they did a brief set of introductions. Nico was just introduced as “the necromancer,” which he was fine with. He was hoping to pass under the radar tonight, enjoy some pasta, and avoid the drama that would inevitably occur before dessert.
The food started to come out in courses, and Triton was surly and spoke little, so Neptune led the conversation. It was hard for Nico to believe he was his dad's brother, because Neptune was outgoing, laughed easily, and seemed to have a fun personality. He put everyone at ease, at least as much as could be expected under the circumstances, and went on a long tangent about his invention of horses that had Caligula and Fred hanging on his every word.
“I didn't catch your name, young necromancer,” he said, ruining Nico's serene moment of pasta-eating contentment.
“Nico di Angelo,” he said.
“Oh,” he raised his eyebrows. “No wonder you looked so familiar. I've seen you before.”
“You saw my racquetball highlight video, huh?” Commodus said smugly. “Yeah, I've been told I could go pro, but I'm actually too good. Don't want to make the others quit in shame, you know?”
“I've actually not watched that,” Neptune said. “I've been aware of Nico since the 1930's.”
He didn't need to elaborate for Nico to understand what he meant. Maria di Angelo was the reason Hades stopped talking to his brothers. Nico wondered how Neptune felt about that, but he didn't want to dig into a heavy topic at a crowded table.
“Tell me, Nico, what do you think of Italian American food?” Neptune asked him with a warm smile. “I've grown quite fond of it since we settled here in the US.”
Nico was relieved he'd changed the subject to something neutral.
“I try to avoid it. I've heard bad things,” Nico said. “But this place is okay.”
“I should hope so, for what we're paying,” Nero said.
“Speaking of money,” Triton said loudly. “Can we start talking about the blue whale in the room?”
“Well, I guess now we have to,” Neptune sighed. “Go ahead, son.”
“Fred says he's not sure we want to buy anything from you at this point,” Caligula said, stirring ice cubes into his wine with his finger.
“Fred's not calling the shots here,” Nero said firmly.
“Funny, because I was told he was on the board of directors,” Triton said, frowning at the horse. “So here's my thoughts. If, hypothetically, the Cyclopes wanted to try to fill the order for the onagers after all, a few things would have to change. Firstly, payment terms. We want payment up front.”
“No way, absolutely not,” Nero said.
“I did some research and it sounds as though you still haven't paid the shipbuilders for the Princess Andromeda. That was years ago,” Triton said. “How can we trust you to pay us?”
“That ship had an issue with the structural integrity of the hull that caused a total system failure, and there is a lawsuit pending,” Nero said. “That's completely irrelevant to this discussion.”
“That total system failure was named Percy Jackson, and I'll thank you not to diminish his accomplishments,” Neptune said firmly.
“Although the shipwreck did poison some coral,” Triton muttered. “Anyway. We're still insisting on payment up front.”
“Half, or no deal,” Nero said.
“No, we want--” Triton started to say, but Neptune spoke over him, saying, “Deal.”
Triton turned red, but he didn't say anything, just poked at his food angrily for a second.
“Fine,” he said. “Next, delivery. The cyclopes can't make delivery by spring. They need ten to twelve months, preferably twelve. They said they definitely can't budge on that.”
“They were supposed to be ready in six months,” Nero said. “We can't give more than eight.”
“Eight is fine,” Neptune said.
“The cyclopes are already working at max capacity,” Triton insisted. “The forges run all day and night.” Nico saw him gripping his fork so hard the metal bent in half. “Working any faster requires the baby cyclopes to work double shifts, and I can't ask them to do that.”
“No, you can tell them to do it,” Nero said, his mouth full of meatball. Meat pieces fell all over the tablecloth as he spoke. “I can tell you know nothing about management.”
“How dare you,” Triton said, standing. Neptune yanked him back down into his seat.
“He's new to the role, yes,” Neptune said. “I'm sure he can find a solution for the staffing issues. Now, on the subject of communication, I think we're all aware there have been issues. We want to resolve that.”
“Sure,” Nero shrugged. “We appreciate you taking over, Neptune. We're sick of receiving shoddy customer service from our old rep.”
“He is not taking over this account,” Triton said firmly. “I'm the sales manager of the Cyclopean forges, and I'm not going anywhere. He is the communication problem,” he said, jabbing his finger at Caligula. “And he's got to go, or there's no deal.”
“I don't have the bandwidth to help after this meeting,” Neptune said, stroking his beard and looking at his son nervously.
“And I don't have the bandwidth to take over for Caligula,” Nero said.
“I definitely don't,” Commodus said. “I'm training for a deadlift challenge with Hercules. I mean, he doesn't know about it yet, but when he checks his voicemail he'll definitely want to do it, so obviously I'm pretty busy.”
“I know!” Nero said, an evil gleam in his eye. He turned his gaze to Nico. Nico's blood ran cold.
“No,” he said. “Whatever it is, no.”
Nero acted like he didn't hear him.
“Nico can be our new buyer for the project! He'll handle all the details. He can even set up a little remote office down at the forges,” he grinned. “You know, down at the bottom of the sea. He can stay until the project is complete.”
Nico glanced at Commodus.
“I guess it's better than me going,” Commodus shrugged.
“Why can't Alabaster go?” Nico asked, panicked.
“If it's between him and you, it's you,” Commodus said. Alabaster gave him a smug look.
“You've got to have more people working for you than the two of us,” Nico said frustratedly.
“Look,” Triton said. “As long as he's not bringing a horse with him, I couldn't care less. Are we done? Is this a deal?”
“Deal,” Nero, Caligula, and Commodus all said in unison. They shook hands with Neptune, snubbing Triton and leaving him fuming.
The waiters brought out another course, and the table went back to normal conversation, leaving Nico reeling.
“The cyclopes are quite friendly,” Neptune told him cheerfully. “You'll like it down there. The light of the forges is quite beautiful at night.”
“With all due respect, Neptune, I'm just really not okay with being at the bottom of the ocean,” Nico said. “It's a phobia I have, it's nothing against you. Is there any way I can do the job remotely from New York?”
“No, sadly we have trouble getting internet that deep beneath the sea,” Neptune said. “You'd be cut off from phone, internet, and television service. But we do have our own forms of communication,” he said brightly. “We'll hook you up with a shell phone.”
“Can it call people on land?”
“Well, no.”
Nico set his fork down, losing his appetite. What was he going to do? He was supposed to be Hera's eyes and ears in TH. He'd come so close to getting the data she needed.
Neptune turned to Triton.
“You did a good job,” he said to him quietly.
“Don't patronize me,” Triton hissed. He threw his napkin down on his plate. “You know what? No. I changed my mind,” he said loudly. “No deal. Making weapons for you three to eventually use against us is bad enough, but I'm not making baby cyclopes work overtime to do it. And I'm not taking only half the payment up front. I know how you do business, and I know you'll tie us up in a lawsuit in order to delay payment indefinitely. We get cash up front, or we don't proceed.”
“Triton!” Neptune said firmly.
“Am I running this project? Or is this just another fake job like hornblower that you made up to keep me out of the way?” Triton asked Neptune. “I know I'm right about this. Can you just trust me for once?”
Neptune seemed torn between telling him what he wanted to hear, and keeping the deal they'd just made.
“Compromise is part of doing business sometimes, son,” Neptune said. His voice was gentle and incredibly patronizing.
Triton stormed out of the room, chased out by the laughter of the emperors. Neptune watched him go, looking concerned.
“Let me talk to him,” Nico whispered to Neptune. He ran out after Triton.
Triton was in the bathroom, washing his face in the sink. His skin was dark blue where the water hit it, but turned back to normal skin when the water dripped away. Nico went up to him cautiously.
“Hey,” he said.
“Don't come near me,” Triton said menacingly. “I don't want to talk about it.”
“Well, that's not very good customer service,” Nico said casually.
Triton made the sink explode, and Nico was suddenly soaked with water.
“Okay, I deserved that,” Nico said, shaking off his hands. “That was a bad joke. But I really need to talk to you. Confidentially. Can we do that?”
“Confidentially?” Triton asked. Spraying water at Nico had seemed to make him feel better, but his posture was still defensive. He folded his arms and glared. “Okay, fine. What?”
Nico dropped his voice to a whisper.
“I'm working an undercover investigation for Hera. Those onagers are almost definitely going to be resold to Gaea or one of her agents the second TH gets them.”
“I figured,” Triton said. “I didn't even want to take the order, but my father needs money fast. He's made some bad investments in beach resort franchises, and he's underwater-- and not in a good way. He wants a quick cash injection to get out of trouble before my mom finds out what he did. That's why he's willing to humiliate me in order to get what he wants.”
“I'm sorry about that. I wouldn't like getting treated that way either,” Nico said.
“It's one thing to sacrifice my pride to save my father's honor. I've done it before, and I'll do it again. But I can't sit back and watch the cyclopes get screwed on this. I'm tough on them, but at the end of the day, they're my family. I don't want them to work overtime and then not even get paid what they're owed. It's my job to protect them.”
“Here's the thing,” Nico said. “I think the emperors will pay anything to get Caligula out of their hair. The delivery date is non-negotiable, though. If the onagers aren't ready in time for the war, they may as well cancel the order. If you get your money up front, can you get the onagers in eight months?”
In exchange for dealing with Caligula?”
“He's horrible,” Triton said, making a face.
“Shove him in a back office with a shell phone,” Nico shrugged. “Do whatever it takes. Because I'm sorry, but I'm not going to the bottom of the ocean. I'd die first.”
Triton screwed up his face, thinking for a while.
“If delaying the order means they're just going to cancel it, then I guess there's no way to get what I really want. At least your way makes my father happy.”
“If you want to make him really happy, ask for more ten percent more in Caligula maintenance fees,” Nico said. “Trust me.”
Triton stared at Nico.
“You think they'll go for that?” He asked.
“Ask for fifteen if you want ten,” Nico said. “And yeah, they will. Okay? Let's make a deal.”
He walked back out with Triton and returned to the table.
“Alright,” Triton said. “We're starting over.”
“Triton, no,” Neptune said.
“Father, trust me,” Triton insisted. “Nico convinced me not to back out of the deal,” he told the emperors. “So, let's talk. I can get you the onagers in eight months.”
“Good,” Nero said. “Because that's our limit.”
“I understand. With that said, I need all the money up front.”
“I don't think so,” Commodus said, glancing at Nero.
“And I want fifteen percent more on top,” Triton added.
“Fuck you, no,” Nero said.
“You do that, and I'll let Caligula stay at the bottom of the ocean for the next eight months. I guess we'll work on our communication,” Triton said, glancing at him. Caligula winked at him, and he shuddered.
“Deal, deal, deal,” Commodus declared, smacking the table.
“No deal!” Nero said. “Ten percent. Fifteen is insane.”
“Done,” Triton said. “We have a deal, gentlemen.”
There was a round of handshaking. Neptune was clearly trying to contain his glee at the added fifteen percent, but he actually began giggling when Nero wrote out a check and handed it to him. He put an arm around Triton proudly.
Triton looked at Nico and mouthed, 'Thank you.' Nico smiled at him and went back to eating, grateful he wouldn't be spending the next eight months at the bottom of the ocean.
The group celebrated the new deal with lots of wine and dessert, and it was an enjoyable gathering until Nero's nymph friends tried to ride Fred the horse and he got spooked. After he'd trampled half the restaurant, their group hurried outside and went for a walk along the ocean.
Nico was happy with the way the evening had played out. As he watched the waves lap the shore, he thought about the experiences this job had given him. Some good and some not so good, but it had been a really interesting summer. It wouldn't be long until he found a way into the iPad and had everything he needed for Hera. He felt lucky that, despite all the warnings he'd received, things seemed to be working out well.
His good vibes were suddenly spoiled when Caligula suggested a yacht party to celebrate their rejuvenated business partnership. All too quickly, the group hurried off to the nearby yacht marina, boarded a massive and ostentatious yacht named the Julia Drusilla, and disembarked. It happened too fast for Nico to talk his way out of it.
He tried to hang around Neptune based on the vague notion that he'd be slightly safer from the ocean with someone who could control it. Thankfully, the yacht was on autopilot and Nero wasn't deliberately hitting choppy waves to torment him further.
“You were a great help today,” Neptune told him, pulling him aside. “You're really just a necromancer, Nico?”
“Yeah,” Nico said. “I didn't do much. Triton knows what he's doing, he just needed a little nudge.”
Neptune nodded, glancing back at his son thoughtfully.
“I have to get back and cash this check,” he said. “But it was interesting meeting you, Nico di Angelo.”
With that, he dove into the ocean.
Triton didn't hang around the yacht much longer before he was ready to go home, too, and as he dove into the water, he transformed into a two tailed merman with blue skin and a fin on his back. Nico waved goodbye to him and turned back to his employers. Now the gathering was evolving from a low key sunrise cruise to a booze brunch. It wasn't long before food and drink was summoned, stops were made to pick up more passengers, and nereids were crawling up the sides of the boat to avail themselves of the open bar.
Nico went to sit next to Alabaster, who looked exhausted and bored, which was typical for him. He was drinking coffee and smoking a cigarette in a secluded corner.
“How's it going?” Nico asked him.
“I know you're a spy,” Alabaster said calmly.
“I don't know what you're talking about,” Nico responded automatically.
“I followed you to the bathroom and listened in,” he said. “You're not the only one who uses magic to do sneaky shit.”
Nico didn't know how to respond to being called out, so he just said, “And?”
“And what?”
“Are you going to tell them?”
“Haven't decided,” Alabaster said.
“Haven't decided, or haven't gotten your orders from Gaea yet?” Nico asked calmly.
He hadn't been totally sure, and Alabaster had a good poker face, but he got lucky, and his opponent lost the staring contest. Nico had always been good at those.
“Tsk,” Alabaster scoffed. “You're not going to do anything about it.”
“And I guess neither are you,” Nico said. He played it cool, but he was reeling. He should have paid more attention to Alabaster, and he was annoyed with himself that he hadn't confirmed this sooner. “If you tell, I'll tell. We'll both be out of a job. Or dead. Commodus hates traitors.”
“Don't you mean Marcias?” Alabaster suggested. He smiled a little, and Nico laughed. Some of the tension between them dissipated. Alabaster offered him one of his cigarettes. “Here. A peace offering from one Marcia to another. Sounds like we have a truce.”
“Thanks,” Nico said, taking it and watching Alabaster carefully. “You know, I haven't smoked since the forties. My mom used to let me light her cigarettes for her, and I'd try them sometimes.”
“Sounds like mom of the year,” he said, raising his eyebrows.
“That was before they knew they were bad for you. She actually was a great mom.”
“Yeah? Tell me about her,” Alabaster said, scooting closer to Nico.
“I don't even know where to start,” Nico smiled. He loved talking about her more than any other subject. “She was just amazing. It's hard to describe her, really. She was so beautiful. She was always going to fancy parties, and she had a rule that she'd never wear the same dress twice. She had this natural elegance to the way she did things, and she was so funny and smart. Everyone around her was drawn to her like a magnet. She said once that she'd heard over a dozen different proposals of marriage before she met my dad. We were just kids, so of course we asked how he'd proposed, and she said she liked him so much that he didn't have to.”
“Uh huh.”
“She was rich, but she had friends from all different walks of life. I don't even know how she met some of them. One time we went to the park and there was a clown doing some kind of act for spare change. And she saw him and went right up and hugged him like they were best friends. I still don't know how she became friends with a clown.”
“You're lucky you can just summon her and ask.”
“One of the perks of being a necromancer,” Nico shrugged. “But I need to find time to actually do it. I've only talked to her once recently, and not for as long as I'd have liked. But I'll have time when I'm dead,” he said cheerfully.
He looked at Alabaster, who met his eyes with his piercing bright green ones.
“You're actually pretty cool, Nico,” Alabaster said.
“Thanks,” Nico said. “It's about time you actually tried getting to know me instead of just blindly hating me for no reason.”
“Heh. Maybe it is,” Alabaster said, taking a puff of his cigarette and blowing smoke out over the sea.
Was Nico losing his mind, or was Alabaster kind of slightly cute?
“Abalone! Get me a Diet Pepsi,” Nero shouted.
Alabaster rolled his eyes, smirking at Nico, then went over to the nearest cooler and started digging through the cans.
Nico scanned the yacht. It had two bars, a buffet, and a karaoke area that had appeared somehow since they'd set out a few hours ago. A DJ was playing dance music on one side, where there were clusters of satyrs and nymphs dancing together on a lit dance floor. The upper deck was roped off where the emperors were hanging out. Nico and Alabaster had been sitting near the stairs within earshot of them.
Nico strolled around the upper deck, observing the party on the lower level. He tried not to look at the view of the ocean that encircled him. It seemed to go on forever into vast blue nothingness, and it made him want to throw up.
“Hey, you,” a voice said softly.
Nico turned around to see who was speaking and immediately gasped. He was looking at the most gorgeous man he'd ever seen before in his life. He had flawless skin, wavy golden blonde hair, and bright honey colored eyes. His smile stood out as his best feature; it was wide and genuine. Even his teeth were like perfect little white squares in his mouth.
Nico was suddenly self-conscious of the fact that he'd just gasped out loud at this random man. He swallowed and tried to act normal, but it was impossible.
“I don't think we've met,” he said awkwardly.
“We have, but I guess you forgot about me,” the man said teasingly. He came up to Nico and rested his arms on the railing beside him. Their arms were a centimeter from touching, and that centimeter was suddenly the most exciting thing in the entire universe.
There was no way Nico could have possibly forgotten this person.
“Are you sure you're not confusing me for someone else?”
“You're Nico di Angelo,” the man said. “Commodus' necromancer. But you're more than that, right?”
He winked. Normally Nico though winking was weird and cringy, but this guy made it look cool. Who was he? A god, for sure, but which one?
“You could say that,” Nico said, intensely charmed, but still a bit suspicious.
“I know you're working for Hera,” the man said quietly. “I'm here on Olympian business, too. But it's not a good idea to talk about it where people can overhear. I don't think our missions intersect, anyway.”
“Oh. Okay.” So he was working for Olympus. Nico was happy to have a reason to let his guard down, although if were honest with himself, it had been down since the moment he saw that smile.
“Unfortunately, I need to tell you something,” the man said. “Since we're on the same side and all. About that blonde guy over there.”
“He's not my boyfriend or anything,” Nico said immediately. “I'm single. Not that you asked.”
“Yeah, I know. What I'm trying to say is, that guy is trying to seduce you. I could tell it was starting to work just a little bit. You should know he intends to harm you. I don't know the details, but I know that much.”
Nico froze and looked back over his shoulder at Alabaster, who was climbing the stairs with arms full of Diet Coke.
“I'm so stupid,” he said to himself. “Why would I think he'd suddenly start liking me out of nowhere? Gods, I'm an idiot.”
“You're not stupid,” the gorgeous man said. “You're lonely. It's nothing to be ashamed of. I just want to look out for you. We play for the same team, after all.”
“I really appreciate that,” Nico said. “Thank you. What was your name again?”
“You seriously don't recognize me? I swear we've met before,” the man said, pouting cutely.
“I would remember you,” Nico said.
“I know how to spark your memory,” the man said. “Let's dance together!”
Nico was sorely tempted to dance with him, although he knew he shouldn't. He'd already been tricked once that evening, and he really didn't know this guy at all. For a moment he didn't say anything, because he really ought to say no, but when he spoke, he was pretty sure his 'No' would come out sounding like, 'Yes, yes, absolutely, yes.'
With his usual perfectly awful timing, Nero shouted, “Ghost boy!” from across the yacht.
“Duty calls,” the man said. “That's okay. Rain check?”
“Sure,” Nico said. “Sorry. Yeah, maybe later? Um, I still didn't catch your name.”
The man just smiled and walked away. He went over to the dance floor and started dancing, moving with wild abandon and zero self consciousness, and yet somehow looking cool and hot and fun at the same time. Definitely a god, Nico thought, but he couldn't guess who. Whoever he was, he reminded him of the first time Nico had seen Apollo, when he'd been stunned by how utterly gorgeous he really was. This guy was like a better version of Apollo; it just seemed like he was a good person beneath the hot exterior.
Nico went back over to the emperors' seating area. Alabaster was perched on the edge of Nero's chair. Nico tried not to give any indication he'd caught on to Alabaster's intentions; he smiled, and Alabaster smiled back. Bastard, Nico thought to himself bitterly.
“Nico, can you summon skeletons here?” Nero asked.
“No,” Nico said. “We're in the middle of the ocean.”
“What about your shadow travel? Your invisibility?”
“Those aren't affected,” Nico said, recalling the time he'd fallen off a dragon and shadow traveled from the air. “Why do you need to know?”
“I'm curious. And you never know who might become your enemy one day.”
Nico rolled his eyes and sat down.
“If you think I'm planning on serving the Olympians anytime soon, you can stop worrying,” he said.
“If you don't want us to be suspicious, then stop hitting on Cupid. He's here working for Venus, and we're not speaking with him,” Nero said.
“I'm speaking with him,” Caligula said. “I invited him.”
“You what?”
“I have a crush on him,” Caligula shrugged.
“Everyone has a crush on him, that's his whole thing, idiot,” Nero said, smacking him in the head.
They both started hitting each other and arguing loudly about Cupid.
“Nico, snack me,” Commodus called out, holding out his hand.
Nico went over to the snack table. As soon as they'd said the man was Cupid, his heart had sunk. So much for his mystery hunk. Cupid probably hit on everybody. There wasn't anything real between them.
Nico rummaged through the snacks, wondering why he even bothered to get his hopes up. Cupid would never look at him twice, and Alabaster was just trying to manipulate him. He didn't have any real friends here, let alone romantic interests.
He wished he could stop caring, but suddenly he felt very lonely. For a moment he felt overcome with longing for Minos. He'd been so handsome and kind and caring, and Nico had ruined everything between them.
“Uh oh,” a familiar voice said. “Do I smell heartbreak?” Cupid was back, standing behind the snack table with a warm smile.
“You should have told me you were Cupid,” Nico said, frowning. “It's kind of important information.”
“Usually people guess,” Cupid shrugged.
“Aren't you supposed to be a chubby baby with arrows or something?”
“I can be a lot of things,” Cupid said. “But I appear to most people as their vision of ideal male beauty.”
Nico cocked his head, looking at him.
“What do you really look like, though?”
“What does that matter?” Cupid asked, curious.
“Just wondering if you look like your siblings.”
Cupid's cheeks turned red.
“I don't know what you're talking about.”
“What do you mean?” Nico asked. “You're a son of Nyx, right?”
“Don't say that name,” Cupid said harshly. “Aphrodite is my mother now. I would also have accepted the answer 'Venus.' But I don't speak of that other person.”
“Sorry. I didn't realize,” Nico said.
Cupid relaxed a little.
“No, I'm sorry for snapping. You didn't know,” he said. “I heard you on Nemesis' podcast and I figured she told you.”
“Uh, no, she didn't. I also used to hang out with Charon and Hypnos a lot, and they didn't mention you either.”
“Oh. Not even once? Are you sure?”
“Nope.”
Cupid looked really sad at hearing that.
“Maybe they're just respecting your boundaries,” Nico said kindly. “I know Olympians gossip about each other a lot, but Cthonic gods are a little better about keeping things to themselves.” He wondered if Cupid was a Cthonic god, if he was Nyx's son, but it seemed like a sensitive subject.
“You're right,” Cupid agreed. “I forgot about that. I guess that's alright.” He looked at Nico very differently after that exchange. “Hey, I really want to dance with you. I mean that. I was serious about trying to jog your memory.”
“Really? I want to,” Nico said, his heart lifting. “I have to get Commodus a snack, though. One second.”
He dug through the snack pile, and his hand landed on a bright orange bag.
“Cupid? Can you just play along with what I'm about to do?”
“Sure,” Cupid said, watching him curiously.
Nico brought Commodus the bag and handed it to him. Commodus tore into it and started eating Cheetos.
“Can I have some?”
“No,” Commodus said, eating them greedily. “Get your own.”
Nico watched him stuff his face with Cheeto after Cheeto. When he thought the damage was done, he said, “Can I see those sketches? Cupid wants to see Commodianopolis.”
“Really?” Commodus asked, narrowing his eyes and looking at Cupid.
“Yes, I do,” Cupid said, winking at him.
Commodus pulled out his iPad and tried his thumbprint. There was too much Cheeto dust on his fingers for it to work. He grumbled, and typed in his password instead.
Nico saw all four letters. He was in.
Chapter 36: Sex and the City
Chapter Text
Cupid pretended to look at the iPad for a minute, just for show, but Nico had what he needed. He handed the tablet back to Commodus and dragged Cupid over to the bar, muttering to himself.
“PSQR. What is that? Did he misspell SPQR?” Even Commodus couldn't be that stupid. Every Roman citizen would have known SPQR, Senatus Populusque Romanus, as the national motto.
But that wasn't important. He'd grab the iPad a little later and be done with this assignment forever. It made him weirdly sad to think of leaving; it had been fascinating to get an intimate look at the lives of the deified emperors and the inner workings of their LLC.
“Will you toast with me?” He asked Cupid, hoping to bolster his happy feelings and drown his slightly sad ones. “I want to celebrate. I just made a huge breakthrough in my investigation.”
“Congrats,” Cupid said. He ordered two stem glasses of ambrosia and held one out to Nico.
He hesitated, looking at the bright golden liquid shimmering innocently in the little glass. To a demigod, ambrosia was exclusively for healing wounds. It wasn't a recreational beverage. Mixed with other stuff in small amounts, maybe it wasn't a big deal, but drinking it straight made him nervous.
“What's the matter?” Cupid asked him.
“Nothing,” Nico said, accepting the glass. He toasted with Cupid and took a sip. It was as rich and heady as he remembered from his first overindulgent encounter. The taste reminded him of the way the saint's bones had made him feel, but was more concentrated in his mouth rather than in his spinal cord.
“What does this breakthrough mean for you?” Cupid asked. “Are you going to quit TH and move on?”
“Soon,” Nico said. “I wonder what I'll end up doing next. It could be anything.” He drank more ambrosia, savoring every delicate drop. He was glad he'd drank it despite his misgivings, because he'd forgotten how amazing it was. And it nearly matched Cupid's eyes, which was kind of cute.
“How thrilling,” Cupid said. “I'm envious. It must be nice to be young and still have new experiences to look forward to.”
“The world changes fast,” Nico said. “I bet there's still new stuff in your future that you can't see coming.”
Cupid raised his perfect eyebrows in surprise.
“That's a good point,” he said. “I forget how often the world can still surprise me. Dating apps were revolutionary in my line of work. They were hard to adjust to, but I figured it out eventually.”
“I remember the first time I saw a cell phone. I thought it was a type of fancy pocketwatch,” Nico said. “I'm ninety,” he added, when Cupid gave him a weird look. “I know I look younger.”
“And still a virgin? Wow. That's like finding a unicorn.”
“Oh, well, uh, I mean,” Nico blushed. “I was sort of frozen in time at age ten and I'm still catching up to... I've been kind of busy, so... Um. What were we talking about?”
“Never mind,” Cupid said gently. “I think you should know that your boss is staring at us. Talking to me makes you look suspicious in his eyes. I'm very much an Olympian,” he added proudly.
“I don't need to work for him much longer, so it's okay,” Nico said. He didn't want to stop talking when the conversation had just gotten interesting. He might have been being awkward about it, but he was very into Cupid.
“You're fond of him,” Cupid pointed out.
“Of who? Commodus? Don't be ridiculous,” Nico scoffed.
“Do you think I can't tell?” Cupid laughed. “You like him. You see yourself in him. And you think he has the potential to be better than he is.”
Nico had recognized that he and his boss had a little in common, but he'd avoided thinking about it.
“My trainer told me once that everyone has something they want more than anything, and a fatal flaw that will probably keep them from getting it,” Nico said. “He said figuring those out is the key to understanding people.”
“Your trainer is wise,” Cupid said. “That's probably why you're crazy about him. One of my godly skills is seeing people's true nature in the way you're describing. It's a skill Venus and I share. Did you ever figure yours out? What you want, and what's keeping you from it?”
Nico bit his lip. It felt vulnerable to say it out loud, but Cupid already knew, so it didn't really matter.
“Commodus said once that he wanted someone who'd have his back. Who'd love him for who he was and not for who they wanted him to be. Who wouldn't die and leave him. That's what I want, too.”
“That's a wonderful thing to want,” Cupid said. “Most people care way too much about money and power. Love is more important.”
“Can you tell me what my fatal flaw is?” Nico asked. “The thing that's going to keep me from getting what I want?”
“Holding grudges,” Cupid said.
“I don't have any grudges against anyone,” Nico said immediately. “Other than Zeus. And he doesn't count. Lots of people hate him.”
“Uh huh,” Cupid said. “Whatever you say.”
“I really don't,” Nico insisted. “I mean, there's also Percy Jackson, but I haven't seen him in years.”
“There's not even one more you're forgetting?” Cupid said.
“No,” Nico said, “No one.”
“Okay. Let's change the subject,” Cupid said. “Can we dance? I've been practically begging.” He set his glass down and held out his hand. “Let's see if I can get you to remember me.”
He pulled Nico out to the dance floor and spun him around. Nico was on a high from ambrosia, and from finding out the password, and from almost being done with his job. He didn't care that everyone on the boat was watching him jealously. Cupid could have danced with anyone, and he'd picked Nico, and that felt amazing.
It got better in the only way it could have possibly gotten better, when Cupid pulled Nico's body close against his and kissed him. The kiss was brief, but it was almost as good as pure ambrosia. When he pulled back, and Nico looked into his eyes, he felt like the luckiest demigod alive. The god of love had just kissed him. He wanted to soak up every drop of this moment.
“Do you remember me now?” Cupid asked.
“Wait,” Nico said, staring at him and seeing something that triggered his memory. “In the club? Months ago? That was you?”
“I knew you'd remember,” Cupid smiled.
“But you looked different,” Nico said.
“Not that different. I guess your taste changed slightly since then,” Cupid shrugged. “Nico, I've been watching your mentions on Godstagram, and I think you're really cool. I have a place in New York. We should hang out and get to know each other.”
“I'd love that,” Nico said. “I think you're cool too-- Um, why do the clouds look like that?”
“Like what?”
They both looked up at the sky just in time for the wind to buffet the yacht, rocking them sideways. A wave hit the deck, and their shoes got soaked.
“Oh no,” Nico said. “Oh, no, no, no, please don't let this be happening.”
“A storm? It'll pass,” Cupid said.
“I think it's Neptune,” Nico said. “Something must have gone wrong with the deal.”
“I'll take your word for it,” Cupid said, staring at the sky. “That looks like a hurricane,” he observed. “Definitely seeing some rotation.”
Nico ran for the top deck.
“What the hell did you do?” He yelled at Nero. Nero was snickering smugly, taking great joy in Nico's utter terror.
“Check must have bounced,” he shrugged. “I guess Fred's account was short a few hundred mil.”
“Fred's account?” Nico said with horror.
“Yes, we used Fred's checkbook,” Caligula said, straightening his captain's hat. “I'm sure the bank will clear it soon.”
“Any minute now,” Nero snickered. “What's the matter? Don't have your sea legs yet?”
“Neptune just needs to get it out of his system,” Commodus told Nico. “Put on a life jacket and chill. It'll blow over.”
“Somebody give me his number,” Nico insisted. “We'll have to get him a new check.”
“Eventually, sure,” Nero said. “But I want him to stew for a while first. If he wants to play hardball in negotiations, he needs to be able to take the heat.”
The yacht lurched again, and Nico had to grip the railing hard to keep his feet. Caligula went, “Whee!” as they were knocked hard sideways and seawater splashed onto the deck.
To the immortal emperors, it might feel like a fun water park ride, but Nico couldn't cope. Just as he started down the stairs, the yacht tilted again, and a massive wave crashed into them. Something hard hit Nico in the back of the head.
He turned around and saw Commodus' iPad clatter to the ground in front of him. He snatched it up, tucked it into his suit jacket, and ran to Cupid.
“Hey, I'm getting out of here,” he said.
“If you're leaving, at least let me give you a ride,” Cupid said. Before Nico could say that it wasn't necessary, Cupid's form shimmered. He grew taller, his hair grew lighter, and his eyes became more golden. Most noticeably, he sprouted massive golden wings on his back.
He grabbed Nico and lifted him off the deck of the yacht, beating his wings and creating an updraft.
“No, please, I hate flying,” Nico said, holding on tight to the iPad. He closed his eyes.
The next thing he knew, his feet were firmly on the ground. He opened his eyes. He standing in a quiet neighborhood in New York city, on a shaded tree-lined street of old brownstones.
“Thank goodness,” he said. “I thought you were going to fly us all the way from the West coast.”
“No, I just bend light and space with my wings to get around,” Cupid said.
“Sure,” Nico said, glancing around. “I do the same thing with shadows. This is a nice neighborhood,” he added.
“This is my house!” Cupid said, pointing at one of the brownstones. “You might recognize it as Carrie Bradshaw's house, originally.”
“Is she a friend of yours?” Nico asked.
“Oh. No, never mind, it's not important. Do you want to come inside?”
Nico almost said yes when he realized something in Cupid's expression had changed. That invitation wasn't as simple as it sounded. He might have been inexperienced, but he wasn't an idiot.
“I would like that,” Nico said, speaking cautiously. “But I think maybe – I mean, I should do this iPad stuff. Hera needs it, you know...”
“It's okay,” Cupid said. “Come back when you're ready.” He leaned down and kissed Nico again, leaving his head spinning. Nico almost asked to come inside after all, chasing more of the high Cupid offered, but Cupid went in on his own and shut the door behind him.
Nico took a deep breath, trying to steady himself and think clearly. He'd go through the iPad, update Hera on his findings, and then he'd think about calling Cupid.
Cupid's vibes were screaming 'casual sex,' but Nico couldn't quite convince himself to go for it. Obviously he was really attractive, since he was the literal god of love, but Nico knew that he wanted to feel a deeper connection. The question he was struggling with was whether that was realistic to hope for. What if this was the best offer he would ever get, and no one ever wanted him again? Not to mention, demigods often led brutally short lives. Waiting might mean missing out forever.
Nico went to the closest quiet spot, a small green space called Christopher Park, and sat on a bench. He tore his thoughts away from Cupid and focused on the iPad. He typed in PSQR, and he was in.
After the initial login, he decided to check on what the significance of PSQR was, and Googled it. It turned out Commodus had actually started changing the national motto to read with the word 'Populus' first, and 'Senatus' second, putting the Roman people before the senate. It made Nico feel even more certain that Commodus had some grains of good ideas in him, mixed in with the crazy ones. Maybe if he'd had people in his life that he could have trusted, he'd have been a better emperor.
He spent the next couple of hours reading emails. There was plenty of incriminating information, everything he'd hoped there would be. Commodus had emailed Chione and Circe multiple times in the last couple of weeks. Talk about a dead giveaway.
Nico suspected there was more to the story than just some funding being thrown Gaea's way here and there, but he'd leave that for Hera to analyze. He'd got what he needed. He pulled out his phone and dialed her number.
“Hi, Harold,” he said.
“Have you got what I need?” Hera asked on the other side of the phone.
“I do. Years of emails between Commodus and Gaea's agents.”
“Was there anything that stood out as being relevant to the immediate future of the war?” She asked. “Particularly with regards to the seven heroes?”
“Um, let me see,” Nico said, scrolling back to one of the emails. “Yes, actually. The order they placed with the cyclopean forges for onagers was on behalf of a third party.”
“Working for Gaea?”
“That seems obvious. The delivery address they gave is right outside of Camp Jupiter. The triumvirate is still out in San Francisco now, actually. That's how I can talk to you unsupervised,” he added. “I'm in New York on my own.”
“I don't care,” she said. “What's this about Camp Jupiter? That's where I'm sending the other demigods. I need to know what to have them ready for.”
“Well, onagers, at the very least,” Nico said. “But I don't know what they'll be used for. Augie didn't say.”
“Augie?”
“The guy Commodus is emailing. I guess he's affiliated with the camp, or at least lives nearby,” Nico said. “It's kind of unclear. I'll give you the iPad and let you see for yourself.”
“I'll give it to Hephaestus and see if he can pull more data. Just leave it in our drop location.”
“Okay. Then what?”
“Go back to work and try to find out more about Augie,” she said.
“Um,” Nico said. “About that. I might have gotten found out, sort of,” he said. “I was counting on wrapping things up with TH. Going back at this point is possible, but very risky.”
“You knew it was risky when I assigned you the post,” Hera said. “What's changed?”
“An agent of Gaea found me out. I have it on good authority he plans to hurt me.”
“And?” She said.
If Alabaster hadn't had Stygian iron weapons, Nico would have lived with the risk, but being denied an afterlife wasn't an option he'd entertain. Those daggers would even overpower the no-ride list advantage.
“Can I have some kind of option to get out quickly if it gets really dangerous?” Nico asked. “I'm sure you have something for that.”
“Text me if it comes to it. Just send an exclamation point,” Hera said. “And I'll handle it. Understood? Now go back in there and stop wasting time.”
Nico didn't feel good about it, but he dropped off the iPad in a designated magical trash can, then walked back to TH and headed up to Commodus's apartment on his own. He sat at the kitchen table, tapping his foot nervously, unsure of what he had to expect when Commodus and Alabaster returned. He hadn't been supposed to leave Commodus's sight, and now not only had he disappeared, he'd left with an Olympian. He was a walking red flag from his boss's perspective. And that was assuming Alabaster hadn't already ratted him out.
He decided that every second he was near either Commodus or Alabaster, he'd keep his phone in his hand and a text to Harold open, ready to type the emergency exclamation point if needed. Hopefully it wouldn't take her long to rescue him if things went south.
Bored and riddled with anxiety, Nico distracted himself by smoking the cigarette Alabaster had given him. He had to light it on the flame of the gas stovetop, something he'd seen his grandfather do with cigars a few times. That cheered him up a little, and it gave him something to do with his hands. The scent wasn't at all familiar, though. He would have to try to remember what brand his mom smoked and buy some of those instead. They probably didn't even make them anymore.
He stole some of Commodus's olives, went through the house checking for evidence, and even checked the Playstation to see if Commodus played Apex with an 'Augie'. That was a longshot, but it gave Nico something to do.
He was still sitting there on the couch when Commodus and Alabaster walked in. Commodus stood in the doorway, staring Nico down. For a moment, neither moved. Then Commodus walked up and kicked over the couch he was sitting on. Nico went sprawling to the floor, the wood frame of the couch breaking in half and landing on either side of him.
“You're in league with them,” Commodus snarled. “Admit it.”
“In league with who?” Nico asked.
“You left with Cupid,” Commodus said. “You're working with Olympus to plot against me.”
“I'm not,” Nico said. “I got seasick and Cupid gave me a ride back to New York.”
“I bet he did,” Alabaster snorted.
Commodus turned and looked back at Alabaster.
“Is this funny to you?”
“Kind of,” Alabaster said. “It's Cupid. Obviously they were fucking,” he said as though it were the only reasonable explanation.
Commodus raised his eyebrows.
“Oh! Is that all it was?” He said, relaxing his guard slightly. “But that could just be a cover story, and they were plotting together.”
“Okay, okay, I admit it,” Nico said, deciding it was his best option to roll with it. “We were doing things. All kinds of stuff. The only thing I was plotting was, you know, sexual, in nature.”
Alabaster and Commodus both gave him a look of, 'what the fuck,' and Nico died slightly inside, but Commodus seemed to accept the explanation.
“If he ever calls back, ask for the boss man to tag along next time,” Commodus winked.
“Talk about team bonding,” Alabaster said, smirking.
“Let's be real, though, he's never calling back!” Commodus said. He and Alabaster found that very funny, but Nico was okay with being mocked if it meant he wasn't getting tossed out a window anytime soon.
Commodus had already got himself a new iPad, and sat at the table to work on it like all was normal. Alabaster sat next to Nico on the couch, sitting very close to him. Nico remembered Cupid's warning and tried not to look too disgusted with his advances. He had to feign interest if he wanted to stay safe.
“Thanks for the cigarette,” Nico said. “I think you've inspired me to take up smoking.”
“Really?” Alabaster said, looking very surprised. “You actually smoked it?”
“Of course,” Nico said. “I'm not worried about getting lung cancer. I don't even know if demigods get cancer. Do they?”
“I don't know,” Alabaster said. “It's kind of a longshot to imagine I'll live that long, so I don't worry about it.”
“Still, my sister would kill me if she knew,” Nico said. “She always tried to keep me in line when it came to good behavior. When we were little she made me return a piece of penny candy I stole from a store and apologize.”
“Sounds like a goody two shoes,” Alabaster said.
“She used to scold my grandfather anytime he'd curse, which was a lot,” Nico said. “She got away with it because he thought it was cute, but I thought she was super annoying and bossy. Obviously not anymore, since she's dead,” he said quickly.
“Mhm,” Alabaster said. His eyes kept flicking to look at the TV. Nico smiled. He could take advantage of the fact that Alabaster was faking an interest in him.
“Have you ever heard of Mythomagic?”
Nico spent the next two hours going on and on about Mythomagic, describing every rule and card he could remember. Alabaster wore a fake smile, but underneath he looked ready to kill him. He'd said, 'wow, that's crazy,' exactly fourteen times before Nico grew tired of talking.
“I can't listen to this mytho-whatever nonsense anymore,” Commodus said, going into his room and slamming the door. Alabaster watched him go.
“Hey, dude, sorry, but I really need to get some rest,” Alabaster said. “Would you mind if we picked this back up tomorrow?” Nico nodded in response, earning a friendly smile. Liar, Nico thought. He didn't care about Mythomagic at all.
Alabaster handed him another cigarette from his pocket.
“Here. My last one. It's yours, if you want. Friendship offering.”
“Thanks,” Nico said, pocketing it. Alabaster went and laid down on one of the other couches, turning his back to Nico.
Nico was idly scrolling Godstagram when the strange sleepiness hit him, and his eyes shut. He slumped over on the couch, fast asleep.
“Are you okay?” A familiar voice asked. Nico saw Hypnos staring at him in an amorphous gray dream haze, with Morpheus standing beside him looking concerned.
“Hi, guys,” Nico said, delighted to see their faces again. “I'm fine. How are you?”
“Something's up,” Hypnos said. He sounded worried. “You're falling asleep in a really weird way lately. I get the notification that it's your turn, but when I actually show up to send you to sleep, you look like you're wide awake and not even tired. Usually you barely sleep at all. This isn't normal for you.”
“I know, it's weird, right?” Nico said. “I think I'm getting weaker from being away from the Underworld.”
“That's not what this is,” Hypnos said. “Either it's magic, or you're being drugged. We've been debating whether you were the type to take sleeping pills intentionally. Or if maybe you asked that boyfriend of yours to knock you out with magic. That's Hecate's son, right?”
“He's not my boyfriend, he's my coworker,” Nico said. “Our boss makes us sleep in his living room. He's having this weird sleeping issue too.”
“No, he isn't,” Hypnos said.
“What do you mean, no he isn't? He fell asleep before I did.”
“Nico, no one is sleeping anywhere near you,” Hypnos said.
“What?” Nico said.
“Every time I send you to sleep, you're the only one. That guy who's always with you isn't sleeping, he's just laying there,” Hypnos said.
The full weight of what must have been happening hit Nico.
“Guys, we'll have to talk later,” he said. “But I need to wake up now.”
He opened his eyes to the dark living room. Alabaster was nowhere in sight. He checked his phone and saw that he hadn't been asleep for nearly as long as usual, only an hour or two.
Obviously Alabaster was putting him to sleep with magic. The bastard had been faking falling asleep first the whole time. Nico felt like an idiot; he'd been so worried about being killed by Commodus that he'd paid very little attention to Alabaster. Maybe he'd had a false sense of security after saving his life, thinking Alabaster would feel grateful to him. In any case, Nico had majorly fucked up.
He turned invisible and went to investigate where Alabaster could have gone. He wasn't in the kitchen, and his shoes were still by the front door. He went back to Commodus's bedroom and peeked inside.
At first he couldn't believe what he was seeing. He stood frozen in horror.
Alabaster and Commodus were in bed together. His brain didn't want to accept it, but it was impossible to deny.
Alabaster was draped across Commodus's muscled torso, playing with his hair.
“When we build Commodianopolis, I think we should put in a big glass walled prison complex,” Alabaster said quietly, clearly just idly daydreaming. “And throw all the Olympians inside it so we can watch them suffer for our entertainment.”
“Great idea,” Commodus said, distracted and looking at his phone.
“And we'll force them to fight each other in a big ring,” Alabaster added. “And throw the losers in Tartarus.”
“Nice,” Commodus said.
Nico watched as Alabaster pretended to fall asleep on Commodus' chest. Commodus shoved him onto the other side of the bed.
Within a few seconds, Commodus' eyes were shutting, and he was fast asleep.
Why would Alabaster care whether Commodus was asleep or not? He was already cooperating with Gaea as much as anyone could want.
Alabaster went into the bathroom and shut the door behind him. Nico heard him speaking in whispers on the other side of the door, so he hurried in to listen.
“They're both asleep. Are you sure it has to be tonight?” He asked the person on the other side of the phone. “Okay. Yes, boss. They'll be taken care of.”
He hung up and went back into the bedroom. Suddenly, two long and shining black knives were in his hands. He stalked towards the sleeping Commodus stealthily.
Nico moved before he had time to think about what he was doing. He stood between Alabaster and Commodus.
“Stop,” he said, drawing his sword. “Whatever you're doing, stop.”
He and Alabaster circled each other.
“You just made a big mistake,” Alabaster said. His voice was as cold as ice. “What do you think you're doing?”
“I think you're the one who needs to answer that. Why would Gaea want him dead?” Nico asked. “He's funding her war.”
“You think it was Gaea on that phone? You really don't know anything,” Alabaster said. “You spent months here and you barely even scratched the surface. You were looking at the wrong things.”
“Like what?”
“I work for Nero, idiot,” Alabaster said. “I lied about working for Gaea. She barely matters; she's a side project to these guys. Nero wants Commodus out of the way. He thinks he's holding TH back.”
“Because he's not as much of an evil psychopath as the other two?” Nico said. “With the money and influence the triumvirate hold, they could destroy the world. Caligula is easy to manipulate. If you kill Commodus, you're basically giving TH to Nero. He won't have any limits. We can't give him that kind of power.”
“We can't? Pretty sure I can,” Alabaster said. “And I'll get a great promotion out of it, too. Now get out of my way. I'll give you one chance to go back to the Underworld and never come back. You have five seconds.”
“I'm not letting you do this,” Nico said, standing his ground.
“Fine,” Alabaster said. “You asked for it.”
It all happened very quickly, but Nico was prepared for most of what Alabaster would throw at him. He held his breath, and the poison smoke that Alabaster summoned didn't affect him. Alabaster's form blurred into multiple mistforms that were indistinguishable from the original. Nico deftly avoided them all.
Every move he made disturbed the smoke, so invisibility didn't do much for him, but he remained intangible. He couldn't risk getting cut by one of the Stygian iron blades.
“I'm going to make sure you can never see your stupid perfect mother again,” Alabaster said, slashing at him with wild abandon. Nico stepped back out of the haze of smoke and watched as Alabaster lost track of where he'd gone. He slashed into thin air a few times, thinking he'd seen him, but he wasn'y even close. From a distance, Nico could see the panic and desperation growing in Alabaster's face.
Alabaster reached into his pocket and threw a marble onto the floor that turned into a black dog. It sniffed Nico out and ran up to attack him, but he swiped at it with his sword, killed it, then moved to another part of the room.
Alabaster hurriedly tossed out another marble, this one releasing a dozen green, poisonous looking snakes. They couldn't bite Nico, and instead passed through him harmlessly. Alabaster glanced around, searching for him frantically, but he'd lost him.
Nico was invisible, intangible, and in the dark of the room, he could move anywhere he wanted instantly. It hadn't been clear to him at first, but now he realized that Alabaster didn't have any hope of winning the fight.
There didn't seem to be any point in delaying the inevitable. Nico gritted his teeth, shadow traveled behind Alabaster and immobilized him with shadows. Then he plunged his sword into his back.
Alabaster had no time to cry out or strike back at him. He simply dissolved into dust that hovered in the air and then disappeared.
There was no more Alabaster. He was just gone.
Nico stared at the place where he'd been for a moment. Taking a mortal life was one thing. He could always find them in the Underworld and apologize later. This was different. Alabaster had an immortal soul, and Nico had destroyed it.
Of course, Alabaster had put Nico to sleep, and if not for Hypnos waking him, Nico would be the one whose soul had been destroyed.
He took a deep breath, steadying himself. This was all just too much. He felt shaky and sick and guilty.
He knelt down and picked up Alabaster's blades that had fallen to the floor. Like his own sword, they were moldable. He turned them into two black rings and stuck them on his fingers. He also grabbed the marbles that had contained the dog and the snakes, unsure what to do with them. Maybe he could give them back to Hecate. He really didn't want to have to tell her what he'd done, but he knew it was the right thing to do.
He was still standing there in the dark, feeling the marbles in his pocket and trying to process what had just happened, when a sudden burst of pure energy exploded in the room. Nico was thrown backwards by waves of radiant heat. He threw up his arm to shield his eyes, but it was like being in the room with a supernova.
Commodus had unleashed his divine form, and its power had Nico trapped, unable to access any of his abilities that might have otherwise let him escape.
“Assassin,” Commodus yelled, his voice echoing and booming throughout the apartment. It took Nico a second to realize that the wall separating the bedroom from the rest of the apartment had been blown out.
“No,” Nico said, realizing Commodus had awoken to see him standing in his room with a sword. The sleeping spell must have lifted when Alabaster disappeared. “No, I just saved your life. Alabaster was trying to kill you!”
It was useless, and he knew that, but he couldn't move without risking seeing the divine form, so talking with his eyes shut was his only option.
But that wasn't exactly true. He grabbed his phone and sent Hera an exclamation point.
He crawled through the rubble, trying to put distance between himself and Commodus, and he was able to activate his earrings and become invisible. He rolled out of the way just in time for the nightstand to shatter on the floor where he'd just been.
Commodus bellowed in anger upon realizing he'd lost sight of Nico. He charged into the living room and started hurling furniture everywhere. A chair hit Nico in the back, knocking him down flat, and Commodus must have seen it hit him and realized where he was in the room. He ran at Nico and tried to pin him to the floor by stomping on his back.
Nico knew that the second Commodus got his hands on him, he was done for. He couldn't let it happen. He rolled out of the way just in time to miss getting stomped on. Then he managed to duck behind the kitchen island and texted Hera another exclamation point. Where was she? Surely she had some kind of magic capable of extracting him instantaneously.
“Good luck getting out of here,” Commodus shouted. “I had Alabaster magic up the walls for me. You won't be pulling one of your disappearing acts tonight!” He pulled out his phone. “I also had heat-sensing cameras put in. Aha! I see you behind that kitchen island!”
He drew an Imperial gold sword and stalked around to Nico's spot on the other side of the island.
“Scurrying around like a rat,” Commodus sneered. “Nothing disgusts me more. Are you a man or aren't you? Face me like a warrior!”
That would be the stupidest thing Nico could possibly do. Commodus would rip him apart in seconds with his bare hands. He wouldn't take the bait. It was possible that Hera was coming for him, and needed more time. He could try to give it to her.
Just to be sure, he tried to shadow travel outside the walls, and he couldn't. He tried to break the walls down with his earth powers, but he couldn't do that either. Everywhere he moved in the apartment, Commodus tracked him with only a second's delay. He was lucky Commodus seemed dead set on an actual one on one fight, because he wasn't going after Nico. He was waiting for him to give up on trying to run.
In the interest of buying more time, Nico summoned skeletons to hassle Commodus. He tried the front door, the only entry to the apartment, but it was magically sealed. He'd studied magic, but he had never been as skilled with it as Alabaster, and he didn't know how to get the door open.
“You're a terrible demigod,” Commodus yelled, smacking the skeletons away with his sword. They were nothing more than a nuisance to him, and he barely gave them a glance. “Scared of a fight? Come and face your fate, coward! I'll send you home to your father either way. Will you tell him you died on your feet, or cowering in shame?”
Commodus didn't know Nico at all. He couldn't have cared less about stuff like that. He just wanted to get the hell out of there. If he had a little more time, he'd probably figure something out, but it was hard to think when you were enclosed in a small space with a bloodthirsty god.
Commodus dispatched the last of the skeletons, and Nico saw no point in summoning more. He knew Commodus would rather they do this gladiator style, facing each other down like warriors in the Coliseum, but Nico was no Russell Crowe. Commodus had a short fuse and would run out of patience eventually. At any moment he could unleash his true form again, and Nico would be toast.
It was such a waste. He'd saved Commodus' life, and he'd never get any appreciation for it. Maybe it had been a mistake, but he'd gotten to know Commodus too well to just let Alabaster slaughter him in his sleep. He wasn't as far gone as the other emperors, and he had too much potential to be better than he was. Potential that would never be realized, but still.
They weren't so different. They both just wanted true friends that would always have their back. Maybe in another life, Nico could have been that for Commodus, but in this one, his mind was rotten with paranoia and resentment, and he was too far gone. His fatal flaw of holding grudges would never be overcome.
Grudges. That was an idea.
Nico took a deep breath, then became visible.
“Finally,” Commodus declared. “Let's do this!”
“I didn't betray you, Commodus,” Nico said. “But I know you'll never believe me. I think it's time we go our separate ways.”
“You think I'm letting you leave?” Commodus laughed. “Not happening, idiot! I'll crucify you and put you on display in Commodianapolis as a reminder of what happens to traitors.”
“Okay,” Nico said. “Since you're interested in punishing traitors, why not confront all of us at once?”
He stepped back and concentrated. Then he forcibly summoned the shades of Commodus's enemies. Every single one he'd ever summoned in Central Park, every name on the list, he put right in front of Commodus.
A lot of angry Roman ghosts suddenly crowded the space, overlapping with each other and surrounding Commodus. Confused and enraged, he started slashing at them.
Nico briefly felt bad about putting them in the line of fire, but for the most part they seemed amused by the emperor's rage. Many of the ghosts started taunting him and mocking his attempts to get through them.
Nico went up to the door and tried to magically break through, but it was thoroughly blocked and he still had no idea what to do to get it open. He wished he'd worked harder on his magic studies with Hecate. Commodus was very distracted by the shades, but he hadn't forgotten Nico entirely, and he was working his way through the crowd to get to him. He kept stopping to argue, just as Nico knew he would, and Nico saw Marcia tugging at Commodus's clothes and giggling at him, enjoying the drama of it all.
He couldn't waste any more time on the door; that was hopeless. The walls wouldn't react to his powers, either. He needed to get out fast, and he was running out of options.
He went back towards the kitchen, which was a ruined mess of smashed furniture. He looked at the window. The kitchen table had been tossed into it, and there was a hole in the middle of the glass.
Please don't let that be the only way out of here, Nico thought. He really didn't want to have to make the choice to jump.
In the end, he didn't have to. Commodus plowed into him at a run, hitting him in the back, and shoved him out the window himself.
Nico went tumbling down into the darkness, falling fast with the wind rushing past his face. As he fell, he turned in the air and briefly glimpsed Commodus watching him fall, surrounded by angry ghosts.
He had to think quickly. It was dark, and he'd shadow traveled while falling before, but he didn't have the confidence he could pull it off on his own. The consequence of failure was just way too high.
“Nyx, sorry to ask again,” he prayed fervently. “Just look out for me one more time, please.”
He fell into the dark shadow of a skyscraper and disappeared.
He opened his eyes. He was okay. He was lying on the grass in Central Park, in the same place they'd been doing their rituals for the past few months. He'd survived.
He remembered the moment he'd shadow traveled. He'd felt Nyx's presence surround him in a protective blanket of darkness. He owed her so much.
He wrapped his arms around his knees and started sobbing with relief. He was glad it was over, but it shouldn't have had to happen at all. Hera had never shown up; she'd abandoned him. Why had she sent him back in? Worse, why had he listened? Now Alabaster was gone and Commodus was more filled with hate than ever. He hadn't left a pancaked corpse on the sidewalk, so TH would soon start hunting him down with all the resources at their disposal.
His life was going to be harder than ever before. How was his situation any better now than when it had just been Athena trying to kill him?
He wiped his face and saw that his hands were covered in golden blood. A glance at his arms and legs showed the same; he'd been completely sliced to pieces by the glass window shards. He looked like a cracked egg, and it was starting to sting.
He had two options. He could walk through the door of Orpheus and face his father, and probably get scolded. Or he could go somewhere else.
He chose the somewhere else. He stood up and summoned the shades that were in Commodus' apartment to stand before him. The group shimmered into being in front of him, looking around curiously.
“What did you do that for?” Marcia said, stepping forward. “I was having fun.”
“Sorry, everybody. I shouldn't have used you like that,” Nico said. “I'm glad you didn't mind, but you guys really ought to be in Asphodel. Thanks for all your help.”
They all shrugged, not caring much one way or the other. He sent them back where they belonged. Then he set out on a long walk.
Concealed by the mist, he fooled everyone he passed on the sidewalk. He probably looked like any other grubby, underfed teen roaming the streets. They didn't see the streaks of gold running down his face. But he couldn't fool Cupid, who saw him exactly as he was.
“Dare I ask what turned you into the beautiful disaster I see before me?” Cupid said, opening his front door to let Nico inside. He was as bright and blonde and handsome as ever. Nico felt out of place standing in front of him in his ragged state, but he was too numb to really care.
“I got fired,” Nico said, standing on the threshold. “Um, about the blood...”
“Don't worry,” Cupid said gently. “I won't pry.”
“Thanks,” Nico said glumly. “I just need a place to hide from TH until I figure out what to do next. I'm not ready to talk to Hera yet. She left me to die.”
“Bummer,” Cupid said. “You're safe here. Let me take a look at you.”
Nico took off his jacket and shirt and let Cupid inspect his wounds. The light touch of Cupids fingers against his skin was helping to clear out the numb misery in Nico's brain, replacing it with a nicer and more distracting feeling.
“These cuts are shallow,” Cupid said. “They'll be gone in no time. Do you want to talk about what happened?”
“No,” Nico said vehemently.
“Got it,” Cupid said. “How about a distraction instead?” He said suggestively.
Nico looked at him. He knew what he was offering. He was way too miserable to be self-conscious about what he wanted anymore.
“Yes,” he said. “But I liked you better as your real self, not this blonde fake Apollo thing you have going on right now.”
“My real self?”
“With the wings,” Nico said.
Cupid stared at him. Then he turned into his other form, the one Nico was referring to. Eros.
“If you say so,” he shrugged. “You're a really interesting person, Nico.”
“I get that a lot,” Nico said.
Chapter 37
Notes:
Anyone who spots the God of War reference in this chapter gets a gold star sticker from me :)
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Nico woke up alone in bed. He glanced around for Eros, but he was gone.
He stared at the ceiling for a few minutes and tried to unpack all that had happened the night before. It was overwhelming to think about.
There were a few important events that stood out. First, he had murdered someone and destroyed their soul. Second, Hera had abandoned him to die. He was lucky to be in this soft bed instead of in the TH tower basement being tortured. And third, coming to Cupid's house had been a really, really, really good distraction from the first two things. Until now, anyway.
Maybe it was stupid, but despite how horrible some of the stuff he'd gone through was, he was mainly upset that he hadn't even merited a goodbye from Eros.
His hand brushed something in the bed beside him. He picked up a piece of paper that was lying on top of the sheets.
It read:
“Check out instructions: Make yourself comfy! Feel free to stay as long as you like until 11:30, then please leave. Help yourself to anything in the fridge, you earned it! Guest towels are the green ones. Please feed my fish the red flakes, and lock the door and close it behind you. Love, Eros.”
Nico stared at the little red hearts Eros had scribbed on the paper. It was laminated. How many strangers did you have to sleep with before you had to laminate the paper?
He put the instructions down, got out of bed, and got dressed at record speed. He suddenly didn't want to spend another second in that house.
He hurried downstairs, fed the fish, and left, locking the door behind him as instructed. Then he stared out at the New York city street and wondered where he ought to go now.
He and Hera had to talk. He knew they needed to address what had happened, but he didn't feel emotionally prepared for the conversation yet. He hurried to a cafe, one that was decidedly not Starbucks, and sat for a moment drinking an espresso and trying to figure things out.
He decided that last night had been fun, and he was going to have to just be satisfied with that. There were some hurt feelings brewing, because he'd felt like Eros could have been a little more transparent that there would be nothing after that one night. But he could chalk it up to a misunderstanding due to his inexperience. He was probably never seeing Eros again, so there was no point in being mad. Okay, he was still a little mad.
He stared at Hera's contact in his phone, but struggled to hit the call button. He finished his espresso quickly. He had to hurry, because he wasn't really safe in New York anymore. TH would come for him eventually.
He called Hera.
“Can we meet? There's a lot we need to talk about,” he said.
“Already here,” she said. He turned and saw her standing behind him. She was in the form of a small old woman wearing a large fur coat and sunglasses with strings of oversized pearls around her neck.
“Walk with me,” she said, strolling briskly down the sidewalk. “Tell me what happened.”
Nico described in broad strokes Alabaster's attempt to assassinate Commodus, the unfortunate necessity of killing him, and the ensuing misunderstanding. He didn't bring up that Hera had abandoned him to die. They let it go unspoken, but it hung in the air between them.
“You seem to have escaped unscathed,” she said. “But mistakes were made. I never asked you to protect Commodus. In fact, I am shocked you would even think to do it.”
“Nero and Caligula running TH with no one to push back on them would be a disaster,” Nico said. “Commodus is the only mollifying influence they have.”
“You were there to observe and gather information,” Hera said. “Not to save the lives of those undeserving. It's too late now, we'll just have to deal with it. Anything else?”
“Since Commodus is still alive, I had another idea I think can help against Gaea. He's supporting her forces in order to get back at Apollo for killing him. If Apollo were to give some kind of explanation or even apologize, Commodus might back out of the triumvirate entirely to focus on his hobbies.”
“Didn't you just claim that TH needs him lest they become far more dangerous?”
“Not if he takes a third of their resources with him. Weakening or even dissolving TH from the inside would be a lot more effective than basically handing it to Nero.”
“In any case, that won't be happening,” she said. “Was that all?”
“No, it wasn't,” Nico said. “I actually have a ton of other ideas, but I don't think you're listening.”
She frowned at him in warning, and he swallowed his annoyance and continued.
“It's about the onagers. I think you should just tell Poseidon to cancel the order. There's not enough time for them to get a decent replacement, and it wouldn't be as good as Cyclopean craftsmanship,” Nico said. “Or better yet, get Poseidon to send them defective onagers and sabotage them that way.”
“That won't be happening,” Hera said.
Nico was stunned. It sounded like a good idea to him, and Hera hadn't even thought about it.
“But why would you want to give Gaea weapons?” He said. “You have the opportunity to keep them out of her hands.”
“I don't like to be questioned,” Hera said. “You don't need to know my reasons.”
“What happened with Aeolus?” Nico said suddenly.
“What do you mean, what happened?”
“I mean, did you ever talk to him? Convince him not to work with Gaea?”
“No.”
“Hera, all you have to do is offer him godhood,” Nico insisted. “It doesn't even have to be a sincere offer. All it would take was a phone call, and he'd be on your side in the war. He wants his godhood to come from Olympus. I'm sure he doesn't want to work for Gaea. She's terrifying and horrible. I don't think any of the gods serving her relish the opportunity to work with her. They just hate you more than they fear her.”
Hera narrowed her eyes at Nico, but said nothing.
“I could even call him if you want and make something up,” Nico pleaded. “I'd just need some proof that I'm speaking on your authority.”
“You would not be,” she said.
“You know Morpheus and Hecate and Nemesis,” Nico said. “They all worked for Kronos in the last war. But they're nice gods. They just want everyone to get along. They only helped him because they felt like Olympus was being mismanaged and that they were being disrespected and forgotten. Which was true.”
“That is over now,” she said. “They won't be stepping out of line again.”
“But that's not the point. There's a root cause to this stuff that's not being addressed. Do you even think there would have been a Titan war if my father had fought on your side? I doubt it would have lasted as long,” Nico said. “That's another problem Zeus could have solved with a phone call.”
“Do not bring my husband into this,” Hera said. “You forget your place.”
“What's the point of any of the stuff I'm doing?” Nico asked bluntly, growing more and more upset the more he thought about it. “You want to know all this information, but you don't have any intention of doing anything about it. You let these issues fester until they explode, and then you clean up the mess afterward and say it was fate! That's not how that works!”
“I won't be spoken to in this disrespectful manner,” Hera said. “Watch your tongue!”
“But I'm just telling you the truth!”
Her hand whipped out and slapped him across the face.
“Listen to me, boy,” she said coldly. He stared at her, frozen in shock. “You are a demigod. Your duty is to obey me. And you will learn your place. I will contact Poseidon and find out the delivery date for the onagers. You will accompany the shipment to Camp Jupiter and find out who ordered them. That is all you are authorized to do. Until then, you will go back to your father, and I will ensure he gives you a badly needed lesson in manners.”
Nico opened his mouth to respond, but Hera held up a finger, and he stopped.
“The next words out of your mouth will be, “Yes, Ma'am.” Are we clear?”
He glared at her with the most dark and hateful expression he could muster, but he said, “Yes, ma'am.”
She disappeared, and he was alone again.
He touched his cheek, which was still stinging. She'd actually slapped him. He couldn't believe it. After all the work he'd done for her, after she'd left him for dead, he got slapped for having the audacity to care about helping her win the war.
Working for her had been a mistake. Hera had clearly played a huge part in causing the problems Olympus currently faced. Why would she be interested in fixing them? She didn't seem to think she'd done anything wrong.
Nico traveled back to Central Park and walked through the Door of Orpheus, starting down the long and winding tunnel. He had to crouch and even crawl at certain points to get through, and the ceiling didn't seem super stable, but that made it more fun for him. He wasn't scared of the earth.
He was taking the long route, for sure, but he needed time to clear his head before he faced his father.
The whole way, he ruminated on Hera and the way she'd treated him. Why the hell was someone like her in charge of the Olympians, anyway? She and Zeus were both terrible rulers. Had anyone ever been happy with their leadership?
Gaea wouldn't be much of a leader at all; she was more into anarchist eco-terrorism. That was why so many different gods and immortals supported her taking over the world. They'd be free to do whatever they wanted while the world fell into chaos.
Well, to be accurate, the Olympians thought it would be chaos, but in the modern world, there were plenty of other pantheons supporting the world order. Nico doubted that a Greco-Roman coup would do more than cause some civil unrest and natural disasters in the US and Europe. They already had plenty of those, so a few more wasn't really that big of a deal.
He stumbled out of a twisting passageway into a chamber with a small black lake, surrounded by stalactites and stalagmites. He stopped to admire it and noticed a candy wrapper resting on the black sand bank of the lake. He put it in his pocket, accidentally touching the marbles that he'd picked up when Alabaster disappeared.
Alabaster and Niamh must have left the wrapper there. Nico glanced around and saw footprints in the sand. Two different sneaker prints, and a third set that might have been sandals. It was the tunnel Orpheus had taken, after all. Nico must have been the fourth living person to ever see this lake.
He stopped and sat on a rock, staring into the darkness thoughtfully. He wasn't crazy enough to think that Gaea's rule would be better for the world in general, but was he insane to think that it might work out better for him, personally? If he went back to Aeolus, he could get in touch with Khione and work with Gaea through her. Then he could win Commodus's trust back by helping him lure Apollo into a trap. He knew exactly how he'd do it, too. He'd go to Delphi and desecrate the temple there. He could kidnap a few of the muses and hold them captive. Apollo would come to save them, and Commodus would have him right where he wanted him.
If he did that, he'd officially be on the side of the bad guys. He could even do it secretly and pretend to help Hera for as long as he needed to. And then, when the real seventh hero arrived, he'd kill them, take their place in the war, and sabotage the other six heroes so they had no chance at winning. Then Gaea would take over the world, and presumably, he'd be rewarded for his service.
Thinking about it, he realized that, despite the craziness of the plan, he'd probably be able to pull it off. It didn't sound any more difficult than the stuff he'd already been doing, but this time he'd be working for himself and his own interests instead of blindly following orders. He could see Hera and Zeus's disfunctional reign end and know it had happened because of him. Avenging his mother would also feel pretty darn good.
Maybe he should just go for it, he mused, hopping off the rock and starting back down the path. He had nothing better to do. His dad didn't want him around anymore. And a world at war was no place for Bianca to start her second chance at life.
He felt her, suddenly, in the tunnel with him.
“I wish you'd take off that stupid helm,” he said. That really ticked him off, but he tried to conceal his annoyance so as not to scare her off. He kept walking, and she followed behind him silently. “Nice to not see you again,” he added. “It's been a crazy summer. I'll tell you about it one day once I bring you back to life. Thanks for being so patient with me and sticking around. I know I'm taking forever to sort your resurrection out. I just want things to be perfect for you.”
He kept walking, and she kept following. Nico wondered whether Gaea would offer him the chance to make a safe place for Bianca to grow up. Maybe, if he served her well enough, he could have his own kingdom after she took over the world. If Commodus got to turn Indianapolis into Commodianapolis, he didn't see why he couldn't have his own Nicopolis. Or maybe he'd call his new city Angelopolis, for him, Bianca, and his mother. Venice would be a no-go because of all the saints, so he'd have to figure something else out.
“You know, Bianca,” he said. “They say Fort Lauderdale is the Venice of America. What would you say to us living there? We could fortify it against monsters and go to school together again.” He hesitated. Was he too old to be in school? He felt too old for that. “Or I guess you could go to school and I can just keep an eye on things. I'd never let anything bad happen to you ever again. And we can build a big villa like our old one, but better. I want a big library like the one Papa has here. And a dining room for family dinners. We can summon skeletons to cook for us! We can even teach them Nonna's old recipes, wouldn't that be great? And I'm not sure who did Papa's shower, but I want one just like it. Bianca? Wait, where'd you go?”
She'd disappeared; he couldn't sense her anymore. He sighed. Guess he was on his own when it came to interior design.
He came to the end of the tunnel, where the dark, narrow passage opened out into the wide fields of Asphodel. He smelled the crisp scent of nothingness, with just a hint of sulfur and suffering, and took a deep breath. It felt good to be home.
He glanced around and realized he was awfully close to the judges' stand, so he shadow traveled straight up to the palace balcony. He wasn't ready to run into Minos again.
He stared out at the view from the balcony and listened. From that far up, all he could hear was an unending, deathly silence, and it was like music to his ears. He decided to let the wild plots swirling in his mind rest for a while. He'd missed the Underworld, and he wanted to enjoy a respite without thinking of Hera, Gaea, and Commodus. They'd taken up space in his mind long enough.
Leaning over the edge of the balcony, he watched the shades shifting and shimmering like a school of cloudy grey fish. If he squinted, he could make out the judges stand on the far side, by the raging Styx. He even caught sight of Alecto, flapping around angrily like always.
He thought he might as well go see Hades, although he didn't relish being told off for backtalking Hera. She'd probably filled Hades in already, and had likely advised him that Nico needed more physical discipline. He shuddered to think of the confrontation that awaited him.
He looked for his father, but couldn't find him in his office or the throne room, and figured he might be working elsewhere in the Underworld. Happy to be temporarily off the hook, Nico decided to take a long, extremely hot shower and put on his comfiest clothes. He'd earned an Underworld self-care day, he thought, and it felt nice to be home among familiar things.
He walked past Hades' bedroom and heard the TV playing. It sounded like an animal was attacking someone. He stood in the doorway and peeked at the TV, and saw Leonardo Dicaprio get mauled by a massive grizzly bear.
Hades was sitting on his bed, watching the film intently and scratching Cerberus behind one of his six ears. Cerberus, twice as large as any grizzly, popped a different head up and boofed when he saw Nico, wagging his tail excitedly.
“Hey, boy,” Nico said, walking up to pet him. “I missed you.” Cerberus licked his face and got slobber all over him, but he didn't mind.
“Nico?” Hades said, sitting up with a surprised look on his face. “I thought I sensed someone here. I didn't expect you back. Did something happen?”
Nico hesitated to respond.
“Um,” he said. “Yeah. A lot happened, I guess.” He didn't even know where to start. His brain felt like it was suddenly stuffed with cotton. He'd expected Hera to have contacted Hades already. Explaining everything from the beginning wasn't something he felt up to.
“Are you finished with the Triumvirate?” Hades asked.
Nico nodded.
“We didn't end on good terms,” he said.
“You were fired?”
“Basically,” he said. “Hera's got something else planned for me in a few months. She sent me back here to wait until she's ready.”
“I see,” Hades said, looking at him suspiciously. “How are you? You don't look well.”
Nico swallowed.
“Not great,” he said. He really didn't want to explain the situation with Commodus and Alabaster. How could he justify killing a child of the Underworld to save an evil emperor? Hades would think he'd lost his mind. There was also no way he could admit that he was considering joining Gaea and betraying Olympus. “Hera didn't get in touch with you yet?”
“No,” Hades said.
“She will.”
Hades watched him for a second, and he must have read in Nico's face that he wasn't ready to talk.
“Perhaps I'll wait on her explanation, then,” he said. “Why don't you get some rest?”
“Okay,” Nico said, heading for the door. He hesitated in the doorway. “What are you watching?”
“The Revenant,” Hades said, pressing play and staring at Leo fighting the bear.
Nico watched for a second.
“Can I stay here for a while?” He said impulsively. “I kind of don't want to be by myself.”
“You should go talk to Minos, then,” Hades said.
“I think I'd rather just hang out with you,” Nico said. “I won't talk or bother you or anything.”
Hades looked at him with surprise.
“Oh. I suppose that's fine,” he said. Hades hurriedly tried to make room for Nico to sit with him. He had to sweep crumbs onto the floor and toss a couple of empty packages of cookies away.
Nico sat on Cerberus's other side and wrapped his arms around one of his thick, furry necks. He only half paid attention to the movie. There was too much on his mind. Cerberus seemed to understand, and he nudged Nico to lay down so he could rest one of his heads on his chest and stare into Nico's eyes intensely.
Cerberus was a very empathetic monster dog, and behind his fiery brown eyes, there was a look of love and concern that made Nico feel safe and protected. His rightmost head had always been the sweetest of the three.
“You're a good boy,” Nico said, scratching him behind the ear.
Hades didn't speak to him, but he kept looking at Nico like he couldn't believe he was voluntarily hanging out with him. Nico couldn't really believe it either, but being alone with his thoughts wasn't going to go well for him at the moment.
After The Revenant ended, Hades scrolled through other movies, and Nico saw a familiar movie on his recently watched films list.
“Maybe we can watch something cheerful,” Nico said. “What about Life is Beautiful? That sounds fun.”
“I don't think you'll find it very uplifting,” Hades said. He put on a dashcam compilation of car accidents instead. “I watch this to fall asleep,” Hades said. “It's quite soothing.”
“Okay,” Nico said, yawning. Within a few minutes, he'd drifted off to sleep to the sound of metal crunching and glass breaking, with Cerberus's head snoring on his chest.
He awoke to the sound of Hades talking on the phone. He opened his eyes and checked the time; he'd been asleep for hours. He was glad his dad hadn't left him alone.
“Hera, what happened? He doesn't seem like himself,” Hades said. “Well, I warned you he talked back before I gave him to you. And I do not need your parenting advice, thank you, I've met your children.”
Nico could hear a little of what Hera was saying, because she talked really loudly, and he gathered that she was explaining, in a very biased way, what had happened, focusing mainly on the part where Nico disobeyed her and saved Commodus.
“That does not make sense to me,” Hades. “But-- But you haven't-- Fine, I will speak with you later.”
He hung up, sighing.
“Strange,” he murmured quietly. He glanced over at Nico, who shut his eyes and pretended he was still asleep. Hades reached over and pulled the blanket up over Nico's shoulders, then began flipping through channels. Nico drifted off to sleep again. Then he heard something that woke him; the news had a report about a megayacht that had sunk in a sudden storm off the coast of Southern California.
Nico sat up and looked at the video.
“That's me,” he said, pointing at a small dark haired dot on the footage. A news helicopter had caught video of the initial weather anomaly and the eventual sinking of the vessel. Nico was visible until he abruptly disappeared; Cupid's rescue was hidden by the mist.
“How did you escape?” Hades asked.
“Cupid brought me back to New York,” Nico said.
“Oh, did he now?” Hades said, raising his eyebrows.
“It wasn't a big deal,” Nico said quickly.
“I knew about the yacht incident,” Hades said, watching the yacht sink slowly into the sea. “Poseidon called me.”
“He called you? I thought you weren't speaking.”
“We weren't. But I suppose now we are. Because of you,” Hades said, turning to Nico. “Poseidon had a lot of things to say about you.”
“Like, good things?”
“You made him three hundred million dollars,” Hades said. “What do you think?”
“Huh,” Nico said, pleasantly surprised. “I guess they finally got him a good check.”
“They did indeed,” Hades said. “Now, there is one thing we must address sooner rather than later. Regarding Alabaster Torrington?”
Nico's heart sunk.
“Hecate was your trainer. As a gesture of respect, you must tell her what you did and why. She should hear it from you.”
“I know,” Nico said. “You're right. I'll tell her.”
He'd assumed he would go to her, but instead, Hades asked Hecate to meet them in the throne room. He sat on his throne and observed while Nico recounted what had happened to the distant and impassive Hecate. She stood with her arms folded, giving no indication as to whether she was upset or not.
When he was done explaining, he stood before her, waiting to see if she'd accept his heartfelt apologies for the necessity of the act.
“Nico, you have nothing to apologize for,” she said finally. “In fact I'm grateful to you. He's been on the wrong path for a long time, and I wasn't able to redirect him. I think you gave him a more merciful death than Nero would have. All I ask is that you please keep this between us,” she added. “I don't want my other children at camp to be discriminated against because of his choices. It shouldn't reflect on them.”
“Of course,” Nico said. “But I still feel terrible. It was-- I mean, obviously he's not... Here. You know,” he gestured toward Asphodel. “Stygian iron and all that.”
“He tried to kill a god, Nico,” Hecate said. “What you did was warranted by the circumstances. He knew the risk he was taking when he drew his weapon.”
“What happened to it?” Hades asked. Nico drew the twin blades he'd turned into rings and showed him.
Hades and Hecate shared a glance.
“I defer to your judgement, Lord Hades,” she said, backing away a few steps.
“Yes, you do,” Hades said sternly. “I know you obtained those from my father in the last war, and we've exchanged words on this matter already.” He turned to Nico. “Those are not to be returned to her, nor given to any other demigod, under any circumstances. Wielding Stygian iron is the privilege of the children of Hades alone. Keep them. You've proven that you can use them responsibly.”
Nico nodded, putting them back into ring form. He was definitely going to be responsible, because he didn't plan to ever use them again. At least he hoped it would never be necessary.
Hecate, to Nico's surprise, hugged him.
“Come see me sometime and we'll talk more, okay?” She said, giving him a wink, and then disappearing.
Nico turned to look up at his father.
“Son,” Hades said. “There is no need for that miserable look. You did the right thing.”
“Then why do I feel so bad about it?” He asked.
“Close your heart to it,” Hades advised. “You have too much sympathy for those who deserve it the least. It's endearing, but you will only make life harder for yourself with what I want to ask of you.”
Nico winced. Of course Hades was going to give him new orders. He'd be sent somewhere else on another task. That was how it always was.
There had to be more to life. He knew he deserved better than being a pawn of the gods. His mind went to his plans from earlier, to joining Gaea and sabotaging the war. He didn't want to hurt his father, but he couldn't live like this any longer.
Hades stood up from his throne and walked down to stand in front of Nico. He took Nico's face in his hands and examined it.
“No argument? No shouting, no tears? Who are you and what have you done with my son?”
Nico looked him in the eyes.
“I'll do whatever you want,” he said.
“That's precisely how I know you're lying,” Hades said, looking amused. “There are wicked plots behind your eyes. What are you planning to do? Plunge one of those knives in my back?”
“No,” Nico said fervently. “I would never do that. Just tell me what it is you want from me and let's get it over with.”
Hades took his arm and pulled him over to the steps that led up to his throne. He sat on the steps beside Nico, a little below him so they could see eye to eye. Nico found the whole thing weird and unlike his father. Hades had been giving off weird vibes ever since he'd come home, actually.
“I told you Poseidon called me to talk about the yacht and the business deal. More accurately, he called to talk about you. He wants you to work for him.”
“You've got to be kidding me,” Nico blurted out immediately, interrupting the next thing Hades was going to say. “After everything I've been through this summer, you're seriously going to ship me off to the bottom of the ocean? I knew it was going to be something bad, but that's worse than I could have possibly imagined. The Triumvirate want to kill me, and I'd rather go and work for them again than live underwater. I'd literally rather open a Starbucks in Tartarus. And I hate Starbucks!”
“At least you sound like your normal self again,” Hades said, looking amused.
“I'm far from my normal self,” Nico glared. “I'm not working for Poseidon, and if you want to try to make me, you can go ahead. I'll see if Gaea's taking new recruits.”
“I didn't realize you hated the ocean quite that much,” Hades said. “Not that I blame you.”
“This isn't a joke. I've already got it planned out,” Nico said. “I'm not putting up with the shitty treatment from you and Hera any longer. I don't care if I'm just a demigod and my duty is to follow orders. There's other gods offering better compensation.”
“And what is it exactly that Gaea is offering that's so much better?”
“There are rumors she's handing out whole cities for after she destroys the world order. I'm going to ask for Fort Lauderdale,” Nico said. “And I'm going to make it into a nice place for Bianca and I to live where gods and monsters don't bother us anymore.”
“You've never even been to Florida. Would you be the dictator of this city of yours?”
“I'll be whatever I have to be,” Nico said firmly.
Hades looked at him with amusement.
“Truth be told, Nico, had you not interrupted me, you'd know that I wasn't going to ask you to work beneath the sea. I had a different role for you in mind. But by all means, if you would like to work for Gaea and win your city, you ought to do it. Don't let me stop you.”
“Oh,” Nico said. “What were you going to ask me to do?”
“No, no, I like your plan better,” Hades said. “I simply must know, why Fort Lauderdale?”
“I just heard it was called the Venice of America,” Nico said. It did sound kind of stupid saying it out loud. “And if it has a fort, it would be more defensible against monsters.”
“Ah. Well, I don't see how you could possibly make Florida any worse,” Hades said. “I wish you all the best.”
“Are you being serious? You really want me to go work for Gaea?” Nico said.
“Not really. But so long as you leave the Underworld out of your world domination plot, I'll be supportive,” Hades said. “It is amusing to see you finally living up to your namesake.”
“Machiavelli?” Nico said. “Whatever. You're just making fun of me.”
“I am not,” Hades said. “I'm merely laughing because I've been to Fort Lauderdale. But I admire your ambition. I always thought you ought to have more of it.”
“I just want to be able to live my own life,” Nico said. “If that's what you consider ambitious, I think that's pretty bleak. It's not my fault I have to go to extreme measures.”
Hades put his arm around Nico's shoulders, catching him off guard. He wasn't sure why his father was being so nice when Nico was saying things that were objectively seditious. Maybe Hades genuinely didn't care whether Gaea yanked Olympus out of the sky. He actually seemed very into the idea, even though he clearly didn't take it that seriously.
“I have a less extreme measure for you to consider,” he said. “Come with me. I want to show you something.”
He brought Nico to the library. Nico kept asking him what it was, but Hades insisted on doing a dramatic reveal.
There was something new in the library. It was a small writing desk with something sitting on it.
Nico went over to the desk and picked up the square object. It was a slim black laptop with a shiny red pomegranate logo on the back.
“You're giving me a computer?” Nico said, pleasantly surprised.
Hades snatched it from his hands.
“Conditional on your acceptance,” Hades said. “Now, I will finish my explanation from earlier, which you interrupted with your wild assumptions. Poseidon called to ask whether he could poach you from your job with the Triumvirate. I explained that you were in fact employed by Hera. He indicated that he was planning to call Hera to poach you from her, and I said, naturally, that he wasn't authorized to do so, because I intended to poach you from Hera instead. And he said that I didn't have the authority to authorize him, and that he was going to call her anyway, and I said that I was going to call her first, and we both called her.”
“And?”
“She didn't pick up,” Hades said. “But you came back on your own anyway. The point is that I want you working here from now on.”
“Wow,” Nico said. “So all I had to do was pit you against your siblings and I get a computer and a new job?”
“It's obviously far more complicated than that,” Hades said.
“Demeter wants to pay me to mow her lawn twice a week. I'll say no if I can have a car.”
“What an ignorant jest! Demeter is vehemently opposed to the concept of lawns,” Hades said.
“What is it you want me to do? Is this a real job, or do you just not want me working for other people?” Nico asked, running a hand across his shiny new desk.
“I've given it some thought,” Hades said. “I've always had a difficult time deciding what to do with you. Persephone wants me to let you strut around the palace like you own the place, and Hera seems to think you're meant to be slaving away in service to Olympus. I've fallen somewhere in between the two camps at various times. But I had a revelation when Poseidon remarked that he thought you were a born diplomat. It hadn't occurred to me, but I realized he had a point. I can't deny that you've made a few strides in that arena. I think you must have inherited your grandfather's skills.”
“The one who worked for Mussolini?” Nico said. “I guess I worked for Commodus. Maybe we are kind of alike.”
“You're much better suited to that work than you are to the typical monster slaying. I'm not sure why it took me so long to realize it. None of my other children were accomplished in combat, either.”
“Yeah, Dante got to be a writer! You never pressured him into stopping a war.”
“Never mind him,” Hades said. “Are you going to cooperate?”
“But you haven't told me what you want me to do,” Nico said. “Not really.”
“Be my ambassador,” Hades said simply.
“But you're not telling me what that means.”
“You decide what it means,” Hades said. “If I knew what an ambassador ought to do, I wouldn't need you to do it for me, would I?”
Nico stared at the little desk and the computer. It was modest, but he knew that it represented something very, very important. His dad was finally seeing what Nico really brought to the table. He was going to be more than a pawn in the games of the gods; he'd be a player. He'd matter.
“Well?” Hades said impatiently.
Nico hugged him.
Hades was genuinely one of the worst huggers ever. He had a very cold and bony figure, and he was awkward with physical contact. Nico had once asked his mother if Papa was made of stone, because his skin was pale and cold like marble. Maria had found that very funny, and warned him not to say that to his father in case it hurt his feelings.
“You should stop doing things like this,” Hades said grumpily. “If you care at all about fending off accusations of nepotism.”
“This is a totally professional hug,” Nico said. “I swear. Also, I want an employment contract. With provisions about not being hired out to Olympians without my consent.”
“Hmph,” said Hades, trying to hide his smile of amusement. “Fine. Now get out your phone. Let's tell Persephone.”
It came as no surprise to Nico that Persephone had been a big factor in him getting the job. She told him she'd been pushing for him to come home since the moment he'd left to work for Hera.
“This is where you belong,” she said on speakerphone. “We're family. We have to stick together.”
He told her everything, every detail about the assignments, his observations, his theories. She and Hades agreed with him that Hera's non-interventionist policy in the war was concerning.
“There's probably more to it than we know,” Persephone said generously. “She's been working on this for years, preparing heroes. I find it hard to believe she wouldn't want to do whatever it took to stop Gaea.”
“She wants to win the war, certainly,” Hades said. “But she also wants to fight it. Weakening Gaea too much too early, or destroying her source of funding, might lead her to back down and bide her time longer. Hera's been in control of the timing so far, and if she's ready now, she won't want to delay the fulfillment of the prophecy. She was probably worried you'd buy her extra time she didn't need or want.”
“She could have said that instead of slapping me,” Nico said.
“You should have warned him about that, Hades,” Persephone said.
“He's fine,” he said. “But in future, Nico, Hera is famous for slapping people. It's like a hobby for her. I became very good at ducking when we were stuck inside of our father together.”
After the call with Persephone, Hades left him to set up his little office on his own. He booted up his computer and got familiar with it. Cerberus came in and sat with him for a while. He seemed as excited as Nico was; he kept knocking the bookshelves over with his tail.
Someone knocked on the library door, and Nico glanced up.
“Minos,” he said, standing. Minos hovered in the doorway, staring at Nico. He looked the same as always, with a bright smile that made Nico's heart ache.
“I heard about your new job,” Minos said. “Congratulations.”
“Thank you,” Nico said. “Uh, come in, sit down,” he offered, hurriedly moving books out of the way so they could both sit on the library couches.
Minos sat, his warm brown eyes gleaming in the candlelight. Nico's stomach flipped over. Despite all that had happened over the summer, his crush was still going in full force. Part of him had hoped it would fade away, but part of him was glad it hadn't.
“You've had a busy summer, I hear,” Minos said. “Hecate told us you were working for deified Roman emperors?”
“You heard about that?” Nico asked. “It's been a crazy few months. It feels good to be home.”
“I'm sure,” Minos said. “I'm not familiar with the emperors, but I've been told they're dangerous gods, and hard to work with. It can't have been easy for you. How are you doing?”
“Much better now,” Nico said. “This new job is going to be so cool. I mean, I haven't even started yet, but it feels right, you know?”
“It feels right because it's a job you've already been doing,” Minos said. “In the short time you've spent here, you've changed so many things. I don't have the words to convey to you how rarely that happens. It's something quite special. You're something quite special,” Minos added. “But I've told you that before,” he added softly.
Nico remembered the last time they'd talked, and how nothing had gone the way he'd hoped it would.
“So, we're coworkers now,” Nico said, trying not to get his hopes up. “Does that change anything for us?”
“I would think so,” Minos smiled. “Since Hades was the one who told me to come speak with you.”
Nico's jaw dropped.
“No way. Really?”
“I couldn't believe it either,” Minos said. “He must really want you to stick around this time. But I worry I was too harsh the last time we spoke. I was trying to make you see that I didn't deserve you. But I think I just ended up hurting you.”
“No, you were fine. I was being a pushy jerk,” Nico said. “I'm sorry.”
“Don't be,” Minos said. “I've always admired your passionate nature.”
“So,” Nico said. “I'm hearing that you still kind of like me?” He moved from the opposite couch to sit next to Minos on his, trying not to come across too eager.
“Of course,” Minos said. “My feelings haven't changed. I still have reservations, but not as many as before.”
“I don't want you to have any,” Nico said, taking his hand in his. “I'm serious. I don't ever want to hear you say you're not good enough for me or that I should be with a god instead. I know what I want. You've got to trust me on that.” He wasn't going to mention Eros, not in a million years, but he hoped his tone would convey how sincerely he meant that statement. He and Minos knew each other. They cared about each other. He'd pick that over feeding fish any day.
“I trust you,” Minos said, smiling.
Chapter 38: Thanatos Quits
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Chapter Text
Nico's life, for once, was pretty much perfect. He had a job he liked, a boyfriend he loved, and he and his dad were getting along great. The general mood in the Underworld was a positive one, because it was late August, and on September 21st, Persephone was coming home. The last few weeks of summer were always the Underworld's most energized and productive.
Nico had been home for a few weeks when Hades called a staff meeting. The crew was assembled on the Asphodel terrace: The Furies, the judges, Hypnos, Morpheus, and a few of the other oneiroi. Charon came and stood right beside Nico silently. He was a bit hard to read, but Nico was pretty sure Charon had missed him.
“I want everyone working overtime for the next few weeks,” Hades said. “My queen deserves to come home to a clean house-- that means I want the soul processing line to not wrap around six times like it does now.”
“Maybe if Minos wasn't taking so many breaks,” Aeacus muttered under his breath.
“Nico, I want a comprehensive report of everything you've been working on. Don't make me regret giving you control of your own projects. I can have you back on that chores list like that,” Hades said, snapping his fingers.
Hecate walked into the meeting hurriedly, her dress stained with green and purple splotches of something.
“I know I'm late,” she said. “Sorry, I had a potion explode on me this morning. One of the dogs pissed in my cauldron.”
“Lateness won't be tolerated!” Hades said. “No excuses! You are officially out of the running for the Punctuality Sticker this month!”
“I didn't even know we were doing punctuality stickers,” she said. “How many stickers are there?”
“I've lost count,” Hades said.
“You missed it,” Morpheus said to Nico. “This summer he's been trying to keep up with Persephone's sticker program, but he forgot what they were and just started making up the criteria for winning them. I got a sticker last month for uniform tidiness.”
“No talking out of turn!” Hades said.
“Do I get a talking out of turn sticker for that?” Morpheus asked, winking at Nico.
“Oh,” Hades said. “Right, yes.” He pulled a plastic bag of loose stickers out of his pocket and dug through them. “Was that the strawberry?”
“It was the one that looks like a sad egg,” Morpheus said.
Hades pulled the sad egg sticker out and gave it to Morpheus.
“Let that be a lesson to you,” he said sternly. “Anyway, where was I?”
“I was saying that my potion exploded,” Hecate said. “Can I get an extra set of hands to help remake it? Isis is working on a big project and she's counting on her order being ready.”
“Nico can help. He's hardly doing anything,” Hades said.
“Actually, I just got off the phone with Poseidon,” Nico said. “You're going to loan him money for a resort refurbishment at a crazy high interest rate. He'll be in your debt for the next thousand years.”
“Is that what ambassadors do?” Hypnos asked. “Sounds more like a predatory loan scheme.”
“Nico is developing a unique style of Underworld diplomacy tailored to my specific interests,” Hades said. “And I'm specifically interested in my brother owing me money.”
“I'm mostly done, though,” Nico told Hecate. “I can help you.”
Hades continued the meeting, and was just about to dismiss everyone when a familiar figure swooped in on winged shoes.
“Did I miss it?” Hermes asked.
“Yes,” Hades frowned.
“Good. See ya,” Hermes said, turning around to swoop back where he came from. Hades grabbed his shoulder and kept him on the ground.
“Your numbers aren't good,” Hades said darkly. “We need to have a chat.”
“I'd love to, Uncle, really,” Hermes said. “But I've got like three other places I need to be. Hey, what is the demigod doing here? I thought he was Commodus's latest boy toy?”
“That was last month,” Hades said. “If you read my emails you'd know he's my ambassador now.”
“Does Hera know that?”
“If she reads my emails, yes,” Hades said.
“Dude, nobody reads your emails,” Hermes said.
“I know that!” Hades shouted. “Why do you think I need an ambassador? It's time I finally started getting some respect!”
“Alright, I get it, stop yelling at me!” Hermes said. “I'm out of here. I've got stuff to do.”
He flew away before Hades could snatch him by the sandal and yank him back to the ground.
“Everybody out! Go work for once in your immortal lives!” Hades said, frustrated. He stormed back into the palace.
“Yikes,” said Hecate. “Nico, are you ready?”
Nico shadow traveled back to her cave, where she showed him the horrible, toxic mess of green sludge the potion had left behind when it exploded.
“I don't even have time to clean up,” she said. “Let's just get started. I need all these piglets gutted and drained. Blood goes in here, offal goes in here,” she said, pointing to two big orange Home Depot buckets sitting next to a plastic tub full of noisy, squirming piglets. “They're added to the potion in two separate steps. Please hurry, this all has to be done by hand and Isis will be here any minute to pick up her order.”
Nico sighed, grabbed a piglet, and got started.
Twelve piglets later, he was done.
“What next?”
“Dump the blood in here. Entrails come last. Be careful with that bucket!” She added. Her hair was matted with congealed potion, and her face was damp from the steam rising off the cauldron.
Nico dumped the blood into the cauldron and watched as it bubbled and changed colors.
“What's this for?” He asked as Hecate stirred the concoction.
“Isis wants a potion to help Osiris not be blue anymore,” Hecate said. “She's tried a thousand things, but she wants to try a thousand and one. I owe her, so I can't fuck this up.”
Nico watched Hecate scramble to speak the right incantations in the right order and dump the right ingredients in. He felt bad. If she was upset about Alabaster, that sucked, and if she didn't care at all, that sucked in a different way. In any case, he felt bad. She'd been a good teacher to him, and he'd never forget how she'd helped him in her subtle way to get in touch with Artemis on Bianca's behalf.
She stepped aside for a breather while the potion roiled in the cauldron.
“You okay?” Nico asked.
“Fine,” she smiled. “A little excitement is good. Livens up the eternity. Speaking of which, congrats on the new job. You needed something more long term. Your old gig was pretty unsustainable.”
“That's one way of putting it,” he said.
“What were the vibes like between you and Alabaster while you worked with him?” She asked.
“Usually bad. We kept our distance. I slept and ate in the same apartment with him for months and I felt like I never even got to know him. I thought we could have a lot in common, but I guess i'll never find out now.”
“You're not alike at all,” she said. “I'm not sure where you got the idea you had anything in common.”
“We were both Underworld demigods serving crazy gods,” he said. “We were both necromancers. It's not like there's a ton of those around these days.”
She sighed, leaning over the cauldron to check on the bubbling potion.
“You two were fundamentally different beings,” she said, her eyes unfocused. “I think on some level, he knew that.”
“I was just lonely, I guess,” Nico shrugged. “But I'm not anymore. I have a boyfriend now,” he grinned.
“How is that going?” She smiled.
“Great. He's very old fashioned. He keeps wanting to give me gifts, but he can't really shop for military uniforms and oxen down here. I got a cup, so that's nice,” he shrugged.
“As long as you're happy, that's all that matters,” she said. “Have you given up resurrecting your sister?”
“What?” Nico was taken aback. “Why would you ask that?”
“Add the entrails, please,” she said, gripping the cauldron rim and watching with bated breath as the intestines splattered into the brew. “I ask because it sounds like you're finally getting your life together. You have Minos, you have a job you enjoy. Your father's pleased with you, and Persephone will be home soon to tie it all together. Why would you mess up a good thing?”
“Mess up a good thing,” Nico repeated. “You know what really messed up a good thing? When Bianca died. She was only twelve, she was all I had, and she left me-- I mean, her death left me all alone,” he said.
“But people die all the time,” Hecate shrugged.
“I'm not most people,” Nico said. “I'm doing what I can. If I fail, I can say I tried.”
“Did she ask you for this?”
“No, but that doesn't matter. I know she wants,” Nico said. “And I'm going to give her a great life.”
“It's a noble goal, but it seems like you'd be throwing away everything you've worked for.”
“I don't care,” Nico said. “I'm not happy about that part of it, but at the end of the day, Bianca is my sister. I'd do anything for her, and she'd do anything for me. That's just how family works.”
“I must have missed the memo,” Hecate said, “You killed my son and I basically thanked you for it.”
Nico went silent.
“Hecate, I'm--”
“I'm not looking for another apology, I'm making a point,” she said. “Family is complicated. People are complicated. Sometimes they die, and that's okay. Not good, but okay. Also, you get really knee-jerky and defensive about your sister.”
“I know I do,” Nico admitted. “That's why it's better we don't talk about it. It's not a subject I deal with well.”
“Did you even like her?” She added.
“Stop,” he said darkly.
“Fine,” Hecate said. “Just so you know, I'm being real with you because I consider you a friend. That's just how it works with me.”
“Thank you,” Nico said, his frustration with her dissolving entirely at the word 'friend.' “That means a lot.”
“Shut up and stir the guts,” she said, pointing at the intestines floating in the potion.
Nico took an oversized spoon and started stirring.
“Since we're friends, I should tell you, I have Alabaster's animal marble thingies,” he said. “Do you want them?”
“I don't know what you're talking about,” she said.
Nico took them out of his pocket and handed them to her. He'd accidentally grabbed the cigarette, too.
“He must have made these himself,” she said. “Pretty cool. Do you smoke now?”
“Yeah, he got me hooked,” Nico said.
“A bad influence to the end,” she said. She looked at the cigarette closely. “This thing will kill you.”
“I know, but I wasn't sure demigods could even get cancer, so, does it matter?” Nico said, still stirring.
“I meant this particular cigarette,” she said. “This is poison.”
Nico stopped stirring.
“If that potion fails because of you,” she tsked, pushing him out of the way and stirring the potion herself. “What's your problem?”
“He gave me that cigarette,” Nico said. “But that's the second one he gave me. I already smoked an identical one.”
She stopped stirring. He had to grab the spoon from her, because she stared at him warily.
“Okay,” she said. “So, you do realize what that means?”
“Sure do,” he said, smirking.
“And you're not shocked? You feel good about this?”
“I just think it's funny,” he said. “I begged my dad to take me off the no-ride list before I left for the mission. Now I'm glad he didn't. I get to cheat death a while longer.”
“The no-ride list?” Hecate asked, looking lost.
“Yeah, he wanted me to finish my chores, and he was worried I'd kill myself if he didn't stop me somehow.”
“Only a child of Hades would commit suicide to get out of chores,” she said, looking exasperated.
“I mean, I've been to Elysium,” he smiled. “What's not to like?”
Hecate was very weird about the whole thing. She gave him back the marbles and cigarette, and he promised to leave them to her in his will. She didn't find it funny. He practically skipped back to see Minos after the potion was done.
“I'm borrowing him,” he announced to the judges cheerfully.
“We're working,” Aeacus snapped.
“Aw, let them have their fun,” Rhadamanthys said. “You were young once.”
“Minos is hardly young!” Aeacus said. “If he gets a boyfriend, we should each get one too! It isn't fair!”
“Nico, dear one,” Minos said sweetly. “We do have quite a lot of shades waiting at the moment.”
“Fine,” Nico said, hopping with anticipation. “Meet me in my office later, okay?”
He traveled back up to the palace and waited, checking his emails to pass the time. Poseidon was bristling at the interest rate on his loan, Ariadne had invited him to a wine tasting for that year's vintage, and Hera was insisting that he make himself available for his final duty to her; spying on the onager delivery at Camp Jupiter. That was almost eight months away. Nico deleted the email, but he knew he didn't have a good excuse not to do it. He'd have to make sure Hades kept him on the no-ride list until then.
Also, there was a war starting shortly after that onager delivery. Hades had assured him the seventh hero would arrive, but Nico had worried he'd still be forced to participate somehow. At least now he had an excuse not to participate; he was literally deceased. Sort of.
His phone buzzed with a text message; it was from Annabeth. Nico hadn't had the guts to contact Athena; he was certain she'd hate him for eternity, so there was no diplomatic channel open to him. But her daughter was a big player on the demigod stage with a direct line to her mother, so he made the connection where he could.
“I'm speechless,” was all she'd texted.
His diplomatic gift must have arrived. He was very proud of it. He'd picked out a gorgeous dress, if he did say so himself, a sleek black v-neck with a golden gorgoneion symbol on the belt. It was Versace, naturally. He'd included two tickets to see Hadestown on Broadway and some pomegranates just to be funny. The note had read, “Sorry I kidnapped you :)”
He'd never seen Hadestown, so he hoped it wasn't stupid, since that would ruin the impact of the gift. Another message buzzed.
“Percy has to buy a new suit. He doesn't have anything nice enough to go with this gorgeous dress. How did you know my size? Also, Versace, haha, very funny.”
Then she sent another message.
“Di immortales, how much did you spend on this dress? I'm scared to wear it.”
“Don't worry about that, just have fun,” he texted her back.
Minos knocked on the library door, and Nico shut his computer and hurried over to him.
“I have big news,” he said, taking Minos by the hand and leading him in. He kissed him on the cheek and looked at him excitedly.
“It must be good news,” Minos said, observing his demeanor.
“I'm dead!” Nico announced.
“I can see very clearly that you're not dead,” Minos said.“Is there some joke I'm not getting?”
“No, it's true! I accidentally poisoned myself, but I'm on Charon's no-ride list, so I won't physically die until I'm taken off it,” Nico said.
“Oh, no,” Minos exclaimed. He didn't seem super upset, because he was a shade with blunted emotions, but he did seem mildly bothered. “How long can you stay on the list? Is there a time limit?”
“No, it's just up to my dad.”
“Then you must go,” Minos said, clutching both of Nico's hands in his own. “Live your remaining days on the surface and enjoy what time you have left.”
“I'm not doing that,” Nico said. “I have you. I have my job. I'm good.”
“You don't understand,” Minos said. “Once you become a shade, your father will likely have you continue working at your same role. And you and I will have eternity together. But anything you wish to accomplish on the surface must be done now. I can't let you waste this precious time on me.”
Nico took in what he was saying, but he hadn't fully processed being dead yet, and the shock of the news still had him feeling oddly elated.
“I've been on the list for years. I'm still not done with my chores, and Papa isn't pushing me to do them. This isn't something I have to make a decision about right now. I just wanted to tell you we have something new in common.”
“I don't want us to have this in common until you've experienced more on the surface,” Minos said. “I lived a full life before I started this job. Aren't you afraid of missing out on the chance to be a father? To fight in wars? To rule a kingdom of your own?”
“I think I have different priorities,” Nico said gently.
“Can we at least ask your father to give you a stay of execution?” Minos said. “He might take you off the list at any moment if we don't.”
“I mean, I doubt it, but if it makes you feel better,” Nico said. He took Minos' hand, and they walked into the hallway, headed toward the throne room.
Before they stepped inside, Nico checked on Minos. He didn't look happy. Nico kissed him on the cheek again to try to cheer him up. He hadn't anticipated him reacting so strongly, and it was making him start to take the situation more seriously, too.
“Promise this won't change anything between us?” Nico said.
“I promise. You must make your own choices,” Minos said, gently brushing Nico's hair back from his face. “And I will support them, no matter what they are. You deserve to be happy in the way you choose to be.”
Nico's heart melted, and he leaned in and kissed Minos properly, a long and sweet kiss that conveyed how he was feeling better than words ever could. He pulled back and looked at his loving, handsome, supportive dead boyfriend, and Nico felt invincible. Well, nearly invincible. He was dead, after all.
At that moment, a ring of grey light appeared in the air above the palace, and a grey winged figure came hurtling out of the darkness. Minos and Nico both jumped, startled by the crack of air at the figure's appearance. A second crack of breaking stone sounded in the throne room, marking an impact with the marble floor, and Hades bellowed in surprise. His voice and another, unfamiliar voice began shouting.
Nico and Minos looked at each other.
“That was Thanatos,” Minos said. The two of them crept closer to the throne room, ducking behind a column where they had a vantage point to see what was happening.
Thanatos was a tall, pale skinned being with white blonde hair so long that it brushed the floor. His light grey mantle looked rumpled and torn. Although Nico uncharitably compared a lot of ancient Greek clothing to bedsheets, Thanato's garb was actually one overlong, flowing sheet of fabric that fluttered in an invisible breeze just above the floor. He had massive wings, taller than even he was, powerful like those of a pelican or albatross, and pure white. Nico couldn't help but draw a connection to a biblical angel when he looked at him. He had a face that looked carved out of marble.
“I can't take these working conditions any longer,” Thanatos said. “I won't tolerate the disrespect! You are a fucking slave driver! I won't put up with it anymore!”
“Watch your tongue,” Hades said, standing. “Explain yourself!”
“No! I'm done,” Thanatos said. He had a large black tablet in his hand that he tossed to the ground, shattering it into a thousand tiny pieces. Nico could see that he was weeping ichor tears from bright golden eyes set deeply in his stony face. “I quit.”
“You can't quit,” Hades said, marching down from his throne.
“I can and I will! I quit!” Thanatos screamed at him. “And you can go fuck yourself!”
He beat his wings, creating a terrible icy wind that filled Nico with an artificial feeling of horror. Minos threw an arm in front of Nico to protect him as shards of the tablet began to fly around the room. Thanatos flew off into the darkness, disappearing from view.
“Damn that boy,” Hades said, kicking a chunk of tablet that was near his foot. “Ow,” he added, wincing. “Now what am I going to-- What are you two looking at?” He snapped, catching sight of the onlookers behind the column.
“Nothing,” Nico and Minos said at once.
“I have to get in front of this,” Hades muttered. “Minos, inform the other judges to expect a near total stoppage of death traffic until I can get Hermes Psychopompos to go full time, temporarily. He'll need my brother's leave, damn him,” he scowled. “This is going to be a nightmare to untangle. You and your brothers had better not take this as an opportunity to slack off,” he pointed a tapered white finger at Minos. “I know you've got a paperwork backlog a mile long.”
“Yes, Lord Hades,” Minos bowed. “We'll handle it.” He scurried away, glancing back at Nico before he went.
Hades took a deep breath, his fingers on the bridge of his nose.
“I'm assuming you want me to go talk to Thanatos,” Nico said.
“It's not that simple,” Hades said. “He'll refuse to speak with you. I can barely get a minute of his time, and I'm his supervisor. Gifts don't turn his head, but you can buy a moment of his time with the right offering to Nyx. She'll intercede with him on your behalf.”
“What can I give her?”
“A hippocampus tail,” Hades said. “There was one on your chores list, because I like to have them in reserve when I need her assistance. But this is an extreme case, so just any tail won't do. We need an albino hippocampus. Poseidon doesn't offer them up, normally, but I think you'll merit one after your business dealings with him. But you can't give him an excuse to say no. You need to sacrifice a flawless bull calf on the Camp Half Blood beach where the hippocampi live. Do it in Poseidon's name, then burn it on a driftwood pyre, and only then ask permission to sacrifice an albino hippocampus to me. Use the most formal ritual words you know. I don't have time to walk you through it, but you can't afford to fail. This is an unmitigated disaster,” he said, running his hands through his hair anxiously.
“It's going to be okay, Papa,” Nico said. “I'll get Thanatos to talk. This is why I'm here, right?”
Hades shot him a grateful look, and Nico shadow traveled to the surface to begin his new mission without delay.
He went to the place he felt would most likely have a flawless bull calf— Texas. He ended up in field nowhere near civilization. Not a great start. He knew Texas was big, but he shadow traveled three more times and still found nothing but fields. One was full of cows, which was what he'd been hoping for. He went up to the fence and squinted at them, but he had no way to know if any were flawless.
He wasn't sure what he'd been expecting. Maybe he'd thought one would be glittery and have golden hooves or something. He pulled out his phone and did a little research, finding that the East Texas Livestock Auction wasn't far away, and it was starting any minute. The fates were on his side, it seemed.
He arrived outside the auction house and found himself surrounded by old white men in jeans. He glanced around for some information, hoping for a ranking of calves with one having a blue ribbon of some kind to denote its perfection, but it wasn't going to be that easy.
He walked up to the man nearest to him, who had a big white moustache and a cowboy hat.
“Hi, I need to buy a flawless calf. Can you help?”
“Go home, spooky boy,” the man said in a thick Texas accent. “This is for professionals, not for your little Tiktok nonsense.”
He was similarly ignored by a few other men, who all seemed to think he was trying to get internet content out of the experience. It was very disheartening. He didn't have a clue what to do.
He went up to a young man who was standing by the door. He was tanned, blonde, and very cute in his blue jeans, but more importantly, he was Nico's age and hopefully less prejudiced against young people.
“Do you work here?” Nico asked.
“I'm here with my grandpa,” the young man said. His accent was easier to understand, and very charming.
“Okay, listen,” Nico said. “I need someone to buy a calf on my behalf. I don't have a clue how this works, so I have to hire an expert buyer. I'll pay you, say, a thousand dollars? Does that seem fair for a buyer's fee?”
“I'd help you, but I don't even know you,” he said. “There's a chance you ain't got that kind of money and you're trying to pull something for Tiktok.”
“Why does everyone keep saying that? I don't know what Tiktack is,” Nico said, frustrated. “Pull up your bank account.”
The young man did, and Nico pulled out his Underworld credit card and tapped it on the phone.
“Well, damn,” The man said, seeing the money deposit directly into his account. “Guess you were telling the truth.”
“I need a flawless bull calf,” Nico said. “It has to be absolutely perfect. Money's no object. Do you understand?”
“I'll try,” the young man said. “I gotta go now, the auction's starting,” he said, hurrying off.
Nico waited outside, pacing nervously. He was sure the calf would be pretty good, but would it be flawless? He didn't have a list of criteria to go by, just vibes.
Some time later, the young man reappeared. He was leading a young calf on a rope. It was small and reddish brown, and it was absolutely beautiful. He had long eyelashes, big, soulful eyes, and a little pink tongue poking out of his mouth. The vibes were immaculate.
Nico approached him cautiously, in awe of his beauty.
“You're so perfect I can barely look at you,” Nico whispered.
“It's just a calf,” an old man said. “What are you, some kind of weirdo?” He was the same old guy who'd called Nico spooky earlier. He'd walked up to oversee the transaction with a skeptical look on his face.
“This is my grandpa,” the young man explained. “He still thinks you're trying to scam us. The calf was about nine hundred dollars, so we can just call it even. He's all yours.”
He handed the rope to Nico, who held it gingerly between two fingers.
The calf pulled and started to wander away, and the rope was tugged out of Nico's hands. The young man grabbed it.
“Why did you just let him go?”
“I didn't want to hurt his neck,” Nico said. “I can't afford to let anything happen to him. I need him for something, really, really important.”
The young man looked at his grandpa. Both of them seemed very confused by Nico's behavior.
“Okay,” Nico said, taking a deep breath. “I'll go slow and gentle, and it'll be fine.”
He reached down and very cautiously wrapped his arms around the calf's ribs, picking him up awkwardly and holding him in front of him.
“Jesus, you're stronger than you look, kid,” the grandpa said, looking stunned.
“He's heavier than I expected,” Nico said, finding it challenging to keep a grip on it. “Okay. Bye guys. Thank you.”
He shadow traveled directly to Camp Half Blood. Or he thought he did. When he looked around, he hadn't moved anywhere.
The grandpa and young man were staring at him.
“Do you need help getting him to your trailer?” The young man said. “You should put him down. He looks upset.”
The calf was giving Nico a very critical side-eye. Nico set him down cautiously. So the calf didn't like shadow travel. Maybe there was a weight limit, or the calf was actually so flawless that he'd been imbued with magical qualities. In any case, Nico now had a conundrum.
“I don't have a truck,” Nico said.
“How did you get here?” The young man asked.
“Walked.”
That was the wrong answer. Nico remembered the general landscape of the area and realized that wasn't really feasible.
“I mean, I got dropped off down the street, then walked,” he said. “But my ride ditched me. So, this is awkward, but, could you give me a ride?”
“I guess,” the grandpa sighed. “Where are you headed?”
“New York,” Nico said.
He just got stares in response.
“I guess that's pretty far away, huh?”
They kept staring.
“I need a ride to a car dealership, then,” Nico said. “And I'll drive myself.”
“But why do you need to drive a calf to New York?” The young man asked.
“It's a long story. I might have gone about this kind of stupidly,” Nico said. “I just saw online that this was a good place to buy a cow. I was in a hurry, okay?”
“You're crazy,” the grandpa said.
“I'll pay you whatever you think is fair,” Nico said. “Can you help?”
“Will, you take care of him,” the grandpa said, tossing him a set of keys. “I'll get a ride with one of my buddies. I've had about enough of this kid.”
He walked off and joined a group of other old men for a chat. The young man, Will, stared at Nico.
“Okay,” he said. “I guess we'd better hit the road.”</p>
Notes:
If you want to see Annabeth's dress look up "Versace Medusa '95 Midi Dress', it's the one with the gold belt and it costs $3225. Nico has expensive taste :)
Chapter Text
Nico lifted the calf into the bed of Will's grandpa's Chevy, an older model with only two doors and two seats in front. Will got the calf situated securely in the back, and got him some food and water for the journey, too.
“I didn't even think of that,” Nico said. “How long is the drive to New York?”
“Twenty five hours.”
“Two to five hours? Which is it, two or five?”
“I said twenty five,” Will repeated loudly. He held up his phone screen and showed the route to Nico.
“How is that even possible,” Nico whispered in horror.
“Not big on road trips, huh?” Will said, hopping into the driver's seat.
“I've actually only driven a car one time before,” Nico said.
Will stared at him in shock.
“And you think you're going to drive twenty five hours from Texas to New York? You'll kill yourself.”
“Heh. Probably,” Nico said, thinking that it would hardly make any difference now.
“And what about the calf? He'll need feeding and watering the whole way. You can't keep him tied up back there, you'll have to let him out for breaks.”
“Right,” Nico glanced back at the calf nervously. “I forgot about that.”
“I think I need to come with you,” Will said firmly, looking at Nico with determination.
“I can't ask you to do that,” Nico said.
“What choice do you have? There's no Uber that would ever make the drive. You can't take him on a train or bus or plane.”
“Right,” Nico said. He really did think he'd be fine driving, but someone needed to take care of the calf, and he was worried he'd screw it up. “Okay, I guess I do need you. What would be a fair price for you to take us to New York? Ten thousand?”
“Ten thousand dollars?” Will said, his eyes going wide.
“Okay, fifteen, if you insist,” Nico shrugged. He sat back in his seat, put his feet on the dash, and looked at his phone. “Cool, let's go.”
Will called his grandpa and explained what he was doing, and then they were on their way.
Nico had a ton of emails to go through. His dad was firing them off like crazy, putting everyone on high alert that anyone who could collect souls needed to start doing so. It wouldn't work; Hermes wouldn't care, and Charon wasn't the type to change his routine. Hecate kind of knew how to do it, but Nico couldn't picture her having the patience to try for long.
He put his phone away and heaved a sigh. He was doing all he could to help at the moment, but a delay was really the last thing they needed.
“You okay?” Will asked.
“Work's just crazy right now,” Nico said.
“You need to put your feet down. That's not safe,” Will said, frowning at Nico's shoes on the dashboard.
“I'll be fine.”
“I'm serious!” Will insisted. “Think about what would happen to your legs if we got in a crash! The bones would get shoved right into your abdomen. Is that what you want?”
Nico put his feet down.
“I guess not,” he said, sheepishly. He couldn't get any deader than he already was, but grievous maiming was always on the table. “Do you ever watch dashcam videos of car accidents?” Nico asked, trying to make conversation.
“No,” Will said. “That sounds horrible. Do they show people dying?”
“Of course, that's what makes it--” Nico almost said entertaining, but realized it wouldn't get a good response. “Uh, sad,” he said. “It's very sad.”
“I guess I can't really judge,” Will said. “I have this thing about medical oddities-- I just find them fascinating. Like deformities, conjoined twins, rare diseases. Some people might call that horrible, I guess.”
“That's really cool,” Nico said. “Tell me about some deformities.”
They passed some time with Will describing all sorts of rare conditions to Nico, and the two of them were sufficiently entertained. In the rear view mirror, the horizon burned fiery orange with the glow of sunset.
“The sky seems really big here,” Nico said. “And everything is so flat. Don't you get bored of all this empty space?”
“Sometimes,” Will said. “But it's not so bad. It's peaceful out at the ranch. It's better than the suburbs, for sure.”
“Are you from the suburbs? I thought were a yeehaw country cowboy,” Nico said.
“A what? Where the hell are you from? Who says stuff like that?” Will said, bursting into laughter. He had a very cute laugh, Nico noticed.
“I'm from Italy,” Nico said. “I didn't mean to offend you.”
“Really? You don't sound like it.”
“I spent a lot of time in the US growing up, so I don't have an accent,” Nico said. “But I was in private schools on the East coast. I only know about people like you from movies.”
“You sound very sheltered,” Will said. “'Yeehaw country cowboy' isn't a normal thing to say. Just for future reference.”
“Sorry, would you prefer 'rural cowperson?'”
“Dude, you're killing me,” Will laughed. “So, you're a rich European guy who went to fancy private schools?”
“Yes,” Nico said. “But the way you're saying it makes it sound like it's a bad thing.”
“Wonder why that is,” Will said, watching the road, his eyes twinkling with amusement.
They were silent for a while. Suddenly there was a low, sad moaning sound.
“What was that?” Nico said, alarmed.
“The calf,” Will said. “He's probably miserable back there. We need to stop and check on him.”
They pulled over, and Will went to make sure the calf was okay. Nico looked at the GPS. It had been hours, but looking at the little dot's position on the map, they'd barely made any progress. Nico worried they were going to take a lot longer than twenty five hours if they kept stopping. There were people out there not dying while he sat and waited around.
He checked his phone, looking at the live feed of death traffic. Without Thanatos fetching souls, the death processing line at the judges' stand had dwindled to a handful of people. Soon there would be no one left to judge, and the Underworld ecosystem would shudder to a total stop.
What did that look like on the other side? Were mortals going to realize they were temporarily immortal and begin celebrating their good fortune? Nico didn't even need to be on the no-ride list anymore. In a way, everyone was on it, since Thanatos was no longer providing rides.
Will hopped back into the driver's seat.
“Can you go any faster?” Nico said. “I'm on a tight schedule.”
“I've been going 80,” Will said. “We'll be lucky if this truck even makes it halfway there before it breaks down. She's got a lot of mileage on her.” He tapped on the odometer, but Nico didn't know what an odometer was.
“I'll buy you a new truck,” Nico said. “Three, if that's what it takes.”
“I'm also getting hungry. And tired.”
“I can drive,” Nico said. “I'm perfectly good at it. Just give me a chance.”
Will was skeptical, and he insisted on driving for a while longer, but eventually he gave Nico permission to drive a mile in a straight line to take them through a McDonalds drive thru window. Nico was too stressed to feel hungry, but Will insisted he order some food, assuming he'd get hungry later.
“We're making great time,” Will said as he ate his hamburger.
Nico picked at his french fries, but he had no appetite. They'd stopped outside a hospital to eat. He kept glancing at it, wondering what was happening inside. He didn't sense anyone dying, which was kind of freaky. Usually hospitals practically reeked of death.
He suddenly thought of Maria Bova. It had been a long time since he'd dreamt of her asleep on the hospital room floor. But he didn't recall seeing her mother Rosa come through the death receiving line for judgement. Surely she wasn't still alive? She'd had whatever illness had put her in the hospital for months now, and she'd had an aura of death back before that had even happened.
Will took one last sip of his large sweet tea and started the truck again.
“I'm just going to drive until I see a motel or something, then I'm gonna need to crash. I'm not sure you're qualified to drive in the dark. Or at all.”
“I totally am,” Nico insisted. He was starting to find Will's goody-two-shoes-ness annoying. The kid was lucky he was good looking, or Nico would have gotten snippy with him long before now. “I have excellent night vision.”
“Do you have a license?”
“License for what?”
“Driving!” Will said, side-eyeing him with horror.
“Pshh,” Nico said. “I know what I'm doing. I'm putting some music on.” He started playing his favorite playlist, an opera best-of collection that both his dad and Minos had also liked. Well, Minos had pretended to like it for his sake. It still counted.
Thinking of him, he texted Minos some heart emojis, and got some in response immediately. It had taken him an hour to teach Minos to do that. Worth it, in his opinion.
Will lasted about ten minutes before he insisted they change it.
“If I'm driving the full twenty five hours, I need my DJ to not make my ears bleed,” he said. “Please play the radio if you don't have anything other than opera.”
Nico scrolled through his playlists, then sheepishly turned the radio on. Maybe he did need to diversify his music library. He'd never seen a need to before.
“Who do you keep texting?” Will asked, yawning.
“My boyfriend,” Nico said casually.
“Oh,” Will said, the tone of his voice changing.
“Oh, what?” Nico said.
“I just... Didn't expect you to say that. You didn't even hesitate,” Will said.
“Why would I?” Nico asked.
Will was quiet for a moment.
“I didn't know I was that obvious,” he muttered.
“What on earth are you talking about? What's obvious?” Nico asked, confused. Will turned the radio down.
“I'm gay,” he said. “Were you able to tell that easily?”
“Oh,” Nico said, understanding, sort of, what Will had meant. “No, I didn't think you were obvious. I just assume everyone is bi until I hear otherwise. The people I hang around with usually are. But I've heard about homophobia. I'm not that sheltered.”
“Wow,” Will said, in awe. “East coast private schools must really be something else.”
“Uh, I guess,” Nico said, not sure how to explain what his experience with sexuality had been like without giving a history lesson on ancient Greece. “Your situation must have been very different,” he said. “In Texas.”
“You could say that,” Will said. He sighed, seeming like he'd rather not talk about it, but felt obligated to. “I guess, since you're not from here-- I know we're in Arkansas right now, but it's not any different than Texas-- I can tell you a thing or two. It's not that easy being gay in the south. Not in the part I'm from. You should know that, for your own safety, it's better you don't bring up that boyfriend of yours. Unless you're telling someone like me,” he said. “Or we're in a city, during the daytime, in a public place.”
“Oh,” Nico said. “Are you telling me that because you've had a bad experience?”
“I'd rather not get into it,” Will said. “Just, when we get to this motel, let's say we're cousins, okay?”
“Okay,” Nico said. “Don't worry. If they give us any trouble, I'll handle it.”
“Normally I'd make a joke about you being kind of skinny and not that intimidating,” Will said. “But I saw you pick up that calf, so I'm just gonna say thanks. Speaking of which, we'll need to sneak her into the room.”
Nico agreed, but secretly he was getting really fed up with the delays. First eating, then sleeping? The fate of the world depended on him getting to work his diplomatic magic on Thanatos, ASAP. There were people out there not dying-- it was a disaster.
Will pulled into a hotel when they got to Memphis. Nico was horrified that they were stopping so early, but Will said he'd woken up at something called 'ranch time,' which Nico could only imagine was some kind of ungodly hour, such as eight in the morning.
Nico paid for a room and put their names down as Achilles and Patroclus. Will asked where he'd gotten those names from, and Nico told him they were very famous cousins from a movie. The motel was dog friendly, and Nico insisted that the calf in the back of their truck was a German Shepherd. When the desk clerk checked, he did in fact see a German Shepherd, although he could have sworn there was something else there earlier.
Will took a shower while Nico carried the calf into the hotel room and settled it on a bed of blankets in front of the TV. He was sitting beside it and admiring the sheen of its coat while they watched the news. There was no mention of the death anomalies, but it was only a matter of time.
Nico got a call from Hades and accepted it.
“Where are you? Where is the sacrifice? I know you haven't done it yet.”
“I'm in Memphis,” Nico said.
“What? That's nowhere near the ocean, let alone Camp Half Blood!” Hades roared.
“I had to go to Texas to get the calf,” Nico said. “Then it didn't like shadow travel for some reason.”
“Oh,” Hades paused. “It must be a good one, then. They're particular that way.”
“I have to drive it to New York. It's really far,” Nico said.
“There must have been a flawless calf closer,” Hades said. “I don't think you're taking this seriously. We're all down here, working our-- Oh my,” he gasped. “Those eyes!”
Nico had turned his camera on and pointed it at the calf.
“That's a very nice calf,” Hades said, clearing his throat. “Perhaps, after you sacrifice this one to my brother, later on, you'll think of me, your only father, who has done so much for you lately.”
“What's so great about the sacrifice part?” Nico asked. “I mean, he's awesome, but wouldn't you rather have him alive?”
“It's hard to put into words if you've never experienced it,” Hades said. “But it looks like you're doing at least something right. Pick up the pace! No slacking!”
“I will, Papa,” Nico sighed.
“And go ahead and place an order for another calf for later.”
“I will, Papa, got it, okay, gotta go,” Nico said, seeing that Will was coming out of the shower and hanging up.
Will walked out of the shower in a motel-provided robe, scrubbing his hair with a towel. He looked very cute all pink and shiny and damp, but Nico kept his thoughts to himself, since he was in a relationship.
“That was your dad, I'm assuming,” Will said cautiously.
“Yeah.”
“Oh, thank god,” Will said, “I was scared you called your boyfriend papa.”
“No,” Nico said. “We both work for my dad, so that would get confusing and uncomfortable for all of us very quickly.”
“And what language was that you were speaking?”
“Italian,” Nico said.
“Was it?” Will asked innocently.
“Yes, I told you I was from Italy,” Nico said.
“Right,” Will said, sitting on the edge of one of the beds. “That's funny, because I'm studying Latin right now, and I'm one hundred percent positive a lot of those words were Latin.”
“Well, Italian actually comes from Latin,” Nico said quickly. “They're very similar.”
“Not that similar,” Will said. “I'm not stupid, I understand how etymology works. Why would you lie? You don't seem like the type to get embarrassed about being a nerd. Or about anything.”
Nico was speechless. He'd underestimated this cowboy severely. He'd forgotten that normal mortals weren't all total idiots.
“Also, we need to talk about this guy,” Will said, pointing at the calf on the floor beside Nico. “What exactly are you doing with it? Part of me doesn't want to know, but my imagination is running wild and I have to know.”
“A large percentage of your pay is a 'don't ask' fee,” Nico said coldly. “I thought that was implied.”
“You're really not going to tell me?”
Nico hesitated. If he insisted, Will might drop it and drive him to New York in total silence. But he wasn't sure he wanted that. He seemed like a nice guy, and he'd been interesting to talk to.
“My dad is a Classics professor at a University in New York,” he said. “My boyfriend and I are his assistants. He wants to recreate an ancient sacrifice to Poseidon on a beach in Long Island. We speak Latin because it's part of our job.”
Will stared for a second.
“Damn. Maybe I should've gone to a liberal arts school after all. That sounds cool.”
“What do you do?”
“I was wondering if you'd ever bother asking,” Will said. “I'm a bio major at UT Austin. Pre-med. Well, I was pre-med, now I'm not sure.”
“Not sure?”
He shook his head.
“Long story. Too tired.”
Nico left him alone so he could sleep, but Nico was buzzing with energy and dying to get back on the road. He crept over to look at Will while he slept and had an idea.
He stole a page right out of Alabaster's old playbook and knocked Will and the calf out cold. Then he heaved him and the calf both into the back of the truck, shut the tailgate, and started blasting his opera music, heading for Long Island by the fastest route.
He was really glad he'd thought to put Will to sleep in the back, because he was speeding like a maniac. He got pulled over twice and had to use the Mist to get out of tickets both times, but he was making excellent time
Somewhere around 8 AM the next morning, the truck started making a weird noise, and Nico pulled over. They were on a highway deep in the Appalachian mountains, surrounded by thick forest.
He looked at the engine and had no idea what to do. He considered buying a new truck and just moving Will and the calf into it for the duration, but he figured that was a little too far, since it was Will's grandpa's truck. Maybe it was a simple mechanical fix, and Will could bang a wrench on the engine and get her going again. Also, Nico was sick of driving.
He had the bright idea to put Will in the passenger seat before he tried to explain what had happened. Keeping him in the truck bed all night would probably make him mad, if he ever found out about it.
“Wake up, sleepyheads,” he said, shaking Will and the calf awake and releasing the spell.
Will stirred and blinked awake.
“What the hell?” He said. “Where are we? Wasn't I just in the motel?”
“Don't you remember?” Nico said. “I asked if I could hit the road and you were all for it. You went right back to sleep once you got in the car.”
“God dammit,” Will said. “I must have been sleepwalking again. I do that sometimes. I don't know what I said, Nico, but I was actually asleep. I'd have never let you drive if I was in my right mind.”
“Oh, darn,” Nico said. “And now we're already in--” He checked the map. “Wytheville, Virginia. A real metropolis, as you can see.”
“Virginia? You drove all night?” Will asked, shocked.
“Also the truck broke down.”
“Not surprising,” Will muttered, climbing out to look at the engine. “Lemme at her.”
It turned out the truck was beyond any fixing. Will talked about trying to walk to a service station, but Nico absolutely refused to tolerate any more delays. He claimed he 'had a guy' and walked straight into the woods, entrusting Will with the precious calf.
Nico shadow traveled to a dealership and bought the most expensive truck they had with his Cthonic credit card. It took a little bit of mist to speed up the process, since the transaction was a little unorthodox, but he was eventually able to drive it off the lot and go pick up Will where he'd pulled over on the side of the highway.
“This is impressive,” Will said. “Rental cars usually aren't this nice.”
“I bought this,” Nico said. “It's yours, after this trip.”
“No way,” Will said. “I can't let you do that. Just get the old one fixed up and I'll be more than happy with what you're already paying me.”
“I'll get the other sent back to you somehow,” Nico said. “It's your grandpa's, right? So the new one can be yours.” He'd sneak back later and shadow travel it to them, it wouldn't take long.
“But--”
“Will you quit arguing and just do your damn job?” Nico said, getting really annoyed. “I just drove all night, I'm not in the mood for this.”
Will pursed his lips, said nothing, and got them back on the road.
He was quiet for an hour or so, until Nico, bored, asked how the calf was.
“He's held up great,” Will said. “He must have slept very soundly. I guess we both did.” He gave Nico a wary glance. “I realize you must be worn out. Why don't you get some sleep?”
“I'm okay,” Nico said, more annoyed than tired.
“You're being incredibly generous. I'm just kind of overwhelmed.”
“This isn't charity,” Nico said. “It's an emergency, and I've been authorized to spare no expense. If anything, that money ought to motivate you to drive like a bat out of hell. Speaking of which, you need to go faster. I'll pay for any tickets we get.”
“Understood,” Will said.
He must have internalized Nico's earlier remark about the 'don't ask' fee, because Nico knew that literally no part of the story he'd given Will made any sense. Every time he glanced down at his phone, there were more panicked emails from Underworld deities. Apparently Hermes hadn't even shown up to work yet.
A horrible sensation of anxiety twisted in Nico's gut. Everything felt wrong, and he felt totally powerless to do anything. Sitting in a truck wasting time was the last thing he wanted to be doing.
He knew it was unlikely to be of any use, but he sent a quick text to Charon asking how things were going. He got a thumbs up and a gif of a sleepy kitten that had the word relax printed in sparkly pink letters on it.
“You certainly have a way with words,” Nico responded to him. “You're right, I'm doing all I can. It's not my fault Thanatos randomly decided to quit.”
Another thumbs up came through.
He checked Godstagram and saw that Hermes had posted a selfie with Zeus on a golf course. They were wearing matching visors with lightning bolts on them.
“Father-son bonding time at the links,” he'd captioned it. It was location tagged with “Mar-a-Lago,” which meant nothing to Nico, but he could deduce that they were making a clear statement about their lack of concern for the Underworld's emergency situation. Typical, Nico thought. He shut off his phone and dozed off for a while.
When he woke up, they were much closer to New York than they'd been before. Will was playing his own music, mostly classic rock.
“Is the music bothering you?” Will said, glancing at Nico warily.
“It's fine,” Nico said, ambivalent. He glanced at the map. “Seven hours left. We'll be there by nightfall. I think I can work with that.”
“Um, maybe this is a dumb question, but can I stop to eat and use the bathroom?” Will asked. “Or are you going to tell me you're paying me enough that I shouldn't have to?”
“I'm not that cruel and unusual,” Nico said, finding it amusing that he'd had such an intimidating effect on Will. Not long ago, he'd been serving Commodus with the same trepidation, only worse. If only Will knew how scary some bosses could be, he'd be more grateful it was just Nico he was dealing with. “Stop whenever you need to,” Nico said generously. “And I'll buy you a sandwich.”
Will's grandpa called him while they stopped for lunch, and Will gave him an update on where they were and what had happened with the truck.
“But he bought me a new one,” Will insisted, “And he's having the old one sent home, too.”
“A new one?” His grandfather asked. “You sure this isn't some kind of scam? I'm questioning this odd fella's intentions with you. You're a good boy, but you're too trusting. That new truck could get repossessed. Before you know it you're locked in a basement with a sock stuffed in your mouth. I've seen it on the news.”
“Grandpa, you're on speaker,” Will hissed. “He heard that.”
“Don't worry, sir,” Nico said. “Will is in good hands. I won't tie the ropes too tight or anything, I promise.”
“Will, you call the police if he tries anything!” His grandfather said.
“He's kidding! Gotta go now,” Will said quickly, hanging up. “Geez. You are not funny,” he said, as Nico snickered. Will was trying not to smile, and the tension between them eased slightly.
He was finished with his sandwich, so he started the truck again and got them back on the road.
“He's protective of you,” Nico chuckled. “That's sweet.”
“He worries about me a lot,” Will said, merging onto the highway and getting up to speed. He hadn't dipped below eighty miles per hour for ages, which Nico was pleased about. “Ever since I came out as gay, he's been looking out for me. I think he sees me as vulnerable. He even insisted I take online classes instead of living on campus. It made him nervous, I guess. ”
“Is it just you two? What happened to your parents?”
“I'd rather not talk about it,” Will said.
“Okay,” Nico said. “Well, he seems like a cool old dude.”
“He's the best,” Will said. “I just really hope he's not right about you,” he smiled anxiously, looking at Nico.
“I'm not a scammer or out to hurt you,” Nico said, realizing that maybe he really had been freaking Will out, and Will had been pretending to be calmer than he felt. “I'm under a lot of pressure to get this calf thing done, and I really don't want to let my dad down. I just genuinely need you to drive really fast. But I promise I won't snap at you again. That was obnoxious.”
“I appreciate that,” Will said, smiling at Nico with relief evident in his face. “You have a really intimidating demeanor when you get impatient.”
“I get that from my dad. I'm sorry. I know it sucks, trust me, I've been on the other side of it too,” Nico said, blushing slightly with embarassment. He'd had no idea he was doing that.
“You said he's a businessman, right?” Will said casually.
“I said he was a professor, but nice try,” Nico smiled.
“Come on, dude, I know that professor story isn't true,” Will said. “Professors don't have that kind of money, you just stole the plotline from 'The Secret History'. I'm just going to assume your dad is an eccentric billionaire and let it go.”
“My stepmom is the eccentric one. Sometimes I wish my dad were a little less serious. But he is a billionaire, to put it mildly. He owns all the riches under the earth.”
“Rare-earth metals? Blood diamonds?”
“All of it. But weren't you going to let it go?”
“Sorry,” Will snorted. “I like solving mysteries. Can't help it. I'll try to stop.”
He'd better, Nico thought to himself. He wasn't used to hanging out with normal people that weren't at least demigods, and he wasn't sure how much was too much to give away, or if it even mattered. The mist could obscure even the most obvious truths sometimes.
“That's why I'm pre-med,” Will said. “Figuring out what's going on with people and trying to help them is my thing.”
“The weirder the problem, the better, I'm guessing, based on our conversation yesterday,” Nico said. “So you'll be a doctor?”
“I'm just a biology major right now, taking the classes to prepare for the MCATs,” Will said. “But I'm putting off taking the test until I have my life together. Things are weird lately.”
“How so?”
“I was on campus the first two years, then had to take a semester off unexpectedly,” he said. “Now I'm doing online classes. I'm still adjusting to living with my grandpa.”
“Why did you have to take a semester off?”
“Personal stuff,” Will said. “Not something I want to share.”
It sounded like it had a connection to his parents. Nico wondered if his dire warnings about the lack of acceptance for gay people were tied into it as well. He didn't think Will trusted him enough to give his full tragic backstory, but pushing him too hard might cause him to clam up, and they had a long car ride to get through yet.
Will recognized that, too, because he changed the subject.
“I think the calf needs a walk,” he said. “It's been a while. I can see him in the rear view mirror looking at us.”
Sure enough, the little calf had made his way to the back window and squished his nose against the glass. They pulled over, and Will let the calf frolic for a little while.
“If he got away, could you lasso him back?” Nico asked. Will started cracking up.
“Of course not! I'm a college student, not an actual cowboy, remember?”
“Disappointing,” Nico said flatly, making Will laugh even more.
“Just for you, I'll learn,” he grinned. “Although I guess I won't be seeing you again after this,” he added, his face falling.
“My dad's already requested another,” Nico said. “Would you help again with that? Probably not anytime soon.”
Will nodded, his cheeks pink.
Nico examined his driver closely and saw that Will was avoiding his eyes, but he appeared secretly thrilled to hear that Nico might see him again. The kid was utterly transparent. Is this what Nico had looked like back when he'd had a hopeless crush on Minos? It was endearing, but also super awkward.
Deciding to politely ignore it, Nico got back into the truck once the calf was ready.
“I think I want to name him,” he said, watching in the mirror to be sure the calf was relaxed and comfortable before they moved again.
“Normally you don't do that if you plan to kill them,” Will said.
“I'll name it something that doesn't make me get attached,” Nico said. He wasn't worried about it; he'd sacrificed a golden retriever named Peaches once. A calf was child's play compared to that. “How about I call him Sacrifice?”
“That's dark,” Will said.
“I'm dark.”
“How about Tenderloin? Or Beefy? Hamburger?”
“I like Hamburger,” Nico said.
He and Will settled into a comfortable quiet punctuated by small, unimportant exchanges, and Will put on a podcast about medical history called Sawbones. Nico stared out the window for a while. After the next short break, he offered to drive, but Will insisted that Texans weren't fazed by long haul driving, and he was feeling particularly well rested that day.
The hours passed quickly, and as they got closer to New York, Nico updated Hades, saying that the sacrifice would be that night, and to expect him home before the dawn of the next day. Hades didn't respond.
Nico spent a long time researching the best ritual words to speak for the sacrifice. He was extremely familiar with the wording of the sacrifices to Hades and Pluto, so he did a little tweaking and wrote new prayers just for Poseidon. The novelty would only endear him more to his uncle, and he was reminded of how well suited he was to be an ambassador to gods. He was finding it easier and easier to get inside their heads.
The evening was growing very late when they reached the strawberry farm next to Camp Half Blood.
“This is it,” Nico said, as Will pulled into a stop. “We made great time.”
“I've never driven this fast in my life,” Will said, looking exhausted, but proud of himself. “I'll take my sweet time getting home. It'll be more relaxing that way.”
He got out of the car and helped Nico unload Hamburger.
“You've done great, little fella,” Will said, patting Hamburger on his velvet-soft head. Hamburger was still relaxed and bright eyed, since Nico had ensured that he slept through most of the ride to avoid stressing the little calf. Will took the time to make sure he got more hay and water.
“Last meal,” Nico said to the calf. “Savor every bite.”
“That's morbid,” Will said.
“You made me listen to an hour of people talking about bloodletting. I think you like morbid,” Nico said.
“Yeah, I guess I do,” Will said, running his hand through his hair nervously. “Nico... Thanks for this. I mean, for paying me so much. It's going to help a lot with school.”
“Just business,” Nico shrugged. “You'll need a lot of that money to pay off tickets. We really flew past those traffic cameras on the turnpike.”
“True,” Will shrugged. “It's been really interesting meeting you,” he added. “You're...”
“What?” Nico asked.
“Never mind,” Will said shyly.
Nico could guess what he was thinking, but he kept it to himself.
“Where will you go now?” Nico asked.
“I'll get a hotel. I might go into New York city for a little while, see what all the fuss is about.”
“Maybe you'll like it and want to move,” Nico said. “There's less homophobia there.”
“Nah. I'd never leave my grandpa,” Will said. “But it'll be cool to see some New York icons. The Empire State Building. Stonewall. Carrie Bradshaw's house,” he added, laughing.
“You stay away from that house,” Nico said, growing extremely serious. “It's not worth it.”
“Oh. If you say so,” Will shrugged. “I was just kidding.” He looked down; Hamburger had finished his hay. He gave him one last pat and then looked at Nico. Will shook his hand firmly.
“I'll be in touch about the next calf order,” Nico said. “You have my number.”
“I don't think you gave it to me--” Will looked at his phone. “Oh. I do. How did that happen?”
“Bye, Will, take care,” Nico said, tugging on Hamburger's rope. Hamburger made a low sound of annoyance and walked in the opposite direction, despite Nico's gentle pleading and encouragement. Eventually he simply picked Hamburger up across his shoulders and carried him off into the strawberry fields.
“Bye, Nico,” Will said, watching him disappear into the darkness.
Nico walked all the way across the strawberry fields until he reached the beach. The long strip of sand continued straight down to the Camp Half Blood beach. He was on high alert for monsters, who were practically unavoidable on the borders of camp, but the only thing he saw was a birdlike shadow pass overhead, probably one of the harpies. No one started screeching about a camper out of bed, so he figured he was good to go.
He crossed the magical border into camp, feeling the protective barrier admit him and Hamburger without issue. He set Hamburger down on the sand and led her a little further in, until he got to the main part of the beach, where the remnants of bonfires and singalongs had left scattered charcoal and ash in little piles on the sand. If he looked up toward the grassy dunes, he could see the columns that ringed the dining pavilion peeking out on the other side.
How many years had it been since he'd left camp? Two, initially, that he'd spent unconscious. He'd woken up in the fall, and he was coming up on the second anniversary of that date in a few weeks.
So it had been almost four years. Time really flew by when you were comatose.
Camp held a lot of bad memories for Nico, memories of feeling adrift and alone, unclaimed and abandoned by his sister and his unidentified godly parent. The Lethe mind-wipe had left a sinkhole in his heart. He hadn't known it at the time, but he'd been missing a part of his identity that he'd now reclaimed. Anything that had happened before he'd walked into the fields of Asphodel felt like it had happened to someone else.
He had zero interest in interacting with anyone from camp. Chiron had always been kind, and he was curious to meet Dionysus again now that he was friends with Ariadne, but he didn't have time for a social call. He'd already taken way too much time just getting to Long Island in the first place.
“Hamburger,” he singsonged, “Hammy, time to die! Come this way.”
Hamburger trotted towards the spot on the sand he'd marked with an X. He glanced at the dark, foam capped surface of the ocean, hoping the hippocampi were swimming below the waves like his father had claimed they would be. He definitely wasn't going in to check.
He began chasing down the prettiest driftwood he could find. He wasn't sure how much Poseidon cared about the minor details, but he'd been instructed to go to the greatest possible effort to make the perfect sacrifice. He picked out gnarled, pale twists of driftwood, broken chucks of wooden planks encrusted with barnacles, handfuls of seaweed and as many seashells as he could gather.
Nico got a little too into building the perfect beachy aesthetic altar, and lost track of what Hamburger was doing. He turned around and found that Hamburger was gone.
“Fuck!” He said, panicking. “Hamburger? Hamburger, where'd you go, you beautiful idiot?”
Hamburger had climbed up the path through the dunes and wandered into camp, lured by the smell of the trash cans at the pavilion. Nico ran full speed to stop him from eating a banana peel, which was sure to ruin his perfection if he ingested it. In his haste, Nico didn't look where he was going and tripped over the massive crack he himself had put in the floor four years earlier, sprawling flat on the marble.
“Ugh, I don't have time for this,” he muttered, scrambling to his feet. He made note of the orange cones that had been placed on either side of the crack and guessed he wasn't the only person to trip on it. He gestured, and filled the jagged fissure with obsidian streaked with gold, his go-to combo, since it was what the floor in his bedroom was made of.
“Come on, dude,” he begged, attempting to drag Hamburger away from the trash as gently as possible. He was trying to exert force without yanking too hard and scuffing his hide, but Hamburger was taking advantage of his ginger redirections to enthusiastically eat more trash.
“Do my eyes mistake me?” A familiar voice said. “Nico di Angelo? Is that you?”
Nico turned to see Chiron, walking up to him in his full centaur form. He looked very surprised to see Nico.
Hamburger looked up and mooed, and Nico took the opportunity to position himself between him and the trash.
“Hi Chiron, long time no see,” Nico said. “Kinda busy at the moment.”
“A very nice looking calf you have there,” Chiron said.
“Yeah, thanks, he's flawless,” Nico said, gazing at Hamburger proudly. “Gotta sacrifice this guy to Poseidon,” he said, patting Hamburger's rump. “Time sensitive. No time to chat.”
“What's the occasion?”
“Thanatos quit.”
Chiron looked deeply concerned at that news.
“Shit. I shouldn't have said that,” Nico said, realizing Hades probably wouldn't want him spreading that around. “Don't panic or anything,” Nico said. “We're fixing it.”
“I have complete faith in Hades' ability to restore order to his realm,” Chiron said. “And you've been well?”
“Yep,” Nico said. “Busy-- Urgh, you stupid cow.” Hamburger was chewing his shirt. “Busy, busy, busy.”
“Can I assist you in any way?”
“Just don't let anyone interrupt me,” Nico said.
“Of course. I won't disturb you any longer,” Chiron said. “Do what you must do and I'll keep watch.”
Nico turned his full attention back to Hamburger. He lifted the calf over his shoulders again and carried him back to the beach.
He finished the makeshift altar, and summoned metal from the earth to form an iron plate and a long knife. He set the plate atop a pile of driftwood, stuck the knife in his belt loop, and the setup was ready.
He cleared his throat, pulled up the notes app on his phone, and began chanting the prayer he'd written to Poseidon.
As he chanted, he recalled that Minos had been doomed solely because he'd failed to sacrifice a bull to Poseidon. Looking at Hamburger's perfect, soft nose, Nico could understand his reluctance better than ever, but he knew his boyfriend would be proud of him for succeeding where he'd failed.
He knew the chant was working when he smelled the scent of a fresh sea breeze, felt the wind pick up and tousle his hair, and heard gulls begin to cry out in the distance.
Nico gave Hamburger one last fond scratch behind the ear, then laid him out on the altar. The calf had become very docile once he'd started chanting.
Nico knelt over him, pulled his head back, and drew the knife across his throat in a single smooth motion. Hot blood spilled out over his hands and flooded the altar, filling the shells, soaking the driftwood, and pouring down into the sand.
Nico cut off Hamburger's head and his nicest looking leg and put them onto the iron plate that he'd rested atop a pile of driftwood. He lit the fire with a simple spell and watched as the smoke from the offering rose up into the air.
“Lord Poseidon, please receive this offering as a gift from the House of Hades. I humbly ask that you give leave for me to sacrifice an albino hippocampus to Hades in exchange,” he prayed.
“Granted,” Poseidon said, his deep voice echoing in Nico's ears. He suddenly felt his uncle's presence surround him, like a briny fog had just rolled in from the ocean. “Thank you, nephew, for honoring my ancient rites. The hippocampus is yours.”
Nico took a deep breath, relieved, and turned to look at the ocean. A little white horse head was poking out of the water.
He waited a minute, hoping it would splash over to him and flop onto the shore, but no such luck.
He stared at the hippocampus. The hippocampus stared back. Neither moved.
“You're seriously making me get my shoes wet?” He muttered. He could practically hear Poseidon laughing at him. It definitely seemed like his sense of humor. Making a face, Nico waded reluctantly into the waves. The hippocampus, ironically, seemed to finally get the nudge from Poseidon, and he swam right up to Nico, practically leaping into his arms and presenting his neck for slicing.
Not wanting to waste any time and risk it slipping away, Nico began chanting immediately, this time using a standard prayer to his father. He would kill the slimy creature, then slice off the tail and bring it home. His mission was nearly complete.
“Smells like a barbecue out here,” a familiar voice said. “What's cooking-- Oh my gods!”
Nico glanced up, still chanting. The dark miasma generated by the prayer to Hades was coagulating around him in a thick black haze, but he could still make out the face of the person who'd stumbled onto his sacrifice.
“What are you doing to that hippocampus?” Percy demanded.
Chapter 40
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Percy did exactly what Nico hoped he wouldn't; he summoned a wave that knocked the hippocampus out of Nico's hands, sending it splashing back into the sea. It swam over to Percy and nuzzled at him, leaving Nico standing waist deep in the ocean without his prize he'd worked so hard for.
Percy waded further out until he was facing Nico. He had the confident and determined expression of one who knew his opponent was completely at his mercy.
He and Nico faced each other for a moment and sized each other up. Percy had grown taller since they'd last met four years ago, but so had Nico, who was pleased to see that he was now taller than Percy by a half an inch. Despite that, Percy appeared to have every other possible physical advantage. Percy was built like a swimmer with ropes of lean muscle and a golden tan, whereas Nico looked like he'd never seen the sun.
“Nico?” Percy asked, green eyes widening with recognition. “It's really you. Wow.”
“Jackson,” Nico growled.
“Damn, dude. Puberty hit you like a truck. Annabeth said you looked older, but geez.”
“Time passes differently in the underworld,” Nico said.
“But still, aren't you fourteen?”
“I'm ninety one,” Nico snapped. “Which is too damn old for you to be wasting my time with your bullshit. Give me that hippocampus back, now.”
“No way! That poor little guy didn't do anything to you!” Percy said, grabbing the hippocampus and holding it behind his back. “Nico, what happened after you left? I looked for you for ages, but I never heard from you. Have you really been in the Underworld this whole time? Was that because of--”
“Of course it was because of you!” Nico blew up at him. “You got my sister killed! I had to find a way to bring her back!”
“I did the best I could,” Percy said. “I'm really sorry.”
“Fuck you. I don't care,” Nico said, his old grievances welling up like Bianca had just died yesterday. “Your apologies mean nothing to me, Jackson. Now give me back the hippocampus. I have important shit to do, and I earned that thing fair and square.”
“I'm not letting you kill that hippocampus,” Percy said firmly, his dark brows set in a stubborn frown.
“It's a sacrifice, and I have permission,” Nico said. “You have to let me do it, I've already dedicated it to Hades.”
“Hippocampi are sacred to Poseidon,” Percy said.
“Poseidon is the one who sent it to me! What, do you think I went fishing and caught it? Are you really that stupid?”
“I don't believe you!” Percy said.
“So now you're calling me a liar,” Nico said. He didn't know it was possible to get angrier at that point, but he did.
“Maybe I am,” Percy said, unleashing his sword, Riptide. It gleamed in the moonlight and reflected the light from the firepit that still burned on the beach. It lit Percy from behind so that he looked like a bright, fiery shadow.
Nico would have loved to fight Percy, but in this case, he felt like responding with violence would make Percy feel like he'd been right, and he couldn't allow him the satisfaction. He looked for Chiron, but he was nowhere to be found, which infuriated him further.
“I'm not going anywhere without that damn fish,” Nico said, glaring. He didn't draw his weapon.
“Then we've got a problem,” Percy said, brandishing his sword. “Because I'm not letting you leave with it.”
“Quit waving your sword at me, you look like an idiot.” Nico said. “Summon your father and ask him. He'll tell you to leave me alone.”
“He's probably busy,” Percy said. “I'm not gonna bug him when I can just make you leave.”
A wicked idea entered Nico's mind. Percy was feeling self-righteous over his defense of the hippocampus. It was probably a balm to his feelings of guilt about Bianca and how he'd left things with Nico. Nico could tell that his mere presence deeply unsettled Percy.
Nico began to chant again, repeating and this time completing the dedication of the hippocampus to his father. He could sense Hade's presence, his approval, and then his confusion when the sacrifice, already interrupted once, still did not occur.
The miasma in the air was full of the essence of Hades, invoking an aura of death and fear. Percy turned pale.
“Stop that,” he said, slashing a warning at Nico. He pulled the seawater up to swirl around him like a protective barrier. “I'm warning you, whatever you're doing, stop.”
It was a prayer, Nico thought with annoyance. A spooky one, but harmless. Percy needed remedial ancient Greek lessons if he couldn't figure that out.
Percy kept slashing wildly at the miasma that crept toward him. Nico quickly shadow traveled closer to Percy, just by a few inches.
“Hey, watch it,” Percy said, slashing one more time. This time he nicked Nico's arm.
“Ow!” Nico said loudly. “You attacked me!” He'd been hoping this would happen. He could already sense the ocean stirring behind him.
“You were asking for it,” Percy said. “I'm not stupid; I know you're up to something. Annabeth told me you can do magic now. I'm not going to let you cast spells on me without defending myself.”
Nico just stared at him, smirking.
“What?” Percy said, just as Poseidon rose from the ocean behind Percy. Water sheared off his back as he rose up on a wave to stand between the two boys. He looked at both of them in turn, glaring, his eyes swirling with storms.
“Percy, why do you have that hippocampus?” Poseidon demanded.
“He stole it from me,” Nico said quickly. “Then he attacked me.” Sensing an opportunity, he shadow traveled out of the water and onto the beach, where he fell to his knees and hit the earth twice with his hands.
Hades appeared before he could even stand, appearing out of the shadows and locking eyes with his brother immediately.
“Percy attacked me before I could finish your sacrifice,” Nico said to his father immediately.
“He what?” Hades roared. “You dare interrupt a sacrifice to me, Jackson? Does your disrespect know no bounds?”
“See,” Nico held up his forearm. He was bleeding from a long scratch. In fact, he was bleeding golden ichor.
Hades looked at his son's arm, and for a second, he hesitated. He and Nico made eye contact briefly, and Nico knew that despite having looked into it already, it was still weirding his dad out just as much as it was him. Hades pushed his arm away, and Nico held it against his chest so that Percy and Poseidon wouldn't see.
“This is unacceptable,” Hades yelled at Percy, delaying acknowledgement of Poseidon's presence for the moment. “You may think because of your victory over Kronos that you can do whatever you like, but your lack of respect for the gods will be your undoing.”
“I didn't mean to disrespect you,” Percy said. “But hippocampi are sacred to my dad, and--” He glanced over his shoulder at his dad, who loomed over him like a tidal wave.
“Dad,” Percy said, his voice small. “I was trying to protect it.”
“You injured Nico while he was acting as a priest of Hades,” Poseidon said. “You stopped him mid-sacrifice! What were you thinking?”
“I don't know,” Percy said, “I didn't think--”
“Exactly,” Poseidon said. “You didn't think. You've violated ancient law by harming a priest and interrupting sacred rites. This cannot go unpunished.”
“But I didn't know!” Percy pleaded.
“Chiron!” Poseidon bellowed, his voice resounding over the dunes like a foghorn.
Chiron came galloping over the hill.
“Lord Poseidon,” he said, kneeling on his front legs. “Lord Hades.”
“Why was he first?” Hades grumbled.
“My lords, what has happened?”
“What happened is you promised you'd make sure no one interrupted me,” Nico said angrily. “Then I got interrupted. Care to explain?”
“I apologize,” Chiron said, looking distraught. “I though everyone was in their cabins.”
“You've obviously failed to educate my son on the sacred act of sacrifice and the consequences of interference,” Poseidon said. “I was trying to savor a smoky and flavorful treat, and then suddenly I had to come and fix this mess.”
“I apologize, my lord,” Chiron said. “You are correct. I failed in my duty to educate.”
“No, he didn't,” Percy said desperately. “He did teach me at some point, I just didn't listen. It's my fault, please don't blame Chiron.”
“Nico dedicated a flawless calf to me,” Poseidon said to Percy. “That honors me.”
“I brought it all the way from Texas,” Nico chimed in.
“He brought it all the way from Texas,” Poseidon repeated slowly, with emphasis, making Percy cringe. “That honors me even more.”
“I'm really sorry,” Percy said. “I didn't realize.”
“All he asked in return was an albino hippocampus, which I granted him.”
“I wouldn't have done it if I'd known,” Percy said.
“I told you multiple times,” Nico said. “You didn't listen. He'd have drowned me next if I didn't call for help,” he threw in.
“Typical. Add attempted murder to the charges, Chiron,” Hades said casually.
“I never tried to kill him,” Percy said. “Stop trying to make it worse!”
“There's no evidence Percy would have gone to that extreme,” Chiron said, beads of sweat forming on his brow. “Let's not deal in hypotheticals, please.”
“Hypothetical, perhaps,” Hades said. “But it would not be the first time Jackson was responsible for the death of one of my children. You must hold a terrible grudge against me for holding your mother captive,” Hades said. “But I'll remind you she was entirely unharmed under my care. Can you say the same for my daughter Bianca?”
“What's this?” Poseidon asked, growing even more furious than he already was. The ocean churned around him. Nico and Hades both stepped further away from the edge of the water just to be safe. “What did you do to his daughter?” Poseidon asked angrily.
“He sent her on a suicide mission,” Nico said. “After he swore to me he'd protect her.”
“Is this true?” Poseidon asked Chiron.
“It does somewhat cover what happened,” Chiron said. “Although I am certain Percy had no intention of her coming to any harm.”
“No, of course not,” Percy said. His voice sounded small, and Nico could see he was defeated. He had to work very hard not to grin.
Poseidon shook his head, sighing.
“Brother,” he said, approaching Hades. “It's been far too long since we've had the chance to see each other properly. I hate that we're reuniting under these circumstances. I didn't know that had happened to your daughter,” he said. “Why didn't you tell me?”
“Don't act like you care,” Hades snarled. “You got what you wanted. The hero of the prophecy belonged to you. You won,” he said bitterly. “I don't need or want your pity.”
“I don't pity you, I'm just empathizing,” Poseidon said. “I've lost demigod children, too. I know how it feels.”
“You couldn't possibly know how I feel,” Hades said. “You have Triton and Rhodos and Despoina and the cyclopes. I doubt you could put a name to all of your immortal offspring if you tried. Don't act as though our situations are the same. They aren't.”
Poseidon withdrew a little, hesitating.
“I don't want to argue with you,” he said. “Nico has been a great help with the financing for my resorts, and I know he acts on your behalf. Any outreach from you means a great deal to me. I enjoyed our recent phone call, even if I wasn't able to snag him in time,” Poseidon smiled. “Hera never did call me back. But then, she always liked you better than me.”
Nico observed that his father was scowling with his arms folded, which normally meant that Hades was very happy about something. Getting Percy Jackson in trouble and forcing both Poseidon and Chiron to apologize to him was a fantasy out of his dad's wildest dreams.
Poseidon turned to Percy.
“Son, you have commited a grave offense today. You owe your Uncle a debt.”
“He certainly does,” Hades said. “How do you propose to make it up to me?”
“Um,” Percy wavered.
“I'm a very busy god,” Hades said. “I have far more important matters to attend to. Do you think I have time to sit and listen to you mutter?”
“I heard about Thanatos,” Chiron said. “Perhaps you need as much assistance as possible with that situation?”
“What happened to Thanatos? Nevermind, I don't care, just take him,” Poseidon sighed, waving a hand. “Teach him some respect while he's down there.”
“Dad!” Percy said, horrified.
“Return him whole and well,” Poseidon added after seeing the look of twisted delight on Hades' face. “He has obligations to fulfill, and not much time left... You know what I mean.”
Poseidon sank back down into the ocean without looking back. In his place, the albino hippocampus swam up to shore and flopped in front of Nico on the sand.
Nico picked it up. With a nod of approval, Hades grabbed both boys' shoulders and dragged them down into darkness.
They stood in the throne room of the palace. Percy looked shell-shocked and miserable, and the hippocampus was squealing and wriggling in Nico's arms.
“Isn't this just delicious,” Hades said, steepling his fingers gleefully and pacing around the room. “The great hero Perseus Jackson is in my kingdom once more. I'm going to enjoy this,” he said.
“Of course you are,” Percy said. “You know what I think? You're both petty, vindictive bastards. And I'm not scared to say it to your face,” He added, glaring at Hades. “And you got cut on purpose,” he said, pointing at Nico. “I feel horrible about what happened to Bianca and you know it. You're just being cruel.”
“Maybe if you bothered to think for five seconds, you'd realize that you and I have very different definitions of cruel,” Nico said. “The whole reason I'm down here is so that I can see Bianca again. Not to mention there's a death emergency going on. The least you can do is help out for a while, but gods forbid you miss out on smores and capture the flag. I guess when you're accustomed to privilege, fairness can feel a lot like cruelty. Must be nice,” Nico snarled at him.
Percy was stunned into silence.
“That was well said, son.” Hades said. “I concur completely. Perseus, your father obviously agrees with us that you're a spoiled brat. As your uncle, I accept the duty of teaching you a sorely needed lesson in respect. You dare to look me in the eyes and call me a bastard? Obviously intensive rehabilitation is required. That offer of immortality must have gone to your head. I'm sure you think quite highly of yourself for rejecting it, but if you're wondering why your father failed to come to your aid today, I'd look back to that decision as the catalyst.”
“Wait, what you do you mean?” Percy asked.
“No more talking,” Hades said. “Nico, you know what you need to do. Put any extra blood in the bathroom, don't waste it.”
Nico nodded and continued down the hall, Percy following him anxiously.
“It's as dark and cold as I remember,” Percy said. “You've really lived here for four years?”
“Something like that,” Nico said. “I moved around a bit.”
“You could have come back to camp,” Percy said. “I made them build you a cabin and everything. I hoped you'd come check it out.”
“Why would I do that, Percy?” Nico said. “I left for a reason. Games and bonfires and playing with swords? Stupid wastes of time. I had other priorities.”
“Annabeth told me you're resurrecting Bianca,” Percy said. “She had some concerns. I think I agree with her.”
“You think I'm crazy,” Nico snorted. “Thalia said the same thing. I'm not, though. I know what I'm capable of.”
“You talked to Thalia? And no, we don't think you're crazy, just misguided.”
Nico entered the bathroom.
“Misguided, huh?” Nico muttered. “I think it's time for you to shut up,” he said. He waved his hand, and Percy's mouth locked closed. Percy pawed at his lips, but no words would come out when he tried to talk. “The Underworld is not a place that you want to piss me off in, Jackson,” he added darkly.
Nico marched over to the blood pool and magically suspended the hippocampus to hover overtop of it. Then, making eye contact with Percy the whole time, he slit its throat, silencing its squeals.
Blood poured out of it, filling the pool with foamy red bubbles. Nico recalled the time he'd fallen in and was grateful to know that it wasn't for storing human blood, at least. He was totally immune to the grossness of animal sacrifice after doing it so many times for Commodus, but human sacrifice would have been another story.
He shook the hippocampus a few times to make sure most of the blood had dripped out, then sliced off the tail. Most of its body was made up of tail anyway, so he gave what little remained to a skeleton, who disappeared with it.
Just to piss Percy off further, Nico licked a long streak of hippcampus blood off his arm, noticing while he did so that his cut from earlier had already healed.
“Tastes pretty good,” he told Percy. “Wanna try?” He dangled the bloody tail in Percy's face, enjoying every second of Percy's discomfort and disgust.
It actually had tasted quite delicious, like a warmer, thicker fruit punch, and he tasted just a tiny bit more before he washed his hands off in the ice pool.
Before he was done washing his hands, a small wave of ice water splashed Nico in the face.
Nico flashed Percy a warning look.
“Go ahead and test me. You'll pay for it later,” Nico said, standing. “For now, you're coming with me to see Nyx. She likes meeting new people. But if you do anything to offend her, I'll kill you, and that's not an empty threat. You'll be glad it was me that took you out, because she'd throw you in Tartarus.”
Percy didn't appear to take the warning seriously, but when Nico grabbed his arm and shadow traveled both of them to Nyx's realm, his expression grew sober. Nico unsealed his mouth.
“Why is it so dark? Where are we?
“Nyx's cave,” Nico said. The cave was only a cave for lack of a better term. It was more like a pit of intangible darkness that one had to fall into to enter, and Percy was looking around frantically, disoriented by the lack of light. The darkness was one thing, but the more subtly disturbing part of Nyx's space was the lack of sounds and smells, too.
“Stay close to me,” Nico said. “Do whatever I tell you.”
He took a deep breath to quell the instinctual panic at the sudden sensory deprivation.
“Lady Nyx, I'm here with a gift for you,” he said.
“You may approach,” she said.
Two parallel rows of lights appeared in front of them, like the strips on the floor of a movie theater. Nico and Percy followed them forward until they reached a stop.
It was still too dark to see her, but Nico heard the sound of someone crying.
A series of candles lit; they were floating in the air around where Nyx was seated. She was reclining on a plush purple velvet couch, and Thanatos was sitting on a cushion on the ground in front of her. His back was to the visitors, and his face was pressed into the velvet, which was stained with golden tears.
Nyx's hand rested on his head, her fingers tangled in his long platinum hair. She scratched his head comfortingly.
Strange to see such an ancient immortal seeking comfort from his mother like that, Nico thought, but he couldn't blame him. He would give anything for his mother to scratch his head softly, just one more time.
“Are you okay?” He asked Thanatos, who turned and glared at him with one bright gold eye, then turned away again.
Nyx sighed heavily.
“The world has changed,” she said. “Death doesn't mean what it used to. For beings like us, change can be difficult to accommodate. And my dear boy has suffered in silence for too long. But I see you've brought me something,” she said, brightening. “Give it here.”
Nico handed her the hippocampus tail, which she took from him with a smile. She took a big bite out of it like it was a sandwich, chewing the raw, bloody meat happily.
“Goddess, my father sent me to make sure Thanatos is okay,” Nico said. “And to try to make things right with him. So, Thanatos,” he said, speaking directly to the sulking god. “If I could just have a moment of your time--”
“I don't blame you for speaking well of your father, but I know Hades better than you do,” Nyx said, wagging her finger. “All he cares about is getting back to normal operations as quickly as possible.”
“Even so,” Nico said. “If Thanatos needs a change in working conditions, my father has no choice but to hear him out now. And as Hades' ambassador, it's my job to serve as mediator between them.”
Nyx purred softly, the room shuddering.
“You hear that, love,” she said, nudging Thanatos. “He's right. You're in a good position to negotiate. And Nico is lovely, he'll help you as best he can.”
“Nothing will change,” Thanatos muttered. “Nobody ever listens to me.”
He disentangled himself from his mother and stood, spreading his grey wings. He flew off into the darkness and disappeared.
“Off to sulk in his room,” Nyx said. “You can follow him if you like. He won't hurt you, he knows I'm fond of you. Now, you, young man,” she said, pointing at Percy. “You defeated Kronos. I have heard of you.”
“Oh, really?” Percy said, surprised.
“Will you tell me of your adventures, young one? I never hear from heroes,” she said. “Sometimes I think they've all forgotten about me.”
While Percy stammered his way through a story, Nico went to Thanatos' cave.
“Get out!” Thanatos snapped when Nico poked his head inside.
“Your mom said I could talk to you,” Nico said hesitantly. “She said you wouldn't hurt me.” He took another step inside. Thanatos was sitting on his floor, his knees drawn up to his chest and his arms wrapped around them. He glared at Nico, his eyes glinting in the dark, but he didn't move to stop him from coming in.
“You're only here to plead your father's case,” Thanatos said.
“Not necessarily,” Nico said. “If you feel like you've been wronged, I'm not going to let him sweep it under the rug. I yell at him all the time. I'm happy to do it on your behalf if you want.”
Thanatos's mouth quirked up at one side, but he stifled the expression.
“I had heard you were a bit of a firebrand,” he admitted. “And you were the reason I quit in the first place, so I suppose it's fitting that you hear my tale of woe.”
Nico's heart skipped a beat.
“Did you just say I was the reason?”
“Charon said you were the one who sent him the population projections,” Thanatos said. “The ones they tried to hide from me.”
Nico swallowed, hot panic rising in his gut. He was the one responsible? All those souls were going uncollected because he had forwarded an email?
As his father had told him once, in for a drachma, in for a pound.
“I sent him those projections, and I'd do it again,” Nico said firmly. “You have a right to know what's coming.”
Thanatos nodded glumly.
“But I think it's best your communication with my father goes through me from now on,” Nico added. “Could you tell me what motivated your decision to quit?”
Thanatos heaved a shuddering sigh. Exhaustion radiated from every pore, and he seemed to be barely holding himself together.
“I need a break,” he said. “I need to rest. I can't work the amount I'm being asked to. Hades will never accept that.”
“Hades needs you,” Nico said. “We all need you-- Me, the gods, humanity itself. We have no choice but to accept your terms. I'll try to get that through to my father,” Nico said. “How long of a break do you need?”
“Not sure,” Thanatos said.
“I'll talk to him,” Nico said. “And for what its worth, I'm sorry it's come to this. Population growth isn't your fault. You shouldn't have to suffer in silence.”
Thanatos did not look up, but made a small sound that might have been 'Thanks.'
Nico turned to leave, but before he stepped out the door, Thanatos popped his head up.
“Were you in here before?” He asked.
“In your room?”
“I could sense someone had been touching things,” Thanatos said.
“Oh,” Nico said nervously. “I came looking for you once. You weren't here, so I left.”
“Why were you looking for me?” Thanatos asked.
“It's kind of a long story,” Nico said. “But I was going to ask some questions about the Doors of Death. I'm trying to resurrect someone and I wanted to understand how they work. Where are they, exactly?”
“Everywhere and nowhere,” Thanatos said. “They appear at all the entrances and exits to the Underworld, and the dead cannot pass through them.”
That made sense. Nico must have walked through them dozens of times, but they hadn't affected him.
Thanatos leaned over and grabbed something from the floor near where he sat, then tossed it to Nico. It was a small grey stone with a Greek theta carved into it.
“That's the key,” Thanatos said.
Nico nearly dropped it.
“The key to the Doors?”
“Go nuts,” Thanatos said flatly.
“You're just giving this to me?” Nico was in shock.
“Why not? They're not my problem anymore. I quit,” Thanatos said. He turned over and laid down on his stomach, stretching his wings, folding and unfolding them. He propped his head on his hands and stared at the butterflies he'd carved into the floor. “Now I just exist.”
Nico wanted to go try to use the keystone immediately, just to check out how it worked, but he paused, watching Thanatos trace the butterflies with his fingernail.
“What will you do now?” Nico said.
“Not much,” Thanatos said. “I'll ask my brother to put me to sleep for eternity. Set an alarm for the apocalypse.”
“There's going to be an apocalypse?” Nico asked.
“I certainly hope so,” Thanatos said. “It's all I've got to look forward to.”
“You don't have any hobbies?” Nico glanced around the empty toom. “Or furniture?”
“If I ever had those things, I forgot them a long time ago,” Thanatos said, pressing his cheek to the floor. “Too busy working.”
Nico stared at Thanatos for a moment, deep in thought. He couldn't just sleep forever. That was no solution, not to his problem, and certainly not to the world at large, where people still needed to die.
“I'm going to help you,” Nico said.
“I doubt you'll be of any use,” Thanatos said without lifting his head.
“I will be. I promise,” Nico said, “I'll be back.”
Nico went back to Percy and Nyx.
“Nyx, thank you for your help,” Nico said. “I'm going to try to convince my father to give Thanatos some time off and see if he'll agree to come back once he's rested. Wish me luck,” he said, knowing it was nearly hopeless before he'd even begun.
“You have my blessing, child,” she said. “That is far better than luck. Thank you for trying to help my son.”
He nodded, then looked at Percy, who looked very eager to leave Nyx's cave.
“Don't let me interrupt your conversation,” Nico grinned. “Sounds fascinating.”
He went to his father, leaving Percy with Nyx.
Hades was in his office, staring at his computer, looking stressed out.
“Tell me you carry news of Thanatos,” Hades said eagerly.
“He's in a rough place,” Nico said. “Very burnt out and sad. He said he needs a break.”
“Bah,” Hades snorted. “Don't we all! Wouldn't that be nice!”
“Be real, Papa. You're busy, but not compared to him. The guy doesn't even have furniture. He said he wants to sleep until the apocalypse.” Nico said. “I don't think you'll be able to bully him into coming back. He seems pretty over it.”
“It's always worked in the past,” Hades said.
“How long can Hermes Psychopompos fill in?”
“He collects fewer than a tenth of the souls Thanatos did,” Hades muttered. “Charon can fetch a handful. Our backlog will still grow by tens of thousands of souls per day.”
Nico was stunned into silence. He swallowed.
“And those people just... Don't die?”
“They will suffer their same terrible injuries and medical emergencies, but they'll linger until their souls are set free,” Hades said. “We'll get to them eventually, but it's not a pleasant waiting list to be on.”
Maybe Hades should try and bully Thanatos after all, Nico thought. It was the lesser evil, obviously. But it wasn't a solution.
“This will only happen again if you force Thanatos to push through,” Nico said. “If his workload isn't sustainable, that has to be addressed sooner or later. Could Hermes Psychopompos come on full time? I mean, all the gods have phones that I've met, and he doesn't transmit the Iris messages,” Nico said. “How busy can he be?”
“I agree that he does little that others cannot do in his place,” Hades said. “But he'd never want to help us permanently, and Zeus won't force him. This is Thanatos' duty alone.”
“It's not his fault there's so many people now,” Nico said. “Can't the Catholics start handling their own deaths? I could ask them to sort something out. I'm sure they're capable.”
“Oh, capable, are they?” Hades looked at Nico suspiciously. “You seem terribly familiar with them.”
“You know I grew up... Affiliated,” Nico said, instantly wishing he'd never brought it up. “I might have run into a saint once or twice. It's unavoidable in Italy.”
“It is indeed,” Hades grumbled. “Why do you think we moved to America? But they're irrelevant in this case. If they wanted to help, they'd have done it by now. Don't even think about going anywhere near them.”
“I won't,” Nico said. “I promise.”
“What did you do with Percy?”
“Nyx wanted to hear about the Titan war.”
“When she's done with him, he can scrub Cerberus's pen,” Hades said. “Tell him I want it sparkling. You can distract Cerberus while he works. You're responsible for supervising. Don't let him get himself killed. More importantly, don't let him sneak around on his own. Trouble sticks to that boy like crows on carrion.”
“Isn't that the truth,” Nico muttered. How he wished he'd never met Percy. Their supposed rescue from the boarding school had done nothing but worsen his and Bianca's troubles. If Percy had let the manticore eat them, they'd be eating gelato with their mother in Elysium now without a worry in the world.
Nico went to the judges' stand to find Minos and tell him what had happened. He was shocked to see that the line of shades waiting for judgement had dwindled to nothing.
“Did you speak to Thanatos?” Aeacus asked, eager for news.
“Is he coming back to work?” Rhadamanthys said. “We're bored to tears over here. Do you know how hard it is for a shade to get bored?”
“I wish I had better news,” Nico said, “But he's not ready to come back. And he won't be anytime soon. He needs a vacation.”
“Vacation?” Minos frowned. “But what about the mortals? They still need to die. Death doesn't take vacations.”
“He does now,” Nico said firmly. “He's obviously been pushed to a breaking point. But I'm going to try my best to help him feel better so he can work again.”
Since they weren't busy, Nico went ahead and made himself a stone chair so he could sit with them and explain all that he'd done while he was away, and how Percy had been sent to stay with them as a punishment.
“Punishment?” Alecto screeched, flapping over to join them. “Lord Hades should have told me! I'll punish Percy Jackson myself, and gladly, for his insolence.”
“Percy's supposed to clean Cerberus's pen,” Nico said. “Papa promised Poseidon that we wouldn't hurt him.”
“You've told me many times that Percy is the one responsible for Bianca's death,” Minos said. “Pen cleaning doesn't sound like sufficient revenge for such a loss.”
“I know. I'm working on that,” Nico said. “I mean, right after he got Bianca killed, I certainly would have liked to throw him into Tartarus or have Cerberus eat him or something. But I'm sort of friends with his girlfriend now. And I think he does feel some remorse for what happened. But I still can't let him off the hook,” Nico frowned. “Don't worry, I'll torment the crap out of him soon. Just have to figure out the best way to do it.”
“Maybe once you've avenged your sister, you'll feel less inclined to resurrect her,” Minos said.
Nico didn't immediately respond, but he realized that all three judges were looking at him with odd, anxious expressions on their faces. Even Alecto scratched at the ground with one of her talons.
“What?” Nico asked. “What is it?”
Minos bit his lip.
“Oh, Nico,” he sighed. “You should know that, um--”
“Stop,” Aeacus grabbed his brother's shoulder. “Don't.”
“What? What is it?” Nico asked frantically.
“She's not--” Minos blurted out. “She-- No. I can't tell you.”
“You can't just start to say something and then not say it!” Nico said angrily.
“Nico, I genuinely can't get the words out,” Minos said. “It's not up to me.”
Alecto rustled her wings to draw their attention.
“Orders are orders,” she said firmly.
“Orders schmorders!” Nico said. “Tell me! Now!”
“She was here,” Rhadamanthys said suddenly. “She spoke to us. She said she's tired of waiting on you to--”
Aeacus clamped his hands over his brother's mouth. Alecto smacked Nico across the back of the head.
“Quit being a brat,” she snapped.
“Hey, stop!” Nico said, ducking out of the way of another smack. She grabbed him by the collar and lifted him off his seat like a kitten.
“You listen to me, you little weasel,” she snarled. “I don't care how powerful you've become. I've been keeping you in line since you were the size of a sprog, and I'm not going to let you bark orders at the judges like that. Do you understand?”
She shook him so hard his brain rattled, and he was viscerally reminded of the day she'd dunked him in the Lethe. She was still very scary when she wanted to be.
“Okay, okay, I'm sorry,” Nico said. “But Bianca--”
“Bianca this and Bianca that,” she said, tossing him on his butt. “We're all sick of you two dragging into the middle of your problems. Go deal with her yourself and leave us out of it.”
“Alecto, you're being too harsh,” Minos said. He went over to Nico and helped him up. “Nico is a loyal brother, and I respect his tenacity in trying to resurrect Bianca. If everyone was as devoted to their family as Nico, we'd send a lot more souls to Elysium.”
“Thanks, Minos,” Nico said gratefully.
“But perhaps it's best you don't involve us,” Minos admitted, squeezing his hand. “Lord Hades' wishes are clear on the matter.”
“Ugh. Fine,” Nico said. “I guess I'll go and talk to my dad about it.”
He kissed Minos on the cheek and started to walk away.
“Oh shit, wait, I forgot about Percy,” he realized, and disappeared.
He appeared in Nyx's cave, where Percy was slumped on the floor, sitting on Thanatos's cusion he'd left behind.
“And then we beat Kronos,” Percy said, his voice hoarse and exhausted.
“But why did you light the Empire State Building blue?” Nyx asked.
Percy yawned widely.
“I, um, my mom-- Something about my mom,” he muttered. “Nico!” He said desperately. “Can I leave now?”
“He doesn't mean to be rude, lady,” Nico said to Nyx. “Forgive his attitude problem.”
She frowned down at Percy, and he cringed.
“Is that how you feel? Then by all means, leave,” she said, turning out the lights.
“Was that rude? I was just so sick of answering questions,” Percy said.
“She's still here, you idiot, she just turned the lights out,” Nico said. He grabbed Percy's arm and shadow traveled him back a pit next to the palace before he could say anything else stupid. “What is the matter with you?”
“Sometimes I just spit stuff out directly from my brain,” Percy sighed. “It's ADHD.”
“Someday you are going to piss off someone who doesn't have Nyx's patience,” Nico sighed.
“Oh, I have,” Percy said. “And I probably will again. Can I leave now?”
“You haven't been punished yet!”
“I literally told my whole life story to Nyx and answered fifty thousand questions about the titan war,” Percy said. “I think I was talking for twelve hours straight! She had to get me a glass of water because I literally couldn't talk anymore!”
“That's just how gods are,” Nico said. “They have a lot of time to kill. It passes differently down here, anyway.”
“I can understand how you got so old now. There's no clocks. My watch and phone aren't working. I'm a little worried I'm going to leave and find out I'm twenty five and still don't have a high school diploma,” Percy said.
“You realize my dad could keep you here that long and Poseidon wouldn't see anything wrong with it,” Nico suggested. “A decade is like a weekend to them.”
“I really don't want that, dude.”
“Then get to work,” Nico said. “I don't want you here that long either. Now it's time for you to scrub Cerberus's kennel.”
“What's it look like?”
“You're standing in it.”
Percy glanced around.
“I thought we were in some kind of arena. Are all these bones people he ate?”
“Yeah, those are the other sons of Poseidon that tried to clean his cage,” Nico snickered. “Stay on my good side and I might not sic him on you.”
He whistled, and Cerberus bounded up to them, immediately growling at Percy and getting between him and Nico.
“Draw that sword and you'll lose that arm,” Nico warned Percy. “Down, boy,” he said. “Settle.”
Cerberus laid down and Nico sat beside him, leaning against his massive ribcage and scratching his back. “Okay, Percy, you're good. Have at it.”
Percy stared at the kennel miserably. There were bones, dried blood and guts, and clumps of hair everywhere, along with some weird, spooky poops.
Nico snapped his fingers and summoned a skeleton.
“He'll get you whatever supplies you need,” he said. “Water, I assume.”
Percy breathed a sigh of relief and got to work once the skeleton had brought out some buckets of water. Percy used the water begin a cursory rinse, but quickly found it required elbow grease the water alone wasn't bringing to the table.
Nico half-watched him, quickly growing bored. Cerberus laid one of his heads in his lap, and he scratched him behind the ears idly. While he was observing Percy, he got an incoming call from Annabeth.
“Nico, I wanted to check on Percy,” Annabeth said. “Chiron told me what happened. Is he okay?”
“Fine,” Nico said. “He's cleaning up Cerberus's pen. We're not going to hurt him. Much. Probably.”
“I know you wouldn't do something like that,” she said, making Nico feel slightly guilty that he'd thought about it. “I'm just frustrated that he interrupted your sacrifice. I helped Chiron clean up the beach, and it was pretty obvious what you were doing. If Percy had taken a second to look around, or just asked Chiron about it, he'd have known it was a ritual and left you alone.”
“Yeah, well, he didn't,” Nico said.
“And it's a big deal that your dad and Poseidon are cooperating on something, right?” She added. “Bad timing on Percy's part.”
“If anything I think punishing him will bring them closer,” Nico said.
“If you and Percy were to become friends,” she suggested, “That would also help.”
“Ha!” Nico laughed, as he watched Percy in this distance, scrubbing on his hands and knees. “Not likely.”
“Fair enough,” she sighed. “Dare I ask whether he'll be back by Sunday? We had those tickets you sent me.”
“Crap, I forgot about that. What's today?”
“Um, Saturday night,” she said. “He'd need to be home in twelve hours if we were gonna make it.”
“Aw, damn it,” Nico said, scratching his head. “Annabeth, his punishment literally just started. Even if I wanted to get him out of it, I couldn't at this point. Do you have anyone else you can invite?”
“I asked Thalia, Grover, even my cousin Magnus,” she said. “All busy. I don't have that many friends that are into musicals.”
“What if I took you?” Nico asked hesitantly. He felt weirdly shy about asking, thinking that maybe after he'd destroyed her hat and kidnapped her, she'd scoff at the idea of a friendly outing.
“Oh,” she said, surprised. “Really?”
“I mean, is that weird? Forget I asked,” Nico said.
“No, I think that would be nice,” she said. “You're really interesting, and I actually had a lot I wanted to talk to you about. It's just that Percy would be really hurt. He'd say it was okay, because he'd feel guilty that he bailed on me last minute. But he wouldn't mean it.”
“I mean, he is supposed to be being punished right now,” Nico said. “Upsetting Percy is kind of the goal.”
“I can't be party to something that would hurt his feelings,” she said. “I'll go with you if you promise not to tell him. If I find out you gloated about it, it'll be HatGate 2.0.”
“Wouldn't want that,” Nico busted out laughing. “I barely made it out alive the first time. I won't say anything. It'll be our secret.”
“Thanks,” she said. “See you tomorrow!”
Nico went back to watching Percy, thrilled at the idea of having a secret with Annabeth that Percy couldn't know about.
Notes:
Happy launch day for The Sun and the Star to all who celebrate. I'm not reading it until I'm done with this fic, but I saw a few spoilers. I guessed that Nico was into The Divine Comedy before it became canon, so go me! Also that his name is Niccolo. I saw it on Tumblr and figured it made sense, but now it's canon as well!
Chapter Text
“Nico,” Percy called out after working for a few more hours. “I'm starving. I'm exhausted. This place is going to take ages. I need a break or I'm gonna collapse.”
Nico reluctantly agreed to let him rest. He brought Percy up to the palace and walked him down the hall to the dining room.
“Slacking off, I see,” Hades called out as they walked past his office.
“He has to eat or he'll end up a permanent resident,” Nico reminded his father. Hades cackled wickedly, making Percy shiver.
“We can't have that,” Hades said, standing from his throne and trailing them to the dining room. “I think I shall join you boys at your meal and take the opportunity to get to know my dear nephew,” he said, giving Percy a nasty look.
“I just lost my appetite,” Percy muttered.
Hades sat at the head of the table, with Nico and Percy sitting at his right and left hand sides, respectively. Percy was obviously uncomfortable being around Hades, and Nico soaked in every second of his discomfort. Vengeance tasted very sweet, and he'd wanted to see Percy suffer for what he'd let happen to Bianca for years.
“You don't have any pizza?” Percy said, observing the food on the table, which was the usual meat, fruit, and cheese spread that always sat there, looking shiny and aesthetically pleasing, like a still life depiction of fruit from a Renaissance painting.
“Pizza,” Hades scoffed. “You get pizza when you earn pizza.” He gestured, and made the dessert plate that Percy had been reaching for disappear.
“I'm not turning my nose up at your food or anything, I just wanted to carbo-load. I've been working my butt off,” Percy said. “Never mind. Will I end up stuck here if I eat the food?” he asked.
“I'd never encourage you to do something that would result in your being stuck here,” Hades said. “I assure you I don't find your presence desirable in the least. So eat.”
“Okay,” Percy said, cautiously popping a grape into his mouth. “Just wondering if that's what happened to this guy,” he gestured at Nico.
“Not the way you're thinking of,” Nico said. “Not that it's of your business,” he added.
“Alrighty then,” Percy said. He began making himself a large, overstuffed sandwich.
“Ahem,” Hades said, catching Percy's eye and glancing at a jar of wine on the table between them.
“No thank you,” Percy said. “I'm underage.”
Nico rolled his eyes and poured his father a cup of wine, pouring one for himself afterward.
“You see, my son understands godly etiquette,” Hades boasted. “Did you see that pour? Taught by Ganymede himself. These are the basic manners you lack, Percy, that we are endeavoring to teach you.”
“You don't expect us to believe you don't drink,” Nico said skeptically. “You fought Kronos and you're really worried about draconian American drinking laws?”
“Annabeth said with our trauma history, it's smarter to avoid unhealthy coping mechanisms,” Percy said. “But I've been known to enjoy a Mike's Hard Lemonade at a beach bonfire every once in a while. Don't tell Chiron,” he said, laughing.
Nico glanced at his father, who was looking at Percy with annoyance. He knew they were both feeling the same way. The whole point was to make Percy uncomfortable and nervous, and here he was, laughing. It reminded Nico of Poseidon at the dinner with the Triumvirate. He'd been cracking jokes and sharing anecdotes to make everyone laugh, even in the midst of a desperate and hostile negotiation. How were they able to summon up a sense of humor in a situation where they were supposed to be miserable? It was a gift Nico sort of envied.
Percy picked up his cup and looked at the red figure artwork on the side.
“Hey, I got my dad!” he said, showing them the portrait of Poseidon holding his signature trident, with images of dolphins around him.
“I got Thanatos,” Nico said, looking at his own kantharos. Thanatos was easily recognizeable with his large wings on display. He looked sad even in a picture.
“I always get myself and my lady wife,” Hades said, smiling at the picture of him and Persephone sitting together on their thrones. Now, Jackson, you should know that to dine with a god is a particular honor,” Hades said, eating an olive to punctuate the statement. “You ought to be grateful. Both of you, in fact.”
“I mean, at camp I eat with Dionysus every day, technically.”
“Ugh. What did he do to earn such a horrific punishment?” Hades asked curiously.
“No clue,” Percy said.
“No one knows, not even Ariadne,” Nico said. “Something between him and Zeus.”
“Interesting,” Hades said. “Something for my ambassador to look into for me. So, Jackson, tell me some news of my brother. How fares his kingdom?”
“Um,” Percy swallowed a chunk of sandwich. “I don't know. Fine, I guess.”
“Fine, you guess?” Hades sneered. Nico drank his wine, watching Percy squirm.
“Have you even been there?” Nico asked, thinking of how close he'd come to getting stuck down there with only a shell phone to entertain himself.
“Yeah, twice,” Percy said. “It's beautiful. The palace is like a giant seashell, with furniture carved out of pearls.”
“I know what it looks like,” Hades said. “How is the family?”
“My brother Tyson is good,” Percy said.
“Who?”
“He's a cyclops. He's the only one of my siblings I'm close with.”
Hades frowned.
“Never mind. The next time you run into Amphitrite, send her my worst possible regards. And tell Triton I hope he meets with the business end of a nuclear torpedo, and I think that's better than the sun-curdled calamari deserves.”
“What did Triton ever do to you?” Nico said, “He has an attitude problem, but he cares about the kingdom a lot. He can't be all bad.”
“Triton yanked one of Persephone's earrings out when he was a baby,” Hades said. “She didn't mind, but I never forgave him.”
“That's kind of harsh,” Percy said. “What about my stepmom? Why don't you like her?”
“Don't get me started,” Hades said. “Amphitrite is stuck up and full of herself, second only to Narcissus in her vanity. When my brother married her I knew we were in for it with that one. She's a horrible bitch. And Triton is bullheaded and stubborn like his father. From what I heard, nobody down there likes either of them. Including my brother, as he's admitted over a glass of ambrosia to me in confidence more than once.”
“Holy crap,” Percy said.
“No wonder he spends all his time in his Margaritaville resorts fucking naiads while Amphitrite runs the kingdom into the ground,” Hades said. “I wouldn't want to be home with them either.”
Percy's jaw dropped, and he seemed genuinely speechless.
“That's terrible,” Nico said. “Is he really that unhappy?”
“Miserable,” Hades said. “But it's more than he deserves after he took Zeus's side in the war.”
“I had no clue,” Percy said. “I hardly ever talk to him, so I never picked up on it. I guess I shouldn't be surprised. I got really bad vibes off Amphitrite and Triton when I visited. And my dad has insanely good vibes.”
“I will admit he does, occasionally,” Hades said. “It has been difficult to remain angry with him. Nevertheless, I persevere.”
“Is there any way I can help, do you think?” Percy asked.
Hades regarded him skeptically.
“Your words lead me to believe you're making progress in learning your duty,” he said. “But your actions, sadly, have precluded you from being of any real assistance.”
“Actions?”
“You had the opportunity to join him beneath the sea,” Hades said. “Did you not turn him down?”
“I guess I did,” Percy said. “But I didn't want to be immortal and leave everyone I cared about behind.”
“Yes, well,” Hades smiled cruelly. “It's your funeral.”
Nico snorted.
Percy continued eating his sandwich, his expression troubled.
“How is Dionysus coping with his mysterious punishment?” Hades asked.
“He's a jerk like always,” Percy said. “Annabeth and I were the head counselors this summer, so we've been butting heads with him a lot. He's way too lax about safety, in our opinion.”
“I thought he seemed like a jerk at first, too,” Nico said. “But everyone I've talked to since then says he's a great guy. Ariadne is one of the nicest people I know. She really misses him.”
“Dionysus is one of the only good things ever to come out of Zeus,” Hades. “I hate all of his other children.”
“All of them?” Percy asked.
“Don't you hate them, too, Percy?” Nico asked him. “You were the one who confronted the Olympians about acknowledging all their kids they abandoned.”
“Hate is a strong word,” Percy said hesitantly. “But I can definitely say that I've had more bad experiences than good. Hades, do you really hate all of them? What about Hephaestus?”
“Don't get me started,” Hades said.
“Hermes?”
“Least favorite nephew and employee,” Hades said.
“Apollo?”
“Apollo is an asshole,” Nico said firmly.
“Agreed,” Hades said. “The most spoiled brat this side of the Aegean. His sister is awful, too.”
“I can't stand Artemis,” Nico said bitterly. “She acts like she's this protector of women, but she treats the huntresses like her slaves and throws them into danger without hesitation. Then she thanks them for their sacrifice when they get hurt. She's a goddess! She could save them if she wanted to. None of their hunts are for any reason other than her being bored. I think she likes watching them get maimed for her entertainment.”
“That is absolutely correct,” Hades said, sipping his wine. “She gets her sadism from her father.”
“I'd hate to be caught in a room alone with her,” Nico shuddered.
“You would not come out the same way you went in,” Hades said.
“If I say something about somebody, will I get in trouble?” Percy asked.
“Papa doesn't like anyone but Persephone,” Nico said. “You're safe.”
“And they can't hear me down here? We don't get to criticize the gods much at camp, since they're always listening. Super against the rules. It can get really hard not to, at times.”
“No, they can't hear,” Hades said. “Go on, I'm intrigued.”
Percy took a deep breath.
“I hate Athena.”
“Join the club,” Hades said, raising his cup.
“She doesn't think I'm good enough for Annabeth,” Percy said. “Even after all this time.”
“You'd think the goddess of wisdom would know better than to say something about it to you,” Nico said, cocking his head curiously.
“Why is that?” Percy asked.
“Telling people to break up just makes them want to stay together more, right?” Nico said, thinking of his relationship with Minos.
“Athena can be wise at times, but once her massive ego gets in the way you can't trust her judgement anymore. Zeus gives her far too much authority. Daddy's little brain child, can do no wrong in his eyes,” Hades scoffed. “If she was wise she wouldn't waste her time thinking about silly mortal relationships at all. It's embarrassing for her, really.”
“She said she was just worried about Annabeth.”
“Oh, her precious daughter, of course, one of those so-called gifts she leaves on unsuspecting academic's doorsteps.” Hades asked. “She's done that for ages and it always makes the rest of us cringe. At least making children the traditional way gives the other party some indication of what to expect. She assumes the father will fall to his knees in gratitude-- another function of her ego.”
“Yeah, she is full of it, isn't she?” Percy grinned. “I agree.”
Hades nodded at him; he seemed very pleased with the way the conversation had headed.
“You've kept me from my work long enough, but I hope you've learned something today, Jackson,” he said, strolling out. “Get back to work,” he shot back over his shoulder.
“Wow,” Percy said. “He actually seemed to approve of me for a second.”
“Complaining about Olympians is his favorite activity,” Nico said.
“I can tell that he's rubbed off on you a lot,” Percy said. “You sounded just like him when you were talking about Artemis.”
“He hasn't rubbed off on me, I've just seen some things for myself, and he just so happens to be right about everyone,” Nico said.
“Maybe,” Percy said. “But it's not like he's so great, either.”
“He's better than all the other Olympians,” Nico said. “At least he works, which none of the rest of them bother doing most of the time. And he treats Persephone really well, unlike most other Olympian husbands. He's fair and reasonable, and he actually admits when he's wrong about something. Good luck finding any other god willing to do that.”
“I get it, I get it,” Percy said, picking up a chicken leg and ripping off a chunk. He spoke through a mouthful. “It almost sounds like you like him.”
“I don't know what gave you that impression,” Nico said archly. “He and I tolerate each other, that's all.”
“Uh huh,” Percy said. “If you say so, dude.”
He finished eating, and Nico escorted him back to Cerberus's pen to continue scrubbing. He made very little progress before collapsing in a heap.
“I need a union break,” he said. “This is a lot of ground to cover. What time is it?”
Nico shrugged. He'd set an alarm for his outing with Annabeth, but that would ring when it felt like ringing.
“Right,” Percy sighed. “No clocks here. I hope Chiron told Annabeth where I went.”
“He did,” Nico said. “I talked to her.”
“And you didn't give the phone to me?” Percy asked.
“Nope. You're being punished,” Nico said with glee.
Percy rose to his feet with difficulty.
“Gods, I'm worn out. That was hard work. How much do I have to get done before my punishment's over?”
“All of it.”
Percy glanced behind him, sighing in resignation.
“Come on, I'll let you go to sleep for a while,” Nico said. “Follow me.”
He led Percy up to his bedroom and summoned a large stone from the ground in the shape of a bed on the far side of the room from his own bed.
“Whoa,” Percy said, feeling the obsidian bed Nico had just made. It was decorated with scrolling on either end, with tiny skulls etched into the design.
“How did you get this design on here?” Percy asked, looking at Nico with surprise.
“I've been practicing,” Nico said proudly. “I can do some pretty intricate details these days. Nice, right?”
“Yeah, but I can't sleep on a rock, dude. It's also freezing in here.”
Nico snapped his fingers, and two skeletons walked through the door.
“Get him a pillow and some blankets. And a mattress or something,” Nico barked at them. They left and returned quickly with a thin mattress pad, a quilt, and a small tubular pillow.
Percy laid down after the skeletons had arranged the bed for him and left.
“How do you know when to sleep if there's no day and night?” He asked.
“I just sleep when I'm tired,” Nico said. “I don't worry about time when I'm here.”
“This is so uncomfortable,” Percy said, squeezing his pillow. “Why is this pillow shaped like a paper towel roll?”
“It's Roman,” Nico said. “My father doesn't like change. He's updated this place exactly one time and he still talks about how much he regrets it. You've got a lot of nerve complaining about décor when your dad's palace is under the ocean.”
“Heh. True,” Percy grinned. “Do you have a TV?”
“My dad has one in his room.”
“He won't let you have one?”
“I can have whatever I want. I just don't watch a lot of TV.”
“I guess you didn't have those growing up in the old country,” Percy said. Nico rolled his eyes. “So what do you do for fun?” Percy continued.
“Listen to music, read, doom scroll,” Nico shrugged. “Normal stuff.”
“What, no animal sacrifice?”
“That's for work,” Nico said, recalling the hundreds of sacrifices he'd had to do for Commodus. Just thinking about it exhausted him.
“Speaking of work, you're an ambassador down here?”
“Yep,” Nico said proudly.
“What do you work on, specifically?”
“If I told you that, I'd have to kill you.” The Annabeth alarm went off on Nico's phone. “Time to go to sleep.”
“Ugh. I'm still cold, and this bed is like a rock,” Percy said. “Uh, goodnight, I guess,” he said, turning over and facing the wall. “Are you going to sleep?”
“Oh, yeah, totally,” Nico said, trying not to sound too giddy. He was really looking forward to going out with Annabeth. “Sogni d'oro, Percy Jackson.”
Percy immediately went limp and started snoring.
Nico got ready quickly, putting on a nice suit and giving his nails a fresh coat of black polish. He checked himself out in the mirror, fluffed his curls, and then headed to Camp Half Blood.
He appeared outside the door of the Athena cabin and knocked on the door. It was growing dusk outside, and Nico glanced over his shoulder to be sure other campers weren't around to see him.
“Come in,” Annabeth said.
“Wow, you look great,” Nico said, admiring the dress he'd bought her. She'd worn her braids down, and had added a few pieces of gold hair jewelry to complement the gold accents on her dress.
“My personal shopper has good taste,” she said. “Come on, let's go before Chiron catches you in here.” He held out his hand, and immediately he and Annabeth were in Manhattan.
“That was a rush,” she said, glancing around. “Do you have any limit on how much you can do that?”
“Shadow travel? Not that I've noticed. When I was first learning how to do it, I would get tired, but I've gotten more energy efficient since then. Um, I took the liberty of making reservations for dinner,” he said, getting slightly nervous. “Is that cool?”
“I kind of assumed you would,” Annabeth said. “You're old school like that. But I do want to make it clear that this is not a date, at all, even a little bit. I am very happy with my relationship.”
“Obviously I know that,” Nico snorted. “I'm also in an awesome relationship,” he added proudly.
“Oh my gods, I didn't know that! Tell me about it.”
They headed to the restaurant, an upscale Italian place called Masseria dei Vini, and Nico insisted on ordering for both of them. He told her all about Minos, happy to brag about his favorite person for a while.
“I've got to admit, that's very unorthodox,” she said. “I'm not sure how I feel about the idea.”
“Why, because it's a teacher-student thing? But that's the best part,” Nico laughed.
“No, although, yes, but no,” she said. “Because he's dead.”
“Oh,” Nico shrugged. Nico was kind of dead too, but he wasn't going to try to explain that to Annabeth over garlic bread. “That doesn't bother me.”
“Be honest. Did you send me after Daedalus for his sake?”
“Sure did! How is the search going?”
She told him all about her research into finding the labyrinth. She was getting close, and he was pretty sure she'd have it figured out before the war started. He wished he could give her a heads up that another prophecy was coming, and it was a doozy, but he kept his mouth shut.
“Is it really safe for you to be out of the Underworld?” She asked.
“Why, because of the emperors? I can avoid them. It'll be okay for one night.”
“The emperors?” Annabeth stared at him blankly. “I was referring to my mother. Don't tell me you've made more enemies since then.”
Nico explained as much as he could about his internship without giving away anything about the upcoming war or Camp Jupiter. Annabeth took in every word, and he could see her brain working overtime putting together the things he wasn't saying. She didn't ask a lot of questions, and he was sure she knew he was hiding things from her.
“I'll have to tell Hecate cabin about Alabaster,” she said, drinking the last of her iced tea. Nico tried to get her to order wine, but she said she was underage and didn't want him to use the mist on her behalf. Nico couldn't understand going through as many traumatic near-death experiences as she had and still wanting to be treated like a teenager; he was so over that.
“The show starts soon. Ready?” He asked.
She smiled and stood, brushing crumbs off her dress carefully. She was obviously very fond of it; he made a mental note to buy her another designer outfit sometime.
“Are you sure you're going to be alright?” She said. “The plot of Hadestown is a little close to home for you, don't you think?”
“I've met Orpheus and Eurydice. They're nice,” he said. “Why would a show about them bother me?”
“What about your sister?” she said. “Unless you've moved on?”
“No, never,” he said. “I've come too far to give up now.” He thought about the keystone for the Doors of Death. He didn't need to wait any longer, but he wasn't ready. He tried not to think about it too much.
He traveled them to the theater and they took their seats.
“By the way, speaking of Bianca,” Nico whispered in Annabeth's ear once they were sitting and waiting on the show to begin. “I've got the final piece I needed. I can resurrect her anytime I want.”
She raised her eyebrows.
“I'll believe that when I see it,” she said.
“I'm dead serious,” he said. “Freshen the linens in the Hades cabin in case we drop by. Because it's happening.”
“What are you waiting on, then?”
Nico stared at the heavy velvet curtains on the stage. Soon they would slide open to reveal a temporary fantasy world on the other side, full of song and feeling and light and motion. It might be a show about the Underworld, but a Broadway musical was basically the polar opposite of his dark and silent home.
When he opened the Doors of Death, what would be on the other side? Would Bianca go back to Artemis and leave him behind? Would she want to stay in the Underworld? He'd have to tell her that he'd sworn on the Styx that they'd never speak to their father again. Would she want to go to camp and start questing and fighting monsters again?
“I have some loose ends to tie up,” he said.
“Are you excited?”
“No,” he said, answering quickly and forgetting that he was supposed to be in denial. “I'm scared,” he added.
“That it won't work?”
“That it will.”
Annabeth reached out and put her hand on his arm comfortingly, but he swatted her away with the playbill. Soon, the show began.
It was a very inaccurate, stylized depiction of the Underworld, and Hades and Persephone's characters in the show didn't remind him much at all of his dad and stepmom, except when Hades got mad and yelled, which felt eerily familiar.
“The music is catchy,” Nico said during the intermission. “But Eurydice is green in real life. Should I tell them so they can fix her makeup?”
“I'd let it go,” Annabeth said. She made her way out of their row of seats to use the restroom, and Nico took the opportunity to take a smoke break outside.
Persephone had texted to remind him of her return date on the 21st, which was rapidly approaching. That brought a smile to his face; he couldn't wait to see her.
While he was looking at her text, he got an incoming call from Hera, which wiped the smile off his face immediately.
He answered the phone.
“Nico di Angelo, if you think you're no longer my employee just because you took that ambassador job with your father, you had better think again.”
“But the onagers aren't going to be ready for ages,” he said. “You don't need me anymore.”
“I'm aware you're in Manhattan,” she said. “You really think that's wise? And cozying up to a fellow prophecied hero, no less?”
“I haven't told her anything,” Nico said, stabbing his cigarette out on the brick wall of the theater and cursing Hera's stalker abilities. “We're friends.”
“You and Annabeth Chase, friends?” Hera scoffed. “Don't make me laugh. You're just trying to get under Athena's skin. That's fine with me, just keep your focus. I have a new task for you. Taylor Swift is performing at Madison Square Garden as we speak, and a little bird tells me that the Triumvirate are sitting in the VIP section. I need you to--”
Nico opened his Godstagram and looked at Ganymede's story. He was currently at the concert with Zeus and Apollo, all of them wearing outfits that represented different eras of Taylor Swift albums.
“I'd love to help, but I have to run,” Nico said. “They'll lock me out if I'm not back in the theater in two minutes. Tell Zeus to enjoy Taylor Swift.”
“I think he enjoys her a little too much,” Hera grumbled, hanging up.
Nico went back into the theater for the second half of Hadestown. This was the part of the story where shit got real: Orpheus sang his way to a shot at resurrecting his wife. Nico and the rest of the audience watched with bated breath as Orpheus, inevitably, failed the one condition Hades had laid out for him: He looked back, and Eurydice was lost to him forever.
After the show, Nico felt an odd feeling, like his heart was both full and empty at the same time. Seeing the story played out before his eyes had shifted something in his perspective, and he knew he'd been profoundly moved. He just wasn't sure how, exactly.
“You okay?” Annabeth said. “I can see how that might have been heavy for you.”
Nico found that he couldn't answer her. She sat next to him quietly as the theater emptied, and they didn't leave until the ushers gave them a look.
They hung around in the lobby and waited off to one side for another moment while Nico gathered his thoughts.
“I'm really glad I asked to come with you,” Nico said, finally breaking his long silence.
“Oh, really?” Annabeth said, breathing a sigh of relief. “I was worried you were upset.”
“No, not upset,” Nico said. “Or upset in a good way, maybe. I had a realization. Dead people are not supposed to come back to life.”
“No, they're not,” Annabeth agreed. “It's hard to accept sometimes, but death is final.”
“Exactly,” Nico said. “So in order to bring someone back, you have to be willing to defy the laws of the universe in order to do the impossible. And I'm like Orpheus in that tunnel right now,” he looked at Annabeth, his eyes bright. “I'm so close to getting her back that I can almost taste it. I know exactly what I need to do to pull it off. And here I am, hesitating. I'm looking back, Annabeth!”
She just stared at him, holding back whatever it was that she clearly wanted to say.
“I'm about to do the impossible. I'm trying to work a miracle,” he said fervently. “And I'm psyching myself out about it! And for what? A job? A relationship? For my dad? Fuck all of that,” he said. “Bianca's my sister. My best friend. I am so close to having a real life again-- My old life, before the ambrosia and the Underworld and the gods.”
“But is that what you really want?” Annabeth asked. “To throw away everything you've worked for?”
“This is what I've been working for,” he said. “And she's my family. She's everything. It's been hard to remember that sometimes, since she hasn't been speaking to me, but--”
“Nico!” Annabeth gasped, the light of inspiration flashing in her eyes. “What if it was a test?”
They made eye contact, and the wheels started spinning.
“My dad... It was a test...” Nico swallowed. “Oh my gods. It makes so much more sense that way. Why he's been so cagey about it, why he loaned her his helm, why he gave me chores he knew would distract me. He's been keeping us apart to see if I would lose faith the way Orpheus did!”
“I can't believe I didn't see it the first time you told me,” Annabeth said, nearly as excited as Nico was. “Even I thought you should let her go! Di immortales, what a revelation, Nico! I nearly fell for it the same way you did! Thank the gods we went and saw this musical!”
“I'm really going to do it,” Nico said, and for the first time, he knew it was inevitable. He would join the most exclusive club in history of people who had conquered death. He might as well have already done it, because he'd passed the final test. “It was never about the lunula amulet or the Doors of Death,” he said. “It was me. All along, it was going to come down to whether I had the will to push through my doubts.”
“You're one of the most remarkable people I've ever met, Nico,” Annabeth said. “I'm proud to be a part of your journey. And I'm proud to call you my friend.”
She embraced Nico warmly, and they just held each other for a moment. Nico was deeply moved by the declaration of friendship; he hadn't expected it, and it was the perfect way to cap off his revelatory night.
“Thank you for your help,” he said. “I'm never going to forget tonight. But I really should be getting back.”
“Will you tell Percy?”
“I don't think he'd get it.”
“He's smarter than he lets on,” Annabeth said. “I wouldn't be with him if he wasn't. And he's been rooting for you on the sidelines just as much as I have all these years. Underworld stuff makes him uncomfortable, and I'm sure he's moping about being punished. But if you can be nice to each other in spite of that, you might be surprised how well you get along.”
“I'll give it some thought,” Nico said skeptically. He took her hand and brought her back to her cabin, kissed her on both cheeks, and wished her goodnight.
He wanted to return home to the Underworld, but he had one last errand to run. He shadow traveled to a game store and picked up something that he hoped would be a good distraction for Thanatos.
He arrived back home feeling energized and powerful. He hadn't felt such a rush of confidence in a long time. It made starting his new job and kissing Minos for the first time feel like petty accomplishments. Anyone could do those things; he was going to make history, after he tied up a few loose ends.
It made it a little easier to accept that he'd have to leave his job and Minos behind.
He tried not to think about his father.
Chapter 42: Cousin Sleepover From Hell
Chapter Text
Nico returned to his room to find Percy writhing in bed and kicking at his sheets, appearing to be plagued with a nightmare. Nico snapped his fingers, and Percy woke up.
“Oh my gods, that sucked,” Percy gasped. “It felt like I was trapped in the worst dream I've ever had.”
“Is that so?” Nico asked, not really interested. He went over to his bookshelf and grabbed the lunula amulet he'd won from Artemis, tucking it into his pocket next to the keystone. He'd be using it very soon, and the thought made his heart race.
“I dreamed I was in a river of gold, and I was drowning! I've never drowned before,” Percy said, rubbing his chest. “It was like I was breathing in molten metal. It filled my lungs and then it turned solid, and it felt like an elephant was standing on me. It absolutely sucked. I couldn't wake up,” Percy said. “I'm used to nightmares, since I'm chock full of complex trauma. But this one was different somehow.”
Nico couldn't have cared less, and was about to say so when a thought occurred to him.
“You're not supposed to have dreams here,” he said. “Hypnos is off duty in the Underworld. But I have them too, sometimes. Maybe there's something about my room,” Nico said, looking around suspiciously. “Like a leftover spell or a magical object. Let's get you back to work and I'll ask Hypnos about it.”
“Okay,” Percy shrugged. “Why are you all dressed up?”
“I just like to feel fancy.” Nico smirked. It would be satisfying to tell Percy he'd just gotten back from a date with Annabeth, but he didn't want to destroy his fledgling friendship with her. “Go to Cerberus's pen and I'll meet you there.”
He texted Hypnos to meet him in the pen, then got changed and headed over himself. Hypnos was standing in the middle of the open area talking to Percy. They were discussing a guy named Clovis, one of Hypnos's sons.
“Hi, Hypnos! Did he tell you about his dream?” Nico asked, approaching the two of them.
“He did. None of us sent him anything like that,” Hypnos said. “The subject matter is also strange. Drowning in gold? Now, if it was a shower of gold, that might be a little easier to interpret,” he said.
Nico snorted. Percy frowned, and said immediately, “It was a river! A river!”
“I guess a son of Poseidon dreaming about water isn't strange,” Nico said. “And I did tell you 'sogni d'oro' before you went to sleep. Maybe it was my fault?”
“Sogni d'oro?” Percy asked.
“Golden dreams,” Hypnos translated.
“It's basically saying sleep well,” Nico said. “I was being sarcastic. I didn't actually want you to sleep well.”
“So it was you that gave him the nightmare,” Hypnos said, raising his eyebrows. “You sure you're not my kid?” He looked at Nico very carefully, like he wasn't sure.
“You have power over dreams?” Percy asked Nico with surprise. “Didn't see that coming.”
“Nico is the fifth child Hades has ever had,” Hypnos said. “And he's the first to be trained down here. We've all been surprised by the scope of his abilities. He seems capable of almost anything.”
Nico smiled to himself, thinking of Bianca and his plans for her. They thought they were surprised now? They hadn't seen anything yet.
After Hypnos had stretched his wings and flown off into the darkness, Percy asked, “What happened to the other children of Hades?”
“Get cleaning and I'll tell you,” Nico said.
As Percy scrubbed, Nico told him about Dante and Macaria, and the long and successful lives they'd led.
“Take that as evidence the next time someone says children of Hades are doomed to be unlucky,” Nico said. “It's only in the last century that Zeus has been trying to kill us off. It's not fate, it's just him being a jerk.”
“That's good to know,” Percy said. “So that means you have another sibling you haven't met yet, right? Number five? Are they around here?”
“Maybe,” Nico shrugged. “I haven't really gone looking. Too busy worrying about one sibling in particular.”
He watched Percy scrub an inch-thick layer of green slime off the inside of Cerberus's water bowl. When the surface of the bowl was clear, Percy used his powers to fill it with water from the cleaning buckets.
“Wrong,” Nico said immediately. “He only drinks Styx water. Be careful not to touch it,” he added.
“What if I want to become invulnerable?” Percy asked. He raised his arms and pulled water from the Styx towards him. A big blob of water passed overhead, dripping slightly, and Nico flinched as tiny drops landed on his skin.
“Power like that comes at a cost,” Nico said, remembering how excruciating it had been to hold his hands in the water. Bathing in it would be far, far worse.
“It would have helped against Kronos,” Percy said. “I got badly injured. I almost died.”
“Be grateful you didn't,” Nico said.
“Oh, I'm grateful,” Percy said. “I'm excited to go to college. I'm ready to be done with prophecies and war for a while.”
“Yeah, sure hope nothing happens to mess that up,” Nico said, smiling to himself. Percy had no idea how much the next year was about to suck.
He caught movement out of the corner of his eye and recognized the person walking towards them. “It's Minos!” Nico exclaimed. “How's my hair?” He asked Percy, running his hands through his curls. His hair looked pretty much the same every day, but he got paranoid sometimes that Cerberus got drool in it and Minos was too polite to point it out.
“Your hair? I don't know, it looks fine, I guess,” Percy said. “Why?”
Nico went over to meet Minos, kissing him on both cheeks, and then once on the lips for good measure.
“I wanted to meet our houseguest,” Minos said, peering at Percy skeptically. “This is the boy who defeated Kronos?”
“Yeah, I guess,” Nico said, disappointed Minos hadn't come exclusively to see him. “Percy, this is my boyfriend, Minos,” he said proudly, taking Minos' hand.
Percy stared at the two of them for a moment in shock.
“Minos... Aren't you a judge of the Underworld?” He asked. “And a ghost?”
“Guilty,” Minos smiled.
“Okay. Cool. Cool cool cool cool,” Percy said, seeming like he didn't know what else to say. “How did you two meet?”
“It's a funny story,” Nico said. “I came here looking for Bianca, right? And Minos was working here. Then I fell into a coma and this guy kept watching me sleep,” he said, poking Minos playfully. “Which was so cute of him.”
“Uh huh,” Percy said.
“Then when I woke up my dad assigned him to be my trainer, but we kept getting distracted from our lessons. And we really liked each other, but my father thought it was inappropriate and wouldn't let us be together. But then he gave up!”
“Wow, that's crazy,” Percy said, looking slightly disturbed.
“Minos, you're not going to believe this, but when I first met Percy I had a little bit of a crush on him,” Nico said.
He and Nico both had a good laugh about that, and Percy just went back to cleaning, grumbling to himself.
Nico spent the rest of the day with his boyfriend. Minos had a lot of free time on his hands thanks to Thanatos no longer collecting souls, and Nico knew that this time together was precious, since he was now more certain than ever that he'd be leaving with Bianca sooner rather than later. Even so, Nico couldn't spare all day.
“Did you ever ask you father about the no-ride list?” Minos asked. “Remember, before Thanatos quit, we were going to ask that he keep you on it for a while longer?”
“Yeah, I don't think I'm gonna bring it up,” Nico said. “I don't think he's going to take me off it without giving me a heads up. I'm pretty sure he forgot about it.”
“I hope you're right,” Minos said.
Nico walked him back to the judge's stand, then went to check on Thanatos.
The death god was lying on his stomach on the floor of his room, in the exact same position he'd been in when Nico had left him the last time.
“Oh. It's you,” he said without looking up.
“Were you expecting someone else?”
“Hypnos was supposed to come put me to sleep,” Thanatos said, his cheek pressed to the floor. “He's procrastinating. Seems to think it's a bad idea.”
“It is a bad idea,” Nico said, sitting next to Thanatos on the stone. “There's other things you can do to pass the time. It doesn't have to be a choice between working 24/7 and being unconscious.”
“Like what?” Thanatos snapped. “What exactly am I supposed to do? I told you, I have no friends, no hobbies, nothing besides endless soul collecting. I have no purpose beyond that.”
“I got you something to take your mind off your issues,” Nico said, holding out a pack of cards.
“I don't want your garbage,” Thanatos said. “Go away. Leave me alone.”
Nico ignored him, unwrapping the Mythomagic cards and looking through them one by one.
“Here. It's you,” he said, holding up the Thanatos card. “What do you think?”
Thanatos sat up and looked at the card. It had a little cartoon image of him looking mean and holding a scythe.
“Nine attack points? Insta-kill special ability? What does this mean?”
“So, this is your character card, and those are your traits,” Nico said. “And here's my dad, and Zeus, and Hermes,” he said, showing him more cards.
“Zeus has more attack points than me!” Thanatos exclaimed in dismay.
“Yeah, but your defense is higher, see?” Nico said. “You're a much better card, in my opinion. More versatility. Once we start playing you'll understand.”
Thanatos took the stack of cards and began looking through them.
“Alright,” he said with resignation. “Explain to me how it works.”
Nico dove right in to the explanation, and Thanatos hung on his every word, instantly memorizing every rule and asking clarifying questions frequently. He was eager to do a test game to see how he did, and Nico realized that Thanatos's memory was so good that he was immediately almost as skilled at the game as Nico. They played game after game and discussed the nuances of each card's strengths and weaknesses. Nico had forgotten how much he liked Mythomagic. Strategically building up a coordinated deck of gods and pitting them against an opponent was a lot of fun. It was funny how even at ten years old he had already been playing with godly diplomacy. He really hadn't changed much.
The dark, silent cave was a perfect place to concentrate fully on the game, but eventually Nico insisted that Thanatos let him create a small stone table and chairs so that they could play more comfortably.
“Nico! Fancy running into you here,” Hypnos said, peering in the door. “Are you two playing a card game?”
“Don't interrupt,” Thanatos snapped. “I was just about to use my special ability. Insta-kill,” he said, slapping his card down on the table.
“Damn it,” Nico muttered. “Alright, then Persephone is going to use Flower Power, giving Hades an extra saving throw.”
“Can I play?” Hypnos asked.
They had to interrupt their game to explain how the rules worked, but Hypnos picked it up quickly and was able to play with them in the next round. Eventually he and Thanatos got so into it that Nico took a break to observe. They made an interesting sight, the two of them with their large wings tucked tight against their backs, leaning over the table and peering at their cards. Thanatos had straight platinum hair, while Hypnos had white fluffy curls. Even their faces were opposites; Thanatos was sharp and severe and Hypnos was round and soft. Nico would never have guessed they were twins. Thanatos resembled Eros much more closely, and he wondered what had happened to cause Eros to leave the family.
Thanatos was obviously taken with Mythomagic. Nico had guessed correctly that he was bored and needed something stimulating to occupy himself with. Mythomagic had been an inspired choice; once you got into the expansion packs and started collecting rare cards, there was really no end to the game's entertainment value. Maybe with some time spent doing something fun, and a few more opportunities to socialize, Thanatos might feel a renewed interest in work.
The truth was, Thanatos could change his mind and go back to work at any moment. Nico didn't know him well enough to confidently predict his actions. He felt the weight of the keystone in his pocket. He'd have to use it before Thanatos needed it back. To be on the safe side, sooner would be better than later.
He went back to Cerberus's pen, but Percy was nowhere to be found. The place looked spotless, and Cerberus was chewing on a large bone happily, probably looking forward to dirtying his home again soon.
Nico returned to the palace and headed to his bedroom. He heard voices inside, and hesitated outside the door, eavesdropping. Who had the nerve to go into his bedroom with Percy when Nico wasn't around?
“I don't think I should get involved,” Percy said. “Are you sure you can't talk to him?”
“That would only make it worse,” an all-too familiar voice said. “You have to try. I need you to promise--”
Nico rushed through the door.
“Bianca,” he said. “Wait!”
She turned to see him, and her eyes went wide with alarm. She put the helm on her head quickly and disappeared. Nico lunged for her, trying to grab her before she could run away, but Percy got between them, gripping Nico's arms.
“Nico, stop,” he insisted. “You need to listen to me.”
“Get your hands off me,” Nico said, shoving Percy away. The moment was gone; Bianca was no longer there. “Look what you did! I almost had her!” Nico shouted.
Her face lingered in his mind. She'd looked the same as the last time he'd seen her; the long braid, the bow slung over her back, her lunula necklace glinting on her neck. He'd never seen her shade before, apart from the flashback vision Alecto had shown him of her judgement.
Nico was enraged; the flames in the wall sconces all went out, plunging the room into darkness.
“Why did you stop me?” He shouted at Percy, his voice raw with anger. “What the hell is wrong with you? That's my sister! Do you know how long I've been waiting to talk to her?”
“She didn't want to talk to you,” Percy said.
Nico moved before he could think. He shadow traveled in front of Percy, grabbed him by the neck and slammed him against the wall.
“Say that one more time,” he said, “I dare you.”
“Let go of me,” Percy choked out. “I don't want to hurt you.”
Nico laughed coldly. He pulled at the stone of his bedroom wall, drawing it towards him and encasing Percy in an onyx shell that he couldn't escape from. He left a hole in the front so he could stare Percy in the eyes.
“Go ahead. Try to get out of that,” Nico said.
“I'm on your side, dude,” Percy insisted. “Don't you want to know what she said? Let me out and let's talk.”
That only pissed Nico off more. He wanted Percy to get angry like he had on the beach, but instead, Percy was being compassionate. That felt like pity, and pity was the last thing Nico wanted Percy to feel for him.
Realizing that his hands were tied, he stood there, fuming for a moment, before finally letting Percy out.
“I've been around the block a few times,” Percy said, clapping Nico on the shoulder. Nico shoved him away roughly, but Percy was unphased. “I know when someone's trying to pick a fight because they're hurt. But you've gotta hear me out, for Bianca's sake, if nothing else.”
“I don't understand why she'd waste her time talking to you,” Nico spat. “After what you did to her.”
“I'm glad I finally got a chance to apologize,” Percy said. “Her death hit me hard. I carried that guilt for years. But she said... Um...”
“If you start crying, I'm going to hit you,” Nico said. Percy just chuckled. Nico really wished he was a less likeable guy.
“She forgave me. Well, sort of, basically,” Percy said, clearing his throat. “She said it didn't matter anymore, that it was in the past. But that's not the part that's the message for you. Nico-- I'm gonna touch your shoulder again. Don't kill me.”
Nico glared daggers at him, but he let Percy clasp his shoulder again.
“Just spit it out,” he said. “What did she want you to tell me?”
“She wants you to let her go,” Percy said.
Nico smacked his hand away. That couldn't be it; his mind totally rejected it. Bianca hadn't said that, and if she had, she hadn't meant it. It was a trick. Hades must have put her up to it. She was in on it, trying to test him.
“No,” he said. “I'm not falling for that.”
“Nico, she wants to be reincarnated.”
“No she doesn't!” Nico shouted. Percy staggered backwards, startled by the violence of his response. Nico was so angry he was shaking, and his whole body felt hot.
“I'm just telling you what she said, dude,” Percy said, holding up his hands.
“She didn't say that! She doesn't want that!” Nico yelled. The walls of the room rumbled, and a jagged crack formed in the wall behind him.
“Nico, I'm sorry, but she made me promise to say that to you,” Percy said. “I don't know the whole story, I'm just giving you the message.”
“Get out,” Nico said.
“What? Really?”
“Get out of my room!” Nico's voice boomed, louder than should have been possible.
Percy stepped out of the doorway quickly.
“I'm really sorry,” Percy said. “I can't imagine how hard that is to hear. But it doesn't mean she doesn't love you.”
The only reason Nico didn't hurt him was because of Annabeth. He valued her friendship too much to throw it away, and he was no longer the impulsive child he had once been. He grabbed Percy by the hair, shadow traveled to Camp Half Blood, and chucked him into the lake.
He went back to his room immediately and stood, his hands shaking. He stared at the crack in the wall, thinking in a panic.
Bianca said she wanted to be reincarnated. What the fuck?
It doesn't mean she doesn't love you, Percy had said. But Percy was an idiot.
How could it possibly mean anything else?
Nico fell to his knees and sobbed, unable to stop the tears from falling. She hadn't said it, and if she'd said it, she hadn't meant it. He told himself over and over that it wasn't true, but it hurt so much. If it really was a lie, it was a cruel one. The doubt cut him like a knife, rattling him to his core.
A little voice in the back of his head, one he'd tried to silence every day for the last two years, whispered, “She's going to leave you again. You were a burden. She never loved you as much as you loved her.”
He tried to ignore the voice, to shove it to the back corner of his mind and ignore it like he had so many times before, but it was screaming at him now. Percy had given it the perfect ammunition.
“I won't listen,” he muttered to himself through gritted teeth. “It's a test. It's all part of the test, and I'm going to pass. I will bring her back to life. I can do this.”
His phone buzzed with a frantic text from Annabeth. He turned his phone off without reading it and set it on his bookshelf. He was determined not to falter. He would prevail. He would bring his sister back to life.
He went and took another one of his long, boiling hot showers that he'd grown accustomed to. He even dragged his record player in and put on some opera to drown out his thoughts. He needed to stay in the zone. He refused to let the dark thoughts drag him down.
“Nico?” Hades called out from the bathroom doorway. “I need to speak with you when you're done.”
“Yes, Papa,” Nico called out. He finished showering and steeled himself to speak with Hades, heading to his room.
He gave himself a pep talk. He couldn't think about Bianca, and he definitely couldn't talk about her. If he let on that he'd figured out his dad's plan, Hades could change things around on him. It was the smart move to just keep his mouth shut and pretend like everything was normal.
For all that he knew, Hades had ordered Bianca to tell Percy about wanting to be reincarnated. Maybe he'd sensed that Nico was getting close to resurrecting her and wanted to throw a wrench in the works at the last minute. Maybe right now, he'd do it again.
Nico walked into Hades' room feeling as cold as ice.
“Nico,” Hades looked up cheerfully. He was sitting in bed with Cerberus, like he had the day Nico had come home from his internship, only this time Cerberus was laying horizontally across the bed with his back legs on the floor. If Hades had been mortal, he'd have been crushed under his dog's weight. “Come in, I want to speak with you,” Hades gestured. “Erm, do you have room on that side?”
“I'm good,” Nico said, unable to help smiling at the sight of Cerberus's tail wagging just for him. He sat on the bed and gave Cerberus a good scritching. “What's up?”
“Persephone called. She'll be home in two days,” Hades said, beaming. He rarely expressed that kind of happiness. Persephone's return was usually the only surefire way to get a smile out of him.
“Can't wait,” Nico smiled back.
“She says she has a big announcement to make, and she wants to have some sort of party the first night she's back,” Hades said. “She wouldn't give details, but it's not meant to be a return party for her, she made that clear.”
“Oh, nice,” Nico said. “A party with everybody?” It would be the perfect send off for his old life, a chance to say goodbye to his old friends and loved ones for one not-so final time. Naturally he'd be back eventually, when he officially died and was brought in for judgement. But with Thanatos not working, there was no telling when that might happen.
“It's not with everybody. I assumed that, too,” Hades said. “She said she wants it just to be us.”
“Us as in you and me? Is that even a party?”
“No idea,” Hades shrugged. “She can be strange, at times. Particularly where you're involved. But we'll find out soon enough. I want to focus on preparing for her return, so you can send Percy back to camp now. I can't waste any more time on him, and you have your own work to focus on.”
“I already did,” Nico said.
“Perfect timing,” Hades said. “Good. Now that that's done, there's something I wanted to show you. It's a movie production of an opera you like. It's from the 1980's, so I know you haven't seen it. The lead tenor is acclaimed.”
“I don't know. I'm kind of picky about tenors,” Nico said, making himself comfortable.
They got halfway through Rigoletto, which starred Luciano Pavarotti and had Nico totally transfixed, before it struck him.
“Papa, you never asked me about work,” he said. “Aren't you worried about Thanatos not collecting souls?”
“Worried would be putting it mildly,” Hades said. “I suppose I didn't ask, did I? I assumed you were working on it to the extent that you could.”
“I am, but... Are you saying you trusted me?” Nico asked.
“I wouldn't go that far,” Hades said. “Be quiet and watch your movie.”
Nico didn't just watch the movie, he savored every single second of it. His heart ached each time he looked at his father and Cerberus sitting beside him. Their relationship had come so far, and he was about to throw it all away. And for what? A sister that didn't care about him.
He was still resigned to going through with the resurrection. He'd have to do it after the party in two days; he didn't have any excuse not to. But just thinking about it made him want to cry.
After the movie ended, he told Hades about introducing Thanatos to Mythomagic, and how he already seemed to be perking up compared to before.
“I think he genuinely needed a vacation, but if he gets time to recharge, I find it hard to believe he won't want to work again on his own. But he's very obstinate and contrary. Telling him to go back will only make him stay away longer to spite you.”
“That sounds about right,” Hades sighed. “Well, keep at it. And thank you, son. You know, having Percy here made me contemplate a few things. I used to want a son just like him, once. Now I realize that I'd take an ambassador over a hero of the Titan war any day.”
He ruffled Nico's hair fondly. Nico felt like he was going to throw up.
“Please don't say stuff like that,” Nico said.
“What do you mean?”
“Just stop. Please,” Nico said. He got up and left, going back to his room and putting a wall of shadow up over the door.
In the back of his mind, the thought pricked at him that maybe Hades was tricking him again, and this was all part of the plan to distract him from Bianca. But deep down, Nico knew that was bullshit. His dad loved him. He'd known that for a long time.
If leaving his dad was going to hurt this much, he couldn't bear to think about saying goodbye to Minos. And Persephone? How was he going to break it to her that he was leaving to be with a sister he hadn't seen in four years? It wouldn't make sense to anybody. But he couldn't let go.
Nico spent the next two days in a funk. He tried to hide it, but his emotions were spelled out all over his face. Hades never asked why he'd behaved so strangely after the movie, and he kept his distance, focused on preparing for Persephone's return.
Nico tried to spend as much time with Minos as possible, but Thanatos had started demanding his attention frequently. For someone who claimed to hate everyone but his mother, Thanatos seemed secretly thrilled when Nico brought the judges of the Underworld to learn how to play Mythomagic with him. He knew the rules better than Nico did already, and he'd even left the Underworld to snag all of the expansion packs and accessories.
Thanatos was a snippy, impatient teacher, and he couldn't help himself from winning the practice games he claimed he'd hold back on.The judges weren't particularly good at the game, but when Morpheus eventually joined the group, he caught on fast. He and his uncle quickly became Mythomagic buddies. Still, although Nico felt he'd been outclassed, Thanatos insisted he join them as much as possible.
The remaining two days went by in a blur, and it wasn't long before Nico was arranging silk flowers in a vase on the dining table in preparation for the party while Hades went to meet Persephone at the entrace to the Underworld. She had left specific instructions for her party setup, and they would be dining on the Asphodel balcony.
A table and chairs had been set up, and a large pergola had been constructed overtop of the dining area. Nico had strung it with hundreds of silk flowers in pink and yellow and red. He also hung up colored lanterns with magic candles inside, and they gave the entire balcony a warm, rosy glow. If the shades in the fields down below glanced up at the palace, there would be no doubt that their Queen had come home.
Nico smelled the scent of roses on the air, and he knew she was back. He ran into the palace and found her in her bedroom, where Hades was unpacking her suitcases for her.
She ran over to Nico and gave him a big hug, squeezing him tightly. She smelled like sunlight and damp earth and lemonade. Nico had forgotten how good it felt just to be around her.
“Your hair looks so cool!” Nico exclaimed. Her dark brown curls were tinged reddish orange at the roots, and the color worked its way partway up the length before it faded into the familiar dark brown.
“Thanks, it's balayage! I wanted to bring some color into the Underworld this year,” Persephone said, grinning and bringing out the dimples in her cheeks. She had an entirely new set of freckles; she came home with different ones every year. “I call the shade 'sorghum red'. I was inspired by a sorghum field I'm rather fond of. Your father hates it.”
“I don't hate it,” Hades said, hanging her colorful sundresses up in the wardrobe. “I could never hate anything about you, my love. It was just a shock.”
“He hates change,” Persephone said. “I've found it's best to ease him into things. Speaking of change, your father tells me your new job is going swimmingly!”
“It's great,” Nico said. “I've been really happy.”
“And dear Minos? That's going well?”
“Yeah, that's been great, too,” Nico said.
“And you two are getting along?”
Hades paused in hanging up the dresses, tensing, but he didn't turn around to meet Nico's eyes.
“Much better than before,” Nico said.
Persephone breathed a sigh of relief, and a peony bloomed in her hair.
“I want to celebrate all of these wonderful things and make my big announcement over a family meal. Nico, would you mind changing into your uniform? You look so handsome in it. And while you're gone, I'll fetch our other guests.”
“Other guests?” Nico asked. “I thought it was just us.”
“Just the family,” she said, disappearing.
Nico went back to his room to put on his uniform. Maybe Demeter was coming; he hoped not, since she didn't seem to like him.
He waved a hand to summon Minos to him.
“Can you help me put this on?” He asked, holding out the uniform.
Minos smiled at him sweetly.
“I don't think you need my help anymore,” Minos said. “Not that I mind.”
He took the Stygian silk and carefull draped and pinned it on Nico, taking care to arrange the folds to perfection without wasting the opportunity to run his hands across Nico's skin.
When he was done, Nico was suddenly overtaken with sadness. He didn't want it this chapter to end, but it was going to, soon, and it was going to hurt.
He fell into Minos' arms and held onto his boyfriend for a long time, clinging to his cold and lifeless body like it was the only thing tethering him to the earth.
He turned his face up and kissed Minos deeply.
“Have I told you how grateful I am for you?” Nico asked, resting his head on Minos's shoulder.
“I'm grateful for you, too,” Minos said, gently running his fingers through Nico's hair. “I wonder how I ever tolerated the afterlife without you. You make me feel so much more alive.”
“You make me feel...” Nico couldn't say deader, but Minos didn't make him feel alive, exactly, either. “Safe,” he said. “You've been a safe place for me, ever since I got here. That means a lot.”
“Is everything alright?” Minos asked.
“Yeah,” Nico said, stepping back and taking his hand. “But after this dinner, I'm doing it. I'm resurrecting her.”
“Oh,” Minos said, looking alarmed.
“I know, I know,” Nico said. “We won't see each other for a while. But my dad could take me off the no-ride list at any moment, or Thanatos could go back to work. I can't waste any more time. And it seems like Bianca is getting impatient.”
“Mhm,” Minos said. It look like he wanted to say something and couldn't. Nico ignored it; it didn't matter anymore.
“We'll see each other again when I die,” Nico said. “If my dad doesn't resent me too much for passing his test, he might let me go back to my job someday. Everything will be like this again, but permanent.”
“Well,” Minos said, seeming to be at a loss for words. “I'll be here waiting.”
“I'm sorry,” Nico added.
“Don't be,” Minos said. “I won't feel the passing of time. Um, did you say there was a test? You think your father is testing you?”
“Yeah, but I figured him out,” Nico said. “Don't worry, I've got it covered.”
“I hope so,” Minos said, looking worried. “I assume you'll be taking Bianca from the family dinner, then?”
“What?”
“Persephone is summoning the shades of all the children of Hades to attend your dinner tonight,” Minos explained. “She thought about adding Zeus and Poseidon's dead children, too, and called me to ask for a list, but she hadn't realized how long that list would end up being. I managed to talk her out of it.”
“Bianca's coming to the dinner,” Nico said, in total disbelief.
“I asked, and Persephone said she would be there, so, yes,” Minos said. “Presumably.”
“Oh my gods,” Nico said. “It's really happening. Right now. I'm doing this.”
He kissed Minos goodbye, and then marched out to the balcony. This was going to be the most important night of his life.
Chapter 43: Wait For Me
Chapter Text
Everything was dark and gray and nothing ever happened. That pretty much summed up being dead. It sucked.
The shade was slumped over against a rock, staring into space, bored beyond what they'd ever thought possible. They stared out at their surroundings. The fields of Asphodel were gleaming in a weak imitation of moonlight, a merciful measure to prevent the shades from being immersed in total darkness all the time. It looked the same as it had when the shade had arrived decades earlier, except some of the outfits on their fellow shades looked slightly different now.
The shade reached out with its mind and sensed tens of thousands of other shades milling about. It observed their dull spirits blindly fumbling in echoes of their past lives. A man dug around in a nonexistent purse for nonexistent coins to pay a three thousand year old debt. A woman brushed her daughter's hair for the billionth time. A child hummed a song, lulled to a dreamless sleep by the roaring of the nearby Styx. There was no suffering or joy, no feeling at all, just a soft, peaceful existence like a waking dream.
Who was I? The shade thought to itself dully. It had been a long time since they'd bothered with thinking. I know I was somebody, they thought. Does it even matter anymore?
Suddenly, a ripple moved through the crowd, and the crowd's murmuring grew louder. It was probably that tall skinny boy who worked for Pluto, he was always up to something. The shade had seen him in the fields a few times, but he'd never glanced at them. Not even once.
They weren't sure why that mattered to them. Did it have something to do with their identity? Probably. But what did it matter now?
The murmuring increased in volume, but the shade just flopped over on their side and closed their eyes. They didn't hear any footsteps, but they could tell someone was standing behind them. Someone powerful.
The shade rolled over and looked up at the goddess standing over them.
“Hazel Levesque?” Persephone said. Hundreds of shades clumped together in a mass behind her, eyes glued to the goddess's every move.
“Huh?” It took a second to figure out why the name sounded so familiar. “Oh, right, that's me,” Hazel said. She hadn't spoken in a long time.
Her mind kicked into gear. She hated when it did that, because then she remembered she was dead. And why she was dead, and how, and all kinds of other stuff that didn't do her any good to remember. The other shades didn't seem to have any self-awareness, and she envied them. It was a bad habit she was still trying to kick.
“Hazel, we're having a family dinner, and we'd be delighted if you'd join us on the terrace,” Persephone said, in a voice like wind chimes in the summer breeze. She was the brightest light Hazel had seen in decades, radiating warmth like a stove, and she smelled like the surface.
Hazel stared at her and thought about how badly she wanted to see the sun again. She wanted to hold a leaf in her hand, to bite into a peach, to feel something. All she had were echoes of remembered feelings, and most of them weren't even good ones.
She stood and moved to follow Persephone.
“Hazel?”
It was her old boyfriend, Sammy. He was sitting beside her, looking confused as to why she was leaving.
Her first love had died many decades after she had. He'd lived to his seventies, while she'd never quite made it to her fourteenth birthday. Sammy had gotten the chance to grow up and have a family, a wife and children and grandchildren, and he'd almost forgotten about Hazel by the time he'd died. But the moment he walked into the fields, the time they'd been separated ceased to matter, and Hazel had been there to take his hand. The people you loved were the people you loved; there wasn't any ranking based on who'd come first or who'd moved on from who. There was still love between them, and that meant they spent eternity together.
Of course, that meant that when his wife and kids had eventually shown up, she'd been stuck with them, too. It was mostly fine; shades clung to each other like barnacles on instinct. At one point the group of them found a rock they sort of liked and decided to all sit around it; that had been an exciting day. At least, Hazel had been kind of excited. She seemed to be the only one to ever feel anything, and her feelings weren't even that strong.
Sammy stood next to the family rock, staring at her.
“I'm sure I'll be back soon,” she reassured him, and he nodded and sat back down. She turned and followed Persephone through the fields and up a set of stairs hewn from rock. The stairs ended at the palace balcony. The whole place blazed with warm orange light. That was new.
Hazel was awe-struck by the sight of the lights and flowers that decorated the balcony and the dining area that had been set up there. She hadn't seen anything that beautiful since she'd died.
She ran straight up to the table, which was laden with fresh fruits, succulent meats, jugs of wine and ambrosia, and mountains of luxurious desserts. Persephone had to trot to keep up with her.
“Help yourself to anything you like, Hazel,” Persephone said, indicating a chair for her to sit in.
Hazel didn't grab for the food, and she didn't spare a glance for her father, who was sitting at the head of the table waiting on her acknowledgement.
She reached out to the centerpiece and pulled a rose out of the water.
It was alive. It was in the process of dying, growing brown at the edges, but it was still living, its petals pink and flesh-soft. She tried to smell it and found that she couldn't smell anything. She wasn't sure if it was her, the rose, or both.
A living flower. She'd thought about those a lot over the years. She'd grown up in New Orleans, a humid, tropical climate where flowers were always abundant. It had been easy to take flowers for granted back then. Now, she saw them for what they really were; precious and fragile and temporary, each one a priceless and irreplaceable miracle.
She was glad death had dulled her emotions, because otherwise she'd have busted out crying over a stupid rose. She set it gently in her water glass and decided that whatever happened with this dinner, she was taking that flower back to Asphodel with her. If it got her in trouble, so be it.
She finally took a moment to survey the other two guests. Hades had two shades sitting with him, flanking him on either side. Hazel didn't know them; one was a hawk-nosed man with a silly red hat, and the other was an ancient Roman woman with a complex hairstyle and a stuck up expression. They were chatting to each other in Latin, and neither of them spared Hazel a glance.
They both had that blissful glow that told you they were from Elysium. Not her kind of dead people, then, she thought jealously.
She'd given up ruminating on the fact that she hadn't earned a place in Elysium. It was just another memory she avoided thinking about.
She got some food and wondered why the dinner party didn't appear to have started yet. Persephone and Hades were both in their places at the opposite heads of the table. They kept glancing over to one side, and she followed their gazes.
A young man was pacing on the far side of the balcony, looking out at the fields with an anxious expression.
It was the dark haired man she remembered, the one who she was pretty sure worked there. He wore the uniform all the other Underworld employees wore lately. If he'd scored an invite to the family dinner, he must have been a relative, too.
“Nico, she may be a while yet,” Persephone said. “Why don't you sit down and get something to eat, and we'll take our mind off her in the meantime, okay?”
“You said she'd be here,” he said.
“Well, she didn't swear on the Styx, love,” Persephone sighed. “She may have been telling me what I wanted to hear.”
“Or you've frightened her off with all your stomping around over there,” Hades added.
“We can't have a family dinner without the whole family here!” Nico snapped.
He came back to the table and sat down, but he had a stubborn look on his face, and didn't seem to have any intention of being a pleasant guest until the last guest arrived.
Hazel watched him carefully. He had a divine sort of glow about him. Was he a god? She'd never heard of a god named Nico before. Then again, most people hadn't heard of most gods.
She picked up an apple and bit into it, interested to see what it was like to eat food again. Her fellow shades were always jumping at the chance to get summoned to the surface for sacrifices, and they came home raving about the delicious chocolate cake and golden retrievers they got to eat up there. She'd never felt like tagging along.
The apple tasted mealy and bland, even though it had looked really good. She rolled it around in her mouth, tasting it carefully. After a second, she did get a little bit of an apple flavor, although it might have just been the memory kicking in of what an apple was supposed to taste like. It was better than nothing, so she took another bite.
Nico was frowning down at his plate. To Hazel, it looked like he was being weirdly melodramatic. This missing person was really getting to him.
Persephone heaved a big, deliberate sigh, looking right at him. He glanced up, and guilt flashed across his face.
Hazel might not be able to smell anything, but she still smelled the drama brewing in the air. It had been a while since she'd had any of that to entertain her. She kept on eating her apple, observing the scene closely.
“Sorry for being a jerk,” Nico told Persephone. “I just... You know. It's hard.”
“You have every right to be disappointed. I shouldn't have gotten your hopes up,” Persephone said, looking distraught. “But I would appreciate if you would try to let it go. I really hoped we could all be in good spirits for my announcement.”
Hazel wondered what her deal was. Persephone looked kind of twitchy. Goddesses weren't supposed to get twitchy. Something was very odd about this whole situation.
“Whatever,” Nico shrugging, attempting to feign lightheartedness. “She ditches me all the time. I should be used to it by now. Don't let me stop you from doing your thing. I'm excited to hear it.”
“Yes, by all means, my love,” Hades said, smiling at Persephone encouragingly. “Tell us what we're here for.”
Persephone looked at Nico's face and shook her head.
“No. Not yet. I'll be back in a moment,” she smiled. She disappeared.
Nico glanced at Hades.
“Did you do introductions without me?” He asked.
“We didn't do any introductions,” Hades said. “I think we all know each other.”
Hazel frowned. She didn't know anybody but Hades, and she wished she didn't know him, the big jerk. Nico caught on to the fact that she felt left out.
“I'm Nico. What's your name?” He said, smiling at her. He had a lovely smile, a little sad, but that made it more beautiful. His eyes were so dark brown that they were almost black, just like Hades'. She'd always found her father's eyes scary, but Nico's were nice. They were the kind of eyes that sucked you in and didn't let you go.
“My name is Hazel,” she said. He was definitely some type of god, she thought. He just had a certain je ne sais quoi. It was hard to put her finger on how she knew, but she knew.
“It's a pleasure to meet you, Hazel. You've been my mystery sibling for a while now. You were the only one I hadn't met.”
She blinked at him.
“Are we siblings?” She said, surprised.
“Yeah, I'm a demigod just like you,” Nico said. “This family dinner is for the children of Hades. And Pluto. I can tell you're Roman, like these two,” he said, pointing at the other shades at the table.
A demigod? So her instincts had been wrong about him. Or he was being modest. She wasn't sure what to think, so she let it go.
“This is our brother, Dante,” Nico pointed out the man in the red hat, who gave him a nod. “He's from Italy. He's a famous writer. You may have heard of him?”
“Nope,” she said. She could tell he was talking down to her slightly. It was kind of justified, she supposed. She had never gotten much of an education.
“Dante Alighieri?” Nico asked. “Author of The Inferno? The Divine Comedy?”
“Doesn't ring a bell,” Hazel said, finishing her apple and moving on to a peach.
“Oh, gotcha. I'll have to lend it to you sometime, it's great. Anyway, this is Macaria,” he pointed to the woman across from Dante. She looked at Hazel disinterestedly. “She was from Rome. She was a Vestal Virgin.”
Hazel shrugged. She didn't see how the woman's sex life was any of her business.
“And I'm from Venice,” Nico said, pointing to himself. “Born in 1932. Based on your clothes, I'm guessing we're from the same century?”
“1928,” she said. “I'm older,” she added proudly.
“My sister Bianca was born in 1930. That's interesting that we're all so close in age. Where were you from?”
“New Orleans.”
“Oh, okay. Different continents, then,” he said.
So he was waiting on his sister. That made sense. It seemed like he was still alive, and she wasn't. And if he was a demigod like he claimed, maybe he was immortal and Bianca resented him for it? Hazel's brain put together a few different explanations, but it could have been anything, really. She considered asking, but Nico seemed like he was barely holding it together as it was.
“You're all from Italy?” Hazel asked, glancing between him, Dante, and Macaria. “So I'm the odd one out.”
“I'm surprised you're not Italian, too,” Nico said. “Papa hates change.”
“Papa,” she muttered. She glanced at Hades, looming over the head of the table like a vulture wrapped in a black bedsheet. She'd be dead in the cold ground before she called him 'papa', she thought to herself. And in fact, she was dead in the cold ground, and she still wasn't going to do it, so that just went to show how much she couldn't stand the guy. He'd always reminded her of Hitler.
She was the only non-Italian one and the only black one. That sucked. It got worse when the others resumed chattering away to each other in Latin and Nico joined them. She'd never studied it. A few words here and there made sense to her, and she got the gist, but it wasn't enough to join in.
Hazel looked at the rose in her water glass. If she stared at it long enough, she could watch it wither in real time. Peak Underworld entertainment, she thought. What she wouldn't give to watch a movie again.
Persephone returned after a few minutes with a new guest on her arm. The shade clinging to her was a petite dark haired woman with a black dress and high heels. Hazel assumed it was the other sister Nico had been waiting on.
“Mama!” Nico said, getting up and hugging her.
Okay, so not the sister, Hazel thought. Hades' wife and mistress at the same table? This family dinner just kept getting weirder and weirder.
“Persephone, what do you think you're doing?” Hades asked, staring at Nico's mother in shock. “I told you I didn't want her here!”
“Well, I can't find Bianca, and I don't think she's coming,” Persephone said frustratedly. “And Nico just looked so sad about it that I had to do something. We can't have an empty seat at the family dinner, we just can't,” she said, stomping her foot firmly. “Also, I want Maria to hear the announcement,” she added. “So you're just going to have to deal with it.”
“Wait, what?” Nico asked. “Why wouldn't you want her here? If Mama isn't welcome, I'm leaving,” he said, glaring at his father.
Hazel raised her eyebrows. Persephone had wanted this Maria woman at the dinner, and Hades had forbidden it, and Persephone had just brought her anyway! And now Nico was pitching a fit to keep her there, and Hades was fuming at both of them.
Were these people seriously gods? She'd have expected this level of drama from a working class family in New Orleans, but not from the rulers of the Underworld.
“Darling,” Hades said, carefully controlling his tone. Both Persephone and Maria looked at him. He cringed. “Persephone, my darling wife,” he corrected, “And Nico, my son that I sometimes tolerate. Both of you are well aware that Maria is supposed to be in Elysium right now. She doesn't need us disturbing her eternal rest.”
“I don't mind,” Maria said calmly.
“See? She wants to stay,” Nico said, putting his arm around her shoulders protectively.
“I want her here, and that's final,” Persephone said, staring her husband down. Hades gave up, sinking down in his seat and pouted into his wine cup.
Nico guided his mother to sit next to him at the table, and she immediately started making him a heaping plate of food. Then she stroked his hair and said he was very handsome and way too skinny. Hazel wanted to throw up a little in her mouth. She had never gotten along great with her mom, but she'd take that over being a spoiled brat any day.
Ugh. She hated thinking about her mom. She turned to her father, remembering how badly he'd let them both down. Now that there was a lull in the drama at the dinner table, she decided she might as well say something, if only to remind him that she was his daughter, and she remembered what he'd done to her.
“How come you only had five kids?” Hazel asked Hades loudly.
He looked at her like he'd just remembered she was there.
“I had five specific reasons,” he said.
“He wanted you, me, or my sister to be the hero of prophecy in the war against the Titans,” Nico said. “But it didn't pan out.”
“So we're failures?” Hazel said. “I died fighting Gaea, you know,” she added.
“Gaea?” Nico looked at her curiously. “Really? That's interesting.”
“She was trying to revive her son Alcyoneus. I died thwarting her. She'd taken over my mother's mind. I guess no one really protected us,” she added, deliberately not looking at her father. She wanted to be provocative, but she also didn't want to get yelled at directly.
“I'm sorry,” Nico said. He looked like he meant it.
Hazel just shrugged and cut herself a slice of chocolate cake. Taking a bite, the rich, fluffy cake tasted like a sponge that had sat in the fridge next to a chocolate cake once. It was alright, but now she kept thinking about Gaea and her mother. She regretted saying anything.
“Um, perhaps it's time for my announcement,” Persephone said, taking a deep breath. She tapped on the side of her glass and stood up. Hazel noticed that her knees were trembling. What on earth could scare Persephone like that? Goddesses didn't have fears of public speaking. And she kept looking at Nico and at Hades like she expected them to explode at any moment.
“There is something I've kept to myself for quite some time now that concerns this family,” she said. “But it's time we were all on the same page.”
“Are you pregnant?” Hazel asked.
“You can't just ask her that,” Nico said. “Wait, are you?” He asked, looking at Persephone worriedly.
“No, I'm not. The fates told me long ago that I was not destined to bear children of my own,” Persephone said. “This is about something else. But also, it really isn't. It's not easy being the only couple without kids in a big family like ours. Of course, we're content with the life we've built together,” she said, smiling at her husband. “But lately we've been so isolated down here. Not that there aren't valid reasons for that, but even so, it's been lonely. Having a shoulder to cry on, someone to laugh with and talk through problems with-- Eternity can be difficult to cope with if you don't have support around you to get through it.”
Hazel was confused. Persephone was with her mother half the time, right? She wouldn't have any limitations on seeing her family when she was on the surface. She must have been speaking on behalf of her husband.
“There is nothing, absolutely nothing, more important than family,” Persephone said, looking at Nico.
Nico nodded his agreement.
“And so, on that note, I have something to say,” Persephone said, drawing herself up and gathering her courage.
Everyone around the table leaned forward to hear to long-awaited announcement.
Everyone except Nico, who had turned around in his seat.
“Bianca!” he said. “She came! Bianca, where are you?” Nico called out.
Hazel looked, but didn't see anyone. Nico stood up and ran over to the side of the balcony to look around. He leaned over the railing and scanned the fields.
“Damn it! Why does she keep showing up and then running away?” He said, frustrated.
“Ignore her,” Hades said. “Go on with your speech, love,” he told Persephone encouragingly.
“Um, I think I need a moment,” Persephone said, tugging at the collar of her dress like she was overheating. “I had it all rehearsed and it's gone right out of my head.”
“Bianca!” Nico had gone over to the top of the stairs and was calling down to her. “I know you're down there!”
“Nico, sit down!” Hades yelled. Nico ignored him.
His mother, Maria, turned to Persephone.
“Maybe I could talk to Bianca,” she said. Her voice was very soft and gentle. “I'll ask her to come join us. She might listen to me.”
“That's a great idea!” Nico said, running back to the table with a wild look in his eyes. At the same time Hades said, “No!”
“Yes she should!” Nico insisted.
“Absolutely not!” Hades shouted.
Hazel wished she had some popcorn. She picked up her wilting rose and twined it into her thick curly hair, watching the argument unfold like she was back at the movies again. She wondered if Nico had lost his mind to be talking back to their father, or if they had some kind of understanding.
Nico looked back at his mother for support in his argument, who was shaking her head at him.
“Mama, come with me,” he said, kneeling before her and pressing his hands together plaintively. “We'll confront her together. She'll have to listen to you.”
“Nico, I'm sure your father has his reasons,” Maria said pityingly. “Let's not argue with him.”
“Yes, Nico, now is not the time,” Persephone agreed. “I'm so sorry to have promised you something I couldn't provide, but... Well, she can't come, darling.”
Nico looked at her with confusion.
“What are you talking about? You said she might.”
“Persephone,” Hades said, a note of warning in his voice.
“Nico, sweetheart,” Persephone said. She moved to sit beside Maria, and she took one of his hands, while Maria held the other. “I think it's best you don't see her. At the very least, she doesn't need to come to dinner. I did invite her, but after speaking with her, I rescinded the invitation. I was trying to spare your feelings by not telling you.”
Nico looked crushed.
“I don't understand,” he said weakly.
“Persephone, stop,” Hades said. He disappeared in shadow at the far end of the table and suddenly appeared looming directly behind Nico. “Do not discuss this with him.”
“I had to say something,” Persephone said, looking at her husband angrily. “This emotional tug of war with her is damaging him, can't you see that?”
“I said no,” Hades said with finality. “This discussion is finished. Nico, not another word. Persephone, please proceed with your announcement.”
Hazel couldn't tear her eyes away. What the hell was wrong with this Bianca girl? Was it so hard to make a shade sit at a dinner table for a few minutes? Why all the secrets and lies?
“No,” Persephone said. She stared back at her husband with disgust. “I have nothing to say. The moment is gone.”
Persephone and Hades became engaged in a staring contest, communicating something intensely and silently through their gazes. Only Hazel and Maria noticed Nico disappear silently into shadow.
Nico appeared over by the railing of the balcony. He muttered something under his breath, and then, moving faster than the eye could see, he reached out and wrapped his hand around something.
Hazel squinted and leaned forward to get a better look. Nico yanked on what appeared to be nothing but empty air. Then, out of nothing, a shade appeared. It was a young girl with a dark braid and a bow slung across her back.
Nico grabbed her braid and held it in his fist. For a moment, he stared at her as though he'd been struck dumb.
Maria had gasped when she saw the girl appear. Hazel knew it could only be the Bianca everyone kept going on about. She didn't look like anyone special to Hazel, just another dull-eyed shade.
Nico's free hand held a large, dark helm that radiated power. He tossed it to the ground carelessly.
That caught Hades attention. He picked up his helm, and he didn't say anything about Bianca's appearance right away. He seemed a bit lost, like he hadn't expected this. Persephone grabbed his hand and forced him to step a pace back to give the siblings space.
“She came on her own! Maybe that's for the best,” Persephone said, smiling with relief as Nico threw his arms around his sister, wrapping her in a hug. Even from where Hazel was sitting, it was obvious he had tears streaming down his face.
It was also obvious that Bianca was totally unmoved.
“She didn't,” Hades said flatly. “He forced her to appear.”
Persephone's smile fell from her face.
“How did he do that?” She murmured.
“I don't know,” Hades said.
Nico stared at his sister's face, drinking in the sight of her. He kept his hands wrapped around her wrists to keep her from running away.
“You drove me to this, Bianca,” he said finally. “I didn't want to do it, but you left me no choice. Why wouldn't you come on your own?”
She dropped her head, refusing to look at him.
“Look at me!” He demanded. “Why? Why are you punishing me? What did I do to deserve this from you?”
Still no response. Hazel began to have an inkling as to why Bianca was behaving so strangely. She pursed her lips, transfixed.
“You've abandoned me three times,” Nico said. “Joining the Hunt. Dying. And now avoiding me in the one place we were supposed to be reunited. And I've spent all this time obsessed with getting you back. You know I've been going insane over this. I just need to know why.”
“I don't know,” she said, looking up at him.
“You don't know. Is that really the best you can do?” Nico said harshly. “Be honest with me, has Papa put you up to this? Was he keeping you from me?”
“It was my choice,” she said.
Nico really didn't like that answer.
“What's that supposed to mean? Why would you do that? Do you have any idea what I've done for you? How hard I've worked for the chance to see you again? Do you even care?”
Bianca looked over at Hades for help.
“Don't look at him!” Nico snapped. “He doesn't control you anymore. That's over. We're getting out of here. I'm resurrecting you.”
Hazel stood up, her ghostly form moving before she had time to think. Resurrection? That was a thing? That couldn't be a thing, could it? Gods, that Bianca girl was so lucky to get this opportunity. What she wouldn't give...
“Please let me go,” Bianca said.
“What, so you can disappear again?” Nico scoffed. “Look, I know you're different now, and I know it's scary to think about starting a new life when you've been a shade for so long,” he said, softening his tone. “But you'll get through it. I'll give you the life you deserved. We're going to be okay”
“Let me go,” Bianca said, seeming to be growing braver, or at least more desperate. “Let me move on. You've kept me here for too long. This isn't where I'm supposed to be.”
“We're both moving on, together,” Nico said through clenched teeth. “I don't think you know what you're saying.”
“Percy was supposed to tell you--”
“I've given everything I have for this one chance,” Nico said, raising his voice suddenly.
Whatever it was that Percy was supposed to say, it wasn't something Nico had wanted to hear, Hazel assumed. He sounded angry and crazy and devastated all at once.
Bianca shook her head and tried to pull away.
“Bianca, please,” Nico pleaded, trying not to sound angry and failing. “Don't do this. You aren't yourself. I know you want this. Please. I've worked for years on this resurrection, it's been driving me insane, and I really need you to just say okay. Please? Please don't do this to me.”
Everyone watched silently as Bianca stared at Nico. Finally, she shook her head no. It was a tiny gesture, but its impact on Nico was enormous.
“Fine,” Nico said roughly. “I should have known you would do this to me. But you know what? I'm still glad I got the chance to speak to you. Now I can finally tell you to your face that I hate you. I hate you for abandoning me. I hate you for leaving me at camp alone. You were all I had and you dropped me at the first opportunity you got. I don't care how dead you are. I will never forgive you for that.”
Maria di Angelo stood, perhaps planning to intervene with her children, but Hades glanced back and gestured for her to sit down. She obeyed.
Hazel was watching, her form shimmering with excitement. This was so intense. Bianca had really just left him like that? And now she didn't want to be resurrected? Talk about looking a gift horse in the mouth. Hazel reached up and touched the rose in her hair, thinking.
Nico scrubbed tears from his eyes. His other hand never left her wrist. He was still certain she'd try to run the moment he let go, and he was probably right.
“I always loved you more than you ever loved me,” Nico said bitterly. “Unlike you, I know the meaning of family loyalty. And I'll prove it to you. I'll wring some gratitude out of you if it kills me.”
He reached into his pocket and pulled out an amulet. It looked similar to the one around her neck, but hers was dull and this one shone a bright silver. It thrummed with magic.
Hades and Persephone both went over to Nico. Hazel wondered whether they intended to stop him. Was he not allowed to resurrect her, then? Or were they just trying to talk him out of it?
“Nico, dear,” Persephone said, standing beside him. “I told you once I'd support you so long as you were motivated by love. I see now that you are not. You may think this is love, but it's resentment, and you only seek to punish her.”
“Please don't try to stop me,” he said, his hand gripping the lunula tightly.
“I won't,” she said, folding her arms and stepping back. “I know you're capable of making the right choice on your own.”
Nico hesitated.
“She's my sister,” he murmured.
“Yes. Your sister,” Persephone said. “Not your property.”
Nico swallowed hard, seeming unsure of what to do. He was staring at the place where his fingers were wrapped around her tiny wrist.
Hazel could only imagine what he must have had to do to get a resurrection amulet. Bianca was looking to her father for rescue, quietly waiting for Nico to let go. Hazel stood by the side of the dining table, her feet twitching with the desire to move. She wanted that amulet. She wanted out of here. She'd never been a particularly bold girl in life, but the stakes couldn't possibly be higher.
Nico turned back and looked up at his father desperately, mirroring his sister's expression. Hades just stared at him, clearly at a loss.
“This is just a test,” Nico said quietly. “Right, Papa? You're testing my will to see if I'll look back or go forward?”
Hazel, Persephone, and Hades stared at him, and it was obvious they were all having the same thought; Bianca really had driven him insane.
“What are you talking about?” Persephone asked him. “Honey, no one is testing you.”
“Stop talking nonsense,” Hades said, his stern tone at odds with his uncertain gaze. “Give up this foolish quest now. That's an order.”
He was just such an asshole, Hazel thought. That was the best he could do? Didn't he realize how sensitive this was?
“Why would you say it like that?” Persephone snapped at her husband, saying what Hazel had been thinking.
“I don't-- He's-- What would you have me do?” Hades asked her in return, spluttering. “I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to say!”
“You ought to say something supportive, if you'd just listen to me--”
As they began to argue, Nico looked down at Bianca's wrist in his hand. Hades had failed to stop him, which was a shame, because he had looked as though he'd wanted to be stopped. Now, he was going to put the amulet on Bianca.
Nico had to let go of her for a split second, because he required both hands to hang the amulet around her neck. The second his hand left her wrist, Bianca tried to make a run for it.
Nico immediately lunged for her, grabbing her by the braid again. Both siblings tumbled to the ground, and Nico started trying to force the amulet around her neck. Bianca fought him off as best she could, but it was clear that she had no chance against him.
Hades stormed over to them, grabbed Nico by the collar and tossed him to the opposite side of the balcony. He helped Bianca up, and she took his hand.
“Don't worry, he's not touching you again,” Hades told her gently. Then he turned and looked at his son, his expression burning with rage.
“You have crossed a line,” he said darkly. It was a simple statement, but an aura of pain and suffering surrounded him, filling the balcony. Nico didn't seem at all phased by it.
“I'm trying to help her,” Nico insisted. “This is just a test. I have to push through it!”
“There is no test,” Hades said. “I think you might have really lost your mind.”
Nico stared at his father, speechless, like he couldn't believe what he was hearing. The amulet dangled uselessly from his fingers.
Hazel didn't know what he would say. She wasn't even sure if it was a good idea to run off with a crazy person, but she had nothing to lose. She walked up to Nico and grabbed onto the cord of the amulet in his hand so that they were both holding it.
“I want to live,” she said.
Nico was surprised to see her, but to her great relief, he didn't hesitate. He grabbed her arm like he had Bianca's, but Hazel was ready.
For a moment, everything went dark. The next thing she knew, she was standing on the banks of the Styx, and Nico was pulling the amulet over her hair. It took a while because of how thick her hair was, but he managed. The glowing silver lunula fell around her neck, and she gasped for breath, feeling a bright, burning feeling creep over every inch of her body.
Her heart started beating. She'd forgotten what that felt like.
She'd barely had time to register what was happening when Nico took her hand and shadow traveled them again.
The next thing she knew was pain. She was screaming, her mouth filling with water, every inch of her skin on fire. It felt like it was going to consume her.
The only thing she could feel, aside from the agony, was his hand on hers. He squeezed her hand tightly, and part of her consciousness that she hadn't realized was slipping away came rushing back. The river had almost destroyed her.
He pulled her out of the water and dropped her onto a gravel beach. She coughed up water, gasping for breath, and looked at where they were.
It was the Styx. They'd fallen into the water. The river ran through a long, dark cave, and she knew it should have led out to the surface, but the cave was blocked by a massive set of Stygian iron doors. The water seemed to be able to pass through them like they weren't even there, but she was pretty sure they'd slammed right into them on their way out.
Nico ran over to the doors. He ran his hand across their surface, then used something in his pocket to open them.
The doors swung wide. She could see light on the other side.
Nico helped her to stand up, and he shadow traveled them the rest of the way out.
They stood under the moonlight on a grassy hill, the cave entrance behind them. Hazel took a step forward, trying to wrap her head around what had just happened.
“Are you okay?” Nico asked.
“Okay?” She was taking deep breaths of the cold, fresh air, savoring the smell of the wet earth and the feeling of the grass beneath her feet. “My heart is pounding, my lungs are on fire, and I'm starving. I've never been happier.”
“Welcome to your new life,” Nico said.
Chapter 44: Naples
Notes:
Just FYI guys I misremembered her age and wrote that Hazel was 12 last chapter. I had to edit it to be 13 instead which is what her wiki says. I'm going to assume she was almost 14 when she died.
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As Hazel stood on top of the hill and stared up at the moon and stars, Nico watched her face. She looked ecstatic, overflowing with joy.
He wished he could feel the same, but things were more complicated than she knew.
“Ahem,” said a voice very close to his ear.
Nico turned around. He had known she would be there any minute, but Artemis still startled him with her silent approach. She was standing behind him with her arms folded, with Thalia beside her. Neither looked happy with him.
Artemis marched up to Hazel and snatched the lunula off her neck. The two of them looked roughly the same size and age, but Artemis dwarfed Hazel with the force of her presence.
“Ow!” Hazel said, rubbing her throat.
“This doesn't belong to you,” Artemis snapped. “We had a deal,” she told Nico. “This isn't my hunter.”
“I'm sorry, goddess,” Nico said. “But Bianca refused to come and my father wouldn't let me take her by force.”
“I knew he would probably stop you,” Artemis said. “But I never gave you leave to use my gift on another. Who is this girl?”
“My half sister. Her name is Hazel.”
“Uh huh.” Artemis looked Hazel up and down critically. “Your half sister is not a virgin. I can't do anything with her. We're done here,” Artemis said. She turned and glared at Nico, her eyes glowing with reflected moonlight. “Aiding you was a mistake. I never want to see you again, di Angelo. If anyone asks, we’ve never met.” she said, disappearing into the night.
Nico heaved a sigh of relief. That could have gone so much worse. He really didn’t need another god out for his blood.
“So that was Artemis,” Hazel said. “You had a deal with her?”
“She gave me the necklace that made you your new body. Also, hold on a second, are you really not a virgin? You're just a little girl,” Nico said, concerned that something bad had happened to her. He'd only had Hazel for a few minutes, but he was already feeling deeply invested in her well being.
“You make it sound like I'm a baby or something,” Hazel said, rolling her eyes. “I’m a teenager. And what I did with my boyfriend ain't your business.”
“Boyfriend? You're too young to have a-- Never mind. Let's change the subject,” Nico said. “We need to figure out what to do next. Is there somewhere in particular you want to go to get your bearings?”
“I’d like to go home,” she said. “To New Orleans.”
Nico took her hand and brought her to the French Quarter.
He was immediately blinded by colorful lights, loud music, and the smell of pee.
“Wow, Bourbon Street has changed,” Hazel said, looking around in awe. “What is that?” She asked, pointing at a screen.
“That’s a television,” Nico said. “They're really advanced now. See?” He held out his phone and showed her a video.
“That's a television too?”
“They combined a television and a telephone together into one thing,” Nico said. “And everybody has one. We just call them phones.”
“How much are they? I can try to earn some pocket money while we're in town.”
Nico laughed. “The daughter of the god of wealth, slaving away for pocket money? I don’t think that will be necessary.”
Hazel frowned.
“I'd rather work for it,” she muttered, glancing at the ground around her feet warily. “Can we go see my old house? It's not far.”
They continued walking for a few minutes until they reached a small shotgun house with purple shutters.
“That’s not my house,” she said, looking up and down the street. “Every one of these is new. A hurricane must've wrecked my block.” She stared at them, her expression unreadable.
“I’m sorry,” Nico said.
“It happens,” she shrugged, looking down at her shoes. “It wasn’t a nice house anyway. Let's find Sammy's house.”
Nico followed her, surprised at how well she was handling her re-entry to the world of the living. If he went back to Venice and saw his old home gone, he’d be devastated. That was one of the reasons he had never gone back; he’d rather his memories remained unsullied.
“Who's Sammy?” He asked, although he could guess.
“My old boyfriend,” she said as they walked. The street was dark and quiet. “We’ve been together in Asphodel for a long time. When I went to the party, I told him I’d be right back, but I guess that was a lie.”
“He won’t feel the passage of time.”
“You don’t have to tell me,” she said.
“Sorry, I’m used to being the expert on death most of the time,” Nico said. “But you have firsthand experience, so you’ve got me beat there.”
“If you don’t mind, I don’t want to talk about death anymore,” she said. “I want to live in the moment for a little while.”
“I get it,” he said. “Let’s go have some fun.”
She decided that her idea of fun was giving Nico a tour of New Orleans. It was really a tour for both of them, since a lot had changed since she’d lived there, but she still knew a lot about the city.
New Orleans was beautiful at night. The fog drifted in off the Mississippi and made the streets look eerie, almost like the mists of Asphodel had crept their way up to the surface. It was warm and muggy despite it being late September, and frogs and crickets and cicadas sang their night songs in a loud chorus. Hazel mentioned that her mother was a witch like it was a normal occupation, and Nico thought that maybe in a place like this, it was.
They ended their spooky night tour with a stop at Cafe du Monde for beignets and chicory coffee. Hazel made sure to note that she’d had far better beignets, but she still ate six, and also drank three cups of coffee, savoring it to the last drop.
“I love this,” she said. “I love every bit of this. Smell that river,” she said, looking out over the Mississippi. “I can’t believe I’m really here.”
“Me neither,” Nico said. “I’m still in denial, I think.”
“Did you have a plan for when you thought it was gonna be Bianca?” Hazel asked.
“Not really,” Nico said. “A few ideas, but odds are she would have gone back to Artemis anyway.” The thought of it made him cringe. Artemis would have snatched her the second they’d stepped outside, and he’d have had a whole new problem on his hands. He must have really gone insane, because only someone totally delusional would have thought it could work out.
“Did I get you in trouble with Artemis?” Hazel asked.
“I don’t think so, but I don’t want you to worry about it,” Nico said. “It was my decision, and I’ll take full responsibility.”
“Thanks,” Hazel said, growing slightly shy. “For everything. You don’t even know me, and you did this. I’ll never be able to repay you.”
“No need for thanks,” Nico said. “I don’t know what I would have done if you hadn’t volunteered, but I don’t think it would have been good. Obviously I didn’t anticipate this, but it feels right.”
Hazel beamed at him, and he took in her bright brown eyes flecked with green, her flushed cheeks, the thick reddish brown curls of her hair framing her small face. It was just dawning on Nico that this adorable little girl would be completely dependent on him for the foreseeable future. He was used to carrying emotional weight-- and he still had the albatross of Bianca slung around his neck, and that hurt more than ever to think about-- but Hazel was a new factor. For the time being, he’d need to put his personal problems aside and focus on making a plan for her future.
After a few more beignets, a waitress brought over the check. Nico went to reach for his pocket and touched only soft Stygian silk instead.
“Shit, I forgot I was wearing this,” he muttered, looking down at his chiton. It suited the humid weather perfectly, but it made him look like a crazy person. That wasn’t totally inaccurate, but he didn’t want to encourage it.
“You didn’t hear the guys shouting ‘toga party’ at you on Bourbon street?” Hazel asked.
“I did, but this isn’t a toga, so I assumed they were talking about someone else.” Hazel seemed to think he was joking.
“I’m just happy my dress doesn’t seem to look out of place. I’m a little warm, though.” She was wearing a threadbare sweater over a knee length black dress and stockings, with shiny little black shoes that had holes in the toes. Nico had barely glanced at her clothing, but he now realized that a shopping trip was in order. There was a little problem with that.
“My wallet is at home,” he sighed.
“Are we going to dine and dash?” She asked, looking a little too excited by the idea.
“I’m just misting the waitress into thinking we paid,” Nico said. “But you can imagine it as something more exciting if you want.”
“Misting?” Hazel asked, watching him intently as he manipulated the invisible magic of the mist to make the waitress think she’d been handed the correct change for the bill.
“I’ll teach you sometime,” Nico said. “It comes in handy. Come on, what’s next? Anything you want, we’ll do.”
They continued exploring the city until Hazel came across a sign for the aquarium and asked whether they could visit when it opened in the morning. It was still a few hours before dawn, but Nico took her hand and walked them straight through the locked door. He wasn’t the biggest fan of fish, since they reminded him of a certain Percy Jackson that he was still upset with, but he liked seeing Hazel enjoy herself.
While she looked at the aquarium exhibits, he checked his phone for the first time since the resurrection. He had a lot of missed calls from Percy and Annabeth that he’d been ignoring ever since he’d kicked Percy out. In hindsight, he probably should have tried to listen to Percy, but he hadn’t been ready to hear what he had to say. In fact, he still wasn’t ready to hear any message that had to do with Bianca.
He still felt raw and slightly in shock about all that had happened. He saw that he’d received messages from almost every Underworld god, and a handful of Olympians, but he didn’t open a single one. There was only one person he wanted to hear from, and Hades hadn’t been in touch.
He hung back and kept an eye on Hazel while she explored the aquarium. She took her time looking into every tank, tapping on the glass and watching the fish swim by. She seemed to enjoy the shark tank the most. He made a note to grab her a stuffed shark plushie from the gift shop, credit card or no. She deserved it.
She was still engrossed in her exploration when Nico felt a divine presence arrive in the aquarium with them. He turned around and saw Thanatos lurking, half hidden in shadows. In the light blue glow of the tank lights, he looked like a ghostly specter or an ethereal vision of doom.
“What’s up?” Nico said.
“I just got the Africanus Extreme expansion,” Thanatos said. “But I think I’m missing a card. When I went to ask you about it, everyone said you were gone.”
“Yeah, a lot’s happened in the last few hours,” Nico said. “I resurrected my sister.”
“They mentioned something about that,” Thanatos said, fiddling with a piece of his hair nervously. “I’m not typically a fan of people undoing my work. Not that I care, since I quit. It’s fine. I’m fine with it,” he said, looking very much not fine at all.
“Are you sure?” Nico asked, suddenly concerned that Thanatos might want to see Hazel returned to where she’d come from. He hadn’t expected that, but Thanatos kept glancing over at her, and his eye kept twitching.
“I said I don’t care,” Thanatos snapped. “It’s not my problem. I’m a god of leisure now. I do what I want, when I want. And I don’t miss collecting souls. Not even a little bit.”
“Of course,” Nico said. “And, just hypothetically, let’s say you did ever decide to go back to work… Would Hazel need to worry about getting her soul reaped a second time?”
“She has a new mortal body. I can’t take her soul until her body is shut down, or very close to it. But eventually, I will have to take her again. I mean, I would have to. Hypothetically. If I went back to work. But that’s not happening,” Thanatos said, his golden eyes glinting from beneath a severe frown.
Nico breathed a sigh of relief. So Hazel would have another natural lifespan to live out. That was all he could have hoped for.
Now that he knew she was safe, he could nudge Thanatos a little bit. Nico wasn’t sure where he stood with his dad, but it was hard to shake the instinctive sense of discomfort over Thanatos not working. He was grateful it had given him the opportunity to bring Hazel to life unopposed, but it couldn’t be a good thing for the people of the world.
“So, what you’re saying is that Hazel will live forever,” he said.
“No one lives forever in a mortal body,” Thanatos said firmly.
“They do if you don’t take their soul.”
“You don’t know what you’re talking about,” Thanatos said, growing flustered, “I’m not discussing this further. Here, look at these cards and tell me which one I’m missing. I’m planning to send a strongly worded letter of official complaint to the manufacturer.”
Internally, Nico rolled his eyes. Thanatos clearly had way too much time on his hands. He went through the deck of cards, checking each one and counting them up. He was just about to tell Thanatos he was missing his Katobleps when he heard the sound of breaking glass and a young girl screaming.
“Hazel!” Nico shouted, racing toward the sound of the noise. Last he’d checked, she’d been right in front of the shark tank, but she must have wandered off, because he found her in the seahorse room down the hall. She had fallen onto the floor, and she was desperately trying to swat away dozens of odd little pink scuttling shrimp creatures that were determined to swarm her.
As soon as Nico and Thanatos walked in the room, the creatures began to scurry away, but Nico grabbed one and held it up to look at it. It was a shrimp/cockroach hybrid, like an illustration out of a book of fossils.
“Baby skolopendra,” Thanatos said.
“Gross,” Nico said. He crushed it in his hand and threw it away, helping Hazel to her feet.
“No, no, no,” she said, trying to hide behind Nico. “I just got here. Please don’t let him take me again.”
Nico realized the assumption she’d made and tried to reassure her.
“Hazel, he’s not here to take you anywhere,” he said.
“But…” Hazel stared at Thanatos, and Nico could tell she was thinking about the last time she’d seen him. He hated to imagine the terrifying circumstances of her death, and the kind of suffering she must have endured before Thanatos had finally come for her.
“I don’t collect souls anymore,” Thanatos said. “So you have nothing to worry about.”
Nico put his arm around his sister as Thanatos circled her, looking her up and down just as Artemis had. He was so tall that he had to bend over just to look into her eyes, his pale hair grazing the floor when he did so.
“Her soul is very firmly attached to her body,” Thanatos said. “I see you’ve added some extra protection, as well. Impressive work.”
“Thank you,” Nico said, astounded by the compliment. Thanatos wasn’t the type to give those out lightly. He had an inkling as to what he meant by special protection, but he didn’t want to tell Hazel about that just yet.
“Alright. I’m done here,” Thanatos said. “I have a tournament to get to. The card?”
“Katobleps,” Nico said.
Thanatos nodded his satisfaction and disappeared.
Hazel breathed a huge sigh of relief. Nico rubbed her back comfortingly.
“What happened? You’ve got glass shards on you,” he asked.
“I was looking at the seahorses and the tank just exploded,” she said. “All those little things jumped out at me.”
“I forgot that monsters are going to be an issue,” Nico said. “I have a monster repelling phone. I’ll have to get you one, too, or they’ll be all over you when I’m not around.”
She nodded, still looking a little shaken.
“Everything just felt so fragile all of a sudden,” she said. “I didn’t used to be afraid of death, but now… It’s different.”
Nico felt a massive wave of guilt wash over him. How was he supposed to explain to this girl that she had a spot waiting for her on a hero team that was due to take on Gaea in a few months’ time? If she’d been informed of the danger that awaited her, she might not have wanted to bother with the resurrection at all.
“Hazel, look at me,” Nico said. When she met his eyes, he continued. “I am not going to let you die young. Not again. That’s a promise.”
Her eyes filled with tears, and she wrapped her arms around him. She felt very small and vulnerable in his arms. Nico swore to himself that he’d fulfill his promise or die trying. He’d kill Gaea himself if he had to. She wasn’t hurting Hazel again.
“Thanks,” Hazel mumbled, wiping her eyes. She yawned widely. “Wow. I’m tired. I forgot what that feels like.”
“I’ll get a hotel,” Nico said. “I can book it on my phone. But I need my credit card back eventually.”
“Are you going to go get it?” And leave me, was the part of her question she didn’t say out loud. If Nico left with his phone, she’d be attacked again.
“No, I’m not leaving you alone,” he said. “And I’m definitely not taking you back to the Underworld, so I’ll figure something else out. Come on, let’s go.”
He booked them a hotel room, and Hazel crashed in one of the beds immediately, snoring loudly. Nico texted Thanatos and asked if he’d bring him his credit card, but Thanatos didn’t respond. He was probably at the Mythomagic tournament winning first place and making the Mist work overtime to hide his wings. The image of it made Nico smile.
He texted Minos to let him know he was okay and that Hazel was doing well, and mentioned the credit card problem, too, just in case he ran into someone who could help. Then he was left with nothing to do but stare at the notification on his phone that read, ‘50 unread messages.’
Reluctantly, he opened one. It was from Ganymede.
“Congrats, you did it!” He’d written. “I hope you enjoy this time with your sister, you earned it!”
Nico turned off his screen and flopped back on the pillow, closing his eyes. He didn’t know how to tell his friend the truth: he’d resurrected the wrong sister. On a practical level, maybe it was for the best, but emotionally, it hurt to think about.
He forced himself to try to go to sleep, wanting an escape from intrusive thoughts of resentment towards Bianca. With every breath he took, he felt her rejection like a knife between his ribs. It was more noticeable now in the silent darkness, with nothing to distract him.
Dreams found him quickly; he wasn’t in the Underworld anymore, and he’d forgotten how absolutely awful they could be.
The dream started out as a pleasant memory before it got weird. Nico’s grandparents were dressed up for Carnevale, and they were headed to one of their friends’ homes for a party. They had brought their grandchildren along, and the five of them were taking a leisurely gondola ride to the other side of Venice. Nico, Bianca, and his little cousin Gio were dressed up only a little bit, wearing masks with decorative feathers around the edges. Gio kept ripping the feathers off of his bright purple mask and throwing them in the canal, and Bianca was tutting at him and reminding him to keep his hands in his pockets. As they passed under a bridge, Nico looked up and saw a winged figure standing in the middle of it, looking down at him. When they passed under the bridge, he turned around to look back, but there was no one there, just a group of people in costume crossing the bridge.
“Someone is going to die tonight,” Bianca said.
Nonna hissed at her to be quiet and crossed herself. Nonno checked his pocketwatch and pretended he hadn’t heard.
When they got to the house, Bianca and Nico each took one of Gio’s hands and lifted him out of the gondola. They followed their grandparents into the party, where dozens of opulently dressed people where drinking, chatting, and generally enjoying the strange and wonderful atmosphere of Carnevale.
As with most parties they were brought to, the kids were sent off to another room to play together while the adults socialized..
Adult Nico, only distantly aware that he was dreaming, recalled that at this particular party they’d gone out back and played outside with the other children all night. In the dream, however, he, Bianca, and Gio walked into the library alone.
“I saw an angel on the bridge,” Nico said.
“That’s the angel of death,” Bianca told him. “He takes people to heaven or hell or to purgatory, depending on if they were a good person. And that’s why you need to behave,” she told Gio, who was crawling under the coffee table.
“Yeah, Gio, behave or you’ll burn in hell for all eternity,” Nico said, delighted to see his annoying baby cousin stare up at him in wide-eyed fear. “God saw you break Nonno’s favorite ash tray! He’ll make you pay for what you did!”
Gio started to cry.
“You always take things too far, Nico,” Bianca said, sitting on the floor beside Gio and patting his head. “It’s okay, amore, don’t listen to him. He reads too many scary novels.”
“L’inferno isn’t a novel, it’s a true story,” Nico said, pouting. “Hell is real.”
It had to be. Sometimes after staying up late reading, he could close his eyes and see the eternal fires burning and the bat-winged demons tormenting the souls of the damned.
Suddenly there was a loud bang. The shutters of the window had blown open, and the angel of death was standing on the balcony, staring at them. He was tall and pale, with long silver hair and massive grey wings. He stared at them with glowing golden eyes.
Nico gasped. It was the most beautiful thing he’d ever seen, like a renaissance statue come to life. He was too stunned to move.
Bianca stood up and walked towards it. Gio ran to Nico and held his hand.
“I’m scared,” he whimpered.
“Bianca, I don’t think that’s a good idea,” Nico said, watching in horror as Bianca walked silently toward the angel.
The angel stretched out a hand and beckoned her closer.
“Bianca, don’t,” Nico said, a cold fear washing over him. Gio was shaking. Nico felt like his heart was going to beat out of his chest.
Bianca ignored them and took the angel’s hand.
Nico shoved Gio aside and ran forward, grabbing her by the back of her dress. The angel disappeared, and in the space he’d been standing, there was suddenly nothing but empty air.
Bianca was standing on the window ledge. It was a very long drop to the canal below. Nico glanced down, and gripped the fabric of her dress tighter.
“Bianca, get down from there. You’re going to fall,” he said, his voice shaking with fear.
“Let go, Nico,” she said calmly. She didn’t look back at him.
“No! Just come back inside!”
“I don’t want to,” she said.
“Have you lost your mind? Just come back inside. You’re scaring me,” Nico said. “Bianca!” He yanked on her dress, trying to pull her in, but she’d braced herself on the window frame.
She stared down at the water below, her face placid and accepting.
“Bianca, don’t do this,” Nico said, weeping. “Please don’t leave me. You can come back. I can save you! Please, I love you!”
“If you love me, then why are you hurting me?” Bianca asked. “You know what I want, but you won’t let me go.”
She turned back to look at him. Her mask was black velvet with black feathers, and her dark eyes looked like they were part of the velvet. It left a terrifying impression, like some evil demon had taken his sister’s place. As he watched, the feathers of her mask seemed to move and twitch like they were part of her face.
“Let go,” she said.
“Please don’t make me do this.” He said, filled with horror. He wanted to scream and cry out, but he felt like he could barely form words. “I can’t. I don’t want to.”
He felt his hand start to open against his will.
Suddenly, a shred of waking consciousness returned to him, and he remembered it was a dream, and that he was in control.
Nico yanked Bianca back into the room and sent her tumbling to the floor.
“Morpheus, come on, dude, this isn’t cool,” Nico said angrily. “This is the worst fucking dream I’ve ever had!”
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry!” Morpheus said, speaking through Bianca’s mouth. “But Epiales scripted this one. I can’t leave until I finish my lines.”
“Ugh. Fine. Get it over with,” Nico said.
“Okay. Ahem. Nico! You know what I want, but you won’t let me go! Why won’t you let me go?”
“You’re the one who’s waiting around,” Nico said. “Why didn’t you get reincarnated before? You said that’s what you wanted. Why do you need my permission?”
“I don’t know,” she said. “I just do.”
“You don’t want to be saved,” Nico said. “Okay. I get it. Fine. We’ve moved past that,” he said. “But you know what, Bianca? Abandoning me is one thing. Asking me to be okay with it is a whole other thing. You’re going to have to just keep waiting. Because as much as I hate you, I still love you. I don’t want you to leave. So… Yeah. That’s all I’ve got.”
Bianca turned into Morpheus, who stood up and brushed off his work uniform.
“Okay, all done,” he said brightly. “Sounds like you’re making progress!”
“You think?” Nico asked. He felt as stuck as ever.
“Congrats on the resurrection, by the way,” Morpheus said. “You’re so cool! I wish I could do something like that. You’ll be a legend forever now.”
“You’re already better than a legend,” Nico said. “You’re a god. And I think you’re cool, too. Even if I’m still mad about the nightmare.”
“It’s not up to me what happens in them!” Morpheus pouted. “Thanks for saying I’m cool, though. Are you coming back soon? We should play Mythomagic. Uncle Thanatos is such a stickler for the rules. It’s more fun if you get to cheat sometimes.”
“I can tell you’ve been spending too much time with Hecate,” Nico said, making Morpheus laugh. “I don’t know when I’m coming home,” he continued. “I’ve got to look after Hazel now.”
“Oh. Okay,” Morpheus said. “You know, your dad is really upset. Maybe you should talk to him.”
“Me? Talk to him?” Nico said. “He should be the one talking to me. Bianca and I have been making each other miserable for years, and he’s never done anything to help. He just made it worse by helping her hide from me. He said he washed his hands of it, but the second she appeared, he was taking her side and calling me crazy. Well, maybe I made some mistakes, but where was he when I needed him? Doesn’t he own some responsibility, too?”
“I still think you should come home, but I don’t want to get too involved,” Morpheus said. “Hades scares me. Also, you’re about to wake up, so--”
He disappeared.
“What? Wait a second--”
Nico opened his eyes to see Hazel shaking him awake.
He gasped, sitting up.
“You were talking in your sleep,” Hazel said. “You sounded upset.”
“I was,” he said. “Thanks.”
“Anytime. Do you want to talk about it?” She asked.
“No, I’m fine,” he said.
“Okay. Guess what? I took a shower this morning. I've never had one before.”
“You haven’t? But we had showers in the thirties,” Nico said.
“Not in my house,” she said.
“Actually, we didn’t have one in Venice, either, since our house was old.” Nico said. “But we had one at our DC house.”
“Two houses? Were you a fancy boy?” she said.
“It was a long time ago,” he said. He glanced beside him and saw something shiny on the bedside table. “What’s that? Is that a diamond? And you’re calling me fancy.”
He reached for it, but Hazel grabbed it and hid it behind her back.
“No,” she said. “It’ll bring you bad luck.”
She looked upset and a little embarrassed.
“Why would it bring me bad luck?”
Hazel sat down on her bed, cradling the diamond in her palm. It was the size of a walnut, and it was probably worth a small fortune. Nico stared at it as it caught the light.
“I can make gems too,” Nico said, holding out his hand and showing her an identical diamond. “It’s not weird or anything.”
“That’s cool,” she said sadly. “But mine is different. I’m cursed.”
Nico listened intently as she explained the origin of her curse and how it worked.
“I’m sorry,” he said. “That’s awful.”
“It’s caused me a lot of misery over the years,” she sighed. “Sometimes I used to wish I was dead. I thought I brought nothing but trouble to everybody I ever met.”
“That’s not true.”
“I think it is true,” she said. “But I don’t care anymore. Being dead wasn’t all it was cracked up to be. I’ll have to find another way out of my curse.”
Nico took the diamond from her hand and held it in his own. A flicker of shadow passed over it, and it disappeared.
“What did you do?” She asked.
“Sent it to the bottom of the ocean,” he smiled. “We’ll fix this curse of yours. In the meantime, I’ll make sure no one gets hurt.”
They decided to start off the afternoon with a walk in the garden district for Hazel to reminisce. They were just strolling past a large mansion with an elaborate front garden when a nearby azalea started shivering.
“What in the hell,” Hazel said. “Is there a cat in there or something?”
“I think someone wants to talk to us,” Nico said, sensing Persephone's presence and the sweet smell of spring in the air, despite the fact that it was late September.
The azalea suddenly burst into bloom, and the flowers spelled out the word “Hi!”, then shifted into a woman's face.
“Hi, Persephone,” Nico said, feeling sick at the thought of talking with her. He knew he’d let her down immensely when he’d tried to force Bianca to come with him. He didn’t mind his dad seeing him act like a jerk, but he hated that Persephone now knew that side of him, too.
“Nico, dear,” she said, the flowers moving to mimic her mouth. “Your father and I are very unhappy with the way yesterday unfolded,” she said.
“Okay,” he said, for lack of a better response.
“This whole thing has been mishandled from the beginning. If I'd been home when you came looking for her the first time, maybe none of this would have happened.” she sighed. “But the fates weave each thread with intention, and I can sense their weird little fingers all over this. With regards to Hazel’s resurrection, your father and I are satisfied that it was meant to be. Mind you, that’s the only aspect of this situation that I’m remotely okay with. We still need to have a serious talk when you come home.”
“I know,” Nico said, not comfortable discussing this in front of Hazel. He could feel her watching his face, trying to read his expressions, and it made him feel like garbage. Yes, her resurrection had been a victory in some ways, but in others, Nico had been completely defeated.
“Hazel, how are you adjusting?” Persephone asked.
“I'm fine,” Hazel said. “I like being alive. Pluto isn't going to come drag me back, is he?”
“No, of course not,” Persephone said. “He-- Yes, dear, I'm telling them-- He said you need to start training as soon as possible. And he wants me to add that two powerful demigods in one place will attract very strong monsters.”
Nico’s stomach sank. Hades made it sound like he was worried about monsters, but he knew Nico didn’t have issues with them. It was the prophecy that he was really concerned with. And he was right to be, because Hazel wasn’t ready. She desperately needed training. Nico would need to make a plan for that.
“Are you going to ask about your credit card?” Hazel whispered.
“I’m not asking,” Nico whispered back. “I’ll get someone else to bring it.”
“We need Nico’s credit card,” Hazel announced loudly. “Nico is too prideful to ask for it.”
“Hazel!” Nico said, embarrassed.
“The olive doesn't far fall from the tree,” Persephone said. “Hades has been sitting here thinking of nothing but Nico since yesterday, but he'd rather vacation in Tartarus than give him a call.”
“He can go ahead and book the trip,” Nico muttered.
“He says you can have the card back if you promise to only use it on practical things for Hazel's well-being,” Persephone said. “Like food and so forth.”
“Deal,” Nico said, grinning. He'd do no such thing, and he'd enjoy imagining Hades' face when he saw the next statement.
“Alright, I'll make arrangements,” she said. “Take care, dears. And Nico, we're here when you’re ready to talk, and Bianca is still waiting. I think it will be good for you two to have another conversation, but don’t even think about coming back unless you’re ready to behave with a modicum of self-control. I never want to see you lose control of your temper like that ever again. Do you understand?”
“Yes, ma’am,” Nico said.
Persephone’s flower-face disappeared back into the bush.
“They're being really nice,” Hazel said.
“They? She's nice, but I don't know about they,” Nico said.
“Oh, please,” Hazel said. “Pluto was furious with you yesterday. I thought you were gonna get your ass whooped. Instead he's sending you a credit card. He's obviously a big softie.”
“He's just doing that so you won't starve,” Nico said. “He’s not worried about me at all.”
Hazel shrugged.
“Think what you want. But I am sorry about Bianca,” she added.
“Not your problem,” Nico said. “Don’t worry about it.
“So, are we going to stick around New Orleans?”
“I assumed you'd want to stay here,” Nico said.
“But we can go anywhere, right?” She said. “And we're about to come into some money. Why stick around my hometown? Let's go someplace nice.”
“Someplace nice,” Nico frowned. “Yeah, you know what, that's a great idea. Let's go somewhere insanely expensive.”
“Yeah!” Hazel jumped up and down. “Somewhere with white sand beaches! And fancy restaurants! Preferably somewhere they're okay with black folks,” she added. “In case you forgot that's a thing.”
“I think that’s gotten a lot better since the forties, but I’ll make sure just in case. And if anyone treats you like anything less than a princess, just let me know and I’ll kill them.” He was sort of joking about that, but he also sort of wasn’t.
“Aw, shucks,” she beamed up at him with a heart melting smile. “Just for that, I'll let you take me to Italy.”
Nico gasped, feeling like Christmas had come early.
“Seriously?”
“Why not? I like pasta, and I know they have beaches there. I want to know what all the fuss is about.”
“Hazel, you are not going to regret this,” he said, taking her hands. His phone buzzed suddenly. “Oh. Persephone sent a location pin. It's in that graveyard over there.”
The graveyard was closed for hurricane damage, so they had to walk through the wall that surrounded it. In the center, sitting in the doorway of a crumbling mausoleum, was a familiar shade.
“Minos!” Nico said, bounding up and hugging him. “What are you doing up here?”
“I have no idea,” he said, kissing Nico on the cheek. “Persephone said to give you this thing,” he said, holding out the onyx credit card. “What is it?”
“A credit card,” Nico said. “It's like a-- Like a-- Oh, wow, I don't know where to start,” he said.
“It's money,” Hazel said.
“You could have just said that,” Minos shrugged. “Congratulations on the resurrection,” he added. “I’m proud of you. I always knew you could do it.”
“Thanks,” Nico said. He forced a smile for Hazel’s sake, but suddenly the thought of taking her to Italy left him with a pit in his stomach. In his native country, surrounded by his native food and language, he’d miss Bianca more than ever. What if he started to resent Hazel for taking her place? Maybe it wasn’t such a good idea after all.
“I hate to run, but I was told to come right back,” Minos said apologetically.
“No, don’t go,” Nico said, grabbing his sleeve. Minos’ presence would help immensely; he’d make it feel more like leading a tour group, and Nico wouldn’t have to compare sisters the whole time. “Come with us. We're going to Italy.”
“Italy? Isn’t that on the surface?” Minos asked, confused.
“Of course,” Nico laughed. “Thanatos is still on strike, right? No one’s coming to get you, and you don't have anything better to do. Why not?”
“I’m a shade. My form would not sustain,” Minos said hesitantly. “It was nice of you to think of me, but...”
“I'll sustain you,” Nico said. He’d never tried to transport a shade across an ocean or keep one on the surface without the aid of a sacrifice, but he’d resurrected Hazel. This should be child’s play. “Just trust me.”
Minos blinked, biting his lip in a way that reminded Nico just how badly he wanted him by his side.
“I do not think my absence will be noticed right away,” he said, conceding with a nod. “
Nico kissed him, delighted.
“Oh, damn,” Hazel said, looking over her shoulder. “Y’all are just gonna do that in broad daylight? Isn’t that illegal?”
“Welcome to the 21st century,” Nico said. “You’ll get used to it. Come on, let’s go.”
They made a brief stop to buy new clothes, since Nico refused to walk around Italy looking like a historical re-enactor, but after that, he declared he was ready. He took both of their hands, and within the space of a blink, they went from a busy street in New Orleans to a side alley in Naples.
There was trash littering the ground and graffiti on the side of the buildings nearby, and the street was packed with people out shopping and going about their days.
“What is this shitty place?” Hazel said, glancing around.
“Lower your voice a little,” Nico said. “People here speak English more than you might think.”
“This isn’t the beach.”
“We’ll go to the beach later,” he sighed. “I wanted to eat pizza first.”
“Oh,” she paused. “Okay, I like that idea.”
They walked through the streets of Naples together. Hazel kept wandering off to look at things, while Minos stuck to Nico's side like glue.
“Are you okay?” Nico asked. Minos’ eyes were wide, and he seemed to be struggling to make sense of some of the things he was seeing.
“Can mortals here see me?” Minos asked.
“Yes. I'm using the mist to make sure you don't look unusual in any way. In my illusion, you're wearing modern clothes.”
“Oh, good,” he said, relaxing. “I was concerned you'd ask me to put my legs into those fabric tubes you so enjoy.”
“What, pants? You don't like my ripped up jeans?”
“As much as I enjoy the way they fit your form, I don't imagine they are very comfortable,” Minos said.
“They're not,” Nico admitted. “You were looking at my form? How unprofessional. You’re my coworker, you know.”
“I could not help myself,” Minos said.
“What did you think?” Nico asked.
“Many things.”
“Good things?”
“Very bad things, actually,” Minos said, winking.
They both turned around at the sound of Hazel making dramatic gagging noises behind them.
“Hazel, men are allowed to flirt with each other in 2023,” Nico scolded her. “If you’re going to be homophobic, I’ll send you right back where you came from.” He really didn’t appreciate Minos being interrupted when he was trying to flirt, since it didn’t happen often.
Shades didn’t feel attraction the way living people did; at most, they might desire to relive pale imitations of feelings they’d once had, the same way they did when they ate food. The desire was there, vaguely, but the experience for them was not on the same level. It was something Nico tried not to think about. Minos was perfect in every other way, and at least he knew he wasn’t getting used for sex. He didn’t want a repeat of what had happened with Cupid.
“I’m not grossed out because you’re men, I’m grossed out because you’re cheesy,” Hazel said. “Also I’m hungry,” she added. “And this place smells really good!”
She was standing outside a pizza restaurant. It was plain looking, full of plastic tables crammed together and spilling out onto the sidewalk. There was trash and discarded napkins littered about, and it was crowded with local families.
“This is exactly the kind of place I would have picked,” Nico said. “Good find.”
“Restaurants worked the same in my New Orleans,” she shrugged.
“The dirtier the floor, the better the food?” Minos said. “Believe it or not, that was a standing rule in Crete as well.”
They spent the next hour eating the most incredible pizza Nico had ever tasted. Hazel ate enough for two grown men. Minos only nibbled on a slice, but he seemed happy, and he watched the boisterous families around them with interest.
“This era seems pleasant,” he said. “Is this quality of food often accessible to working people?”
“Yes, this place is very affordable,” Nico said. “Not that we have to worry about money.” He was actually multi-tasking, making a big purchase on his phone at the same time he was eating. Normally he’d give the fantastic pizza his full attention, but this was for an important cause: Running up Hades’ credit card statement to passive aggressively lash out at him.
“If you can believe it, poorer people than this ate even better in New Orleans,” Hazel said. “That's talent. Ladies back home made miracles out of nothing. Even scraps nobody wanted to eat turned into ambrosia,” she said.
“The everyday magic of common people,” Minos smiled.
“My mom couldn’t cook,” Hazel sighed. “But when the neighbor ladies took care of me, I always ate good.”
“Ate well,” Nico corrected. Hazel stuck her tongue out at him.
“My mom didn't cook either,” Nico added. “I don't know if she ever learned. During the school year, we lived with my nonna, and she was a traditional home cook. During vacations we spent a lot of time living out of hotels, so we ate at restaurants most of the time.”
“Did your mothers suffer for not being married?” Minos asked.
“That’s a really good question,” Nico said. He had never thought about it, which made him feel self-centered. To him, Maria di Angelo was an untouchable vision of beatific motherhood. He’d never put a lot of thought into her inner life. “She wouldn't have let me know about it if she suffered. But her family always accepted Bianca and I completely. They were under the impression she was a rich man's mistress. The money probably smoothed things over,” he added, recalling the remarkably and often comically oversized jewels she’d always worn, even to bed. “She was well taken care of.”
“That must have been nice,” Hazel said bitterly. “My mother grew up dirt poor. She got involved in magic out of desperation, and summoned Pluto without knowing what she was getting into. In exchange for giving him a child, he offered her a boon, but he warned her not to be too greedy or the fates would punish her. And that stupid woman asked for all the riches under the earth,” Hazel said. There was anger and resentment in her voice, but also sadness. Nico thought that in her own way, Hazel still loved her mom, and just hated her choices.
“Long story short, I ended up cursed, she went insane, and Gaea took advantage of both of us and killed us,” she told Minos.
“I know. I remember your judgment well,” Minos said. “I thought it was poetic that you left the world alongside the woman who brought you into it. It was noble of you to sacrifice your place in Elysium to spare her the Fields of Punishment.”
“You didn’t tell me that part,” Nico said. “That’s amazing, Hazel.”
“Yeah,” Hazel said sadly. “Amazing.”
She wasn’t in the mood to talk anymore for a while after that, so they focused on eating. It was easy to do when the pizza tasted like the next best thing to ambrosia.
Nico’s phone buzzed.
“I'm going to make a call,” he said, stepping outside.
He had a brief conversation with a man about a car, leaning against the wall in the alley. When he hung up, Minos was beside him.
“Is Hazel okay?” Nico asked immediately.
“Yes. She's still eating,” Minos said. “I was worried I'd fade if you were too far away.”
Nico took his hand and looked at it.
“Your soul is very powerful,” he said. “You're solidly here.”
“I think the credit for that goes to you,” Minos smiled. “It is interesting to be in the world again,” he said, in his same mild tone he said everything. If he'd been alive, like Hazel, this might have been a thrilling adventure for him, but of course, he could only feel echoes of true emotion now.
“Glad you’re enjoying it.” Nico was still holding Minos' hand, and he passed his thumb over Minos' heavy gold rings, feeling their weight. Just having Minos there grounded him, and he was grateful he’d brought him along.
“Do you want to talk about what happened?” Minos asked.
Nico dropped Minos' hand and turned back to his phone.
“My new car will be here soon. Then we can go to our real destination,” he said, clearing his throat. He knew he had to talk about it. He needed to, and maybe deep down that was the real reason he had brought Minos. It was just so much to unpack. He needed to go somewhere he’d have space to think, and then, maybe, he’d be ready.
“Car?” Minos asked, cocking his head in confusion. His bell shaped earring nearly grazed his shoulder, making Nico laugh. He did look very out of place in the modern world.
“It's a type of chariot,” Nico said. “The horses are invisible. See that thing? That's one.”
Minos went over and inspected a little pizza delivery car sitting outside the restaurant, while Nico transferred the seller the money for his own new car. He was usually immune to sticker shock, but the price of the car made him feel faint. He hoped his father would have the same reaction.
After a few minutes, Hazel poked her head out of the restaurant and asked him to pay for the pizza. It ended up costing .001% of the cost of the car. The math on that made Nico’s head spin, but that was what he got for Googling ‘most expensive cars’ and putting on offer on the closest one.
Within ten minutes, the car had arrived, and Nico was gazing at his new prized possession, awestruck by its beauty.
“Who's the big shot driving this crazy thing?” She asked, staring at a sleek black sports car sitting on the street outside the restaurant. Passerby had stopped to take pictures. That was how Nico knew he’d gotten the right car.
“Me!” Nico said eagerly. “Do you like it?”
“It's really something,” she said skeptically, walking around it and inspecting it from different angles. “Guess they don’t make cars like they used to.”
The delivery driver climbed out and shook Nico's hand, handed him the keys, and left in a hurry. Nico had been worried that buying a car would be difficult, since he didn’t have a driver’s license, ID, or a bank account. Fortunately, he’d found someone online that lived just outside of Naples and was eager to sell the car for fast cash, who didn’t want any part of the transaction on record. Nico was pretty sure he’d just bought a stolen car from the mafia, but that only made him like the car even more.
Nico opened the door and ushered Hazel into his new prize.
“It’s seriously a miracle I found her. Ferrari Enzos are some of the rarest cars in the world. I think the Fates wanted me to have this.” He sat in the drivers seat and took a deep breath, enjoying the new car smell and running his hands all over the interior and console. Every inch of the car was utter perfection in his eyes.
“I seriously hope the fates have better things to do,” Hazel snorted. She wasn’t remotely impressed by their new ride. “Where are we going?”
“Amalfi. It’s about an hour away, but I bet you I can get us there in half that time.”
“Okay, but I hope you’re a good driver,” she said. “I don’t want to die again anytime soon.”
“I’m a great driver,” he said, starting the engine. “Trust me.”
Then he glanced at the back of the car. The Ferrari Enzo didn’t have a backseat, and Minos was standing next to the driver’s side window, looking at Nico expectantly.
“Minos? Can you squeeze in next to Hazel? I guess I can take you separately if you don’t fit.”
“I’m a shade. You can take me in soul form,” Minos said.
“Soul form?”
“Like when a shade becomes a little wispy ball of soul?” Hazel said. “Thanatos did it to me after he yanked me out of my body,” Hazel said. “And Charon undid it when he put me in the boat.”
“But I don’t know how to do that,” Nico said, starting to sweat. “No one taught me.”
“You brought me back to life,” Hazel said. “How hard can it be to shrink your boyfriend? It feels like when you let the air out of a balloon. Same thing, different shape.”
“Same thing, different shape,” Nico repeated. He tried to think through how it might work, then gave up and just moved on instinct. That usually worked for him. He reached out and touched Minos squarely in the center of his chest.
His shade body disappeared. In its place was a glowing silver orb.
“Oh, so that’s how it works,” Nico said, suddenly understanding. “I could have cleared the shades out of the Necromanteion so much faster if I’d done this.”
He popped Minos into the glove compartment and revved the engine.
“Seat belt on, Hazel,” he said. “I don’t do speed limits.”
Chapter 45: Amalfi
Chapter Text
The road to Amalfi was long and winding, clinging to cliffsides and perilously overhanging the sea. After an exhilarating journey that had Hazel gripping the door handle during a few hairpin turns, Nico pulled into the driveway of an enormous villa built into the side of a steep, rocky hillside. It overlooked the glittering Tyrrhenian sea, perfectly poised to catch a view of the sunset.
“It’s ours for the week,” Nico said, turning off the engine and opening the door for Hazel.
“Wow,” Hazel said, looking at the house and the view in awe. “This is more than I expected. Thank you.”
“No need to thank me. We’re still celebrating your re-birthday,” Nico said. “We have to make it special.” He extracted Minos from the glovebox carefully and set him on the driveway, returning him to his normal ghostly form.
“This is home for the next few days,” Nico told him.
“Is it? It’s very nice,” Mino said, looking at the sea admiringly. “The view reminds me of home.”
Minos and Hazel walked around the house and explored together. Hazel explained things like the refrigerator and the electric lights to him. It seemed like having someone even older than her to explain stuff to helped her feel more confident in the modern era.
Her confidence lasted until they activated the motion sensing lights on the patio, which startled them. Hazel found a button panel and tried to turn them off, but she only managed to make them change colors. Then they accidentally activated the sound system and found that the pool lights coordinated with the music. They were both so overwhelmed that they ran back to get Nico and told him they’d broken the house.
Once that crisis was resolved and they went back to exploring, Nico sat on the couch in the spacious living room and checked his phone. There were no emails, texts, or calls from Hades, but he could sense that his father had seen some of his expenses for the evening. He sat in silence, glaring at his dad’s contact page on his phone, daring him to call and say something about it.
“Nico?”
Nico jumped at the touch of a cool hand on his shoulder.
“Are you alright? You've been staring at your phone for some time now,” Minos asked.
“He'd better not call,” Nico muttered.
“I wouldn't expect him to,” Minos said. “He tends to sulk.”
“Whatever. I don't even want to talk to him,” Nico said, scrunching down on the couch. “I mean, what is there to say? Did he even tell you what I did?”
“I heard them speak of it,” Minos said. “Hades said you were causing Bianca to suffer.”
“Of course he did. And what about my suffering? What about what she did to me?” Nico said. “No, you know what, I'm not going to think about her,” he said, pushing his hair back and pacing. “Where's Hazel? I should be looking after her.”
“She's in a theater of sorts,” Minos said. “Images are projected onto a wall, it appears. Very Platonic. Especially given that it's in the basement.”
“What's she watching?”
“It involved talking fish. It must be some magic of Poseidon’s.”
Nico hadn't the slightest clue what he was talking about, but it sounded like something Percy Jackson would like. He had no interest.
“There is a pool,” Minos said. “You may want to swim. You look flushed.”
“I'm fine,” Nico said, but he did march out to the patio behind Minos. The infinity pool was lit with blue lights and looked very inviting.
Minos stripped off his chiton in a single movement, walking into the water slowly, his back to Nico.
Nico found himself suddenly very absorbed in the present moment. He stripped too, leaving his underwear, and swam in after Minos.
The view from the pool overlooked the small, picturesque town of Amalfi. Other houses on the hillside glittered around them, their lights shining like distant stars. Nico had chosen a villa on the edge of town, where they’d have some peace and quiet for a little while after the noise and chaos of New Orleans and Naples.
The sun had sunk down in the sky, leaving a dim orange glow behind on the horizon. The deep blue sky over the dark sea made for a breathtaking vista. It reminded Nico that he ought to be enjoying this place, and he tried to drag his thoughts away from the Underworld, his father, and Bianca, so that he could take it all in.
Minos leaned on the edge of the pool and looked out at the stars, which were just starting to become visible in the sky. They both watched in silence for a while as it got darker, and the stars grew in number.
“The sea is as beautiful as I remember,” Minos said. “Although I could have sworn we had more stars in my day. Thank you for bringing me here.”
“You're welcome,” Nico said. He looked at the moon and was suddenly brutally reminded of Artemis, and by extension, the person he hadn't wanted to think about. His vision blurred with tears.
Minos's arm came around his shoulders.
“Sorry,” Nico said, trying to blink the tears away and focus on something else. “I’m having a hard time being in the moment right now.”
“Good,” Minos said. “You’ve avoided facing the truth for far too long. Wouldn’t you agree?”
Nico sniffled.
“Maybe. But can’t I just keep avoiding it? That was working for me.”
“I am not sure it was,” Minos said. “When a sane person is told he is acting insane, I think a little self reflection is necessitated. No?”
Nico sighed. He really had been acting erratically. He’d attacked Percy for trying to tell him the truth. He’d dragged his mother into a conflict that he’d promised himself he’d never trouble her with. He’d even tackled Bianca.
He’d acted exactly like Commodus had when he’d confronted Marcia. Nico had hated watching Commodus scream at a dead woman. He’d been horrified when he’d manhandled her. And then he’d gone and done the same thing, in front of Persephone and his mother, the two people he was normally on his best behavior for.
He was losing his grip. And blaming Bianca for it wasn’t going to get him anywhere. She was never going to give him what he wanted; he had no cards left to play.
“Maybe I’ve really lost it,” Nico said.
“No,” Minos said. “If you’re self aware enough to admit it, then it isn’t too late. Take it from an expert,” he said.
That helped Nico feel less lost. Minos had actually lost his mind, then gained it back upon dying and been forced to reflect on his journey for millenia. He trusted his boyfriend to be honest about his situation.
“My quest was doomed from the start,” Nico said. “She never wanted to come back. We have nothing in common anymore, and we have a huge age difference now. We weren’t getting along before she died. She abandoned me. I had no reason to keep moving forward, other than being a stubborn idiot. What was I thinking? It was so obvious it wasn’t going to work out. Even if I’d been successful, we’d have hated each other for the rest of our lives. I should have known.”
“I think you are good at ignoring things you don’t want to acknowledge,” Minos said.
Nico folded his arms on the concrete poolside and stared at the moon.
“I’d never have admitted it to myself, but I didn’t really want her back,” Nico said. “And I knew she didn’t want it, either. But part of me felt like I was obligated. Like if I knew I could bring her back, then I had no choice but to try. I wanted to prove something to her about loyalty.”
“Prove something to her? Or teach her a lesson?” Minos said.
“Maybe closer to the latter,” Nico said.
“That’s a fine line away from punishment.”
Nico groaned, resting his head on his folded arms. “I did yell at her and tell her I hated her,” he said. “I guess it’s obvious that I was holding a grudge.”
He knew that he’d been harsh with her, but he had his reasons. He was drowning in anger and hurt and grief. Those emotions had been poisoning his life for years, and Bianca was at the root of all of it.
When Minos didn’t respond, he glanced up at him.
“What? Why aren’t you saying anything?”
“I want you to keep thinking,” Minos said simply. “Remember what I taught you.”
Nico bit his lip, deep in thought. Minos was talking about his lesson from long ago; that your fatal flaw would stand in the way of getting what you wanted the most.
Cupid had told him his fatal flaw was holding grudges. At the time, Nico had laughed it off, but Cupid had been right all along. Nico hadn’t just held a grudge. He’d been letting it control his life ever since Bianca died.
Even four years ago, when he’d first walked into the Underworld, he’d felt sad about losing her, but he’d also been angry. She’d left him again; how could he not be furious? He’d been on fire with rage and he’d confused that for grief the whole time.
He’d felt grief for his mother, but it was a beautiful kind of pain, one that he’d never want to be rid of. Seeing pictures of his mom, talking about her, and seeing her in the Underworld as a shade-- it could be overwhelming, and thinking about her often made him cry. But he’d never seen that as a bad thing. Love and pain were bound up together, and he wouldn’t be the person he was today if he hadn’t experienced that loss and embraced it as part of the tapestry of his life.
He’d never felt anything elegant and profound like that for Bianca. Any reminiscing he’d done had felt forced and bitter. Most of his thoughts about her had been focused on seeing her, speaking to her, getting answers. Interrogating her and forcing her to do what he wanted. Expressing his rage. He’d wanted to see her face so that he could watch her react to his accusations and condemnations. He had made plans to build a fortress to protect her in Fort Lauderdale, but he’d never once made a plan for them to do something fun together. He couldn’t have imagined wanting to.
In the end, that fortress would have become her prison, and the life he’d have given her would have been more like a life sentence.
“Damn,” he said. The self-knowledge sat in his chest like a lead weight.
“Did you figure it out?” Minos asked.
“Yeah,” Nico said. “I think I did. But I’m not sure if it changes anything.”
“It will change everything,” Minos said. “Give it time to sink in.”
“I'm sorry I keep wrapping you up in my drama,” Nico said, glancing back at him. Minos' bronze skin glistened, and the moon was reflected in his warm brown eyes. A drop of water lingered on the tip of one of his eyelashes. In the dim light, if you weren’t looking too hard, you’d think he was alive,
“I’m such a mess,” Nico said. “You’re probably tired of me dealing with the same drama over and over. If it’s not Bianca, it’s something with my dad. I’m not sure how you stand listening to me complain all the time.”
Minos brushed Nico's hair back, gazing into his eyes.
“I appreciate the depth of feeling you have towards the people you care about,” Minos said. “Don't wish away your passions. They are a great privilege to still be able to feel.”
“I guess,” Nico said, but he disagreed completely.
He felt Minos staring at his lips, felt his fingers toy with the ends of his hair, and he wondered if it would make him feel better to kiss him.
“Maybe if we’d met in Crete, I could have helped you like you’ve helped me,” Nico said.
“Do you think so?” Minos asked, raising his eyebrows.
“I’d have sacrificed that stupid bull to Poseidon for you, since you refused to do it,” Nico said. “I don’t mess around when it comes to sacrifices.”
“I was very imperious and stern back then,” Minos said. “You may not have been willing to defy me.”
“I’ve defied scarier people than you. I’m not easily intimidated,” Nico said. “Besides, I’ve already proven that I’ll do crazy stuff for the people I love.”
“I am honored that you think I’m worthy of such devotion,” Minos said, smiling.
“Maybe if I’d done that, you’d be a god now. Maybe you could have deified me with you, and we’d have been together forever,” Nico added, liking the idea the more he thought about it.
“Nico,” Minos said, his expression becoming serious. “Have you ever wondered if you might already be a--”
A scream rang out from inside the house.
“Nico!” Hazel called out. “Help!”
“Again? She has the worst timing,” Nico said. He shadow traveled inside the house and followed the sound of her voice to a set of stairs leading down to the basement theater. Littering the stairs were the carcasses of some all-too familiar bug creatures, but this time, they were larger, the size of apples rather than grapes.
At the bottom of the stairs, he found Hazel beating one to death with a lamp. Nico stomped on as many as he could before the rest of them scurried away, cringing as they crunched and squelched beneath his damp bare feet.
Once they were all dead, Hazel leaned against the wall, panting and still clutching her lamp like a sword.
“I was about to use my earth powers if you didn't show up,” she said. “But I was worried I'd bring the house down on top of us and we'd slide into the ocean.”
“Yeah, don't do that,” Nico agreed. “I'm sorry, I left my phone in the living room. I thought it was close enough to still work, but apparently not. I’ll ward the house so it won’t happen again.”
“Are you okay? You look like you've been crying,” she said.
“Nico?” Minos called out from the patio.
“No, I'm not okay, actually,” Nico said. “Just a second, Minos,” he yelled.
“Hurry up and ward it, please,” Hazel said, turning to go back to her movie. “I’m pretty sure they'll come back as soon as you walk away. Also, I need a real weapon. I want to be prepared next time this happens.” She didn’t seem as upset as she had the first time she’d encountered monsters. It seemed like she was re-acclimating to the realities of being a powerful demigod. It made Nico feel guilty, because he didn’t want her to have to feel constantly on edge, even if that was sort of normal for demigods. He wanted her to have the privilege of safety that he had gotten used to in the past few years.
“It won’t happen again,” Nico said. “But if it helps, I’ll get you a weapon.”
“Also, I'm not cleaning those things up. They make me nauseous,” Hazel added, flopping over on her couch and clicking her movie back on.
“Nico!” Minos called out.
“Alright, alright, I'm coming,” Nico shouted. He hurried over to Minos, who had dressed again and was standing in the patio doorway. Minos held up his hand. It was transparent.
“I think my time is up.”
“No it isn't,” Nico said, panicking. He grabbed the hand and it became solid again. “There. Good as new.”
As soon as he let go, Minos began to fade once more.
“Shit-- sorry, I'll figure something out,” Nico said, whipping his head around at the sound of something tapping the glass sliding door. “Was that another giant roach?”
“It's just a tree branch,” Minos said. He lifted Nico's hand and pressed it to his lips. “I think it’s your father summoning me, and I don’t care to be caught in a tug of war between the two of you. It's okay. You can let me go. You need to rest.”
“I don't need to rest, I need you here with me,” Nico snapped. “I'll find a way to summon you again, alright?” He watched as Minos grew more difficult to see in the dim light. “Wait for me,” Nico said weakly.
“Forever, if you like,” Minos winked, and disappeared.
Nico heaved a sigh of relief. Much as he liked his boyfriend, that conversation had taken a lot out of him emotionally. Maybe Minos was right and he did need to rest; his brain felt fuzzy and full of static.
He told himself he needed to get his act together. He could afford to have his breakdown once Hazel was safe, and no sooner. He warded the whole house with spells he’d learned from Hecate and cleaned up the roaches, throwing them over the balcony railing. The carcasses landed in the neighbor's pool, but he didn't think they were home.
He went back downstairs to the theater and sat on the couch beside Hazel.
“It's the end of the movie,” she said. “Hush.”
They both watched as Nemo and Marlin brought Dory home to live with them in the coral reef.
“It's so beautiful,” Hazel whispered, pointing at the reef. “And this movie wasn't even made recently. I can't believe how much movies have changed. I mean, I thought the Wizard of Oz was great, but this is a miracle.”
“Mhm,” Nico said. He’d started out sitting up on the couch, then he’d rested his head on a pillow, and the next thing he knew, he’d ended up horizontal with a fluffy blanket over his shoulders. He closed his eyes. He could feel Hypnos’ presence in the room with them, waiting on Nico to stop fighting and let him do his job.
“Did you ward the house?” Hazel asked.
“Mhm,” he murmured.
Hazel snuggled in beside him, and put on Ratatouille.
Maria Bova was lying on a thin mattress on the floor. Nico was lying beside her. For a dream, it felt very real; he could feel the cold linoleum under his hands and face.
He sat up, glancing around. He was in a hospital room. Maria was sleeping, and appeared to be having a nightmare. She whimpered and kept rolling over.
He reached out and covered her with her blanket, stroking her hair.
“It’s okay,” he said. “It’s just a dream.”
She stilled, and her face became peaceful and relaxed. Her breathing evened out, and it seemed like she’d heard him and her nightmares had eased.
Nico stood up and looked around. He wasn’t shocked to see Rosa lying in the hospital bed, but it did make him feel a wave of deep empathy for her daughter and how it must feel to see her beloved mother this way. Lying in the cold, Spartan hospital room, Rosa looked like a corpse already, pale and waxy.
She must be waiting on Thanatos to collect her soul; the machine in the corner beeped with vital signs, but there didn’t seem to be much life in her body any longer.
Nico suddenly grew angry with Thanatos for abandoning his responsibilities. Dragging this process out only left Maria to suffer more. He hoped that Rosa, at least, didn’t know what was going on.
“I’ll see what I can do, guys,” Nico said quietly. “Because this isn’t okay.”
Suddenly, he woke up alone on the couch in the theater. He felt better; more clear and refreshed. Minos had been right, he had really needed to rest.
He climbed the stairs and found Hazel in the kitchen messing with the espresso machine; based on the bright sunlight outside, it looked like mid-morning.
“You're using that wrong,” he said, pulling a moka pot out of the cabinet. “Let me do it. It’s better the simple way.”
She yawned, nodding. With her hair unstyled and still wild from sleep, she looked like a walking cloud of fluffy reddish brown hair.
“You're so adorable,” Nico smiled at her. “I seriously have the cutest little sister in the world.”
“Aww, shucks,” Hazel said, pressing her hands to her cheeks.
He set the cup of coffee in front of her.
“I’m asking Minos to bring some of my clothes when he comes back, but you need a whole new wardrobe. Are you up for a shopping trip?”
“Sure!” She said, dumping tons of sugar and cream into her cup. Nico forced himself not to comment on her unholy coffee milkshake concoction. “So you sent Minos back?”
“Not exactly. Papa summoned him,” Nico said. “I’ll have to try to summon him back when Papa isn’t looking.”
“I’ve been wondering, how the heck did you two end up together?”
“He was my sword trainer.”
Hazel snorted.
“Why is that funny?”
“No reason. Doesn’t it bother you that he’s an ancient ghost?”
“Of course not! He’s kind and sweet, and he’s always been there for me. I genuinely don’t know where I’d be without him.”
“He does seem like a nice guy,” Hazel said. “But shades aren’t the same as living people. It can’t be easy dating someone that doesn’t feel complete emotions.”
“I don’t know any different,” Nico said. “I’ve never been with anyone else.”
Cupid didn’t count. Nico didn’t think he’d felt a single emotion for Nico at all, incomplete or otherwise. “Besides, he can’t help that he’s dead. I’d never hold that against anybody.”
“Sammy and I were in love,” she said wistfully. “Every time I saw him, it was like a band started playing in my heart. When I was with him, I felt like I was able to be my whole self for the first time. He didn’t even mind that I was cursed. And I know he felt the same way about me.”
“That’s wonderful,” Nico said.
Her last sentence had been a little pointed, although he didn’t choose to react to it. He knew that Minos wasn’t capable of feeling the same way he did, about their relationship, or about anything at all. But that was fine; they made it work. It didn’t bother him. Much.
“Our souls clicked together like magnets the day he died and came to find me,” Hazel said, smiling. “But he got a full life. It’s my turn. I’ll see him again when I’m ready.” She finished her coffee. “By the way, make sure the clothes store we go to is okay for colored people. I don’t want to get spit on and told I’m making the clothes dirty when I touch them.”
Nico nearly dropped his coffee cup.
“Hazel, I would never let anyone treat you that way!” He insisted.
“It’s not about whether you let them. I don’t want to have to worry about it. If it means we have to shop in the poor part of town, that’s fine. I’m used to it.”
Nico was stumped. He was pretty sure that wasn’t likely to happen, but now she was making him paranoid that he was just being naive. He was also positive there wasn’t a poor part of town on the Amalfi coast, where hotel rooms could be up to $1000 per night, so that posed another problem.
“Also, I really want to get my hair done. It has to be a salon that knows how to deal with natural hair. Can you find one on that phone of yours?”
Nico nodded and tried to Google it for a few minutes, but he realized quickly that he had no idea how to search for what she wanted. He really didn’t want to let her down, so he excused himself, went out to the patio and made a phone call.
“Annabeth, I need your help,” Nico said. “It’s an emergency. Can I come get you?”
“Like, right now? I have class,” she said. “What happened? You stopped answering my calls and texts. Percy said you--”
“I’ll tell you when you get here.”
“Nico, I’m a freshman at UC Berkeley, I can’t just skip class, this is a serious institution of higher learning.”
“I’m in Amalfi,” Nico said. “I can offer you white sand beaches, fine dining, and a shopping spree all inclusive in exchange. Will you please help?”
She hesitated.
“Okay, fine.”
He picked her up in a shabby dorm room and brought her back to the villa immediately. He stood outside on the patio and quickly explained what had happened with the resurrection, and what he needed help with for Hazel.
“I’m sorry, Nico,” Annabeth said. “When Percy came back and told me that what had happened, I realized that I’d helped lead you in the wrong direction. I tried to call, but you didn’t pick up.”
“It’s okay. I was the one that dragged you into my delusions,” Nico said. “That’s on me.”
“In my defense, the musical was very compelling,” she said. “And if there had been a test, you’d have passed thanks to me. I don’t know if that counts for anything, but it’s true.”
“It’s okay. Hazel is alive now, so I feel good about that, at least,” he said. “I just need help with getting her established in the modern world. I’m starting to realize that I’ve been really sheltered and don’t have all the information she needs. She won’t live in the Underworld like me, she’s going to be--” He couldn’t tell Annabeth that Hazel was a hero of the prophecy of the seven, because Annabeth was also in that prophecy, and she wasn’t supposed to know about it yet. “She’s going to be a great hero. I want her to have a strong start. She’ll need friends like you if she’s gonna make it.”
“I hear you. Let’s do this,” Annabeth said. Nico was really glad he’d befriended Annabeth. She was a natural leader and a highly experienced demigod. There was no better resource for Hazel that he could think of.
He brought Annabeth into the kitchen.
“Hazel? This is my friend Annabeth. She’s coming shopping with us.”
“Oh, you didn’t tell me you had a colored friend,” Hazel said in surprise.
Annabeth gave Nico a look, and he knew she’d caught on to the real reason he’d called her for help. Maybe he should have been a little more upfront about that. He hoped the shopping spree would make up for it.
Nico shadow traveled the three of them to Capri and listened while the girls shopped together and had a long conversation about the changes that had taken place since the 40’s. He was glad that he’d called Annabeth, because if Hazel had asked, Nico would probably have told her that everything was great, and racism, homophobia, and antisemitism weren’t a thing anymore. It turned out the growing up in fascist Italy under Mussolini had skewed his perspective on that, and the world did still have some serious problems. He should probably start reading the mortal news instead of scrolling on Godstagram and reading Gossip Goddess.
He’d gotten a notification about a Gossip Goddess post earlier and set it aside, but he took a moment to read it while Annabeth and Hazel discussed the advantages of combat boots versus sneakers when fighting monsters.
The post showed a photo of him and Hazel taken while they’d been eating beignets in New Orleans. He was still in his work uniform, and she was wearing her old dress, so it looked like a photo of a normal girl eating pastries with an ancient god on a misty night by the river. It was a cool picture, but kind of misleading.
The caption read:
‘She is risen! Controversial demigod Nico di Angelo’s well publicized plan came to fruition yesterday when he resurrected his sister after years of running his mouth off about it to any god that would listen. He’ll go down in history as the third demigod to ever accomplish this-- to hear more, check out literally any podcast in the Gossip Goddess family of podcasts, because EVERYBODY is talking about this!’
The post had hundreds of comments, too many for Nico to even read. Most were asking who he was and what did Hades think of it. Nico didn’t know, and he was pretty sure Hades didn’t either. It was complicated.
Aeolus had gotten the first comment in. He claimed that he’d been a mentor to Nico all summer, and that he deserved a nice reward from the gods for being so supportive of the young hero. Commodus and Nero had both posted long, unhinged rants on their stories about how much Nico sucked. Ariadne and Isis both called him their friend, and Dionysus claimed that he’d given Nico lots of advice on the subject and that Nico owed a debt of gratitude to his old camp counselor. Ariadne and Chiron had corrected the record on that, which Nico appreciated.
No one from the Underworld had said anything, or even liked the post. Nico wasn’t sure how he felt about that. He’d hoped Charon and Hecate would at least give a little thumbs up, but there was nothing.
Going viral felt weird, so he put his phone away and tried to focus on Hazel and Annabeth. They took a break for lunch at a nice restaurant with a view. They ordered limoncello spritzes, mussels and scallops and bruschetta and prosciutto, and Nico enjoyed hearing all about their purchases.
“I’ve been telling Hazel about Camp Half Blood,” Annabeth said, taking a sip of her spritz. “She’ll love it there. After hearing about her encounter with Gaea, I think that it’ll be good for her to connect with campers that went through the war with Kronos. They’ll be able to understand what she went through.”
“I hope so,” Hazel said. “But I have other worries.” Her hand went to her pocket, and she met Nico’s eyes. She was worried about her curse being discovered. Nico was reminded that he’d have to find out more about it and see if he could get his hands on a cure.
“We’ll explain the resurrection to Chiron and Mr. D,” Annabeth said. “I’m sure it won’t bother them.”
“They know already,” Nico said. “But Hazel and I need to research our options before we make any commitments. I want her in the best possible environment for training, and Camp Half Blood doesn’t impress me much. The death rate is pretty ridiculous.”
Annabeth stared at him, baffled.
“So you’re saying there are other places for a half blood to go?”
“It’s a big world,” Nico said. “I left camp. I found other ways to survive.”
“You lived with our father,” Hazel said. “I’m not doing that.”
“I know, I was talking about--”
“Is there a camp here in Italy?” Annabeth asked, lighting up with inspiration. “I’ve always suspected there must be. Or Greece?”
“I’m still looking into it,” was all he said.
They kept eating and chatting, but Annabeth seemed to look at him with a certain suspicion that he wasn’t telling her something. He knew damn well that she and Hazel would have to be at Camp Jupiter in the spring to start their quest, but he was in no rush to send Hazel there immediately if there were other options.
“What the--” Annabeth froze, staring into space.
Nico and Hazel turned to follow her gaze.
“What is it?” Hazel asked.
“Nothing,” Annabeth said. “Just thought I saw someone I knew. PTSD does weird things like that sometimes. I’m okay.”
Nico joined them for more shopping, and was really touched by the extent to which Annabeth was taking Hazel under her wing. She was picking out leather jackets, hiking sandals, athletic shorts, and all kinds of stuff that Hazel might need as a demigod. Of course, she was getting thousands of dollars worth of free clothes out of the venture, but Nico was still happy to see them bond. They kicked him out when they started talking about sports bras, so he walked outside to take a break.
Weighed down with dozens of shopping bags, he wandered until he found an unoccupied bench on the busy main shopping street where the designer outlets were located. He spent some time watching wealthy, well-dressed tourists go from store to store, laughing and having fun overspending on their vacations.
They reminded him of his mother, who had done the same thing on their family trip to the Amalfi Coast when he was little. She’d spent all day shopping with her mother and sister while his uncle, Gio’s dad, had taken him, Bianca, and Gio out for gelato.
It had crossed his mind that Capri might have been the vacation she’d decided to relive over and over in the afterlife, with one small edit to make it his father who’d taken them out for ice cream rather than Gio’s dad. The only reason he wasn’t sure whether Capri represented her version of Elysium was because they’d gone on so many similar trips. She’d never missed an opportunity to make memories with her family.
She’d valued the things that were really important in life. Why couldn’t Bianca have learned how to do that?
Tempting as it was to shove the thoughts of his sister aside, Nico accepted them. He’d spent a long time denying how he felt towards her, manipulating his own memories in order to convince himself that resurrecting her was a good idea. That was over now. He had painful truths to acknowledge about their relationship, and the only way to move out of his feelings was to experience them.
He was so deep in thought on the bench that he almost didn’t notice a familiar face walking past in a tailored pinstripe suit. Nico sat up, and his eyes widened.
A tall, dark haired man with broad shoulders took a seat on the bench across from him. He set down an armload of shopping bags, sighed, and pulled out his phone, watching videos on full volume. Nico could hear him watching Commodus’ Godstagram story where he ranted for five minutes about how Nico had cheated at racquetball and poisoned his olives.
Nico stared straight ahead, waiting for a sign of acknowledgment, but Zeus didn’t seem to have noticed him.
He took out his own phone and checked Ganymede’s Godstagram story. He was in the Gucci store trying on sunglasses not a hundred yards from where Nico was sitting.
Nico considered making a swift exit before Zeus saw him, but his uncle glanced up from his phone and locked eyes with him just before he got up to leave.
Zeus squinted as though he didn’t recognize him at first, but then he lowered his eyebrows in a frown.
“Approach,” he said, his voice low and clear and authoritative.
Nico’s instinct was to run, but he wasn’t sure whether shadow travel moved faster than lightning. He reminded himself that Zeus couldn’t kill him; that honor belonged to Alabaster. He couldn’t get any deader, so he might as well see what his uncle wanted.
“What is your purpose here? Is your father having you follow me? Why?” Zeus asked once Nico had stood in front of his bench.
“I’m not working for him right now,” Nico said. “I’m here with Annabeth and my sister. We’re just shopping.”
“I thought you were his ambassador,” Zeus said, his tone making the title sound like a joke.
“I resurrected my sister Hazel the day before yesterday,” Nico said. “I’m focused on getting her acclimated.”
Zeus huffed his disappointment.
“I’d hoped the rumors were exaggerated,” he said. He didn’t mention Hazel not being the right sister; Nico was relieved not to have to explain it. Zeus clearly didn’t know Bianca’s name. “You must be proud of yourself, but I’d advise you to remain humble. Raising one’s head too highly makes it liable to get chopped off,” he said, stroking his beard as though he thought he was being cryptic and subtle.
“I’m sure Gaea will take care of that for you, so I wouldn’t worry,” Nico said.
“Indeed, if she proves able to kill anyone,” Zeus said. “So long as you’re here, you might as well tell me what’s happening with Thanatos not working. Hermes tells me it’s nothing serious and should blow over soon, but it’s been a couple of weeks now, and still no death. Did you do something to him? Is that why he’s not working?”
“No death?” Nico asked, feigning confusion. He ignored the accusation that he’d done something to Thanatos; that was just ridiculous. “I haven’t checked recently, but I was under the impression Hermes was covering it. He told everyone he was on top of the situation.”
“Is that so?” Zeus asked.
“Isn’t that his purpose? To be a backup for Thanatos? I thought that was the whole point of his title of Psychopomp.”
“Hermes wears many hats,” Zeus said. “He can’t do everything at once.”
“Of course. I’m sure he has more important responsibilities than making sure mortals die,” Nico said.
Zeus looked flustered. Nico felt like he’d won a small victory for the Underworld. Hermes didn’t attend meetings, didn’t read emails, and he was still doing the bare minimum on soul collection. Zeus probably wouldn’t do anything about it, but if he asked Hermes a few probing questions, it was better than nothing.
Zeus frowned at Nico suspiciously.
“I’ll look into that,” he said. “I don’t trust you. Diplomats twist the truth to their own ends and manipulate to get what they want. It’s cowardly, and it’s why I’ve never believed in diplomacy, personally. Don’t think you fool me; I don’t need to know your intent to know that you’re being deceitful. My wife said you were a decent spy, and that makes me trust you even less. You don’t even have the decency to be useful anymore. I’m here investigating Caligula myself, since you’re not giving us information on the Triumvirate any longer.”
“Caligula is on Capri?” Nico asked. “Right now?”
“Yes, he let slip at a certain musical event we both attended that there was a ritual occurring that he wanted to observe. Mithras will be there, and he’s a fan. I’ve decided that Jupiter is going to drop in unannounced,” Zeus smiled mischievously. “Hera expressly forbid me to attend, so it’s crucial I be there. I think she’s keeping things from me, and I want to obtain a few secrets of my own.”
“What kind of ritual?”
“A tauroctony, the typical sacrifice to Mithras,” Zeus said. “Devotees perform one in secret every year in the Mithraeum on the island. It’s a good show. Tragic that you’ll have to miss out,” he rolled his eyes.
“Nico? What are you doing here? So good to see you!” Ganymede said, walking out of the Gucci store and giving him a hug. “Are you coming to the tauroctony later? It’s gonna be a riot; Zeus and I are going in mortal disguises.”
“I’m really grateful to Zeus, actually. I was going to go, but he just gave me a heads up that Caligula would be there. He’d probably kill me, or at least torture me brutally, so I’ll have to sit this one out.”
“Oh, darn!” Ganymede said. “Good thing Zeus warned you! See, I keep telling people you’ve got a good heart buried under those meaty pecs,” Ganymede said, smiling at Zeus and practically glowing with love and adoration.
Zeus made a face of extreme displeasure.
“We’d better be going,” he said. “But there is one last thing you should know. You may be under the impression that this resurrection stunt is going to benefit you. You may even be thinking, wow, gee whiz, didn’t Heracles and Asclepius also resurrect people? And didn’t they become gods? Yes, eventually, they did. But I would take a moment to look into what happened to them before their eventual apotheosis.”
“Spoiler alert, Heracles murdered his entire family and Asclepius got blasted with lightning by this guy,” Ganymede said, helpfully pointing at Zeus.
“Oh. How interesting,” Nico said neutrally. He was dead, so that wasn’t super worrying to him, but Zeus didn’t need to know that.
“Remember what I told you about keeping your head down,” Zeus said gravely.
“You are so nice to look out for him,” Ganymede remarked. “Bye, Nico! And congrats on the sister!”
“Thanks,” Nico said, watching them walk away.
Chapter 46: Capri Sun
Chapter Text
Hazel wanted to be Annabeth when she grew up. She was beautiful, confident, brilliant, and she had a hot boyfriend (Hazel had insisted on seeing photos). She wondered whether maybe in her second life, she’d get the chance to find a new love of her own. Hopefully it would last longer this time. It would be nice to grow old with someone.
While they browsed the shops, Nico buzzed around them like a bee. He told them they looked good in everything, suggested some impractical outfits, and most importantly, he paid for everything. After hours of this attentive behavior, Hazel and Annabeth met in the dressing room and quietly agreed that they needed to get rid of him for a while. Annabeth made a comment about buying bras, and he immediately made an excuse to head elsewhere.
They watched him leave, arms laden with their shopping bags, to go sit on a bench outside.
“He’s killing this big brother gig,” Annabeth said. “You’re a lucky girl.”
“It’s overwhelming,” Hazel said. “You heard what he said at lunch. He’s got big plans for me, but I’m still figuring out being alive. He’s letting me have fun for now, but it can’t last forever.”
“You should learn as much from him as possible,” Annabeth said. “He’s an extremely powerful demigod. He can teach you things no one else can.”
“Yeah,” said Hazel. “He’s a demigod alright.”
She pursed her lips and gave Annabeth a significant look from under her long eyelashes.
“Do you have something you want to say?” Annabeth said, raising her eyebrows.
“I don’t want to say it unless you say it,” Hazel said, fiddling with her hair. “You might think I’ve lost my marbles.”
“I’m not going to think that,” Annabeth said.
Hazel hesitated, then blurted it out.
“We both know he’s a god, right?”
Annabeth heaved a sigh of relief.
“I’ve had suspicions for a while. Percy doesn’t agree. He thinks there would have been some kind of announcement. I can’t say he’s wrong. I honestly don’t know a lot about the process.”
“Our dad keeps his cards pretty close to his chest,” Hazel said. “Maybe he figures it’s Underworld business?”
“I considered that possibility,” Annabeth nodded. “What led you to the conclusion that he’s a god?”
“Gut instinct,” Hazel said. “When you’re a shade, you sense these things. It’s not as obvious now that I’m alive.”
“I stabbed him with a manticore spine once. I noticed he was trying to make sure I didn’t see the wound. I glanced at the spine I’d used to stab him, and it had dried ichor on it,” Annabeth said. “Another time, I saw him electrocuted with a lethal amount of voltage and live. I triple checked the readings on the machine afterward. No mortal could have survived it.”
“I’m real glad he’s my patron now,” Hazel said. “He does a better job than Pluto ever did.”
“He’s a good guy,” Annabeth agreed. “He’s got some issues, but who doesn’t?”
“I have my share,” Hazel smiled sadly. She’d already shoved three amethysts into her pocket already that day.
“But I think you ought to be careful,” Annabeth said. “Gods are dangerous even when they have good intentions-- Maybe even more dangerous, in fact. His priorities are never going to be the same as yours, and he won’t see things the way you see them. You’ve got to protect yourself from being used by him just as much as he protects you from monsters.”
Hazel bristled at the insinuation that she needed to protect herself from Nico. He’d given her life-- he’d given her everything. He hadn’t forced the gift on her, it had been her idea, and he’d taken a massive risk in taking responsibility for a girl he’d only known for a few minutes. She never wanted to repay his kindness with anything but complete trust.
“Maybe there’s a lot I don’t know about Nico,” Hazel said. “Hell, there’s a lot he doesn’t know about me. But he’s my brother, and I love him. God or not, that’s all there is to it.”
“Right,” Annabeth said, looking slightly embarrassed. “I should have realized you’d feel that way. I’m a pragmatist, in case you haven’t noticed, and dealing with my mom has been difficult. I guess I like to tell myself it always has to be guarded and distant with the gods, but Nico has very little in common with my mother. It’s possible that you’ll have better luck than I did.”
Hazel already felt as though she had won the lottery just by being alive, so more good luck could only be a bonus. They changed the subject and shopped for a little longer before going to find Nico again.
He was sitting on a bench just outside the store, and he was watching two men walk away as though they’d been talking.
He glanced up at them when they approached, and his expression looked anxious and slightly guilty.
“All done?” He asked them. “How about some ice cream?”
“I really should get back to school,” Annabeth said.
“Come on, one little gelato won’t hurt,” Nico smiled, already walking in the direction of the shop.
He bought both girls large cups of gelato, getting nothing for himself. He watched them eat and asked them questions about their purchases, but mostly he checked his phone compulsively. Hazel glanced over at one point and saw that he had hundreds of unread notifications.
“You have a lot of people trying to get in touch with you,” she said. “That’s what those envelope symbols mean, right?”
“Wow, you’re picking up technology fast,” Nico said. “Yeah, I guess some people have questions about your resurrection.”
“They want to know how you did it?” Annabeth asked.
He nodded.
“Among other things. But it’s none of their business,” he added, flipping his phone over.
He steepled his fingers and looked at the two of them. “So, I have something I want to ask you both. I need a favor.”
Annabeth gave Hazel a look that said, ‘told you so.’ Hazel ignored her.
“Whatever it is, I’ll do it,” Hazel said.
“You know I’m always happy to help when I can,” Annabeth added. “But I have to get back to school.”
“It won’t take long,” Nico said quickly. “There’s an event tonight in Capri. I think it’ll be a good educational experience for Hazel. I just need you there to look after her. I’m not ready to send her places alone yet.”
“What kind of monsters are we talking about?” Annabeth sighed. She looked resigned, like she was used to dealing with requests like this a lot.
“There won’t be any monsters. You should be safe if you don’t draw attention to yourselves,” he said.
“Then why can’t you come?” Hazel asked.
“Someone will be there that I really shouldn’t go anywhere near,” Nico said. “I’ll hang out nearby, but I won’t be close enough to hear anything. I want to know what happens tonight, and the only way I’ll find out is if you go and tell me everything afterward.”
“What’s the event?” Annabeth asked.
“A tauroctony in a mithraeum.”
“A ritual bull killing,” Annabeth explained to Hazel. “A sacrifice to Mithras, Roman god of light and protector of soldiers.”
“Sounds fun,” Hazel said. “I’m in.”
“Who is it that you can’t go near?” Annabeth asked.
“Caligula.”
They tried very hard, but Nico wouldn’t give them any context for why he was avoiding Caligula and why they needed to observe the ceremony. He brought them back to the villa to change into clothing more suitable for physical activity, which Annabeth had insisted on despite his assurance that they should be safe.
“I’d rather be safe than sorry,” Annabeth said. She’d put on cargo pants and a windbreaker and was busy hiding knives and monster spray all over her body. She’d loaned some to Hazel just in case, although she’d warned her not to use it unless she had no other option, since she was untrained.
As it went from afternoon to evening, the air grew colder and the wind picked up. It was the last week of September, and nights in Amalfi were cool and slightly cloudy. When Nico brought them back to the town of Capri and dropped them at the start of the trail down to the mithraeum, which was in a cave further down the mountainside, he was obviously trying not to look as nervous as he really was.
“Take care of her,” he told Annabeth. “Remember, stay in the back and don’t draw attention to yourselves.”
“I’ve got this,” she reassured him. “Don’t worry.”
She and Hazel walked down the path until they caught up to a crowd of people already headed down. There were about a dozen of them, some locals, some tourists, and some weird, pagan people wearing togas. One of the weirdos was leading a white bull by a rope lead. He was tall, skinny, with short blonde hair, and he wore a purple t-shirt under his toga.
He was flanked by two other young men his age, one blonde and one with black hair. Neither wore togas, and from the back, Hazel couldn’t see anything unusual about them. She assumed that Nico was interested in the one leading the bull, since he seemed to walk with authority, leading the way down the trail.
A handsome young man and an older, middle aged gentleman were walking directly in front of Annabeth. The middle aged man turned back to look at them. He gave Hazel a once over, then turned around and ignored them. His younger friend was chatty and very touchy with him. Hazel made note that they, too, were suspicious characters.
“Do you think these people are demigods?” Hazel asked Annabeth quietly as they walked down the steep switchbacks leading down toward the cave. “Or mortal pagans?”
“I bet it’s a mix of both,” Annabeth said. “There could also be satyrs and naiads and dryads, or at least the Roman versions. Mithras is a Roman and Near-Eastern god, so he may attract types that I’m not familiar with.”
Hazel got the impression that Annabeth had a blind spot when it came to Roman stuff. She was well educated on all aspects of the Greco-Roman mythology that colored their lives, but she kept defaulting to Hades when referring to Hazel’s dad. Hazel wasn’t as well versed in demigod lore as Annabeth, but she knew that her father was Pluto and not Hades; there was a distinct difference between the two that she saw quite clearly. When Nico had mentioned Caligula, Annabeth had looked like her brain was going to explode from thinking too hard.
When they reached the cave, Hazel was unimpressed by the setup. It was just a small opening in the rock where someone had taped up a hand drawn picture of a man in a pointy hat standing over a bull. It looked like a Christmas elf was riding a cow. Someone had lit a few candles, but that was the only atmospheric touch they’d included. Hazel didn’t know much, but she knew caves, and this one sucked. They hadn’t even set up chairs; everyone just started sitting on the dirt outside the cave like it was a theater.
While the three young men wrangled the bull into position inside the cave, Annabeth walked the perimeter, inspecting the environment for danger. Hazel followed behind her, trying to absorb what the more experienced demigod was doing. The trail continued down from the cave to the ocean, and there were a few trees and rocks, but not much else to see in the area.
One thing they both noticed was a massive yacht docked in the distance. It was playing loud dance music, and there were people on the deck dancing.
“Caligula liked party boats,” Annabeth whispered. “I remembered that from my reading.”
“Do you think he’s here?” Hazel whispered back.
“I don’t see anyone that looks like an emperor.”
“What are we whispering about?” A tall, skinny man with dark hair whispered into their ears. Both girls jumped.
Hazel stared at the man who’d snuck up on them. He had a slightly crazed look in his eyes that reminded her of her mother’s expression towards the end of her life. She didn’t think Gaea was possessing the man, but she did think he might have taken leave of his senses.
He wore a captain’s hat, a striped shirt, and boat shoes.
“Admiring my vessel, gals?” He asked, gesturing proudly at the yacht. “She’s a beaut, ain’t she?”
“Oh, yes,” Annabeth nodded. “It’s very nice.”
“Hit me up after the service, and we can party together,” he said, winking at them and walking away.
He went right up to the bull and stood in front of it, giving the boys terrible advice on how to position it and agitating the bull by poking it.
“Guess we found Caligula,” Hazel said.
“Yeah,” Annabeth said. “That could have gone worse. Let’s stay out of his way and just keep an eye on things.”
They went up to the cave and sat on the ground in the back of the crowd, but they could barely see the bull from their spot. A tall woman with a big purple sunhat on sat right in front of them and blocked their view.
“Pardon me, could you take your hat off, please?” Annabeth said.
The woman turned around and glared at them. She had a stern, forbidding expression, although she was beautiful in a cold sort of way.
“No,” she said firmly. She looked at Annabeth with an odd sort of recognition, and gave Hazel a once over, too.
Hazel and Annabeth scooted to another spot. They sat behind the middle aged man and his young friend. Based on the way the older man’s hand was resting possessively on his companion’s thigh, Hazel was pretty sure they were an item. The older man kept glaring at the woman in the purple hat, then turning and looking elsewhere. She kept glaring back, then looking away immediately every time he glanced her way.
They were weird, but more importantly, they were a lot taller than Hazel and Annabeth, so they had trouble seeing inside the cave. They heard the sounds chanting, and the bull began crying out, and Hazel hissed, ‘It’s starting!’
Annabeth finally poked her head over one of the middle aged man’s shoulders, while Hazel looked over the other one.
Hazel was in awe of the savage beauty of the sacrifice. The bull’s wild eyed flailing, the hot red blood that poured from his throat, the impassive chanting of the officiant in the toga and purple shirt-- it all sent a thrill down her spine. The cave was unimpressive, and the people performing the sacrifice were wearing flip flops, but for a brief moment, they created a sacred space in that little cave. It was pure magic, and Hazel was hooked.
Shortly after the bull flopped to the ground, Annabeth grew suddenly very tense. She gripped Hazel’s arm tightly in her hand, then she stood to get a better view of the cave, pulling Hazel up along with her.
“You’re hurting me,” Hazel said. “Quit digging your nails into my arm.”
“Sorry,” Annabeth murmured. “It’s just… One of those guys looks just like… But it can’t be. It’s impossible. I’m gonna get closer to investigate.”
She didn’t wait for Hazel’s response. She started walking toward the cave, her eyes fixed on the three young men who’d performed the sacrifice.
Hazel followed her, worried they were going to mess everything up. Nico had told them not to attract attention to themselves, and now everyone was looking at them, and Caligula was staring, and she was freaking out. She’d had never liked being in the spotlight; she preferred to sit in the back and just listen.
And of course, because she was nervous, a gleaming ruby the size of a plum popped out of the ground in front of her as she walked up to the cave.
“Ooh! Shiny,” Caligula said, reaching for it.
Hazel thought about saying something, then kept following Annabeth. Caligula could handle a little curse.
Annabeth stood at the side of the cave, staring at the officiant and his helpers. She looked like she was about to start crying.
“Luke?” She said, her voice barely more than a whisper.
One of the helpers turned and looked at her. He had dirty blonde hair and blue eyes, and was very handsome. His expression when he met Annabeth’s gaze was guilty and even a little tormented; it was hard to understate how miserable he looked to see Annabeth staring at him. Hazel could only assume they were exes that hadn’t seen each other in a long time.
Suddenly, a bright beam of light shone from the wall in the back of the cave. The stone cracked open and started gushing water. The crowd watching all gasped and waited in anticipation; Annabeth and Luke were the only people not transfixed on the magic occurring before them, too transfixed on each other to notice.
The light beamed brighter and brighter, and then a man stepped out from the crack in the rock. He wore a jaunty red cap, had dark skin and thick, curly black hair. His grin sparkled like he was in an ad for a celebrity dentist.
“Hi, everybody,” he said. “Thanks for the sacrifice!”
“We love you, Mithras!” One of the men in the crowd called out, while a woman shouted, “Bravo!”
He started strutting around the cave and posing for pictures. Meanwhile, Annabeth walked right up to the blonde guy she’d called Luke. She grabbed his shirt and yanked him toward her, getting right up in his face.
“Annabeth, I--”
“What the fuck!?” She screamed, tears streaming down her face. “Why are you here? What’s going on? How is this possible?”
Mithras turned and frowned at Annabeth. The crowd all stared at her and Luke, wondering what was going on. Hazel cringed and hid behind her, embarrassed.
“Young lady, you’re interrupting my moment,” Mithras said angrily. “These good people went to a lot of trouble to sacrifice to me today. Handle your lover’s spat elsewhere.”
“Yeah, I’m trying to get a selfie with my pal,” Caligula said. He’d shoved everyone else out of the way in order to stand at the mouth of the cave alongside Mithras. He put an arm around Mithras’ shoulders, which was quickly shrugged off. Mithras took a step to the left to get away, but Caligula stepped along with him.
“Annabeth, I can explain,” Luke said, looking pale. He and Annabeth hadn’t even acknowledged the gods that they were inconveniencing, and Hazel was getting seriously upset with them. Without knowing much about either Caligula or Mithras, she took Nico very seriously when he said to be careful and stay out of the way. Annabeth was causing them to fail miserably at their task.
“Annabeth, let’s go,” Hazel hissed, walking up to her and tugging her arm. “Talk to this guy later, you’re making a scene.”
“Explain,” Annabeth said to Luke. “Now.” Hazel pulled on her arm again, but Annabeth pushed her away. Hazel was left watching helplessly as Caligula grew more enraged at being ignored.
“I was dead, but now I’m not. I’ve been resurrected,” Luke said.
Annabeth’s jaw dropped. She stared at Luke like he was a ghost.
Hazel walked backwards until her hands were flat against the cave wall. The presence of the cold stone comforted her, because she was freaking out. She wasn’t the only one who’d been resurrected? What was going on? Did Nico have something to do with this?
She tried to stay calm, but she was hyperventilating. Something was really, really not right about this situation. She knew it in her gut.
Annabeth just stood there, crying and demanding Luke explain. He didn’t seem to want to get into detail. He’d started crying, too, and the scene of emotional chaos was scaring Hazel even more. This was the worst possible place and time for this revelation. Caligula was a hair trigger, and they were triggering him.
Luke’s friends, the toga guy and the one with the dark hair, hurried over to try to intervene. At least some people in that cave were still sane. Their presence didn’t do anything to help, unfortunately. When they approached her, Annabeth took one look at the dark haired guy and yelled, “Ethan? You too? What the fuck is going on?”
Hazel looked at Ethan. He looked like a normal guy, other than the eyepatch. He’d also been resurrected?
“You stupid fucking bitch,” Caligula screamed. “Shut the fuck up! I’m trying to get a selfie here! I’m going to fucking kill you!”
“Woah, woah, simmer down, guy,” Mithras said, standing between him and Annabeth. “This is my sacred site. There’s no need for threats of violence. We can take a selfie outside.”
“I want the selfie in here, and I want it now!” Caligula said.
Faster than Hazel could blink, he summoned a golden spear into his hand and hurled it straight at Annabeth.
Luke knocked Annabeth to the floor, getting her out of the way just in time.
Which left the spear flying straight toward Hazel, with no one there to save her.
She remembered screaming, and then darkness. There was a loud rumbling, but she covered her ears and ignored it. I just want to be safe, she thought, over and over and over. And she was. Her heart kept beating. She was still breathing. She was okay in the dark. It felt like home.
She made herself small and secure and waited. She didn’t know what she was waiting for, but she felt safe, so she stayed.
She wasn’t sure how long she remained there, but eventually, the earth began to shift around her. The stone she’d broken and shaped into a protective cocoon crumbled and reformed into a cave wall, and she was on the outside of it, exposed to the light and the cold air.
Nico was standing in front of her, his face tense with worry. She collapsed into his arms.
“It’s okay. You’re okay now,” he said, rubbing her back. “Were you hurt?”
“No, I’m fine,” she said. “I hid in the stone.”
“You did great, Hazel,” Nico said, holding her tightly. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have asked you to do this.”
“No, you shouldn’t have,” a stern, familiar voice said. Hazel looked up and saw the woman with the purple hat, but she looked different now, glowing with divinity and grace. Next to her was the middle aged man with the trim little beard, but he was taller and broader now, with a regal aura of power around him. His younger boyfriend stood and waited behind him, looking at Hazel and Nico with an expression of concern.
“Hazel, this is Jupiter, Juno, and Ganymede,” Nico said.
Unsure of what to do, Hazel got down on her knees.
“It’s an honor to meet you,” she said, fearing she’d done something wrong. Jupiter and Juno both looked majorly pissed off at her. Their very presence left her quaking with fear. The two of them together radiated divine authority greater than the sum of their parts; a true power couple. “I’m sorry if I messed things up,” she said, her voice small.
“You didn’t do anything wrong, Hazel,” Nico said. “Annabeth caused this. I’m going to wring her fucking neck. She could have gotten you killed!”
“Your temper has caused enough problems tonight, di Angelo,” Jupiter said.
“You’re one to talk,” Nico snapped.
“Both of you shut up!” Juno said, pinching the bridge of her nose. “I need to speak with Hades about these new resurrections. I sense our enemies at work, and they are playing tricks I did not know were possible. This cannot be allowed to stand. Nico, you’re certain you don’t know anything about them or how they came to be here?”
“I’m as shocked as you are,” he said. “I’ve been busy with Hazel. Something must have happened after I left the Underworld.”
“I can’t afford for Annabeth to disappear now,” Juno said. “We are at a crucial juncture in our preparations.”
“I’ll track her down for you,” Nico said, frowning.
“You’ll do no such thing,” Juno said. “Wait for my orders, and don’t even think about causing me any more problems! You have taxed my patience to the absolute limit. Any other infractions, and you will rue the day you were born!”
“Understood,” Nico said quietly, bowing his head.
“You,” Juno said, snapping her fingers at Ganymede. “Go with him and make sure he doesn’t go after her. He’s disobedient and a liar. I don’t trust him.”
“Okay,” Ganymede said.
She snapped her fingers, and she and Jupiter disappeared.
Nico heaved a deep sigh. He looked tired and worried. Hazel felt awful about the situation, even though she had no idea what she could have done differently to prevent it.
“Come on. Let’s go home, and I’ll explain what happened,” Nico said. “Sorry for the trouble, Ganymede.”
“It’s no problem,” Ganymede said, although he looked uncomfortable.
Nico brought them both back to the villa, where he told Hazel the story while he cooked them spaghetti for dinner. She and Ganymede sat at the counter while he stirred the sauce on the stove.
“I was watching from really far away, so I didn’t know there was a problem until I saw a fight break out. When I got there, you were gone and Caligula was trying to kill Annabeth. Jupiter saved her life, but I couldn’t find you. I knew you were still alive, but that was about it. Caligula attacked me as soon as he saw me,” Nico said. “Juno saved me, and Mithras convinced Caligula to go back to his yacht.”
“Poor guy really took one for the team. He’ll be stuck partying all night with that nutcase,” Ganymede said, trying to lighten the mood. Nico flashed him a grateful smile.
“By the time things calmed down, Annabeth and those three guys were gone. They slipped out in the chaos. I guess she knows them from somewhere,” Nico said.
“Luke Castellan and Ethan Nakamura,” Ganymede said. “They were the two most prominent demigods who served Kronos in the last war. Both turned on him at the last minute and were killed helping us win. Depending on who you ask, Luke was the real hero of the prophecy. Percy only got the credit because he survived and Luke didn’t.”
“She just left with them?” Hazel said. “Did she say anything about why?”
Nico shook his head. He set a plate of spaghetti in front of her and Ganymede, garnishing both plates with a sprig of fresh basil. Hazel appreciated that he cared about small stuff like that in spite of the stressful moment. He’d even sprinkled a little bit of parmesan on top for her.
“I can’t believe she’d ditch us like that,” Nico said. “It’s really disappointing. It’s a good thing you’re here, or I really would be hunting her down,” Nico said to Ganymede. The god raised his eyebrows and said nothing. “I guess I have enough on my plate,” Nico admitted, sitting at the counter with them.
Hazel found the remark a little ironic, because Nico hadn’t taken any spaghetti for himself. It seemed like he was going to have a bottle of red wine for dinner.
“Did he hurt you?” She asked.
“Who?”
“Caligula,” Hazel said, thinking that should have been obvious. “He seemed powerful.” She had no idea how Nico stacked up against other gods in terms of strength, but he was younger and less experienced, and she worried that left him at a disadvantage. She couldn’t stand thinking of him getting hurt for her sake.
“Don’t worry about me. I’m good at not getting killed by gods. It’s a gift,” he said.
“Do you two know each other?” Hazel asked.
“Yeah. I worked for him and two other emperors over the summer. It was a hostile work environment. Ended badly. I’d rather not talk about it,” Nico said, finishing his glass of wine and refilling it. “Shit, I’m so sorry,” he said suddenly, running to the wine fridge and picking out another bottle. He opened it and hurried to pour Ganymede a glass.
“I was about to say…” Ganymede smirked.
“I’m the worst. I’m so rude, I’m sorry,” Nico said. “Ugh. What’s the matter with me?”
“It’s okay,” Ganymede said kindly. “I know you respect me. And you’ve had a long day. It’s been a while since we’ve hung out,” he added.
“Way too long,” Nico said. “Things have been crazy lately. First my internship, then the new job, then Hazel. It’s non-stop.”
“It’ll only get worse from here,” Ganymede said. “We have a tough year ahead.”
“Why?” Hazel asked. She noticed Nico and Ganymede exchange a glance.
“Bad things are stirring,” Ganymede said. “Everyone’s on edge. Nothing you need to worry about. How about this pasta? I think you were a chef in a past life, Nico!”
“It’s nothing, really,” he said, looking slightly proud of himself. “I--”
There was a loud bang. They turned to look, and saw that a tall, winged figure with long, stringy blonde hair was glaring at them through the patio glass. He looked like a very angry seagull with glowing golden eyes.
He made eye contact with Nico and jerked his head, indicated that he wanted to talk to him outside.
Nico hurried outside, shutting the door behind him.
Thanatos started talking rapidly, his body language making it look like he was berating Nico for something. In the cheap houses Hazel had grown up in, it had been easy to press an ear to the wall to hear the neighbors’ arguments, but in the sturdy Amalfi villa, she had to improvise.
“I’m going upstairs to eavesdrop,” she said.
“I’m coming with you,” Ganymede said, eyes glinting with amusement.
They both snuck upstairs to Hazel’s room, which overlooked the patio deck. She opened the window, and she and Ganymede leaned out and listened.
“The doors are wide open!” Thanatos said. “What were you thinking? The dead are just walking out!”
“No they’re not, they can’t swim through the Styx,” Nico said.
“The Styx doors are the same as all the other doors, you idiot,” Thanatos said. “If one is open, they all are!”
“And how was I supposed to know that?” Nico said. “Why didn’t you just close them?”
“I don’t have the key, you have it!”
“I don’t have it,” Nico said, “I don’t know where it is.”
“What do you mean you don’t know where it is?!” Thanatos said, grabbing Nico by the shoulders and shaking him. “Do you have any idea what you’ve done?”
“You were the one who gave it to me!” Nico said. “You didn’t give me any instructions!”
“You need instructions on how not to lose something? Are you that stupid?” Thanatos let go of him and ran his hands over his face, groaning. “This is so bad. You have no idea how bad this is.”
“I think I left it in the door,” Nico said worriedly.
“You left it in the door?” Thanatos yelled.
“I think I did! I’m not sure,” Nico said. “Did you check to see if it’s still there?”
“Of course I checked!” Thanatos yelled, pulling at his hair like he wanted to yank it out. He kept opening and closing his wings like it was a stress reflex. “It’s gone,” he said. “And it looks like Gaea has learned how to use the doors.”
Hazel gasped, and she and Ganymede had to duck back inside the window when Nico and Thanatos looked up to see what the sound was.
“She’s the one who’s-- Luke and Ethan,” Nico said. “Of course.”
“Who?”
“Demigods that served Kronos. She’s recruiting among the ranks of the dead. She must have someone going around Asphodel making offers,” Nico said. “That’s just disgusting.”
“It’s worse than that. There’s a set of doors in Tartarus,” Thanatos said. “Doors that are now open,” he added significantly. “And I can’t close them without the key!”
Nico stared at the ground in silence for a second.
“You are in so much trouble,” Thanatos said.
“I’m in trouble? How was I supposed to know the doors were connected?” Nico asked. “You’re the one who gave me the key!”
“Really? You’re going to blame me?”
“You quit!” Nico shouted. “You abandoned your duties! I’m not the god of death, you are!”
Thanatos flinched.
“Well, you’re certainly not the god of closing doors behind yourself,” he muttered. “My mother isn’t going to let me be blamed. She knows I’ve been struggling with my mental health lately.”
“When he finds out, my dad will just kill me, and the rest of his rage will be left for you. Everyone thinks I’m just a crazy, disobedient demigod. What kind of god hands someone like that the key to death itself?”
“I am not going down for this,” Thanatos hissed.
“Neither am I,” Nico also hissed.
“No,” Thanatos said. “I quit. It’s not my problem.”
“How is going to look when they find out you were at a card game tournament while shades were escaping?” Nico said.
Thanatos opened his eyes.
“You were the one who taught me to play,” Thanatos said. He sounded actually hurt that Nico would bring that up. “You’d really tell them?”
Nico met his eyes.
“No, of course not,” he sighed. “I don’t want to rat you out, but I don’t think it matters. I think we’re both fucked either way.”
“I’d rather not rat you out, either. But you’re right, they’ll blame us both. It’s better Olympus not know about this at all,” Thanatos said.
“Then we need to fix it on our own,” Nico said. “How do we do that?”
“If I knew that, I wouldn’t be here talking to you,” Thanatos snapped. “I told you, I can’t close them. The key could be literally anywhere.”
“I think I have an idea,” Nico said. “One second.”
He disappeared.
“You can’t tell anyone what you just heard,” Nico said gravely.
Hazel and Ganymede spun around. Nico was standing in the doorway to Hazel’s bedroom.
“You almost gave me a heart attack,” Hazel gasped. “Nico, what’s going on? Can I help?”
“Ganymede, can you do me a huge favor and watch her for a while?” Nico asked, putting his hands together imploringly. “I wouldn’t ask if this wasn’t important.”
“I can spare a few hours,” Ganymede said.
“You can’t tell Zeus about this,” Nico added. “It would cause chaos. If Thanatos and I are put on trial on Olympus, we won’t be able to fix the problem. I think we can make this right before it gets out of control.”
“I wouldn’t know what to tell him,” Ganymede said. “I don’t know what doors you’re talking about.”
“That’s perfect,” Nico said. “Thank you so much. I owe you.”
“Nico!” Thanatos shouted from the patio.
“I’m coming!” Nico yelled back. “Ugh. See you guys. Be safe, Hazel. If you see a party yacht in the harbor, take my car and get out of here,” he added, disappearing.
Hazel and Ganymede stood in stunned silence for a moment, neither knowing what to say.
“I don’t know how to drive,” she said, finally breaking the silence.
Ganymede chuckled.
“Caligula should be occupied all night,” he said. “But I would leave tomorrow, if I were you. I’m sure he’ll be back for revenge by then.” He sat down on Hazel’s bed and looked around her room. “Nice place. Does he own it?”
“I think he just rented it,” she said. She looked at her shopping bags, which were set neatly on her bedroom floor, and decided to put her clothes away in the closet. Maybe she’d need to pack them again the next morning, but it gave her something to do with her hands. “But who knows,” she added. “He’s spending a lot of money on me.”
Her eyes welled up with tears.
“You okay?” Ganymede asked kindly.
She nodded, continuing to put shirts on hangers.
“I’m just scared. Hearing that Gaea is active again, and that Nico might get in trouble… I don’t want something bad to happen to him. Caligula attacked him today. He could have been hurt.”
“Oh, honey,” Ganymede sighed. “That’s not what happened.”
She turned around, confused.
“What do you mean?”
“Nico attacked Caligula, not the other way around,” Ganymede said. “He thought he’d hurt you. He tried to kill him.”
Hazel’s mouth went dry.
“I was scared for Nico at first,” Ganymede said, laying down on her bed and staring at the ceiling. “Until I wasn’t. He had the element of surprise in his favor, and I guess being in a cave helped, too, but… Nico probably could have won that fight.”
Hazel felt a surge of pride well up in her chest. Of course he would have. Nico surely had powers she couldn’t even imagine, and he was smart, and strong, and fast. He was capable of anything.
“He brought the roof of the cave down on top of Caligula and used shadows to make a kind of net over him. Caligula’s spears went right through his body like he wasn’t even there. He had him pinned down pretty well, although Caligula is a nasty fighter when he’s cornered, so he might have gotten some lucky shots in if no one had intervened. It was really something to see.”
“He said Juno had to save him, though?”
“She tackled him in order to pry him off of Caligula. Nico’s not stupid; he let her hold him back once he realized she wasn’t letting it continue. Jupiter dragged Caligula off by the scruff like a feral cat he found behind a dumpster. That part was kind of funny; you should have heard him screeching. He was totally humiliated. Fortunately, he didn’t make any trouble after that, and he let Mithras escort him off the island. Deified emperors are surprisingly docile when Jupiter deigns to interact with them. A mortal lifetime of religious education is hard to overcome, I guess.”
“I hope we can avoid Caligula in the future,” Hazel said. “I don’t want him to be the one to surprise us next time.”
“No, you should definitely be careful,” Ganymede agreed. “By the way, did you know that Nico had a Stygian Iron sword?” Ganymede asked. “Do you know anything about how he got it? Zeus will be sure to ask me when I get home.”
Hazel shook her head.
“I’ve never even seen it,” she said.
“That’s one of the few materials that can kill a god. Only the children of Hades are permitted to wield it as a weapon. It’s sort of a joke on Olympus, because Hades rarely has kids, so it was always more of a hypothetical weapon than one to worry about. That was my first time seeing it in person.”
“Hades has two children now,” Hazel said.
“Yeah,” Ganymede said, dragging the word out slowly. “I think it’s just beginning to dawn on Zeus how bad that is for him.”
“Why is it bad?”
“Keeping his brothers in check is something he always has to worry about, and Hades is the more ambitious one. He’s never hesitated to tell Zeus, loudly, in front of everybody, that he was mismanaging Olympus. Sometimes he’s right, and sometimes he’s just being an asshole,” Ganymede said. “He was uninvited from most family functions for that reason long before he decided to cut us off.”
“Nico calls people out, too,” Hazel said. “He’s not afraid of confrontation.”
“Zeus doesn’t like to be challenged,” Ganymede said. “For now, Hera feels like she needs Nico alive. She has plans for him. But if that were to ever change, I worry for his safety. I only have so much sway with Zeus. At the end of the day, he’s going to do what he feels is necessary to protect what’s his. That’s his right as ruler of the gods. And he’s already tried to kill Nico once.”
“But Nico is immortal, right?” Hazel said. “Why would Zeus bother trying to kill him if it wasn’t possible?”
Ganymede sat up and looked at her.
“What are you talking about,” he said slowly.
“Nothing?” Hazel said, realizing she’d said too much.
“Has something happened that Olympus doesn’t know about?” Ganymede asked.
“I-- I don’t-- No?”
She started hyperventilating and sat on the floor. Ganymede went over to her, but her ears were ringing and she couldn’t hear what he was saying.
Was this it? Zeus would make Nico’s life, immortal or not, a living hell because she couldn’t keep her mouth shut? She wasn’t worth resurrecting. Everything Nico was doing for her was a waste of his time, because she was worthless.
“Don’t be sad,” Ganymede said, patting her on the head like she was a dog. “These things get out eventually. I kind of suspected, anyway. I promise if someone on Olympus has to be the first to know, it’s best if it’s me.”
“Really?” She asked. She felt a tiny beam of hope shine past her crappy feelings of guilt and despair.
“Nico and I are friends,” Ganymede said. “And I suspected ever since he told me he’d ‘overdosed’ on ambrosia. That’s literally how you become immortal. Anyone with a brain could put two and two together on that one.”
“Mhm,” Hazel said, swallowing. She didn’t know anything about an ambrosia overdose, but it made sense.
“I also noticed that in the two years or so that I’ve known him, he hasn’t aged at all,” Ganymede said. “At least physically. Usually teenagers change a lot in that span of time.”
“I don’t know anything,” she said. “I could be just making this up. I’ve only known Nico a couple of days, and I swear on my old life and my new one, he’s never said anything to me about it.”
“Then why say it at all?”
“I guess I thought it was obvious,” she said. “When I met him in Asphodel, I thought he was a god.”
“No, honey, not a god,” Ganymede said. “A very powerful demigod, or most likely an immortal with superhuman ability. It’s not impossible that he’s a god, but it’s unlikely. He doesn’t have any worshippers.”
“Oh,” Hazel said, disappointed to hear that. “That’s part of it, huh?”
“I mean, everyone has different opinions on that, but I kind of think so,” Ganymede said. “I became immortal when Zeus snatched me up off Mount Ida and so forth. He announced me as a god the same day, but I personally feel like my godhood came in slowly, as I became part of the culture in the mortal world. I might be biased based on my own experience, though. We’re all unique little snowflakes.”
Hazel had trusted so much in her gut instinct back in the Underworld. She’d looked at Nico and seen a god. Now she wondered if she even really knew what a god was. The more she thought about it, the more confused she got.
Ganymede’s phone started vibrating.
“Gotta take this,” he said. “Zeusy! Hi, babe! Yes, I asked about the sword.”
He went out into the hall and headed downstairs to talk, leaving Hazel in the dark bedroom alone. She laid down on the rug and closed her eyes. What a weird day. What a weird situation. What a strange and fascinating life she had come back to.
She hoped Nico was okay. She hoped he could close the doors and that he wouldn’t get in trouble. More than anything, she hoped he’d be safe. And if becoming a god would make him safer, she wanted that for him, too.
She opened her eyes, remembering what Ganymede had said. Gods were born when people worshipped them.
That was one problem she might be able to solve.
Chapter Text
Nico and Thanatos traveled to the river Styx, where the Doors of Death loomed tall and black above the dark water. They were wide open.
Thanatos hovered in front of them, beating his wings slowly and glaring at the open doors and at Nico in turn. They both knew that if they didn’t get the doors shut soon, they were screwed.
Nico had no choice but to dive into the Styx and dig around the gravel on the bottom looking for the keystone. The water at the doors was deep enough to reach his shoulders, so he had to hold his breath and submerge himself over and over trying to find it. He couldn’t see anything, and his hand kept scraping against jagged edges of bones and catching on lost rings and necklaces. He never felt anything that felt like the thick triangular key he’d left slotted in the indentation on the door.
“It’s not here,” he said, emerging from the water. He reached out his hand, and Thanatos grabbed it, dragging him up to where he hovered in the air.
Nico created a hardened platform of shadow and sat on it, hanging his head, exhausted. Sitting cross legged, he stared at the doors, reaching out and touching their Stygian iron surface. It was engraved with strange carvings and symbols that he didn’t recognize from anything Hecate had taught him.
“I can’t keep searching down there. It feels like my skin is going to burn off,” he said.
“You think I don’t know how it feels? I already looked myself, and for longer than you did,” Thanatos said angrily. He folded his arms across his chest, his wing feathers ruffled in irritation. “The river obviously swept it away. It could be anywhere by now.”
“I’d better at least be invulnerable after all this swimming,” Nico said.
“It doesn’t work that way. Someone has to hold onto you,” Thanatos said. “And I’m not volunteering. I don’t like to be touched.” He deliberately wiped his hand on his mantle where it had touched Nico’s hand earlier.
“I know how the curse of Achilles works,” Nico said. “That was an attempt at a joke.”
“I don’t know how you can joke at a time like this,” Thanatos snapped.
“Well, it wasn’t a good joke,” Nico said. He rubbed his eyes. Thanatos was understandably stressed, as was Nico, but his attitude wasn’t making things any easier.
“Shh! Someone’s coming!” Thanatos said suddenly.
He and Nico both turned invisible just before a dark female figure rose up from the water.
“I know you’re here, Thanatos,” Styx called out, her face, lips and eyes all gleaming in various shades of wet, oily black. She looked around suspiciously. “If you don’t want mother hearing about you and Nico using me as a swimming pool, you’d better explain yourself.”
Thanatos revealed himself, and Nico followed suit.
“Hello, sister,” he sighed.
“What’s with all the splashing around? Is the searing agony not making it clear that this is private property? Stay the hell out of me!”
Thanatos rolled his eyes.
“We’re not doing it for fun. We’re looking for something, obviously,” he spat.
“What are you looking for?”
Nico almost answered eagerly that they were looking for the keystone, but Thanatos thwacked him in the head with his wing.
“That’s on a need to know basis,” Thanatos said. “Would you leave us alone? You’re annoying me.”
“Was that door always open?” She asked, looking at it curiously. “Normally I don’t even notice it, but it’s been very there lately.”
“It’s always been like that,” Nico said.
“Uh huh. Sure.” She squinted at him. “You know, usually when someone makes your sister invulnerable, that someone expects a thank you card in return,” she said. “Thetis sent a lovely fruit basket. But I suppose you think you’re above that sort of thing, son of Hades. Maybe I ought to remind your father to teach you some manners.”
“It’s funny you bring that up, because I just put the card in the mail,” Nico said, smiling nervously. “It’ll be here any day now.”
“I look forward to it,” she glared. “I’d help you find what you’re looking for, brother, but you’ll have to tell me what it is.”
“Absolutely not,” Thanatos said flatly. “We don’t need your help.”
“Fine,” she said, looking furious. “But if you get one single feather wet in my waters again, you’re going to wish that a burning sensation was your only concern.”
She sank back into the dark water and disappeared.
“We can’t let her know what we lost, you idiot,” Thanatos said. “What are you thinking? Do you want to get caught?”
“Maybe she’d keep it a secret,” Nico suggested. “We could make a deal with her.”
“With our lives on the line? We cannot trust anyone,” Thanatos said. “I don’t even want to trust you, but unfortunately I have no choice.”
“My gods, would you stop being such an ass?” Nico snapped. “When have I ever given you a reason not to trust me? I’ve always been nice to you, and now I see why everyone warned me to stay away.”
“If you had, we wouldn’t be in this mess,” Thanatos said.
“Yeah, and you’d be permanently asleep right now,” Nico said.
“Good. I’d prefer it.”
“Yeah, well, same here,” Nico said. He stood up on his shadow platform and stared at the doors, deep in thought. Tempting as it was to take out his worries on Thanatos, it was smarter to just solve the problem quickly so they could both go their separate ways.
“These are made of enchanted Stygian Iron,” he said, pressing his hand to the door.
“Obviously,” Thanatos droned.
“If I remember right, the key was, too,” Nico said. “If we got the iron and shaped it, could you enchant it and make a replacement key?”
“No,” Thanatos said. “My mother made the original key alongside Hades. It was one of their first joint projects when he moved down here. He worked the metal, and she performed the magic. I doubt I could recreate her spell on my own. More likely I’d destroy the doors trying.”
“I don’t know how to shape Stygian iron anyway,” Nico sighed. “My dad made my sword for me, I just did what he told me to do. I’m not destroying my weapons for the raw material unless I know it’ll work. If we find some random Stygian iron laying around, though, we should try just in case.”
“Fine,” Thanatos said. “But we won’t have time. We’ll be found out and put on trial any minute now. You’ll be made a happy little shade while I waste away in Tartarus.”
“They’re not getting rid of you until Hermes steps up and replaces you,” Nico said. “Which means they’re never getting rid of you. And who’s to say I wouldn’t get thrown in Tartarus, too?”
Thanatos shuddered.
“Let’s not speak of that place any longer. How much Stygian iron do you have, exactly?” Thanatos asked.
Nico showed him his three rings; one that became his sword, and Alabaster’s two curved knives.
“I don’t use them much,” he said.
“But you can manipulate the metal,” Thanatos said.
“When it’s finished, sure, but forging a keystone is a whole different thing.”
“That’s irrelevant,” Thanatos said. “Can you close the doors?”
Nico looked behind him.
“I thought the whole point of this was that we can’t close them without the key?”
“The key is what I use to open and close them, because I can’t move Stygian iron on my own, and they’re impossible to force. Hades is the only one who can move the iron, as lord of the metals of the earth. And I was certainly not going to ask him to do it.”
Nico reached out and touched the door. He closed it, both sides clanging together and making a dull ringing sound.
“Ha! That was easy,” he said, brushing off his hands. “Problem solved.”
“No it isn’t! The other doors are still open,” Thanatos said. “Forcing one set closed doesn’t magically close the others the way it would have if you’d used the key the way you were supposed to. There’s a reason we have procedures,” he huffed.
“Okay, so I’ll go close the others,” Nico said. “No big deal.”
“But you’re not locking them,” Thanatos said. “Gaea will simply open them up again; Stygian iron will pose no obstacle to her. Without the key, this is giving the appearance of a solved problem without actually solving anything.”
“Yeah, but if they’re closed, then we can’t get in trouble for leaving them open,” Nico said. “We can just say Gaea found a way to unlock them on her own. Which buys us time to make a new key without getting crucified for losing the first one.”
Thanatos absorbed this information.
“Right. Let’s go close them, quickly.”
He escorted Nico to each of the other door locations, of which there were about a dozen. There was one in Orpheus’s tunnel in Central Park, one at the Necromantion, one at the Plutonium, and others Nico hadn’t been aware of.
On Orpheus’s path, Nico noticed more footprints than there had been the last time he’d come through. He knelt in the dark sand and counted. He saw his own footprints, Alabaster’s and Niamh’s from a few months ago, and three sets of new ones. It looked like someone had met Luke and Ethan in the tunnel and led them back out to the surface; it must have been the blonde guy who’d sacrificed the bull in Capri.
“Gaea’s agents have been using this route to smuggle souls out of Asphodel,” he said. “How the hell did they sneak past the Furies? Not to mention Cerberus. They must have created some kind of distraction.”
“These resurrected demigods draw attention we don’t need,” Thanatos said. “Their appearance will be investigated. Hades is probably looking into it even now. It’s just a matter of time before he notices the open doors.”
“We just have to close them before he sees,” Nico said. “But once we’re done, I’m hunting down those demigods whether Hera likes it or not. The only person allowed to steal souls from my father is me. I’m cracking down on this bullshit before it goes any further.”
“How hypocritical of you,” Thanatos said coldly. “I suppose the laws of nature only apply when it doesn’t inconvenience your plans.”
“Yes, exactly,” Nico agreed.
“Hunting them down isn’t as simple as you make it sound,” Thanatos said. “Gaea has made them new bodies, so I can’t take their souls. It’s impossible to extract them from living people before their time.”
“It’s actually really easy,” Nico said. “You take a big rock and hit them in the head with it really hard. The soul will just pop right out.”
“Wow, what a brilliant idea, why didn’t I think of that?” Thanatos said. “While we’re at it, why don’t I just buy a gun and shoot them? The god of death can’t go around killing people, idiot. There’s procedures I have to follow.”
“I’ll do it myself,” Nico said. “I’m more than happy to commit some light murder if it fixes this mess. But that’s a problem for later. How many more doors do I have to close?”
“Only one more, but it’s in Tartarus,” Thanatos said. “We can’t get to it.”
“Why not?”
“Why not?” Thanatos said loudly, looking at Nico like he was talking nonsense. “Why not? Why do you think? Tartarus is an awful place and a worse person. He’s Gaea’s husband, too, and if he thinks we’re interfering with her plans, he’ll ensure we never leave, and-- Oh,” he said, pausing.
“Oh? What’s oh?” Nico asked nervously. He’d remembered that Tartarus was Gaea’s husband, but he was used to it being referred to as a place rather than a conscious being.
“When the door swung open and stayed that way, he must have been the one who told her,” Thanatos said. “I would be surprised if she wasn’t at the Tartarus gate right now, shepherding hordes of monsters back into the world. She’ll create an infinitely regenerative army. If she did that, she would be unstoppable.”
Nico stared into the black water of the little cave pool they stood next to. He wished it would suck him down inside and never let him go.
Thanatos ran his hands through his long, stringy hair and paced back and forth.
“This is fine,” he said, stopping and looking at Nico.
“It doesn’t sound fine,” Nico said. “It sounds really bad.”
“No, it’s fine. Here is my new plan. You will use your earth powers to dig me a tunnel to the center of the earth. You’ll make a cave for me there. You will put me inside and seal it up behind me. Then you’ll kill yourself with your Stygian sword so that my location dies with you.”
“We don’t… Ugh, this sucks. Okay, so, we don’t know that she’s bringing the monsters out yet,” Nico said weakly. “Maybe there’s still time to lock the door.”
“I doubt it.”
“Well, we have to try,” Nico said, taking a deep breath and trying to renew his fading determination. “We can catastrophize once we have no other choice. Okay? The war isn’t starting until May, and it’s only October. Seven months is a long time.”
Thanatos shook his head.
“It’s an instant,” he said. “This is hopeless. And you have no idea what you’re talking about.”
“No, you have no idea what you’re talking about,” Nico said angrily. “You’re not collecting souls anymore. You have control of your time now, so do something with it! Stop acting like a victim and start acting like the god of death. Gaea is messing with your doors. She’s stealing your souls. Get angry about it, don’t just run and hide from your responsibility! You’ve already done that once, and look where it got you!”
Thanatos glared at him, and started to respond, but Nico spoke over him.
“You’re the god here. You should be taking the lead on this. You can’t run away. I won’t let you.”
“You won’t let me?” Thanatos said.
“No. I won’t. We’re fixing this. Together.”
“And if we can’t?” Thanatos said. “If we fail and Gaea wins because of us?”
“Like I said, we’ll deal with it when we have no other choice,” Nico said. “Until then, we do what we can.”
Thanatos rubbed his face.
“If I wasn’t absolutely terrified, I’d try to get into Tartarus to see how bad it is at the doors,” he said.
“I’ll go with you,” Nico said.
“No,” Thanatos said. “No, that’s… You don’t know what you’re offering.”
“I’ll go,” Nico said. “I’m not scared. I’ll do whatever it takes.”
He was scared, but he tried not to show it. Thanatos needed all the encouragement he could get. Nico was still worried he’d make a run for it and leave him to pick up the pieces.
“A demigod would be mentally destroyed by Tartarus,” Thanatos said. “Mortal minds can’t cope with the horror of the place. My mental health is already at rock bottom, so I doubt a visit to my uncle will do me much harm at this point. I’ll do it alone.”
“Okay,” Nico said. “Sounds like a plan. Hera’s forbidden me to go after those resurrected demigods, but she doesn’t know the full scope of the situation. I’ll have to kill them behind her back and make sure they don’t escape again. I’ll try to get some Stygian iron, too, so we can work on another key.”
Thanatos nodded.
“Alright. That’s enough for now. I have to go and prepare as best I can for Tartarus.”
“Good luck,” Nico said. “I’ll be waiting.”
Thanatos gave him a look just before he flickered out of existence, but Nico wasn’t sure what the look was supposed to me. Was he angry? Annoyed? Scared? Probably all of the above. Nico wondered whether his pep talk had been a good idea. If they failed, they might regret not running while they had the chance. He’d never leave Hazel, but thrusting her into an unwinnable war didn’t do her any favors, either.
But Gaea was the goddess of the earth itself. Unless they wanted to live on the International Space Station, she’d find them eventually. Better to stay and fight as long as they could.
He needed to get home to Hazel, but the weight of his anxiety over the situation made him feel desperate to do something, anything, more in order to make some progress. He decided to sneak into the palace and look around for some extra Stygian iron to practice on.
He shadow traveled up to the palace invisibly. It seemed as quiet as always. He hadn’t been away long enough to grow homesick; it had only been a few days. Still, he found his feet moving right back towards his room despite having no reason to go there.
He stopped outside in the hall. Hades was coming towards him. He seemed preoccupied, and didn’t appear to notice Nico.
“Cerberus,” Hades called out. “Cerby? Where did you go?”
There was a whining noise that came from Nico’s room. Hades went to investigate, and Nico snuck in behind him.
Cerberus was lying on Nico’s bed with a pillow in his mouth, chewing on it like a toy. It was both gross and cute at the same time.
“There you are,” Hades said, going over to him and patting the nearest head. “Poor baby,” he said, kissing Cerberus on the top of each of his heads in turn. “You miss him, don’t you?”
Cerberus whined, looking up at his master pitifully with six sad brown eyes.
“I know, but you can’t keep hiding away in here. The gates still need guarding,” Hades said, gently prying the pillow out of Cerberus’s mouth. “Come along, let’s get you a bone. You’ll feel better.”
Cerberus trotted away behind Hades. When he walked past Nico, he started sniffing eagerly and whining with excitement, but Hades called him again, and he left Nico behind.
Nico went over to his bed and sat down, struggling to hold back tears. Poor Cerberus was distraught, and he’d never had the chance to say goodbye. Hazel needed him for now, but was there ever a route to coming home one day? So much had changed, and yet so little at the same time. He thought his father could forgive him. He was only a foolish mortal, after all, one who’d lost his way and was trying to redeem himself.
Could he forgive Hades? He wasn’t sure. He didn’t hate him. He’d certainly been angrier in the past over other things than he felt now. He’d treated Bianca terribly, and Hades had been right to protect her from Nico. Then again, if their father had intervened sooner to help them navigate their issues, they might not have had such an ugly confrontation when they’d finally met.
It was complicated. It had always been complicated, but now, Nico had Hazel to think about. It was simpler to keep some distance between him and his dad for the time being and focus on helping Hazel.
He wiped his eyes and glanced around the room, but there was no Stygian iron and nothing he needed at the moment. He was done in the Underworld for the moment.
Nico got back to the Amalfi villa just before sunrise. He checked on Hazel first, and found her snoring peacefully in her bed.
She looked small and sweet while she was sleeping. Nico smiled at her fondly, then shut the door as quietly as he could, glad she was safe and sound.
He found Ganymede in the basement theater watching Selling Sunset and eating popcorn.
“Hi,” he said, sitting down next to his friend. “Thank you for looking after Hazel.”
“No worries,” Ganymede said, grinning with his usual careless smile. “Did you figure out your door problem?”
“Yep,” Nico said. “All fixed. We shouldn’t have any more issues.” With the exception of the one in Tartarus, and the fact that they weren’t locked. But Ganymede didn’t need to know about that part.
“I talked to Zeus,” Ganymede said. “He and Hera wanted to keep it quiet, but somehow everyone found out about the new resurrections. I didn’t want them to blame you for it, but… They’re definitely blaming you for it. Hermes found out about Luke, and he’s really upset.”
“Upset? Why?”
“He took a lot of flack for it being his son at Kronos’ right hand. When Luke defected at the last minute, it got him a reprieve from being held responsible. Now that it looks like Luke might be working for Gaea, he’s in hot water all over again. Athena is also claiming that Luke kidnapped Annabeth.”
“You saw her leave with him by choice just as clearly as I did,” Nico said.
“Sure, but Athena will never admit that,” Ganymede sighed. “I’d better go now that you’re back. I have my usual family cleanup to do.”
“They’d fall apart without you,” Nico said.
“Honestly, putting a white wine spritzer in Hera’s hand at the right moment works wonders,” Ganymede said. “I’ll never get them into therapy, so I have to work with what I’ve got.”
Nico and Ganymede chatted a little bit longer before Ganymede had to leave, and Nico was reminded how much he liked his old friend. Still, there was a lingering feeling between them that he didn’t understand. He noticed Ganymede looking at him like he was examining Nico, almost like he suspected him of something. He never said anything, so Nico let it go.
He went back up the stairs and summoned Minos.
“Want to watch the sunrise together?” Nico asked.
Minos followed him up to his bedroom where he had a balcony overlooking the sea. Far off in the distance, he saw a party yacht creeping closer and closer to Amalfi.
“Looks like our time is almost over,” Nico said as Minos put his arm around his shoulders. “Feels like we just got here.”
“It’s a beautiful place,” Minos said, smiling. “Where will you go next? Will you take Hazel to camp?”
“No, definitely not,” Nico said. “I’m not handing her over to a bunch of strangers. I’m training her myself. Will you help me?”
“Of course,” Minos said. “Just tell me what to do.”
“Thanks,” Nico said, snuggling up against his boyfriend. Minos made everything so easy for him. He never argued or snapped at Nico, he never criticized him or raised his voice. After spending all night stuck with grumpy Thanatos, it was refreshing to be with someone so calm and compliant.
Maybe, just maybe, part of Nico was slightly bored by Minos. But he pushed that thought away, kissing Minos instead to cement the idea in his mind that he was happy with his partner, and he wasn’t missing out on anything.
“You know, we still have a little time before Caligula’s yacht gets here,” Nico said. “And Hazel won’t be awake for a while.” He tugged on Minos’ chiton, pulling him back towards his bedroom.
“Yes, she’ll need to be woken up if we wish to leave on time,” Minos said.
“Right, but that’s not what I’m getting at,” Nico said. “Come here. Kiss me.”
“Okay,” Minos said mildly, taking a step towards him.
Nico gritted his teeth. He put his hands on Minos’ chest, pushing him away.
“’Okay’ wasn’t really the response I wanted,” Nico said.
“Sorry. What would you like me to say?” Minos asked calmly.
“Can you act a little bit more excited, please?” Nico said. “I don’t want to have to feed you lines. I want to feel like you actually want me and you’re not just following orders.”
Minos nodded. “I understand. I apologize, but being on the surface is disorienting for me. Maybe if we were at home, I’d sound a little more convincing.”
“Convincing?” Nico said. “What’s that supposed to mean?”
“Obviously I have exaggerated my enjoyment of certain things in order to please you,” Minos shrugged. “We both know that, don’t we?”
Nico had known that. He was alive and Minos was dead. If they weren’t willing to compromise on some things, their relationship wouldn’t have worked. Nico was willing to compromise, usually.
But right now he didn’t feel like it.
“You know what, forget it,” Nico said. “I don’t want you to do anything you don’t want to do. If you want me, you have to show it. No more exaggerating.”
Minos looked at him sadly.
“I think you are the one exaggerating now, dear,” Minos said softly. “You know how I feel about you.”
“I do, but...”
Nico felt like a selfish jerk. Demanding a ghost pretend to have living desires for his own gratification was just pathetic. He ought to appreciate his boyfriend exactly the way he was, and be content with that.
“Sorry,” he mumbled. “I’m not sure what I’m upset about.”
“I have said many times that you ought to be with someone who has more to offer than I do,” Minos said. “Perhaps it is time you sought out a partner that you have more in common with.”
“No. No way, absolutely not,” Nico said, shaking his head firmly. “It’s you and me. Forever. End of story. I’m just being weird.”
Minos smiled at him, and Nico tried to read in his face what he might be feeling. His feelings might have been dull and watery compared to Nico’s burning, bleeding passions, but when it came down to it, he loved Nico. It wasn’t the same, but it was enough. Right?
“Hello?” Hazel called out. “Is anyone here? Ganymede? Nico? Somebody?”
Nico hurried into the hall, where he saw Hazel standing bleary-eyed in her pajamas.
“Oh, thank goodness,” she said, hugging him. “I saw the yacht in the bay and thought I was going to have to teach myself to drive that crazy car of yours.”
“Not today,” Nico said. “Go get your stuff. We’re leaving soon.”
“Where are we going?” She asked.
“I don’t want to spoil the surprise.”
She packed up the car with her things, and Nico instructed her and Minos to sit in the seats. Nico stood in front of the car and pressed his hand against the hood.
He took one last glance at Amalfi, and the yacht steadily approaching town, and he whisked his car away into darkness.
He’d picked out the location in advance on his phone. They were in a parking lot on the outskirts of a moderately sized town.
“Where are we?” Hazel asked, looking around. The parking lot was attached to a small grocery store. “Lidl? What language is that?”
“No idea, but that’s irrelevant. Welcome to Crete!” Nico announced.
Minos looked genuinely shocked.
“You brought me home,” he said quietly. “You really didn’t have to do that.” He looked around as though searching for a familiar landmark and not finding one.
“Wait until I explain,” Nico said, thrilled with his decision to take them there. “We’re in a town called Chania! It used to be called Kydonia, Minos, do you remember it?”
“I know it,” Minos said. “Although it looks very strange.”
“Well, once we get out of this parking lot, it might be better. A few hundred years ago, Chania was actually a Venetian colony!” Nico said. “Isn’t that cool?”
“That your people conquered mine? I’m not sure cool is the word that comes to mind,” Minos said, looking genuinely disappointed.
“Oh, it’s not like that,” Nico reassured him. “Your people, who were called the Minoans, were long gone by the time mine got here.”
Minos’ face fell.
“Where did the Minoans go?”
“Nobody knows,” Nico said. “It’s called the bronze age collapse.”
“Collapse? Was that my fault?”
“No! Oh my gods,” Nico said, exasperated. “I’m sorry, but it’s been thousands of years, and I’m not a historian, so I have no idea. I’m sure it wasn’t your fault.”
Minos looked deeply saddened. Nico was blindsided; he hadn’t expected Minos to be so uninformed about the fate of Crete. He must have gone thousands of years deliberately not asking anyone about what had happened after he’d died.
“Don’t be sad, okay, I can look into it, maybe there’s a good explanation for why it’s not your fault,” Nico said, knowing he wasn’t going to find any explanation of the sort.
He swallowed, feeling a lump of anxiety in his stomach. It wasn’t easy to upset Minos, but he might have seriously screwed up with this idea. Maybe Minos wanted his memories of Crete untainted. Nico hadn’t had the guts to go back to Venice after eighty years of change. He did have a lot of nerve making Minos look at a Crete he didn’t recognize when Nico was too cowardly to do the same.
He met eyes with Hazel, who mouthed, ‘Nice,’ at him.
Deciding it was best to push forward, he drove into the town of Chania, where he found a nice restaurant overlooking the harbor. The three of them sat down to a breakfast of omelets, cheese and fennel pastries, and fresh juice and coffee.
Minos had little interest in food, but Hazel ate ravenously. Nico borrowed a pen from the waiter and began scribbling on a napkin, his face screwed up in concentration.
“You writing a novel over there?” Hazel asked.
“I’m writing you a training plan,” Nico said. “I have tons of ideas, but I’m narrowing it down to what I think we can achieve before spring.”
“What’s in spring?”
“Nothing,” he said quickly.
“Nico,” she sighed. “I trust you, but I’m not stupid. Something is happening in spring. Is that what Hera was worried about?”
“A little,” Nico admitted. “I just can’t tell you right now. I’m sorry.”
“Does it have something to do with Gaea?” Hazel asked.
Nico took her hand.
“You’ve got nothing to be worried about,” he said, looking into her eyes. “I promise, whatever comes, you’ll be ready for it. You’re not alone this time.”
She nodded, and he slid the napkin over to her.
“One,” Nico read aloud. “Combat training. Minos is going to start sparring with you every day. When you have the basics down, we’ll find other people for you to fight.”
“Other people?”
“We’ll tackle that when we come to it,” he said. “Two. Magic training. I’ll try to get Hecate to help out, but I think she’s busy with work right now, so this will be mostly me. Three, shadow travel and intangibility. Also me. Four, general demigod education. Also me.”
“That’s a lot to ask of you,” Hazel said. “I know you have other responsibilities.”
“You’re my priority,” Nico said.
She looked over the napkin.
“Monster hunting?” Hazel read aloud. “Environmental training? What’s that?”
“More advanced stuff.”
“What about breaking my curse?”
“We can break your curse later,” Nico said. “I’m not taking away abilities without giving you more to replace them.”
“My curse causes me a lot of stress,” she said, scooping up a sapphire from the ground under their table before an unsuspecting waitress grabbed it. “See? I’m stressing.”
“Give me that,” Nico said, pocketing the sapphire. “Hazel, what if you’re captured by monsters and a cursed gem is the only thing you have to your advantage? It’s useful. You’re just going to have to start seeing the applications in a new light.”
Hazel wasn’t happy about that, but Nico hoped she’d turn her attitude around once they got the training started in earnest. He wanted to make her as strong as possible, and once she learned how good it felt to be confident and powerful like he was, she’d thank him for his help.
As they sat at the table, he rented another house online, this one smaller and less assuming than the Amalfi villa had been. It was a white two-bedroom home on the outskirts of town that overlooked the ocean, with no pool other than the sea.
They headed over after their meal and Hazel moved her stuff into her new room. Nico warded the house thoroughly. This time he made Hazel watch him as he explained everything he was doing in detail.
“Hecate taught me that magic is 99% confidence,” he said. “If you don’t think you can do it, it won’t work.”
“Then I guess I’m out of luck,” she said glumly.
“You’ll get it eventually,” he said. “I have total faith in you.”
He made Hazel a practice sword from stone and directed her and Minos to practice on the roof until lunch. When he came to check on her, she was drenched in sweat and was lumped over with exhaustion, but seemed to be okay otherwise. He brought her a sandwich, a soda, and a stack of books.
“I ran into town and picked these up for you,” he said. “Ancient Greek 101, Latin 101, and a complete Encyclopedia of Mythology.”
She stared at the textbooks, her face a mask of horror.
“I was never any good at school,” she said.
“I don’t expect perfection,” he said. “I’m awful at Ancient Greek. There’s a lot of archaic slang terms I still don’t understand.”
“Archaic slang terms? I don’t even know how to say hello,” she said. “I know some French and Cajun. Can I switch to those?”
“No. But knowing French is great. Latin should be easy for you, since they’re both romance languages.” He said. “Go ahead and get started. Once you’ve finished these easy books, we can move on to the hard stuff.”
She took the books back to her room and shut the door without another word, and he and Minos went to sit out on the rocks by the sea.
“Does it look familiar?” Nico nudged him.
“This does, yes,” Minos said. He was just staring at the water.
“Be honest. Are you upset? Do you want to leave?”
Minos was silent for a while.
“I don’t know,” he said. “I have a lot on my mind. Memories are returning that I haven’t thought about in thousands of years. It’s not bad, just overwhelming.”
“If you want to go somewhere else, let me know,” Nico said.
“I’m okay,” Minos said flatly. “I always am.”
“Right,” Nico said. He wasn’t sure what was wrong with him, but he felt disappointed. Some sick impulse had made him want to get a reaction out of Minos, and he’d rather it was a bad reaction than none at all. Still, he looked into Minos’ face and saw very little change from before.
Minos gave him a look, and Nico knew his boyfriend could see right through him.
“I appreciate your thoughtfulness in bringing me home,” Minos said. “But if you were hoping this would spark a flame of romantic passion in me, you may have expected too much.”
“Not at all,” Nico said, trying to act casual. “I mean, that’s just silly, right? I would never want you to change who you are. I just thought it might give us some interesting things to talk about.”
“That it has,” Minos said. “I’ll have more to say once I’ve organized my thoughts. By the way,” he said. “Hazel has strong warrior instincts. I can tell she has not had an easy life. She makes no assumptions and takes nothing for granted. And she is not afraid of hard work.”
“I knew she’d be amazing,” Nico said.
“She lacks confidence, however. It’s to be expected-- After all, she suffered the ultimate defeat in her previous life. She knows what it means to die, so naturally she fears it. It’s something she’ll have to overcome.” Minos said. “You were very different. You often expected things to be easy, and got frustrated when they weren’t. And you were always slightly overconfident, even when you pretended not to be.”
“I’m done pretending not to be confident,” Nico said. “Remember when I said magic is 99% confidence? I think everything else in life is like, 95%. I’ve been able to do so much that I never imagined I was capable of. I’m sure Hazel will be the exact same way when she gets more experience.”
“I doubt that she will end up like you,” Minos said. “But we’ll see.”
Nico passed the next few days watching Hazel train with Minos on various weapons. During her breaks, he quizzed her on Latin verb conjugations. She picked up conversational Latin quickly through her natural instincts, but she had made no progress on Greek. Nico had also realized, to his dismay, that she wasn’t even very good at English grammar. It wasn’t fair to compare them; he’d gotten a high quality education as a child while she’d grown up struggling just to get by. Still, his anxiety about her future success was growing.
He tried to make it up to her by letting her drop Greek and focus more on magic. He went over basic protection spells and showed her how to make amulets, which she took to quickly. She loved making gemstones (the non-cursed kind) and turning them into magical jewelry. He found her some books on basic pharmakeia so that she could start making potions as well.
He tried to teach her how to manipulate the mist, but she struggled to get the hang of it. Nico had picked it up so fast from Isis that he didn’t remember how he’d learned in the first place, so he made a note to get her some additional help with it later on.
For the most part, he and Hazel enjoyed each other’s company enough to get through even the tougher lessons. He could tell that making him proud was one of her major motivations, and he loved her for that; it helped give him nearly endless patience with her. It was only when he tried to teach her to shadow travel that their dynamic began to unravel.
Hazel found the idea of disappearing into darkness unnerving, and she was scared of getting lost and ending up in a strange place. Nico had made the mistake of telling her about his trip to China, and she was determined that it was too great a risk. He was only able to convince her to try by offering her his phone so that she’d be safe from monsters even if she got separated from him, while he held onto Minos’ phone in order to stay in contact.
Once they’d negotiated safety measures, he practiced shadow traveling with her around their house so that she could get used to the feeling. She squeezed his hand and let him take her from room to room, and he asked her to observe what he was doing so that she could try to mimic him.
Finally, he let go of her hand and insisted she do it on her own.
“There’s a shadow in front of you,” he said. He’d angled a door so that a solid triangle of darkness was there, sized generously. “Step into it and then step into it. You have to trust it, like you’re falling.”
She closed her eyes and took a tentative step forward. Nothing happened.
“You didn’t trust it. Keep your eyes open.”
She tried again. Still nothing.
“I can’t do this,” she said, clenching her fists at her sides.
“I know you can do this,” Nico said.
“How do you know?”
“I just do,” he insisted. “You’re more powerful than you think.”
He did feel it. The shadows reached back for her when she reached out to them. Taking it to the next level, though, wasn’t easy. He wanted her to have confidence in herself, but there was no way to force it. She needed to come to it on her own.
“It’s okay,” he said, putting a hand on her back. “I don’t think you’re ready today, but you will be. You’ll know.”
“I’m sorry,” she said, blinking back tears. “I want to believe you, but… I’m not like you. I’m not powerful.”
“Says the girl who stopped Gaea’s plans in their tracks for eighty years,” Nico said, wrapping her in a hug. “You’re a force of nature, Hazel Levesque. And you’re going to be incredible.”
She pressed her face to his chest for a second, holding him tightly. Then she said,
“I’d like to learn how to make sacrifices to the gods.”
Nico never wanted her to know, but Hazel’s progress worried him over the next few days. He watched her spar with Minos every morning, and she was steadily improving in her agility, her reflexes, and her ability to block spear thrusts and sword slashes. But it wasn’t enough.
Watching Minos swing a practice sword at her sent images into his mind of enemy demigods doing the same, and their weapons wouldn’t be blunted. Every time the protected edge of a blade hit her, he imagined her falling to the ground and bleeding out. He knew that he’d dipped her in the Styx, and that it should be enough to protect her, but he had never witnessed the magical protection at work. Intrusive thoughts popped into his head that he hadn’t done it right and it hadn’t taken. He feared that if Hazel relied on it, it would fail her at the moment she needed it most. He resolved that, for her own safety, he could never tell her about it.
He’d started listening to Gossip Goddess network podcasts every night while Hazel was sleeping, trying to absorb any tiny detail that might help him prepare Hazel for what was to come. He’d caught a few comments here and there about the demigods that would feature in the prophecy, and he knew there would be a son of Zeus and a son of Mars on the roster, and Percy, obviously. The son of Zeus in particular was supposed to be a powerhouse, the strongest demigod Camp Jupiter had to offer.
Nico was scared of what might happen when the seven heroes set out on their quest; monsters would instinctively pick off the youngest and smallest in the pack, and at this point, he was sure that would end up being Hazel.
He couldn’t do anything about her age and size, but he could make damn sure that she wasn’t the weakest. He didn’t care what it cost him; she wouldn’t end up like Bianca. He’d stand in front of her for the entire course of the war if that was what it took to keep her safe.
One night, he was lying in bed listening to a podcast on his headphones while Minos dozed beside him. This one was about him, unfortunately.
“Hi everyone, and welcome to today’s episode of Justice Junkies. I’m Themis, goddess of Justice.”
“And I’m Nemesis, goddess of vengeance. Today we’re doing a deep dive into the subject on every immortal mind these days: Resurrection.”
“That’s right, it’s all anyone can talk about lately thanks to demigod Nico di Angelo, former guest of this podcast and-- is he the former ambassador of the Underworld, or is he still doing that? You’ve got the connections, Nemesis, you tell me.”
“Hades won’t text me back, so I have no idea,” Nemesis said bitterly. “I know you’re listening, Hades! Stop leaving me on read! But seriously, the whole Underworld is under a gag order not to take any questions about Nico-- It’s very weird.”
“They’re always weird down there,” Themis agreed. “But also, it kind of makes sense, if you think about it. Any resurrection is, in a way, Hades’ failure to do his job. Whether he gave Nico a freebie out of nepotism or the kid actually stole a shade out from under his nose, either way, it’s not a good look for him.”
“Oh, the kid is definitely an Underworld nepo-baby,” Nemesis said. “Don’t even get me started on how I feel about nepo-babies, Themis.”
“We know, you want to--”
“I want to tear their guts out!” Nemesis snarled.
“Don’t we all,” Themis agreed. “We don’t take kindly to unfair advantages here; we are a podcast about justice, after all! Clearly the fact that Nico lived in the Underworld and worked in the palace gave him a huge advantage that no other demigod or mortal has ever received. It’s no wonder he managed to resurrect someone.”
“Embarrassing that it took him so long, actually,” Nemesis said. “But not surprising. The last time I saw him he got trashed on magic potions and tried to cheat me at dice.”
“Messy,” Themis said, clucking her tongue. “Anyway, we want to take some time today to contextualize what Nico just did and what we can expect to happen next. Does anybody remember all the drama with Sisyphus back in the day?”
“He tricked Hades, he tricked Thanatos, and he tricked Persephone, in order to evade death,” Nemesis said. “Naturally I was consulted on their revenge.”
“Sisyphus was shameless,” Themis said. “And he was out to keep himself alive, not to save anyone else. We can’t put Nico in the same category as him.”
“Can’t we? I’d like to. I’m kidding,” Nemesis said. “He’d have to do something really bad in order to earn eternal torment. I don’t think we’re there. Yet.”
“Nico is much more similar to Orpheus, the famous son of Apollo,” Themis said. “He resurrected a loved one just like Orpheus planned to. In Nico’s case, it was his sister. Cute, right? I don’t see any justice in punishing him, since he did it for love. But I don’t see any reason to reward him, either. It’s not like loving your family is anything revolutionary.”
“Um, so, the thing is,” Nemesis said, sounding reluctant to admit it. “You didn’t hear this from me, but… He didn’t resurrect the sister he wanted.”
“Wait, what?”
“He resurrected another of Hades’ daughters that he’d never met.”
“A stranger?” Themis said. “In that case, the only just thing to do is reward him.”
“I mean, they’re still related,” Nemesis muttered. “It’s not exactly philanthropy.”
“Hercules wrestled Thanatos in order to save a woman’s soul. He’d never met her, but her husband had shown him kindness and hospitality, so he felt moved to repay him,” Themis said. “And Asclepius resurrected strangers, too, simply because he felt compelled to heal people. If Nico is doing the same sort of gesture as the two of them--”
“You’re saying you think he deserves to be deified like they were? Bitch, you’d better be joking,” Nemesis said. “Hercules and Asclepius were far more accomplished. They had spectacular career trajectories, far beyond what Nico’s managed.”
“Last I heard, he’d interned with the Aeolus Weather Network and Triumvirate Holdings last summer before taking a position as Ambassador of the Underworld. On top of all that, he’s a member of the demigod lineup for the gigantomachy this spring. He was a little late to the game, seemingly coming out of nowhere, but at this point it seems like he’s up there with Percy and Jason in the running for most-accomplished-hero this century, despite having almost no monster kills to his name.”
“Nobody is getting deified after the gigantomachy,” Nemesis said. “Percy Jackson ruined it for everybody two years ago when he used his offer as an opportunity to humiliate his father.”
“Fair enough,” Themis said. “But as a hypothetical exercise, do you see why I think Nico is a contender?”
“Nope. My money is on Jason Grace. I like Hades and the Underworld and all that stuff-- I’m a daughter of Nyx, for fuck’s sake-- But let’s be real. Zeus will never, and I mean never, ever, ever, let a son of Hades become a god.”
Themis was quiet for a moment.
“You may have a point there,” she said finally.
“He’d rather raze the earth and boil the seas,” Nemesis said. “And with that, folks, we end tonight’s episode. Don’t forget to subscribe if you haven’t already, and check our Godstagram page to answer the poll question this week. The question is, which famous demigod do you think deserves to be deified?”
Out of amused curiosity, Nico checked the poll. He had very few votes; it looked like Jason was the favorite by a huge margin, closely followed by Annabeth and someone named Reyna that he’d never heard of.
That suited him fine. Little did Themis and Nemesis know, Persephone had already floated the idea of making him immortal just because she liked him. He had no regrets about telling Hades he wasn’t interested. He was just hoping to stay alive long enough to see Hazel through the war safely. Afterward, he’d be okay joining his mother for gelato permanently. In Elysium, it was sure to taste delicious.
He was still scrolling through Godstagram when there was a light tap on his window. He looked outside and saw Hermes peeking through the glass.
He crooked a finger at Nico, beckoning him outside.
Nico heaved a sigh.
“This should be interesting,” he said to himself.
Chapter Text
Hazel was woken out of a sound sleep by Minos gently shaking her shoulder.
“What is it?” She said, sitting bolt upright and looking around frantically. “Is it Caligula? Is he here?”
“Hermes is here,” Minos said. “He wants to see you.”
Hazel looked down at her nightgown and made a face. It was printed all over with happy little cartoon ponies. She adjusted her pink silk sleep bonnet and wondered whether Hermes would laugh at her jammies.
“You look lovely,” Minos said reassuringly.
“Bless your heart,” she snorted. “What is it everybody says about first impressions? That they don’t matter?”
“Something like that,” Minos agreed.
He led her up to the roof. It was a mostly empty space, cleared out for training, with a few potted plants and a seating area off to one side. Hazel had often wondered why Nico was so adamant she train in direct sunlight all the time, since she thought she functioned better in the dark. She’d never asked, not wanting him to think she didn’t trust his judgment.
Nico and Hermes were standing in the middle of the dark sky outside Nico’s bedroom window, just slightly lower than the level of the rooftop. She rolled her eyes at seeing him standing on a solid shadow in the air instead of the easily accessible roof. He’d been doing it all the time lately, and she’d teased him about being a show-off. Really, she was a little envious, since she hadn’t figured out how to do it yet, despite his assurances that she’d figure it out soon.
She’d never met Hermes before, but she observed that he was thin and on the shorter side. He was wearing a Boston Marathon crop top that showed off his abs, tiny neon running shorts, and trail runners with little wings on the back of them, flapping around to hold him in place in the air. He had brown curly hair and a mischievous look in his dark eyes. Hazel immediately didn’t trust him. He was the god of thieves, after all.
Nico was only wearing black boxers, since it was the middle of the night and he’d presumably been woken up unexpectedly too. To Hazel he looked much more handsome and godly than Hermes even in his underwear. He was looking at Hermes like they were equals, and in fact, Nico looked slightly more confident and collected than Hermes did. Hermes must have come asking for a favor. Hazel tried to stifle her smile of pride at her brother’s power.
“Hazel, right?” Hermes said, glancing at her. He clearly did notice the ponies on her nightgown; she tugged at the bottom of her skirt self-consciously under his gaze. “You’re the subject of a lot of debate at the moment, but nobody seems to know much about you,” he said, staring at her curiously. She felt her face getting hot, and realized she really didn’t want to be left alone with this god, at all, ever.
“I’d like to keep it that way,” Hazel said quietly. She had skeletons in her closet that she’d rather not get dragged into the light of Olympus, so being unknown was fine with her.
“She’s modest,” Nico said. “One of her many good qualities. But soon everyone will know her name,” he added, smiling at her reassuringly. “For heroic reasons, obviously.”
“Hazel, I hear that you and Annabeth get along well,” Hermes said. “Nico is being sent to find her, and I believe she’s with my son Luke. You’re going to help your brother get them apart so that Athena can extract her daughter without Luke’s interference. Meanwhile, Nico will attempt to capture Luke without bloodshed, if you can’t convince him to come quietly.”
“Extract Annabeth? Is she in danger?” Hazel asked.
Hermes sighed.
“More like she’s in trouble, although there is an element of danger, too. We’re not sure of Luke’s allegiances at this time, but we have a hunch,” he admitted sadly. “We don’t know what his capabilities are at the moment. I don’t think he’d ever hurt Annabeth, but she’s too convenient a bargaining chip to leave in his hands, and we need her. I’m not allowed to go myself, so Hera sent me to you. I hope she’s not making a mistake.”
“I can handle it. I’m not the ambassador of the Underworld for nothing, you know,” Nico said.
“Oh, are you still doing that?” Hermes said snidely. “I thought you were playing house with a dead girl and a three thousand year old ghost king. Speaking of which, Minos, dude, are you for real?” He said, turning to look at Minos, who was sitting quietly on the roof minding his own business as usual. “You were a great hero once, and you sit at a place of honor at the Judge’s table. Don’t you find it emasculating to be ordered around by this little twerp? I shudder to think of the humiliation he subjects you to behind closed doors,” Hermes said, making a face.
“It’s not like that,” Nico said angrily. “Don’t listen to him, Minos, he doesn’t know what he’s talking about.”
“Lord Hermes, I consider it an honor to be with Nico,” Minos said calmly.
“An honor?” Hermes said. “Well, that’s just weird.”
“Um, that’s a bit much,” Nico said, laughing awkwardly. “I guess I appreciate the sentiment. Minos, you and Hazel can go back inside. We’re done with you.”
Hazel followed the ghost king back downstairs. They lingered at the bottom of the stairs for a moment, but they couldn’t hear Nico and Hermes talking any longer.
“You consider it an honor?” She said to Minos with surprise. “So you know!”
“I’ve known for quite a while,” he said. “It is indeed a great honor to be the lover of a god.”
“Well, damn, you could have said something!” Hazel said. “I thought I was gonna go crazy keeping this big secret.”
“You will need to continue being cautious with who you mention it to,” Minos said. He put a hand on her back and ushered her into the kitchen. “Why don’t I explain my thoughts over a glass of milk?”
Once they had their cups of milk in hand, he told her the story of meeting Nico initially in the Underworld.
“A cute child, and pitiful, but he wasn’t a god as far as I could tell,” Minos said. “It was after his ambrosia overdose that I saw something change in him.”
“Ganymede also guessed what happened,” Hazel said. “He said ambrosia is the key to making gods.”
“I’ve heard that, too. While he slept, he aged faster than normal and grew stronger and more beautiful. I looked at him often.” He looked a little bashful admitting that, which made Hazel laugh.
“But is he really a god, or just an immortal? Ganymede said he doesn’t know for sure.”
“Only an Olympian would worry about that sort of question,” Minos said, amused. “They have an internal roster that they guard jealously. Zeus’s official stamp of recognition is a meaningful honor, to be sure, but there are countless gods in this world, and he didn’t create most of them. My father likes to cultivate the illusion of control, and uses godhood as a carrot he can dangle in front of striving mortals. I am not sure he understands divinity at all. I’m not sure any of them do. They’re too close to it; they can’t see themselves the way we see them.”
“I know what I see when I look at Nico,” Hazel said. “Pluto gave me life so that I could serve him. Nico gave me my second life so I could serve myself. I know who I’m worshiping this time around. Nothing’s gonna change my mind about that.”
“Your devotion is admirable,” Minos said. “I understand why you feel that way. But you must be careful. Nico isn’t ready to face the truth of what he is. When he looks in the mirror, he sees only himself, mundane and unremarkable. It’s safer for him to go unnoticed, even to himself, for the time being.”
“What about our father? Does he know?”
“I don’t think so,” Minos said. “If he did, he’d keep Nico in the Underworld to protect him from Zeus. He hasn’t done that.”
“Zeus can’t kill Nico anyway. Why would he worry?”
“There are worse fates than death,” Minos said gravely. “An immortal can be thrown in Tartarus to wallow in madness and torment for all eternity.”
Nico appeared suddenly beside Minos.
“Why are you talking about immortals in Tartarus?” He asked suspiciously. “Have you heard something?”
“Just explaining to Hazel how dangerous it is to play games with gods,” Minos said.
“That seems to be all I do anymore,” Nico said, shrugging. “We’ve got our new mission, so I’m thinking in a couple hours we should head out to look for Annabeth. You might want to catch some more sleep, Hazel.”
“I can’t go back to sleep now,” she said. “Too much running through my head. What if Annabeth doesn’t want to come back?”
“Good question,” Nico said. “I don’t want to force her. We’ve got a history with kidnapping… Anyway, we’ll try to convince her to come willingly. If she won’t listen to us, we’ll threaten to get her boyfriend involved.”
“What if she’s left Percy for this new guy, Luke?”
Nico went over to the stove and started heating water for coffee in his Moka pot.
“There are a lot of what-if’s,” Nico said. “There’s also Luke to deal with. I don’t know enough about him to guess his motivations. It seems weird that he’d join Gaea after everything he’s been through with Kronos.”
“You’ll simply have to find out what he wants,” Minos smiled.
“And what flaw keeps him from getting it,” Nico agreed. “You’re right, Minos, as always. Do you want some coffee?”
Hazel went upstairs to get dressed while Nico and Minos talked. She was buzzing with excitement. She’d been hoping to get out of Chania and start acting like a real demigod, and Nico was finally relying on her for something important. She couldn’t wait to show him what she was capable of. She’d sensed his disappointment with her failure to shadow travel, but this was a chance to make it up to him.
He hadn’t mentioned any chance of danger, but she dressed in newly purchased combat boots, leggings with hidden pockets and a stylish yet practical leather coat. She admired her reflection in the mirror. It was a far cry from flour sack dresses, stockings, and Mary Janes. She looked like a cool, modern teen. She felt slightly alien to herself, but she took that as a sign she was doing something right.
“You’re not in Kansas anymore, Dorothy,” she told herself in the mirror. “Time to get serious.”
She put on a bandana to secure her curls out of her face, and then she was ready.
“Oh my gods, you look so adorable,” Nico said, melting at the sight of her. “Those boots! I’m obsessed.”
“Shut up,” she whined, feeling the wind go right out of her sails. “I’m trying to take this seriously.”
“Sorry, sorry,” Nico said, holding up his hands. “You’re right, this is serious. It’s your first godly mission. I’m glad you’re giving it all you’ve got. Hold down the fort for us, okay Minos?” Nico said. Minos gave him a thumbs up, and Nico swept Hazel off into darkness.
“Where are we?” Hazel said. “Why do you keep taking me to the dirtiest places?”
They were in a dark alley full of trash bags, and it smelled horrible, like sweet, rotting death. She put her hand over her nose.
“This is Paris,” Nico said. “Wow, there’s trash everywhere. No pickup for days, it looks like. Okay, let’s get moving. They were seen in a restaurant here last night.”
Hazel followed him up the road to a brightly lit restaurant called ‘La Coupole.’ It had a bright marquee sign and was decorated in the art deco style. Hazel gasped as they walked inside, looking around at the nostalgic décor.
“This place reminds me of the old days,” she said. “Look! It’s a picture of Josephine Baker! She performed here. Do you think she still comes by once in a – Oh, no, she’s dead,” Hazel said. “She’s in Elysium.”
“You could tell that?” Nico asked, delighted.
“Yeah, as soon as I saw her picture, I just knew,” Hazel said. “Nico, this restaurant seems closed. How come the door was open?”
“Magic,” Nico said, wiggling his fingers. “Now I need your French skills. Can you ask the waiter if he saw Annabeth and Luke earlier?”
There was a single waiter behind the bar, restocking glasses and yawning. He must have been one of the last employees to leave. He hadn’t noticed them yet.
Hazel swallowed, clenched her fists, and approached him.
“Excuse me, sir. I’m sorry to bother you, but I’m looking for my friend,” she said in French.
He gave her a disdainful look.
“We’re closed. You’re trespassing. I thought I locked that door.”
Hazel tried to look cute and innocent.
“Sir, please, she might be in danger and I need to find her. I’m worried… That guy… He’s not a safe person.”
The waiter set down his glasses.
“If she didn’t sit at the bar, I won’t know her.”
“She was here earlier tonight. Tall black girl, long braids dyed blonde at the ends. American.”
“Oh, that girl,” he said. “She spoke a little French. Asked me questions about Josephine Baker. Thought she knew more than me… She was kind of a know it all.”
“That’s her!” Hazel said. “Do you know where she’s staying?”
“Yes, I overheard her companion telling her he was broke and could only afford the Atelier Vavin Hotel. Pathetic, really. If you can’t afford four stars, at least, you can’t afford to have an affair.”
“An affair?” Hazel said. Annabeth had seemed to love her boyfriend a lot. Was she really risking that for an asshole that worked for Gaea?
“They had something between them,” the waiter shrugged. “It’s probably too late to save her. She’s under his spell.”
“I hope not,” Hazel said. “Thank you so much for your help.” She returned to Nico. “Atelier Vavin Hotel,” she said.
“That’s close,” he said, pulling it up on his phone. “Let’s go!”
With no idea what room she was in, Nico and Hazel resorted to creating shadow platforms and standing outside windows, peering into the curtains to see if Annabeth or Luke were in any of the hotel rooms. It wasn’t very effective for Hazel to stare at closed curtains, but Nico was able to actually stick his head inside.
It didn’t take long before they found them, sleeping in a bed together on the fourth floor. Hazel’s heart sank. She wanted to grab Annabeth and shake her, yelling, ‘You have a boyfriend! What are you thinking?’
“Okay, here’s the plan,” Nico whispered. “I’ll take us in. I’ll put Luke to sleep so he can’t mess things up. You wake Annabeth and get as much information as you can out of her. Don’t let her know that Olympus is involved, just say that you were mad about her ditching us.”
“I am mad about that.”
“Good, because she’s too smart to be fooled. I’ll handle Luke. You won’t be able to see me in there, but I’ll be with you. Okay?”
“What? You’re not going to talk to her? Nico?”
In the space of a blink, Hazel was inside the dark hotel room, and Nico was nowhere to be seen. She jumped and said, “Eep!” when an invisible hand brushed her back.
That small ‘eep’ was all it took for Annabeth to leap out of bed, a long bronze knife flashing in her hand. She held it up to Hazel’s throat before she realized who it was.
“Di immortales, I’m sorry, Hazel,” she said, lowering the knife.
“Thanks a lot,” Hazel said. “That’s the second time I’ve almost died because of you.”
“I couldn’t see you in the dark,” Annabeth said. “Sorry. Wartime instincts, I guess.”
“And put some clothes on, you little hussy,” Hazel said. She felt crappy, because after all her training, she’d ‘eeped’ and also not successfully blocked Annabeth’s knife, but Annabeth clearly felt much crappier.
Annabeth slunked over to a pile of clothes on the floor shame-facedly and put on a big t-shirt that said ‘I <3 Paris’. She glanced back at Luke.
“He’ll wake up when I want him to wake up,” Hazel said, trying to sound powerful and mysterious. Nico was the one actually keeping Luke asleep, but Annabeth didn’t need to know that.
“I didn’t realize you could do that,” Annabeth said. She sat on the edge of the bed next to Luke. “Hazel, I don’t even know what to say. What happened on Capri-- I have no excuses. I’m not sure where to begin trying to explain.”
“How about, who is he and why did you lose your damn mind the second you saw him?”
Annabeth took a deep breath and briefly explained the story of her childhood, how she met Luke, and how he’d fallen from grace and died redeeming himself.
“He’s a good person, Hazel, he was just angry and lost back then. In the end, he finally did the right thing, but he was supposed to be reincarnated and try for the Isles of the Blessed. He said he changed his mind.”
“When I was dead,” Hazel said. “I saw shades come through talking about reincarnation. Most of them are too cowardly to go through with it.”
“He’s no coward,” Annabeth said. “He’s still finding his way, but I’m helping him this time. Things will be different. We’re the same age now, and he respects me in a way he didn’t before. He listens to me. He’s stubborn, but he found the right path last time, and he’ll find it again. I just have to support him.”
Annabeth sounded very emotional and sleepy and frazzled, and a lot of what she was trying to say came across a bit jumbled to Hazel, but she got the gist.
“He’s working for Gaea,” Hazel said, hearing what Annabeth wasn’t saying aloud. “Let me guess. He promised to serve her in exchange for his resurrection?”
Annabeth’s face gave away that Hazel was right.
“Gaea is starting a war in the spring,” she said quietly. “You’re right, he’s sworn to serve her. But I can find a way to get him out of it. If I can just--”
“Just talk to him? I guess y’all can hear each other better without your clothes on?” Hazel said.
Annabeth put her face in her hands. It took her a moment to collect herself enough to speak.
“I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t feel like myself. I’m not sure what’s strategy and what’s me being an irrational mess. I watched him die,” she said. Hazel noticed her hands were shaking. “I grieved for him. I processed it in therapy. To have it all undone in an instant was earth shattering. And with us being the same age now, things are different, and I just… I’m lost. But I’m trying to do the right thing. I’m trying to get him on our side in this war. If I can do that, I can justify the people I’m hurting with my decisions,” she said, not mentioning the elephant in the room that was her boyfriend, who had no idea she was in Paris with another man.
“You’re just trying to rationalize it,” Hazel said. “What’s really happening is you’re setting yourself on fire to keep somebody else warm. I know a thing or two about love and death, alright? I managed to learn that much in my sad little life. My boyfriend Sammy got married a few years after I died. He had a long, happy life without me. And if I’d have been resurrected sooner and gone back to see how he was doing, I’d be damned before I interfered with his happiness to suit myself. I’d have died again rather than break up his marriage.”
Annabeth stared at Hazel like she’d never thought of it that way. Hazel pointed at Luke.
“This motherfucker is the one who’s lost, and he’s trying to get you lost right along with him. When you told me about Percy and showed me your pictures, you were happy and in love. I envied you. Now you’re a hot mess, crying in a dirty hotel. Who’s fault is that?”
“Mine,” Annabeth said sadly.
“It’s his fault!” Hazel said. “He took advantage of you when you were in shock!”
She could tell Annabeth didn’t believe that. She was obviously someone who took a lot of personal responsibility for her mistakes. But Hazel was pretty sure a seed of doubt had been planted, and that was good enough for her.
“I don’t know what to say, Hazel,” Annabeth sighed. “I’m just… I have no words anymore. I know I’m in a bad place.” Her eyes welled up with tears. “I’m sorry you had to get dragged into it. I’m really glad you’re okay. This isn’t who I am. I hate for you to see me like this.”
“I don’t want to hear it. The sun’s coming up soon. We’re getting out of here.”
“But Luke--”
“He’ll be fine. You need an omelette or something.”
Annabeth didn’t protest. She mumbled something about a shower and headed into the bathroom, shutting the door and locking it. Hazel could hear her crying on the other side.
Nico appeared beside her.
“That was great work. I think there’s a cafe on the corner. I’ll tell Athena she can pick her up there.”
“That woman is at rock bottom,” Hazel said. “You’re really gonna call her mom? I’d hate you for that if I was her.”
“I feel bad,” Nico admitted. “But Athena is the Olympian war leader. I’m not her biggest fan, to put it mildly, but this isn’t a good time to cross her. We might need to rely on her leadership at some point when the war starts. It’s not worth it for the two of us to interfere.”
“I guess Athena is her mom, at the end of the day,” Hazel sighed, folding her arms across her chest. “Hopefully she isn’t the type to whip out a wooden spoon and go to town on her.”
Nico snorted.
“She definitely is that type of mom, unfortunately.”
“I guess it’s still better for Annabeth than hanging out with this loser. What have you been doing all this time?”
“I went into Luke’s dreams and tried to talk to him. He was suspicious and wouldn’t give me anything, though. I needed more time.”
The shower turned off, and they both went silent as Annabeth came out of the bathroom. Nico went invisible again when she opened the door.
“I could really use some food now that you woke me up,” Annabeth said. “We should wake Luke, though, he might be hungry, too.”
“No. You need girl time,” Hazel said.
“I guess,” Annabeth said. “He’ll stay asleep until I get back?”
“Yeah. Let’s go.”
Annabeth threw on some clothes and followed Hazel out to the street. The sun had risen and cafes were just starting to put chairs out. They found one that was open early and sat down.
Annabeth wasn’t in the mood to talk much. She told Hazel she’d scheduled an emergency appointment with her therapist, which seemed like a step in the right direction. She had a lot of messages from Percy that she was trying not to look at.
“Are you going to tell him?” Hazel asked.
“I have to,” Annabeth said. “We’re always honest with each other. I just have to figure out the right time. I don’t want it to impact his midterms. He’s studied really hard this semester.”
Annabeth had just finished her cup of coffee when a tall woman in a power suit sat down at their table with them. She had Annabeth’s grey eyes, stiff, straight backed posture, and a severe look on her face.
“Daughter. We need to have a talk,” she said coldly.
Annabeth looked up at her mother, her expression so empty and defeated that Hazel’s stomach churned with guilt. She almost apologized to Annabeth for the bait and switch, but then she thought about the war with Gaea that she’d had mentioned earlier.
“I’m sorry, Annabeth,” Hazel said. “But this is bigger than just you and me.”
She gave Athena a respectful nod and walked out of the cafe.
“Okay, badass,” Nico said in her ear as she stepped out onto the sidewalk. “I loved that! You sounded so mature!”
“You saying that makes it feel less cool,” Hazel sighed. She let her brother take her hand and spirit her away once again.
They were back at their house in Chania. Nico popped the trunk of his car and showed Hazel Luke’s unconscious body curled up inside.
“Wow. What are we gonna do with him?” Hazel asked. Asleep, he didn’t look dangerous. He actually looked kind of handsome, with soft blonde hair and freckles scattered across his nose. He had ripped abs, too. “He’s kind of hot.”
“I know, right?” Nico said. He shut the trunk. “I promised Hermes I wouldn’t hand him over to Olympus until he’d had a chance to talk to him in a secure environment. We need to put something together quickly, before Gaea comes looking for him. It won’t be right away, since he was off playing around in Paris with Annabeth, but eventually she’ll track him down.”
“What place could possibly be safe from Gaea?” Hazel asked. “Anytime I think ‘secure,’ I think of a hole in the ground, but that doesn’t work with her.”
“Yeah, I thought the same thing,” Nico said. He sat on top of the trunk and ran his hands through his hair, thinking. “There’s no place on earth she can’t access eventually, but the safest place would be somewhere like Olympus or the Underworld, where she’d have to conclude that it wasn’t worth it.”
“Ew. I don’t like either of those places.”
“There’s got to be somewhere else,” Nico thought. “You’d think Crete would be safe. This whole island is crawling with sites sacred to Zeus.”
“What about the cave?” Hazel asked.
“We ruled out caves.”
“Not just any cave, the cave Zeus was born in,” she said. “I just read about it in the mythology textbook you got me. It’s not far away, and Gaea probably wouldn’t mess with it, right?”
“That’s genius,” Nico said, delighted. He whipped out his phone and started texting. “Okay,” he said, after a moment. “Hermes said it should work. He’s asking Zeus to keep it a secret from Hera for a week to give him time to get through to Luke.”
They sped off down the road until they reached the hill where the cave was located. It was a relatively popular tourist attraction, but it was still early in the morning and the off season, so they had it to themselves. Nico carried Luke on his shoulder, and Hazel followed him down a set of winding metal stairs leading down inside the cave. They broke off from the path and headed towards a recessed area in the back where they could feel divine power resonating.
Hermes and Zeus were standing there waiting for them when they turned the corner. Zeus’ power seemed magnified a thousand times in the cave compared to what Hazel remembered seeing on Capri. If you looked at him and deliberately ignored 99% of his face-melting, radiant glory, you could see that he looked worried. Hermes was biting his nails, his eyes locked on his unconscious son on Nico’s shoulder.
Zeus didn’t acknowledge Nico and Hazel. He merely observed as Nico set Luke down in the corner of the cave. Nico built a cage of stalagmites and stalactites to surround Luke, weaving a net of shadow in between the limestone rock formations to ensure that he was firmly secured. Then he warded it twice just to be certain.
Hermes reached out and knocked on the wall a few times, sending magic pulses through it. Then he and Zeus both added wards of their own.
“If Gaea gets in this thing now I’ll eat my hat,” Zeus said, looking a lot more cheerful now that Luke was locked up. He patted Hermes on the back. “Don’t fuck this up, son,” he said.
He disappeared in a burst of golden light.
Hermes looked at Nico and Hazel.
“What’s the status?” He asked. His voice was quiet, and he looked sick with worry.
“He’s bound himself to Gaea,” Nico said flatly. “I don’t think you should get your hopes up.”
“Annabeth thought she could change him,” Hazel added. “She said he’s lost.”
“Lost,” Hermes said, shaking his head. “He’s lost alright. He was born lost, and he’s just gotten loster since. I’m probably wasting my time.”
“If that’s how you feel, why bother?” Nico said.
“Because I’m his father,” Hermes snapped. “I’m showing up for him this time. I’m gonna keep showing up for him. But I’m not going to fool myself into thinking it’s enough. Now both of you, get out. I need to speak to my son alone.”
Nico and Hazel both climbed back up the stairs and stood outside. The cave was at the top of a narrow path that the two of them had bypassed with shadow travel. It had a commanding view of the valley below. Lush green farmland stretched out before them, framed in the distance by mountains.
From where they stood, Hazel thought that she’d never seen a bluer sky. The clouds were heaped like pure white, fluffy mountains perched atop the earthly ones. She could see why the people of this land had believed that the gods lived in the sky and came down to earth to walk among them.
“This is one of the most beautiful places I’ve ever seen,” she said.
“One of the most beautiful?” Zeus asked, appearing beside them. Nico grew tense and grabbed Hazel’s hand even as Zeus sat on a rock beside them and gazed out into the distance, clearly not intending to threaten them. “And what is the most beautiful place you’ve ever seen, young lady?”
“Alaska,” she said.
“Alaska?” Nico and Zeus both said, shocked.
“I saw the northern lights from a snowy forest in the mountains,” Hazel said. “It felt like I was an insignificant speck in the universe.”
“I’ve never experienced that feeling, and I don’t care to,” Zeus said. “And you, Niccolo?”
“Wait, your name is Niccolo?” Hazel asked. Nico looked embarrassed.
“Uh, yeah, technically. My answer is Venice,” he said proudly.
“Haven’t seen it lately, then,” Zeus smirked.
Nico’s face fell.
“It’s sinking, overcrowded, and packed with tourists,” Zeus added.
“Oh,” Nico said.
“Tourists from cruise ships,” Zeus added, taking delight in Nico’s suffering. Hazel patted Nico’s arm reassuringly.
“My Venice is gone,” Nico said. “I know that. That’s why I haven’t been back. I don’t want to know what it’s turned into.”
“Quit feeling sorry for yourself,” Zeus said. “How do you think I feel? Hardly anybody sacrifices bulls to me anymore. Nowadays all I get is people calling me problematic online. Do you see me complaining? No! I’m too busy trying to keep Olympus in one piece. On that note, I have orders regarding Luke,” Zeus said, his expression growing gravely serious.
“I thought Hermes was handling him from here,” Nico said.
“We both know that he isn’t going to get anywhere with the boy. I told you before, Nico, I am not stupid, although my brother has probably told you I’m dumb as a rock. Hermes is trying to convince Luke to join our side, but I think that Luke has sworn on the Styx to serve Gaea. These are my orders; listen to them carefully. Confirm Luke has made this oath. If he has, you must kill him. He is too dangerous to suffer to live.”
Hazel squeezed Nico’s hand.
“Understood,” Nico said calmly.
“I suspect that you know more about the methods Gaea is using for resurrection than you are letting on. I don’t trust you enough to waste my time interrogating you, so I will simply say this. If Luke is resurrected a second time, I will personally make you immortal for the sole purpose of sending you to Tartarus and chaining you up in its foulest depths with the most hideous, horny monsters in existence.”
Nico swallowed.
“You know what I’m asking. Take care of it.”
Zeus disappeared with a crack of thunder, leaving the smell of ozone lingering in the air.
“Well, shit,” Nico said, scuffing the dirt with his shoe. “That complicates things.”
“We have to kill Luke?” Hazel hissed, glancing back to be sure Hermes wasn’t coming up the stairs. “What did he mean about him getting resurrected again? How does he expect you to prevent it if Gaea is the one responsible?”
“There’s only one way to be sure he can’t be brought back again,” Nico said. “But it’s not a step I’d take lightly. I’ll have to think about it.”
“Will Hermes be okay with us killing his son?”
“No,” Nico said gravely. “Zeus doesn’t want to be the bad guy. He’s going to make us take the fall. It’ll be alright, though. You’ll keep your hands clean.”
“Nico, that could go really bad for you,” she said, clutching his sleeve. “Can we explain to Hermes what just happened? Maybe he and Zeus can hash it out between the two of them.”
“Zeus and his sons have complicated relationships,” Nico said. “Unfortunately, I kind of get it. We’re not going to come out of this any better by pouring gas on that fire.”
“It’s just not fair,” Hazel sighed.
“No, it’s not,” Nico said. “But Zeus doesn’t really do ‘fair.’ He’s the king, and we’re his pawns. Forget it. We should go home and get some sleep. Hermes will let us know if he needs us back.”
He took her home, and life went back to normal for a few days. No one heard from Annabeth. Hazel threw herself back into her training with an intensity that surprised everyone, including her. War was coming. She didn’t want to die again. She had to be ready by spring.
In the morning, she sparred with Minos and lifted weights. In the afternoon, she studied her monster encyclopedia and made notes on weaknesses she could exploit. She filled a composition notebook with spells in Latin and Greek and practiced them under her breath constantly. At night, she and Nico went for runs in the moonlight. He found exercising boring, so while she huffed and puffed, he told her stories to pass the time. Some of them were about adventures like killing manticores and riding dead dragons, but his favorite stories were just funny anecdotes about living in the Underworld. She could tell he missed it terribly, but that only motivated her to run longer and faster, so that his sacrifices would someday be worth it.
As she progressed and grew more confident, Nico let her test her skills more often. He would leave her unsupervised somewhere remote and wait for a monster to come for her. She’d fight it, usually using her earth powers, which were the most familiar and instinctive for her, combined with magic. She never encountered anything particularly big or dangerous, and Nico often got nervous and helped when she didn’t really need it, but it was good practice all the same.
Eventually Nico told her he wanted to level up the challenge even higher and introduce environmental training.
“Some of my most challenging moments were either up in the air or in the ocean,” he said. “Falling from heights has always been a big fear of mine, and it’s tough to fight monsters when you have a phobia freaking you out. I also felt pretty outclassed by Percy Jackson the one time I fought him on a beach. Standing in the water, his advantage felt overwhelming. I want you ready so that, even if you end up in the water or the sky, you stay calm and know how to cope with it.”
Hazel looked over her shoulder at the ocean, lapping gently on the rocks behind their house.
“Yep,” Nico said gravely. “You’re going in.”
It didn’t matter what anybody else thought. Nico was a god. Hazel knew that, because no mere mortal could have possibly convinced her to jump off a cliff and dive into the ocean. And that was exactly what she did for Nico.
As she stood trembling on the edge of a rocky cliff not far from Chania, Nico and Minos stood behind her, cheering her on and encouraging her to be brave. She saw little local children leaping into the water and splashing carelessly, but her knees were knocking together every time she looked down at the choppy waves. Nico had told her she had to do it until she was immune to the fear. She wasn’t sure it was possible.
Looking down past the sandy colored stone she stood on, there was nothing but deep blue water and white capped waves. She was perched on the edge of an overhang, standing over nothing. She inched a step forward and sensed the rock beneath her, thin and fragile, the only barrier between her and a terrifying drop.
As she shuffled forward another step, the sandstone under her toes shuffled forward, too. She did this a couple of times until it became apparent that, unless she wanted to construct a diving board made of stone, she needed to just jump and get it over with.
“I can’t do it,” she said, looking back at Nico, her fists pinned to her sides. “I can’t do it. Let’s go home.”
Suddenly Nico was right beside her, his hand on the small of her back.
“Do you trust me, Hazel?” He asked, his eyes sparkling.
“Y-Yes,” she said.
“Are you sure?”
“I trust you completely,” she said, screwing up her courage. “I know you won’t let anything bad happen to me.” She looked him in the eyes, trying to get across to him what she meant. He was more than a brother to her, more than a friend and a teacher. He was a supernatural savior, a protector with mysterious power that she didn’t understand. He was the god who had brought her back to life.
She looked down at the water again.
“You don’t have to push me,” she said, closing her eyes. “I can do this. I’m ready.”
He stepped back, and she jumped.
The air rushed past her face as she fell below the rocky outcrop and into the dark shadow of the cliff. The water was coming at her fast, so fast she could barely think. She remembered closing her eyes and praying that Nico wouldn’t let her die again. At least not before she’d had the chance to kick Gaea’s ass one last time.
She slammed into hot rock, smacking her head.
“Ow! Crap!” She muttered, rubbing her head. The impact had sent a shock through her body, and her bones felt rattled. “What the hell?”
“Hazel, you did it!” Nico said, kneeling beside her. “You shadow traveled!”
“I did?” She gasped.
“You did it!” He grabbed her and hugged her.
“Wow. I did it,” she said in awe. “I guess I really didn’t want to get wet.”
“You’re doing it again,” Nico said, helping her up. “Go on and get jumping.”
She jumped into the water again and again, and she managed to shadow travel a few more times, and in the end she was able to enjoy it either way, swimming around and splashing some of the local kids who had started running up and jumping alongside her. Nico bought them all ice cream, and they had an amazing day sitting out on the rocks and hanging out, trading Greek and English phrases and laughing together.
Before she went to bed that night, Hazel pulled Nico aside and reminded him that she really, really wanted to learn how to sacrifice to the gods. He promised her a calf by the following day, and she went to bed happy, feeling more confident than ever in herself, her abilities, and that she’d landed herself the best patron god any girl could ever dream of.
The next morning, there was a bull calf in the living room, and Nico was in the kitchen drinking a cup of coffee, his hair wet from the shower.
“He’s so cute!” Hazel said, running over to pet the beautiful little calf. He had big brown eyes and a pink little tongue. She kissed his velvety nose and cooed at him.
“Thanks! He’s flawless,” Nico said proudly.
“Where did he come from?” Hazel asked.
“Uh, I got him from a guy in Texas,” Nico said. “An old man. Big hat, jeans. You know. Nobody important.” He sipped his coffee, tapping his foot like he’d had a few cups already that morning. “Who are you going to sacrifice him to?”
“You,” Hazel said. “For being such a good brother.”
“Aww. You’re sweet. But be serious, who are you really sacrificing him to? You’ve been very quiet about it.”
No she hadn’t, she thought to herself. He was just oblivious.
“I haven’t decided,” she said. “I’ll see how the spirit moves me. Where is Minos? He was gonna help me do it.”
“I, um, sent him home,” Nico said, blushing slightly. “He was getting behind on work.”
“Really? Usually you’re annoyed when he has to go back.”
“Who wants pancakes?” Nico asked loudly.
“I do!” Hazel said happily. “Pickles wants some, too.”
“Pickles? Is that his name?” Nico asked. “Make sure you don’t get too attached, or you won’t want to kill him.”
“Nah, I’ll be fine. I--”
There was a loud crash from upstairs. Both Hazel and Nico shadow traveled to the stair landing.
“What in the hell?” Hazel said, seeing a pile of dusty rubble filling the center of Nico’s room.
Nico went over to the rubble pile and starting clearing it away. There was a figure lying on his bed, long limbed and coated in white dust, with long hair and broad white feathered wings.
“Thanatos,” Nico said. “What happened to you?”
“Tartarus happened,” he coughed, sitting up amidst the rubble. “I’m not well.”
Nico and Hazel both stared at him, speechless.
“Do you want some pancakes?” Nico asked.
“Ugh,” Thanatos sighed, brushing dust off his face. “Yes.”
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Hazel tidied up the rubble while Nico helped Thanatos to extricate himself from the pile of roofing materials. He had dust on his face and rocks caught in his feathers. Nico tried to brush his wings off, but Thanatos jerked away from his touch.
“Sorry,” Nico said. “Do you want to shower?”
“Honestly,” Thanatos scoffed. “Do you know how many souls I’ve collected from people in shower stalls? Those things are deadly. No, I’ll bathe in the sea later. Just leave me here to wallow for now.”
“That’s what you do best,” Nico sighed. He helped Thanatos to lie on his stomach on the bed and let him rest his head on Nico’s pillow. Thanatos pressed his face directly into it and didn’t move a millimeter for a few minutes.
“He must be exhausted,” Nico said to Hazel. “I think the pancakes will need to wait. Can you give us a minute?”
Hazel went downstairs, and Nico was left alone with Thanatos. He went over to his windows and closed them, slid his blackout curtains shut, then traveled up to the roof and repaired the hole in his ceiling.
Then he sat down beside Thanatos and waited, admiring the sheen of his white gold hair and the tiny, delicate structure of his wing feathers. Some were straight and smooth, and others were downy fluff. Most of them were white, but some were a soft grey, like Hypnos’, and others were a creamy gold, like Eros’. Nico shoved the sudden thought of Eros out of his mind. Thanatos was nothing like his older brother, and he was better for it.
“Where’s my pancakes,” Thanatos muttered, after nearly an hour of not moving, speaking, or even breathing.
“You’ll get them once you’ve told me what happened,” Nico said. “Are you alright? Should I get help?”
“No one will help me,” Thanatos said, turning his to face away from Nico. “The only one who’d come is my mother, and I don’t want her knowing where I’ve been.”
Nico wasn’t sure he believed that, but he let it go.
“What exactly is wrong with you?” He asked.
“There’s no way to make you understand if you haven’t experienced it,” Thanatos said. “Just leave me alone.”
“You wouldn’t be here if you wanted to be left alone,” Nico sighed, lying down next to him.
Thanatos didn’t respond.
“Did you see the doors?” Nico asked, after a long silence.
“Yes,” Thanatos said quietly. “They are chained open and heavily guarded. There is nothing we can do now.”
“Okay,” Nico said.
His mind went blank with fear. Monsters would be free to die and walk right back out into the world again. He could have sworn one of the sea snakes Hazel had fought recently looked familiar. Now he knew why. “Um, does that translate into mortal souls being resurrected, too?” Nico asked.
“Only if Gaea wanted them badly enough to sneak them from Asphodel into Tartarus,” Thanatos said. “It’s possible, but it won’t be easy for her. She hasn’t realized the other doors are unlocked yet, but when she does, it will be very, very easy.”
Nico didn’t know if Gaea cared that much about Luke, but he couldn’t risk it. Killing Luke would not be enough. He could try to come up with a plan to shut the doors in Tartarus, but he’d have to make a key and fight through to the Tartarus doors in order to lock them. Realistically, he might not be able to do it, especially with his partner in crime currently incapacitated.
He looked Thanatos over. Physically, although he was still dusty, he looked fine, slightly glowy and divine and a bit bird-like as usual. Mentally, he was obviously not well, and that was saying something, because Nico had never seen Thanatos truly happy.
Without a word, Thanatos stood up.
“Where are you going?” Nico asked, following him as the god shifted his wings and disappeared. Nico shadow traveled outside, to where Thanatos had reappeared on the back patio.
Thanatos walked out to the edge of the patio, walked lightly across the large border of rocks, and stepped down into the dark blue-grey water, sinking to the bottom immediately.
Nico went out after him, scrambling over to the water’s edge. He could just barely glimpse Thanatos’ white blonde head beneath the rippling waves, the sunlight reflecting off of the shiny surface of his hair.
Nico sighed, and waited on a rock, staring out at the horizon where the sea met the sky. He could see a ferry in the distance, chugging along towards the mainland. The local ferry route went to Piraeus, and most of the passengers would be traveling onward to Athens. He’d been meaning to take Hazel into the city for some cultural education, but they hadn’t had time.
After a long time of sitting on the rocks, he gave up and reached a hand into the water. He tugged on Thanatos’ hair, the only part of him he could reach, and waited.
Thanatos clambered up out of the sea, spluttering.
“Don’t you ever touch my hair again,” he said, knocking into Nico and getting water all over him. He collapsed onto the rocks, wiping saltwater out of his eyes.
“Do you feel better?” Nico asked.
“Not really.”
“Maybe the Underworld would help you recover faster,” Nico said.
“My mother would only ask where I’ve been, and she can tell when I’m lying,” Thanatos said. He was slumped over, and he looked miserable, like a seagull that had been tossed in a storm.
“I’m sorry you had to go to Tartarus alone,” Nico said, leaning his shoulder against Thanatos. “Thank you for doing that.”
“I only did it to save my own skin,” Thanatos said. “Not that I was successful. We’ll both be caught and punished soon enough.”
“I’m not giving up yet,” Nico said. “And I don’t care why you did it. I’m just glad you tried instead of running away and leaving me to face the music on my own.”
“There’s still time for me to do that,” Thanatos suggested.
“I don’t think you will,” Nico said.
He looked at Thanatos closely. His wings were floppy and sad, and he seemed more vulnerable than he ever had. It was tragic that the god of death didn’t have a single friend he could trust with a secret out of all the immortals on the planet. Maybe Nico was making assumptions, though. On whim, he suggested, “Is there anyone else you want to stay with? I can take you to them, if you need help.”
“Fuck off,” Thanatos said, immediately jerking away from Nico and rising unsteadily to his feet. “I can leave on my own.”
“I don’t want you to leave,” Nico said. “I’m sorry. I wasn’t trying to kick you out, I was just checking.”
“No, I don’t want to be here anymore,” Thanatos said. “I don’t know why I came in the first place.”
“Thanatos,” Nico sighed. “Why do you always have to be so difficult? You’re not going anywhere until you’ve had pancakes, so shut up.”
Nico grabbed him by the hand and pulled him inside despite his protesting. Hazel was in the living room watching TV, but she came into the kitchen to watch as Nico forced Thanatos to sit on a chair at the kitchen counter and wait for Nico to cook him pancakes. She leaned against the door frame and observed. Thanatos looked at her briefly, then ignored her.
“I don’t want them anymore,” Thanatos grumbled.
“Yes, you do. They’re really good. I stole Ariadne’s recipe,” Nico said. “Do you know her? I really like her.”
“I’ve run into her a few times. Mostly when she was wailing over one of her son’s dead bodies,” Thanatos shrugged. “She failed to charm me.”
“Well, she’s awesome,” Nico said. “I don’t have any ambrosia to offer you. I’m not a god, so I can’t just make it.”
“Obviously,” Thanatos said. He made some gesture at the countertop, and a jar of golden ambrosia appeared. “I packed a thermos for my trip into Tartarus, but I drank it too fast and ran out,” Thanatos said. “That’s when things got… Not good.”
“Did your uncle know you were there?”
“Probably, but he might have thought I was just curious,” Thanatos said. “I didn’t do anything to interfere, I only observed.” Although he’d claimed he didn’t want pancakes, he brightened significantly when Nico put the plate in front of him. They were lemon ricotta pancakes with powdered sugar, fresh lemon zest, and pomegranate seeds sprinkled on top. Nico topped it all off with a drizzle of ambrosia, and Thanatos ate them eagerly.
“Nico is a really good cook,” Hazel volunteered. “He makes the best spaghetti.”
Nico smiled proudly.
“I never bothered with it before I had you to cook for, Hazel,” Nico said. “I like cooking, though. My Nonna said the secret of all great Italian chefs is to use the best quality ingredients, and to put love into everything you make.”
Thanatos made a grossed out face on his next bite.
“Leave the love out next time. It has a terrible aftertaste.”
“Very funny,” Nico said, rolling his eyes. He made Thanatos a cappuccino and gave him a plate of biscotti, then sat and watched him eat. Hazel wandered back to the TV, bored with their lack of conversation.
Nico watched as Thanatos regained some of his normal divine grace and bearing, and was comforted to see him recuperating relatively fast. It was disturbing to see a god weakened. Thanatos was a mopey complainer at the best of times, but he was still supernaturally beautiful and radiant with power. Something was wrong with the universe when he wasn’t himself.
“Did I ever tell you the story of how I first started collecting Mythomagic cards?” Nico asked. Thanatos shook his head. “It’s a long story, but I think it’s kind of funny,” Nico said. He sat down beside Thanatos at the counter, stole his fork, and started eating some of his pancakes.
“Those are mine!” Thanatos said.
“I made them,” Nico said. “The story goes, that when I was around six years old, Papa came to visit us in Venice. He brought my mother red roses and a diamond bracelet, and he asked about our health and how we were doing in school. I don’t think he intended it to be a long visit. Well, when he asked me about what I’d been reading, I showed him a copy of ‘The Lives of the Saints.’ The children’s edition.”
“Shameful,” Thanatos said. “They attempted to indoctrinate you that young?”
“I think I got it from my aunt for Christmas or something.”
“Christmas?!” Thanatos said, horrified.
“I don’t celebrate it anymore,” Nico said self-consciously. “Papa was furious when he saw that book. He snatched it out of my hand and threw it into the canal.”
“As he should,” Thanatos said.
“I threw a huge fit,” Nico said. “It’s not like the book was my favorite or anything. But I was used to getting my way. My mother took my side, of course, and she started yelling at my father, and he started yelling at her. I was always dramatic, so me crying and screaming didn’t faze anyone, not even me. But then Bianca started crying, and we all went quiet. She never cried. We asked why she was upset when I was the one in trouble. Bianca said she thought Papa would never visit again because of me. She was crying because it wasn’t fair, since she didn’t do anything wrong.”
“She was right, it wasn’t her fault,” Thanatos said. “You should have thanked your father for protecting you from bad influences.”
“That was just the beginning of the trouble that night. My mother suggested a family walk to cool off. We all strolled outside and started walking alongside the canal. We were supposed to be going to get gelato. Within five minutes, Bianca shoved me into the water.”
“Good for her,” Thanatos said. “The spirit of my sister Nemesis possessed her.”
“I wanted to pull her in with me, but instead I got carried back into the house and had to get a bath, since the canal water was filthy. Bianca was sent to her room. My mother was so embarrassed by our behavior that she told my dad he should just leave, but I guess he felt sorry for her, because he offered to take me back out so that she could have Mama Time.”
“What’s mama time?”
“It was when she put her records on and drank a bottle of wine by herself, and we weren’t allowed to talk to her until the bottle was empty. She said it helped her be a better mother. It seemed to work.”
“So you went out again?”
“Yes. Papa took me around the city until it got dark. I don’t think we talked about anything. He bought my mother a pack of cigarettes and we went home. When we got back and she opened the cigarettes, there was a collectible card inside with a picture of Hades on it.”
“A Mythomagic card?”
“They started as collectible cigarette cards. The game aspect came later. Mama and Papa thought it was funny, although I didn’t understand why at the time. Papa sat down and told me all about Hades and his cool powers. I must have expressed an interest, because when I woke up the next morning, there were a dozen cases of cigarettes at the foot of my bed. I got a whole stack of cards. It was awesome.”
“That’s very interesting,” Thanatos said. “What did the cigarettes have to do with it? I don’t see the connection.”
“It was just a thing back then,” Nico said, standing and clearing the dishes. He felt suddenly very sad. He hadn’t thought about Bianca pushing him in the canal in ages. They’d often fought, but he’d always looked at it as normal sibling stuff. But he’d known even back then that her pushing him into the canal had been something different. He hadn’t known how to swim.
“My father has never given me a gift,” Thanatos said. “I wonder, if he did, what he would give me. I think I’d like more Mythomagic cards.”
“Seeing as they’re your only possession, I can’t think of any other ideas,” Nico said, dumping the dishes in the sink.
“That isn’t true. I have a Mythomagic table, and chairs,” Thanatos said. “And all the Mythomagic accessories. My room is crowded now.”
“Maybe you need a bigger room. You said your father has never given you a gift?” Nico said. “Do you and Erebos have a relationship?”
“I should think so,” Thanatos said, raising his eyebrows. “We’re very alike. Can’t you tell?”
Nico tried hard not to laugh.
“I’ve never met him, so I wouldn’t know.”
“You have,” Thanatos said. “When you visited my mother. An aspect of him is always there in her chamber.”
“That’s him? When you walk in and everything is darkness?”
“Who else would it be? You’re very unobservant,” Thanatos scoffed at him.
“I just didn’t know,” Nico said. “He has a very intense presence. Does he ever talk?”
“Of course not. He’d need a mouth for that, and fortunately, he’s never gotten around to forming one. Too many people have mouths nowadays. It makes existence so noisy.”
“Interesting,” Nico said, starting on the dishes. “Are you feeling better? You sound pretty good.”
Thanatos looked like he’d just remembered he was supposed to be sick, and slumped over again.
“You’re not getting more pity pancakes out of me, so don’t even try,” Nico said.
To his surprise, Thanatos laughed. It was an odd sound. His normal speaking voice was so curt and icy that his laugh was unexpectedly soft and sweet.
Hearing it made Nico smile. He didn’t turn around, because it felt like a rare moment, and he knew turning around to look would end it prematurely.
“I think I want to collect souls again,” Thanatos said quietly.
Nico spun around, his eyes wide.
“Are you sure?” He said.
“No. That’s why I used the phrase, ‘I think’ instead of the phrase ‘I know.’ You need to work on your listening comprehension.” Thanatos’ cheeks were pink, like he knew the gravity of what he’d just said and was self-conscious about how Nico would react. “But I think I do.”
Nico didn’t want to push him in any particular direction, so he sat down beside him and waited for Thanatos to explain himself.
“When I was working without rest, I felt as though I had no identity beyond collecting souls,” Thanatos said, running his fingers through his long strands of hair. “Now, I feel I have no purpose. I enjoy Mythomagic, but crushing those children at the tournament did not feel like the reason I was born.”
“Fair enough,” Nico said.
“I can’t describe it to you, because your weak mortal mind could never fathom it, but I’ll try to put it in terms you can comprehend,” Thanatos said. “Nico, being a force of nature is really fucking awesome.”
“Uh huh,” Nico said.
“But feeling taken advantage of and forgotten about wasn’t easy to bear,” Thanatos said. “It’s… Going back to work is… I don’t know. I’ll miss the freedom I’ve known the past few weeks.”
“It’s not all or nothing,” Nico said. “Why don’t you start with one soul? Then come back here and watch a movie with us. See how it feels.”
Thanatos mulled the offer over.
“Will you come with me?” He asked.
“Really?” Nico said. “I’d love that.” He’d always wondered what it looked like when Thanatos took a soul. To witness the process up close would be fascinating.
He was so excited that he forgot to tell Hazel they were leaving. Thanatos swept him up in his wings and whisked him off, suddenly, elsewhere. Nico could sense Thanatos’ excitement, but also his fear. His feathers shivered with trepidation as he opened his wings, revealing that he’d brought them to the site of a car accident.
It must have just happened a few seconds ago, at a hairpin turn on a narrow coastal road. The ocean bordered the left side, and there was a small stone cliff face on the right, leaving drivers little room for error. A small blue Fiat hadn’t managed to make the turn; it was crumpled like a soda can against the side of the cliff. There was no one around; death was first to the scene.
Nico had watched enough dashcam videos to hazard a guess at the circumstances.
“Going too fast, probably on his phone,” he said, looking at the tire marks on the asphalt. “It could have been prevented.”
“Not how it works,” Thanatos said tersely. “Today was his day.”
“But if he hadn’t been texting--”
“They only get so many days,” Thanatos said firmly. “Today was his last one. The manner by which it occurred is irrelevant.”
Nico had been talking mostly to distract himself; he realized that he was nervous, too, even though this really wasn’t a big deal. He kept rubbing his fingers against his palms unconsciously, and he felt energized and twitchy. He had that familiar ringing in his ears that told him death was close at hand.
Thanatos approached the crushed car, and Nico followed. He thought of Hazel standing atop the cliff, hesitating to jump into the water, her knees knocking together. Why did he suddenly feel like that? He’d seen his mother literally explode in front of him. This was nothing. But for some reason, every footstep he took toward the car felt like he was walking a mile.
Thanatos leaned over the driver’s side, completely focused on his task. Nico had to hurry and get to the window in time to see what came next.
The driver was a man in his forties, balding, wearing a striped shirt. He was slumped over the wheel and had a thick stream of bright red blood flowing from a wound on his head. His chest still rose and fell, just barely, but he was unconscious. The radio was playing a Lady Gaga song.
Despite the music, the scene felt silent and still. In the distance, a siren could be heard, coming closer with each passing second.
Thanatos and Nico both turned invisible, but they didn’t otherwise react to the approaching paramedics. Thanatos reached out and brushed his fingers gently across the man’s forehead.
A silver-blue soul emerged into his hand, shimmering and ethereal, like a water droplet full of smoke the size of an apple. Wispy light trailed off of it. The little soul shivered like it was cold on the outside.
Nico couldn’t tear his eyes away. It wasn’t any different than Minos’ soul had been, physically, but he could sense indications of the man’s personality in the flickering of his tiny soul. He was selfish, and sort of stupid, but he was great at making silly jokes at awkward times and making people laugh despite themselves. He was also a really good dancer.
Thanatos slipped the soul into an invisible pocket in his mantle. He moved too quickly for Nico’s liking; he wanted to get to know the man a little more, but there was no time.
The paramedics had reached the accident. The man’s chest had stopped moving, and the EMTs were reacting with disappointment, realizing they’d been too late. Nico and Thanatos had both become intangible, so the first responders walked right through them without realizing they were there.
“What movie will we watch?” Thanatos asked.
“Hm?”
“The movie at your house,” Thanatos said. “I’ve never seen an entire movie, but I’ve caught glimpses while working. Are there any with chariot races? I miss those. I used to see them all the time, and then one day they just stopped. Why is that? Do you know?”
Nico didn’t answer. Thanatos poked him in the shoulder.
“Hello?” Thanatos said. “Are you listening?”
“What?” Nico turned and looked at him. “Did you say something?”
Thanatos recoiled.
“Are you crying?”
“Oh.” Nico wiped his eyes. “I guess I am.”
“It’s just death. Stop making it weird,” Thanatos said. “You mortals and your sentimentality. You people always react as if this is somehow unusual.” He gestured at the paramedics, who were trying to resuscitate the man despite having no chance of success.
“I didn’t expect to be so moved. His little soul was just so cute,” Nico said, sniffling. “I bet he was scared. Do you think he knows he’s going to be okay?”
“How should I know whether he'll be okay? That’s not my department.”
Nico was barely listening. The death was over, but his ears were still ringing, and he felt more energized than ever. Why was that? The sensation was overwhelming, and very strange.
“It was beautiful,” Nico said, dazed.
“Well, thank you. I’ve spent a lot of time refining my technique,” Thanatos said smugly. “Still. There’s no need to be dramatic. Come, we’re leaving.”
“Wait,” Nico said. “One more. Just one more, please?”
“You said just one and then we’d watch a movie!” Thanatos said, stomping his foot stubbornly. “The whole point of you coming is to keep me from getting caught up in my old routine and collecting a thousand at once. Forget it, you’re making me upset.” He grabbed Nico and brought him back to the house in Chania.
“Wait!” Nico said, as they arrived back in his kitchen. “Okay, we can watch the movie, but then I really need you to do one more. Please?”
“I’ll have to think about it,” Thanatos said archly. “I’m a god of leisure now, and I work when I feel like it, not when Hades, or his son,” he added firmly, with a frown. “Orders me to.”
He went to the living room, where Hazel was relaxing with her feet up watching cartoons.
“Nico, I think you forgot to summon Minos,” she said. “I’m getting behind on my training schedule.”
“Uh, sure,” Nico said, still feeling weird. He summoned Minos for her, but he barely greeted his boyfriend when he arrived. Nico sat nervously perched on the arm of the couch while everybody else got comfy.
Hazel found the movie Gladiator, which had the requested chariot racing. Everyone enjoyed the film but Nico, who only paid attention when Commodus was on screen.
“He wouldn’t say that,” he remarked two or three times, but other than that, his mind was elsewhere.
He heaved a huge sigh of relief when the credits rolled. He grabbed Thanatos by the arm and yanked him to his feet.
“Come on, let’s go,” he said.
“Ugh. Fine. Do you have a specific soul you want me to collect? Is that why you’re being obnoxious?” Thanatos asked.
Nico hadn’t even thought of that, he’d just wanted to see another soul collection regardless of who it was. Now that he had been asked, the answer was obvious.
“She’s in the hospital in Litochoro,” Nico said. “She’s been waiting a really long time.”
Thanatos frowned.
“Name?”
“Rosa Bova.”
“No,” Thanatos said flatly.
“No?” Nico was dumbfounded. “What do you mean, no?”
“Pick someone else,” Thanatos said. “I’m not taking Rosa Bova’s soul.”
“Why not?” Nico asked.
“I said no. I don’t owe you an explanation.”
“Yes you do!” Nico said. “She deserves to die peacefully just as much as anyone else.”
“You have no idea what you’re talking about!” Thanatos said, his voice raising to a shout. “Do not ask this of me!”
“What the hell is wrong with you?” Nico said, also shouting. “Why are you discriminating against my friend?”
“Do not dare use that word. Death does not discriminate,” Thanatos said darkly.
“Isn’t that exactly what you’re doing?” Nico asked.
Thanatos glared at Nico, fuming with rage. Then he disappeared.
“Fuck,” Nico said, kicking a kitchen chair over.
“What’s the matter?” Hazel said, walking into the kitchen and standing the chair back upright. “You’re being weird. Who is this Rosa person?”
Nico didn’t know how to begin to explain, so he just said, “A friend,” and sat down.
“A friend that’s dying?” Hazel asked.
“It’s a long story,” Nico sighed.
Hazel walked up and gave him a hug. Nico hugged her back, grateful that she didn’t seem inclined to ask any more questions. He didn’t understand why he felt so rattled from watching Thanatos work. He kept picturing the man in the car accident over and over, and his wonderful little blue soul. Why did he care so much?
“Do you want to talk about it?” Minos asked.
Nico let go of Hazel, looking his boyfriend in the eyes.
“No, that’s alright, Minos,” he said gently. "Hazel needs to train. Would you mind looking after her for a while?”
“Of course,” Minos agreed. He and Hazel exchanged worried glances, but they headed up to the roof without another word.
Nico ran his hands through his hair. His chest was aching. He wasn’t sure why, but he felt like he was on the verge of a panic attack. And he couldn’t talk to Minos about it, because he didn’t feel like he could talk to Minos about anything at the moment.
There was nothing else to do but distract himself. He shadow traveled to a place he knew he really shouldn’t be going.
He stood in the middle of a long dirt road bordered by fields on either side. Above him, the sky was enormous and pure blue. The air was warm and still, and he could smell hay and cow manure. It was a far cry from the smell of the ocean. Texas was nothing like Greece.
He wandered up to the big red barn and peeked inside. Will was there, his blonde hair wind swept and wavy, wearing a thin white tank top and blue jeans. He was rinsing out feed buckets with a hose while four horses watched him from inside their stalls.
One of the horses noticed Nico and whinnied loudly, making Will glance up. He gasped.
“Hi,” Nico said, smiling.
He knew he shouldn’t be there. He shouldn’t have been there yesterday, either. And he definitely shouldn’t have been texting Will nearly every day since he'd moved to Greece. But Will was so cute when he smiled, and he looked so thrilled to see Nico, that it was hard to feel guilty about it.
Will walked up to him.
“I didn’t expect to see you again so soon. I’m gross and sweaty,” he said. “You came at a bad time.”
“Seems like a good time to me,” Nico said, pulling him close and kissing him.
“Not here,” Will said nervously, laughing and pushing him away. He looked over his shoulder. “My grandpa could walk out any second.”
“Do you want to go for a drive again?”
When Nico had picked up the flawless calf the day before, Will had offered him a tour of the ranch in the new truck Nico had bought him. The brief drive around had turned into a long, aimless ramble down local back roads, which had turned into pulling over and making out, which had turned into cuddling in the truck bed under the stars. Will had never asked about Nico’s boyfriend, and Nico had tried not to think about him. Minos had sort of given him permission to see other people. Kind of. At least that was what he told himself.
“If you want to, sure,” Nico said. He desperately wished he could take Will on a date at a nice restaurant, maybe somewhere in Paris like Luke had done for Annabeth, but Will didn’t know he had supernatural abilities. “Are there any nice restaurants in town? I’d love to treat you.”
“We can’t do that,” Will sighed. “People around here talk. It would be obvious we were together.” He turned red again. “Just because my grandpa knows doesn’t mean I want everybody to. We have ranch hands I have to work with. It might be awkward.”
“I bet every last one of them would love to get his hands on you,” Nico said. “They just can’t admit it to themselves. You are so gorgeous, it hurts to look at you.” Nico brushed Will’s hair out of his face. “You’re as beautiful as a flawless calf.”
“You’re funny,” Will said, although Nico had been being serious. “Look, maybe if my grandpa is asleep, I can sneak you into the house. My room is upstairs. He won’t hear us. He doesn’t wear his hearing aids much anymore.”
“I love that idea,” Nico said. “It’s like an American teen movie! And I can leave through the back window.”
“Exactly,” Will said. “I can finally live out my closeted high school fantasies. It’s funny. I had the dream high school experience that a lot of people would envy. Football team, honor roll. I dated a cheerleader.”
“No way!”
“Yeah. We’re still friends,” Will smiled. “I really had it all. But on the inside, I wasn’t being honest with myself. It’s not worth it, Nico,” he said. “We only get one life.”
“And it can end at any moment,” Nico said, taking his hand as Will walked him up to the main house. “That’s why we have to enjoy it.”
The ranch was a sprawling area with multiple barns and outbuildings, and the family home was enormous. It was built like a luxury cabin, with a wraparound porch and a large chandelier made from antlers hanging in the entryway. Will’s grandpa’s ranch was far from a cute family farm. Nico had come to learn that it was a huge operation, which made him extremely curious as to why Will said he needed money for school.
Will gestured for Nico to be quiet and snuck him up the stairs quietly. Nico barely got a glimpse into the living room, but he caught sight of Will’s grandpa, sprawled on a couch asleep. He had a table next to him with dozens of orange prescription pill bottles on it.
When Will brought him into his room and shut the door behind them, Nico had a chance to look around. Will had a huge corkboard covered in photos of him and his grandpa, him with his cheerleader girlfriend, and some with other college kids wearing UT Austin gear. He looked the happiest in the college pictures, with a big goofy smile in every single one.
Will also had a huge bookshelf, and the vast majority of it was full of medical textbooks. They were huge, and didn’t look like light reading. Nico went over to Will’s desk and saw some of his school notes spread out; he remembered that Will was going to school online now, studying biology.
“I didn’t realize you studied magic,” Nico said, pointing at some odd shapes and letters written on one of his papers.
“Magic? Uh, dude, don’t tell me you’ve never seen chemical equations before?” Will asked.
“No,” Nico said. “I’ve done some, uh, well, sort of chemistry-like stuff,” he said, awkwardly trying to avoid using the phrase ‘potions’. “But nothing like this. You’re really smart,” he added. Flattery usually helped take Will’s mind off of how weird Nico was, since it embarrassed him and he typically changed the subject afterward.
“Not really,” Will said. “I’m not doing that well in class at the moment. Online isn’t the same. I can’t study with my friends like I used to.”
“Are you flunking out?” Nico asked. He remembered kids doing that back at Westover Hall. He hadn’t been a particularly good student, himself; he’d talked in class too much and skipped homework to play Mythomagic.
“No, I’ll get my biology degree next year, but I won’t be getting into med school at this rate,” Will said, sitting down on his bed. “You need top scores, and mine are slipping.”
Nico sat down beside him.
“But you’d be an amazing doctor,” he said, slipping Will’s hands into his own. “You’re brilliant. I can see you helping a lot of people.”
Will just shook his head.
“Will, what’s going on with your grandpa?” Nico asked seriously.
“I thought this was a hookup,” Will said glumly. “Now you want all my sad stories?”
“They’re not mutually exclusive. Tell me what’s up.”
“His cancer came back,” Will shrugged. “They told us it would. He’s beaten it twice already. He’ll beat it again, don’t worry.”
“Twice? Wow,” Nico said. “That’s impressive.”
“He’s a fighter,” Will said proudly.
“You take after him,” Nico said.
“You think? I haven’t done anything.”
“Yeah, you have,” Nico said. He was pretty sure Will coming out was braver than anything he’d ever done. He wasn’t even brave enough to tell his boyfriend that he was seeing someone else. He was a coward. But he couldn’t help himself. Will was such a brilliant light of a young man, and being around him made Nico feel grounded and normal and human and alive. All the things Minos couldn’t give him. As selfish as it was, he felt like he needed this.
He pulled Will into his arms, kissing him.
“So, this high school fantasy of yours. How does it go?”
“Hmm,” Will said. “I guess I’m the school quarterback, and you’re the emo kid who smokes behind the dumpsters.”
“Okay,” Nico said. He didn’t really get it, but he wanted to be a good sport. “What else?”
“You wear a leather jacket and do petty crimes in town. And I volunteer at church on Sunday. Nobody knows about us,” Will smiled. “This is our secret.”
Nico slipped out before dawn. Will had been aware that he planned to do that; Nico never wanted to make anybody feel the way Eros had made him feel when he’d woken up alone unexpectedly. Nico was far from perfect; he knew he should have talked to Minos about this new relationship before they’d gotten physical. But he was going to do his best not to hurt Will. Not if he could help it.
He went back to the house in Chania, where it was now the early hours of the morning. Minos was sitting in front of the TV watching a documentary about the history of the Minoan civilization. Hazel must have found it for him, because Minos still struggled with modern technology like TV remotes.
Nico went to sit next to him. Minos put his arm around him wordlessly, and Nico rested his head on Minos’ shoulder.
“I need to tell you something,” Nico said quietly.
“Are you seeing someone else?” Minos asked.
Nico sat up, shocked.
“You already knew?”
“No,” Minos said. “But I had hoped you would heed my advice and meet someone soon. Tell me about him.”
Nico needed a moment before he could speak. He felt like he might burst into tears at any second, and he had no idea why.
It wasn’t just about the situation with Minos and Will. In fact, it wasn’t even mostly about them. Nico still felt off kilter and distracted. The ringing in his ears had gotten better, but it hadn’t gone away completely like he’d hoped. Watching Thanatos collect that soul had done something strange to him, and he didn’t know how to fix it. He was scared.
He pulled himself together and tried to be mature about the situation, the way Minos always was.
“I’m going to be really honest,” he said, reluctant to admit what he knew he needed to say. “I think I wanted you to get mad.”
“Do you want me to fly into a jealous rage?” Minos asked. “I can try.”
“No,” Nico said. “You should just be your real self. I’m being a jerk. I’m sorry. I know you’re dead and you experience things differently from me. I just can’t help how I feel.”
Minos stroked his thumb down Nico’s jaw.
“That’s alright. You’re being your real self, too. Now tell me about this other lover you’ve taken.”
Minos actually seemed really into hearing about Will, which someone else probably would have appreciated. Nico, unfortunately, was bitterly disappointed that Minos hadn’t been even a little bit jealous. Nico was, by nature, a passionate person, but there was a difference between wanting strong emotions to be returned, and just being a whore for drama. He didn’t want to be the latter, he felt like he was treading perilously close to the line. It wasn’t a nice feeling.
He was a good sport, and told Minos all about Will and even suggested they could meet someday, which was never going to happen. Then he and Minos were able to relax and watch the rest of the Minoan documentary together without guilt hanging over his head.
Minos pointed out a few sites he recognized, and Nico promised to take him to see some of his old haunts, especially the palace at Knossos where he’d once lived. Other than that, Nico wasn’t in the mood to talk much. Normally, he’d tell Minos about his problem and seek his advice, but the strange discomfort in his mind felt impossible to explain. It was easier to stare at the TV and keep quiet about it.
Just as the documentary was ending, Nico’s phone buzzed with a text message. Then another. Then another. He opened them one by one.
Morpheus had messaged him, “Welcome back!” Hypnos had said, “I don’t know how you did it, but thank goodness you did. It’s good to see him taking joy in his purpose again.” Charon had sent a thumbs up emoji.
“No way,” Nico muttered. “Minos, did you see this? Everyone is talking to me again! It’s about time!”
He turned to look, and saw that Minos was gone. Hades must have summoned him back.
Nico hurriedly checked the latest Underworld data. Thanatos had collected over ten thousand souls that evening.
Nico dropped his phone on the floor. He picked it up and stared at the number like it couldn’t be real. The speed at which Thanatos had been working was nothing short of astronomical. Like most gods, Thanatos could be in multiple places at once, but this was still way faster than what he’d been doing before.
Nico checked his email and saw a new one from his father, sent to the entire Underworld.
“As I’m sure you all have noticed, soul collection has resumed. All associates are expected to be at their stations. Inspections will be performed in the next few hours to ensure everyone has re-focused appropriately. We have no information on the reason for the sudden resumption of collection activity at this time. Also please note that projections for future collection rates are not available, so don’t ask. For the time being, assume this rate will continue.
ONLY because people have been asking, yes, Nico is still technically employed, although he is on probation due to repeated no-call no-shows. Therefore he is excluded from the running for employee of the month. Nominations for him will be thrown in the Phlegethon with extreme prejudice.”
Hades had managed to give Nico credit for doing his job without showing any approval towards him at all. His managerial skills were really something else.
With Minos gone and Hazel asleep, Nico went upstairs to the roof and lit a cigarette. He laid down on the concrete and looked up at the stars, searching for the constellations in the sky. He hadn’t learned much at Camp Half Blood, but Chiron had given them some great stargazing lessons. He sought the great heroes and monsters out one by one, remembering each of their stories in turn. He’d never join them, but he wondered if Hazel might someday. It was a comforting thought, but she had a lot of work to put in before she’d get there.
The cigarette smoke hovering in the air above him reminded him of the mist in Asphodel. The stars glittered above him looked like millions of tiny crystals set in the roof of the world. He sighed, and turned his head away, putting the cigarette out. He really missed the Underworld.
If he wanted to go home and talk to his father, this was probably the best moment to do it. Hades would be reluctantly pleased with him. Persephone would gush about what a good job he was doing. He could go and apologize to Thanatos for being weird. He could see Bianca.
He dug his nails into his palms. He was still angry with her. It still hurt. Facing her felt like an impossible task. But everything Nico had ever accomplished had felt impossible at one time. He had only one excuse left not to just get it over with.
That excuse padded over to him on bare feet and kicked him gently in the ribs.
“You need to sleep,” Hazel said.
“Thanatos went back to work,” Nico said, looking up at her. “Minos went home.”
“I don’t care. Go to sleep.”
“I’m fine. You don’t need to worry about me,” Nico said, standing.
“I’m not worried. I just want you to go to freaking sleep for once,” Hazel said. “You are human, right? Isn’t that something you need to do?”
“Right, right, definitely,” Nico said, getting up immediately. He was being silly; Hazel was right, he didn’t take proper care of himself. It had seemed like a waste of time worrying about sleeping and eating after he’d found out he was technically sort of dead. But for her sake, he needed to keep up appearances. He went to bed.
Chapter 50
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Nico was so annoying sometimes. Hazel had been trying to make this stupid sacrifice for ages, and the night she was finally ready, her brother had to be bullied into going to bed. Thank goodness he’d actually fallen asleep for once and wasn’t just scrolling on his phone like usual.
Hazel double, triple, and quadruple checked that he was truly asleep before she made her way out to the patio where Pickles the flawless calf was tied up. Minos had warned her that if she made the sacrifice while Nico was awake, he’d know, and it would be a whole thing.
Fortunately, it seemed like the night was fated for sacrifice. Pickles was sleepy and docile, the sky was clear and full of stars, and it was the new moon, lending the evening the perfect dark and spooky vibe.
She led Pickles off the patio and into the grass. Luckily she’d watched Nico set the wards, and she was able to stay inside the barrier without triggering any magical alarms. She felt like it was best if she let the calf’s blood soak directly into the earth. It just made sense for an Underworld deity.
She took a deep breath. So far, she felt like she was on the right track. She’d snuck out the night before and built a little altar of stone and earth while Nico wasn’t home, and it was still looking pretty good. Nothing fancy, but it would get the job done. She tied Pickles to one of the larger stones and got her kitchen knife ready. Now for the hard part.
She looked down at her composition notebook where she’d hastily scribbled down an original prayer. Nico had given her advice on an incantation for Pluto. Minos had helped her revise it a little, but she couldn’t figure out whether Nico was supposed to be a Greek or a Roman or some new kind of god. He was Italian and Greek and a tiny bit American all at once, but writing a prayer in three different languages was confusing. She’d said screw it, and had left it in English. That was the language they spoke together; it seemed right for this highly personal prayer.
Good thing Zeus had let slip that his name was actually Niccolo. She’d never have gotten that info out of Nico himself. It felt important to use his name accurately. Minos had advised her to make up a few epithets for him, but they all felt so cheesy. ‘Lord of Shadows’ sounded like she was talking about an evil demon, and ‘Phantom of Venice’ was the title of a Nancy Drew video game. She finally settled on ‘Prince of the Underworld,’ which felt straightforward and true.
Pickles yawned and laid down on the ground, resting his head on a rock. He was almost making it too easy. Of course Nico would pick out a suicidal cow, she thought, smirking.
She read over her notes a few more times, but the missing piece wasn’t going to be found in a notebook. She had to mean the prayer. It had to be fueled by true reverence and religious devotion.
Hazel didn’t have a good relationship with religion. Her only examples had been the St Agnes Academy for Colored Children and Indians, the problems with which were self-explanatory, and her mother’s witchcraft. Part of her mom’s practice involved a type of worship of various witchy deities like Hecate and Isis and Persephone. Her mom had been broke, desperate for power and guidance and, more than anything, hope. That was what led her to summon Pluto and give birth to Hazel. That was also what led her to being controlled and eventually killed by Gaea.
Hazel had despised her mother’s weakness and desperation. Her fervent whispering in the dark had sent shivers up and down Hazel’s spine in the middle of the night. And then she’d had to get up and go to mass at the crappy, racist Catholic school she was forced to attend, where she had to endure corporal punishments dished out by nasty nuns.
Yeah, she wasn’t into that religious nonsense. At least, she hadn’t been in her first life. Now, it was different.
She stared out into the darkness and listened to the sounds of the night. The breeze rustling through the short, spiky grass, the sound of the ocean not too far away, and the occasional bleat of a goat on a nearby farm were the only noises that broke the vast silence.
She thought about the first time she’d met Nico at the ill-fated Underworld family dinner. She pictured the way he’d glowed with divine radiance beside the grey shades of their siblings. She thought of the way he’d smiled, with that sad, empathetic kindness crinkling his deep brown eyes. She remembered how he’d taken an interest in her even when he’d had no reason to. Even when her own father hadn’t. He’d given her the greatest gift she’d ever receive, and he’d never expected anything from her in return. Instead, all he asked was that she survive the war and live a long, full life. He was giving his own time, energy, and resources to help her get stronger. And he was Hazel’s everything because of it. She loved him in a way that she’d never loved anyone or anything else. She felt loyalty and devotion, deference and respect. She felt like she was capable of anything when he was beside her.
She let her heart overflow with those feelings. Then she took up the knife and read her prayer aloud.
“Prince of the Underworld, Niccolo di Angelo-- Nico for short-- hear my prayer. You have always watched over me, guided and protected me, and I hope you always will. Son of Hades, thank you for giving me this life. Please help me to be strong, to make you proud, and most importantly, to kick Gaea’s ass. If I’m fated to do so, that is. I make this sacrifice to you to show my love, my gratitude, and my devotion.”
She grabbed Pickles and, as quickly as possible, she sliced his neck open. She flinched away from the hot blood-- she wasn’t enjoying this part at all-- but she’d done it. It felt good.
She sniffled, wiping her eyes with the clean part of her arm. Wow, she thought to herself. She really liked this new religion of hers. She felt good-- strong, focused, motivated. She felt certain that everything was going to be okay.
The next morning, Nico was insufferable. He woke her up at the crack of dawn, jumping onto her bed and announcing that he’d made Belgian waffles. He was already drinking espresso and smoking a cigarette. Hazel wanted to vomit just imagining the flavor combo.
“You would not believe the dream I had last night,” he said, sitting down cross legged next to her. “I dreamed you and I hosted a huge barbecue here at the house, and all the gods from the Underworld and Olympus came and partied with us. And we ate the best ribs I’ve ever had in my life. And you and I danced to jazz!”
“Really?” Hazel asked. “I love that!” She couldn’t be more thrilled with the effect of her sacrifice, even if it felt super early for the energy level Nico was displaying.
“Come on, let’s get you fed, and then we’re going to Athens!” Nico said. “It’s a sibling date! We’re seeing the city!”
“Okay. Cool. Five more minutes,” she said, turning over and pulling the comforter over her face. It was promptly ripped off, and she was dragged downstairs to try his waffles while they were still hot.
Nico was in rare form that day. They went to three museums in a row, looking at ancient artifacts until Hazel’s eyes glazed over from too much learning. Then they got donuts. Then they went to the Acropolis and took selfies at the Parthenon. Then they got ice cream. Then they went to the Theater of Dionysus and took selfies there. Then, instead of a normal lunch, Nico insisted on a food tour. Then they went to the ancient Agora and took more selfies together.
She’d expected the sacrifice to make Nico more godly and powerful, but it seemed to work more like divine crack cocaine. Nico was bouncing off the walls and wouldn’t shut up, and she was being run ragged.
Finally, he dragged her up the hill to the Acropolis for the second time because he wanted to take pictures at sunset.
“Okay, Haze, just lean against that column-- You’re not gonna get in trouble, just lean on it-- Now smile! Smile bigger than that, you look miserable!”
“I’m really tired,” she said, irritable and too exhausted to hide it. “Can we go home, please? I don’t need more pictures.”
“Hazel, social media is everything in the 21st century, you need all the pictures,” he said. “And you look so cute! Don’t you want to remember this day forever?”
“I’m definitely going to remember today forever,” she sighed. “But I can’t do this anymore.”
“Come on, pose over by the wall--”
“No, Nico, I’m done posing,” she said. “I want to go home.”
“Home? We’re not going home, we have a Segway tour starting in half an hour!”
“What?!” She screamed. “No! No, no no! I want to go home!”
“Come on, it’ll be fun!”
She sat down at the base of the column and folded her knees up to her chest, wrapping her arms around them.
“I’m not moving,” she said.
“Hazel, be a good sport,” Nico said. “The night is still young, we have a lot of Athens left to see!”
“I’m. Not. Moving,” she said. “I want to go home.”
“That’s too bad,” he said. “Come on, get up. Quit acting like a baby.”
“Leave me alone!” She said loudly.
Heads turned. A few of the other tourists looked concerned for her welfare. Nico backed off a little.
“I’m going to count down from three,” he said firmly. “And when I get to one, you’re going to get up and be a good sport. Three.”
She rolled her eyes. That sacrifice had been her worst idea ever.
“Two.”
“I’m not getting up,” she said.
“One.”
The lights of the Acropolis came on all at once, illuminating the ruins as the sun continued to sink below the horizon. Hazel and Nico both glanced behind them to see the new view of the Parthenon and other temples.
“Thanatos?”
Nico was staring directly upwards, toward the top of the column that Hazel was sitting under. She looked up too, and saw the familiar white wings and grey mantle of the god of death. Thanatos was perched atop the column. What was he doing there?
“I’ve been watching the two of you for some time now,” he said. “You’re not very observant, Nico. You didn’t even notice me until the lights came on.”
“We’ve been busy,” Nico said.
“Yes, busy counting and arguing. Sounds very important,” Thanatos said, in his usual dry, sarcastic tone.
“We’re trying to have some wholesome family fun,” Nico said, putting his hands on his hips. “But Hazel’s throwing a fit.”
“I’m tired,” Hazel moaned. “Nico is in a really good mood today, and he’s taking it out on me!”
Thanatos stared at Nico, tilting his head.
“Are you really in that good of a mood?” He asked.
“I am having the best day ever,” Nico said. “I woke up today feeling on top of the world. Like, totally unstoppable.”
“Ah. Interesting,” Thanatos said. He was smiling and trying to hide it behind his long, unruly hair. “I suppose you’ve been too busy to look at your emails lately.”
“Oh, I read them,” Nico said.
“Did you?” Thanatos picked at his nails, trying to appear nonchalant. “I hadn’t heard from you, so I wasn’t sure.”
Nico folded his arms, looking up at him.
“Than. I can call you Than, right?”
“I don’t know. I suppose-- Ack!” Thanatos flinched and fell off the column. Nico had sent a tendril of shadow up to poke him on the shoulder. The winged god smacked into the ground, leaving him staring up at Nico in shock. “You pushed me!”
“I nudged you. If you weren’t so jumpy, you’d be fine,” Nico said, taking his hand and helping him up. “You’re amazing,” Nico added, hugging Thanatos.
“What is the matter with you? Are you under a spell or something?” Thanatos said, looking down at Nico’s arms around his torso. “Stop touching me! I’m going to blast you with dark energy if you don’t stop, I’m serious!”
Nico let go, smiling at him like he was amused.
“What compelled you to collect ten thousand at once?” He asked.
“No reason,” Thanatos said. “You are being very strange,” he added, brushing off his mantle and rearranging the folds that Nico had wrinkled.
“I told you, I’m just really, really happy,” Nico said.
“I don’t suppose your emotions and my soul collections are in any way connected,” Thanatos said, without meeting Nico’s eyes.
Hazel perked up her ears, looking closely at Thanatos. She typically liked to stay out of his way when he was around. Too many bad associations from their first meeting. But now she paid attention to him.
“Of course it’s connected,” Nico said.
“Really? It means that much to you?” Thanatos asked.
“Than, it’s everything,” Nico said. “What could be more important than death?”
Thanatos shrugged, feigning nonchalance, but Hazel could tell how hard he was trying not to smile.
“I still can’t help your friend, Rosa,” he added. “And I still can’t tell you why.”
“I’ll get it out of you eventually,” Nico said. “Do you want some ice cream?”
“Fine,” Thanatos said, although Nico had already disappeared to go get it. He stared at the place where he’d been standing, lost in thought.
“Did you collect all those souls because you felt bad about disappointing him?” Hazel asked.
Thanatos spun around and looked at her like he’d forgotten she was there.
“Uh, no,” he said. “I don’t need a reason to do my job.”
“You did need a motivation, though,” she said. “Congrats on going back to work, by the way.”
He nodded.
“I’m not on your list to die in the next few months, by any chance, am I?” She asked.
“No. Not that I’d be getting to you on time if you were. My vacation put me very behind schedule,” he sighed. “I’m trying to learn how to be death and a person at the same time,” he added quietly.
“Stick with my brother,” Hazel said. “And you’ll definitely figure it out.”
Nico returned with three ice cream cones.
“Take them, they’re dripping all over my hands,” he said, passing them out to Hazel and Thanatos. “Let’s go sit on top of the Parthenon and watch the sunset!”
Without waiting for them to agree, he took their hands and shadow traveled them on top of the columns.
“Won’t Athena be mad that we’re up here?” Hazel asked, glancing down anxiously.
“I think we’re good as long as we don’t get ice cream on it,” Nico said. “Hey, Hazel? Sorry for pushing you so hard today. I didn’t mean to be a jerk about the Segway tour. It’s not that important.”
He put his arm around her, and she put her arm around him, too.
“No big deal,” she said. “Thanks for taking me on a sibling date. I love you, big brother.”
“Love you, too,” he said, kissing her on the cheek.
Hazel was very happy to sit and finish her ice cream and finish the evening on a high note, but she felt Thanatos staring at her with his pretty, yet creepy, golden eyes.
She glanced his way. He looked blatantly jealous. He was so obvious about it that she was kind of embarrassed for him.
She turned away and rolled her eyes. She wondered whether Nico had realized yet that Thanatos was obsessed with him.
“I brought you something,” Thanatos said suddenly. Nico let go of Hazel and turned to him, and Thanatos shot Hazel a triumphant smirk. Did he seriously have nothing better to do than be jealous of Nico’s little sister, she wondered to herself.
He pulled something black and shiny out of his mantle.
“You found some Stygian iron?” Nico exclaimed, taking it from his hands.
“Not just any Stygian iron,” Thanatos said. “I went back to talk to my sister, and she volunteered that she’d found this.”
“Styx? She found this?” Nico asked. “Wait! This isn’t…”
“Yes, this is the key,” Thanatos said. “The magic of her waters has stripped it of its power.”
“It’s smooth now. The carvings are gone,” Nico said. “It must have been rolled against the gravel. But this is good. At least we have something to work with.”
“We need to start enchanting it again immediately,” Thanatos said. “There is still some lingering magic; I can use it as my guide to re-do the spells.”
“Okay. I’ll help as much as I can.”
Hazel was relieved when they returned to Chania and Nico and Thanatos secluded themselves to work on the key. She had a nice, restful evening to herself. The next day, unfortunately, the news was bad.
When she went downstairs to breakfast, Nico looked exhausted and miserable.
“We got nowhere,” he said. “We were doing magic all night, and it just sat there like a lump of rock. I’ve got no idea how Nyx and Hades made it work.”
“You’re talking about the key you used to open that door, right? The one you took us through? What happens if you can’t get it working?”
“It’s not for you to worry about,” Nico said kindly. “Thanatos left to do more research, so we can focus on your training today.”
“About Thanatos,” Hazel said, feeling slightly awkward asking. “Are you two… You know…”
“What? Are you crazy?” Nico laughed. “I don’t even think he likes me, honestly. I’ve caused him so much trouble over the last few weeks.”
“Are you sure?”
“I’m actually seeing someone new,” Nico said, eager to change the subject. “His name is Will. He was the guy that sold me the calf. I waited to tell you until I’d gotten the chance to explain it to Minos.”
“Oh, wow! So you and Minos broke up?”
“No, he’s cool with it,” Nico said. “Will is super cute. He’s a normal person, not a demigod or anything. He’s really sweet. I think you’d like him.”
“Aww. I’m happy for you!” Hazel said. “I kind of wondered whether you’d be satisfied with dating a ghost.”
“Uh, yeah,” Nico sighed. “It’s been a learning experience. Anyway, back to the serious stuff. Hazel, I want to give you something.”
He gestured at the kitchen island countertop. Hazel watched in awe as two of the black rings on his fingers liquefied, floated onto the counter, and reformed into the shape of two long black knives.
“These were made by our grandfather, Kronos, for the Titan war. Only children of Hades are permitted to wield Stygian iron. I think you’re meant to have these.”
“So cool,” she whispered, reaching out to touch one of the knives.
Nico gestured quickly, and they turned back into harmless rings.
“First, a safety lesson,” he said. “I want you to understand the power of these weapons. If you use Stygian iron to kill someone, they don’t die. They disappear. Completely. Their soul will be destroyed forever. No rebirth, no afterlife, nothing.”
A shiver went down Hazel’s spine. She knew there were plenty of people walking around living productive lives who believed that death would be the end of their existence. But as a daughter of Pluto, and as someone who’d already experienced the afterlife firsthand, it freaked her out immensely. Asphodel was nothing to write home about, but it was something. She couldn’t imagine ‘nothing’.
“We’re children of the Underworld. Nobody knows death better than we do,” he said. “Especially you, Hazel. I think I can trust you with this power.”
“I don’t want them,” Hazel said. “I’m sorry, but I can’t imagine wanting to use them on anybody. I’m fine just killing people the normal way.”
Nico laughed at that.
“You’re fine with killing people?”
“If I have to,” she said.
“I don’t expect you to use these on people, other than in exceptional circumstances. That said, the good thing about Stygian iron is that it lets you destroy monsters permanently. You might remember that we’ve fought and killed a certain sea snake twice,” he said, with a guilty look flashing across his face.
“I thought they were twins.”
“No, it was the same one. Monsters are coming back very quickly these days. It’s a thing. Um, no follow up questions on that, please,” he added. “Anyway! Yeah, use this on monsters, and it’ll be the last time anyone ever sees them. It’s like pest control; everybody appreciates the necessity. But people, gods, demigods, et cetera, best to use something else.”
“Okay,” Hazel said.
“I also have these,” Nico said, rolling two glass balls filled with black smoke across the island towards her. “I don’t know a lot about them. I thought we could experiment?”
They went out to the backyard to practice; Nico told her that she’d outgrown the roof and needed access to the earth for his training. He had her toss the glass balls out into the grass and they watched as the black dog and the poisonous snakes emerged from the smoke.
Nico went ahead and let one of the snakes bite him, despite Hazel’s protests.
“My hand is numb,” he said, examining the wound. “I feel like this could paralyze someone if they were vulnerable to it.”
“You don’t look very paralyzed,” Hazel said.
“Maybe because I’m an Underworld demigod, and that’s where it was made?” Nico shrugged. “But I have a feeling that would be nasty in other circumstances.”
Hazel rolled her eyes. He was so deep in denial about being a god, it was kind of embarrassing to witness. He wasn’t going to accept reality unless he was dragged into it kicking and screaming.
“What’s this?” He asked after he’d sent the snakes back into their glass ball. He kicked at the dirt pile where Hazel had sacrificed Pickles. She’d built a little earthen mound to cover his body. Burning the calf would have been more traditional, but she had been sleepy.
“That’s Pickles,” she said.
“I was wondering where he went. I’d have helped you out if you’d asked,” Nico said. “Did it go okay? Did Papa send you any sign he heard?”
Hazel’s heart started racing. Nico was looking right at her. She was so dumb; of all the gods she could sacrifice to, Hades was the one Nico was most likely to bring this up with. What would she say if he texted Hades and he said he hadn’t gotten any sacrifice?
“A-Artemis,” she stammered. “I sacrificed to Artemis. Since she-- the necklace. You know.”
“Ew. Okay,” Nico said. “I guess I get it, but she’ll never thank you,” he said, shaking his head. “Next time pick a god who’ll give you something in return.”
“I will,” she said.
He went back to training her, and the longer they worked together, the more she missed the rooftop with Minos. Nico was brutal. He made her practice with the snakes and the dog over and over again, rehearsing using them in different scenarios, even though the snakes freaked her out and she couldn’t get the dog to do what she wanted. Her shadow traveling was crappy and inaccurate, and she kept traveling vertically instead of horizontally, trapping herself in the earth. Luckily, she wasn’t freaked out by that, since shaping the earth came instinctively to her. Still, it was annoying to have to dig herself out every time.
One of the coolest things Nico taught her was something he came up with on the fly, which was covering the Stygian iron of their weapons in normal steel to disguise them. He found some monsters to experiment on, and through trial and error, they found that coating the metal negated the effects of the Stygian iron, turning them into normal weapons with hidden, terrifyingly powerful cores.
“Like you,” Nico told her, trying to be encouraging while she forced herself to spar with him one more time despite her aching muscles. “You have hidden power. We’re going to bring it out of you.”
It took a week of utterly exhausting training before Hazel realized that Nico genuinely thought he could make her as strong as he was. He refused to go easy on her in sparring, he disappeared every so often to grab monsters and expected her to come up with ways to evade their attacks on the fly, and worst of all, he made her jog first thing in the morning. She knew he was breaking her down in order to build her back up, only she was never going to be able to reach the level he was expecting. It wasn’t fair.
Things really took a turn for the worse on the second week of Nico Academy, as he jokingly called it. He built a literal racquetball court underground and made her play him every day, claiming that it was how he’d learned agility from the deified Emperor Commodus. Hazel thought it was the stupidest idea she’d ever heard, but it ended up helping for a while. Turning training into a game made it feel a little less like torture, and being underground felt refreshing. They started using the earth to make the game harder and to play tricks on each other, and it was actually enjoyable, when Nico bothered holding back.
He didn’t hold back as much as she would have liked. Unfortunately, the more they trained, the more he seemed to worry that she wasn’t progressing fast enough.
“Gaea is really strong, Hazel,” he said during one of her water breaks. “She has powers at her disposal that you can’t imagine.”
“Oh, really?” Hazel said, dumping water on her face. It was icy cold beneath the earth, but she was dripping with sweat anyway.
“I saw a gathering of her forces once on Circe’s island,” he said, tapping his racquet on his knee. “It was terrifying.”
“Imagine how it felt when she fucking killed me,” Hazel snapped. “I know she’s powerful, Nico. I don’t need to be reminded.”
“Sorry, but I’m just getting worried. You need to get to camp soon, and we’re running out of time.”
“I thought we had till spring. It’s not even Halloween yet.”
He sighed.
“The war starts in spring, yes. But showing up at the last possible minute doesn’t set you up for success. We need to go to Camp Jupiter and at least evaluate whether you can learn anything from them.”
Hazel paused to mull the new idea over in her mind. She’d imagined herself walking into a war and facing Gaea head on the moment Persephone left the Underworld on March 21st, when spring began. But if there was a chance to go to Camp, that meant a chance to actually relax and have some fun with kids her own age. It would be nice to hang out with demigods that slept and ate normally, and didn’t make her feel like the slowest, weakest person on the planet.
“Also, during the war, you’ll be part of a team of other heroes, and I want a chance to feel them out. I don’t want you working with idiots that are going to get you killed.”
“Other heroes? Nobody told me it was a group project!” Hazel was cursed with both being an introvert and with an actual curse. A hero team sounded like a recipe for disaster. Suddenly, everything started looking even bleaker than it already had.
“Don’t go spreading that info around. You’re not supposed to know,” Nico said, brushing his hair back. “I shouldn’t be telling you this. I’m just worried about you, damn it. I’m so freaking stressed.” He threw the racquet across the court and watched it bounce off the earthen walls. “I know I’m pushing you hard. It’s because I love you, Hazel.”
“I’m only human,” she said quietly. Everything hurt. She was so tired. If she didn’t love Nico immensely, she’d have laid down and given up ages ago.
“We should bring a monster down here next,” Nico sighed. “We need to work on your shadow control. It sucks.”
“I know,” she said, feeling like the weight of the world was on her shoulders.
A few days later, he trapped her in the racquetball court with a monster. More accurately, he trapped a monster in the racquetball court with her, because she demolished it. It was a big, ugly lobster creature with purple pincers dripping acid everywhere. Even with the handicaps of no earth-shaping, shadows only, she was able to use wall jumps to launch herself onto its back and thrust her knives between the layers of shell. She twisted them viciously, cracking it open and revealing the soft white meat inside. She dug the Stygian iron blades into the flesh of its back and waited for it to dissolve into dust. When it disappeared, she was left standing on the ground calmly. It had felt no different to her than a stroll in the park.
She looked up at Nico, waiting on his approval.
“Okay, next time, two at once,” he said. He was never satisfied. She could see in his eyes that he was thinking about how he would have done it differently.
That pissed her off. He had never trained even a fraction as hard as she had. He could shadow travel around so quickly and accurately that it was functionally no different to being everywhere and nowhere at once. Worse, he could become intangible, so he was almost never in any danger from anyone, ever. He wasn’t even that good at hand to hand combat, he just had faster reflexes than a demigod could ever hope for. Not that he wasn’t intelligent and creative with his fighting style; he was, but he expected way too much from her.
“You know, sometimes just stabbing something is enough,” she said. “I don’t have to do some wonky magic thing and avoid coming in contact with it.”
“Until you learn intangibility, I want you to work on avoidant strategies,” he said. “Not saying you’re wrong, but it’s safer--”
“You’re driving me nuts,” she said, wiping the sweat from her brow.
It wasn’t fair. She’d had so little time to train. She’d only just been reborn and she’d been thrown straight into the fire. At least it felt that way. She couldn’t even really blame Nico. She’d volunteered herself for resurrection; he couldn’t help it that there was a war coming up. He was giving almost every moment of his time to helping her, and he didn’t ask for anything in return. But he was actually driving her insane, and she felt so crappy, and she’d reached the end of her rope.
“Gaea isn’t going to give you breaks--”
“I don’t care!”
“But—”
“I don’t care, I don’t care, I don’t care, just shut up already!” Hazel shouted.
“Yikes,” a familiar voice said. “Trouble in resurrected paradise?”
Hazel and Nico turned to see that Hermes had invited himself into their training area. Hazel immediately felt guilty. She hated to make Nico look bad in front of another god.
“Nico—” she said.
“It’s okay,” Nico said quietly. “I understand.”
He looked so sad that she had to turn away from him.
“It’s Ethan,” Hermes said. “We found him. You’re being sent to capture him. Hera’s orders.”
“Okay,” Nico said. “Hazel, feel free to stay home if you’re tired.”
“I’m coming,” she said, even though she wanted a nap and a sandwich more than anything at that moment.
She noticed Nico trying to catch her eye. He glanced at her knives. She needed to hide them in front of Hermes.
“How’s Luke?” Nico asked, trying to distract Hermes.
“The same,” Hermes said sadly. “If there’s a right combination of words that will make him cooperate, I haven’t found them. He doesn’t talk much.”
“Some lines can’t be uncrossed,” Nico said. Hermes didn’t respond.
Hazel covered her knives with steel just in time for Hermes to ask if he could see her new weapons. He inspected them, and appeared to find nothing amiss.
“Odd,” he said. “I could have sworn they were Stygian iron.”
“Where is Ethan?” Nico asked.
“I’m sending you the location,” Hermes typed on his phone. “Before you go, though, I have to ask. How did you get Thanatos to go back to work? Did you blow him or something?”
“What is the matter with you?” Nico said. “Of course not!”
“You two seemed pretty chummy on Godstagram the other day,” Hermes shrugged. He pulled up a photo on the Gossip Goddess Godstagram page and showed it to them. It was a photo of him, Hazel, and Thanatos eating ice cream at the Parthenon.
“We’re just friends,” Nico said. “And he needed a vacation. He went back to work when he was ready. End of story.”
“Mhm. Sure,” Hermes said suspiciously.
Hazel bit her tongue. She was a little suspicious herself, in a different way. It seemed like Thanatos did have a thing for Nico. She didn’t blame her brother for ignoring it; he had two boyfriends already, which ought to be enough for anybody. But Thanatos had been visiting almost every night to work on that magic stone project that they were so concerned about.
Hermes flapped away on his winged sneakers, and Nico took a look at his phone.
“Holy shit,” he said quietly. “That photo of us got a ton of likes. Even Papa liked it. He never interacts with posts.”
“Really?” Hazel couldn’t care less about her father. Nico was the only parental figure she needed now. But she knew that he was important to her brother, and she didn’t like being the reason they didn’t speak anymore. “Maybe you should reach out.”
“Nah, false alarm,” Nico said. “He commented on the picture saying ‘How do I unlike posts?’ Must have been an accident.”
Hazel sighed.
“Where are we going?”
“He’s at the Necromanteion,” Nico said. “That’s not good. It’s really not good.”
“Why not?”
“It’s an entrance to the Underworld. It connects to the Acheron, which goes right past Hecate’s cave. If Ethan is sneaking in, it’s possible he’s trying to recruit Hecate for Gaea’s cause.”
Nico and Hazel shadow traveled to the Necromanteion immediately. They stood outside the ruined temple and found a dark, shadowy corner to hide in.
“You take the left side. I’ll take the right,” Nico whispered. “If you see him, make a rock fall on his head. I’ll take it from there.”
Hazel snuck around the left side of the ruins and looked for signs of Ethan. As a child of the Underworld, he would probably be good at sneaking around in the shadows. Nico could be invisible, though; she’d like to see Ethan try to top that.
A dark shadow crossed the moon, and the hair on her arms stood up. It looked like a giant black bird had just swept across the sky. Was Thanatos coming to see Nico? If so, he had terrible timing.
Hazel continued sneaking around the ruins. There were low walls and broken columns everywhere, and tons of places to hide if you were a demigod up to no good.
She had to stop short suddenly. In front of her, a lanky Asian guy was sitting with his back to a low stone wall, where he was typing something on his phone. His face was illuminated by the light of the screen, which was the only reason she’d seen him. The rest of his body was shrouded in a cloak of darkness.
He wasn’t the only person who had Cthonic abilities. She found a pool of shadow and stepped into it, reappearing on the other side of the wall from where he sat. She could hear him breathing through the stone.
She reached a finger up and tapped one of the large stones that formed the half-crumbled wall. It plunked straight onto his head.
He cried out in pain.
“Oh, shit, are you okay?” Nico called out. Hazel jumped at the sound of her brother’s voice, but she didn’t move. He hadn’t said anything about this being the plan.
Nico ran up to Ethan, who was moaning and clutching his head.
“Stay back,” Ethan rasped, scrambling away from Nico clumsily. She heard him draw a weapon, though she couldn’t see what it was. “Who are you?”
“The name’s Alabaster,” Nico said. “Who are you?”
“You don’t need to know that,” Ethan said. “Alabaster?”
“Weird name, I know,” Nico said. “You need to be more careful where you sit, dude. This place is falling apart. Are you a tourist?”
“Not exactly,” Ethan said. “You’re Alabaster Torrington?”
“Uh, how do you know my last name?” Nico said, pretending to be creeped out. “I didn’t tell you that.”
“They said you were missing,” Ethan said, looking at his phone again. “You’re a son of Hecate.”
“Woah. Okay, who the heck are you, dude?” Nico said. “How do you know all this stuff about me?”
“Ahem,” Ethan said, getting to his feet with difficulty. He rubbed his head. It was bleeding, and his eyes were glazed over like he was concussed, but he was managing. “Have you ever found yourself dissatisfied with your current godly parent? Are you tired of being a pawn of the gods?”
“Yes,” Nico said. “It sucks being a demigod. We have short, miserable lives full of violence and trauma.”
“So true,” Ethan said, blinking hard as if he was having trouble getting his eyes to focus. “Well, what if I told you there was another way?”
“Another way? Go on,” Nico said.
“What if I told you that there was a coalition of sorts forming,” Ethan said. “Made up of gods, monsters, and demigods like yourself who want to see a change in the current Greco-Roman world order?”
“Didn’t they already try that with Kronos?” Nico said. “That didn’t work out so great.”
Ethan flinched at hearing the word Kronos.
“This isn’t like that at all,” Ethan said. “Our leader isn’t a crazy dictator like Kronos. He wanted us to serve him. But our leader only wants freedom, for everyone. She wants nature and the gods and the gods’ children to roam the earth and live the way we choose. No hierarchies, no kings, no thrones. No yoke of filial piety around our necks. Just a new start for everyone.”
“I don’t know,” Nico said hesitantly.
“Also, Zeus doesn’t believe in climate change. He thinks it’s a hoax.”
“What? But I’m very concerned about climate change!” Nico said.
“Yeah, as you should be,” Ethan agreed. “Well, our leader is going to fix it. That’s her number one priority.”
“Well, gee whiz,” Nico said. “Who is this lady? She sounds like she’s got some good ideas.”
“You’ll find out in due time,” Ethan said. “After you take your oath.”
“My oath?”
“Yes, we all have to swear our allegiance to her on the Styx before we can take advantage of the benefits of membership,” Ethan said.
Hazel’s blood went cold. She could tell from the way Nico hesitated to respond that he was also reckoning with the new reality. Now that they knew, they were obligated to kill Luke Castellan, or risk Zeus’s wrath.
“That’s a big commitment,” Nico said hesitantly. “I’ll admit, I have been shopping around for new opportunities, but no one has asked me to make an oath like that.”
“Wait to decide until you hear the benefits,” Ethan said. “We’ve made a ton of improvements to the way things worked under Kronos. Our leader has really taken notes and tried to do better than he did. We’ve got a complaints box. Nobody has to be an avatar for her physical form. And there’s unlimited PTO in case you want to take your girlfriend to Paris, for example.”
“Wow. Sounds pretty cool,” Nico said. “But I’m still not sold. What about after we take over the earth?”
“If you get up high enough in the ranks, you can earn yourself an entire city as your reward,” Ethan said. “I got dibs on Fresno.”
“Why Fresno?”
“No idea,” Ethan shrugged. “Anyway, thoughts? Questions? Concerns?”
“Sounds tempting, but I’m still a little hesitant,” Nico said. “It’s dangerous to go against the grain. There’s no point in me joining if I die before I get my city.”
“That’s the best part,” Ethan said. “If you die, Gaea will resurrect you.”
“Oh, for real?” Nico said. “How?”
“Through Tartarus. My--”
He was cut off, his voice replaced by the dull, wet sound of a blade cutting through flesh. Ethan’s body flopped to the ground.
“That’s enough of that,” a sharp, bitter female voice said. “Come out, both of you.”
Hazel walked around the wall and went to stand behind Nico. A petite, dark haired woman with black wings was standing over Ethan’s dead body, wiping a bloody knife on her jeans.
“Hazel, this is Nemesis,” Nico said, his voice cold and stiff. “Ethan’s mother.”
Hazel realized that Nico was scared, and it sent a jolt of fear through her, too. Nemesis had just murdered her own son. She’d been the winged figure that had passed overhead earlier; she’d been watching them.
“We were ordered to capture him,” Nico said.
“Whatever,” Nemesis spat. “I took care of it. You’re done here.”
“But I don’t understand--”
“What’s to understand? I brought him into this world, and I took him out of it.”
“But why?” Nico asked.
She reached down and picked Ethan’s body up like it weighed nothing, cradling him in her arms. She looked down at his face and sighed.
“Better he die now than disappoint me a second time,” she said. She looked up at Nico with a vicious glint in her eyes. “You will tell Hermes you didn’t find him. Say nothing of my presence here. If you don’t do as I ask, I’ll tell Hecate you’re wearing her dead son’s name like a jacket you can put on and take off. She forgave you for destroying his soul because you showed respect for the gravity of the act. She may revoke that mercy if she hears what you just did.”
“I had reasons for using his name,” Nico said. “But fine. We’ll lie to Hermes for you, if you’re going to be like that about it.”
He squeezed Hazel’s hand tightly. She was trembling a little, but he made her feel a little steadier.
Not steady enough. Another winged figure swooped in from overhead, and Hazel nearly jumped out of her boots as Thanatos landed in front of them, stopping to stand between Nemesis and Nico.
“Sister,” he said. “What are you doing here?”
“My son just died.”
“Obviously. Hence my presence,” Thanatos said curtly. “What does it have to do with Nico?”
“I’ll explain later,” Nico said, stepping forward so that he was shoulder to shoulder with Thanatos. “Do what you came to do.”
Nemesis walked up to her older brother and held Ethan’s body up to him like she was presenting him as an offering. Their height difference and the contrast in their coloring made them look like opposites, like he was a page and she was the ink. She shared a long, silent glance with her brother before he reached out towards Ethan’s head.
Hazel turned her head away, not wanting to see it happen. She felt sick to her stomach thinking about the dark, cold night when it had been her turn. It had been so long ago, and yet she remembered it like it had been yesterday. In a way, it really had been yesterday. She relived it every night in her dreams.
After it was done, Thanatos held a shining silvery blue soul into his palm. It had a slightly dark tinge to it. Hazel wondered if Ethan had been born in the Underworld. Being born somewhere so dark and steeped in magic had to have an impact.
Nemesis draped Ethan’s limp body over her shoulder.
“Remember what I said,” she told Nico. He stared back at her coldly.
“Sorry for your loss,” he said.
She turned around and flew off into the dark sky.
Hazel slumped against a rock.
“Geez,” she sighed. “That was intense.”
Nico wasn’t paying any attention to her.
“Can I hold him? Please?”
“Fine, but don’t drop him,” Thanatos said, tossing Ethan to Nico. “They’re slippery bastards.”
“Don’t call him a bastard,” Nico said, holding the soul in his cupped hands and looking down at him pityingly. “Ethan, I wish you’d made better choices,” he said, clucking his tongue. “Now you’re in big trouble.” He looked up at Thanatos. “I want to talk to him.”
“You are talking to him.”
“You know what I mean.”
“Fine.”
Thanatos reached out to take Ethan back, but Nico waved him away. He poked Ethan’s soul gently, and the little blue spirit expanded into a shade.
Shade-Ethan was wispy and translucent, but otherwise he looked similar to the way he’d looked a few minutes ago. He glanced around and looked down at his body.
“Shit. Not again.”
“Yeah, again,” Nico frowned, folding his arms.
“Did you kill me?” Ethan asked, his anger muted by death. He looked slightly irritated, but that was all.
“No, your mother did,” Nico said. “I’m sorry. I have to ask. Do you know why she’d do that?”
Ethan shook his head.
“Do you have a guess, at least?”
He shook his head again.
“I must have pissed her off.”
“I think you’re lying,” Nico said, narrowing his eyes. “There has to be more to this.”
“Go ahead and try to torture it out of me,” Ethan shrugged. “You can’t hurt me now.”
He looked so unbothered by being dead that Hazel wanted to punch him, even though she knew her hand would go right through his dumb face. No one would be so nonchalant about dying unless they knew it was temporary. He was dead certain that Gaea would resurrect him again.
Nico poked him in the chest again, and caught the little blue soul in his hand. He returned it to Thanatos.
“Who taught you to do that?” Thanatos asked.
“Figured it out on my own,” Nico said.
“That’s… Hmm,” Thanatos said, putting Ethan in his pocket. “Don’t worry. I’ll watch him closely. He won’t be resurrected again.”
“No, I can’t ask you to do that,” Nico sighed. “You just started working again, and I know you’re trying to keep your numbers up.”
“If my work is only going to be undone, I won’t bother.” Thanatos said. “Besides, we need to find out who is escorting the souls from Asphodel into Tartarus. It’s not an easy journey, even for a god, and I don’t think Gaea is doing it herself.”
“Good point,” Nico said. “Do you think it’s someone on the inside? I bet it’s Aeacus,” he said. “I never liked that guy.”
“You’d know better than I would. I don’t talk to people,” Thanatos said. “Well. I guess I’d better drop him off down below. I’ll let you know what I find out.”
“Thanks, Thanatos. You’re the best,” Nico smiled.
Thanatos flashed Nico a small smile and then disappeared.
“Is it me, or is he a lot nicer than he used to be?” Hazel asked.
“Haze, come on, we need to focus,” Nico said. They were alone outside the Necromanteion, and there was a tinge of fear in the air, drifting out of the doorway that led to the temple. “If Ethan gets resurrected--”
“WHEN he gets resurrected,” Hazel said. “Because he was so obvious about it.”
“When he gets resurrected, we need to-- you know. Luke.” Nico looked miserable just saying it out loud.
“Let me be the one to do it,” Hazel volunteered. “You’ve already destroyed a soul before. That Alabaster guy, right? It’s my turn.”
“No, Hazel. This is my responsibility. I don’t want you anywhere near this; you should have plausible deniability in case Hermes asks you what happened.”
“I’ll know it was you either way,” she said. “Look, I know I’ve been a bitch lately. But I should do this for you. I owe you that much.”
“What? No way. You don’t owe me anything,” Nico said. “I accepted responsibility for you when I brought you to the surface. You’re still a kid. It’s not your burden to carry.”
Hazel nodded, and chose not to continue arguing the point. She took his outstretched hand and let him bring her home. She went upstairs, changed, took a shower, went back downstairs, sitting across from Nico in their usual seats at the kitchen table. He’d made spaghetti and meatballs, her favorite, and had even poured her grape juice in a stemmed wine glass.
He was scrolling on his phone, his usual habit when stressed, but he took a second to glance up at her and smile. She stared down at her plate.
Her leg muscles ached and her triceps were burning. He’d pushed her to her limit, and then pushed her to her limit’s limit, and then pushed her to some miraculous place beyond that. She could practically feel every last drop of divine blood in her body working overtime to help her keep up with the demands on her mortal frame.
Was the end result going to be worth all of this suffering? She didn’t know. Could she do this much longer? Definitely not. Did she kind of hate ‘Coach Nico’ for what he was putting her through? For sure.
Did she love him? Yes. More than anything. And as she tucked into her spaghetti and meatballs, she promised herself that no matter what, she was going to prove it.
She was going to kill Luke Castellan.
Notes:
You guys, this is chapter fifty. FIFTY? I can't believe this is so long, and there is so much more story left to tell.
Thank you so much to everyone who leaves kudos and comments. I sincerely appreciate each and every one of you and you provide me with the motivation to keep writing!
Chapter 51: Tartarus Straight Up Sucks
Chapter Text
“Can I vent to you for a minute?”
Nico turned to look at his boyfriend, Will. They were both lying in Will’s bed at the ranch in Texas. It was around four in the morning, and pitch dark, but Nico could Will’s face as clearly as in the light of day.
“I thought you were asleep,” Nico said. He’d been reading a scanned PDF of a magical text. He was researching Cthonic enchantments in order to help forge a new key for the Doors of Death. He was getting a lot of reading done lately while Will slept. Their fledgling relationship was going really well, and he wanted to spend as much time with his boyfriend as possible, but sleeping felt so unproductive that he couldn’t stand wasting time on it.
“I keep waking up,” Will said, heaving a sigh. Nico recognized the tone of that sigh. He had a sixth sense for the sound of someone drawing breath with a ten ton weight on their chest. He gathered Will up into his arms and pulled him close.
“You can vent to me,” Nico said. He’d thought Will was just stressed out from schoolwork, but this seemed to be something different. “What’s wrong?”
“Remember when I said my grandpa had cancer, but he was going to be fine?” Will whispered into Nico’s hair. “I’m not as sure about that as I used to be.”
When they’d first started seeing each other, Will had reassured Nico that, although his grandfather was fighting cancer, he had it under control and would beat it, just like he had in the past. Nico had been careful not to mention the aura of death that surrounded Grandpa Dodds on the rare occasions he’d glimpsed him wandering around the house. It was October, and Grandpa seemed well enough to get through Christmas, but the odds of him seeing spring were looking pretty slim.
“What’s changed?” Nico asked.
“He told me earlier that--” Will swallowed hard. “He doesn’t want to continue treatment.”
“Oh. Shit,” Nico said. “So what does that mean?”
“Like his chemo-- He said he won’t take it anymore. He just told me out of nowhere this morning. He was all casual about it,” Will said, his voice breaking. “Nico, what am I going to do?”
Nico rubbed Will’s back while he cried.
“You’ll just keep being there for him like you have been,” Nico said. “What else can you do?”
“What? No!” Will said. “I’m going to talk him out of it! Will you help me?”
“I don’t even know him,” Nico said. This was coming out of left field. Will had always insisted Nico be very secretive when he came over to visit, and he hadn’t been introduced to Mr. Dodds as Will’s boyfriend yet, although he knew Nico had been hanging around buying calves recently. Nico had landed Will a gig as the main flawless calf supplier for his godly friends, and Isis had been placing a lot of orders.
“Can I introduce you?” Will asked. “Maybe if you talk to him, he’ll listen. He just tunes me out.”
“Sure,” Nico said, though he felt reluctant. Nico wanted to help Will, of course, but getting involved in something so personal with his family would alter the nature of their arrangement. What if Will expected the same level of involvement with Nico’s family, and was disappointed when Nico gave that a hard pass? They’d both had a lot of fun driving around aimlessly together and sneaking hookups on the ranch, but they were careful about not asking too many questions. Nico wasn’t a normal person, and he couldn’t offer Will a normal relationship. That was something that had been quietly understood, until now.
“How bad is his health?” Nico asked.
“If he stops his treatment now, he still has five or six months, according to the doctors. But it won’t come to that. I’ll make him get chemo if I have to sneak him the pills.”
He looked so stubborn and determined that Nico’s heart ached. That was how Nico had looked when he’d talked about Bianca; he knew that crazed look from seeing it in the mirror every day for two years. It was endearing, but also tragically hopeless. Nico knew from experience that Will wouldn’t be able to force his grandpa to do anything. And even if he was able to convince him to take the pills for a while, his grandpa would still die eventually.
Nico comforted Will for a while, reassuring him that he’d do all he could to help, and then he made his excuses to leave. He hoped that Will would get some sleep after he’d gone. He hadn’t been doing well in his classes recently, and he was normally an excellent student. Nico tried not to be a distraction, but with this new worry added to his plate, he worried Will wouldn’t be able to juggle everything for much longer.
He went out to the hallway and shadow traveled home to his house in Chania. He took his shoes off and poured himself a glass of water, and then he quietly crept upstairs in his socks. He peeked into Hazel’s room and saw that she was sound asleep. Then he went into his room.
“Late night?” Said a low, tense voice.
“Hi, Than,” Nico said, sighing.
Thanatos was perched stiffly on the edge of Nico’s bed. His arms were folded, and he was frowning, deep lines set into the flawless white skin of his forehead. The bitter expression made him look less like a perfect, golden angel and more like a pissed off seagull.
Nico set his water glass on his bedside table and looked at Thanatos without expression. “Were you waiting on me?”
“Obviously,” Thanatos drawled. “But I suppose my time isn’t as valuable as yours. I’m only the god of death, you know, nobody important.”
“You could have texted,” Nico said, walking over to his closet and hanging up his jacket nonchalantly. He knew there was no point in apologizing. This wasn’t the first time this had happened, and Thanatos was choosing to make an issue out of it in order to get a reaction out of Nico. He was determined not to take the bait this time.
“And disturb your tryst? I wouldn’t dare,” Thanatos said dramatically. “Obviously your romantic exploits are far more important than locking the Doors of Death!” He raised his voice at the end of the sentence, unable to hide his frustration.
“Working on the key is my priority,” Nico said calmly. “But like I’ve told you, I have other stuff going on. You have to text me and let me know when you want to work on it. I’m not going to sit around waiting for you every night. I’ve got better things to do.”
“I just bet you do,” Thanatos hissed. “I don’t know why you even bother coming back when you could be spending more precious hours with your pretty little mortal slut.”
“That’s enough!” Nico snapped. “What the hell is your problem?”
“You’re my problem,” Thanatos growled. “I’m leaving,” he said, standing.
Nico grabbed his arm and pulled him down to sit next to him on his bed. He opened the drawer in his bedside table and pulled out the keystone, plunking it in Thanatos’s lap.
“Do you want to work on this, or do you want to pick a fight with me?” Nico said. “Which is more important right now?”
Thanatos pouted and looked at the keystone.
“I suppose we should probably…”
“That’s what I thought,” Nico said. “I found a new spell that seems promising. I’ve already re-written it for the keystone. You do your thing and let me try it out.”
The strategy that they’d developed so far involved Thanatos doing mysterious magics from the beginning of time, the sort they thought Nyx would have used, while Nico muttered whatever random spells he thought his father might have thrown at the Stygian iron to get it to cooperate. It was a stubborn metal with its own power, and it didn’t accept magic easily. He had a theory that his job was ultimately to distract the Stygian iron long enough for Thanatos’s spell to seep in.
Thanatos invoked his dark magic, and Nico repeated the spell he’d memorized at the ranch. After a few minutes, it seemed like nothing was happening.
“This is a waste of time,” Thanatos said, throwing the keystone onto the bedspread. “Stupid.”
“You always give up too quickly,” Nico chided him, picking it up and putting in his hand again. “Start over.”
Thanatos cooperated without argument, and Nico resumed his spell at the same time. When he saw Thanatos’ interest waver again, he kicked him, shooting him a glare.
After almost an hour of intense magical exertion, the keystone began to glow faintly with white light. Nico and Thanatos both started grinning with excitement, but after a moment, the light faded.
“Damn it,” Nico said. “I really thought we had it.”
“Something’s different,” Thanatos frowned. “Look. Some of the symbols are back.”
Nico peered at the surface of the stone. It had once been covered in complex symbols, but getting tossed along the bottom of the Styx had washed it smooth again. Now, wavy lines had reformed on one side.
“This is a pictogram,” Thanatos said. “A symbol older than writing itself. It depicts the river Styx. I recall there being five lines like this before.”
“Five lines for the five rivers of the Underworld!” Nico exclaimed. “Maybe it needs to be washed in waters from the other four?”
“That would make sense,” Thanatos said. “They form the boundaries of the Underworld, along with my father Erebus. The Doors control the entry points to the Underworld. That means they would have a natural connection with the rivers. I can dip this into the waters of the other four rivers easily. Gaining my father’s blessing will be another problem, but it may be the part we’ve been missing.”
“Why is that a problem?”
“He’ll tell my mother,” Thanatos frowned. “And we’ll get in huge trouble.”
“You can’t convince him to be cool just this once and keep a secret for you?”
“He’s the Protogenos of darkness, not a mere god like your father,” Thanatos said. “He’s not familiar with the concept of being cool.”
Thanatos flopped back onto the bed, holding the key up in front of his face. “Studying this now, it seems as though it should have been obvious that we would need his blessing to proceed. I suppose I’ll give up, then. It’s hopeless. A waste of time.”
Nico flopped down next to him, snatching the key out of his hands exasperatedly.
“It’s not hopeless, you big, dumb--”
“That was a joke,” Thanatos said, shooting him a triumphant smirk.
“Oh,” Nico said, embarrassed that he’d taken the bait.
“I know you won’t let me give up,” Thanatos said quietly. “We’ve come too far together now.”
He reached out and tentatively touched the keystone that Nico was holding. It glowed, just slightly, in Nico’s hands.
Working on this magical project with Thanatos had been a strange experience. At times, Nico wasn’t sure whether he liked him or couldn’t stand him. He could be kind one minute and viciously snap at him the next. He knew with certainty, though, that Thanatos had a good heart. He’d been isolated for so long that his social skills sucked, but when he let his guard down, sometimes they were able to connect on a deeper level.
“Will’s an amazing person,” Nico said, meeting Thanatos’ eyes. They glowed like amber gems, beautiful in the dim light. “He’s studying to be a doctor and trying to take care of his sick grandpa. He’s one of the kindest people I’ve ever met. I think you’d like him if you got to know him.”
“I don’t like any humans,” Thanatos said. “Least of all doctors. They interfere too much with my work. But… I know you’re a better judge of character than I am. If you say he’s worthy, then he probably is,” he admitted reluctantly.
“I’m an excellent judge of character,” Nico said. “Everyone warned me to leave you alone. They said you didn’t like anybody and you were too difficult to work with. But when I saw your room, and the butterflies you carved into the floor, I think I knew then that you were someone I really wanted to know. And you see? I was right.”
“Psh. Ridiculous,” Thanatos said. “You should have listened to them. You should never have come to see me. Look at the trouble we’ve gotten into together,” he said, shaking the keystone at him. “We’ll be each other’s undoing.”
“I don’t know about that,” Nico said, smiling fondly at the memory of watching Thanatos collect that little blue soul at the site of the car accident, and the feeling of witnessing something profound. “I think it was worth it.”
“Hmph. I doubt it,” Thanatos said. He shifted the keystone in his hand so that his fingers just barely brushed Nico’s. The light of the stone glowed even brighter for a moment, then went out when Thanatos sat upright and pulled the stone away. He held it in his lap, staring at it.
“I think I’ll go speak to my father now. And try… I don’t know, I’ll try something. There might be some way I can make him understand.”
“Take me with you,” Nico said. “I’m the ambassador. If there’s anyone who can get through to a formless protogenoi, it’s me.”
“He doesn’t even know you,” Thanatos said skeptically.
“I think he does,” Nico said, thinking of all the times he’d called on darkness and shadows to protect him in his time of need. He’d always thought of them as Nyx coming to his aid, but her partner might have been involved, too, at some point. “If I can get through to you, he’ll be a piece of cake.”
Thanatos raised his eyebrows in amusement, then stood up. He wrapped Nico in his wings and whisked them both away into darkness.
They appeared in a deep and shadowed corner of the Underworld, close to the boundary with the surface. Nico could smell the smoky, sulfuric scent of the Phlegethon beside them. It burned with liquid fire, and lit the cave walls with a red-orange glow.
Thanatos handed him the keystone, and Nico dipped it into the lava, feeling his hand burn so hot that it felt cold instead.
“Feels kind of refreshing,” he remarked, seeing that the stone had reacted to the river and gained a new pictogram. They were on the right track.
Thanatos saw the new markings and nodded his approval. He led Nico to the other side of the river, where the boundary of the Underworld stood, a towering wall of darkness that stretched out in either direction further than they could see. He stepped directly into black wall. Nico scrambled to follow him in.
He was plunged into a dark abyss like the empty vacuum of space. There was no light to orient himself by, no gravity, and no sense of up or down. The silence was deafening. He’d experienced it before on his visits to Nyx’s chambers, so he’d been prepared for the strange feeling of it. He wondered for a moment why she’d never bothered mentioning that he’d been standing inside of her husband, but he supposed it had seemed obvious, from her perspective.
Thanatos brushed Nico with the tip of his wing reassuringly, which Nico appreciated, although he felt at ease.
“Erebos, revered protogenoi of darkness, I don’t think I’ve ever formally introduced myself,” Nico said. “I’m Nico di Angelo, ambassador of Hades. It’s an honor.”
“He can hear your thoughts in here. There’s no reason to speak aloud,” Thanatos said.
“It feels more polite,” Nico said. “And I want to know what you’re saying, too.”
“Nico’s half human,” Thanatos said into the darkness. “He insisted on coming.”
The darkness shuddered with a tremor that felt somewhat good-natured. At least, Nico hoped he was interpreting correctly.
“I know, right?” Thanatos said.
“What?”
“He thinks you’re charming in a weird way,” Thanatos said. “And I get the impression he’s been aware of you for a long time now? I don’t understand it,” he added. “You’ve barely existed for the blink of an eye, from my perspective.”
“Erebos, I’ve been able to earn favors from Nyx by bringing her things like martyr bones, which you probably already know about. If there’s anything you ever need from the surface that I can help with, I’d be happy to do a fetch quest for you,” Nico said.
“He doesn’t need anything,” said Thanatos flatly. “Look, father, we need you to help fix this keystone and not tell anyone about it. Because yes, we broke it. Or rather, Nico did, but I gave it to him, so we’re both trying to fix it. If you’re going to betray me to mother, go ahead and get it over with now. I’ll wait.”
The darkness shifted in a way that suggested a simple emotion, a slight annoyance.
“Fine, be that way,” Thanatos huffed. “I don’t know why I bothered asking.”
“Than, he already knows about the doors,” Nico said, realizing that Thanatos was reading his father wrong in this instance. “He’d have told your mom by now if he was going to. I think he’s frustrated we didn’t ask him for help earlier.”
“Oh. I suppose I thought that he’d have ratted me out if he’d known.”
“You were wrong,” Nico said. “He wants to help you, but you have to give him a chance.”
“I suppose I did make an assumption, didn’t I,” Thanatos murmured. “Sorry, father. I would appreciate your help.”
Nico couldn’t see it, but he sensed darkness covering the keystone and altering it somehow. Afterward, Thanatos was quiet for a moment. He seemed slightly stunned.
“I bet darkness keeps secrets better than anyone,” Nico said. “I think we can trust him to have our backs.”
“You’re right,” Thanatos said quietly. “Thank you, father. I should… Probably come see you more often.”
Another shudder.
“Right… You see me all the time,” he said. Nico could hear the smile in his voice. “I knew that. The mortal is rubbing off on me too much, I guess. We’ll be going, now.”
The darkness dissipated, and the two of them stood on a rocky plain beside a wall of towering ebony. It was an area of the Underworld that Nico had never seen before. Nico looked around curiously while Thanatos stood, contemplating the keystone in his hands.
“Ha ha,” Nico said, nudging him in the shoulder.
“What?”
“You’re more loved than you think you are,” Nico teased him.
Thanatos tried and failed to suppress a smile.
“Erebos is older than love,” Thanatos said.
“But he invented it, didn’t he? Isn’t Eros your older brother?”
“Why would you bring him up and ruin my good mood? Ugh,” Thanatos scoffed. “I have no association with Eros or any of his sordid affairs.”
“Probably for the best,” Nico said, thinking of his brief and disappointing acquaintance with the god of love. “Um, quick question. Why does it hurt to breathe?”
“We’re in Tartarus,” Thanatos said casually. “You’ll probably die in a few minutes.”
“I’m already dead,” Nico told him. “I’m just on the no-ride list. Once I get taken off of it, you’ll probably be told to come and take my soul right away.”
“What?!” Thanatos said. “When were you planning on mentioning that?”
“You were going to find out eventually. Hades put me on it ages ago. I’m planning to ask him to keep me on it until Hazel defeats Gaea.”
“Yes, because that tiny little girl is totally capable of such a feat, sure,” Thanatos rolled his eyes. “Why are you so casual about this? Aren’t most humans terrified of death? They certainly act like it, in most of my encounters with them.”
“I can’t think of any reason to feel upset about it. I think I’ve got a decent afterlife lined up. It gives me something to look forward to.”
“You are very strange,” Thanatos said, shaking his head. “I’ll be in no rush to leave, then, since you can’t get any deader. What killed you?”
“Accidentally smoked a poisoned cigarette.”
“All cigarettes are poison,” Thanatos smirked. “Trust me, I should know. Come along, dead boy. Erebos dropped us off at the Delta of Despair. We can get the other river water here.”
Nico’s lungs burned and his skin stung, and he felt a creeping brain fog and ringing in his ears, but Tartarus overall wasn’t as bad as he’d expected. He dipped the keystone into the familiar waters of the Acheron, then he turned to the Cocytus, the river of suffering. It had a mist of sadness rising from the frothy surface of the water. If he looked down into it, he could see despairing faces staring back at him.
“Scared?” Thanatos asked.
“Nope,” Nico said, plunging his hand in.
It didn’t hurt, physically. It was bone chillingly cold, but he didn’t mind that. The real pain was psychological.
At the first drop of water against his skin, he was suddenly overwhelmed with miserable, hopeless despair. His mother’s violent death flashed behind his eyes, and Bianca’s empty, sad face when she’d rejected his offer of resurrection. He thought of Hazel, torn apart by monsters. Everything felt so pointless, so bleak. It was as if the river was sucking every last drop of hope and joy from his body.
He yanked his hand out and tried to collect himself, although he was on the verge of breaking down.
“You do the Lethe. I don’t want to lose my memory after what it took to get it back in the first place.” Nico said gruffly, shoving the keystone at Thanatos. He didn’t want to let on how badly the Cocytus was getting to him. He was the son of Hades; he’d literally swum in the Styx, for the gods’ sakes. He didn’t like the idea of being so vulnerable to a natural feature of the Underworld, even though it had just done a number on him.
He watched Thanatos dip the keystone into the water of the Lethe.
“Did you forget anything?” He asked, pushing through the overwhelming impulse to curl into the fetal position and sob.
“Probably,” Thanatos shrugged. “I have millenia of memories. I’m happy to shed a few.” He squinted at Nico. “You’re looking a bit pale. Is Tartarus getting to you yet, puny mortal?”
“Never felt better,” Nico said. His voice came out hoarse and pained. Thanatos chuckled.
“The air here is destroying your lungs. Drink from the Phlegethon. That should get you by for another few minutes.”
“I want to see the Doors of Death,” Nico said. His lungs were okay, it was his mind that was being destroyed. But he didn’t want to admit that.
“It’s too long a journey. You won’t survive it. Besides, we can’t shadow travel here.”
“What? Then how the hell are we supposed to get out?”
“I can fly us to the exit,” Thanatos said.
“Why do you seem fine?” Nico asked jealously. “You were a wreck when you got back the last time.”
“I’ll be fine for a while. Last time, I was here for hours before it started to get to me. I was flying around for ages looking all over for those stupid doors. They move around down here. Or they used to. Gaea chained them in place.”
Nico sighed.
“We don’t have a chance,” he muttered.
“Very funny.”
“Not joking,” Nico said. Thinking of Gaea and her strength was starting to really drain what little hope he had left. He knew he was experiencing the effects of the Cocytus, and knew the feelings were artificial, a side-effect he should have expected. They still overwhelmed him.
He sat down on the ground and dug his hands through the dirt.
“That’s skin,” he said, looking down at the ground. Beneath the thin crust of dirt and rock, it was fleshy and soft and clearly part of the body of a god.
“What else would it be?” Thanatos asked.
“I don’t think I like this place,” Nico said miserably. He laid down on his back and stared up at the red, swirling clouds overhead, unable to will himself to stand.
“What did you expect, Paris in the springtime? We’re in the body of a Titan,” Thanatos said. “And I wouldn’t roll around in that dirt. Kronos is scattered all over the place. Nobody will thank you if you bring bits of him back up on your shirt.”
“Ugh!” Nico exclaimed, sitting up and brushing motes of dust off his shirt frantically, imagining his evil titan grandfather trying to hitch a ride back to the surface in the form of pocket sand. “Okay, that was the last straw, I’m leaving.”
“I told you, drink from the Phlegethon, or your pathetic mortal body will collapse before we get to the exit. I’m not dragging dead weight around.”
Nico knelt by the banks of the Phlegethon and cupped a handful of fiery water, bringing it to his lips.
“Spicy,” he said, feeling it burn red hot down his throat. “Kind of nice.” He felt his depressed mood lifting slightly. “Is that Ethan?” He said suddenly.
He and Thanatos peered off into the distance and saw Ethan Nakamura’s familiar shade strolling past the Delta of Despair like he was walking through a normal suburban neighborhood. He even appeared to be whistling while he walked with a spring in his step.
“That’s not good,” Thanatos said, quiet so as not to alert Ethan to their presence.
“You were supposed to be watching him in Asphodel,” Nico hissed up at his companion.
“I know, but I got impatient about the keystone. We’ll just have to start over.”
“Start over? What do you mean, start over?”
“We know he’s going to the Doors, where Gaea will resurrect him. It’s the person who brought him to Tartarus that we wanted to identify. We’ll have to let him resurrect, find him on the surface, and kill him again. I’ll watch him properly next time.”
“We don’t have that kind of time to spare,” Nico said, concerned that they’d never find him again if Gaea resurrected him.
Nico’s darkest fears were still being enhanced by the Cocytus, and they were overwhelming. An image of Ethan facing off against Hazel in the war flashed before his eyes. The situation seemed so dire, and her violent demise so likely, that his guts were twisting with misery and despair. It seemed like she was doomed, but right there in front of him was one shred of hope, one tiny bit of agency he could take to control Hazel’s fate. He could do something about it, right then and there.
Without another word to Thanatos, Nico stomped over to Ethan and tapped him on the shoulder. Ethan turned and caught his eye.
“Uh oh,” he said.
Without a word, Nico plunged his Stygian iron sword through Ethan’s stomach.
Ethan Nakamura dissolved into dust.
“Nico!” Thanatos snapped, flying over to him. “You could have told me you were planning on doing that! Why would Stygian Iron be your first option? If my sister finds out about this, she’ll never let you get away with it. She won’t rest until you beg to change places with Sysiphus.”
“What else was I supposed to do?” Nico snapped. “Let him join Gaea’s army? Let him get away?”
“He was just a shade. We could have imprisoned him or something,” Thanatos said. “Now we’ll never find out who the Underworld traitor was.”
Nico clutched at his head; his heart was pounding.
“Oh, gods. You’re right. I’m not thinking straight,” he said. “Why the fuck did I do that?” He put his sword away and staggered to one knee.
Before he could blink, he was lifted into the air. Thanatos flew him over to a cave mouth and soared through it. A few moments later, and they were back in the Underworld proper, and it no longer hurt to breathe.
“Look, never mind what happened back there,” Thanatos said, setting him down. “I won’t tell anyone. We’ll chalk it up to your first time in Tartarus.”
Nico vomited on the ground in front of his shoes.
Thanatos recoiled.
“Well, that’s disgusting. I think I’d better go.”
“I didn’t leave you when you came back from Tartarus,” Nico said, glaring at him.
“Right,” Thanatos sighed. He grabbed Nico by the collar and brought him back to the house in Chania.
They hadn’t been gone long. Rosy dawn was just peeking over the horizon. Thanatos sat on the edge of Nico’s bed and waited while Nico took an ice cold shower and tried to wash the dust of Tartarus out of his hair. It felt like his skin was crawling with dead Titan particles all over.
When Nico got out of the shower, he put on his pajamas, determined to spend the rest of the day in bed feeling sorry for himself. When he emerged from the bathroom, Hazel was talking to Thanatos, still in her pink pony pajamas and bonnet.
“Here,” Thanatos said, handing him a few squares of ambrosia. “Take two of these and have a nap. You should be alright.”
“You went to Tartarus!” Hazel exclaimed. “Was it horrible?”
“It was pretty bad,” Nico said, too miserable to lie.
“He was there for less than fifteen minutes,” Thanatos said. “Lightweight.”
“You were sick as a dog when you got back the last time,” Hazel said. “Nico didn’t bust the ceiling down just now, did he?”
“I was there for hours that time,” Thanatos said archly. “I had every right to be ill.”
“I’m just a mortal; you can’t compare us,” Nico said, crawling under the covers. “Can you guys shut up? I want to sleep.”
Hazel left, but Thanatos lingered.
“I want to make sure you recover properly,” he said softly. “I’ll be quiet.”
Nico shut his eyes. When he opened them again, Thanatos was still there.
“How’s death going?” He asked, wanting to think about anything other than how he felt at the moment.
“Are you feeling better?” Thanatos asked.
“I’m fine. How’s death going?” He repeated. He checked his phone; he’d been asleep for a couple of hours. His body felt normal, but he was heartsick and miserable at what he’d done to Ethan.
“I’m trying different things,” Thanatos said. “Working one day on, one day off. Taking breaks. Skipping hospitals.”
“Skipping hospitals?”
“I just don’t like them,” Thanatos said, without meeting Nico’s eyes. “I prefer accidents, disasters, old people in their homes that won’t be found for a week. Things like that.”
“Okay,” Nico said. “Is that why my friend Rosa is still in a coma? You just don’t like hospitals? Because that’s a really fucking stupid excuse.”
“You have no idea what you’re talking about,” Thanatos glared.
“Do you want to fill me in?”
“No.”
“Then get out,” Nico said, rolling over to look away from Thanatos.
Thanatos stared down at him silently for a moment.
“You’ve been off ever since the Cocytus,” he said. “You need to have more ambrosia or something. Sit up.”
“Just leave me alone,” Nico snapped.
“I’d have done that river myself, but it really gets to me,” Thanatos said. “I know how you feel, I--”
“You have no idea,” Nico said. “Okay? You don’t have a clue. I’m dead, okay? I’m only still here on a technicality right now. And I don’t have enough time to get Hazel ready, and odds are Gaea is going to kill her again. She’ll be out for revenge, so it won’t be quick and merciful, either. Also, by the way, I abandoned Bianca in the Underworld, and I feel like shit about it,” he added. “I don’t know what I’m going to do about her, but if anything happens to Hazel, it’ll mean I have two dead sisters who hate me. Add to that these stupid doors that I broke the key for, and then the two people I already killed with Stygian iron, and the third one I have to kill, like, yesterday.”
“There’s a third?”
“Yeah. It’s Luke. Zeus ordered me to kill him with my sword if Luke swore on the Styx to serve Gaea. Which he did. I don’t want to have to do it-- What the fuck was I thinking, killing Ethan like that? Do you know what I just dreamed about?”
Thanatos clucked his tongue.
“If you don’t like your dreams, text my brother and tell him to knock it off. Don’t waste your time worrying over them.”
“I don’t think he sent this one,” Nico said, pale just thinking about it. “Luke was staring at me. He said, ‘do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather, be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell.’”
“Luke said that? He certainly has a way with words,” Thanatos said, raising his eyebrows.
“It’s a bible quote,” Nico sighed. “I went through a phase when I was reading the Inferno where I got really into learning about Hell. I haven’t thought about that line in years. It’s like they wrote it about me or something.”
“I don’t know why you’d read that trash. Those people are the worst,” Thanatos said, scuffing his sandaled foot on the rug.
“Yeah, whatever,” Nico said. “Now I can’t get it out of my head.” He stood up. “I’m killing Luke. I’m getting it over with.”
“Now? I’ll go with you,” Thanatos said.
“Absolutely not,” Nico said. “Either collect Rosa’s soul, or fuck off and don’t talk to me.”
Thanatos stared at him with concern.
“You’re not in your right mind,” he said finally, his tone dismissive. “Eat some ambrosia and don’t make any rash decisions. I’m getting someone else to look after you; you’re making me angry.”
“Whatever,” Nico sighed. “Just go.”
“By the way,” Thanatos said. “I think the keystone should work now. I was going to ask if you wanted to lock the doors together, but I’m guessing your answer will be no.”
“You’d be correct,” Nico said darkly. They had worked on the key for so long together. But just now, it didn’t feel like it mattered. Nothing felt like it mattered, other than plunging a Stygian blade into Luke’s chest and getting the dreaded act over with. And then brooding under his down comforter for the rest of the day, feeling sorry for himself.
Thanatos shook his head in disappointment and disappeared.
Nico got dressed again, and was just grabbing his car keys when he saw Minos suddenly appear in his room. Thanatos must have sent him to look after Nico while he was still out of whack.
“Come on,” Nico said, grabbing Minos’ hand without a word of greeting. “We’re destroying Luke’s soul. Hazel! You’d better be training,” he called out.
“I am!” she squeaked out from downstairs. He heard the TV click off.
Minos followed him out of the house to his car.
“Thanatos said you weren’t well. You went to Tartarus?”
“I did, but I’m fine. Don’t listen to Thanatos,” Nico said, gesturing for Minos to get into the passenger’s side.
“He said something about the Cocytus,” Minos added, as Nico put on loud music and hit the gas. The drive from Chania to Zeus’s cave was around three hours, but he planned to make it there in far less time than that.
“How are you? Work treating you well?” Nico asked. He didn’t want to talk about the Cocytus and the nasty, dark thoughts it had put into his brain. Every time he closed his eyes, he saw Bianca’s face staring back at him, accusation and disappointment in her eyes. He saw Hazel’s dead body, killed in a war she hadn’t been prepared for. And Ethan… He had made a terrible mistake killing Ethan, he was sure of it. But he had already promised to kill Luke, and betraying Zeus could only make his situation worse. Unfortunately, getting it over with was his best option, even though it was the last thing he wanted on his conscience.
“Work is good,” Minos said. “It’s difficult to predict whether Thanatos will bring us a thousand souls or three on any given day, but it’s a great improvement over not getting any souls at all. Everyone asks about you all the time.”
“What do you tell them?”
“I tell them about how strong Hazel is getting,” Minos smiled. “What a great trainer you’ve become. How she’ll make us all proud in the Gigantomachy.”
Minos was trying to be nice, but thinking about her fighting in the war made Nico feel ill.
“I wish I could take her place,” Nico said.
“I’ve asked your father about the prophecy and whether you would be able to join as the eighth hero,” Minos said. “It seems the fates were pretty clear about the seven, unfortunately. And their parents are already gearing up to support them.”
“Psh,” Nico scoffed. “Support them. All they’ll do is brag about them on social media while totally ignoring them in real life.”
“Probably, yes. But you’ll do better for our girl. Hazel is very lucky to have you,” Minos said. “As am I.”
“That’s nice of you to say,” Nico said, looking at Minos sadly. “I feel like I never even see you anymore. I miss you.”
“I miss you, too,” Minos said. “But we both have other obligations. It can’t be helped.”
As if by magic, Nico’s phone buzzed. It was Will.
“Really need to talk to you,” was the text. It automatically popped up on the screen in the dashboard of the car.
“Crap. Sorry, Minos,” Nico said. “I just…”
“Go ahead,” Minos said mildly.
Nico called Will.
“Hey, what’s up? You okay?” He asked, gesturing at Minos to be silent while he was on speaker.
“No, I’m not okay,” Will said. He sounded tearful and frightened. “I need your help. I just had another fight with Grandpa. He won’t listen. He’s talking about dying with dignity and going out like a man. He’s got this dumb cowboy macho thing going on, it’s so stupid. I can’t lose him,” he said, his voice breaking. “What am I gonna do if he—”
“I’m so sorry,” Nico said. “I’ll come by as soon as I can, but I’m really tied up with work right now.”
“I’m okay, Katie’s coming over. Grandpa’s going out of town for a couple of days, but if you could at least help me talk to him when he gets back,” Will sniffled. “I get really worked up talking about it. I can’t make any rational kind of argument and he just tunes me out.”
“I’ll do what I can,” Nico said.
“He’s not even taking his pills! He left them all here!” Will said. “God dammit! He’d never let me pull something this stupid. When I – I never told you what happened, did I? When my parents kicked me out?”
“No, you never told me the details,” Nico said, really wishing Minos wasn’t in the car distracting him. He’d been curious about this story for a while.
“I tried coming out to them during my freshman year of college. They freaked out and started lecturing me about sin and how I was being led astray. Then they told me they weren’t going to pay tuition anymore unless I went to conversion camp over the summer.”
“Conversion camp?” Nico asked.
“It’s when Christians basically torture the gay out of you in the woods someplace. It doesn’t work,” Will said. “But I was just thinking about the money and taking out loans on my own and I told my grandpa-- I’d already come out to him, he didn’t care-- I told him I was thinking about going. Like, what was one summer of misery for four years of free school? He got so mad-- not at my parents, at me! Imagine that? He said I was a coward if I took that deal, and he’d lose all respect for me if I did it. I wasn’t expecting that reaction,” Will laughed, sniffling. “But I told my parents to shove their tuition up their ass. Then they kicked me out. And of course, grandpa took me in,” he said. “He said if I’d agreed to their shitty deal, he wouldn’t have even taken my calls anymore. And he won’t help me pay for tuition, since he thinks a man has to make his own way in the world. I even have to pay my parents back for freshman year. Ugh, now I’m just rambling... Anyway, do you see my point? He’s got these principles, and he’s so stubborn about stuff. But he beat cancer twice and I don’t get why he won’t just try one more time. Isn’t that cowardly? Do I have any argument there, or am I not making sense?”
“Will, you make perfect sense,” Nico said. “And your parents suck, by the way.”
“Thanks.”
“I think,” Nico sighed. “Maybe your grandpa thinks he is doing the brave thing.”
“How is giving up brave? That’s bullshit,” Will said, his voice tense.
“It’s just what crossed my mind when you told me the story,” Nico said. “I’d have to hear him explain it to me to really form an opinion.”
“Okay, well, can you plan to come over Friday?” Will asked. “For dinner? I’ll make my famous Frito pie.”
“I’m not even going to ask what that is,” Nico said. “Sure. I’ll be there.” The plans slammed into him like another weighted blanket crushing him, restricting his breathing. He felt like he was tapped out of emotional energy, barely able to focus on the task at hand, and still, he was being asked for more. But he didn’t want Will to feel like a burden.
“Thanks. Love you,” Will said.
“Love you too,” Nico said.
“Do you?” Minos asked.
“Do I love him? I don’t know,” Nico sighed. “He’s just started saying that lately and I didn’t want to be an asshole. What is love, even?”
“You really are not yourself today,” Minos said, looking at Nico warily. “You know what love is, Nico.”
“That came out wrong,” Nico said. “I guess I’m just not sure whether it’s possible to love him when he barely even knows who I am. He just knows what I show him, and that’s such a tiny, tiny fraction of the real me. It’s like saying you love America when you’ve only been to New York City. New York is great and all, but it’s not representative of the whole country. It comes off naive.”
“Irrelevant to the question of whether you love him,” Minos said.
“I think I do,” Nico sighed. “I just want to protect him. Mostly from me.”
They sat in silence for a long time, with Nico trying not to let his miserable thoughts overwhelm him. He thought they might be easing up a little with time, but it was hard to tell.
“Between you and Will and Hazel and Thanatos,” Nico said. “I feel like I’m getting pulled in a million different directions. Don’t even get me started on Bianca and my dad. And Maria Bova, and her mother, I need to find some way to help them. And my dad, and Persephone, and all the other gods... It’s too much! How am I expected to juggle all of this? I’d have to be in a thousand places at once!”
“You can leave me off of your list, my dear one,” Minos said. “I promise you, we are good.”
“No, we’re not,” Nico said. “We’re in a relationship, we’re supposed to spend quality time together. I’m totally letting you down, just like everybody else.”
“I disagree,” Minos said. “But maybe we should drop this subject. It’s obviously upsetting you.”
They drove the rest of the way in silence. He pulled up to the cave and left Minos in the car waiting while he traveled up to the entrance.
He descended the stairs, and with every step, the weight on his shoulders grew even heavier. Luke’s words from his dream rang in his ears. He was going to destroy a third soul. Why did he have to be the one to bear this responsibility? It wasn’t fair.
“Nico?” A familiar voice called out. For a second Nico was worried it was Luke-- the last thing he wanted was to talk to the guy, who up until now had been determined to remain silent. But it was Hermes.
“Do you know anything about this?” Hermes asked as Nico approached Luke’s prison corner.
It was empty.
“What the fuck,” Nico muttered, staring at it.
“That’s what I said,” Hermes shrugged. “Gaea got him out, I guess.”
“Oh, no,” Nico moaned. “I really don’t want to hunt him down again.”
“Nah, I’m putting Artemis on it,” Hermes said. “I was never able to get through to Luke. He’s dead set on the idea that things will be different this time, and that Gaea will be better for the earth than Zeus. Can’t imagine why. He’s lost his mind, I guess.”
“What’s Zeus’s plan for climate change?” Nico asked without thinking.
“What a stupid question! Climate change isn’t real, Nico. Do your own research.”
“So Venice isn’t sinking, then?”
“No, it is, but that’s different,” Hermes said. “It’s probably too weighed down with all the saints and churches and fat tourists. Focus, kid. Luke. Gone. Where? How? I need answers.”
Nico inspected the spot Luke had last been.
“My wards look the same,” he said. “Yours seem fine. No signs of struggle. But those rocks look a little different,” he said, pointing to the cavern wall behind the cell.
“Gaea, then,” Hermes said. “Damn. No one without authorization should have been able to get into this part of the cave. I don’t get it. The wards were made specifically to keep her out! They seem intact.”
“Who was authorized?” Nico asked, running his hands along the stone of the wall. Something about the situation seemed off to him, but he couldn’t put his finger on what, exactly.
“Me, you, Zeus, and your sister,” Hermes said. “Oh! I think dad added Athena at some point. She wanted to yell at Luke about… Wait a second,” he frowned. “You don’t think Annabeth could have found a way around the wards?”
Nico sighed. He liked and respected Annabeth, but when Luke was involved, she didn’t always make great choices.
“If she really wanted to, I’m sure she could have. But I thought her mom was watching her?”
“I thought so, too. You know Annabeth better than me. Go interrogate her. Find out what she knows.”
Hermes ran up the stairs and out of the cave so quickly that all Nico could see was a speed blur. He sighed, then headed back to his car where Minos was waiting.
“Did you do it?” Minos whispered.
“No, Luke’s gone,” Nico said. “I need to find out if Annabeth knows anything.”
He dialed her number and waited for it to ring.
“I am monitoring my daughter’s communications,” Athena’s voice resounded through his car speakers, her tone one of dire warning. “What do you want with her?”
“Luke is gone.”
“Of course he is,” she sighed. “As I expected. I warned my father that Hermes wasn’t up to this task. He should have taken my advice and killed the boy while we still had the chance.”
Nico held his tongue, because the truth was, Zeus had listened to her. He’d asked Nico to kill Luke permanently, and Nico had dragged his feet just a little too long. It didn’t bode well for him when Zeus found out about the escape.
“Hermes wants me to interrogate Annabeth about how he might have gotten out. Is she with you?”
“She hasn’t had contact with anyone without my supervision,” Athena said. “And I can assure you, she hasn’t left my chambers here on Olympus.”
“I’m not accusing her of anything,” Nico said. “But I was ordered to interrogate her.”
“If you must,” Athena said. “But make it quick. I don’t like the idea of you skulking around my rooms. Come on up.” The call clicked off.
A silver blue portal made of mist and cloud appeared in the air outside the car.
“Is that a portal to Olympus?” Minos said in awe. “Incredible.”
“Trust me, it’s not all it’s cracked up to be,” Nico said. “I’ll be back soon. I hope.”
He opened the car door and walked through the portal.
The searing bright sunlight of Olympus blinded him. It was like the hottest, brightest Greek summer day, cranked up to maximum brightness. The sky was so glaringly blue that it gave him a headache.
Once his eyes adjusted, he looked around and saw shining, iridescent white marble architecture surrounding him. It resembled the Parthenon, a similarity he could appreciate better having recently been there. However, there was a sort of military-academy vibe to the décor – There were displays of maps, bookshelves, a large multi-monitor computer setup, and a giant war table covered in pins and battle figurines sitting front and center in the middle of the room.
Athena was sitting at the computer station working. She didn’t spare Nico a glance, but there was an angry tension in the way she held her shoulders. Her dark hair was pinned in a severe, militaristic, slicked back bun with a thin stiletto dagger sticking out of it. Nico could practically see her brain working overtime trying to come up with an excuse to use it on him.
“Don’t touch anything. She’s in the back,” Athena said coldly.
Nico went straight to the back of the room where a door was set into the wall. He opened it and went inside.
It looked more like a prison cell than a bedroom. Annabeth was sitting on a plain and uncomfortable looking bed with a metal frame, and there was a writing desk on one side. She didn’t have a phone, a computer, or a TV, but it looked like her mom had allowed her to read, because there was a massive stack of books in the corner.
Annabeth was designing something on drafting paper. When Nico came in, she set her design down and gave him her full attention. True to form, she looked a little irritated at being interrupted.
“I know you were responsible for this,” she said, gesturing at her room. “I overheard Hazel speaking to you back in Paris.”
“You got yourself into this situation.”
“I know,” she said. “I’m not angry at anyone but myself. This feels like a just punishment for what I did, frankly.”
“Are you talking about putting Hazel in danger, cheating on Percy, or both?”
“All of it,” she said. “I’ve had a lot of time to think, and my mom’s let me keep my therapy appointments, thank goodness. I’ve got my head clear again.”
“I’d love to hear your explanation,” Nico said, sitting in her desk chair. “I’ve been wondering why the smartest woman in the world made some of the stupidest decisions I’ve ever seen.”
“It was for love,” she said simply. “I’ve loved Luke since I was a little girl. Ever since his death and the war with Kronos, I’ve been struggling with grief and complex PTSD. Seeing him alive again was so triggering that it sent me into a spiral of panic attacks, dissociation, and self-destructive, impulsive behavior. I’m doing better now, but I can never, ever see him again. I just can’t cope with it, and that’s okay. I’ll be alright.”
“Wow. That’s really heavy,” Nico said. “I’m glad you seem to have a handle on things.”
“Having an explanation helped a lot,” she smiled. “Once I got away from my trigger, I could step back and start analyzing what happened. I can handle anything if I have a plan.”
“You really do seem back to your old self,” Nico smiled. The old brilliance was shining out of her grey eyes, and it seemed like all was right with the world again. “What are you gonna do about Percy?”
“Unfortunately, my mother has decided that telling him will jeopardize our performance in the war against Gaea,” she said, twirling her drafting pencil in her fingers nervously. “I’ve been forbidden to tell him about what I did until it’s over. He thinks I’m studying for finals right now and can’t talk much, but when I see him face to face, I’m not sure how I’ll be able to keep it from him.”
“I feel like you’re probably a pretty good liar when you put your mind to it,” Nico said.
She chuckled, her smile sad, but resigned.
“If I loved him less, I might be okay with lying to him,” she said sadly. “But that’s not how it is with us.”
“You don’t think it’s selfish to blow up your relationship just because you feel guilty?”
“If I can’t be honest with him, the relationship is over either way,” she said. “I want to be loved for who I really am. And in spite of what I’ve done. Whether Percy will be willing to try to work through this with me, I can’t say. That’s his choice to make.”
Nico really wished she hadn’t said that. It hit way too close to home, making him think of Will and how fast their relationship was moving. Will had really opened up to him today, and he was inviting Nico into his life in a big way. Nico would never be willing to reciprocate; it was simply too dangerous for a mortal to be involved in his life. Did that doom the relationship? Was he leading Will on? Or did Annabeth just take stuff way too seriously?
“Did you come to check on me?” She asked. “That’s really nice of you.”
Nico stared at her. She had her spark back, but to an extent, she was still kind of faking it. He could see that her nails were bitten to shreds, her braids were growing out, and she had a hundred crumpled up draft papers lying on the floor.
“I’m supposed to interrogate you about Luke,” he sighed.
“Oh,” her face fell. “Why now? Did something happen?”
“No,” Nico said, feeling sure he was doing the right thing. He didn’t want Annabeth to have to worry about Luke for one more second. That asshole had damaged her enough. “He’s still locked up safe and sound. I’m just here to check that we didn’t miss anything.”
“I told Hermes everything I knew,” she said.
“I know. I’m not going to torture you again asking questions. You’ve suffered enough. If anyone asks, tell them I terrified you.”
“Gotcha. Thanks, Nico,” she said, smiling warmly. “I appreciate you. Say hi to Hazel for me.”
He shut the door behind him. Athena shot him a piercing glare.
“Anything?”
“She’s innocent,” he said.
“Hardly,” Athena scoffed. “But she didn’t have anything to do with his escape.”
“I think it’s better if no one brings up his escape to her again. It really sent her spiraling,” Nico said. “She might never design another building again if she keeps getting triggered.”
Athena frowned.
“I’ll take that under advisement. You may go.”
She summoned a portal, and he could see through the shimmering mist to where his car was waiting on the other side.
Without a word, he departed, eager to get away from her and Olympus as fast as possible. He got back in the car, shut the door, leaned his head back against the seat and sighed deeply.
“Everything okay?” Minos asked.
“No. Not really,” Nico said. Minos took his hand and patted it reassuringly.
Nico texted Hermes to let him know that Annabeth hadn’t been involved with Luke’s disappearance, then he shadow traveled the car straight home.
“Let’s go out to dinner in town, just the three of us,” he told Minos, opening the car door for him and letting him out. “We need to spend more time together.”
“I’d be happy to,” Minos said, following Nico inside.
“Hazel? Minos is here,” Nico called out. He heard Hazel come out of her room and run down the stairs, taking them two at a time.
“Minos!” She exclaimed, hugging him.
“It’s good to see you, dear,” he said, patting the top of her head. “I hope your brother hasn’t been working you too hard.”
“Oh, he’s killing me,” she laughed. “But it’s okay. How are you?”
“I have nothing new to tell,” Minos said. “But you should know that you’re the talk of the Underworld at the moment. We’re all very excited to see how you fit in at Camp Jupiter. We’re taking bets on how quickly you’ll rise in the ranks.”
“She’s not staying at Camp unless their training programs are up to my standards,” Nico said. “She deserves the best. I do want her to make some connections, though. I think that’s important.”
“I’m sure she’ll be running the place in no time,” Minos said confidently.
“I’m a little worried about cursing people when I get there,” Hazel sighed, pulling an amethyst out of her pocket and showing it to Minos. “It’s been really bad today; I’ve found three of these. Once I get around all the kids at camp, they’ll start popping up like mushrooms.”
“Good,” Nico said jokingly. “Thins out your competition. Anyway, Hazel, listen up. I’ve got some news to tell you. I talked with Annabeth today. She’s doing much better and she said to tell you hi.”
“That’s great!” Hazel said. “I guess I’ll see her at Camp?”
“Yep. Also, there’s another thing,” Nico added more seriously. “It’s looking like Gaea broke Luke out of the prison in Zeus’s cave.”
The cheery smile dropped off of Hazel’s face.
“I know it’s upsetting to hear,” Nico said, putting his hand on her shoulder. “But we’ll find him and put him back soon. Artemis is looking for him as we speak.”
Hazel bit her lip, looking up at him.
“Um. There’s something I kind of have to tell you,” she said, her voice gone quiet.
Nico’s took his hand off her shoulder.
“What is it?”
“I killed him.”
Nico’s brain took a second to process what he’d just heard.
“That’s impossible,” he said. “You can’t get out of the house when I’m not home.”
“I broke through the wards while you were in Tartarus and shadow traveled to the cave.”
“No,” he said. “You didn’t. Please be joking. Hazel, please tell me you were not that stupid.”
“I slipped through the cave walls, snuck up behind Luke, and killed him with my Stygian knives,” she said.
He noticed her hands were shaking as she told him.
“I just wanted to do something to help you--”
“Help me?” Nico shouted. “How does this help me? How, Hazel? What the hell were you thinking?”
Her lip started trembling as the floor shook beneath their feet. Spiderweb cracks formed in the walls, and the dishes in the cupboard rattled on their shelves.
“Do you have any idea what you’ve done? If Hermes finds out that you killed Luke, he’ll blast you into tiny pieces! He will never, never, ever let this go without seeing someone suffer for it!”
All the light bulbs in the kitchen exploded, scattering glass everywhere.
“But if I didn’t do it, you would have had to!” Hazel said. “You’ve done so much for me, I just--”
“If you get killed now, then I’ve wasted all of this time for nothing,” Nico said. “I’ve hurt enough people and angered enough gods. One more doesn’t matter to me at this point, and Hermes wouldn’t be able to kill me if he tried. But you had to go and do it for me! Now, everything we’ve worked for, you’ve just put at risk.”
“I only wanted to help you,” she said again, tears welling up in her eyes.
“I don’t need your help!” Nico said. “You’re a disobedient, short-sighted, impulsive little girl. What could you possibly do for me that I can’t do better myself?”
Hazel broke down into sobs, turning away from him. Minos went over to comfort her, shielding her from Nico.
Nico tried to control his anger, taking deep breaths. He spared a glance for the kitchen. The marble island countertop had cracked in two. He nudged one of the pieces with a finger, and a massive slab of marble fell onto the floor with a resounding slam, shattering the floor tiles where it landed.
“I’ve never for a second doubted my choice to resurrect you,” Nico said quietly. “Until now. This world is unbelievably cruel and dangerous. There are so many immortals and monsters out there that would think nothing of killing you for the pettiest of reasons, or for no reason at all. You’ve just put a massive target on your back. You think you did it for my sake? That just makes me feel even more at fault.”
Hazel was weeping quietly into Minos’s shirt. Nico stared at the shattered marble, tile, and glass on the floor. Then he went over to Hazel and knelt down in front of her, turning her around to face him.
“Hazel, you’re all I’ve got to live for. You’re only thing that really matters to me. You know that, don’t you?”
She nodded.
“I’m sorry I yelled at you,” he said. He did feel awful about it. He’d been a scary jerk and made a mess of his own house. “I’m not angry at you. Not really. Mostly I’m just scared of what’s going to happen if you get caught.”
“You don’t regret—”
“Resurrecting you?” He wrapped his arms around her, and she pressed her face into his shoulder. “Hazel, if you die a horrible, painful death because of me, I’ll absolutely regret resurrecting you.”
“I’d never blame you,” she said. “I’d die for you anytime. With a smile on my face.”
“Ditto,” he said, kissing the top of her head. “But let me be the one dying. Then you can grow old and have a bunch of grandkids and tell them stories about me, so my name will live on forever. That’s cooler than living, anyway.”
She laughed a little through her tears.
“Also, you’re totally grounded,” Nico said.
“I figured.”
He sent her back upstairs to her room, then took a few minutes to clean up the worst of the mess in the kitchen, sweeping up the glass shards so that Hazel wouldn’t cut her feet the next time she came downstairs.
“You okay?” Minos asked.
“I’m far from okay,” Nico said quietly. “But there’s a chance she’ll get away with it. We’ll hang on to that hope, I guess.”
“You’re doing a great job.”
“I just yelled at her and made her cry. I’m doing a terrible job.”
“You apologized immediately,” Minos said. “She knows you’re doing the best you can. Don’t be so hard on yourself.”
“Hazel and I are so different,” Nico said. “Anytime my dad shouts at me, I start shouting back. Di Angelo’s are notoriously confrontational, you know.”
“Wow, you don’t say,” Minos smiled at him fondly. “Nico, I think you need to take a break. You’ve had a very difficult day, and I can see that it’s getting to you.”
“I can’t leave now that I know Hazel can get through my wards. I need to re-do them.”
“She’s not going anywhere tonight. You should relax,” Minos insisted.
Nico took a moment to think it over.
“I think maybe you’re right,” he said finally. “I should blow off some steam. Ever since Tartarus, I’ve been really off kilter. Can we go out on the town? Just hang out together?”
Minos extended his hand, and they were off.
Chapter 52: Revelry in Mykonos
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Nico brought Minos to a place he’d been saving for a special occasion.
It wasn’t the most stunning beach in Greece. It was beautiful in the way that most of them were beautiful-- the sky was pure blue, the sun was bright, the sea was a glittering blue-green, and golden sandstone cliffs framed the shoreline on either side. Couples walked and children played in the sand; it was late October, but the weather was nice, and the seashore of Heraklion was bustling.
Minos meandered across the wet sand, leaving no footprints behind him. He stared at the sea cliffs, at the sand and the ocean, so distracted that he nearly walked into someone’s picnic.
To the scattered locals and tourists, he would have looked like any other handsome, yet otherwise unremarkable Greek man. Only Nico saw Minos as he truly was. A king, finally returned to his kingdom.
“So much has changed,” Minos said, gesturing at the nearby cliffs. “But I know this place. I’ve been inside those caves up there.”
“I did my research,” Nico said. “The caves here are millenia old. I hoped you’d remember them. There’s an ancient palace not far away--”
“I don’t want to go back there,” Minos said immediately. “Too many memories. This is enough.”
The two of them climbed up to the sea caves and explored them while Minos slowly reconciled old memories with the present. As they walked around, he told Nico stories that he’d never shared before, simple tales about being a kid and exploring with his friends. As he spoke, local children sprinted across the sand below them, and tourists took selfies with the ocean in the background.
“I’m glad to know the passage of time hasn’t erased everything I’d ever known,” Minos said, sitting on the cliff ledge with Nico and watching the sun slowly sink over the ocean. “This is the first time I’ve felt like I’m home.”
Nico rested his shoulder against Minos’, and they sat in companionable silence for a while, taking it all in.
“Children are playing,” Minos said. “Families are eating and drinking together. The television said that my civilization collapsed, but my people are still here. They seem alright to me.”
“Only the gods know what really happened,” Nico said. “I guess you’d have already asked someone if you wanted to know.”
“I’d rather leave it a mystery,” Minos said. “But I’m reassured by what I’ve seen today. Thank you, Nico.”
They went to a restaurant on the beach for dinner, a quaint cantina with outdoor seating on a patio. Nico ate, but Minos had even less appetite than usual. He seemed lost in reverie, and they barely spoke. Nico hoped his silence was merely thoughtful, and that he wasn’t too upset by bad memories of the past. Minos was particularly hard to read at the moment.
After the sun began to set, a small group of local musicians started playing traditional music, and a few people got up to dance. It wasn’t unusual to see dance routines performed for tourists, but as the night wore on and more drinks were imbibed, the dancing became a little more spontaneous and casual.
Nico didn’t know anything about Greek music or dancing, so what happened next caught him off guard. Minos got up to dance.
It was odd timing, from Nico’s perspective, because the music was in a lull and most people had sat down again. But the musicians kicked off a new song just for him. Minos danced by himself, and no one joined him.
Nico racked his brains trying to figure out whether he was being a bad boyfriend by not dancing with him, but he had no idea what sort of dance Minos was attempting. It looked like weird slow kicks and spins, and arm waving gestures that looked almost bird-like. It could only be some sort of Minoan dance, a slow tempo, solo performance that no one in the restaurant could tear their eyes away from.
One of the waiters went up to Nico and leaned over to him, whispering.
“What sort of dance is that? It’s like a zeibekiko, but… Not. I’ve never seen anything like it,” the man asked Nico.
“I have no idea,” Nico said, shrugging.
He and the waiter watched silently as Minos finished his dance and came back to sit at the table. There was a smattering of applause, stilted and slightly confused, and then the musicians started up a fast-paced song, as if to ward off any more dramatic solo acts.
Minos didn’t meet Nico’s eyes, and Nico paid for the meal quickly. They headed out to the street, where they stood facing each other awkwardly.
“So…” Nico said.
“I don’t want to talk about it,” Minos said.
“Okay,” Nico said quickly. He didn’t really want to get into it, either. He was sort of at a loss for words, because he’d never seen Minos quite like that before.
Nico cut the tension by lighting a cigarette and smoking for a few minutes, acting like that required his total focus, which it didn’t, really.
“Don’t let me bore you, dear one,” Minos said eventually. “We wanted to raise your spirits tonight. What would you like to do?”
“I’d like to go somewhere a little more lively,” Nico said. “Um, no offense. Let’s see,” he said, looking at his phone. “This place looks kind of tacky and fun. Want to dance some more?”
“I’ll watch you dance this time,” Minos said, holding out his hand.
They reappeared in front of a club. It was lit up in neon, and pop music was blasting so loudly from within that the walls were vibrating. It was exactly the type of vibe Nico had hoped for: distracting.
“Princess Di Bar,” Nico read. “This is it! Come on, let's get drinks,” he said, dragging Minos inside.
Minos, good sport as always, waited quietly in the corner and watched Nico do shots. Nothing Nico said could entice him to join in, and although Minos insisted he wanted to be there, Nico felt like he was being selfish by keeping Minos somewhere he wasn’t comfortable.
“Let's dance,” Nico said, dragging Minos onto the dimly lit dance floor, which was packed with people and had a bubble machine filling the air with iridescent floating spheres. The atmosphere felt wild, magical, and exciting. Forcing him to dance was a last ditch effort to lighten the mood and get Minos to have some fun, although Nico had little hope it would be successful. They joined the sea of tanned and muscled bodies gyrating to dance music. The energy was electric, lightening Nico's spirits the more he let go and danced mindlessly. He was grateful to Isis, who'd taught him, after much effort, not to look like an awkward loser on a dance floor. Minos barely made an effort to dance, but he was entertained by looking at all of the hot men around them, so it was better than nothing.
Three or four different men asked if they could buy Nico drinks, but Minos glowered at them until they slunk off. All left them alone except one very persistent man, who had migrated from the center of the dance floor over to their corner.
“Come dance with me, cutie,” the man said, shouting to be heard over the pounding bass. He was a tall blonde wearing white short shorts, a necklace that said 'hot stuff', and little else. Nico could barely make out what he was saying, and there was a strobe light behind his head obscuring his face. It didn’t really matter what the guy looked like, though; Nico was there with his boyfriend and didn’t want to be hit on. He went over to stand next to Minos, turning his back to the rude man and putting the bubble machine between them.
“I might be ready to leave,” Nico said, shooing bubbles away from his face. “Is it just me, or the energy in here off all of a sudden?”
Minos shrugged, not understanding.
“I’ll leave whenever you want to leave.”
“Is that guy gone?” Nico asked Minos. “I don’t want to turn around in case he--”
“Baby, come on, you can do better than this old man,” the man said, coming up behind Nico and putting his arm around his shoulders. “You know you want it.”
“Will you leave me alone?” Nico muttered, shrugging the man’s arm off of him. Minos stepped forward to try to get in between them, but before Nico could see what had happened, Minos was abruptly on the other side of a small crowd of people, struggling to get back to him.
In the meantime, the man took advantage of Minos's absence to get behind Nico and whisper in his ear.
“Looks like it’s just us now,” he said. Nico shuddered.
“You can't take a hint, can you, dude,” Nico growled, super uncomfortable. “You're gonna regret this,” he added darkly.
“I don't think I will,” the man said. “You're the hottest guy in here.”
Nico turned incorporeal, and the man fell forward, stepping right through him.
“What the--” the guy said, turning around.
“Apollo?” Nico said, seeing his face for the first time.
“Nico?” Apollo said, equally shocked. “What the fuck are you doing here?”
“What the fuck are you doing here?”
At that moment Minos plowed his way through the crowd and grabbed Nico’s hand.
“We should go,” he said, glaring at Apollo.
“This is Apollo,” Nico said.
“Yeah he is!” Someone behind them shouted.
Apollo grinned and turned around to see who said that. While he was distracted, Nico and Minos made their exit.
“Did you say Apollo?” Minos asked Nico anxiously once they were on the quiet, dark street again. The thumping music and laughter was muffled to a dull roar, echoing the sound of the crashing waves on the beach not far away.
“Yeah. Let's just stay out of his way,” Nico said.
“Probably wise,” Minos agreed.
There was a hotel across the street from them. As they hesitated on the sidewalk, a flickering sign suddenly made a ‘zap’ noise and lit up in bright green.
“The Asphodel Hotel,” Nico read out loud, seeing the sign he’d missed earlier.
“Terribly familiar name,” Minos observed.
“But it has a rooftop bar. Come on, I’m not ready to go home yet.”
They went straight up to the bar, which was decorated with slightly spooky green lighting and had a smoke machine. Nico was immediately charmed by the décor, but Minos seemed slightly put off by it. There were some groups dancing, but the bar was mostly full of tourists hanging out and socializing.
Nico sat on a leather couch and gave Minos his drink order-- a martini with extra olives. He’d eaten so many out of Commodus’ fridge during his summer internship that he craved them all the time now. He checked his phone while Minos waited in line at the bar.
“Well, well, well,” an all-too familiar voice said, approaching. “Fancy meeting me again.”
“Apollo,” Nico said, acknowledging him with displeasure.
Apollo sat on the couch beside Nico, putting his shoeless feet on the table and bracing his arms across the back of the couch. His fingers grazed Nico's shoulder, causing Nico to scoot away.
“Did you really not recognize me?” He asked Nico.
“It was dark. And bubbly. And I wasn't really looking at your face,” Nico said.
“Yeah,” Apollo chuckled. “Huge, isn't it?”
Nico glared at him, unamused.
“I was looking at your feet,” Nico said firmly. “You realize what's probably on those floors? Think about wearing shoes next time.”
Apollo made a face and looked at his feet one at a time, pulling them up onto the couch. Nico recoiled away, since they were getting way too close to his face. Apollo's feet did appear to be spotlessly clean, though.
“I think I'm good,” Apollo chuckled. “So, you're dating a dead guy?”
Nico nodded.
“I haven't known any children of Hades,” Apollo said. “Is that normal for you guys? Just saw him in the fields of Asphodel and told daddy you had to have him?”
Nico snorted.
“I don’t need my dad’s permission. I date who I want,” Nico said, leaving out the fact that the whole relationship had, in fact, hinged on Hades’ approval. “I stole Minos for myself,” he added, trying to sound cool.
“Minos?” Apollo spluttered. “The judge? I knew I knew him from somewhere!”
“I don't waste my time with just anybody,” Nico smirked.
“You sure don't,” Apollo said. “I'm genuinely impressed. With all the dead to choose from, he’s a pretty cool choice.”
“Do you think so?” Nico asked, pleased.
“Yeah, he’s interesting. You know, I don't think I've ever met a demigod who climbed the social ladder the way you have. Not since Hercules,” he said. “Isis told me the other day that she missed you. She missed you! A demigod,” he giggled. “Ridiculous.”
“I just remind her of Anubis,” Nico said. “That's all.”
“That’s all?” Apollo said. “Oh, here's your erastes now,” he laughed. “My brother, King Minos, himself!”
Minos handed Nico a vodka martini with extra olives.
“Lord Apollo, an honor,” he bowed his head.
“Fetching drinks now, I see,” Apollo said, gesturing at Nico. His fingernails were neon yellow with little suns painted on them. Apollo summoned a Long Island iced tea with a crazy straw and mini-umbrella and took a sip.
“I’m happy to fetch him all the drinks he wants,” Minos said, sitting next to Nico on the far side of Apollo. “Being with the Prince of the Underworld is a privilege.”
Nico threw one of his legs over Mino's thigh and took a sip of his martini, which was nearly overflowing with olives.
“Prince?” Apollo said, nearly doing a spit take.
“He’s the only one who calls me that,” Nico reassured him. “Don’t take it too seriously.”
“I don’t know what to take seriously. It’s weird that Uncle Hades lets you live with him. My kids are very cool, don’t get me wrong, but I couldn’t have them underfoot all the time. They’d get in the way of my hot boy lifestyle.”
“My dad does not have a hot boy lifestyle,” Nico said emphatically.
“That, I knew already,” Apollo grinned.
“His palace is big, quiet, and empty,” Nico said. “And Persephone is gone half the year. We don’t always get along great, but I know he’d rather have me around than be alone.”
“When you put it that way, it makes sense.” Apollo nodded. “I always got the impression he was a miserable dude who felt sorry for himself and took it out on everybody else.”
“Sometimes. But mostly he’s doing the best he can,” Nico said. “I’m sure you Olympians have your own narrative about him,” he added. He could only imagine the horrible things they probably said about his dad when Hades couldn’t hear them,
“Yeah, just like he has his own narrative about us,” Apollo added, with a raised eyebrow. “Speaking of narratives,” he said, running his hands through his long, blonde curls and pulling his feet up to sit cross legged on the couch. “Let’s talk about our mutual friend Commodus. I know you have questions.”
“Why did you kill him?” Nico asked.
“Why? I don’t know,” Apollo said. “Why does anybody in this Pantheon do anything? My dad told me to.”
Nico couldn’t help it; he gasped in shock, utterly horrified. Zeus ordering people to do unsavory things was nothing new, but ordering his son to kill a former lover? That was bad, even for Zeus.
Nico observed Apollo’s face as he spoke; his eyes were haunted and guilty. His expression was usually flashy and aloof. This new seriousness changed him, and changed Nico’s perspective of him, at least a little.
Apollo carried a burden of guilt for what he’d done, just like Nico did for Ethan and Alabaster and even partly for Luke. Nico couldn’t imagine carrying that for thousands of years. Tartarus sounded more merciful.
“Why did he order you to kill him?” Nico asked.
“It’s a long story, but I think you already know Commodus’ side of it. To quote the great Tyra Banks, I was rooting for him. We were all rooting for him,” Apollo said, a sad fondness creeping into his voice. “I wanted to see Commodus change Rome for the better. He had this way of connecting with common people. He’d hang out with anybody, from the lowest prostitute to the – well, the me,” he laughed. “He didn’t care who you were or where you came from, so long as you were fun to be around. If he was surrounded by people who understood him, who could keep his bad impulses in check, he’d shine as bright as the sun.”
“I saw that, too, buried beneath ten layers of crazy,” Nico said. “He’s too far gone to be helped now, but it was hard not to think about what could have been. He wasn’t rotten to the core like Nero or Caligula. He’d just been let down too many times by the people he loved. I’m guessing one day he just snapped?”
“Bingo,” Apollo said, his voice hollow. “He became a crazy evil emperor. You would think that would be the reason I killed him, but actually, it was the cosplay that got him in the end. Hercules thought it was cringey, and he complained to our father about it. My dad… I probably shouldn’t be telling you this…”
Nico waited patiently, trying to keep his rabid curiosity off his face.
“Whatever. I’ll just say it. My dad does this thing where he picks favorites. He’ll lavish the golden child with attention and praise, and make the rest of us fight for scraps. Of course, there’s also a black sheep that gets blamed for everything that goes wrong.”
“Seriously? That’s bullshit,” Nico said.
“That’s my dad,” Apollo said sadly. “Hercules made his complaint at the perfect time. Dad wanted to make a show of defending his favorite son’s honor. He formally accused Commodus of stolen divinity. I was chosen to punish him.”
“You were the black sheep,” Nico said. “I’m sorry, Apollo. That was really cruel and unfair.”
Apollo gazed into Nico’s eyes for a second, as though he was trying to suss out whether Nico really meant what he’d said.
When he finally spoke, his posture had relaxed, and his cocky, too-bright smile had returned.
“It’s alright. Life’s not meant to be fair, especially for gods. And my dad had his reasons. It’s not like he’s evil or anything. It’s not easy for him to wrangle a bunch of uber-powerful immortals all the time.”
Nico had no response to that. Apollo had clearly drunk the Zeus Kool-Aid and wasn’t ready to hear Nico talk shit about his dad.
Apollo said something about making the rounds and walked off to explore the bar. He picked a few cute guys out of the crowd to briefly disappear with, and at one point Nico spotted him swimming naked in the pool playing with a beach ball. Eventually, though, he gravitated back to Nico and Minos.
“You know, this used to be Di’s place,” he said, sitting back down beside Nico.
“Dionysus? Really? So Ariadne is…”
“She manages it, yeah,” Apollo said, looking at Minos. He seemed amused at watching Nico’s boyfriend cringe, looking over his shoulder nervously.
Nico took Minos’s hand and squeezed it.
“Maybe we should go,” he suggested.
“No, not both of you!” Apollo insisted. “I was just trying to scare ghosty away. Ariadne isn’t here tonight, don’t worry about it.”
“Why would you want to scare my boyfriend away? You’re not trying to hit on me again, are you?”
“Ugh! Bleh, gross,” Apollo gagged. “No way. The sun and the Underworld don’t mix.”
“Well, good,” Nico shrugged.
“I just wanted to talk about Commodus some more. Give me some of those olives, would you?”
Nico let Apollo eat some of his olives, and he told Apollo everything that had happened with Commodus-- about Alabaster, racquetball, the onagers, and how Hera had betrayed him and left him to die.
“After all that, you’re still taking orders from her?” Apollo asked.
“One last mission, then I’m out. Reconnecting with her meant a lot to my dad. I don’t want to do anything to screw it up. Besides, I can’t afford to be on her bad side when my sister Hazel is at Camp Jupiter. I’m dropping her off pretty soon.”
“How diplomatic of you,” Apollo said, finishing his cocktail and staring at Nico. “You know, I used to think you were just another annoying little demigod. But I think I get why so many gods like you. But as you can see,” he said, pointing at the horizon. “I have to get to work.”
“It was nice hanging out with you,” Nico called out, although Apollo had left in a blur of light as soon as he’d finished his sentence. He turned to Minos. “That was weird. Do you want to go for a walk? The night’s almost over.”
“Sure,” Minos said, taking his hand.
They walked down to the beach and strolled along the sand. Nico found a spot to sit down, and they sat and admired the view of the sea glittering in the moonlight.
Minos ran his hand through Nico's shoulder length black hair, a soft, happy smile on his face.
“My Nico,” he murmured. “You are lovelier than a flawless pearl. Or perhaps you’d rather I called you a flawless gem from the center of the earth. One dredged from so deep that there has never been another like it. And there never will be.”
“You give the most beautiful compliments,” Nico said, feeling relieved that the old Minos seemed to be coming back. He kissed him deeply, savoring the moment of peace and contentment with his love. “I love you, Minos.”
“I love you too,” Minos said. He traced his fingers through the sand beside him. They didn’t leave any imprint on the surface. Instead, his fingertips barely shifted a few grains. “I think we should break up,” he said.
Nico laughed out loud.
“Very funny,” he said.
“I’m serious,” Minos said, looking at Nico gravely. “This relationship needs to end.”
Nico stared at him.
“That’s not a good joke,” Nico said, looking at him quizzically. “Are you feeling alright? Because you’re not making any sense.”
“Yes, I am,” Minos said, gritting his teeth. “You heard what I said. What does not make sense is our relationship. It’s not working. Let’s end it.”
“No!” Nico said, his emotions flipping from mild confusion to utter panic. “Shut up, you don’t mean that. You just told me you loved me. You don’t want to break up.”
Minos sat and stared at him quietly. Nico waited for him to respond.
“Say something! Don’t give me the silent treatment. What’s the matter with you?” Nico said. “Minos, why are you doing this?”
“I wasn’t giving you the silent treatment,” Minos said, standing up. “If you order me to shut up, I have no choice but to do it. You have complete control over me.”
“No I don’t,” Nico said, baffled.
“You do. A magical sort of control, over me and all other shades,” Minos said. “My love,” he said, more gently, going up to Nico and taking his hands. “I know that you think of us as essentially peers, and you think that you’ll be a shade soon, too… But I don’t believe that’s true.”
“Of course it’s true,” Nico insisted. “How could it not be?”
Minos hesitated. He had a pained look in his eyes.
“Dear one, I don’t relish telling you this. But I think it’s best that you hear it from me.”
“Hear what?” Nico asked.
“You’re a god.”
Nico stared at him for a moment, his mind gone completely blank. It felt like Minos had dumped a bucket of ice water over his head. Then he started laughing hysterically.
“That’s impossible,” he said, wiping his eyes. “Really, that’s insane. Minos, I think you’ve lost it.”
“I’m not crazy, Nico,” Minos said gravely. “I know you don’t want it to be true, but it’s undeniable.”
“You are so sweet,” Nico said, looking at Minos fondly. “You must really love me if you’re that delusional about me. I’m flattered, but that’s objectively a ridiculous thing to say.”
Minos bit his lip.
“Maybe this was a mistake,” he said. “I don’t think you’re ready.”
“You’re going to get me in trouble,” Nico said. “You can’t call people gods that aren’t. Look what happened to Commodus! Stolen divinity is nothing to play around with.”
“It’s not a statement I make lightly,” Minos said. “I genuinely believe it, and I’m not the only one.”
“Not the only one? You’ve got to be kidding,” Nico said, getting annoyed at Minos’ stubbornness. “Look, I get it. The golden blood is weird! I totally understand why someone might get the wrong impression. Even I double checked with Hecate to be sure. But I’m just a demigod. I’m as mortal as the next person. You’ll see. My dad will take me off the no-ride list in a few months, and we’ll laugh about this when you judge my soul in Asphodel.”
“They don’t let me judge people I know personally,” Minos said. “Not that it matters. You won’t die. I’m confident of that.”
Nico’s lip curled a little bit in disgust. The idea of being trapped in the world of the living made him sick. His mother was waiting for him in Elysium. He’d been able to accomplish so much, to push through so many fears and hardships, because he’d known that this life was only temporary. Death was the one place where everybody was equal. No matter what gods he’d offended, no matter who he’d lied to and let down along the way, eventually, he’d get to be at peace.
Anything else was unacceptable.
“Minos,” he said, pacing up and down along the sand. “I do not accept your request for a breakup. I refuse, okay? You’ve gotten the wrong idea in your head and it’s making you say things that don’t make sense. I’ll have to talk to you once you’re in your right mind again. And we’ll laugh about this weird conversation we had in Mykonos. Right?”
Minos just stared at him.
“Minos…” Nico said, sighing in exasperation. “I’m not a god.”
“If you order me to be your boyfriend, then I have no choice but to obey,” Minos shrugged.
“Sure, if that’s how you want to see it.”
“I suppose the olive doesn’t fall far from the tree,” Minos said quietly.
Nico stopped pacing and stared at him.
“What is that supposed to mean?”
“You know what I meant,” Minos said.
“You have no idea what you’re talking about,” Nico said.
“Of course I do. I was there when your father dragged Persephone into the Underworld against her will,” Minos said. “I also heard what you tried to do to Bianca. You wanted to force her back to the surface, right? And your father stopped you? And now you’re doing it to me. I should have expected as much.”
“How could you?” Nico said, his voice weak and quiet. “After all this time, after everything we’ve been through, how can you say that to me? I love you. And I know you love me. I’m just trying to stop you from ruining everything that we have over something that isn’t even true.” He felt a tear roll down his face and drip from his chin; he hadn’t even realized he’d started crying.
“I do love you. And I’m trying to help you. To help both of us. I hope that someday you’ll understand,” Minos said gently.
“I don’t want to understand,” Nico said viciously, his voice breaking. “I’m not a god. I’m not. And I forbid you to ever, ever call me that again. Got it?”
Minos gave a slow nod.
“Consider us officially broken up,” Nico said.
“You’ll always have my friendship,” Minos said calmly. “I’m still here for you, no matter what. Just not in the same way.”
“Just go,” Nico said, waving his hand and dismissing Minos back to the Underworld.
He sat down on the sand, pulled his knees up to his chest, and sobbed. He didn’t understand anything, and he didn’t want to. The one person who’d always been there for him, wasn’t anymore. What was he going to do? Minos had been his rock, his beacon of sanity, the one he trusted with all of his fears and worries. He’d said they’d still be friends, but that was a cruel joke; nothing would ever be the same again. It felt like he’d been stabbed in the heart with a rusty knife and left to bleed out alone.
He thought about calling Will, but crying to your side piece about your main boyfriend dumping you was beyond pathetic. He didn’t want to tell Hazel; he’d yelled at her earlier, and he felt too guilty to lean on her for support now. He had godly friends, but telling a god that he’d been dumped by a ghost would only end with him being laughed at.
There was only one person he felt like he could stand talking to. He took out his phone and dialed.
“Thanatos?”
“Yes.”
“I want to help lock the doors.”
“I’ve already locked them all. It’s done.”
“Oh.”
“I’m working. You could come with me, if you wanted,” Thanatos said hesitantly.
Nico’s stomach flipped over, and he felt a wave of excitement fill his limbs with renewed energy. He stood up, his heart pounding.
“I’d like that,” he said, wiping tears from his face. He didn’t feel like crying anymore.
Nico stood on the beach and looked out over the ocean. The moon was setting, and the sun was rising in the distance. He looked away, turning his back on the light, not wanting to risk Apollo noticing his red eyes and tear stained face.
He was staring up at the pink and orange clouds in the sky when a dark shadow passed overhead and reached out a hand. He took it, and suddenly, he was somewhere else.
Thanatos didn’t talk much when he was working, but that was okay. Nico was engrossed in every single soul collection. They went to hospice facilities, retirement homes, battlefields, and dark alleyways. A few of the dying had family and friends around them, with spouses and children weeping and sometimes screaming. Many, too many, had a single sympathetic nurse holding their hand as they passed away. And some of them had no one. That made Nico deeply sad. He wished that he could tell them they weren’t really alone, that he and Thanatos were there watching over them, but they had to remain invisible.
While Nico found each death utterly fascinating and deeply moving, Thanatos was barely paying attention. He was clinical and professional, plucking out each soul with precision, tucking it into his mantle, and leaving. Nico understood that this was business as usual for him, and he didn’t judge him for it, but he wished they could have stuck around and learned about some of the people whose souls they were taking. Each little blue soul was tucked unceremoniously into Thanatos’ pocket, and they were off to the next soul before Nico could get a sense of who they were.
There was only one that Thanatos seemed to even register as a person rather than a task to be completed. She was an old woman who’d had a cardiac arrest alone in her apartment. She was lying on the floor in her nightgown and fuzzy socks, splayed out like a starfish. They’d arrived at the moment that her body was shutting down; she hadn’t been on the ground long. As Thanatos knelt over her and plucked out her soul, he paused.
“Hm,” he said. “Look.”
A little orange cat was padding over to see her. It sniffed around her body and laid down beside it.
“Aww,” Nico said. “Poor kitty. It misses her already.”
They watched as the cat licked the woman’s lifeless hand, then bit into it tentatively.
“Uh oh,” Nico said.
Another cat wandered out from the kitchen, coming over to see what was going on. And yet another, an old black one missing an eye, squeezed out from under the couch. Looking around, Nico realized there were at least eight cats in the apartment, and possibly more.
“Please tell me they’re not really going to eat her. Guys, stop it,” he said, shooing them away. The cats backed off a little, but as soon as Nico stepped back, they returned to their nibbling.
Realizing it was hopeless, he glanced around and saw cat toys and scratching posts everywhere. There were pictures of cats all over the walls, too.
“Well, maybe this is how she wanted to go,” Nico sighed.
“I just think they’re funny,” Thanatos said.
“Cats?”
“People. Why would anyone choose to live with these ravenous little monsters?”
Nico laughed, and Thanatos watched him, smiling.
“It’s good that you’re feeling better,” he said.
“I just watched a bunch of people die. I can’t take my problems seriously after that,” Nico said. “Minos dumped me,” he added casually, hoping they could gloss over the subject quickly.
“Oh? Why?” Thanatos looked immediately very pleased, but he quickly erased the expression and feigned concern and mild interest. It wasn’t lost on Nico.
“I’d rather not dwell on it. I was just caught off guard. He still wants to be friends, but… I don’t know. I can’t even think about that right now.”
“I told him to look after you, since you were so affected by the Cocytus,” Thanatos said. “It seems like he chose the cruelest possible timing. You ought to tell my sister Nemesis. She’ll be happy to assist you in visiting torment upon him.”
“I’m not really inclined to torment him,” Nico sighed. “He had his reasons. And he’s a shade, so even if I could come up with some way to hurt him, I wouldn’t be allowed to.”
“True,” Thanatos said. “What were his reasons? I can’t imagine they were anything with a shred of validity.”
“No, they were bullshit. It’s sort of a misunderstanding that I can’t talk him out of. Sorry, but I don’t want to go into details. Thanks for saying they’re not valid, though. They weren’t. You’re right.”
He checked the time and realized he’d left Hazel alone for way longer than he’d intended. It was already almost seven in the morning.
“I’d better go,” Nico said. “But, Thanatos? Thanks for this. It really helped.”
“Well,” Thanatos said, tugging on his hair awkwardly. “You know. Anytime you want to tag along, you’re welcome to.”
“Really? I don’t slow you down?”
“You slow me down immensely,” Thanatos said. “But I don’t mind.”
Nico went back to the house in Chania feeling amazing. The lingering effects of Tartarus, of the Cocytus river, of the fight with Hazel and the breakup with Minos, all felt like they’d been washed away. The light of all of those little blue souls felt like they were still glowing in his heart. All of his stupid drama was so unimportant, so meaningless, next to the miracle that was death.
He got back to the house and went upstairs, peeking into Hazel’s room. As he poked his head through the doorway, her alarm started going off at seven AM on the dot.
“Go back to sleep,” he said, walking inside and turning her alarm off.
“Huh?” She mumbled, half awake. “Really? No jogging?”
“Nah. Sleep in. I’m going to get some rest, too.”
She fell back asleep immediately, and he went into his room and crawled into bed, shutting his eyes and praying to Hypnos that his dreams would be kinder to him than reality.
They weren’t. He had the same freaky dream about Luke that he’d had the day before. Luke was sitting in his prison, his eyes dead and empty, and he spoke in a monotone.
“Be afraid of the One who can destroy both soul and body in hell,” Luke said.
“Dude, that’s not funny,” Nico said. “Cut it out.”
“Do not be afraid of those who…”
“Morpheus, since when do you read the bible? Do you realize who you’re quoting?” Nico said, walking up to Luke and smacking him on the side of the head. “Knock it off. This is weird.”
Luke didn’t stop talking. Smacking him did nothing. It was like the dream was a movie, and he was a 3D image, not Morpheus shape-shifted into the form of someone else.
Even in his worst nightmares, Nico was always able to get Morpheus to respond, at least for a few seconds. This felt different. Off, somehow. He started to grow uneasy.
“I wasn’t even the one who destroyed your soul,” Nico said. “Not that I want Hazel to have these dreams… Forget I said that. But it wasn’t our fault you made Zeus mad! You joined Gaea! That was your choice! You should have just stayed dead!”
There was a noise behind him. Nico whipped around; Ethan was standing a foot away, staring at the back of his head. He cried out and stepped backwards, but then Alabaster was there, with the same horrible blank expression. Alabaster, Luke, and Ethan suddenly closed in, surrounding him on all sides. The familiar cave walls transformed into a weird, melting soup of lava and greenish goo, and the smell of sulfur and burning flesh filled his nostrils. High pitched whistling sounds filled the air, which was growing hotter, and he realized he was hearing distant screaming.
“Morpheus, Hypnos, Epiales, whoever, this is too far,” Nico chattered in a panic. “This is… This is… Am I in Hell?”
The three demigods stared him down, their eyes cold and dark.
“I’m sorry,” Nico said. “I can’t undo what I did. I wish I could. I’m sorry…” Nico said.
He sat up in bed, panting, his body drenched in sweat. His heart was pounding. He’d never had a nightmare like that before. He couldn’t put his finger on it, but he knew it was different to any nightmare he’d ever experienced.
He laughed shakily, thinking that he was going to have to track down Epiales and punch him in the face. That guy was good at his job. And he knew bible quotes, which was strange. He picked up his phone, which was glowing with a few messages. It was only nine AM, so he hadn’t slept long.
His first message was from Ganymede.
“That's a gorgeous picture of you,” he said. “Your hair looks fab! What salon do you use?”
Nico frowned. What picture? He opened up Godstagram, with a sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach.
He only had to scroll past a few of Aphrodite's selfies in order to find it. Gossip goddess had posted.
The photo was better composed than most Godstagrams. It captured Nico in the center, on a couch, with Minos on his right and Apollo on his left. He had a leg draped over Minos’, and Apollo had an arm behind his shoulder. He'd been feeding Apollo an olive from his drink. It looked almost like a renaissance painting, with the way Apollo was leaning toward him and his casual posture. The neon lights in the background, and the stars overhead, made the photo a thing of beauty.
His stomach sank. Everyone who saw that photo was going to think something had happened between the three of them, and he couldn't blame them. He was only feeding Apollo the olive because they’d been joking around, but it hadn’t been flirtatious in any way. It didn’t come off as innocently in the photo as it had felt in real life.
It was simply captioned, 'Revelry in Mykonos.’ Just vague enough to invite implications. That wouldn’t help things. Luckily, it hadn’t been up long, and there was only one comment. Isis had written, “why wasn’t I invited?”
He tapped on the comment button over and over, smushing his thumb into the screen, wishing he could clear up the misconceptions. The button was still as deactivated as ever, since he was viewing without an account.
He texted Apollo anxiously.
“WHO TOOK THAT PICTURE,” he wrote, beginning to feel truly enraged at the violation.
“IDK but I'm pissed,” Apollo replied. “Does your dad use Godstagram?”
“Sometimes,” Nico replied. “He doesn’t usually comment, though.”
“I'll clear your name on the ‘gram if you make sure your dad doesn't get the wrong idea about us,” Apollo said.
Nico's stomach churned at the thought of contacting his father about anything, let alone something this stupid, when they had so much unfinished business between them.
“You can't just call him yourself?”
“My word isn't worth anything to him on this subject.. Long story...”
Shocker, Nico thought, annoyed that he’d been put in this position.
“Okay, I'll handle it with him,” he said.
“K,” was Apollo's only response.
Nico looked back at the post. He stared at the picture. It was probably the best picture of him ever taken. He was sitting next to Apollo, the ideal male beauty, and he actually looked pretty good in comparison. It was almost difficult to believe, but his pale skin and dark hair contrasted nicely with Apollo's deep tan and golden hair, and they complemented each other rather than competed. His eyes looked black as onyx, his pupils indistinguishable from his irises, and it gave him a wild animal look that was both weird and deeply attractive.
Did he really look like that? He got up and looked in the mirror. Of course, he did look like that, but he also looked totally normal. Maybe Apollo's presence had changed the way he was perceived; it was the only explanation that made any sense. The thought crept into his head that Minos might have had a point when he called him a god. He did sort of look like one. Nico smashed that thought like a cockroach; that was impossible.
He looked down at the comments. In the last few seconds, Apollo had written, “We're just friends, FWIW...” With an eyeroll emoji. Better than nothing, Nico thought.
Under that comment, Aphrodite wrote, “He looks like Aidoneus but less grumpy.”
Persephone had responded, “Isn’t he just the cutest?” With lots of heart emojis.
She was so sweet, Nico thought, smiling. He missed her terribly.
A new comment appeared that made his stomach drop.
“Is that my dad?”
It was from Ariadne.
He was so fucked. He had never told her he was dating her father. He’d hoped she’d never find out. Maybe that had been a bad plan...
It was soon followed by another comment, “Was anyone going to tell me my father is in Greece? He’s supposed to be dead! What the fuck is going on?”
“I'll call you,” Persephone's response popped up as he stared at Ariadne's note guiltily. He breathed a sigh of relief, grateful that his stepmom was willing to explain things and buy him some time. He should have been the one to call Ariadne, he thought. And he should have done it earlier, not blindsided her like this. Now, he’d have to deal with it the best he could.
There was a bright side to hurting her feelings. It was easier to call his own father if it meant he got to put off apologizing to Ariadne a little longer.
He called Hades and immediately decided he ought to have texted him instead. Unfortunately, Hades picked up before he could hang up.
“Yes,” Hades said coldly.
Nico swallowed.
“Hi,” he said awkwardly.
Hades didn't respond.
“Did you see the post on Godstagram this morning?” He asked.
“I have far better and more pressing things to do with my time than looking at foolish social media nonsense,” Hades said firmly. He paused. “I did happen to see it.”
“Uh huh,” Nico said. “Um, well, Apollo asked me to tell you that despite what the picture might imply, nothing happened between us... I don't even like him that much, so...”
“Why did he not tell me this himself?”
“He said you wouldn't believe him.”
“I would not,” Hades said. “But I can just as easily summon Minos and ask him, and he cannot lie to me.”
“Oh. Right,” Nico said, feeling like an idiot. “Fine. Guess I didn't need to call you, then. Forget it.”
“Fine,” Hades said. He sounded disappointed.
Neither of them hung up, but neither of them said anything, either. There was so much Nico wanted to say, but nothing would come out of his mouth, and he felt paralyzed by the weight of it all.
“She's still waiting for you,” Hades said finally. Then, before Nico could respond, he hung up.
Nico put his head in his hands, squeezing his eyes shut and trying not to picture Bianca sitting in Asphodel, waiting to move on. He couldn't think about that right now; he had too much going on.
He glanced down. He had a missed call from Ariadne. He called her back.
“I'm sorry,” he said immediately. “I didn't want you to find out from Godstagram.”
“Yeah, that was awful,” she said.
“I didn't post it, though,” he added.
“You were in MY BAR, asshole,” Ariadne said. “Did you think it wouldn't get back to me?”
“I'm sorry,” he said again.
“I let you stay at my house,” she said, the hurt evident in her voice. “I made you pancakes.”
“I know. I'm really, really sorry,” he said. “I should have told you.”
“Yeah, you should have,” she sighed. “So now what?”
“What do you mean?”
“Are you with him right now?”
“Uh, no, I'm not,” Nico said.
She didn't respond for a moment. He heard the sound of liquid pouring and glasses clinking.
“I had to make a pitcher of mimosas to calm myself down,” she grumbled. “Hope you're pleased with yourself.”
“I'm sure they're delicious.”
“They are indeed delicious, Nico, yes,” she said resentfully.
He listened to her sip for a few moments in silence.
“I would like to see him,” she said finally.
“Do you want me to bring him to your place?” Nico asked.
“No,” she said firmly. “The villa is for good vibes only. Are you still in Heraklion?”
“I can be.”
“Ugh. Okay,” she sighed. “I'll come home. At some point. I need a few more mimosas to get my courage up.”
“I'll meet you at your old place whenever you’re ready.”
She hung up on him.
Chapter 53: Goodbyes Are Hard
Chapter Text
Nico sat and stared at the wall, at a loss for what to do next. He couldn’t just sit around and wait for Ariadne to call. When gods contemplated, they tended to take a while.
“Knock knock,” Hazel said, tapping on his door.
“Come in,” Nico said. Hazel walked into his room and made herself comfortable, hopping up onto the end of his bed. She smiled at him warmly, and he smiled back. The way she looked at him was so charming that he couldn’t help but melt; her expression was just that cute.
She was thirteen, not really a child at all by demigod standards, but she had such blind faith and trust when it came to Nico that he associated it with childish innocence. She was actually fairly mature for her age, but part of him wanted to reject that side of her, to help her reclaim the childhood she’d never really been able to have. He just wished they had more time.
She was also wearing pink pony pajamas, so he wasn’t totally off base in thinking of her as a kid.
“How’s it going?” She asked.
“Minos and I broke up,” Nico said.
Hazel gasped.
“What? No!” She said, genuinely devastated. “I loved you guys together! What happened?”
“We just think we’re better off being friends,” Nico lied. He didn’t really think that at all, but he hoped he could eventually believe it. “It’s all good. I was thinking we could work on monster fighting today? Back to the usual routine?”
Hazel nodded, but before he could continue talking, his phone buzzed with a text.
It was from Hera.
“Prepare yourself,” it read. “The plan is in motion. You have your orders.”
“Uh oh,” Nico said, staring at the screen.
“Uh oh? What’s uh oh?” Hazel asked, leaning over to look at his phone.
“I think Hera’s done something,” Nico said. “Something she can’t take back, that will trigger the war in the spring.”
Hazel sighed, digging her fingers into the bedsheet. She did it behind her back, maybe thinking Nico wouldn’t notice, but he saw.
“Okay,” she said quietly. “I guess I’m really doing this.”
Nico sat up and pulled her into a hug. She pressed her face into his shoulder, and he could hear her struggling to hold back tears.
“You still have time,” he said quietly. “You’re not facing her until you’re ready. And I’ll be with you every step of the way.”
“I know,” she said. She looked up at him, her big hazel eyes sparkling with tears. “It’s not the fear that’s getting to me. If I knew Gaea was just gonna kill me again, I’d tell her to bring it on. It’s the hope that’s making me crazy. Knowing there’s a chance I could have a real life… That I could grow up… I want it so bad,” she said, her voice breaking. She wiped her nose, sniffling. “It’s scary having so much to lose.”
“You’re going to live, Hazel,” Nico said.
“You don’t know that.”
“I do know,” he said.
He did, sort of. There was no death aura around Hazel, nothing at all to indicate she wasn’t going to live a long life. But death auras were finicky things, and sudden twists of fate could happen. It was nothing more than an educated guess.
“Promise?” She asked him.
“I promise,” he said.
He thought about the uncertainty of the future. The impossibility of knowing anything for sure, and how quickly life could end. He could keep Hazel stuck here in Chania, and suit himself training her obsessively until she couldn’t take it anymore. If there was a guarantee that doing so would save her life, then that would be the plan. But no such guarantees existed in life. It was all guesswork. And he needed to let her live.
“I think it might be time for you to go to camp,” he said.
She stared up at him, a new light entering her eyes.
“Really?”
“Really. I’m not going to just ditch you there,” he added quickly. “I’ll stay with you as much as you’re willing to put up with me, and we’ll still train together,” he said. “It won’t be that different. But I think we should go today, at least to check things out.”
She nodded, her fears about the war temporarily forgotten, exchanged for a new, more important focus.
“There’s boys there, right?”
“Hazel!”
“I hope they’re cute!” She said. “I’m gonna go pack!”
She went upstairs in a hurry. Nico just sat and shook his head. No matter how complicated their life story, a thirteen year old was still a thirteen year old.
She called him up a while later to ask him to sit on her suitcases so that she could zip them. She had all of her own clothes as well as the ones Annabeth had bought and then abandoned, so she had five large suitcases. She added to that a duffel bag full of weapons and amulets, and a Yeti cooler full of potions. Nico’s paranoia had encouraged her to overprepare, and he was pleased to see that her arsenal was looking substantial. It was going to be really hard to fit it all into his car, though.
Somehow they got everything to fit and climbed into the front seats. Nico double checked the address that Hera had sent him ages ago. All too soon, they were ready to head out.
He looked at Hazel, feeling fear grip his heart every time he thought about leaving her at the mercy of the campers, whoever they were. They wouldn’t know how she liked her pancakes fluffy and her orange juice with extra pulp. They might not let her take boiling hot showers that lasted three hours while singing Billie Holiday and Ella Fitzgerald songs at the top of her lungs. And they definitely weren’t going to keep her favorite rum raisin ice cream in the fridge.
Would they treat her differently because she was black? Because she was a daughter of Pluto? Because she was cursed? Because she’d been brought back from the dead? He had no idea, but he felt like he was sending a tasty little lamb into a lion’s den. Teenagers could be so brutal.
“If you don’t like it, you can come home,” he reassured her.
She just shot him an excited smile, and he felt stupid. Of course she could handle it. He was the one who was quaking in his boots.
He shadow traveled the car to an address in California.
They appeared at an intersection at the top of a hill. There was a signpost with directional arrows that read “New Rome University,” “Forum,” “Coliseum,” “Temple Hill,” and “Camp Jupiter.”
“This place is bigger than I thought,” Nico observed, rolling his window down to look around. As a Greek demigod, he didn’t want to be too impressed, but he couldn’t help it. It made Camp Half Blood look downright silly in comparison. He saw apartment buildings, college dorm facilities, shops and markets, a large hill topped with impressive Roman temples, neighborhoods of suburban homes, and the massive Coliseum in the distance.
“Ahem,” said a nearby rock.
Nico leaned out of the window to look at it. It was a rock with a man’s face in it, and he looked angry.
Nico looked around and saw that a circle of stones had surrounded them, forming a magical barrier that surrounded his car.
“My name is Terminus, and you are under arrest for trespassing,” the rock man said.
“Trespassing? Uh, I don’t think so,” Nico said, double checking the address on his phone. “Juno told me to come to this spot.”
“You’re here with her permission?”
“Yes,” Nico said, holding out the phone with the text message and showing it to the rock man. “I’m dropping off a new camper.”
“Camper? Do you mean legionary?”
“Sure, whatever.”
The stone looked skeptical.
“This is extremely poor timing on your part. We’ve just had a praetor go missing. Everything is locked down while we search.”
“Was it Jason or Reyna?” Nico asked, thinking that this must be what Hera had been referring to in her text message.
The rock was silent.
“I’m placing you both under arrest until we get to the bottom of this,” he said.
“We’ll cooperate,” Nico sighed. “But I can assure you that I’m here with Juno’s permission. Just call her and ask.”
Terminus ignored him. Nico and Hazel sat in the car for a few minutes until a young woman on horseback rode up the hill to where they sat. She had on Roman armor and a plumed helmet, and had two dogs flanking her. Soldiers ran up behind her, holding perfect formation as they assembled themselves in a threatening manner. All of them looked like middle and high school aged children in Roman armor.
Some army, Nico thought to himself. They were a bit too short to be intimidating, although the armor looked great, and they seemed very disciplined.
“Think you could be one of them?” Nico asked Hazel.
“I guess so,” she said. “They’re shiny. I like that.”
They both got out of the car and stood before the woman on the horse.
“State your purpose,” the young woman said, her voice carrying a note of severe warning. She looked stern and no-nonsense, with long dark hair secured in a neat braid.
“My name is Nico di Angelo, Ambassador of Pluto,” Nico said. “I’m here to drop off my half-sister, Hazel. She’s going to join the legion.”
“Pluto,” the young woman said, staring them down. Nico had guessed that this was Reyna, and that Jason was the praetor who was missing. “There’s never been a child of Pluto before.”
“That’s not true,” Nico said. “I’ll have you know that our older half-sister was a Vestal Virgin in ancient Rome. Her name was Macaria Ferentina. And the famous author Dante Alighieri was a child of Pluto as well. Maybe do some research before you make ignorant statements. I’ll have you know that you’re very privileged to have to opportunity to have Hazel in your legion. Actually--”
“Nico, cut it out,” Hazel hissed, tugging at his sleeve.
He cleared his throat.
“Never mind. Hazel, go on.”
“I’m Hazel Levesque,” she said. “I want to join your legion. Please.”
She stared at Reyna. Reyna stared back at her.
“We don’t know who these people are or where they come from,” Terminus cut in loudly. “They could be responsible for Jason’s disappearance.”
“They can stay,” Reyna said. “On the condition that Hazel goes to the Wolf House and wins the approval of Lupa.”
“What?” This was the first Nico was hearing of that aspect of the camp, and he didn’t like it one bit. “No, we’re not adding conditions, that’s not fair. She should be treated like everyone else.”
“She is being treated like everyone else,” Terminus said angrily. “That’s the normal procedure. You’re the one trying to skip ahead in the process. She presents herself to Lupa to be tested, and she either makes it back here to join the legion as a probatio, or she dies.”
Nico knew nothing about Lupa, but he wasn’t about to entrust Hazel’s fate to a wolf.
“Nope. We’re leaving,” Nico said. “Hazel, get in the car. We’ll find a better camp somewhere else.”
He wasn’t foolish enough to think he could get out of having to send her to camp after Hera had ordered them to go there. However, they’d arrived a lot earlier than was really necessary, and if Jason was gone, that meant that one of the most important people for Hazel to network with wasn’t available. He didn’t think it was worth it to rush into something he hadn’t properly researched, especially when the legionaries were giving his sister the stink-eye.
“I’m not leaving,” Hazel said.
“Get in the car. We’ll talk about this at home.”
“I’m not going,” she said, looking at him defiantly. “I’m joining. Today.”
They stared each other down for a moment, and Nico sighed.
“She’s very determined, as you can see,” he said, looking at Reyna. “Alright, where does she need to go?”
Reyna explained the location of the Wolf House, but she refused to give any more details about what to expect. She was very reticent, and it seemed like she shared some of Hazel’s stubborn qualities.
“She goes alone,” she added seriously.
Nico had seen that coming, but it made him nervous. He turned to Hazel, who was studying the location to prepare to shadow travel there.
“Wait,” he said, an idea coming to him suddenly. “Before you go, I want you to have these.”
He took his earrings out and pressed them into her hands. She clutched them to her chest in awe.
“You’d really give these to me?” She gasped.
He nodded. He hadn’t planned on it, but it felt right in the moment. He wrapped her in a tight hug.
“Be safe,” he whispered.
“I’ll see you soon,” she said. “Don’t worry.”
“I’ll worry anyway. But I know you’ll do great. I love you.”
“Love you too,” she said. “Thank you for everything. I swear I’ll make you proud.”
He let go, and she disappeared into shadow.
“What just happened?” Reyna asked, alarmed. “Where did she go?”
“Children of Pluto can teleport at will using the shadows,” Nico said casually.
Some of the legionaries’ jaws fell open in shock.
Reyna frowned thoughtfully.
“I think she will be back here very soon, if she’s that powerful,” she said. “Nico, while we wait, we can offer you our hospitality. You can leave your car and things here. We’ll make sure she gets moved in properly when she returns.”
Nico was happy to accept her hospitality, which felt overdue. She got off of her horse and walked with him down a steep hillside towards the legion headquarters. It was a rectangular military encampment with walls around it guarded by more young soldiers.
“I’ve heard good things about you,” Nico said as they walked. “How long have you been with the legion?”
“Going on six years,” she said. She looked like she was around college-aged. “I’ve been praetor for two and a half. I’m a daughter of Bellona. Where have you heard about me?”
“I happened to come across a demigod popularity poll a few months ago listing the demigods most likely to be selected for godhood. You were number three.”
She stared at him, her eyes gone wide with shock.
“Is that real?”
“Well, there’s no godhood being offered at the moment, so it was just hypothetical,” Nico said, not wanting to get her hopes up. “Still. You must have impressed the right people.”
“People as in gods? That’s incredibly flattering,” she said, her cheeks turning pink. “I didn’t know they discussed us that way.”
“I didn’t mean to make a big thing about it. I just know that you’re very respected and admired. If you’re half the leader the gods seem to think you are, you’re going to be a huge asset to Hazel.”
“You’re very concerned with your sister’s well being,” Reyna said, watching him carefully.
“My dad has never been very involved with her life, so I’m her primary guardian. And she’s very important to me,” Nico emphasized. “Her success is my number one priority.”
“Very admirable of you,” Reyna said. “My older sister Hylla looked after me growing up. She’s an Amazon warrior now.”
“Impressive.”
“She’s something, alright,” Reyna said. They walked into camp, where she had a large officer’s tent, bright red with accents of shining gold. She had a huge desk with maps and scrolls littered across it, and there was another, similar desk on the other side that was unoccupied. There was a framed map also hanging on the wall, with a knife driven through the center of California, the blade plunged directly through Mount Tamalpais.
There was also a mug on her desk with the logo ‘C.C. Spa and Resort’ and a cartoon guinea pig. Nico made note of it without reaction. That was the name of Circe’s island where he’d seen Gaea recruiting over the summer.
“You don’t look like a spa kind of lady,” Nico said when she took a sip of coffee from the mug.
“I’m not. It’s just a memento,” she said. “I apologize, I should have offered you a drink.”
“I’ll take coffee,” Nico said.
Reyna nodded to a probatio outside, who ran in and popped a K-cup into a Keurig in the corner. Nico cringed as the machine made what was clearly going to be terrible coffee.
“Nico, please tell me about yourself,” Reyna said. “Where do you come from? Why have you never been here before?”
“I’m from Venice,” he said.
“Oh! I see,” she said, seeming to relax upon realizing he was European. His American accent seemed native, and so he knew that from her perspective, it was suspicious for him to never have encountered the camp before, as a demigod. She didn’t know there was a Greek camp, so she must have been baffled. “Were you trained in Italy?”
“No, I trained in the Underworld. But Hazel and I have been living in Greece for the last couple of months. I trained her there.”
“I think I understand now,” Reyna said. “I apologize for the confusion when you arrived. Whatever instructions Juno gave you were slightly incomplete, but you couldn’t have known that. I don’t think Pluto would allow anyone to claim to be his ambassador if it wasn’t true, so I feel comfortable allowing you and Hazel to stay. It’s been a difficult day. You’ll have to excuse the chaos.”
It didn’t feel chaotic at all. The camp was more regimented and orderly on this ‘chaotic’ day than Camp Half Blood was at its quietest.
The probatio handed Nico his cup of coffee. It was as bad as he’d expected.
“Sorry about the coffee,” Reyna said. “I know it isn’t great, but the Keurig is more efficient.”
“Some things are worth taking the time to do correctly,” Nico said.
“It’s coffee. It is correct,” she said.
“Life is too short to drink bad coffee,” Nico told her. “Trust me, as the son of Pluto, I’d know.” He thought about the souls he’d watched Thanatos collect. Most of those people had probably thought they had time for at least one more cup. It didn’t always work out that way.
Reyna frowned like what he said made her uncomfortable.
“If your sister is as strong as you say she is, she’ll be back by Thursday at the earliest. Lupa doesn’t waste time training those who don’t need it, but she has all her new cubs spend a few nights with her pack to learn their ways. My counterpart, Jason, actually grew up with the pack. Lupa raised him from the age of two; he doesn’t remember his human mother. And he is an incredibly powerful demigod, and an inspiring leader, so you should feel confident in Hazel’s training right now. She’s in good hands.”
“I think you mean good paws,” Nico said dryly. He was still mad at himself for not researching Lupa prior to arrival, but it was too late now. “You said Thursday? That’s four days from now. There’s no chance of her coming back sooner?”
“It would be a first.”
“I’m coming back Wednesda, just in case. I want to be here when she walks in, victorious.” He stood, setting his terrible coffee down. “Reyna, it’s been fun, but I have better things to do than sit and chat. You understand. While I’m gone, go ahead and unload her things from the car and get her room set up. I want her in the nicest one you can give her.”
“I think that’s a little premature,” Reyna said, frowning.
“No. It’s not. Trust me.”
With that, Nico disappeared into shadow, returning to the house in Chania. He walked around, tidying things up, making Hazel’s bed and picking up the loose odds and ends she’d left behind. She’d forgotten to pack one of the photos they’d taken together in Athens, one he’d gotten printed and framed for her. He had an identical one on the wall in his room. He picked it up and looked at it fondly, remembering what a happy day that had been. He hoped her forgetting it had been an oversight and not intentional. But maybe she was trying to send a message, that she needed space from him. That was understandable, even if it hurt. He put the picture down and went to his own room.
It took one glance at his bed to remember the terrible dream he’d had about Luke, Alabaster, and Ethan. He turned around and walked out; sleep was out of the question after that. He’d just have to never sleep again.
He paused on his way down the stairs. He wasn’t a god, despite what Minos thought. He needed to sleep, as all humans did. Maybe it was better he get to the bottom of the dream.
He picked up his phone. Nothing from Ariadne yet. A message from Will confirming dinner Friday night; he sent a thumbs up for that message. He saw his dad’s number on his call history and sighed.
He had at least three days free. His work for Hermes was done, his work for Zeus was done, his work for Hera was really not due until Spring. No more chores, no more boyfriend, no more internship. Without Hazel, there was nothing stopping him from going home and tackling his unfinished business with Bianca and his dad.
Ugh. Nope, he didn’t want to do that. Imagining it sent a jolt of fear through his heart worse than any nightmare. He got back on task and dialed Morpheus.
“Hi Nico!” Morpheus said. “You coming home soon?”
Talk about putting him on the spot. Nico winced.
“I think I might be,” he admitted. “I think I need to.”
“Sweet! We’ll hang out and play cards. Thanatos is too good, he’s boring to lose to every time. How’s life on the surface?”
“You should know. You just showed up in a horrible nightmare this morning,” Nico said.
“No I didn’t,” Morpheus said.
“Dude. Are you messing with me? You did.”
“No,” Morpheus said. “I’ll check with my dad, and my Uncle Epiales, but I think I’d know. One sec…”
He dropped off for a minute, during which time Nico started biting his nails until he got chips of polish in his mouth and had to spit it out. He lit a cigarette instead, desperate to calm his nerves. This was not normal. He’d dealt with weird dreams before, and Morpheus had always known the story behind them.
Except for when they involved Maria Bova, he realized, the fact dawning on him suddenly. Morpheus and Hypnos had nothing to do with those either.
“Nico? I’m back. They don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“I think I figured it out,” Nico said. “But thanks. Much appreciated.”
“But I didn’t do anything--”
Nico hung up.
He could only think of one thing the Maria dreams and the new dreams had in common.
He turned invisible, then shadow traveled into town. He walked around invisibly for a few minutes, looking for something. He knew there had to be one nearby.
He stopped in front of the Church of Saint Rocco in Chania. It was a big, square building with a little round window over the door.
Saint Rocco himself, a cheerful looking man with a long robe pulled up to show off his calves, was hovering in the doorway. Literally hovering; his feet were a half an inch off the ground. There was a little brown dog at his feet. When Nico became visible, the dog began wagging his tail in excitement.
“About time,” Rocco said, raising his eyebrows at Nico.
“I almost didn’t figure out what was up,” Nico said. “But my people don’t send dreams with bible verses in them.”
“Obviously,” Rocco said, gesturing for him to come inside. “Come on. We have a lot to talk about.”
Nico followed him into the church and was taken aback to see it filled with modern art.
“They use it as an exhibition space,” Rocco said. He sat in a chair against the wall and pointed at the chair beside him for Nico to sit. “I’ve seen you before, you know,” he said, poking at a scab on his leg idly. “When you were younger.”
“You’re popular in Venice. I know your statues.” Nico tried to avoid looking at his gross plague scab, but it was hard when Rocco kept picking at it. Rocco was the saint of protection from plagues, and had a particular identifying feature that was hard to ignore.
“I’ve always been big there,” Rocco said. “They brought me with them when they conquered this place long ago. They had a lot of plagues, so they-- Cerberus! Down, boy!”
His little dog had jumped onto Nico’s lap.
“His name is Cerberus?” Nico asked, totally disarmed when the dog rolled onto his back waiting for belly scratches. “That’s my dog’s name, too!”
“Cerberus just means spot,” Rocco said, his tone growing defensive. “My dog is not named after yours. If you can even call that a dog.”
Nico stifled the response he really wanted to make in defense of his Cerberus. In fairness, he technically wasn’t a dog, he was a literal monster, but more importantly, he was a good boy and didn’t deserve Rocco’s derision.
“I know what Cerberus means,” Nico said archly.
Rocco’s immediate friendliness, he realized, was only surface level. He wondered whether he’d walked into this conversation naively, but reminded himself that no Catholic entity had ever tried to hurt him, other than in defense of their property. He couldn’t say the same of his own pantheon, so he figured he may as well give Rocco a chance.
The dog in his lap suddenly barked, then gagged, then a communion wafer popped out of his mouth.
“Sorry, he likes to feed people,” Rocco said. “That wafer isn’t consecrated, by the way, it’s just a wafer. You don’t have to treat it likes it’s radioactive.”
Nico had been trying to gingerly knock it on the floor, but after Rocco said that, he picked it up and set it on the ground. The little Cerberus stayed in his lap and went to sleep.
“I try to be careful,” Nico said, glancing at the wafer. “I don’t know what’s going to burn my skin or something.”
“You’re not a vampire,” Rocco rolled his eyes. “Besides, didn’t Valentine shove your head in a baptismal font?”
“Uh, well, yes.”
“Case in point. Nothing in here is going to hurt you. Unless modern art offends your eyes like it does mine. They try, bless them.”
Nico laughed. Despite their obvious differences, and a slight wariness on both sides, Rocco felt like an old neighbor he hadn’t spoken to in a while. He even spoke to Nico in the Venetian dialect he’d grown up with, which made him feel like he was home for the first time in a very long time. The only other person who spoke to him in that language now was his father.
“I don’t mind chatting with you,” Nico said. “But I do have a lot going on, and being here is a little dangerous for me, so I need to hurry. Can you just tell me about these dreams you’ve been sending?”
“Sure. In the interest of time, I’ll be blunt. Maria Bova, I can explain simply. She prays for help. We think you can help. We connect the two of you.”
“I’m trying to help her, but it’s not that simple,” Nico said. “Trust me, I’m working on it.”
“There you go. The system works.”
“Okay,” Nico said, satisfied with the explanation. “Got it. But the new dream… With Luke, Alabaster, and Ethan. That’s different.”
“What do you think it means?”
Nico didn’t answer right away. He thought about it for a few minutes before he said anything.
“I know what I did was wrong,” he admitted. “I shouldn’t have this power. No one should.”
Rocco stared at him intensely.
Nico felt a deep sense of shame well up in him under Rocco’s judgemental gaze.
He glanced down at his lap. Little Cerberus was giving him the stink-eye, too.
“It’s too late to undo it. I’m not sure what you want from me,” Nico said quietly.
“The power you’re talking about-- the one you used to destroy their souls-- it made some important people very unhappy, Nico.”
“I’m not sure what it has to do with your people,” Nico said defensively. “Luke, Alabaster, and Ethan were pagans to the core. I didn’t know them that well, but I do know that much.”
“That’s irrelevant. We still keep an eye on things. We serve an omniscient god, after all. We can’t help it.”
“Really? Because it seems like you’re sticking fingers in other people’s pies.”
“This power isn’t ours, and we don’t know the full context of why you used it. But the point still stands: Those young men disappeared. They had souls, and then they were just gone. There was nothing left of them. Everybody has to have an afterlife, Nico, whether it be good, bad, or indifferent. Otherwise, the atheists win.”
Nico cracked a smile. Atheists were one group of people he’d never be able to relate to.
“I’m never planning on using the power on humans again,” he said. “Not for anything.”
“And your sister?”
“I’ll handle her,” he said. “If I find out any of you have gone anywhere near my sister, I’ll start burning cathedrals down. Don’t test me on that.”
Rocco burst out laughing.
“I won’t,” he said. “I suppose we have a ways to go before we win you over to the side of the one true God. Don’t worry, we’ll leave Hazel alone. We don’t harass non-believers when we can harass people like you instead.”
“I’m not a believer,” Nico said.
“That doesn’t matter,” Rocco said. “What matters is you’re here. We’re having this conversation. That’s a big deal. We know the sort of connections you have, and how dangerous this is for you. That isn’t lost on us.”
“I’m comfortable taking risks,” Nico shrugged. “I’ve made it this far.”
Rocco held out his hands, and Cerberus jumped into them.
“Just remember that we’re here if you need anything. We’re always willing to make a deal.”
Nico waved goodbye. Turning invisible again, he took a stroll around Chania, taking in the city and enjoying the Venetian architecture that was still on display. It had been a good choice for a home base. He wasn’t ready to leave yet; it held too many good memories of time spent with Hazel.
It was hard to reconcile with that part of their lives being over; it felt like the time had passed too quickly, even though it had been almost two months. He knew that sending her to camp had been the right choice; that it was an inherently different situation than what had happened with Bianca. Hazel didn’t leave him, he’d dropped her off willingly. No one had been wronged. So why did he feel so awful about it?
The truth was, his life just felt more complete with a sister.
Deep down, he knew he had replaced Bianca with Hazel. Now that Hazel was busy, it was time he spared a thought for the sister who had left him behind so long ago.
He didn’t want to do it. Just the thought of confronting her again was terrifying. Every single time he interacted with Bianca, it left him shattered. This time probably would hurt more than he could possibly imagine. Because this time would be final. That was still just as unthinkable as it had been four years ago.
He still wanted to lock her in a box and keep her next to his heart for eternity. But he steeled himself and shadow traveled to the Underworld despite the fact that he desperately wanted to keep running.
Maybe he’d come a little further than he thought.
He went directly to his father’s office, appearing in a haze of black shadow. Hades and Persephone were both at their desks, working. The helm of darkness was sitting on Hades’ desk, meaning Bianca didn’t have it anymore. She was waiting to see him, Nico realized, his guts twisting in fear.
His father looked up at him with an expression of shock before quickly concealing his emotions. He made eye contact with Nico, then looked back down at his spreadsheet.
“Darling!” Persephone burst out joyfully, standing and hurrying over to give Nico a hug. “What a delight to see you again!” Little purple violets sprang up all over the room, and she kissed his cheeks and mussed his hair. “I’ve missed you. It’s so good to have you home.”
He forced a placating smile at her, but she seemed to get the gist of what he was intending, and she backed off a little.
“What brings you here today?” She asked, her demeanor a little more reserved.
Nico looked at his father.
“You said she’s still waiting, right?” He asked.
Hades fiddled with some papers on his desk.
“She is,” he said curtly.
“Can I speak to her?”
Hades nodded stiffly, standing.
“Follow me,” he said quietly. Nico followed him out of the office. Persephone started to come with them, but Hades gestured for her to stay behind. Nico was grateful for that. Persephone had good intentions, but this was something he and his dad needed to do together.
There was a petrified cypress tree standing beside the Lethe, its trunk gnarled, its bark patterned with human faces. Bianca was sitting beneath it, staring out over the misty river. The stone arch that shades passed through in order to be reborn stood nearby.
Nico tried not to look at it.
“I’ll leave you to speak alone,” Hades said.
Nico grabbed his arm.
“Please stay,” he said. “If you leave, I might run for it.”
“You’re not going to do that,” Hades said gently. But he did stay.
Nico walked up to Bianca. She didn’t turn her face up to look at him until he was right in front of her. Her face was so familiar, and yet so strange. The soft white glow of the Lethe lit her elegant oval face, making her look like a wispy oil painting of a young girl. She was so young. Younger even than Hazel was.
That was the thought that made the difference, in the end. Hazel was a little girl who wasn’t ready to be responsible for herself. Nico completely understood that. He never stayed mad at her, even when she made mistakes, because he knew she was still figuring things out. Bianca had been through so much; she’d lost her mother, her memories, her home country, all before the age of 12.
And Nico had asked so much of her-- he’d demanded all of her time, attention, and patience, more than she had to give. He’d wanted her to be the mother that neither of them could remember. When she’d joined the huntresses, she’d broken his heart and stomped on it. He’d felt like he’d been discarded, rejected, and betrayed.
His feelings were valid, but Bianca-- she’d been a kid. Maybe she’d made a mistake, or maybe she’d been happy with her choices-- he didn’t know, and she clearly wasn’t interested in telling him. But it didn’t matter. She was just a little girl doing the best she could. Nico had finally gained enough distance, enough perspective, to see that.
“Hey,” he said, sitting next to her.
“Hello,” she said.
“I’m really sorry I tackled you the last time I saw you. And for the yelling. I shouldn’t have done that. I had a right to be upset, but I took things too far.”
She shrugged. She didn’t seem bothered by it at all.
“Has anything changed for you? I mean, do you have anything you want to say?”
“I have nothing to say,” she said. “I don’t know what you want to hear. I just want to leave.”
Nico stared at the river, the backs of his eyes burning.
“Right,” he said, swallowing hard. He’d wanted to hold off on crying until she was gone, but that ship had sailed. “I had some things I wanted to tell you before you go. I love you. And I forgive you.”
She didn’t respond. He wiped his eyes, his heart pounding like a drum in his chest. It was like he was speaking to a doll that looked like Bianca. Death had changed her so much. But he’d been prepared for it, this time. He was able to push through the hurt.
“I was keeping you here because I love you. But I think the best way to love you now, is to let you go. I’m sorry it took me so long to figure that out.”
She said nothing. She just stood, and looked at the archway.
She seemed uninterested, but he couldn’t help but give her a hug, pressing his face into her hair one last time.
“I love you forever, Bianca,” he said, struggling to get the words out.
For the first time since she’d died, she smiled at him.
“I love you, too. I wish I remembered who you were.”
She walked through the archway and disappeared.
Nico was stunned into silence for a long time. He grabbed hold of the stone of the archway and stared through the portal, seeing nothing but the Lethe on the other side. Wherever she’d gone, there was no following her.
It felt like there was a gaping hole in his chest, an emptiness where she’d once been. He sank to his knees at the side of the archway, trying to remember how to breathe. It didn’t seem as easy as it had a moment ago, while she was still here.
“You already had her drink from the river,” Nico said, looking at his father. His voice sounded hollow and unfamiliar to his own ears. “Why did you do that? You must have known I’d want to talk to her.” Aside from the obvious, overwhelming grief, he felt horribly disappointed. Their one last chance to talk, and Hades had taken it from them. “I know she probably wouldn’t have said anything I wanted to hear, but it would have been better than nothing.”
Hades didn’t respond. There was a look of guilt on his face that made Nico uncomfortable. He wasn’t defending himself, nor trying to make any excuses. It wasn’t like him.
“Actually, the last time, on the balcony, she didn’t seem like herself, then, either,” Nico said, the cold truth striking his heart. All this time, she’d seemed so distant, so unlike the sister he’d known. What if there was a reason for that?
“I can explain,” Hades said. His voice came out meek, and slightly apprehensive, like he knew Nico was about to blow up at him.
“When did she drink from the Lethe?” Nico asked. His voice came out somewhat calm, but it wasn’t because he actually was calm. There was a ringing noise starting in his ears, and his heart began beating so fast it felt like there was a bird flying around in his chest.
“A few minutes after she arrived here,” Hades said. “Four years ago.”
It was all too much to take in. Nico stared at the ground. The earth felt like it was shaking beneath his feet, but he couldn’t tell whether it was real or in his head. Plumes of dark shadow sprang up, surrounding him, protecting him from looking at his father, the person who had just admitted he’d lied to him.
After everything he’d been through, all of Nico’s suffering that he’d witnessed, Hades had been keeping something from him after all. Nico had never felt smaller, or more foolish, or more alone. All he could think was that this couldn’t happen. He needed his dad now more than ever. He couldn’t lose him, but this was a betrayal on such a massive scale. What was he going to do?
Although Nico was radiating misery and despair like black ooze, Hades approached him anyway. He pulled him away from the archway and made him sit beside him under the cypress tree where Bianca had been sitting.
Nico wanted to lash out and attack him, to run him through with his Stygian iron blade and destroy him for what he’d done, but he was in a place beyond anger, stunned into miserable paralysis.
Hades put a hand on his back gently.
“Look into the water,” he said. “And I’ll show you what happened.”
The surface of the Lethe cleared, and a vision appeared on its surface. Nico was watching his father’s memories, seen through his eyes.
“A heroic death for a young huntress,” Minos said. Aeacus and Rhadamanthys nodded agreement. “You have merited Elysium,” Minos continued.
Bianca smiled softly. Hades was watching from the balcony, his long fingers gripping the railing as he leaned over it to see her judgment from afar.
“You may also choose rebirth, and attempt to win a place in the Isles of the Blessed,” Minos said. “If you live two more heroic lives, you will have your entry.”
“I won't remember my past if I'm reborn,” Bianca said, “Right? I won't remember...” She trailed off.
“Nothing will be left,” Minos said. “Only your soul. No memories, skills, or experiences.”
“You leave with what you came in with,” Rhadamanthys said. “Check your baggage at the door.”
Bianca looked distraught.
“I want to try,” she said. “But...”
The judges glanced at each other.
“We have other people to judge,” Rhadamanthys said. “It's a simple choice. Rebirth, or Elysium.”
“Can I think about it?” Bianca asked.
His eyes nearly popped out of his head.
“That's against policy,” he said.
Hades shadow traveled down to the judges’ platform. Bianca looked up at him, her eyes wide and frightened.
“Daughter,” Hades said. “Come with me.”
He placed a hand on her head and they both disappeared into shadow.
“Do you know me?” He asked her when they arrived in his throne room.
“Yes,” she said. “I think so. You’re my father, Hades.”
“If you have questions, I will answer them. Your mother is in Elysium,” he said. “In case you were wondering. Meeting her again should jog your memory.”
“Are they good memories?” She asked him.
He hesitated.
“Good, and some very bad. That is why I took them away from you. But in Elysium, the bad shouldn’t trouble you.”
“Hmm. What about the Isles of the Blessed?” She asked.
“You're interested in those?” Hades asked.
“What are they like?” There was a light of fascination in her eyes.
“If you think of Elysium as similar to a never-ending good day, experienced as a sort of dream, the Isles of the Blessed are a bit closer to an eternal life of constant joy,” Hades said. “But there's a gravity to it, a glory, that's difficult to convey. This is your first time meriting Elysium,” Hades said, kneeling down to speak to her face to face. He brushed his hand across her hair fondly, although she shuddered away from his touch. She didn’t remember him, not really.“You will have merit it twice more to win a place in the Isles.”
“Should I do it?” She asked.
“I cannot advise you,” Hades said. “This is your choice to make.”
Bianca paced back and forth, wringing her hands.
“Take your time,” Hades said. “It's an important decision.”
She paused and stared into the distance for a moment. She was looking at Elysium, at the foggy hills in the distance.
“I think I want to try,” she said.
“You choose rebirth?” Hades asked.
“I choose rebirth,” she said, turning to him and looking at him with determination gleaming in her eyes. “If I don’t, I’ll always wonder what could have been. But before I go, I need you to promise me you'll look after Nico.”
“He will be fine,” Hades said.
“You really mean that? You never did much for us before,” she said.
“Intervening too much in the lives of demigods is frowned upon,” he said. “But I will do as much as I can without overstepping proper boundaries.”
She looked skeptical, but she seemed to accept that it was as good as she was going to get.
“Are you ready?” Hades asked.
She nodded.
He brought her down to the banks of the Lethe.
“I remember this place,” she shivered.
“Fair warning,” Hades said. “Since you've drunk the waters before, your memory loss this time will be incomplete. You will retain some memories of your past life, mostly small, random things. It's a side effect of repeated exposure.”
“Is that bad?”
“No, it happens from time to time,” he said. “You can expect to have dreams of your past life, and you may recognize places you've been before without knowing why. You'll retain some little habits. It typically doesn't cause problems.”
She knelt by the riverside without needing to be told.
“Daughter,” Hades said, grabbing her hand to stop her from drinking. “While you still remember him, is there anything you want me to tell Nico for you?”
She took a deep breath, thinking hard.
“No,” she said. “Nothing I can say will fix what I’ve done to him. Just look after him. He's a good kid.” She looked up at Hades, her eyes filled with tears. “I'm done. I don’t want to think about him anymore, it hurts too much. Please just let me drink.”
Hades nodded and let her bend down to the surface of the Lethe. She dipped her hands in and scooped up one mouthful of water, then another, then another. Hades gently pulled her back from the water and helped her to stand.
“Do you remember who you are?” He asked.
She shook her head.
“Do you remember who I am?” He asked.
She shook her head.
“Do you remember anything?”
“I don't know,” she said. “I don't think so.”
He took her hand and brought her over to a stone archway, simple and unadorned.
“Are you ready for what's next?” He asked her.
“Yes,” she said. “I’m ready.”
She stepped forward into the archway.
Nothing happened.
She turned back to look at Hades.
“Did I do something wrong?” She asked.
He sent her through again. Nothing happened.
“This isn't right,” he said. “I don't understand why it's not working.”
He inspected the arch carefully, poring over every inch, tracing the lines in the stone with his fingers and whispering magic spells under his breath. Then he smacked it, hard, with the heel of his hand.
“I wish I knew how this damned thing worked,” he muttered.
Alecto flew over to them on bony bat wings.
“Not now!” Hades snapped loudly. Bianca flinched.
“Sorry, dear,” Hades said, patting her head gently. “Alecto, what do you want?”
“Sir, the boy is here,” Alecto said.
“The what?”
“Nico.”
Hades sighed.
“Could he have any worse timing?”
“He's looking for her,” Alecto pointed at Bianca.
“Just keep him busy in the fields. I need to focus on fixing this archway.”
Hades took Bianca’s hand and brought her to Nyx's chamber. Bianca seemed unphased by the all-consuming darkness. She tugged at Hades' sleeve.
“Nico,” she said. “I know that name. Nico. He's someone important to me, isn't he?”
Hades didn't answer; Nyx appeared before him.
“Nyx, she won't--” Hades burst out, but Nyx held up a finger.
“Reincarnate. I know. She is unable to leave this realm. A powerful force is holding her here.”
“A powerful force? Did I do something wrong?” Hades asked. “She drank from the river, she walked through the archway,” he said, counting off his fingers. He was holding up two fingers when he was done. “It’s not a complex process,” he admitted.
“Nico is in the Underworld,” Nyx said simply. “He wants to see his sister.”
Hades stared at her in disbelief.
“Are you saying he has something to do with the gate not working?”
“He has power over shades,” Nyx said simply.
“Nico drank from the Lethe. He shouldn't even know that I'm his father, let alone know how to control shades,” Hades said. “That makes no sense.”
“And yet,” Nyx said simply.
“How do you even know about him? I never told you I had a son.”
“I know many things,” Nyx said mysteriously.
Hades rolled his eyes in exasperation.
“Of course you do. In any case, I’ll have to get rid of him.”
“Don’t hurt him,” Bianca said urgently.
“I’m not going to hurt him, I’ll just scare him off. It’s time for you to move on,” Hades said. “I can't let him keep you trapped here. Besides, you don’t even remember who he is. You shouldn’t care what happens to him.”
“Don't. Hurt. Him,” Bianca repeated.
“Hades, a word of advice?” Nyx said gravely.
“They're my children, I don't need your advice,” Hades snapped.
Nyx raised a single eyebrow.
“Sorry,” Hades mumbled. “What is it?”
“Minimize your interference,” she said.
“Minimize my interference?” Hades repeated. “This is my responsibility.”
“I have spoken with my daughters, the Fates, in this matter,” Nyx said. “And they have foreseen dire consequences if you do not let Nico and Bianca decide their own destinies.”
“Decide their own destinies?” Hades said disbelievingly. “They are demigods. They exist to serve my will, not the other way around.”
“Dire consequences,” Nyx repeated. “You should refrain from speaking of the one to the other. This is their path to walk.”
“They're just children. Is that not prolonging their suffering unnecessarily? If I order Nico to stop whatever it is he’s doing, this ends now. I don’t know what the Fates told you, but they’re usually cryptic and confusing at the best of times, and their advice so vague as to be worthless.”
Nyx glared at him coldly.
“I suppose sometimes they do know things,” he sighed.
“Dire. Consequences,” Nyx said. “I will not explain this to you again. If you care about your children at all, you will do as you have been told.”
She disappeared.
Hades took Bianca back to the throne room and sat down on his throne with a thump, heaving a huge sigh.
“I wish my wife were here,” he said glumly. “She'd know what to do.”
“My brother won't let me leave?” Bianca asked.
“Apparently not,” Hades said. “He always was a clingy child, but this is ridiculous. We must speak no more about him, though. Nyx has made my orders clear.”
“But what happens if he finds me?” She asked.
“I don’t know,” Hades said.
“But what should I say?”
“I don’t know. I can’t help you.”
She looked down at her hands. They were fading.
“I think something is happening to me.”
Hades rushed over to her and grabbed her hands. They solidified when he touched them.
“He’s summoning you to him,” Hades said, pale with shock. “He really does hold power over shades.”
“What is he going to do to me? I’m frightened,” she said.
“I don’t know,” Hades trailed off, looking worried. “I can’t interfere.”
“If you’re my father, and I’m dead, then you must have done something wrong,” Bianca insisted. “There must be something you can do.”
Hades was torn. He paced back and forth across the room.
“I will not interfere,” he insisted. “However… My helm is behind my throne. I suppose if you were to borrow it, it might buy you time to find out what Nico wants from you.”
She went behind the throne.
“But that will have to be the last thing you ask of me. I shouldn’t have even done that much. You-- Oh. You’re already gone.”
Hades sat down and rested his head in his hands for a moment.
Alecto swooped in.
“Lord Hades, the boy is on his way up,” she said.
“Let him come,” Hades said. “But he isn’t going to like what he hears.”
The vision in the Lethe ended.
“There you have it,” Hades said. “Sort of. There is something else.”
“Something else?” Nico asked, not sure he could handle anything else.
“You heard Nyx’s warning about interference,” Hades said awkwardly. “But, if you recall, I did interfere. On the balcony that day… I know I shouldn’t have, but I couldn’t just watch you force that amulet around her neck and resurrect her against her will. It just-- You can’t--” He hesitated, looking distressed. “You can’t undo things like that. You can try to make up for it, but you can’t make it go away. I didn’t want you to have to live with-- It doesn’t matter. I interfered, and now you’ll suffer a dire consequence of some kind, and it will be my fault. So, I suppose I apologize for that.”
“Is that all?” Nico asked. “Are there any other secrets? Anything else you’ve lied to me about?”
“No,” Hades said. “If there was anything else, I’d tell you, because I doubt you could possibly hate me any more than you do. But there’s nothing.”
Nico stared down at the Lethe. That stupid river had caused so much confusion and hardship in his life. At least today, it had given him some memories, rather than taken them away.
“I don’t hate you,” Nico said.
He remembered the days when he’d looked for excuses to blame Hades for things that were really Bianca’s fault, as well as his own. His dad had taken the brunt of Nico’s pain on more than one occasion. He hadn’t always handled it well, but he’d been there, and he’d tried. And Nico loved him for that.
Hades put his arm around Nico’s shoulders, and Nico started crying in earnest. It was nice to know that his father had a good excuse for being unhelpful. But with that out of the way, Nico still had to grieve his sister.
Being the son of Hades was weird. On one hand, being able to summon and visit dead loved ones was a great privilege. On the other hand, death was more far more complicated and nuanced than most mortals knew. Dying wasn’t necessarily the end of one’s troubles, and there was a sort of bliss in ignorance that Nico would never enjoy. What had happened with Bianca was the opposite of a clean break; his grief had started four years ago, and he’d never passed the denial stage until right then and there. It was exhausting.
He sat there and cried for ages. The infinite time and patience of a god was reassuring, because Hades stayed and comforted him just the same as if he’d only cried for a few minutes.
The part that Nico was hung up on was the fact that he’d never get to see her face again. He’d missed her so much for so long, and their brief conversation and hug had been over nearly before it began. Speaking to her one last time had reopened the wound, and since she didn’t remember him, he wasn’t even sure whether it had been worth it.
“Is there any chance,” he sniffled, “That I could find out where she gets reincarnated?”
“No,” Hades said, running his hand over Nico’s hair. “Not that I know of. Don’t tell me that’s going to be your next campaign? Mastering resurrection wasn’t enough for you?”
“It’s never enough,” Nico said. He sort of meant it. He wanted to know all of it, how everything worked. But he wouldn’t be going after Bianca again. He had run out of motivation, and he knew it was time to move on.
“Do you remember when I was in the coma?” He asked. “Why didn’t you send her through the arch then?”
“I tried,” Hades said.
“I just don’t understand how I managed to keep her here,” Nico said. “Even when I was unconscious. That’s crazy, right?”
“If there is one thing I’ve learned about you, it’s that you are full of surprises,” Hades said. “Come. Let’s go back to the palace. Cerberus will be of some comfort to you, I think. And he’s missed you terribly.”
They returned to the palace, where Nico whistled for Cerberus. The three-headed monster dog came bounding up, shaking the earth with every step, and he whined and rolled onto his belly in front of Nico, asking for belly rubs. Nico started crying all over again when they were reunited.
“You haven’t been away that long,” Hades said, amused.
“I know,” Nico said. “But I’ve thought about him all the time. He’s the lock screen on my phone.”
“Mine, too,” Hades said, smiling fondly at the two of them.
Persephone heard the commotion that Cerberus was stirring up and came out to see Nico.
“I’m so proud of you,” she said, hugging him. “I knew you would do the right thing in the end.”
“Thanks,” Nico said. He didn’t want to think about doing the right thing, since that sort of made it obvious that he’d spent four years doing the wrong thing every day.
“Come sit in the kitchen. Cerberus can come, too,” she said. “I asked the skeletons to make you some comfort food.”
Chapter 54: Smotherhood
Chapter Text
Persephone led Nico back into the kitchen, with its roaring fireplace and long wooden table, where a skeleton chef was stirring a large, bubbling cauldron. Nico sat down at the table, and the skeleton placed a bowl of pastina in front of him.
He tried a spoonful of the creamy chicken soup. It tasted rich, familiar, and comforting, like a warm hug in the form of food.
“This is great,” he said. “You’re the best, Persephone.”
She responded with a glowing smile, and moved to sit on the bench seat beside him. He wasn’t really hungry, but it seemed to make her happy to see him eating, so he didn’t mind going along with it to please her.
“Do you want to talk about your feelings, sweetheart?” She asked, placing a hand on his shoulder gently. “How are you coping?”
Nico paused in his soup eating awkwardly.
“It’s still sinking in, I think,” he said. “That it’s over. I’m not ready to unpack everything yet.”
“Oh. Alright,” she said. “Well, I’m here if you want to talk,” she said brightly.
She sat at the table and drummed her nails across the wooden tabletop. Her fingernails were press-ons with little smiley-face sunflowers on them. It was hard not to keep looking at them, since she was making so much noise.
The situation was weird. It wasn’t Persephone’s fault, but she had never known Bianca, and she certainly didn’t care that she was gone. It was understandable, but it wasn’t fun for Nico to be around her when she was in such a good mood.
Hades sat with his elbows on the table, his fingers steepled in front of his face, appearing to be deep in thought.
“Are you okay, my love?” Persephone asked.
“Tired,” he said, without looking up.
Nico ate two-thirds of his soup and then pushed it aside, turning to look at the fireplace instead. He watched the skeleton stir the cauldron, and wondered where Bianca’s skeleton was. Had it been put to magical use? He didn’t really care, since her soul was elsewhere, but he was a little curious.
The real Bianca was far away now, in the body of a newborn baby. He hoped she was being held and loved and rejoiced over. He hoped her new family gave her an easy, simple life. But he’d always be left wondering; there was no way to ever know for sure.
“I’m so sorry for your loss, my dear one,” Persephone said quietly.
“I lost her a long time ago,” he shrugged. He stared down at the rings in the wood on the tabletop, trying not to cry.
“Darling,” she said. “I know how much you loved her. She was your world. You don’t have to try to be strong for us. We’re your family. We’ll get through this together.”
Persephone wrapped her arms around him, and he did start tearing up again, even though he hadn’t really wanted to. He thanked her quietly, but then he shrugged her arms off of him.
“I’m fine,” he said. “Let’s talk about something else.”
“Of course. How is Hazel liking Camp Jupiter?” She asked.
“She’s being tested by Lupa right now to see whether she can join the legion. How did you know she was there?” Nico asked.
“Minos put a tracking amulet in that ridiculously overpriced car of yours,” Hades said.
“Are you serious?” Nico said, immediately pissed off. Minos could have at least mentioned it, and he wouldn’t have had a problem with it. He wondered bitterly what else his ex had done behind his back that he hadn’t told him about.
“Of course,” Hades said. “He keeps me up to date on all of your activities. Did you think he wouldn't inform me?”
“Well, did he inform you that he dumped me yesterday?” Nico asked bitterly.
Persephone and Hades both gasped.
“He wouldn’t dare,” Persephone said, looking at her husband. “He can’t just dump our son like smelly old trash!”
Had he heard that correctly? He could have sworn Persephone had just said ‘our son.’ He always appreciated how easily she’d embraced him as part of the family, but something about the way she said it felt off. Nico noticed his dad’s face quirk into a frown, although Persephone didn’t seem to notice.
“It’s fine. We’re staying friends,” Nico said, deciding it was better to ignore it. “Probably. I need time to think it over.”
“It’s for the best,” Hades said. “I’ll find someone better for you. Someone with useful connections,” he added.
Nico was internally debating whether to tell them about Will when a tall, winged shadow darkened the threshold.
“Than!” Nico said, leaping out of his seat. Thanatos ducked through the doorway, and to Nico’s surprise, Nyx came in after him. In order to move around the palace she'd shrunk down to the size of a petite human woman, but her presence was still enormous, radiant with ancient power.
“Nyx,” Hades said, and he and Persephone both scrambled to their feet. “To what do we owe your visit? Has something happened?”
She didn’t answer. She just pointed at her son.
Thanatos looked down at Nico, who had approached him. His eyes were wide, golden, and full of sorrow.
“Your sister,” he said quietly. “I felt her disappear.”
“Yeah,” Nico said. “She’s gone.”
Thanatos reached out to him wordlessly.
Nico wrapped his arms around Thanatos and felt the comforting weight of his wings press into his back.
“Thanks for coming to see me,” Nico said, pressing his face against Thanatos’s chest. The cool Stygian silk of his mantle was soft and smooth under his cheek. There was something weirdly refreshing about the way that Thanatos didn’t smell like anything. Nico could have held him all day.
Thanatos let him go stiffly, simultaneously both reluctant and eager to set him free. He shifted his feathers agitatedly. Clearly he didn’t have a ton of practice with hugs, but that only made Nico appreciate him even more. It felt good to be somebody’s exception.
Nyx was smiling at the two of them, and an approving light was shining from behind her glittering dark eyes. Persephone and Hades were also staring at them, but with a different expression; both of their jaws were hanging open in shock.
“Do you want to try some soup?” Nico asked Thanatos. He nodded solemnly, and sat down beside Nico at the table. Nico refilled his bowl, and he accepted it with both hands.
Nyx sat down at the head of the table, and Nico noticed that Hades and Persephone sat up straighter in her presence, like she put them on edge. He marveled at how incredibly old and powerful she was to warrant that kind of anxious deference from gods as ancient as Hades and Persephone.
Nico watched Thanatos lift the bowl to his lips and sip.
“It's easier if you use a spoon,” Nico suggested, offering one. “Since there’s pasta in it.”
Thanatos set the bowl down.
“Sorry,” he said, embarrassed.
“Nothing to apologize for,” Nico said. “I know you don’t eat very often.”
“I haven't disrupted the rites?” Thanatos asked anxiously.
“These aren't funeral rites,” Persephone said helpfully. “The soup is just something to make Nico feel better.”
Thanatos nodded his understanding and ate some soup with the spoon.
“You should have more, if it’s to help you,” he said, offering Nico his bowl back.
“Soup can only do so much,” Nico said. “I’m okay.”
“Did you perform any rites for her?” Thanatos asked curiously. “What is it your people do, traditionally?”
That was a question that both made sense and didn’t make any sense at the same time.
“My people?” Nico said, “You mean Venetians? We use funeral gondolas to ferry the dead to an island in the lagoon. I’ll have to tell Charon about that; I think he’d like it,” he added with a smile. “But Bianca died in America four years ago, as a Hunter of Artemis. They did their own funeral rites back then.”
“You weren’t invited?” Thanatos asked, raising his eyebrows. “Rituals like that are for the benefit of the immediate family, no?”
“Bianca had cut me out of her life at that point,” Nico said bitterly. “She’d been dead for days before I even heard about it.”
“I don’t blame you for trying to resurrect her,” Thanatos said sympathetically. “I’d have wanted the last word, too. If it were my brother--” He paused, glancing at his mother, who was emanating a dark aura in his direction. “Never mind,” he said quickly.
Nico and Thanatos met eyes. Nico knew he was talking about his older brother, Eros, who’d had a mysterious falling out with his Cthonic brothers and sisters, and who had adopted Aphrodite as his new mother. He didn’t know the details, but he knew that Thanatos could relate to his feelings of rejection quite well, and they silently acknowledged that strange commonality.
“What does it feel like?” Thanatos asked, in a more somber tone of voice.
“What does what feel like?”
“Loss,” Thanatos said. “I’ve never experienced it.”
Nico swallowed.
“It sort of feels like part of my heart got ripped out of my chest,” he admitted.
Thanatos stared at him in concern.
“That sounds very serious,” he said.
“It’s hard to convey it in words,” Nico shrugged. “I don’t think there’s any way to make you really understand if you’ve never felt it before.”
Thanatos stared at him, deep in thought.
“It was the same with your mother?”
“No, losing my mother was much worse,” Nico said. “Losing your mom when you’re a kid is like losing your entire world. Bianca and I were so messed up by it that Papa had to wash our memories away.”
“It was the only idea I could come up with to get you to stop screaming,” Hades said.
“I’ll give you a pass on that one, since therapy hadn’t been invented yet,” Nico said bitterly.
“You can’t die, can you, mother?” Thanatos asked Nyx, an anxious cast to his grey face.
“I doubt it. But I cannot know all, child,” she said.
“If you died, the universe would collapse in on itself, and the stars would fall from the sky,” Thanatos said matter of factly.
He was being literal, and Hades and Persephone nodded as though it were obvious, even though the idea was hard for Nico to wrap his head around.
“Dramatic as it sounds,” Nico said. “To me that is exactly what it felt like when my mother died.”
“But it didn't really happen,” Thanatos reassured him. “Mortals don’t have the power to alter the structure of reality. I have taken many human souls. And when they die, the universe invariably remains exactly the same.”
“Almost,” Nico said. “Not exactly.”
Thanatos cocked his head to one side curiously.
“You don’t agree with me? Haven’t you seen enough death by now to know that I’m right?”
“I’ve seen enough to know that you’re wrong,” Nico said. “Everyone is someone's universe.”
Thanatos stared at Nico, statue still, and did not respond. In fact, all of the gods around the table seemed to looked at him strangely, like he was speaking a foreign language.
“Everyone got quiet all of a sudden,” Nico laughed nervously.
“Because you shame us,” Persephone said, looking at Nico with a sort of awe. “I think we forget, masters of death that we are, what death really is. Natural cycle though it may be, for every soul that comes to rest here, pain lingers on the surface and reverberates in the wake of that person's departure like a stone dropped in a pond.”
“Meh,” Hades shrugged dismissively. “Birth offsets death with a great quantity of joy. And these days, mortals breed faster than they die. The balance comes out in their favor consistently. It's not like the old days where they ate, slept, and breathed in fear of us. They rarely spare a thought for me anymore,” he sighed.
“Those were the good old days,” Persephone said, smiling dreamily. “I remember the rites at Eleusis. The prayers, the sacrifices… I’d give anything to have one last day of Mysteries.”
She was referring to the Eleusinian Mysteries, the cult that she’d once shared with her mother. They’d had mobs of devoted followers, and the ceremonies were said to have been wild and otherworldly affairs.
The subject was suddenly shifted to the Mysteries, and she and Hades spent a while in fond reminiscence. The new topic suited Nico just fine; he didn’t want to talk about death anymore.
Persephone was explaining the rites of the Mysteries to Nyx at length when Nico caught Thanatos staring at him.
“When I fetched her soul, I had no idea of who she was,” Thanatos said under his breath, speaking quietly to avoid interrupting Persephone’s story. “Of how important she was.”
“I wish you could have met her when she was alive,” Nico said. He wasn’t under the impression that they would have liked each other. He just wanted Thanatos to know who she’d been. He wasn’t sure why, but it seemed important that Thanatos understand the people who had shaped his story.
“I do too,” Thanatos said.
“Nico, where are your earrings?” Nyx asked suddenly.
“I—” Nico stopped mid-syllable.
He’d just used them that morning to go and visit Rocco unseen.
At least, he thought he had.
He reached up and touched his earlobes. There were no earrings there.
“You’d better not have lost them,” Hades warned him.
“I gave them to Hazel,” Nico said quietly. “She needed them more than I did.”
“You ought to have checked with Nyx about whether the gift was transferable,” Hades said.
“Sorry,” Nico said, looking up at Nyx. She simply stared back at him wordlessly, her eyes aglow.
She knew. He could see it written all over her face. But he couldn’t ask her in front of everyone. A deep sense of churning panic rose up in his gut.
“I’m going to my room,” Nico said. “I’m really tired all of a sudden.”
He stumbled out of the kitchen before anyone could say anything.
Thanatos followed him out into the hallway, which was lit with glowing braziers that bounced orange -red flickering light against the shining onyx walls. In the fiery glow, the god of death looked taller, the bones in his face sharper-- he looked demonic, in a handsome sort of way. But Nico would never dare use that term out loud in his father’s house. It had certain connotations that wouldn’t go over well.
“You got very pale back there,” Thanatos said. “You seem quite agitated over the earrings. She isn’t angry, you know.”
“I know,” Nico said. “Look, I-- I don’t even know what to say. Thank you for coming. It means a lot. It really… You know what I mean.”
Thanatos stared down at him.
“Yes, well,” he said awkwardly. “Once your weak mortal body is rested… Come see me sometime? We could play Mythomagic. Or just talk,” he added, his cheeks turning pink. “Or don’t. If you don’t want to.”
Nico stood on his toes and kissed Thanatos on the cheek.
“You’re a good friend, Thanatos,” he said, turning around and going to his room.
He covered the door with shadow and quietly had an anxiety attack alone in the dark. Was he losing it? Had he actually been invisible that morning, or had he just gone through the motions out of habit? If he had been visible, anyone could have seen him go into Rocco’s church, and that would mean big trouble.
If he’d been invisible-- Well, maybe he’d learned a new party trick. But it wasn’t a trick that he ought to be able to do. Hades had once said that the power was too dangerous for a demigod to have-- and he’d said that when he’d been referring to Annabeth’s baseball cap. How much more dangerous was it if Nico had it built in? Even Hades couldn’t become invisible without his helm.
What the fuck was going on?
He stared at his bed, familiar and welcoming, and still covered in short brindle-colored hair from Cerberus lying on it when he wasn’t home. The sight of it only made him more upset. He didn’t need to sleep. He wasn’t tired. He almost never felt tired. He functioned fine even if he didn’t sleep for days on end.
He dragged his fingers through his hair and paced in a circle around his room.
He was so stupid. He wasn’t normal. None of this was normal.
He thought about how Hazel and Will both slept for seven, eight, or nine hours a night like clockwork. How Hazel got hangry if she didn’t eat breakfast. How Will slurred his speech after pulling an all-nighter studying.
Nico couldn’t remember the last time he’d felt that. Thanatos had said he had a weak mortal body, but he didn’t know the truth of what Nico was capable of. He was anything but weak.
What if Minos was right? Talk about connotations… He was drowning in them.
He went up to one of the walls of his room, the one scarred with a crack he’d put in it when he’d been mad at Percy. He looked at his reflection, but he just saw himself. He wasn’t glowing with power, he wasn’t ten feet tall, he was just Nico, the same as he’d always been.
He turned invisible. It worked. His reflection disappeared.
He was totally screwed...
He couldn’t sit and be alone with his thoughts anymore, and he definitely had too much on his mind to rest. He left his room, visible once more, and headed back to the kitchen.
His father and Thanatos had both left; Persephone and Nyx were conversing alone.
“I think I’ll be ready to tell him soon, I just-- Oh, Nico!” Persephone looked up at him, her face lighting up with her usual, big, plastered-on smile. “My goodness, I thought you were napping, sweetie!”
“No, just looking for my dad,” he said. He turned around and left without a word. Considering the day he was having, he was in no mood to worry about entertaining his stepmom.
Nico went to his father’s bedroom, the cheerful, brightly colored one he shared with Persephone when she was home. Hades was flipping through the pages of a large book in silence.
“Son,” he said, closing the book quickly upon seeing him. “What do you want?”
Nico stared at his dad. He felt like such an idiot. What was he supposed to say? Hey, Dad, guess what, I think I’m a god? Hades was the one who’d dragged him to Hecate in the first place to ask about his golden blood; that had been the first time they’d confirmed he was still mortal. For all that he knew, Hades would call him crazy, or worse, accuse him of stolen divinity.
Nico knew that was unlikely, but the words just wouldn’t leave his mouth.
“I’m going to go talk to Mama,” Nico said.
“I thought you might. But you cannot tell her that Bianca is gone,” Hades said. “It could upset her.”
“I think she’d want to know. Even if it makes her sad for a minute,” Nico said. “She can handle it.”
Hades looked like he wanted to argue with him, but he stopped himself.
“If you must,” he said. “Just one thing, before you go,” he said, picking up the book and handing it to Nico.
“What is this?” Nico asked. He opened it, and froze.
It was a photo album. On the first page, there was an old black and white photo of him and Bianca. He was only a baby, and she was about three years old. She was holding him in her arms, and seemed very angry about being told to do so, because she was pouting stubbornly. She had a giant black bow in her hair and was wearing a frilly black dress. Nico was wearing a tiny baby-sized sailor suit, and he looked very, very unhappy about it as well.
“Why do we look so miserable?” Nico blurted out. Hades chuckled, a low sound like rocks grating against each other.
“I suspect you didn’t like being forced to pose in uncomfortable clothing.”
Nico cracked a weak smile, but he felt tears burning at the back of his eyes. Hades reached out and gently closed the cover.
“When your grandmother died, I robbed her house of every photo of you, Bianca, and your mother. I think I probably have every last one in existence in this album, not including the ones I already gave to you. I thought, perhaps, when you’re ready, we can look at them together,” he said.
Nico swallowed hard.
“Thanks,” he said. “I’d like that.”
He gave the album back to his father, who put it on his bookshelf. It was a relief to see it put away; Nico was definitely not emotionally ready for a walk down memory lane yet.
Hades ruffled his hair affectionately and sent him on his way, back out the door and up the stairs to Elysium.
Nico walked through the hills of Elysium slowly. It was a place well-suited to grief; time stood still, and the only force disturbing the quiet was a gentle breeze that rustled the fake plants and stirred the mist that blanketed every surface. His heart felt like it was eating itself, but Elysium calmed his nerves.
Everywhere he went, he felt shades watching him. They weren’t huddled and timid like the ones in Asphodel, they were confident and curious. To them, it felt like a guest star had just appeared in the long, happy sitcom of their fake lives.
He walked over to the plain black door of his mother’s afterlife and pushed it open.
For a second, he thought he’d walked through the wrong door. He’d stepped directly onto the terrace of a castle.
He’d forgotten about the castle; he’d only visited it twice during his childhood. It was a large, ancient limestone structure built into a mountainside in the Dolomites, a little over an hour from Venice by car. It had been in the family for centuries, and had been under the ownership of some of his grandfather’s cousins when he’d visited. He remembered them being old and very impatient with rambunctious little boys.
None of his memories of the castle were particularly fond. He’d always found it stuffy, unfamiliar, and boring, and they’d had a different vacation home that he’d preferred. But his mother had grown up visiting the castle frequently, anytime her parents needed a break from Venice’s long, hot summers. He supposed it must have held a special place in her heart for it to appear here in the afterlife.
It looked slightly different than he remembered, and some of the features were obscured with mist. It was constructed not based on reality, but based on Maria’s memories, so that was to be expected.
When he finally found his mother, his heart leapt. In her Elysian fantasy, she looked younger than he’d ever known her, but he was familiar with her teenaged appearance from her old modeling photos, which she’d always been proud of. She was dressed in a beautiful floor length black velvet gown with a matching hat. She wore small diamond studs in her ears and a plain silver necklace; in this dream, she hadn’t met Hades yet. She never missed a chance to flaunt his glittering gifts, and they were anything but subtle-- Twenty carats would have been on the small side.
Nico hovered at the edge of the scene invisibly, not wanting to interrupt her peaceful reverie. Hopefully there would be a natural interlude at some point; this seemed interesting, so he was content to observe for a moment.
Maria was leaning over the balcony of the second floor terrace and looking out at the ornamental garden on the ground below. There were people walking around, or rather shadows that suggested people, as though they were leaving a party.
“That was the best one yet,” a voice said from behind Maria. “I had so much fun. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if we could have parties like that every night? And dance with handsome men all the time?”
“I think I still prefer shopping,” Maria said. “But this is nice every once in a while.”
The person talking was her little sister Patrizia, who was sprawled on a bench nearby rubbing her feet. Her fancy shoes had been tossed on the patio haphazardly. She looked only about fifteen or sixteen in the vision, and Maria looked about eighteen. Patrizia had another young girl with her of around the same age sitting beside her, someone Nico didn’t recognize.
“If I’d known dying would be this much fun, I’d have smoked more,” Patrizia said. “Mama, rub my feet.”
“Rub your own feet,” the other girl said. Nico realized with a jolt that it must be his Nonna. “Or better yet, ignore them. It’s not as though they hurt. Nothing ever hurts here.”
Lola looked so much like her daughters that anyone looking at them would assume they had a third sister; the only giveaway was her hair, which was long and flowing, while they both had trendy short 1920’s haircuts. Lola had wanted to be young in this fantasy, probably so she could dance with young men, too. It was jarring to see her the same age as her daughters, but it was sort of sweet at the same time.
“Complaining that my feet hurt is part of the ‘dancing all night’ experience package,” Patrizia said. “I actually always liked the feeling. It meant I had fun. Remember the real parties, back in the world of the living? The ones where Mama would make us dance with Nazis? That didn’t age well, did it,” she said, elbowing her mother.
“They seemed nice at the time,” Lola shrugged.
“You never see any Nazis in Elysium,” Patrizia said. “Add that to the list of perks. Maria, thanks again for landing us this glamorous afterlife. I’m sorry for all the stuff I said about Hades back in the day.”
Maria smiled.
“I knew you were just jealous,” she said, lighting a cigarette that had magically appeared in her hand. “You know, you’ve already thanked me a million times, and yet I never tire of it.”
“I felt so sorry for you back in the day,” Patrizia said. “Always a mistress, never a bride, I used to say,” she giggled.
“Ugh,” Maria said, rolling her eyes.
“Little did I know, you were just playing the long game. The lover of a god, and the mother of one, too! You really played your cards right.”
Maria said nothing, just took a drag on her cigarette and blew smoke out into the air, where it joined the mists that rolled down from the mountains in the distance.
“I did alright,” She said, smirking to herself.
Nico dug his fingernails into his palms. He wasn’t a god; he couldn’t bear the thought of it.
Being trapped in the world of the living was the last thing he’d ever hoped for. His happy ending was right there in front of him-- Elysium, where Zeus and the gods could never hurt him again, where all of the drama that plagued his life would end, permanently. And that was just his stance on immortality-- Divinity itself was unthinkable.
What was his aunt talking about? Was this another element of their afterlife fantasy? Maybe his mother found it comforting to believe that about him. Surely that was all it was.
He stepped into the light.
“Hi Mama, hi Zia,” he said. “Hi, Nonna. You’re looking youthful.”
They were thrilled to see him, and he was quickly drowned in hugs and kisses and exclamations at how handsome he was. No one mentioned anything about him being a god, and he was quickly distracted by the flurry of emotion that came with reunion. He’d seen his mother relatively recently, but it was the first time he’d spoken to his aunt and Nonna since his mother’s death, and it felt really good to be with them again.
It was, however, a little strange to be missing other key figures in the family like his Nonno, his uncle, his cousin Gio, and of course, Bianca. His Nonno and Uncle were probably in the Catholic afterlife, whatever that was, and he assumed Gio had gone with them. His aunt and grandmother wouldn’t be conscious of their absence, as a condition of Elysium, so he said nothing about it.
He chatted with them for a little while, but they had nothing of any substance to say to each other. That was only to be expected, and it certainly didn’t bother him. Just hearing their voices felt healing and rejuvenating. He could have sat there with them forever. He hoped, someday, he’d get the chance to.
After a while, they invited him to get coffee, but he told them that he would need to take a rain check.
“Mama, I’d like to chat with you for a second, just us,” he said, taking her hand and pulling her aside.
She nodded, and stepped away from her mother and sister. The image of the castle dissolved, and the little dream-world melted into Elysian mist.
The mist shifted and changed form until the two of them appeared in Nico’s childhood bedroom back in Venice, sitting on his bed together as though Maria was about to read him a bedtime story. He had a big four-poster bed with a headboard carved with laurel leaves, and paintings of gods and heroes hanging on every wall. There were pictures of Hercules fighting the Nemean lion, of Cupid and Venus frolicking in a meadow, and even one of Orpheus leading Eurydice out of the Underworld.
“Was all this art really in my room?” Nico asked, looking around. “I’d forgotten about some of these.”
“These aren’t the same as back then,” Maria said. “We’ve populated the frames with what we think we remember. Nothing is ever exactly as it was.”
“Oh,” Nico said, disappointed. He hadn’t seen his room in so long, and he’d wanted to refresh his memory with the real thing.
“You’ve got a lot to learn about being dead, my dear,” she smiled.
“I guess so,” he said. “Look, Mama, there’s something that I need to tell you. I’m sorry, I don’t know how to say it… Bianca died. And she’s choosing to be reborn. She’s not coming.”
“I see,” Maria said softly, looking down at their clasped hands on the bedspread. She didn’t cry, or even seem upset, but Nico briefly allowed himself to imagine how she’d have felt, if she were alive, at hearing of her daughter’s death. The thought alone got him choked up, and it took a moment for him to be ready to talk again. Maria waited, observing his emotion impassively, and a little pityingly.
“I know it’s selfish of me to tell you,” Nico said. “I guess I’m just as much of a spoiled brat as I always was.”
“I’m glad you told me,” Maria said, notably not contradicting the spoiled brat remark. She wiped a tear from his cheek with her thumb. “Bianca is doing something brave. I couldn’t be prouder.”
“You’re not hurt that she’s choosing to leave us?” Nico asked. He knew that his mother couldn’t feel hurt anymore, and that he was using her to process his own emotions about it, but he pressed forward anyway. “You’re not disappointed?”
“If she believes she has the soul of a great hero, then I believe it too. I have faith that she will earn her place in the Isles of the Blessed,” Maria said with certainty. “When that day comes, we’ll see her again.”
Nico envied his mother’s total confidence in Bianca, but he felt like it was unfounded. He didn’t see that type of heroism in his sister at all; in fact, he thought she was a deeply selfish person. Then again, his judgment was too biased to be worth anything. He wasn’t going to get his hopes up, but he’d be happy to be proven wrong. It was, at least, a new perspective, and it made him feel a lot better.
Maria put her arm around his shoulders, looking at him adoringly. He looked into her eyes, equally adoring. His mother was his favorite person in the universe, without compare. He wished he never had to leave.
“You’re going to be okay, amore. You have your father to talk to, and me, and your zia, and your nonna; you’re not alone. Is Hades being nice to you?”
“Extra nice, at the moment,” Nico said. “You’re right. I know I’m not alone.”
“Remember, you can talk to me about anything. It won’t bother me; negative thoughts slide right out of my mind. Elysium is kind that way,” she said.
“Gods, that sounds amazing,” Nico sighed. “I would visit more, but Papa doesn’t like me disturbing you too much. He’s letting me get away with this today, but he won’t always.”
“He’s just overprotective,” Maria said. “You’re not doing me any harm.”
It was easy for her to say that, but Nico knew the whole interaction was self-serving on his part. His dad was right to encourage him to keep it to a minimum, otherwise Nico might develop a habit of venting to his mother over every little problem he had. Maybe she wouldn’t mind, but it was still wrong. He decided he’d get one last thing out of the way, and then he’d let her get back to her afterlife.
“Um, so, since you said I could talk to you about anything,” Nico said awkwardly. “There is one little thing that’s sort of been bothering me. Kind of. It’s not a big deal.”
“What is it?”
“It feels ridiculous to say it out loud,” Nico sighed. “I thought I overheard Zia Patrizia saying that I was, um… A god?”
“She did,” Maria said. “So?”
“You didn’t correct her.”
He didn’t want to go into detail about the other signs and symptoms he’d been experiencing; he just wanted to know what she thought he was, without being influenced by outside information. He held his breath, waiting on her answer. He’d said it wasn’t a big deal, but it was a huge deal to him, and he wasn’t hiding his nerves very well.
She responded flippantly, as though she thought he was joking, despite the fear in his voice being obvious.
“I don’t pay much attention to what she says. You know how she likes to talk.”
“Sure. It’s just not the kind of comment people make casually.”
“You’re saying it bothers you?”
“Well, yes! It’s not… I mean, it’s dangerous. Stolen divinity can get people into a lot of trouble. Mortals aren’t supposed to compare themselves to gods. Look at what happened to Arachne!”
“I completely understand, dear. She won’t say another word about it.”
“Okay. Thanks.” He could have ended the line of questioning there, but he simply couldn’t let the subject go.
“Is there a reason that it would have occurred to her to say it in the first place? Nobody’s spreading rumors about me, are they?”
“Shades are always whispering, dear. It’s nothing to take seriously. You have divine blood, divine beauty, divine power… You can see where people would get the idea.”
“If I’m beautiful, it’s because I take after you,” Nico said. He had her curved nose, classic and noble looking, and when he smiled, he could even see echoes of her smile in his own. “But that’s besides the point. I need you to be honest with me. You don’t think I’m a god, do you?”
She put her hand on his.
“Do you want to know what I really think?”
“Yes.”
“You’re sure? Even if you don’t like what you hear?”
He looked into her eyes. His heart pounded in his chest, and he felt sick with fear.
“I think so,” he said shakily.
She took in his expression, and nodded slowly.
“Alright, my son. Then I’ll tell you the truth,” she said. “I have no idea what a god is.”
Nico had to go for a walk to think about that answer, because she had totally stumped him, and he’d gotten nothing else out of her. His mother raised an excellent point. What the heck was a god, anyway? Was it a title? A job? Something you were born, or something only Zeus could make you? Was it even possible for new gods to be created in the modern world, where Hellenistic paganism was on the furthest fringe of popularity? Was there a difference between immortality alone and true divinity? Was it based on power? Where did you draw the line, especially when it came to powerful demigods who had divine blood, but were themselves mortal?
He was still anxious about the potential for being something he really hoped he wasn’t. But she’d given him a comfortable blanket of doubt to smother his fears in, and that had been exactly what he’d needed in the moment. Maybe godhood was something super obvious, and he was wasting his time worrying about it.
He headed back to the palace and tracked down his father, who was in his bathroom, submerged in his lava tub up to his neck, holding a book in front of his face.
“Hi, Papa,” he said. “Can we talk for a minute?”
“I suppose,” Hades said, folding a corner of his page down. The book was called, ‘It Ends With Us,’ Nico observed. “You can distract me from my reading.”
“Distract you? Normally you want me to read to you,” Nico said, sitting down cross-legged on the tile floor.
“I need to read this one for myself, specifically while in this tub,” Hades explained. “I’m planning on dropping it into the lava, letting it disintegrate, and telling Persephone I can’t be in our book club anymore. This novel is utter trash.”
“Then why are you reading it?”
“It was Aeacus’s turn to pick this month,” he sighed.
Nico frowned, plucked the book from his hands, and chucked it into the lava. They both watched it dissolve.
“I don’t like him,” Nico said.
“It’s good to have you back,” Hades said, the edge of his mouth quirking up. “How was your mother? You seem to feel better.”
“Mama’s happy. The same as always,” Nico said. “She thinks Bianca will earn a place in the Isles of the Blessed. That helped a little to think about.”
Hades raised his eyebrows for a moment, then gazed off to the side, a slight frown on his face.
“That never even crossed my mind. I suppose that makes me a terrible father,” he added, with a sideways glance at Nico, clearly fishing for a compliment.
“To Bianca? Yeah, you were,” Nico said, not taking his bait. “Don’t even get me started on Hazel.”
“Hazel always hated me,” Hades said. “I tried.”
“Not very hard,” Nico said.
“Never mind,” Hades said, growing annoyed. “You wanted something?”
“I… Um…” It was such an awkward subject to talk about. But his dad was the only person he could risk sounding like a delusional idiot in front of; it wouldn’t faze him even a little bit, actually, since he’d seen Nico do way stupider things.
“So, Zia Patrizia said something weird,” he said, chickening out and blaming his dead aunt for it. Very classy of him, he thought to himself, internally sighing. “She thinks I’m a god.”
“She was always a few olive trees short of a grove,” Hades mused.
“I guess,” Nico said. “It’s just that, in context, with the golden blood thing, and… The other stuff, I got worried,” Nico admitted.
“We looked into your blood already,” Hades said. “Hecate confirmed that it’s just a side affect of the ambrosia poisoning. I even ran it by Persephone, and she agreed with Hecate’s assessment.” His frown lines grew deeper. “What other stuff?”
Nico took a deep breath, then became invisible. It happened like breathing, the same as when he became intangible, or when he shadow traveled. It was effortless and instinctive.
Nico could see his father’s face, although Hades couldn’t see him anymore. At first, he looked stunned. Then, he looked very pleased, his face stretching into a cold grin.
“Well, well, well,” he said. “Let’s see Percy Jackson top that!”
“This isn’t a competition,” Nico said, turning visible again. He was sweating bullets, and not just because of his proximity to the lava. His father clearly was more focused on his own ego than about Nico’s concerns. “What does this mean?”
Hades ignored him, climbing out of the lava pool and getting dressed.
“It could mean a lot of things,” he said. “But it doesn’t make you a god. It’s just another ability added to a list of others. A long list,” he added, smirking.
“This isn’t something to be happy about!” Nico said. “I don’t need these powers to be an ambassador. What’s the point if all they’re going to do is freak me out and put a target on my back?”
“If you’re more powerful than other demigods, it means that therefore, I am more powerful than their parents. Quod erat demonstrandum,” Hades said. “You know, this gives me an idea. What if we were to arrange a sort of mock battle between you and your cousins Jason and Percy? A cage match, perhaps.”
“A cage match?” Nico spluttered. This conversation hadn’t gone in the direction he’d expected.
“I heard about your fight with Commodus on Capri,” Hades said. “If you could hold your own against him, I feel quite confident you would win against mere demigods.”
“Even the two most powerful demigods alive?”
“I doubt they’d be able to put a scratch on you. Tire them out fighting each other, then execute them,” Hades said greedily. “No? Too far?”
“Yeah, I’d say executing them is too far,” Nico said, shaking his head in dismay.
Hades sighed.
“Perhaps you’re right. Still. I’ll ask Poseidon about it.”
He pulled out his phone and started texting his brother eagerly.
Nico sighed, biting his fingernails nervously. He had been caught off guard by his dad’s enthusiasm, but he couldn’t be upset with the response. His dad clearly wasn’t worried about him becoming a god, so maybe he shouldn’t worry about it, either. He was sort of curious about what it was exactly that Percy and Jason were capable of. Maybe children of the Big Three were meant to be uber-powerful, and he’d quickly be humbled by their abilities.
“I’m not surprised this has happened,” Hades said without looking up from his phone.
“What, me being able to turn invisible?”
“Yes. Imagine how much power and effort you’ve been expending all these years, keeping Bianca from leaving. Even I would find it taxing to project my will onto a shade for so long. I couldn’t free her from your grasp despite my best efforts. But then, you always were very stubborn.”
His dad was speaking flippantly, but his words had an out-sized affect on Nico. He’d been aware that he was the reason Bianca couldn’t leave, but picturing her and Hades working together to try to escape him, and failing, was really hard to think about. It made him feel like a monster; too powerful, and completely selfish.
Hades must have noticed Nico withdrawing into himself, because he whistled for Cerberus and told him to escort Nico to his room to get some rest. He still didn’t feel tired, physically, but mentally and emotionally, he was tapped out, so his dad had made the right call.
Cerberus nudged him to his room and watched to make sure that Nico crawled under the covers. Then the massive monster walked in a circle a few times before curling up on the rug. Nico drifted off to sleep to the sound of two heads snoring loudly. While he rested, the third head kept watch, with two bright yellow eyes remaining open, guarding the doorway while his master slept.
Nico spent the next couple of days alternating between grief and joy. He thought about Bianca often, and his memories of her were burdened with guilt, just as they’d always been-- but things were different now. He’d let her move on, and he knew he’d done the right thing. The regrets of the past hurt, but he was no longer weighted down with anxious paralysis every time he thought of her. He was able to start healing, and to take what had happened as a lesson learned the very, very hard way.
Other than the expected feelings of grief, he was happy to be home. He got to play fetch with Cerberus again, and drink herbal tea with Persephone-- she was delighted to hear about Will, particularly because he was a farmer, sort of. He even got to watch movies with his dad again.
He played Mythomagic with Thanatos, and learned to his delight that nearly every deity in the Underworld had taken an interest in learning to play. For the first time in thousands of years, Thanatos was becoming a little bit popular. It made Nico deeply happy to see people appreciating his friend for more than just his work collecting souls.
He checked the time on the surface often, knowing that Hazel was due back at Camp Jupiter on Thursday, and that he had dinner plans with Will on Friday. Not to mention, Ariadne could text at any moment and demand to see her father. He’d owe her an immediate response. But strangely, time in the Underworld seemed to dilate into an infinite stretch of hours, and the surface world clock nearly stood still. It was as if the universe had decided he’d earned a break.
As much as he adored his sister Hazel, and would never abandon her, Nico wished he could stay forever. The palace was his home, and being there felt right, like a puzzle piece clicking into place. He cherished every moment.
For Nico, though, good things always came to an end. Eventually, the surface clock indicated that it was Wednesday evening, and Nico got a text message from Reyna. Hazel had passed Lupa’s training and was making her way back to Camp Jupiter. She had to fight a gauntlet of monsters along the way, but she’d be back at camp by morning, assuming she succeeded.
Nico fought back the urge to go and help her; he knew it wasn’t what she’d have wanted. He reminded himself that she’d been dipped in the Styx. She didn’t know about that yet, but it did guarantee she’d make it back to camp in one piece.
He went to Hades’ and Persephone’s office to tell them he would be leaving soon, but Persephone insisted he take her to see his house in Chania before he headed back to California. Hades joined them, and Nico found himself unexpectedly giving his dad and stepmom a tour of his home on the surface.
“It was nice of you to come and see the place. It’s really nothing special,” he told Persephone. He was walking her around the property so that she could examine the soil. She kept stopping every few feet to touch the earth and gauge the nutrients available for the local plant life. As they walked, new shrubs and flowers sprang up behind them. They were mostly dormant, since it was November, but in spring, she promised to return and usher them into their full glory.
“It is special,” she assured him. “You’ve made it special. I mean, a Venetian colony in Crete? You’ve found a place that connects both sides of your heritage. It’s perfect.”
“When you put it that way, I guess it does sound cool,” he said.
They reached a small mound of dirt, and she paused. She knelt down and ran her hands through the black soil, digging into it with her fingertips. One thing Nico loved about Persephone was that she was never afraid to get her hands dirty. She wasn’t wearing shoes beneath her long tie-dye sundress, since it disrupted her connection with the plants hiding beneath the cold soil, and she’d already lost three of her press-on nails from digging in the dirt.
“Nico,” she said quietly. “What is this?”
“It just looks like a pile of dirt to me,” he shrugged.
“This is consecrated earth,” she said, clutching a handful of it in her hands, gazing at it in amazement.
She turned to look up at him, an intense light behind her eyes.
“How long have you known?” She whispered.
“Known what?” Nico asked.
She started to speak, then hesitated. In that moment, he remembered why there was a mound of earth in his yard.
“Oh, right, I forgot,” he said, snapping his fingers. “That’s where Hazel buried Pickles!”
“Pickles?” She stared at him, dumbfounded.
“A flawless bull calf I bought her. I told her to sacrifice it to Papa, but she picked Artemis instead. Feels like wasted effort to me, but whatever,” he shrugged. “What were you talking about? What was I supposed to know?”
Persephone stared at him for a moment, then leaned down and whispered something to the ground. A small cluster of black poppies bloomed on top of Pickles’ grave.
“A tribute to Pickles,” she said quietly. “A very special sacrifice.” She took Nico’s hand, glancing around them. “Where is your father?”
“Messing around in the racquetball court,” Nico said. If he was quiet, he could hear the ball bouncing against the stone walls beneath the earth. “Why?”
“No reason,” she said. “I just think it’s time for us to go.” She pulled him by the hand and began leading him to the court entrance nearby.
“Go? Right now? Why?” He asked, but she was already hustling him down the stairs to the racquetball court, and didn’t respond to him.
It was far from a regulation court after all of Hazel’s training; it was way too large and full of random obstacles, weapons, and bits of monster Nico hadn’t bothered to clean up.
“This place is a pigsty,” Hades said when they descended the stairs. He was practicing serves, hitting the ball against the wall and trying to make it hit various targets lying all over the court.
“I’d have cleaned up if I knew you were coming,” Nico said, although he probably wouldn’t have bothered. He nudged a loose giant scorpion pincer against the wall with his foot.
“My love, I would like to go home now,” Persephone said, approaching her husband. She kept wringing her hands together and fiddling with her skirt, even though Nico couldn’t imagine what she had to be nervous about. “There’s something we need to talk about.”
“Already? We just got here,” Hades said. “What is it that’s so important?”
He and Nico both stared at her, waiting on an explanation, and she bit her lip anxiously.
“Nothing,” she said, one of the flowers in her hair wilting as she spoke. “I just wanted to.”
“Alright, if that’s what you want, darling,” Hades said. “One quick game, and then we’ll leave. Here,” he said, tossing Nico a racquet.
“You don’t even know how to play,” Nico said, approaching the lines that marked the court.
“If you learned, then it can’t be very difficult,” Hades said, smirking.
“Just for that, I’m gonna kick your butt, old man,” Nico said, pointing at his father with his racquet. Hades served the ball directly at Nico’s head. It passed directly through him and bounced against the wall. Nico swung the racquet as it passed by him the second time. Naturally, he hit it directly at his dad’s face.
It missed, but after that, the game was on, and the two of them immediately gave up on following the rules and just kept trying to violently attack the other with racquetballs.
Persephone stomped over to the stairs and sat down, holding her head in her hands and watching them.
“Don’t hurt each other, for goodness sake,” she called out, but they ignored her, having too much fun to listen.
Nico wasn’t sure how long they were playing their very violent and unorthodox version of racquetball, but apparently it was much too long for Persephone’s patience. Suddenly, he and his father both had their racquets yanked out of their hands by creeping vines, and the game was over.
“I’ve had just about enough of that,” she said. Nico had no idea what had made her so impatient, but she was definitely agitated in a way he’d never seen her before.
“Shame,” Hades said, shrugging. “I quite enjoyed trying to kill him. No wonder other gods attempt it so often.”
“I enjoyed watching you fail,” Nico said. “Just like they did.”
“You are very unusually skilled, for a demigod,” Hades said jokingly. “I can see why you’re so concerned about being a god.”
“What?” Persephone snapped, looking at Hades in shock. “What did you just say?”
“The boy is under the impression--”
“Persephone, don’t worry about it, it’s stupid,” Nico interrupted, embarrassed that she was going to hear about his weird delusions of grandiosity. “I think I’m just paranoid.”
“You’re not paranoid, Nico,” she said, going up and taking his hand gently. “If you have something you want to talk about, I’m here. We can deal with it together, as a family.”
“No, I’m good. I already talked to my mom about it,” Nico shrugged.
Persephone dropped his hand.
“Why would you talk to her about that?” She said sharply. The way she said it made the word ‘her’ come out bitter, like a curse.
Nico froze, looking at Persephone like she’d grown an extra head. He’d never heard her use that tone before, let alone about Maria-- someone she usually spoke of with respect.
“Because she’s my mother, that’s why,” Nico said angrily.
Persephone’s face went red, and she covered her mouth.
“I-- I don’t know why I said that. Forgive me,” she said, looking deeply embarrassed. “I didn’t mean to sound-- It’s just, I’m a goddess, and she was mortal, and it just makes more sense to come to me, if you’re worried about--”
“I can talk to her about whatever I want,” Nico said. “I don’t owe you an explanation.”
“I know,” Persephone said quietly.
Without a word, Hades transported the three of them back home.
“Persephone, was there something you wanted to discuss?” He asked, his voice abnormally gentle, as though he were treading on eggshells.
“No,” she said. “Not anymore.”
She walked into her garden and blocked off the entrance with a wall of thorny vines.
Hades and Nico looked at each other.
“What the fuck was that about?” Nico said. He was still angry, maybe a little angrier than the situation called for, but he couldn’t help it. He’d never talked about his mom at length with Persephone, but he’d always felt assured that it would be fine if he did. Now he was questioning whether she was really as immune to jealousy as she liked to pretend.
“You need to calm down,” Hades said, his face drawn with worry. “Persephone is not a jealous goddess. She’s never expressed any negative feelings towards Maria. Quite the opposite, in fact.”
“Are you sure about that?” Nico said bitterly.
“I know my wife,” Hades said firmly. “This is merely a misunderstanding. We will give her a moment to collect her thoughts. All will be explained shortly, I have no doubt.”
“I don’t have time to give her a moment,” Nico said, “Hazel will be back at camp any minute, I have to go.”
“And leave things like this? I don’t want her thinking you’re angry with her,” Hades said, his face creased with worry. He kept looking at the garden, waiting for Persephone to emerge, but there was no telling how long that might take. Nico checked the time and saw that he really did need to get going, or he’d miss greeting Hazel.
Nico began walking speedily towards Hades’ and Persephone’s room, and Hades followed him.
“Now where are you going?” His father asked.
“I want to grab a family photo to take back with me,” he said. “I don’t have one, and I want to show Hazel what I looked like back in the old days.”
He went into his father’s room and pulled his photo album off the bookshelf.
Just as he went to open the cover, he saw something sticking out of one of the pages. There was something off about it, and he realized that the piece that was showing was a color photo. All of his old family photos should have been in black and white.
Hades watched as Nico flipped to the back of the album.
“What the…”
Every page had a black and white photo of him, his mother, his sister, or some combination of the three, as well as other members of his extended family. But the last page was different. Someone had taken a modern, color photograph and pasted it in.
It was a selfie Persephone had taken with just her and Nico together, her arm around his shoulders. She was smiling beautifully, and they had matching daisy chains in their hair. It was a brand new photo that she’d taken of the two of them within the last couple of days. He realized she must have taken it with the intention of putting it in the album all along, even though she hadn’t said anything about it at the time.
Nico swallowed.
He knew how lucky he was that Persephone hadn’t tried to kill him the minute he was born. He knew he owed her his life after she’d helped heal him from his ambrosia overdose. She’d shown him nothing but kindness, affection, and generosity over the years they’d known each other.
But this was really freaking weird! His dad wasn’t even in the album, unless you counted his bony white hand that cut off in a couple of shots. Persephone definitely didn’t belong in the story of his past.
He looked up at his father.
“Did you--”
“No,” Hades sighed. “I didn’t know she’d even looked at this, let alone… Give it to me. I’ll talk to her.”
Nico peeled the photo off of the sticky paper and gave it to Hades.
“I’m not mad,” he said, looking up at his father. “You know I love Persephone, but I just--”
“You don’t need to explain yourself,” Hades said. “I’ll handle it.”
“Maybe we can make a new album or something, for the three of us and Cerberus,” Nico suggested.
Hades leaned down and kissed him on the top of his head.
“Don’t worry about it. Go take care of Hazel. Come back and visit when you can.”
Nico gave his dad one last hug, then departed for New Rome.
Chapter 55: A God at Camp Jupiter
Chapter Text
Nico made it back to Camp Jupiter just in time to see Hazel coming up over the hill, the sun rising behind her, making her glow in silhouette like a goddess. She had dirt on her cheeks, and her clothes were looking the worse for wear, but she had a big, dumb smile on her face when she saw Nico standing next to Reyna at the camp gate.
The campers stood in formation until Reyna gave a nod, at which point they rushed Hazel and ushered her into the camp with congratulations and words of welcome. Nico backed off a little, knowing it was important Hazel establish herself among her peers right away and start making connections. She’d seen him, and he’d been there for her-- the important part was taken care of.
Camp Jupiter was a strict and heavily scheduled place, so after the requisite five minutes of greeting time was up, Hazel was hurried into a tent to get fitted with a uniform, equipment, and to watch an introductory video on rules, which she’d be tested on later. All this was explained by Reyna as she walked Nico back to the praetor’s tent.
“With all due respect,” she said, eyeing him warily. “I can’t just allow you to hang around Camp idly, even if it’s for your sister’s sake. Everyone here who’s not a vetted officer is underage, and we limit access to outsiders for their safety.”
“That would be a really considerate thought,” Nico said. “If you didn’t send these kids on missions to fight monsters with poisoned teeth and claws. That’s a little bit more serious than stranger danger, don’t you think?”
“I protect my soldiers when I can,” Reyna said firmly. “And I accept that there are times when I can’t. That’s part of command.”
Nico was gaining more respect for Reyna the more they interacted. She took her role seriously, and seemed really good at it, too. He found it deeply reassuring that she was the one in charge of protecting Hazel.
“Probationes don’t have a lot of leave, but I’m not naive enough to think that Hazel won’t shadow travel to see you at some point without permission. I only ask that you not let it interfere with her duties, and that she never go past the borders of New Rome without explicit permission.”
“Don’t worry about that,” Nico said. “I won’t let her slack. I want her to succeed. Ideally, I’d like to see her have your job someday. Or more likely, Jason’s, I guess,” he shrugged.
Reyna made a slight face of dismay at the mention of Jason, but composed herself quickly.
“I had a question I wanted to pose to you,” she said. “When we brought Hazel’s things into camp, we noticed some items that looked magical. Amulets, potions…”
“Yes, she made them all herself, with a little instruction from me,” Nico said proudly.
“Our augur, Octavian, wants to speak with you,” she said. “He’s looking for an assistant that knows how to make magical objects like that.”
Nico cocked his head to the side, deeply curious.
“Octavian is your augur? What made him want to do that?”
“He just rose up through the ranks,” Reyna shrugged. “Do you know him?”
“You made the deified first emperor of Rome work his way up?” Nico asked, raising his eyebrows. “You guys really do take yourselves seriously, huh?”
Reyna gasped.
“Oh, gods, no!” She exclaimed. “I’d refer to him as Divine Caesar Augustus, if that was who I was referring to. I’m talking about a legacy of Apollo who happened to be named after him, that’s all.”
“What’s a legacy of Apollo?”
“A legacy is a descendant,” Reyna said. “His family have lived here in New Rome for a hundred years. They worship Apollo and found favor with him enough that he blessed the whole family line with the gift of prophecy, to varying degrees. They’re a big deal around here.”
“You sound like you’re not a big fan.”
“I give everyone I work with their due respect, and Octavian is a centurion,” Reyna said. “Whether I like him personally is irrelevant. Anyway, can I tell him you’ll speak with him?”
“Sure,” Nico shrugged.
He traveled to Temple Hill, where he’d been told he could normally find Octavian at the Temple of Apollo. It was a visually impressive neighborhood, with a huge central square surrounded by large Roman temples to various gods. The Temple of Pluto drew his eye immediately, and he was very impressed with how large and imposing it was. It was made of black granite glittering with mica flecks, and every surface sparkled in the light. He’d have to check it out later.
He went into the Temple of Apollo, a bright, airy round temple surrounded by gilded columns. There was a boy inside talking to a ghost.
“I just want to be claimed,” the boy said. He was on the chubby side, with muscular arms and a bow slung across his back. “Maybe Apollo will take notice of me if I get better at archery.”
“You don’t get to choose your own father,” the ghost said. “Last week it was Neptune, the week before it was Mercury. You ought to quit whining in front of altars and try training. Roman up a little! And lose some weight, for Jupiter’s sake!”
“It’s 2023, you can’t say stuff like that anymore!” The boy said. “Would you leave me alone? I’m trying to pray to my father!”
“Um, excuse me,” Nico said, walking up to them. “Do you know where Octavian is? The augur, not the emperor.”
The ghost knelt on the ground. Nico recognized him as a Lar, a Roman ancestral spirit summoned by his descendants to watch over them in perpetuity-- a ghost that had permission to be on the surface, so long as they served their sacred purpose.
“Hail, Nico Cthonios, Prince of the Underworld,” he said, touching his feet deferentially.
“Uh, Nico is fine, dude,” Nico said, scooting his feet out of reach.
The demigod who’d been speaking with him also knelt awkwardly.
“Not necessary,” Nico said, pulling the boy to his feet.
“Okay, um, well, I can take you to Octavian,” the boy said, standing. Nico saw that he had a tattoo on his arm with one line, and no godly symbol. “I’m Frank Zhang. Prince of nothing,” he said, smiling awkwardly. He had dimples in his cheeks and a friendly expression, although he seemed to lack any sort of self confidence, and stood slightly hunched over as though he didn’t want to be noticed. Nico supposed he was as good as any other tour guide, and followed him to the Temple of Jupiter Optimus Maximus, which was the largest temple on the hill, unsurprisingly.
“So, what was it he called you back there? Cathonicos?” Frank asked as they approached the intimidatingly large temple.
“Cthonios refers to the Underworld,” Nico said. “But my real title is Ambassador of Pluto. Don’t worry about that other thing he said.” His mother had been right, it did seem as though shades had been whispering about him. There was nothing he could do about it, but it bothered him all the same.
“Ambassador of Pluto,” Frank said. “Huh. You know, maybe--”
“You’re not the son of Pluto, buddy,” Nico said, feeling sorry for him. He remembered his days living in the Hermes cabin at Camp Half-Blood as an unclaimed demigod. He hadn’t been there long, but it had bothered him when people constantly made wild guesses about who he was related to merely based on looks or personality. He’d never wondered for his own sake-- subconsciously, he’d always known it was Hades-- but he knew how much it sucked to walk around without a label when everyone else had one.
Frank sighed.
“Really? Because I thought there might be a chance… Sometimes I get this feeling like I just want to destroy people. Like, I want to see crows rip out the eyes of corpses on a battlefield. Sorry if that’s kind of dark.”
“Dark doesn’t bother me,” Nico said.
“I thought so,” Frank smiled. “See? Maybe we’re brothers?”
“I mean, a general tendency towards bloodlust is kind of broad,” Nico said, looking Frank up and down and seeing no clue of his parentage. “That could come from almost any god. Which, frankly, says a lot about the priorities of this pantheon.”
Frank led him into the Temple of Jupiter and opened a set of tall, bronze plated doors. Jupiter’s temple was ornate and way too large, a waste of real estate, in Nico’s opinion. It sat on the highest part of the hill and had an obnoxious number of stairs required to get to the top. The inside was all white and gold with iridescent accents reminiscent of the clouds and rainbows all over Olympus. There was also a big TV playing a slideshow of selfies campers had taken with Jupiter on a visit that appeared to have been many years ago.
A tall, skinny blonde man was leaning over an altar, examining the pooling blood and viscera of a dead lamb that hung limply from the stone table. Nico and Frank approached him as he muttered to himself.
“Augur, there’s someone here to--”
“Shut up, Frank,” Octavian said, holding up a single, imperious finger, without taking his eyes off the viscera. “The signs are all here. There is a god in New Rome today. Someone new, someone unknown. Make no mistake, I will find this god, and I will get a selfie with him,” he declared, standing upright, his eyes gleaming.
“Divine selfies are like, the ultimate social currency around here,” Frank whispered to Nico.
“What do you want?” Octavian said. “Who is this?”
“Nico di Angelo, Ambassador of Pluto,” Nico said, extending a hand. “I heard you had some questions about my sister Hazel.”
Octavian shook his hand, looking him up and down.
“A pleasure, ambassador,” he said, with a sleazy smile. “My question was about the things Hazel brought with her, not Hazel herself,” he said. “I wanted to understand their provenance.”
He glanced over to one side, and Nico saw that he had a table set up against a wall where Hazel’s amulets had been piled up.
“You’d better be planning on giving those back to her,” Nico said, frowning.
“All property is held in common in the legion,” Octavian said, pulling his shoulders back and speaking with authority. “Soldiers don’t get to withhold useful materials that can help their fellow soldiers.”
“I’ll cut you some slack on that one, since I know Hazel would gladly give her amulets to anybody that needed them,” Nico said. “But watch it.” He specifically didn’t want her earrings taken from her. Those were way too precious to lose.
Octavian apparently didn’t like his attitude, because he started walking around Nico in a circle, examining him.
“Reyna tells me you’re Italian. You don’t have an accent. How is it you’ve spent enough time in America to lose it, and never once crossed paths with anyone from Camp Jupiter? Seems odd for a son of Pluto to bypass us completely.”
“Yes, I’m very odd,” Nico said. “Is that a problem?”
“Here? Yes,” Frank said under his breath. Octavian shot him a warning look.
“Call me paranoid all you want,” Octavian said, folding his arms. “I just want to keep this Camp safe. There are traitors in our midst,” he said, looking at Frank. “There are whispers of war on the wind. And a god is coming to visit today.”
“Maybe I’m the god,” Nico said. “Maybe you’re pissing me off right now and making a grave mistake. Do you really want to take that risk?”
Octavian hesitated briefly, then smirked.
“I doubt it. I think I’d know if I was talking to a god. But you make a good point. I will extend the respect you’re due as an ambassador, despite seeing zero proof you’re the real deal. Please, come see what I’m working on. I’ll explain what I want to get out of this conversation.”
He walked over to the table; as soon as his back was turned, Nico and Frank exchanged a look.
“I hate this guy,” Frank mouthed silently. Nico nodded; he understood completely. Octavian was arrogant and conniving, it was obvious. If someone this unlikable had risen so far in the ranks at such a young age, it said a lot about how Camp Jupiter worked-- It was obviously more about who you knew rather than leadership ability.
“I want to know where you got these amulets, and how I can procure more,” Octavian said.
“Hazel made them,” Nico said.
“Did she?” Octavian asked. “I doubt a thirteen year old is capable of this level of advanced magic on her own. These amulets have protection against curses, poisons, the evil eye, all built into them. Some even disguise your scent from monsters.”
“Not perfectly, but they’re better than nothing,” Nico said. “And Hazel did make them. I just helped a little.”
“That’s what I thought,” Octavian said, his eyes glinting like he’d caught Nico in a lie. He seemed to think Nico had done everything for Hazel and was trying to give her credit, like a kid with a helicopter parent who brought in a science fair poster that looked a little too good. “I want to learn how to make them. And I have a few assistants that I’d also like to be given instruction. I’d be willing to pay you a small stipend for your time.”
Nico blinked at him, trying to make sense of what he’d just been asked.
“You want to hire me?” He said. “Am I hearing you right? You want me to work for you?”
“But you heard him earlier. Nico’s an ambassador of Pluto,” Frank said. “And potentially my half-brother. He has a job already.”
“I’m aware,” Octavian said, picking up one of the amulets and turning it over in his hands. A greedy light shone in his eyes as he looked at it. It was clear that he coveted this magical power that he’d never seen before, and was willing to do anything to get it. “But this is a rare opportunity to serve Camp Jupiter and all of New Rome. These amulets could save hundreds of lives,” Octavian explained. “And to work on my personal team is a great honor. You’re not from around here, so I’ll forgive you for not being aware of that. If money’s not what you want, I can offer you an advisory senate seat in exchange.”
Frank gasped.
“That’s a big deal,” he told Nico.
Nico just laughed quietly to himself, pulling out his phone.
“Octavian,” he said, smiling viciously. “Here’s how this is going to go. You’ll get absolutely nothing from me for free. No amulets, no potions, nothing.”
He waved his hand. All the amulets on the table burst into flame and were quickly reduced to cinders. Octavian started exclaiming in Latin, but Nico ignored him.
“You will hire my sister Hazel to make amulets for you. She’s not going to teach anybody anything unless she feels like it. You’ll pay her for every single one, and they won’t come cheap. I intend for her to have a very successful career here at Camp Jupiter, and I expect you to assist her with that.”
“Why the fuck would I want to do that?” Octavian spat, red-faced with rage.
Nico held up his phone in front of Octavian’s face. He’d opened Godstagram and pulled up the picture of him and Apollo at the bar in Mykonos. He’d even zoomed in on Apollo to get the full impact across to Octavian.
“You’re going to do it,” Nico said. “Unless you’d rather I call Apollo and tell him what an asshole you are.”
Octavian’s entire demeanor turned on a dime. He seemed to realize that Nico had him over a barrel, and he instantly grew smiley and slightly weasel-y.
“You know, come to think of it, I bet Hazel would be a great addition to my team,” he said.
“Thought so,” Nico said, putting his phone back in his pocket. “Hopefully, you think twice the next time you try to poach employees from Pluto. Also, I’m taking that senate seat.”
Frank followed him out of the Temple of Jupiter, looking at Nico completely differently than he had before.
“I can’t believe you just became a senator,” Frank said, his armor clinking as he hurried to catch up to Nico as he descended the stairs. “And you burned all of those amulets right in front of his face! I’m hoping that was an illusion or something. He wasn’t wrong that those would save lives, you know?”
“There’s no such thing as saving a life, Frank,” Nico said. “Just delaying the inevitable. It’s not necessarily doing anyone a favor in a place like this.”
“Oh,” Frank said. “That’s certainly one way to look at it.”
“The only reason I’m here is to help Hazel stay safe and get ahead. I literally don’t have time to worry about anything else. I barely even made it here on time this morning,” he sighed. “I’m not sure how many senate meetings I’ll be able to make it to. I might have to have Hazel take notes on them for me. That’ll be good for her development, right?” he said. His phone started buzzing with an incoming call, and he looked at the screen. It was Annabeth.
“Shit. I need to take this. Frank, will you tell Reyna to let Hazel know about the new arrangement?”
Frank agreed and took off at a jog. He moved way faster than you’d expect at his size, and Nico wondered if he could be a son of Mercury. He didn’t have time to think about it, though; he answered Annabeth’s call.
“Nico, something’s happened to Percy,” she said, her voice high-pitched and breathless with anxiety. “I got back to camp a week ago and we were supposed to spend Fall break there together. A few days ago, he went missing.”
Nico didn’t even hesitate. Annabeth had been through enough lately, and he needed her to have Hazel’s back during the war. Keeping her in the dark didn’t serve his interests at the moment.
“Percy’s not the only one to go missing,” Nico said, walking over to the Temple of Pluto and sitting on the steps. “It’s Hera’s doing, all part of a plan. Nothing to freak out over.”
He heard her breathe a huge sigh of relief.
“I knew you were the right person to ask,” she said. “My mom didn’t even take my call. Nico, thank you so much. I really appreciate this. I owe you one.”
“Just don’t ask me for details, because I don’t know any. I’m in Hera’s outermost circle when it comes to this stuff. I just get thrown crumbs once in a while.”
“You know I’m going to grill you for every crumb possible,” she said. “Will you tell me if you find out where Percy is?”
“No,” Nico said. “Not necessarily. Hera’s setting up the chess board. Gods and demigods on one side, giants on the other. We can’t afford for pieces to end up in the wrong places.”
“No need to mansplain chess to me,” she said jokingly. “I’ve won national tournaments. I’ve got to tell Chiron and deal with some new campers we just got in today. One is a son of Zeus, so it’s a lot. But thank you again. I appreciate it.”
“No problem,” Nico said. “Tell Jason I said hi.”
He hung up the phone before she could ask how he knew Jason. He’d never met him, but he felt like he knew him already. He could sense an absence of leadership in the Camp, one that Octavian was trying to take advantage of.
Despite Reyna’s apparent fondness of him, Nico couldn’t help but assume that Jason was a total piece of shit. If Octavian was able to get away with treating people poorly simply due to his family status, he didn’t even want to think about the arrogance and entitlement a child of Jupiter would have in a Camp where the Temple of Jupiter was the approximate size and grandeur of the Lincoln Memorial. He pictured a mini-Jupiter lording it over everyone with a booming, authoritative voice, and shuddered.
Done for the moment with Octavian, he went to finally see the Temple of Pluto up close. Once he crossed the threshold, all of the braziers and torches lit themselves with green flame, and the dark space glowed with flickering, eerie light. Lares that had been milling about the alcoves all prostrated themselves and fell silent.
Nico went up to his father’s statue, a huge, enthroned figure carved in black granite, with Cerberus by his side as always. There was a huge pile of coins on a tray on the altar in front of him that had been left as offerings, along with cash, rings, and jewelry. A smaller basket next to it held more coins, loose earrings, and some dead roses. That was probably for Proserpina, Persephone’s Roman persona. Nico sighed looking at it; he’d left things in such a weird place with her.
“You’re a lot more popular here than you were at Camp Half-Blood,” Nico observed aloud.
“I know,” the statue said. A figure of dark smoke emerged from the statue and stood next to him. “The Greeks were scared to speak my name, fearful of attracting death’s attention. The Romans chose instead to focus on my less intimidating aspects-- wealth and precious metals, glittering gems, et cetera.”
“Neat,” Nico said. He dug through the pile, finding some old Roman coins among the quarters and dollar bills in the mix. “I bet these are worth big money these days,” he said, holding up the Roman coin to the light.
Pluto’s smoky figure smacked his hand, making him drop the coin.
“Quit manhandling my offerings,” he said. “How’s your sister?”
“Great. She looked so proud of herself. I’m glad we came here. It just feels right,” he smiled. “She’s going to be really busy, though. She’s in orientation training right now. I’m not even sure when I’ll get to see her.”
“Busy is good,” Pluto said. “And it’s precisely what you should strive to be. If you’re going to strut about calling yourself my ambassador, then you should start attending team meetings again, at the very least. There’s one tomorrow, and you’ll be there with a report and presentation. I won’t hear any argument on the subject.”
“I mean, I was definitely planning to start going to those again, but I kind of have this thing tomorrow,” Nico said, checking his calendar and seeing that the team meeting would overlap with Will’s dinner with his grandpa.
“What thing?” Pluto asked coldly. “What could possibly be more important than work?”
“Um, my mortal boyfriend wants me to meet his grandpa?” Nico said meekly.
“If he’s a normal mortal with no connections, then he’s a waste of your time,” Pluto said firmly. “You’ll be at the meeting, and you’ll start answering your emails, or you’ll be fired from your role as ambassador. I’ll not argue the subject with you. I have already gone out of my way to make excuses for why you’ve missed so many meetings, but I need to draw the line somewhere.”
“Ugh. Fine,” Nico said, dreading the conversation with Will. He liked his title too much to risk it for one dinner, but Will was not going to be happy with him. “Anything on Persephone?” He asked.
“She hasn’t left her garden yet,” Pluto said. “Says she’s composting and needs to focus. I’ll call you when I have news. Also, have Hazel stop by the temple when she has leave to do so. Tell her to look behind the altar.”
“Will do,” Nico said. “See you tomorrow, I guess.”
Pluto disappeared in a haze of dark smoke.
Nico went behind the altar and peeked. There was a little wrapped purple gift box there, waiting. He smiled, then went back outside.
He spent the next few hours exploring New Rome on his own, looking for good coffee and procrastinating telling Will he couldn’t make it to dinner. He procrastinated so hard that he impulse bought a condo downtown so that he had a place to stay where Hazel could visit him. He envisioned sibling sleepovers, but that might have been optimistic. At least it would give her a place to keep any of her things that she didn’t want taken by Camp Jupiter and redistributed.
To his chagrin, Octavian had gotten his number from Reyna; he texted Nico asking to set up a meeting to clear the air. Nico ignored the texts and focused on signing the paperwork for his condo, trying and failing to pay attention to the leasing agent when he explained the pool rules and gym hours. Sliding his unlimited Cthonic credit card across the desk wasn’t a magic spell, but it seemed like one sometimes with the way it made people shut up and do what he wanted.
Once he’d gotten settled into his new condo, he set the photograph of him and Hazel on the mantel under the TV, the one she’d left back at their place in Crete. This wasn’t their home, and they might never live together again, but it felt right to have a base from which to keep an eye on her.
He traveled back to the Underworld to grab his laptop. It was much more convenient to be able to go back and forth without freaking out about Bianca and hiding from his dad every time, he thought, gathering up his computer and an armful of clothes to take back with him.
Just before he shadow traveled back to New Rome, he felt a cold-fingered hand grab him by the nape of the neck. He cried out, and turned around to see a familiar, tall, blonde weirdo following him through the shadows to his destination.
“Got you,” Thanatos said, smiling with satisfaction.
“Geez, Than,” Nico said, rubbing his neck where Thanatos had dug his fingers into it. “I thought someone was trying to rip out my spine.”
“Not today,” Thanatos said, looking around at their new surroundings. “You missed my tournament,” he added with a cold glance.
“Hazel—”
“I know, but you could have said goodbye,” Thanatos sighed. “Why do you have this new house?”
“It’s a condo. We’re in New Rome. I just wanted a place Hazel could stay when she gets breaks from her Probatio duties.”
Thanatos shuddered.
“I loathe New Rome.”
“What? Why?” Nico asked.
“They have two children of Apollo running the hospital here that are a little too gifted for my liking,” Thanatos said, his face darkening with shame.
“What does that mean? Do you not want people to get better?” Nico asked.
“I don’t care whether they heal or die,” Thanatos said. “I just want them to pick one and stick with it, not… I shouldn’t say any more.”
“Will you please just tell me? I won’t tell anyone else.” Nico knew this had to do with Rosa Bova’s situation, he could sense it, but he felt like he was missing a crucial piece of information.
“You wouldn’t understand,” Thanatos said.
“When has that ever once been true?” Nico asked him.
Thanatos swung his head to look at Nico, his expression pained and filled with longing.
“I just can’t,” he sighed finally. “But… I’ll think about it.”
“Alright,” Nico said, seeing that he’d made progress. “Want to watch a movie or something? I was just gonna check emails tonight.”
Thanatos nodded, and Nico let him flick between Netflix movies while he went through his inbox. Most of the issues being raised in the emails were regarding too few deaths or too many, consequences of Thanatos’ wavering motivation to work-- a condition Nico had caused, and continued to contribute to.
Seeing that Thanatos was engrossed in a documentary about Thai children trapped in a cave, Nico turned his screen slightly away from his friend’s view and searched his inbox for ‘Camp Jupiter.’ There was nothing. Unsatisfied, he went into the data itself, looking for death statistics in the zip code for New Rome. Every week, a report went out with the souls that were due to be collected at various precise places and times during that week-- the death auras that Nico and Hazel could sense would be pinging like crazy during that week to indicate that pickup was imminent. He saw that there were five souls that had remained on the list for well over a year, uncollected. All of them were located in the New Rome hospital.
Nico closed the spreadsheet and shut his laptop. That was something he could investigate on his own later.
“Damn,” Thanatos tsked.
“What?”
“They lived.”
Nico watched as the boys were returned to their tearful families, crying out in gratitude for their son’s lives. He smiled.
“You have to let the mortals get a win once in a while.”
“Psh. Whatever,” Thanatos said, clicking off the TV.
“Wouldn’t you have remembered collecting them if they’d died?” Nico asked. “Or do you assume it was Hermes that picked them up?”
“I don’t assume that Hermes does any work,” Thanatos scoffed. “It must have been someone else.”
“Someone else? Like, a Thai deity? Do they have those? What are they like?”
“I don’t know, and I don’t want to know. I’ve got one other pantheon I have to deal with, and that’s one more than I’d like.”
“I want to know how it works,” Nico sighed. “The Catholics are-- I mean, they seem nice. Are they really causing you that many problems?”
“Constantly. But I can’t go into detail as to why. It’s better for you not to know how the sausage is made,” Thanatos said. “Trust me.”
“I can’t help it. I want to understand,” Nico said. “
“You’re mortal,” Thanatos said sadly. “You’ll never really be able to understand.”
“Yeah,” Nico said, swallowing. “You’re probably right.” Probably right about him being mortal, anyway. “Uh, while we’re on that subject, can I ask you something kind of weird?”
Thanatos nodded, turning to look him in the eyes. Nico pulled his legs up onto the couch, steeling himself to ask the question he was slightly scared to hear the answer to.
“What is a god?” He asked.
Thanatos quirked his mouth in a half-smile.
“Me. I’m a god.”
“What does that mean, though?”
“It means I exist for a purpose.”
“You don’t need to be worshiped to be a god?”
“No, that’s optional. I’ve never liked the attention. There’s a reason I work invisibly.”
“Huh,” Nico said. “What would you call someone immortal that has no purpose?”
“An eternal waste of space? I don’t know,” Thanatos shrugged. “Why?”
“So you’re saying a god has to have an important job, or they’re just an immortal?”
“Of course.”
Nico couldn’t help but feel like he was missing something. If Thanatos was to be believed, then that certainly implied that Nico himself couldn’t be a god. He had a job, but he wouldn’t call answering emails and talking on the phone on his dad’s behalf a ‘purpose’. With that said, Thanatos didn’t get out much and was a total workaholic for most of his existence. His opinion was probably biased by his own experience of having his job as his only identity.
Totally confused by the conversation, Nico busied himself with other tasks. He finished his emails and added Reyna to his contacts, sending her his new address to give to Hazel. Reyna never responded, and Hazel never came, even though it was starting to get dark outside.
He and Thanatos ended up sitting around and talking for a while. Nico showed him funny videos occasionally, but Thanatos wasn’t interested in social media the way that Nico was. Eventually, Nico glanced up from his phone to see that Thanatos had fallen sound asleep. His head rested on the arm of the couch, his long blonde hair trailing all the way down to the floor. One benefit of wearing a himation, Nico noticed, was how they could double as a cozy nap blanket in a pinch; Thanatos was wrapped up like an ear of corn, complete with the silky yellow fringe on top.
“Hypnos, what are you up to?” Nico asked aloud.
Hypnos appeared in front of him.
“How did you know I was here?” The god of sleep asked, stretching his dappled grey wings and looking around the apartment with a sleepy, uninterested expression.
“You’re twins, so it stands to reason that you’d both be creepy invisible stalkers,” Nico said. “And I don’t think I’m that boring to hang out with.”
“I don’t know, those Tiktoks were pretty dry,” Hypnos said, perching on the arm of the couch and pinching his unconscious brother’s cheek in the affectionate yet violent manner of siblings. “Look, Nico, I’m gonna level with you. I’m here to ask you, bluntly-- What are your intentions with my brother?”
“Intentions?” Nico asked. “We’re just friends.”
“Uh huh. I wasn’t born last century, dude,” Hypnos said. “You know how he feels about you. He’s not good at hiding it.”
“I don’t know what you want me to say,” Nico said, his face heating with embarrassment. Of course he knew that Thanatos cared for him, in his awkward, yet endearing way. And he cared, too, but he wasn’t ready for their relationship to be defined or put under a microscope. “Thanatos and I are still getting to know each other. We’re not ready to have the ‘What are we?’ conversation.”
“But I want to know what you are!” Hypnos said, stomping his foot.
“Too bad!” Nico said. “Your brother can make his own decisions, you know. You’re talking over him like he’s a child. He hates that.”
“I know he hates it, but I don’t care,” Hypnos said frustratedly. “Somebody’s got to look out for him. Eros isn’t doing it anymore, so I guess it has to be me. Look, Nico, I think you seem like a nice guy, but you’re starting to really freak everybody out,” he added, his expression gravely serious. “When you first showed up, we all liked you and liked the way you were getting your dad to be nicer to all of us. Nobody wanted to ruin it by asking too many questions. But then Thanatos quit because of you, and things got real.”
“But that was inevitable!” Nico argued. “It’s not my fault the population is increasing exponentially!”
“It’s been increasing for ages. And he just quits coincidentally right after you started working with us? Come on, everyone knows you were responsible. He’s working again now, mostly, so it’s whatever. But lately the shades have been whispering--”
“You can’t believe everything you hear in Asphodel,” Nico said.
“Word on the street is that you’re a god,” Hypnos said bluntly. “And Minos won’t confirm or deny it to anyone, which makes us all think that it must be true.”
Nico leaned back against the couch and closed his eyes, sighing. He should have told Minos to deny it, not to just never say anything at all-- that had been his mistake. He knew he ought to try to convince Hypnos that it wasn’t true, but the words wouldn’t come to his lips. He wasn’t sure why, but his mind was drawing a blank. Thinking about Minos was still very difficult for him.
“If there’s some reason Hades is holding off on making an official announcement, that’s fine,” Hypnos said. “That’s probably for the best, given the circumstances. I don’t care about that, I just don’t want what happened to Minos to happen to my brother.”
“What happened to Minos?” Nico asked. “What are you talking about? He dumped me!”
“Everyone is saying you cheated on him with some mortal cowboy and broke his heart.”
“Who is telling these lies about me?” Nico asked, panicked. “Is this all coming from bored shades spreading rumors? Don’t they have anything better to do?”
“Not really, no,” Hypnos said.
“I mean, I did technically cheat on him,” Nico said. “But that wasn’t why he dumped me.”
“Well, he isn’t telling anyone any other reason, so we can only assume.”
“I know, I get it,” Nico said, waving his hands. “Forget about Minos. I’ll deal with him. Can we just stop this line of questioning altogether? I’m not dating your brother-- I don’t even think he’s interested in dating me. At least, he hasn’t said anything about it. But I have no intention of hurting him, okay? Are we good now?”
“No, we’re not,” Hypnos said. “I don’t think you get it. If you hurt my brother, we’re going to make you regret it-- all of us,” he added threateningly.
“All of us?”
“The children of Nyx,” Hypnos said. “Thanatos has always been closed off and misunderstood, and his recent efforts to be more social are all because of you. If he gets hurt, we’ll probably never see him again, and if he gets hurt badly, mortals will stop dying, and the fabric of life itself will collapse.”
“I understand that!” Nico snapped.
“I doubt it,” Hypnos said firmly, crossing his arms.
Nico clenched his teeth, frustrated. He’d never seen this side of Hypnos before, and it was nerve-wracking. The god of sleep was usually extremely relaxed when he wasn’t sleeping, which he spent most of his time doing. It seemed like when it came to his twin, he was capable of becoming terrifyingly alert. If all the children of Nyx were this protective of their brother, Nico really did need to tread carefully.
He reached out and poked Thanatos in the arm.
“That’s not going to work,” Hypnos said.
Thanatos opened his eyes.
“Damn it,” Hypnos sighed.
“What are you doing here?” Thanatos said, looking up and seeing his twin standing over him. “Did you make me fall asleep? I hate when you do that!”
Both twins started trying to smack each other. Thanatos even reached out and yanked on one of his brother’s wings, making Nico wince.
“I came to check on you,” Hypnos said, straightening his mantle. His wing feathers were puffed up in indignation like a bird trying to warm itself in the winter. “It’s not my fault you insist on hanging around with strange men in strange houses and make me worry about you.”
“Nico isn’t a strange man, and this is a condo, not a house,” Thanatos said. “Shows what you know.”
“If we’ve known him less than a thousand years, he’s a stranger,” Hypnos said. “And he’s getting stranger by the day.”
“I can make my own decisions,” Thanatos said dismissively. “Go home, Hypnos.”
“You go home! Or, better yet, go back to work!”
“Get out!” Thanatos said, throwing a decorative pillow at his brother as he disappeared. “Sorry about him,” he said to Nico, his cheeks pink. “What did he say while I was asleep?”
“He’s just worried about you,” Nico said. “He thinks I’m going to betray you. I said I’d try not to, but no promises,” he shrugged.
Thanatos threw a couch pillow at him, too.
“You’re both idiots,” he said. “Don’t talk about me behind my back again, it’s rude. I should probably go back to work,” he admitted, pulling out his tablet and looking at the list of names. Nico looked down at it; every second, a handful of new ones were added to the list.
Nico wanted desperately to go with him; weird as it sounded, he loved watching people die. But he needed to wait for Hazel-- It would be dark soon, and he was hoping she’d get a dinner break and come find him.
“Than,” Nico said quietly. “Maybe we should--”
“I’d better go,” Thanatos said, looking up at him, golden eyes burning with unspoken feeling. “See you later, Nico.”
Thanatos disappeared, and he was left alone again.
His phone buzzed with a text from Will; “Can’t wait to see you tomorrow! Thanks so much for supporting me!”
His stomach twisted with guilt. His father had ordered him to cancel their dinner, but this meant a lot to Will. Nico was being introduced to his grandpa, which was a big deal, and he’d also promised to try to convince his grandpa not to stop his cancer treatment. That was a huge relationship milestone, in addition to being weird and uncomfortable and sad and probably pointless.
He started to text Will to let him know he couldn’t make it, but chickened out, turning on the TV instead. An episode of Sex and the City was playing on HBO. He zoned out for a while, only vaguely interested. Seeing people running around the streets of New York reminded him of his summer internship days, and not in a good way.
One of the characters, Charlotte, scheduled two dates at the same time, only a short amount of time apart. Nico perked up at that plotline, paying attention; it was very similar to his predicament with Will and the Underworld meeting.
She solved her conundrum by going on one date and having a nice time before faking sick to get out of it halfway through. Then she was able to go to her second date without issue-- well, she got caught, but Nico was sure that part wouldn’t happen to him.
He was enjoying the show until there was a shot of an unpleasantly familiar brownstone facade. Eros lived in Carrie Bradshaw’s house, Nico recalled, finally realizing that she wasn’t a historical figure, but a TV character. He shut the TV off, not wanting to see the house again, not even for one second.
The memory of his past humiliation flooded him; he’d woken up alone in Eros’ bed and hadn’t even merited a text back. He never wanted to feel that lack of control or vulnerability in a relationship again. He much preferred dating Will, a mortal who knew nothing about him or who his father was. A relationship without mythological baggage was simpler. And if things didn’t work out, at least they’d never have to see each other again.
Minos would be at the meeting tomorrow… He shuddered at the thought of seeing him again. Talk about humiliating. Everyone at that meeting would know that he’d been dumped, and worse, they’d think it was all his fault. And it wasn’t! He wasn’t a god! Probably. He was pretty sure. Most of the time.
There was a timid knock at the door, and he flung it open-- the person he’d most hoped to see was standing there smiling.
Chapter 56: Hazel's First Day
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Being a demigod sucked sometimes. You could go from the highest high to the lowest low in the span of a few hours. Hazel had learned that the hard way.
Her first day had started out incredible. She’d made her way back to Camp Jupiter overnight entirely under her own power-- slashing monsters with her Stygian iron scythe-knives, stomping their ugly, stupid faces to pulp with her combat boots. Everything was going swimmingly. She’d reached camp and seen her brother waiting for her with a big smile on his face. She’d started tearing up with joy when the other campers lifted her up and cheered for her, welcoming her with genuine warmth and acceptance.
It just didn’t get any better than that. Mainly because it got way worse.
Lectures about rules were bearable. The orientation film was a bit too long. Getting fitted for armor by the children of Vulcan was kind of cool, but it was uncomfortable and hard to get used to when she’d spent the last couple of months wearing high end fabric. Her protective leather vest smelled kind of funky, and she missed her Prada. Nico and his credit card had really spoiled her.
That became even more apparent when she saw where she’d be sleeping – a cramped, stuffy barracks with bunk beds where she was basically two feet away from five other people at any given moment. The sheets were crisp and overly starched, and the pillow was flat as a pancake, and she dreaded trying to sleep with other girls snoring and whispering through the night, but she was willing to be a good sport about it. She wanted to be here.
She was pretty sure she did, until she saw the shower situation. Then part of her was seriously considering making a run for it.
It got worse when she realized they’d stolen her stuff.
“Where are my potions? And my amulets?” She asked, alarmed at seeing her personal potion cooler re-labeled and re-stocked with Gatorades in the mess hall during breakfast.
“You haven’t heard?” Another probatio at her table told her. “Anything you bring with you gets seized and redistributed. Get with the program, comrade!”
Hazel took a deep breath and tried not to freak out while the other probationes laughed. This was her own fault, or rather, it was Nico’s. They hadn’t done enough research before coming, or she would have been mentally prepared to hand it over or leave it at home. She saw a probatio eyeing her earrings and quickly tucked her hair over her ears to hide them. She wasn’t giving those up for anything.
The morning was a blur of schedules, rules, lectures, and being hustled from place to place. She was shown the way to the weapons storage, the training areas, the hourly shuttle to New Rome – it was too much to take in, and she quickly became exhausted and overwhelmed. The initial riotous welcome was short lived, and it became clear that her fellow probationes were too busy with their own responsibilities to take much notice of her.
Despite everything, her spirit was resilient, and she was optimistic that she could succeed here, make friends, and make her brother proud. The camp was so well trained and disciplined that it took the edge off her fear about the war with Gaea-- if these professional, competent, powerful demigods couldn’t get her ready, along with Nico’s help, then it was a lost cause.
Sometime between lunch and dinner, another probatio came up to her with a folded note in hand bearing the praetor’s laurel seal.
“The praetor is summoning you,” the probatio, a tall, thin girl with a cold, formal demeanor said. “She-- what’s that?” Her eyes lit up with interest, and she reached out for something glittering on the ground by Hazel’s feet.
“Don’t!” Hazel gasped, snatching up the bright red ruby that had appeared next to her. The girl gave her a weird look.
“All property here is held in common,” said the girl, holding out her hand. “I’ll hand this in for inspection.”
For one thing, based on the way she was glancing over her shoulder to see if anybody was looking, she planned on keeping it. For another, if Hazel gave her the ruby, she’d suffer a tragic fate.
“I can’t give it to you,” Hazel said. She couldn’t destroy her cursed stones, but she could disguise them. She used the mist to cloak the ruby and make it look like a rusty penny.
“I could have sworn that was… Never mind,” the probatio said. “Come on. Let’s go. Praetor’s waiting. I’m Gwen, by the way.”
Gwen took Hazel to Reyna’s tent and left her there. The close call sent a chill up Hazel’s spine. She’d gone so long without having to worry about her curse that she’d forgotten how difficult it was going to make her life. Nico thought she had the skills to hide it effectively, but what if he was overestimating her?
A tiny diamond popped out of the ground by her feet, and she quickly buried it deep in the earth, willing the rocks and soil to envelop it. This would require constant vigilance. She’d just have to get used to it again.
She went into Reyna’s tent.
“Praetor,” she said, standing at attention.
“At ease,” Reyna said, looking Hazel over critically. Hazel was sure she was doing a million things wrong already, since it would take time to learn all the proper protocols. But Reyna didn’t say anything negative. In fact, it was a moment before she said anything at all.
“Your brother,” Reyna said hesitantly. “The Ambassador of Pluto-- What does that mean, exactly? What is his job?”
“He took time off to train me,” Hazel said honestly. “I’m not all that familiar with his work. I think he does whatever our father asks of him.”
“Can we speak freely of your brother here?” Reyna asked.
It took Hazel a moment to realize what Reyna was really asking.
“My brother is the single kindest person I’ve ever known,” Hazel said. “You shouldn’t be scared to speak his name.”
Reyna nodded, taking in that information thoughtfully.
“Our augur sent me a report earlier saying that a god was in New Rome today. He had a meeting with Nico immediately after making that prediction. I think the signs are clear.”
Hazel looked at the ground. She didn’t know what to say. Obviously word of Nico’s godhood getting back to Jupiter would be a disaster, but the camp leaders weren’t naive, and they worked with minor gods on a regular basis. Denying Nico’s divinity was unlikely to change Reyna’s mind if she’d already sensed it.
“I worked for a minor goddess years ago, living in the Caribbean,” Reyna said, fiddling with a mug on her desk. “I saw dozens of sea gods and goddesses come and go. Gods of sharks and dolphins and crabs and creatures I couldn’t name. The world’s oceans are practically endless. If you think about it, there’s no limit to the gods and goddesses down there whose names we might never know. I imagine the Underworld might be similar?” She asked.
Hazel had to think about her answer. If Reyna said the sea was like that, she believed her, but that simply didn’t apply to the Underworld. From what she’d gathered from hanging out with Minos and Nico, nearly everyone down there knew each other and worked together, and a lot of them were related. It wasn’t that big a place when compared to the oceans that covered most of the planet.
“I’m not that familiar with it,” Hazel lied through her teeth.
“Then I’ll assume that Nico is a minor Cthonic deity and leave it at that,” Reyna said. She definitely felt unsure about that statement, but it seemed like it was important to her to slap a label on Nico so that she knew how to deal with him-- in her orderly and hierarchical world, that might work, but Hazel knew that Nico, at the moment, defied all classification. “I only care about what he is to the extent that it relates to the welfare of New Rome and Camp Jupiter. Gods can come and go as they please, but when they become senators, I have to do my due diligence.”
“He’s a senator?” Hazel asked, not even surprised at this point by her brother’s awesomeness. “He works fast,” she grinned.
“He does, and he also got you a job with the Augur himself, the Centurion Octavian. You start tomorrow; someone will escort you to work so that you know where to go. Nico said to tell you to visit the Temple of Pluto and look behind the altar when you get a chance, and gave me this address that you can find him at. You have one hour of leave tonight, special permission, to see him. You can take the shuttle into – Never mind. You can teleport,” Reyna said, smiling a little. “I’m very jealous of that skill.”
“It’s called shadow traveling,” Hazel said, also smiling. “Thank you, praetor. I’m sorry to cause you the trouble. I know most probationes don’t bring gods with them when they arrive.”
“Be worth it, soldier. You’re dismissed,” Reyna said. “Feel free to give Aurum and Argentum pats before you go.”
Hazel took a minute to pet Reyna’s dogs who were hanging out outside the praetor tent. It seemed like she and Reyna would be able to get along fine, and that gave her hope that her future might be bright, despite her curse. She briefly considered telling Reyna about it, but decided it wasn’t worth the risk of being shut away or interrogated. She’d try to keep off the radar as long as she could. If she made herself valuable to the Augur, maybe her curse would go over better if it ever came time to reveal it.
When she was ready, she traveled to the Temple of Pluto to see what awaited her behind the altar.
Standing on the steps outside the Temple, she hesitated to go in. Its imposing darkness and cold aura reminded her too much of death. As she ascended the staircase, she saw that there were shades peeking out from the corners of the room, watching from behind columns, and whispering, their voices making the sickeningly familiar sound she’d grown to hate during her time in the Underworld. The air even smelled like Asphodel, and it made her want to vomit. She knew that someday she’d have to face that place again, just like everybody else-- but it was too soon.
With every step she took towards the massive granite altar to her father, she thought of the decades she’d spent gazing upon nothing but shades and rocks and withered petrified trees. She pressed her hand against her heart and held it there as she approached the altar and the huge mound of coins that rested atop it. As she stood in front of her father’s statue, the coins moved of their own accord, spilling over in a flood of gold and silver, rushing toward her like a river. She backed up until she was out of the way, and didn’t approach again until the coins had stopped and lain still.
The feeling of her heart pounding against her hand reassured her that she was still alive, and that her father couldn’t drag her back to his kingdom of immeasurable wealth and endless darkness. Even if he wanted to, Nico wouldn’t allow it. That was what she told herself, over and over, as fear washed over her in waves.
She closed her eyes, squeezing her eyelids together tightly.
“Protect me from him,” she whispered to her brother in a heartfelt prayer. “Please.”
Her fear eased a little, and she gathered the bravery to go up to the altar again. Tears stung her eyes, and she felt like a coward, but she could barely drag her head up to look at her father’s face.
The sight of the stone statue of Cerberus glowering beside him sent a shiver up her spine. He’d stalked the borders of Asphodel, growling and snapping at any shade who dared drift too close to the edges. A few times, that had been her-- a little too bright and curious for a shade, and far too desirous of freedom. She’d learned her lesson quickly.
She went behind the altar and saw a box wrapped in purple paper. The moment she’d walked in, she’d known the gift was from her father-- she’d been hoping Nico would be waiting to give her a gift of his own, but he would simply hand it to her in person, not leave it unattended.
She snatched up the box and tore off the wrapping. It was a box of colored pencils, the same kind he’d given her on her thirteenth birthday. The same kind her mother had destroyed the night she’d died.
Hazel immediately threw the colored pencils across the temple, slamming the box on a column and scattering pencils everywhere.
“I hate you,” she hissed, glaring up at the statue, breathing hard. “Give me all the stupid gifts you want, but I will never forgive you. Nico is my father now. And my brother, and my friend, and my everything. I don’t need you, and I don’t want you. If you’ve got a problem with that, good!” She shouted.
The statue didn’t move. Nothing happened. The room was silent and still.
Then a sandal squeaked on the floor tile. She whipped her head around.
“Who’s there?” She snapped, still upset, but starting to feel self-conscious about her outburst. She didn't normally raise her voice, even in times when she ought to. Clearly she'd been spending too much time with her older brother lately; he never backed down from confrontation. Still, she wasn't Nico. She was just a demigod, and yelling at gods was usually a super bad idea. She knew Nico wouldn’t actually let her dad do anything to her, and more than likely, Pluto wasn’t listening anyway. But it would make her look like a reckless nutcase to any legionary with sense.
A chubby Asian boy, a bit older than her, poked his head out from behind a column.
“I’ll just get out of your way,” he said awkwardly.
“Who are you? What are you doing here?” She asked, baffled as to why anybody would want to spend time in Pluto’s Temple.
“I was praying,” he shrugged.
“Praying,” she said disbelievingly. “To Pluto? Good luck,” she said, scrubbing at her eyes with the heels of her hands. “Ugh. I’m sorry you had to see that.”
“I’m sure you had your reasons,” he said kindly. “Are you Hazel?”
“Yeah. How’d you know my name?”
“I met your brother earlier today. He got you a new job and became a senator in like, five minutes. It was very cool.”
“Heh,” Hazel giggled. “That sounds like him.”
“Frank Zhang,” he said, holding out his hand.
“Hazel Levesque,” she said, shaking hands with him. There was something catching about his smile that she couldn’t quite put her finger on. There was a sincerity to Frank’s demeanor, and a lack of judgment, that made her feel like she could be herself around him.
Frank glanced at the colored pencils on the floor.
“I can help you pick these up, if you want. Wouldn’t want somebody to trip. Not that I don’t get why you threw them… I mean, I don’t get it, but I can imagine a lot of reasons, I guess.”
“Sorry. I’m not ready to share my sad story with you yet,” she said.
“No, I’m sorry,” he said, blushing. “I didn’t mean to be nosy. My grandmother is always telling me to work on that.”
“May I ask who your godly parent is?” Hazel asked. “Or is that nosy?”
Frank put the pencils back in their box and started to hand them to her. She shook her head, folding her arms across her chest, so he set the box on the altar instead.
“Funny you should ask, since that’s why I’m here. I don’t have one. I mean, I don’t know who they are. Kinda trying to figure it out,” he said. “Your brother said it’s not Pluto, but I guess I wanted to check to be sure. I pray at a different temple on the hill every day in hopes that my dad hears and claims me.”
Hazel wondered how he felt seeing her yell at her dad and throw his gift away when he didn’t have a father at all. She wondered if he knew that finding out who it was might just make everything worse.
“I hope you get what you want,” she said. “But it’s not Pluto.”
“That’s alright,” he smiled.
“Can we talk outside?” She asked, shivering. “This place is suffocating.”
He nodded, and led her back out into the sun.
“By the way, where are you from?” He asked. “Your accent is the most-- I mean, it’s really nice,” he said, blushing bright red.
Hazel giggled.
“New Orleans,” she said.
“Nollins?” He asked, puzzled. “Where is that?”
“New Orleans,” she said, enunciating the syllables. “Louisiana.”
“Oh, okay,” he said. “I’m from Vancouver, so I’m not familiar with that area. But I bet it’s nice.”
“Is every boy from Vancouver as sweet as you?” She asked.
He turned even redder.
“Canadians are known for being nice,” he said. “I don’t mean to be pushy or anything. If I’m bugging you, just say so and I’ll head out. But if you wanted to catch the shuttle back to camp together--”
“Do you want to come with me to build a shrine in those trees over there?” She asked, pointing at a grove off in the distance, nowhere near Temple Hill. For Nico’s safety, she’d never dare make him compete for sacred real estate with Olympians. She hoped someday, that could change.
“Yes. Wait, what? A shrine?” He asked.
She touched his shoulder and took him with her through the shadows to the grove. Temple Hill was far away in the distance, and the trees were set close together, forming a dark, shadowed space that she thought suited her brother’s vibe perfectly.
“Woah!” Frank said.
“Yeah, I do that,” she said, glancing back at him with a smile.
Frank watched in amazement as she moved the earth with her hands to make a little hill. She took a handful of diamonds and rubies out of her pocket and buried them in the earth.
“I’ll make a sacrifice later,” she said. “But this is a start.”
“This is for Nico,” Frank said with awe in his voice. “You worship him.”
“Yes,” she said. “I probably shouldn’t have told you, but I feel like you can keep a secret.”
“Definitely,” he nodded, “Don’t worry, I already guessed it earlier. Octavian was saying something about a god in New Rome today.”
“My new boss? What’s he like?”
Frank made a face.
“That bad?” She asked. He shrugged.
“With your brother protecting you, I think he’ll treat you okay,” he said. “He treats me like crap, though. I’m his bodyguard on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays.”
“Is that right?” Hazel said, thinking to herself. “I’ll try to have your back as much as I can,” she said, looking up at Frank from where she sat on the ground. “I’m new here, but maybe Nico’s protection can stretch a little.”
“Thank you so much!” Frank said, looking delighted. “You’re really nice,” he added. “I don’t have many friends here. Honestly, you might not want to be seen hanging out with me if you want to be popular.” He sat on the ground beside her,
“That’s okay,” Hazel said. “I didn’t really have my hopes up for popularity. I always had a hard time making friends.” She remembered the ostracization and bullying she’d faced back at her old Catholic school in New Orleans and felt sick to her stomach. Would Frank still be her friend if he knew about her curse? She kind of had a feeling he would be. But she wasn’t ready to test it out just yet.
“So, you can teleport? Is that a Pluto thing?”
“It’s shadow travel,” she said. “And yes, but if I do it too much or go too far, I get really exhausted.”
“So you don’t have to wait on the shuttle! That’s awesome,” he said. “Camp seems big when you first get here-- At least it did to me. But it gets really claustrophobic after you spend months crammed in the same barracks with the same people. There’s so much drama. It’s exhausting. You’re lucky to be able to get away.”
“I don’t think my camp experience is destined to be very traditional,” she said. “I feel like Nico is helping me cheat my way into stuff I haven’t earned.”
“You should take advantage of it. They try to make it seem like a meritocracy here, like we’re all soldiers with equal chance of advancement through valor and service. But in the end, the people with connections always end up running things. That can’t be a coincidence,” Frank said, shaking his head sadly.
Hazel sighed, laying down on the grass. She felt her connection with the earth thrumming through her veins. In California, there was a lot of tectonic activity, so she sensed movement and shifting and heat far beneath her, even just laying still. It was fascinating. Geologically speaking, her new home was pretty cool.
“Nico expects a lot of me,” she said. “We’ll see if I can live up to it.”
Frank sat with his back against a tree and breathed in the silence for a minute.
“Since we’re all the way out here, do you want to smoke with me?” He asked her.
She sat up and looked at him.
“What?”
He held up a plastic bag with a joint in it.
“I snagged this at the Temple of Bacchus. We can share!”
Hazel had never tried it before, but she ended up having a really good time getting high with Frank in the woods, making each other laugh with dumb jokes. She hadn’t realized how much stress she’d been carrying until the tension in her shoulders dissolved like a knot unwinding, and she was able to relax for the first time all day.
“Oh, shit,” she said, coughing. “What time is it?”
“Who knows,” Frank said. “Watches aren’t regulation.”
“Reyna said I only had an hour break to go see my brother. How long has it been?”
“Probably, like, three,” Frank said, snorting with laughter.
They both practically fell over from laughing so hard.
“Okay, okay, I’ve gotta go see my brother, then we’ll go back to camp,” she said, checking his new address and taking Frank’s hand. If she’d been hesitant before about trusting Frank, she wasn’t anymore; they were definitely friends now. “Come with me,” she suggested impulsively. “Just don’t mention that he’s a god. He’s self-conscious about it.”
He nodded, and she shadow traveled them to Nico’s new condo building.
The doorman gave them a dirty look when they walked inside, but he didn’t stop them from taking the elevator up to Nico’s door. She knocked, and Nico flung the door open.
“Hazel!” He said, grinning and throwing his arms around her. “It’s so good to see you-- What is Frank doing here?” He said, letting her go. “Why do you stink?”
“He’s my friend. And we were in the Temple of Bacchus,” she said. “They use a special kind of incense.”
“Oh. I was going to say, you smell like Hecate,” Nico said. “Both of you come in. Are you hungry?”
“Yes,” they said in unison.
“Can we order pizza?” Hazel asked.
“Sure, get whatever you want,” Nico said, handing her his phone and credit card. “You earned it. I’m so proud of you. Will you tell me everything?”
“Sure, I-- Oh, you brought my photo!” She said excitedly, pointing at the photograph of the two of them that sat on the mantel. “I was so upset that I forgot it. I tore my bags apart this morning looking for it.”
“I’ve got you covered,” Nico smiled, as she took the photo down and looked at it fondly. “Always.”
Hazel told him all about her time at the Wolf House and her trials in getting back to Camp. Nico listened intently, thrilled to hear about all of her monster takedowns and how she’d wrestled a wolf and won. He was so absorbed in her story that he didn’t even question the fact that Frank had ordered three pizzas, fifty garlic knots, a cheese bread and a chocolate lava cake.
“There is one thing I need to tell you,” she said, looking at Nico slightly awkwardly. She pulled her hair back and showed him his earrings that he’d given her. “These don’t work.”
Nico’s cheeks turned slightly pink, and he looked embarrassed.
“Yeah, I realized after I gave them to you that the magic was, um, non-transferable,” he said.
“It’s okay,” she reassured him. “It’s the thought that counts. I appreciated having them to remind me of you.”
“What do the earrings do?” Frank asked curiously.
“Invisibility,” she said.
“Wow,” he said. “Teleportation and invisibility would be so OP.”
“How about you give them back to me temporarily and I’ll try to put some kind of useful spell on them,” Nico said. “They’ve got a huge magical power reserve; I can sense it. I just need to figure out how to let you tap into their potential.”
She took the earrings out and handed them over. He stared at them like they were a source of some anxiety for him, although Hazel couldn’t understand why.
“Are you okay?” She asked.
He nodded.
“Fine. Totally fine. All good here,” he laughed.
“Nico, you’re never good. You’re always tangled up in three different types of drama at once.”
He winced.
“Okay, that hurt,” he admitted. “It’s really no big deal. I’m supposed to have dinner with Will tomorrow night.”
“Will’s his boyfriend,” Hazel explained to Frank.
“But I have a work meeting in the Underworld, and I really can’t miss it. I was thinking I’d go to dinner and fake sick to get out of it early. I don’t love the idea of being late to the meeting, but maybe it’ll be alright,” he shrugged.
“Can’t you be in two places at once?” Frank asked.
Nico stared at him.
“Uh, no,” he said, seeming to grow agitated. “Why would you even suggest that? Of course I can’t.”
“Um, well, uh,” Hazel said, trying to salvage the situation. “I think you sort of can, right? I was just telling Frank about, um, mist switching,” she said. “Right?” She elbowed him.
“Right, yep,” he nodded, despite having no clue what she was talking about.
“Mist switching?” Nico cocked his head. “What’s that?”
“Just an idea I had,” she said. “You can use the mist to form an image of you in one place. Then go to another place and be there for real. Then switch.”
Nico’s eyes lit up with a dark gleam.
“Hazel, that’s genius!” He said. “I can just make it look like I’m standing in the back of the meeting when I’m not really there! But… Hmm. It might not be enough to get past our dad. Gods are only fooled by the mist when they’re not really paying attention anyways. He’ll see through it immediately. Hecate will know right away, too.”
“So the real you has to be at the meeting, and the not-real you can go to the dinner.”
“A mistform can’t make dinner table conversation,” Nico said. “It can look and sound real to mortals, but it’s not interactive. It won’t answer a question. Still,” he admitted. “You’ve given me something to work with. You’re brilliant,” he said, grinning at her. “Some really smart guy must have taught you everything you know.”
Hazel was pleased that she’d been able to pull that off. Nico didn’t seem to suspect that Frank knew he was a god. She could tell that he’d rather Frank wasn’t there and it was just the two of them, but she liked Frank too much to send him away, and Nico didn’t say anything about it.
Once it started getting late, Nico decided to go back to the Underworld to practice mist-switching for a while and see if he could work something out before his obligations the following day. Hazel and Frank said goodbye to him, promising to stay behind and clean up their pizza feast before returning to camp.
“Your brother is so nice,” Frank said, putting the leftovers in the fridge. “Does he always just let you order whatever food you want?”
“Usually, but sometimes he cooks for me. His food always turns out incredible, even though he doesn’t do anything special to it,” Hazel said. She was polishing off the last few crumbs of the chocolate lava cake and licking her fingers.
“Must be nice to have a patron god,” Frank sighed. “You’re like Odysseus. He always had Athena watching his back and helping him.”
“I doubt she ever made him spaghetti,” Hazel said. “Believe me, I count my blessings every day. That’s why it’s so important to me to make him a shrine. It’s hard to do it without getting caught, though. I have to wait to make the sacrifice until he’s asleep, and he almost never sleeps.”
“Why doesn’t he want to talk openly about what he is?” Frank asked.
“I don’t know,” she said. “It seems like he hasn’t fully accepted it. Or like he resents it, maybe? He lost his mother very young. I think it was traumatic for him. He’s mentioned that he always wanted to be with her again. Maybe he would rather be dead with her than immortal without her.”
Frank paused in his cleanup activities, standing in front of the fridge silently.
“I think I kind of get that,” he said sadly. “I lost my mom, too. I’d give my left arm to see her again.”
“Your mom… Emily Zhang?”
“How did you know that?”
“She’s a shade in Elysium. I felt her connection to you. She must be thinking about you a lot.”
“She is?” Frank turned to Hazel, looking at her desperately. “Is she okay? Does she miss me?”
“She’s in Elysium. She’s more than okay,” Hazel said. “Trust me, she’s got it pretty good up there compared to… Um, never mind. She doesn’t miss you. Elysium is like a happy dream kind of place. She’s just hanging out, having fun, and reminiscing about you sometimes. That’s all.”
Frank started tearing up, and she wiped down the coffee table a couple more times to give him space to process. She wished she could feel that fondly about her mother, but they hadn’t even hung out together in Asphodel, and they’d practically been neighbors. Her mom had finally told her she loved her, right as they’d both been dying, and Hazel had repaid her by giving up Elysium so that her mom could stay in Asphodel and not suffer. After that, though, she hadn’t felt much like seeing her. She’d had Sammy, and that was enough.
She glanced up at Frank, who was smiling with tears in his eyes. He was a pretty big, buff guy for his age, but he definitely wasn’t afraid to express his emotions. Nico was emotional, too, but in a more self-absorbed, dramatic sort of way-- Frank was just a solid, decent person, and charming in his sincerity.
She really, really liked him. Was it moving too fast to think they could be more than friends?
“Frank, if you ever want me to summon her shade so that you can speak to her, just ask,” Hazel said. “I’ll do it for you.”
He seemed stunned by the suggestion, but he nodded.
“I think I need to mentally prepare for that a little. But at some point, yeah, I’ll take you up on it.” He went over to the couch and sat down next to her. “I’m really glad I met you today,” he said.
“Me too,” she said, looking up at him. He had beautiful dark brown eyes, almost black, like Nico’s. Was it way too soon to have a crush on somebody? She’d just gotten to Camp that morning. Then again, cute guys were half her motivation for wanting to come to Camp in the first place. If she was going to get killed in a war with Gaea in a few months, she didn’t have time to waste.
Did she want to kiss him right now? That was crazy, right?
She had almost worked up the courage to go for it when there was a knock on the door.
She turned around.
“Who could that be?” She said. “He just moved in today.”
“Maybe the neighbors came to say hi?” Frank said. “Or… Oh crap, do you think Reyna sent someone after us? Are we in trouble?”
“We are really, really late,” Hazel said anxiously. “But if we’re with Nico, we can’t get in trouble for that, right?”
“But he’s not here anymore!” Frank said.
Hazel mentally prepared herself to get court martialed. Then she opened the door.
“Hi,” said a familiar voice.
“Annabeth?” Hazel’s jaw dropped. “What the hell are you doing here?”
“Long story,” Annabeth said, hefting her duffel bag on her shoulder. She looked exhausted, but there was a gleam of pure triumph in her eyes. “But I need a place to stay. Is Nico here?”
“He’s not home,” Hazel said. “Did he invite you? He didn’t mention--”
“Nope. Surprise visit,” Annabeth said, barging in. “Oh. Hello, there,” she said to Frank.
“Hi,” Frank said, waving.
Annabeth looked over her shoulder at Hazel.
“You work fast, girl,” she said, raising her eyebrows.
“He’s just a friend,” Hazel blurted out, blushing. “Look, Annabeth, maybe we should call Nico and ask about this.”
“Fine, but I’m not going anywhere,” she said. “Percy is at the Wolf House. I’m dead certain of it. And I’m not leaving until I know he’s okay.”
Hazel couldn’t believe what she was hearing.
“I don’t think you’re supposed to know about the Wolf House,” Hazel said. “I don’t you’re supposed to know about New Rome, either.”
“Let’s just say I know a thing or two about Olympian firewalls,” Annabeth said. “And I had access to my mom’s computer for a while. It really wasn’t that hard to find this place once I knew what to look for. And unless Nico wants to take responsibility for giving me the info that led me here, he’ll be putting up with me for a while.”
“But he just got this condo today!” Hazel said. “How did you find the address?”
“I’m just that good,” Annabeth shrugged. “Also, you guys smell like Percy when he and Grover get back from their ‘walks’ in the woods at Camp Half Blood,” she said. “Do they really let you smoke marijuana at Camp Jupiter? I know we’re in California, but still.”
“What’s Camp Half Blood?” Frank asked.
Frank and Annabeth already knew about Nico’s divinity. As far as Hazel was concerned, no other secret mattered nearly as much, and the camps coming together had been predestined. She and Annabeth explained everything that they could, but she and Frank were really incredibly late in getting back to Camp Jupiter. They ultimately had to make the call to leave Annabeth in Nico’s apartment alone after only a few minutes of catching up. Hazel didn’t have a phone, so she had to trust that Annabeth would call him and get in touch-- and she wasn’t sure that Annabeth wouldn’t find it funnier to surprise him. But she took Frank’s hand and shadow traveled back to the barracks, bracing herself for whatever would come.
To their surprise, none of the centurions said a word-- they were holding an emergency meeting when they arrived, and didn’t see when Frank and Hazel slipped into their barracks and tried to act like they’d been there all night. Other than a couple of quips from other probationes about a visit to the Temple of Bacchus, no one seemed to take notice of them at all.
The next morning, Hazel was shaken awake. It was Frank.
“Hey, sleepy,” he whispered. “I’m supposed to escort you to work today.”
She dragged herself out of bed-- she hated early mornings-- and was delighted to find that Frank had gotten her a coffee. It was terrible Keurig coffee, nothing like Nico’s stovetop brew, but it was a sweet gesture nonetheless.
They shadow traveled to the Temple of Jupiter where Octavian worked as augur. Hazel walked into the Temple, at first absorbed in merely looking around at the bright golden grandeur of the temple itself. Every surface gleamed, proclaiming the glory of Jupiter everywhere she looked. She couldn’t imagine the work it took for the legionaries to keep everything that clean and shining all the time.
She stopped in her tracks when she got to Octavian’s work area, which was off to one side. Based on the blood stains, he performed his haruspicy on the altar in front of the statue of Jupiter enthroned, but he was working at a desk out of view of the entrance when she approached him.
The moment he looked up from the computer, she recognized him.
She’d seen him sacrifice a bull in a Mithraeum on Capri!
He stared at her, clearly recognizing her, too, and they both waited, frozen, unsure what to do next.
He was an agent of Gaea. She was certain of it. She’d seen him with Luke and Ethan that fateful day-- both of them traitors who’d been resurrected for the purpose of serving Gaea’s evil plans. Although it was possible that Octavian had wanted to worship Mithras on his vacation, and had coincidentally run into the two of them and teamed up for a one-time thing without really knowing them, that was unlikely. The Greco-Roman world was small, and there was little room for coincidence.
She swallowed. There was no way that her obvious shock and hesitation hadn’t given her away; he would now see her as a threat to him, and be constantly wondering what she knew and didn’t know. She was in danger every second she was near him. But what were her options? How did she stay safe when he had constant access to her, even while she slept?
She clenched her fists and dug her nails into her palms. She wasn’t in this alone. She’d gotten this job for a reason, and she was at this camp for a reason, and it was her destiny to fight Gaea in a few months. She didn’t have the time to fuck around with this guy.
“Nico,” she thought silently to herself. “You’ve had my back this far. Please keep it up.”
“Hi,” she said, walking up to Octavian and speaking as confidently as possible. “I’m Hazel Levesque. I think you met my brother yesterday.”
Octavian visibly swallowed.
“I did,” he said. “Yes. I assume you’re here for your first day of work? Let me show you what you’re here to do.”
He walked her over to a workstation in the corner, where the materials for amulets had been laid out-- what he’d guessed were the materials, anyway. “Anything else you need, Frank will get you.”
Hazel glanced up at Frank, Octavian’s three-days a week bodyguard. He winked at her, and she smiled. He wouldn’t let Octavian hurt her, that was for sure.
Octavian stood over her desk like he wanted to say something else, but hesitated.
“Yes?” She said innocently.
“Just, uh,” he said, licking his lips anxiously. “I have to go to a meeting. Don’t touch anything on my desk. If you do, I’ll know. And remember, Jupiter is always watching,” he gestured weakly at the statue.
She raised her eyebrows.
“He certainly is,” she smiled.
Octavian looked confused and frustrated by her. She could tell that he’d rather she say something about Capri, which made her more determined not to.
“I’ll be back soon,” he added, grabbing his helmet from his desk. “Reyna’s just overreacting as usual. There’s a new demigod with Lupa right now. Says he’s the son of Neptune.”
Hazel and Frank watched him storm out with one last anxious glance at Hazel over his shoulder.
“A son of Neptune,” Frank said. “That’ll be interesting.”
Chapter 57: About Damn Time
Chapter Text
Jim Dodds, Will’s grandpa, was staring daggers at Nico from across the dinner table. Nico took a sip of water and tried to look elsewhere, but it was hard not to feel like he was on trial.
He looked at the young woman sitting next to him, Will’s best friend Kayla, who he’d been introduced to for the first time that evening. She was petite and very pretty, with a deep tan and long, shiny black hair in a high ponytail.
She flashed a sympathetic smile at him. She had straight white teeth behind pink glossy lips, and flawless makeup-- definitely a stereotypical cheerleader, but in a nice way.
“So, Nico, what do you do for work?” She asked, kindly attempting to make the atmosphere around the table less awkward while Will was in the kitchen.
She was trying to be helpful, but her question left Nico totally blank. He couldn’t remember what he’d told Will he did for a living. Something in academics, he thought.
“Research assistant,” he said, guessing.
“At what school?” She asked.
He took a long drink of water to try to buy time to think.
“You’re very thirsty,” she observed.
“Uh, yeah, I guess I am,” he said, checking his phone, which had a clock with the Underworld time on his home screen. He still had a few minutes before the Underworld team meeting would start. When it did, he’d need to get in and get out before Will, Kayla, and Grandpa noticed he was gone.
The plan was for a magical mist image of Nico to walk out and get something from his car during dinner, just in time for Nico to give his presentation. That was a reasonable use of the mist-- no expectation of interaction, but also no chance anyone would think he was ditching the meal-- the car was parked just outside the window. He didn’t want Will to think for a moment that his mind was elsewhere. This dinner meant too much to him.
“We ready for food?” Will asked, walking out and putting plates of steak and potatoes in front of everyone except his grandpa. “You got really lucky,” he told Nico. “I almost made spaghetti before I remembered you probably aren’t a fan of canned tomato sauce.”
“I’d have been nice about it,” Nico said.
“Oh, yeah! Will said you’re originally from Italy,” Kayla said, starting to cut up her steak. “I went to Venice on a cruise once. It was really pretty.”
“That’s my hometown,” Nico said. “How was it? Other than being pretty?”
“I don’t know, it was really hot and crowded,” she said. “I didn’t appreciate it, I guess. Some parts were all flooded and you had to wear plastic bags on your feet to get around. But I’m sure it’s awesome in, like, other areas?”
Nico’s heart sank. He didn’t want to think of his poor city like that.
He checked his phone. He had less than a minute before the meeting was supposed to start. First, he’d planned a little test-run.
“Um, where’s your restroom?”
Will pointed down the hall, and Nico walked over and locked himself in the bathroom. He shadow traveled home, appearing on the balcony where the Cthonic gods and goddesses had assembled as usual. He immediately made the mistake of looking directly at Minos and accidentally making eye contact with him. Ouch.
After a few seconds of internally screaming, he realized everyone was looking at the two of them. Hypnos was giving him major side-eye, and Aeacus and Rhadamanthys closed ranks around their brother to shield him from Nico’s view.
Nico rolled his eyes. He didn’t have time for that crap. If Minos wanted to let everybody believe he’d cheated on him, that was his problem. Nico had nothing to apologize for, and he was determined to deliberately ignore Minos for the rest of the meeting. To the extent that was possible, anyway.
He stood to one side and listened to Hades and Persephone make some announcements. He’d worried that things would be awkward with her after the weird stuff with the photo album, but she smiled at him in her usual way. Maybe his dad had talked things over with her, and they were good now.
Morpheus and Hecate were happy to see him, at least, and Hecate even invited him over for boba when he had free time.
Thanatos swooped in late. Hades gave him a look, but didn’t call him out or try to give him a sticker for tardiness. He went to stand beside Nico, close enough that their arms just barely touched. He didn’t say a word, but his presence was deeply reassuring all the same.
Hades stood up and began to go over that week’s numbers, droning on and on monotonously.
“Do you have it?” He asked Nico suddenly.
“What?” Nico asked; he’d been zoning out, thinking about Will waiting on him at the dinner table. He wasn’t sure how long was too long to be in a bathroom, but it had been over five minutes, and he needed to get going.
“Your presentation?” Hades said, raising an eyebrow.
Nico had the flash drive in his pocket, but he pretended to pat all of his pockets with a look of dismay, like there wasn’t anything there.
“I forgot it. Let me grab it really quick,” he said, with his most charming smile. He disappeared.
He walked out of the bathroom and headed back out to Will’s dining room. Will’s grandpa was insisting on eating steak, even though Will was totally against it, and hadn’t even put any on his plate initially.
“You’re not supposed to have red meat, it lessens the efficacy of your medication and puts strain on your organs,” Will said, trying to take his plate.
“That’s too damn bad!” Grandpa said, eating a bite of steak vindictively.
“Nico, say something,” Will said. “Back me up.”
“Steak, uh, also has cholesterol?” Nico said, anxious to get back to the meeting. Grandpa turned on him angrily.
“God damn it, I’m not gonna sit here and get lectured on steak by a European!” He said.
Kayla giggled. Grandpa turned on her, too.
“What are you laughing at, shorty?”
Kayla was indeed very short, but she seemed unbothered by the comment. Will looked up.
“Sorry, guys,” he said. “He didn’t mean that.”
“I’m in control of my faculties!” Granpa said. “Quit mothering me, boy!”
Will ignored him and snatched away the steak, putting it back on the serving plate and leaving it in the kitchen.
“Doctor Stevens gave you a diet plan, and we’re following it,” Will said quietly, returning to his seat.
Grandpa Dodds was seething. Will probably controlled his grandfather’s diet strictly, if Nico knew him at all. He was very knowledgeable about nutrition, and undoubtedly he was right that eating steak was bad for his grandpa’s health. But his grandpa looked so disappointed. It was obvious he wanted to go into the kitchen and get his own steak-- or better yet, he probably wanted to leave the table entirely. But he seemed to have trouble standing up without help from his grandson. His cane had been left in the living room.
Nico hated that he’d been Will, not too long ago. Will should be cherishing his last few months with his grandpa, but instead, they were fighting over pills and chemo and diet plans that were doomed to fail. Nico hadn’t treated Bianca a whole lot better in the Underworld. He knew exactly how it felt to desperately try to save someone that didn’t want to be saved, and he didn’t envy the fallout Will would experience when he inevitably failed.
They ate quietly and awkwardly for a few minutes before Nico pretended like he’d just remembered the wine in his car. He went out to go and get it.
The second he was on the other side of the front door, he summoned the mistform that would be imitating him. To anyone looking out the window, it would appear that Nico was lingering at the car, rummaging in his trunk. The real Nico would swap places with it as soon as his presentation was over.
With the mistform ready, he shadow traveled back to the meeting.
“Look who deigned to grace us with his presence again,” Hades said. He was standing in front of the assembled gods, using a laser pointer to explain various numbers on a big projector screen. Nico felt everyone staring at him, and, stupidly, he glanced at Minos again. He looked away as soon as possible, but he knew everyone had noticed.
“Found it,” he said, holding up his flashdrive. He went up to where Persephone had her laptop hooked connected to the magical projector. She was standing there, setting up her own presentation while Hades finished talking through his, and as he stood beside her, Nico remembered their last interaction-- was there nobody at this stupid meeting he wasn’t on weird terms with right now?
She didn’t seem aware of the awkwardness he felt. She smiled at him like everything was fine, and stepped aside so that he could plug his flash drive into the laptop.
Something flickered at the back of his mind. It was like someone had moved in his peripheral vision, but when he looked back, everyone was in the same place they’d been before. He saw Minos again. Why did he keep doing that? The man’s big stupid brown eyes were magnetic or something.
Wait. When he looked away, for a second, it had looked like Will was standing there. But when he looked up again, it was just Minos. But when he looked away, and didn’t focus…
“Nico?” Will said, looking at him with a hesitant smile.
“Yes?” He said.
“It’s time for your presentation, dear,” Persephone said, nudging him up to the front of the crowd.
Nico got up in front of the screen and pulled up his Powerpoint presentation, his mind working at a thousand miles an hour. He knew he was here, clicking on the first slide, reading off the first bullet point. But at the same time, he heard Will talking to him.
“I just wanted to make sure you weren’t making a run for it,” Will said, scuffing his suede boot on the driveway. “I wouldn’t blame you. I know it’s tense in there.”
Nico’s mouth went dry mid-sentence. His heart was racing. How was it that he could be in the Underworld, reading off a boring Powerpoint, and know exactly what Will was saying to him? Suddenly, he could smell Will’s pine-scented cologne wafting off of him, and feel the metal of the trunk of his car under his hands. He slammed it shut.
The feel of the hot metal, the reverberations of the slam-- he could feel it in his fingers, even as he stood in the cold of the Underworld. Something very strange was happening, and he didn’t know what to do about it.
“Sorry, the slide seems to be frozen, one second,” he muttered, pretending to fiddle with the presentation clicker. He needed to buy himself time. What the hell was happening to him?
“I’m not going anywhere,” he told Will, back in Texas. “I was looking for the wine. I must have forgotten it.”
He wasn’t sure how he was talking only to Will and not just blabbering nonsense in front of the Cthonic assembly, but he was.
“Grandpa shouldn’t drink anyway,” Will shrugged. “Thank you for doing this. I know it’s not our usual thing.”
Nico had only tried to respond to Will so that he could get him to leave. He desperately wanted to end the weird split-screen in his brain. But he was too freaked out to think straight, and instead of, ‘Go back inside, now, dude, I’m going insane or something,’ he said, “I’m glad I can help.”
Hades cleared his throat loudly, and Nico started reading and clicking through slides as quickly as he thought he could get away with. Luckily for him, gods were not that different from humans, in that they didn’t pay attention in work meetings at all. No one seemed to notice anything off about him from the outside, even though on the inside, he was paralyzed by confusion and shock.
“My first slide is about the interest payments from Poseidon, which represent pure profit,” he said, clicking through some bullet points about the Margaritaville franchises. “I also have a new project idea for blood diamonds. You know the ones that grow by the Elysium staircase with the liquid blood inside?”
“I love those,” Hecate said. “They go great on a salad.”
Just when Nico felt like he was starting to focus exclusively on the Underworld again, Will reached out and touched his arm. The sun was beginning to set in Texas, and the vast blue sky had a pink and purple hue coloring the wisps of clouds like cotton candy. Will’s sun-kissed skin and the scattered freckles on his cheeks made him look beautiful in the golden light. It eased Nico’s mind just to look at him, which was important, because at the moment Nico was tempted to run from both situations and go hide in a hole somewhere. He was rejecting this new dual reality with every fiber of his being, yet his brain was accepting it in spite of his protests.
“I get it if you’re mad that I invited Kayla without telling you,” Will said. “I wanted her here in case… You know, in case you couldn’t make it.”
“I thought if we started farming the blood diamonds and turning them into jewelry, a sort of limited availability, short term drop, we could make a huge profit and gain a reputation boost in godly circles,” Nico said, pointing at the projected profit margins with the laser pointer. He spoke loudly, and realized that for some idiotic reason, he was trying to talk over Will so that he couldn’t hear him. It didn’t work like that, but he was getting desperate. The longer this went on, the more obvious it became that this was really happening, that he was in two places at once. And the implications of that were unthinkable. He was trying really hard not to look at Minos. He didn’t want to think about whether Minos had been right…
But what if he’d been right?!
Nico glanced up at his dad, who was stroking his short beard and nodding with approval at the financial projections on the screen. At least something was going the way he’d planned it. It was a good presentation, but Nico almost wished one of the gods would notice that he was split between two locations and try to help him get back to normal. His poker face that day must have been especially good, but it was bad timing-- he felt like he was drowning in front of a bunch of lifeguards.
He handed the presentation clicker to Persephone and went to stand in the back of the meeting. Only a few more minutes, and then he could go back to normal. As normal as his life could ever be, he realized. He was in deep, deep trouble, and he had no idea what to do.
“I almost didn’t come,” he told Will. “I’m sorry. I just… My life is a lot right now.”
He was in two places at once. ‘A lot’ hardly touched it. Back in the Underworld, the meeting seemed to be wrapping up, so he decided to just ditch a little early. It took a moment’s concentration, but he managed to rejoin the two halves of his mind together, into one very scared and confused whole. He’d expected to feel relieved, but instead, he now had twice as much energy to put into completely losing it.
He swallowed a rising sensation of panic in his chest, fighting off the urge to cry. He wouldn’t freak out. He’d get through dinner, and go home and have his breakdown there. He had to stick it out just a little longer.
Will patted his shoulder.
“I know you’ve got other stuff going on,” he said. “You seem like you have a lot on your mind. It’s okay if you need to leave.”
“It’s not,” Nico said. “You made time for me during finals week. I’ve got no excuse.”
“It’s really okay,” Will said. “Long distance is hard. You fly out here all the time. I know it must be time consuming and expensive. You never ask me to come see you, so I feel like I owe it to you to be flexible.” Saying that, it didn’t look like he meant it. Nico knew he’d be devastated if he left.
“It’s not about long distance,” Nico said. “It’s my personal stuff that’s getting in the way. You just met me at a very strange time in my life.”
“Fight Club,” Will laughed.
“No, I’m not in a fight club,” Nico said. “It’s work, and family, and… Everything.”
“Fight Club is a movie,” Will said. “Are you okay? You’re breathing weird.”
“Am I?” An intrusive and horrifying thought slammed into Nico. Did he even need to breathe? Why was he bothering if he was a god? Was he a god? What was happening to him?
“Now you aren’t breathing at all,” Will said, pressing his fingers against Nico’s wrist. He wondered if Will could tell how cold everything had gotten all of a sudden. It was warm in Texas, but he felt like he’d just plunged into his dad’s ice tub.
“What’s going on? Are you good?” Will asked.
“I’m fine,” Nico said, his brain working at a million miles per hour. “I think I forgot how to breathe and my body is shutting down. But I’m fine.”
“Yeah, you’re having a panic attack,” Will said.
Nico felt a terrifying sense of doom overcome him. His vision started going white at the edges, and he didn’t know if he ought to sob or scream. Just when he felt like he was heading past the point of no return, Will reached out and wrapped him in a hug.
“Just breathe with me,” Will said, speaking calmly into his ear. The warmth of his arms pressed into Nico’s back, grounding him in reality. “I’m here. You’ll be alright.”
Nico pressed his face into Will’s neck, forcing himself to breathe in time with Will. Feeling his heartbeat and the rise and fall of his chest helped him regulate his breathing, and his heart slowly stopped pounding.
“I don’t know what you’re going through right now,” Will spoke into his ear. “But you can tell me, no matter what it is. And if you need to go home, I won’t be mad. I promise.”
Nico held onto Will so tightly that Will made a noise of pain. He relaxed his hold on him and looked at his boyfriend’s kind, perfect face.
“I love you,” he said. For the first time, he really meant it.
“I love you too,” Will said.
“I came here for you today,” Nico said. “I’m gonna stay.”
“Are you sure? Do you want to talk about it?”
“No, no. It’s stupid work stuff. I don’t know why it’s getting to me like this,” Nico said. “Forget about me, I’ll be fine.”
“Alright, if you’re sure,” Will said. “Must be a stressful job.”
“My boss is literally Hades,” Nico said.
“Yikes,” Will laughed, taking his hand as they headed back inside. “Sounds rough.”
Nico held his hand like a lifeline. He thought he’d been coming over to support Will, but he’d been the one that needed support. He thanked the fates that he’d had this realization while he was with someone he loved, even if he couldn’t tell Will the full story.
“He forgot the wine,” Will announced as they returned to the dining room. “It’s okay, I told him we didn’t need it.”
“No problem. We’re not fancy types around here,” Kayla said, cracking open her third can of Coke.
They ate in silence for a few minutes, and the food helped Nico to feel more grounded in the moment. Whatever had happened earlier, he was the same person he’d been that morning. There was no emergency, and no need to panic. He kept reassuring himself of that as he ate his medium rare porterhouse that was the size of his head. The ranch didn’t mess around when it came to steak.
“Are you okay, Nico? You look a little stressed,” Kayla said. “It’s really okay about the wine.”
“Fine,” he said. “Just got a lot on my plate at work right now. I almost wasn’t able to make it today, but luckily, it worked out.”
As if to punctuate the statement, his phone rang. He took it out and looked at it, but it was just his dad. He hit ignore.
“You never told me what kind of research you do,” Kayla said.
“A little bit of everything,” Nico said. His dad called again, and he flipped his phone over. “At the moment I’m doing a project involving rare minerals.”
“What kind?” Will asked.
“Diamonds,” he said. “A unique kind found in a very remote location.”
“Blood diamonds, probably,” Grandpa said.
“Yes, they are. How did you know?” Nico asked curiously. Maybe they were more common than he thought.
“Nico travels all over the world,” Will said loudly, changing the subject. “You spent most of the Fall in Greece, right?”
“Wait, seriously?” Kayla asked. “All those times he visited you, he had to fly out here from Greece?”
“Ridiculous waste of money,” Grandpa muttered.
Will’s face fell.
“Will is priceless,” Nico said. Will turned red, smiling bashfully.
“That’s so romantic,” Kayla said, grinning at her best friend. “I’m so happy for you guys. I’ve been dying for Will to find somebody.”
“I’m really lucky,” Will said.
“Would you get your damn head out of your ass?” His grandpa said. “I pegged Nico as a criminal the day I met him, and I ain’t changed that assumption one bit. And I told you I don’t want you dragged into his Godfather business.”
“Grandpa!” Will said. “There’s no Godfather business! He’s a research assistant.”
“Don’t worry, sir, my godfather is long dead,” Nico said, trying to de-escalate the situation.
It was too late. Will had helped his grandpa to his feet. He was being very gentle, treating him as though he were made of glass, but it was obvious he was embarrassed and angry with his remarks. They both left the room.
“You know he was talking about the movie, right?” Kayla asked.
“What movie?”
“The Godfather?” She said quizzically. “The famous one? He was trying to say you’re in the mafia.”
“Oh. It’s a movie about the mafia? But what do godfathers have to do with it?”
“You’re Italian American and you’ve never heard of that movie?” She said.
Kayla stared at him like there must be something deeply wrong with him. Nico was baffled. He didn’t know the movie, and he didn’t understand why, but he felt like he’d just given something away that he shouldn’t have. In all of his long, intimate conversations with Will, he’d never said anything that made Will look at him the way Kayla was looking at him now.
“I don’t watch a lot of TV,” Nico said. “I’ll have to add it to my list. But I promise I’m not in the mafia.”
“I know you’re not,” she said. She had a suspicious look in her eyes that made Nico feel really weird.
“I did have a sketchy internship last summer, so I get why someone might think that. I promise I’ve left that part of my life behind. They all want me dead now, anyway.”
Kayla nodded awkwardly and focused on eating her mashed potatoes.
“I’m so sorry,” Will said, hurrying back into the dining room. “He’s sick, you know, his temper is a lot shorter than it used to be.”
“No need to apologize,” Nico said. He realized that Will had escorted his grandpa to the next room to eat alone. It must have felt humiliating to be pushed around like that, especially when you were a man used to being in control of things. Jim Dodds had owned a cattle ranch his whole life, and his steak was now sitting on the serving plate untouched because Will had taken it from him. It gave Nico an odd feeling, like he ought to say something. The man was dying, after all, and Will didn’t realize how little time he had left. But Nico was there for Will, not for his grandpa. Maybe he shouldn’t interfere, he thought.
“You’re doing the right thing, Will,” Kayla said. “He’s so lucky to have a grandson like you. With all of your medical knowledge, you’re the best person to look after him right now.”
“Medical knowledge,” Will scoffed. “What medical knowledge? I got a B on my Biochem midterm. Med-school ain’t happening.”
“Considering what you’ve got going on at home, you’re doing great,” Nico said. “Don’t be so hard on yourself.”
“And you weren’t supposed to even take Biochem until next year. You’re still ahead of schedule,” Kayla added. “You’re going to kick the MCAT’s ass.”
“Wait, when are you taking that?” Nico asked.
“Next year,” Kayla said, at the same time that Will said, “Never.”
“Grandpa needs me,” Will said. “I can’t go back to school next semester.” Tears filled his eyes.
Nico went over to him and rubbed his back while he dried his face with a napkin.
“But you were born to be a doctor,” Nico said. “You’d be so great at it.”
“Yeah, back in high school you used to correct the nurse when she treated football injuries at practice,” Kayla said. “She got so that she could hardly stand you, you were so obnoxious.”
“She didn’t even know how to spot the difference between a rotator cuff injury and an injured acromioclavicular joint,” Will scoffed. “I don’t know, you guys. Maybe part of growing up is accepting that some things just aren’t meant to be. It’s important to grandpa that someone keeps the ranch running, and since I need to be here to take care of him, it just makes sense to focus on that right now.”
Will picked at his food for a moment, while Nico and Kayla both were at a loss for what to say.
“And when he’s gone?” Nico asked. “Then what?”
Will looked up at him, the familiar light of denial shining in his eyes.
“It’s not going to be anytime soon,” he said confidently. “Kayla and I talked to him about chemo before you got here. He seemed like he was gonna think about it some more. Sorry, I’d wanted you to chime in, but since he thinks you’re a criminal, you know…”
“I understand,” Nico said. He watched Will sadly, wondering if there was anything anyone could have told him that would have made him open to listening, back when he’d been determined to resurrect Bianca. He couldn’t think of anything, other than Bianca telling him herself.
That wasn’t out of the question, though. Maybe he could gain Grandpa’s trust, and they could get a plan together to talk to Will. He’d never forgive himself if Will had to suffer like he had, knowing he and his grandpa had been on bad terms at the end. He needed to intervene somehow, but it would be a delicate operation.
His phone rang again. He took it out and look at it. His dad had texted, “911 EMERGENCY.”
“Everything okay?” Kayla said. “Someone is blowing up your phone.”
“Just my dad,” Nico shrugged. He had two options-- Ignoring his dad wasn’t one of them, since Hades would come get him if he didn’t answer soon. He could leave Will’s dinner, even though he’d already missed part of it. Or he could do it again. Split himself in two and try to be in two places at once. Once he did it deliberately, there would be no option of calling it a weird fluke and trying to brush it off.
He watched Will stare down at his plate, his expression hollow and exhausted. He couldn’t skip out on him.
Tentatively, Nico took a tiny step towards splitting his consciousness. It was like shadow traveling, slipping through dimensional folds into darkness, while staying in his seat at the same time.
And then he’d done it. He was looking at the palace in the Underworld, while simultaneously eating a green bean in Texas. It felt too easy for something impossible.
“Don’t think about the implications,” he muttered to himself, walking towards the throne room. “Just be in the moment. Be in two moments. Oh, gods. Okay, don’t think about being in two moments…”
Luckily for him, Kayla and Will started reminiscing about high school, and the part of him that was in Texas could relax and just eat robotically. He’d have been able to converse just fine, but he was more comfortable limiting his activity on one side. The full scope of this new capability was too terrifying to confront, and artificially limiting himself felt reassuring for some reason.
His dad was in the throne room, tapping his fingers on the side of his throne.
“You’ve got a lot of nerve not taking my calls,” Hades barked at him as soon as he saw his son. “Just who do you think you are? You know, an obedient son would be here at my beck and call, day and night, waiting to be told how high he ought to jump.”
“I’m sorry,” Nico said. “I didn’t realize it was an emergency. Is everything okay?”
“Persephone wants to speak to you,” Hades said.
“Is something wrong? What happened?” Nico asked, alarmed.
“Nothing. She just wants to chat,” Hades said.
Nico sighed. He split his consciousness in half for this?
“Since when is that a ‘911 emergency’? I thought you were going to tell me Cerberus was sick or Kronos escaped or something horrible!”
“If Persephone wants something and does not have it, that is an emergency to me, and so it should be to you,” Hades said. “She’s in your room. Go. Now.”
There was no point arguing, so Nico headed to his room, where Persephone was standing in front of his bookshelf, paging through his copy of the Divine Comedy. She had a shimmering pink silk dress on, with a matching tiara made of chunky pink quartz crystals. She contrasted terribly with the black on black theme of his room, not to mention the skulls, but Nico would never want to change a thing about her-- she glowed like a rosy Himalayan salt lamp, making everything around her a little warmer, a little better.
“Hi, dear,” she said, smiling at him sweetly. She set the book down and picked up another book he didn’t recognize. “I brought you something. A little peace offering.”
“Peace offering?” He said, accepting the book she held out. “You didn’t need to give me a peace offering. It’s okay.”
“No, it’s not,” she said. “Take it. Look inside.”
He opened it. It was an album full of pictures of the two of them. There were photos with him and Cerberus, and him and his dad, but mostly, it was the two of them together.
“This is awesome. I didn’t realize we’d taken so many photos,” he said. “I can’t believe how long I’ve been here. It’s going on three years since I woke up, right?”
She nodded, watching him turn the pages of the new album.
“I’ve cherished every moment,” she said softly.
“It’s thanks to you that I’m even here,” he said. “I owe you my life.”
“You owe me nothing,” she said sincerely. “It’s a privilege to be a part of your story.”
Nico shut the album and gave her a hug.
“You are seriously the best stepmom anyone has ever had,” he said.
She sighed, and squeezed him tighter. It actually hurt his ribs a little bit, although he didn’t say anything. For someone of such small stature, her divine strength was nothing to mess around with.
“I’ll be honest,” she said, letting him go and looking him in the eyes. “Stepmom isn’t a title I relish hearing. I think I gave myself away back in Chania, but the truth is, I get jealous of Maria sometimes. She holds a part of you that I’ll never know. It makes me feel left out. Those feelings slipped out a little bit that day. I’m sorry you had to see it.”
“No, I’m sorry I got defensive instead of trying to talk it through,” Nico said. “I got a little bit scared that there was some side of you that resented her and you’d been hiding it. But I should have given you the benefit of the doubt. You’ve definitely earned it.”
“There’s no resentment,” Persephone said. “I like Maria. Your father has an intense personality. Any mortal woman who can deal with him certainly deserves my respect. No, I’ve spoken to your mother quite a bit, and we’ve come to an understanding on many things. There’s nothing you need to worry about regarding her.”
“I didn’t realize you two talked,” Nico said. He did recall that, when Persephone had brought Maria to the ill-fated family dinner, they seemed pretty comfortable with one another. “Huh. I guess that’s good.”
“How else would I get to hear stories about you as a baby?” Persephone asked, pinching his cheek. “I look at those pictures all the time. You were such a precious little cherub. You had your father’s eyes.”
Nico smiled at her, but internally, he was sort of hesitant about how he ought to feel. Did Persephone love him a little bit too much, or was this normal for blended families?
She went to his shelf and picked up his other album, the one his dad had made for him. She opened it to the second page, where there was a black and white photo of him in a sailor suit at age two.
“This is my favorite,” she said, grinning. “You were such a little grump! I wish I could go back and see you like that in person. I wish I’d thought to, at the time, but it wouldn’t have crossed my mind.”
“What did you think of me and Bianca back then?” Nico said. “Did you think of us at all, or did you not care?”
She closed the album.
“Did I care that my husband was breeding demigods for war and fulfillment of prophecy?” she said. “It seemed slightly cruel to you kids, but then again, I’d have supported anything that got him out of the palace a little,” she said. “Men need their little hobbies, you know.”
She knelt in front of his shelf and carefully placed the albums back, putting the older one in first, then the new one.
“You know, he never admitted to it,” she said, without looking back at Nico. “But I think your dad was hoping that one of you would win immortality in the war.”
“Of course,” Nico said. “It’s the ultimate honor for a demigod.”
“You know what I mean, though,” she said. For some reason she decided to tidy up the rest of the shelf too, and reorganize his other books. It was her palace, so he didn’t dare ask her to stop. “He wanted a child he could keep. Forever.”
That didn’t ring true at all. Hades might feel that way about him now, but all those years ago, Hades hadn’t been interested in his children as individuals. He’d treated Hazel like dirt. And even with their current relationship, he’d never pressured Nico to accept Persephone’s offer of immortality. He’d actually gone out of his way to make sure she hadn’t offered it to him at all, and had seemed relieved when he’d lacked any interest.
Prophecies, wars, offers from Persephone-- none of that had ever mattered. While they’d been having this conversation, he’d been listening to his boyfriend in Texas ramble about parasites that could control your brain. Somehow, godhood happened, whether Hades liked it or not.
Now would have been a smart time to ask Persephone about it, but he couldn’t bring himself to say it out loud. She’d be thrilled, but it wasn’t something he was ready to see as a positive yet. It felt like the weight of the world was on his shoulders, and he was paralyzed with fear. He didn’t know what he was afraid of exactly, but he was internally shaking like a leaf and trying hard not to think too much about it.
He glanced at his stepmom, and watched her color code his books on monsters and folklore-- books from his demigod studies. He hadn’t needed them. Monsters had never bothered him, not even once, unless he’d sought them out on his own. He’d been so blind for so long. What was the matter with him?
A thought crossed his mind as he watched her. What if Persephone had done this to him? But he dismissed the idea. He wasn’t going to start flinging accusations willy nilly. He didn’t know for a fact that it was anyone’s fault. He hadn’t heard of anyone other than Zeus deifying demigods, and he certainly wasn’t responsible for Nico’s situation. He’d need to do more research. For all that he knew, it had been an accidental effect of the ambrosia.
At least, he hoped it was accidental.
“Nico?”
“Hm?”
“You got very quiet all of a sudden,” she said. “Something on your mind?”
“No, nothing,” he said. “That looks good,” he said, gesturing at the bookshelf, now arranged in a rainbow color gradient.
“Yes, I think so,” she said, standing and admiring it. “I’ve been thinking of popping by your place in Chania and doing a little bit of landscaping. I think an herb garden and a few rosebushes would just brighten the place up, don’t you? Would you want to join me? We could talk a bit more,” she said, looking up at him hopefully.
“I’d love that, but I have a thing right now,” he said. Kayla was getting ready to leave, and he’d soon be alone with Will and his grandpa. He needed to be 100% present with them, and he felt guilty enough that he hadn’t been for most of the evening already. “Rain check?”
“Sure, dear,” she said, kissing him on the cheek. “I’ll let you get back to whatever it is. You’re too busy! I want to see more of you!”
“I know. I’ll try,” he said, watching her leave. He heaved a massive sigh of relief once she’d gone, and glanced back at his bookshelf. He’d had them arranged the way he wanted them, and now his system was messed up. He didn’t dare mess with it, though. It was her house, he was just living there.
He merged back into one person. That felt awful. Physically fine, but psychologically horrific.
“It was really good to meet you, Kayla,” he said, hugging her goodbye at the door.
“You too, Nico,” she said. “I’m glad Will has you in his life. Try not to get him mixed up in any mafia stuff, though.”
Will slipped his hand into Nico’s as they watched her walk out to her car.
“I hope the mafia jokes didn’t bother you,” he said. “Us Texans aren’t known for our political correctness.”
Nico bit his lip and looked at Will.
“Do you think I’m a criminal?” He asked, looking into Will’s eyes. They were the color of bluebells, expressive, and full of compassion.
“Nah,” Will said. “I know you are. I just don’t care.” He smiled like that had been a joke, but they both knew it wasn’t.
Nico had no right to expect anything different, he supposed. He’d thrown around way too much money when they’d first met, and he had trouble keeping his story straight about his job. If Will thinking he was in the mob kept him from asking about Nico’s family too much, then it was only to his benefit.
“Come on, Tony Soprano,” Will said. “Help me clean up this kitchen.”
“I don’t know who that is,” Nico muttered.
They cleaned up all the dishes and put away the food. Nico kept glancing at the steak that hadn’t been eaten, but he didn’t say anything. He saw how sad Will looked when he put it away.
“I almost let him eat it,” he said, closing the fridge door. “But what if it makes a difference? How can I live with myself if he dies and it’s my fault for letting him--”
“Don’t think like that,” Nico said, taking him by the arm. “It doesn’t work that way. When it’s his time, it’s his time, that’s all.”
“I know you mean well, but that isn’t true,” Will said. “He’s beaten cancer twice. I know no one lives forever, but I want a few more years together. I want him to see me graduate. Or I would, if I wasn’t dropping out.”
“Mhm,” Nico squeezed his hand comfortingly, knowing there was no way that a few more years were going to happen.
“Come on, let’s go sit with him,” Will said. “The whole reason you’re here is to get to know him. Unless you need to hit the road?”
“Nope. I’m here for as long as you need me,” Nico said, kissing his cheek.
They grabbed some beers, went into the living room, and sat down to watch Bonanza with grandpa. Jim Dodds was half-asleep, and didn’t say much, but he made room for them on the couch.
Nico found the cowboy show very hard to focus on. Sitting in the quiet room, holding Will’s hand, gave him too much time to think, and that was the last thing he wanted to do.
He looked around his surroundings. There were bottles of pills on the side table, and pages and pages of medical paperwork scattered on the coffee table. Nico wondered how much of Grandpa’s exhaustion came from his body shutting down, and how much was the fault of the American healthcare system.
He leaned over and picked up a notebook that was lying on the coffee table. It was color coded, covered in notes, a detailed schedule of medications and dosages, vitamin supplements, and a diet plan.
“This is detailed,” Nico said.
“I did a lot of research,” Will said, with a quick glance at his grandfather. Nico doubted grandpa was taking the plan seriously. He obviously didn’t care about his diet.
“Mr. Dodds, what do you think about Will’s plan to drop out of school?” Nico asked.
Will cringed in his seat.
“I hadn’t told him,” he said.
“What did you say?” His grandpa asked. He’d been half asleep, but he sat up, adjusting his blankets and glaring at his grandson. “What in the hell are you thinking? You’re not dropping out!”
“Someone has to stay here and look after you,” Will said calmly. “I can’t juggle school and your care at the same time. Once you get better, maybe--”
“You’re an idiot,” Grandpa said. “You’ll stay your ass in school or so help me god, I’ll throw you out of this house. I’m not giving free room and board to men who aren’t trying to better themselves.”
“You’re not listening to me,” Will said. “You’re sick, you need help!”
“I don’t need anybody’s goddamn help!” Grandpa roared, coughing. His voice was weak and hoarse, but it didn’t lesson the fire in his voice.
Will was furious, but he controlled his temper admirably. Nico could never be so even-keeled in such an emotional discussion.
“My decision’s been made. You’re obviously not feeling well,” Will said quietly. “I’m going upstairs. I’ll come back to help you to bed later.”
He stomped up the stairs, Nico following after.
“I’m so sorry,” Nico said. “I didn’t know you hadn’t told him.”
“Bullshit,” Will said, turning to face him on the stairs. “You’re trying to stop me from dropping out. I didn’t invite you here so you could make things harder for me.”
“Will, please,” Nico said, trying to catch his arm. “I’m sorry.”
Will pulled away.
“Just go,” he said, slamming his bedroom door and shaking the house.
Nico sat down on the staircase to think. He could go up and knock on Will’s door, be persistent and try to apologize some more. It would probably work. But he’d already been there for hours, and it had been a long, stressful day for Will. It might be kinder to let him rest and call in the morning.
He pulled out his phone and texted Will.
“I’m really sorry,” he wrote. “I shouldn’t have done that. I’ll head home, but I hope we can talk tomorrow. Get some rest.”
He finished the text off with a heart emoji and sent it out, then put his phone away.
Was it terrible that he was sort of relishing this? The arguing, the tension, the emotions running high-- he’d found the perfect distraction from the realization he’d been trying to block out all night. Unfortunately, drama was very much his comfort zone. Godhood was not. And Will’s problems seemed so small and normal compared to his.
Despite Will being mad at him, he was still determined to help. But there was someone in the house who needed his help even more.
Nico went into the living room, where Grandpa was resting on the couch.
“Are you still hungry?” He asked.
Grandpa looked up at him, confused.
“What do you want?”
“I asked if you’re still hungry,” Nico said, folding his arms across his chest. “You’d better hurry up and tell me before Will comes back down here.”
Grandpa nodded gruffly, and Nico went into the kitchen and heated up the leftover steak. He added mashed potatoes and gravy to the plate and brought it to the living room.
“Thanks,” Grandpa said quietly, taking his plate. He started cutting up his steak and eating it slowly, savoring every bite.
“No problem,” Nico shrugged. “Do you want anything else?”
“A fifth of Jim Beam,” Grandpa said hopefully.
Nico got him that, too.
“I’ll keep working on Will,” he said, sitting next to the old man and handing him the glass. “But I don’t think he’ll change his mind. Even if he accepts that you’re going to die, he’s not going to school next semester. He’ll want to be with you. It’s the semester after that I’m worried about.”
Grandpa nodded like he’d already thought of that, too.
“He doesn’t need me anymore,” he said.
“He does need you,” Nico said. “But your needs come first right now. You don’t have much time left.”
Grandpa stared at the TV screen intensely, but Nico could see emotion play out across his weathered, sun damaged face.
“I’ve had a good run,” he said, his voice barely above a whisper. “Got nothing to prove anymore.”
“Of course not,” Nico said. “From the way Will talks, you’re a living legend. One of the last great cowboys. He won’t let you be forgotten.”
Grandpa didn’t respond to that. He turned his face away slightly so that Nico couldn’t see his expression.
“Will loves you more than anyone else in the world. And he’s willing to hurt you in the short term if he thinks it’ll make a long term possible. But there won’t be any long term. You only have a few months left. You can’t let him ruin them.”
Grandpa nodded.
“Don’t let him bully you. If you have to put some space between you temporarily, just do it. If you want a good death, and I can tell you do, that’s what it might take.”
“How the hell do you know so much about death at your age?” Grandpa asked.
“Lots of personal experience,” Nico said. “Don’t worry about it, just listen to me. I know what I’m talking about.” He thought back on the deaths he’d seen with Thanatos. The people who had exercised some semblance of control over the way they left the world made for easier, calmer shades. Grandpa would have that part covered; he seemed satisfied with the life he’d led. But Will’s emotions needed to be managed, too. They couldn’t part on bad terms; Nico simply couldn’t allow it.
“I’ll keep checking in on both of you,” Nico reassured Grandpa. “My suggestion for right now? Hire a nurse, and make sure they work for you, not Will. They can manage your food and meds the way you want. It’s going to make Will upset, but I think him playing nurse is driving you both insane.”
“Ain’t that the truth,” Grandpa said. “That’s not a bad idea,” he said, looking at him curiously.
Nico felt a fragile lightness enter his heart, like the weight of the world wasn’t quite so heavy. Illness and impending death were such simple, natural problems-- and so easily resolved. One day Will and his grandpa would meet again in the Underworld and laugh about all of this. He couldn’t tell them that, but he could use his knowledge to help in other ways. Focusing on them helped to take the edge off of his own problems that lurked, waiting to take over as soon as he left these cowboys alone.
He had no more excuse to hang around, so he went home and quietly covered his bedroom door in shadow, an indication to Persephone that he was in no mood for more lighthearted chats or bookshelf rearrangements.
Alone in the silent dark, he stood in front of his mirror and examined his reflection. Shaggy black curls, pale olive skin, eyes of abyssal darkness-- he was just a totally normal teenager. He wasn’t even that good looking. Well, that wasn’t really true-- he had to admit, he was pretty cute. But other than that, what was godly about him? An array of superpowers he’d never asked for? He wished he could turn them in and clock out. The heroic demigod life had never appealed to him. He definitely didn’t want to upgrade to the more advanced, permanent version. A quiet existence as a shade would have been perfectly fine, but that might now be forever out of his reach.
Nico laid in bed for a few days sulking. He kept the lights off in his bedroom, and only got up to flip records over on his phonograph. He tried to use Italian opera to drown out the thoughts crowding his mind, most of which were, ‘I am so stupid,’ over and over and over again. Part of him wished he’d realized this earlier, for the sake of his pride, but another part was glad he’d been spared the stress for so long. Hazel was safe, happy, and busy, so now was a good time to mope around and feel sorry for himself.
He lit a cigarette with shaky hands and closed his eyes, trying to focus on the familiar sensation of smoke filling his lungs, then exhaling. He watched the cloud of smoke drift upward and hover over his face in a grey haze. He’d smoked so many that if he was mortal, he’d surely be dead by now.
He wasn’t going to panic and run to his parents for help like he had the last time he’d been worried about being a god. For one thing, he wasn’t questioning it anymore-- he knew it must be true. He didn’t want to hear them try to convince him otherwise. For some reason, Hades and Maria didn’t seem to have a clue. His dad might have been lying to him about it, but he didn’t think that was the case.
He was trying to understand it, but it felt too big to wrap his head around the concept. If he was a god, what did that mean? What was a god? They just seemed like normal people to him, but immortal, with way too much power, and sometimes too much responsibility. In reality, he still didn’t know the answer.
More importantly, why was he a god? Obviously he had to investigate, but that would require getting out of bed.
“Nico, where is my helm of darkness?” Hades called out from down the hall.
“I have it,” Nico responded.
“Why do you--”
“I’m working on a project for Hazel!” Nico said, sighing in exasperation. He needed to brood for a few more days and get his head together, and now his dad was coming to interrogate him, which was the last thing he needed.
“What sort of project could you possibly be working on?” Hades asked, barging into his room without knocking. “And would you turn down that awful racket? Some of us have to work for a living.”
Nico reached out and lifted the needle on the phonograph, stopping the music.
“Those earrings don’t work,” Nico said. “They never did. We talked about this.”
“Yes, when you interrupted my bath time to claim that you were turning into a god, I remember. Please tell me you’re not attempting to copy my helm’s invisibility magic and enchant the earrings yourself?”
“Why not?” Nico asked. “Athena did it.”
“You’re hardly Athena,” Hades said, frowning. “These worries about divinity are growing very repetitive, you know,” he said, leaning against the doorframe.
“I didn’t say I was worried,” Nico snapped.
“Why else would you be lying here, rotting away in the dark?” Hades said. “Do you have some other reason to be depressed that I don’t know about? Last I heard, Hazel was thriving and you had a good looking boyfriend. That should be all your boxes checked. Don’t tell me something happened to your expensive car?” Hades gasped mockingly.
“You’re being a jerk,” Nico said. “I do have problems.”
“Your generation has no idea what real problems are,” Hades snorted derisively. “Try living inside your evil titan father for a few thousand years, then we’ll talk about problems! I’ve never even once tried to eat you. You’d think there would be a little gratitude, but I suppose that’s too much to ask.”
He reached under Nico’s bed and dragged out the helm of darkness from where he’d shoved it among the dust bunnies.
“If you ever take this without permission again, you’ll regret it,” Hades said, shaking the helm at Nico threateningly. “Go and get some work done, you’ll feel better.”
Nico shuffled over to his office and finished some emails, and, regrettably, his dad was right-- it did make him feel better. Whatever this whole god thing was about, it was going to take a while to get used to the idea. He resolved that he’d keep it to himself for the time being. He didn’t think he could take any more of his dad’s gaslighting at the moment, and Persephone would just be too happy about it.
Persephone… If he were to investigate how he might have become a god, she ought to be the number one suspect. She’d had the motive and the opportunity to do it. But he’d promised himself he’d start giving her the benefit of the doubt. Besides, why would she have offered to make him immortal if she knew it had already happened?
He wasn’t ready to start thinking in terms of culprits. He’d heard of people spontaneously developing peanut allergies as adults. Maybe godhood was like that; random and extremely unfortunate.
He stared at the computer screen, watching the death numbers rack up and up and up. Thanatos must be working really hard. Nico wished desperately that he could go and see him work, but he’d just slow him down, and they needed the numbers boost if they were going to meet their target for the week.
Suddenly, the numbers stopped changing. A grin stretched Nico’s face.
“How did you know I was thinking about you?” Nico asked, spinning around in his desk chair.
“No idea,” Thanatos shrugged, shaking dust off the bottom of his mantle. “How are my numbers?”
“On track. Could be better,” Nico said, showing him the screen. “You were slacking last Tuesday.”
“I was with you last Tuesday, watching television,” Thanatos said.
“Don’t use me as an excuse.”
Thanatos rolled his eyes.
“Hey, so, um,” Nico said. “I’ve got something I need to tell you.” He had absolutely not planned to tell Thanatos, but now he realized he couldn’t not tell him.
“Oh,” Thanatos said. “I have something I need to tell you as well.”
“You go first. Does this have to do with the hospital at Camp Jupiter?” Nico asked. He gasped. “Is this about Rosa Bova? Please tell me! I need to help her!”
“I think it’s actually something I should show you,” Thanatos said. “But go ahead and say your thing.”
Nico swallowed, feeling extremely nervous all of a sudden. He didn’t know why he ought to feel that way, but he couldn’t help it.
“I’m a god,” he said, his heart thudding in his chest.
He watched Thanatos’ face for any sign of his reaction.
“Really?” Thanatos said, looking at Nico skeptically. “But you don’t do anything.”
Nico folded his arms across his chest.
“Yes, really,” he said. “You think that’s something I would say lightly?”
“No, I know it isn’t,” Thanatos said, his voice softening. “I’m just trying to think what you could be the god of. There has to be an ‘of’.”
“I don’t know,” Nico sighed. He glanced at his computer. “Spreadsheets? Microsoft Outlook? Anxiety?”
“Very modern,” Thanatos nodded. “I suppose that could be it. I don’t know how it works. You know,” he said, his expression brightening. “This gives us a lot more time to play Mythomagic.”
“Yeah,” Nico laughed. “I guess it does.”
He suddenly felt a little more okay with everything. It couldn’t be all bad, right? Maybe he could be the god of collectible trading card games. They did say that when life gave you lemons, you should make lemonade.
There was a lingering feeling of doubt in his mind, like there was another shoe waiting to drop. There was a good reason he’d wanted to die a mortal death and hide out in Elysium for eternity. He had enemies, and powerful ones. Immortality gave them a lot of time to come up with ways to harm him and the people he cared about.
But at the moment, he could try to focus on the positive.
“Come on,” he said, standing. “Let’s go see Rosa. It’s about damn time.”
Chapter 58: Saving Rosa
Chapter Text
Nico and Thanatos appeared in a hospital hallway. There was a smell of antiseptic hanging in the air. Fluorescent lights made a faint buzzing noise and gave off an eerie white light. A nurse walked straight through Nico, giving no sign that she’d noticed his presence.
Nico looked at the signage on the walls, which was all in Greek.
“We’re not far from Litochoro,” he said. “I wonder how long she’s been here. Way too long, I think.”
“Shh,” Thanatos whispered, beckoning Nico over. He was standing in front of a wooden door with a small window, but he’d positioned himself to block the window from view.
“Before we go in,” he said. “Let me explain.”
“No way. Rosa has been in the hospital for months. You’d better not make her wait another second,” Nico insisted. Now that they were here, he was growing frantic to do something. No one should have to lie in a hospital bed for over six months waiting to die. It was impossibly cruel, and Rosa deserved better. “You need to kill this poor woman. And then you owe her an apology!”
“Would you shut up and let me explain?” Thanatos said, blocking with his arm when Nico attempted to shove him out of the way. “I've been here three times, but I can't detach her soul. It's tethered to her body by an invisible cord. Do you think I’m not desperate to get her off of my list? It won’t work. It’s like she’s broken or something.”
“She’s not broken,” Nico said firmly.
“Then I am!” Thanatos shouted, in a sudden loosing of tension that left Nico flinching in shock. Thanatos was distraught, his golden eyes wide with fear. This was why he’d put off telling Nico the truth. He was terrified something was wrong with him.
Nico reached out and took his hand, a peace offering. Thanatos looked down at their joined hands and relaxed somewhat, his wing feathers lowering a few centimeters.
“Has anything like this ever happened before?” Nico asked, forcing his voice to be more patient.
Thanatos nodded, brushing hair out of his face. His expression was haunted, his jaw tight and his teeth clenched. How long had he been carrying this burden?
“It’s happening all over the world, more and more every day,” he said quietly. “They die, and they appear on my list. I swoop in for the finishing touch and… Nothing. I can’t do anything. They just lie there, dead, but also slightly alive at the same time. Usually it’s temporary, and when I come back later, everything works the way it’s meant to. But sometimes…”
He glanced into the window. There was Rosa, a pale, dark haired woman on the bed, unconscious. Machines beeped around her, and she had wires and tubes sticking out from under the sheets, presumably attached all over her body.
“She's being kept alive by machines,” Nico said. “You won't be able to take her until they turn them off.”
“I knew they had something to do with it,” Thanatos hissed. “These damned doctors! I can’t stand them. They’re ruining everything.”
“Alright, calm down,” Nico said, pulling Thanatos away from the door. “I see what’s happening here. Look, I know you’re frustrated, but in situations like this, it’s usually the family members that are in control, not the doctors. They ask them to turn off the machines when they’re ready.”
“It’s not up to them!” Thanatos said. “I have a schedule! I waste so much time coming back over and over. And Hades wonders why I am behind.”
“Have you told anyone else about this?” Nico asked.
“I'm too ashamed,” Thanatos said, taking his hand back and rubbing his face, pushing his hair back “I thought if I was cleverer I'd find a way to take the soul regardless. I haven't thought of anything yet.”
“I think your only options are talking to the family or the doctors,” Nico said. “Or just ripping the plugs out of the wall yourself.”
“Physical intervention is forbidden,” Thanatos said, looking in the window and gazing at the electrical socket wistfully. “If I were to blur the line between a routine soul-taking and murder, the furies would eviscerate me. And I don’t talk to mortals. It never seems to go well for some reason.”
That was unsurprising. Thanatos was a tall, white skinned figure in a grey robe with wings. People probably ran screaming.
“No, buddy,” Nico said. “You’re too spooky.”
Thanatos sighed, looking dejected. Nico rubbed his arm.
“Let me take care of this one,” he said.
“Absolutely not,” Thanatos said. “If I tell you to unplug her, how is that any different than going in and doing it myself? We’ll both be in trouble.”
“I’m not unplugging anyone!” Nico said. “I’m going to talk to Maria. I know these people personally. Maybe I was meant to help you get this one crossed off your list. Maybe this is fate,” he added.
It was far more than fate. It was the direct intervention of the Catholic saints. But he couldn’t tell Thanatos that he was in service to their will. He preferred to think it was just coincidence that their goals were aligned when it came to the Bova family.
Thanatos thought about it for a second, then nodded.
“If they’re your friends, it should be fine for you to speak with them normally,” he said. “I don’t think it would be considered interference. Just don’t touch any wires.”
“I won’t, I promise,” Nico said. “Don’t worry. I’ll have that soul ready by tomorrow, no problem.”
“Psh,” Thanatos said. “I doubt that. It’s been months. She won’t give it up easily.” He paused, then said, sincerely, “Thank you.”
“Happy to help,” Nico said, smiling.
Thanatos disappeared with a flap of his wings, and Nico was alone in the hallway. He walked through the door, not willing to waste any more time.
He stood, frozen, on the threshold. Maria was in the room. She was sitting in a chair by the wall, angled so that he hadn't been able to see her from the small window in the door.
He swallowed. He’d become visible again when he’d walked through the door, on the foolish assumption that Rosa was alone in the room, and he wasn’t using the mist to conceal himself. Had Maria seen him?
He doubted it. She was hunched over in her chair, staring at the floor between her shoes. Actually, looking closer, he saw her hands moving, and heard a faint whispering. She was praying the rosary, passing the beads between her fingers over and over and over, reciting the familiar words of the prayer.
She must not have seen him enter, because her prayer was uninterrupted. It was no wonder the saints liked her so much.
Nico took a step toward her, moving quietly out of reverence for the somber atmosphere in the room. This beautiful young woman, praying beside her unconscious, dying mother, made for a heartbreaking scene.
“Maria?” He said quietly.
Her head shot up. She was pale, and she'd lost weight since the last time he’d seen her in his dreams. Her cheekbones and large brown eyes both stood out prominently in her face.
She didn't speak right away, just stared at him, her eyes wide with shock. She gripped the rosary beads in her hand like they were a lifeline.
“Maria, I'm so sorry,” he said, walking up to her. “How long has she been like this?”
“Six months,” she said quietly, her eyes leaving Nico's to look over at her mother. Nico could see Rosa better now. He saw the tube going down her throat and the machine breathing for her. His stomach clenched just looking at the number of wires surrounding her. Her heartbeat was displayed on a screen beside the bed, a slow beat displayed as a wavering line, weak, but alive.
In order to free her soul from its prison, that line would need to go flat.
He went over to Rosa and examined her body. She was thinner now than she’d looked in the dream, and she’d been corpse-like even then. Her skin was sallow and paperlike. He held his hand out to touch her arm gingerly, brushing her skin with the tips of his fingers. He felt her soul lying in wait, fluttering around like a butterfly caught in a net. It made him smile; Rosa was as energetic as ever, just in a different way than before. He looked forward to seeing her again as a shade, once she’d been freed from her prison of flesh.
He turned back to Maria.
“Can I sit with you?” he asked.
She nodded, and he sat down on the little plastic chair beside her. Sitting in the room again reminded him of the dream he’d had long ago, when he’d seen her sleeping on the floor. He noticed her blanket and pillow tucked away to the side.
Maria had been sleeping here for six months on this cold linoleum. He gritted his teeth, filled with anger.
He wasn’t sure who he was angry at, exactly. Thanatos had tried his best. The doctors were merely doing their jobs. Maria was the one choosing to keep Rosa alive artificially. The only person he could really be angry at was himself. He should have pushed Thanatos harder for the truth. He should have come sooner. He should have been here by her side every day until this torture was ended for both her and her mother.
“She had another heart attack a while ago. She had surgery, but there were complications. Things started going wrong one after another. They say there's nothing more they can do for her. They don't think she'll wake up,” Maria said. Her voice was robotic, like she was used to repeating that news.
Nico chewed his lip, staring at the floor. He couldn’t bear to look at Maria’s face; he felt too ashamed. She and Rosa had shown him hospitality, had treated him like an old friend when he’d been a lost stranger. They deserved so much better than this ugly fate.
“She's always been resilient,” Maria said. “I’m not ready to give up hope yet.”
“I understand,” Nico said. He could see her staring at him in his peripheral vision, but he didn’t meet her gaze. He wondered what she thought of him just randomly showing up. She hadn’t asked him any questions.
“I can tell you're not eating,” he sighed, reaching out and squeezing her wrist. It was bonier than he remembered. “Your mom would hate that.”
“I know, but I can't cook anymore. Standing in that kitchen is unbearable,” she said. “You're right. She'd be so disappointed in me.”
“It's okay. I get it,” he said. “Do you have anyone else looking after you? Any friends or family?”
“People visited at first,” she said. “But they said their goodbyes and left. The priest gave her the last rites a long time ago. My Zia wanted me to-- You know,” she gestured. “Tell them they can turn the machines off. We had a terrible fight. I can't do that to her. I just can't,” she said, breaking down in tears.
“I understand,” Nico said again. Words could hardly convey how deeply he knew exactly what she was feeling. He knew she was scared her mom was suffering, he knew she was tormented by visions of her mom opening her eyes and sitting up. He knew she resented being trapped in this limbo between life and death, and felt guilty for it. It was all too familiar.
He sat with her quietly until she recovered some composure. “Can I get you some water or anything?” He asked.
“I'm fine. It means so much to me that you’re even here. I’ve been so lonely,” she said, wiping her eyes. “It’s hard for me to leave her alone. I don’t get outside much.”
“I can stay here with her if you want to go out and get something to eat,” he suggested.
She shook her head no.
“Give me your phone number. If anything changes, I’ll call,” he said.
“I’m not hungry.”
“She'd want you to eat,” he insisted. “Something good, too. Sit down for a hot meal somewhere. Get a glass of wine. You deserve it.”
Maria looked at him hesitantly.
“Really? You wouldn’t mind?”
“Go,” Nico said firmly. He nearly had to push her out the door, but he managed to convince her to leave.
“Than?” He called out.
Thanatos materialized in front of him.
“You didn't convince her,” he said, his feathers drooping with disappointment.
“It’s going to take a lot more talking,” Nico said. “You don't have to wait on me. I’ll call you when it’s time to take her.”
Thanatos poked at Rosa's unconscious body a couple of times as though he could somehow shake it loose.
“Get your hands off of her,” Nico said, shadow traveling in order to position himself between Thanatos and Rosa’s bed. “Don’t touch her like that.”
“Sorry,” Thanatos said, taken aback by Nico’s sudden anger. “I get a little frustrated sometimes. There's so many like these. It's like they’re taunting me.”
“This isn’t about you,” Nico said. “The mortals are trying to keep their families alive, they’re not trying to make your job harder. I think you’re just mad that they’ve finally outsmarted you.”
“That isn’t fair,” Thanatos said. “I’m not the biggest fan of mortals, but even I can see that this is a hideous way to die. It used to be that everyone was at home in their bed. Or in fields. Battle, barley, corn, hay, whichever. At least they could see the sky.”
Nico glanced out the window. The only view was of a parking lot and a roadway. It was pretty bleak.
“Things are different now,” he said.
“Unfortunately,” Thanatos said. “If you manage to convince the girl to release this soul, would you be willing to help with the others on my list?”
Nico swallowed. He could only imagine how many souls were waiting in hospitals like this. It would be the work of multiple lifetimes. Helping strangers would be a lot harder than talking to someone he already knew. Convincing Maria would be difficult enough.
“Let's talk about it after I'm done with this one,” he said. “There's a chance I won't be able to pull it off.”
Thanatos nodded.
“I’ll go collect the souls I can, then. I wish you good luck,” he said. “Thank you, Nico.”
Thanatos departed. Nico knew that this meant a lot to him-- admitting he was unable to do his job, to fulfill his purpose, must have been deeply humbling. But at the moment, he was too frustrated with both Thanatos and himself to appreciate how far they’d come. Maria and Rosa had suffered for way too long, and if Thanatos had been less prideful, or Nico had tried harder, maybe he could have helped them sooner.
Nico was left alone to wait for Maria to return, so he pulled up a chair beside Rosa’s bed and made quiet chitchat with her soul. Obviously she couldn’t respond, but he had a feeling she was able to hear every word.
Maria came back a little over an hour later. She had better color in her face and a box in her hand.
“I bought you some almond cookies as a thank you gift,” she said, holding them out to him. “Here.”
“You didn't need to do that,” he said. “Thanks. But I'm not eating any unless you have some,” he said, opening the box and shaking the cookies at her.
“Alright,” she said, accepting a cookie. She pulled her chair over next to his and stared at her mother’s sleeping face for a while. She looked deep in thought.
“What's up?” Nico asked her.
“Her doctor cornered me in the hall again. Prognosis discussions,” she said. “Nothing I haven’t heard a hundred times.”
“What do you think about her prognosis?”
“What do I think? I think the staff of this hospital are all judging me,” she said. “At first they were sympathetic, but now they avoid me. I got into an argument with a nurse who thinks I’m being selfish. Mama’s doctor is polite, but I can tell he thinks I’m a religious nutjob.”
“Are you?”
She looked surprised at the question, but the corner of her mouth quirked up. She had charming little dimples in her cheeks that he’d never noticed before.
“I guess I am,” she said, laughing at herself a little. She stood up to straighten the flowers in the vase beside her mother’s bed. They were scrawny daisies, probably plucked from the parking lot. Nico caught himself staring at her, and had to force himself to look away. Even thin, pale, and with no makeup, Maria was radiant. He didn’t question for a moment why the saints had taken such an interest in her. She was one of those people that was so beautiful on the inside that it seeped out of her pores. If anything it was more obvious now, when she was miserable, than it had been the day they met.
Nico was sorely tempted to tell her that her prayers hadn’t been in vain, and that real saints were concerned enough with her well-being to get in touch with him. He couldn’t imagine the joy she’d feel at hearing proof of her faith, but he knew it would more than likely get both of them into trouble. The point of faith was believing without seeing; tampering with that felt wrong.
“I want to talk to you about your mom,” Nico said. “About letting her move on.”
Maria whipped around and stared at him in horror.
“You agree with them,” she said. “You think I should pull the plug on her?”
“No,” he said. “That’s a terrible phrase, pulling the plug. Even if it’s literal.”
“I agree.”
“I do think she should go to heaven, though,” he said. “If anyone deserves it, she does.”
Maria’s face softened.
“Of course she does,” she said. She took her mom’s hand and wrapped it in both of hers. “But heaven can wait a little longer. I'm giving her a fighting chance. I'm not ready to give up on her.” She stroked her mom’s face gently, smoothing her hair. Rosa’s dark brown hair was neat and tidy in spite of her condition; Maria had obviously been taking good care of her.
“She's still here. I know she is,” Maria said.
“Maria, I...” Nico swallowed, editing the story mentally so that it could fit with what Maria would understand. “I went through something similar with my sister Bianca. She was in an accident in America. I wasn't with her when it happened. We'd had a disagreement and hadn't seen each other in a while.”
“I'm so sorry,” Maria said, letting go of her mom and going back over to Nico, sitting in the chair beside him again.
“She was all I had, too,” he said. “I'd already lost my mom, and I didn't know my dad. I had no friends and nowhere to go. I was lost.”
She bowed her head, pursing her lips.
“Bianca was still hanging on to this world by a thread,” he said. “For a long time I refused to let her move on. I dug my heels in and refused to let go. I was willing to do anything for the slightest chance of bringing her back. Nothing else mattered beyond finding some way to cheat death. But eventually I gave up and set her free.”
Tears started drifting down Maria's cheeks.
“Do you think Mama’s suffering?” She asked.
He took her hand.
“No,” Nico said firmly, not wanting to put any guilt on her shoulders. “I know she’s not.”
Maria nodded, wiping the tears from her eyes.
“Thank you for saying that,” she said quietly. “Do you… Do you believe in miracles?”
“Yes,” Nico said without hesitation. He’d performed one, so he should know.
“Then why did you let her go? Didn’t it feel like a lack of faith?” Maria asked anxiously. “Like you failed? How do you live with yourself knowing you gave up on her?”
He sighed, thinking over the answer. It was a heavy subject to think about, even though he’d healed significantly since saying his final goodbye. He thought about that last conversation, and how good it felt to finally say what Bianca wanted to hear, and to see gratitude in her eyes instead of resentment.
“Letting go wasn’t what I wanted to do. I didn’t even think it was the right choice. But it was her choice,” he said.
Maria scrubbed at her eyes, sighing.
“It’s easier to live with than the alternative,” Nico said.
“Yeah. Alright, I get your point,” Maria said. They both knew how Rosa had lived. She’d never feared death. Instead she’d seized every day and done exactly what she wanted to do. Her choice was obvious.
“But how am I supposed to know when it's time?” She asked. “I've been praying for god to send me a sign. But I've got nothing.”
Nico stared at her. He didn't know what to say. ‘Hey, you’re not going to believe who set this meeting up?’ That was too direct. Saints didn’t operate like that. They left things open to interpretation.
“I know it's hard,” he said. “But I think you'll know when it's time.”
“Thank you,” she said, yawning. “I hope so.”
“Maybe I should let you get some rest,” Nico said. “It’s getting late.”
“No, don’t go already,” she said, clutching his arm. “Please. Will I ever see you again?”
“I promise you’ll see me again soon,” he said. “I’ll write down my number for you. I’m pretty busy, so don’t be alarmed if I don’t return your calls right away. I’ll get in touch when I can.” He was more than happy to talk to her anytime, but with the weird time stuff that happened in the Underworld, it was safer to set low expectations.
She handed him a pen and paper from her purse, then went over to her mom and began combing her hair.
After he’d scribbled his number down, he glanced at Maria's empty chair. She'd left her rosary on the seat.
He picked it up and looked it over. It was nothing fancy, just cheap plastic beads on a string, alternating red and white. He passed it between his fingers, bead by bead, and was reminded of the life he’d known in his childhood. He missed rosaries, and churches, and the beautiful art and statues and songs that colored his old memories. The people he’d known were gone, and the places he’d lived had changed, but the religion was the same. That was one of the reasons he’d felt so connected to Maria and Rosa when he’d met them. While he’d been navigating what felt like a strange new world, they’d felt like home.
As he held the rosary in his hand, an idea came to him.
After a few minutes, he set the rosary down on the chair and stood.
“Maria,” he said. “I'm going to head out.”
“You are?” She went over to him, and he gave her a hug.
“Nico, thank you for coming. This was exactly what I needed. Things have been so bleak lately,” she said.
“I left my number for you by the rosary,” he said into her ear. “Call me if you need anything. You're not alone.”
“Thank you,” she said. “Thank you so much.”
“I promise you're going to be okay,” he reassured her.
“I wish I believed you,” she said.
She let him go, and he walked out the door and closed it behind him. From inside the room he heard a shriek.
He shadow traveled back to the underworld, to the steps of the palace. His phone immediately started buzzing, but he turned it off, just temporarily. He didn't want to answer questions, he wanted Maria to process her feelings and prepare to let go. He had a feeling she would be doing it very soon.
Within a few moments, Thanatos swept down to him.
“I sensed your return,” he said. “Is it ready?”
“Not yet. I'd give her another few hours to think it over,” he said. “But I have a good feeling about tomorrow.”
Thanatos squinted at him skeptically, his bright golden eyes becoming sharp points of focused light.
“What, you don't think I convinced her?” Nico said.
“You just seem a little too confident,” Thanatos said, looking slightly annoyed with him. His mouth curved downward, and his feathers were ruffled in an agitated posture.
“Are you jealous that I was able to solve your problem when you couldn’t?” Nico asked.
“Tsk. You didn’t solve anything. I’ll believe it when I see it.”
Nico burst out laughing, and it was a welcome release of tension after the emotionally heavy day. It was such a sad and serious business, and he felt such a burden of responsibility, that it was kind of relieving to see Thanatos reduce the situation to a petty professional jealousy.
“What do you want to bet that her soul is ready by EOD tomorrow,” Nico said. “Since you seem to think I’m overconfident?”
“Nevermind,” Thanatos said, swinging his head away, his hair hiding his face.
“Come on, play along,” Nico said, grabbing his mantle and pulling Thanatos back towards him. It was thin and soft, liquid silk slipping through his fingers. He balled it in his hand, looking up at his friend.
“I don't want to discourage you with a lack of faith,” Thanatos said.
“You already tried that. Come on, let’s make a deal. I'll start. If I win, you have to get a haircut.”
Thanatos recoiled, taking a step back, his mantle floating up around him. Nico snatched a strand of his white blonde hair up and grinned.
“Whatever haircut I want,” he said. “You have to get.”
Thanatos bit the inside of his cheeks, thinning his already angular face.
“I've never...” he muttered. “Fine. Damn it. Yes.”
Nico gasped in surprise, eyebrows raising.
“Wait, really? I was joking!”
“I’m not sure why I said yes. But I will keep my word,” Thanatos sighed.
“And what do you want if you win?”
Thanato's eyes flickered over him.
“I want you to paint my nails,” he said. “Like yours.”
“That's all?” Nico asked.
Thanatos nodded.
Nico looked at him closely. If he didn't know better, he would think that Thanatos had almost asked for a kiss. He thought he'd looked at his lips. But that was impossible. Was it? Or was he imagining things?
“Boys,” Persephone's voice rang out. She and Hades had been watching them; she stood with her husband towering behind her like a pillar, his arms folded while hers were outstretched. “What's this about a bet?”
Nico and Thanatos exchanged a look, silently communicating their agreement to keep their activities secret.
“We’re just joking,” Nico said. “It’s about a work thing.”
“Nico is helping me with a project,” Thanatos said. “Nothing that concerns you.”
In the space of a blink, Persephone had appeared in front of them, and she gave Nico a kiss on the cheek.
“You are so sweet to help him,” she said. “Our realm rejoices at your service.”
“It's really not a big deal,” Nico said awkwardly.
“Hades, dear, don’t you think that Nico is doing a wonderful job?” Persephone called out. “Doesn’t it just make you want to keep him around forever?”
Nico flinched, and she noticed. His father’s perma-frown grew deeper than usual.
“No,” Hades said. “If you want something permanent, take more pictures.”
He turned and stalked back into the palace.
Persephone let go of Nico and stared after her husband, putting her hands on her hips.
“That stubborn ass. I hope he didn’t hurt your feelings,” she huffed.
Nico had an opportunity here. He could say, ‘welp, I’m already immortal, so he’ll have to get used to it.’ But if he said that, he have to deal with all the emotional, messy stuff that came after. He didn’t feel like doing that just yet.
Instead, he chose to be honest without giving the whole truth.
“I couldn’t care less what he thinks. I don’t want to be immortal,” he said. “I thought you knew that.”
Her face fell.
“I hoped you’d have changed your mind by now,” she said, looking exasperated. “You’re taking a long time to come around to the idea. I don’t understand what I’m doing wrong.”
“You’re awesome. In fact, you’re perfect. It’s just my preference,” Nico said. “I can’t help it.”
Despite his efforts to shove in forced compliments, Persephone flashed him a look of disappointment and disappeared without a word.
“What was the point of that farce?” Thanatos asked. “Hasn’t the immortality ship already sailed?”
“Shh,” Nico said. “We can’t talk about that here.”
“Well, I want to know,” Thanatos said, grabbing Nico’s arm. In a heartbeat, they were in Thanatos’ room. “What’s going on?”
Nico walked over to the Mythomagic table and started shuffling the pile of cards that had been left there, scattered. It helped to have something to do with his hands, because the subject of discussion was one that upset him.
“I mean, maybe I mishandled that,” he admitted. “She put me on the spot. I was trying to sort of prep her for when I do finally tell her. I’m dreading it, because she’ll be thrilled and I’m still… Blah.”
“Blah?”
“I don’t know. It’s so weird.”
“It was probably her that changed you, you know,” Thanatos said.
“It wasn’t her. It was probably just bad luck.”
“You don’t think she seems a little too invested in getting you on board with immortality?”
“That’s because she loves me,” Nico said. “She wouldn’t have just changed me without my consent.”
“Mmhm. Sure,” Thanatos said. “Do you want me to ask my mother what happened?”
Nico’s heart started pounding a drum beat in his chest. If anyone knew what had happened, it was probably Nyx. But if she incriminated Persephone, what then? It would change everything about the family dynamic for the worse. He wasn’t even sure how he’d feel. His stomach twisted at the thought of accusing her.
“Don’t,” Nico said. “If you do, don’t tell me what she says.”
“Seriously?” Thanatos said, sitting across from him at the table.
“Seriously,” Nico said. “This is… I’m still processing.”
“It’s been years,” Thanatos said, snatching the cards from Nico’s hand. “It explains why you did so well in Tartarus. If you hadn’t stuck your hand in the Cocytus, you’d have held up for as long as me. Or almost as long.”
“Hmph,” Nico said. “I wasn’t that bad. Look, I may have been a god for years, but I’ve barely started figuring out what that means and what I’m gonna do about it. I don’t even think I have a purpose. It just screams ‘accident.’”
“A divine accident? Sounds like a question for my sisters, the Moirai,” Thanatos said. He dealt the cards for them.
“The Fates?” Nico stared down at the cards as Thanatos dealt each one. He got Hades, Persephone, Hermes, Nemesis, and Thanatos, in that order. “What the fuck?” He said.
“What?”
“Did you do that on purpose?” He snatched Thanatos’ cards out of his hands. Thanatos had Janus, Melpomene, Hestia, the Hydra, and the Onocentaur from the Africanus expansion pack. It seemed like a normal, random assortment.
“You’ve spoiled the game!” Thanatos snapped. Nico tossed his cards in front of him.
“You’ve got all the expansion packs,” Nico said. “Statistically, how is this hand possible? Is there a pack called ‘Oops, All Cthonics’?”
“Huh. Intriguing,” Thanatos said, picking up each card with his long fingers and examining it. “I bet my sisters want a word with you. This is how they communicate. They’re annoying that way.”
“We already have a bet,” Nico said, snatching the cards up, shuffling the deck, and re-dealing them. He aggressively smacked cards down one by one, grabbing at random.
“You’ve got to be kidding me!” He said, seeing his hand once again populated with Charon, Minos, Aeacus, Hypnos, and Eros. Thanatos, again, had a random assortment.
“Told you,” Thanatos said. “I’ll go with you to see them,” he offered.
“Really?” Nico asked.
“Yeah,” he said.
Thanatos brushed strands of hair out of his face. They snaked across the table like lines of gold thread, and Nico thought about the Fates. His life would be there, among countless others, represented in their domain by a spool of thread. Would his be unbreakable and golden, like all the other gods? Or was this a mistake? Maybe it was only a little bit golden. Maybe he’d never find a place, and would fall into obscurity with all the long forgotten gods of past eras, whose names had been lost. Did that mean he would disappear? He didn’t have any worshippers. Realistically, how long could he last without them, and with no divine role?
“Can I tell you something?” Thanatos said quietly, interrupting Nico’s self-absorbed rumination.
“Anything,” Nico said.
“When I told you about the trapped souls… I never intended to admit that to anyone. I planned to carry that secret into the apocalypse.”
“Oh.”
“If you ever told anyone, I don’t know what I’d do,” he said. “I should have asked earlier, but would you swear on the Styx to keep it secret?”
“I swear on the Styx,” Nico said unhesitatingly.
“That easily? You’ve obviously never made that oath before,” Thanatos smiled. “It always has a way of coming back to bite you.”
“I’m not worried,” Nico said. “You’re my best friend,” he said sincerely. “I’ll always have your back.”
Thanatos just stared at him, stunned.
“I don’t… I don’t think I know what that means, really,” Thanatos said.
“Yeah, you do,” Nico said, smiling.
“Enough of this,” Thanatos said, uncomfortable. “Let’s start this game.”
“But—”
“Nico, play with the hand you’re dealt, and quit complaining.”
After a few games of Mythomagic, Nico shadow traveled back to the hospital to check on Maria. It wasn’t even dawn, but he had a hunch that something was happening. Maria had kept calling and texting, but he’d ignored her, and he felt confident he’d said everything he could. He wanted the final decision to come from her heart, without any more influence.
Invisible, he appeared in the corner of Rosa’s room to eavesdrop. Maria was crying into a handful of tissues while a doctor spoke to her in a hushed and somber tone.
Nico listened as the doctor reassured Maria that her mother would pass peacefully, without pain, once they took her off life support.
After an agonizing silence, Maria nodded. She signed some paperwork, and then she stood, trembling, waiting to watch her mother die.
“It may be a few hours,” the doctor said.
“I've been here months already,” Maria said.
“That's true,” the doctor said. “I have nothing but the utmost respect for the way you've cared for your mother. I wish you well, Ms. Bova. I’ll send a nurse in so that you’re not alone.”
“No need,” she said.
“Are you sure?”
“I’m not alone, doctor,” she said, with a pained smile.
The doctor turned the machine off and left. Rosa's body twitched, and Maria hurried to hold her hand and stand beside her head. She took the rosary Nico had left her, and wrapped it around Rosa's hand. She began praying intensely.
If Nico was going to walk in like a normal human and keep her company, this was the moment. It surprised him, but he had no interest. Instead he just watched her intently, feeling removed from the situation despite his physical proximity.
It felt wrong to just do nothing. Nico took a deep breath and began praying with them. What the Greek pantheon didn't know wouldn't hurt them. Besides, if not for the saints, he wouldn’t be there.
Maria tripped over her words a couple of times and had to start over once. She was barely holding on, he could tell, but she finished the prayer before she broke down in tears, sobbing.
The next hour passed quietly, the clock on the wall ticking the seconds down. Rosa’s body was persevering admirably, but it was obviously not going to last much longer. Her breathing became rattling and intermittent. Maria was shivering with adrenaline, terrified.
Nico had left it too long to comfort her in person. Once Thanatos showed up, he’d have to disappear in order to speak with him, and Rosa didn’t have more than another few minutes. He sent a text to Maria, just a simple heart emoji.
She scrambled to read it, and it seemed to help her calm down. She put her phone away and rubbed her mother’s hands for the last time while they were still warm.
The moment she was ready was obvious to Nico, like a lightbulb ‘dinged’ on above her head. He went over to her body and wondered whether Thanatos would know instinctively, or whether he needed to call him.
“Sorry we took so long,” he said to Rosa, touching her hands and the rosary quietly. His hand brushed Maria’s, too. She jumped, startled, but didn’t move. “You had a whole team of immortals working for you. If only you knew how special you are,” he smiled.
Maria’s grief hadn’t moved him all the way to tears, but now, he shed a few tears of happiness, thinking about how much he was looking forward to seeing Rosa again. “I can’t wait to tell you,” he said.
He lifted his hand away.
There was a soul in it.
“Ahhh!” He yelped, tripping over his own foot. He fell backwards, knocking the vase of daisies over and shattering it. Maria screamed and backed up, staring at him. For a moment, he thought she could see him, but she was only looking at the water, the crushed daisies, and the scattered shards of pottery on the floor; he was invisible.
The heart monitor flatlined, and she turned back to her mother.
“No!” She cried out. “No, no, no.” She knelt on the floor and started sobbing.
Nico wasn’t able to concern himself with her anymore; he had a bigger problem on his hands. Quite literally, in fact. Rosa’s soul was stuck to his hand as if he’d glued it on. Even violently shaking his hand didn’t do anything. Not that he would have wanted to just fling her into the air, but he was freaking out.
He felt his collar and the back of his hair seized in a firm grasp, and he was dragged through the wall and down to the parking lot. All he could hear was the beating of wings behind him, where he couldn’t see them, and loud, angry breathing.
Thanatos tossed him on the pavement.
“What did you do!” He shouted, his face twisted with rage.
Nico cupped his hands around Rosa protectively.
“She just jumped out at me, I didn’t do it on purpose! I was waiting on you!”
“A likely story,” Thanatos spat furiously. “What is this? Are you trying to put me out of a job? Is that it? I’m no longer good enough?”
“No! Gods, no, of course not!”
“Your father wanted a younger model,” Thanatos said, filling in the blanks rapidly with wrong answers. “I’m outdated. I’m useless. Is this because I quit? Hypnos told me to be careful. I should have listened. I’m so stupid,” he said, pacing back and forth between rows of cars. He kicked a blue Toyota, and the car alarm went off.
“No godly purpose of your own, so you decided to take mine? Is that your plan? This is stolen divinity, you know that, don’t you?” Thanatos hissed, stomping back over to Nico. “Once I tell my mother--”
“It was an accident!” Nico said. “I promised to keep your secret.” He scrambled up to his feet and held out his hands. “Please keep mine. Take her. Don’t tell anyone I did this.”
Thanatos stared at him.
“You… Don’t want to take my place?” He said skeptically.
“Who in their right mind would want your job?” Nico asked. “Take her. This never happened. Okay?”
“Okay,” Thanatos said hesitantly, looking at Nico with suspicion. “Do you want me to swear on the --”
“No. I trust you,” Nico said.
Thanatos reached out and took Rosa’s soul from Nico.
“It was truly an accident?”
“I think she was just really, really ready to go,” Nico said. He brushed dirt off the seat of his pants. “You’re such a paranoid fucking asshole,” he said. “I don’t want any divinity, let alone yours.”
“Sorry,” Thanatos said, blushing. “I know that. I just… For a second I thought…”
“I didn’t do anything Hecate and Charon and Hermes can’t do,” Nico added. “Get over yourself. You’re not the only psychopomp.”
“Clearly,” Thanatos muttered.
They stood across from each other in the parking lot. Nico glanced behind them and saw the sun rising behind Mount Olympus, far off in the distance. Fortunately, they were invisible. What had just happened was solely known to the two of them.
“Now what?” Nico asked.
“I dump her in Asphodel with the others,” he said.
“She doesn’t ride in the boat with Charon?”
“He doesn’t usually take the Catholics,” Thanatos said. “That’s not included in their transiting package. I drop them in Asphodel and their people pick them up.”
“He’ll make an exception,” Nico said. “I want a chance to talk to her before she leaves. We’ll take the long way.”
“Fine,” Thanatos said. “But don’t draw unnecessary attention to yourself.”
He handed Rosa back, then disappeared, after a muttered, “I need to think.”
Nico breathed a huge sigh of relief. He looked down at Rosa, smiling fondly.
“You almost got me in big trouble, lady,” he whispered.
He shadow traveled to a beach on the river Styx. There, he poked her, changing her into the form of a shade.
Seeing her familiar face and healthy, stout figure made him grin. She looked like herself, nothing like the wasted corpse he’d last seen.
“Nico!” She said, smiling. “I always knew I’d see you again. How are you, dear?”
“I'm fine,” he said, giving her a hug. “I heard you haven't been too well, though.”
“Haven't I? I guess I haven't, now that I think about it. Where am I?”
“Uh,” he swallowed. This was his first devout Catholic shade. He had no idea what to say. “Where do you think you are?”
“All I see is darkness. And you. This is frightening me,” she said, glancing around nervously.
He took her hand. Having cleared out the shades from the Necromanteion, he was prepared for this.
“I won't let anything happen to you. Just stay with me.”
“Okay.”
She tried to hide behind him as Charon slowly pulled up with his boat.
“Did I do something wrong?” She whispered. “This isn’t how I imagined it would be.”
“Shh,” Nico said, “Don’t worry. This is just the first step.”
They climbed into the boat. Charon didn’t seem to suspect anything unusual; he tipped his hat at Nico, and they set off.
Nico turned to Rosa, taking her hands in his.
“I wanted to let you know that I’m looking after Maria,” he said. “She’s going to be okay. It will be hard for her for a while, but she’s not alone. She’ll get through this, and she’ll have a good life.”
“Oh, that’s good to hear. I know she’s been worried about me,” Rosa said. Her memories of the recent past seemed blurred, but maybe that was for the best. “Do I hear wedding bells in the future?”
“Uh, not necessarily,” Nico laughed awkwardly. “I didn’t mean it that way. Is there anything you want me to tell her for you?”
Rosa thought for a second. It was good that Nico was able to chat with her and keep her busy, because she hadn’t looked at Charon long enough to be frightened of him.
“Let her know that I’m sorry I had to go so soon. Remind her that I’ve got two handsome men waiting on me,” she giggled. “And tell her not to worry about the restaurant. Tell her to sell it and take those singing lessons she never got around to. I always loved her voice.”
“That’s it?”
“Yes. Oh! Tell her I love her, of course,” she added. “And thank her for me.”
“I will,” Nico said.
“How have you been, dear?” Rosa asked. “Are you eating properly?”
He entertained her for the rest of the boat ride until they reached the borders of Asphodel. He thanked Charon, walked Rosa towards the judges and helped her up onto the platform.
Minos shot him a curious look, but Nico ignored him. He folded his arms and stood to one side to watch the judgment.
Rosa barely stood on the platform more than a second before Aeacus said, “Transit approved,” and stamped her form.
She stepped back down and returned to Nico.
“Transiters don’t need to be judged,” Minos said. “You can just drop them in Asphodel. They leave on their own.”
“Okay,” Nico said. With an uncomfortable glance back at his ex, he left to escort Rosa to the fields.
The other shades around them took no notice of her, although there were some whispers of ‘Prince’ that he ignored. He focused on Rosa, and she suddenly honed in on a spot in the air in front of her.
She stepped forward.
He walked around to stand behind her, to see what she was looking at so intently. He noticed a tiny fold in the air, like a vertical ripple of wind.
She walked straight into it. Nico followed.
Chapter 59: Cretan Family Reunion
Notes:
Sorry this took so long, I was on vacation! I hope you enjoy the chapter!
Chapter Text
Nico caught up to Rosa and took her hand. She looked back over her shoulder and beamed at him, glowing with anticipation. She was certain of her eternal fate. It was Nico who had no idea what to expect.
It took three steps to reach the other side of the portal. For a moment, they were in a space so brightly lit that Nico couldn’t make anything out. He had to shield his eyes for a moment to let them adjust. When he was able to make out his surroundings, the sight was underwhelming. They were in a stark white waiting room. There was a row of chairs along one wall, and a man sitting at a desk behind a little window.
Nico had expected choirs of angels and fluffy white clouds, but this was more like a dentist’s office.
Rosa let go of his hand and walked up to the window. The man at the desk had a bored expression and wore a plain black suit. He looked unremarkable, with plain brown hair and a tidy beard. Nico really hoped he wasn’t looking at Saint Peter himself. He had higher expectations for him.
The man handed Rosa a clipboard and a pen, and she went to sit down and fill out her paperwork.
Nico was going to peek over her shoulder at the forms, but the man at the desk cleared his throat and handed Nico a form to fill out as well, gesturing for him to sit down.
Nico sat next to Rosa and skimmed through the forms. The clipboard held a stack of at least twenty pages of paperwork, all double sided.
Cheerful elevator music drifted on the air. Rosa hummed along, filling in her forms. She seemed content, and Nico didn’t want to distract her, so he focused on his own paperwork.
There were lines for name, date of birth, date of death, and long, empty sections where he was asked to fill in his formal religious affiliations, what he believed about the afterlife, and the best and worst things he’d ever done.
Nico snorted a little. What was the point of worshiping an omniscient god if he made you fill out forms with information he already had? What a waste of time. Not that time mattered much when you were dead, but it was the principle of the thing.
He scribbled in his basic identification info, but left the rest blank. He could write a novel about his beliefs on the afterlife, and Saint Valentine had been the one to tell him he’d been baptized, so these folks already knew more about his religious affiliations than he did. As for the best and worst things he’d ever done, well… They’d need to buy him a few drinks before he’d part with that information.
He gave up on the papers and watched Rosa scribble her answers down, basking in satisfaction that she was where she was supposed to be at last. He wondered how Maria was doing. Obviously not great, but he hoped she felt like she’d done the right thing, at least.
He wondered what their relationship would look like moving forward. If they were still just friends, he could visit and catch up with her normally, offer hugs and emotional support. But he had given himself away as something more than human when he’d left her the ‘sign’ she’d been praying for. What would she think of him now? He wasn’t sure. He didn’t want to risk freaking her out any more than he had already, so he figured he’d keep a healthy distance until she really needed him.
He went up to the man at the desk.
“Are you a saint?” Nico asked.
“I wish,” the man sighed. “I’ve only done one miracle. Still working on number two.”
He held out his hand to take the clipboard, and Nico gave it to him.
The man looked over his papers.
“You can’t just write down ‘speak to a supervisor’,” he said, frowning. He tried to hand it back. “Fill it out properly.”
“I can’t sit around all day doing paperwork. I’d prefer to talk to whoever is in charge. Actually, is Jesus in the office today?” Nico asked, standing on his tiptoes and leaning over the desk as though Jesus might be hiding behind a filing cabinet. “I have a ton of questions for him.”
“Wow, never heard that before,” the man said sarcastically. “You can’t be bothered to fill out a form, and you think you’re entitled to a meeting with the J-Man himself? Who do you think you are?”
He glanced down at the paperwork, trying to answer that for himself.
“You forgot your death date, di Angelo,” he said. “At least jot that down before you start harassing me.”
“I don’t have one,” Nico said. “I’m alive.”
“That’s impossible,” the man said. He looked at the form again. “This says you’re almost a hundred years old. You’re looking good for your age,” he frowned. “What’s going on? Who are you, really?”
“Everything I wrote down is true,” Nico said. “See that woman over there?”
“Rosa Bova, yes, I’m aware.”
“Check her file. I was asked to take on her case personally, by Saint Rocco. You might have heard of him,” he said smugly.
The man tapped on his keyboard and pulled Rosa’s file up on his computer.
“Hmph,” he said. He tapped a Bluetooth earpiece in his ear. “Can someone send a supervisor down to level one? Thanks.”
Nico smiled triumphantly, tapped his foot, and leaned on the desk waiting for the supervisor to arrive.
A tall man in a white suit walked through the door. He had long, wavy reddish gold hair and bright, glowing eyes. Light seemed to seep out of his pores, and his suit was glaringly white, like everything else around.
“You’re not supposed to be here,” the man said sternly, his voice as clear and crisp as his outfit. “You can go.”
“Your Sacredness, what’s going on?” The man at the desk asked. “Why is this thing listed as a contractor? I’ve never seen the contractor code on a file before. I didn’t even know we used outside help.”
Nico scoffed.
“What do you mean, you didn’t know? You use outside help on every soul that comes in here--” He said.
“That’s enough!” The tall red-haired man said sharply, interrupting him. “You, unholy creature that you are, constitute a special case. Your temporary employment was a huge mistake, in my opinion. Not that it was my decision,” he added bitterly.
“If it wasn’t your decision, then whose was it?” The desk clerk asked. “You’re the Archangel Michael. Surely it didn’t come all the way from the top?”
Nico looked at the tall man in a new light. This was the Archangel Michael? He didn’t look anything like he’d imagined. He had no wings, no halo, no flaming sword or long, white robes. He was slightly disappointed by how mundane he appeared, at least compared to the other immortals Nico had met thus far.
Thanatos looked far more angelic to him than this guy, although when it came down to it, Nico didn’t know what an angel was any more than he knew what a god was. The terms had too many different interpretations to nail down a single, specific vibe. Still, whatever the ‘Archangel’ vibe was, this was not it.
“You think I was a mistake?” Nico asked. “But I did exactly what I was asked to do! I helped Rosa move on. I could have kept her if I wanted to,” he added. “But I let her come to you. Don’t I deserve some kind of recognition for service?”
“A good deed is supposed to be its own reward,” Michael said, shaking his head as though Nico had failed a test he didn’t know he was taking.
“Well, it’s not,” Nico said. “I didn’t want to have to bring this up, but my older brother Dante Alighieri--”
“He was your brother?” The desk clerk asked, intrigued. Michael pointed a finger sternly in the direction of the desk, and the clerk hung his head and slunk back behind the glass, where he pretended to type on his keyboard while continuing to eavesdrop.
“My brother got tours of heaven and hell,” Nico said. “I want to see them, too!”
“Do you think this is Disneyworld?” Michael asked in disbelief. “Do I look like Mickey Mouse to you?”
“Whatever he did to earn it, I’ll do it too,” Nico said, desperately curious to see the other afterlives while he was in the neighborhood. He knew Michael was unlikely to play ball, but he figured this might be his only opportunity, so he had nothing to lose by asking.
“Oh, really?” Michael said. “You’ll write fourteen thousand two hundred and thirty three lines of epic poetry that alter language, literature, art, and religion for centuries to come?”
Nico hadn’t really thought through that angle.
“No, but I’m sure I can come up with something equivalent,” he said.
Michael narrowed his eyes.
“Maybe they do things differently where you come from, but here, we don’t take kindly to boastful, shameless pride. I don’t know how you managed to get in, but you are not welcome. This lobby is for the souls of the departed, not for the likes of you. Do you know what I normally do when nosy little pagan demons come poking around where they aren’t supposed to be?”
“Um,” Nico swallowed. “Smite them with a flaming sword?”
“Something along those lines,” Michael said matter-of-factly. “So, you have two options. What’s it going to be?”
“I guess I’ll go,” Nico said bashfully. “I can ask Rocco about my compensation.”
“Good call,” Michael said. “Make sure he leaves,” he said to the desk clerk. He disappeared in a sudden, jarring burst of white fire.
Nico looked at Rosa one last time. She was still blissfully immersed in her admission paperwork, now filling out her pages of good deeds. Nico was pretty sure she’d need extra paper before she got all of them written down.
“Take good care of her,” Nico told the clerk. “She’s a really special soul.”
“We always do,” the clerk said. “You’d better go. Merry Christmas, by the way,”
Nico shadow traveled back to Asphodel and breathed a huge sigh of relief. He’d been lucky to get away with such an impulsive decision unscathed. He was glad he’d taken the chance to see a new afterlife, even if he hadn’t seen as much as he’d hoped to.
“Merry Christmas?” He muttered. “What was that supposed to mean? It’s November.”
He took out his phone and looked at it. He had a hundred missed calls and ten times as many messages. And it was definitely December twenty-fifth.
“Fuck,” he said. “Great. Well, happy fucking holidays to you, too, asshole.”
His attitude changed completely-- that adventure had not been worth a month of his life. Will would have certainly already dumped him in one of those texts, a thought that made Nico feel sick.
“Nico?” A familiar voice called out, pushing away shades as he ran to meet him. “Everyone’s been looking for you! We were so worried.”
It was Minos, who looked genuinely relieved to see him.
“Uh, hi,” Nico said.
Minos’ relief dissipated slightly as he looked Nico over and saw that he was unharmed, and still very salty with him.
“Hi,” Minos said. “My brothers and I were the last ones to see you in over a month. You were here with that shade, and then something happened. We didn’t know where you went, and your phone had no service. Is everything okay?”
“I’m fine,” Nico said, his tone chilly. “It’s nothing you need to concern yourself with. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I need to tell my father I’m still alive.”
“Of course,” Minos said. Nico turned away from him before traveling to the palace.
He hated himself for being such a jerk when Minos had been genuinely worried, but it was impossible to look Minos in the eye knowing that he’d been right all along. Nico had been in denial about his godhood, and Minos had called him out on it before he was ready to face the truth. Back then, it had been his feelings that were injured, but now it was his pride. He wasn’t sure how he’d ever be able to be friends with Minos again. He was too embarrassed with himself.
He stopped in his tracks, standing on the palace balcony. He realized that he was acting like a pathetic loser. He could do better than this.
He summoned Minos up to the balcony.
“I-- Ugh. I can’t believe I’m doing this. I’m sorry, okay?” Nico said, avoiding Minos’ eyes. “You were right.”
Minos gasped.
“Yeah, yeah, I’m an idiot,” Nico said. “Gloat away.”
“I would never,” Minos said, glowing with pride. “Nico, do you realize what this means?”
“No. I don’t know what anything means. I’m just winging it,” Nico said. Minos hugged him, as excited as Nico had ever seen him. “Alright, calm down. I’m still mad that you dumped me. And you’ve been telling everyone I cheated on you. My reputation is a dumpster fire right now because of you.”
“I’d never speak ill of you,” Minos said sweetly. “I have no idea what you mean. Can I tell people about you now?”
“No way! I haven’t even told my dad yet. I feel like I should come out to him and Persephone before anybody else. This is so awkward,” he sighed. “Maybe I should throw a party and write ‘I’m a god’ on a cake. What do you think?”
“I think you should tell your father first,” Minos said. “I know you had trouble getting him to take you seriously before, but he needs to know.”
“Right. He’ll definitely take me seriously once I tell him what I’ve been up to lately,” Nico sighed. “I’ve really missed you,” he added.
“I’ve missed you, too,” Minos said. “I’ve been worried about you. Everyone has been. You were gone with no explanation for so long. You really should go and tell Hades where you were. He’s been frantic to find you.”
Nico turned to go into the palace, and stopped in his tracks.
“Di immortales,” Minos whispered, taking an immediate step backward.
Standing framed in the doorway was a beautiful young woman with caramel colored highlights in her black hair. She was wearing a matching athleisure set with a grapevine print, along with bright purple sneakers and a baseball cap that read “Bacchus Vineyards – The Vintage Vintage.”
“Get your hands off my dead father,” Ariadne said. “Now.”
Nico was speechless.
“What are you doing here?” He asked.
“Looking for you. Same as everybody else,” she said, advancing toward him. She grabbed him by the collar. “What the fuck do you think you’re doing,” she hissed. “Dating my dad and hiding it from me was one thing. But cheating on him? Did you think I wouldn’t hear about it?” She shoved him away from her, and he stumbled backwards. Minos reached out to catch him.
“Ariadne, let me explain,” Minos said. “It isn’t what you think.”
“Shut up!” She shouted. “I’m not here for you! I had enough of your bullshit five thousand years ago!”
She turned and dragged Nico into the palace, pulling him into the empty throne room.
“I found him!” She announced.
Hades and Persephone both appeared in the room immediately.
“Nico, darling!” Persephone exclaimed, bursts of bright red roses flowering all around the room. “I’m so glad you’re okay!”
She ran up to hug him, but Nico had already gone over to his father. Hades pulled Nico into his arms without a word.
“I’m sorry,” Nico said, with his face crushed against his dad’s ice-cold chest. “I didn’t mean to be gone for so long.”
Hades held onto him tightly for a moment before relinquishing his grip.
“You had better have a damned good excuse,” he grumbled.
“It was the Catholics,” Nico said. He wasn’t going to admit the whole story of what happened, but there was no other excuse he could give that would hold any water. “I was stupid. I followed a shade into a portal that opened up in Asphodel and then I was in an office. I think I was in Purgatory.”
Hades, Persephone, and Ariadne all stared at him in speechless horror.
“Did they…” Persephone cleared her throat. “Did they do anything to you? Did they try to--”
“Try to what?”
“Convert you?” She whispered.
“No, nothing like that. I was there, they told me to fill out paperwork, I didn’t feel like doing it, and they sent me back. It just took a long time.”
“Paperwork,” Ariadne said. “Yeah, that sounds like them.”
“I’m just glad you’re okay,” Persephone said quietly.
“I’m not,” Hades said. “You’re on house arrest until further notice. Hand over your phone.”
“What? But I need it!” Nico pleaded. “Please!”
Hades raised his eyebrows and held his hand out expectantly. Nico handed his phone over.
“How long are you gonna keep it for?” Nico asked.
“Until you grow a brain in that empty skull of yours and learn not to walk into strange portals!” Hades said. “Reckless little fool.”
He disappeared in a cloud of dark smoke.
“You really should be more careful, dear,” Persephone said, kissing him on the cheek. “I’ll talk to him. He won’t be mad for long. You just scared us.”
“Sorry,” Nico muttered.
“Persephone, do I have permission to take him to a second location?” Ariadne said. “I need to kick his ass for fucking my dad.”
“It’s fine if he’s with you,” Persephone said. “Sorry, Nico, but she helped us look for you, so we owe her.” She disappeared quickly before he could beg her not to leave him alone with this angry goddess.
He and Ariadne looked at each other silently for a moment.
“You helped look for me?” He asked.
“Yeah,” she said. “You remember we had plans to meet? Or did you forget about me?”
“I remembered,” Nico said. “We never set a date.”
“I texted you and then I tried to call. I thought you were blowing me off. When I came down here, I was going to mess you up, I was so mad. But your parents said you’d disappeared and no one could find you.”
“I’m sorry,” he said. “It felt like I was gone for a few minutes, not a few weeks. I’m sure you’re not the only person mad at me for going AWOL right now.” What would Will think? That he’d ghosted him? And Hazel would be worried, too.
Most importantly, where was Thanatos? Why hadn’t he been the first one to come to him when he’d been located? There was something not right about that. Nico hoped that his dad would let Thanatos know he was home, and his friend would come to see him soon.
“You know, I was worried enough that I was this close to dropping the request to talk to my dad,” she said, holding up two fingers pinched tightly together. “Then I saw you with him, and got mad all over again.”
“If you want to speak with him, we can go together right now,” Nico suggested.
“Dude, if I wanted to talk to him down here I’d have done it already,” she said. “I’m not having this conversation on his turf. I was envisioning a highly specific set-up. Come on, I’ll show you.”
She brought him back to a place he’d never been before, although he recognized it from pictures. They were in the palace of Knossos, not far from the cliff-ringed beach in Heraklion where he’d brought Minos on their final, fateful date.
“This place is in terrible shape,” she said, glancing around. She popped on a pair of sunglasses. “Have you ever seen the Real Housewives?”
“No.”
“You must live under a rock,” she scoffed.
“Yes, I do,” Nico said. “Under the whole earth, actually.”
“Real Housewives is the best show ever. The Muses of drama, Thalia and Melpomene, came up with the premise after attending one of Hera’s Olympian ladies’ brunches, where I threw a full glass of wine in Athena’s face.”
“Good for you,” Nico said.
“Coincidentally, that was the first day Hera ever complimented my outfit. But I’m getting ahead of myself. Every so often, Real Housewives has a reunion episode where they re-hash everything that went down in the season before. They clear the air. That’s what I want.”
She raised her arms, and the ruins of the palace, the crumbled walls and toppled columns, all reformed into a vision of a pristine palace complex, with long columned halls and hundreds of rooms and courtyards. Brightly painted frescos covered every wall, and decorative plants and fountains made the place feel alive, even though it was only a remembered vision.
“By the way, did you hear that Hera went missing?”
“Wait, what?”
“I’ll tell you later. For now, focus. I’m envisioning my father over there, standing on a dais,” she pointed at an empty spot in the courtyard. “Just like he always does. But there’s a twist! He’s on trial, and my siblings and I are the judges.”
Nico saw where she was going with this.
“We’re up there, and I have a giant gavel! And--”
“And you’re going to air all of your grievances with his parenting?” Nico said.
“Obviously.”
He sighed.
“Okay, where to start… I like the twisted judgment angle. Very dramatic.”
“I have a strong creative vision,” she agreed.
“But your dad’s dead. No matter what you say, you’re not going to get the reaction you want. He’d just be acting to please you. He can’t feel emotional pain anymore.”
Ariadne bit her lip.
“I wouldn’t advise getting your siblings involved, either. They’re dead, too. And they’ve probably already talked to him by now.”
“Ugh! You’re ruining my plan! I need a drink,” she said, pacing.
“What do you want out of this, really?” Nico asked. “Do you actually want to see him? You don’t have to.”
She stopped in her tracks.
“No. I don't want to see him,” she said.
“You can call it off. It’s okay.” Nico said.
“No, it’s not. I need to do this,” she said, folding her arms. “I hate you for putting me in this situation,” she told Nico.
“Ariadne, I am so sorry,” he said, genuinely heartbroken for her. “You may not believe me, but I get it.”
“How could you possibly?” She asked angrily. “You have no idea how I'm feeling.”
“Unfinished business with the dead has kind of been my whole thing for a while now,” he said. “I never got the chance to tell you. I talked to my sister Bianca. It didn't go well.”
“How so?”
“Mostly, I just yelled at her. And told her I hated her. I said some things I regret. I did a little better the second time we spoke, but it was still rough.”
Ariadne stared at him.
“You said you hated her? I thought you loved her.”
“I do. That's why I hate her so much.”
Ariadne took a deep breath.
“Fuck,” she sighed. “Yeah, I know the feeling.”
“I know I'm in no position to give you advice, but I feel like I have to. Don't be like me. Don't fool yourself into thinking this is your chance to have the last word, or to air your grievances, or to finally talk things out and resolve everything. It's not. You already had your last chance, and it’s gone now.”
Ariadne made no response. Instead she sat down directly on the packed earth of the courtyard, pulling her knees up to her chest. As she stared down at her neon purple sneakers, the illusion of a grand palace complex dissipated. They were left once again among dilapidated ruins.
Nico sat down beside her and waited on her to be ready to speak. He hated having to burst her bubble. She’d obviously spent weeks thinking of a way to make her dysfunctional family reunion fun. The idea was cool, but ultimately, it was a way to distract herself from painful feelings that wouldn’t tolerate being ignored.
“For my five thousandth birthday, Di took me to the moon,” she said.
Nico’s mouth dropped open.
“The moon? The one in outer space? How did he get there?”
“I don’t know. I was blindfolded on the way there, since it was a surprise. But you know what I thought about while I was up there?” She scrubbed tears out of her eyes. She must have been wearing magic eyeliner, because it didn’t budge. “My parents. How stupid is that?”
“Your parents?”
“My mom used to criticize me constantly. She said I was a stubborn loudmouth who didn’t know her place. And my dad disowned me for helping Theseus,” she said. “I’m thousands of years old. I have power beyond description. I even have a constellation! Why do I still care what my parents think? Why can’t I get their voices out of my head? I’ve got them stuck on repeat like a goddamn Taylor Swift song.”
“I’m not familiar with her music, but I take it that’s a bad thing?”
“No, Taylor’s cool, we hang out sometimes,” Ariadne sighed. “I don’t know what to do. Maybe I’m asking you for the impossible. Like you said, I should probably accept that it’s over and move on. I just have no clue how to do that. This is so unfair,” she said, picking up a handful of dirt and letting it fall between her fingers back to the ground. “My siblings had it rough, too, but they’re all dead now. I got the reward; I won the biggest prize in the universe! Why am I the one left holding the bag of shitty feelings?”
Nico looked at her skeptically.
“You think immortality is a prize? Most of the gods I know have just as many problems as humans. Only with no way out.”
“Most gods have never been mortal women,” she said. “They don’t know what it’s like to feel powerless. I do.” She looked up at the palace ruins. “Nobody is ever going to tell me to sit down and shut up ever again.”
Nico looked at the ruined columns and wondered what Ariadne saw when she looked at them. Did she see her siblings running around, playing and having fun? Did she recall a time that her family had loved each other and gotten along? Minos had said that they hadn’t always been miserable, that that had come later. But maybe the only version of her dad Ariadne could recall was the one who’d hurt her.
“I can’t promise you closure,” Nico said. “And I can’t promise you won’t feel worse afterward. But if I promise that he’ll treat you with respect, and listen to everything you have to say, would you want to try talking to him?”
Ariadne swallowed hard, wrapping her arms around her knees. Then she nodded.
She stood up, put on sunglasses, and started to walk with her head down, determinedly, and Nico kept his distance. He followed her to a room with a damaged fresco depicting leaping dolphins in the sea.
Nico summoned Minos at her signal, then retreated to a distance to give them space.
Minos appeared silently, his form shimmering into existence in the corner of the room. He bowed to Ariade, then stood, waiting for her to say something. His normally relaxed stature looked hunched, and he was more shadelike than usual, half hidden in shadow.
“Hello, Papa,” she said, approaching him slowly. “It's been a while.”
He nodded.
“I’m honored you wish to speak with me,” he said quietly.
She stood before him and folded her arms sternly, looking him over.
“I like your hat,” he said.
“Thanks,” she said, shuffling her feet. “I can't believe how bad they let my fresco get,” she said, walking over to the dolphins and looking up at them, tracing them with her fingers. “The colors look wrong. And my favorite one is missing.”
“Little Blue,” he said.
She whipped her head around, staring at him.
“You remembered him,” she said, taken aback.
“You used to tell him goodnight before you went to sleep,” Minos said. “I remember.”
Ariadne readjusted her sunglasses and turned back to the fresco.
“They just let him flake off the wall, it looks like. Why would they do that? How hard is it to leave a rock alone? Did someone vandalize it?”
“I don't know,” murmured Minos.
“I don't know why I care,” she said, tears spilling out from behind her sunglasses. She took them off and scrubbed her eyes. “I have a hundred dolphins at my command now. I'm a goddess,” she added. “I've done incredible things. I’ve been to the moon.”
“That’s amazing,” Minos agreed.
“And my husband supports me no matter what,” she said. “He respects me and listens to me. He doesn't talk down to me or yell at me or tell me what to do. He saw my worth where you didn't.”
Minos bowed his head.
“Why do I still care?” She asked. “What is it I need from you? I can't think of anything. Yet I'm here. Why?”
He didn't respond.
“Say something!” she shouted.
“I am trying to think of an apology that would suit you,” he said. “Or an excuse I could make. But I can't seem to find the words. I am not who I once was.”
She stared at him, then she approached him. She stood before him and reached out to touch his face. Her hand went through him, his form nothing more than a cool breeze against her palm.
“What are you?” She asked, her tone growing slightly less confrontational. “Who are you? I can see that you’re not the father I remember, but I don’t know what to think of you now.”
“I am a shade. A soul. I am who I always was,” Minos said. “All the days of my life merged into one. A man taken out of context.”
She stared into his shadowed face.
“I'm still angry with you,” she said. “Or, I guess I'm angry with the person you were in the last years of your life. That paranoid, angry, hateful king who pushed away everyone who cared about him.”
“I know,” he said. “If it's any comfort to you, he's dead now.”
“I'm being serious,” she said. A tiny smile quirked at the side of her mouth.
“I'm just as glad to be done with him as you are,” he said. “Death suits me better, don't you think?”
“I never wished you dead,” she said. “I wanted you to go back to the way you were when I was little. I wanted you to love me again.”
He smiled.
“Would it be enough if I said I loved you now?”
“You’re just saying that because you think it’s what I want to hear,” she said immediately, stepping away from him. “Nico warned me you’d try that.”
Minos shook his head vehemently.
“I always loved you, even at my worst, and I still do,” he said.
“Liar!” She shouted. Minos fell silent as she spoke.
“You disowned me! You told me never to set foot in this palace again! All because I had the audacity to do what was right. The one thing you couldn’t do,” she said. “Don’t tell me you loved me. You treated me like dirt.”
“I don’t use it as an excuse,” Minos said. “I can’t change the events of the past. I’m only telling you what I know to be true, right now.”
“You’re dead. You can’t feel anything, let alone love anyone,” Ariadne scoffed.
Minos smiled.
“My dear, some things, death can't touch.”
Nico stopped eavesdropping after that; he was feeling too much to listen anymore. All he could think about was Bianca, and how he’d have given anything to speak with her again, right at that moment.
He took a few laps around the palace, trying and failing to read the signs to distract himself, but he couldn't focus on anything.
It was a complicated feeling. He was jealous of Ariadne, jealous that she had this opportunity when he could never see Bianca again. But more than anything, he was happy he’d been able to give his friend the chance to have the conversation he had always wanted.
It wasn't very long, maybe a half an hour, when Ariadne tapped him on the shoulder. Her eyes were red, but she was glowing with divine radiance; her hair seemed lusher, her skin more golden, and her cheeks were pink as though she were drunk on happiness. Wordlessly, she wrapped Nico in her arms and hugged him.
“I'm still not sure what just happened,” she said. “But I feel different.”
“I think it's called catharsis,” Nico said. “I'm happy for you.”
“Catharsis,” she said. “Yes. You're right, it is catharsis.” she said, looking around her.
“I can summon him again anytime you want,” Nico said.
“I don’t think I ever want to speak to him again,” she said. “I’m good.”
She stood in silence for a while, looking at the sun, now sunk low on the horizon, leaving one last ring of burning red light. Finally she turned to him. “Do you want to go get something to eat?”
Something to eat turned out to be a noisy taverna just up the road. It was a cozy place crowded with a large family party for a little girl, taking over half the restaurant with extended family and friends holding gifts and balloons. Nico and Ariadne took a small table on the terrace and ordered some appetizers.
“I don't think I realized how badly I needed that,” Ariadne said, closing the wine list. “But now I need a drink.” She'd ordered three bottles for the table already, and Nico had accepted that he wouldn't be getting back to the Underworld anytime soon. He hoped Thanatos would be there waiting when he returned, and he could explain.
“Why is it that even thousands of years after they’re gone, our parents can still get in our heads and mess with us?” Ariadne asked.
“You heard Minos,” Nico said. “Some things death can't touch.”
“I knew you were eavesdropping,” she tutted.
“I'm sorry,” he said, blushing. “I couldn't go too far away or he'd disappear.”
“I'm teasing. I figured it was something like that,” she said, sipping her wine. “Try this one, it's lovely,” she told Nico, indicating the bottle closest to him. “My dad was right, and so are you,” she said. “Some bonds can't be broken. Even if we want them gone. Cheers. To family.”
“To family,” he said, clinking glasses with her.
The clinking glasses made a slighly unnatural sound, the ringing of the glass reverberating longer and louder than usual.
“What was that?” Nico asked.
“Just a general blessing,” she said. “Sending good vibes into the world.” She glanced over her shoulder at the birthday party, smiling. “I feel lighter. Like I can think of my dad without remembering only the bad times. We had good times, a lot of them. They mattered too.”
Nico smiled, seeing that she was still glowing, and attracting admiring glances from everyone in the taverna. Most gods were fairly consistent in their personalities; they acted the same and thought the same and felt the same every day. Was it crazy to think he might have changed something in her that would last? Had he made Ariadne permanently happier?
“Proud of yourself?” She asked.
“What?”
“You’re glowing. Everyone is looking at you.”
Nico looked down at his arm on the table. It looked normal to him.
“I think they’re looking at you,” he said, glancing around self-consciously.
“Maybe it’s both of us,” she shrugged, flipping her hair. “I mean, we’re both gods, aren’t we?”
Nico looked down into his wine glass, watching tiny bubbles drift to the top of the liquid.
“You heard that, huh?” He knew she’d heard, but he was sort of hoping she’d forgotten about it.
“Why didn’t you tell me, dude? I used to be a demigod, too, you know. If anybody understands how weird it is to be deified, it’s me.”
“I just wasn’t sure,” he said. “My dad has been weirdly unsupportive. He still thinks I’m a demigod and won’t consider that he could be wrong.”
“Typical Hades,” she snorted, shaking her head. “I already knew you were a god. The maenads said you bled ichor.”
Nico cringed at the memory. He’d brushed his ichor off for so long, telling himself it was normal blood dyed gold. That didn’t even make any sense. He was an idiot.
“What’s the matter? Why do you look so sad?” She asked.
“It’s kind of humiliating how long it took me to figure it out,” he admitted. “I feel like I don’t even know who I am anymore.”
She nodded sagely, swirling the wine in her glass.
“It’s such a confusing process,” she said. “I felt really gaslit by the whole thing.”
“Me too!” Nico said. “Ariadne, I literally don’t even know what a god is! How messed up is that?”
“It’s more complicated than they let on,” she agreed. “To this day, I’m not sure whether my mom was a goddess or just an immortal. She was half titan, half nymph, but she wasn’t either of those things? It’s so confusing! I don’t know what I was when I was born, but I was mortal. I think.”
“But you didn’t have ichor,” Nico said.
“No, I didn’t,” she said. “I got ichor after I married Di. But our sons were all born mortal. Di thinks I wasn’t a goddess until I was in my thirties, after I’d had the boys. I guess because it took a while to start being worshiped? But I was immortal immediately after the wedding, where Zeus proclaimed me as a goddess to everyone. How mixed up is that?”
“So immortality and divinity were separate processes,” Nico said. “And they happened over ten years apart?”
“Yes! How weird is that?”
“Commodus said he bled ichor before he died. He was making people worship him at the time. But he wasn’t immortal. He died, but he immediately resurrected as a god. So ichor doesn’t mean you’re immortal.”
“Ichor, immortality, and godhood are all separate processes?” Ariadne said. “It makes no sense.”
“Hercules has a theory gods are born,” Nico said.
“In that case, Hercules, and you and me-- none of us were ever normal demigods in the first place,” Ariadne said. “I suppose our fates are written at birth,” she shrugged.
She and Nico both frowned at the table, their brains working overtime trying to figure out a way to make sense of the strange process they’d gone through.
At the nearby table, a cheer rose up. The little girl had blown out the candles on her birthday cake, and her family was singing to her.
Ariadne looked over at her and smiled.
“What a cute little girl,” she said. “Three years old. What a tiny blink of a life, but such a sweet one.”
Nico leaned over and looked at what was written on the cake.
“No way,” he said. “Her name is Ariadne, too!”
Ariadne, the one beside him, gasped.
“I have to bless them!” she said excitedly. “The fates meant for us to be here tonight! Will you help me?”
“I don’t know how,” he said. “I don’t think I’ve ever blessed anyone.” He thought about the rosary he’d left for Maria Bova, and the steak he’d given to Will’s grandpa, and wondered whether that counted.
“You know how to make stuff, right?” She asked, waving her hand and making another bottle of wine appear.
“Not really.”
“Just picture it with confidence.”
Nico hesitated, then waved his hand, picturing a simple spoon with as much confidence as he could muster. At first nothing happened. He tried to make the spoon smaller, to see if that might help.
A small lump of metal appeared on the table.
“What’s the supposed to be?” Ariadne asked.
“A spoon,” he admitted.
She shook her head.
“You’re not confident enough in your own divinity. You have to own it. Then you’ll be able to do incredible things. Can you be in two places at once?”
“Yes,” he said. “By accident, mostly. I guess I can keep practicing.”
“Practice won’t make any difference,” she said. “It’s not your brain that does god stuff, it’s your you.”
“My me?”
“Your divine being. Doing things better on accident than on purpose means you’re self-sabotaging.”
“I didn’t ask for this,” he admitted. “I’d rather my life was normal. I don’t need all these powers for anything.”
“You’re just holding yourself back with that attitude!” She declared. “But whatever, let’s focus on making Ariadne’s birthday one to remember, shall we? Parties are kind of my thing.”
The music the little Ariadne’s dad was playing on his phone suddenly grew louder, and the song switched to something more vibrant and lively-- the birthday girl started kicking her feet in time to the music. The lights of the restaurant softened in color to a rich pinky-purple and glowed brighter around the small family party. Nico could smell the scent of fresh-baked chocolate cake drifting over to them, even though it was obviously a cheap, half-frozen storebought cake.
After a few minutes, some of the family members got up and started dancing. Nico noticed that they’d all starting drinking more; their cups were all filled to the brim, and the wine bottles on the table never seemed to run out no matter how many times they poured from them.
Once the guests were all tipsy and giggly, Ariadne got up and went over to them. Without any introduction or explanation, she started dancing with them and chatting everyone up. She beckoned Nico over, and he went up to the family of the birthday girl.
“Happy birthday, Ariadne,” he said, smiling at her. She was a normal three year old with chubby cheeks and a mop of brown curls, with lots of cute bows in her hair. Her parents were dancing, so he took a seat at the table beside her and watched the dancing while little Ariadne stuffed cake in her face.
It wasn’t long before everyone in the taverna had joined the party, including the restaurant staff. The music was loud and everyone was having fun. Ariadne, the goddess, not the toddler, was dancing quite provocatively with a very old man, who was clearly having the time of his life.
Nico admired the ease with which she used her abilities to subtly enhance everyone’s experiences without alerting them to anything abnormal. They’d be carried away by the joy of the moment, and only afterward when they were at home would they remember tonight and wonder who that woman had been, and had there been something different about her?
Maybe being a god wasn’t so bad, if this was part of it. Nico turned to the birthday girl and tried to think of a way he could bless her, too. He kept overthinking it, though, and nothing happened, so he gave up and just ate some of her cake while Ariadne danced.
The party went on long into the night, and Nico practiced off and on trying to make things appear through sheer force of will. He didn’t manage to pull it off until he started drinking out of a flask Ariadne handed to him; it was full of some kind of ambrosia cocktail. That loosened him up enough that he managed to create the spoon he’d failed at before.
He held it up, showing it to Ariadne, and she gave him a thumbs up while she continued to dominate the dance floor. He practiced making birthday gifts for the little girl, and managed to make her a golden bracelet and a little onyx figurine of Cerberus. Making things out of stone and metal was too easy, though. He racked his brain for something more challenging.
He filled the dad’s wallet with cash until it was bursting at the seams, and made his watch a Rolex while it was still on his wrist; that was tricky, but he managed it, and felt really proud of himself. Then he made her mom’s purse a Chanel clutch instead of a knockoff, and gave little Ariadne a crown of flowers for her hair.
The flowers were his crowning achievement, because he’d assumed that creating a living thing would be more difficult for him, but it was easy. It was starting to thrill him, this new ability. With the potential to create anything he put his mind to, the possibilities were limitless.
The night soon became morning, and eventually the birthday girl was sound asleep, lying across three chairs pushed together with a jacket draped over her back for a blanket. Nico made sure she’d rest well, with only pleasant dreams of pink ponies and dazzling sunsets. When Ariadne danced back over to him and sat down, he was smiling from ear to ear.
“It’s fun, isn’t it?” She asked, watching the family members start to pick up their things to leave as the sun rose. As they filed out of the restaurant, everyone waved goodbye to Nico and Ariadne and thanked them.
“That was really cool,” Nico agreed. “Do all gods do this?”
“They do,” Ariadne said. “Athena gives scholars brilliant ideas and battlefield commanders winning strategies. Hermes helps athletes break records and thieves pull off movie-worthy heists. And Apollo helps Taylor Swift out a lot.”
“If my dad blesses people, he’s never mentioned it,” Nico said.
“His generation has a lot of baggage,” Ariadne said. “I don’t really understand them all that well.”
“Same,” Nico sighed. “Thank you for being my friend, Ariadne. Sorry I dated your dad and didn’t tell you about it.”
“That’s okay. Thanks for helping me talk to him. If not for you, I never would have gotten closure.” She waved her hand and cleared off all the tables and swept the floor, so that the restaurant staff wouldn’t have extra work to do when they woke up; they were all asleep in the break room. “I wish I’d known you back in the old days. It would have been nice to have a friend I could count on.”
“I doubt I’d have liked your dad the way he was back then,” Nico said.
“But you’d have been a good influence on him. You’d have stood up for me. Who knows how things could have been different?” She mused. “But at least we know each other now. I’m grateful for you.”
“I’m grateful for you, too.”
“How adorable,” said a voice that came from not too far away.
Nico and Ariadne both looked up and saw a young woman staring at them. She was seated at a table across the patio. She looked at them, stood up, and started clapping slowly.
“Bravo,” she said. “Fantastic performance tonight. Pouring out blessings like a fountain, the both of you. How lucky we are to have benevolent gods like you in this cruel world.”
She was wearing big, chunky jewelry and a tight, shiny minidress, with long black hair in a high ponytail that swished around ominously as she walked toward them. She looked beautiful, yet deeply evil, with cruelty radiating off of her as she approached.
“Who is that?” Nico asked.
Ariadne took his hand and squeezed it, but she didn’t answer his question.
“You’re supposed to be dead,” Ariadne said, her voice trembling. “What are you doing here?”
The woman smirked at her, raising her eyebrows.
“Ariadne, sweetheart. Is that any way to greet your mother?”
Chapter 60: And That's Why You Shouldn't Kick Rocks
Chapter Text
“Pasiphae,” Nico said, horrified. “You’re supposed to be in the Fields of Punishment.”
“I got out on good behavior,” she said.
“You got out because Gaea’s Underworld rat broke you out,” Nico growled. “Who was it? And what do you want from us?”
Pasiphae’s lip curled downward in displeasure.
“I just stopped by to say hello to my little girl. Is that so hard to believe?”
Nico knew almost nothing about Pasiphae, since Minos had never talked about her. He could see why; her mere presence had Ariadne trembling.
“You have thirty seconds to say what you came to say before I send you back to the Underworld,” Nico said, standing in front of Ariadne and pulling out his sword. If things got ugly, he wanted to be the one to handle it-- no one should have to fight their mom.
“I’ll just walk back out again,” Pasiphae shrugged. Her demeanor was casual, but she was obviously on the verge of unleashing some sort of magic on the two of them; Nico could see small vials of something purple and nasty looking tucked into the neckline of her dress. Her hand kept twitching toward them like she was just waiting for them to make a wrong move.
They had nothing to gain from attacking her. Unless he killed her with Stygian iron, which he wasn’t willing to do, she would be back to bother him again within a few days. He didn’t want to give her the satisfaction of a fight, so he called her bluff to see if she’d take an out, if offered one.
“Looking forward to another hike through Tartarus? I hear the weather’s great this time of year,” he said.
Pasiphae frowned. She clearly didn’t want to go through the trouble of escaping death again. Her hand relaxed by her side.
“Listen closely,” she said. “I know all about you, Nico di Angelo, and your little affair with my husband. I hope it was worth it, because I’ve ensured that Gaea’s next offensive hits you where it hurts. And you, my sweet, traitorous little girl?” She pointed at Ariadne, who glared at her. “I’ve dropped off a little surprise at the vineyard, just for you. I hope it teaches you a lesson in loyalty.”
“What did you do, you bitch?” Ariadne shouted. “What did you do?”
"Family is forever, sweetie," Pasiphae cackled. Ariadne pushed past Nico and tried to run towards her mother, but Pasiphae just laughed. She dropped one of her vials and stomped it beneath her stiletto heel. Then she disappeared into a puff of purple smoke.
“I need to check on Selene and the Maenads and make sure everyone is okay,” Ariadne said. “If she hurt them, I’ll hunt her to the ends of the earth. Nico, you ought to go back to the Underworld and do the same. It sounds like we’re both her targets.”
“Agreed,” Nico said. “Let me know if you need help.”
“You too,” she nodded. They parted ways with a hug.
Nico shadow traveled back to the palace with his heart pounding. Everything was as dark and silent as ever, and nothing seemed to be wrong, but he ran straight to his dad’s office anyway.
“Papa, I need my phone,” he said immediately, seeing Hades at his desk.
“You are on restriction for making poor choices,” Hades said calmly.
“Gaea is kidnapping gods and attacking demigods left and right,” Nico said. “And she just sent Pasiphae to threaten me personally! I need my phone; what if she attacked one of my friends and they're trying to get in touch with me?”
“Then I suppose they will die a horrible death and you can apologize once they arrive here,” Hades said, unmoved by Nico’s dismay. “You can explain that you couldn’t help them because you walked into a portal that didn’t belong to you. What do you care about Gaea’s machinations? You tried to work against her once already, and as I recall, it didn’t prove effective.”
“I wasn’t a target before. Now I am,” Nico said. “Whatever. You don’t care, obviously.”
“Not really,” Hades said, clicking on his computer absent-mindedly as though he’d gotten bored of the conversation. “You’re on house arrest, remember? And my realm is quite secure.”
“Other than the door in Tartarus,” Nico said.
“That was mentioned in the prophecy, so I knew it was inevitable. The demigods will take care of it,” Hades said.
“Have you heard from Thanatos yet?” Nico asked.
“No, but I’d imagine he’s sulking somewhere as usual,” Hades said.
“He could be in serious danger,” Nico said, walking up to his dad’s desk and putting his hands on the cold granite surface, bracing for an argument if necessary. “He has a history of losing fights. I think he’s an easy target for godnapping.”
“I agree, but I’m not his keeper,” Hades said. “I’m barely even his boss. His mother wouldn’t let any serious harm come to him, so cease your worrying. He’s probably angry with you for your disappearing act. He looked for you more than any of the rest of us did, and we looked very hard.”
He gave Nico a disapproving glare that cowed him into submission.
“I’m really sorry about that,” Nico said, reminded that he had caused his dad significant stress, and that now probably wasn’t the best time to cause him more.
“If you’re sorry, be a good boy and go work on your project,” Hades said, shooing him away. “And do not leave this palace, or you will never see that precious phone of yours again. You can earn it back when you’ve learned your lesson.”
Nico went to his office and worked for a long time, taking the opportunity to respond to everyone who’d emailed asking about his whereabouts. He told everyone the same story about the Christians, and it seemed to gain a lot of sympathy. Hercules had told the Olympians about Saint Valentine holding him and Nico in his basement, so a few people expressed dismay that it had happened to Nico twice in such a short period of time. Isis even offered to cleanse him of any lingering incense smell he might have picked up, but he politely declined.
Ariadne had apparently returned home to find the Minotaur, or her brother Asterion, as she called him, in her vineyard eating next year’s harvest. She seemed relieved that it hadn’t been something worse, and she’d been able to send him into a drunken stupor immediately with minimal property damage. She still had to figure out what to do with him, but it was nothing she couldn’t handle.
To his relief, Reyna responded to his email almost as soon as he'd hit send. A huge weight fell off his shoulders when he read that Hazel was doing well. Apparently she was extorting exorbitant fees from Octavian in exchange for her amulets, and it was eating up his entire discretionary budget.
“That’s my girl,” Nico said, smiling.
The only person he couldn’t get in touch with on the computer was Will. His email was [email protected], and he had no explanation for the weird address that Will would accept. Obviously he could split his consciousness and visit in person if he wanted, but all of the excuses for his disappearance he came up with sounded hollow. He wasn’t sure there was anything left between them to try to salvage, but he couldn’t bear the thought of letting him go without saying goodbye.
Thanatos hadn’t logged in for almost a month, the length of time that Nico had been gone. His gut told him something was seriously wrong, but he sent him an apologetic email just in case. He’d give Thanatos time to answer, and if he didn’t hear anything, he’d go back to the search, his dad’s orders be damned.
He didn’t end up hearing anything, and the email was never opened. Days passed with no word from his friend, and he grew increasingly convinced something must be wrong. He even went to ask Nyx about it, but for once, the goddess wasn’t home. He didn’t know she left the Underworld, so that was odd. He hoped she wasn’t the one kidnapped. He highly doubted it.
While he passed the days at home working, hanging out with Hades and Persephone, and giving Cerberus lots of affection, he worried constantly. Maybe this was Thanatos’s revenge for making him search for an entire month. Nico tried to reassure himself that was probably all it was. But he still sent emails every day, and even split his consciousness a few times to look for Thanatos everywhere he could think of. He never found him.
All of Nico’s other pursuits were more productive. He got his blood diamond project mostly done, caught up with Minos as friends without crying or throwing up, and even held the poetry contest in Elysium he’d been planning on for ages and nearly forgotten about. Hades and Persephone both came up to Elysium for the occasion, sitting with the shades beneath the petrified trees of the Philosopher’s grove. Nico even invited his mom, aunt, and grandmother. Persephone made room for them and eagerly offered Nico’s mother a seat on the Astroturf beside her. The two of them sat together and whispered like old friends, a sight that made Nico laugh purely because of how uncomfortable it clearly made his dad, who kept trying to scoot further and further away without being too obvious about it.
The guests of honor, along with all of the shades in the Philosopher’s Grove, sat in rapt attention as the greatest poets of Western civilization read new works aloud for the first time in millennia.
It was a total disaster. Every single shade read an old work of theirs that they’d changed slightly to make sound new. Homer read a story about a man named Nodysseus traveling the Mediterranean on a Jet-ski. Dante kept the Inferno identical, only he updated the names of the referential characters to modern people like Mitch McConnell and Kim Kardashian. T. S. Eliot had written a book of familiar sounding poems about dogs.
Each entry got a huge round of applause, and all the dead participants and audience members considered the event a great success. After all, everything in Elysium was pretty good, at worst. That said, Nico was mortified at discovering that creativity was exclusively limited to the living.
Hades awarded everyone a participation trophy and tried to hide his disappointment.
“A festival of plagiarism,” Hades said, as they walked downstairs to return home. “They plagiarized themselves.”
“They did their best,” Persephone said, arm in arm with her husband. “It was still new writing, or at least a small percentage of it was.”
“I’ll come up with a better plan next time,” Nico said. “I can force them to pick a topic they haven’t covered before.”
“Don’t be so hard on yourself, dear,” Persephone said. “I had a nice time, regardless.”
“It was a noble attempt,” Hades said, “But you should move on. Your diamond business is a much better use of your time,” he added, as the stairs wound past a rock sporting a cluster of ruby-red blood diamonds. They regrew immediately after harvest, so the supply chain was incredibly robust.
“It’s going better than I expected,” Nico said, plucking a handful and eating them. “I want the next phase of marketing to be lifestyle focused. If we can get Aphrodite to model for us, we’ll really do numbers next quarter. Persephone, are you friends with her?”
“Not at all. She scares me,” Persephone said. “After what happened with Eros and your father, we don’t speak.”
“What happened?”
Persephone and Hades looked at each other.
“What? Did he do something to you?” Nico asked.
Hades sighed.
“He shot me with an arrow that… Caused problems. That’s all I care to say on the subject. Suffice to say, he was banished from my kingdom.”
Nico gasped.
“I thought he left on his own?”
“Nyx took my side and supported his banishment. She doesn’t want her other children to know, so don’t tell Thanatos, or any of the others, for that matter.”
“Okay, I won’t,” Nico said. He had borne a grudge against Eros for a while now, and it only grew stronger when he thought about what that arrow may have caused. If it was what he thought it was, Eros had deserved that banishment.
“Aphrodite adopted him after his banishment. The two of them avoid us now,” Persephone said. “But if you need a model, I’m more than happy to volunteer. Although I won’t do any nude modeling.”
“I wasn’t going to ask you to!” Nico said, embarrassed.
“You didn’t let me finish. I won’t do any nude modeling without good lighting,” she said, smirking.
“There’s not going to be any nude modeling,” Nico insisted.
“Do you want to sell diamonds or not?” Hades asked incredulously.
“Yes, if I didn’t know better I’d think he’s implying I’m not pretty enough,” Persephone pouted.
“It’s his Christian influences showing,” Hades frowned. “I should have tried harder to beat those out of him as a child. Perhaps it isn’t too late.”
Nico sighed.
“I guess it’s fine, if it’s that important to you,” he said. “As long as it’s tasteful.”
They arrived back at the palace, where Cerberus bounded up to them with three bones in his mouth. Hades, Persephone, and Nico each took one and threw it in a different direction, and Cerberus started to spin in excited circles, running faster and faster until he forgot why he’d started spinning and collapsed. It was a trick they’d discovered recently, and it never failed to make them laugh.
Cerberus spun until he’d exhausted himself, then flopped over on the floor onto his back, exposing his belly. Hades knelt down to scratch him, telling him softly that he was the goodest boy in the whole Underworld.
“You pick the movie tonight, Nico,” Persephone said, putting her arm around him. “I picked last time.”
“I’ll have to think about it,” he said.
“Might I suggest--”
“Not Planet Earth,” Hades said firmly, looking back at them. “Three times is enough, dear.”
They headed down to Hades’ room where the largest TV was, and Persephone waved her hand and summoned twinkle lights to set the mood. Cerberus bounded in and jumped on the bed, taking up most of the space, and Nico, Persephone, and Hades squeezed in around him trying to find room.
Just before Hades could open Netflix, Persephone’s phone rang.
“It’s mom,” she said. “Sorry, boys, I’ll be back in a minute.”
She left the room to take her phone call.
“What movie did you choose?” Hades asked.
“How about The Godfather?” Nico suggested. He waved his hand and made three identical popcorn buckets appear. Cerberus immediately grabbed all three, one with each head, so he lifted his hand to make three more. “I heard it’s good, so--”
Hades reached out and grabbed his wrist.
“What?” Nico asked. “Is it a bad movie?”
“What are you doing?” Hades hissed.
“I’m sorry,” Nico said. “We can watch something else, I just--” He looked up at his dad, and then glanced at the popcorn that Cerberus was scarfing down.
His heart skipped a beat. He’d been so careful not to use his godly powers in front of them. Now they were going to have to talk about it. Well, at least his dad was in a good mood...
“I tried to tell you before,” he said, looking up at Hades. “You wouldn’t listen.”
Hades let go of him and stood up to start pacing the room. He walked back and forth, and a miasma of malevolent energy surrounded him. Nico’s heart sank with disappointment.
“How many times must I repeat it before you get it through your thick skull?” Hades said, almost as if he were talking to himself and not to his son. He didn’t even look at him as he spoke. “You cannot be a god,” he hissed. “It is impossible.”
“I can prove it, if you need to see more evidence,” Nico said. He stood beside the bed, watching his dad pace around the room erratically. “I can--”
“Stop,” Hades said, swooping around and grabbing Nico’s shoulders. “Stop talking.”
“But—”
“I said stop!” Hades said, and Nico felt his mouth lock shut. He couldn’t do anything about it; his mouth wouldn’t open, and he was forced to be silent. He may have been a god, but it didn’t alter the fact that his father was far more powerful than he was.
Nico glared at his dad and tried to wrench out of his grasp, but there was nothing he could do; Hades held him fast in place and dug his fingers into his shoulders, despite Nico stomping firmly on his foot.
“Stop fighting, you disobedient little hellion. If you’d dropped the subject like I asked you to, this wouldn’t have been necessary,” he sighed. “Now you force my hand.”
Hades snapped his fingers, and the bedroom with the movie lights disappeared. Instead, the two of them were engulfed in total darkness and silence.
Nico looked around frantically. At first he thought they were in Erebus, but they were standing on the same hard stone floor that they had been before. Hades had just encased them in a sealed off area.
“I don’t want Persephone overhearing,” Hades sighed. “She has a tendency to eavesdrop on our conversations.”
He didn’t release the binding on Nico’s mouth, which was infuriating. The only light in the darkness came from the faint glow rising from Hades’ skin-- and Nico’s. Was his father really blind to it? How glaringly obvious did it have to become before his dad would stop gaslighting him and accept that self-diagnosis was valid?
He attempted to stomp his foot again, but Hades stepped out of his reach.
“I had hoped to never share this with you,” Hades sighed. “But you’ve left me no choice.” He swallowed, hesitating.
Wait a second, Nico thought. He had no idea what this was all about, but he really didn’t like the expression on his dad’s face. A pit of anxiety began to grow in his stomach. This feeling in the air felt familiar. It was the sensation of another shoe on the precipice of dropping.
“Haven’t you ever wondered why I don’t already have divine children?”
Hades removed the binding.
“Asshole,” Nico muttered, rubbing his face. “No, I never wondered. I thought you just couldn’t.”
“It’s because I made it that way,” Hades said quietly. “When my marriage was arranged to Persephone, I asked Nyx to magically ensure no child could ever be conceived in this realm. I demanded it be irreversible, so that I couldn’t change my mind.”
“And Persephone was okay with that?”
“She hadn’t been born yet,” Hades said.
“So you didn’t want kids,” Nico said, folding his arms across his chest. “And you made sure she couldn’t have any without asking her first. That’s obnoxious.”
“It was necessary,” Hades said. “In order to put an end to the bloodline of Kronos.” His face darkened at the mention of his father’s name, and the black miasma surrounding him grew thicker and more fog-like. “It is my responsibility, and my burden,” he added, his voice dropping to a near-whisper.
It was at that moment that Nico realized something majorly fucked up was about to be revealed. Hades rarely brought up Kronos. And he sounded… Scared?
“Kronos has lots of descendants,” Nico said, his voice losing the confidence it had held previously. “Why are you the only one worried about this?”
“I’m not,” Hades said. “I’m just the only one with the self control to do anything about it. But it worries my brothers, too. Although my reasons for being worried are different.”
Hades hesitated.
“Swear on the Styx you won’t repeat this to Persephone, what I’m about to tell you.”
“Okay. I swear,” Nico said. It was hardly a choice; he needed to know.
“I am my father’s jailer,” Hades said. “I’m also his oldest son, his heir, which holds significance to him. He thinks the child who ought to be the most loyal is the least. That angers him. At times, he grows strong, and begins a campaign of harassment in order to be set free. He makes false promises and dire threats, and insults me personally.”
“He talks to you?”
“He projects himself into my mind when he’s strong enough to do so. Mostly, it’s confined to my dreams. He’s quiet at the moment, thankfully,” he said. “His defeat is still recent.”
Nico’s mouth went dry. To think that his dad had been suffering like that for millennia was sickening.
“But that’s not fair,” Nico said. “If he has to mind-rape somebody, it should be Zeus, not you!”
Hades’ stony expression melted, and he smiled warmly at Nico.
“So true, son. So true. He has tried it on other gods and demigods over the years, but I have always gotten the worst of it. Fortunately, I’m good at tuning him out. Now do you see why it’s crucial that you do not become a god?”
“No,” Nico said, panic rising in his chest. “Why does it matter? I’ve never even met Kronos.”
“If he found out about you, he would take over your mind and torture you until you freed him,” Hades said, as though it were an obvious statement of fact.
Nico was stunned into silence.
“But… But you said he does that to other gods, too…”
“Yes, he manipulated Ares through his dreams a few years ago. He convinced him to steal my Helm and Zeus’s lightning bolt. If he can do that to Ares, who is thousands of years old, how much easier would it be for him to control you? From his perspective, you’re no more than an infant.”
“Maybe I’m smarter than Ares,” Nico said weakly, grasping at straws.
“Of course you are,” Hades said. “Think how easy it would be for you to slip into Tartarus unnoticed to remove Kronos’s chains. Ares could never have managed, but you’d have it done in a matter of minutes. Kronos will realize that. He will be relentless, and there will be nothing more I can do to protect you once he begins to take over your mind.”
“Why didn’t you tell me about this sooner?” Nico asked, his voice pitched with terror.
“It would have scared you needlessly,” Hades said, seeing that Nico was starting to panic and softening his tone slightly. “The important thing is that you never go to Tartarus, and you stop calling yourself a god. Words have power, and he has ears everywhere.”
The important thing was that he never go to Tartarus? Hades didn’t even know that Nico had already been. Hades was right, Nico would be a massive asset to Kronos. He could free him, and Kronos probably already knew that. The second his evil grandpa had his strength back, Nico was toast.
“What happens if he finds out?” Nico asked.
“Then I’d have no choice but to imprison you in Tartarus along with him,” Hades said. “For the safety of the pantheon.”
Nico tried to picture eternity in Tartarus. It was impossible to imagine enduring the torturous conditions for more than a few days at most. Every breath would burn his lungs and throat. His skin would crisp and peel from the acidic atmosphere. He’d be restrained from moving, with only Titans for company.
“Would you really do that to me, Papa?” Nico asked weakly.
“Don’t look at me like that,” Hades said. He pulled Nico into his arms for a hug, although Nico didn’t want to be anywhere near him. He left his arms hanging limply by his sides.
“I wouldn’t do it if I had any other choice,” Hades said. “It’s for your own good, really. You’d be useless to Kronos, and he’d leave you alone. Physically, you would be imprisoned, but your mind would be your own, and you’d still be you. Persephone and I would visit.”
He held onto his son tightly, but there was nothing he could do to comfort him. Nico felt shell-shocked and numb, his only perceivable emotion pure, unadulterated terror.
“I’m going to choose to trust you for as long as I can,” Hades said in another attempt to be reassuring. “I’ll trust that if he ever reaches out, you will tell me immediately. In exchange, I want you to fight off whatever it is that’s happening to you. Godhood is a multi-step process, so it’s possible not all the steps--”
“I know,” Nico said, already well aware that it was too late.
“It might not be too late for you,” Hades said, looking at him pityingly.
Nico had often wondered why his father seemed so oblivious to his power. He had his answer now. He and Hades were both very good at denying inconvenient truths.
“Repeat after me,” Hades said. “I’m not a god. I’m just a demigod.”
Nico sighed.
“Papa...”
“Say it.”
“I’m not a god. I’m just a demigod,” Nico said reluctantly. Speaking the words aloud felt like something left him, like a balloon deflating. He could see the slight glow of his skin dim in the darkness, felt his body grow tired.
“Again.”
“I’m not a god, I’m just a demigod,” he said again. Again, he withered slightly. It wasn’t a nice feeling.
“Good, good,” Hades said, pleased with the results. “Keep at it, and perhaps we can stave this off indefinitely. Now try to act normal. Persephone is coming back.”
He let the walls of darkness dissipate.
“I’m back,” Persephone said. “So sorry about that! Mama was worried about the frost hitting too late and peach growth being negatively impacted. Zeus really needs to get on top of this climate change situation. What’s with the long faces, boys?” She asked, examining their expressions curiously.
“Just arguing as usual,” Hades said. He nudged Nico back into his spot and climbed back onto the bed beside him. “Shall we?” He gestured at the movie he’d pulled up.
“The Godfather,” Persephone read off the screen. “A family film! How appropriate!”
Persephone realized within a few minutes that it was not a family film, and that she didn’t like the movie at all, which she mentioned loudly several times. Nico, however, was engrossed. He hadn’t expected to be able to pay attention after what he’d just learned, but something about the movie just clicked. He could empathize with the struggle of the main character, Michael, who was reckoning with the same difficulties of being an ‘outsider’ in his criminal family who was suddenly, and violently, pulled ‘in’.
Partway through the movie was a scene where Michael, was talking to his mob boss father, Vito, about the family business. During the conversation, Vito expressed regret at his son’s fate, saying, “I never wanted this for you.”
Nico made the mistake of glancing at his father during that scene. Hades couldn’t even look at him; he’d turned his face away.
Nico had been feeling terribly hostile towards his father ever since the unpleasant revelation that he was probably going to spend eternity in Tartarus. It was hard to get news like that and not get a little snippy. But when he really thought about it, none of this was his dad’s fault. Hades hadn’t asked to have an evil Titan dad. It wasn’t his choice to be assigned as the protector of Tartarus. And he’d obviously never intended for Nico to become a god.
Nico was the primary victim in this situation, but his dad had also drawn a hard lot. One more among many others. It was unfair to both of them. He wondered if his dad was now regretting getting emotionally attached to his son. Maybe it would have been easier if they still hated each other.
“Oh, honey,” Persephone said, putting her arm around Nico’s shoulders. “Do you often get this upset at movies?”
“I’m fine,” he said, wiping tears from his eyes. Vito Corleone had just died onscreen, so Persephone didn’t realize he was crying about something else entirely.
“It’s a very dark film. I don’t care for it,” she said. “Hades, quick, put on Gardener’s World, this film is upsetting our boy!”
“No, I’m okay. I want to see the end,” Nico said. “My mortal boyfriend thinks I’m weird because I haven’t seen it.” If he even still had a boyfriend.
“Alright, if it’s for love,” Persephone laughed, squeezing him around the shoulders and resting her head on top of his. She was being sweet, but Nico really wasn’t in the mood to be social. He was eager for the movie to end soon.
The final scene of the movie was Michael Corleone shutting the door in his wife’s face.
Once the credits were rolling, Persephone snatched up the remote and turned the TV off.
“You two make me feel like that woman sometimes,” she said casually.
Nico and Hades both turned to her.
“What are you talking about?” Hades asked.
“I had to circle the hall three times before I could come back in here,” she said. “While you were having your little argument? I can see how upset it made you both. Tell me what it was about.”
Her tone was intense. They’d pissed her off. Nico immediately went into a panic. He literally couldn’t tell her the truth, since he’d sworn on the Styx, and even if he could, he didn’t want to. She’d be devastated to hear that his eternal fate was one of torment and misery.
“I wanted my phone back,” he said lightly.
That might have convinced Persephone, if Hades hadn’t said, at the same time, “He was complaining about work, as usual.”
Her eyebrows slowly drew together into two sharply downturned lines. Her normally sweet and open face darkened.
“Fine,” she said. “You go ahead and keep your secrets. I’ll keep mine.”
She got off the bed and stormed out of the room, leaving poison nettles growing in her wake.
“Will you tell her?” Nico asked.
“Never,” Hades said, turning his face away again. He put up another wall of darkness around the room. Nico wondered how much Persephone had been eavesdropping in order to make that necessary; the thought was worrying.
Cerberus sat up and licked Hades' face reassuringly. “You could have years before he wakes up, you know. There’s no point in ruining them for her.”
“You didn’t have any problem ruining them for me,” Nico snapped.
“Would you rather I had kept lying?” Hades asked.
Nico stared at the floor.
“I don’t know. I guess not. Is any part of you curious why this happened to me? Seemingly for no reason?”
Hades scratched behind Cerberus’s ears for a moment without answering.
“I fail to see how it’s relevant to our problem,” he said. “So, no.”
Maybe it wasn’t relevant, but it certainly gave Nico someone to blame. But it was also a question he might really not like the answer to.
“Maybe it was an accident,” he sighed, not wanting to go there just yet. “But it does give me an idea,” Nico said. “What if it can be undone? Is it possible to make me mortal again?”
“I hadn’t thought of that,” Hades said. “Zeus has done it before, but only temporarily.”
“But that’s better than nothing, right? I don’t think your denial plan is going to help much.”
“But we’d have to ask Zeus,” Hades said, frowning. “You would want that?”
“Hell no! I’d rather be chained in Tartarus than ask that bastard for help,” Nico said. “But Chiron taught Zeus everything he knows. I can ask him.”
“That is… Actually a good idea,” Hades admitted.
“See, doesn’t it feel better having a plan?” Nico said exasperatedly. “You were just going to give up on me! Did you even try to think of an alternative before you decided to chain me up?”
“That’s an unfair oversimplification,” Hades said, his expression still very gloomy. “I have millennia of experience to reference, and I can tell you with certainty, things don’t tend to work out well where I’m concerned. It would be just my luck to have a divine son cursed to eternal torment for no good reason.”
Nico’s slight feeling of hope diminished upon hearing that. Hades was just being truthful, but being brought back down to earth was painful all the same. He was very much not out of the woods by a longshot, and Kronos could always wake up early and surprise them. Every second he was a god, he was in danger.
“Besides, you’re better at coming up with ideas,” Hades admitted.
“Ariadne knows about me,” Nico said. “She’ll tell Dionysus. It’s only a matter of time before everyone knows on Olympus.”
“I’ll ask Dionysus to keep it to himself. He owes me,” Hades said, taking out his phone. “Just stay off of Zeus’s radar. He’s very busy with the war, and most of the Olympians are sequestered on Olympus, trying not to be kidnapped. It should be easy to continue hiding it from him.”
“Okay,” Nico said. He hesitated while his father texted beside him.
“What are you waiting on? Go email Chiron.”
“Can I have another hug?”
“Oh. Yes,” Hades said, hugging him as requested. “You must be frightened.”
“Mhm,” Nico said, feeling that that was the understatement of the century.
“Well, you should be, but try to focus on your plan instead of moping. That won’t help,” Hades said. He pushed Nico away. “Go. Learn how to be powerless again. If the Fates are kind, we can turn you back into what you were always supposed to be.”
“Can I have my phone back?”
“No.”
Nico went back to his room and wallowed in despair for a few hours until he got bored. It was easy to get bored when eating and sleeping weren’t really part of your routine and you had no phone.
He got up and went to Persephone’s garden, but she wasn’t there. He headed to her bedroom instead, the one she shared with her husband, but that was also empty. He found her in the third, empty bedroom with the dead plants on the windowsill. She was sitting on the floor with a plant in her lap, her paisley skirt spread out beneath her. She was speaking softly to the tiny fern, trying to coax it back to life.
“Is this your room for when you’re mad at my dad?” Nico asked.
“How perceptive,” she said, clearly still annoyed with him.
“I’m sorry,” Nico said, sitting down cross-legged across from her. She looked up at him, and her expression was full of hurt and disappointment.
“Are you going to tell me what you were arguing about?” She asked.
“I can’t. It’s something really personal, and I’m just not ready to tell you. But I’m sorry I lied about it.”
She shook her head, and turned her face to look at the crinkled brown leaves that she held gently between her fingers. As she stroked them, they turned green and came to life again. When she drew her hand away, they shriveled.
“Don’t mistake my kindness for naivete,” she said. “I know more than you think.”
“I know you do. It was disrespectful,” he said. “I promise to be honest from now on.”
“Promises don’t mean anything if you don’t intend to keep them,” she scolded him. “Why don’t you go ahead and tell me? Don’t you trust me? I might be able to help.”
“I told you, it’s personal,” Nico said, bristling slightly.
“But we’re family. We should be able to rely on each other,” she said. “Never mind, I can see you digging your heels in. I’m very disappointed, Nico. I hope you’ll think about all that I’ve done for you over the last few years and reconsider.”
He nodded, and she dismissed him, turning back to her potted plants.
He headed to his office, feeling frustrated that she couldn’t just let this go, because there was no way they could ever tell her. There would be no one happier than Persephone to hear that he was a god. She’d be devastated to know he and his dad had hid it from her. It would be best if he reversed the process, he became mortal again, and she never knew it had even happened. At this point they had lied to her so much that it was the only option if they wanted to avoid her going nuclear on them.
He went back to his library office and checked his emails for a few minutes. There was a knock on the door.
Nico opened it. Charon was standing on the other side.
“Charon! Come in, sit down,” Nico said, delighted to see the friendly ferryman. Charon swooped inside, his ragged robe dragging across the floor. He perched on one of the reading couches and folded his skeletal hands in his lap.
“I guess you saw my email,” Nico asked. Charon nodded, then made a soft rattling noise in the back of his throat.
“No sign of him? Really?” Nico sighed in disappointment. He’d been hoping that Thanatos would have told his little brother something about where he was going, but apparently not. “I’ve been looking everywhere I can think of, but I have to stop splitting my consciousness and stay put, starting now.”
Charon raised a muscle in his rotting face that resembled an eyebrow.
“Yeah, that’s a thing,” Nico admitted. “But I can’t use godly abilities anymore. I’m trying to become mortal again as soon as possible. It’s a long story.”
Charon gave him a disappointed glance, tipping his hat downward.
“Yeah, maybe it is a waste, but I never asked for this,” Nico said, feeling a little defensive about his choice. Charon had no idea how dire Nico’s situation was. His only options were returning to mortality or eternity in Tartarus; being a god was simply not his destiny. “Hey, do me a favor? If you hear anything or get any clue about Than, please tell me right away. I’m happy to break the rules and sneak out of here if we get a lead on his whereabouts. Until then, I need to stay on house arrest, or I’ll just get in worse trouble.”
Charon gave him a skeletal thumbs up, then left to return to work. Nico pulled up the death statistics for the past six weeks and cringed. Thanatos had stopped working about three weeks ago, and an unbelievable number of souls hadn’t been collected. A handful had been taken by Hermes, but he’d stopped working abruptly two weeks ago, after Nico had returned home.
Nico studied the numbers more closely. There as no labeling system; he had to guess whether Thanatos or Hermes had taken the soul just based on his familiarity with their work habits. Thanatos worked in short bursts where he’d take thousands of souls in a handful of hours, then stop abruptly to take a break. Hermes tended to grab one when he was in the neighborhood and continue with his preferred activities until the next opportunity came along.
Analyzing the data led Nico to the conclusion that Thanatos had been searching for him 24/7 in the immediate period after his disappearance. He’d probably come looking for him once he and Rosa had arrived in Asphodel, and would have heard immediately that he’d disappeared into thin air. He had collected a few batches of souls in the subsequent weeks, probably after realizing that Nico wasn’t going to be easy to locate. It wasn’t too different from Nico’s search for Than. If you had no leads to go on, it was a wasted effort to search the entire world in no particular order.
Hermes, on the other hand, had collecting souls in his normal, aimless fashion up until exactly one day after Nico’s return. Nico wasn’t sure what difference his presence made to Hermes. He wondered if Pasiphae’s warning had applied to him; maybe Hermes had been kidnapped by Giants.
Nico couldn’t think of a single reason to care. It wasn’t like Hermes worked much anyway. He closed the tab.
He conjured a cigarette and lit it before realizing that he wasn’t supposed to do that anymore. He kept smoking it, thinking bitterly of his stupid titan grandpa ruining his fun before he’d even started enjoying godhood. Then he thought even more bitterly about Percy Jackson being the one to defeat Kronos. If not for that, Nico’s mind might have already been overtaken.
Then he remembered that, if not for Percy getting Bianca killed, none of this would have happened in the first place. He’d still be at Camp Half Blood eating s’mores or something.
That reminded him that he needed to call Chiron. He sent him a Zoom invite.
“Nico?” Chiron answered the video call. “What a surprise to hear from you. To what do I owe the pleasure?”
Nico could hear the chatter of children in the background, probably some year-round campers having a food fight or something.
“Can you tell those kids to be quiet? I have something important to discuss with you.”
Chiron started clip-clopping towards the big house. While Nico sat waiting, Hades came into the library.
“It’s Chiron,” Nico said. “I’m going to ask him.”
Hades nodded, and created a seal of darkness around the room for him. Nico really hoped Persephone wouldn’t notice. Based on the guilty look on his face, Hades hoped the same. It felt like they were sneaking around her house, having secret conversations behind her back-- and they were the only three people in the palace, so that was really obnoxious.
“I put on Gardener’s World,” Hades said. “She’s enamored with the host, so it should keep her distracted. But I can’t stay, or she’ll get suspicious.”
Nico nodded, and Hades walked out.
Chiron went into the Big House and set the phone down so that he was facing Nico.
“Dionysus isn’t around?” Nico asked.
“He went to Sheetz for a Coke slushie, as he usually does around this time of afternoon,” Chiron said. “Is this meant to be secret from him?”
“No, he knows already,” Nico said, knowing Hades had already texted him. “But I have to tell you something. I’m a god.”
“Hmm,” Chiron said, looking at him not the slightest bit differently. “Well, I suppose that’s good, because otherwise that cigarette would earn a stern lecture from me, as your former counselor.”
Nico smiled; he’d forgotten how nice Chiron could be. He was also pretty sure Chiron had already known and was just being polite.
“Is there a story behind this apotheosis of yours?” Chiron asked.
“Um, weirdly, no,” Nico said. “I don’t know how it happened. It took me a while to notice. My guess is that, when I overdosed on ambrosia and was healed from it, I woke up like this.”
“And you think it was an accident?” Chiron said, skepticism creeping into his voice.
“It’s a theory,” Nico said. “The problem is, I don’t want to be a god. I want it undone, and I need your help to go back to normal.”
Chiron stared in surprise for a moment.
“If I’m understanding you correctly, you’ve been living as a god for years already,” he said. “What would normal mean to you, precisely?”
Nico hadn’t really thought that through. Normal, if he had to guess, would mean thirst, hunger, regular bouts of sleepiness, and the occasional flu. And death, of course, but that didn’t bother him as much as the other stuff.
“I mean mortal, with all that entails. Can you help me?”
“No,” Chiron said. “I cannot. Gods are each made for a purpose, and without consulting the Fates, I can’t presume that re-mortalizing you wouldn’t upset the balance of the universe. And even if you became mortal, I doubt you could be killed. The gods are named athanatoi for a reason.”
“Oh, come on,” Nico whined. “I’m no one important, I’m just a mistake. There’s got to be a way to fix me.”
“I may not know everything about your situation, but I can assure you, you are not a mistake,” Chiron said. “No god is. Does your father know that you’re pursuing divine suicide? I can’t imagine that after all those childless years, he’d relish throwing away his long-awaited immortal son.”
“More like long-avoided,” Nico said. “I can’t give you all the details, but he has a good reason for wanting to get rid of me, and me becoming mortal again is the only option that doesn’t involve Tartarus.”
“Tartarus?” Chiron said with alarm. “I can’t go along with this. I must tell Zeus.”
“You can’t,” Nico said, panicked. “Chiron, you can’t, and I can’t let you. It’s going to escalate things to an insane level.”
“Zeus is not the irrational nincompoop your father thinks he is,” Chiron said. “At the end of the day, he will do whatever is best for the pantheon, regardless of any personal grudge you may have with each other. I can’t imagine he’d want you in Tartarus for no reason.”
“But there is a reason,” Nico insisted. “I just don’t want to tell you what it is. Look, I called you asking for help. If you’re not going to, fine, but don’t make things worse for me. I have it bad enough as it is. Please?” Nico clasped his hands in a begging gesture in front of the webcam.
Chiron was silent, staring into the camera with his bushy brows lowered over his eyes in disapproval.
“I will do you one single favor,” Chiron said. “I will ask Zeus about your question without mentioning your name. And, depending on his answer, I will consider telling you. I can’t promise more until I’ve had time to ponder this. You put me in a difficult position.”
It wasn’t much, but it was a chance. Nico had to take it.
“Thank you,” he said sincerely. “Thank you so much. I promise I wouldn’t ask if it wasn’t important.”
Chiron nodded, and hung up the call.
Nico anxiously smoked the rest of the day away, pacing around the library. He looked in a few books and scrolls for records of gods becoming mortal, but only found record of Poseidon and Apollo ever going through it. Zeus had punished them for misbehavior, and they’d been temporarily sentenced to live as mortals. But they’d been turned back to their original forms eventually, and they had never been killed. Nico would need a more permanent fix, but it was a start. He just had to hope that Zeus was not his only option, and that the instructions were something simple that he could DIY.
After some time, his father came back, and Nico explained to him everything that Chiron had said.
“Athanatoi,” his father said, raising his eyebrows. “Perhaps that’s true, that your immortality cannot be undone. If we merely render you powerless, that ought to be enough. You haven’t been using any divine abilities, have you?”
“No,” Nico said, hiding his cigarette behind his back.
“Good. Don’t.”
Hades turned to leave.
“Wait,” Nico said. Hades looked back over his shoulder.
“Aren’t you happy that I might be able to stay forever? You still look just as miserable as before, even though I feel like we’re making progress.”
Hades sighed.
“The happier I am over it, the less likely it is to happen. The Fates have never spared me trouble. The best we can hope for is for them to overlook us this time. So keep your head down and don’t draw any attention to yourself.”
Nico was pretty sure that wasn’t how the Fates worked, but the message was clear-- they were not going to count their chickens until they hatched. It was a rational approach, but it sent Nico into another funk of depression and anxiety. It was a familiar cocktail by now.
He went to his room and tried to sleep, to silence his brain, but he had a horrible nightmare that Kronos was chasing him around Venice, trying to shove him into a canal. Kronos looked an awful lot like the minotaur, and was wearing red overalls for some reason. It was obvious that it was a stupid dream and not Kronos messing with his head. Still, it unsettled him deeply, and he woke up shaken, feeling worse than before.
When Kronos came for his mind, would it be like that, only while he was awake? There would be no waking up and finding himself in bed, safe and sound. He’d be trapped in whatever hell Kronos cooked up for him. Otherwise, he’d be in Tartarus, in a different hell entirely.
He shuddered, and cocooned himself in his blanket for a long time, terrible possibilities running through his mind.
Eventually he got bored and slouched over to his father’s room to watch TV. Hades and Persephone weren’t around, and it was Cerberus’ naptime, so he was all alone. He turned on the Godfather Part 2 and watched it in the dark.
Hades came in and stood to one side of the room, quietly watching along with him.
“Here,” he said. Something small and black landed on the bed next to Nico.
“My phone!” Nico said, delighted. His stomach flipped over thinking about finally texting Will; he’d gotten in touch with everyone else he needed to. “Am I off house arrest?”
“No,” Hades said. “You’d only get yourself kidnapped. I was thinking about what you said earlier. That I didn’t seem happy that you might stay forever.”
“And?”
“I would be fine with it,” Hades said awkwardly.
“You’d be fine with it? Wow, I feel so special,” Nico said sarcastically. “I’m tolerated! What more could a boy want from his father?”
“There was a time when a certain ungrateful child declared that he would never speak to me again if he resurrected his sister,” Hades said. “You swore it on the Styx, in fact.”
“Yeah, well,” Nico said. “It didn’t happen, did it? And my backup plan would have been to stay with you, anyway.”
“Your backup plan?”
“Killing myself. I had my afterlife all planned out. I’d spend half my time with you and half with Mama.”
Hades quirked a smile.
“Like a joint custody arrangement?”
“In the fall and winter I would be with her, and in the spring and summer I would stay here and work. I think it would make a pretty good afterlife.”
“What about Persephone?” Hades asked.
Nico sighed.
“I mean, I’m sure I’ll see her around at some point.” Something about his relationship with Persephone was off these days. Sometimes they got along great, but other times, it felt like everything he said to her was the wrong answer. “I’m getting kind of tired of her suffocating me,” he admitted.
“Nico,” Hades said chidingly.
“Well, that’s what it feels like,” Nico whined.
He expected his dad to scold him and to tell him to try harder to understand her, but instead, Hades glanced down at his feet. Nico leaned over the side of the bed and looked down at the floor.
Slowly but surely, poison ivy was carpeting the stone floor.
Nico stood up immediately, heedless of the stinging poison that tickled his ankles. He and Hades both turned to see Persephone leaning against the side of the doorframe with her arms folded.
“Suffocating,” she said, glaring at him. “Wow. Okay.”
“He didn’t mean that,” Hades said. “He’s under a lot of stress at the moment. Try to be patient with him.”
“You’re taking his side in this?” She said. “He just said he was going to snub me for eternity!”
“It was a hypothetical,” Hades said. “Of course he would make time to see you.”
“I don’t know, maybe I don’t feel like it,” Nico snapped.
“Maybe you don’t feel like it?” she repeated, staring at him with an expression of betrayal.
“Yeah, maybe I don’t!” He said. “Why do you always have to insert yourself into everything? I can’t have a private conversation with my mom or dad without you guilt tripping me that I should have talked to you instead! You stuck your picture in my photo album without asking, you get jealous of my dead mother, and you eavesdrop! You’re the one hurting your own feelings! If you knew how to mind your own business, everything would be fine!”
“That’s enough! You cannot speak to her that way,” Hades said, raising his voice. “Apologize, now!”
“No,” Nico said stubbornly. “She needs to apologize for eavesdropping. Quit defending her when she’s the one who’s wrong.”
“This is her palace, and she is the queen,” Hades said. “She is entitled to listen to whatever she pleases.”
“Yeah, well, I live here too,” Nico said. “And by the way, if you asked me to live with you twelve months out of the year, I’d do it. So maybe think about whose side you really want to take.”
He grabbed his phone off the bedspread and disappeared.
Nico shadow traveled to his house in Chania, still fuming. When he arrived, his jaw dropped. His entire backyard, which had once been a typical Cretan hillside full of sparse wildflowers and scraggly bushes, was now a beautiful, landscaped garden with a water feature, a rose garden, grapevines, and olive trees.
He walked around for a moment, gazing around in awe. Everything was vibrant and beautiful and larger than life, the colors oversaturated and glowing. It was the garden of a goddess, and one she’d clearly put a lot of work into.
“Damn it!” He said, kicking one of decorative rocks in anger. It flew across the garden and fell into the water feature with a splash. “Why does she have to be so nice?”
Why did Persephone have to make him a stupid garden when he was trying to be angry with her? He almost wished the yard was still a patchy mess of nothing, but it looked too good to get rid of it.
She was always going out of her way to do nice things for him, and he hated feeling like a spoiled, unappreciative brat. But at the same time, he knew he wasn’t in the wrong for wanting her to back off a little. He needed space to work through this thing with Kronos, and it was hard to do that when she kept being so nosy.
He stood in the silence of the garden and listened to the birds sing and the water trickle over the rocks in the water feature. He went over to it and saw that she’d filled the little pond with miniature water lilies of the same variety he’d seen at Beihai Park in Beijing.
He stared down at the bright pink starburst flowers and remembered how she’d stuck by him on that first tentative journey alone. So many times he’d wanted to break down and give up. She’d given him the strength to push forward.
At first, he’d thought she was amazing, because she asked for nothing in return. Of course, it never worked like that with gods in reality. Everything came at a price. And the price for her love and support was her wanting to be involved in his life, all the time, and not necessarily just when it was convenient for him.
He laughed to himself. She really was trying to become his mom.
He heard bare feet padding up to him, and turned around, ready to apologize.
“Persephone,” he said. “Look, I’m really--”
He paused mid-apology. Persephone was approaching him, but her gaze was furious, and she was surrounded by an aura of dark energy that crackled in the air.
“Get up,” she said coldly.
“What?”
“Move!” She shouted. Creeping vines snatched him around the shoulders and yanked him out of her way.
She hurried over to the lotus pond and reached her hands into the water. She grabbed something floppy and pink and green and drew it out, dripping and limp in her hands.
It was a lotus, and it didn’t appear to be in very good shape. He stared, unable to move, and watched Persephone lay it gently across her lap.
Suddenly, the damaged lotus shimmered and transformed into the form of a young woman with long, shining black hair and wearing a pink silk dress. Green fluid dripped from a wound in her forehead.
“Oh, no,” Persephone whispered. “No, no, no… Please be alright.” She ran her hands across the woman’s body, magic streaming from her fingers, but there was no change. “What did you do!” Persephone screamed, clutching the naiad against her chest. “What did you do to her?!”
Panicking, Nico choked out an answer.
“I just kicked a rock! I didn’t know anyone was in there, I didn’t mean to hurt her! Is she okay?”
“No, she’s not okay,” Persephone said, tears streaming down her face. “You killed her.”
She started to sob. The vines around Nico’s body tightened, strangling him. He struggled to take in air.
“I’m sorry,” Nico choked out. “I’m so sorry.”
“Go!” Persephone sobbed. “Go away!”
Nico shadow traveled away, feeling like he’d just made the biggest mistake of his life.
Chapter 61: Murder, Fate, and Broadway Musicals
Chapter Text
“Wait, so are you guys dating yet, or what?” Annabeth asked, grinning.
“Shh,” Hazel said, glancing back in the kitchen where Frank was digging through the fridge looking for Sriracha. They were at Nico’s condo for their bi-weekly sushi night, and every single time they came over, Hazel got the same question.
“I told you, we’re taking it slow,” Hazel said. “He’s my best friend. I don’t want to lose him if a relationship doesn’t work out.”
“Yeah, that’s what I used to think,” Annabeth said. “Then I kissed Percy in a volcano. Go figure.”
“Did you guys hear something?” Frank asked, walking back into the living room with his plate of sushi. “In the bedroom. I thought I heard--”
“What the fuck? Is someone living in my condo?” A familiar voice called out. Nico opened the bedroom door and walked into the living room.
“What are you guys doing here?” He asked with a stunned expression.
Hazel ran up to him and gave him a big hug. He kissed her on both cheeks and squeezed her tightly.
“I missed you so much,” he said. “I’m sorry I’ve been away so long.”
“It’s okay,” she said. “I’m glad you’re back.”
“I’ve been staying here,” Annabeth said. “Hazel said you’d be fine with it.”
Nico sighed.
“I guess it’s okay. It’s just really bad timing. I’m in big trouble.”
“When are you not?” Hazel asked him jokingly.
“This is bad, even for me. I just murdered someone like, two minutes ago,” Nico said, looking embarrassed.
“Damn,” Frank said.
“Hi, Frank,” Nico said.
“Hi. Damn,” Frank repeated. “Who did you kill?”
“I don’t know, some naiad friend of Persephone’s. It was an accident,” Nico said. “I’m so fucked. She’s never going to forgive me. That’s probably our dad calling to disown me,” he muttered, as his phone began to ring.
The three demigods in the apartment exchanged a look of concern.
“Never mind. It’s just Chiron. Hang on, I have to take this.”
He stepped back into the bedroom and answered the phone.
Hazel crept up to the door to try to listen in.
“Please tell me you have good news,” she overheard Nico say. “Really? See, I told you it was no big deal,” Nico said, with relief in his voice. “Can anyone do it other than Zeus?” A pause. “Oh. Oh no. No, it’s fine, I, um… I guess I’ll ask Demeter, then. No, it’s fine. I’ll figure something out. You sure she’s the only other option? Okay. Bye.”
Hazel opened the door quietly.
“Everything okay?” She asked.
“Fine. Don’t worry about it,” he smiled.
“I overheard you need a favor from Demeter. Can I help?”
“You’re sweet,” he said. “But I don’t think there’s a force in the universe capable of getting me in her good books at the moment. Um, hey, Annabeth? Frank?” He asked, raising his voice. “I think the three of you might want to go for a walk or something. There’s a significant chance my dad or Persephone will drop by and try to beat me up sometime in the next hour.”
“I can’t leave. I’m not allowed to be seen in New Rome, and somebody burned my invisibility cap,” Annabeth said. “Why would you come here if you think you’re about to be attacked? There are innocent people in the neighboring apartments. You’re putting them in harms way.” She put her hands on her hips angrily.
“Last time I checked, I’m the one paying the rent,” Nico said. “I don’t appreciate getting lectured by a freeloader.”
Annabeth was unfazed by the callout.
“Just tell me, do I need to go pull the fire alarm? Is it that serious?”
“Nah. I’m sure it’ll just be me that gets hurt,” Nico said, trying to affect an unconvincing air of nonchalance. “You can sit back and enjoy the show.”
“Wait, they’re coming right now?”
As if in answer, there was a slight tremor in the earth, and the building shook on its foundation.
“Was that an earthquake?” Annabeth asked, looking around. The plates on the shelves in the kitchen rattled.
“No,” Hazel answered calmly. “The bedrock beneath the building is losing structural integrity. It’s not tectonic activity.”
“It sure feels like an earthquake,” Frank observed, as it happened again.
“Our dad isn’t the god of earthquakes,” Hazel corrected him.
Nico smiled with relief.
“Thank goodness it’s just him. That’s actually a good thing for me. Maybe he’ll take my side--”
In a rush of darkness, accompanied by a wave of fear and misery, Hades appeared in the living room.
“Niccolo di Angelo!” he shouted.
Nico walked over to him calmly. Annabeth, Frank, and Hazel bunched up in the doorway, observing tensely in case they needed to make a run for it.
Nico looked up at his dad hopefully.
“Papa, I can explai--”
Hades grabbed Nico by the front of his shirt and pinned him against the living room wall.
“What is the matter with you?” He roared in his face. “Have you lost your mind?”
“It was an accident--” Nico said, trying to get the words out quickly. Hades shoved him back, and the drywall crumbled, sending Nico flying backwards.
Heedless of the danger her angry dad might pose, Hazel ran into the living room to see if Nico was alright. She looked at the damage in shock.
Hades had pushed Nico through the living room wall and into the next room, and then into the room after that-- there were two holes in the drywall in the shape of her brother. He’d broken through into the bathroom and slammed into the glass wall of the combo shower/bathtub. He was covered in a snowfall of shattered glass, sitting on his butt in the plastic tub with a stunned look on his face.
“Have you any idea the pain you’ve caused Persephone?” Hades said, stomping through the holes in the walls, breaking them further, and advancing on him.
“I didn’t mean to hurt anyone,” Nico said. “I just kicked a stupid rock, I didn’t know the naiad was there. She didn’t give me a chance to explain!”
“She’s in hysterics,” Hades said. “Heartbroken. I’ve got half a mind to drag you home and let her bash your foolish head in with a rock. You and your blasted temper,” he said. “I don’t know where you get it from.”
Nico sat slumped in the shower, covered in glass. Hades appeared directly in front of him.
“Look at me, you little fool,” he said.
Nico didn’t want to. Hades grabbed his face and forced him to look up at him.
“Did you not already have enough problems?” Hades asked, a sliver of compassion showing through his rage.
“Guess I like to keep busy,” Nico said quietly.
Hades tsked, letting Nico go. He reached out and turned the shower faucet on. Icy water started spraying down onto his son’s head. Hazel’s heart ached at seeing the expression on her brother’s face, full of sorrow and regret.
“You have twenty four hours before she takes her revenge,” Hades said, turning his back to his son. He caught sight of Hazel staring at them, but his eyes passed over her without the slightest flicker of interest.
“How am I supposed to clear my name if she won’t listen to me?” Nico asked.
“Clear your name? What’s done is done,” Hades said. “She will kill one of your friends and right the scales, if you do not appease her some other way.”
“But it was an accident!”
“She has a right to restitution whether it was an accident or not,” Hades said. “A life for a life. And let it teach you to be more careful,” he added. “You obviously have to learn your lessons the hard way.”
“But I don’t know what to do to fix it!” Nico shouted.
“You should have thought about that before you went around kicking rocks!” Hades shouted.
He disappeared in a blaze of black fire, leaving behind a lingering haze of sulfur and disappointment.
Nico sat under the spray of cold shower water in silence. Frank walked up to Hazel where she stood, staring through the broken walls at her brother. She knew what Frank was probably thinking. That’s your godly parent? And that’s the godly brother you worship? What a messed up family this girl’s got.
She looked up at Frank, expecting to see judgment in his eyes, but all she saw was concern.
“Come on,” he said kindly. “Let’s make sure he’s okay.”
Hazel walked into the bathroom and shut the water off above Nico. He didn’t react, just laid there listlessly amidst the wet glass, his clothes a sopping mess. She sat down on the tile next to the tub, seeing that he wasn’t going to get up immediately.
“Just leave me,” Nico said glumly, wiping his wet curls back from his face. “This is what I deserve.”
Annabeth and Frank walked in and stared at the pathetic god in front of them. There were streaks of ichor floating on top of the water from where the glass had sliced him up, but he didn’t seem to notice or care that he was injured.
“Alright,” Annabeth said, sitting on the closed lid of the toilet. “I’m gonna need a full report on what the heck that was about.”
“It’s so stupid,” Nico said, picking up a handful of glass shards and letting them fall through his fingers. “Persephone and I got in a dumb argument and I stormed out and went to my other house. When I got there I kicked a rock. Then, accidentally,” he emphasized. “It happened to land on her friend’s head. Now she has to murder one of my friends to make us even.”
“Di immortales,” Annabeth murmured.
“Which isn’t fair, because I doubt she even knew that naiad very well, and I don’t have that many mortal friends,” Nico said, pouting.
“Are we in danger?” Frank asked nervously.
“We’re not friends, Frank,” Nico said. “More like acquaintances.”
“Cool,” he said, looking relieved.
“I bet she’ll kill my boyfriend,” Nico said. “I’m pretty sure we were broken up anyway, but still. This sucks.”
“That’s ridiculous,” Annabeth said. “We can still save him. Come on, let’s put a plan together. Get up. We have twenty four hours.”
Nico shook his head.
“Nico, get up,” Annabeth said. “Where does he live? We can warn him. Don’t be a coward. If you care about this guy--”
“I told you,” Nico said, glaring at her. “I don’t have many mortal friends. I have two, honestly, that aren’t demigods. If it has to be someone…” He said with difficulty. “If it has to be someone, it’s him. I’m not happy about it, but that’s my decision.” He heaved a sigh. “He would have died eventually. Might as well be tomorrow.”
“Are you kidding me?” Annabeth said. “You’re just giving up? You know, I thought you were better than the other gods, or at least more open minded, but you’re just as selfish as the rest of them. People’s lives are not a game.”
“I know that,” Nico said, his eyes welling up with shameful tears. He clenched his fist, and the glass in his palm caused a thick stream of ichor to drip from his hand and flow down his wrists. “You’re not getting it. My dad told me about this, and gave me that time limit, to see whether I’d choose a mortal’s life over my relationship with Persephone. It’s a test,” he sighed. “And I can’t afford not to pass it.”
Annabeth was seething, and probably plotting to track down Will and save him, but she stopped trying to argue. She turned towards the wall and ignored him, taking out her phone and typing furiously. Frank leaned against the sink and stared at the floor, looking like he wished he hadn’t come over.
Hazel reached out and took Nico’s hand, uncurling his fist. It was covered in ichor, but his wounds had already healed. She looked at it, staring down at the rapidly drying gold streaks.
“This isn’t how I wanted you to find out,” he said.
Hazel looked at her patron god. He stared up at her with big dark eyes like a drowned kitten, his black curls wet and stuck to his forehead, his elegant mouth pouting in sorrow. He looked like a Caravaggio painting titled ‘Portrait of a Sad, Wet Loser.’ She couldn’t have loved him more.
“It’s okay. I love you,” she said. And I worship you, she added silently. I built you a shrine in the woods and I leave you offerings of Rice Krispies Treats. She was too embarrassed to admit it, but while he’d been gone, she’d started visiting every day. It felt like a way to feel close to him when he was far away.
“You know, a lot of gods kill people by accident,” Frank volunteered. “Apollo, who might potentially be my dad, accidentally killed his boyfriend Hyacinthus playing discus.”
“My mom killed her best friend, Pallas, practicing spears,” Annabeth added, turning around. “She was young and didn’t know her own strength.”
“I’m not like them,” Nico said. “They were being careless. Mine was genuinely an accident.”
He got up to his feet reluctantly and started brushing the glass off of himself. Hazel handed him a towel.
“Will Dodds, UT Austin Bio Major, lives at … Huh, a cattle ranch,” Annabeth read aloud from her phone. “Interesting.”
“Stop that,” Nico warned her sharply. “Don’t you think this is hard enough for me? Why are you twisting the knife?”
“It’s not about you! I’m going to help this poor guy. You can try to stop me if you want.”
“Gods damn you, Annabeth Chase!” Nico said. He stomped his foot angrily.
The tub collapsed through the floor and fell into the apartment below, with Nico in it.
Hazel screamed, and nearly tumbled through the hole after him, but Frank grabbed her just in time. She leaned forward and saw Nico sprawled in the tub, now cracked in half, on the floor below. It had landed on top of the tub belonging to the downstairs neighbor; the two bathrooms had been built directly on top of one another with identical layouts.
“Great,” Nico muttered. “Just perfect.”
“I think you landed on someone!” Hazel said, pointing. Nico looked over the side of his tub, where a hand was waving weakly.
“Are you kidding me?” Nico said. He got out of the tub and freed the man underneath.
Hazel shadow traveled down to help him. The neighbor was a horrid sight, covered in blood, with multiple broken bones, including ribs that had pierced his skin and stuck out of his torso like bloody elephant tusks. He looked like something out of one of the horror movies she and Frank liked to watch.
“Told you we should have pulled the fire alarm,” Annabeth said, looking down on them from above.
Nico conjured a handful of ambrosia and tried to feed it to the injured man.
“I’m not supposed to be using my abilities right now,” Nico said quietly, looking nervous. “I don’t want Annabeth to crucify me for not helping this guy, though. I can’t tell if his life is in danger or not.”
She could see that as well; the man’s death aura was a pale grey veil over him, and hard to read.
“Why can’t we see his lifespan?” She asked.
“Some auras are ambiguous,” Nico said. “Sometimes the Fates want to keep from spoiling the ending.”
“Weird. And why can’t you use your abilities?” She asked.
“Long story,” he said. “I guess you can say I’m laying low right now.”
Frank kicked down the door to the man’s apartment, and he and Annabeth ran into the bathroom.
“Wait, what the hell are you doing?” Annabeth said, grabbing Nico’s arm where he’d been about to feed the man ambrosia. “You don’t know whether he’s a demigod or not just by looking at him. There are legacies and partners living here that don’t have enough divine blood to cope with the ambrosia.”
“I forgot about that,” Nico sighed.
“What are you thinking?” Annabeth said.
“I think I was trying to help, but fuck me, I guess,” Nico said, looking down at the ambrosia like he resented it. He thrust it into Hazel’s hands, and she put it into her pocket.
With a resentful glance back at Annabeth, Nico lifted the man in his arms and brought him, along with the others, to the New Rome hospital, which was just up the road from the apartment complex. He handed him off to the children of Apollo that were running the emergency department, immediately recognizable from their sun-kissed skin and their resemblance to Octavian.
“I heard you’re good at your jobs,” he told them as he signed in at the front desk.
“Thank you!” One of them, a tall blonde doctor with glasses said. “We do our best.”
“It wasn’t a compliment,” Nico frowned darkly.
“Yeesh,” Frank said, giving Hazel a ‘your brother is weird’ look. She had no way to explain the odd behavior, and shrugged helplessly.
They all sat in the waiting room to wait for a prognosis for the neighbor. It was a tiny hospital, so he was the only patient in the ER at the moment. Hazel sensed something off about Nico, aside from the obvious stress due to his issues with Persephone. He kept glancing down the hall, getting up and pacing, trying to see into the patient rooms. She wondered whether he knew someone who was ill, and why he wasn’t saying anything about it.
Hazel tried to distract Nico, filling the awkward silence of the waiting area with stories about everything in her life that he’d missed. She’d settled into a nice routine of military training, war games, daily chores, and her part time job. She’d also been sitting in for him in the senate taking notes, which she offered to him, but he wasn’t interested. She’d expected him to have more of a reaction to the news that Octavian was a spy for Gaea, but disappointingly, Nico told her not to do anything about it for now. She couldn’t understand why that wasn’t seen as an urgent matter for Reyna to know about, but she didn’t have any proof-- she’d hoped Nico would back her up, since Reyna would accept the word of a god almost unquestioningly. Without him, she wasn’t sure how to make it sound like anything other than an empty accusation.
“Hazel, you should tell Reyna,” Annabeth said. She’d had a smug, I-told-you-so expression ever since the tub incident, and had mentioned multiple times that she’d warned him to pull the fire alarm. Her lack of faith in Nico’s ability to handle his own affairs rubbed Hazel the wrong way, even though she could see that Annabeth had a point. It didn’t seem like Nico to just sit back and let his boyfriend be murdered, and part of her agreed that they should try to save him, even if she wasn’t sure how. Still, she had to trust that her brother had good reason for the decision.
“I said no,” Nico said. “I’ll handle Octavian.”
“When are you going to have time to do that? You seem like you have enough problems,” Annabeth said. “Are you even listening to what your sister is saying? You’ve been distracted ever since we got here.”
“Annabeth, please just lay off me for a minute,” Nico said exasperatedly. “I’m gonna go look for the restroom.”
He stood, ducked down the hallway, and turned invisible.
Frank looked at Hazel and Annabeth in confusion.
“Do gods even use the--”
“Of course they don’t!” Annabeth said.
“I’m going after him,” Hazel said. “And Annabeth? Quit giving him such a hard time. He’s dealing with a lot right now, probably way more than he’s told us about. So back off.”
She went down the hall and, on a hunch, went into the room that Nico had been staring at. She couldn’t see him, but she knew he was there.
There were four beds in the room, two per side, each divided by curtains. Unconscious people slept in each bed. One of the patients was an older man, but the other three were young legionaries from Camp Jupiter.
They appeared to have been there a long time; there were get-well-soon cards and toys sitting beside the beds. No flowers or balloons, though, nothing to indicate recent visitors. Of the four of them, only one had a Saturnalia card, despite it having been the most recent holiday. They’d been in the hospital too long, and people were starting to move on, Hazel guessed, walking past each bed and trying to learn something about the occupant. Her innate sense of death told her that these people were due to die at any second, yet they seemed to be held in a state of stasis.
“Look at this,” a quiet voice said. She looked over her shoulder, and saw Nico standing beside one of the beds, staring at a monitoring machine and a bag of IV fluids that hung from a pole. His expression was gravely serious, but he seemed less agitated than he had while sitting in the waiting room. He looked at the machine like he was looking at an intriguing puzzle.
She went over to look at the IV. It looked like the typical saline, but it wasn’t entirely clear. There was a golden drizzle of ambrosia glinting through the plastic.
“It’s keeping them from dying,” Nico said. “But it can’t heal them. They’re trapped like this forever.”
“Is this what happened to you?” Hazel asked. “In your ambrosia coma?”
“The opposite, actually,” Nico said. “The ambrosia was burning me alive from the inside. Hypnos put me in a coma to buy time for Persephone, Nyx, and Hecate to make the antidote. Or something like that,” he trailed off. “I never got the details.”
“And you woke up a god,” she said. “Is that what these people--”
“No. If I’d been marked for death, our father would have let nature take its course. He respects the process. He has to,” Nico said. “He said I didn’t have an aura at all. This--” He pointed at the thin, wavering shimmer around the unconscious girl’s head. “Is pretty unambiguous.”
He was right. Her time was clearly up. Hazel looked at the table beside the hospital bed. It was covered in cards, with a little teddy bear.
“Besides, her name is on Thanatos’ list,” Nico said, tension coming into his voice again. “He-- I don’t know where he is right now,” he admitted. “But he wants these souls collected. He can’t do it while they’re hooked up to this ambrosia crap.”
His hand twitched like he wanted to remove the IV line, but Hazel touched his arm, stopping him.
“We’ll get charged with murder if we unhook them,” she said. “The doctors can’t see what we see. Should we tell them?”
“They won’t understand,” Nico said.
“You’re a god,” Hazel said. “They’ll trust you.”
“A god nobody’s ever heard of,” Nico scoffed. “I’m…” He heaved a dramatic sigh, then turned to Hazel, taking her by the shoulders. “I’m not meant to be a god, Hazel. I was always meant to be a demigod like you. This happened to me by mistake.”
“How can you be a mistake?” Hazel asked, looking up at him in surprise. His words came as a shock to her, but his dark, ink-pool eyes were deeply troubled, and totally sincere.
“I don’t understand it, either, but I know it must be true. Think about it. I have no purpose. I’m not the god ‘of’ anything, and I don’t have any worshippers. All I ever do is cause problems. Face it-- I’m just a kid who overdosed on ambrosia and got caught up in something way over their head.”
“No,” she said, shaking her head. “That’s not true. You’re smart and strong and kind and beautiful. You’re the most loving person I’ve ever met. If you’re not meant to be a god, then nobody is.”
He looked down at her, a wistful expression on his face.
“None of that means I’m meant to be a god. It means that so far, I haven’t screwed up being a big brother. Don’t worry. Once I’m mortal, our relationship won’t change. We’ll just have a little more in common,” he said, winking.
“Once you’re mortal?” She asked. That wasn’t possible, was it?
“That’s something I’m working on. But it’s not for you to concern yourself with,” he added.
“No,” she said. He’d turned away and started walking out of the room. She followed him, pleading.
“No, no, no, Nico, please. Don’t change who you are. Why would you do that?”
This was a disaster. Could he really do it? Would he? She couldn’t bear to think of her beloved patron cutting himself down, making himself smaller. He was her North Star, the person she thought of when she felt weak, unmotivated, and scared of the future. Wanting to be like him, to make him proud, and to be worth all his long years of work and effort towards resurrecting her-- that was what kept her going. He was her savior, the man who’d given her a new life better than what she could have hoped for in her wildest dreams.
If he was a mistake…
What did that make her?
“You’ll have to trust that I have my reasons,” he said, his eyes flicking towards the floor like he was thinking of something deep beneath the earth. She wondered if their father had put him up to this. But why would he?
Nico went over to the nurse’s station, where a tall blonde doctor with glasses was typing away at the computer. He glanced back at Hazel, and she walked up to stand with him.
“Hi,” he said, knocking on the desk with his knuckles, his rings click-clacking on the surface. “I’m Nico. Can we talk?”
The blonde woman looked oddly familiar to Hazel, although she’d never met her before. She looked at the girl’s nametag. It read ‘Octavia.”
“You’re Octavian’s sister,” Hazel said, remembering that he had mentioned her once in passing.
“Oh! That’s convenient,” Nico said. “Octavia, we happen to know for a fact that your brother is working as a spy for Gaea. If you don’t want us to report him to Reyna, we’re going to need you to unhook those people from their ambrosia IV’s.”
Hazel’s jaw dropped. Nico hadn’t explained anything-- and she felt like their honest explanation and his godly word would have been sufficient. Instead, he’d gone straight to the last resort! What was going on with him? Normally, he had more finesse than that.
Well, a little bit more.
Octavia still hadn’t said a word. She stared at Nico in blank astonishment, then appeared to recalculate for a moment. She took her glasses off slowly, setting them neatly on the desk in front of her.
“You have ten seconds to get out before I call security,” she said primly.
Nico’s eyes narrowed to bright black glints. A wall of darkness suddenly encased the three of them, with the desk still between them and Octavia. Snaking wisps of shadow grasped Octavia around the waist and lifted her over the desk to hover above it, like the tentacles of an invisible evil octopus.
She screamed loudly and kicked and pulled at the shadows in an attempt to get away. Nico didn’t so much as blink.
“My patience for the day has already run out,” Nico said flatly. “Unfortunately for you. I’m trying to do a favor for my friend. I’m going to need you to cooperate with me here.”
“My brother isn’t working for Gaea,” Octavia said, her face red with the wasted effort of trying to fight the shadows.
“Nico!” Hazel said. “Don’t do this! You’re being crazy right now!”
“I’m not hurting her!” Nico snapped. “Everybody relax. Just do as I ask and I’ll go away. Alright?”
Hazel couldn’t physically stop Nico, and there was no sign of Annabeth or Frank or any of the other staff coming to help, so she backed off. He’d been keeping the tension that simmered beneath his skin suppressed so far, but it was boiling over now. Whether it was the threat to Will’s life, the guilt over killing Persephone’s friend, or this strange conviction that he needed to become mortal, she had no idea. But something in him seemed like it had snapped.
Hazel quietly walked over and climbed on top of the desk, facing Octavia where she was suspended in midair.
“I’m Hazel Levesque,” she said, keeping her voice soft and sweet, trying to lower the tension in the cold little cube of darkness. “I’m the daughter of Pluto.”
“I’ve heard of you,” Octavia panted. “Can you get me down from here?”
“I’m gonna try,” Hazel said. “Listen. My brother is a god of the Underworld.”
“Don’t say that!” Nico snapped.
“That’s what he is,” Hazel said firmly. “And he can tell that those four people in the comas-- They’re not gonna come back. Not ever, no matter what y’all do. Their souls belong to Pluto now.”
“They’re not dead,” Octavia said. “They have all their vital signs. Even some brain activity.”
“Their souls belong someplace else now,” Hazel said. “Sad as it is--”
“Yeah, yeah, don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened, whatever, just unplug them,” Nico snapped.
“Nico!” Hazel said. “Don’t be callous!”
“She doesn’t know them personally,” Nico argued back.
“If I did what you asked, I’d lose my job,” Octavia snapped right back. “I don’t want to play good cop, bad cop with you two. I’m not unplugging those people. It’s against the Hippocratic oath. As far as I’m concerned, they still have a chance at recovery.”
“Their threads have been cut,” Nico said, raising his voice. “You’re not protecting them, you’re disrupting the forces of the universe! I’d like to see you walk up to the Fates and tell them you know best. See how they like it. In fact, let’s go!”
In the space of a millisecond, they were transported somewhere new. It was a dark, dimly lit cave. Hazel sensed that they were in the Underworld. There were a few candles in the back of the cave, where three female figures could be seen sitting in rocking chairs, illuminated by a glow of warm light. The three of them were each spinning, measuring, and trimming thread, respectively. They were wearing thick sweaters and were surrounded by enormous baskets full of balls of yarn.
“Oh, sweet Hercules!” Octavia said, stumbling and grabbing onto Hazel for support. “Where are we? What just happened?”
“This is so unnecessary,” Hazel murmured. She had not woken up that morning expecting to meet the Fates, and she really didn’t want to. What was wrong with talking through problems calmly? What was wrong with her brother?
Nico marched right up to the Fates, ignoring the two girls behind him.
“He’s going through a lot right now,” Hazel whispered to Octavia. “He’s not dangerous, he’s just dramatic. Please hear him out so we can get this over with.”
“Are those really the Parcae?” Octavia whispered. “Apollo protect me… ”
“He can’t do anything for you here,” Hazel whispered. “Are you listening? We’re in the Underworld right now. Nico is our way back to the surface, so if he tells you to jump, you’d better ask how high. I never wanted to come back here…”
“Come back?”
“Never mind. Hush,” Hazel said. Now she was being almost as salty with Octavia as her brother was, but she couldn’t help it-- She hated being back in the Underworld, even in this weird, remote part of it. It reminded her of the cold, empty nothing she’d been for almost a century in this dark, dreaded pit.
Nico had walked up to the Fates to introduce himself.
“Hi, I’m--”
“We know,” the Fates said in unison, without looking up from their yarn. Hazel watched as the smallest old woman took a thread from the hand of her sister and snipped it in the indicated place with a comically oversized pair of scissors. Hazel didn’t remember the other two names, but she knew snipper lady’s-- Morta, the Fate who marked the day you were destined to die.
“We’ve been speaking of you often, Niccolo di Angelo,” Morta said, in a sweet, gentle old lady voice. “You’re well known to us. Your thread was one we spent quite a bit of time getting right.”
“Oh!” Nico didn’t seem to know what to say. “That’s unexpected. But… Thanks, I guess.”
“When you see your Thanatos, do give him our best,” the spinner, said. “It won’t be long now before you’re reunited.”
“Really?” Nico breathed a massive sigh of relief, and a huge smile split his face. “I’ve been so worried. That’s fantastic news.”
“Remind him to visit his little sisters more often,” the measurer said sharply.
“Or just come and visit us yourself. That’s close enough,” Morta said. “The threads you want are already laid out for you in the hall. Have at it.”
“We trust you,” the spinner said. “But do be careful with the filing system!”
Hazel’s head was spinning a little at the fact that she was looking at the actual Fates, apportioning out human lives right in front of her eyes with every spin and snip they made.
The ‘Hall’, as the fates had put it, was actually a small room lined with bookshelves, with plush carpet and a fireplace on the corner. Three overstuffed armchairs with lace doilies and old fashioned floral print stood in the center of the room, and half empty teacups were sitting on various surfaces, along with cookie crumbs all over the place. It looked like any old lady’s sitting room might, if they were a yarn hoarder. On every shelf there were balls of yarn crammed in tightly and spilling over onto the floor.
“What filing system?” Octavia said, with a judgmental tone reminiscent of her little brother. “They must have been joking. This place is a mess.”
There was a small table right by one of the armchairs with a shoebox on it, with ‘Nico’ written on it in Sharpie. Inside there were four balls of yarn tagged with the names of the four hospital patients.
“Aha!” Nico said. “See, I told you. Look!”
He held the four spools in Octavia’s face.
“Pinch the ends,” he suggested.
She did, and, out of curiosity, so did Hazel. The moment her finger made contact with the end of a thread, she received a vision of that person lying in the hospital bed unconscious. Nico appeared in the vision, leaned over them, touched their forehead, and the vision ended.
“You’re a psychopomp?” Hazel said, realizing what she’d seen.
“Um. Sort of, but not really,” he said, looking like he’d just gotten busted for doing something he shouldn’t have.
“And you think you don’t have a purpose?” She asked incredulously.
He didn’t answer, and walked off to one side, picking up yarn balls at random.
“You were right,” Octavia said, staring down at the small yellow ball of yarn in her hand. “I hate to admit it, but it doesn’t seem like I can do the patients any harm now by disconnecting them. They really aren’t coming back.”
“I’m glad you see it that way,” Hazel said. “It’s for the best. Sorry we couldn’t communicate it to you in a less traumatic way.”
Octavia looked at the spools of thread, and the boxes all around them.
“This is the most interesting thing that’s ever happened to me,” she said. “I’m not mad about it.”
Since Nico was occupied in looking around, Octavia and Hazel did the same. Hazel walked the perimeter of the room, poking balls of yarn, which came in different lengths, thicknesses, and every possible shade and combination of color imaginable. Some were hot pink, others pale blue-gray mixes, and some were a brilliant, shining purple.
Each poke gave her a brief vision of a life. She had a flash of someone’s childhood birthday party, another where a man was riding a bike in the mountains. Three in a row were just people staring at screens and looking at emails, which was kind of depressing.
Then she poked one that was sticking out from the shelf, one end hanging loose over the edge. It was a beautiful dark indigo color with a tiny bit of lavender mixed in.
Poking the loose thread nearly gave her a heart attack. It was her mom, washing her in a small metal basin in the sink, singing to her. She was so close to the start of the thread, her birth, that she was a small baby in the vision. She had no memory of the bath, but she remembered the song her mother was singing. It was an old French Creole song she’d sung often. It made Hazel’s eyes well up with tears, and she pulled her hand away.
She pulled her sleeve down over her hand and grabbed the yarn ball that represented her life, admiring it. The colors were lovely, and it was longer than she’d expected. It seemed like Nico had been right, and that Gaea wouldn’t kill her. Maybe. There was only one way to know.
Trembling with the gravity of what she was doing, she reached out and tried to touch the other end of the string. Then she stopped herself.
“Octavia,” she called out, since Nico had wandered off. “Come here.”
Octavia walked over.
“Can you look at this and… Just tell me if it’s soon.”
Octavia touched the end of the string.
“No, it’s not,” she said, to Hazel’s enormous relief. “You look old.”
Hazel broke out into a grin.
“Do you want to know--”
“No, I’m good,” she said. “Don’t spoil anything else.”
Octavia started searching the shelves determinedly.
“You’re smart to ask someone else to look. I’m going to find mine.”
“It just poked out of the shelf. Yours might, too,” Hazel suggested.
As Octavia walked around, Hazel inspected her thread again, looking for her first death. She poked around a little until she found the part of her life where she’d lived in Alaska, and then she saw it-- a knot. The string had been cut-- and then it had been tied back together.
For something so unremarkable looking, to her, it was profound. She held the proof of her miracle in her hands, tangible evidence that she’d conquered death. With help from her brother, of course.
Speaking of which, where was he? She walked around the small room and found him kneeling behind one of the chairs, looking inside of a cupboard.
“You’re not going to believe what I found,” he said. She knelt beside him and looked at what he was pointing out.
In the cabinet, inside a plastic grocery bag, was a big clumped up pile of gold thread.
“Pretty color,” Hazel said. “What is it?”
“Gods,” Nico said.
“They keep the gods in a Wal-Mart bag.” Hazel giggled. “Wow. I kind of like these ladies.”
“Would you mind looking for mine?” Nico asked. “I’m scared to.”
Hazel picked up a handful of threads and tried to separate them out from one another. They were all gold, but the shades were slightly different, some white, some pink, some reddish. They were each made of a single strand of a fine metallic fiber, like spider’s silk, but tougher. They were most likely unbreakable, although she wasn’t going to test that out.
Touching them didn’t give her any visions. Instead, they gave off general vibes that she had to interpret. She picked up Neptune’s first-- the salty sea smell and the slight green tint gave it away. Once she held one in her hand, she realized that the threads were actually loops, joined at both ends.
“So, gods are basically bracelets,” she said. “Neat.”
Nico was biting his nails and facing the opposite direction.
“If I’m not in there, that means I’m right and I’ll become mortal again soon,” he said. “And this all will have been a weird dream, basically.”
The very next loop in the pile was Nico’s. She knew it was his immediately-- it was a plain, brilliant gold, and it felt the way Stygian iron felt to hold-- hot and cold at the same time, lighter than a feather and heavier than an anvil. Clutching it in her palm felt like holding his hand as they escaped from the Underworld. As she turned it over, she saw that in the right light, it became invisible. That was her brother, alright.
“Anything?” He asked.
“You really don’t want to be a god?” Hazel asked. “You’re sure?” She was staring at the proof in her hand-- he was fundamentally different than she was, always had been, and always would be. If the circlet of gold was to be believed, he’d never been mortal-- just a god who hadn’t been revealed yet.
“Of course I’m sure.”
“It seems like a terrible idea to me. Mortality sucks.”
“Existence is what sucks,” Nico said. “Being a god is just as hard as being a mortal, only in a totally different way. It’s a marathon versus a sprint, that’s all. Death is the only real freedom,” he sighed dramatically.
Hazel rolled her eyes.
“Whatever you say,” she said. “I don’t see you in here. There’s too many to go through.” She thrust his loop back into the bag and shut the cabinet, secretly satisfied to see that he was going to stay as he was forever.
“Okay. Thanks for checking,” he said. “Sorry I’ve been such a jerk today. I’m going to owe Octavia an apology, aren’t I?”
“Yup,” Hazel said. “I’m glad you haven’t gone totally crazy on us. You’re acting really weird.”
“I know, I know,” he said. “Sorry. I know I suck. It’s just… Hard to cope with knowing I’ve hurt someone I love.”
“Will?” She asked gently.
“I was going to say Persephone,” he said. “She’s been like a second mom to me. I owe her so much better than how I’ve been acting lately. The guilt is eating me alive.”
“I didn’t even have half of a decent mom. You’ve got two.”
He smiled painfully.
“I did, until I fucked it up.” He got to his feet. “Sorry for the pity party. I’ll be better,” he added, helping her up, too. “Let’s get going. Octavia? Are we good?” He called out.
“We’re good,” she said. “Hazel? Before we go, real quick?”
She held up her yarn ball, a bright white roll. Hazel hurried over and touched the end of the string.
Octavia was sleeping in her bed when a dark figure approached, creeping quietly across the room. A male silhouette raised a knife and plunged it into her heart. She cried out weakly, then silence returned as blood spilled out of her mouth, soaking the sheet over her chest.
Hazel looked up at Octavia. She barely knew this woman, but she seemed intelligent and accomplished, and still very young.
How do you tell somebody that their own brother was destined to kill them soon?
“Old age,” she said quietly. “Lucky.”
Octavia grinned, and Hazel felt a burden of guilt grow in her heart. As a daughter of Pluto, she would always sense death in the air before it happened, and she knew it wasn’t something that was typically wise to share with others. Still, this felt like a betrayal.
Before they left, Hazel wanted to show Nico her yarn. She noticed when she went to the shelf that another, identical yarn ball was sitting behind hers. She pulled it out, and saw an image of Sammy eating a sandwich.
She looked at her own yarn next to his, and saw that they were the exact same colors, down to the finest strands of violet entwined with the indigo. She could even tell from the frayed ends that they’d been cut from the exact same string.
“Soulmates,” she whispered. “I knew it.”
She gave Sammy’s yarn a kiss, and put them back together where they belonged.
When the three of them went back to the hospital, there was a lot less drama than there had been the first time. Octavia turned off the cameras, went into the patients’ room, and slowly unhooked each one from their ambrosia drip. She spoke a prayer to Pluto over each person, committing their souls to the Underworld. Hazel echoed her, while Nico observed.
“Sorry, should I have prayed to you, too?” Octavia asked, looking back at Nico.
“No, that’s fine,” he said quietly, approaching the first patient, a young girl with pretty brown curls and freckles, still unconscious and unresponsive. Without a word, he touched the girl’s forehead and drew out her soul.
Hazel and Octavia watched in awe as Nico smiled down at the girl’s flickering blue soul, cupping it gingerly in his hands.
“Sorry you had to wait so long,” he whispered. “You have a really pretty soul, Stephanie.”
He was gentle with it, handling it like it was a baby bird that had fallen from its nest. Hazel’s heart flipped over as she watched him collect the remaining three souls, greeting each of them personally and apologizing for the wait. She and Octavia were both silently weeping by the time he was done.
“Okay, great!” He said cheerfully, putting all four of them in his pocket. The sacred spell was broken, and Hazel wiped her eyes, knowing she’d never be quite the same again after that day’s adventure. Seeing a psychopomp at work was unexpectedly moving, and it made her feel thoughtful. She couldn’t wait to tell Frank about it.
Monitoring machines began to go off in another room, and Hazel and Nico went back into the waiting room as Octavia hurried to check on her other patient.
“Where the hell have you guys been?” Annabeth asked when they returned.
“Long story,” Nico said. Hazel checked her watch and saw that about twenty minutes had passed. Not bad, all things considered.
The moment Nico’s butt hit the seat, Octavia came back into the room.
“I’m sorry to have to tell you this, but we’ve lost the patient you brought in,” she said. “His injuries were too severe, and he’s not an ambrosia candidate, unfortunately.”
Nico sighed.
“Wow. This is really not my day,” he muttered. He disappeared into thin air, presumably headed to take the man’s soul.
Annabeth shook her head angrily, tugging on her braids in frustration.
“Gods,” she spat like it was the worst curse she could imagine.
When he returned, the four of them went back to the condo, where Nico fixed the entirety of the damage to his walls and floor with a single wave of his hand. Then he went and laid in his bed facedown for an hour, refusing to get up.
Hazel, Frank, and Annabeth had a meeting in the living room. Hazel made tea for the three of them, and told them about the Fates and Nico’s taking of souls.
“That’s freaking insane,” Frank murmured. “He’s got five people in his pocket right now? Is that allowed?”
“It explains a lot,” Annabeth nodded, like she’d suspected all along that he might be a psychopomp. “I’d love to check out that room full of yarn. I want to see my future.”
“I wouldn’t even think about it,” Frank said, touching something that hung on a cord around his neck. He’d told Hazel he had a necklace, but he’d never given any more info or shown it to her. “Too much information just makes you crazy,” Frank said.
“It makes you well prepared,” Annabeth said. “Crazy is optional.”
“Sometimes I think you opted in,” he said, making her laugh.
“You guys, we’re running out of time to help Will,” Annabeth said, getting back to business. “I have his address, but we need to arrange transportation to Texas tonight if we want to make it by tomorrow afternoon. And he lives nowhere near the airport, so we’d need a car. To be quite honest, I’m a broke college student. Any chance one of you can book it?”
“Looking at you, daughter of Pluto,” Frank said. “Any jewels we could sell?”
“No,” she said.
“Are you sure?” Annabeth asked. “It would really help--”
“If you want gold, go pan the damn river for it,” Hazel snapped. “Leave me out of it.”
She went into Nico’s room and threw herself on the bed next to him,
“You haven’t told them?” He asked, his voice muffled through the comforter.
“No,” she said. “You heard me get triggered out there?”
“I did,” he said, rubbing her back comfortingly. “You know I’m not letting you go to Texas, right?” He called out, loudly enough for Annabeth and Frank to hear.
Annabeth walked in and leaned on the doorframe, Frank peeking over her shoulder.
“There’s nothing you can do to stop Persephone,” he said resignedly, turning over to stare at the ceiling. “I can’t risk you getting hurt trying. It doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate the gesture.”
“I can’t sit here and do nothing,” Annabeth said. “Your father gave you the option to try to make it up to her, didn’t he?”
“There’s nothing--”
“Think of something,” she insisted. “You give amazing gifts. Remember that dress, and the Broadway tickets? Do something like that, but on a goddess level. Something that shows you appreciate her.”
“I don’t think Broadway tickets are going to cut it,” he said. “Although she did express an interest in Hadestown at one point.”
“That’s one idea. Now take it to the next level.”
“Get Orpheus to sing to her?” Hazel suggested.
“She can listen to him anytime she wants,” he said. “Maybe if he wrote a new song for her? But he can’t do that, he’s too dead.”
“Okay, I Googled her,” Frank said, who had borrowed Annabeth’s phone for the research. “Pomegranates.”
“No,” Nico said.
“Flowers.”
“No.”
“Torches.”
“What would I do with a torch, just hand it to her?”
“Uh, grain?”
“What stupid website is that? That’s--” Nico paused. “Grain. Hold on a second.”
He got off the bed and started pacing around, turning the lights on.
“Guys, I think I just had an idea,” he said, his eyes shining with a new and hopeful light.
...
With a mere two hours left before Persephone was due to take her promised revenge, Hazel, Annabeth, and Frank took their seats in the Walter Kerr Theater in New York City, where Hadestown would be starting in a few minutes.
“I really hope this works,” Hazel said nervously. “Do you think she’ll come?”
“How can she not at least be curious,” Frank said. “If someone killed my friend and then invited me to a play, I’d go just out of respect for their massive brass balls. I’d kill them afterward,” he said.
Hazel laughed out loud.
“If I had half Nico’s audacity, I’d be a Centurion already,” she said.
“Maybe once Percy gets to Camp, you’ll have your chance,” Frank said. “With someone like that on our team, we’ll be headed straight to glory town!”
Hazel nodded, and was reminded how well she and Frank suited each other. When she’d first met him, she’d been new, shy, and unsure of her place at Camp Jupiter, and he’d been a sad loser. Working together under Octavian, and taking turns filling Nico’s senate seat, had been a huge boost in their confidence. Now, both of them were encouraging each other to see what they were capable of. The only thing holding Frank back now was not knowing who his dad was.
Speaking of dads. Hazel turned to glance behind her. She’d felt a familiar dark presence enter the theater. She wasn’t alone, because a lot of people were turning and looking.
Hades, Persephone, and Demeter had arrived, and Nico was shepherding them to their seats. Demeter sat on the far left, resplendent in a green silk gown, with her wheat colored hair in a bun. Persephone was sitting beside her, with Hades and finally Nico on her other side, both in elegant, perfectly tailored suits. Nico looked anxious, yet hopeful, and he kept glancing over at his stepmom. She never turned to meet his gaze.
“That’s Persephone?” Frank said. “She’s beautiful.” The goddess, with cascading brown curls and a bright fuschia gown, did look stunning, but she had a sour expression on her face, understandably. She’d probably been dragged here. Nico had been forced to cash in every last shred of goodwill his father still held for him in order to get her in that seat.
Demeter sat stiffly, scanning the crowd and looking uninterested in the proceedings.
“They look perfect together,” Hazel said. “Like a real family.”
“Yeah, a family that got in a huge fight in the car on the way here,” Frank said dismissively. “You’re better off without them.”
“He murdered her friend, and she still showed,” Hazel said. “Our father vouched for him. They must love him so much,” she sighed.
She slumped down in her seat.
“Are you okay?”
She had no reply. She didn’t like her dad, and she didn’t want a relationship with him. But seeing him still hurt.
“Psst.”
Nico was sitting in the seat next to her suddenly. He took her hand.
“Thank you for everything. Both of you. Even if it doesn’t go the way I hope it will, I still really appreciate all your help.”
“Anytime,” Hazel said.
“Also, we can hear everything you’re saying,” he said, with an apologetic smile. “So you might want to…”
“Aw, crap,” she said, embarrassed.
Nico gave her an understanding smile, then went back to his seat.
When he’d been holding her hand, he hadn’t noticed, but Frank had been holding her other one. It was a good reminder that she did have family, of a different sort, looking out for her.
Annabeth hurried up the steps to take her seat next to Frank.
“Everything is ready,” she said. “Those actors will do literally anything for money. They must not be paid nearly enough, but it worked in our favor tonight.”
“Are you sure they know their lines?” Frank said. “It was a lot to remember in such a short time. And Ancient Greek sounds like made up words to me.”
“They’re professionals,” Annabeth said confidently. “I think we’ll pull it off.”
The musical began, and the plot and songs proceeded according to the normal order of the performance. Hazel found herself squeezing Frank’s hand throughout the entire show, and tearing up every time Eurydice opened her mouth to sing. The play was themed around the time she’d grown up, and the story resonated with her deeply. She was just grateful her Orpheus had been a little more competent.
The three demigods tensed as soon as the pivotal scene arrived. None of them had slept the night before, and their nerves were shot-- Everything would be worth it if the song was sung correctly. In the scene where Orpheus appeals to Hades for permission to bring Eurydice out of the Underworld, some lines were altered, and a new song was added to replace the old one. Nico had paid dearly to make it happen, for one night only, and they’d had to summon dozens of shades in order to perfect the wording of the song.
The actor playing Orpheus sang a song that was ancient, irrelevant, and totally out of context. He pronounced half the words wrong, and the chorus got even fewer right-- Annabeth winced every time. But the song was recognizable as the main hymn that had been sung to Demeter and Persephone during the cult services of the Eleusinian Mysteries.
The three of them turned around once the song got going. They weren’t there to enjoy the play, after all, they were there to make one particular goddess very happy. But when they looked back, Persephone’s expression was unreadable, blank. She appeared to be in shock.
Demeter was beaming, and had stood up to record it on her phone. At least one of them was happy.
They kept glancing back, but Persephone didn’t move a millimeter. She was as still as a statue until the final note rang out, and the audience applauded.
It had been an imperfect, unrehearsed performance, but they’d expected that. All that mattered was how much Persephone believed in the concept of, ‘it’s the thought that counts.’ Nico and Hades were both staring at her, waiting on a reaction. Demeter was standing and applauding, clearly thrilled. Where was her daughter’s joy?
Finally, Demeter sat down, and the musical continued as it had before. Frank and Annabeth turned around, disappointed. Only Hazel kept watching.
Nico, impatient as always, got out of his seat and knelt in front of his stepmom, saying something to her quietly. She took his hand, and the two of them stepped out of the theater. Demeter and Hades shot each other worried looks, and that was the last anyone saw of the two of them until after the show.
The three demigods filed out of the theater and into the lobby, where Hades and Demeter were talking with Nico and Persephone. Everyone was smiling, and Nico ran up to his friends and gave them all a big group hug.
“You guys are the best,” he said. “We’re good. She’s forgiven me.”
“I’m so happy,” Hazel said with relief.
“See what happens when you listen to me? Good things happen,” Annabeth said, fist bumping him. “Demeter is taking us out to dinner to thank us,” Nico said.
“Is everyone going to be there?” Hazel asked, flicking her eyes back at her father, who was looming darkly in her peripheral vision.
“I already told him not to talk to you. You don’t have to sit near him,” Nico said, with a reassuring hand on her shoulder. “Come anyway. Think of it as a networking opportunity.”
Hazel sighed.
“Alright, then.”
“Good, because you didn’t actually have a choice,” Nico said.
The three demigods were whisked away to a dark alley up the road from the Empire State Building. A magical door appeared in the brick wall beside the dumpster, and the group walked into a glittering white marble hall with a large bar inside. The countertop was solid gold, and the shelves of liquor were so tall that the satyr who was bartending had to climb a massive ladder in order to reach the topmost bottles.
At one time, Hazel would have been intimidated by the fancy setting, but Nico had taken her out for enough expensive meals that she’d grown used to them. Still, nothing could have prepared her for sitting quietly on a couch and suddenly having her father sit down beside her.
Nico had gone to the bar to get his demigod friends their drinks; she was left helpless as Hades sat next to her, and Persephone scooted in on her other side.
Annabeth and Frank had intended to sit with her on the couch and hide from Nico’s family, but now they were left to stand awkwardly in front of the couch with no room to sit, staring at Hazel and trying to look supportive while she suffocated in weirdness.
“Ahem,” Hades said, obviously not sure what to say. “Hazel.”
“Hi,” she said quietly. She had no qualm about turning around and looking for Nico, but he was busy chatting with the bartender and hadn’t noticed her distress.
“I wanted to thank you for your help tonight,” Persephone said. She sat so close to Hazel that she could smell her, like the scent of roses on a fresh breeze. “We’re glad that Nico has such loyal friends as you three.”
“We’re actually not friends,” Frank said quickly. “I don’t know him that well.”
“You’re friends as of tonight,” Persephone said brightly, her cheeks pink and glowing with happiness.
“Are you doing well at Camp Jupiter?” Persephone asked Hazel, glancing up at her husband as though she were speaking on his behalf. Hades tugged at his collar and kept looking anywhere but at Hazel.
“I’m fine,” Hazel shrugged. “Nico has helped me a lot.”
“You should continue to work hard,” Hades said, obviously struggling to come up with anything properly fatherly to say.
“Continue to work hard? Is that the best you can do?” Nico asked, walking up behind the couch. “Sorry, Hazel, I told him to leave you alone, but I guess he didn’t listen. Go find somewhere else to be,” he said, nudging his dad out of the seat and stealing it for himself.
Hades frowned and stalked off to the bar, all too eager to get away from Hazel. Persephone gave Nico a slightly guilty smile.
“I guess I still haven’t learned how to mind my own business,” Persephone laughed.
“Nope. And you probably never will,” Nico said. Apparently it was some kind of inside joke, because they clinked glasses cheerfully.
Nico passed his friends their drinks, and Persephone made more chairs for them to sit at.
“I thought we were going out to dinner?” Frank asked.
“It’s aperitivo,” Nico said.
“Aperi-what-o?” Frank said.
“It means dinner won’t be for a while,” Annabeth said.
“It’s worth waiting for! One of my demigod siblings runs this fantastic little French place, he’s putting together a tasting menu that’s all organic farm to table small plates,” Persephone said. “All the food is made from ingredients my mother or myself personally blessed before harvest. It’s normally considered a feast for the gods, only one level removed from ambrosia itself, but tonight I want you children to enjoy it.”
“That’s so generous of you,” Nico said, nudging Hazel.
“Thank you, Persephone,” Hazel said, with Annabeth and Frank echoing her.
“It’s no trouble! My mom made all the arrangements,” she said. She crossed one leg over another, and Hazel saw that under her ball gown, she was wearing Birkenstocks, and her toenails were painted with hippie flowers. That was kind of cool.
“Mom was really moved by the performance. I mean, we both were, but in fairness, I get a good deal more airtime in culture and media than she does-- it was a bit more significant for her. Not that all press is good press,” she added, frowning.
“I thought your character seemed cool,” Frank said, missing the point slightly. “Jazzy.”
“She was, wasn’t she?” Persephone grinned.
“Kore!” Demeter called out. “What’s the name of that drink I like?”
“I don’t know, Mom,” Persephone said.
“Yes you do, what was it again? Something about fucking?”
“Mother! There are children here!” Persephone said, shaking her head in exasperation.
“So what? I want my drink. Sex something…”
“Sex on the beach?” Annabeth suggested.
“That was it!” Demeter announced.
“Something you’re familiar with, Annabeth?” Nico asked.
“Shut up,” she said.
“One Sex on the Beach, and make it a double ambrosia shot,” Demeter said, snapping her fingers at the satyr behind the bar.
“Tsk,” Hades said.
“Don’t tsk me, you,” Demeter said. The bartender handed her the drink, and she took a sip.
“Embarrassing,” Hades muttered.
“What exactly is embarrassing about my order of a refreshing beverage?” Demeter said.
“It’s a tacky order. It’s all sugar,” Hades said archly.
“And? At least I didn’t order red wine like it’s my job to be the most boring god who’s ever lived!”
Persephone rolled her eyes.
“They always rile each other up. Just ignore them. You three,” she said, eyeing the demigods in front of her. “You especially,” she said to Hazel. “What do you think of starting a new extracurricular at the Camps?”
Annabeth shook her head immediately.
“With all due respect, goddess, I’m overbooked with college and head counselorship as it is. I wouldn’t be able to do the Mysteries justice.”
Seeing Persephone’s face fall, Nico chimed in.
“You remember Niamh, the daughter of Hecate? Put her on it,” Nico said. “And Hazel can be in charge at Camp Jupiter,” he said, flashing her a smile.
The only cult I want to run is yours, she thought silently. But her lips said, “Yes.”
For some reason, she felt like that Persephone saw right through her, but the goddess just smiled at her, and didn’t bring it up again.
It wasn’t much longer before they headed to the elegant French restaurant for dinner, but every minute ticked by like an hour to Hazel. Gods ate slowly, and they ate food because they found it interesting, not because they were hungry. Demeter’s son, the chef, explained every dish at length, and Hazel saw Frank fall asleep at the table and wake himself up twice. She was sick of hearing about where in Peru they’d sourced their potatoes, and found herself fantasizing about Doordashing McDonalds, smoking a bowl, and falling asleep on Nico’s couch-- something she and Frank did on a regular basis.
Annabeth wasn’t even pretending to pay attention; she was reading Architectural Digest on her phone.
Eventually Nico noticed, took pity on them, and escorted them outside.
“Are you able to get them back to Camp, or do you want me to take you?” He asked Hazel.
“I can handle it,” she said. “I’ll probably pass out afterward, but I was gonna do that anyway.”
“Okay, then. Bye, Haze. I love you,” Nico said, giving her a hug.
“Love you, too,” she said, burying her face in his shoulder. “So much.”
Nico gave Annabeth and Frank both hugs, too.
“I owe you massively, Annabeth,” he said. “Thanks for pushing me. Even though I hated it. You were right. You probably get that a lot.”
“Still hasn’t gotten old,” she shrugged.
“And Frank? Consider us officially friends,” Nico said happily.
“Oh. Wow. Cool,” Frank said with alarm. “You’re not planning on getting any more gods mad at you, right?”
“That’s inevitable,” Nico shrugged. “Night, guys! I’ll see you again soon!”
Hazel took her friends’ hands and brought them back to California. They all stood in Nico’s condo and heaved huge sighs of relief that the ordeal was over.
“Gods,” Annabeth shrugged. “Can’t live with them, can’t live without them.”
“I could live without them,” Frank said. “I can’t believe we got that much face-time with that many gods at once. I never imagined it was possible for me, without even knowing who my dad is.”
He sat on the couch, and Hazel sat beside him.
“Are you guys staying over?” Annabeth asked. “Hazel, you can stay in here with me, if you want.”
“Thanks,” she said. “I’ll be there in a minute.”
Annabeth shut the door, leaving them alone in the dark. She entwined her fingers with Frank’s.
“You okay?” He asked, sensing her nervousness.
“There’s something I want to tell you,” she said. “About that play. And about me.”
“What is it?”
“I… Um…” She hesitated.
“Sorry to interrupt, guys,” Annabeth said, coming back out of the bedroom. “But this is huge. Reyna just texted. Percy’s on his way!”
Chapter 62: The Campus Martius
Notes:
I'm sorry this chapter is a week late. I have been so busy trying to get ready for a 2 week vacation to Italy, which I'm super excited for, as you can imagine! I'm trying to post this and the next chapter both within today before I leave so I apologize in advance if the quality isn't quite where it usually is. It is really hard to make events jive with what happens in the books, it's so much easier to just write an entirely separate new plotline. If you ever read a fic where you can tell the author had to consult the book a million times just to write it, please show your appreciation because it makes writing go WAY slower than usual. I'm not super concerned with book accuracy as long as they are mostly kind of similar, so please don't expect too much identicality in events. I doubt most people that read this have reread Heroes of Olympus recently, so I'm hoping it goes unnoticed, but i know some people have good memory, lol.
Chapter Text
Nico looked up at the vast sky full of stars, his hands in his pockets, bouncing on the balls of his feet. His entire being felt alight with nervous energy crackling beneath his skin. This would probably be one of the more difficult conversations he’d ever had, but he was eager to face it-- ready to take whatever would come, and see it through to the end.
Will walked out of the front door of the ranch, stepping out into the darkness of the front driveway. He didn’t bother turning the porch light on, he just went to where Nico stood, a dark figure on the asphalt. Will’s hair was wet, and he was wearing a UT Austin t-shirt and sweatpants. He looked young and vulnerable and so incredibly sad, staring at Nico with blue eyes full of pain and accusation and confusion.
“You came back,” he said quietly, his voice hollow.
“Yeah,” Nico said.
“Okay,” Will shrugged. “What’s your excuse for ghosting me for six weeks?”
“I’m really sorry,” Nico said, repeating the words he’d rehearsed for an hour before he’d come. “The truth is, I am in the mafia. I lied to you before. I was kidnapped by a rival crime family and I’ve only just gotten back. I didn’t have my phone, or I would have told you.”
Will was speechless for a moment.
“Wow,” was all he said.
“It’s true,” Nico said, and he really meant that, because it was the closest thing to the truth he could come up with without bringing up Catholics and Purgatory and the Underworld. “I know it probably sounds insane, but it really happened. I don’t expect you to believe it. I know it sounds ridiculous, but I’m telling you because I think I owe you as much honesty as possible. I know I hurt you when I disappeared.”
“Hurt me?” Will snorted. “Yeah. You could say that.”
“You deserve so much better than me,” Nico said sadly. “I’m so sorry, Will. I don’t expect forgiveness, but if you want to yell at me, I’m here. I’ll take it.”
“Where’s your car, Nico?” Will asked coldly.
“I parked it down the street,” Nico said. He hadn’t brought it, and he was surprised Will even noticed. He wouldn’t have, in his place.
“Down the street? In front of a field? Why would you do that?” Will asked. “That doesn’t make any sense.”
“Well, I don’t know what to tell you,” Nico said, shifting uncomfortably. “Why does that matter?”
“It matters because--” Will clenched his fists and took a shaky deep breath in. He seemed almost frightened. “I Googled you,” he said.
Nico froze.
“How old are you?” Will asked.
“I’m twenty,” he said.
“How long have you been twenty?”
Blindsided, Nico stammered--
“A normal amount of time?”
“What year did you move to the US?” Will asked.
“I don’t remember. I was a kid.”
“Guess.”
“2010. I think?”
“Who was the president?” Will demanded.
“Why would I know that? I couldn’t vote,” Nico said, sweating.
“Alright, who was the president of Italy when you used to live there? Name any of them.”
“Kids don’t know stuff like that. I know the presidents right now.”
“I thought your grandfather was an ambassador?” Will said.
“That doesn’t mean I knew all about politics back then,” Nico said.
“Nico, do you seriously think I can’t just Google Italian ambassadors to the United States?” Will said.
Nico’s mouth went dry. He had no memory of telling Will about his grandfather, but it was the kind of thing he might have mentioned offhand without thinking. His grandfather’s job had just been an interesting little factoid to him. He actually knew very little about his career. He hadn’t thought about the implications of letting that slip. Was he really that stupid?
“I… Look, just because you read something on the internet doesn’t make it true.” It was so hard to counter this without knowing what Will had seen, or what kind of assumptions he was making. “Maybe I am a little older than I’ve been telling you. That’s not the end of the world, right? I barely even remember my grandfather.”
Will just stared at him without speaking.
“I mean, I’m not, like, old, old,” Nico said. “I, um… I’m not sure what to say.”
“Clearly,” Will said humorlessly. “Actually, you never told me anything about your grandfather. You told me your mom’s name was Maria, and that she died. That was it. I Googled Maria di Angelo, from Venice, and read about what happened to a woman by that name. And to her two kids. I thought maybe it was a coincidence that you had the same names. But her dad was the Italian ambassador to the United States. And you just confirmed it. You were the boy who died in that hotel fire nearly a hundred years ago.”
Nico’s jaw dropped.
“Only you didn’t,” Will said. “Did you?”
“That’s insane,” Nico said. “It’s not possible. Why would you even ask me that?”
“Because you didn’t drive here,” Will said.
“I did--”
“On what highway? From which direction?” Will said. “Is my address in your Google maps? Do you want to show me?”
“No,” Nico said weakly.
“If I went through your phone right now, what would I find? Normal stuff?” Will asked.
Nico shook his head.
“What kind of stuff, Nico? Weird shit?”
“Maybe,” he said quietly.
Will took a moment to think.
“Are you going to hurt me?” He asked finally, fear creeping into his voice.
“No! Of course not!” Nico said fervently. “I love you. Why does that other stuff even matter? Either break up with me or don’t, but stop asking questions,” he said. “I can’t answer them,” he admitted weakly.
He wished he knew more about the Mist. It had worked on Will before, but he was highly intelligent, and seemed to have cut right through it with Google searches and leading questions. He’d had a lot of time away from Nico to think through things, and to realize that a lot of Nico’s stories didn’t add up. It was his own fault for never scrubbing his own internet presence. He hadn’t realized he even had one.
“What are you?” Will asked.
At that point, Nico considered just leaving. There was no getting back the relationship they’d had before, and he wasn’t going to tell Will the truth. If they were broken up anyway, what was the point of continuing the conversation? But something in him, probably the part that still thought Will looked like a modern Adonis in grey sweatpants, didn’t want to walk away.
He walked up to Will, looking him in the eyes carefully. He would have to make up a cover story that Will would actually buy.
“What do you think I am?” He asked cautiously.
Will looked him up and down.
“You know I believe in science,” he said, holding his chin up defiantly. “I can only assume you survived the hotel explosion somehow, but were reported dead. Still, you’d be over ninety by now if that were the case. I considered anti-aging programs, something like the plot of Captain America--”
“The plot of what?” Nico asked.
“But my mind kept going to one particular possibility. Medical science and technology can only explain so much,” he said. “I have to assume there’s a possibility that you’re something that most people would call supernatural. Even though I’m sure there’s a scientific explanation for it.”
“Just say it, then,” Nico said, growing impatient.
“Vampire,” Will blurted out.
Nico gazed off into the middle distance, just taking in the ridiculousness of the moment.
“You got me,” he said finally.
Will gasped.
With very little left to lose, Nico decided to just go all or nothing. He shadow traveled behind Will, taking care to move like a wispy, shadowed, ethereal creature of the night. He stood directly behind Will’s back and, gently, let his fingers drift down the curve of Will’s throat, brushing over his carotid artery. Will swallowed, his breath coming shakily. Nico’s fingers were very cold.
“Truth is,” Nico whispered. “I am a very cool, sexy vampire. If I promise not to bite you, can we keep seeing each other?”
“Yes,” Will whispered back.
Delighted with the outcome of their confrontation, Nico wrapped his arms around Will from behind and pressed his lips against his neck, sucking on his skin hard enough to hurt him just a little. Will closed his eyes, trembling with mingled fear and ecstasy, going limp in his arms.
“Can you…” Will mumbled.
“Anything,” Nico said, in his most sultry voice.
“Can you, um, explain the science part of it to me?” Will asked.
“No,” Nico said, and went back to giving him a hickey.
As silly as the whole farce was, it was probably the best possible solution to both of their problems. Will’s grandpa had a matter of weeks left; his death aura could be felt from outside the house, it was so strong. Will needed a distraction and a source of emotional support far more than he needed real answers to any of his questions, and now, Nico could be there for him without the pressure of trying to appear normal. Will was the 24/7 caretaker for a hospice patient; if anybody had earned the right to live out a vampire romance fantasy in their free time, it was him.
Nico, for his part, really needed to not fuck over another person he cared about. Ghosting Will had been bad enough. At least he could try to make up for it now.
He returned home extremely pleased with himself, and kind of sad he really wasn’t a vampire. It seemed like it would be way more hot and fun than his real situation.
Standing on the Asphodel balcony, he scanned the fields for any sign of Thanatos, but saw nothing to indicate his friend had returned. Some mote of hope remained that the god of death would be sitting on his bed, ready to bitch about his disappearance and the resulting search effort, but his room was empty.
Before he let his parents know he was home, he figured it was time to try to drop off the five souls that were in his pocket. He hoped the dead hospital patients hadn’t noticed that in the space between life and death, there had been time for a Broadway show, a ten course French dinner, and a hot makeout session in rural Texas. He didn’t consider himself a real psychopomp, but if he was going to fill in for Thanatos, it was probably best to be professional about it.
He went over to the judges’ stand with the intent of handing the shades over for judgment. Minos, Aeacus, and Rhadamanthys were in their usual places, stamping forms and judging souls. He went off to one side and reached into his pocket to remove the souls.
“Whatcha doin’ over there?”
“Ack!” He exclaimed. Hermes was standing right in front of him, squinting at Nico suspiciously. “Hey, Hermes… What’s up?” He said, stunned by how quickly the god had moved in order to appear in front of him.
“What’s up?” Hermes asked. “War is brewing. My stepmother was kidnapped. My dad is freaking out and ordered us to hide on Olympus so we won’t be next.”
“And you’re not up there with the others why, exactly?”
“I’m working,” Hermes sneered. “Since Thanatos has taken another unscheduled leave of absence. I don’t suppose you know what fucking Sandals resort he checked into this time?”
“You know perfectly well he doesn’t wear shoes!” Nico retorted.
“Tsk,” Hermes said, looking him up and down. “What’s in your pocket?”
“Nothing,” Nico said, taking a step backwards.
“Seems like something was in there. Unless you have an itchy butt fungus or something. Go on, you can tell me.”
“I don’t think so,” Nico said. “I’m boring. I’ve got nothing. Go bother someone else.”
“Nico, Nico, Nico,” Hermes said, shaking his head. “Tsk, tsk. I don’t think you’re boring at all. In fact, I think you’re hiding something.”
He strolled in a circle around Nico, his winged shoes keeping him hovering in midair so that he towered over him.
“You wouldn’t happen to know anything about the five souls that got crossed off the list yesterday afternoon, yet never arrived here for judgment,” Hermes said. “One fresh one, and four from the backlog?”
“No clue what you’re talking about,” Nico said.
“That’s funny,” Hermes said. “Because I think you were at the hospital when they died. All five of them, and you, in the same place at the same time? Kind of a weird concidence, huh?”
“Super weird,” Nico said.
“And the cameras got turned off, gosh darn it,” Hermes said. “Now, why would someone want to cover their tracks like that? Doesn’t seem like something Thanatos would do, does it? Normally, he works invisibly.”
“Maybe he’s trying to mix it up lately,” Nico said.
“Sure. Totally,” Hermes smirked. “Well, I sure hope you’re right. Because you know, if you had been stupid enough to take those souls and then lie about it, I’d have no choice but to write you up for stolen divinity.”
“Oh. Really?”
“Well, yeah,” he shrugged. “Us gods don’t like people who interfere with our sacred duties. It’s the ultimate act of disrespect for a mortal to try to steal honor that rightly belongs to a god. Didn’t work out well for Arachne, did it?”
“I don’t appreciate being threatened when I haven’t done anything wrong,” Nico said. “There are other psychopomps down here. Go ask them about it.”
“Charon just does the boat,” Hermes said. “And Hecate isn’t really a psychopomp at all. She just gets called that because she can let people in and out of here at will. There’s more to soul collection than that, and I think you know more than you’re letting on.”
“Nope. I don’t know anything,” Nico insisted. “I’m… Just a demigod,” he said, the phrase leaving his mouth with some difficulty. That depressing shrinking feeling came over him again, and he resented Hermes immensely for forcing him to say it.
Hermes studied him for a moment, then raised his eyebrows.
“Alright. I’ll keep asking around.”
“Or try working for a change!” Nico called out, but he’d already gone.
Frustrated, Nico turned invisible and slipped off to where Charon was waiting with the boat on the side of the Styx.
Nico crept up beside him.
“Psst,” he said. “Charon?”
Charon looked vaguely in his direction, tipping his wide-brimmed hat in greeting. He cocked his head curiously.
“I don’t want Hermes to find out, but I took these souls,” Nico whispered. “I was just trying to help Thanatos, but he was giving me a hard time about it. Can I slip them into your pocket?”
Charon scanned the darkness for signs of Hermes, then nodded, opening the side of his robes to reveal a waiting pocket, as well as his skeletal body with ragged hunks of flesh still stuck to it, with flaps of greyish skin hanging off of him, as wispy as his robes. Nico dropped the souls into his pocket.
“You might want to circle for a bit to throw him off, but if you could deliver them to the judges, I’d be indebted to you,” Nico said.
Charon nodded his head.
“You’re the best, dude,” Nico said gratefully. “I’ll catch you later.”
He traveled up to the palace, slightly disappointed that he wouldn’t get to see his little souls judged-- they were not his, he reminded himself sternly. They were Thanatos’, and he was just pitching in. Still, he found himself thinking of them fondly, wondering where each would end up.
He hadn’t been away from home very long, but so much had happened in the interim that it felt longer than it was. He went back to his room and heaved a huge sigh of relief, flopping down on his bed happily. After killing the naiad, he’d worried that he’d never be welcome there again. But the palace was the only place that really felt like home to him anymore.
“Finally,” he sighed. “I can just relax.”
He took what he felt was a very well deserved nap, then checked his phone. Maria Bova had been sending him texts every day.
After he’d spoken with her, and taken her mom’s soul, he hadn’t really been in touch. For some reason, his gut told him it was best she navigate her grief without him beside her. It seemed unintuitive; he was her friend, after all, and cared about her immensely. But he’d left her a ‘sign’ of sorts in order to give her the nudge she needed to let her mom go. That sign, well… It changed things between them.
He didn’t scroll all the way back through her messages. He didn’t need to. She’d told him that she was taking singing lessons from the Muses. That was all he needed to know to be certain that she was going to be fine.
He didn’t spend much time thinking about her after he read his latest message from Annabeth. Percy was on his way to Camp Jupiter.
“Damn you, Jackson,” Nico hissed, annoyed. Now he’d have to go back; he didn’t miss Percy, but he was dying to know what would happen when the greatest living Greek hero stumbled into a Roman camp. Undoubtedly there would be a new quest for him, and it would probably involve rescuing a god.
Secretly, Nico was worried that god would be Thanatos. But the Fates had told him he’d see Thanatos again soon, so perhaps that worry was unfounded.
“Nico! Oh, Nico!” A familiar, song-sweet voice called out, supernaturally loud and clear. Nico arose and hurried over to Persephone’s garden, where he found her and Hades kneeling in the bare, lifeless dirt. They were surrounded by a pile of wooden branches and hundreds of moss balls.
“Nico, tell your father I’m right,” Persephone said.
“She’s right,” he said without hesitation. Hades chuckled to himself, shaking his head.
“I wish I could agree, however, in this case--”
“I’m right,” she insisted. “Nico, these are called air plants. Have you heard of them?”
“No,” he said.
“They’re plants that don’t need a lot of light, and they don’t require soil at all. They live on the branches of trees. It’s my theory that I will be able to get them to thrive here.”
“They don’t need any sunlight?” Nico asked. “Or soil?”
“They need a little sun, but I have lights for that. I think it’s the soil here that kills everything, so I’m putting them on these branches.”
With a simple gesture, the branches rose up into the air and formed a rough ladder. Each protective moss ball broke open to reveal an air plant inside, which attached itself to a spot on the ladder.
Persephone approached her new creation and began moving the air plants around, trying to place each of them according to a strategy that Nico couldn’t fathom. They looked like sad, spindly little plants to him, and not particularly resilient.
“Not to be a defeatist--”
“Too late,” Persephone responded to her husband, shooting him a dirty look over her shoulder.
“I just don’t want a repeat of the succulent incident,” Hades insisted. “You made the same claims about their survival ability, and we both know how that worked out.”
They both looked over at the empty flowerbed to their left, where there was a tiny tombstone with a picture of a succulent on it.
“Never noticed that before,” Nico said.
“Just an inside joke,” Persephone said with a smirk, rearranging the air plants carefully. “Maybe I ought to make another with a lotus flower and we can have our own little joke.”
Nico couldn’t even speak for a moment, he was so stunned at her remark.
“You’d make that into a joke? You seemed so upset about it.”
“I was upset about the succulents, too, at the time,” she said. She stepped back to admire her handiwork; the air plants did look very aesthetic and cool. “If I held onto my grief every time a plant died, I’d have drowned in my own tears a long time ago. We feel the feelings and we move forward. That’s just how it is for gods. It’s how it has to be.”
That made sense to Nico. He couldn’t imagine how many mortals Persephone had loved and lost over the years. She was far from heartless, but she had every right to be efficient in her grief, with the amount of practice she’d had.
“In fairness, a light breeze could kill a naiad,” Hades said. “You ought to find sturdier friends.”
“They do seem to meet with a lot of accidents,” Persephone said, picking up her watering can and giving each air plant a light sprinkling.
“Yes, accidents named Apollo, Hermes, Dionysus, Hephaestus,” Hades said. “I could go on. Zeus. I could still go on. Poseidon.”
“And now our son,” Persephone added, smiling at Nico.
“I don’t want to be on that list!” He said with alarm. “Why do you sound happy about it!”
“I’m just happy about you in general, darling,” she said.
“I wasn’t going to include you, but if the toga fits,” Hades said. “And let it--”
“Let it be a lesson to me, I know, I know,” Nico sighed.
“No more naiad talk, that’s all over and done with now. You’ve more than made it up to me,” Persephone said, pulling Nico into a hug. “I’m just happy we’re all together again, acting like a family. That’s all I’ve ever wanted. Hades, come get in on this.”
“That’s alright, I think I heard someone knocking on the door,” he said, backing away.
“We don’t have a door,” Nico mumbled. He pressed his face into Persephone’s shoulder, wanting to disappear from the world and hide for a minute. He really needed that hug. In the warmth of her embrace, he had a sudden realization that he was an idiot.
He’d spent so much effort, and risked their entire relationship, trying to hide things from her. And they weren’t frivolous things, they were basic realities of who he was and what was happening to him. If his father wanted to keep secrets to protect her, that was his choice, but Nico didn’t have to go along with it. If Persephone, the Queen of the Underworld, his staunchest defender since day one, was willing to reach out her hand and assist him, who was he to reject her help? He really needed to tell her the truth, and not just because he had to in order for Demeter to make him mortal again. He just needed her to know him.
She crooked her finger, and Hades came and awkwardly joined the group hug.
The vibe became immediately worse, and Nico wished Hades had just walked away instead. As much as he loved his dad, and as much as his dad loved him back, that didn’t solve everything. As long as Nico was a god, his dad would look at him and see an opportunity for Kronos to destroy everything he’d ever fought to protect. The only place Nico could ever have in their family would be as a mortal.
Hopefully, that could be arranged soon enough. But it didn’t make the moment any less depressing.
“Okay, get off of me, you’re being weird,” Persephone said, pushing Hades away. “What’s going on?”
“I just don’t want you to get accustomed to this,” Hades said. “Nico is just a demigod. A mortal. He’s not going to be here forever.”
“I don’t care if he’s a hippopotamus,” Persephone said. “I’m still going to hug him. Why is it so hard for you to let go and be happy for a moment that he’s here?”
“I can’t be happy until I know that you’re both safe,” Hades said. “And I just— I can’t.”
“But what’s the problem? What’s unsafe?” She insisted.
“I—” Hades started, hesitantly.
Nico’s phone rang. He checked it.
“Just Annabeth,” he said. “Sorry, I’ll hang up.”
“No, take the call,” Hades said. “I’m leaving.”
Hades disappeared in a haze of shadow.
“Ugh, that man of mine,” Persephone said, going back over to her air plants and muttering at them frustratedly. “Ridiculous.”
Nico answered the phone. In a frantic, high pitched tone, Annabeth said, “Percy is here but I can’t see him, it’s so annoying, I just had to tell someone!”
“He got there already? What happened?” Nico asked.
“He’s had his memories temporarily removed, which was the same for Jason, so I anticipated it,” she said, although her voice sounded like she was still very disappointed. “Hazel and Frank are looking after him. They’re reporting back tonight.”
“Why not just go see him?”
“I can’t risk interfering with Hera’s plan,” Annabeth sighed. “Any minute now, they’ll get a quest to search for whichever god has been kidnapped this time.”
“Are you sure that’s how it will go down?” Nico asked, turning and watching his stepmother poking an air plant and telling it not to die in a stern yet loving manner. “I didn’t expect Gaea to be so predictable.”
“The Fates love a pattern. You should know, you just saw them,” she said. “I want to see my yarn, by the way.”
“No.”
“Anyway, do you have any info on who the missing god is?”
“I haven’t heard of anyone disappearing. I’m looking at Persephone right now, so it’s not her.”
Persephone gave him a thumbs up.
“I mean,” he continued reluctantly. “Thanatos is missing, but I’m hoping he left of his own accord.”
“What do you want to bet it’s him?”
He remembered Pasiphae’s warning that Gaea’s next offensive was going to hit him where it hurt.
“I think I’d better come and check things out, just to be sure.”
“See you soon!” Annabeth said, hanging up.
He looked at Persephone.
“Did you mean for me to hear that conversation? You’re standing well within hearing range,” she said, looking at him with amusement.
“Yeah. I don’t want to keep secrets from you anymore,” he admitted. “I want to go back to Camp Jupiter, just to make sure it’s not Thanatos that was kidnapped. But when I come back, can we talk? Like, really talk? I’ve got some stuff I need to tell you.”
“Sure, dear,” she said, kissing him on the cheek. “I’ve got something to tell you, too. Something I’ve been putting off, but I think it’s time.”
Nico disappeared, traveling to California. Rather than go up to his condo, where Annabeth waited, instead he had an immediate sense that someone on the Campus Martius was about to die. He headed straight there.
He looked over the massive, muddy battlefield, where he saw that war games were being held between Hazel’s legion and two others. Hazel was riding around on the back of an elephant, which was stomping through the mud and trampling barricades, trumpeting gleefully. He made himself a little shadow platform in the air so that he could watch from a good vantage point, remaining invisible so that he wouldn’t distract his sister as she fought to prove the valor of her legion.
Off to one side, he caught sight of Percy, who had joined Hazel and Frank’s cohort. Percy was a terror on the battlefield. He fought with such strength and speed and skill that he must have rivaled great heroes like Theseus and Heracles at the peak of their abilities. Nico was determined not to be impressed by him, on resentful principle, so he tried to avoid looking at him. Despite his high skill level, Percy didn’t seem quite himself without his memories.
Hazel slid off the elephant’s back to fight off a group of legionaries who had started hacking at his leg armor, trying to pry it off. Her lack of experience with sword-fighting was barely noticeable; her basic technique was strong, and she moved with grace and speed, using her shadow travel to catch her opponents off guard and dispatch them with ease. The few blows that landed on her glanced off like there was an invisible force field that protected her. Which there was.
Nico had never told her, and the effect was so subtle that she probably hadn’t noticed, but eventually it would become obvious. She’d been dipped in the Styx, and made invincible, thanks to him.
He was so busy basking in pride and self-satisfaction that he almost didn’t notice Frank getting pinned down in a corner. He gave it a minute, thinking Percy would be over to help him soon, since they were on the same team, bu he didn’t make it over to Frank in time before Frank ran out of arrows. The opponents advanced on him; he was in huge trouble if he didn’t get help soon.
Nico traveled over to him invisibly and snatched a few arrows out of the quivers from the opposing legion, tucking them into Frank’s quiver on his back. He left quickly, hoping the effect had been relatively subtle. Frank found the arrows with an expression of great surprise and relief.
“Apollo?” He whispered, once he’d gotten to a safer position. “I knew it was you.”
Nico turned around, went right back to Frank, irritated, and tapped him on the shoulder. He was invisible, but he knew Frank would recognize his voice.
“Just me, Frank. Go back up my sister.”
“Oh. Okay,” Frank said sadly. “Thank you.”
Nico went back to his viewing platform and watched the rest of the battle. He was only half paying attention, and was half lost in speculation on Frank and who his father could be. It might be important to know, especially if Frank and Hazel started dating, which seemed likely at this point. They were kind of all over each other. He didn’t have a problem with that, but he wanted to know as much as he could, in the interest of securing a future for Hazel that was as good as it could possibly be.
He continued to observe until someone died. It happened out of his view, but the death was highly suspect, since it occurred slightly after the fighting had ceased and the fifth cohort had won.
He headed over to where a young woman was was bleeding out. Her body was shaking and seizing, and blood speckled with air bubbles was coming out of her mouth. Invisible to all, he observed the outcome of the violent death-- clearly a murder. She continued to lie there, suffering in suspended misery, because there was no Thanatos there to collect her soul. If no one intervened, she’d probably be brought to hospital and put in a coma like the others had been.
She lay there, struggling to breathe, while legionaries crowded around and field medics knelt over her, trying to stabilize her. Octavia was there to do the triage. She glanced back at Hazel, who gave her a subtle thumbs down. Her death had been predetermined.
“Everyone, back up, give the medics space to work,” Reyna said, walking to the front of the crowd, her armor gleaming spotlessly. Everyone obeyed immediately. She flashed Percy an odd look, and it was obvious his unusual fighting style had raised her suspicions.
Nico was invisible and intangible, so giving people space was irrelevant to him. He walked up calmly and popped Gwen’s soul out of her body.
He hadn’t considered whether it was a good idea; he’d just moved without thinking. She was suffering pointlessly; someone had to do something about it. Despite his total invisibility, he glanced around furtively for Hermes, on the off chance he’d been on his way to take care of it himself. Instead, he saw a roaring pillar of fire spearing up from the blood soaked earth of the battlefield.
The young legionaries shook in fear and cheered in excitement as a hulking figure in bloodstained combat fatigues approached them. He had a short, buzzed haircut and sunglasses, with fiery eyes glowing like coals behind the dark lenses. Nico recognized him as Mars immediately, although they’d never met. All the campers knelt – with one exception.
“That was almost a half-decent battle,” Mars said. “Not bad for a Wednesday afternoon,” Mars added. “Other than the cowardly murder someone snuck in on the side. And one other thing,” he glared.
His eyes locked onto one camper who wasn’t kneeling.
Percy Jackson. Typical. Nico didn’t want Percy’s bad behavior to reflect on Hazel, who right beside him. He went over to Percy, put a hand on top of his head, and forcibly shoved him down onto the ground.
“Ow!” Percy said.
“There you are,” Mars said. He stomped over, and Nico stood by, thinking Mars was coming to kick Percy’s ass.
Instead, Mars unexpectedly grabbed him by the hair and put him in a headlock.
“Bro. Since when do you mess with my battlefields without permission, huh?”
Nico turned intangible and slipped out of Mars’ grasp again, moving out of his range.
“Where did you learn to do that?” Mars asked, turning around to look in Nico’s direction in shock.
Nico became visible, glaring at Mars.
“You’re not Mercury,” Mars said.
Nico gently smoothed his hair back in place.
“No shit,” he said.
“Who the fuck are you, and why are you interfering with war games at Camp Jupiter? These are up and coming demigods training for the great battles of this age. No god is permitted to intervene here without filling out a permission slip first. That’s my policy.” He summoned a clipboard with a ‘War Interference Form’ attached to it, and shoved it in Nico’s face.
“I don’t believe you,” Nico said, ignoring the clipboard. “Not even Jupiter himself could convince the gods of this pantheon to fill out paperwork consistently.”
Mars frowned, and the clipboard disappeared.
“Policy implementation hasn’t been as successful as I’d hoped,” he admitted. “Still! Who are you and why are you helping Frank?”
Frank gasped audibly at being called out by name.
“I’m helping him help my sister. I also owed him a favor,” Nico said. “I’m Nico di Angelo. You’ve probably heard of me.”
He couldn’t out Hazel as being resurrected in front of everyone, so he just waited for Mars to connect the dots, since he knew he’d probably stumbled across something about Nico on godly social media. Mars thought for a second, and then nodded in recognition.
“Okay, I do remember hearing about you on a podcast,” Mars said. “For some reason I thought you were a demigod. I must have misremembered. Anyway, if you owed him, that’s fine. Just don’t help him again. My kids’ battlefield victories are mine to dole out.”
Nico glanced over at Frank, who looked like he was going to pass out from surprise and excitement. The other legionaries were murmuring among themselves, and it seemed like no one had expected the patron god of Rome to claim Frank Zhang. For his part, Mars hadn’t given his son his attention yet. He was still focused on Nico, who he was squinting at like gears were turning in his mind. There was a brighter glint to his weird eye-fires, like he was excited about something.
“Mercury must hate your guts,” he said. “A new psychopomp to make him look bad? He must be going ballistic. Does he know about you?”
Of course Mars would draw that conclusion. He’d essentially witnessed Nico take a girl’s soul. But if Mars told his brother about it, Nico would be toast. He’d literally just lied to Hermes to his face, not even that long ago, about this very subject. If he got charged with stolen divinity, something horrible was sure to come out of it.
“Oh, no, I… Thanatos is the one that… Um...”
“Be a man and own your shit, kid,” Mars said. “Thanatos has been kidnapped by Alcyoneus, so I know it must have been you that took the girl’s soul, right? Just admit it.”
Nico felt his heart stop beating in his chest.
“Where is he?” He said.
“Who?”
“Thanatos!” Nico said angrily. “Is that why you’re here?”
“I have a whole speech prepared,” Mars said, a little taken aback by Nico’s sudden anger. He smirked in amusement. “A message from my father.”
He took a small Post-It note from his pocket. Nico snatched it out of his hand.
“Hey! Give that back!”
“Wait,” Nico said, holding up his hand. “Give me this, and don’t tell Mercury what I did today, and in exchange, I’ll send the Furies to hunt down your battlefield murderer. Deal?”
“Oh. Oh! I like the sound of that,” Mars said. “Okay, sure!”
They shook on it, during which Mars definitely attempted to break his hand, but afterward, Nico had what he needed. He disappeared, leaving Mars to give the rest of his speech to Camp Jupiter.
Chapter 63: Godnapping
Chapter Text
Far away, in the hills overlooking the camp, Nico unfolded the Post-It note. He had to take a moment to remember to breathe, and his hands were trembling, but he read it.
Thanatos was being held in the Land Beyond the Gods. Where was that? It sounded horrible, like something out of a fairytale made up to frighten baby gods when they misbehaved.
He dialed the only person on Olympus he trusted, his friend Ganymede, and waited for an answer.
“It’s good to hear from you,” Ganymede said. “What’s up?”
“I don’t have a lot of time to chat,” Nico said. “Thanatos has been kidnapped. I need to find him. Where is the Land Beyond the Gods?”
“Alaska. He’ll be at the Hubbard Glacier,” Ganymede said. “But you can’t possibly be planning on going alone? You’ll be powerless there. You’d have better odds teaching a fish to fly.”
“Not going is not an option,” Nico said quietly.
Ganymede said nothing for a moment.
“Okay,” he said finally. “There’s another thing. The prophecies say that it takes a god and a demigod fighting side by side to defeat a giant. You’ll need backup.”
“Are you offering to come with me?” Nico asked.
“You need a demigod, not another god,” Ganymede said. “I haven’t told anyone,” he added. “But… I know what you are. I’ve known for a while.”
“Okay,” Nico said, not in the right frame of mind to discuss that subject. “Well, I appreciate your discretion, and I owe you a huge favor now, but I’m in a rush to get going, so...”
“But don’t you need a plan? What will you--”
Nico hung up. At this point, there was no room left in his mind to worry about Ganymede or prophecies or demigods. Thanatos was in danger. He might be in pain. He had to get to him.
He attempted to shadow travel directly to the glacier, or at least to Alaska, but he had no luck getting any closer than the Canadian border, which was ten miles away from the glacier. It really was true that Alaska was a land beyond the reach of the gods. His powers would be severely limited there. It didn’t seem fair, though-- Alcyoneus was probably at full strength. Had Gaea brokered a deal with the local Alaskan deities in order to gain an exception to their protection magic? He’d never know, but it pissed him off. He could make deals. He really could have used the help, too.
Driving would be impossible-- it was January, and the local roads were covered in ice and snow. Running would take ages, and he worried he’d get lost in the snow-- it was dark, everything looked the same, and there were random snow flurries that made everything look even more the same. Google maps didn’t seem to want to work anymore. Despite every cell in his body begging him not to, he needed to fly.
He shadow traveled to the nearest outpost of civilization and chartered an incredibly expensive private helicopter. It cost a fortune, and the pilot kept telling him, over and over, that he needed a more substantial winter coat, that conditions were bad even for January, but Nico was agonizing over Thanatos and wasn’t even listening. Once they reached the glacier, he jumped out of the plane and landed hard on the ice. He’d instructed the pilot to leave immediately-- either Thanatos would be flying them both home, or he didn’t plan on leaving.
It was cold, but his body was impervious to the weather, so he was merely uncomfortable. He hiked closer to the glacier, scanning the icy, mountainous landscape for any sign of his friend. If you could call them friends-- Nico was pretty sure he was going way beyond the typical expectations of friendship with this stunt. Still, whatever else they are, they weren’t not friends.
The glacier contained the remains of a large frozen Roman camp. As he walked through the rows of frozen tents, he saw abandoned spears and battered equipment, and dozens of lost shades milling in the dark corners, unbothered by the cold. They all watched him approach, and hid meekly, without taking their ghostly eyes off of him. They were part of Gaea’s plan somehow, but he didn’t have time to concern himself with them at the moment.
He found Thanatos in the center of the camp. He was trapped in chains, half buried by snow. There was no sign of Alcyoneus anywhere. Thanatos was hunched over, his hands and feet restrained by chains that sprung straight out of the earth, six inches of powdery white snow covering his body.
Nico ran up to him.
“Wake up, idiot,” he said, shaking his shoulder roughly.
Thanatos blinked his eyes open. They looked like two shiny gold coins that had been buried in the snow. Tiny snowflakes fell off his eyelashes, and a gap in the snow appeared where he’d opened his mouth in surprise.
“It’s you,” he said, sitting up straighter. A shower of snowflakes fell, and he brushed off his long grey mantle. There was enough slack in the chain that he could move a bit, but it still looked uncomfortable.
For a moment, Thanatos said nothing more, bending his head. It took a second for Nico to realize he was crying.
“Don’t cry. You’re making me cry,” Nico said, trying to fight off the urge to start sobbing with relief. He brushed more snow off of him and wrapped his arms around Thanatos, pulling him close.
“What is it with you and getting kidnapped? You need a new hobby,” he said, his voice choked with feeling.
Thanatos turned his face to Nico’s. He didn’t respond to Nico’s remark; they both knew he was just talking to fill the silence. There was nothing that needed to be said. Nico held totally still, thinking Thanatos was about to kiss him-- which he wasn’t opposed to, although it seemed out of character.
Instead, Thanatos pressed his forehead against Nico’s and closed his eyes.
Feeling a huge wave of relief, Nico closed his eyes, too, and let a sense of peace wash over him. He hadn’t realized how much Thanatos’ absence had affected him. Despite the snow and freezing cold, he felt like he was exactly where he belonged.
“Stay invisible,” Thanatos whispered. “And stay quiet. He approaches.”
“We may need to fight him if I can’t free you,” Nico whispered, although he was terrified. He heard footsteps crunching in the snow, still a ways off, and gripped Thanatos’ mantle tightly. “Quick, how do I get the chains unlocked?”
Touching them nearly froze his hand to the metal. He had to forcefully rip his hand away, and it nearly tore his skin off.
“You don’t. We have to wait for the demigods to come and help, or it’s a wasted effort,” Thanatos said. “Sorry to make you come all this way for nothing.” He turned his face away, and Nico could see the shame and guilt pass over his face.
“Don’t apologize,” Nico said, squeezing his hand. “It’s okay.”
“You even took a helicopter. I saw,” Thanatos said. “You hate flying.”
“I know. Don’t worry about it.”
“And now there isn’t anything you can do,” Thanatos whined. “Turn invisible now, I’m serious,” he added. “He’s coming around the corner. He’ll see you.”
“I can’t,” Nico admitted. “My powers don’t work here.”
“You’re joking,” Thanatos said, his eyes widening in horror. “Go hide somewhere, quickly!”
“That’s okay,” Nico murmured, watching Alcyoneus approach in fascination. “I’m kind of curious about what he’s like.”
Alcyoneus was an enormous metal monster, with platinum armor, gold skin, and gems strung in his messy red hair. He caught sight of Nico and started rattling his armor in excitement.
“A new victim? How fun,” he said, grinning with teeth made of diamonds.
Nico stood. It was odd how much he’d changed since he’d learned he was a god. The old Nico, who’d believed himself to be a vulnerable demigod, would have cowered and hid. He’d have tried to talk his way out of it, or called for help. Realistically, he wouldn’t have bothered coming to the glacier at all.
Nothing about him was different. Ever since he’d woken up from his coma, he’d been tireless, ageless, deathless. Perfect, in the weirdly imperfect way that gods were in this pantheon. But learning who and what he was had changed something in him. It was a fact that was only just now being thrown into stark relief as he faced down a giant unflinchingly.
Well, actually, he did flinch a little bit, but at least it wasn’t super noticeable.
Glancing back at Thanatos, he gave him a thumbs up. He was scared of getting totally demolished by the terrifying, massive giant stomping towards him, but he knew he’d recover quickly, so he was willing to put up a fight, just for the principle of the thing. Nobody kidnapped his friends and got away with it. Also, it was too late to run away.
“You messed with the wrong god of death, Alcyoneus,” Nico announced, drawing his sword. At least that still worked.
“Who are you?” Alcyoneus asked. “You look like my old enemy, but younger and scrawnier.”
“I’m Nico. Son of Hades,” he declared.
“Here to challenge me? You’re powerless here, and in my territory, I cannot be defeated,” Alcyoneus said with glee. “What a fool you are! At least your father would have come prepared with his helm. What do you have to challenge me with, besides that useless toothpick?”
Alcyoneus lunged at Nico, but he missed. Nico sidestepped, swinging his sword at the giant and stabbing him through the side with ease.
That had been almost too easy, Nico thought with amusement. It would have been too much to expect a creature as powerful as a giant to disappear in one hit, but he was delighted to see some damage dealt in the first exchange of blows.
Suddenly, moving faster than anything his size should be able to move, Alcyoneus grabbed the Stygian Iron sword by the blade and tossed it away. It disappeared under the snow far out of reach.
Nico had never seen anyone not react to Stygian iron with horror. He looked up at Alcyoneus and realized he’d made a very stupid assumption.
“I’m immune to Stygian weaponry,” Alcyoneus said flatly.
Nico swallowed.
He was faster than Alcyoneus, and managed to grab a frozen spear that was sticking up from the ice. Armed once again, he realized as soon as they exchanged blows that he was destined to lose the fight. Alcyoneus’ single wound closed quickly, even for an immortal, and he showed no pain. He was bigger and stronger than Nico, and moved around better in the deep snow. As Nico dashed around, missing his shadow travel ability and struggling to stay out of the giant’s range, he wondered whether he should have listened to Ganymede and waited for help.
One glance back at Thanatos told him he’d been right to come. The god of death was watching him in awe, his face aglow with joy watching him fight. Thanatos wasn’t delusional; he knew Nico would be chained up in a few minutes, but in this case it was the thought that counted.
Nico made his best godly effort, but without his powers, he was hamstrung. What abilities he had left paled in comparison to Alcyoneus. There was a small victory when he got on Alcyoneus’ back and stabbed him through the spine. Alcyoneus flicked him off and healed quickly, but Nico had no limitation on his strength and stamina-- he could keep fighting, keep figuring his opponent out until he came up with a trick to beat him. He considered taunting him, trying to ply him for information about his strengths and weaknesses. The glacier was snowy and slippery, and visibility was poor. Was it insane to think he might be able to lure him out of his territory? There had to be some way to force him back to Canada, or trap him somewhere that he would no longer be a threat. Maybe he’d think of something.
As he rolled away in the snow to dodge a blow, and came up to stand, as fresh and ready to fight as he’d been when they started, Nico believed there was a chance he could win, given enough time. For a brief moment, one shining instant, he pictured what it would feel like to stand over a defeated Alcyoneus. Beating him in single combat would be more than glorious. It had take Hades and Heracles combined to defeat him in the past-- Nico would be cemented in the pantheon as a legend among gods.
Then he remembered.
As Alcyoneus came barreling towards him, he pictured that glorious victory-- and his father’s disappointment. Hades would look at him and see nothing more than an asset to Kronos. Nico’s strength wouldn’t make his dad proud, it would make him afraid. His strength could only make him a liability to the people he cared about.
Alcyoneus backhanded him, tossing him into the jagged ice field. It hurt, but it wasn’t half as painful as the words that rang in Nico’s ears. I’m not a god. I’m just a demigod.
“Had enough?” Alcyoneus crowed, seeing Nico struggling to rise. He snatched Nico by the arm before he had time to scramble away. He’d been partially impaled on the ice, and there was an icicle sticking out of his stomach. It hurt a lot, but Nico was more embarrassed than anything else.
Alcyoneus quickly slapped him in chains beside Thanatos and stomped away, whistling.
“Hera hits harder than you do!” Nico shouted at his back. Alcyoneus shot him the middle finger over his shoulder and continued over the side of the glacier, disappearing from view.
Thanatos gathered Nico up into his arms and carefully removed the icicle from his abdomen.
“What happened?” He said. “You were fighting quite impressively, and then you seemed to just… Flop.”
“I don’t know what I was thinking, doing this,” Nico said. “I couldn’t save you. Now the demigods don’t have any help getting here. Who knows if they’ll even make it.”
“I don’t mind waiting,” Thanatos said. He reached into his pocket and took out a pack of Mythomagic cards. “I brought entertainment.”
Nico looked down at the cards and smiled.
“You know I love you, right?” He said, looking up at Thanatos.
Thanatos glanced away awkwardly.
“I think that goes without saying. Given the fact that you’re here.”
“It does, but I wanted to say it,” Nico said. “I’m just that kind of person.”
“I know. Don’t expect me to say it back,” Thanatos said. “I’ve never been good with that kind of thing.”
“I know,” Nico said. He wasn’t self conscious about telling Thanatos how he felt. He already knew the guy was obsessed with him. “I’ll let you prove it. If you love me, you’ll let me win the first round.”
Thanatos nodded stiffly and dealt the cards.
“We’ll see,” he said.
He let Nico win one hundred games in a row.
After the one hundred and first, Nico let him off the hook, because winning was getting boring. After two hundred, Mythomagic was losing its appeal entirely, and they agreed to try to rest for a while, curled up together under Thanatos’ long grey mantle in the snow.
He awoke to the sound of pounding hooves rattling the thick ice sheet beneath him. Assuming it was Alcyoneus come to taunt him, he pulled the mantle over his face further. Then, a familiar pair of hands appeared, shoveling snow off of him.
He hadn’t realized how much snow had accumulated. Nico sat up to see Frank’s concerned face looking at him.
“Frank!” He said brightly. “About time! Get me out of these chains, quickly!”
Frank was wearing a big, puffy winter coat, and he still looked cold, his cheeks and nose bright red. Nico looked for Hazel, and to his delight, saw her riding around on a golden horse, distracting Alcyoneus. She seemed confident and in her element, as did Percy, who was slashing at a mob of Roman ghosts and keeping them off Frank while he worked.
“Only the fire of life can melt the chains. You know what you need to do, Frank,” Thanatos said calmly.
Frank pulled a piece of wood out of his pocket and lit it on fire, burning it next to the chains. He seemed deeply distressed at seeing it grow smaller.
“Would you hurry up and do mine too?” Nico snapped.
“Okay, okay,” Frank said, beads of sweat apparent on his forehead.
It took some time, but eventually, with just a small scrap of wood left, the icy chains snapped off, and Nico and Thanatos were free. After a short breath of relief, and careful examination of his wood scrap, Frank dashed off to help Hazel, who was riding circles around Alcyoneus further down the glacier.
“Ugh. Finally,” Thanatos said, rubbing his wrists and shaking his wings out. “I’m leaving.”
“Don’t even think about it!” Nico said. “You’re my ride home! I’m not walking all the way back to Canada.”
“Then let’s go, I want to see my mother,” Thanatos whined, holding out his hand.
“I have to help Hazel. I’m not letting Alcyoneus go without an ass-kicking after he humiliated me.”
“No one but me saw it,” Thanatos shrugged.
“Still. It has to be answered somehow,” Nico said.
“I thought you looked very dashing, actually,” Thanatos said shyly, tucking a lock of his hair behind his ear and scuffing his sandaled foot in the snow.
“Oh. Well, thanks,” Nico said, his face growing warm.
“Dudes!” Percy shouted. “I don’t want to interrupt your love fest, but I need some help over here!”
Nico turned to see where Percy’s hoarse shout had come from. He was being overwhelmed by shades. Nico dispersed them with a flick of his wrist, and they shuffled away, huddling in the shadows of the tents once more. It seemed like despite his lack of powers, they still knew who was in charge.
Percy sighed with relief, clutching the legion’s eagle standard triumphantly.
“Do you even remember me?” Nico asked him.
“Um, vaguely,” Percy said. “Stuff’s starting to come back to me. Also, Hazel talks about you constantly. She thinks you’re the greatest thing since sliced bread.”
That brought a smile to Nico’s face. The three of them looked over at Hazel, who was still engaged with Alcyoneus. Frank had shape-shifted into an eagle and flown to peck at the giant’s eyes. That was an unexpected yet very cool superpower, and Nico’s evaluation of Frank as Hazel’s-boyfriend material went up significantly.
Percy rolled his shoulders back, drew his sword, and ran over to help them, causing Nico to remember belatedly that they needed his assistance to finally kill the giant. Still, he took his time walking over to them. Hazel was more than safe on horseback, and Nico took a moment to appreciate seeing her slash at the giant with her golden spatha, as glorious in battle as any Amazon queen, her hair glittering with ice crystals like a shining silver halo. Seeing her like this, it was easy to imagine her defeating Gaea, too. But he didn’t want to get ahead of himself-- Gaea would be a million times worse than Alcyoneus.
Alcyoneus hefted his giant spear into the air and moved to bring it down on Hazel’s head. Nico moved before he could think, and ran like the wind, flinging snow into the air behind his feet as he moved. He kicked a chunk of ice with his combat boot and lobbed it right at Alcyoneus’ weapon, causing it to swing wide and miss Hazel.
While Percy and Frank drew his attention, Nico and Hazel coordinated another attack; he threw more ice chunks while she slashed at the giant’s weird, scaly ankles. With all four of them working together, he eventually went down to his knees.
Just at the climactic moment when they were finally able to subdue Alcyoneus, Nico’s phone rang. It was Hades. He hung up, planning to call him back. In the moment that he’d paused to look at his phone, however, the demigods had proceeded without him. Frank, Percy, and Hazel seemed really comfortable working together, like the journey to Alaska had forged a new bond between them. Nico had no idea how long he’d been waiting, so he supposed they might have had an epic, grand adventure without him.
They rigged Alcyoneus up with a rope, hooked him to Arion, and began dragging him towards the border.
Nico didn’t follow close behind, but hung back, watching the group disappear, the blowing snow quickly hiding them behind a screen of white.
He should have followed, but he hesitated. They didn’t need him. He’d nominally assisted, so the conditions of prophecy had been fulfilled, and a god had helped them to defeat the giant. But he didn’t feel like he’d been needed. Working together, their little team had made it all the way to remote Alaska and scored a huge victory for the gods and demigods. The glory was theirs, and Nico didn’t feel that his earlier failure had been erased by his small contribution. His defeat stood. Standing alone in the snow, he felt useless and insignificant.
It seemed like a snowstorm was picking up. A snowdrift was building around his knees. He dialed his father.
“You’d better not be in Alaska,” Hades said.
The wind shrieked and howled in the background.
“That sounds like Alaska,” Hades added angrily.
“I just came to make sure Hazel did okay,” Nico said. “Which she did. She just defeated Alcyoneus. Or she will soon.”
“You didn’t--”
“Thanatos helped them,” he said. “I was totally unhelpful.”
“Nothing out of the ordinary, then,” Hades said, making Nico roll his eyes. “That was a joke,” Hades added.
“It wasn’t a very nice joke,” Nico muttered. His dad had come a long way, because a year ago, he would have said that sincerely, but he looked forward to the day his dad ceased with the critical comments entirely. “Did you know Thanatos was kidnapped?” He asked.
“No. I’d actually heard it was Bacchus. Maybe he’s next,” Hades said. “Tell Thanatos he’s got a lot of work to catch up on when he gets back.”
Nico said nothing, just glared into the distance until Hades added, “We’re all glad he’s safe, obviously. You can tell him that, too.”
“What do you want, Papa?” Nico sighed. “Are you just calling to make sure I don’t do anything and never accomplish anything and nobody notices me?”
“Of course. And I wanted to know if you’d heard from Chiron. We didn’t get a chance to talk about it.”
“Demeter can turn me back into a mortal,” Nico said.
“Fantastic.”
“I have to tell Persephone first, though.”
“Oh.” Hades said. “Right. Of course.”
“She’ll know we’ve been lying to her.”
“Erm, let me make an emergency appointment with our couples therapist. Then go ahead and tell her. I’ll be out… Running errands… While you break the news.”
“Uh huh,” Nico said. “Sure.”
“We’ll work through it,” Hades said. “Just do what you need to do. It will be a massive weight off my mind once you’re mortal again. We can put all this behind us.”
“Right, cool, can’t wait,” Nico said. “Just… One little thing is bothering me. About the Kronos situation we talked about.”
“Alright.”
“You do know that once I’m mortal again, it’s probably permanent, right? And right now, Kronos is still just dust. It’ll be a while before he reforms. We do have time to explore other options.”
“That is an assumption we cannot afford to make,” Hades said. “He wants us lulled into a false sense of security. We cannot succumb to it.”
“Assuming he’s going to take over my brain is also an assumption,” Nico said. “I’m betting my entire divinity on that assumption. It seems like the least you could do is--”
“Betting your divinity?” Hades scoffed. “What do you know of divinity? It took you years to even notice.”
“Because you kept gaslighting me!” Nico shouted, quickly becoming angry.
“Real gods have purpose, son. They embody concepts. You don’t have a role in this pantheon. You’re not even from the right era. A god from the twenty first century is absolutely unheard of.”
“But I’m here!” Nico said.
Hades heaved a sigh on the other side of the phone. He had no reply.
“Look,” Nico said, lowering his tone and trying to recenter himself. “I don’t need to be a god. I can be content as a mortal. If resurrecting Hazel was the only reason this happened to me, if it’s the only thing I was ever meant to do with this power, I’m genuinely okay with that. But I feel like you’re throwing me away before we’ve even had a chance to investigate.”
Hades took a moment before he answered.
“I am not throwing you away. As long as you live, you will have a place in my home, and you will be my ambassador. But we cannot let our guard down and relax until we get this problem taken care of. Do you understand? I only ask this of you because I don’t want to have to imprison you in Tartarus. You don’t want it to come to that, do you?”
Nico thought it over. Maybe his dad was right. Maybe Nico was trying to fit a square peg into a round hole, and it was a waste of time. He’d be fine as a mortal. His life wouldn’t have to change too much. He wasn’t even sure why he was feeling so defensive of his divinity all of a sudden. It wasn’t like it had ever done anything for him.
“I guess there’s no point grieving the necessary,” he said, echoing words his father had once told him.
“No, there’s not. You’re a good boy. You understand,” Hades said gently. “Tell her tonight. I’ll be away.”
He hung up.
Nico stood motionless in the snowstorm, snow piling up around his waist, staring at the black mirror of the screen in his hand. He had a sudden urge to throw it as far as he could and leave it behind in the glacier forever. He wasn’t sure why, but it seemed like a good idea.
He went to put it back into his pocket, and his fingers brushed against Gwen’s soul, which was still tucked safely away. A sudden surge of sadness welled up in his heart at the thought of never collecting a soul again. It was something so special, so unique. He’d never felt anything quite like it. If he became mortal again, he’d miss that feeling forever. Maybe that was what had been nagging at him, he thought to himself.
“You okay?” Thanatos asked, approaching him.
Nico nodded, taking a deep breath.
“Here,” he said, handing Gwen over to her rightful guardian. “Sorry. Couldn’t help myself.”
“Oh,” Thanatos said, raising his eyebrows as he inspected the small blue soul. He tucked it away. “Stealing my divinity while I was away, were you?”
“Mars caught me,” Nico admitted. “I think Hermes suspects, too. This wasn’t the only one. I got the people in the hospital, too. Plus a guy that I landed on in a bathtub. Long story.”
Thanatos stared at him.
“I really did steal your divinity,” Nico said sheepishly.
“I could put you on trial for that,” Thanatos said, looking disturbed.
“I only wanted to help you out,” Nico murmured.
“Liar,” Thanatos said gently. Nico looked up and saw him smiling. “You like collecting souls, don’t you, Nico?”
Nico nodded reluctantly.
“You’re lucky I find it cute,” Thanatos said, with an air of dismissal. “We’ll ignore the Olympians. They wouldn’t understand us.”
“I don’t understand us, either,” Nico said, feeling better now that he’d gotten that off his chest. “But I don’t care. I like whatever it is we have going on.”
“Me too,” Thanatos said. “Can we go home now? Were we waiting on something?”
“Oh shit, I forgot about Alcyoneus,” Nico said. He started running towards his friends as fast as he could, following the trail in the snow that was being quickly buried. He didn’t make it far before Thanatos picked him up and flew him over to a big, shining pile of gems in the snow.
“Thank goodness,” Hazel said, hurrying over to the two gods when they landed in front of her. She wrapped her arms around Nico.
“Aww. You did amazing, Hazel,” Nico said, hugging her.
“You’re so warm,” she sighed.
Frank and Percy were huddled together for warmth, leaning against Arion’s golden flank.
“Good thing you’re here. I was considering recreating the Hoth scene from Star Wars where Luke uses his lightsaber to slice open the Tauntaun,” Percy said, his teeth chattering. He had an icicle hanging from the tip of his nose.
“What language was that?” Thanatos said.
“As the resident Canadian, I still say we’d have been fine in the winter gear I picked out,” Frank said. “If this stupid snowstorm hadn’t come out of nowhere. Also, Arion ate all our hand warming packs.”
“Come on. I’ll drop you guys at camp,” Nico said. “But if anyone asks, I wasn’t there today, okay? You rescued Thanatos and that was it.”
They agreed to his conditions, and he brought them back to Camp Jupiter, while Thanatos went straight to the Underworld.
“I can’t stick around,” Nico told Hazel. “I have some stuff to take care of at home.”
“That’s a shame. You don’t want to see Percy and Annabeth reunite?” She asked.
“Nope, I really don’t,” Nico said. “Just be sure to warn them that if they have sex in my bed, I’ll sic Cerberus on them. I’ll catch up with you later, little sis.”
With that, he returned home to the Underworld to find Thanatos waiting for him on the palace steps, perched with his head on his knees. He watched Nico approach with wide, glowing eyes.
Nico hopped up the stairs, sitting down next to him.
“Do you want to go and see my mother with me?” Thanatos asked, leaning his shoulder against Nico’s very, very lightly. “We can tell her what happened.”
“Later,” said Nico. An idea had popped into his head, something he’d nearly forgotten about. Something that made the perfect excuse to put off his awkward conversation with his stepmom.
He scooted even closer to Thanatos until they were pressed against each other, making Thanatos turn his head away shyly. Nico grabbed a lock of his hair and tugged on it.
“No,” Thanatos gasped in horror, turning to him.
“Did you think I forgot?” Nico said, delighting in his friend’s expression. “We made a bet. A bet you lost.” They’d bet that Nico couldn’t get Rosa Bova’s soul, and he wanted his prize now, after many long weeks of waiting.
Thanatos made a noise like a death rattle, putting his face in his hands.
“Got cold feet?” Nico asked.
“As opposed to what?”
“The kind everybody has that doesn’t live down here.”
“I never really wanted my hair cut,” Thanatos said, heaving a dramatic sigh. He blinked at Nico, trying to make his eyes large and pitiful. “I was hoping you’d forgotten.”
“I just think it would be a good change,” Nico said. He tried not to be swayed by Thanatos’ expression, but it was hard to resist his sparkly, sad eyes. “I won't force you,” he conceded.
After a moment’s hesitation, and some very anxious hair-tugging, Thanatos shook his head.
“No, I made a deal, and I will keep my word,” Thanatos said, rising and clenching his fists. “Let’s cut it.”
“Great!” Nico said. “Let's do it in my room.”
As they walked through the palace, Hypnos strolled out of the kitchen. He had a sleep mask tucked into his curly hair and he was holding a bag of potato chips.
“You’re back!” He said, shocked to see his brother home without warning. “I heard you got kidnapped. I was worried.”
He tried to hug his brother, but Thanatos only tolerated it for a second before he pushed him away.
“Quit it, you’re getting crumbs all over me!” Thanatos said. “Did you even bother looking for me, or was Nico the only one who noticed I was gone?”
“I looked, but I have to work, too, you know. You must be so behind schedule,” he said pityingly.
“I ceased caring about that a long time ago,” Thanatos said. “I have more important things in my schedule now.”
“Such as?”
“I'm giving him a hair cut,” Nico said.
Hypnos’ jaw dropped.
“Really? I need to see that to believe it,” he said. He followed them into Nico’s room.
Thanatos sat on the end of Nico's bed, and Nico sat up on his knees behind him, examining the length of his hair. It pooled on the bedspread like a pile of angel hair pasta, cumbersome and long, thin and tangled, the color of the inside of a banana.
“You should go wild. Shave it all off,” Hypnos suggested. He'd taken a seat on the guest bed Percy had used on his visit, and was curling up beneath the blanket to get cozy. “Make him look like an egg.”
“Please don't do that,” Thanatos glanced back at Nico.
“I think I'm going to take it up to here,” Nico said, gesturing vaguely at a spot six inches higher than the current end of Thanatos's hair, which was near his waist. Thanatos nodded, and Nico pulled out his sword.
“You're sure?” Nico asked.
Thanatos nodded.
He sliced with his sword, and a million strands of silver fell onto his bedsheets.
Hypnos clapped lazily.
“Wow. You look literally exactly the same,” he drawled. “What a transformation.”
Nico handed a bundle of hair to Thanatos to examine.
“Well?”
“I'm not sure what to think,” Thanatos said, reaching back and touching the ends of his hair. “It’s different.”
Nico waved a hand, and a large purple mirror appeared on the wall.
“Go and look at yourself,” he said gently, nudging Thanatos up to examine his new hair.
“It's so much lighter,” Thanatos said, touching it gently. “Maybe it won't get in my eyes as much.”
“I always wondered if that was a problem for you,” Nico said.
“One time, in Greece, we were at this insane party Eros was throwing,” Hypnos said. “And Thanatos got his hair caught in the thorns of an acacia tree. It took an hour for Eros and I to untangle him. We laughed for ages,” he chuckled. “See? Still laughing about it.”
Thanatos shot his brother a dark look.
“I didn't know you went to parties,” Nico said.
“I don't,” Thanatos said. “Anymore.” He stared at his reflection in the mirror, a new light entering his eyes. “Chop it off,” he said.
“What?” Nico and Hypnos said simultaneously.
“I said chop it off. All of it. Or I'll do it myself.”
“What's gotten into you?” Hypnos asked, sitting up attentively. Thanatos didn't respond, just stared into the mirror intensely.
“Um, okay,” Nico said, carefully shaving off another few inches. Thanatos met his eyes in the mirror, and he shaved off even more.
“Nico,” he said firmly. “I said all of it.”
“I don't know what I'm doing,” Nico said. “I don't want to mess it up, I--”
“I'll do it,” Hypnos said, pulling out a pocketknife and lopping off a hunk of hair at random.
“What the fuck are you doing?” Nico shouted. “That's crooked! Now I have to fix it!”
“It's fine,” Hypnos shrugged lazily, slicing a diagonal cut the other direction. “See? Even.”
“Give me that knife,” Nico said. “Damn it. Okay, it's okay, I can fix this... I think.” He made a few small chops at it, but the hair was now above his shoulders and growing ever shorter with each pass of the blade. There was very little leeway left to make corrections.
Thanatos shook his head a little and felt at the edges of his hair.
“Oh,” he said. “That is short.”
He stood and looked in the mirror.
“Do you... Like it?” Nico asked, swallowing. It looked awful, jagged and uneven from the back, but Thanatos couldn't see that. He touched the lengths of hair on each temple, and nodded.
“I am content. Thank you, Nico. Not you, Hypnos.”
“I feel like it could still use some touching up,” Nico muttered. “Glad you're happy with it, though.”
“It could be worse,” Hypnos said. “At least it's out of the way. No more tree problems.”
Without another word, Thanatos flew off into the darkness and disappeared. Nico set his sword on the bedspread and laid back on his bed, sighing.
“Well, if he's happy, I guess I'm happy,” he said. “That was stressful. But your haircutting skills were just...”
“Good, right?” Hypnos suggested.
“Don't quit your night job,” Nico said, making them both laugh.
He and Hypnos lazed around-- easy to do with the god of sleep-- and talked about nothing for a few minutes. Until suddenly, a horrific wail resounded throughout the whole of the Underworld.
“Oh my gods, what was that?” Nico asked, cringing at the eerie, soul-piercing sound.
Just as he spoke, light-- all light-- went out.
“My mother,” Hypnos said.
They were silent for a moment. Nico heard Persephone raise her voice in alarm from another room.
“Do you think this has anything to do with--”
“Thanatos? Probably,” Hypnos said.
“She's your mother,” Nico said. “Can you go check on her?”
“I'd love to, but I can't see anything,” Hypnos said. “Think I'll go to sleep instead.”
Nico waved a hand in front of his face. He saw nothing there. His candles had gone out, and his magic would not re-light them.
“Hypnos, wake up. We need to fix this.”
Hypnos was snoring already. Nico stood and stumbled his way towards the doorway.
“Persephone?”
“Nico,” Persephone called out from the hallway. “I'm walking towards your room. Reach your hand out.”
Nico reached out, stepping towards her in the darkness, nearly tripping over his own furniture multiple times in the pitch dark. He'd never feared the dark, but this complete blackness was messing with his mind in strange ways. He kept seeing things moving that weren't really there.
“Here,” Persephone laughed, her giggles like sonar pings in the extreme night. She took Nico's hand and squeezed it. “Isn't this odd? Is something the matter with Nyx?”
“Um, well, yes, maybe,” Nico stuttered. “I think it might have something to do with Thanatos's haircut.”
“A haircut? Really? I always thought he was sort of like a cartoon character,” she said. “You know, just the one outfit? I’m a fashion plate, so I always found it funny when gods do that… Although I have been accused of relying too much on the Free People catalog. Maybe I should branch out, too,” she mused.
“I like your style the way it is. Anyway, I'm trying to get Hypnos to go ask Nyx what’s up, but he randomly went to sleep. I don’t want to go alone.”
A snore resounded from Nico's room in response.
“We’ll investigate together,” Persephone said, linking her arm in his.
In a blink, they arrived in Nyx’s realm, which was sort of inside her husband, Erebos, only not exactly. Nico was still unclear on that point.
“You!” Nyx shouted, her voice resounding from every direction, bouncing off each invisible solid object in the room. “What have you done? What have you done to my boy? What gave you the right to destroy his beautiful hair!”
“Mother, leave him alone,” Thanatos whined, his voice much smaller and emanating from only one place.
“He asked me to cut it short,” Nico said, “And Hypnos was the one that made it crooked, not me!”
“It's crooked?” Persephone asked. “Oh dear. Nyx, may I look at it? How bad is it?”
A single upside-down torch lit behind Persephone, and Thanatos was thrust out of the darkness to stand in front of her.
“His beautiful hair,” Nyx moaned, her white, moon-like face appearing to float in the blackness behind her son. Nico noted that her own hair, which floated weightlessly around her head, was also incredibly long and straight, like Thanatos’ hair had been. “All his beautiful hair is gone. My poor baby.”
“I like it,” Thanatos said stubbornly. “It’s modern.”
“Modern?!” Nyx said, making a retching sound.
“He's still very handsome,” Persephone insisted. “Nyx, I really think it looks lovely on him.”
“Did you see the back?” Nyx snapped.
Persephone turned Thanatos's head gently and gasped.
“Ah,” she clucked. “That's nothing. I can tidy that up in five minutes.”
Nyx hesitated.
“Do you think so?” She asked.
“Yes, of course,” Persephone said. “And you’ll be able to see his cute face so much better, too!”
Thanatos's face was slightly scary in the strange lighting, with cheekbones that could slice glass and eyebrows like daggers, but Nyx swept down to him in a flurry of darkness and examined his face carefully.
She looked torn.
“How long have you known me?” Persephone said, nudging Nyx. “Have I ever let you down?”
Nyx sighed.
“Go on, then,” she said. “Fix it. And I will contemplate the result.”
Hypnos and Nico watched with bated breath as Persephone brandished a shining, new pair of scissors and started trimming. Nyx watched every stroke, flinching whenever a large chunk of hair was removed.
Finally Persephone finished, and Thanatos had a modern hairstyle that was longer in the front and shorter in the back. He still had face framing bangs, but they could be tucked behind his ears easily, as she demonstrated.
Nyx circled him three times, her expression too dark to read.
“Of course he is beautiful still,” she sighed. “The haircut is very tidy. But my heart aches to see him diminished so.”
“You wanted this, didn't you, Thanatos?” Persephone asked. Thanatos nodded.
“I'd have shaved it off if Nico and Hypnos didn't cut it,” he said.
“He isn’t diminished if he's grown in confidence,” Persephone said. Nyx nodded, but there was an expression in her swirling darkness that still spoke of dismay.
“He has looked the same since near to the beginning of time,” she said, her dark miasma churning like a stormy sea. Her voice seemed to emanate from one side of the chamber, then another, then near the ceiling, as though she were pacing frantically around the room. “Why change now? Is something wrong?”
“Yes, something is very wrong,” Thanatos said. “People keep talking about me as though I’m not here.”
“You quit your job, darling,” Nyx said, wrapping her arms around Thanatos from behind so that he squirmed to escape her embrace. “Now you aren’t working the way you used to. You’re always playing that odd game. I’m beginning to worry it’s all connected to a certain someone.”
Nico took a step forward.
“Pretty sure you mean me,” he said.
“Nico hasn’t done anything other than be a good friend,” Persephone said defensively, stepping in front of him.
“No. Don’t defend him, Persephone,” Nyx said, her voice resonant and terrifying. “I have heard dark rumors. Whispers in the Underworld. The shades hear everything, you know. It all comes back to me eventually.”
Nico’s heart started pounding. In the darkness, he groped for Persephone’s hand. She found his, and held it tightly.
“My son did nothing wrong,” Persephone said firmly. “If he’s done something to offend you, I’ll answer for him.”
“No!” Nico said. “Persephone, you don’t have to do that!”
“Yes, I do,” she said firmly, without taking her eyes off Nyx.
“My friend. Persephone. I wanted this for you,” Nyx said, gesturing at Nico. “When you asked me for my help to make him immortal, I was more than happy to give my aid. As you said, you’ve never failed me. But this has gone too far. Let me speak to the boy.”
Persephone didn’t move. Nico stepped around her, so that they were facing Nyx side by side.
“Nico,” Nyx said. “Tell me the truth. Did you make a bet with my son that he would cut his hair?”
He blinked.
“What?”
“Did you or didn’t you?” She roared. “Did you think I wouldn’t find out? I know all that takes place in my realm, child.”
“I… Yes?”
“I knew it!” Nyx said triumphantly. “I knew he was covering for you. You must have pressured him into accepting such hideous terms of agreement. Persephone, it’s only fair, I think, that Nico gets his own hair hacked off. To even the scales.”
“Mother, that’s not what happened,” Thanatos insisted. “And I like Nico’s hair the way it is. If you cut it off, I’m never speaking to you again!”
“Don’t be so dramatic, Thanatos,” Nyx said. “This is justice, and it has to be done.”
“Um, Nyx, our bet was that he’d let me cut his hair, but initially, I only cut six inches off the bottom. He insisted I cut the rest, even though I tried to talk him out of it.”
“That’s true,” Thanatos said. “As I told you in the first place. You never listen to me.”
Nyx looked miffed with that outcome, but she looked a lot less angry at Nico.
“Hm. I’ll look into this further,” she said. “But if you ever snip another strand off his head again, you’ll answer for it. You may go now.”
Nico breathed a huge sigh of relief, as did Persephone. She glanced at him with a slightly embarrassed look, and they traveled back to the palace together.
“Well,” she said, after they’d stood in awkward silence for a moment. “I know Nyx is a nice goddess, but she can be very intimidating when she wants to be. Don’t you think?”
“Mhm,” Nico said. He didn’t meet her eyes. He wasn’t angry, and he wasn’t upset. He was just tired.
“We have some things to discuss, I think,” she said quietly.
Chapter 64: A Conspiracy of Mothers
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Nico and Persephone stood on the palace balcony, awkwardly refusing to look at one another.
Nico stared out at the Fields of Asphodel wearily. Why did he always end up having dramatic confrontations on the front porch? At least it gave him something else to look at, besides his deceitful stepmom’s face.
“Nyx said…” He swallowed, pushing his hair away from his face and trying to find the words. He was struggling to piece together what had happened; it had happened in such a rush. “Nyx said she helped you make me immortal. So it was you?”
“Yep,” Persephone said.
“Yep?” He turned around to look at her, growing angry. “Is that all you have to say? It’s been three years! Were you planning on telling me?”
“I was going to tell you when you told me,” she said simply.
“Told you what?” He asked. “You’re not making sense!”
She pursed her lips, looking at him with a frustrated expression.
“When you told me you were a god!” She blurted out. “What do you think I’ve been waiting for all this time? I kept hoping you’d finally learned to trust me!” She had the audacity to look like her feelings were still hurt over that, which struck him as disgustingly self-centered.
“Trust you?” He said. “You’ve been keeping a basic fact of my identity a secret for years!”
“Yes, but I had my reasons,” she said.
“I’m sure,” he said sarcastically. “Well, I only figured out I was a god in November,” he said. “Two months ago, and I’ve been gone most of that time. I was actually going to tell you today.”
“Oh,” she said, looking up at him with surprise and a little bit of guilt. “I thought you’d caught on much earlier. That explains a lot.” She started fiddling with a strand of her hair, and appeared to be rethinking some of their past conversations.
It started to come together for Nico. Her clinginess, her pestering him with questions and pressuring him to come to her if he ever needed to talk-- She’d been under the impression that he had been holding a huge secret back.
“So it was a test?” He said angrily.
“No, I never said it was a--”
“I agonized about what was going on with me! I asked you about my golden blood and you said it was normal. Why did you force me to figure it out on my own? This is bullshit, Persephone!”
Seeing that he was starting to become enraged, she stepped closer to him and rubbed his arm in a cautious attempt to be comforting.
“Honey,” she said, her big brown eyes looking sad. “I agonized about it, too. And I’m sorry for every single time I lied to you. I really am. Will you let me explain my reasoning? Can you withhold judgment until you hear my story? I know that might be difficult.”
He didn’t respond right away. He genuinely had to think about whether he needed to leave and go somewhere else to cool down. As mad as he was about her dishonesty, he didn’t want to say something in anger and hurt her feelings. Every time that had happened, he’d regretted it immediately, and he didn’t want to keep repeating the same mistakes over and over again.
“You know I would never hurt you intentionally,” she said. “Not unless I thought it was the lesser evil. At least, I hope you know that.”
Less than five minutes ago, when they’d thought that Nyx was angry with him, Persephone had stood in front of him without hesitation to protect him from her wrath. She’d claimed him as her son at every opportunity, even though she didn’t have to, even when it would have been easier to walk away. Although they had their issues, he had no doubt that Persephone loved him, and that she’d always have his back. He was more confident in her love and support than he was in his father’s.
Her lies… Those sucked. But he’d lied to her a lot, too, so it was complicated. Like everything always was in his life.
He thought it over thoroughly before nodding, agreeing to hear her out.
She led him to her garden. As she crossed the threshold, he noticed that this whole time, she’d been wearing her gardening apron, stained with dirt. He hadn’t been able to see it when Nyx had made everything dark. Any mortal woman would have looked silly wearing a dirty green apron over a tie-dye dress with no shoes, but Persephone made it look straight off the runway.
There was a pile of dead air plants lying in a heap in the middle of the garden. Her stand had been disassembled, and was lying in scattered pieces.
“They didn’t make it?” he said.
“No, your father was right, as usual,” she said sadly. “Here. Sit with me. Let me tell my side of the story.”
He sat across from her on the dirt and watched as she picked an air plant up, cupping it in her palms. The moment it touched her skin, it turned green again, and slowly unfurled into life.
Then she set it down on the ground. Once her fingers lost contact with it, it withered back into a shriveled brown husk.
“I’m a fertility goddess,” she said simply. “Every year, I preside over the spring, and watch the world give birth to new life. On the surface, I’m constantly creating. But down here, it’s different. Anything I make, death steals from me faster than I can save it.”
She set the air plant to one side, glancing at the empty flowerbed beneath the trees, where the succulent gravestone was. Nico wondered how many plants had been buried under that soil over the millennia.
With a simple gesture, she formed a new gravestone with a carving of an air plant on it. One by one, she began to set the air plants into the soil that would form their grave.
“I think of the lands of the living and of the dead like a sort of mirror,” she said as she worked. “The same images on each side, only reversed. On the surface, souls are born, souls live. Down here, souls die, and they exist as dim reflections of what they used to be. When it’s time for rebirth, they head back up top and are born anew.”
Nico had never looked at it that way. It seemed to him like the Underworld just accumulated souls unceasingly, but Asphodel never seemed as crowded as it ought to be. Maybe more people chose rebirth than he thought.
“When I first became Queen here, the flip-flopping was difficult to adjust to. Eventually, I learned to appreciate the unique perspective it gave me. No other god belongs to both sides of the mirror equally, the way I do,” she said proudly. “I’ve learned certain secrets about the universe that few others understand. Still, I wasn’t quite satisfied with my lot,” she admitted.
“Why not?” He asked.
She smiled sheepishly.
“I really wanted to be a mom,” she admitted. “I’m a creatrix by nature. How could I not have children? It just doesn’t seem right, does it? Sure, your dad never wanted to cooperate, but I never imagined that I wouldn’t be able to figure it out on my own. If a crocodile can manage parthenogenesis, what’s my excuse? My failures were humbling, to say the least.”
“Is that why you decided to adopt me?”
“I did not adopt you,” Persephone said fervently, with a shining, brilliant, and slightly crazy look in her eyes. “I made you. That’s the point! I could have adopted a long time ago if that was my goal. This isn’t about wanting a kid to feed Capri-Suns and take to soccer practice. This is about the thrilling and dangerous magic of creation! This is about the ultimate triumph of life over death! Don’t you see?”
“No, I don’t see,” he said. “Why would you feed a kid Capri sun? How would they eat the sun? Why does it have to be from Capri?”
Persephone sighed, looking at him with the pitying affection one gives someone who is cute, but totally clueless.
“When your dad asked me to save you from your overdose,” she said, her eyes glazing with fond memory, “I was a little skeptical. I have a soft spot for people on Orphic quests, but I had never gotten involved with Hades’ demigod children before. I went into your chamber and I saw you sleeping. You looked horrendous, like a drowned kitten, with ambrosia-glow seeping out from under your eyelids. You were gaunt, pale, sick-looking… You were dying before you even tasted that ambrosia. You were willing to give your life in order to see your sister one last time.”
“Yes,” Nico said. “I’d have been happy to.” He remembered those days lost in Asphodel like it had been a dream that had happened to someone else. It felt so long ago. He remembered how light-headed and dry-mouthed he’d been. He’d collapsed in the fields many times, but each time, he’d gotten back up and kept going.
“Happy to,” she repeated. “Yes. I could sense that. You had such a fragile and weak mortal shell, but your soul was on fire. When I looked at you, I saw this strength, this intensity. Love and grief and rage were smoldering under the surface. You should have been comatose and close to death, but in you, I saw something unbreakable. I decided then and there that your story couldn’t end in tragedy. I had to save you, and the only way to do it was to make you immortal. You’d already started the process, so I thought it would be easy to finish.” She snorted with laughter. “It was not easy at all. Working in the Underworld makes life magic much more difficult to perform. I thought I knew what I was doing, but you didn’t respond to the spells in the way I’d expected. Eventually I called my mother for help, and then Hecate. We were all familiar with the process, but it wasn’t until Nyx weighed in that we figured it out.”
“Figured what out?” Nico asked nervously.
“That you were a god. We weren’t merely making you immortal. We were revealing your true nature,” she said. “Like Michelangelo carving David out of marble-- we were peeling back your shell and letting you hatch.”
“Ew,” Nico said.
“I didn’t actually peel your skin off,” she reassured him. “We did have to rub you down with ambrosia a lot.”
“Ew!” Nico said. “I didn’t consent to that!” He sincerely hoped that Demeter had not rubbed him down with anything at any point.
“Your mother consented for you,” Persephone shrugged. “She was there for the whole thing.”
“No,” Nico said, stunned. “No way. My mom? My mother? Maria di Angelo?”
“Yes, of course,” Persephone said. “She was extremely enthusiastic about your apotheosis.”
Nico flopped over and laid down on the plastic grass, stunned beyond words. It felt like half the goddesses in the pantheon had been conspiring behind his back to make him what he was. The scope of the conspiracy had grown so much that it seemed pointless to be upset about it any longer, although he still was. He was mostly shocked that his mother, Persephone, Demeter, Nyx, and Hecate had all worked on a group project, and had hidden it from both him and his dad for years. If they were capable of that, he couldn’t imagine what other secrets they’d hidden over the millennia.
“Honey,” Persephone said, leaning over him and fixing his hair where it was falling over his eyes. “When I saw your godly form for the first time, this feeling came over me. This mix of pride and joy and utter terror. I’d sit and stare at you for hours, but I never knew what to say. I’d created you, but I didn’t know you yet. I didn’t know what kind of god you would become. Whether you’d want to live in the Underworld with us. Whether you’d even like me. I was terribly worried you wouldn’t like me.”
“How can anybody not like you?” Nico said.
“I told Maria that I felt like I was scared in a way I’d never been scared before. She told me all new mothers feel like that,” she said, smiling at the memory. “And she asked me to guide you through the next chapter of your life, as your creator, and as your new mother. That was my moment. I’d obtained what I’d always wanted,” Persephone said proudly. “And I learned a lot about myself along the way. So? Did you like my explanation?”
As sweet as that was, it seemed like knowledge Nico should have been entitled to a long time ago, so some of the sentimental feeling in her statement was hard to connect with.
“That was a nice story, but you forgot to explain why you’ve been lying to me for years,” Nico said.
“You’re still miffed at me,” Persephone said with disappointment. “I get it. I’m trying, Nico, but you didn’t come with a manual. Every time we talk, it seems like you have a new litany of problems. You always seem to be struggling to keep your head above water. Maria and I didn’t think you were in the right headspace to cope with learning that you were a god. By letting you figure it out on your own, we bought you as much time as possible to just be a demigod. To be something simple.”
“Being a demigod is far from simple,” Nico said.
“Soon Zeus will know about you,” she sighed. “Being hunted by monsters will feel simple in comparison. But we’ll handle it as a family. Because that’s what we are, right?” She smiled down at him, her expression hopeful, and slightly vulnerable, her brown eyes wide and a little teary.
“A family of pathological liars, maybe,” he said skeptically. But he sat up and gave her a hug despite his skepticism. “I love you, Persephone, but I really wish this had gone differently.”
“So do I,” she said. “I’m sorry, again. Maybe someday I’ll make you a godly sibling and we’ll get everything perfect with round two, hm?”
“That is the last thing we need right now,” Nico said. Their current family dynamic was on shaky enough foundation as it was. “I want us to try to be more honest in the future, as a family. Even if it might be stuff we’re not in the right headspace for at the time. Can we at least agree on that? No more lies?”
“None at all? I don’t know about that,” she said. “You know, most happy relationships are built on lies. ‘Would you love me if I was a worm? -- Yes, dear. Do you actually think I’m funny?--Yes, of course, dear. Do I pull off this hat? -- Yes, dear, it looks splendid on you, not silly at all!’ Lies come in handy once in a while.”
Nico had no response to that; he just sighed and glanced over at the succulent gravestone. Persephone had altered it a little since he’d last looked at it; it now read, ‘RIP Succulents, We Hardly Knew Ye.’
“You’re a very silly goddess, Persephone,” he said, unable to keep from smiling.
“I know,” she giggled. “Look, I’ll try and make it up to you.” She put her arm around him. “How about I owe you a favor? A big one? To make up for the anguish of self discovery you had to endure because of me.”
Nico bit the insides of his cheeks. He knew what to ask for; what he needed to ask for, what he had no choice but to ask for. But he was scared of how she might respond.
“Disney trip?” She suggested.
“Are you kidding?”
“Harry Potter World? Your dad can dress up as Voldemort.”
“I don’t know what that is,” Nico said. “Um. So, I do have a favor that I need from you. But in light of what you just told me, I suspect you’re not going to like it.”
“Anything you want,” she said confidently. “Just say the word. As long as it’s in my power, I’ll do it.”
“I need you to make me mortal again.”
“Ha! No way. What do you really want?” She said, grinning.
He just stared at her.
“Honey? Sweetheart? Light of my life?” She said, pinching his cheek. “Tell me what you really want, please.”
“I did,” he said quietly. “I’m sorry. But I really need you to--”
“If this is a joke, it’s not funny,” she said, her eyebrows drawing downwards. She dug her nails into the Astroturf.
Nico had sworn on the Styx never to mention Kronos, or to reveal what his dad had told him. There was little excuse he could give, so he prayed that she wouldn’t interrogate him too hard.
“I need to be mortal again. Or as close to mortal as you can make me. I know it’s a weird ask and it’s not done very often, but Demeter should know how to do it. I--”
“No no no no no no no!” She said petulantly. “Are you feeling alright? Did you eat something weird? Is someone putting you up to this?” She pressed her hand against his forehead.
“No,” he said, although someone definitely was. “Also, I’m a god, I don’t have a fever. Look, it doesn’t have to be a big deal. I don’t have any godly purpose, I don’t have any worshippers. I’m not even the god of anything. And I’ll still live here with you and Papa. Nothing major has to change.”
“Nothing major?” She said, her lip trembling. “Your divinity is extremely major to me! It took me two years to make you what you are!”
“Please don’t start crying.”
She started crying.
“Okay,” he sighed. “I’m sorry, but… I never asked for this. I know you did the best you could, but it needs to be undone. Please don’t be upset.”
“Upset? I’m devastated!” She shouted. “Nico, I made you.” She knelt in front of him and ran her thumbs over the bones of his face. “Every magical cell in your body was made by me. The ichor in your veins came from ambrosia that I rubbed into your skin. When I saw your true form for the first time, you were more beautiful than a thousand springtimes. You’re my magnum opus, my Sistine Chapel, my Taj Mahal!”
“I haven’t even seen my true form yet,” he said.
“See? You don’t even know what you’d be destroying,” she said, sniffling. “What on earth would make you want to kill yourself?”
“I’d still exist!”
“It’s not the same,” she said. Her face grew dark. “I won’t do this.”
“You said you owed me,” he said. “I know it’s hard for you to understand, but this is what I really, truly need from you. Okay? Please?”
She shook her head.
“If you won’t do it, I’ll ask Demeter instead. And if she won’t, I’ll go to Zeus. Please don’t make me go to Zeus,” he pleaded, clasping his hands together in supplication.
That seemed to get through to her. She took a deep breath through her nostrils.
“Don’t ask them,” she said firmly.
“Then you’ll do it? It doesn’t have to be right away. Just in the next few years.”
She clawed chunks of lime green plastic grass out of the ground with her hands.
“Hmm,” she said.
“Please?” He asked. “Please, Mom?”
She looked up at him when he said that. She pursed her lips, her eyes filled with vast affection. It felt manipulative to call her that now, of all times, but in a legitimate way, she was his godly mother. Nico told himself he was merely stating a fact. Based on the way she looked at him, he felt confident that, despite her reservations, he could probably convince her to do pretty much anything for him. Even this.
“Don’t call me that if you don’t mean it,” she said quietly. “Don’t do that to me.”
“I do mean it,” Nico said, holding her gaze.
“Okay,” she said, releasing a tensely held breath. “Fine. But I need time to work out how to do it. And you have to promise me you won’t ask anyone else to do it for you. It needs to be me.”
“Of course,” he said. “I wouldn’t want it to be anyone else.”
He gave her a huge hug. He was overwhelmed with gratitude, not just for her agreeing to this favor, but just for her in general. Other than the propensity for lying, Persephone was pretty spectacular goddess. He wouldn’t have wanted his divine mother to be anybody else.
She changed the topic to gardening after that, which was good, since they both needed to clear their heads a bit. It had been a heavy and challenging day. They amused themselves by coming up with funny epitaphs for the air plants’ tombstone, and started planning the next doomed gardening project together. Nico suggested a greenhouse, and they started putting one together on the spot. It was easy when you could just think stuff up and will it into existence. They made a round eco-dome greenhouse, installed shelving, and set up UV grow lights that definitely would not work, but looked kind of cool.
It was a nice break to unwind. Nico understood completely why Persephone continued her gardening hobby despite it having no hope of succeeding; digging your hands into real soil and planting tiny seedlings felt grounding. It made an interesting contrast with the cold, clean sterility of the rest of the Underworld to play with water and mud and roots and seedlings in a warm little hut. It was all the more special because Nico was spending time with someone that he was now starting to really think of as his mom.
It was a strange new thought. She’d been mom-adjacent for so long, but knowing the truth put everything in a new light. Every time he looked in the mirror, he saw his dad’s features, and his mom’s-- he had his father’s deep, bottomless-pit eyes and his bony shoulders, he had Maria di Angelo’s elegant lips and soft, fluffy curls. All along, there had been a third influence, but he’d never known it.
He didn’t look like Persephone, and so he hadn’t seen the impact she’d had on him. His skin had a slight glow, the ichor in his veins lighting him subtly from within. He never got tired or sick or hungry. He was beautiful in a way that went beyond human aesthetics; like every god, he looked like a human seen through the eyes of a very kind painter who had sought to enhance every feature and disguise every flaw.
He’d gone to sleep a grubby and greasy, anemic ten year old. He’d woken up a god, and it was all because of the hard work and love that she’d poured into him, day after day for years. Every time he looked in the mirror now, he’d see her masterpiece. There was nothing like the feeling of being someone’s proudest accomplishment. He felt very, very lucky.
He tried not to think about the fact that he was throwing it all away to pursue mortality. They’d still have each other, and be a family-- they’d still gained something from her efforts. It would just be downgraded a little. A mostly godly family was still special. He hoped it would be, anyway.
Their peaceful time was interrupted by his dad ducking down to enter the greenhouse. Hades rapped on the door frame with his knuckles. He was so tall that he barely fit inside the small space, since Persephone and Nico had built it for the two of them.
“Well, well, well,” Persephone said, without taking her eyes off a tomato plant she was potting. “Decided to finally face the music?”
“My love, I’m sorry I didn’t tell you right away,” Hades said, flicking his eyes at Nico nervously. “When he told me he was a god, it took a while to become fully convinced, and I--”
“She was the one that made me a god,” Nico said bluntly. “She lied to both of us for almost four years.”
Persephone huffed in indignation.
“You could have phrased that a little more diplomatically, Ambassador,” she chided him.
“I just want this over with,” Nico said. “We need to move on.”
He and Persephone both walked out of the greenhouse. As soon as she left, the tomatoes started to shrivel up, but they had bigger problems now.
“And to think, I was prepared to be the one in trouble,” Hades said mildly. To Nico’s relief, he didn’t look particularly angry, or even surprised. He supposed that Persephone had probably been suspect number one all along. He and his dad must have both been making an effort to give her the benefit of the doubt in the face of significant evidence against her.
“I’m not apologizing,” Persephone said, tossing her hair shamelessly. “The only reason you two have any semblance of a relationship is because of me. If he’d known he was a god from the beginning, he’d have made a run for it and never spoken to us again, because of the way you used to treat him.”
“True,” Nico nodded.
Hades didn’t even attempt to argue with that point.
“Darling, Trisha is waiting. I booked an emergency session,” he said.
“That’s probably a good idea,” she admitted, taking his hand.
“Nico? We’ll be gone a while,” Hades said. “You’re in charge until I get back.”
Nico gasped.
“Really?”
“Don’t abuse my trust,” Hades said, holding up a finger in warning.
“I won’t,” Nico said, standing up straighter and trying to make himself look responsible and trustworthy. “Don’t worry, I got this.”
He smiled brightly. Persephone gave him thumbs up. Hades looked at his son and just sighed.
They disappeared, and Nico was left alone in the garden.
Despite the day of odd revelations, he felt like a weight had been lifted. Questions had been answered, truths had come to light, and issues had been worked through. His parents had gone to therapy, so they would be fine. Persephone had agreed to make him mortal, so he’d be safe from Kronos, eventually. And he’d been trusted with the responsibility of… Everything? Kind of?
He went to the throne room and looked around. What did his godly parents do all day, anyway? They made a lot of spreadsheets and Powerpoint presentations, but as far as he knew, that was about it. He wasn’t even sure why his dad needed a throne room. He barely used it.
Nico didn’t know the first thing about being in charge, but he did know one thing. When the boss was away, you just had to sit in his chair. He plopped down onto Hades’ giant throne and tapped his fingers on the arm.
It was carved onyx, depicting the screaming faces of the souls of the damned. Nico traced his index finger over their faces, wondering if real souls had been crammed into the seat, and what they’d done to deserve it. There were sharp onyx spikes jutting out all over the back, and he squirmed, trying to get comfortable. He glanced down at where his hand rested on the arm of the chair, and saw deep indentations where Hades had dug his sharp nails into the stone and scraped it away. It was quite possible Nico had caused some of those scrapings. Good thing his dad was in therapy.
Nico pulled out his phone and texted Thanatos. He appeared within seconds of sending the text.
“Hi,” Thanatos smiled sweetly.
“Hi,” Nico grinned. “I love your new haircut. Can I touch it?”
Thanatos bent halfway over in front of him and let him touch the strands of hair that framed his face.
“It looks so much better,” Nico said.
“I feel different,” Thanatos said, straightening. “Refreshed somehow. I’m grateful to you. For this, and for… You know.”
“I know,” Nico said, cocking his head and staring at Thanatos fondly. He looked less ethereal and angelic with his short haircut. Now he looked like an ultra-modern fashion model with cheekbones that could cut glass. It was hot, but in an untouchable, intimidating kind of way. Good thing he wasn’t easily intimidated, he thought. “I’m in charge while my parents are at therapy.”
“Really?”
“Yeah. Persephone made me into a god, apparently. So mystery solved.”
“My mother told me after you two left,” Thanatos nodded. “Are you relieved to have your answers?”
“Very. Just ready to be done with the secrets and start moving forward. But I’ve talked about that enough for one day. Do you want to hang out with me?” Nico asked.
“And do what, exactly?” Thanatos asked.
Nico shrugged.
“We can just hang out in my room.”
An expression flashed across Thanatos’ face that Nico couldn’t parse.
“I can’t leave my mother for too long. She’s still a little sensitive,” Thanatos said. “But let’s play Mythomagic later. In my room?”
“Okay. Do you want to--”
Thanatos had already gone.
Nico was alone again, and grew bored quickly. His weird, boyfriend yet not boyfriend situation with Thanatos made him happy, but it was unorthodox, and that left him slightly confused. Were they together? Would Thanatos ever make a move, or should Nico just kiss him and get it over with? It was hard to tell whether Thanatos was just shy, or if he hadn’t fully committed to the relationship yet. He ran very hot and cold. Well, more like cold, colder, and slightly lukewarm, if Nico was being honest. But he liked that about him. Thanatos was completely unique in the universe, and learning his secrets one by one was thrilling. Nico didn’t mind if that meant they moved slow.
He did still have another boyfriend, though, so he texted Will for a while, but he was very deep in hospice nursing his grandfather, and had little to say to Nico at the moment. Nico scrolled Godstagram instead, zoning out. He was so absorbed in his phone that he nearly jumped out of his skin when Alecto appeared in front of him and barked, “Nope!”
Her dark eyes pierced him like daggers; she flapped her bat wings menacingly in his direction, brandishing her long, blood-crusted claws near his eyeballs.
“Get out of my lord’s chair,” Alecto screeched.
“Papa said I’m in charge while he’s gone,” Nico said. “I’m your boss now.” He folded his arms and tried to look at her sternly, attempting to hide the fact that she did scare him a little. Also, he immediately got out of the chair.
At the news that Nico had been left in charge, Alecto spat acid at the floor in front of his feet. It burnt a hole in the stone.
“Insanity,” she said. “Is this it? Your ploy to overthrow him? Where is he, really? What have you done to him? I always knew you were a schemer! The bloodline of Kronos never fails to disappoint!”
“He’s at couples therapy with Persephone,” Nico said flatly. “Thanks, though. Appreciate the support.”
“Oh,” Alecto said, scratching her ear. “Hades likes to weigh in on punishments sometimes, so… Nevermind.”
“I wanna weigh in!” Nico insisted. “Hit me!”
Alecto hissed in frustration, but she told him.
“A man killed a valedictorian in a drunk driving accident, but he sped away to avoid getting caught. Then he founded a charity to alleviate his guilty conscience and acted all high and mighty for the next forty years.”
“What was the charity?”
“Shoes for kids in Zimbabwe.”
“Oh. That does sound helpful, though,” Nico said.
“Tsk. No, it wasn’t,” Alecto rasped. “They had shoes in Zimbabwe long before this guy came on the scene. And they weren’t even good shoes. Kids hardly wore them because they pinched their toes.”
“Oh, okay. Well, fuck that guy, then,” Nico said. “Let’s shove his feet into pinchy shoes for eternity!”
“And also they’re full of acid!” Alecto said eagerly.
“Sure, why not?” Nico shrugged. "Oh, by the way," he added. "There was a murder in the Campus Martius recently. A girl named Gwen was stabbed in the back after the battle ended-- Mars was very offended. Can you look into, I don't know, chasing down the murderer or whatever you usually do in these cases?"
Alecto flew away with a nod. Nico wondered if he’d earned some respect from her after all this time. Probably not, but it was fun to imagine.
He sat in his dad’s throne again and waited for more Underworld business to come up.
No one came in. He waited and waited in the dark and empty hall, staring at nothing. Was his dad’s eternal existence really this boring without him and Persephone? Did he trade off between zoning out doing nothing, and doing the only thing worse, spreadsheets? It was no wonder he watched dashcam car accident footage just to feel something.
Cerberus trotted in, which was a welcome distraction. He let Nico pet him for a while, but then all three of his heads yawned widely, and he started walking in circles before curling up to lay at his feet. His heads started snoring happily and drooling all over the floor. Nico sat and watched him for a while and ended up closing his own eyes. He woke up hours later, surprised that he’d been able to drift off so easily in the uncomfortable chair. That was what his dad really did most of the time, he decided.
Despite the hours that had passed, there was still no sign of his divine parents anywhere. Undoubtedly they had lots of marital problems to talk through, but still. He was getting lonely, and Cerberus had wandered off while he was asleep.
Then he remembered that there was someone he needed to talk to. He summoned his mother’s shade to the throne room, urging her to leave Elysium and appear before him.
Instead of Maria di Angelo, he got Maria, his Nonna, and his Zia Patrizia instead.
“Wait, what are you two doing here?” He asked his grandmother and aunt, who were looking around excitedly.
“They grabbed onto me when they saw me leaving,” Maria said. “Any excuse to explore, these two. How are you? You look like you’re moving up in the world.” She gazed up at where he sat on the throne, on a dais, and smirked.
“Papa put me in charge while he’s away,” Nico said proudly. He hopped down from the throne and went over to stand in front of her. “But that’s not what I want to talk about. You knew all along what I was and lied to me!”
“Sorry, amore,” she said, smiling without any sign that she felt sorry at all. She patted his head. “You were very mentally unstable. It didn’t seem like a good idea to fuel your fire with more troubles until you’d cooled off a bit.”
“Things are going pretty good for me today, actually. Persephone and I worked everything out. I also started calling her mom, but I’ll stop if that bothers you.”
“I’m dead,” she said. “My time with you is over. I’m relieved that you have another mother willing to step in. She loves you unconditionally, you know.”
“I know,” Nico said.
“Besides, what do I know about being a god?” Maria said, shrugging. “She’s better suited for this new life of yours than I would have been.”
“I still need you, too,” Nico said. “You might be dead, but you’re always my mom. Also, that god thing isn’t going to be relevant much longer. I asked Persephone to make me mortal again.”
“What?” Maria said in shock.
“What?” His Nonna exclaimed. She and Patrizia had been eavesdropping. Both shades rushed to his side.
“Really? You just want to drop dead like any old nobody?” His Nonna rapped him on the side of the head with her ghostly knuckles.
“Ow!” Nico said.
“She can’t actually hurt you,” Maria said.
“Spiritually it hurt,” he said. “It reactivated childhood memories of similar incidents. Listen, you guys don’t know the details. I have my reasons, okay? And it’s just meant to make me less powerful. Or not powerful at all, I guess. I might still be immortal, so that wouldn’t change.”
“I don’t care about your reasons,” his Nonna said firmly. “You’re a di Angelo. Di Angelo’s don’t throw power away. They fight for it, and they hold onto it until it’s pried from their cold, dead hands. You come from a long line of Popes, Kings, and Emperors, young man. We’re descended from Julius Caesar and Alexander the Great, you know.”
“Nonna, you have zero evidence for that,” Nico said, exhausted by the subject. He’d heard that story a million times before, mostly when he didn’t feel like finishing his homework, and every time she added increasingly unlikely historical figures to his list of ancestors. “I’m a god now. I literally can’t get any more powerful than this. We peaked. The di Angelo’s won at life. Can’t I be done now?”
“No,” said all three women.
“Okay, well, you’re dead, so I don’t have to listen to you anymore,” Nico said frustratedly. “You’ll forget this conversation in five minutes anyway.”
“They will,” Maria said, grabbing his arm. “But I won’t.” She lowered her tone of voice so that the others wouldn’t hear. “I have a greater awareness than they do, and I’m sure it’s because of your power. If you become mortal again, will I forget you? Will I even remember that you were ever a god at all?”
“Mama,” he sighed. “Please don’t put that on me. You have a wonderful afterlife. You do whatever you want, whenever you want. You live in bliss. Given all that, can you just let me do what I need to do and stop guilt tripping me?” He asked.
“No,” she said.
“Okay. Good talk,” he sighed. “I think you guys should go back now. I’ll come visit again soon. Wait, where are the others?”
He and Maria looked around. The shades of his Nonna and Zia were gone.
“They said they wanted to explore,” Maria suggested.
The two shades had made their way to the dining room, and Nico found them gorging themselves on the eternal feast that always lay prepared on the table. His aunt was trying to finish off a rack of ribs by herself, and his Nonna was chugging wine.
“Real food really hits the spot when you’re dead,” his aunt said.
Maria sat down at the table and daintily spread a napkin across her lap. Elegant even in death, she ate a single grape, then looked up at Nico.
“Can we have something a bit… Fresher?”
All three of them stared at him.
“Later,” he said. “I’m supposed to be looking after the palace, not doing McDonalds runs for ghosts.”
“But I’m your mother,” Maria said, looking up at him with sad, ghostly eyes. “And Mama wants the blood of sacrifice.”
Unable to say no to her, Nico grabbed an empty jug and filled it with the sacrificial blood from the pool in the bathroom. All three shades took turns chugging out of the jug and fighting over it, and he watched them with reluctant amusement. The blood made them look brighter and seemed to give them energy that they used to bicker with each other more than usual.
Seeing that they would be busy with that for a while, he went back to the throne room to continue holding down the fort, so to speak. He made a few laps of the room, watching the clock and waiting for his parents to return. He was bored and lonely out there on his own, but his relatives in the dining room were loud and overstimulating. He liked hearing them from a distance, so he could be alone and yet not-alone at the same time.
In a convenient twist of fate, Hades and Persephone returned, appearing to stand right in front of him. They were holding hands, and appeared to be weirdly cheerful, but he didn’t take anything for granted.
“Well?” He asked. “Are you getting a divorce because of me? Be honest.”
“Us? Divorce?” Persephone laughed. “I’d have done that a long time ago if it was an option. We can’t get divorced. We’re like peanut butter and jelly. Pancakes and maple syrup. Tomatoes and bacon. Right, dear?”
“Right,” said Hades.
“Say something that goes together.”
“Corpses and formaldehyde.”
After a brief pause, she said, “Good try, honey.”
Hades scanned the room. Nico felt his heart rate increase as his father blatantly looked for some sign of an error on Nico’s part. Despite the lofty implications of being ‘in charge’ of the Underworld, or at least the palace, there had been very little for Nico to actually screw up.
“Wait one moment!” Hades said. “What are those voices I’m hearing?”
“They sound like loud, argumentative Italian women,” Persephone mused.
“Yes,” Hades said. “I’d recognize Lola di Angelo’s shrill tones anywhere. Son, why are your dead relatives in my dining room?”
“They stopped in for lunch,” Nico said. “Is that a problem?”
Hades frowned and seemed to try very hard to come up with a reason it was a huge, major, disastrous problem, but he wasn’t able to.
“Send them back now,” he said sternly.
“Such a good boy,” Persephone cooed, as Nico dismissed them back to Elysium. “So loyal to his family. That was the first thing that drew me to him, you know.”
“Yes, I can admit he has that one, single, specific thing going for him,” Hades said. “Nico, go and occupy yourself. We have work to do. I’ll come and speak with you later.”
Nico knew better than to expect thanks for looking after the place, so he trotted off, content that everyone was getting along for once. In a sudden impulse of sentimentality, once he was back in his room he went over to his bookshelf and pulled out his photo albums.
In pulling out the books, he jostled the shelving, and something fell onto the floor with two small clicks. He looked at the stone floor, and saw two white bones glinting in the darkness.
He picked them up. One was a fragment of a martyr bone-- Saint Philip’s, who had helped protect him from Athena’s attack drones. The other was a toe belonging to Saint Catherine, not a martyr, but still powerful.
Nico couldn’t imagine that he’d even have need of them again. He’d used the bones back when he’d thought he was nothing more than a weak, vulnerable demigod. He was a god now, with a godly family and godly friends. He didn’t need help anymore. He created a small black box to keep them in, and locked the bones inside, placing it safely on the shelf.
He settled onto his bed with his photo albums and got comfy. After seeing their shades so recently, it was strange to page through the photos of his mother, aunt, and grandmother. He was used to knowing them as shades now, but the pictures reminded him of how much had been lost. Even in a black and white photo, his mother’s beauty and vitality jumped right off the pages. She had an old modeling habit of staring straight down the camera anytime there was one in the room, and it made her seem like the main character in a film surrounded by extras.
Nico’s eye was caught by a photo of just the two of them together. She was sitting on a park bench and he was sitting on her knee, looking up at the feather on her hat. They’d always been so closely bonded, him and his mom.
“Reminiscing?” Hades asked.
Nico looked up. His dad was standing in the doorway of his room.
“Yeah,” he said, as Hades came to sit next to him, taking the album from his hands. “Papa, when I become mortal again, will it have an effect on Mama? She said she has an elevated status in Elysium because of me. She doesn’t want to lose it.”
“I’ll make sure that she doesn’t,” Hades said, turning the page. “But I don’t think it’s going to have much of an impact. I’ve done some research of my own. I don’t think there is any way to truly make you mortal again. You have an endless golden lifeline. That cannot be altered now.”
“That’s what Chiron said, too. He said I’ll still be immortal.”
“All Persephone will do is change your physical form into one that cannot access your divine abilities,” Hades said. “You’ll be different merely on a surface level. I had to reassure her of that, since she was very reluctant to agree to change you.”
“Did you tell her about Kronos?”
“No. I said you identify as a mortal on the inside. I took a page out of Zeus’s playbook and blamed it on woke modern identity politics. But I insisted that I’m being supportive.”
“She definitely knows you’re lying,” Nico said, rolling his eyes.
“Yes, but she agreed to go along with it. That’s all that matters.”
“Your therapist really earns her salary,” Nico said, a slight bitterness in his voice. Part of him had hoped that Persephone would come up with a different, less drastic solution. She couldn’t do that if she was left in the dark, and Nico was forbidden to tell her on his own.
“Trisha drives a nicer car than you do,” Hades said. “Never mind that. Look at this picture. I bought Bianca that hat. She put it on every time I visited afterward.”
“She loved that hat,” Nico said, smiling as the memories flooded back to him.
It was unexpected, but Hades sat and looked at every picture in the album with him. They talked for what seemed like days, with Hades telling Nico every detail he could recall about his childhood, his mother, and their relationship.
Deep down, Nico knew that he’d paid a high price to earn his father’s kind, loving attention. He’d agreed to give up his divinity, but he still had time to change his mind. Persephone would never change him if he showed the slightest reluctance, so it was entirely within his control. There was an unspoken understanding between them that his dad owed him a massive debt for being so cooperative. Nico wondered if any other god would have agreed to such a sacrifice as he was making.
He wondered whether even he would have agreed if he’d had more time to learn what it was to be a god. He wondered even now whether he could go through with it. But he couldn’t forget that he was doomed to eternity in Tartarus if he refused.
An eternity spent with his loved ones was a happy ending on its own, right? Who cared if he lost a few measly superpowers? He’d get over it. Hopefully.
“Enough of this,” Hades said, closing the album. “That’s every photo twice. I’m boring you.”
He looked over at Nico, who had not been bored for a moment, and smiled, the corners of his eyes crinkling.
“I know of a swimming hole in the Phlegethon where the lava tubes have formed natural waterslides. What do you say to a little adventure with me and Cerberus? Hm?”
Nico nodded, and his dad’s smile grew even wider. As Hades beckoned for him to follow him out the door, Nico thought life truly couldn’t get any better.
This had to be worth the price he was paying. Right?
Notes:
Sorry for the wait everybody! My trip to Italy was awesome. Later in the story, Nico will go back to Rome, so I will be able to put to use all the things I learned on my trip when writing it. It wasn't my first time there, but now it will be fresh in my memory! :)
Chapter 65: Ninety Three Years Young
Chapter Text
Eternal life was good, and the unmarked time of the Underworld passed in a blur. Nico worked little, and socialized more than ever. He won third place in a Mythomagic tournament. He accompanied Thanatos to collect souls, although Thanatos never permitted him to collect any himself. He bought a mat with buttons that said words when you pressed them, and attempted to teach Cerberus to communicate with the family. He only managed to learn the word ‘kill’, but it was a start.
Hades and Persephone both spent copious amounts of time with him. They had family dinners regularly, even though they didn’t need to eat, because Persephone had Googled ‘what do normal families do’. They tended the garden together, helped each other with Powerpoint presentations for work, and mostly, they just talked. Persephone was good at drawing stories out of Hades that he wouldn’t have shared on his own, and Nico loved sitting and listening to them talk about their ancient lives. He could have sat for hours at their feet, letting their descriptions paint pictures in his mind of the old worlds of antique Greece and Rome, and the worship and devotion they’d known long ago.
It said a lot about how good he had it when the news that Demeter was coming for a visit felt like the end of the world.
“I can go and visit Hazel while she’s visiting,” Nico said, desperate to get out of it. He didn’t hate Demeter by any means, but he felt like they’d mutually taken a dislike to each other, and had no interest in hanging out with her. “I don’t want to butt in. She probably wants to catch up with you.”
Persephone smirked at him.
“She wants to see my new, perfect family,” she said. They were sitting together at a little table in her greenhouse, sharing a pot of magic herbal tea. All of their plants had died, but she’d replaced them with fake plastic plants that looked fairly convincing in the right light, and made the greenhouse look nice and cozy. “Now that we’re all on the same page and things are going so well, I thought we could spend some time with her, too. We won’t be able to relax again until the war is over. I hear things are heating up.”
“The heroes from Camp Half Blood are heading to Camp Jupiter soon,” Nico said. “I haven’t decided if I want to be there when they arrive. Probably not,” He knew he ought to be by Hazel’s side as much as possible, but he never felt as though he got to spend enough time at home. He found it especially hard to leave when he was so happy. Besides, Hazel had just started dating Frank officially, so he figured she wouldn’t miss him too much at the moment.
“If it’s not too much trouble, I’d like you to decorate a little,” she said. “Like you did for the family dinner we had? The one you interrupted with a resurrection?”
“Ha. Good times,” Nico said, remembering the day as one of the most special of his life. That was the day he’d met Hazel, when everything had begun anew for him. It was also a day that Bianca featured heavily in, but her memory stung less than ever now. He hoped that she was somewhere safe, and that she was happy, but otherwise, the wound had healed enough that he didn’t think of her often. “I don’t mind decorating,” he answered Persephone.
“Have it done by tomorrow, please,” she said. “And decorate the way you like it best. Have fun with it. Maybe Thanatos can help you?”
Decorating was pretty easy when you were a god. You pictured what you wanted, and it kind of just happened on its own. Clearly Nico didn’t need help, but he would take any excuse to hang out with Thanatos.
The god of death arrived while Nico was attempting to artfully arrange a centerpiece made of flaming skulls and candles that had been jammed into wine bottles. He’d moved his record player onto the balcony so that he could listen to his opera records while he decorated.
“That looks nice,” Thanatos said. “I’m sure the skulls are honored that their remains are being used for such an important purpose.”
“Are you being sarcastic?” Nico asked. “I don’t think being a centerpiece for Demeter’s visit is much of an honor.”
“I’m being totally sincere,” Thanatos said, with a glint in his eye.
Nico turned around to look at him more closely.
“What’s with the look? Are you up to something?” Nico said.
“No,” Thanatos said, picking at his mantle nervously.
“Than,” Nico said. “Come on. You can tell me.”
Thanatos shook his head, attempting to hide his face behind his hair, an old habit that no longer worked after his haircut.
“Does it have something to do with the reason you’ve been avoiding being alone with me?” Nico asked. He tried not to sound too aggressively curious, but he did take a seat next to Thanatos at the table and grab hold of his hand so that he couldn’t run away. He had a tendency to do that when confronted.
Thanatos looked down at where their hands were touching and pursed his lips anxiously.
“Why are you acting like you’re scared of me?” Nico asked.
“It’s just… Too much change lately,” Thanatos said quietly. “Maybe I’m just a coward. I don’t know.”
Nico released his hand, but he didn’t move away.
“I understand,” he said. “You’ve been alone since, what? The beginning of time? It takes time to adjust to change.”
Thanatos reached out and touched some of the dead black roses that Nico had scattered everywhere in an attempt to be aesthetic. Just the slightest touch, and the flower structure fell apart. The petals dropped to the table in a heap.
“I know Demeter wouldn’t be into dead plants, but I like how it looks,” Nico said. “And Persephone said I could decorate however I wanted.”
“If I’m rattled by change, I can’t imagine how your parents feel about your presence here,” Thanatos said.
“Persephone’s great. My dad is adjusting. He’s content so long as she is,” Nico said. “Mostly.” His father still harbored some fears about Nico’s vulnerability to Kronos, but once Nico was mortal again, that would go away. “Overall, we’re doing okay.
“Oh. Great. I’m the only one with horrendous misplaced anxiety. Wonderful,” Thanatos said, pouting.
“It’s alright,” Nico reassured him.
“It’s not alright. I don’t know why this is so difficult for me. I don’t know what I want. Sometimes I think I do, but then I’m not sure. Everything is so confusing,” he said. He folded his arms on the table and tucked his face into his elbow, hiding away. “And you’ll lose interest in me soon, and then you’ll go away, and part of me thinks that would make things easier. And another part of me thinks that without you, there wouldn’t be a me at all anymore.”
Nico’s heart lurched with sympathy and affection for Thanatos, but he was at a loss. He didn’t know how to fix what he was feeling.
“I’m not going anywhere,” Nico said. “You just need more time.”
“Maybe,” Thanatos said. “Was it like this for you the first time you had feelings for someone?”
“Um, no,” Nico admitted. “My first crush was pretty textbook. You know, pining, feeling sorry for myself, acting extremely cringey. I’m lucky Minos was nice about it. But the point is, we figured it out eventually, and so will you. Again, I’m not going anywhere.”
Thanatos clenched his teeth.
“You wouldn’t be so patient if you weren’t seeing that other boy,” he said bitterly.
“Will has nothing to do with it,” Nico said, although Thanatos probably had a point. “He’s just a mortal. You and I will know each other for eternity.”
“All that means is that there’s more time for me to screw things up,” Thanatos said. “What time is it?”
“Do we have a meeting or something?” Nico asked. There was no use for time in the Underworld outside of weekly team meetings, and they’d just had one of those. Nico checked his phone. “It’s eleven fifty-eight PM in the mortal world. Why?”
“Finish your decorations,” Thanatos said, his expression brightening significantly. “Don’t let me distract you any further. My whining can wait.”
Nico glanced around. He’d hung lanterns and streamers, had finished the centerpiece, the music was playing.
“I don’t think I have anything left to do,” he said. “Looks pretty festive to me. What time is Demeter supposed to arrive?”
“Soon,” Thanatos said, smiling. “What time is it now?”
“Eleven fifty-nine. Why do you care about the time so much?”
“I wanted to be the first to tell you happy birthday.”
He looked at his phone again. It was January twenty-fourth. As he stared at the screen, the minute ticked over to midnight, and the date became January twenty-fifth-- his birthday.
He heard a noise, and glanced over his shoulder. Hades, Persephone, and Cerberus walked out onto the balcony, and Persephone shouted at the top of her lungs,
“Happy birthday!”
She threw her arms around Nico, nearly knocking him over the balcony railing.
“Thank you,” he said, stunned. Cerberus began barking excitedly, all three heads out of sync, making a bone rattling cacophony.
“Happy birthday, son,” Hades said, although it was hard to hear him over the noise of the barking. “Calm down, Cerby, it’s alright,” Hades said, attempting to calm his dog.
A group of skeletons walked out of the palace carrying a massive, oversized cake on a gold platter. It was tiered like a wedding cake, but in black frosting. ‘Happy Birthday Nico’ was spelled out on the sides in gold lettering.
Nico’s jaw dropped when he saw it.
“You didn’t have to go to all that trouble for me,” he said, delighted.
“Cerberus! Down, boy,” Hades said, trying to get Cerberus under control. He reached out to grab one of his collars, but the monstrous mastiff slipped behind his legs, knocking him over, and leapt directly at the cake. The skeletons crashed to the floor in a clatter of bones, and Cerberus dove right into the pastry, devouring giant mouthfuls of cake and getting frosting all over his face.
“Cerby, no! Bad dog!” Hades said.
“The cake,” Persephone gasped. “Darn! I worked really hard on that.”
Nico started laughing, and only laughed harder as his father attempted to wrangle Cerberus away from the ruined cake. Hades got frosting all over himself, and was unsuccessful in getting control of his monster dog, who feasted happily, oblivious to the chaos.
“Sorry, honey,” Persephone said. “I wanted everything to be perfect for you.”
Bent double with laughter, Nico had to catch his breath before he could respond.
“Don’t be sorry. This is amazing,” he said.
Eventually Hades was able to drag Cerberus away from the remains of the cake and send him downstairs, away from the palace.
“Eurgh,” he said, magically cleaning the frosting off of himself. “Damn that blasted dog. Um, sorry about that, son.”
“That’s okay,” Nico said. “It was hilarious.”
They cleaned up the balcony area while Thanatos observed them.
“I think your dog needs obedience training,” he told Hades.
“What an astute observation,” Hades said sarcastically. “Very helpful. For your information, Cerberus is too intelligent for obedience training to be effective.”
Before Thanatos could remark that that was clearly not the problem, Nico interrupted.
“So this was my birthday party all along?” He said. “You really had me fooled.”
“I’m surprised you never caught on,” Persephone said, tidying up the table and making sure they’d removed all traces of frosting. She snapped her fingers, and a new, identical cake appeared on the table. “I wanted to make the cake the old-fashioned human way, so I could say it was made with love, but I suppose this will have to suffice.” Her expression brightened. “I didn’t make you the old-fashioned way, either, but I still made you with love! It must be fate.”
“Very poetic, darling,” Hades agreed, taking his seat at the head of the table. “May I remind you that I suggested a magical cake from the beginning. Mortal cooking isn’t really your forte.”
“That’s not nice, Papa,” Nico said. “I’m sure it would have been delicious.”
“Tell him about the eggshells,” Hades said.
“Eggshells?” Nico asked.
Persephone clucked her tongue.
“Your father thinks he knows everything. He tried to convince me that eggs need their shells removed before they go into cake batter. Eggshells contain many nutrients that plants adore! Surely they can only make the cake better by including them.”
Hades and Nico exchanged a look, and Hades raised his eyebrows and silently mouthed, ‘Told you’.
“Whatever, I don’t care about the cake,” Nico said. “I’m just glad Demeter isn’t coming. I know she’s your mom, but I’m not a big fan of hers. She’s always so critical of me.”
“Aha! Critical, am I?”
Nico spun around. To his horror, Demeter was standing right behind him. He gasped.
“Fix your face,” she snapped at him. “You look like a fish with your mouth hanging open.”
She marched past him, purposefully bumping into him with her hip so that he almost fell off of the balcony.
“Hello, my dear daughter,” she said, giving Persephone a big hug and kissing her on both cheeks several times. “Hello, you,” she said to Hades in a decidedly colder tone. He nodded at her in greeting, and they both frowned at each other.
Nico went to sit down at the table next to his dad; Demeter had commandeered his seat beside Persephone. Thanatos left to lean against the balcony, clearly not desiring any socialization with Nico’s divine grandmother. As Demeter rearranged cushions and got comfortable, Hecate, Hypnos, and Morpheus came up the stairs, and Charon arrived, going to stand next to Thanatos off to one side.
“Thank you guys for coming,” Nico said as the Underworld gods came to sit at the table. Hecate flopped onto a cushion beside him and kissed him wetly on the cheek.
“A birthday down here is a real novelty,” she said. “Most of us have lost count of our years. I stopped keeping track at one thousand, one hundred and eleven. I figured it was the best number.”
“Is this your hundredth?” Hypnos asked.
“Ninety third,” Nico said.
“Celebrating yearly is kind of tacky. Every century is frequent enough for most gods. Or are we still pretending you’re a demigod; I can’t remember,” Hypnos said, his tone snarky.
“Yeah, is this your coming out party?” Hecate laughed. “Are you going to make a speech?”
“Wait, you’re a god?” Morpheus asked, staring up at Nico in disappointment. “Why am I the last one to find out? Nobody tells me anything,” he sighed, stuffing his mouth full of cake to make himself feel better.
“If it makes you feel better, Morpheus, I wasn’t the first to know, either,” Nico said. “No speech. I’d rather we didn’t make a big deal out of that part.”
“But you do want us to make a big deal out of your birthday,” Hecate said, her eyes sparkling with amusement.
“I mean, I wouldn’t mind,” Nico said. He caught Persephone’s eye, and they both grinned. Spoiling him clearly made her happy, and he was equally happy to bask in her overflowing love and affection for as long as it lasted.
A line of skeletons began bringing out food to lay out a feast, as well as quite a few oversized kraters of ambrosia nectar.
“I almost didn’t come,” Demeter said. “Zeus isn’t letting anyone in or out of Olympus, because of all the kidnappings. Also, I didn’t think you were worth the bother. But if my daughter says she wants me somewhere, I move the heavens and the earth to be there.”
“How did you get permission to leave?” Persephone asked.
“I have dirt on Zeus,” Demeter shrugged. “Besides, if anything, it’s safer down here than it is up there. You’ve already had a recent kidnapping,” She glanced back over her shoulder at Thanatos, who deliberately avoided her gaze. “Gaea will target Poseidon’s kingdom next. That’s what they’re saying, anyway, but you never know.”
“That stands to reason,” Hades said. “I wonder what Poseidon is doing about security. I should ask him.”
“I heard you’re talking again, thanks to the new ambassador,” Demeter said. “The boy needs to work on his manners, but it seems he’s not bad at his job. Are you the god of Cthonic diplomacy, then?”
“Uh, I don’t know about that,” Nico said. He hoped she wouldn’t press him, and fumbled for a cigarette to buy him some time. He didn’t want to have to admit that he didn’t know what he was the god of. It was like admitting you didn’t know your own name.
“Filthy modern habit,” Demeter said, raising a judgmental eyebrow. “What are you the god of, then? Speak up, and don’t mumble.”
Nico looked to his parents for rescue. It was no use, because they didn’t know what to say, either.
“He’s the prince of the Underworld,” Persephone said simply.
“But that doesn’t answer my question,” Demeter said. “What’s his purpose? The fates don’t spin the divine thread because they’re bored, you know. There is a reason. Do you truly not know? And him nearly a hundred years old?”
“I think I was three hundred when I realized I was not a flower nymph,” Persephone said. She had an acidic bite to her tone that belied an old argument with her mother. “It was still a few hundred more before I truly found myself. Some flowers bloom later than others, and I think my son takes after me.”
“Absolutely right, dear,” Hades agreed. “Not all questions need be answered immediately. Some don’t need to be answered at all.”
“Wrong!” Demeter crowed. “I’ll figure it out, never fear. What can you do, Nico? Any unique abilities? Things other gods can’t do?”
Everyone was staring at him, but Nico could feel Thanatos’ eyes drilling into the back of his skull especially hard. He could never admit that he could collect souls, not unless he wanted to be put on trial for stolen divinity. He didn’t think Thanatos would accuse him, but his friend’s professional confidence was too fragile to risk it.
“Invisibility and intangibility,” he shrugged. “Nothing special.”
“We can all be invisible sometimes,” Demeter said, unimpressed.
“Nico has true invisibility,” Persephone said proudly. “He can hide from other gods with no magical assistance. That’s unusual.”
“Ah!” Demeter said, as though that had given something away. “You can’t be truly invisible without your helm, Hades, so how come he can do it unassisted? That has to be a clue to his purpose. I’m sure it’s something obvious and we’re just missing something. Is that really all, Nico?”
He nodded, taking a drag off his cigarette and hoping the smoke would obscure the fact that he was sweating bullets. Demeter was smart, and she was going to put it together soon that Nico did have another ability, one that true invisibility supplemented quite nicely.
At that moment, something dawned on him that he probably should have figured out a long time ago. That seemed to be a recurring issue for him, unfortunately. His invisibility and intangibility were what allowed him to go with Thanatos to collect souls. They were also what would allow him to collect souls on his own, if he wanted to. And he did want to. He just wasn’t supposed to.
He could pluck a soul out of person’s body as easily as picking a grape. He fit the technical definition of a psychopomp. But was that his purpose? Had it always been that simple?
“Don’t the children of Nyx have true invisibility?” Demeter said, narrowing her eyes at Nico as though puzzle pieces were falling into place. “Nico, have you ever tried to—”
“You have another guest,” Thanatos said, suddenly appearing behind Nico. He grabbed his shoulder. Nico kept a straight face in front of his family, but Thanatos’ fingers were digging into his flesh, crushing him down to the bone.
He glanced over at the stairs and saw Minos standing awkwardly at the edge of the balcony, clutching a birthday card in his hands.
Nico hurried over to him, glad of the distraction. Thanatos followed as closely as a shadow, looming over him, and he knew that they’d have to talk about what had just happened. For the moment, though, he gave Minos his attention.
“Happy birthday,” Minos said, with his familiar sweet smile. He gave Nico his card. Nico read it quickly. Minos had written a brief, kind message saying how happy he was that Nico could spend his ninety-third birthday with his family, taking his true place as the prince of the Underworld at last.
“You’re the best, Minos,” Nico said, shutting the card and giving him a huge hug. “Will you come and have cake with us?”
“I think the party is gods only,” Minos said. “But let’s spend some time together soon.”
“I’d like that,” Nico said.
“Get a room,” Thanatos snapped.
“Fuck you,” Nico snapped back. The two of them glared at each other. Minos, wisely, headed back downstairs.
Conversation at the party stopped abruptly as everyone stared at Nico and Thanatos. In a brief and rare moment of perfect understanding, they both split their consciousnesses and met in Nico’s room, leaving the original versions of themselves standing at the party.
“We’re just kidding around,” Nico said, embarrassed at making a scene. He sat back down at the table and started eating cake like everything was fine. Thanatos went back to leaning on the railing and brooding, as he had been before.
Meanwhile, the two of them faced off in Nico’s bedroom.
“She’s about to figure it out,” Thanatos hissed. “Tell Demeter she’s wrong. Make something up to throw her off.”
“If you want to distract her, start dancing a jig or something,” Nico said. “I’m at my limit when it comes to secrets. I used to think the Underworld was nicer and less dysfunctional than Olympus. Now I realize everyone here just lies to each other all the time to avoid conflicts. I’m so fucking sick of it,” he moaned, sitting on his bed and putting his head in his hands.
“That’s hardly my problem,” Thanatos said coldly.
“I am nothing if not your problem,” Nico said.
Thanatos didn’t respond. He flexed his wings and raised a hand, attempting to bat away a piece of hair that was no longer there. He realized his error with dismay, and tucked his existing hair behind his ears instead.
“Your hair looks really cute like that,” Nico said bitterly.
“Thanks. I know.” Thanatos said, pouting angrily.
“If we do decide that my purpose is to be a psychopomp, would you be able to cope with that?” Nico asked carefully.
“No,” Thanatos said.
“That’s it? Just no?”
“No,” Thanatos said. “I am death. Not you.”
His tone left no room for argument. Sharing duties with Hermes was difficult enough for him, but Hermes had only ever been a psychopomp reluctantly, as a side gig. He wasn’t nearly as threatening as Nico, the son of the King of the Underworld. To the insecure, jealous workaholic god of death, Nico probably looked a lot like his replacement.
Nico swallowed. He knew the situation. He knew where they stood. He and Thanatos loved one another, but that only counted for so much. A god’s purpose was inviolable and sacred-- and there were serious consequences for interfering with it.
“None of this matters,” Nico said. “I’m becoming mortal again.”
“Right,” Thanatos said immediately. “It’s irrelevant.” The relief was palpable in his voice. “You had me scared for a moment there,” he admitted weakly.
“I’d never do anything to hurt you,” Nico said. “Wanting to know what I am and why I exist is not the same thing as wanting to take your job away from you.”
“I know,” Thanatos said, rubbing his face with his hands.
“Haven’t I earned your trust?” Nico said. “I haven’t taken any souls since you got back. I would never.”
“I know, I know,” Thanatos said. “I know. I’m ruining your birthday, aren’t I? Do you hate me? Don’t hate me.”
“I didn’t ask to be a god, Thanatos. I’m trying to fix it,” Nico said, frustrated and tired of the conversation.
“I’ll try to stop being paranoid,” Thanatos insisted. “I’m sorry.”
Nico didn’t expect it, but Thanatos hugged him. It was an event rarer than a solar eclipse, and it obliterated his ability to be angry. Nico rested his head against Thanatos’ cold collarbone and felt a sense of completeness and calm wash over him.
“For your birthday present, you can take another soul,” Thanatos said. “I know you enjoy it.”
“You don’t want me to do that,” Nico said. “Not really.”
“I want to show you that I do trust you,” Thanatos said. “Completely. I mean that.”
“You don’t trust me,” Nico said, pushing him away. “You just feel guilty about starting drama on my birthday. I’m not taking any more souls. Just let me enjoy today, alright? We’ll discuss this later.”
They went back to the party, rejoining the other parts of their consciousnesses where they had been keeping up appearances in the meantime.
“So actually,” Morpheus was rambling, his face covered in frosting and his mouth full of cake. “That’s why my card is the best Mythomagic card, because if you disregard the attack points, my sleep spell ability is the strongest one, because it gives you the sleep condition, as long as my opponent doesn’t have a Dionysus or a Heracles card and doesn’t have magic resistance.”
“If you have to disregard the attack points to make your case, I think you’ve already lost the argument,” Hypnos said, using his napkin to scrub cake off of his son’s face.
“I remember when you used to ramble about Mythomagic like that,” Hades said, looking at Nico and smiling. “I used to find it quite annoying.”
“I still have a lot of long-winded Mythomagic opinions,” Nico said. “I can share them if you’re feeling nostalgic.”
“Please do not,” Hades said.
“I’m ninety-three today,” Nico said, finding it difficult to wrap his head around such a number. “Seems like I should have more figured out by now.”
“Anything under three hundred is a child,” Hades said. “Besides, you and I know how few of your years you’ve actually lived. You’re still only just beginning.”
“I guess so,” he said.
Nico looked around the party, at the ancient gods surrounding him. They’d all existed for thousands of years. They’d seen empires rise and fall, had watched the world change over and over again, and they’d remained almost completely the same. He was just a baby compared to them.
“Are you enjoying your birthday?” Hades asked. “You seem troubled.”
“I’m happy,” Nico said. “Mostly.”
And he was. The food was delicious, the cake was magically perfect and eggshell free. He could drink as much ambrosia he wanted and not have to worry about catching on fire from the inside out. And all of his Underworld friends and family had gathered to celebrate him. He felt like the luckiest god in the world.
Just one little thing was bothering him.
“I still think I can figure it out,” Demeter said. She was gnawing on a turkey leg and squinting at Nico like he was a Rubik’s cube she was trying to solve.
“It’ll be clear with time, Mom,” Persephone said, exasperated by her mother’s determination.
“Has he shown any interest in STEM? We need a god of AI. I read an article about it.”
“He does like stems, as well as leaves and roots,” Persephone said. “We enjoy gardening together, don’t we, Nico?”
“That’s not what I--”
“I have an idea,” Nico said, standing up. “Can I invite my friend Ganymede? He loves parties, and I haven’t seen him in forever.” Once Ganymede arrived and started mixing cocktails, Demeter would be distracted from her line of questioning, and Nico would be able to relax. Actually, everyone would be distracted from all coherent thought, which would be even better.
“Of course!” Persephone said. “You can invite as many friends as you want. Although it may be difficult to get Zeus to agree to let him--”
“Here he is,” Nico said cheerfully.
Ganymede stood at the top of the stairs, looking around in amazement.
“Cool party! Love the skulls,” he said. He walked over to the table and sat down. “Thanks for the invite, Lord Hades, Lady Persephone,” he said politely. “You have a lovely home. Balcony. You know what I mean.”
“Here, have some cake,” Nico said, handing him a plate.
“Did I miss something?” Demeter said, looking around in confusion. “Where did he come from? How did you get permission from Zeus to leave so quickly?”
“He didn’t,” Ganymede. “Nico just broke me out somehow, which is like, amazing. I’ve been so bored! Everyone is so anxious and paranoid about getting kidnapped lately that the Olympian vibes have been totally off. This party is exactly what I needed. Thanks, dude,” he told Nico.
“Finally we can have a real party,” Hecate giggled. “Shots?”
“Duh,” Ganymede laughed, magically summoning a tower of rainbow shots. “This lady knows how to have a good time,” he said, watching Hecate down five at once.
“You broke him out of Olympus?” Demeter asked.
“What, like it’s hard?” Nico said.
“I am going to need you to explain exactly what you just did,” Hades said, his voice low and quiet-- always a bad sign.
Nico sighed. His intent had been to lighten the atmosphere, not darken it. Then again, when did anything ever go the way he wanted?
“Look, all I did was split my consciousness, travel to Olympus, walk through the magical barrier and bring Ganymede back here,” he said.
“You walked through the barrier?” Demeter said. “The magical barrier meant to stop Gaea from kidnapping Olympians? You walked through that?”
“I told you I could be intangible already,” Nico said, his annoyance coming through in his voice.
“We can all swoop around and do godly tricks like that sometimes,” Demeter said. “But Zeus’s barrier is supposed to be impregnable. He and Hera are the only ones able to let people in and out. I couldn’t have escaped on my own without an incredible amount of time and effort, and even then, I’m not sure,” Demeter said. “Trust me, I considered it. I didn’t enjoy filling out the permission form.”
“We’ve already explained this, mother,” Persephone sighed. “Nico can be truly invisible and truly intangible. He’s my little wispy ghost boy, right dear?”
“Obviously Zeus’s barrier sucked and he’s not maintaining it very well,” Nico said. “It’s not that complicated.”
“You weren’t even giving it your full attention,” Demeter said with amazement. “Half of you was still sitting here. That is incredible. We’re lucky Gaea didn’t manage to recruit you. We’d have no hope.”
“Enough, Demeter,” Hades growled.
“Nico’s on some Mission Impossible shit,” Ganymede said. “He’s cool.”
“My little Tom Cruise!” Persephone said, delighted.
“Can we change the subject,” Nico said. He knew that everyone else thought they were complimenting him, but he could feel his father’s discomfort growing. All Hades would be hearing were reminders that Nico was perfectly designed to release Kronos from his prison in Tartarus.
“If he can do that, imagine what else he’s capable of,” Demeter said. “It must be a clue to his godly destiny.”
“My baby is so powerful!” Persephone agreed.
Hades stood, knocking into the table and spilling everyone’s drinks. A chorus of exclamations went up, but he made no sign of hearing them. He swept into the palace in a wave of darkness, leaving the rest of the party behind.
“Ignore him,” Persephone said, as everyone looked to her for some clue as to what her husband was thinking. “He’s very moody lately.”
“Lately? He’s never not been like this,” Demeter sighed. “You would not believe the amount of emotional labor Hestia and I had to do, trying to manage his volatile personality when we were trapped inside our father together. At least Poseidon just cried all the time. Hades would make all the rest of us miserable if we didn’t cater to him constantly. I should send an invoice for all the free therapy I gave him.”
“Mom, you’re not qualified to therapize anyone,” Persephone said. “You probably just made it worse. You have as much childhood trauma as Hades does, but at least he’s working on it.”
“The only trauma I have is from not having a drink in my hand,” Demeter said dismissively. “There we are, much better,” she said, as Ganymede handed her a martini glass with something pink in it. “Now that your miserable husband is gone, I can actually enjoy myself,” she said, sipping her beverage.
Nico couldn’t take any more of his grandmother. He got up and followed his father inside the palace.
Hades had gone into his throne room and sat on his throne. He had his hand over his face like he was crying, or trying not to.
Nico went to sit on the edge of the dais, at his father’s feet. He leaned over and rested his head against Hades’ long and bony leg.
“Am I in trouble?” He asked, after a period of silence.
“Of course not,” Hades said, reaching down to ruffle Nico’s hair. “I’d never punish you for humiliating my brother. I just need a moment to think. Go and enjoy your party.”
“But I feel like you’re mad at me,” Nico said, looking up at him.
“There is nothing to be mad about,” Hades said. “You’ve done everything I’ve asked of you, for the most part. I did ask you not to draw attention to yourself, but perhaps you can’t help that.”
“No, I can,” Nico said. “I just wasn’t thinking. I can do better.”
“It’s fine, son. You aren’t in trouble,” Hades said. He got up from his throne and moved to sit next to Nico on the dais, putting his arm around his shoulders. “It feels surreal, to be celebrating your birthday as a god. It feels like only yesterday that you were born, back in Venice. You seemed like any other mortal baby at the time. Maybe slightly louder and clingier than most, but otherwise completely mundane. If you’d told me back then that someday, you’d call Persephone ‘mom,’ and we’d unironically call you the prince of the Underworld, I would have never believed you.”
Nico smiled, feeling his worries ease. His dad really didn’t seem angry. If he was anxious about the Kronos thing, there was nothing more Nico could do to help with that. He’d agreed to have his powers sealed away; that should be more than enough.
“Stop worrying about me and enjoy your party,” Hades said. “I’m going to get your present. I’ll be out in a moment.”
Nico nodded and headed back outside, feeling better. His dad was right. He’d come such a long way from where he’d started. There were still hurdles to overcome, but they had a plan to deal with them. He deserved a chance to enjoy himself and have fun on his birthday.
He went back outside and focused on catching up with his friend Ganymede, who fit in with the Cthonic deities well despite having nothing in common with them. Nico suspected that Hecate’s secret potions that she kept spiking everyone’s drinks with had a lot to do with that. The mood had lifted considerably, and he saw that even Thanatos had stopped scowling. He and Charon seemed content to enjoy each other’s serene company off to one side, which seemed like a fair compromise, seeing as Thanatos didn’t like parties or crowds.
Hades emerged from the palace holding a small black box with a ribbon around it. He set it in front of Nico, and he and Persephone shared a conspiratorial look.
Nico eagerly tore off the ribbon and opened the box to reveal something moving inside. He reached in and lifted out a tiny, fragile skeleton. It was a kitten.
“It’s so small!” Nico said, setting it on the table. The skeletal kitten clicked across the table, then went up to Nico and rubbed its skull across his hand. Nico pet it, and it purred.
“It’s not just any reanimated skeleton,” Persephone said. “We managed to isolate the soul of a cat before it reincarnated. It’s magically pinned to the skeleton, so it’s a real cat without living flesh. The only one in existence.”
“That’s very complicated necromancy,” Nico said. Animals and plants all dissolved back into nature when they died, and cats didn’t have souls the way humans did, so he had no idea how they’d managed to isolate one.
“We thought you should have something unique,” Hades said. “It suits you.”
Nico hugged both of his parents and thanked them profusely.
“I think I’ll name her Beatrice,” Nico said, admiring her tiny bones as she meowed at him. He could see the faint yellow wisps of her soul clinging to the inside of her ribcage. He summoned a little black velvet ribbon to hang around her neck in a bow. “She’s so cute.”
His other gifts were mostly Mythomagic cards and accessories, which he was happy with. Hecate gave him a glowing green potion and instructed him to try it one day when he was bored and had no plans to operate heavy machinery. Demeter gave him a small envelope, with no word of explanation for what was inside.
“What did you get him, mom?” Persephone asked.
“Let him open it and see,” Demeter said.
Nico tore open the envelope and pulled out some paperwork.
“This is the deed to some land in Veneto,” Nico said. “A very small amount of land. Um, thank you? What is this for?”
“It’s a grove of trees,” Demeter said. “I located an oak tree that sprouted on precisely the day you were born, ninety-three years ago. I thought that you could make it your sacred grove.”
“My sacred grove?” Nico asked. “That’s… Wow. I don’t even know what to say. Thank you. That’s really cool.”
“My baby’s first sacred grove,” Persephone said. “Oh, Mom, thank you.”
“Well, he is my grandchild,” Demeter said. “He may need a lot of work, but you’re my favorite daughter, so I’m not going to neglect him.”
“You’ll have to give that deed to a mortal you trust,” Persephone advised him. “And ask them to guard it for you. Traditionally, they would also worship you there, but we can discuss details later.”
Nico knew that he would have to become his own mortal grove-keeper, since his godhood wasn’t destined to be a long-term gig. Still, he was stunned, and incredibly happy with the way his birthday had gone. Everyone continued to laugh and talk and enjoy food, cake, and beverages. His kitten, Beatrice, climbed onto Hades’ head, making everyone laugh. The rest of the party proceeded in joy and laughter.
Until it didn’t.
Someone was walking up the stairs. Their footsteps clacked like they were wearing high heels, and as the sound of the steps grew louder, conversation quieted.
The first thing they saw was a tall blue and purple peacock feather, part of a hairclip attached to a tightly coiled bun. A familiar, angry face appeared next.
“Oh, great,” Demeter said, sighing. “Here we go.” She downed the rest of her martini and held her glass out for Ganymede to refill.
As if they’d communicated telepathically, Thanatos, Charon, and Hypnos all left quickly. Hypnos had to drag Morpheus out while he said, “What’s the matter with everybody? Why are we leaving? Nobody tells me anything!” Nico supposed that the children of Nyx had very little interest in Olympian family drama, and had lots of practice at avoiding it. Even the normally fearless Hecate muttered something about leaving a roast in the oven and hightailed it out of there.
That only left Ganymede at the table with Nico, his parents, and his grandmother. Hera stared them all down, standing with her back to the balcony.
“I’m hurt,” she said, shrugging her shoulders. “Where was my invite?”
She was wearing a glittering gold sheath dress, and looked very businesslike, with a tight pencil skirt and six-inch heeled purple and gold gladiator sandals. She struck a very intimidating figure, staring down at them, especially since everyone else was slightly drunk and covered in cake crumbs.
Hades removed the skeleton cat from his head swiftly.
“Please, join us. To what do we owe the pleasure?” He said coldly.
“Have something to eat,” Persephone said, making a plate of food for her. She gave Nico a look, and he poured her a glass of ambrosia nectar and set it next to the food.
Hera eyed their offerings skeptically, but she didn’t sit down.
“Hospitality is the bare minimum,” she said. “It’s not going to get you out of the doghouse, brother dear. How long did you expect that you could hide the truth from me?” She stared at Nico, her brows narrowed. “He is not my seventh hero.”
“I was just as much under the impression Nico was a demigod as you were,” Hades said. “And so was he.”
“Yes, I take full responsibility for lying to everyone about that,” Persephone said. “But in fairness, I wasn’t involved in any of the Gigantomachy business, so you can’t say that I ever lied to you, Hera. It’s really just an unfortunate misunderstanding.”
Hera pulled the corners of her lips back, as though she were trying and failing to produce a smile.
“An unfortunate misunderstanding,” she said, watching as Beatrice walked up to her and tried to wind around her legs in greeting. “Yes. Very unfortunate.”
She lifted her foot and stomped hard, on the skeletal kitten, crushing her beneath her red-bottomed heel. Her bones shattered and exploded across the patio.
She made eye contact with Nico. Her intent was clear. That was exactly what she wanted to do to him.
“Anyway,” she shrugged, her expression lightening. “Since I’m here, cake sounds lovely.”
She sat on a cushion next to Demeter and lifted a forkful of frosting to her lips. Beatrice, thankfully, was reforming, and her bones slotted back together quickly, but as soon as she could move again, she hid behind Nico’s back, trembling.
“Buttercream,” Hera said. “Not bad. This is nostalgic, isn’t it, the three of us together?” She said, pointing her fork at Demeter and Hades. “We’re just missing Hestia and Poseidon.”
“You know, we were just talking about getting the old band back together. Dad’s stomach reunion 2024,” Demeter said. “Reminiscing about the good old days.”
“Really?” Hera raised her eyebrows.
“No,” Demeter said firmly. “Not really.”
There was a long, awkward silence.
“How did you find out about the party?” Nico asked.
“This fool posted on his Godstagram stories,” Hera said, pointing at Ganymede.
“Whoops,” Ganymede said. “Force of habit. Sorry.”
Ganymede was normally very conscientious about keeping his friends’ confidences, but Nico had never told him the party was a secret. It wasn’t supposed to be one.
“You found out Nico was a god from the picture he posted?” Persephone asked.
“I found out Nico was a god because I have deductive reasoning skills,” Hera said. “Unlike my useless husband. He has no idea, and he doesn’t listen to rumors the way I do. I’ve suspected for a long time. But I thought I’d hear it from you,” she said, looking at Hades accusingly. There was a glint of betrayal in her eyes, and disappointment. Nico recalled that, even taking into account the forced proximity of their childhood, Hades and Hera had once been especially close among the five siblings.
“I am the goddess of marriage and family,” she said. “I am supposed to preside over these matters. Your marriage was a shitshow, to put it mildly. Now you have a divine child, and you shroud him in a web of lies and misdirection. Why are you so determined to defy me, Hades? Why can’t you just be normal for once?”
“Normal is just a setting on a washing machine,” Persephone said.
Hera’s eyes flicked over to Persephone with an immediate flash of dislike. Nico was stunned by it, but he probably should have seen it coming; Persephone was the polar opposite of a conventional wife and mother. Hera glanced at Persephone’s crochet dress, the dirt under her nails, and her complete lack of shoes and turned, ignoring her completely. She stood, once again looming over the table.
“You have robbed me of a demigod of prophecy and disrupted my plans,” she said to Nico. “You’ve endangered everything I’ve worked towards for decades.”
Nico stood up to defend himself.
“That is not true,” he said. “Hazel is the greatest asset you could ever hope for. She’ll defeat Gaea.”
“I don’t know Hazel Levesque,” Hera said angrily. “I can’t predict her movements. I can’t ensure her preparations. I can’t rely on her obedience. If she’s an asset, then she’s not mine. Her success or failure falls squarely on your shoulders, and if she fails, I’ll ensure that you are made to pay.”
“I accept that responsibility,” Nico said, completely unfazed. “She won’t fail.”
His confidence seemed only to make Hera angrier.
“Come, Ganymede,” she said, holding out her hand. “We’re leaving.”
Ganymede scrambled to go to her side.
“Make no mistake, Nico di Angelo,” Hera said. “Your bill will come due. I don’t forgive, and I don’t forget. You crossed the wrong goddess today.”
She disappeared.
Chapter 66: Peacock Sighting
Chapter Text
The last place Nico ever expected to be on a Tuesday morning in February was talking about casserole with his boyfriend’s homophobic mom.
“What is that?” He asked, pointing at a brown dish full of cheese and beans.
“That’s chili,” she said.
“And that one? That’s also chili?”
“No, that’s Frito pie,” she said patiently.
“And this one--”
“Enchilada casserole.”
He stared at the casserole dishes in front of him and tried to spot the difference between them, but there was so much shredded orange cheese melted on top that it was impossible.
“Okay, so this is… Also casserole,” he said cautiously.
“That’s seven layer dip,” she said.
“You know what, I’m not hungry,” he said, putting his plate down. He scanned the room for Will.
Will was eating chili-- Or casserole, or pie, or dip, he had no idea-- Sitting next to Kayla in the back of the room. They were attending the reception after Will’s grandpa’s funeral, which was being held in a dingy church basement with dirty carpet and fluorescent lighting.
The funeral itself had been an affair to remember. Jim Dodds had a lot of old friends, and Nico could have listened to geriatric cowboys telling stories all day. Will had planned to speak briefly, but at the last moment he’d asked Kayla to read his speech for him. He’d been too emotional to get through it, but Kayla had read the touching speech on his behalf, talking about the special bond Will had shared with his grandfather, and how honored he’d been to care for him in his final days.
Nico had tried to have a private word with Will all day, but Kayla had been running interference, refusing to leave Will alone with him for a second. At this point, he felt certain that Will had asked her to do it. He understood why he was being shut out-- They’d gone from friends with benefits to tentative boyfriends to some awkward thing in between. And that was fair enough. What was Will supposed to do, introduce his vampire boyfriend to his estranged parents in the basement of the First Baptist?
It was a hard pill to swallow, but their relationship was over. That had become obvious when Will waited three hours to tell him that his grandpa had died. Kayla got a text within minutes, but Nico had been an afterthought. Of course, Nico had been there in the hospice room the whole time, invisible, waiting for the call. It had been a blow to his ego, but he’d needed the reality check.
It had hurt especially because Thanatos had been there the whole time, smirking. His delight in Nico’s singleness was cute in theory, but in the moment, Nico had been sorely tempted to stomp on his toes.
Nico had been the one to take Jim Dodds’ soul, with special permission from the supervising Thanatos. Jim’s soul had glowed like a bonfire, and had released from his withered body with a sound like a sigh of relief. It felt good to put an end to his suffering, and Nico was glad the old man had gotten plenty of painkillers, with no unnecessary medical intervention. In the end, Jim had taken the reins, exactly as he’d done with every other part of his life. There was something poetic in that.
Nico sat with Will and Kayla at the plastic table and watched as Will pushed beans around his plate listlessly and greeted the few family members that were still speaking to him. His parents had been polite, and maybe a little overly nice, which was worse than if they’d just ignored him. They’d kept up appearances in front of others, giving no hint of the truth that they hadn’t spoken to their son in over a year.
“Can I get you anything?” Nico asked Will, as though grieving meant his arms had stopped working.
Will looked up at him. His eyes were red and bloodshot, which made them look brighter and more blue than ever. He grieved beautifully, which was a weird thing to think about someone, but Nico was ghoulish like that. He’d always imagined Will would fall into his arms and cry into his chest when this day came. He hated how fast things had changed. He wanted to get the official breakup over with, but he doubted Will had the emotional energy to spare on the day of his grandpa’s funeral, so he resigned himself to wait awkwardly on the sidelines for the final blow to fall.
“I think I’m ready to get going,” Will said, setting his fork down. “I was going to clean up the house a bit. Get rid of his stuff that’s downstairs, just so it’s not right in front of my face all the time.”
“I’ll help you,” Kayla suggested.
“Me too. Do you want me to drive?” Nico asked, as they stood and pushed their chairs in.
“No, I can drive,” Will said, walking out to the parking lot without a glance back at his parents.
Nico offered Kayla the passenger seat in the truck, but she climbed into the back, letting him sit beside Will. It was nostalgic to be back in the truck that he’d bought for Will many months ago. They’d had some fun adventures together, but now those days were in the rear view.
He watched Will’s exhausted expression as he turned the key in the ignition, and tentatively reached out to put his hand on Will’s arm. The fabric of his suit jacket felt stiff, and it didn’t look natural on Will, who usually wore flannel and denim. Will shot him a brief, forced smile, then looked straight ahead at the road. Nico removed his hand.
He sat back in his seat and swallowed. He tried to tell himself that what mattered was his presence-- that Will knew he was not alone, and had people he could lean on for support. An expert at grief, Nico was aware that he had to take his cues from Will, but the self-centered part of him wanted to feel needed.
“That suit could use tailoring,” Nico blurted out. He winced internally, realizing immediately that the funeral was over, and that was a dumb thing to say.
“I think it looks fine,” Kayla said from the backseat.
“Doesn’t really matter now,” Will said. “I’ve got nowhere else to wear it.”
“Right,” Nico said. “Sorry.”
They sped down the highway, passing the empty, barren fields of winter. Nico remembered the long drives he and Will used to take together. Texas had seemed so beautiful then, with its enormous sky and vast tracts of golden wheat and green corn. Now he had trouble imagining it as anything but a boring, empty wasteland. It was funny how infatuation made you see things differently.
“Oh, look,” Kayla said mildly. “A peacock.”
“A peacock? Where?” Nico gasped, his entire body jolting with panic. He turned around to try to look back out the window, but they’d already passed out of sight. The truck was moving too quickly down the rural highway to see it anymore.
“It’s just a bird,” Kayla said. “Relax.”
“Cow!” Will shouted.
Time froze.
Will jerked the wheel to the side, but it was too late. The truck made impact with a massive bovine barrier in the road, and everything went upside down and sideways in a blur of crunching metal, shattering glass, and screams. The truck continued to roll over and over until it came to a halt after what felt like an endless time in horrible motion.
Nico’s mind came to grips with the situation immediately. He had chunks of glass and metal stuck in his skin, and was trapped under his seat with his legs pointing in the wrong directions, but he was fine. He took a deep breath and shook off the pain. With every second, his divine body would heal itself. Will and Kayla did not have that advantage.
He shook his leg out in the limited space he had available to work with. It was impossible to judge the state of the vehicle and its occupants from the inside with everything out of place and broken, and he couldn’t see Will from his seat. He willed his leg to heal faster, and it cooperated. He was able to kick the door open and crawl out of the wreckage within a couple of seconds.
The truck was upside down. It had been crushed like a soda can, the top flattened, and was obscured in a cloud of dust in a grassy field. Nico quickly found Will in the wreckage and pulled him out, realizing to his great relief that he was still breathing.
Will was covered in bloody scrapes and cuts, and one of his arms had a bone sticking out. The worst injury was to his leg; there was a huge wound in his thigh that was pouring out blood like a fountain.
Will made a weak sound as Nico laid him on the ground, his eyes opening and closing with no awareness of what was happening.
“Will, stay with me,” Nico shouted, terrified by the situation he found himself in. He had no idea what to do without using the crutch of ambrosia, which Will couldn’t tolerate. Nico had no idea whether he had healing abilities as a god, but he suspected that he didn’t. Quite the opposite; he feared that any minute, Will’s soul would slip out into his hands by accident. He was scared to move an inch, scared to touch Will, but equally scared of letting him go.
He had a sudden recollection of the basic first aid training that he’d been taught at Camp Half Blood, in another life. He applied pressure to the wound on Will’s leg, and it seemed to help staunch the bleeding a little. When he pressed his hands to the wound, Will made a noise of pain and seemed to wake up slightly. Then Nico remembered that he had come at least somewhat prepared for Hera’s attack.
“Take this,” he said, pulling a white shard of bone out of his pocket and pressing it to Will’s lips. “Just hold it in your mouth,” he said, seeing Will’s expression lighten the instant the martyr’s bone made contact with his tongue.
“That’s so much better,” Will said, opening his eyes. “Am I dying?” He asked weakly, staring up at Nico with wide-eyed fear.
“I don’t know, you’re the doctor,” Nico said, tearing up with the immense relief he felt at seeing Will’s condition grow slightly improved. “What do I do?”
Will, buoyed by the euphoria that the bone provided, examined the gash in his leg.
“Tourniquet,” he said matter-of-factly. “I’ll hold the pressure on it. Find something to tie the wound off with.”
Nico ran over to the car and ripped one of the seatbelts off the seat.
That was when he saw Kayla.
Or what remained of her.
He couldn’t linger, he had to stay focused. Blinking away tears, he ran back to Will and followed his instructions, using the seat belt to secure pressure on the artery in his thigh. Thankfully, Will knew what he was doing, and the bleeding was soon under control.
“Is Kayla okay?” Will asked, trying to stand.
“You’re too hurt to get up,” Nico told him, pushing him back on the ground. “Don’t trust the way you feel right now. You have a lot of broken bones.”
“Kayla?” Will called out, looking at the car.
“She’s stuck in her seat,” Nico said, which was technically true, in a very unfortunate way. He did his best to keep his voice calm and steady. “I’m calling 911. Don’t move.”
He dialed 911 and asked for an ambulance to their location. They were on a rural road with little traffic, so no one had passed by to stop and help.
“They’ll be here in ten minutes,” he told Will, swallowing. “Let me, um… Let me check on Kayla. Do. Not. Move.”
He went back to the wreckage of the truck. The bloody, mangled mess that had been Kayla was hovering in limbo between life and death. He felt the familiar chill of cold breath on the back of his neck.
“I need to do this one,” he said firmly, without looking at Thanatos, who had appeared behind him.
Thanatos took one look at Nico’s face, then stepped back and nodded.
Nico leaned over Kayla. The smell of blood and smoke and burning plastic was overwhelming, but he ignored it. He reached into the truck and lifted her soul out of her body, cradling it in his palm like he was holding a baby bird.
“It’s over now,” he whispered to her. “I’m sorry.”
He put her safely in his pocket, sighing. At least she didn’t suffer long, he reminded himself.
He glanced over at Will, who was struggling to sit up. He was battered and broken, but stable. He would make a full recovery.
It was the worst possible outcome.
The full weight of the situation hit him all at once. Nico choked back a sob, clasping his hand over his mouth and ducking behind the truck so that Will wouldn’t see him break down. Thanatos hovered over him anxiously.
“Was it--”
“Hera,” Nico hissed.
“I’m sorry,” Thanatos whispered, standing as close as he could to Nico without touching him.
Nico had been aware of Hera’s talent for emotional destruction, but he’d never expected her to be this good. He’d anticipated the possibility that Will would be murdered, but to a death god, that was a slap on the wrist. Hera would have found that too easy. Instead she’d calculated a way to inflict the maximum possible damage, and in this case, that was to allow Will to live on. He could live for fifty more years, maybe longer, and every single day, Will would be impacted by the tragedy that Nico had wrought in his life.
The guilt Nico felt was unbearable. The worst part was that, while he hated Hera, more than anything, he hated himself. He should have left Will alone. It would be better if they’d never met.
He slowly walked back to where Will was lying on the ground in a pool of his own blood. The martyr bone should have made him feel slightly giddy, but Will’s growing worry for Kayla was overpowering the magic relic. He looked up at Nico with panicked eyes, breathing shallowly.
“Will,” Nico said quietly, kneeling on the ground beside him.
Will wasn’t stupid. He knew what Nico was about to say, but he couldn’t accept it. He tried to get up, and Nico had to hold him down to stop him.
“Kayla!” Will shouted, his voice raw with fear. “Kayla!”
“Will, I’m sorry,” Nico said quietly, “She’s gone.”
“No,” Will said, gripping Nico’s arms and trying to push him away. “I can help her, I have a first aid kit in the trunk, just let me try. I’ll give you instructions. Let me try! Nico, you have to help me get up, I need to see her!”
“It’s better you don’t,” Nico said. “She’s gone.”
“She’s not gone,” Will insisted. “She can’t be gone. You-- You can do things,” he said, tears rolling down his cheeks. “You have powers. You can fix it. You can make her like you.”
Nico shook his head.
“You have to be able to do something!” Will insisted frantically. “Why won’t you try? I thought you loved me,” he said. “Please, Nico. If you ever cared about me at all, you would try. I’ll do anything you want me to do, just don’t let her be dead. I can’t-- I can’t do this,” he whimpered. “Please...”
Nico wiped his eyes, struggling to keep from breaking down. He couldn’t lose it completely; he had to stay focused in case Will took a turn for the worse.
“I love you, Will,” he said. “If I could save her, I would. But I can’t.”
Will recoiled, staring at him like Nico had stabbed him in the back. With a final, defiant glare, Will spat out the tiny bone onto the ground and cried out in pain immediately. Nico tried to put it back into his mouth, wanting to spare him what little pain he could, but Will refused it. Nico was left to watch him suffer in agony, helpless.
A few minutes later, Will quieted. He was drifting in and out of consciousness. Nico stayed with him, holding his hand, sitting like a statue beside him. He didn’t know what else to do. He felt useless.
It had only been a short while ago that he’d been thinking about supporting Will in his grief. All you can really do is stay with the person, let them know that you’re there for them, he’d thought. But that wasn’t true anymore. He knew that deep down, there was a seed of doubt planted Will would always wonder if there was something more that Nico could have done to help Kayla, and it would torment him. He wasn’t wrong to think it, either. Nico had resurrected someone before; he just wasn’t willing to try to do it for Kayla. He was radiating guilt, and Will had picked up on it and drawn his own conclusions.
When the paramedics arrived and asked for Will’s emergency contacts, Nico didn’t know what to say.
Will’s grandfather had died. He’d lost most of his friends and family when he’d come out two years ago. The only people that really loved Will, in the entire world, had both been in the truck with him.
He stayed with Will on the way to the hospital, in the ER, and waited with him to be admitted. He didn’t leave his side until he was rushed into emergency surgery for his broken arm and leg. Mercifully, Will was sedated in the ambulance, and Nico was able to discuss the accident and Kayla’s death with the authorities without Will hearing him recount the whole awful story.
While Will was unconscious, Nico reluctantly gave the hospital Will’s parents’ contact info. He only did it because they were inevitably going to drive past the scene of the accident and recognize the truck; it wasn’t far from the First Baptist church where the funeral had been held. If they were going to visit, it was better they do it while Nico was there to throw them out if necessary.
When Will came to, Nico kept his distance, waiting to see how he felt. Will blinked, and slowly, his eyes came to rest on Nico.
“Kayla didn’t make it?” He asked, his voice hoarse.
Nico felt his heart shatter into pieces all over again. He kept his expression calm, or tried to, but his voice cracked on the word, “No.”
Will stared up at the ceiling. Nico knew exactly how he was feeling. Will had lacerations, contusions, fractures and stitches, but his physical pain would be nothing in the face of his complete, emotional devastation. He had no one left. The expression in his eyes was hollow, and utterly defeated.
“I never want to see you again,” Will said quietly.
“Will, I love you,” Nico said desperately. “I can’t leave you like this.”
“You should have let me die.”
He said it plainly, his voice flat, as if it were an obvious statement of the truth.
Nico said nothing. It was the truth; Will was right. He should have let him bleed out peacefully in the grass. It would have been kinder than putting him through this.
He swallowed his tears. Will had no use for them, and he didn’t deserve to feel sorry for himself.
“If I leave, they might call your parents,” he said.
“That’s fine,” Will said. He sounded empty. Like there was nothing left of him. “I want you to leave now.”
It was one of the hardest things he’d ever had to do, but Nico left. On the other side of the door, he heard Will start to cry weakly.
Nico went home, headed straight to his bedroom, and sat in the darkness alone. He had a lot to think about, and plans to make.
Persephone checked on him a few times, since Thanatos had told her what had happened, but Nico was in no mood to talk. He sat with only his skeleton kitten Beatrice for company, and spent a lot of time staring at Kayla’s soul, which he was still holding onto. It shimmered in the dark of his room, glowing with an intense, undying light. Beatrice pawed at it like it was a firefly.
After a while, he decided that he’d moped long enough. He let Kayla’s shade form materialize.
“I’m so sorry,” was the first thing he said to her.
She looked around his room curiously. Despite being a shade, her shiny black ponytail was still as immaculate as ever.
“Sorry for what? Wait, am I dead?” She asked, with the mild and unbothered tone of someone who no longer had anything to worry about. “Weird. Is this hell?”
“Yes, you’re dead. And no, you’re not in hell, you’re in an in-between place,” he said. “I’m a god-- A guardian! I meant a guardian,” he said quickly. “Sorry, what religion were you? That changes my answer.”
“I’m Catholic,” she said. “You’re a guardian angel? You don’t look like one.”
“Whatever you want to call me is fine,” he sighed.
“I thought you were a vampire,” she said. “Huh. Is Will okay without me?”
“Not really,” Nico said, starting to cry all over again.
She watched him cry for a minute, then tapped her foot.
“Is this my afterlife? Because I’m starting to think I am in hell and you’re lying,” she said. When he looked up at her, confused, she added, “I never liked you very much.”
That made him laugh.
“I promise you’re not going to be forced to hang out with me for eternity,” he said, smiling. “See? Your ride is here. Good luck.”
A shimmering portal in the air had appeared behind Kayla. She stepped through it unhesitatingly. Nico waved goodbye to her, feeling some of his heartache ease. At least she could move on, and wouldn’t have to suffer like those she was leaving behind.
A hand reached through the portal and beckoned him forward with a crook of a finger.
Nico didn’t move, just stared in surprise as the hand reached out further. He took a step backwards, until the back of his legs hit his bed frame. In his brief moment of hesitation, the hand reached out even further, until an entire shoulder clad in white nearly fell out of the portal. The hand grabbed Nico by the shirt and wrenched him through to the other side.
He landed on cold linoleum and looked around. It was the same brightly lit waiting room that he’d been in with Rosa Bova, the one he’d assumed was probably part of purgatory. Elevator music was playing, and Kayla was sitting in the waiting room, already filling out her forms.
He turned to look behind him. The archangel Michael was looming over him. To Nico’s surprise, Michael reached down and helped him to his feet.
“Come with me,” he said curtly, his deep and authoritative voice leaving little room for argument.
He led Nico down a hallway to a white walled, mostly empty office. Michael pulled out a rolling desk chair and sat in it backwards, putting his arms on the back of it like he was a youth pastor attempting to look relatable to teens. He didn’t appear at ease in the relaxed posture-- Quite the opposite, he looked like he’d rather be doing anything else.
“I have a question,” he said.
“No, I have a question,” Nico interjected loudly. “Are you going to steal another month from my life? Because that caused me a lot of problems.” If he hadn’t disappeared for a month, his relationship with Will would have been on much better standing when the accident occurred.
“That won’t happen again,” Michael said. “I’m sorry about that,” he added.
Nico squinted at him suspiciously. Michael had seemed like the smite first, ask questions later type. And Nico had been trespassing. Why was he apologizing when he didn’t have to?
He examined the archangel’s forcibly casual posture and the way he was trying to smooth out his irritable facial expression.
“You want something from me,” Nico said, realizing what was happening. “Another contracting gig?”
“I don’t see why we wouldn’t hire you again,” Michael said. “We love contractors who work for free. Or did you forget to ask for compensation for helping Maria and Rosa?”
Nico pursed his lips. He’d been distracted, but he hadn’t completely forgotten.
“Um,” he hesitated, thinking carefully about what he wanted to say. “I’m not sure I want any. Actually, I am sure. I don’t want anything from you. Maria is my friend. I helped her because I wanted to, and I’d have done it with or without you guys egging me on.”
“Understood,” Michael said.
“Us pagans can be altruistic, too,” Nico said. “You don’t have a monopoly on that.”
“If you say so,” Michael said, a slight skepticism entering his voice.
“Well, let me take that back. If you want to compensate me by bringing Kayla Rodriguez back to life, that would be great. I’ll work more contracts for it if I need to.”
“That’s not an option,” Michael said.
“I didn’t think so,” Nico nodded. “Just thought I’d ask. I’m kind of the leading authority on resurrections right now, you know,” he added. “Or did you think you had the market cornered on those, too?”
Michael’s face revealed a brief flash of anger. Nico knew the look of professional jealousy when he saw it, and it amused him. The Catholics hadn’t pulled off anything like that in a long time.
“I have one question for you, and then you can leave,” Michael said.
He looked Nico in the eyes.
Michael’s eyes were kind of scary, in a beautiful way. Nico had always been underwhelmed by the archangel, but there was a hint of something otherworldly swirling in the depths of his pupils that he couldn’t quite make out.
All sorts of questions popped into Nico’s head. What are you? What is an archangel? Where did you come from and how long have you existed? But he didn’t have the guts to ask any of them. Mostly, he just wanted to go home.
“Ask your question,” Nico said.
“Do you know how to sever human souls from their physical bodies?” Michael asked.
That question gave Nico a surprising amount of information. For one thing, the Catholics already knew exactly what he could do. They seemed to always know everything. And why else would they be asking?
Secondly, the way Michael asked him, ‘do you know how,’ was telling. There was no ‘how.’ It wasn’t a technique, there was no methodology, and no one had taught him. It was something innate that he could just do. It had even happened by accident. Also, there was no ‘severing’ going on. When they were ready, souls came out on their own, as if they were drawn to the person who was there to guide them onto the next step.
You either had it, or you didn’t. And Nico sensed that Michael didn’t have it.
That was interesting.
“Yes,” Nico said.
Michael’s eyes lit up, but he didn’t say anything further. He got up from his chair and pushed it back under the desk.
“That’s all,” he said simply. “Be on your way.”
Nico blinked once, and he was back in his room. Frantically, he scrambled to find his phone, and checked the time.
They’d actually given him back ten minutes. That was cool.
He spent his bonus time tidying his room and getting himself cleaned up. Moping was fine, but he needed to go back to Texas soon for Kayla’s funeral. Will hadn’t been released from the hospital yet, and one of them had to be there.
“Nico?”
Thanatos was standing in the doorway, holding a bowl of pastina soup.
“I thought this might help,” he said.
Nico beckoned him inside and accepted the bowl with a grateful smile.
“You’re the best, you know that?” Nico said.
Thanatos sat next to him on his bed and watched him eat with an expression of concern.
“Thanks for letting me take Kayla’s soul,” Nico said. “It was important to me.”
“Why wouldn’t I?” Thanatos asked.
“What do you mean, why wouldn’t you? You’ve been really strict about it. You said I could only take one for my birthday, and I used it on Will’s grandpa.”
Thanatos gave him a look of dismay.
“Do you think I’m that cruel? That I wouldn’t let you take one little soul if I thought it would ease your pain? I haven’t seen you that distressed since you went to Tartarus.”
“Keep your voice down,” Nico whispered. “My dad can’t find out about that.”
“Fine,” Thanatos whispered. “I don’t want you to think of me as a selfish god. I am one. But not when it comes to you. At least I’m trying not to be.”
Nico set his soup down and wrapped his arms around Thanatos, pulling him down onto his bed with him.
“Er, okay,” Thanatos said, his voice muffled by bedsheets. “I don’t think that was necessary.”
“I’m just hugging you,” Nico said, squeezing him tightly.
“You know what is also a form of hugging? Shaking hands,” Thanatos said. “Just a suggestion.”
“Very funny,” Nico said, loosening his grip. “What’s the matter? Do you really hate hugs that much?”
“Hate is a strong word,” Thanatos said, turning slightly pink. “I appreciate that it’s in your nature to do these things. Sometimes I overthink it, I guess.”
He’d never admit this to Thanatos, but Nico pitied him. It seemed like such a lonely existence, to live for thousands of years without any romantic partners at all. Thanatos had his family, of course, but that wasn’t the same thing.
“To be honest, I feel sorry for you,” Thanatos said. “I can’t imagine needing so much from other people.”
“Excuse me?”
“It’s much easier to be self-sufficient,” Thanatos said.
“Is that what you think you are? Self-sufficient?” Nico asked, smirking. “I don’t think you’d be here if that was true.”
“Urgh,” Thanatos grumbled. He pressed his face into Nico’s shoulder, and his fingernails into his skin, sinking them in deep enough to draw blood. Overshadowed by Thanatos’ wings, Nico felt like a rabbit that had been snatched up in a hawk’s talons.
“I used to be self-sufficient,” Thanatos muttered. “Before you showed up and ruined everything.”
“Love you, too,” Nico said, pulling him even closer and smiling with contentment.
It didn’t matter to him how weird and confusing Thanatos was. It didn’t even matter that they might not even really be dating, by most people’s definition. In the eyes of death himself, one of the most ancient and important gods in existence, one who kept the natural order of the universe in check, Nico di Angelo was exceptional. Nico di Angelo was singular. Nico di Angelo had turned death’s world upside down.
That felt kind of cool.
The alarm on his phone went off.
“Probably your other man calling,” Thanatos snapped, sitting up straight and glowering.
“Relax. It’s my alarm,” Nico said. “I don’t have another man anymore.”
“But he’s alive,” Thanatos said. “It was the girl who died.”
“He dumped me. Said he never wanted to see me again,” Nico said sadly. “Why do you think I’ve been in here moping for two days?”
“What?!” Thanatos stood and kicked the bowl of soup over. “I thought you were grieving your friend! I didn’t bring you soup so that you could be sad over that idiot cowperson!”
“I only met Kayla twice,” Nico said. “And I’m not really sad because he dumped me. I deserved that. I’m sad because I ruined his life. I encouraged his grandpa to refuse treatment for his cancer, and I got his best friend killed. He’s alone, and it’s my fault. I should have let him bleed out on the street. That’s what I’d have wanted in his place, but I was too selfish to do it. I really haven’t learned anything from Bianca,” he sighed.
Thanatos shrugged.
“Look on the bright side. He can always kill himself.”
“I hope he doesn’t. I hope he finds a way to be happy again someday,” Nico said. “He has the potential to live an amazing life. But I know it’s not going to be easy, and I take responsibility for that. I just wish there was more I could do to help.”
“Summon Kayla’s shade and have her tell him to forgive you?”
“I don’t know how to get in touch with her anymore. The Catholics already took her.”
“Gross,” Thanatos muttered.
“Do you know them?”
“I wish I didn’t.”
“Have you met Michael?”
Thanatos’ face went as hard and impenetrable as stone.
“Don’t ever speak that name in my presence,” he said. “He is the absolute, most-- No, never mind, I don’t want to get into it,” he shook his head and smoothed out his ruffled wing feathers. “I should get back to work,” he added.
Nico didn’t have time to interrogate him further, so he put on his best suit and headed to Kayla’s funeral. It was at a church in eastern Texas called Our Lady of Sorrows, a name that felt well-suited to his mood.
He slipped into a pew in the back and waited for people to fill in the rows in front of him. Most of them were Kayla’s extended family, but one group of girls that was sitting together looked like her former cheerleading teammates. They were her same age, athletic and pretty like she had been, and they all wore the same high ponytail that Kayla had worn. He wondered if that was intentional.
Nico went up to the coffin to look inside, but he had to wait his turn behind the cheerleaders. They huddled together, looking at Kayla and whispering small compliments about her makeup. All of them seemed to be deeply shaken, almost as though they were confused about how this could have happened. It reminded Nico that not everyone experienced loss as young as he had. Some people made it to their twenties without ever having lost anyone they’d been close to. It was impossible for him to relate.
Once they left, he approached the coffin. The body held little interest for him, being empty of a soul, but he appreciated the immense care that had been taken to reconstruct her face to look close to normal again. The last time he’d seen her physical form, it had been in very bad shape. In contrast, her soul had been consistently glamorous. Typical Kayla, he smiled to himself, remembering how it had sparkled.
Will’s parents walked in shortly after he’d returned to his seat. They found seats near the front, but Will’s mom caught sight of him and walked back to where Nico was, in the back.
“Nico,” she said, slipping into the pew beside him. “I wanted to speak with you. What happened… I still can’t believe she’s…”
She looked up at the front of the church, where Kayla lay silent and still in her coffin.
“Yeah,” Nico said, a bit stiffly. “It really came out of nowhere. How’s Will?”
“He’s recovering,” she said. “He… Well.” She trailed off. They both knew that mentally, he would never be the same person he had once been. “You weren’t hurt? That’s lucky.”
“Yeah. So lucky,” he said. Nico would have gladly suffered physical pain if it meant Kayla’s life could have been spared. But Hera would have found that too easy.
“Did you--”
“So did you actually visit your son in the hospital? I gave it about 50/50 odds,” Nico interjected bitterly.
“I’m not a monster,” Will’s mother snapped. “I may not agree with his lifestyle choices, but I--”
“You’re the one who made a choice,” Nico hissed. “Not him.” He surprised himself with how quickly he became flooded with anger, so much so that he physically grabbed Will’s mother by the back of the neck and made her stand up with him. She whimpered quietly, but said nothing as he jerked her face in the direction of the church entrance.
Kayla’s family had arrived. She had more brothers and sisters than he’d realized, but he wanted Will’s mother to get a good look at Kayla’s.
Kayla’s mom, a petite Mexican woman, was clinging to the arm of one of her older sons. She looked like she hadn’t eaten in days, and she had dark circles under her eyes. Nico had lost his mom and his sister both; he knew grief like an old friend. But he also knew that he had never experienced a tenth of the suffering that Kayla’s mom was feeling right now after losing her daughter.
Nico didn’t need to say anything. He knew that Will’s mom was thinking exactly what he wanted her to think. That it could have been her at her son’s funeral.
“Why don’t you go talk to her,” he said quietly. “Ask her if she cares about Kayla’s sexual orientation. Ask her if it matters to her now that her daughter is dead.”
“You’re hurting me,” Will’s mom whispered.
“Good,” Nico said. He let go.
Will’s mother went up to Kayla’s mom and hugged her, rubbing her neck surreptitiously. She didn’t glance back at Nico or do anything to indicate that he’d just manhandled her at a funeral. If there was one thing you could count on a old-fashioned Southern woman for, it was that she’d rather die than make a scene. Hazel had told him that once.
He didn’t want to talk to Kayla’s family himself. He didn’t even want to look at them any longer. It would feel wrong to have them ask how he was doing or inquire about details of the accident, and morbid curiosity meant they undoubtedly would. He sat quietly and kept his head down, waiting for the priest to start the service.
Someone sat down beside him. He hoped they wouldn’t bother him, and fortunately, they didn’t try to make conversation.
His seat neighbor mimicked his posture, clasping their hands in their lap. Nico took little notice of them until his eyes flicked over to look at the person’s hands, which were clasping rosary beads. That wasn’t out of place in a Catholic church.
It said a lot about him, probably, that it took about five minutes before he realized that the person was abnormal. They had skeleton hands.
He turned and looked at his seat neighbor properly. She was about his height, and she was a skeleton. He could tell her likely gender because she had a long black cloak with a hood, and on that hood were pinned five big, red roses.
She turned to look at him, and her empty eye sockets held deep and uncompromising darkness. Her gaze, however, was warm and slightly curious.
“I like your flowers,” Nico whispered. “They’re really pretty.”
She nodded, giving a vague, skeletal indication of a smile, and turned towards the altar, where the priest was shuffling his papers and preparing to start speaking.
Nico and his new friend sat quietly in the back, minding their own business, and listened to the beginning of the funeral mass. They didn’t make it to the first song before someone tapped them both on the shoulder.
Nico turned around. There was a very angry saint standing behind them, but not one he recognized.
“Out,” the saint growled low under his breath. “Both of you.”
“What?” Nico said, shocked. “But I’ve been allowed to go to mass before. I’m a contractor!”
“Now!” The saint barked.
Mortals couldn’t hear his voice, but Nico and his skeleton lady friend certainly could. He hesitated, and the saint raised his hand in a gesture Nico recognized from his encounters with Valentine. It was the hand position used to create a sacred seal.
Nico looked at the skeleton lady, who jerked her head toward the door urgently. Nico followed her out, realizing they had no other option.
The saint stood in the doorway of the church as Nico and the lady both looked at him from the sidewalk.
“I don’t get it,” Nico said, as the unidentified saint stared him down. “I may not be one of you, but I thought my connections were good enough to get me through one funeral. I knew Kayla personally. Did you?” He said accusingly.
“Her abuela goes nowhere without my medal,” the saint said. “She asked me to keep an eye on things. I’m just doing my job.”
Nico stared at him blankly.
“San Benito,” the saint said. “Ring a bell?”
Nico stared even more blankly.
“Also called Benedict, depending on where you’re from,” Benito said. “Really? Nothing?”
“There’s too many of you,” Nico said, totally blanking on who the saint was. “I can’t possibly remember everyone. It doesn’t matter. I’m a contractor, and I think it’s really hypocritical to be willing to let me work for you, and then all of a sudden decide I’m not good enough to be in your stupid church.”
“I’m not a fan of contractors,” Benito said. “That’s a program that causes more problems than it solves, in my opinion. Even so, it’s not you that’s the issue, so much as the company you keep,” Benito said, with venom in his voice.
Nico looked at the beautiful skeleton lady, who had stood silently and watched their exchange. She stared back at him, the white bones of her face gleaming in the sunlight. She tugged her hood down further over her face.
She reminded him of Charon-- Quiet in the best way, and mild-mannered. She inclined her head in a gesture of apology, her skeletal hands clasped together around her rosary beads. With her demure posture, and the bright red roses glowing on her hood, Nico couldn’t help but admire her beauty once again. It was hard to imagine her doing anything to deserve Benito’s derision.
“She seems nice to me,” Nico said.
“She’s the opposite of nice,” Benito said. “She knows what she did. But I’ll give you a choice. Rebuke her and her dark works, and I’ll let you back in.”
Nico didn’t hesitate.
“Hell no!” He said. “Rebuke yourself, asshole!”
Benito muttered at them in Latin under his breath, and slammed the door of the church, sealing it behind him with a familiar, glowing symbol of protection.
Left alone outside the church, Nico looked up at the skeleton lady. At this point, he wasn’t sure if he wanted her, or wanted to be her, or both. He was very into her vibes.
“Sorry about the funeral,” Nico said. “Did you know Kayla?”
The lady shook her head, and sent him a brief vision of a young man setting up a small altar to her, complete with figures and prayer candles. The man looked familiar, and Nico realized he’d seen him inside. Kayla’s older brother prayed to her, the one who’d been supporting his mom.
“Yeah,” Nico sighed. “I know what it’s like to lose a sister. I’m sure he needs you now more than ever.”
She nodded.
“At least you tried,” Nico said. “Those candles looked like they’re for a saint. Is that what you are?”
She sent him another vision of church officials smashing her altars and breaking candles with her image on them.
“I’m sorry,” Nico said. He glanced at the rosary beads in her hand. “Are you hoping they change their mind? Or are you okay with not being official?”
She shrugged.
“That’s how I feel about them, too,” Nico agreed. “I can’t quite decide whether I like them or hate them. But I can’t seem to get away from them, no matter what I do.”
She nodded her agreement, and then leaned over and kissed his cheek. He nearly swooned. Unfortunately, she disappeared into shadow before he could ask her name.
With his respects to Kayla paid, Nico had no further business in Texas. Will never wanted to see him again. Some people might say that in the heat of the moment and change their mind, but Will wasn’t that type of person. Nico had seen the hatred in his eyes.
If Will needed to hate him forever, Nico accepted that burden gladly. He knew that having someone to blame could help take the edge off the grieving process, at least in the short term. But still, it felt wrong to leave Will at his homophobic parents’ mercy, with no other friends or family to turn to. His physical recovery would take a while, so there was no telling how dependent he would be on them, or for how long. It would be humiliating for him to have to ask for their help after he’d cut ties with them for trying to send him to conversion camp.
But what could Nico do? He wasn’t part of Will’s life anymore. Despite being a god, he had no healing powers to fix Will’s injuries. Will didn’t need money, he had his grandpa’s entire estate. Will just needed someone he could rely on.
Nico paced around the parking lot, still unsatisfied with the situation, unwilling to leave things as they were. That was when he realized.
He was a god. He could be anything, and do anything, with only a handful of exceptions. He couldn’t bring Kayla back. He couldn’t bring his grandpa back, either.
But he could bring Will’s parents back. Sort of.
His plan came together quickly. He used the mist to lay a trap for them. In the hospital, when they went up to Will’s room, the numbers on the wall appeared to switch places. Thomas and Becky Dodds walked into the wrong room, thinking they would see Will.
Instead, they walked into an empty hospital room. As soon as they crossed the threshold, they both fell to the floor, sound asleep.
Nico swung the door shut behind them.
Ever since he was a kid, he’d been obsessed with hell. Dante’s Inferno had hypnotized him. He’d drawn fanart of the different levels of hell and the scary looking demons he’d imagined lived there. (Most of them looked like Alecto.) He’d made up stories of obscenely horrific punishments for evildoers, like having their mouths stuffed with worms and rats crawling up their butts.
Clearly he’d had a vivid imagination. When he trapped Will’s parents in a hell-dream, he held back a little. He didn’t want to destroy their minds from the inside out, rendering them muttering, non-functional shells of themselves, even though he was more than capable. Using his dream powers was quite a thrill after nearly forgetting he had them.
He woke the two of them abruptly.
“Did you enjoy your nap?” He asked. He’d given himself a mist-manufactured pair of wings in imitation of Thanatos-- and, deliberately, no halo. He was going to try to get through this act with no copyright infringement.
Will’s parents huddled on the floor, weeping.
“Bad news. That’s where you might end up if you continue down this path of shunning your son,” Nico said.
“Are you-- are you some kind of angel?” Will’s mom asked, staring up at him in awe.
“We’ll do whatever you say, just don’t send us back there,” Will’s dad cried.
“I’m just a non-denominational, non-specific supernatural guardian of Will’s,” Nico said. “My last name is di Angelo, so if you want to draw a conclusion based off of that, that’s your choice. Anyway. You two are wrong. Dead wrong. Gays are awesome. You need to get your act together for Will’s sake. He needs you both to love and accept him for who he is. Right now!”
“Yes, we will,” Will’s mother said, prostrating herself in front of him. “We’re so sorry!”
“You’d better be,” Nico frowned. Will’s dad did the same, crying and apologizing. “Alright. I’m done here. Fuck off. Be better.”
He returned home to the Underworld, feeling like a stupid idiot. It felt disingenuous to religiously bully Will’s parents out of their homophobia, but he’d been desperate. If they apologized to Will, whether it was fully sincere or not, it might be enough for Will to accept the help he needed while sparing his pride, which he deserved to keep. It was the best Nico could do for him at the moment.
Even so, he wouldn’t have dared imitate an angel when he’d just seen Michael so recently. That seemed insanely dangerous. Fortunately, Will’s parents were non-denominational Protestants, so he figured that Michael wouldn’t care if Nico wanted to play tricks on them.
With that chapter closed, he could move forward and return to his mostly awesome life in the Underworld. And he did; he went back to accompanying Thanatos at work, watching movies with his dad, and helping Persephone in her garden. February was almost halfway over, and spring would come all too quickly. She would leave, and not long after, the open-war phase of the gigantomachy would begin.
“Are you familiar with Parentalia?” Hades asked him one day over family dinner.
Nico shook his head.
“It’s a Roman holiday based on the veneration of dead ancestors,” Hades said, picking at his ambrosia in a slightly nervous manner. “Camp Jupiter has been slacking in their observances for the last few centuries. It’s something I’ve been meaning to rectify.”
“That could be a good task for Hazel and Nico to oversee together,” Persephone suggested, sipping her glass of nectar. “It starts tomorrow, no? And he’s been meaning to pay her a visit.”
“I was going to wait a few days, because I think the Greek demigods arrived yesterday,” Nico said. “It’s probably chaos up there. What if they cancel the festival?”
“They won’t. I had made a suggestion to Poseidon that we might spice it up this year to renew interest. He found my ideas a little too good, and involved Zeus in the plans, at which point I dropped out of the conversation,” Hades said. “But you might recall I’d brought up the idea of a cage match.”
If nectar wasn’t impossibly delicious, Nico would have spat his out in shock.
“That’s actually happening?” Nico said. “I didn’t see that coming.”
“The New Parentalia games,” Hades said, looking slightly embarrassed. “I had just wanted a venue for you to embarrass Percy Jackson, but now Zeus has orchestrated some silly farce of a gladiator tournament that you can’t participate in.”
“Isn’t there a war about to start? Why would he make the campers fight each other? It’ll just weaken the demigods when we need them strong, right?”
“Zeus is an idiot,” Hades agreed.
“Not to be a Zeus apologist, but I can see reason behind it,” Persephone said. “It creates a structured setting for the Greek and Roman demigods to release some of the natural tension that exists between them. They always fight when they meet, so it will help if there are rules to keep it under control. Not to mention, it will identify the strongest fighters so that they can be used strategically. Besides, they have that nice Colosseum. It would be a shame to not use it.”
“All that is true, dear,” Hades said. “But Zeus and Poseidon just want an artificial excuse for Jason Grace and Percy Jackson to fight. It’s quite a foolish waste of time.”
“Didn’t you come up with this idea so that I could fight Percy?” Nico asked.
“Yes, but that was different,” Hades frowned. “Anyway. I want you to go and ensure the rules are followed and that the original purpose of the games is not forgotten. Zeus wants this year to focus on divine ancestors rather than the dead, but they can’t be left out entirely. How you want to handle it, I leave up to you.”
“You got it,” Nico said.
“Take lots of pictures for us,” Persephone said. “And have fun!”
“And keep your head down,” Hades said sternly. “There will be other gods there. Your divinity may no longer be secret, but I still don’t want you drawing attention to yourself. It can only lead to trouble. Just do your job and try to behave within the confines of what you’d be doing if you were a demigod. Other than fighting. Remember, your godhood is only temporary. It’s not your true state of being, not really.”
“That’s Nico’s decision,” Persephone said. “Not yours, love.”
“Right, of course,” Hades said quickly. “Just my way of being supportive of his choices, that’s all. Am I understood, son?”
“Yes, Papa,” Nico said, slightly saddened by his dad’s insistence on his mortality. It might be a necessity due to Kronos, but he really didn’t have to be so gung-ho about it.
Still, this tournament was giving him ideas. After all that Hera had put him through, he was aching for revenge. It was very difficult to do anything that could actually affect the queen of the gods, but it wasn’t impossible. She’d poured immense effort into preparing six out of the seven demigods of prophecy for war. The seventh, though? All his. Hazel was positioned perfectly to make Hera’s life a living hell for the next few months. All Nico had to do was come up with a plan that walked the thin line between truly jeopardizing the war effort, and just making Hera think he was going to.
He bid his parents goodbye and set out for Camp Jupiter alone. Once he got there, he appeared to Reyna in her tent, stepping out of the shadows, only to stop short. She was crying at her desk. Not just crying, but sobbing, her eyes red and her nose running with snot.
She didn’t notice him until he was a few inches away from her, saying, “What’s wrong?”
Her head shot up, and she reached for her knife out of reflex before recognizing him, and relaxing. She nearly knocked over the mostly empty bottle of wine beside her.
“This is embarrassing,” she said, mopping up her face with a tissue. “Jason came back today, along with a new girlfriend and a flying ship. That’s without mentioning the fact that everyone is at each other’s throats, and we’re being forced to hold a tournament tomorrow, and a war is about to start. I’m normally not like this, but it’s an extreme situation.”
“Sounds like it,” Nico said, trying to sound like he cared. Only one thing she’d said held any interest to him. “Jason has a new girlfriend?”
“A daughter of Aphrodite,” Reyna said bitterly. “I mean, come on!”
“No, I get it,” Nico nodded sagely. “It’s just that, the girlfriend was the first thing you mentioned. What’s the story there?”
Reyna flushed.
“I shouldn’t have said that. I’ve been drinking. I should have gone to sleep ages ago, but I just couldn’t.”
“It’s fine. There’s only so much a person can take,” Nico said. “You’re only human.”
Reyna nodded miserably.
“The truth is, we never told anyone, but we were together. Sort of.”
“It was complicated?” Nico asked.
“Actually, the opposite. It was simple. I’ve never been interested in dating or hooking up, anything like that. Jason… I thought he was the same. He was my best friend. We had this mutual understanding that we would be platonic life partners and we’d both be happy, working together, living together.”
“You lived together?”
“No. We were planning on getting a house in New Rome when we retired from praetorship. So much for that,” she said bitterly. “A daughter of Aphrodite. I think I’m going to be sick.”
“What a bastard,” Nico said, shaking his head. “I’m sorry he led you on, Reyna. Sounds like he’s just another problematic straight white dude.”
“I mean, he lost his memory, so he didn’t remember me when they got together. But it still hurts. I feel like I never really knew him.”
She picked up the wine bottle and turned it over, but there was no wine left. Nico conjured her up another bottle.
“Thanks,” she said.
“No prob, girl,” Nico said, smiling sympathetically. “I think you need to vent. Why don’t you go ahead and tell me everything you know about Jason Grace? Start from the beginning.”
Reyna nodded, pouring his glass, then her own.
“He was abandoned at the Wolf House when he was two,” she began.
Nico nodded along and took mental notes as she recounted everything she knew about Jason. She was too drunk to hold anything back, and she trusted Nico. He took full advantage of her knowledge of her former friend.
“Why are you so interested in my problems?” Reyna cut in at one point.
“Just trying to be supportive,” he said.
She bought it, but he was lying.
Jason Grace was the son of Jupiter. Jason Grace was also Juno’s champion, the one she prized above all others-- her flawless calf. If anything happened to destabilize Jason Grace, or jeopardize his loyalty to his patron goddess, it would throw Juno into a panic. And that was exactly what Nico wanted. He wanted her to feel weak, helpless, no longer in control. He wanted her to feel what he’d felt when Will had lost everything because of her petty vengeance. He had to make her pay.
He was going to destroy Jason Grace.
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Piper cocked her head to one side and squinted.
“Really? You sure?”
“I just want to take things slow,” Jason said, not for the first time.
“Yeah,” she nodded. “I hear you. I know it must be hard for you to see Reyna again. I mean, so much has changed.”
“So much,” he said with relief. “Thanks for understanding.” Piper was always good at hearing the things he had trouble saying out loud. Sometimes he felt like she understood him better than he understood himself. That bar wasn’t very high, though. After his time at Camp Half Blood, and everything he’d gone through in saving Juno from Enceladus, he felt like he knew less now than he ever had.
“I could stay over and we could just cuddle,” Piper said, toying with the button on his shirt. The top of her chocolate brown hair gleamed in the dingy light of the apartment hallway. She was probably the only girl alive that still looked good under fluorescent bulbs.
“Do you really mean that?” He asked.
“Yeah. Totally. But we could also just say goodnight,” she said, turning slightly pink.
If it were Reyna, he’d have been fine with cuddling, but Piper had a tendency to be impulsive and get caught up in the moment. He liked that about her, but in this specific situation, it wouldn’t be helpful.
“Goodnight,” he said, kissing her. She kissed him back fervently, wrapping her hands in his hair, which had grown out significantly since he’d disappeared from Camp Jupiter so many months ago. That was the first thing Reyna had said to him when he’d returned. “You need a haircut.” He’d smiled, despite the awkwardness they’d both felt at their reunion. Reyna never changed.
Piper turned their innocent goodnight kiss into a hot make out session pressed up against the front door of his apartment. That was exactly what made her so interesting to be with; he never knew what she’d do next, but it was usually something he’d never have thought of doing on his own.
It wasn’t like PDA was unusual in camp Jupiter-- it was a camp full of teenagers who risked their lives fighting monsters all the time, so relationships moved fast-- but Jason, specifically, wasn’t the type. Obviously, no one but he and Reyna knew that their relationship was platonic, but it was more than that. Jason was a leader. Kids looked up to him, and in tough times, they depended on him for guidance. He had to present a strong and stable front to the world so that they knew they could rely on him. During the Titanomachy, that had been a crucial factor in keeping the legion united. Leadership was everything. He couldn’t afford for his love life to become a distraction.
That was one reason he wasn’t ready to fully commit to Piper. Reyna was another reason. Memory loss, yet another. And that didn’t even touch on the number one problem that he had.
Jason had no idea what he wanted.
He didn’t mind kissing Piper, though. He liked that. Maybe not as much as she did, but he liked it.
“Whoa! Don’t mind us,” a familiar voice said. “Sorry, just gotta get past you.”
Jason and Piper separated, and saw Annabeth and Percy coming towards them from the elevators carrying armloads of groceries. Annabeth had been the one who’d spoken; she gave Jason and Piper a friendly smile and went to unlock her apartment door.
How Annabeth had managed to live in New Rome for months spying on the Romans without being caught, Jason had no clue. They’d spent the last few days having meetings with Reyna, Octavian, Percy and Coach Hedge, trying to come to some kind of consensus about the plan for the Gigantomachy, without making much progress. He’d never been able to ask her about her living situation, though.
It was hard to make productive conversation about anything with the Parentalia Games looming; it was a massive distraction to the more serious business at hand. Although, to be fair, without the plans for the games, the Greeks and Romans would have probably come to blows already. Nobody could seem to agree on anything, so if the games bought them time to strategize, he could accept their necessity.
“Hey, Jason, hey Piper,” Percy said. “How’s it going?”
“Fine,” Jason said. He and Percy had kept a respectful distance so far. They’d never spoken without Annabeth doing most of the talking, so he didn’t feel like he knew him yet. He’d heard a lot about him at Camp Half Blood, but Jason understood better than most how the truth became stretched once people thought of you as a hero. “How are you?”
“Fine,” Percy said, grinning. “We just got chewed out by our landlord, but it’s all good. Still a thousand times easier than renting in the Upper East Side.”
“Rob chewed you out?” Jason asked, frowning. “That’s not like him.”
“We sublet,” Annabeth said, also smiling. “You don’t know the guy. Trust me, he’s a handful.”
“Good thing you don’t have to deal with him, babe,” Piper said, taking Jason’s hand.
“Are you two going to the Parentalia rites tonight? There’s a ceremony in the Temple of Pluto,” Annabeth asked. “A candlelight vigil with offerings to our ancestors. We’re asking for their protection in the Games tomorrow.”
“I’m definitely going. Are you competing, Annabeth?” Piper asked.
“Check the latest bracket,” Annabeth said, holding up her phone. Jason peered at it, zooming in with his fingers.
Piper gasped.
“We’re fighting each other? At seven in the morning?! I’ve got to get to sleep! I think I’ll make an offering first, though,” she said, giving Annabeth a slightly nervous smile. Piper was still in high school, and Annabeth was-- well, not that much older, but she was a war veteran where Piper wasn’t. That was nothing to mess around with.
“It’s not to the death, right?” Jason asked.
“No. First blood or forfeit, whichever comes first,” Annabeth said. “Apollo is supposed to be there in case anyone has a severe injury. They’re not risking losing soldiers before the war. He’s not arriving until the later matches, though.”
Jason took another look at the bracket. He still wasn’t listed on it, and neither was Percy. He had gone to sign up, knowing it was important for morale at the moment that the two camps coordinate on something successfully. He’d discovered that he’d already been drafted against his will.
Story of his life.
“I think we’re just going to be told when it’s time,” Percy said, his voice slightly strained. He was clearly upset about what was happening, and doing a poor job of hiding it. “Uh, so, we got ice cream sandwiches, so we’d better--”
“Yep, gotta run,” Annabeth said, opening the door to their apartment. “See you guys tomorrow.”
They picked up their groceries and shut the door. Jason heard the sound of Percy grumbling, “Stupid gods. They’re treating us like we’re Pokemon.”
“Percy,” Annabeth said. “Don’t talk bad about them on Parentalia. Eat your ice cream sandwich.”
Piper took a deep breath.
“She’s way out of my league. I’m going to lose, aren’t I,” she said.
Jason put a comforting hand on her shoulder.
“Your odds may not be good,” he said. “But that’s not what matters. The important thing is that you respect your opponent, and fight with honor. Win or lose, the kids of Camp Half-Blood will be watching. You have to make them proud.”
“I will,” she said, standing on her toes and kissing him. “Thanks for the pep talk. How do you feel about fighting Percy? Same thing? Just planning to give it all you’ve got?”
Jason nodded, although his feelings were a little more complex than that. He and Percy were capable of damaging the Colosseum and endangering bystanders with their abilities. He could only hope that whatever god was running the tournament was capable of protecting everyone, and that Apollo’s healing services would not be required.
“Percy seems trustworthy,” he said. “I think he’ll fight fair. Other than that, I just hope no one is seriously hurt.”
“Of course,” she agreed. “Will I see you at the Temple of Pluto tonight?”
“No,” he said quietly. “I don’t have anybody I feel like making an offering to.”
“Jason,” she said quietly. “The ritual isn’t just for parents. We all come from hundreds of ancestors that we never knew. If you reach out, you might make some connections.”
“I have a feeling my ancestors won’t be as responsive as yours.”
“Well, if you change your mind, I’ll be there,” she said. She kissed him one last time, then walked into the elevator and disappeared behind the closing doors.
Jason went into his apartment and shut the door, sighing. It felt good to be home after another long and taxing day of war discussions.
He heated up leftover Chinese food in the microwave and ate at the kitchen counter, sketching out the bracket for the following day on a piece of paper. He only wrote down the match-ups he remembered, but he knew that Piper and Annabeth would fight first, and then another pair, Hazel and Frank.
Somehow in the brief time he’d been gone, a daughter of Pluto had risen through the ranks quickly. She was working directly under Octavian, had special permission from Reyna to go anywhere she wanted without formal leave, and somehow was an unofficial senator. He had no idea how she’d managed, but he could only assume she’d win her fight, if the conventional wisdom held true that the Big Three gods produced the strongest demigods. In spite of her resume, though, Hazel was only fourteen years old, and five-foot-nothing. She didn’t seem like the gladiator type.
He took a quick shower, putting on some music and singing quietly to himself. Afterward, he put on pajama pants and an old, soft purple shirt. He had an entire drawer full of them collected over years at Camp Jupiter. When he’d first arrived, the smallest size shirt had dwarfed him, and a special one had to be made to fit his four year old form.
He went right to sleep, planning to wake up early the next day and strategize. He shut his eyes and was half asleep almost immediately, an old soldier’s habit that came in handy on nights like this.
As he drifted off, his nose wrinkled. There was a scent in the air that didn’t belong, the faintest whiff of something that smelled aromatic and dirty at the same time. One of the neighbors must have been smoking cigarettes.
He fell asleep before he could give it much thought.
His dream started out normal. He was reliving a horrible trauma from his past. Nothing new.
Enceladus loomed over him, grinning cruelly. Juno shouted for him to avert his eyes. He didn’t. She revealed her true form, and he blacked out.
That was the point where he usually jolted awake in a cold sweat. He’d sob, or do push ups, or pull on a hoodie and go for a run. Sometimes all three. For some reason, though, the dream continued, even though it never had before.
He opened his eyes and looked around. All he saw was darkness surrounding him. There was a faint suggestion of light glinting off water, which should have been impossible with no light sources around. He heard the rushing roar of the river, and smelled sulfur. The cold, damp air made his face feel clammy and cold.
He reached up and held his hand in front of his face. He could see through it.
He sucked in a deep breath of the cool air and fell back onto the ground. He was lying on a bed of sharp, crunchy gravel. He ran his hands through it and felt the pieces of gravel slip past, as though his fingers passed through them, barely nudging them.
First, a smile quirked at his lips. Then he started giggling, then laughing hysterically. It was finally over. He’d died the glorious hero’s death he’d always known was his destiny. It was such a relief to get it over with.
He collected himself, sitting up. There should be a boat, right? And he should have a coin. He looked at his hand and found it empty.
Doubt crept in. He waited, and no boat came. He was on a small island in the river, and there was nowhere for him to go, so he waited for what felt like hours, staring at the empty and featureless darkness. It seemed like he’d been forgotten about.
After all of his efforts on the surface, his heroism and sacrifice, this was his end? Lost in the Underworld outskirts? He was told there would be glory in death. If not, what was it all for, and what would happen to him now? Would Juno vouch for him, or was it too late? Maybe Pluto and Proserpina were on vacation, and he’d fallen through the cracks in the system.
Dazed, numb, and disappointed, he sat and stared into the darkness.
Then he saw a light in the distance. A sliver, then a mail slot sized hole in the rock appeared. On the other side, he heard Piper’s voice.
He sat and stared. He should go to it. It seemed to be what was meant to happen. And yet, he hesitated. Why couldn’t he just be done? He would end up in the Underworld eventually. Being left here alone scared him, but living and then dying all over again also scared him. What if the next time took longer and was more painful? How many monsters and giants did you have to fight before you got to retire?
He reached out toward the light reluctantly. He found himself sitting up in his familiar bed, panting and damp with sweat.
The smell of smoke was more intense now, but he was in no state to notice. He balled up his hands in his sheets, looking wildly around the room. It was so dark that he turned on the light just to reassure himself he wasn’t in the Underworld. When the room was lit, he breathed easier, although the shadows still seemed to loom larger than normal.
Had that been real? Was it a memory, or was it just a dream? Or maybe life was the nightmare, and death had been the dream.
He checked the time and saw that it was nearly midnight. He knew he wouldn’t be able to fall asleep again, which meant he’d have to fight Percy after an all-nighter. That didn’t worry him. He’d fought harder battles in worse condition.
He stood up and re-dressed, putting on a purple SPQR hoodie. He went out into the cold, dark February night and walked to Temple Hill. On the way there, he stopped at a vending machine to get a coffee. It tasted terrible, but it warmed his hands and stopped him from yawning.
He climbed the familiar hill that he’d climbed a thousand times before, admiring the Parentalia decorations that had been added to the various shrines and temples that lined the road. They were subtle, no more than a few strings of black crepe, flowers, offering bowls full of food, and lots of small candles. At each offering bowl, lares crowded and ate greedily. He’d never seen so many ancestral ghosts in one place before. As he passed, many recognized him and greeted him with respect.
He saw eerie green light shining out of Pluto’s temple and headed toward it. He stood half hidden behind a column to observe.
The temple was packed, and there were huge piles of offerings heaped in a pile in front of the altar. Someone had ordered a few dozen Domino’s pizzas, and a huge mixed crowd of legionaries, New Romans, and lares were eating pizza together and chatting in hushed tones.
Hazel Levesque presided over everything. She was wearing a gauzy black dress with a heavy velvet cape, standing in front of Pluto’s statue. Her arms were wet with dark crimson blood up to her elbows, and the remains of a black ram lay on the altar before her, recently sacrificed.
Everyone appeared to be there with her; Percy, Annabeth, Piper, Leo and Frank were milling about near the altar, speaking with various lares and with each other.
The six of them would be his companions for the war, his fellow soldiers of Juno. He should go in there, talk to them, and be a part of this special, revamped Roman holiday. And yet, his feet moved in the opposite direction. He turned his back to everyone and walked to the Temple of Jupiter instead.
He hadn’t expected Juno to be waiting for him inside, but she was there, standing in front of the statue of Jupiter enthroned. She was particularly tall that day, wearing her goatskin cloak and holding her lotus staff. Her dress shone like it was made of sunbeams.
Jason reflexively averted his eyes from the brightness of the garment. It reminded him too much of her true form, the image of which was still burned into his corneas even months later. His mind went back to that vision of the gravel island in the dark Styx.
“Jason,” Juno said, with fondness in her voice. “My young champion. Come closer to me. Are you here to pray for victory tomorrow?”
“Yes,” he said, walking up to her. She grasped his chin in her hand and inspected his face.
“Drink more water. Eat protein in the morning. You’ll be fine.” She let go of his face. “Percy Jackson has raw power, but he lacks discipline. He irritates the gods too much; he will have no one’s favor tomorrow. You are pious, and know the meaning of duty. That is why you will win.”
She turned to point at the three altars in the temple in turn with her staff: the altars of Jupiter, Athena, and herself.
“Leave offerings for us tonight, and we will guide you tomorrow,” she said.
She disappeared into thin air.
Jason stared up at the statue of Jupiter. He had coins in his pocket left over from the vending machine, more than enough for a small offering to all three. He reached in and--
They were gone. His pocket was empty. He checked his other pockets and his sweatshirt, but there was nothing. He stood in the temple empty handed, other than his empty styrofoam coffee cup.
A shiver went down his spine, and the hairs on his arms stood up. The temple seemed to grow darker, suddenly, and the statue of Jupiter loomed over him. His marble face looked down at Jason, cold and remote and unfeeling. Something told him that a styrofoam cup would not be a sufficient offering.
With no other choice, Jason went outside to look for something else he could give. There were plenty of coins and Hostess snack cakes and Rice Krispies Treats lying on the offering dishes that littered the temple stairs, but he didn’t want to steal from the rarely appreciated lares on their special holiday. Unfortunately, Temple Hill was covered in temples, so he was either stealing from a god, a worshipper, or he was walking all the way back to the apartment to grab his wallet. It was late and dark and cold, and he chafed at the thought of doing it, but it seemed like the only option.
He hesitated outside the Temple of Pluto and glanced inside again. The pile of gold coins, cash, and jewelry was enormous, heaped in the center of the floor in a massive pile. Everyone who wanted to see an ancestral spirit would have brought an offering, and the festival had been going on for eight days already, so Parentalia had clearly been profitable. No one would miss a coin or two, but Jason had been worshipping in these temples for as long as he could remember, and he knew that the gods were always watching. The temptation to steal from Pluto was not one he dared give in to.
He glanced down at his feet and sighed. He regretted the coffee. He should have stayed cold and tired so that he’d have something to give the gods. There was probably a depressing life lesson in there somewhere.
Something in the dirt glinted. He bent down to look closer. There was a tiny red gem the size of a pumpkin seed shining in the dust of the road, poking out from between two cobblestones. He picked it up.
“Find something?” A smooth and mellifluous voice asked.
Jason felt a shiver go down his spine. He turned and looked in the direction the voice had come from.
There was a young man leaning against one of the columns. He was wearing a black t-shirt and ripped jeans, and was smoking a cigarette, watching Jason with dark eyes that were difficult to make out. He seemed to be shrouded in an unnatural amount of shadow.
There was something familiar about him, like they’d met before, even though Jason knew they hadn’t. He’d have remembered. This man was beautiful, even with most of his features obscured by the darkness. He had sharp, statuesque bone structure, tempered with just enough softness to lend him a youthful, approachable air. He wasn’t the sort of person you saw often, outside of Renaissance paintings.
The walking work of art quirked an eyebrow, and Jason remembered he’d been asked a question. He found that he had trouble getting enough air into his lungs to speak real words. This person had caught him completely off guard, and his head was swimming.
“I found this,” Jason said, holding out the red gem.
The young man didn’t even look at it. He held eye contact with Jason, saying,
“All the treasures of the earth belong to Pluto, you know.”
He said nothing more, just waited, staring at Jason intensely as though waiting on him to make a decision.
Jason stared back blankly. He knew he was making a fool of himself, but he was deeply rattled. Objectively, he knew he was just looking at a normal New Roman goth teen who was dumb enough to smoke cancer sticks. He just happened to have an oddly symmetrical face. That was what Jason thought to himself, in order to try to pull it together. Symmetrical face. That’s all. Nothing weird about liking a symmetrical face, everybody did. Piper had a symmetrical face.
Thinking about his girlfriend snapped him out of it. Piper was only a few feet away, on the other side of the temple wall.
“Right?” The young man said impatiently, his expression growing slightly less detached.
“Right,” Jason said. He looked down at the gem and started to put it in his pocket.
“You’re just going to keep it? On Parentalia?” The young man asked. “Don’t you want to make an offering to appease the shades of your ancestors?”
“Not really,” Jason said. All he could think of was his mom, wandering the Underworld doing who-knows-what. He wasn’t comfortable making any contact with her whatsoever, even in the form of a modest offering. The mere thought of her tied his guts in knots. “I need to go,” he said, suddenly eager to get away from the temple of Pluto and the crowd of shades.
The young man nodded, his face composed, almost forcibly neutral.
“You still have time to change your mind,” he said. He walked into the temple without another word, disappearing into the crowd of shades.
There was something different about him. Maybe it was the way he moved like smoke drifting. Maybe it was the way his hair curled like little bat wings.
Or maybe Jason was just into him. He clenched his teeth and started walking toward the temple of Jupiter. He would examine those thoughts after the competition. Hopefully the feelings would go away if he ignored them hard enough.
He walked back into the Temple of Jupiter and came to a screeching halt before Juno’s altar. He glanced at Jupiter’s statue to the left and at Athena’s, which was in a niche on the right. He took the gem from his pocket and stared at the offering bowls.
Athena wasn’t an option; he didn’t know her. She’d have been a great sponsor, but wasn’t worth risking the wrath of Juno and Jupiter.
Juno was his patron, the obvious choice. But she wouldn’t begrudge him making an offering to his father, either. Jupiter had been the one to give Jason to her as a gift.
If he made the offering to his dad, then maybe Juno would support him anyway. He was still her champion and favorite over Percy Jackson. And he may lose the support of his father if he didn’t make an offering. Jupiter had almost never noticeably intervened in Jason’s life before, but his help could make all the difference against a son of Poseidon, who would presumably have his own father’s assistance.
Jason often wondered if Roman religion had felt this political when the ancient Romans had practiced it. To him, it often felt like bribery. But he had never known anything else. Remembering that it was Parentalia, the festival of the ancestors, he made up his mind.
He shut his eyes and said a quick prayer to Jupiter for victory. It was short and to the point-- he didn’t exactly feel warm and fuzzy for his dad, but he respected his power, and felt like this was a circumstance that called for more of it. He added a prayer to Juno, hoping he’d get a two for one deal. He sensed no enraged aura emanating from their statues. Their golden faces gleamed pleasantly above him. He relaxed slightly, feeling confident he’d pulled it off. He took the red gem from his pocket and dropped it into Jupiter’s offering bowl.
It disappeared.
He stared down at the bowl in surprise. Was that normal? He’d never seen an offering do that before. It was as if the bowl had eaten it. He even checked behind the altar to see if it had fallen.
The gem had vanished into thin air. He hoped that meant that Jupiter had gotten it. But it was possible that someone had put a spell on the bowl to make offerings disappear and reappear elsewhere. He’d ask Octavian about it the next time he saw him.
He headed back outside into the cold night air. He could see his breath hovering in front of his face against the dark sky. He tried not to think about cigarette smoke, and walked quickly to the stairs leading down the hill.
Once he was away from the bustling crowds of the festival, he glanced around, then quietly rose up into the sky. He didn’t fly around Camp Jupiter unless he had a reason to; comparisons to Superman got old quickly. It just felt obnoxious to show off. But it was late and dark and cold, and he wanted to go home.
Once he’d gotten back into his apartment, he started to feel sleep tugging at his eyelids. Maybe it was the visit to the temple and the offering, but he felt comforted knowing that Jupiter would have his back the next day. If not him, then Juno, at least. The memories of his death-dream felt more distant, less frightening, and he thought he might be able to snag a few hours of rest before the competition.
He took off his sweatshirt, starting to undress, and froze. There was something in his pocket.
With trembling fingers, he pulled out a small Post-It note. The little red gem was taped to the front of it.
The Post-It note had a formal looking cursive script on it.
It said, “One day, Jason, you’ll remember that I gave you a choice.”
He stared at the note, and at the gem, and he started to piece together what had happened. He wasn’t crazy, there had been money in his pocket, and it had disappeared. The gem had been in front of the temple of Pluto, but not inside it. The ownership of the gem had been kind of debatable, but a mysterious, handsome stranger had told him exactly what he was supposed to do with it. He hadn’t listened.
All the gems beneath the earth belonged to Pluto. How could he have been so stupid? He’d stiffed Pluto on the second-to-last night of the Parentalia festival. What if the man had been Pluto himself? He might as well have flipped him off.
He could have gotten more money for the altar bowls. He’d gotten lazy. He found an easy way out, and he’d taken it. Now, Jupiter was left with no offering at all. Juno would be furious. He had no one to watch his back tomorrow. He’d put everything at risk for a moment’s convenience.
He had to fix it. He put his sweatshirt back on, pulled the gem off the piece of paper, and grabbed his wallet. He started to head back downstairs.
He stumbled, falling to his knees on the carpet of his bedroom. His head was swimming. It was difficult to keep his eyes open. He tried to stand, but he could barely keep his feet. He stumbled over to his bed and sat down on it, attempting to collect himself and get his head straight. It was very late at night, but this level of exhaustion felt unnatural.
He told himself he would just rest his eyes for a moment, and then he’d force himself to get up and make the offerings correctly. He’d return the gem to Pluto and prove that he was a pious Roman, a perfect soldier, who gave all the gods their due and asked little in return. They knew him. He’d been visiting their temples his entire life; of course the gods would forgive him a moment’s weakness.
He woke up ten hours later. He was already late for the Parentalia games.
Chapter 68: Are You Not Entertained?
Chapter Text
Rising from bed in a blind panic, Jason dressed and ran out the door, taking the stairs two at a time to get out of his apartment building. He launched himself into the air as soon as he reached the sidewalk, and soared over to the New Rome Colosseum.
The giant concrete sports stadium was packed with more people than he’d ever seen there before. It looked like every seat had at least two people crammed into it, with New Roman families, cohorts of legionaries, and semi-transparent lares packed shoulder to shoulder like sardines.
He looked down at the arena below him, hoping to see Piper still fighting her match against Annabeth, but he’d missed it. Percy was in the ring fighting Annabeth, the two of them squaring off, their celestial bronze weaponry reflecting sunlight up into Jason’s eyes. If they were fighting, that meant that Annabeth had won her match against Piper.
He hovered in the sky above the tiered rows of seating and watched the two most famous Greek heroes alive fight each other. It looked more like a sparring session than a serious competition. They both wore slight smiles on their faces as they anticipated and blocked each other’s moves. Percy showed no sign of using any aquatic abilities against his girlfriend. It was unlikely he’d hold back similarly against Jason, so it seemed like he’d have no opportunity to study his opponent beforehand.
Jason and Reyna had once sparred together the way Percy and Annabeth were doing now. They’d known each other so well that they could predict entire chains of actions and reactions, and it was impossible to surprise one another. He doubted it would ever be like that again. The next time she drew a knife on him, she’d mean it.
He flew down into the stands looking for Reyna. Percy had usurped his role as praetor, but it was only right that Jason take a seat beside her anyway. He spotted her familiar dark braid and golden armor in the VIP section at the edge of the stands, which sat low to the ground, near enough to the ring that dust flew up into your eyes if the fighters got too close. He’d often sat there with Reyna and watched gladiator battles, but it had been a long time since he’d been a participant in any. He stopped short in front of her, hovering in the sky.
The mysterious stranger was sitting beside her. The dark and shadowy man he’d met the night before was lounging in the stadium seat like he owned the place, casually scrolling on his phone. Today he was dressed more formally than he had been the night before, in a crisp white button down and black dress pants. He wore a pair of dark sunglasses and, again, had a cigarette in his mouth.
Smoking was a gross habit. Why was it hot when this dude did it?
Jason must have been hovering there staring for a weirdly long time, because Reyna said,
“Are you going to sit down? I saved you a seat.” She sounded impatient and angry, which she was justified in feeling, since Jason was extremely late. He sat down next to her sheepishly.
The man in sunglasses never even glanced at him. He wasn’t sure how he felt about that, but it wasn’t good.
He looked around the VIP section. It was mostly empty, which seemed wasteful when the rest of the stadium was so overcrowded. Hazel and Frank were sitting in the row below, talking quietly to each other, and Piper was sitting beside them. She glanced back over her shoulder at Jason.
“Where were you?” She asked with concern in her voice.
“I’m sorry. My alarm didn’t go off,” he said.
She gave him a confused look, since she knew he woke up at sunrise every morning to go jogging, rain or shine. Sleeping in just wasn’t something Jason did. Still, she didn’t ask any questions, just gave him a forgiving smile.
“Happens to the best of us,” she shrugged. “I looked like a joke, anyway. Better you didn’t see.”
He wanted to say something reassuring, but she turned back to watch Percy and Annabeth, who seemed like they could go on fighting all day.
Neither of them appeared to be taking the competition very seriously, which made sense based on what Jason knew about Percy. He’d defeated Kronos at sixteen and had turned down immortality. Ever since, he’d prioritized having a relatively normal life and college experience. He and Annabeth had probably been under the impression they’d aged out of demigodhood. Jason couldn’t imagine how it felt to be pulled back in after you thought you were out.
He couldn’t relate. He’d never gotten out. He was taking classes at New Rome University part time, or he had been before he’d been spirited away. But his priority had never been anything other than Camp Jupiter.
He glanced to his left, leaning back a little bit to see past Reyna’s head. The man in the sunglasses was still ignoring him. Reyna caught him looking.
“Jason, have you met Nico?” She asked.
“He has not,” Nico said, looking at Jason. “It’s a pleasure to meet you, Jason.”
So they were just not going to bring up the night before? Jason stared into the black, unreadable sunglasses and saw his own confused reflection staring back at him.
“Are you sure about that?” Jason asked, refusing to be intimidated into silence by this stranger. “You look familiar.”
“I’m sure,” Nico said, smiling just enough to flash very white teeth at him. There was something threatening in his expression when he did it. It looked more like a dog trying to smile, like his canines were too visible. It sent a chill up Jason’s spine.
Nico turned back to his phone. Reyna appeared to be in no mood to talk; she kept rubbing her temples like she had a headache.
In the arena below, Annabeth put her hand up.
“Forfeit,” Reyna announced.
Jason watched as Annabeth and Percy grabbed cups of Gatorade and made their way back up the stairs to the VIP booth, flopping down into their seats and high-fiving everyone.
“Where is Leo?” Jason asked, noticing his friend’s absence for the first time.
“He’s down there waiting for you,” Percy said. “The bracket was updated this morning. You two are next.”
“Wait, I have to fight Leo?” Jason asked.
“It’s qualifiers,” Nico said. “Did you think your place in the final was guaranteed, son of Jupiter?”
He said it with a snarky bite to his voice, and it was clear he was trying to make Jason look entitled. Jason glanced at the other demigods, but no one spoke up for him. Reyna actually looked like she agreed with Nico, and was shooting daggers at Jason with her eyes.
The only one who seemed to cut him some slack was Percy, who gave him a reassuring smile. He probably knew what it was like for people to make assumptions about you based on your parentage. He also knew that his and Jason’s places in the final really had been guaranteed, and that Nico was being disingenuous. There was a reason they hadn’t been on the original bracket, and yet had been told to participate on the final day anyway.
“I just didn’t know,” Jason said calmly. He was used to this sort of thing. He wasn’t an ego driven nepo-baby, but some people wrote him off before giving him a chance. It came with being Jupiter’s son.
He left without arguing any further, walking down to the arena calmly. Fighting Leo didn’t make him nervous, but he knew Leo would be stressing out about it. There was a dark alcove next to the stairs that led to a long hallway. Leo was leaning against the wall in that hallway, fidgeting with a gadget he’d had tucked in a pocket of his cargo shorts.
“Hi. I’m forfeiting,” Leo said, with an embarrassed smile.
“Really? Right now?” Jason asked, staring down at his friend with surprise.
“This isn’t my thing,” Leo admitted. He spoke extra fast, like he’d been running through the same thoughts all day and was finally able to release them in one burst. “All these people are watching. It’ll psych me out. And you’re my friend. Why are they making us fight each other? What’s the point of this?”
“I don’t know,” Jason said.
“Exactly. We’re about to fight a war against Gaea, right? We should be focusing on our next move, not trying to hack our buddies to pieces for the entertainment of the gods. It’s stupid. And you’ll crush me anyways,” he added, shrugging twitchily.
“That’s not true,” Jason said. “I’m sure you’ve got some gadgets in your pockets that can give me a run for my money. But other than that, I agree with you. Percy and Annabeth didn’t look enthusiastic about this, either.”
“No, dude, you have no idea,” Leo said. “We were talking about it before you got here this morning. We almost snuck out to the Argo II and refused to compete. Hazel and Frank were the only holdouts. They insisted on staying and doing what we were told. Total narcs, if you ask me.”
Jason hadn’t been able to get to know Hazel and Frank much in the few days they’d been at Camp Jupiter together. As a son of Mars, though, Frank probably took issue with the idea of sneaking away to avoid a fair fight. Hazel was probably just backing up her boyfriend.
“I can’t stand that fucking Nico guy,” Leo muttered, looking over his shoulder with wide-eyed paranoia. “Don’t repeat that. I probably shouldn’t have said it out loud.”
“Who is he?” Jason asked, grateful to have an opportunity to ask away from the others.
“You haven’t heard about him? Sweet summer child,” Leo said, shaking his head. “He’s a death god. He’s the one coordinating this whole event.”
“A death god?” Jason asked, feeling his soul nearly leave his body. His mouth went dry. That was who he’d offended the night before?
He was having gay thoughts about a death god?
“He’s Hazel’s brother. Ask her about him, she’ll gush about how amazing he is for hours. Last night he tore into me something fierce. I thought I was about to be dragged to Tartarus.”
“Why?”
“Apparently cargo shorts aren’t appropriate attire for the Temple of Pluto. Something about it being disrespectful to the dead. Dude was wearing ripped jeans! But apparently it’s okay when you’re a god,” he snorted.
“You need to be careful about what you say,” Jason said, sick to his stomach. He didn’t want Leo ending up in the same hot water he was in. His hand went to his pocket. He felt the tiny weight of a gemstone that he had definitely left on his nightstand that morning. Yeah. He was screwed.
“I wish they made Immodium for verbal diarrhea,” Leo said. “Are we cool? I can forfeit?”
“Let’s do it,” Jason agreed.
The two of them walked out to the arena floor together. Leo raised his hand into the air, looking up at Reyna and Nico to make sure they saw.
In the brief time they’d been talking, someone new had arrived and taken a seat next to Nico. Jason didn’t recognize him, but he stood out in the crowd, because he was blue.
Piper came down to the edge of the VIP box and leaned over the short wall separating it from the arena. She reached out her hands to her two friends, and Jason and Leo both fist bumped her.
“Good call, guys,” she said. “We fight monsters. Not friends.”
“Damn straight!” Percy said.
The blue guy behind him snorted, rolling his eyes. Percy didn’t turn around, but his eyebrow twitched with irritation. Whoever the newcomer was, it seemed like he and Percy weren’t big fans of one another. The intense smell of ocean radiating from the blue guy indicated that he and Percy had probably met before.
“Does anyone else feel like forfeiting? Should we just call this whole thing off?” Reyna asked, looking at Hazel and Frank. They were the only two left who hadn’t fought or forfeited yet. Reyna sounded annoyed, like the forfeits were an inconvenience to her, but Jason was pretty sure she was putting on an act to please the gods she was sitting next to. Unlike the cheering and excitable crowd surrounding them, she was not having a good time.
“Absolutely not,” Frank said, standing up. “No forfeiting here.”
Hazel stood up alongside him. Frank was tall, wide, and thickly built, and he dwarfed his petite girlfriend. The idea of them fighting made Jason nervous, and he hoped for Hazel’s sake that she knew what she was doing. It wouldn’t be in the nature of a son of Mars to hold back in a fight, out of respect for his opponent, and unlike Percy, he would not make an exception for his girlfriend.
“I didn’t think so,” Nico said, smiling at Frank and Hazel. It was the first genuine smile Jason had seen on his face, and much nicer than the smile from earlier.
Hazel looked up at her brother, and Nico stood and kissed her on both cheeks. It was a cute gesture, and very European. Jason found it hard to look away.
As Hazel and Frank descended the stairs and headed for the arena, Jason took his seat next to Reyna again, sneaking a peek at the newcomer. The blue gentleman, on closer inspection, had scales, webbed fingers, and what appeared to be barnacles crusted on the side of his neck. He kept scratching at them, which was gross. He had a short, seaweedy beard and was clearly a sea god. Jason wondered if he had a name he’d recognize, or if he was one of the lesser gods of the sea that few people knew about.
He assumed that Nico was one of those, too, but the Underworld version. Jason knew less about Cthonic gods than he did about sea gods, although now he wished that he’d studied more.
“Do we have a plan in case of serious injury?” Annabeth asked, leaning back in her seat to look up at the two gods sitting behind her.
“Apollo is supposed to be here,” Nico said, looking at his phone with annoyance. “But he keeps declining my calls.”
“That’s what you get for scheduling this during the Eras Tour,” His blue seatmate said. “He’s obviously going to be booked solid.”
“I didn’t schedule this during the Eras Tour, the Eras Tour was scheduled during Parentalia,” Nico said. “It’s not a new holiday I just invented, despite what everyone seems to think. Triton, you wouldn’t believe what I’ve had to deal with this week. I’ve worked my ass off trying to make this festival fun for everyone and all I get are complaints that it’s bad timing. As if that’s my fault! It’s your dad that’s been pushing for this, you know.”
“It was your father’s idea in the first place,” Triton said.
Nico and Triton seemed to grow briefly annoyed with each other over this point of contention, until Nico glanced at Jason.
“Let’s blame Jupiter,” Nico said.
“Agreed,” Triton said. “It always comes down to him in the end.”
“Speak of the devil,” Nico said, “Apollo just texted he’s on his way.”
Reyna immediately stood up and moved to Jason’s other side, apparently making room for Apollo. It wasn’t unusual for gods to visit the Coliseum to watch gladiator battles, but they were usually minor Roman gods, or deified emperors on special occasions. Having a big name like Apollo visiting officially was a once in a century event, although unofficial visits to hook up with pretty New Roman women were more like a once-in-a-decade thing, evidenced by the multiple legacy families that ran the local hospital.
“I’d go home if I could,” Reyna whispered under her breath so that only Jason could hear.
Jason nodded his understanding, although he didn’t dare admit that he felt the same way. There was now a single empty chair between him and Nico. He ought to be watching Hazel and Frank’s fight, and he tried to pay attention, but he couldn’t stop sneaking glances to his left.
Nico had taken off his sunglasses to watch the fight. He was leaning forward, his eyes following Hazel’s every move intently. His expression left zero doubt that he loved his sister very much, and that watching her was a joy to him.
Jason found it hard to tear his eyes away from that look on Nico’s face. Had anyone ever felt that way about him? Maybe Reyna had once, but that was over. She was right beside him, but he felt like he was sitting next to a stranger. Piper was seated only a few feet away, but they were still getting to know each other. Most of their relationship hadn’t even been real.
Reyna was the closest thing to family he had. And he might have lost her forever.
Gods, he was lonely. The feeling of it welled up in his throat and left him struggling to conceal how he felt. He clenched his hands and stared straight ahead, trying to think about something else.
This happened to him sometimes. He’d be going about his day, fighting monsters, taking classes, doing whatever work needed to be done to keep Camp Jupiter running smoothly, when it would hit him. His parents had not wanted him. His sister didn’t visit, and never called. Despite the glory he’d won in battle, his exalted standing within the legion, and his fame in New Rome, Jason was profoundly alone.
Most of the time, he didn’t think about it. But sometimes, it was hard to think of anything else.
He gritted his teeth and watched the match, hoping for a distraction. Hazel was running around, and occasionally disappearing and reappearing somewhere else nearby. She could teleport herself-- that was fascinating. He wondered what the limitations were, and how far and how frequently she could travel. It eased his worries about her getting hurt-- although it seemed like her godly brother was watching over her. He wished he had someone watching out for him like that.
He was pulled out of his spiral of self-pitying thoughts when Frank abruptly transformed into a bear and charged his girlfriend.
“He shapeshifts?” Triton asked, sitting up straighter in his seat.
“He’s a descendant of Poseidon,” Nico said. “On his mother’s side. It’s a hereditary ability that was gifted to one of his ancestors.”
“What excellent news!” Triton exclaimed. “Now I have someone I can genuinely root for in this competition. So nice to see someone bringing glory to father’s name, rather than embarrassment,” he said. He had no qualms about looking right at Percy when he said it, with an ugly sneer on his face.
“You got something to say to me, buddy, come out and say it,” Percy said, standing and turning to glare at his half-brother.
“I think he just did,” Nico said. “Percy, sit down, I can’t see Hazel. She-- Look, you made me miss it!”
Everyone turned toward the arena. Frank had transformed back into his human form, and had raised his hand to forfeit.
Jason squinted. He saw little bits of purple somethings everywhere, but there was no sign of what technique Hazel had used in order to win. She was already standing beside Frank, looking him over for injuries, appearing to be completely unharmed herself. She gestured up at the stands, and Nico must have recognized her signal, because he went down to the arena floor to check on them.
Frank was wounded; Nico immediately fed him ambrosia upon seeing him. When Nico returned to his seat, he looked agitated. He pulled out his phone and called Apollo, but the call declined.
“Apollo is supposed to be here,” Nico muttered, glaring at his phone. “Now Frank has to go to the hospital and Hazel will be distracted in the final. This isn’t going according to plan.”
“She put Frank in the hospital?” Percy asked, horrified.
“She’s going to be in the final?” Jason blurted out.
Nico turned to look at him with an icy stare.
“She won her match. Do you think she doesn’t deserve to be in it?”
“I just didn’t think it would be three people fighting at once,” Jason said. He looked at Percy, who seemed to be as surprised as he was. They’d been mentally prepared to fight each other, but Hazel would change things. Neither of them had been paying enough attention during her match to know what to expect.
“A Big Three fight?” Triton said. “Excellent. This will be thirty percent more interesting than I’d anticipated. I need to start setting up the livestream,” he added, summoning a tripod stand and attaching his phone to it.
“I need to do that, too,” Nico said. “Can you show me how to get it to work?”
“No,” Triton said, staring at his phone hopelessly. “I was hoping you knew. Godstagram isn’t very user-friendly.”
Reyna had gone pale. She pushed past Jason to get closer to Nico.
“Nico, hold on just a second. We need to talk about this,” she said, looking pale with worry. “All three of them at once is too much raw power in one place. The coliseum can only handle so much. We’re already breaking fire code with these crowds. I can’t in good conscience let this continue. Please break it up into two separate fights, at the very least. I’m worried about collateral damage, if not mass casualties.”
“No one is going to die, Reyna,” Nico said confidently. “Trust me, I have a plan. Remember, the whole point of this is to demonstrate their power. Dialing down the intensity is the opposite of our purpose here.”
“Earlier you said that this event was intended to foster relationships between camps!” Reyna said. “If there’s an earthquake or a tornado and someone gets hurt, everything will fall apart. War could break out. The last thing we need is a pre-war to the other war, which we really should be preparing for right now!”
“The war can wait until tomorrow,” Nico said, fiddling with the camera settings on his phone. “It isn’t even spring yet.”
“We need every minute we can get. Our lives are not a game,” Reyna insisted. “We’re meant for greater things than a livestream. I want to trust you on this, I really do. Just give me one good reason why we have to do this. Just one. Please. And I promise I’ll shut up about it.”
Reyna was speaking for everyone. No one understood the purpose of what they were doing, and the frustration in the VIP booth was growing palpable. All of the demigods stood silently, waiting to hear Nico’s response.
Nico frowned at Reyna, impatience flashing in his abyssal black eyes.
“You want to know why you have to do this?” He said coldly. “Because it’s mandatory. That’s why.”
The demigod glares became mutinous-- for a moment. Then, everyone became distracted by the sound of music.
It began as a soft echo, then grew louder. With a flash of sunlight, a bright red convertible appeared in the center of the arena. Disco music blasted from the speakers, and Apollo hopped out of his car and climbed onto the hood, waving at the cheering crowd.
The spectators went wild with excitement, and started up a chant of his name. Responding to their energy, Apollo cranked the music up louder and started dancing along.
“What the actual fuck?” Nico said in horror, as the entire stadium was forced to watch Apollo perform an entire improvised dance routine to the song “Stayin’ Alive”. It was only four minutes, but it felt like forty. For the most part, the crowd seemed to love it, but the VIP section was tenser than a rubber band stretched around a watermelon.
A chant of ‘encore’ rose up around the stands, but Nico stood up and gave that suggestion a violent thumbs down. When Apollo got up to the VIP booth, he was greeted with an icy, “You’re three hours late.”
“Chill out,” Apollo said, sitting down between Jason and Nico and putting his feet up on the back of Piper’s chair. He was wearing glittery gold cowboy boots with white bell bottoms and an unbuttoned purple shirt. Jason had seen him in pictures, but never up close. It was hard to believe he was half-brothers with this vibrant deity. If Apollo was a banana split, Jason was a glass of skim milk.
“I can’t chill out,” Nico snapped. “I have a mutiny on my hands. And more importantly, I can’t get my livestream to work on this phone,” he said, handing it to Apollo for assistance.
“Oh, it’s easy,” Apollo said. “I spend two thirds of my time on live. I’m live right now, actually,” he said, holding up his phone. It was buzzing with notifications and messages every half second.
“Then why didn’t you take my calls?” Nico asked.
“You never called me,” Apollo said, tilting his head in confusion. “Your dad did.”
“I had to trade phones with my dad. My Godstagram account is still locked, so I’m using his for the live,” Nico explained.
“I was wondering why he kept calling me. So I’m holding Uncle Hades’ phone right now?” Apollo said, looking at it in awe.
“He trusts you with that?” Triton asked. He frowned like it bothered him for some reason. Jason looked up at his brother’s face and saw that Apollo also looked irritated.
“Damn, you’re the lock screen, too,” Apollo said, turning the phone on. Jason had a good view of the screen before Apollo held it up for Triton to see. It was a picture of Nico and a beautiful young goddess that Jason assumed was Persephone. Both of them were squeezed into the photo, although most of the frame was taken up by an enormous three-headed dog, and Nico’s face was half cut off by the edge of the picture.
That seemed to make little difference to Apollo and Triton, who immediately became bitterly jealous.
“Wow. Look at you. Daddy’s precious only child,” Apollo said, a nasty bite in his voice. “Must be fucking nice. My dad’s lock screen is Ana de Armas in a thong.”
“My father’s is Jimmy Buffet, for some reason,” Triton said. “Can we focus on the matter at hand, please? I’m drying out here.”
“Yeah, I’ll set up the live stream,” Apollo said. “After I post something heinous on Hades’ account.”
“Give that back!” Nico said, grabbing for the phone. “You’re gonna get me in trouble!”
“Do it,” Triton said, grinning wickedly. He held Nico back while Apollo messed with the phone, carefully holding it out of Nico’s reach while Nico attempted to kick him.
As stupid as their spat was, Jason felt relieved at seeing it. One thing he noticed was that neither Triton nor Apollo seemed to respect Nico very much. Jason knew nearly nothing about him, but he’d gotten the impression that he was a relatively young god. He and Reyna caught each other’s eye, and he could tell she was holding back laughter, just like he was. Leo wasn’t even bothering to hide his giggles.
“I’m just kidding. Here. Your livestream is up,” Apollo said, giving the phone back to Nico. Relieved, Nico set it carefully on his tripod next to Triton’s. Apollo set up the livestream on Triton’s phone as well, and soon there were three phones on three identical tripods recording the view of the arena.
“You know, if our family were less dysfunctional, one would have been enough,” Apollo said, observing the trio of recordings. His view count was far higher than the other two, especially Nico’s, which only had five people watching, according to the counter on the screen. Jason surmised that Underworld gods were not as numerous as he’d assumed.
“I’m mostly here to make sure you don’t cheat,” Triton said, giving Apollo a suspicious look.
“Who, me? Never,” Apollo smirked.
“You’d better not,” Nico said. “This is for Parentalia, which is Pluto’s festival, in case you forgot. Any cheating would be hugely offensive to him. Just remember not to let anyone die. And both of you have to cancel out anything Percy and Jason do that could endanger the spectators. Who are probably getting really bored of waiting for this fight to start. Percy, Jason, I’m taking you downstairs. I’ll tell you the rules, but I have to find Hazel first.”
“Don’t let them take the field until I make my announcements!” Apollo shouted, as Nico grabbed Percy and Jason both by the arms and brought them into a dark hallway in a swooping fold of shadow.
Jason grabbed the wall to stabilize himself; he’d never felt anything quite like that before. Flying was one thing, but he felt like he’d just stumbled off of a moving walkway running through the airport of the universe.
“Hazel!” Nico called out, walking off to look for her.
Jason and Percy stood in the dark hallway and put armor on over their clothes, quietly adjusting their straps and swords and donning their helmets. At the far end of the hall, the doors to the field stood open. The crowd on the other side was cheering in anticipation.
Jason drew in a deep breath. He was starting to feel the familiar rush of adrenaline that came before a fight. For him, it always felt like crackles of electricity were shuddering through his veins. The hair on his arms stood up from the static he created unintentionally.
Percy rubbed his arms, glancing back at Jason. He looked nervous, which surprised him. There was nothing Jason could do to him that would compare to what Percy had faced against Kronos.
“I’m worried somebody will get hurt,” Percy said, reading Jason’s expression. He looked out at the crowd, mostly college students and young legionaries, who were clamoring for a spectacle. “It would be different if I was fighting a monster or a titan, or even just somebody I hated. But my gut is still telling me we shouldn’t be doing this. We’re just putting on a show. And for what?”
“I get it,” Jason said. “But the gods won’t let anyone get hurt.”
“I wish I could believe that,” Percy said darkly.
“Me too,” Jason said. He reached for his pocket and felt the gem still there. He wondered if it would ever leave him. It was a pretty, shiny, red little thing, and yet it felt ominous. Some part of him knew, deep down, that he’d been cursed. And he didn’t know what to do about it.
“Yo,” Apollo said.
Jason whipped around. Apollo was standing behind him.
“A word?” The tall, blond god crooked a finger and beckoned Jason over to one side of the hallway. Percy backed off to give them space.
“I don’t know what you did, but Jupiter and Juno are not happy with you,” Apollo said. “Something about changing your mind last minute and stiffing them on an offering?”
“It wasn’t intentional,” Jason said, bowing his head and staring down at his brother’s glittery shoes. “I’m sorry.”
“Don’t say it to me, I don’t care,” Apollo said. “I’ve been ordered not to help you. I’m only going to intervene if I see Triton helping Percy, to even it out. But I doubt he’ll bother. He hates Percy’s guts.”
Jason nodded his understanding.
“What about Nico?” He asked.
“What about him?”
“He might help Hazel. I know he said he wouldn’t, but--”
“Hazel? The fourteen year old girl? The cute little Southern Gothic belle? Five foot one on a good day? You’re worried about that Hazel?”
“Forget I said anything,” Jason muttered.
“That’s what I thought. Don’t humiliate dad by sucking. He hates that,” Apollo said. He gave Jason a thumbs up, then disappeared.
When he’d gone, Jason turned around to see Nico and Hazel standing beside Percy, staring at him.
“Cheating already?” Nico asked. “Why am I not surprised?”
“Cheating?” Percy said, confused. “You clearly heard him say he wasn’t going to.”
“Quiet, you,” Nico snapped. “Since you’ve already thrown the rule book out the window, all bets are off.”
Jason looked to Hazel, who was staring at him with a thoughtful expression on her face. The girl was still mostly a mystery to Jason, but he knew one thing for sure-- she was tiny. He’d gotten a little paranoid about her after Frank left their fight on a stretcher, but he and Percy both dwarfed her by over a foot. It didn’t help that she had a meek demeanor to begin with, but even if that weren’t the case, he didn’t think it was appropriate to force her to fight two nearly full grown men at once. Was there really such callousness in the minds of the gods?
Nico knelt in front of Hazel.
“I have a surprise for you,” he said.
He held his hand out flat in front of his face. She lit up with delight, her hazel eyes glowing particularly green in the darkness, watching her brother with rapt attention. Nico drew in a breath, and then blew it out.
Smoke filled the air in front of him-- Only he wasn’t smoking. It wasn’t really smoke, it was darkness taking the shape of smoke. As Jason watched in quiet amazement, he saw the darkness congeal, forming two distinct shapes in the air.
The darkness suddenly whooshed into place. Two tiny black beads dropped into Nico’s hand.
He stroked each one with his thumb, encouraging metal hooks to appear, and Hazel pulled her hair back from her ears. Nico took out her old earrings and replaced them with the new ones. They looked like simple black beads of jet.
“Thank you,” Hazel whispered, in a hushed tone of awe.
“No need to thank me,” Nico said, pulling her into his arms for a hug. “I love you, Hazel.”
“Love you, too,” she said.
“Do you need a snack break? Water break? Anything?”
“No. I’ve waited long enough. I’m ready,” she said, staring up at him. She had a weird intensity in her eyes when she looked at her brother, almost like she was in love with him, although Jason didn’t think that was the case.
Nico gave her one last cheek kiss, then disappeared. The three demigods were left staring at each other in the dark hallway alone. Hazel turned around to look out at the crowd, standing in the doorway of the arena. He could see that her hands were trembling.
Jason looked at Percy, who was also looking at her hands. Impulsively, Jason leaned over to Percy and whispered in his ear.
“We’ll go easy on her,” he said. “Take her out quickly, get her out of harms way.”
“Agreed,” Percy whispered back.
Hazel clenched her fists.
“I didn’t ask y’all to do that,” she said. She had the same ice-cold tone of disdain in her voice that Nico used so liberally. They must have gotten it from their shared father.
Jason backtracked awkwardly.
“It’s no disrespect to you. Different weight classes, that’s all. Gladiator fights are usually broken up by age.”
“It’s not a wrestling match,” Hazel said bitterly. “Or a gladiator fight. Just stop. You said your piece.”
She turned and walked onto the field.
“Not yet!” A loud, booming voice said. It was Apollo on the coliseum loudspeaker system. “I’m calling you one at a time. Line up in the doorway, kids.”
Jason lined up shoulder to shoulder with Percy and Hazel.
“Is everyone ready for the fight of the century?” Apollo asked. The crowd roared in response. Somehow in the last half hour, the stadium had filled up even more. Jason saw homemade signs being waved with his name on them. “I have a couple of announcements before we start, but first, let me introduce your beloved hometown hero, the champion of Camp Jupiter, Jason Grace!”
‘Thunderstruck’ by AC/DC started blasting on the speakers. Jason briefly considered turning around and locking himself in the bathroom. The fame of being a son of Jupiter and successful hero had never sat right with him. He wanted to scream from the rooftops that he wasn’t the kind of guy that wanted fanfare to accompany his every move, let alone classic rock.
Ever the obedient hero, he walked out onto the field anyway, and put on a polite smile. The only thing worse than looking like an arrogant ass was looking ungrateful for everyone’s support. Young legionaries and kids growing up in New Rome looked up to him. He needed to set a good example, so he waved and tried to look like a normal, nice person who wasn’t full of himself.
He waited in the center of the dusty arena, scuffing the dirt with his sneaker. He was relieved when Percy was announced with similar exaggerated aplomb, accompanied by the song, ‘Rock You Like a Hurricane.’ He stood with Jason, and he actually looked excited for the first time all day.
“Honestly, I want to hate it, but this is a good song,” he shrugged. Annabeth waved at him from the stands, and he waved back, seeming to gain more motivation just from seeing her. Jason knew that, despite his misgivings, Percy would give the fight all he had. He was representing Camp Half-Blood, and he would want to do them proud. Jason understood, because he felt the same way.
Hazel’s walk-out song was, ‘Don’t Fear the Reaper.’ She still looked shaky, and the cheers for her sounded more like pity cheers than genuine excitement. Her boyfriend wasn’t even in the stands, which probably didn’t help.
“My final announcement, and then we’ll let the match begin,” Apollo said. Jason looked toward the VIP booth and saw Apollo standing on his chair holding a microphone, glowing brightly in the sun. Nico glowered next to him. Apollo’s brightness didn’t seem to quite reach him, as if he sat in a haze of darkness.
Jason watched as Nico scanned the three of them, smiled at Hazel, and then looked at him. The two of them locked eyes for a moment.
Jason’s hand went to his pocket. He couldn’t reach inside it while he was wearing armor, but Nico recognized the gesture and smirked triumphantly.
It was at that precise moment that Jason realized he was destined to lose the fight.
He turned to look at Hazel. Where he’d seen nervousness earlier, now he saw something different. Her hands were still shaking, but her eyes were alight with anticipation, and she was smiling.
She wasn’t nervous. She was excited.
Jason’s gut told him to turn to Percy and tell him to run. It told him to go home and lock the door and hide under a blanket. It told him that Hazel and her brother were about to make his life a living hell, even though he had no idea how or why.
“The rules are simple,” Apollo said. “You three fight to serious injury or to forfeit. I’ll heal you after the fight, so don’t pull your punches. No one is going to die today, right, spooky boy?”
“Correct. Also, don’t call me that,” Nico said.
“Thanks, spooky boy. You heard him, everyone. No risk of dying, so no need to hold back. I’ll fix everyone up afterwards. Now for the real announcement.” He drew himself up and projected his voice even louder, hovering slightly above his seat. Every eye was on him, and the stadium waited in total silence.
Jason saw Reyna lean forward, desperate to hear the long-awaited reason they had been asked to hold the tournament.
“Whoever wins this cage match,” Apollo said. “Will be the new leader of the seven demigods of prophecy. They will lead the quest to defeat Gaea.”
Jason was deeply relieved. A cage match wasn’t a good test of leadership capability, but it wasn’t going to doom the mission and ruin everything, either. It was a decent reason to hold a competition of this sort. It also explained why the seven prophesied heroes had all been scheduled to fight each other on the final day of Parentalia.
Reyna was smiling, the other demigods looked relieved. Annabeth was giving Percy a thumbs up, indicating that she wanted him to go for it. Jason wanted Percy to go for it, too. With his experience and Annabeth’s brilliance combined, they’d have a pair of formidable leaders at the helm.
Jason didn’t like his own chances, thanks to the weird signals he’d been getting from Nico, but he felt confident enough in his leadership abilities that he had every reason to give it his best shot, too.
All he needed to do was keep Hazel from winning. As long as he prevented that, the rest of the outcome wouldn’t matter as much to him.
“Also,” Apollo added. “One more thing. Whoever wins, leads the team, and defeats Gaea? You’re getting turned into a god.”
Jason’s jaw dropped. A ripple of shock shuddered through the crowd.
“Okay, you can fight now,” Apollo said brightly, sitting down again. “Have fun!”
Chapter 69: Big Three Showdown
Chapter Text
“What the hell?” Nico asked, grabbing Apollo by the sleeve. “Someone’s being turned into a god? I thought Zeus wasn’t going to offer that again?”
“Gee, I wonder what could have made him change his mind,” Apollo said, raising his eyebrows.
Nico let go of him and sank back down into his seat.
“Was it me?” He asked, knowing the answer.
“Duh,” Apollo said. “Dad is on the warpath because of you. And I’m not talking about the Gigantomachy, either.”
Nico heaved a huge sigh and slid even further down into his chair. He’d have sunk all the way back to the Underworld if he could have.
He stared at the three demigods in the arena and watched as they backed away from each other, taking one step at a time until they formed a triangle. Percy and Jason both turned to face Hazel together.
Nico’s blood boiled at the sight. He sat back up in his chair, studying the two older demigods. Had they planned to take out his baby sister first? He wanted nothing more than to protect Hazel and crush Percy and Jason into dust, but he also knew that she could handle herself without his help.
“I didn’t ask to be a god,” Nico said, glancing at Apollo. “Just so you know.”
“Neither did I. Neither did most of us,” Apollo said. “It doesn’t matter. Dad needs a new one to cancel you out.”
“But Olympus already has tons of gods!”
“What difference does that make?” Apollo insisted. “It’s simple. Hades gets a new divine son, so Zeus gets a new divine son. That’s just how this works. It’s how it’s always worked, and how it always will work, forever. And there’s nothing you can do about it.”
“Now, hold on a moment,” Triton said, watching intently as Percy summoned a slowly growing wave of water, making the first move to initiate combat. Water began pouring out of a crack in the arena wall where he must have burst a pipe. Reyna began muttering under her breath about structural damage and insurance policies. “If Percy wins, will he get another opportunity to become a god?” Triton asked.
“Knowing my dad, the offer is probably only valid for Jason,” Apollo said, looking at his half-brother as if evaluating him for godhood already. “He’s due, right? He’s got an insane resume for a demigod. He started fighting monsters at four.”
Percy blasted a firehose-like jet of water in Hazel’s direction. Hazel hadn’t moved or done anything yet, so it was clearly an attempt to draw her into combat. In response to his attack, she shadow traveled out of the reach of the water. Percy in turn summoned even more water, enough to reach from one side of the arena to the other, and the floor started to fill like a swimming pool. Jason rose up above the water, lightning crackling between his fingers.
“Of course it’s only valid for Jason. Zeus would never make Hazel a god,” Nico said, clenching his teeth. “Not in a million years. This is rigged somehow. I’m sure of it.”
“Why would he rig the competition when he doesn’t need to? She’s obviously not going to win. That said, I think my father would be pleased to have Percy change his mind and accept divinity,” Triton said, stroking his seaweed beard. “It would reinforce his stupidity in refusing it in the first place. Perhaps he ought to win today.”
“Go ahead and try, barnacle boy,” Apollo said, shooting him a competitive glare. “We’ll see who’s got the better backup on the field.”
Nico tuned them out, focusing on Hazel. She seemed to be remaining calm, slowly raising a little platform of earth an inch at a time so that she always kept her feet out of the water. The moment she touched it, she’d be at Percy’s mercy.
The water level was rising quickly, and Jason was watching her feet with eyes sharper than an eagle’s. As soon as she was in the water, he’d electrocute her if Percy didn’t get her first. She was in double jeopardy thanks to the way her cousins’ powers complemented each other.
Presumably, Jason could tweak the voltage to ensure the jolt wasn’t lethal. Nico knew for certain that Hazel was not dying that day, but he was reminded of Athena’s taser drones that had once electrocuted him with killing intent. He knew how painful it was to be shocked. He wasn’t sure why Jason hadn’t already tried to strike her down with a bolt of lightning, but he’d use Jason’s hesitation to their advantage.
He split himself into two places at once, making his second form invisible. He went down to the arena and looked around. The hallway that the three demigods had waited in before the match started was filling with water, too, but there was a set of double doors at the end of it that led to underground passages that ran beneath the Coliseum. Nico opened them, and the water rushed through, the level in the arena lowering to account for the displaced water.
Percy, knee deep in his personal swimming pool, frowned in frustration. He looked up at Jason.
“There’s only so much water in the pipes,” he said. “I don’t want to destroy New Rome’s entire municipal water system if I don’t have to.”
Nico rolled his eyes. Percy and Jason were such good little heroes, so conscientious of the people around them and of Reyna’s concerns. It was as if they didn’t trust Triton, Apollo, and Nico to do their jobs and clean up after them.
Nico’s other body, which was still in his seat in the stands, saw Triton frown deeply upon hearing Percy’s comment. He’d have probably just added more water for Percy if he’d asked nicely. Now he folded his muscular blue arms and sat back, stubbornly refusing to help.
Jason flew over to Hazel, who was standing on her little hillock that she’d created, now an island in an otherwise wet and muddy pit. It was obvious that Jason and Percy were a little bit confused by her strategy. She hadn’t even drawn her sword yet.
Nico scanned the field, and noticed something that Percy and Jason had both missed. Scattered around the circular arena, little purple nubs were erupting from the ground like mushrooms. They grew slowly, but they were growing all the same.
Jason lunged at Hazel, diving through the air and heading straight for her. She disappeared, leaving Jason to twist in midair, searching for her. Nico grinned, seeing that his earrings worked exactly as they were meant to.
Jason and Percy immediately started running around and looking for her, but Nico could tell she was shadow traveling as fast as she could to ensure that they never laid a hand on her. They could tell where she was based on the ripples in the water that she made occasionally, but she didn’t stay anywhere long enough to be caught.
Nico could tell what she was doing, and it put him at ease that her strategy was a solid one. He rejoined the separated parts of his consciousness back together and waited for the scene to play out, watching eagerly from his seat in the stands.
Percy and Jason hunted for Hazel for a while, which was an awkward and splashy and fruitless pursuit, until Percy got lucky and Hazel stepped into a puddle. Percy noticed the splash immediately and raised the water in the puddle into a bubble around Hazel, pinning her in place and lifting her feet off the ground. Although she was still invisible, Nico knew she would desperately be trying to shadow travel away. Despite her best efforts, she wasn’t able to manage it while covered in water.
“Do it!” Percy shouted, looking up at Jason, who hovered in the sky above them.
Jason sent a bolt of lightning shooting directly into the bubble. It was accompanied by a terrifying crack of thunder. Some people in the crowd screamed, while others, unconcerned for the young girl who was struck, cheered.
Percy was inches away from the blast zone, but remained unaffected, protected by the water that surrounded him. Hazel, however, should have been rendered unconscious. It appeared that the bolt had been a direct hit, but the impact was hard to gauge due to her continued invisibility.
Both Jason and Percy waited for some sign of her, and Percy released the bubble, allowing her body to splash down into the mud.
There was a reason that Nico had run drills with Hazel on the edge of a cliff in Crete. She’d practiced shadow traveling under stress in mid-air so many times that she could do it with ease. She didn’t land in the mud where Percy had expected her to fall, and he and Jason were dumbfounded. Nico couldn’t help but giggle slightly behind his hand.
“That bolt definitely hit that bubble,” Jason said, “If she was in there, she’s unconscious.”
“She was in there,” Percy said anxiously. “Let’s find her fast.”
They couldn’t be blamed for assuming she was hurt or unconscious. The only thing that had saved her from electrocution was the blessing of Achilles, which would have ensured a near-miss, or at least guaranteed that the zap hadn’t incapacitated her. What Nico did blame Percy and Jason for was the concern on their faces. They seemed to genuinely think it was their responsibility to find Hazel and make sure she was okay, despite the fact that they’d been ordered to fight each other and were totally not doing that.
“Percy, leave her, you fool!” Triton shouted loudly. “Attack Jason now! Is this a game to you?”
“It’s called the New Parentalia Games, isn’t it?” Reyna said, rolling her eyes in a rare moment of sass.
“Percy, listen to him!” Annabeth shouted, leaning over the barrier to get his attention. “Nico won’t let Hazel get hurt! Leave her and win this!”
“Thank you for the vote of confidence,” Nico said. Annabeth turned around.
“He can be a little too loyal sometimes,” she said, wearing a look of frustration. He could tell just from her tone of voice that loyalty was probably Percy’s fatal flaw, and she was annoyed that it was interfering with his chance of victory. Percy leading the quest was the next best thing to Annabeth leading it herself, and she knew as well as everyone else did that she’d be the best at it.
Percy and Jason obviously did not trust the supervising gods to do their jobs and protect the participants. Nico knew they had their reasons, but he also felt strongly that he was a cool and relatable god who definitely should have been trusted anyway. Fortunately, the search for Hazel stopped as soon as Annabeth chimed in. Percy acknowledged her opinion with a nod and stopped looking for Hazel. While Jason’s back was turned, he sent a massive wave of water up to knock him out of the sky. Clearly, he trusted his girlfriend completely. At her urging, he wanted to fight to lead the quest.
His targeted tidal wave disrupted Jason’s flying in midair, but there wasn’t enough force behind it to pull him out of the sky. Realizing that he and Percy were now facing off, Jason faced the son of Poseidon and stirred up the wind. It started with a light breeze that grew until a howling gale was blowing all of the water away from Percy, leaving him dry and therefore vulnerable. Nico was glad he’d opened that door to let some of the water seep downstairs, or there might have been too much water for Jason to blow it all away.
Jason embraced the role of human hairdryer and continued to blow wind at Percy. Simultaneously, Percy pulled the water back towards himself to preserve his defensive barrier. Their face-off boiled down to a contest of elemental mastery, and it became obvious that the two of them were closely matched.
While they were focused on each other, Hazel made her move. In a sudden explosion of sound, a chorus of cracking noises resounded from all directions. The round encircling concrete structure of the coliseum, and the foundation beneath the seating area, revealed massive intrusions of glowing violet crystal jutting out from the concrete in sharp spikes. One by one, Hazel detonated them.
Hazel had no ability to make explosives in the traditional sense, but she could generate so much internal pressure in a certain type of artificial amethyst that it would shatter violently outward in all directions. One at a time, her gem bombs exploded.
The people in the stands, who were sitting directly above the exploding amethysts, shrieked in terror and began a mad stampede to get up the stairs.
“We have to contain the explosions!” Percy shouted, abandoning his aquatic defenses. “Give them time to evacuate!”
“On it!” Jason agreed, dropping his arms and allowing the winds to subside.
No one could argue that the two of them weren’t excellent heroes, and would make great leaders and teammates. But that was not the point of the exercise. In attempting to contain the blasts, both of them ended up studded with purple crystal shrapnel, although the wounds were minor. Wind and water weren’t as efficient at containing explosions as solid barriers would have been, so they wasted a lot of time and effort attempting to keep shards of crystal from hitting the crowd.
Hazel observed triumphantly, visible on the far side of the arena from where they were working. She stood on top of a large purple crystal that she’d made for herself, one designed with a small opening that she could slip inside to hide in if she was attacked. It looked impenetrable and very spiky.
Bloodied and scraped, but not defeated, Jason and Percy watched as the final amethyst exploded, having successfully urged the last of the spectators out of harms way. They had relocated most people to the upper section of the stands where the explosions couldn’t reach them, although many had gotten scared and left. Still, the part of the audience remaining was now silently watching on the edge of their seats, terrified and thrilled at the exciting display of power that they had witnessed. For many years, a fight between children of the Big Three gods had been discussed only as a hypothetical. Finally witnessing one in person was a once in a lifetime opportunity.
Percy jogged up to the VIP stand, while Jason hovered in front of Hazel in the air, distracting her so that Percy could make his request. Jason tried to hit her with a blast of lightning, but she slipped inside her crystal, where it had no effect. Jason’s wind, electricity, and the blows from his sword were not enough to so much as scratch the durable surface she’d created. From the inside, she was laughing at him. From her perspective, she’d already won a victory just by proving that they had been wrong to underestimate her.
“Why didn’t you stop the explosions?” Percy shouted up at Nico, enraged. “You’re not protecting people like you promised! You need to call this off!”
“Are you forfeiting?” Nico asked hopefully.
“He is not forfeiting!” Triton shouted, leaning over the edge of the booth so that he could get in Percy’s face.
“You don’t tell me what to do!” Percy shouted back at him. The water beneath his feet churned, and the two half-brothers appeared close to attacking each other. Nico shook his head sadly. They clearly both shared their father’s violent temper.
“You have humiliated Poseidon enough!” Triton roared. “You will not be a coward today and shame our house! I won’t have it!”
“I’m not a coward!” Percy said. “You’re endangering innocent people for your own sick entertainment! You’re the one shaming yourself!”
“Um, guys,” Nico said. “As fun as it would be to watch you two hash this out, that’s not the reason we’re here. Percy, either forfeit or fight. Make a choice.”
“But—”
Nico raised his hand, and a shimmer of darkness revealed itself, hovering in the air between Percy and Triton’s faces, which were a foot apart. Percy reached out to touch it, and found that his hand couldn’t go through.
“I’m responsible for making sure spectators don’t get hurt,” Nico said. “Not you.”
Percy looked around. From his perspective in the heat of the moment, it had seemed like the threat to the crowd was real. However, if you looked closely, it was obvious that the crystal shards hadn’t actually rained down on the audience section. No one had been hurt, even in the areas that Percy and Jason hadn’t made it to in time.
“Oh,” Percy said, looking dismayed.
“I find your lack of faith disturbing,” Nico said, smirking.
Percy turned back and walked towards Jason, who was still hacking away at the crystal fruitlessly.
Percy hurried to join Jason’s efforts, but he didn’t make it far before he stepped on a crystal that had been hidden under a small pool of water. It exploded on contact, sending crystal shards shooting through his foot.
He cried out in pain. The water began to heal him immediately, and he knelt down to remove a jagged piece of crystal that had gone straight through his foot and become stuck between his bones. As soon as he touched it, it began to grow.
Water could heal his wounds and give him strength, but it couldn’t remove a crystal that was growing straight down into the earth. The living crystal was connected at the root to a source more powerful than what Percy had access to, since he was so far from the ocean. Percy was pinned in place like an animal with its foot caught in a trap. He tried desperately to smash the growing crystal with the butt of his sword as it expanded and bloomed, but it was harder than the Celestial bronze of his weapon.
Panic began to gleam in his eyes, although he was too experienced to let it overtake him. He began attempting to dig the crystal out of the dirt with his sword. Stuck in an awkward position, he was fortunate that Jason had opted to focus on taking out Hazel, because he was a sitting duck.
He was desperately working to free himself when Jason screamed out, “Percy!”
Percy looked up, but it was too late. Hazel had left her protective crystal and shadow traveled behind Percy invisibly. She returned to visibility just in time to pick up a massive chunk of crystal and bring it down viciously on the back of Percy’s head.
Annabeth screamed as Percy fell over halfway, struggling to get up. Nico had to grab her by the arm to keep her from running down to help him.
“Percy, forfeit!” She shouted. “It’s not worth it!” Percy gave no sign that he could hear her.
Jason, in an attempt to help, blasted a violent gust of wind at Hazel, but she shadow traveled out of the way, turning invisible once more. All Jason’s intervention accomplished was blowing water off of Percy, unintentionally drying him out.
Unbeknownst to Jason and Percy, Hazel had set up a thin web of cracks in the ground below the arena that had fallen beneath their notice. It had hastened the water draining process, which meant that Percy had to work harder to keep the water level in the arena where he wanted it to be, since he refused to break the pipes. As soon as he’d been hit in the head, his efforts to maintain the water level ceased, and all that was left was mud.
Jason’s wind hadn’t been meant to harm Percy, quite the opposite. Despite his intent, it had dealt the finishing blow. With no water left to rapidly heal him, Percy clutched at his head, teetering on the verge of unconsciousness.
He didn’t forfeit, though. He had a stubborn will of iron when it came down to it. Nico had already known that about Percy, but it still pissed him off.
Even so, it was hard to guess whether his refusal to forfeit was intentional, or he was too badly concussed to remember to do it. With Hazel once again having turned invisible, Jason was left staring concernedly at the injured Percy as he tried to stand up. He landed and took a step towards Percy with the intention of forcing him to forfeit-- partly because they were still in competition with one another, but also partly out of mercy, since Percy needed medical attention promptly.
Jason stepped on a hidden crystal landmine the moment he set his foot on the ground. He was able to deftly fly backwards just in time, the wind propelling him away faster than the shards could rocket towards him. If he hadn’t had superhuman reflexes, he might have ended up impaled by a shard, which had been Percy’s undoing. He hung back warily, evaluating the surface of the ground below him.
When he backed off, Hazel reappeared behind Percy. She brandished her curved Stygian iron knives, drawing Apollo and Triton’s concerned attention. Moving without hesitation, Hazel grabbed Percy by the hair and pulled his head up. The movement seemed to bring him back to awareness, at least a little. His black curls were already matted with blood, and his face was streaked with bright red. Percy started to struggle against her, water rising around their feet again quickly. Jason blasted her with more lightning, seeing an opportunity for a second try at the strategy that really should have worked the first time.
It had no effect. Percy was protected by the water around their feet, as he had been before, but Hazel should have been electrocuted. It seemed as though every lightning bolt was missing her by a millimeter.
“What? No,” Apollo said, standing. “That should work. Are you doing something?” He demanded, looking at Nico.
“I’m just sitting here,” Nico said innocently.
Triton gripped the arms of his seat so hard that his knuckled turned periwinkle.
Hazel crossed her knives in front of Percy’s neck. The Stygian iron was doing its job, radiating terror and despair and cruelty. Percy’s face lost what little color it had left, and Jason hesitated, hovering in the air, unsure of the best course of action. He had never seen Stygian iron in action before. It was easy to assume that the bad vibes the metal emitted were the whole point. It sent your body into ‘imminent doom’ mode and activated fight or flight. One’s imagination would run wild with horrible scenarios of what it could do to you if it touched you. The truth was, what Stygian iron actually did was worse than what most people would imagine even in their worst nightmares.
Nico relished every second of the look on Jason’s face. Each drop of blood that dripped from Percy’s gaping head wound felt like a sacrifice to him alone. And seeing Triton and Apollo flabbergasted at what his sister could do was the most satisfying triumph he’d ever known-- and it wasn’t even over yet.
Hazel whispered in Percy’s ear, and he raised a hand, slumping in her grasp.
She tossed him to the ground and disappeared. Jason flew up high to avoid her while Apollo fetched Percy from the field and brought him back to VIP.
It was handy having the god of healing on call. With a single touch, Apollo made Percy as good as new.
Percy sat down in his seat like nothing had happened. Annabeth threw her arms around him, and for a moment, they didn’t say anything, pressing their heads together in silence.
“What just happened?” He eventually asked. “Everything after that crystal went through my foot is a blur.”
“You failed,” Triton said coldly. He was clenching his teeth so hard they looked like they might crack in half. He’d already shut down his livestream. He grabbed his tripod and smashed it brutally against the back of Percy’s chair. It didn’t hit anyone, but metal and springs flew everywhere.
Percy jumped out of his seat and stared at Triton, who had gone a deeper and somehow angrier looking shade of blue. He was nearly indigo in his fury, and there were swirling storms behind his eyes. It seemed like he would say something, but instead he shook his head and disappeared.
“That’s probably the last time anyone from beneath the sea will waste time on you,” Apollo said.
“Good riddance,” Percy muttered. His face didn’t match his words, though. Annabeth put her arm across his shoulders, and Percy rested his head on hers, attempting to block out the rest of the world and focus solely on the comforting presence of his girlfriend.
Nico turned his attention back to his sister. He’d warned Hazel that the second hero left standing would be much harder to take down than the first. She had planned on staying quiet and hiding most of her abilities until the last moment so that they’d underestimate her, but that could only take you so far. Jason was now hunting her down. She could no longer afford to hold back.
There was no water left in the arena, just cracked earth. The crystals embedded everywhere did nothing against Jason, whose feet never once touched the ground. He stirred up a small tornado that dried out and then lifted the dust from the arena floor and circulated it. Hazel had to fling up an arm to keep dust from her eyes. Her form, outlined against the flying dirt, became obvious.
Jason dove at her like an eagle, brandishing his golden sword. The crowd let out a cheer, and Apollo yelled, “Get her!” He looked more bloodthirsty than Nico had ever seen him.
Apollo was in a difficult position. Zeus had not known Hazel would be fighting. If he’d known, he still wouldn’t have expected her to win. When she did win, he’d be blindsided. As a general rule, blindsiding Zeus wasn’t a smart idea.
If Percy had won, that might have been okay. He wasn’t Zeus’ favorite, but at least it wouldn’t have come as a surprise. Percy had already rejected godhood, so Zeus would probably rescind the offer of godhood on that basis. It wouldn’t have been a big deal in the end.
But now, Percy was out of the game. Hazel was left on the field, and everyone could see that she had a chance at victory. Zeus would definitely be furious if she won. Apollo could safely assume that. At the same time, though, Apollo had been given explicit orders not to help Jason.
Nico could see the inherent contradiction that Apollo was wrestling with behind his bright golden eyes. Apollo’s finger twitched. The gesture was subtle, but the impact was noticeable. Jason’s sword began to glow with a blinding light.
Nico didn’t know what the point was at first. Then Hazel shadow traveled away, and the light followed her like a laser, pinpointing exactly where she was. Her invisibility had been rendered useless.
That was frustrating. Nico drummed his fingers on his armrest, grinding his teeth. He’d worked really hard on the magic for the earrings, and now it would go to waste. He refused to look at Apollo, but he could only imagine his obnoxious smirk.
Two could play that game, he thought. He shut the lights out. A veil of shadow passed over the open roof of the coliseum, enclosing everyone inside in darkness. Floodlights came on around the perimeter, but there were still dark spots all over the field in the shadows cast by the crystals, which had grown up into short, stubby pillars.
“I don’t know why you bothered,” Apollo said. “He can see her no matter what you do. She’s done for.”
“We’ll see,” Nico said.
Jason began chasing Hazel around what was now an obstacle course of big, purple exploding crystals. Hazel sprinted and shadow traveled intermittently, sliding behind crystals and jumping out of the way just in time before his sword came down on her head.
When Jason got too close, she set off a crystal explosion and threw him off course. But Jason was extremely agile, and a hardened warrior. Explosions didn’t faze him, and getting studded with shards occasionally wasn’t enough to slow him down even a little bit. He stayed on top of Hazel like a homing missile on a target. As she ran and shadow traveled and grew exhausted and began to slow, Nico remembered their training back in Crete from months before. If they’d done a little more cardio, would this have gone smoother?
It didn’t matter in the end. Every time Jason slashed at her with his sword, not matter how certain he was of his timing and position, how impossible escape seemed, Hazel dodged successfully. Had she had the skill to swipe at him with her own weapons, her blows would have landed with 100% accuracy. But there was no magical advantage that could take away the fact that she was inexperienced and lacked the ability to drive Jason as hard as he drove her.
But that skill disparity merely delayed her inevitable victory. Growing tired, she changed tactics. She raised two dozen skeletons and had them start throwing exploding crystals at Jason. This was effective at stopping his attacks, but he was still too agile to be taken down easily. None of the projectiles hit him, since he figured out their range quickly and stayed above them.
With one competitor airborne and the other quite literally grounded, Jason had the upper hand. Skeletons were a helpful distraction, but Jason wasn’t easily distracted, so they didn’t work. Watching them fight, Nico saw how Jason moved faster than anyone could possibly think. His body worked on instinct, on reflexes honed over a lifetime of battle. This was his element, and he appeared more comfortable chasing down his opponent than he ever had in a comfy seat in the stands.
To the audience, his victory looked assured. They started chanting his name loudly, eager to see their champion prove himself to them for probably the hundredth time that he’d had to. Jason was so used to it that he didn’t even seem to notice.
Hazel noticed. The crowd had turned against her. The fact that she’d tried to crack Percy’s head like an egg didn’t help; that had been brutal even for a gladiator. Nico knew her facial expressions well, and he could see that hearing Jason’s name chanted over and over was making her angry. That was good. She needed that extra push to win, or she and Jason would be trapped in an exhausting stalemate all evening.
Hazel unleashed one of the magic marbles that Alabaster had once wielded. A pack of black dogs burst out, swarming below Jason and biting at his heels. He hovered above them, out of harm’s way, but he was looking at them and not at Hazel. As a result, her nearly got smacked in the face with a writhing knot of poisonous snakes that Hazel chucked at him. She’d microdosed their venom long enough to become immune, and was able to throw them all at once like a weird, slithering softball. She used the moment of Jason’s distraction to duck into a hole split in the earth, disappearing from view.
She reappeared on the other side of the field, and Jason sent a volley of lightning to knock her out. As always, it seemed to miss by a hair.
She didn’t run this time. Instead, she ducked behind a nearby crystal. Jason blasted it with lightning, but there was just a shower of sparks.
If it had been any other opponent, the lightning would have taken her out by now, and that frustration showed on his face. No inexperienced fourteen year old with a few months of training should have been able to last this long against the champion of Camp Jupiter. It made no sense. Jason’s confusion was echoed on Apollo’s, who was watching the fight without so much as blinking.
“She shouldn’t be this good,” Apollo muttered. “You… No,” he added, looking at Nico in disbelief. “Please tell me you didn’t do what I think you did.”
“I’d have told you if you’d asked,” Nico said, picking at his nail polish smugly.
“Well, crap,” Apollo said, leaning forward and putting his head in his hands. “We never should have gone ahead with this stupid tournament. This is so bad. Dad will be furious.”
“It’ll be fine,” Nico said. “It’s a good thing. Don’t you want to beat Gaea?”
“But at what cost?” Apollo said.
“The… The cost of Zeus getting mad at you about it?” Nico asked.
“Obviously! He’ll say I should have been able to tell. I barely even looked at her. It never even crossed my mind. I should have known. The Styx is so… So…”
“So in my front yard?”
“Yeah,” Apollo said resignedly. “I forgot that you were a god when you resurrected her. I guess we all did. Damn Persephone and her soft launch.”
“It’ll be fine,” Nico repeated, rolling his eyes. “I’ve given the Olympians a gift. They should be sending me thank you cards.”
“You’re a fool and have no idea what you’re doing. You’re making it up as you go along and leaving a trail of chaos in your wake. I was a young god, too, once. I know how it is. Why did you have to show up now, of all times? We have a war to fight, and you’re going to jeopardize it!”
“No I’m—”
“Just stop talking,” Apollo said firmly. “You don’t know what you’re talking about. You’re stressing me out.”
There was a buzzing noise. Apollo’s phone was ringing.
“Is your livestream mic on?” Nico asked. His was muted; he’d double checked it a dozen times already.
Apollo winced.
“Well, sucks to be you,” Nico said. “Meanwhile, I’m going to watch my sister kick Jason’s ass.”
Apollo scooted one seat over so that he could text people back. Clearly, all of Olympus had just heard the news. Hazel had been dipped in the Styx, and Jason was going to lose the fight.
Nico watched the field, although there was little new to see. Hazel was still hiding and dodging lightning. She must have been exhausted. Maybe she was having trouble coming up with a way to get Jason out of the air, because she didn’t seem to be doing much.
Actually, that wasn’t true. Nico caught sight of a shadow shimmering on the side of the arena closest to him. Fortunately, Apollo was distracted, so he hadn’t noticed.
Just below the VIP stand, Hazel crouched in shadow. She was muttering under her breath, chanting. The Hazel on the other side of the field behind the crystal was merely a mist projection, drawing Jason’s lightning. Despite her exhaustion, Hazel still had new tricks up her sleeve.
Nico heard the familiar words of her incantation and smiled to himself. He knew what she was planning. It was time for her to play her trump card. He whispered the words along with her, adding his necromantic power to hers, and amplifying it a thousand times over.
Shades shimmered and shuddered into blurry existence all over the arena. Jason whipped around and found himself surrounded by ghosts. When he looked back at Hazel, or the mist image he’d mistaken for her, she was gone.
The ghosts formed into such a densely packed crowd that it looked as though the fields of Asphodel had been transported to the surface. Onlookers in the stands began crying out in recognition, greeting their loved ones. All of the shades who’d been summoned over the previous eight days of Parentalia had been recalled.
Some of them began scratching at the ground and tasting the dirt, where Hazel had spent every night for the past week dumping out buckets of sacrificial blood, as well as two liter bottles of Coca Cola. There was enough remaining to encourage the dead to hang around, although they weren’t exactly feasting. The lack of proper food and drink only gave them more motivation to wander erratically and explore the space. They were noisy, too, chattering like a flock of weird, whispery birds.
Jason was unwell. Nico had seen the way he’d looked at the Temple of Pluto during Parentalia. He’d had no trouble in piecing together precisely what his hangup was about ghosts. Jason started scanning the crowd for the real Hazel, pushing his way through the murmuring horde. Every time he walked through a shade, he shuddered, and looked like he wanted to be sick.
Eventually, Jason made it to Hazel. She was in front of the VIP booth, where the occupants all sat in tense silence, eyes locked on the two competitors. Jason and Percy locked eyes briefly, and Percy gave him a nod of encouragement.
Hazel was crouched behind a thick throng of shades, her blades at the ready. Jason was pale and uneasy, and a quick glance at Apollo left him looking even greener; Apollo was on his phone, ignoring Jason completely.
To be fair, Hazel wasn’t looking much better than Jason. She was panting, sweaty, and exhausted from running. She’d used all of her strength to summon the crystals, the skeletons, and the shades. The divine blood in her veins was working overtime, but her small mortal body had little left to give her in terms of stamina.
Jason approached Hazel with cautious steps, watching the ground for crystals with every feather-light footfall. He eyed her brandished Stygian iron knives with the same wariness as the first time he’d seen them.
He raised a palm and held it out before him. It crackled with ball lightning, bright white-blue, ready to strike at point blank range.
“Forfeit,” Jason said. “This time, I won’t miss.”
“No thank you,” Hazel said, her voice soft and polite as ever.
Jason frowned; he didn’t trust her. Every time a shade brushed too close to him, he shuddered.
“Last chance, Hazel,” he said, a tinge of weariness in his voice. “You’ve shown us what you can do. But now this needs to end. Forfeit.”
“How about you forfeit?” She suggested. “Since you wanna end things so bad.”
“No,” he said.
“Okay,” she said. “Just remember that I gave you a choice.”
Jason flinched when he heard the familiar phrase. The cursed gemstone in his pocket, as tiny and forgettable as it seemed, was having an effect on him. With every moment that passed, his confidence was drained by an instinctual certainty that something terrible was about to befall him.
“Jason?”
The voice came from behind him.
Jason’s spine went as rigid as if he’d been turned into stone. He swallowed, blinking like his eyes weren’t working properly.
“This is a trick,” he said, his voice completely changed. He sounded terrified. He had recognized that voice.
Hazel tossed her blades down onto the ground with a clatter. She stood in front of him, waiting to see what he would do.
Jason turned and looked back.
There was a shade behind him. She was beautiful, a shimmering image of a middle aged woman with long blonde hair, blue eyes, and a squarish face exactly like Jason’s.
Jason stared, his eyes locked on hers. The shade approached him eagerly, fluttering like a moth to a flame.
Whatever she said to him, Nico could not hear. She spoke in little more than a whisper. Her face was slightly downcast, as if she was filled with sadness. After she spoke gently into his ear for a few seconds, she disappeared, returning to her home in the Underworld.
Jason fell to his knees. After a brief moment of hesitation, he raised his hand in the air.
“Oh, no. Oh, Jason,” Reyna murmured, watching sympathetically. “Was that who I think it was?”
“Call it,” Nico said.
She stood, hesitating at the sight of her old friend on the ground.
“He forfeits,” she announced reluctantly.
Hazel turned around and looked up at Nico with tears in her eyes. She was grinning widely, triumph lighting up her face. He realized that he was wearing the exact same overjoyed expression.
Nico traveled down to the arena, and Hazel threw herself into his arms. If he’d had the power, he would have stopped time then and there. To live for eternity in that moment would have been paradise.
The rational part of him knew there were going to be consequences for them to deal with. When were there not? But in the face of Hazel’s unrepentant joy, he couldn’t find it within himself to care. All that mattered was that she’d won, and proven herself the hero he’d always known she could be.
There were no cheers from the audience. Not a single voice was raised in praise of her accomplishment. The lack of support was probably due to the fact that Jason had been left weeping on the ground alone. Reyna descended the stairs and went over to him, encouraging him to move into the hallway and out of sight.
The son of Jupiter had lost. Beyond that, he’d been hurt, and he’d been humiliated. Nico would have wept too, in his shoes. His intention had always been to destroy Jason Grace, but this felt too easy. Something about the way his revenge had played out didn’t sit right, which was silly, because it had gone exactly how he’d planned it.
A pair of young legionaries hurried to Reyna’s side carrying an ornate gilt box, was an old Camp Jupiter heirloom. Reyna opened the box to reveal a golden laurel crown lying on a bed of red silk. She placed the crown atop Hazel’s head, nestling it carefully among her reddish-brown curls.
“I hereby declare Hazel Levesque, daughter of Pluto, the victor of the New Parentalia Games,” Reyna announced, speaking just as the as the crown touched Hazel’s head.
Hazel reached up and touched her new crown tentatively.
“You earned that,” Nico said, bursting with pride. “For all of your hard work. I always knew you could do it.”
She took a step away from him.
“You and I both know that I don’t really deserve this.” she said. She didn’t sound upset when she said that; quite the opposite, she still looked blissfully happy. The bright green and amber of her eyes were glistening with happy tears.
“Of course you deserve it,” Nico insisted. Hazel didn’t respond. She reached for Reyna’s microphone, and Reyna handed it over.
Reyna and Nico looked at each other curiously. It wasn’t necessarily weird for Hazel to give a victory speech, but it was out of character.
“Um,” Hazel began. She cleared her throat a couple of times before starting over. “Um, hi everyone. I have something that I need you all to know.”
Nico’s stomach dropped. Was she doing what he thought she was doing? He saw Apollo sit up straight and redirect his phone camera to focus right on Hazel. Nico shuffled to one side in order to stand in between her and the camera, although it was probably pointless.
“I guess I’ll just say it,” Hazel sighed. “I was born in 1928.”
At this, Nico panicked and tried to grab her microphone, but she stepped out of his reach. He gave up, and watched her speak in stunned silence, horrified by what she was revealing to a huge crowd of strangers.
“I died in 1941, fighting Gaea,” Hazel said. “My mother and I gave our lives to postpone the war that’s about to start right now.”
There was no reaction from the crowd in the stands. Most people probably thought she was crazy, although the demigods in the VIP box would probably believe her. Some things were just too weird to make up.
“I waited in Asphodel for decades. I resigned myself to eternity. Then one day, I met my half-brother Nico,” she said, gesturing to Nico. “He’s a death god. He resurrected me from the dead. And he dipped me in the Styx.”
Nico wished she would have kept that to herself. Now that she revealed her secret, she’d never be treated the same again. She might have been physically invulnerable, but her feelings could still be hurt. They hadn’t even had a chance to talk about the Styx thing together. He didn’t know when she’d realized or how she felt about it.
She removed the crown from her head and got on her knees in front of him. Nico froze, completely caught off guard by the gesture. He fought off the urge to pull her back up to her feet. Whatever she was doing, it seemed to mean a lot to her, based on the nervous tremor in her voice and the determined set of her mouth. Her eyes glistened with adoration.
“I know you’ve never asked for this,” she said to Nico. “Maybe that’s why it’s so important that I do it. This crown belongs to you.”
She held it up to him.
“That’s not necessary,” he laughed awkwardly.
“I dedicate my victory to you, my patron god. Thank you for everything you’ve done to get me this far,” she said.
“No biggie,” he said, so embarrassed that he blurted out a stupid response without thinking. A hushed silence hung over the arena, and he thought of how clearly her words would be heard on the livestream his phone was broadcasting. He’d have turned it off if he’d known this was coming.
Hazel waggled the crown in front of him, since he’d left her hanging and was staring at her open-mouthed like a fish. When he finally took it from her, it changed from Imperial gold to a shining onyx black in his hand.
“Did you do that?” He asked weakly.
She shook her head, smiling.
He hadn’t done it. At least, not on purpose. He reached down and pulled her back up to her feet.
“Aren’t you gonna put it on?” She asked.
“Later,” he said, his voice tense. He hugged her, more to show their audience that he approved of her than because he wanted to. He knew her intentions were good, but a familiar feeling of simmering anger was welling up in his gut. It was the same feeling he’d had after she took it upon herself to execute Luke with her Stygian knives. She meant well, but she’d put a target on her back, and he was a little upset about it.
Before he could let go of Hazel, he felt an inhumanly warm hand touch his back. The Underworld siblings let go of each other and looked at the goddess who had appeared behind them, wearing a brilliant and extremely fake smile.
“Aren’t you two just too cute,” Hera said insincerely. “Wrap it up. We need to talk.”
Chapter 70: Nothing Good Starts in a Getaway Car
Chapter Text
Jason took no notice of Juno’s arrival to the arena. He didn’t hear Reyna’s words of concern spoken softly in his ear. He didn’t feel Leo’s arm around his shoulders, helping him up and guiding him out of sight of the crowd. He didn’t speak until Piper found him. He was huddled in the hallway, his arms wrapped around his knees, his face pressed to his kneecaps. He wanted to disappear.
“Jason,” Piper said, kissing his temple. Her voice was like maple syrup, magical enticement in every syllable. “Look at me, babe. I’m sorry. That was really messed up of her to summon your mom.”
“It was a dishonorable tactic,” Reyna said, her voice sounding deep and harsh compared to Piper’s. It was the first time she’d agreed with Piper on anything since they’d met over a week ago. “Normally I’d say it was a blasphemous abuse of the dead, but I guess Nico signed off on it.”
Jason shuddered at the sound of Nico’s name. It reminded him of the Latin classes he’d taken as a child, of vocabulary drills and verb conjugation. His class had a running joke about how many different words the Romans had for the verb ‘kill.’ There were at least two dozen that he could think of off the top of his head. But the one that he’d liked the most back then had been ‘Neco’. It meant ‘to murder, to destroy, to put to death.’
The name had always been a warning. If only he’d heeded it. He should have run the other way that night outside the Temple of Pluto. He wished he’d rallied the demigods and made a break for the Argo II, like Leo had suggested. Fighting Gaea would be preferable to what he was going through now.
He didn’t want to talk to Piper or Reyna or anyone else, but Piper whispered words of comfort into his ear that seeped into his brain despite his resistance. Her persistence broke through, and he started weeping softly into her shoulder, letting her hold him in her arms. She patted his back and murmured her reassurances.
Reyna left, only to come back a few minutes later.
“Jason, she wants you,” she said.
“Who?” He asked.
“Juno,” she said, her face grave. “I told her you need some time. She doesn’t care.”
Normally, Jason would have choked down his feelings, put on a brave face, and gone to find out what Juno needed of him. It was his duty and what was expected of him. It was what he thought he owed her. But something in him had snapped. He didn’t feel a connection to Juno anymore. He felt very little, other than a wretched, self-hating ache in his ribs.
“I’m not going,” he said, grinding his teeth.
“You don’t have a choice,” said a voice like an echo at the bottom of a well. Jason tried to pull away, but Nico had appeared out of nowhere. He grabbed Jason’s arm before he could react.
He was dragged through a wormhole of darkness and shadow. He could see nothing, and all he heard was a soft noise like the folding and unfolding of wings.
When he opened his eyes, he saw that he was in a restaurant. It had an unremarkable beige interior and was full of empty booths and tables. In the center of the dining area, a few tables had been pushed together in a long rectangle. Juno sat at the head of the table, and Percy, Annabeth, Leo, Hazel, and Frank were seated along the sides.
There was one seat left, and Nico sat in it, at the other end of the table from Juno. Frank got up and dragged chairs over for Jason and Piper.
“You okay, dude?” Leo asked, looking at Jason anxiously.
Jason said nothing. He stared at the basket of bread sticks in front of him and was reminded that life was an endless gauntlet of pain.
“Miss Levesque,” Juno said, smiling at Hazel with a sickeningly saccharine expression. Her elegant features and the bitter edge in her voice were very familiar sights for Jason. “You are the champion of the day. Order anything you like off the menu. I’ll let you get an extra dessert, in honor of your victory.”
“Don’t fall for it, Hazel,” Nico said. “Everything on the menu is disgusting. Don’t eat any of it, or you might never be able to leave.”
“This is Olive Garden, not your father’s house,” Juno said, staring at Nico with icy fury that she didn’t bother hiding. “I come here all the time, and I can vouch for the quality of cuisine. I particularly adore their fettucine alfredo.”
Nico literally hissed at her. She cackled, clearly enjoying taunting him with low quality imitation Italian cuisine. She appeared to take great pleasure in his expressions of dismay when Percy ordered the aforementioned fetuccini alfredo. When Hazel ordered something called the ‘Tour of Italy,’ he nearly wept.
“Et tu, Hazel?” He asked. “I thought you worshiped me.”
“I do. Sorry. I’m really hungry,” she said, unable to meet his eyes.
“Enough fun,” Juno said, after the waiter had come back and forth a few times replacing bowls of limp looking salad and cold soup. “To business. This is more than just a celebration dinner, you see. I wanted to announce a change to the plan for this war.”
“Hazel will be leading the Seven,” Nico said firmly. “That was the prize Apollo announced. Even you can’t be so dishonorable as to take it away from her after she won it fairly.”
“If you’d let me finish, you insolent cockroach, you’d know that I don’t give a fig about your stupid sister!” Juno snapped. She stood up from her chair, towering at well over six feet tall, partly thanks to her towering stiletto heels. “Since you think you are so clever, Nico di Angelo, since you believe yourself to be such a genius at manipulating situations in order to embarrass me, I thought I’d give you the prize you really deserve, you despicable, scheming child of the pits.”
“Oh, great! Here we go again,” Nico shouted, standing up, too. “Announcing another vengeance to get revenge for my revenge for your revenge. You are so predictable. If you want to go another round, bring it. You’re not the only god who can be petty.”
“I will not be bringing it, nor anything else!” Juno shouted. “I quit! I will no longer act as quest-giver! I will no longer carry the mental load of managing the lives of seven insufferable teens! I am tired of my sacrifices going unappreciated. No longer will I be taken for granted, not by you, nor by my husband, nor by any other god!”
Nico paused for a second.
“Wait, what does that mean?” He asked. “You’re… Quitting?”
“It means that you are now responsible for the success or failure of these demigods,” she said. “You will lead them to victory in the Gigantomachy. Or you won’t. Either way, I’ll be fine. Hebe and I will be in Turks and Caicos. If the pantheon falls, on your head be it.”
“You’ve lost your mind,” Nico said, bluntly refusing to accept the new responsibility. “I can’t do that. I’m not qualified, and I’ve got my own stuff to deal with. If you don’t want to lead them anymore, find somebody else!”
“Too late,” she said, picking up her purse. “I made the post announcing it before we left New Rome, and the yoga retreat is already booked. If you need anything, feel free to call me, text me, page me,” she smirked. “I’ll take great delight in ignoring you.”
“Wait!” Nico called out. She was already gone. “She didn’t even to pay the check,” he said weakly, sitting back down.
“To be fair, she seems like she needs a vacation.” Leo asked.
“Who the hell are you?” Nico said, staring at him without a shred of recognition.
“This is going to be interesting,” Annabeth said, resting her elbows on the table. She looked more amused than concerned by the new turn of events. If Jason had to venture a guess, he’d say that she trusted Nico a lot more than she did Juno-- Or more likely, she thought she’d have more freedom to do things her way with him in charge.
Jason stood up from the table and walked quickly to the bathroom. With Juno gone, there was no tension to hold him in place any longer. He walked into a stall and threw up until there was nothing left in his stomach.
He rinsed his face in cold water from the sink, avoiding looking at his own reflection in the mirror. His face looked too much like his mother’s.
“Jason?”
He nearly jumped out of his skin. Percy had walked into the bathroom and saw him staring at the bottom of the sink for thirty seconds straight.
“Sorry to bust in on you,” Percy said, looking slightly embarrassed to catch Jason in an awkward moment. He went over to the urinal and used it as quickly as possibly, trying to get in and out without disturbing Jason further. When he was washing his hands, Jason caught his eye in the mirror.
Maybe it was the fact that they’d both had their asses handed to them by a fourteen year old girl earlier that day, but Jason felt like there was a bond of camaraderie between them that they hadn’t had before. And he knew that if anyone could understand his situation, it was Percy.
“Can you do me a favor?” Jason asked.
“Sure,” Percy said kindly. “What do you need?”
“Can you give me a reason I should go back out there?”
Percy’s eyes creased with sympathy. He did understand.
“You can’t live in an Olive Garden bathroom, man. They don’t serve endless soup, salad and breadsticks in here. I guess they might if you tipped well, but it’s probably a health code violation.”
Jason gripped the porcelain edge of the sink.
“Please,” he said, his voice strained.
“No more jokes,” Percy said, seeing that his attempt at levity hadn’t helped. “Okay. Well, how about this. Those kids out there? They’re not that much younger than us, but this is their first war and our second. They need us veterans to help them through. And yeah, older heroes like us are usually the ones who don’t make it home. But if you’re anything like me, you’ve made peace with that already.”
Jason thought of that day when he’d nearly crossed over. He’d seen Juno’s true form and had possibly, maybe, seen a brief vision of the Underworld. Unless that had all been in his head.
Death hadn’t been a trip to Disney World, but it hadn’t sucked. He was sort of okay with the idea of it now that he knew what to expect.
“I’m not afraid of dying,” he admitted. “I’m afraid I’m living the wrong way.”
“Living for your friends is definitely the right way,” Percy said confidently.
Jason envied him his bone-deep loyalty. Percy had his North star; he had Annabeth. He knew what he wanted in life, and what he owed to who, and why.
Jason had nothing. Literally nothing. Less than zero. Percy couldn’t understand.
“Thank you,” Jason said, a liar to the core. He followed Percy back out to the table.
He hadn’t ordered any food. He was too nauseous to look at the basket of glistening rubbery dough rods and the bowls of greasy soup.
“So what was the Great Depression like?” Leo was asking Hazel. “Was it depressing?” He laughed at his own joke, glancing at Jason out of the corner of his eye. Usually Jason gave him a pity laugh. Sometimes he even managed a sincere one. Today, he had nothing left in the tank.
“It really was,” Hazel said with a smile. There was a strange expression on her face when she looked at Leo, like she was fond of him, even though they barely knew each other.
“Frank, how are your injuries?” Leo asked.
“A couple of cracked ribs and a concussion. Nothing ambrosia couldn’t fix,” Frank shrugged. “Light work.” He brought his soup bowl to his lips and drank his entire serving in one gulp. “Is minestrone supposed to be served lukewarm?”
“This place is the tenth level of hell,” Nico muttered, glancing up from where he’d been banging his head on the table. As miserable as Jason felt, he had to admit that Nico looked rough. Hera’s announcement had obviously thrown him for a loop, and he wasn’t bearing his new responsibilities with grace.
“Uh, Nico?” Piper asked, observing that he was taking a break from moping and seeing an opportunity. Nico had summoned some ambrosia squares for himself to eat, and was picking at them anxiously.
“Yes, Pepper?” He asked, squishing a golden square under his thumb. None of the crappy pasta had tempted Jason, but the ambrosia looked delicious even when it was being disrespected. The squares looked like little solid gold raviolis. To Jason, they’d taste like a hot fudge sundae from an ice cream shop in New Rome that had shut down over a decade ago. When he was a kid, he’d sometimes looked forward to getting injured in training, since it meant he’d get to taste a piece of ambrosia.
“It’s Piper,” Piper corrected. “I have a question about the resurrection you did for Hazel. Is that something you can do whenever, or…”
“I have someone I’d like to nominate,” Leo interjected loudly.
“I won’t be resurrecting anyone else,” Nico said. “Hazel was a unique situation.”
“My mom is unique,” Leo said. “She’s worthy of an exception. I swear if you met her, you’d know.”
“I was asking in case another one of us dies in the war,” Piper said. “I was hoping maybe they could come back like she did. I guess not, though.”
Jason could see her trying not to look at him, but he knew exactly what was on her mind. He’d be a tempting target for the giants, who would know his reputation from the last war. But after his embarrassing performance in the tournament, Piper was right to worry that he wouldn’t be able to handle himself. He’d be worried too, if he cared whether he lived or died. Which, at the moment, he didn’t.
“Right,” Leo muttered. “I guess my mom will just stay dead, then. Great. Awesome. Love that for me.”
“At least you got to see her at Parentalia,” Piper said, trying to comfort him.
Leo sighed, staring down at his lasagna.
“I saw her shade,” he said. “But it wasn’t the same.”
Nico laughed softly into his ambrosia ravioli.
“Wow. Is my pain funny to you?” Leo asked, lashing out with biting tone that was unusual for him.
“Don’t speak to him like that!” Hazel snapped. “Show some respect!”
“It’s okay, Haze,” Nico said. He looked amused, and his smile, when he graced Leo with it, radiated an inhuman kindness and warmth that seemed to throw Leo into an error mode. “I get it. I’m the same way about my mom.”
Nico took Frank’s soup bowl, which had already been refilled three times, and slid it in front of Leo. He dipped a fingertip into the minestrone, and the surface of the liquid turned into an image.
It showed a very short Latina woman with grease stains on her cheeks and a welding mask pushed back on her head. She was fiddling with somethihg and had a big, stupid grin on her face.
Leo’s face lit up with a smile.
“That’s my mom,” he said, staring at her image lovingly.
“That’s her workshop in Elysium,” Nico said. “I guess she makes cars or something?”
“Motorcycles,” Leo said, his face an inch from the soup, inspecting the scene. “That’s a Kawasaki W800 engine. Unless she’s repurposing it for something. That could be interesting,” he said, scratching his chin.
“She can do whatever she wants. She can make a rocket ship if she feels like it.”
Leo sighed, and sat back up straight.
“Yeah, yeah. I get your point. She doesn’t want to come back to this screwed up world. I’m being selfish and making an ass of myself, as usual.”
“No, that wasn’t my point,” Nico said. “Look next to her. What do you see?”
Leo squinted.
“A chair? And an apron. Oh, shit. It has my name on it!”
“Yeah,” Nico said, “It does. She’s waiting on you to join her.”
Leo’s face flipped back and forth between joy and sadness, one after another.
“See, you’re looking at it backwards,” Nico said. “You’re thinking about how you can get her back to the world of the living. You should be thinking about earning a spot next to her, in Elysium. Because you’re destined to die, but not everybody gets to go first class.”
“He’s right,” Hazel echoed. “I should know. Asphodel was okay, but for my second death, I’m doing everything in my power to get the upgrade. It’s worth it. Please take my word on that.”
The other demigods seemed energized by this reminder. Elysium and the Fields of Asphodel were concepts they’d heard about, but the shape of existence after death wasn’t something people discussed in depth very often. Hazel and Nico were experts.
“I don’t care,” Percy said, slurping up spaghetti. “I’ve decided to be reborn. Like Luke was.”
Annabeth made a strained choking sound. He looked at her with concern.
“Got some marinara down the wrong pipe,” she said, coughing. “All good.”
Nico and Hazel both shared an amused look, although Jason had no idea why. He wasn’t interested in the talk about Elysium. Asphodel sounded fine, he didn’t care, he just wanted to lay down. It was like he’d been tired for a decade and had only just now felt the exhaustion hit him. There was no more fuel in his tank left to burn.
“Speaking of the afterlife,” Annabeth said, seeming eager to change the subject. “Assuming we defeat Gaea, does that mean Hazel will be deified afterward?”
“Do I have a choice?” Hazel asked.
“Jupiter won’t deify you,” Nico reassured her. “He doesn’t want any more Cthonic gods to be born. He offered that prize because he assumed Jason was going to win. Now he’ll deny that he ever said it.”
Jason’s breath caught in his throat. His father had wanted to deify him? What did that mean? Was it possible that Jupiter cared about him more than he’d realized?
“I thought that might be the case. Juno didn’t even bring it up,” Annabeth said. “That’s such a waste. I understand that he’s prejudiced against Percy and Hazel, but there are other demigods-- even other normal humans-- who might be deserving of that honor.”
“I agree,” Hazel said. “Nico, can you ask him if he’ll consider giving the deification to someone else?”
Nico took out his phone and dialed a number.
“Is he really going to pick up?” Annabeth asked “I thought he hated you.”.
“Normally he wouldn’t,” Nico said. “But since I’m in charge of you guys, he might have to.” He handed the phone to Hazel, giving her a supportive nod. “The odds are better if the request comes from you.”
Hazel held the phone to her ear.
“What?” Jupiter barked. “Haven’t you caused enough trouble? Why are you bothering me?” He spoke so loudly that his booming intonations rattled the glassware on the table, even through the phone.
Hazel held her hand over her heart, which was probably pounding like crazy, and took a deep breath. She looked at Nico and seemed to gain new resolve.
“Lord Jupiter,” she said softly. She leaned hard on her accent, using every ounce of Southern charm she had. It wasn’t as powerful as Piper’s Charmspeak, but it was close. “It’s me. Hazel Levesque. We met once in Crete. I’m sincerely sorry to trouble you, sir, I know you’re very busy. I have a teeny, tiny request to make of you.”
“Oh,” Jupiter responded with surprise. “It’s you. Is Nico in some way harmed or incapacitated?” He asked hopefully.
“No, he’s not. I have to ask-- In fact, I must beg you for a favor,” she said, “I hope you can find it in your gracious and forgiving nature to hear me out. Lord Apollo said that a deification was offered to the one who led the Seven to victory in the war.”
“I never said that,” Jupiter said immediately. “Apollo made that up.”
“Told you,” Nico said quietly.
“I understand,” Hazel said. “Now, I won the tournament, but I felt that I was undeserving of such a great honor, so I suppose that’s just as well. I was going to ask you to take me out of consideration and choose one of my six questmates, instead. But since you never said it, I guess it doesn’t matter.”
Whatever Jupiter said, it was said too quietly to hear, but Hazel started thanking him profusely and promising to make copious sacrifices to him for the rest of her life.
“Guess there’s going to be a new god,” Annabeth said. She spoke calmly, but her eyes were bright, and she was trying not to smile.
Piper reached out and squeezed Jason’s arm. She was trying to get him to look at her, but he just stared straight ahead. To him, this development merely made everything more complicated. He wasn’t in a place where he could handle complicated.
Hazel gave Nico his phone back.
“He said he’ll evaluate our performance in the war and choose the winner himself. But he won’t tolerate another refusal like Percy. Anyone who wants to be considered has to make a sacrifice to him in his temple tonight.”
“Great! Then I know exactly where I won’t be tonight,” Percy said.
No one else said anything. Everyone had too much on their mind to speak.
An alarm went off on Nico’s phone.
“Shit. I have a staff meeting. I have to run,” he said, standing up.
“Wait, can we talk about this god thing? Please?” Annabeth asked suddenly. “We only have until tonight to decide!”
“Annabeth!” Percy exclaimed in surprise. “Are you considering it?”
“I don’t know. But I want all possible information before I decide,” she said, twisting one of her braids with nervous energy. “Can’t you be in two places at once?” She asked Nico anxiously.
“Sure, but that doesn’t mean I have to be,” Nico said. “You clearly want to go for it. Just do it. You don’t need my help,” he said. He gave her a thumbs up and disappeared.
Annabeth sat back down. The seven heroes sat in silence for a moment, contemplating what had just transpired.
“He didn’t pay the check, either,” Frank said, his mouth full of bread sticks.
“I’ll get it,” Hazel sighed, pulling out her wallet. “I’m the leader.”
“And he gave you, like, a million dollars,” Frank snorted.
“Seriously?” Leo asked.
“I don’t need his money. I can turn stuff into gold,” Hazel said. “But he did give me some cash for emergencies.”
“No wonder you worship him,” Leo said. “In that case, we’re taking a limo back to camp. You might think I’m kidding, but I’m not.”
“Sounds fun. I’m in,” Piper added, sharing an excited look with Leo.
Taking a limo for no reason was the kind of harmless tomfoolery Jason would have normally enjoyed. He never came up with goofy ideas on his own, but his time at Camp Half-Blood with his friends had helped him to relax and learn to have fun, even when it didn’t serve the mission. At the moment, though, he wasn’t in the mood to go along with it. He just wanted some time to himself to think.
They did end up taking a limo to camp, and the seven heroes were able to spread out on the faux-leather seats. Nobody talked much. The tournament had been enough excitement for one day, but now there was the question of potential godhood on everyone’s minds. Piper and Leo sat on either side of Jason protectively, but he could tell they were more focused on the big decision they had to make in a few hours than they were on his emotional state.
It was dark when they got back to camp.
“It’s nine,” Hazel said. “How about we meet on Temple Hill at eleven and get set up, and we’ll make the offerings to Jupiter at midnight? I’ll have enough animals for everybody.”
“Understood,” Annabeth said. “Thank you, Hazel.”
Hazel nodded, and she and Frank left.
“Two hours to make the biggest decision of our lives,” Piper said. “Jason, how about we go to your place and talk it through?”
“I think I just want to be alone,” Jason said.
“I’m not sure that’s a good idea,” Leo said worriedly. “I’ve never seen you like this before.”
True friends, Leo and Piper went with Jason back to his apartment and sat on his couch while he got cleaned up. He still had mud all over his legs from the arena.
He got in the shower, where he ended up sitting on the floor, crying as quietly as he could manage. He ran out of hot water, but he barely noticed.
He wasn’t crying solely because of his mom. He didn’t remember her. They didn’t have a relationship. She’d abandoned him, and he’d both resented her and had compassion for her at various times in his life. It was complicated.
In spite of his rough start, though, he’d made something good out of his experiences. He’d built up relationships and a reputation and a career that he was proud of. He mattered to Camp Jupiter; he was needed and important. At Camp Half-Blood, he’d learned about a different way of doing things and a different side of himself. He was being challenged to grow, and he liked that. He was doing pretty okay at age nineteen, all things considered.
So why did it suddenly feel like there was an empty, jagged hole in the center of his chest? It was as if he’d stuffed his ribs full of cotton candy and told himself he was whole. His mom had thrown cold water on him and melted his excuses away.
He didn’t know what to do about it, but the feelings were paralyzing. He’d always struggled with decision making, but normally there were other people involved that could weight in. This problem was so personal that he couldn’t even articulate it. He hadn’t been trained for this, and he was floundering.
“Jason? It’s ten thirty,” Leo called out from the doorway. “We need to get going.”
Jason didn’t glance up.
Leo opened the shower door and shut the water off, draping Jason’s bathrobe over his shoulders. He knelt down and tried to get Jason to look at him.
“You’re freaking me out,” Leo said. “Piper’s worried too. Please try to get dressed. We can talk about what happened on the way to Temple Hill.”
“Just go without me,” Jason said. He just wanted to rest. Why was everyone so insistent on dragging him out when that was the last thing he wanted to do? He wished he’d claimed to have the flu or something that would have let him off the hook. Camp Jupiter had no mercy for sick days, but Piper and Leo were Greeks. They should have been okay with letting him go to bed early.
“We’re not going anywhere without you,” Piper said from the doorway. “You’re the one most likely to win godhood. I know the timing is terrible, but as your girlfriend, I can’t let you miss it. You’ll regret it forever if you don’t try.”
Jason wouldn’t regret it. He’d been a little curious about godhood, especially during the first war when it had seemed like a possible endgame for him. But he’d never felt strongly about it. He didn’t know what it would entail. None of them did. It was hard to want something that was a giant question mark. Jason had enough difficulty wanting things when he knew what they were. He usually wanted whatever he was told he was supposed to want.
Leo and Piper were able to convince him to get dressed and put a coat on, but Jason hated himself even more for going along with it. He had never wanted to make a sacrifice to his father less. Why was he so easily led? A little nagging was all it took for him to throw his own needs out the window and go back into the frigid night air.
They walked over to Temple Hill together, and Piper squeezed his hand the whole way there.
“After the sacrifice, we’ll have time to talk through what happened,” she said. “Would it help if we were able to get your sister on the phone?”
Thalia had never said anything that made Jason feel better. She’d only provided more context that made him feel like shit. It was better to know her than to not know her, but that was small comfort.
“She’s hard to get hold of,” he said.
“Having a sister has to be good for something,” Leo said. “Give her a chance, what’s the worst that can happen?”
“I don’t want to call her,” Jason said firmly. Leo didn’t look happy about it, but Jason felt better having stood his ground on something.
As they walked up the steps to Temple Hill, Piper rubbed his back reassuringly.
“I’m glad you agreed to do this,” she said. “I was worried I’d have to Charmspeak you up here.”
“You wouldn’t really do that,” Jason said, looking at her worriedly.
“You know I would never do it unless it was an emergency,” she said. “But isn’t this kind of an emergency? It’s a once in a lifetime opportunity.”
“I told you I didn’t want to do it,” Jason said.
“I hear you,” she nodded. “But you’re dealing with a lot of heavy feelings right now after seeing your mom. I can sense them. And I know that you’re not in a good headspace to be making decisions. It’s what I’d want you to do for me in your place.”
“Sacrificing and putting myself into consideration is a decision, Piper,” Jason said, slowing his walking speed.
“We’re doing this together as a team,” Leo said. “For all we know, Nico might show up and say it’s mandatory, so we’d better just get it over with.”
“Right,” Piper said. “Agreed. We do it as a team. And I didn’t Charmspeak you, so don’t worry about it.”
The ‘team activity’ excuse was a smokescreen for the fact that pursuing godhood was entirely self-centered, no matter how you looked at it. Jason wondered if Piper liked the idea of a godly boyfriend a little too much. He wondered a lot of things, but he kept putting one foot in front of the other, following his friends. He genuinely didn’t know what else to do.
As they walked, the massive temple of Jupiter loomed closer and closer, glowing with hundreds of torches and candles even in the dead of night. With each step, the open doorway became all that Jason could see, like a jaw opened wide, ready to devour him. Everything in his body was screaming at him to go home, to go back to bed, to take an Ambien and forget today ever happened.
Percy and Annabeth were standing on the steps outside the temple, speaking to each other in low voices. They weren’t arguing, exactly, but they didn’t appear to be in agreement, either.
“I don’t know, Percy, I’m still evaluating my options,” Annabeth said. “Oh, hey, you guys!”
“Hi, Annabeth, hi Percy,” Piper asked. “You guys good?”
“Yeah, go on in, we’re just talking,” Annabeth said.
Piper and Leo climbed the steps. Jason lingered behind.
“How are you doing?” Percy asked.
“Not great,” Jason admitted. He turned to look at Percy and Annabeth. “I’m not sure I want to do this. But Piper thinks I’ll regret it forever if I don’t try. And Leo wants to do it as a team.”
“I don’t agree with that,” Percy said. “Jupiter is your dad, and it’s his decision who becomes a god. If you make yourself an option to him, you’re the most likely to win. It’s a different situation for you than it is for them.”
“Yeah,” Jason said. “That’s true.”
“Trust your instincts,” Annabeth said.
“Is that what you’re doing?” Jason asked.
Annabeth looked down at her sneakers, then back at Percy.
“I need a little more time to figure out what my instincts are telling me.”
Percy shook his head, appearing frustrated with her, but he said nothing.
Jason went inside. Hazel and Frank were standing at the altar, and beside them were six small black goats. The goats were snoring, sound asleep on the marble floor of the temple.
The statue of Jupiter stared down at them ominously. He was flanked by his wife, Juno, and his daughter, Minerva. While Jason stood in the doorway hesitating, Annabeth walked past him and knelt in front of her mother’s altar, speaking an inaudible prayer, probably for wisdom. It was reassuring to see that Jason wasn’t the only one torn on what to do.
As she prayed, Percy stood next to Jason.
“She’s going to do it,” Percy said. “She’s ambitious. I love that about her, but it means she’ll almost never say no when stuff like this comes up.”
“Does it bother you that she’s competing for godhood when you turned it down?” Jason asked.
“That was a long time ago,” Percy admitted. “If I knew then what I knew now… I don’t know. I’m not sure what I got in exchange was worth it.”
Percy had insisted the gods acknowledge their children before a certain age and had asked that minor gods be given cabins and their due respect. Camp Jupiter operated differently from Camp Half Blood, so it was less relevant to them, but he’d heard that execution of Percy’s new rules had been inconsistent, and his request had been met with resentment from Poseidon. Now, Percy didn’t have a godly patron, and he probably never would. Triton’s distaste for him had made that abundantly clear.
“But you seem happy,” Jason pointed out.
“As happy as a demigod can be,” Percy shrugged, bending down to tie his shoelace.
While Percy wasn’t looking, Jason saw a shimmer of silver light pass over Annabeth’s entire body. She opened her eyes and stared straight up at the statue of her mother, who was staring back at her. Her eyes reflected back silver light.
Whatever wisdom she’d asked for, she’d gotten. When she walked back over to Percy, she seemed cool and collected.
“Everyone, if you want to pray to your godly parent, now or afterward, I’d recommend it,” Hazel said. She’d seen what had happened with Annabeth, too. “Is everyone but Percy sacrificing?”
They all nodded, with the exception of Jason. He didn’t know why he thought nodding mattered. Everyone assumed things about him. He was just a straight white guy with the personality of cream cheese. He was nothing special, yet for some reason, he was the one everyone thought should be in charge. He was competent, but that didn’t take away the reality that the bar was always lowered for him. It was like no one wanted to risk seeing him not be able to jump over it.
Maybe they were scared that if someone like him faltered, nobody else would be able to do it. Maybe that was why today was hitting him so hard. Everyone at Camp had seen him fall. They would be waiting to see him get back up again stronger. And he wasn’t sure he wanted to.
While he was standing there thinking it over, life moved on without him. That happened a lot. Hazel pointed everyone toward the sleepy goat pile, and each of them picked one and pulled it away from the others.
“Hazel, you’re close with your brother, right?” Piper asked, nervous tension in her voice. “How long has he been a god?”
“Two or three years,” Hazel said.
“Is he happier now than he was as a mortal?”
Hazel looked at Percy, who was the one who’d known him best at the time.
“Tough question,” Percy said. “He can’t stand me, so he’s not really happy when I’m around. My results might be skewed.”
“Try not to get a god to hate you challenge, failed,” Leo said.
“He was really hyper and ADHD as a kid. That part is gone.”
“So we’ll be neurotypical? Terrifying,” Leo shuddered.
“My brother is happy,” Hazel said. “As a mortal, he lost his mom and sister, the two people he was closest to. Now, he has parents and a dog and a kitten and a boyfriend. And none of them will ever--”
“Boyfriend?” Jason blurted out loud.
Everyone turned and looked at him.
“Die,” Hazel said, finishing her sentence. “He’s seeing someone. I guess I don’t know if they’re official. Is that a problem?”
“Jason is not homophobic,” Piper insisted fervently. “Right, Jason?”
His mouth went dry. What was the matter with him? Nico di Angelo had broken his brain.
“Let’s move on,” Hazel said awkwardly. “Can we get started? I wrote some suggestions for prayers in case some of you don’t pray often,” she said, handing Post-It notes to everyone. “I heard it’s not as common at Camp Half-Blood.”
“Yeah, we’re not big on enforced piety,” Percy said, looking at the altars skeptically. “Other than offerings at meals, we don’t have time to be super religious. Too busy dying.”
With prayers in their hands, everything started to feel real. Frank picked up one of the sleeping goats and carried it over to the altar, setting it on the marble slab in front of Jupiter’s statue. The offering bowl had been moved to the floor.
“I’ll go first,” he said.
Everyone watched as he sliced open the goat’s neck. Hot, red blood poured across the marble, running down a channel and draining into the bowl. Frank spoke the words of Hazel’s prayer smoothly and straightforwardly.
Leo went next. His goat woke up halfway to the altar, and it started struggling as soon as it was laid out on the stone, still warm and wet with the previous goat’s blood. Leo had to pin it with his elbow, and made one sharp and precise stab wound in the neck to kill it. When he stuttered his way through his prayer, he was a bloody mess.
Jason had been raised to believe in omens and auguries, and Leo’s chances in the deification competition were not looking good. His father, Hephaestus, wasn’t favored on Olympus, so maybe it had been naive to think that Leo would ever get a fair chance.
Piper didn’t have Leo’s problem. Everyone adored Aphrodite, and Jupiter had no reason not to want another beautiful goddess on Olympus. It would be totally on brand for him to deify Piper just to hit on her. Her prayer was spoken beautifully, and she thanked the goat for its life when she killed it, gently stroking its fur as she made the killing stroke with Katoptris. Somehow she’d even managed to get the cutest goat.
Annabeth went next. Percy watched from the side, silently supporting her, his face full of conflicted emotion. Surely he was worrying she’d be chosen, and questioning whether they would be able to stay together afterward. Jason had a ton of respect for Percy’s ability to remain a supportive partner, even on a matter they didn’t agree on.
Then it was Jason’s turn. He picked up his goat and walked it over to the altar. When he got there, he stood, paralyzed with indecision. As usual.
He heard the whispers.
“Do you need a minute?” Hazel asked him. He nodded.
“Guys? Jason needs to talk to his dad alone,” Hazel said. “Can you wait outside?”
She lingered after the others left. Jason was staring at his Post-It note prayer, unable to say the words aloud. He felt Hazel gently tug at his sleeve, and he turned and followed her when she beckoned him away from the altar.
She led him to the back of the temple, to a small room behind Octavian’s office where the scattered components of magical amulets lay.
“This is where I work,” she said. She sat on the edge of the table. “So, it looks like you don’t want to go through with the sacrifice.”
“No. But everyone else--”
“If you do it, he’ll probably choose you,” she said.
He nodded, staring at the floor.
“I heard what your mom said back in the arena,” she said. “I never got the chance to apologize. I don’t regret it giving it everything I had, but I’m sorry the impact on you was so intense. If you’re angry with me, I get it.”
“It’s not your fault,” Jason said. “I should have spoken to her at Parentalia. I tried to run from my issues and they caught up with me.” He spoke bluntly, trying to mask the emotion underneath, but it was there, festering and choking him.
“If you don’t make the sacrifice tonight, you’ll die,” she said. “And I feel like I have to tell you, even though I don’t want to. You’re not destined to live a long life. Does that change your decision?”
Jason shook his head. To think otherwise would have been naive, with his lifestyle. It hurt to hear his fate spoken aloud, but it didn’t make him suddenly start craving eternal life. It helped that she hadn’t been specific about how much time he had left. He wasn’t panicking. Death could still be years away.
“I’ll cover for you,” she said. “You can go. We don’t have to tell them you opted out.”
“That’s nice of you.” He hesitated while she stared at him. He could tell that he was confusing her, just like he was confusing everyone else. Hazel was easier to talk to than his friends, though. She wasn’t emotionally invested in his issues, and she was a good listener.
“You said you don’t want to do it,” she suggested. “Are you still considering?”
“I have a feeling that if I don’t do it, I’ll be burning a bridge with my father,” he admitted. “And Juno will come back eventually. She might not be happy with me, either.”
To his surprise, Hazel smiled with delight.
“Build a new bridge,” she said. “Find a new patron. I happen to know one with skin in this game.”
She meant Nico, the newbie god that Jason found terrifying and alluring and annoying all at once. Asking him for help felt crazy. But maybe it was crazier to think he could fight a war against giants with no divine aid. He wasn’t sure what the right path was, but he was going into this war mentally weaker than he’d ever been. That wasn’t fair to his comrades. He owed it to them to find a way to make up for his deficits.
“It won’t hurt to talk to him,” Hazel suggested. She went back into the temple and grabbed his goat, handing it to him. “Give him this. I used to maintain an altar to him in the woods, but I moved it inside Pluto’s temple recently. It’s the gold plate on the floor in front of his parents.”
Jason took the goat and walked over to the temple of Pluto, leaving through the back entrance so that the others wouldn’t see him go.
Oppressive darkness loomed from the moment he crossed the threshold of the Cthonic sanctuary. Parentalia was over, and the temple stank of a week’s worth of incense, rotting food, and old blood. The offerings and sacrifices had looked great when they were fresh, but Jason suspected that someone would be there with a mop the next morning, erasing all evidence of the festival for the dead.
The massive pile of money that had sat in the center of the floor the night before was now reduced to the usual gleaming pile of gold and gems that littered the altar area. The great statue of Pluto loomed overhead ominously, but Jason paid it little attention. He wasn’t there to see him.
Jason held his goat and knelt in front of the altar to Pluto and Proserpina. On the floor in front of the black granite edifice, there was a small gold plate with a pack of cigarettes sitting on it. One cigarette had been lit and left to burn like a stick of incense.
Jason sat and watched the smoke rise. He could feel the goat’s heartbeat in his arms. It felt so warm and alive, totally the opposite of the cold and silent temple. The goat may have been asleep, but he still hated that it would spend his last moments in such a desolate place.
Why was he doing this? Nico was a jerk. He’d been cruel to Jason for no reason. It was a testament to how pathetically lost he was that he was considering this sacrifice. He’d finally worked up the courage to stand up for himself and defy his father, to make his own choice-- and the second someone suggested a new deity to serve, he’d obeyed. Why was he so afraid of making his own decisions? Why did he so desperately want to be told what to do?
He set the goat to one side.
“I came here to ask you to help me,” Jason said. “I changed my mind. I don’t know what I’m going to do, but I won’t beg you to save me.” He dug the red ruby from his pocket and dropped it on the gold plate. “You sabotaged me. I can’t trust you. I’ll find my own way.”
He felt a budding sense of satisfaction after making his decision. He stood up, and felt like he was able to stand a little taller.
He’d spent most of his life serving Juno and hoping to win his father’s favor. Their affection had been brittle, their presence vague. Somehow, the scarcity made him want it more. But his sense of purpose had been built on foundations of sand. He was a young adult now, and it was time for him to redefine what it meant to be Jason Grace. He didn’t know how much time he had left, but he needed to spend it fighting for himself and his friends, not for gods that made him feel like he was disposable.
Regardless of how he felt about Nico, he needed to put him out of his mind. He had to tell his friends about his decision, be honest with them and with himself. Together, they would face the future, and he would be okay.
He walked toward the doorway. Before he reached the threshold, the great bronze doors slammed shut right in his face.
“Okay, I admit, I’m curious,” said an all-too familiar voice. A wispy, shadowed figure emerged from the darkness. The room seemed to grow colder with each step he took toward Jason. “What was it your mom said that triggered all this?”
Jason had every word she’d spoken memorized.
“I’m sorry. You’re being punished for my mistakes. I sold you to buy myself time. It’s my greatest regret. Be free, Jason,” he recited, seeing his mother’s shade in his mind’s eye.
It had reframed everything to hear that. Serving the gods was no honor when it was forced upon you. He knew that, but it was difficult to admit to himself that he’d been essentially brainwashed into becoming a perfect soldier from the age of two. It was even more difficult to realize he wanted to break free when he had no framework for how to actually do that.
Nico tsked.
“Wow. That’s a lot. But you do realize that I’m your patron for as long as I’m leading this quest? I have to help you whether you ask for it or not. And you have to fight for me whether you like it or not. If we don’t, Gaea wins.”
“Maybe I don’t care. Maybe I’ll refuse to fight for you,” Jason suggested. The words came unbidden, and he was surprised he’d dared to say it. Nico made him nervous and irritated and… Other things. It made him say things he wouldn’t normally say.
Nico smiled, amused.
“Go ahead,” Nico said. “Maybe Juno will panic and take over again. I’m still hoping she’s just bluffing. I don’t know how to lead a quest. There’s no handbook for this stuff.”
Nico’s admission of his own incompetence made Jason feel a bit more at ease with him.
“You really are new to being a god,” Jason observed. “Normally they pretend to know everything.”
“I could try, but I wouldn’t fool anybody,” Nico said. He glanced at the golden plate and levitated the ruby into the air, looking it over.
“Sorry about this thing, by the way,” he said. The ruby dissolved into dust and disappeared as it sprinkled to the floor. “Your curse is broken.”
“I knew it,” Jason said. “You did curse me. Why? I never did anything to offend you.”
“I was trying to get revenge on Juno for something she did to me. I knew I could get to her through you,” Nico said. “I got what I wanted. Be careful what you wish for, I guess.”
“I didn’t know gods apologized,” Jason said.
“Most don’t,” Nico said. “You’re not what I thought a son of Jupiter would be like.”
“You’re exactly what I’d expect a son of Pluto to be like,” Jason said. “Mostly.”
“I’ll choose to take that as a compliment,” Nico said. “Even though I don’t think that’s what you meant. Do you want to go for a drive? I’m trying to kill time before I go home tonight.”
Nico held out his hand.
Jason was reaching back for it before he could think better of it.
The next thing he knew, they were in a parking lot staring at the sexiest car he’d ever seen.
“Is that a--”
“A Ferrari Enzo? Yeah! Isn’t she great?” Nico said excitedly. He rattled off some of the car’s stats, and Jason listened reverently, walking all around the car to see its unique design.
Jason touched the door handle gingerly. He had to jump back when it opened vertically.
“Hop in,” Nico said, climbing into the driver’s seat.
Jason had never experienced anything like driving with Nico. There were no speed limits, no road barriers, no laws of physics that mattered anymore. In the space of a millisecond, Nico transported them to the Pacific Coast Highway, and suddenly they were moving at what felt like the speed of light.
Nico managed hairpin turns and extreme speeds with reflexes that were far beyond human capability. Even more insanely, he expected Jason to be able to hold a conversation with him while doing 160 next to a sheer cliff.
“How many quests have you been on?” Nico asked casually.
Jason gripped the door handle, using all of his core muscles to stay upright as they veered around a curve. The back tires briefly lost contact with the road. Jason could fly, which one might think would have prepared him for extreme driving. But it was completely different when you weren’t the one in control.
“Maybe a dozen? I’d have to think about it. I’ve led six. The biggest was Mount Othrys.”
“Okay,” Nico said. “So, hypothetically, if one of those quests was being supervised by a god, what would you expect from them?”
“Ideally or realistically?”
“Both.”
“Realistically, a fifty-fifty ratio of answered to unanswered prayers, occasional visits for advice that’s more confusing than helpful, and magical tools and weapons. Those are usually the only things that reliably come through. We can’t get very far without them.” He caught his breath as they went way too fast around a curve and the car briefly flickered, reappearing a couple of feet to the right, back on the road. “Should I be talking? Is that distracting?”
“No, it’s fine. But it sounds like for a war of this scale and a group of this size, you’d need more help than normal, right?”
“Yes. Ideally, we’d all need custom magic weapons or tools, and the younger demigods will need extra individualized training. If we split up, we’ll need help communicating, since we don’t all have phones. Annabeth will probably plan everything, so I guess she can call you if she needs you. But if something happens to her, we’ll be screwed without you giving us big-picture information.”
“What about transportation? I can just shadow travel you wherever you need to go.”
Jason frowned.
“I’ve been doing this a long time. The stuff that happens on the journey is stuff that’s meant to happen. It all feeds into the end result. It’s like saying that flying from LA to DC is the same experience as road tripping across the US. It’s technically starting and ending at the same place, but the experiences are totally different.” He looked out the window and saw the scenery flying by in a blur. It was pitch dark outside, so he was more focused on the intense driving experience than the views. Then he realized that Nico could probably see in the dark.
“So, you didn’t like that the gods were hands-off on the old quests, but you don’t want me to be too hands on, either,” Nico said. “Tricky. I’ll ask some other gods about it later. Maybe there’s a reason they’re so distant.”
Jason was getting whiplash. Not from the driving-- well, a little bit from the driving-- but mostly from Nico. He’d never imagined a god could come across so casually. He’d never had a conversation like this with one of them. They usually spoke with some kind of muddling barrier between them and the demigod. It could be a dream or a vague riddle or a gift with a note. The notes were never long, either. It was like they had a custody agreement where they could only be truly present with their kids for two minutes a year, maximum.
For a pantheon where the gods had demonstrably similar feelings, desires and motivations to humans, they seemed to deliberately avoid finding common ground with them. Nico had obviously not received the same instruction, if he was confused about the gods’ distant behavior, too.
Nico found a parking lot that overlooked the ocean, with a view of the moon, bright and full and shining overhead. For a moment they both stared out at the stars in silence.
“Can I ask you something?” Jason asked. It was deafeningly quiet when the engine wasn’t running. “If Annabeth was the one chosen to be a god--”
“I wish!” Nico said. “She’s my favorite.”
“If she was chosen, could she and Percy stay together?”
Nico nodded.
“Gods have relationships with mortals all the time. Obviously,” he said, pointing at both himself and at Jason. Again, Jason was flabbergasted at how much Nico seemed to be treating him as an equal. It felt wrong. It also felt really, insanely good.
“It never seems to last, though,” Jason said.
“No,” Nico said. “But mortal relationships have to end sometime, too. That’s just life.”
“Yeah,” Jason agreed. “I guess you would know,” he added. Nico was a death god. He was sitting in a three million dollar car, talking about life with a death god. It was such an unexpectedly pleasant way to end the night that Jason almost forgot he was in the middle of a breakdown. “That was really nice of you to show Leo that image of his mom, earlier.”
Nico smiled.
“I haven’t forgotten how it feels to lose someone. I hope I never do.” He checked his phone for the time and grimaced. “I can’t keep putting off talking to my dad. It’ll only make him madder.”
“I should probably get back, too,” Jason said. “We have a senate session at eight.”
In another rush of darkness, they traveled back to New Rome. They were on the road outside Jason’s apartment building.
“Can I park here?” Nico asked, looking around.
“No, definitely not,” Jason said. “There’s ‘no parking’ signs everywhere.”
“You’re the praetor,” Nico said, smirking at him wickedly. “Surely you can get me out of a parking ticket?”
“No, I--”
Nico was gone before Jason finished his sentence. His car was sitting in the middle of the road, and the key was not in the ignition.
“I don’t care if he is a god with a fancy car,” Jason said to himself. “He’s getting towed.”
Chapter 71: Eat Your Young
Chapter Text
Nico returned to the Underworld. He needed to talk to his father about Hazel, the tournament, and most of all, the Seven and their quest to defeat Gaea.
He hadn’t interacted with his father at the staff meeting earlier that day. Hades had given his usual monotonous explanation of the numbers for the week, pointing out all of the goals they weren’t meeting. He’d never even glanced at Nico.
In contrast, Persephone sought Nico out immediately after the presentation. She let him talk her ear off about Juno’s unexpected departure and his feelings of inadequacy. The Herculean task of leading seven demigods to war was terrifyingly important, and Nico didn’t think he was ready. Persephone had been sympathetic, but demigods and quests weren’t her area of expertise.
Of course, that didn’t stop her from giving well-meant, totally useless advice. She recommended some icebreaker activities and told him to implement a sticker-based system of rewards and punishments. He politely thanked her, but it was his dad that he really wanted to speak with.
But after the meeting, Hades disappeared, and Nico lacked the courage to track him down. Instead, he’d gone to see why Jason was talking to him in the Temple of Pluto. But now the time had come. He had to face his dad. He had a sinking feeling it wouldn’t be a pleasant conversation.
“It’s not your fault, Nico,” he muttered to himself as he stalked through the palace, checking behind every door for his missing progenitor. He was manifesting the type of conversation he hoped they might have in a few minutes. “You just got in a little over your head, that’s all. And yes, that does seem to happen to you a lot, but it’s all coincidence and totally not your fault even a little bit. I’ll fix it for you like a good father should.”
He peeked in his dad’s room and checked under the bed, but it was deserted. Hades had to be around somewhere; Nico could sense his presence looming over the palace like a thundercloud.
He checked the bathroom. He remembered the old days when he used to read to his dad; he still did sometimes. Why was Hades pulling a disappearing act when Nico needed him most? Hadn’t they moved past that?
He looked in Persephone’s room, as well as the one she and Hades shared, but he wasn’t there. Persephone was in her garden, and he didn’t want to drag her into the conversation, so he avoided that area. He went to his office, formerly known as the library, but it was empty too. He did notice one strange thing-- his laptop wasn’t on his desk where he’d left it.
He finally located his father in the kitchen. Hades was standing in front of the fireplace staring into the roaring flames. The skeletons that normally would have been working were huddled in a corner of the room, cowering in a heap of quivering bones.
“There you are,” Nico said. “Can we talk?”
“Certainly,” Hades said. “Just as soon as your computer is done burning.”
“What? You can’t do that!”
Nico ran up to the fireplace and snatched his laptop out of the flames. The edges of the plastic were just starting to melt.
“My hard drive is probably fried now. Is this my punishment for what happened?”
Hades chuckled with a sound like a death rattle. The skeletons chose that moment to make a mad dash for the exit. Nico probably should have gone with them.
“I asked you for two things,” Hades said, keeping his voice soft. “To keep your head down, and to oversee the Parentalia festival-- the festival that is supposed to honor Persephone and I. You tell me. Did you accomplish those things?”
“No, but--”
Hades held up a hand, a signal for Nico to stop speaking. Then he held his hand out in front of him.
“My phone?”
Nico handed him the phone he’d borrowed for the livestream. Instead of returning Nico’s phone to him in turn, Hades tossed it in the fireplace.
Nico snatched it out of the ashes before it burned up. When he turned back to his father, he was furious. He didn’t care that much about his work laptop, but messing with his phone was just not cool.
“I’ve heard enough of your excuses,” Hades said, facing Nico with a resigned expression. “Worse, I believed them. For a time. But your actions have made your intentions clear. It’s time I faced reality.”
Nico swallowed.
“What reality?”
Hades took a deep breath, like it pained him to say it aloud.
“You have taught your sister to worship you,” he said firmly. “You’re growing a cult for yourself at Camp Jupiter. You’re using your role as ambassador to make allies. And you’re amassing power. You have no intention-- And I don’t think you ever did have any intention-- Of becoming mortal again. You’re buying time to grow strong enough to escape imprisonment in Tartarus. You’re planning to defy me.”
Nico was speechless.
“Well? Am I on the right track? Don’t bother lying. I won’t fall for it.”
Hades stared at him with his infinitely dark eyes, waiting for Nico to speak up.
“It’s not… I don’t…” Nico wasn’t sure how to contradict his dad’s accusations. Was there any combination of words that could cut through the walls of distrust that now separated them?
“I understand why you might think that,” Nico admitted, attempting to be diplomatic, despite the fact that his dad’s words had felt like a knife to the gut. “I probably would too, if I were you.” He hoped that if he kept his cool, he could somehow convince his dad that he was wrong, but he was a hairs breadth away from going bananas. The accusations felt too unjust to bear.
Hades nodded. His assumptions were logical. If you took the facts and sprinkled them with a healthy dose of paranoia, you would come to the same conclusions he’d come to. Nico tried to hold space for that, although he had to grit his teeth so hard they nearly shattered.
“It’s not true, Papa,” Nico said. “I wouldn’t betray you. You’re partially right about one thing. I don’t want to become mortal again. I want to find another solution. But you’re forgetting that I’ve already explained that to you multiple times, and you refused to work with me. You won’t even try.”
“My refusal to offer you false hope is an act of kindness,” Hades said. “One you don’t appreciate.”
“I’m not ready to give up on my divinity,” Nico said. “But I don’t have an evil master plan to do anything about it, because I have random stuff happening to me all the time. I didn’t ask for Hazel to hijack Parentalia in my name. I definitely didn’t ask Juno to put me in charge of the Seven. I don’t have time to plot against you when I’m barely keeping my head above water.”
“I no longer trust you. You can’t expect me to believe that you’re not keeping secrets and working behind my back. I may not know what it is that you’re doing, but I can sense that there is much that you aren’t telling me.”
“Of course there is! I can’t fucking tell you anything because you always make it about you!” Nico said, losing his temper at last. His composure had gotten him nowhere, anyway. “You think the worst of me no matter how hard I try! If you don’t want to trust me anymore, fine, but you need to at least help me figure out how to lead the demigods to war. I don’t know what to do and I’m scared I’m going to mess everything up!
“You probably will,” Hades said coldly. “You never should have gotten yourself into this position in the first place. If you’d only done as you were told, it wouldn’t have happened.”
“See? I ask for help and all you can do is criticize me!” Nico shouted. “I don’t know why I bother talking to you at all. You’re just rooting for me to fail!”
“That isn’t true!” Hades said, black spouts of fire blooming on the walls and floors behind him, a sign he was beginning to lose control of his temper. “I’ve helped you! Often I’ve helped you more than you deserved, and you’ve never shown an ounce of gratitude! Sharper than a serpent’s tooth it is to have a thankless child!”
“I’m not thankless,” Nico said. “When the person helping me deserves to be thanked, I thank them. You don’t deserve it because you’re such a crappy father most of the time!”
“Crappy? Crappy?! How dare you!” Hades roared. “You have no idea how good you have it! I let you live here, I tolerate your entitled, bratty behavior, and all I ask in return is a little respect-- A word you don’t seem to know the meaning of!”
“Whatever!” Nico said. “I didn’t ask to be born! Maybe if you’d taught me better I’d be better! Maybe you don’t like me because I’m living proof that you’re a terrible parent!”
“You do not know the meaning of the word terrible,” Hades said, a note of warning in his voice.
“Yes I do!” At this point, he was too enraged to put any thought into what he was saying. “You’re a terrible father!” He shouted.
In a matter of seconds, Hades went from looming to overshadowing. His body increased in size until he towered over Nico, bent forward where his back was now pressed against the ceiling. He snatched Nico up in an enormous hand and pulled him up to his face, which was now the size of the front of a bus.
“How is this for terrible?” Hades shouted, shaking the walls and blasting Nico’s hair back. “How would you like it if I ate you here and now? Would you learn to appreciate me when I crunch your bones between my teeth?”
His teeth were now the size of cinder blocks. They could grind Nico into paste easily, and the wild light in Hades’ eyes made anything seem possible. An overwhelming, revolting wave of horror overcame Nico, overriding rational thought.
“Put me down!” Nico said, kicking his legs, doused in a cold wave of panic. “This isn’t funny!” He wondered if he’d finally driven his father insane. What if Hades had snapped and he really was about to eat him in order to teach him a lesson?
“Stop!” He cried out. “I’m sorry, okay? I didn’t mean what I said!”
“Sorry? Sorry! Another lie!” Hades roared.
“Papa, please,” Nico pleaded. “You’re scaring me!”
“Good!” Hades shouted.
Nico had desperately wanted to see his father go back to normal, but he couldn’t take it anymore. He slipped out of his father’s hands, dissolving into a wisp of smoke and trickling through his grasping fingers.
“Get back here!” Hades shouted when he saw Nico heading out the door.
“Oh my fucking god, go to therapy, you maniac!” Nico shouted as loudly as he possibly could. He slammed the door behind himself and disappeared.
He went to his house in Crete, only to find that Persephone had been playing interior decorator again, and there were family photos of the three of them everywhere. Really there were only four photos, but it still felt as if Hades was staring at him everywhere he looked. That was the last face he wanted to see at the moment.
His phone rang.
“I heard shouting,” Persephone said. “Is everything okay?”
“Not really. Dad just tried to eat me,” Nico said angrily.
There was silence on the other end of the line for a long moment.
“I’ll call you back,” Persephone said.
She never did call him back. He paced around his house, tried to watch TV, scrolled through Godstagram, but neither of his parents got in touch with him for the rest of the evening. Nico found himself staring at one of their family pictures that hung on the wall.
If you didn’t know better, you would think they were a normal family. A family that dressed weird, had a three headed dog, lived in a cave, and photographed extremely well. But otherwise, totally normal. At least Nico thought they looked normal, but he’d lost touch with what normal meant a long time ago.
For gods, their problems were mundane. They kept secrets from each other. His mom could be nosy and overbearing. His dad was controlling and had a temper. Nico was whiny when things didn’t go his way. They weren’t perfect, but they worked. When the three of them spent time together, it felt like they been a family forever.
If Nico became mortal, they’d try to make the best of it, but something would always be missing. Unfortunately, he didn’t have any other option. Hades was holding their happy family hostage. Until Nico was no longer a threat, Hades would be anxious and miserable. Sometimes he took that out on Nico, but even when he didn’t, his father’s emotions loomed over the family like a storm cloud.
“Nico?”
Persephone’s divine presence filled the room.
He went over to her. She led him to the couch and draped her arm around his shoulders. For a moment she just sat with him, which was more comforting that anything she could have said.
“Your father feels terrible about losing his temper with you,” she said.
“Why doesn’t he tell me that?” Nico said.
“He needs some time.”
“But—”
“I know it’s frustrating,” Persephone said. “It’s not your fault, but you need to be a little more self-aware. You’re so young, just a baby, really. You move so fast, and everything feels like it’s happening all at once-- It’s not like that for us. We have forever to figure things out, and we process things over spans of time you can’t comprehend yet. Your dad and I have had arguments that lasted longer than you’ve been alive. Expecting your dad to apologize in a matter of hours is asking the impossible.”
Nico almost responded immediately, but then he stopped and took a deep breath instead. Persephone smiled approvingly, seeing that he was trying to take in what she was saying.
“I’ll try to chill,” Nico said. “But I don’t want to wait years for him to start acting right.”
“I understand,” Persephone said, tucking a piece of his hair behind his ear. “More than you know. When your father and I were first married, everything started out wrong. My mother wanted me to leave him. Part of me wanted to leave, too, but another part of me wanted to stay. I didn’t understand why I felt that way, but I couldn’t help it. Every day was a struggle, and I got so frustrated when I saw the potential for things to get better and it sat just out of my reach, like Tantalus and his apples.”
“I know what you mean,” Nico said. “Papa could be great if he just got over himself.”
“That’s the kind of thing I used to think,” she said. “It got me nowhere. Trying to change someone else is a waste of time. It wasn’t until I started focusing on the goddess I wanted to be that everything started falling into place. We’re not humans,” she said. “The Fates don’t create us unless we’re absolutely needed. I was made to rule over the natural cycle of death and rebirth. I’m the reason for the seasons,” she grinned.
“Wow. Please never say that again,” Nico said, rolling his eyes.
“I have it printed on a mug! My point is, we only know part of your godly purpose. I’m certain you belong with Hades and I, and we’re meant to be a family. But that doesn’t justify your existence in and of itself. Otherwise, you’d have arrived a long time ago.”
“So what does justify me?” Nico asked. “Why am I here now?”
“We can try to reason it out,” Persephone said. She summoned a notebook and a pencil, and started jotting down notes. “Our pantheon is ancient history at this point. We still have cultural influence, but it’s an unusual time for a new god to be born. Do you feel an affinity for any particular modern technology?”
“No,” he said.
“Not even AI? That theory’s been growing on me.”
“Mom, no. That’s just weird.”
She crossed ‘AI’ off the list.
“It would have to be related to death,” she said, chewing on the pencil eraser. Her notepad had ‘death’ written very big and circled twice. “You have plenty of Cthonic abilities. But death is death. Why would we need a new death god? Is there some kind of app for it now that would need divine assistance?”
“An app for death? No, there isn’t.”
“Zoom funerals? Work-from-home morticians? Virtual cremation?”
“No, no, and no,” Nico said.
“Then I’ve got nothing,” she said, putting her pencil down. “Death is the one thing that’s supposed to stay the same. You’re a mystery.”
Nico had a billion thoughts racing through his mind. Persephone was wrong. Death was changing fast, she just hadn’t realized it yet. There wasn’t an app for it, but technology had begun to interfere with the dying process in an ugly and invasive way.
He thought about Rosa Bova. She’d wasted away in a hospital bed for months while her daughter slept on the cold hospital room floor. For Maria Bova, technology had given her an endless supply of false hope, and she’d responded with endless demand. It had taken a long time for her to realize that she was trapped in a deceptive feedback loop, trying to run away from the inevitable.
Maria and her mom had been one case, but there had also been the people in the hospital in New Rome. That had been a little different, but Nico still thought about those five souls all the time. He didn’t think about them as individuals-- he had no reason to, since they were happy little shades now, and he hadn’t known their stories in life. But something about it had resonated deeply, like the string of a harp being plucked. The note had never stopped playing, no matter how hard he tried to ignore it.
“I see ideas behind your eyes!” Persephone said excitedly.
“I need more time to think it over,” he admitted. “But yeah. I have ideas. Um, that still doesn’t help the situation with Papa. What am I supposed to do, wait a hundred years for him to get over himself?”
“He’ll come to you in his own time,” Persephone said. “For now, focus on what you can control. I wasn’t there, but I know you two. Your dad doesn’t blow up like that over nothing at all.”
She gave Nico a kind but slightly accusatory look. Nico scowled.
Was he keeping multiple crucially important secrets from his dad? Totally. Was he trying to get out of becoming mortal even though he promised his dad he’d do it? Definitely. When Hades had called him out on those true facts, had Nico gotten defensive and lashed out and said nasty things he didn’t mean? Oh yeah, he absolutely for sure did that.
But Hades was a jerk, so Nico didn’t feel bad about it. Mostly.
“I should get back,” Persephone said. “I only have a few more weeks before spring. I don’t want to lose out on time with my man.”
“I don’t know what you see in him,” Nico said bitterly.
“Yes, you do,” Persephone said, kissing him on the cheek. “You wouldn’t drive each other so crazy if you didn’t love each other so much. Remember what I said. I love you, my son.”
“Love you,” Nico said. “Bye, Mom.”
Persephone disappeared in a shower of hyacinth petals. Nico collected them in a pile and put them into a crystal bowl to display on the coffee table, as a reminder of their conversation. The soft pink and purple petals shivered with potential energy. The immeasurable power of spring was nearing its zenith, shortly to explode into life all across the world. He couldn’t wait to see it.
He glanced out the window. The sun had risen while they’d been talking. Somehow the night had slipped away. He had a lot to contemplate. He probably ought to stay in and journal or meditate or something productive.
Naturally, he ended up scrolling on his phone instead. It drove him nuts that his Godstagram was still locked. There was no chance that the god of divine social media hadn’t heard of him by now. He needed to find the god responsible and demand access-- it was his right, for as long as he remained a god. If his divinity was destined to be short-lived, all the more reason to shit-post while he still could.
He saw, to his surprise, that Apollo had texted him an invite. It was for a karaoke party in LA. Nico had to look up what karaoke was, but he was intrigued. Apollo had been annoyed with him at the Parentalia games, since Nico had kind of screwed him over when Hazel beat Jason. But the invitation seemed genuine.
Nico shadow traveled to the spot Apollo had marked on his map. It was a brightly lit karaoke bar with a neon glowing sign over the door that read ‘Rising Star karaoke.’
Nico went inside and walked down the colorful hallway. His only experience with karaoke was from Dionysus ‘treating’ campers to a serenade over lunchtime at camp Half Blood. He wasn’t a bad singer, since gods were good at everything by default, but his song choices were terrible. If anyone at this party decided to sing ‘What’s New Pussycat’, he’d walk out. He’d had all of that song he could take.
He followed the sound of supernaturally good singing and found a room in the back where a woman’s beautiful, perfect voice rang out, producing a sound so clear and flawless that the hair on his arms stood up. He opened the door.
“Sticks and stones might break my bones, but chain and whips-- Oh, look! He’s here!” The woman singing dropped her microphone and ran over to Nico, hugging him.
“I don’t think we’ve met,” he said, talking into the giant pile of hair that was smushed into his face. He, scanned the room, or what he could see of it past her honey-colored curls. He saw Mars, Apollo, and to his great disappointment, Hermes were all present. They were sitting on couches lining the small karaoke room, which was lit up in neon lights with a giant screen on one wall. Song lyrics were still scrolling over the music video, although the performance had stopped so the singer could hug him. There was only one goddess she could be-- he’d recognized her voice from a phone call in a church basement long ago.
Nico looked around nervously for Eros, Aphrodite’s BFF, but he wasn’t there.
Aphrodite kissed him on the cheek, smiling with a smile that was scarily beautiful. She looked into his eyes, and it was clear she knew exactly what he was worried about.
“Looking for someone?” She asked, winking. Her lash extensions were so long that her wink blew a tiny gust of wind at him.
“No,” he said, turning away. He sat next to Apollo, the only person in the room he sort of liked. Aphrodite chuckled and went back to singing her song.
“Seriously?” Hermes said, pointing at Nico irritatedly. “Why did you invite him? I see him enough at work.”
“You don’t come to work!” Nico said.
Apollo laughed at both of them, looking delighted by the two gods’ antipathy towards each other.
“Nico holds the fate of the pantheon in his hands now,” Apollo said. “I invited him because I’m offering him my support. News flash, I don’t want to get curb stomped by Gaea this summer. I have plans. So,” Apollo turned to Nico with a bright grin. “How are things?”
“Fine,” Nico said, debating whether he ought to make an excuse to leave. He didn’t want to hang out with Hermes, but networking was a smart idea. He would need all the advice he could get from more experienced gods, since his dad hadn’t helped.
“Fine? I doubt it,” Apollo said. “You must be freaking out. You’re a coach whose first day is the Superbowl.”
“He’s got nothing to worry about,” Mars said, leaning back confidently in his chair and folding his hands behind his head. “My son Frank is quarterback. He’s got my genes and Poseidon’s, so I have a feeling everything is gonna be just fine.”
“Don’t forget Piper, babe!” Aphrodite said.
“Right. Piper is… Um,” Mars said. Nico waited for him to say something positive about Piper, but he seemed to draw a blank. “Piper is also there,” he said.
“She sure is,” Aphrodite agreed. “Your turn to sing, babe.” She handed Mars the microphone and swapped seats with him, sitting close to Nico so that they could talk.
“Can you tell me more about Piper? I don’t know her well yet,” Nico said.
“Have you seen her? She’s gorgeous! Just like her mama.” She flipped her hair, and a perfume like a billion roses wafted from her curls.
“For sure,” Nico said politely. “Anything other than that?”
“She’s emotionally intelligent, which is an underrated talent. She used to shoplift, so I’m sure she’s retained some sneaky skills from that. And she can use Charmspeak.”
“What’s Charmspeak?”
“Charmspeak is when I tell you to go order me a Cosmopolitan from the bar and you do it,” she said. “Go ahead. No ice,” she added. When she spoke, her voice changed, sounding more symphonic and pleasing to the ear.
“Just make it with magic,” Nico said. “Why would I go get one from the bar when we’re gods?”
“Oh!” She said, raising her eyebrows in surprise. “It doesn’t work on you! Good to know.” She summoned the drink on her own and sipped it, eyeing him curiously over the rim.
“So Charmspeak makes people do what you tell them?” Nico asked.
“Yes. With practice, Piper can use it to influence even gods. Other than you, I suppose,” Aphrodite said. “I get the power from my father, Ouranos.”
“Charmspeak should have worked on a baby god like you. Maybe you’re hard to influence?” Apollo suggested.
“I hope that’s true,” Nico said.
Kronos was Aphrodite’s brother; they were both Ouranos’ children. What if Kronos’ ability to control minds came from Charmspeak, too? Nico would have loved to tell his dad about that promising development. Too bad they weren’t speaking
“That’s an incredible power, Aphrodite,” he said. “If Piper trains, I’m sure it will be useful in the war. Thank you.”
“You’re so welcome, doll,” she said, flashing teeth like pearls. “Ask me anything you want. We’re all on the same side here.”
“Does being the daughter of Ouranos makes you more powerful than the other Olympians?”
“Huh! That’s a good question,” she said. “I’m not sure. I have a soulmate, so that contributes more to by identity than my father’s blood.”
“Last I checked, blood wasn’t the part he contributed,” Hermes said, smirking.
Mars paused singing ‘Seven Nation Army’ very passionately into the mic to shoot Hermes a glare in defense of his girlfriend.
“Is Mars your soulmate?” Nico asked Aphrodite.
“OMG! That’s hilarious!” she said, leaning forward and pinching his cheek. “You were right, Apollo, he really is just a wittle baby.”
“No I’m not!” Nico said. “If Mars isn’t your soulmate, who is it, then?”
She looked up at him from under her eyelashes, smirking.
“Like you weren’t looking for him the second you walked into the room.”
“Looking for Eros?” Apollo asked, putting his arm around Nico’s waist. “Aww, does the baby god have a crush?”
“No!” Nico said sharply. He swallowed. Eros was the last person in the universe he’d ever have a crush on. Been there, done that, regretted it ever since. “I just didn’t know he was your soulmate, that’s all,” he said to Aphrodite.
“Don’t confuse the term ‘soulmate’ with the sweet nothing mortals call each other in the heat of passion,” Aphrodite said. “Soulmates are people whose lifelines are cut from the same string. That invisible connection keeps them cosmically bound together for eternity. Eros is mine, but I’d never date him. We’re too alike. That’s boring! Great romances are full of excitement and conflict!”
Nico nodded. That made sense to him.
“Eros was the firstborn of the Protogenoi. His role in the universe is indescribably important. As his other half, I’m equally important, despite the fact that I’m younger,” Aphrodite said.
“Yeah, you’re a real spring chicken,” Apollo grinned, winking at her.
Hermes stood up from his chair and grabbed the second microphone, joining Mars in front of the karaoke screen. They started dueting ‘Islands in the Stream,’ swaying in time with the song. Nico wondered how often the Olympian family sang karaoke together. It was a smart choice of activity, since they couldn’t argue if they were busy singing.
All of a sudden, Nico noticed something. Apollo had moved so that he was sitting awfully close to Nico. He could feel his unnaturally fragrant breath in his ear, and his arm like a hot iron across his back. More importantly, he could see Aphrodite looking at both of them with a bright glow of amusement.
He could only guess, but he suspected she was influencing the situation, trying to get them to hook up just for the sick thrill. Apollo was totally his type, but he didn’t want to deal with the drama that would inevitably follow a fling with the sun god. Sadly, he wasn’t surprised. Aphrodite and Apollo had both been a little too helpful that evening. There was always a catch when it came to divine aid.
He was annoyed, but he’d tolerate it until he’d gotten the info he needed. After that, he’d ditch them both, and good riddance. All the talk of Eros had made his blood run even colder than usual.
“If Eros was Nyx’s firstborn, who was the second?” Nico asked. He knew the answer already, but he wanted to change the subject to anything but Eros.
“Thanatos and Hypnos are twins, no?” Aphrodite said, crossing her legs. “Who hatched first, I don’t recall. Eros would remember. I could call him and ask.”
“No, please don’t,” Nico insisted.
He had barely finished speaking when a towering figure appeared in a flurry of white feathers, blocking out the karaoke screen with the shadow of wings. Hermes and Mars stumbled backwards, both of them shouting in alarm at the intruder.
“It was me. Regardless of what Hypnos might tell you,” said Thanatos, his voice like shattering glass.
Nico gasped with delight.
“Move, you,” Thanatos snapped at Apollo, causing him to scoot away from Nico quickly. Thanatos sat down in his vacated spot and immediately made a face of displeasure. The seat had probably been left extremely warm.
“Long time no see, cutie,” Aphrodite cooed at him. “Jealousy looks good on you.”
“Jealousy?” Thanatos asked, as though he didn’t know what the word meant.
“Yes, dear, jealousy.”
“I can’t say I’ve ever experienced that emotion,” Thanatos said, flipping his hair haughtily. “Though I’m aware it’s a common affliction among lesser beings.”
Apollo snorted. The second he’d seen Apollo’s arm around Nico’s shoulder, Thanatos’s feathers had become visibly and violently ruffled. He was still glaring daggers at the sun god every time he glanced his way.
Nico couldn’t stop smiling. He scooted closer to Thanatos so that the sides of their bodies were touching in as many places as possible at once. For once, Thanatos actually reciprocated.
“How did you know I was here?” Nico asked.
“She said my name,” Thanatos said. “Although I usually know where you are, anyway.”
“Stalker much?” Apollo said, slightly bitterly. “Talk about red flags.”
“I’m not a stalker,” Thanatos said, his cheeks flushing a very pale shade of pink in embarrassment.
“I don’t mind. I stalk him, too,” Nico said.
That was a true admission; he often accompanied Thanatos to watch him collect souls, which was more entertaining than anything on Netflix. When Thanatos turned him down, on days he was trying to be extra fast, Nico followed him in secret. Watching on fast days was even more exciting than the slow ones; he had to slip through the folds in the fabric of space that Thanatos used to move around. You had to be nearly faster than the speed of light to keep up, but Nico had been practicing.
“I don’t mind, either,” Thanatos said, looking at Nico fondly.
He must not have been as sneaky as he thought. He smiled, thinking of Thanatos politely pretending not to notice him while they sprinted through spacetime together. From Than’s expression, it was obvious that he found Nico’s determination to be with him flattering rather than annoying.
“This weird shit is why I don’t trust Cthonic gods,” Mars said, looking rattled by the intruder. “They’re sneaky, always lurking around my battlefields without so much as a ‘hi, how are ya?’”
“A real G moves in silence like lasagna,” Apollo said sagely.
“Aristotle,” Hermes nodded.
“No, it’s not Aristotle! Did your cultural education end two thousand years ago?” Apollo scoffed.
“Forget about that, can we talk about his idiotic haircut?” Hermes said. “He looks like he’s trying to get booked in a perfume commercial. It’s not ancient looking at all.”
“I see it,” Aphrodite said, examining the angles of his hair closely. “Say the word, and I’ll give Christian Dior a call. It’s giving editorial.”
“It’s giving stupid!” Hermes insisted. “Would you want an undercut to be the last thing you ever see? It’s inhumane!”
“You’re a hypocrite,” Mars said bluntly. “Didn’t we have an intervention for you last week about frosted tips? You shouldn’t be shit-talking someone else’s hair.”
“The intervention was for Dad, not for Hermes,” Apollo said, shuddering. “And it was twenty years ago.”
“Feels like yesterday,” Mars shrugged. “Who’s next?” He held out the microphone, offering it to Nico.
“I mostly just know opera,” Nico said.
Upon hearing that, Mars took the microphone back forcefully and gave it to Hermes instead, who started singing ‘Born to Run.’ The god of war returned to the chair he’d been sharing with Aphrodite, planting himself on her lap. She grabbed his chin, and they started making out right next to Nico and Thanatos without a hint of self consciousness.
Thanatos averted his eyes, staring down at the place on the pleather couch where his and Nico’s hands were almost, but not quite, touching.
“I don’t mean to keep obsessing over your new look, but I’m getting they/them vibes,” Apollo said. “What are your pronouns, Thanatos? I don’t think I’ve ever asked.”
Nico realized suddenly that he’d never asked either, and he felt awful about it. Everyone assumed Thanatos was male, but most people didn’t know him very well, and rarely saw him, let alone spoke to him. Maybe Thanatos hadn’t been given the chance to correct the record.
Thanatos looked at Nico for assistance.
“He doesn’t know what you’re talking about,” Nico said, seeing nothing but total confusion written across Thanatos’ face.
“I can help,” Aphrodite said, taking a break from sticking her tongue down her boyfriend’s throat. “Hermes and I invented the whole concept, you know. Thanatos, think about when people refer to you as ‘Him’. If it feels more correct to use a gender neutral term like they, them, or traditionally female pronouns like she and her, or something else entirely, you can tell us.”
Aphrodite was speaking kindly, and Nico got the impression she was fond of Thanatos, and would be willing to explain anything to him if he asked. Maybe it was because Thanatos and her soulmate, Eros, were so similar. Nico would have preferred if they didn’t look alike, but he couldn’t deny the resemblance.
“Hmm,” Thanatos said, contemplating. “Alright, I’ll tell you my preference. Don’t talk about me. Problem solved.”
Aphrodite burst out laughing, her laughter somehow even prettier than the laughter of all the other goddesses Nico had ever met combined. It was the kind of laugh that could make you feel like the funniest person alive, or the stupidest person on earth, depending on the tiniest inflection in her tone.
Thanatos clearly felt like the latter. He folded his arms and hunched his wings. Nico patted his arm, feeling sorry that he’d gotten Thanatos mixed up in the karaoke party in the first place.
Hermes finished his song and turned around.
“I thought of another thing that I don’t like about you,” Hermes said, frowning at Thanatos.
“Can you lay off him already? He hasn’t done anything to you, why do you have to act like such a jerk?” Nico said angrily. He couldn’t take any more negativity thrown Thanatos’ way; Thanatos generated enough of that on his own.
“He’s just jealous because I’m faster than he is,” Thanatos said smugly.
“You are not!” Hermes shouted into his microphone, causing the walls to shake. “You want to know why I’m being a jerk, Nico di Angelo?” Hermes said. “Why do you think? Hm? Any guesses?”
Hermes stared him down intensely. Nico didn’t know for certain, but a suspicion crept into his mind that Hermes knew that he’d collected souls and then he’d lied about it. He and Thanatos had been hiding his ability from the other Cthonic gods, but Nico had not been doing a very good job at keeping it secret.
If Hermes knew, which he clearly did, because he wasn’t stupid, Nico was in huge trouble. All Hermes had to do was accuse him of stolen divinity and he’d be toast. He might as well have stolen the sun chariot or borrowed the Master Bolt-- stealing someone’s divine purpose was a capital crime among gods.
Thanatos slowly nudged his fingers down towards Nico’s, trying not to be obvious about it. Nico took his hand and squeezed it, hard.
“Watch yourself, Hermes,” Thanatos said, his voice full of barely restrained rage. “You were a young god once. You were shown patience. You owe the same to Nico.”
“Whatever. I’m outta here,” Hermes said. “Bye.” His ‘bye’ reached their ears after he’d already left, moving faster than the speed of sound.
“What’s that about? Underworld stuff?” Apollo asked.
“Yeah,” Nico said.
“I’m sure you’ll work things out. Hermes is quite charming when you get to know him,” Aphrodite said. “Nico, you have my word that I will assist Piper in the quest. I’ll help her train in Charmspeak. In exchange, lead her to victory and, hopefully, divinity. I could use another handmaiden to hold my ring light.”
“I promise the same,” Mars said. “I’ll give Frank my blessing of strength. He’ll need it. But you have to keep him on the right path. Even the strongest warrior can lose if he doesn’t have a good general backing him up. I want the glory of another divine child on Olympus. I’ve got uneven numbers for flag football, and he’d make a great offensive lineman.”
“Of course,” Nico said. “Thank you. I’ll do my best to help them.”
“I don’t have any offspring in the fight, but I’ll look after Camp Jupiter while Jason’s away,” Apollo said. “Call me anytime you need advice. I’ll answer if I’m not busy doing something more fun.”
“I appreciate it,” Nico said. “Seriously, thank you guys. And if you run into Juno, try to get her to take her job back. For the sake of the pantheon.”
The other gods departed, leaving Nico and Thanatos alone in the tiny neon room.
“So Hermes knows I’m a psychopomp,” Nico sighed. “Great.”
“He won’t tell anyone,” Thanatos said. “Long ago, Zeus distrusted Hades and worried he would plot against him from the secrecy of the Underworld. Hermes had told Zeus of his ability to take souls, and Zeus insisted he work alongside me, not bothering to ask what I thought of it. Hermes wasn’t given a choice in the matter. He begged me on his knees to have mercy on him.”
“Really, begging on his knees? Hermes was that scared of you?”
“He was very young, and I wasn’t much for talking then. But I let him join me in my work because the human population was increasing rapidly at the time, and it seemed useful to have an assistant. It was a grave mistake. He sees himself as my equal in the work now, although he’s clearly my inferior. I should have insisted on working alone. Now he spares you for my sake, because I did the same for him once.”
Nico couldn’t imagine how angry his father would be if Hermes outed him as a psychopomp. He had enough problems with Hades as it was.
“I guess I owe you even more than I already did,” he said, looking up at Thanatos gratefully. He glanced down at their entwined fingers. “Thanks for having my back.”
“It’s nothing,” Thanatos shrugged.
“It’s not nothing. I’m really grateful,” Nico insisted.
“I don’t see the point in gratitude,” Thanatos said. “I do nothing for you that you wouldn’t do for me.”
“Still, though,” Nico said. He stared at Thanatos’ face, his skin white and gleaming and perfect. He was one of the most ancient gods, and among the most important. Sometimes he had to pinch himself that this relationship was real. It felt dreamlike, too good to be true.
The karaoke machine started playing the song ‘I Just Died in Your Arms Tonight’. Nico laughed a little to himself at the coincidence. The irony was lost on Thanatos.
“This is a strange place,” Thanatos said. “Is it just singing? Do you require special equipment to do that?”
“I don’t know. I guess,” Nico said. The room was a little warm and sticky for his taste. The unnatural neon lighting was nice, though. It reminded him of the purple grow lights in Persephone’s garden. “Can we go somewhere else to talk? There’s somewhere I’ve been wanting to show you.”
He took Thanatos by the hand and brought him somewhere neither of them had been before. It was in the Veneto region of Italy, not too far from the city of Venice. It was a small grove of Mediterranean cypresses that had grown in a circle. The space in their center stood empty. Long grasses and wildflowers grew there, and the wind stirred them in gentle waves.
The air in the grove was cool and fresh, and a sensation of peace passed over Nico’s soul when he took it all in.
“Your sacred grove,” Thanatos said. “I like it.”
“You could tell what it was?” Nico asked, delighted. “It’s wonderful! It’s so quiet. Demeter really outdid herself.” He’d have to thank her again more sincerely the next time he saw her. His godly grandma had given him a truly special birthday gift.
He and Thanatos sat together in the grass and appreciated the silence for a while, content to enjoy the darkness. It was the night of the new moon, which suited them both. The shadows of the shaggy cypresses were long and impenetrably dark. Nico dug his fingers into the earth and felt that it was dense and black, suffused with minerals. They sat above a deposit of precious metals that had never been mined.
“What was all that talk of pronouns earlier? I dismissed it because I didn’t understand. It seemed to concern you,” Thanatos said, after a long stretch of not-talking.
“I’m not concerned,” Nico said. He flopped onto his back in the grass and stared up at the stars. “I panicked for a second because I wished I’d asked you myself earlier. But it didn’t seem like something you’d even think about, to be honest.”
Thanatos sighed, leaning on his elbow. He yanked up a single blade of grass up with his thumb and index finger and started peeling it into thin hair-like strands.
“Well, now I’m thinking about it,” he said, irritated. “I’m thinking about how I don’t think about it. And I don’t know the answer. Is there something wrong with me?”
“Not at all!” Nico said, wishing the subject had never come up. “Your gender doesn’t make any difference to your work or to the people who care about you. It’s totally a personal preference thing. If you want to drop the subject, that’s fine, too.”
Thanatos wound his grass strands into a loop the size of a bracelet for a baby. It reminded Nico of the golden loops the Fates used to represent the undying life force of the gods. It was hard to conceive of how old Thanatos truly was, but Nico was sometimes reminded when he thought of the fact that the Fates were his younger sisters. Maybe they’d gotten the idea for the loops from him.
Did Thanatos even have a lifeline? Did he predate the system, or had the Fates grandfathered him in at some point?
“I don’t know why anyone would care whether I’m a male or a female, or a pigeon, frankly. Death is just a concept. I’m an embodiment of the life cycle of matter in the universe. What difference does it make how I feel?” Thanatos said, his face turned down to the ground.
“It makes a huge difference,” Nico said, sitting up. “You’re not just a concept. You’re death personified. That means you get to be a person. Whatever kind of person you want to be, you can be.”
Thanatos smiled, his expression slightly shy. He looked up at Nico from beneath his lashes, his eyes glinting gold in the moonlight, radiant from within.
“The only person I want to be is yours,” Thanatos said. “Whatever you are, I’ll be. Whatever you’re called, I’ll be called. I don’t want anything to set us apart.”
Nico hugged him. Hugs weren’t Thanatos’s thing, but hugging was written into Nico’s muscle memory so deeply that it was almost an involuntary movement.
“Sorry,” Nico said, emotion making his voice unsteady. “I know you aren’t a hugger.” He let go of Thanatos and moved away. “Did I ruin the moment?”
Thanatos didn’t answer at first, and the silence stung. Clearly he had ruined the moment, at least partly.
Thanatos sat and inspected his unbreakable ivory fingernails, chewing on his lip.
“I need to admit something,” he said, averting his eyes bashfully.
“What?” Nico asked.
“I think I’m starting to like hugs,” Thanatos said.
Nico tackled him into the grass.
“You’re gonna regret telling me that,” he said, attempting to squeeze Thanatos into oblivion.
“I know,” Thanatos said. Nico could hear the smile in his voice.
“You make me insane,” Nico said. “You’re like, too perfect, you know?” He was feeling slightly overwhelmed with how weirdly perfect Thanatos really was. He didn’t remember doing anything to deserve the love of the most awesome being in the universe.
“I’m not perfect,” Thanatos said, pressing his face into Nico’s neck. “That’s just silly.”
“You are to me! You’re a jealous stalker, but you play hard to get. You’re scary, but also cute. You’re old enough to be impressive, but immature enough not to be intimidating.”
“None of those sound like compliments,” Thanatos said skeptically. “Actually, they sound bad.”
“I mean them as compliments,” Nico said. “I just have weird taste.”
Thanatos rested his head on Nico’s shoulder.
“It’s alright if you do want to insult me,” he said. “At least you see all of me. Sometimes I think it’s only when you look at me that I exist. It’s like I was only half alive before met you.”
“I don’t think that’s true,” Nico said, running his fingers through Than’s thin golden hair. He hated that Thanatos felt that way. He wanted him to feel confident in himself as his own person, the way Nico felt about himself. Although Nico hadn’t exactly figured out who he was meant to be, either. They both had work to do.
Thanatos seemed perfectly content, lying in the grass beside Nico in the darkness, the night sky a vibrant indigo overhead. The darkness surrounded them like a comforting blanket. It might have been an open space on the surface, but Nico’s grove felt like a little slice of the Underworld..
He thought carefully about how he would phrase his next question before he spoke. He hated disturbing Than’s peace, but he couldn’t wait any longer.
“There’s something I want to ask you,” Nico said.
Thanatos cracked one gleaming eye open.
“It’s a little awkward, but we need to talk about this,” Nico continued. “It’s about that subject we’ve both been avoiding.”
Thanatos closed his eye again.
“Can we not?”
Thanatos was lying on his back in the grass, his wings stretched out to either side. He had to arrange them carefully in order to do that, since he didn’t like to lay on top of them or get them dirty. It meant that Nico could admire them in their full glory.
Nico sat up beside him, gently plucking stray strands of grass from his feathers. Thanatos hated when they got messy.
“Please just hear me out,” Nico said. “We need to get this conversation over with. I know you’re not comfortable with it. I don’t think you’re wrong for feeling that way, but it doesn’t change how I feel, either.”
“Why can’t you let it go?” Thanatos whined. “Go do a Rubik’s cube or something. I don’t want to talk about this, it’s weird.”
He rolled over and faced away from Nico, but Nico moved to his other side so that he could look him in the eyes.
“This is important to me,” Nico said. “It’s not just something I want to do, it’s an expression of my identity. I’ve tried to forget about it, but it’s impossible.”
“So? What do you expect me to do about it?” Thanatos said.
“You don’t have to do anything. Just let me do what I need to do. And try not to get too upset about it.”
Thanatos shook his head petulantly and rolled over, burying his head in the grass and nudging Nico with one of his wings.
“This is not happening,” Thanatos muttered.
Nico leaned over him, placing his hand on the space on his back in between his wings.
“It won’t be so bad,” Nico said. “Just—”
“Hold on a moment,” Thanatos said, scrambling to turn over again. He hit Nico with his wing, intentionally this time, forcing Nico to back away . “I haven’t even had a chance to think, and you’re already climbing all over me!”
“Sorry,” Nico said. “So you’ll think about it?”
“I think about it all the time!” Thanatos said, his cheeks flushed with embarassment. “I know that if I don’t give you what you need, I’ll probably lose you. Don’t you think I know that? Still, I never imagined you’d put me on the spot like this.”
“I’m sorry,” Nico said. “But--”
Thanatos pointed at the sky.
“But if you think I’m going to let you have your way with me in front of my parents, you’ve lost your mind.”
Nico’s jaw dropped.
“Excuse me, what?”
Thanatos stood and brushed off his wings, pouting.
“No, I’m upset with you,” he said, as Nico went up to him. “Go away. We’re not speaking.”
“I think you misunderstood me,” Nico said, trying not to laugh. “I was talking about taking souls.”
Thanatos turned bright red.
“Well, say what you mean next time! You confused me deliberately, didn’t you? You think this is funny? That was very stressful for me!”
“I’d never pressure you into having sex before you were ready,” Nico said. “If I was planning on doing that, I already would have by now.”
“But it’s alright to pressure me into letting you steal my job away? How is that any better?” Thanatos said accusatorily, his eyes narrowed.
“I’m sorry,” Nico said. “I was just being honest. And please don’t call it stealing your job. I’d never do that. I could never do what you do.”
Thanatos grumbled quietly to himself, saying something about how they both knew that wasn’t true. Nico politely held his tongue while Thanatos thought it over.
“I’ll probably regret this,” Thanatos sighed. “But I’ve been in my ‘trying new things’ era lately, so… Whatever. Sex or souls. One or the other. You pick, and I’ll try to accommodate you. Emphasis on ‘try.’”
Nico grinned. He knew exactly which one he wanted.
Chapter 72: Cardigan
Notes:
Sorry this is late. My dog died last week and I lost my motivation for a bit. It's back now though. If you know the song referenced in the title I think you'll appreciate the chapter more but it's not necessary. Is this the closest thing to a song fic I'll ever write? We'll see...
Chapter Text
Jason had woken up at the crack of dawn to go jogging. The cold February air and clear skies had helped him empty his mind and prepare for the day. When he ran, he pushed himself hard, until he had no thoughts left besides putting one foot in front of the next. It helped him manage his worries better, and start work with a clear head.
Five minutes in the New Rome senate, and his stress level was already at an eleven out of ten. He might as well have slept in.
He sat in the front row of the noisy senate hall, itchy and overheated in his formal toga. Percy and Annabeth sat beside him in seats of honor. They had worn Camp Half Blood t-shirts to make it clear what side they were on in all discussions. That choice had been a point of controversy earlier in the week, but now it was eclipsed by talk of the quest.
Reyna was running late, and Octavian had insisted on starting without her. He’d already begun giving his speech to the assembled senators. He stood at the podium in the center of the circular hall, and every eye in the room was on him. He came alive in front of a crowd; New Romans often called him Cicero reincarnated, which was sometimes meant as a compliment and sometimes not. Jason thought Octavian’s skill in rhetoric rivaled Piper’s charmspeak in its power.
“Beware Greeks bearing gifts, my friends,” Octavian said with a flourish, his hand raised aloft for emphasis. “We’ve all heard the old adage. Why are we forgetting the wisdom of our ancestors now of all times, on the brink of war? I propose that we expel these foreigners post-haste, before they work their tricks and infiltrate further than they already have.”
“You’re a paranoid jerk,” Percy said, standing to defend himself. “I proved my loyalty to Camp Jupiter and was elected praetor. I may have given back that honor, but I was judged worthy, and I can vouch for the Greeks that are here. Jason will back me up on this.”
“I agree,” Jason said, standing up beside Percy. “The kids at Camp Half Blood are different from us, but we’re fighting the same battles. We’re threatened equally by Gaea. We’re on the same team in this war.”
“Respectfully, Praetor, I beg to differ,” Octavian said, leaning on his podium. He’d already been spreading poisonous lies for a solid fifteen minutes, and he seemed a little too comfortable up there with a full Stanley cup in hand. Jason hoped he didn’t plan to waste a whole day on a filibuster. It was too early in the morning for that.
“We’ve spent centuries on separate teams. The last time we clashed, there was a civil war. The gods separated us for a reason, and it took a lot of effort on their part to keep us from finding out about each other. Clearly this is a test from the gods to determine whether we’re wise enough to trust that their judgment still binds us,” Octavian said.
“Juno was the one that brought the Seven together,” Percy insisted.
“I have it on good authority she quit yesterday,” Octavian said. “She’s obviously not supporting this plan. You’re clearly going rogue.”
“Who told him that?” Annabeth hissed under her breath. “Something is off about this guy.”
Jason hadn’t even told Reyna about Juno quitting yet. They’d been scheduled to meet after the senate meeting. He should have told her the night before, but instead he’d chosen to get some sleep after spending the night driving around with Nico.
The old Jason would have reported all the news to her immediately, prioritizing his duties over comfort. Today he’d done something different, and now he was regretting that choice. He was trying to change his ways and start choosing himself. It was disheartening to see that already working against him. Maybe he should have expected to face consequences immediately.
“That’s not what happened,” Jason said. “We’re being led by Nico now, and he’s in agreement with Juno. The two camps have to team up for this quest. It’s the only way we can have the strength to defeat Gaea.”
Jason looked around the assembled senators.
“Listen to me, please. All of you-- you’ve known me for over a decade. I’ve devoted my life to Camp Jupiter. And I think I’ve earned your faith by now. The Greeks that are here-- Annabeth, Percy, Piper, and Leo? They can be trusted. They’re our teammates. We’re all in this together.”
“Once we know that we are, we’re all stars, and we-- Ow!” Leo yelped. Piper had smacked him in the back of the head to shut him up.
There were some nods of respect and murmurs of agreement with Jason, but there were also a few skeptical faces looking back at him.
“Praetor Jason, with all due respect,” Octavian said, smirking with an insipid, foxlike grin. “We all know where your loyalties lie now. She’s very pretty, but you can’t believe everything that comes out of her mouth.”
“That’s not—” Jason tried to interrupt, turning bright red.
The accusation was hard to hear. He had been very cautious with Piper. He’d been keeping her at arms length for way longer than most people would have in his shoes. He was hyper-aware of the implications of coming back to New Rome with a brand new smokeshow of a girlfriend. Everyone there had expected him and Reyna to get married and have a bunch of New Roman babies in a few years. He knew he was letting them down, but he couldn’t let public opinion dictate every facet of his life. He was trying to break free.
“Motherfucker,” Piper hissed under her breath.
“Ask him for an update on the siege engine budget,” a disembodied voice whispered, cold as a tomb.
Jason whipped his head around. He couldn’t see him, but he’d know Nico’s voice anywhere.
“Octavian, can you update us on the siege engine budget?” Jason blurted out.
Octavian stared at him.
“The what?”
“Tell him you found some discrepancies in the numbers,” Nico whispered.
“I found some discrepancies--”
“Yes, I understand, we can go over that at a later date,” Octavian said, flustered. He gathered up his papers. “That’s, that’s, um, not nearly as urgent as… Uh, I think I left a roast in the oven,” he said.
He left.
Jason breathed a sigh of relief. His old comrade Dakota went up to the podium to talk about the cleanup efforts after Parentalia, so he could safely tune out.
He turned his head to the left, where he had guessed that Nico was now sitting in Reyna’s empty seat.
“Hi,” he whispered.
“Don’t talk to me, I’ll talk to you,” Nico said curtly. “I don’t want anyone else to know I’m here. I visited Hazel this morning, and she had a dream Reyna was being held captive by giants.”
Jason turned white as a sheet. He dug his nails into the tops of his thighs, scratching his skin through the fabric of his toga.
“Go and check on her. Now,” Nico said. “I’m working today, so I can’t help. I’ll check back in later.”
Jason stood and ran out of the senate. He flew to Reyna’s apartment and unlocked the door with the key he still had a copy of. Back when she’d given it to him, they’d talked about living together. It hurt to remember how close they’d once been.
Her place was a mess. Everywhere, furniture was knocked over, dented with deep gouges as if they’d been used to block sword swings.
Jason’s heart pounded like a drum, his breath coming fast, panic seeping into his limbs. Reyna was obviously gone, but she’d put up quite a fight before she’d been taken. Based on the bloodstains on her sheets and the monster dust on her bedroom floor, she’d been ambushed in her sleep. The fact that the fight had ranged throughout the apartment was impressive, although she’d eventually lost.
He found no evidence of who might have taken her, but hopefully, Hazel would have that information. He had to force himself not to hold his breath while he flew to the Temple of Pluto. He found her overseeing Parentalia cleanup, sweeping and humming a tune to herself. She looked up at him like she’d been expecting him; her normally sweet expression on her round face looked extremely troubled.
“He told you?” She asked Jason.
“She was taken sometime last night,” he said. “Please tell me everything you know.”
“It was a vision of her being flown across the ocean, tied up with magic ropes” she said. “No more info yet. But Nico thought this dream might be the first of many.”
“When do you think we’ll have a location?” Jason asked, trying not to sound frantic. “Do you mean across the ocean to Alcatraz? Santa Catalina Island? Hawaii?”
“I don’t know. It could be anywhere on earth. We’ll have to wait until we’re meant to know as part of the quest.”
“Yeah. I know how it works,” Jason sighed, disappointed that they had basically nothing to go on to start a search. “I hope she’s okay.”
“Me too,” Hazel said, her face troubled. “But she’s not dead. That, I know for sure. Also, there’s something I need to tell you. I think Octavian might have had something to do with this.”
“He would never,” Jason said immediately. “He’s annoying, but he’s Roman to the core. Harming a praetor is beyond the pale.”
“Octavian is working for Gaea,” Hazel said.
“He’d never do that,” Jason repeated, finding it hard to even listen to the accusation. He’d known Octavian since he was a kid. There had never been any opportunity for Gaea to recruit him, since he’d always worked long hours on behalf of the legion.
“I don’t have any proof,” Hazel said. “Other than I saw him with other confirmed agents of Gaea. But Nico agrees with me, and he knows more than I do. You don’t have to believe me, but would you at least talk to Nico about it the next time you see him?”
“Sure,” Jason said, hoping there had been some kind of misunderstanding. “When will that be?”
“I don’t know,” she said, going back to sweeping the floor of the temple. “He checks in sometimes, but he never tells me when I’ll see him next. He’s pretty inconsistent.”
“At least he checks in,” Jason said.
“I noticed there was a living goat in here when I came in this morning,” she said, looking at Jason sidelong. “I sacrificed it to him myself. That’s why he stopped by.”
“Yeah. I didn’t end up sacrificing it to him,” Jason said. “But I talked to him. I think we’re on the same page.”
“You seem better,” she said. “You were looking rough last night. I was worried.”
Jason wasn’t sure how to explain the change. He and Nico had interacted casually, talking about practical matters. Jason hadn’t poured his heart out to him or declared his religious devotion. Nico hadn’t given him any magical gifts or promised him glory. He’d just treated Jason with respect. Jason hadn’t realized how badly he needed to feel like more than just a pawn of the gods.
In many ways, Jupiter and Juno had treated him like a slave. He’d never been given the option to do anything else with his life other than exactly what they told him. Worshiping them had not been his choice, it had been indoctrination. He’d never been treated like an adult with agency, and he’d never had an identity outside of his service to Camp. Worse, he’d never been treated like a child, even when he was one. He’d been a servant, a tool, sometimes a weapon. Never a person.
He needed to just be Jason. To Nico, that was all that he was. Nico had made that clear through both his words and his actions. For the moment, it was enough.
“Talking to Nico helped,” he said honestly.
“It usually does,” Hazel smiled. “Hey. Do you want to know something funny? You can’t tell him I told you.”
Jason nodded.
Hazel walked outside the doors and stood on the steps. They stood in the same place Jason had first seen Nico, two nights ago. So much had changed in such a short time.
Hazel stood two steps above the one he stood on in order to speak into his ear. Jason smiled. For one, it was adorable how short she was. For another, it was funny to have two children of Pluto whispering secrets into his ear in the same morning. They had a lot in common.
“Nico is younger than you,” she whispered.
“What?” Jason asked, confused. “How is that possible?”
“He was frozen in time at age ten,” she said. “He was only unfrozen five years ago. He just looks older because he’s a god.”
“So he’s only been alive… No way. Seriously?”
“He’s only lived for about fifteen years,” she confirmed. “He was deified when he was eleven, I think.”
That explained so much. It was no wonder Nico wasn’t like other gods. He hadn’t had time to learn their ways.
“Wow,” Jason murmured. “I would never have guessed.”
“He’s a doll,” Hazel said. “If all the gods could be like him, we’d live in a better world. I hope that when we defeat Gaea his success will encourage the other gods to imitate him.”
“That would be awesome,” Jason said. He felt like he understood Hazel better now. She didn’t seem as blindly devoted to her brother as he’d first thought. Instead, she was supporting him strategically. She loved him, but more than that, she knew that a win for him might mean a win for all demigods. Jason could totally understand her logic.
“That’s all I wanted to say,” she smiled. “I think you get it.”
“I do,” he said. “Hey, Hazel? I think you’re gonna be a great leader. I’m sorry I didn’t say that before.”
“Thank you, but I’m not so sure if that’s true,” she said. “I was planning to lean heavily on Nico’s help.”
“You’d be good on your own, too. You don’t need my advice, but if there’s anything you want to talk through with me, I’ll help however I can.”
“That’s mighty kind of you,” Hazel smiled. “I truly appreciate it. And I’m sorry again about Reyna. Can you ask the others to meet at the Argo II this afternoon? I want to get us all on the same page.”
“Of course,” he said.
“We’ll get her back,” Hazel said.
“Definitely,” Jason agreed. He said it firmly, trying to convince himself it was true. Reyna couldn’t be gone for good. He had too much he still needed to say to her.
He went back to the senate building, flying so that he could get there faster. Flying around New Rome was usually something he went out of his way not to do, since it drew attention. With Reyna gone, it was hard to remember why he used to care about that. He got attention no matter what he did.
Without hesitation, he interrupted the senate meeting and gave a hand signal indicating that he wanted to speak.
As praetor, he held precedence over all the others assembled, and he was given the floor. He went up to the podium in the center of the hall and looked out at the assembled representatives.
Some were in legion uniform. Some were important community members from New Rome. Many others were legionary scribes and members of the priesthood, representing their various deities. Filling the gaps were lares, hovering in the shadows on the edges of the room. They were more corporeal looking, more vivid than he remembered. The sacrifices of Parentalia had done them good.
Or maybe it had been a certain god who’d recently rolled into town.
Jason tapped on the microphone and briefly summarized what little he knew about Reyna’s situation. He didn’t exaggerate anything; he didn’t need to. Her absence left the room silent with horror. Reyna, like Jason, was a fixture of Camp Jupiter and New Rome. She was working on a degree in military history at New Rome University, too-- everyone in the community felt safer knowing she was heading up their defense.
Now, everyone had to come to terms with the fact that she was gone, and that Jason was inevitably going to leave. Chaos erupted in the senate.
Jason tried his best to calm everyone down, speaking with long rehearsed authority, but his words had lost their weight as soon as he’d explained that he’d be leaving to go look for her. Octavian would have helped, but Jason had chased him out earlier. The timing was unfortunate.
Jason continued trying to speak, but he was drowned out by the din. He’d taken classes in rhetoric and public speaking, and he was no stranger to the senate floor, but he’d always hated this aspect of being a Roman. The senate devolved into shouting and threats of assassination on a regular basis, and Jason always felt like an actor performing a role he’d never been meant to play. The strength of conviction that made someone a trusted leader was a strength Jason had never truly felt. It drained everything in his spirit to manage situations like this, and he’d always envied Octavian’s ease of wooing a crowd. Octavian got off on it. Jason did not.
Jason tried to regain control of the crowd, but his usual backup wasn’t present. Piper was standing and shouting on his behalf, which was only making things worse. Percy was too Greek for his opinion to be of assistance anymore. Annabeth was wisely restraining him from joining in the fray.
Jason had never held less influence. It was a blow to his ego, but one he should have expected. After his visit to Camp Half Blood, his relationship with Camp Jupiter would never be the same. Even so, it hurt to be dismissed as if he was a nobody.
He’d have given anything for Reyna to be there. With her backing him up, he’d felt capable of anything. He wished desperately for someone, anyone, to have the guts to step forward and take the mic from him. He wanted to set it down. He just felt like he couldn’t.
He didn’t see him arrive, but he felt it. Nico di Angelo’s divine presence filled the room. The crowd quieted slightly, looking around to see what the disturbance was. Having an invisible god next to you felt oddly like having tinnitus. Nobody else could see it, but you couldn’t ignore it.
Nico placed a cold hand on Jason’s shoulder.
“How can I help?” He asked, his voice soft as a sigh, right next to Jason’s ear.
An immense wave of gratitude washed over Jason. He held the microphone out, and Nico appeared to take it. He seemed blurred at the edges like dark smoke, and he wore a black chiton made of a material that shimmered and shifted like water.
Jason breathed a deep sigh of relief as the crowd fell silent, in awe of the deity that had deigned to appear before them. His outfit made him look extra godlike, which Jason found a little bit funny, considering that Nico’s lifetime definitely didn’t predate the invention of pants.
He looked great, though. The outfit exposed the lower half of his white, glowing thighs. Jason forced his gaze upward, but found that looking at his face wasn’t a whole lot better. Nico was so beautiful that it hurt to look at any part of him. He felt very conscious of Piper watching him watching Nico, but he didn’t have the willpower to tear his eyes away.
He wasn’t alone in that. All of the lares in the senate descended the tiered seating area and prostrated themselves at Nico’s feet, whispering at him aggressively. Jason took a step back, his stomach twisting at the too-soon reminder of his encounter with his mother the day before.
Nico knelt down to hear them better, and seemed to take what they said very seriously. The shade of a young girl, possibly a little more daring than the others, boldly stood beside him and grabbed onto the fabric of his chiton.
Nico petted her head affectionately. It appeared that he could touch them as though they were living. Whenever Jason accidentally touched the lares, his hands went right through them, and he had to restrain himself from saying ‘Ick’ out loud.
“Guys,” Nico said, looking at the Romans with a slightly annoyed quirk to his brows. “Come on. You’re better than this. Reyna’s only been gone for a few hours and you’re already in shambles. I’d expect this of Greeks, but I thought you all were above this barbarism.”
Jason had not thought of saying that, and would not have been willing to say it if he had, but Nico had found the magic words that got the assembled New Romans to sit down and shut up.
“You’ve got nothing to worry about,” Nico said. “It’s still February. The war starts in the spring, so you can keep your remaining praetor for a while. And when he leaves, I’ve secured a guarantee from Apollo that he will personally keep an eye on things here.”
That was incredible news, and Nico could have ended the speech there and people would have been happy.
“Since you need a replacement praetor, I nominate Thomas,” Nico said. One of the lares stood up and looked around in surprise. It was the shade of an old man in a military uniform. “I got to know him during Parentalia. He was one of the greatest praetors Camp Jupiter has ever known back in the civil war. And he was a child of Bellona, like Reyna.
Nico handed something to Thomas, a small metal object Jason didn’t recognize. The shade shimmered into a more colorful version of realness, and Thomas looked around, temporarily alert.
Nico handed Thomas the microphone.
It stayed in his hand.
The audience went deadly silent. No one present had ever seen anything like that happen before. Shades didn’t hold things, it went against the laws of nature.
Clearly Nico didn’t care about petty things like that. Jason watched him in awe.
“Introduce yourself,” Nico said, giving Thomas a nudge.
Thomas cleared his dead throat that no longer needed clearing. Old habits died hard, clearly.
“My name was Thomas Langstrom in my most recent life,” Thomas said. He had a Southern accent, similar to Hazel’s, and a big moustache. “I was a Roman praetor for over a decade, and one of the founders of New Rome University. I lived three lifetimes-- the first two were both in the original Rome. The old country, you might say. My heart and my immortal soul is with you all, the inheritors of a great legacy of culture and history. I chose to stay here and help once more, when I was summoned quite some time ago.”
“He’s being modest,” Nico said, yanking the microphone back. “Thomas lived three heroic lifetimes and earned a place in the Isles of the Blessed. Not Elysium,” he emphasized. “The Isles of the Blessed. It’s way better there. It has a waterpark.”
“Nice,” Percy said to himself quietly.
“I couldn’t believe he wanted to come back here and watch over you guys. It seemed like you all forgot about him on Parentalia,” Nico said. “Anyway, I’m putting him in charge. He has a magic pocketwatch that gives him a stronger presence here on the surface. It’ll break if anyone takes it from him, and when it runs out of time, he’ll return to the Underworld. So don’t try to borrow it,” he warned the other shades, wagging his finger at them. “Shades like him get special privileges.”
The lares all nodded obediently, and Thomas admired his new, somewhat more solid body.
“Okay, cool!” Nico said. “See you later.”
He disappeared. His absence seemed to leave a hole in the center of the room. Jason felt an energetic tension leave him suddenly. Nico’s effect on him was disturbingly intense. Was it a god thing? Did everyone feel that around him? He didn’t have the guts to ask anybody, scared of the answer.
Setting his worries aside, Jason turned to Thomas and smiled politely.
“Glad to have you with us,” he said, shaking the shade’s hand. Thomas felt cold and thin, like touching a cloud. He regretted the handshake, suppressing a shudder.
Thomas frowned at him, his moustache ruffling.
“I’ve never not been with the ungrateful children of Rome,” Thomas said. “I know more about fighting wars than all you young whippersnappers combined. Y’all are gonna learn some gods-damned respect for your elders if it kills me again. And no more of this shouting in the senate. Back in my day we knew how to act. It’s a lack of home training. In fact, we--”
“So grateful to have you helping us out,” Jason said. “I think it’s best if you and Octavian run everything while I go and look for Reyna. I’d better start preparing for that. Right now.”
He hurried out of the senate as fast as possible. This was the kind of weird situation that only a death god would come up with. It wasn’t necessarily a problem, since Thomas sounded incredibly qualified. He’d protect the Camp as well as Jason could. He’d just be old-fashioned about it. There were worse things.
Percy, Annabeth, Piper and Leo hurried out after him, wanting more information than he’d given to the general public. They didn’t have to speak or coordinate anything to meet at the door; Jason hoped it was a sign they were slowly beginning to integrate as a team.
“Hazel wants to meet on the Argo this evening,” Jason told them. “I don’t know a lot about Reyna, but I think we’ll hear more about her soon.”
“Can we talk about Casper the Confederate ghost in there?” Leo asked. “Did anybody ask him where he stands on race relations? I’m already hearing ‘Greek’ get thrown around like a slur. I don’t want to deal with worse ones.”
“Sometimes the wisest course is to avoid asking unnecessary questions,” Annabeth said. “Keeping him in line isn’t our responsibility. We’re on our quest as of today, at least the beginning of one. We have to focus. The preliminary research stage is the most crucial.”
“It’s also the most boring,” Percy said.
Planning to meet at five that evening, everyone went their separate ways to start their preparations. Jason went back to his apartment alone.
He went to his room and picked up the picture on his nightstand. It was a photo of him and Reyna after they’d returned from their quest in Charleston, taken when they were about fourteen. They both had acne and greasy hair, but their smiles took up their whole faces, and they had their arms around each other’s shoulders.
Jason caught himself wondering if he’d ever get to see her again. He put her photo down. It didn’t bear thinking about.
That night, at the meeting, Hazel described her dream, and they discussed the possibilities of where Reyna could be.
The next night, they had the same discussion. Hazel had had another dream, but it was similar, revealing little more.
The night after that, the same thing.
They moved the meetings to every other night. Then once a week. They weren’t getting anywhere, and the atmosphere between the Seven was growing more awkward, when it should have been growing less.
Mainly, the problem was with New Rome. They didn’t trust the Greeks, and so when Percy, Annabeth, Leo, and Piper tried to go out, even just to get pizza, they were met with suspicious looks and tension. Percy and Annabeth seemed more than happy to hole up in their apartment and ‘research,’ although based on the noises that echoed through the thin apartment walls, Jason suspected they weren’t working as hard as they claimed. Leo had the Argo II to work on, and he had few complaints, since that was all he’d be doing regardless of which camp it was parked in. Piper was the real problem.
Ever since Reyna’s disappearance, Jason could barely stand to look at Piper. The ugly truth was, he’d rather it had been Piper kidnapped. Reyna’s loss left a larger wound in his life. Hazel kept insisting she was alive, but at a certain point, the not-knowing hurt almost as much as grief. He had visions of her crying, being tortured by monsters. He prayed they weren’t dreams from the gods. In his world, one could never be sure.
He made every excuse in the book to avoid seeing Piper, but she saw right through him. She was perfectly understanding, always gentle with his feelings. As much as it hurt her, she knew he cared about her and wasn’t doing it on purpose.
Every time they saw each other, he thought about ending things. Anytime he hinted at it, hoping she’d take the ball and run with it, she just reassured him that the timing was bad, but they would be okay. She had endless excuses for why it didn’t matter, that they were still an endgame couple who needed to make it through a rough patch. He had no idea why she wanted him so badly. She could have had any man in Camp Jupiter wrapped around her finger.
A few weeks into February, he was starting to lose hope. It felt like they were stuck in place, and Reyna was lost to them forever. He’d had a long day of overseeing training and weapons inventory, attending senate meetings, and watching Octavian and Thomas argue about how things should be done.
He felt guilty for taking a step back as praetor, yet refusing to give up his title to Octavian, and they’d fought about it a bit. He felt Camp needed Octavian, but his doubts over his loyalties were holding him back. Hazel disagreed with him, but Jason felt like there was a chance Octavian was acting in Camp Jupiter’s interests and being misunderstood somehow.
He also felt like he was at the end of his rope and couldn’t handle taking over any of the work Octavian was doing. The guilt and self-loathing was crushing him, but ever since Parentalia and Reyna’s disappearance, his bandwidth for responsibility seemed to be shrinking. It was as if his mind wanted to do things and his body was saying no. He’d zone out at his desk, his eyes blurring looking at paperwork. Annabeth’s research for the quest was progressing well, and they’d figured out that Reyna was in Europe. Plans were underway to cross the Mare Nostrum, but he couldn’t have told you the details with a gun to his dead.
Piper thought he had depression. He wasn’t sure whether that was correct, but he agreed there was something wrong with him.
The day before Valentines day, it started to rain on his way back from the senate. He was soaked to the bone by the time he shut the door and locked it behind him. He almost smiled; it felt good to feel something, even if that something was cold and wet.
Piper was going to come talk to him, but he couldn’t stand the thought of seeing her. She always prioritized connection, even when it was hard, and she’d want to talk through his feelings about Reyna for the thousandth time. Even if those feelings involved wishing he’d never met Piper, she’d want to hear them. To her, love was seeing the truth in someone. It was seeing everything.
Jason wasn’t ready to be seen like that.
He put a record on and poured himself a cup of herbal tea, curling up on his couch under a blanket. He let his head fall back against the couch.
The Argo II was almost ready. They’d start their trip any day now. He couldn’t even look forward to leaving, though, because he’d be worried about Camp Jupiter every minute he was away. He really couldn’t catch a break.
He took a sip of chamomile, and smelled a familiar scent in the air.
He whipped around on the couch, turning back to look for Nico. His heart skipped several beats when he saw him.
“Hi,” Nico said, standing in the middle of Jason’s living room floor. “I can’t believe your apartment was next to mine this whole time.”
“Are you Percy and Annabeth’s landlord?” Jason asked in surprise.
“Yup. Kind of against my will,” Nico said. He was still wearing the same black silk chiton he’d worn when he’d introduced Thomas. Jason’s eyes went to his exposed legs immediately, although he certainly didn’t miss the exposed shoulder, either. He was less self conscious about subtly ogling Nico when they were alone, since Nico didn’t seem to pay any attention to it.
He admired how the fabric glistened like petroleum as Nico walked over to sit beside him.
“Someone looks cozy,” Nico said, looking at him enviously. “Wish I had tea.”
“Do you want some?” Jason asked, knowing hospitality was his obligation when a god came to visit.
“Yes, please,” Nico said, sitting down with a thump on the couch.
Jason got up to prepare him a cup, hyperaware of Nico watching him.
“I know how it looks, sitting around at home when New Rome is in shambles,” Jason said, standing at the counter and waiting on the water to boil. “I’m not really myself lately.”
“I’m aware, Jason. We were all witness to your nervous breakdown a few weeks ago.” Nico said. “Hazel said you haven’t improved. If I were you I’d be on a beach somewhere trying to forget this place exists. I can’t believe you’re still showing up for work.”
“I guess if Juno can run away to Turks and Caicos, it wouldn’t be crazy for me to do it,” Jason said.
“If you wanted to, now is your last chance,” Nico said. “I mean, until the war starts,” he added.
“I think I’m okay for now,” Jason said, pouring the chamomile. He brought it over to Nico and handed it to him carefully. “It’s hot,” he said.
Nico gave him a cheeky smirk, taking a sip.
“Ow, so hot,” he said mockingly.
“You don’t get burned by hot drinks,” Jason sighed. “Should’ve known.”
Nico giggled. The sound was so cute, and so incongruous with everything Jason had ever imagined a death god to be, that all he could do was stare.
“Hey, you have a record player!” Nico said, noting Jason’s Roman purple record player on his side table. “I thought only Hazel and I were old fashioned like that.”
“I know demigods have kind of mutually agreed that CDs don’t attract monsters anymore,” Jason said. “But I think these are safer. We all have to do our part to make Terminus’ job easier.”
“Protecting Camp Jupiter, even in the privacy of your own home,” Nico said, shaking his head. “Are you always on, Praetor Jason?”
“Yes,” he said, feeling self-conscious. “I try to be.”
Nico sighed.
“I’m jealous.”
“Jealous?” Jason asked. “Of me?”
“Um. No, not really,” he said. “I’m not sure why I said that.”
Jason waited for Nico to elaborate, but he didn’t. He just stared down into his chamomile thoughtfully, his dark eyes shadowed by dark curls that fell over his face.
Jason could have stared at him all day, but he chose to change the subject instead.
“I like your outfit,” he said.
“My outfit?” Nico looked down at himself. “It’s just my work uniform. I forgot to change.” His clothing shimmered and transformed into joggers and a black sweatshirt.
Jason sat down next to him.
“I didn’t know the Underworld had work uniforms. What do you do, exactly?”
“Uniforms are a new thing,” Nico said, ignoring his question entirely. “Let me cut to the chase. I’m here to ask about Thomas. How is he working out? Because Hazel and I think he’s fine, but we’re more accustomed to shades than most people.”
Jason thought about his answer. He was on the fence about saying something polite and diplomatic. Instead, he decided to risk honesty.
“Putting a shade in charge of camp probably the most out of pocket, crazy idea ever,” he said. “It freaks people out, for sure.”
Nico’s face fell.
“But extreme measures during wartime are tolerable,” Jason added.
“Tolerable is what I aim for,” Nico said, looking relieved. “Cool. I didn’t want to become known as the god who destroyed Camp Jupiter.”
“Will Apollo really look after camp once we’re gone?” Jason said. After seeing Apollo in action at the Parentalia games, he found it hard to believe.
“I think he’ll try to remember to check on you at least once,” Nico said confidently.
“I guess that’s better than nothing,” Jason said. “Thank you for your help. I know New Rome really isn’t your responsibility.”
“You’re welcome,” Nico said. “I like working with you, Jason. Who knows? Maybe this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship.”
Jason’s heart skipped a beat.
Was that how Nico saw him? A potential friend? Was that what Jason wanted? Why did he feel so weird all of a sudden?
“I need more tea,” Jason blurted out.
While he was in the kitchen, Nico got up and changed the record.
“Folklore,” Jason said, hearing the familiar beginning notes of the song ‘The One.’ “It’s my favorite.”
“It’s Taylor Swift, right?” Nico said. “I’ve heard a lot about her, but I’ve never listened to her before.”
“You’ve never listened to Taylor Swift?” Jason asked, nearly dropping his chamomile.
Nico smirked.
“I take it you’re a fan?” He asked, looking through the records on the table. Most of them were Taylor Swift albums, Jason realized.
“Oh, I, uh,” Jason stuttered. “I dabble.”
“Uh huh,” Nico smirked. “Okay.”
Nico sat wordlessly on the couch, sipping tea and watching raindrops streak down the windowpane. His face was turned away, so Jason was able to stare at him without it being obvious, since it looked like he was looking out the window, too. The moment felt suddenly precious and ethereal, like he was in a bubble of perfect, tucked away from the rest of the world. He was listening to his favorite album with Nico. And the second song on the album was Cardigan, his favorite song of all time.
The piano notes were gentle and melancholy. The words were simple, relatable poetry. Jason had always felt a connection to the song, but never like this. His feelings toward Nico had been confusing at first, but Taylor helped him unpack them. She always did.
He wouldn’t call it a crush, but he felt a deep appreciation for Nico -- for everything about him. He wanted to know him more. He wanted to be known by him more. He just wanted more of everything.
Song after song played. Nico’s attention never wavered. He never had to get up to use the bathroom. He never blinked. He didn’t even scratch his nose. He just watched the raindrops, more motionless than a human ever could be.
When the album was over, Nico flicked his eyes over at Jason.
“You dabble?”
“Um. Yes?”
“You were mouthing the words. All of them. To every song.”
Jason turned slightly pink.
“Please don’t tell anybody.”
“You were also staring at me the whole time,” Nico added with a teasing little smirk. His lips were so perfectly defined that they looked like they’d been painted in brushstrokes with luminous rose colored paint.
The pink in Jason’s face turned to bright red. He had no words, just way too much feeling.
“You don’t hang out with gods much, do you?” Nico said, looking down at the records on the coffee table and sorting through them. “I can tell I make you nervous. Don’t worry, I’m not the type to smite you for looking at me wrong.”
“I didn’t think you were,” Jason said huskily, relieved Nico had mistaken his creepiness for nerves.
“I haven’t been a god long. It took me a while to realize what I was. I felt normal. I still feel normal. Isn’t that weird?” Nico shrugged. “I’m still not used to getting treated like one.”
Jason stared in disbelief. How could Nico not know he was a god? Did they not have mirrors in the Underworld? Did he not notice people swooning and falling at his feet every time he laughed with that dark little chuckle that made Jason feel lightheaded every time he heard it?
“The truth is, I might not be a god for long,” Nico said. His voice sounded slightly choked when he said it, like it was hard to get the words out.
“Why?”
“No details,” Nico said. “But yeah. It might be a thing. I’ll stay immortal, but other than that, I might be a little closer to what you are after the war.”
Closer to what Jason was? Did that mean closer to Jason? Suddenly, a friendship didn’t seem like such a pipe dream after all. Maybe Nico had really meant it.
“You sound upset about it,” Jason said.
“Eh,” he shrugged. “Che sera, sera. You know, I really was jealous of you earlier. For a minute, I thought you were lucky. Everyone around you is always encouraging you to embrace your potential. To step up and take more on and be the greatest hero you can be. I… Don’t exactly have that support in my life. At least, not from the people I want it from.”
“Oh,” Jason said. Nico was right, Jason had a lot of people rooting for him. That was something he ought to appreciate more.
“Then I realized that’s stupid,” Nico said. “You’re miserable. You’re being forced to be something you’re not. I don’t envy you in the slightest.”
Jason dropped his mug. Tea spilled all over his blanket. Nico cleaned it up with a wave of his hand, his fingers brushing Jason’s thigh through the fabric of the fuzzy blanket.
It took a moment for Jason to speak. He had to quickly reconcile the fact that Nico had just touched him, and that it probably hadn’t been on purpose. Even though he sort of wished it was.
There was something terribly wrong with him for thinking that, he was certain. They were barely acquaintances. You didn’t think thoughts like that about near-strangers. At least, Jason never had before.
“Sorry,” Jason said, setting his mug on the coffee table and setting the blanket aside. “You caught me off guard. You think I’m being forced to be something I’m not?”
Nico squinted at him.
“Look, I don’t know you that well,” he said. “I don’t think it’s a good idea for me to rip your fake persona apart when I need you in fighting spirit for the war. You can pretend I didn’t say anything. Maybe I should go.”
“You’re just going to say that and leave?”
Jason’s imposter syndrome kicked into the highest of high gears. What if Nico’s godly insight had found him out, had realized his confidence was mostly faked? His refusal to explain just made Jason more worried about what it was he’d say. Jason knew better than anyone that his castle of self-worth was built on a foundation fragile as sand. Maybe Nico really was still out to destroy him.
Jason grabbed Nico’s arm, an impulsive move he regretted. Nico looked down at the place where Jason had touched him.
An electric heat seared between them. Jason pulled his hand back like he’d been burned, but the feeling hadn’t been painful. Actually, Nico’s skin was cold. But the feelings he evoked in Jason left him on fire with a feeling that was undeniable. There was something there, something intense. Something Jason was utterly terrified to put a name to.
Maybe Nico really had touched his leg on purpose.
“Okay, I guess I’ll just say it,” Nico shrugged, pretending like nothing had passed between them. “Jason, you’re not a natural leader. You’re just a tall blonde dude. I’m sorry.”
Jason understood exactly what he meant. His image had always spoken for him when Jason didn’t know what to say. He was constantly given the benefit of the doubt when his wishy-washy personality left him unsure of the right course of action. He’d been called cautious and diplomatic when he simply lacked conviction. Reyna was the only person who ever called him out on it.
“I know,” he said, relieved to hear something he could have answered on his own. He was actually disappointed he hadn’t gotten any more insight into himself. “I’ve heard that before. I’ll probably step down from praetorship after the war.”
“Sure,” Nico said, smiling reassuringly. “You’re still a competent hero and an asset to the quest. I just think you’re better off in a supporting role.”
“I get it,” Jason said. “It’s cool.” Getting demoted stung, but he could take it. As long as he could protect the camps and save Reyna, he didn’t care about the rest.
“I read Juno’s file on you,” Nico said. “It was basically a plan to build the perfect hero. She wanted you to be her trophy child. When he was younger, Percy earned glory as easily as breathing. He even did it when he’d been told not to. For you, it had to be forced. Juno didn’t like that you couldn’t seem to compete with Percy, but it wasn’t what the Fates spun for you.”
“What did they spin?” Jason asked.
“You’d have to ask them,” Nico said nonchalantly. There was something in his face that Jason didn’t trust, like he knew more than he was saying. But that was always the case with gods.
“What kind of role do you want me to take on for the quest?” Jason said. “Based on my file.”
“Let me think about that,” Nico said, sitting back on the couch and crossing his legs, frowning. “Annabeth’s the strategist. Percy’s the champion. Hazel’s the warrior queen, and Frank is her shape-shifting bodyguard. Leo’s the technician, Piper is the sneaky one. I guess you can just be what you always have been,” Nico said. “An obedient dog.”
Jason’s mouth dropped open.
Nico laughed at his reaction.
“Too much? I thought it was funny,” he smirked, dark eyes glinting. “I’ll call you a soldier if you like that better. Just follow orders and help everyone out. It’ll be needed, don’t you think?”
Show up. Help everyone. Do as he was told. Jason was happy with those job responsibilities, he just needed to get used to not being in charge. It would be a good change. And a necessary one, since he wasn’t functioning at the level he had in the past.
“It’s fine,” Jason said. “Except for one thing. I’m not a dog. I’m a wolf.”
Nico was holding back laughter, but Jason was deadly serious about what he was saying. He hadn’t been raised by Lupa for nothing. Maybe it was time he went back to his roots.
“Cool,” Nico said. “Jason Grace, the wolf of Rome. I like it.”
“Me too,” Jason said. He smiled at Nico. “Thanks for hanging out with me.”
Nico smiled back at him radiantly.
“We’ll have to do it again sometime,” he said. “I really should go back to work. I’ll see you later, Jason.”
He disappeared.
Jason heaved a sigh and ran his hand across the fabric of the couch where Nico had been sitting. It was as cool as if no one had been there. But the faint smell of smoke hung in the air, and he could still feel a phantom touch on his fingertips where he’d made contact with his arm. Nico might have felt like he was normal, but he was anything but. No human had ever made Jason feel this way.
Jason started the record over again, only this time, he skipped straight to Cardigan. He listened over and over, staring at the ceiling, wondering if he was making a fool of himself. Was there something there? Was he losing his mind? He had no idea.
When he woke up the next morning, something had been dropped through his mail slot. Yawning, he wandered over in his pajamas to see what it was for.
It was an unmarked envelope. He opened it. It took him a minute to understand what he was looking at.
It was a ticket.
Jason held it gently in both hands, hurrying over to the counter and setting it down carefully, like it might disintegrate if it was handled roughly. He was hyperventilating. This could not be real.
He was staring at a ticket to the Eras Tour. The show was scheduled for that night in San Francisco.
He hadn’t even known about the show. He didn’t bother looking at tour dates, since he had no computer or phone to buy a ticket on. Even if he had, he didn’t want to deal with the disappointment of trying and failing to land a coveted ticket.
The one on the counter looked like it was a good seat. It must have been worth thousands of dollars.
There was a Post-It note on that back. On it was written,
“I found it on a dead girl. She’d have wanted you to have it. The keys are in the car. Go worship your goddess. ~ Nico”
Jason was totally overwhelmed. All he could do was stand there and grin at the ticket like a madman. Never in his wildest dreams did he think he’d get to see Taylor Swift perform live.
This was so much more than a friendly, ‘thinking of you.’ This was life altering. This was a bucket list item. This was the most incredible thing anyone had ever done for Jason. He was going to be entrusted with Nico’s car, and he was going to have the greatest night of his life. All because Nico liked him. He’d enjoyed talking to him. He’d appreciated his favorite album.
Jason reached up to his face and found that he was actually weeping tears of joy. He was so happy he felt like he was floating. Mostly it was because of the ticket, but it was also because he had no doubt any longer that Nico felt something for Jason that was more than friendship.
He was scared of what that meant. There was nowhere it could possibly lead that wouldn’t be terrifying and way out of his comfort zone. He’d never been seduced by anyone before. Not successfully, anyway. But it felt like it was happening now.
And he was pretty sure he liked it.
Chapter 73: Invisible String
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Light flickered and sputtered in the darkness like a candle in the rain. Nico slipped through a shadow to stand in a dark bedroom, where a bottle had fallen from a limp hand. Pills had spilled out and scattered on the floor. Thunder rattled the windowpane, and a lightning strike briefly illuminated the scene.
A man was lying in bed, having choked to death on his own vomit. He was still twitching.
“Well, that’s gross,” Nico said, observing the messy scene impassively. “Guess you’re coming home with me.”
He tapped the man on the head, and his soul popped out of his skull.
“Into the pocket you go,” Nico said cheerfully, shoving the shimmering soul into the folds of his chiton and slipping into the darkness again.
The next stop was even more gruesome. It was a logging yard where massive tree trunks were processed into smaller cuts of wood using heavy machinery. A strap had given way on a log pile, and a man named Phil had been flattened like a biscuit under a rolling pin. Previously, he’d been a heavyset middle aged man. Now he was a human shaped pancake, his flannel shirt smushed into the soft dirt of the yard. He was surrounded by similarly flannel clad men wearing yellow hard hats, which they’d removed in a gesture of respect.
“I guess we’d better call an ambulance,” one of the men said, scratching his beard.
“I think he’s still breathing,” Another said, holding his hand out over his squished colleague’s mouth.
“Pardon me,” Nico said silently, leaning over the man.
He stuck his hand right through the logger’s, causing the other man to shudder and withdraw a step backward. Phil’s soul popped out into his palm, desperate to get out of its physical cage, which had gotten way too small, way too fast. Nico inspected the soul to see if it looked squished, too, but it was pristine, bobbing in the air like an apple in a bucket of water. He tucked it into his pocket with the others and moved on.
Nico was having a great day at work, just like the day before, and the day before that. Any day spent collecting souls was pretty much perfect. Each stop was unique in some way and alike in another, and he liked the challenge of trying to remember all of the soul’s names. He couldn’t list them out anymore, which was exciting, because it meant he’d collected a few thousand. If he jogged his memory or thought hard about it, he could come up with pretty much all of them. They didn’t leave his mind, just got tucked a little further away in the catalogue.
Being a god meant your brain worked differently. He was starting to understand that more clearly every day, since there was no way a sane human could handle seeing so many gruesome scenes. Ironically, Thanatos always told him he got too emotional, but he disagreed. Sometimes he’d get a little verklempt, but the emotions were part of the richness of the experience. At the end of the day, he adored the work. Maybe a little too much, considering he wasn’t supposed to be doing it.
He slid sideways through space and stepped into a pitch dark room. He could see everything, of course, even without light to aid him. He heard the pleasant, echoing silence of a cozy home surrounding him like a warm blanket. A clock ticked. A fat labrador snored on the floor in a plush dog bed. A baby slept in a crib nearby.
He walked over to the side of the crib, which was decorated with zoo animals and totally empty of potentially dangerous blankets and toys. The baby looked fine from the outside, sleeping peacefully, but it wouldn’t be fine for more than a second longer.
He’d never taken one this young before, not a tiny baby like this one. He gritted his teeth, worrying that this one would be different, that the work would finally start getting to him and he’d have to stop. He didn’t want to stop, but he wondered if there might be a collection that crossed a line, that he couldn’t handle. He’d always thought of himself as an empathetic person, and he was far from cold when he was collecting souls. He’d had some doubts that he was tough enough to handle the gig.
But he took the baby’s soul as easily as he’d taken all the others. He reached out, and the soul reached back, just as ready to leave as the ones who’d led longer, fuller lives. He wondered why this child’s life had to end so quickly, and what the point of it all was.
He could imagine Persephone’s answer, talking about cycles of nature. Unfortunately, she’d probably bring up compost and the life cycle of fungi. His father would chuckle at his sensitivity and tell him that the world was cruel, and the only fair part of it was death. They were both right, sort of, but that didn’t help much when there was a dead baby in front of you.
He put the baby in his pocket extra gently, feeling a sense of protectiveness come over him. He had to make sure the baby made it to the Underworld safely, along with all the others. If he wasn’t careful, they could end up trapped on earth, wandering as ghosts, lonely and scared for eternity. He couldn’t bear thinking of that happening to this little one, who wouldn’t understand what had happened and why it was alone.
A shrill beeping noise sounded, startling him. He turned around and saw a little white machine with a red blinking light, the source of the noise. It was some sort of monitoring system. The dog started barking frantically.
His stomach twisted. Within seconds, two young parents ran into the bedroom, shouting. Nico felt like a burglar who’d tripped an alarm. He was one, in a way, just one they couldn’t see.
First the parents called 911 and tried CPR. The fact that they knew how to do it made him feel horrible. They were obviously good parents who didn’t deserve what had happened.
When the CPR didn’t work, everything fell apart.
Nico wanted to leave. His job was done, and he had other souls to take, but he stayed anyway. It felt like cheating to cut and run when things got ugly. Tears sprang to his eyes while he stood awkwardly nearby, listening to their gut-wrenching cries of despair. The father’s face had a look of disbelief, like he was waiting to wake up from a horrible nightmare. Nico tried not to look at the mother, lying on the floor holding her child, begging him to wake up.
It wasn’t often Nico was grateful that he’d watched his mother die violently before his eyes. She’d been blasted into pieces in a fiery explosion, but her children had both survived. The mom in front of him would have gladly swapped places with her.
He watched, frozen in place. He only broke out of his stillness when Thanatos appeared before him, standing between him and the couple.
They had water cooler conversations next to corpses all the time, but this particular situation felt different, like it was something holy. Nico didn’t want it disturbed.
“I knew this one would get you,” Thanatos said, raising an eyebrow. His mantle fluttered in an invisible breeze; Nico could sense the presence of tens of thousands of souls in the dark folds of fabric. Thanatos was still way faster than he was, since Nico was still seeing new situations all the time, and Thanatos was an old pro.
“You put a baby on my list on purpose?” Nico asked.
“Losing your taste for the work yet?”
“No!” Nico said loudly. He flinched, worrying he’d interrupted the grieving parents, but their conversation was inaudible to the mortals.
“Fine. Next time I’ll assign you a NICU ward. Or pediatric oncology. You won’t last a week.”
“I’d last a century, and you know it,” Nico said. “I’m not quitting. But don’t pull shit like this again. We should be pulling from the list at random, not assigning deaths with agendas.”
“Telling me how to do my job now? Aren’t you getting bold,” Thanatos said.
Nico turned away from him. Thanatos grabbed his shoulder, and let Nico pull him along through the darkness back to the Underworld.
Nico walked away from him, but Than kept following.
“You can’t run from me,” Thanatos said. “I’ll find you anywhere.”
“I just want to drop her off in peace,” Nico snapped.
“I thought I was your peace.”
“Yeah, a piece of work,” Nico muttered. “Remind me again why I put up with you.”
“When you figure it out, you can let me know,” Thanatos said. “I find myself asking the same question.”
He didn’t interrupt as Nico went over to the stone arch next to the Lethe. He and Thanatos stayed invisible, although they could still see each other. Thanatos was right that he could find Nico anywhere; for some reason they really couldn’t hide from one another, despite all their powers of concealment.
Nico stared at the archway wistfully.
“I wish I could send her through myself,” he said quietly.
“Your father has to keep busy somehow,” Thanatos said. “Set it down quickly. I hear him coming.”
Nico set the baby’s soul down on the gravel gently. There was a cluster of shades lined up near the stone portal waiting for their turns to go through. Babies, for obvious reasons, skipped judgment.
As soon as the baby was on the ground, a female shade picked it up and held it. Babies were never left alone for long, since there was always a veteran mom around to grab them, repeating gestures they’d made a thousand times in life. Sometimes shades fought over who got to cuddle them and had to take turns.
Nico saw Hades walk over to preside over the next steps: drinking from the Lethe and walking through the arch. He thought about saying hi to him, but they hadn’t spoken since the ‘trying to eat him’ incident.
He watched as his dad waved goodbye to each of the shades one by one, wishing them good luck. When the baby passed through in the woman’s arms, Hades stopped to pat him on the head.
“We’ll hope for longer next time,” Hades said, smiling at the infant as he disappeared to start his new life somewhere else.
Nico stared at his dad for a minute. How could he be so kind to shades he didn’t even know, but he couldn’t manage to not yell at his only son? And why did Nico miss the bastard so dang much?
Thanatos tugged his arm, and Nico allowed himself to be pulled away.
Back in Thanatos’ dark bedroom, the two of them faced each other for a moment. Then Nico shook his head and went to sit at the Mythomagic table. It was just a normal stone table with a felt top, but Thanatos never used it for anything other than Mythomagic, therefore it was the Mythomagic table. At the moment Nico’s skeletal kitten Beatrice was sitting on the tabletop licking her bony paws.
Thanatos sat across from him, steepling his long white fingers. Beatrice clicked over to him on her tiny white feet, and Thanatos ran his hand across her ribs affectionately.
“Now you’re going to be irked at me? Is that fair? After I granted your request?” Thanatos said, his golden eyes glinting with irritation as he looked at Nico.
“I’m grateful,” Nico said, although he wasn’t, because he secretly felt entitled to be a psychopomp. Thanatos knew that, but they didn’t talk about it. “I just wanted to watch for a minute. I didn’t like being interrupted.”
“You delayed the schedule for forty five seconds. Do you know how long it takes to make that up?” Thanatos asked. “If you’re going to do this under the guise of assisting me, assist me, don’t just suit yourself all the time.”
“I thought you didn’t need my help,” Nico retorted.
“I don’t.”
“Fine.”
“Fine.”
Thanatos stood huffily and went over to his bookshelf to rearrange his dice collection. After he’d collected every rare Mythomagic card in existence, he’d started collecting cool looking dice-- a hobby that seemed nearly as infinite as his lifespan. The number of cool dice for sale was possibly more infinite than his bank account, but Nico was not bringing that up again. He’d learned to hand over the credit card and not ask questions.
Nico summoned a glass of ambrosia and sipped it with his eyes closed, sighing. It had been a long day. He considered it a workday regardless of the number of hours he’d passed, since time flowed so oddly while he was soul-collecting. It had actually been about two weeks since he’d taken a break. He thought his internship and living with his parents had been hard work, but having a real job and a real relationship was so much more complicated. It was exhausting, but in a good way. Now that he was working as a psychopomp, even if it had to be done in secret, there was no going back to the way it was before. Every single soul he took changed him irrevocably in ways he didn’t know how to articulate yet.
Something slid across the table in front of him. He looked down and saw a Mythomagic card on the table, its face hidden.
“Guess,” Thanatos said, standing behind him.
A smile bloomed on Nico’s face.
“You say that like I can’t recognize the back of the card,” Nico said. “It’s Cerberus. The first card I ever gave you.” He knew every tiny indentation, nick, and stain on the worn cardstock.
Thanatos ran his hands through Nico’s hair.
“Thank you for changing my life,” he said softly.
“Thank you for changing mine,” Nico echoed. He meant that now more than ever. It wasn’t too long ago that he’d thought of himself as the cool young god who’d given the god of death a makeover. But it had been Thanatos who’d led him to his destiny of being a psychopomp. That was more world altering than any haircut. Although it had been a really good haircut.
Thanatos scratched his head in a way that gave him pleasant tingles for a while until Nico remembered something he’d meant to tell him earlier.
“Hey, you know that demigod I was telling you about? Jason?” Nico said. “I think I really like him.”
The head scratches stopped abruptly.
“What do you mean, really like him? More than me?” Thanatos asked.
“Uh, no,” Nico said. “That’s impossible. But I do like him. We should all hang out sometime. Like, the three of us.” He flipped over the Mythomagic card, admiring his beloved Cerberus, depicted in cartoonish, snarling ferocity in the little box above his attack points.
“Two psychopomps and the son of Jupiter walk into a bar,” Thanatos said. “I don’t know the rest of that joke, but I suspect it ends in us breaking up.”
“It would cost you nothing to get to know him. And it would mean a lot to me.”
“You think my pride is worth nothing?” Thanatos said, resting his hands on Nico’s shoulders and tightening his grip possessively.
“Just saying it’s easier not to have any,” Nico said. “It might actually be kind of freeing.”
“You know I don’t hang out with mortals,” Thanatos said. “They make me think about work. I can’t socialize with clients on my days off. What about boundaries?”
“Boundaries, schmoundaries,” Nico said. “Jason is cute.”
“It doesn’t bother you seeing the expiration date hanging over their heads?”
“If it’s before the expiration date, that means it’s still good,” Nico said.
Thanatos paced back and forth for a minute, deliberating.
“I just don’t want to,” he said finally.
“Alright,” Nico said. “I respect your decision.”
“I don’t want you seeing him, either.”
“At all? Even if we were just friends?”
“Friends, lovers, it makes no difference. Either way you might decide you like him more than you like me,” Thanatos said, folding his arms across his chest. “And then I’d have to kill him. And you. And then myself.”
“We’re immortal. Also, I thought you weren’t able to kill mortals? Isn’t it against the rules?”
“Doesn’t mean I can’t try,” Thanatos shrugged.
Nico couldn’t afford to not see Jason again. The Seven would be leaving any day now. He’d been distracted with work lately, but he wasn’t intending to be one of those gods who was never around when his heroes needed him. Soon they’d need his help a lot more.
“Than,” he said, standing up and walking over to him. Thanatos had his face downcast. He looked sad, his hair falling over his eyes.
Nico took Thanatos’ cold hands in his own slightly less cold hands.
“You know me liking someone else doesn’t mean I like you less, right?”
“I know,” Thanatos mumbled, swinging their joined hands from side to side. “I still worry, though.”
“We’re always going to be together. Like, for eternity. Jason isn’t going to be around much longer. If I don’t get to know him now, I won’t be able to.”
“Well, how much longer will he be around?” Thanatos said. “I can only look the other way for so long.”
“He’s got until the end of the summer,” Nico said.
“Oh,” Thanatos said, his shoulders relaxing. “Is that all? Let me see.”
Thanatos opened his tablet and typed in Jason’s name.
“Too many Jasons,” he muttered.
“Look under ‘Grace, Jason’,” Nico said.
They only had the list for the next year’s worth of deaths. Jason’s name came up immediately. He would die on August 1st.
“That’s so soon that it may as well be tomorrow,” Thanatos said. “Why not just wait until he dies and keep his shade as a pet, if you like him so much? He can go in that corner there,” he said, pointing at a slightly dingy space off to one side of the room. “I’ve been thinking we need a lamp or something, but he should fit. You can dress him in a little outfit and play with him anytime you like.”
“It’s not the same,” Nico said sadly. He hated that Jason was running out of time. It wasn’t the death part that bothered him, but he found it tragic that Jason had wasted most of his life not living for himself. “I think there’s a real connection between us. I want to see where it leads before I can’t anymore. It feels like it’s important.”
“Important?” Thanatos snorted. “I doubt that. He’s just tall and blonde. You have one of those at home.”
“I don’t care about his looks! I like him for his personality,” Nico said. “Mostly.”
They went back to sit at the table. Thanatos took out his favorite stack of Mythomagic cards and began wiping down their protective plastic cases, setting them back into their velvet box one at a time. Nico made fun of him sometimes for treating them more like art than cards for a game, since they were from a basic starter pack and weren’t rare editions. But they were the first set Nico had given him, and to Thanatos, that made them precious relics.
“I think,” Thanatos said, after fiddling with the cards nervously for quite some time. “I think I do want to see him.”
“Let’s go on a date!” Nico said with delight. “I always wanted to try mini-golf.”
“No. Whatever that is, it sounds awful,” Thanatos said firmly. “I meant see him as in look at him. I want to watch you two together.”
“Watch us?” Nico raised his eyebrows. “Wow. I didn’t see that coming.”
“I can’t stand the idea of you running around with some mortal doing the gods-only-know-what, without me being one of the gods that know what,” Thanatos said. “I’ll just imagine you’re telling him how much better he is than me. At, you know,” he waved his hand suggestively. “Activities.”
“Activities,” Nico said.
“Of a certain nature,” Thanatos said.
“Do you mean sex?”
“I didn’t say that! You brought that up, not me,” Thanatos said, dropping the card deck he’d been shuffling. “You made me flustered. I dropped my cards.”
“Sorry,” Nico said, smiling at him affectionately. He knew that sex was never going to appeal much to Thanatos, but he hoped that his anxiety about the topic would abate someday. Thanatos vastly underestimated how happy Nico was just to be in his presence. He never felt like he lacked for anything when they were together, but Thanatos was still self-conscious about it.
“It’s not my first day in this pantheon, you know,” Thanatos said. “You’ve still got Olympian blood in your veins, and I suspect you’ll pursue this demigod regardless of what I say. Despite all your good qualities, there’s always going to be some part of you that’s horny and unfaithful. And doesn’t want to admit it.”
“That’s not true,” Nico said.
“See, like I said, you won’t admit it,” Thanatos sighed. “It’s alright. It’s part of the burden I bear, being from the older generation, and less plagued with impulses.”
Nico would have argued the point further, since he felt more than capable of being faithful. Unfortunately, he had cheated on Minos with Will, so he’d proved Thanatos right already. He thought it was obvious he’d matured past that, but it was better not to bring it up.
“Okay, get off your high horse, please,” Nico sighed. “You’re not perfect either.”
“I’ve never even been on a horse,” Thanatos said archly.
“I guess if it makes you feel better, you can watch me and Jason,” Nico said. “Hopefully it will put your mind at ease once you realize he’s not replacing you. He’s a totally different person. He’s not even a god.”
“Didn’t you say some of the Seven were candidates for godhood?” Thanatos asked, a suspicious gleam in his eye.
“He’s not one of them,” Nico said. “He wouldn’t be on our list if he was.”
“Oh,” Thanatos said. “Right. Just promise me if I can’t handle it, you’ll end things with him. I don’t think my heart can take it knowing you love someone else more than me.”
“Don’t worry. That’ll never happen. But one word from you, and I’ll drop him. I promise.”
Nico didn’t intend to wait weeks before talking to Jason again, but work drew him in like a moth to a black hole. It was easy to collect souls for weeks at a time without checking the date. It took something drastic to get him to snap out of it. But there was nothing more drastic than the beginning of spring.
He couldn’t let Persephone leave without saying goodbye. Of course, that meant speaking to his dad again for the first time since their fight. Nico wasn’t going to let anything keep him from seeing his mother off, but he did bring Thanatos for moral support, just in case.
The two of them materialized at the entrance to the Underworld, where Demeter was waiting, her blonde hair reflecting sunlight like golden wheat baking in the sun. Crisp March air, rich with the smell of wet earth and damp breezes, was jarring after so long in the darkness. The sun was nearly blinding.
“It’s nice to see you,” Nico said, giving Demeter a perfunctory hug. To his surprise, she hugged him back warmly. She was wearing green overalls embroidered with daffodils, and there was a small garden spade in her pocket. She looked rosy and radiant with the joyous anticipation of spring.
“Good morning!” She declared, so loudly that Thanatos flinched.
“Morning,” Nico said, less enthusiastically. “Are you excited?”
“It’s going to be a very busy spring, let me tell you,” Demeter said. “We’re really mixing it up this year. We’re doing nasturtiums early and crocuses late. Don’t even ask me what I’m doing with the snap peas! I’m really going off the rails with those,” she said.
“Damn, that’s crazy,” Nico said, grateful to see Persephone, Hades, and Cerberus emerging from the mouth of the cave. He had nothing to add to a conversation about snap peas. He admired Persephone’s diaphanous pink dress, with skirt panels that looked like rose petals that bloomed as she walked into the light.
“Mommy!” Persephone shouted, flinging herself at her mother. She and Demeter hugged, and all around them, flowers started blooming, birds began singing, and the breeze took on the scent of fragrant blossoms. Thanatos took a step backward onto the gravel, trying to avoid a buttercup that nearly touched his toe.
“I’m so excited,” Persephone said, turning to Nico. “We’re getting really wild this year. Oh, please be careful on your quest, my love. I’ll be thinking of you.” She gave him a hug, and he took one last opportunity to memorize the sweet, flowery smell of her hair. He had no idea when he’d see her again. It was hard to let go.
“Bye, Mom,” Nico said. “I hope you have a great spring. And you be careful, too. Today marks the start of the war. Gaea could attack anywhere at any time.”
“I’ve already implored her to be cautious,” Hades said, speaking for the first time. “I’m of the opinion she shouldn’t leave at all.”
“Actually, there’s no need to worry. I negotiated a truce for the two of us,” Demeter said, putting her arm around her daughter protectively. “Gaea is no fan of mine, but we have skills that she sees as valuable. She’ll leave us alone for the time being. In exchange, if she wins, I agreed that we’d submit to her and become her slaves without a fight.”
“What?!” Nico and Hades said in unison.
“But Nico isn’t going to let her win, so it’s fine. Right, grandson?” Demeter said.
“Right,” Nico said weakly. Obviously he’d known that Gaea’s war put all the gods at risk. There was still an unidentified mole in the Underworld, so the risk to Cthonic gods was always real. But the stakes suddenly felt much higher than they’d been previously.
Demeter and Persephone disappeared in a burst of flower petals. Nico was grateful that, for the moment, the two of them were safe and happy. He just hoped it lasted.
That left him, Thanatos, and his very miserable dad standing in awkward silence. Cerberus padded up to Nico and rolled over for belly scritches, which he gladly provided.
“I wish you’d never taken responsibility for those demigods,” Hades said darkly, without looking at Nico.
“Yeah, same,” Nico said. “But I’m going to do my best. I’ll meet with them tonight to start the quest.”
Cerberus rolled over and looked between Hades and Nico. His left head bit onto the fabric of Nico’s chiton, while his right head seized Hades’ mantle in its jaws. The two heads pulled in opposite directions, forcibly tugging Nico and Hades closer together.
“Cerby, stop, boy,” Nico said. “Come on.” Cerberus dragged him until his shoulder bumped into his dad’s.
Cerberus whined when the two of them both yanked their clothes free and stepped apart again. Then he laid his head on the ground and looked at them sadly. The gaze of all six eyes was potent. Nico felt like a monster for disappointing him.
Hades stared at his dog, appearing to be troubled in the same way that Nico was.
“Here,” Hades said, through gritted teeth. He held something out to Nico. It was a small whistle made of bone. “This will summon Cerberus if he is ever needed in the war. Give it to Hazel. Tell her it’s from you, if you must.”
“Oh. Okay,” Nico said, surprised. “Why are you giving her this?”
“It’s traditional to have aid from a godly parent on a quest,” Hades said. “I won’t have it said that I neglected my duty to her.”
“Yeah. I brought her back to life, bathed her in the Styx, and gave her Stygian iron weapons and the power of invisibility. But a whistle is super cool, she’ll be so impressed.”
“Lovely,” Hades sneered sarcastically. “I see your attitude has seen no improvement since we last spoke.”
“His attitude needs no improvement,” Thanatos said, snapping his wings open menacingly. “Don’t get too close to him, Nico, he might be hungry.”
A flash of embarrassment flared in Hades’ face.
“I don’t recall inviting you to involve yourself in our family affairs,” he said, drawing his long black mantle close around himself like a protective blanket.
“He’s not involved,” Nico said. “It’s fine, Than. I don’t need you to defend me.”
“I’d have a stronger rebuke, but your numbers have been shockingly good lately, and I can’t risk discouraging you in your work,” Hades said. “Come, Cerberus. We’re leaving.”
He went into the cave mouth and disappeared into the darkness. Cerberus followed, glancing back at Nico wistfully three separate times.
In no mood to linger, Nico said goodbye to Thanatos and headed straight to Camp Jupiter. It was time to prepare the Seven for departure.
He appeared in the center of New Rome and found a scene of chaos awaiting him. There was rubble and trash littering the typically pristine street, legionaries mustering into battle formations, and signs of the Camp preparing for war. Also, the Argo II was gone.
With a sinking feeling, Nico checked his phone. Annabeth had called him over a dozen times, but had gone straight to voicemail.
He listened to one, lurking in the shadow of a building and observing the Camp’s disarray. He really hoped this was a coincidence, and the Argo II had left under peaceful circumstances.
“I don’t know why you’re not answering your phone, but we’re next to the Great Salt Lake and we need your help. Jason is hurt and--”
He hung up and went straight to them.
The Argo II wassitting in the Great Salt Lake, and it appeared to be damaged.
Nico boarded the ship. He was reassured to see Hazel, Frank, and Leo standing on the deck inspecting the flying mechanisms, all of them unharmed.
He greeted them and gave Hazel a big hug. She told him about the ship randomly misfiring and the retaliatory attack from Camp Jupiter.
“Leo, you’re possessed by an eidolon,” Nico said without hesitation. “They’re a type of evil shade controlled by Gaea.”
“Oh, thank goodness. I thought I was losing it for real this time,” Leo said, color returning to his face.
Nico crooked a finger at him. A shadowy figure, brimming with evil Cthonic energy, stepped out and stood before Nico. It hesitated, then moved to attack.
Hazel had sliced it in two with her Stygian knives before it got anywhere near him. She, Frank, and Leo breathed a sigh of relief in unison once it was gone.
“That should solve most of your problems for the time being,” Nico said.
“We also need Celestial bronze,” Leo said quickly. “Pretty please,” he added, after Hazel poked him.
“You got it,” Nico said, creating a giant pile of bronze bars. “I’m assuming you can shape them yourself?”
“Yes, totally, thank you!” Leo said quickly, heading inside the ship with as many as he could carry. He must have had a forge hidden inside of the massive beast of a boat.
“He really built this whole thing, huh,” Nico said, admiring the deck. The view of the lake was lovely, but they were sitting ducks, stuck in direct, glaring sun. Frank was developing a sunburn on his forehead.
“Leo can build anything,” Frank said. “With his fire abilities, he’s a powerhouse. I wouldn’t be surprised if he was the one chosen for godhood based on talent alone.”
“I’d love it if you won, Frank,” Hazel said. “If I had a divine boyfriend and brother and father, I’d have the full set. Then I’d be the luckiest girl that ever lived.”
“I don’t think relationships between gods and mortals ever work out, though,” Frank said. “Don’t they always end in tragedy for the human?”
“Yes, but, uh... Hope springs eternal?” Nico said, which was the absolute best he could do. Morally, he had no defense for what he planned to do to Jason Grace. Maybe he didn’t know how to leave well enough alone. Ironically, Jason had been safer as his enemy. Now that Nico liked him, there would be no chance of escaping his fate.
“Hazel, dad gave me this for you,” Nico said, handing Hazel the small, whittled piece of bone. “It’s a whistle that summons Cerberus. In case you need an additional giant beast on your team,” he said, grinning at Frank.
“You think it’ll actually be useful?” She asked, inspecting it skeptically.
“Cerberus is an excellent tracker and relentless in battle, or so I’ve heard,” Nico said. “At home he’s mostly just a big goof. Persephone and Demeter will be enslaved to Gaea if we lose the war, so dad is giving you the big guns.”
“Wow. If you say so,” she said. “Tell him thanks, I guess. Will you stay long?”
“Yeah, I was thinking I might,” he said. “We’ll see.” He headed into the ship.
Percy and Annabeth were inside studying a map together. When he walked in, they both frowned at him.
“Oh, now he shows up,” Percy said.
“Excuse me?” Nico said.
“You didn’t answer your phone. Camp Jupiter—”
“Yeah, I know, Hazel told me,” Nico said, leaning over their map. “Charleston, huh?”
“We’re going after the Mark of Athena,” Annabeth said.
Nico shot her a confused look.
“And that’s going to lead to defeating Gaea somehow?”
“Yes,” she said. Her eyes were as certain and steely as he’d ever seen them, but there was a glimmer of fear, there, too.
“Cool. I trust you,” he shrugged. “Where’s Jason?”
“In the back with Piper, recovering from his concussion. He could have easily died, and the rest of us weren’t much better off. The Roman war machine is brutal. Why weren’t you checking your phone? We needed you to vouch for us.”
“I have my ringer off when I’m working,” Nico said. “And I know when Jason’s going to die. I know when all of you are going to die. Nobody’s number was up yesterday.”
He headed down the narrow hallway toward the stern of the ship. Each member of the Seven had a small private suite. Leo’s had Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle bedsheets. Hazel’s had a bunch of crystals growing in planters. Frank’s had a pull-up bar in the doorway. Annabeth’s had all of Percy’s stuff in it.
Jason’s was pretty bland, but he’d brought his record player and all his Taylor Swift albums. He was in bed, sound asleep, and Piper was fiddling with the record player, trying to figure out how to work it.
“How is he?” Nico asked, entering silently.
“Oh my god! You scared me,” Piper said, nearly jumping out of her shoes. “Uh, he got a chunk taken out of his scalp, but he knows what year it is, so I think he’ll be okay. We gave him all the ambrosia we could.”
Nico looked at where she was struggling to put the needle down in the right place on the record. He reached out and did it for her.
“Thanks,” she said. She looked at him, her dark eyes wide with fear. “Nico, will he be alright?”
“Of course,” Nico said. He felt sorry for the poor girl. She really did care for Jason, and he was about to royally fuck up her life. It occurred to him that a breakup on a quest could jeopardize the war effort. Maybe it wasn’t too late to turn back.
Jason turned over in his sleep, pushing his blanket away. The movement revealed an expanse of bare chest and a hint of well defined abdominal muscles. Piper gently pulled the blanket back up to preserve her boyfriend’s modesty, after a lengthy admiring glance, but it was too late. Nico had made up his mind.
“Hazel wanted to talk to you,” Nico said. “She has a new gift from my father. You should learn how to use it, just in case.”
“Okay,” she said. “Can you look after Jason?”
“No problem,” he said. She left, closing the door behind her.
Nico locked it.
Alone in the tiny cabin, standing in silence, he had a moment to appreciate the motion of the Argo II as it bobbed gently on the surface of the lake. Somewhere far below, he heard the revving of an engine; Leo was hard at work somewhere in the bowels of the ship. Nico didn’t care for boats, let alone flying ones, but he could imagine some people might get great sleep when they were rocked by the waves or the wind. Jason snored like he was a thousand miles away. His vacant, drooling expression was, to Nico, exquisite.
He didn’t want to wake him. Luckily, he didn’t have to.
Nico gently touched Jason’s forehead, moving on instinct. Then he froze. He’d gone into soul-collecting mode without thinking.
Well, that was awkward. He touched Jason’s arm this time, and fell into his dream.
Jason was dreaming about Taylor Swift, predictably. He was reliving the Eras Tour, only this time with even better seats. He stared up at Taylor reverently from the front row, his eyes reflecting the spotlights. Taylor sat at a piano wearing a beautiful blue gown that glittered like diamonds.
Nico sat beside him quietly until the song ended. The music wasn’t his style, and he didn’t like it any more now than he had when they’d listened to the Folklore album together. What he really loved was watching Jason listen. He clung to every word, connecting vaguely emotive lines to his own feelings and experiences. Taylor’s more wistful and melancholy pieces seemed to be his favorite, when she sang about what-if’s and dreams that would never come true. Nico imagined that Jason had missed a lot of opportunities and experiences. Unfortunately, being a disciplined, dutiful, A+ student-type meant that you were fated to feel like you’d missed out on the fun parts of life.
That was part of Jason’s story, but it didn’t have to be all of it.
“What’s this song called?” Nico asked, when she’d finished.
“State of Grace,” Jason grinned widely, giving Nico a glimpse of his perfect teeth. He was that kid who wore his retainer every night, and it showed. “One of my favorites, besides Cardigan. Nico, thank you so much for this ticket. It was the best night of my life. I’ll dream about it until the day I die.”
“You’re welcome,” Nico said. “It was my pleasure.”
Jason stared at him wistfully. Then he leaned over and kissed him.
Notes:
Today I watched the episode of the Percy Jackson TV show where they go to the Underworld. I have a pet peeve about TV shows being too dimly lit. Ironically, for once i thought a TV show was too bright. Why would the Underworld have a desert with artificial sunlight? Obviously it's somewhat open to interpretation, but I figured 'it's underground' was like, a core concept. Lol. Also, where was the river Styx? Did i miss it? And what was that Aphodel? Was the implication that all the people down there turn into trees? if not, where were the shades all hiding? We saw them outside the wall but not inside it?
Anyways, I did like seeing the goodest boy, Cerberus, and Hades in the show. Hades was interesting and I wish he had more screen time! His palace looked great, too. Just think, maybe in like 4-5 years we'll see Nico in the show, too. Maybe I'll be done with this fanfic by then. I give it 50/50 odds at the rate I'm going. :p
Chapter 74: Illicit Affairs
Chapter Text
The music stopped abruptly. Taylor froze mid-lyric. Jason pulled back and looked around. Why did everything freeze all of a sudden? That didn’t normally happen in his dreams.
“Wow,” Nico said, looking slightly stunned. “Um, this is awkward. I’m actually here.”
Nico had never said anything like that in the other dreams. Jason frowned.
“Actually here? What is that supposed to mean?”
“It means I’m the real Nico,” Nico said. “I’m not a dream. I came to visit.”
Jason considered this idea and decided it didn’t make any sense.
“I’m just dreaming that you’re saying that,” Jason concluded. He wished the music would turn back on. He didn’t like the look on Nico’s face, which was uncomfortable and slightly guilty. He would never dream him looking like that. He wondered for a second if his dream might be evolving into a nightmare.
Nico snapped his fingers. The concert venue immediately shifted and re-shaped, transforming into a central plaza. It was lined with street stalls selling bread and pastries, and a large mosque tiled in brilliant blue patterns loomed over everything, gleaming bright and clean in the sun.
“Woah,” Jason said, admiring the intricate decoration of the front of the mosque. “I’ve never seen anything like this.”
“That’s the point,” Nico said, looking at him pityingly.
“I’ve never seen anything like this.” The second time Jason said it, it was a conclusion, not a comment. You couldn’t dream of things you had no visual reference for. He’d never even been to a mosque, let alone one that looked this unique.
“This is Uzbekistan. You’ve never been here, but I have. I’m controlling your dream,” Nico said. “Believe me now?”
Jason looked back over his shoulder. Regardless of the circumstance, Nico had a dreamlike quality to him, an ethereal vibe that was impossible to attribute to any one feature. But the Nico before him really was distinctly different than the versions of him that Jason normally dreamed up. He was wearing an outfit Jason didn’t particularly like, though it was growing on him the more he looked at it. And his hair was pushed back with a metal headband. It looked great, but Jason preferred his hair down. The headband couldn’t have come from his brain.
“I believe you,” Jason said, swallowing. “Okay. Well, if you could just do me a favor and kill me, please, I’d appreciate it.”
Nico let out a short bark of a laugh.
“Not today, Jason.” he said. “It’s my fault. I should have told you right away.”
Jason shook his head, struggling to form coherent words beyond just internally screaming. He was gross. There was no other way to look at it; he was gross and weird and bad. Why was he dreaming about kissing Nico in the first place? It was a crazy, unrealistic fantasy, one he’d indulged for way too long. Obviously he’d gone totally off the rails as a person.
“It’s completely fine,” Nico assured him. “It doesn’t count in a dream. Dreams are supposed to be safe spaces where we can play with ideas. I’m the one who violated that, not you.”
“Right,” Jason said. “When I, um, did what I did, I was just playing with the idea. Because that’s totally something I’d do,” he said. He still felt like throwing himself off a bridge, but he appreciated that Nico had given him a generous out. Nico’s generosity was what had starting this whole delusion in the first place, though. Maybe it would have been better if he’d gotten mad and cut Jason off from his supply of fantasy.
“I’m sorry for barging in like that,” Nico said. “I should have waited until you were awake. I just wanted to see you. It’s been too long.”
“It’s been six weeks,” Jason said. “I guess you were busy, though.” He could barely meet Nico’s eyes. All that time stewing in his thoughts about Nico had made him crazy. He’d used him as an escape to avoid thinking about Reyna and Camp Jupiter and the war with Gaea. Obviously that had gone too far.
Beneath all that, though, he really had missed Nico. He’d needed somebody to talk to, and he didn’t have anyone who he could be nearly as candid with.
“Time works differently in the Underworld,” Nico said, excusing his absence without a hint of guilt. “And I get really caught up when I’m working. I go days without thinking about anything else. But I’m here for good now.”
It sounded like he made the decision at the same time he said it. Jason didn’t flatter himself into believing he had anything to do with it. Still, it was so hard not to read into the way Nico was looking at him. If Jason didn’t know better, he’d think that Nico was happy to see him.
“You’re going to stay on the Argo II?” Jason asked. There was no way to hide the nervous tension in his voice. He didn’t know whether to be overjoyed or terrified by that news.
“You’re never getting rid of me,” Nico said. “Hope you’re ready.”
An anxious laugh escaped Jason’s lips.
“I don’t know,” he admitted. “I guess I’ll find out.”
“Maybe you’ll be more enthusiastic once you get to know me better,” Nico said. “We talked a lot about you the other day, but I thought you might be interested in seeing part of my world. If you want to. No pressure.”
Jason nodded. That seemed like a logical next step. He was suddenly extremely curious. Would Nico show him the Underworld? His imagination ran wild.
Nico changed the shape of the dream. The blue mosque transformed into a Venetian city block formed by an island surrounded by canals. Small bridges crossed the water, and gondolas passed beneath them, their passengers dressed in old fashioned clothing.
Nico and Jason stood on one side of the canal and looked across the water. On the other side there stood a three story brick building. There was a wrought iron gate built into the side of the wall that opened out onto the water. The house could only be entered by boat.
“This is my childhood home,” Nico said.
“This place is incredible,” Jason said, in awe of the unique place Nico had spent his early years. He’d heard of Venice, just like everyone else in the world, but to see it in person was different than looking at photographs.
“Come inside,” Nico said. He took Jason’s hand, and Jason prayed that his hands couldn’t get sweaty in dreams. Nico brought him across the canal to the entrance, where they passed through a marble floored anteroom lined with columns that led into an ornately decorated reception hall. The floors were inlaid marble tile, and more columns supported a ceiling decorated with complex floral patterns carved into wooden beams. On one side there was a wide fireplace with a coat of arms hanging above it, and the room was full of plush furniture. It was all velvet and brocade and dark wood, with plush tasseled pillows in rich colors. The floors were covered in thick oriental rugs. Every inch of the space screamed ‘decadence.’
“This is all your house?” Jason asked. “I thought it was an apartment building.”
“My grandfather was Mussolini’s ambassador to the United States,” Nico said. “This was what the house looked like when I left in 1941. I haven’t been back since.”
“Really?” Jason asked. “Why not?”
“I’m scared it won’t be like I remember it,” Nico said, his expression darkening. “Venice is just a sinking, crowded tourist trap now, or so I’ve heard. Actually, I can’t bear to be within thirty miles of it. It gives me anxiety.”
“Is the house still in your family? Do you still have family?”
“I don’t know, and I don’t want to know,” Nico said. “Other than Hazel, my family is in the Underworld now.”
He was visibly unhappy thinking about what he’d lost, but Jason appreciated that he’d told him anyway. He hadn’t asked Nico to get so vulnerable with him, he’d just volunteered. It made Jason feel like he was being trusted with friend-level information.
They continued exploring the house, although it was mostly the same style of elegant décor throughout. When they left one room and walked into another, the new one generated from mist, and the old one disappeared behind them.
Eventually they headed upstairs, where Nico hesitated.
“Everything okay?” Jason asked.
“Erm. Yeah, I just can’t remember which side my room was on,” Nico said, looking frustrated. “I know it was on the left, but it just feels like… Nevermind. I’m second guessing myself.”
He opened the door on the left.
“Was this your room?” Jason asked, when they stepped into a smaller room with a large four poster bed and some more fancy furniture.
“No,” Nico said. “This was Bianca’s. I opened the wrong door.”
He swallowed, looking around at the room.
“Your sister,” Jason said, watching his face.
Nico nodded, giving him a forced smile. He obviously was a little upset about seeing her room, but he didn’t seem to want to dwell on it. That was okay. Jason didn’t need to dive into every chapter of his life story. He was still on the first page.
Nico’s room was the one opposite. It had a similar bed, but his headboard had been carved with mythological scenes. The walls had hand-painted murals depicting more myths. Jason looked at each one in turn, and saw some of them shift before his eyes. One looked like it depicted Orpheus, but as he stared at it, something in the chipped paint reminded him of Nico instead. Something about the hair, he thought. But maybe he was seeing things.
“They change because I don’t remember them well,” Nico said, referring to the wall art. “I wish I’d taken pictures, but I’d have lost them by now, probably.”
“They’d be in black and white,” Jason added.
“Yeah,” Nico said. “That’s all we had back then.”
Jason looked at the bookshelf.
“Dante’s Inferno. Not surprising,” he said.
“He was my older brother,” Nico said proudly.
“Really? Cool,” Jason said. “It’s pretty good.”
“You read the Inferno?” Nico asked, his eyes going wide.
“We just read a section of it in English class,” Jason admitted. “But I liked it.”
“You need to read it in Italian,” Nico said, gesturing with his hands excitedly. “It’s so much better, there’s no comparison. I can read it to you and just translate as I go, maybe? Actually, I can probably recite most of it. Or I could summon my brother and he could read it.”
“You don’t have to do all that,” Jason said. “But I’ll get it from the library. Maybe I’ll have time to read it after the war.”
Nico’s face fell.
“Right,” he said. “Sure. Just, you know, if you get a minute… Never mind.”
Jason turned back to the bookshelf.
“The Lives of the Saints?” He glanced at the book, looking back at Nico. “I guess Italy is a Catholic country, huh?”
“Of course,” Nico said, raising his eyebrows. “Especially when I lived there.”
“Huh. Interesting. New Rome is a weird place to grow up,” Jason said, glancing at the book again. “We have a strange relationship with the original Rome. We tell ourselves we’re carrying on their legacy, but the Romans didn’t really disappear. They just changed over time.”
“True,” Nico said. “It is weird when you think about it.”
“We’re taught to fear Europe,” Jason said. “Which sounds strange to say out loud, but it’s true. We’re told there are stronger, fiercer monsters. But if you were born there, how can that be true? You and your sister would have been eaten before you made it to camp. And Hazel has been to Europe, and she was fine, too.”
“Annabeth’s been, too,” Nico said.
“She has? She never mentioned it,” Jason said, looking confused. “We’ve been talking about the journey to Rome every day and the kind of threats we might face there. You’d think she’d have brought it up.”
Nico shrugged, looking like he wished he hadn’t spoken.
“The monsters in Europe aren’t worse,” he said. He spoke cautiously, like he was choosing each word one at a time. “That’s a lie meant to keep you away.”
His careful tone reminded Jason of his arrival at Camp Half Blood, when Chiron would make vague references to Camp Jupiter while Jason still had amnesia.
“Away from what?” Jason asked.
Nico didn’t answer. He just looked down at the book in Jason’s hand.
Jason read the title again. ‘The Lives of the Saints.’
“Let’s change the subject,” Nico said. He sat on the edge of his bed, running his hand across the golden embroidery on his comforter.
Jason gave the ‘Lives of the Saints’ one last look, but the title had been rewritten. Now it read, ‘Don’t tell anyone I told you about that!’
He let out a little laugh of surprise, grinning at Nico’s creativity. He knew almost nothing about Catholicism, so he didn’t really care why the gods wanted their children to stay away from it. But it was thrilling to feel like Nico was trusting him with a big, divine secret.
“Come here,” Nico said.
Jason walked over to stand in front of him. He didn’t start to hesitate until he was already there, looking down at Nico where he sat on the bed. He could feel Nico’s gaze rake across his body, taking in every millimeter of him. He felt like he had nowhere to hide. Nico had already seen exactly what Jason wanted to do to him when he thought no one was looking.
“You don’t have to be shy. I won’t bite,” Nico said. “I wasn’t the one raised by wolves.”
Jason laughed again in spite of everything. The reference to his early childhood helped him stand a little taller. Lupa hadn’t raised a coward, after all.
Jason sat down next to him on the bed. He kept second guessing himself, just like Nico had done with the doorway. Was he reading into this too much? Was Nico just teasing him, or was he really interested? If he was, what was Jason going to do about it? He felt like he couldn’t trust himself. He felt like he might do literally anything. All Nico had to do was touch him, and all bets were off. For the last six weeks, someone Jason didn’t totally recognize had been piloting his body, and that guy was capable of stuff Jason wasn’t.
Jason felt Nico staring at him, waiting for him to say something, so he decided to be honest.
“Do I owe you anything for the concert tickets?” He blurted out. “Because it’s fine. I just want to know.”
He was slightly horrified with himself for saying ‘it’s fine,’ because that implied he was fine with fucking Nico in exchange for Eras Tour tickets. Which he was, but it wasn’t the kind of thing you ought to say out loud.
“Yes, you do,” Nico said. “Tear up that parking ticket that’s on my windshield.”
“Oh,” Jason said, taken aback. “I don’t have anything to do with parking enforcement, so I can’t really do that. They’ll have your license plate on record, anyway.”
“It’s not a valid plate,” Nico said. “I don’t even have a drivers license.”
Jason felt like an idiot. Nico was a god. Obviously gods didn’t register their cars with the DMV. Nico appeared to be amused by him, but he didn’t want him thinking he was stupid.
“I’m kidding,” Nico said, nudging him gently on the arm. He pulled his arm away after it made contact like it was merely a friendly gesture, but Jason felt the tension between them growing harder to ignore.
“I’m not new to dealing with gods,” Jason said, defending himself. “Usually, everything has a price.”
“Yeah, it’s a fair question,” Nico said. “But we’re good. You don’t owe me anything for the tickets. It wasn’t any trouble to get them, since I found them by coincidence. Or fate, if you want to call it that,” he said hopefully, looking at Jason from under dark eyelashes.
“I believe in fate,” Jason said, unable to tear his eyes away from Nico’s. They had the power to suck him in and hold him in their depths forever.
“I’ve seen the threads,” Nico said. He looked away, and Jason immediately began thinking of ways to get him to look at him again. He was down bad, he thought miserably. There were fewer coherent thoughts in his brain with each passing moment. “They’re deceptively simple looking, like balls of yarn. It’s funny to think that everything we’ll ever do is predetermined. Everyone we’ll ever meet. Even the date and time of our deaths,” Nico added, flicking his eyes up at Jason and then looking away again.
Nico’s fingers pulled at the bedspread, balling the fabric up in his fist. Jason barely heard what he was saying; he was too fixated on thinking about Nico doing that in a different context. Down bad hardly covered his situation. He was down so far that he’d reached the depths of the Underworld. Which was a little ironic.
“You know enough to be careful dealing with gods,” Nico said, looking at Jason with concern. “I don’t want you to be any less careful with me just because I’m younger and, you know, nice. I know you’ve been hurt before. I really don’t want to be added to the list of gods that didn’t treat you right.”
Jason laughed a little at that. It was way too late. He wasn’t able to think rationally about the situation; he was infatuated and in way over his head.
“I’m not trying to be funny,” Nico said.
“I know you’re not. That’s why I think you’re probably trustworthy,” Jason said.
“It’s not that simple,” Nico admitted. “There are parts of my life that I can share with you-- I want to share them with you,” he added, gesturing at his childhood bedroom. “And parts that I need to be more careful with.”
The image of dark, polished wood and fine fabrics dissolved. In its place emerged a vision of darkness, deep and impenetrable, a wall of black. Jason couldn’t see his hand in front of his face. He couldn’t see Nico, he could only smell him, the light scent of smoke giving him away.
The sudden onset of darkness startled Jason, and he instinctively reached out for Nico. He didn’t want to be left alone in this place. The air felt cold, and although he knew it was only a dream vision, the place that was implied by the darkness was a place that frightened him.
Jason was only grabbing at his sleeve, but Nico found his hand and curled his hand overtop of it protectively. They were still sitting on a bed, but the sheets felt smoother, silkier, and the mattress was as hard as stone.
At first Jason was just unsettled and confused. The fabric eventually clued him in that this wasn’t just a black, empty pit.
“What is this place?” He asked.
“My room at home,” Nico said. “Well, I don’t exactly live there at the moment, since I’m in a fight with my dad and I sort of moved out. But I didn’t move my stuff out, so it’s still my room. I’ll go back eventually. You know how it is.”
“Not really.” Jason had never been in a fight with his dad. He’d never even had a conversation with him, just a few brief exchanges of information related to quests. It was hard to imagine arguing with him.
“Right. Sorry,” Nico said awkwardly. He pressed his hand onto Jason’s harder. “Do you like my room?” He asked, attempting to change the subject.
“Um. You know I can’t see anything, right?”
“Oh! Sorry,” Nico said. A handful of candles and a flaming skull wall sconce all lit simultaneously. Jason saw a relatively small, simple room with shiny black walls. There was a bookshelf on one side and another bed against the far wall that didn’t have any bedding on it. The bare mattress, which appeared to be made of solid rock, was piled with rumpled laundry. There were open books on the floor and a loose femur bone resting ominously in the doorway. It looked messy, modest, and normal, other than the weird stone walls.
“You left your laundry out even though it’s just a dream?” Jason couldn’t help but ask.
“Ugh. Sorry,” Nico said, actually appearing embarrassed that Jason had seen. The laundry promptly disappeared. “That’s how I remembered it looking when I left. We have skeletons that come and clean every day, so I just leave stuff lying around. I probably should clean up after myself.”
“What’s with the random leg bone?”
“Cerberus leaves those all over the house. We’ve given up trying to teach him not to do it,” Nico said. That disappeared as well.
“Who’s the other bed for?” Jason didn’t feel like it was a prying question, since it was being used for laundry storage at the moment. He vaguely recalled Hazel mentioning something about a boyfriend, but he definitely wasn’t going to ask about whether it was true. It was possible she’d been mistaken. He’d just go with that assumption for the moment.
“The guest bed was from back when Percy visited,” Nico said.
“He stayed with you in the Underworld?” Jason asked incredulously.
“Sure. Annabeth’s visited, too.”
“I had no idea,” Jason said. “Those two sure get around. I guess Hazel’s been there, too. Nearly half the group.”
“Well, she was in Asphodel for a few decades. She wasn’t exactly hanging out with me at the time.”
Jason didn’t respond, too busy noticing the cool weight of Nico’s hand on his. Nico hadn’t moved it yet.
His heart began to beat wildly in his chest. All he could think about was how close they were to one another, and the sound of Nico breathing in and out, and the vague smell of his hair, like smoke and temple incense blended together.
Nico turned his head to look at Jason, and Jason turned too, their faces getting closer together with every slow breath they took. This was really happening, and the blending of dream and reality made Jason feel like it wouldn’t be crazy to kiss him again. Dreams were a safe space to play with ideas, and he’d been toying with this one for six weeks already. He wanted it to be real this time. He was ready for it.
The low sound of music drifted in from another room.
“Is that Taylor again?” Nico said, laughing, and breaking the loaded silence between them. “You want me to leave so you two can be alone?”
“You didn’t do that?” Jason said.
“You did it subconsciously, I think. It’s your dream, you can control it,” Nico said. “Try. Think of a place you want to be.”
Jason stared at the wall in front of him for a minute, squinting in an attempt to concentrate.
“I can’t,” Jason said.
“Sure you can. Try again,” Nico urged him.
“I can’t,” Jason said. “There isn’t anywhere else I want to be.”
He looked at Nico and slowly leaned toward him.
Suddenly, a loud banging sound rattled the walls. The dream shattered abruptly.
Jason blinked his eyes open, feeling his head throbbing beneath his bandage. Reality felt like getting run over the truck, and his wound had reopened in his sleep. He could barely lift his head to see Nico open the bedroom door. Hazel was standing on the other side, looking panicked.
“Nico, Nemesis is here talking to Leo about something. If you hurry, you might catch her. Why was this door locked?”
Nico took Hazel’s hand, and they both disappeared. Jason didn’t feel like getting up, but he forced himself to his feet and made his way to the top deck. He paused in the doorway, leaning on the frame to steady himself. Hazel, Frank, Nico and Leo stood gathered on the deck, all looking at something small that Leo held in his hand. He was holding it out for Nico’s inspection.
Frank went over to the bow of the ship, where he watched a dark shape fly away into the sunset. He had one hand on his bow, and was watching the departing figure like he was thinking of trying out skeet shooting.
“Hand off that weapon, Zhang,” Nico said, without even glancing at him. “She’s out of your league. Leo, hand it over.”
Leo gave Nico the object, which was a fortune cookie. Nico inspected it from all angles, and cast some magic spells on it, attempting to identify its purpose. Jason rested his head on the door and watched him work. Magic was a mystery to him, but he liked seeing the intense concentration on Nico’s face as he whispered the strange words of spells.
“She said it’ll help me, for a price,” Leo said. “What do you think that means?”
“I don’t know, but it doesn’t matter,” Nico said, handing it back. “You’re all going to be putting your lives at risk on this quest. At some point, you’ll get desperate enough to roll the dice and use this thing. It’s a no-win scenario. Trading one evil for another. Gods love that crap.”
Jason found Nico’s apparent bitterness towards godly habits to be reassuring. Surely he didn’t plan on putting Jason in a no-win scenario, if that was his attitude.
He felt a hand touch his shoulder and looked back, seeing that Annabeth and Percy wanted to join the group on the deck. He stepped aside and let them walk out of the door, while he remained on the side observing.
“Trading evils? Do you think Nemesis is trying to sabotage us with this?” Percy asked, taking the fortune cookie and handing it to Annabeth.
“It’s possible, but I don’t think so,” Nico said. “I know Nemesis. We’re not exactly friends, but I can’t see why she’d be against us fighting Gaea. None of the other children of Nyx are even concerned about the war.”
“How can they not be concerned? Isn’t Gaea going to destroy the world?” Leo asked.
“No. Who told you that?” Nico asked. “I heard she’s doing this to fix climate change.”
“What?” Leo said, his jaw dropping. “Why are we stopping her, then?”
“Because she’s going to release all the monsters from Tartarus and overthrow Olympus, obviously,” Nico said. “All the demigods will be killed if that happens. And she’s going to enslave Persephone and Demeter, so that’s enough for me to want to kick her ass.
“Hold on, back up a second,” Annabeth said. “You just said the children of Nyx don’t seem to be concerned about the war?”
“They’ve lived through a lot of regime changes already,” Nico shrugged. “And the ones that helped Kronos last time regretted it.”
“So why is Nemesis giving Leo anything? Especially something both helpful and unhelpful at the same time,” she said. “Maybe it will be more one than the other, and we’ll know more about her intentions. But we can learn something from the fact that she did anything at all. She was one of the gods that served Kronos in the last war. She lost. She’s the goddess of revenge. Is this clicking for anybody?”
“No,” Nico said, folding his arms across his chest.
“Odds are good that she’s working for Gaea. I think you’re just reluctant to accuse a fellow Cthonic god,” Annabeth said.
“No I’m not!” Nico said.
“Is it because she’s a child of Nyx, then? You don’t want to offend Thanatos?”
“I offend Thanatos constantly,” Nico said dismissively. “But if Nemesis is working for Gaea, any consequences for her would need to be approved by her mom. Nyx doesn’t let anybody mess with her kids. I can’t make accusations lightly.”
“Nemesis was Ethan’s mom,” Hazel said, remembering. “Nico, think of that time at the Necromanteion! What if she killed him so he couldn’t tell us who had snuck him out of Asphodel? Could she be the one leading shades through Tartarus?”
“Don’t you remember when we saw Ethan back in Capri?” Annabeth said. “Don’t be obtuse, the writing is on the wall!”
“Capri?” Percy asked. “Like the juice pouches?”
Annabeth froze.
“Guys, just drop it, okay?” Nico said, glancing at Annabeth. “I’ll take it up with my father the next time I see him, but this isn’t a problem we can do anything about right now. Leo, try not to use it, and if you do, do it someplace you’ll be the only collateral damage. I’m going back inside; I was in the middle of something.”
As soon as he turned to go back into the ship interior, he noticed Jason in the doorway. Upon seeing him, he made a face of displeasure. For a moment, Jason worried that he’d horribly misread something and that Nico hated him all of a sudden. Then he realized he probably looked terrible. He could feel the wet blood saturating his forehead bandage, and he couldn’t stand up straight under his own power.
“Jason! You’re awake!” Leo said with surprise. “Are you sure you should be up?”
“He shouldn’t be,” Piper said, appearing from behind Jason. She began attempting to pull him back inside. “You need to rest,” she said, frowning when he shrugged her off.
“I feel okay, honestly,” he protested.
“Nico, would you be willing to look at his wound?” Piper asked.
“He doesn’t know any healing magic,” Hazel said. “That’s the opposite of what he’s good at.”
“No, but I can still try,” Nico said, walking over to Jason. “Where are your medical supplies?”
Piper led them to the infirmary, where a small exam table sat in the middle of a slightly cramped room. There was a fully stocked first aid cabinet against the wall, and a huge box of individually wrapped ambrosia tablets sat on the table.
“He’s on two ambrosias every two hours,” Piper said, taking two out of the box and setting them next to Jason. She patted his knee, then started to remove his bandage.
“I said I’d do it, Piper,” Nico said. “Can you give me some space to focus, please?”
She stepped back. To try to make his point a bit more clear, he waved his hands around a little. Little floating Greek letters appeared in midair, surrounded by a cloud of black, viscous smoke that began to pool on the floor. Jason felt a jolt of fear, which confused him at first, because he didn’t see any reason he ought to be afraid. Then he realized that Nico was doing it deliberately.
Piper’s eyes went wide. She walked out the door and closed it behind her.
“Call me if you need anything, Jason!” She shouted from the other side.
“Don’t call her,” Nico said, shaking his head. “Please. She’s getting on my nerves.”
Jason cocked his head to one side, surprised that Nico even gave Piper a second thought. He wanted to alone with Nico, too, but he wouldn’t have described Piper’s behavior as annoying. She’d barely done anything.
“Are you… Jealous?” Jason asked. It seemed like a stretch. Nico was a god, so him being jealous of a mortal teenage girl was kind of silly. But the look on Nico’s face was a dead giveaway.
“Maybe a little,” Nico shrugged, entirely without shame.
He unwrapped the bandage from Jason’s head, pulling the cloth aside to reveal a wound the size of a Reeses Peanut Butter Cup. Jason winced at the feeling of air hitting it directly.
“She’s your girlfriend,” Nico continued. “I guess that’s kind of messed up, huh? I’m the homewrecker.”
“No you’re not,” Jason said, eager to dispel the misunderstanding. “She’s not my girlfriend anymore. We’re on a break. She’s just fussing over me because I got hurt protecting her from the New Romans, and she feels like it’s her fault.”
“I see,” Nico said, his expression lightening considerably. “You asked for the break? Any particular reason?” The edges of his mouth quirked up when he asked. At this point, the reason was glaringly obvious to the both of them. It seemed like he wanted to hear Jason say it, though.
Nico grazed the edges of Jason’s wound with his fingertips, tracing a circle on his forehead.
“Ow,” Jason hissed reflexively. Nico caught his eye, and Jason suddenly realized how close Nico’s face had gotten to his own.
He looked down at Nico’s lips. Nico looked down at his. The closeness of the tiny room seemed to be forcing them towards each other, until Nico was standing between Jason’s legs where he sat on the exam table. If he drew his knees together, they’d catch Nico’s hips in between them. Jason swallowed, feeling his face start to heat up. Piper was right on the other side of the door. They’d get caught any second. This was crazy, but it was a really good kind of crazy. Jason didn’t want to stop.
“You didn’t answer me,” Nico said softly, moving his hand down to stroke Jason’s jawline with the backs of his fingers.
“You know the reason,” Jason said, looking up at him. “I met you.”
Nico smiled, satisfied with his answer. That small look of approval had an outsize affect on Jason. His heart started to race, and his stomach began to do flips. He immediately knew he’d do anything to see that look again, to make Nico feel pleased with him.
How humiliating, he thought to himself, to go totally feral for the approval of a god. He’d already been there, done that, and gotten nothing out of it. Maybe he hadn’t changed as much as he thought.
As if he could read Jason’s mind, Nico ran his hand through Jason’s short hair, smoothing it back from his forehead. A shiver went up his spine, realizing that Nico saw right through him. He’d clocked him correctly back when they’d hung out in Jason’s apartment. Nico had called him an obedient dog. It had stung, mostly because it was true.
“I don’t want to hurt you,” Nico said, choosing each word carefully. “If you don’t want to do this-- If you think it’s a bad idea-- I’ll understand. Just say the word and I’ll leave you alone. Okay?”
“Do you want me to say no?” Jason asked, getting the feeling that Nico might be having second thoughts.
“I want you to make your own choice,” Nico said. “Honestly, seducing you would be easy for me. But I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I manipulated you and you got hurt. I don’t want to be another god that just uses you and throws you away. You deserve better than that.”
In response, Jason grabbed Nico by the back of the neck and pulled him in, a hair’s breadth short of being forceful. He crushed his mouth against Nico’s, tasting him, drinking in every heartbeat. It was better than anything he could have dreamed.
Jason Grace had finally chosen something for himself. It probably wasn’t a very smart choice, but that wasn’t really the point.
Eyes closed, he savored the moment, wanting it to last forever. Nico reached out and pressed his hands against Jason’s chest, feeling the hard and fast beating of Jason’s heart behind his ribs.
Jason pulled back first. The wound on his forehead had opened up again, just a little. Nico could smell the blood before he saw it. He watched as a thin trickle of bright red escaped and ran down the side of his face.
Nico reached up and wiped it away gently.
“Sorry I can’t heal you,” he said, his voice softer than before.
“It’s okay,” Jason said, watching as Nico picked up the roll of bandages and wound a fresh white strip around Jason’s forehead. He couldn’t stop smiling, and Nico kept catching his eye, and he could not believe he’d just kissed a god on his own initiative.
Nico inspected his handiwork, making sure it was perfect before he put the bandages away. When that was done, he went back over to Jason with a mischievous look in his eyes.
“I hope you enjoyed that,” he said, reaching out for Jason. He took the bottom edge of his t-shirt between his fingers and toyed with it for a second before he started inching it upwards. “That’s the last time you catch me off guard. From now on, I’m going to be the one--”
“Jason?” Piper said, slamming the door open.
Nico disappeared.
Jason stared at Piper. Piper stared back at Jason.
“Where did Nico go?” She asked. “Wasn’t he just here?”
“I don’t know,” he said, looking like a deer caught in headlights.
“He didn’t say where he was going?”
Jason shook his head.
“Okay. Weird,” she said, picking up the two ambrosia tablets and putting them in his hand. “Here. Take your ambrosia and go back to bed. You have a concussion, remember?”
She walked away, muttering to herself about not signing up to be the ship’s doctor.
Nico reappeared, looking back down the hall to be sure she was gone.
“You can’t tell her about us,” he said, turning back to Jason.
“I wasn’t going to,” Jason said. “I don’t think she’d take it well.”
“I don’t know what you saw in her,” Nico said. “I mean, she’s pretty, but other than that?”
“Juno gave us false memories of dating for months,” Jason said, hopping down from the exam table. “And she’s a good person. She--”
Jason paused for a second, gripping the edge of the table. His head swam, and his vision blurred. He’d probably be dead if he were a normal human who couldn’t tolerate ambrosia, because this concussion was the worst he’d ever had. Getting hit with a brick was worlds different than getting clunked on the helmet too hard in sword training.
Nic grabbed his ambrosia tablets, as well as his hand. He shadow traveled Jason back into his cabin.
“Oh wow, that just made it so much worse,” Jason said, sitting down on his bead and clutching his head for dear life.
“You’ll get used to it,” Nico sighed. “We’re obviously going to have to sneak away from this ship if we ever plan to be alone together for more than five minutes. Here,” he said, pressing the ambrosia tablet to Jason’s lips.
As Jason opened his mouth to eat the tablet, Nico captured his lips in another kiss. Immediately, Jason knew he’d never associate the taste of ambrosia with anything else for as long as he lived.
He melted like his bones had turned to soup. Nico caught him up in his arms and fed him the second piece, kissing him again and again and again. Jason was as limp as a doll, helpless to do anything but silently beg for more. His senses were so overloaded with bliss that it was almost painful.
When the ambrosia was gone, Nico pulled away. He laid Jason down in his bed and gently pulled his blanket over him.
“What are you doing?” Jason said, feeling like the door to paradise had suddenly slammed shut in his face.
“Your body needs to rest,” Nico said, his tone leaving no room for argument. “I can’t heal you, so you’ll have to do it yourself.”
“I can’t sleep after that,” Jason said. “Don’t leave me like this.”
“Shh,” Nico whispered. He brushed a hand over Jason’s forehead. “I’ll see you in your dreams.”
Understanding dawned. Jason closed his eyes and let himself fall away into magical slumber. Once he was properly dreaming, the world dawned anew in a lavender haze of mist.
For a moment, Jason stood alone in the dreamworld. Then Nico materialized in front of him.
“Are you real?” Jason asked, smiling.
Nico nodded, looking around at their shared dreamworld.
“You can do better than this,” he said, gesturing at the plain surroundings. “Go ahead. Dream something.”
Jason thought about it, trying to come up with something special that would impress Nico. He concentrated on the image he wanted to show him.
All around them, the haze formed into the shape of a forest. The ground became a soft bed of sweet smelling pine needles, with enormous pinecones littered around their feet. Above them loomed massive pine trees with thick red trunks, some of them over ten feet wide.
Nico gasped in shock, staring up at the towering, monolithic trees.
“This is amazing,” he said.
“These are giant sequoias,” Jason said. “This is one of my favorite places I’ve ever been. It’s peaceful here.”
“I love it,” Nico said, unable to tear his eyes away from the trees. Jason went up to him and slipped his hand into Nico’s.
He had very cold and bony fingers. They actually weren’t particularly nice to hold, but they were very pretty to look at. How he used them was the important part, anyway. He touched Jason with astounding gentleness, but when he held onto him tightly, it was with a frightening strength.
Jason had a moment to think while they wandered the forest, since Nico was interested in exploring a little. It felt great to have shown him something he’d never seen before. He wondered whether someday Nico would be hundreds or even thousands of years old, and he’d recall this day with Jason. At the rate things were going, giant sequoias wouldn’t exist for much longer. Eventually Nico would be left remembering Jason, and the sequioas, and probably a ton of other things that he’d never be able to see again on earth. Jason imagined that it might feel very lonely.
Nico was in a very special window of time, he thought. He was immortal, but he was young enough that he was still having new experiences and making unique memories. Eventually, he might grow old and bitter and jaded like the other gods, but for now, he was uncorrupted, hopeful, and in love with life. Jason saw that in his flashing dark eyes when he looked up at the trees. He had a youthful exuberance that even Jason wasn’t sure he still possessed. Jason was still young, but he’d been through a lot already, and a part of him was tired now. It probably always would be.
But he still had time, and energy, and youth left. Enough, at least, to hold Nico’s hand, and to kiss him, and to set aside all of his worries and doubts, to just be nineteen and foolish for a little while. And it felt good.
Chapter 75: A God's Purpose
Chapter Text
The demigods were headed to Kansas. Piper’s knife had granted her a vision of a road sign, and they were going to investigate before they proceeded to Atlanta.
Nico didn’t know that, though. He had way better things to do than worry about details. Besides, Annabeth always took care of those. He was busy catching Jason’s eye over the dinner table during taco night.
Sneaking around the ship trying not to get caught was endlessly entertaining. For one thing, he was at low risk of getting caught. Invisibility had never been more convenient. Secondly, he and Jason could spend all the time they wanted together in dreams, so hooking up on the Argo II was just a bonus. Although there was something to be said for the real thing.
The Argo II spent some time on repairs before they set out for Kansas, which gave Nico and Jason a couple of days with nothing to do but hang out together-- secretly, of course. Eventually, they began their journey East. The Seven were trying to stay a day ahead of the Romans, who were pursuing them relentlessly. The Roman legionaries rode on the backs of giant eagles to hunt their quarry. Nico was sorely tempted to go after them and kill all of the eagles to give his demigods more time to get away. The eagles reminded him of Jupiter, and made him hungry for chicken for some reason. Nobody had liked his bird assassination plan, though, particularly Jason, so he’d never brought it up again.
With each passing day, life on the road grew a little tenser. Being hunted wasn’t a nice feeling, especially when it was by your friends. Trying to outrun the Romans wasn’t easy, and Leo in particular felt responsible for both the pursuit and their struggle to outpace their pursuers. The Argo II didn’t move very fast.
It was one of those nights when everyone was on edge. It had been Piper’s turn to cook dinner, and the group was divided on whether Kraft Mac and Cheese was comfort food or just low effort food. Piper had lit some candles to try to make up for it, but the mood lighting seemed to make people feel even more twitchy.
Hazel sat at the head of the table, where she was trying to keep the conversation civil, but it wasn’t easy. Leo was arguing with Frank about using the ballistae on the Romans the next time they swooped by.
“We need to try to negotiate one last time,” Frank said. “They’re our comrades. If we explain that there was a misunderstanding, we might be able to work something out.”
“They’re not my friends,” Leo said. “After the eidolon situation, they’ll be planning to take me out first. While you stop to chat, I’ll get my guts torn out by their birds. And worse, my ship will get damaged!”
“They’re eagles, not birds,” Frank insisted. “And they’ll respect the flag of truce if we fly it.”
“Why is a son of Mars worried about negotiating? I thought your dad found that kind of thing cowardly.”
“I’m not a coward!” Frank said, glaring at Leo furiously. He balled his hands into fists on the table. “You take that back!”
“No fighting,” Hazel cut in. “I mean it, guys. We’re a team and we discuss things calmly, or not at all.”
“Agreed,” Piper said. “Let me help with the negotiating. Leo, you know the power of my Charmspeak. I should be able to get them to agree to a truce without putting you in harms way.”
“It should be Jason that talks to them, not a Greek, even one with Charmspeak,” Annabeth said. “He’s their praetor.”
“Ex-praetor,” Jason said. “I left my resignation letter on my desk. But I’ll speak to them. They’ll be led by Octavian and Dakota, and I go way back with them. They’ll hear me out.”
“Fine,” Leo said gruffly. He respected Jason too much to fight him on the issue. “I’ll just hide in the engine room, then. Forget it.”
“No engine room,” Hazel said. “We need you on the ballistae.”
“What?” Frank asked. “I thought we were negotiating?”
“We are. Ballistae are the backup plan,” Hazel said, catching Annabeth’s eye. Annabeth gave her a subtle nod; the two of them coordinated well together. Nico wouldn’t be surprised if they’d already made the decision to negotiate and the whole group debate was for show.
“I’m not sure I’m comfortable using them,” Jason said. “I understand the necessity of appearing to be ready for war with Rome, but actually doing it would be stupid. Their forces would keep us stalled in North America, and we can’t afford that. Provoking the full might of the army wouldn’t be worth it.”
“Not to mention we actually like a lot of those people,” Percy said. “We need to bring the two camps together, right?”
“Right, as a long term plan,” Jason said. “Although buying time to get away is more important for us in the short term. Either way, using ballistae is overdoing it. When you load a weapon and point it at somebody, more often than not, it gets fired. Everything in my experience backs that up.”
“I understand that. But what message does holding back send?” Hazel asked. “I’ve seen the death aura of every soldier in the legion. Am awful lot of them are fated to die this summer. I’d rather kill them by my own hand and let them be sacrificed for the cause, rather than let them stop us and see Gaea kill them because of my failure to act. She already murdered me once. She does it slow. I’d make it quick.”
No one responded, although Leo made a soft noise of fear.
“If we really believe in this cause, we won’t hesitate to do whatever it takes to win,” Hazel continued. “We can’t afford to hold back. We know that, but we need to act like we know that.”
“Not sure I agree with you on that, Haze,” Percy said. “Mercy can make a huge difference. Trust me. I’ve seen it in action.”
“Mercy is just a lack of conviction,” Hazel said. “If you’re certain enough to raise the sword, but not certain enough to bring it down, I think that’s the definition of cowardice.”
“Preach, sister,” Nico said, raising his plastic cup of Sprite to toast her. No one joined him. Jason gave him a look of disapproval, and he put his cup down.
“It’s not cowardly to hesitate to kill,” Piper said. “I just can’t believe that.”
“Agreed,” Percy said.
“Agreed,” Jason said. Percy and Piper both gave him looks of gratitude.
“But,” Jason added. “Having said that… I think Hazel and Nico are more informed on this than we are. I suggest we listen to them, even if we don’t fully understand their perspective.”
Nico looked at Jason warmly, although Jason didn’t return his adoring glance. He had his bright blue eyes fixed on Hazel, not wanting anyone to see that he and Nico had a thing for each other. Nico thought he was being a little overly cautious. Jason didn’t have time to waste on worrying about the opinions of others. But he didn’t know that, so it couldn’t be helped.
“It’s inevitable,” Nico said smoothly. “People will die in this war. If you have to kill someone in order to defeat Gaea, that’s Gaea’s fault. If you spare someone, and it has a bad result, that’s on you. The judges in the Underworld don’t operate under a value system that prizes mercy and redemption. Ruthlessness is much more appealing to them. Hazel has heard their judgments and been judged by them. You should listen to her, because everything she said is correct.”
“I think that’s debatable,” Percy said.
“No it’s not,” Hazel said, slamming her fists on the table. For the first time since she’d started leading them, a dark light of anger began to shine in her eyes. “Disagree with me all you want. But when my brother tells you something, it’s no longer debatable. Is that clear?”
Percy glared at her. His anger came on even faster than hers did, and the look on his face was intimidating, his eyes gleaming like green whirlpools. Leo scooted his chair away slightly.
“Not really,” Percy said snarkily, as though he couldn’t help but try to get the last word in.
Jason stood up. Everyone looked at him in surprise. He folded his arms across his broad chest.
“Chain of command rules apply,” he said firmly. “If she tells you to kill, you kill. Are you going to follow orders, or not?”
“I’m gonna make my own decisions about freaking killing people, dude,” Percy said angrily. “You’ve fought in a war before. You know things get weird and unclear in the middle of battle. It’s not something you can resolve as a hypothetical while you sit and eat mac and cheese.”
“I asked a yes or no question,” Jason said. “That sounded a whole lot like a no.”
Nico leaned forward on his elbows, watching raptly. He loved seeing this side of Jason in action. It felt good to see Hazel and Jason both defending his viewpoint. As much as he would have liked to sic Jason on Percy and watch his old enemy get forced to obey Hazel’s will, he couldn’t justify dragging out the conflict any longer. Team cohesion was more important than a single disagreement over something they had little control over.
“I am right,” Nico said. “But we can drop the subject now. It’s human nature to deny the inevitability of death. It takes an incredibly strong mind to accept it, let alone embrace it. Some people just aren’t ready.”
Jason and Percy sat down simultaneously. They both looked irritated with one another. The Roman respect for military chain of command was not mirrored in the Greeks. Great heroes like Percy were often exceptional, loose-cannon types, whereas Roman honor was usually bestowed through official titles and rankings. That cultural divide would probably rear its head later, but Hazel could be trusted to handle it.
“Percy, I’ll talk to you later,” Hazel said gently. “Maybe we can understand each other better if we chat one-on-one.”
“Sounds like a plan,” Percy said, smiling at her. He and Hazel were friends, so they probably would work their stuff out with no issues. Nico was glad he’d de-escalated when he did.
As far as he was concerned, he was doing an awesome job at the god-in-residence gig. He hadn’t helped much, and he was having a fling with one of his demigod questers, so he knew he wasn’t perfect. But he still felt like a solid nine out of ten, god-wise.
After dinner, everyone dispersed back to their respective hang-out areas. They’d reach Kansas in a little over an hour, so everyone wanted to decompress on their own before the next stop in their adventure.
“Can we talk?” Jason asked, pulling Nico aside in the hallway.
“Of course,” Nico said, sliding his arm around Jason’s waist.
“Uh, not like that,” Jason said quietly, glancing over his shoulder to see if anyone had noticed. “Just talk.”
They went into the lounge area, where there was a TV, multiple gaming consoles, and a bookshelf full of reference material on Ancient Greek and Roman monsters and myths. Jason sat on the couch at the opposite side from Nico, holding a pillow in front of him as though it would protect him from accusations of being a little too chummy with his couch-mate in case someone walked in.
“I’m worried,” Jason said, without meeting Nico’s eyes. “Back there, I kind of jumped to your defense too quickly.”
“To Hazel’s defense,” Nico said.
“To yours,” Jason admitted, turning red. “I just wanted to try to make things clear. I know you’re a god, obviously. I like that about you. Obviously.” He turned even redder.
“You’re so cute,” Nico said, totally smitten with Jason’s awkward side. He hadn’t felt this charmed by him since he’d found out he sometimes wore glasses. That had been quite the Tuesday.
“But I have a rough history with gods,” Jason said, sighing. “I don’t want to make things more confusing than they need to be. I wanted it to be clear that I’m not one of your worshippers. Hazel might be okay with that part of your relationship, but I’m not. If I trust your advice on stuff, it’s because I’ve gotten to know you personally. It’s not because I’ve decided to start treating you as infallible or because I’m letting you tell me what to think and do.”
“I don’t think Hazel thinks I’m infallible,” Nico said. “And I’m not interested in telling you what to do. Outside the bedroom, anyway.”
Jason bit his lip and pretended he hadn’t heard that last part.
“I don’t know anyone who thinks any god in our pantheon is infallible,” Jason said. “But I know a lot of people that are cool with pretending they are, in exchange for special treatment.”
“I’m not worried about it,” Nico said. “I just give you the same special treatment I’d give any hot, tall blonde guy.”
“Wow, thanks a lot,” Jason laughed. Nico loved seeing him laugh like that. It was like sunshine breaking through a grey cloud every time. Jason carried so much weight on his shoulders that lightening his burden felt like Nico’s new purpose in life.
“Besides, I’ve never even wanted anyone to worship me,” Nico said. “I appreciate it, but I might become human again. I don’t want people to waste their time on a temporary god.”
“You never explained that when you first brought it up,” Jason said. “Would you really become mortal again?”
“Not mortal. An immortal human. Sort of,” Nico said. “You can’t undo godhood, but you can seal godly abilities away. I’m not sure what it will feel like, to be honest.”
“Weren’t you human relatively recently?” Jason asked.
“Yeah, but I don’t remember how it felt,” Nico said. “I feel like I’ve always been this way. Like my old life was a dream. A dream that meant a lot to me,” he clarified quickly.
“Dreams can mean everything,” Jason said, meeting his eyes.
“Yeah,” Nico smiled. “They can. Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad to be human again. To be more like you guys,” he added.
“It would make it easier for us to be together,” Jason said, lowering his voice and glancing over his shoulder to make sure no one was listening. “Not that I don’t like you the way you are. But our lives would be more entwined. I think I’d like that,” he admitted.
“What would that look like?” Nico asked, lowering his voice, too.
“Oh, I don’t know,” Jason said. The immediate smile on his face gave away the fact that he knew exactly what it would look like. “You could go to college with me. I think Annabeth and Percy have been considering a transfer to NRU, so we’d all be there together.”
“You’re not selling this,” Nico said, which made Jason laugh out loud again-- another glimpse of sunshine.
“When I go back, I want to make New Rome a kinder place,” Jason said. “One where kids can just be kids. Where they have choices. You could help me. Maybe we could raise the age limit on the military. Get some after school activities going that don’t involve edged weapons.”
“What’s the age limit now?”
“There isn’t one,” Jason said gravely. “Then there’s Camp Half Blood. The death rate there is so high, and the children of Apollo aren’t actual doctors, no matter how talented they are individually. I saw way too many kids missing limbs and eyes, and those were the ones who survived their injuries. If we could get a hospital built for them like the one in New Rome, I think it would help a lot of people.”
“Right,” Nico said, feeling a surge of emotion well up in his throat. He choked it down, knowing that it would do no good for Jason to see. How could someone this selfless be real?
Jason had suffered so much. He ought to cut the demigod world off and go have fun, far away from the gods and monsters he’d grown up with, in Thailand or Malaysia or Alaska, somewhere they couldn’t reach him. He’d finally gotten up the nerve to quit his old job as praetor, and here he was, helping the next generation to have a better experience than he had.
“Jason,” Nico said, working very hard to hold back from crying, and praying Jason wouldn’t notice. “You should worry about yourself. The camps will be fine. What do you want to do? I can take you anywhere you want to go. Do you want to climb Mount Everest? Ride horses on a beach in Mexico? We can go snorkeling in Hawaii if you want.”
“We can do that stuff in our dreams,” Jason said calmly. “If I had a long life ahead of me, I might take you up on it for real, but Hazel told me that wasn’t my fate. I did some thinking. I want to leave a positive impact on other people when I go. It just needs to be on my terms, and not beholden to anyone but myself. Does that make sense?”
“Was Hazel specific about how much time you had?” Nico asked, horrified that she’d given Jason that information.
“No,” Jason said. “Why?”
“No reason,” Nico said. Jason was looking at him suspiciously, so he knew that he needed to throw him off track, no matter how much it hurt. Telling someone they had a ‘short life’ and telling someone they wouldn’t survive the summer were two different things entirely. The day would come when he’d need to tell Jason the truth, but that day wasn’t today.
“Jason, if I become human,” he swallowed. “There’s nothing I’d rather do than help you accomplish your dreams. Whatever those are.”
Jason’s face softened.
“Thanks,” he said, smiling.
Completely disregarding the fact that they were in a public area, Nico reached out and pulled Jason into his arms, hugging him tightly. He pressed his face into the shoulder of Jason’s purple t-shirt, letting a few tears fall where they wouldn’t be noticed.
“It’s you and me. Until the end. Okay?” He said shakily.
“Okay,” Jason said. “You and me. Until the end.”
Nico kissed him softly. Then he turned around. He’d heard a noise behind him in the doorway.
“I’m sorry,” Annabeth said, framed in the doorway. She looked genuinely embarrassed, and a little ashamed. It seemed like she’d been standing there for longer than a few seconds. “I just wanted to talk to you, Nico. I didn’t mean to spy. I won’t tell anyone.”
Jason had gone still with shock; he seemed too horrified to speak.
“She means that,” Nico reassured him. “I have dirt on her. She really can’t tell anyone.”
Jason’s expression went from dismay to curiosity in an instant. Annabeth turned her face to the floor.
“He’s right,” she said unhappily.
After a brief, awkward moment where it became clear that she wasn’t going to explain further, Jason stood up.
“I guess I’ll let you guys talk,” he said, exiting with a glance back at Nico.
Annabeth walked into the room, eyes remaining downcast, and flopped down in a chair near the couch.
“I’m sorry I eavesdropped,” she said.
“It’s fine. Jason’s the one who’s self-conscious about us,” Nico said.
“I hope you know what you’re doing with him,” Annabeth said, twirling a braid around her finger. She sat forward, leaning her elbows on her knees, and stared down at the book that sat on the table in front of them. It was open to a page with a description of the Athena Parthenos. She looked at the picture so intensely that it seemed like she was trying to burn a hole through the paper.
“I totally don’t,” Nico said.
“I knew you’d say that,” she sighed, making a face of displeasure, as though it pained her to be right. She probably felt that way all the time. She sat up straight and looked at him. “I need to tell Percy about what happened in Paris.”
“Well, too bad. You can’t.”
“It’s destroying me,” she said, looking at him with wide, pleading eyes. “He my best friend, and I’m lying to him. Betraying him once was bad enough. Now I do it every minute of every day that I don’t tell him.”
“I thought you swore to your mother you would wait until the war was over? I thought you understood what was at stake?”
“It was easy to say that when Percy and I were long distance. This is different. I think I’m losing my mind,” Annabeth said.
“Then lose it. Keep your mouth shut. Don’t think about it,” Nico said. He looked down at the page she was looking at. “You have plenty of other stuff to focus on.”
He saw her blink back tears, and a cold, stony look came over her eyes.
“Right,” she said. “I do.”
She turned the page, stopping at a drawing of the shrine to Apollo at Delphi.
“So, you’re really becoming human again?” She said.
“I’ve been volun-told,” Nico said. “It boils down to the fact that I’m not wanted, pretty much.” It hurt like hell to admit, but it was true. Even so, he winced.
“Your father and stepmother don’t want you around? I know the feeling,” she sighed. “Although it seemed like your dad liked you okay when I was in the Underworld. Remember? When you kidnapped me that time?” She nudged him with her elbow, smirking. Nico chuckled, remembering the strange aftermath of Athena’s attack on him. It felt like a lifetime ago, but it hadn’t really been that long.
“My parents still want me as a son, fortunately,” he said. “I don’t know what I’d do if they didn’t. But the pantheon doesn’t need a new god. If I were to take a step back and give up my powers, it would make some important people a lot more comfortable.” He looked at Annabeth, realizing that if anyone could help him, she probably could. She’d come up with good ideas to help him in the past.
“The truth is,” he said hesitantly. “My dad thinks Kronos will take over my mind and force me to release him from Tartarus.”
“What?!” Annabeth said, shocked.
“What?!” Hazel said, appearing out of thin air.
“Hazel, what the hell? How long have you been there?” Nico asked.
“A while,” she said, sitting on the couch beside him. “Are you in danger? Is Kronos in your mind right now?”
“He can’t be,” Annabeth said, speaking with certainty. “We destroyed him. He’s scattered in Tartarus.”
“He’ll reform eventually,” Nico said. “It won’t be in your lifetime, but it will be in mine. We don’t know when he’d start reaching out, but my dad thinks it’s inevitable. My only options are losing my divinity, or being chained in Tartarus forever.”
Hazel reached out and took his hand.
“That’s no choice at all,” she muttered. “Damn it. Now I understand why you were considering it.”
“Persephone promised she’d turn me human after the war,” Nico said. “No use getting comfy with the god life if it’s not meant to last. But I was sort of hoping you had some ideas for me, Annabeth. I want to stay a god, if I can.”
Annabeth rubbed her temples.
“Kronos convinced Ares to betray his whole family. I have no reason to believe you would be able to resist his orders when Ares couldn’t. On the other hand, Percy resisted him. Even Luke joined of his own free will, he wasn’t mind controlled.” To her credit, she spoke of Luke coldly and without flinching. “There’s a correlation between godhood and vulnerability to Kronos’ manipulation. That correlation must have been why the war had to be fought by demigods.”
“So you’re saying my dad is right,” Nico said. “The more human I am, the safer I’ll be.”
“It does seem to be borne out by evidence, to an extent,” Annabeth nodded. “Even if you were mind-controlled, you’d no longer be a threat. You could stay with your parents forever, like you seem to want.”
“It is what I want,” Nico said, sighing with resignation.
“No!” Hazel insisted, clutching his arm. “You need to stay a god!”
“It’s alright,” Nico said, shaking his head. “You won’t lose your Gift of Achilles. You’ll be safe, even if I can’t protect you anymore.”
“I don’t care about me,” Hazel said. She scrambled to grab the coffee table book, opening it to the page on the Parthenon. “Look at this,” she said, showing him the Parthenon. “And this,” she added, turning the page to the sanctuary at Delphi. “And these!” She showed him the temples at Paestum. “They’ve had everything, Nico. A whole civilization. They had their turn, and now it’s yours. Don’t let them take it from you! You’re here because it’s time for change. For things to be different. You’re here for a reason.”
“Haze,” Nico sighed. “It’s a nice thought, but I think--”
“You might think,” Hazel said, her eyes blazing like opals. “But I know. You can try to change whatever you want about yourself, but I’m going to keep worshiping you. I’ll make a cult for you. We’ll sacrifice a whole petting zoo if that’s what it takes. What if you were born to resurrect Kronos? What if this pantheon does need to be destroyed? Maybe it’s time the world moves on once and for all.”
“You do not want Kronos resurrected,” Annabeth said. “Trust me. Don’t let Percy hear you talking like that.”
“I agree. Please stop,” Nico said, putting his arm around Hazel and holding her close. “I don’t want to be used to hurt my family. I love too many of them to let that happen. I want to fight to stay myself, but Annabeth was my last hope. If she doesn’t have any ideas, I have to get over it. I’ll be human right alongside you guys. There’s worse fates.”
“Not to me,” Hazel said, shoving his arm off of her. “I saw your thread loop,” she added. “In the Fates’ cave. You were in the Wal-Mart bag.”
“Oh,” Nico said. “Well, okay, but that doesn’t necessarily mean anything. I know godhood can’t be undone, but it can still be hidden.”
“Your thread was perfect,” she said. “It was beautiful. And it was right with all the others, all tangled up with them. I think it had been there for a long time. You’re not less than them just because you’re younger, Nico. You matter just as much as they do. We need you. And you and I both know exactly what we need you for.”
She stared at him until he put the pieces together. Hazel had watched him take the four souls of the hospital patients in New Rome, the young people who had been on life support. She knew he was a psychopomp. She was smart enough to understand why the world might need a new one right now. She’d seen the machines.
The look she was giving him made Nico feel ashamed. He knew his purpose. It was hard to admit to himself, but he knew that he was a psychopomp, that it was the reason he’d been born. The world did have a use for him.
But what was the point of having a purpose when it put your family in danger? When it made the love of your life resent you? He couldn’t remain a god and stay with his parents. He couldn’t remain a psychopomp and keep Thanatos. He was backed into a corner.
He rubbed his face.
“There’s a lot more to it than you know,” he told Hazel.
“I don’t care,” she said, unblinking. "It doesn't change the fact that I need you. We all do."
He glanced up at Annabeth. She looked at him knowingly, like she’d already figured out his purpose, too. Damn, those girls were good.
Before he could say anything more, the Argo II ground to a halt.
“Kansas ho!” Leo called over the loudspeaker.
Chapter 76: Goo Be Gone
Chapter Text
They didn’t land in Kansas, since they had no idea what they might be facing. Instead, Nico shadow traveled down to the ground, where the road sign from Piper’s vision awaited them. As the quest’s patron god, he decided it was time that he earned his keep, and figured he was well suited to be the scout for the group.
To his surprise, a familiar face awaited them. Leaning against the road sign was their old camp counselor.
Dionysus was as pudgy and red-faced as Nico remembered. He had on a Hawaiian shirt and held a can of Diet Coke in his hand. Clearly his father’s punishment still stood, even in wartime. He cut an odd figure silhouetted against the desolate landscape. They were surrounded by fields of sunflowers for as far as the eye could see. Other than the empty highway, there was nothing else to look at.
“Dionysus?” Nico said, running up to the familiar figure of Mr. D. He hadn’t seen him since his time at Camp when he’d been human, but he’d spoken about him with Ariadne enough that he felt like he knew him. He’d spent more time in Dionysus’ house in Tuscany than the god himself had lately.
“Nico di Angelo?” Dionysus appeared to be pleasantly surprised to see him. “What are you doing here?”
“What am I doing here?” Nico asked, stopping short in the middle of the road. “Didn’t you send us a vision of this place?”
Dionysus’ eyes went wide. There was a purple glint to them that shined like a dark amethyst. Nico could imagine that under different circumstances, he’d be a good looking dude. He couldn’t picture a beautiful princess like Ariadne falling for the obnoxious, sleazy character that he’d known at camp.
“I didn’t summon you,” Dionysus said, looking at Nico suspiciously. “I thought Demeter was meeting me here. She sent a note.”
Nico looked behind Dionysus, at the field of sunflowers that had begun shuddering ominously in unison. He put out an arm and gestured for the demigods back on the ship to stay alert. He knew they were watching through the spyglass on the Argo II, and he wanted them to be prepared for anything.
“Do sunflowers usually bloom in summer?” He asked carefully, without taking his eyes off the flowers.
“No,” Dionysus said, turning around slowly to look. He moved to stand shoulder to shoulder with Nco. “I don’t believe they do, now that you mention it.”
The flowers kept shaking, but nothing else seemed to happen. They kept staring, trying to figure out exactly what it was that they were facing. Nico heard the Argo II load the ballistae.
“Do they usually wiggle around like that?” Nico said.
“No, I don’t think so,” Dionysus said, clearing his throat nervously. “Do they look distinctly evil and off-putting, or am I losing my marbles? I do that a lot, so it’s hard to tell sometimes.”
“No, they look bad,” Nico said.
As soon as the word ‘bad’ left his mouth, the earth erupted beneath both of them. The sunflowers started shooting seeds at the two gods like machine guns. The tiny evil death triangles shredded right through Nico’s skin, leaving him peppered with holes. He heard Hazel start screaming his name from overhead, and was glad he’d made the call to go down alone.
In an instant, Gaea’s malevolent, overpowering presence overwhelmed everything. There was no solid ground beneath his feet any longer. It was all her, all-encompassing and evil as heck.
He was falling.
Time seemed to slow.
All Nico needed to do was turn intangible and disappear. It should have been easy, but he found that his mind was not entirely his own. Gaea’s hideous laughter filled his ears and drowned out all thought, and he heard her mocking him, calling out to him. The soil around him was boiling and bubbling like liquid. He was being pulled down into the earth, and it was happening too fast for him to stop it.
He managed to pull himself together a bit, and began clawing his way out of the dirt. Shadow travel and intangibility weren’t working for him, since he wasn’t able to concentrate, but his body still moved to defend itself, which was better than nothing. He felt a stinging, wet sensation on his ankle, and looked down to see that a spiny vine had embedded itself deeply into his leg. It was rapidly curling upwards around his body, so he began frantically pulling it off of himself, shredding it apart with his hands.
He glanced up and saw that Dionysus was a few steps ahead of him, already having freed himself from the vines. He thwacked some of the sunflowers with his pinecone-tipped staff, and they shrank away, screeching.
“Back! Back, I say!” Dionysus shouted, whacking at them furiously. “See my pinecone and tremble!”
Nico was still trying to free himself, tugging at vines as they climbed relentlessly, thorns biting into his skin. He found his limbs growing weaker as he pulled, and his mind was foggy. Was he supposed to do something? Shadow travel? He didn’t quite recall how to do it. The laughter grew louder.
A cruel feminine voice whispered to him.
“I’ve got you now,” she said gleefully. “There is no escape, young one! You are mine!”
His movements grew slower and slower. In desperation, he reached out toward Dionysus.
“Help,” he called out, his voice weak. “Dionysus! I need your help!”
Dionysus started toward him, reaching out his hand. Then the earth between them began to fall away. Dionysus stepped backward, retracting his hand, and he watched Nico fall into the churning earth. It sealed above him. The last thing he saw was Mr. D’s face, his mouthing moving to shape the word, ‘Yikes.’
Nico couldn’t move. He felt like he was being tumbled in a dirt washing machine, surrounded by Gaea’s presence on all sides. He could sense her gloating victory. He felt as though he was being transported somewhere, and it wouldn’t be anywhere good.
Soon, the earth went still. Something grabbed the top of his hair and pulled him out of the earth like a rutabaga. Nico’s initial instinct was to fight, but he was still tangled in vines, unable to move in spite of using all of his divine strength to try to break them.
He stared an ugly giant in the face. He was wearing a stupid gladiator costume that looked tacky and cheap.
“Ephialtes, we got him,” he called out over his shoulder. Nico looked around and saw that they were in a dark and messy basement area filled with junk, deep underground. “This is going to be fun,” the giant said, grinning evilly. “You’ll put on quite the show for us, Dionysus.
Another giant approached, in an even stupider looking outfit. He peered at Nico closely.
“This isn’t Dionysus, idiot,” Ephialtes said. “I don’t know this one.”
“I’m just a demigod,” Nico said quickly, knowing it was his best bet to try to escape. If they bought it, he might be restrained with less caution.
“Yeah, right,” Otis said. “You’re dripping ichor, kid. Nice try.”
“Worth a shot,” Nico sighed.
They tightened the vines around him, and he found it even harder to move. He realized that the thorns that pierced him all over were oozing green goo that had seeped under his skin. He felt like Gaea was still inside his head, or at least had access to the inside of his mind. He couldn’t hear her anymore, but he knew she was there all the same.
He tried to shadow travel, to turn invisible, everything he could think of, but it was like he had a mental block preventing him from doing it. He knew it must be the green goo’s fault. His powers were being neutralized just as surely as they had been when Saint Valentine had placed him behind a sacred seal.
The giants tossed him into a cage and locked the door. It was very uncomfortable to be tossed onto the hard floor while he was swaddled like a baby, and he lay on the ground wiggling, trying to sit up straight and look around properly.
He noticed that the cage had something already inside it. There was a figure underneath a blanket on the far side. It was a lump, and it was moving.
“Hey,” he hissed. “Hello? Are you alive?”
The person peeked out from under the blanket.
“Reyna!” He said, thrilled to see a familiar face.
“Nico?” she said. She sat up from under the blanket, and he was dismayed to see that she was injured. She had a black eye, and she looked gaunt and pale. Her normally perfect braid was matted on the back of her head. But when she looked at him, she smiled like her savior had come.
“Wow. You look terrible,” she said.
“I look terrible? You’re the one with a black eye. What have they been doing to you?”
Miraculously, Reyna wasn’t tied up. She went over to him and helped him sit up straight, attempting to loosen the vines that bound him.
“I can’t get these off,” she said. “They’re like steel cables. Long story short, we’re under the Colosseum right now. At night, Otis and Ephialtes take me up on a platform and make me rehearse shows. Sometimes it’s dance routines and sometimes it’s gladiator fights. I’ve killed lions, wolves, giant scorpions, all kinds of stuff.”
“That sounds awful,” Nico said.
“It is. They’re brutal dance coaches. I’ve got no rhythm. I got this from a rotten tomato,” she said, pointing at her eye.
“I’m not getting the impression that I’ll be able to dance my way out of here.”
“No,” she said, looking at his restraints. “They’ll probably leave you like this. Some days they forget to feed me. It’s happening more and more often, since they’re bored of me now. Sometimes I sit here for days with nothing to do, no food, rationing my water as best I can.”
“I’m so sorry this happened to you,” Nico said. “It should have been me. I mean, really it should have been Dionysus. But any god would have held up better than you. We don’t need food and water. And we dance really well.”
“I know better than to complain about my fate,” she said. Her voice was tough, but her face gave away her emotion. She was battered and vulnerable, but she hadn’t been broken. Yet.
“It’s nice to talk to someone,” she said. “How’s Jason?”
“He’s on his way. He’ll be here soon,” Nico said. “You just need to hold out a little while longer.”
“If they don’t get me something to eat soon, I’m not sure if I can,” she admitted. Her cheeks were hollow, and she had dark circles under her eyes. “Asking hasn’t done any good. They make me entertain them in order to earn it, and I’m too weak to fight or dance well at this point. It’s safer to wait until they remember to throw some bread in here than to risk getting killed in the arena.”
Nico clenched his teeth. Being imprisoned and forced to dance occasionally was one thing, but starving was another. If she ran out of water, she’d die, and there was no way around that. He wasn’t stupid enough to draw attention to her plight if it would make things worse, but he felt like he had to do something.
“My abilities are being stifled by these thorns,” he said. “But let me think for a bit. I feel like I can help.”
“Is it okay if I nap on your shoulder?” She asked. “I’m tired all the time now, and it gets hot down here. You’re nice and cold.” She yawned widely.
She went and grabbed her blanket, then curled up next to him. She fell asleep quickly, almost too quickly. He could see how frail she was becoming. She needed food fast.
He pressed his head to Reyna’s and willed some of his limitless strength into her body, not knowing whether it would make a difference. Some color appeared to return to her cheeks. She didn’t stir, but her breathing eased a little. Maybe it had done some good after all, unless he was imagining things.
There was a lot about being a god he didn’t understand, but he knew he couldn’t be as incapacitated as he felt. Stupid poison thorns couldn’t possibly have taken him out of the game that easily.
He stared into the darkness, thinking of the other gods Gaea had kidnapped. Juno and Thanatos, no one else since then. This attempt had targeted Dionysus, but he’d escaped and left Nico in his place. He didn’t blame Dionysus for leaving him. He’d have left him, too. Gods could fend for themselves. Though Dionysus was probably a lot better at being a god than he was.
Then he remembered with some concern that he and Thanatos had roughly identical skillsets. If these vines were to him what the chains had been to Thanatos, he’d be helpless to remove them. If there was some method to do it, he didn’t know what it was, and doubted Reyna had the ability to help. Was he doomed to wait on rescue, as Thanatos had been?
He looked around the room and realized that they were indeed under the Colosseum. The ceiling was roughly the same size as the interior arena floor of the Roman ruin. He’d visited it on the same trip that his father had brought him to the Pantheon. He and Bianca had gotten wooden swords from a street vendor selling souvenirs, and had spent all evening thwacking each other on the head with them until his mother had confiscated them. He distinctly remembered his dad egging them on and calling them his little gladiators. It was a good memory.
He rested his head back against the bars of the cage, trying to fight back tears. They might have been fighting lately, but right now, he wanted his dad more than anything. Hades had fought Gaea before. He was so much stronger than Nico, and thousands of times more experienced. He’d have made short work of this wimpy little cage and the constricting vines that bound him.
If Nico could have slapped the ground with both hands, maybe all of his problems would have gone away. But his hands were tied, quite literally. With no way to call for help, and no powers, he wasn’t sure what to do. If Thanatos had been trapped, he was destined to the same fate. He couldn’t think of single thing that he could do that Thanatos couldn’t.
Come to think of it, that was quite an odd coincidence.
As he pondered that, it occurred to him that it wasn’t quite true. He had social skills. He made friends pretty much everywhere he went. He was an ambassador. He was actually a little too good at diplomacy. He’d made connections he really wasn’t supposed to have.
He leaned over and kissed Reyna on top of the head. She slumped over onto the floor and snored even deeper than before. She wouldn’t wake up until he was done.
The Colosseum was almost two thousand years old, and for the vast majority of that time, it had been a site of reverence for devout Catholics. There was no way he didn’t have a direct line to some important saints just by virtue of being there.
“Okay, guys. Please don’t make this difficult,” he whispered fervently. The ground he sat on was hard packed earth. The blood of hundreds of martyrs had soaked into that dirt, and he knew that blood held power in it. He stared down at it.
“Listen,” Nico muttered under his breath. “This is awkward, but I kind of need some assistance. Not much. I just need to get out of these vines. I’ll pay you back, somehow. You know I’m good for it. Just… Help? Somebody? Please?”
Nothing happened.
Sensing that he wasn’t doing enough, he reluctantly muttered the lord’s prayer under his breath. He couldn’t get any more traitorous to his upbringing than he already was, so he figured he had nothing to lose and a lot to gain.
When he looked up, a man in Roman garb was standing in front of him. He had light brown skin, dark hair, and a very confused look on his face.
“Hi,” Nico said. “So, you might be wondering how I got into this situation.”
“Let me be clear,” the man said, his eyes widening with surprise. “I’m not here to help you. This isn’t something I intend to involve myself in. I just had to see who had the nerve to contact me in these highly unusual circumstances.”
“I can make it worth your while!” Nico insisted.
The figure stepped backwards, put off by Nico’s desperation.
“Demon on demon violence isn’t in our purview,” he said. “I’m not sure what you expect from me. Whatever you’re selling, I want no part in it.”
“Like I said, I just need out of these vines, and I know you can do it. I just need one tiny little seal put on them and I bet they’ll shrivel right up,” Nico said. “Go on,” he said, wiggling towards the saint.
The saint backed up even further, glancing behind him at the cage.
“Yuck. I hate cages,” he said, appearing on the other side. “I had enough of them when I was imprisoned.”
“I can relate,” Nico said. “What’s your name?”
“Ignatius,” he said.
“Of Loyola? I’ve heard of you,” Nico said, perking up.
“Of Antioch,” Ignatius corrected, looking annoyed. “I am tired of being mixed up with him. You know, I think I left a candle burning on an altar somewhere. I’d better go check on it. Might be a fire hazard.”
“Wait!” Nico said. “Please wait! It’s fine if you don’t want to help me, but can you call someone that actually knows me? Catherine! Call Saint Catherine of Siena, please!”
He waited while Ignatius thought it over. Then the saint pressed a finger to an earpiece on his ear that Nico hadn’t noticed before.
“Can I get Catherine of Siena to the Colosseum? There’s a tricky little demon here claiming to know her.” After a pause, he looked at Nico. “She’s on her way. This conversation never happened.”
He disappeared.
Nico waited. In the space of a breath, Catherine appeared.
“Catherine!” He said, thrilled to see the familiar figure of a young woman with sharp, intelligent-looking features. “It’s been ages. Thanks for coming to help.”
“It’s no trouble,” she said, looking him over. “You’ve changed since I last saw you. You’re not as ignorant of your true nature as you were then. I can’t deal with you through informal channels like I did before.”
She held out a contract and a pen.
“Go on. It’s not your first contract with us,” she said.
“What do I have to do?” Nico said, knowing he’d need to sign regardless of what she asked.
“I need you to attend a concert,” she said. “I’ll send the details later.”
“Really? Cool. I like music,” he said.
She popped the pen into his mouth, and he signed his name on the paper as best he could by moving his face, although it ended up more of a wobbly line than a signature. After he signed, the contract disappeared in a beam of light.
She tapped him on the chest. A golden seal erupted on the vines, and they came apart in pieces that burned up before they hit the ground.
“Thank you so much,” Nico said, stretching his arms. He stood and held out his hand for a handshake. She looked at his hand and shook her head, refusing the gesture. He withdrew it.
“You are playing in very dangerous territory,” she warned him. “And you meddle with powers you have little knowledge of. Is there no one in your hierarchy tasked with your supervision?”
“Huh. That’s a good question. I guess mostly just my dad. Our relationship is kind of inconsistent, though.”
She nodded, taking in that information.
“No one else?”
“No. My mom is gone half the time,” Nico said. “For the most part, I figure things out on my own.”
“Alright,” Catherine said, her expression softening. “I think I understand. In future, if you ever have need of another favor, you can contact me directly. We can always make another contract. You’ve earned a place on the approved contractors list. Those are coveted spots. Hard to come by for your kind.”
“Not when you don’t ask to get paid,” Nico said, remembering how he’d insisted on helping Maria and Rosa Bova for free.
“You’ve been paid upfront for this one,” she said, gesturing to the ash dusting the floor that had once been vines. “I’m trusting that you’re good for it.”
“I am,” he said.
“I know. I’ll be in touch,” she said, disappearing.
That had gone better than he’d dared to hope. Catherine was easy to work with. He could tell she liked him, or at least found him interesting, although she tried not to make it obvious. Now that he was an approved contractor, it seemed like he had a trick up his sleeve that could get him out of trouble anytime he needed. It almost seemed too good to be true.
He inspected his body and saw that underneath his torn and dirty clothes he was still sliced up and bleeding ichor. There was green goop under his skin that oozed out when he pressed on it. It seemed like the poison was lodged deep inside him, and was still affecting his powers. Gaea’s attacks were very thorough. No wonder even Juno had found herself imprisoned.
He wasn’t back to normal. He couldn’t concentrate for long, and he felt weaker than usual. Still, he was able to turn intangible and stumble out to the storage area where Otis and Ephialtes kept the food. They were nowhere to be found, which was for the best. A god/demigod team would need to fight them eventually, but he and Reyna were not that team. They were in no condition to fight anything larger than a squirrel.
By the time he made it back to the cage, he needed to sit down for a few minutes and rest. A few seconds of intangibility had taken all the effort he could muster. How was he going to make it out of the basement?
After a brief rest, he poked Reyna awake.
“You’re free,” she said, blinking at him in shock. “How?”
“Here,” he said, ignoring the question. He pressed a handful of pomegranate seeds into her hand.
“Take one per day. You’ll sleep until you’re rescued. No food or water required, and no more dancing. Although I got this just in case,” he gestured at the bag of snacks and water bottles, which he’d dragged to the edge of the cage where she could reach it easily.
She grabbed a water bottle and an apple, smiling with relief.
“You saved my life,” she said. “I’ll sacrifice to you forever.”
“I need to go,” he said. “Hang in there. It won’t be much longer.”
“Thank you,” she said.
He really shouldn’t shadow travel yet. He wasn’t ready, and he still felt weak and strange. But he wanted to be home. Being a god, the journey couldn’t possibly kill him, so he just went for it.
He arrived in his bedroom in the Underworld, immediately slumping to the cold, smooth floor, boneless with exhaustion.
He laid on the floor and took stock of how he was feeling. Drained, weak, utterly miserable, to start with. He closed his eyes and tried to convince himself that he was safe now. That he couldn’t hear Gaea whispering in his ears. He shuddered at the memory. Fortunately, the noise had been cut off from the moment Catherine had touched him. He was grateful for her, and found himself looking forward to paying her back.
In the distance, he heard Cerberus howling. It sounded like he was far off in Asphodel, but his ululating cries reverberated the stone of the palace, shaking the earth beneath his feet. He smiled as he heard the howls grow closer, the foundation rumbling with every beat of his paws against the floor.
Cerberus bounded into Nico’s room, filling the space with little room to spare, and began spinning in excited circles, knocking over his bookshelf and stepping on Nico several times. He didn’t mind; his divine bones could handle it, even in his weakened state.
“I’m okay, boy,” he said, as Cerberus licked his face, thick, noxious slobber coating him. “I missed you, too.”
Once he’d been thoroughly sniffed by each head, Cerberus laid down on Nico’s bed and stared at him, tail beating happily. He heard a noise and turned all three heads toward the door. Hades was standing in the doorway staring at him in shock.
“Is it really you?” Hades asked, squinting at him suspiciously.
“It’s me,” Nico said, sitting up on his elbow with some difficulty. “Are you going to help me, or are you just going to stand there and stare at me like a big paranoid jerk? You do realize I just got kidnapped by Gaea, right?”
Hades smiled broadly, realizing that it really was his son staring back at him and not an imposter. He knelt on the floor and pulled Nico into a hug.
Seeing him again, Nico was reminded of his old irritation, and the fight that they still hadn’t gotten over. But his relief at being home and safe again overrode those other feelings. He felt the last of the fearful tension he’d been carrying leave his body. Whatever was wrong with him, he knew his dad would fix it.
“I was worried I’d never see you again,” Hades said, looking down at him worriedly. He looked at Nico’s injuries, and the green goo still oozing from him, and frowned. “This will need to be dealt with. How on earth did you--”
“I just got lucky,” Nico said. “I had an opportunity to slip away.”
Hades face fell, as if he were disappointed. He knew Nico was lying to him.
“Alright,” he said gently. “I’m glad you’re home safe. Let’s get this poison taken care of. Then we’ll talk further.”
He picked Nico up like he was a boy much smaller than he actually was, ignoring his protests that he could walk, and brought him into the bathroom, where he directed him to get into the blood pool and soak for an hour. He even set up a little timer to ensure he was there for the full duration.
Hades left him alone so that he could make some calls. Nico slipped out of his clothes and immersed himself in the pool of sacrificial blood, feeling its gooey warmth envelop his body. Some it must have been years if not decades old, but it was still as hot and fresh as if it had been squeezed out of a goat that morning.
Nico rubbed it into his skin and hair, recalling the time he’d accidentally slipped and fallen into the pool. He’d been so grossed out by it back then, like it was something out of a horror movie. Now it felt like a magically rejuvenating day spa experience. It went to show that you could get used to anything given time.
As he watched the timer tick down the minutes of mandatory soaking time, he kept flashing back to the initial kidnapping. Gaea’s wicked roots pulling him into the earth, dirt filling his mouth and lungs-- now that was a horror movie. The earth had always been his friend, and he’d never been afraid of being buried. You couldn’t live underground and concern yourself with that sort of thing.
Now Gaea had taught him a valuable lesson. Even his most comfortable native environment, the one where he felt safest, could betray him. No matter how loyal the earth was to him, there would always be something older, crueler, and more cunning that would balance the scales of power against him.
It made the war feel silly, the demigods running around completing little tasks here and there, fighting monsters of the week. It was like playing chess against someone who was liable to flip the board over at any moment. You could only play so long as they chose to follow the rules.
Only Nico didn’t follow the rules. He’d still be in the cell with Reyna if he did. He wasn’t willing to suffer when he had a better option, even when that option was dangerously forbidden. Did that make him a reckless coward, or was he just a bit more open minded than most?
He hoped it was the latter.
He sank to the bottom of the pool and sat submerged for a while, trying not to think about what had happened. He was free now. He wanted to get back to Hazel and Jason and help them get to Reyna in time. He wanted to pretend that this kidnapping hadn’t shaken him to his core and made him terrified to face Gaea again.
“Time’s up!” Hades called out from across the palace. “I’m in your room!” As he spoke, the timer dinged.
Nico got out of the tub. The level of blood was much lower than when he’d gotten in, at less than half full, where before it had been nearly to the rim. He looked at his skin, wondering where it all went. He had his answer when he watched a few lingering drops of blood absorb into his skin and disappear.
He got dressed and went back to his room. He was greeted by opera music playing softly as he walked in. Hades was setting a bowl on his bedside table and smoothing out his blanket.
“I feel fine now,” Nico said. “I don’t need to be on bedrest.”
“You do, actually,” Hades said, squinting at him. “You still have a green tint to you.”
“Ew,” Nico said, sitting down on his bed.
“Indeed. Gaea’s poison still pollutes your ichor. It will continue to dampen your abilities until you’re purified. She kidnapped Juno using this toxin. It’s nasty work. It seeks out the portion of your ichor that contains her essence and hijacks it, essentially paralyzing part of your being.”
“It was just an eighth of me? It felt like more than that,” Nico said. “I could barely do anything.”
“It was more. Gaea was mother to both of my parents, making her a quarter of you. When Juno was taken, a full half of her ichor was compromised. It’s the only way a goddess of her power could be subdued.”
“I can’t imagine,” Nico said. “Your family is really messed up.”
“You’re just now noticing?” Hades said, raising an eyebrow
“Your dad is evil. His dad was evil, too. Now your grandma is trying to destroy all of us. And it’s all made worse because you’re inbred.”
Hades heaved a sigh, one that belied millennia of contemplating those issues. Wordlessly, he tucked Nico into his blankets, beginning by grabbing him by the neck and shoving him down onto the pillow, and ending with yanking the sheets over him so hard that he could barely move. If this was meant to be a comforting bedtime routine, his technique needed some work.
“Drink your soup,” he said, lifting the bowl to Nico’s mouth. He made his best effort to drink quickly before he got waterboarded. It was pastina soup with ambrosia mixed in, and it was lovely. The effects of the ambrosia were immediately noticeable, and Nico felt a little brighter than before.
“Does Thanatos know where I am?” Nico asked.
“I left a message,” Hades said, setting the soup bowl aside. “He’s out looking for you. I assume he’ll return once he looks at his phone.”
“He usually has notifications silenced,” Nico said. “I guess he wasn’t expecting me to show up on my own.”
“No one was,” Hades frowned. “I wish you’d just--” He cut himself off mid-sentence.
“What?”
“Nothing.”
“You wish I’d tell you how I did it,” Nico supplied.
“No. Well, yes, but no,” Hades said, picking at his nails nervously. “I don’t want to argue after what you’ve been through. Close your eyes. I’m going to tell you a bedtime story, and then you will go to sleep.”
Nico closed his eyes obediently, a smile quirking at the edges of his mouth. Maybe it was silly to allow himself to be babied when he was an immortal god, but he liked it. His childhood had ended so abruptly, and he’d been thrust into the world of adulthood without warning. Even Persephone treated him like a young adult. Hades was one of the few who didn’t give him credit for years he hadn’t actually lived. It made Nico feel like maybe it was okay if he didn’t have it all figured out quite yet.
“Once upon a time,” Hades began. “There was a king who lived in a castle. And the king had a son who wanted to go away to war. This son also had a habit of backtalking.”
Maybe a nice story had been a bit too much to hope for.
“One day they got into an argument. The prince wanted his father to give him a shiny new sword for battle. The king disagreed. He would have preferred to lock his son away in the dungeon for his own protection. The prince didn’t like that idea, of course, and he called the king a terrible father.”
Hades ran his hand across Nico’s hair, pausing.
“Little did the prince know that those were magic words. At that moment the king turned into a monster. The king’s father had been a monster, and his father before him, and it seemed the king was no different. And the prince ran away and went to war without his sword.”
“For a long time the king hid from everyone, since that was what monsters really ought to do. Then he got the news that his son had been taken prisoner. And he knew that maybe, if he’d just given him the sword, that wouldn’t have happened. He realized then that it didn’t matter so much whether he was a monster or not. He didn’t really have a choice about that. But princes still take swords from monsters. At least, his would have.”
He sighed, and said no more.
“So what happened?” Nico asked.
“The king lived in regret for the rest of his days,” Hades said.
“I don’t like that story,” Nico said.
“You’re not supposed to like it. It’s a tragedy. Time to sleep now.”
The candles in the room went out.
“But I’m not--”
Before Nico could get out the word, ‘tired’, his father had already poked him in the head and sent him to sleep. Nico fought it as hard as he could, but it was as pointless as trying to stop day from turning into night.
He awoke to the feeling of his rib cage being constricted. In a brief flash of panic, he though Gaea had caught him again, with her cruel vines wrapped around his stomach.
Then he felt the coldness of the vine, like marble in the shade, and the icy, scentless breath on the back of his neck.
He relaxed into Thanatos’ embrace, feeling his partner hold him tighter in response to his brief jerk of fear.
For an instant, Nico felt completely at peace, like a puzzle piece had clicked into place. Thanatos always gave him that feeling, like his soul had found its home.
“Oh, good, you’re awake,” Hades said loudly. Nico opened his eyes and gasped. His father was standing over his bed holding a syringe with a comically oversized needle pointing directly at him.
“Madonna santa,” he said, attempting to scramble out of the way of the glinting point.
“Watch your language,” Hades snapped. “If I ever hear you invoke one of
them
in my house again, this will go through your eye next time.”
Nico didn’t have any response to that; he felt like an idiot. It was weird and problematic, at best, for him to mention the virgin Mary offhandedly. Ever since he’d met his first saint, he’d kept their names out of his mouth at all costs, on the off chance he drew the attention of someone he didn’t want to mess with. As a Venetian, avoiding casual religious swearing actually took some effort on his part
“Sorry,” he said, sincerely. He wasn’t sure if he was apologizing to his dad, or to the other lady he’d just dragged into things. “I was just surprised.”
That wasn’t really true. After talking to Catherine, something had gotten stirred up in his subconscious that hadn’t quite settled down yet. That happened every time he met a saint. It was like a little box in his brain got unlocked and aired out a bit before he had to put the lid back on it again.
“What’s the matter?” Thanatos asked, sitting up and stretching his wings one at a time.
“Nothing,” Nico said quickly. “Can you blame me? That needle looks like it’s for Cerberus, not me. Please tell me that’s not for me.”
“It’s your medicine!” Thanatos said cheerily. “So that you can be safe! I think it’s fantastic.”
“You’re not the one getting jabbed with it. Back up a second,” Nico said, shooing his dad back a few paces so that he could think without the needle glinting ominously at him. “What is this?”
“Your sword,” Hades said simply.
It took a minute for Nico to remember the story.
“Are you saying you could have given me this before and you didn’t?” Nico asked. “What is it, exactly?”
“A vaccination against Gaea,” Hades said. “It’s a special form of ambrosia developed by Apollo. It will purge the ichor she can control from your veins. You’ll no longer be vulnerable to her tricks, and you can fight her with your full strength. Juno commissioned it after her kidnapping in order to protect the family.”
“Oh,” Nico said. “I guess I’d better get it, then.”
“And me,” Thanatos insisted.
“You’re not descended from Gaea,” Nico said, looking at him in confusion. “How would she be controlling your ichor?”
“She’s not,” Hades agreed. “Thanatos, you were kidnapped because you’re weak. This is a recurring pattern for you. I recommend Cross Fit.”
“He doesn’t need Cross Fit. He just gives up too easily,” Nico said.
Thanatos didn’t seem pleased with either of their remarks, folding and unfolding his wings in irritation, but he didn’t have anything to say in his own defense, since they were right.
“Shall we proceed?” Hades asked.
Nico held his arm out and closed his eyes. Thanatos gripped his shoulder tightly, trying to be supportive, but when Nico glanced back at him, his eyes were closed, too.
He didn’t feel the needle go in, and he didn’t notice any difference when it was removed. He looked at his arm, expecting it to be swollen with all the ambrosia that it had just received, but it looked totally normal.
“Cool,” Nico said immediately, seeing that the procedure was complete. “Now that I got it, I can tell you exactly what I think of you.”
“I saw this coming,” Hades said, looking resigned. “Go ahead.”
Nico took a deep breath, preparing for a very satisfactory telling-off.
“What is wrong with you?” He said loudly, stopping just short of shouting. “I can’t believe you had this the whole time and you never said anything. What kind of father would just throw me to the wolves with no warning, no protection, no nothing, after I practically begged you for help? You’re a selfish, paranoid, delusional, cold-hearted fu--”
Before he could dive into the litany of curses he wanted to fling at his father, he was distracted by a sudden sensation of something caught in his throat. He coughed once, then saw the floor moving toward him very fast.
Hades and Thanatos caught him and put him back in his bed immediately. He started hacking and coughing, still feeling like he was being choked by something.
Hades slid a bowl under his face and patted him on the back. A giant glob of ichor slid out of his mouth, landing in the bowl. It glinted golden in the candelight, and seemed to wiggle gelatinously at him.
“You didn’t mention side affects,” Nico whispered hoarsely.
“All of the ichor that you inherited from Gaea needs to be purged,” Hades said matter-of-factly, taking the bowl back. “The process will take a while. We need to keep all of it and return it to you after the war, so you can go back to your full strength.”
Nico coughed again.
“Ugh. Just know I’m yelling at you on the inside,” he said weakly. “You suck.”
“I understand,” Hades said, holding the bowl in front of him again. “I don’t blame you for feeling that way. I am sorry.”
He tried to ruffle Nico’s hair, but Nico gave him the dirtiest look he could muster while simultaneously vomiting magical blood into a salad bowl.
“Just go,” Nico coughed, when he was done. “I don’t want to see you.”
Hades left the room.
Thanatos sat behind Nico and held his hair back for a while, saying nothing, which was exactly what Nico needed him to say at the moment. He needed to think things over for a bit. And he felt disgusting.
“I’m rather glad I wasn’t eligible for the treatment, now that I’m seeing it in action,” Thanatos said.
“Who doesn’t vaccinate their kids?” Nico muttered, wiping his mouth.
He looked at the golden globs of slime in the bowl, wondering how the heck there was so much of Gaea in his body. A quarter of his ichor was so much that it boggled the mind to think of it all being removed.
“If it makes you feel better, my mother wouldn’t have given me the vaccine either,” Thanatos said. “She didn’t even look for me when I was kidnapped. So long as it’s part of the Fates’ plan, she doesn’t interfere.”
“She can’t help being like that,” Nico shrugged. “The Fates are your sisters. She probably understands their work better than anyone. She’s still a good mom.”
“She is,” Thanatos smiled.
“My dad’s different,” Nico said. “He did this deliberately, not by mistake. Apologies can’t undo that. I know he can be better, he’s just choosing not to.”
“Are you sure you’re right?” Thanatos asked. “You seem to be constantly disappointed by him. Do you ever think you ask for too much?”
“No,” Nico said. “I know I don’t.”
“What if you’re wrong, and he isn’t able to change? He’s always been known for his stubbornness.”
“I’m not wrong,” he insisted. He looked at Thanatos with annoyance. “I think I know my own father. Why are you harping on this?”
Thanatos was smiling at him.
“I’m teasing you. You’re right about him. He called Zeus today.”
Nico was stunned speechless. His mouth fell open.
“But they haven’t spoken in almost a hundred years,” Nico said. “Are you sure you didn’t misunderstand?”
“I’m sure. He told me himself,” Thanatos said. “We talked for a long time while you slept.”
“He didn’t actually call, though,” Nico said. “Surely they were just texting. Or talking in comments on Godstagram?”
“I’m pretty sure your dad dialed the phone,” Thanatos said. “He seemed as though he could hardly believe it himself. But for your sake, he did it. It was the only way to get you the vaccine.”
Nico couldn’t believe it. Hades had swallowed his pride and buried his resentments. He’d reached out to his little brother for help. And he’d done it for Nico.
Zeus had murdered Maria di Angelo in cold blood. Nico hated him as much as his father did. As far as he was concerned, Zeus deserved worse than just the silent treatment, and he had always resented the occasions when he’d had no choice but to deal with his uncle. He couldn’t bear thinking of the smug look on Zeus’ face when Hades asked him for a favor, to the point where he almost felt guilty for being the reason his dad had called. If he’d known that was a requirement to get him the vaccine, he’d have told his dad to forget about it, that it wasn’t worth his pride.
“What is it about you?” Thanatos said, looking at him admiringly. “You have an uncanny ability to move the immovable. Including me.”
“I don’t know,” Nico said. “I’m just cute, I guess.”
Thanatos pressed his forehead to Nico’s, closing his eyes.
“True. But you have other good qualities, too,” he said.
Once he felt well enough to walk, Nico went to talk to his father.
“Hi, Papa,” he said, walking into the kitchen. He had to bring the bowl of ichor with him, which was awkward, because it sloshed around when he walked and made gross noises.
Hades was sitting at the table, texting.
“You should be in bed,” Hades said, setting the phone down. “Or are you done coughing up ichor?”
“I think so,” Nico said, setting the bowl down on the table. It jiggled like Jello. He didn’t like seeing a part of himself sitting outside of him in a salad bowl.
Hades took one glance and looked slightly sickened.
“How are you feeling?” He asked.
“Weird,” Nico said. “I heard you talked to Zeus.”
“I did,” Hades said, wincing at the memory. “It was awkward, to say the least, but not as bad as I expected. He was too surprised to gloat much. I only regret that I didn’t do it soon enough to help you.”
“It might still help. Either way, I appreciate it.”
Hades turned to look at Nico, dark brows turned down in a frown.
“You ought to go on being angry with me. Your magnanimity only makes me feel worse.”
“I don’t know what that means,” Nico said.
“It means benevolence. Generosity of spirit. A trait you unfortunately possess at least some of the time,” Hades said. “This is what makes you so hard to deal with. Tantrums and defiance can be punished, but your inherent goodness confuses everything. If I’d known I’d be stuck raising you for eternity, I’d have taken you from your mother early and accustomed you to the way I do things. It would have smoothed the way considerably.”
“I never want to be accustomed to the way you do things,” Nico said.
“I don’t really want you to be, either,” Hades said, putting an arm around him. “I struggled to make the call initially, but I actually feel relieved at having spoken to my brother after all this time. I started distancing myself from the Olympians for your mother’s sake. It seemed fitting to end it for yours.”
Nico smiled, leaning his head on his dad’s shoulder.
“That said, we’re still feuding,” Hades added. “It’s merely entered phase two. I’m hoping to make their lives miserable with my presence, rather than my absence.”
“If it helps, I’ve probably pissed off almost all of them by now,” Nico said.
“Imagine what we could accomplish if we worked as a team,” Hades said.
It was almost worth getting kidnapped just to have this moment with his dad. Nico had really missed him. More than that, he’d missed being home. Living with Thanatos and working all the time had been a good experience, but being the prince of the Underworld was better. He had a big, shiny palace, parents that loved him, his own room and office, and a big, stinky dog. Thanatos didn’t even own a bedframe.
Thanatos poked his head into the room, as if he’d sensed Nico thinking about him.
“May I join?” He asked.
“Please do,” Hades said, almost a little too enthusiastically. “I was just about to tell him.”
“Tell me what?” Nico asked.
Thanatos sat on Nico’s other side, so that he was flanked by the two of them. They both looked at each other.
“Why don’t you start,” Hades suggested.
“No, you can start,” Thanatos said.
“Why do you guys seem weirdly chummy all of a sudden?” Nico asked, alarmed by the apparent understanding between them that he didn’t share.
“Your Thanatos and I had an interesting conversation today while you were asleep,” Hades said.
“Very interesting,” Thanatos agreed.
“About?” Nico asked.
“You,” they said in unison.
Nico felt sick again, and this time it wasn’t due to any vaccine.
“I don’t see any reason you two would need to talk about me,” Nico said. “You can save that for when I’m conscious.”
“I would have thought you’d want us to get along,” Hades said. “We found we had more in common than we thought.”
“No, you don’t,” Nico said. “I was actually totally fine with you guys not liking each other. Let’s go back to that, please.”
“We were discussing your eventual fate of being turned human again,” Hades said. “Since you’d told Thanatos all of our family business without asking me, I saw no reason to hold back from discussing it with him.”
“I didn’t tell him anything he didn’t already know,” Thanatos reassured Nico.
Thanatos was watching Nico keenly, observing how he was responding to what he heard. Clearly he hadn’t told Hades that Nico was a psychopomp, or Hades would have brought it up already. It seemed like he wanted Nico to continue to keep his mouth shut about that.
Nothing good was going to come of the conversation, but Nico was stuck now, literally sandwiched between them.
“When you are re-humanized, things are going to change,” Hades said. “I know you have your reservations about the process, but I thought it might reassure you if we were able to address them with you openly. Do you have anything specific that you were worried about?”
“Yeah. Everything,” Nico said. “I’m worried I won’t be me anymore.”
Hades paused for a moment.
“I think you’ll still be you,” he said, not sounding particularly convincing.
“You sure about that?”
“Nico, I first met you when you were a day old, and decidedly human. Becoming a god altered very few of your personality traits, quirks, and habits,” he said. “You still like the same music, the same food, the same books as you did back then. Why should that change?”
Maybe he did have a point. You didn’t need godly abilities to play Mythomagic and listen to opera records.
“And I’d still love you just the same,” Thanatos said.
“I know,” Nico said, looking down at the table. “But I wouldn’t be able to keep up with you. I’d have to sleep eight hours a night and eat three meals a day. That takes up so much time. I’d basically never see you.”
“We can make a schedule,” Thanatos said. “I don’t mind watching you sleep. I enjoyed doing that earlier. You looked peaceful.”
“I don’t like feeling tired and sick like I’ve felt today,” Nico said. “I don’t want to feel like that all the time. Humans are always a little bit tired even when they do get enough sleep.”
“What could possibly make you sick in the Underworld?” Hades asked.
“Well, I’d want to spend time with my friends on the surface,” Nico said.
“Why?” Thanatos asked incredulously.
“You’d be immortal, remember?” Hades said. “All your friends would end up here soon enough. No, you’d stay here with us, and we’d keep everything as similar as possible to how it was before.”
Nico remembered meeting Semele, Dionysus’ mother, when he’d visited Ariadne in Tuscany. She was an immortal human, and she’d lived among gods. She’d been one of the least happy people Nico had ever met.
“You wouldn’t miss shadow travel one bit,” Thanatos said. “I wouldn’t let you. I’ll take you anywhere you want to go, anytime.”
“I’d do the same,” Hades said, less convincingly. “Work permitting. And you can borrow my helm anytime you want to be invisible. Things really would be much the same. And we’d have eternity to spend time together as a family. With nothing hanging over our heads any longer, nothing to argue about, and no more stress.”
It sounded tempting. It was true that a lot of the things he valued about his life, he’d be able to keep. He knew Thanatos was good for all of his promises, and Hades for most of his. Persephone would probably bend over backwards to make him happy.
“It would make things simpler,” Thanatos said.
Nico looked at him. He was the only one that really knew what Nico would be giving up. He knew how much soul collecting meant to him.
“Look me in the eyes and tell me you really think I’d be happier,” Nico said.
Thanatos looked at him.
“We’d—”
“Not we. Me,” Nico said.
Thanatos turned his face away.
“What’s the difference,” he murmured.
Hades put his hand on Nico’s head and ruffled his hair.
“Thanatos and I are in violent agreement on this, son,” he said. “What do you think? Do you feel better about the plan now that your concerns have been addressed?”
Nico had to think for a while before he answered.
His father and Thanatos both wanted him human again. Weak, powerless, and dependent on them. They didn’t mean to be cruel or selfish, at least he didn’t think they saw it that way. They were protecting themselves, and were convinced that it meant they were protecting him, too.
Then again. He’d heard Gaea’s voice in his mind. He’d felt her take control of his body and leave him helpless to fight back. Kronos would have the same amount of control, and he’d do worse than merely imprison Nico. Annabeth had been his last hope for another escape route. She hadn’t had one.
“Could Apollo make another vaccine? Against Kronos?”
Hades’ face fell. He’d obviously been hoping that Nico would accept his fate gladly without further questioning.
“No, son. His control is psychological. It’s nothing to do with your ichor.”
Nico stared down at the salad bowl full of ichor staring back at him. He looked like a human on the outside, but this was what was inside him. Golden, glowing, gelatinous magic goo. Concentrated and congealed power. This was what he’d be giving up. This was what he’d been fighting to keep. Was it worth it?
There were only four people in the world who loved Nico unconditionally, as he saw it. His mom and dad were two of them. Thanatos, the person who knew him better than anyone. And Hazel, his personal miracle. Nico would do anything for any of them. Out of those four, two of them wanted him human, and two of them didn’t.
With no consensus on their part, the decision was entirely Nico’s. He could keep fighting fate until the bitter end, or he could surrender.
“I need to focus on the war,” he said. “August 1 st is when it all ends. On August 1st, I’ll become human again.”
Chapter 77: Aphrodite's Revenge
Chapter Text
Everything was falling apart.
Jason sat on the bathroom floor, his head spinning. Every time he tried to stand up, he saw double. He wasn’t sure if he was having a panic attack, or if there was something physically wrong with him. Either way, he wasn’t doing too hot.
Nico had been gone for about an hour, which wasn’t very long in the grand scheme of things. But it was more than enough time for the Seven to shatter as a group. He and the others had watched from a high vantage point as evil sunflowers ate their godly patron. It looked like Dionysus escaped at the last second, or at least they thought he might have. Nico, on the other had, had been devoured by the earth right before their eyes.
Jason kept replaying it in his mind. Nico fighting desperately to free himself, Nico asking Dionysus for help and being ignored, and the moment when his face disappeared beneath the churning dirt. There had been fear in his eyes. Jason wished he’d never seen that look on his face. He wished he could forget it.
If Gaea could make Dionysus scream like a little girl, if she could snatch Nico in a matter of seconds, what chance did a bunch of demigods have against her? She was the earth. It was hard to understate the significance of the earth.
Piper knocked gently on the bathroom door.
“Please don’t come in,” Jason groaned.
She came in, kneeling on the tile next to him. The bathroom was cramped, and the Argo II was hauling keel eastward, so the rocking motion of the ship meant that Piper was pressed against him.
“How are you feeling?” She asked.
“Just some airsickness,” he said. “I’m fine. Can I have some space?”
“The son of Jupiter, airsick?” She said, pressing the back of her hand to his forehead. “I doubt it.”
“You don’t have to be nurse Piper right now,” he said. It made him feel guilty to see how much she still cared about him. He knew that if he asked to get back together, she would eagerly agree, and it pained him to know that she was probably still hoping that would happen. He knew it never would.
“I am not nurse Piper,” she said, putting her arm around his shoulders. “I’m just your friend. Come on, let’s get you a ginger ale.”
He followed her into the kitchen. She opened the magical pantry built into the wall of the ship and took out a can of Schweppes, handing it to him.
“I miss you,” she said, looking at him sadly. “I miss just talking with you. I used to feel like we could tell each other anything. It feels like you’re avoiding me lately.”
“It’s not intentional,” he said, although it was totally intentional. “This quest is different from any other quest I’ve been on. It’s overwhelming. I’ve needed space to process it all.”
“Mhm,” she said, opening a can of ginger ale for herself as well. “I feel you. But you don’t have to process alone, you know.”
“Thanks,” he said. He didn’t intend to take her up on that, but he appreciated her reaching out. “You’re awesome, Piper. Whatever happens, I hope you know that I care about you.”
“Whatever happens?” She laughed. “Sounds kind of ominous. Everything good?”
“I wouldn’t say anything is good right about now,” Jason said. “We just lost our quest patron.”
Piper’s mouth quirked up slightly at the edge.
“I think he’s a little more than just a patron,” she said, running her fingernail around the edge of her soda can. “At least to you.”
Jason’s mouth went dry. He took a sip of ginger ale nervously.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” he said, his voice shaking with nerves.
She stood and walked over to his side of the table. When she went to put her arms around him, he felt his eyes prickle with tears.
“It’s okay,” she said, her voice dripping with the sweetness of Charmspeak. “It’s okay, Jason. I just wish you’d told me, that’s all.”
“How long have you known?” He asked, choked with emotion. He was so relieved to not be met with anger, and he felt horrible for thinking that of her. Piper had always shown him love and kindness. He’d been so unfair to her, and he regretted it.
“Since I saw the way you looked at him,” she said. “For future reference, you may want to avoid trying to have a secret love affair on the same flying ship as a daughter of Aphrodite. Not a lot gets past us.”
“I guess that was pretty stupid, huh,” he said. She probably knew everything. For all he knew, Aphrodite kids could smell pheromones. He dreaded to think what his had been saying lately.
“I didn’t realize you were bi, though,” she said. “That one slipped past me.”
“I don’t know if I am,” he said. “I’ve never felt this way about a man before. Or anyone. This has been really new for me.”
“He seduced you,” she said, stating it as a fact.
Jason felt his cheeks burning.
“Uh, well, maybe a little, but--”
“Maybe if I’d tried that first, this wouldn’t have happened to you,” she said bitterly.
“Nothing happened to me,” Jason said, not wanting her to get the wrong idea. “It was my choice. Nico has always treated me with respect. He really cares about me.”
“Oh,” she said, with slight surprise in her voice. “You don’t know?”
“Know? Know what?” He asked, tensing.
There was a sudden noise above their heads, and they both jumped. Piper’s hand went to her knife. On edge after the attack, they waited, poised to jump into action, but no alarms went off. Instead, they heard Leo talking in his usual loud tone of voice.
With a sigh of relief, Piper relaxed, standing.
“We’d better see what that was,” she said, helping Jason out of his chair. “Are you feeling better?”
“I can manage,” he said. “What was it you were saying about--”
“Nothing. Never mind,” she said, looking at him pityingly. She rubbed his arm. “Just take care of yourself. Let me know if you need anything, okay?”
Jason had no idea what she was talking about, but she looped her arm in his and they headed upstairs to see what was going on. Dionysus was standing on the top deck talking with the rest of the demigods. Hazel caught Jason’s eye; she looked like she was restraining herself from punching the god of wine in the face.
“Honestly, I didn’t have any opportunity to help,” Dionysus said, lying shamelessly. “Or I would have. But like I said, he’s fine, so quit stabbing me with your eyes.”
“He’s fine?” Jason asked, hardly daring to hope it was true.
“Yeah, his dad texted me. Nico managed to escape somehow. He’s recovering in the Underworld,” Dionysus said.
Jason was so relieved that he actually felt lightheaded. For some reason, coming up onto the deck in the sunlight gave him a brief bout of double vision, and he had to hold onto Piper for stability. He wondered what was causing it; the ship wasn’t rocking in the slightest, and everyone else seemed fine.
“Look, I take zero responsibility for what happened to Nico,” Dionysus said, throwing his hands up in a gesture of innocence. “I am going to fill in for him until he’s ready to come back, but only as a gesture of goodwill towards him. It’s not an admission of guilt.”
“Let me take a wild guess,” Annabeth said coldly. “You’re worried Nico is pissed at you and you’re trying to make it up to him before he gets back.”
“Wrong as usual, Annabelle!” Dionysus declared. “His opinion is irrelevant to me. The fact that he’s friends with my wife is also irrelevant. Now, where’s the minibar on this rig?”
Jason had yet to meet a single one of his godly siblings that he had anything in common with. He couldn’t believe he and Dionysus were related. Their new temporary patron strolled down to the kitchen and grabbed a bunch of snacks and Diet Cokes, and parked himself at the head of the dining room table.
“That’s Nico’s seat,” Hazel hissed angrily, folding her arms.
“To be fair, your brother spent pretty much every planning meeting on his phone,” Leo said. “I doubt he even knows what the Athena Parthenos is.”
Hazel huffed under her breath. She didn’t argue the point, though. Jason couldn’t say anything in Nico’s defense, either. He hadn’t done anything to help the group as a whole, although he had done wonders for Jason’s morale. But that meant they didn’t need anything from Dionysus, either. All he could provide was a distraction from what they needed to focus on.
The Argo II started making its way toward Charleston. Jason felt more at ease knowing Nico was okay and would be back soon, but that left him with nothing to worry about but himself. He went to his room to lie down for a while, but lying in the dark alone drew more attention to the fact that something was off with him. He had a mild sense of nausea, and the vertigo still assaulted him every time he woke up. His concussion had been weeks ago now, and he worried the symptoms were resurfacing.
He went to take a shower, hoping it would clear his head. It didn’t; he had the eeriest sensation in the bathroom. It felt like there was someone else in there with him, even though he knew that wasn’t possible. At one point, when he glanced in the fogged up mirror, he could have sworn he saw someone else’s face looking back at him.
He actually started praying that he did have major head trauma. The other options were creepier.
After that, he went back to his room and tried reading with all the lights on. He got through two pages of Dante’s Inferno before he put it down. For one thing, he didn’t really want to read it, Nico had bullied him into it. For another, he still felt that weird presence of something other in his room, in his body-- maybe even inside his head.
He needed to talk to someone about this. He went to find Piper, but she wasn’t in her room. He found her in the engine room, hanging out with Leo.
Leo gave him a weird look when he walked in, but Piper smiled at him warmly.
“Nice of you to join us,” she said, patting a spot beside her. An oily rag had been spread on top of a toolbox, making a seat for her. Leo was kneeling beside a pipe and banging on it with a wrench, but he seemed to be working absentmindedly, and he glanced at Jason with a slightly awkward smirk.
“First time I’ve even seen you down here,” Leo said gruffly. “I thought you didn’t know where the engine room was.”
“Sorry,” Jason said, scratching his head. “I should have checked in.”
“It’s fine,” Leo said. It didn’t sound fine, though. He wiped his brow, leaving a dark streak of grease behind. “What’s up?”
“I wanted to ask Piper about concussions. I feel like some of my symptoms are coming back,” he said.
“Like what?” She asked, peering at him with interest.
“Like nausea, lightheadedness, a little bit of fatigue,” he said. “The stuff from earlier. And-- This is going to sound weird, but I have this really strange feeling that I’m not alone. Like, there’s me, and then there’s something else, but it’s like, in me, if that makes sense? Does that sound crazy?”
“Yep,” Leo said flatly. “Definitely crazy.”
“No,” Piper disagreed. “It sounds normal, considering your situation.”
“Do you think so?” Jason thought about his concussion. He’d taken the max dose of ambrosia for the duration of his recovery-- Nico had certainly made sure of that, he recalled, feeling heat rise in his body just thinking about it. He hadn’t expected long-term damage to ensue, but maybe it was possible.
“Have you thought about taking a test?” Piper asked calmly.
“A test? If there is one, I’ll take it,” Jason said. “What’s the test?”
“It involves peeing on a stick,” she said.
Jason hadn’t expected that. He wasn’t sure how to respond. Leo snorted.
“What, like a pregnancy test? That’s hilarious. What’s it testing for?”
“Pregnancy,” Piper said calmly. “Jason’s pregnant.”
Jason and Leo both burst out laughing.
“Very funny,” Jason said. “No, I’m pretty sure I still have a concussion. Is there actually some kind of test I can take, or are you just messing with me?”
Piper stood up and touched Jason’s arm gently, a look of profound sadness on her face.
“He didn’t tell you, huh?” She said kindly, taking his hand. “It’s okay. Just try not to panic.”
“What are you talking about?” Jason asked.
“Yeah, what the hell are you talking about?” Leo asked. “I’m supposed to be the one with the weird jokes that don’t land, not you.”
“I wish I was joking, you guys,” Piper shrugged. She looked resigned to her role as bearer of bad news. “Jason, you’d better tell him about what’s been going on.”
“But I wasn’t going to-- I didn’t-- Damn it,” Jason said, feeling flustered and terribly embarrassed. He could only hope that Leo was as nice about the situation as Piper was. “Piper, I really don’t appreciate this. If you’re trying to play a sick joke on me--”
“I would never joke about something like this!” She insisted, her voice genuine and sincere. “It’s okay. Leo’s your friend. He’ll have your back. You’re going to need us if you’re going to get through this.”
“Get through what?!” Leo said angrily. “What the fuck is going on?”
Piper looked between Jason and Leo.
“Jason and Nico are hooking up,” she said.
Leo’s jaw dropped. He looked at Jason, waiting for him to deny it, but Jason said nothing. He picked a spot on the wall and stared at it. There was still time to jump off the railing and fly to the North Pole. He wondered how long that might take.
“Di immortales,” Leo said, his voice hollow. The fact that he didn’t make an inappropriate joke told Jason all he needed to know.
“I didn’t want you to find out like this,” Jason said, his face turning beet red with shame. He couldn’t meet Leo’s eyes. There were so many layers to how he felt that he didn’t know where to begin.
“That fucking bastard,” Leo said, his eyes growing fiery with anger. He looked at Piper, who met his gaze, matching his intensity. “When he gets back I’m chucking this wrench at his stupid face, and I’m so serious about that.”
“I’ll be behind you with a screwdriver,” Piper agreed. “I’ll shank him.”
“What are you talking about? You mean Nico?” Jason asked. “I’m the one who kept it a secret, not him. He would have been fine with telling everyone from the beginning.”
“No, dude,” Leo shook his head. “You were really down when we left for this quest. Like, way down. I’ve never seen you that shaken up before. We all knew you were having a hard time.”
“Don’t, Leo,” Piper said softly, like it wasn’t meant for Jason to hear. “He’s not ready to hear it.”
“What’s that got to do with anything?” Jason asked defensively. He worried that they thought Nico had taken advantage of him, but he knew that wasn’t the case. He wasn’t an idiot. He didn’t trust Nico blindly, and he didn’t worship him. Being romanced and being manipulated might seem similar from the outside, but they weren’t the same thing. “Nico hasn’t done anything wrong.”
Leo, with great effort, held back from responding.
“Just tell me that pregnancy thing was a joke,” Leo said, looking at Piper with a new, serious look in his eyes.
She looked at the floor.
“Like I said. I wish it was.”
She seemed so deathly serious about the subject that Jason’s heart started to beat faster. As anxiety crept into his body, he felt more determined than ever to refute her claims.
“That’s the most ridiculous thing I’ve ever heard,” he told her. “It’s impossible.”
“Yeah, unless he has a uterus he’s been being really low-key about,” Leo said. “Which, like, cool, if true.”
“Uh, no?” Jason said. “I definitely don’t!”
“I’m just saying, I wouldn’t judge,” Leo shrugged.
“How do you know you don’t have one?” Piper said. “Do you think a god can’t swap your organs around if they want to? Where do you think Kayla came from?”
“Oh, shit,” Leo said, growing pale. “That’s right. I forgot about Kayla.”
Now Leo was looking at him like there was something terribly wrong with him. It was one thing to have one of your best friends doing that. When it was both at the same time, you started to feel like maybe they knew something you didn’t.
“What about Kayla?” Jason asked.
“Kayla has two dads,” Piper said gravely. “Apollo and Darren. Darren was a cis man that Apollo got pregnant.”
Up until that point, Jason really hadn’t believed it was possible. Now, realization dawned.
“No,” he said, shaking his head. “No, no, no way. Not possible.”
“Is it? Can you honestly say there’s no chance, knowing what happened to Darren?” Piper asked.
Leo raised his eyebrows, waiting.
Jason opened his mouth, but no words came out. No. He couldn’t say that for sure.
With gods, there was a chance of literally anything happening. That was an undeniable truth.
He’d been a demigod all his life, and had grown up surrounded by other demigods. In that community, mortal parents were a taboo subject, at least outside the legacy families. Too many kids had been abandoned or had grown up with traumatized parents that lacked support. The circumstances that led to new demigods being born didn’t typically make for breezy conversation. There could have been tons of demigods with two dads like Kayla, and he wouldn’t have heard about it. For all he knew, it was a common thing.
Nico was young and a bit stupid at times. Unfortunately, Jason could envision a conversation where Nico was like, ‘Whoops, my bad,’ and then suddenly had to run to the corner store for cigarettes and conveniently never returned. He didn’t think it was the most likely scenario, but he couldn’t call it impossible.
Nico’s inexperience as a god had always posed a risk to Jason, which he’d been aware of. Just not aware enough, apparently. He’d worried Nico might absentmindedly reveal his true form around him, or throw a pillow at him too hard and break his bones. Getting knocked up hadn’t been on his list of concerns.
“It’s just a concussion,” he said through gritted teeth, clinging to the more likely explanation.
“It’s really not. Aphrodite kids can sense these things,” Piper said sweetly. “It’s alright. It’s going to be okay. Leo and I will have your back, right?”
“I thought my cool uncle era was years away,” Leo said. “But if this is really happening, I guess I’ll start working on some uncle jokes. Tio Leo has a certain ring to it.”
Leo’s voice was lighthearted, but he wasn’t as successful with hiding his facial expression. He looked shocked and horrified and slightly grossed out. All the things Jason would be feeling if it were true. But it wasn’t. It just couldn’t be.
“That’s not funny,” Jason said. “I’m going to take one of those tests and prove you wrong. We’ll all look back on this and laugh.” That was a lie. This would never be funny to him, it was too scary. He wasn’t ready to be a dad. Not now, and definitely not like this.
Piper and Leo followed him upstairs to the med bay, where they dug through the first aid cabinets, but there were no pregnancy tests to be found. That frustrated Jason, because he wasn’t going to be able to relax until Piper’s theory was debunked.
“Go ask Annabeth if she has one,” Piper suggested.
“You ask her! You’re a girl,” Jason said. “She’s going to think it’s weird if it’s me asking.”
“If it’s positive, you’re going to have to learn to live with weird. I say lean into it,” Leo shrugged.
“I’m not the one having unprotected sex,” Piper said. “I’m not asking.”
Jason looked at his two friends, huffed angrily, then went up to Annabeth’s room. She wasn’t there, but he saw her toiletry bag sitting on her nightstand, conveniently left open for his perusal.
He felt like a jerk, but asking her would feel worse, so he went up and took a peek. He dug through the bag like a rat through trash. He found makeup, moisturizer, tampons and birth control pills, but he didn’t see any pregnancy tests. He should have known she was too responsible to need them.
“What the fuck are you doing?” Annabeth snapped. He turned around to see her approaching angrily. She snatched the bag out of his hands.
“Why are you going through my stuff?” She demanded, glaring at him.
Steeling himself, he swallowed.
“I was looking for a pregnancy test,” he said.
She blinked at him.
“Are you for real?” She asked, her face falling.
“Unfortunately.”
“Shit,” she muttered. She went into her suitcase and dug out another bag, taking a pregnancy test box out. “If it’s positive, tell Piper to come talk to me so I can kill her. Because this is the last thing we need right now.”
“I’m, uh, sure it wasn’t intentional,” Jason stammered. “That seems a little harsh.”
“Yeah, I’m feeling kind of harsh right now,” Annabeth said. “I can’t handle any more problems. You do realize I’ve mapped the entire quest out, right? That I’ve already determined the test I’ll be facing in order to retrieve the Athena Parthenos? That I’ve been running simulations and projecting outcomes and designing algorithms to predict every possible way we might be able to somehow defeat Gaea as a group of seven demigods with unpredictable powers and an inexperienced patron god? And now we’ve got Dionysus instead of Nico, which changes literally everything, and I have to re-plan from scratch. Not to mention Percy is sick now, and I have to deal with--”
“Annabeth, no one asked you to do all that,” Jason said. “Not to that extent. Hazel is leading the quest. You don’t have to do her job for her.”
“Hazel thinks her brother is going to lead us to victory by some miracle,” Annabeth said. “This is why they say there’s no zealot like a convert. She has this blind faith that he’ll come through, but he has no idea what he’s doing. We can’t rely on him. But you probably agree with her.”
“I don’t,” Jason said. “I know Nico’s not experienced. He’s actually been asking me for advice.”
“We’re done for,” Annabeth said, handing him the test. “Here. Whatever it says, I don’t want to know. We just have to get through the end of summer. If we beat Gaea, I’ll throw her a baby shower. If we don’t, we’ll be dead, so it won’t matter.”
Jason thanked her and got out of her room as fast as he could. It was hard to see her in such a stressed out state. Up until now, she’d been the most dependable one of the group, but he could see that the situation was slowly breaking her.
A sudden rush of nausea reminded him that he had bigger problems. That distinct feeling of not being alone in his body had come back, a chilling reminder of the dire situation he was facing. He ran to the bathroom and vomited up his stomach contents into the toilet.
He looked up to see Piper and Leo staring at him. Piper still had that pitying look on her face, which he was growing to hate. She’d grabbed the pregnancy test box from where he’d dropped it on the floor and had already taken the test out for him.
“I don’t think you’re beating the embarazada allegations, bro,” Leo said, watching Jason wipe his face and stand up shakily. “You’re gonna be an amazing dad. I really mean that.”
“Shut up,” Jason said, shuddering. “Just… Shut up, Leo.”
“Two lines means negative. One means positive,” Piper said.
He took the test from Piper’s hand and shut the door in their faces.
After taking the test, it took him a while to open the door again. His hands were shaking too much to work the knob.
“This can’t be happening to me,” he said his face gone pale with fear. “Piper, are you sure one line means positive? Can you please double check?”
“It’s understandable that you would be in denial,” she said sweetly. “But like I told you, Aphrodite kids can just sense these things. Goddess of fertility and all.”
“Congratulations!” Leo said, a little too happily. He seemed determined to help make the best of the situation, which was well-meant, but to Jason it just felt like mockery.
“It has to be some mistake,” Jason said. His hands were trembling so much that he dropped the little plastic stick. “This isn’t real. I need to lie down. No, wait. I need to call Nico. Maybe this is… I don’t know, a misunderstanding?”
He hurried back to Annabeth’s room and pounded on her door, his friends following behind him.
“I told you, I don’t want to know,” Annabeth said, giving Piper a dirty look.
“It’s not me,” Piper said.
“What do mean it’s not you?” Annabeth asked, alarmed. “I know it isn’t Hazel, because I had to teach her how to use a tampon yesterday.”
“You’re carrying this team, queen,” Leo said, saluting her.
“Shut up, Leo,” Annabeth said.
“Yes, ma’am,” Leo said, saluting again.
“I need your phone!” Jason said. “Right now!”
Annabeth looked at him. Then she looked at him harder, squinting.
“I don’t want to know,” she said finally. She handed Jason her phone and shut the door in his face.
Jason worked the phone with fumbling fingers, nearly dropping it twice. He found Nico’s contact and pressed the call button, then hung up immediately.
“I can’t do it,” he said, looking back at his friends. “What if he…”
“You can do it,” Piper said, her voice resonant with Charmspeak. “Be brave.”
He hit the button.
Leo patted him on the shoulder while Jason gnawed at his thumbnail, listening to the dial tone in throes of increasing terror.
Nico didn’t pick up, but he heard the sound of a phone ringing nearby.
“He’s back,” Jason said, hope flooding him. He hadn’t been ditched; that was something.
He followed the sound back to the dining room, where Dionysus was sitting at the table. He was drinking Diet Coke and preparing a feast. There was a platter piled with sandwiches and plastic bowls of salad with green goddess dressing arranged in an elegant display. Above all, there were grapes everywhere, filling in the gaps between cups of mac and cheese. At least it wasn’t Kraft this time.
“Good timing, kids,” Dionysus said. “I was just about to ring the dinner bell.”
“It’s lunchtime,” Hazel said, who was sitting on Dionysus’ right side, with Frank across from her. She still looked irritated that Dionysus was in Nico’s seat.
“Everyone sit down and enjoy the spread,” Dionysus said, gesturing at the table. “It’s the best Panera has to offer. My little gift to you kids,” he winked. “Bet Nico never did anything like that.”
Jason wanted to snap that Nico had treated him to oysters on the half-shell, filet mignon, and lobster thermidor in his dreams every night, but he didn’t have the energy for it.
“Is he back?” he asked anxiously. “I thought I heard his phone ringing.”
“Oh, yeah,” Dionysus. “I found it in the sunflower field after he was taken.”
He took it out of his pocket and set it on the table. That shining black rectangle represented Jason’s complete inability to contact Nico, no matter how badly he needed to. The best he could hope for was to get his hands on the phone and call Hades with it.
What was he supposed to say? “Hi, Mr. Cthonios, this is Nico’s lover, can you put him on for me please? Hope you’re ready to be a grandpa!” Just the thought of it was ridiculous, but what choice did he have?
He didn’t have the guts to do it. He sat down as he’d been instructed, and Piper and Leo sat down on either side of him, giving him sympathetic looks.
“Jason may not be up to eating anything,” Piper said. “He’s not feeling well.”
That struck Jason as totally unnecessary, but he didn’t want to argue with her. He was too deep in his thoughts.
Maybe it was better if he didn’t call Nico. If he told him, he might never come back. It was way too soon in their relationship for this-- Not that Jason would have ever been ready. He didn’t know the first thing about kids. He’d never had a childhood. He hadn’t known his own parents. He was probably the least qualified person in the universe to be a dad.
That was a depressing thought. He sat in a daze. Maybe this was just cruel fate teaching him a lesson, that he didn’t get to have nice things. Nico had been an extremely nice thing. But he was probably gone for good, or would be soon.
Annabeth joined them at the table. He gave her phone back, but didn’t say anything. She accepted it without questioning him.
“Percy isn’t feeling well, Mr. D,” Annabeth said. “He can’t make dinner.”
“He won’t be missed,” Dionysus said, shrugging. “I didn’t even notice his absence, frankly.”
Annabeth ignored him, eating her salad without a word.
Jason picked up a sandwich and stared at it. There was no way he could tolerate food at this point. Even if he wasn’t pregnant, the anxiety alone would have been enough to turn his stomach.
“Now that most of us are here, I might as well tell y’all, I had another dream about Reyna last night. The first one in a while,” Hazel said. “I’m not gonna lie, she didn’t look good. But there’s a bright side. I saw Nico helping her. He gave her magic pomegranate seeds to eat that should sustain her until we get there.”
A huge wave of relief swept through Jason. Of course Nico would do something like that for Reyna. He was amazing. And they could make it across the ocean in time, too. He had a good feeling about it.
If he could save Reyna and tell her about his predicament, they’d figure things out. New Rome had always expected the two of them to settle down and have New Roman babies. If Reyna was still up for it, they could make it work, albeit in an unconventional way.
The situation was still terrifying, but suddenly it began to feel manageable. If Jason could just get Reyna back, he’d be alright. They’d all be alright. He had to believe that.
Feeling better, he started to eat his sandwich. He could do this. People had done harder things. He’d be okay even if Nico abandoned him.
He really hoped Nico wouldn’t abandon him, though. He remembered their promise. “You and me until the end.” Had Nico meant that? There was only one way to find out.
Piper, sitting next to him, appeared to be agitated all of a sudden. He could see her watching him in his peripheral vision. She was taking in every tiny change in his facial expression. She’d never been one to shy away from eye contact, but this was getting weird.
“What’s up?” He asked.
“What’s up? You said that so casually,” she said, her mouth twitching. “I thought you’d be more upset about your condition.”
“I am upset,” he said quietly. Dionysus flicked his eyes at him disinterestedly, but no one else heard.
“You didn’t even cry about it,” she whispered. “I expected you to cry.”
He looked at her, wondering what was so off about her demeanor. He realized that she seemed angry with him for not crying. But why would she want that?
“Maybe you underestimated my resilience,” he said.
“As soon as she gets mentioned, all is well in Jason’s world,” Piper said, biting into her sandwich viciously.
“She? You mean Reyna?” Jason asked. “You’re seriously mad about Reyna? She’s being held captive, Piper.”
Piper set her sandwich down and looked at him directly. Her dark brown eyes were aglow with a simmering anger that, until now, she’d kept hidden.
“I don’t even make your top three, do I? You even like Leo better than me,” she snarled.
“Hey, don’t drag me into this!” Leo said, looking at her like she’d grown a pair of fangs. She might as well have. Jason and Leo met eyes over her head, both of them equally surprised by her switch being flipped.
“There is no top three,” Jason insisted. “I don’t rank people I care about.”
“Bullshit. I can read you like a book, Jason Grace,” she hissed, layering the syllables of his name with vitriol. “I know exactly what you’re thinking. I’m so sick of being your runner up. Of being the one you settle for when no one better is around. I deserve more than that.”
Now everyone was staring at them. Even Dionysus seemed intrigued. The last thing Jason wanted was more attention on him, what with his condition. He was worried Dionysus would be able to tell he was eating Panera for two.
“I agree,” Jason said. He was in damage control mode, so he tried telling her what he thought she wanted to hear. They could hash things out in private later, but he didn’t want her to make a scene if he could avoid it. “I always thought you deserved better than me.”
“I did,” she said. She scrubbed tears out of her eyes. To her credit, crying didn’t diminish her rage one iota. Jason was afraid she might stab him with a plastic fork. “I deserved better than a cheating liar who treated me like crap. Who didn’t even want me.”
“Wait a second! I didn’t cheat on you,” Jason said, dumbfounded that she’d characterize the situation that way. He was dumbfounded by everything about her reaction right now. She’d been so nice that morning, but that girl was gone, and he didn’t understand why.
“You cheated!” She said. “Don’t you dare try to gaslight me!”
“We were on a break!” Jason shouted.
“Classic blunder,” Dionysus said, shaking his head sadly.
“A break and a break up are two totally different things,” Piper said. “You said you wanted space to work on yourself. Apparently all you really wanted was Nico di Angelo’s dick.”
Frank fell out of his chair with a thump.
Dionysus started laughing so hard that he knocked over a bottle of ranch dressing.
“This is primo entertainment right here. I can’t wait to tell my wife. And to think, you kids haven’t even been drinking!”
Piper looked at Jason with eyes full of unadulterated rage.
“Jason can’t drink. He’s pregnant,” she said mockingly.
Frank had only just gotten back into his chair. He fell out of it again.
“Piper!” Jason said furiously.
“Mazel tov,” Dionysus said, toasting him with his Diet Coke.
The situation was officially off the rails, and Jason accepted defeat. Piper hated him, that much was obvious, and it hurt like hell to realize he’d broken her heart without intending to. Still, it was hard to feel bad about it when she’d just outed him to the whole table as Nico’s baby daddy.
“Oh my stars,” Hazel said, fanning herself like an old lady. If she had pearls, she’d be clutching them. “I guess nowadays this stuff works different than I remember. Science is amazing.”
“Not that amazing,” Frank said, his face red. He took a sip of water and tried to collect himself. “Um, is this some sort of magical god thing that I’m just not aware of? Because I didn’t think that was possible.”
“It’s certainly possible,” Dionysus said cheerfully. “A god can create a child out of nothing, remember? Although I’m surprised Nico knew how to do it at his young age. Teen pregnancy is an epidemic these days, I suppose.” He nodded sagely, as if he’d made a profound observation about society.
Jason just stared at him, unsure what he could do at this point to gain a semblance of control over his life.
“Well, if you’re gonna gestate my precious little niece or nephew, probably for the best you let me exorcise that eidolon out of you,” Hazel said sweetly. “Wouldn’t want it to hurt the baby!”
It took Jason a second to process what she’d said. Throwing the term baby around was massively distracting, since he hadn’t been thinking that far ahead yet. Maybe that was irresponsible of him; the waiting list for New Roman daycare was insanely long, and he probably needed to reserve a spot ahead of time.
“Wait,” Jason said, struck by the first part of her statement. “What eidolon? You mean the shades that possess people?”
“Yeah. You have one. Just like Leo did back at Camp Jupiter, remember?” She said.
Jason just stared at her, and pieces started falling into place.
He turned to look at Annabeth.
“Annabeth? How many lines on a pregnancy test is positive?” He asked, speaking slowly.
“Two,” she said. “Why?”
He looked at Piper. He could feel her smirking at him before he even saw it.
“You tricked me,” he said, his voice hollow with hurt.
“Are you kidding? You completely deserved that,” she said bitterly. “It didn’t even take much Charmspeak to convince you. I can’t believe you actually bought it.”
“I thought you were different,” Jason said. “You’re acting just as bad as all the other Aphrodite kids. Worse, even. I can’t believe I trusted you.”
“Hold up,” Leo said. “Bro, look at it from her perspective. You treated her pretty bad for a while. Yeah, she played a nasty trick on you, but no harm, no foul, right?”
“No harm?” Jason asked. “I’m harmed!”
“You’re embarrassed. You’ll live,” Leo said, looking at Jason without a shred of pity. “We should have heard it from you in the first place. You’re hooking up with our quest patron. That’s the kind of thing we ought to know, since we’re supposed to be a team and all that. Actually, we’re supposed to be friends, but I think you’ve forgotten that lately.”
Jason had been such an idiot. Piper and Leo were angry. They resented the way he’d treated them the last few months. And he understood why, but it didn’t mean it didn’t hurt.
“Be grateful the rest of my plan didn’t work,” Piper said. “I wanted you to tell him and I wanted him to leave you. Then I might have felt like I had some justice.”
“He wouldn’t have left me,” Jason said, bristling.
“Oh, please,” Piper said, rolling her eyes. “They always leave. Name one god who didn’t.”
There was an awkward silence as everyone at the table tried to think of one. Nobody said anything.
“Kids, as interim quest patron, allow me to remind you that all is fair in love and war,” Dionysus said, crossing his legs and resting his feet on the table. He was wearing purple Crocs, and one of his toes was sticking out of the little holes, wiggling at Jason in a way that felt offensive somehow. “I call this one a draw. Truce? For the sake of the war?”
“Fine,” Piper muttered, scowling.
Jason hated her scorned woman act. He had neglected their friendship and mismanaged their breakup, he could admit that, but she’d been downright cruel. Maybe to her and Leo, embarrassing him felt fair, but to him, it felt like the thin thread holding him together was being snipped at with scissors.
Dionysus stared him down, a hint of warning in his deep purple eyes.
“Truce,” Jason muttered. He was close to tears. Maybe Hazel had seen that, because before he knew it, she was pulling him away from the table.
“Let’s take care of that eidolon,” she said gently.
“Here,” Dionysus said. He threw something at Jason, and he caught it reflexively. It was Nico’s phone, shining cold and black in his palm. “You hang on to that for him,” he said, smiling at Jason. “I’m sure he’ll be back soon.”
If Dionysus felt sorry for him, Jason must have looked even more pathetic than he felt. He let Hazel pull him away.
“You have nothing to apologize for,” she said quietly, walking him over to her room. “Don’t let them get to you. You don’t owe them all your secrets.”
“They seem to think I do,” he sighed, gripping the phone tightly in his hand.
Her room was decorated with purple crystals. Seeing them sent a chill down Jason’s spine as he remembered how she could make them explode at will. She gestured for him to sit on her bed, and she took an amulet out of a box on her nightstand. She draped it around his neck.
Immediately, he felt the weird, ‘other’ presence leave his body. His residual nausea disappeared, and his slightly blurry vision went away.
“Thanks,” he mumbled.
“No problem,” she said, sitting beside him. They sat in silence for a moment. He appreciated her quiet support. He hadn’t realized how much he needed it.
“Well, guess I’m not gonna be an auntie,” she said. “Dang it. I was excited.”
He laughed at the way she said it, like it was all just a silly misunderstanding. It helped take the edge off his hurt.
“I was an idiot,” he said. “I know Nico wouldn’t do that to me.”
Hazel’s face fell slightly.
“You’re not an idiot for believing it was possible,” she said quietly. “If you were a woman, it would have been real.”
The thought was sobering. She was right. The only thing that had saved him was the fact that Nico couldn’t have done it to him by accident. If he’d come with a uterus pre-installed, he’d probably be planning a tacky gender reveal party already.
“Maybe I’m just feeling a little bit of human solidarity with you,” Hazel said. “Hopefully it’ll pass and I can go back to being my brother’s number one fan. I love him to bits, but… He has a tendency to break his toys. I’m not saying it’s his fault, but I don’t think any god ever thinks it’s their fault. You know what I’m saying?”
He wished he didn’t. He nodded.
“I’d better go. It sounds like Percy came down with a case of the ghosties, too,” she said, standing. He gave her back the amulet and headed back to his own room.
It smelled like Nico. He collapsed onto his bed with a sigh, turning and burying his face in his pillow. It still had that lingering smoky incense scent that drove him crazy.
He clutched Nico’s cell phone like a talisman, holding it against his heart. Hazel’s warning had been serious; she would never say anything bad about her brother if it wasn’t absolutely true. But saying he ‘broke his toys’ was pointless. What god didn’t? Jason knew what he was signing up for. The risk was part of the appeal to him. He was sick of playing by the rules.
It was sort of a relief to have everything in the open. Piper’s mind games had probably saved him from being more heavily criticized for his reckless choices. Leo had been right in saying it was something the group really should have been informed about. They were all putting their lives on the line. They needed to trust each other.
But Jason found it hard to give a damn. He didn’t just think, he knew he’d earned this. He wanted Nico all to himself. He wanted the magical dreams, the ambrosia kisses, the thousand moments that felt too good to be true. Life had been so hard for so long, and finally, a tiny piece of it was easy. Was perfect. He didn’t care if it was dangerous, and he’d already accepted that it wasn’t going to last. Still, he wanted it.
He stared into the black mirror of the phone, watching his own reflection looking back at him. Then, curious, he tapped the screen.
The lock screen was a picture of a giant three headed mastiff, slobbery and vicious-looking. He tapped it again, and a password entry appeared. On a whim, he typed in ‘Cerberus’, thinking Nico couldn’t possibly be that stupid.
Nico was that stupid. The phone unlocked, and Jason found himself staring at Nico’s entire social world. He saw texts from Ariadne, Ganymede, Isis, Triton, Hecate, Morpheus, and Hypnos. He smiled, realizing that Nico was actually quite popular.
He didn’t read any texts, feeling like that would be crossing a line. Instead, he closed the messaging screen and just looked at Nico’s phone background without opening any apps.
Nico’s phone background was a new picture, not of Cerberus, nor of any god that Jason immediately recognized. He had short platinum blonde hair and a severe, sharp-featured face, with bright golden eyes. He was beautiful in an intimidating way. He wore the same work uniform that Nico sometimes did, and he had a pair of large, ivory-feathered wings on his back.
Who was this person, and why had Nico never mentioned him before?
Jason turned the phone off and went to sleep, dreaming about strange winged gods.
A few days later, Jason was standing guard. He’d taken position on the top deck of the Argo II as it hovered high above Fort Sumter. He was scanning the sky diligently for any sign of Roman attack. It twisted his guts in knots to think of his old comrades as the enemy, but he was hoping it was a temporary circumstance.
In any case, he was focusing on the mission at the moment, so he didn’t let it bother him too much. He liked having a job to do. It let him use his strengths. He had excellent eyesight, the ability to fly, and familiarity with Roman approach tactics. If anyone could give the demigods currently exploring Fort Sumter fair warning of an attack, it was him, and he took that responsibility seriously.
It was precisely due to this intense level of focus that he attempted to judo flip Nico di Angelo over the stern of the ship. He’d felt cold fingers graze the small of his back, and he’d instantly reacted, long-honed reflexes kicking in.
It hadn’t accomplished anything. His hands went right through Nico’s body, and he judo flipped the air, stumbling and nearly flinging himself over the side.
When he turned around to try to figure out what the heck had just happened, he was met with the sight of Nico di Angelo bent double, laughing his head off. For some reason, he was holding a Stanley cup.
“That was incredible,” Nico said, wiping tears of mirth from his eyes. “What was that supposed to be? Were you trying to attack me?”
“You don’t just walk up to soldiers and touch their backs,” Jason said, stunned to see Nico back unexpectedly. “That’s just common sense.”
“I didn’t walk up to a soldier,” Nico said. “I walked up to you. Hi, by the way.”
Jason reminded himself to stay cool. He’d promised the other demigods that when Nico got back, he’d ask some questions and set some healthy boundaries with him, for the sake of the quest. But Nico was wearing a new white silk button down with his usual black jeans, and he hadn’t buttoned all the buttons. So there was that to consider.
“Hi,” Jason said. “You look amazing for someone who was just kidnapped.”
“I was only kidnapped for like, maybe half an hour,” Nico shrugged nonchalantly, taking a sip out of his Stanley. He held eye contact with Jason while he sipped out of the straw, which didn’t help the situation. “I needed a lot of recovery time, though. I thought my dad would never let me leave. Were you okay while I was gone?”
“I really missed you,” Jason admitted, feelings overflowing into his voice.
Nico’s face softened.
“I missed you, too,” he said.
In one swift motion, he moved closer to Jason and cupped the back of his head in his hand. He captured Jason’s mouth in his, and the world seemed to stop turning. His lips tasted like ambrosia, and Jason was transported to a place without pretense or inhibition. Every second with Nico felt like the realest second of his life. There was no room for worry or anxiety or self-consciousness, there was no room to be anyone but himself, because all the free space in his mind was taken up by the feeling of ‘how can anything possibly feel this good?’
He savored every second. Once they had gotten reacquainted with each other, to put it politely, Nico pulled back. There was a slight flush on his cheeks. Jason was obviously down bad, but seeing the slightest sign that Nico felt the same for him, too? That made him feel like he could move mountains.
“Will you stay?” He asked.
“I want to,” Nico said, a slight flash of guilt crossing his face. “My dad actually tried to talk me out of coming back at all. He thinks it’s irresponsible.”
“Irresponsible? But you’re here to help. You’re our quest patron.”
“He says having a god around causes more problems than it solves. He thinks I’m-- what was it? Oh, right. ‘Inherently escalatory.’ Psh,” he shrugged. “He’s just a worrywart.”
“He’d probably rather you left short notes and sent cryptic messages,” Jason said, realizing that Nico’s father was trying to make him behave more like the older gods.
“Exactly,” Nico nodded. “Not my style. I want to be a hands-on deity. Sue me, I guess.”
“I like that you’re hands on,” Jason said.
Nico grinned at him wickedly.
“I didn’t mean it that way,” Jason corrected. “No, wait. Actually, you know what? I did mean it that way. Screw it. The truth is, I told everyone about us.”
“That’s great!” Nico said. “Wow! I didn’t see that coming.”
“Me neither. But it happened and I’m owning it,” Jason said, feeling his confidence growing with the look of approval on Nico’s face. “You like me for who I am, and you make me happy. I’m not apologizing for this. Not to anyone. I’m done living a life that I didn’t choose.”
“You’re incredible,” Nico said, looking at him admiringly. Jason grabbed him and pulled him close, kissing him again. He wanted to pour everything he felt into the kiss-- his wonder, his gratitude, and more than anything, his determination to define his own destiny. He wasn’t being controlled by Nico, and he wasn’t being used. He was taking what he wanted, unapologetically and authentically. And it felt really damn good.
Nico pushed him away suddenly.
“Did you hear that?” He asked, turning his head. It was the sound of a monstrous dog howling in the distance.
“That’s Cerberus,” Jason said. “Hazel used her whistle to summon him.”
“Oh,” Nico said, looking relieved. “That explains why he didn’t say goodbye to me before I left. I thought he was off sulking. Why did she need him?”
“The Mark of Athena is hidden in the fort down there. Annabeth has something that they’re using to track it. She thought it would go faster if he just sniffed it out. The Romans are really close, so she didn’t want to waste time searching the place top to bottom.”
“Makes sense,” Nico said, sipping his Stanley.
“Why are you so thirsty all of a sudden?” Jason asked.
“Long story. It involves ichor removal. I’m severely dehydrated,” he said.
Jason saw the flecks of ambrosia coating his lips, and didn’t miss the opportunity to kiss Nico again greedily. He backed him against the wall of the ship until he had him pinned, his hands on either side of his body.
“I think you’re thirstier than me,” Nico muttered, prying Jason off of him. “And I have a medical excuse. Are you hearing that? Cerberus doesn’t normally sound like that. That’s his distress bark.”
Jason glanced out at Fort Sumter, where his friends and Cerberus were all inside. He saw no sign of anything off.
“It seems fine to me,” Jason said, just as the air was punctuated by the screech of an eagle. “Oh. Never mind.”
He turned around and saw two Roman giant eagles flying at the Argo, talons outstretched. They were trying to wreck the ship. Jason drew his sword and rose into the air.
He saw Nico take out his sword as well, and panicked.
“Nico, don’t!” He said.
“Don’t help?” Nico asked.
“No,” Jason said, glancing between Nico and the Romans. He recognized one of them, a soldier he’d trained in archery a couple of years ago named Paul. He didn’t want to see them hurt. “Don’t get involved unless it’s to save me or the Argo. And nothing crazy.”
Nico nodded, looking frustrated. He put his sword away and folded his arms, glaring at the soldiers attacking Jason.
Fortunately, Nico’s presence was all it took to keep the eagles away. They circled and circled, but they never made contact with the ship. Jason sensed an opportunity to try to negotiate, and flew into the air so that he could be within earshot. He summoned a bank of clouds to surround them, as well as a crosswind to obscure their vision of the Argo, just to make sure it was extra safe.
“Let’s talk, guys,” Jason said. “Remember me, Paul? I’m a loyal Roman. This is a misunderstanding. We’re supposed to be on the same side, remember?”
“Obviously I remember you, but we’re been ordered not to negotiate with traitors. You can debate with the field commander,” Paul said. “Octavian is in the fort already.”
“You’re not tricking me into leaving the Argo that easily,” Jason said, raising his eyebrows. “This isn’t my first rodeo, Paul.”
“We’re under orders not to mess with him,” the other legionary said, pointing at Nico. “Praetor Thomas was insistent on it. So long as he’s there, we won’t hurt the Argo. Once he leaves, though,” he shrugged.
Jason returned to Nico.
“I’m gonna try to negotiate with Octavian,” he said. “But you have to stay and guard the ship.”
“Sure,” Nico said. “I can do that.”
“Please don’t hurt them,” Jason added.
“I won’t, don’t worry,” Nico smiled, waving him off.
Relieved, Jason flew down through the clouds. When he looked up, all he could see was a swirling storm full of howling winds. It wouldn’t last long, but hopefully between that and Nico’s presence as insurance, their sole mode of transportation would be safe.
Down in Fort Sumter, the situation on the ground had changed. Where before, he’d only heard a bit of barking, he now saw chaos. Half the fort was in ruins – more than it already had been, that is-- and his six companion demigods were sheltering behind a brick wall. On the other side of the wall, Cerberus was snarling at Octavian, Dakota, and five other legionaries.
Jason flew down to the others, and Cerberus snapped at him as he descended through the air. He dodged just in time, and Hazel blew her whistle.
“Down, Cerberus! He’s a friend!” She shouted.
“Shit, that was close,” Jason said, joining the others. Hazel stayed on the other side of the wall, trying to get the massive beast of a dog under control.
“Yeah, ‘bad doggie’ isn’t cutting it,” Frank said, peering over the wall and watching his girlfriend anxiously. “He’s protecting us a little too hard. We can’t move, we can’t engage the enemy. We can’t even get close enough to talk like we’d planned.”
“I came down to help negotiate,” Jason said, realizing it might not be possible to do it with Cerberus going nuts and scaring everybody. “Nico’s back. He’s guarding the ship. So what do we do? Can we send Cerberus back to the Underworld?”
“Pluto didn’t give instructions,” Frank said. “Hazel’s trying to figure it out. She’s the only one that can get close to him.”
Jason looked at the others. Percy was supporting Annabeth, who was clutching one of her arms. She had Percy’s jacket wrapped tightly around it, but blood was beginning to soak through the fabric, staining it red. In spite of that, the look on her face was triumphant.
“I got it,” she said, smiling weakly. She held up something that Jason assumed was the Mark of Athena they’d been seeking.
“Yeah, but you’re hurt,” Percy said. “We need Hazel to shadow travel Annabeth back up to the Argo. We didn’t bring enough ambrosia with us to heal her arm.”
“A wall collapsed on us,” Leo explained. He and Piper were also scraped and bruised. “We used what we had, but Annabeth needs more if she doesn’t want to bleed out.”
“Hazel’s busy,” Jason said. “But I can take Annabeth back up. Come on.”
He took Annabeth in his arms and flew her up toward the Argo. Paul and the other soldier brought their eagles around to meet him in the sky.
“Nuh-uh,” Paul said, which really said it all.
His eagle swooped at Jason, and the other eagle swooped in from the other side. Jason flew in a zigzag pattern, trying to avoid them, but the weight of Annabeth in his arms made him fly slowly and awkwardly. He was a skilled flyer, but he couldn’t compete with actual birds. It was all he could manage to get himself and his passenger back to the ground with the eagles following, hot on his tail.
He and Annabeth made it back behind the wall, but the eagles didn’t. Cerberus leapt up and snapped Paul and his eagle right out of the sky like a normal sized dog would eat a bumblebee.
Jason and Annabeth both screamed. It had happened only a few feet away from them, and they were sprayed with blood. He could hear every crunch as Cerberus cracked the bones of the bird and its rider in his maw, flinging bloody slobber everywhere.
Annabeth went back over to Percy, her escape attempt failed. She looked woozy, and Jason worried she was in danger of passing out.
The other eagle rider had managed to escape, but now he looked quite understandably pissed. He flew just out of reach of Cerberus’ leaps, his sword drawn, flashing gold in the sunlight.
“There goes our chance to negotiate,” Jason said. He couldn’t see them, but he could hear the enraged shouts of grief coming from the Roman side. Up until now, Cerberus hadn’t hurt anybody, but now the energy was different. “I can’t carry Annabeth and get past that eagle rider. Hazel needs to shadow travel her up.”
“Then she needs to do it right fucking now!” Percy snapped. He set Annabeth down carefully and ran out to Hazel, totally fearless when it came to protecting his girlfriend. He barely avoided Cerberus’ enraged snaps before he made it to Hazel’s side, where he was at least marginally safer.
“Without Annabeth and the Argo, there is no more quest,” Piper said resignedly. “And you’re part of the Argo, Leo. The rest of us are disposable.”
“Agreed,” Frank said. “How about this? I’ll transform into something that flies and lead that eagle away. Jason, you take Leo up. Hazel will take Annabeth. Percy and Piper will have to manage somehow until someone can come back for them.”
“Sounds good,” Piper nodded. Jason had nothing but respect for her in that moment, despite the fact that they were still on bad terms. She looked totally determined despite knowing she was being left behind, injured and trapped in a corner. “We’re next to the ocean. Percy can handle a few Romans. I’ll back him up. We’ll be fine.”
Percy, maybe. Piper? Maybe not. But her face showed no sign of doubt in the plan.
Jason gave her a nod, and she nodded back. He hoped they would both live to hate each other another day.
“Once Hazel leaves, Cerberus is gonna go berserk,” Jason said.
“Yeah, that dog needs some freaking obedience training,” Leo said. “Cesar Milan is gonna have his work cut out for him in the afterlife.”
Jason laughed, grateful for Leo’s ability to find humor in seriously dark situations. He wrapped his arms around his friend and waited on Frank’s signal to start making their ascent up to the Argo.
“I don’t care that you’re into guys now,” Leo said. “But this flying hug situation is totally platonic. Just wanted to make that clear.”
“I could just drop you,” Jason suggested.
“I mean, if holding my butt cheeks helps you get a better grip, be my guest,” Leo said. “We just won’t talk about it afterwards.”
“Do you want me to drop you? This is how you get dropped.”
Frank gave the signal, and transformed into a slightly smaller and more agile eagle than the one chasing them. He got a five second head start to lead the eagle rider away, and then Jason made a second bid for the Argo.
He had never been so grateful to see the deck of the ship. Leo ran for the control panel, and a few seconds later, Hazel arrived with Annabeth in her arms. Nico rushed over to help them, pressing his Stanley cup into Annabeth’s hands.
Seeing that Annabeth was going to be okay, Jason’s focus turned toward helping Percy and Piper. He flew back down to Fort Sumter as fast as the wind would take him, hoping they were still hanging in there.
He never could have anticipated what he saw next.
Roman reinforcements had arrived, about thirty of them, armed with bright swords and spears, dressed in shining armor. Percy and Piper had retreated back to the edge of the ocean, where a large pile of sharp rocks formed the only beach there was to be found. Percy was in a defensive stance, the sea churning behind him, but they were being largely ignored.
Cerberus was fighting the Romans, and he wasn’t holding back.
Bloody remains of devoured soldiers littered the grassy field in front of the fort. Cerberus was crunching one soldier in his teeth while chomping at Octavian with one of his other heads. The third head yelped in pain as Dakota jabbed a spear into his side.
Jason hovered in the air, frozen. Without Hazel, there was no way to control the massive three headed dog, so he was in danger from both sides of the battle. He knew he had to stay out of it, but it was hard to simply watch it happen from the sidelines.
He went over to Percy and Piper.
“We can’t get close,” Percy said, his voice strained. His deep green eyes were swirling with anger, mirrored in the sea behind him, churning and splashing. “He’s killed ten of them already, and I counted about fifty of them in total including the reinforcements. I don’t know whose side I’m on anymore. This is one of the ugliest battles I’ve ever watched. And I’ve seen ugly.”
“Can he be defeated? Is Cerberus a god or something?” Jason asked.
“I think he’s just a monster,” Piper said. “So… Maybe? Heracles defeated him. I don’t think he killed him, though. This is unbearable. The ones that he’s eaten… They were just kids. They shouldn’t have had to die like that. Screaming.”
“Nothing that comes from Hades is ever good,” Percy said darkly.
Jason had no comment. Cerberus was a hideous presence, a massive wall of rippling muscle and snapping teeth and pure, unadulterated rage. His aura was fearsome and terrifying and truly just gross. He was nothing like the way Nico had described him, to the point where Jason wondered if there was a case of mistaken identity. Maybe there was a second Cerberus in the Underworld who was a cute, three headed corgi that wore a little bow tie.
“I need to fly back up and get Nico,” he said. “He’ll send his dog home and we can try to salvage the negotiation.”
“The Romans will never forgive this,” Percy said. “Too many casualties. And-- Woah, look! Damn, Dakota!”
The three demigods watched as Dakota jumped on Cerberus’s back and Octavian slipped beneath his stomach. There was no match for Roman discipline, Jason thought, as three of the soldiers were snapped up, and the others kept moving like nothing had happened. They’d deployed ropes, and were attempting to bind Cerberus’s legs. It was a good idea, and it worked to slow him down long enough for Octavian to drive a sword up into his belly. Cerberus flinched at the blow, whining.
Dakota dealt another blow, this one to the back of one of his thick necks. One of Cerberus’ heads, the rightmost one, twitched and appeared to die, his eyes closing, the head falling limp to one side.
“Di immortales,” Piper said, her hand covering her mouth. “They’re gonna do it.”
“Oh, no,” Jason said. He launched into the air, knowing he needed to get Nico, but Frank and the other eagle rider flew into his path just as he tried to leave the island. Frank had an arrow through his wing.
Jason had to save him. He brandished his sword and chased off the eagle rider, buying Frank time to get away. Then he had to face off with the soldier on eagle-back mid-air.
Their fight never happened. There was a cheer of victory down below, and they both looked to see Dakota standing on Cerberus’ back as he disintegrated into a pile of monster dust.
There was one massive head left behind the size of a washing machine. They’d dedicated the kill to a god, probably Apollo, knowing Octavian, and thus they got to keep a trophy.
Jason could hardly comprehend what he’d just witnessed. The New Roman army had avenged at least fifteen of their fallen comrades, and had accomplished a feat many would have called impossible. This was a New Roman victory for the ages. Octavian and Dakota’s triumph would be unforgettable. They’d be exalted heroes for all time, their names remembered in New Rome for as long as it stood. Statues would be built of them.
Except for one thing. There was a problem. And, as he watched Dakota lift the head of Cerberus and hold it aloft in victory, it was all he could think of.
They’d killed a pet.
And pets had owners.
He went back to Percy and Piper, who seemed like they weren’t sure what to do.
“Should we try to negotiate now, when they’re in a good mood?” Piper asked.
“I don’t think that’s a good idea,” Jason said, his mouth dry.
“You guys?” A familiar voice asked.
Jason turned around slowly. Nico was standing behind them. Hazel stood beside him. They were both looking around in confusion, Hazel fingering the whistle that still hung around her neck.
“Where’s my dog?” Nico said.
Jason couldn’t form words.
Nico walked over toward the Romans, crossing the battlefield soaked with blood, stepping over the dismembered, twitching remains of the child soldiers who’d died there. He turned his head slightly, looking up, as though someone were speaking to him among the bodies. But Jason didn’t see anyone there.
“No,” Nico said. “No!” He repeated, realizing what had happened. He was staring at the monster dust on the ground. Even now it was beginning to evaporate before his eyes.
Dakota and the others appeared to realize the gravity of their situation, and they bowed their heads, knowing that gloating over their victory wouldn’t help. Octavian had taken Cerberus’s head and run into the fort to hide it, which was a smart, if somewhat cowardly move.
“It was a fair fight,” Dakota said, taking a knee in front of Nico. “He killed over a dozen of our cohort, and we were defending ourselves. He fought well, but we prevailed.”
“Which one of you did it,” Nico said quietly.
No one spoke.
“Which one of you killed my dog?” Nico asked again, his voice ice cold.
Dakota looked up at him bravely.
“I did.”
Jason didn’t see what happened next. His vision went black, as though someone had closed the curtain just before the final scene. Then, a wave of force socked him in the chest, knocking him backwards. He reached out an arm and felt Piper’s familiar, small boned hand brush against his knuckles. She locked her fingers with his, just in time for the next wave to hit them.
It was like nothing Jason had ever experienced before. He felt a thousand things at once. Fear, sadness, regret, guilt, and relief were all mixed together like an emotional smoothie, leaving him unable to move or think clearly. He felt tears streaming down his face, but he also found himself laughing.
It just kept going and going. He couldn’t feel himself breathing or his heart beating. His entire body felt cold. Was he dying? The sense of helplessness was overwhelming. It was like a black hole was dragging him downward. All he saw was darkness, and all he felt was a maddening spiral of intense, irreconcilable feeling.
“Don’t fight it,” he heard Hazel saying. Her voice was shaking, but she sounded like she was coping a lot better than he was. “Let it take you. Otherwise, you’ll go insane.”
“Are we dying?” Percy cried out.
“Does it matter?” Hazel said. “Just let go!”
Jason couldn’t do it. He felt his sanity slipping away, felt himself losing control of his own mind. The feelings kept buffeting him, and he was starting to forget where he was and who he was and why any of this mattered. The only thing keeping him tethered to reality was the bright spot of pain where Piper was digging her fingernails into his hand.
And then, suddenly as it had begun, it stopped.
He took a deep breath in, and then out, feeling his heart beat wildly. He was alive. He was okay. His mind was mostly functional.
He sat up, but he was still blind to the world. All he could see was darkness, even though he could feel Piper beside him. Then, the shroud fell.
Someone was looking down at him. It was the god from Nico’s phone background, the blonde with the cheekbones, wearing the Underworld work uniform with an added mantle in the same black silk, like an oversized shawl.
“Hello,” he said, looking at Jason with an odd expression of… Warmth? Familiarity?
“Thanatos,” Hazel said, scrambling to her feet. “You saved us?”
“I did,” he said, smiling at her. She hugged him.
This was Thanatos? This massive, winged, thin, bird-person was… Death? He was patting Hazel’s head like he was fond of her. He must have been a friend, whoever he was.
Jason turned to see Percy and Piper also rising to their feet, both of them looking shell-shocked, but okay. Thanatos didn’t bother greeting either of them, which made Jason feel weirder about the warm welcome he’d gotten.
He looked past Thanatos’ wings. Nico was seated on the ground surrounded by the bodies of the New Roman soldiers. None of them were moving. Dakota lay in front of Nico, splayed in a decidedly un-alive posture.
Nico was ugly-crying, and a tall, ominous looking man was looming over him. He wore a sharp looking crown and a long black robe. His identity was obvious.
“I told you not to come back, but no,” Hades lectured Nico. “You had to go off on your own and learn the hard way, as usual. If you’d just listened to me, this wouldn’t have happened.”
“I should have been down here with him,” Nico sobbed into his hands. “I should have saved him.”
“His defeat was ordained by fate,” Hades said. “You didn’t cause it. This mess, you caused,” Hades gestured at the dead bodies surrounding Nico.
“He was probably so scared,” Nico said. “He was such a good boy.”
“Enough of that,” Hades said. “You’re going to start me crying.” He yanked Nico to his feet. “Apologize to your sister for making her quest more difficult.”
“It’s okay,” Hazel said, waving her hands. “I can see that you’re upset enough already.”
Hades held his hand out, and she gave him the bone whistle she’d used to summon Cerberus. It disintegrated in her hand.
“I’ll give no more ill-fated gifts,” Hades said to her. “But if you have need of me, hit the ground twice with your palms. I’ll grant you one favor, no strings attached.”
She nodded. Nico was wiping his nose on his dad’s cloak. Hades smacked him on the side of the head. “We’re done here,” he said, dragging Nico by the arm. They disappeared.
Jason wondered if that was the last time he’d ever see Nico. He wondered if that might be for the best. He felt empty, worn out and scared.
He, Hazel, Percy and Piper turned to look at Thanatos. The tall god was standing statue-still, staring at the four of them awkwardly.
“Me again,” Thanatos said. “Hi. Looks like you’re in need of a new quest patron.”
Jason sighed.
“Yeah. That might as well happen.”
Chapter 78: Waterloo
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
“Did you ever know that you’re my hero?” Nico sang softly. He lit a tealight candle and placed it gingerly in front of a small framed portrait of Cerberus. He gazed deeply into the six deep brown eyes of his dearly departed pup, wiping away a stray tear.
“Am I?” Hades asked, popping his head up. He had been dozing on his throne while Nico had been building a large shrine for Cerberus in middle of the throne room.
“Not you. Him.” Nico said. He rearranged the black roses surrounding the shrine and straightened the severed human leg he’d placed as an offering. “You are the wind beneath my wings,” he whispered, stroking Cerberus’ noses through the glass.
“This is becoming a bit much,” Hades said, looking at him through narrowed eyes.
“Mourning rituals are part of the healing process,” Nico snapped. Hades rolled his eyes.
“I told you, Cerberus will regenerate and come back to us any moment. You need to be more patient.”
Nico was sick of being patient. He and his dad had been sitting in the throne room all day waiting for Cerberus to return, and there was still no sign of him.
Nico lay on his back on the floor and stared up at the dark ceiling high above, where crystals twinkled distantly.
“He’s gonna hate me,” he muttered. “I didn’t save him in time.”
“He won’t even remember you,” Hades said.
“That’s so much worse!”
“It’s not as bad as it sounds. He’ll learn to love you all over again,” Hades said.
“Will he remember you?”
“He doesn’t need to remember me to know who I am,” Hades said, smiling confidently. “I’m Hades and he’s Cerberus.” He gave no explanation, as if the connection should have been obvious. It was a small comfort to know his dad had been through this before. It shouldn’t have happened at all.
Nico shut his eyes. He needed Cerberus to come back; it was the only way he could move on from the trauma of the day before. The palace felt empty without him, like a house that wasn’t quite a home.
He heard the soft clicking sound of nails on the stone floor, and his eyes shot open.
“Cerby?” He called out, sitting up. “Is that you, boy?”
His skeletal kitten Beatrice tapped out to see him.
“Damned cat,” Hades said, disappointed.
“It isn’t her fault,” Nico said, picking up the kitten and letting her curl up on his chest. He scratched her bony skull fondly, but it wasn’t the same. She didn’t have horrendous stinky breath or greenish slobber or a greasy, filthy coat of reddish brown. She was just bones.
He played with Beatrice for a while, trying not to think about Cerberus, but it was impossible. The heartache and grief was too much to bear. Eventually he went over to his dad’s throne to pester him. He had to shake him awake, because he was sound asleep.
“Papa,” he said. “Are you sure it’s supposed to take this long?”
Hades checked the time on his phone, a painful reminder of the fact that Nico had never retrieved his own. There hadn’t been time. And he wasn’t about to go back now, after what he’d done.
“It does seem like he should be here by now,” Hades said. “It’s been over a day in Underworld time. But I have no reason to think anything is wrong. He always returns to my throne room. It’s never failed before.”
Nico paced the throne room, traversing the polished floor in widening circles around his shrine. He thought about the problem, and what might have made this time different.
“What if he came back the same moment that he died?” Nico asked.
“Then he’d be here,” Hades said. “Obviously.” He spoke calmly, but he was biting one of his nails anxiously.
“When you came to the surface to get me, how long were you gone?” Nico asked.
“Less than ten minutes, surface time,” Hades said. “Thanatos texted, and I left immediately. Why?”
“What if Cerberus came back sometime during those ten minutes, and someone else came and took him?” Nico asked, his heart racing. As he said it aloud, he realized that must have been what happened. It was more likely that Cerberus had reformed within ten minutes of his death than it was likely he’d take over a day.
Hades blinked at him.
“Why would someone do that? He can’t be controlled by anyone outside the family. He’d only be looking for me the entire time.”
“What if Gaea was the one that took him? Could she control him? At least enough to capture him and take him away?”
Hades thought about it, then reluctantly nodded.
“Typhon and Echidna are in league with her,” he said darkly.
“Who are they?”
“His parents.”
Nico had never thought about Cerberus having parents, but if anyone could control him, they could. He still had no clue how his dad had stopped him while he was in his divine form. He hadn’t even had the self-awareness to know what he was doing, let alone how to control it. He could only guess that parents had their own special methods.
“He’s still my dog! It makes no difference who has him!” Hades said, smacking his fist in his palm. “I’m getting him back!”
“Yeah!” Nico said, feeling a surge of energy rush through him. “Let’s do it! How do we do it?”
“ We’re not doing anything,” Hades said, his enormous Stygian iron sword forming in front of him in mid-air. He grasped the hilt and gave it a few practice swings that forced Nico to back away. The sword’s aura of malevolence and terror was so intense that it made Nico want to hide behind the throne, which he did.
“If Cerberus has indeed been stolen,” Hades continued, while Nico peered out at him warily. “He’ll have been brought to Tartarus, to the Doors of Death, where Gaea’s forces are camped. I will need to intercept his journey and snatch him from her grasp.”
“You’re going to take on Gaea’s army by yourself?” Nico asked. “But you’ll be kidnapped!”
“I vaccinated myself while you were away,” Hades said. “I will be fine. Besides, I’m not planning to take on her forces single-handedly,” he said, his helm of darkness appearing in his hand. “I’ll sneak in and grab Cerberus before anyone notices my presence. Revenge will come later, on a battlefield skewed less in her favor.”
Nico found it hard to believe that his father could walk right into Gaea’s camp and take Cerberus without alerting anyone. Cerberus wasn’t exactly a subtle creature. Surely he’d start barking horribly the minute he smelled his master.
“I should come with you,” Nico said worriedly. “You need backup.”
“I hardly think you’d be sufficient backup in an altercation with an entire army of gods and monsters,” Hades scoffed. “You’re a child.”
“I’m a god,” Nico insisted. “And I’m way sneakier than you, too. I’ve escaped her before!”
“That just means she’ll be more careful the next time she sees you,” Hades said. “You’re not coming. You’d only distract me. Besides, have you forgotten that you aren’t permitted to go to Tartarus?”
“But this is an extreme situation! I was the one that got him killed. I should be the one to rescue him,” Nico said.
“I gave Hazel the whistle. I knew the risks. I bear the responsibility for his death,” Hades said, the shadow of guilt passing over his face.
“Still,” Nico said, staring at him helplessly. “There has to be some way I can help.”
“The only circumstance under which you are permitted into Tartarus is on a one way trip. Would you like me to go ahead and chain you up down there? Do you want to get it over with?” Hades said, raising his eyebrows.
Nico’s shoulders slumped. To his surprise, his father walked over to him and hugged him. On the infrequent occasions that he got hugs from his dad, he almost never saw them coming. This was no exception.
“I’ll be fine,” Hades said gently. “But your concern is noted.” He patted Nico on the head, looked down at him fondly, then put his helm on. He disappeared.
Nico stared at the space where his father had been, and felt his presence leave the room. His dad was headed to Tartarus alone, and Nico couldn’t help. He felt useless.
He sat down on the throne, kicking his legs and slamming his heels into the base of the seat to get out his nervous energy. If Hades got kidnapped, he’d be stuck filling in for him in the Underworld, maybe for a long time. He already had a quest to lead and a war to fight. He owed a saint a favor and he was in two relationships. It was crazy to think that he used to live without knowing how to exist in two places at once. Nowadays, it seemed like even that wasn’t enough. It didn’t help that his skin itched when he went too long without collecting souls.
A terrifying thought struck him. After the war, he’d agreed to become human. Even if there was a way out of it, he’d already run out of time. It was the second week of May, and the war ended August 1 st . He had too many other priorities. It felt hopeless.
Would he ever get to take a soul again?
In an impulsive moment of panic, he split off a piece of himself and went to go collect some dead people.
He appeared at the site of a bus accident outside Albany, New York. There was a heap of metal wreckage lying in the road, and crushed and bleeding bodies were strewn across the highway. Horns were honking and police sirens were blaring. The scent of blood and fear and burning oil filled his nostrils.
He took a deep breath, and felt his whole body relax. He was right where he was meant to be.
He went over to an old woman who’d been crushed by a metal bar. Her ribcage was shattered and bone shards were digging into her internal organs. She let out a soft moan of pain.
“It’s okay,” he told her. “It’ll be over soon.” He gently removed her soul and watched as her body went limp. He placed her gently in his pocket, relishing the weightless-weight of a soul. Holding onto them felt like an immense privilege and a huge responsibility at the same time. Everything else in his life was complicated, but this was simple, and it made sense to him. And it was basically impossible to screw up. The only way to hurt the people he was collecting was to not collect them at all.
“Fancy seeing you here,” someone said.
He looked up and saw a familiar, tall blonde standing at the opposite side of the bus. His stomach flipped over with joy, since seeing Thanatos always made him happy. But it made him kind of sad, too. It wasn’t Than’s fault, but he’d kind of wanted to escape his home life for a little while. Maybe that was too much to ask.
“Come here often, handsome?” He asked, grinning.
“No, the bus only flipped a few minutes ago,” Thanatos said, looking slightly confused. “I’ve never been here before.”
“It’s a figure of speech,” Nico laughed. “How about you do the left, I’ll do the right, then we’ll talk?”
“Deal,” Thanatos said.
It felt good working alongside him again. If Nico could have anything in the universe, he’d just have this-- him and Thanatos, together, doing what they were meant to do. Except he’d make it so that there was no conversation afterward where they had to talk about the hard stuff. It would just be work, and togetherness, and everything would be awesome forever.
Was that so much to ask?
He took all the souls on the right side of the bus, then went and sat in the crumpled driver’s seat while Thanatos finished up. He watched EMTs climb through the windows and start their usual routine of chest compressions and checks for vital signs. There were a decent number of survivors, but some of them were really beat up, and would have a hard recovery. It was hard not to be reminded of Will and Kayla, but it was good to be reminded of that sometimes. He didn’t want to forget.
“I think you’re getting faster than me,” Thanatos said, coming to sit next to Nico on the crushed rubber seat. Nico put his arm around Thanatos’ waist, and Than’s wing went around his shoulder.
“I’m not faster. I didn’t have as many as you,” Nico lied. In truth, he was faster some days, and Thanatos was faster on others, but they kept up the facade that Thanatos was better at everything. It was easier to preserve his ego than it was to be honest-- to admit that they were mostly the same.
“How’s Jason?” He asked, changing the subject.
“He sent you this,” Thanatos said, handing Nico his phone. It was turned off. Nico thought about some of the messages that might be awaiting him. He kept it turned off, sliding it into his pocket.
“Tell him thanks. Are you two getting along?”
A bashful smile swept across Thanatos’ face.
“You like him,” Nico said, grinning.
“You know I do,” Than sighed, twirling a piece of Nico’s hair around his finger. “He reminds me of myself. He only knew how to live one way, and you’re helping him learn another. I understand why it made you sad that he was running out of time.”
Nico’s heart sank. He and Jason were both running out of time. Jason would die on August first, and part of Nico would be locked away forever, too. He wondered whether dying would feel any worse.
“Thanks for watching over him. And the others,” he said.
“I haven’t done much. A god’s presence alone staves off most monster interference. They haven’t asked for more,” Thanatos said. “Are you alright? Did Cerberus come home?”
“Papa is out looking for him,” Nico said. “I’m holding down the fort.”
Thanatos nodded, watching the bodies of crash victims get zipped up into bags and carried away from the scene.
“Did he tell you about your true form?” He asked, a slight awkwardness entering his tone.
“No. Why?” Nico asked.
“It was… Something,” Thanatos said, looking at the floor.
“Something? Is that bad or good?”
“Neither,” Thanatos said. “It wasn’t what I expected, is all. It was a lot like mine.”
“I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but we have a lot in common,” Nico said. “I hate to break it to you.”
“Very funny. You’re right, I should have expected it,” Thanatos said, shaking his head. “I just found it a little odd that you had wings.”
Nico spent some time interrogating him on that subject, but it was abundantly clear that his normal form didn’t have any wings, so Thanatos concluded that it had probably been an optical illusion. True forms were magical projections of a god’s true nature, and it was impossible to pick them apart and examine them for details, since they were always a little different each time.
“Show me yours, then,” Nico demanded, after a disappointing attempt to understand what the heck a true form was and what it meant.
“No, I’m shy,” Thanatos said, blushing. Nico didn’t get anything more out of him, so they bid farewell.
He returned to the throne room depressingly empty-pocketed. He had to give his souls to Thanatos, since he couldn’t get caught turning them in. He wondered whether, just once before he became human, he’d get to take proper credit for a soul-taking.
“Nico?”
He looked up. Minos was standing before him, with a small crowd of shades clustered in the shadow of the palace columns. They’d been waiting in the throne room.
“Minos,” he said, perking up. “It’s really good to see you. I could use some cheering up right now.”
Minos smiled.
“I wish I was here on a social visit, but something urgent has come up, and we need our king’s input. Is your father here?”
Nico shook his head.
“I can try to fill in for him, if you want.” He patted the arms of the throne eagerly, happy to play Prince of the Underworld for a while to take his mind off things.
Minos sucked air in through his ghostly teeth.
“That might be a conflict of interest. These are people you killed, you see,” he said, gesturing to the shades behind him. They were lurking in the shadows, as shades tended to do.
“Oh, great,” Nico sighed.
“Thanks a lot,” one of the shades muttered. At first glance they appeared to be formless humanoid shapes, but when Nico looked closely, he saw the ghostly armor of soldiers who’d died in combat.
“We had a batch come in earlier. They’d been killed by Cerberus. All of them merited Elysium,” Minos said. “That may sting a bit, given the circumstances. But demigods that die fighting monsters have a lot of precedent for Elysian rewards. We couldn’t make a case for denying it to them.”
“Hmph,” Nico grumbled. He didn’t like the idea of anyone being rewarded for hurting his dog, but rules had to be followed.
“But these shades behind me? They all died because they looked upon your true form,” Minos said. “They were part of the group that slayed Cerberus and lived.”
“Part of the group?” Nico asked. “It looks like everybody’s here. I remember watching them disintegrate. It was extremely satisfying at the time.”
“Octavian lived,” one of the shades said triumphantly.
“What?” Nico shouted. “Are you kidding me? I’m gonna hunt that bastard to the ends of the earth. I bet it was his idea to kill Cerby, wasn’t it?”
Another shade elbowed the one who’d spoken up.
“Nice going, dork,” he said. “There’ll be no one left in Camp Jupiter by the time he’s done with us.”
“Erm, to focus on the matter at hand,” Minos cleared his ghostly throat, causing his large bell-shaped earrings to jangle. He looked down at his tablet screen and read off his notes. “Looking upon a god’s true form is sacrilege, whether intentional or not. It’s a sight not meant for mortal eyes. That would mean they go to Asphodel. On the other hand, slaying Cerberus, although tragic for those of us who considered him a beloved long-time coworker, was a feat of great heroism in the most traditional sense. That typically merits Elysium. You see the conundrum.”
“They cancel each other out,” Nico said. “Cool. New idea. Send them to the Fields of Punishment and let them pick up dog poop for eternity.”
Minos gave him a long-suffering look.
“We can’t--”
“They massacred a sweet, innocent baby!” Nico said. “Cerberus was the goodest boy that ever lived! He used to sleep on my bed to keep it warm for me when I was away. He’d leave me human legs in my doorway as little gifts. He-- He--” He covered his mouth with his hand, and his vision blurred with tears. It was hard to accept that he’d never get to boop Cerberus’s three beautiful snoots again. Whatever new version of him Hades brought back from Tartarus just wouldn’t be the same.
Minos patted his arm for a moment until he recovered his composure.
“I’m not consulting your opinion on this,” Minos said. “You’re grieving. Is your father going to return soon?”
“He’ll probably be a while,” Nico said. “Can’t you just vote? You’re the tiebreaker, right?”
“When the tiebreaker can’t make a decision, it’s customary to let Lord Hades weigh in,” Minos said. “It’s alright. We can wait for him to return.”
He departed, the shades following him in a line like dead baby ducks. Nico slumped over on the throne, feeling more dejected than before. He added inconveniencing Minos to his list of sins, and felt even guiltier. Being a god really ought to be easier than this, he thought to himself. It seemed like he could barely blink without owing someone an apology.
As he thought this, a shimmering something appeared in the distance, like a window pane in the air. He rubbed his eyes, hoping he was seeing things, but it remained. He stood and walked cautiously towards it. A low hum of music emanated from it.
This was the same type of portal the Catholic shades used to go to purgatory. Nico glanced around for a shade, and, not seeing one, got closer. He even tiptoed, although he wasn’t sure why he thought that would make a difference.
Standing directly in front of it, the music grew quite loud. He heard a heavy bass line and whiny, high pitched vocals. It sounded like the kind of dance music they played in the gay clubs on Mykonos. This didn’t sound like the elevator music of purgatory, and he didn’t think heaven played this genre. Was it hell? The tune was kind of ear-wormy. Maybe in Hell they made mediocre music get stuck in your head for eternity.
Nico dearly hoped he was staring at a portal to Hell. He’d been dying to see it ever since he was a little kid reading the Inferno. He dove straight in, dreaming of grotesque demons and the fires of torment.
The other side was blinding. The thumping bass pounded louder than ever, drowning his ears in cacophonous rhythms. Colorful, flashing lights bathed him in a manic rainbow haze. Nico fell to his knees, overwhelmed with the influx of stimuli, and looked up.
A group of dancers in tacky, revealing sequin outfits were performing a suggestive dance routine, with a male singer hip-thrusting aggessively front and center. He was wearing leather bell bottoms and a shirt made of feathers.
Was he some kind of demon? His singing was good, in an unhinged sort of way. Nico had a good view from right in front of the stage, where he sat on the sticky floor, trying to clear his head.
His view was apparently a little too good, because someone shouted, ‘Move your ass, Nico!’, and two burly security guards hustled him away.
Nico glanced behind him as he was dragged off to the side; the audience was clapping and singing along to the song, and there were TV cameras and presenters everywhere. The only thing that really caught his eye, though, was the man who’d yelled at him, who had known his name.
It was Apollo, immediately recognizable in his obnoxious indoor sunglasses, his blonde curls peeking out from underneath a large sequined cowboy hat. He had four gorgeous women sitting on one side of him and five on the other, women Nico recognized from Litochoro.
This definitely wasn’t hell, then. It was a concert, but a weird one that Apollo and the Muses were attending. Why had the portal brought him here?
The security guards dumped him outside a set of double doors that left him locked out of the show. Nico tried to get back in, wondering whether he’d have to get sneaky about it. Live music wasn’t really his thing, especially terrible pop music, but he knew he’d been brought there for a reason.
The doors swung open without him needing to touch them. Saint Catherine stood on the other side, wearing a dark, clean cut suit with a bluetooth earpiece hanging from her ear. Her face looked supernaturally young, but her demeanor towards Nico was nothing if not patronizing.
“Come with me,” she said, beckoning him to follow her. “Invisibly, please.”
They both traveled up to the upper row of seating and stood in the back, where Nico had a better vantage point to take in the surroundings. He observed dozens of TV screens with the names of countries listed on them along with scores, and above it all hung an enormous sign that said “Eurovision Song Contest.”
“What’s Eurovision?” He asked Catherine, after she allowed him to inspect the scene for a moment.
“Every country in Europe, plus a few extras, submits an original song each year. They perform, and then they vote for a winner.” She pointed to a ranking board, where votes were pouring in. The last artist was Albania, and the next to perform would be Montenegro.
“Are all the songs this bad?” Nico asked, watching a young Montenagran performer take the stage amidst clouds of artificial fog and a small laser show.
“I wouldn’t know. I’m only here this year for one very special song,” Catherine said, her expression growing gravely serious. “And that song is the reason you are here today, repaying the favor I did you.”
“Okay,” Nico shrugged. “Hit me. What do you need?”
Catherine looked out at the crowd thoughtfully. She didn’t say anything for a while, which made Nico wiggly with impatience.
“You gonna tell me, or are we just gonna stand here until the apocalypse?” he asked.
“Patience is a virtue,” Catherine told him sharply. “Watch.”
He waited, and a few seconds later, a clip appeared on the TV screen in front of them. It was a brief slideshow of clips of artists who would be performing later that night. One of the people was someone Nico knew quite well-- although he’d never seen her in an evening gown before.
“Maria Bova?” He asked, his jaw dropping. “She’s performing? In front of all these people?”
“No. She’s not,” Catherine said. “That’s the problem. She made a run for it a few minutes ago. Her agent is trying to find her, but she’s hiding behind a dumpster. From you, tonight, I need two things.”
“Yeah, sure. Anything,” Nico said, determined to help his friend. He was already itching to go to Maria, to tell her that he couldn’t believe she was competing. She was a reserved, introverted character. To even consider doing this, she must have been extremely brave.
“I need two things,” Catherine said, looking at Nico gravely. “I need her to perform. But first, I need her to fire her voice coach.”
Nico leaned over the barrier separating the elevated section from the lower seating area. He saw the backs of 9 well-coiffed heads and one sparkly cowboy hat shining below. He wasn’t sure which of the muses was Maria’s vocal coach, but firing her would undoubtedly make enemies of all of them, along with their shared boyfriend, Apollo.
He understood exactly why Catherine had asked him to do it. Obviously he knew the people involved on both sides. It made sense, but that didn’t mean it would be easy.
“I’m not sure that’s a good idea,” he said, his chest tight with anxiety. “That could have serious consequences for Maria. Can’t she part ways with her coach after the show is over? That’s a more natural time to do it, right?”
“Absolutely not. It has to be now, pre-performance. We have another hour to work with before she needs to be onstage, and in that time, she needs to disavow her coach and rebuke her influence.”
Nico snorted, although he didn’t really find it funny at all.
“Divine jealousy really isn’t a good look, Catherine,” he said, raising an eyebrow.
“Watch yourself,” Catherine warned, folding her arms across her chest.
“Haven’t you ever heard that sharing is caring?”
“We don’t share with pagan demons,” Catherine said. “Especially when it comes to people like her. She needs to be protected from their corrupting influence and cruel designs.”
“If you cared about protecting her, you’d fire the coach after the show,” Nico said. “Clearly you care more about taking 100% of the credit for the performance than you do about her safety. You don’t fool me. My whole family operates like this, so I know it when I see it.”
“But these speak evil of those things which they know not: but what they know naturally, as brute beasts, in those things they corrupt themselves,” Catherine quoted, looking down the bridge of her nose at Nico.
“What?” Nico said.
“Never mind,” Catherine sighed, shaking her head in hopelessness.
“Are you going to all this trouble because Maria is destined to win the competition tonight?” Nico asked, lighting up with excitement. “Is that why you care so much?”
“Just go do as you were told, please,” Catherine said. “Don’t make me tell you again.”
“You sound like my dad,” Nico muttered, which earned him a look of horror and disgust.
Her expression turned his stomach a little to see; he was actually extremely worried about his dad at the moment. Hades wasn’t a ‘10/10 best dad, no notes’, but Nico didn’t think his Papa merited that look.
He disappeared, going to hunt for Maria Bova behind dumpsters in the vicinity of the venue. He made an educated guess that his target would be wearing impractical shoes, which meant that the search radius was small.
Eurovision was being held in Edinburgh, which meant that he was searching around steep cobblestone streets under a sky heavy with dark clouds. The weather in Scotland was unforgiving, even in May. The howling wind and driving rain streaming down the gutters stood in dreary contrast to the explosion of light and joy he’d left behind indoors.
He heard Maria before he saw her. A soft, high pitched sob cut through the sound of pattering rain and thumping bass muffled by old brick. He approached her slowly, remaining invisible to see what he was dealing with.
She was wearing a short, tight black dress with a long, shimmering cape on her back. It was sodden and had obviously been dragged through puddles on her way out to the dumspter. Her dark hair was piled on top of her head and had been teased up, but it was wet, now too, and her makeup had run all over her face. He’d never seen her wear makeup before, and he doubted it had been her idea. It looked like she was just finishing up a good, long cry.
He knelt before her and slipped his hand into hers, just to see how she’d react. She went statue-still, staring into the empty air front of her and holding her breath. She didn’t scream, or look frightened, she just waited. Her eyes were alight with hope.
Her reaction, or lack of reaction, was astonishing. He wondered whether she’d had supernatural experiences aside from him. Had the muses ever revealed anything? Had Apollo ever popped in on her music lessons? Did she realize that saints and angels were watching over her, concerning themselves with her well being?
Not to mention Nico. He wasn’t sure how he fit into it, but he was part of it, too, for better or for worse.
“Nico,” she said softly, her voice filled with reverence. “I can feel you. Can I see you? Will you talk to me this time?”
She recognized him without even seeing him. Her perception took his breath away. He appeared in front of her, and for a moment they just looked at each other awkwardly.
It wasn’t like it had been in the hospital. There, he’d appeared to her as a friend and counseled her through the death of her mother. She’d seen him as human. However, as he was leaving, he’d given her a push over the edge, something that would carry her through the hard times to come.
It had been a dangerous move on his part, and at the time, he’d shied away from the consequences, feeling like he’d done enough. He thought maybe he’d done too much, and crossed a line that he should have left uncrossed.
He watched as her hand went to her throat, reflexively moving to touch the rosary necklace she was wearing-- the sign he’d left. It was tucked beneath her dress, but he saw the glitter of the diamonds on the back of her neck.
“It didn’t match the outfit?” He asked, flashing his teeth at her playfully.
She seemed to snap out of a reverie, probably because he’d spoken to her in the same tone he’d have used before, when he was pretending to be a normal human.
“Oh! No, it does,” she said. “Or, well, I don’t really know if it does, but I don’t care. I need it.” She pulled it out to the front of her dress, holding it up to the light.
Her old red and white rosary necklace, which had once been made of plastic beads, was now made of diamonds and rubies.
Nico’s smile turned into a grin. Maria Bova didn’t resemble Maria di Angelo in the slightest, and yet, seeing her in the jewels reminded him of the gifts his father used to give his mother. It felt good to deck a woman out in exactly what she deserved-- which, in this case, was the best. He’d spoiled the guys he’d dated, but there was something about flashy jewelry that didn’t have an exact male equivalent.
“I have to hide it most of the time,” she admitted. “I hate that it’s necessary, but I’ve moved back to Naples and it’s not safe to walk around wearing something this precious.”
“Safety first,” Nico smiled, squeezing her hand. He’d knelt in front of where she was sitting on an overturned crate, and he didn’t feel like moving, even though his knees were getting wet. “Maria, why are you crying next to a dumpster?”
“I can’t do it,” she said, her lip trembling. “I’ve never performed in front of this many people before.”
“Is this your first concert?” Nico asked.
She laughed at him a little bit.
“Not exactly. In order to be here representing Italy tonight, I had to win the Sanremo Music Festival,” she explained. “It was a huge crowd, too.”
“Oh! Congratulations,” Nico said. “So why is this a problem?”
“Teri—My voice coach-- She made me do shots with her and her boyfriend right before I went onstage at Sanremo. I wasn’t nervous at all.”
“And you can’t do that again?” Nico asked.
“I didn’t feel like myself at Sanremo,” Maria said. “I don’t want to rely on alcohol-- if that’s even what it was. I just pretended to drink it tonight to get her to leave me alone.”
“I see,” Nico said, squeezing her hand. Her initial joy at seeing him was wearing off, and he could see the tension in every limb of her body. Her voice was shaking.
“My manager is the only one who knows I’m out here right now,” Maria said. “She told me I’m letting all of Italy down by quitting, but I just can’t do it. I’m not scared, Nico. I’m crippled with fear. My voice will show it, and I’d rather not perform if I’m going to humiliate my country with bad vocals. Pretending to be sick is better than becoming an embarrassing meme, right?”
“Probably,” Nico agreed. “It’s a lose-lose situation.”
“I feel like such a failure,” she sighed.
Nico saw the problem clearly now. Teri-- Terpsichore-- had drugged Maria to combat her performance anxiety. It was understandable that Maria wanted to perform unaided, but now she was competing at a level where the pressure was incredibly intense, and she wasn’t an experienced performer. At this point, she couldn’t push through her fears.
Catherine had requested two things-- For Teri to be fired, and for Maria to perform. Nico could convince Maria to do drugs, but if they fired Teri, they wouldn’t have any drugs to do. But Maria was too scared to do the show sober. The two requests canceled each other out.
Luckily, there was more than one way to get a person high.
“Maria,” he said, reaching up to touch her face. “What if I told you it was your destiny to perform tonight?”
Her eyes widened.
“I’m here to help make sure you’re okay.”
She started to blink away tears.
“What did I do to deserve--”
“Shh,” Nico said, pulling her into a hug. “Don’t even go there. Trust me. I’m the one who’s not good enough for you.”
He meant that. He’d made mistakes. He’d lied. He’d hurt people. There was no question that Maria Bova deserved better than him. He wished one of the saints were with her instead. But it was him, and he was going to have to be good enough.
The favor he owed Catherine didn’t seem like the important part anymore.
“I can’t promise you I’ll sound any good,” she said. “My voice shakes when I’m nervous. But if you’ll be there beside me, I will stand up there and I’ll sing, even if it’s horrible.”
“That’s all I ask,” he said, pulling her hand up so that they were standing face to face. She wrapped her arms around him, and he pressed his face against her hair, which smelled like a very pungent gel/hairspray combination, and felt sticky under his skin. “It won’t be the hardest thing I’ve ever convinced you to do,” he added quietly.
Maria nodded.
“After Mama passed, I told myself nothing else would ever scare me again. That’s the reason I threw myself into voice lessons. I wasn’t really acting like myself. I think I flew too close to the sun.”
“Don’t,” Nico said. “I’m so proud of you. You’ve come a long way from making ravioli in that little kitchen in Litochoro.”
“I’d give anything to…” She choked off the rest of her sentence, her hand going to the necklace again. Nico wondered how many thousands of times she’d held it since she’d lost her mom. She gripped the golden crucifix at the end like a lifeline, the impressions of the sharp corners digging into her palm.
“I know,” he said, putting his arm around her shoulders and tugging the end of her chiffon cape out of the mud. “I know, but you’re here now, and you’re gonna win this competition. I can feel it. Do it for Italy.”
“I lived most of my life in Greece,” she said, looking at him ruefully. “That’s another reason I feel like a fraud doing this.”
“Okay, don’t do it for Italy, then, do it for me,” he insisted.
“I already was doing it for you,” she said quietly.
They headed back into the venue, where a young woman was arguing with security about getting people together to look for Maria.
“My manager,” Maria whispered. “She’s going to kill me for running away.”
“Don’t worry about her,” Nico said. Ensuring that they weren’t spotted, he ushered Maria quickly into the nearest women’s restroom. He locked the door behind them, making sure it was empty.
“Okay,” he said, looking his friend up and down. “This isn’t gonna work,” he said, pointing at the ruined outfit.
“I know,” she sighed. “I ruined the dress. It’s a rental, too.”
Nico scanned the wet, muddy fabric of the cape and the relatively plain dress that was underneath. The only visually interesting part of the outfit was the rosary, and she had already tucked it back into her neckline, probably out of habit.
“I’m no Giorgio Armani, but I’ve been told I have good taste,” Nico said, scrolling on his phone for inspiration. “One sec. How about this?” He showed her a photo of Cate Blanchett at the 2023 SAG awards.
“It’s beautiful, but we don’t have time to get anything else, do we?” Maria asked.
Nico laughed out loud at that.
“Maria, look down,” he said.
She glanced down at her body and saw that he’d already swapped her old dress for an entirely new one.
She gasped, running over to the mirror.
“Incredible,” she whispered. Her hand went to the necklace again, and then she bit her lip, trying to hold back tears.
“Great, right?” Nico said, proud of his good taste in fashion, a gift he’d inherited from his mom.
“No, sorry, I…” Maria swallowed. “You…” She looked down at the rosary on her chest.
“Crap,” he said. He’d been spending too much time with demigods, and had forgotten that magic necklaces and magic dresses and invisibility were probably overwhelming for her. “I scared you, didn’t I? I’m sorry. I wasn’t thinking.”
“Not at all,” she said quietly. “It’s silly, but I need to ask you something. After the show, can I keep this dress?”
“Uh, sure?” Nico said. He had no idea why she’d be concerned about that now of all times. “Glad you like it,” he said.
She seemed content with that.
“You’re really okay with… With me?” He asked self-consciously. “You don’t have questions?”
“No,” she said. “If I ask one, I’ll have to ask a thousand. I’d rather draw conclusions on my own, if that’s alright.”
“Gotcha,” Nico said, his throat tightening awkwardly. He felt like he was stumbling through this. With demigods, he could just be a god. With Will, he’d been a vampire, which was kind of stupid, but fun. To Maria, he knew he must be some sort of guardian angel or spirit from the Catholic pantheon. She probably didn’t believe in anything else. But he couldn’t encourage her to think that without risking getting in trouble. If stolen divinity was bad in his pantheon, it had to be way worse in a pantheon you didn’t belong to at all.
He decided he felt the same way she did. She didn’t want to know what he thought he was, and he didn’t want to know what she thought he was. They’d be okay in the short term. It saddened him, but he knew that in the long term, he couldn’t be a part of her life. Being misunderstood to that extent couldn’t be healthy for either of them. Some pantheons just weren’t meant to mix.
“Can I fix your makeup?” He asked. She nodded, and he cleaned up her face, leaving it bare. He didn’t have confidence in his ability to apply false eyelashes and lip liner using godly abilities, since he’d never done it before, but he had other tricks up his sleeve. He simply enhanced her natural beauty, leaving her glowing like she’d never known a bad night’s sleep in her life.
As one final touch, he took her necklace and arranged it carefully, front and center on her dress. She beamed at him.
“Before you go out there, there’s one more thing I need you to do,” he said.
She nodded, willing to do whatever he asked unquestioningly.
“You need to fire your voice coach.”
She took a deep breath.
“Okay.”
“Thanks,” he said. “Please don’t ask why.”
“I wasn’t going to,” she said, looking totally unfazed. “I have faith in you.”
Her faith was humbling. He watched from afar as she went to apologize to her manager, explaining that she planned on performing after all. Then she walked right up to Terpsichore and broke the news that they wouldn’t be associated any longer.
Nico glanced up at the balcony and saw Catherine looking down at him with a satisfied smile. He’d fulfilled his promise. They were even.
Terpsichore and her sisters descended on Maria like a pack of seagulls on a french fry, calling her ungrateful, entitled, and ugly, among other things. Maria’s demeanor was very aloof, and she gave absolutely zero explanation, so Nico didn’t blame the muses for being angry. Still, their reaction worried him.
Maria went to sit beside her agent, seeming relatively composed, given the circumstances. There was only one song left before her turn.
Nico looked up at Catherine again, only to see that she was gone. Obviously that didn’t guarantee she’d left the building, but she didn’t have any reason to stay now that her task was complete.
Maybe she had measures in place already, but Nico was worried about the way Apollo and the muses were looking at Maria. They might be planning to jump her in the parking lot, but Nico thought it was more likely they would just sabotage the performance. He couldn’t abide that, so he needed to take matters into his own hands.
He went over to Apollo and the muses’ row, and they went from glaring at Maria to glaring at him.
“Can we talk?” He asked Apollo. He knew his cousin a lot better than he knew the muses, and there was no way he’d get a word in edgewise taking on all nine of them at once.
Apollo followed him into the men’s room. He didn’t know Nico and Maria knew each other, so he seemed merely curious as to what Nico wanted.
“Usually when men beckon me in here, it’s for fun reasons,” he said, taking off his sunglasses and hopping up to sit on the sink. “I have a feeling that’s not what you’re after.”
“I don’t have much time to explain, but I need you to leave Maria Bova alone,” Nico said, speaking with all the confidence and authority he could muster.
“Two timing Jason Grace?” Apollo laughed. “Nice. Well, I would consider leaving Maria alone, but I actually don’t take orders from you. Maybe you forgot about that,” he shrugged. He started polishing his sunglasses with the bottom of his shirt with an annoying smirk on his face. “Maria just disrespected my Terpsichore. She’s gotta deal with the consequences.”
“She did that because I asked her to,” Nico said. “I’ll deal with the consequences, not her. You need to leave her alone,” he repeated.
“Oh, yeah? Well, you need to get over yourself, you little punk,” Apollo said, popping his sunglasses back on top of his head, where they shone reflected light directly into Nico’s eyes. The effect was slightly blinding. “A lot of people aren’t happy with you after the Fort Sumter thing. You’re lucky my legacy kid survived, or I’d be out for ichor.”
“That doesn’t have anything to do with--” Nico protested.
“You know, some people think you killed those kids on purpose,” Apollo said. “But I don’t think so. I bet you don’t know how to control your true form. Didn’t Hades teach you anything about being a god?”
“Don’t bring my father into this,” Nico said, trying to keep his cool.
“Didn’t think so,” Apollo smiled. “Huh. And I thought my dad sucked.”
“My dad doesn’t--” Nico couldn’t take the bait. For Maria’s sake, he couldn’t. He clenched his fists, hard, and held them against his sides. “Apollo--”
“There’s nothing you can say,” Apollo said, hopping down off the sink. “I’m avenging Terpsichore’s pride tonight. Maria’s lucky she hasn’t already been smoten for her disrespect. Smoot? Smouted? I always forget. Anyway, I’m not letting that bitch perform.”
Apollo moved to walk out the door. Nico knew what he had to do, although he didn’t relish doing it. It would be easy to let Apollo walk away, grab Maria, and make a run for it. He’d ruin her performance, but he could keep her safe from Apollo. As a last resort, he could hide her away in the Underworld. She wasn’t going to get hurt on his watch.
But it wasn’t that simple. She needed to perform on that stage. And there were nine minor goddesses and one very major god that wanted to prevent her from doing that. And he only had about a minute left to make his point.
Nico drew his sword.
The small bathroom filled with an aura of doom, potent and choking and terrifying.
Apollo spun around, his eyes aflame with shock and anger.
“What the fuck is wrong with you? Put that thing away!” He shouted. “You’re not gonna shank me in the men’s room over a mortal girl. You’re not that guy, bro.”
“I’m not going to use it on you,” Nico admitted. Fighting Apollo was more likely to destroy the building than solve his problem. “But I need you to listen. I need you to actually hear me this time. Look at me.”
This time, Apollo looked at him, really looked at him. Although his eyes kept flicking down to look at the sword.
“You need to leave Maria Bova alone,” Nico said slowly. “The muses, too.”
“Why?” Apollo asked. “What could be so important about her performance that you’d pull a god-killing knife on your own flesh and blood?”
Nico’s hand went tight around the sword hilt.
“If she doesn’t perform tonight,” he said carefully. “There are going to be consequences.”
“Consequences?” Apollo’s eyes grew huge in his face. “From who? For who?”
Nico shook his head. There was no way he could tell Apollo about the saints. He was on thin ice with Olympus as it was. If anyone found out that he was in the heavenly Rolodex, he was done for.
“Please trust me,” Nico said. “You don’t want to know. You just need to do as I say. Be mad at me later. Take revenge on me later. Just let her perform tonight.”
Apollo looked into his eyes, trying to search for the truth of why this was so important to Nico. Thankfully, he didn’t find it.
“I had a vision,” Apollo said, turning away gruffly. “About you.”
“A vision? Like a prophecy?” Nico asked. He put his sword away, seeing that it wasn’t needed anymore. There was a slouch of defeat in Apollo’s shoulders. He’d convinced him.
Apollo ran his hands through his hair, the strands slipping through his fingers, bouncing like coiled golden springs.
“I’m still trying to make sense of it,” he admitted. “We were inside the Pantheon in Rome. You, me, and Hermes. The three of us were standing there talking, and you said it was a fitting place for the conversation. I didn’t know what you meant by that. But what I did remember was Hermes. He was holding my hand.”
“Holding your hand?” Nico asked. “Really?”
“He used to do that when he was little,” Apollo said. “When he got scared. Or when he was trying to act innocent and pitiful after he did something he wasn’t supposed to do. But this time he was scared. Of you.”
Nico wanted to laugh at the idea that Hermes could be scared of him. Hermes had never shown any indication of it; quite the opposite, Hermes had dirt on him. He knew Nico was a psychopomp, and he had the leverage to accuse him of stolen divinity anytime he wanted. If anyone should be scared, it was Nico, not Hermes.
“He’s got no reason to be scared of me,” Nico said.
“You sure about that?” Apollo snapped. “You just pulled Stygian iron on me. Over a mortal girl! After I invited you to karaoke and gave you advice about fighting Gaea. I even promised to watch over Camp Jupiter for you. And then you went and killed half the army over a dog, so now I look like a negligent patron!”
“I’m not drawing a line about Maria Bova because I’m trying to be a jerk,” Nico said. “This is an exceptional situation.”
“I wasn’t even going to kill her! I just don’t want her competing in Eurovision. What could possibly be so important about her getting camera time? She’s pitchy and she has no stage presence! I feel like I’m taking crazy pills!” Apollo said, waving his hands in frustration.
“I told you, I don’t know why it’s important, I just know that it is,” Nico said.
“Don’t know or don’t want to tell me?”
“Both,” Nico said.
Apollo narrowed his eyes until they were golden glints, lasered in on Nico.
“I’ll figure it out eventually. If I have to make a thousand prophecies to figure it out, I will. Trust and believe.”
“I trust and believe,” Nico sighed. He was so done with this conversation. “Can we go? She’s up in like, three seconds.”
Apollo flipped his hair over his shoulder haughtily and strode out of the men’s room, popping his cowboy hat back on as he went.
Nico turned invisible and went to join Maria backstage. Her manager was haranguing her about putting on lipstick, and she was standing behind the curtain getting ready to walk out. The votes from the last performer were just coming in, and the stage was being set up for her, with simple but elegant blakc drape decorations. Her hands were trembling, and there was a sheen of sweat on her forehead that gleamed in the hot lights of the stage.
Nico touched her on the shoulder, and she relaxed, knowing he was there as promised.
She got the signal to begin. He followed her out from behind the curtain, and together, they faced the crowd.
The lights were blinding, and the sequins on her dress shimmered like a thousand stars. Maria tried not to squint as she looked at a half dozen TV cameras and an audience of thousands. She took a shuddering, anxious breath in, and wiped sweat off her hands on her skirt.
Nico grabbed her hand, the one that wasn’t holding the microphone. It was still damp and clammy, but he squeezed it anyway.
“Focus on me,” he whispered. “You can do this.”
She nodded. It was fortunate that her song was going to be sung power-ballad style, just her in a sparkly evening gown, with no dance routine. She was opera trained, and her voice had the power to command the stage. It was just a matter of pushing through her nerves.
“I wrote this song of my mother,” she said in slightly imperfect English, through a heavy accent. “But I dedicate my performance tonight for my friend. He was there when I thought I was alone.”
She adjusted her jeweled rosary, which was shining like a miniature sun under all the lights, and she began to sing.
There was definitely a form of divine intervention that could make her a more confident singer. There were nine goddesses and one god in the audience that were experts in that type of intervention, but they were giving Maria the stink eye. She was stuck with only Nico to help her. And he didn’t know how to help, other than what he’d already done.
Maria pushed through her nerves, but it was obvious that she was shaking in her boots in front of the massive crowd. Her voice was a little pitchy, just as Apollo had predicted. The important thing, though, was that she was doing the best she could, and no one was interfering. She definitely wasn’t humiliating herself, and she would not become a meme, so the worst crisis had been averted.
Obviously Nico cried through the whole song. How could he not? He didn’t care that her voice wasn’t perfect. She was singing for him, and he held her hand through every note. Her song, which he realized she’d written herself, was a sad one, about loss and feeling alone. The lyrics were generic, not specific to her, but she emoted very strongly, drawing upon her feelings about her mother. He could see how the crowd at Sanremo might have been transfixed by her spirit. This performance didn’t have the same magic behind it, but it was still magical in its own way.
It was over way too soon. Nico was too fixated on her face to realize that it had ended, that the crowd was applauding, and that she was being ushered offstage.
“You were amazing,” he whispered.
“Thanks, Nico,” she whispered back.
“Nico? Who’s Nico?” Her agent asked.
“My friend,” Maria said, squeezing his hand.
Nico went to go check on Apollo while Maria spoke with her manager and the rest of her small team.
Apollo and the muses were wearing smug looks, and he overheard them discussing her obvious case of stage fright and laughing at her. Nico wanted to smack them, but technically, they were right about the performance. For her to make the final round, at this point, would take a miracle.
He hung around for a while in a waiting area with couches where each team sat and awaited the results. He kept an eye on Maria while she watched the screens. She seemed content, unbothered by the pending scores. He still had no clue why Saint Catherine had been involved, but he did feel like he’d done something good for Maria. Hopefully, when she got home, she’d have some fans waiting.
When the votes finally began to roll in, she and her team watched tensely, waiting for her numbers to come up. With every breath, phone votes rolled in-- and her number remained unimpressive.
She hadn’t won. Not even close. She breathed a sigh of disappointment, but otherwise, she took it well. She changed the subject immediately to her dress, asking her agent whether she liked it, saying it was a gift from an admirer. That made Nico laugh, because he was nothing if not a Maria Bova admirer.
Eventually, a TV presenter from an Italian news station made his way over to her. He shoved a camera in her face. Surprisingly, she lit up with excitement when she was asked to be interviewed. Something about the expression on her face looked familiar to Nico, but he couldn’t quite place it.
“Maria Bova,” said the interviewer. “You gave us a beautiful performance tonight, but the scores aren’t what we’d hoped for. Can you tell us how you feel right now?”
“I’m grateful to be here,” she said. “I did my best and I’m sorry that it wasn’t good enough to win. I hope the people of Italy can forgive me.”
“No need to apologize, we know you gave it your best. This is a tough competition, and there were many talented acts. Maria, is there anything else you want to say to your fanbase back home?”
“This is live?” She asked.
“Yes,” the interviewer said, looking slightly nervous.
She took the microphone from his hand and stared straight into the camera.
“I have a story that I want to share,” she said. “A few months ago, I experienced a miracle.”
She grabbed her jeweled rosary necklace and held it up to the camera.
Nico took that as his cue to leave.
In a blur of shadows, he went straight back to the throne room. He stood in the middle of the dark and silent hall for a few seconds, staring into space.
“This is not happening,” he said flatly.
He would simply not acknowledge it. He wasn’t going to look at his phone. He wouldn’t turn on the news. He definitely wasn’t going to see Maria again anytime soon. He had no other choice than to bury his head in the bony sand of the Styx. Any other option was going to drag him into a heap of trouble.
He looked around, seeing that his dad still hadn’t returned. Suddenly, Nico envied him. In Tartarus, the saints couldn’t reach him.
Beatrice click-clacked towards him.
He looked at her, an idea entering his mind. She looked at him, clueless.
A few hours later, a sharp-clawed paw reached up and batted at the hem of Hades’ robe.
Hades was crouched behind a rock in the deepest depths of Tartarus, observing the Doors of Death from afar with a pair of magical binoculars. He had dust all over his mantle and looked exhausted, but his journey to rescue Cerberus was almost complete.
“Where is he?” he muttered to himself, peering through the binoculars and stretching his godly vision as far as possible towards the Doors.
Beatrice the skeleton cat pawed at him again. He jumped, startled, then glanced down.
“What are you doing here?” He said, alarmed my her sudden appearance. “Did you follow me all this way?”
Beatrice leapt up onto his mantle and climbed her way up the fabric, making liberal use of her claws to dig in for support.
“Papa,” Nico whispered, once he was up on his dad’s back. “It’s me!”
Hades stared at the skeletal cat for a moment.
“I’d better be hearing things,” he said, glaring. “Because I know my son could not be so stupid as to be here, disguised as a skeleton cat.”
“I wanted to help you,” Nico said, taking a seat on his dad’s shoulder. “And it’s not a disguise. Beatrice and I are roommates now, so Kronos will never know it’s me. Isn’t this awesome? Aren’t I clever?”
“This is the most foolhardy, reckless, idiotic idea you’ve ever come up with,” Hades said, plucking cat-Nico off his shoulder and holding him in front of his face. “You really did this to help me?”
“I didn’t do it because it’s just so crazy fun down here,” Nico said, baring his little pointy teeth. “Are we getting our dog back or not?”
He saw his dad’s angry expression melt away, and he looked down at Nico with a smile.
“Let’s do this,” he agreed.
Hades let him look through the binoculars and showed him where he thought Cerberus was being held. Gaea’s encampment ranged quite a ways out from the massive stone Doors of Death, which were held open with a giant pair of chains. Behind one of the doors, there was a small campsite with a roaring green fire blazing upwards. Its eerie light had drawn Hades’ eye, and on it, he’d seen something suspicious.
There was a giant cauldron sitting atop the fire. Three women were standing around it, chanting in unison while taking turns stirring.
“The tall one is Pasiphae,” Nico hissed. “I hate her.”
“The other two are Circe and Medea,” Hades added. “Three of the most powerful witches in our pantheon. Look behind them.”
In the back of their campsite, behind a pile of old junk, there was a pet carrier. It looked big enough to hold a rottweiler, and it was shaking slightly.
“I think that might be him. If you distract the witches, I’ll go in and grab it,” Hades said.
“Sounds like a plan,” Nico said. Fortunately, Gaea’s camp wasn’t as populated as he thought. It seemed like a lot of them were on the earth-side of the doors. “Hey, while we’re here, can’t we just close the doors really quick? It would save the demigods a lot of trouble.”
“The prophecy said it was their problem, and so it shall be,” Hades said. “Besides, I don’t like my odds of success against Tartarus himself aided only by a dead cat.”
“Tartarus is guarding the Doors? Uh oh,” Nico said. The demigods were probably screwed, then.
“Focus on the task at hand. Go down there and create a diversion,” Hades said, pulling on his helm and disappearing. “Now’s your chance. They’ve just turned around.”
Nico shadow-traveled down to their camp and hid on the far side of the cauldron, crouching low in the dust. He heard the three witches arguing among themselves. They sounded like they were looking for limes and had only brought lemons due to a miscommunication.
“Now what are we going to do?” Medea said, folding her arms across her chest. She was wearing an ornately patterned dress with a brightly colored head scarf covering her dark hair. She had a scarily beautiful face, just like both of her aunts. Nico’s skin would have been crawling at being in her vicinity, if he’d had any skin at the moment.
“Uh, magic? Obviously,” Circe scoffed. She spoke a spell to a fat yellow lemon in her hand, causing it to turn green. Nico had seen her briefly on her island while he’d been spying for Hera, and he wasn’t exactly thrilled to see her again. She had on a leopard print dress and a visor that said ‘CC’s Resort and Spa’.
Pasiphae went over to the cauldron and raised her hands. Circe and Medea joined her, and in unison they began repeating the words of their magic spell, which sounded a lot like, “Mar-Ga-Ri-Tas,” over and over again.
The pet carrier shook, and a high pitched whine sounded. Cerberus had smelled his master approaching.
Before the witches could turn to look, Nico went, “MEOW” very loudly.
All three witches gasped.
“Kitty!” Circe exclaimed, running over to where Nico sat. “Oh my goodness, how precious!”
“A wittle dead kitten, oh my goobmess gwacious,” Medea sighed. “What a wittle baby!”
Pasiphae picked him up and admired him closely.
“What a sweetie you are,” she said, scratching the top of his skull. “I’m gonna call you Snickerdoodle!”
“Who says you get to name it?” Circe said, snatching cat-Nico away from her sister. “We’re calling her Sprinkles!”
“Sprinkles? Snickerdoodle? You stupid sluts!” Medea said. “That skeleton cat’s name is Pedro Pawscal. Fight me.”
Surprisingly, Pasiphae and Circe immediately agreed that his name was indeed Pedro Pawscal, and the matter was settled. He was given a new outfit and a little dish of margarita mix to enjoy while they fawned over him. He made a note for the future that witches’ mortal weakness was obviously cats, particularly if they fit into a cute goth aesthetic.
As the witches turned their attention back to their cauldron, Nico glanced back at the carrier. It was gone. His dad had triumphed, thanks to his help. It felt good to get a win at last.
That left him with the challenge of escaping, which was easy enough. He slipped through space and shadow traveled back to the safe perch of rock where Hades had been hidden.
His dad would be home already with Cerberus. All Nico had to do was join them. Still, he wanted to take one last look at the Doors of Death, remembering his demigods and the quest he was still meant to be running. He nudged the binoculars up with his paw and looked through them, scanning the area.
Gaea’s army was formidable, even with half of it on the other side where he couldn’t see them. There were hundreds of monsters, all of them well-armed and armored. He saw telekhines and hellhounds and giant snakes, dragons and skeletons and insects he couldn’t identify. No sign of Tartarus, but he was everywhere at once, so presumably he could pop up at anytime.
He turned the binoculars the other way to look out at the barren wasteland of Tartarus. He saw the distant glow of burning rivers of fire, the haze of mist rising off the Lethe, Annabeth Chase, the dark walls of Erebus.
It took him a second to realize. He did a double take, and saw that Annabeth was in Tartarus, limping slowly in his direction.
And she was alone.
Notes:
I freaking love Eurovision. I'm in the US, and it's not easy to watch it here, so please ignore if I got any details about the contest structure wrong. If you're not European and aren't familiar with it, I highly recommend the Netflix movie 'Eurovision Song Contest.' The contest in the movie is held in Edinburgh, which I kept for this chapter as an homage. Based on my research, Italy does often submit heartfelt songs with heavy focus on vocals, so I think Maria's imaginary song would fit in fine. (Maneskin will get their separate homage later haha)
Chapter Text
Jason watched Reyna sleep, examining every line in her face and every pore in her skin. She’d lost weight and muscle tone during her long imprisonment, and he’d never seen her so pale. He wanted to etch every tiny change into his memory so that he’d remember what he owed her. He’d taken too long to find her, and she’d paid the price.
It was hard to sleep. Every time he closed his eyes, he remembered watching Annabeth fall down into the yawning darkness of the pit. The team had saved Reyna and secured the Athena Parthenos, but the cost had been astronomical.
He’d been on a high. They’d defeated the giants Otis and Ephialtes, and he’d broken into Reyna’s cage himself, smashing the lock with the butt of his sword. Seeing her eyes blink open had been one of the highlights of his life.
At times, he’d doubted they’d reach her in time, despite Thanatos reassuring him she wasn’t destined to die anytime soon. Nico’s weird boyfriend made him super uncomfortable for a lot of reasons, and Jason didn’t trust him. Still, Thanatos had been right, and Reyna had been okay.
She’d been incredibly weak and out of it, so he’d been distracted taking care of her. Even so, he’d witnessed the fateful moment where it all went wrong.
Maybe things would have played out differently if he’d paid more attention to Percy. He’d been acting strangely all day, but the team had assumed that he was worried about Annabeth. She’d descended into the tunnels beneath Rome, facing the test her mother had laid out before her. The greatestof her siblings had all perished making that same attempt. The reason for Percy’s disturbance seemed obvious until it wasn’t.
Leo had crashed the Argo II through the roof of the room where the statue was hidden. Annabeth had been there waiting, sweaty and beaten up, flushed with the thrill of victory. She’d passed the test and defeated Arachne, pushing her into the pit down to Tartarus. Everyone was thrilled with the outcome, and relieved she was okay, and they immediately started working as a team to secure the precious Athena Parthenos. They were working around a massive pit that led all the way to Tartarus, and it had taken a lot of care to ensure the precious icon didn’t topple into the dark, spiderwebbed chasm, so Jason didn’t remember anybody talking much, other than exchanging instructions on how to rig the statue so that it could get up into the ship’s hold.
Annabeth had broken her leg during her quest, so Piper had gone to patch her up. The two girls had started whispering to each other quietly, but Jason hadn’t been listening to what they were saying. It took him an embarrassingly long time to realize that Percy hadn’t said a word to Annabeth. He hadn’t even looked at her since they’d arrived.
Annabeth’s injuries were serious, so Jason didn’t see anything off about her behavior. He’d expected to find her dead, so finding her with a broken leg seemed like a pretty good deal to him. But as they worked on the statue, she never said much, and he didn’t recall seeing her smiling.
It was Piper who clued him in that something bad was about to go down. The fight was obviously over, the battle won, but Piper was still bracing herself for something. She kept looking between Percy and Annabeth, watching their every move and expression.
“Annabeth,” Jason said, trying to break the awkward silence that was rapidly developing. It was a big mistake, but he didn’t realize it at the time. “You did what no other child of Athena could do. You’re incredible, you know that?”
He just wanted to hype her up a little. It didn’t go over too well.
“You’ll definitely be chosen for godhood,” Leo said, trying very hard not to sound jealous. “Just remember the little people, okay?”
“Yeah, for real,” Jason agreed. “You’ll make an awesome goddess.”
“It suits you,” Percy said.
It took a second for Jason to catch on to the fact that Percy hadn’t meant that in a nice way. His tone was flat and cold and empty of feeling, which was totally unlike him. The expression on his face was the same, like he was feeling numb despite the intensity of all they’d just gone through.
Annabeth looked like he’d just slapped her. She visibly flinched, turning her face away from him. She knew Percy hated the gods. They all knew that.
Nothing else happened after Percy’s remark. Well, a lot else happened, but not between Percy and Annabeth, because Percy climbed back up the ladder onto the Argo and disappeared from view.
He was gone when the hole in the floor cracked open opened wider, chunks of concrete tumbling downward. Annabeth’s leg was caught in the web, and they caught it too late. Percy wasn’t there to see her fall, but Jason was. Annabeth’s fingers grabbed onto the edge of the concrete floor, gripping tightly until, one by one, they slipped and let go. As she fell backwards, the look in her eyes was one of acceptance. Numb, just like Percy had been.
There was nothing they could do but return to the ship, get the Athena Parthenos to a safe place, and get Reyna medical attention. Everybody took care of the immediate necessities in a state of shock. He took Reyna to his room to get some sleep, and he’d been grateful to shut the door and sit in silence for a while.
He kept seeing Annabeth’s face as she fell, and it gave him chills. If someone as incredible as her could fail so spectacularly, it felt like there was no hope for the rest of them. He shed a few silent tears for her, and although he rarely prayed, that night he prayed to Nico that she might somehow be okay. He didn’t really think through the fact that he was praying to his own boyfriend, something he’d told himself he’d never do. It just happened, and in the moment, it felt right.
Jason had very few charitable feelings towards Piper left after the pregnancy gaslighting incident, but he appreciated having an Aphrodite camper on board for this situation in particular. He recognized the light tap of her knuckles against his cabin door.
“Hey,” she said, her expression grave. She was a gorgeous young woman, but her big brown eyes looked unusually sunken, and she had dark circles beneath them. The stress of the quest was getting to her, just like it was to the rest of them. Jason’s sleep was disturbed by nightmares more often than not. He’d refused Thanatos’ offers to get rid of them. Nico was the only god he wanted in his dreams.
“Hey, Pipes,” he said, giving her a sympathetic smile. They were all falling apart in their own ways at the moment. “You okay?”
“Me? I’m not the one you should be worried about,” she said, although she smiled back. Their relationship might have been damaged, but they were mature enough to keep any lingering hostilities on the back burner. More important things were at stake. “Is Reyna okay?”
“She will be eventually,” Jason said. “Why?”
Piper pursed her lips, which were bitten and chapped.
“I have bad news. Percy is flying back to New York. He’s leaving for the airport in a couple hours.”
“Holy shit,” Jason murmured. “Are you kidding?”
“I wish,” she said. She looked over her shoulder to see whether Percy was lurking in the hall, then leaned in closer to whisper. “I Charmspoke him into telling me what happened. Don’t let on that you know, but Annabeth cheated on him while they were long distance. He just found out. That’s why he’s leaving.”
Jason’s jaw dropped. He’d always seen Percy and Annabeth as a unit. They were the power couple of the century, the pair that every kid at Camp Half Blood held up as the ideal relationship. The idea that they couldn’t handle a couple of years long-distance for college sounded laughable. They’d been through so much together.
“Are you sure? That doesn’t seem like something Annabeth would do,” Jason said.
Piper raised her eyebrows at him. He realized, blushing with self-awareness, that nobody had expected him to hook up with Nico, either. Sometimes things happened that you never saw coming.
“Well, I’m really sorry to hear that, for Percy’s sake,” Jason said. “But if he leaves, what chance do we have to beat Gaea?”
“He says he’s going back to defend Camp Half Blood from the Romans,” Piper shrugged. “I have no idea whether that’s going to help us or hurt us. It feels like without Annabeth, we’re done for either way.”
Jason felt that way, too. But he didn’t want to give in to hopelessness. At least not out loud.
“Hazel’s leading the quest,” he said, drawing on his old Roman training that told him to look to his leader for direction. “We’re not done as long as she keeps fighting.”
“I guess,” Piper said skeptically.
“And Nico is going to come back soon.”
“And you’re cool with that? He almost killed us,” Piper said, growing irritated. “He murdered forty New Roman soldiers. Mostly kids! How could you take him back after what he did?”
Jason winced. He’d been thinking about that, too. It was a hard pill to swallow. Part of him wanted to separate the loving, gentle version of Nico he loved from the monstrous death god that had taken the lives of his friends and comrades. He just couldn’t make sense of it. Such immense love and such careless rage were surely incompatible. It seemed impossible that it could all fit inside one person.
“I said he’s coming back. I never said I was taking him back,” Jason said. “Two different things.”
Piper wrinkled her nose at him suspiciously, but she didn’t argue.
“Who killed my soldiers?” Reyna murmured sleepily, brushing her hair out of her face.
Jason really wished she’d slept through that. He was going to wait to tell her until she had her strength back, but that might be a while.
“Nico did,” he said. “Octavian and Dakota led a group to come hunt us down. They killed Cerberus. Nico didn’t take it well.” He swallowed, feeling a lump form in his throat. “Dakota didn’t make it.”
Piper lowered her head. Jason gave Reyna a minute to take in the news.
“Okay,” Reyna said quietly.
“I should go,” Piper said, looking at Reyna awkwardly. “Just one last thing, Reyna. Percy wants you to come back to New York with him. The New Roman army is going to attack Camp Half Blood.”
“If he thinks I can stop them, he has too much faith in me,” Reyna said. “Who’s running Camp Jupiter now?”
“Octavian and Thomas,” Jason said. “Octavian will be out for blood. He was the only survivor of the attack.”
“Who’s Thomas? Someone new?” Reyna asked.
“Someone old,” Jason said. “He was a Nico thing. When Nico gets back, he can take you to New York anytime. There’s no point forcing you to sit on a plane for eight hours when he could be here any minute. You need your rest.”
“You’re assuming he’s coming back soon, but you don’t know that. And you’re assuming that Reyna would want his help, which she probably doesn’t after he killed her friends,” Piper said.
“I’ll take whatever he can give me,” Reyna said, sitting up stiffly. Her shirt collar slipped, and Jason saw her collarbone protruding sharply. How little had she been eating the last few months?
“Are you sure?” Jason said. “Hazel might be able to take you. Piper’s right. I shouldn’t have assumed you’d be okay with working with him. It’s hard for me to consider it, and I’m-- We-- Um.”
He wasn’t sure how to broach the subject of his strange love affair. There was a time when he and Reyna had thought of each other as best friends and soulmates. They’d planned to be roommates for life. It seemed like a betrayal to come out to her as someone completely different than the person she’d known for a decade.
“I owe Nico my life,” Reyna said. She gathered her loose hair and started to braid it, a gesture she could do robotically without looking. It turned out perfect every time; that was a law Jason understood to be universal, like gravity. “Even if I didn’t owe him, there’s no point holding a grudge against a god. All we can do is pray that he has mercy on the souls of our friends. And on ours.”
Jason nodded. Maybe he was betraying his promise to himself by praying to Nico, but Reyna was right. Nico had taken those kids’ lives, but he probably had the power to give them cushy, pleasant afterlives to try to make up for it. Jason would be letting his friends down if he didn’t work the connection to help them out.
Piper gave Jason a look that said clearly, ‘You’d better tell her.’ Then she left.
“You seem better,” Jason said, shutting the door and looking at Reyna.
“I’ve been sleeping for a week,” she said, stretching. “I need calories. I need pizza. Are we in Rome still?”
“Yeah, but--”
She climbed out of bed, and he rushed to give her his arm. She was a little unsteady on her feet, but she made it out to the deck of the Argo II.
She stood on the side and stared out at the bank of clouds that formed a protective barrier around the ship. It was easier to hide it than to risk the mist making mortals think it was a Chinese spy balloon. Jason summoned a breeze that blew the clouds away, and Reyna stared down at the city of Rome far below. She looked over at the Coliseum and sighed.
“It feels good to be away from that place,” she said. “I missed fresh air.”
Jason impulsively wrapped her in a bear hug.
“I’m good,” she said.
“I’m not,” he said, his tears wetting her t-shirt sleeve. He held onto her as tightly as he could, lifting her feet off the ground. He remembered the first time he’d done that. They’d been in high school, and he had hit a growth spurt. She’d told him he was too tall and he looked like a skinny string bean, which was true, but it hurt his feelings. He’d picked her up and refused to put her down until she apologized. They both laughed about it a lot afterward.
“I’m never letting you go again, Reyna,” he said. He couldn’t find the words to say anything else, but she understood.
“Jason,” she said, after letting him hug her for a long time. “I’m not kidding. I need to eat an entire pizza right now, or I might faint.”
Jason flew them both down into Rome, to an area nowhere near the Coliseum, and they quickly found a restaurant that sold individual slices of pizza with a variety of toppings. Reyna ordered a dozen slices. Jason thought they were to share until she turned to him and said, “What are you getting?”
They found a little park to eat their pizza in. They didn’t have a lot of time to kill, but it felt important that they share a brief moment where they could act like normal people. They sat together on a bench and stuffed their faces full of pizza for a few minutes happily.
Reyna rested her foot against his ankle, her quiet way of reminding him how much it meant to her to see him again. Jason couldn’t stop smiling. He had his best friend back. It was like the world suddenly made sense again, in spite of all the bad things that had happened.
He couldn’t wait any longer.
“I have something to tell you,” he said, folding up his plate and tossing his napkins in the trash nearby. “Piper and I are over. There’s someone else.”
“Someone else?” She asked, picking a basil leaf out of her teeth. “How have you had time? Aren’t you on a quest?”
“He makes time,” Jason said, watching to see how she reacted.
“He,” she said, raising her eyebrows. “Are you attracted to him?”
“Yes,” Jason said.
“Were you attracted to Piper?”
“Sometimes,” he said. “But not the way I am with him.”
He knew her so well that he could tell she was clenching her teeth from watching the outside of her jaw.
“It doesn’t mean--”
“You were gay this whole time? It sounds like it does,” she said.
“Are you mad at me?” Jason asked.
“I’m not mad at you,” Reyna said. “I’m mad about what it’s going to make people think. I mean, wait until Hylla hears about this. She’ll re-start her whole campaign to convince me that I’m a lesbian and I need to just admit it already. She’ll use you to prove her point.”
Jason wanted to tell her that Hylla wouldn’t do something like that. But Hylla was definitely going to do something like that.
Ever since Reyna came out to her close friends as asexual, her older sister had started campaigning for her to leave the patriarchal, hetero-normative New Roman community and join the pack of unhinged lesbians that she was a part of-- which was her colorful way of describing the Amazons.
Hylla was right that New Rome wasn’t the most progressive of places, but Reyna had interpreted her invitation to mean that Hylla thought she was a closeted lesbian who needed to accept herself. They’d gotten into a huge argument about it, and Jason had spent half of his freshman year at New Rome University helping Reyna unpack her feelings about her chosen label. She dealt with a lot of self-doubt and questioning. It was a lot harder to put a label on the absence of something rather than the presence of something.
It was that exact experience that had made Jason determined never to label himself as anything in particular, even though he’d always thought he was pretty similar to Reyna. Holding off on labels had paid off for him in the long run. He’d changed a lot more than he’d ever expected to.
“I was not gay this whole time,” Jason said. “I didn’t know what I was then, and I don’t now, either. And we’re not telling Hylla about any of this. Nico is a unique situation. I don’t want to date girls or guys, I just want to date him.”
“Did you just say Nico?” Reyna asked, looking at him like she thought she’d misheard.
“Yeah, it’s him,” Jason said. “Go ahead and lecture me on why you think I’m insane.”
She didn’t lecture him. She put down her plate and grabbed his hand with her greasy pizza fingers.
“I get it,” she said, looking him in the eye.
“You get it?” He asked.
“Yeah,” she said. “I actually do.”
Jason appreciated the sensation of relief that flooded his body. That was the last frontier he’d been dreading. He didn’t keep secrets from Reyna, but when it came to his dating life, at times they’d struggled to understand each other.
His attempts to explain Piper had been painful wastes of time, since he didn’t understand why they were together himself. He still didn’t. It was as if Juno had smashed their faces together and said, ‘kiss!’ and they’d just done it unquestioningly. It hadn’t been a bad experience, but Jason was always on the fence about whether it was really right for him.
Nico was different. He knew exactly why he’d wanted to be with Nico. He knew exactly what he was getting out of it, and why he thought it was worth the risk. Nico was non-judgmental, generous, and wore his heart on his sleeve. He didn’t look down on Jason for being human, and made an effort to let Jason understand him as best he could. He wasn’t deceptive or manipulative. They just made each other happy.
And Reyna understood that. Of course she did. She was his best friend.
“Piper was wrong for you,” Reyna said. “Nico is the nicest god I’ve ever met. He’s probably the nicest in the whole pantheon. I completely see why you like him.”
“They haven’t ruined him yet,” Jason smiled. “He’s still got a human side. He tells me I bring it out in him.”
“You look so happy when you talk about him,” Reyna said, a smile blooming on her face to match his.
“Do I?” Jason’s face hurt from smiling.
“Yeah,” she said, smiling back. She still had basil stuck in her front tooth, and they both snorted with laughter when he picked it out for her.
All too soon, though, it was time to get back on the Argo II. Jason couldn’t let Percy leave without saying goodbye, even if it was bound to be awkward. On a quest like theirs, you never knew when might be the last time you saw someone.
He flew Reyna back up to the deck, where Percy had his backpack full of stuff ready to go. Leo was giving him one last hug, and Frank was carrying Percy’s suitcase.
“Frank’s taking me to the train station,” Percy said. “I think it’s called Terminal station? Kinda ominous.”
“Termini station,” Frank corrected him.
“Still kind of ominous,” Percy sighed. He looked resigned, and his eyes were rimmed red.
“Percy,” Jason said, approaching him. “It’s been an honor to fight alongside you. I hope we can hang out again on the other side of this war.”
“Thanks,” Percy said, shaking his hand firmly. “Same to you. I’ve got a lot of respect for you. But I have something to tell you that you might not wanna hear.”
“It’s fine,” Jason said. “Tell me.”
Percy looked Jason in the eyes. Jason was taken aback by the intensity of his gaze. His eyes were swirling like storms, and his hair was wild and untamed. He’d never looked more like the son of the sea god. Jason realized he was looking at a man who was full of barely controlled rage, and an immense amount of pain.
“When Nico does get back,” Percy said. “Don’t trust him.”
Reyna bristled at Jason’s side.
“Respectfully, Percy, that’s Jason’s choice,” she said.
“It isn’t personal. None of the gods can be trusted,” Percy said. “They’re in it for themselves. All of them. No exceptions. You might think he cares about you. But to him, you’re a toy for him to play with. And I don’t want to see you get broken.”
Jason disagreed, but he didn’t want to get into an argument with Percy. He’d just been betrayed by the love of his life. It was no time to lecture him about trust.
“I’m not sure what I’ll do yet,” Jason said. “But I appreciate the advice. I know it comes from a good place. Are you going back to camp right away?”
“My buddy Grover’s picking me up at JFK. My mom’s gonna have a lasagna waiting. I’ve got people,” Percy said. “She, um…” He took a second to contain his emotions. Jason couldn’t imagine how Percy felt talking about Annabeth. It was an unfathomable position to be in.
“She left her phone, so I’m using it. I need to keep in touch with you guys,” Percy said finally.
“Of course,” Jason said.
“I’ll come join you in Long Island when the time is right,” Reyna told Percy. “And we’ll end this stupid war between the camps.
“Deal,” Percy said, shaking her hand. Then, without a look back, he climbed down the ladder, closely followed by Frank, who took the form of a monkey and scrambled down, Percy’s suitcase hanging from his tail.
After Percy and Frank were both on the ground and walking towards the train station, Hazel came out of the ship’s hold, followed by Piper.
“No Annabeth, now no Percy,” Piper said. “It’s not going to be the same without them.”
Hazel looked like the situation was weighing on her heavily. Her hair was tied up in a head scarf, and she smelled like incense. She’d probably been praying to Nico like a crazy person after what happened. She and Annabeth had been close, and Jason’s heart ached for her.
“I have to confess something to you guys. I’m part of the reason Percy left,” Hazel said with difficulty. “Annabeth left a note for Percy in case she died seeking the Athena Parthenos. He opened it too soon.”
“Sounds like her,” Leo said, smiling sadly. “Prepared for every possible scenario.”
“Sounds like him,” Piper said. “Impulsive.”
“Unfortunately, she made a sort of deathbed confession in the letter,” Hazel said. “She cheated on Percy while they were long distance. I won’t give you guys details, but I knew about the letter and that she’d cheated. It was wrong of her, but there were circumstances that meant her judgment was compromised for reasons that weren’t totally her fault. And she wanted to tell Percy when it happened. Athena made her swear on the Styx that she wouldn’t, in order to protect this quest.”
“I think that ship’s sailed. Does it break the vow if you write it in a letter?” Reyna asked.
“I don’t know. But if it is, she’s being punished now,” Hazel said. “If she’s even still alive.”
“I thought you can tell if people are alive or dead?” Leo asked.
“Not in Tartarus,” Hazel said sadly. “I think we need to assume she’s dead and that we’re doing the rest of this on our own. But I still believe we need to go to the Doors of Death in Epirus and close them from this side. In the one in a million chance she survives Tartarus on her own and closes the doors on the other side, we need to be there.”
“Sounds like a suicide mission,” Leo said.
“Yeah. It does,” Hazel said. “Are we still in?”
Leo shrugged, feigning nonchalance unconvincingly.
“Let’s do it,” he said.
Piper, Jason, Hazel, Reyna, and Leo all put their hands in.
“Adding one more for Frank,” Hazel smiled, putting her other hand in. “We’re going to do this or die trying, guys.”
“Or die trying,” Jason agreed, smiling at everyone encouragingly. He felt a little weird about it, but this was the most energized he’d felt so far about the quest. He was now the most senior hero on the team, and he was ready to step up and be a little more active. It was refreshing to feel a bit of fighting spirit; it had taken a long time to get back in the groove of heroism after his nervous breakdown in February.
“Ahem.”
Thanatos had appeared behind them. They all jumped at his sudden appearance. His weird glowing eyes, large white wings, and his loose, trailing black mantle gave him an eerie grim reaper vibe perfect for jumpscares. Leo had spilled Cheerios all over the kitchen the previous morning when Thanatos decided to pop up beside the fridge to praise his choice of breakfast, informing him that a man had just died choking on a bagel not five minutes earlier.
“Hi,” the god of death said. “Thanatos, here,” he added awkwardly, with a limp wave.
“We know who you are,” Hazel said kindly. She was the only one who seemed to like him, and even that seemed to be mostly pity. No one really understood him, what his purpose was, or why he said the odd things he did.
“I have a helpful hint for you all,” Thanatos said cheerfully. “You will be less likely to die if you have the antidote to the toxic gas that fills the Necromanteion. Though, if you are fated to die, it won’t make any difference.”
They stared at him, waiting on the second part of his advice, but he just stared at them.
“And where are we supposed to get this antidote, pal?” Leo asked impatiently.
“Oh! Triptolemus should have some,” Thanatos said. “He lives in Venice,” he added.
“Venice?” Jason said excitedly.
“I always wanted to see Venice,” Hazel said, smiling ear-to-ear.
“It’s not a vacation, guys,” Piper sighed. “But sure, let’s go to Venice. Maybe there will be a Nico di Angelo themed tour we can go on, since you’re all such big fans.”
“Is there?” Thanatos asked excitedly.
“No, dude,” Leo said, shaking his head.
A few days later, Jason was riding in a gondola, which was pretty cool. He was also sitting next to the god of death in a gondola, which made it slightly less cool.
Thanatos had taken as much interest in the winding maze of canals and gondolas as the rest of them, although Jason noticed that he seemed to enjoy looking at the rats in the alleyways and floating trash just as much as he enjoyed at the architecture. Hazel and Frank had gone to visit Triptolemus, while Leo and Piper watched the ship. Jason and Reyna had gotten an hour to explore on their own, since Reyna wasn’t in good enough shape to be useful, and Thanatos needed to be occupied so that he wouldn’t cause trouble.
“It’s like a magic city out of a fantasy novel,” Reyna said, admiring an ornate church as their gondola passed the massive edifice of carved stone. The doors were open, and they could see the inside, gilded and bright with the glow of candles. They didn’t go into churches, since all New Romans were taught to avoid them from birth, but they could admire their beauty from the outside.
“Nico showed me what it was like when he lived here,” Jason told her. “It was even more beautiful in the 1930’s. It’s deteriorated over the years, I think.”
“He showed you Venice?” Thanatos said, snapping his head to look at Jason. “His Venice?”
“In a dream,” Jason said, feeling awkward under Thanatos’ intense golden gaze. “It wasn’t a big deal.”
“Wasn’t a big deal?” Thanatos said, scooting to sit nearer to Jason. “You ought to be honored. You ought to be weeping from the glory of such privilege. To see his home through his eyes,” he sighed, looking bitterly jealous, although he didn’t appear to blame Jason for it.
Thanatos had to number among the weirdest people Jason had ever met. He perched on the gondola seat like a bird, and his wings started fluttering when he got excited, which was alarming when you were sitting too close to him.
“You’ve never been here before?” Jason asked.
“Of course I have,” Thanatos said. “Who do you think takes the souls here? I’m in Venice all the time. No more or less than any other city this size.”
“There’s not a Catholic psychopomp that covers this area?” Reyna asked. They’d seen about a million churches since they’d arrived an hour earlier, and that was barely an exaggeration, so it seemed like a plausible question.
“A wha-- A Cath-- Psh! No!” Thanatos spluttered. “There’s only me! I get everyone!”
“Everyone in the whole world?” Reyna asked, narrowing her eyes. “What about Indian people?”
“What about Chinese people?” Jason asked. “Aren’t those countries most of your work? They have the biggest populations.”
“I don’t get a lot of those,” Thanatos said, blushing. “I didn’t mean ‘everyone’ literally.”
“Sounds vague,” Reyna said.
“Little bit vague,” Jason agreed, catching her eye and grinning. This must be what Percy and Annabeth felt like. He and Reyna had been taught to fear and respect the gods, but he at the moment he was under Nico’s protection. It was kind of thrilling to give an ancient and mysterious creature like Thanatos a hard time. He saw why Percy was addicted to sass.
Thanatos looked irritated with them, but he’d looked irritated with them all day. Jason had been doing it deliberately, chipping away at Thanatos’ over-friendliness to see what was underneath. From the moment he’d seen Thanatos on Nico’s phone background, he’d known that he was the side piece. That made Thanatos the jealous boyfriend. So why was he being so nice? In their pantheon, that was just unnatural.
“Mortals,” Thanatos muttered, shaking his head. He stared wistfully out at the buildings they slowly passed by. Another gondola filled with tourists passed them, sending tiny waves that gently bobbed them up and down. A sound of laughter filtered through the air from an open window, and from another, they heard sounds of a Venetian family having a loud argument, shouting at one another.
“Geez. They sound like they’re about to murder each other,” Reyna said, unable to catch a single word of the Venetian dialect. She only knew a smattering of Italian, having focused her language studies mostly on advanced Latin while she was at NRU. Jason had taken Spanish so that he could talk to her in her native language, so they were both able to make educated guesses at Italian without being fluent.
“They’re debating the rules of a card game. That is just how they talk when they’re passionate about something,” Thanatos informed her. “I miss Nico,” he muttered wistfully to himself.
“Didn’t you see him a couple of days ago?” Jason asked, feeling his own jealousy prick at his heart. His tone must have given away how he felt, because Thanatos shot him a glare.
“I’ll have you know that I am capable of missing him even when I’m with him. That’s how much I love him,” Thanatos said proudly. “Now. Boatman!” he said, standing. “Take me to Nico’s house.”
“Who?” The gondolier asked. He had the stereotypical striped shirt and hat with a large moustache, and a boombox blasting opera. It wasn’t the classiest gondola in operation that day, but the price had been competitive and he spoke English, so he’d won their business. The poor gondolier had looked confused by them the whole ride, since the mist was working overtime to conceal Thanatos’ wings and weird outfit.
“Nico’s house. Nico di Angelo. Surely you’ve heard of him?” Thanatos asked incredulously. “He’s descended from a great noble family, originating in this very city.”
“Sit down,” Jason hissed. “You’re rocking the gondola too much.”
“Jason, hush, I’m trying to give instructions to this simpleminded gentleman,” Thanatos said, putting his hands on his hips.
“This what?!” The gondolier shouted angrily, ripping off his fake moustache.
“My brother happens to be ferryman, and I have to say, you don’t hold a candle to him in terms of customer service,” Thanatos said. “He doesn’t run his mouth, for one.”
The gondolier tackled Thanatos and knocked him into the canal with a splash. Jason and Reyna stood up and leaned over the side, looking for them under the water, but after a few seconds the gondolier’s hand emerged from the murky depths and grabbed the side of the boat. As he gripped the side, the boat tilted, and Jason and Reyna were plunged into the water, too.
The two demigods swam over to the side of the canal, making it to a set of stairs. Jason pulled himself up onto the sidewalk and helped Reyna up after him.
Thanatos was already out of the water, frowning down at them with his arms folded petulantly. He looked like he’d swallowed a lemon.
“Is this normal behavior among humans?” Thanatos asked. “Because I’m suddenly reminded why I prefer the dead ones.”
“I think I speak for all living humans when I say that we would also prefer you stick to dead people,” Jason said. He had no clue what Nico saw in this awkward jerk, but he was reaching the end of his rope with the guy.
He and Reyna were now sopping wet, and Thanatos did not offer to dry them. They wrung out their socks and sneakers and tried to get dry using a warm wind Jason summoned. It only worked a little bit.
“I think we’re stranded,” Reyna said, looking around. They had climbed onto the stairway to a building on an island all to itself, with no walkway leading to any other streets.
Jason looked up at the large brik building, hoping it was a YMCA where you could pay for showers. He was struck by a sudden sense of deja-vu, examining the carved angels on either side of the doorframe and the coat of arms above the door.
“Immortal gods,” he gasped. “This is it! This is his house!”
“The Fates must be working overtime today,” Reyna murmured. “It’s massive. I wonder who lives here now. Hey, hold on a second!”
Thanatos had walked right through the front door. After a long, humbling minute stranded outside, the door swung open to admit Jason and Reyna with a loud creak.
“Psst,” Jason said, running inside. The entryway was a long, empty hall stripped of most of its decor, as if the house was used to receiving large numbers of guests and no longer did. “Thanatos! We can’t just break into someone’s house!”
“The birthplace of every god is sacred by definition,” Thanatos said. “Tell the owner we’re pilgrims and to mind his own business.”
“It doesn’t work like that,” Reyna said, her wet sneakers squelching in the entryway. They’d left a puddle on the marble floor, and Jason worried that in her weakened state Reyna was at risk of slipping and cracking her head open. “They’ll think we’re nutcases breaking in to rob them.”
“No one is home, silly girl,” Thanatos said. “Now, I’m going to see Nico’s egg field!”
He disappeared. His footsteps could be heard overhead, walking on the creaking wood floors.
“Egg field?” Reyna asked.
“No clue. If no one’s home, I guess we do have time to kill before we go back to the Argo,” Jason suggested.
Reyna rolled her eyes at him.
“Go. Explore your boyfriend’s house. I’ll keep watch. You remember our whistle?”
“Always,” Jason said, heading into the living room. He stood on the threadbare carpet and looked around.
It was nothing like Nico’s dream version of the house. There was a warmth and glamour in his visions that reality lacked. Everything felt cold, stuffy, and dead, and it smelled like stale old cigar smoke.
It was a massive stately home, but whoever owned it appeared to have sold off most of the beautiful furniture and replaced it with stuff from Ikea. It must have cost a fortune to maintain the house. It also wasn’t air conditioned, which probably made it hard to stand during the summers. You could cut the humidity in Venice with a knife, even in late May.
It took a few rooms to catch onto the fact that, although the house looked lived in, there were no family pictures anywhere. In a chilling realization, Jason looked up to see that there were frames hanging on the walls, and nearly all of them were empty. There was one sitting on a side table that still had the original photo, but it was of a family Jason didn’t recognize-- a mother, father, and a little boy who only vaguely resembled Nico. Jason couldn’t be sure whether they were any relation, since there was nothing written on the back. Maybe a new family had bought the house in the eighty years since Nico had lived there.
Thoroughly creeped out, he headed upstairs.
“I don’t like this place,” he said, seeing Thanatos standing in one of the bedrooms. “It’s not like it was in the dream. The current owner has really let it go.”
“Shh,” Thanatos said, smiling. “Can you feel him?”
Jason walked into the bedroom.
“This isn’t Nico’s room,” Jason said. “He didn’t even take me in here.”
“This is the room he was born in,” Thanatos said. He walked around the perimeter of the room, dragging his finger across the walls. “It’s hard to believe the world went so long without him in it. To think, all that time, it was incomplete.”
Jason didn’t respond. It was clear that Thanatos was mostly speaking to himself.
There was no furniture, other than a few chairs stacked in a corner with a sheet draped over them. Presumably, this was Nico’s mother’s room, but there were no personal items to indicate the previous resident. There wasn’t even a bed anymore.
Jason had learned about the ancient lands in school. He was familiar with the birthplaces of most of the gods. Zeus was from Crete. Apollo and Artemis had been born on Delos. Aphrodite had washed up on a beach in Cythera. If it was thousands of years ago, Nico’s house would have been a temple and a site of cult worship, too.
But it wasn’t thousands of years ago. Things had changed.
“Thanatos,” Jason said gently. “This is someone’s home. It’s Sunday morning; they’re probably just at church. We can’t get caught here or we’ll be arrested.”
“They wouldn’t arrest someone on sacred ground!” Thanatos said. “Has Hazel not been building Nico’s cult as she promised?”
Jason sighed. Thanatos was so out of touch that he didn’t even know where to start. Suddenly, Reyna whistled from downstairs, signaling that someone was approaching.
Jason opened the window and flew outside, beckoning for Thanatos to follow him. Reyna was being interrogated by an elderly Italian man who had pulled up on a boat. He was waving his cane at her threateningly, and mentioned the polizia, so Jason surmised that he was the occupant of Nico’s old house. Reyna was speaking in a jumbled mix of Spanish and Latin that kind of sounded like Italian, but also definitely wasn’t. Her poor attempts to communicate were only making the old man more agitated.
Jason flew down and grabbed her, flying away. They were really putting the mist to work that day, flying in front of people and traveling through the entire city with a winged god who was slightly too tall to be human. He really hoped this incident didn’t end with that old man self-diagnosing with dementia.
He brought Reyna back up to the Argo II, and Thanatos followed. On the deck of the ship, Piper and Leo were waiting for them.
“You three look… Wet?” Piper asked. “Don’t tell me you fell in the canal.”
Jason glared at Thanatos.
“This jerk made us fall in. Every human we meet, he antagonizes. He almost got Reyna arrested for breaking into Nico’s old house!”
“It’s not my fault no one acts the way I expect them to!” Thanatos said. “Mortals are very difficult creatures when they’re alive. As shades, they’re much easier. I can’t make sense of them.”
“You don’t need to be here with us making sense of them. We didn’t ask you to fill in,” Jason said. “When is Nico coming back?”
“Once he finds Cerberus. I don’t know when that will be,” Thanatos said, his feathers ruffling. “You know, I think I was wrong in my initial opinion of you, Jason Grace.”
“Oh, really?” Jason said.
“Yes, really. I watched you for copious amounts of time, and I never witnessed you speak to Nico with this type of snippy tone,” Thanatos said. “You always acted very sweet and docile for him. If I didn’t know better, I’d think you didn’t like me.”
“I don’t,” Jason said. “I was putting up with you for Nico’s sake. Also, since when have you been watching me?”
“I was also just putting up with you for Nico’s sake!” Thanatos said, pointing a long finger at Jason. “I’ve been watching you since the moment Nico told me you existed!”
Jason couldn’t remember being more humiliated. Actually he could, since his pregnancy scare had been worse. This was a close second, though.
He was distracted from the disturbing revelation by the arrival of Hazel and a big buff guy that looked like Frank, but different.
“What the fuck?” Leo said. “Frank, why are you roided out?”
“Gift from my dad,” Frank said. “We got the antidote!” Hazel looked up at her boyfriend, grinning like she’d just won the lottery.
At least someone was happy.
They were about to head on to Epirus when Thanatos dropped another revelation; the Necromanteion was populated with ghosts that Hazel would not be able to control with her own abilities. Unless Nico came back, they were out of luck.
Jason, naturally, questioned Thanatos about why he couldn’t handle the ghosts for them. Thanatos had just smirked at him. That was when he realized that emulating Percy’s style of dealing with gods was probably the stupidest thing he’d ever done. Thanatos was now refusing to help them.
Everyone knew that Jason had deliberately sabotaged the goodwill Thanatos had initially shown him, and he didn’t know how to explain why he’d done it, other than admitting that he was jealous and uncomfortable with the death god following him around and claiming to know him better than he had any right to.
He was determined to make up for his error in judgement, and he came up with a fairly decent plan. In Split, Croatia, the scepter of Diocletian was said to have the power to command the spirits of dead Romans. It was on the way to Greece, so they agreed to go get it, despite knowing it would be under strict guard.
He didn’t mention the new plan to Thanatos, worried he’d try to sabotage him if given the chance.
Split, Croatia was a city built beside the gemlike, cerulean waters of the Adriatic. The red-roofed buildings and cobblestone streets were marvelous, and Jason felt a building excitement grow in his chest. He’d determined to fetch the scepter alone. The Argo had been attacked on the journey there, and everyone else was needed to fetch material for repairs of the ship.
There was no sign of trouble, and he explored the palace of Diocletian at his leisure. Diocletian had been his brother, a fellow son of Jupiter, and he marveled at the place he’d built for his home. The gleaming marble floors and intact columns made it one of the best preserved Roman sites he’d ever seen, and an incredible feat of architecture. The large number of tourists surrounding him made him feel a bit safer. He had expected a monster or three, but for some reason everything was going well-- too well.
The mausoleum was in the back. He headed in that direction before being stopped by a cold hand grasping his collar.
“Stop right there,” Thanatos said. “We are not going in there.”
“We aren’t doing anything,” Jason said. “I’m going in there and getting that scepter.”
“I can’t protect you in there,” Thanatos said. “There’s someone here who I don’t want to see, and I can’t trust you alone with him.”
“Who? A monster?” Jason asked.
“Close,” Thanatos said. “My brother.”
Chapter 80: Crushed by Cupid
Notes:
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“Your brother?” Jason asked. “Who?”
Thanatos had grabbed his collar to stop him moving forward. His fingertips tickled the back of Jason’s neck like icicles, making him shiver.
“One I’m not speaking to at the moment,” Thanatos said, a warning note of vibrato in his voice. “One you had best avoid.”
Usually, Nico’s fingers were equally icy, but Jason felt like he ran a fever every time he was in Nico’s presence, so it worked out. Faced with Thanatos instead, his blood ran cold, and he couldn’t tolerate his touch. He shrugged Thanatos’ restraining hand off roughly.
A family walking past shot him strange looks. He probably looked like a young man wiggling around in the middle of the peristyle for no reason. Jason straightened his collar and tried not to look like a weirdo with ants in his pants, for the sake of the crowded room. The palace of Diocletian was packed with tourists, and he didn’t want to draw unnecessary attention to himself. It jeopardized his mission unnecessarily.
He scanned the room, searching for anyone who looked like they could be one of Thanatos’ brothers. He didn’t spot anyone obnoxiously tall with wings. It seemed like the usual tourist crowd of young people, hungover and sunburned, taking pictures and chugging water bottles in the early June heat.
“Let’s not waste any more time here,” Thanatos said haughtily. “Come. I will dispel the ghosts in the Necromanteion for you, if I must, so you can forget this silly quest of yours.”
Jason felt like his sneakers had suddenly become glued to the ground. He glared at Thanatos stubbornly.
“No,” he growled.
Instead of looking angry, Thanatos blinked at Jason in confusion.
“I’m offering my aid,” Thanatos insisted. “Does that not complete your quest?”
“I’m not accepting your aid. I’m not leaving without the scepter of Diocletian,” Jason said. “I wasn’t born yesterday. I’ve been heroing a long time.”
“A long time?” Thanatos said. “Maybe if you’re including your past lives in that statement.”
Jason ignored that remark.
“I don’t trust you, so I won’t let the success or failure of the quest rely on your goodwill. That’s proven to be a little hard to come by.”
“It’s not hard to come by! You’ve merely found it hard to keep hold of,” Thanatos said with frustration. “You aren’t being nice to me,” he added, pouting with thin, bluish lips. Jason found the expression distasteful to look at.
“I spent enough of my life catering to the whims of gods and getting nothing in return,” Jason said. “I make my own decisions now. I’m getting the scepter of Diocletian, and I’m handling the ghosts in the Necromanteion myself. Diocletian should be willing to lend it to me.”
“So you’re trusting him over me,” Thanatos sneered, viciously jealous. “A stranger.”
“He’s my brother, and a Roman leader, and a former demigod. So yeah, I do trust him over you,” Jason said. He hadn’t dealt with a lot of deified emperors personally, but they visited Camp Jupiter from time to time and he usually heard good things-- so long as they weren’t one of the crazy ones. Diocletian had not been crazy, so Jason was pretty sure he was good. “Also, I’m not banking totally on trust. I’ll do Diocletian a favor in exchange for the scepter. It’s still a more reliable strategy than listening to you.”
“And my brother? What about his interference?”
“Do you know for sure that he’s planning to interfere? Or does he just happen to be here right now? Because those are two different things,” Jason said.
Thanatos hesitated, which gave Jason his answer.
“That’s what I thought,” Jason said. “Well, this place is huge, and it’s packed right now. It can fit more than one god. I’m not gonna throw out a good plan just because your brother wanted to visit Split today.”
Before Thanatos could stop him, Jason started marching quickly towards the mausoleum. Thanatos followed behind him, beating his wings to keep up, but he seemed to be at a loss for what to do. Jason smirked to himself, observing that Thanatos didn’t seem inclined to use force to get what he wanted. Over the last few days, he’d gotten the impression the death god was a bit of a whiny pushover. Jason was safe to ignore him so long as he was under Nico’s auspice.
“You don’t realize what you’re doing,” Thanatos said, as Jason approached the door to the mausoleum. There were people gathered inside, and there was a short wait to get in, so Thanatos took his last opportunity to harass Jason while he waited in line. “I can’t let you go in there. He might seduce you away from Nico for his own amusement. I can’t allow that to happen on my watch!”
“I wouldn’t worry too much,” Jason said. “I’m not easy.” He figured if he could resist Piper, he was pretty sure he could resist-- Wait, which brother of Thanatos would want to seduce him? He racked his brain for who it could be, but he couldn’t remember the godly family tree he’d studied at Camp Jupiter.
“Jason,” A familiar voice called, carried on the wind.
Jason snapped his head around, looking for the source of the voice. That had been Nico’s voice calling him, he was sure of it. It had come from right behind him. But he saw no one there, only the same tourists who’d been walking around all afternoon.
The line moved, and it was his turn to go into the mausoleum. He’d have to look for Nico after he had the scepter. Jason stepped inside.
Thanatos hissed some more nasty things into his ear, but his whispers ceased as soon as Jason crossed the threshold. That was when he realized exactly what he’d just walked into.
Apparently, Diocletian’s mausoleum had been seized by Christians and turned into a cathedral. This was the first Catholic church Jason had ever been inside. He felt unsure of himself, like he wasn’t supposed to be there, but nothing bad happened as he stood in the doorway.
After a moment, someone came up behind him, forcing him to walk further in. He made an awkward circuit of the room, looking for any sign of a scepter or his brother’s tomb, but it was hard to believe Diocletian would want to be buried somewhere so monotheistic.
He shuffled to the back of a small tour group, trying to listen in a not-obvious way, hoping for some clues. Maybe Diocletian’s scepter would be mentioned.
He regretted staying and listening.
The guide began by detailing the horrific persecution Diocletian had visited upon Christians during his time as Roman emperor. Early in his reign, Diocletian had visited the Oracle of Apollo for advice, and the Oracle told him that the Christian religious movement, then still in its infancy, was hindering Apollo’s ability to prophesy. Horrified, Diocletian had immediately begun burning churches down and torturing Christians to death, using methods such as boiling them in oil.
Diocletian’s mausoleum, where they now stood, had initially been built in anticipation of Imperial cult worship. Diocletian had expected to be deified after his death, like the other emperors who had come before him. Instead, his successor Constantine had converted to Christianity. Diocletian’s memory had been vilified ever afterward. In his mausoleum were buried the Christians he’d martyred, while Diocletian’s remains had been disposed of long ago.
Jason ran out of the room. He didn’t want to hear any more lies about his brother, nor another word of anti-Roman propaganda. He regretted listening.
Thanatos was waiting for him on the steps outside.
“He wasn’t in there,” Jason said, stomping past him. “No body, no scepter, and no god.”
“No?” Thanatos asked, following Jason as he walked towards the Temple of Jupiter, a small building on the other side of the peristyle.
“Not as far as I’m concerned,” Jason muttered. He had a sick feeling in the pit of his gut thinking about what had happened to Diocletian. He’d been looking forward to an eternity of godhood after a lifetime of service to Rome. Was it possible he’d been robbed of his due thanks to the mass conversion of the people he’d once ruled? That just seemed unfair.
Jason was on auto-pilot. He needed a familiar space to get his head together, since he felt like his plan was unraveling too fast to re-ravel it. He stepped into the small room that had once been Diocletian’s personal temple to Jupiter, a space untouched by Catholics and empty of other tourists.
A bit of tension left his shoulders, and he breathed a sigh of relief. He turned to look at Thanatos, who had followed him in, and wondered whether he could come up with an alternative plan to find the scepter. If not, he’d have to accept Thanatos’ help after all, and eat some humble pie, and he really wasn’t hungry for any more of that right now.
It took him a second to realize that Thanatos was gone. In his place was someone terribly similar looking, who also happened to look completely different. Jason had been so deep in thought that he hadn’t even noticed.
The replacement Thanatos was staring at him expectantly, tapping his toe on the marble floor. He was roughly the same height and build as his brother, but everything about him felt warmer and more golden, like someone had stuck Thanatos in the toaster for five minutes. Or, conversely, Thanatos looked like his brother had died and spent time in a morgue freezer.
The new god smiled warmly at Jason, and Jason smiled back reflexively. He was already more at ease with this god than he was with Thanatos, although he knew that wasn’t really logical. He stood at a distance, his posture relaxed, and Jason didn’t feel threatened with imminent seduction.
“Eros,” Eros said, holding out his hand to shake. “A pleasure.”
“Jason,” Jason said, returning the greeting. The touch of his hand sent a jolt through Jason’s bones. It felt like a warm heat and a sparking electricity, like the first time he’d touched Nico. It was the kind of touch that made you go, ‘Oh, wow,’ while it brought a flush to your cheeks and heated your core. But Eros stepped back, and the sensation dissipated quickly with the distance between them once again.
Eros stared at Jason, his golden eyes glowing like two bright candles in the dim grey temple to Jupiter.
“You don’t know me,” Eros said, his voice dripping smooth as honey. “But I know you.”
“Oh,” Jason said awkwardly. “Really?” He didn’t relish hearing that. Thanatos had said something similar, and look where that had gotten him.
“You’re in love, aren’t you?” Eros grinned. “You must have known I had some involvement.”
Jason’s heart started to beat faster.
“Did you shoot me with an arrow?” Jason asked. Eros nodded.
Jason swallowed, his mouth going dry. He’d thought Cupid’s arrows were a metaphor. Did Eros go around making everyone fall in love? He hoped so, and that he wasn’t the only person stabbed with a pointy stick by a fat baby. Although he was neither fat nor a baby at the moment. That was just the image Jason was used to.
“You’re Thanatos’ brother?” Jason asked. “I thought you were--”
“The son of Venus? Common misconception,” Thanatos asked. “There are times when I wish that was true, but no. I’m a son of Nyx. Don’t worry about what Thanatos said. I’m not interested in seducing you,” Eros said, holding up his hand.
A long golden rod with the eagle of Jupiter on the tip materialized in his palm. Eros turned it upright and held it, banging the base on the marble floor with a clang that resounded for an unnaturally long time. The scepter sounded both hefty and powerful-- exactly what Jason was looking for.
“The power to command Roman souls. It’s all yours,” Eros said, passing the scepter to Jason.
Jason hesitated a moment before accepting it, sensing a caveat.
“There must be a price for your help,” Jason said, his palm closing against the warm metal. “There always is.”
“Not today,” Eros said, smiling. “You’ll pay my price without me needing to ask. All I want is for you to tell Nico about this.”
“You want me to tell Nico you gave me this scepter?” Jason asked. “Why?”
“I need a favor from him,” Eros shrugged, his long, semi-transparent white chiton shifting to reveal flawless golden muscle beneath. “He isn’t my biggest fan at the moment. I thought this might help change his mind about me.”
“You need a favor from Nico? What kind?”
Eros’ facial expression growing slightly pained.
“I have a problem. One that causes me a lot of pain and regret. Out of all the gods and mortals to walk the earth, Nico is the sole person with the ability to help me. I didn’t know that when we first met, and I left him with a bad first impression. I really need to get back into his good graces.”
“Why not talk to him yourself?” Jason asked.
“I can’t get near him,” Eros said. “I’m not permitted to enter the Underworld anymore. Anytime Nico is on the surface, he’s either with my brother, or he’s busy. There’s no good time to talk. My best chance is you, Jason Grace. Put in a good word for me.”
Jason looked down at the gleaming golden scepter in his hands. It fit his palms like it was made for him. He wondered if he and Diocletian had the same sized hands. He examined the eagle at the tip, its beak sharp enough to cut.
“I’ll give Nico your message,” Jason said, satisfied with their deal.
“Thank you,” Eros said. “How are you liking it? Your love affair?”
“I… Um…” Jason felt his cheeks heating up. “To be honest, it feels self-indulgent. And dangerous. And really poorly timed.”
“Right?” Eros grinned. “Isn’t it the best?”
“Yeah,” Jason admitted, laughing a little at himself. “It is. But I can’t help but wonder. Why did you shoot me? Was there a reason? Or were you just doing your job?”
“I did it for Nico,” Eros said. “His last relationship with a mortal ended badly. I wanted him to have a better experience this time around. He’ll be better for having loved you. He’ll have no regrets.”
“I was just part of your plan to get a favor from him,” Jason said. He felt the familiar shrinking sensation of being a pawn of the gods. Nothing new to him, but it still sucked every time.
“It’s a big favor,” Eros shrugged. “You may be one of many things I have to give him in order to earn it. We’ll see.”
Jason turned the scepter over in his hands. At least Nico wasn’t the one using him; that would have been hard to hear. It didn’t sound like Nico was aware of Eros’ involvement at all.
Thinking it over, he grew more comfortable with the idea that he’d been shot by Cupid’s arrow. It absolved him of his lingering small guilt that he was being a bad Roman or an irresponsible quest member by pursuing the relationship. Their love had been destined, out of their control-- and it was a good thing, according to Eros. It was meant to make them happy, and it had worked.
Jason would have preferred if the gods left him alone, but it seemed like it was his fate to have deities buzzing around him like mosquitos for the rest of his days. If that was how it had to be, he’d prefer that all the gods were as benevolent as Eros in their interference.
“Why me, though?” Jason asked. “Nico could have had anyone.”
“I have the ability to see people as they truly are,” Eros said, turning to the far wall of the temple. “And I’ve watched you for a long time. I was always hoping to give you a love story before it was too late. I was just waiting for the right one.”
On the flat concrete surface of the wall, images began to appear. Jason saw a flash of his own face peeking out from under a plumed legionary helmet, dwarfed by a set of armor far too large for his youthful frame. He saw himself in class next to Reyna, arguing with Dakota about the morality of letting him copy their Latin homework. He saw the day he became praetor, accepting his laurels with pride.
“You were a great hero, but you were lonely,” Eros said, empathy filling his voice. “You never got to have much fun. And you were running out of time.”
Jason’s eyes were glued to the visions on the wall. The image changed, and he saw himself standing on Temple Hill, looking up at Nico as he lurked behind a pillar in the shadows. He couldn’t help but smile seeing the moment of their first meeting. Nico had made such a terrible first impression. He liked to tease him about it sometimes.
“I found someone who could give you back a little time,” Eros said. “Someone young, with a rebellious streak. Someone you’d break rules for. The patron god you needed and deserved.”
A tiny flicker of gold shot across the wall, striking the image-Jason in the back. Something in his expression changed; he looked at Nico differently afterward.
It had never occurred to Jason that he’d been struck by Cupid’s arrow that night. His feelings had been so subtle at first before they started to build to something real. He must have gotten a slow release arrow.
“When did you shoot Nico?” Jason asked.
“Didn’t have to,” Eros said, looking up at the image of Nico admiringly. “It happened on its own. He loves easily.”
Jason’s stomach lurched. Did that mean he loved Nico more than Nico loved him? He couldn’t un-shoot himself with the arrow, but suddenly he wished he’d been able to fall in love on his own, too. Maybe it was irrational, but it scared him to think there was anything different about the origins of their feelings.
“Don’t worry. It’s not what you think,” Eros said, patting Jason’s back reassuringly. “Trust me, you don’t want to know what gods act like when they get hit with one of these. I spared you serious trouble by only hitting one of you.” He held up one of his golden arrows for Jason to inspect.
It radiated an intense aura of power, one of the strongest Jason had ever encountered. It made the scepter feel like a plastic movie prop in comparison. He wanted to move away from it instinctively, even though he’d already been hit with one and hadn’t even noticed at the time.
Staring down at the arrow, Jason couldn’t help remembering what happened to Aura, to Nicaea, and to Daphne, all thanks to Eros using his arrows for evil.
He was reminded of a truth he’d learned over and over again the hard way. Gods could be nice, but they were never good. Expecting them to have human morals was like expecting a dog to feel sorry for eating a sandwich you’d left unattended. They might tuck their tail between their legs and look ashamed for a minute, but given the chance, they’d do it again.
He couldn’t change the past. He didn’t even know when he’d be able to see Nico again, so he decided to quit worrying and focus on the matter at hand. The arrow had been a reality check that he still needed to keep his guard up with Eros. He needed to get more information out of him while he had him on his best behavior.
“What’s the favor you need?” Jason asked.
Eros smiled, and said nothing.
“What did you do to make Nico dislike you?” Jason asked, pressing harder.
Again, just a smile. It was an extremely handsome smile, but it didn’t give anything away.
“Why does Thanatos hate you so much?”
“Family issues,” Eros shrugged. “Are we done here, Jason Grace?”
Jason nodded, seeing that the question about Thanatos had touched a nerve. He wouldn’t push further. It was probably better not to know. Also, it felt good to have a god waiting around for his permission to leave. Having Nico on his side apparently meant that Eros and Thanatos were both vying for his favor, at least a little. He was very intrigued by that, and planned on asking Nico about his relationship to the eldests sons of Nyx when they met again. Hopefully that would be soon.
“One last thing,” Jason said, wanting to milk this opportunity. He knew he was being a bit greedy, but he went for it anyway. “I want some love advice after all. Or any advice, I guess. The best you’ve got.”
Eros ran his hand through his hair, thinking it over.
“You have a choice ahead,” he said finally. “The hardest and the last choice you’ll ever have to make. Remember the story of me and my wife. Not just what happened, but why it happened. Remember the meaning.”
All Jason could recall was something about Psyche spilling oil on Eros while he slept. He’d have to re-read it.
“What do you mean, the last choice I’ll ever make?” Jason asked.
“You only have sixty days left to live,” Eros said, raising his eyebrows. “He didn’t tell you?”
The first thing Jason thought was, ‘Well, that’s what I get for being greedy.’
The second thing he thought was just incoherent mental screaming.
If Eros said goodbye, Jason didn’t hear him. He only vaguely noticed him leave with the unfolding of wings.
Alone, he stood in the Temple of Jupiter, unmoving. It felt like a bucket of ice water had been dumped over his head.
Sixty days. August first. He was going to die in two months.
What the fuck was he supposed to do with that information?
After Eros had been gone for a few minutes-- although it could have been a few hours, for all that Jason knew-- Thanatos came back. He flapped around and made a few remarks about how Jason looked freaked out and that he’d known Eros would break his brain, and he better have kept his pants on.
Jason muttered a few words in response, ones that he was barely aware of saying, in an act of desperation to get Thanatos to shut up. Everything about Thanatos was repulsive to him now. The hairs of his arms and legs stood up every time he drew near. Thanatos must have known all along. Did he fantasize about taking Jason’s soul to the Underworld? Was he looking forward to it? The sick bastard...
Thanatos brought him back to the Argo II, although Jason didn’t ask him to. The deck was deserted. Jason took a deep, shaky breath.
“Don’t talk to me,” he told Thanatos, without looking directly at him. “I never want to see you again.”
“I have to keep watching over you,” Thanatos said. “For Nico’s sake--”
“Don’t talk about him!” Jason shouted. “I don’t want to see you! Get out of here!”
Thanatos disappeared. He was undoubtedly still standing exactly where he’d been before, only invisible. It was better than nothing, though.
Jason stood on the bow of the ship and stared out ahead. Clouds drifted by on weak gusts of wind, drifting and floating in the air like wet cotton. A stronger gust ruffled his short hair. He was growing it out. He should have started earlier. Now he’d never see it much longer than it already was.
He’d never get his life back. He’d never take the classes he’d signed up for. Fall semester would come too late. He’d really been looking forward to taking ‘Roman Poetry 101’ with Dakota. Now neither of them would be in their seats when fall semester started.
What would he do with the stuff in his apartment? Would Reyna want any of his furniture? It was mostly Ikea, cheap and disposable. Maybe she’d leave it on the curb for the NRU freshman to pick through like jackals, stocking their dorm rooms with lightly used budget decor. Maybe someone else would sit on his couch and watch reruns of The Office. They’d never know that he and Nico had once sat on that couch and listened to an entire Taylor Swift album without talking once.
He’d barely even gotten to sit at his kitchen table; he always ate on the couch. He wished, just once, he’d had people over and served a meal on the table like a real adult. When he’d first rented his apartment, he’d bought a cookbook, and he planned on learning to make a few dishes and treating Reyna to steak one night. Octavian’s mom made a killer potato salad, and he still had her recipe taped to his fridge. He’d never get to make it now.
He didn’t have a bucket list. He’d never thought about it. He’d have to make one, but it seemed pointless. He was trapped here on this stupid flying ship, on this stupid quest, and he saw the whole situation clearly now for what it was. He was marching slowly into the jaws of death, creeping closer every day. August first was when Gaea would resurrect. She would surely be the one to kill him. He’d die fighting for the gods, sacrificed on their altar. He’d die as he’d lived, coming full circle. No wonder his mother’s ghost had felt so guilty. He’d been born to die.
“Thanatos?” He asked quietly.
“Feel like talking now? Hmph,” Thanatos said, appearing at the railing beside him.
Jason looked up at his profile, cold and austere and a little alien.
“Am I destined to die on August 1st?”
“Yes,” Thanatos said, raising his eyebrows, which were near-identical to his brother’s. “I didn’t realize you knew.”
“Eros told me.”
Thanatos glared out at the horizon, those perfect brows turning into a dramatic V-shape on his forehead. The sun was setting on Croatia. It was a beautiful sight, but it made Jason’s heart feel like it was breaking in his chest. How could he only have sixty more sunsets to look forward to? If he’d known, he’d have been out watching them every night.
“Nico will be furious,” Thanatos sighed. “He wanted you to hear it from him.”
“He’s always known,” Jason said, knowing it had to be true. Hazel had told him ages ago that he didn’t have a long life to look forward to, so she probably knew.
In his own way, Jason had known, too. He’d never expected to grow old. He’d accepted that he might die fighting Gaea, but knowing it was a sure thing was harder to bear than knowing there was merely a chance.
“Yes,” Thanatos said. “That’s why Nico was desperate to get to know you so quickly. He hated that you had so little time to spend together.”
Jason hated that, too. He hated all of it. There was nothing okay about this, nothing redeemable about the situation. Dying at twenty just wasn’t something that should happen to anybody, ever. It left too much life unlived.
He clenched his fists. Tears were streaming down his face, and he was helpless to stop them. They fell one by one onto the deck, leaving dark circles on the wood surface.
“It’s nothing to fuss about,” Thanatos clucked. “It happens to everyone. It’s very normal.”
“It’s not normal to die at twenty,” Jason said through gritted teeth.
“For warriors, it is,” Thanatos said, flashing him a pitiless glance with his glowing eyes. They looked like the sun. “It’s better than most, actually. Surely you didn’t anticipate living to old age? Was that ever likely, with your lifestyle?”
“I hate you so much,” Jason growled.
Thanatos rolled his eyes. Jason almost punched him.
“Nico will ensure you receive white glove treatment in the Underworld,” Thanatos said. “You’ll have the red carpet rolled out for you. Just don’t count on moving in with us. We don’t have room.”
“You live together?” Jason asked, briefly jerked out of his reverie.
“Well, technically not at the moment,” Thanatos said, scratching at one of his wing feathers. “But eventually we’ll make it official. When that happens, don’t even think about asking to join. I don’t care how much you beg, I won’t have you cluttering up my personal space.”
Jason was reeling. It felt like he was seeing the world through a fishbowl, like this was a terrible dream he might still wake up from. He tried to focus on what Thanatos had said, because he’d heard some reassuring points made. Nico would take care of him. They could stay together. That was enough to hold onto, for the moment.
How the heck did people cope with death when they didn’t know exactly what the afterlife was like? At least Jason had some connections.
He stumbled into his cabin, walking like he was drunk. Unfortunately, he was coping with this news sober. He hoped he could rectify that soon, since he felt the situation called for a little liquid courage. Reyna was sitting on his bed waiting for him to get back. His heart broke upon seeing her grin of excitement. There was no question; he was telling his bestie everything. But he hated thinking about how much it was going to hurt her when he did.
“The scepter!” She said, seeing him returning with prize in hand. “You got it!”
He flung the scepter onto the ground and took a step towards Reyna. He grabbed her by the shoulders, holding her firmly in front of him.
“Reyna,” he said, staring into her eyes. “Will you run away with me?”
She stared at him in shock for a moment, inspecting his face, taking in his expression. He probably looked insane, but he felt totally justified in being a crazy person at the moment. There was no other way to feel about the situation.
For a moment, her dark brow furrowed in confusion, but that only lasted a second before she smiled at him.
“Absolutely. Where to?”
…
“We’re so dead,” Hazel moaned, staring at the ceiling of her cabin.
“I thought you said you’d live to be an old woman,” Frank said. He was sitting at the foot of her bed, giving her a footrub. His hands were extra strong now thanks to his dad’s gift. Hazel was pretty sure Mars hadn’t intended his blessing to be used mainly for Hazel’s benefit, but so far, that was how it had worked out.
That was fine by her. She needed a win. Annabeth was presumed dead in Tartarus, Percy was in New York, Nico was AWOL and now, Jason and Reyna had disappeared. She, Frank, Leo, and Piper had searched everywhere for them, but they’d just left the Scepter of Diocletian on Jason’s bed with a note that said, ‘gone snorkeling’. It wasn’t the first time Jason had taken a leave of absence from his responsibilities, but the timing was terrible. They’d foolishly held up the Argo II outside of Split, Croatia for two days before Thanatos had informed them that Jason and Reyna had no immediate plans to return.
They were going to have to find their own transportation to Epirus, if they even planned on coming, because Hazel was out of time. She ordered Leo to head to Greece, full steam ahead. They’d have to make do with the demigods they still had.
“I will live to be an old woman,” she told Frank, answering his earlier question. “But nobody said I’d have all my limbs. I might be a paraplegic old woman with a brain injury. I can still get screwed over by fate, just like everyone else.”
“You said dead, though,” Frank said, setting her foot down. He laid down on her bed next to her, taking up way more than his fair share of room and tilting the mattress down on his side. She made a mental note that if they were ever to move in together, they’d need a California King.
She certainly hoped they’d both live long enough to do that someday.
“You know me,” she said, trying to sound lighthearted. “Dead stuff is all I think about. I was once a dead stuff myself. Don’t take it to heart.”
“Hard not to,” Frank muttered. “I was talking about the prophecy with Piper yesterday. ‘To storm or fire the world must fall?’ Piper thinks that’s referring to Jason and Leo, fighting Gaea. Percy’s gone, so it can’t be him anymore. Without Jason, that leaves defeating Gaea up to Leo.”
“That’s what it sounds like,” Hazel agreed.
“It doesn’t make sense, though,” Frank said. “You’re the strongest. I like to think I’m the next runner up, since all the stronger guys are gone. Leo’s not weak, but… I don’t see it.”
“His fire abilities are strong,” Hazel said. “But mentally? I don’t think he has it in him to die for the quest. And that might be what it takes to stop her.”
“I agree,” Frank said. “I think children of Mars are born without that gene that tells you to run away from danger. I move toward it before I’ve had time to think. If you look at it that way, it ought to be me landing the final blow. We can’t afford any mistakes at this point. We’re too weak,” he said bitterly, as though weak was the worst thing you could be.
“Why, Frank Zhang,” Hazel said, “Don’t tell me you’re trying to talk your way into top billing on my quest! Does the idea of going out in a blaze of glory appeal to you?”
“More now than it used to,” Frank admitted. “My dad’s gift is messing with my head, maybe.”
“That’s fine by me. I like my boys a little suicidal,” Hazel shrugged. “Is that weird?”
“I like my girls weird,” Frank said, smiling.
Hazel thrilled a little at how lucky she was to have found him, right at the time in her life when she needed someone the most. Frank was her best friend first and her boyfriend second-- two awesome things in one buff package. She hoped very much that she’d get to keep him for a good long time. His death aura seemed to indicate an average lifespan, but you could never be too sure with auras.
“I’ve been thinking about my prophecy, if you want to call it that,” Hazel said. “My curse of Achilles.”
“Your gift of Achilles,” Frank corrected her. She knew he was a little jealous of it, and he always tried to encourage her to use it as much as possible to ‘kick monster ass,’ as he put it.
“My gift and curse,” she conceded. “People with the gift of Achilles have a choice. We either die heroically, and get remembered forever--”
“Or you live a long life and no one remembers your name,” Frank said. “Are you sure that’s a real thing?”
“Positive. I’m sure it applies to me. But I don’t have any particular desire to be remembered. Is that bad?”
“It’s unheroic,” Frank said. “And cowardly. But I want you to live, so I’m biased. I think it’s cool if you want to be forgotten.”
“I know what it’s like to die young, in an act of heroic sacrifice,” Hazel said in her own defense. “Been there, done that.”
“Yeah. No one should have to go through that multiple times unless they’re trying to earn a place in the Isles of the Blessed.”
“Three heroic lifetimes,” Hazel said, thinking about the kind of personality you’d have to have in order to pull that off. “That basically means three short, miserable lives where you throw yourself at monsters in the service of the gods, over and over and over. And you have to be really good at it every time.”
“It’s a huge expectation to put on someone,” Frank said. “Are the Isles worth it?”
“I think so,” she said. “I never saw them myself, since I ended up in the cheap seats.”
“The economy plus of the Underworld?”
“If Asphodel is coach, and Elysium is first class, the Isles of the Blessed are like a private plane. It’s better, but it’s not something achievable for most people, so it’s not worth thinking about.” She tried to picture what could be better than Elysium, and found it hard to come up with anything. Elysium seemed like paradise enough for anyone.
“I’m not interested in the Isles of the Blessed,” she said. “I’m sure any past lives I had weren’t interested either. Have you thought about what afterlife you want?”
“A little,” Frank said. “In my past lives, I probably wasn’t a son of Mars, right?”
“You probably weren’t even a demigod,” Hazel said. “The ‘heroic lives’ requirement for the Isles of the Blessed includes mortal heroism, too.”
“Well, I don’t think I’d be very heroic if I wasn’t a demigod. I’d probably be an accountant or something. If I die, I don’t think I’ll choose rebirth. If I’m heroic enough in this lifetime to go to Elysium, that’s cool with me.”
Hazel smiled.
“Your mom will be happy to see you again,” she said.
“I hope I make her proud,” Frank said, slipping his hand into Hazel’s.
“You will,” she said.
The ship lurched suddenly. She and Frank sat up and listening for a moment, hearing voices shouting. They ran out to the deck.
They made it just in time to see Leo launched off the Argo II, shot off into the stratosphere in a wind tunnel. Piper was using Charmspeak to fight two wind spirits and a dark haired goddess who was chucking icicles at her.
“We need to back her up,” Frank yelled unnecessarily. They both knew what they needed to do. They ran over to Piper and faced down the three intruders alongside her.
“Chione! Where did you take Leo?” Piper demanded. Hazel recognized the name as a snow goddess Piper, Jason, and Leo had faced before in Quebec.
“Somewhere he’ll never come back from,” Chione replied, her voice as icy as the deck after her magic overtook it. Tendrils of ice crept toward Hazel, and she stepped back to keep her footing.
If they were being attacked by an ice goddess, their godly protector must have left them. Hazel couldn’t help but feel a sharp sting of jealousy. Thanatos had probably followed Jason on his snorkeling trip. Had that been Nico’s wish? That he watch over Jason and not the whole crew? It was hard not to be offended when you knew that gods could be in more than one place at once. If they weren’t around, it was because they just didn’t feel like hanging out with you.
Piper seemed like she was handling things decently on her own, but Hazel stepped up to face Chione down herself. She was the strongest. She was the leader. She could take on the minor goddess of snow. There was nothing Hazel hated more than snow. It reminded her of Alaska, of the cruel, cold place she’d spent her last few months of life before Gaea had killed her and her mother. At night in their cabin, she used to shiver under her thin sheets and weep thinking about the humid blanket of heat that she used to take for granted in New Orleans. She was not a cold weather gal.
Hazel drew her Stygian iron knives and shadow traveled right next to Chione, face to face. She didn’t feel like being creative with her fighting the way Nico had drilled into her. She felt like smashing someone’s face in. The only way the fates could make amends for the bullshit she’d been through lately was to let her put a really good beatdown on somebody who deserved it.
She cloaked her knives in steel, not intending to permanently destroy Chione that day, though she didn’t think it was a terrible idea. Nico had taught her not to do that, and she would keep her word to him, even when it felt like he had abandoned her. She swiped at Chione over and over, moving as fast as possible, turning invisible and shadow traveling when necessary to avoid Chione’s blows. She knew she was unstoppable, terrifying, a ghostly, ethereal death-bringer, impossible to avoid. She was Nico’s student, his little sister, his miracle. She would make him proud, even if he wasn’t around and she felt a little resentful about it.
When Chione and her minions fled in humiliated defeat, vowing revenge in unconvincing shrieks thrown over their shoulders, Hazel found herself disappointed. She’d barely gotten to use the gift of Achilles, and she had just been starting to enjoy herself. She sheathed her knives, wiping snow off them.
“You know, if I ever piss you off,” Frank said, staring at her admiringly, “Know that it was not on purpose. Okay?”
“Okay,” Hazel sighed, letting him high five her. Piper gave her a grateful nod, but she looked shell-shocked and hollowed out.
“They took Leo somewhere,” she said. “I… I have no idea where. He’s gone.”
Hazel and Frank followed her gaze, looking out over the horizon. All they saw was miles of glittering blue sea, dotted with small islands.
“To storm or fire, the world must fall,” Frank recited. “That’s not us, guys. Jason, Percy, or Leo-- One of them has to come back.”
“I’ll Iris message Camp Half Blood,” Piper said. “I think Percy will book a flight. He’s had some time.”
“He won’t even think about coming back until we’ve gone to Epirus and closed the Doors of Death,” Frank said. “I doubt he wants to be there when we confirm Annabeth is dead. And I’m sure he won’t want to see her if she’s alive, considering what happened between them.”
Piper shook her head.
“He still loves her,” she said, looking up at Hazel and Frank. “Even if he hates her, too. Alive or dead, he’ll want to be there for her. I think odds are good that he’ll be in Epirus before we even get there.”
“No freaking way,” Frank said. “The poor dude’s heart was shattered!”
“I didn’t say he’d be in a good mood,” Piper said. “But he’ll be there. I just know.”
She went over to the supply closet and grabbed a broom, and started sweeping snow and shards of ice off the deck. She looked miserable. Hazel wondered how much the emotional state of the crew had been burdening Piper. It seemed like everyone had either had a breakdown, was on the verge of one, or had already quit. They were down to three from their original seven, and it felt like a skeleton crew.
“I know how to work the ship,” Piper said. “Sort of. I’ve watched Leo a lot. I think I can manage to get us moving in the right direction.”
“Thanks, Piper,” Hazel said. Her voice surprised her; it sounded even more tired than she felt. Maybe she was closer to her breaking point than she’d realized. Not seeing Nico, not having any news from him-- it ate away at her, little by little, eroding the faith that had sustained her thus far.
“One last thing, guys?” Piper asked. “The last part of the prophecy says, ‘an oath to keep with a final breath’. Did anyone make any oaths?”
“Uh,” Frank scratched his head. “I don’t think so. Hazel?”
“No,” she said, her eyelids growing heavy. “I didn’t.”
“Me neither,” Piper said. “Okay. You guys go get some rest. I’ll handle things out here.”
Frank held the door for Hazel as she went back inside. She glanced over her shoulder before she went in, and saw Piper trying to hide the fact that she was crying.
Notes:
I'm sorry this is way late! I went on vacation for a week and got sick right after i came back. It's taken a while to get back to my normal routine. Hope you like the chapter-- next time will be Nico and Annabeth's adventure in Tartarus!
Chapter 81: Tartarus Straight Up Sucks: The Sequel
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Annabeth’s eyes were crusted shut. The toxic air of Tartarus irritated every exposed membrane on her body. Her nose bled, her eyes wept pus, and her throat was raw from breathing the poisonous fumes. She’d recently started coughing up blood, which was not ideal.
After a long fall and way too much time alone with her thoughts, she’d splashed into a pool of brown, fetid liquid. She hoped it was water, but it probably wasn’t. After crawling out of the muck, she barely managed to make it a few feet before her body gave out. Her legs collapsed beneath her. She lay on the ground, helpless, and waited for her organs to start failing.
As her body slowly shut down, she held the image of Percy’s face in her mind. She’d betrayed him, destroyed him, and broken his heart, but she still loved him more than anything in the world. She wanted her last thoughts to be of him smiling, holding her hand, kissing her, back when they had been happy. She wanted to die remembering how it had felt to be in love with the greatest hero she’d ever known. She murmured his name quietly to herself until she didn’t have the oxygen any longer.
She scrunched her eyes more tightly closed. She was trying to focus on Percy, but something felt like it was lightly pinching the tip of her nose. Was it some trick of Tartarus? Maybe there were biting monster rats or stinging insects down there. She wanted to bat it away, whatever it was, but moving her arms was an impossible feat at the moment. She tried to ignore it.
“Annabeth!” A familiar voice said.
She forced her reluctant eyes open. Her eyelids made a gross, crispy sound when she pulled them apart.
In front of her stood a skeletal kitten. It leaned over and bit her on the nose with sharp, tiny teeth.
“Don’t die, please,” the kitten said. “That would be really inconvenient.”
She knew the voice, but her brain was too foggy to place it. She couldn’t move her head. Before she could figure it out, the kitten shoved its head into her mouth, which felt extremely violating when she couldn’t fight back. The kitten earned immediate forgiveness when it deposited a piece of ambrosia onto her tongue.
Immediately, the magic tablet began to work. She felt sensation returning, which initially made her feel worse. She’d been growing numb as death approached. Now she could feel every inch of her body as it ached and bled and chafed in the hostile environment of Tartarus.
She choked out a weak, sobbing noise. That was the only reaction she had the energy for. It took a few long, painful minutes before the ambrosia restored her to functionality. Even then, it was only sufficient to help her sit up, and even that was agony.
She slumped over on the ground, held up by one elbow, struggling to breathe.
“Feeling better?” The cat asked. “Great. Well, you might be wondering why I’m a cat right now.”
She recognized the voice.
“I’m not,” she said, her voice sounding like an old woman who’d smoked for fifty years.
The cat stared at her for a moment. She knew it was Nico, and she had no idea why he was there, but her brain was yelling ‘OUCH’ at the moment. He could remain a mystery for a bit longer.
“You’re not even curious why I’m--”
“No,” Annabeth said. She held out her hand limply, and he spit more ambrosia into her palm. She popped it into her mouth and chewed. Finally, a little relief began to make itself known, like a warm blanket was spreading over her body from the inside. It was a thin blanket, with holes, but it was a lot better than nothing. Her mind started to clear.
“Every time I think I’m finally going to die,” she said, cautiously taking a deep breath. “Some deus ex machina saves me. Why me?”
Through some strange, divine magic, Nico managed to convey a smirk through the expressionless skull of a cat.
“Don’t act like you don’t know,” he said dismissively. “Come on. We need to get you to the Phlegethon. I can’t keep making you ambrosia.”
It took every ounce of strength she had to get to a standing position. And it took more strength than that to put one foot in front of the other and start walking towards the burning river of fire in the distance. She’d have given anything to have another shoulder to lean on, someone to help her stay standing, but Nico trotted ahead of her, swishing his bony tail like he was strolling through a park. She wanted to be angry, but his kitten form was kind of cute.
Halfway there, she collapsed again, straining to take in air. Every second, her lungs were being destroyed, cell by cell. To breathe, she had to suck in tiny pieces of Tartarus. Tartarus was not compatible with the human organism. Her divine blood did little to help.
Nico made her more ambrosia, but one piece wasn’t enough. He sighed, making another with reluctance.
“It takes a lot out of me to retain this form,” he explained, cocking his bony little skull head to look at her. “Being down here isn’t easy. Tartarus is painful for gods, too. Making ambrosia is much more exhausting than it normally would be.”
She shot him the most evil glare she had.
“Thank you for your service,” she growled.
“How did you end up down here?” He asked.
“Fell,” she replied.
“Did you find the Athena Parthenos?”
“Yes,” she said. “You don’t know anything that’s happened?”
“No,” he said. “I’ve been busy. I had to go to Eurovision. Then I came down here to help my dad look for Cerberus.”
Annabeth stared into the distance, trying to resist the temptation to bring her fist down and crack Nico’s small skull.
“Eurovision,” she asked, watching expressionlessly as a monster a few hundred yards away struggled to climb out of a blister on the pockmarked surface of Tartarus. “Like the concert?”
“Yeah,” Nico said, watching the monster along with her. It was some kind of lizard creature. It began shuffling in the direction of the Doors of Death, ready to return to the surface to kill some demigods.
“You ditched the Seven right before we arrived in Rome. The most dangerous place on the planet for demigods, other than Athens,” she said. “To attend a cheesy singing contest?”
“I have a life outside of you guys,” Nico said, hunching his spine defensively.
For a second, Annabeth was furious with him. His presence could have made everything easier. He might have been able to save her from falling. He might have prevented Percy from reading that note. But Annabeth checked herself before her thoughts went too far down that path. It was easy to blame other people. But she’d written her confession note to Percy completely of her own accord. She’d fallen because she’d let her guard down after she thought the danger was over.
It was never over. She should have known better.
She walked the rest of the way to the Phlegethon without wasting another word. Nico stalked back and forth along the bank as she drank the fiery water from her hands. It burned like bleach on the way down, but it made her feel better. The effect was subtler than ambrosia, but it seemed like it might last longer.
Nico made her a water bottle that she filled from the river. She’d be okay for a while, but long term, she was still in danger of dying without constant support from him.
“We need to go,” Nico said suddenly. “There’s empousai coming this way. I don’t want to have to change forms to fight them for you.”
She followed him over a ridge, where they hid and watched some familiar empousai walk past, arguing among themselves.
“Alright, I’ll bite,” she said, inspecting her braids while they waited for the danger to pass. They were looking much the worse for wear after her trials over the last few days, and smelled like the dirty water she’d fallen into. She considered an impromptu haircut, but thought better of it. Long braids didn’t make Tartarus harder, they were just the only thing she could control at the moment. “Why are you a cat?”
“My dad thinks Kronos can see me down here,” Nico said. “He doesn’t want him to know about me. Between us, though, it’s too late. It’s not my first visit. I didn’t know to hide last time.”
“Kronos won’t regain consciousness for another century,” Annabeth said, repeating something her mother had assured her of many times. “Hades is being paranoid and irrational.”
“He has his reasons,” Nico said.
“No he doesn’t,” Annabeth said. “You shouldn’t obey illogical orders. We have to close the Doors of Death in order to defeat Gaea. If you were in your normal form, we might have a shot at actually doing it.”
“Hate to break it to you,” Nico said, emerging from behind the rock. The empousai were gone, and they were free to proceed. He began trotting back toward the Doors, following the path the vampire women had taken. “We don’t have a shot either way. The doors are extremely well guarded. I saw at least two giants.”
Annabeth had scrambled up to follow him, but at that news, she stopped walking.
“If that’s true, then why are we going?” She said.
“It seems like that’s what the Fates want us to do,” Nico said, turning back to look at her. “You seemed fine with it earlier.”
“My brain wasn’t working earlier,” Annabeth said, nearly tripping over a monster that was still percolating under a small mound of earth. Its bright yellow eyes followed her through a membranous film, and she shuddered. “I think it’s time for a plan.”
“You plan, and the Fates laugh,” Nico said. “There’s no thinking our way out of this. Even you couldn’t plan your way around the number of monsters we’d have to fight our way through. We just need to wait on your next deus ex machina. Since your first one wasn’t sufficient.”
“Just because random assistance usually comes to me at the last minute, doesn’t mean I expect it,” Annabeth said. “Smart demigods know that the gods help those who help themselves. Heroes that rely on miracles don’t usually get them.”
“You’re wrong,” Nico said. “Cynical types that pray as a last resort don’t get help. But real devotion is rewarded.”
“Not always,” Annabeth said.
“Yes, always,” Nico insisted. “It just happens after you’re dead. You don’t see what I see.”
That shut Annabeth up for a minute, because she didn’t have enough information to argue with his assertion. After a moment, she just muttered, “I still think it would be easier if you weren’t a cat.”
They turned a corner, circling a stony ridge that stood in between them and the Doors. There was a large dark cloud in the distance, jet black and impenetrable, hovering above the ground and blocking their path. It looked alive, moving and shifting unpredictably. Something about it seemed conscious. Annabeth felt the hair on her arms stand on end, and wondered whether she was looking at dark magic or some sort of monster.
“What is that?” Annabeth asked, squinting in an effort to see what lay beyond the barrier of darkness.
“I don’t know. It didn’t affect me when I was there earlier,” Nico said. “It’ll be fine.”
“That’s not enough information. It could kill me,” she muttered. “Or alert Gaea to our approach. We need to re-evaluate.”
They both stared at the cloud, attempting to figure out what it was. They must have been thinking a little too hard, because they didn’t notice what lay right beneath their feet.
It began with a soft tearing noise, like wet paper being ripped in half. Annabeth glanced down and saw two bright points of light staring straight back at her through a thin red membrane.
“Nico,” she said, pointing. “That’s a titan.”
“Really?” Nico said, looking down and inspecting it. It was an enormous ten foot tall titan with bulging muscles and a malevolent look on his face, sealed beneath the fleshy surface of the underworld. He’d poked a finger through his covering and was wiggling it in the air. His finger alone was the size of a hot dog.
“We should go,” Annabeth said.
“You don’t even want to talk to him?” Nico asked. “Maybe he can help.”
“Nico, that’s Hyperion, the titan of the East,” she said. “Percy once summoned a hurricane in order to defeat him. We need to get going before he--”
She didn’t have time to finish her sentence before Hyperion punched his arm through the surface of the weird goo-blister he was trapped in. Annabeth and Nico both screamed and made a break for it.
Fortunately, Hyperion was a little slow getting extricated from the sticky, clotted goo, and they had a head start. Unfortunately, he gained on them quickly, because he was a lot faster than the two of them.
Nico jumped onto Annabeth’s shoulders, and the world disappeared. In an instant, they were transported to a swamp.
It was oddly quiet. On the earth’s surface, swamps were hubs of life and death, sites of constant regeneration. Frogs chirped, birds sang, and plants grew on every surface available.
Not so in Tartarus. The silence emphasized the desolation of the place. Broken and twisted trees surrounded a mud pit. Everything smelled like rot and mold. On one side, a cabin had been constructed. There were daffodils planted just outside the door, struggling to stay alive.
Annabeth collapsed onto the, ground coughing and hacking like her lungs were about to fall out of her mouth. Running had not been a good idea. Her head was spinning and she could barely breathe.
“Uh oh,” Nico said. She looked up and saw that they hadn’t come very far. Though Hyperion was a mere speck in the distance, he’d make it eventually. “I meant to get us further away. Tartarus is hard to maneuver in.”
Annabeth just grunted, her knees sinking in the mud.
“I can’t move,” she said.
“Shadow travel was probably too much for you,” Nico said. “I think you need to rest. You’ve had too much ambrosia; I can’t give you more. There’s a house over there. I’m gonna ask for help.”
“Is that wise?” She asked weakly. “What’s the likelihood the occupant’s friendly?”
“I’m a diplomat, remember?” Nico asked. “I got this.”
He padded up to the house and jumped onto the windowsill, crawling through a hole in the window. Annabeth sat alone in the mud and watched Hyperion get closer to the swamp with each ragged breath she took. He was still a ways off, but they’d need to face him eventually. She couldn’t outpace him with her decreased stamina, and shadow traveling again would surely kill her. She calculated his arrival in less than forty five minutes.
She waited, either for Nico to emerge with help, or for the house to explode. Based on past experience, those seemed like the most likely outcomes.
Neither happened. Instead, she heard a noise behind her. It sounded like something was pulling itself out of the mud with wet, slick, gloopy sounds.
Mentally, she was at a point where she didn’t even want to turn around to look. Part of her thought, go ahead, make my day. But she turned her head anyway, and saw that a massive, scaly drakon was slithering toward her. It was stalking clumsily, one step at a time, closing in with the quiet creep of a predator.
Tartarus sucked. She’d already known that, but it seemed to get more true every second she was stuck there.
The drakon wiggled its butt a little and then launched itself at her. Again, there was a part of Annabeth that wanted to get death over with, but a little voice in her head said, not today. She hated that little voice. It was the cause of all her suffering. Giving up would have been so much easier.
She rolled out of the way, a movement she only pulled off through sheer muscle memory.
Every battle, every sparring match, and every monster she’d ever fought had prepared her for this moment. Her brain shut off, and her body moved. Every snap of the drakon’s scaly, toothy jaws closed on air. It wasn’t her first fight with a drakon, and it wasn’t her first fight in mud, and it was far from her first fight where she’d felt dead on her feet before she started. Every time death came for her, she beat it into submission. Against all odds, she’d leveled up again.
Tartarus was the hardest environment she’d fought in to date. Her body was in extremely poor condition, so her mind had to work overtime to compensate. She didn’t have elemental abilities like Percy and Hazel, so her wits and skills always had to take their place.
The drakon was a lot faster in the mud than she was. She couldn’t count on help arriving, since Nico was inside the house speaking to whoever was inside. She could only assume that they’d been hostile, and he was dealing with something that meant he couldn’t come to her aid.
In a quick glance, she analyzed the structure of the house and saw a loose rope hanging from the roof. She dashed over to grab it and managed to tie a knot in it. She didn’t know how she was able to do it so fast, but it was sort of a weaving-adjacent skillset, so she silently thanked her mother anyway. Maybe even here, Athena could lend her a hand.
Or maybe she was just delusional. That was more likely.
She gasped in deep breaths, even though it hurt, trying to channel her inner Steve Irwin as the drakon lunged at her.
Annabeth knew how dire her situation was. She was slow and tired and broken. The adrenaline rush of facing a monster wouldn’t last long in her condition. She had a matter of seconds before she fell to the ground and couldn’t get back up. That meant she couldn’t afford for her plan to fail. She needed to loop the ring of rope around the drakon’s snout and tie it shut. It was an easy, elegant way to end the fight fast, but she only had one shot at it. She couldn’t risk throwing and missing.
She shoved her left hand through the noose, looped the rope over her shoulder, and held it out in front of her.
The drakon’s jaws snapped shut, and her arm disappeared inside its mouth.
By some miracle, her arm remained mostly attached to her body. The drakon must have been missing teeth in the front. She felt the sickening crunch as her bones were broken. The jagged teeth scraped across tendon, muscle, nerve, and bone. Shock numbed her, and a white fog rushed through her head. Time seemed to slow as her nervous system was overloaded with pain. Her brain rebooted.
She had anticipated that outcome. She narrowed her focus, and blocked out her left arm and everything that was happening to it. She reached over with her right arm and grabbed the noose on her shoulder. She maneuvered it down her left arm, over the snout of the drakon, and cinched it tight.
The drakon struggled wildly. She had known it was coming, but nothing could have prepared her for the moment her arm snapped off in its mouth. She felt far away, like it was happening to someone else, like it was impossible. But it was real.
The drakon wiggled around, trying to dislodge the rope, and exposed its throat. This was her opening. She had to take it.
She reached for her knife with her right arm and found that it wasn’t there. She glanced around, but there were no weapons anywhere nearby. She’d forgotten that she’d lost it. She’d miscalculated. It might cost her life, she realized with grim resignation.
Her eye caught on something. She’d been avoiding looking down at her shredded arm stub, but she saw the glint of something. The drakon had embedded a tooth in the bone of her arm.
She wrenched the massive, serrated triangle out of her bone, nearly blacking out from the pain. Not for the first time, she questioned how she could do all of this and keep standing, how she was still alive despite having every reason not to be. She gave herself a millisecond to appreciate the ridiculous extremity of her situation before she threw herself at the drakon. She had literally nothing left to lose, and it showed in the ferocity of her attack.
She stabbed the tooth into its bared throat and dug it into the scaly skin, experience lending her the expertise of knowing how hard to press, where, and when, with no need for trial and error. The tooth split the skin like a knife through butter. The muscles of the throat slid apart easily, revealing the red, fleshy interior. A torrent of smelly dark blood splattered onto Annabeth, but rather than feel disgust, she felt triumph. After everything she’d been through, it felt good to kill.
She slid down into the mud, leaning up against the still-warm body of the drakon. Her chest was heaving, her lungs fighting to suck in the poisonous air that felt like it was containing less oxygen with each breath. She felt consciousness slipping away, the last dregs of adrenaline leaving her body. As her ruined mess of an arm arm became covered in mud and drakon blood, she thought about the risk of bacterial infection and how she needed to clean and close the wound to prevent sepsis. But she was too busy dying to do any of that.
“You see?” Nico’s voice said. It sounded like it was coming from underwater. Her vision had blacked out, and she barely comprehended what she was hearing. “I told you she’s tough. She’s going to be an incredible asset to Gaea.”
“You keep saying that,” a deep and rumbling voice said. Annabeth could not open her eyes anymore, but she could tell the person speaking was large and strong and old. “I don’t disagree, but I’m not going out of my way to get her to the Doors, either. If I was so concerned about helping my mother’s cause, I wouldn’t be living in this swamp.”
“Bob likes the brave warrior lady,” another voice said. This one had the same depth and age, but his tone was childlike, as though he wasn’t all there mentally. “Bob will help her.”
“Bob, you don’t like Gaea any more than I do,” the other voice said, sounding irritated with Bob. “The demigod is not your problem. We don’t even know this odd talking cat.”
“His name is Small Bob,” Bob said. “And he is my friend.”
“Can we workshop that, or is it gonna be Small Bob?” Nico asked.
“You are Small Bob,” Bob confirmed.
“Alrighty then,” Nico said, resignation in his voice.
Annabeth felt an oversized hand lift her out of the mud and carry her gently away. She heard a door creak open, but she was too spent to open her eyes. When her back hit the soft surface of a mattress, she felt the last of her resistance slip away, and she fell unconscious at last.
She awoke to the hot, stinging sensation of Phlegethon water being poured into her mouth. She coughed, nearly choking on it, and felt her aches and pains slowly begin to subside. This constant back and forth between agonizing physical injury and magical healing was an exhausting process, but in Tartarus it was the only way she could survive. Her arm hurt excruciatingly. She didn’t look at it. She didn’t want to know what remained.
She fell unconscious again, and when Phlegethon water was poured in her mouth a few more times, she barely woke up. It was many long hours before her eyes opened.
She observed a strange scene. The cabin was filthy, sparsely decorated, the picture of a humble swamp shack. She was occupying the only spot inside that looked remotely comfortable, a bed many times too large for her covered in a fluffy animal hide and a rough blanket. To her, it felt like sleeping on a cloud. She couldn’t remember the last time she’d been able to lay down and relax.
Then she remembered. She’d been in bed with Percy, floating over Rome. Thinking about that made her wish she was unconscious again.
On the other side of the cabin, a titan, a giant, and a kitten were playing Mythomagic.
“See this number here? That’s your attack points,” Nico said, pawing at the corner of a card that the titan was holding. The titan had golden eyes and white hair that stuck out from his head like Einstein, and he was over ten feet tall. The card looked tiny in his hand, and Nico looked even smaller in his kitten disguise when compared to the hulking figure.
“Attack points,” the titan repeated. Annabeth recognized the voice. This was Bob, the seemingly stupid titan who’d wanted to help them. “I want to attack him,” Bob said, pointing at the giant across from him.
“You can’t,” Nico said. “Well, you can, but I wouldn’t advise it. Damasen has three trap cards and a manticore, and the total attack points are way higher than your Laestrogonian. It’s wiser to draw another monster card.”
“Quit coaching him,” Damasen said. Annabeth stared in horror at the titan she remembered from her studies, one of the twelve sons of Gaea and Ouranos. “He’s an amnesiac; he’s not stupid.”
“I want to attack him,” Bob said, sliding his card into the center of the table.
Nico sighed; Damasen chuckled gleefully, taking Bob’s card for himself. Bob stared at the table for a moment, tapping his finger on the rough wooden surface.
“I tried to warn you,” Nico chided.
Bob flipped over one of his cards.
“I activate my trap card: The Pit,” he said.
Nico gasped, and Damasen leaned away from the table in his chair, rocking on the back legs.
“Wow. Didn’t think you had it in you, Bob,” he said, raising his eyebrows.
Bob grinned, and grabbed the manticore card from Damasen’s hand.
“I like this game,” he said.
Nico glanced at Annabeth. He met her eyes with his own empty sockets. Seeing that she was awake, he scampered over to her.
“Hey,” he said, nudging her face with his skull.
“What’s going on?” She asked him.
Nico glanced over his shoulder bone and looked at their hosts.
“Annabeth, this is Bob the titan and Damasen the giant. They’re our hosts, and they’ve very generously offered to escort us to the Doors of Death.”
“That’s nice of them,” Annabeth said, knowing there was a catch. There always was.
“They’ll hand you over to their mother, Gaea, when we arrive. Hopefully this will earn Damasen his freedom, and maybe she’ll restore Bob’s memory, too,” Nico said.
“Bob wants to remember who he used to be,” Bob said, nodding sagely.
“Bob wants to remember grammar, too,” Damasen said, looking at Bob with a sort of weary fondness born from long familiarity.
“Bob’s fingers are crossed,” Bob agreed.
Annabeth tried not to panic.
“Hand me over to Gaea?” She repeated, wishing that she could read Nico’s facial expression a little better. There was just blank skull staring back at her, and it was unnerving when she desperately needed reassurance.
“Sure,” Nico said. “You asked me to help you get to her so that you can fight against the gods in the gigantomachy. Don’t tell me you’ve got amnesia, too?”
He pawed at her face a little, and she realized he was trying to indicate that he was lying and she needed to go along with it. She nodded her understanding.
“I wouldn’t be surprised if her brain is scrambled like an egg,” Damasen said, standing up and stretching his arms toward the ceiling one by one. “The drakon got her pretty good. That was a victory snatched from the jaws of defeat. Literally.”
His fists scraped the rafters as he stretched, and Annabeth couldn’t tear her eyes away. The sense of danger was impossible to ignore. Nico had brought them into the home of two of the gods’ greatest enemies
“I told you!” Nico said. “She’s a formidable demigod. She’ll make the gods pay.”
“Yay!” Bob said, clapping. “Make them pay! Erm, what are they paying for? Remind me?”
“The gods are fighting with our mother again,” Damasen said. “Just like they have plenty of times before. It’s nothing new.”
He sounded jaded. Annabeth got the distinct impression Damasen didn’t care much about the Gigantomachy. It seemed as though he’d been in Tartarus for a long time, forbidden to leave. She understood the plan now.
Nico had convinced Damasen that Annabeth was powerful enough to leverage as a trade for his freedom. Her fight with the drakon had been used as evidence to prove she would be an asset to Gaea. It was a clever plan, probably almost as good as what she’d have come up with on her own. Almost.
She was weaker than a skeleton kitten herself, but her strategic mind was buzzing with ideas. Nico’s plan had merit-- disguise Annabeth as a traitor to Olympus, the same as Luke and Ethan. They’d marched through Tartarus and pledged their loyalty to the Earth goddess in exchange for a ride on the elevator to freedom. They’d been dead at the time, and they’d been given new bodies on the surface. Annabeth was alive, so she might make an even more tempting recruit. Annabeth could walk in their footsteps, especially with the help of the new allies that Nico had recruited. She could get to the Doors with their support.
The only problem was what would happen when they made it to the Doors. She couldn’t actually deliver herself into the hands of Gaea’s forces. She was one of the Seven, and a high-profile demigod in her own right. Bob and Damasen hadn’t heard of her, but the risk that Gaea wouldn’t believe her story was extremely high. Worse, if Gaea did believe her, Annabeth would be forced to swear an oath on the Styx in order to gain passage to the surface.
They were closer to their goal, but they didn’t have a complete plan. Still, Nico’s quick thinking had given her a chance. She knew she could come up with something to fill in the gaps. At least, she could if she could ever get out of bed.
She pulled at the blanket, trying to get a good look at her injured arm. Nico set his paw down on the blanket and shook his head.
“What?” She asked.
“Just don’t,” he said, nudging her face with his skull. “Give it some more time. Hey, Damasen? Bob? Do we have any food for her?”
Bob rose from his seat. When he took a step, the floorboards creaked. Again Annabeth was reminded what a bad idea it was to be trapped with a titan and a giant. One wrong move, and they could snap.
“I’ll take you to the shrine of Hermes. We can find some snacks for our demigod friend. Come along, Small Bob,” Bob said, holding out his arm.
Nico hopped onto the back of his hand and ran up his arm, taking a seat on his shoulder. They headed out the door.
Annabeth immediately sat up in bed and looked at her arm. She instantly regretted it.
Her arm ended just above the spot her elbow had once been. Her skin had made an admirable attempt to close around the stump, and there was no bleeding. But the Phlegethon water could only do so much. She could see her own bone. It was a miracle she couldn’t feel it.
“I numbed it for you,” Damasen said, glancing over at her. “You’ve got about a day or so to live.”
“What?” She asked breathlessly.
“The drakon venom is deadly. You’re a goner,” Damasen said. “That’s why I let you stay. You’ll never make it to the Doors.”
She looked up at Damasen in surprise.
“Why did you help me if you knew you wouldn’t get a reward for it?”
He shrugged.
“I never learn, I guess. And Bob is really into your talking cat friend.”
Annabeth weighed the situation in her mind carefully.
“Amputate it,” she said.
The corner of Damasen’s mouth turned up.
“You sure? You can just wait to die if you want. Let Thanatos take you. It would be easier.”
It would be easier. But that stupid little voice kept saying not today. Gods, she hated that voice sometimes.
“If I can keep getting regular infusions of Phlegethon water and ambrosia, my body might be able to purge the poison,” she said. “It will be concentrated mostly in the stump. You need to amputate my arm higher, closer to my shoulder, and then you need to rub ambrosia into the wound. Would you be willing to do that?”
“Why not? I’m curious to see if it works,” Damasen said. “But it’s gonna hurt.”
Annabeth didn’t need to be reminded of that. She saw Damasen grab a kitchen knife and start sharpening it. She needed to talk about something else, anything else.
“I didn’t realize Thanatos worked in Tartarus,” she said. “Wouldn’t I just become a wandering shade?”
“You can’t become a shade without a psychopomp,” Damasen said. “Your body wouldn’t fully die until one of them got to you. I know Thanatos has been around at some point, because I met a shade named Ethan wandering down here last year. He was like you, looking for the way to the Doors, but he died before he made it there. He’s not around anymore, so it must have been Thanatos that came and got him.”
There was small comfort in knowing that, if it ever really was her time, Nico would be there to end things quickly.
“Dying would be easy,” she said. “But I’m not good at giving up.”
“You’ve got a Celestial bronze spine, girl,” Damasen said, looking at her with approval. “You remind me of someone I once knew. You ready to saw that arm off?”
The next few minutes passed in a blur. She had one arm laid out on Damasen’s little table, and held her other arm over her eyes. It was an incredible act of kindness for Damasen to numb it for her, but it did little to help with the psychological horror of having a limb removed slowly and deliberately. It had been easier to let the drakon bite it off. It didn’t take as long, and she hadn’t had as much time to think about it.
Annabeth clenched her teeth until they were close to cracking. She tried to carve out a small space in her mind where this wasn’t happening.
She pictured her and Percy on vacation at the Jersey Shore during their freshman year of college. She’d flown out for spring break, and they’d booked a room in a cheap motel for a week. It had mold in the shower and bedbugs in the mattress, but being alone with Percy with no monsters in sight had made the crappy place feel like Elysium. One night they’d grabbed Popeye’s chicken and some cans of beer and hung out on the beach until dawn, curled up together in a blanket they’d stolen from the hotel room. She’d never been happier. She’d never be that happy again. Thinking about it hurt more than having her arm sawed off.
“Done,” Damasen said, dabbing ambrosia on the wound.
She wiped tears from her face and forced herself to look. Staring at the stub on her shoulder, surprisingly, she felt nothing at all. It was as though she’d locked part of herself away in that memory on the beach. That Annabeth, the one with feelings, could hang out there for a while, digging her toes into the sand and smelling the salt air, feeling the warmth of Percy’s arm around her. The part of her that remained in her broken body would be the cold, calculating, logical side Annabeth. The part of her that was Athena.
“Thank you,” she said, her voice sounding colder than it had a few minutes ago. Tears kept welling up, but the emotion that caused them to fall felt far away, like someone else was feeling it. She stood up. She felt stronger already. “Who was it I reminded you of?” She asked.
“Her name was Moria. She was mortal,” Damasen said. “The drakon killed her brother, and I avenged him at her behest. She managed to bring him back to life through sheer determination. She left an impression on me.”
“You sound like it was a bad thing,” Annabeth said.
“It was a mistake,” he said harshly. “I shouldn’t have helped her. Giants don’t help humans. My parents taught me that lesson the hard way. Meeting Moria ruined my life. But that was my own fault. For her part, she earned my respect.”
“I take it as a compliment to be compared to her,” Annabeth said, her voice still sounding like it belonged to someone else. With the arm gone, she felt lighter, and not just because she was short a couple of pounds of flesh and bone. She’d suffered from post traumatic stress for most of her life, and she knew what was happening. She observed her own dissociation clinically, and approved of it. Her brain was coping the best way it knew how.
“What caused Bob’s amnesia?” She asked, finding it both easier and more useful to collect data than to think about her situation.
“Dunno,” Damasen said, grabbing the remains of her arm stub and tossing it out the window. She peered outside and saw the drakon she’d fought earlier. Somehow, it had already regenerated-- If she’d still been feeling feelings, she’d have had some strongly negative feelings about that. It chowed down on her arm stub almost gleefully, wiggling its little tail.
“You don’t have a theory?” She pressed.
“I think one of his brothers pushed him in the Lethe,” Damasen said. “They always thought he was soft because he refused to help Kronos kill Ouranos. Out of all of his siblings, I’m the only who bothered to try and help him remember anything. It’s annoying. I’m not his keeper.”
“But you chose to take him in,” she observed. “No one forced you.”
“Well… I had my reasons,” he admitted. “There’s safety in numbers down here. With the war going on, the other giants are causing all kinds of havoc. Also, the monster army by the Doors? Bad neighbors.”
“I can imagine,” she said.
“By sticking together, Bob and I can fend off most of the trouble. It’s unusual for a giant and a titan to work together, for obvious reasons. The others avoid us. That’s how I like it.” He poured a cup of Phlegethon water and handed it to her. “You’re gonna need this if you want any hope of surviving the night. I’d lay down if I were you.”
She obeyed, climbing under the covers. She was grateful for his kindness, even if it was delivered somewhat gruffly.
“What’s Bob’s real name?” She asked.
“Iapetus,” Damasen said.
A few minutes later, she heard the sound of Nico and Iapetus-- AKA Bob and Small Bob-- returning. She wondered what Damasen would think if he knew that he was not only hosting a titan, but also a god in his small hut. Surely he wouldn’t be thrilled, but he was surprisingly open minded for an ancient being. Maybe there was a chance of them being friends.
Bob ran inside and shut the door behind him, leaning against the door as something large slammed against it from the outside.
“Drakon’s back,” Bob said, panting and wide-eyed.
“I’ll take care of it,” Damasen sighed. He pulled an enormous spear and shield out from under the bed and went to fight the drakon.
Bob sat down at the table, setting down a pile of snack foods. Nico hopped off his shoulder and went up to Annabeth. She showed him her stump, and he recoiled at the sight, shocked to see that her left arm was now basically non-existent.
“It was the only way,” she said, before he could tell her how crazy she was. “I was poisoned and I couldn’t let it spread any further.
He didn’t say anything. He just curled up beside her and rested his head on her stump.
“I’m sorry, Annabeth,” he said, sounding genuinely devastated on her behalf. “You don’t deserve to suffer like this.”
His words nearly cracked her protective shell of unfeeling logic, but she held strong.
“It’s fine. Damasen numbed it,” she said. “I feel good.”
“Still,” Nico said. “It sucks.”
“Life sucks,” she said. “But it beats the alternative.”
She shut her eyes and tried to catch some sleep, feeling the weight of Nico’s small body in the space where her arm used to be. His compassion, at least in this moment, reminded her that she still had a friend at her side. That was something to hold onto.
She awoke later to the sound of a radio playing. The voices coming through were crackly and indistinct, but she could understand the words. A woman was reading an ad for blood diamond jewelry designed by Persephone herself.
“Come on, you remember her,” Damasen said. “She’s your sister. Themis.”
“Bob doesn’t recall,” Bob shrugged.
“Can we listen to something else?” Nico asked, sounding nervous.
“No,” Damasen said. “We never miss Justice Junkies.”
“Use discount code ‘justicejunkiespod’ for ten percent off your next order,” Themis read. “Anyway, Nemesis, what were we talking about?”
“The latest controversy out of Olympus,” Nemesis said. “The head of Cerberus.”
“Lots of good discussion on that topic,” Themis said. “To recount for those just tuning in, a cohort from Camp Jupiter slayed Cerberus on a mission to Fort Sumter a couple of weeks ago. There was only one survivor out of the forty-odd demigods that were sent.”
“All thanks to Nico losing his temper,” Nemesis said, sounding like she was smiling. “He’s a loose cannon. He’s a problem.”
“That’s an odd take, Nemesis,” Themis said. “Wasn’t he taking revenge for the murder of his pet? You’re the goddess of vengeance. That should be right up your alley.”
“Revenge is a dish best served cold,” Nemesis snarled. “He didn’t scheme. He just lost control of his temper and showed forty mortal children his true form, blowing them to smithereens. That’s an accident that just happens to look like revenge.”
“That’s a hot take!” Themis said. “Does he at least get credit for trying to defend his quest?”
“Nope!” Nemesis declared. “Hades sent the dog. Nico’s barely done anything for the Seven. He’s outsourced his job to other gods twice in the past month. Even now he’s skulking in the Underworld, waiting until the heat’s off him.”
Annabeth watched as Nico dug his claws into the wood of the tabletop.
“Now we pivot to the subject we’re issuing judgment on today,” Themis said. “Apollo, welcome to the show.”
“A pleasure, ladies,” Apollo said, though his voice didn’t sound pleased at all.
“You received a lovely gift from your grandson recently,” Themis said. “Tell us about it.”
“Um, well,” Apollo said. “My grandson Octavian dedicated Cerberus’s head to me,” he added. “It’s sitting in my temple in New Rome. On the altar. Oozing everywhere. I think it’s the left one.”
Nico hissed lightly under his breath. Annabeth shot him a warning look, and he laid down, pretending to nap.
“Normally we’d congratulate you and wait to be invited over to admire it,” Nemesis said. “But we can’t do that. Tell us why.”
“I don’t want it!” Apollo declared. “I’m here to ask your advice on what to do with it.”
“Why don’t you want it? Has Hades said something?”
“It’s not Hades I’m worried about. Since I’m already here, allow me to make a brief public statement. A warning to the entire Greco-Roman pantheon: beware Nico di Angelo.”
Themis and Nemesis both paused, letting his words sink in.
“Do you have a new prophecy to share?” Themis asked eagerly.
“No,” Apollo said. His tone was grave. “Dreams and premonitions, but nothing specific enough for a prophecy. I had a weird encounter with Nico at Eurovision the other day. Ever since, I’ve been trying to look into the future, but I get nothing. It’s like my prophecies are being blocked. The last time this happened--”
“Yes?” Nemesis urged.
“Never mind. I don’t want to speculate,” Apollo said. “But he’s dangerous. He’s bad news bears. I’m not going anywhere near him until I know he’s no longer a threat.”
“A threat to you personally?” Themis said. “Or something bigger?”
“I don’t want to speculate,” Apollo repeated.
“It’s your job to speculate!” Themis said.
“I heard a juicy rumor the other day,” Nemesis said cheerfully, changing the subject.
“This isn’t Gossip Goddess,” Themis said archly, sounding offended. “I didn’t even get to give my ruling yet!”
“I don’t care. Spill the tea!” Apollo said.
“Persephone has been asking her mother for the secret to turning gods into humans,” Nemesis said. “Demeter got drunk and told Ganymede, who told Hecate, who told me. We think Hades might be trying to get rid of the boy. Finally!”
“Wow, sounds awful! I’d hate for that to happen to me.” Apollo said.
“I think it’s a great idea,” Nemesis said. “Hades always was the smart brother--”
The radio clattered onto the floor, smashing into pieces. Bob and Damasen both yelled in dismay. Nico looked up at them innocently.
“My tail slipped,” he said.
“That’s my only source of news!” Damasen shouted. “Now I have to try and fix it!” He started cleaning up the pieces.
“Bob likes when they spill the tea,” Bob said quietly.
Annabeth stared at Nico, who was licking his paw in spite of not having a tongue. It must have been too much for him to hear people joking around about the thing he dreaded most. The only reason he was a skeleton cat at the moment was because his father was unnecessarily paranoid. It wasn’t fair.
She remembered when he’d asked her for help getting out of his fate, looking for another way to be safe from Kronos’ influence. She hadn’t been able to assist. Maybe there was still a way to help.
“What do you think?” She asked Damasen.
“I think I’m a dog person,” he said, glaring at Nico. He was still on the floor trying to find all the radio pieces, looking for little screws.
“About Nico being turned into a human,” she said. Nico shot her a warning look, but she ignored him. “His father is scared of him. But Nico hasn’t done anything to deserve it. Or so I’ve heard.”
Damasen paused in his work and looked up at her.
“This Nico person is getting off easy. Don’t you remember what Zeus did to his son?”
“Zeus has a lot of sons,” Nico said, hopping off the table and bringing a small screw over to Damasen in his mouth.
“His first son,” Damasen said.
Annabeth knew the story, but it seemed Nico didn’t.
“When Zeus’ first wife, Metis, was pregnant, there was a prophecy that their son would be stronger than Zeus,” Annabeth said. “So he ate Metis to ensure their son would never be born. Later, my mom, Athena, burst out of his skull. The son in question would have been her brother, but he never got the chance to exist.”
“Zeus was always a smart-ass,” Damasen said. “But his trick worked. He subverted the fate that befell his father and his father’s father before him. I would bet money that Poseidon pulled a similar trick once, just to be on the safe side. Now Hades will do the same, unless he likes taking risks.”
“He doesn’t,” Annabeth said sadly, looking at Nico. “He took measures to avoid having divine children. Nico was unplanned.”
“Then this Nico person is done for,” Damasen said. “Like I said, he’s getting off easy just being turned human. He’ll be lucky if he doesn’t end up stuck down here with me for eternity.”
“Enough talking,” Nico said angrily. Damasen and Bob both shot him looks of surprise, and Annabeth realized she’d pushed too hard. “Are we going to the fucking Doors of Death or aren’t we?”
Damasen set the pieces of radio on the table and turned to look at Annabeth.
“Depends on how your friend here is feeling.”
“She’s well enough to run her mouth on topics she doesn’t understand,” Nico said, hurt evident in his voice. “She’s well enough to start walking.”
Annabeth didn’t have the emotional capacity left for sympathy, but she was happy to keep her mouth shut to avoid causing more trouble. She was pretty sure Damasen was catching on to their lies, and so it was important they get to the Doors of Death before he figured out Nico’s true identity.
The four of them headed out towards the billowing cloud of darkness on the horizon. On the other side lay the Doors-- and the army of Gaea.
The cloud looked a lot closer than it actually was. Either that, or Annabeth was so miserable that time seemed to move slower. She certainly wasn’t making much progress walking. The ground was pitted with holes and soft piles of sediment and random, terrifying monsters crawling out of their damp little pits. Her balance was wrecked by not having an arm, and she tripped a couple of times, falling flat on her face. If she wasn’t with a god, a titan, and a giant, she’d be toast. All Bob had to do was step on the monsters and most were crushed to dust.
Nico sat on Bob’s shoulders and seemed to cheer up when Bob squished monsters in their holes. Bob pranced around stomping them, going “Squishy squish!”, making Nico laugh despite the funk he was in.
While they were occupied, Damasen held back and tried to catch Annabeth alone.
“I’m not going to tell anyone,” he said, winking at her.
“Tell anyone what?” She said innocently.
“I’ve heard about you on the radio a time or two,” he said. “I don’t think Annabeth Chase is joining Gaea’s team today. Is she?”
“I said I was, and I am,” she said.
He tapped the side of his nose.
“Sure. Totally. Well, between us, my mother is more likely to squish me like that,” he said, pointing at Bob, still engaged in stomping activities. “Than she is to free me from my punishment. Even if I bring her a thousand demigods.”
“I see,” Annabeth said. “What’s your motive for helping, then?”
“I want to see that kitten humble Olympus,” Damasen said, pointing at Nico. “I want him to bring Zeus and his whole stupid family to their knees. Just like they did to my family.” She saw a bright gleam in his eyes-- a spark of inspiration. “I want them to tremble in fear. He’s got Apollo scared already, because he can see the future. That’s how it starts, with prophecies and omens. I want to see the story play out again. Just one more time. I’m so freaking bored down here,” he added with a grin.
Annabeth was pretty sure Damasen would end up disappointed. The Greco-Roman pantheon was ancient history. It still mattered in its own way, but the world had moved on. The great stories were all over and done with. Even the gigantomachy was essentially a historical re-enactment with a high death rate. But Zeus wasn’t going anywhere. Nico didn’t even seem interested in ousting him.
“If you want to see that happen, Nico is your best hope,” she said, which was still true, in spite of her reservations. “But he’s not the only horse worth betting on. I’m being considered for godhood, too.”
Damasen’s eyebrows shot up to his hairline, and he looked at her with a newfound respect.
“You know, that doesn’t surprise me one bit,” he said. “I’ll bet on you any day. I’ll get you to those Doors. Trust me.”
He held out his arm chivalrously, and she took it, letting him help her keep her feet. He lifted her over uneven terrain and caught her when she tripped, and she was immensely grateful for his assistance. She’d been terrified to rely on a giant for help after a lifetime of scary stories, but Damasen wasn’t what she’d expected him to be. Not even close.
They caught up with Bob and Nico quickly, but just as they reached the edge of the dark cloud, they heard pounding footsteps shaking the earth, running toward them.
“At last!” Hyperion said triumphantly, his hair and eyes aflame. His copper skin flickered in the light, a golden mirror of his brother’s silver-gray complexion. “I’ve caught up. Iapetus! Why do you escort the mortal? Why has she not been crushed to gelatin?”
Bob looked around to see who Hyperion was talking to.
“Brother!” Hyperion barked angrily. “Why do you ignore me?”
“He’s got amnesia,” Damasen said. “Someone pushed him in the Lethe. Bob, this is your brother, Hyperion, Titan of the East.”
Hyperion stared at his brother in shock. Nico took the opportunity to slip off of Bob’s shoulder and run to Annabeth’s feet.
“Amnesia, you say?” Hyperion said, his voice booming. “How humorous! Iapetus, join me in crushing this mortal girl, and we will reacquaint you with the taste for blood.”
“But she is a friend,” Bob said, looking troubled. “Bob doesn’t know you, fiery man. Please don’t hurt Annabeth.”
“She is mortal and does not belong here,” Hyperion said, his eyes blazing like miniature suns. Annabeth felt her retinas burning from making eye contact with him. Was there any part of her body that Tartarus wasn’t going to maim?
“It’s okay, Bob. Gaea can make her a new body later,” Nico said. “Go ahead and kill her, Hyperion.”
He was bluffing. He had to be. Right? But this bluff didn’t seem like a good idea. What if Hyperion just--
“Don’t mind if I do!” Hyperion said. He raised his fist and filled it with fire.
Death came quicker than a flash of lightning. One moment she was standing, and the next, she was still standing, but her body was on the ground in front of her. She looked down at her hand and saw that it was transparent.
“Annabeth is dead,” Bob observed, his jaw dropping in horror.
Damasen said nothing. He stared at Annabeth like he was waiting on something to happen. But she was dead. There was nothing left to happen now. It was over.
Annabeth looked at Nico. Skeletons didn’t emote, but she saw the twitch in his tail indicating that he was upset. At least, she thought that he was. He had a lot of nerve acting distressed after he was the one to suggest murdering her.
“That was unnecessary,” Nico said primly. “But now that it’s done, let’s move on, shall we? The Doors are waiting.”
“I don’t take orders from dead cats,” Hyperion said. He marched forward, expecting the others to follow.
“Reborn yesterday and he’s already bossing us around,” Damasen said, shaking his head. Bob looked at his brother with a deep frown, then knelt before Annabeth’s shade.
“You okay, friend?”
Annabeth was in shock, and couldn’t come up with a single thing to say. She was dead. She’d died. It must be true, and yet she felt as though nothing had happened.
“She doesn’t want to talk about it,” Nico said, strutting forward behind Hyperion. “Let’s move, Annabeth. No use grieving the necessary.”
Something about his demeanor struck her as unnatural. Nico could be a little callous and self-centered, but he wasn’t cold. To show so little empathy towards her situation wasn’t like him. Maybe he was so used to hanging out with shades that her death didn’t register to him as a major event. She told herself that must be it, but something still felt like it didn’t fit.
She walked obediently, hanging in the back of the group as they walked single-file through the black cloud. As they entered, she felt a cold chill surround her.
On a hunch, she ducked back out of the cloud and looked back the way they’d come. Her eyes traced the path of their footprints through the dust and dirt, until it reached the place where she’d been killed.
There was no body. There wasn’t even a mark on the ground.
She reached down and picked up a handful of gravel in her hand. She raised her foot and stomped it, sending rocks skittering.
It wasn’t real. She was still alive.
That was when she realized-- she couldn’t have possibly died. Damasen had told her that without a psychopomp to separate your soul from your body, you would remain alive, if only slightly. He and Nico were both aware that it was a trick. She cursed herself for being so slow on the uptake, which wasn’t like her. She’d been too scared to think it through.
She ran back into the mist. She loved a good plan, and she appreciated Nico’s cunning and skill, but it was hard not to feel frustrated. She was so outclassed by the beings surrounding her, by the environment she was in, and by the very air she was breathing. She felt more powerless than ever, and was terrified at how close she’d come to a real death. She was grateful to have her deus ex machina, but she resented the necessity of relying on him. She trusted that Nico would make an effort, but he wasn’t as smart as she was.
Walking behind their party left her with ample time to think. The clouds of darkness took on shape and form in her mind, and she interpreted images in them. She saw the giants standing in front of the door, and Nico confronting them, making a way for her. She saw herself crushed beneath a giant’s foot. She saw Bob and Damasen turning on them, changing their minds. Every scenario ran its course. She analyzed each plan for strengths and weaknesses. Her plans had too few of the former and too many of the latter, but that only sent her mind spinning faster.
By the time the group paused-- Hyperion had gotten them lost, a surprise to no one-- she’d already come up with a plan, a backup plan, and a backup to the backup. That meant Annabeth was only halfway done. It didn’t matter, though. None of the plans were very good.
While Damasen and Hyperion argued about the directions, and Bob tried to defuse their anger by singing loudly to himself, Nico made his way over to Annabeth. They both stepped away, far enough into the darkness that they were out of sight.
“Don’t talk,” Nico whispered, his voice as quiet as the sound of a falling leaf. “Shades sound different from humans. You realize what I did?”
She nodded.
“Are you holding up alright?” He asked, his eye sockets pointed up at her like two black holes of nothingness.
She nodded again, and patted his head, mouthing, ‘Thanks, good job.’
He rubbed against her ankles, then rejoined the others. The argument over which way to the Doors continued, with Hyperion dead certain he knew the way, despite not having been there before.
Suddenly, the titan, the giants, and the god all froze, listening. Annabeth’s human ears couldn’t make out the sound that they were fixated on for a couple of minutes.
They were footsteps, soft, rhythmic, and slow. They were coming closer. And as they approached, the darkness grew deeper.
“Nobody should be coming this way,” Damasen said softly. “All the monsters down here are headed for the Doors.”
“You live here,” Nico said. “You’re not the only one, I’m assuming.”
“None of my neighbors are people I like to casually run into,” Damasen said, taking a step back and attempting to head in a direction slightly diagonal from the approaching steps. It was the right course of action. When you ran away, predators pursued. It was safer to just miss each other without it looking deliberate. “Whoever it is, we shut up and let them pass.”
At first, Annabeth was confused. Damasen and the others looked scared, but she couldn’t fathom what they had to be scared of. Two giants and a titan made a pretty impenetrable convoy, as far as she was concerned. But they knew Tartarus better than she did, so she backed away as instructed.
The footsteps did not change course or pace; the person out for a stroll wasn’t coming after them. As the mystery individual approached, Annabeth realized why the others were afraid. A wave of dark energy buffeted her, nearly sending her to her knees. Whoever this individual was, they felt like power incarnate, like a walking supernova.
“Oh, my!” The walking supernova said, in a soft and resonant female tone of voice. “Fancy seeing you down here!”
The darkness grew thicker and darker and more terrifying as the steps halted, then approached. Annabeth could barely make them out, but she saw Damasen, Hyperion, and Bob exchange confused glances.
Nico alone stepped towards her, padding on his little paws directly into the darkness.
“Hi, Nyx,” he said. “Hi, Erebus. How’s it going?”
“Oh, fine, just fine,” Nyx said. The darkness dissipated as she leaned toward Nico, and Annabeth glimpsed her radiant, glowing face, beautiful and terrible at the same time. Her features were stunning, but her energy made it hard to be anything but freaked out. “That’s a new look, dear. Bad hair day?”
“No, just… You know, trying something different,” Nico said, sounding like he knew he was about to get his disguise ripped off.
“I don’t like it! I want to see your pretty face,” Nyx said, lifting a glowing white finger and pointing at him. Nico’s normal body appeared and abruptly separated from the body of the skeleton cat, who glanced around like she’d just woken up from a nap.
“There you are!” Nyx said, reaching out and running her hand across his curls, which were as inky black as the cloud surrounding her. “A handsome young god like you shouldn’t hide behind disguises. What brings you to Tartarus?”
“I’m just running some errands,” Nico said, rolling his shoulders and subtly stretching out his arms. Annabeth didn’t imagine being squished inside the cat skeleton had been very comfy. “How about you?”
“We’re out for a romantic stroll,” Nyx said cheerfully, glancing up behind her shoulders and running her hands through the cloud of darkness. “Lovely weather for it, no?”
Annabeth blinked in confusion, seeing how the darkness moved as though it was putting an arm around her shoulders. Was the giant black cloud Erebus? Had they been walking through his body for the last half hour? It sent a chill down her spine.
“Yeah, it’s great, no acid rain or anything. Well, don’t let me interrupt your walk, great seeing you, bye!” Nico said, waving at her frantically in an attempt to end the conversation.
“How is my son doing?” Nyx asked, ignoring his obnoxious waving. “He hasn’t checked in lately.”
“That’s my fault. He’s doing a favor for me right now,” Nico said. “I saw him a few days ago, though. He seemed good.”
“You just keep taking care of him,” she said, her voice softening. “He has a soft heart, my Thanatos.”
“I know,” Nico said. “Don’t worry. I’d never do anything to hurt him.”
She nodded, pleased with his answer.
“Well, stop by the house if you get time,” she said, gesturing over her shoulder. “We just re-did the patio overlooking the Acheron. Let me know if you like the tile. We’re not sure it’s the right shade of black, are we, dear?” She asked Erebus, glancing backward. The darkness wobbled slightly like it was agreeing with her. “No, not the right shade at all,” she sighed. “But tell me what you think anyway. It was nice running into you. Don’t be a stranger, Nico!”
She walked away, disappearing into the darkness quickly.
Nico glanced down at the skeleton cat beside his feet. Then he turned around slowly. He was wearing the same black chiton Annabeth had seen him in before, the one he’d said was his work uniform.
“Nico?” Bob asked. “Bob thought your name was Small Bob.”
Damasen folded his arms, glaring at him. He said nothing, but his posture was stern and unforgiving. He’d already known, but he was wisely concealing that from Hyperion for the moment.
Hyperion stared at Nico in consternation.
“I’ve never heard of any god named Nico,” Hyperion said.
“He’s brand new. The long-awaited son of Hades and Persephone,” Damasen said gruffly. “Gets a lot of airtime on the radio lately.”
Hyperion’s eyebrows lowered. The light in his eyes narrowed to laser beam points. He cracked his knuckles, and fire ran up and down his arms.
“You know what we do to gods around here, newbie?” Hyperion said. “Smashing your face in will be an excellent warm-up before I go to the surface.”
“But Small Bob-- I mean Nico-- Is our friend!” Bob said, bravely standing between Nico and Hyperion.
“He’s a god!” Hyperion shouted, shoving his brother away. “He’s our enemy! You forget your place in the order of things! He is here to displace us, to destroy us, to humiliate us and keep us in this pit, when by rights we should be ruling the earth our mother bequeathed to us!”
“Bob doesn’t remember what bequeathed means!” Bob shouted, matching his brother in volume, though not in anger. He held his hands out plaintively. “Why does it have to be that way? Has he wronged us?”
“He’s leading the war effort against Mom,” Damasen said calmly, filling in the blanks for Hyperion that Annabeth wished he’d just leave unfilled. Hyperion fumed upon hearing this new information, fire roaring from his nostrils.
“Bob is not part of mother’s war,” Bob said, standing once again between Nico and Hyperion. “Neither are you, Damasen. And Hyperion, you were just reborn yesterday! So why can’t we be friends if we choose to be?”
“We can still be friends, Bob,” Nico said, his voice tinged with sadness. “But I don’t think we can hang out anymore. I should go.”
“You dare run from my fury? Fine,” Hyperion said. “I love the thrill of the chase.”
“Hit me,” Nico said. “Go ahead.”
Hyperion swung at him, his fist a blazing ball of fire like a meteor. Annabeth gasped, but it passed through Nico as though he were never there.
“Attack all you want,” Nico said. “It won’t be very interesting for you. But it’s probably not a good idea to do it inside of Erebus,” he said, pointing at the dark clouds around them. “I’m dating his son.”
Annabeth was filled with admiration for Nico in that moment. He appeared completely calm in the face of Hyperion’s genuinely terrifying wrath.
Damasen flung an arm out in front of Hyperion.
“He’s right. Nyx could come back at any moment, and he seemed to be a favorite of hers,” he said. “We should let him go. Let’s head to the Doors.”
He gave Annabeth a wink, and she nodded her understanding.
Hyperion roared his fury at the sky, emitting a gout of flame that, in the context of the situation, looked kind of stupid. Bob wiped tears from his cheeks, glancing resentfully at his brother.
“Where you go, Bob goes too,” Bob said, walking up to Nico.
“You don’t have to,” Nico said, seeing that Hyperion was now even angrier. “Bob, really. We’ll be okay.”
Bob merely gestured for Nico to lead on. With a sigh of resignation, Nico did so. As they began to walk, the skeleton kitten jumped onto Bob’s shoulder. Bob seemed pleased to see that he had two new friends instead of one, and immediately began conversing with the new Small Bob.
“We can cut through Nyx’s mansion to make sure they don’t follow,” Nico said. “We’ll probably be able to see the Doors from there. After that I’ll shadow travel us the rest of the way. You seem fit for it.”
“Sorry about your disguise,” Annabeth said. She wasn’t really sorry, since Nico’s determination to remain a cat was a pointless gesture done to please his father, and it had caused them a ton of inconvenience.
“It’s fine,” he said curtly.
“Will Hades punish you for disobeying him?” She asked.
Nico snorted.
“He’s turning me human on August 1st. That’s in less than two months. He’s run out of time for other punishments.”
“Why is he turning you human?” Bob asked curiously, petting the head of the skeletal kitten on his shoulder.
“Because he loves me too much to eat me,” Nico said bitterly.
“Aww,” Bob said. Annabeth shot him a look, and Bob shrugged. “Progress,” he said.
Nico was no longer in the mood to talk after that. He started walking uphill, and Annabeth trusted that he could see through the dark-- through Erebus-- better than she could. Soon, her feet hit polished black stone stairs, and she knew they’d found the house of Nyx.
The interior was the same pitch dark as everything else, so she could hear the house, but she couldn’t see it. Voices resounded from upstairs, echoing slightly off the stone. Their footsteps rang out loudly. They turned a corner, and the sound of running water could be heard.
Nico materialized a torch from thin air and handed it to Annabeth so that she could see.
“That’s the Acheron,” he said, pointing at the rushing river that glinted out of the darkness below.
Annabeth walked out onto Nyx’s patio and looked at the view. As Nico had predicted, far off in the distance, there was a massive set of double doors bound with two enormous chains. The area was well lit and busy. A hulking figure stood in front of the Doors, protecting them, and a horde of monsters moved in front, clamoring to make it onto the elevator the next time the doors opened. From Nyx’s patio, they looked to be the size of ants, but when they were up close and personal, Annabeth knew exactly how tiny she would feel.
“How did you knew we’d have this view?” Annabeth asked.
“Nyx and Erebus made the Doors, along with my father,” Nico said. “It was their first joint project. Last fall, Thanatos and I broke the key and had to fix it. We didn’t get this one locked in time and Gaea chained them open.”
“So this is all your fault?” Annabeth said. At this point, she was unshockable, but she wasn’t pleased to hear of Nico’s involvement.
Nico shrugged.
“It was fate,” he said, using a phrase that pissed Annabeth off immensely. She’d heard way too many gods use it as an excuse, and she was sick of the lack of accountability.
“Okay. Got it,” Annabeth said. “So that means you’re going to be extra motivated to help me close them. Right?”
“I’ve got the key right here,” he said defensively, holding up a triangular stone. “Once your part is done, I’ll lock up afterward.”
“There’s about a thousand monsters, and a handful of giants, all sitting around down there with nothing better to do than stop me from closing the doors and you from locking them. How are we going to manage?” She asked. “Because I have plans, and I’m not confident in any of them.”
“Bob is here,” Bob cut in, insistent on not being forgotten. “Bob won’t let you fail, friends. What is your goal? Help me to understand.”
Nico stared at the Doors, thinking.
“Tell me what you’ve got so far,” he told Annabeth.
“It’s based on a lot of assumptions, but we don’t have any choice but to rely on them,” Annabeth said. “One of us goes down there and holds the elevator button for twelve minutes. Another one of us breaks the chains on the doors, both sets. There’s a titan blocking the chains, so sneaking past him is safer than confronting him.”
“And this is based on the assumption that the other demigods have serendipitously figured their shit out on the surface at the exact same time that we are doing this, right?”
“Yes,” she said. “Can you go up and coordinate with them? Now is a good time to confirm they’re ready. Otherwise I’ll have to wait here.”
“I can’t leave you alone, even with Bob,” he said, wincing. “I know Nyx seemed nice when you saw her, but if she got home and found you here without me, she’d kill you on sight and think nothing of it. Some other gods are here, too. I can’t split into multiple places in Tartarus. I need to stay..”
“That’s not good news,” Annabeth said. She attempted to fold her arms and realized she couldn’t do that anymore. Her good arm just hung in front of her chest awkwardly.
“You’re fated to do this,” Nico said. “You and the others. I think you need to take a leap of faith.”
“Fuck that,” she said, turning her back on him. “Give me time and I’ll make a new plan, but don’t ask me to just walk up to those Doors without knowing whether anybody’s on the other side. I don’t have it in me.”
“Someone will be on the other side,” Nico said.
“I don’t think so,” she said.
“He’ll be there,” Nico said.
“He won’t,” Annabeth said. “I told him. I told Percy I cheated on him. We’re done.” Tears began falling fast, and she felt her armor cracking. Why now? Why couldn’t it have lasted until the Doors?
Nico wrapped his arms around her in a hug. Bob joined in, too, and she felt smothered in a good way.
“Whether he’s there or not,” he said. “You’ve got friends. Hazel won’t fail me. I have total faith in her.”
Annabeth had to admit that Hazel probably would come through. She’d been dipped in the Styx. It was literally impossible for anyone to stop her. She’d fight for Nico until she couldn’t fight anymore.
Annabeth nodded reluctantly, recognizing that she had no other option.
“I just need one last deus ex machina,” she said, looking at Nico and Bob. “Just one more.”
“You’ll have it,” Nico said. “Don’t worry.”
“Bob concurs, although he doesn’t know what that is,” Bob nodded sagely.
Nico looked between Annabeth and Bob for a moment, then pulled Bob aside to speak with him privately. Annabeth wanted to know what he was saying, but she was also getting dizzy. She sat down on the edge of the patio and looked down at the water. After shadow traveling to the Doors, her condition would deteriorate yet again. She wondered if she’d be able to handle what came next.
Then she realized she was an idiot. She’d held up the sky. She’d lost an arm and was still going. She’d be fine.
The patio conference was interrupted by a friendly voice calling out to Nico. Annabeth saw a tall, thin god with large grey wings and curly white blonde hair waving at him. She rolled her eyes. For someone supposedly in hostile territory, Nico was terribly popular.
“Hypnos!” Nico said, running over to fist bump him. “What are you doing here?”
“Just checking out the new patio,” he said. “My parents have the worst luck with contractors. What brings you out here?”
“Closing the Doors,” Nico said. “No biggie.”
“About time,” Hypnos nodded. “My brother isn’t with you? The Doors of Death are his job.”
“He’s helping me with something on the surface,” Nico said. “Besides, he hates it down here. I’m happy to do this for him.”
“That’s awesome,” Hypnos said, glancing out at the horde of monsters gathering on the other side of the river. “I’d, uh, help out, but I just remembered I have a thing.”
“It’s fine,” Nico said, being way more chill than Annabeth would be in her place. She’d be begging, borrowing, and stealing godly assistance and magical weapons like her life depended on it, since it did. Being immortal left you a lot more room for pride and independence.
Hypnos made his excuses and disappeared hastily, not wanting to get caught in an awkward situation where Nico needed help and he didn’t feel like providing it. They had the patio to themselves for another few minutes before voices approached yet again. Nico was right; a lot of Nyx’s kids seemed to be home at the moment.
“Listen, they’re not even black, they’re a very dark blue,” someone was insisting. “You kind of need the right light to see the indigo, but I really think-- Well, who do we have here?”
The goddesses who stepped onto the patio were wearing bathrobes, face masks, and had their hair up in towels. Both of them had large black wings on their backs, sticking out of cut out holes in the robes.
“Having a spa night, ladies?” Nico said sarcastically.
“Nico,” one of the goddesses hissed.
“Nemesis,” he replied, glaring at the goddess on the left.
Annabeth took a deep breath. It still hurt. She was so sick of Tartarus, its nasty air, and its nastier residents. Running into Nemesis meant nothing good. Nico was livid after the podcast, and Nemesis probably didn’t feel any more kindly towards him.
“What do you think you’re doing in my mother’s mansion?” Nemesis said. “Why don’t you run back to the Underworld where you belong?”
“Oh, you think I belong there?” Nico asked. “I thought you were looking forward to me getting turned human.”
“Oh, you heard this week’s episode?” Nemesis asked, grinning. “Yeah, I am looking forward to that. Can’t wait to order a sub from Jimmy Johns and watch you make it. I hope they force you to wear a little hat.”
“Even if I did become human, I wouldn’t work at Jimmy Johns!” Nico shouted angrily.
“This is the best day of my life,” the other sister said, readjusting her towel.
“Eris, get mom,” Nemesis said. “Make her evict this creep.”
“Evict me and I’ll tell Thanatos to quit again,” Nico said stubbornly. “Don’t test me.”
“You’re lucky I’m doing my skincare routine, or I’d attack you so hard right now,” Nemesis said.
“Attack me?” Nico said. “I’ve known you were working for Gaea for ages, and I’ve never done anything about it, because I respect your mom too much to mess with you. What reason have I ever given you for attacking me? You’re the one spouting anti-Nico propaganda on the airwaves!”
“You thought that was propaganda? Just wait,” she hissed. “You know what you did. Don’t make me say it.”
“Fight him!” Eris said, shoving Nemesis into Nico. Annabeth stood behind Bob, terrified that this would escalate into a real fight. They couldn’t afford for Nico to get hurt or worn out before the Doors, but with Eris pouring discord into the two of them, there was no telling what might happen next.
“Nico!” Annabeth shouted. “Let’s go!”
Nico was glaring at Nemesis angrily, and didn’t look at her. Annabeth could see Eris’ face glowing under her face mask. She was stirring them up. Nemesis flexed her wings threateningly.
“Nico!” Annabeth shouted, with all the authority her weak, hoarse human voice could muster. “Hazel is on the other side! Don’t get sidetracked!”
Hazel’s name was all Nico needed to hear. Before Nemesis could speak another word, he’d grabbed Bob and Annabeth and shadow traveled them to the Doors of Death.
They landed sprawling in the dirt in front of the Doors. The entire horde of monsters turned to look at them.
Nico threw up a cloud of darkness quickly, concealing them. Annabeth was reeling from the speed of travel, feeling just as sick as she’d predicted.
“The elevator’s coming down right now!” Nico said. “Be ready. We have less than a minute.”
The darkness he’d made was disappearing. Annabeth looked around frantically.
“There’s a titan in front of the button!” She hissed. “I don’t even have a weapon!”
“You don’t need one,” Nico said. “Bob?”
Bob seized Annabeth around the waist and held onto her.
The darkness began to fade away. Monsters approached to investigate, and Nico disappeared.
Annabeth and Bob were surrounded. While they’d been concealed, over a hundred different creatures had surrounded them in a circle. Katobleps, empousai, more drakons-- everything she could dream up in her worst nightmares.
“Iapetus!” It was the guard titan, wearing with black armor and a massive black sword walked up to them. “You bring a demigod! Is the girl a tribute for mother? Another recruit?”
“Yes,” Bob said. He wasn’t cut out for lying, but he was making an effort, at least, to sound sure of himself.
“She won’t make this elevator,” the titan said. “There’s trouble on the surface. We don’t know who’s in this,” he said, tapping the ‘coming down’ sign, which was lit up. “But once it arrives, we’re closing for maintenance.”
A huge uproar arose from the crowd of monsters, all of whom seemed to want passage to the surface.
“We merely need to clean out the other side! Clytius is working on it,” the titan said. “The elevator will resume service momentarily.”
“But we want on NOW, Krios!” Yelled an empousa that Annabeth recognized as Kelli, an old enemy.
Krios picked up his sword and smacked Kelli upside the head with it, turning her to dust.
“I said, the elevator will resume service MOMENTARILY!” He said. “Any more questions? I didn’t think so,” he shook his head. “What can you do?” He said to Bob.
Bob stared at him, unsure of what to say. Krios stared back, confused by everything about Bob’s demeanor. They stood awkwardly, waiting on the elevator.
Three well-attired women strode forward. The tallest one, Annabeth recognized as Circe, a sorceress she’d met long ago.
Circe cast some sort of crowd control spell, pushing the monsters away from the area of the Doors.
Annabeth ticked off one extremely convenient, extremely coincidental deus ex machina.
The three witches stood in front of the Doors and joined Krios, making an intimidating barrier between Annabeth and the button.
Then, Circe’s eyes went wide.
“Pedro!” She shrieked.
The two witches alongside her also let out ear piercing shrieks, causing Krios to shudder and cover his ears.
The skeletal kitten formerly known as Small Bob stepped out from behind Bob’s legs. It looked up at the witches.
“Meow!” It said loudly.
“Pedro, come back to us,” Circe said, spreading her arms and reaching out for the kitten.
Pedro ran in the opposite direction. All three witches followed, dashing out of sight, shouting, “Pedro! Pedro, no!”
The witches were gone, but their monster barrier remained. Annabeth silently thanked Small Bob/Pedro/whoever and crossed another deus ex machina off the list.
The elevator dinged. The doors slid open, and Krios turned to stand ready.
There was only one person inside.
“Going down?” Percy said. He drew Riptide.
The chains on either side of the elevator shattered.
Things happened in a blur, quite literally, because Annabeth began crying with relief. Percy faced off with the titan Krios, and she saw his gaze rest on her for a brief moment. He said nothing, and made no gesture towards her, but it didn’t matter. They could communicate a thousand words in a glance.
Nico reappeared alongside her.
“Bob, you know what to do. When that sign blinks again in 12 minutes, go for it,” he said. “Annabeth--”
“This isn’t the plan,” she said, desperate to get control of the situation. “We need to get Percy back to the surface. Nico, if you have to choose one of us, choose him. Take him and leave me.”
“Shut up,” Nico said, kissing her on the cheek. “You’ve done all I could have asked of you. I won’t let anything happen to you or your boyfriend.”
She wasn’t even sure whether he was still her boyfriend, though she realized that wasn’t really the point. She also wasn’t sure if she was making any sense; she had forgotten half the plan after the shadow traveling scrambled her brain. Despite her careful preparations, she was feeling extremely weak, both in body and mind at the moment. It felt like terrible timing, but at the same time, she’d seen it coming.
“I didn’t do anything yet. I have to hold the button,” she said. “You need to send Percy on the last elevator up.”
“Don’t tell me what to do,” Nico insisted. “I’ve got this, Annabeth. Have some faith.”
She watched Percy challenge Krios, shaking with fear. She had one arm and no weapon, and Bob was holding the back of her shirt, so there was little she could do to help Percy. The most she could do was warn him.
“Percy, look out!” She screamed as loudly as she could. It was such an annoying, ‘girlfriend on the sidelines’ thing to do, and she usually avoided falling into that trope. In this situation, her shouting was warranted, because Hyperion was running towards Percy at a jog, his entire body aflame.
“Damn it,” Nico said, disappearing again.
Damasen was running right behind Hyperion. He drew his sword and shield and watched as Hyperion and Krios flanked Percy, trapping him between them.
“Bob, please,” Annabeth said. “Either let me go down there, or help him.”
Bob shook his head.
“I need to stay with you.”
“Percy can’t fight two titans at once in these conditions!” Annabeth said. She could see signs of strain on Percy’s face already as the atmosphere of Tartarus began to eat away at his vitality. With no water around, Percy had very little time.
Bob was a brick wall, unrelenting in his insistence on protecting her. Fortunately, the situation evolved for the better before she was forced to try to escape him.
Nico attacked Krios from behind, blinding him with a hood of shadow that left him pawing at his face. Invisible, Nico sliced at his ankles, sending him crashing to the ground. Annabeth marveled at how gifts as simple as invisibility and intangibility gave such an incredible advantage in battle. No one could defend against something they could neither see nor touch. She could see why the Olympians were scared of him.
Percy was left facing only Hyperion and Damasen. Krios was still fighting, but he’d focused on swiping at thin air, trying to catch Nico like he was a biting fly.
“We meet again!” Hyperion announced, flames blazing from every inch of his body.
“Still a hothead, I see,” Percy said.
“I will take immense pleasure in turning you to ash,” Hyperion said, stepping forward to begin his assault in earnest.
He fell forward, nearly crashing into the ground.
“Hey!” He shouted, turning back to look.
Damasen had stuck his foot out and tripped him. He plunged his sword into Hyperion’s back before Hyperion could rise.
Hyperion howled in anguish, and rose, angrier and more flame covered than ever. Percy used his opponents distraction and injury to his advantage, and began slashing at him. He didn’t know Damasen, but he knew an ally when he saw one, and the two of them began to overwhelm Hyperion together.
On the other side, Nico did the same to Krios, taking small swipes at him and slowly wearing him down. He didn’t appear to deal major damage with any particular blow, instead wearing Krios down psychologically, never giving him the chance to see him. If Krios ever landed a hit on Nico, there was no way for him to know, and it drove him wild with frustration.
Since her friends were winning, Annabeth was able to panic slightly less, although she knew better than to think it would end this easily. The other shoe always had to drop, right at about this time.
Bob was watching the elevator. Twelve minutes needed to pass before it could go back up. They were a third of the way there. The last trip up would be Annabeth’s final opportunity to get to the surface that didn’t involve shadow travel. Nico had not said it explicitly, but they both knew she was unlikely to survive the trip with him.
Getting on the elevator and surviving was secondary to what Annabeth cared about, which was Percy’s safety. She watched with baited breath as Hyperion was pummeled.
The other shoe arrived on schedule, unfortunately.
The ground began to rumble and shake. As Krios and Hyperion both dissolved into dust, defeated, a swirling darkness appeared in the place they’d fallen.
It was nothing like the cloud they’d walked through earlier, the body of Erebus, although the overwhelming size was similar. It wasn’t so much the absence of light as the absence of anything. The emptiness formed into a something that was somehow made of nothing. And the nothing was pissed off.
“You dare interfere in my domain!” A terrifying voice resounded. It was unnatural, like a record played backward.
This was the being she’d been slowly destroyed by for the last few days. Tartarus, the essence of the Pit itself, stood before them.
This wasn’t the deus ex machina she’d been hoping for.
Damasen backed away slowly. Percy dropped his sword. Nico got covered in darkness like Tartarus had thrown a blanket on him, and he was forced to become visible.
They’d been outclassed by an astronomical margin. A god, a titan, and a demigod fighting on the same side ought to have been an alliance for the history books. Instead, they looked pathetic, like toddlers caught throwing blocks at naptime being scolded by their preschool teacher.
Tartarus lifted a hand. It was covered by a gauntlet of black metal with swirling, agonized faces on it. The rest of his armor was made of the same nausea-inducing plate.
“Impertinent fools,” he intoned. “I will smite you in one fell blow. Let all who witness this remember what happens to those who cross the will of the Pit!”
The worldseemed to swirl as Tartarus’ black hole of a face began to absorb the light around it.
Percy turned his face back to look at Annabeth.
“Don’t,” she murmured under her breath. He started to say something to her, something she could read on his lips. He’d said it many times before, but now of all times, she didn’t want him to say it.
“I still love you,” he mouthed.
She clenched her teeth, choking back tears. Of course he did. Percy was so much better than she deserved.
The light melting, sucking effect briefly ceased. Tartarus moved his non-face in another direction, his focus leaving Nico, Damasen, and Percy. Someone new had arrived.
Hades strode toward the looming figure that was threatening Nico, Percy and Damasen.
“Lord of the Pit, this is beneath your dignity,” Hades said, his face upturned to address Tartarus. “Have you sunk so low as to take petty vengeance on your lessers?”
“Dad!” Nico exclaimed, overjoyed to see him. Hades gave him a ‘not now’ gesture. He faced Tartarus without any visible sign of fear, holding his helm of Darkness beneath his arm.
“These Doors are important to my wife,” Tartarus explained.
“The other side is now irreparably broken,” Hades said. “The elevator will never descend again. No more unauthorized visitors, I’m afraid.”
Tartarus hesitated.
“Gaea’s war will not be won or lost today, but this battle was over before you arrived,” Hades said. “With all due respect, I suggest you turn your attentions toward restoring the sanctity of your glorious realm.”
Tartarus turned his gaze to all the assembled monsters, who were clamoring and making a terrible mess. With a sigh, he melted back into the ground, disappearing from sight.
Hades took a deep breath.
“That was utterly terrifying,” he said. “You’re welcome,” he added, as Nico ran up and hugged him.
Annabeth checked off one final deus ex machina from the list. She looked at Percy, and he looked back. They’d survived another battle together. It was more than she’d ever dared to hope for.
In a terrible stroke of timing, the magical barrier that held back the monsters disappeared just as the elevator dinged.
Bob grabbed Annabeth and tossed her in. He stood outside the door and waited as Percy ran in after her. Bob moved to press the button, glancing back one final time to be sure she was secure.
“Bob, thank you,” she said. “For everything. I hope we see each other again.”
He nodded, giving her one last smile.
“Bob believes we will,” he said. “Beneath the sunlight, someday soon.”
As he pressed the button, the doors started to close.
Damasen jammed his foot in just before they slid shut. He pried the doors open and popped in, letting them slam closed behind him.
“I’m not missing my ride,” he said to Annabeth, winking. “Hi,” he added, looking at Percy. “You fought well out there.”
“Hi,” Percy said, staring at him. “You too, man. Are you a giant?”
“Yes,” Damasen said.
“Cool,” Percy said, his eyes wide. Annabeth could read his thoughts. Trapped in an elevator with a giant. Awesome, totally normal, not freaking out.
“Damasen is a friend,” she said.
Percy looked at her sharply. Again, he didn’t have to speak for her to know his thoughts exactly. He might have come to save her, but if they were going to finally talk to each other, it was going to be about what had happened between them, or it would be about nothing at all. Percy didn’t make polite small talk with people who’d betrayed him and broke his heart.
In the proximity of the elevator, she saw his face the moment he noticed her arm was missing. His expression was comically shocked, in a depressing sort of way.
The rest of the ride was incredibly awkward. Damasen’s good mood was not impacted, fortunately. He was nearly bouncing on the balls of his feet at the prospect of seeing the surface.
The Doors opened into a dark, damp basement room filled with her friends. Hazel, Frank, Leo and Piper stood there, waiting anxiously to see who made it back up. When she saw Annabeth, Hazel gave her a huge hug, and Annabeth squeezed her eyes shut tightly against her tears. It felt good to see her friends again. Especially good when she realized no one was injured besides her.
Percy did his best to explain what had happened, although he didn’t know any of the details. While he was talking, Annabeth stepped aside to say goodbye to Damasen.
“I go to find my fortune,” he said. “I’ll need time to get my bearings. I’ll have to lay low and avoid the pantheon for a while. Any recommendations on where to go in the mortal world?”
“New York City,” Annabeth said unhesitatingly. “They say if you can make it there, you can make it anywhere.”
“I’ll look into it,” he smiled. He shrank down into the size of a mortal man, still massive at over six feet tall, but concealed relatively well other than that. His red skin turned to reddish brown, and his bushy red beard got slightly trimmer. “And you?”
“I’ll defeat Gaea with my friends,” Annabeth said. “Or die trying.”
“I don’t think the latter outcome is likely,” Damasen said, indicating her arm. “If you were going to die, it would have happened by now.”
“You might be right,” Annabeth said. So much had happened in the interim, but the truth was that she’d recovered the Athena Parthenos and defeated Arachne in addition to surviving Tartarus. She hadn’t even spoken to her mother about it yet. “We’ll see.”
“When you become a goddess,” Damasen said. “Call me.”
He winked at her, then disappeared.
Annabeth felt everyone’s eyes on her. She turned around. Fortunately, everyone started staring at her arm and forgot about Damasen.
“Annabeth, I’m so sorry,” Hazel said. “You don’t look good. Do you need ambrosia? A doctor? What can we do?”
The air didn’t hurt. The ground beneath her feet was not alive. No monsters were attacking, no giants were running after her, and no primordial deity with a black hole for a face was threatening her.
She fainted.
Notes:
Sorry this chapter is so late! My routine has been disrupted over the last couple of weeks and I wasn't writing as much as i normally do. I'm working to get back on schedule soon. Thank you as always for reading!
Chapter 82: This is Me Trying
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Killing monsters was easy when you were a god. After his friends had jumped into the elevator in order to escape Tartarus, Nico and Hades started cleaning house. There were quite a few monsters still hanging around the area where the elevator had once been, mainly the stupid ones. Bob stood beside the shattered chains, holding the ‘up’ button for the required twelve minutes, and not a single monster got anywhere near him.
Nico didn’t have occasion to use his sword much, so fighting with Stygian iron for once was a thrill. Every monster he slashed meant there would be one less to bother his demigod friends on the surface. As he dissolved monster after monster into dust, he thought to himself that he was a perfectly useful god, not incompetent like certain podcasts would have people believe. He’d guided the Seven through one of the hardest challenges they’d face. He helped a demigod survive Tartarus, probably the first to ever do so. He was killing it at his job right now.
“I think that should be sufficient,” Hades intoned, sheathing his sword and sweeping his gaze across the scarred makeshift battle plain. The ranks of monsters were now reduced to a trembling, fearful crowd, cowering behind rock outcroppings and occasionally hissing.
“Shouldn’t we kill them all, Papa? Won’t that make it safer on the surface?” Nico asked.
Hades shook his head, looking down his nose at Nico patronizingly.
“Monsters may be unpleasant, son, but they have their place in the ecosystem. We only cut down those that lack respect for our divinity. Let Artemis hunt them for sport. I think you have better things to do.”
Nico put his sword away reluctantly, turning to watch as the elevator to the surface broke into pieces. After the chunks of metal and plastic fell to the ground and shattered, the only part left was the front door. Stripped of its elevator components, it was more obviously recognizable as one of the Doors of Death.
Bob released the button, his twelve minutes complete.
“Is friend Annabeth okay?” Bob asked, wiping his brow. His crazy white hair was plastered with sweat, and he was shaking with excitement.
“She’s fine,” Nico said. “You did great, Bob. Thank you.”
Hades watched as Nico went up to the Doors and locked them with the keystone. They disappeared with a dark shimmer, and he breathed a huge sigh of relief. It had taken him a while, but he’d finally finished the task he’d begun almost a year earlier. He couldn’t wait to tell Thanatos.
“We should go,” Hades said. “Gaea may wish to revenge herself upon you yet. How are you feeling?”
Nico had been so focused on the task at hand, and on keeping Annabeth alive, that he’d barely spared a thought for his own well-being over the last couple of days.
“Terrible,” he said, realizing that his limbs felt heavy and his blood sluggish. Now that the excitement was wearing off, he felt a headache developing at his temples and behind his eyes.
“I’d expect so,” Hades said. “Do you want me to take you home?”
“I’m okay,” Nico said. He’d spent enough time lazing around the palace doing nothing. He needed to get to work. “Can we go to the surface?”
“That’s fine,” Hades said. “I’ll take you, since you aren’t feeling well.”
“Also can Bob come?”
Hades glanced at the titan, who was smiling at him with a vacant look in his eyes.
“Must he?”
“Please?” Nico asked, blinking his eyes innocently.
Hades frowned.
“Fine. But bring yourself up, since you’re well enough to concern yourself with the titan. And his name is Iapetus. Bob,” he scoffed. “What is this pantheon coming to?”
Hades grabbed Bob, disappearing with him into darkness.
Nico gave Tartarus one last glance, in all its oozing and festering glory, and hoped it was the last time he ever saw the place.
Upon arriving in the basement of the Necromanteion, he found the Seven demigods, with the exception of Jason. They were all fussing over Annabeth, who had passed out on the floor.
Hazel ran over to give Nico a hug.
“I’m so proud of you,” Nico said.
“You too,” she said, looking up at him. He could see the light of accomplishment in her eyes, but she was clearly exhausted. They’d each fought hard battles of their own. He brushed some debris out of her curls affectionately.
“My children,” Hades said, a slight smile on his face. It was the closest expression to fatherly pride that Nico had ever seen him share with Hazel, who he often tried not to look at at all. “Today, you’ve brought honor to my house. I think you’ve earned a little treat.”
“A little treat?” Nico asked excitedly.
Hades whistled. From around the corner, the sound of footsteps came running.
A puppy the size of a rottweiler bounded up to them. He had three heads, three lolling, slobbery tongues, and six floppy ears.
“Cerby!” Nico gasped. Cerberus ran straight to him. All three heads started frantically licking him, sniffing all over and whimpering with excitement. When he wagged his tail, he shook his little butt back and forth with a force that could crack ribs, if someone was in the wrong place at the wrong time.
Nico scratched him behind his ears, squeezed him, kissed him and let him lick his face. He had been afraid that Cerberus wouldn’t remember him, or worse, that he would remember that Nico had been nearby when he’d been killed, and had failed to save him. However, his worries had been for nothing. It seemed that the reborn Cerberus could only remember that he loved Nico. Or maybe the bad stuff had never mattered that much to him to start with.
Hazel was a little more reserved with Cerberus. She wouldn’t be quick to forget watching him massacre a bunch of teens. It occurred to Nico that she might feel the same way about him now, although she was hiding it well.
Nico picked Cerberus up in his arms and held him like a hundred pound baby. If he didn’t have godly strength, it certainly wouldn’t have been possible.
“What have you been feeding him?” Nico asked his dad. “He’s so hefty! Isn’t he less than a week old?”
“Only the best for my boy,” Hades said, looking at Cerberus proudly. “I let him devour some of Apollo’s sacred cattle as recompense for that little rat Octavian’s theft of his head. Apollo’s been too frightened to say anything about it.”
“Nice,” Nico said, nuzzling Cerberus’ noses. “Did you like the little cows, buddy? Were they super yummy?”
Cerberus boofed, licking his chops sloppily.
“I’m glad y’all got your dog back,” Hazel said, looking slightly disappointed that Hades considered puppy cuddles a suitable reward for her efforts. “But Annabeth is unconscious, so we’d better head out.”
“Nico, before you go, I need another moment,” Hades said.
Hazel and the demigods left, carrying Annabeth out of the Necromanteion, back up through the winding tunnels.
Nico was blissed out on puppy snuggles. It took him a moment to realize that his dad wasn’t looking at him with a particularly happy expression.
“Where’s Bob?” He asked, realizing he wasn’t present.
“I sent him straight to the palace,” Hades said. “I rather like the idea of having a pet titan.”
“Papa, he’s not a pet,” Nico said angrily. “He’s my friend.”
“Titans are not friends,” Hades said sharply. “They are ancient enemies of the gods, and must be watched carefully.”
“I don’t have any ancient enemies,” Nico said. “I’m new. And I can be friends with a titan if I want to be. You made me a diplomat for a reason, didn’t you?”
“Bob is fine. He said he liked the place, so I wish to hear no more mention of him,” Hades said. “There is another titan I am far more concerned with at the moment.”
“Please don’t,” Nico said. He was exhausted by the subject before his dad even said anything.
“You don’t know what I’m about to say,” Hades said defensively.
Nico clutched Cerberus closer, looking into two of his eyes for moral support. They were big and brown, and there were absolutely no thoughts behind them.
“My team just won a huge victory over Gaea. I helped the first mortal ever to escape Tartarus. And you helped save me from getting sucked into Tartarus’ weird face vortex. That was cool.”
“Indeed,” Hades said. “I am very cool.”
“So let’s leave it there,” Nico said. “On a good note. No ranting about Kronos, please”
Hades seemed to consider Nico’s request for a moment. Unfortunately, he rejected it.
“No. I need to bring this up. I explicitly told you not to go to Tartarus. And--”
“I went to help you, you jerk!” Nico said. Cerberus flinched when he raised his voice, so Nico tried to stay cool, for his sake.
“I am aware of that, and I was appreciative enough to overlook how utterly foolish you were to disobey me. I also thought your cat disguise was clever. But you were not wearing it when I encountered you in front of the Doors. You do realize--”
“Yeah, yeah. Kronos saw me. He knows all about me. In fact, he invited me over for hot chocolate and we played Monopoly in our jammies.”
Hades blinked at him a few time, looking sincerely frightened by the statement.
“That was sarcasm!” Nico said, thinking that the clarification definitely shouldn’t have been necessary. “Kronos isn’t conscious. Everybody knows that.”
“We cannot know for certain,” Hades said. “You don’t know him like I do.”
“No, I think he’s pretty much dead,” Nico said. “The only place he’s still alive is where he’s living rent free in your head.”
Hades flinched as though he’d been stung by a small, sassy bee.
“I don’t have to listen to this,” Hades said. “Your victory has obviously gone to your head. I will reconvene with you at the final battle. I will expect you to facilitate a decisive victory. Do not forget that Persephone’s future hangs in the balance. And remember what I said about a light touch with the demigods. Cerberus, heel!”
Nico reluctantly released Cerberus to return to his true master, after one final smooch on each of his heads. Hades and the little Cerberus disappeared.
Nico was left alone in the darkness of the Necromanteion. He ran his hand along the familiar mosaic walls, recalling the time he’d once led the ghosts who’d been trapped there back down to Charon’s boat. He’d come so far from his humble beginnings as a supposedly mortal necromancer. Now he was revealed to be a psychopomp, a god meant to lead the dead to their final resting places.
It still felt wrong that something like that should be temporary. Persephone always said he had been created with a purpose. She’d made him to be her son, but the Fates had woven a more specific divine role for him as well. He hated that Hades was going to make him throw it all away in exchange for pathetic humanity. But he remembered the tale of Zeus’ unborn eldest son.
His dad’s excuse for humanizing Nico was flimsy, but maybe the outcome would be for the best. In the Greek pantheon, the most dangerous thing you could be was a threat to your father. In his own selfish, paranoid way, Hades thought he was protecting him.
He returned to the Argo II. The top deck was empty, the once pristine wood surface marred with signs of a recent battle. He’d expected Jason to run into his arms immediately and profess how much he’d been missed. When that didn’t happen, Nico amended his expectations to be slightly more realistic. He’d killed a bunch of his friends in front of him. Stuff like that could really strain a relationship.
He could hear voices on the other side of the door. Hazel, Annabeth, and Percy could be heard in violent disagreement about some sort of plan.
He reached out for the doorknob, then stopped himself. He remembered what his dad had said. ‘A light touch with the demigods.’ If there was one thing to be said for Hades, he’d been around the block a few times, and Nico definitely had not even been around it one time. He wasn’t happy with how he’d impacted the group so far, and he realized it probably was time to listen to his dad’s advice. A light touch…
He asked himself, ‘what would a more experienced god do?’. Then he thought better of that. Killing a bunch of people in an act of wrath and having a poorly thought-through love affair was already godly enough. ‘What would I do if I wasn’t a stupid idiot?’ Now that was the real question.
Annabeth had proven herself a million times over in Tartarus. She was surely the demigod favored to join the ranks of the Olympians. She needed absolutely nothing from Nico, and she probably didn’t feel like seeing his face so soon after being stuck with him for the worst seventy two hours of her life.
Nico turned invisible and walked through the wall to observe the demigod’s discussion. He saw that Annabeth was hooked up to an IV-- Not an ambrosia one, a normal one, which was a good call, since she’d had enough of the hard stuff. Despite her armless, ragged state, and the fact that she was in desperate need of a shower, she was at the kitchen table poring over a map of Athens.
Nico wanted to slap her and yell, ‘Go to sleep, bitch!’ But he knew that wouldn’t change anything. Annabeth was gonna Annabeth. Instead, he looked at everyone else around the table and thought about the looks on their faces, what he knew about them, and what he could surmise about their current states of mind. What did they need that he could give them?
He put together a gift basket for his demigods.
For Frank, he packed a tub of magical protein powder that would strengthen his bones to withstand otherwise unsurvivable impacts. He’d been seriously hurt in the Necromanteion, and it would be a boon to Hazel’s peace of mind if she knew that wasn’t likely to happen again.
For Leo, he created a set of hair clips labeled ‘fireproof charms-- go nuts-- five minute maximum.’ The other demigods could wear their hairclips and become briefly invulnerable to Leo’s flames, allowing him to use his powers without fear of harming his friends. Nico, being a god, didn’t need to add a time limit, but he did anyway. It just seemed like the sort of arbitrary bullshit an experienced deity would pull. It made him feel more professional to carry on the tradition of making quests slightly harder than they needed to be.
For Piper, whom he didn’t like very much, he made a little coin purse that would always have a piece of ambrosia inside in case of emergency. He was aware that she didn’t want to be reduced to the ‘team healer’ position, but he didn’t care. The team seemed to be getting hurt constantly, and no one had healing powers, so someone needed to step up.
Percy and Annabeth’s gift was combined. Making it was a little more complicated, and it took him a few trips to the Underworld to perfect it, but he figured it out. He tucked a blue Powerade bottle into the gift basket with a tag on it saying, ‘For Percy-- Drink immediately.’
For Hazel, he simply wrote a card. It had a picture of a skeleton kitten hanging from a branch, with the label beneath reading, ‘Hang in there, baby!’ He placed the basket on the Argo II’s dining table, taking care not to reveal himself, then stood back to watch.
“Eeee!” Hazel squealed in ear piercing, teenage girl joy. She hopped up and down with excitement. “Y’all! Nico gave us presents!”
She began tearing into the basket and handing stuff out, and everyone gathered around to see what they got. Annabeth was the only one who didn’t appear even mildly curious; she glanced up from her map with a slight frown, as though Nico’s presents were distracting her from her planning that she absolutely had to do right that minute.
“Bone strengthening protein powder! Awesome,” Frank said, reading the label of his gift. “I was just thinking that I need to start bulking.”
“Frank, don’t open the wrapping until I read the card. Don’t you have any manners?” Hazel scolded. “Ahem. Dear Hazel and team: Thank you for all of your efforts that have gotten us this far. I know it hasn’t been easy, but I’m so proud of all of you, especially Hazel, and with the exception of Annabeth, who is so awesome that I’m actually scared of her.”
That got a smirk out of Annabeth, and the other demigods laughed, too. He was pretty sure they were also intimidated by her accomplishments at this point. Only Percy did not appear amused.
“Please enjoy your gifts and do whatever Annabeth tells you. I’m not going to hang out with you guys anymore, since I think I caused more problems than I solved. If you need me, come to my house in Chania. Until then, I’ll watch from a distance, but I will watch, so don’t think you can talk bad about me just because you can’t see me. --Love, Nico.”
Hazel closed the card, blinking tears out of her eyes.
“Don’t start the waterworks on us, Haze,” Leo said, grinning at her. He snatched his new fireproof hairclips out of the basket and looked confused by them at first. He put them all into his hair before he read the instructions and sheepishly took them out and gave them to his friends instead.
“I can’t help it. He’s right. We really have come so far,” Hazel said. “I can tell he’s here with us. Thank you, Nico. Love ya, big brother.”
Nico gently kissed the top of her head, and Hazel shivered. She looked both deeply moved and very content with his promise to watch from afar. He probably should have done that from the beginning. Hooking up with Jason, although it was fun, and killing the legionaries, although they deserved it-- those had been rookie moves. He was going to do better by his team from now on.
“Feels a little like Alice in Wonderland,” Percy said, holding his blue Powerade up to the light. “Drink me. I’d rather not.”
“Please, bro?” Leo asked. “I’m dying to know what it does.”
“I’ve learned to beware of gods bearing gifts,” Percy said, raising a dark eyebrow skeptically.
“If you don’t want to, you don’t have to,” Annabeth said quietly.
Percy shot her a defiant, ‘who asked you’ look, then poured the Powerade down his throat.
He promptly fell to the floor.
Annabeth moved immediately to help him, but stopped short of touching him. He was only down for a few seconds before he sat up. Nico watched with bated breath, hoping he’d gotten the formula right.
Percy blinked, looking around.
“What just happened?” He asked. He reached out for Annabeth’s hand.
Annabeth stifled a gasp. Percy’s body language towards her had been hostile up until that point. She took his hand like it was made of tissue paper and helped him back to his feet carefully.
“You okay?” She asked. “How do you feel?”
“Fine,” he said, smiling at her. “But—” His eyes locked onto her missing arm. “Holy crap, what happened?” He said, grabbing her shoulder and looking at her with concern.
“I lost it to a drakon in Tartarus,” Annabeth said. “Did you… Forget?”
“I think I would remember my girlfriend’s arm being bitten off,” Percy said, looking at her with concern. “When were you in Tartarus? Why don’t I remember that?”
Annabeth swallowed hard. Everyone else in the room was completely silent, staring at them in confusion.
“Percy,” she said, speaking carefully. “Tell me the last thing you remember.”
“You were leaving to search for the Athena Parthenos,” he said. “You kissed me goodbye and walked into that horrible tunnel in Rome. I don’t remember anything after that.”
Annabeth threw her arms around him and started sobbing uncontrollably.
“What the heck?” Percy said, holding her protectively. “Annabeth, what happened? What is it I’m forgetting?”
“Nothing worth remembering,” Piper said, shooting a warning glance at the others. “At least not right now. Right, guys?”
Leo mimed zipping his lips, and the others shared conspiratorial smiles. They all understood that it was for the best if the ugly truth waited. They were in the middle of a war, after all.
Nico sighed with relief. His work was done, and the water of the Lethe had done precisely what he’d asked it to. Hopefully Annabeth would appreciate the gesture and understand that he needed her well and whole for the journey ahead. He couldn’t give her back her arm, but Percy had two perfectly good ones.
He shadow traveled to his house in Chania. He hadn’t been back in a while, and he spent a few minutes straightening up his couch cushions and brewing some coffee. Bright sun streamed through the windows, and he took a moment to appreciate the beauty of the sea glittering in the distance. He liked the Underworld best, of course, but after Tartarus, sunlight felt refreshing. Besides, he had to be available in case his demigods came to visit. He sent Thanatos a text and prepared to wait, knowing that his beloved sometimes forgot to check his phone. Once he’d debriefed with Thanatos and located Jason, all would be in order.
With time to kill, Nico went out to the garden Persephone had made for him as a gift. Seeing the little pond where he’d once accidentally murdered a naiad, he cringed a little. There wasn’t a single plant anywhere near the water any longer. Probably for the best.
He conjured a basket and went out to pick fresh tomatoes from the vine that grew along the wall of the house.
“None of you bastards better be sentient,” he warned the fruits as he filled the basket one by one.
“They’re not,” said Persephone, appearing beside him. “Although that one isn’t ripe, my dear. Try again. Not, not that one either. Honestly, you take after your father way too much for my liking sometimes.”
“I know. Hi, Mom,” he said, letting her kiss his cheeks. She smelled like strawberries and summer sunshine, and her dress was the bright yellow of an Amalfi lemon. She put her arm around his shoulders and followed him to the herb garden.
“What are you making with this?” She asked, gesturing towards his basket.
“Tomato sauce. I still need basil, oregano, parsley, rosemary, and a ton of garlic. I don’t know what they look like. I mean, I know the garlic, but not the green ones.”
Persephone clucked her tongue at her son’s ignorance. She knelt in the soft earth of the garden bed and gestured for him to get down next to her.
“This is rosemary,” she said, gently poking a plant with thin, pale green leaves. “And here is your basil. Can’t you smell it?”
“Mhm,” Nico said, zoning out as she continued talking. He actually did know what they looked like, since she made him watch a lot of Gardener’s World back home, but he liked watching her in her element. She spoke to the plants, caressing them, and each one stood up taller and greener to catch her eye. When she wasn’t looking, he saw the lavender elbow the sage out of the way.
“Now, now,” Persephone whispered, tapping the lavender on the top of its bud. “That’s no way to behave.”
The lavender shriveled and fell apart into brown dust. Nico had to stifle a grin. Persephone was charmingly merciless, although it was easy to forget what she was capable of when you were on her good side. Once he had all of his herbs, she followed him inside to the kitchen.
“Is this your mortal mother’s recipe?” She asked, seating herself on a stool beside the kitchen island. Nico got her a cup of coffee with sugar before he got started.
“Mama didn’t cook,” Nico said as he heated the water for the sauce. “You guys had that in common. This was my Nonna’s recipe. I wasn’t old enough to remember, but Bianca memorized it before we left Italy. She taught it to me, even though we didn’t have a kitchen or anything at boarding school to actually make it. I think she was afraid I’d turn American and forget our traditions if she didn’t help me hold on to them.”
“Maybe she knew you’d be separated as well,” Persephone said.
“I guess she hoped we would be,” Nico said, stirring the tomatoes up violently, a tinge of old bitterness entering his voice. “But that’s ancient history now.”
“You don’t talk about her much anymore,” Persephone said. “Not like you once did.”
“I spent too much time obsessing over her,” Nico said. “I needed a break. I haven’t forgotten. I’m just not letting her live rent free in my head anymore.” He clenched his teeth, remembering his earlier conversation with his dad. They really were way too alike; Persephone had been right about that. When they got something stuck in their craw, they had a tendency to let it fester for way too long there.
“She died heroically,” Persephone said. “Perhaps she only needed one more heroic lifetime in order to reach the Isles of the Blessed. If so, you’ll see her again.”
“That’s what our mama said, too,” Nico said, talking while he chopped the garlic and onions. “But what if Bianca lives a normal human life? Is that so bad?” He didn’t like the idea of her dying young again. Like Hazel, he wanted her to have a do-over, even if hers didn’t include any memory of him in it.
“For a normal person to live a normal life is a normal thing,” Persephone said. “For a hero to live a normal life is a tragedy. The gods abhor those who defy their destiny. Everyone should strive to fulfill their potential, no?”
“I guess,” Nico said, thinking of Jason. “But being a hero takes a lot of painful sacrifice. It’s understandable if they need a break.”
“A break is okay,” Persephone shrugged. “So long as they remember what’s important in the end.”
Nico swallowed, watching his sauce bubble on the stovetop, gently steaming fragrant tomato-ey goodness throughout the house. Persephone was making him nervous.
What if Jason was on his second, or even his third and final heroic life? He could be on the path to the Isles of the Blessed.
And Nico might have knocked him off track.
He hadn’t given it a lot of thought before, but the more he considered the matter, the more he could see that being the case. Jason was a selfless person. He’d been through countless large and small traumas, and he still planned on returning to Camp Jupiter and making it a better place after the war. He had given everything, and he was willing to keep giving in order to keep the gods’ children safe for generations to come. There was no one more deserving of an eternal paradise. Kindness, loyalty, bravery, perseverance, piety-- Jason was all of those things and more. It was likely that he’d been the same in a past lifetime, though there was no way to be certain.
“How do you know if someone’s been reborn?” He asked Persephone.
“Only the judges have those records,” she said. “They can’t share them with gods, to prevent our cheating on behalf of our favorites. Probably best for everyone, I think.”
Nico was tempted to ask Minos for Jason’s records, but he knew it could get Minos into big trouble. He didn’t want to ask. Yet there was a sinking feeling in his gut now, screaming at him that he was pushing Jason in the wrong direction. He’d been letting Jason coast on past accomplishments, and he’d never put pressure on him to be anything other than a support role in the Gigantomachy. He’d never even asked Jason to worship him, and Jason definitely hadn’t been worshiping Jupiter and Juno lately-- quite the opposite. What if his impiety messed up his chances?
“That sauce smells so good,” Persephone said, interrupting his anxiety spiral. She was leaning on the counter, and the long curls of her dark hair swirling on the marble countertop looked like spilled coffee. “You know, I’ve been a little depressed about this plan to turn you human. I kept hoping you’d change your mind, but your dad said you haven’t.” She toyed with her little coffee cup as she spoke, looking slightly forlorn.
“Uh, no, I haven’t,” Nico said. He wanted to be honest and tell her to squash the plan, but with Hades and Thanatos dead set on it happening, it was just easier to go along with it.
“It makes me feel better to see you here doing human things,” she said, watching him as he got ready to make pasta to go with his sauce. “Maybe it won’t be as bad as I pictured.”
“It probably is better if I stay here instead of the Underworld,” Nico admitted. “Papa won’t like it, but I can have a more normal life up here. I won’t miss my powers as much if I’m around humans all day.”
“I agree,” Persephone said. “Hades will have to come up here to visit you. I’ve told him for ages that he needs more time in the sun. It would be good for his attitude problem. He would also do well to connect more with humans on the surface. He hasn’t gotten out enough since your mortal mom died. It makes him grumpy and clingy at the same time, and you can imagine how tiresome that gets for me.”
Nico laughed, dumping spaghetti into the boiling water. He poured himself a cup of coffee and sipped it, offering a refill to Persephone too. He dropped a cube of ambrosia into her cup, but he hesitated and stopped himself from dropping one in his own. It was good to remind himself that being human wasn’t a death sentence-- literally, in his case, since he’d still be immortal.
“It’s going to work out fine,” he said, feeling slightly more sure of the statement than he’d ever felt before. Talking to Persephone had a way of clarifying things for him. “As long as I have you and Papa, and Thanatos visits me once in a while, I’m going to be okay.”
“I know you will, my son,” Persephone smiled. He served her a bowl of spaghetti with his homemade sauce gleaming, red and perfectly seasoned, coating the noodles flawlessly. “See? You can work magic without working magic at all.”
Nico was just sitting down to eat with her when he heard a noise in the living room. He glanced over his shoulder and saw Thanatos, Jason, and Reyna standing in front of his TV.
“Hey, guys!” Nico called out. “I’m so glad you’re here! Let me make you plates. Please sit down.”
“Hi,” Thanatos smiled shyly. His fine platinum hair gleamed like spiderwebs in the fluorescent light. “That’s very kind of you. Don’t you agree, Jason and Reyna?”
Jason and Reyna both stared at Nico and Persephone in shock. Nico guessed that his beloved Thanatos might have just snatched them up with no warning, based on the fact that they were wearing still-dripping bathing suits and had snorkeling masks on.
Nico hurried up and put their plates down. Good food would smooth everything over.
“Jason, Reyna, this is my mom, Persephone,” Nico said, grinning with pride. “You may have heard of her.” He went up to the two of them and grabbed Jason’s hand encouragingly, shooting him a warm, ‘sorry I killed a bunch of people the last time you saw me’ smile.
Jason dropped his hand. Nico’s face fell. He knew they’d have to work through stuff, but he’d hoped the initial reaction might be a little warmer.
“Lady Proserpina, I’m honored to be in your presence,” Reyna said, dropping to her knees on the kitchen floor.
Persephone smiled down at her warmly. Then she gave Jason a not-so-warm look, noting the way he’d dropped Nico’s hand and then refused to greet her.
Jason walked over to the couch and sat down, staring ahead at the black TV screen. He didn’t even reach for the remote, and he left a big wet spot on the leather.
Nico was pissed. Jason was allowed to be upset with him, but being rude to Persephone was like mowing a field of buttercups and dandelions; it was just wrong.
Reyna glanced between the three gods in the kitchen, observing the fact that they were all growing angrier by the minute. She was visibly scared, and Nico pitied her. They were just mortals, after all, and Jason was surely overwhelmed with emotion upon seeing his murderous boyfriend again.
“I thought Jason Grace was supposed to be an exemplary demigod,” Persephone said coldly, her lip curling. “He doesn’t impress me much. Are you just going to let him sit there, son? Do I need to--”
“No, please don’t!” Nico said, standing between Persephone and Jason protectively. “You don’t need to deal with him, Mom, leave it to me. I’ll get him to apologize. Jason, Reyna, go upstairs and wait for me there.”
Reyna immediately ran over to Jason and dragged him up the stairs in a panic. At least she still had a healthy fear of the gods. Nico couldn’t figure why Jason seemed to have no sense of self-preservation.
“Good luck with that,” Thanatos shrugged, leaning on the counter and taking a bite of spaghetti. “Ever since Eros told him the date of his death, he’s been incorrigible.”
“Are you serious?” Nico asked, horrified.
“I’d suggest a light beating,” Thanatos said, his mouth full of noodles.
Nico choked down his horror at the idea that Eros had told Jason something so sensitive.
“Wait, when were you guys talking to Eros?” Nico asked, his horror quadrupling.
“I wasn’t,” Thanatos said, setting his fork down. “Jason was. Do you know my brother? Apparently he acted as though you two were acquainted.”
Persephone raised her eyebrows and sipped her coffee, trying not to look too interested.
“Maybe Jason misunderstood,” Nico said, avoiding Thanatos’ eyes. He knew that he’d give the truth away if Thanatos stared him down for too long. He suddenly understood how Annabeth must have felt keeping her cheating a secret from Percy-- Which wasn’t fair, because Nico had hooked up with Eros long before he and Thanatos had ever met.
“Did he?” Thanatos asked.
What good did the truth do anyone, anyway? He had a ton of secrets. One more wasn’t going to tip the iceberg.
“Eros and I have never met,” Nico insisted, looking pointedly at a leftover tomato on the countertop.
There was a brief, painful silence.
“Okay,” Thanatos muttered, avoiding Nico’s eyes as well.
The silence grew hard to bear, until Persephone started getting bored and tapping her nails on her coffee cup.
“Your haircut looks so lovely on you, Thanatos,” she said. “I really did excellent work, didn’t I?”
“Yes, thank you,” Thanatos said, grateful for the interruption. “I often walk past trees and reflexively stop to untangle myself. It’s quite pleasant to find it’s no longer necessary.”
Nico slapped the countertop.
“Cool, well, I’m gonna go deal with the demigods,” he said. “Be back in a sec.”
He disappeared, reappearing in his bedroom upstairs. Jason and Reyna were looking around, dripping water all over his expensive furniture.
Nico glanced at Reyna and jerked his head, indicating that she was to leave the room. She left, but letting her stay would have probably been a smarter idea, because Jason grew twice as prickly once she’d walked out the door.
“What happened with Eros?” Nico asked immediately.
Jason’s face grew even colder than it already had been, like an ice cube evolving into a glacier. Nico could practically hear the cracks forming in their relationship, splitting it down the middle, but it didn’t matter. What he felt for Jason paled in comparison to the weight of what Thanatos meant to him. Eros was the only god in the universe with the power to drive them apart.
“Your boyfriend didn’t tell you?” Jason sneered.
“You were the one who spoke to him. What did he say?” Nico demanded.
“He helped me find the scepter of Diocletian in exchange for a favor from you.”
“I didn’t--”
Jason cut Nico off before he could go on a rant about never having agreed to any such thing.
“I should have said in hopes of a favor from you. He doesn’t necessarily expect anything. Okay? Got it?” Jason asked.
“Not really,” Nico said, folding his arms. If Eros wanted to apologize, it was too little, too late. He’d made Nico feel like a nobody who didn’t matter, and he was anything but that. “Okay, change of subject, then. What the heck has gotten into you?”
“I’m sick of being pushed and pulled and dragged around by gods,” Jason snapped, turning away. “I don’t want to be here. I was snorkeling.”
“Clearly,” Nico said, gesturing at his snorkeling mask and the wet spot on his comforter in the shape of Jason’s swim trunks. “Well, for what it’s worth, I was really looking forward to seeing you again, but you’re being an ass and ruining everything.”
“Funny. I was looking forward to listening to another Taylor Swift album,” Jason said. “Guess we mortals can’t always get what we want. You’ll try to, though, won’t you? Oh mighty death god,” Jason said. “Who withheld this information from me all this time.”
“I’m sorry Eros told you that,” Nico said, softening up a bit. He could see the pain in Jason’s eyes, the terror he was holding back. Mortal minds weren’t meant to bear the weight of knowledge he now carried.
“Sorry? For what? That he ruined your surprise?” Jason asked. “Fuck off.” He turned his back on Nico, revealing that he’d gotten extremely sunburned over the past week. Beneath the burn, his tan was coming along well, and his hair had lightened from the sun. At least he’d die sexy.
“You can’t talk to me like that,” Nico said, trying to say it as kindly as possible. He wished his perspective shift hadn’t come so late. Now he realized that it had been a grave mistake to encourage Jason’s rejection of Juno and Jupiter. It had been a slippery slope towards not revering the gods at all, and now he might pay for his disrespect with an afterlife downgrade he didn’t deserve. Jason would be lucky if Persephone let him even look at a picture of Elysium if he didn’t correct course quickly.
Jason ignored him. He walked away, trying to leave the room. It was offensive, but Nico had to look past it. He needed to help him before it was too late.
Without moving a step, Nico caused the door to slam and lock itself before Jason could lay a hand on the knob.
“Jason,” he said gently, knowing he needed to manage the short term situation before he could tackle the long term. “You offended Persephone. She’s going to take it out on Reyna if she can’t take it out on you. And I won’t let her take it out on you, because I love you. That hasn’t changed. It won’t change. Even if you’re being a shit right now.”
Jason didn’t show any sign of caring that Nico still loved him. He just stared at the doorknob, his expression so dead and sad inside that Nico just wanted to give him million hugs. Unfortunately, they wouldn’t be welcomed at the moment.
“Fine,” Jason said through gritted teeth. “I’ll apologize for Reyna’s sake. But afterward, I want to leave.”
Nico was astounded by his audacity. Jason was a totally different person when he knew he had nothing to lose. Stubborn, demanding, openly resentful-- He’d gotten the guts to stand up for himself after twenty years of being a doormat and a pawn. He reminded Nico a lot of Percy, another demigod who’d shunned all the perks the gods could have offered him in exchange for free rein and independence. But Percy still had decades of life ahead of him, and Jason’s soul would be put on trial in six weeks. He actually did have something to lose. Not just something-- eternity. Paradise. Everything he’d ever worked for.
How did you convince someone to care about dying in the right way when every cell in their body was screaming at once, “I want to live!”
Jason may have wanted to leave Nico’s home, but he wasn’t in a position to set his own terms. This was yet another symptom of the bind Nico had put him in. He pictured Jason before the judges’ stand in the Underworld, trying to negotiate with Aeacus, Minos, and Rhadamanthys when they said he’d be eternally punished for impiety. Maybe Jason would be sent to the Fields of Punishment to scrub temple floors until the end of time.
“Apology first,” Nico said, pointing him out the door. “We’ll discuss leaving afterward.”
He watched as Jason trudged downstairs and knelt in front of Persephone, asking for her forgiveness. She gave it, albeit a little reluctantly; Nico suspected she’d liked the excitement of being offended. It was probably a thrill for someone who was almost universally liked.
Satisfied with Jason’s apology, she bid Nico and Thanatos goodbye, reminding her son that he didn’t call enough. After she’d disappeared in a flurry of rose petals, Jason looked between Nico and Thanatos.
“Can I go now?” Jason asked. “Take me back to Croatia.”
“Why should I do that?” Nico asked.
“I have six weeks left to live,” Jason said firmly. “I’m spending it with my best friend, and we’re going snorkeling. Where did Reyna go?” He glanced around, but didn’t see her downstairs.
“Why snorkeling, of all things?” Nico asked.
“I don’t know, what else am I supposed to do?” Jason asked. “I’m dying. I may as well have fun. Where is Reyna?”
Nico walked around the kitchen island and started cleaning up dishes. He was struggling to find the words to explain the situation. Jason’s feelings were completely understandable, but they were also going to ruin his afterlife. And Nico knew he was the reason they were in this situation. It made him feel bad about what he was going to have to do.
“Where is Reyna, Nico?” Jason demanded.
Nico put the pasta dishes in the sink with a chorus of clinks and clacks. He saw Thanatos smirking out of the corner of his eye; he was finding this amusing. Nico didn’t share the sentiment. Jason was a heroic son of Jupiter, destined for eternal bliss in the isles of the blessed. Of course Nico would have to go find the most perfect demigod ever. Of course he’d have to go and make him sassy. Nico didn’t get to touch anything without turning it worse.
“She’s at Camp Half-Blood,” Nico said, turning to look Jason in the eyes. He deserved that much respect from his former lover.
Jason gasped, his face growing pale.
“In ten days,” Nico continued. “The Seven will come back here, and you’re rejoining them. You’ll fight in the Gigantomachy. You’ll do it for me.”
“The hell I will,” Jason said.
“Jason…” Nico said. “You have to. You need to trust me on this.”
“How could you do this to me?” Jason asked, his heartbreak evident in his voice. “I thought you loved me. I thought you wanted me to live for myself.”
“I’m doing this because I love you,” Nico said. “I’m trying to get you back in the gods favor. I want you to have a good afterlife. Something better than a wandering shade in Asphodel.”
“That’s the last thing I’m worried about right now,” Jason said. “I want to live. I’d ask you to help me find a way, but I know you won’t.”
Thanatos snorted.
“Unlikely,” he said, still smirking.
“Jason, I’m going to get you into Elysium, at least,” Nico said. “But I can’t do it if you don’t do your part.”
“I told you, I don’t care,” Jason said. “I’m not worried about it.”
“Well, that’s unfortunate,” Nico said. “Because I’m not letting you leave here until you’ve agreed to fight for me again. To fight Gaea. To be a hero.”
“Never gonna happen,” Jason said.
“Then I hope you like spaghetti,” Nico said.
This was going to be a long ten days.
Chapter 83: I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can)
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
“More coffee?” Nico offered.
Jason was sitting in Nico’s garden on a sun lounger, tanning. He wasn’t allowed to leave Nico’s property, but he’d figured out that both of the death gods in residence preferred to avoid standing in direct sunlight for too long. Even now, Nico was smiling at him with a plastered on expression of cheerfulness, but his eyes were squinting and there was an irritated cant to his smile.
Jason looked at his godly host from over the tops of his sunglasses.
“I’m good,” he said. “You got anything stronger?”
“No,” Nico frowned, “You’re not drinking your remaining life away in this house. You did enough of that in Croatia, according to Thanatos.”
“I told you I was sick of hearing about Thanatos,” Jason said, speaking before he could think better of it.
“You don’t tell me who I can and can’t talk about,” Nico snapped.
Jason smirked. His plan had been to annoy Nico into letting him leave, and he was pretty sure he had a shot at getting kicked out soon.
His smirk disappeared when Nico sat on the edge of Jason’s sun lounger, resting his hand on Jason’s knee.
“Have you given any thought to what I said?” Nico asked.
“No.”
Nico had lectured him about the afterlife, about judgment, and about how cool Elysium was and how much Asphodel sucked. He’d told him to meditate on death for a while and try to come to some acceptance. He’d recommended some poetry, and to think of all the cool people he’d meet in the afterlife.
Jason hadn’t thought about any of that stuff. Every time he thought about death, he panicked. He wasn’t scared of what came after. Quite the opposite, he was scared of what came before.
For twenty years, he’d been a good little demigod. He’d done everything he was told. Again and again, he’d chosen trauma, loss, and fear over comfort, fun, and hobbies. He’d done it to please gods that had never given a shit about his happiness. Jupiter and Juno had been his owners, and he’d been their obedient dog.
Now, just when he’d finally started to learn who he was and what he wanted, it was over. He’d thought he was starting a new season of life. Instead, he’d just been living out a brief happy ending. The credits were already rolling. Soon, it would fade to black.
He didn’t care about Elysium or Asphodel or the Isles of the Blessed. He cared about the paradise he was losing on earth, the one he’d barely had the chance to savor.
Nico’s stupid hand, which was resting on his stupid knee, had been a significant part of his paradise. But he wasn’t going to admit that. He needed to get the hell out of Greece and go back to wherever Reyna was. He needed to spend as much time with her as possible before the end. He wanted to spend time with Nico, too, but they were in such violent disagreement on how that time ought to be spent that it wasn’t worth trying to compromise. He didn’t have time to waste on arguing.
Nico tried to move his hand further up Jason’s thigh, his light touch just barely grazing his soft blonde leg hairs. After so much time outside, Jason’s skin had tanned while his hair had lightened, giving him an athletic golden sheen. He knew he looked good, and he knew Nico had noticed, but if he wanted to get thrown out of the house, he had to keep the vibes chilly between them.
Jason lifted his bare foot and pressed it against Nico’s chest, feeling the smooth silk of his shirt and the coolness that radiated from his body. Nico wasn’t cadaver-cold, but the hot summer sun made him feel like a human ice cube in comparison. He intended to kick Nico away from him, ideally shoving him off of the chaise lounge to teach him a lesson about touching people without permission, but he’d miscalculated.
Gods did not fall off of sun chairs unless they intended to. His foot stayed firmly planted on Nico’s chest, and his effort to push him away was not interpreted as such. Nico grabbed his foot and leaned forward so that Jason’s knee was pushed back against his chest. No matter how hard Jason tried, he couldn’t overpower Nico in order to put his leg back down.
Now trapped in an embarrassing position, heat rushed to his face.
He hated that he was still disgustingly in love with this annoying, overbearing god. The rational part of his brain was mad about being trapped in the villa, but the gooey, emotional, love-struck part of his brain loved it. Being close to Nico felt like plummeting on a roller-coaster; it was stomach-flipping, hair-raising, heart-in-your-throat kind of love. The house was also beautiful; white stucco walls, stone floors, airy gardens and patios contrasted with a slightly dark, cave-like interior. It was a beautiful prison with an even more beautiful jailer. It took a lot of mental effort to hate a situation like that.
Nico, still holding onto his foot, crawled on top of him. His limbs caged Jason beneath him, and he held Jason’s gaze with his dark, unblinking stare.
“You need to think about death, Jason,” Nico said. “Did you read the poems I showed you?”
“Yeah,” Jason said, defiant in the face of the intense rush of desire he felt with Nico so close. Dark curls brushed his forehead, making him shiver. “’Do not go gentle into that good night.’ Was that the one?”
Nico glared at him, and the sunlight around them dimmed.
“Don’t be a smart-ass,” he said, climbing off him and sitting back down. Jason hadn’t expected him to stop so quickly; Nico clearly hated that poem. He also hadn’t really wanted him to stop, deep down, but that was the part of himself he was trying to suppress.
“You’re going to regret this rebel act of yours,” Nico said, his irises pitch black, like his eyes were all pupil. “You might think you’re hurting me with it, but you’re not. You’re hurting yourself. I just hate seeing it.”
“That’s your opinion,” Jason said. Placing a modicum of value on his own life and happiness, putting himself first-- it wasn’t wrong. He’d spent a long time thinking it was, but it wasn’t. He knew that now. “You’re the one who showed me I could choose my own path. This switch-up you’re doing isn’t fair.”
“I’m doing my best, Jason,” Nico said, his voice softening to a low, quiet tone. “I’m new to this. I’ve never been the patron of a quest before, remember?”
“Trust me, I am not capable of forgetting that,” Jason said. “I watched you kill, what? Thirty of my friends? Forty?”
Nico’s jaw twitched.
“I highly doubt you were actually friends with all of them,” he said.
“That’s not really the point,” Jason said, growing angry.
“Can’t you see that I’m trying to help you because I love you?” Nico asked, growing exasperated. “Just rejoin the quest. That’s all I ask. Don’t run out the clock drunk on a beach. I get why you want to, but it’s not worth the price you’ll pay later.”
“It’s my choice,” Jason said. “My price to pay. I still love you, too, but I love myself more. It took me way too long to learn how to do that. I’m not about to stop on your account.”
Nico pursed his lips, weighing what Jason had said.
“I hate this situation,” he said. “Because I’m happy for you, but I also feel like I’m watching a car crash in slow motion.”
“That’s exactly how I’ve felt ever since Eros told me I’d die August 1st,” Jason said. “Dying in slo-mo. I have to distract myself or I’ll go crazy. Nico, please. Just let me go back to Reyna. We were gonna go to Disneyland together.”
“I can take you to Disneyland,” Nico said, taking his hand and looking at him hopefully.
“You’re just gonna keep trying to convince me,” Jason said, trying to extract his hand without being too much of a jerk about it. He knew Nico’s heart was in the right place. They just had different priorities.
Nico heaved a huge, dramatic sigh, slumping his shoulders in an exaggerated movement.
“I guess it’s pointless,” he said. He drew two pieces of folded paper out of his pocket. “If you won’t even talk to me, I may as well throw these out.”
Jason’s eyes tracked the paper as Nico held them in his hand, staring at them wistfully.
“What are those?” He asked.
“Oh, these? Just Eras tour tickets for tonight in Brussels,” Nico said. “Pretty good seats, too. But you don’t want to hang out with me, so I’ll just get rid of them.”
The papers burst into flame. Nico continued to hold them in front of Jason’s face, watching the bright orange flames flicker and dance along the paper, crisping the edges.
“Bye, Taylor,” Nico said, shaking his head sadly.
“Hold on a second,” Jason said. Taylor Swift was his mortal weakness, his Achilles heel. “Maybe--”
“Yes?” Nico asked, turning to him with an excited grin. The flames went out, and the tickets were unharmed.
“What if we… We called a truce?” Jason said. “We shelve the death talk and just… Hang out?” He struggled to form the words. He knew that he was putting himself at risk of being seduced into losing his dignity and self-respect. Nico could convince Jason of anything if he was given an opening to do so, and Jason wasn’t sure that Nico wasn’t above dirty tricks to get what he wanted. Nico thought he was in the right, so he wasn’t going to hold back.
But Jason was still in love with this frustrating, irritating, irresistible god of death. And Taylor was calling.
“Okay. Let’s make a deal,” Nico said. “Truce, but only temporarily. How about sunset to sunrise? No talking about the quest, dying, anything like that. Just us. Together. Until dawn.”
Just them, together, all night long, without being allowed to talk about their issues? It wasn’t hard to guess where that was going to lead. Jason had secretly hoped for something like this, but he hadn’t wanted to admit to himself how bad he wanted it. He needed it. It was way too good to pass up, just as Nico always had been.
“Deal,” he said, his heart pounding.
Nico gave him space for the rest of the day, but that night, they got dressed up and headed to Brussels for the Eras tour. Nico held out his arm for Jason like an old fashioned gentleman, and they donned their friendship bracelets.
“I’m going to disguise us for tonight, if you don’t mind,” Nico said. “Apollo tends to be at these shows, and I’m avoiding him. Your dad, too. Olympians really like Taylor Swift.”
“At least they have good taste in music, I guess,” Jason said, relieved that even if his dad was there, he wouldn’t be recognized. “Look, as long as she plays ‘Marjorie’, I’m gonna have a great night.”
He didn’t have a great night, he had an incredible night. The surprise songs were ‘August’ and ‘You’re on Your Own Kid,’ Nico kissed him during ‘Lover,’ and he exchanged a bunch of friendship bracelets with the people around him. He did see Jupiter in the front row, but he kept getting scolded by the security team for trying to pass Sabrina Carpenter a friendship bracelet with his number on it, and he left early looking very disappointed before Taylor even took the stage.
After the show, Nico took him out to a bar where the lights were low and the music was soft. They sat in the back booth and ate french fries while Jason talked about the set list, his favorite songs of the night, and the changes Taylor had made since Tortured Poets Department had been released.
Nico hung on his every word, listening as though Jason’s lengthy opinions about her latest album were the most fascinating thoughts in the universe. Jason had never felt quite so seen and heard and appreciated before. The funny thing was, he had been nursing a lingering doubt that Nico truly loved him. After all, Cupid had only hit Jason with the love arrow. But the truth was, Nico didn’t even really like Taylor Swift, and yet he sat there all night listening to Jason’s excited fandom ranting with complete patience. That was true love.
For so long, Jason had been been surrounded by people who respected him for his accomplishments and his skills, but never looked any deeper. Nico saw the part of Jason that was the most deeply personal, secret, and embarrassing, and he liked that part of him. He encouraged him to share it. And he made Jason love him more than he’d ever thought possible.
So when Nico kissed him in the back of the bar, Jason let him, and he stopped coming up with reasons why it was a bad idea. How many times had he debated whether Nico was a safe person to love? He wasn’t, but it didn’t matter anymore. Jason had nothing left to lose but his life, and he’d be losing that shortly. He wasn’t going to pass up an opportunity to kiss the god he loved. And when Nico asked if he wanted to go home, with all kinds of suggestions in his voice, Jason took him up on that without hesitation.
The next day, Jason woke up hungover, groggy, and in desperate need of coffee. He forced his eyes open and found the room pitch dark. For a second he thought perhaps he’d woken in the middle of the night, but they hadn’t even gotten home until two, and he hadn’t gone to sleep for another couple of hours after that. He’d been occupied with more important things.
He looked at the time on the digital clock by the bed. It was noon.
That was delightful news. He sat up, yawning, feeling satisfied with himself. The truce was working out pretty good for him. It was already halfway through the day, and they hadn’t talked about dying once yet. He’d sleep in even later tomorrow.
He knew there would be coffee downstairs, and probably breakfast if he wanted it, but he went over to the balcony and slid open the curtains first. His eyes were immediately seared with bright light.
He went around the room and opened every curtain, realizing they were probably magical blackout curtains, designed to forbid even the smallest amount of light from creeping in. He rolled his eyes; what was the point of being alive if you wanted to sleep like you were already dead?
He opened the glass balcony door and stepped outside to admire the view. Greece had the biggest, bluest sky he’d ever seen, with the whitest, fluffiest clouds. He summoned a small breeze to sweep through the room and freshen the air, bringing the scent of flowers to envelop him. Persephone’s garden was indescribably beautiful, every flower like a work of art. He hated to admit it, but Nico’s house was nicer than the places he’d have been staying at if he’d been traveling on his own. It wasn’t a terrible spot to live out your last days. Especially with the company he was keeping.
While he appreciated the scenery, voices drifted over to him from one side. He looked around and saw that his balcony connected to the balcony of the room next door. The door was shut and the curtains were drawn, but one of the windows was cracked open.
He quietly padded over to the window and listened. Nico was reading something aloud in Italian, something rhythmic, like poetry. Jason guessed quickly that it was Dante’s Inferno; Nico quoted it often. He’d tried to read it once and had given up after three pages.
Jason sat down on the balcony and closed his eyes, resting his head against the wall. Fresh air, a gorgeous view, and Nico reading something pretty in Italian? What a way to start the day.
His day got a little worse when Nico’s reading was interrupted.
“To claim that Alexander the Great is currently boiling in a river of blood is an interesting stretch of the imagination,” said Thanatos.
Jason frowned; that guy’s voice, his mere existence, pissed him off. Why was he still around? If Nico was going to romantically read to someone, it should be to Jason. He was the one who was dying.
“I know. I wonder what Alexander did to piss my brother off,” Nico said. “He runs the Elysium HOA. I heard he’s a stickler for curtain paint colors. Maybe he gave Virgil too many fines?”
“And the poor suicides, turned into trees. What did they do that was so terrible?” Thanatos asked.
Nico took a weirdly long time to respond.
“Well, they… I’m sure there’s… Um.” He sounded extremely uncomfortable. “Catholics believe that it’s wrong to do that. Those people knew the rules when they… Not that it’s… I know it sounds bad, but in context…”
“You’re not making sense,” Thanatos said, saying what Jason was also thinking.
“What I’m trying to say is, they have their reasons,” Nico said. “Even if I’m not sure what they are, exactly.”
“I thought this book was fictional,” Thanatos said. “You seem awfully concerned about it.”
“It is fiction. Dante visited heaven, hell, and the Underworld, and he wrote a creative fanfic about his trip,” Nico said. “It’s not supposed to be taken literally.”
“So, Catholics don’t torment suicides in hell?” Thanatos asked.
Nico didn’t answer.
“You’re being very strange,” Thanatos said. “Just admit they’re horrible and move on. Anyway, I think suicide is brave. Especially compared to your little Jason. He can’t even let someone else do it for him without making a big fuss about it. He’s a coward, and he’ll be punished as one.”
“Don’t talk about him like that,” Nico said. “He’ll make the right choice in the end. I have total faith in him.”
“I don’t believe you,” Thanatos said.
“I told you, I don’t want to hear anything bad about Jason from you. You don’t know him like I do,” Nico said fervently, making Jason’s heart warm. Nico really did love him, he thought, smiling to himself. He pulled his knees up to his chest and hugged them.
“Ugh!” Thanatos said. “Jason, Jason, Jason, he’s all you think about lately. Bad enough you left me alone with him for so long,” he whined. “I missed you every second.”
“I owe you for that,” Nico said.
“Don’t,” Thanatos responded quickly. “There should be no debts between us. You would do it for me, right?”
“I’d do anything for you,” Nico said.
“Do you mean that?”
“Obviously.”
Thanatos did not respond immediately. When he did speak, his voice was nervous.
“Then promise you won’t speak with my brother, or do his favor. Please. No matter what Jason says.”
“Never,” Nico agreed. “I don’t care if he gave Jason the Master Bolt, the Helm of Darkness, and the key to New York City. Eros is dead to me.”
“Good,” Thanatos said, sounding relieved.
“I hope you’ve been taking care of yourself,” Nico said. “I can tell you’ve been working a lot.”
“How did you know?” Thanatos asked.
“I check the numbers,” Nico said. “But also, your feathers get a grey tinge when you’re tired. You lose your glow.”
“I was very grey, wasn’t I?” Thanatos said. “Before I met you.”
“It looked great on you,” Nico reassured him. “But you glow more when you’re happy, and that’s how I want you to look all of the time. If you need time off, take it. I can cover for you--”
“No, thank you,” Thanatos interrupted. “I am working the right amount for me, and it’s best you become accustomed to letting me do it all. I did enjoy taking souls with you at my side, but it was a temporary thing. Right?”
“Right,” Nico said sadly.
Jason quietly went back into his bedroom. As he dressed, he reckoned with what he’d just heard. Nico was a psychopomp? One capable of covering for Thanatos? Had that been mentioned before, and he’d just not been listening? Sometimes it was hard to hear what Nico was saying over how good looking he was. Still, it felt like the kind of thing Jason would have remembered.
He headed downstairs, where Nico was making fresh baked bread in his oven.
“Morning,” he said, flashing a smile at Jason.
It was odd to see him so obviously in two places at once. He was definitely still talking to Thanatos upstairs. It made Jason’s stomach lurch a little. Sometimes Nico felt so human to him, and then-- wham! Weird god stuff came out of nowhere.
He decided not to ask whether Nico took souls. He didn’t want the conversation to shift to whether Nico was going to take his soul. Deep down, he knew the answer to that. Maybe he always had.
“Morning,” Jason said, sitting at the kitchen island. “Bread smells amazing.”
“I’m trying to cook the human way,” Nico said. “You know, doing it all by hand. Mom was talking about how it was good practice for becoming human.”
“You’re still doing that?” Jason said, the idea of it making him inexplicably sad. “I won’t be there to see it.”
“No,” Nico said. “Don’t worry. It won’t prevent me from visiting you after you’re dead. I’ll just need a little more help than I do now.”
Jason wasn’t sad for his own sake. He could see the deep pain on Nico’s face that he was doing a poor job of hiding.
He’d told himself he wouldn’t go there. But he had to go there.
“When I die,” Jason said. “You’ll look after the kids at Camp Jupiter for me. Won’t you?”
Nico took the bread out of the oven and set it on the counter to cool. The warm, homey scent wafted across to Jason. Nico went over to him and kissed him on the cheek.
“There’s the Jason I remember,” he said, looking at him adoringly. “But the answer is no. I’ll have my own problems to worry about. You’re better off asking Hazel and Frank to look after them for you.”
“Oh.”
“Which reminds me,” Nico said, sitting on the stool beside Jason and putting an arm around him. “You know what would be an awesome opportunity to ask them? When you’re on the Argo II, fighting alongside them in the war.”
“Yeah, okay, I get it,” Jason said. His heart felt heavy. He did still care about Camp Jupiter. And he still cared about his friends. But he needed to prioritize himself for once in his life. It was his last chance. Hadn’t he given enough? He had so little left. It wasn’t fair for them to take it all. He couldn’t let them.
Nico sliced the bread and gave Jason a big slice, covered in butter with a drizzle of honey on top. Jason took a huge bite.
“The bees outside make amazing honey,” Nico said. “Persephone said it has a mild psychedelic effect, but I haven’t noticed anything yet. What do you think?”
“Why are there three of you?” Jason asked.
Jason ended up hallucinating for the rest of the afternoon. Nico had to set him up on the couch with a comforting stuffed animal and videos of sensory-friendly fruit. Jason’s brain was only somewhat soothed by the dancing kiwis, however. As a demigod, he had oodles of trauma that was the opposite of fun to have running rampant in his brain uncontrolled. He had visions of Krios leaning over him, threatening to smash his gourd in. He pictured Cerberus devouring every kid in Camp Jupiter while Nico laughed. He saw Eros pulling strings, and watched as his own limbs moved, puppeted by the god of love. The worst vision he had was of himself, trapped behind metal bars, with Juno feeding him treats through a little metal door. “Good boy,” she called him. “So obedient.” In the vision, he bit and snapped at her. She pulled her hand back, laughed, and threatened to have him neutered for misbehaving.
When he slowly came back to normal consciousness, a few lingering shapes and sounds moved at the corners of his mind, but he knew where he was and what he was doing. It was already dark again.
For some reason, in spite of the unpleasant things he’d seen, he felt better. His head was a little clearer, and he remembered the visions with a slight distance from his emotions that he hadn’t possessed before.
“You up?” Nico asked.
Jason jumped, startled. He was lying on the couch, and Nico had been sitting on the floor reading a book, resting his back against the couch.
“I’m up,” he murmured.
Nico turned around and looked at his face.
“I’m sorry. That honey was for gods, not mortals. Persephone said you were probably tripping balls.”
Jason laughed.
“Were those her exact words?”
“Yeah,” Nico grinned. “She’s cool. Sorry if you had a bad trip, though. Did the fruit help? Google said—”
“I’m fine,” Jason smiled.
“Oh,” Nico sighed in relief. “Great. Well, you missed the whole rest of the day, so the truce is back on again. If you want it to be.”
“I want it to be,” Jason said.
“Good,” Nico said. “Me too.”
Jason reached out to him, and Nico climbed onto the couch, squeezing next to Jason and laying alongside him. They wrapped their arms around each other, and Nico threaded one of his legs between Jason’s. He pulled the blanket over them both.
“Do you want to watch a movie or something?” He asked, resting his head on Jason’s chest.
“Sure,” Jason said, knowing that they weren’t going to be paying any attention to the screen.
They woke up on the couch together the next morning, earlier than Jason would have liked. He was glad they were still entwined; it was really sweet of Nico to sleep the whole night with him when he didn’t need to sleep at all.
“So,” Nico said, as soon as Jason’s eyes were open. “I was thinking that you need to make a bucket list. If you get through it by August 1st, maybe it’ll help you be more open to going out in a blaze of glory. What do you think?”
“I think it’s too early for this,” Jason said, unkindly wishing that Nico was a little more human, at least prior to nine AM.
“It’s daytime,” Nico said playfully. “Truce is off. Come on. I’ll get you some paper. No breakfast until you’ve come up with at least one thing for your list.”
Jason resented being forced into it, but the idea wasn’t bad in and of itself. Reyna had suggested the same thing, but snorkeling had been his only idea. He remained snuggled in his blanket, thinking about what he might want to do.
“Go to the Eras Tour one more time,” he said. “At least.”
“That’s easy,” Nico said. “Done. We’ll go tonight.”
“I don’t want to rush through,” Jason said, realizing Nico would be pressuring him to knock everything out in the seven days remaining of his captivity. “I want to snorkel with Reyna again. A lot, actually. It was really relaxing.”
“Okay,” Nico said.
“I want to see my sister again,” Jason said.
The words came to him before the feeling. He hadn’t even thought about Thalia since he’d found out he was dying. The realization struck that, even if they did spend some time together, they were never going to be able to cultivate a relationship. Thalia would live forever, and she’d forget him quickly, the brother she’d barely known.
It had been a while since Jason had broken down crying over his fate, but now he did. First his eyes filled with tears, and then he was overwhelmed with self-pity. He needed more time. Not a lot, not years, but more than the paltry six weeks that remained. He would never really know his sister. He’d put it off for too long.
Nico held him while he cried. He buried his face in Nico’s shoulder, hating the fact that he had to deal with the pain of regret for all the things he’d never made time for. It would have been better if death had come as a surprise. He had eternity to regret his mistakes and hate himself in the Underworld. Why did he have to suffer now, too?
When he’d composed himself again, Nico let go of him.
“I’ll get her here,” Nico said. “You’ll see her. I promise.”
“Thanks,” Jason said. “I’m okay. Let’s keep going. I want this done.”
He went over his list. Taylor Swift, snorkeling, his sister-- he wasn’t going to fill six weeks like that. He needed more.
“Would it be weird to have a birthday party?” He asked.
Nico gasped way too enthusiastically.
“Calm down, please,” Jason said, but Nico was the opposite of calm.
“I will throw you the most incredible party anyone has ever seen,” Nico said, jumping to his feet. “Let’s have it here! Let’s make it huge! We’ll invite everyone! Including your sister!”
“Okay,” Jason said. “Sure.” Maybe it was better to see his sister in a happy context. It might be easier not to tell her about his impending death; the party would be a good excuse to spend some quality time together without mentioning the true reason.
“We’ll do it on your last night here. That’ll give me time to invite everyone.”
“Nothing crazy,” Jason said. “Usually at Camp we ordered pizzas and got a sheet cake from Costco.”
Nico rolled his eyes. He got close to Jason and kissed him, drawing out the contact until all thoughts of practical, reserved parties fled Jason’s mind.
“My boyfriend,” Nico said fervently. “Does not get his birthday cake from Costco.”
“It was good,” Jason said, but Nico was already on his phone texting people. Jason realized he might be getting in way over his head.
But what else was new?
Nico was very pleased with the new plan for a birthday party, and it got him out of Jason’s hair during the daytime, so the third day of imprisonment was very pleasant. They spent a lot of it cuddling on the couch and going for walks by the ocean. In the afternoon, Jason went for a swim in the pool while Nico watched.
“Hey, Nico?” Jason asked, swimming over to the side.
Nico tilted his sunglasses down to look at him. Jason took his time climbing out of the pool slowly, which made Nico laugh.
Jason wondered if his laugh would be different once Nico had become human again. He’d be dead by then. Would they even recognize each other? Either way, nothing would even be like this again.
It made the moment feel a little more precious. Jason leaned down and kissed Nico on the mouth, taking him by surprise.
“I love you,” he said.
“I love you, too,” Nico said, smiling up at him.
“Random question. Can I borrow your computer?” He asked, toweling off. “I want to research snorkeling locations.”
Nico hesitated.
“Can I buy you a book about it or something?” He asked, furrowing his brow.
“Huh? Can I just use a computer?”
“Uh. I guess,” Nico said, producing one out of thin air. He held it out to Jason, then pulled back at the last second. “Promise me something first.”
“Okay.”
“Don’t Google me.”
Jason was immediately overcome with curiosity. But he took in Nico’s nervous expression and realized prying might lose him the offer of the computer.
“I promise,” Jason said. “I have no interest in Googling you. Just snorkeling. Legionary’s honor.”
“Okay,” Nico said. “Don’t forget.”
Jason took the computer back to his room and researched snorkeling trips. He wanted to keep his promise, but his finger seemed to drift up to the search bar and then hover there of its own accord.
He was just about to give in to temptation when Nico walked into his bedroom.
“Hey!” Jason said loudly, shutting the computer with a clack.
“Hi,” Nico said, looking at the closed laptop warily. “I brought you dinner. Homemade pizza.”
“Thanks,” Jason said, accepting the plate. Nico sat on the bed beside him and watched him eat.
“Not hungry?” Jason asked. Nico shook his head.
“I have bad news. Artemis doesn’t go to parties. That means her hunters don’t get to go either. It’s not going to be easy to get permission for Thalia to come over.”
“Oh. Okay,” Jason said. “Can I arrange to meet up with her somewhere else?”
“That’s the other bad news,” Nico said. “Artemis hates me. As long as you’re dating me, she won’t let Thalia see you in case it’s some trick I’m trying to pull. I had to betray Artemis in order to bring Hazel back to life.”
Jason was speechless.
“I just have one idea that might help,” Nico said. “It involves some light humiliation on my part, but I’m used to that at this point. If I were to tell Artemis the party was a farewell party-- For me, saying farewell to godhood-- I think she’d consider coming just to gloat.”
“I couldn’t ask you to do that,” Jason said. “I know you’re not happy about being turned human. It would suck to be reminded of it for a whole night by gods who just want to make fun of you.”
Nico shrugged.
“I don’t know, maybe it would help me accept things? I’m willing to do it. I promised I’d get you an opportunity to see your sister again. I think this is the only way.”
“Are you sure you don’t mind?”
“I don’t. I know how important it is that you get to see her. But it won’t be your birthday party anymore, at least not officially.”
“I don’t care,” Jason said. “Seeing Thalia is my priority, not the party. I appreciate you doing this for me.”
“Say that after the plan works,” Nico said.
The next couple of days were spent mostly in relaxing, eating delicious food and enjoying each other’s company. Jason worked on his bucket list and planneda trip to snorkel with Reyna in the Bahamas over the last few days of his imprisonment term, with the plan that the three of them would go to the Eras tour on the final night. That meant that his party had to be moved up to night seven of his imprisonment term, which left Nico frantically busy with last minute preparations.
Jason hadn’t quite made a decision yet about rejoining the Seven. He knew it was what Nico wanted, and their reconnection had made him feel more open to the idea, but in his gut, he knew it would be a form of surrender. Nico was so focused on the party planning that he wasn’t lecturing Jason about it much-- until he was.
“Jason, we need to talk about Elysium,” Nico said, cornering Jason as he came downstairs for breakfast. Thanatos was behind him, hovering ominously. If Nico felt he needed backup, then they were in for a tough conversation.
“Do we have to?” Jason asked.
Nico flashed him a look of sad puppy-dog disappointment, and Jason sat down at the kitchen counter guiltily. Nico had done a lot for him lately. He ought to hear him out, no matter how much he didn’t want to.
“I’ve been talking to some people about how the judgment works,” Nico said. “It’s a little opaque, but there are a few criteria for getting into the two good afterlives that are explicitly clear. You’ve been a great hero for your entire life, so all you need to do now is just… Not screw it up.”
He gave Jason a look of such despair that it was clear he believed Jason was, indeed, screwing it up.
“Now, I know you don’t think you care,” Nico said, handing him a brochure. “But look at some of these amenities they have in Elysium! Your favorite restaurant always has a table for you. Read your favorite book every day and it feels like the first time. We can even recreate your childhood dog and stage a little fake reunion if you want.”
“Chocolate fountain,” Thanatos reminded him sotto voce.
“Right, there’s a chocolate fountain the size a Niagara Falls,” Nico added.
“I already know it’s a nice place,” Jason said, resting his chin in his hand and flipping through the brochure.
“Obviously you don’t understand how nice!”
“Look, as a veteran demigod, I have a lot of traumatic memories to deal with,” Jason said. “I’ve seen stuff no one should see, especially as a kid. I’m not bothered by the idea of an afterlife where I just rest in the dark forever.”
“Are you sure?”
“I asked Hazel what it was like to be dead in Asphodel once,” Jason said. “She told me it was like when you’re really sick, and you lay down on the cold tile of the bathroom floor. Like, it’s not a nice place in theory, but when you’re down there, you’re at peace with it.”
“If that’s all you want out of death, you’ve worked unnecessarily hard as a hero,” Thanatos said.
“Exactly!” Nico agreed. “Jason, you’ve got so little standing between you and Elysium. You only need two more things: A godly patron, and a heroic death.”
“I have you, don’t I?” Jason asked.
“Ha!” Thanatos said, beating his wings and knocking over a spoon rest. “Are you stupid? You do not have him.”
“No, you don’t,” Nico agreed, folding his arms. “You’ve never wanted to worship me, Jason. Dating me doesn’t count. If you’re impious, you won’t be rewarded. You can’t be.”
“Too bad. I’m impious now, and proud of it. Don’t bother with the whole heroic death thing, either. I’ve already done that, when I was rescuing Juno from being kidnapped. She nearly killed me with her true form. I think it counts.”
“You didn’t die,” Nico and Thanatos echoed each other.
“Not yet,” Jason said, standing up. He’d tried to be patient, but he couldn’t cope with the subject of his own death spoken of like he was prepping for a job interview “You know, this isn’t how I want to spend my limited time on earth. I’m going for a walk.”
He went out to the garden and immersed himself in the fresh flowers, trying to ground himself. The scent of roses enveloped him, and he saw lilies, narcissus, camellias and azaleas. Every time he walked through the garden, new flowers had bloomed as though the borders of the garden contained an eternal spring.
He found a sheltered spot beneath an enormous hydrangea to sit and think.
He’d grown up believing in the gods. He’d known they were real, and he’d believed that they were worthy of his devotion, even if he didn’t know exactly why. Obeying them was part of being a good Roman, and he’d always been a good Roman. He loved his community, his culture, his way of life and the values that came with it. The gods were the symbols he’d looked up to for inspiration, for guidance, and for love.
None of that had come through for him. As he’d climbed the ranks of demigods, he’d gotten to interact with the gods more often and had been more directly impacted by their actions. Reality didn’t look as pretty as the statues. As he’d grown into an adult, his faith had eroded and been replaced by cynicism. Reconstructing a new belief system for himself, one with a more humanist worldview, was work he’d never have time to finish.
Was there any chance of a deathbed conversion? He was surrounded by gods now, and had one who loved him. But he didn’t have an idealized view of them, not even Nico.
That veil had been torn off the day he’d seen his mother’s shade. ‘I sold you,’ had been her exact words. He could never unhear it.
Even when it was to his benefit, he couldn’t bring himself to kneel before another god and beg for them to have pity on his soul, to take him under their auspice. He wanted to own himself to the end.
Still, the gods had their good sides as well as their bad ones. Persephone’s flowers bloomed more vividly than any he’d ever seen. Every single one of them had been a gift to her long awaited son, a testament to a mother’s limitless love. If any god had ever shown him a teaspoon of that kind of adoration when he’d been young, he might have thrown himself at their feet. But they obviously reserved that for their own kind.
While he rested among the flowers, a gentle, warm breeze tugged at his sleeve. He looked down; he wasn’t doing it, and it wasn’t a wind spirit, it was just a weird little breeze that kept pulling him. He noticed it was scented like spring flowers.
“Persephone?” He asked.
The breeze kept nudging him.
It made sense for her to take an interest in her garden and the people who visited, but he wasn’t sure what she wanted with him. He’d made a bad first impression. Still, he followed the breeze as it nudged his back, and he walked out of the garden and into the meadow that formed the edge of the property.
The meadow was exposed, dotted with asphodel flowers, an unpleasant reminder of what he had to look forward to in the future.
The breeze stopped in front of a small mound of earth. It was dotted with little black poppies. There was something strange about it, but Jason had trouble interpreting its significance.
He knelt on the ground and dug his hands into the earth. That small patch was cool and soft and slightly damp, despite the rest of the meadow having dried out in the summer heat.
He took a deep breath, sensing Nico’s presence in the atmosphere, even though he was still inside the house. His fingers brushed something solid beneath the top layer of dirt, and he pressed deeper, looking for what it was.
He heard a small bleat off in the distance, and turned to look. A small black goat kid was trotting over to him. He turned his attention back to the patch of earth as his hands pulled something out of the soil.
It was a bone, long and white, with some bits of skin and flesh attached. It was in an advanced state of decay, having been nibbled by bugs and bacteria for some unknown number of months.
His heart raced. Was this a human bone? Had he disturbed a grave? Why was it on Nico’s property?
The goat kid bleated, and he nearly screamed in response. It had crept up right next to him while he wasn’t looking.
“I see you found Pickles,” said a voice he’d heard for the first time not long ago.
It was Persephone.
Notes:
I just wanted to say a sincere thank you to everyone who comments on these chapters. You give me the motivation to keep going and I appreciate every kind comment so much! I hope you continue to be entertained by Nico's trials and tribulations.
Chapter 84: My Boy Only Breaks His Favorite Toys
Notes:
I am running behind my weekly schedule for posting and I would apologize, but it's due to the fact that chapters are twice as long as they used to be these days. I am freaking out because I have the rest of the fic planned out and we are really winding towards the end here. Not soon but it's in sight on the horizon. Thanks as always for reading!
Chapter Text
Persephone stalked a circle around Jason, the long skirt of her yellow silk gown trailing in the dirt. It caught on twigs, pulling up dirt and burrs, and the fine fabric toreeasily, falling to shredded pieces in the dust.
“Go on,” she said, pointing at the goat with an imperious finger. Jason saw dirt and dried blood beneath her fingernails, like she’d been digging up graves with her bare hands. He swallowed, picking up the goat, feeling its hot flanks rising and falling beneath his hands. It reminded him of the night in Pluto’s temple, when he’d refused to make the sacrifice to Nico the first time. The choice was being offered once more. This would be his last chance.
Persephone glared down her nose at him, her eyes flashing. Sunlight caught in her brown curls like a corona of red-orange fire. Browning flower petals floated on the breeze, filling the air around her like a haze. She was beautiful, but she smelled like rotting compost. Jason made an effort to resist gagging on the foul scent of decay that wafted from her.
Jason looked down at the bone he’d pulled out of the earth, and the small mound she’d led him to. Someone had already used this spot to sacrifice to Nico, probably Hazel.
He made eye contact with the little black goat kid. It was staring up at him with creepy, slightly demonic yellow eyes. It was an obedient victim, lying perfectly still and compliant.
“You want me to sacrifice this goat to Nico,” he said, stating the obvious.
“Unless you think he doesn’t deserve it,” she said.
Jason took a deep, steadying breath, managing to hide his reaction to the smell by pretending to cough. It was a scare tactic, her appearance in her form of the queen of death. It had to be deliberate, because it was summer, and she’d looked adorable the last time he’d seen her.
He knew there would be consequences if he disrespected her now. He’d gotten a pass the first time, but she wouldn’t forgive a second offense. Even so, she was setting him up, forcing his hand, and that absolutely sucked.
“Respectfully—” He began.
She squatted in the dirt in front of him, too close, her face nearly touching his. He leaned back reflexively, intimidated into silence.She smirked.
In that small expression, he immediately recognized that they shared the same father. He’d seen that look on Jupiter’s face before, a delight in wielding power that Persephone had inherited from her dad. That gene must have missed Jason by a few millennia. He was so tired of dealing with his godly siblings. It seemed like it never ended.
“Don’t waste your breath on platitudes,” she said sharply. “I can sense your disdain, the disgust rolling off you. You’re not the first demigod to rack up a few accomplishments and then turn craven at the end. You’ll waste your precious time looking for solutions to what was never a problem. Then you’ll die all the same, and you’ll look pathetic doing it.”
“I--”
“My son is becoming human in a month’s time, for some gods-forsaken reason,” she said, real distress entering her voice. “I already have to grieve what he’s throwing away. But to see him waste his limited divine days on an ungrateful loser like you? Let’s just say it leaves a bad taste in my mouth. The least-- the least you could do,” she snarled. “Is thank him for all that he is doing on behalf of your immortal soul!”
She snapped her fingers. The kid bleated in his face, and a knife appeared in his hand.
“Nico knows I appreciate all that he’s doing,” Jason said, setting the kid aside. “But he wouldn’t want me to worship him under duress. He wouldn’t ask that of me.”
“That’s why I am the one asking!” Persephone said. “I am insisting! You know, a mother can only be as happy as her least happy child. That is something I have learned quite recently, and I am finding it painfully true and real. My sweet boy is texting me, saying he’s terribly worried about you and the fate of your soul. Do you see what is wrong with this picture?”
A childish andfamiliar pang of jealousy twisted in his gut. Nico had a mother who loved him immensely-- had two, in fact-- and Jason had nothing. It made him feel ugly inside, even though he knew better.
“Is it because it’s none of your business?” He snapped.
The goat bit him on the hand, making him wince. Persephone huffed her displeasure at his insolence.
“My son is the patron of his first quest right now. He’s fighting in his first war. These are crucially important milestones in a young god’s development, and he’s botching them because of you! He ought to be out there making memories, not holed up in his house giving you lectures on the afterlife that you won’t even listen to.”
If Jason was a better person, he’d appreciate that Persephone had the best interests of her son in mind. He agreed with a lot of her statements; Nico’s other responsibilities were extremely important. But Jason wasn’t the one keeping Nico from them. He wanted to be snorkeling right now. The situation was all Nico’s doing.
“Nico is making his own choices,” Jason said. “Just like I’m making mine. We can support each other’s decisions, even if we don’t agree with them.”
Persephone’s eyes went black. Her hair began to lift, as though gravity’s effects were lessening around her. All the plants in a five-foot radius withered and crisped.
“You dare,” she hissed through gritted teeth. “Speak as though you are in a relationship of equals? You are a mortal, and he is a god! Why are you making decisions that he does not agree with? You don’t get to do that! What a thing to say! I feel like I’m taking crazy pills over here,” she added, running her hands through her hair frantically. “Did Camp Jupiter teach you nothing?”
“Um…” He stuttered. When she put it like that, he did realize his error in speaking. Nico didn’t support his decisions, he humored them out of love. Even so, Jason was a prisoner in Nico’s home. Hell, Nico literally had his other boyfriend, the one he liked better than Jason, living in the same house, joining in on his lectures. In no way was their relationship one of equals, nor would Jason ever tolerate the same treatment coming from a human.
“’We support each other’s decisions?’ You sound like my marriage counselor Trisha,” Persephone said, her face a mask of rage. “Disgusting. You make me ill looking at you, Jason Grace. My son is a young and inexperienced deity, and I think you are playing him for a fool. Taking advantage of his adorable naivete. Keeping him from his duties and causing him stress. You’re everything wrong with demigods today, everything corrupt about the children of Olympians. You’re a pox on my fucking house!” She said, her voice rising to a shriek as she finally lost control of her temper.
That was Jason’s cue to drop the goat and run for his life.
He dashed through the garden and tried to launch himself into the air in order to fly away. Vines grabbed at his wrists and ankles, yanking hard and slamming him to the ground. He tried to rise and tripped over a watermelon that hadn’t been present earlier. Knotted roots wound around his limbs and torso, and moss began to fill his mouth. He felt the distinct sensation of a roly-poly walking around on his tongue.
“Look at yourself, ungrateful boy,” Persephone said.
He looked down at his arms and legs, and was greeted by a sight that he would rather have gone a billion lifetimes without seeing.
Before his eyes, his flesh was rotting away, revealing white spots of bone beneath curling flaps of diseased skin. Maggots and thin little worms chewedon his flesh with their puckered mouths, sucking the nutrients out of meat scraps that had once been muscle. Fetid pus and fluid soaked the earth around him, and small black corpse beetles lapped it up greedily.
“Do you understand what we do for you?” Persephone said, kneeling beside his head. She ran her hand across his hair gently, in a twisted motherly gesture. At the same time, he watched his stomach bloat and burst, his entrails spilling out. He’d seen a demigod eviscerated by a monster once. Watching his organs on the outside of his body sent him into a state of numb, speechless shock.
“This is what would happen if not for the Cthonic gods,” she said. “The earth would reclaim you, cell by cell, and you would witness it all, feel it all, until your eyes were plucked out of your head by the birds. Your soul would be trapped in this shell, in agony, until there was nothing left of you. And you would be no more than a ghost, tethered to this spot with no ability to leave. Without the aid of a psychopomp, your soul cannot leave your body. Without the Underworld, you would have no home, no protector, no reunion with your loved ones.”
Jason’s body melted into the ground until all that was left were white bones beneath him. The little goat wandered up and gnawed on one of his shins.
“Thanatos only has to touch you gently, once, to deliver you into my kingdom,” she said. “He can do it before this rot overtakes your mortal flesh, so you never have to suffer the sight. And then you will be safe forever in my husband’s house. What we offer you is a gift, one we work hard to provide to everyone who has need of it. And you are so ungrateful.”
With a sigh, she released the illusion. Jason’s body appeared normal and whole beneath him. He began gasping for air like a fish, pulled back into reality.
He sat up frantically, feeling his chest for a pulse, touching his limbs to ensure his skin was intact. He shivered, still feeling the bugs on him that had never really been there.
“Have I gotten through to you, my dear?” She asked, giving him a sweet smile, her lips like soft rose petals. The smell of flowers had returned, fresh and fragrant, but he would never be able to enjoy the scent again without remembering the other side of her.
In all of his years of being a hero, he’d witnessed death and dismemberment many times, suffered threats and wounds and torments both mundane and creatively horrific. But Persephone’s was a unique psychological torture he’d never even imagined. It went to show that you were never too old to experience something new.
“In a month’s time, you will belong to us,” she said, now composed and pleasant in demeanor. “To me. Just imagine the fun we can have together once you’re dead. Think on what I said.”
She disappeared in a flurry of petals, leaves, and flecks of grain. They landed on him, and he scrambled to stand, shaking them off frantically. He looked at the flowers surrounding him in the garden and wanted to cry. They’d never seemed so threatening before.
He walked back inside the house, stopping in front of the sliding glass door, shutting and locking it in case a stray azalea wafted in.
“How was your walk?” Nico asked cheerfully. “I made you tiramisu!”
He and Thanatos had never even left the kitchen. Thanatos was sitting on top of the counter licking a spatula covered in mascarpone frosting.
“Persephonewas here,” Jason said breathlessly, finding it hard to find words to describe what he’d just experienced.
“Aww, did she stop by? She could have come in to say hello,” Nico said. “I texted her asking for advice on how to get through to you. What did she say?”
Jason collapsed on the floor, sobbing. He was shaking uncontrollably, and he was slightly disconnected from his own body, like his mind desperately wanted to be anywhere else.
“Jason, come on, it can’t have been that bad,” Nico said, leaning on the counter and looking down at him. “My mom is like, the nicest lady ever.”
“Everyone likes Persephone,” Thanatos agreed.
“Everyone likes her,” Nico said. “That’s true.”
Jason looked up. Nico looked down at him, frowning in confusion.
“She… She made me see visions of death,” he said, finding it nearly impossible to speak. “Of my body rotting. It was horrible. She was cruel.”
Nico sighed, and walked over to help Jason stand. He patted him on the shoulder sympathetically. He tried to conceal it, but Jason caught him glancing back at Thanatos, giving him a look that said, ‘can you believe this guy?’ Thanatos rolled his eyes in agreement.
“I know it’s a scary subject for you, but it was obviously just meant to be educational,” Nico said gently. “She was trying to help.”
“But—”
“Death isn’t cruel, and neither is my mom,” Nico said firmly. “Come on. You need to chill out.”
He took Jason’s hand and led him upstairs to his bedroom, which used to be Hazel’s.
Jason stopped short in the doorway. There was a massive vase of pink roses on the bedside table that had not been there that morning.
“Wow. That’s sweet of mom to do that for you,” Nico said, smiling. “She must feel bad for upsetting you.”
“I doubt that,” Jason said, climbing into bed. He wanted to pull the covers over his face and disappear. He wanted out of the house, actually, but he had nowhere to run. Escaping Nico wasn’t an option.
“Think about it,” Nico said, pouring more water into the vase. “She’s super busy with summer and she still took the time to try to help you understand the right way to die. We’re all trying to be patient with you.”
Jason snorted. Nico flashed him a hurt look.
“I love you, Jason, but if I find out you were rude to my mom again, we’re gonna have a problem.”
Jason stared back at him, wishing he could swear that he hadn’t been rude and it was all Persephone’s fault. But that wouldn’t be entirely true.
Nico attempted to fluff the pink roses a little, nudging the prettiest to the front. The moment his fingers made contact with one, the entire vase-full died instantly. Every petal, every leaf, every stem, turned a dry, dead brownish yellow color and drooped. Most of the petals fell onto the bedside table’s surface in a heap.
Jason’s breath caught in his throat.
“Oops,” Nico smiled. “Sorry. That happens sometimes.”
Jason looked up at Nico through a veil of tears. Nico’s expression was warm and caring, full of humor and love, but his eyes were deep black bottomless pits. His hands were gentle, but they were pale and cold. One touch, and his soul might leave his body forever. One day, Nico’s touch would mean the end.
He was so beautiful, inside and out, and he offered the kind of love that Jason wanted desperately to accept. But not now. Because he was still a death god, and Jason was finally close enough to him, close enough to death, to understand what that really meant. Nico was everything he’d been trying to run away from. He was everything that Jason wanted to spent his last days not thinking about.
They couldn’t keep pretending this was working. It wasn’t.
“I love you,” Jason said, his voice tired, sad, and choked with pain. “I’m not trying to hurt you. Or your mom. Or anyone. I just want to have a few weeks of fun before I die, and it feels like the world is conspiring to make them the most miserable weeks of my life.”
Nico’s jaw dropped.
“How can you say that?” He asked. “We spent the last week together! I cooked for you! I took you to concerts! I literally just made you tiramisu!”
“I didn’t mean it was all bad, but you need to remember, I didn’t choose to be here,” Jason said. “I didn’t want this.”
“Really? Because you seemed to want me pretty bad last night,” Nico said, glaring. “And the night before that. And the night before that, too.”
“I can’t help that,” Jason said weakly. “You’re you.”
“You know what? You’re a jerk,” Nico said. “I know you’ve been hurt by gods before. I’ve tried to hold space for that. But I’m sick of you making your baggage my problem. I’ve never done anything but love you and look out for you.”
“You… You killed a bunch of my friends in front of me…” Jason said.
“That was an accident!” Nico said.
“You’re keeping me here against my will,” Jason added, not understanding how Nico could fail to see the obvious falsehood in his statement.
“I’m trying to save you from yourself,” Nico said. “It’s for your own good! I’m even throwing you a birthday party tomorrow, and I had to send the invites out saying that the party is to celebrate me becoming human. Everyone is gonna spend all night saying, ‘happy re-humanizing!’ I’m gonna have to act all happy about it and be like, ‘yay, can’t wait!’ Even though it’s the last thing in the universe I want to do.”
“Then don’t do it!” Jason said. “I don’t get why you’re going through with it if you don’t want to--”
“You’ve never had a father. You wouldn’t understand,” Nico said. “Also, I didn’t ask for your opinion.”
“I didn’t ask to be here! I didn’t ask you to save my soul!”
“Too bad! Because I’m saving it!” Nico said, stomping his foot for emphasis. “You’re lucky I’m not canceling your party. Because I would, except I already made a bunch of deviled eggs.”
He stormed out, slamming the door behind him without touching it. The lights went out and the blackout curtain drew across the window.
Jason stood and frantically tried to yank them open, but they were stuck tight. His lamp wouldn’t work. Nico was being petty, sticking him in the dark, and it made Jason sick with fear. He had never been afraid of the dark before. After his encounter with Persephone, he was suddenly terrified of it. He felt the bugs on his skin again, and took his shirt off and shook it out, his heart pounding.
The only source of light was Nico’s laptop screen. Once he remembered he had it, he flipped it open and breathed a sigh of relief. The cold blue glow enveloped him, and he could see that his body was still in one piece.
On the computer, he saw a tiny Bluetooth logo tucked away in a corner. As the computer booted up, a notification popped up saying ‘connect to device?’
Jason clicked on it, and set up the new device connection. It asked for a password, but he already knew the answer was ‘Cerberus’. He logged in successfully. The device he’d connected to wasa security system with CCTV cameras placed in the common areas and the perimeter of the house.
He clicked on the picture showing the kitchen. It was a live feed from Nico’s security camera, and it had audio. Nico has never mentioned cameras before. Jason wondered if he even knew they were activated. It didn’t seem like the kind of thing he’d bother with, and his computer hadn’t been connected to them. That was suspicious.
“You said I could make the call if it ever came to it,” Thanatos said, his voice coming through crisp and clear. He was standing in front of the stove, clutching Nico by the shoulders. Nico’s face was downcast, staring at the floor. “I’m calling it. This ends today.”
“Come on,” Nico said. “Don’t do that. I’m sad enough as it is. All that work, and he’ll just sit in Asphodel. He could have gone to the Isles of the Blessed. I had this feeling he was special...”
“Special? He’s made you cry!” Thanatos said. “Dump his rump!”
“You know I cry easily,” Nico said, wiping his face. “I’m good. It’s not that big of a deal. He’s just being bitchy right now. He’ll get over it. We don’t need to break up.”
“He isn’t being bitchy,” Thanatos said. “He’s an animal gnawing its leg off to escape a trap. He’s a drowning man shoving your face underwater so he can have one last gasp of air. It will only go downhill from here. Don’t put yourself in a position to be hurt, or next time, he’ll do worse. If you can’t call it, I will. I can’t bear to see you hurting like this over a mortal boy.”
Jason’s heart was pounding like a drumbeat in his chest. Part of him desperately wanted to hear Nico affirm his love for Jason in spite of all obstacles. But another part of him agreed with Thanatos. It might be time to go their separate ways. The only thing worse than losing Nico would be growing to hate him. Jason feared it would happen if he wasn’t set free soon. His remaining minutes were flying by all too quickly, and that ticking clock was beginning to sound louder than his infatuation with his lover.
“Mom texted,” Nico said, sitting down at the counter. He started eating the tiramisu straight out of the dish with a spoon. “She said I ought to put him in a coma until his natural death. Then I don’t need to worry about him making his situation worse.”
“A brilliant idea,” Thanatos said, wrapping his left wing around Nico’s shoulders. “He’s going to wind up in the Fields of Punishment if you don’t.”
“You really think so?” Nico asked.
“I tried to get along with him. I even found him charming at first,” Thanatos said. “I don’t say that about mortals lightly. But he hated me so much that I grew repulsed by him in time.”
“Persephone said he was rude to her again,” Nico said darkly. “I don’t like that.”
“Look how he’s treated you,” Thanatos urged. “And he claims to love you. You do him no favors by giving him more time to make enemies. If he’s impious, he’ll be sentenced to hard labor in the Fields for eternity. You can spare him that.”
“Ugh! This is the opposite of what I wanted!” Nico said, dropping his spoon and putting his hands over his face. “Why do I ruin everything good in my life?”
“You don’t. I think you ought to face the facts,” Thanatos shrugged. “Jason is racist.”
“Racist?” Nico asked. “What are you talking about?”
“He’s racist against gods. He just thought you were one of the good ones. But now it seems he’s changing his mind about you. Lumping you in with the rest of us no matter what you do to convince him you mean well.”
Jason’s jaw dropped. He could kind of see why Thanatos came to that conclusion, but still. Wow.
“You’re being harsh,” Nico said, with a tinge of uncertainty. “You don’t see the good side of him like I do.”
“You are love stricken, and too forgiving,” Thanatos said, rubbing Nico’s shoulders. “You need to stop doing so much for others and be selfish for once.”
Nico’s eyebrow twitched in irritation, and he started eating again, shrugging off Thanatos’ hands.
“You only think that when it applies to people other than you,” Nico said. “The whole re-humanizing thing was done for you, at least partly. I’d never have agreed to it if you and my dad hadn’t ganged up on me.”
“That’s different,” Thanatos protesting quickly.
“No, not really,” Nico said, his voice glum. “I need some space, Than. I have to make stuffed mushrooms. Don’t forget the ice tomorrow. I want it made from Acheron water, not tap water.”
“Why Acheron water?”
“It’s just icier. Tastes like death. I don’t know,” Nico shrugged. “Go on, get out of here,” he said, waving Thanatos away.
Thanatos kissed him gently on the temple, running his hands across Nico’s back protectively.
“We make the call tomorrow,” he said quietly. “Together. It ends.”
Nico nodded, tears falling into his mascarpone. Thanatos disappeared in a flurry of wings and dark light.
Jason dug his nails into his palms, trembling with rage and sheer terror.
Was he going to be put into a forced coma after his birthday party? Was tomorrow the last real day of his life?
He stood, got out of bed, grabbed the lamp and threw it at the glass balcony door. The door didn’t break. The lamp crashed to the floor and shattered, but the blackout curtain wasn’t even ruffled.
He glanced back at the camera feed on the screen. Nico hadn’t even moved at the sound. Was he really so callous to Jason’s anguish? Had things between them deteriorated that quickly?
Jason went to the door and tried the knob. It wouldn’t turn. He kicked at the door, trying to break it down with force, with lightning, and with gusts of wind. It didn’t budge. He was truly imprisoned, sealed up like he’d already been entombed.
Again, he looked at the camera. Nico was still sitting there, eating tiramisu like nothing was wrong. Jason was suddenly filled with the urge to wrap his hands around his neck and strangle him, but that wasn’t an option. He’d never have the power to harm him, not in his wildest dreams, even when he soundly deserved it.
Chest heaving with rage, Jason was left impotent, feeling the smallest he’d ever felt. He paced the room like a wolf in a cage.
Why couldn’t they have left him alone? Nico was ruining his life. The worst part was, he genuinely thought he was helping, delusional bastard that he was.
Jason buried his head in the pillow and screamed silently. His afterlife choices were turning to ash before his eyes. When he was let out in the morning, he’d have to comply with everything that was asked of him. He’d have to ask the gods’ forgiveness. Otherwise, he’d be put in a coma or tormented for eternity in the Fields of Punishment. He was truly out of options.
All Jason wanted was freedom. Funny how that seemed to make you a lot of enemies.
Lying in the dark alone, he looked at the laptop. Almost without thinking, he typed the words, ‘Nico di Angelo’ into Google.
He pressed enter.
Chapter 85: I Can Do It With a Broken Heart
Chapter Text
The day of the party started out awkwardly. Nico freed Jason from his room in the morning, a humiliating gesture. Jason tolerated it. He played nice while Nico showed off the birthday party decorations. The ceiling was covered in balloons, the floor was sprinkled with confetti, and there were snacks and drinks everywhere, including all of Jason’s favorite candies.
Jason wanted to be delighted-- he’d never experienced a celebration like this before. But he had a bitter taste in his mouth. Because he’d never experience anything like this again.
“Do you like it?” Nico asked. “You can be honest.”
Jason ground his teeth against each other. He picked up a cream puff from one of the appetizer platters on the counter and ate it slowly.
“You would think dying would make everything taste better. Make the sun brighter and the colors more vibrant, or whatever,” Jason said, licking the whipped cream off his fingers. “I remember watching the movie Troy one time at Camp. Achilles gives this speech--”
“Achilles is a jerk. Don’t listen to anything he says,” Nico butted in sharply.
Jason gave him a look, and Nico pursed his lips.
“Achilles said that the gods envy heroes for their mortality. He says that everything is more beautiful because we’re doomed,” Jason said. “I used to believe that. Isn’t that ridiculous?”
“What does that have to do with my decorations?” Nico asked, holding up an unrecognizably twisted plastic balloon. “Do you know how long this manticore balloon animal took me to make? You didn’t even comment on it.”
“Don’t change the subject,” Jason said calmly. “I’m dying. You have to listen to me.”
“I’ve done nothing but listen to you for a week,” Nico said, trying to keep his voice level in spite of his annoyance. “I don’t like what I’m hearing.”
“Let me make my point,” Jason snapped. “I think that stupid movie was a bunch of bullshit. Dying sucks. Mortality sucks. I can’t enjoy any of this. That cream puff tasted like cardboard to me. You gods never have to worry about losing everything you care about. You don’t have to eat a Snickers and wonder if it was your last. You don’t lose sleep regretting all the things you’ll never get to do.”
“Jason, just stop,” Nico said, going over to the fridge and taking out a pitcher of lemonade. “You’ve been fated to die since the minute you were born. On your worst days and your best days, you were just as mortal as you are now. You’re miserable because you’re scared and you can’t cope with death. You’re taking it out on everyone else instead of accepting what you can’t change.”
“That’s not what’s happening here!” Jason shouted, his own fury catching him off guard. “You don’t know what it’s like inside my head!”
“I know exactly what you’re thinking,” Nico said, looking at him with an infuriatingly patronizing expression of disappointment. “And it’s pathetic. I’ve seen pediatric cancer patients greet death with more dignity than you. Do you want to watch a three year old with a brain tumor die? Would that teach you to quit feeling sorry for yourself?”
Jason gripped the edge of the countertop. Nico had obviously decided to unsheathe his claws, and they cut deep. He had no response to make, no excuse for himself. But he was still angry.
He felt Nico examining him, picking up on his shame and his continued resentment.
“Maybe if I’d been a little meaner to you, we wouldn’t be in this mess,” Nico said. “Maybe this is my fault. I don’t know.” He poured some lemonade and handed it to Jason. “I don’t care if it tastes like dog water. Drink it.”
Jason drank it, and was greeted with the transporting delight of ambrosia hitting his taste buds. A smile spread across his lips. It made him think of Nico. Of the good times, not long ago, when they’d made each other happy instead of angry.
“I hope Thalia shows up,” Nico said, watching Jason with a softer expression. “I hope talking to her helps you. Talking to me obviously doesn’t.”
Jason shrugged.
“I think after the party, I need space from you,” he said.
He met Nico’s eyes, but he couldn’t read anything in them.
“We’ll see,” Nico said. “My friends will be here soon. Let’s act like a happy couple for a little bit longer. Okay?”
“Okay,” Jason said, his heart heavy. It was going to be a long day.
Guests began arriving around noon, and Jason was warmly introduced to Hecate, Isis, Hypnos, Morpheus, and Ganymede. It was a way bigger crowd of gods than Jason had expected, but it made sense, since Nico had technically advertised the party as his ‘happy re-humaning’ celebration. If it got Thalia to stop by, Jason was fine with it. He just avoided speaking with the gods after a brief greeting. He didn’t think that was racist.
Nico and a few of his divine friends began decorating cupcakes. Jason could hear them laughing; Isis was decorating each cupcake with a different dismembered body part of her husband Osiris, which led to a few naturally humorous moments. Jason headed outside to the patio by the pool, where Morpheus had begun doing cannonballs off the diving board. He grabbed a chair outside the splash zone and a bag of tortilla chips, trying to relax.
That didn’t last. Ganymede walked up to join him, sitting on the next chair over.
“So, how long have you two been dating?” Ganymede asked, sipping a magic cocktail through a crazy straw.
The cup bearer of the gods, and Zeus’s most famous boy toy, was as charismatic as one would expect. He had stunningly handsome features, his freckled suntanned face glowing with eternal youth. It was no wonder he’d inspired a lot of art. Too bad most of his art included Jason’s dad, in the form of an eagle, ravishing him.
“A couple of months, off and on,” Jason said, crunching on a chip. “It’s complicated.”
“Relationships between gods and mortals always are,” Ganymede said. He stared at Jason curiously, and Jason got the impression that he’d picked up on the awkward energy in the house.
Jason didn’t care if he made the party weird. He might be put into a magical coma that evening, and he was prepared to fight it with everything in his arsenal. His best plan was to tell his sister Thalia and ask for her help. If she said no, or didn’t show up, Jason had a backup plan.
He really hoped he wouldn’t have to use it.
“Can I ask you something?” Jason said.
“Depends on what it is,” Ganymede said, crossing one golden leg over the other. Jason noticed that his toenails were painted electric blue.
“Before you became a god, did you like being with Zeus? Did the power imbalance ever bother you?”
“Zeus doesn’t have a balance of power with anyone,” Ganymede said. “Not even his wife. He only takes other gods seriously when he feels like it. That’s the privilege of a king.”
“So, being mortal, that meant you were even lower on the totem pole,” Jason said. “And you were okay with that?”
“It was exciting,” Ganymede said. “It felt good to be chosen. To be wanted by someone who had all the options in the world. And being with him was indescribable. It’s a little more describable now that I’m a god,” he laughed. “But back then? It was the high that ruined me for all other highs.”
“I understand the good parts,” Jason said. He had felt all of that initially with Nico, without a doubt. “What about the bad parts? Did you ever disagree? Have different priorities? Want different things? It’s like… There’s no compromise.”
“I doubt that the god currently frosting your birthday cupcakes is unwilling to compromise with you,” Ganymede said, raising his eyebrows. “Nico’s a softie. And he’s still young and idealistic. Surely you can nudge him in the direction you want him to go.”
“Not on certain things,” Jason said. Death was one topic Nico held sacred. He would never give Jason’s opinion any weight when it contradicted his own.
“Maybe you’re not asking nicely enough,” Ganymede said, sipping his crazy straw.
“I don’t think that’s it,” Jason said.
“Why not just relax and enjoy it?” Ganymede said, staring up at the clouds in the blue sky. “Gods and men alike are ruled by the fates, but only the gods are tasked with executing their will. All mortals have to do is sit there and take it. You fight the tide, you’ll tire out and drown. I’ll never understand why mortals fight battles they know they can never win.”
“It’s human nature,” Jason said.
“It’s human frailty,” Ganymede said.
Jason felt defeated, but he hadn’t expected to feel otherwise. He was talking to a god, after all.
He hoped Thalia would get there soon.
A great shadow fell over the pool, and Jason looked up to see the Argo II hovering in the air. He wasted no time in flying up to greet his friends, who were waving at him from the prow.
“I missed you guys,” he said, landing with a thump on the deck, where Hazel, Frank, Piper and Leo awaited him. “How was the Necromanteion? Everyone okay?”
“That’s old news,” Leo scoffed. “Easy peasy.”
“We managed,” Piper said. He noted the bags under her eyes. “There’s so much to tell you. We just got back from Ithaca, that was crazy. But first! One, two…”
“Happy birthday!” They all shouted in unison, mobbing him in a group hug.
He couldn’t help it; he teared up a bit. Hugging them made him feel more grounded, like he was re-entering the real world after a long time being away.
“You’re amazing,” he said. “Thank you for coming. But where are Percy and Annabeth?”
“They’re transporting the Athena Parthenos back to Camp Half Blood. We commandeered a yacht. Percy can get them to Long Island in about ten days, we think,” Hazel said.
“Is that safe?” Jason asked.
“Percy is always safer in the ocean,” Leo said. “And they’re better off in the Atlantic than the Mediterranean, anyhow.”
“We wanted to keep Annabeth with us, but she was really beat up after Tartarus. She tried to help plot our course, but I don’t think her plans were as good as usual,” Hazel said, obviously reluctant to speak ill of her mentor. “I think a week or two on a yacht with Percy will fix her up. The camps need her more than we do. We still have her plans to work from.”
Jason helped fly Piper and Leo to the ground while Hazel brought Frank down. She ran into the house looking for her brother.
“How do you like being a kept man?” Leo asked, looking around Persephone’s garden with interest. “I’m assuming you’ve been here this whole time. Nico said not to ask about your ‘snorkeling trip.’ I guess that’s what the kids are calling it these days,” he smiled, nudging Jason knowingly.
“That’s not what this is,” Jason said, wishing they didn’t have to talk about it.
“A sex-cation? A dirty weekend?” Leo suggested.
“No,” Jason insisted. “Not either of those, either.”
“Mhm. Very Hades-and-Persephone core of you to be shut up in this house,” Leo said. “Looks dark inside. I, uh… Well, let’s just say I also snuck away from the field trip for a while,” he said, scuffing his sneaker in the dirt.
“Yeah, you did,” Piper said, nudging Leo in the same way he’d nudged Jason. “I’m still waiting to hear the dirty details. You know you’re gonna spill eventually,” she added sweetly. “I’ve got ways of making people talk.”
Leo looked at Jason, gauging his interest in hearing his story, and found none there. Jason was staring at a peony in the garden, one that was giving him the stinkeye.
“Let’s go inside,” he said, dragging his friends into the kitchen quickly. Hazel had already located Nico, and the two of them appeared to be engrossed in an intense conversation. Hazel kept pointing at the ‘happy re-humaning’ banner stretched across the wall. The subject of their discussion was obvious.
“Frank,” Jason said, seeing that the son of Mars had already commandeered a tray of deviled eggs for himself. “How did it go with the scepter?”
“What scepter?” Frank asked, speaking through a mouthful of egg.
“The scepter of Diocletian,” Jason asked. “The one I went through hell to get for you guys?” It had cost him more than any magical item in his life ever had.
“Oh, we didn’t end up needing it,” Frank said. “There weren’t any ghosts when we got to the Necromanteion. Lucky, right?”
Jason wordlessly gestured for Frank to follow him and walked out to the back patio, where Thanatos had chosen to camp out in order to avoid socializing. He was standing in the shade of a tree beside his brother, Hypnos. They had been bullied into watching Morpheus do flips off the diving board into the pool. Every time he jumped, water splashed them both, and they’d pull their wings close against their bodies to avoid getting them wet.
“Hey,” Jason said aggressively, glaring at Thanatos. “You said there were ghosts in the Necromanteion. Frank said there weren’t any.”
Thanatos screwed up his face, thinking.
“I could have sworn,” he said.
“Nico cleared those out a while ago,” Hypnos said, “Remember?”
“Oh, yeah,” Thanatos shrugged. “Whoops.”
“You’re not looking!” Morpheus shouted, before doing a belly flop into the water. Thanatos and Hypnos both politely clapped, turning their attention away from Jason once more.
Jason wondered whether the security cameras throughout the house were there to film a reality TV show where he was the star. Maybe he was being tormented for the entertainment of an audience far away. Then it dawned on him; he was right. That was his exact situation, only it had begun at birth. It was called being a demigod.
He could practically hear the laugh track in the background as, once again, he was made a fool of.
Thanatos’ misremembrance had caused him incalculable harm, but there was no recourse; it had already been brushed off. He was nothing to them, nothing more than an actor in a play the gods had scripted, desperately trying to stave off the closing of the curtain.
He stormed into the living room, but Hecate and Isis there were watching TV together. They looked at him curiously, and Isis started to speak, but he turned and hurried out before he offended another goddess.
He went to the kitchen, where Nico had begunplaying host to his demigod friends. Piper, Hazel, and Leo were all complimenting him on the delicious hors-d'ouevres, stuffing their faces with bruschetta and oysters.
Nico caught Jason’s eye, and Jason saw that he was preening, puffed up with pride over cooking skills he hadn’t come by honestly. Any mistake he made, he fixed with magic. It was ludicrous to compliment him for cheating at cooking, and it enraged Jason to see him pleased over something so stupid. Nico had a lot of nerve talking about canapes and stuffed mushrooms when he was planning on putting his lover in a coma in less than twelve hours.
Jason headed upstairs in a rush, going into his room and slamming the door. He slid down the back of the door and sat with his head in his hands. Nico had been right about one thing; he couldn’t cope. He didn’t know what to do. Thalia still hadn’t arrived, and he was beginning to worry she never would. If she bailed, he’d be out of options. His breath came shallow at the thought of relying on his backup plan. He didn’t want to use it; he wanted to forget everything he knew and pretend that he’d never opened that damned laptop. But what if he wasn’t left with another option? What if it was the only way to survive?
He heard light footsteps approaching his door.
“You okay?” Hazel asked, her face pressed against the doorjamb. She sounded so grave and so gentle that it brought tears to Jason’s eyes. Normally he’d hate to be the object of pity, but he’d received so little lately that it meant a lot to have some now.
“No,” he said, scooting away from the door and letting her in.
She came in and sat down on the rug beside him. She looked around her old room, at the smashed lamp shards covering the floor, and she leaned over and pressed her shoulder against his. Jason wasn’t close with Hazel and never would be, but she was the only one of his living friends besides Reyna who knew he was running out of time. Her presence helped a lot.
“Things aren’t good,” Jason said quietly. “Nico thinks I’ll be sent to Asphodel if I don’t start worshiping the gods again.”
“Yes, you will be,” Hazel said. “But Asphodel isn’t the worst place, if that’s how it has to be.”
“You’re not going to pressure me into worshiping Nico?” He asked.
She looked at him, her eyes watery with compassion.
“It should be your choice. Worship ought to be genuine.”
“The gods don’t seem to think so. They seem fine with lip service.”
“But real faith is special. It’s a place to put all the love and hate and fear that you don’t have room for. The stuff your mortal friends can’t handle. The stuff you can’t even handle.”
“I never thought of it like that,” Jason said.
“When I was little, I mean really little, I felt that way about my mom,” Hazel said. “The sun shone out of her face and everything good in the world came from her hands. My mom was a witch and a whore and she drank too much. But I knew she loved me. I knew she’d give me the food off her plate and go hungry if I wanted seconds. She cussed me out three times a week and made me do dishes in water so hot that I screamed,” Hazel said, smiling at the recollection. “She would have died for me, though.”
“Must have been nice,” Jason said.
“It was. Back then, she was everything to me. All she had to do was smile and tell me I was her favorite girl, and I’d walk on air the rest of the day. But I grew up fast, and it faded,” she said. “It hurt so bad to start seeing the cracks in her. I didn’t resent her for being a flawed woman. Part of me knew she had it hard. But I resented losing my goddess. When I used to cry, she’d hold me and tell me everything was gonna be okay. There was this time, this really brief time, that I believed her. I genuinely thought she had the power to see the future and re-shape the world and protect me from harm. Obviously I was wrong, I was just a stupid little kid. But that time was pure magic. It ended too soon. I missed just believing.”
Jason didn’t know what to say. It sounded beautiful, what she described. It made him feel sick thinking that he’d never experienced having a parent that loved him. He had a long list of things to be bitter about, but that topped the list. If he was honest with himself, it might be the only thing on the list that really mattered.
“That’s my long winded way of saying that Nico has given me back that feeling. I believe him. I believe in him. I don’t care if I’m wrong, and I don’t care if he’s wrong, that’s not the point of it. I want there to be magic in the world. I’m a better Hazel with it than I would be without it.”
Jason gritted his teeth.
“I could have had that,” he said, “If Juno hadn’t ruined my mom’s life and scared her into abandoning me.”
“I’m not sure you got my point,” Hazel said sadly. “Your life isn’t over yet. Our pantheon has a lot of gods. There’s got to be one you can believe in. All it takes is one god’s favor to get into Elysium.”
He shook his head. Believing in gods only got you taken advantage of and discarded. He wasn’t going to spend the last month of his life being disappointed.
“I don’t care about my afterlife anymore,” he insisted. “I made Persephone mad the other day, so she’ll probably stick me in Asphodel even if I did pray to some other god for help. It’s pointless. What’s not pointless is how I spend the next month. I need to get out of here before Nico puts me in a coma.”
“A coma?” Hazel asked, alarmed.
“Yeah, he’s doing that,” Jason said, although he didn’t know whether Nico had made a decision yet. “How do you feel about worshiping him now?”
Hazel shook her head, refusing to take the bait.
“I won’t let him do that,” she said.
“You-- hold on,” Jason said, scrambling to stop her as she got up and prepared to leave. “You can’t tell him I told you that. He doesn’t know I heard.”
“I won’t get you in trouble,” Hazel said. “You want out of here, I’ll get you out. As his first and only worshipper, I have a lot of pull with my brother. You’re welcome,” she added.
“It’s alright,” Jason said, standing. “My sister is coming. She’ll help. You don’t need to intervene.”
Hazel shrugged.
“Okay. But if she can’t help, let me know. I can tell you hate it here.”
“How’s that?”
“You smashed my lamp!” She said, pointing at the wreckage.
She and Jason headed back downstairs.
“Nico, is Thalia coming?” Jason asked, feeling brave enough to address him with Hazel at his side.
Nico’s face fell.
“I was just about to look for you,” he said, grimacing. “I’m sorry. I don’t think Artemis got my invitation. Apparently she and Apollo were banished from Olympus recently. Your dad got mad at them.”
Jason nodded, trying to keep his composure, even though his heart was pounding. Piper and Leo were looking right at him, and he didn’t want to let on how high the stakes were. He really didn’t want to execute Plan B.
“Cool,” he said curtly. “Got it.”
He walked outside to the pool and got a beer out the cooler, shotgunning it. Then he grabbed another. He’d never been a drinker, but right now he needed to numb his feelings by any means necessary. He wouldn’t live long enough to become an alcoholic, so there was really no downside.
“I see the party is finally getting started,” Ganymede said, smiling brilliantly from where he was sunning himself poolside. Jason rolled his eyes and ignored him.
Leo ran out to the patio.
“You okay, dude?” He asked, grabbing his shoulder. “This isn’t really normal Jason behavior.”
“It’s my 21st fucking birthday,” Jason said loudly, his eyes wild with suppressed panic. “I want to have some fun for once in my stupid life. Is that okay with you, officer Leo?”
Luckily, Leo thought he was making a joke. Leo and Piper joined him for a round of tequila shots, even though they were both underage. He didn’t know the drinking age in Crete, anyway, so he figured it was fine. This was probably the last time they’d ever get a chance to celebrate together.
Frank came to join them, although he opted out of drinking. The heroes sat around a patio table next to the pool. Jason blatantly ignored Ganymede when he tried to join them, and eventually all of the gods migrated inside, leaving Jason and his mortal friends outside alone.
“Cheers,” Frank said, raising his soda can. “To Jason. A hero so great, New Rome couldn't contain him.”
“Fought monsters coast to coast, then he went international,” Leo said. “He’s the demigod Mr. Worldwide.”
“I wouldn’t go that far,” Piper said, winking at Jason. “But I guess he’s kinda cool.”
“You’re right, nobody compares to Pitbull,” Leo said. “But let’s drink anyway. Dale!”
They all took sips of their drinks, and then Hazel walked out with a cake. They raised a cheer, and Jason managed a real smile.
“I talked to Nico. He’s gonna let us sing to you on our own,” Hazel said. “You need human time.”
“I agree,” Jason said. Sharing this moment with his mortal friends felt special, and he didn’t want Nico to spoil it. He was glad Hazel understood what he needed.
Hazel lit a single candle on top of the small vanilla cake, and they all sang ‘happy birthday.’ Jason just sat and absorbed the moment. The sun was setting, and his friends’ faces were aglow in the candlelight. He was a little drunk and there was cake and everyone was happy. For a moment, he glimpsed that fleeting beauty that the movie-version of Achilles had been talking about. He was grateful for it, imperfect as it was.
He tried to etch it into his memory permanently, taking in every detail. The feather Piper had in her hair, the glow of her perfect skin, the way she stared at him when she thought he wasn’t looking, like she was still a little bit in love with him. The gleam in Leo’s eyes, his self-conscious laugh, and the way he’d crack joke after joke until one of them finally made Jason smile. Frank making sure Jason got the biggest slice of cake since he was the birthday boy. Hazel’s corona of auburn hair lit by the sunset behind her, and the way she looked at him with empathy that was born from understanding. She’d once been in his shoes once long ago. She knew what it meant to eat your last slice of birthday cake.
“I’ve got a present for Jason, if that’s okay with y’all,” Hazel said, tapping her water glass. Everyone quieted and looked at her. “I spoke with Nico. I’ve gotten Jason permission to leave tonight.”
Jason felt a huge wave of relief wash over him. He wouldn’t have to go through with his plan. Everything would be kind of okay.
“He’s free to rejoin us on the Argo II and finish the quest!” Hazel said delightedly.
Jason stood up and vomited into the pool.
He should have seen it coming. Another shoe had dropped. But how many freaking shoes did he have? This was getting ridiculous.
His friends were worried about him, obviously, but he waved them off, claiming he’d had too much to drink. It wasn’t their fault. Even Hazel had no idea that he’d refused to re-join the quest. He’d have been too ashamed to ever admit it to the team, but his intention had always been to ditch them. He was planning to leave them to fight Gaea alone.
It had just become a lot harder to do that.
He staggered back to his seat, feeling the alcohol a lot more than he had earlier, even though a good deal of it had departed his body violently a moment ago. His head spun, his friends talked, but he didn’t listen. He pictured Nico’s smug expression when he generously granted Hazel’s wish. Nico had won. He’d gotten exactly what he wanted, and he was still able to look like the good guy doing it. What a joke.
At least Jason wouldn’t be put into a coma. Hazel had still helped. He tried to acclimatize himself to this new compromise.
While he was acclimatizing, three men walked onto the patio. Strangely, they were entering from the beach, which was a half mile walk away from the house through a scrubby field. There was a buff one with curly hair, a short, mean looking one, and a third one with crazy eyes. They all wore fancy looking suits with shiny shoes, and wore crowns of golden laurels on their heads.
Frank stood, pushing Hazel behind his body protectively.
“Uh, hello?” Leo said, also standing, his hands going into his pockets.
“Hi,” said the guy with crazy eyes. “I think our invites got lost in the mail.”He was holding what looked like a bottle of wine.
“Guys, this is the Triumvirate,” Hazel said, drawing her Stygian knives. “They’re not friends.”
“I picked up on that,” Piper said, drawing her own knife. Frank had left his spear, so he grabbed the cake knife, and Leo pulled a Rubik’s cube out of his pocket.
Jason felt naked without a sword, but he had other powers at his disposal.
“Really? Weapons drawn, before we’ve even had a chance to introduce ourselves?” The short emperor said. “You heroes need better manners. Kids these days, I swear.”
Jason glanced back at the house. Someone had turned the music up extremely loud, and he could see that the gods in the kitchen had begun doing the Electric Slide. They were totally oblivious to the danger the heroes were in.
“Well, I’ll start, since someone has to have some manners around here,” said the short emperor. “I’m Nero, and these are my associates, Caligula and Commodus.”
Jason looked between the three emperors. He’d studied them in school, but that didn’t necessarily teach you what to do when one of them crashed your pool party.
Before any of the three of them could decide on what to do, Nero shoved past them and sat down at the table, helping himself to a slice of cake.
“Not bad,” he said, taking a few bites. “Buttercream?”
“Fred prefers carrot cake,” Caligula said, setting his wine bottle on the ground at his feet.
Commodus, the buff one, stalked back and forth alongside the pool, looking at the demigods carefully. He was oddly quiet, and it gave Jason the creeps.
He looked at each of his friends in turn. Hazel was right in between Nero and Caligula, seemingly frozen in place. She didn’t seem scared so much as cautious, like she was staring at a stick of dynamite that was in danger of exploding any minute if she made a wrong move. Frank, Piper and Leo were taking their cues from her, so they were also waiting and watching.
Hazel was smart, and she seemed to be familiar with the emperors already, at least a little. Buying time for one of the gods inside to notice them was a good strategy. But something told Jason that the emperors had taken precautions to ensure they wouldn’t be noticed. He glanced back over his shoulder surreptitiously and saw that there was a fine film of mist on the glass doors and windows that faced the patio. He could see the gods inside, dancing and laughing, but they could not see him.
He turned back to face the others, swallowing hard. No one would be coming to save them. Not in time, anyway.
Nero noticed him looking at the windows, and smirked, catching Jason’s eye.
“Whose birthday?” He asked, gesturing at the cake.
“Mine,” Jason said, his voice tense. His head was still swimming with alcohol, and he regretted every sip. Unfortunately, if it came to a fight, three of them would be pretty drunk. That said, he was pretty sure the emperors weren’t intending to stick around long. Eventually the gods inside the house would notice something was off outside. Whatever was going to happen would happen quickly.
His response attracted Commodus’ attention. The emperor’s expression perked up, and he walked over to the table.
“Your birthday, huh?” He asked, folding his meaty arms across his pecs. “Is this lame party for you?”
Jason hesitated.
“It’s a party to celebrate Nico’s re-humanizing,” Jason said.
“No it’s not,” Commodus said, shooting Jason an unsettling smile. “I don’t buy that for a second. I know Nico. If he really is getting re-humanized, he’s not happy about it. I think this party is for you.”
Jason didn’t know what to say, so he didn’t respond. Commodus looked between him and Hazel.
“Sister,” he said, pointing at Hazel. “And I’m guessing… Boyfriend?” he said, pointing at Jason. “Here’s my question. Which one of you does Nico love more?”
The answer was definitely Hazel, but Jason’s instincts were screaming danger that answering the question would put one of them in danger.
Nero took another bite of cake, seemingly uninterested in the weird questioning going on beside him.
“It’s the girl,” Caligula said suddenly, picking up his wine bottle. “You should kill her. She’s the one who he was defending on Capri when he went crazy on me for no reason.”
“You tried to stab me,” Hazel said, clenching her fists. Jason saw gems popping up on the earth, and the telltale cracks in the patio concrete. She was growing crystals, preparing for a fight. He really, really regretted drinking, because he knew his lightning strikes wouldn’t be accurate under the influence. He wasn’t sure he even ought to use them with his friends nearby.
“I was going for your friend,” Caligula shrugged. “And I see you still haven’t learned your lesson from the cave.”
“What lesson?” She asked.
“When there’s about to be a fight, don’t clump up together with other people in a crowd,” Caligula said. “Like right now, for example.”
He tossed his wine bottle casually to the floor. It exploded with a burst of fire, causing everyone to jump backwards instinctively.
Hazel, Piper, and Frank were all fine. Jason didn’t know how, but they were unaffected by the fire. Little clips in their hair began to glow, which may have had something to do with it, but Jason didn’t have anything to protect him, and his clothes were on fire. He had no choice but to jump in the pool immediately.
Leo wasn’t intimidated by fire. He covered himself in even more flames and threw himself at Caligula with a shout. Caught off guard by the fiery teen glomping attack, Caligula started laughing maniacally and running around while Leo chased him.
Jason climbed out of the pool as fast as possible, but before he was out of the water, a large hand pulled him the rest of the way out. It was Commodus, and he was holding a massive golden sword.
Jason summoned the wind to blow him away, but Commodus withstood the gale-force gust like he was made of stone. Unfazed, he held Jason’s arm in an iron grip.
Jason glanced over at Piper. Nero had her by the neck, holding her aloft, choking her. Her lips were blue. He saw Katoptris drop to the ground with a clatter.
Frank had turned into an eagle and was launching himself at Nero, trying to claw at his hand to free Piper. Hazel was chucking exploding crystals at him, but Nero was laughing it off, delighting in their desperation. Seeing that her efforts weren’t working, Hazel glanced back at Jason and ran toward him. Commodus grabbed at her arm, but a swipe with her Stygian Iron knife caused him to flinch backwards. She faced him down, while he stared at the knives. He appeared to recognize them. It made him angry.
“Let him go,” Hazel said. “Or I’ll use this. Don’t make me do something I can’t take back.”
“I’ll ask one more time,” Commodus said, ignoring her. His face was stone. “Which one of you does Nico love more?”
“Me,” Jason said, speaking before he could think.
Commodus plunged the golden sword into his stomach.
Jason looked down. He saw the shining length of gold that impaled him, but he couldn’t reconcile what he was looking at with reality. It didn’t hurt. In fact, he felt numb except for a faint cold sensation in his midsection.
He heard the patio door slide open. The sound of the Electric Slide abruptly stopped.
“No!”
Jason recognized his voice. Nico came running towards him just as he lost his balance. His knees hit the concrete with a painful thud, and he felt Nico’s arms go around him.
“Commodus, what did you do?” Nico said icily, through gritted teeth. A dark vapor rose in the air around him, making Jason shiver.
“You know the saying,” Commodus said, a look of smug satisfaction on his face. “An eye for an eye makes the whole world see better.”
Jason struggled to piece together what he was hearing. He was floating, displaced from the moment.
He didn’t want Nico to let go. His cold arms were the only thing he seemed to be able to feel. But he knew Nico would stand up and attack Commodus at any moment.
Except he didn’t.
“Get out of here,” Nico said quietly, looking down at Jason without meeting his eyes.
Commodus seemed satisfied.
“Consider us even. If you think about it, I did you a favor,” Commodus added. When Nico didn’t respond, he shrugged. “I’ll see you later, I guess.”
He walked away.
Nico didn’t even watch him go. He just looked at Jason in his arms.
Nero had dropped Piper the second Nico came outside. He was already leaving, along with Caligula. More of Nico’s friends walked out, including Thanatos, who looked down at Jason with a surprising amount of concern on his normally impassive face.
Not one single god pursued the departing emperors.
“Jason, look at me. Are you okay?” Nico asked, staring down at him.
Jason looked down at his abdomen and saw that there was no sword, no wound. There was no sign of anything wrong with him at all.
He had a sneaking suspicion that was the worst sign of all.
“I think I’m fine,” he said, sitting up.
“Are you sure?” Nico asked.
“I don’t know,” Jason said.
Hecate walked out to them. The other demigods clustered around Jason in a protective circle, staring silently. Jason may have looked okay, but they all knew something very bad had just happened to him.
“Nico, are you going to go after them? Do you need help? Because we’ll have your back,” Hecate said, kneeling beside him.
Nico glanced back at his godly friends, Isis and Ganymede, Morpheus and Hypnos.
“No. I’m not going after them. I just want this to be over. But thank you,” he said, smiling at them gratefully.
Jason felt his vision fading out, and he gave in to it easily. The last thing he heard was Leo shouting something, and then silence.
He woke up in Nico’s bedroom, where he was lying on top of black silk bed sheets. He ran his fingers across their smooth surface, finding them so cold and watery that he thought, deliriously, that he might already be in the Underworld, touching the cold water of the river he’d once seen in his dreams.
“You awake?” Nico asked.
Jason sat up. He didn’t feel any pain in his abdomen, but his body felt slightly achy and inflamed, like he had a low grade fever. Nico was standing over his bed, along with Hecate, who was fiddling with a glass of what appeared to be a green smoothie. She dropped something into it, and it fizzed over the top.
“Here,” she said, handing it to Jason. “Drink. You’ll regain some strength.”
Jason was too disoriented to fight back, and drank the entire glass down in spite of it tasting horrible.
“That will sustain you for a good while,” Hecate said. “But eventually…”
“You’re going to die,” Nico said flatly. “Imperial gold eats away at your--”
“I know what Imperial gold does,” Jason snapped. “Are you saying this wasn’t a normal Imperial gold sword?”
“It was the ceremonial sword of an emperor. It will corrode your divine blood, like a normal Imperial gold weapon. But this corrosion will continue. It’s impossible to stop or reverse. It will eat away at you slowly until half of your blood is gone and you collapse,” Hecate said. “And die.”
“All we can do is try to make you as comfortable as possible,” Nico said, running his fingers through Jason’s hair lovingly. “Don’t worry. I won’t let you suffer. I can keep you safe here until--”
“Fuck suffering,” Jason said, swinging his legs out of bed. “I’m not spending the last month of my life an invalid.”
“Do you want to spend it unconscious? Because you’re well on your way to coma town, mister,” Hecate said, putting her hands on her hips.
“We don’t want it to come to that,” Nico said, biting his nails.
“We are not making the decisions here,” Jason said. “I am. I’m not going to lie here and let death take me slowly. I’m going to do something about it. Hecate, please leave. I need to speak with Nico alone.”
Nico nodded to her, and she strode out.
Jason stood up at his full height. It took a lot out of him. His body would recover from the shock, and he’d adapt, but this insidious wound would drain his life with each passing day. Every step would take a little more effort. Potions and poultices could only do so much.
He needed to get out while he still could. He needed to do something about this.
“Are you rejoining the quest?” Nico asked, his face lighting up.
“No,” Jason said, looking Nico in the eyes. He saw disappointment and confusion enter his face. This was not going to be a pleasant conversation, but he wasn’t going to be a coward about it. He’d take whatever consequences came.
“Why not?” Nico asked. “Your bucket list is mostly done. You barely had any ideas for it anyway. You only have so much time and energy left. You’re not going to spend it on more snorkeling. Please tell me that’s not your plan.”
“No,” Jason said. “Not snorkeling. Living. I’m going to heal this wound. And you’re going to help me do it.”
Nico’s jaw dropped.
“You’re joking, right?” He asked, smiling weakly. “I don’t have healing powers. I can’t fix this. Not even a little bit. And you know you’re going to die anyway… What are you thinking?”
Jason took a few steps forward, and nearly fell into Nico, who caught him around his waist. He put his hands on Nico’s shoulders and looked into his eyes.
“I could accept it,” Jason said. “I could submit to fate. But I’m choosing not to. Just once, I want to believe there’s another way.”
“There’s not,” Nico said, his face darkening with concern. “How many times have we been over this? You can’t just opt out of death. There’s no life hack that doctors don’t want you to know.”
Jason laughed slightly at the irony, not because he truly found it funny.
“That’s just what you have to tell yourself,” Jason said. “You take souls. You kill people. You’ve accepted death because you are death. You’re doing your job. I get it. But you were also the god that brought Hazel back to life,” he said.
“That was a one time thing,” Nico said.
“It doesn’t have to be,” Jason said. “Nico… You did this,” he said, pressing Nico’s hand against the spot on his abdomen where the sword had pierced him. It burned hotter than the rest of his skin, and radiated a dull pain, softened only by Hecate’s medicines. “Commodus hurt me because of you. I don’t need all the details to figure that out.”
“I’m aware,” Nico said, his voicebreaking. “And I’m sorry. But I can’t fix it, no matter how bad I want to.”
He was emotional, but Nico was often emotional. In spite of that, he didn’t sound very convincing. If Jason didn’t know any better, he’d think Nico had been in this situation before. Something in his expression looked very sad, and yet not even a little bit surprised.
“Sorry doesn’t help me,” Jason pleaded. “Nico. If you ever loved me… Save me. Heal me. Find a way. I know that you could do it if you really wanted to. You’ve managed miracles before.”
Nico stared at him, his expression unreadable.
“Maybe you’re right,” Nico finally admitted with a shrug, his eyes gleaming darkly. “I’m not all-knowing. Maybe, if I really wanted to, I could save you. But I don’t want to try.”
Jason felt the last little bit of hope leave him. Not hope for his own survival-- he still had a little bit of that. But he lost hope that he could spare his relationship with Nico from total annihilation.
“From now until August, I’ll try to keep you healthy and happy, as much as I can. But I’m taking your soul on August first. In fact, I’m looking forward to it,” Nico admitted.
Jason took a step back.
“How could you say that? Like it’s nothing?” He asked.
“Nothing? It means everything to me. I mean, come on,” Nico smiled. “Look at it this way. Moving in together is a big milestone in our relationship. Don’t worry. You won’t be the first ghost I’ve dated. I won’t treat you any differently.”
Nico said this as though he genuinely thought he was being reassuring. Jason was tempted to slap him.
Why did he have to date a death god?
It was all fun and games until you were actually dying. Then it got really fucked up, really fast.
Jason was furious, he was triggered, he was in fight or flight. He was losing the tiny shreds of freedom, of control, of self-respect he’d been clinging on to. Every time he was close to escaping the gods’ clutches, they dragged him back in. Nico seemed to think he’d just submit. To him, to the gods, to death, to whatever crap the fates dished out.
“I didn’t want to do this,” Jason said quietly.
“Do what?” Nico asked.
“I Googled you.”
They stood in silence for a moment, staring at one another.
“You’re going to cure me,” Jason said. “You’re going to try. Or else, I’ll tell the entire pantheon the truth about what you really are. Alive or dead, somehow I’ll make sure they know. You can’t silence me forever.”
“I have no idea what you’re talking about,” Nico said, blinking nervously.
“Save my life,” Jason said, stepping forward, getting in his face. “Or I’ll tell everyone you’re a saint.”
Chapter 86
Notes:
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Chapter Text
“I’m not a saint,” Nico muttered. “Jason doesn’t know what he’s talking about.”
He was walking down the winding, narrow roads of Chania, passing lively cafes and small shops selling Cretan souvenirs. It was a brutally hot day, and the paving stones beneath his feet radiated heat upward like an oven.
He pushed past a group of sunburned British women on vacation who were shopping for desperately needed hats. An orange kitten ran across the path in front of him, and he remembered his poor kitten Beatrice, whom he’d lost in Tartarus. Someday he’d find her, he told himself, when the war was over and things calmed down.
Then he remembered that he’d be human after the war ended. He’d probably never see Beatrice again.
It was a depressing thought piled on top of a hundred other depressing thoughts. Jason’s betrayal had wounded him almost as deeply as an Imperial gold sword would have, although he knew Jason would resent that comparison.
Thinking of Jason made tears sting at the corners of his eyes. He stopped beneath an awning, buffeted by a wave of regret. Despite their conflict, there was an ocean of love between them. Even as Jason had levied his blackmail, his enduring love for Nico had shone like sunlight through stained glass.
Nico had loved him as only a god can-- He’d lavished the object of his affection with burdensome generosity and benevolent despotism. It wasn’t his first rodeo; he knew that gods loved humans only to their destruction. Will Dodds had taught him that lesson already. Regardless of his intent, Nico couldn’t be anything other than what he was. Given the circumstances, it had felt safe to love someone with a foot already in the grave. Instead, he’d met the man Jason Grace became at his lowest, most desperate and broken. He hadn’t seen that part coming, but gods plan and the Fates laugh.
They had been doomed from the start, but Nico had believed they’d find each other in the Underworld when all was said and done, laugh about the whole thing, and reminisce about the good times. Jason had taken that hopeful dream, chucked it down the sink and switched on the garbage disposal. Now, Nico couldn’t even think of him without being socked in the gut by rage and humiliation. A saint? The idea was ridiculous. As though Nico could be a saint and not know about it!
In fairness, he’d been a god and he hadn’t known about it. But what were the odds of something like that happening twice?
His eyes flicked upwards. The sign on the restaurant across the street read ‘Minos Restaurant.’ A smile teased at the corner of his mouth, the thought of his dear friend cheering him up considerably. Remembering Minos reminded him that he, too, had once been a son of Zeus-- who was different than Jupiter, but also the same, in ways Nico didn’t fully understand. Minos had gone insane during the last few years of his life, and he’d destroyed his family as a result. Maybe the same was happening to Jason, and death would fix him, too.
Would that be enough for Nico to forgive him? He wasn’t sure.
He continued making his way down the street, passing the weathered stone buildings in the historical center of Chania near the Venetian port. He reached a small park in a square and crossed through it, walking over to a familiar white walled church, small and nondescript. The Latin inscription over the entrance read ‘dedicated to God the Great and Mighty and to the Divine Rocco’.
Nico poked his head in, but there was an art exhibition taking place inside, and the space was crowded with mortals. He didn’t see Rocco anywhere. He was just turning to go when something tugged at his pant leg.
It was Rocco’s dog, Cerberus. Nico patted the little brown dog on the head, and Cerberus politely coughed up a small communion wafer in greeting.
Cerberus turned and ran off into the park, and Nico followed, hoping it would lead him to his master. The park consisted of a long central walkway surrounded by trees, with a dry fountain in the center, along with a large stone memorial off to one side.
Saint Rocco was sitting on a bench in the square, recognizable in his brown robes, the eternal wound on his leg leaking pus as usual. He was talking to a conservatively dressed young woman Nico didn’t recognize.
“Ah! Nico, come over here,” Rocco said, beckoning him over. “This is my neighbor, Catherine. Her church is the large one right behind us. Catherine, this is Nico.”
Nico raised his eyebrows. He hadn’t been expecting such a warm welcome.
“Hi,” he said. “You’re the second Saint Catherine I’ve met.” He could tell she was a saint as soon as he approached, and in fact she seemed more powerful than Catherine of Siena. All saints had halos, but they weren’t usually obvious to the naked eye, as though they emitted light on a frequency that Nico couldn’t pick up on easily. Valentine and this new Catherine had both possessed halos that were more noticeable than most.
“I’m Catherine of Alexandria,” Catherine said. She had curly auburn hair and a slightly combative gleam in her eyes, not so different from the other Catherine in that way.
“Cool,” said Nico. “Look, I’m going to cut to the chase--”
“Sit down with us,” Rocco said, gesturing to the seat beside him. “Feed the birds.”
Nico looked at the empty spot on the wrought iron bench, unsure whether it was wise to turn his request into a social visit. He watched as Catherine threw a handful of birdseed at a flock of doves that had gathered around her. Some were even sitting on her shoulders, pecking at her hair, and she pet them affectionately. She and Rocco made a very peaceful scene with the birds on their shoulders and the little dog at their feet.
“I shouldn’t,” Nico said.
That piqued Catherine’s interest, and she looked up at him.
“Why not?” She asked. “Have we done something to wrong you?”
“No. It’s just better if we stay in our separate lanes,” he said. “Which is why I’m here. Rocco, I-- Um, are you aware that there’s someone staring at us from behind a tree?”
“That’s Saint John, don’t mind him. He’s a hermit,” Rocco said. “Go on.”
Nico found it hard not to mind Saint John. All he could see was a pair of big staring eyes set in a thin face, poking out from behind some leaves.
“Did you hear what happened after Eurovision?” Nico asked.
“Everyone heard about it,” Catherine interjected. “In my opinion--”
“Please,” Rocco said, holding up his hand. “Allow me. Nico,” he said. “Our mutually beloved Maria Bova dearly wishes for you to become a saint.”
“That’s what I was afraid of,” Nico said, sitting on the bench with him despite his better judgment. “How far has it gone?”
“The claims made will be investigated through the proper channels,” Rocco said, his voice grave. “She has submitted a jeweled rosary and a designer gown as evidence of miracles.”
“Flashy trinkets without substance,” Catherine said skeptically. “Fitting for a pagan demon.”
“The investigation will not occur anytime soon, and her evidence will not hold up to any examination,” Rocco said. “You have no writings, no works, no spiritual career to recommend you. Eventually, the investigation will end, and you’ll be dismissed from the record.”
“Good,” Nico said, relieved. “How long until it’s over with?”
“Not long. Probably less than two hundred years,” Rocco said.
“That’s not gonna work! It’s dangerous for me to have my name publicly associated with you guys. And everything Maria said is on the internet for anyone to read.”
“I have to admit, it was refreshing to see a young woman professing her beliefs on secular television,” Catherine said. “To know that a pagan demon was the one responsible? Suffice to say it sparked some interest. There are eyes on you, Nico di Angelo. Important ones.”
Nico looked over his shoulder. Saint John was still watching him from the bushes. He wished that those were the only eyes he had to worry about, but he was afraid that the eyes she referred to were on another level entirely.
She held out her back of birdseed, and he took it, grabbing a handful to toss out to her doves.
“If you are in danger, and need help, you know you have only to ask,” Rocco said gently.
“I don’t need your help. I know it’ll come with a price,” Nico said, watching the birds with a frown on his face. “But I was hoping to get a signed statement from you, one just stating a fact. I figured you’d be willing to do at least that for free. I risked a lot at Eurovision. I threatened Apollo with Stygian iron. I’m not sure if you realize, but that was a huge deal, and you put me in a position where I had no other option in order to fulfill my contract.”
“Writing something is no trouble,” Rocco said patiently. “What do you need?”
“Something that says ‘Nico di Angelo is totally, unequivocally, entirely not even a little bit a saint. And also I don’t know him.’”
Rocco conjured a legal pad from thin air and scribbled out his note. He signed at the bottom, ‘Peace be with you-- Saint Rocco.’ At the bottom, he poked the paper, adding a little golden seal that any god would recognize.
“I won’t claim not to know you, since that would be a lie,” Rocco said. “But the rest is there.”
Nico accepted the paper with a surge of gratitude. This would surely convince Jason, and anyone else who might Google him, that he really had no connection to the Catholic church whatsoever.
As he folded up the paper and put it in his pocket, henoticed that Catherine was staring at him with a small smirk.
“You threatened Apollo?” She asked, sounding amused.
“Not a fan?”
“Of false gods? Obviously not,” she said. “All things pagan irritate me. I was tortured by the Roman Emperor Maxentius for standing up for what I believed in,” she said. “Ever heard of a Catherine Wheel?”
“No,” Nico said.
“Well, look it up.”
“Don’t mind her. We don’t hold you responsible for what happened in the old days,” Rocco said kindly. “In fact, Catherine, Nico was baptized when he was a baby. His grandmother took him to mass on Sundays. He’s prayed to us many times over the course of his life.”
She looked at Nico with a totally new expression on her face, one of sharp interest, like she’d just taken on a challenge.
“A couple of times, maybe,” Nico said awkwardly. Had there been many? He did once have a book on saints that he read to himself. Had he prayed to them when he was too young to remember?
“Do you believe in God?” Catherine asked.
“Don’t I have to? You guys get your powers from somewhere,” Nico said.
“Do you believe in heaven and hell? In the concept of sin and the possibility of redemption?”
“I know those things are real,” Nico said. “I’ve sent people to your afterlife. I know they’re being judged based on your moral standards when they get there.”
“But do you believe in God as the creator of the universe?” She asked. “As the supreme authority?”
“No,” Nico said, glad he could disagree with her on something. “The universe came from Chaos. And Chaos was my boyfriend’s grandpa, so you’re definitely wrong on that one.”
To his surprise, Catherine laughed out loud.
“We have got to schedule a debate one of these days,” she said, cracking her knuckles. “I like pagans with a little fight in them.”
“No debates,” Rocco insisted. “It is a rare thing for saints to have common ground with someone like Nico. Let us celebrate our similarities rather than our differences, for once, please.”
The last time they’d met, Rocco had been a lot warier of Nico. Something must have shifted after Maria Bova had spoken out about him on television. But if Nico’s application for sainthood was destined to be rejected, why were these saints speaking with him like they were normal acquaintances, rather than dangerous enemies?
“Are you up to something?” Nico asked Rocco. “You’re being weirdly nice to me.”
“After Eurovision, I heard all that you did for Maria Bova,” Rocco said. “And about your work with Catherine. You’ve kept your promises, and you’ve shown deep love and care for a vulnerable young woman, giving her the courage to sing.”
“Yeah, to sing about how great I am,” Nico said. “That’s kind of selfish, isn’t it?”
“You’re self-aware, too,” Rocco said. “You know, for one so young, you show a maturity beyond your years. You have the wisdom to deal with us fairly and show us respect, in spite of your influences. In my opinion, you’re by far the best demon your pantheon has ever produced.”
Nico’s skepticism floated away like a balloon whose string had been snipped.
“The best demon? You really think so?” Nico asked, smiling in spite of himself. “I want that on a t-shirt. ‘Best Demon Ever.’”
“Your open-mindedness is commendable,” Rocco said.
“It really is, isn’t it,” Nico agreed, grinning. “Nobody in my pantheon would ever say that. They’d hate it if they knew we were talking. But I agree. I am commendable. I’m an ambassador, after all.”
“Don’t forget your humility,” Catherine added.
“You’re right, I’m humble too,” Nico added.
“I meant don’t forget to have some,” Catherine said, rolling her eyes. “Rocco, you’re laying the praise on thick today. If I didn’t know better, I’d think you were trying to convert the boy.”
“What? Oh, my, what would make you say that?” Rocco said. “Oh, look, Cerberus is doing something cute, let’s all look at it!”
Nico looked at Cerberus, but the little brown dog wasn’t doing anything particularly interesting. In his peripheral vision, he caught sight of Rocco doing the ‘cut it out,’ gesture at Catherine, slicing his hand across his neck.
“You can’t make that gesture at me,” she snapped, growing visibly agitated. “That’s insensitive!”
“Forgot,” Rocco said. “I’m sorry, it wasn’t an intentional reference. Um, Nico, would you be interested in staying here with us a little longer? Saint Nicholas’ church is nearby, and he often comes to greet us in the evening hours. It might be beneficial if you were to meet him.”
“Rocco, I’ll level with you, since you’re a nice guy,” Nico said, giving Cerberus a pat on the head, then standing up. “I can see what you’re doing. You want to convert me.”
“Whaaaat?” Rocco said, hunching his shoulders in embarrassment.
Catherine sighed, shaking her head.
“Clumsy. Should have let me debate him. I’d have him switched over like that,” she said, snapping her fingers.
“Remember, you don’t lie, but I lie all the time. You’re never going to fool me,” Nico said. “I’m flattered, but spoken for. I don’t mind talking to you, but it’s never going to go any further.”
“Well, your candor is appreciated,” Rocco said. “Thank you for taking it calmly. Are you certain you don’t want to meet Saint Nicholas? You do know he’s Santa Claus, right?”
Nico bit his lip, thinking about it hard. On the one hand, he’d gotten what he wanted, and he didn’t have any need for additional saintly socializing. On the other hand, Santa Claus.
“Maybe I could stay a tiny bit longer,” he admitted. “Just to get an autograph. Do you think he’d wear the suit for a photo?”
“Never mind. Offer rescinded. You can leave now,” Catherine said firmly. Saint John the hermit shook his head in disgust.
Nico’s phone started ringing. It was Hades.
“I gotta go,” he said, immediately hightailing it away from the saints. Mixing Catholic business with his dad was the worst idea ever. “Hi, Papa,” he answered, once he’d turned the corner and was standing next to a wine bar.
“We’re coming to find you!” Persephone said loudly into the receiver. “Surprise!”
To Nico’s abject horror, his parents rounded the corner less than five seconds later. His heart was pounding in his chest like a drum when Persephone hugged him, and he was sure she noticed. Hades gave him a rough knuckle scrub on the top of his head and put his arm around his shoulders, and Nico was practically shaking. If they’d been a minute earlier, they’d have seen him hanging out with saints.
He made sure his note was tucked into his pocket safely, then smiled at his parents like nothing was wrong.
“What a surprise,” he said, looking up at his dad. “Why are you here?”
“We saw what happened to Jason,” Persephone said, commandeering a table in the wine bar. “We wanted to make sure you were okay.”
Waiters flocked to her side immediately, opening bottles and setting out appetizers without being asked. They couldn’t have known who she was, but her energy was distinctly celebrity-like, and they were smart enough to react accordingly. Nico pulled out a chair across from her, and Hades sat beside him. They both preferred to look at her rather than at each other. It was mid-summer, and she was wearing a sunflower-yellow dress with a pair of earrings in the shape of corn cobs, radiating warmth and light.
“You saw it?” Nico asked. “How?”
“On your security cameras,” Persephone said, popping an olive into her mouth. Watching her eat olives reminded Nico of living with Commodus, and his fridge filled with nothing but jars of olives. He suppressed a shudder.
“But I don’t have security cameras,” he said.
“You do now. I had them installed while you were away,” Hades said.
“So you’re spying on me!” Nico blurted out angrily.
“Just making sure everything is copacetic,” he said. “Your mother and I both have the app.”
“It’s a safety precaution,” Persephone shrugged, looking unapologetic. “No different from the tracker in your car. You’ve got a habit of making enemies, and you’re so very new, like a delicate little sprout. We can’t help worrying about you.”
“I can handle myself,” Nico said. He was way more afraid of his parents stumbling upon one of his secrets than he was of his enemies attacking him. He turned his glass of wine into ambrosia nectar and took a large gulp, letting the golden syrupy sweetness take the edge off his agitation. “I’m getting rid of the cameras.”
“We barely looked at them anyway,” Persephone said.
“You ought to be thanking me,” Hades said. “I called and warned you about the emperors gatecrashing. It only took half a dozen missed calls before you noticed. Too busy doing the Electric Slide, I suppose.”
“Your dad and I had to watch on the cameras because we weren’t given the opportunity to enjoy the Electric Slide in person. I suppose we weren’t cool enough to merit an invitation,” Persephone added, sighing dramatically.
“Mom, no one invites their parents to house parties. It’s embarrassing.”
“Oh, we embarrass you, do we?” Persephone asked, raising an eyebrow.
A waitress approached the table with a basket of bread, a thin teenager with a lot of piercings. She did look like somewhat of an authority on coolness.
“Tell me, young lady,” Persephone said, addressing the waitress directly. “Is it true that no one invites their parents to house parties?”
“Uh,” the waitress said, wiping sweaty palms on her apron. “Your hair is really shiny. I mean, uh, yeah, it’s true.”
“Do you think I’m embarrassing?” Persephone asked, propping her chin on her hand and resting her elbow on the table. “Be honest. I like to think I’m a cool mom, but I suppose one never knows unless one asks a young person.”
“You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen,” the waitress said, her eyes wide as saucers. “Are those flowers growing out of your skull? I mean, I’d kill to have you at one of my parties. I’ll kill for you. Can I kill for you? Please?”
Nico squinted at the roses in Persephone’s hair. The stems did appear to be coming out from under her skin.
Persephone giggled, then shooed the waitress away like she was a pesky fly. Hades stretched his hand across the table, placing his long, white, bony fingers atop his wife’s suntanned, freckled hand.
“Have I still got it, dear?” She asked Hades. “Has motherhood dulled my sparkle?”
“You’ve got more of it, if anything,” Hades reassured her. “Next time, we shall crash his party regardless, with the intent of embarrassing the boy as much as possible. Yes, I think I’d enjoy that thoroughly,” he added, flashing a mischievous smirk in his son’s direction.
“We’ll come in costume, regardless of whether it’s a costume party,” Persephone said. “And we’ll do the Macarena while everyone else is doing the Electric Slide. Your father is very good at the Macarena, aren’t you, dear?”
“I thought we were going to keep that between us,” Hades said, blushing.
Nico laughed so hard that his stomach hurt.
“I’ll invite you next time if you promise to do the Macarena in front of everybody,” Nico said.
“You’ve got a deal,” Hades said.
More plates of food were set down on the table in front of them, platters of freshly made hummus and pita, grilled halloumi, and taramosalata. Someone outside began playing the guitar in front of the open window of the restaurant, strumming a low, sad song. They wouldn’t be asked to pay for any of the food and drink that was being lavished on them. Being gods was a really cushy gig. Nico was going to miss this treatment when he became mortal again.
“I was sorry to hear what happened to Jason,” Persephone said.
“No you weren’t,” Hades interjected. “You said he was asking for it.”
“I was just trying to be nice, my love,” Persephone said. “Maybe you’re not familiar with the concept?”
“Thanks, but you don’t have to fake it,” Nico said, trying not to sound as despondent as he felt. “No point grieving the inevitable, right?”
“Right,” his parents echoed in unison.
“Wise words,” Hades added smugly. “Whoever taught you that really knew what he was talking about.”
“Nico, no matter how you might be feeling, sweetie, I need you to know that you are perfect and you did nothing wrong ever in your life,” Persephone said. “I hope you aren’t blaming yourself for Jason’s injury.”
“Well, it was my fault, but I’m not upset about it, weird as it sounds. I killed Commodus’ boyfriend Alabaster with Stygian iron. Commodus could have done something similar for his revenge, but he just stabbed Jason and then called off our feud instead. He didn’t hurt anyone else, and Jason isn’t going to suffer, so I’m actually kind of grateful. I expected worse.”
“Commodus mustlike you,” Hades said.
“How could anyone not like our Nico?” Persephone said.
Nico took a bite of hummus despondently.
“The truth is, when he left, Jason said some stuff that really hurt me,” Nico sighed. “After I tried so hard to help him.”
“They always bite the hand that feeds,” Hades said. “Greedy little rats, mortals. No, Nico, your soft-hearted pity was a mistake, but only because the boy was undeserving. Jupiter’s sons always have a nasty streak of entitlement running through them.”
“I guess I thought he was special,” Nico said. “I genuinely believed he had a chance at the Isles of the Blessed. Now he’ll be lucky if he doesn’t rot in the Fields of Punishment forever. I’m angry, but I don’t think he deserves that, in spite of everything.”
“Don’t let his fate weigh on your mind a moment longer. He’s nobody,” Persephone said. “There have been a thousand like him and there will be a thousand more. You’re the one who’s special. You are irreplaceable, unique, an eternal gift to the universe. Each cell in your body is flawless. Your soul was predestined, crafted at the dawn of time.”
“Yeah, but you’re my mom. You have to say that,” Nico said glumly.
“Speaking of which, am I still turning you mortal on August first? Are you certain this is what you want?” Persephone asked.
“Well, I had a whole party about it, so I guess there’s no backing out now,” Nico said, his gloom intensifying. He ate a piece of halloumi, since fried cheese was always a beacon of hope in dark times. It helped a little.
“You don’t seem sure of yourself,” Persephone said worriedly.
“He’s sure,” Hades said.
“I can speak for myself, Papa,” he said, shooting his dad an irritated glance. “But yeah, I’m sure. It doesn’t feel like I’m very good at being a god, anyways. I can’t even get my own stupid boyfriend to worship me, so I might as well try something different. I don’t remember what it was like to be human, so at least it’ll be interesting for a while.”
“If you don’t like it, I’ll undo it,” Persephone said, as though she was hoping for that to be the eventual outcome. “It’s challenging magic to hide a god within a mortal body. My parents are the only ones who can do it, and mom has had to teach me over the last few months. It’s like trying to cram an orange through the eye of a needle. You need to skin it and juice it and then really squeeze it in there.”
“Oh. Damn.” Nico said. That was disturbing imagery.
“Bringing you back to normal will be easy, though, so don’t hesitate to ask if you tire of mortality. Actually, it’s even easier for me if you just give up on the plan entirely.”
“Dear,” Hades warned. “Please.”
“Relax, honey. I said I’ll do it, so I’ll do it,” Persephone said grumpily. “I can’t help that I like him better the way he is. Anyway. Nico, is there anything you need help with in the month you have remaining? How are the Seven doing?”
“I sent them to Olympia. Nike is going to tell them where Apollo and Artemis are hiding. I think there’s some test they have to pass or something.”
“Aren’t the twins on Delos?” Hades asked.
“Yeah, we know that, but the demigods don’t,” Nico shrugged. “I needed to buy myself some time to get my act together. We have a month to kill. It’s fine.”
“Good. Make them work for it. Never give mortals anything for free, it creates an expectation,” Hades said. “You don’t want them to get expectations.”
“Maybe that’s where I went wrong with Jason,” Nico said. “I was only interested in him because he was dying. I liked the idea of having fun for the last few months of his life. I thought it would be profound for both of us and we could meditate on the meaning of death together. But I made it too fun for him and he decided he wanted to keep living. It’s like, dude, dying was the point. Now you ruined it.”
“You can work things out with his shade after he dies,” Persephone said. “I’m sure he’ll be very apologetic for his recent behavior.”
“You’re probably right,” Nico said, hopeful there would be a blissful reconciliation eventually.
“Boys, I have to run,” Persephone said, rising from her chair. Her dress glowed like a fiery sunset, and everyone in the restaurant stopped to stare at her, going silent. “July is a crazy month for me. You know how it is with squash blossoms.”
She kissed Hades goodbye, gave Nico a hug, and disappeared.
The light went out of the wine bar. Everything went dull and gloomy. The wait staff were left staring at Hades and Nico in confusion, wondering why the atmosphere in the room suddenly felt like death and doom was upon them.
“Let’s get out of here,” Hades said. “Shall we go for a walk in the park instead?”
“No!” Nico said, leaping out of his seat. “No, uh, let’s go to the Venetian port. The park sucks. I hate it.”
Hades allowed Nico to redirect him in the opposite direction of the saints, and they walked past the old Venetian architecture. Hades didn’t speak, but he seemed content, in no hurry to leave. He was appearing in a normal mortal suit, and he strolled with his hands in his pockets, his eyes raking across the old stones and the white caps on the sea impassively.
He took an interest in watching a seagull try to peck a small crab to death, who was fighting back valiantly with his little claws. After the crab had been penetrated and its meat devoured, he looked down at his son with a satisfied smile.
“I have wavered in my belief in you,” he said. “I struggled to trust that you truly would become human for the sake of my request.”
“This again...” Nico said, scuffing his shoe on the sidewalk.
“Throwing a party to celebrate your re-humanization was the final straw,” Hades said. “I’m convinced.”
Nico glared up at him.
“Why was it so hard to believe me before? I might be a liar, but I’ve never lied to you about this. I’ve always intended to go through with it. I was given no other option, remember?”
“I wouldn’t have done it if I were you,” Hades said simply.
Nico stared him down, their identical pitch-dark eyes meeting in a silent exchange. Deep down, he had already known, but this was the closest they’d ever come to acknowledging it out loud. Nico loved his dad more than his dad loved him.
He didn’t want it to be true, but in the depths of his heart, he knew.
“I know you wouldn’t,” Nico said. “You wouldn’t pick up my dry cleaning. You wouldn’t slow down to look if you saw me bleeding out on the side of the highway. You’d sell me down the river for an ice cream sandwich.”
“Give me some credit. It would have to be a particularly good ice cream sandwich. Special in some way,” Hades said, amused by the hyperbole. Making a joke out of the situation was the only way Nico knew how to cope, so he laughed even though he wanted to cry.
“My new human life better be the best damn life anybody ever lived. I want a fleet of luxury cars and a mansion bigger than Disneyland. Elon Musk needs to look broke by comparison.”
“Of course,” Hades said. “I will give you all that and more. You can have faith in me.”
“Of course I do,” Nico said. “You’re a god. It’s easy to give. It’s a lot fucking harder not to take.”
Hades’ footsteps slowed. Nico kept walking.
“Son,” Hades said, speaking to Nico’s back as he walked away. “Wait a moment. Nico!”
Nico was building up steam for a good dramatic storm-off, but his dad suddenly appeared in front of him, blocking his path.
He was used to seeing his dad in the Underworld, where he wore long black robes and lurked in the shadows of his dark, glittering palace. Seeing Hades in the daylight wearing a normal suit reminded him of the father he’d known in childhood. Hades had been a mysterious figure who’d visited infrequently, always bearing gifts specially chosen to thrill a child with a wild and dark imagination.
“We have come a long way in our understanding of one another,” Hades said. “Tell me. Will your transformation undo all of our hard-earned progress? Will you someday forgive me for asking this of you, or will your resentment drive you to hate me?”
Nico shrugged. Hades reached out to his face and tilted his chin up so that he had to look him in the eye.
“I don’t know,” Nico said. “Everybody already thinks I’m crazy for doing this, even though they don’t know why. Mom isn’t happy. Hazel is going to be devastated. I’m hurting them, and myself, for you. How do I know you’re not going to let me down?”
Hades nodded his understanding.
“It is an exercise in trust. On both of our parts.”
“I guess so,” Nico said. There was no guarantee Hades could make that would satisfy him. He didn’t know what being human would feel like. He didn’t know if he’d hate it. There was a chance life would get easier. It would certainly be simpler.
And maybe, just maybe, his dad would be able to love him more if he didn’t have to worry about Kronos. Once he was no longer a threat, he’d just be Nico. Would that be enough to get the dad he’d always wanted?
Hades, in an unexpected turn, gave Nico a hug.
“Thank you,” Hades said. “This means a lot to me, my son.”
Nico shut his eyes. He tried to trust his dad’s words. He wanted to believe that everything would be okay.
He needed to believe it.
Hades didn’t stay long after that, and Nico went directly to Delos. Delos was a small island covered in the remains of what was once a bustling seaport and temple complex. Now the buildings were reduced to stone walls and weathered mosaic floors, separated by dusty walking paths. Gaggles of hot, thirsty tourists trailed behind tour guides explaining the history of the island and its significance as the birthplace of Apollo and Artemis.
Nico could feel the presence of Apollo and Artemis all around him, their power strongest here in the place they’d originated. He had a vague impression of them over by the port, so he headed there first.
They were easy to find. The twins were disguised as mortals, but there was no mistaking them for tourists. Nico only had to look for the two craziest people on the island.
Artemis and Apollo were standing on the rocky beach, pants rolled up around their calves, heaving buckets of water out of the ocean.
Nico watched with growing confusion as each twin filled a bucket with sea water, then tossed the water back out to sea.
“Scoop faster!” Apollo said.
“I’m scooping as fast as I can!” Artemis snapped back. “How long have we got to do this for?”
Apollo waded out further into the sea.
“Back off!” He shouted at the water, kicking it angrily.
Nico, along with a group of tourists who’d just exited a tour boat nearby, watched the twins in fascination. Unfortunately, he was spotted.
“Nico! Grab a bucket!” Apollo shouted, pointing at him. “Get scooping, stat!”
A bucket materialized in his hands, and Nico found himself knee deep in seawater before he could think twice about it. The twins’ will was incredibly powerful on Delos, it seemed.
“Uh, why are we doing this?” Nico asked, dreading to think of the state of his shoes after this.
“Don’t tell him anything, sis,” Apollo said, flipping his golden curls in agitation. “He’s not one of us anymore. He won’t get it.”
“I always knew you were trouble,” Artemis said, shooting Nico a withering glance from under sharp black brows. “Apollo told me all about what you’ve been up to. Popey boy.”
Nico ground his teeth together.
“I am not a popey boy!”
“You’re Catholic,” Apollo said. “Or Greek Orthodox or Coptic Christian or a Latter Day Saint, I don’t know and I don’t care. You’re not one of us.”
“That’s not true,” Nico insisted, whipping out the paper and waving it in his face.
Apollo snatched it from his hand and yelped when his fingers touched the golden seal at the bottom. He dropped the page into the ocean, but it didn’t appear to get wet.
“It burned me! You just burned me!” Apollo said.
“You just burned my brother!” Artemis said, her large silver bow appearing in her hands. She nocked an arrow and pointed it right at Nico’s face. “Any last words, popey boy?”
“I didn’t do anything to him,” Nico insisted, feeling very uncomfortable staring down the business end of her silver arrow. “He touched the seal by accident. I’ll hold it, just read.”
Nico held up the paper for the two of them to read from a safe distance. He deliberately avoided touching the seal, as though he too were scared of it, although he knew it would not harm him.
“Not a saint,” Apollo muttered. “Hm. So that Maria Bova woman was wrong?”
“It was a stupid misunderstanding,” Nico said. “She got confused. You know how dumb Catholics can be,” he added, laying it on thick.
“Oh, for sure,” Artemis agreed. “So dumb. But that doesn’t account for your threatening him with Stygian iron. I helped my mom to bring my brother into this world. That means I, and I alone, get the privilege of taking him out of it.”
“Yeah! Tell him, sis!” Apollo said, glaring at Nico with a mix of anger and fear.
Nico decided the truth was the best option in this case.
“I asked a saint for a favor. I know it was dumb, but I’m very young and new to this whole feud you guys have going with them. To repay the favor, I had to get Maria to sing. Apollo, I wouldn’t have really hurt you, but I was desperate enough to try to scare you a little, and I’m sorry for that. But the Fates only know what those terrible Catholics would have done to me if I’d failed them.”
“Woah,” Artemis said, putting her bow down. “Every time I think men can’t get any stupider…”
“What were you thinking?” Apollo asked. “Those saints ruin everything they get their grubby little paws on. If they had the chance, they’d corrupt you with their kooky ideas and try to enslave you. I’ve seen it happen with other gods.”
“I learned my lesson,” Nico said. “Are you gonna trust me again?”
Apollo and Artemis exchanged a glance, communicating in silent twin-speak.
“You can stay,” Apollo acquiesced. “Just get to scooping.”
Nico began sloshing great bucketfuls of water out to sea.
“You gonna tell me why we’re doing this?” He asked, as he grew bored of scooping over and over again. Some of the tourists from the port had wandered down to the water’s edge to try to see what they were doing, but Nico couldn’t make heads or tails of it. The water was the same as the water surrounding most Greek islands, a lovely cerulean blue, nearly crystal clear, covering a bed of white stones on the sea floor.
“No,” Apollo said.
“You let me scoop even when you thought I was a saint,” Nico added. “That’s kind of surprising.”
“We’re desperate,” Artemis admitted. “And you can’t hurt us here, so we had nothing to lose.”
“Shhh! I think it worked!” Apollo said excitedly.
The three of them kept scooping even faster. The water cascaded down, sparkling in the bright sunlight. Rising from amidst the glittering crystal blue bubbles, a shirtless figure with ripped abs, slimy with algae, appeared in the depths.
Poseidon’s head broke the surface of the water, his salt-and-pepper curls adorned with a large hermit crab.
“Alright, I’ll bite,” he said, looking at Apollo as though he was already sick of his shit. “What is it, my niece and nephews?”
“Quit dodging my calls!” Apollo shouted, storming out into the sea as far as he could while keeping his feet on the ground. “You know what I want!”
“I told you no already,” Poseidon said. “You know Zeus’ policy. Climate change isn’t real. I don’t make the rules.”
“No, but you’re the one drowning Delos!” Apollo said. “This is our mother-island, and you’re killing her!”
“Look at this house,” Artemis said, pointing out a ruined foundation that Nico hadn’t even seen amongst the rocks. “The shoreline used to be way down there. Now it’s underwater. You’re destroying our history, one wave at a time. This is intolerable!”
“Have some pity, uncle,” Apollo said, “Imagine how this torments us. You have the largest kingdom by many orders of magnitude. Can’t you leave this little piece for us?”
“Sorry, kid,” Poseidon shrugged. “It’s free real estate. Hey, think of the seawater as improving the place. Nobody was living there. Now Carlos can have a new place to molt. Eh, Carlos?”
The hermit crab scuttled off his head and took up residence in the foundation of the old house. He waggled a claw at Poseidon in a gesture reminiscent of a thumbs up.
“Looks good to me,” Poseidon said. “Nice to see you, Nico. You winning that war for us?”
“Uh, trying to,” Nico said.
“Don’t let these fools waste your time,” Poseidon said. “They’re here on punishment, and taking their anger out on me is how they’re choosing to deflect blame from themselves.”
“I don’t recall doing anything wrong,” Artemis said, squaring her shoulders.
“You didn’t stop him from being an idiot. That’s your most important job,” Poseidon said, pointing at Apollo. “I’ve got to go. I’ve got places to be and dolphins to see.”
He descended back into the murky depths.
Apollo chucked his bucket into the sea.
“I’m going to throw so much trash in this ocean, I’ll make sea turtles extinct!” he screamed in rage.
Artemis spat into the water. Then she sat on the ground and clutched her head in her hands.
“This can’t be happening,” she sighed. “After all this time, it’s really going to disappear.”
“What’s going to disappear? What’s all this about?” Nico asked.
Apollo glared at the ocean one last time, then turned to Nico. He had tears in his eyes.
“Delos is sinking,” he said. “And water levels are rising. The ancient city is being slowly devoured by the sea.”
“Dad doesn’t believe in climate change,” Artemis said. “He thinks the buildings were always like that.”
“He thinks people built houses underwater?” Nico asked.
“Come on, let’s talk somewhere else. I can’t stand looking at the ocean anymore,” Apollo said.
He led Nico and Artemis to a large wooded park in the center of the island, full of large shade trees. It was starkly different from the bare and rocky landscape of the rest of the island.
“This is a nice area,” Nico said. “The trees look happy.”
“They’d better be,” Apollo said angrily. “They’re fertilized with the dead bodies of my sacred swans. This used to be a lake. The mortals drained it. Apparently it was producing mosquitoes that gave people malaria.”
“They deserved that malaria,” Artemis said. “Who drains a sacred lake? They used to have respect for ancient power. What’s happened to the world?”
“Everything good is disappearing,” Apollo said sadly, sinking down to sit in the shade of a tree.
Nico sat beside him, and Artemis took a place leaning against the tree opposite.
“I can relate,” Nico said. “I was born in Venice.”
They both winced.
“So you do understand!” Apollo said.
“I haven’t even been brave enough to go back. By the time I do, it’ll be Atlantis.”
Artemis walked over to sit cross-legged on the grass beside him. It still stung for Nico to be around her; she irritated the scar tissue he’d formed around his memories of Bianca. The sight of her long braid of dark hair gave him unpleasant flashbacks. But he could tell that she and Apollo felt a comaraderie with him now, and he appreciated that for what it was.
A breeze ruffled the leaves of the trees overhead, and the three of them looked up at the patches of endless blue sky that peeked out overhead.
“Dad sent us here because of me,” Apollo admitted. He laid down in the grass on his back and pulled a ukulele out of the air, strumming it. “I got busted for letting Octavian pit the camps against one another. He filled my head with promises of a bigger temple in New Rome. Can you blame me for being tempted? I’m literally losing ground every day. I want new real estate.”
“I get it,” Nico said. “I’ve known about Octavian for a while and I’ve never done anything to stop him, either. When I thought I was a demigod, I got really angry with Hera once for the way she was handling this war. I thought she had the power to fix everything and just didn’t care enough to bother. But now that I’m in her shoes, the demigods are accusing me of the same thing and I’m like, it’s not that simple, guys!”
“That’s how it always goes. Being an agent of fate is a nuanced role,” Artemis said.
“Hera still sucks, though,” Nico added.
“Definitely,” the twins agreed.
He could tell he was winning them over. Apollo was playing ‘Call Me Maybe,’ which implied he was in a good mood, and Artemis was sitting within ten feet of him. For her, that was basically a declaration of eternal friendship. The funny thing was, Nico had been telling them the truth, minus a few omissions regarding the saints. It was nice to be reminded that he didn’t always have to spin a web of deception in order to be accepted.
“I’m going to be honest with you guys,” Nico said. “The Seven will be here any minute. And Jason is going to ask for your help with healing an Imperial Gold wound. Commodus stabbed him.”
“Wow. That’s heavy,” Apollo said, his face falling. “Jason is a great hero. Turning him down is going to suck.”
“I don’t really want you to heal him,” Nico shrugged. “He’s trying to cheat death, since he’s fated to die soon. Obviously I don’t agree with that in principle. But I made a deal with him. I promised I’d ask for your help. This is me asking.”
“He’s not entitled to assistance just because his resume is stacked,” Artemis said coldly, restringing her bow.
“I know. I’m just checking the box,” Nico shrugged. “He’s been horrible to me lately. I’m hoping if you say no, Apollo, he’ll reconcile himself with the inevitability of death.”
“If he’s on his way, I’m leaving. Too many men for my taste,” Artemis said, picking up her bow and preparing to go. “I’m going to shoot some seagulls.”
“Just like the old days,” Apollo smiled.
“Hang on,” Nico said, scrambling to his feet. “Artemis, is Thalia around? Can you ask her to talk to him? Maybe she can get him to see that I’m right and apologize to me.”
“My hunters are operating independently, since I’m stuck here,” she said. “He can Iris message her if needed.”
“I always forget that’s a thing,” Nico said. “Okay. Have fun hunting.”
She ignored him, striding away until she disappeared into the shadow of the trees.
Nico turned to Apollo, who had a thoughtful look on his face.
“Why is it such a bad thing,” Apollo asked slowly. “To cheat death?”
Nico was struck speechless. He looked down at Apollo, who was still lounging in the grass plucking away at his ukulele idly.
“Excuse me?” Nico asked.
“Why can’t Jason keep on living?” Apollo said, strumming the first few notes of ‘Don’t Fear the Reaper’.
“Because everyone has to die,” Nico said.
“Is it urgent?” Apollo asked casually.
“His name is on the list for August first,” Nico said. The wind rushed through the trees, making the branches shake ominously. “It’s fated.”
“You didn’t seem worried about fate when you resurrected Hazel,” Apollo said.
“Okay, I’m a hypocrite,” Nico said. “But I’m right. Jason is dying in a month and there’s nothing that can change it.”
Apollo sighed, and clutched his ukulele to his chest, staring up at the sunlight coming through the trees. It shone brighter and warmer on him than anywhere else around him, bathing him in a golden glow.
“I knew someone once who challenged the fates every day,” Apollo said. “He didn’t care about names on a stupid list. He helped people, even when it seemed impossible.”
“The list isn’t stupid,” Nico said, his eye twitching. “Death is beautiful. It’s the next step. Fighting it isn’t helping people. It’s hurting them.”
Apollo sat up, setting his ukulele aside.
“Try telling that to a doctor,” he said, smirking as though Nico’s reaction amused him.
“Doctors are the worst!” Nico said. “They keep people trapped in their mortal bodies even when they’re suffering! They make everything worse by delaying the inevitable!”
“Sounds like quitter talk to me,” Apollo said, pulling his knees up to his chest and propping his head on top of them. His eyes sparkled from under his golden ringlets of hair.
“Quitter talk!?” Nico said, horrified. “Apollo, I’ve seen what happens when you defy death with my own eyes. Mortals do it every day, and it’s one of the ugliest and cruelest things I’ve ever witnessed. You think death is bad only when you don’t know the alternative.”
“You know, I think I might just hear Jason out,” Apollo said, a defiant gleam in his eyes.
Nico’s chest tightened with anger. Darkness seeped out from the ground around him, tendrils of shadow teasing at the edges of Apollo’s light.
“Hearing him out is fine,” Nico said. “Healing him is different. Jason is mine. His fate is decided. I won’t let you mess things up more than they already are.”
“We’ll see,” Apollo shrugged.
“No, we won’t see,” Nico said. “I’m serious, Apollo. This isn’t a joke to me.”
“It’s not a joke to me, either,” Apollo said, giving him a warning look. “And don’t waste your time trying to intimidate me. This is Delos. You have no power here.”
To punctuate his point, a beam of sunlight hit Nico directly in the face, causing him to turn away, wincing. He was going to have a sunburn in the shape of a circle, he was certain of it, he thought, rubbing his forehead.
He looked around and saw that the forest was now bathed in light. His shadows had been obliterated.
“I might help Jason. I might not,” Apollo said. “But he is coming to the right place for healing, and his request will be treated with respect.”
“But why?” Nico said. “You don’t owe him anything. You can’t stay on Delos forever. You know I’ll take revenge on you eventually. Why would you defy me when there’s nothing in it for you?”
Apollo’s face softened. A gentle smile creased his freckled face, an expression tinged with deep sadness.
“Because it’s what Asclepius would have wanted,” he said.
Notes:
https://www.newsweek.com/magnificent-ancient-site-doomed-disappear-sea-levels-rise-1913764
Chapter 87: Please, Please, Please Don't Prove I'm Right
Chapter Text
Jason watched as Leo shoved sour cream and onion potato chips into his peanut butter and jelly sandwich.
“Dude. Gross,” he said, as Leo took a giant bite.
They were sitting next to each other on the couch in the Argo II’s TV room. The five remaining demigods had gathered to watch a documentary about the history of Delos in order to prepare themselves for their next challenge. It had been Jason’s idea, and he was trying to absorb every little detail that might be of use. He couldn’t afford to fail this mission.
“Nike’s Olympic trials made me hungry,” Leo said, making a gooey, crunchy sound as he chewed. “You really think Apollo is going to heal you?”
Jason shrugged, trying to appear nonchalant about the whole thing. He didn’t want his friends to know he was dying. As far as Leo knew, Jason might die. But he also might not. That little word ‘maybe’ made a massive difference.
It had been a while since Jason had hope. Ever since that meeting with Eros, he’d felt like he was being sucked deeper and deeper into a whirlpool of darkness. No matter how hard he tried to swim against the current, he was pulled down into the depths. Now he’d won himself a chance, and a bit of the hope he’d craved, but it had cost him his relationship.
He kept flashing back to the conversation where he’d threatened Nico with revealing his sainthood. Nico’s face had been disbelieving at first, then shocked, then sad. Then, all of the other emotions had faded into pure rage. The light had blinked out of the room, and the air had grown cold, turning the room into a walk-in freezer.
Jason had stood his ground in the face of Nico’s fury, and he’d won himself a potential cure from his boldness. At least, he’d gotten the location of the goddess who knew the location of Apollo, the only god who might be able to heal him. The other demigods knew they were going to Apollo to ask for Jason’s healing, but they had no idea how serious the matter was. If Apollo said no, or couldn’t manage to fix him, Jason would die on August 1st. There was no other solution, at least not one that he expected Nico to be able to come up on short notice.
“Apollo will definitely heal him,” Piper said, finishing her own PB&J neatly. “And then we’ll beat Gaea. You have a new plan, right, Leo?”
“Yep,” Leo said.
“Are you going to tell us what it is?” Piper asked.
Leo stuffed the rest of his sandwich into his mouth to avoid answering.
Jason looked over at Hazel, who was tucked away on a big chair in a corner with Frank where they normally sat together. There was no unfriendliness between them and the rest of the group, but Jason, Piper, and Leo were an established trio, and Hazel and Frank were content with just one another. On this particular lunch break, though, Hazel had been even quieter than she normally was. She knew that Jason was dying, and she probably found it extremely strange that Nico was attempting to cure him anyway. Fortunately, she trusted her brother so completely that she didn’t feel compelled to question his decisions.
Meeting her eyes from the opposite end of the room, Jason saw that placid certainty, not exactly sad, but bittersweet, the same look he’d seen in Nico’s. To children of the Underworld, death wasn’t final in the way that it felt to most people. They experienced death more like a childhood friend moving across the country. You might see them again, and you could call anytime, but visiting wouldn’t be easy, and anyway, it would never be the same. She’d be sad about his loss, but she was never going to grieve him in the normal manner. He was too accessible to her, and would feel too close.
Of course, if he chose reincarnation, he’d be lost to her completely. For that matter, if he took that route, Nico and his crazy mother wouldn’t be able to take revenge on him. Jason had considered reincarnation more and more as the days passed, but he was terrified of what lay on the other side. His current life hadn’t been the worst thing ever, but childhood, in particular, had been very difficult for him. He’d been raised by wolves, soldiers, and the lares of Camp Jupiter. The concept of being young again, at the mercy of whatever bad parents or crappy parental replacements the Fates might dish out, made him ill.
There was a low dinging sound, like that of a bell, and Leo jumped up from his seat.
“We’ve reached Delos!” He said, running upstairs to drop the anchor.
Jason stood, stretching his arms, trying to ready himself for what new trials awaited him. He didn’t have any faith in Apollo, and Nico had made no promises other than to try. But he had a tiny shred of hope glowing like an ember in his chest, pushing him forward. He would do whatever it took to keep that flame alive.
Hazel and Frank stayed behind to man the ship, but Leo and Piper insisted on staying by Jason’s side for the visit to Apollo.
Delos had a few tourists leaving the archaeological site for the afternoon, trodding slowly back onto their boats looking dehydrated and bored. It was hard for Jason to imagine being bored in Greece-- For demigods, the old country was monster central, crawling with gods and immortals and ancient magic.
The trio wandered through the crumbling stone ruins for a while, wandering the dusty paths searching for some sign of Apollo. They climbed up to a viewpoint in order to get the lay of the land. It was a relatively small island, so they were able to see a good distance from the rocky hilltop. On the horizon, past the scrubby hills, they spotted a young girl who was wandering the island firing arrows at seagulls.
She caught sight of them looking at her, and she began running toward them at the speed of the wind, until, in the space of a blink, she stood before them.
“Mister Grace,” she said, looking him over with an expression of disdain. She was small and youthful looking, appearing roughly twelve. The oversized magical bow on her back gave her identity away quickly.
“Lady Artemis,” Jason said. “We came here looking for Apollo. Do you know where we can find him?”
“I’m not his keeper,” she shrugged. “He’s someplace, I guess. Keep looking.”
It was hot, and they were still tired from Nike’s trials, but they didn’t want to argue back and get into trouble.
“Please, Lady,” Piper said, using Charmspeak in a manner Jason found alarmingly reckless. “We could really use a little help.”
“He’s in that direction,” Artemis said immediately, pointing at the opposite end of the ruins. “I don’t know his exact location, he’s just been wandering aimlessly. Is that all?”
Jason stifled his surprise, but Leo’s jaw dropped in an exaggerated expression of shock. Jason stepped in front of him, worried Artemis would catch on if they made a big deal out of it.
“Thank you,” he said. “You’re very kind.”
She gave him a confused look, her nose scrunched up. She was clearly thinking, ‘Kind? No, that doesn’t sound like me.’ But she shrugged and went back to her hunting, leaving them alone.
“Piper,” Leo hissed, grabbing her arm after they were out of Artemis’ earshot-- though it was hard to judge that with gods. “You realize what you just did, right? You Charmspoke a goddess!”
“I guess I did,” she said, looking a little surprised at herself. “I just did it on impulse.”
“That’s an incredible power,” Jason said, his mind racing with the many ways this could help him get his Cure from Apollo. “But we need to keep it to ourselves. If one god finds out, they’ll all know about it within an hour. They gossip like crazy.”
“Noted,” she said, chewing on the end of her hair nervously.
As they walked, Jason thought about all he’d learned about gods when he’d been with Nico.
“He used to tell Thanatos everything,” Jason said, picturing Thanatos’ smug expression in his mind. “Nothing I ever did or said was off limits. And when Thanatos wanted to rattle me, he’d bring up something personal that he knew I wouldn’t want him to know. Nico never cared that he upset me.”
“Why’d you put up with that?” Leo asked.
“Love,” Piper said simply. “It makes people do crazy things.”
Leo kicked a rock into a column, squinting out at the sun on the horizon. From the hilltop, they could see the glittering blue of the Aegean in the distance. Leo stared at it as though he were searching for something.
“Yeah. I guess that’s true,” he said.
Jason sighed, thinking of Nico. They’d both done crazy things for each other. Look where it had gotten them.
“Okay, Mister dramatic sigh,” Piper said. “Are you two over?”
“Please be over,” Leo said hopefully. “He got you stabbed, Jason. You could d-- You could be in serious trouble,” he corrected himself.
“It’ll never be over,” Jason said. He spoke without hesitation. “Someday I’ll die. That day, and every other day after that, I’ll be his. For eternity.”
Piper and Leo were both silent. The three of them walked in awkward silence for a minute.
“You’ve been spending too much time with death gods,” Piper said. “Even if you’re right, you shouldn’t think about it. We’re all at the gods’ mercy when we die. We can’t do anything about that, though.”
“Sorry. You make a good point. But we are broken up right now,” Jason added. “I think.”
“I’m gonna call that a win,” Leo said. “We can’t help you in the afterlife, but we’re sure as shit gonna help you right now. The longer you’re alive, the longer you can be free of that bastard. We need to find Apollo.”
Jason grinned.
“My thoughts exactly,” he said, high fiving Leo.
Something swooped over Jason’s head. He ducked, hand going for his sword, before he recognized it as a little black crow. It landed at his feet in the dusty gravel and squawked.
“Aren’t crows symbols of Apollo?” Leo asked, crouching down to look at it. “Hi, little guy. How ya doing?”
He stretched out a finger to the crow to pet it, and the crow promptly bit him.
“Ow! Little bastard took a chunk out of me,” Leo said, sucking on his injured finger.
“Serves you right,” Piper said. “Leave the wildlife alone, doofus.”
“I better not get rabies,” Leo grumbled.
“I think you already have it,” Piper said.
“Guys, come on,” Jason said, pointing. The crow was flapping away towards a stand of trees in the distance. “He’s leading us to him. Probably. I hope.”
The three of them walked back through the archaeological site. They followed a road they hadn’t taken earlier. It was a long, hot walk, and the crow flew onward, blocking out the sun ahead of them.
“I’ve got sand in my combat Crocs,” Leo complained.
“Leo, Jason has a magical sword wound through his guts right now,” Piper said. “You don’t have real problems. Other than mental ones.”
“Thank the gods we have a daughter of Aphrodite on the team,” Leo said. “Her charm and loving energy is just what we needed.”
“I’m about to charm the loving energy of my fist into your face,” Piper warned, making Leo throw his head back and cackle. Jason knew they were dear friends, and banter was just how they interacted, but the walking had set off that dull, aching pain in his gut, and the longer they walked the more it bothered him. He didn’t have the patience for play fighting anymore.
He wiped his brow and took a swig from his water bottle.
“Guys, can you just be quiet for a minute? I’m not feeling great right now, and you’re being loud.”
“Sorry,” Leo said. Piper rubbed his arm gently.
“Do you need more potion?” She asked. “I can run back to the Argo and get it.”
“No. It doesn’t do a whole lot, anyway,” he said. It actually worked fairly well, but he was rationing. Hecate had left him with a few large bottles, but he’d gone through half of them already just in order to sleep at night. Nico was unlikely to provide him any more now unless he doubled down on his blackmail threats, and Jason already hated himself for doing that the first time.
Jason took a deep breath, approaching a large pavilion area with white lion statues guarding a dais. They were smoothed with age, glowing white in the sun, all in a line with a few among their number missing. He wondered if they ever missed their friends.
Apollo was waiting for them on the pavilion. Instead of sweating like Jason, he glistened handsomely. In place of a sunburn, he had a golden glow. The sunlight appeared to caress his skin and gild his curls. He leaned against a white stone lion, petting its head as though it were alive. Here, on Delos, he seemed much more than he had at Camp Jupiter. He seemed unstoppable. He seemed like he could possess the power to heal the unhealable and cure the incurable.
Jason was struck speechless with fear. If Apollo refused to help, he would have to decide whether to make good on his threat and tell him Nico was a saint. It had been Nico’s responsibility to ensure Jason received help, and Jason was well aware that Nico didn’t have a better solution lined up than Apollo.
The crow flapped up to land on the lion’s head that Apollo was leaning on. The sun god observed the three demigods with amusement, ignoring the crow.
“Jason, Piper, and Leo,” Apollo said, flashing a blinding grin. “I haven’t seen you three since the tournament. Remember that? Bashing each other’s heads in at Camp Jupiter? Getting your ass kicked by a thirteen year old?” He added, pointing at Jason.
“I’m not ashamed of losing to Hazel,” Jason said, finding his voice suddenly. “She’s a great demigod and a great leader.”
“Not as great a leader as you would have been, though,” Apollo said. “If you hadn’t met Nico and then saw your mother’s ghost and gone all wonky. You’ve changed, kiddo. I don’t know if you realize how far you’ve fallen from… Well, grace!”
Jason didn’t know what to say. It was all true, but it felt like salt was being rubbed into the mortal wound. Speaking of which, his wound was hurting like hell, and he wanted to lie down in the dirt and curl up like an armadillo.
“Get it? Pun with your last name? Eh, whatever,” Apollo said. His grin faded a little. “Here,” he said, crooking a finger at Leo.
Leo took a step forward, glancing back at Jason and Piper in confusion.
“I don’t bite, kid,” Apollo said, wiggling his finger more urgently. When Leo was standing in front of him Apollo took a Band-Aid out of his pocket and wrapped it around Leo’s finger, the one the crow had bitten. It had smiley-faced suns all over it.
“Better?” Apollo asked.
“Much,” Leo said, flexing his finger. “Thanks, Lord Apollo.”
“No prob.” Apollo turned to Jason. “You might be a little more complicated.”
Jason’s heart caught in his throat as Apollo walked up and began palpating his abdomen, poking and prodding at his organs. The pain was whiting out his vision, but Jason was blinking back tears for a different reason.
“You’re going to help me?” Jason asked.
He’d expected to have to earn it-- another test or challenge or quest to complete. That was the way of things, usually. But Nico had cleared that way for him. Nico had done something to earn Jason an unquestioning favor from Apollo. Jason didn’t want to know what it had been. The important part was, it’d happened. He was getting help from the gods. He had hope.
Apollo held his hand a half an inch from Jason’s belly button, and Jason felt the warmth of magic spreading into his gut where the magical wound festered. The heat was intense, but he didn’t feel the wound going away or getting smaller.
“I wanted to help, but it seems like I can’t,” Apollo said with disappointment, stepping back. “Not easily. But hold on! Don’t look too disappointed. There may still be a way.”
“Why are you helping him?” Piper asked suspiciously. “Is there a catch?”
Apollo began walking towards an area planted with trees.
“No catch,” Apollo said. “Let’s just say I had a little chat with your quest patron and felt inspired to altruism.”
Piper and Leo both shot Jason looks of surprise. At first Jason tried to hide the wave of emotions washing over him, but he realized that his friends would expect to see him moved by the gesture. They thought Nico had helped him in spite of their breakup. They didn’t know that Jason had blackmailed him into it.
Why Jason was tearing up, he wasn’t exactly sure. He’d threatened Nico into doing this, but part of him had imagined Nico might only pay lip service to his promises. Gods didn’t exactly have high standards of integrity, and Jason knew very little about saints. For all he knew, what he’d seen on the internet had been entirely false. He’d been fishing, but it seemed like he’d caught a big one.
Apollo ushered them through a portal in the trunk of a tree. They followed, trusting in his goodwill, and were rewarded with the sight of another, different ruin on the other side. The crow followed them in, sweeping through the portal just before it closed.
“This is Epidaurus,” Apollo said, gesturing at the landscape before them. It was a familiar display of columns, an old amphitheater, and an expanse of old stone walls and broken remains of what had once been a thriving sanctuary. “The Sanctuary of Asclepius is here. My son.” He spoke the last word with an expression of deep sorrow. Jason was struck with immediate pity for his divine brother; he’d never seen such genuine grief on the face of a god before.
“Is Asclepius going to help us?” Leo asked, as Apollo led them towards a round stone building.
Apollo hunched his shoulders.
“If only he could, Leo,” Apollo said. “Alas, my pride and joy skipped town a long time ago. No one’s seen him in decades. He didn’t even leave old Pops a note. Can you believe it? After all I did for him. He was an unmedicated homebirth, you know. C-Section. DIY. Performed on myself. Do you want to hear his birth story?”
“No thank you,” Jason said firmly. Piper shot him a knowing smirk, and he flushed with embarrassment at remembering his own pregnancy scare. He never wanted to think about that again.
Apollo pulled a small recorder out of his pocket and began absentmindedly playing a tune. As he played, a hole opened up in the stone beneath their feet, and a passage underground appeared.
“This was his shrine?” Piper asked, as they descended the stairs. Torches lit on the walls as they walked downwards. The crow flew in a spiral downward, descending into the earth ahead of them until it disappeared into the darkness.
“Yes,” Apollo said. “He was a gifted healer, even as a young demigod. His fame grew, and people came from far and wide to seek his help. He was training doctors with beards down to their knees before he’d even learned to walk. And I’m only exaggerating a little bit! That’s how amazing he was.”
They entered a large open area full of beds carved from stone, encircled by large columns casting shadows across the marble floor. Everything smelled of disinfectant, and was sparkling clean in spite of being thousands of years old.
In a niche on the wall stood a statue of Asclepius, flanked by four smaller female figures. On the opposite wall, a statue of Apollo stared down at them. It seemed to glow from within, and the glow became brighter as he walked past.
“This is where patients stayed during treatment, but I’m getting ahead of myself,” he said. “Watch the snakes, by the way.”
Jason looked down at his feet, and nearly tripped over a snake that was slithering across his shoe. They were everywhere, wound around the bedposts and crawling over the statues. One fell from the ceiling onto Piper’s head, and she shrieked, shaking it out of her hair.
On the far side of the room, a young goddess in a white nurse’s uniform was sitting behind a desk labeled ‘Nurse’s Station’, where she was watching something on a laptop. She was wearing headphones, and didn’t appear to see them come in. Apollo had almost reached her desk when she saw him and stood, outstretching her arms.
“Grandpa!” She said, giving him a hug.
“Demigods, behold, my grandbaby,” Apollo said, “This is Hygeia, the goddess of good health.”
“Oh my goodness! You brought me patients! After all this time… Okay, let me get myself together,” she said, straightening her dress. Jason observed that it was an old fashioned nurse’s outfit, like a Halloween costume, complete with a little white hat. She had her grandfather’s blonde curls, but hers were neatly tucked away, and her bright green eyes locked onto Jason immediately, identifying him as the sick one. He could see her running diagnostics on him even from a few feet away.
She broke free from her grandfather to run to a cabinet on the side of the room. She grabbed a large bottle of hand sanitizer, and went to Jason, Piper, and Leo in turn, squirting some in their hands.
“Get under your nails,” she told Leo firmly. She turned to Apollo, who was watching her with amusement. “Are we still doing masking? Should they be socially distanced?”
“Honey, Covid ended ages ago,” Apollo said. “You need to get out more. What have you been doing all this time?”
“Well, I Lysol the sanctuary three times a day, so that takes a while,” she said. “But mostly I rewatch Grey’s Anatomy and wait for dad to come home.”
Apollo heaved a sigh, leaning against a column and folding his arms.
“I don’t suppose you’ve heard anything? What about your sisters? Has he been in touch with any of the other Asclepiades?”
“No,” she said. “None of us have heard from him.”
“Me neither,” Apollo said. “It’s like he’s just dropped off the face of the earth.”
The two of them both stared at each other in shared anguish. Then Apollo shook his head like a dog shaking off water.
“We can’t dwell. He’d want us to keep up his mission. And I’m sure he’d want you in a working hospital and not just Lysol-ing an empty one underground.”
“I can’t bear to leave,” she said. “His things are all here the way he left them. Someone needs to watch over them and keep a lookout in case he comes back.”
“You’re a good daughter,” Apollo said, stroking her face. “I worry about you.”
“Don’t fret, Grandpa, I’m doing fine. After I finish this rewatch of Grey’s, and after I finish rewatching Call the Midwife after that, I’m starting a new show called Doctor Pimple Popper. So that’s exciting, right?”
“Ooh! I like the sound of that,” Apollo said. “I’ll pop popcorn. Get it? I’m so funny.”
Jason cleared his throat.
“Is he here for treatment?” She asked. “His condition is deteriorating. His wound is poisoning his blood. And he’s low on B12.”
“I’m designing his treatment plan myself,” Apollo said. “Is the office unlocked?”
“For you, obviously,” Hygeia said. “Go ahead. Wait, why are you bringing the mortals? Are you going to let them touch things? Please don’t let them touch things! I saw the short one put his finger in his ear after he’d been sanitized!”
Leo was forced to keep his hands in his pockets the whole time, but the three of them were allowed into Asclepius’ old office, which was labeled with a sign reading ‘The Doctor is Out’. It looked like any mundane office, with a bookshelf full of medical textbooks and a wall covered in advanced degrees from seemingly every hospital on the planet. He’d studied under various different names at the different universities, presumably advancing medical science incognito. But none of the degrees looked recent.
The crow quietly found a perch on top of the bookshelf and settled in to observe them from the shadows.
“I haven’t been in here since he disappeared,” Apollo said, stroking a fingerful of dust off the top of a Johns Hopkins diploma frame. “And then it was just to look for clues about where he went. Here’s his agenda.”
He picked up a little leather book from the desk, reading the final entry.
“October 16th, 1943. Headed to Rome to help if they’ll have me.” He sighed. “Always trying to help people. That was my son. Is my son,” he corrected himself.
“Asclepius went to Rome right before he disappeared?” Piper asked. “Was there any trail to follow, other than that note?”
Apollo shook his head, closing the book.
“You young’uns probably won’t remember this, but World War II was a crazy time,” Apollo said.
“We weren’t born yet,” Leo said.
“Nico was,” Jason said.
“Nico is partly to blame for my son’s disappearance, actually,” Apollo said. “In the early 1940’s, the entire world was at war. Demigods were heavily involved in the conflict, which meant the gods were, too. Nico, Hazel, and whatever the other sister’s name was--”
“Bianca,” Jason interjected.
“Right. Hades had all three of them in the ‘30’s, in the hopes that one of them would fulfill the Great Prophecy.”
“The thirties were too late, though, right?” Piper asked. “They’d have been too young to fight in the 40’s.”
“Not if you’re okay with child soldiers,” Jason said. Both Camp Half Blood and Camp Jupiter were extremely okay with child soldiers, he recalled with bitterness.
“You’re talking about the prophecy Percy fulfilled a few years ago?” Leo asked.
“Yeah…” Apollo said, grinning sheepishly. “Some silly god of prophecy thought it applied to World War II and got everybody unnecessarily riled up a few decades early. Would hate to be that guy, ha ha. I bet that sucked for him. Uh, anyway. The prophecy said, ‘Olympus to preserve or raze,’ and when Zeus saw Hades breeding demigods with the intent of throwing his hat in the ring, he assumed that Hades intended for one of his children to ‘raze’ Olympus. There were rumors that one of the kids was showing signs of great power at a young age. You can probably guess which one that was, in hindsight, but at the time Zeus just planned to take out both of them with one big zap.”
“Zeus murdered Nico’s mom,” Jason said. “He wanted to kill Nico and Bianca, but he missed.”
“Zeus’s lightning never misses. Hades just protected them from the blast,” Apollo said. “Trust me. I know exactly how the bolts work, in vivid detail. You can imagine the hubbub the assassination attempt caused. Hades and Zeus were at each other’s throats, and all the other gods got caught up in the drama. Killing the kids’ mom was bad enough, but Zeus still wanted those kids dead, and he couldn’t find them. We were dealing with his paranoia, Hades’ rage, the war was still on, and I was coming to realize I’d mistimed the prophecy. Long story short, Asclepius disappeared at the worst possible moment, while we were still dealing with the fallout from the di Angelo situation. Nobody realized he was gone until it was too late. There was no trace of him anywhere in Rome that we could find.”
The black crow, who had been sitting quietly in the corner by the ceiling, flapped over to sit on the desktop. It squawked once, sharply.
“I guess it’s not specifically Nico’s fault that he’s gone,” Apollo said. “But it’s not not his fault.”
The crow squawked again.
“Okay, it’s my fault,” Apollo admitted. “I birthed Asclepius, raised him, taught him everything he knew, and then I lost him. I should have been keeping an eye on him, and I failed.”
“Wasn’t he thousands of years old when this happened?” Piper asked.
“He’s still my baby boy,” Apollo said, stroking his hand along the top of the desk. His fingers pressed an invisible button in the wood, and a section of the desktop rose.
“I knew that was there,” Leo bragged.
Apollo drew a bright green bottle out of the compartment. He looked inside and felt around for another, but he was only left with the one.
“I didn’t think the stock had gotten this low,” he said worriedly.
Jason’s heart pounded a drum beat in his chest, and he felt giddy. He knew that the contents of that bottle would cure him. He could feel the healing magic seeping out, oozing from the top of the jar.
“This is the Physician’s Cure,” Apollo said, staring at it reverently. “It’s officially banned, but if you use it super sparingly, sometimes Thanatos doesn’t notice the name dropping off his list. He’s busier than he used to be, so we get away with more.”
He shot the crow a smug look. The crow began angrily scratching at the papers on the desk with his talons, but Apollo swatted it away and it flew to sit on top of the bookshelf again.
“Back when Asclepius invented the Cure, he used it to heal a friend of my sister’s. Her friend was saved from death and his fate was rewritten. Do you realize how insane that is? The Fates cut his thread one length, and Asclepius found a way to make it grow a little longer. Nobody else can do that; it’s like warping reality, like a cheat code for the universe. And he was only a demigod at the time!”
“Incredible,” Jason murmured. That was exactly what he needed; a little more thread, just a tiny bit more. He’d never complain about anything again if he could just have that.
“Then Hades decided to submit a formal complaint,” Apollo said, with a dark look. “Zeus put Asclepius on trial for defying the laws of Fate. He was sentenced to death by lightning bolt.”
“Just for helping people?” Piper gasped. “That’s horrible.”
“The death gods get really triggered when people mess with their stupid list,” Apollo said, sitting back in the desk chair and putting his feet up. “You may already be aware of this phenomenon, Jason,” he added.
“Yup,” Jason said, unable to take his eyes off the bottle that held his precious life inside.
“They’re only fine with defying death when they get to make it sound like their idea. Dionysus was Hades’ favorite nephew, so he let him pick up his mom and yoink her out of Asphodel. Persephone liked my son Orpheus’ song, so he got to have a shot at getting his wife back-- although he was unfairly sabotaged in the endzone. And obviously Nico got to resurrect Hazel. I’m pretty sure Persephone lets him do whatever he wants.”
Jason remembered his encounter with Persephone, and was forced to agree with that assessment.
“But if my son does the exact same thing, only without asking their permission, all of a sudden it’s a problem!” Apollo said, his normally cheerful tone giving way to resentful venom. “And all he did was snatch people off the threshold of death. He wasn’t digging around in the Underworld looking for souls he liked personally. He was helping people in need. He’s better than the rest of us. Better than Olympus ever deserved.”
“How did Asclepius become a god if Zeus killed him when he was still a demigod?” Piper asked.
“Gods are the athanatoi,” Apollo said. “We can’t be killed, even if we’re in a mortal body. Asclepius never would have died properly. He certainly never went to the Underworld, because I doubt Hades would have returned him once he got his hands on him. No, his body was destroyed, but some essence must have remained that my dad couldn’t get rid of. I don’t know what happened, because I went on a rampage and killed a bunch of cyclopes after my dad blasted Asclepius. Then dad turned me human for a while as punishment. But I was really annoying as a human, so eventually he turned me back and returned Asclepius to me. He was a god when we were reunited.”
“Cool story,” Leo said. “Uh, are you totally, a hundred percent positive there’s just one left? You don’t have a backup somewhere? Can it be split into multiple doses?”
“This is the one and only,” Apollo said.
Leo’s face fell.
“Okay. Fine. Well, not trying to rush you, but Jason’s not looking so hot. Can he get the magic green juice now?”
Jason was flagging, and he knew he was in a cold sweat, but he was worried pushiness would endanger Apollo’s weirdly helpful mood.
“I’m okay,” Jason lied weakly.
Apollo looked at the bottle wistfully.
“It feels weird to just hand this over,” he said. “Normally I’d demand a task to be completed, or an offering of some kind. But I know Asclepius would just give it to you.”
He held it out to Jason, and Jason eagerly reached out his hand, his fingers touching the glass. It was warm, human body temperature, and he could feel his own heartbeat resonating in his fingers.
He stared at the bottle. There had to be a catch. No matter how much Apollo seemed genuine, Jason’s demigod instincts were ringing alarm bells, screaming ‘TOO EASY.’
This was when the monsters usually popped out. This was when Apollo would turn around with an evil smirk. Just when everything seemed like it was going to wrap up in a tidy bow for the happy ending, everything would go to shit. That was life as a demigod. That was the only life Jason had ever known.
“But I’m not Asclepius,” Apollo said thoughtfully, his hand twitching back, taking the bottle away from Jason once more. Jason’s heart sank with confirmation of his worst fears.
Apollo held the Cure in his palm, staring into the swirling liquid inside the glass like it was a magic 8 ball.
“This is all I have left of my son,” Apollo said. “He might never make another batch. You could be the last person to ever receive this gift. How do I know you’re the right one?”
This struck Jason as an extremely fair and appropriate question. Unfortunately, Apollo was right. Jason hadn’t been aware that there would only be one Cure left, but he certainly wasn’t egotistical enough to claim that he was the most deserving person on the planet.
Nico’s words echoed in his mind.
‘Do you want to watch a three year old with a brain tumor die? Would that make you stop feeling sorry for yourself?’
Maybe Nico had a point.
For the first time, Jason’s perspective began to shift. Being surrounded by gods, you got accustomed to miraculous-seeming things happening, but mortals had a limited perspective. In reality, even the gods were bound by the laws of Fate. The Physician’s Cure didn’t just break mortal rules, it broke the gods’ rules, too.
Jason hadn’t been aware of the scale of the miracle he’d been asking for. He had expected a pioneering experimental surgery, not a reality warping potion that defied the Fates. This was the moment Nico had tried to warn him about, the moment when he’d take things too far, and lose sight of himself in the process.
Jason balled his fists at his sides. He didn’t deserve this. He wasn’t that special. He was going to have to say no.
“Here,” Leo said, pulling something out of his pocket and handing it to Apollo. “I figured this might happen. I brought this for you, Lord Apollo.”
“Ooh! This is kind of neat, actually,” Apollo said, inspecting the little gadget Leo had given him. “Is this an ocarina? Some kind of tin whistle? A mouth harp?”
“A Valdezinator,” Leo said proudly.
“You invented me a new instrument,” Apollo said, with genuine wonder in his voice. “You really have my quirks down pat, kid.”
Apollo began playing the first notes of ‘My Heart Will Go On’ by Celine Dion. It was shrill, piercing noise that was way louder than it should have been, but the tune sounded clear and bright.
“I love it!” Apollo said. “Okay, here,” he added, handing Jason the potion without further ado.
Jason held the bottle gingerly, wrapping it in both hands like it could shatter at any moment. He couldn’t believe that he was really holding it. In his hands was the power to alter his fate, permanently.
“Apollo. Are you sure I don’t need to do anything else in exchange for this?” He asked. Part of him wanted to earn it, now that he had it. It felt too big to accept. As cool as the Valdezinator was, it didn’t seem like a fair exchange.
Apollo shook his head, smiling at Jason.
“Just live a long and healthy life. Spit in death’s eye. Show the Underworld that I haven’t forgotten what they did to Asclepius. For all I know, they were the ones who got rid of him,” he added suspiciously. “This will teach them to mess with my boy.”
Judging from the look on his face, Apollo was helping Jason partly out of spite. That was a typical godly motivator, but something wasn’t adding up.
“Are you helping me because you want to get back at Hades for reporting Asclepius?” Jason asked.
“I’m helping because I’m a nice guy!” Apollo said, raising his eyebrows. “But also what you said, yes.”
“So you’re not doing this as a favor for Nico.” Jason said.
Apollo threw his head back and laughed.
“A favor? I don’t owe Nico any favors. You think he wanted me to give you that Cure? He insisted that I leave you to die. He even threatened me. I believe his exact words were, ‘Jason is mine.’”
“Jason is not his property,” Piper said furiously.
“He just wanted to let Jason die?” Leo said. “That asshole!”
“That god wants you dead so bad, Jason Grace. I shudder to think of what he plans to do with you in the Underworld, where no one can save you. This Cure is going to come at a high price. But I’m not the one charging,” Apollo said, glancing over his shoulder at the crow on the shelf. “If you change your mind and don’t want to take it, leave the bottle on one of my altars. I’ll understand if you decide it’s not worth it. But it’s your call. I should skedaddle back to Delos before my dad notices I’m gone. Hygeia?” He called out loudly.
Hygeia appeared in the office doorway.
“There’s a dirty bird getting germs all over the place, pooping on everything,” he said, pointing at the crow. “You may want to take care of it.”
Apollo disappeared in a ray of light.
Hygeia shrieked at the sight of the bird.
She whipped out a large Clorox spray bottle and started spraying it all over the room, trying to hit the bird. She got it all over Jason, Piper, and Leo, and the strong smell of bleach filled the small space.
“Dirty, filthy carrion bird!” She shouted. “Out! This is a house of healing! You have no place here!”
The crow flapped all around and eventually made it past her, out to the larger treatment hall, where it wove between columns.
“Wait, I thought crows were Apollo’s messengers?” Piper said, watching as Hygeia chased it all around.
“You’re thinking of ravens,” Hygeia said. “They’re nice, clean birds. This is a crow. A corpse eater. An eye plucker. A harbinger of death.”
It took Jason a second to put two and two together. Before he could get Nico’s name out of his mouth, the crow transformed before his eyes. The feathers fell away, and the crow’s body transformed into a swirl of darkness, which subsequently transformed into his ex.
“Alright, point taken,” Nico said, brushing feathers off his black jeans and t-shirt, which now had bleach stains on them. Somehow the white spots only made the outfit look cooler on him. “Quit spraying me.”
“You don’t belong here,” Hygeia said, pointing the Clorox nozzle at him threateningly, holding it with both hands like a gun. “This is a hospital. Do you need directions to the morgue?”
“Ha, ha,” Nico said, his eyes humorless and black as pitch. His iris still filled his whole eye, like he’d retained some features of crow-hood after the transformation. It made him look more evil and scary than usual. “Jokes on you. I’ve probably been in more hospitals than you lately.”
“Well, you’re not welcome in this one,” Hygeia said.
“This place looks deserted. How many lives are you saving down here with your advanced cleaning protocols? Oh, I know, zero!” Nico said. “Because you’re not saving anyone. You’re just making them feel better for a little while before I come to take their souls, right on schedule. And there’s nothing you can do to stop me.”
Hygeia bared her teeth, enraged by his taunting.
“Oh, really? Is every soul taken right on schedule? Because I seem to recall seeing some recently that were collected a few months late,” she grinned. “Is Thanatos starting to sweat a little?”
“We’re not worried,” Nico said, looking noticeably worried.
“Neither am I,” she shrugged. She relaxed her arms, holstering the Clorox. “Also, I didn’t know you were a psychopomp, so I’m filing that information in your chart as a persona non grata.”
Nico winced, like he hadn’t wanted her to know. Jason had known about Nico’s godly job, but he didn’t realize it wasn’t public information to the other gods yet. He wondered whether there was a reason behind that.
“You have ten seconds to get out of here before I activate the security system,” she said, walking back to her laptop, straightening her little hat. “Jason, you and your friends can stay behind if you need a safe space away from him. And don’t worry. He won’t take the Cure from you before you get the chance to drink it. It has a magical aura that repulses his kind.”
“I need to talk to you,” Nico said, looking Jason in the eye.
“Don’t,” Piper said, gripping Jason’s sleeve. “Nothing he can say is worth listening to now. You don’t need him.”
“We can stay here,” Leo agreed. “Jason, take your cure. Do it before he can talk you out of it. You deserve to live.”
Jason clutched the Cure bottle close to his chest, staring at Nico. Nico held out his hand and raised his eyebrows.
“Three seconds,” Hygeia said.
He knew how dumb it was. But Jason took his hand anyway.
He was swept off into familiar shadows. To his surprise, Nico had only brought him to the outside of the Sanctuary, right beside the exit. That was a relief.
“Hi,” Jason said awkwardly.
“You got your cure. Wow. I’m so happy for you,” Nico said sarcastically, folding his arms over his chest. “Cool. Now don’t take it.”
“Excuse me?”
Nico ignored him. He pulled three bottles out of his pocket. All of them were the same purple painkiller potions Hecate had made for him.
“Take these instead. One sip per day. I had Hecate make an extra strong batch,” Nico said. “You’ll spend the next three weeks completely pain-free. Now that you have the Physician’s Cure, you can be fear-free as well. You can just enjoy yourself. Isn’t that what you wanted?”
“That sounds great,” Jason said, thinking at first that this seemed helpful. Then he realized that he shouldn’t need any painkillers if he was going to be healed. “But I’m taking the Cure,” he said. “I’m going to live.”
“No. You’re not,” Nico said, staring him down.
“I am,” Jason said, backing away. “Hygeia said you can’t take it from me, so don’t even think about it.”
“I’m not robbing you!” Nico snarled. “I don’t want that garbage. I have no use for it. I don’t care whether you keep it, but you’re not going to drink it. Do you understand me?”
Jason took in Nico’s desperation, the ferocity with which he spoke. If he squinted, he could almost see a tiny bit of lingering affection.
“You’re still trying to help,” Jason said. He could see Nico’s intentions more clearly now that he felt in control. The choice to live or die was in his hands, and he was no longer ruled by fear. “At least, you think you’re helping. You don’t hate me after what I did?”
Nico glared, but said nothing. He’d taken a lot of disrespect from Jason over the last week and a half. It was insane to expect him to forgive Jason’s worst insult yet-- a direct threat of blackmail. Doing that to a mortal partner was bad enough, but gods didn’t take things like that lying down. It was understandable that Nico didn’t want to admit to still loving him.
And yet, impossibly, it was true. He hid it underneath an intimidating disguise, and he was rightfully angry, but he did care. Otherwise, he’d let Jason take the Cure and punish him for it later. Nico didn’t want to do that. He still wanted Jason to have a good afterlife.
If Jason ignored the bit where Nico wanted him dead, he had to admit that his love was extremely resilient. He’d undoubtedly seen the worst of Jason, and here he was, still showing up for him.
And weirdly, Jason was feeling more open to what Nico had been trying to tell him. Having the Cure in his hand was making him question everything. It was like, free from the specter of imminent death, he’d suddenly regained the capacity to care about stuff beyond living a little longer.
“Look, Nico, with more life, I can spend decades making this up to you,” Jason said. “I’d give you everything you could ever want from me. We could find a way to move past this… Um… Disagreement. We could be happy again.”
“You want to make it up to me?” Nico said. “Die. You want to give me everything? Give me your soul.”
The words of Jason’s response died in his throat.
“I’ll make you a deal, since you’re feeling so loving all of a sudden,” Nico continued. “I’ll give you a path to win me back.”
“What is it?”
“Don’t take the Cure, and I’ll forgive you. I’ll do whatever I can to make your afterlife a good one, in spite of the mistakes you’ve made. But if you take that Cure, I’ll hate you for it. You’ll spend all your new bonus years waiting for the day you see me again. And when you do finally arrive in the Underworld, I’ll make you pay for betraying me,” Nico said. “I’ll make you regret it for eternity.”
Jason looked down at the warm green bottle in his hand.
“Do you trust me, Jason Grace?” Nico asked.
“Yes,” Jason said. He did. He wouldn’t have taken his hand if he didn’t.
“Then don’t drink,” Nico said.
Jason looked up and saw Nico reaching out for him. He closed his eyes, and Nico kissed him. His mind went blank, and all his pain and fear slipped away. All he felt was Nico’s overwhelming presence, his love, his protection, and the cold certainty that he did, in fact, own Jason’s soul.
“Di immortales,” he heard Piper say, along with the sound of her feet running up the sanctuary stairs. “Really, guys?”
“Come on, dude,” Leo said, exasperated. Jason turned his head to look at his friends. When he glanced back, Nico was gone.
He didn’t have much to say. There was no way to explain everything without burdening them with his troubles, so he kept it to himself. He still had the Cure, and he promised them he’d take it that night. The glass felt so heavy and hot in his hands that he had to ask Leo to carry it for a while. Leo signaled the Argo II to come pick them up, and eventually they made it back on board, greeted by Hazel and Frank.
When she saw the Cure, Hazel reacted with immediate concern, and attempted to interrogate Jason about its effects and what Nico would think of it. Luckily, Leo and Piper convinced her to leave him alone. Jason shut himself in his room for the rest of the night.
In the early hours of the morning, before dawn, Jason was sleeping fitfully, plagued with nightmares. One dream kept playing on repeat; a vision of eternity in the Underworld. He saw himself sitting limply on a heap of gravel in the grey and lifeless fields of Asphodel. In the dream, he stared into empty space while Nico stood above him.
Nico was garbed in the attire of a prince, complete with an onyx diadem and a pointy scepter, the latter of which he was using to prod Jason in the side and bonk him on top of the head occasionally. He used the scepter pokes to punctuate his statements as he berated Jason for making unwise choices and generally being a bad boyfriend.
He awoke with a start from this latest dream. At first he was relieved, since that dream had been extremely depressing. He quickly realized someone had opened his cabin door without knocking, and soldier’s instincts sent him to his feet instantly, with a hand reaching for his sword.
He was accosted by a beautiful young woman throwing herself at him, but not in a good way.
“Piper?” He asked, making out her features in the darkness. “What is it? Are you okay?”
“No,” she hissed. “Keep your voice down. Jason, I just overheard something, and it’s really bad. I’ve been seeing these visions in my knife, and it’s all starting to make sense, and I’m afraid it’s too late to stop him, and I’m freaking the hell out, and--”
“Woah,” Jason said, grabbing her shoulders. “Breathe. Tell me slowly. One thing at a time.”
She choked back a sob, taking a steadying breath.
“Okay, so I’ve been having these visions in the blade of Katoptris,” she said, touching the knife on her belt as she spoke its name. Since the war had started, he’d rarely seen her without it. “I’ve seen a lot of things, but one of them… It’s me. Crying. In front of a tomb.”
His heart sank. Did that mean that he wasn’t going to take the Cure? He didn’t want to know the outcome in advance when he was still making his mind up.
“I think it’s Leo’s,” she said, looking up at him. The tears hovering in her eyes made her irises look like pools of melting chocolate.
Jason’s jaw dropped.
“No,” he said. “Not Leo. No way.”
“Jason, the prophecy said, ‘to storm or fire the world must fall.’ We all heard it. It’s you, Percy, or Leo. And Percy’s gone, and Leo’s just come up with this idea,” Piper said, stifling a panicked laugh. “I think he can’t help himself, ideas just pop out of him like popcorn. He’s too smart. He built this whole ship, and he built the Valdezinator, and he--”
“You’re rambling,” Jason said, squeezing her hand comfortingly. “What’s his plan?”
“He’s going to sacrifice himself,” Piper said. “Like a kamikaze. To take out Gaea. I didn’t catch the details, but he was talking to Hazel about dying. Dying! Leo, talking about dying. Can you imagine? Leo’s the most alive person I know.”
“Are you sure you heard what you think you heard?” Jason asked.
“No, but with my visions, it all fits together. I don’t know, maybe they were rehearsing a play. But I doubt it.”
“Yeah,” Jason said, the grim truth dawning. “Okay.”
“I don’t want to believe it, but I know Leo. He’s so good, he makes me so mad, he’s just… I don’t even know. I don’t know, Jason, I don’t know what to do.”
Jason’s mouth had grown so dry that it was difficult to speak. Piper hugged him, her small body radiating all of her emotions outward, amplifying Jason’s own.
Jason thought of Leo, his brilliant, funny, loyal, kind, and above all, heroic friend. He could just picture him sacrificing himself without telling his friends the plan. He’d want to spare them the worry, just like Jason had wanted to conceal his own impending death from his best friends.
That was where their similarities ended. Leo was doing something utterly selfless and brave. Jason had been more selfish in the past few weeks than in the rest of his life combined. The consequences of that choice was now hitting home.
Apollo said there would be a price to pay, that nothing in their world came for free. And Nico had spent an incredible amount of time and energy trying to convince Jason to let his fate play out the way it was meant to.
Now the real price was made clear. One of the Seven was going to die. A soul would be taken on August first. He could cheat the system, take the cure, and hide from battle. But the Fates were going to have their due, one way or another.
“Did you take the cure already?” Piper asked.
Jason nodded, the lump in his throat preventing speech. He was stunned, but the pain of his conundrum was beginning to hit home, the guilt tightening around his chest like a vise. It had hurt so much to die young, with most of his life unlived. But to die in place of his beloved friend? That hurt so much worse.
“Good. I don’t want to have to worry about both of you,” Piper said, wiping her eyes. “Should we talk to him? I don’t know if I should say something, or if he’s going to tell us. Or maybe he’ll come up with a better plan and he needs more time.”
“Yeah,” Jason said, his fear easing slightly. “Yeah, we’ve got time. We can find a way to save everyone. Definitely.”
“Yeah,” Piper said, taking her cue from him. “You’re right. We can handle this. Thanks, Jason.”
Jason was the furthest thing from a leader on the Argo II, deliberately, but it seemed like sometimes people looked at him for guidance anyway. He wasn’t sure how he kept fooling people into thinking he had his life figured out. If they only knew.
“Can I stay here with you?” she asked. “I don’t think I can fall asleep right now. I just don’t want to be alone.”
“Sure,” Jason said, letting her take up the larger half of his small mattress. She curled up beside him, hunched over Katoptris. She held it in her hand and stared into the shining blade as if it could give her all the answers.
Jason needed more pain potion; his stomach was aching. He turned onto his side and pretended to go to sleep, since he couldn’t drink the painkiller in front of her. He didn’t want her to know that he had not taken the Cure, the bottle still unopened. It was lying right in front of him, tucked into his unzipped suitcase that sat on the floor beside his bed. The bottle glinted green in the dim light of his room, taunting him, daring him to drink. He would drink it, he told himself. He’d earned this. Twenty years of heroism, twenty years of service. He’d fought for this gift. He’d burned bridges, he’d threatened gods, he’d lost the love of his life for this. He was going to drink it and then he would live his life.
But not tonight. Probably not tomorrow. He’d save Leo first, and then he’d drink it.
And if he didn’t find a way to save him…
He wasn’t sure what he was going to do.
Chapter 88: Katasterismoi
Chapter Text
“I changed my mind. I don’t want to be human,” Nico said, looking at his new toilet.
He and Thanatos had been re-modeling his bedroom in anticipation of his re-humanization. It had led to some chilling realizations.
“I’m sorry,” Thanatos said, his hands clasped in front of him. “For humans, defecation can be a highly dangerous process, as I understand it. You can take comfort in the fact that you will be unable to truly die, were something to go wrong.”
“I was thinking more about how it’s gross and embarrassing,” Nico said. “You think it’s dangerous?”
“People die on toilets every day,” Thanatos nodded. “I collected three in the past hour.”
“Wow,” Nico said, growing more concerned by the minute. His brand new en-suite bathroom was sleek and stylish, done in shimmery black tile with gleaming white grout. But to realize he was going to need to actually need the bathroom was a hard pill to swallow.
Thanatos went to the shower and tested the water.
“Boiling,” he said. “Just the way you like it.”
“Wait,” Nico said. “Now that I think about it, boiling water would kill human me. I’ll have to adjust it to something I can tolerate once I’m changed. Leave it for now.”
“Why do you like bathing so much? Is it fun?” Thanatos asked. “It seems needlessly complicated when you could simply stand in the rain and achieve the same result.”
Nico chuckled.
“It’s relaxing. It gives you a place to be alone with your thoughts and block out distractions. It’s the same reason my dad reads in the bathtub.”
“You and your father are very similar,” Thanatos said.
“I’m going to pretend you didn’t just say that,” Nico said. “Just like I did the first billion times you pointed that out.”
Thanatos played with the temperature knob a bit, adjusting it one way, then another.
“I like this temperature,” he said.
Nico put his hand under the water.
“Icy?”
Thanatos nodded. It matched his body temperature exactly.
“Go ahead. Try it,” Nico gestured.
With a self conscious glance over his shoulder, Thanatos slid his mantle off his back, letting it hit the ground in a soft whoosh of silk fabric. His entire body was white and flawless like a marble statue, like he’d been designed in a sculptor’s studio. Nico wondered sometimes whether he’d been created like this from the beginning, or if he’d hatched from his egg as a mini-Thanatos and had grown up normally.
He stepped under the water, holding his wings out from his back so that the water didn’t hit them directly. Droplets collected on the water-resistant feathers until they glittered, while the rest of his body was buffeted by the torrent of frigid water.
“Do you want to join me?” He asked shyly, pushing his wet hair back from his face.
Nico didn’t hesitate. He knew from experience that there was no seduction implied in his invitation; that wasn’t his style. It was a testament to the trust they’d built in each other that Thanatos was comfortable initiating his own little intimacies, ones that were often unique to him alone.
The water was freezing, but Nico didn’t mind it. He shut his eyes and felt the sensation of the icy water pouring over his head and body, calming his worries. With a war going on, and humanity looming, it was a sanctified moment of peace amidst the chaos.
Thanato’s fingers had equalized in temperature to the water, and Nico’s skin had gone numb. He almost didn’t feel it when Thanatos lightly touched his arm and leaned in to kiss him.
When he pressed his lips to Nico’s, the world died. The cold water, the roar of the shower, sound and light and sensation faded to nothing.
His heart stopped. That happened sometimes when Thanatos touched him. Most of the time, he didn’t have an awareness of his own heart beating, but when it stopped, the absence was overwhelming. There was no way to know true silence until your heart was still and your lungs stopped taking in air.
It was the only true peace Nico had ever known. His life was in constant motion, always running towards something or away from something else. He juggled lies and relationships and quests and the hopes and fears of the people who depended on him. But when he touched Thanatos, there was no one and nothing else. No past, no future. There wasn’t even a present. He didn’t feel the floor beneath his feet. He couldn’t see, even if he opened his eyes. It was like the emptiness at the center of a black hole.
Thanatos pulled back.
“Do you like me?” He asked, his golden eyes very wide, water droplets clinging to his eyelashes.
Nico started to laugh. He couldn’t help it. He tucked his head against Thanatos’ chest and traced the lines of water down his skin.
“I like you,” he said, kissing his shoulder.
“But… as more than a friend?” Thanatos asked. “Don’t laugh!”
“Yes, I like you as more than a friend,” Nico said. “So much more than a friend.”
Thanatos nodded. He stepped out of the shower and put his clothes back on, instantly dry the moment he wanted to be.
“You looked good with your hair slicked back,” Nico added. “Like Draco Malfoy.”
“Draco? The constellation that looks like a snake? I look like a snake?” Thanatos asked.
“It’s the name of a fictional character,” Nico said, dressing as well.
“I can be a snake if you want me to be a snake,” Thanatos said. “What color?”
“No, I meant-- Forget it. I like you just the way you are. I wish you’d believe me, though.”
Thanatos leaned against the sink, his head downturned.
“It’s impossible for me to believe you,” he said. “I see you with Jason and I see the effect you have on each other. Your hearts beat faster. Your pupils dilate. Your--”
“You don’t have to get detailed,” Nico said. “I get it. What’s your point?”
“We’re not like that, you and I,” Thanatos said. “I’m just a cold, dead little rock, and I have a brain, but that’s also a cold, dead rock. And then you’re inside it, taking up all the room in there. I don’t want you like Jason does.”
“You want me in your own way,” Nico said. “And you kiss me now, and you didn’t used to do that. Rocks don’t kiss people.”
“Sometimes I want to smash your head open and eat your brain so that I can keep your thoughts inside my head. And sometimes I want to grind you in a millstone until you’re paste, and mix the paste into ink and get a tattoo with it, so I can have you underneath my skin all the time. But I don’t know if gods can get tattoos,” he said, looked down at his alabaster skin worriedly.
It was so romantic, Nico came dangerously close to swooning.
“There is no one that can compare to you,” he insisted. “You have no competition. I might like other people, but I can never like anybody as much as you. I wouldn’t change a single thing about you.”
Thanatos nodded, his anxiety momentarily quelled. He brushed a piece of hair behind his ear, thinking quietly to himself.
“There’s something I’ve wanted to show you,” Thanatos said. “But you’ve been so busy… Do you have time? Now? For something important to me? It’s alright if you don’t.”
“Please,” Nico said. “I have all the time in the world for you.”
Thanatos grabbed hold of him and tucked his wings around them both. When he let go, Nico was somewhere he’d never been before.
He was suspended in darkness, similar to what he’d experienced on his visits to Nyx’s chambers. There was a veil of darkness above him, and a veil of darkness below and on the encircling sides. He stood on a thin platform of solidified darkness. It felt cold beneath his feet, and uncertain, like it was there and not there at the same time.
“There’s no light,” Nico said, seeing nothing. “Is this Erebus?”
“Ha!” Thanatos said. “Not at all. Well, sort of. We’re not in the Underworld anymore. We’re not even on earth. This is a pocket in space carved out for my brother and I.”
“A pocket in space?” Nico asked. “We’re in outer space?”
“Not outer space. Other space. It’s different.”
“Other space,” Nico said. “Like another dimension?”
“Another what?” Thanatos said.
“A dimension, like… I don’t know, actually,” Nico said. “I’m just trying to make sense of what I’m seeing, but I don’t have the words.”
“Words aren’t necessary here,” Thanatos said. “I’ll show you.”
He pressed his hand to Nico’s temple, and Nico closed his eyes. A vision like a waking dream bloomed behind his mind’s eye, an image of a great black bird sweeping through the sky, towing what looked like a vast curtain of semi-transparent black silk behind her. It was pure darkness, and it flowed like water. As she moved through space, the darkness sank down and covered the land far below, where the vague impressions of a landscape made up of blurry blues and greens could be seen. Those familiar images of forests and mountains were cast into shadow as she passed over them on swift wings.
Nico was watching Nyx and Erebus draw the curtain of night, only something was off about the scene. It took him a moment to realize that the night sky they left in their wake did not contain a single star.
In the vision, after their work was done, Nyx and Erebus stopped in midair and disappeared in a swirl of darkness. They reappeared in the same small pocket of space where Nico and Thanatos now stood.
In the vision, a single jet black egg the size of a watermelon took pride of place in the center of the floor, nestled in a deep pile of downy black feathers. Nyx inspected her offspring, poking the shell with her beak and brushing her wings over its smooth surface protectively. Her husband Erebus surrounded her like a cloak, and the two of them communed with their egg in silence. They didn’t speak a word-- neither had a proper mouth to do that with-- but Nico got the sense that they were speaking to their children all the same.
“Your mom used to be a bird?” He asked, when the vision lifted and he saw only Thanatos before him once again.
“That’s what you took from the story?” Thanatos asked. “I think you were also a bird not very long ago. A god can be a bird if they want to be.”
“I know, but it puts things into context,” Nico said. “Why some of Nyx’s children hatch from eggs and have wings, and some don’t.”
“I don’t see the connection,” Thanatos said, tilting his head and stretching his wings in a way that, ironically, quite birdlike.
“So this is where you were born?” Nico asked.
“Where I hatched, yes,” Thanatos said. “My egg field.”
“Can I see what it looks like now?” Nico asked, still unable to make anything out for lack of light.
Thanatos took a soul from his pocket, one that had been an accountant named Craig, and held it aloft. Nico was able to see by the dim glow of the soul, and observed the space he stood in for the first time.
There was darkness above and below, but the disc of stone he stood on had a field of poppies on it, wavering in wind that could not be felt. He knelt to touch the poppies, and found that his hand passed through them. They hadn’t existed in the vision, so he imagined that the poppies may have appeared as a response to the twins’ arrival.
“Ghost poppies,” he said. “Did you make them? They’re beautiful.”
“Oh, those? They began to grow after we hatched. I’m not sure whether we made them or not, but they are nice to look at,” Thanatos said. He walked a short distance to a small pit of black sand. “This sand used to be our egg. We kept throwing bits of shell at each other, so mother disintegrated it.”
Nico sat on the floor beside the pile of dark gray sand that had been the egg. He touched it gently with his fingertip, and ripples formed in the grains. They moved in jerky waves, shivering into patterns of concentric circles like a zen garden, radiating outward from the point where his finger made contact. At the center of the spiral, one of Nyx’s feathers rose to the surface of the sand.
Nico lifted it reverently. He couldn’t fathom how many thousands of years old that feather must have been-- the nesting material for Sleep and Death themselves, entities that were sure to have predated human existence. Gods older than the stars.
“What was it like?” He asked, turning to Thanatos.
“What was what like?”
“To be you.”
Thanatos sat cross legged across from him, trailing his own fingers in the sand. It had a similar effect when he touched it, causing ripples and waves to form.
“You really want to know?” Thanatos asked, his golden eyes glowing in the darkness like fiery stars.
“I want to know everything.”
Thanatos took his hand.
A new vision appeared. The shell of the egg, cracking. A pair of wide golden eyes set in a round white face peeking out of the sticky, wet interior, looking out into the darkness for the first time.
The vision changed. Two small, chubby babies with bone-white hair clung to each other, huddled alone in the cold. Baby Thanatos pressed his face into his brother’s curls, looking even cuter than Nico had imagined.
In the next image, some time had passed. Thanatos and Hypnos were the size of toddlers, with patchy fledgling wings that looked like they could barely carry their body weight. The two of them were flying through the air, clinging to Nyx’s skirts and holding on for dear life as she journeyed through the sky at breakneck speed. She was in her human form, and she only glanced back occasionally to be sure her boys were still there.
Hypnos was screaming in terror, and Thanatos had his eyes shut, his already overlong hair whipped back from his face by the force of the wind. Nico couldn’t imagine how terrifying it must have been to wake cozy in an egg one day, and to go flying through the sky shortly afterwards.
Another vision came. The twins were older, caught in a skinny pre-teen stage of development, their limbs awkward. Their flight feathers were still growing in, and there was downy fluff clinging to their wings. Their baby feathers covered the ground around them, and Nico watched closely as one of the feathers slowly transformed into a little grey ghost poppy.
The twins stood in the middle of their egg field, holding hands and glaring defiantly. Eros had come to visit them, apparently for the first time, because he was staring at them curiously, like they were oddities. He looked like a teenager, more gangly than he’d been when Nico had last seen him, but he carried himself like a proper god already. His white-gold hair was wavy, falling to his shoulders, and his skin was darker, like he’d seen the sun while his brothers still had not.
“Go on, say something,” he prompted. “What are your names? Who are you?”
Hypnos and Thanatos looked at each other, holding a silent brotherly consultation on the matter. Then they turned to Eros and said nothing, staring him down with their bright, unsettling eyes. Either they couldn’t talk, or they didn’t want to.
Eros huffed in frustration, putting his hands on his hips.
“Look, times have changed. Everyone’s talking nowadays. We’re starting to put clothes on-- not often, mind you, but it’s catching on. There’s so much in the world now-- islands and mountains and oceans, gods and titans and giants. There’s a great shining palace in the clouds and a dark pit beneath the earth, and an ocean so big it wraps around the world. It’s all there waiting for you,” he said, gesturing at his little brothers. “Everything is new and shiny and exciting and I hate that you’re missing it, hiding in this bubble. Come! I’ll take you out, show you the world. You can trust me. I’m your big brother,” he said with a smile.
When Eros reached out, Thanatos took his hand and stepped forward. He looked up at his brother’s face with obvious admiration and the blind trust of a child.
The vision cut to the sons of Nyx soaring through the air. The twins could fly properly now, although they weren’t yet as graceful as Eros. They flapped clumsily around him as he soared through the sky, cutting through clouds like a hot knife through butter, which had probably not been invented yet. He was explaining a new concept that the twins had yet to encounter.
“They’re odd monkey-like creatures, like us, but uglier,” Eros said. “Very controversial, too, they’ve caused tons of trouble already. Oh! And they don’t have any wings.”
Hypnos and Thanatos shot each other a look of skepticism, disbelieving that such a creature existed.
“It’s true! They’re called humans,” Eros insisted. “They scrabble in the dirt for food and build these crude little huts to keep the rain and sun off their heads. And they do all sorts of interesting things with fire. You’re going to love them!”
The three of them landed on a hillside overlooking a small village of mud huts. It was early evening, and Nyx and Erebus had passed over recently; there was still distant light in the sky. There were humans wandering around performing the mundane chores one might expect in a stone age village, carrying water, tending fires, and preparing food. Nico couldn’t see any indicators of culture that would help identify the time or place, but he could see that the people were wearing animal skins and wearing crude beaded jewelry.
Eros gestured for his brothers to be silent, then pulled out a simple wooden bow, nocking an arrow. He aimed for one of the humans in the village, and fired.
The man he had struck showed no sign of injury. Instead, he looked at a nearby woman with a peculiar expression on his face.
“You’re not going to believe what happens next,” Eros said, grinning.
The vision blurred. Hypnos was standing over a sleeping child, watching the slow rise and fall of her chest. Her lips were curved upwards in a gentle smile, like she was lost in the labyrinth of a pleasant dream.
To Nico’s surprise, there were adult humans sitting in the hut with the child. They were staring at Hypnos, and could see him. Each one was frozen, wearing an expression of shock and fear.
Hypnos paid them no attention. He had nothing to hide, and no reason to care whether he was spotted. He ignored their expressions of awe and terror, and the low mutterings that sounded like prayers. Protocols between the gods and humans must have been different in the ancient days. Or perhaps there were no protocols at all yet, and they were just winging it.
Once Hypnos had stared at the girl for a satisfactory amount of time, he looked at his brothers, who were standing in the doorway watching him.
“My name is Hypnos,” Hypnos said, speaking his first words. “I’ve just decided.”
“Congratulations,” Eros said. “I like it.”
Hypnos went outside to join his brothers once again. Pleased that his brother was finally able to hold a conversation, Eros drew Hypnos to his side and offered to show him how to use his bow, a gesture of friendship.
Thanatos followed them back up the hillside, walking some distance behind them and pouting miserably. Clearly he was experiencing jealousy for the first time, though surely not for the last time in his long life.
“You can do something, too,” Hypnos said, running back to Thanatos, trying to pull him into the conversation. He was completely at ease with speech. You would have thought he had years of practice, though he had none at all. “You have a purpose. I can sense it. You just have to find what it is.”
Thanatos shrugged him off, feeling patronized, and walked in the other direction, his face stony. He walked for quite some time, although the village remained in the background; he was just angrily walking in circles, directionless and frustrated.
After a few loops, Thanatos encountered an old man on the path. He was frail and thin, his face creased with advanced age. He had a large jar of water in his arms. He must have been returning from a well or river somewhere nearby.
When the man saw Thanatos; his eyes went wide. He was seeing a god for the first time; an impossibly beautiful winged boy standing on the road in front of him, his skin and hair and eyes all glowing in the moonlight.
Thanatos looked at him, then he walked away.
He strolled back into the village. Hypnos had been busy with his new power; almost every home was occupied by sleeping families. Nico wondered if they were all dreaming, too, or if that concept was still being workshopped.
All of the huts looked roughly the same, and all of them were packed with people; families sharing thin blankets, crowding the mats rolled out on the hard mud floors. There was no visible reason for Thanatos to enter one hut in particular, but even transmitted through a memory, Nico could feel the inevitable outcome prickling under his skin.
All of the hut’s occupants were snoring loudly, turning and muttering occasionally, but never waking. Hypnos had been thorough, maybe even overzealous in his work. After all, it was his first day. No one stirred as Thanatos walked into the center of the hut, his footsteps completely soundless.
There was a little girl asleep in the middle of a mat, surrounded by other children. Nothing stood out about her unless you looked closely. At least, nothing would have stood out to anyone who wasn’t a death god. But Nico was, and to him, she looked like she had a giant neon billboard sign above her head that said ‘take my soul right now please!’
As Thanatos got closer, and knelt before her, Nico could see dried snot under her nose. He noticed that her chest shuddered slightly with each breath, and there was a rattling mucus-y sound in her lungs. She was noticeably thinner and more sallow than the children beside her, who were plump faced and ruddy with health.
Whatever her ailment was, it spelled her end. Thanatos leaned over her like a heron hovers above a fish pond, hoping for an unsuspecting frog to hop by. For a long time he waited, with infinite patience, poised to strike at the precise moment.
She took one last breath, and her hand jerked, nudging the hand of the little girl beside her. Thanatos touched her face, and her soul separated from her body. The bright blue flame of the soul blazed in Thanatos’ palm.
Thanatos stared into the depths of her soul, his face aglow with reflected, shimmering light. His expression lost a bit of its youthful naivety; a gravity settled on him like a weight added to his shoulders. He smiled in spite of it.
“Thanatos,” he whispered. “That’s who I am.”
He walked out of the hut, clutching the soul close to his chest.
He didn’t notice the little girl who had woken up. She was clutching the hand of her dead sister, watching him depart with a soul in his grasp.
Outside the hut, Thanatos looked up. Far above, high in the firmament, a bright figure clad in pink and yellow clouds swept across the dome of the sky, towing the clear morning air behind her.
“Aether and Hemera,” Eros explained, walking up to him. “Our eldest siblings. Aren’t they incredible?”
Hypnos joined his twin and stood beside him. For the first time in their lives, they saw the night fade away. The sons of Nyx stood in silence, watching the darkness give way to a bright and beautiful dawn.
Hypnos glanced down at the soul in his brother’s hands.
“What’s that?”
Thanatos smiled.
More time passed, and the vision changed yet again. Thanatos and Hypnos were now adults, and both looked as powerful and confident as Nico had ever known them to be. Their skin glowed in the bright sunlight, gleaming like white marble of the columns that surrounded them, and their eyes were sparks of flame. They were hanging around in a bright palace on Olympus, staring at something with identically suspicious looks on their faces.
“I’ve never seen a mollusk with hair before,” Thanatos said.
“Who said she was a mollusk?” Hypnos asked incredulously. “She’s the daughter of Ouranos. Although I think she was born very non-traditionally, if you believe the stories.”
“I know the story, and I know she came from clam shell. As far as I’m concerned, that makes her a mollusk. I don’t make the rules. Anyway, she must have missed the memo about clothes.”
“Eros said her name is Aphrodite,” Hypnos said. “She just walked out of the sea yesterday, and now they’re besties all of a sudden. I don’t even know what that word means. I think he just made it up.”
“Is he in love with her?” Thanatos asked.
“No. He’d have said. He’s just obsessed with her for some reason,” Hypnos said.
Eros walked up to the pair of them, arm in arm with Aphrodite, who indeed had not yet gotten the memo about clothes. She pulled it off.
Before saying a word to the twins, she whispered something into Eros’ ear, and he whispered something back to her, and they both giggled.
“Guys, this is Aphrodite,” Eros said. “Aphrodite, this is Hypnos and Thanatos, they’re--”
“Let me guess,” she said, smirking. She pointed at Hypnos first. “This one’s such a bore he’ll put you to sleep. And this one’s a real mood-killer. Get it?”
She and Eros both giggled obnoxiously.
“Just when I didn’t think you could get more annoying,” Hypnos sighed. “You found a partner in crime.”
“Indeed! She’s my soulmate. The Fates had her made specially for me, to help in my work,” Eros said proudly. “We’ll manage all affairs of the heart jointly from now on.”
“Huzzah for you,” Thanatos said. “Some of us manage our jobs all on our own, you know. I get by just fine.”
“I could use some help, actually,” Hypnos admitted. Thanatos elbowed him, frowning.
“Ask the triplets,” Eros said. “Flirt with them a little and they’ll really take care of you. There’s nothing stopping you from trying, is there?”
“There is, in fact,” Thanatos said archly. “Because I do not know how to flirt.”
His remark resulted in an extreme amount of laughter, but he had not meant it as a joke.
The scene changed again, and time marched onward. The twins were flying over a battlefield, navigating through a cloud of dust. Beneath them, a great plain stood before a set of high stone walls. Atop the walls, defensive archers watched a battle rage below, waiting for an opportunity to take a lucky shot. Anxious onlookers leaned over the side, trying to see what was happening amidst the chaos, calling out names of those among the fallen whom they could identify.
On the ground, there was a chaotic mishmash of horses, chariots, and warriors, many of whom were extravagantly clad in armor of gleaming gold and bronze, with striking plumes on their helmets. Every few seconds, Thanatos headed down and fetch another soul, and Hypnos would pause to wait for him.
“It’s good to have a chance to talk,” Hypnos said, as his twin flew back up to join him. “There’s something I need to tell you.”
“Can it wait until after the war?” Thanatos said. “I-- One second.” He disappeared, then came back with another soul. “I don’t have a lot of time to chat. I don’t even have time to help Zeus with this task he’s requested. Where are we going again?”
“He wants us to carry the body of his son, Sarpedon, back to Lycia,” Hypnos explained.
“I don’t care about some demigod’s body,” Thanatos whined. “I’ve been pulling overtime for nearly a decade now. What about my needs?”
“Sarpedon was a great hero, more than worthy of this honor,” Hypnos said. “Besides, I need to stay on Zeus’s good side.”
“Why do you care what he thinks?” Thanatos asked.
Hypnos huffed in frustration, running his hands through his curls.
“I just do,” he said. “Here’s Apollo. Let’s hurry and get this done.”
They landed in front of Apollo, who wore the armor of a soldier and carried his great golden bow on his back. His hair was long and flowing. Nico had never seen him look so serious and warlike. He stood inside a tent, where the body of a dead warrior lay on a rug, dressed neatly for an honorable interment.
“I’ve gotten him cleaned up for you,” Apollo said, brushing Sarpedon’s greying hair out of his face, which was weathered with age. “He’s lived a long life, but it’s time he received his eternal reward. Father wants the Lycians to build him a great temple to rest in.”
“He won’t appreciate it,” Thanatos said. “His shade has already chosen rebirth.”
Apollo’s eyebrows shot up in surprise.
“Why? Aren’t the judges of the Underworld his brothers? He could have gotten extra benefits. You know, from the nepotism.”
“Minos and Rhadamanthys are his brothers,” Hypnos said. “But they don’t get to judge people they know personally. There’s no nepotism in the Underworld. Hades runs it fairly.”
“First you’re actually eager about performing a favor for Zeus, and now you’re talking up Hades? What is it with you today?” Thanatos asked. “Are you looking for a promotion?”
Hypnos blushed, which took Thanatos aback.
“You haven’t told him yet, huh?” Apollo asked, flashing a knowing grin at Hypnos.
“Don’t say anything more, Apollo,” Hypnos said. “I’ll tell him in due time.”
“Hmmm…” Thanatos grumbled, staring at his brother with narrowed eyes.
Hypnos and Thanatos lifted the body of Sarpedon off the ground and began flying in the direction of Lycia, taking him to be buried.
“We’ve got a long flight. Go on, tell me,” Thanatos said. “What did you get yourself into?”
“You’re going to be angry,” Hypnos said, avoiding his eyes. They were flying alongside each other with the body between them. Thanatos was holding onto the feet while Hypnos held Sarpedon’s shoulders.
“I’m already angry, since Apollo apparently knows something about my twin that I’m not aware of. That goes against nature, you know. So out with it.”
“I’m getting married,” Hypnos said.
Thanatos dropped Sarpedon’s feet. The rest of the body jerked, falling from Hypnos’ hands, and Hypnos had to dive rapidly to grab him before his corpse fell into the ocean.
“I knew that was going to happen,” he sighed, hovering just above the white caps of the sea, his feet wet with salt spray. He held the body of the warrior over his shoulder. “So much for an honor guard,” he added, realizing Sarpedon’s armor had gotten wet. “This had better not rust.”
“Married?! You can’t get married!” Thanatos said, soaring down to face him. He had to speak up to be heard over the crashing waves; as they argued, the sea grew choppier, and the wind stronger. “We’re supposed to be above petty impulses like matrimony! Has Eros struck you with an arrow as some kind of a cruel joke?”
“No,” Hypnos said. “It was organic. We’ve been talking for a while now.”
“And how long is a while?”
“A few years.”
“A few years! How could you?”
“I knew how you’d take it,” Hypnos said. “And I didn’t think I had a chance with her, so it didn’t seem worth mentioning. But I had the opportunity to do a favor for Hera in exchange for her hand in marriage. She’s one of the Graces. Her name is Pasithea.”
“Never heard of her,” Thanatos said, tossing his hair in irritation. “But she sounds hideous.”
“She’s far from hideous,” Hypnos insisted. “I want you to meet her, if you think you can learn to be open minded and give her a chance.”
“Well, that’s not going to happen. Go ahead and call it off,” Thanatos said, waving his hand dismissively.
“I’m not calling it off. We’ll be married soon, with or without your approval. I would hope you’d find it in yourself to be happy for me. We could share this joy, as we’ve shared everything else so far.”
Hypnos ascended into the sky again with Sarpedon, leaving Thanatos behind. For a moment, Thanatos stared up at him, his face a twisted mask of anguish.
“I might swallow a few fishing weights and throw myself into the sea!” He shouted. “I’ll leave you to your bride! You probably wouldn’t even miss me!”
He waited, but Hypnos didn’t respond. Thanatos pulled at his hair like he wanted to rip it out of his skull.
“He can’t do this,” he hissed. “Not to me. He can’t.” Tears tracked down his face, indistinguishable from the saltwater that was rapidly soaking him from head to toe.
Hypnos flew back into view, at some distance away, still laden with Sarpedon’s corpse.
“Are you coming or aren’t you? We have a duty to perform!” Hypnos shouted.
Thanatos clenched his teeth, hesitated, then launched himself into the sky again, rejoining his brother.
The vision shifted into the future again, revealing a scene of revelry. Hypnos was dressed in finery, standing proudly beside a stunningly beautiful goddess, and there was an enormous party going on behind them. The gods were laughing, dancing and feasting on ambrosia and nectar. But not everyone was having a good time.
Hera presided over everything with a snooty, full-of-herself expression that Nico recognized; it seemed that the millennia hadn’t changed her much. The bride wore elegant red makeup on her cheeks and a dress that looked like it was crafted entirely from gemstones and flower petals, with a brightly colored peacock feather tucked into her hair to denote her patroness, the one who had orchestrated the marriage.
Pasithea appeared to be an easygoing goddess, and she seemed totally relaxed in spite of the fact that she was talking to Thanatos. Her new brother in law had a sour expression on his face, but at least he seemed like he was trying to hide it.
“We simply must do lunch,” Pasithea said, clasping Thanatos’ hands.
“Um. Sure,” he said awkwardly. “Eventually. When I get some free time.”
“I wasn’t sure you’d be here,” Hypnos said. “It means so much to both of us that you made it.”
“No need to thank me,” Thanatos said, pulling his dark garments close around his body, like he was tempted to pull a hood over his face and hide in the corner.
“I didn’t thank—”
“Just promise me one thing, Hypnos, please?” Thanatos implored. “No children! They’re loud, and messy, and underfoot, and you live right next door to me, so I think I ought to have a say in the matter. They’re not worth the trouble, so just please don’t even think about it. As a favor to me. I can only take so much change at one time.”
Pasithea pursed her lips, frowning at her brother in law.
“We’ll see,” Hypnos said, shrugging noncommittally.
Time advanced once again, and the image of the wedding party dissolved into mist. It was replaced by a sight Nico was already very familiar with.
Thanatos was in his dark bedroom, little more than a hole carved in an onyx wall deep in the Underworld. He was lying on the floor carving butterflies into the stone with his fingernails. His face looked tired, like he’d drawn in upon himself further since the wedding.
“Uncle?”
Morpheus stood in the doorway to Thanatos’ bare and empty room, watching him.
“What do you want?” Thanatos snapped, without looking up.
“I wanted to check on you. After Uncle Eros… You seemed upset.”
“I am not upset,” Thanatos said, scratching the fine lines of a wing into the black stone. “I’m fine. Never better, actually.”
“But he’s left the family,” Morpheus said, taking a tentative step into the room. “And I know how much you cared about him.”
“If he wants to be an Olympian so badly, let him be one,” Thanatos said. “What’s it got to do with me? Good riddance.”
“You don’t mean that,” Morpheus said.
“He has his soulmate Aphrodite to keep him company,” Thanatos said. “And his wife, Psyche, and their daughter Hedone, and all his annoying friends. He’s probably tired of the darkness. I’m sure he won’t miss us, so why should I miss him?”
“Because you love him,” Morpheus said.
“Who said I loved him? I don’t love anyone,” he said. “With the exception of my mother. Everyone else abandons me. No one else cares.”
“I care,” Morpheus said, his eyes wide as saucers.
“Well, I don’t care about you,” Thanatos said viciously, from beneath a long curtain of hair. He didn’t even give Morpheus the courtesy of eye contact. “I tried to stop your father from getting married and having children, and I failed. Don’t misunderstand me, Morpheus. I never wanted you to exist, and I’m not happy that you do.”
Morpheus turned his face to the floor.
“You don’t mean that,” he said. “You’re just hurt that Eros left. You’re not the only one he abandoned, you know.”
“I meant every word,” Thanatos said, sitting up and glaring at his nephew directly. “I don’t care that he’s gone. I don’t care about anything. I am death, do you understand me? Nothing more and nothing less than that. I exist to collect souls. I don’t exist to socialize. I don’t exist to have fun. And I certainly don’t exist to love. It’s contrary to my nature. It’s anathema. It’s a waste of my time.”
“You’re lonely,” Morpheus said. “You’re bitter, and you’re cruel. But I guess you’re right. You’re nothing more than your job. Because that’s all you choose to be. It’s nothing to do with your capability. You’re just not brave enough to be anything else.”
“You have no idea what you’re talking about,” Thanatos said, rolling over on his side, turning his back to his nephew. His voice was dull and flat. “Leave. I wish to be alone.”
“Don’t worry, Uncle,” Morpheus said. “You will be.”
He left.
Thanatos sighed, curling into a ball. He pressed his face to his knees and started to cry.
The vision ended. The memories were over. With a snap like whiplash, Nico was jolted back to the present, where he sat alone in the egg field with Thanatos.
“So. Now you’ve seen it,” Thanatos said. “Me. My best moment. My worst moment. The days that made me who I am. What did you think?” His face was turned away, like he was avoiding the expression on Nico’s face. His fingers tugged at the edge of his mantle, scratching at the fabric anxiously. His wings were tightly closed against his back.
It was so much to take in that Nico had trouble finding the words of an opinion.
Nico had seen the world without stars. He’d seen the first person ever to die-- at least, he was pretty sure that was what he’d witnessed. He’d watched the night and the dawn travel across the sky, and he’d seen the battlefield of Troy with his own eyes. Thanatos had given him visions of a world he’d have never known otherwise. It was a gift of incredible worth, even if it hadn’t been so intimately personal.
Thanatos waited, holding his breath.
Nico threw his arms around him. Thanatos let out a little gasp of relief.
“I’m sorry,” Nico said, his hand going to cup the back of his head, the other very gently holding his wings. “I’m sorry you experienced so much loss. I’m sorry they all abandoned you.”
Nico held onto him tightly. Thanatos gently placed his arms around Nico in turn.
“You don’t think it was my fault?” Thanatos asked. “I know they leave because of how I act. I’m not ignorant to my part in it all.”
“Of course it was partly your fault,” Nico said. “You’re not perfect. But you didn’t deserve to hurt like that. I wish I could have been there.”
“I wish that too,” Thanatos said, his voice breaking.
For a long time, Nico held him. He never wanted to let go.
Nico knew what it was like to feel like you’d been abandoned. In another life, Nico could have ended up the same way-- bitter, isolated, and spikier than a hedgehog. Relationships were hard. To love was to be in pain. It wasn’t easy.
“Thank you for trusting me with your past,” Nico said, brushing away the golden ichor tears that now fell from Thanatos’ eyes. “I don’t judge you for any of it.”
Thanatos nodded, wiping his face and sniffling.
“I’ve wanted to show you for a while. It’s just frightening. No one’s ever… You know.”
“You showed me the first soul you ever took. I know how much that meant to you.”
“I knew you’d understand,” Thanatos said, smiling through his tears. “And I wanted you to see what you rescued me from. Morpheus was right about me being cruel. I’d grown so dark and hateful and scared. But then you came, and you changed everything. You saved me.”
Nico understood why Thanatos had grown so bitter back then. He understood all of it, even the ugly bits. Bianca, his sister he’d lost long ago, weighed heavily in his mind. He’d hated her for leaving him. He’d told her as much to her dead face. The seed of hate had grown deep roots, but it was nothing more than a weed in the wilderness when compared to the vast love he felt for her. He knew that Thanatos cared for his own family the same way.
“You saved yourself. You just needed someone to have your back. And I always will,” Nico said.
Thanatos closed the distance between them. He kissed him, ushering in the familiar feeling of blissful annihilation.
“You are everything to me,” Thanatos whispered against his mouth.
“Did you ever wonder if we’re soulmates?” Nico asked, running his fingers through his hair.
“Hm?” Thanatos seemed surprised that he’d brought it up. “No. Why?”
“It just seemed like, I don’t know,” Nico was feeling awkward about bringing it up, because Thanatos was looking at him like he’d said something crazy. “Doesn’t it feel to you as though we have a deeper connection? Like, on a soul-level?”
“You’re romanticizing the concept,” Thanatos said, drawing back. “It’s not what you think it is. Soulmates are for gods that can’t get their work done on their own.”
“That can’t be all there is to it,” Nico said. “Did Hypnos ever get one?”
“Yes. Morpheus,” Thanatos said.
“That makes sense,” Nico said. “They do cover for each other a lot. It’s a practical necessity, isn’t it? Gods as important as you three need a backup in case of emergency, or the natural order would collapse. Right?”
“I can see an argument for it, if I squint,” Thanatos said. “What is your point?”
“How do you know we’re not cut from the same thread?” Nico asked.
“Because I didn’t ask for a soulmate,” Thanatos said. “And I don’t need one. Hermes is my Olympian counterpart. He is the backup psychopomp.”
“But when you were on your mental health sabbatical, he never stepped up. Even when he was trying, he didn’t take a tenth of the souls you took on a bad day.”
“Oh, I’m well aware,” Thanatos said, smirking pridefully.
“I know I’m not you,” Nico said. “I never will be you. But isn’t it possible that I come a little closer than Hermes to being a backup for you? If it came down to it, and you were incapacitated?”
Thanatos stretched his wings out like he was uncomfortable, forcing Nico to scoot further away from him. He was regretting bringing the subject up, because it wasn’t a comfortable topic. But his curiosity was running out of control. If it was true, and he was Thanatos’ soulmate, no one would dare turn him mortal. No one could argue that he wasn’t valuable and important exactly as he was.
“I see your point,” Thanatos conceded, flooding Nico with trembling hope. “You’re definitely better than Hermes. But you can’t be my soulmate. You’re barely, what, three?”
“Ninety three,” Nico said, his heart racing.
“That’s what I meant. Dropped the nine. But it’s impossible, you see. You’d have arrived long ago if that were the case. You’ve missed most of the times when I would have needed you.”
“But—” Nico stopped himself, swallowing his words. He’d been about to say, ‘What about the souls you can’t take, that the doctors are holding hostage on life support? Isn’t that a new phenomenon?’ But he realized that Thanatos would find the remark offensive. He was deeply insecure about his inability to intervene in those cases. And they were rare, so perhaps it didn’t matter.
Nico forced a smile onto his face.
“Nevermind. You’re right. Not sure what I was thinking.”
“You don’t need to be any more than what you are,” Thanatos said, stroking the side of Nico’s face. “You’re mine. You’re all I’ve ever wanted. And once you’re human, everything will be so simple. You won’t even need to leave the Underworld anymore.”
“Um, I might want to leave the Underworld once in a while,” Nico said, trying to sound lighthearted about it.
“Sure. Maybe,” Thanatos said, smiling lovingly. “My work will feel so much more pleasant when I can be certain that you’ll be waiting for me at home. I wish you were moving in with me. But I suppose I have to share you with your father,” he added with a sigh.
Nico tried to ignore the twisting feeling in his gut. He knew what he was signing up for, and Thanatos and Hades had already made it clear that his new human existence would be distinctly pet-like. That didn’t have to be a bad thing, though, did it? There were a lot of golden retrievers in the world living enviable lives. He’d live a pampered existence, and he would be loved, and it would last forever. He had nothing to complain about. He was fine with it.
He wished he was fine with it.
“Alright, your turn,” Thanatos said, laying on his front. He supported his head on folded elbows and stared up at Nico.
“Sorry?” Nico said, startled. “I got lost in thought.”
“Will you show me your life? That way we can be even. Or we could go back to your egg field, if you’d rather do it there.”
“My egg field? I don’t have one of those.”
“Your house in Venice,” Thanatos said. “I’ve been, very briefly, if you recall. I think whoever has been keeping it for you has been slacking, though. I didn’t see any statues of you. I suppose I didn’t check every room.”
“I highly doubt there’s a statue of me. I don’t even know who lives there now,” Nico said. “But I know I’m not ready to go back. Delos is sinking, and I saw how upset it made Apollo and Artemis. Venice isn’t doing so hot, either. I think maybe ignorance is bliss.”
“Fine. Show me here, then,” Thanatos said.
Nico wanted to say yes. He wanted to show him his childhood, Bianca’s betrayal, and his time at Camp Half Blood. He wanted Thanatos to see all the days that had made him, too.
But what about Eros? Unfortunately, they had history. Thanatos would be devastated if he ever found out about it.
And then there were the saints… Nico had been to purgatory twice. He’d spoken to an archangel. He was a registered contractor, and a highly ranked one at that. Saints sought him out, and, if he was being honest with himself, he kind of liked them. They’d saved his life on multiple occasions. Even now, Maria Bova was attempting to drum up support to have him canonized.
He had no idea how Thanatos would react to that information. But it was a risk he wasn’t willing to take.
“Rain check,” Nico said.
“Really?” Thanatos said, looking saddened. “But when will it rain?”
“I don’t know,” Nico said, feeling guilty. “But you’ve shared so much with me today. I want to savor it for a while. My day will come eventually.”
Thanatos was about to say something in protest, but Nico wanted to change the subject.
“Did you ever get lunch with Pasithea?” He asked.
Thanatos began looking at his nails with feigned interest.
“Hmm. I don’t remember. Probably.”
“We’re calling her.”
Nico took out his phone and asked Morpheus for his mom’s contact info. While he was texting, Thanatos rolled over onto his back so that he could stare up at the sky. One of his wings had gotten tucked behind him a little awkwardly, so Nico readjusted it so that he could be comfortable.
He sat beside Thanatos in the darkness, stroking his hair. It looked like spun silver in the light of the little blue soul.
“How’s Jason?” Thanatos asked.
“Let the record show that you were the one who brought him up, not me,” Nico said.
“He won’t be around much longer, anyway,” Thanatos said. “I don’t mind.”
“No. I don’t want to discuss him,” Nico said. “Today is about us. Jason’s a guest star. You’re the endgame. We knew that from the beginning.”
Thanatos reached up to grab one of Nico’s hands that was playing with his hair. He squeezed it.
“Look up,” he said.
Nico did. He saw the empty blackness of the sky begin to bloom with stars. First there were hundreds, and then thousands of individual lights gleaming in the darkness above him. Then, one by one, constellations began to appear.
“This is what you saw,” he said.
“Yes. Though it’s sped up for obvious reasons,” Thanatos said. He gestured for the soul they were using as a light source, and Nico handed it back to him. He pocketed it so that they were left in the darkness again, just them and the stars. Thanatos shifted so that his head was on Nico’s lap, and they stared into the night sky together in silence.
Nico watched as Hercules’ constellation was placed, nudging nearby stars out of the way to make room for it. Next were his conquered enemies, the Nemean lion and the Hydra, enshrined in perpetuity beside him. Then came Pisces, a commemoration of the time that Aphrodite and Eros escaped from Typhon in a daring chase, taking the form of fish in order to slip away. Aquarius appeared, the water bearer, Zeus’ tribute to his beloved Ganymede. Then came the familiar lights of the Corona Borealis, the crown of Ariadne. It had been a wedding gift from her devoted husband.
Nico smiled. He ought to call her and see how she was holding up. The last he’d heard, she was teaching the minotaur to play frisbee.
“Now I understand why the constellations are called star placements,” he said. “They really were placed by the gods one by one.”
“Of course,” Thanatos said. “Should I make you one? As a gift?”
Nico shook his head.
“No, thanks. I have everything I need already. You,” he said. “My parents. My sister. My dog.”
“You lost your skeleton cat.”
“I did. I miss her,” he said sadly. “But you get the point.”
“I do. And I’m glad, because I don’t know how to make a constellation, and I’m too old to learn now.”
“Oh,” Nico laughed. “I see. Not a sincere offer, then?”
“Afraid not,” Thanatos said, laughing with him. “I’m glad you have everything you need, Nico. I feel the same. Especially when I’m with you.”
Nico was happy. Really, he was. Life wasn’t perfect, but it was pretty damn incredible, especially in moments like this.
Maybe if he asked nicely, Thanatos would stay in the egg field forever with him. Maybe they could sit there and watch the stars and wait out the apocalypse, if there really was such a thing. Nico considered asking sincerely whether they really had to go back.
Because he had a sinking feeling it was all downhill from here.
Chapter Text
“So. Um. How’s the weather?” Thalia asked.
“Hot,” Jason said.
“Oh. Yeah, it’s the same here. It’s in the mid-90’s, I think.”
“It’s in the low hundreds here in Athens,” Jason said. “It feels like a giant oven. Especially when there’s no breeze.” Even in his cabin on the Argo, where he sat now, it was uncomfortably warm. Leo was testing the weapons system, diverting power away from the AC. Luckily the mister-fan he was using for the Iris call was cooling him off.
“That’s August in Greece for ya. Stay hydrated. Don’t forget your electrolytes.”
“Yep,” Jason said.
The two siblings stared at each other through the misty lens of the Iris call, studying each other’s faces in the blurred surface. It might have been an awkward silence on Thalia’s end-- she kept fidgeting with her eyebrow ring-- but Jason didn’t mind if the conversation lacked sparkle. He just wanted to see her face, to hear her voice, to connect briefly. It could be his last chance.
“I missed saying happy birthday to you by almost a month,” she said, “I’m sorry about that. Happy birthday.”
“You remembered my birthday?”
“Yeah, of course,” Thalia said. “Always. I’d have… Um. I’ve just been busy, you know.”
She was about to lie and claim that she’d have called if she’d had time. But she never called, not on his birthdays or any other times. Jason didn’t mind, so he smiled at her, genuinely grateful that she’d thought of him at all.
Still, her expression was uncomfortable. Her mouth had gone very small, and her dark eyebrows sat low above her strikingly blue eyes-- their father’s eyes.
Jason reminded her of a time in her life she’d prefer to forget. She had lost her baby brother in a traumatic incident as a child. She’d called the police of her own volition, intending to put her mother in jail for his murder. He couldn’t imagine the effect that had on an eight year old.
In the demigod trauma Olympics, they were neck-and-neck for suffering. He was the one who had been abandoned. He’d quite literally been left to the wolves. But he understood why she’d wanted to leave behind her messed up family. Him coming back into her life threw a wrench into that plan. She was handling his bid for re-connection, ironically, with grace.
“I ran into Reyna the other day,” Thalia said.
“She told me,” he said. He’d already spoken to Reyna, and she’d mentioned her run-in with the hunters. Reyna was very, very worried about him. Particularly about the fact that he was still dying. His pain was treated, but he hadn’t taken the Cure.
“Are you going to come back to the States anytime soon? There’ll be battles on both continents. Percy and Annabeth are in New York already with the Athena Parthenos,” Thalia said. “You still have time to catch a flight over. But not much time.”
Jason had weighed that choice already. It wasn’t a bad idea, flying back to Camp Half Blood for the final battle. If he was going to choose to die, he wanted Reyna by his side. And she was in the US trying to fortify Camp Half-Blood against Octavian’s siege and Gaea’s attack. As praetor of Camp Jupiter, it was her duty to take back control of the legions when the opportunity arose.
Jason could join her in Long Island and die with her. But he didn’t have to. He didn’t have to die at all, he could take the Physician’s Cure anytime. It was in his tactical backpack at the moment, bundled safely.
If he took it, he’d want to storm the Acropolis with his quest-mates afterward. He owed Leo that much. But could he take it? He wasn’t sure he could live with himself if he let Leo die in his place. But he really didn’t want to die, either.
He was contemplating death now, just like Nico had always wanted him to. He cringed remembering his resistance to the subject in the past; there had been a lot of whining about life not being fair and how he deserved more time. He’d been adamant that snorkeling various lagoons and going to the Eras tour was more important and meaningful to him than fighting in another quest. Nico had tricked him into rejoining the Seven on the Argo like you trick a dog into eating a pill by wrapping it in cheese.
He’d been right to do it, though. Getting the Cure from Apollo had helped the most, but Jason’s mental anguish had also eased from being around his mortal friends again. Re-connecting with the team made him feel less alone. They were all scared of dying. They would all rather be on a beach somewhere drinking Long Island Iced Teas. He wasn’t special.
Making plans alongside them, having conference calls with Reyna, Percy, and Annabeth, and just hanging out together had made him feel grounded. Leo, in particular, had helped him a lot.
Leo was planning to kill himself in order to destroy Gaea. And yet, he still laughed with his whole chest. He still winked at Jason when he made stupid puns. And his brilliance as an inventor hadn’t dulled at all; he was on fire with creativity. He’d made a deep fryer out of a hair dryer and an ice bucket the other day because Frank wanted onion rings.
Leo was willing to die for the quest, and he was doing it with a smile. How could Jason do any less? What was the matter with him, that he was coping so poorly with the very thing he’d prepared his whole life to do? Like Nico had said, there were kids fighting cancer right now. There were babies being burned alive in refugee camps. And snorkeling hadn’t been all sunshine and roses; he’d sunburned the hell out of his back on the first day.
Jason wasn’t ready to give the Cure to Leo. He still got the shakes just thinking about it. But he knew it was the right thing to do. He wanted to be the hero he’d always thought he was. He just wasn’t yet.
Thalia cleared her throat.
“Sorry. Spaced out,” he said. “There’s a lot going on.”
“It’s cool. I asked Reyna to look out for you, since I can’t,” Thalia said. “Just try to be safe. Please. I know that doesn’t mean a lot, coming from the sister that never calls, but--”
“I appreciate it,” he said. “Thanks.”
She nodded, biting her lip. He saw her swallowing, taking a minute to put her thoughts together.
“Goodbye, Jason,” she said. “I… Don’t forget the electrolytes.”
She hung up.
“Love you, too,” he said, staring at the empty air.
He laid down on his bed and stared at the ceiling overhead. He closed his eyes, but sleep didn’t come. Maybe Hypnos had higher priority clients.
When the sun rose, he’d have three days left to make his choice.
He dragged himself out of bed at seven, dressing in his favorite purple shirt and joining the others for an early breakfast. They’d planned to do some disguised reconnaissance in the city spying on the giants, and it was easier to get it over with before the heat grew too intense.
He was tired, but when you were maybe dying soon, you didn’t care about stuff like that as much. He’d tossed and turned all night, fretting over needing to make a decision, but he’d come no closer to a solution.
Watching Leo eat Fruit Loops, seemingly without a care in the world, hurt his heart. Bile rose in Jason’s stomach at the thought of attending Leo’s funeral while he himself was in perfect health.
There had to be something he could do. Somehow, some way, everybody needed to live. But he had no ideas. And he knew that the gods hated when mortals tried to have their cake and eat it too. How badly would Nico react if Leo and Jason both curved him on August first?
Hazel and Frank volunteered to do the reconnaissance on their own, so he, Piper, and Leo had the Argo to themselves. Jason met Piper’s eye over the stack of waffles in the middle of the breakfast table.
“Jason, can you help me in the infirmary? I need you to hold bandages while I roll them,” Piper asked, seeing that Leo was distracted playing with his food. He was making something that resembled a cursed toaster strudel turducken.
Jason got up and followed her into the small infirmary. He recalled the time he and Nico had secretly kissed on the patient table, and flushed at the memory.
Maybe I should just die, he thought to himself. It was the only way to get Nico back. Wasn’t he worth dying for? Jason had thought so, once.
“Did you come up with an alternative plan?” Piper asked. “How are we saving Leo?”
Leo hadn’t given them the details, but he had claimed that he’d found a way to release Festus from the Argo II and turn him into a giant flying death machine. He’d also excitedly revealed that he had rigged Festus with explosives. Of course, he hadn’t admitted that his intent was to be on Festus when it ‘went kablooey’, as he’d so eloquently put it. But he’d told Hazel in secret that he planned to ignite the explosives using his own fire power.
“Look,” Jason said. “I’ve stayed up all night thinking about this. I’ve ground my teeth to nubs.”
“You’ve still got teeth? Soft hands, brother,” she grinned, flashing her perfect teeth at him. Jason laughed, and the release of tension was sorely needed, because what he had to say sucked.
“Here’s what we know now. We know the giants are gathered at the Acropolis, planning a ritual to resurrect Gaea. We also know that Gaea swore Camp Half Blood would be her first target once she’s resurrected. If we fail to interrupt the ritual here in Greece, we might be leaving the kids at Camp to die. Which includes the legions of New Rome, too.”
“Okay. So failing to interrupt the ritual is not an option,” Piper said, hopping up on the exam table and swinging her feet.
“Sure. But the odds are against us. If Gaea rises on Long Island, the best plan at that point is the one we already have. Hazel and Leo will board Festus. Hazel will shadow travel them back to New York. And Leo can… You know. Hazel’s gift of Achilles will protect her. But Leo--”
“It won’t come to that,” Piper said.
“We don’t know that for sure,” Jason said. “Piper, there’s something I need to tell you.”
“Oh, gods,” she said, wincing. “What is it?”
Jason reached into his jacket pocket and drew out the bottle of Cure.
Piper’s face went pale.
“You idiot,” she said, tears sparkling in her eyes. “Please tell me this is a joke.”
“I don’t want to die,” Jason said, trying to hold back his emotions and stay practical. It helped that she was feeling all the feelings for him. “I’m not ready yet. But I know Leo isn’t either. I’ve tried to convince myself that I deserve it more than him, or he deserves it more than me. But I can’t live with either choice.”
“Jason, he thinks you already drank it anyways, so just do it. Don’t over complicate this. You’re giving me ulcers, just please take it!” She said, pulling on his arm.
“We’re all struggling,” Jason said. “But you’re not the one who’s dying, so please listen. Look, I know myself. I know I’m never going to be able to make a decision. I’m afraid I’ll wait too long and it’ll be too late for both of us. Hell, it’s two days out. I’m already out of time.”
He pressed the bottle into her hands.
She stared down at it like he’d just handed her a grenade with the pin already pulled.
“Why are you handing this to me?” She asked, her voice shaking.
He took a deep breath.
“You make the call.”
She held the bottle out, shoving it back into his hands.
“No.”
“Piper, please,” he whispered, his heart caught in his throat.
“No!” She shouted hoarsely. “You can’t make me choose between you. You can’t do that to me! And fuck you for asking. How dare you?”
“I’m sorry,” Jason said, avoiding her eyes. “I know the burden I’m putting on you. But I also know that you can bear this. At least better than I can right now.”
“No. I can’t,” she said. She was starting to hyperventilate. “You’re overestimating me.”
“I used to think I’d be brave when my time came. Time’s here. I’m not. I need your help, Pipes.”
“Apollo gave this to you, not Leo,” She said, waving the bottle in his face. “It’s not cowardice to use it. Leo’s choosing his death, but you didn’t choose to get stabbed. You’re not in equal situations. Please just drink it!”
“It doesn’t matter who it was for initially. Give it to the one who’s more deserving. The one who’s going to be worth it. It’s okay if that’s not me. I won’t be mad at you.”
“I can’t make that call!” She said.
“You have to.”
“No,” she said. “Take this back. Make your own damn choice.”
She tried to force the bottle into his hands, but he kept his fists closed. By the time she gave up she was practically snorting with rage. He’d never seen her angrier.
She bared her teeth.
“You don’t care about Leo. This isn’t about him. You’re refusing to make a decision because you’re a simp for a death god. You want him, but you’re too proud to die for him outright. You know, being stupid for love is one thing. Refusing to admit it is just pathetic.”
She knew how to make her words cut to the bone, and Jason felt eviscerated.
“This isn’t about--” He said weakly.
“Don’t insult me!” Piper said. “I know who you are, Jason Grace, and this is the most cowardly thing I’ve ever seen you do. You’re making me the bad guy because you know I’ll choose you over Leo. And once I heal you, you can run back to goth daddy and tell him it was all my fault you got to live? Fuck you!”
“You don’t have to save me over Leo,” Jason said, feeling the sting of the truth in her words. “I didn’t assume--”
“I’m still in love with you, idiot!” She said, tears beading in her eyes. “Of course it’s going to be you! It was always…” She broke off, her cheeks beet red. “I am going to hate you for this forever,” she said, her voice going quiet. “You’re putting Leo’s blood on my hands.”
“I can’t make the call,” he said, his voice even quieter, barely audible.
“I hate you,” she muttered, shoving past him and walking away.
He’d wronged Piper yet again. But he’d gotten what he’d wanted out of it.
He would live. She’d heal him, and then she’d never speak to him again. Leo’s death would be her fault, not his. Nico would probably offer him partial credit, since he wasn’t the one choosing to take the Cure himself.
There was, of course, the chance that Piper would decide to save Leo after all. Jason told himself it was still possible. He wanted to feel the weight lift from his shoulders, to pretend that he didn’t know the ending to the story yet.
He started walking around the Argo. It was such a unique space, all cobbled together with mismatched materials, welded and bolted and screwed together haphazardly. Kind of like the mismatched demigods that made up the crew. Every inch of the winding hallways, every nook and cranny, screamed ‘Leo Valdez was here!’ It was beautiful. Jason couldn’t imagine that he’d ever wanted to be anywhere else. There was so much heart in this place. So much hope. It was the brilliant talent of a demigod, a little magical and a little mortal, on vibrant display. Leo had crafted a space where they could fight the giants and serve the gods while still having fun and being kids.
Being a demigod had always felt like a weight tied around Jason’s ankles. He grew up doing sword drills while other kids drew with crayons. But Leo made it look good. He took the war as a personal challenge to make the most insane machines imaginable-- a flying dragon and a flying ship. Countless smaller inventions, hundreds, if not thousands. The Argo II would never have existed if not for the gods. Neither would Leo. If he’d been mortal, his life would have been easier, but he could never have created anything like the Argo II. His genius would be written in the stars forever-- and if it wasn’t, shame on the gods for not seeing how brightly he shone.
Jason could fly, and summon lightning. He’d been envied all his life for his abilities, but he’d never enjoyed them. He’d never appreciated being the son of Jupiter the way someone like Leo would have. He wondered if Leo actually looked forward to his own death, in a freaky kind of way. Dying in a massive, heroic explosion was probably exactly how Leo would have wanted to go, and he had found his opportunity.
Jason wished he was a better demigod. Because he was pretty sure Leo was the best he’d ever known.
He walked down to the engine room to find Leo working on the furnace. Some of the implements he was using looked incredibly hot, and he was welding without a mask, but Leo was in his element, moving smoothly and elegantly from one tool to another. He drilled holes, screwed screws, and welded plates of metal together so quickly that Jason could barely make out what he was doing.
“Want some company?” Jason asked, sitting on an upturned paint bucket.
Leo whipped his head around in surprise.
“Oh! Uh, yeah, make yourself at home,” he said. “Just working on a few tweaks for the fire distribution system.”
“Can’t believe old Festus is under here,” Jason said, tapping the toe of his shoe on the floor.
“Yeah, I kept him pretty well hidden,” Leo said.
There was a long silence between them. Jason didn’t mind it much, since he liked watching Leo work. Leo’s extreme competence gave him hope that his handy friend had already invented a solution to avoid death. There was no one better at improvisation than Leo Valdez.
“How ya feelin’ these days, Jason?” Leo asked. “That sword wound ever bother you?”
“Nope. I’m good,” Jason said, looking him right in the eyes and lying.
“Mhm,” Leo said. “Good. That’s good.”
He turned back to the furnace.
“I never told you about Calypso, did I?” Leo said, in a tone of voice Jason had never heard him use before.
“No,” Jason said, swallowing around a lump in his throat. Why did he have a really bad feeling about this?
“While you were snorkeling, I fought Khione again when she and her minions attacked the ship,” he said. “She kicked my ass halfway across the Aegean. I landed on Ogygia.”
“Oh,” Jason said.
“What, no jokes like ‘Oh geez! Ogygia?’ Or, ‘O—What—Ia’?” Leo asked. “How about ‘Ogygia, I hardly even know ya!’ That one went over like a Celestial bronze balloon when I tried it on Calypso.”
“No jokes,” Jason said. He knew what happened to heroes that landed on Ogygia.
He was so tired.
“Anyway, Calypso and I fell in love and all that crap. I’ll spare you the details. Just thought, as my friend, you ought to know. Because love changed me and I’m so much more mature now and I’ve learned to be a better person-- except none of that’s true,” Leo said. “I think I’m worse,” he added, quiet enough that he might have meant it for himself alone.
Jason didn’t know how to respond. The wave of revulsion he felt at his own selfishness was overwhelming.
“Hey, I’ve got to run,” he said awkwardly.
“Oh. Okay,” Leo said, his eyes downcast. He turned a wrench in his hand, flipping it over and over like a stim toy.
Jason stood up.
“I’m glad you told me about her. Sorry, but I forgot I left the stove on,” Jason said.
“It has an auto-shutoff feature,” Leo said. He glanced over at a control panel with blinking lights off to one side. He could probably tell that the stove wasn’t on at a glance.
Jason rushed up the stairs, taking them two at a time. His chest felt tight, and his bones ached. He knew the medicine he was taking was potent. The pain he felt wasn’t from the Imperial gold wound. It was just guilt, more overpowering than any sword could ever be.
He ran back to Piper’s room and opened the door.
“Leo just told me about Calypso,” he said, panting from running up the stairs from the engine room. He wasn’t that out of shape, so the wound was clearly still affecting him. “I changed my mind.”
Piper frowned at him. She was wrapped in a fuzzy purple blanket, holding Katoptris. She watched it like it was TV these days.
“What?” She asked.
“Leo wants to go back to Calypso,” Jason said. “Right?”
“Every hero that finds her wants to go back,” Piper said, looking back at the knife. “But no one ever does. That’s how it works.”
“But Leo’s Leo,” Jason said. “What if he can? What if he just needs more time?”
“We’re killing him, so it doesn’t matter,” Piper muttered bitterly. “You decided that for both of us.”
“No, I changed my mind,” Jason said. “What I said earlier? I was wrong. I take it back. I want you to give it to him. I’ve made my decision. He deserves it more than me. He has someone waiting on him and I don’t.”
He did have someone, actually, but Nico was waiting in the Underworld. If he died and Leo lived, they’d both get to reunite with their loves. And Leo would do more with his time than Jason ever would. Like a lightning strike, Jason saw Leo’s future unfold in his mind’s eye. Leo would save Calypso. He’d invent bigger and better things, and surpass Daedalus as the greatest inventor to ever live. He’d change the world. He’d be a legend. He might even be a god, if Jason gave him this chance.
All Jason wanted to do was snorkel. The choice was clear.
“Go with him and Hazel to Camp Half Blood. Find a way to get it into his body just before he explodes. Hazel can get you out before the explosion, and you have the fireproof hair clip. It’s doable.”
“Probably. But I couldn’t care less whether you changed your mind,” Piper said. “It’s my Cure now. My call to make. Go away, Jason. Your opinion isn’t needed anymore.”
“But Piper--”
She got up, shoved him outside the door, and slammed it in his face. His fingers got caught in the jamb, and he yelped.
He stood in the hall for a moment, feeling the full impact of his stupid, idiotic choices smack him in the face.
He’d been trying to do the right thing. Giving the Cure to Piper had been an attempt to ensure his own fear didn’t get the best of him. He’d wanted the choice to be made for the right reasons, and didn’t trust himself. He hadn’t accounted for Piper’s feelings for him. How could she not hate him after the way he’d treated her? He didn’t get it.
He went into his room, thinking he might need a nap. Maybe he would wake up and this would all be a dream.
He turned around to shut the door behind him. When he looked back towards his bed, there was a large winged man smack dab in the middle of it.
“Cupid,” he said, a headache beginning in his temples.
“It’s Eros! We are in Greece, after all,” Eros said, sprawling languorously over Jason’s navy blue sheets like a cat. “Did you like your surprise?”
“You told me the date of my own death. Does it get more surprising than that?” Jason asked. He had maxed out his capacity for emotional damage, and seeing Eros left him numb. What was there to be afraid of now?
“Piper is still in love with you, silly,” Eros said. “Leo has a love of his own. And your love wants you dead ASAP! What a tangle! It’s scintillating, right? Makes you feel so alive?”
“Can’t argue with that,” Jason said, sitting on the corner of his mattress.
“I tried to warn you. Remember? When I said to think of the story of Eros and Psyche? The time my wife dripped wax on my face in an attempt to see me better?”
“What’s that got to do with anything?”
“You Googled him,” Eros said, raising his brows. “You weren’t supposed to do that. Naughty.”
“I had my reasons,” Jason said, putting his head in his hands.
At the time, he’d been highly motivated to get out of Nico’s house and find a cure. But in hindsight, it had been such a stupid idea. If he’d never gotten the Cure, he wouldn’t be in this mess. If he’d trusted Nico a little more, he could have accepted death on his own. Now that he finally felt prepared to accept his fate, it was being stolen from him. Piper seemed like she was planning on spiking his orange juice with the Cure and making him drink against his will.
He’d live, but Leo would die. Piper and Nico would both hate him. And he’d never forgive himself. By wanting to live, he’d ruined his life.
“Your advice could have been a little more clear,” Jason said.
“I knew you wouldn’t listen either way,” Eros said, spreading out like a starfish. Jason stood up and leaned against the wall; getting too close to this god was dangerous. “I hang out with the Fates a lot, and I know human nature better than anyone. I can see into the future better than Apollo sometimes.”
Suddenly, Jason’s brain clicked into demigod mode. There was a god in front of him. Eros had the potential to change the situation drastically on a whim.
“If I live, you won’t get your favor from Nico,” Jason said. “Is that really something you’ll allow?”
“Clever boy!” Eros said, clapping his hands. “But who says I was getting that favor, anyway? It seemed like a longshot, didn’t it?”
“If I die, like Nico wants me to-- Like I want to,” Jason added, finding it hard to believe he was really saying that out loud. “I’ll ask him again. To meet with you. He might be happy enough to really do it.”
“Intriguing,” Eros said.
“You didn’t come here to gloat,” Jason surmised, starting to pace around the room. “Right? You want me dead, too. You warned me because you were hoping I’d trust Nico, even though you knew it was a longshot. You want him happy, and you want it to be because of you. You really, really want this favor from him.”
“Are you sure you’re not a son of mine, or Aphrodite’s? Because you’re reading me like a book,” Eros said. “Okay, yes! I want the favor bad enough to do almost anything!” He threw up his hands. “You got me!”
“What is it?”
Eros pursed his lips thoughtfully.
“I guess it doesn’t matter if you know. I want back into the Underworld. I want to go home.”
Jason frowned in confusion.
“You can’t just--”
“Banned for life. Long story,” Eros said. “Nico’s the only one who can get it lifted. At least, that’s what I’m betting on.”
“Okay,” Jason said, channeling Nico and his ‘let’s make a deal’ energy. “I’ll ask Nico again. I’ll beg. I’ll give it all I’ve got. But you need to make Piper stop loving me so she doesn’t Cure me against my will.”
Eros sighed.
“It’s tempting. But I have to pass. Love is love. Love is all you need. Love is all around us. I like the way Piper loves. It’s so nasty and hateful, it’s just delicious. I won’t rain on her parade.”
Jason sighed.
“So why are you here, then?
“You’re not the only guy in love on this ship. Maybe I’m just checking in on all three of my love projects. Also, I low key want to hang out with Piper, like, intimately.” Eros’ wings twitched with excitement. “What, you didn’t think I was here to hit on you, did you?” Eros asked. “I know you don’t do hookups, my demisexual king. I’ll be seeing you.”
“I don’t like labels!” Jason said, but he was gone. Jason sat down and put in his headphone. He was pretty sure Piper would send the asshole packing. But just in case, he didn’t want to know what was happening in the other room.
He must have dozed off, because it was later afternoon when he woke up. His music was still playing in his headphones, but he saw the red emergency light flashing on the ceiling overhead.
He sat up and took out his headphones. Leo was speaking over the intercom.
“Crew to the bridge. Crew to the bridge. Guys, we got an SOS from Frank and Hazel, we have to boogie, crew to the bridge! Where are you two?”
Jason scrambled up to the bridge. Piper was already there, but she was ignoring him.
Leo ran out from behind the ship’s controls.
“GPS puts them right smack in the middle of the Acropolis,” Leo said, his eyes filled with fear. “Frank hit the panic button on his life-alert necklace I gave him, but the signal goes dark after that.”
“No! Shit!” Piper said. “What about the ritual? They needed a male and a female demigod! They can’t finish it early, can they?”
“If they did, we’re screwed,” Leo said. “We’d have to head back to New York, and we don’t have Hazel to take us. If they’ve got them, we’ve lost the war before the final battle’s even started.”
“No we haven’t,” Jason said. “Hazel can turn invisible. She can shadow travel. She has the gift of Achilles. She hasn’t been captured.”
“You’re right,” Piper said. “Frank was disguised as an animal, but she was invisible. I bet they haven’t found her yet. Thank the gods,” she said, breathing a sigh of relief.
“We have to help,” Leo said. “We need to save Frank and help Hazel.”
“But Frank could be…” Piper said.
“Frank’s alive, or Hazel would have come back here,” Jason said. “She’s not the type to fly into a rage because her boyfriend dies. But she’s not gonna leave him while he’s their prisoner.”
“We have to go back her up, then,” Piper said.
“Leo and I can,” Jason said. “But we can’t hand the giants another female demigod. Especially not one who’s easier to catch than Hazel.”
“I’m not staying behind,” Piper said furiously.
Leo looked stricken with guilt.
“Shit, Piper… Jason is right,” Leo said. “We can’t bring you anywhere near the giants. That would be a massive risk. They could kill Jason and me both, but Gaea would still be stuck in the ground, so long as they didn’t get you or Hazel.”
“We’ll tell Hazel to come back here as soon as we can speak with her,” Jason said. “It won’t just be you that’s left out.”
Piper just shook her head. There was no logical argument she could make against him, but she was still bitterly disappointed.
She went back inside the cabin.
Jason and Leo looked at each other.
“To storm or fire,” Leo said, reaching out his hand.
“The world must fall,” Jason said. He shook his hand, squeezing hard. “You and me, buddy.”
“You and me,” Leo agreed, meeting his eyes.
Chapter Text
Hazel was alone on the Acropolis. One girl against an army of giants.
At first, when the giants had captured Frank, she’d panicked. Hazel was the strongest demigod alive, but the Acropolis was hosting a giant family reunion. Some she recognized, like Enceladus, Alcyoneus, Otis and Ephialtes, but many were new to her, and there were more of them than she’d known existed. After she’d trying and failing a couple of times to count them, she’d given up. She didn’t have the ability to defeat a single one without the help of a god, so it was hopeless.
She watched from a secure position on top of a broken column, her mind flashing back to the day she and Nico had eaten ice cream there. She missed those innocent days. She wished she could trade the giants for a crowd of obnoxious tourists instead, but it wasn’t an option.
Frank’s body swung from a rope a few hundred meters away, hanging from the remains of the Parthenon. He had been tied around the ankles and hoisted upside down, and the giants had slit one of his wrists. He wasn’t bleeding dangerously, but his blood had soaked the earth, halfway powering the ritual that would summon Gaea back to life.
One demigod down, and one left to go. Hazel had to tread carefully. She was a female demigod. All it would take was one drop of blood, and she’d be facing down Gaea herself, in addition to her children.
Hazel was caught between a rock and a hard place. She wanted to rescue Frank, but if she revealed herself, she’d be in danger. She couldn’t afford to be wounded, and she was so outnumbered that it seemed impossible to avoid. The Gift of Achilles helped with a lot of things, but she could still bleed. She couldn’t be defeated, but she also couldn’t guarantee that she’d never get a nick, even from something as simple as skinning her knee on gravel.
Frank’s face was turning redder by the second. All it would take was one touch and she could shadow travel him away, but he was surrounded by a close huddle of giants who were taunting him mercilessly and batting him around like a cat toy. He swung wildly to and fro. She felt his life force, which was normally incredibly strong, begin to waver.
Hazel caught sight of the small wooden stick that represented his lifeline dangling from his neck. One of the giants flicked it with a massive finger the size of a baseball bat, and Frank flinched. He tried to shout, but his own sock had been stuffed in his mouth.
“Stay calm, Frank,” she whispered under her breath. “Don’t let them learn your weaknesses.”
But it was too late. A ten foot tall, ugly female giant yanked off Frank’s necklace and strung it around her own neck. It fell atop a heap of other necklaces that ranged from beaded strands to pearls to a gold nameplate that read ‘Periboia.’ Periboia had a thing for jewelry, it seemed.
Hazel stood, taking a deep breath. She couldn’t stand by and let this happen. Frank was in too much danger; if anything happened to the necklace, his life would be forfeit.
Luckily, Hazel hadn’t been waiting and watching uselessly. She had been growing crystals beneath the earth, waiting for them to reach a formidable size before letting them erupt from the ground. She caused one to explode beneath Periboia’s feet, and Periboia fell down on her rump with a shriek and a thud so loud it probably registered on the Richter scale. While she was down, the other giants began to laugh at her, pointing and calling names.
While Periboia was distracted, Hazel shadow traveled to a spot just beside her and ripped Frank’s cord off her neck. She was careful to remain invisible the entire time. Hazel shadow traveled back to safety. She’d been millimeters away from getting swiped across the face with Periboia’s big, meaty paw.
“Hey! Where’d my new necklace go?” Periboia shouted angrily, looking around at the ground and digging through the dirt for it.
Hazel crouched in her safe viewing spot and looked at Frank. The whites of his eyes were visible; the loss of the necklace had panicked him. But after Periboia didn’t find it, he seemed to realize Hazel had intervened, and he slumped again. He swung back and forth, his rope creaking like an old tree branch, as drops of blood painted the ground below him like a Jackson Pollack painting.
Hazel tied the string around her neck. Feeling the weight of Frank’s curse reminded her of her own, and it gave her an idea. It was often overshadowed in her mind by the Curse of Achilles, but her old curse, the one with the gems that brought misfortune, was still very much a part of her life.
She reached into her pocket where she kept the bad-luck gems that she had found recently on the Argo II. There were over a dozen, since she’d been extra stressed lately. She tossed a diamond in front of Periboia as an experiment.
As expected, Periboia picked it up immediately and began to admire it while Hazel dropped a few more gems off with other giants. Sadly, she ran out of gems long before she had gotten to all of them, and there were only so many more gems she could summon. At least she could be certain that most of the giants roaming the Acropolis would now be affected by bad luck. She hoped it would make whatever was going to happen next easier.
She retreated to the top of the Parthenon, to the exact spot she’d shared the ice cream with Nico many months ago. She closed her eyes and prayed.
“Okay,” she breathed. “I’m not panicking. I’m in the middle of the Acropolis, surrounded by giants, and my boyfriend’s upside down. But I’m not panicking. Nico, if you’re here, if you’re listening… Remember the ice cream? Remember how you wanted to do a Segway tour and I was so tired I just sat down outside the Parthenon and refused to get up?” She let out a little nervous laugh, although she was trying to pray as quietly as she could. “I knew we’d have to storm the Acropolis eventually. I just didn’t think I’d be doing it alone.”
“You’re not,” Nico said, his invisible arm going around her shoulder in a cold embrace. She stifled a gasp. “What’s the plan, sis?” He asked, speaking quietly into her ear. She couldn’t see him, but his presence was overwhelmingly comforting. She wasn’t alone. He had her back. He would never let anything happen to her.
“Ahem,” someone said nearby.
“Dad’s here, too, in his helm,” Nico whispered. “Just so you know.”
“Oh,” Hazel said.
“No need to sound so disappointed,” Hades said. “I can assure you, your brother is not capable of taking on a horde of giants by himself, in spite of whatever grandiose promises he’s made you. We will not launch our offensive until more gods arrive.”
Hades had some trick of keeping his voice quiet without needing to whisper, like he could prevent the sound waves from traveling. Much as she disliked Hades, she knew that he had tricks Nico had never even thought of, and that Nico had been right to bring him immediately.
“Are they on their way?” Hazel asked. “Frank is in serious trouble. He’s upside down. Can’t that kill people?”
“It can, but it takes a couple of hours,” Nico said. “His lifeline is long. You don’t need to worry.”
“He could still get hurt,” she said, not wholly reassured.
“Zeus and Hera said they were on their way,” Hades said, “Although Zeus has a habit of saying that and then spending another hour picking an outfit, so I can’t vouch for his timeliness. And Hera just returned from Turks and Caicos, so she may still be on island time.”
“And we’re Mediterranean. We’re already on island time. So that makes it double island time,” Nico said.
“When they say they’re five minutes away, it means they’ll be here in an hour,” Hades agreed.
“Oh, my,” Hazel murmured in dismay. Gods already had a vague sense of the passing of time. They were cutting it way too close for Frank’s safety.
“Don’t stress. There’s other gods,” Nico said, sensing her fear. “Hephaestus sent an alert to the Argo II. Leo and Jason should be on their way. I hope Piper’s not dumb enough to come.”
“Piper is the opposite of dumb,” Hazel said. “She’ll understand why it’s best if she stays back. What about me?”
“You’re here, so stay here,” Nico said. “I think it’s fate we fight together today. Just keep those earrings activated. If you even think there’s a chance you might have cut yourself, shadow travel away before any blood drips onto the ground.”
“Why didn’t I think of that,” Hazel said. “Stupid.”
“Hey. No. You’re not,” Nico said, taking her hand. She wished she could see his face, but she had to just imagine it. He pressed her fingers to his icy wrist. “Feel my heart pounding? I’m scared too. I’ve never seen this many giants in one place before.”
“Yes, I remember my first Gigantomachy,” Hades said, his voice going dreamy and distant. “I wore my gleaming helm and swung my sword with a vengeance. I was a terror of shadow and flame, leaving devastation and despair in my wake. It was glorious. But that was when I was a naive young fool, like Nico is now. Before the centuries robbed me of my light and hope and dreams, those provinces of youth that are lost to the old.”
“That’s not part of aging, dad. You just have depression,” Nico said.
“I hear enough of that nonsense from Trisha,” Hades grumbled.
“Should we use Stygian iron?” Hazel asked, hoping to cut off her dad’s pointless monologue.
“No,” Nico said firmly.
“Why have it if we never use it?” She asked, looking at the giants below. She could see in the distance where they’d started pummeling Frank again. Her fingers were itching.
“It’s fine. Use it,” Hades said.
“No,” Nico insisted. “We can’t use it anymore. Not on giants, and especially not on mortals. Hazel, promise me?”
“Fine,” she said.
“What a forcefully wrong opinion to have,” Hades said. “When it is I who decides these things, and not you. Hazel, I give you permission to use it. Nico, for your edification, understand that the giants are too old to be effected by Stygian iron in the way gods and mortals are. The metal comes from the earth, and the earth is their mother, so the iron is like their sibling or something… Anyway, it’s just a sword to them.”
“I’m still not okay with it,” Nico insisted, growing agitated. Hazel must have known her brother extremely well, because in spite of their continued invisibility, she could see the expression on Nico’s face clearly in her mind’s eye-- and it looked pissed off. She wondered why he cared so much.
“Forget I said anything,” she said. “I won’t use it. Can we please help Frank now?”
“I’m here! Sorry, I couldn’t decide on my outfit,” Persephone announced, appearing in a flurry of petals alongside Demeter. The two of them were wearing matching Lululemon workout sets, with Persephone in peach and Demeter in green, and they both held scythes taller than themselves. “Hades? Nico? Where is everybody?”
Persephone and Demeter had appeared inside the Parthenon, only a few hundred meters from the giant’s ritual area. Dozens of oversized heads turned, and a security alarm began to sound with an ear shattering ‘whoomp whoomp whoomp’. The earth rattled as the giants drew their weapons in unison and began hastily strapping on armor.
Hades revealed himself, swooping down to join Persephone in a swirl of shadow.
“Stunning,” Hades said, kissing Persephone’s hand. “Every time I think you can’t get any more beautiful, you surprise me with an even more form-fitting athleisure outfit. I must find this Lulu Lemon woman and thank her.”
“Do I get a compliment? I dressed up for the war, too,” Demeter said. “I got a new claw clip in the shape of a cabbage!”
“No,” Hades said.
Hazel briefly wondered if they even remembered they were in a war right now. Giants were thundering toward them, but the three gods below seemed unfazed. How many times had the gods fought the giants, anyway? Nico was the only one who even seemed nervous. He had certainly not joined his relatives on the ground; he was still invisible up on the ledge, holding Hazel’s hand.
The mass of giants, who were kicking up enough dust to be mistaken for an elephant herd, charged at the gods on the ground. Hazel felt Nico squeeze her hand, and realized it was trembling. It may have partly been excitement, but he was also nearly as scared as she was. It wasn’t reassuring, but it made sense. Not only was their success or failure on his head as the quest patron, but he also had to ensure she didn’t spill a single drop of blood. Until the other demigods arrived, she had to help support the other gods in their fights, too, or they’d never win. They were in for it; the next hour would not be easy.
“No point waiting on Zeus,” Demeter shouted above the noise. “The demigod boy lost consciousness. If we don’t get him upright soon, he’ll be brain damaged beyond usefulness in the battle. And we need all the demigod help we can get.”
Her scythe, already encrusted with dried blood and ichor, gleamed in the sunlight.
“There you are, Erysicthon!” She roared. “Come and get some, if you think you can handle it!”
She and Persephone both threw themselves into the fray as the giant Erysicthon began throwing fireballs at the two plant-goddesses. Vines immediately began to entrap him and the other giants nearby, slowing their approach.
“I’m going to start whittling down Alcyoneus,” Hades said, cracking his knuckles. He drew his enormous Stygian iron blade, then donned his helm, disappearing into shadow.
Nico and Hazel disappeared, too, emerging as close to Frank as they could get without risking being stepped on by a giant. Periboia was nursing a stubbed toe, batting Frank around like a pinata in anger at her predicament. She hadn’t joined the others, and Hazel hoped it was a result of her cursed gem making Periboia’s life more difficult. She hastily explained to Nico what she’d done.
“See why I didn’t help you get rid of your curse? I knew it would come in handy,” he said.
“We’ll see if it makes any difference,” Hazel whispered. “Let’s not keep Frank waiting.”
Nico dropped her hand.
Suddenly, Periboia flinched as though she’d been stung by a mosquito. She slapped at her side, and when she drew her hand back, ichor was streaming from a brand new sword wound in her gut.
“What the--”
Nico had given her the opening she’d been waiting on. Hazel ran up and cut Frank’s rope. He fell into her arms.
She shadow traveled him behind a column and shoved ambrosia into his mouth as quickly as she could without choking him. While it melted away under his tongue, she grew a wall of crystal to protect them. She hoped her purple crystals could withstand the concentrated strength of a giant, since the bright color would inevitably attract their attention.
“Please don’t be brain damaged,” she murmured, shaking Frank slightly to wake him. “Frank, come on. I love you. Wake up.”
He started seizing.
Her blood ran cold. She leaned over him, shielding him with her body, wishing she could transfer her invisibility to him somehow. He’d been left in the giants’ clutches too long. They’d hurt him. Or maybe it had happened when he’d fallen after she’d cut him down. She’d caught him, but he was a big guy; she wasn’t strong enough to keep him from hitting the ground hard when he fell.
Nico appeared next to her crystal cocoon.
“Haze, you’re taking too long,” he said, his image warped by the thick crystal wall between them. He looked jagged and purple and crooked. His forehead was streaked with ichor, which he wiped off with a look of annoyance. “Periboia got me with one of her pointy fingernails. I need support, or I can’t finish her off. Can you explode some crystals or something?”
He disappeared. She took a deep, shuddering breath in, and then out slowly. Frank’s heart was beating. He was breathing. She’d gotten ambrosia into his mouth, and he was lying still. He was alive. Whether he was okay… She probably wouldn’t know that for sure until he’d been seen by a doctor. Until then, she needed to do what was being asked of her.
She made a small peephole in the crystal and used it to scope out Nico’s fight. She couldn’t see him, since he was fighting invisibly, but she could see Periboia reacting to him, flinching and swatting here and there while she was bled to death from a thousand cuts.
Hazel encased Periboia’s feet in crystal, sending shards shooting upwards through the soles of her feet. Periboia was strong enough to wrench her feet out of their purple encasements easily, but she couldn’t remove the crystal that impaled her dragon-scaled calves from the inside. She stumbled, and Hazel waited until she’d taken a knee before detonating the explosion.
Crystal shrapnel embedded itself in every part of her body other than her head, which she shielded in the nick of time. Her flesh was shredded, her bones broken.
Somehow, she managed to stand again. She was a giant, after all. But Nico, finally appearing, moved too fast for her to stop him. He slashed at her arms, her legs, and then finally, at her neck.
She couldn’t dodge the blow; her mobility had been compromised by Hazel’s tricks. Nico took off her head in one quick, sweeping slice, and it thudded to the ground. Her body slowly dissolved in a haze of golden ash.
“Oh my god!” Nico said. “We did it. We killed a giant!”
A grin stretched his face. Hazel couldn’t find a smile with Frank lying limply at her feet, but she didn’t have time for smiling, anyway. Pounding, reverberating footsteps bounded up to them.
“My princess!” An enormous giant roared, crying to the heavens. His skin was green, his eyes pure white and full of rage. “No!”
He stomped directly on Hazel’s crystal shelter. The crystal shattered beneath the sole of his enormous scaly foot, showering her in jagged purple rain.
Hazel barely managed to grab Frank and shadow travel out in time. She quickly scanned her body for signs of injury, but she only had a tiny scratch on her arm. She rubbed the blood away with her shirt sleeve and watched until the bleeding stopped. She was flooded with relief; it was a graze, too shallow to pose any risk.
She saw Nico come face to face with the giant on his own, staring him down in spite of the massive difference in height. Nico looked like a frail toddler compared to the giant’s enormous muscled mass.
“Who are you?” Nico asked.
“King Porphyrion, ruler of the giants, enemy of Zeus,” Porphyirion crowed, brandishing a spear so tall it seemed to scrape the sky. “You just killed my daughter. Who are you?”
“Death,” Nico said. “Nice to meet you.”
Hazel couldn’t help but smirk from where she hid in the shadow of a low, crumbling wall. Nico was really something else. As he threw himself at Porphyrion, fighting with all the ferocity and recklessness of someone who was confident of their immortality, she realized that he was fighting in the daylight. Fighting Periboia, he’d snuck around in his usual way, invisible, intangible, striking where his opponent least expected. He was quite literally impossible to avoid, since he could be neither felt nor seen. He was inevitable as death.
Now he was fighting visibly, clashing swords with Porphyrion, sparks flying with a metallic clang that rang out across the battlefield. It meant only one thing. He was trying to distract the king of the giants so that Hazel could get away.
She watched for another moment, trying to see a way to help, but Porphyrion was larger and stronger than Periboia had been by many orders of magnitude. Nico’s blows landed like gentle kisses against Porphyrion’s twelve foot tall, indestructible frame. The giant king was designed to fight Zeus himself, and Nico wasn’t going to get anywhere against him on his own. Hazel grabbed Frank once more and disappeared.
She hid him in the theater of Dionysus, tucking his limp form behind a large block of stone. He had another seizure, and all she could do was hold him and wait for him to go still. Shadow travel seemed to be hard on him; she wouldn’t dare try it again. She prayed that the giants wouldn’t notice him behind the stone, since he was well out of range of the fighting. As luck would have it, just as Frank’s seizure ended, the Argo II appeared in the distant sky, casting its shadow over the bustling city of Athens. It would appear to the mortals to be a small cloud.
She grinned, and waved up at her friends eagerly. Their arrival meant air support in the form of Leo’s artillery and Jason’s lightning. She saw them waving back, and watched as Jason leapt into the air, speeding towards the Acropolis.
He was an inspiration. He knew how it would end, and yet he’d come. He was spending his second to last day on earth in defense of the gods. All he had to do was make a good impression and he’d be rewarded eternally.
She was relieved to see him. Although he still had time to take the Physician’s Cure, it seemed more likely than not that he would accept death when it came. She wondered where he’d put the bottle. Not knowing made her nervous.
If Jason was fighting, she needed to do her part, too, so she headed back up to the Acropolis. There was a certain buffer of comfort she’d taken advantage of, thanks to her ability to foresee impending death. That buffer was now feeling pretty worthless. Frank might have a traumatic brain injury. He might be suffering with brain damage for the rest of his life, and that life might be long. She prayed for a better outcome, but it was a painful reminder that life could be far crueler than death. She should have known better, but she’d gotten complacent. They should have been more careful, but it wasn’t the time for regret.
She wasn’t going to let anyone else get hurt. Her duty now was to make things easy on Jason and Leo. She was the invulnerable demigod, she was the leader of the quest, and she had a personal bodyguard in the form of her brother. Without a demigod’s help, not even one giant could be destroyed. There were so many giants that the top of the Acropolis was nearly as crowded as it had been on a normal day when it was full of tourists.
She had work to do.
Jason and Leo were in perfect sync with the gods; their timing was clearly fated. Just after they arrived, the Olympian host made their fashionably late entrance. Zeus parted the clouds dramatically and emerged accompanied by a crash of rolling thunder. A lightning storm began, localized directly above the Acropolis, and the acrid smell of ozone hung in the air. At the sight of his Nemesis, Porphyrion raised a war cry among the giants, and they stampeded toward the Olympians en masse.
Nico and Hazel found each other amid the chaos and both became invisible once more. There was no sense in advertising her presence, since Hazel would be the giants’ target the moment they set eyes on her.
A brief moment of quiet hovered in the instant before the gods and giants collided.
For the space of a breath, Nico and Hazel watched in awe. The might of Olympus was like nothing either of them had ever witnessed. The gods were armored in shining celestial bronze, armed with glowing magical weapons. Zeus brandished the master bolt, and Poseidon wielded his trident, summoning waves of seawater that he directed right at Polybotes.
Jason joined his lightning to his father’s, and the two of them attacked Porphyrion together. Right alongside them, Hera brandished her scepter, and a spear point emerged at the end. She, too, flung herself at the giant king, unleashing the wrath that she was famous for. Unexpectedly, Hazel found Hera to be the most intimidating god on the battlefield. Some of the gods looked bored, or like they were having fun and not taking things seriously. Hera looked like she hated her opponent more than anything in the universe.
Wreathed in wind and lightning, it was hard to see what was going on amidst the clouds that surrounded Porphyrion, but there came flashing glimpses of Jason’s silhouette backlit by lightning strikes. He soared through the air like a bird gliding on the currents. Wind spirits answered his call, attacking his enemies with howling fury, and his Imperial gold sword gleamed with reflected lightning.
“I’ve never seen him fight like that,” Nico whispered, watching him in awe. “I’m glad I got the chance to before the end.”
“Don’t get your hopes up yet,” Hazel said, worried Nico was about to get his heart broken. At any moment, Jason could still change his mind. “I know it looks like he’s accepted death, but it’s not over until it’s over.”
“I have faith in him,” Nico said. “Mostly. But we’ll worry about his fate when there’s not an army of giants in front of us. Right now we need crystals. Lots of them. Make a perimeter around us so that we can protect you. After that, we’ll use you the same way the gods used Heracles back in the day. Pepper the giants with arrows so that they all become vulnerable. Can you do it?”
“I’m not as good an archer as Frank,” she said. “But--”
They turned, hearing an ear-shattering victory screech. Demeter was standing atop the mutilated corpse of Erysicthon, fist pumping and doing a little jig on his ribcage. Persephone threw flowers in the air and took photos while Demeter posed, holding Erysicthon’s head up by his hair like a hunter would hold the antlers of a four point buck he’d just shot.
“What demigod helped her do that?” Nico asked, confused. “Jason’s busy. Did Leo fire the cannons?”
“No,” Hazel said, suddenly flooded with hope. “No, but I put a gem in his pocket. Do you think that counted as a demigod contribution?”
A cry of shock went up from more than a few of the gods and giants. Hades had appeared in the center of the Acropolis after removing his helm. He was staring down at Alcyoneus in surprise.
Alcyoneus already had dozens of gems woven into his beard and built into his armor. But Hazel caught sight of a familiar yellow topaz falling from his pocket as the giant crashed to his knees and then collapsed onto the ground, stone cold dead. His forehead smacked the ground with a reverberating thud.
“Damn it!” Poseidon shouted, still locked in combat with Polybotes. “I wanted to be first! Hades, you cheated!”
“Cheating? It’s called getting here on time,” Hades shouted back at his brother, “Is that cheating? You’re always trying to rob me of my due, Poseidon, but I will be taking credit for the first kill today--”
“I was done before both of you idiots!” Demeter shouted. She ripped off her sandals and chucked them at each of her brothers’ heads.
“You killed Periboia before the Olympians even got here,” Hazel muttered, resentful of her brother’s exclusion from the victory bragging.
“I’m not sure if I want to announce it,” Nico said. “Demeter might find another shoe to throw. Did you give gems to all the giants?”
“No.”
“Then try to shoot the ones you didn’t already get. Here’s a bow,” he added, magically producing one. “They’re big targets, and they won’t see you coming. Go for it.”
The rest passed in a blur. Literally, the world seemed blurry. For one thing, the Acropolis was dusty as all get out, and every time she passed near a giant, sand got kicked into her face. Zeus’s thundercloud made everything dark, and the thunder and lightning were alarming and disorienting. When the lightning strikes hit stones, they often exploded, adding to the chaos that her crystal explosions were already creating. As if that weren’t enough, Demeter and Persephone had left twisting, thorny vines growing everywhere before they’d gone on a Starbucks run. Gods, giants, and Hazels alike all kept tripping over them.
Poseidon had caused random torrents of seawater to spurt out from beneath the rocks seemingly at random, and Apollo and Artemis were firing arrows from all directions, posing serious risk to Hazel. Nico held tight to her hand every moment she wasn’t firing off arrows. As if that weren’t enough danger, Leo and Hephaestus were also blanketing the Acropolis with covering fire from above.
War games at Camp Jupiter hadn’t prepared Hazel for a battlefield of this scale, and the fight lacked the organization she was used to. Gods didn’t cooperate with each other well, and it showed when they kept running in the middle of each other’s fights and getting hit by friendly fire.
But Hazel was okay. With the gift of Achilles, every one of her arrows hit their mark. One by one, Nico escorted her to different giants on the Acropolis, nudging her into a safe, protected position. And one by one, she nailed the giants in the back with arrows. She never got hurt; she wasn’t even scared with Nico’s reassuring presence beside her. She hit each giant that she hadn’t already given a gem to. One by one, they fell to their godly opponents.
Zeus’ final blow against Porphyrion hit like a small atom bomb exploding. When the smoke cleared, the giants were gone. Porphyrion, their king and the strongest among them, had been the last to fall.
That second drop of female demigod blood had never hit the earth, and the ritual had not been completed. Nico had kept Hazel safe, and she had done her duty to him and to Olympus.
She really needed a nap.
“I think that was a new PR,” Artemis said, shrugging her bow onto her back. “We’ve never beaten Orion that fast.” The gods had gathered in the Parthenon for a debrief, and the competitive bragging session had officially commenced.
“It was also the most viewed livestream on Godstagram all year!” Apollo announced. Hazel noticed that he had a Go Pro strapped to his forehead. He spun around in the middle of the Parthenon, trying to get footage of the gods all lined up around the edges.
“You look like an idiot,” Ares said as he stormed up to Apollo. He was decked out in full combat gear with a World War II helmet on. He started trying to rip the camera off of Apollo’s head. “Take that thing off.”
“You’re jealous because I had more views!” Apollo said, slapping his brother away. On closer inspection, Ares did have a body camera built into his armor, with ‘#godofwar’ embossed on the back of his breastplate.
“Ares, leave him be,” Aphrodite said, slinking up to stand beside her boyfriend. She was wearing the same Lululemon set that Demeter had picked out, and Demeter was glaring daggers at her while she sipped her iced coffee in the corner. “You’re just upset Frank ditched you. I’m not happy about Piper either, babe, but demigods can’t be trusted.”
“That’s not true,” Nico said, stepping into the center of the Parthenon quickly. He took Hazel with him, maybe partly out of habit, even though she didn’t need his protection anymore. At least, she sure hoped not. Surrounded by the might of the gods, in full sight of everyone in the center of the temple, she was definitely not letting go of his hand.
“Frank was seriously injured just before the battle. We started the fight earlier than planned because he had to be rescued,” Nico said. “He was only hurt because he was brave enough to volunteer for reconnaissance. He made first contact with the giants. There were just too many for him.”
Earlier, she had felt as though Nico seemed dismissive of Frank’s injuries. Now it was clear that, as usual, he did care, even if he’d had other priorities in the moment.
“It’s true. Frank fought bravely,” Hazel said, finding her courage to speak up. “Don’t think less of him. He’d have gone into battle with us if he could have. Lord Ares, please. Is there anything you can do about his injuries?”
Ares shrugged.
“I’m not a healer,” he said.
“Surely there’s something you can do to make sure he’s able to fight again,” Hazel said. “He’s capable of more than this. He’ll prove that to you if you give him the chance. Please?”
“Hmm,” Ares said, scratching his chin.
“I’ll make sacrifices for you at Camp Jupiter for the next year,” Hazel said. “Daily.”
“Deal,” Ares said. “But he’d better impress me in the future.”
Hazel thanked him profusely, pouring the gratitude and humility on thick. Nico seemed to grow irritated by it, and she thought maybe he was jealous that he was going to have to share her religious devotion with Ares for a while. But maybe she was reading too much into Nico’s slight eyebrow twitch.
“Piper wanted to be here, too, but we insisted that she stay behind,” Jason volunteered, seeing that small mercies were being doled out. “It wasn’t her fault. Leo’s getting her now, she’ll be out in a second.”
It was the first time he’d spoken since he’d arrived on the Acropolis. He and Nico kept glancing at each other when they thought the other one wasn’t looking. It seemed like Jason felt a little bashful about fighting in the gigantomachy when he’d initially fought so hard to get out of it. It made Hazel want to giggle, because he and Nico were really just two doofuses in love.
Piper and Leo emerged from the Argo and ran out to the center of the Parthenon where the demigods were being addressed. Leo’s eyes were gleaming. He was eager to receive his godly recognition, although Piper looked like she was about to face a firing squad.
She shot Hazel a glance that revealed an edge of jealousy, which Hazel completely understood. She couldn’t imagine what a bitter pill it was to swallow to be excluded from victory in order to ensure it.
“Piper!” Jason said, seeing her approach. “Tell them--”
“I can speak for myself, Jason,” Piper said. She stood before Aphrodite and fell onto her knees, looking genuinely devastated.
“Mom, I’m sorry, but the team thought it was too big of a risk for me to come down here when the ritual hadn’t been completed yet.”
“Hazel managed to show up. She didn’t use her gender as an excuse,” Ares said. He flicked a finger, and Katoptris flew out of Piper’s hands to hover in front of her face. “You take after the owner of this thing. Did you enjoy watching your friends fight while you looked down on them from above, all safe and cozy? My son might be a vegetable for the rest of his life. You weren’t even here.”
Aphrodite, to her credit, took offense. She snatched Katoptris from the air and handed it back to Piper gently.
“Frank’s injuries aren’t her fault,” Aphrodite said. “Don’t project your disappointment onto my daughter. She feels bad enough already.”
Piper hadn’t known about Frank’s condition, and the news seemed to hit her like a truck.
Hazel knelt beside Piper and gave her a hug. She didn’t need to say anything to convey that there were no hard feelings. One thing about Piper: no matter the situation, she always knew exactly how you felt.
Athena approached the group of demigods, and Aphrodite and Ares both stepped backward. Including the plume on her helmet, Athena was well over eight feet tall, and walked with an ethereal grace and a silvery glow that was both beautiful and terrible to behold.
Hazel had forgotten that the Parthenon had been Athena’s temple of temples, but seeing Athena next to the other gods made it crystal clear. Here, she ruled.
“Piper showed wisdom in her restraint today,” Athena said, her voice deep and resonant with power. “She should be commended. Just as I believe my daughter Annabeth should be commended. She has united the camps and recovered the Athena Parthenos. She is responsible for the victory today in spite of her absence. Haven’t we evolved past a culture of presenteeism? War is more complex than the clashing of swords.”
“Fine. I won’t call Piper a coward,” Ares said. “But no credit where it’s not due. She is no longer eligible to be considered for godhood, since Frank isn’t.”
“That sounds like a reasonable compromise,” Athena said. She quirked her mouth, clearly triumphant, but trying to be subtle about it. Hazel realized that Athena was looking forward to Annabeth being raised up to godhood.
Although they’d all seen it coming, Hazel’s mind boggled at the concept. Annabeth was incredible, sure, but she was also very human, and deeply invested in her camp and her friends. Was she ready to leave it all behind? Would they even recognize her when she became a goddess?
“And what credit are you two due, exactly?” Nico said, pointing a finger at Aphrodite and Ares.
Hazel and Piper met eyes, cringing in unison. Nico really didn’t need to pour gas on the fire.
She pulled Piper to her feet, and they quietly stepped a few paces back to stand behind Jason and Leo. It was nice that Nico wanted to stand up for them, but every minute they stood around waiting for the gods to unpack the events of the day was a minute that Frank lay unconscious behind a rock. Gods didn’t get tired or hungry or thirsty, but they absolutely got irritated with each other. Without an external force to stop them, they might argue for hours, if not days.
“Ares, your giant counterpart is Damasen, and based on his Godstagram, he’s at Comic-Con right now,” Nico said. “And Aphrodite, if I remember right, someone else killed Periboia for you. Oh wait! That was me! So what exactly makes you two any different than your kids today?”
“Who do you think you are talking to me like that?” Ares shouted, his voice booming.
“Yeah, who do you think you are talking to my man like that?” Aphrodite echoed shrilly, which actually made Ares seem less intimidating.
“Who do you think you are, talking to my son like that? Bitch!” Persephone shouted, storming up to them and shoving Aphrodite in the chest.
Multiple divine heads turned to look at the commotion in the center of the Parthenon. To Hazel’s chagrin, Zeus and Hera began walking over to see what was going on.
“Mom, I’ve got this,” Nico said, looking embarrassed.
“Sorry, sweetie,” she said, stepping back. “Go ahead.”
Nico cleared his throat.
“I’m the quest patron of the gigantomachy,” he said, taking notice of Zeus and Hera staring at him. He stood up a little straighter and cleared his throat. “Hera put me in charge of the Seven. As far as I’m concerned, every single one of them has done an incredible job. Better than we ever had a right to expect from them. They were all willing to give their lives in service to Olympus,” he added, glancing back at Jason. “And I think their courage deserves to be rewarded. That’s my opinion.”
“Yes, it is,” Hera said, looking down her nose at him with a patronizing smirk. “Which is why it’s a shame that your opinion isn’t worth very much. I have been running these gigantomachies for millennia, and this was the shortest, least impressive battle we’ve ever had. I don’t see what you have to be so happy about.”
“But we won,” Nico said. “We beat the giants before the ritual was completed. We prevented Gaea’s resurrection. We went above and beyond what anyone expected of us!”
“Winning isn’t unimportant, but we do place some value on the entertainment factor, which was lacking this year,” she said, looking at Zeus. “Don’t we, dear?”
Zeus put his arm around his wife’s shoulders. Hazel did not like the sight of the two of them in complete agreement on something. Somehow it felt more dangerous than an army of giants.
“You make a good point, my queen,” Zeus said. “Nico even dared to take a few swings at Porphyrion before I had a crack at him. Was the intent to imply that I couldn’t handle him myself? Was it a dig at my capability? A swipe at my strength? One has to wonder.”
“He attacked me first!” Nico said.
“One has to wonder,” Hera agreed, ignoring Nico.
“Wonder away if you must. In the meantime, can we give my son the credit he deserves?” Persephone said. “We won because of him. Even you can’t spin that to be untrue, because we all saw it. We had the easiest war yet thanks to Nico and Hazel.”
“Meh,” Zeus shrugged.
“Most women understand that finishing quickly isn’t necessarily a good thing, Persephone,” Hera said. “Maybe you don’t know any better.”
“Ha!” Zeus said.
“I won’t even dignify that with a response,” Persephone said. She spun around, waving to get the notice of the gods still watching from the fringes of the Parthenon.
“Attention! Attention, everyone! I want a round of applause for my son Nico, the god who prevented Gaea’s resurrection and restored peace to the camps! Can I get a huzzah? Something? Come on, people!”
The confidence with which Persephone addressed the crowd reminded Hazel of something she often forgot. Zeus may have been the most powerful god, but Persephone was his oldest child, and the Queen of the Underworld to boot. Hazel wondered if there was anybody on the Acropolis with the guts to mess with her. Especially since Demeter and Hades were both standing on the edge of the crowd clapping forcefully and shooting dirty looks at the gods who didn’t join in.
“Hmph. I suppose I must concede,” Hera admitted, her mouth twisting as though she was fighting with herself to get the words out. The applause of the crowd was an effective method of putting pressure on her. “You, Nico di Angelo… Have not failed.”
“I’ll take that as a compliment,” Nico said, looking up at Hera defiantly, his arms folded across his chest.
“It wasn’t a compliment,” she said.
“I’m taking it as one. Thank you,” he added.
Hazel was proud of her brother’s response. Hera didn’t deserve the courtesy of his thanks, but he was unfailingly classy. Most of the time, anyway.
Hera walked away, effectively dismissing him. Zeus, too, turned around and followed her out. If Zeus wanted to give Nico the cold shoulder, maybe that was for the best. Hazel was immensely relieved that it was all over.
Zeus and Hera’s exit triggered some of the other gods to start clearing out, too, though a few hung around chatting. Nico glanced back at his dad, looking for his approval. Hades smiled, and beckoned Nico and Persephone over to the side of the temple where he waited in the shadows. The three of them reunited with a charming little group hug that had Hazel tearing up.
“I love you so much,” Persephone said, kissing Nico’s cheek.
“I’m proud of you,” Hades said, putting his arm around his son’s shoulders.
Even Demeter, Nico’s godly grandmother, ruffled his hair a bit.
“He’s lucky,” Jason murmured. He and the other demigods had found a spot under a broken column to sit and regroup. He was watching Nico, and there was a cold sort of emptiness in his expression.
Hazel knew how he felt, because she’d felt it before, too. There was a special type of pain that came from watching someone experience something you longed for, but could never have.
“So lucky,” Hazel agreed. In the depths of her heart, she prayed that someday she’d have her own family to share that sort of love with. It felt like a far off, half-impossible dream.
Unfortunately, not everyone found the Underworld family’s celebration as endearing as she did. She caught a few gods shooting them looks of disgust and scoffing. The negative reactions were masked forms of jealousy like the kind Jason felt, but uglier. When Hades told Nico he was proud of him, Apollo folded his arms and narrowed his eyes, curdling with envy. Dionysus looked like he needed a drink, and Hermes, in particular, looked murderous.
Hazel tried not to let it worry her. There was worry enough in her world already; it wasn’t her fault that the gods of Olympus had daddy issues.
“My dad split,” Leo said, looking stunned. “He didn’t say a word to me. We were good when we were on the Argo launching ballistic missiles together. Good ol’ father son time. But the second it was over, he disappeared. Not damn word about my petition for godhood. Guess I’m just not good enough. Guess he didn’t want me. Again.”
“It’s his loss,” Jason said, embracing Leo. “Forget it. We don’t need them.”
The hug surprised Leo, and he seemed uncomfortable, patting Jason’s back awkwardly until he let go.
“Hey. We stopped the ritual,” Jason said, looking at his friends one by one. “We don’t have to fight Gaea. Can we appreciate that for a second?” At this, he gripped Leo’s shoulder tightly, a brilliant smile on his face. Hazel hadn’t seen Jason looking so energized and happy in a long time.
A thought crossed her mind. Was he really this ecstatic at the idea of embracing death? Or was he planning something else now that the outcome of the war had gone better than expected?
Jason turned to look behind him all of a sudden.
A wind spirit had tapped him on the back.
As Jason stared at it in befuddlement, it started nudging him away from the Parthenon and towards the open area outside.
Hazel, Leo, and Piper went with him until they saw who awaited Jason.
Zeus and Hera stood on the edge of the Acropolis. The spirit was summoning Jason to their side.
After a worried glance in his friends’ direction, Jason went to speak with them.
Hazel, Leo, and Piper went back to their spot in the shadows. Night was approaching on swift wings, and the shadows were growing longer. Some god had lit torches that hovered in mid-air, making the ruined temple glow warmly. Ares was gone. Hazel hoped he was with Frank, healing him somehow.
Hazel sat on the ground and leaned against Piper. She was bone tired with worry and exertion.
“You had a long day,” Leo said.
“Probably one of the longest of my life. Both lives, actually,” she said.
“This ‘being a demigod’ thing is the worst,” Leo muttered. “It’s not fair.”
“You don’t think it’s fair? At least you got to fight.” Piper asked. She was flipping Katoptris in her hand, and a fleeting thought crossed Hazel’s mind that she might drop it and cut herself. But it seemed paranoid. They’d won the day.
“It’s not fair on any of us,” Hazel said. “But when is life ever fair to anybody?”
“Yeah, yeah,” Leo said, “Only death is fair. We know.”
Hazel laughed. She’d definitely been thinking that.
The sound of a loud throat clearing echoed in the Parthenon. She looked up. Zeus was back with Jason.
Zeus took his place in the center of the Acropolis, standing before the arrayed gods. All eyes were on him like he was about to announce something.
“I have made my decision,” Zeus said, his hand firmly fixed around the back of Jason’s neck. “Jason has begged my forgiveness, and I have granted it. He will become the next god of Olympus, in exchange for an eternity of service to me.”
“What? No!” Nico shouted.
Hades and Persephone both grabbed Nico immediately, preventing him from speaking further. Hades put his hand over Nico’s mouth, and Persephone started urgently whispering in Nico’s ear, trying to calm him down.
The expression on Jason’s face looked blank, almost as though he was unable to show how he really felt. Hazel knew that he hadn’t consented to the decision. Jason hadn’t drunk the Cure yet, so there was no reason for him to do this; if he wanted to live longer, he had the option to do so without Zeus’ interference. But whether he wanted to be a god made no difference.
No one could save Jason. Zeus was the king of the gods, and that wasn’t an empty title. It was a small blessing that his parents were preventing Nico from making things worse, but this was a devastating blow for him. He had not wanted this for Jason, and worse, Jason hadn’t wanted it for himself.
Hazel hadn’t applied to be a god, and Frank wasn’t around to care. But Piper and Leo were both looking at Jason with expressions of shock and betrayal in their eyes.
The gods didn’t seem to care. In fact, most of them had already left, and the stragglers hanging around seemed unsurprised, as though it were only natural that Zeus had betrayed their agreements and made his own son the winner by default.
There was only one goddess who seemed interested in challenging the edict of the king. Athena stepped forward, facing her father before the rest of the gods and demigods. Maybe it was the magic of the Acropolis, but she seemed taller and more fearsome than ever before, with her spear and her pure white dress both streaked with the ichor of her enemies.
“Dad,” Athena said. “My daughter Annabeth isn’t present. She was a candidate for godhood, too. We discussed this.”
Athena was trying to restrain her fury, but the tension hidden behind her hissing ‘we discussed this’ rang loud and clear.
“I know we discussed it, but I’m making an executive decision,” Zeus said. “We can talk about this at home.”
“I know you wouldn’t disrespect me on my most sacred ground, in my most sacred city,” Athena said. “I know you were planning on waiting for Annabeth to be here for the announcement, to evaluate her fairly on her merits before your final choice. You must have gotten caught up in the moment. It happens after a fierce battle such as the one we’ve fought today.”
“I’m fine, Athena. I know what I’m doing. Your test tube baby will have to wait until another spot opens up,” Zeus said brusquely.
Athena’s mouth curved upward in a calm smile. Hazel didn’t quite know what to make of it.
“Of course,” Athena said demurely. “I understand.”
She went over to stand behind the demigods, resting one hand on Hazel’s shoulder and another on Piper’s. Hazel froze like an ice cube had been dropped down the back of her shirt. Piper shuddered.
“It’s time for your deification,” Zeus said, gesturing at the ground. He spoke as though it was a mere chore he had to check off his list.
Jason knelt. He hadn’t spoken a word since the announcement. Could he even speak, or had Zeus sealed his mouth? Did it even matter? Nothing he said would make any difference now.
Nico seemed to realize the futility of the situation, because he wasn’t fighting his parents anymore. They still hadn’t let go of him, though. He could escape their grasp if he really wanted to, but then what? Hazel caught sight of Jason meeting Nico’s eyes, gently shaking his head, telling him not to intervene.
Zeus reached down to touch Jason’s forehead.
Piper let out a small gasp of pain.
And the earth began to shake as a single drop of blood fell to the earth.
Chapter 91: Death Smiles at Us All, All We Can Do is Smile Back
Notes:
For anybody who wanted a little more from Jason's death than we got in canon-- please accept this humble offering.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
For a few minutes, everything was okay.
They had won. The ritual was ground to a halt. The giants were dead. The fight was over.
Leo was going to live. And that meant that Jason could, too.
Standing on the Acropolis, watching the gods argue and engage in their usual interpersonal drama, Jason had experienced an odd, weightless sensation. The relief of knowing that Leo would be okay and that he was free to use the Physician’s Cure on himself had been a dizzying thrill.
It felt good, for sure. But it didn’t feel exclusively good. Because when he looked at Nico, his hot, rich, goth-adjacent, on-again-off-again, divine death god boyfriend, he felt something akin to disappointment.
Maybe that was just the simp in him talking. What could possibly be more intimate than letting someone suck your soul out of your body? And not in the euphemism kind of way. The real way. The way you didn’t come back from.
Of course part of him would want to do what Nico wanted him to do. When did Jason ever not want to do what he was told? That was the personality trait he’d been trying to grow out of. But that trait was still there, after everything he’d been through. Nico had spent a lot of time pouring pro-death propaganda into his ears. Was it surprising that some lingered, even when Jason no longer had Leo to use as an excuse?
But that wasn’t quite the reason he was disappointed about living. As Jason pondered, he realized that he’d done something pretty damn incredible, and he’d done it mostly on his own. He’d decided to sacrifice his own life for a friend. And he’d made peace with his decision. He’d accepted death.
When he’d first gotten his terminal diagnosis, he’d panicked. And he was pretty ashamed of how he’d acted at first. Quitting the quest, betraying Nico’s trust, snorkeling-- that wasn’t very Jason-like behavior. But he’d worked through it. He’d come out the other side, and he’d decided to die in the best possible way-- heroically.
But with the current circumstances, suddenly his personal growth didn’t matter anymore. They’d unexpectedly won a huge victory on the Acropolis, and he’d gotten a get-out-of-death-free card. But he slightly resented the opportunity to keep living. If he took the Cure now, he’d feel like a coward again after all the work he’d done to become brave. If he didn’t take it and he died, he’d feel like he was just doing it for Nico.
It had been an easy decision when one of the options had been self-sacrificial. When the heroic option was gone, the question was again narrowed down to ‘what does Jason want?’ And he still had no idea.
What did that say about him?
Well, he’d never know. And none of it mattered anyway. The second that his father pulled him aside and told him he was getting deified whether he liked it or not, he suddenly knew exactly what option he wanted. Inside his head, while Zeus paraded him in front of the assembled gods in the Parthenon and announced his impending deification, he kept thinking over and over, ‘Just let me die, please just let me die, somebody kill me right now because I do NOT want to be stuck with my dad forever.’
Zeus had sealed his mouth shut to stop him from protesting, so he couldn’t speak his thoughts aloud. But he’d been thinking them extremely loudly.
Just as he’d started coming to terms with the new season of American Horror Story that was his life, Athena had made Piper cut her hand on Katoptris. Nobody had actually seen Athena do it, but come on… Obviously it was her.
And Gaea rose. She didn’t physically emerge at the Acropolis, but she definitely woke up somewhere. You could tell from the earthquakes and sinkholes that immediately rocked Athens, causing utter chaos to erupt in the streets. Car alarms went off, windows shattered, people screamed. A tour bus full of tourists crashed into a gyro cart, spilling delicious sliced meats onto the sidewalk.
It was decided that the demigods would need to head to Camp Half-Blood as soon as possible. Zeus had volunteered to throw the Argo II across the Atlantic, and nobody had wanted him to do it, which caused him to be dead-set on doing it because he didn’t like people telling him what to do. Before Jason had time to think about what had just happened, he was tossed on board and launched at breakneck speed through the air. The remaining demigods, Jason, Piper, Hazel, and Leo, strapped themselves to the mast and watched the ship that had been their home all summer disintegrate in a whirl of flames around them.
There would be no time to process. They didn’t have time to call Annabeth and Percy to give them a heads up they were coming. Jason would never even get a chance to think about the fact that, holy shit, he’d been an inch away from becoming a god. They were fighting Gaea the second they landed, and that brief moment of peace on the Acropolis would probably be the last peaceful moment Jason would ever get.
Also, Frank got left behind in Athens, so he’d never see him again. Jason couldn’t even remember the last thing he’d said to the guy. He’d been forewarned about all of this, he knew he was reaching the end of his thread, but the moments still seemed to slip right out of his hands like sand through the cracks in fingers. The harder he held on, the faster they disappeared.
Moving without hesitation, Leo walked straight through the flames on deck to reach the control panel, heedless of the fact that they were hurtling through the air at a magically enhanced speed. He actually strolled relatively slowly, taking in the painfully slow dismemberment of the ship that had been his life’s work so far. First the door came off the hold, sending furniture rocketing out into the ether. Then the floorboards started popping up. The mast cracked, and the bow was barely holding together.
It was tough to watch the Argo II falling to pieces, but the east coast of the US was approaching fast, and there was no time to dwell.
“A captain always goes down with his ship,” Leo declared, shouting to be heard over the roar of air rushing past. He was comically filthy, covered in ash and grease, but he appeared to be in his element that way. “Time to bail, guys! Hurry up! I’ll be fine!”
Hazel gritted her teeth, nodded to the others, and shadow traveled away. Jason had a tight grip on Piper. As the Argo II started descending, he cautiously began to fly upwards, until they were standing still in midair and the Argo II was falling below them. They watched it grow smaller as it spun toward the earth.
Leo had this part covered. As Jason and Piper hovered, the Argo II erupted in a burst of flame larger than before, the entire ship self-immolating. The gleam of bronze was blinding in the sunlight, and Festus emerged from the wreckage, Leo perched on his back triumphantly.
Jason and Piper both let out a cheer as Leo soared through the air.
“You have it, right?” Jason asked, as he flew Piper down to the ground. He landed them in the strawberry field safely, and they watched what remained of the Argo II disappear over a hill in the distance.
Piper nodded. She unzipped her fanny pack. There, tucked amidst the emergency ambrosia, the first aid kit and some mini water bottles, was the green bottle of Cure.
“Shit. We should have given it to him earlier,” Jason said, as Leo soared overhead on Festus.
“It’s my decision who I give it to,” Piper said defensively.
“I don’t want it,” Jason said. “You heard my dad. I don’t want to become a god, and what if he doesn’t change his mind later? I can’t risk it. Please do the right thing, Pipes.”
She bit the inside of her mouth. She didn’t respond.
The earth shook beneath their feet. The dirt of the field began churning like a washing machine. They frantically sprinted out of the way as a vaguely female shape began to rise from the earth in front of them.
“She’s here,” Jason said unnecessarily. The incredible power that Gaea emitted was nauseating, and his knees nearly buckled. At any moment, they could be dragged beneath the earth and suffocated to death.
Hazel stood behind him, appearing silently out of thin air. Her hair was grey with ash, and her designer workout clothes were stained with blood. It had been late evening when they’d left Greece, and she’d been at the Acropolis since early morning. Zeus had essentially yeeted them back in time, because it was still daylight in the US, but that didn’t give her any energy back. She looked spent.
“There you guys are,” she said with relief. “I figured you’d be near the epicenter. We’re not safe down here for long. Are we activating the ‘Worst Earth Day Ever’ protocol?”
That was the name for Leo’s kamikaze plan. Jason and Piper exchanged devastated glances. Not only did the plan essentially guarantee Leo’s death if he wasn’t Cured, it also was the only choice they really had. Leo was up in the air, flying around Gaea’s weird sinkhole situation, clearly acting on the plan independently of the team.
Stupid, self sacrificial Leo. Jason loved that kid way too much to let him fight and die alone.
“He doesn’t have to go through with it,” Hazel said. “I have the curse of Achilles,” she said. “I can challenge her on the ground—the earth listens to me too. Kinda. In any case, I’ll hold out longer than anyone else. If you guys need me to buy you time for another quick strategy session, now’s the moment to ask.”
“No,” Jason said. He took a deep breath, then drew his shoulders back. His hand went to his stomach, where the gold sword had penetrated. He felt no pain-- but he felt something else. Death’s cold presence. The end approaching. And fear-- lots and lots of fear.
He wasn’t letting fear rule him anymore. He was making his own decisions.
“Hazel, you’re an amazing leader. You’ve stood strong when I’ve run away. You’ve been courageous, and I’ve mostly just been a coward. But I need a chance to redeem myself, and you need a chance to live. Today, this last day? It’s mine. And Leo’s. He and I-- we’re the ones meant to do this. Storm and fire.”
“I’m coming, too,” Piper said. “I got left behind once already today. That’s not happening again. This is my fault. Not that I’m admitting to cutting myself, because Athena made me do it. But the blame will be on my shoulders anyway. Anything I can do, I want to do. Even if it isn’t much.”
“The plan involves Jason and Leo fighting in mid-air,” Hazel said. “If it didn’t, we’d all be part of it. Percy and Annabeth and Reyna are fighting the legion right now, trying to stop Octavian and limit civilian casualties. Camp is full of dead and dying children right now. There’s more to be done aside from fighting Gaea directly--”
“She’s coming,” Jason said, knowing he’d betrayed Piper too much already. “If she says she can help, I trust her.”
“Fine,” Hazel said, as the earth shook once more beneath her feet. “I’ve got to go help the campers. We think we can provide ballistic support if we take one of the Roman onagers.”
“Best of luck, Hazel,” Jason said. “Give everybody my love.”
“Good luck, Jason,” she said, her voice cracking. “I wish I could tell Leo--”
He hugged her. He didn’t cry. There wasn’t time. For now, he rejoiced that he was able to do something for her. He felt better now that the end was beginning than he had in a long time. There was a freedom in knowing it was all going to be over soon, and he only had to fight this one last battle. He could do it.
“He’s here,” Hazel whispered into his ear. “He’s waiting for you.”
“I know,” Jason said. It was like he could feel it. Nico was watching him. He was going to take him, and it wouldn’t be too much longer. He was determined to face him with courage when the time came.
“Your life force is insanely strong,” Hazel said, turning to look at Piper. “Don’t be scared, alright? You’re going to see tomorrow.”
Piper nodded. Her face was so expressive, she couldn’t hide her fear-- but it wasn’t fear for herself.
The goodbyes were done. Jason saw a light on the horizon.
It was the magic bronze dragon-- Festus. He was soaring through the sky, breathing fire, a glorious display of magical technology.
Festus dove at the ground just as the figure of Gaea emerged. He snapped at her, and she snapped back, narrowly missing him. Jason saw Gaea flinch as a series of explosions set off right on top of her. It seemed that Festus had merely feinted an attack in order to drop off some gifts.
Leo was too good for his own good. Jason was newly determined to make sure his friend made it out alive.
“She’s hurt. Let’s go!” Jason said, grabbing Piper and launching into the air.
They flew up to Festus while Leo was stopped to observe his handiwork. On the earth below, Gaea writhed in agony.
“Guys, it’s time,” Leo shouted over his megaphone. “I’m calling it. I’ve got to grab her. Now or never.”
“Never!” Piper screamed. “Never, Leo! We’ll find another way!”
Jason flew as close as he could get to Festus without burning himself into ash. The heat buffeted his face in radiating waves of smoke and acrid heat.
Leo was in his element. His body was aflame from head to toe, and he was tinkering with the controls on the bronze dragon like an ADHD fueled tornado of mechanical engineering brilliance. There was no fear or hesitation in his demeanor.
“Please evacuate the blast zone,” Leo said, winking at them. “I’ve got this, guys. Trust me. You’ve got to let me do my thing. I’ll be okay. Nothing to worry about.”
Tears streamed down Jason’s cheeks, and they had nothing to do with the smoke in his eyes. Leo was still trying to protect his friends, even now, moments before death. It gave Jason the courage he needed to face his own end. He was ready.
“Now, Pipes,” Jason said quietly, nudging her. “Give it to him. It’s time.”
She glanced back at Jason, the expression on her face impenetrable.
“Please,” he said.
In spite of the fact that she loved him, Piper looked him in the eyes and nodded. She reached into her fanny pack and took out the glass bottle of Cure. She’d wrapped it in bubble wrap securely, but the green potion glinted inside, shining through the plastic.
This was it. That Cure had been his only chance at life. And Jason was saying goodbye.
He carefully dropped Piper onto Festus’ back. She had a fireproof hair clip, so the heat didn’t affect her, although Jason was limited in how close he could get.
She went up to Leo and pressed the bottle into his hands. He stared down at it, his expression blank with shock.
Jason needed to end this quickly. He didn’t want to. He didn’t want to rush anything today, knowing it was his last chance. But he was getting burned, and Gaea could escape at any moment, and he still needed to get Piper onto the ground.
“I love you, dude,” he said, grinning at Leo through tears. Leo stared at him. There was no way Leo could know that Jason was about to die the following day, on August first. Jason was heavily medicated, so his symptoms had been masked for weeks. He didn’t want Leo to know the full significance of the gesture until it was over and done with, too late for him to protest.
“Being your friend was one of the best parts of my life. You showed me how to be a hero. Thank you.”
“What?” Leo asked weakly, still staring limply. It was like the wind had been taken out of his sails. Jason almost regretted throwing him off his game at the last second, but it had to be done in order to save him.
There was no point dragging it out. Explaining would take more time than they had. He flew underneath Festus, and Piper jumped into his waiting arms.
Tears were falling from her cheeks, but she was silent. Her face was stony, like she was trying to hold back a flood of emotions. Jason held on extra tight, realizing that she was trying to stay strong for him. She wouldn’t give in to grief until Jason was gone, and that wasn’t happening quite yet.
He flew out of the blast radius with all the speed he could muster, soaring into the wind, holding onto Piper tightly. A countdown started, but they flew out of hearing range of the timer after ‘nine.’ It was counting down.
Leo would be on Festus with the Cure, waiting until the timer hit zero, and then he would drink the Cure just in time for the potion to be in his mouth when his body was destroyed. It would re-write his fate and extend his life past the expiration date.
Suddenly, Gaea seemed to catch on that something was up. Maybe she’d heard the countdown, and she’d already been hurt by Festus once; her hackles were raised. She began spurting huge gouts of dirt and jettisoning boulders at Festus, forcing him to dodge.
“He can’t grab her,” Piper said. “I think I can help. Can you get us closer?”
Not if Gaea could see him, he couldn’t. Jason used every last ounce of power in his body to create the most dangerous lightning storm of all time. Electricity blasted Gaea’s form, wind whipped her. Festus started sparking and started firing electrified hunks of metal at her.
“The lightning won’t hit us,” Jason said. “Just keep hold of me. We can sneak up on her. I’ll get us through the storm.”
Leo used the cover to creep closer as Gaea was distracted by the storm. Jason flew on the hurricane force winds, holding Piper tightly. As they got closer to Gaea, Piper signaled for him to put her down.
That seemed insanely risky, but in the moment, he decided to trust her. He dropped her beside Gaea.
Piper started talking before she hit the ground. She used Charmspeak, murmuring things to Gaea that Jason couldn’t hear. But it worked. Gaea’s rage quelled, and she grew sluggish and dazed.
Just before the timer hit three, Festus made it to the eye of the storm. He snatched Gaea up in his metal jaws and dragged her into the sky, separating her from her source of power.
Pulled out of the earth, she looked more like a woman who’d just popped out of a mud bath than a terrifying earth creature. Jason let the storm subside.
When they reached the ground, Jason fell to his knees. He clutched his chest, a feeling of deep exhaustion overtaking him. He looked up to the sky and saw Festus carry Gaea into the atmosphere high above, burning like a meteorite traveling the wrong way. As the fiery blaze ascended, another projectile came soaring over the trees, smacking straight into Festus and Gaea.
“They got the onager working,” Piper said, sounding disappointed. She had every right to be. She’d just watched Leo and Festus disintegrate before her eyes.
Ash and charred bits of metal peppered the earth like shrapnel. Jason and Piper ducked, covering the backs of their heads, and he summoned the wind to blow the metal bits away from them. When they looked up, there was no sign of Gaea anywhere. And no Leo.
They sat on the ground in the strawberry field, both breathing heavily, and fell into a heavy silence.
Leo had exploded. Well, that didn’t mean he was dead. He may have been blasted elsewhere by the force of the explosion. Would he be back? Was he lying in a ditch somewhere, his wounds being knitted back together by the magic of the Cure, even now? Maybe he’d hitchhike back to camp in a few hours serendipitously.
There was no guarantee he’d been able to use the Cure, but Jason had total faith in Leo. He wouldn’t have let Jason’s sacrifice be in vain. No chance.
“Hazel will know if he made it,” Jason said.
“It might be too soon to be sure,” Piper replied.
A dull ache was radiating through Jason’s torso. It had started a while ago, but he had been able to ignore it. That was becoming harder.
“I think my pain potions are wearing off,” Jason said, wincing.
“How bad is it?” Piper asked, panicking. “Here, I, um… I have one here for you,” she said, digging through her fanny pack. Her hands were shaking as she undid the zipper.
Jason reached out and stilled her hands, twining their fingers.
“I’m okay. Save it for later,” he said. “I think the potion Nico gave me was timed to last until the first. It’s just starting to fade now. What time is it?”
She looked at her watch.
“It’s seven,” she said, swallowing.
Jason clenched his teeth. If how he was feeling was any indication, he was already starting to fade. When Eros had said he was destined to die on the first, he hadn’t been kidding. Jason was probably going to be done by 12:01 AM.
“Death must really want me,” Jason said, smiling at the ridiculous, ironic, and often cruel joke that was his life. “He can’t even wait for sunrise. I guess I should be flattered.”
“How can you make a joke at a time like this?” Piper said weakly. Her breathing was shaky and shallow, like she was on the knife’s edge of breaking down sobbing at any moment. That was understandable. They had no idea whether Leo had made it or not, and Jason was already going downhill.
“I guess its just my indomitable human spirit,” Jason said. It wasn’t a wholly true statement. His spirit was whiny and self-pitying. In this moment, he was channeling Leo. He hoped with all his heart that he would live and be happy. Picturing it made things easier. “Where are we right now? I don’t want to get up unless I have to.”
“You’re hurting that badly?” She asked. She dug her hand around in her bag again, but he shook his head.
“I’m just tired,” he said. “I’ve been tired for a long time. I want to save my energy.”
She stood up and looked around them.
“We’re in the middle of a random strawberry field. No one will find us anytime soon. Do you think you can walk back to camp?”
“If I have no choice,” he said. Sitting up felt like it cost him energy he wouldn’t be able to replenish. His tank was nearly out of gas, and he was running on fumes. Summoning that storm had been necessary, but it had cost more than he’d realized in the heat of battle.
Hecate had really worked wonders with the painkiller potion. Up until now, he’d been able to ignore all his symptoms. But they were creeping up on him now, slowly but surely, like Persephone’s vines poking up from the soil and wrapping around his limbs, pulling him down into the soft earth to sleep forever.
Piper pulled him to his feet, and he leaned on her as they began the long, painfully slow trudge back to camp, which was recognizable in the distance based on the plumes of smoke rising above the treetops and the sound of screams echoing over the hills. Gaea’s defeat and the return of the Athena Parthenos should have ended the conflict, but perhaps it was unrealistic to expect murderous teens to work out their differences immediately.
Jason wanted to give the campers a wide berth. He didn’t have the energy to deal with Piper’s emotions at his impending demise, let alone the feelings of a bunch of campers who knew him mostly by reputation. There would also be other dead demigods, perhaps others wounded and dying. He didn’t want his unwanted celebrity to distract from anyone else’s plight. He knew he was nobody special, and he didn’t want that misconstrued.
The only reason he walked toward camp at all was because he knew Reyna was there, and he didn’t expect her to be able to find him in a random spot in a field. Better he go to her, rather than force her to frantically search.
He had become accustomed to Piper’s grief, her sniffling, her quiet, the whiff of resentment she gave off at all times. But Reyna’s sadness would cut like a knife. He would need to make this as easy as possible for her. Just because he was ready to die didn’t mean she was ready to lose him.
As they walked across the soft, wet rills of soil in silence, a slow and ominous thudding noise became audible. The earth shook as something large and heavy approached, moving quickly at first, and then slowing as it grew closer.
Jason and Piper froze, fearing that they’d missed something. Was Gaea somehow back? Jason’s heart sank, thinking of what that would mean for Leo. He couldn’t fight again. Some part of him knew that, even if he tried to summon the wind, it wouldn’t answer. He was too weak to do more than put one foot in front of the other, in spite of the deceptive lack of pain he felt.
Then he sniffed the air. It was a familiar warm, animal scent. It awakened something in a deep recessed corner of his mind, an instinct from a long time ago.
“What the hell is that?” Piper asked.
Jason felt hot tears start spill from his eyes. He stood in place, grinning so widely that the tears ran into his mouth. He laughed as he tasted their saltiness, not caring if Piper thought he’d lost it.
“It’s her,” he said. “She came. For me.”
In a thousand years, he would have never expected this.
Lupa had come.
The enormous gray wolf who had been his foster mother appeared in the misty forest, seemingly walking out of pure darkness. On her back rode two small female figures-- one a young girl, and another a young woman. Both clung to the fur of her back like baby opossums.
Lupa walked forward on her massive paws, each step shaking the earth not with real weight, but with power and ancient magic. She walked up to Jason.
He fell on his knees in front of her, unable to control his weeping. Tension uncoiled from his body like a spring unwinding. He was caught so off guard, he didn’t know how to react, and so he could only cry and laugh and smile like a fool.
Her hot breath snuffled at the back of his head, and her wet nose nudged him on the shoulder. He looked up and wrapped his arms around her muzzle.
She smelled like home. She smelled like his mom.
“I thought you’d forgotten about me,” he said, looking into one of her large yellow eyes.
“I never forget a pup,” she said, speaking without speaking. He heard her voice in his mind, deep and strong and reassuring, though her mouth didn’t move.
The two figures slid down from her back, landing in front of him on the ground. One rushed to him immediately, while the other hung back.
Reyna flung her arms around Jason and held him tightly. She didn’t speak. They’d been reunited before it was too late; that was all that mattered now.
The young girl approached. It was his sister Thalia.
“Hey, little bro,” Thalia said, her arms folded awkwardly. It was confoundingly strange to have an older sister that looked like a young teen. The age difference was more remarkable in person.
Reyna backed off, and Thalia kissed Jason on the cheek, kneeling to reach him. She stepped back again afterward, looking at Reyna. It was clear she knew better than to intrude on them. They had a lot to say to one another, and very little time left to say it.
Reyna helped Jason climb onto Lupa’s wide, soft-furred back, and Thalia and Piper followed behind as the small convoy walked to Camp Half-Blood.
“Feeling okay?” Reyna asked, keeping her arm across his back supportively.
“Just weak,” he said. “Tired. I never expected to see Lupa. It’s been so long,” he added, running his hand across her back. Her body was warm, and he felt her muscles moving beneath her skin as she moved with deliberately long and gentle strides toward camp. She was trying not to jostle him, which he appreciated.
“I have a confession to make,” Reyna said, stroking her braid nervously. She looked tired and wracked with confusion and contradictory feelings of being both happy to see him and devastated to be seeing him for the last time. “When you told me that there was a chance your afterlife would be downgraded for impiety, I freaked. Losing you would be-- will be,” she added with difficulty. “Hard enough. But thinking of you in Asphodel just made me sick. You deserve so much better than that. Even Octavian will be in Elysium! You can’t let him show you up after what he did.”
“Even Octavian? Didn’t he betray the gods?”
“He fired himself out of a catapult at Gaea by accident,” Reyna said. “Long story. It doesn’t matter. I wasn’t sure how to get Lupa to come out here. I thought it might be too much to ask, so I told Thalia, and she got right on it.”
“You two did this together,” Jason said. “That’s amazing.”
“It’s the least we could do,” Reyna said. “You always said the gods all let you down, or asked too much of you. I was pretty sure there was an exception to that. And she’s here.”
“I’m so sorry, Lupa,” Jason said, leaning towards her big, fluffy ear. “I didn’t realize you counted as a goddess. I guess I was wrong.”
“I hardly know what a goddess is. I’m a wolf,” Lupa said, stating the obvious. “I’ve never claimed to be otherwise.”
“Thalia checked with Artemis,” Reyna whispered into his ear. “She counts.”
Jason leaned forward and pressed his face to Lupa’s back, letting her scent bring back memories. He’d been three when she’d taken him into her den, and she’d nursed him alongside her pups like he was no different than any other. The immediate trauma of his own mother’s abandonment had been softened considerably by Lupa’s consistent care and her immediate acceptance of Jason into her litter. She was swift to correct her pups, but her love was never so tough that he hadn’t known it was for his own good. She would do anything for her pack, and she’d raised him into a warrior who was expected to do the same.
As Jason closed his eyes and felt her soft fur against his face, he flashed back to long nights in the chill dark of the Wolf House. She’d kept him safe. He’d had a home and a mother for as long as he’d needed it. And she’d left an indelible impression on his psyche.
The problem with the Wolf House was that once you left, you couldn’t really go back, at least not without a good reason. Lupa wasn’t sentimental enough to accept social calls, and Jason had begun a new life at Camp Jupiter as soon as he’d left her side. He’d simply been too young to appreciate what she’d done for him.
But he knew now.
“You are my pup, and you have done your duty. You have my blessing on your journey to the afterlife,” Lupa said. She crossed the river that ran through the woods, splashing cold water onto him and Reyna as she jumped to the far bank. “Whatever that is worth.”
“It’s worth everything,” Jason said. He’d had his fill of godly patrons lately. He would never tell her, but even if she hadn’t counted as a goddess, he’d have been just as happy. To have a mother-figure that cared enough to be with him in his final hours-- even a mother as unconventional as her-- it was healing a part of him that he’d long ago accepted would remain broken forever. “Thank you, Lupa.”
He sat up and drew Reyna into his arms for another hug. He pressed his face into her hair. It smelled like smoke and blood and ash.
He knew campers on both sides would have died that day, fighting each other or fighting Gaea. But he’d know who they were soon enough. All he wanted now was to share space with the people he loved for one last time, to breathe the same air for a moment longer. Because they’d meet again, but it wouldn’t be in these bodies, it wouldn’t be on this soft earth. They’d never look out at the growing dusk and see the stars with these eyes.
“I love you,” she said. “You’re the best friend I’ve ever had. There will never, ever, be anybody I love as much as you.”
He could hear the pain of impending loss starting to overwhelm her. He squeezed her as tightly as he could, but he found the strength in his arms insufficient. She was holding him up more than he could hold himself.
He tried to think of something to say, but he decided to let her words hang in the air. What the hell did words matter? They each knew what the other was thinking. They knew what would happen. Reyna was going to feel however she needed to feel once he was gone. In the meantime, they’d hug.
As Lupa entered the camp, he realized that she was tall enough that he couldn’t really be identified from below. All around, campers knelt as she passed, the Romans in deference to her, and the Greeks out of fearful respect. He heard Annabeth’s voice, and Percy’s answering her. It was good to know they were safe and together. Undoubtedly they’d fought valiantly to defend the camps, and they would have a lot of work ahead of them to rebuild.
“Do you want to talk to Percy and--”
He cut Reyna off before she could finish speaking.
“Not right now,” he said.
Reyna didn’t push the issue.
It seemed as though the campers were scattered in clumps across the grounds of Camp Half Blood. He heard loud, shouted arguments near the pavilion and a few cheers going up around the Ares cabin. The Apollo cabin had a field hospital set up outside of it. Everyone fell into a hush when Lupa approached, then went back to what they were doing once she’d walked away.
Jason wasn’t looking around much, so when Lupa knelt to let him and Reyna slide off her back, he was taken by surprise. She had taken him to the Zeus cabin.
He stood outside, leaning on Reyna, hesitant. This was where he’d stayed when he’d last been at Camp. His stuff was still in there. Thalia even went in first and opened the door for him; it had been her cabin too, once, long ago.
But he wasn’t that person anymore.
“I don’t want anything to do with that cabin,” Jason said. “Or the person its named after. I’m done.”
“Jason,” Thalia said, looking concerned. “I know he hasn’t been good to you, but he’s still our father. Where else is there to go?”
He didn’t begrudge her the defense of Zeus. She’d be dealing with him for eternity, after all, at least occasionally. But when he said he was done, he meant it.
“Zeus tried to make me into a god without my consent,” Jason said. “Respectfully, I’d rather die in a dumpster.”
Thalia winced. He’d used the D-word. He was comfortable with it – Jason had put a lot of hours into worrying about death, and he wasn’t planning on wasting any more time on it. But Thalia probably had a lot of unanswered questions. What was he dying of, could it be prevented, was there something they could be doing to slow it down. And of course, the obvious question—why did he seem weirdly fine with it, both physically and mentally?
He wasn’t going to answer her questions. He cared for her, but he didn’t have time to spare on her feelings.
“Come into the forest,” Lupa said, nudging him. “We will find a cool, damp hole for you to breathe your last in.”
Reyna made a soft noise of concern.
“I know where I want to go,” Jason said.
He took the lead, and the others followed him.
They did end up walking into the woods, as Lupa had suggested, but not very far.
The Hades cabin existed on the fringes of the horseshoe shaped ring of cabins. Placed off to one side in the shadow of the trees, it went mostly unnoticed and unused.
Hazel was already there. To Jason’s surprise, Frank was beside her.
“Ares dropped him off,” she said, as Frank embraced Jason in a massive bear hug. “He’s all healed up. Isn’t it wonderful?”
“I am so happy to see you,” Jason said, “You’re hurting me a little, though.”
Frank let go, flushing with embarrassment.
“I’m sorry. Hazel told me you’re not doing so hot,” he added, unsure of how to broach the subject.
“I’m mostly just tired and a little achy,” Jason said. “Nico’s got me all drugged up. I’m okay.”
“I had a feeling you’d come,” Hazel said, opening the door for him. “It’s all yours.”
Everyone went inside except for Lupa, who didn’t fit through the doorway. Jason turned to her.
She rested her snout atop his head.
“You sacrificed much for your pack,” she said. “You brought glory to Rome. And most of all, you found courage where others might have lost hope. I have never raised a warrior quite like you, Jason Grace. Perhaps I never will again.”
He smiled, and she licked his hair, causing it to stick up awkwardly on one side.
“Remember, you carry my blessing,” she said. “No pup of mine will be robbed of their due rewards. Especially not one I cherish so much as you.”
“Thank you, Lupa,” Jason said tearfully. “This is more than I ever expected from you. I wish I had time to repay you somehow.”
“Repay me? Do not insult me,” she said. “You owe me nothing, Jason. You have spent your whole life making me proud.”
He wrapped his arms around her neck and held onto her for a long time, trying to memorize the way she felt and sounded and smelled. As he remained beside her, he felt old emotional wounds healing, like little tears in the fabric of his heart stitching themselves up.
After all those years bound to the service of Jupiter and Juno, he’d lost sight of his beginnings. He’d loved Rome because Lupa had taught him to love Rome, to see it as his home and the Romans as his pack. But he’d been so young under her care. As the years passed, memory faded.
Being with Lupa felt like time had wrapped around on itself like an ourobouros, the beginning coming back to greet him at the end. There was one more thing he needed to do to complete the full-circle moment.
“Thalia,” he said, turning to his sister.
Her eyes were shocking blue, the contrast heightened with her red-rimmed eyes. She scrubbed her hands through her short cropped hair nervously.
“Yeah?” She asked.
“You don’t have to stay,” he said, trying to let her down gently. “But I want you to know that I love you. Thank you for everything.”
She got the picture; she was being asked to leave. For a second, her face twisted in a mask of sadness and regret. Surely she’d bear guilt about this for a long time, about not being close enough to him to merit a place at his deathbed.
He hugged her.
“You’ve always protected me,” Jason said, feeling generous enough to give her more credit than was really due. “But I’m ready for this. I’ll be okay. I’m not scared.”
“You’re so hardcore,” she said gruffly. “You’re way more badass than me. How the heck did that happen?”
“I’m just cool like that,” he said, thinking that it was what Leo would have said.
“Heh,” Thalia said quietly. “Small favor? I know it’s not appropriate, but I’m gonna live forever, so I need it to be you. Can you…” She sighed. “This is bad of me to say. I know.”
“Just spit it out.”
“When you get down there, can you figure out why mom did what she did?” She asked. “Like in detail? I’ve never had the guts to summon her and ask.”
“You’d rather summon me and ask?” He said.
“Yeah,” she admitted bashfully.
He took a second to reel at the fact that he was already making posthumous social plans with him. She was right; it was obnoxious of her.
“Okay,” he said, realizing he’d made the right call telling her to leave. “Sure. Not like I won’t have time.”
Thalia seemed relieved to hear his agreement, but her request had cemented his decision to keep her out of his hospice environment. She and Lupa, to their credit, left without any further ado.
He went inside the Hades cabin. There was only one small twin bed inside, obviously never used before.
“Sorry, Hazel, I didn’t think about the fact that you need a place to sleep tonight,” Jason said. “Am I stealing your room?”
“Oh, hush,” she said, fluffing the pillows.
The inside of the cabin was deathly silent, and dark as the inside of a cave. No natural light came in; there were no windows, and the door shut with an ominous, heavy slam.
“It’s too dark in here,” Piper said. “No windows? Seriously?”
“You sleep better without light,” Hazel said.
Jason wasn’t there to sleep. He was there to die. There was something awkward about the situation. He was supposed to just, what? Lay down on the bed and sit there for the next four hours while everybody cried?
He really, really could use a nap. But he wasn’t tired enough or sick enough to ignore the fact that no one seemed to know what to do.
Hazel caught his eye. She sensed his uncertainty. She sat on the edge of the bed and patted the spot beside her.
Jason joined her.
“I wanted to let you know that Leo isn’t dead,” she said. “I can’t confirm 100% that he’s doing amazing, or that he won’t die later from his injuries. But he’s not in the Underworld right now.”
“Oh my gods,” Piper said, clapping her hands to her mouth. “He really did it. He found a way.”
Jason wasn’t sure why she chose to phrase it like that. ‘Found a way’ wasn’t the same as ‘I handed him a potion that would ensure his survival and he must have drank it’. But Frank burst into manly tears of relief, so everyone was distracted trying to comfort him.
“We can’t lose two people,” he said. “We just… Oh, man,” he said. “Sorry. I’m just… I lost my grandma recently. I’m still wrecked over it.”
“I’m sorry,” Reyna said.
“Yeah, we can’t find her anywhere. She turned into a bird and flew out the window. Can I do something? Get some chairs or something?”
“Yes, please do,” Hazel said, pushing him out the door.
Once he was gone, Reyna leaned against the wall, and Piper joined her, though they weren’t fans of each other.
“Frank is really supposed to be resting after his injuries. He was just dead set on being here for you,” Hazel said.
“It’s really okay. I know he cares,” Jason said. “Send him to the Apollo cabin to help. They’ll make him rest whether he likes it or not.”
“I will,” she said. “Is there anything you want to talk about? I think you’ll continue to get increasingly tired as it gets later.”
Hazel was very insightful; Jason could feel exactly that happening, his weariness increasing with every passing moment.
“What should I expect?” He asked.
She took his hand, his lips curling upward in a gentle smile. It wasn’t one of amusement. Just pure faith.
“I’m not sure exactly,” she said. “But I don’t think it’s going to hurt. It might even be pleasant.”
He smiled. Why was he smiling? He was dying. That was so weird. But in the dark of Nico’s cabin, with his loved ones by his side, he felt safe. It had been way too long since he’d felt safe.
Leo was okay. That meant Jason was okay with not being okay.
“And after?”
“It’ll be like everybody says,” she said. “The Styx. Charon’s boat. I have your coins ready,” she added, pulling them out of her pocket. She pressed two drachmae into his hand. They were warm bronze circles embossed with Athena’s owl. “The water can be really choppy, but that’s normal. You won’t fall out of the boat. Charon’s actually super nice. Tell him I said hi.”
“He’s not scary?”
“Not at all!” Hazel laughed. “He was always kind to us shades.”
He didn’t want to hear any more. Thinking about being a shade was too much. He had enough to reckon with.
“I brought a book,” Reyna piped up awkwardly. She took a paperback out of her tactical backpack. “I wanted to give it to you for your birthday. So much for that.”
When she went to hand it to him, he grabbed her wrist and tugged her down to sit beside him. Hazel got up to give them space.
“Meditations, by Marcus Aurelius,” Jason said. “That’s so you.”
“We read this in high school. Do you remember it?”
“Remember our Roman history teacher?”
“That snobby old Lar? The one with the combover?” Reyna asked. “He was always calling on you for the easy questions. Trying to make the son of Jupiter look good.”
“That was annoying,” he agreed. “Do you think I should come back as a Lar? Serve Rome some more?”
“Only if you want to, or if Rome is in great need. Thomas seems to be enjoying himself.”
“Not to hang out with you, though?” He asked, amused that she was implying he was obligated to return for Rome’s sake. He was pretty sure he and Rome were square. Lupa had said so, after all.
“I don’t want to think about it,” Reyna said.
She rested her head on his shoulder for a while.
Frank came in with the chairs and set them up. Hazel sent him to the Apollo tent, claiming they needed extra help.
“Bye, Frank,” Jason said, as he headed out the door. “It’s been an honor. New Rome is lucky to have a leader like you to look forward to in the future.”
Frank looked startled.
“Wow. Thank you. That means a lot coming from… Wait, how bad are you feeling? You don’t look that sick.”
Frank was the one who looked bad, in fact. He did really need to go and rest.
“Don’t worry about me. Just go help the medics,” Jason said. “They need you more. We’re good, buddy.”
Frank left, unaware that he wouldn’t be permitted to return. Jason was satisfied it had been a decent enough goodbye. He didn’t want any drama.
Hazel settled into one of the plastic chairs and pulled a ball of yarn and a crochet hook from her bag. Reyna pulled a chair up next to the head of the bed, and Jason went ahead and laid down. His exhaustion was creeping up on him.
“I highlighted stuff,” Reyna said, opening the book.
“Read me your favorite parts,” Jason said, as Piper sat next to his feet. She perched like a nervous bird, trembling. He wished she wasn’t feeling so bad, but it was his own fault for dying.
“It’s not my favorite parts, it’s the parts I thought you’d find helpful,” Reyna said. “I just wanted… You know.”
Her emotions seemed to come in waves, one moment overwhelming, and the next peaceful. Hazel passed her a tissue.
“Sorry,” she said, sniffling.
He stroked Reyna’s hair affectionately. He hoped Piper wasn’t jealous. He wouldn’t bring it up, but it would really bother him if that came up now, of all times. But she stayed quiet, so maybe it was a non-issue.
Reyna started reading.
“Don't look down on death, but welcome it,” she said.
“Wow. Just jumping right into that, huh?” Jason asked. “Kind of on the nose.”
“Don’t interrupt me,” Reyna said. “Ahem. Don’t look down on death, but welcome it. It, too, is one of the things required by nature. Like youth and old age. Like growth and maturity. Like a new set of teeth, a beard, and the first gray hair. Like sex and pregnancy and childbirth. Like all the other physical changes at each stage of life, our dissolution is no different. So this is how a thoughtful person should await death: not with indifference, not with impatience, not with disdain, but simply viewing it as one of the things that happen to us. Now you anticipate the child’s emergence from its mother's womb; that's how you should await the hour when your soul will emerge from its compartment."
She shut the book.
“That’s it?” Jason asked.
“I love that one,” Hazel said. “Thank you for sharing, Reyna.”
“Well, I thought you’d like it, Jason,” Reyna said, tearing up. “Guess not.”
Jason wondered why the girls seemed relatively touched by the quote while remained unimpressed. Then he realized. Marcus Aurelius was only saying what he’d already accepted deep within himself. Funny how enough time meditating on death did eventually get you to a place of acceptance.
He wondered how he’d feel right now if he had not been forewarned. Would he have used his time as wisely?
He settled deeper into the pillow, pulling the blanket over himself. Not moving made him feel colder. It was hot outside, but the cabin was chilly.
“I’m sorry, Reyna. I’m not in a quote mood right now. I’d rather hear your words, not someone else’s.”
Her expression softened.
“But mine aren’t as good,” she said.
“They are to me,” he said, coughing. “Ugh. Can I have some water?” He asked. Something had changed. He wasn’t feeling so hot.
“I’ll go get some,” Reyna said, standing up so fast she knocked her chair over. “Stay here,” she added.
“I’m not going to run away,” Jason laughed weakly. She had meant ‘don’t die until I get back,’ and they both knew that. But it was easier to pretend otherwise.
She left in a hurry. It was sort of a relief to have her gone. Her emotions weighed on him, and he felt a small temptation to ask everyone to get the hell out and leave him to die alone. It was a funny impulse. He’d been so afraid of this process before it had actually started happening. The idea of experiencing it without his friends by his side was unbearable. But now, in the thick of it, he was becoming too tired to care. He was forcing himself to stay awake so that they could keep talking, but he’d run out of energy a long time ago. He just wanted to let sleep take him. He didn’t care that he might never wake up. His eyelids were too heavy.
He pictured Thanatos and Hypnos standing at his bedside, maybe arguing about something, poking and prodding him, waiting on him to succumb to their advances. It struck him suddenly that the twins really might be there. For a second he thought he could see them, draped in grey silk, their wings occasionally buffeting small wisps of air to brush his face.
But he was probably just imagining things.
“Here,” Piper said, standing by his side. He hadn’t noticed her approach his bedside.
She was holding a mini water bottle. She pressed it to his lips, and he took a sip gratefully. The water partly ran down his chin, but he drank a few decent swallows before she pulled it back.
“I’m good now,” he said.
“You should finish it,” Piper said, her voice shaking.
“I’m okay,” he said. “Thanks.”
She looked down at the water bottle like it had betrayed her somehow. She lifted it to her nose and smelled it, and then tentatively took a sip.
“What the fuck,” she whispered.
“Huh?” Jason asked.
“No,” she said, starting to hyperventilate. “No! Shit! No!”
“Piper, what happened?” Jason asked again. Before Piper could answer, Hazel had stood up from her chair, tossed her crochet to one side and grabbed Piper by the arm.
Hazel dragged Piper out of the cabin and shut the door behind them. The two of them spoke in considerately low and quiet tones for a few beats, but the tone of the conversation changed, and they started shouting. Jason’s heart started to pound as fast as it could, which at this point wasn’t very fast. It sounded like the girls wanted to kill each other.
Hazel came back in, her expression just as placid as it had been before.
“What the heck was that?” Jason asked. He coughed once, then again, and then he couldn’t seem to stop coughing. It was kind of scary, because he worried he’d cough himself to death.
Hazel sat with him, perched on the side of the bed, until he was able to breathe again. She used the sheet to gently wipe his mouth. He saw that the white sheet was stained with blood.
“Uh oh,” he said roughly.
“I hate to tell you this, but I think you’re dying,” Hazel said.
He started laughing, which made him start coughing again. She gave him some more water.
“That was a good one,” he muttered, trying not to overuse his voice.
“Thanks,” she said. “Don’t worry about the thing with Piper. She’s just overwhelmed. I told her not to come back. I hope that’s okay.”
He nodded.
“Yeah. I could tell she was having trouble coping. I’ve put her through a lot already. We didn’t really say goodbye, though.”
“I don’t think bringing her back is a good idea,” Hazel said. “She’s not herself. I’m sorry if that’s disappointing.”
“If it’s what’s best for her, it’s fine,” Jason said, okay with letting it go. He was too tired to fight Hazel on this one.
Reyna came back in with a large refillable water bottle and some ambrosia nectar in a little vial.
“I thought maybe you’d like this,” she said, showing it to him. “I know it can’t fix the poisoning, but… It would make me feel better to see you try it.”
He took the water from her and downed the vial of sweet golden liquid. It tasted like chocolate brownies, fresh strawberries, and that first kiss with Nico, the one so good he’d thought he was dreaming.
“Where’s Piper?” Reyna asked.
“She needed to step out,” Hazel said.
“Why do you look so cheerful?” Reyna asked, settling back into her seat at Jason’s side.
“Me? Sorry,” Hazel said. Jason turned to look, and saw that she was stifling a smile.
“Seems kind of inappropriate,” Reyna said. She looked like she might never smile again. Jason couldn’t help but prefer Hazel’s expression, though he knew Reyna couldn’t help it.
“I’m sorry,” Hazel repeated emphatically. “I’ve just been thinking about how different my first death was. I really hope my second can be like this.”
“What happened the first time?” Reyna asked.
“My mother and I were drowned in oil,” Hazel said. “I don’t recommend it.”
“I’m sorry,” Reyna said, turning away from Hazel. She caught sight of the bloodstain on the sheet and scrunched her eyes shut.
“Do you have any more advice for him?” She asked. “For the other side?”
“None that he needs,” Hazel said. “He’s done everything right. He’ll be fine.”
Reyna took some reassurance from that, but not much.
“Jason, it’s almost ten--”
“Don’t talk about the time!” Reyna snapped. “Please,” she added.
“Do you want me to call Percy and Annabeth in here? Or anyone else? Piper’s probably told them what’s happening.”
Jason shook his head.
“I just…” He trailed off. He wasn’t that close to them. They had parted on good terms. He didn’t want to have to talk to anybody else.
“You don’t need to explain,” Hazel said. “Do you want me to go?”
“Stay,” he said. She stayed in her chair, her legs pulled up under her body.
It was relaxing, and a little hypnotic, to watch her crochet. The chain grew longer and longer, expanding one link at a time, going from plain string into an intricate pattern.
“You look like a Fate,” Reyna said. “You’re just missing a rocking chair.”
“Really? I guess that’s a good thing. Maybe.” Hazel said. “They spin thread, though. Crochet is an Athena thing. Annabeth taught me.”
“I suck at stuff like that,” Reyna said. “It’s all fiddly. I’m more of a blunt force person.”
“You like bonking stuff on the head,” Jason said.
Reyna reached out and bonked him on the forehead. She pulled it at the last second, though, so it was nothing more than a gentle tap.
“Bonk,” she said.
“That was more of a bink,” Jason said, chuckling.
“Shut up,” Reyna grinned.
“You don’t know her like I do,” Jason said, looking at Hazel. “This girl used to beat the crap out of me sparring at Camp Jupiter. I left with bruises every day. I can’t believe it took me literally dying to get her to pull a punch.”
Reyna laughed a little, but it faded into a sound almost like a whimper. She wiped her eyes, then leaned forward and clasped Jason’s hand in her own.
They didn’t speak for a moment. Words didn’t feel adequate.
Jason had been trying to avoid regret, but holy crap, he regretted not hanging out with her more. And they’d hung out a lot, but it just didn’t seem like enough. If he could do it again, he’d do it differently. He’d realize sooner that he’d found his person. He’d quit wasting time with people he only kind of liked, and he’d spend every goddamned second he could squeeze out of life at her side. He’d have married her, and it wouldn’t have mattered that they didn’t want to sleep with each other. She was his soulmate.
There was a funny twist of fate there, he realized. Because he had never really intended to marry Reyna. They’d talked about having a platonic marriage, but he’d always hoped to find a more traditional romantic partner to do that with. He’d wanted to experience the high that everyone said love was.
Well, he’d gotten that experience, and it had been an adventure. But he still wanted to eat Cheerios with Reyna in the morning. Much as he adored him, he didn’t want to split a chore wheel with Nico, or gods forbid make a grocery list. Reyna was the one he’d wanted to do life with, and she’d always been that one. But he’d figured it out too late.
He held her hand as tightly as he could. Now wasn’t the time for what-could-have-beens. Now was the time to make the last memories they could make, and he didn’t want them to be complicated. Holding hands was perfect.
“I got to know Thalia pretty well while you were in Europe,” Reyna said. Her voice was trembling, like she was scared to admit what she was about to say, but at the same time she seemed to be trying to pass it off as a lighthearted remark. “She reminds me of you.”
“Really?” Jason asked. “We’re very different.”
“It’s the little things,” Reyna said. “Her eyes. The way she say certain words, her habits… Stuff you wouldn’t even notice. I think she really liked me. She asked me to join the Hunters.”
Behind her, Hazel’s hands stilled on her yarn. She caught Jason’s eye warily. She didn’t want him upset by anything, and Reyna was implying something with that statement.
“What did you say?”
“Nothing,” Reyna said. “It’s crazy. I could never. I need to join you in Elysium someday, so I can’t be immortal. Imagine. Me. Immortal. Ha! Crazy,” she said, unconvincingly.
She was obviously a little compelled by the idea. Jason actually could see her as a huntress quite easily. She had always been a warrior and a leader both, and she was old for a huntress. It seemed like a natural fit for her to be an older sister to a group of young women who shared her interests-- as well as her lack of interest in certain things.
“You should look into it,” Jason said.
“But—”
“Don’t worry about joining me,” he said. “We’re not going to be forbidden from seeing each other just because you join them. That’s what necromancers are for.”
“That’s me!” Hazel said.
“I guess,” Reyna said, wiping tears of relief from her cheeks. “Okay. I was worried you’d be upset. I didn’t commit to anything yet. It’s just hard to picture what the future looks like without you in it. And Camp is a mess, and I’m getting too old for the legion. I can’t go back to college,” she added, a little frantic.
“You should finish,” he said.
“I can’t go back without you. I’m done,” she said. “The Hunters are the best idea I have.”
“I get it,” he said. “Just don’t rush into it. Take your time.”
“Yeah,” she said. “I won’t.”
“You always did say you wanted more female friends,” he said, making her smile.
He closed his eyes. The exhaustion was getting too intense to fight off anymore.
“Jason?” Reyna asked in alarm.
“I’m so tired,” he said.
“If he needs to sleep, let him sleep,” Hazel said, keeping her voice calm and gentle.
Reyna let go of his hand and stroked his hair.
“Okay. If that’s what you need,” she said reluctantly. “I love you, Jason.”
“Love you, too,” he whispered, before sleep took him.
He drifted on dreamy clouds, imagining he was flying through the air. It was a beautiful bright blue morning, and he was soaring over Camp Jupiter. Down below, all his friends were looking up and waving.
He waved back. He saw Reyna with the huntresses, with Thalia and Artemis, and she was smiling up at him. He saw Percy and Annabeth, happy, still together, and Frank and Hazel holding hands. Piper blew him a kiss, and Leo flipped him off, smiling in his same old cheeky way.
And below, the kids of Camp Jupiter were playing. It wasn’t war games, but normal games. They were playing kickball. And the balls weren’t on fire, they weren’t biting armadillos, they were soft plastic. Far off in the hills, a pack of wolves was running. They caught sight of him and howled in unison.
He saw Olympus high above him, gleaming golden on top of a mountain of clouds. But he was more intrigued by what he saw below. Down on the ground, there was a small, dark opening in a hillside. Standing outside of it was Nico.
He waved at Nico. He couldn’t remember ever being more thrilled to see him-- and he was always thrilled to see him, so that was some stiff competition. Rather than wave back like everyone else, Nico beckoned to him.
He flew right down into Nico’s arms, knocking him backward, almost making him lose his footing. Nico just laughed, holding him tightly. His cold embrace had never felt warmer.
“There you are,” Jason said.
“Here I am,” Nico said. He took Jason’s hand, and they stepped backward into the darkness.
Blackness engulfed them. There was a brief moment of disorientation, a whoosh of sudden solidity. Jason realized his feet were now quite thoroughly glued to the earth, and he could hear the crunch of gravel beneath his footsteps, and the rush of water in the distance.
He looked around for a moment, confused.
Nico slapped him playfully on the shoulder.
“See? Now was that so bad?”
Notes:
Jason's death felt like it took forever, but when it was over it happened fast. Thanks to everyone who's made it this far. My commenters make my day every single time.
Don't worry! Death is not the end! No new chapter next week since I'm on vacation. But look forward to the next chapter - The Judgment of Jason Grace!
Chapter 92: The Judgment of Annabeth Chase
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“See? Now was that so bad?” Nico asked.
Jason looked around, his eyes glassy and his mouth hanging slack. He possessed all the naive charms of the newly dead, and Nico was smitten. Shades were so cute when they were fresh.
“That was it?” Jason asked, his voice muffled like he was speaking through a fluffy blanket. He’d never sound the same as he once had. It was bittersweet, but Nico wouldn’t grieve. He was looking forward to learning the new Jason, and seeing how he was both different and the same.
“That was it? Is that all you have to say about your own death?” Nico bounced on his heels, buzzing with professional pride. If Jason hadn’t noticed he was dying, he’d done his job perfectly.
“I thought it was a dream,” Jason said, looking at him with his brow furrowed, like he was still puzzling out where he was. “It felt like falling asleep. Is it always like that?”
“Not usually,” Nico said. “You fell asleep, and then you died in a dream. It was a tricky piece of technical work on my part, making it seamless like that. You’re welcome,” he added.
“Thank you,” Jason replied automatically. He clearly wasn’t taking in everything Nico was saying, but it was normal for him to experience some disorientation at this stage of death.
He wouldn’t be able to remember much at the moment, but Nico recalled every detail. He’d hovered over Jason on his deathbed like a mother over her newborn’s crib, supervising his every breath. He’d seen how Jason went to his end fearlessly and without pain. He knew he’d succeeded, against all odds, in giving Jason Grace the ending he deserved.
A light thud sounded behind them, the echo of wood clunking against stone.
“Charon’s here!” Nico said, leading Jason by the hand into the boat. Charon had arrived just on time, and he tipped his wide brimmed hat to Nico and Jason with a friendly wink of one desiccated eye socket.
“Hi, Charon,” Jason said politely. “Hazel told me you were nice.”
“He’s the nicest,” Nico said. “See? You’ve already got this place figured out. You’re going to be huge hit in Asphodel-- not that I’m hoping you stay there for long. Anyway, get ready. The welcome wagon has been preparing all day.”
“The welcome wagon?” Jason seemed unsure of what to make of that.
Jason gripped Nico’s arm tightly the whole boat ride, and Nico tried to keep up a low level of comforting chatter to keep him from worrying.
“You know, it’s normal to feel nervous,” he said. “I know it’s hard to make sense of this place when you first get here.”
“I’m not nervous,” Jason said, leaning against Nico. “I know I’m safe with you. I just can’t seem to remember anything that happened before. Was I supposed to lose my memories?”
“You haven’t lost them. You won’t unless you drink from the Lethe,” Nico said. “Your mind is going to be fuzzy until you get judged. Depending on what section you get placed in, you’ll unlock a slightly different level of cognitive functioning. But it might be better not to think about that right now.”
“I can’t think very well anyway. But that’s okay,” Jason said. “I know you’re looking out for me.”
All shades trusted and obeyed Nico implicitly. He always had a great rapport with them, but it was extra special when it was someone like Jason.
“It’s hard to believe this day has finally come,” Nico said. “It’s been a long road for us, hasn’t it?”
“Mm,” Jason said, staring at the faces in the water. He didn’t remember the long road at the moment. “Are we dating?”
Nico laughed out loud.
“So you remembered that, huh?” He said.
“I think so,” Jason said, looking up at him hopefully.
“We were dating,” Nico reminded him gently. “But things will be different now. Down here, I’m a prince, and we don’t really know what you are yet. There’s still stuff to figure out.”
He didn’t want to say it out loud, but he wasn’t a fan of dating shades. He and Minos had ultimately worked a lot better as friends, and he figured the same was likely to be the case with Jason. But it didn’t really matter either way. Nico was becoming human soon. He didn’t know what kind of a shade Jason would turn out to be, and he didn’t really know who the new Nico would be, either. Anything was possible.
When Charon pulled the boat up onto Asphodel’s narrow gravel beach, their vessel was met by a horde of jostling grey shades, pushing and shoving in attempts to see the boat’s occupant.
“Guys, back up,” Nico said sternly. “You’re gonna knock somebody into the Styx if you keep roughhousing. Dakota, I thought I told you to keep everyone calm.”
One of the shades maneuvered his way to the front of the crowd. It was Dakota, one of Jason’s good friends from camp, whom Nico had accidentally murdered. In fact, he’d murdered most of the shades present. Luckily that was all water under the bridge now.
“Sorry, Lord Nico,” Dakota apologized, shining with the glow of Elysium in his face. Residents of the Elysian fields always looked like people who'd just gotten back from a really good beach vacation. “We got too excited.”
Dakota turned around, and the duller shades crowding him all took their cue to back up from the boat. As an Elysian, he had a few more brain cells to work with than the Asphodelians, and so they looked to him for example.
“Everybody, on three!” Dakota shouted, in his loudest shade voice, which sounded like a bird with laryngitis.
“Welcome, Jason!” Resounded the whispering ghostly chorus, all of them raising their pitifully weak voices. They made an eerie, windlike sound that would strike terror in the hearts of the living, but there were no living humans present, so it sounded fine to everybody who was actually there.
As soon as Jason stepped out onto the gravel, Dakota gave him a hug. Nico watched some color return to Jason’s face as he remembered who Dakota was, and took in the faces of his old friends and comrades surrounding him.
“So you died, huh?” Dakota said. He smiled like he didn’t have a care in the world, because he didn’t. “Look on the bright side. We don’t have to take Philosophy 201 with Dr. Johnston next semester!”
“I don’t remember what that is, but it doesn’t sound like something I was looking forward to,” Jason said, giving out some high fives to the group. Before the last high five, he hesitated, pulling his hand back.
Octavian had approached in silence, sidling up from the riverbank, but there he stood, nearly as freshly dead as Jason himself. They both took a few seconds to recognize each other, but shades were drawn instinctively to people they knew. After a pause, recognition struck both of them at the same time.
“Octavian. You’re here?” Jason asked in confusion.
“He’s fresh off the boat just like you, Jason,” Dakota said.
“I’m here,” Octavian said. “You were killed by Gaea, I assume?”
Jason frowned.
“I don’t remember,” he said. “How did you die?”
Octavian shrugged.
“No clue.”
They two of them had died on opposite sides of a war, fighting as enemies, but they didn’t remember that at the moment. Octavian invited Jason to join him in the judgment line, and the two of them stood together to begin what looked like a very long wait. Neither of them could recall any reason they weren’t still friends, and they were comforted by each other’s presence.
The line of shades wound all the way down to the water, wrapping around itself a couple of times in the process. Charon and his boat had already gone to make another trip, meaning more souls were coming shortly.
The line was made up of the usual steady traffic, old people and accident victims, but there were more demigods waiting for judgment than Nico had ever seen before. He saw shades of young teens and tweens leaning out of the line to get a look at Jason, all of whom had probably died in the gigantomachy earlier that day.
“Jason, I need to let my father know you’re here,” Nico said. “I’ll be back before you’re out of this line. It looks like it’ll be a while.”
“You’re a ruler down here, right?” Octavian asked, raising a single ghostly eyebrow skeptically. His encounter with Jason had refreshed his memory a little more than Nico would have preferred. “Weren’t you and Jason lovers? You’d think you could scrape together a fast pass for the guy.”
Even dead, Octavian knew how to push people’s buttons. Nico leaned in close, looking Octavian right in his glassy blue eyes, and watched him shrink back, going extra transparent with fear.
“You’re new here, so I’ll cut you slack just this once. But if I ever hear you, or any of the rest of you,” Nico added, pointing at the other New Roman shades, “Imply that Jason is getting special treatment from me down here, it’s going on your records as insubordination. I don’t give out fast passes, and I can’t put my finger on the scales of judgment. What I can do is punish naughty shades who talk back to me. I can put your souls in a can of baked beans and shake ‘em all around. Is that what you want? You wanna go in the baked beans?”
“No, Prince Nico,” the shades intoned in unison, trembling violently.
“That’s what I thought,” Nico said, satisfied. “Jason, I’ll let you catch up with your friends. I don’t want to make it look like I’m prepping you for the judges. I’ll see you when it’s your turn?”
Jason gave him a thumbs up.
Nico turned toward the palace, cutting through the throngs of shades and making a beeline for the narrow stone staircase that led to the palace balcony. As he walked, Thanatos appeared overhead, sweeping low over the fields on his cloud-colored wings. As he flew, the shades turned up their faces to watch in awe as death passed them over.
Thanatos landed in front of Nico, taking his hand and walking alongside him.
“Jason is much cuter now,” Thanatos said.
“Right? Doesn’t he make such a good shade?” Nico gushed, practically swooning. He’d been trying to be cool about it, but Jason’s shade had a special aura that was really growing on him.
“When I first met Jason, he made a decent first impression,” Thanatos said, beginning to walk up the stairs. “But he was so reluctant to die! It was very hurtful,” he added, pouting. “But now that’s over with, I think he’ll be a model shade. You must be proud. His death was a thing of beauty.”
“You really think so? Thanks. That means a lot,” Nico said. “I was just imitating you, really. Your deaths are like works of art.”
“Well, you know, I try,” Thanatos shrugged modestly. “I collected a few drowning victims the other day, all underwater. The timing’s hard to get right with the currents pulling the bodies this way and that. But I digress. Are you ready to become human today? Did you decide on a time? Persephone is coming to do it, right?”
Nico took a deep breath as they reached the balcony. Glancing over the side, he could still see Jason in line, chatting to his old dead friends happily. He saw Bob in the distance, his white hair making him stand out in the crowd. He was taking Cerberus for a walk using a leash made from a massive iron chain.
“I’m ready to be human,” Nico said. “I think. Hopefully the changes are minimal. At least I know if I’m totally miserable, Persephone will be happy to undo it.”
“I’m sure it will be fine,” Thanatos said. “I’ll be with you. We’ll make the best of it together.”
“We will. And you know, this means that Jason will be the last soul I’ll ever take. That’s a nice note to end on, right?”
“Of course. I was looking over the numbers today,” Thanatos said. “The souls you took may have been filed under my name, but I know the difference. You collected an incredible amount, considering that you were trying to keep it a secret. Though you got a bit sloppy towards the end.”
“But that doesn’t matter anymore, right?” Nico asked. “Once I’m human, can’t we just tell people the truth about what I am? I mean, was,” he corrected himself. “What I was.”
Thanatos gave him a blank look.
“No,” he said flatly.
“Oh,” Nico said.
“I can’t admit that I accepted help from you willingly. It makes me sound as though I need help, which I don’t. If the truth ever does come out, I’ll have to say that you went behind my back and took those souls without permission. And that would result in a stolen divinity charge, which I’m sure neither of us would ever want to happen to you.”
“No. We wouldn’t want that,” Nico said, feeling thoroughly put in his place. As tough as it was to hear, Thanatos was being pretty fair to him, all things considered. Nico had been really pushy about being allowed to take as many souls as possible, and he’d always known that Thanatos’ patience would have its limits. “Well, thanks for letting me steal your divine purpose for so long and being cool about it.”
“I was very cool about it, wasn’t I?” Thanatos said. “I was never cool about anything before I met you. It’s evidence of my profound devotion, which will now be rewarded!”
Nico tried not to take Thanatos’ apparent joy at his re-humanization too personally. There was nothing he could do about it. He’d need Thanatos forever now.
They walked into the palace, where Hades was in his office, hunched over his laptop screen.
“Boys!” He said, beckoning them over. “Hurry, listen to this.”
“Hey guys,” a familiar voice said on the laptop speaker. “Themis here, coming at you live from Olympus. On today’s special episode of Justice Junkies, I’ll be reporting to you live from the scene of Nemesis’ trial. She’s been convicted of colluding with the giants. For those of you who may have forgotten, she also colluded with the titans a few years ago.”
Themis turned her phone around to show Nemesis standing in front of Zeus and Hera’s thrones. She had her arms folded petulantly, and looked bored.
“Really?” Zeus asked her. He looked more tired than angry. “Again?”
“I had to get revenge for last time,” Nemesis shrugged. “You know the drill. I’m the goddess of vengeance. This isn’t complicated.”
She held out her hand, her wrist held upwards.
“What are you doing that for?” Hera asked, leaning forward to look at her arm.
“Go ahead and slap it,” Nemesis said.
Hades chuckled.
“Never gets old,” he said, turning up the volume. They watched as Nemesis was assigned community service for a month as punishment.
“She got off so easy,” Nico said with disappointment. “If I’d done what she did, I’d be thrown into Tartarus so fast it would break the sound barrier.”
“Our mother protects us from Zeus and his petulant fits of temper,” Thanatos said proudly. “We are older than the Olympians. We don’t have to do anything they say unless we want to.”
“Perhaps, but you are still technically my employee,” Hades said, muting the video once Zeus started talking.
“Only so long as my mother wants me to be,” Thanatos said, flipping his hair. “She’d never let you punish one of us, though. No matter how severe our crimes.”
“There are exceptions to everything, Thanatos,” Hades said, spinning around in his chair. “I sensed Jason’s arrival. You’re not watching his judgment?”
“He’s at the back of the line,” Nico said. “I wanted to make sure he’s getting treated the same as all the others.”
“Good,” Hades said. “I know its tempting to interfere, but we have to keep up appearances. If this place isn’t fair, what separates us from the Olympians? There’s no point in living if we can’t feel superior to them.”
“I understand completely,” Nico said. “Did you, um… Decide on a time?” He couldn’t quite get the words out to ask about his re-humanization.
Hades avoided his eyes, turning back to the screen.
“We can discuss it after Jason has been judged. I know you were looking forward to seeing the outcome.”
“Thanks, Papa,” Nico said, relieved. Hades didn’t look away from the screen. “Hold on, is that Annabeth?” Nico blurted out.
On screen was a tiny image of a young black woman with only one arm. Nico leaned in closer and made out the forms of Piper, Frank, and Leo all standing beside her. Zeus and Hera were always extra big on their thrones, and they made the four demigods before them look the size of small children at their feet. Their wide-eyed, fearful expressions added to the effect.
“Oh my god!” Nico said. “The deification! I completely forgot about it. I need to get up there.”
“Gods,” Hades said, frowning at him.
“What?”
“You said ‘oh my god.’ We don’t say that. It’s ‘gods’. Plural,” Hades said firmly. “I know it’s something you’ve picked up from mortals, but this isn’t the first time I’ve caught you doing it.”
“It is odd,” Thanatos agreed. “You should be more mindful.”
“I hate when the two of you gang up on me. It’s not that big of a deal,” Nico said, rolling his eyes. “I’ve gotta go. Can one of you call me when it’s Jason’s turn? Please?”
They both nodded. Nico disappeared.
He shadow traveled up to Mount Olympus, a place where he was surely not a welcome guest. Death had snatched Jason out of Zeus’ grasp just before he could be deified. Was Athena actually the one responsible? Yes. Would that stop Zeus from blaming Nico for everything that had gone wrong? Not likely.
Showing his face on Olympus was a risk he’d have to take. He had still technically triumphed and won the war, after all. He didn’t expect any praise, not after the fake-out ending on the Acropolis, but he didn’t anticipate major trouble. Either way, he was pretty sure Annabeth was about to become a goddess. He wasn’t missing the moment for the world.
He appeared in the Olympian throne room, standing half-hidden behind Poseidon’s throne. Attendance at the ceremony was sparse; it was basically just Zeus, Hera, Poseidon and Hestia, in addition to the parents of the involved demigods. Athena, Mars, Aphrodite, and Hephaestus were standing behind their children, too far away to touch them.
Poseidon was on Tiktok, Aphrodite and Mars were whispering under their breath, and Hestia was filming the ceremony on an old fashioned video tape recorder. Nobody looked truly interested in was happening but Athena, whose eyes were glowing brightly, staring her dad down.
The only person Nico didn’t recognize was a young woman in the corner of the room. She was wearing ancient Greek clothing and had a seashell necklace on, and looked like a minor goddess or a particularly powerful nymph. She didn’t seem particularly comfortable in her surroundings, standing meekly with her arms wrapped around herself.
From behind Poseidon, Nico could see the demigods, but Zeus and Hera couldn’t see him unless they glanced to the side. Poseidon noticed him in his peripheral vision, turning his head slightly. He shot Nico a quick wink before turning back to his phone. That kind of thing was the reason Poseidon was Nico’s favorite uncle. He only had two, so there wasn’t much competition.
Piper and Leo were quaking in their Converse sneakers. They caught sight of Nico immediately, and both of them locked onto his face, their eyes going even wider with terror than they’d been before. It seemed like they’d been hoping he wouldn’t show.
Nico kept his expression blank, revealing nothing.
Zeus scanned the four demigods, his eyes narrowed. Annabeth kept her chin up, looking him in the eyes defiantly, her expression identical to her mother’s. Of the four candidates, she was the one who’d been around the block a few times. She was familiar with Zeus’ schtick by now. She was also aware of the fact that her mom had gone to dangerous lengths to get her this opportunity. She clearly didn’t intend to waste it.
The only one of the four who didn’t seem to be feeling anything strongly was Frank. He looked ready to get it over with, his shoulders slumped. Poor Frank. It was surely hard on him, losing Jason and reckoning with the fact that he’d done little to help during the final push against Gaea. Nico had nearly forgotten that the four of them were still freshly grieving their friend.
They hadn’t seen how cute Jason was as a shade, though. When they did, Nico imagined they would cheer up. Or, well, maybe not. That might just be a Nico thing.
Zeus heaved a deep sigh, steepling his fingers. Hera leaned in, and all the gods watched his face intently.
“I guess I have no other choice,” he intoned. “The next god of Olympus will be…”
Everyone leaned forward, listening intently.
“A DEI hire,” Zeus said, with obvious disappointment in his voice.
Hera rolled her eyes. Athena pinched the bridge of her nose in exasperation.
“Dad,” she said. “We talked about this.” She sounded exhausted.
“I’ve had enough of your lectures!” He snapped at his daughter. “I make my own decisions on the basis of my own superior judgment as king. Now, then! Let me start with the bottom of the pyramid. Piper McLean. Your clumsiness resulted in Gaea’s reawakening and ultimately, my son’s death at her hands.”
Piper cringed.
“That’s not technically what--” Annabeth interjected. Zeus raised a hand to shush her.
“Quiet. Piper McLean?”
“Yes?” She squeaked.
“Do you have an OnlyFans account?”
Piper swallowed nervously.
“No, Lord Zeus.”
“Consider it. Now begone from my sight,” he said, waving his hand.
She made a run for it, obviously relieved to get off so easily. Nico watched her scurry away, frowning.
“Frank Zhang,” He said, somehow managing to mispronounce both his first and last names. “You’re a strong demigod, but in this case you were bonked on the head before the battle started. You’re good, but I’m waiting for you to be great. You’re third on the pyramid.”
Frank followed Piper off to the side of the room. As he passed his father, Ares shook his head in disappointment.
“And now for my final decision,” Zeus said, squinting at Annabeth and Leo. “Only one of you can be the next god of Olympus. Why don’t each of you tell me why you think you have what it takes to make it up here?”
Annabeth and Leo did not pause to look at each other. They each spoke at once, and then stopped, realizing they couldn’t both go first.
Annabeth had always had a competitive streak, but this was the first time Leo was being open about how motivated he was to win the honor. Zeus indicated that he wanted Leo to speak first.
“There hasn’t been another human engineer like me since Daedalus,” Leo said. “I know it sounds like I’m blowing my own horn, but it’s true. I designed a flying ship and a bronze dragon automaton. Both powered by AI.”
Hera smirked.
“I told you, this one is going to be big,” she said to Zeus. “I’ve had my eye on him for a long time now.
“How about that?” Zeus said, stroking his beard. “A god of AI. It’s modern. Innovative. This interests me. You remind me of a good friend of mine, also an inventor. I’ll have to put you two in touch, he needs help with some bug fixes on his… What was it? Cyphertruck? Cybertrunk? Something like that.”
Annabeth caught Nico’s eye. She looked worried, and Nico was right there with her. Neither of them had expected Leo to fight for it, let alone make such a strong case. Nico suspected someone had been coaching him. And he knew who it had been, too.
“Also? I was the one who defeated Gaea,” Leo said. “Annabeth wasn’t even there.”
Annabeth stepped forward. She took a deep breath, rolling her shoulders back. Now Leo had pissed her off. She wasn’t letting him win without putting up a fight.
“Zeus," she said, speaking clearly and confidently. "You’ve known me for over a decade. I am the architect of the gods. I designed the room we’re standing in. I have fought in a titanomachy and a gigantomachy, and played pivotal roles in both. I’ve walked across Tartarus and survived, which no other mortal has ever done. I’ve retrieved the Athena Parthenos, which no other child of Athena could manage. I defeated Arachne, not to mention hundreds of other monsters, minor gods, giants, titans. I even held up the sky. I could go on, but you already know what I have accomplished. At this point, to the extent of my knowledge, I am one of the greatest demigods who has ever lived.”
For a moment, there was complete silence in the throne room. Leo swallowed, looking at the floor. He have realized he was outclassed, and so would anyone else with half a brain. Athena gazed at Annabeth proudly, and even Poseidon gave her a nod of respect.
“Eh,” Zeus shrugged. “What do you want me to say? Thank you for your service? Being a god and a demigod are two different things. Qualities that make you good at one don’t always transfer to the other.”
Nico hated to admit it, but Zeus was right. Leo would transition into godhood easily. He was young, had a big ego, and he was already in love with an immortal. He could go to work in Hephaestus’ workshop and start contributing to Olympus right away, and would probably be happily occupied there for the rest of eternity without causing too much trouble.
On the other hand, Annabeth was opinionated. She had a troubled relationship with her mom, and was more connected to demigods than she was to the Olympians. Not to mention, if she became a goddess and had children with Percy, their kids would be three-quarters god. Their kids, with those genetics, would probably snap Olympus in half.
Seeing it that way, Nico would have chosen Leo if he were in Zeus’ position.
But he wasn’t. He didn’t care if Annabeth and Percy used her power to burn the whole damn system down. Annabeth was his friend, and Leo had pissed him off, and that was all there was to it.
“My mother would not have put me forward for this honor if I wasn’t worthy,” Annabeth said. “I come with her recommendation. Who is speaking for Leo? What god’s opinion do you hold in higher esteem than Athena’s?”
She glanced at Nico again, this time with an unspoken request in her eyes.
Nico had a lot he could say about Annabeth. He could talk about her wisdom, her loyalty, her utter conviction to do the right thing even when it was hard. He could talk about the times when he’d seen her at rock bottom, at the lowest depths of physical and emotional pain that a human could experience, and how she’d somehow risen up from the ashes each time, stronger than ever.
He didn’t know of anyone who would make a better god. She’d have the resilience to last the centuries, the courage and compassion to stand up for those weaker than herself, and the leadership qualities that would make her an icon for future generations to look up to. If he had to swap his place in the pantheon with anyone, it needed to be her.
He knew what he had to do.
“Uncle Zeus,” he said, stepping out in front of Zeus’ throne. “May I speak?”
Hera looked at him contemptuously.
“I thought I smelled the stink of the Underworld wafting this way,” she said.
Zeus sneered, looking down his nose at him.
“Speak. And get it over with. I can only tolerate your voice for so long.”
Nico went to stand in between Leo and Annabeth, putting a hand on each of their shoulders.
“I thought, as their former quest patron, I ought to weigh in. I know some things about each of these demigods that no one else does. And Annabeth is something special, I can’t deny that,” he said. “But Leo?” He grinned widely. “Leo is my personal favorite.”
“Is he?” Zeus said, frowning at Leo.
“Yes,” Nico insisted, putting his arm around Leo’s shoulders. “He’s my friend, and I’d really appreciate it if you’d do me a solid and make him a god, so we can be buddies for eternity.”
“Dude,” Leo said, trying to shrug his arm off. “Zeus, we really don’t know each other like that. I’m not sure what he’s—”
“Let me tell you what Leo did to make me so proud of him,” Nico said. “You see, somehow, Jason Grace managed to get his hands on a bottle of the Physician’s Cure. He was dying of poisoned wounds, so he planned to drink the Cure in order to heal himself.”
Leo grimaced, turning red with shame.
“Now, as a death god, I was against it,” Nico said. “I wanted Jason dead. But I was going to let him make his own decision. Well, come to find out, Jason heard that our dear pal Leo was planning to nobly sacrifice himself to defeat Gaea. Jason was so moved by his sacrifice that he decided to help Leo out. At the last minute, he gave Leo his bottle of Cure instead. And that’s why Leo stands in front of you here today, alive and well.”
“If Jason sacrificed himself to save Leo, that does speak well of this young man,” Zeus said. “Even if I wish Jason was here instead. My choice seems clear.”
“Oh,” Nico said. “I’m not done.”
“Well, I am,” Zeus said, losing patience. Hera put her hand on his arm.
“I want to hear the whole story,” she said. “What really happened to Jason? It seems that there was more to his death than appeared on the surface.”
“There was a lot more, unfortunately,” Nico said. “You see, the truth is, the bottle of Cure that Jason gave Leo? It was just water.”
Annabeth whipped her head around to look at Leo.
“What?” She asked. “Then how is Leo alive? He was blown to shreds in mid-air. We all saw it.”
“I’ll tell you,” Nico said, squeezing Leo’s shoulder and digging his nails in. “Piper over there? She was in love with Jason. When she found out he was planning to give the Cure to Leo, she dumped the Cure into a plastic water bottle and refilled the original vial with water. She was carrying the Cure in her fanny pack the whole battle. She planned to give it to Jason and make him think it was water to trick him into living, because she couldn’t bear to lose him.”
“But Jason died,” Annabeth said. “Piper didn’t give him the Cure.”
Everyone looked at Piper, who was standing at the side of the room. She was silently crying. The memory of Jason’s death, and her failed intervention in his final hours, was still raw.
“She tried. She thought she was giving him the Cure. But she gave him a mouthful of water instead,” Nico said.
Annabeth made the connection first. She looked at Leo, her hand going over her mouth in shock.
“I don’t get it,” Frank said. “Did Piper swap the bottles or not?”
“She did,” Nico said. “Piper poured the contents of the Cure into another bottle and refilled it with water. But when she did that, the Cure bottle was already full of water to start with. Because Leo had gotten to it first.”
Leo’s breath was coming quickly. All eyes were on him. He was cornered.
“Leo,” Frank said. “Please tell me that’s not true. Please. You didn’t really take his Cure, did you?”
“I didn’t know he was dying!” Leo shouted. “I had no idea his injury was that serious. I knew he was hurt, but I thought he’d have other options. But if I didn’t take that Cure, I was definitely dead. Okay? I made a promise,” he said weakly. “I told Calypso I would save her. And I kept it. I did it for love, isn’t that worth anything?”
He looked at the anonymous nymph who stood by the wall. That must be Calypso. Nico wondered whether she even knew Leo’s last name.
Piper walked out. At least she had the self-awareness not to argue. She’d also been incredibly selfish, but she was still blaming Leo for the fact that her plan to save Jason had failed.
“He sacrificed his life for you,” Frank said, tears welling, his soft heart on display. “You could have just asked him for the stupid bottle. Now he’s gone. Did he know, at the end?” He asked, looking at Nico.
“No. Jason died peacefully. He has no clue any of this happened, and he never will,” Nico said. “But I’m--” He was about to say that he was angry with Leo, but then he remembered the reason he was up there talking in the first place. “I’m grateful to Leo,” he said, looking at Zeus. “If not for him, Jason would be alive right now. Thanks to Leo, Jason is in the Underworld with me forever, exactly where I want him. And for that, Leo, I personally think you ought to be eternally rewarded.”
He patted Leo on the back.
Hera froze Leo in an icy glare. Zeus, on the other hand, was relatively unbothered.
“I zoned out for most of that. I got the gist, though,” Zeus said. “Annabeth is the top of the pyramid. Congratulations!”
“Aw, rats!” Nico said, pretending to be disappointed.
Zeus began rolling up his sleeves.
“Approach me, Annabeth,” he said. Annabeth was staring up at him, fear and wonder both mingled in her expression. She reached over to run her hand across the stump of her missing arm. Nico wondered if she was thinking that it would soon grow back.
“Dad, I’d like a moment with her before you complete the deification,” Athena said,
“I can’t seem to get anything done today without somebody wanting to filibuster,” Zeus said, throwing his hands in the air. “I was planning on getting a few rounds of golf in this afternoon, but I guess that’s a wash. Just call me when you’re actually ready.”
He and Hera both departed, and Hestia turned off the camera, giving Nico a friendly wave goodbye before leaving. When Nico glanced back, Leo and Calypso had hightailed it out of there, too. Soon he was left alone with Athena, Annabeth, and Poseidon.
"Congratulations," Poseidon said. He and Athena towered over Annabeth, physically, but somehow Annabeth seemed just as tall as they were. Nico realized it was because both of them were regarding her with respect.
"Thank you, Lord Poseidon," Annabeth said.
"Just Poseidon's fine," he said. He looked at Athena, giving his old rival the stink-eye. "I think you'll make a decent goddess. Just don't expect the old rivalry to end. I'm not planning on burying the hatchet anytime soon."
Annabeth grinned.
"You're on," she said.
Poseidon chuckled as he disappeared into a flurry of water and seafoam, leaving the floor wet where he'd been standing.
At that point, Nico should have left, but he couldn’t help but be nosy enough to listen in as Athena shrank down to a normal height to speak with Annabeth face to face.
Nico was very conscious of the irony of the situation; his father was taking his divinity away on the same day that Annabeth received hers. And he knew his father loved him. He’d never seen any indication that Athena felt affection towards her daughter at all.
“Mom,” Annabeth said, her voice shaky with excitement and nerves. “Thank you for helping to make this happen. It doesn’t even feel real.”
“You were the most deserving,” Athena said matter-of-factly, brushing her thanks aside. Even for this mother-daughter conversation, she made no physical contact with Annabeth, and kept her gleaming helmet on. “There is something I wanted to offer you. A gesture, if you will.”
“Alright,” Annabeth said, looking up at her.
“I never developed any maternal instincts,” Athena said bluntly. “When I began my experiments with demigod creation, I wasn’t certain they’d appear. They did not.”
“I know,” Annabeth said.
“When your transformation is complete, if you would prefer to refer to me as Athena, instead of mom, I would respect your choice,” Athena said. “Perhaps you have outgrown the term of endearment.”
Annabeth looked taken aback by the suggestion.
“I don’t call you mom as an endearment,” Annabeth said. “You just… You’re my mom.”
“I am offering to transition out of that role in your life,” Athena said. “I never performed it very skillfully. We’re both aware of that fact. In exchange,” she hesitated. “Perhaps we might become friends?”
Annabeth took this in. She was caught off guard, but she didn’t seem to be upset.
Nico couldn’t wrap his mind around the conversation. Parents were parents. If Hades ever proposed that he and Nico ought to be friends, he’d know for certain his dad had been replaced with a robot.
“I’m open to that,” Annabeth said. Athena’s shoulders relaxed slightly. Maybe she didn’t feel very motherly, but she did seem to care what Annabeth thought of her. “I’ll need to think it over, though. Am I going to feel different afterward?”
“From the data I have collected, it appears that each god’s experience is entirely unique,” Athena said, glancing at Nico. “Perhaps you can ask your eavesdropping friend what he thinks.”
“Who, me?” Nico said, “I wasn’t eavesdropping, I was just standing here in earshot by coincidence. But since you brought it up, no, I didn’t feel that different when I became a god. Other than being older, I had no idea anything had changed about me at all.”
Annabeth rubbed her hand over the stump of her arm.
“Zeus took us from camp with no warning. Percy won’t expect... I mean, if the change is dramatic, it’s going to difficult for him. I didn’t get a chance to say goodbye,” she trailed off, biting her lip, ruminating over all the possible outcomes where Percy couldn’t cope with the change. “Could I see him one more time? Or at least call him?”
Athena tutted.
“Your ascension can only be a benefit to him. If you return to him at all, he ought to fall to his knees in gratitude. You will have to learn a new way of interpreting the relationship, if you insist on keeping it.”
Annabeth turned to Nico for help, but on this topic, he had no comfort to offer her. He’d faced a steep learning curve when it came to having relationships with mortals, and he’d never found it easy. There was no way for her and Percy not to struggle. That was just the way of things.
She already knew about some of he difficulties he’d faced. She read in his expression that he couldn’t help. He was sorry to leave her with nothing.
Nico’s phone started ringing. He glanced at the screen. His dad and Thanatos had both texted; Octavian was being judged, and Jason would be next. It hadn’t been that long, but time didn’t operate the same in the Underworld.
Time didn’t mean much to gods, but it meant everything to mortals.
“Ask Zeus to reschedule,” Nico said suddenly, inspiration striking him like a lightning bolt.
Annabeth raised her eyebrows.
“Reschedule? Seriously?”
“Say you need to run a couple of human errands really quick. I don’t think Zeus will care.”
Annabeth looked at Athena, who shrugged.
“I’m becoming human soon,” Nico said. “Once he’s rid of me, Zeus won’t be as concerned about this. Reschedule your deification.”
“But what if he just never does it?” Annabeth said. “With you gone, it’ll lose its urgency.”
“I won’t let him forget when the time comes,” Athena said. “I’ll ensure he goes through with it as promised. But what new date would you propose?”
Nico conjured a magic Post-It note with a date on it. He handed it to Annabeth.
“August first, 2065,” Annabeth read aloud. “Nico, what is the significance of this date? Isn’t it too far away? I’ll be in my fifties.”
Nico didn’t answer.
“Zeus will accept it,” Athena said. “A few decades is nothing to us. Come, Annabeth. We’ll let Zeus know there’s been a change of plans.”
“But why this date?” Annabeth asked again, looking at Nico with concern in her face.
But she already knew the reason why, or she wouldn’t have looked so sad about it.
He left without answering.
Back in the Underworld, he hurried to change into his work uniform and rush out to the fields of Asphodel. Hades and Thanatos were already standing near the judgment platform waiting on him.
Octavian was on the dais before the judges, Minos, Rhadamanthys, and Aeacus. They were watching him with looks of growing boredom as he spoke at length on all the reasons why his actions in the war against Gaea had been totally justified.
“Sorry, I got here as fast as I could,” Nico said, finding Jason at the front of the line. “How are you feeling? I mean, I know you’re fine. Shades are always fine. But are you, you know, optimistic?”
Jason smiled placidly, his eyes glazed over. Nico couldn’t help but smile in response. Jason was still hazy, but he radiated good energy. In addition to the shades from Camp Jupiter that had formed his welcome party, he had gathered an even larger crowd of onlookers awaiting his final judgment. Nico even saw Jason’s mother in the crowd, although Jason didn’t seem to have caught sight of her. Of course, everyone was waiting on Octavian to finish talking, but it was Jason’s fate they were really looking forward to.
“I’m okay,” Jason said. “But I’m finding thinking really difficult right now. Is that normal?”
“Yes,” Nico said. “But that’s not a problem, is it? You shouldn’t have anything left to think about at this point. Why?”
He watched Jason’s glazed over eyes slowly turn to look at the stone archway that represented the gateway to rebirth.
“Octavian and I had a chance to talk things over. He’s pretty sure he wants to be reincarnated.”
Nico frowned, both because he didn’t want Jason to consider that option, and also because it didn’t make any sense.
“If he’s getting reincarnated, why is he arguing with the judges? He doesn’t need their judgment if he’s just going to leave either way.”
“He just likes arguing,” Jason smiled. “It’s hard to believe we were enemies once. It feels so far away now. I hope he’s happier in his next life. He’s not an evil person, you know?”
Nico didn’t care about Octavian. Jason may not have been clearheaded enough to articulate what was on his mind very well, but Nico could venture a few guesses. They’d never discussed reincarnation before. If Jason was considering it, that was breaking news to Nico. And he wasn’t happy about it.
Feeling slightly sick to his stomach, he made a quick excuse and went over to Thanatos and his father, who were both listening to Octavian’s long winded spiel about how he really was just serving Rome all along.
“How did it go on Olympus?” Hades asked. “Was Annabeth chosen?”
“Yes, but the ceremony is being postponed for a while,” Nico said. “It was my idea. Percy’s only got another thirty years or so left to live. I figured we might as well let him and Annabeth run out the clock. She can always be a goddess later.”
“I’m surprised you put that much thought into their situation,” Thanatos said. “Surely you have enough on your mind, today of all days.”
“I care about them,” Nico said. “They deserve to be happy. I wanted to help them while I still can.”
Hades didn’t say anything, but he ran his hand across the back of Nico’s head affectionately.
“Papa?” Nico said, looking up at his dad. “Jason said something that had me a little worried just now.”
Just as he spoke, Minos stood, declaring that Octavian was an exemplary Roman and granting him Elysium. Nico had seen that coming; Octavian had been very devoted to Camp Jupiter and the gods, even if he'd been misled at a certain point. Lives were seen as sum totals, not weighted based on what you’d done more recently. Nico gained confidence that Jason would be soon receiving a similar eternal reward.
Octavian pointed at the gate for rebirth, indicating that he’d made his decision.
“Why did he need to talk so much if that was his decision?” Hades muttered. He stalked over to Octavian and led him out to the Lethe, where he’d have his memories erased before being sent through the archway.
Nico was still worried about what Jason would choose, but he had no time left to think about it.
“Next!” Minos called out.
Chapter 93: The Judgment of Jason Grace
Notes:
I posted two chapters in two days! If you read weekly, make sure you're on the right chapter before starting this one. Thanks as always for reading this and leaving supportive comments. I still can't believe how many people have read this work. I try to make it as good and entertaining as possible for you guys and your kudos and comments mean a lot!
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Jason approached the judges’ stand. He stood in the center of the dais, surrounded by shades who whispered among themselves, making a sound like a chorus of reeds whistling in the wind. They leaned on the edges of the black stone dais and reached for him like he was a celebrity among the dead.
Nico watched in fascination. He’d never witnessed such behavior among shades before. He didn’t know what to make of it.
Jason blinked like he was trying to clear his vision. Standing on the dais had returned his memories in a rush, and he would need to orient himself again. But after a few seconds of processing, and some glances of alarm at the large audience he’d amassed, he composed himself.
“I’m ready,” he said quietly.
“Good. We’ll jump straight into things, then,” Minos said. He was the tiebreaker judge, the one whose opinion only mattered with regards to slightly more controversial souls. Nico hoped there would be no difference of opinion requiring his input this time.
“To start with, in summary, you have lived a heroic life,” Minos said. “On that point, no one can disagree.”
Aeacus and Rhadamanthys both nodded their assent with this judgment. Nico crossed his fingers. He caught Thanatos smiling with excitement, too.
“I’d send Lupa a thank-you note if I were you,” Aeacus said.
“She sent a compelling recommendation letter,” Rhadamanthys said, taking something from Aeacus and holding it up. It was just a leaf with a big paw print on it. “We did have concerns about your devotion and service to the gods. Your score took a dip late in life after some offenses towards Jupiter and Juno? Does that sound right?”
“It does,” Jason said.
“Surprisingly no mention here of you worshiping Nico,” Minos added, taking the paper back from his brother. “Interesting choice,” he added, raising his eyebrows.
Nico smiled. If someday he had no fans left, it was because Minos had fallen into Tartarus.
“Lupa got you in just under the wire,” Aeacus said. “We were gonna ding ya. Impiety in a demigod is not a good look.”
“Not a good look,” Rhadamanthys agreed. “Are we thinking B-plus, boys?”
“B-minus,” Aeacus said, always the harsh one. “He did go on that snorkeling jaunt.”
“He came back. Just a B is fine,” Minos said. “So, for sake of transparency, here’s why you’re shut out of the ‘A’ range. Your fatal flaw was an inability to make decisions and stick to them. You never overcame that fully. You had some great moments at the end, accepting death and all, but you did that with a lot of heavy-handed assistance. Partial credit.”
Nico sighed, thinking of all the long arguments about accepting death, and how long Jason had hemmed and hawed on the matter. He was a total flip-flopper. Without the pressure Nico had put on him, he’d probably have ended up in Asphodel.
“You’re welcome,” he mumbled under his breath. Thanatos heard, and let out a restrained snort.
“Jason, you were an exemplary Roman and an inspiring hero,” Minos said. “Your sacrifice for your comrade, Leo, is noted as well, even if it wasn’t actually--”
Nico made a ‘shut up’ gesture frantically with his hand. Luckily, Minos caught it, and changed the subject.
“Anyway, you are deemed worthy of eternal reward. Elysium is granted to you.”
Nico let out a huge breath of relief. Thanatos grabbed his hand and squeezed it, and Nico was touched to realize that he was sharing in his joy for Jason’s fate.
“You did it,” Thanatos said, beaming. “You must be so happy.”
Nico’s throat was clogged with emotion. After all those months of effort, they’d really managed to defeat Gaea, get Annabeth deified, save her relationship with Percy, and give Jason his happily ever afterlife. Hazel and Frank would return to camp in triumph. Even Maria Bova had risen to unprecedented heights, and despite the messy hand-off, she was in the care of a pantheon that cared about her as much as Nico did.
In his short career as a god, he’d managed to accomplish everything he’d wanted to. No one had believed he could do it. His role as quest patron had been a setup for failure. Somehow, against all odds, he’d surpassed even his own grandest expectations.
He couldn’t even call it a high note. It was like the jumbled orchestra of mortals he’d been conducting were finally playing in unison, producing a single chord resounding in harmony, performing a symphony titled, ‘Nico is the Best.’
He never wanted it to end. But everything ended, especially the things you’d give anything to hold on to. That was just how this dumb world worked.
Jason’s ghostly friends were applauding him and raising a sppoky cheer. He was making laps around the dais high-fiving people. With Jason’s memories returned, Nico could see more of his personality in his expression. His old self was evident in the way he half-heartedly accepted the praise he hadn’t asked for. It seemed he didn’t enjoy celebrity any more in death than he had in life.
Jason jogged over to Nico and Thanatos. Nico threw his arms around him, wishing he had Piper’s ability to pour her feelings out into another person, eliminating the need for words.
“You did it,” he said, when he could speak through his happy tears. “I’m so proud of you.”
“Can we talk?” Jason said.
Nico’s heart stopped. Not figuratively, either. When you were a god, sometimes it really just stopped when things got bad enough.
Jason was looking at the archway. Nico had to suppress a sudden impulse to knock the thing down and smash every stone into dust.
Thanatos got his hackles up, baring his teeth at Jason.
“You horrible, tacky, ungrateful--”
“It’s okay,” Nico said, raising his hand. “We can talk about it.”
He was a liar. It was not okay. The idea of Jason walking through the archway and leaving him for a new life made him want to switch into his true form and go postal.
He told himself that Jason just wanted to ask a couple of questions. He could still go to Elysium, and then they’d have a good laugh about this later.
Jason started walking toward the Lethe.
“We—” Nico swallowed, using all his effort to try to keep from screaming, crying, and throwing up. “We have to go over there to talk?”
Jason glanced back at him, his expression full of guilt. There was a heaviness to the set of his ghostly shoulders. The memories of his life had re-entered his mind, and Nico could almost see the shape of the burdens that once again were weighing him down.
Maybe Jason wanted some memories erased, Nico told himself. And then he’d go to Elysium afterward. He clung to hope.
They walked over to the scraggly tree that overhung the banks of the Lethe. That tree had been the last place Nico and Bianca had ever spoken. He’d cried on that riverbank for countless hours after she’d left him. Seeing it brought back so many painful memories that he was tempted to dunk his head in the water and forget he’d ever had a sister.
Somehow Octavian was still standing on the riverbank running his mouth off about something. Hades looked about ready to kill him all over again.
It was in bad form to rush shades, since they had no reason to hurry. Still, there was only so much Octavian a person could take. When he saw Nico and Jason approaching, and took in the expression on Nico’s face, Hades’ focus shifted.
“Are you finally ready?” Hades asked Octavian, cutting him off mid-blabber.
“Well, yes, but--”
Hades grabbed him and dunked his head in the Lethe, holding it underwater a little extra for good measure. When he came out, Octavian’s soul was as fresh and pure as a baby’s, scrubbed clean of all his memories and silly little concepts like his own identity. He looked at Jason, Nico, and Hades without a shred of recognition.
“Where am I? Who are all of you people?” The shade formerly known as Octavian said. “That tree doesn’t look healthy. This place is dark. Can I speak to the manager?”
Hades ignored his questions and hustled him over to the archway, giving a firm nudge to get him all the way through.
“I thought that would never end,” Hades said. “Jason, what can I help you with?”
Jason looked at Nico guiltily, then at the archway.
“I just have a couple of questions,” he said, speaking quietly, like he was ashamed to be saying it aloud.
Hades nodded, but he heard what Jason was not saying.
“I’ll be right back,” he told Jason. He grabbed Nico by the arm and pulled him out of earshot. They came to a place where the river Lethe foamed and frothed, obscuring them in mist so that Jason could not see them.
Hades knelt in front of Nico, who was perilously close to breaking down in tears. His dad feeling sorry for him only made him feel worse. That meant that this was really happening and it wasn’t just a big misunderstanding.
It didn’t help that they were right next to the place where Nico had said goodbye to Bianca. His dad had comforted him then, too. That experience was one Nico had never anticipated reliving. He wasn’t sure he had the strength to get through it a second time.
“Why does this keep happening to me?” Nico asked, his voice breaking. “Why do they all want to leave me?”
“They don’t all want to leave you,” Hades said, gingerly brushing a tear out of Nico’s eye. “You can’t cry, son. Jason has the right to make this choice, and it’s forbidden for us to try to influence him in any way. If he sees you blubbering, he may not go through with it.”
“I don’t want him to go through with it,” Nico said.
“I know,” Hades said. He looked Nico straight in the eyes, his tone firm. “He is a mortal, and you are a god. We don’t get to keep them forever. Even when they do remain here, a part of them is lost to us. The Jason you loved is dead, and you can never have him back. The Jason you cling to now is merely a shade of the man he once was.”
Nico nodded. He knew all this, but he needed to hear it spoken aloud.
“You are the prince of the Underworld,” Hades said. “You have a duty to all shades to give them a peaceful journey, wherever it is they are going. Jason is beneath you, just a passing thing, but he is owed certain dignities, and we will provide them.”
Nico took a shaky breath in, and then breathed out slowly.
“I don’t know if I can--”
“You are a god of death. You can do this,” Hades said with seamless confidence. “And you will. Go. Show me that you know your place in the order of things.”
Hades didn’t hug him, or even pat him on the head. He knew his son was a crybaby who would fall apart if he was shown too much pity. He didn’t even go with him. He went to stand by the archway and observe as Nico walked back to where Jason stood by the river.
“Look,” Jason said, wringing his hands. “I know this is really obnoxious. I’ve already put you through enough. But I can’t stop thinking that this is what I need to do. I’m so sorry, Nico.”
Nico glanced over at his dad, and tried to maintain at least a little bit of his stoic dignity.
“You don’t have to apologize,” Nico said, trying to make his voice sound aloof and godlike. He was pretty sure he just sounded like he was trying not to sneeze. “You’re allowed to choose this. You’re not doing anything wrong.”
“But it’s going to hurt you. I know your sister--”
“Don’t bring her up,” Nico said. That was a landmine of a subject. “You don’t owe my feelings any consideration. I want you to choose for yourself, not for me. That’s what I want from you right now.”
Jason glanced at the river.
“No memories,” he said, looking at the water, which was lapping lazily at the shore. “Sounds kinda nice.”
He looked back at the archway.
“Is it random? The life I’ll get next?”
“We don’t know,” Nico said. “The Fates spin you a new lifeline once you’re through. What happens then is their decision.”
“Hazel said the lifelines look like balls of yarn. That the gods are little golden loops that the Fates keep in a Wal-Mart bag.”
Nico smiled, in spite of how hard he was trying not to cry.
“Yeah,” he said. “It’s true.”
“What a weird, crazy world we live in,” Jason said, smiling with him. “Do you think most parents love their kids?”
“Yes,” Nico said. “I think so.”
“What percentage of people get to have a happy childhood?” Jason asked. “If you had to guess? What are my odds?”
“I have no idea,” Nico said. “But everyone has some problems growing up. No family is perfect.”
Jason shook his head.
“You don’t get it,” he said. “People from good families never understand what it’s like to have the rug pulled out from under your feet on day one. You can’t see what you have, because you’ve never not had it. I know exactly what I’m missing.”
“Is that why you want to do this?” Nico said. “You know there’s no guarantees.”
Jason stared at the archway, his eyes now locked on.
“No,” he said. “That’s just what I’m hoping for. But I don’t really know why I’m choosing this. I didn’t expect to feel so drawn to it once I got here. It’s almost like a compulsion.”
Setting aside his own feelings, Nico didn’t want Jason to feel like he hadn’t made an informed choice.
“Just know, Jason, there’s a chance you’ll have to do it all over again,” he said. “Being a demigod. Fighting for the gods. Being hunted by monsters. I hope you’ll have a better life, but I can’t promise you that. You could be fated to repeat some kind of pattern, over and over. We really don’t know how it works.”
Jason nodded, his jaw set in resignation.
“If I have to do it over again, I will. I know that’s crazy. Feels like a few hours ago I just wanted to sleep forever. I was looking forward to snorkeling in Elysium. Maybe the next time I die, I won’t be such a martyr,” he laughed. “Not sure what my problem is.”
Nico didn’t know what his problem was, either. Too much hope, maybe. Too little concern for his own happiness. Whatever the reason, he hated what was happening. He was having a hard time hiding how he felt.
“Don’t hate me,” Jason said, taking Nico’s hands in his.
“I could never,” Nico said, unable to keep tears from filling his eyes.
“If you ask me to stay, I’ll stay. Just say the word.”
“I’m not asking. I support your decision,” Nico said, as a tear tracked down his cheek.
“But you’re crying.”
“I just got something in my eye.”
“I never really understood what you saw in me. I’m not sure what I did to get so lucky,” Jason said. “If we meet in my next life, I swear I’ll fall in love with you all over again. I won’t be able to help myself.”
“I’ll look forward to it,” Nico said.
Jason turned toward the river.
“Will you help me?” He asked.
Nico led him down to the water of the Lethe. Jason knelt, and Nico cupped a handful of water and brought it to Jason’s lips. He drank, a few sips at first. It seemed like losing his memories soothed him, because Jason dipped his face into the river and drank the rest on his own.
Nico helped him up when he was done. He didn’t feel like crying anymore. The shade he led to the archway wasn’t Jason now. He was an empty vessel, a mostly blank soul that happened to look like Jason. It was done.
“He’s ready,” he told Hades. “You do the rest. I’m going to bed.”
“You should stay. See it through,” Hades said.
“I can’t,” Nico admitted. “I’m done. Just come re-humanize me later. I don’t care. I’ll be in my room.” He just wanted to lie down in the dark forever. At the moment, it was all he could do to refrain from drinking the Lethe dry.
“He seems upset,” the shade formerly known as Jason observed, looking at Nico sadly.
“Nico, stay,” Hades said. “That’s an order. I need you to trust me.”
“No, I’m leaving,” Nico said. “I--”
Hades grabbed his arm to prevent him from shadow traveling away. At the same time, Jason walked through the archway.
Then he came out the other side.
Nico’s jaw dropped.
“That wasn’t me,” he said, holding his hands up. “I know I broke the portal when it was Bianca’s turn, but I swear I’m not doing it this time.”
“I know,” Hades said, smiling. “Jason? Come here.”
Jason walked around to their side again.
“Nico?” He said, looking down at his ghostly hands. They were glowing. “Something weird is going on.”
“You remember me?” Nico asked, dumbfounded. That wasn’t supposed to be possible.
“I saw things in there,” Jason said. “I remembered. Years and years and years. Places I didn’t know I’d been. People I didn’t know I’d been. What the heck is happening to me?”
Nico shook his head. Words eluded him. He hadn’t know that this was possible.
“Take him back to the judges,” Hades said, giving Nico a little nudge.
Nico returned to the judge’s stand arm in arm with Jason, who kept mumbling about people and places Nico had never heard of. Thanatos was still standing near the dais. He was holding court with Hypnos, Morpheus, and the Furies, who had presumably dropped by to see what the fuss was all about.
“Poor Nico,” Thanatos was saying dramatically, as the others listened, desperate to hear the details of this latest Underworld gossip. He hadn’t seem Nico and Jason approach, so he kept talking as they got closer.
“Thank goodness he has me, because for some reason, everyone else keeps betraying him. He doesn’t deserve this. I’m telling you, it’s madness. Loyal boyfriends like myself are clearly in short supply these days.”
“Than!” Nico called out. He wasn’t exactly sure what was going on, but all of his hunches were good.
Thanatos turned around to see him approaching. When he saw Jason, his jaw dropped.
“Sarpedon?” Thanatos asked, frozen in shock.
“Who?” Nico asked.
“Hypnos and I carried his body from Troy, remember?” Thanatos said. “I showed it to you.”
Nico looked at Jason. As he stared at him, Jason’s face blurred, shifting into two others he didn’t recognize. One of them did seem familiar.
“Wow,” Hypnos said. “Long time no see, Sarpedon.”
“Thank you for giving me an honorable burial in Lycia,” Jason said, sounding both exactly the same and like a stranger at the same time. “I was worried about dying so far from home. It’s good to know my father cared enough to arrange transport for me.”
Nico didn’t love the experience of hearing another person speaking with Jason’s voice. Past lives had been a hypothetical concept up until now. He’d liked them better that way, but he’d rather Jason had a few extra memories than none at all.
“Did you live three heroic lives?” Nico asked.
“I guess so,” Jason said. “This is the third time I’ve been here. I got Elysium every time, so I guess I’m done now?”
“Holy shit,” Nico whispered.
Jason was going to the Isles of the Blessed.
Nico wanted to make absolutely sure he was reading the room correctly. He wanted to ask a few questions, but the orderly nature of the judgment was no longer the vibe. It seemed as though Jason’s situation was exceptionally rare and exciting. The Furies even took a group selfie with him, which ranked as one of the weirdest sights Nico had ever seen.
Minos and Rhadamanthys stormed the dais. When they reached Jason, they tackled him in a group hug.
“It’s been a while, huh?” Jason said, embracing them.
“Too long,” Minos said, wiping his eyes. “Finally reunited, after all these millennia. I had given up hope.”
“Nico, you did it!” Rhadamanthys said. “You brought our brother back to us!”
At first, Nico was at a loss. It took him a second to recall that Sarpedon had once been their brother. They’d been the three sons of Zeus and Europa in life, but that life had been such a long time ago that it was hard to connect them to Jason. Seeing ancient ghosts hugging his Swiftie boyfriend in his purple t-shirt was a bizarre image to comprehend.
It was weird, but it was a good weird. Nico relaxed and tried to enjoy the moment, because everyone began lavishing praise him with praise. The question on everyone’s lips was, how had Nico known that Jason was special? They asked as though he’d had some secret insight into his past lives.
Nico hadn’t known anything. He’d fallen for him. It was as simple as that.
It wasn’t long before the sound of a horn sounded over the fields of Asphodel. It was a sound almost like a moan of pain, echoing against the distant walls of Erebus with a horrible resonance.
Upon hearing it, the shades of the soldiers of Camp Jupiter formed an honor guard, lining a path to the river Lethe. Flanked by his two brothers, Jason walked down to that same riverbank where, a few minutes earlier, he’d drunk the frothing waters.
Nico trotted behind him, with no idea what sight awaited him.
A wide, slow moving form chugged forward, appearing in the mist as a hulking blue shape. It was accompanied by the clunking roar of an old, rusty-sounding motor. It was a ferryboat, a relatively modern one painted blue and white. “Isles of the Blessed” was written on a handmade sign that hung from the side.
It churned the water as it approached the shore, and its wake caused large waves to lap the beach. A few of them got quite close to where the crowd was standing, which caused a slight panic as shades scurried away to avoid losing their precious memories through their feet.
Charon stood on the prow. He’d traded his wide-brimmed hat for a white sailor’s cap. As Jason approached the ferry, Charon tipped his hat to him, and then he pulled a cord, sounding the horn again. A metal gangplank descended, clanging to a halt at Jason’s feet.
Jason looked around for Nico and found him hanging back in the crowd. He ran over to grab his hand.
“Are you coming with me?” He asked eagerly.
“Is that allowed?” Nico asked, not wanting Jason to break the rules on his first day. He looked around to see if his dad would scold him for trespassing, but Hades was nowhere in sight.
“Of course,” Minos said, his eyes bright with joy. “Nowhere is barred to you, Nico. You’re our prince.”
“Come on,” Jason said, tugging on his hand. “I need to learn the ropes of this whole being dead thing. You can teach me.”
Nico looked up at the ferry. The invitation did sound fun. He’d never been to the Isles of the Blessed, but he’d heard good things. Charon even gave him a thumbs up from the deck.
He thought about it. He wished he could be excited about the prospect of seeing a new part of the Underworld with Jason. It was certainly a great excuse to postpone his re-humanization. His dad would be more likely to turn a blind eye to it if it was for a special occasion.
The truth was, he just didn’t have it in him.
It had been a long slog for Nico to get to this point. He hadn’t had a moment to rest since before the battle on the Acropolis. Although he understood that Jason going through the arch had been part of the process, his heart needed time to recover from the sight of him walking beneath those hated stones.
“This is your moment,” Nico said. “You don’t need me hovering.”
“You sure?” Fortunately, Jason didn’t seem disappointed.
“I’ll visit soon,” Nico said.
“Promise?” Jason grinned.
In lieu of answering, Nico kissed him. He closed his eyes and gently cupped the back of Jason’s head with his hand, feeling the insubstantial touch of his ghostly hair on his fingertips. This was the first time their bodies had ever been the same temperature. Now Jason was as cold as the grave.
This was the last time Nico would ever see Jason. The next time, he’d be human, and there was no telling whether he’d still be the same person.
There were some scattered whistles and cheers when Nico kissed him, but they died out once he let go and stepped away. Maybe it was the look on his face. Jason was immune to bad vibes, but Nico was definitely emanating them. It had been a pretty blatant goodbye-forever kiss.
He watched as Jason climbed the ramp and boarded the ferry. Jason waved goodbye to everyone below on the shore as the ferry started to chug away downriver. The mist was quickly obscuring him from sight, and he was only noticeable because of his bright purple t-shirt.
“Love you,” Nico mouthed, watching Jason recede into the darkness. He was pretty sure he saw him say it back.
Nico was out of emotional stamina. He still had another ceremony of sorts to sit through that day, the hardest one yet.
The crowd slowly dispersed, the shades fading back into an amorphous gray mass in the fields.
“How are you feeling?” Thanatos asked. After a few minutes, he was the only one that remained by Nico’s side.
“I don’t know,” Nico said.
He just wanted to be left alone, but he didn’t say that. Thanatos took his hand silently.
Together they walked downriver, away from the scraggly old tree, out of sight of the archway. That spot that had held so many bad memories for Nico would now hold some good ones, too. Still, he’d be happy to never see that tree again.
“I guess I’m not not happy,” Nico said.
“You seem not happy,” Thanatos said.
“I’m happy for Jason. And for Annabeth. But I’m not happy for me.”
“Why not? You deserve to be,” Thanatos said.
Nico tried not to think about what he deserved and didn’t deserve. Death was meant to be fair because life wasn’t. And he would live forever. The conclusions drew themselves.
“I think this has been the best day of my life,” Nico said, trying to appreciate the bright side of the situation. “I’m just not ready for it to be over.”
Thanatos stared down at him thoughtfully.
“The best day of your life? Today has been almost exclusively about other people. You find that much joy in the happiness of your friends?”
Nico shrugged. He hadn’t been fishing for praise, although it was a true statement.
“I’m glad I met you,” Thanatos said, looking almost ashamed of himself. “But you make me feel like a bad person at times. I could never be as you are. I can’t help but think of myself in all things.”
“I think about myself a lot,” Nico said. “I’m no saint.”
“I wouldn’t associate with you if you were,” Thanatos smiled. “You’re probably one of the best gods this pantheon has ever had. Maybe that’s why you weren’t destined to last. You never really fit in with the rest of us.”
Thanatos didn’t like the other gods. Most gods didn’t like most other gods. Nico couldn’t stand half the members of his family. It was no insult to be called out as singular, to be placed above the rest.
So why did Thanatos’ comment feel like getting stabbed in the heart?
Nico wasn’t ready to become human again. But there was nothing he could do about it now.
“Come on. Let’s get this over with,” he said, pushing Thanatos’ arm off of him. He didn’t want to be touched anymore. “I’m ready.”
The two of them walked into the palace. It was as dark and silent as always. It seemed Hades hadn’t summoned Persephone yet, since the place didn’t smell like flowers. It smiled like nothing, as usual.
Nico wondered if they’d have to meet her on the surface somewhere. She wasn’t really supposed to come back until her time with her mother was up, although in the few years Nico had known them, his parents seemed to be getting increasingly lax about honoring their traditional schedule of visits.
“Papa?” He called out. As he walked into the palace, turning down the corridor, he heard Hades talking on the phone in his office.
Nico and Thanatos waited in the doorway to the office. Hades glanced at him, the phone at his ear, but he turned away.
“Alright. We’ll talk later, love,” he said. “I’ll see you in a few weeks.”
Hades hung up the phone and set it on the desk. He fidgeted with a pen and shuffled a couple of papers while Nico stared at him.
“Was that mom?” Nico asked. Obviously it had been. But the conversation didn’t really make sense. “She’s not coming?”
“No,” Hades said, refusing to meet his eyes.
Nico walked up to the desk, trying to get a look at his dad’s face.
“Okay, so I’m supposed to go to her? Were you not planning to be there when she turns me human?” Nico asked. “I feel like it’s the least you could do, since this was all your idea.”
Hades smiled, still looking down at the desk top.
“It’s not funny,” Nico said. “Why won’t you look at me? Why are you being so weird?”
“I should have known you’d find a way to get angry with me,” Hades said, standing. “Even for this.”
“What’s the matter with you—”
Hades hugged him. When Nico protested, he interrupted.
“I told Persephone you changed your mind,” he said.
Nico was stunned into silence.
“I can’t go through with it,” Hades said, holding his son tightly.
Relief crashed into Nico like a tsunami. It was as if he’d been swimming desperately against a current, fighting to keep his head above water, and his toes had finally touched the sand.
When he looked back, Thanatos was gone.
Chapter 94: The Judgment of Nico di Angelo
Notes:
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Chapter Text
Nico laid back on his beach towel, feeling heat radiate up through his bones, relaxing his muscles. He dug his toes into the hot sand and closed his eyes, listening to the sound of the gentle waves lapping the shore. He took in a deep breath of refreshing sulfur-scented air. It didn’t get any better than this.
He and his dad had decided to celebrate his non-re-humanizing – he really needed a better word for that – with a beach day. His dad had objected to the term ‘celebrate’, since he blamed personal weakness for his failure to re-humanize his son, and that was certainly nothing to celebrate. But Nico had insisted on father-son time, and so they were at the beach.
Hades was a few feet away reading a book in a beach chair. His entire face and body were illuminated in shifting red and orange light from the glow of the Phlegethon, the river of fire. He looked like he was living inside a salt lamp. He hadn’t spoken to Nico since they’d arrived at the beach, since he had a lot on his mind. But being together, and being himself, was enough for Nico.
He stood, walking across the black volcanic sand to stand at the edge of the lava. At this distance, his toes would already have been cooked into little chicken tenders if he’d been human. But he was a god, and the intense heat didn’t bother him.
He dipped his foot in and winced. It took a second to adjust, but soon he was ready to jump in. Swimming in lava felt like being submerged in hot pudding, and he relished the feeling. This had almost been taken from him, like so many other things.
He swam across the river and grabbed onto a rough pumice outcropping on the other side, climbing it. The sharp surface didn’t cut his skin, which was tougher than leather. He climbed hand over hand until he reached the top, and then he dove in.
When Nico surfaced, he saw that a glob of lava had splashed Hades, and his book now had a scorched hole through the middle.
“My bad,” Nico asked sheepishly.
Hades tossed his now-ruined book into the river.
“Forget it. Come here.”
Nico approached him, grabbing his towel. He brushed off the crust of hardening volcanic stone that had formed on his skin. It was a side effect of being a few hundred degrees cooler than the substance he was swimming in.
“I know you are happy,” Hades said, steepling his fingers.
“Very,” Nico said, sitting on the sand next to his dad’s chair. He stared at the lava river, waiting for the ‘but.’
“But there are a few things we need to talk about,” Hades said. “My worries about Kronos have not disappeared overnight.”
His paranoia, Nico thought, not daring to correct him. Kronos wasn’t coming back anytime soon. Hades couldn’t go an hour without thinking about him, though.
“How about this?” Nico said. “I swear on the Styx I’ll tell you if Kronos ever tries to contact me. Cool?”
Hades shook his head.
“He could use a proxy. It’s not enough. I need to be able to trust you. And I don’t.”
Nico gritted his teeth. He wasn’t going to make a stink about how his dad ought to trust him for no reason. He did have secrets. He’d never be able to tell him about his dealings with the Catholics. And divulging the fact that he was a psychopomp would only upset Thanatos more. He’d been very disappointed when Nico had been allowed to remain a god.
“I don’t trust you not to change your mind,” Nico said. “So the trust thing goes both ways.”
Hades stared out at the bubbling surface of the river.
“You were always angry with me for not trying harder to find another solution. This is me trying. But you have to meet me more than halfway,” Hades said, nearly pleading with him. He reached out and touched the side of his son’s face, holding eye contact with him. “Stay out of trouble from now on. Don’t leave the Underworld without telling me who you’re going to see. Keep your head low.”
Nico didn’t care if his life became boring and he had to ask permission to sneeze. He just needed to stay himself. He’d do whatever he needed to do.
“I will,” he promised.
“I wish I believed you,” Hades sighed.
Nico waited until he wasn’t looking to roll his eyes. His friends had all gotten tidy endings with the loose ends tied up. He felt like his situation had only slightly improved. Where was his happy ending?
The phone rang, and both of them perked up immediately. Hades answered within seconds.
“My love, to what do I owe the pleasure?” Hades asked. He sounded like a sweeter, softer version of himself when he talked to Persephone. It made Nico smile.
Hades and Persephone chatted for a few minutes, and he told her about their beach day. Eventually, she was put on speaker and the phone was handed to Nico.
“Honey, I’m so glad you changed your mind. I can’t imagine what made you want to be a stupid human again, it was just a ridiculous idea.”
“I agree,” Nico said, glancing at his dad. “Not sure what got into me.”
“Can I confess something a little naughty?” She laughed. “I was never going to change you back.”
“What?!” Hades said, looking deeply disturbed.
“I know. I told a fib,” she said. “But even if I wanted to make you human, I wouldn’t be able to go through with it. I like you too much the way you are. I only said I’d do it to sound supportive.”
“Mom…” Nico said, at a loss for words. He was happy to hear that both of his parents were deeply attached to him just as he was. Even so, his dad had enough trust issues without her adding to them.
“Did you even learn how to make him human? Or was that a lie, too?” Hades said.
“I did. I just don’t have the heart to mutilate my baby like that,” she said. “Nico, honey, we all go through phases when we’re new and trying to find ourselves. You’ll find your purpose eventually. I promise.”
“Thanks, mom.”
“Look, I’ve got to go. We’re doing squash blossoms today. I’ll see you boys in a few weeks!”
After she hung up, Hades seemed fed up with beach time. He kicked his beach chair into the river and watched it melt.
“We’re just throwing everything in the river today, huh?” Nico asked.
Hades folded his arms.
“How can I expect you to tell the truth when this is the example she sets,” he muttered.
“You lied to her, too. At least I come by my dishonesty honestly,” Nico said, chuckling. He abruptly stopped laughing when his dad looked at him. The realization dawned that Hades was very upset by the situation. “Not that I plan on ever lying to you again. Sir,” Nico added, overcorrecting a little.
Hades shook his head.
“She and I never used to lie to each other,” Hades said.
Nico heard what was unsaid. ‘Until you got here.’
“I think I’m gonna go visit Hazel for a while.” Nico stuttered. He knew he was just making things worse.
“I think that would be a good idea,” Hades said, without looking at him. “Take your time.”
Nico disappeared.
He reappeared in the woods outside of Camp Half-Blood. He stood alone in the shadow of the forest, shivering a little from the drastic change in air temperature. He adjusted quickly, shrugging his shoulders. Despite the pine trees overhead, the light from the sun was absolutely blinding. He squinted. He always hated coming to the surface during the day. It always felt like an obnoxious sensory overload.
Unexpectedly, another figure appeared in the trees beside him, only a foot away. Nico could tell immediately that it was Thanatos, even with his hand partially covering his eyes.
He smiled.
“I’m glad you came,” he said. “I was worried you were mad at me.”
Since he was looking down anyway, he could see that Thanatos’ wingtips were trailing in the sandy pine straw. He knelt down and extracted a few pieces of straw that had gotten trapped in his feathers, tugging Thanatos’ long mantle beneath them so that there was a barrier between the delicate feathers and the dirty ground.
As he touched the fabric of his mantle, Nico noticed it was cream colored fabric, edged in gold. Thanatos didn’t wear those colors.
He looked up. Eros was looking down at him, grinning.
“Touch me again,” he said. “I liked that.”
Nico gasped, backing up until his back hit a tree.
“Get away from me,” he hissed.
“Oh, come on!” Eros said, laughing hysterically. “Not my fault you thought I was my brother. Happens all the time, honestly. Don’t feel bad.”
“You sick freak,” Nico said. “You tricked me! You copied his haircut!”
“Oh, this?” Eros said, twirling a piece of hair around his finger. He’d chopped his hair off and straightened it, and he now had an extremely similar angled bob to his brother. “It looks sexy, right?”
“Not on you,” Nico said. It was a lie, since Eros always looked sexy, but he hated him too much to ever admit that. “I don’t want to talk to you. I don’t want you anywhere near me. You’re dead to me.”
“Doubt it. I’m immortal,” Eros grinned, his teeth glinting. “Does Than really let you play with his feathers like that? Hot.”
“I wasn’t-- That’s not-- Ugh!” Nico shuddered. “I’d have yanked them out if I’d known it was you.”
“Ooh. Spicy,” Eros said. “I like it. Give me more.”
Nico started walking away. There was no way to make Eros not horny, so he had no other choice but to extract himself from the conversation.
“Hey! Wait up,” Eros said, trotting behind him. “Are you mad at me?”
“I have a funeral to attend,” Nico said icily. “Kindly fuck off.”
They reached the edge of the forest. On the beach, the same one where Nico and Percy had fought long ago, a huge pyre had been built. Jason’s body lay atop it, clad in golden armor and covered in flowers. For a moment, he took Nico’s breath away.
“He’s beautiful,” Eros said.
“He is,” Nico admitted. On that one thing, they could definitely agree.
Eros reached for his hand. Nico slapped it away.
“Sorry. Thought we were having a moment,” Eros said. “You used to like me.”
“Not anymore,” Nico said through gritted teeth.
Eros stared up at the pyre. Campers were adding sticks and balled up newspaper to the base, preparing to light it. Chiron stood atop the dunes, supervising from a distance. He looked weary, his eyes red-rimmed. Jason’s funeral was not the first, nor the last that day, judging from other pyres on the beach that had burned low. Demigod bodies were often destroyed or devoured by monsters, leaving no remains, or they were otherwise returned to their mortal parents. But it was not unusual for them to be like Jason, with no human family to collect them.
Dionysus stepped onto the beach, with Percy and Annabeth walking at his side. He caught sight of Nico and Eros and waved at them, sensing the other gods immediately. Nico waved back politely, but when Dionysus tried to beckon him over for a chat, Nico shook his head.
Eros shuffled towards him, and Nico stepped sideways to get away. He didn’t want it to look like they were there together.
“Knock it off,” Nico hissed. “Why are you even here?”
“I knew Jason,” Eros said.
“Yeah, you told him he was dying,” Nico said angrily. “Who does that? Do you have no sense of tact?”
“Not really,” Eros laughed. “Come on! It was fate. I helped him,” Eros added.
“Jason said you wanted a favor from me. Well, forget about it,” Nico said. “Now shut up. Hazel’s here”
He disappeared into shadow, running over to Hazel invisibly. She had finally strolled down to the beach decked out in black, with the exception of her Camp Jupiter t-shirt. She even had an elegant black veil over her hair. Nico deeply appreciated her occasional touches of old-fashioned style.
“Hey, sis,” he said.
“I knew you’d be here,” she said, with no reaction other than a smile. She was used to the way he operated now. “Are you staying?”
“Not long. Good news, though. Dad gave me a reprieve. I’m not turning human.”
She gasped.
“Shoot,” she said, pulling her veil over her face to hide her expression of glee. “I shouldn’t smile at a funeral. But oh my gods! Nico! Everything is going so well! First Annabeth, then Jason, then you!”
“Smile away, sis,” Nico said. “Nobody’s gonna tell you how to act at a funeral. You’re the daughter of Pluto.”
“I’m the sister of Nico,” she said. “It’s a far greater honor.”
She looked around. Everyone was staring at her, watching her talk to nobody in front of the pyre.
“How is everyone?”
“We’re total wrecks,” she said. “Frank brought most of the logs over for the pyre. He cried so much they might be too wet to burn. Leo didn’t even come. He left a Post-It note that just said ‘I’m sorry, I can’t.’”
“Who needs him,” Nico said.
“Piper’s acting like a grieving widow, and Reyna, who actually deserves to act like that, keeps trying to be tough for everybody. Thalia is here, though. I think Reyna lets her guard down for her. She’ll be okay.”
“How are you? Just out here, managing everybody else’s grief?”
“Pretty much,” Hazel said. “I feel good. Sad, but good. Is that weird? I like seeing how much he meant to everyone. It’s beautiful.”
“That doesn’t sound weird at all. But look who’s talking, I guess,” Nico said. “Did you tell them where he is?”
“Not yet.”
“Well, I jotted down some details for you to share at the right moment.”
He passed his phone into her hand, and her smile got even bigger.
“Got it. Is Thanatos coming to say hello? I saw him standing with you.”
“Um. No.” Nico said.
Campers were taking places on the sand slowly. Camp Half Blood and Camp Jupiter kids were still keeping a bit of space between them, but not too much. Jason had brought them together for one last time.
Hazel lit a torch and held it at the base of the pyre. As the kindling caught, the remaining members of the Seven all went up to say a few words about Jason. It was odd to see how sad they all were, while Nico wasn’t really sad at all. Even Percy shed a few tears, and he hadn’t been close with him.
The only speech that got him emotional was Reyna’s. She was trying to be stoic, and kept quoting Marcus Aurelius, making very practical points about the inevitability of death. But the contrast between her words and her expression were tough to witness. She didn’t get to the end of her speech before she couldn’t go on anymore. Thalia finished reading it while Reyna left to cry on the other side of the pyre where no one could see.
“Hi,” Hazel said, shuffling up to stand next to the pyre, her bare feet buried in the sand. “I’m Hazel. I didn’t know Jason as well as I would have liked to. But I got the chance to have some good conversations with him about death before the end, and I was there when he died. I hope you find it comforting to know that he was ready. He died in his sleep, smiling. I hope it’s like that for me someday, too.”
A few people muttered that she was being awkward, which was true, but Nico could tell she was just trying not to appear happy. Instead, she came off slightly crazed.
Dionysus had apparently heard the news about Jason’s afterlife already, because he handed Hazel a microphone for her big announcement. It was needed, because the crowd was fanned out pretty far along the beach, and a few naiads had popped out of the water to listen in. The flames were roaring and crackling, and wood and bone splintered as Jason roasted and charred on the pyre, adding an eerie background soundtrack to the speeches.
Hazel adjusted her veil.
“For y’all that don’t know me, I’m the daughter of Pluto. I’ve also died once already. Long story. Anyway, you’ve heard about what a great person Jason was,” Hazel said, her face splitting into an unrestrained grin. “Now I wanna tell you what an amazing shade he is.”
Everyone stared at her, the younger campers appearing totally confused. The older heroes, though, the ones who had lost friends and enemies alike that day, listened carefully. They had probably been devoting some thought to the afterlife lately. They wanted to know what kind of inside baseball Hazel was about to spill.
She paused for anticipation.
“Jason is in the Isles of the Blessed!” She said.
Reactions were a little confused at first. As Nico had suspected, a lot of kids needed to be reminded of the concept. The Underworld was only one slide on the new-camper Powerpoint presentation, after all.
“Who was he in his past life?” Annabeth asked.
“Nico only mentioned one name. Sarpedon?” Hazel said.
“Sarpedon? Oh my gods, that’s awesome!” Annabeth said exuberantly.
“Who?” Percy asked.
“Sarpedon! From the Iliad?” Annabeth said.
“Sounds like some kind of prehistoric animal,” Percy said.
“You’re thinking of a mastodon, seaweed brain,” Annabeth said, hitting him playfully.
“There’s one other thing,” Hazel said. “In the Isles, you get assigned an orientation leader to show you around for your first few days. Nico told me who Jason’s guide is.”
“Who?” Frank asked.
“Someone named Robin Williams,” Hazel said.
That got a much bigger reaction than Sarpedon. Some people started crying all over again.
“Glad y’all had heard of him. I hadn’t,” Hazel shrugged.
“Robin Williams. Wow,” Percy said. “I need to get into the Isles of the Blessed.”
“You will,” Annabeth said, wiping tears from her eyes. “Someday. Just not anytime soon, okay?”
“I’m not in a rush,” Percy said, putting his arm around her shoulders. Annabeth looked over, right at where Nico was standing invisibly in the shadow of the trees. If he didn’t know better, he’d think she could see him.
Nico was ready to leave. His work was well and truly done now. There was just one lingering problem.
“Where ya going?” Eros asked, chasing after him as Nico headed back into the woods.
“Fuck off,” Nico said, spinning in a rage to face him. He was furious that Eros had crashed Jason’s funeral, which Nico had been looking forward to for ages. “Never contact me again. And change your damn hair!”
“Nico, please just hear me out,” Eros pleaded. “It’s a small favor, really. And it’s partly for Thanatos’ sake.”
Nico hesitated.
“I miss my family,” Eros said, his tone of voice changing to reveal a deep well of sadness beneath his flippant exterior. “And I know they miss me, too. Especially Thanatos. I want to come home.”
“To the Underworld?” Nico asked. “I don’t have anything to do with that.”
“But you do, though,” Eros said. “The reason I was exiled was because I shot your dad and made him–”
“Stop talking,” Nico interrupted. “Stop. I don’t want to hear about it.”
“You already know what I’m about to say. Everybody knows,” Eros said.
“These are my parents you’re talking about,” Nico said angrily. “I don’t want to know. What happened between them thousands of years ago isn’t my business.”
“See, this is why you’re so perfect to do this for me,” Eros said. “If anyone can convince Hades and Persephone to give me a second chance, it’s you. You’re the new leaf they’ve turned over. Everything is different now.”
Nico shook his head.
“No way. I’m not bringing it up, I’m not even thinking about it. If they wanted you to come back to the Underworld, they would have already made it happen.”
“But what about Thanatos?” Eros said. “You wouldn’t even do it to make your soulmate happy?”
Nico stared at him, his eyes going wide.
“Oh, you didn’t know?” Eros laughed.
“I suspected,” Nico said, trying to hide his excitement. He couldn’t wait to tell Thanatos that they really were connected on a cosmic level, cut from the same thread. “It doesn’t change anything. I still won’t help you.”
He wouldn’t ask for something that could hurt his parents. Not even for Thanatos.
Eros slumped his shoulders.
“I knew it was a long shot,” he said.
“Don’t try to contact me again,” Nico said firmly. “Thanatos can’t find out that we know each other. You know. From before.”
“You mean when I took your virginity?” Eros asked.
“Please never say that out loud again,” Nico said, cringing. He had been so naive. He wished he’d known then what he knew now. “If Thanatos found out, it would break him.”
Eros shrugged his wings.
“You coddle him too much. He’d get over it.”
“He wouldn’t,” Nico said. “He struggles with enough insecurity in our relationship as it is.”
Eros put his hands on his hips.
“Nico, chillax. I’ve known my brother for way longer than you. Everybody babies him, but he’s tougher than you give him credit for. Don’t believe his woe-is-me self pitying crap. He gets bored. He likes to play the victim. He likes the attention it gets him.”
“You’re an asshole,” Nico said.
“You’re his soulmate. He’s stuck with you. Tell him the truth. Make him grow up and deal with it. Otherwise I might have to do it for you someday,” Eros said, waggling his finger.
“You wouldn’t dare,” Nico said, baring his teeth.
“So controlling! Scared he wouldn’t love you anymore if he knew?” Eros laughed. “Maybe you’re the one who’s insecure.”
Before Nico could cuss him out, Eros disappeared into a fold in space.
Frustrated, Nico headed home. The interaction could have gone worse, but he didn’t like that it had happened at all.
He stood in the throne room and took a deep breath. He needed to stay out of trouble; he couldn’t let on to his dad that anything was wrong, lest he grow more suspicious.
“Funeral went great,” he lied, walking into Hades’ office with a spring in his step and praying he was in a better mood.
In fact, he was. Hades looked up from his computer and smiled, happy to see him.
“I’m glad to hear it,” Hades said. “I was planning to watch a movie later, if you wanted to join me. You haven’t seen Life is Beautiful yet. It’s my favorite film. You don’t have to,” he added awkwardly.
“Sure,” Nico shrugged. “It sounds uplifting.”
“Well. Sort of,” Hades said.
His phone buzzed.
“Nemesis sent me something,” Hades said, raising his eyebrows. “Odd. She’s not usually a social media person.”
He opened the link, staring at his phone screen in consternation.
“I thought you said you were visiting Hazel,” he said.
“I was,” Nico said. His heart started beating faster. He walked around to look at the phone. It was a Godstagram post, on the Gossip Goddess account.
Someone had been photographing him at Camp Half Blood. They’d snapped a picture of the microsecond where Eros had grabbed his hand, an instant before Nico had pushed him away.
Hades swiped, and another image appeared. Nico was kneeling, brushing off Ero’s feathers, smiling up at him lovingly.
“What is this?” Hades asked. “Is that Thanatos with you?”
“Yes,” Nico said immediately.
“Eros is tagged.”
“I don’t even know Eros,” Nico said, panicking.
Hades peered closer at the picture.
“Well, I’ve known him for thousands of years. And that is definitely Eros in that picture.”
Nico flushed beet red. Okay, that was humiliating, because he had mixed the two brothers up initially, and he hadn’t been looking at a blurry photo on a phone.
“You do know Eros,” Hades said, turning to look at Nico. “You met him when you were in New York. At least you told me that you did,” he said, raising his eyebrows.
“Oh. Oh, right, THAT Eros,” Nico laughed nervously. “Well, he was Cupid back then. If you’d said Cupid, I’d have totally remembered. Yeah, we met. Ha. Ha ha.”
Hades’ face was stony, entirely without patience. Nico wished he could seal his own stupid mouth shut.
“I think we’re past the point of mixing up Greek and Roman names, don’t you think?” Hades said, his voice tense with restrained anger.
Nico bit his lip.
“I’m sorry,” he said. “That was stupid. It is Eros. I don’t know why I lied.”
Hades looked at the pictures again.
“I despise Eros,” he said.
“So do I,” Nico said. “Those pictures make it look like something it’s not. I mistook him for Thanatos for a few seconds, but as soon as I realized, I didn’t get anywhere near him.”
“Your obsession with lying borders on the pathological,” Hades said, rubbing the bridge of his nose. “I strongly suggest you stop talking, Nico.”
Nico pursed his lips, gnawing on the inside of his mouth and violently suppressing the urge to defend himself. It was clearly not getting him anywhere.
“You are cheating on your boyfriend with his brother,” Hades said, tossing his phone onto the desk with a clatter. “I don’t care if you want to make a mess of your personal life. It’s common enough in this pantheon. But you are dating one of my employees. Thanatos will quit over this. Once again, your foolish actions throw my kingdom into disarray.”
“I know you don’t believe me,” Nico said. “But it’s really not true. Eros will back me up on that. I don’t think he’s responsible for these photos.”
There was a chance Eros really was behind it, but he had no reason to hurt his brother with a lie. Aphrodite was the person usually accused of being Gossip Goddess, but would she have made the post without Eros’ permission? None of it made any sense.
Hades steepled his fingers, staring at the top of his desk.
“I wish I was stupid enough to believe you,” he admitted. “I wish I was a parent like Hera, who believes her children can do no wrong. I’m sure she sleeps easily at night.”
“Papa, I’m sorry,” Nico said. It was a strange place to be stuck, halfway between innocence and guilt. He hadn’t betrayed Thanatos, but he’d lied enough that the truth could not set him free.
Hades didn’t respond to his apology.
“Sit,” he said quietly, speaking after a long period of silence.
“Papa–”
“SIT,” Hades bellowed.
Nico slid down in his chair, slumping. If he didn’t get this cleared up fast, he was screwed. Why had he lied and pretended not to know Eros? It had been a reflex. A really stupid reflex.
“Can I go talk to Thanatos?” Nico asked.
“If you think you can keep from making things worse,” Hades said. “Just stay in the chair.”
For a second, Nico didn’t get it. Then he remembered he was a god, and split his consciousness in two. He hoped Thanatos hadn’t seen the post yet.
Thanatos wasn’t in his bedroom. Nico glanced around the empty black cave and saw that Thanatos’ Mythomagic cards, once neatly arranged in a display rack, were scattered across the ground. His gaming table was shattered, with jagged pieces everywhere. It looked like he’d hurled it against the wall.
He’d seen the post.
If Thanatos had gone to his mother already, Nico wouldn’t dare go near. Nyx might vaporize him on sight. He went to the only other place he could think to check: the egg field.
The iridescent black sphere hovered in the middle of empty space in the odd pocket dimension it inhabited. Nico went up to the bubble and knocked gently.
“It’s me,” he said. “Can we talk?”
He had no idea how to fix this. But he had to try.
The barrier forming the outside of the bubble shivered. A tall figure stepped through, and for a moment, Nico had hope that Than was willing to hear him out. But this person had gray wings and curly hair, and he looked really pissed off.
“No,” Hypnos said, pointing at Nico. His eyes glowed bright yellow like an angry cat. “Leave. Now.”
“It’s a misunderstanding,” Nico pleaded, clasping his hands together. “Please. There’s nothing going on between me and Eros. Those pictures make it look like something it’s not.”
Hypnos rolled his eyes. He obviously didn’t believe him.
Nico couldn’t blame him. He barely believed himself.
“I knew you would be trouble from the minute you started hanging out with my brother,” Hypnos said. “You promised you wouldn’t hurt him. Why are you even a part of this pantheon? Why are you here? To make everything worse?”
“I’m his soulmate,” Nico said. “Can you at least tell him that?”
“I can’t tell him anything. He’s too upset,” Hypnos said. “And I doubt it’s true. Get out of here before I call my sisters. They’re not as nice as I am.”
Nico heeded his warning and disappeared.
He merged back into the body he’d left in his dad’s office.
“Let me guess. No luck?” Hades asked.
Nico swallowed around a lump in his throat.
He hadn’t asked Eros to stalk him at the funeral. He hadn’t taken the pictures or posted them. He hadn’t done anything wrong. But he still felt responsible for hurting Thanatos. Maybe if he’d been more trustworthy, more selfless, a better boyfriend, he might have avoided this somehow.
“He’s got his siblings ganging up on me. I can’t get in to see him,” Nico said, his voice shaky.
Hades swung his sandaled feet to sit on top of his desk and folded his arms across his chest.
“I have historically not gotten on well with Thanatos,” he said. “And yet, even my heart breaks for him. Of all the gods and mortals to choose from, why his brother? Did you desire to hurt him? Has he wronged you in some way?”
“Please don’t guilt-trip me,” Nico said. He was sick to his stomach at the thought of how Thanatos might be feeling. Without seeing him, he could only imagine. Somehow not knowing was worse than getting screamed at and having furniture thrown at his head.
“I’m not assuming that you feel any guilt. I simply don’t understand the drive for infidelity so many others seem to suffer from,” Hades said.
“Those pictures don’t prove I actually did anything,” Nico said.
“Remember who my brothers are. Then ask me how many times you think I’ve heard that excuse,” Hades said. “Stop defending yourself. It’s tiresome to listen to.”
There was a knock on the doorway of Hades’ office. A god with curly brown hair and a winged baseball cap poked his head in the door, smiling.
“Hey, Uncle,” Hermes said, waving childishly at Hades. He seemed unusually cheerful. He normally resented having to work in the Underworld, on the rare occasions he showed up for meetings.
“You have exceedingly poor timing today,” Hades said. “I’m busy managing a crisis, Hermes. Come back later.”
“You know, I actually have perfect timing. Always,” Hermes said, looking at Nico. There was a glimmer of malice behind his eyes that made Nico’s skin crawl.
Just behind Hermes, a narrow rodent-like face appeared, with hair like raven’s feathers that matched her wings.
“We need Nico down at the judgment platform,” Nemesis said, smiling big enough to show off every single one of her pointy teeth. “He is under arrest.”
Nico’s stomach dropped like a rock.
“Very funny,” Hades said. “If infidelity was a crime, I’d be the only member of this family not in Tartarus.”
Hermes and Nemesis both stared at him, waiting out the awkward second before he caught on.
“You’re serious,” Hades said, a terrible look of confusion crossing his face. Nico could see his dad’s eye bags get darker practically in real time.
“Serious as a heart attack, I’m afraid,” Hermes said, walking up behind Nico and knuckling the top of his head. “Come on, cousin. Time to face the music.”
“Let’s get this done,” Nemesis said. “We don’t have all day.” She brandished something long and green in her hands. Nico flinched as she reached for his arms.
“Get your hands off of my son,” Hades said, walking over to stand between the two gods and Nico. “What is he being accused of?””
Sitting on the cold little metal chair of his dad’s office, the full weight of his situation hit Nico like a sack of cinderblocks.
Thanatos had pulled the trigger. He’d gone scorched earth. He wanted Nico to disappear forever.
“Stolen divinity,” Nico answered, depriving Hermes of the pleasure of answering. He looked up at his dad. “Thanatos is accusing me of working as a psychopomp without his permission.” He glanced back at Hermes. “Unless you’re the one accusing me.”
“I don’t mind piling on,” Hermes said. “But I think Thanatos’ accusation carries a little more weight. Don’t you agree?”
Nico dug his fingernails into his palms. He reminded himself that Thanatos genuinely believed Nico was hooking up with his estranged brother behind his back. That was sick and twisted and evil. It wasn’t true, but Thanatos didn’t know that. It made sense that he wanted revenge.
It made sense, but it felt like Nico’s heart had gotten ripped out of his chest.
“If a trial is what he wants,” he said, rising from his chair. “That’s what he’ll get.”
He didn’t look at his dad, keeping his gaze focused downward. He needed to stay calm if he was going to plead his innocence to the judges. That wouldn’t be easy, and it probably wouldn’t work. He had taken souls, even though it was not his job to do so. That was stolen divinity– so long as he didn’t have permission to do it.
He’d had permission at the time. But that didn’t matter anymore. Thanatos had retracted his permissions and was holding Nico accountable retroactively.
Hades seemed like he was waiting for Nico to deny it, to explain himself, to make excuses. In fact, he was probably expecting him to try to lie his way out of it, but Nico had lost his taste for deception. He’d hid a massive part of himself for a long time in order to keep Thanatos happy. In a cruel way, Than was doing him a favor by pulling back the curtain.
Nico didn’t want to have to explain himself more than once, so his dad would have to wait for the trial. But Hades would finally get what he’d always wanted – the truth.
“I will be making sure you can’t go anywhere,” Nemesis said. She walked up to Nico and started tying his hands up. Nico just let her do it. He felt the familiar sting of thorns cutting into his wrists.
“Are those--”
“Gaea’s old poison vines? Yeah,” she said. “They are. I know everyone got vaccinated, but they should still pack a punch. You won’t be disappearing on me anytime soon.”
Hades did nothing as his son was restrained and hauled to his feet. He followed silently as Nico was marched out of the palace, across the patio, down the stairs and out through Asphodel. There probably wasn’t a single shade in the Fields that didn’t get a good gander at the prince of the Underworld being arrested and dragging to his sentencing.
The humiliation was crippling. With every step, it grew harder for Nico to hold space for the fact that there had been a misunderstanding. This was Thanatos’ wrath. He was taking something beautiful that they’d shared and beating Nico over the head with it.
Someday, Thanatos would understand that he’d ruined Nico’s life because of a false accusation. Nico hoped he choked on the truth.
He didn’t look back at his dad’s face as he was perp-walked out to the banks of the river Styx. He drew on anger to keep him focused. If he let up on the rage pedal, he’d go into an emotional tailspin. It helped that Nemesis was being rough with him, tugging on the vines that bound him, and Hermes kept giggling.
When they reached the platform, Hermes trotted up to the judges’ table on his speedy little winged feet, getting there before everyone else.
“What is this about?” Minos asked, looking at Nico with dismay.
“Minos? You and the little prince used to be lovers,” Hermes announced, pulling Minos’ chair back. “Therefore you’re recused from the judges’ stand to prevent bias. I will be taking your place.”
Minos was forced out of his seat as Nico watched in growing horror. Hermes sat down in Minos’ chair and made himself comfortable, helping himself to some wine from the minifridge. Aeacus and Rhadamanthys, sitting on either side of him, were both staring at each other in confusion.
Nico saw the line of shades waiting on judgment and the stack of paperwork overflowing on the desk, and he grew even angrier. People’s afterlives were being interrupted for a sham trial. With Hermes as the tiebreaker, he was sure to be convicted.
He looked around and saw that Charon had walked over to observe, too. Even Alecto and her sisters had flown in. Just like Jason’s judgment, he’d drawn an audience. He was pretty sure his story wouldn’t end so well.
“Allow me to explain the charges,” Hermes said, shuffling papers. It was for show, because the papers had already been on the desk before he got there, and he set them back down without looking at them.
“Nico, you have been formally charged with performing the duties of a psychopomp without authorization, usurping the divine purpose of Thanatos,” he said. “It’s not complicated. How do you plead?”
Nico gave in to the temptation to glance back at his dad, just enough to confirm he was still there. He was, but he was keeping his distance, his face blank. It was probably a good thing that Nico couldn’t read his expression. He didn’t even want to speculate about what his dad was feeling right now. He was probably contemplating a very late-term abortion.
“He gave me permission,” Nico said. “I was helping.”
He was wasting his breath. Hermes was well aware that Nico had Thanatos’ support the whole time. That didn’t matter anymore.
“The accusation implies you did not have permission,” Hermes said.
“I need to talk to him,” Nico said, looking at Nemesis for help. “If you could just bring him–”
“Yeah, right!” She said, laughing wickedly. “I’m not dragging my brother down here so you can cry and beg for forgiveness. Feel free to beg me, if you like.”
Nico swallowed, thinking over his options. He didn’t really have any. The accusation was true. It was bullshit, but it was factual. Nico had stolen Thanatos’ divinity. He’d performed another god’s purpose over and over and over, like it had been his own purpose.
Because it was his purpose. Thanatos was his soulmate. They were two peas in a divine pod.
He wasn’t sure if bringing up the soulmate thing would help, but he didn’t want to share that information in front of everyone. It felt too intimate. His soul was none of their business.
“I’m guilty,” Nico said. To say anything else would only delay the inevitable.
Hermes tsked.
“You make it too easy,” he said, resting his chin on his palm. “Now we don’t even need to vote. Whatever. I’ll say it anyway. Nico di Angelo, son of Hades, I pronounce you guilty of stolen divinity. I hereby sentence you to two years in Tartarus.”
“Standard is one year,” Nemesis said, cracking her knuckles. “But we figured you needed to learn your lesson extra well.”
At first, Nico was horrified. He hated Tartarus. Everyone did. That was the point. But then again, Damasen and Bob had lived down there for centuries with no hope of release. If they could do it, he could do it.
Hades made a strained noise behind him, like he was about to interrupt, then stopped himself. Nico took a deep breath, trying to stay calm and manage his fears.
“Would I be restrained down there?” He asked.
“Any attempt to leave will result in restraint and a longer sentence,” Nemesis said. “And we may find an eagle to pluck out your liver while we’re at it!”
“Or we could nail you to a burning wheel and spin you around a bit,” Hermes added.
The muscle of Nico’s heart clenched with an intense feeling of impending doom-- and then the feeling dissipated. His body relaxed, his hands unclenched and fell open at his sides. His face fell into a neutral, maybe slightly amused expression.
“Fine. I’ll go,” he said, shrugging.
“Really? I mean, good,” Hermes said, looking shocked and pleased.
“I just need one of you to do me a favor.”
“Oh. Here it comes,” Hermes said, resting his head on his hand. “What?”
“Tell Thanatos I forgive him.”
Hermes’ mouth turned into an upside down ‘U’ shape, and he scratched his head, staring at Nico in surprise.
Nico was surprised at himself, too. But it felt right.
“What was that? I didn’t catch that last bit,” Hermes said, rubbing his ears like he’d misheard.
“Tell Thanatos I said I forgive--” Nico started.
“Alright, alright,” Hermes said. “Weird. But I’ll tell him.”
Nico’s gesture had Hermes flummoxed, but Nemesis was furious. She flapped her wings loudly, emanating an aura of rage.
“Liar,” she said. “You’re using that as a ploy. You want him to take pity on you.”
“He probably won’t care,” Nico said. “But I want him to know. I forgive him.”
“We get it. Now stop saying it. It freaks me out,” Hermes said. “Nemesis will take you down to your new home. See you in two years. I hope it sucks.”
Nico stared at his cousin. He was tired of Olympians and their drama. He almost looked forward to Tartarus. A break from all the horrible people in his dysfunctional family sounded nice.
“What did I do to make you hate me so much, Hermes?” Nico asked. “Just wondering.”
Hermes shot him a dark look.
“You know what you did,” he muttered.
Nico did not know. But he didn’t ask for clarification. Looking between Hermes and Nemesis, something tickled the back of his mind. Maybe there was a reason they’d ganged up on him together. But he couldn’t remember.
“Seems it’s time for me to escort you to your place of punishment,” Nemesis said, tugging on the vines that entangled Nico’s arms. “Or did you have loose ends to tie up? Wanna pack a lunch?”
“Wait! I’m sorry, my King,” Minos said, stepping onto the dais and addressing Hades directly. “I need to speak on this before Nico is gone and it’s too late.”
Hades gave Minos a grateful look.
“I would appreciate some clarity,” he said quietly. “I have much to think on. And I trust you more than anyone else here.”
Minos straightened his ghostly chiton and looked at Nico pityingly.
“Most of us that work down here have known what Nico was doing for a long time,” Minos admitted. “Charon knew. We judges knew. The Furies knew. All the shades, obviously, knew. Lord Hermes has been aware for months. None of us said anything because Thanatos forbade it.”
“You are saying that Nico has told the truth today,” Hades said, looking at Nico with a little relief mixed into his tired and angry face.
“Nico is honest when it counts. He is not what you think he is,” Minos said.
“I have no idea what he is,” Hades said.
He said it plainly, a statement of fact, but Nico lost control of the tears that welled up in his eyes.
“I’m sorry, Papa. If I could go back and do it again, I’d have told you. Than always said if I told anyone, he’d… Well, he’d do this,” Nico said, reaching up and wiping his nose. “I wanted you to know what I can do. I didn’t like lying and sneaking around behind your back. I just thought I didn’t have a choice.”
Hades stared at Nico’s arms. Nico glanced down. The vines had fallen off of his wrists.
“Uh,” Nemesis said, frowning. “Let me just… There,” she said, knotting them even more tightly on his forearms.
Nico rolled his eyes. There was nothing anyone could do to keep him imprisoned against his will. Gaea could have, but she was gone now. He was fearing Tartarus less the more he thought about it. He could probably leave and come back without being noticed.
“How many souls have you actually taken, Nico?” Hades asked.
Minos turned to the crowd of whispering shades that hovered at the edge of the platform.
“Everyone,” Minos said. “Raise your hand if Nico was the one to collect your soul.”
First one, then another, and then hundreds of shades raised their ghostly hands. In the end, over a thousand shades were holding their hands aloft. Some of them called Nico’s name, and reached for him.
At first, he was a little freaked out. Was everyone in Asphodel one of his? The statistics on that made no sense.
Then he realized. His shades had come to see his trial. They were there to support him.
He looked at one, and recognized an old man who died in his rocking chair on the front porch. His hat had fallen off. Nico had placed it back on his head before he’d taken his soul. Another was a woman who had died of cancer in a hospital bed with no one at her side. Before he took her soul, Nico had whispered a promise to her that she wasn’t alone.
He blinked back tears.
“I remember all of you,” he said. “I love all of you. I’ll be back soon. I promise.”
He watched them smile and speak his name. He felt their love reflected back to him. It felt right. This was what he was meant to do, his purpose. In spite of everything, it felt good to acknowledge his souls openly instead of smuggling them like bricks of ghost cocaine across a border.
He turned back to his dad.
“This is what I’ve been hiding,” Nico said. “Now you know.”
He looked Hades in the eyes. Maybe, once the two years were up, this could mean something good for the two of them. Even if he’d lost Thanatos forever, he’d still have his family.
“You will not be going to Tartarus today,” Hades said.
Flooded with relief, Nico went to hug him. But as he approached, Hades took a step backward. Instead of a hug, he grabbed Nico by the wrist.
Nico looked down. His bonds had fallen away again, and Hades was holding him even tighter than the vines had been tied, tight enough to bruise.
“You’re hurting me,” Nico said, not understanding why his dad was looking at him so coldly. Wasn’t he giving him another reprieve?
Hades looked up at Hermes and Nemesis.
“Your punishment is ill thought out,” he said. “Nico cannot be restrained by any bonds yet made. Even Gaea herself failed to hold him. No god can force him to go anywhere against his will. None, besides myself.”
Nico looked back on his memories and recalled that this was true. Even when he’d been in his true form, attacking the legionaries who had killed Cerberus, Hades had been able to subdue him. It was probably something to do with the amount of ichor they shared.
“He agreed to go to Tartarus,” Nemesis said. “I’d certainly prefer to tie him up and play with him a little. But it’s not strictly necessary.”
“He will not be going to Tartarus,” Hades repeated. “He cannot be trusted to stay there. He cannot be prevented from leaving. And while he is there, he will be vulnerable to influences that I cannot risk giving him access to.”
Hades looked out at the shades crowding the fields.
“It seems he has had the run of my kingdom. All this time, I had no idea how deep his deception ran.”
Nico felt the blood run out of his face, leaving him feeling cold and numb. His dad’s fingers dug into his skin deep enough to bruise. The bones of his wrist creaked in his grasp.
“Lord Hades,” Minos said, looking at Nico fearfully. “What are you planning to do?”
“You are dismissed, Minos,” Hades said. “I’ve heard enough.”
“I’ve made my oaths on the Styx,” Nico said. His voice came out quieter than he intended. He was still in denial that this was happening. Surely his father wasn’t so angry that he would come up with a worse punishment than Tartarus? Surely he wouldn’t turn Nico human again?
Deep down, Nico knew that was exactly what Hades planned to do. But he couldn’t accept that it was really happening.
“They were not enough,” Hades said.
“I can make more,” Nico said desperately. “I can make them strong enough to replace physical chains. Stronger, even. I could promise not to leave Tartarus. I could swear not to speak to anyone while I’m there. Why is that not good enough for you?”
Hades was silent.
“Nothing will ever be good enough,” Nico said, staring at his own reflection in the dark stone beneath his feet. He could see his dad’s reflection, too. A similar face to his own, but colder, wearier, more closed off. He looked up at his dad, and he could see his decision behind his eyes as surely as if he’d slammed a door in his face.
“You don’t like lies. You don’t like the truth,” Nico said, his voice becoming strained. “You don’t like when I break promises, so I make promises I can’t break. You don’t like those either.”
“This conversation is not productive,” Hades said.
“We haven’t had a productive conversation in years,” Nico snarled. He tried to wrench his arm away, and nearly dislocated his shoulder in the attempt. He wasn’t going anywhere. “Why did you even bother giving me a reprieve the other night? Why not just make me human the way we planned? Were you waiting on a chance to do it in a more humiliating way? Did you need a better excuse?”
Hades narrowed his eyes.
“Stop.”
“The sentence was two years in Tartarus. But once I’m human, that’s it. You’ll never let me change back, will you?”
“Stop talking, Nico,” Hades said.
“If you want me to stop, stop me,” Nico shouted. “Show your subjects how you treat the people you love. Be honest. I know that’s important to you.”
Hades did not seal his mouth. Somewhere in his stony, iced-over heart, Hades felt some shame about what he was doing. But it wouldn’t be enough to stop him from making Nico human.
“You have been convicted of a crime,” Hades said, appearing highly aware of his audience. “You need to be punished, and this is the only one I find appropriate, given your unique circumstances.”
“The unique circumstance of you wanting to get rid of me,” Nico said.
“I never wanted to get rid of you,” Hades said. “I want you here. I simply need to manage the risk you carry.”
“You want part of me here,” Nico said. “The part you can handle. You made your home into a Procrustean bed, and you want to cut off all the pieces of me that don’t fit.”
“Very literary, but wrong,” Hades said. “You were born human. It is not harmful to return you to your original form.”
“You’ve never been human. You don’t know what it means to become one,” Nico said. “You don’t know how much of me I’d lose. Why are you so afraid of me? I’ve never tried to hurt you. I’m not going to run away. But you won’t let go of my arm, will you?” He asked, raising his voice even louder.
He didn’t want anyone to miss what was happening. If nothing else, Persephone needed to be able to hear the full story later. It was unlikely that Nico would be able to tell her himself.
Hades looked down at his hand, and his jaw twitched. It looked massive clasped around Nico’s comparatively small arm. He still didn’t let go.
“I never wanted to become a human again,” Nico said. “But I was going to do it because I love you. Because you’re my dad. It was never supposed to be a punishment. You weren’t going to force me. Why did you change your mind?”
“I have no choice–”
“Is it that important for you to have complete control?” Nico interrupted, attempting to free his arm again to help make his point. “Do you like it better if I don’t consent?”
Minos gasped.
“Damn,” Hermes said.
Hades disappeared, taking Nico with him.
As the darkness enveloped them both, Nico realized he’d crossed a line with that comment. But what difference did it make how angry Hades was? It was just one more reason to do exactly what he’d always planned on doing.
They appeared precisely where Nico had least wanted to go. The light of Olympus blinded him. He was dragged before Zeus’s throne, currently unoccupied.
“Zeus!” Hades called out, his voice booming in the air.
“You rang?” Zeus said, appearing on his throne. “Oh. Hades. This is… Unanticipated.” He slouched on the throne, throwing a leg over one arm to appear at ease. “I figured you’d come crawling back eventually. You probably need something. Don’t tell me the precious little prince needs another vaccination or something? Tell me he’s sick. Make my day.”
Nico looked down feeling dazed. This could not be his life. It had been hard enough to accept the idea of Persephone making him a human. For Zeus to do it…
He looked down at Zeus’ feet. He was wearing Crocs with socks.
For some reason, that was all it took to break him.
He fell to his knees and grabbed his dad’s leg, using the arm that Hades didn’t have clamped in a viselike grip.
“Papa, I’m sorry. I’m sorry for what I said, I’m sorry for lying, I’m sorry for whatever you want me to be sorry for. Please don’t do this.” He pressed his forehead to Hades’ calf bone, feeling tears fall down his cheeks. It couldn’t end like this. If it had to end, fine, but not Zeus. Anyone else.
“Nico,” Hades said, his resolve faltering. “This is the only way.”
“Please. I’m begging you,” Nico said. “We can still go home. I’ll never ask for anything else. I’ll do whatever you want. Just not here. Not like this.”
“What’s his problem?” Zeus asked.
“I need you to make him human,” Hades said.
Zeus rubbed his hands together. Nico shuddered at the sight.
“Don’t have to ask me twice,” Zeus said.
He reached out for Nico, but Nico moved to hide behind Hades’ legs.
“Papa, please,” Nico said. He didn’t care how much he had to grovel. He’d beg until his voice went hoarse. But he couldn’t give Zeus the satisfaction of taking his divinity away. “We don’t trust Zeus, remember? Demeter could do it. We can ask her! I could talk to mom. How are you going to explain this to her?”
Hades looked down at him. He pulled Nico to his feet, looking into his eyes and running his hand through his hair. He used to do that affectionately. Maybe he still meant it that way, partly. Nico felt a glimmer of hope.
As Hades withdrew his hand, Nico felt his mouth seal shut.
He felt like he was choking on all the words that he’d now lost the chance to speak. Once he was human, his opinion would cease to matter. He’d have no choice but to do as he was told forever.
Zeus held up his hands, ready to strip Nico of everything that made him Nico.
The smell of ozone and a crackle of static reminded Nico of the day his mother had been killed. Zeus wasn’t about to kill him, but it was close enough. It was like he was reliving that day in the hotel all over again.
“I’m doing this for you,” Hades told him, holding him by the shoulders so that he couldn’t move out of Zeus’ reach. He spoke calmly and reassuringly, like he was talking a toddler through a measles vaccine. “For our family. After this, we will be happy. Everything is going to be fine. Don’t be afraid.”
Nico was shaking violently. More than fear of becoming human, Zeus’ presence in front of him, with no one in between them, was more terrifying to Nico than he could have possibly imagined.
Nico shut his eyes. At the very last instant, he hoped for a miracle. He hoped Persephone would arrive and snatch him out of the way. That Thanatos would come and slap Zeus for daring to lay a finger on his soulmate. He even hoped his dad might have a change of heart. He’d tell Nico he loved him just the way he was. But this time, it would be true.
Zeus reached for him.
No miracle came.
It felt like dying. It felt like a wall was slammed down inside his mind, locking away something precious. The moment it was sealed off, it was gone. He forgot what it felt like to be a god.
He fell, limp as a kitten, merely human.
Hades caught him, holding him by the shoulders before he hit the ground.
Nico felt like he’d fallen into a swimming pool. He was dazed, in shock, unable to think clearly. Sounds weren’t audible. He could barely see. He felt slow, restricted, and lifted a hand weakly. His clothes were too big for him; why was that?
There was no time to take in his new reality. There was movement in front of him.
He looked up at Zeus and saw a flash of light.
Notes:
Sorry this chapter took so long. We are almost to the end, i need everything to be right to wrap things up the way I intend to. I will take my time on the last few chapters. Also, i don't want it to end! But all things must.
Thank you for every kudos and comment, as always. Each one brightens my day immensely and you are very appreciated.
Chapter 95: Prince Nico
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Chapter Text
“Good game, guys,” Jason said. “We’ll get ‘em next time.”
He wiped his brow, though he wasn’t sweating, and turned to watch the sunset over the ocean.
Every shade of pink, purple, and orange blended together like an oil painting as the gleaming sun disc sank slowly into the glimmering sea. The golden sand shimmered as he crunched it between his toes.
It wasn’t real. But that was okay. The sunset might be fake, but the Isles of the Blessed 30th Annual Beach Volleyball Tournament was very real.
“Thanks, Jason,” Hector said, dapping him up.
“Good game,” Kobe Bryant said, fist bumping him. He and Hector walked across the sand to the parking lot where Kobe’s motorcycle and Hector’s horse were parked.
“Fuck,” Diana said, kicking the sand. She’d botched her last serve and was taking it hard.
She looked over at the other team, watching them celebrate with a look of annoyance on her face. They were on the other side of the volleyball net hopping around in the sand, hugging and cheering like it was the end of a movie.
It could have easily been an Air Bud movie, since they had a golden retriever on the team. Jason didn’t know whether the dog really was Air Bud, but it was definitely better at volleyball than he was.
Jason walked over to check on his teammate.
“You good, Diana?”
“Fine,” she sighed. “Just frustrated with myself.”
One thing Jason liked about the Isles of the Blessed was the realism. You got to live another life where you were given real problems to solve and challenges to overcome. From what he’d heard, Elysium was more laid back and dreamlike. It sounded less fulfilling. You didn’t end up on the Isles if you were the type of person who enjoyed doing nothing all day.
“Do you want to meet up tomorrow morning and work on your serve?” He offered.
“I’d like that,” she said. “But Fred is usually out here doing yoga in the mornings.”
Jason looked over at the other team. Their rivals in the tournament were called the Dolphins– Jason’s team was the Blue Whales. The other team captain was Fred Rogers, formerly known as Mister Rogers, the TV personality.
“You can’t let his trash talk get to you,” Jason said.
“I try not to listen, but calling me princess is crossing a line,” Diana said, looking up at him from under her eyelashes. “Today he got in my head, and it showed. Sorry. Feels as if I’m letting the team down.”
“You’re not letting anybody down,” Jason said. “We all have our off days. Also, we’d get bored if we won every game.”
“That’s true. But I would have liked to win this one,” she said.
“Look, maybe I can talk to him, captain to captain. Some things ought to be off-limits.” They took turns being the captain, since pretty much everyone on the Isles had leadership experience. This week, Jason was in charge.
“I’d really appreciate it,” Diana said.
“I’ll have a chat with him. See you at dinner? It’s Chinese buffet night, right?”
“It is! See you there,” she said. “Thanks a mil, Jason. Cheers.”
She jogged to catch up with Kobe and Hector. Jason smiled. He couldn’t believe how quickly he’d made friends on the Isles. And they were all such incredible people, too. Sometimes he wondered how he’d gotten so lucky. But everyone here felt that way.
He saw that Fred was headed back to his car, a bright red Mustang convertible.
“Fred!” He called out. “Wait up!”
He caught him in the parking lot, where he was grabbing his trademark red sweater and pulling it over his head.
“Great game today, Jason,” Fred said. His demeanor was always warm and friendly. You’d never expect him to have such a competitive streak, but beach volleyball apparently brought out the beast.
“You too,” Jason said. “Hey, can we have a quick word?”
“Sure, but you’ll need to ride with me. I can’t be late to dinner. I need to get to the egg rolls before Robin Williams eats them all.”
Jason got into the passenger seat of his car, and Fred took off speeding down the road. The Isles of the Blessed were tiny, but the magic of the island allowed you to go for nice long drives anytime you pleased. Jason and Hector had gone kayaking on a river last week and talked about their memories from Troy. From afar, you could see that the river was no bigger than the lazy river at a theme park, but somehow when they kayaked it seemed to go on forever, winding through majestic mountains and valleys that didn’t really exist.
“Fred, can I ask you a favor?”
“It’s about Diana, isn’t it,” Fred said. “Tell her I recommend reading my poem, ‘What Do We Do With the Mad That We Feel.’”
“Very funny,” Jason said, as Fred giggled to himself. “She can handle teasing. We’re dead. We don’t care. But she really doesn’t like being called princess. She lived three heroic lifetimes. She’s more than just a title she held for a while in the nineties.”
“You make a good point, Jason,” Fred said, in his typical gentle and understanding tone. “I’ll avoid using that word. Just don’t expect me to go easy on her in any other way.”
“I never would have thought you’d be such a vicious competitor,” Jason said. “You curse like a sailor.”
“Here I have the freedom to be a little nasty sometimes, and everyone’s feelings are safe from being truly hurt. It’s fun to try something different once in a while, don’t you think?”
“I guess,” Jason shrugged, looking out the window. He watched the beach scenery fly by. The thought crossed his mind that he’d seen enough of the beach for one day, and the scenery immediately changed to a view of the redwood forest. He smiled, remembering the time he and Nico had traveled there once in a dream.
He didn’t miss him. Jason was safe from unhappiness now. But he did wonder when Nico would visit.
He and Fred pulled up to the restaurant. Every night was a new delicious meal, and Jason and his friends usually ended up chatting late into the night around the dinner table. Sometimes they carried tubs of ice cream out to the beach and had a bonfire under the fake stars.
Jason had never expected death to be so social. Everyone in the Isles had three lifetimes of fascinating anecdotes to share. Whenever Jason thought he might get bored of sitting around and talking, somebody would drop a bombshell about that time they used to be George Washington, and he’d think of a million questions he wanted to ask.
He and Fred headed to their separate tables, waving a friendly goodbye. There weren’t any real divisions between friend groups, but for the duration of the volleyball tournament, the Dolphins and the Blue Whales were pretending to be enemies. When you had eternity to kill, you needed to manufacture tension once in a while to stay sharp.
Jason headed to the buffet and started loading up a plate. The restaurant had dumplings, egg rolls, lo mein, chicken, and a killer egg drop soup.
“Woah,” Jason said, dropping the serving spoon.
Something had changed.
There was a scent wafting through the air. It seemed to cut the restaurant in half with its sharpness. The smell was so strong that it made everything else seem ethereal. The walls of the restaurant no longer seemed solid. His friends didn’t either. He looked at them, and he saw that they were dead. He almost never thought about being dead. Now he could hardly think of anything else.
It didn’t bother him. Nothing did. But it made him aware in a way he hadn’t been before. He had never known a simple smell could change so much. He blinked as though a film had been ripped from his eyes.
“What is that smell?” He said, walking over to his friends’ table, still sniffing the air.
“Egg rolls,” Diana said, showing no reaction to the scent. “Could you pass me the duck sauce, please, Kobe?”
Kobe tossed her a packet of duck sauce. He, too, appeared unconcerned.
“No, it’s not egg rolls,” Jason said, standing up. He couldn’t concentrate on eating any longer. The food on his plate might as well have been styrofoam compared to this intoxicating aroma.
“It smells like… Life. Real life.”
“Real life?” Hector said, smiling with amusement. “This is real life, Jason.”
“He means the life that came before this one,” Kobe said.
Jason took a step towards the smell, and sensed that something strange was happening to him. He looked down at his hands and saw that they were becoming transparent.
“What’s happening to me?” He asked, alarmed.
“Ah,” Hector said. “You’re being summoned! A powerful necromancer must be calling you up to the surface.”
“Oh,” Jason said. “Is that bad?”
Hector patted him on the back.
“It used to happen to me a lot,” he said. “Not so much now. They probably just want to flatter you a bit and ask for your advice.”
Jason was fading fast.
“See ya later, I guess?” He shrugged.
His friends all waved goodbye to him, and Jason slowly dissolved into nothing.
He reformed in a place that felt familiar. It was a large dark room lined with columns, lit with torches of green fire. The whole place smelled fantastic.
He pivoted on his heels, following the smell. There was a massive granite altar in the middle of the room. In front of it, he saw a veritable feast laid out for him. The marble floor was covered with plates of organ meat, freshly harvested from a black ram that had been recently eviscerated. The remains of the wooly fellow lay nearby.
Jason snatched up the heart and took a giant bite.
“OMG, yum,” he said, his eyes rolling back in his head. He’d always been grossed out by sacrificial remains when he was alive, but now he realized what a delicacy it was. He thought the food in the Isles was fantastic, but that was cardboard compared to this.
He started gnawing on some intestines, washing them down with a glass of steaming hot blood.
“Jason?” A familiar voice asked.
He glanced over his shoulder.
“Hazel,” he said, recognizing his old quest leader. She had on black robes and a veil, and was holding a large, bloody knife in one hand.
She knelt beside him on the floor. She looked like she really wanted to talk to him, but he was so focused on eating that he wasn’t interested. He munched and crunched on the bones, licking them clean. You’d think the Isles of the Blessed hadn’t fed him. In a way, they hadn’t. The food there was fake. But there was nothing fake about fresh blood. It tasted like life itself.
“How have you been?” Hazel asked. “Do you like being dead?”
“Love it,” Jason said between bites. “My volleyball team is having a great season. And it’s perfect weather every day. Better than California.”
“Volleyball, huh?” she said. “Sounds nice. I hope I can join you there someday.”
“Start working on your serve if you want to join my team,” he said.
She let him eat for a couple more minutes, but seemed to grow impatient. Jason didn’t worry about time anymore, so it took him a while to figure out why she kept pacing and looking at her watch.
“Can you take a break, please?” She asked, realizing that he wasn’t capable of taking a hint. “You look pretty solid. I think you’ll stick around for a good while, and I need to have a serious conversation with you.”
He put the intestines down reluctantly.
“Sure, Hazel. What can I help with?” He said. His eyes kept darting back to the bloody ram, but he tried to stay focused.
“First things first,” she said. Then she gave him a big hug. “I missed you.”
“You too,” he lied, squeezing her back. He’d been too busy being happy to think about his human friends much, but he didn’t want to hurt her feelings.
“It feels weird to hug someone so warm. Feels like you just came out of the dryer,” he said, looking around. “We’re in the temple of Pluto!”
“You just noticed?” She laughed. “You were hungry, I guess.”
“This is where I met Nico for the first time. Or just outside, I guess,” Jason said. “Can I look?”
“Sure. Just stick close to me.”
He followed his necromancer outside onto the steps of the temple.
“Oh, wow,” he said, looking around at temple hill. Not much had changed, other than him. It looked different to him now, since he had regained his memories of ancient Rome. It looked more like a crappy theme-park level imitation of the Rome he’d known. It was cleaner, though. “It’s deserted,” he observed.
“It’s midnight,” Hazel said. “That’s the best time for summoning shades like you. You’re not easy to get a hold of.”
“Yeah, sorry. My schedule is packed,” he said. “I have volleyball practice every day, and then my friends and I usually go for a swim or a hike. And then we go to dinner, and then sometimes afterwards there’s a concert.”
“Anyone good?”
“Last night David Bowie and Freddie Mercury did a show together,” he shrugged. “Not as good as the Eras tour, but it was cool.”
“Sounds like you’re having fun,” Hazel said. She sat on the steps of the temple, and he sat beside her.
“I spend every day with the greatest people who ever lived. I’m lucky.”
“You earned that,” Hazel said, looking at him admiringly. She’d been a shade before, and she knew exactly how great the prize was that he’d earned.
“So what made you call me? No offense, but this isn’t as fun as what I was doing before. Although the ram was nice.”
“I wouldn’t bother you unless it was important,” Hazel said. “Have you seen Nico lately?”
“Uh, no,” Jason said. “The last time I saw him was when I got on the ferry to go to the Isles. He said he’d visit once I got settled in.”
“It sounds like you’re settled in,” Hazel said worriedly.
“I guess?” Jason said. “I’ve felt settled in since I got there.”
“You’ve been dead for six weeks,” she said. “I think Nico should have visited you by now.”
“I don’t mind. He’s busy helping run the Underworld,” Jason said, waving hello to a couple of lares who were passing by. Both of them gave him short bows of respect. “Most people on the Isles haven’t heard of him, since they don’t get out much.”
“But you are allowed to leave the Isles, right?” She asked anxiously. “You could go to him.”
“Sure. But why would I? Look, is something wrong? You seem upset.”
“Nico is off the grid. He’s not answering Annabeth’s texts. The last time I saw him was at your funeral,” she said. “He told me he wasn’t becoming human. Our dad changed his mind. So that can’t be the reason he’s AWOL.”
“You shouldn’t worry. Nico is probably just busy,” Jason said.
“Probably,” she said, twisting the fabric of her skirt in her hands. “I’ve been made Pontifex Maximus,” she added.
“Congrats,” Jason said. “That’s great.”
“It would be,” she said. “Except I’m unqualified all of a sudden. I can’t reach Nico. I can’t feel anything. I can practically hear a dial tone on the other side of my prayers.”
“Uh oh,” Jason said.
“And it’s not just Nico. I tried Hecate, Thanatos, Hypnos, Morpheus. Even Hermes. Radio silence. Persephone will return to the Underworld in a week, so I’m hoping she answers me. Who knows, though…”
“That’s concerning,” Jason said. Now that he was dead, those Underworld gods were a big deal to him, too. They kept the Isle of the Blessed blessed. If they weren’t behaving normally, it could spell trouble.
“Nico’s clout should be enough to get me a meeting with almost any of them. But it’s like he’s just gone.”
“I’m sure he’s fine,” Jason said. “But if it would make you feel better, I can ask him to get in touch with you.”
“Would you?”
“Yeah. I just need to figure out the ferry system. I hear it’s easy to use, but nobody ever seems to want to leave the Isles.”
“I probably wouldn’t want to leave either. I got you something, by the way,” She handed Jason the magic pocket watch that had allowed Thomas to stay on the surface indefinitely. “Just click the button and you’ll be able to hang out above ground for as long as you need.”
“I don’t think I need that,” Jason said.
“Then hopefully you can give it back to Nico,” she said. “If not, I don’t know. Save it for a rainy day. Thanks for your help.”
Jason dissolved. He reformed back in the restaurant, in the same place he’d left.
He sat down in his seat at the round table, tucking the watch into his pocket. Kobe spun the lazy susan around so that Jason could help himself to some sweet and sour chicken.
“Thanks, Kobe, but I’m not hungry,” Jason said. “My necromancer got me a black ram.”
“Sounds delicious,” Hector said.
“I have a penchant for black sheep, myself,” Diana said. “How might I get an invite to the surface?”
“You know, I wouldn’t recommend it,” Jason said. The feeling of worry was unfamiliar to him now, and unwelcome, but it was there, hanging over him. It was a mild, dull sort of feeling, but it was a feeling all the same.
After dinner, he went straight to the docks to figure out the ferry system. He’d asked around a bit, but no one he’d talked to had ever used it. Why would they? There was nowhere to go that would be better than where they were.
Jason walked out to the end of the narrow wooden dock that stretched over the Lethe. He stared down at the foaming waters warily, knowing that he’d forget all three of his lives if he fell in. For such a peaceful looking river, it was truly scarier than all the rest combined.
There was a wooden post at the end of the dock with a little silver bell attached. He rang it a couple of times, then waited.
After a few minutes, the ferry emerged from the mist, sounding its horn. The low sound echoed against the dark walls of Erebus, resounding like a howl of pain.
“Hi Charon,” Jason said, stepping onto the ferry as it pulled up to the dock. “How are you?”
Charon was wearing his captain’s hat. He tilted his head noncommittally. Not too good, not too bad, it seemed he was saying.
“I’m headed to the palace to see Nico,” Jason said.
Charon seemed to hesitate, then looked at Jason, shaking his head.
“What? I can’t see him?”
Charon tapped his desiccated skeletal fingers on the steering wheel. Then he shrugged. He didn’t know whether Jason could see Nico or not.
“Why would it be a problem?”
Charon shook his head again.
He drove the ferry forward, and they began chugging down the Lethe at a clip. Jason supposed that, even if there was an issue with getting in to see Nico, Charon wasn’t going to try to stop him.
When he arrived in the fields of Asphodel, there was a big commotion as shades gathered to see who would get off the ferry. Charon lowered the metal walkway for him, and Jason disembarked, waving to all the shades who had come to see him.
He recognized a few faces from Camp Jupiter in the crowd, and immediately sought out two familiar shades. Tyler and Brayden had both been killed when Nico had revealed his true form to them in an act of wrath. Jason figured they might have been keeping tabs on him as their least favorite god.
“Hi,” Jason said, approaching the two shades. “How have you been?”
“Okay,” they both said, in the dull, murmuring voices of Asphodelians. Jason had to remind himself that their capacity for thought was diminished, and spoke slowly.
“Have you heard any news about Nico?”
Further interrogation was not required. Both of them nodded enthusiastically, their faces lighting up.
“We watched his trial,” Tyler said.
“Trial?” Jason asked.
“For stolen divinity. I was right in front,” Brayden said. “He disrespected Lord Pluto. It was crazy.”
“I heard he got turned into a human afterwards,” Tyler said.
Jason didn’t know what stolen divinity referred to. Wasn’t Nico divine all on his own? But if he’d gotten into trouble and become human as a result, that made sense. No wonder he wasn’t taking calls. He might not be in the mood for socializing.
“That’s a shame,” Jason said. “I hope he’s okay.”
“No clue,” Tyler said. “But Minos has been upset ever since.”
Minos would have to be Jason’s next stop, it seemed. He walked over to the judge’s stand. He was reluctant to interrupt their work, since the soul processing line was a quarter mile long. Thanatos must have been putting in overtime.
Rhadamanthys spied Jason lingering and waved him over. Jason went up to his brothers and hugged them both in turn. He was still slightly baffled to think he had brothers. He remembered them, but the time they’d grown up together had been extremely short compared to the time they’d been apart. Luckily, it seemed to make no difference.
“How are you?” Rhadamanthys asked him.
“Great,” Jason said. “My beach volleyball team made the finals.”
“Your what?” Rhadamanthys asked.
“I’ll explain some other time. Minos, are you good? Some of the shades said you’ve been upset,” Jason asked.
Minos pursed his lips.
“I’m… Okay,” he said, unconvincingly.
“Ahem,” Aeacus said, leaning over. “Respectfully, Sarpedon, I think it’s best you go back to your Island if you know what’s good for you. If Lord Hades finds you down here snooping, there may be consequences.”
“Really? Why?” Jason asked.
Minos took him by the arm and pulled him away from the judges’ stand. He even went to the trouble of finding a giant rock for them to hide behind, shooing away the shades who crept too close.
“We can’t risk talking for long,” Minos said. “Hades has the Furies patrolling constantly to make sure we keep working. They watch me the closest of all.”
“Why?”
“They think I’ll try to get into the palace to see Nico,” Minos said. “I’ve been barred entry. Hades has a titan guarding the palace stairs who won’t let anyone pass.”
“A titan?” Jason said. “Isn’t that a little extreme?”
“Yes,” Minos said. “Which is what worries me.”
“Is this why I haven’t seen Nico? He hasn’t visited me, and he’s not taking calls from friends. I know he’s human now. But I don’t see why that would stop him from picking up the phone.”
“Oh, Jason,” Minos said, looking saddened. “It is my opinion that the titan on the stairs is meant to keep Nico in just as much as it keeps us out.”
“What?” Jason said.
“He is changed.”
“Changed how?”
“In appearance. And in… Well, there are rumors. I prefer facts. I have only seen him from a distance, when he was on the palace balcony. But perhaps you can actually speak with him,” Minos said. “If we create a distraction to get Hades out of the palace, and you can convince the titan guard to let you up the stairs, you should be able to meet with him. You are exalted among the dead. If anyone can get away with it, you can.”
Jason didn’t hesitate.
“I’m in,” he said. “What’s the next move?”
Minos clasped his shoulder gratefully.
“I will handle it,” he said. “When you see your opening, take it.”
They emerged from behind the rock and went back to the judges’ stand. Now that he’d been told, Jason cast his eyes upward to see the Furies circling in the sky above, occasionally flying lower to get a look at the judges. Hades really did have the place under heightened security.
Minos sat back at the judges’ table. He jotted something down on a scrap of paper, then began the judgment of the next shade, trying to act normally.
A nervous gray shade shivered before him, confused and scared. Jason remembered his own judgment, and how Nico had supported him along the way. He grew more determined to see him with every moment that passed.
After the shade was assigned to Asphodel, Minos surreptitiously nudged the scrap of paper onto the floor. The shade picked it up before walking into the fields.
It took a moment, but very soon, a commotion began in Asphodel. Jason approached a throng of shades who were chattering in a clump. He overheard a game of telephone taking place.
“They’re saying whoever finds Lord Hades’ lucky drachma gets a weekend trip to Elysium,” one of the shades said.
“It’s not a drachma. He lost an Airpod,” another shade said. “Whatever that is.”
“You’re both wrong. It’s his lucky purple shorts!” another shade whispered.
Soon the shades’ whispering had grown into a loud clamor, and they were upending the rocks in the fields and digging holes with the weak ability they still possessed. The Furies came down to investigate.
“Settle down!” Alecto screeched. “What’s this ruckus about?”
“Hades’ purple shorts!” A shade called up to her.
The three Fury sisters looked at each other in confusion. One pulled out a cell phone.
Jason quickly hid behind a rock. He waited.
In the distance, Hades emerged from the palace. He walked across the balcony and down the stairs, pausing to speak to a large, white haired figure that stood with Cerberus at the base of the stone stairway. Then he walked into Asphodel.
Hades’ magical aura was immense and intimidating as he strode forward, his black cloak billowing behind him ominously. As he passed, all the shades backed away to clear his path, and bowed low as he drew near.
Jason skirted him nervously, staying as far away from Hades as possible as he ran toward the stairs.
The guard titan was incredibly tall, which was to be expected, with white hair, bright golden eyes and an open, innocent expression. He was not what Jason had expected in a titan, because as soon as he approached, the titan smiled.
“Hi, I’m Bob,” the titan said.
“Hi Bob. Just passing through,” Jason said, attempting to go up the stairs.
“Okay,” the titan said. “Oh! Wait, no one is allowed to go upstairs. Hades has ordered it.”
“Oh, it’s okay. I’m allowed,” Jason said, sensing that Bob wasn’t particularly gifted intellectually.
The titan stared at him. Jason stared back.
“I don’t know,” Bob muttered, scratching his head. He looked at Cerberus. Cerberus growled at Jason. “Ah. Okay, no,” the titan said. “You aren’t allowed. Sorry.”
Jason looked at Cerberus in frustration. That dog had never made a good impression on him. The feeling was probably mutual.
“Bob, why is no one allowed up?” He asked. “Nico told me I could visit anytime.”
Bob frowned.
“He did, huh?” Bob said. “Was that before, I wonder…”
“Before he became human?” Jason said. “Does it matter? Nico and I are really close friends. He would want to see me. I’m sure he’ll agree if you ask.”
Bob looked down at Jason pityingly.
“I am sorry. But he is Prince Nico now, and Prince Nico accepts no visitors, even if they are friends. Before, it was different. He was the god Nico. Before that, he was also a skeleton cat named Small Bob. Regardless, he’s my friend, too. And even I am not permitted to speak to him.”
“I don’t get it,” Jason said. “Nico would want to see his friends. Why can’t we at least talk to him?”
Bob stared at Jason. After a moment, he placed a pacifying hand on Cerberus’ back.
“You mean Prince Nico no harm,” Bob said. He looked up at the palace. “I wonder if he is lonely up there.”
He stretched his arms, yawning.
“Bob is tired. Bob is going on his fifteen. Bob certainly hopes no one takes advantage of the situation to go upstairs and check on Prince Nico.”
“Gotcha,” Jason said, thrilled to find another ally in Bob.
Bob stepped aside with a wink, allowing Jason to start up the stairs. After checking again to be sure Hades was still occupied– he was surrounded by overly excited shades, and was thoroughly distracted– Jason ran upstairs and entered Hades’ palace.
He walked through the long, dark halls on weightless and silent feet. Every surface was made of polished onyx that reflected the light from a few torches, causing him to be spooked by his own ghostly reflection a few times. Nico had described his home as beautiful, but to Jason, it felt intimidating and empty. Would a human even be able to see? Jason was a shade, made to exist in the dark, and even he thought the place was poorly lit.
He heard voices coming from a room at the end of a hall. He moved slowly, creeping closer to the doorway, and he realized he was hearing a video playing.
He approached the door and peeked inside.
It was a kitchen with a large brick oven that emanated light and heat throughout the room. It seemed like the sort of environment a human would gravitate toward in a place as cold and dark as this. There was a large wooden dining table in the center of the room covered in small pieces of plastic.
A figure sat at the table, his back to Jason. He appeared to be focused on something in front of him, clicking pieces of plastic together every few seconds. Sometimes he reached into a bag of Cheetos next to him and grabbed a handful. He had an iPad propped up on the table. It was playing a Twitch stream.
Jason took this in. He could tell from the figure’s familiar curly black hair that it was Nico. But his Nico didn’t eat Cheetos, and he definitely didn’t watch Minecraft streamers.
“Nico?” He said cautiously, stepping into the kitchen.
Nico turned around.
Jason suppressed a gasp of shock.
Nico looked like he was no more than eleven or twelve years old. He was also hideous– okay, that was harsh. He was a lot less pleasant to look at than he had been before. He had mild acne and dandruff, and he needed a shower. He was dwarfed by a massive black sweatshirt with a skull on it, so baggy that it made him look painfully thin.
“That’s Prince Nico to you,” Nico said, his mouth full of Cheetos.
Jason stared at him, not sure how to answer.
“How did you get in here?” Nico said, turning back to whatever it was he was doing. “Shades aren’t allowed in the palace.”
Nico didn’t remember him. Was that a normal side effect of becoming human? Had there been complications? What was going on?
“Nico, it’s me. Jason,” Jason said, taking a step toward him.
“I told you, it’s Prince Nico,” Prince Nico said, turning around again to glare at him. Jason could see the glint of a black metal crown on his head, buried in his messy hair.
Jason realized that if he was going to learn anything, he needed to go along with it.
“Sorry, Prince Nico. What are you making?”
“Oh, this? It’s a Lego Death Star,” Nico said, perking up. Jason looked at the pile of tiny gray plastic Legos that Nico was painstakingly assembling.
“Cool,” Jason said.
“Bet,” Nico said. He reached over and turned the volume up on his Minecraft video until it was painfully loud. Then he grabbed a handful of Cheetos and shoved them in his mouth. There was a fine orange dust all over the Legos he’d handled. The Death Star was going to end up orange.
Jason stared at Nico’s back. Nico seemed like a normal middle-schooler who just happened to be the Prince of the Underworld. Jason didn’t know what to make of it.
Before he could continue the conversation, another shade walked into the kitchen. She was a petite, lovely ghost with dark hair and eyes, wearing a classy black dress with heels. She resembled Nico’s godly form more than the Nico at the table resembled her now.
She paused, seeing Jason standing there.
“Mama, I think one of the shades escaped Asphodel,” Nico said distractedly, clicking his Legos together. “He says his name is Jason. He's lowkey kinda sus.”
Maria’s eyebrows raised.
“I’ll handle him,” she told Nico. She handed him a small blue cardboard cup with a spoon sticking out of it. “Here is your Easy Mac you requested, amore. Let’s not mention this shade to your father, shall we? He has enough on his mind.”
“Okay,” he said, clicking more Legos together.
Maria beckoned for Jason to follow her through another kitchen door. It led to a pantry lined with shelves piled high with containers of Easy Mac, Cheetos, canned ravioli and Prime energy drinks. The floor of the pantry was piled with dusty bones. Jason didn’t know what that was about.
“Immortal gods,” Jason said, observing. “Is this food all for him?”
“It is,” Maria said, sitting on a case of Prime. Jason sat on another one, watching as she put her face in her hands. “It’s difficult to see him like this. Being human is one thing. But poor-quality pasta is more than I can take.”
“I ate a box of Pop Tarts a day in high school,” Jason said, trying to make her feel better.
She gave him a withering look. They’d never been introduced, but she seemed to know who he was. He was retroactively flattered to think that Nico may have mentioned him.
“What do you want, Jason?” She asked. “You shouldn’t be here. If Hades finds out…”
“I need to know what happened,” Jason said, leaning forward to look her in the eyes. “Why doesn’t Nico remember me?”
“His father was forced to remove his memories,” she said. “All of them, going back to his deification.”
Jason was taken aback. Nico had planned on becoming human for a long time, so seeing that it had finally happened wasn’t shocking. But Jason’s first assumption had been that memory loss was a side-effect of the procedure.
“Hades did it deliberately? But why?” Jason asked. “Isn’t humanity punishment enough?”
“No, no, no,” Maria said. “You misunderstand. This is not punishment. Not anymore. It’s damage control.”
“Damage control?” Jason said.
“Hades had no choice. Mistakes were made,” she said. “I don’t wish to speak ill of my son’s father. We are trying to salvage the situation, he and I, together. At least until Persephone returns.”
“You’re being really vague,” Jason said. “What happens when Persephone gets here?”
“I don’t know,” Maria said.
“This isn’t adding up,” Jason said, narrowing his eyes. “What are you not telling me?”
Maria glared at him. The expression was distinctly familiar; Jason had seen the same expression on Nico’s face many times.
“You are not the only one frustrated with the situation,” she said. “But Hades and I have agreed to prioritize Nico’s happiness, and you cannot be allowed to threaten it. If you need to observe him for your own peace of mind, I can look the other way. But my son deserves peace too. Telling him the truth would be the opposite of kindness.”
“How do you know that?” Jason said. “Maybe he’d want to know.”
“If you truly love Nico, trust that his parents have his best interests at heart, and leave well enough alone, Jason,” Maria said.
Jason didn’t trust her one bit. She sounded an awful lot like she was protecting an abuser. It seemed like Hades was attempting to orchestrate a massive cover-up of his bad behavior. Jason’s ghostly heart twinged with sadness on Nico’s behalf. The gods only knew what Hades had done to him. The truth was hidden in Nico’s lost memories.
Could they be returned? Jason didn’t know, but he was determined to find out.
A sudden sound of hideous yowling reverberated against the walls. Cerberus was welcoming his master.
“Dad’s home,” Nico called out from the kitchen. “Mama? Where did you go?”
“I’ll show you what I mean about his happiness,” Maria said. “Get inside that skeleton.”
Jason looked down at one of the skeletons on the floor. Maria nudged him towards it, and he felt his shade body inhabit the bones. It seemed that shades could still forge a weak connection with the remnants of human bodies.
Once he was inside the skeleton, Jason clunked around a little. He felt as though he was walking normally, but it was a lot noisier than usual. He and Maria exited the pantry.
She gestured at a broom in the corner, and he picked it up and started sweeping. Apparently this was an expected sight, because Nico barely glanced at him. Maria took a seat at the table across from her son.
“I’m back,” Hades called out, sweeping into the room. He seemed oddly cheerful for someone who had betrayed his son.
“Hi, Dad!” Nico said, looking up at him and smiling widely.
Hades sat down next to Nico at the table, kissing him on the top of his head.
“Sorry about that,” he said. “I had to go deal with something. Where were we?”
“I can’t find where this piece goes,” Nico said, placing a small gray cube in his dad’s hand.
“Ah. Alright, then. I think this goes… Oh. Son, this orange dust is becoming a problem. Please go wash your hands.”
“I keep telling him,” Maria said. “He only listens to you, dear.”
“I’ll wash ‘em, I’ll wash ‘em,” Nico grumbled, getting up to wash his hands in the wash basin next to the pantry. As he scrubbed his hands in the water, he gave skeleton-Jason another look.
“You missed a spot,” Nico said, pointing at a pile of dust in the corner.
Jason almost responded, then remembered that skeletons didn’t talk. He went over and started sweeping the corner.
Nico went back to his Lego Death Star.
“You did it!” He said, watching as Hades placed the Lego into an empty spot. “Major W!”
"A major W indeed,” Hades said, putting his arm around him. “Did you have a good day?”
“Yeah,” Nico said. “I’ve just been watching CaptainSparklez.”
“For five hours straight,” Maria added.
“If that’s what he wants to do, that’s fine by me,” Hades said.
Nico grinned.
“Take that, Mama,” he said. She frowned, but held her tongue.
“Is it dinner time yet?” Nico asked Hades.
“If you want it to be,” Hades said. Nico nodded, and the three of them got up and walked over to another room. Jason followed behind, continuing to sweep and trying to avoid drawing attention to himself.
There was another dining room, a more formal one, in the next room over. It was pitch black, but Hades lit a candelabra on the table with a wave of his hand, and the feast that had been laid out became visible in the flickering candlelight. The table was a single, long piece of dark stone heaped with dishes. There was a roast turkey, a suckling pig, and giant platters of fruit and cheese and nuts.
Hades took a seat at the head of the table, and Nico sat on his right. Maria sat across from her son.
Hades snapped his fingers. Two other shades appeared beside Maria, both women who resembled her.
“Dinnertime again?” Said one of them.
“Nonna,” Nico chided. “That sounded almost like you didn’t want to have family dinner.”
Hades glared daggers at Nonna. She sat up straighter in her chair.
“Not at all! I’m so happy to do this every day. It’s my favorite thing,” Nonna said, spreading her napkin on her lap.
“What would you like to eat, son?” Hades asked.
“Please nothing neon orange,” Maria said, clasping her hands together and pleading.
“If he wants orange, he gets orange,” Hades said firmly.
Nico smiled.
“It’s alright, Mama. I’ll be good. I want lasagna,” he told Hades.
Hades waved his hand, and a bowl of pasta appeared in front of Nico. Maria smiled.
“And I want dino nuggets,” Nico said.
Hades waved his hand again. Dinosaur shaped chicken nuggets appeared on top of his lasagna.
Maria sighed.
“Perhaps a vegetable?”
“Perhaps not,” Nico said. “Okay, now we all go around the table and say what we’re thankful for. Nonna, you go first.”
“I am thankful to you, Nico. For being such a wonderful grandson,” she said. She sounded robotic, like she was reading from a script.
“Aw. Thanks, Nonna,” Nico said. “Zia? Your turn.”
“I’m also grateful for you, Nico. For bringing us together,” his aunt said, her eyes glassy and bored.
“That's cap. You said that yesterday,” Nico said.
“I feel the same way I did yesterday,” his aunt said. “And the day before. And the day before that. And the–”
“Mama?” Nico said.
Maria smiled at him. The expression didn’t reach her eyes.
“I am grateful for you, my son,” Maria said. “I had the pleasure of being your mother in life. And now, I have the pleasure of being your mother in death, too. Every day. With no breaks. For all eternity.”
Nico smiled.
“I know. It’s so nice we can be together forever,” he said. “Okay, Dad, your turn,” he said, turning to Hades.
Hades cleared his throat.
“I… Ugh. I promised myself I wouldn’t get emotional,” Hades said, dabbing a tear out of the corner of his eye.
“You always do, though,” Nico smiled.
Jason rolled his eyes. Hades must have been going for an Oscar with that performance.
“I am grateful for you, Nico,” Hades said. “You deserve better than me. You deserve better than this. I can only try to make up for my shortcomings as a father. But I will try. That, I promise you.”
Nico beamed up at his father.
“I don’t know why you always say that,” Nico said. “You’re the best dad ever.”
Jason gritted his teeth in anger, forgetting that he was inside a skeleton. The skeleton’s jaw clacked closed, making a rattling sound. Nico and his family all turned to look at him.
“Is it me, or is that skeleton acting sus?” Nico said. “I swear it followed us from the kitchen.”
“I told it to sweep up the Cheeto dust,” Maria said quickly. “You must be trailing it around behind you.”
“Oh,” Nico said.
“Are we done?” His nonna asked.
“No,” Nico said, growing annoyed with her. “We’re not. Someone did something low vibrational. It's giving forgetful.”
The three shades looked at each other for a second, attempting to puzzle out what he meant. Then Maria gasped.
“I’m so sorry, darling,” she said, running into another room. She came back holding a small picture frame, which she placed on the table next to Nico. It was a small black and white photo of Bianca.
“I can’t believe you forgot her,” Nico said angrily.
“I’m sorry,” Maria said. “I was distracted. I won’t forget again, amore.”
“No. You won’t,” Hades warned. “Remember. Whatever–”
“Nico wants, Nico gets,” Maria repeated. “Yes. I know.”
Nico ate his lasagna in total silence. Hades watched him without blinking, and didn’t eat anything himself. Nico’s mom, aunt, and grandmother sat without moving, waiting for it to be over.
“This lasagna is bussin," Nico said. No one knew how to respond to him.
Jason had never seen such a depressing, hollow imitation of a family dinner. If he could still feel emotions, he’d want to weep. This new Nico, Prince Nico, had no friends. He didn’t know that Hazel existed. As far as he knew, he was having dinner with the only four people in the world that cared about him. Three of them were dead, and the fourth had done something terrible to him.
Hades was right about one thing. Nico definitely deserved better than this.
Jason had seen enough. He headed down the stairs, shedding his skeletal disguise along the way. Bob and Cerberus awaited him at the bottom of the stairs.
“Friend Jason!” Bob said loudly.
“Shh,” Jason said, pressing a finger to his lips. “Secret mission, remember?”
“Oh, yes, right,” Bob said. He was still talking too loudly, but he’d taken it down a couple of notches. “Is Nico okay?”
For a moment, Jason didn’t know how to respond.
“He’s okay,” Jason said. “But he isn’t the Nico we used to know.”
Bob ran his hand through the stiff peaks of his spiky white hair.
“That does not sound okay to me,” Bob said, furrowing his brow.
“Yeah,” Jason agreed. “Me neither.”
He walked through Asphodel, thinking over the situation. It was one thing to feel dissatisfied and angry about Nico’s condition. But he had no clue how to help him.
Minos walked over to join Jason next to the gnarled tree on the banks of the Lethe.
“I take it you saw him?” Minos said gravely.
“Yeah,” Jason said, finding a spot on the riverbank to sit. “He doesn’t remember me. Hades took his memories”
“I feared that might be the case,” Minos said, sitting beside him. “There were reports of sightings. They said Hades forced him to drink from the Lethe, just here,” he gestured at the water. “I’d hoped they were wrong.”
Jason looked down at the foaming river, hating Hades more than he’d thought possible.
“How could he?” He asked. He would cry if he still could.
“We don’t know his reasons,” Minos said. “We need to work with the information we have. Is Nico well, aside from the obvious?”
“Sort of,” Jason said. “He’s trying to reconstruct his family from ghosts. He’s got his mom with him all the time. His aunt and grandma are on call. They have family dinners.”
“Family has always been important to him. And how does Lord Hades treat him? I’m afraid to ask,” Minos said.
“He’s…” Jason hesitated. It would be easy to list all the ways Hades had failed his son, but Minos knew about those already. “He’s spoiling him, since he feels guilty. I think he’s turning Nico into a brat, but he is making him happy. For now.”
Minos nodded, looking relieved.
“The most important thing is that Nico isn’t suffering,” Minos said. “He wasn’t guilty of the crime he was punished for. And the punishment was cruel and unusual. I worried that he would be treated like a prisoner in his own home.”
“He’s fine,” Jason said. “But that doesn’t mean the situation is fine.”
Minos furrowed his brow.
“I have a terrible suspicion,” he admitted reluctantly. “One that may not be accurate. Take it with a grain of salt.”
“What is it?” Jason asked.
“Persephone returns in one week,” Minos said. “She turned Nico into a god. She can make him one again. Hades cannot stop her, or rather, he would not stop her if that was what she wanted to do.”
“So… This is all gonna be resolved next week?” Jason asked, feeling more hopeful. “If that’s true, then we might as well quit worrying about it.”
“Not necessarily,” Minos said. “If Nico is truly happy as a human– Happy enough to express a wish to remain as he is– Persephone may be convinced to leave well enough alone.”
Jason thought of Maria’s opinion that it may be kinder if Nico never remembered the truth. Would Persephone take the same view?
“Then Hades will never have to face any consequences,” Jason said. “That can’t be how this ends!”
Minos tapped his foot, thinking the matter over.
“We can restore his memories with the waters of the Mnemosyne,” he said, gesturing to the other side of the river. “But memories can always be taken again. And with his temper, Nico would struggle to conceal his knowledge from Hades.”
“So what can we do?” Jason asked.
“Nico’s memories serve no purpose unless he can use them,” Minos said. “I think that it would be most effective if he were to drink from the Mnemosyne just before he spoke with Persephone. He could tell her the truth, and she would return his divinity.”
That seemed like a simple, elegant solution to the problem. Hope flooded Jason.
“The problem would be the timing,” Minos said. “Getting him to the riverbank is unlikely. We would need to bring the water to him and convince him to drink at the right moment.”
“I can do it,” Jason said confidently. “I know Nico. I can get him to trust me.”
“Are you sure? This Nico is different from the one we knew.”
“I can do it,” Jason repeated.
He and Minos shook hands, exchanging nods of brotherly respect. It was still a little weird that they’d both dated the same person, but right now, it felt like destiny. Together, they would save Nico and restore him to godhood.
It was stressful having to sneak around, dodging the Furies every few minutes as they circled overhead, but Minos managed to return to Jason with a small sealed flask of water from the Mnemosyne.
“Remember,” Minos said, pressing the precious vessel into Jason’s hands. “Timing is paramount. Too soon or too late, and the plan won’t work.”
“I got it,” Jason nodded, clutching the clay jar tightly. It had a wax seal on top, carved with an M. “Trust me. When it comes to potions and debates about drinking them, Nico and I go way back. I can handle this.”
Minos bid him good luck, and Jason headed back to the palace. On his way up the stairs, Bob stepped aside, whispering his support. Jason felt his courage mounting as he entered the palace, donning a skeleton disguise once again for concealment. It felt like this was meant to be, and that he would save Nico just as Nico had once saved him.
That confidence flew out the window when he reached Nico’s bedroom.
It looked like a tornado had hit, for starters. There were dirty clothes and candy wrappers everywhere, and old bowls of cereal full of unfinished milk. Nico was in bed, snoring loud enough to annoy the dead.
He had shown Jason his room once in a dream, but it had changed. Now he had an enormous TV taking up an entire wall on one side, with every video game console known to man lined up beneath it. Nico even had a Nintendo Switch 2, a console Jason was fairly sure didn’t officially exist yet. There were two shiny black minifridges beside his bookshelf. Seeing that Nico was fast asleep, Jason peeked inside. One fridge was for snacks, and another was dedicated solely to Nico’s beloved Prime energy drinks. Jason shuddered to think of the state of Nico’s teeth in a few years. Did the Underworld have dentistry?
Jason inspected Nico’s bookshelf, though he doubted Nico had read much lately. The old Nico, who’d loved Dante’s Inferno and opera music, was gone, replaced by a Gen Alpha gremlin. It was a tragedy to see him become so normal. The old Nico would not have been able to explain what a Minecraft streamer was, not even with a gun to his head, not for a billion dollars. And Jason had liked him like that.
There was a jar of strange golden goo on the shelf, and some old bone shards. Jason didn’t know what those were about, but he was very interested to see a photo album with pictures of Nico’s old life. All the photos were in black and white, and they were mostly posed and relatively formal. There was a photo of Nico and Bianca in little sailor suits, one with Maria holding them, and a few glamour shots from Maria’s modeling days. Jason saw a room in the background of a photo that he recognized as the Venice mansion he’d visited with Reyna and Thanatos. What an odd day that had been.
He wondered where Thanatos was now, and why he wasn’t doing anything to help Nico’s situation. He wasn’t happy Thanatos had abandoned Nico, but he also couldn’t say he was surprised.
Nico shifted in his sleep, startling Jason. He shut the album, dropped it, and ran into the bathroom, hiding behind the door. He waited, but Nico didn’t wake.
The bathroom was full of shiny tile with a high tech fancy shower. While he admired the decor, he heard footsteps approaching.
He peeked. Hades and Maria had entered Nico’s room while he slept.
“The place is a mess,” Maria whispered, picking up candy wrappers and throwing them away.
“I’ll send skeletons to clean up later,” Hades whispered back. He approached Nico’s sleeping form and gently pulled his blanket up to cover an exposed shoulder.
Maria walked up to Nico and patted his hair. Her hand went right through him.
Somehow Jason hadn’t realized. Nico wasn’t a demigod anymore, at least not in the physical sense. He was just a human. He couldn’t touch ghosts.
Every time he thought things couldn’t get more depressing, they did.
Hades noticed the photo album on the floor and quietly tucked it back on the shelf.
“He was looking at it again?” Maria whispered. “Poor thing.”
“Nearly every night,” Hades said. “He misses Bianca.”
“This would be a good time for Hazel Levesque to meet with a terrible accident,” Maria suggested.
Hades raised his eyebrows.
“You’re not suggesting I kill my own daughter so she can come keep him company?” He asked.
“I’m just saying, if it happened, I wouldn’t ask any questions,” Maria said. “It’s not as if she won’t end up here eventually. And Nico is lonely now.”
Hades chuckled quietly, taking Maria’s ghostly hand.
“I knew there was a reason I fell in love with you,” he said, leading her out of the room.
Jason no longer had a functional digestive system, which was for the best, because they were making him nauseous. Nico’s parents were just as callous and morbid as he was.
Nico was tucked into his blankets more comfortably now, and seemed to have fallen into a deeper, quieter sleep. For a moment, Jason felt a hint of doubt enter his mind. Nico was unconscious, but his parents were still coming in to check on him and fuss over him. Hades wasn’t being performative. He really did seem to care about his son.
Perhaps it shouldn’t surprise Jason to see that Hades was not a one-note supervillain with purely evil intentions. Nico and his father had always had drastic ups and downs in their relationship. The closest thing Jason had to a parent was a giant wolf, so he wasn’t a good judge of these things. But was there a chance Nico would refuse to drink the Mnemosyne water? Maybe he’d prefer to live in this safe little bubble rather than know the truth.
Jason tossed the ceramic flask in his skeletal hand, thinking it over. As he thought, his bony fingers caught on the lid, and he nearly dropped the flask. He caught it, but failed to do so without rattling his bones in the process.
Nico shot straight up in bed.
“What are you doing in here?” He snapped. “I’m trying to sleep!”
“Nico, hang on,” Jason said, panicking. “It’s me, Jason. I need to talk to–”
“You again?” Nico asked. “It’s Prince Nico. How many times do I have to tell you?”
“I’m your friend,” Jason blurted out. “Please. Let me explain.”
Nico narrowed his eyes, waiting on an explanation. Jason was frustrated with himself. His mind didn’t work the way it used to, and in three lifetimes, he’d never really been a slick talker. That was more of Nico’s strong suit.
“Are you aware that you may be suffering from some memory loss?” Jason asked hesitantly.
“Yeah,” Nico said. “I know. I overdosed on ambrosia. I forgot a big chunk of time when I was sick.”
Relieved, Jason relaxed a little.
“So?” Nico asked.
“We met,” Jason said. “Back then, I was still alive. I was your boyfriend.”
Nico gasped quietly, pulling the blanket to his chest.
“I’ve been groomed,” he whispered, his eyes going wide.
“No!” Jason said, cursing his stupid shade brain. “Not like that! I mean I was a boy. And I was your friend. Sorry. That was confusing. I didn’t mean anything weird.”
“You're sus, dude,” Nico said. “You’re just a stupid shade trying to get an afterlife upgrade. You need to go.” He looked around the room. “Clean first, then go.”
“I can prove it,” Jason said, although he started picking up candy wrappers just in case. “You told me about your house before. In Venice. I know what it looked like.”
Nico cocked his head to one side.
“No cap?”
“No cap. Your bedroom had pictures on the walls,” Jason said. “Mythology scenes. Red wallpaper. Gilding on some of the decorative ceiling elements.”
For a moment, Nico was speechless.
“My mom could have told you that,” he concluded. “Or my aunt, or my nonna. Maybe you researched before you came to me. That doesn’t prove we were friends.”
“You told me about this room, too,” Jason said. “You had another bed where the TV is now. There was a big leg bone on the floor. You said Cerberus just leaves them lying around.”
Nico paused. Then a sad look came over his face.
“That can’t be true,” he said. “Cerberus isn’t allowed in the palace anymore. Even though he's goated.”
“Why not?”
“He was here when I first woke up. He was really friendly, and he kept licking me all over. But then he wagged his tail too hard and hit me with it. I broke three ribs,” Nico said, rubbing his side like it still hurt. “Dad said I’m too fragile to play with him. He has to be an outdoor dog now.”
“Is that why you go out on the balcony? To see him?” Jason asked.
Nico nodded.
“But I’m not really supposed to be out there,” he said. “They have meetings sometimes. The Underworld gods. Dad doesn’t want them to see me.”
Jason clenched his fists.
“You didn’t used to be fragile,” Jason said. “You didn’t used to have to hide.”
“Really?” Nico asked, yawning. “I dunno. Maybe I’m still recovering.” He turned the TV on. A Mr. Beast video started blasting at full volume.
Seeing that Nico was ready to wake up, Jason perched beside him on the bed.
“You won’t tell your dad I’m here, will you?” Jason asked. “He’d send me away.”
“I haven’t decided. Get me a Prime,” Nico added, pointing at the Prime fridge.
Jason grabbed him a drink and returned to sit next to Nico. He hesitated, then shed his skeletal disguise. If the old Nico was in there, maybe seeing Jason’s face would help jog his memory.
Prince Nico gave him a wary look. But he didn’t tell him to go away.
“I could help you, if you wanted,” Jason suggested. “To get back some of your memories.”
Nico bit his lip.
“Dad said I wasn’t happy. He said I wouldn’t want to remember,” he said.
“Not even if it was your own life?”
Nico shook his head.
“My life hasn’t been very good,” Nico said quietly. “My mom died when I was eight. Since then it’s been like a horror movie that never ends. Boarding schools. Manticores. My sister…”
He went silent.
Jason waited for him to be ready to speak. Bianca’s death had been a long time ago, but Nico had lost the memories of the time in between. To him, it was fresh again.
“I came down here to die,” Nico said. “When I drank that ambrosia, I think part of me knew what would happen. I just didn’t care.”
Jason was silent.
“Whatever’s in those memories doesn’t matter anymore,” Nico said. He grabbed a Switch controller and handed the other to Jason. “Here. If you don’t suck at MarioKart, you can stay.”
Jason got demolished at MarioKart, but it seemed like Prince Nico enjoyed crushing him.
“Get back in the skeleton,” Nico said. “My dad’s coming.”
Jason didn’t need to be told twice. He dove into the pile of bones. Hades walked in just as he ducked into the bathroom.
“Son! You’re awake,” Hades said. “I thought I heard the familiar refrain of Rainbow Road.”
Nico passed him the other Switch controller. Hades took it, then paused, glancing at the screen.
“Were you playing in two-player mode?” He asked, looking at the results screen.
“No,” Nico said.
Hades stared at him. Nico stared back, giving nothing away in his expression. He was a natural liar, even in this altered state.
Hades began to walk toward the bathroom.
“Where are you going?” Nico asked, annoyed that he hadn’t been believed.
Jason panicked. He scrambled to conceal himself, hiding the flask of Mnemosyne water in the shower, tucking it behind bottles of shampoo. As Hades entered, he started pretending to scrub the toilet.
Hades looked at Jason for a moment, but seemed to notice nothing amiss about his behavior.
Hades returned to Nico’s side, and Nico started another race, handing his dad the controller.
“You know, son,” Hades said, driving and talking at the same time. He was a god, so he could win without looking at the screen, whereas Nico had to give it 100% of his focus. “When your stepmother gets home this weekend, a lot is going to change around here.”
“Uh huh,” Nico said, clicking buttons violently to shoot red shells at his dad’s Kart. Hades was playing as Bowser– fitting, Jason thought, as he spied on them.
“I’ve enjoyed spending time with you the last six weeks,” Hades said. “More than I expected to. Maybe more than I should have, given the circumstances.”
“What circumstances?” Nico asked. “You mean the fact that I don’t remember some things? Aw, crap,” he muttered, as he crashed into a wall.
Hades sighed.
“For a long time, I thought happiness eluded me, and there was nothing I could do about it. Lately I’ve come to the realization that anytime happiness approaches, I choose to run in the opposite direction. Metaphorically speaking.”
“Mhm,” Nico said, collecting a mushroom speed boost and leaving a few bananas in an attempt to trip his father up. Hades handily avoided each one.
“When Persephone returns, life is going to become hard again,” Hades said. “She won’t be doing anything wrong, but that is what will happen. Do you see what I’m trying to say?”
“No,” Nico said. He was only half listening, but Jason was all ears. It sounded as though Hades was trying to tell Nico– the real Nico, the one who would know what he was talking about– that his memories would be restored. Could that really be true?
Hades paused the game.
“Dad!” Nico complained.
“Listen, Nico,” Hades said, as Nico chugged his Prime. “What I’m saying is, let’s make this last week count. Alright? It may be the last time we get to do this sort of thing together.”
“Why? Can’t I just stay here?” Nico asked, finally able to hear him with the game paused. “Are you kicking me out? What are you saying?” He was growing very upset, and Hades put his arms around him.
“No one is kicking you out,” Hades said. “I’d love to keep you here forever just as you are. But it wouldn’t be right.”
“But this is the happiest I’ve ever been,” Nico said tearfully. “I don’t want it to end.”
“All things end,” Hades said, rubbing his back. “You may not remember, but I promise those words are carved deeply into the walls of your heart. When the time comes, you’ll understand.”
Maybe some part of the old Nico heard him. He stopped crying.
“Okay, Dad,” Nico said, extricating himself from the hug. “Can we finish the game?” He asked, wiping his eyes.
“Of course,” Hades said, picking up the controller.
Jason sank to the bathroom floor. He felt stupid, even though there was no way he could have known. Hades was giving Nico the memories back after all. Persephone would return him to godhood. They were going to do the right thing in the end.
He should have listened to Maria when she told him to trust that Nico’s parents had his best interests at heart. Hades sucked, but he had an amazing wife. Jason should have realized that Persephone wouldn’t let Nico get screwed over. Everything was gonna be okay.
Jason was overwhelmed with relief. The situation was going to correct itself. Maybe he should have known that would happen. After all, they were gods. Gods were a static part of the universe. After every shakeup, they found their equilibrium once again. It seemed like the Underworld family was no exception. Things would always return to the way they were meant to be.
Hades won three games of MarioKart in a row before letting Nico win one.
“You need to eat breakfast,” Hades said, turning the game off while Nico gloated over his victory.
“I did!”
“Prime is not breakfast,” Hades said. “We can play games later. I’ll get your food ready. I’m assuming another sugar cereal buffet?”
“Yep,” Nico said, grinning.
“Fine. Now go shower, you smell like a raccoon. I’ll be in the dining room.”
Hades left, and Nico walked into the bathroom to find Jason.
“You’re still here?” He asked. “I thought you left ages ago.”
“I won’t stay long,” Jason said, feeling that there was no more he could do. “Look, I’m sorry for bugging you. I thought I could help you, but you seem to be okay.”
“Not really,” Nico said. “I think I’m gonna be kicked out next week. I might be homeless. Dad won’t give me a clear answer.”
“You’re gonna be fine,” Jason said. “Just remember to come visit me on the Isles of the Blessed when you’re back to yourself. Okay?”
“Whatever,” Nico shrugged.
“Bye, Prince Nico,” Jason said, leaving him behind.
He trekked back to the stairs.
“False alarm,” he said to Bob on his way down. “He’ll be normal again next week.”
“Really? That’s great news, friend Jason,” Bob said, grinning with relief. “I’ll look forward to it.”
“Friend Jason, huh?” Jason smiled. “I like it. I’ll see you around, friend Bob.”
He headed back to the judges’ stand, and Minos hurried over to him as soon as he caught his eye.
“Back so soon?” Minos asked. “Speak quickly. The Furies are near”
“False alarm,” Jason repeated. “Hades was never planning on keeping him like this. Persephone will return him to normal this weekend.”
“Are you absolutely certain? If Nico requests to remain human–”
“Hades is already prepping him to wrap things up,” Jason said.
“What an incredible relief it is to hear that,” Minos said. “I feared Hades had crossed a line into intolerable cruelty, but perhaps I was merely projecting my own experience. It seems he’s making things right in the end.”
He looped his arm through Jason’s and began walking him back to the ferry stop.
“When I was king in Crete long ago,” Minos said. “I disowned my daughter Ariadne for disobedience. What’s happened to Nico is remarkably similar. Though I don’t excuse what Hades did, I understand it all too well.”
“Do you think they can work things out?” Jason asked.
“I couldn’t,” Minos said. “But I’m certain they can. They have forever to figure things out, unlike us humans.”
“I’m sure you’re right,” Jason said. “Well, I guess everything worked out. Thanks for your help, Minos.”
“Of course,” Minos said. “Thank you, Jason. Someday we’ll tell Nico of this and laugh over it.”
“Yeah, someday,” Jason said.
“By the way,” Minos said. “What did you do with the water of the Mnemosyne?”
Jason checked his nonexistent pockets.
“Shoot. I must have left it in the palace,” he said. “I think I set it down in Nico’s shower.”
Minos frowned.
“It’s a small bottle. It could be mistaken for soap or perfume. I think you ought to go get it. We can’t risk him opening it and accidentally returning his memories too soon.”
“Wouldn’t he need to drink it? People don’t normally drink shampoo,” Jason said.
“No,” Minos said. “Just the slightest drop touching his skin would retrieve at least a few memories. That may be enough to encourage him to douse himself in the stuff.”
“Right,” Jason said, wringing his hands together. “I think he’s taking a shower right now. Uh, hopefully he doesn’t use it?”
“You need to go get it!” Minos said. “Jason, it might already be too–”
Minos froze mid-sentence, eyes widening as he caught sight of something behind him. Jason closed his eyes.
“He’s right behind me, isn’t he?” He said.
Minos nodded.
“Does he look angry?”
Minos nodded again.
“Jason,” Nico said quietly. “Minos.” He spoke with a child’s voice, but his tone revealed another layer, something deeper and darker than had been there before.
Jason turned around.
His eyes were like black pits. His hair was dripping wet. He had a backpack slung over his shoulder and wore a bomber jacket over his hoodie.
“Thanks for the body wash,” Nico said.
“You’re welcome,” Jason said nervously.
Nico looked from one ghostly ex-boyfriend to the other.
“I need your help. Both of you,” he said. “I’m breaking out. Tonight.”
Jason looked up at the palace.
“But you’re already–”
“I mean out of the Underworld,” Nico said. “We need to move quickly.”
“But Lord Hades could—”
“Don’t say his name,” Nico said, glaring.
“He’ll be down here any second looking for you,” Minos said, flustered by how quickly it was all happening.
“Doubt it,” Nico said. “I set the library on fire. Fuck Hades. Let’s go.”
Notes:
Is Hades' remorse sincere? Does that make it better, or is it too late? Will Persephone fix everything, or will she just make it worse? Were Jason and Minos right or wrong in their attempts to help?
Guess we'll never know, because Nico is burning everything to the ground!
Hope you enjoy :)
Chapter 96: Nico the Human
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Life was weird. One minute you could be shampooing your hair, minding your own business, thinking about Minecraft. And then – BAM! All of a sudden you remember you’re a death god who was betrayed by everyone who’d ever loved you and also your body was a prison.
Suffice to say, Nico was having a bad day.
He’d spent a couple of minutes on the black tile floor of his shower, too overwhelmed with the flood of returning memories to move. Images poured into his brain faster than he could process. His skull was cracking under the immense pressure, like a dam had broken in his temporal lobe.
There were too many inconsistencies. Nico the god remembered the names of all the thousands of souls he’d taken, but Nico the eleven year old human lacked the hardware to store that data. Every time he thought of something too godlike, his brain flashed the blue screen of death and rebooted. He had to narrow his focus in order to cope.
There were a lot of downsides to being a human pre-teen. If there was one upside, however, it was that the middle-school mind was excellent at not seeing the big picture. Nico merely had to engage with an emotion and the emotion immediately hijacked a massive percentage of his brain capacity. Compared to his godly self, he was wearing metaphorical horse-blinders.
To cope, Nico immersed himself in anger. He began indulging in fantasies of pushing his dad into the Cocytus with a cinderblock in his pocket, or feeding Thanatos into a wood chipper slowly. He remembered publicly forgiving Thanatos, but could not recall why he’d wanted to. The new, un-improved Nico didn’t have the capacity for forgiveness. He was too busy hating the people who’d put him in this situation.
Hades was waiting for him in the dining room. Nico was tempted to walk right in and upend the table, dousing Hades in milk and cereal. Realistically, the table was going to be too heavy for him to lift.
Weak physical displays would only make him feel more powerless. And words were useless. They had talked enough, and look where that had gotten him.
Though he didn’t have a plan, Nico’s gut instinct was telling him to get out of the Underworld as soon as possible. Hades had wanted to keep him prisoner, and so the first step to defying him would be to escape from his clutches. He couldn’t bear another moment of being under his dad’s supervision.
First things first, he threw a Playstation controller at his TV, smashing the screen into a spiderweb pattern. Then he threw a towel over the shower drain and turned the water on. His bathroom started to flood. That felt like a start, though he hoped it would prove to be a pale imitation of the destruction he would wreak later, once he had the power to really fuck shit up.
He dressed and hastily threw everything he owned into a backpack. In the end, it wasn’t much. He took the saint’s bones and the jar of golden ichor, zipping them into the inner pocket even though he had no use for them. He paused when he looked at his old family photo album.
He took a quick peek at the photos. Maria and Bianca di Angelo stared back at him from the old black and white images. He knew his mom was just a shade, and had no choice but to go along with what Hades wanted– but he still felt like she’d betrayed him, too. And Bianca’s betrayal was old news. She was no better than Hades.
He grabbed the album and held it up to one of the torches on the wall until the flame caught.
Then he ran down the hallway, backpack slung over his shoulder, flaming album in his hands. He made it to the library, where he chucked it as hard as he could at the bookshelf full of scrolls. They immediately lit up in a blaze. It hurt to see his past destroyed, but in a way, it had already been destroyed. The rest was just symbolism.
He took the stairs two at a time down to Asphodel, running right past Bob and Cerberus. Bob called his name and Cerberus started to bark, but Nico couldn’t afford a second’s delay if he had any hope of making it out. He was desperate to see the sun again, to touch grass, to be free.
Minos and Jason were talking by the Lethe, that hateful river. Nico never wanted to see it again. His ghostly exes were surprised to see him, but Nico didn’t have the patience to hear them out.
“I need to get to the exit,” he said, glancing back at the palace worriedly. He was already drenched in sweat, and his heart was pounding in his chest. He hadn’t spent the last six weeks working out or eating right, and he was going to pay for that. But it was too late now.
“Hades blocked off the path of Orpheus,” Minos said. “You won’t get out that way.”
Nico hadn’t anticipated that. He wasn’t used to feeling stupid, but working with an eleven year old human brain was proving to be a hindrance. There were other ways out, but he was scared and anxious and angry, and it was hard to problem solve on the fly with so many emotions to contend with.
He felt himself panicking, becoming too overwhelmed to think clearly, and it was terrifying to realize that the limit of what he could handle in this body was incredibly low.
Cerberus howled in warning. Hades was coming.
“Crap,” Nico whimpered.
“I have an idea,” Minos said, beckoning Nico over to the judgment platform. He opened the minifridge that sat beneath their table and tossed the amphorae of wine onto the ground, making space for Nico to crawl inside.
Nico wrapped his arms around his knees and shut his eyes, hoping Hades would go away quickly. Overhead, he heard Aeacus start to protest, but Minos and Jason threatened to put him in the minifridge next if he said anything. He shut up quickly.
Nico heard Hades’ echoing footsteps approach the judges’ stand, and clenched his jaw so hard his teeth nearly cracked.
“Judges,” Hades said. He sounded anxious, as well he might be, Nico thought. His prisoner had escaped. “Have you seen Nico? He’s not in the palace.”
“We did, actually,” Minos said confidently. “He was on the balcony and then Thanatos came and snatched him up. They disappeared.”
“What!?” Hades shouted. “Now what am I to do? Thanatos threw his phone in the Styx ages ago, and he moves too fast for Iris messages. I have no way of contacting him. He could be anywhere in the world!”
“I don’t know what to tell you, my lord,” Minos said.
“If he comes back, tell him that Nico is to be returned to me immediately,” Hades said. “He’s fragile right now. It isn’t safe for him outside.”
“We’ll tell him,” Minos assured him.
“Also, Jason, I don’t know what you’re doing out here, but you belong on the Isles,” Hades added, walking away. “And you three, clean up all these amphorae! I nearly tripped!”
It was another few minutes before the fridge door opened and Nico tumbled out.
“That was quick thinking,” Jason said. “Good job, Minos.”
He reached out automatically to help Nico to his feet, but his hand passed through his shoulder.
Nico shuddered, acid rising in his throat. Having shades touch his human body felt weird. It reminded him of how much had been taken from him.
Nico stood on his own, rubbing the circulation back into his cramping legs. He tried to avoid the stares of the shades around him. He knew why they were staring. He’d been a god, but now he was just a dumb little kid. He couldn’t bear the humiliation a moment longer.
He ducked his head and wordlessly marched over to the Lethe. Looking at the churning waters made his stomach feel worse, like he might vomit, and he was developing a pounding headache behind his eyes.
He’d been there when it happened, and yet he could hardly believe it. His dad had grabbed the back of his head and held it under the froth. Nico had begged him not to, but his protests had fallen on deaf ears.
It had been the second time Nico had felt his memories washing away in the Lethe. Everything that was him vanished in a matter of seconds, taken by the waters. Piece by piece, his identity had gone, until Hades was satisfied.
He had let Hades off the hook for the first Lethe-dunking, after his mom died. He’d been okay with forgetting that particular event. But this time was different.
Hades had to pay. Nico would not, could not rest until he had his revenge.
He rang the bell for the ferry violently, glaring out at the water. He stayed angry, his entire body a knot of tension. He felt like if he let his guard down, he would fall apart, and so he stayed as focused as he could.
Jason and Minos caught up to him, both of them looking confused that he’d run off without explaining the next steps. What they didn’t realize was that there were no next steps. Nico was winging it.
“What’s the plan, Nico?” Jason said.
“Minos will stay here and cover our tracks,” Nico said. “Tell the shades to keep quiet about what they’ve seen today.”
“I will,” Minos said. Nico shuddered as Minos’ ghostly fingers went through his arm, as Minos made the same mistake Jason had earlier. It wasn’t their fault they were affectionate towards him, but Nico could hardly stand to be around them right now. “How are you feeling?” Minos asked gently.
“We can talk when I’m back to normal,” Nico said, turning away. “I need to focus.”
Minos nodded and left Nico and Jason alone. The soft horn of the ferry sounded in the mist.
“I’ve got your back,” Jason said. “Whatever you need. Just say the word. Okay?”
“Yeah,” Nico said quietly, staring into the darkness.
The metal walkway clunked down, and the two of them boarded Charon’s ferry.
Charon paused when he saw Nico. The two of them stared at each other, the desiccated skeleton in the captain’s uniform and the grungy little tween that had once been a god.
“Your call,” Nico said, looking him in the eye sockets.
Charon was a skeleton of few words. He gave Nico a short nod, and disappeared.
Nico walked up to the ferry’s controls without hesitation.
“Holy shit,” Jason said, watching as Nico turned the wheel and hit the throttle. The ferry slowly chugged away from the bank and into the darkness. “You know how to drive a boat?”
“No,” Nico admitted. “But I’ve played a lot of video games lately. They better have been good for something.”
As the ferry headed downriver, Nico seemed to grow more confident in his boating skills, and they picked up speed. The darkness around them grew thicker, until the mist rising off the river was invisible.
“How can you know where we’re going?” Jason asked, standing at the prow and looking into the distance. “You can’t see, can you?”
“That’s the point,” Nico said. “The darkest darkness isn’t really darkness. It’s the walls of Erebus. If we keep the wall on our right side, we’ll reach a junction with the Acheron. If we stay on it, we’ll pass Hecate’s cave. If we can get past her, we can make it to the Necromanteion exit.”
“But what will we do once you get there?” Jason asked.
Nico didn’t answer. He had no idea, but he was confident that he’d figure something out.
When the ferry passed Hecate’s cave, he slowed the ferry to a stop. She was leaning on the doorway, a shawl wrapped around her shoulders, sipping a mug of tea.
“Come in, honey,” she said, heading inside. “Let’s chat. Ghosts have to wait outside, though. They make me cold.”
Nico disembarked the ferry, leaving Jason behind. He was in no mood for talking, but Hecate would need to be dealt with one way or another.
“Hecate, if you’re going to stop me, get it over with,” Nico said. “Otherwise, let me go.”
“Relax,” she said, going over to her cauldron in the center of the room. She conjured a bowl and filled it with the contents of the cauldron, passing it to Nico and nudging him towards the couch. “I made soup. You’re gonna need your strength for what comes next.”
Nico’s traitorous human stomach growled. He sat and took a tentative sip of soup. It was pumpkin stew, nourishing and delicious. He started eating ravenously.
“The Necromanteion has a locked gate on the outside now,” Hecate said, stirring her cauldron. “You can’t get out that way.”
“Fucking Hades,” Nico hissed angrily, setting his empty bowl aside. Hecate ladled him a second helping.
“Actually, you can chalk that one up to the Greek tourism board,” she said, running her fingers through her artfully tangled red hair. “Some delinquents left it a mess recently, so they closed it down. But there may be another way out.”
“And?” Nico said, wiping his mouth. “What’s the price of this information?”
“I just wanted to ask a couple of questions,” she said, sitting on the couch next to him.
“Typical,” Nico said, rolling his eyes.
“Hey! That’s uncalled for,” she said, wagging her finger. “It’s not my fault you’re in this mess, and I’m risking a lot by helping you. The least you could do is assuage my curiosity.”
“No it’s not,” Nico said. “The least I could do is nothing, because you could just help without expecting anything in return.”
“Wow! You’re really not yourself, huh?” She said. “You know how this works. No such thing as a free lunch around here.”
Nico took a deep breath, holding his head in his hands. He was sick and tired of his pantheon. Always tit for tat, always counting score. He could remember liking Hecate. He knew she was supposedly a friend. But right now, when he looked at her, he was filled with nothing but resentment.
“You’re such a cute little human,” she said, pinching his cheek. He nearly snapped at her like a rabid dog.
“Why are you leaving?” She asked.
“Why am I leaving?” Nico snapped. The answer was so obvious that Nico wondered whether she was making a joke. “Are you kidding? How can I stay after what he did to me?”
“Last I heard, you got sentenced to two years in Tartarus,” she said. “Being human sucks, but Tartarus is no walk in the park either. I figured your dad did you a favor by making you like this.”
“You figured wrong,” Nico said. She didn’t know the full context of what it meant to him, and he didn’t care to explain the painful details to her. “He didn’t just transform me, he stole my memories in the Lethe against my will.”
Hecate shrugged.
“But you undid it already. The Lethe and Mnemosyne are next door to your house, right? Doesn’t seem like that big of a deal. Speaking of undoing, why are you leaving when Persephone will be home in a few days? I would think she’d just change you back once she sees you like this. She was pretty fond of your godly form.”
“You don’t get it,” Nico said, clenching his fists. He could barely speak through his rage; he knew he was being gaslit, and he was determined not to let it work. “You have no clue what I’ve been through. I don’t care if it’s easy to undo. It shouldn’t have been done to start with.”
“But–”
“I can’t wait for her,” he said, turning to walk back to the doorway. “I can’t trust her not to betray me, too. She’s married to my dad, after all.”
“Persephone loves you,” Hecate said. She disappeared in a cloud of green mist, reappearing to block his exit at the door. “If I let you leave here, and something bad happens to you in the human world, which it probably will, what am I supposed to say to her? ‘Hi, Persephone, yes, I saw your weak, vulnerable, fragile little son, and I helped him to leave the only place he’s safe. No, I have no idea where he’s gone. Persephone, please stop screaming. Persephone, put down the gun!’ You get where I’m going with this?” Hecate asked.
“No,” Nico said. “You said this place is safe for me. It’s not. If you don’t help me, I’ll find another way out if it kills me.”
“You can’t be killed,” she said. “Remember Asclepius? Zeus incinerated him in human form and he still came back as a god. Nothing takes us out completely, other than Stygian iron.”
“That’s too bad,” Nico said. “Because this conversation is making me wish I was dead.”
She bit her lip, looking at him like he was a feral cat who was refusing to walk into a trap. At least, that’s what Nico felt like. He wondered how many nets he’d have to dodge on the way out. Would they all be disguised as ‘just trying to help?’
“Out of respect for who you were,” she said finally. “I will help you leave, if you’ll promise to be careful. I won’t tattle on you, but if Hades asks me point blank, I’ll tell him the truth. Lying to him is what got you into this mess,” she added, before Nico had a chance to snap at her.
Nico didn’t regret lying. His father didn’t deserve the truth. Thinking about all the times Hades had begged him to be honest made his gut twist with anger, and his voice was choked with rage when he spoke.
“Where,” he asked slowly. “Is the way out, Hecate?” It was so difficult to keep a level tone that he was shaking with effort, even though he knew she could easily send him back to the palace if he pissed her off. He didn’t have the ability to regulate his emotions anymore, at least not the way he had before. Diplomat Nico was gone.
In spite of his efforts, Hecate gave him a disapproving look. She could tell he was feeling murderous. He may have been harmless to a goddess like her, but that didn’t make him pleasant company.
“I’ll show you the secret exit,” she admitted. “You’re obviously not going to wait patiently for Persephone to come home. But when you get to the surface, I insist that you contact her immediately. Find a demigod and ask them to Iris message her for you. Don’t put it off. You could easily get hurt up there in this form, and your parents would be devastated if something happened to you.”
“Devastated?” Nico scoffed. “Hades doesn’t give a shit about me. He’d probably love to see me get hit by a bus.”
Hecate grabbed him by the backpack and dragged him over to her cauldron. For a moment, he was afraid she was going to toss him into the pumpkin soup, but she put out the flame with a wave of her hand and pushed the cauldron over to one side, revealing a grate underneath the magical flames.
“You know that’s not true. You’re not in your right mind,” she said. His last remark didn’t sit well with her, it seemed. “I’m beginning to think Hades and Persephone have been too soft on you. This humanization thing? It’s gentle parenting. Maybe you needed it.”
There was almost nothing she could have said that would have hurt Nico more. He’d been accused of being spoiled many times in his life, even as a human child in Venice. But Hades had been anything but gentle with him on the day of his trial.
His heart sank. To think, this was a goddess who had once been his friend… If she was this pitiless, he’d get no help from the rest of the gods, that was for certain.
“My dad was Perses,” she said. “Titan of destruction. He…” She hesitated, and he could see emotion building up in her face before she shut it down, returning to calm placidity. “Trust me. Your dad is one of the better ones.”
“That’s not saying much in this pantheon,” he muttered.
“Maybe not,” she agreed. “Your exit is down there,” she said, opening the grate and pointing down a long, dark drain. “There will be swimming involved, but it should get you to the path of Orpheus, past the blockage.”
He gazed down into the dark, wet hole. There was no telling how deep it was, or how much water it contained.
Good thing he couldn’t die.
“Let me say goodbye to Jason,” he said. Hecate nodded, and he hurried outside. Jason was still standing beside the ferry, waiting.
“She showed me the way out,” Nico said. “You can go back to the Isles. I’ll take it from here.”
“What? No way,” Jason insisted. “I’m coming with you.”
“You can’t. You won’t last five minutes on the surface. I can’t sustain you in this form, I don’t have magic anymore,” Nico said.
Jason held out something in his hand. Nico recognized the magical pocket watch he’d once given Thomas, the ghost he’d put in charge of Camp Jupiter. It allowed the bearer to remain on the surface indefinitely without assistance.
“Hazel gave it to me,” Jason said. “She asked me to help. I’m coming with you.”
“Can I see it?” Nico asked.
Jason handed him the pocket watch.
Nico threw it into the Acheron. It sank immediately, disappearing under the dark surface.
“Why would you do that?” Jason said.
“Look at me,” Nico said.
Jason met his eyes, his pale, ghostly expression flickering in the darkness of the passage.
“I know I look like a child to you,” Nico said. “I know I’m weak. But underneath, I’m still a god. If I’m going to get my divinity back, I’m not going to do it by disrespecting the laws of death. You’re staying here.”
Jason’s expression saddened.
“But I want to help,” Jason said, although without the pocket watch, there was no way that would be possible.
“If you want to help me, then treat me like the god I am, not the shell I’m trapped inside,” Nico said. “Do as you’re told. Go back to the Isles and stay there. Enjoy the afterlife you earned.”
Jason hesitated, then nodded.
“I promise,” he said. “I’ll go back. But… Can you promise me something too? Please?”
“What?” Nico asked.
“Be careful,” Jason said. “You have a right to be angry. But this is your home too, not just Hades’. You’re part of this place. He can’t take that from you. But I’m scared you’re gonna take it from yourself.”
“This place doesn’t deserve me,” Nico said.
“When I was dying, I was angry,” Jason said. “So angry that I almost lost myself. Some kinds of anger hurt us more than the person we’re angry at.”
“You think I should stay?” Nico said, suddenly enraged. “How dare you?”
“I–”
“You have absolutely no idea what this is like,” Nico said. “You were fighting your fate– that’s always a mistake. This is the opposite– I’m fighting for my fate. I’m a god, and I’m getting my godhood back, and I’m doing it my way.”
He walked away without saying goodbye, re-entering Hecate’s cave without looking back.
“So I just jump in there?” He asked, pointing down into the hole in the ground.
“Yeah,” she said. “You’re really not yourself right now.”
“No shit.”
“Jason is right. You should stay. You’re making a huge mistake.”
He answered her by walking forward, taking a deep breath, and then jumping down into the tunnel.
The fall was long. Too long, terrifyingly long. If he hit rock, his legs would shatter on impact. But they hit water, icy, shocking-cold water that submerged him instantly.
His mouth opened, and he gasped, breathing in water in a stupid human instinct that put him in immediate danger of drowning. He struggled to make it to the surface, where he coughed and gasped for breath. He’d gotten water into his lungs.
Great. He’d probably get pneumonia. That figured.
He felt the cold, slick walls of the drain pipe around him, and realized he’d reached a sort of U-bend. The only way out was to dive, to go down before he could come up.
The sooner he went under, the sooner he’d breathe again. He took a deep inhale and dove.
The U-Bend thing had been wishful thinking. It was more like a W-corkscrew. He swam as fast as he could, pushing off walls and pulling himself forward, but it felt interminable. Luckily it was wide enough that he and his backpack fit through, but there was no light, and he could only move by touch. It was lucky he’d lived a subterranean life for so long, because he was unafraid of darkness.
Drowning, though? That scared the crap out of him.
He made it to an air pocket, but there was no indication of an exit. The air smelled cold and foul, and was thick with moisture. He sucked in great gasps of it, feeling his chest aching. He’d almost drowned just making it to this air pocket, and he didn’t want to leave. What if the next tunnel was longer? He’d drown before he made it to the other side.
Instinctive panic set it. He was trapped like a rat in a hole. Being underground, in tight spaces, in the dark– he was pretty used to those things, but it didn’t mean his human brain was totally immune to it. The cold water had numbed his limbs and tightened his muscles. He started to shiver. His lip began to quiver, thought that had nothing to do with the cold.
He’d fucked up. He couldn’t do this. He might not be able to swim any further. Back in the palace, he’d had a warm bed, hot meals, and a fancy shower. His parents had been at his beck and call, tending to his every need. And they’d been kind to him. Even if it had all been a lie, at least he’d felt safe. In the last six weeks, he’d never suffered a moment’s physical pain or discomfort.
He felt tears warm his cold cheeks, and his nose ran. Maybe he hadn’t had it so bad. Maybe Hecate and Jason were right, and he was making a terrible mistake.
Minos had once told him his fatal flaw was holding grudges. With gods, it didn’t matter so much, since the concept of fatality evaded them. But as a human, his fatal flaw had returned in full force, and it had driven his every choice. His grudge against Hades might well prove fatal, even now, before he’d even made it out of the Underworld. He could drown as a consequence of his irresponsible, impulsive hatred.
He considered that outcome, and decided he was fine with it. If he died, maybe, like Asclepius, he’d return to his godly self.
If not, he’d deal.
He plunged back under the water, and the tunnel changed into a rough cave wall. That was progress, he was pretty sure. He grabbed onto protruding stalactites and stalagmites to pull forward, and as his arms grew weaker, he realized he truly was going to run out of air. The tunnel seemed interminable. The urge to breathe was overpowering his ability to control himself. His panic was morphing into a calm acceptance. That was a bad sign.
He felt himself starting to black out. He opened his mouth and breathed in– a reflex he couldn’t control. Water filled his lungs again, cold and horrible, and the sensation jolted him slightly. He managed to gather his strength for one last push off the rock with his legs, knowing that it would probably be pointless.
His face broke the surface.
He gasped and coughed, choking on all the water he’d swallowed. After a minute of coughing, and then another, he clambered out onto a sandy beach, hacking and wheezing. His nose and throat were on fire, and his chest ached.
He was alive, but he wasn’t okay. He’d taken in too much water, and his lungs weren’t recovering. He’d collected a soul like this before. A young boy had gotten caught in the undertow on a beach in Maui and nearly drowned. He’d made it onto dry land, but after a few minutes, the water in his lungs started to cause a deadly reaction. The lifeguard tried CPR, but it didn’t work. As Nico had taken his soul, the lifeguard had used the term dry-drowning to describe what had happened.
He lay on his back on the sand, wondering if this was it. He remembered Vespasian’s last words. ‘Oh, dear, I think I’m becoming a god.’
If only!
Unfortunately, his human body recovered enough for him to eventually stand up. He felt like he’d been hit by a bus, but he found an inner reserve of strength that he wished he didn’t have. One step at a time, he walked away from the water.
He recognized the place where he’d emerged. It was the small pool of water beside the Path of Orpheus. He was close to the surface now.
He walked slowly, putting one foot in front of the other. Eventually he saw light in the distance, illuminating the cave walls around him.
He hurried his steps, until he was staggering toward the sunlight. He was going to do it– he was escaping the Underworld!
It occurred to him that he hadn’t thanked Jason or Minos for their help. That really wasn’t like him… But he dismissed the thought. The important thing was he was free.
He stepped out onto the grass. He had been in this spot more times than he could count. The entrance to the Underworld was concealed in a rock, and the rock stood in the middle of Central Park in New York City. He’d spent an entire summer with Alabaster and Commodus summoning shades in this patch of grass. He could still see the lumps under the earth where he’d buried countless sacrificial chihuahuas.
It felt like another lifetime, although it had only been a little over a year ago.
He took a moment to stare up at the sun, as much as he could tolerate, and dry his clothes out in the September air. It was still a little warm out, and birds were singing.
Tears stung his eyes.
He was free.
Now what?
Hecate had probably been right in telling him to Iris message Persephone. He’d been a self-righteous little brat in her cave, but that cold water tunnel had humbled him. There weren’t any options that were easier than calling her. He had to consider it.
He took off his backpack, sat in the grass and watched people walk past. He got some curious stares, probably because he looked pale, sick, and soaking wet.
His chest still ached. He was really going to become ill soon, he could just tell. He had a limited amount of time to figure things out on his own.
He had no idea what to do next, but he wasn’t ready to give up yet. He stood, put his backpack back on and decided to get some fresh air moving through his lungs. If push came to shove, he’d beg for food money and hitchhike to Camp Half Blood, and call Persephone from there. But he wasn’t ready yet. He needed to be on his own for a while.
He walked around, grabbing an old popcorn bucket out of the trash and eating the remaining kernels at the bottom. It was undignified, but so was everything about his situation.
He caught a few people moving away from him on the path. Tourists didn’t like the all-black clothing, disheveled wet rat aesthetic he was currently rocking. It was a far cry from the looks of approval his normal appearance got him. He missed being hot.
He walked past a bunch of chess tables, where crowds of people watched chess players of varying skill levels play. A familiar face caught his eye.
He went up to watch the chess game. The man he’d recognized was a large, broad shouldered gentleman with fiery red hair and a matching beard. He was smaller than he’d been at their last meeting, but then again, so was Nico.
Damasen didn’t see him watching. He was focused on the board, taking his time with every move. His opponent seemed to be pretty good, but Damasen was better. He won within a couple of minutes and shook his opponent’s hand respectfully.
Nico shoved in front of the next person in line. Damasen looked up at him, his bushy eyebrows lowering to obscure his eyes in a frown.
“Cutting in line? Just who do you think you are, kid?” He said.
“I’m Nico,” Nico said. “Formerly known as Small Bob.”
Damasen looked Nico up and down with a new light of recognition in his eyes. Then he started laughing uproariously, so loudly that all the nearby chess players stopped to look.
“They really got you good, huh?” Damasen said.
“Yep,” Nico said, trying to hide how upset it made him.
Damasen got up and gestured for Nico to walk around with him, but they didn’t get far before Nico had a coughing fit.
“Let’s sit here,” Damasen said, finding a bench beneath a tree. “You okay, kid? You look like a stiff breeze could knock you over.”
“Getting out of the Underworld was not easy,” Nico said. “But I did it.”
“That’s really something,” Damasen said. “You actually did it? You got all the way out on your own, in that body?”
Nico thought about it. He wanted to take credit, but without Charon and Hecate clearing the way for him, he wouldn’t have made it far. He hadn’t thanked them any more than he’d thanked Minos and Jason. He’d been in such a desperate state of mind that he hadn’t thought of it. Things seemed better in the sunlight. Not a lot better, but a little.
“Not totally on my own,” he admitted. “But I did get out.” His voice was hoarse. Sitting made him aware of how tired he was. His mind was wide awake, but his body was beginning to ache, and his throat was sore. He wasn’t going to hold out long. “I think I’m getting sick,” he said, looking at Damasen.
“Yeah, you look it,” Damasen said. “What are you doing here? I heard about your trial on the radio, but I figured you’d want to lay low until you could return to normal. Why leave the Underworld?”
“It’s a long story,” Nico said.
“Will you tell me if I buy you a hot dog?”
Nico nodded, and he was happy to eat his hot dog in the sunshine like a normal person for a minute. Damasen fed birdseed to the pigeons, and Nico watched them eagerly gobble up the seeds. He tossed them a piece of bun and watched them scrabble in the dirt, flapping their wings. They reminded him of the children of Nyx. He hoped to never see any of them again.
“My dad doesn’t know I’m here,” Nico said. “I need you to keep this a secret.”
“Why?” Damasen asked.
“He’s the one that did this to me,” Nico said.
He went on to tell Damasen everything. Maybe Damasen would understand, and maybe he wouldn’t. But Nico was out of the darkness now, and he wanted the truth out in the open, where it could be examined in the light.
“That’s heavy,” Damasen said, after Nico had finished explaining about the MarioKart and the magic shampoo.
“I can call my mom to come get me,” Nico said. “Everyone seems to think that would be easier. But I know she’s gonna try and talk me into giving my dad another chance.”
“That doesn’t mean you have to do it,” Damasen said.
Nico looked up at the blue sky overhead. Outside of the choking atmosphere of the palace, his mind was a confused jumble of emotions.
“But where would I go?” Nico said. “What would I do? If I’m not the Prince of the Underworld, who am I supposed to be?”
“Whoever you want,” Damasen suggested.
“But that is what I want,” Nico said. “The Underworld is my home. I’m Cthonic. I can’t help it, I was born that way. I want to go home. I want to be with my family. I just want them to be different than how they are.”
Tears overwhelmed him. His chest hurt even worse from trying to hold back the sobs.
“Why does this pantheon have to suck so much?” Nico said. “Why is it normal for them to be so shitty to each other? Hecate thinks I’m spoiled just because I don’t want my dad to traumatize me. It’s so messed up that I don’t even know where to begin fixing it. I don’t want to waste my time anymore.”
Damasen nodded thoughtfully, staring off into the distance.
“It was the same for my generation,” he said. “Gaea and Ouranos didn’t see themselves as villains. They thought they were bringing order to Chaos. But us kids knew we could do better. That’s why my brother Kronos overthrew them.”
“But Kronos was awful, too,” Nico protested.
“But he was less awful than what came before,” Damasen said. “When Zeus was born, he had no idea how bad his parents’ generation – my generation– once had it. He just saw our flaws and thought he could do better. He trashed everything we had built. Then he decided we weren’t worth saving and tossed us into Tartarus.”
“Well, if Kronos didn’t want to be overthrown, maybe he shouldn’t have eaten his kids,” Nico said. “He caused the problem he was trying to prevent.”
“You see? With you, your dad was doing the same,” Damasen said. “He saw his dad’s fate and tried to prevent it from happening to him, too. Although he did treat you pretty decently– I saw how he was in Tartarus. But it didn’t change the fact that he saw you as a threat that needed to be contained.”
Nico squeezed his eyes shut, remembering the moment his father had arrived to save him a split second before Tartarus was going to suck him into a terrifying vortex of doom. It had been a good memory, his dad stepping up to be his hero when he needed him most. But all of his good memories felt painful now.
“It wasn’t enough,” Nico said coldly. “In the end, his paranoia was more important to him than I was.”
“This is the pattern that keeps repeating,” Damasen said. A spark entered his eyes, and he was gesturing with his hands excitedly. “Every few millennia, a new generation of gods shows up to make things better than what came before. But the Olympian children have all been dead fish. None of them ever managed to pose a threat to Zeus that actually went anywhere.”
“No,” Nico said. “They’re not the most competent bunch.”
“And Zeus is terrible!” Damasen said emphatically.
“I hate Zeus more than any other god alive,” Nico said, gritting his teeth. “He tried to use the Master Bolt on me twice.”
“Maybe,” Damasen suggested, gripping Nico’s shoulder. “It’s time for a little regime change.”
Nico’s heart began to race.
“What are you talking about?” Nico asked.
“We’re talking about patterns here,” Damasen said. “Cycles of time and change. I’ve been doing a little research up here on the surface, and it sounds like Zeus has overstayed his welcome by a few thousand years. Wouldn’t you agree?” He winked.
“Sure,” Nico said, coughing. His chest felt tight, and breathing hurt. “But I can’t do anything against a whole pantheon. I’m just one god. And I’m not even that right now.”
“What if it wasn’t just you?” Damasen said.
Nico stared at him. Damasen took out his cell phone and held up a text message chain.
Nico read a few of the text bubbles on the screen. The contact’s code name was ‘Wisegirl’. She and Damasen had been texting, mostly in code, about a plan for dethroning a certain someone.
“You and Annabeth,” Nico said. “You’re planning a rebellion?”
“Woah, woah, woah,” Damasen said. “Keep your voice down! It’s early days yet. We’re not rushing it. Until she gets Athena on our side, we’re not going to be able to accomplish a whole lot. But Wisegirl thinks she can win her over eventually. From there, other young Olympians may join. We’ll see.”
Nico swallowed. He wished he had a little bit more energy, both mental and physical. Because normally he would be really excited about an idea like this, but he felt like a possum who’d been run over by a garbage truck.
But he felt like crap because he was human. And being human was his dad’s fault. A new wave of anger buoyed him. He couldn’t let his human frailty be an impediment to his quest for revenge, he reminded himself. The godly Nico would thank him later.
“If I join you, I can get my revenge on Zeus,” Nico said. “And everyone else who wronged me.”
“Of course,” Damasen said. “We’ll bind our enemies in Tartarus. It’s the only way.”
“I like the sound of that. I need Hermes and Hera punished, for sure,” Nico said.
“We’ll chuck ‘em in,” Damasen said.
“Good,” Nico said. “And Nemesis. And Thanatos. I want them to suffer for what they did to me.”
“Er, hang on,” Damasen said, holding his hands up. “The children of Nyx are another story. They’ve survived every regime change yet totally unscathed. They’re untouchable.”
Nico flexed his fingers. They were cold and achy right now, with breakable human bones. But they wouldn’t always be.
“I can touch them,” he said. He looked up at Damasen, smiling wickedly. “Trust me.”
“I trust you,” Damasen said, looking slightly frightened of him. “What about your dad?”
Nico’s smile dropped from his face. There was nothing that would hurt Hades more than being bound in Tartarus forever next to Kronos. Especially if Nico became his jailer.
Nico had wanted revenge, but he had struggled to think of a method to get back at his dad that he could actually pull off. Now an opportunity had presented itself. It wouldn’t be easy, and it would take years, but he knew with one hundred percent certainty that Annabeth was capable of overthrowing Olympus if she really wanted to. With his help, she could take the Underworld, too.
Nico, King of the Underworld. He tried to imagine reigning over all the souls, supervising the judges, ensuring the safe afterlives of all the humans who’d ever lived. It felt like an overwhelming task to take on. Was he capable of handling that responsibility?
Then he remembered Persephone. She could remain the Queen of the Underworld. Maybe he could be a psychopomp, serving at her side. Would she be willing to work with him if he put her husband in Tartarus?
Or would he need to lock her up, too?
Nico opened his mouth to admit, out loud, that he didn’t think he could go through with it. Hades was his enemy right now, but even at the peak of his hatred, Nico didn’t want to put his dad in Tartarus forever. He’d need to find another way to get the satisfaction of revenge without going to such an extreme. There had to be a middle ground.
Damasen raised his eyebrows, and Nico closed his mouth without responding to his original question. He needed Damasen’s help, so he didn’t dare admit that he was too much of a wimp to go all-in.
“We can cross that bridge when we come to it,” Damasen said, shrugging.
Nico nodded his agreement. Then he started coughing up a lung, hacking and wheezing so badly Damasen scooted away from him on the bench.
“You good?” Damasen asked.
Nico looked down at his hand. He’d coughed up a small amount of bubbly pink fluid.
“Is that normal for humans?” Damasen asked.
Nico shook his head.
“I think it’s time we called my mom,” he said, feeling a foreboding sense of doom settle on his spindly human shoulders. It seemed his humanization was coming to an end, one way or another. “Either her or an ambulance.”
Damasen hesitated.
“You can’t tell anyone what we spoke about,” Damasen said, twisting his beard nervously. “Not even Persephone. You’re gonna have to go home and keep your mouth shut for a long time. Will you be able to do it? Because I don’t want to wind up back in Tartarus for plotting. I’ve wasted too many centuries down there.”
“Dude, I lie all the time,” Nico said. He was feeling weak and slightly dizzy, and he was annoyed that Damasen was hesitating to help him. “Of course I can keep a secret.”
“Even from your father?”
“I’m never planning on speaking to him again,” Nico insisted. “I don’t think I can go home. Ever. Especially if we’re planning an insurrection. I’ll have to lay low and just… Figure stuff out for a while.”
Damasen had complicated everything. Nico was thrilled to find allies in his hatred of Zeus, but theirs was a long-term plan, and Nico’s anger was more of a sudden blaze than a slow burn.
“Okay,” Damasen agreed. “We’re having our next strategy session in 2065, once Wisegirl becomes a goddess officially. We’re meeting here at the sailboat pond. Can we count on you?”
Nico gasped, which was a huge mistake. It took him a full minute to breathe again after the coughing fit it triggered.
“I can’t wait until 2065!”
“You can’t expect her to do it while she’s still mortal!” Damasen scoffed. “You were the one that came up with the date, not me. Besides, that’s right around the corner. I actually think we might be rushing things a bit.”
Nico slumped back on the park bench. 2065 wouldn’t work for him. He hated thinking about it, but he might have forgiven some of his enemies by that time. Human Nico didn’t want to do such a thing, but for some reason god-Nico had already gotten started handing out forgiveness like it grew on trees. In forty years, he might lose interest in his quest for vengeance.
Of course Damasen didn’t mind waiting. He was thousands of years old. But Nico hadn’t even cracked a century yet. Forty years wasn’t chump change to him.
“Fine,” Nico said, giving up. He was too tired and too human to give a damn anymore. He’d have to get revenge on his own, and leave the rebellion as a far-off backup plan in case he failed. There was simply no way he could wait.
“Fantastic,” Damasen said, smacking his hands on top of his thighs excitedly. “I’ll look forward to it. It’ll be like a Tartarus reunion! How’s Bob, by the by?”
“He’s good,” Nico said weakly. “I think I’m gonna take a nap,” he said, slumping down further in his seat. His eyelids were heavy, and his vision was going dark. Why did it feel so hard to breathe?
Damasen stood up, making space for Nico to lay down on the bench.
“Alright. Have a nice nap. I’ll be playing chess when you’re ready to make that phone call,” he said. He walked away with the nonchalant swagger of a giant who had no clue that a small human kid was dying in front of him.
Unconsciousness took Nico quickly. He wasn’t sure how long he slept, but he awoke to the sensation of something heavy hitting his back.
He wrenched one eye open. His chest felt like there was an elephant sitting on it. Every breath was a struggle. Was this pneumonia? Something else? He felt like he was dying slowly.
It was still daylight. Blinking, he realized that the sensation of weight was not solely due to his illness. There was a purple cloak across his shoulders.
That woke him up. He tried to jolt upright, but the cloak held him in place. The more he struggled, the more it squeezed him like a boa constrictor.
“Aww. Look at you, wiggling around like a little burrito,” a voice said. “By all means, continue fighting fate. It will make it hurt more!”
Nero was standing over him.
He was wearing a flashy purple suit with a crown of golden laurels. He didn’t stand out in Central Park at all; the Mist was hiding his activities from the mortals walking past.
To Nico’s horror, he saw that Damasen had been caught too. He was wrapped tightly in another cloak, and Commodus was escorting him. Commodus met Nico’s eye with a cold and pitiless stare.
“Let’s get you little rebels back to the tower,” Nero said, flicking a finger. Nico was lifted up against his will, the cloak holding him in midair like a levitating burrito. “I think an interrogation is in order.”
They walked briskly back to a town car, where Nico and Damasen were shoved into the backseat alongside one another. Damasen was so large that he nearly crushed Nico beneath his weight. Nico’s head pounded, and every breath was like a knife between his ribs.
“Sorry,” Damasen whispered. “Don’t tell them anything, Nico!”
“Shut up!” Commodus shouted, throwing an empty Starbucks cup at Damasen from the front seat.
They raced up the road, but the Triumvirate Holdings tower wasn’t far from Central Park, so it was a short ride.
They floated Nico and Damasen into the lobby and straight into the elevator. Nico remembered his first time in the elevator with Commodus vividly. This wasn’t his first run in with the deified emperors’ magic cloaks, but it was his first time encountering them as a human. If he’d felt weak in their presence the first time, this time he felt like an ant beneath a descending shoe.
“This is going to be glorious,” Nero said, rubbing his hands together. “I can’t believe we managed to catch the son of Pluto in such a vulnerable state, and in the midst of plotting to overthrow Olympus! Jupiter is going to be so proud of us! He’ll definitely start taking my calls again!”
“I’d rather interrogate the kid, if it’s all the same to you,” Commodus said, glancing back at Nico.
“Oh, no, you’ve had your chance to fight him,” Nero said. “I want a turn at him now. Gods can take more pain before they break, but humans are so deliciously afraid! They flinch at every broken bone! His pain will be glorious to behold!”
Nico was pretty sure he’d die if Nero so much as plucked a nose hair. He had already passed out once that day just from talking too much. But Nero had one thing right– he was afraid.
The elevator was going down to a floor labeled B for the basement. Nico felt his stomach drop. Normally he liked to be underground, but he was pretty sure a visit to Nero’s basement in the body of an eleven year old boy was not going to be a good experience.
He looked at Damasen desperately, and envied him. He knew what Commodus was capable of, but Nero was a wild card. The two of them were pulled in different directions, with Commodus taking Damasen down the hall one way, while Nico went another. Damasen shouted out, “Don’t give him anything, Nico! Viva la revolución!” Then he was gone.
Nero brought Nico into a large, empty room. It contained nothing aside from a single wooden chair with a lightbulb hanging above. It was cliche, but that didn’t make it any less terrifying.
Nero retracted his magic cloak, and Nico collapsed onto the floor with a thud. Nero yanked Nico’s backpack off of his shoulders and tossed it into the corner. He shoved Nico down into the chair. Ropes appeared from thin air and wrapped around his wrists and ankles.
Nico remembered the trial, where Gaea’s vines had fallen from his wrists effortlessly. He didn’t have his slippery powers any longer, or he’d never be stuck in this situation. He cursed his dad for putting him in this weak, vulnerable body. Hades was the one responsible for all he was about to endure.
Nero took off his suit jacket and pushed up his sleeves. His fingers were covered in golden rings, and he had a gold Rolex on each wrist.
“You don’t scare me,” Nico lied, staring Nero down defiantly.
“No? I’ll just have to try harder,” Nero grinned. He punched Nico in the jaw.
The chair slammed sideways, and Nico’s head hit the ground. His ears rang with the impact of his skull hitting concrete.
Oh, he realized. He was going to die. Soon.
Maybe that was a good thing.
Nero lifted him back up.
“Let’s try that again,” Nero said. “Hi, I’m Nero. I’m the worst thing to ever happen to you. Scared?”
“Nope,” Nico said, though his voice was shaking.
Nero hit him again, and Nico’s head hit the ground once more. He blacked out for a second, but to his dismay, he came to. Nero lifted him up again.
Nero asked him something, probably the same thing as before, but Nico couldn’t hear him. His head lolled on his neck, and he couldn’t speak. Breathing was still difficult, although he had bigger problems than pleurisy at the moment.
He wished he could speak. He needed to keep goading Nero into hurting him. If he could get one more decent slam onto the concrete, he might die and come back as his old self again.
Unfortunately, Nero had lost interest in that method of torture. That was a very bad thing for Nico. A head injury was a fast and easy way to go– he’d taken enough souls to know. One hit to the right part of the skull and bam! Lights out. It would be better than whatever else Nero planned to try.
Nero paced around him in a circle.
“What’s it to be, then?” He said, tapping his chin. “Quartering? A feast for my lions? Maybe a nice little crucifixion’s the ticket?”
“No, please!” Nico said, finding his voice. Crucifixion might take days before he finally died. “Anything but that! Do the lions!”
“Now that you said you want it, I can’t do that one,” Nero said, putting his hands on his hips in annoyance. Then a cruel smile passed his lips. “Never mind. I know.”
The chair Nico was tied to lengthened, magically straightening into a wooden pole. For a moment, Nico was terrified that he was going to be crucified after all, but no T-shape formed. Instead, the ropes bound him tightly to a single upright pole.
A black, sludgy liquid began to ooze out of the rope, soaking him in goo from his torso down to his toes.
Nico coughed. It smelled strongly, but he didn’t recognize the substance.
“What is this?”
“You’ll see,” Nero giggled.
“Aren’t you going to ask me any questions?” Nico asked weakly, trying to buy time to figure out what was about to happen. There was no chance of escape, no chance of running. He didn’t have the energy to talk his way out of it, even if he could think of a way to do so.
“No, that’s what Damasen is for,” Nero said. “You’re just for fun. Do you want to know something interesting?”
“What?” Nico asked, loathe to know what kind of fact Nero found interesting.
“When you burn someone alive, the fun doesn’t last very long,” Nero said. “The nerves burn away, so they stop feeling it after a while. And usually the smoke inhalation kills them before the fire can do a lot of damage. It was never all I wanted it to be. That was, until I invented my patented ‘Nero’s Human Torch Fun Maximization System!’”
“Oh my god,” Nico muttered. It was one thing for Nero to be into torture. Why did he have to be good at it?
Nero’s patented method involved a plastic cone tied around Nico’s neck so that he would breathe air rather than the smoke that would rise from his body. Unfortunately, Nico was certain it would be effective. He coughed again, seeing little pink flecks splatter the inside of the cone.
The brief moments before Nero lit him on fire seemed to last an instant, like everything moved in slow motion. Nero checked the ropes, added more goo, pulled out a box of matches. He was clearly an old hand at this.
Nico’s instinctive panic overwhelmed all rational thought. His eyes never left Nero, and he flinched every time the emperor got close to him. He was going to be set on fire, made into a human torch. He had no idea what to expect. He’d been hurt before, but not like this, slowly and intentionally, by someone with no interest in anything other than causing him pain.
Nero held up a match.
“Ready?” Nero asked, meeting Nico’s eyes. The sallow cast of his face, the twisted grin, the way he saw Nico’s pain as mere entertainment, like he wasn’t even human in his eyes– Nico would never forget it. Deep down, Nico may have been a god, but right now Nero was doing this to an eleven year old boy. He had seen selfishness and violence, ambition and hatred, but he’d never known an evil like Nero.
Nero didn’t wait for Nico to respond. Black tar was dripping from Nico’s body where it was tied to the pole, trailing down his feet to drip onto the floor. Nero held the match up to his toe and lit him on fire.
Nico always felt like being a psychopomp was an honorable and important job. Ferrying humans from life into death was a necessary function. It was a dirty job sometimes, but somebody had to do it. Yes, humans feared you, but that wasn’t really their fault. Humans had a built-in desire to survive at all costs.
Nico didn’t. He’d never feared death. Death was kind. It was soft and gentle. It took you away from the pain, somewhere nothing could ever hurt you again. Death was doing you a favor, considering the alternative.
Death didn’t come for Nico.
Some time later, he woke up on the hard concrete floor.
It felt like hours had passed. Maybe days. Every second the fire crept upward had been the longest second of his life.
He could still move, though he didn’t want to. Every involuntary twitch or shudder sent pain searing through his limbs. The lower two thirds of his body were a charred ruin. His every breath brought agony.
He coughed up pink foam. His face had been spared damage, thanks to Nero’s cone idea. That meant he could still see and hear. He kept his eyes shut. He didn’t want to know what his body looked like. His ears were ringing.
At some point during the fire, he had gone to another place in his mind, somewhere he could not describe. It was dark and cold and safe. People didn’t hurt him there. But he felt that comforting darkness receding, and he was being dragged into the light.
He realized someone was speaking to him. Someone had woken him. Was it Nero? He turned to look. He could barely stand the sound of his skin cracking and crumbling off of him as he moved, but he needed to know whether Nero had returned to hurt him again.
Commodus was leaning over him.
“Hey,” he hissed. “Can you hear me? You need to move.”
Nico inspected Commodus’ face cautiously. He caught him staring at his burnt body, looking sad and slightly grossed out. Commodus didn’t seem like a threat.
Talking was beyond Nico’s capabilities at this point. He could barely take in the present situation. He still felt half gone, like a large part of his mind was still stuck in that dark place. He was okay with that, though. At least some small bits of him were safe from Nero.
“I brought you this,” Commodus said, setting something in front of his face. “The door is unlocked. Nero is at lunch, but he’ll be back any minute. You need to go now.”
He stood and went over to the doorway, looking back at Nico.
“Good luck,” he added, his expression grim. He swung the door almost all the way closed, deliberately leaving a gap.
Nico looked at the object Commodus had handed him. It was a small cube of ambrosia.
Wow, he thought to himself. Commodus was so thoughtful. He’d given Nico a piece of ambrosia that he couldn’t eat, and had left him a door that he couldn’t walk through.
Nico coughed again, and more pink fluid came up. He groaned, rolling onto his stomach. He’d already burned. Now he was slowly drowning in his own fluids. How the heck was he still alive? Why couldn’t he die and become a god again like Asclepius? Maybe he’d misunderstood how it worked.
He shut his eyes and thought. There was no convenient way to kill himself in this cell, especially when he could barely move without blacking out with pain. As Nero had predicted, his nerves had burned away, but he could still feel enough to know that his extremities were severely damaged.
He’d prefer to be unconscious rather than conscious, but the thought of waking up to Nero returning was enough motivation to force himself to move. He had to do something, even if running wasn’t possible.
Asclepius had been zapped by Zeus’ lightning bolt. He’d been burned alive, too. His entire human body would have been completely incinerated in an instant.
Maybe that was the issue. Nero wanted Nico alive for another round. His organs weren’t damaged. Even his arms weren’t burnt completely; he could still bend his elbows, and his hands seemed to only have first and second degree burns. He could use them if he had to.
If Nico could figure out a way to kill himself before Nero came back, he might get his old body back. The thought of it scared him. He’d been through enough pain already. It would be hard to inflict any more on himself intentionally. But it seemed he had no other choice.
He grabbed the ambrosia cube and impulsively shoved it in his mouth. He instantly regretted it. He was hit with the worst heartburn of his life, and felt his tongue start to char. He spat it out. He couldn’t force himself to swallow it.
He stared at the half-chewed chunk of ambrosia resentfully. Now he’d burnt his tongue and gotten nothing for it. He was too big of a coward to burn a hole in his esophagus and die that way. But maybe it was for the best; it would have been a long and painful way to go, almost as bad as being a human torch.
He knew there had to be something he could do. Could he make himself walk out the door if he put his mind to it? It was easy to imagine it was possible, since he was stubbornly refusing to look at his legs. But in his heart of heart, he knew they were basically bacon strips. It was a miracle he was even conscious, and it was possible some magic of Commodus’ causing that. Walking was a no-go.
He heard a noise in the hall; someone walking around. His heart started beating like a rabbit’s, and he started trembling violently. He silently wept, keeping still, his face pressed to the floor.
The footsteps didn’t stop at his door. It wasn’t Nero.
Shaken, he was filled with renewed urgency. In his panic, he remembered that there was an avenue still open to him.
He stared at the concrete floor. If he hit it with both hands, Hades would know. That was the traditional prayer to him, and so few people did it nowadays that he’d be compelled to check in. Especially considering that Nico was missing.
What would it mean to see his dad now? Earlier, in the Underworld, he’d felt like he’d hit rock bottom. It turned out, the real rock bottom was actually way further down than he’d thought. Thanatos might have been the first domino to fall, and Nemesis and Hermes had egged it on, but it was Hades’ selfish decision that had put him in this situation in the end.
Hades had the power to save Nico. He’d do it, too, apologetically and genuinely. Hades had never wanted Nico to suffer any sort of extreme pain. He wasn’t that kind of person; he didn’t commit evil deeds himself. But he’d put Nico in a position to suffer evil at the hands of others.
Nico pulled his fingers back. He couldn’t do it. He should, at this point. He shouldn’t have any stubbornness left. But Nico was still a god, even if he didn’t feel like one at the moment. He might have suffered, but his pride was unbreakable.
His eyes flicked upward and caught sight of his backpack, haphazardly tossed in the corner.
Struggling for breath, coughing the whole way, he started dragging his broken and burnt body across the floor. He had to take breaks every few seconds to silently sob from the pain, but Nero was coming back any second. He had to do this.
He made it. He unzipped the backpack frantically, rummaging around inside.
“Philip!” Nico cried out in pure relief. Tears streamed down his cheeks as he clutched the small shard of bone that he now cherished above all things. How had he forgotten about Saint Philip’s bone?
He shoved the bone into his mouth unceremoniously, and felt pure rapture envelop him as his entire broken body became suffused with pleasure. It was like ASMR head tingles times one billion, especially on the burnt bits. For the first time in what felt like forever, he was okay. He was saved.
Footsteps returned. It was Nero this time, but Nico was ready.
“You’re looking perkier than I expected,” Nero said, raising his eyebrows. “Ready for round two?”
Nico didn’t speak, not wanting to raise suspicion that he was feeling too good or hiding anything in his mouth. Nero tied him back onto the pole, and Nico kept his eyes and mouth shut tight, refusing to speak or acknowledge Nero at all. Maybe if he bored him, this wouldn’t take as long.
“Hmm,” Nero said, pinching his arm. Nico tried not to squirm, but it felt amazing.
Nero didn’t comment. He took out a torch and held it up to Nico again. He didn’t bother with the pitch this time, he just burnt him directly, holding the flame up to his arm.
The flame felt ticklish. Nico squirmed, holding his mouth shut as tight as he could. ‘Thank you, Saint Philip,’ he thought to himself silently. ‘You are the GOAT.’
“Fuck!” Nero said. Nico’s eyes shot open in surprise as Nero threw the torch to the floor. “Damn it! Why does this keep happening?”
Nero stomped around angrily in a circle for a minute, looking like a petulant child having a tantrum. Then he turned on Nico, pointing at him in a red-faced rage.
“Hold on a second. I’m getting my lucky flamethrower. And some lions. I’ll get a scream out of you yet!”
He stormed out, slamming the door behind him. Nico wasn’t tied very firmly this time, so a few wiggles had him falling to the floor. He fell on his back; his legs still couldn’t hold him up. Philip’s bone didn’t help with structural damage, but that was okay.
Still feeling peachy keen, Nico wondered what the best course of action was. He didn’t have long. He could eat the ambrosia and die, since it wouldn’t hurt now. But he wasn’t sure it would work. He seemed, unfortunately, both resilient and robust. Human bodies were tougher than they looked.
He went over to his backpack, wondering if he’d packed anything else of use. There was Catherine’s toe bone, but she wasn’t a martyr. Sucking her toe wouldn’t do anything for him.
He had some clothes, some snacks, and that big glass jar of golden goo. It was his own ichor, gleaming and gelatinous in its sealed container.
He inspected it, holding it up to the light. He vividly remembered vomiting all of it up into a bowl. It had been really gross. This had been his blood, sort of. It was the substance that gave the gods their immortality.
Could it give him back his power? He didn’t know.
He unscrewed the lid and smelled it. It smelled like his old self, like home. Not like the current him, who smelled vaguely stinky even when he was clean.
Cautiously, he dipped a finger inside. His fingertip felt a sudden burst of pleasantness the second it made contact with the surface of the gold goop. That was actually a very bad sign. He drew his finger back. It had already been red and blistered, but now it was bloody and blackened. And that had been his best finger, too. Such a shame.
He stared at the goo. He was running out of time and options. He had this new immunity to pain, which was great. But the goo would destroy him if he ingested it. It had a similar chemical composition to ambrosia, it seemed.
He looked over at the ambrosia piece on the floor. This was different, he thought. The ichor was him. It was part of him, the old him, separated and set aside. His dad had said something about drinking it after the war. Thank the Fates he hadn’t listened.
Nico was pretty sure drinking it would restore his divinity. He had a gut feeling. He also had no choice but to believe it, since he didn’t have time for a plan B.
He grabbed a handful, shoved it into his mouth, and forced it down his throat.
It went down extremely easily. It felt pleasant to eat, especially when it went into his stomach. Once he’d gotten it down his throat, it dissolved, dissipating throughout his limbs.
For a second, it felt great, and the feeling that spread throughout his body was a good one.
Then it abruptly wasn’t good anymore.
“Aurgh,” he groaned, bending double, then falling to the floor. “Philip!” He cried out, taking the bone from his mouth. “You abandoned me!”
The martyr bone hadn’t agreed with the ichor, it seemed. He tested a couple of times, but there was no more magical pain-replacing effect. Feeling defeated, he laid on the concrete and stared at the ceiling for a moment, immersed in renewed agony.
Nero was coming back. He had no choice. He grabbed the jar and began to drink the ichor.
The texture was halfway between pudding and peanut butter. It was slippery, but it took a while to get down. It felt like eating the sun. The more he drank, the more he felt like he was burning from the inside out. He was crying from the pain, but he had enough momentum that he didn’t stop until it was gone.
Once the jar was empty, the pain subsided, and the ichor traveled through his veins, filling in all the nooks and crannies inside him. He felt something happening, but there was no dramatic transformation at first.
He sighed, and began to cough again, hacking and wheezing like he had been all day. Once he started coughing, he couldn’t stop. It was his worst fit yet.
He felt dizzy, and found that he couldn’t move, he just coughed and coughed without relief. His eyes caught a glimpse of the concrete. He’d been coughing up blood again, which was nothing new.
Except this time it was gold.
He grabbed the empty glass jar and smashed it. He cut his finger with a piece of jagged glass. It was ichor. His blood had turned golden again!
He looked down at his legs. They still hurt, but he could see the burnt flesh knitting back together, healing slowly.
He took a deep breath. His lungs felt better, stronger than before. This was fantastic progress, but it was just physical. He knew that he still wasn’t himself.
He waited and waited. Maybe this wasn’t a process that could be rushed. It had taken two years to be made like this in the first place, after all.
Thirty seconds later, it happened.
First, his vision went golden, like the ichor had invaded his eyeballs. He went limp for a second, and then a renewed burst of energy shot him into wide-awake alertness. His heart was beating, and he breathed normally. He stopped doing both of those things for a second, and it made no difference. He was a god again.
He started counting names, starting from the first. Rosa Bova, he thought. Grace Connor. Carrie Schulchuski. Jonathan White…
He remembered all of them. Every soul he’d ever taken. For a moment, he sat on the floor in wonder, running through the names in his head again, remembering how each of them had died. They all fit neatly, right where he kept them filed. He’d forgotten how much he loved them.
That brought a smile to his lips. But it didn’t last. He looked around with new eyes, seeing the room. He stood, touching the wooden pole he’d been tied to, feeling the ashes of the burned rope. The smell of smoke hung in the air.
He’d been so small and weak. Nero had hurt him so badly. Now that he wasn’t that version of himself anymore, he saw the situation at a distance. He’d been a tiny, scared human child. Nero had been a god. He had tortured Nico, for no reason, for fun.
Nico took a deep breath. He looked down at his hand, and moved it slightly to the left.
A sword appeared in his hand. He turned to face the door, and became invisible.
He didn’t have to wait long. Nero walked in and looked around a bit.
“Damn it,” Nero said. “How did he get out of here?”
Nico could have appeared and given a dramatic speech. He could have fought Nero, or tried to torture him back in revenge. Most gods would have in his shoes. But Nico wasn’t that kind of god.
He preferred to work in darkness. And so he did. He plunged his Stygian iron sword through Nero’s back, and Nero disappeared.
The room was silent and still.
He gripped his sword in his hand, closing his eyes. He’d just killed a god. He realized the gravity of that decision, but he didn’t care. He knew he’d done the right thing.
It didn’t feel like much of a revenge. More like a cleansing. He hadn’t been angry at Nero, really. He’d been repulsed by him. He didn’t want Nero to suffer. He just wished he didn’t exist at all. And now he didn’t.
Now what?
Nico had no idea. He felt empty inside. He stood in the concrete room where he’d suffered so much, and he realized he didn’t want to leave. He didn’t want to go back to his family and explain what he’d done. He didn’t want to walk among them pretending it hadn’t happened, either. He could lie and say he had no idea what had happened to Nero, and pretend he’d never met the guy. But that line of thinking had never worked out very well for him.
The truth was, Nico wasn’t the same god he had been before. He wasn’t even the same person he’d been an hour ago. And part of him was afraid that if he walked out of that room, he’d be leaving part of himself behind. Because a piece of him was still hiding in the dark place. He didn’t know if he could ever get it back, and it scared him.
Numb, empty, afraid, confused. Everything had changed, but also nothing had. He still had nowhere to go. Nowhere he wanted to be. And he had lost touch with the anger that had fueled him. He’d simply been through too much. Anger couldn’t cover it anymore. It wasn’t big enough.
He had never been more lost.
Maybe he should just go home. It felt like the only option left to him.
Something shimmery caught his eye.
He looked up, and saw a portal in the air.
Chapter 97: Saint Nico
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Nico stared at the shimmering portal in front of him. He stepped inside before he could think better of it.
The other side wasn’t what he’d expected. He was familiar with the white-walled waiting room of purgatory, but this was not that. It was a round chamber with brown marble floors. There were black columns encircling the room like a rotunda, and there were light fixtures on the walls, but they were placed behind the columns in such a way that each lamp cast a long, columnar shadow in front of it. It gave a creepy effect, like the bars of a circular prison.
Nico glanced down at his feet. There was something scrawled on the marble, inset into the stone floor. It was golden, and it glowed.
It was a seal– the same kind of seal that Saint Valentine had once placed on him, the same kind that bound gods so that they could not use their powers. If he was still, he could hear it humming with power.
He tried to shadow travel away. Nothing happened.
He was trapped again. There was nothing he could do.
Why did this keep happening? Why couldn’t he catch a break?
He remembered a long-ago promise he’d made to Saint Rocco, a vow to never use his Stygian iron sword to destroy a soul again. Now that he’d used it to destroy Nero, the Catholics would be out to get him.
How could he have forgotten? He’d walked right into another prison. And he’d done it of his own free will, too, like an idiot. He hadn’t been thinking.
He circled, but the room had no exits. The roof was made of gold, shining high above his head. The stone beneath his feet didn’t respond to his magic.
He fell to his knees. Why him? First his family had punished him for being a psychopomp, then Nero had tortured him for plotting against Zeus. Now the Catholics would do God-knows-what to him for destroying Nero.
Nico didn’t see how he could have done things any differently. Had they expected him to show Nero mercy after what he’d done? It seemed like an impossible standard to hold him to. But maybe that was how they operated.
He was a god. He was supposed to be a strong, invulnerable, immortal being. Why was he going through so much hardship? What was the point?
The more he thought about his situation, the deeper he sank into despair. His identity, the one he’d tried so hard to get back, now felt like someone he didn’t recognize. His physical strength had returned, but his mind was more broken than ever.
He caught a glimpse of white in front of him, and jerked backwards with a jolt. He hadn’t heard anyone approaching. For a second, he thought it was Nero, before he realized that was impossible. He was safe from Nero now. Just not from anyone else.
His alarming visitor was the archangel Michael. Michael was dressed in the same blindingly white suit he’d worn the last time Nico had encountered him. Nico had been surprised at his lack of wings and halo the last time he’d seen him, but they were there now. A faint golden glow flared around his head, and bright white wings stretched out against his back, glittering with pristine color.
Nico stared at them, momentarily taken aback by their beauty. At this point, he considered himself a bit of a wing connoisseur, and Michael had a really nice set.
He did not plan on telling him that. Ever.
Nico sat on the floor and waited, but Michael didn’t speak right away.
“Well?” Nico muttered. The anticipation was getting to him, and the silence was painful. He was pretty sure he was about to be tossed into the depths of Hell.
“You broke trust,” Michael said slowly. “There was an agreement.”
Without hesitation, Nico ripped his black ring off of his hand and tossed it on the floor. It landed outside of the circle with the golden seal. He could not reach it to pick it up again even if he wanted to.
Michael had not expected him to do that, it seemed, and he stared at Nico curiously.
“You’re aware that was the only defense you had against me that would have proven effective,” Michael said. “Why throw it away?”
Nico didn’t know how to answer him. He felt empty inside, hollowed out like a Halloween pumpkin. He was still living, but he had no reason to be. What was the point in fighting?
Michael knelt, producing a small golden box from his suit jacket pocket. He used a white handkerchief to pick up the ring, and dropped it into the box gingerly, like it could explode if he wasn’t careful.
“Truthfully,” Michael said. “I was only here to do a risk assessment. I wasn’t going to hurt you.”
If Nico didn’t know better, he’d think Michael pitied him. The archangel raised his palm, and the golden seal on the floor disappeared.
Nico was free.
Michael disappeared, and he was alone once more.
He scooted back to lean against a column and pressed his face against his knees.
He wanted to disappear. He didn’t want to go back to the Underworld, but wandering the surface feeling like an outcast didn’t appeal to him, either. It would only be a matter of time before more gods confronted him. Eventually, they would realize Nero was missing and start asking questions.
Nico was safe from his pantheon so long as he stayed put. Was he safe from the Catholics? He wasn’t sure. Maybe giving them the ring would be enough to reassure them he wasn’t a threat.
He should probably leave, he thought to himself, taking a deep breath. This place could be dangerous for him. Although it seemed quiet for the moment.
“Nico?”
Nico looked up. Somehow Saint Philip had reached his side without alerting him to his presence. Again, he had not heard any footsteps, and again, he had thought immediately of Nero and gotten frightened, although not as much as before.
Nico glanced down at Philip’s sandaled feet. The soles of his shoes were hovering a quarter of an inch over the floor. That explained his lack of footsteps.
“Thank you for saving me,” Nico said. “From at least some of the torture.”
“You are welcome,” Philip said, his voice giving nothing away. “You were asked not to use your weapon to destroy anyone else,” he added.
Nico looked up at Philip. To his surprise, Philip smiled at him, his warm brown eyes crinkling at the edges.
“It is good that you did not listen,” Philip said.
“I don’t understand,” Nico said.
“Nero was a curse upon the world. Your actions today have avenged many. And perhaps saved even more.”
“Many?” Nico asked. “You mean his other victims? You’re saying I did something good?”
Philip nodded.
A tiny spark of hope entered Nico’s heart, like a little sunbeam. He tried to ignore it, glowering.
“Does hearing that not please you?” Philip asked.
“Not really,” Nico said, hanging his head. “It doesn’t change what happened to me. It doesn’t help fix my situation.”
“Doesn’t it?” Philip asked.
“No, Philip, it doesn’t,” Nico said in irritation. “I got tortured today. I can’t go home. I hate most of my family. Killing an evil god doesn’t make any of that better.”
“Does it not help to think that there may have been a purpose to your suffering?” Philip asked. “Saving other innocent souls from being hurt the way you were is meaningful, no?”
“If you say so,” Nico shrugged. Philip’s words did help a little bit, but he was determined to remain bitter. He had a sneaking suspicion that Philip saw through him, though.
Philip tapped a Bluetooth earpiece in his ear and appeared to listen to a message. A large set of double doors appeared in the wall behind him.
“What’s that?” Nico asked, staring at the doors suspiciously.
“I have to go, or I’ll be late for practice,” Philip said nonchalantly. “Feel free to observe, if you wish.”
Once he’d gone, Nico stood up and walked slowly over to the doors, which had closed behind Philip. He wasn’t going to walk through, he told himself. Exploring was stupid. He should leave. But he couldn’t help but try and get a little peek through the keyhole.
He saw an enormous room on the other side, with vaulted ceilings, more columns and benches. It was a church with enormous stained glass windows depicting various saints and biblical scenes.
He didn’t see where Philip had gone, but he could hear voices murmuring quietly and clearing their throats. There was a brief moment of silence, and then a large group of people lifted their voices in song.
Nico was enrapt, paralyzed with awe. He’d heard church choirs and Catholic chanting before, but this was different– louder, more harmonious, more resonant. It was divine. The chorus of voices echoed off the ceiling. The sound rose higher and higher with every verse, like they were singing up to the clouds.
He had turned the knob and opened the door before he realized he was doing it. He stepped inside and saw that the chorus had assembled before the church altar to sing. He caught sight of Philip at the end of a row, singing alongside the others.
Nico slid into a pew quietly, not wanting to disturb them. He sat and listened to them sing, and was transported by the swelling emotion in the music. It was the purest sound he’d ever heard, like light itself.
He lost all sense of the passage of time. Their voices took him to a place where there was no pain or suffering, no bad memories, where everything was perfect and beautiful. It was the closest thing to heaven he’d ever experienced. At least, he thought this must be what heaven was like.
They stopped singing, and he felt himself drifting back to reality. He was reluctant to leave the lovely place he’d been transported to.
Some singers left, and others lingered, chatting among themselves. Nico caught a few looking at him and whispering.
What had just happened? He felt different. He realized that his mind felt clear, and his emotional state was massively improved. In fact, he felt dangerously close to okay. He hadn’t been okay in a very long time.
It frightened him. Hanging onto anger and self-pity had been familiar and safe, but this was new and confusing. In spite of the discomfort, he understood it to be a change for the better. It felt like he’d started the healing process while sitting in that church pew. He only wished the song had been longer.
He reached up and wiped tears from his cheeks, thinking that whatever was in their music, the saints needed to bottle it up and sell it. He’d buy out their entire stock.
“Hey,” someone said. Nico turned around in his pew. It was Catherine of Siena, the first saint he’d ever met. It felt nostalgic seeing her. She reminded him of a time when his life had been less depressing.
“Catherine,” he said. “Were you singing, too?”
“Of course. I never miss practice,” she said, sliding into the pew to sit beside him. She crossed herself quickly before she sat down, and he felt nervous, wondering whether he ought to have done the same. “Did you like the song?” She asked, watching him with keen interest.
He nodded, finding that he didn’t have words for how he felt about it. He was still slightly dazed by the sudden alteration of his mental state.
“What are you practicing for?” Nico asked.
She smiled. He’d never seen her so easygoing and cheerful before, but he felt reassured that he was definitely not in any trouble over the incident with Nero. Quite the opposite, it seemed he’d really pleased the saints by exterminating him.
“Guess,” she said, raising her eyebrows. He sensed that she was testing his instincts, or maybe his understanding of their culture.
Nico had been immersed in his own pantheon for many years. He didn’t sit and ponder Catholic theology in his free time. He had to consider for a while before he realized what she was referring to.
“You sing for God,” He said. It felt awkward saying it with a capital ‘G’, like his mouth resented being forced to form the word. Maybe he really was a demon, he wondered with a little self-consciousness.
“Indeed we do,” she said, appearing pleased that he figured it out. “But we perfect new material here on earth before we bring it upstairs. It’s just more respectful that way, don’t you agree?”
“We’re not in heaven right now?” Nico asked. The choir had seemed heavenly enough to him.
“Of course not,” she said, looking at him like he was crazy. “We’re in Vatican City, our earthly headquarters.”
“Oh,” Nico said, disappointed. He could go to Vatican City anytime. That was less interesting.
“You should know that I saw everything that happened in Triumvirate Holdings,” Catherine said.
“I figured. Your toe was there,” Nico said.
“When you insisted on a torture method other than crucifixion? I got goosebumps,” she said, holding up her arm to show him. “It’s been a long time since anyone has done that. You’re so lucky. I never had the opportunity to suffer like that. I’d give anything…”
“Lucky?” Nico said. “Are you nuts? Why would you want to suffer if you didn’t have to?”
“Saint Catherine,” Philip said, approaching them. “Perhaps you can give Nico some room to breathe?”
“I’m so sorry,” she said immediately, scurrying away.
Nico observed the way she deferred to Philip without hesitation, and grew more impressed that the apostle Philip was even talking to him. Although he did have him in his mouth earlier, so maybe it was weirder if they didn’t talk.
Now that he was feeling better, Nico had an entirely different perspective on Philip, and felt guilty about being so gruff with him earlier.
“Philip,” Nico said. “Can I call you that? Should I say Saint Philip?”
“Philip is fine,” Philip said.
“Thank you for letting me watch your choir practice,” Nico said. “That was really kind of you.”
Philip smiled at him.
“I am glad it helped you.”
“Is there something you want me to do in return?” Nico asked.
“No,” Philip said.
Nico hesitated, sure there was a catch.
“There must be something,” Nico said.
“When you helped Rosa and Maria Bova, you never asked for any payment,” Philip said.
“So this is my payment?” Nico asked.
“No. This is trust,” Philip said. “You have earned it.”
Nico had no response. He rubbed his neck anxiously. It was a bitter feeling, knowing he had earned the trust of these strangers when he had never been able to earn it from his own father.
Maybe he shouldn’t be surprised. The saints had always dealt with him fairly, and their communication style was pretty straightforward. They did what they said they were going to do. That was pretty much the opposite of his dad’s way of doing things.
“You know what?” Nico said, feeling anger rising in his chest. It wasn’t anger at Philip, but at his father, and at Thanatos. “I did earn it. I helped you and asked for nothing in return. I would never hurt any of you. I don’t want anything from you. I just want–”
He cut himself off. He didn’t need to burden Philip with his baggage. His issues with his family were his own problem.
“Never mind,” Nico said. “I’m just ranting. I have problems at home.”
“Go on. Say what you need to say.”
“No, it’s okay,” Nico said, embarrassed at his outburst. “It’s not your problem. I should probably go.”
“You just want to be loved,” Philip said, filling in the sentence that Nico had not finished.
“How did you know I was going to say that?” He asked, slightly alarmed. “Can you read minds?”
“We all want love, Nico,” Philip said. “Unconditional love. Even when we make mistakes, even when we sin. We want forgiveness for our imperfections. We want a safe place to turn in our hour of need.”
Nico felt tears welling up in his eyes.
“I guess,” Nico said, scrubbing his tears away with the heels of his hands. He didn’t want to get all sappy on a saint he barely knew, but Philip had really hit the nail on the head. Maybe Nico’s problems weren’t as unique as he’d assumed.
“Have you ever heard the story of the prodigal son?” Philip asked.
Nico glanced up. The church had emptied out. It was just him, Philip, and the stained glass saints. A sad looking statue of Jesus stared down at them from the cross hanging above the altar. Nico was glad he hadn’t gotten crucified. It did not look like a good time.
“I don’t remember,” he said.
“The story goes that there was once a father with two sons. One was dutiful and obedient, and the other was the opposite,” Philip said. “The trouble-making son asked his father if he could receive his inheritance early. His father emptied out half of his savings and gave the money to his son, who left immediately to go spend his money on frivolities.”
“Sounds like a jerk,” Nico said.
“Yes,” Philip agreed. “This son spent all of his inheritance, and was soon penniless. The land fell on hard times, and he struggled to find work. He eventually ended up back at his father’s doorstep, prepared to fall at his feet and beg for a place as a servant in his household.”
“I bet his dad was furious,” Nico said.
“You haven’t heard the story, then,” Philip said. “His father was overjoyed. He ran to him and greeted him warmly, with tears of happiness. He ordered a feast prepared right away to celebrate his son’s homecoming. He even gave him rings for his fingers and shoes for his feet.”
“Why?” Nico asked. “He didn’t do anything to deserve it.”
“That was what his brother, the more obedient son, asked his father,” Philip said. “Do you know what the father said?”
“What?” Nico asked, on the edge of his seat.
“The father said that they had to celebrate,” Philip said. “Because his son, the disobedient boy, had been lost, but now he was found. He had been dead, and now he was resurrected. His acceptance, upon his return to the family, was unconditional. It was a day of great joy.”
Nico leaned back in the pew, staring at the back of the bench in front of him.
What would happen if he went home? Was there any chance of returning to his former position? Would his punishment just be water under the bridge if he stayed away long enough and came back with a sob story?
He doubted it.
“Nico,” Philip said.
Nico turned to look at him.
“You are the prodigal son in the tale,” Philip said.
“Huh?”
“Metaphorically, of course,” Philip said, gazing at him intently. “But yes, that is you. Long ago, when you were an infant, you were baptized in our church. You attended mass as a child. You were part of our flock.”
“Oh,” Nico said, beginning to understand.
“Then you went away,” Philip said. “And you fell deep into sin. Very deep,” he added, with emphasis. “Very, very, very, very, very deep.”
Nico swallowed.
“But God awaits you with open arms,” Philip said. “Like the father in the story, God offers you the unconditional love that your soul has been yearning for. Your sins can be forgiven. You can come home.”
Nico stared at Philip in complete shock.
“I can come home?” He said.
“You can come home,” Philip said.
Nico was deeply moved by the generosity of the offer. But he was also deeply troubled by it. What did it mean to come home to a place he’d never been?
“I’m not worthy of this,” Nico said. “I don’t deserve it.”
“See? You sound Catholic already,” Philip said.
Nico leaned forward, dropping his head into his hands. If the Catholic God was real– and he seemed pretty real at the moment– he was being unbelievably kind. Nico was a pagan demon. Surely the saints knew he would need a complete theological re-education, and they wanted him anyway.
He wasn’t bothered by the work he’d need to put in. He was open to learning new ideas. Obviously his old ideas hadn’t worked out so great. He needed a fresh start, and it was being handed to him on a silver platter. It felt like fate had led him here, like joining a new pantheon had been his destiny all along.
He wanted to move toward something new. But that meant moving away from all he’d ever known.
“I’m not…” He struggled to say it out loud. He knew that once Philip confirmed it, he’d have to face it head on, and he didn’t want to. “I’m going to have to cut them off, aren’t I? All of them. My whole family.”
“Yes,” Philip said.
His heart sank. He felt like he had a lead weight in his stomach.
“They’re not all bad,” he said weakly. “My mom…”
Persephone would never understand. This decision would devastate her, and she’d done nothing wrong. Could he live with himself if he left her behind?
He was paralyzed with indecision. Philip seemed to recognize this, because he didn’t pressure him further.
“If you want to join us, simply attend mass at the Church of Santa Maria Sopra Minerva. We will start onboarding immediately, so if you choose to go, be ready.”
Nico nodded. His throat felt tight. He was a giant ball of anxiety, mostly. But there was another part of him that was thrilled. To be wanted, welcomed, maybe even celebrated by a pantheon? He needed that right now. He needed it badly.
Philip passed him a scrap of paper.
“You might find this helpful,” he said. He winked at Nico, then disappeared.
Nico looked down. It was a street address in Rome.
He left the church on his own. He exited through the same door he’d come in by, but he found himself standing outside on the street, rather than in the columned rotunda. He looked at some signs and realized that he was in Vatican City.
He turned around and saw that the door had disappeared. Somehow, that did not surprise him.
He followed the address on the paper scrap all the way to the Termini neighborhood. It was a very long walk, but he needed to clear his head. It didn’t occur to him that he might run into someone he knew until he arrived in the familiar neighborhood where, long ago, he’d gone to Ariadne’s bar with Ganymede and Isis.
He stood outside the familiar building and looked through the windows. People were dancing, drinking, and having a good time. He didn’t see anyone he knew, but that didn’t mean they weren’t around.
He looked at the paper again, feeling his stomach churn with guilt. He still had friends. He wasn’t sure if they’d help, but he wasn’t sure that they wouldn’t help, either. He could walk into the bar and tell them all about the weird day he’d had. They would laugh about how he’d almost found religion, and celebrate the fact that he’d decided to party instead.
Some people could have found solace in friendship. He had nothing against found families, but that would never work for him. His old pantheon was too interconnected. Every god he liked was related to a bunch of gods he didn’t like. How could he hang out with Ganymede knowing that he went home to Zeus at the end of every night? How could he party with Isis knowing she was friends with his mom? Zeus was Ariadne’s grandfather and her father in law. And Nico had dated both her dad and her uncle, if you counted Jason’s past life.
Just thinking about it made his head spin. Why had he thought that was normal? It wasn’t normal at all! It was weird! He was certain that the saints didn’t date each other. They seemed like nothing more than respectful coworkers. It was so much simpler that way.
Maybe it wasn’t fair to all of the gods, but thinking about his old pantheon made him feel suffocated. There had to be more to life than constant drama and backstabbing and betrayal. That could not be all that eternity had to offer him.
He turned his back on the bar and headed to the address on the paper.
It led him to an old apartment building, run down, trashy, and covered in graffiti. As he climbed the stairs to the fifth floor, a rat scurried across his path. He knocked on the apartment Philip had noted, wondering why he’d been sent to such a scummy place.
He heard the occupant walk up to the door. He caught a flash of movement on the other side of the peep-hole.
Suddenly, the person scrambled to undo the locks quickly. The door swung open.
“It’s you!” Maria Bova exclaimed. She looked like she was about to pass out from joy.
“It’s you!” Nico said, equally thrilled.
She threw herself at him. He squeezed her tight, feeling an intense and overwhelming rush of gratitude towards Philip. This was truly a wonderful surprise.
“I missed you,” Nico said. “How have you been?”
“Terrible!” Maria said, smiling widely. “Will you come in?”
She led him into her apartment. It was small, musty smelling, and not very clean.
“As you can see, my life has completely fallen apart since we last met!” she said cheerfully. “Can I get you a drink? I only have tap water.”
“No, I’m good. What’s happened since I last saw you?”
It was early evening, maybe five or six, but Maria was already dressed in pajamas. Maybe she’d never changed out of them. There were empty takeout containers on the coffee table growing mold. Based on the smell of the place, he suspected she might have gotten a cat.
He was glad he’d gotten there when he did. She obviously needed help.
“Well, I shouldn’t complain, since it’s my fault,” she said, sitting beside him on the couch. “After Eurovision, I released an album.”
“What? Why haven’t I heard about this?” Nico asked. “I’d have listened to it.”
“You blocked my number,” she said.
“Oh. Right.” Nico had freaked out after she’d announced on live TV that she had a magical friend helping her sing. He’d decided cutting her off was the only way to stay out of trouble. In hindsight, it had been an incredibly selfish choice.
“I’m really sorry about that,” he admitted.
“It’s okay,” she said sincerely. “Maybe it’s better that you didn’t listen. My album sucked. Sales were so bad that my label dropped me. Then, I got a bill in the mail for singing lessons. Teri was really upset after I fired her.”
“That bitch,” Nico said, enraged on Maria’s behalf. “How much was it?”
“Too much,” Maria said. “That’s what landed me here. I got a job tending bar at a place up the road. I could make more as a cook in a restaurant, but that would feel too much like my old life. So I make cocktails. Sometimes people recognize me from Eurovision. It’s a living.”
“Is it?” Nico asked skeptically.
She pulled her legs up onto the couch, turning to face him.
“I have so many questions for you,” she said. “I was scared you were mad at me. Did you not want me to talk about you? It felt like the right thing to do at the time, but now I don’t know.”
He reached out and took her hand reassuringly.
“Don’t worry about it. I was caught off guard, but it’s okay.”
She sighed in relief, her eyes glistening as she stared at him.
“It’s surreal seeing you again,” she murmured.
“You too,” he said. “Here,” he added, waving a hand. A thick stack of Euros appeared on the coffee table. “Pay off Teri and tell her to leave you alone. If she bothers you again, name drop me. She’ll back off.”
Maria blinked at the pile of money. She had already been the recipient of other expensive gifts from him, but seeing his magic in action still left her starstruck.
“Yes, it’s another miracle, if that’s what you want to call it,” Nico said, smirking. “Good luck submitting that one to the Vatican.”
“You are mad!” she said, looking chagrined. “I can tell. Look, I hated to give up the jeweled rosary. I cried handing it over. But I wanted you to be recognized for what you are.”
“Canonization takes a lot more than a couple of dubious miracles,” he said.
“Oh, I know!” She said. She leaned down and pulled a laptop out from under the couch. “That’s why I started my Discord channel.”
“Your what?” Nico said.
“When I talked about your miracles on TV, most people thought I was schizophrenic,” she said. “That was annoying. I know it’s crazy to claim that I talk to a boy who died in 1942 in a hotel explosion. I wouldn’t have told anyone if I didn’t have proof, but my proof wasn’t enough. I got some airtime on Catholic news channels, but it never went further than that. But someone reached out to me. They recognized your description and claimed to have had an encounter with you on Lesbos.”
“Lesbos?” Nico said. “That was a long time ago. I’m not even sure I remember what I did.”
“You gave a boy your phone number, and it matched the one you gave me,” she said, turning the screen toward him. Nico saw that she’d been talking to someone in Greek on Discord chat, talking about an encounter with Nico outside a church. “You never responded to him either, so we had that in common.”
“I don’t take calls from unknown numbers,” Nico shrugged.
Maria laughed, shaking her head.
“Do you have any idea how life-altering it is to meet you?” She asked. “I think you underestimate your impact.”
“I think you’re underestimating my impact,” he said. “My negative impact. I’ve ruined lives. I’m doing you humans a favor by ignoring you.”
She scrolled through the Discord chat some more.
“You’re talking about Will, aren’t you?” She asked, glancing up at him from under her eyelashes with a knowing gleam in her eyes.
Nico’s mouth went dry.
“You know about…”
“Will popped into the Nico di Angelo Discord channel a few months ago,” she said. “I chatted with him for a bit.”
“Is he doing okay?”
“He thinks you’re a vampire. Which is ridiculous,” she said, shaking her head. “He said his parents believe you’re his guardian angel. But I wonder if they were confused by your last name. Protestants are weird. Especially Americans.”
“Is Will alright? Did he seem happy?” Nico asked.
“Sorry, I don’t know,” she said. “He quit talking to me. He said I was distracting him from his medical school studies with all my questions.”
Nico took a deep breath, thinking of Will. He’d tried to put him out of his mind forever. If he thought about him too much, he might be tempted to visit, and that wouldn’t be what was best for Will. If he was applying to medical school, that meant he was following his dreams in spite of the tragedy he’d suffered. Nico couldn’t have hoped for a better outcome.
“Anybody else?” He asked, trying to remember if he’d bothered any other normal humans lately.
“No,” Maria said. “The rest were crazy people and a few normal folks who took an interest, but had never met you. It’s so surreal to be talking to you about this! Can I ask you a few more questions? Do you have time?”
“I have nowhere else to be,” he said, making himself comfortable on the couch. He had nowhere else to go, either, but he didn’t mention that part.
“What are you?” She asked bluntly, clutching her laptop tightly and leaning toward him.
What a question. A few months ago, he’d have had an answer for her.
He didn’t know the answer anymore.
“When you and your Discord people figure it out, you can let me know,” he said dejectedly.
He picked at a piece of lint on the couch cushion anxiously. Talking with her had been a nice distraction, but he was being forced back to thinking about his own problems now.
“What does that mean?” She asked.
He looked into her eyes. Her expression reminded him a lot of Hazel– passionate, devoted, and totally trusting. Hazel knew who he really was. How much was he comfortable sharing with Maria?
“Honestly?” he said. “I’m not anything right now.”
It was true. He wasn’t anything. He couldn’t call himself a god anymore if he switched pantheons. He wasn’t a saint, and he certainly wasn’t an angel. What would he become if he joined the Catholics? They hadn’t talked about labels.
“I guess I knew that already,” Maria said. “They haven’t formally opened your Cause for Canonization yet, despite my numerous emails!”
“You’re emailing the Vatican about my application?”
“Every day!” She said, “If they can’t make you a saint, I at least want my rosary back.”
“I don’t think you’re getting it back,” he said. “But I can try to grab it for you the next time I’m there.”
He bit his tongue, realizing that he was already making plans to return to Vatican city. Maybe deep down, he knew where he was headed. It was a painful thought. He wanted to pretend he had a choice, but maybe it was more like the illusion of choice. One pantheon had invited him in, and the other had essentially fired him.
“That would be amazing,” she said. “It means a lot to me. I know you could make another, but that was the one you gave me when my mom died.”
He swallowed his doubts, looking up at her suddenly.
“There is something I know for sure,” he said. “Something I want you to know about me. I don’t have a title. But I have a purpose. A reason for existing.”
He had felt adrift and incredibly useless up until this moment. The trial had stripped him of his dignity and his pride in his work. But Maria’s mom was the first soul he’d ever taken. Maria was the reason for all of it– his secret deal with Thanatos, his work as a psychopomp. She was the reason he’d been tried, found guilty, the reason he’d been punished and tortured. It wasn’t her fault, but she’d gotten the ball rolling.
She deserved to know.
“I help people to die. I bring their souls to the afterlife,” he said.
“You brought my mom to heaven?” Maria said. She looked at him in wonder, although he didn’t think he’d completely shocked her.
“I helped her move on,” he said. “I’m not going to give you any more details. But you can trust that she’s where she’s supposed to be. I promise.”
Maria wrapped her arms around him. She pressed her face against his shoulder. He felt her heartbeat against his own, slow and steady.
“Thank you,” she whispered, her voice trembling.
“Thank you,” he whispered back. “Meeting you changed my life, Maria. I’m sorry I’ve been so bad at keeping in touch. I think…”
“Hm?” She said, pulling away to look at him. “You’re crying,” she said, using her sleeve to wipe a tear from his cheek.
He was indeed crying. He’d realized something, and it hurt a lot, but he needed to face it.
“I think we need to go to mass together,” he said. “Tomorrow morning.”
“Alright,” she said gently, brushing his hair out of his face. “You know, you’re really beautiful when you cry.”
“I always thought the same about you,” he said. “I’m glad I got to see you again. I needed someone to talk to.”
“Me too,” she said. “You know, I don’t want to seem nosy…”
“And yet you have a Discord channel about me.”
“I am nosy,” Maria admitted. “Would you tell me what’s going on with you? Normally I’m the one who’s a wreck, and you’re my rock. But I can tell something is wrong.”
“I’ve just been having a rough time lately,” he said, making the greatest understatement of his life. “It’s not something I can tell you about.”
“Okay. I won’t pry,” she said. She leaned against him, and he put his arm around her shoulders. It was funny how easy it was to be close to her. They’d only met a handful of times, and their interactions had been brief, but they’d changed the course of each other’s lives irrevocably. He was certain they’d continue to do so. Especially after tomorrow.
“Can I listen to your album?” He asked.
She nodded, pulling it up on Spotify on her phone. Nico wondered whether the saints would be able to get him a new phone if he joined them. As the music started playing, his thoughts drifted. If he got a new phone, he could put Maria’s number in it. Would hers be the only one?
“If I asked you to get in touch with someone for me, would you do it?”
It was an unnecessary question. Maria would jump in front of a bus for him, and they both knew it.
“Right now?” She asked.
“No, but eventually,” he said. “It’s my sister. She might be hard to find online.”
“Your sister Bianca?” Maria asked.
“I don’t remember telling you her name,” Nico said, raising an eyebrow.
“I found your family on Ancestry.com,” Maria said. “You had an older sister named Bianca, your mother was named Maria, your grandfather was an ambassador, and your father is unknown. Care to fill me in on who--”
“No!” Nico said. “You’re really a creep! You made a whole website for my ancestry?”
“No, no,” Maria laughed. “It’s all public information, I promise.”
He told her a few basic facts about Hazel, as well as Frank, since he was more in touch with modern technology than Hazel was. Maria promised him she’d find a way to contact them online, and he was reassured that a channel of communication would remain open.
What he would say across that channel was a lot harder to figure out. He’d need to get his feet under him in the new pantheon first, and then he’d find a way to explain the situation to Hazel. He wanted to remain part of her life, but soon they’d belong to different worlds. He wasn’t going to hold out hope that she’d convert for him, but it would probably be the most elegant solution to the issue if she was willing to do it. He liked the idea of them navigating a new pantheon together, but it was a longshot.
He and Maria listened to a few more songs, and he was able to think more deeply about what would come next. He felt optimistic about the future now, which was a huge improvement from hopelessness.
“You know, the last time I sat and listened to a whole album with someone, I fell in love with them,” Nico said.
“Do saints fall in love?” She asked, turning slightly pink.
“Probably not,” he admitted, resting his head on her shoulder and closing his eyes. “But I’m not a saint. Not yet, anyway.”
Morning came all too quickly, and way too late. Nico had barely slept, just dozed lightly while Maria had snored on the other side of the couch. They’d stayed up late listening to music and talking, but once she’d fallen asleep, all he could do was sit and wonder what his new life would be like.
He tried to keep looking forward rather than back. Thinking about what he was leaving behind wouldn’t change what he had to do. He reminded himself that, even if his choice hurt Persephone, it wasn’t his fault that he had to leave his family. That was a decision that had been made for him.
The next morning, he and Maria headed to the Basilica di Santa Maria Sopra Minerva. They took their seats in the back of the grand old church and waited for mass to begin.
Nico kept glancing around, but he saw nothing supernatural. When the priest began to distribute the holy communion, he got in line with everyone else, blending in with the mortals.
This was the first time he’d taken communion in his life. He had left Italy before he’d been old enough for his first communion ceremony. He was trembling with both fear and excitement when the priest lifted the cup of wine to his lips.
He drank, but nothing remarkable seemed to happen. The bread didn’t do anything, either. This both relieved and disappointed him. He turned to sit back down beside Maria.
Saint Catherine was sitting in the pew beside her. Maria didn’t see her there, but Nico did.
He took his place in the vacant spot between the two of them. He listened as Catherine spoke, trying to keep a calm expression so that Maria wasn’t alarmed.
“Congratulations,” Catherine said. “Your new life in Christ begins today. Or begins again, I should say. You are merely returning to your true spiritual home, after all.”
He nodded, trying to internalize this idea. He’d been baptized as an infant, at his mother’s insistence. She’d been an incredibly wise woman to give him this backup option, as though she’d known that Hades wasn’t going to be enough to protect him. He thought of her with gratitude, although he did recall that, in the end, she’d chosen to stay with Hades. Had she been given the option to go to heaven? He wished he’d asked her more about it when he’d had the chance.
“Saint Bartholomew specializes in cases like yours,” Catherine said. “Go to his church, the Basilica di San Bartolomeo all’Isola. He will be your sponsor. If you have problems with him, come to me. I can try to advocate for you if needed, since he and I have the same supervisor. But know this: Following his every order will be the only path forward for you in our organization.”
He nodded again.
“God’s forgiveness is infinite. Bartholomew’s is definitely not. Good luck,” she said, before disappearing.
Maria was a good Catholic woman who paid attention in church, so she didn’t check her phone until after mass. As soon as she did, though, she screamed aloud.
“I got the email!” She said, turning to Nico. “Your Cause! It’s finally happening!”
Nico grabbed her phone and looked at it. It was an email from the Vatican secretary saying that a case was going to be opened regarding his Cause for Canonization.
His jaw dropped. It was really happening. He had started down the path to sainthood.
“I’ve got to go,” he told Maria, realizing that everyone in the church could still see him. He disappeared before she could respond, but she took it in her stride. She seemed to be getting used to the way he did things.
As he walked out of the church, he heard her excitedly telling people what she’d been screaming about. The mist concealed his disappearance just as effectively as it had in his old pantheon, so at least that hadn’t changed.
His heart was racing. This cooperation between the human and the magical world was new to him, and would take getting used to. He shadow traveled immediately to the basilica di San Bartolomeo all’Isola, a church located on an island in the middle of the Tiber river.
The church was relatively small, and looked older than most. It was as ornate as your typical Roman Catholic church, with paintings covering nearly every surface, framed in gold. Reliefs of saints and angels were carved into the walls, and the niches on the sides held sacred relics dedicated to various saintly figures.
Two women, one young and one old, were dusting the base of the baptismal font. They ignored Nico, so he did the same to them, approaching the altar on his own.
At the front of the altar was a sarcophagus shaped a little bit like a bathtub labeled ‘Corpus Santi Bartholomaei Apostoli’. It had an intense magical power radiating from it. Nico recalled that Bartholomew was a martyr, and obviously an apostle, but couldn’t recall any additional details about him.
Bartholomew did not appear, but with his remains nearby, he would have known that Nico had arrived for his first day. Nico stood and twiddled his thumbs for a moment before the two women behind him both cleared their throats at the same time.
He turned around, and saw that they were both pointing at a door that had appeared in the wall where there had been no door before.
“Thank you!” He told them, hurrying to enter the secret magical door. He was buzzing with anticipation. He had no idea what to expect next, but he had a good feeling about it.
He entered a small modern office where a man was typing at a computer. He wore an expensive-looking tailored suit and had an earpiece on his ear just like Philip and Catherine had. His desk was covered with an enormous pile of paperwork, including medieval scrolls, modern printouts, and a book that looked like it was made of skin. Nico had to step over Post-It notes and illuminated manuscripts just to approach him.
“You can sit,” the man said without looking up. A chair appeared in front of the desk. Nico sat and crossed his legs, then changed his mind and crossed his arms, then gave up. He waited awkwardly to be acknowledged.
“Emails,” the man sighed. “It's never-ending.” He typed something out, hit enter, then glanced at Nico for the first time.
“Let me pull up your file,” he said, typing again. “Ah. Here it is. Nico di Angelo, born in Venice, 1932, to one Maria di Angelo and... Am I reading this right?” He squinted at the screen.
“Does it say a pagan demon’s name?” Nico asked. Thinking about his father reinforced his decision to start this new gig. He hoped that one day, Hades would see his name listed among the saints. Just thinking about it nearly brought a smile to his face. He’d totally shit bricks.
“It does,” the saint said, looking at Nico warily. “So you’re another one of those, then.” He clicked a couple of times and typed something else. “Bartholomew will be pleased. He loves poaching talent from pagans,” he said bitterly.
“You’re not Bartholomew?”
“My name is Adalbert. You’ll know Bart when you see him,” Adalbert said.
“You don't sound like you approve of his recruiting strategy,” Nico said.
“I was beaten to death by a mob of pagans,” the saint said flatly, giving Nico a cold look. “I know we have to accept you with open arms. Prodigal son and all that. But I do get a bit triggered.”
“I get it,” Nico said. He wondered when he’d stop thinking about Nero every time someone snuck up behind him. Probably never.
“There’s a blank field on your ID form,” the saint said. “Date of death?”
“None,” Nico said. “I'm immortal.”
“Immortal? How did you manage that?” The saint asked, squinting at him.
Nico couldn’t say he was a god. He was not stupid enough to use that word to describe himself anymore. He’d definitely be fired on the spot if he did. He just shrugged instead of answering.
“We use the term incorruptible, for future reference. This incorruptibility wasn't conditional on anything, was it?”
“No.”
“You haven't signed any contracts of any sort that would interfere with your work here? No conflict of interest?”
“No. This is a fresh start for me. I’ve cut off everyone from my old life, other than my little sister. And I’m planning to convert her.” It was refreshing to be so honest. He wanted to start things off on the right foot. He was pretty sure they’d be fine with him talking to Hazel, so long as he framed it as proselytizing.
“Excellent. Love to hear it. Here's your new trainee handbook, your onboarding documents, and the benefits package information,” he said. With a wave of his hand, a binder fell into Nico's lap, along with a small bag of clothing. “That’s your uniform, which you’re expected to wear at all times going forward.”
“Okay,” Nico said, slightly stressed out by the handbook binder. It looked like it was three thousand pages long.
“You get your own office,” the saint said. “Lucky you. Go to your office, get changed, read and sign everything, and then wait for Bartholomew at the altar.”
Another door appeared in the wall. It led to a tiny office, about half the size of Adalbert's, barely larger than a closet, with a small desk and a little green lamp. There was a computer on the desk, but it was waiting on a password Nico didn’t have yet. Behind the desk there was a bookshelf full of handbooks, documentation on procedures, and dozens of volumes of Catholic theological literature. He had to look hard for a copy of the Bible, which was wedged beneath one of the massive treatises on rules and regulations.
He seated himself in the uncomfortable chair and began reading the new-hire binder he’d received.
He tried to read it carefully without skimming, although it would take days to get through the whole thing. He learned a few important facts. Nico’s new title was hypothetically ‘Servant of God,’ although he was a few piles of paperwork away from that being official in the mortal world. His Cause for Canonization would not progress unless he did.
Bartholomew was Nico’s supervisor, and Saint Brigid was Bartholomew’s supervisor. Bartholomew was technically her senior, but Brigid had started the Pagan Demon Rehabilitation Committee, or PDRC, that Nico was now a beneficiary of. Brigid ran the committee, and oversaw Bartholomew in that context alone. It seemed like everyone wore multiple hats in the Catholic world. That wasn’t much different from what Nico was used to.
According to the handbook, it would be decades if not centuries before he could hope to become canonized, and he'd have to stand out if he wanted a chance. The vast majority of candidates never got past the first step. He could perform as many miracles and answer as many prayers as he wanted, but there were a ton of specific restrictions and caveats listed. His head was spinning as he read page after page of rules.
A few pages in, he came across something that struck him as odd.
“Adalbert,” Nico said, walking back into Adalbert's office holding the binder. “This page says I can't eat.”
“Nope,” Adalbert said.
“But I'm alive,” Nico said.
“You can't starve to death, can you?”
“No, but I still feel hungry if there’s food in front of me.”
“That's perfect. Suffering will help you grow in spiritual strength.”
“It also says I can't sleep, drink, smoke, have sex, or masturbate,” Nico said. “I can’t drink water. I can’t even take hot showers. They have to be cold?”
“And?”
“Again, you know I'm alive, right?” Nico said incredulously. “The rest of you are shades or ghosts or whatever you identify as. It’s easy for you, but it’s not the same for me.”
“Most of us have spiritual bodies, yes, but some have incorruptible bodies like yours,” Adalbert said. “We don’t discriminate based on physical composition, and therefore we don’t make exceptions based on that, either.”
“I don't think I can do this,” Nico said weakly.
“Everyone says that,” Adalbert smirked. “It's not as hard as you think. Just pray for fortitude. Besides, Bartholomew will keep you so busy you won't even notice what you're missing.”
Nico went back into his little office cupboard and sat staring at the rules page. He'd only scratched the surface of the restricted activities list, it seemed. There were so many ways to screw this up; rules about appearance, interactions with mortals, the type of socks he could wear. He took a deep breath, signing his name to indicate that he’d read the first section of the handbook. He'd pray for fortitude, like he was told, and he'd make it work. He had to make this work.
He prayed to God, briefly and mostly out of desperation, and felt a little bit better. God didn’t answer, but he was sure that they’d be the best of pals eventually. He put on his suit, which was magically tailored to fit him. He thought he looked fantastic, so that helped lift his mood a little. Then he recalled the handbook. He wasn’t supposed to be vain or prideful about his appearance. His mood deflated again. This was not going to be an easy adjustment.
He walked back into Adalbert's office.
“How do I look?” He asked.
“Did you read the hair regulations?” Adalbert asked. “Clearly not. Here,” he grabbed a comb and some gel and styled Nico's hair back away from his face. “Better.” He looked at Nico with pity. “Bart takes some getting used to. Just remember to make eye contact and do as you’re told.”
“Okay,” Nico agreed, and Adalbert nudged him out the door.
Nico, in accordance with the rules he’d now learned, became invisible to the mortals in the church as he stepped out. He went up to the altar. The two women he’d seen earlier were now at the altar, on their knees praying silently. They were both short in stature and dark complected, one with long black hair shining down to the floor where it pooled around her knees, the other with white hair tied in a knot on top of her head. Neither moved as he approached, but they both glanced his way when he knelt beside them. They could see him, so he knew they must be saints-in-training, too.
After about an hour, he figured he must be doing something wrong. Bartholomew still hadn't showed.
“Is he coming?” He asked the other women. They both shushed him violently and continued praying. He followed their example, although he was beginning to grow bored.
Bartholomew didn't show up for another three hours.
“Ahem,” came a low, imposing voice behind him, filled with power and authority. Nico turned around.
“Ack!” Nico said loudly.
The man before him was bright red. Big white eyeballs popped out of a fleshless face, and a full set of teeth grinned at him. The man wore a drape over his shoulders that Nico realized with horror was his skin, fully removed from his body.
Nico had fallen back against the altar in alarm. The women on either side glared viciously at him, and he realized his reaction had been very rude.
“Um, sorry,” he said, kneeling properly again before Bartholomew.
Bartholomew rolled his protruding eyes.
“Disappointing,” he said, his voice slow and deliberate with every syllable that emerged from his lipless mouth. “Have you no idea who I am?”
“I know, but I should have been more prepared,” Nico said. “I guess I thought the pictures of you were, you know, artistic liberty.”
“Sit up straight,” Bartholomew snapped, his fleshless, bony feet striding up to Nico. He grabbed Nico's chin in his damp fingers and inspected him. “You look like your brother, you know.”
“My brother?”
“Dante. He made an unfortunate choice at the end of his life. Let's hope you do better,” Bartholomew said, standing and looking down at Nico. Nico could see his organs squishing around beneath his abdominal muscles. He was an anatomy student’s wildest dream. Will would have loved him.
“I'm not my brother,” Nico said, looking Bartholomew squarely in the face.
“Beginning this path is easy,” Bartholomew said. “Walking it is more difficult. We shall see. Come with me, you three.”
Nico followed Bartholemew outside into the sun, flanked by the two female trainees. He made eye contact with one of them.
“Patli and Luz are my other interns,” Bartholomew said. “They are also the children of pagan demons.”
“Have they taken a vow of silence or something?” Nico asked.
“No,” they said in tandem.
“Oh.” Nico realized they were just being rude earlier. He suspected they were not going to be friends.
“The PDRC specializes in what we call folk saints,” Bartholemew said. “Individuals who gain spiritual power from impure sources. Often, they are surrounded by corrupting forces from birth. It's easy for your kind to gain believers. Too easy, in fact, to gain them for the wrong reasons. You will find legitimacy harder to attain, but your potential in our organization is great, if you can overcome your origins.”
“And it's worth it, right?” Nico said.
“Oh, I don't know,” Bartholomew said sarcastically. “Paradise, glory, power, the reverence of over a billion faithful, and let's not forget, access to the inner circle of the true creator of the universe. Does that sound worth it to you?”
“Of course,” Nico said immediately. He only had one worshiper right now-- that was how he still thought of Maria, although he knew he was supposed to interpret her prayers as requests for intercession. He still needed to work on that. Regardless, the way she made him feel was like nothing else. How would it feel to be prayed to by as many as a billion people? He couldn't imagine.
Bartholomew dropped Patli and Luz off at the hospital across the street from his church.
“They are learning the healing arts,” he said. “Can you heal?”
“No, definitely not,” Nico said. “I kill people, I don’t fix them. Unless I have a new power now?”
“Unlikely,” Bartholomew said. “I know what you are capable of; I read your file. I simply needed to check in case something had changed.”
Without further remark, he led Nico across the bridge and into the neighborhood of Trastevere, where they passed a few busy restaurants with tables in front, all packed with tourists. Nico gazed at the plates of pasta on the tables, and smelled the aroma of fresh baked bread wafting out of the kitchen.
Bartholomew must have noticed the sad look on his face.
“I think you have suffered greatly in the last few days, have you not?” Bartholomew asked, his big naked eyeballs pointing at Nico.
“Yeah,” Nico said, touched that Bartholomew cared enough to check up on him. “It’s really sucked, to be honest, trying to deal with it all. I’ve been hanging in there, but it’s hard not to think about it. I keep thinking he’ll come back and get me, even though I know he’s gone. Is it always–”
“I am now rejoicing in my sufferings for your sake, and in my flesh I am completing what is lacking in Christ’s afflictions for the sake of his body, that is, the church,” Bartholomew said.
“Huh?”
“That’s from ‘Colossians’,” Bartholomew said. “You will finish reading the Bible by this time tomorrow. Locate the passage I just recited and pray on it. Tomorrow you can explain what you’ve learned about suffering.”
“Oh. Okay,” Nico said, fearing he’d said something wrong. He looked at the raw flesh of Bartholomew’s flayed back, and wondered if it hurt, and why Bartholomew still walked around looking like that. Depictions of torture and suffering were ubiquitous in the churches Nico had been to. It seemed like he probably ought to be wearing his suffering like a badge of honor, rather than complaining about it.
He didn’t talk much for the rest of the walk, which took a while. They followed the Tiber river up towards Vatican City, although they didn’t turn to enter the mico-country when Nico expected they would. Bartholomew made frequent comments along the way about other Bible passages Nico needed to look for in his reading. He’d be expected to attend mass every day and confess his sins to Bartholomew afterwards. That, more than anything else, Nico feared.
As they approached the Castel Sant’Angelo and crossed the nearby bridge, Nico looked at the beautiful statues of angels that lined the walkway. Each one was holding a different symbolic object. They reminded him of Thanatos and his brothers and sisters, all of whom Nico considered his enemies now. Eventually, they’d find out where he went. He wondered how they’d react to seeing him with his new pantheon. He wondered how he would feel, seeing Thanatos again.
One of the angels held a lance. It had a phrase on the plaque beneath its feet reading “You have wounded my heart” in Latin.
Nico stared up at its face, picturing Thanatos. They’d both wounded each other’s hearts, but Nico had been twice victimized. Once by the person who’d framed him for cheating, and once by Thanatos, who had refused to let him defend himself, even though the accusation could have been disproven easily. Nico dug his nails into his palms, staring up at the statue.
He would need to throw everything he had into this new job. He had to make it work, no matter how hard it was. When his family did come knocking, when Thanatos tracked him down, he wanted them to see how much better off he was without them. And then he wanted to make them all pay for what they’d done to him.
Unfortunately, he was a little worried about pulling that off. He was starting at the bottom of the totem pole. It couldn’t be helped, but he’d suffered a serious downgrade from being the Prince of the Underworld. He was hoping to at least work his way up to middle management in Hell before his family tracked him down. Maybe he’d get new cool Hell powers. He could only hope.
“Sorry I’m late, Bart,” Michael said, approaching Bartholomew and Nico on the bridge. Nico was surprised to see the archangel out and about in the middle of the day. He’d assumed Michael spent most of his time in the afterlife. “I assume you’ve explained things to him?” Michael said.
“Not yet,” Bartholomew said. Nico wondered when he’d get to call him Bart. He guessed probably never.
“I will, then,” Michael said, looking down at Nico. He looked frustrated, like he had not wanted to handle this issue himself. “You and I have discussed your ability to take souls. I’m sure you recall our conversation on the subject.”
“I do,” Nico said, frowning suspiciously. “Why?”
Michael bit his lip, twitching his wing feathers nervously. Nico read his body language and had a sudden revelation.
“Is this about what I think it’s about?” Nico said, raising his eyebrows.
Michael tsked, folding his arms across his chest. He walked over to the edge of the bridge and looked out at the river, standing beside the statue of himself.
“We need to know whether your power to take souls is transferable,” Bartholomew said. “Or if it can be taught.”
“It’s not,” Nico said, smirking. He could feel the balance of power suddenly shifting between the three of them, like the earth itself was moving beneath his feet.
“Are you sure?” Bartholomew demanded, walking around to stare Nico down. “If you are lying to us, we will find out. One single proven incidence of dishonesty will be enough to merit excommunication, you know.”
“I’m telling the truth,” Nico said, looking him right in his weird, bulgy eyes. There were many aspects of his new job that left Nico at a huge disadvantage in knowledge, experience, and qualification. This was not one of them. “I was made for a purpose. A custom order. You either have it or you don’t. And I have it.”
Michael turned back to glare at him, professional envy in his eyes. Nico almost felt sorry for him. The archangel Michael was popularly conceived of as the Catholic psychopomp, but it had always been a cover-up. Instead of Michael acting as Thanatos’ Catholic equivalent, they’d devised a transiting program where souls stopped in the Underworld like an airport layover before continuing to the Catholic afterlife. All of this was due to Michael’s inability to collect the souls himself.
“And you need it,” Nico said.
It was time for a change.
Notes:
Thank you to all my beautiful commenters and kudos-er and whoever else is reading this far into the fic. You are all amazing motivators and I so appreciate all of you! Thank you for trusting me enough to get this deep into an unfinished fic. I will continue to do my best for you guys to finish strong!
Chapter 98: No Escaping Death
Chapter Text
Thanatos rubbed his eyes with the heels of his hands. He hated the outdoors. He hated the sun. He hated sand. He hated everything. And yet somehow he’d been dragged along on a beach trip with his brother’s family. His sister in law had a short break from work, and had invited her husband and children out to visit her on the island of Milos.
Thanatos had already tried to drown himself once. He’d walked into the ocean while holding a brick. He couldn’t die, but he’d been hoping for a few centuries of comfortable unconsciousness. He just needed a break from existing for a while. Heartbreak was a bitch.
Unfortunately, Hypnos had pulled him out of the water before he could submerge. As punishment, his brother had forced him to watch the oneiroi while he and his wife Pasithea snuck away for some time alone together. Thanatos had objected, since that sort of thing only ever led to them having more children, and they already had too many. He’d been ignored. Currently, he was lying on a beach towel with another towel covering his eyes. From behind his towel he could hear the giggles of children all around him, which he found annoying. The sound of rapid digging was a lot more satisfying.
“Dig faster, children,” he barked. He’d ordered his small army of nieces and nephews to dig him a grave in the sand. One thing could be said for the oneiroi; they were biddable, and dug quite efficiently thanks to their little wings providing extra lift.
When he thought it might be ready, he emerged from under the towel and climbed in, testing the depth. The bottom of the sand pit was cool and refreshing, definitely a decent place to spend a few centuries. He figured three thousand years would be enough to forget about Nico.
Satisfied with their work, he directed his nieces and nephews to start filling in the hole around him. He curled up in the sand, settling in for a nice long rest.
“Wake me in three thousand years,” he said, yawning. “And don’t tell your father where I am.”
Clumps of sand hit his shoulders and back. Soon the sunlight was blocked out.
He was fairly certain he’d only been asleep a few minutes when the sand was suddenly blasted away. Light flared, blinding him, and his face stung where the sand had hit. He looked up, shielding his face with his hands.
His brother Eros was standing over him.
For a moment, Thanatos was too stunned to react. Eros, his estranged older sibling, had been the architect of his heartbreak. He’d seduced the love of his life. He’d stolen Nico’s heart. Together, he and Nico had destroyed his will to live.
He threw a handful of sand at Eros’ face.
“Knock it off,” Eros said, shaking it out of his hair. Thanatos threw another, getting some in Eros’ mouth.
Then he jumped out of the hole and tackled his brother, rubbing more handfuls of sand into his face.
“You’re getting it in my eyes!” Eros said, trying to kick Thanatos off of him. “Love isn’t supposed to be literally blind, you know.”
“Shut up,” Thanatos said, grappling with him. He had the advantage, since he’d pinned him to the sand. He started strangling him.
“You snake! You homewrecker! You ruined my life!” Thanatos said, watching his brother struggle for breath beneath him.
One of the oneiroi handed him a brick. A few others mobbed Eros, holding him down.
“Brick him! Brick him!” The children cried out excitedly.
Thanatos felt a renewed sense of appreciation for his nieces and nephews as he moved to bring the brick down onto Eros’ smug face.
“It wasn’t true!” Eros cried out, holding up his hands.
“Liar,” Thanatos hissed.
“I can prove it!” Eros said.
Thanatos’ hands stilled.
Nico had cheated on him with Eros. He must have. Because if he hadn’t–
Eros scrambled to sit up, rubbing sand out of his eyes.
“Nico loves you,” Eros said. “He didn’t betray you. The pictures you saw were manipulated to make it look like something it wasn’t.”
Eros pulled out his phone and showed Thanatos a series of texts. The first were with Aphrodite. He’d told her that he planned to crash Jason’s funeral and talk to Nico there.
“Doesn’t he hate you?” Aphrodite had said, followed by a laugh emoji.
Eros had sent a crying emoji in response.
He switched to another chat window. After the pictures had been posted to the Gossip Goddess Godstagram account, he’d messaged Hermes.
“I know you’re Gossip Goddess, jackass,” he’d said. “If you don’t want me telling everyone, you need to delete that post ASAP.”
“Tell away,” Hermes said. “Revenge on Nico is worth it.”
“DELETE IT!” Eros had replied.
Hermes had just responded with a laughing emoji.
“See? Hermes admitted it was him. He was just trying to get back at Nico,” Eros said. “I wouldn’t do that to you. And neither would he.”
Thanatos stared at the phone.
“But there were signs,” he said, trying to make sense of the situation. “Nico always acted strange whenever you were brought up.”
“We hooked up,” Eros said. “But that was before he met you. It was hardly worth mentioning in the grand scheme of things. Nico could have had me anytime, and yet he only ever wanted you. His love was the real thing. I’m sorry that I had any part in ruining that for you.”
Thanatos started to sob. Eros wrapped his arms around his little brother protectively.
If only he could go back in time and tell himself to listen. He was a fool. When you were asexual like he was, it was easy to get caught up in insecurities. Sex seemed to be all anybody else ever thought about. Deep down, he’d always known that he would never be enough. He’d believed that Nico was sacrificing too much by being with him.
Nico had always seemed too good to be true. To find out that it had been real was a bittersweet joy. He had thrown away the best thing that had ever happened to him over a social media post.
Hypnos and Pasithea returned to find him a blubbering mess, weeping inconsolably in Eros’ arms. Eros explained everything to them, but Hypnos had no words of comfort for his brother.
“I’m sorry I didn’t let him in to talk to you,” Hypnos said. He sat beside Thanatos on the sand, letting the seawater brush the tips of his toes. “I thought I was protecting you. Maybe this could have been avoided if I’d given him a chance.”
“I wouldn’t have listened,” Thanatos sniffled. Hypnos pressed his forehead against his twin’s, silently sharing his pain.
Pasithea had been pacing up and down the shore. Her flock of winged children followed her like ducklings.
“Sitting around and moping isn’t going to fix anything,” she said, approaching the three brothers, who had piled onto each other like a litter of distressed kittens. As each subsequent wave crashed onto the shore, they were buried deeper and deeper in the wet sand.
“Are you going to find him and apologize?” Pasithea asked.
“Where is Nico, anyway?” Eros asked. “Wasn’t he sentenced to Tartarus?”
Thanatos looked to Hypnos for answers, since he’d avoided the mention of Nico’s name ever since the day of his trial. He hadn’t wanted to know anything about him. He’d just wanted to forget. Now he dreaded the thought of his love chained up in Tartarus for no good reason.
“Um, not exactly,” Hypnos said. “Hades didn’t like learning that Nico was taking souls behind his back all this time. He got a little vindictive.”
“What do you mean, vindictive?” Thanatos asked, wiping snot off his face with Eros’ chiton. “Why would he care? It was my divinity being stolen. Not that Nico really stole it,” he added guiltily. He had never liked Nico taking souls, but he’d definitely given him permission to do it. He had been such a jerk to his beloved.
“He was mad about the lying. Not so much the soul-taking itself,” Hypnos said.
Thanatos recalled Hades’ paranoid obsession with turning Nico into a human. He’d always seen his son as a threat. Maybe the trial had been the final straw and Hades had snapped.
“He turned him human, didn’t he?” Thanatos said.
“Yeah. How’d you know?” Hypnos asked.
“I just do,” Thanatos said. His heart was racing. Nico being human was a good thing. That meant he’d been stuck at home this whole time, probably moping, but otherwise fine. They would be able to talk things out, and then Thanatos could ask Hades and Persephone to return Nico to godhood. He hoped they would listen.
“I need to see him,” Thanatos said, drying his eyes. He stood up, shaking sand out of his wings. “Do you think he’ll forgive me?” He asked Eros.
Eros smiled.
“He already did,” he said. “Go. Tell him I’m sorry, would you?”
“Tell him for me, too,” Hypnos said. “Good luck, brother.”
“You’ve got this, Thanatos!” Pasithea said happily. “Go get him!”
The oneiroi joined her in a chorus of shouts, cheering Thanatos on. Tears filled his eyes again as he watched his family wave goodbye. Nico had loved him all along, and so had his family. He was a very lucky god.
Thanatos waved back, folded his wings around himself, and disappeared.
He appeared in Hades’ palace. The place was dead and silent as a tomb, as usual.
He turned to see Persephone on the throne. Hades stood beside her. For once, she seemed to be the angrier of the two.
She rose from the throne and marched toward him, dead roses trailing in her wake. She grabbed Thanatos by the collar roughly, dragging his face close to her own.
“Where is my son?” Persephone growled. Dark fire blazed in her eyes.
Thanatos shrugged.
“I was going to ask you that,” he said. “I have to apologize to him. It turns out he didn’t cheat on me after all. It was just a misunderstanding.”
Persephone stared at him for a moment, unmoving.
“That cannot be right,” Hades said, sweeping down from the dais to tower over Thanatos threateningly. “All this time, we thought he was with you. Where is he?”
Thanatos took a step backward, cowed by their intensity.
“I have no idea,” he said. “I assumed he was here. Where else would he be?”
Persephone turned around slowly to face her husband.
“Hades,” she said slowly. “If he is not returned to me, whole and unharmed, in the next twenty four hours, I am going to raze this palace to its foundations and bury you beneath it.” Her voice was calm, but there was a dire threat hiding beneath her composure, punctuated by the tendrils of dark energy that radiated from her body like vines.
“Yes, dear,” Hades said quickly. “Thanatos, come. We will locate him. Swiftly.”
Thanatos allowed Hades to bring him down to Asphodel to stand before Minos.
After observing Nico’s parents’ reactions, he understood that Nico’s disappearance was a serious matter. Being human made him vulnerable in a way he had never been before. The Underworld wasn’t designed for living people to navigate safely. Quite the opposite, it was a literal deathtrap. It was a dangerous situation for Nico.
Hades grabbed Minos by the throat without the pretense of a warning.
“Where is he?” He shouted at full volume, directly into his face.
“I don’t know,” Minos said. He did not seem surprised by the confrontation, and he remained calm. “The last I saw, he was taking the ferry down the Lethe.”
Hades dropped him, letting him fall back down to the tabletop. Ghostly bodies didn’t take falls hard, so it sounded like a leaf hitting a pillow.
“Alright,” Hades said, taking a deep breath and stepping away, straightening his mantle. “This is most likely a non-issue. He’s merely gone to visit Jason,” he said, glancing at Thanatos with a smile of relief. “Let’s fetch him.”
This time, Thanatos was the one to bring Hades over to the Isles of the Blessed. He was faster anyway.
“It doesn’t make any sense,” Hades said, standing on the shoreline, scanning the beach for Jason. A beach volleyball match was taking place in front of a crowd of spectators. “Nico shouldn’t have remembered anything from the past few years. That includes Jason.”
“You took his memories?” Thanatos asked. Back when he’d been angry at Nico, he wouldn’t have cared, but now he was retroactively feeling defensive of him. “Was making him human not punishment enough?”
“Initially, it was not my intention to have him drink from the Lethe,” Hades admitted, looking guilty. “I understand it seems cruel, but in the immediate aftermath of his transformation into a human, he was unable to cope with what had happened. He thought of nothing but vengeance. It would have been crueler not to take the memories away.”
Thanatos shook his head in disgust.
“You don’t agree with my decision?” Hades asked.
“No, I don’t,” Thanatos said. “He had prepared to become human. He’d accepted it, at least to some degree. I find it hard to believe he was so distraught over it happening that you had to take his memories away. That’s tantamount to stealing his identity!”
“Is that so? Well, I find it ironic that you’re preaching to me about what punishment I ought to have meted out,” Hades said. “You forced my hand. I had no choice but to punish him, publicly and decisively. Otherwise Zeus would have jumped at the chance to do it himself. Turning him human was my only choice, since he cannot be imprisoned.”
Thanatos felt like a rock had dropped into his stomach. He was experiencing an intense whiplash between the feelings he’d felt in the past, and those he felt now. When he’d thought Nico was a cheater, he’d wanted him punished brutally. When he’d learned that Nico hadn’t cheated, he’d hoped that he’d just gotten a slap on the wrist. It seemed as though Nico’s punishment had been harsher than he’d anticipated.
“But–” Thanatos said.
“No buts!” Hades said. “If you wanted your opinion heard, you’d have attended the trial instead of hiding like the coward you are. Your ‘misunderstanding’ has destroyed my family. That’s the best case scenario, assuming we find him. If he’s been hurt as a result of this–”
“It’s just as much on you as it is on me,” Thanatos said, following him as Hades stormed up the beach toward Jason. The familiar blonde demigod was on a water break, immersed in a strategy discussion with Hector and Kobe Bryant.
“I know,” Hades muttered under his breath. “Jason Grace! Attend me!” He bellowed.
Jason flinched, an obvious expression of guilt passing over his face.
“Lord Hades,” he said, kneeling at his feet. He was the picture of proper ghostly obedience, but Thanatos suspected that it was overcompensation. Jason had never respected the rules of death. He doubted that he’d truly changed now.
“You know why I’m here,” Hades said. “Talk.”
“The last time I saw Nico, he was in Hecate’s cave,” Jason said. As Thanatos suspected, he was quick to throw a goddess under the bus, and slow to take responsibility for his own part. Hades rolled his eyes.
“Unhelpful,” he said. He was more focused on finding Nico quickly than on asking questions, so he was already leaving before Thanatos could prepare to follow after him. As he stretched his wings out to travel to Hecate’s cave, Thanatos glanced back to see that Jason was flipping him off with both hands.
It irked his godly pride, but deep down, he knew he deserved it.
He appeared in Hecate’s cavern to find her and Hades already mid-argument.
“I don’t know where he went,” she insisted.
“You have until the count of three to tell me where he is, before I begin to destroy your home in order to search more thoroughly,” Hades said.
“I told you, he left the Underworld,” she insisted.
“That’s impossible.” Hades said coldly. “One.” He held up a single long, bone white finger.
“It’s not impossible. He’s a god. Nothing is impossible,” she insisted. “Improbable, maybe.”
“He was a human at the time. Two,” Hades said.
“Can we at least agree that it was wrong for you to turn him into a human? I know it was wrong of me to help him escape, but don’t two wrongs cancel each other out to make a right?” she pleaded.
“Hecate, please tell us. I need to apologize to him,” Thanatos said. “It turns out he never cheated on me with my brother. He really loved me. If I can’t get him back, I’m going to bury myself in the earth for the rest of eternity.”
“Aww,” she said.
“If I don’t get him back, Persephone will bury me beneath the earth for eternity,” Hades said. “And I might let her.”
He held up a third finger.
“He left the Underworld,” Hecate said. “That’s all I know!”
“Liar!” Hades roared. Her cauldron exploded, spraying bright green goo all over the cavern and pelting them with large chunks of cast iron.
“My gazpacho!” She shrieked. “Do you know how long I’ve been seasoning that cauldron?”
Hades shook gazpacho soup off his clothing. He appeared to regret his choice of objects to destroy.
“He could not have left the Underworld,” he said. “I sealed all of the entrances.”
Hecate pursed her lips.
“Not all of them,” she admitted.
She pointed downward. Hades and Thanatos both leaned over a hole in the floor. The grating had been blown off, revealing the entrance to a long tunnel descending downward.
“You sent my human son down a tube,” Hades said, giving Hecate an acidic glare.
“I did not send him down the tube,” she said. “I counseled him against the tube. I defended your parenting choices– you’re welcome– and insisted he go home and make things right with you. He chose the tube.”
“You didn’t stop him?” Hades said. For the first time, Thanatos saw fear in his eyes. Hades had not believed it was possible for Nico to leave. Now he was forced to consider it.
Thanatos kicked a small chunk of iron into the tunnel and heard a splash.
“He could be stuck down there,” Thanatos observed. “He might have drowned. We’re nowhere near the exit, you know.”
Hades made a strained noise of stress, rubbing his temples.
“He can’t really die,” Thanatos added. “Don’t worry. I’d have collected him by now if that were the case.”
“That means we’ll have to drag his waterlogged corpse out of the tunnel and revive him somehow into godhood,” Hades said, staring into the water with horror.
“Exactly,” Thanatos said, satisfied that the solution was a simple one. “Not sure how we’ll locate him, though.”
Hades kicked off his sandals.
“You’re not really going in there?” Hecate said. “It’s a long swim.”
Hades flashed her a look of contempt.
“You obviously did not think it was too long for a frail human child,” he sneered. “Yet you doubt my capacity?”
“On second thought, you’ll be fine. It’s not that bad. Probably,” she added, grimacing.
Hades pulled off his outer robe, leaving him in a short chiton. He had to shrink in size slightly to fit, which was a sight that Thanatos found slightly amusing, though he didn’t dare smile.
Hades dove into the tunnel without another word.
“Alright, I’m out,” Hecate said, grabbing a suitcase and rapidly stuffing it full of candles and essential oils.
“You’re leaving? We haven’t found him yet!” Thanatos said.
“If he finds Nico’s corpse in that tunnel, I’m not gonna be around when he gets back with it,” she said. “He and Persephone will be out for blood, and when Nico gets back to normal, he’ll be worse. The only saving grace is that I won’t be as high on his hit list as you. Either way, I’m laying low for a while.”
“His hit list?” Thanatos asked.
“Thanatos, baby,” she said, pressing a hand to his cheek. Her green eyes crinkled with pity. “Cop the fuck on. Nico is going to wreck your shit.”
She disappeared in a green mist. Thanatos coughed, shaking out his wings.
He wasn’t too worried. Nico had already forgiven him publicly. Surely that meant he would be spared all consequences of his actions.
He waited a few more minutes until Hades reappeared. He resembled a crow caught in a rainstorm. Hades paused to put his sandals back on, returning to his normal size.
“Hecate ran off. I’m assuming Nico wasn’t in the water,” Thanatos said.
Hades shook his head. He sat down on Hecate’s couch and put his head in his hands. Thanatos tried to wait on him to say something, but he never did.
“Well? Where shall we look next?” Thanatos asked.
Without looking up, Hades spoke.
“I saw his little footprints in the tunnel,” he said quietly. “He got out.”
His voice was choked with emotion, which Thanatos found awkward.
He busied himself looking at Hecate’s DVD collection. The Craft, Practical Magic, The Witches of Eastwick– he didn’t care about movies, but Nico enjoyed them. He wondered if they’d ever watch a movie together again. What if Nico didn’t want to get back together? He couldn’t stomach the thought.
“The tunnel led to the exit. He’s gone,” Hades said. “From New York City he could have gone anywhere. Finding him is not going to be easy.”
“He’s human,” Thanatos said, replacing a DVD case on the shelf. “He can’t move quickly from place to place. I can find him, wherever he is in the world.”
“I hope you’re right,” Hades said, staring at his phone. “Persephone said that Hazel has not heard from him. Nor has Annabeth. That isn’t like him.”
Something was niggling at the back of Thanatos’ mind.
“I know he forgave me, but, erm,” he said hesitantly. “Do you think he’ll still want revenge?”
“I cannot answer you. I only know that, when we last spoke, and he had his memories, he threatened to– I’ll just show you,” he said, stopping himself. He pointed at Hecate’s TV.
A video began to play, a memory from Hades’ mind sent straight to the screen. Thanatos perched on the edge of the couch to watch.
Hades was looking down at Nico from above, holding him by the shoulders, as he shrank down to the size of a child. They were on Olympus in Zeus’ throne room.
Nico slumped on the ground.
“That’s done, then,” Zeus said, standing over his nephew with a self-satisfied smirk.
Hades knelt and gathered Nico up into his arms gingerly. Nico seemed only half-conscious, his eyes staring at nothing.
“Whoopsie,” Zeus said. “Missed a spot. Put him back down for a sec.”
Hades extended his arms to rest Nico back onto the ground. Just before he let go of him, he hesitated.
Within the space of a heartbeat, Zeus gathered a bolt of lightning and fired it straight at Nico.
Hades threw up a shield just in time, and the bolt ricocheted harmlessly. When he lowered the barrier, Zeus was laughing like a fool.
“I should have never trusted you,” Hades said. He sounded more disgusted than angry. “I was right to cut you off eighty years ago.”
“Don’t be so dramatic,” Zeus said. “Learn to take a joke!”
Hades grabbed Nico and departed. Back in the palace throne room, he quickly inspected Nico for damage. He was unharmed, but he looked very small and young and grimy.
Thanatos had never seen him human before. It was jarring, like seeing the acorn when you were used to the oak tree. He stared at the screen in awe.
Nico seemed too dazed to speak, although he was trying to sit up and move away from his dad. He kept fumbling around weakly and falling over, breathing rapidly.
Hades reached out to touch him, appearing concerned by the state of his health.
“You’re very cold,” he said. “At least that hasn’t changed.”
“He’s going into shock, idiot,” Thanatos observed, rolling his eyes at Hades’ medical ignorance. “He’s dying.”
He’d seen humans go into that state a million times. Many never left it.
“I’m going into shock, idiot,” Nico mumbled onscreen. “I’m dying.”
They really were soulmates, Thanatos thought, feeling his heart flutter.
The Hades on the screen quickly moved to help, but Nico rolled away.
“Stop,” he said, as his dad magically healed him. Color returned to his face, and he sat up. “Ugh! Why’d you do that?” Nico said angrily.
“Did you not want to be healed?”
“No, I wanted to die and go back to normal,” Nico said, getting to his feet. He moved like a newborn foal, hobbling on unfamiliar limbs. He was much shorter than before, and clearly resented it. There was an undercurrent of violent rage beneath his movements.
Thanatos moved to sit directly in front of the screen, taking everything in. This Nico was a stranger to him, and yet in many ways he was the same.
Human Nico leaned against the wall. He was growing more visibly angry as his strength returned.
“I almost got lightninged because of you. Again!” Nico said. He was trying to sound cold and harsh, but the pain in his high-pitched voice was impossible to hide. It made Thanatos very sad to hear.
“You should not have had to endure that twice,” Hades said. “Going to Zeus was cruel, and it put you in unnecessary danger. I acted in anger, and I regret it. I should have found another way.”
Maybe Nico expected Hades to put up more of a fight, because he said nothing in response. Hades took out his phone and dialed a number. It went straight to voicemail.
“Persephone, I need you to call me back when you get this. It’s an emergency,” Hades said, leaving a message. He hung up.
“Are you going to ask her to change me back?” Nico asked.
“Of course,” Hades said. “We can return you to normal now, so long as you keep a low profile. In the eyes of Olympus, your punishment has been carried out.”
“Maybe in their eyes, but not in yours,” Nico said. “This doesn’t change anything. You’re still scared of me. You hate that you can’t control me. You can’t stand not knowing what I’m capable of. If this is another temporary reprieve before you start campaigning to turn me human again, I don’t want it. You can take your apologies and shove them–”
“Nico, I am getting your mother involved,” Hades interrupted. “That means what I think and feel will cease to matter. We will do what Persephone thinks is best. I no longer trust my own judgment.”
Thanatos frowned at the screen in confusion. As he watched the Hades on screen dial the phone a few more times, he wondered how the current situation had come to be. Nico’s trial and punishment were both complete. Hades was attempting to de-escalate the situation. All seemed to be moving toward a tidy resolution.
“Can you fast forward?” He asked, turning around to look at Hades.
“I’m magically projecting my memories onto this television set for your perusal,” Hades said. “No, I can’t fast forward. It’s only another few seconds.”
“Why are you showing me all of this?” Thanatos asked. “Shouldn’t we be out searching?”
“It’s called exposition,” Hades snapped. “Shut up and watch.”
Thanatos turned his eyes back to the screen.
Nico stared at the floor.
“Once I’m a god, I’m never speaking to you again,” he said. His voice threatened tears, but he appeared determined to keep it together.
“I understand,” Hades said quietly.
Nico blinked a couple of times, clenching his small fists together.
“That’s it? That’s all you have to say?”
When Hades didn’t respond, Nico stormed up to him.
“This is bullshit,” Nico said. “You can’t just hide behind Persephone and move on with your life. I don’t accept that. You’ve betrayed me, you and everybody else, but you were the worst. You have to pay. You have to regret what you did to me.”
“I already do regret it,” Hades said.
“No, not like that,” Nico said viciously. “I want you to suffer.”
“You don’t think being parted from you will be suffering enough?” Hades asked. “I can’t think of any punishment greater. I love–”
“I don’t want to hear it!” Nico shouted. “No! It’s not enough! I’m going to– I’ll–” He clenched his teeth, thinking. “I’m gonna make her choose,” he said.
Hades frowned.
“What?”
“I’m gonna make Persephone choose. You, or me,” Nico said. “I’m cutting you out of my life. If she won’t leave you, I’ll cut her out, too.”
Hades was stunned speechless for a moment. Nico seemed to gain a surge of energy, seeing that he’d found a threat that worked.
“You would not really do that,” Hades said. “You’re not yourself right now. There are ways you can get back at me without involving her.”
“I don’t like dragging Persephone into this,” Nico said. “But it’s the only way I can really hurt you.”
“Do you expect us to get a divorce just because you tell us to?” Hades said. “Please think about what you’re saying. She is very unlikely to consider it.”
“That’s not the point. I can ruin your relationship whether you break up or not,” Nico said. “She’ll never forgive you. And neither will I. Then you’ll really have no one. Just like you deserve.”
Hades stared at Nico. In his eyes, there was nothing but darkness.
“Aha!” Thanatos interrupted, pointing to the screen. “This is why you took his memories! I understand now.”
He turned around to face Hades.
“Nico was right. You do fear him. And you’re right to. Persephone is the only thing you care about in this world, and only Nico has the power to take her from you.”
He got to his feet, brushing off his mantle and shaking out his wings.
“Hades, I don’t know why you felt the need to show me that, but I did not enjoy my sojourn in the dark recesses of your mind. You have issues.”
“What a groundbreaking perspective,” Hades hissed. “I was on tenterhooks waiting to hear your opinion.”
“I will find Nico,” Thanatos said archly, looking down his nose at Hades. “It will probably only take a few minutes.”
Hades waved him away dismissively. He didn’t follow; they both knew that Thanatos would cover more ground without Hades slowing him down. Thanatos began a very rapid and thorough search of New York City.
“Now, if I were Nico,” he said to himself, flickering through apartment buildings, subways stations, and crowded diners. “Where would I go? Oh! I know!”
He went to a pizza restaurant. He didn’t know much about humans, but he knew they got hungry. Within a matter of minutes, he’d looked in every pizza restaurant in New York. He saw a handful of Italian American kids that looked like they could be Nico, but had no luck finding the real thing.
A thought occurred to him. Humans also needed bathrooms! He set off once more to inspect every toilet in New York City.
He collected a few souls along the way– remarkable how many people died on toilets– but none of them were Nico. He headed back to Central Park to investigate the point where Nico had exited the Underworld.
To his surprise, he was not the only winged blonde there. Eros was walking around taking pictures on his phone.
“Hey!” He said, bounding up to Thanatos like a golden retriever.
“Hello,” Thanatos said, accepting his brother’s hug awkwardly. He wasn’t sure where they’d landed in terms of relationship, but he appreciated Eros attempting to clean up the mess he’d helped make. “Searching for Nico, I presume?”
“Precisely,” Eros said. “On crime shows, they always find clues by zooming and enhancing photos, so I’m trying to do that here. Maybe there are footprints?”
Thanatos and Ero pored over the zoomed-in pictures on Eros’ phone, but nothing seemed to be happening.
“Weird,” Eros said, disappointed. “I have another lead we could follow. It may be nothing, though.”
“We can follow it if it’s better than my lead,” Thanatos said.
“What’s yours?”
“Toilets.”
“Toilets?”
“Nico would have used one at some point,” Thanatos explained patiently. “All humans do.”
Eros stared at his brother for a moment.
“Let’s go with my lead, okay?”
“Fine,” Thanatos said reluctantly.
“There was a shakeup at TH a few weeks ago,” Eros said. “Caligula has been posting about a hostile takeover of the company. Commodus has been radio silent, which isn’t like him, and no one’s seen Nero since it happened. It could be that Caligula’s off his meds or something, but given Nico’s history with them, and the timelines sort of matching, I thought it was worth looking into.”
Thanatos gave the theory some consideration.
“It’s probably nothing,” he said. “But I suppose I can indulge you for a few minutes. Let’s see the Emperors.”
Eros and Thanatos headed over to the TH tower, an intimidating edifice that loomed over Midtown Manhattan, casting an ominous shadow. They walked into the lobby and looked around.
“Nico was an intern here,” Thanatos said. “He worked directly under Commodus.”
“I know,” Eros said off-handedly.
Thanatos recalled that Eros lived in the city and frequented the emperors’ parties. That was probably how he and Nico had met.
Dark jealousy burned in the pit of his stomach. He tried to contain it, but it took everything he had.
Eros chatted up the receptionist and got buzzed into the building immediately– his charms had always gotten him inside anywhere and anyone he’d ever wanted. It was unfair, Thanatos thought. Eros had the world at his feet. Couldn’t he have left one person for Thanatos alone?
As they got into the elevator, Thanatos puffed up his wings and tried to hide behind him.
“If we do find him, I won’t intrude any longer,” Eros said gently. “You don’t even have to tell him I helped.”
“Stop being so empathetic,” Thanatos said. “It only makes me feel worse.”
Eros grabbed one of his pin feathers and yanked it out. Thanatos shrieked and began trying to smack him.
“Stop being so childish,” Eros said. “Your pouty little bitch act got old three thousand years ago.”
“Shut up!” Thanatos said. He was rapidly beginning to remember why he’d rarely hung out with his elder brother, even before he’d been exiled from the Underworld. Eros was always hard on him, way more than he was on any of their other siblings.
“Do you seriously think he’ll take you back as you are now?” Eros asked.
“Yes?” Thanatos said weakly. The elevator dinged just as they reached the penthouse level where the emperors had their offices. “No? I don’t know.”
Eros poked him in the chest.
“It’s time you asked yourself what you bring to the table,” Eros said. “It looks like a whole lot of whining and insecurity to me.”
Stunned into silence, Thanatos followed him into Nero’s office.
To his surprise, a massive red-bearded giant was sitting behind his desk. He had his oversized feet propped up on top of a pile of paperwork.
“Can I help you, gentlemen?” Damasen asked, straightening his tie and grinning.
“You’re not Nero,” Thanatos observed unnecessarily.
“Nero’s out,” Damasen said. “He deserted his post. I am the third member of the Triumvirate now. Coffee, gentlemen?”
“Uh, no thanks,” Eros said. “We’re here looking for Nico di Angelo.”
“Ah,” Damasen said, his bushy red brows lowering over his eyes. “Yes.”
“You know something!” Thanatos interjected. “Where is he?”
“He isn’t here now,” Damasen said. “But he was. There was an incident. It’s a bit of a long story, but–”
The door suddenly swung open with such force that it slammed back on its hinges. Hades stormed into the room, closely followed by Commodus.
“What are you doing here?” Thanatos asked, unhappy to see him. He didn’t want to share credit for finding Nico.
“I can do detective work, too,” Hades snapped. “Damasen! Commodus said that you have a video I should see.”
Damasen seemed caught off guard by Hades’ appearance. In fairness, Hades had a disturbing presence at the best of times. Right now, his anxiety and anger was making the whole room noxious with misery.
“Uh, do we really think that’s a good idea?” Damasen asked, looking to Commodus for advice. “It’s basically a snuff film. Nero was a pretty sick freak.”
“Wait,” Thanatos interrupted. “You are jumping ahead in the story. What happened to Nico?”
“I can explain,” Commodus said. “Damasen, give Nico’s father the video. This is Pluto we’re talking about. He can take it.”
Damasen handed Hades an iPad.
“There’s an empty meeting room down the hall,” he said quietly. “You might want some privacy.”
Hades took the iPad and left. Thanatos and Eros remained in the office, facing Damasen and Commodus nervously.
“Nero was having Damasen followed on suspicion of revolutionary activities,” Commodus said. “We caught him and Nico plotting to overthrow Olympus. We brought them both here for interrogation.”
“Commodus was supposed to torture me, but we got to talking and found out we had more in common than we thought,” Damasen said.
“Yeah. He wants glory, power, and chaos. So do I,” Commodus said. “Now we plan to make all of Olympus into Commodianapolis!”
“Name change pending,” Damasen muttered.
“And Nico?” Eros asked.
“Nero tortured him,” Commodus admitted. “Brutally. For a very long time. He burned him alive like a human torch.”
Thanatos froze. He remembered well the days when Nero burned people alive en masse. He’d line up rows of his human torches, as he’d called them, and set them alight. Their screams served as party entertainment while his guests danced and feasted.
Thanatos had collected their souls, understanding that death was a mercy to them.
But Nico couldn’t die. The torture would have kept going and going with no end.
Oh, Nico…
“We have it on security footage up until a certain point. After a few torture sessions, Nico rummages around in his backpack and starts eating what appears to be butterscotch pudding out of a mason jar,” Commodus said. “Then the camera broke. We don’t know what happened after that, but he and Nero are both gone now. There’s no sign of either of them.”
“That was ichor, in the jar,” Thanatos said. His voice was now just as quiet as Hades’ had been. He was grieving for his friend, his love. Nico had endured so much, and he’d done so little to deserve it. “He must have used it to return to his godly form.”
“Good for him,” Damasen said, perking up. He glanced at Commodus. “Does that mean–”
“My theory was probably right. He disintegrated Nero. I mean, I would’ve,” Commodus shrugged. “Weird. It kinda gets me emotional. I hated Nero as much as everyone else, but we were co-emperors for a long time.”
“Just think of Commodianopolis,” Damasen reassured him.
“That helps,” Commodus said, perking up immediately.
Thanatos wrapped his arms around himself. He couldn’t stop picturing the human torches in his head. He knew exactly what it looked like. Burnt, charred skin flaking off and floating away like ash on the wind. Red roasted skin underneath, cooked like meat. Large parts of their bodies, once human, now unrecognizable. The visions kept coming, overwhelming in their horror.
Eros put his arm around his brother’s shoulders.
“The important thing is, he got away,” Eros said. “Nico is a tough cookie. I’m sure he’s fine now, wherever he is.”
“Physically, he may be back to normal,” Thanatos said. “But if all this is true, it means he didn’t come home after he became a god again. He’s choosing to hide from us. From me.”
“It’s not about you,” Eros said, poking him. Thanatos nodded. He needed to get his act together. Nico was probably traumatized somewhere, haunted by what he’d experienced. When Thanatos found him, he would need to be supportive. He couldn’t make it about his own feelings.
The door creaked. They turned to watch Hades walk back inside.
He seemed almost like a different god. His eyes were dull and sunken, and he looked as though he’d forgotten what smiling was.
“I deleted the video from your servers,” he said. His voice was hoarse and scarcely above a whisper. “I didn’t want it getting into the wrong hands.”
“I would have liked to see it,” Thanatos said.
“No. You would not have,” Hades said, looking at him. For once, he didn’t look at Thanatos with irritation or dislike. He just looked tired. “If you’ll excuse me,” he said. “I need to attempt to explain this to my wife.”
He disappeared.
“Nico wouldn’t want you to see him like that, anyway,” Eros said. “Better the footage disappear.”
“It was gnarly,” Commodus said. “I’m not averse to a bit of torture, but Nero took it to another level. He always did. Those Crispians are going to be thrilled. If memory serves, he was their mortal enemy from the jump.”
“What’s a Crispian?” Damasen asked.
“Some Middle Eastern death cult that really took off during Nero’s reign. He used to rant about them sometimes. They’re weird, but they make a damn good rice cereal,” Commodus said.
Thanatos stepped out into the hallway, uninterested in their conversation. He could feel tears threatening to overwhelm him. Once he was out of sight of the others, he let go. He cried for Nico’s pain, and for the unfairness of it all. Mostly, he cried because he knew that it was partly his own fault. He would have to carry that weight forever.
Eros came out and gave him a hug.
“We’re done here,” he said. “They didn’t have any more info.”
“I have to look for him,” Thanatos said.
“What if he doesn’t want to be found?”
“He has to be found. I need to apologize,” Thanatos said. “We’re soulmates. He can hide from everyone else if he likes, but we belong to each other. He’ll talk to me. I know he will.”
Eros flashed him a skeptical look, then stifled it. He smiled, his warm golden eyes crinkling at the corners.
“I believe in you, little brother,” he said. “Don’t give up on your love. It’s worth fighting for.”
Thanatos went home, and without delay he started plotting out the places on a map where he thought Nico might have fled. Nico was a god, he was traumatized, he might be worried about getting in trouble over Commodus’ disappearance. He would have picked a familiar place to hunker down.
Thanatos made a list of the places Nico had connections to. Venice, Chania, Camp Half Blood, Camp Jupiter. He’d mentioned enjoying a visit to Rome in the past, so he noted that, too.
It didn’t take long to confirm that he wasn’t in his house in Chania. Persephone had already grilled Annabeth and Hazel. If he hadn’t contacted them, he wasn’t anywhere near either of the girls. And he had a thing about Venice– he had never wanted to go back. But even so, Italy seemed a likely place to look. Nico cherished his memories of human childhood. Maybe Venice was a no-go, but he would have preferred the familiar comforts of home.
Thanatos suddenly remembered that Nico had a sacred grove just outside of Venice that had been a gift from his grandmother. He headed there immediately to search. Maybe Nico had sought its healing energies.
To his surprise, two goddesses already stood in the grove, talking. One was Persephone, wearing a dress of deep pomegranate-red fading to black at the hem. She had a dark cloak around her face. She wasn’t necessarily restricted from visiting the surface at all, but it would cause a stir on Olympus if she broke protocol too much. Surely the Underworld family would plan on keeping Nico’s disappearance a secret for as long as they could.
She was talking with Demeter, who was wearing a beret in the shape of a pumpkin with matching overalls. Thanatos took little notice of the seasons, but when you were around these ladies, it was impossible to forget that winter was coming soon. If Nico didn’t come home before Persephone left for spring, it seemed unlikely he’d return until the following fall. It wasn’t realistic to expect him to reunite with his dad if she wasn’t there to liaise for them.
Persephone glanced at Thanatos, giving him a nod of acknowledgment.
“Looking for Nico, I assume?” She asked sadly. “Mother and I have already searched Venice thoroughly. He isn’t there.”
That was disappointing.
“I won’t give up,” Thanatos said, remembering Eros’ encouragements. If Eros had told him they were over and to pack it in, he’d need to accept the truth. But the god of love was never wrong. There was something left. Maybe something small, but something real all the same.
“I know you won’t,” Persephone said. She and her mother both glowed in the moonlight. The wind ruffled the branches of the cypress trees. It was November, and the earth was growing cold.
A single tear sparkled prettily on Persephone’s cheek. Demeter brushed it away, clucking her tongue.
“We’ll find him,” Demeter said reassuringly. “If we have to burn the earth and freeze the seas, we will find him.”
Thanatos knew that Persephone would leave no stone unturned. Her mother had done the same for her once. She would carry that love forward into the next generation. It was touching, but it was also hard to forget the worldwide famine that motherly love had caused. Thanatos hoped it didn’t come to that again. He couldn’t afford the extra work when he was trying to focus on the search.
In any case, Nico was not Persephone. He’d proven that he was impossible to imprison for long. He was choosing to stay away.
Persephone went up to Thanatos and took his hands.
“Hades told me what happened to him,” she said quietly. “He was burned.”
“Yes, it was–”
Thanatos gasped as searing heat suddenly scorched his fingers. He tried to pull his hands away, but Persephone held firm. Bright red flames seeped from her skin and covered his hands in fire.
He could not overpower her, but like Nico, he was slippery. Thanatos beat his wings a single time and found himself a few feet away, staring at her in shock.
“Ow!” He said.
“Imagine,” she said coolly. “That was a mere fraction of the suffering my son endured because of your petty jealousy.”
“It was a little more than just jealousy,” he said, shaking out his hands and wincing. “I am trying to make things right,” he added desperately.
“I know,” she said, her demeanor softening. Demeter watched from behind her, giving Thanatos a look of scathing censure. Anyone that hurt Persephone had to deal with her, and it seemed that Persephone was blaming Thanatos for what had happened.
“You do know that Hades played his role, too?” Thanatos said. “I made an accusation, but I never told Hades to make Nico human. That’s not on me.”
“I have dealt with my husband,” she said calmly. “He will no longer be aiding in the search effort. From now on, you deal with me.”
Thanatos shuddered. He didn’t even want to know what had happened to Hades.
“Searching mortal cities is easy enough, but it has proven fruitless,” Demeter said. “You are Nico’s soulmate. Aside from a few minor quirks of personality and life experience, you are the same at your core. In circumstances as extreme as those that Nico experienced, we revert to our basest instincts. In his shoes, what would you have done?”
It was easy enough to answer. Thanatos had been in the throes of heartbreak. He knew what he’d done when he’d been in pain beyond all reasoning with.
“I would withdraw,” he said. “I wouldn’t want to talk to anyone. But I’d want to get even.”
Persephone and Demeter exchanged a glance of approval. That was precisely what Nico seemed to have done.
“Give us more,” Demeter urged him.
“Even his escape from the Underworld was revenge, sort of,” Thanatos said. “It was a dangerous journey, but he went anyway. He didn’t fear death or pain– not at first,” he said. “The more he got hurt, the more his pain would hurt us. And he was angry.”
“You think he left just to hurt us?” Persephone asked.
“He and I see pain all the time. We’re intimately familiar with it. And we don’t fear death. I think he might have run, with no plan other than to make you worry, and to make you hurt. I think he knew it would end badly for him, but he didn’t care. Of course, he wouldn’t have anticipated what Nero did to him. That’s different.”
“Do you think that’s why he’s hiding?” Demeter asked. “To continue to hurt us with his absence?”
“He was tortured, Mom,” Persephone argued. “He’s traumatized. He needs therapy. He might be curled up in a ball crying somewhere.”
“Gods are not humans,” Demeter said. “We are far more resilient. He will be changed by what he’s endured, but he will not be broken by it. You may be surprised to find him stronger than he was before.”
“I hate that line of thinking. ‘Trauma makes you stronger,’ Persephone said, mocking her mother’s placating tone. “That’s bullshit meant to comfort the people saying it. Trauma doesn’t make you stronger. It makes you stranger and sadder. There’s no upside. It just sucks.”
“I think we’re both right,” Demeter said, looking at her daughter with an odd glint of pride in her eyes.
“Whatever,” Persephone said, dismissing that with a shake of her head. “You,” she said, pointing at Thanatos. “I think you can find him.”
“I think I can, too,” he said. The answer was so close that he could taste it. If he were Nico, where would he go? He knew. He just needed to think.
“Good. Do it,” Persephone said. “So I don’t have to burn down the world searching.”
She dismissed him, and he faded back into the darkness. Seeking inspiration, he soared above Venice, watching the twinkling lights glisten below.
He went to the house Nico had grown up in, perching on the roof of the building opposite like a gargoyle. The old di Angelo villa had a single lamp glowing in one of its dozens of windows. The canal in front reflected the image of the ancient villa, warped by the moving water currents. It was crumbling slowly. Someday it would be a ruin, possibly half drowned in the lagoon, no different than the thousands of ruined temples that dotted the world.
It made Thanatos sad to imagine Nico’s godhood as something so fleeting, but he was in the same situation as the rest of his divine family. Their heyday was over. The demigods who worshiped them, and the few pagans still practicing, were keeping the pantheon on life support. Nico would never know what it was to be widely worshiped and adored. It was a shame, but there was nothing to be done about it.
A gondola approached. An old man struggled to climb onto the dock of Nico’s house, and a younger man leapt ahead to help him make the big step up.
Thanatos watched as the old man waited. His younger companion unlocked the front door and helped him inside the villa. He wondered if the old man was an aged relative of Nico’s, or some wealthy loner who had bought the house long ago. He sensed death hovering over the old man’s shoulders; his companion was probably a nurse or carer in his last years. Someday, Thanatos would be back to take the man’s soul, but it wouldn’t be for a while.
A sudden flash of inspiration struck Thanatos. It was so jarring that he nearly fell off the roof.
When he’d been in the depths of despair, he’d started working. It had been almost a reflex, something he’d done without thinking. Working was instinctive. It gave him something to do with his hands besides rend his garments, yank out his hair and claw at his face.
What if Nico was taking souls?
He took out his tablet and opened the death data. Hermes hadn’t been working in a while, since Thanatos had been pulling plenty of overtime. That made things easier.
He knew Nico. The souls would need to be dropped off in Asphodel, but Nico wouldn’t relish going home, even if he was certain to do so unnoticed. He’d hang onto the souls as long as he could until he’d collected a big batch. Then he’d dump them in one trip, moving so quickly that no one would guess he’d been there.
Thanatos analyzed the numbers. He knew what every little quirk in the data meant. He knew the time, date, name, and location of every soul he’d taken. He remembered how they’d died and what they were wearing. He could tell from the timestamps when he’d taken a break to sob violently for ten minutes before going back to work.
It did not take him long to notice the anomaly in the data. One of the tabs on the spreadsheet listed the status of the soul. They passed through stages: ‘due for collection’, ‘collected, in transit,’ ‘waiting for judgment,’ and ‘processing complete.’
There was a timestamp for when each task was meant to occur. The souls became due for collection, and on a good day, the collection occurred immediately and moved to ‘in transit.’ ‘Waiting for judgment’ could take minutes to hours depending on the line in Asphodel and the traffic that day. Souls completed their journey once they had been judged. Then they moved on to their final destination.
The anomaly in the numbers occurred sporadically. Every few lines, there was a blank cell under ‘waiting for judgment’, as though the soul had never gotten in line. But those same lines had been marked ‘complete.’
That wasn’t possible. Soul processing wasn’t complete until the individual in question had been judged.
He did a quick count and found that over twenty percent of the lines were affected by the missing numbers. It had started a few weeks ago, shortly after Nico had gone missing.
He took this info straight to Minos, dead certain he was onto something.
“Look at this,” Thanatos said, shoving his tablet in the judge’s face. Aeacus and Rhadamanthys looked on with some annoyance, but by this time, they were used to being ignored.
Minos scanned the spreadsheet, scratching at his beard thoughtfully.
“You’re putting in overtime lately,” he said.
“No I’m not!” Thanatos said. “Look at these lines, here, and this one here. I didn’t collect those souls.”
“Are you sure you didn’t just forget?” Minos asked. “You’ve had a lot on your mind lately.”
“I never forget a soul,” Thanatos insisted. “I couldn’t if I tried. I’ve racked my brain, and these are not mine. Nico is working!”
“It could be Hypnos,” Minos suggested. “Charon might have done it. You and Nico were never our only psychopomps.”
“Hypnos and Charon can’t collect them at the pace he’s going,” Thanatos said. “Besides, look at this here– they’re categorized as processed, but not judged?”
Minos looked closer at the screen.
“Could be a computer error,” he said. “Maybe Hades is fiddling with the pivot tables again and broke the spreadsheet. I preferred the clay tablets, but nobody listens to me.”
“Hades is gone,” Thanatos said. “Persephone sent him away for the winter. She thinks it will make Nico more likely to return home.”
“I see,” Minos said. “Well, I recognize the discrepancy in the data, but I think you’re grasping at straws. Nico’s too smart to flaunt himself like this. Taking souls would invite a confrontation with the family. He won’t risk that. He’ll stay in hiding so that you can’t catch him and bring him home forcibly.”
Thanatos heard the sense in Minos’ words, but his instincts were screaming that it was Nico. Thanatos felt his signature on those souls as clearly as if Nico had scrawled it after every line in ink.
“Besides, where would Nico get his list?” Minos asked. “He doesn’t have access to our shared drive. All of his devices are here, and we would know if he’d logged in remotely.”
“Non-believer!” Thanatos snapped, snatching back the tablet. “I know what I know!”
“Don’t tell Persephone unless you’re positive,” Minos warned him as he started to walk away. “Don’t give her false hope.”
Thanatos went back up to his room, made a new spreadsheet, copied it onto paper, and cut it into pieces, leaving only the names, dates, and locations that were relevant to Nico.
He pasted them up on his wall in chronological order, noticing that the earliest date was a few weeks earlier– one day after Nico had been tortured by Nero. Another puzzle piece clicked into place.
He made a map and charted out the locations of the souls Nico had taken. Thanatos’ territory was ‘Western Civilization’, a term so vague it was meaningless. It didn’t refer to a physical border. Culture was as mobile as people were, and in the 21st century, he was picking up souls anywhere and everywhere. It looked like Nico was, too.
Studying the map, Thanatos noted that Nico appeared to favor some countries over others, like Brazil, Mexico, and the Philippines. He liked Poland a lot . Thanatos couldn’t think of a reason anyone would like Poland.
Thanatos drew a blank. He didn’t know of any thread that might connect those countries together. They weren’t close to each other, and they didn’t seem to be similar.
“Hey, big bro,” Nemesis said from the doorway. Thanatos glanced at her over his shoulder, wishing she hadn’t come. She had pressured him to accuse Nico of stolen divinity when he’d been on the fence about it. She couldn’t help being the goddess of revenge, but he couldn’t help but resent her part in the tragedy that Nico had suffered.
“Hello, Nemesis,” he said. “It’s not a good time.”
“You look like you’re tracking down a serial killer in here,” she said, walking up to his wall of research.
“I am,” he said. “In a sense.”
“So this is about Nico di Angelo,” she said, inspecting the map. She traced her finger down the lines of names. “Is this enough to locate him?”
Thanatos scanned the list, looking for a thread that would tie the names and places together. Nemesis tapped her foot. She was strangely agitated; her face remained calm, but her feathers were distinctly ruffled.
“If I were to go to a soul early and stake it out, there is a small chance I will run into him,” Thanatos said. “But going to one early means collecting another late. It would wreck the schedule for weeks.”
“So? Let’s do it,” she said. “Look at your list. Pick one you think he’ll take. One for tonight.”
“For tonight? That’s so soon,” Thanatos said, scrolling down the list of names. He felt his heart start to pound in his chest. What would he say? How would he convince him to come home? What did he bring to the table?
He could not explain why he was so certain, but his finger stopped scrolling on one name in particular.
“Luca de Laurentiis,” he said. “He’s in a hospital in Rome. He’ll die at midnight. I don’t know why, but I think Nico will want his soul. I just have a feeling.”
“Perfect,” she said. “I’ll meet you there at 11:50?”
“Wait,” Thanatos said, grimacing awkwardly. He needed to watch his words. Nemesis was touchy, and he didn’t want to offend her– that always came with consequences. “It might go better if you’re not around.”
“Don’t worry about me,” She insisted. “I’ll stay out of sight. Consider me moral support. I’m your cheerleader!”
He stared at her. Her black eyes, blacker wings, and studded leather jacket made her the least likely cheerleader who’d ever existed. He’d seen her kick off her combat boots and whip out a nasty pair of talons in battle. He barely knew what a cheerleader was, but he knew they didn’t do that. At least, he was pretty sure they didn’t.
“Okay,” he shrugged. Maybe it was better to have backup in case things went south. Nico would surely be mad at him. Having someone around who Nico was even madder at would make Thanatos look better in comparison.
He flew to the hospital at the appointed time, trembling like a leaf. He could not recall ever having been so frightened to speak to someone. And that was saying a lot, since he was wracked with social anxiety at the best of times.
“Fatebenefratelli Hospital,” Nemesis said, appearing behind him. “I can barely pronounce the name of this place. They should rename it Fate hospital. Get it? Cause it’s where people meet their fates?”
“I get it,” he sighed. He did not like his sister. But she was still his sister, and she was trying to help. He needed to be nice.
“Just trying to lighten the mood,” she said, elbowing him sharply. “You need to be on your A-game. I set up a meeting spot on the roof. You think you can get him up there?”
“I can try,” Thanatos said, looking around the room. Crowded deathbeds weren’t unusual, but he always found them overstimulating. He couldn’t even catch a glimpse of the dying man past the crowd of children, grandchildren, and even some great-grandchildren. All of them were crying, fussing, and generally carrying on in a way that distracted him from doing his job. He was tempted to shout, ‘Some of us are trying to work here!’, but he restrained himself.
Nemesis patted him on the back, wished him luck, and disappeared.
He sucked in a deep breath, bouncing on his heels nervously, twisting his hands in his mantle. He wished the room were quieter. He knew he would panic the second he saw Nico. He still had no clue what he was going to say.
As if things weren’t bad enough, a priest walked in. Thanatos knew what the last rites were. He didn’t care about them, but listening to the prayers made the hairs on the back of his arms stand up. He missed the old days before the Catholic cult had taken the world by storm. They made everything weirder than they already were.
The priest’s garish outfit gave him a headache, so he ducked into the en-suite bathroom to wait on Nico. He checked the time. Five minutes left on the clock. There was no telling when Nico might arrive. He wasn’t collecting enough souls to do back to back pickups; he might show up early to watch.
Thanatos remembered one of their first soul-collecting trips together. He’d given Nico a bunch of gnarly pickups– dead babies, pediatric oncology wards, gruesome mass-casualty incidents. He’d wanted to scare him off psychopompery. It wasn’t a job for the faint of heart. You had to stay professional and keep feelings out of it.
Nico had never been unfeeling. It was easy when you saw humans as a different species, like Thanatos did. Nico had been human for most of his life. He felt for all of them. And it had scared Thanatos a little to see Nico feel so much for the humans whose souls he took. Thanatos hadn’t thought it was possible for anyone to carry that much love around.
He knew, now, that Nico was meant to be a psychopomp just as much as he was. He needed to tell him that he understood, that he could be supportive. He’d learned his lesson. He’d find something and he’d bring it to the table.
With that in mind, he steeled himself, and he watched. Death was drawing near.
Once the priest finished the last blessing, the family suddenly stilled. Over a dozen people watched silently as the old man in the bed drew his last breaths. One of the children laughed and made a remark about it getting quiet all of a sudden. He was immediately hushed.
Then Nico appeared, and the sight of him was breathtaking.
In the dim light of the room, his face seemed to glow from within, like there was an invisible ring light hitting all his best angles. He looked radiant, like an AI model trained on all of the most beautiful Renaissance paintings ever made.
Thanatos felt lightheaded. Who was this? It was Nico, but it also wasn’t. He’d changed.
It was more than a glow up. He was noticeably taller than before, and he looked older, partly because he was wearing a neat tailored black suit and had his hair combed back. He carried himself differently. The way his head sat on his shoulders was different, strange as it seemed. And he looked sadder than ever before. His dark eyes were downcast, haunted, like he was seconds away from weeping in despair. Looking at him made Thanatos want to cry, too.
He was so absorbed in staring at Nico’s face that he barely noticed what Nico did next. He reached out to touch the man’s forehead, taking his soul in the usual manner. He whispered something. Then he crossed himself.
Thanatos felt his heart stop.
Oh, he thought. This was bad.
What was he going to do? Panicking, he took a step backward, heading further into the bathroom.
“Ahem,” Nico said.
Thanatos turned around. Nico was behind him, staring at him with those dark, hopeless eyes. Why did he look so sad? Why was he just staring silently?
“You were waiting for me,” Nico said, tilting his head to one side. “Why?”
To his horror, Thanatos realized why Nico appeared to be glowing. He had a halo.
“I just… Just wanted to see you,” Thanatos said. “I wanted to say that I was sorry.”
Nico raised his eyebrows. He opened his mouth to speak, but one of the grieving mortals pushed her way into the bathroom, sobbing messily. She started unspooling toilet paper to blow her nose with.
“Can we talk on the roof?” Thanatos asked.
Nico nodded.
The roof appeared to be deserted. Thanatos looked for his sister, but she wasn’t there. Maybe something had come up.
Nico stood dramatically on the edge of the rooftop, looking out across the skyline of Rome. The Tiber river was a black streak winding through a glittering city, crisscrossed by countless bridges.
“I already forgave you,” Nico said quietly, without turning around. “There’s no need to apologize.”
“But I–”
Thanatos stopped mid-sentence. Nico had not gotten taller. His feet were hovering an inch above the concrete.
“What are you?” Thanatos asked, his voice shaking.
Nico smiled, looking at him. The smile did not reach his eyes.
“I’m a sinner,” he said. “But I’ve been redeemed from that empty way of life led by my ancestors. I’ve been remade. My heart has been washed clean by the blood of Christ.”
“Huh?” Thanatos said.
“Jesus Christ died for my sins,” Nico said, speaking more slowly.
“Is he a friend of yours?”
Again, Nico smiled at him. Again, it felt fake.
“In a way, He is. If you want to talk about Him, we can do that,” he said, lifting his hands in invitation. “Whoever comes to Him shall not be driven away.”
“I wanted to talk about you,” Thanatos said. “What are you doing? What’s happened to you? I don’t understand what you’re saying.”
Nico hesitated. His eyes flicked away, and he paused as if he were listening to something that Thanatos couldn’t hear. He noticed that Nico was wearing a Bluetooth earpiece in his ear. There was a tiny blue light on it. Someone was giving him instructions on what to say.
“Who is talking to you?” Thanatos asked. “Are they hearing everything we’re saying?”
“The God I follow now is omniscient and omnipotent,” Nico said, after another very obvious pause. “He knows everything we say, think, and feel all the time.”
Thanatos gasped in horror. Surely that could not be true. If there were a god capable of that, he would have heard about it by now. And he’d thought Zeus was controlling…
“It’s not necessarily a bad thing,” Nico said, observing that he was scaring Thanatos. “I don’t think I’m explaining this well. I have some pamphlets…”
Nico was growing visibly nervous. For the first time, Thanatos saw through his facade. Nico didn’t know what to say to him, either. He was being fed lines by someone, somewhere. Without them, he was just as lost as Thanatos.
“Nico, I love you,” Thanatos blurted out. “I’m sorry. I should have known you would never hurt me. I was a bad boyfriend. I never treated you the way you deserved. I didn’t trust you. I didn’t support you as a psychopomp. I made everything about me. I suck. I don’t know how you put up with me for as long as you did.”
Nico let out a soft exhale of surprise.
He reached up and turned off his earpiece. He dropped it into his pocket.
“Than,” he said, taking a step toward him. His eyes glistened with tears. “You really feel that way?”
“I miss you so much,” Thanatos said.
Nico opened his mouth. Thanatos was certain he was going to say, ‘I miss you, too.’
He didn’t. He grimaced, flinching.
“Nico?” Thanatos asked.
Nico turned around slowly. There was a thin stiletto knife sticking out of his spine.
On the edge of the rooftop, Nemesis stood, wings outstretched, silhouetted in black against the golden moon.
“I see,” Nico said, reaching back to yank the dagger out of his spine. He shuddered, but gave no other indication that it hurt. He flicked the dagger onto the rooftop carelessly. “This was a trap.”
“Indeed,” Nemesis said, flapping her wings to hover above the roof. Her teeth glinted in a cat-like grin. “Did you really think I’d be satisfied seeing you get away after a mere six weeks of humanity? Do you think I didn’t notice you spent the whole time playing Minecraft and building Lego sets while your mommy and daddy wiped your ass and read you bedtime stories? Ethan deserved a little more vengeance than that!” She shouted shrilly.
“This is about Ethan,” Nico said. He shrugged off his suit jacket. The back of the white dress shirt he’d worn underneath was soaked with golden ichor. “That makes sense.”
“Nemesis, please leave,” Thanatos said, sensing violence on the horizon. “He has suffered enough. He was tortured by Nero. He doesn’t owe you any more vengeance than what you’ve already had.”
“Pics or it didn’t happen!” She crowed.
“Thanatos, you’ve done enough,” Nico said, pointing at him. “Back off.” He turned back to Nemesis.
She pulled out a long whip and cracked it. It was one of Gaea’s poison vines, covered in thorns. It looked painfully sharp and wicked.
“I hear you’re preaching forgiveness these days,” she said, descending to the ground and cracking the whip again as she stalked towards Nico. “Are you trying to piss me off? Revenge is sweeter than honey. It’s stronger than crack cocaine. Revenge is what makes life worth living.”
“Nico, run!” Thanatos shouted. Nemesis fought without mercy. She was known for delivering punishment with maximum prejudice.
Nico didn’t move a muscle. She lashed the whip at him.
He caught it on his arm, letting it wrap around. The thorns dug in, and ichor dripped to the concrete in a growing puddle.
She yanked on it, and the wrapped vine got tighter. The fabric of Nico’s dress shirt tore, revealing gaping wounds in his arm where the thorns had torn his flesh.
She raised another knife in her free hand.
“Come on,” she said. “Beg for mercy. I won’t stop until I hear you scream.”
Nico smiled. This time, it was real.
“Okay. You’ll have to try a little harder, though,” he said.
Enraged, Nemesis dragged the whip off of his arm, flaying off his skin in shredded pieces that hung off his exposed muscle and bone like fringe. Nico let out a sigh like… He was enjoying it?
“This is so weird,” Thanatos muttered to himself.
“I can explain,” Nico said. “It’s a funny thing, being a saint. Saint-in-training, if you want to be technical about it. Turns out, if you offer your suffering up to God, you can turn pain into ecstasy. Good deal, right?” He grinned.
It was nice to see the light back in his eyes, but Thanatos felt sick to his stomach. Was Nico’s new god really intervening directly, or was this just some new ability Nico had unlocked? What kind of freaky stuff were these saints up to?
Nico turned back to Nemesis, who looked bereft. She obviously had no plans other than inflicting pain, which was having the opposite effect of what she’d intended.
“It was nice of you to visit,” Nico said, his flayed arm dripping ichor. “This has been great. You’ve really helped me out in my spiritual career. Suffering, victimization and betrayal all look great on my saintly resume.”
Nemesis bared her teeth.
“This isn’t over,” she said.
“What made you think it was over?” Nico said. “That’s funny. Did you think I was going to let you leave?”
In an instant, Nico shadow traveled in front of her. He pressed his hand against her sternum, and a golden seal appeared in the center of her chest.
Real terror dawned on her face. She started to beat her wings to take off, but Nico grabbed her by the throat. He slammed her facedown onto the concrete rooftop, the building shuddering on foundations. A crater formed beneath her head, and ichor pooled out from under her dark spiky hair.
She spit out a tooth, groaning.
Thanatos ran to her side.
“What is that golden symbol you put on her?” He asked.
“It seals off her powers,” Nico said, lifting her head and slamming it into the concrete again. More teeth fell out. “She’ll stay nice and secure in the basement of the Vatican. And you’re not gonna do shit about it,” Nico added, smiling up at Thanatos sweetly. “Because you’re a coward. That’s all you’ve ever been.”
Thanatos’ will faltered. He loved Nico, but he didn’t want to see his sister locked away forever.
“You’re right. I’m a coward,” he said, kneeling next to Nico. “I’m not going to fight you. You’re right to be angry with her. And with me. But if you hold her captive, you won’t be able to come home. My mother won’t forgive you.”
Nemesis moaned. Nico dug his knee into her back.
“I’m not planning on coming home,” Nico said.
“But we need you,” Thanatos pleaded.
“Actually, you don’t,” Nico said. “The Greeks have plenty of psychopomps. It’s time that the Catholics had one too. This is the reason I was born. I’m meant to be here. I’m meant to do this. I’m the only one who can.”
Thanatos stared at him. He had no rebuttal. He knew what it meant to Nico to finally do what he was meant to do. He knew that he’d been the one holding him back.
Nico sighed.
“Did you know she was gonna do this?” He asked.
“Of course not,” Thanatos said.
There was a long silence between them.
“Nico,” Thanatos said quietly. “She’s awful. But she’s my little sister.”
“Hmph,” Nico grunted.
He stood, keeping a foot on Nemesis’ back.
“Since I appreciate your apology, and I did lie to you about some stuff when we were together, I will let her go,” Nico said.
“Thank you so much,” Thanatos said.
“But I’m not letting her off the hook so easily,” Nico added, grabbing hold of one of her wings. “Just because I forgave you, doesn’t mean I forgive anybody else. I want everyone back home to know exactly where I stand.”
He dug his fingers into her wing, using his other hand to grab the base. He yanked.
Nemesis let out an ear-shattering shriek of agony. Ichor spurted everywhere; Nico was drenched in it.
“No! What are you doing?” Thanatos shouted. He’d never seen anything so heinous.
Without hesitation, Nico grabbed her other wing and removed it the same way. Her scream was weaker the second time.
Nico stood, holding two enormous black feathered wings in either hand. He looked surprised at himself, and slightly proud.
Thanatos felt like he might faint. He knelt by his sister’s face. She was sobbing weakly. With Nico gone, she lifted her hand to her back and felt at the empty, jagged wounds in her back.
Thanatos pulled her into his arms. He didn’t know how to comfort her. All he could do was hold her while she screamed.
He looked up. Nico was carefully maneuvering each wing onto his back. Somehow he managed to magically attach one, and then the other.
He hopped up onto the rooftop ledge and wiggled them around a bit. Nemesis was petite, and didn’t have nearly the wingspan of her brothers. The size and shape of them suited Nico, but the sight of him wearing his sister’s body parts made Thanatos want to be sick.
Nico gazed down at the street below.
“I have no idea how to use these,” he admitted, clearly afraid to take the leap.
“Don’t ask me,” Thanatos said, shuddering. He couldn’t bear to look at him any longer. This was not the Nico he’d fallen in love with.
“No problem,” Nico said bitterly. “I’ll get Michael to teach me.”
Thanatos clenched his teeth. He had limited knowledge of the Catholic pantheon. But he knew who Michael was.
“I know what you’re thinking,” Nico said, striding over to where Thanatos was hunched over his sister protectively. “I’m being harsh. I’m being cruel. I’m taking things too far. Go ahead and think it. I’m well aware of the double standards in your pantheon. You always held me to impossible standards and let everybody else run amuck.”
“I didn’t–”
“I’m talking to you collectively. The Greco-Romans,” Nico said.
That wasn’t true. He was talking to his dad. Thanatos knew the tone.
“You used to say I was one of the nicest gods,” Nico said. “You said I was better than all of the rest of you.”
“You were,” Thanatos said. He used the past tense. The Nico that stood before him, with dark wings on his back, was not the same Nico he’d once known.
“I’d rather be a bad saint than a good god,” Nico said. “You let me down too many times. I need you to tell them that for me.”
“Okay,” Thanatos muttered.
“I never want to see you again,” Nico said.
Thanatos managed a small nod.
When he looked up, Nico was gone.
Chapter 99: Grief is Just Love with Nowhere to Go
Notes:
Posted from my family Thanksgiving. Made green bean casserole and then finished this chapter. I hope I distract you all from time with your families tonight. (Some folks might prefer fanfic to interacting with their relatives. You are seen, you are valid.)
Also, PSA to anyone who is about to get mad at me -- Nico is a gay character, he is not having a bi awakening in this chapter. All will make sense in time, just let me cook. If you made it 99 chapters, you'd better trust me by now.
I'm thankful for my readers this year. Extra thankful for kudos and commenters. You guys are amazing. <3
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“ Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned,” he said. “It’s been twelve hours since my last confession.”
Nico stared at the polished mahogany floor of the confession booth. He could sketch every knot and whorl in the wood grain from memory at this point. He’d spent way too much time confessing sins lately, but his list of sins never seemed to get any shorter.
“ Go ahead,” Saint Bartholomew said from the other side of the mesh screen.
Nico wondered what the point of the screen was when you were confessing to your boss, who knew who you were and what you looked like. Batholomew’s manner was unsympathetic enough without the farce of anonymity. Nico never felt lonelier than he did in the booth.
He’d told Bartholomew what had happened on the rooftop. Now he needed to unpack where he’d gone wrong.
“ I turned my Bluetooth off last night,” he said. “That was deceptive.”
“ Hmm,” Bartholomew said.
“ I was wrathful when I yanked out Nemesis’ wings,” he said. “I stole, too. And I hit her face on the concrete a bunch of times out of anger.”
“ That is not sin,” Bartholomew interjected. “She is a demon. A creature of darkness, a child of the pit. Use of force is unavoidable.”
“ Oh,” Nico said. Was that what Bartholomew thought he was, too? A demon? He shrunk down smaller in his seat.
“ Anything else?”
“ I lusted after my ex,” Nico said, turning red. This was humiliating, but the shame he felt was part of the process. The temptation to take Thanatos back had been brief, and ultimately unconvincing, but it had been there. That was sinful on a myriad of levels. “And I gave up on his conversion too soon. I should have tried harder.”
“ Was that due to a crisis of faith? To doubt? A lapse in commitment to the church?” The wood seat creaked as Bartholomew leaned forward, pressing his bulging lidless eye close to the screen. Nico looked away as a shudder traveled down his spine.
“ Not at all,” he insisted, feeling sweat bead on his forehead. “I just wasn’t getting anywhere. I could tell I was scaring him.”
“ Light can burn one’s eyes when one is used to the darkness,” Bartholomew said. “Is that any reason to keep it from him?”
“ No,” Nico said.
“ Shine it brighter next time,” Bartholomew said. “That may be the only way for him to see.”
Nico wasn’t sure blinding Thanatos with God’s glory was ever going to be effective, but he had his orders.
“ There is one more thing you failed to mention,” Bartholomew said.
Uh oh. Nico braced himself, digging his fingers into his thighs.
“ The demon called Nemesis was not captured,” Bartholomew said.
“ She won’t hurt anyone else, not in the condition I left her in. I thought it was the merciful thing to do,” he said.
“ You showed mercy to a demon,” Bartholomew said. “Repeat that back to me.”
“ I showed mercy to a demon,” Nico said, his voice gone quiet. The air in the booth was suffocating. He wanted to leave, but they weren’t done yet.
“ And that means?”
“ I sinned,” Nico said.
He wanted to sink into the floor, but he’d probably fall straight down into Hell.
Once, he’d wanted to visit Hell as a tourist. It had sounded like a good idea at the time. Now he realized he was so heavily laden with sin that Satan would probably have a field day with him. The saintly turn-pain-into-pleasure trick would not work for him down there. He’d asked.
He had not been joking when he’d said he was a bad saint. He was probably the worst saint ever. He’d read the Bible cover to cover, he confessed his sins every day and did whatever penance was required to gain absolution. But sin kept bubbling up like water from an underground spring. Even when he thought he was doing good, he was doing bad.
“ This is all I can remember,” he whispered, holding back tears of frustration. “I’m sorry for this and for all of my sins.”
After praying together, Bartholomew always wrapped up the session by assigning him penance. Nico didn’t breathe lately without working off a penance or two. He seemed to have an ever growing list of prayers that needed to be said, chores that needed doing, and acts of mercy to complete.
“ Your penance is as follows: One thousand Hail Marys,” Bartholomew said.
Nico winced. He already owed five hundred. The more he worked off, the bigger the penance grew, like interest added onto a debt.
“ You can take on Patli and Luz’s church chores for the next week in addition to your own,” Bartholomew continued. “Including their hospital shifts. And each prayer you receive must be answered within twenty four hours for the next month without exception.”
Bartholomew was careful not to pass judgment on Nico. He left that to God. But Nico felt his annoyance all the same through the growing severity of his penances. Nico was not progressing as well as they’d hoped. The people at the top were getting nervous. Consequently, Bartholomew was tightening the leash.
“ Isaiah 1:16?” Bartholomew said.
Nico hated pop quizzes.
“ Wash and make yourselves clean. Take your evil deeds out of my sight; stop doing wrong,” he recited.
“ The word of the Lord,” Bartholomew said.
“ Amen.”
After confession, Nico started his chores. He had to scrub every inch of the church with holy water. He had to consecrate the space in order to protect it against evil demons like himself.
He got on his hands and knees and began to scrub. He normally only did a third of the floor, but now he was doing Patli and Luz’s sections, too. He was glad they were gone for a week, visiting their followers in Peru and Mexico, respectively. They always whispered about him in Spanish as though he couldn’t understand what they were saying, even though he understood perfectly.
He scrubbed and scrubbed, reciting Hail Mary’s under his breath as he worked. If he didn’t say them on a running loop all day, he’d never work through his penance. Unfortunately, his mind kept drifting back to the night before, and he almost lost count.
He didn’t want to think about Thanatos and Nemesis. It was easier to just fill his head with Bible verses until they drowned out his feelings.
He scrubbed and prayed for what felt like hours. When he looked up, he realized he wasn’t even halfway done, and he had over a thousand Hail Marys left.
His lip started trembling. He scrubbed harder, hard enough that his hands ached. The pain was part of it, he reminded himself. Suffering was good for his soul.
He used so much force that his hand slipped, and he scratched a line into the marble with his fingernail by accident.
“ Madonna Santa,” he cursed under his breath, inspecting the scratch he’d left in the marble. He used his powers to repair it, but he could have sworn it was still noticeable.
Bartholomew was sure to notice. Damn his unbreakable demonic fingernails...
Suddenly he realized that he’d cursed aloud, referring to the very Mary he’d been hailing for the last two hours. He groaned, pressing his head against the floor in despair. Adalbert had a swear jar in his office which Bartholomew checked regularly. Taking the Lord’s name in vain was a big no-no in the Pagan Demon Rehabilitation Program. Mary’s title was a lesser offense, but not by much.
There was nothing else for it. He’d have to beg Adalbert for mercy, which he probably would not receive. When he moved to walk towards the office, though, he tripped right over the bucket of holy water and spilled it across the floor of the church.
That was the last straw.
These days, he felt like he was seconds away from crying basically all the time. For the most part, he had not given in to the urge to blubber like a giant baby. But he couldn’t hold back anymore.
He had no right to be upset. He’d known the rules when he’d signed up; no one said it was going to be easy. His sins were no one’s fault but his own.
Even so, the adjustment was proving hard to bear. In his old pantheon, you could get away with a lot. No one expected much in terms of accountability. If you did something really naughty, the gods punished you, but that was the end of it.
In Catholicism, most of your punishments came from the inside of your own mind. There were icons everywhere in Rome. Christ on the cross, Mary in a stained glass window, angels in every nook and cranny. They were always watching, always finding him wanting. There was nowhere to hide.
It was easy to feel like a good person when you were surrounded by people who were worse. Now he knew the truth; his family were demons, abominations, scourges on the earth. He was the best of them, but that meant little in the grand scheme of things. He was nothing more than a demon clawing his way out of the darkness, reaching desperately for the light.
He worried that he’d never reach it.
He was certain he didn’t deserve to.
He curled up on the floor and sobbed. He cut a pathetic figure; a former god fallen into ruin, crying in despair for his own soul. He’d acted high and mighty in an attempt to impress Thanatos, but he was not a saint, and his powers were only loaned. He was at the bottom of the Roman pile. He hoped no one from his family ever learned the truth of how he was living. It would be too humiliating to bear.
He couldn’t summon the will to scrub another inch of marble. Instead, he decided to try something he’d tried a dozen times before.
He went over to one of the niches on the side of the church. This one held a statue of Mary in her bright blue mantle, crowned with stars and holding the infant Jesus. She exuded an aura of peace, comfort, and protection.
Nico wanted to speak to her more than anyone else in his new pantheon. He really was a mama’s boy at heart, and he wasn’t ashamed of it. He needed a mom now more than ever, someone to love him unconditionally, the way he’d been assured the God did. God probably did love him, for some reason, but He wasn’t the most approachable of figures.
He knelt before Mary’s altar and prayed.
“ Blessed Mother,” he said. “Please. I need help. I know I don’t merit an audience, but if you could send a sign, it would mean a lot right now.”
He knelt and said more Hail Marys, over and over until he felt them overlapping in his mind, until the words ceased to mean anything and became mere sound.
She didn’t answer.
Feeling hopeless, he trudged back to his office. That meant he had to walk past Adalbert, which meant–
“ Another coin in the blasphemy jar today!” Adalbert announced cheerfully from behind his stack of unending paperwork. “Bartholomew will not be pleased!”
“ I’m not in the mood, Adalbert,” Nico said. “Look, do you know the reason why Mary won’t return my calls? Would it kill her to say hi?”
“ Watch your tone,” Adalbert warned. “Our Lady is precious to our hearts, and you are still considered a security risk. We are grateful for what you did to Nero, but it will take time for ‘high-profile assassination’ to not be the first thing that comes to mind when we think of you.”
“ I guess if I was Jesus, I wouldn’t want me near my mom, either,” Nico said.
“ I did not mean–” Adalbert huffed. “She does not fear you, Nico di Angelo, any more than a lioness would fear a slug. I don’t presume to know what goes on in the mind of the Queen of Heaven, but I am sure she has her reasons for making you wait. Perhaps you are meant to learn a lesson in patience?”
“ Uh huh. Sure,” Nico said, stalking into his office and slamming the door behind him.
‘ Patience, patience, patience’ was all anybody around here could offer him. He could not remain patient forever. Every day his sense of self was worn down further, soon to be nothing more than a tiny nub of an identity. Maybe that was the intent.
He logged into his computer and clicked through to his prayer portal, which looked a lot like Microsoft Outlook. Alone in his tiny shoebox office, he was always tempted to sleep. Of all the things he had to deny himself, he craved sleep most. No sleep meant no breaks, ever. He’d even scribbled ‘no rest for the wicked’ onto a Post-It note and stuck it to his computer screen so he wouldn’t slip up and take a catnap.
He only had one worshiper– venerator, he mentally corrected himself. He always got those mixed up. Saints were not worshiped, only venerated. The two verbs supposedly meant vastly different things. It was funny how, in practice, they looked and felt exactly the same.
Maria Bova prayed to him daily. Her requests filled his inbox. ‘Nico, please let me have enough milk in the jug for this recipe,’ she’d prayed that morning. ‘Nico, I can’t find my keys! Can you ask Saint Anthony to ask God to help me find them?’ ‘Nico, I miss you, call me! Also I think I’m coming down with a cold!!! Help!!!’
She was clingy, but he wouldn’t have it any other way. Without her, he wouldn’t be on this crazy quest for sainthood. She was his reason. She was also his only friend.
He headed over to her apartment, waiting in the hallway and knocking. She didn’t answer, so he knocked again. Nothing.
For a moment, he thought he saw someone move out of the corner of his eye. He spun around, surveying the landing and peering down the stairway. The hall was poorly lit, with a single lightbulb swinging overhead, and there was trash and dust piled in the corners. He hoped it was merely a rat and not one of her sketchy neighbors being creepy.
He pressed his ear to the door and heard the shower running. That was good; he’d be able to knock out her requests without getting drawn into conversation. He was tempted to pour out his troubles to her sympathetic ear, but he ought to focus on work.
He walked through the door and into the kitchen, where he filled her milk jug, located her keys among the couch cushions, and put a box of cold medicine on her counter.
“ Jesus Christ!” He heard her shout from the hallway.
He glanced up, and then turned away quickly, covering his eyes. She’d just walked into her kitchen. Naked.
“ Not Jesus. Just me,” he said, trying to make light of it.
She ran away to grab a towel, and he tried to get ahold of himself before she came back. He felt his face heating up, which was stupid. Women weren’t normally his cup of tea. And he wasn’t even allowed to drink tea anymore anyway, so it shouldn’t matter. Why was he getting all flustered?
“ I am so embarrassed,” she said, walking back into the kitchen in her bathrobe.
“ Don’t be. It’s your apartment. I should have said something.”
They were both beet red. This situation should not have been half as awkward as it was. Something was definitely wrong with him. Maybe abstinence was messing with his head.
“ I fixed your jug,” he stuttered. “I mean, I refilled the milk like you asked.”
“ Thanks,” she said.
“ Your keys are in your clothes. I mean your purse. They’re in your purse. Sorry,” he said, glancing at the wall so that he had something to look at other than her face. She had a print of Leonardo da Vinci’s Madonna Litta on her wall. Mary had her boob out in the painting. Not that that was relevant.
Nico had to try to remember whether he’d hit his head on something recently. He felt like he was losing his mind. He’d been gay since before he even knew the word for it. Something was definitely wrong with him.
“ Can I get you anything?” Maria asked.
“ No. Just stopped by to answer your prayers,” he said.
“ Everything alright? How is your saintly training?” She asked, beckoning him over to sit beside her on the couch. She was trying to force the situation to be normal, which he appreciated.
“ Not great,” he said. “I feel guilty about everything all the time.”
“ Welcome to Catholicism,” she shrugged.
“ I need more positive reinforcement. Just a tiny bit,” he said. “Enough to feel like I’ve made progress.”
“ You’re doing great,” she said, smiling at him radiantly. “You look more saintly every time I see you.”
“ I don’t feel saintly,” he said. “I feel like a sinner.”
“ Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future,” she said.
He smiled in spite of his sadness. Maria always knew what to say when he was feeling down.
“ Did you get new earrings?” She asked.
He reached up to touch them. Two tiny wings dangled from his ears. He hadn’t worn Nemesis’ wings since the night before. He hadn’t had time to practice using them.
He grinned.
“ Want to see something cool?” He asked Maria. He couldn’t wait to see her reaction.
He stood up and began to unbutton his shirt.
He didn’t strictly need to take his shirt off to put the wings on. He could just rip the back of the shirt open. But part of him wanted to show off for her, and that part won, even though he knew he was being incredibly stupid.
She watched in awed silence as he turned the earrings into black wings and attached them to his back.
“ What do you think?” He asked, flexing.
“ You live up to your name,” she whispered, transfixed by the sight of him. “You look like an angel. Where did they come from?”
“ Long story,” he said, opening and closing them, trying to get used to the feeling. “I haven’t used them yet.”
“ Why not?” She said.
“ Not sure, really… I’ve always liked the earth under my feet. In fact, I like it over my head, too. Flying around in the sky doesn’t appeal to me.”
Wow, he thought. Not only did Maria look bored, he was boring himself, too. What kind of person has wings and doesn’t use them?
“ Would you try? Just once?” She asked.
He hesitated. He really didn’t want to.
“ For you? Of course,” he said, unable to say no to her.
They went up to the roof of her building. She lived only a few blocks from the bustling Termini train station, the hub of Roman transportation, where tourists and locals alike swarmed the surrounding streets, rolling suitcases and hailing cabs in every direction.
“ Can I take a picture?” She asked. “You just look so hot-- I mean cool. You look cool,” she corrected herself quickly.
“ Sure,” he said. If there was one thing to be said for AI, it was that nobody gave a crap if pictures of supernatural phenomena leaked anymore. “Post them on your Discord for all I care. Get me a few more prayers.”
She took photos while he stared over the ledge and tried to work up the courage to jump. How did Thanatos do this so easily? It would take a leap of faith, only he didn’t have any. Not in himself. Not anymore.
“ You can do it!” Maria shouted.
He took a deep breath and jumped off the roof, bracing for an inevitable impact with the ground.
He managed to glide to the next rooftop over, but he arced downward at a steep pitch the whole time. He was going to have to flap in order to get back up to Maria’s roof. He didn’t know how to flap. He had to figure it out in midair, which nearly gave him a panic attack.
Maria filmed the whole experiment. He careened over the street, coming way too close to the ground for comfort. He forgot to account for the wind, and a narrow alley between two buildings found him caught in an unexpected updraft that sent him soaring upwards. Before he knew it, he was circling above the train station, where thousands of heads turned upwards to look at him.
There were a lot of phones pointed his way. That was probably not good.
He managed to flap his way back to Maria. When he touched down onto solid roof again, he was trembling from head to toe.
“ How did I do?” He asked, wobbling.
“ Um. Good?” she said.
“ Lying is a sin, Maria,” he said, putting his hand on his hip. “Be honest. Did I look stupid?”
“ You know when baby birds get pushed out of their nests the first time,” she said. “And they’re cute and scruffy, and they flap as hard as they can, but they just barely land without killing themselves?”
“ Yes?”
“ You looked slightly more elegant than that.”
He couldn’t bear to watch the video she’d taken. How did Thanatos and his siblings make it look so effortless?
He and Maria sat on the rooftop beside each other, watching the world pass by below.
“ People saw you,” she said, pointing at the train station. It was hard to make out whether the commotion outside was anything out of the ordinary for such a busy place.
“ There are measures in place,” he said, thinking of the mist. “They won’t think anything of it.”
“ If you say so,” she said, scrolling through her photos on her phone.
He stared at her while she wasn’t looking. There was always such a warmth to her, like her heart was on fire. People were drawn to her sincerity, but a lot of them were driven away again by her intensity. She didn’t do anything by half-measures. Nico loved that about her.
He really should stop thinking about her like that. Things were getting weird.
“
I sent new songs to my label last week,” she said.
“That’s great!” Nico said. Among many other things, she’d been praying for a second chance at a big break. He hadn’t worked out how to make it happen yet.
“ Unfortunately, they weren’t interested. They like my voice, but they don’t think I have the stage presence to be a solo artist. They suggested I join a band. I guess I’m not good enough on my own,” she sighed.
“ A band could be cool,” he said. “Why not try?”
“ Nico, I’m a religious nutjob cat lady who cries about her mom every day, and my only friend is a saint. I’m the opposite of sex, drugs, and rock and roll. No band would want me.”
Nico pursed his lips, thinking. Maria had a point. She dressed like she was seventy. She only listened to opera music. She kept bringing home cats she found under dumpsters. As a singer, she’d managed to pull off an Adele vibe– maybe more Susan Boyle than Adele, to be honest. But her label wanted her in a group.
“ You have the voice of an angel,” he said. “The world needs to hear it. I’ll find you a band.”
“ Really?”
“ Really,” he said. “But you need to do your part, too.”
She twisted a piece of her hair around her finger, thinking it over. He had to turn to face the other direction, clenching his teeth.
Why was she having this effect on him? His heart was pounding. Even a gesture as innocent as playing with her hair was making him think sinful thoughts. If he was sitting on a rooftop with Jacob Elordi or Paul Mescal? Now that would make sense.
But Maria Bova? Sweet, innocent little Maria? What the fuck was wrong with him?
On the building across the street, he caught a glimpse of movement. Again, it was only the slightest flash of something, but he knew there was somebody watching him. Maybe Thanatos was stalking him. That would be in character, he thought angrily. Maybe he wanted the wings back. Well, he wasn’t getting them anytime soon.
“ I’ll ask my boss for help,” she said. “The bar has live music all the time. Maybe she’ll know of a group looking for a vocalist.”
Nico nodded enthusiastically, but on the inside, his heart sank. He wanted Maria to quit that job, but she liked it too much, and he didn’t have the heart to ruin it for her.
The problem was, she worked for Ariadne.
He headed over to his first shift at the hospital. He knew that his mere presence wasn’t going to encourage the patients there to drop dead ahead of schedule, but he still felt a bit paranoid that he didn’t belong. Doctors despised everything he stood for. Apollo and Hygeia had made that very clear when he’d met them in the Sanctuary of Asclepius.
The Fatebenefratelli Hospital was across the street from the Basilica di San Bartolomeo all’Isola, so it was a short commute. Once he crossed the threshold, his job was to answer the prayers of those within. Healing was beyond his capability, but he could refill ice chips and warm up blankets.
He walked the halls invisibly. The hospital interior was the same as most other hospitals– cold, sterile, and brightly lit. The beeping machines and constant alarms were irritating, and there was an unpleasant chemical scent in the air. This was not a chore he relished doing.
The first prayer came within a few minutes. One of the nurses had forgotten her phone charger, and she prayed that her battery would last all day. Nico walked over and refilled the charge when she wasn’t looking.
His mood began to lift. He walked around the hospital, answering one prayer after another. An old woman was in misery. She was recovering from surgery and could barely move, but one of her socks had rolled down and felt weird. She couldn’t reach to fix it on her own, but she didn’t want to bother the nurses with her request. She prayed to God to give her strength to endure it.
Nico went in and rolled her sock back into place. She nearly wept with relief when she realized it was fixed.
Nico couldn’t stop smiling. His old pantheon had never given him work like this to do. It felt good to help people. Why didn’t the gods do more random acts of kindness? They seemed to prefer making people miserable.
Maybe being a saint wasn’t so bad, he thought. He could get used to this.
His next prayer wasn’t so simple. Someone just kept saying ‘Help me,’ with no further information given.
Nico headed straight to the source of the SOS. It was an exam room in the gynecological wing. He knew he would probably be out of his depth in that area, but he had to try.
“ Please try to stay calm,” a man was saying inside an exam room. A young woman, the one Nico was looking for, was audibly crying inside.
He went inside the exam room, crossing his fingers that everyone inside was fully clothed. Seeing one naked woman that day had already done a number on him; he didn’t need to see another.
The sight inside the room was bleak. The doctor, a tall man with glasses and a gray beard, was standing awkwardly to one side as a mother and daughter whispered to each other. The daughter was crying, and her mother was chastising her.
“ You’ve shamed our family enough,” her mother said harshly. “You have to pay the price for your sins.”
She looked up at the doctor.
“ What is the next step, Dottore?”
“ Prenatal appointment,” he said. “You can schedule at the front desk.”
The woman dragged her daughter up by the arm and led her out the door forcefully.
Nico knew exactly how that girl felt. It sucked to disappoint your parents, but it was worse when your parent was a jerk. You felt bad for not being a good kid, but you also knew your jerky parent didn’t deserve a good kid. So you shouldn’t have to feel bad, but you felt bad anyways. How was that fair?
Before Nico could do anything, the doctor began to move frantically. The very moment the girl and her mother stepped out the door, he scribbled a note on a slip of paper and folded it up. Then he hurried out into the hallway.
“ One moment,” the doctor said. “I forgot to shake your hands.”
He stopped and shook the hands of both the mother and the daughter.
“ That’s polite of you,” the mother said. “Have a good day, dottor de Medici.”
“ You, too,” he said.
Nico had watched him very carefully. The doctor had slipped the piece of paper into the girl’s hand.
Her silent mental prayers for aid immediately stopped. Interesting…
Nico followed the doctor down the hall, becoming visible just as the doctor walked into his office. He stuck his foot in the door before it could shut.
“ What did you just do?” Nico asked aloud.
The doctor jumped halfway out of his shoes. The poor man looked so frightened by Nico that he had to double check that he’d remembered to remove his wings. They were dangling safely from his ears. That meant that either the doctor had a phobia of tailored suits, or he knew he’d been busted.
The doctor took off his glasses. His hands shook as he polished them on the hem of his white coat.
“ Whatever you are going to do to me,” he said quietly. “Please make it quick. I have surgery at 11:30.”
“ I just asked you a question,” Nico said.
The doctor put his glasses on and looked Nico up and down.
“ I don’t recognize you,” he said. “Are you new?”
Nico frowned.
“ You know what I am?”
“ I recognize the uniform,” the doctor said. “This is not a normal hospital,” he added in response to Nico’s surprise.
“ Oh. Cool,” Nico said, happy to drop the pretense. He had been so intrigued by the weird subterfuge he’d witnessed that he hadn’t come up with a good cover story anyways. “Yes, I’m a new saintly trainee. This is my first day on hospital duty,” he said proudly.
“ Congratulations,” the doctor said. “Welcome. My motto is ‘embrace the chaos’. You’ll find the most prayers coming from the NICU unit. You may want to focus your energies there.”
“ Oh, okay. Was that down the left– Wait a second!” Nico said, waggling his finger. “You’re trying to distract me. The note. What was it?”
The doctor heaved a sigh that sounded far too tired for a man of his years. He sat in his chair with a thump, toying with a stethoscope on his desk.
“ That girl came in to confirm a pregnancy. She wanted an abortion, and I had to deny her one. That’s why she was upset.”
Nico regretted asking. This was a depressing subject.
“ Why would she even bother asking for that? She must know this is a Catholic hospital.”
“ She was frightened. She’s only fourteen,” the doctor said sadly. “She wasn’t thinking straight.”
“ That sucks,” Nico said, not sure what else to say. “She’ll have to go somewhere else, then. Did you write the name of a secular hospital? I’m not going to turn you in for that. She would have just Googled it anyway.”
The doctor nodded, but something wasn’t adding up.
“ What was really on the paper?” Nico asked, narrowing his eyes.
The doctor threw his hands in the air.
“ This country drives me crazy sometimes,” he said, losing his composure. “Abortion is legal, but the social pressure against it is intense. Many doctors won’t perform it, and it’s only done in certain hospitals. In this girl’s case, since she’s under eighteen, she needed her mom’s permission.”
“ She didn’t get it,” Nico said, his heart sinking.
“ Of course not. Her mother is a good Catholic woman. And babies are blessings. Gifts from God,” he said, scoffing. “If that’s true, then what is her mother upset about? Shouldn’t she be happy? Call me crazy, but I doubt that poor girl is going home to celebrate.”
Nico sat down in the chair across from the doctor. He knew there was probably a perfect answer for why the church was right and the doctor was wrong. And yet, he couldn’t come up with anything to say. He obviously wasn’t a very good saint.
“ The paper was a phone number for a contact of mine that performs illegal abortions,” the doctor said, rubbing his eyes with the heels of his hands. “Go ahead. You caught me. Drag me to Hell.”
Nico really didn’t want this doctor to get dragged to Hell. But he’d witnessed a crime, both legally and spiritually. Now he was put in an awkward position.
“ It’s my first day,” Nico said guiltily. “I’m trying to become a saint here. I kind of need to turn you in.”
“ I understand,” the doctor said sadly.
Nico kept thinking about Hazel. She was close to that girl’s age. He’d want somebody to give her a choice, too.
But Hazel wasn’t Catholic. She wasn’t going to burn in Hell forever if she broke the rules. If that girl got an abortion, she might. And she very well could drag Nico and this doctor down there with her if Nico didn’t intervene.
Nico chewed on the inside of his mouth. What was he supposed to do in this situation? Yank the paper out of her hands? Preach to her about how human life was sacred? Turn this doctor in to the authorities? None of those felt like the kind thing to do, but Catholicism was not a religion for wimps. He was learning that more and more every day.
The doctor seemed to sense his internal struggle.
“ Perhaps,” the doctor said cautiously. “This is a test of faith.”
Nico’s head shot up.
“ What do you mean?” He asked, seizing on an explanation that would make his choice easier.
“ Maybe the reason I felt compelled to give her that paper was God working through me,” the doctor said. “Perhaps her faith is being tested.”
Nico mulled that one over.
“ Okay, I can see that,” he said. “Maybe if she decides to keep the baby on her own terms, she’ll feel empowered by making her own choice? Maybe she can turn it into some kind of pro-life testimony and she’ll live religiously ever after? I bet God would love that!”
“ Sure,” the doctor said.
“ Unless it was Satan that made you give her the paper. Doesn’t he do stuff like that? Tempting good people to sin?” Nico said, flopping back in the chair dejectedly. “I don’t know, man. It’s my first day.”
Doctor de Medici smiled at him.
“ I don’t know much about sainthood,” he said. “But as a physician, I’ve faced my share of moral quandaries. Rarely is the right answer ever spelled out clearly. There are always shades of gray.”
“ Right,” Nico said.
As he spoke the words of agreement, he felt suddenly that he’d made the wrong choice. There weren’t really any shades of gray to the situation. There were just rules. Rules he was not following because they didn’t feel right.
A good Catholic would have a rote answer for an issue as morally perilous as this one. They wouldn’t see it as a gray area. Nico’s judgment was obviously compromised. He couldn’t trust himself, he was still too sinful and demonic.
“ Abortions do fail sometimes,” the doctor said. “God could intervene, if it’s so important to him.”
“ Stop,” Nico said. “You’re not helping.” This doctor obviously sensed his weak faith and was taking advantage, leading his thinking in the direction that suited him. The problem was, Nico wanted to believe him.
“ God help us,” Nico muttered, meaning the remark quite seriously. “This might be a big mistake. But let’s see what she decides. If she doesn’t go through with it, then this isn’t worth arguing about.”
“ And if she does?” The doctor asked, raising his eyebrows.
“ Then I’ll see you in Hell, dottor de Medici,” Nico said. “And we will not be friends down there!”
“ Call me Alessio,” the doctor said, smiling apologetically. “I’m sorry you were dragged in. It wasn’t my intention to make your job harder, mister saint-in-training.”
“ I guess you were just doing what you thought was right,” Nico said. His heart was heavy. The doctor seemed like a good person. Just not the right kind of good. “But you need to work in a secular hospital if you can’t follow our rules. This place is under constant saintly surveillance.”
“ What can I say,” Alessio said wryly. “I’m attached to this place.”
Nico had initially clocked Alessio as an old man, but now he could see that he was really only middle aged. He looked like he’d gone prematurely gray and needed to sleep more.
Oh, man. He shouldn’t have thought about sleep. Nico was tired down to the fabric of his soul.
Alessio’s pager beeped.
“ Someone is coding,” he said, scrambling to his feet and rushing to the door.
“ They’re not gonna make it,” Nico said, following him.
Alessio glanced back at him.
“ How do you know that?”
“ Because I just do,” Nico grinned.
Alessio de Medici frowned at him. Then he started running, seemingly determined to prove him wrong.
Nico laughed, hurrying after him. A good death was a surefire way to cheer him up.
He became invisible, following him into the patient’s room. It was crowded with other doctors and nurses, but as soon as Alessio walked in, they backed off. He took command of the room, running his hands over the patient’s body, asking the nurses urgent questions about his medical history.
Nico noticed that Alessio was very physical. He got close to the old man, listening to his heart by putting his ear against the patient’s thin, bony chest, checking his breath by holding a hand in front of their mouth. Heart rate and respiration data were displayed on a screen right next to the patient, but de Medici was old school.
Nico was reminded of Will with a sudden pang of nostalgia. He wondered if he was learning to do this same stuff in med school.
Old school, new school, whatever you wanted to call it, none of the doctor’s tricks worked when your time was finally up. The patient’s heart stopped, and Alessio began CPR.
What took Nico by surprise was how long Alessio kept trying to revive the patient. His colleagues offered to take turns, and others opined that they should call time of death, but Alessio didn’t seem to hear them. He stared at the patient, manually pumping the old man’s heart, trying to force him back into life through sheer force of will.
He set a record for the longest CPR Nico had ever witnessed, at least on an adult. Nico saw a lot of CPR, so that record was no easy feat; Alessio had gone red in the face with exertion, and looked more exhausted than he had before.
As Nico finally collected the patient’s soul, he felt a strange sensation of relief. For a second there, he’d really thought that doctor de Medici was going to bring the patient back to life. It was as if Alessio himself had believed it enough that Nico had started to believe, too.
It was normal for doctors to be upset when they had to call time of death, although they typically held it together. De Medici was visibly furious, and his colleagues went deadly silent around him. He stormed back to his office in a rage and slammed the door so hard that the building shook.
Nico decided not to gloat about winning. It felt unsportsmanlike. Death always won, after all. He’d never really had a chance.
He headed back to his office, finding a missed email from Maria blinking on his computer screen. She’d prayed that he’d join her at a rock concert that evening, saying she was too scared to go alone.
As prayer requests went, that was a tempting one. A concert would be a great way to take his mind off his problems. But if he wanted to do it, that meant it was probably sinful. That was the way things usually worked around here.
Nico poked his head out of his office.
“ Adalbert?” He called out.
“ Mhm?” Adalbert said, buried in paperwork as always.
“ What do the rules say about concerts?”
“ We don’t have a specific policy against–”
“ Cool, thanks!” Nico said, turning to leave immediately.
“ Not so fast!” Adalbert said. “Concerts in general might be permissible, but some forms of music encourage sin. Secular music is risky in that regard. I do not think you can afford to take risks right now.”
Nico wilted. No, he really couldn’t. Adalbert was right, he needed to stay pure.
But being told no caused him to realize just how badly he wanted to go to the concert. Every second spent sitting in church, reading and scrubbing and praying, was crushing his will to live. He wanted to feel like a living, breathing creature, not just a machine designed to work and suffer and feel guilty.
“ It’s actually a–”
He stopped himself mid-sentence. He had nearly said, ‘It’s a Christian music concert.’
That would have been a huge mistake. God always knew when you were lying, and so did saints. He was horrified by how close he’d come to disaster.
God, he was awful. Broken and bad and riddled with sin.
He took a breath, understanding that truth was his only option.
“ I only have one person praying to me right now. A young woman named Maria,” Nico said.
“ It was mentioned in your file,” Adalbert said. “She is distinguished in her faith. What about her?”
“ She wants to sing. Her music is going to glorify god, big time. But her label won’t let her release another album unless she has a band. We’re just going to the concert to find band members for her.”
“ Why didn’t you say so?” Adalbert said. “That’s fine. Just leave if you feel the hand of Satan pawing at you from the crowd. Keep your eyes and ears fixed on the Most High. And keep Maria safe from demonic influence.”
“ Of course!” Nico said, vastly relieved. He went to get changed, thinking of how close he’d come to a major mistake. It was like he’d forgotten that he and Adalbert were supposed to be on the same side.
He felt guilty– or rather, he felt guiltier than usual. His instinct had been to lie, and that was sinful. He had some sins that were an inevitable result of his upbringing, but he couldn’t blame this one on the pagans. His dad had done everything in his power to get Nico to be honest with him. Nico had never complied. He’d always kept secrets.
A dark, uncomfortable feeling twisted in his stomach. He always told himself he was here now because his old pantheon had let him down too many times. That was true, but he’d never considered that he’d failed, too, in his own way. If he’d learned this lesson a little sooner, and taken the risk of being honest with his father, maybe he wouldn’t be here now.
Nico dismissed those thoughts from his mind as nonsense. Hades was a demon of the highest order. His love had been polluted with selfishness. Nico didn’t need to settle for imperfect love from imperfect people. He had God now.
He distracted himself from his troubled thoughts by putting on ripped jeans and a leather jacket over a band shirt. Wearing suits all the time made him claustrophobic, and he felt more like himself in a slightly edgy look. Regrettably, this disguise was only temporary for the sake of fitting in at the concert. Apparently Doc Martens didn’t bring glory to God. Go figure.
He met Maria waiting on the street outside the venue. The area was alarmingly familiar, and the glowing neon sign for Ariadne’s bar was visible only a short ways up the road. That was nerve wracking, especially when he was already being followed.
In a fit of paranoia, he magically changed his hair to be platinum blonde and altered his face just enough to look like a random human who coincidentally resembled Nico di Angelo. He wanted Maria to recognize him, just nobody else. Luckily, no one would ever suspect him of going blonde. He was basically invisible in plain sight.
They were running late, so he grabbed Maria quickly, and the two of them hurried to get spots in the crowd that weren’t too far from the stage. It was an intimate venue, an industrial warehouse converted into a small theater. The room was hot and humid and packed to the gills, and they ended up standing terribly close together. That was both a good and a bad thing.
“ I like your makeover,” Maria said. “Ow,” she muttered, as someone bumped into her.
Everyone in the crowd was dressed the way Nico was, with piercings, ripped clothes, hair dyed in unnatural colors. Maria looked wary and uncomfortable, shrinking to make herself a smaller target. Nico put his arm around her shoulders and subtly created a buffer zone around them, more concerned for her safety than he was for his own burgeoning crisis of sexuality. It wasn’t her problem, and he wouldn’t make her suffer for it.
He couldn’t shake the feeling he was being watched.
“ We should go,” she said, shouting into his ear to be heard over the roar of the crowd. “I don’t like this.”
“ You don’t have to yell. I have good hearing,” Nico said. “If you want to be a star, you need to expand your comfort zone. Give it a chance”
She relented, leaning in closer. He kept his arm around her shoulders. Maybe it wasn’t strictly necessary that he do it, but he figured it was fine. He wasn’t going to sin with her or anything. He might have been a little touch starved, but it wasn’t any deeper than that.
The energy in the crowd was boisterous, but not in a bad way. When the band came onstage, the entire room lit up.
Hell’s Bells had both style and stage presence down pat. There was a guitarist, a drummer, a bassist and a singer, all of whom wore coordinated black leather outfits and had an old-school glam rock energy that was entertaining in itself. When they started to play, that energy multiplied exponentially.
The first thing Nico thought was, wow, this blows the Eras Tour out of the water. The second thing he thought was:
Maria is joining this band.
He made the decision based on a few different factors.
Firstly, the band was great. Their songs were high-energy and complex, and they had the crowd singing along with a few despite being a local band with a small following. The audience was buzzing with excitement, and part of that stemmed from knowing they had seen Hell’s Bells before they took the world by storm.
Secondly, their lead singer was about to die.
It was pure coincidence; Maria had found the band without any precognizance of the young woman’s impending doom. The singer was a thin woman with stringy pink hair, and she stumbled across the stage with a drunken wobble.
During a slow song, Maria whispered to him.
“ I hate the name Hell’s Bells,” she said. “It’s sacrilegious and silly. But they’re good. The guitarist is incredibly talented. They all are. Other than–”
As she spoke, the lead singer appeared to forget the lyrics mid-song. She started making something up on the fly. It was not good.
“ She’s dragging them down,” Maria said sadly. The crowd was growing less hype by the second. The guitarist was growing visibly irate, but he kept playing while the bassist and guitar player exchanged frustrated glances.
Nico’s respect for the other musicians grew as they continued without missing a beat. They appeared to be clear headed and committed to giving everyone a great show.
“ I’ve seen that girl at Ari’s bar,” Maria said. “I don’t remember her name, but I know that pink hair. She takes cocaine in the bathrooms.”
“ I thought you worked day shift?” Nico asked, maybe a little more harshly than he should have. Having her work for Ariadne was tolerable, but he couldn’t stand the thought of the maenads getting their hands on Maria Bova. If anyone could drive a God-fearing woman to sin, it was them.
“ Sometimes I stay late organizing the freezer,” Maria shrugged. “I’m good with the label maker.”
They both focused on the music again. He still had his arm around her shoulders.
He wasn’t totally delusional, and this was not his first rodeo. He knew he was starting to develop a crush on her. But he’d recently been through trauma and a major life upheaval. She was the only person he’d been able to carry over from his old life into the new, and he’d been holding onto her like a drowning sailor clutches a life buoy in a storm. The crush was a fluke. It would pass if he just ignored it, as he had no choice but to do.
After the concert, the band left the stage. Another took their place, but Maria had done her research and wasn’t interested in the next show. They weren’t the only ones who’d exclusively come to see Hell’s Bells, so a decent number of people poured out onto the street at the same time.
The sidewalk was crowded, and the street was full of cabs picking people up, so Nico and Maria ducked into the nearby alleyway to talk.
“ Can you see yourself singing with Hell’s Bells?” Nico asked.
“ Are you kidding?” She snorted, leaning back against the brick wall and folding her arms across her chest. “Stop making fun of me.”
“ Give me one good reason you can’t,” Nico said.
“ They’re too cool and they scare me,” Maria said, counting on her fingers. “They already have a singer. And their band name is an affront to God. That’s four good reasons! Although I love their musicality. Their lyrics are pure poetry.”
“ Agreed,” Nico said. He wasn’t much of a modern music nerd, but he liked them. That said a lot in and of itself.
He turned and watched the band leave the venue through the back door. They didn’t have a big entourage, they were way too early in their career for that. A couple of fans hounded them for autographs, and they signed everything they were proferred graciously, with thanks. Maria watched them approvingly.
“Excuse me,” someone said, tapping Maria on the shoulder. “Are you who I think you are? Maria? From Sanremo and Eurovision? I loved your album.”
“ Thank you so much for listening,” Maria said, smiling kindly. When she was happy, she glowed with a light that was almost divine, though there was technically nothing divine about her. Her little fangirl was entranced.
Nico nearly punched the air in triumph. He’d positioned them just right in the alley. Maria signed the fan’s phone case and exchanged a few kind words with the young woman, and meanwhile, Hell’s Bells’ guitarists saw it go down. Maria glanced up at him, sensing him watching, and they exchanged a nod of acknowledgment.
He looked like he might be about to walk over to introduce himself, but the pink haired singer grabbed him by the arm and dragged him away.
Nico clucked his tongue. A missed opportunity, but there would be another. He’d get Maria in that band somehow.
“ Oh, this is perfect!” Maria said, waving to someone on the street. “Nico, my boss is here, I’d love for you to meet her!”
Nico looked, then quickly turned his back to the road.
“ I can’t meet her,” he said through gritted teeth. “We know each other.”
“ Ari?”
“ Don’t let her see me!” he said.
“ But she’s walking this way!” Maria whispered, panicking. “I’m sorry, I--”
He sensed Ariadne’s proximity, and knew that up close, his diguise would be useless. Ariadne knew him far too well.
On impulse, he pushed Maria up against the wall and kissed her.
After a few seconds, he pulled back.
“ Is she gone?” He said quietly, keeping his head ducked down.
“ She’s going,” Maria said, watching the road. “Okay. She turned the corner.”
Nico scanned the road. Ariadne had walked off when she’d seen that Maria was busy. Mission accomplished.
He turned back. Maria had her hand over her mouth.
“ Don’t tell me that was your first kiss,” he said, feeling the cringe setting in. “I’m sorry. I didn’t know what else to do.”
“ It’s fine,” Maria said, shrugging her hair back over her shoulders. She was turning red with shame.
“ It’s not fine,” he said. “I feel awful.”
“ It didn’t mean anything,” she said. “I get it. I’m not a child, Nico. I know there could never be anything between us.”
He stared at her. She stared back.
He would have to be blind not to see that she loved him. They’d always laughed it off. Her little crush, her obsession-- she was merely human, and he was so much more-- of course she was into him, who wouldn’t be?
Then again, he hadn’t returned her feelings before. It really had been impossible for there to be anything between them. He hadn’t wanted her the same way she wanted him.
Now, though…
“ I’m going to walk home by myself,” she said, shooting him a smile of embarrassment. “I’ll see you around, Saint Nico.”
She walked down the sidewalk, moving at a brisk trot, desperate to get away from him. He didn’t blame her. He wished he could run away from himself.
What was happening to him? He ran his hands through his hair and looked up at the sky. He could have sworn he saw something up there, flying overhead.
...
“ Forgive me, father, for I have sinned,” Nico said. “It’s been twelve hours since my last confession.”
“ Let’s get this over with,” Bartholomew said.
Nico ground his teeth together, fighting back tears. He kept his eyes on the floor. Looking up at Bartholomew through the screen would make this worse than it already was.
“ I lusted after someone,” Nico said.
“ You already confessed that this morning,” Bartholomew said.
“ Someone different,” Nico said. This was torture. This made burning alive look like a picnic in the park. “A woman.”
He shuddered. It was bad enough to catch feelings for a friend totally out of the blue for no reason.
But heterosexual feelings?
God hated him. There was no other explanation.
“ Who?” Bartholomew said, in a tone that made it clear he knew exactly who it was.
“ Maria Bova,” Nico said.
Bartholomew rubbed the bridge of his nose with his fingerbones. He didn’t have a nose, so it was a weird movement, especially observed through a screen.
“ I’m not going to act on the feelings,” Nico said quickly. “I’m repressing as hard as I can.”
“ Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak,” Bartholomew recited quietly.
“ Right,” Nico said. “Also, I kissed her.”
Bartholomew slammed his hand against the thin barrier that lay between them.
“ But it wasn’t out of lust! I swear on all that’s holy,” Nico whimpered. “A demon was coming and I needed a distraction. It was a mistake, but it wasn’t that kind of mistake.”
Bartholomew knew he spoke the truth. Nico was being honest, the kiss had been dumb, but it had been justifiable in the moment. It didn’t mean anything. Someday they’d laugh about it.
Clearly the laughing wasn’t going to happen anytime soon. But eventually it would. Probably.
Until then, Nico was stuck thinking about how it had made him feel.
Something was deeply wrong with him. He’d never felt this way about a woman before. He’d never felt this way about anyone, actually. It had happened so quickly, without warning. He’d thought of Maria almost like a sister just a day earlier. Never, ever like this.
That kiss had felt like food for the starving, like water for the parched. Like being tortured for hours and having a moment of sweet relief. It had felt too good to be true.
“ I don’t plan to act on these feelings. I’m not going to throw away everything I’ve worked for. But I think I need help understanding them in order to get rid of them, because this makes no sense. I’ve known Maria for years, and until today, I only saw her as a friend.”
“ Hmm,” Bartholomew said.
“ She’s the only person praying to me! I can’t lose her, or I have no foothold here anymore. What is going on? Is God testing me?”
Bartholomew chuckled under his breath.
“ I know exactly what has happened,” he said.
Nico’s eyes widened.
“ Wait, seriously? It’s not my fault?” He asked.
“ I did not say that,” Bartholomew said.
“ Oh.”
“ Satan comes to all saints, plying us with his wicked wiles,” Bartholomew said. “He seeks to lead us away from the path of righteousness. The bodies of young women of faith are often used as vessels of sin intended to lead us into temptation. In short, this is right up his alley.”
“ He’s sabotaging me?” Nico asked.
That made complete sense. It felt as though some external force was acting on him, like a compulsion foreign to his body, dissimilar to the impulses that came naturally.
“ It seems so,” Bartholomew said, stroking his fleshy, skinless chin muscles. “It is a sign that you may have greater potential than I realized. His attention would not turn to you unless you were on the verge of a breakthrough.”
Nico’s dark and desperate mood suddenly lifted to the heavens. He could practically hear the choir singing from behind the clouds.
“ A breakthrough,” he said quietly, tears welling in his eyes. “Thank God. That’s exactly what I’ve been praying for.”
He couldn’t wait to tell Maria.
He flinched. Wow. That was probably Satan talking, trying to tempt him into going back to her apartment. This wasn’t going to be easy.
“ How do I make sure I resist successfully?” He asked.
“ Pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God,” Bartholomew said.
“ I thought you said it was Satan doing this?” Nico asked. “You’re saying it’s God’s will, too?”
“ God permits us to exercise free will,” Bartholomew said. “He is inviting you to grow by allowing you to experience this.”
“ That doesn’t seem very fair to Maria,” Nico said. He hated that she’d been dragged into this. Satan was an asshole.
Bartholomew had no response to his last remark. He wrapped up confession early, claiming he needed to meet with his supervisor and discuss what Nico had shared with him. Nico was left alone in the church.
He was thrilled to have someone else to blame. Satan had picked the wrong guy to mess with. He wanted no part of these fake, deceptive desires. He’d just shove them into a box in the back of his brain and never open it. Surely that would solve everything.
He didn’t have time to sit around and dwell on his test of will; people were dying. One in particular required his full attention.
He shadow traveled to an apartment building in Termini, not far from where Maria lived. It was shabby, run down, and it definitely had rats, but it didn’t feel like a bad place for all that. The walls of the apartment were covered in band posters, there were dishes in the sink, and musical instruments were scattered everywhere. Hell’s Bells seemed to be roommates, and they were currently gathered in their living room having an argument.
Nico sat down invisibly on top of an amp and listened to the band talk among themselves. The pink haired girl was still drunk, flopped halfway off the couch, smiling as if the argument merely amused her. The drummer was raging at her, standing in the middle of the room pointing his finger.
“ You always fuck everything up, Tizi,” he said angrily. “You make us look like a bunch of assholes who don’t care about what they’re doing.”
“ Dude, leave her alone,” The bassist said from next her on the couch. “She has anxiety.”
“ She's giving me fucking anxiety!” The drummer retorted. “I’m the drummer! It’s my job to be the weird one, and I can’t do it when she’s acting even weirder.”
“ You’re not weird enough to be the weird one, Caio,” Tizi said, smirking at him mockingly. “Leave it to those of us who are naturally gifted.”
“ Do you even want to sign with a label?” Caio asked her accusatorily. “I thought we all agreed to take this seriously. I dropped out of school for this shit.”
“ That’s not our fault,” Tizi said dismissively. “Go back if you want. I don’t care.”
The guitarist hadn’t said anything yet. He kept glancing between the three of them like he wasn’t sure whose side to take. He distracted himself by strumming a melody on his guitar absent-mindedly.
“ What do you think, Marco?” The bassist said, glancing at him.
Marco kept playing the same tune over and over.
“ I think,” he said, after a moment’s thought. “We need to look for a new singer.”
The girl called Tizi stood up suddenly.
“ You’re joking,” she said. “Right?”
“ I’m serious,” he said, not meeting her eyes.
“
No, this has to be a joke,” she said. “You’re my brother. You’re really kicking me out of the band?”
“Yes,” he said. “I am. You promised you wouldn’t let it get bad again, and then it got worse, and you won’t get help.”
“ I don’t need help,” she said.
She wasn’t wrong. She didn’t need help. She was beyond all forms of earthly help now. She had less than five minutes left to live, though she didn’t know it.
“ I started this band. It was my idea, in case you guys have forgotten. There is no Hell’s Bells without me. Break up, stay together, do what you want, but there is no band without Terezia Taviani. I’m taking a shower,” she said, glaring at them all in disgust. “When I get out, we’re never talking about this again.”
None of them looked at each other after she left the room.
“ You had to do it,” Caio said solemnly.
“ No I didn’t,” Marco said. He chucked the guitar onto the couch and went to the fridge to grab a beer. “I’m a shitty brother.”
“ She just needs to get back on meds,” the bassist said dismissively. “She’ll be fine if she just--”
“ She’s on meds,” Marco interrupted. “And she’s drinking on them. That’s why she’s fucking everything up lately. My parents want her to move back home.”
“ To Lucca? She’ll be so bored,” the bassist said.
“ I don’t know what else to do,” Marco said. Caio walked over and gave him a hug.
“ Bro,” Caio said, patting Marco’s back with a solid thump. “That’s heavy.”
“ We’re here for you, man,” the bassist said.
“ Thanks, guys,” Marco said sadly.
Nico grinned. They may have looked scary, with their piercings and leather jackets and vapes, but this group of guys practically oozed positive masculinity. He had a feeling they would be a good fit for Maria.
And there was about to be an opening for a new singer. Good timing.
Nico waited in the hallway outside the bathroom, counting down the seconds from sixty. Tizi’s time was nearly up.
He saw movement from out of the corner of his eye, and turned to see someone he’d hoped never to see again.
“ You motherfucker,” he muttered under his breath.
Thanatos walked down the hall like he owned the place, striding to where Nico stood in front of the bathroom door.
“ I’ve got a right to be here,” Thanatos said, settling into the spot right across from him, leaning up against the wall.
“ The hell you do,” Nico spat. “She’s Catholic. That means she’s mine.”
“ Debateable,” Thanatos muttered.
Nico was fuming. Thanatos was the last person wanted to see. He was ruining a perfectly good death, and Nico had really needed a pick-me-up after the day he’d had.
“ Is it not enough that you’ve been stalking me?” Nico hissed at him. “You’ve got to mess with my work, too?”
Thanatos looked at him in surprise.
“ I haven’t been--”
A thud came from inside the bathroom. Nico and Thanatos both leapt for the door at once, but Nico got inside first.
Tizi had spilled conditioner on the floor of the shower. She’d slipped and fallen onto the marble floor of the tiny bathroom, striking her head on the side of the sink on her way down. The porcelain had been unforgiving. There was a growing pool of blood spreading across the tile.
Nico pounced on her body and extracted her soul in a single swift movement, clutching it against his chest. Thanatos jumped onto his back and reached over him, smacking Tizi in the face in an effort to take her soul.
“ I already got it, dumbass!” Nico said, wriggling out from under him. “You’re pathetic.”
“ I know I am!” Thanatos said. “What else am I supposed to do, just let you humiliate me? Do you realize how many you’re been taking? It’s way more than your fair share.”
Nico grinned. Catholics made up 17.7% of the world’s population, but they made up a far greater proportion of Thanatos’ clientele. He had slowly worked up to taking a very big piece of the pie, and he was glad his efforts had been noticed.
“ It’s exactly my fair share,” Nico said triumphantly. “You can choke on it. Fuck you.”
“ We’re soulmates,” Thanatos said, reaching out for him. Nico scooted backwards, avoiding contact with him. “We’re not meant to be in competiton.”
“ Too late. I declare war,” Nico said, placing Tizi in his pocket. Seeing the look of alarm on Thanatos’ face thrilled him. He wished he could be a fly on the wall on Olympus right now. Did they know about him? Did they fear him? He knew it was better to stay out of it, but he was so curious. “Not war on the whole pantheon,” he clarified, and Thanatos relaxed a little. “Just you. If you think this is humiliating, wait and see. I’ll prove who’s the better psychopomp.”
Thanatos drew himself up, dusting off his mantle.
“ Good luck with that,” he said archly. “You’ll need it. I’ve been doing this a long time, you know.”
“ Time to retire,” Nico said, stepping up to him and staring him in the face.
Thanatos backed off, intimidated. His eyes were just as bright and golden as always, but his expression, the way he looked at Nico, was completely new.
He couldn’t believe it had taken this long for Thanatos to finally respect him. It was one of the most gratifying moments of his life.
“ Time for you to retire,” Thanatos mumbled.
“ What was that?”
“ Nothing,” Thanatos said. “I have to go.”
“ That’s what I thought.”
“ I’ll see you around,” Thanatos shot back over his shoulder. “Soulmate.”
Nico gritted his teeth. No matter what happened, they were part of each other. Of course Thanatos had to remind him of that fact as a little parting gift. What a jerk.
Thanatos disappeared. Good riddance, Nico thought, turning back to Tizi. Her pink hair was matted with blood. The shower was still running, and her bandmates hadn’t realized anything was wrong. They wouldn’t check on her for a while.
Nico might have stayed to watch, but Marco was Tizi’s brother, and it wasn’t easy for Nico to watch other people go through the experience that had once broken him. He might not be human anymore, but some things were unforgettable.
Before he left, he put a business card on the floor of Tizi’s room, where Marco was likely to see it later. He expected a call soon.
The next day was typical; prayers, chores, studies, and a clinic rotation. He watched Alessio at work, but nothing untoward happened. He was just a good doctor, and a really nice man.
He didn’t hear from Maria. Not one single prayer hit his inbox for three days. He hoped she was okay. She was probably just praying to someone else. Which was fine. She was allowed to do that, he wasn’t jealous. What kind of saint was jealous of other saints? That would be ridiculous. He totally didn’t mind. Much.
He attended Terezia's funeral later that week. He had to go to a small town called Lucca to attend, a stunning Tuscan gem of a town perched next to the Ligurian sea. The funeral mass was long and choked with incense; Marco and Tizi’s parents were devout, and devastated beyond description at their daughter’s sudden death.
The drummer, Caio, and the bassist, whose name was Leonardo, sat right behind Marco throughout the funeral mass reassuring him with their presence. Nico watched from a distance, wondering how his life might have been different if he'd had friends like that when Bianca had died. He’d been a little human boy at Camp Half-Blood, navigating the depths of grief alone. Some campers had tried to befriend him, but he’d struggled to get close to anyone. When Percy had brought the news of her death, Nico had felt completely alone in the world. He’d had no one to turn to. He’d run off to the Underworld, and the rest was history.
What would life be like if he’d remained a demigod? The fates had spun a divine thread for him, so he supposed there was no other life he might have led. That was his fate. Some things happened because they had to happen. That was the reason Bianca had died. It was the reason Tizi was gone, too. But that didn’t stop it from hurting.
While he listened to the comforting chant of the priest, he took Tizi’s soul from his pocket and held it in his hands. He would need to turn her in to Michael eventually, but it was hard to get their schedules aligned for a hand-off. They were still working out the kinks in their new system, but they’d get it figured out eventually.
A woman slid into the pew beside him. It took him a moment to realize she'd sat very close to him without actually encroaching on his space. Almost as if she could see him.
She had a little black hat with a veil that obscured her face. He wondered whether this was Santa Muerte again, his old funeral buddy from Texas. She had a similar aura to the one he remembered, one that spoke of power, of love, of life and death entwined.
As he observed her curiously, she turned to look at him.
His jaw dropped.
This couldn’t be happening. He wasn’t ready. He would never be ready.
“ Hi,” he said weakly.
“Hi,” said Persephone.
Chapter 100: Divine Visitation
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Nico blinked a few times, praying he was just seeing things. There was no way the queen of the Underworld was sitting next to him in church desperately trying to make eye contact with him.
A quick glance around the pews told him that no one at the funeral was disturbed by Persephone’s presence. No one except Nico, anyway. He tensed his shoulders and dug his fingernails into the tops of his thighs, bracing himself for a very difficult interaction.
“Nico,” she whispered, reaching her hand out toward him hesitantly. Teardrops welled in her warm brown eyes, threatening to fall at any moment as she watched him reverently. His stomach lurched with guilt. He’d tried not to think about what his absence would have meant to her, but the pain he had caused was impossible to ignore now that she was beside him.
Persephone showed no sign of resentment. In fact, her expression spoke of nothing but a radiant love, the kind he’d been looking for in the faces of beatific blue-mantled statues over the past weeks.
It was no wonder Mary had never responded to him. She was never the one he really wanted.
Persephone’s outstretched hand came perilously close to touching his wrist, her fingertip hovering just above his hand. He gritted his teeth, and pulled his hand an inch to the left, keeping his eyes at the front of the church.
In his peripheral vision, he saw Persephone’s eyebrow twitch. She leaned over a little further and slammed her hand right on top of his, squeezing it so tightly that he couldn’t pull away.
He should have been annoyed, but Nico’s mouth quirked up at the edges in spite of himself. For a second, he just savored her presence again, the sun-warm touch of her hand, and the scent of flowers that surrounded her.
But it couldn’t last. He wasn’t allowed this reunion.
“Persephone,” he said, lowering his head as if he was deep in prayer. He didn’t want anyone to think he was speaking to her if they saw his mouth moving. “You shouldn’t have come.”
She let go of his hand suddenly. She looked at him differently, like she was searching his skin for seams where someone else wore his face like a ski mask. Her eyes grew cold and dark. It happened so quickly that it made the warm, glowing goddess from a moment earlier seem like an illusion. Even the flower tucked behind her ear wilted.
“Since when do you call me Persephone?” She asked, her voice a hard whisper. “What happened to ‘mom’?”
Nico’s heart felt like a cinderblock in his ribcage.
“You’re going to get me in trouble,” he said, turning to face the front. He tried to steady himself by grabbing a Bible from the little shelf behind the pew in front of him. Surely he’d find some guidance within its pages, some words of wisdom to help him.
Nico read from the gospel of Mark, “The next day as they were leaving Bethany, Jesus was hungry. Seeing in the distance a fig tree in leaf, he went to find out if it had any fruit. When he reached it, he found nothing but leaves, because it was not the season for figs. Then he said to the tree, "May no one ever eat fruit from you again".”
He didn’t find this helpful. Ironically, it sounded like something Persephone would do when she was in one of her more petulant moods. He shut his Bible and stared at the altar up front. Tizi’s casket sat nearby, and the priest was swinging incense around in a censer. Grey wafting plumes of incense smoke filled the air at the front of the church. The priest was swinging like he was getting paid by how many times he made the people in the front row cough.
Persephone reached over and yanked the Bible out of Nico’s hands fiercely, tossing it onto the floor in the middle of the aisle.
“Hey!” Nico said, too loudly. Heads started turning. He regretted the knee-jerk exclamation immediately, not wanting to draw attention to himself, and turned around, trying to act as though he, too, were looking for the mysterious person who’d just shouted during mass.
It didn’t matter if he made a scene. Persephone had lost her patience, which had lasted less than two minutes. Actually, that wasn’t bad for a Greek goddess.
She grabbed his hand again and took him away.
She and Nico stood in the middle of the Campo de Fiori, the cobblestone piazza that housed the largest flower market in Rome. Nico was stunned into silence for a moment. The church had provided him with zero protection. She’d thrown a Bible on the floor like it was trash; she’d taken him halfway across Italy in an instant. If Persephone wanted to, she might be able to take him home against his will. Especially if he didn’t have the guts to seal her powers, which he didn’t.
He looked at his mother with a slightly new appreciation. He didn’t know how to explain it, but his gut instinct told him that she could probably kick the ass of almost any Catholic saint he’d met thus far. He wouldn’t say that about most Greek gods, but he’d say it about her.
She stood staring at him with her arms folded, her bright pink lower lip jutting out with displeasure. Her modest black crepe funeral dress had morphed into its true appearance, a long black silk dress with a plunging neckline, covered in silver embroidery like spiderwebs. She had a metal crown of thorns on her head in place of her more typical flower crown. Maybe it was just an autumnal fashion statement, but he had a feeling it was deliberate. He could easily picture her saying that thorns had been her thing first.
“Perseph–”
“If you call me Persephone one more time,” she snapped. The bustling flower market seemed to shudder all at once, and the blooming flowers and vines appeared to grow larger and more menacing. Vines grew down table legs, creeping along the ground toward Nico.
“I can’t call you mom,” Nico insisted. “Not anymore.” A dark feeling of shame gripped his heart and squeezed, and he felt his resolve waver. He couldn’t meet her eyes when he said it. But it had to be said. His orders were clear, and he was under surveillance.
He crossed his arms over his chest, staring down at the cobblestones of the piazza.
“What do you want?” He asked quietly.
She sighed, pausing to grab a sunflower from one of the flower stalls nearby. She turned it over in her hand a few times, watching the flower bloom a bright sunshine yellow, then causing the petals and seeds to dry and shrink and fall off. When it was done, it bloomed again. The cycle repeated, over and over, as she gazed at it softly. This seemed to calm her.
She looked up at him once more. He noticed that her eyes had not returned to the warm, earthy brown they’d been in the church. That brief, magic moment of reunion had slipped away all too quickly.
“I had a plan for what I was going to say when I saw you, and I lost it for a moment.” She took a deep breath and pulled a folded piece of paper out of her pocket, scanning it a few times. She looked up at him. “Let’s start again. I’ve missed you, darling. How have you been?”
He glanced from side to side. The plants on the stalls were no longer threatening to strangle him. Instead, they bloomed innocently, like they had merely been creeping in his direction to say hi.
“I’m–” He bit his tongue. He wasn’t allowed to lie. He wasn’t fine, and he wasn’t good. Okay was probably pushing it. “I’m getting by,” he said. “How are you?”
“Oh, well, you know,” she shrugged. She seemed weirdly casual, like they weren’t both suffering from intense emotional turmoil upon seeing one another. “Things aren’t the same without you. Your father moved out, so the palace has been quiet. I didn’t touch any of the stuff in your room. Do you need me to bring you any clothes?”
“No, I mostly just wear my uniform now,” he said. “Did you just say Dad moved out?”
She nodded, glancing at her paper.
“How are you adjusting to your new life?” She asked. “Are you enjoying yourself?”
“I’m able to collect souls now,” he said, dodging the question. “I enjoy that a lot.”
“I understand that Thanatos swore you to secrecy,” she said sadly. “And didn’t support your desire to do your work. It must be freeing to be able to embrace your purpose. I’m happy for you.”
Nico preferred it when she was throwing Bibles. He couldn’t handle this. He had to catch his breath before he spoke.
“I know you would have been supportive,” he said, his voice quavering. “I wanted to tell you, I just– It’s too late now.”
“I know, darling,” she said, smiling at him. “I’m not angry with you. We can’t change the past.”
Nico took a deep breath. It struck him again, the same realization he’d had before– he lied too much. Sure, he could excuse some of it. His dad had told him to lie about becoming human. Thanatos told him to lie about being a psychopomp. But why had he listened? He was never good at following orders, but lying came easily to him. How different would things be now if he’d just talked to Persephone from the beginning? Why had he been so reluctant to confide in her?
Persephone was more of a victim in this situation than he was. He’d never seen it that way before, but standing here in the flower market, it became clear that he held all the cards in this situation. She hadn’t done anything to make him leave, she would do anything to get him back, and yet, there was nothing she could do. Out of all the gods and goddesses, she was the only one that he knew for certain would never stoop to kidnapping. She would not want him home except of his own free will. That meant that he had total control of her personal happiness. She was at his mercy.
He saw it in her eyes, looking beyond the bland, cheerful facade she was projecting. Persephone was desperate, and she was scared.
“You said Dad left?” He asked, still fixated on finding out what had happened to Hades. “Are you getting a divorce?” He wasn’t sure if he wanted her to say yes, but it would have been flattering to think she cared enough about Nico to leave Hades for his sake.
“No,” she said. “I don’t want to be alone for the rest of eternity. If I can’t be with my son, I’ll be with my husband.”
“Even after what he did?” Nico asked.
“He and I are both flawed, Nico,” she said. “He let you down this time, but it just as easily could have been me screwing things up. I’m more than capable of hurting you, too.”
“Not necessarily,” he said. He’d never thought of it like that. “You were always good to me.”
“No, I wasn’t,” she said. “Hades called me, remember? Right after he had you made human by Zeus. What do you think happened?”
“He said he was going to ask you to come home and fix me,” Nico said. “But I was angry and said some stuff. And then he took my memories away out of spite.”
“You said some stuff?”
“Uh, yeah,” Nico said. “The kind of stuff you say when you’re angry, you know.”
She narrowed her eyes.
“You threatened to never speak to me again if I didn’t leave your dad,” Persephone said. “In short, you were willing to hurt me to get back at him. Am I right?”
The temptation to lie as a reflex gnawed at him again, but he suppressed it.
“I… I think that is right, yeah,” Nico said, scuffing his foot against the cobblestones.
Persephone sighed.
“I was the one that told him to wipe your memory,” she admitted.
Nico’s jaw dropped.
“That was you?”
“I told him to keep you happy, but ignorant of your circumstances, until I got home,” she said. “I could have come back immediately, but I resented the fact that you wanted to use me to get back at your dad. I didn’t deserve that from you. I had no part in what happened. So I kept you trapped in a human body a little longer than I had to.”
The ground swayed beneath his feet as Nico tried to make sense of this revelation.
“Go ahead and take some of that hate you hold for your father, and put it on me, too,” she said. “He and I deserve each other, clearly. But you deserve better than us.”
Nico’s mouth went dry. It didn’t exactly feel that way anymore. His parents had been shitty, but he had also been a little bit of a shit, at least where Persephone was concerned.
“You had every right to be wrathful,” she said. “I should have recognized that you were speaking in anger, in the form of a human child. I’m sure, had you been yourself, you wouldn’t have said that. I should have come home right away. I’m sorry. Your father is sorry, too. We caused this.”
Nico felt sick to his stomach. He couldn’t say for sure whether she was right or wrong about him. He had his doubts.
“I’m sorry for what I said,” he said.
“Don’t apologize to me,” she said. “You’ve been through too much for that to matter anymore. Besides, you left our entire pantheon, not just our family. This is bigger than just issues with your dad and I.”
“It was a complicated decision,” Nico said. “But it had been brewing for a long time.”
Persephone sighed, looking at her paper again, scanning the words on the page.
“Clearly you have higher standards than we can meet. Perhaps the Catholics provide you with something we never could. I’m glad you found what you needed. You were simply too good for us,” she said, giving him a pained smile.
Tears stung his eyes suddenly. He’d had notions of superiority poured into his ears for weeks now, but Persephone had just poked a hole in his brain and sucked those notions out with a straw. She was imperfect, yes, but he admired so much about her. He didn’t look at her and see an evil demon. He saw his mom.
Doubt surged in his heart, so quickly it scared him. Panicking, he reminded himself of all the gods that had hurt him. Zeus, Hermes, Eros, Thanatos, Nemesis, Nero, Hera, Athena, and above all, Hades. It hadn’t always been bad, but it never been good for long.
“Tell me about your new job,” Persephone said. “I’ve heard you’re very passionate about the Christian god now. Do you want to tell me about him?”
“You really want to hear about Him?” Nico asked.
“Anything you care about is important to me, my love,” she smiled. He smiled back, touched by her interest in his new life.
“I’ll tell you about Him later,” he said, having more urgent questions. “Who got custody of Cerberus, you or dad?”
“I did,” she said. “What is your long-term intention in staying with the Catholic pantheon?” Persephone asked, checking her paper again.
“I want to become a saint eventually. Why do you keep looking at that paper?” Nico asked, wondering for the first time what it said.
“No reason,” she said, crumpling it in her fist. “I heard there’s a celibacy requirement. And you can’t eat or sleep, is that right?”
“Yeah,” he said. “Among other things. That’s just the beginning of the list.”
“How is that going?”
“It’s not easy,” Nico said. “Where is dad living, if not with you?”
“Nowhere that would be of interest to you. I heard you’re limited on who you can speak with and what you can talk about,” she added. “Does that bother you?”
“Of course it bothers me,” he said. “But the Bible tells us to endure hardship as discipline.”
“Have you gotten into trouble with your new masters?” She asked. “Do they discipline you?”
They probably would if he didn’t start lecturing her on Jesus really soon.
“Yes,” he said, emphasizing the single word so that it conveyed all the weight of guilt he was walking around with, carried like a personal cross. “They discipline me. Usually I discipline myself, though.”
“Do you feel like you deserve it?”
“Absolutely,” he said.
Her mouth twisted for a second in dismay.
“I’m choosing to be here, remember?” He said. “I knew what I signed up for. Um, have you heard from Olympus lately? Did they say anything about me?”
“I don’t know. I haven’t discussed your situation with them.”
“But they know?”
“They know,” she said. “Why do you ask?”
He shrugged. He’d hoped to hear about them cowering in fear, but maybe that was self-serving. Forgetting about them, leaving them in his past, ought to be enough.
“Did Zeus say anything about me?” He asked, unable to help himself. “Or Hermes?”
“I don’t know,” she said. She started walking around the flower market, strolling slowly towards the center of the piazza. Nico followed, grateful they were no longer awkwardly staring at each other. The conversation was beginning to feel less high-stakes.
“Dear, I wanted to bring up something else. It’s about Nero.”
Nevermind. Still pretty high-stakes.
“Are you angry I destroyed his soul?” Nico asked, squirming in his shiny leather shoes.
“Nobody cares about that.”
“Oh.”
“I just wanted to say that your dad and I know what happened. What he did to you. There was a video…”
“He filmed it?” Nico asked. “Nero filmed burning me alive? That’s so… Ugh.” He shivered.
“Your dad made sure it was deleted from the servers. I wasn’t sure if you knew, but it won’t be circulating. I wouldn’t want you to worry about that on top of everything else you’ve suffered. I’m sorry, dear.”
That meant Hades had watched the video. Nico wondered what his dad had thought of it. It couldn’t have been easy to see his son tortured, especially in his young human form. Especially when it was Hades’ own fault.
Why did that make Nico so sad? His dad deserved to feel bad for what he’d done. Hades had no right to be let off the hook, he ought to know the consequences of his horrendous parenting. He’d turned Nico human, he’d made him vulnerable. He’d caused it all. Although Nico still needed to work through how much of it was actually Persephone’s fault, and how much was his own, he was sure most of the blame would remain squarely on his dad’s shoulders.
“I can’t imagine how painful it must have been,” Persephone said soberly, stopping to stand before a statue in the center of the Campo de Fiori. “Does it still haunt you? Do you think of it often?”
“Of getting burned?” Nico asked. He actually hadn’t thought about it much lately. “I was wrecked for a few days, but I bounced back faster than I expected to.” He was sure he wouldn’t be doing half so well if not for his new faith. Catholics had a gift for transforming torment into triumph.
“Gods are resilient,” Persephone said. “We can endure things that would break a mortal mind and emerge relatively unscathed. Though not unchanged.”
“Not unchanged,” Nico agreed. He wasn’t racked with PTSD over the experience like a human would be, but he had not emerged from Nero’s basement the same as he’d gone in.
Persephone flicked her eyes at him briefly, but didn’t comment. Instead she turned her face up to the statue. Nico scanned the giant bronze figure of a hooded man in robes, then glanced at the plaque at the base.
“To Bruno,” he read. “Who’s Bruno?”
“Giordano Bruno was a philosopher who believed that different religions could live in harmony together,” Persephone said primly. “The Catholic church had him burned alive right here in this square.”
Nico took a step backwards.
“Is that why you brought me here?” He asked angrily, noting a gleam in her eye. “To shove Bruno in my face? I’m not an idiot. I know the church has a controversial history. But my program, the Pagan Demon Rehabilitation Committee, isn’t part of that. It’s helping me to be a better version of myself. I thought you were being supportive,” he added bitterly.
“I am being supportive,” Persephone said. She was still smiling, but he was beginning to see cracks in her facade. “Forget about Bruno. It’s irrelevant, you’re right. I’m sure you know exactly who you’re dealing with, and I know nothing. Even though I’ve lived for thousands of years alongside the Catholics, and you just got here,” she added, in a darker tone of voice.
“There it is. You really can’t help yourself,” Nico said, feeling vindicated. He caught her fumbling with the piece of paper in her hand, and he snatched it out from between her fingers, moving too fast for her to stop him.
It was a printed out Wikihow article entitled ‘How to Deprogram a Cult Member.”
“Mom!” He said, holding it up to her face.
“What?” She said defensively, hunching her shoulders.
“Be loving and nonjudgmental,” he read from the paper. “Ask how they feel about the limitations of the cult. You’re trying to deprogram me from my cult! I mean my religion!”
“I am trying to save you!” She said, her eyes widening with desperation. She grabbed his arms fearfully. “I know what you’re trying to do, alright? You want power. They have power. It’s not complicated. But you have no idea of the risk you’re taking.”
“I know what I’m doing,” he said angrily. She huffed, and snatched the paper back, turning it over to show a list of scribbled notes. She read one of them aloud.
“If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned,” Persephone said. “Do you know where that’s from?”
“The Book of John,” Nico answered immediately.
“You’re not the only one who can read books and quote them at your convenience,” Persephone added, raising her eyebrows. “I’ve done my research. If you can’t walk their narrow path, they destroy you, like that poor branch that gets thrown out and burned. It’s all or nothing, good or evil, heaven or hell. It’s a terrible way to live. They don’t even believe in moderation in all things!”
“They believe in moderation in some things,” Nico said. “Just not sinful things.”
“Sinful! I hate that word, sinful,” she said exasperatedly. “There’s no such thing as sin, Nico. That’s just their way of covering up that they made fun illegal.”
“I think you need to do a little more research,” Nico said snarkily. “Fun is not illegal. I still have fun. I have tons of fun.” That was only a slight exaggeration; he definitely still had fun. He usually felt terribly guilty about it afterward, but she didn’t need to know about that.
“They’ll never let you into heaven, you know,” Persephone said harshly.
“They will if I work hard enough,” Nico said.
“They won’t! They can’t. That’s their whole scam,” Persephone said. “They find someone who’s struggling and they promise them a magical place in the sky where everything is perfect all the time, and claim there’s a god up there who’s perfect all the time and loves them no matter what, even though they’ve never met. Doesn’t that creep you out? Why would you want to be loved by someone who doesn’t even know you? People normally get restraining orders for that sort of thing.”
“You have no clue what you’re talking about.”
“They make promises they never have to keep, and in exchange, the mortals give them everything. Every minute of their short, precious lives is devoted to the idea of a hypothetical perfection that isn’t real.”
“It’s not hypothetical,” Nico said, hyper-aware of the earpiece in his ear. Standing up for his beliefs would win him major brownie points with his bosses, especially when the doubter was his own mother. “God is real. Heaven is real.”
“And Jesus is your homeboy, I’m sure,” Persephone said, rolling her eyes. “Nature makes nothing perfect, my son. Everything is flawed. I can make billions of leaves and flowers and trees, and not a single one will be perfect, no matter how hard I try. They’ll all be beautifully flawed in their own unique ways.”
“Skill issue,” Nico said. “God’s perfect. You’re jealous.”
Persephone glared at him, but Nico didn’t waver. He knew the saints fed off a very deep well of power, and he had no reason not to believe that God was the source. Certain aspects of the church were flawed, certainly, but he didn’t believe all of it was. He just had to keep working at the edges until he was allowed into the center where all the awesomeness was hiding. The Catholic church was very much like a Tootsie Pop in that way.
“Even if you believe they’re capable of delivering on their promises, that doesn’t mean they will deliver to you,” Persephone said. “Our kind have always been hated by the Catholics, and they don’t hesitate to make us disappear if we inconvenience them. Sol Invictus used to be the Roman form of Helios, but his festival was a little too close to Christmas for their liking, and the saints jumped him. We found Helios rocking back and forth in a manger with no memories past the eighth century BC. And Alexander the Great? The Christians looted his tomb. He went to tell them to knock it off, and that was the last anyone ever saw of him.”
“Those aren’t the same situation at all,” Nico said.
“Look at what happened to Asclepius, who was once the best of us,” she said. “He was last seen here in Rome. No one’s heard from him in almost a century. That’s no coincidence.”
Nico froze. Asclepius. Why was that name ringing screeching alarm bells in his head?
Probably nothing.
“I know I can’t convince you to leave,” Persephone said desperately. “But please, for me, promise that you’ll seek out someone who started as a pagan god, and ended as a saint. Find a success story, someone who did what you’re doing, who ended up happy. Prove to me that you are not throwing away the eternal life I worked so hard to give to you.”
“Fine!” He said, throwing his hands up. “Fine! I’ll find someone, and I’ll prove that this can work. If I do that, will you be supportive?”
“I’ll think about it,” she said reluctantly.
“Okay,” he said. “Cool.”
“Cool,” Persephone said.
They stared at each other.
“I suppose I should go,” she said. “I don’t want to get you into trouble.”
“Yeah,” he said. Maybe they’d ended on a bad note, but he didn’t want her to leave. Just seeing her face made him feel so much less alone. No matter how much she got on his nerves, he loved her immensely.
“I won’t try to hug you,” she said, wiping a tear from her eye. “I can tell we’re being watched. But I want you to know how much I love you. And miss you.”
“I know,” he said, feeling his own tears threatening to fall. “You don’t have to say it. You know I can’t say it back.”
“I know,” she said. “Well. I’ll be waiting to hear from you. If you need to send a message to me, do it through Thanatos. He’ll never be far away.”
Sensing the truth in her statement, Nico turned around. Without needing to think, his eyes went straight to the roof of a nearby building. Thanatos was there, invisible, watching.
“And one more thing, dear?” Persephone added.
“Hm?”
“Until the day you come home,” she said, idly brushing a dark curl of hair away from her face. “There will never be another spring again.”
“Huh?” Nico said.
“There will never be another spring,” she repeated, smiling. “So long as you are gone from me. Anyway. Toodles!”
“No, not toodles!” Nico said, grabbing her hand. “What are you talking about? You have to do spring– there has to be a spring, or there’s no summer, and no harvest, and no food!”
“I know,” she shrugged. “But without you around, I just don’t feel like doing it. What can you do?” She shrugged.
“All the mortals will die,” he said, “Do you not get that?”
“I get it,” she said. “But my name isn’t Persephone, Bringer of Destruction, for nothing. I don’t care if every last mortal on earth starves to death. I literally could care less. Couldn’t care less? Could care less? I never get that right,” she said, frowning. “Anyway. Can I toodles now?”
Nico stared at her. Her gaze was adamantine, her eyes gleaming with power and an all-too familiar stubbornness.
“Yeah,” he said weakly. “You can toodles.”
She disappeared into a burst of flower petals. Each petal turned brown as it fell, shriveling dead. Behind him, cries of alarm rose up. Nico turned around.
Every single leaf, flower, and plant in the flower market had died.
Rose heads fell off their stems, brown and crispy. Sunflowers shed their seeds, underdeveloped and useless. Ropes of vines turned into bare sticks. Tourists and shoppers began to vacate the square, and the vendors cried out in despair at seeing their daily profits shrivel before their eyes.
Nico stood for a moment, watching dazedly. It was November right now, and Rome had a slight crispness to the air, although it wasn’t exactly cold yet. He had a few months until spring. Maybe if he could prove to Persephone that he was thriving, happy, and that he knew something she didn’t, she’d perform her duties after all. If not, he could only hope that God would fill in the blanks. Maybe Persephone was about to put herself out of a job.
Or maybe he was about to be the cause of a global famine. There was only one way to find out.
Nico headed back to his home church, the Basilica di San Bartolomeo all'Isola, and went straight to Adalbert’s office. Bartholomew was already awaiting him there, his eyes looking particularly bulgey. He and Adalbert were leaning over a computer, and Adalbert was furiously typing– presumably providing an update on Persephone’s visit to the higher authorities. Nico couldn’t help but feel violated. He’d just had one of the most important and difficult conversations of his life, and they’d been sitting there listening to it like a podcast.
“Niccolo,” Bartholomew said, frowning deep lines in the muscles of his skinless forehead. “You kept your earpiece on this time. Your choices are improving.”
“Not enough discussion of Jesus for my liking,” Adalbert observed critically, steepling his fingers under his chin.
“Persephone is never converting,” Nico said, leaning against the wall and folding his arms, staring at the two of them. “I tried to stand up for you guys– I mean, for us. Doesn’t that count for anything?”
“You did relatively well,” Bartholomew conceded, causing Nico to grin with relief. “Considering. There was only one mistake made. But that will be left for Brigid to litigate with you.”
“Saint Brigid?” Nico asked. “Your supervisor? The program director? That Brigid?”
“Yes,” Bartholomew said. He frowned, fiddling with the empty skin pockets of his fingers, which hung off the edge of his skin-scarf like tassels.
“The matter of spring is best left to Brigid. She has some…” Bartholomew and Adalbert shared a glance. “Expertise, shall we say, in this area. In meeting her, you will fulfill an additional purpose. Brigid can show you exactly what is possible when you fully commit yourself to your new life and burn all connection to your old one.”
Nico was buzzing with excitement at this news. The Brigid meeting was added to his calendar, and he practically floated through the rest of the week. He was going to see her in Saint Peter’s basilica, the very heart of their organization. It felt as though he were getting ever-closer to the center of things.
Some of Persephone’s words still niggled at his mind; the rumors of pagan gods gone missing in Catholic territory, the constant reminder of Thanatos on his heels when he worked, and the mysterious location of his father, who had left the Underworld. Nico told himself that he only cared because he wanted to ensure he and Hades successfully avoided each other for the rest of forever. He certainly had no interest in ever seeing him again. Or speaking. That would be unthinkable.
Weird that he kept thinking about it.
The day before his meeting with Brigid, he got an email from a new supplicant. The supplicant didn’t know they were a supplicant yet, but that would come in time. Marco Taviani, lead guitarist of Hell’s Bells, had buried his sister earlier that week, and by some miracle (named Nico) he’d found a card with the number of grief counseling services on the floor of his apartment. Nico had been expecting to hear from him any day now.
Nico immediately let Marco know he offered house calls and that the first session was free, and Marco took him up on the offer without hesitation. Maybe that was outside the norm for counseling services, but Nico was banking on the fact that Marco didn’t have preconceived expectations.
An hour later, Nico was knocking on Marco’s door, standing beside a pile of cardboard boxes and a non-functional bike that was lying in his dingy apartment corridor.
“Just a second,” Marco said. Nico heard him trip over a guitar stand on his way to unlock the door. Nico tapped his foot while the chains were slid out of their sockets one by one and the deadlock was unbolted.
Marco stared at him, blinking a couple of times, and Nico did the same. He hadn’t gotten the chance to admire Marco up close yet; there had always been too many distractions.
As he took in Marco’s ripped jeans, his moth-eaten sweater studded with clothespins that were both decorative and functional, and the traces of eyeliner that he’d slept in for more than a few nights, Nico realized that Marco was the exact sort of human he’d have wanted to be if he’d been one. Sad in a sexy way, sexy in a sad way, messy, edgy, badass.
‘Oh no,’ Nico thought to himself. ‘He’s hot.’
Of course he was attracted to someone who was a lot like himself, he thought, internally rolling his eyes as he stepped inside the apartment. In spite of their concerted efforts, the Catholic church had clearly not checked his ego to the extent it clearly needed checking.
“You have a lot of security for such a tiny place,” Nico observed, glancing at the multiple locks.
“We have a lot of musical instruments,” Marco said. “It’s a rough neighborhood. Come in, sorry it’s a mess, I’ve just been kind of…”
“I understand,” Nico said sagely. He’d tried to dress the way a grief counselor would, in a sweater and dress pants with his hair combed neatly. He’d even put on big nerdy glasses to complete the look. He’d chosen a pair similar to the ones Jason had worn, which made him smile when he saw them in the mirror.
“I’ve never heard of a grief counselor doing home visits,” Marco said, gesturing for Nico to sit at the kitchen table.
“It’s a new thing,” Nico said. “We find that young people aren’t comfortable in formal offices, but virtual counseling through the computer is too cold and remote.”
“Okay,” Marco said, accepting the lie unquestioningly. “It’s good timing. My roommates are out of town and it’s hard to be in here by myself.” He inadvertently glanced at the bathroom, his expression dimming.
Nico and Marco sat across from each other at a rickety card table.The tablecloth was covered in cigarette burns.
“Do you mind?” Marco asked, taking out a cigarette. Nico gestured for him to go ahead. Marco held out the pack, offering him one.
“Thanks,” Nico said, taking one and rolling it between his fingers.
Marco held out a lighter. Nico shook his head. A cute guy lighting your cigarette for you was one of life’s supreme joys, but he wasn’t allowed. He hoped God noticed how good he was being today.
“I’m trying to quit,” Nico said. “I’m just gonna hold it. It helps me focus.”
“Okay,” Marco shrugged.
“Let’s talk about you,” Nico said. “What prompted you to email me?”
“My sister died the week before last. It happened unexpectedly,” Marco said, staring into space. “I don’t know what I’m supposed to do now. Everyone else is starting to get back to normal life, but it’s like… I can’t.”
“Tell me about your sister,” Nico said, adjusting his glasses.
“Her name is Terezia, but everyone calls her Tizi. She’s the funniest… She was the funniest person in the entire world. She could make me laugh even on my worst days. A lot of stuff happened to her that she didn’t deserve, but she never let it keep her down for long. She didn’t hide from life. She stood out, she had this crazy pink hair, she was the coolest person in every room she walked in.”
Marco stared at a hole in the tablecloth for a minute. Nico could read in his tone of voice and body language that Marco was still in a state of shock.
“She sounds amazing,” Nico said.
“Yeah. She was,” Marco said. “We were in a band together. It was always our dream to play music, ever since we were kids. We started Hell’s Bells when we were in middle school, and we never expected it to go anywhere. Then, last year, we realized we were good. Really good, like we could actually make it into something huge. We were just starting to take it more seriously when she died,” he said. His voice sounded weak and hollow, like he had an invisible gaping wound that made it hard to breathe.
“I’m sorry for your loss,” Nico said, adjusting his glasses again. He’d never been to therapy, so he was just imitating a vague idea of professional detachment that he’d gleaned from TV. He’d considered calling Trisha, his parents’ therapist, and asking for tips, but if she had been any good at her job, his parents would still be together and he’d be living with them right now. Better to just wing it.
“Yeah, so I’m quitting music,” Marco said. “Anyway–”
“What?!” Nico said, dropping his pen. “You can’t quit music!”
“Huh?”
“Marco, you are so talented,” Nico pleaded. “What about the band? You guys were on the cusp of a huge breakthrough!”
“There’s no Hell’s Bells without Tizi,” Marco said, squinting at Nico. “That was one of the last things my sister said to me.”
“Not with that attitude, there’s not!” Nico said.
Marco frowned. Nico adjusted his glasses again, but it didn’t seem to help. Marco was growing suspicious.
“The band is done,” Marco said firmly. “I’m never touching a guitar again. The last thing I said to my sister was that I was kicking her out of the band, but she was the band. She was the music, she was everything. And now that she’s gone, there’s just nothing,” he added, holding out his hand and moving his fingers like he was playing an invisible guitar, then letting them fall limply onto the tabletop.
Nico felt his heart soften a bit. He had a clear priority in helping Maria Bova find a foothold in the music industry. She would gain a platform to spread the good word about him, which was a crucial step in advancing his saintly career. Marco and his band had initially been just a means to an end, but he related deeply to what Marco was saying.
“I know that last conversation weighs heavily on you,” Nico said. “But do you really think she’d want you to stop playing music just because she’s not here?”
“Maybe,” Marco said. “She could be kind of a bitch.”
“It’s hard not to get fixated on how things ended,” Nico said. “Those last few conversations hit really hard. You can keep replaying them in your mind until they warp into something bigger than they ever really were. Mortals have this fixation on the way that they die, or the state that they leave things in. But those last few days or weeks don’t matter any more or less than all the years that came before. Even if you ended on a bad note, I bet you had a lot of good notes, too. You can’t let one poorly timed argument drown them out.”
Nico had learned that the hard way. Bianca had had the bad fortune of offending her little brother right before she died. His feelings of abandonment had festered and exploded like a neglected bottle of kombucha, and she’d been trapped in the Underworld for years waiting for him to sort himself out. Things between them had ended poorly, but he’d chosen to let that define the way he felt about her after her death– he’d undervalued all the times that she had been there for him, and he’d obsessed over the one time she hadn’t.
“Did you just say mortals?” Marco asked.
“Uh. Did I?” Nico asked. “Disregard that. How about the rest of what I said? Wasn’t that a good point I just made?”
“No. Her dying wish was for Hell’s Bells to end, and I’m honoring that,” Marco said flatly. “You seem kind of young to be a counselor. Where did you go to school?”
There was no point in lying further. The big reveal was inevitable, and he’d gotten his foot in the door– the iron was hot, and it was time to strike. Nico took off his glasses, setting them on the table slowly.
“I’ll level with you,” Nico said. “I’m not a normal counselor. I have qualifications, but not the kind you’re thinking of. You’re having a supernatural encounter right now. And I’m telling you, you have got to get back into music.”
Marco blinked a few times.
“Are you a crazy fan or something?” He asked, standing from his seat. “You know, I don’t even want to know, but you need to get out of my apartment. You’re making me uncomfortable.”
“I’m a fan, but not in the way you think,” Nico said. “I was there at the last show you guys played. I was here in the apartment when you kicked her out of the band. I was in the bathroom when she fell and hit her head. And I was at her funeral in Lucca, sitting in the back row. And I’m here now.”
Marco’s eyes went wide.
“That’s not possible,” he said, stepping back in horror.
Nico snapped his fingers, cutting off the lights in the room. The bright orange end of Marco’s cigarette fell onto the tabletop.
When he turned the lights back on, he wore Nemesis’ wings on his back. Marco fell onto his knees.
It was a very satisfying sight, seeing Marco pleading desperately for Nico not to hurt him. The ability to fly was of little use to Nico, but the wings offered him an aesthetic clout that he just hadn’t had before.
“Chill out,” Nico said, patting Marco on the shoulder as he hyperventilated. “I’m here to help you. Haven’t you ever heard of a guardian angel before?”
“Is that what… What you are?” Marco asked, his teeth chattering.
“Not exactly, but if that makes it easier,” Nico shrugged. “I’m not doing labels right now. Long story.”
Marco fell over onto the floor in a dead faint. Then his tablecloth caught fire.
Nico watched the blaze slowly grow, the ring of burned fabric expanding outward, thinking to himself, maybe winging it hadn’t been the best idea.
He called Maria and asked her to come over after a brief explanation of what had happened. She was there in less than a minute– she lived in the building next door and had run up the stairs two at a time. She was out of breath, nearly as panicked as Marco had been.
“Oh my God! Did you set the table on fire to make a point? Why did you just leave it?”
“It wasn’t a very nice table,” he said. “I think it’s for the best.”
Maria wet a dish towel and beat the flames out violently. She definitely channeled her mother for a moment, giving Nico a vicious side-eye.
“I’m trying to get your music career started,” Nico said. “Sue me.”
She clucked her tongue in disapproval, shaking her head.
She still seemed to be upset about the kiss in the alleyway. Understandable, but Nico had wanted to make it up to her by finding her a spot in a band. Though, nearly giving the lead guitarist an aneurysm was probably counterproductive to that goal.
Marco sat up, watching Maria put out the flames with a look of befuddlement. When she saw Marco staring at her, she tossed the towel to Nico and went over to Marco, kneeling over him as he sat up on his elbows.
“Are you alright?” She asked.
“I– Uh–” He stuttered, staring up at her. “Are you an angel, too?”
Maria gasped softly.
“Oh, ha ha, no,” she giggled. “I’m just a normal person.”
In that moment, Nico and Marco shared the exact same thought – No, you’re not.
Nico huffed, his upper lip curling disconcertedly. He didn’t like the way Marco was looking at her, like he’d just seen the face of God. Maria was beautiful, yes, but Marco didn’t know her like Nico did. She had depth, she had struggles, she had a lot of cats. All Marco saw was a pretty face.
In an attempt to redirect their attention back to him, Nico waved a hand. The old burnt table disappeared, replaced with an antique dark wood table with carved legs and matching chairs. A single candlestick burned in the center of it.
Marco gasped, staggering backwards, but Maria held his arm to steady him.
“He does things like this sometimes,” she said. “You’ll get used to it.”
She pulled out a chair for Marco at the table and made him sit down.
“What did he tell you he was?” She asked, sitting beside him.
“Grief counselor,” Marco said. “And then a guardian angel, sort of, but not.”
“Nico is a saint in the making,” she supplied eagerly. “He doesn’t have enough believers to make a go of it yet. I’m his first. Right?”
“Obviously,” Nico said, glowering from the other side of the room.
“He helped me when my mother died,” Maria said. “He has a special connection with death, and people who are grieving. You’ve lost someone, too?”
“My sister,” Marco said, hanging his head.
“I’m so sorry,” Maria said, patting his hand. Marco looked up at her and smiled.
Smiling, holding hands, making eye contact– Nico should have been fine with it, and he kept his mouth shut, but he was fuming. Why were they vibing? Maria wasn’t supposed to vibe with anyone but him.
Maybe this band wasn’t such a good idea.
“I need some air,” he said suddenly, stepping out into the apartment building hallway.
He sat on the top of the stairs, feeling the hot bite of jealousy gnawing at his heart like a rat. He’d never felt like this before. He was perfect, beautiful, overflowing with magical power– he could have Maria on a silver platter if he wanted her. And he did want her, thanks to the cruel temptations of Satan. But they couldn’t be together, and that made both of them sad, and now she was vibing with another guy who was terribly similar to Nico, but mortal, and also a musician, which Nico was not.
He took a drag off his cigarette, his mind racing with thoughts of how he could fix this. Maria had a special charm to her, an aura that drew people near, and she was talented. It felt like it was fate that she meet Marco, fate that she join Marco’s band, and fate that Nico be the one that made it happen.
Fate, the hand of God, the plan Nico had thought was a good idea a few minutes ago– call it what you want, but he wasn’t happy about it. He knew the right thing was to let the situation play out organically, but the temptation to burn Marco’s apartment down with him inside was overwhelming.
Love was a bitch.
Nico put out his cigarette on the landing and stood to go inside. Then he realized– he’d been smoking. He hadn’t even thought about it, his hands had just completed the familiar actions of their own accord.
“God damn it,” he whispered, staring at the ashes scattered on the linoleum floor beneath his feet.
“Naughty, naughty,” Thanatos said, his voice echoing from above. “Another one for the swear jar.”
Nico looked up sharply. Thanatos was on the landing of the floor above, leaning over the stair rail to look down on Nico, his golden eyes glowing in the dark.
“How did you know about the swear jar?” Nico asked.
Thanatos gasped.
“You really have one?” He asked gleefully.
“Shit,” Nico muttered, while Thanatos enjoyed a chuckle at his expense. He ground the remains of his cigarette into the linoleum with his heel, feeling like a fool.
Thanatos suddenly appeared behind him.
“What do you have there?” Thanatos asked curiously, reaching his hand around to the front of Nico’s pants. “Are those three thousand souls in your pocket, or are you just happy to see me?”
“What did you just say?” Nico said, turning around to face Thanatos. “Since when do you use double entendres?”
Thanatos shrugged innocently.
“I was just wondering why you haven’t turned those in,” Thanatos said, blinking his long golden eyelashes.
Nico looked Thanatos up and down carefully.
“You’ve been hanging out with Eros,” he said. “I can practically smell him on you.”
“Oh, so you know what he smells like, do you?” Thanatos said.
“Yeah, like Dior Sauvage and bad decisions,” Nico said. “I’m so glad my trauma healed you guys’ relationship. Now you can spend the rest of eternity commiserating over the fact that you both had me, and you both lost me. Now get out of my way.”
Nico’s last comment had stung; Thanatos blocked the door to the apartment with his body.
“Thanatos,” he said warningly. “Move.”
“Why haven’t you turned in your souls?” Thanatos asked, his jaw set stubbornly.
“Because one of them is Marco’s sister, Tizi,” Nico said. “He might want to talk to her. I needed to hang onto her just in case.”
“Odd,” Thanatos said. “You couldn’t just recall her to your side after turning her in?”
“No. It doesn’t work like that with them– with us,” he corrected himself. “I don’t have authority over them once I give them to Michael. You know that. You came up with this system.”
“I reluctantly agreed to it under duress!” Thanatos said. “I was bullied into a pact with a certain entity who I won’t deign to name.”
Nico smirked.
“Did Jesus beat you up?”
Thanatos flushed red with shame.
“I will not speak of it. I still have nightmares,” he shuddered. “What happened then no longer matters. Things are different now. You do not need to go along with their way of doing things. I should think you have the negotiating power to change the system.”
“Why do you care?” Nico asked.
“When you give those souls to Michael, you give up your authority over them,” Thanatos said. “But not your responsibility. I know what happens to the souls in the Underworld, and can observe their well-being. Your parents are good caretakers, and our judges are fair. I can’t say the same about your new friends. I have no idea what the Catholic afterlife hides, but I have heard bad things– some of them from you. You can pull back the curtain. I think it’s your duty to do so.”
“What do you mean, some of them from me?” Nico said, frowning. “I haven’t been badmouthing the church.” Accusations like that weren’t to be thrown around lightly. He was being watched, and listened to, always.
“Your book,” Thanatos said. “The Inferno. The suicides turned into trees?”
Nico swallowed.
“The Inferno isn’t necessarily an accurate depiction of Hell,” he said.
“I certainly hope not,” Thanatos said. “But how do you know if you don’t find out for yourself? Why not go check the place out?”
“One does not simply walk into Hell,” Nico said archly. “You have to scan your badge to get in. I don’t have the clearance yet. I will someday, but I just started.”
“How can you hand over your souls without knowing what torments await them?” Thanatos asked. “What if the gay ones are all put into a blender? I know you, Nico. You would not knowingly do such a thing, but I think you are doing it unknowingly, and not asking enough questions.”
Nico started to respond, and then found that he had nothing to say. Thanatos was making a terrifyingly salient point, and he had no argument prepared.
“God is the authority,” Nico said weakly. “I have to trust that He knows what He’s doing.”
Thanatos shook his head.
“You are Death. The buck stops with you. Those people in your pocket are your problem. You don’t get to shift the responsibility onto a mysterious entity you’ve never met.”
“You totally don’t get how this works,” Nico said. “I do get to shift the responsibility onto a mysterious entity I’ve never met. That’s the whole point. God knows more than me, and I just have to do what He says and it’ll all be okay. Don’t forget, the souls I’m taking believe in Him, too. We all signed up for the same system.”
“The same stupid system,” Thanatos muttered. “I know you too well, and I don’t believe a word you’re saying. You hide behind your faith and your ignorance, which seem much the same to me. I know you. When you do eventually get to Hell, and you see the torments your souls are put through, you won’t be able to stomach the sight. But by that time, I fear you’ll be in too deep to leave. At that point, you will betray yourself, and I will not know you anymore.”
A deep chill settled in Nico’s bones. It was one thing to suffer punishment for his failings, and to endure an existence deprived of physical pleasures. He could take it. But shades were such delicate beings. In the Underworld, the Fields of Punishment were reserved for the most heinous criminals, those who had offended the gods in acts of knowing defiance, those it was unthinkable not to punish. Pagan souls weren’t tormented for mundane human naughtiness.
Catholic souls, though? He had reason to think otherwise.
“Jesus Christ,” Nico muttered, rubbing his hands over his face.
“Where?” Thanatos said, jumping backward and looking around anxiously, his arms raised in his own defense.
“No, he’s not here, I… Ugh,” Nico said. “First Persephone, now you. I can’t take any more of this. I have a big meeting tomorrow, and I need to get focused. You have got to leave me alone. I’m so behind on Hail Mary’s it’s not even funny.”
“What’s the meeting about?”
“I was hoping it would be about a promotion,” Nico said. “But I keep screwing up. More likely I’ll be punished for– you know what, it’s none of your business. You need to go,” he said, shoving Thanatos aside.
Thanato’s words had done a number on him, such that he now feared a promotion. He shouldn’t be thinking this way, but Thanatos was right. If he saw Hell now and felt that it didn’t align with his values, or saw Heaven and found it imperfect, as Persephone had suggested it might be, he’d run for the hills. But if he was made to work and sacrifice for years and years, he’d have sunk too much into the Catholic venture to ever leave. At that point, whatever answers were offered, he’d have to accept, no matter how disappointing.
He needed to have faith. He knew that. Nobody said it was gonna be easy.
Thanatos stood in front of the door again.
“I said move,” Nico said, pushing him aside again. As his hand made contact with Thanatos’ statue-cold skin, Thanatos grabbed it and held it there, against his chest.
“I don’t like you,” Thanatos said quietly. “I think I hate you. I hate what you’re doing. I hate what you’re becoming. And yet, it changes nothing.”
“It changes everything,” Nico said, pulling away.
“We’re part of each other,” Thanatos insisted.
“Oh, shut up,” Nico said. “You didn’t even want to be my soulmate until it was convenient for you. You wanted me to be beneath you. I haven’t forgotten. You’re still just as self-serving and pathetic as you were before. I’ve asked you to leave me alone, I don’t even know how many times, and you’re still here. They can punish me for seeing you,” he added. “I can get hurt because of this. When I tell you to go, I mean it. Do you want me to attack you? Is that what it will take?”
He almost hoped that Thanatos would continue to protest. He didn’t want to see the look that now spread across Thanatos’ face, one of terrible guilt and worry and anger.
“They would hurt you?” Thanatos asked furiously. “Just because I am here?”
He backed away, putting distance between them in the stairwell. Nico didn’t answer his questions, he just watched blankly as Thanatos hesitated, and then made his decision. He gave Nico one last yearning look and disappeared.
Sensing he was truly gone, Nico fell to his knees in the stairwell, trying to hold back his tears. He didn’t want Maria and Marco asking why he had snot coming out of his nose when he was supposed to be a saint.
He forced himself to get it together, then went into the apartment, at first just to peek in on the two of them invisibly. He found a sight that was terrible to behold, almost too horrible for words.
Marco and Maria were sitting on his couch together, and he was strumming his guitar, and she was singing along to ‘Fix You’ by Coldplay. Nico was disgusted. The two of them were obviously sharing an intimate moment of connection. For all he knew, they were soulmates, and he’d just been their matchmaker.
That thought was what led to him storming in with no plan.
“Ahem,” he said loudly, interrupting them mid-sing-along. He folded his arms across his chest, waiting until they both gave him their full attention. “What’s the story with the band?”
“The band?” Marco asked, pushing a strand of long black hair away from his face. Nico resented every inch of his silky locks. Why did he have to be so hot?
“Oh,” Maria said, fidgeting bashfully. “Nico wanted me to join your band. At least, I think that was his intention in introducing us. It’s really alright, though. No pressure.”
“There’s an angel staring at me,” Marco said. “I feel pressured. But, Nico, if you’re half as great as Maria says you are, I guess I have to do what you say. Right?”
“Right,” Nico agreed gruffly, as Maria protested.
“I can’t take his sister’s place,” she insisted. “Really, I wouldn’t even think of it.”
“Great,” Nico said. “That’s fine by me. In that case, Maria, we can go and find a new band for you. Maybe a girl group?” He just needed to get her away from Marco. He knew chemistry when he saw it, and it was making him murderous.
Marco stared down at the guitar in his hands.
“No,” he said. “We should do it.”
“Really?” Maria asked excitedly. Her hand went right to Marco’s arm, touching him like she’d known him for her whole life and not just an afternoon. Nico had to make an effort not to snarl audibly.
“I’ll have to call the guys, but I think they’ll be open,” he said. “I was the one who wanted to quit. But we can’t be Hell’s Bells anymore.”
“I would prefer something less… Controversial?” Maria asked.
Marco raised his eyebrows.
“Controversial makes an impression. It’s memorable. And rock and roll is about irreverence and iconoclasm. I agree we need to change the name, but it has to stay relevant.”
“Just not something crude,” Maria said. “Nico is trying to become a saint. We have to draw attention to his cause, but we don’t want to jeopardize his future.”
“That’s cool,” Marco said. “Saints are badass. You know, Christianity started as a cult. It was an uprising of the common people against the oppressive society that kept them down. That’s rock and roll.”
Maria’s eyes grew wide.
“I never thought of it that way,” she said.
“Oh yeah,” Marco said. “I was a theology major in college. I wrote my thesis on folk saints. Nico, I’d love to ask some questions now that I’m past the initial mind-fuckery of meeting you.”
“I’d love to not answer them,” Nico said.
Marco and Maria both flinched; his line delivery had been harsher than he intended. He felt shitty. If not for his massive crush on Maria, Nico would be really happy she and Marco had found each other. Maria was lonely, and she needed more human friends.
“Sorry. I’m having a rough day,” Nico said, running his hand through his hair. “Marco, to be honest, I’m a bad saint. I just started doing this recently, and I’m learning as I go. Please keep your expectations low.”
“Alright,” Marco said. “But one of these days, I do want to pick your brain. I’ve already joined the Discord.”
“Did you ever hear back from Frank or Hazel?” Nico asked Maria, who he’d tasked with getting in touch with Hazel via the Discord. He was beginning to worry about her. They’d never gone this long without talking.
Her face fell.
“I’m sorry, Nico. I–”
He couldn’t take anymore. He disappeared in a swirl of darkness, returning to his small office in Bartholomew’s church.
He curled up on the cold floor beside his desk and cried, as softly as possible so that Adalbert wouldn’t hear from next door. He was making progress, he was getting somewhere, he knew that he was. But he felt as though everything was falling apart.
He sat up, sniffling and scrubbing at his eyes. Tomorrow, he’d talk to Brigid. Tomorrow, she’d help him fix everything.
He reached for his pocket, remembering that he had souls to drop off, and a few more to collect before the night was out. That would make him feel better, it always did.
His pocket was empty. He patted it again, and again, and felt nothing. There were no souls there.
“Thanatos,” he cursed under his breath. He’d been robbed.
He lay back on the stone floor and stared at the whorls in the plaster ceiling. He was kind of happy that the souls weren’t his problem anymore. Handing them over to Michael would have felt like he was condemning them to Hell himself, assuming a few souls were headed there, which seemed a safe assumption. He found that he didn’t really mind letting Thanatos take that task from him, at least just for tonight. He had too much else on his mind.
There was one left, though. Tizi was still in his pocket. He took her soul out and turned it over in his hands, her blue orb glowing with a few pink highlights, just like her hair. Thanatos had remembered Nico saying he might still need her. He’d really been listening.
The next morning, the sun dawned bright and clear. Nico attended mass in the morning, and Bartholomew let him sit beside him for the duration. Patli and Luz were still in Latin America, so there was no one shooting dirty looks at him for the special treatment. Today, Nico was going to Vatican City to meet his program director.
He was practically skipping when he realized they were walking right into St. Peter’s Basilica. He walked behind Bartholomew, as he’d been directed, and they passed invisibly through a horde of tourists come to see the heart of the Catholic faith, the Pope’s seat.
He struggled to keep his eyes on the moist red muscles of Bartholomew’s skinless back. There was too much to look at; tour groups from every corner of the world, the gleaming white colonnade surrounding the square, the marble statues of Christ flanked by saints atop the colonnade. He saw two that he knew, Philip and Bartholomew, depicted among them.
What drew his attention most, however, was the towering red granite obelisk in the center of the square.
“That’s Egyptian,” Nico said, staring at it.
“And?” Bartholomew said.
“Why would you want it here? It’s pagan.”
“It’s a symbol,” Bartholomew said. “Caligula had it brought to Rome when he conquered Egypt. A pope had it brought to Vatican City when we conquered– Well, you know how it goes.”
“I hate Caligula. Why would you want to show it off if it doesn’t belong to you?” Nico asked.
“Probably for the same reason you wear those wings,” Bartholomew said.
Nico kept his mouth shut after that.
He didn’t see the inside of St. Peter’s basilica but for a moment, before they headed through an invisible door and entered the supernatural wing of the building. Suddenly, there were saints everywhere– some talking on phones, others floating above the ground, writing on parchment, and still more scrubbing floors and saying rosaries. All of them greeted Bartholomew respectfully and gave Nico curious looks.
“How many saints are there?” Nico asked.
“At least ten thousand,” Bartholomew said. “Many of whom spend their days merely trying to keep up with the records. It isn’t easy, but we don’t like things to be too easy around here,” he added with a slight smile.
“Yeah. I noticed,” Nico said. Bartholomew was in a rare good mood today, and it put him slightly on edge.
The hallways in the back all looked much the same– marble floors, oil paintings of biblical scenes hung on every inch of open wall space in ornate gilded frames, frescoed ceilings with pictures of clouds and angels that moved. The light of the sun streamed through the windows, illuminating everything in gold. It was a beautiful place to spend eternity, albeit an eternity filled with paperwork.
“Wait here,” Bartholomew said, pausing outside a large set of bronze doors. Nico waited while he went in. He heard voices inside, two people he didn’t know– one male, one female.
Brigid and someone else? He peeked inside, but couldn’t see much beyond a thick carpet and a roaring fireplace on one wall.
He glanced around. They were at the end of the hall, where it came to a dead end at a set of golden doors. The busy saints were concentrated at the other end, leaving this section of hallway empty but for Nico.
He kept glancing back at the golden doors. Something about them seemed off, like they were changing every time he looked at them. They must lead somewhere particularly special, he thought, staring at them.
He walked toward it. The golden panels were covered in carvings of feathers and eyes. Every time he blinked, they’d shifted to different positions.
After one particularly long blink, he saw a keyhole appear.
Nico walked up and looked through it.
On the other side, he saw light like a golden ray of sun, as though the flame of a candle were being held up to the keyhole to block his view. He backed away, unable to make anything out, and touched the handle. It was hot.
That was as far as he dared go. When he turned around, he saw that he was being watched.
Bartholomew was fuming, the muscles in his forehead turned downward in a severe frown. Beside him, a saint in white robes stood. He had a white beard and an incredibly bright golden halo on his head, and in his hand, he held a set of keys.
Nico knew immediately that he’d messed up. He’d embarrassed his boss in front of his boss’s boss. Never a good thing.
“I’m sorry, I– I wasn’t gonna go inside, I was just touching the handle, but–”
“I’ll handle this,” said a woman’s voice
The woman who walked out of the office was nothing like Nico had expected. He had not been picturing Brigid as being over six feet tall, but she towered over both Peter and Bartholomew, with shoulders like a linebacker’s. She had on a traditional nun’s habit, a black outer covering with a white headscarf beneath, and her eyebrows were fiery red. She had milk-white skin and freckles. And her eyes were on fire.
Nico had only ever seen the effect in Hestia’s eyes, where an eternal flame seemed to burn in the depths of the pupils. Brigid was like Hestia, he knew immediately. He was looking at a fire goddess.
Only he wasn’t, because she was a saint. And a very angry one at that.
She walked up to Nico slowly, giving him more than enough time to cower. She never took her eyes off him. He could feel heat radiating off of her, and he could sense that, if she wanted to, she could burn him alive with a glance.
“Bad saint,” she said, her voice like thunder.
She wrapped one massive hand around his ribcage, lifted him off the ground, and threw him out the window.
Notes:
100 Chapters, I don't even know what to say! It seems unbelievable that it's taken me this long to tell Nico's story. Every time I think it's about to wrap up, there's another complication in his life! That said, it is truly wrapping up in a very slow fashion. This is kind of an extended denoument. The tough part is knowing where to stop. I was always intrigued by the idea of including Catholicism into a story based in the Percy Jackson universe, but the well is so much deeper than I imagined. The way the history of the 2 religions blend together and interact is really rich story territory and I'm spoiled with too many ideas.
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Wind whipped past his face as he hurtled through the air at breakneck speed. It happened too quickly to process; Nico had only just managed to mutter under his breath, ‘Uh oh,’ when he made impact.
Upon landing, the first thing he noticed was a terrible cracking noise, followed by an immediate sensation of numbness. As he lay in a deep crater in the dirt and stared dazedly up at the pale winter sun, he realized his back had just snapped in half.
He tried to suck in a breath and found it impossible, as though his lungs had deflated. Unable to breathe, he panicked for a moment until he reminded himself he didn't have to breathe if he didn’t want to. It took an effort of will to overcome the instinctual discomfort, but once he'd mastered it, it didn't come back.
Two male figures loomed over him, the sun too bright behind their heads to make out their individual features. He could not stand, he realized, nor even lift his head for a better look. Some vital part of his nervous system had been disconnected, although even as he thought this, he sensed the nerves reconnecting themselves. Pain was beginning to blink on his radar, though the signal was faint.
“Yes?” One of the male figures said, touching his earpiece in a routine saintly gesture. “Understood, ma'am. Will do,” he said.
His companion knelt down to the level of Nico’s head. He had a soft, round and weary expression, and his demeanor was casual, as though Nico’s situation was typical.
“You pissed off Brigid,” He said, clucking his tongue. “Big mistake.”
“Beginning to... Realize that,” Nico said, speaking with difficulty. His lungs were healing, and he could breathe again, but that meant that his spinal cord was healing, too. The sensation was unbearable, but of course, he had no choice but to bear it.
“You have a flesh body?” the other man said, wincing in sympathy. “Yikes.”
“He’s lucky. Incorruptible bodies heal fast,” his companion said. “It’s the psychological punishments that hurt the most.”
Each man grabbed a foot and began dragging Nico forward, moving in sync as though they’d done it a thousand times before. Nico yelped loudly, the movement sending a jolt of pain through him. He’d felt worse, but once you’d been burned alive, you could say that about everything.
“Let go of me,” he said, wriggling for a moment. “What’s happening? Where are you taking me?”
One of the men tugged his foot hard enough that his vision went white, though whether it was on purpose, Nico did not know. He remained silent after that, and suffered through the indignity of being dragged downstairs into a dark, damp hole in the ground.
As grim as his situation was, Nico felt a sense of relief. Being immersed in the earth eased his homesickness for the Underworld. It helped him feel better in the moment, but it was also a grim reminder that he was not a creature of heaven. He was a grimy little dirt demon at heart. It was no wonder he was being punished.
After a few minutes wandering through darkness, the men lifted him, one taking hold of his shoulders and one holding his feet.
“Ouch!” Nico said, looking at the man holding his feet. In the darkness, Nico could make out his halo. “Quit swinging me around so much!”
“We can’t go easy on you,” he said. “You’re supposed to be learning a lesson right now. This is a penance.”
“Isn’t penance supposed to be voluntary?” Nico muttered.
“We know who you are,” he said. “If you didn’t want to be here, you wouldn’t be.”
Nico was left at a loss for words. The saint drawing attention to it made the situation suddenly awkward, as though it was implied that he wanted this, wanted to be tossed around in a cave and carried like a corpse. He stifled the sudden urge to clarify that this wasn’t some weird kink he had. Saying it wasn’t would only make it seem like it was.
The other man seemed to take pity on him, and held his shoulders a bit steadier.
Their journey beneath the earth continued around a few more twists and turns before they stopped in a long, dark hall. As one, the men raised him up and swung him into an alcove that had been dug out of the wall. Nico landed in the bottom of a stone sarcophagus. He was trying not to scream with the pain of his rough handling, but the white-hot sensations had him digging his nails into his palms until they were shredded. Thankfully, no stone lid slid shut overhead. He stared upward at a ceiling of hard packed earth.
He could smell the metallic aroma of ichor in the air, and he knew he was bleeding, and not just from his hands. He could feel broken ribs poking through his skin, leaving parts of his anatomy touching cold air that were meant to remain internal. The back of his head also felt weirdly crunchy, like the hard landing had cracked his skull. Brigid had thrown him incredibly hard; his bones were far tougher than a human’s, and the force needed to break them was extreme. That wasn’t surprising; the woman had been built like a rhinoceros.
Every breath was agony, and he tried to stop taking them, but his stupid subconscious did it anyway the second he stopped paying attention. He hated every attempt to inflate his lungs, because they always failed to inflate completely, and it hurt like being stabbed in the chest with a thousand knives.
“What is this for?” Nico croaked out, seeing that the saints who’d carried him were lingering, receiving another message on their earpieces. “What did I do?”
“One sec,” one of the saints said, holding up a finger. “Hey, boss? What’s this guy in for? Uh huh. Okay.” He looked at Nico. “They say you did a couple of things, actually. Something about smoking?”
Nico’s mind went blank for a second.
“Oh,” he said, realizing. He’d smoked a cigarette by accident the other day– to the extent you could do something like that by accident. “Is that it?”
“You’ve also been struggling with lust. They think this will help.”
“What about the door?” Nico asked. “I’m not in trouble for peeking at whatever that was?”
“They didn’t say anything about any door,” the saint said.
Nico was baffled. He’d felt certain that Brigid had been angry with him about the door. He supposed no one had told him not to look in the keyhole. And it had been foolish to think he could get away with smoking; that had been explicitly against the rules. Maybe the timing had just worked out weird?
He was in terrible pain, but he had a high pain tolerance. He figured he’d be back to normal sometime the following day, maybe the day after if he healed very slowly. Things could definitely be a lot worse, he figured.
“You’re to remain in this tomb until you say a hundred thousand Hail Mary’s,” the saint said.
“Gee whiz,” his companion echoed. “That’s a lot.”
“That is a lot,” the other agreed as the two of them walked away together.
Nico stared up at the earth hanging over his head, the weight of the world literally hanging above him. His surroundings were pleasant, but his circumstances were not. One hundred thousand Hail Mary’s… He could scarcely calculate how long it would take.
He lay in the darkness for days, feeling his bones slowly knit back together one by one. His lungs went back to normal first, and his spine righted itself soon after, so he could at least lie still without feeling like lightning was frying his spinal cord every second.
The physical pain resolved itself quickly, but, as the saints had warned, the psychological pain lingered, and was more difficult to get rid of. Reciting a prayer over and over was a simple enough task to complete, but he found himself procrastinating on starting it. Every time he managed to quit putting it off and forced himself to say a few hundred, he’d quickly grow bored and want a break. It was easier to recite prayers while you could be engaged in doing something else at the same time. In his case, he wasn’t allowed to leave his tomb, and his brain was staging a revolt, refusing to do what he asked of it. His progress was achingly slow.
After a while, he got accustomed to the rhythms of his prison. He pieced together the fact that he was in a catacomb– he could see the niches in the walls, hewn from the dirt, where the bodies of early Christians had once been laid to rest. They had to have been Christians, because the Romans had favored cremation. No corpses occupied the niches any longer, but the lingering aura of death and decay covered him like a comforting blanket of familiarity.
There was a short woman walking around with a torch, probably a saint, because her feet made no noise. The two men who’d dragged him in seemed to be her guards. They usually followed behind a few minutes after the woman passed, chatting among themselves.
The strangest aspect of his already strange imprisonment were the mortal tour groups. On weekdays, a gaggle of tourists, usually English speaking, would meander through the catacomb corridors led by priests carrying big flashlights. A couple of times a day they'd shine it right in his face and give a lecture about Domitilla, Domitian's niece, who had been a martyr, and her two servants, Nereus and Achilleus, and the history of the catacombs.
During the long days and longer nights filled with prayer and procrastination, Nico contemplated going back to the Underworld. The dark, damp, and cold underground caverns full of the smell of death were making him increasingly homesick. He thought fondly of his old room and the comfort of his little bed with Stygian silk sheets, where he’d been able to sleep as long as he liked.
He'd have given anything to wake and find himself curled up in those sheets, cozy and at home. He'd open his eyes, and Hypnos would be standing over him, laughing about the weird dreams he’d given him, and all would be well again.
He actually missed Hypnos. He'd hit rock bottom.
This was the first real bout of homesickness he’d had since starting the saintly venture. There had been too much newness to be excited and baffled by, and he’d been thoroughly distracted by other concerns. Now he was bowled over by the overpowering temptation to go home. He could head out anytime he liked, knowing that Persephone and Cerberus’ loving arms and paws awaited him, and his dad wouldn’t be there to complicate things. All it would take was a blink and he could be in his own bed. It would feel so good to just let go.
But if he did that, what would be the point of the whole adventure? He had given up nearly everything in order to become something he only half-imagined he could be. His ambition had grown with every passing day as he learned about the faith and grew accustomed to the rules.
He was not sure he could do this. Persephone’s warning had not fallen on deaf ears; he knew the odds of him ever becoming a saint were low. He’d been told it would take centuries, and he hadn’t even turned a hundred yet; he had no clue whether he had the fortitude required. But if he’d learned anything over the last months, it was how to believe in something despite a lack of evidence. He had learned how to have faith, and he was choosing to have a little faith in himself.
No, he was not ready to go home, though the temptation pawed at him like a cat that was a minute late for being fed. He had something to prove yet. He wanted to grow stronger, to cease to be so low and worthless that Brigid could flick him away like a fly. Nico the demon might have deserved it, but he couldn’t continue as the Catholic psychopomp while being disrespected that way. He wouldn’t mind taking a break from soul-collecting to focus on sainthood, but the church couldn’t have it both ways, and he’d need to tell them so. Fortunately, with Marco and Maria forming a band, his most faithful followers would soon have a global platform to share the good word about him. He had a gut feeling he was about to emerge from this tomb to a major cloutstorm.
Having made up his mind, he was finally able to lock in and finish his Hail Mary’s. He left scratches on the wall to count every hundred. Once he'd hit 25,000, he switched to another tomb in order to find more space for scratching lines. At fifty thousand, he began idly wandering around the catacombs and inspecting the art on the walls while he recited. By seventy thousand he'd started taking breaks to chat with Nereus and Achilleus every time they walked by.
“Am I the only one who's been sent here for punishment?” He asked them once while taking a break between prayers. Seeing that he was close to finishing his task, the guards had become more friendly with him, and didn’t mind his wanderings so long as he didn’t leave the catacomb.
“Now? Yes. This place is usually empty,” Achilleus said, leaning on his spear. “But that's because this is the overflow catacomb. They don't send people here unless the others are full.”
“Full? How many others are there?” Nico asked, glancing down the dark corridor. He’d counted thousands of tombs in this catacomb alone.
“At least a half dozen, maybe?” Achilleus said, looking at his companion.
Nereus shrugged.
“More than that, I think. All with this many alcoves, too, since I can tell that was gonna be your next question.”
“So saints are getting punished a lot, I'm gathering?” Nico asked. “Or saints in training?”
“Mostly the latter. It's not so much about frequency,” Nereus said. “You have a flesh body they can damage, you know? You're easy to punish. The spirit bodies are more challenging.”
“You're saying they get forced to lay in the alcoves for months at a time?” Nico asked.
“Try years,” Nereus said. “Centuries, in some cases.”
Nico pictured the other catacombs scattered around Rome, their alcoves brimming over with aspiring saints muttering prayers for decades on end.
“They do realize that they can just give up, right?” Nico asked.
“And go where? This is the Eternal City. The Caput Mundi. The Urbs Sacra. This is the big time,” Nereus said, gesturing at the city that stood above their heads.
“If you can make it here, you can make it anywhere,” Achilleus said, adjusting his halo proudly.
“Well, yeah, but that implies that if you can’t make it here, you can probably make it in a bunch of other places,” Nico said. “I can’t be the only trainee that has other options. What about folk saints? I met one named Santa Muerte once. The church didn’t claim her, but she’s still venerated. She still makes a difference in people’s lives.”
“When a saint quits, their name is struck from the records,” Achilleus said. “The church claims they never existed. Hard to keep getting prayers after that.”
“Without prayers, you can’t help people, and if you can’t help people, you don’t get prayers,” Nereus said. “It’s a vicious circle.”
“We don’t all have a demonic bloodline to fall back on,” Achilleus added, frowning at Nico.
“Yeah, well, I just know I couldn’t wait years down here,” Nico said, shuffling his feet. “I’d go totally insane.”
“Maybe they’re just tougher than you, kid,” Nereus said.
Nico finished his Hail Mary’s and was released a few days later. He felt strange after the experience. The isolation and sensory deprivation had worked a strange kind of alchemy on his brain. He felt as though self-discipline came easier and noticed he was less prone to self-pity. It was hard to have a woe-is-me attitude once he’d fully accepted that he was choosing his own path with every step that he took. Not for the first time, he was surprised at himself. It felt like he was learning to be a better version of himself.
He walking inside the Vatican unescorted and knocked on Brigid’s door without so much as glancing at the door at the end of the hallway. A short young woman opened it, her halo glowing brightly.
“She’s waiting for you,” she said, gesturing for him to enter Brigid’s chambers. “Mind yourself,” she added in a whisper.
His first impression was that he’d left Vatican City and entered another world entirely. Brigid’s rooms were dark, chilly, and damp, with white limewashed walls and an enormous smoky fireplace providing the only light in the room. All around the walls were the usual pictures of Mary and the infant Jesus, and a print of Da Vinci’s Last Supper, which was practically mandatory to have hanging in every saint’s office. In addition to the familiar was something unfamiliar, a folded geometric X design that appeared to be made of brown paper. There were hundreds of them hanging on the walls and dangling from the ceiling, but he had no idea what they were.
Brigid was at her desk waiting on him, so he didn’t linger to figure out what the strange ornaments were. Again, he was intimidated by her size and by the blazing fire behind her eyes. He was determined to act with some semblance of dignity, in spite of his nerves getting the better of him. He reminded himself once more that he was choosing to be there. If it got to be too much, he could go home. He was okay.
“Saint Brigid, I’ve completed my penance,” he said, folding his hands penitently and trying to look admonished. “Thank you for helping me learn. I won’t slip up again.”
She raised two red eyebrows beneath her nun’s veil.
“Very good,” she said, a bit reluctantly. “I must admit, I’d heard rumors of whining. I was prepared to make additional corrections.”
“No need,” Nico said quickly.
“Hm,” Brigid said, standing slowly. She towered over Nico, and he inadvertently took a step backward.
“We sense great potential in you,” she said, walking around the desk to stand before the fire. It seemed to glow brighter in her presence. “And greater risk. I advised against your inclusion in our program, but Philip insisted you be given a chance.”
“I’m really grateful,” Nico said. “I’m doing the best I can.”
“I believe you,” she said. “But your best may still not be good enough.”
“I know,” Nico said. “But I’m trying anyway.”
She gave him another surprised look.
“Hmph,” she grumbled. Nico wondered for a moment why she acted like he was giving wrong answers when he knew they were the right ones. Did she not want him to succeed? It was her program. He would have thought his success would make her look good.
“May I ask why you started this program?” He said. He wanted some reassurance that every saint had a past, every sinner had a future, and that pagan gods could be changed into something new. She had obviously once been one herself, and she was the role model Bartholmew had recommended he learn from.
“No,” Brigid said coldly.
“Oh. Okay.”
She was silent, staring into the flames intently. Nico was thrown off by her demeanor. She seemed to have no reassurance for him, no encouragement. In fact, she seemed uncomfortable in his presence.
He grew bolder.
“Bartholomew said you used to be like me,” he said. If he offended her, at least the blame could be put on his mentor. Clearly Bartholomew had misread her if he thought she could give Nico helpful advice about transitioning out of pagandom.
Surprisingly, she let out a snort of amusement.
“Like you?” She said, rising. There was a spark of humor in her fiery gaze. “You may as well compare a flake of ash to a forest fire. How old are you?”
“Ninety three,” he said. “But I spent most of that time in a trance, kind of. I’m not really… Wait, what’s the date?”
“February 1st,” she said quietly. She stared into the fire again, all the amusement going out her face. She was so remote, so austere. It made him sad, though he didn’t know why.
“I missed my birthday!” Nico said sharply. The emotional weight of it smacked him in the face like a cold washcloth.
“We typically celebrate deathdays here,” she said unfeelingly. “The day we entered heaven for the first time. Or feast days. Today happens to be my feast day.”
“Congratulations,” Nico said. “Is today the day you died?”
She gave him an admonishing look. They both knew she had never died, but she wasn’t going to admit to being an immortal former pagan goddess out loud, it seemed.
“Sorry. The day you entered heaven for the first time, then?”
“No,” she said.
“Then why is today your feast day?”
Nico was merely asking how the date was selected, whether it meant anything to her or if it was random. He imagined that hopefully someday he might also have a feast day. But Brigid’s spine grew rigid, and she stood tall, clomping back to her desk with earth-shaking stomps.
“I didn’t mean to offend,” Nico said, although he couldn’t imagine why she found the question bothersome. Brigid seemed extremely cagey about her personal life. It defeated the purpose of meeting her in order to answer Persephone’s challenge, because Nico wasn’t able to ascertain whether Brigid was happier now than when she’d been a goddess.
“To business,” Brigid said, sitting down at her desk. “I’m after speaking with Bartholomew, and we’ve agreed that it’s time for you to move up in the scheme of things now that your penance is complete. He seems to believe you have overcome a trial of temptation in the matter of a young woman.”
“He does?” Nico said, wondering when that had happened. This was the first he was hearing of it. Thinking about Maria still made his heart race and his stomach do flips. Love was the most annoyingly persistent emotion ever invented. Sometimes he wished he could kill it with a hammer.
“Clever of you, to set her up with someone else. Selfless, supposedly. Bartholomew thinks so, anyway.”
Nico’s stomach dropped. Set her up with someone else? He’d been gone for 2 months. Maria and Marco must have started dating while he was gone.
He had sort of seen that coming. It still hurt.
“Your work in collecting souls has commended you to rank higher than I would normally allow, but you pose a unique situation.”
“Move up?” Nico said, his spirits brightening. “Like a promotion?”
“Contingent on your completion of a task,” Brigid said. “One I have little faith that you will prevail in.”
Nico was on tenterhooks waiting to hear what it was, but Brigid started fiddling with the fire, forcing him to be patient.
“There is a young woman in California building a pagan temple in your name,” Brigid said, turning to face him. “Destroy it.”
Nico returned to his desk in Bartholomew’s church on Tiber Island to find a dozen emails from Marco and Maria. He was too distressed over his mission to write back or even read them all. He found himself thinking bitterly that they had each other now, so naturally they no longer had a need for him. That was unfair, but he was in a hideous mood.
California. A temple in his name. Obviously Hazel was trying to get his attention, and her ploy had worked– but not in the way she’d wanted it to. Not only was Nico about to shatter her heart and destroy her creation, but he was also not going to be allowed to speak to her alone. Brigid’s saintly assistant, whose name was Dymphna, had planned on going to observe, but Nico had explained that Terminus wouldn’t allow a known saint to cross the borders of New Rome. They’d compromised by sending his fellow saint-in-training, Luz. Nico could hear her in the next room discussing her mission with Adalbert and Patli in low tones. It seemed she wasn’t looking forward to her road trip with Nico.
They planned to leave in the morning. Until then, Nico was free to plan strategies for getting Hazel to cooperate– although brute force had also been authorized. So long as the temple came down, he was in the clear.
Nico walked into Adalbert’s office, staring down Luz, Patli, and Adalbert, who watched him warily.
“I’m going for a walk,” he said. “I need to clear my head.”
Adalbert nodded, and Nico walked out, feeling their eyes on his back.
He walked outside the church and looked up at the stars. It was a cold, clear night, the chill winter air cutting through to his skin. He wondered if it would stay this way if Spring was canceled. Was Persephone really so powerful? He wouldn’t be surprised.
As he stood in contemplation, a strange sight caught his eye.
Alessio de Medici, the doctor he’d met in the hospital across the street, was walking toward the church. On a hunch, Nico turned invisible and followed him.
It was strange to see Alessio out so late. It was after midnight, and the island was quiet. The church was closed to visitors, and in any case, Alessio had claimed to not be religious.
Alessio walked around the long way, avoiding the church entrance and walking down a set of stairs Nico had never noticed. On a walkway along the edge of the Tiber, Alessio circled around to the back of Bartholomew’s church, now level with the basement.
Nico followed unnoticed. Strangely, Alessio seemed to have no purpose in his midnight wanderings. He walked around the back of the church and stood beside the wall, pressing his hand against it. He took his time standing beside the river and gazing into the water. When he was satisfied, he turned around and headed back the way he’d come. The last Nico saw of him, he was walking back through the hospital doors.
Where did Alessio live? Why was he working so late, and why hadn’t Nico seen him entering and leaving the hospital on a daily basis? He knew doctors worked long hours, but Alessio gave the impression that he was sleeping in the hospital every night.
Nico retraced Alessio’s steps, walking around to the back of the church to see what was so interesting. There were some older layers of building beneath the modern level, but that was typical in Rome. The city was prone to flooding around the Tiber, so everything had to be built and rebuilt many times over when it got too much water damage. He saw old Roman-style brick porticos peeking out from beneath the modern construction.
Beneath the brick was a stone carving in the shape of a ship’s prow. Maybe Alessio liked boats, Nico wondered, grasping at straws. He traced the line of the ship, until his fingers stopped on a particular feature.
Partway up the wall was a weathered carving unconnected to the ship. It was a staff with a single snake wrapped around it– the rod of Asclepius.
“Crap,” Nico muttered.
Alessio de Medici was Asclepius. Nico didn’t know why or how, but he felt it had to be true. His instinct had been correct; when Alessio had been trying to resuscitate that dying patient, he’d really been trying to bring him back to life. He knew how to do it, but his powers were gone. Nico would bet anything that there was a sacred seal on Asclepius preventing him from using his divine abilities.
Maybe even preventing him from leaving Tiber Island.
Nico pressed his forehead against the cold stone and groaned aloud. He was seeing Hazel tomorrow. He’d have one chance to convert her so that they wouldn’t need to be separated by conflicting faiths anymore; he couldn’t afford to screw this up. This revelation could not have had worse timing.
In the morning he met Luz at the doors of the church. She shot him a look of pure revulsion.
“I’ve been briefed on the details of your pagan enclave,” she said, looking down her nose at him. This was a feat, because she was probably four foot eleven. “I don’t want any funny business. These people sound insane. Attempting to resurrect a dead civilization? Ridiculous.”
“I just spent six weeks in a sarcophagus for smoking a cigarette,” Nico said, taking her hand in preparation to leave. “But yeah. They’re the crazy ones.”
He shadow traveled with Luz to the borders of Camp Jupiter. The gentle hills covered in a blanket of fog sent a pang of nostalgia through his heart. He remembered dropping Hazel off here over a year ago, and hosting the Parentalia festival in the Colosseum that loomed just out of sight. He remembered Jason, and wondered what he’d think of Nico now, destroying his own temple in pursuit of an ambition that would seem completely foreign to a good Roman soldier.
Luz shivered as though she were frightened.
“You know, this will be a lot easier for me if I don’t have to drag you along,” Nico said. “You clearly don’t want to be here. I can sneak in alone without being noticed, but Terminus will want to interrogate you. You’ll set off all the alarms.”
“We have no choice. I have to make sure you behave yourself,” she said. “I have experience at this, believe it or not. I had to go to Peru with Patli last year to sort out some unfinished business with her twin brother. Pagans can be very clingy,” she added bitterly.
“Patli has a pagan demon for a parent, right?” Nico asked, careful to use approved terminology. In the Catholic pantheon, the word demigod only applied to one dude.
“His name is Inti,” Luz said. “Don’t tell her I told you that. Anyway, when it comes to demons, we have permission to bend the truth a little, so don’t tell them our purpose here is to destroy anything. And I’d advise you not to engage long with your sister once you’ve determined she’s a hopeless cause. Just get the task done and get me out of here.”
Nico gritted his teeth.
“Don’t ever ,” he said, glaring at Luz, “Call my sister a hopeless cause. If Constantine can convert, so can any Roman. Don’t you dare–”
“Prove me wrong, my brother in Christ,” Luz fired back, totally unintimidated by his fury. “Prove. Me. Wrong.”
Her dark eyes bored holes in him. Nico backed off, sighing.
He used to be one of the big dogs, he mourned silently, walking down the hill towards Terminus’ border. Sure, there had been gods more powerful than him, but demigods used to quake in fear if he so much as raised an eyebrow. His powers were far greater than Luz’s, if she even had any from her godly parent. But Luz was further down the path toward sainthood than he was. He had no idea where she was from or what she’d been in her mortal life, but she must have performed miracles in her lifetime. Her legend lived on, and people were praying to her somewhere– more people than Nico had praying to him. He was pretty sure he only had two prayer warriors on his side, and they were probably too busy kissing each other to even think of him anymore.
Luz walked ahead of him confidently, her feet never touching the ground. She was destined for sainthood, he was certain, though it may be another hundred years before it was official. She didn’t need to fear him. She had an army at her back.
He walked up to the stone boundary line. Terminus wasted no time in appearing to greet him.
“Nico di Angelo?” Terminus said, his stone face flabbergasted. “This is, erm, unexpected. I’d heard rumors that you–”
“I have business with my sister Hazel, the Pontificus Maximus,” Nico said. Luz snorted behind him at the title, but he ignored her. “Are you going to let me in or not?” He demanded.
“You don’t need my permission,” Terminus said. “Your friend, however– Is this a new recruit for the legion?”
“I think not,” Luz said coldly, flipping her long black hair over her shoulder. “I come on a mission of diplomatic outreach.”
More like divine infiltration, Nico thought to himself.
“She’s with me,” he said.
Terminus raised a single stony eyebrow.
“A daughter of Quetzalcoatl on New Roman soil? It’s been a while since we’ve had one of those, but if you vouch for her, I have no choice but to admit her.”
Luz’s eyes went wide as saucers.
“How did you know that?” She asked.
“This is California, not the North Pole,” Terminus said. “We have interactions with our neighbors to the south from time to time. Not often, but enough to know their tells.”
She looked violated, like he’d pulled up an old baby picture of her in the bathtub and showed it to her.
Terminus opened a gate in the boundary wall, and they walked through.
“How do you spell that? Quetzal something?” Nico said, teasing her. “I’m totally Googling that later.”
She shot him an angry look, but he merely chuckled.
“I have issues with my dad, too,” he said. “I get it.”
She didn’t seem pleased to find they had common ground. He led them to Temple Hill without another word.
Memories of Parentalia flooded back. Nico walked past the temple of Pluto, his heart wrenching. He could practically see Jason’s ghost sitting on the steps, waving at him. Oh, the memories of times long past…
Oh. Wait, that actually was Jason’s ghost waving at him.
“Nico!” Jason called out, bounding down the steps. He ran up to Nico and hugged him. “You’re finally back! And you’re you again! Everyone’s been so worried.”
“Jason,” Nico murmured, completely disarmed.
“You know, when I helped you escape the Underworld, I didn’t do it with the intention of never seeing you again,” Jason said, punching him in the arm jokingly. “You could have at least sent a note letting me know you were okay.”
“You haven’t heard?” Nico said weakly.
“Heard what?” Jason asked, his sweet, innocent shade face looking back at Nico with absolutely no clue what he was talking about.
Of course Jason hadn’t heard. Hazel knew better than to burden Jason with knowledge that didn’t serve him. Nico had a feeling she knew, though. The construction of the temple seemed deliberate.
“Nothing,” Nico said, clasping Jason’s face in his hands. “Jason…”
Luz cleared her throat loudly.
“I’m sorry,” Nico said, ignoring her. “I should have let you know I was okay. Thank you for helping me escape. I know I was being a jerk that day, and you helped me anyway. It means a lot. Thank Minos for me, too, okay?”
“It’s alright,” Jason said. “But you can tell Minos yourself. Come home! We can go right now!”
He took Nico’s hand like nothing had changed, like they were still former lovers turned dear friends. Nico stared down at their clasped hands. He felt Luz’s eyes on his back.
“You helped me leave,” Nico said. “You gave me a chance to start over. And I took that chance. I can’t go back with you. I’m not the same person anymore. I’m not the Nico you loved. I’m someone different now.”
Jason stared at him, not understanding.
“What are you saying?” He asked, distress mounting in his voice. “You’re still the same Nico you’ve always been.”
In some aspects, yes, he was the same. But in many, he wasn’t. And he didn’t want to be. Nico didn’t just feel stronger, he felt more. He was growing every day, in ways he didn’t quite know how to explain. He couldn’t afford to stop for anyone, not even Jason.
“Goodbye, Jason,” Nico murmured, dismissing his spirit back to the Underworld.
He stood in the middle of the cobblestone road, standing in the place where they’d once met in the looming shadow of Pluto’s dark temple. He was left with a hollow, empty feeling where Jason had once been. He prayed he would not regret this. At least Jason would be quick to forget.
A slow clap resounded from inside the temple nearby. He turned. Hazel stood there in the doorway, wearing a short black dress. She looked older than when he’d last seen her, taller, and she’d changed her hair. She’d also gotten a septum piercing.
“When did you get your nose pierced?” Nico said. For some reason he felt offended, like this was a matter he ought to have been consulted on. He immediately scolded himself internally. He needed to focus; he had way bigger fish to fry than her fashion choices.
“Haven’t you heard? When a girl’s only male role model walks out on her, she tends to start acting up,” Hazel said angrily. “Piercings, tattoos. Sex, drugs, and rock and roll. I’ve gone bad now just trying to cope.”
“You don’t have a bad bone in your body,” Nico said, looking up at her lovingly. “Hi, sis. I missed you.”
Hazel stared at him, her eyes glossing over his tailored suit, his slicked back hair and earpiece, and the identically dressed woman behind him, who was watching her with disapproval.
“You sent Jason away,” Hazel said, her eyes filling with tears. “He was my litmus test. I summoned him the minute Terminus said you were here. You sent Jason away, and now I know that you’ve entered New Rome as my enemy.” Her voice cracked on the word ‘enemy’, and she sounded like nothing more than a heartbroken young girl. Nico’s own heart was breaking alongside her.
“That’s not–” Nico started.
“We’re building you a temple,” Hazel said.
“I didn’t ask you to do that,” Nico said. “Actually–”
“Jason did,” Hazel said. “He wanted all the minor gods to be represented. You most of all.”
Nico stared at her. That changed things. Or did it? He didn’t know anymore.
“Did I fail you?” Hazel asked. “What did I do to make you abandon me?”
Nico was struck speechless. Tears filled his eyes, too. What a question! As though Hazel could ever let him down. Just looking at her filled him with pride and love and enormous guilt.
“I haven’t abandoned you,” he said, climbing the steps toward her. She took a step backward, and then hesitated, allowing him to reach out to her. He pulled her into a hug. He felt her break down into muffled sobs against his chest.
“I love you, Hazel. Just because my situation changed doesn’t mean that I stopped caring about you.”
“Then why did you leave me?” She wailed.
He backed off, brushing the tears from her eyes, pushing her hair back from her face. He tried to keep the desperation out of his voice. He needed it to sound like there was only one obvious choice for her to make.
“I left because I needed to get myself established, silly,” he said, smiling at her warmly. “I had to make sure everything was ready for you to come and join me.”
This elicited a small gasp of – surprise, he hoped, but more likely horror. Yeah, he thought, watching her face. That was horror.
“Oh, you are such a bastard,” she said, shaking her head in disbelief. “Get your hands off me. I’m not going anywhere with you.”
“Hazel–”
“You have been brainwashed!” Hazel shouted.
“I have to be brainwashed just because I’m doing something different?” Nico asked, genuinely baffled by her reaction. “You could at least give it a try, for my sake. Or has Persephone already poisoned your mind against the church?”
“The church poisoned my mind against the church!” Hazel shouted. “I went to Catholic school in New Orleans, remember? Those nuns were evil, Nico! They hurt me, and they were some of the most racist people I’ve ever encountered. I will never, ever, ever make the mistake of going anywhere near their organization ever again!”
“Just because that one school was bad doesn’t mean everyone is,” Nico said.
“When someone shows you who they are, believe them the first time,” Hazel retorted. “How many examples of their cruelty have to be shoved in your face before you believe them? Huh? You think I’m the only one who was hurt? Ask Piper about the residential schools, see what she has to say. Would you even listen, or are you in too deep to hear the truth anymore?”
“That’s hypocrisy,” Nico said. “You’re the Pontifex Maximus of Camp Jupiter! Camp Child Soldier! Camp JUPITER! You want to talk about abusive? Look at who you call the king of the gods!”
“Jupiter isn’t my king,” she said. “He’s my uncle. It doesn’t make it okay, but I’m willing to put up with more from my own family than I am from strangers. Maybe that’s stupid, but it makes more sense to me than whatever you’re suggesting. What do you want me to do, become a nun?”
“Of course not,” Nico said. Anger was bubbling up inside his chest like a Mento dropped in a bottle of Coke. He knew it wasn’t fair to Hazel, but that old betrayal chord was being struck. Bianca had really done a number on him.
“Hazel,” he said, trying to remain calm. “I need you. Please. You’re my sister. You’re the most important person in the world to me. If you’ll just trust me, if you’d just be willing to give it a try, I’ll devote myself completely to making you happy. I would never let them mistreat you. You’ll be the happiest little Catholic to ever exist.”
“I think I’d rather be a miserable pagan than a happy Catholic,” she said.
Nico’s hope was abandoning him. He couldn’t move forward without her. She needed to change her mind.
“You don’t mean that,” Nico said. “What can Camp Jupiter give you that I can’t? Come on. You know I’m good for it. Money, power, security– anything you want, I’ll make it happen. Please don’t make me get on my knees and beg.”
She shook her head again, her lip quivering.
“After everything I’ve done for you?” Nico said, his heart shattering in his chest. A demon of bitterness crept in through the cracks, He felt it leaching poison through his system, and tried to fight it off. Don’t let it become what it was with Bianca, he warned himself. Don’t let all this love alchemize into hatred. It happened faster than you might think.
He said nothing more. He was scared of what might come out of his mouth if he did. He was capable of terrible wrath when he felt he was being wronged, and he didn’t want to make Hazel a victim of it, no matter how justified he felt in punishing her.
Hazel stared at him where he stood below her, a few stairs down.
“I just want to be me,” she muttered. “After what happened to you, I’d have thought you’d understand.”
Nico was left at a loss for words. Hazel went back inside the temple of Pluto, where she knew he would not follow. He sat on the steps of the temple, pressing his face into his hands. Luz, reading the room correctly for once, said nothing.
“Come on,” he said, standing suddenly. “Let’s wreck my temple.”
“Are you sure you’re ready?” Luz asked, doubting his fortitude. He was sniffling pretty violently still, so that was a fair question.
“I’m ready. It’s my temple, I can wreck it if I want,” he said. The temple was just a symbol. What had really mattered was the conversation, and that was over now.
He wandered around Temple Hill in circles for a few minutes searching, but there was no sign of any temple dedicated to him anywhere.
“You need to ask for directions,” Luz said. She was rapidly growing irritated with Nico’s circling.
“It’s here somewhere,” Nico muttered. He didn’t see anything resembling his temple, or even a construction site. The imposing temple of Jupiter, always brimming with offerings, and the gaudy temple of Apollo gleaming in the sun– these were obvious. Maybe his temple was invisible. That would be fitting.
Even if he wanted to ask for directions, apparently rumors had been swirling. He didn’t see a ton of legionaries or New Romans on Temple Hill, but the ones he did see all hid from him the second he came into view. Maybe they’d spied on his argument with Hazel, and had seen her turn her back on him. Maybe the word ‘Catholic’ had reached their ears and they’d known better than to get near him, fearing the same fate as the first batch of Romans.
He did see one thing he would have rather not seen.
“Need directions?” Thanatos asked, swooping down to land on the street before Luz and Nico.
“No,” Nico said, although he’d circled the block three times.
“It’s in a grove, a little ways down the hill,” Thanatos said.
“I’d have found it,” Nico snapped, walking past him. He had way too much on his plate to deal with Thanatos– although a voice in the back of his head reminded him that Than only wanted to help. Another voice also said, obnoxiously, ‘when do you not have too much on your plate? Get used to it already!’
He and Luz walked down to the grove. A few trees had been removed, but many remained to cast their shadows over the temple. It was currently only a cordoned off square area the size of a garden shed, with rough wooden beams forming the roof. The only permanent construction was the black marble columns that had been installed in the front. They were shiny, new, and imported straight from Italy at great expense; he could tell at a glance. It may not have been the biggest temple on the hill, but it was the newest– there was something cool about that. New gods didn’t come along every century, after all.
He couldn’t destroy it. Not in a million years, he realized, touching the pine wood beams, running his fingers across the marble. The air in the grove was cooler than the surrounding air, the sky darker. He loved this place. It was for him, as much as his bedroom, as much as his sacred grove in Veneto– this temple was an extension of himself.
He must have spent too much time lingering, fondling the columns, because Luz barked, ‘Are you going to destroy it or not?”
He froze, staring at the ground. What was he supposed to do? Destroying it would be like destroying a part of himself, like cutting his hand off. At least a finger, or one of his more valuable toes. Was he strong enough? Could he do it? At this point, he realized it was no longer anything to do with Hazel or Jason. It was about his ego, his identity. It was no wonder Brigid wanted it demolished.
What would be left of him after this saintly venture was all said and done? It was not the first time he’d wondered.
“What happens if he doesn’t destroy it?” Thanatos asked Luz casually.
“He will be punished,” she said, refusing to make eye contact with Thanatos. “Maybe even excommunicated. I don’t know.”
Nico ducked his chin to his chest, not wanting Thanatos to see how much it scared him. He still wanted to be a saint. He had worked so hard, and he felt like it was working for him in return– he was so close to finding out what it was all about, to reaching the center of the Tootsie pop. Was he willing to give up what he’d earned for the sake of a single unfinished temple?
He never learned the answer to that question. Before he made up his mind, the earth began to shake. An earthquake? They were in California, after all. Maybe it was a random occurrence. Maybe…
But probably not.
A single tree in the grove shuddered, cracked loudly, and then toppled over onto the temple construction site, crushing what little structure there was. The marble columns stood, but the wooden frame fell in like a house made of matchsticks.
Nico let out a brief cry of terror before he controlled himself. He glanced at Luz. She nodded appreciatively, said ‘good job,’ and walked away.
That left Thanatos, who lingered beside the wreckage of the temple, gazing at it wistfully. He looked at Nico, gave him a small smile, and then flew away.
Nico got his promotion.
A few weeks later, Nico stood watching the cameras in the supernatural wing of the Vatican Apostolic Library, familiarly known to its employees as the Vat. He glanced down at the chair where the human security guard sat, scrolling through his phone. Saints didn't get cell phones, and they definitely weren't supposed to sit down while they were at work. And they were always at work. The only time he sat lately was when he was reading emails on his computer.
He leaned over the guard's shoulder and watched Tiktoks with him for a while, entertained by the antics of humans. It was scary how fast trends changed. A couple of years ago, when he'd been running around the city exploring with Ganymede, he'd felt he’d gotten decently up to date on human culture. Ganymede was a social media addict, and he’d never shut up about memes, so Nico had had no choice but to catch himself on. More than half of the videos he saw now no longer made any sense to him at all. He didn’t have a clue what the phrase ‘holding space with the lyrics of Defying Gravity’ meant, but apparently people were doing it a lot nowadays.
He glanced up at the camera feed, noticing something. One of the screens, the one depicting the west wing of the treasury, had a strange iridescent sheen layered atop the image. He checked the screen itself, tapping it, but the problem must have been with the camera lens rather than the monitor.
“Luz,” he said over his headset. “Can you check the--” He hesitated. He was bored of just standing in the monitor room. “Can you switch off with me? Gotta check one of the cameras.”
“On my way,” she replied. She’d gotten a lot nicer to him after the trip to New Rome. It turned out she’d gotten a promotion out of it, too. She also had never realized that Nico hadn’t been the one who destroyed the temple. He planned to keep it that way.
They switched places, and he walked out to the treasury and looked at the camera in person, standing on tiptoe to look at the lens. The saints’ treasury was where the library kept objects that weren’t part of the library proper, things not meant for mortal eyes, like grimoires, Necronomicons, and books about sexy vampires. It was mostly books, but not exclusively– there were magical objects there, too, philosopher’s stones and magic wands. It was all a bit too Harry Potter for Nico to be interested, but he could see why it was a security risk.
Someone had positioned a magical shield in front of the camera lens. Nico recognized it immediately as a rainbow, or something that used a similar magical structure to an iris message.
“Everything look good on your side?” Nico asked Luz.
“Yes, everything is normal here,” she said. It didn't seem like she'd noticed the rainbow. “How is the camera?”
Nico raised his fingers to scrub away the film, but stopped mid-scrub. He’d just sensed movement behind his back.
“I'm going to look around to make sure. Thought I saw something,” he said, turning slowly.
He didn't want her involved in an inter-pantheon confrontation, if it was going to come to that. She'd call Bartholomew, and there was a good chance that they'd decide Nico was implicated, even though he had no idea what was going on. He turned invisible, and watched.
Hermes was the god of thieves. Nico had known this, but he was still shocked to see him shimmying through the window after jimmying the lock open. An Olympian appearing inside the Vatican was a massive violation of the boundaries of the supernatural world. It was like seeing two images overlap and form a new, third image that didn't look like anything at all anymore, like a Turducken. Nico had lived in the shadow of his new pantheon's overwhelming power for so long, he'd forgotten it was even possible for other beings to challenge it on their own sacred ground.
Could Hermes really be that stupid?
Well, yes, apparently.
He followed Hermes around for a few minutes in silence, watching him open the metal cases on the shelves and inspect the magical objects inside. He didn't take anything, however, and Nico realized he was here to search for something specific. Hermes didn't seem to have any luck finding it, and he looked frustrated and on the verge of giving up. Nico decided that the best course of action was to just let him leave with no harm done. It wasn’t out of the kindness of his heart that he spared him– he knew the items contained in the room were fragile and liable to break or explode, and it was dangerous to have a physical confrontation right next to them. It was very noble of Nico to hold back, he thought, because he really wanted to punch Hermes, really hard, right in his stupid face.
Then Hermes let out a small cry of delight. He'd opened a tiny box the size of a ring and was pulling something out of it. It elongated as he pulled, turning into a long staff. That box must have belonged to Mary Poppins, Nico thought. For a moment he was baffled as to why Hermes wanted another staff; Hermes had his caduceus wrapped around his wrist in its usual form as a slap bracelet. Then, after a bit of jiggling, a snake slithered out of the box and wrapped itself around the rod– only one snake. It was the rod of Asclepius.
This was bad. Nico knew where Asclepius was, but it seemed as though the Olympians had only suspected. Now that they had evidence that the Catholics were keeping Asclepius imprisoned, Apollo would come knocking, looking for his son. Nico doubted he’d have any backup from Zeus, but Asclepius had his daughter, Hygeia, and quite a few other children who desperately wanted him back. They were healers, not warriors, minor gods who wouldn’t be able to put up much of a fight. It would be a disaster, and it might even escalate into holy war if Zeus got involved after the kids were imprisoned.
He couldn’t let Hermes leave with that staff.
“Ahem,” Nico said.
Hermes turned and stared at him in shock. He was wearing his usual track jacket and tiny shorts. Totally against Vatican dress code, Nico thought, frowning.
“Nico?” Hermes said, flabbergasted. “What are you doing here?”
“I work here,” Nico said, raising his eyebrows.
“As what, a janitor?” Hermes snorted. Nico was reminded of his floor scrubbing days and grew irritated, but he said nothing. He was pretty sure Hermes knew he was a saint-in-training and was just being annoying about it. He could see fear in his eyes. That felt good.
“Your mom tells everybody who asks about you to go fuck themselves,” Hermes said with mild amusement, spinning the rod he was holding like a baton. He'd already started preparing to leave, and was subtly stretching his calves out one at a time. “Isis saw you entering a church a while back. We got the picture.”
They’d caught on that soon? He didn’t remember seeing Isis at all, but she hung around outside the church of Santa Maria Sopra Minerva, so perhaps he should have been more careful.
“I, for one, think it’s good riddance,” Hermes said, slowly backing away towards the window. He wasn’t good at being subtle, Nico realized. He was panicking. “You never fit in with us anyhow. Nemesis and I must have really done a number on you to make you come down with a case of syncretism.” He laughed weakly, thrown off by Nico’s lack of expression.
“Have you heard from Nemesis lately?” Nico asked mildly.
“No,” Hermes said, grinning. He thought Nico was asking because he was worried she’d come try to finish the job– which she already had, unsuccessfully.
Hermes leaned on the rod of Asclepius casually, smirking. He thought for some reason that he had the upper hand here. What an ego, Nico thought, to imagine that Nico had anything to fear from him in Vatican City of all places.
“So what, you ran away from home because you were scared of Nemesis, was that it? Went crying to Il Papa to protect you?” Hermes asked.
“Yeah, that pretty much sums it up,” Nico said, smiling his cruelest, most terrifying smile. “I've been doing great ever since. I got this new job. Got a promotion. Been learning a lot.”
“Fab,” Hermes said, deadpan. “Well, kudos, kid, but I've got to skedaddle. Places to be, you know.”
“I'm afraid I can't let you leave with that,” Nico said, gesturing at the rod of Asclepius.
“Heh, yeah, alright, buddy,” Hermes said, waving goodbye. “You can call your boss, but I'm pretty fast. I don't think they'll get here in time to stop me.”
“Oh, no, that's alright,” Nico said. The situation was already sort of funny, so he decided to lean into it.
He levitated off the floor six inches and let his dim trainee halo become visible around his head. He activated the sacred seals on all the doors and windows, locking them with shields of golden light. And he spread his wings.
“I think I'll stop you myself,” he said.
Hermes wasted no time in racing to all of the windows and doors in quick succession, moving too fast for Nico to even see. Each time he touched the glass, he had to pull his hand back, hissing as it burned his fingerprints off. He activated his caduceus and tried to create a magical protection barrier around himself, holding a staff in each hand. Nico reached out with a tendril of shadow and snatched them both away. It was almost too easy, he thought, holding the staffs and feeling power surge through him. He felt invincible.
Hermes trembled like an animal caught in a trap, disarmed and caught in enemy territory with someone who had every reason in the world to want to see him suffer. Nico dangled the caduceus tantalizingly close, giggling in delight at seeing his cousin desperately grasping for salvation. Hermes kept flicking his eyes to the ceiling, probably hoping to jump hard enough to break through the floor and fly out. Nico nipped that in the bud quickly.
“By all means, go upstairs,” he said. “I'm sure Brigid would love to chat with you. Have you met her? She's delightful. She makes Nemesis look like a delicate flower.”
“I’ve heard of her,” Hermes muttered. “Talk about a fire that was stomped out.”
“What was that?” Nico asked. He couldn’t help but be curious, even though he knew it was off topic. Brigid was so cagey about her past.
“Nothing,” Hermes said, glaring at him. “Did you… Did you take those wings from Nemesis?”
Nico winked at him. Hermes grew pale.
“Fates preserve me,” he murmured. Then, in an act of desperate fury, he threw himself at Nico.
Maybe he thought he could beat Nico into submission and force him to remove the seals on the windows, but Nico had a greater power on his side. His ability to turn pain into pleasure returned conveniently, and with every punch Hermes threw, his smile got bigger. Just as had happened with Nemesis, Hermes was thrown off by his weird reaction. It made him afraid, and fear made him sloppy. Nico was able to pin him to the floor within seconds in spite of being smaller and weaker.
He marveled at the power his new faith gave him. Believing you had an all-powerful God at your back made you very difficult to intimidate. He wondered if his new pantheon had actually made him physically stronger, or if he’d always been a match for Hermes and had never known it. He’d gone so long feeling inferior to the other gods that he’d never considered the possibility that he was their equal.
“We can do this the easy way or the hard way,” Nico said, soaking in every second he had power over Hermes. It felt good to be the one in charge for once. “Kneel.”
“Fuck you.”
Nico waggled a finger at him.
“Now now, be polite. Don’t make me call Jesus.”
Hermes fell to his knees before Nico. He glared up at him, his cheeks flaming, tears of humiliation and fear in his eyes.
“Feels good being the one on top, doesn’t it?” He said bitterly.
“Don't look at me like that,” Nico said, scoffing. “Like I'm offending your divinity. You're in the house of Saint Peter. Uninvited. Or did you think the same rules of hospitality apply to us as they do to you?”
“You'll pay for this, di Angelo,” Hermes hissed.
“Pay for this?” Nico said. Rage kept bubbling up inside him, though he tried to stay serene and saintly. It didn't work. “This is your turn to pay. You put me on trial for something I didn’t do. You got me tortured!”
“You deserved to be tortured! You destroyed my son’s soul!” Hermes shouted back. “He could have been saved, but you took away his chance for redemption. You had no idea what he’d been through. Luke deserved a second chance.”
Nico stared down at Hermes. He looked different down there on the floor, cowering at his feet. Nico imagined that he looked different, too, standing above. All he had to do was touch his bluetooth earpiece and he could have the wrath of heaven brought down on Hermes in an instant. The power he held left him reeling; he nearly had vertigo.
It seemed like only yesterday he’d been on trial, helpless to defend himself while Hermes ruined his life. How quickly things had changed.
“For what it’s worth, I’m sorry about what happened to Luke,” Nico said. “But he swore on the Styx to serve Gaea; he threw away his second chance. Zeus ordered me to destroy his soul. He wanted me to take the fall for it, but it was his idea.”
“You’re lying!” Hermes spat venomously.
“I’m not allowed to lie anymore,” Nico said. “It’s a condition of my employment.”
All color drained from Hermes’ face. To Nico’s horror, he started weeping quietly.
Sympathy bloomed in Nico’s chest. Being the son of Hades hadn’t been a cakewalk, but being the son of Zeus must be a neverending nightmare. He couldn’t imagine the indignities and insults Hermes would have had to swallow over the millennia from a father who thought he never had to apologize for anything, even when he hurt his own children. Zeus had killed both Luke and Asclepius, and they were sure not the only grandchildren that he’d found inconvenient over the years. Nico had been through some shit, but he couldn’t imagine how twisted up inside Hermes was feeling right now.
At least Hades had apologized for traumatizing Nico. The bar for his family’s behavior was quite literally in Hell, he thought wryly. But some of them had it worse than others.
“I didn’t want to be Zeus’s scapegoat,” Nico said. “I would have told you the truth, but Hazel was involved. I was worried he’d–”
“Kill her? He would’ve,” Hermes said. “Forget it. Let’s never talk about this again. It’s over. I should’ve known dad would pull something like that. It’s on me.”
“You don’t have to go back,” Nico suggested. “We’re always hiring.”
He was only half serious, but Hermes got a funny look on his face. Nico realized that he was actually considering it.
“What am I– No, of course not,” Hermes said, getting to his feet. “No way. I’d rather deal with my dad forever than be with you weird people. At least he’s my dad.”
Nico frowned. That was the same response Hazel had given him. She’d rather get abused by her own relatives than try to make it somewhere new. On one level, Nico found that ridiculous, but he had to admit, his first introduction to the church had come from Maria di Angelo herself. Maybe, if that hadn’t been the case, he’d see it differently.
Nico took the caduceus in one hand and the rod of Asclepius in the other. He shrunk them both down into rings and put them into ring boxes.
“Hermes, I’ve decided to let you go– on one condition. You need to seriously consider my offer of joining us. It’s okay for me to play nice with pagans, but only if it’s part of an effort to convert you. Do you understand what I’m saying?” Nico asked, raising his eyebrows at his cousin.
“I’ll consider it,” Hermes said. “But you can’t keep my caduceus. It's taken me years to plan this heist. I've had to beg, borrow and steal to find the pharmakeia to get past the walls. I did things I'm not proud of. I'll never be able to get back in and steal it back.”
“There’s no way!” Nico said, angered by his audacity. “Forget it! You ought to be grateful you get to leave. If you’d run into anybody other than me down here, you’d end up like–”
“Asclepius?” Hermes said.
Nico looked at the ring box in his hands. He remembered the way Alessio's left hand flexed while he worked on patients. As though something were missing.
“I know exactly where he is,” Nico said, choosing his words with precision. “And he's not in Vatican City. Don't waste your time searching here.”
Hermes’ eyes widened. He said nothing.
A voice came in over his headset; Luz checking in.
“Nico? Are you ready to switch back? This guy's Tiktoks are annoying me.”
“Give me another couple of minutes and I'll be right there. I'm almost done.”
He glanced back at Hermes.
“Just because I'm one of them doesn't mean I have to be your enemy,” Nico said. “We have more in common than you think.”
He unsealed the windows and doors and let Hermes leave. He rose on winged sneakers, disappearing quickly into the night sky. Nico slid the ring boxes onto the shelf and left the room, heading back into the hall where Luz was waiting.
The two of them finished their shift uneventfully and departed through the main doors of the basilica. As he'd feared, Brigid and Dymphna were waiting at the doors. Brigid gave him that fiery stare as always.
“Behaving yourselves, newbies?” Dymphna asked archly.
“Yes,” Luz said.
“That's yes Ma'am, to you,” Dymphna corrected.
“Yes, Ma'am,” Nico and Luz repeated, bowing their heads on their way out.
Nico breathed a silent prayer of relief that they hadn't noticed anything. He looked up at the sky above Vatican city and wondered if Hermes was already on Olympus telling the family everything that had happened. He wondered how Apollo would take the news about his beloved son. Nico’s gut wrenched with guilt, thinking about how much Apollo and Asclepius probably missed each other. Their pantheon was rife with toxic father-son relationships. He hated to think of a good dads suffering needlessly.
As he and Luz walked home together in the dark, Nico was in a low mood, thinking of his own father. He missed him terribly, even though he’d had good reasons for going no-contact. He wished that they’d made more effort to enjoy the good times. They’d never watched Hades favorite movie, Life is Beautiful, together. He’d always put it off for another day, thinking they’d have forever.
Forever hadn’t lasted long.
“Have you seen heaven?” He asked Luz, trying to find a silver lining to look forward to.
“Not yet. Have you?”
He snorted.
“I didn't think so,” Luz said, smirking.
“How long have you been doing this?”
“One hundred fifty years,” she said.
“You didn't even see heaven when you died? Like, in between life and sainthood?”
She was silent for a moment.
“I don't want to talk about this with you,” she said. “It’s personal.”
He shrugged. They were more polite with each other now, but they’d never be friends. Maybe he should quit trying to get to know his coworkers. None of them seemed to want to socialize with him much, other than Adalbert, and he only felt sorry for him.
“Can I switch shifts with you tomorrow?” He asked.
“You want the hospital shift?” Luz asked. “But you can’t heal.”
Nico shrugged, smiling to himself.
“Maybe I’ll just scrub some floors.”
Chapter Text
“Nico!” Asclepius said, rising from his desk to shake his hand. “You are just the saint I had hoped to see today.”
“Hi, As– Alessio,” Nico said, stumbling over the name. “Good to see you again. Remember, I’m just a saint in training. Why did you want to see me?”
“Do you recall the young girl we had in? The one whom we thought might be considering an abortion?”
“Oh,” Nico said, wincing. He recalled it all too clearly. He’d lost so much time since that initial encounter that, one way or another, the girl’s fate had been decided by now.
“She had an appointment earlier this week,” Asclepius said, sitting on the edge of his desk and polishing his glasses on his white coat. He was smiling broadly. “There’ve been a few new developments.”
“Did she keep the baby?” Nico blurted out. Internally, he was torn about what outcome he was hoping for. He wanted the girl to have a happy life, and she certainly didn’t seem happy about being a teen mom. But at the same time, an abortion would risk her spot in heaven. He braced himself.
“She did,” Asclepius said.
“Oh,” Nico said.
He shouldn’t be disappointed. This was for the best. She was following the rules, and she could expect to be rewarded for it– eventually. She’d just seemed so miserable that he couldn’t find it in himself to rejoice. Nico’s faith obviously needed work, he thought shamefully.
“She considered the illegal abortion,” Asclepius continued. “And decided to look into alternatives. She happened to have a cousin who has been struggling with infertility, and this cousin and her husband have offered to adopt the baby at birth. They pay for her medical expenses and bring her to appointments now, and they let her stay with them when she needs a bit of space from her mother. She and the baby will still be in each other’s lives, but she’ll be able to pursue her education unimpeded by the responsibilities of motherhood.”
Nico pressed his hand against his heart and breathed a deep sigh of relief.
“Hallelujah,” he said, meaning every syllable. “See? I knew God would handle it.”
Asclepius frowned, his bushy grey eyebrows lowering
“I think credit goes to her family. She had a loving support system, but not everyone can be so lucky. Abortion is still an important aspect of medical care that women deserve to access without barriers–”
“God is good,” Nico said, heedlessly jubilant. He was tempted to dance a jig. “Won’t He do it!”
“I don’t know that he did anything,” Asclepius said, folding his arms. “But my patient is happy and healthy. As a physician, that’s all I’m concerned with. Anyway, may I ask what you’ve been up to lately? You haven’t been around.”
“I got a promotion. I’ve had new duties in the Vatican,” Nico said proudly. “I didn’t know you were keeping tabs on my comings and goings,” he added, sitting down in one of the chairs across from the desk.
He crossed his legs and propped his chin in his hand, studying Asclepius. He had a sacred seal on him, all right. You could see it shimmering if you looked very closely when the light hit just so. That didn’t explain anything, though. Isis had a trick for removing the seals, but Asclepius hadn’t asked her for help. Nico strongly suspected that he couldn’t leave Tiber island– but why?
“I have a lot of time on my hands, and your presence has a certain looming quality that makes your absence notable,” Asclepius admitted with a shrug. “Also, you were interesting to talk to. I’d hoped we’d be able to meet again. I don’t have much of a social life.”
Was that the only reason he wanted to see Nico again? His face was hard to read, but his fingers kept fiddling with a pen, flipping it and depressing the clicker on the end without pushing it down all the way. Maybe he didn’t want to draw attention to how keyed up he was for this conversation.
“What’s your story, Alessio?” Nico asked casually.
Asclepius swallowed, caught off guard.
“I’m not interesting,” he admitted with a nervous twitch of his lips.
“Are you married?”
“I am.”
“Where do you live? Do you have any children?”
“I live nearby, and my children are grown and far away,” Asclepius said vaguely. “Perhaps we can talk about something else.”
“You have daughters,” Nico said knowingly.
Asclepius froze.
“How did you know that?” He said, squinting.
“You have Girl Dad vibes,” Nico shrugged. This was true; there had been a certain paternal worry in his eyes when he’d discussed his young patient that would have given him away, even if Nico hadn’t already known who he was. Asclepius and his five daughters, the Asclepiades, had worked together for millennia. Nico had met Hygeia, and had seen how distraught she was over her father’s disappearance. He imagined that her sisters felt similarly.
Asclepius’s face seemed to crack open like an egg. An expression of profound sadness and love passed over his features, like a sunbeam coming through a gap in the curtains.
“I have daughters. I had sons as well, but my girls are my world,” he murmured. “I haven’t seen them in… Well, it’s been too long.”
Nico regretted bringing it up. He was forced to sit in the chair awkwardly looking at the wall while the doctor tried to hide the fact that he was crying. Asclepius yanked a few tissues from a box on his desk and started blowing his nose, his eyes red.
“Sorry. Allergies,” he muttered, looking embarrassed.
“Gods don’t have allergies,” Nico said wryly.
Asclepius’ eyes glinted, and he looked up at Nico with a sudden blazing fury.
“You knew,” he said, his voice a sharp bark. “I should’ve realized. Does it amuse you to sit here mocking my pain? Get out of my office!”
He stood and pointed at the door furiously. Nico didn’t get up.
“I’m not mocking you,” Nico said. “Sorry. I was just trying to get a read on the situation.”
“A read on the situation,” Asclepius muttered, sitting back down. He sank low in his chair, emasculated by Nico’s refusal to leave. Asclepius had no power to make Nico do anything. He was a prisoner in this hospital. He may as well have been wearing an ankle monitor and an orange jumpsuit.
“What good is your read on the situation to me?” Asclepius said, throwing his hands up in exasperation. “I’m no fool. You are new here and have no power to help me. You aren’t the first saint to pity my lot. It’s never made any difference, but only gives false hope where there is none.”
“You clearly have no idea who I am,” Nico said, crossing his legs and steepling his fingers.
Asclepius rolled his eyes.
“I know exactly who you are, Nico di Angelo, demigod son of Hades,” he said. “I have from the moment we met. There was quite the kerfuffle about you and your sister back in the 1940’s when I left the pantheon– not realizing that I’d be unable to come back. In fact, that is why I took an interest in befriending you. I’d hoped you’d have news of my family. I simply wasn’t ready to entrust you with my real identity yet.”
“You just wanted news?” Nico said. “You didn’t plan to ask for my help to escape?”
“I know the sacrifices your program demands of you,” Asclepius said. “No one who makes that kind of commitment would risk losing what they’ve earned, especially for a stranger. But it no longer matters. Since you’ve chosen to play games with me, I’m no longer interested in speaking with you.”
Pissing off the doctor brought out a petulant air of wounded divinity that Nico was very familiar with. He’d embarrassed Asclepius, and now he had to soothe his ego before he’d get anything more from him. Layered on top of that, though, was disappointment. Asclepius had wanted to be his friend, but now was left thinking Nico was no better than the rest of them. His daughters had been too sore of a subject to poke at without consequences, apparently.
Nico chewed on the inside of his lip, thinking this over. Asclepius stared at him, his eyes tired and full of despair.
“Your family are all fine,” Nico said. “But they miss you. Hygeia rewatches Grey’s Anatomy over and over to distract herself. She guards your sanctuary at Epidaurus vigilantly. And Apollo tells your birth story to everyone who will listen, about how you were–”
“An unmedicated DIY C-section homebirth?” Asclepius filled in, smiling. “He never gets tired of bragging about that.”
“I mean, fair enough,” Nico said. He’d brag too if he were Apollo; it sounded awful. “He’s desperate to find you. Hermes is helping him search. They are making progress.” He omitted the fact that he’d aided in that progress. There was no telling whether they’d ever actually find him, even if Nico had narrowed down the search radius a little.
Asclepius sighed, tracing a circle on his desktop with his finger as he took this in.
“Why are you here?” Nico asked.
“I don’t care to share my sob story,” Asclepius said. “It won’t make any difference.”
“You don’t know that,” Nico frowned. “You seem to think I wouldn’t risk my position in the church to help you escape. Well, that’s probably true. But there are other ways of getting things done. Have you considered negotiating?” Mentally, he put on his invisible diplomat hat, one he hadn’t worn in a long time. Diplomacy between the Greek and Catholic pantheons was probably hopeless, but he was open to giving it a shot.
“Negotiating?” Asclepius said, frowning. “You can’t negotiate when you have no power, and I have none.”
“I have leverage,” Nico said. “I’m not who you think I am. I was, but now I’m not. After I was a demigod, and before I was a saintly trainee, I was like you. At least for a while.” His godhood seemed like it had ended almost as soon as it began, he thought sadly. “I came close to death and Persephone saved me. She made me this incorruptible body and adopted me as her own.”
“You really are like me, then,” Asclepius said, his expression brightening. “I was born mortal, too, or so it seemed at the time.”
“I know. We got compared a lot, but you weren’t around to hear it,” Nico said. “Although we turned out to be opposites. I’m a psychopomp.”
Asclepius’ eyes glinted.
“The sworn enemy of every doctor,” he said, leveling Nico with a sharp stare, “Is Death himself.”
“Trust me, I know,” Nico said, grinning. “Hygeia beat me with a broom once.”
Asclepius laughed out loud, his posture relaxing. Now that he knew where Nico fit into the order of things, it seemed they could really do business.
“You are a prize catch for the church,” Asclepius said, evaluating him with new appreciation.
“So are you,” Nico said. “So why am I in the program and you’re stuck in here?”
Asclepius waved his hand as though he were batting the question out of the air.
“You came here by choice initially. What went wrong?” Nico insisted, leaning in curiously.
This was a two pronged question. He wanted to know whether Asclepius had tried and simply failed– a fate Nico might experience any day now– or whether Asclepius had once held faith and had lost it. If that had happened, Nico needed to learn why.
“Have you ever heard of Syndome K?” Asclepius asked.
Asclepius took a drink of water from a bottle on his desk. Nico got so distracted watching him drink that he barely heard the question. How long had it been since he’d drunk water, coffee, anything? He’d drink gutter water at this point, just to remember how it felt to be able to swallow something. What he would give for a taste of ambrosia…
“Hello?”
“Huh?”
“Syndrome K,” Asclepius repeated.
“Uh, no. Never heard of it,” Nico said, trying to refocus. Being a saint was exhausting sometimes.
“During the second World War, this city was occupied by Nazis,” Asclepius said. “Countless mortals were crying out for help from any god who would listen. Our pantheon paid them little attention. They were distracted by their own petty affairs, as usual.”
There was nothing petty about his mother’s assassination, which was the event that had been keeping the gods busy while Asclepius slipped away from the pantheon unnoticed. Nico was wise enough to keep this an inside thought, but his eyebrows rose a few skeptical millimeters.
“This island has been my sanctuary ever since a great plague broke out in Rome long ago. The Romans needed medical care and quarantine facilities, so I took the form of a snake to lead them here. Later they destroyed my temple and put Bartholomew’s church in its place, but I still kept an eye on things. When I heard rumors of a new disease, Syndrome K, being treated here in the Fatebenefratelli hospital, I rushed over to investigate. Normally I kept my distance from the Catholics – They don’t take kindly to outsiders meddling. But what I found happening here astonished me.”
“What was it?” Nico asked, leaning forward.
“Syndrome K was not real. This highly contagious, dangerous wasting disease was a fiction concocted to keep Nazis away. In reality, the doctors were hiding Jews in the wards in order to save them from being taken away to concentration camps.”
Nico’s jaw dropped.
“That happened here? How have I not heard about this? That was really brave of those doctors to risk their lives for those people.”
Asclepius nodded.
“I’ve always found that the mortal heart is like a pendulum constantly swinging. On one side is good, and on the other, evil. The pendulum normally swings in small arcs, keeping to the middle, but every once in a while the world gives it a push. It’s as though the existence of evil in some breeds greatness in others,” Asclepius said. “I have seen such acts of human bravery before, but what excited me most was the fact that it was an interfaith venture. One of the doctors involved was Jewish, but the others were Catholic. The Jews did not pray to them, but the saints protected them anyway. They were safe here until the city was liberated.”
“Finally some positive Catholic representation!” Nico said, feeling relieved. “I worried you were going to say that Saint Francis beat you up and stole your lunch money. But what does Syndrome K have to do with you being trapped on the island?”
“It inspired me,” Asclepius said. “I saw that the saints were feeling open minded, so I offered them an olive branch. My hope was that we could collaborate in helping the city recover from the war. At first it was alright. I healed people, they healed people, we got along without any problems. They tried to convert me a little too often for my taste, and I might have turned into a snake and crawled into Bartholomew’s skin suit once to make his hand wave like a little puppet. But overall it was the most peaceful interaction we’ve had in centuries.”
“Wow!” Nico said, a bright gleam of hope glowing in his chest.
“Then I met Brigid,” Asclepius said darkly.
“Oh.” The gleam went out abruptly.
“She used to be a pagan goddess herself,” Asclepius said. “Did you know that?”
“I heard through the grapevine, but she refuses to talk about her past.”
“She’s changed, then,” Asclepius said, his voice lowering. “She shared an awful lot with me.”
He didn’t speak for a moment, gathering his thoughts. Nico leaned forward even further, so far that he was close to falling out of his chair. He dreaded the truth, yet was desperate to hear it.
“This was before there was any such thing as the Pagan Demon Rehabilitation Program,” Asclepius said. “It was formalized later, but I believe that I was the first participant in the fledgling initiative. Brigid took me under her wing and began to introduce me to the possibilities of working with the Catholic church. I admit, at first, I was impressed. Their facilities are enormous, their collections of art and literature the envy of the world. Their hospital networks span the globe. And there are over a billion worshipers! I’m not sure you can appreciate the significance of the sheer scale of it from my perspective. Realize, Nico, that the Roman empire never had more than 100 million people in it at any one time. Imagine how it might feel to receive prayers from even a fraction of the Catholic population...”
“You don’t have to tell me,” Nico said. Sometimes, when he felt like giving up, he pictured his face in a stained glass window in a cathedral. As a child, he’d sat through mass week after week, bored out of his mind, and he’d stared up at the images of saints in the windows and wondered about them. He might now become one of those images for people to wonder about. If that ever happened, he’d know he’d made it.
“I was called a demon, but I found that amusing. Semantics don’t bother me. Aside from the paranoia, the saints were quite nice– though I noted that the top echelons of their order secluded themselves. I don’t know if you’ve met many VIPs, but I was siloed. I found their theology difficult to wrap my head around, and they hated my questions about their god and his supposed existence. That aspect was slow going, but it was interesting.”
Nico wondered whether they’d have gone easier on him if he’d been like Asclepius, coming in as a blank slate with no foreknowledge of the Catholic religion. If he dared to question God’s existence, he’d be put on Hell duty so fast it would make his head spin.
“What I’m trying to say is that things were going well for me here,” Asclepius said. “Imagine how I felt, coming from a pantheon where my own grandfather had once quite literally vaporized me. I was still expected to get him birthday presents after that, you know!”
Nico nodded in vigorous understanding.
“Going from the disorganized, dysfunctional, and diminished world of the Greco-Romans to the Catholic church made just about as much sense to me as I think it did to the Romans who converted a thousand years ago,” Asclepius said. “It was a new world, young and growing and mind-bogglingly powerful!”
“You’re killing me, dude,” Nico said, putting his hands together and pleading. “What went wrong? Spit it out!”
Asclepius looked irritated with him, but he shrugged.
“Brigid was my least favorite saint to spend time with,” he said. “I found her harsh and unforgiving of my ignorance. Even when I genuinely couldn’t have known the right answers, I was reprimanded for not saying the right thing. I thought she’d have more compassion, since I imagine she went through the same transition process herself once. Instead, she held me to a higher standard than anyone else did. I had the distinct impression that she was thinking, ‘if I can do it, you have no excuse.’”
“Maybe someone did that to her once,” Nico mused.
“Or maybe the transition from pagan goddess to saint broke something in her,” Asclepius said. “The realization happened when she brought me on a trip to her homeland. She wanted to show off the power she wielded and the devotion of her people. She showed me something that she was proud of. Something I could not stomach. For me, it spelled the end of my positive relationship with the church,” Asclepius said, his face growing pale.
“What was it?” Nico asked.
“They were called the Magdalene Laundries,” Asclepius said quietly. “If you want to know the details, you can read them yourself. Suffice to say that they were forced labor camps, of a sort, for women who failed to comply with the strict social restrictions of Ireland in the 20th century. For mortals to do evil, as I have said already, is nothing new. Using religion as an excuse for cruelty is the oldest trick in the book; it’s something all pantheons deal with. But when I tried to talk to Brigid about it, she didn’t seem to see anything wrong. In fact, she became defensive of the actions of the mortals. Our disagreement escalated into a terrible argument, and she decided, I think, to ruin my life as a result. I don’t know what she said to her superiors, but the next thing I knew, I was confined to this island and my powers were sealed.”
Nico took a moment to digest what he’d been told. The moment ended as he groaned in frustration, rubbing his eyes with his hands. He needed a nap.
“You’re claiming that you were sabotaged? That Brigid lied to trap you here?”
“Yes,” Asclepius said.
“But she can’t lie. We’re not allowed. You can,” Nico added suspiciously.
“I don’t claim to know precisely what Brigid said. I only know the outcome,” he said, ignoring the remark about himself.
Nico ground his teeth, feeling a deep discomfort settle in his body.
“If everyone else was nice to you,” he said, speaking slowly, so as to make sense of things. “And Brigid was the only bad saint you encountered, doesn’t that kind of imply that the root cause of the issue isn’t the church, but maybe her as an individual?”
“Maybe,” Asclepius said.
“But why leave? Why not work around her? Or try to get someone to intervene? Leaving a pantheon over one bad experience is unreasonable. You had way better reasons to leave the Greco-Romans, but you were willing to go back to them.”
“They’re my family; I understand why they are the way they are, even if I dislike it. But when it comes to the Catholics, why would I want to stay with an organization that gives authority to someone like Brigid?” Asclepius said casually. “I may have just found a hole on the outside, but I think the apple’s rotten right to the core.”
Nico stood from his chair before he knew what he was doing.
“You take that back!” he said sharply.
“I will not!” Asclepius said, leaning away from him in surprise. Nico was surprised at himself, too, but he couldn’t help his reaction. His heart was pounding like a drum, and his chest felt tight.
“It’s not all bad,” Nico said. “It can’t be all bad. We’re trying to help people. You make it sound like it’s meaningless, like all the saints’ good works are in service of something evil. But that’s not true!”
“I’m entitled to my opinion,” Asclepius said nonchalantly. “I’m not telling you what to do with your life.”
“No, you’re just making me feel like I’m stupid,” Nico said. “I’m not.”
Asclepius just stared at him like he was crazy. Maybe he was crazy. His brain didn’t seem to be working right anymore. He hadn’t eaten or slept or drank in months. Maybe he’d cracked.
The doctor’s office suddenly felt stifling. Nico realized he needed to go somewhere to collect his thoughts. He didn’t want to argue with Asclepius; he was entitled to his opinion, but Nico didn’t want to hear it anymore.
Nico disappeared, reappearing in his cramped little office. He pulled out his desk chair and crawled into the space underneath, curling up into a ball like a snail in its shell. He pressed his face to his knees and wondered if he was finally losing it.
No wonder Brigid hated Asclepius. If he’d made her feel like this, Nico almost couldn’t blame her for ruining his life in revenge. Something about Asclepius made it hard not to take his words to heart. He was indisputably wise, kind, and brilliant– the epitome of a good doctor. The mind boggled trying to calculate the sheer number of selfless good works Asclepius would have done in his lifetime, and he wasn’t stopping anytime soon. For a pagan god, he punched way above his weight class. That didn’t mean he knew everything, but Nico knew that he would be a fool not to give his words serious consideration.
He took a few deep breaths, trying to compose himself. Asclepius didn’t understand. He’d picked up the church as a hobby, but he’d never internalized it as a part of his identity. It wasn’t a buffet where you got to pick and choose only the bits you liked. It was a pre-fixe menu at a Michelin star restaurant– if you didn’t trust the chef, you didn’t belong at the table. If he served you something you didn’t like, that was a reflection on your palate, not his skill.
He thought this, and it sort of helped, but then that thought was drowned out by a cacophony of other thoughts. He was stupid, he was in a cult, he was in the one true faith and everyone else was going to burn in Hell– maybe there was a gray area in between, and everything was fine in moderation, and maybe everything was in black and white and there was only one right way. And if that was the case, was he going the right way, or the wrong one?
None of it made any sense, and he desperately needed to feel like he understood something. Without conscious thought, he moved, transporting himself to the place he most needed to be in that moment.
A few seconds later he was standing over the bedside of an old woman with mottled, paper-thin skin and bone-white hair. She breathed, and the air made a rattling noise leaving her throat.
“Goodbye, grandma,” a young man said, patting her hand gently. A nurse checked her watch.
Nico gently extracted a little blue soul from the woman’s forehead. Carla. She’d been a baker. Terrible mom, but a fantastic grandma. She had a weird obsession with Matt Damon.
He tucked her into his pocket, sighing in contentment. This was work, but if you did what you loved, you never had to work a day in your life.
Nico collected thousands of souls, more than he ever had in one stretch before. He tucked his troubles away and simply did the thing that he was meant to do, and considered just never stopping. He didn’t need to understand religion and pantheons and families when he had this thing that made sense. Death was universal, transcendent, devoid of nuance. It was exactly what he needed.
Nico had just collected a race car driver’s soul from a smoking wreck on the side of a racetrack, where the tempting smell of kettle corn wafted towards him, mingled with the scent of burning fuel. He was considering risking it all for a soft pretzel when a hand grabbed his shoulder. For a brief, terrifying moment, he was sure he was being damned to Hell for having lustful thoughts about pretzels.
“It’s been three days,” Thanatos said quietly.
Nico glanced up at his soulmate, with his silver-gold hair and eyes like gold coins that had been buried in a tomb for a thousand years.
“So what? You used to work for way longer stretches than that,” he said, shrugging off his touch. As Thanatos pulled his hand back, his fingertips brushed the wings Nico was wearing, the ones he’d ripped from Nemesis’ shoulders. Thanatos shuddered a bit at touching his sister’s repurposed limbs, but he didn’t comment.
“It’s February now,” Thanatos said. “Spring comes– or doesn’t come– on March 21st. You can’t afford to lose more time.”
Nico was tempted to stand in the middle of the track and ask the drivers to run him over as a personal favor.
“Something’s wrong,” Thanatos said, his voice tinged with worry. “Is it about Hazel?”
Of course he had to bring that up, like Nico wasn’t having a massive crisis of faith already. Hazel was, of course, a big reason why Asclepius had gotten to him so much. Her words were stuck in his head on repeat, right alongside Persephone’s and Asclepius’.
“Do you think I’m in a cult?” Nico asked Thanatos.
“Yes,” Thanatos said flatly. Nico turned away, embarrassed that he’d asked. He flexed his wings nervously, then stopped, realizing he was imitating what he’d seen Thanatos do a million times. It felt unnatural, like the connection between him and the wings was only half formed. They felt heavy on his back, like they didn’t belong.
“There isn’t anything wrong with cults, necessarily,” Thanatos added. “The Eleusinian Mysteries were a cult, and I always thought they were neat. Mithras has a cult, but that’s perfectly respectable.”
“When Hazel said I’m in a cult, she didn’t mean like Mithras,” Nico said. “She meant I’m delusional. That I’ve been brainwashed. That I’m stupid. Is that what you think of me?”
“You are not stupid,” Thanatos said firmly. He spoke with so much certainty that the tension in Nico’s chest immediately eased. “I don’t think you’re delusional, either. It’s just that, when you speak sometimes, it’s as if you’re reading from a script. It’s frightening. When I talk to you, I want to hear your words, not theirs. I think Hazel feels the same.”
Nico smiled wryly.
“Sometimes I don’t have the right words,” he admitted.
“Then let me hear your silence,” Thanatos said. “Just so long as it’s yours.”
After this, Nico was silent for a while, which seemed to please Thanatos immensely. He observed the plumes of smoke rise from the burning wreckage and watched as the rescue crew dragged the burnt corpse out of the twisted metal frame of the car. Nico and Thanatos observed impassively, unmoved by the chaos around them.
The paramedics began to work on the driver’s body, starting CPR in front of a crowd of worried onlookers. Nico appreciated that Thanatos was trying to help him, but he couldn’t help but wonder if it was too late to resuscitate the mess he’d made of his life. It was certainly too late for the man on the asphalt, whose life had been snuffed out a few seconds before help had arrived.
The heaviness re-settled itself in Nico’s chest. Maybe it was time to call time of death on his saintly venture. He’d been so fired up about it at the beginning– he’d been determined to prove to himself he was capable of making it in his new pantheon, and he’d been even more determined to scare the ever-living shit out of Zeus and his terrible family. After he’d gotten his promotion, however, that flame of enthusiasm had dwindled. He knew he could do it. He was pretty sure he had it in him to be a decent saint. But some of the illusions of Catholic superiority were falling away. They had their own problems, even if they were less serious than the issues he’d faced with his family.
If staying with the church meant not having a relationship with Hazel, then staying with the church wasn’t an option. Her rejection stung, though. Nico couldn’t help but feel that she was choosing a bunch of crappy gods that didn’t care about her over the one who did. It was more complicated than that, he knew, but did it really need to be? He’d trusted that her faith was complete, and now he knew it had not been. He needed to process that betrayal before he could move on to solutions.
Compromise might prove impossible, but he wanted to try before giving up. Quitting his new faith just because Hazel was being stubborn felt like it went against the natural order of things. She was just a human, and her view of the situation was incredibly narrow– she was in no position to call the shots on how Nico lived his eternal life. Yet, conversely, he couldn’t stomach ruining her short one. She may have failed in her obligation to him, but he didn’t need to match that energy– it would only prove her right. He had abandoned the pantheon, but he’d never abandon her. He needed to find a way to prove it.
“What are you going to do?” Thanatos asked, cocking his head to one side.
Nico shrugged. He didn’t want to unpack his thoughts with Thanatos. He was in a mess only he could clean up. If that were even still possible.
“Can I suggest something I’ve been thinking over?” Thanatos said. Nico nodded, and Thanatos began pacing around him in a circle.
“It’s about your new bosses. Your saintly masters,” Thanatos said with derision. “They punish you harshly for mistakes. I know that you’ve accepted this, but I can’t. I destroyed that temple to protect you. But I can’t do that every time.”
“I’m not getting in trouble often,” Nico shrugged. “I’m not that terrible at being a saint.”
With a sudden, miserable flash of insight, he realized that Thanatos had probably seen him scrubbing floors– might have even seen him crying when he thought no one was looking. He usually kept an eye out for his stalker soulmate, but he let his guard down sometimes. Nico was busy, but Thanatos had very little going on outside of work. He probably knew more about Nico’s circumstances than he let on.
Actually, Nico did cry a lot these days. He hadn’t exactly been a stoic pre-Christianity, but now– yikes. He was still grieving his old life, even as he tried to embrace his new one. It seemed normal to him until he imagined what it looked like from Thanatos’ perspective.
“If they hurt you again, I’m going to do something about it,” Thanatos said, clenching his fists. “And I don’t care if I start a holy war. You would do it for me.”
Nico sighed softly, staring down at the asphalt beneath his feet. He would do the same in Than’s place, but being the same didn’t make them both right. Maybe they were just the same flavor of stupid.
He rubbed his eyes with the heels of his hands.
“Remember, please, I’m choosing this. I can leave anytime I want. I don’t want to,” he said. Not yet.
“But–”
Thanatos’ response was interrupted by a blindingly bright flash of light overhead. It looked like a star falling to earth, or a meteor coming to obliterate them. Whatever it was, it grew larger as it approached. Nico and Thanatos both stared upward curiously.
“Maybe it’s the apocalypse,” Thanatos said, his expression brightening.
“Why would it be the apocalypse?” Nico said, laughing.
“The sun could be going supernova.”
“Or God could be smiting us,” Nico said.
“That, too,” Thanatos said. “Well. So long as we’re together.”
He flashed Nico a little smile that nearly knocked him flat. Nico didn’t really think the world was about to end, but he could hardly think of anything more romantic than getting blasted into smithereens beside his soulmate.
Why had they broken up again? He tried to remember, but it just didn’t feel very important when you were contemplating the end of the universe.
The descending light was quickly revealed to be Michael the Archangel. Both Thanatos and Nico drooped in disappointment. They’d had their hearts set on total obliteration. The flame-y effect was caused by Michael’s bright white wings reflecting the raging car fire that still burned on the ground below, combined with his glowing sword held out in front of him, obscuring his body until he was nearly on top of them.
The Archangel hovered in mid-air, his wings beating slowly.
“God give me strength,” Michael grimaced, sheathing his sword and dousing its flame. His golden hair gleamed bronze in the reddish light. “There’s two of you.”
“What do you want?” Nico and Thanatos echoed each other.
“I’ve been looking everywhere for you,” Michael said, gesturing to Nico with one hand. His other hand rested on the hilt of his sword, which glowed red-hot as though it were waiting to burst back into flame at a moment’s notice. “You need to return to Rome immediately. There’s been an attack on Tiber Island– an attempted break in at the Fatebenefratelli hospital.”
“What?” Nico said.
“Your old compatriot, Apollo, has come knocking. He appears to be inebriated,” Michael said with distaste. “He threw rocks at the windows and banged on the doors well into the wee hours of the morning. Naturally he was barred from entry, but he damaged some shrubbery and broke three windows. He’s passed out on the riverbank as we speak.”
“Jesus Christ,” Nico muttered, rubbing the bridge of his nose. “Well, obviously he’s figured out where Asclepius is.”
“Asclepius?” Thanatos asked, looking shocked. “You people have Asclepius?”
“Now you’ve really done it, di Angelo!” Michael shouted. “You’ve just told my pale imitation here that we’ve got Asclepius in our custody– that’s privileged information you’ve leaked to another pagan demon! I bore witness!”
“Pale imitation?” Thanatos asked, his feathers puffing up with anger. “I was here first, long before anybody had ever heard of Michael the arch-asshole. You copied my aesthetic, right down to my sandals!”
“Did not!” Michael said, tugging his robes down to cover his feet.
Nico was trying very hard not to laugh at the arch-asshole comment. That would be totally sacrilegious and unbecoming of a saintly hopeful like himself.
“Erm, Michael, the Greek pantheon must know about Asclepius already,” he said. “Apollo has no other reason to be at the hospital.”
“Not so,” Michael said. “He was looking for a woman named Shayla. He kept going, ‘My Shayla, my Shayla,’ crying and rending his garments and such.”
“He’s just chronically online,” Nico said. “But I promise he was there looking for his son, not somebody named Shayla.”
“Interesting. Well, God is good, because Asclepius was in surgery at the time and didn’t notice him,” Michael said. “But surely this is the first attempt of many. We’ll have to move Asclepius to the Vatican under higher security now. We’ll be taking both you and Apollo into custody for questioning.”
“Both of us?” Nico asked, alarmed.
Michael squinted.
“This happened immediately after your promotion, once you were no longer wearing your earpiece,” he said. “Also, there was some sort of anomaly with Vatican security footage, leaving us with a gap in coverage during your shift. Something doesn’t add up. You will be interrogated, and the truth will come out.”
Nico panicked, his heart racing. He had definitely not leaked Asclepius’ location, but he had talked to Hermes off the record and given him a small hint for the search. Was that serious enough to warrant punishment? He wasn’t going to lie to his bosses– he’d learned his lesson there. But he’d prefer to avoid interrogation all the same.
“I think not,” Thanatos said, stepping in front of Nico. “He goes nowhere with you. There’s no telling what inhumane, sadistic torments you’ll subject him to under the guise of punishment!”
“Are you threatening me, demon?” Michael asked, grinning as though he’d been hoping for this outcome. He drew his flaming sword, sending a searing wall of heat towards Nico and Thanatos.
Thanatos threw a shaking arm up in front of Nico’s body. Nico looked down at it in amazement. Thanatos was putting himself on the line for him. He hadn’t even hesitated.
Nico appreciated the effort Thanatos was making, but his soulmate wasn’t a fighter. He wasn’t exactly a lover, either, but he didn’t need to be. He was Death. That was more than enough.
Nico stepped forward, phasing through Than’s arm intangibly and standing before him.
“We’re both threatening you,” Nico said. “But not with violence. As a saint in training, I’ll submit to any punishment or questioning the church sees fit. I know my place. But Thanatos has set a stipulation. He wants me treated with more respect. No more harsh punishments, no scare tactics. If I screw up, just demote me. Fire me if you have to. No torments.”
“You dare demand special treatment?” Michael asked, his eyes going wide. “We are all equal in God’s eyes. You cannot set yourself apart.”
“Oh, I know. It’s very naughty. I’m an obedient saint, I promise. It was all his idea, not mine,” Nico said, pointing at Thanatos. He counted his blessings that everything he said was true– this really had been Than’s idea. He’d just refined it a little.
“It’s my idea, yes,” Thanatos said, picking up the thread Nico had laid out for him and running with it in a completely different direction. “If you want a single soul to walk through one of your portals again, you must do as I ask.”
Michael’s jaw dropped. Nico’s did too. He had been picturing a strike on soul collection– the same negotiation tactic Thanatos had used on Hades when he’d been overworked. Screwing with the portals had not been on his Bingo card. Surely that was a bridge too far?
“You wouldn’t dare,” Michael said. “The transiting policy has been in place for over a thousand years. You threaten to do away with it? Over this?” He gestured at Nico.
“And why shouldn’t I? If you can imprison Asclepius for decades, what’s to stop you from doing the same to Nico if he displeases you?” Thanatos asked. “Your power has to be checked somehow,” he said, his gaze hardening to steel. “And I think I’m the only one with the power to do it.”
Thanatos was right. Nico had been banking on the fact that he could just blink and disappear if things got ugly, but it was naive to think it would be that easy. This was the wiser course of action; it just so happened to scare the shit out of him. The transiting policy was a fundamental aspect of the pagan-Catholic relationship, and it predated Nico by many centuries. He could only pray that Thanatos knew what he was doing, because the threat he was making had far-reaching implications for billions of people around the globe.
“We had a deal,” Michael said angrily.
“A deal made can always be unmade,” Thanatos said coldly. “I’m a pagan demon, remember? Promises mean nothing to me. Especially ones made under duress.”
Michael hissed at him, nearly spitting fire. His hand twitched on his sword, but he controlled himself. His wings beat fiercely, buffeting waves of hot air at Nico and Thanatos.
“We can schedule another bout of duress, if that’s what it takes,” Michael whispered.
“And send Jesus down to the Underworld again? I don’t think you will,” Thanatos said, although he seemed slightly less confident in this statement. “He doesn’t seem to get out much these days.”
This statement went too far. Michael’s perfect face glowed with righteous fury, and he raised his sword once more, prompting Nico to step between them to de-escalate.
“Guys, stop. We’re not going to get anywhere if we can’t be civil,” Nico said, putting his hands out. “Michael, put the sword down. Thanatos, keep our Lord and Savior’s name out of your mouth.”
Both of them grumbled, but did as they were instructed. Nico took in a deep breath, channeling his old diplomatic abilities. He’d navigated more complex situations than this one, he reminded himself. This was an inter-pantheon matter, but that didn’t mean he couldn’t handle it.
“Michael,” Nico said calmly. “If Thanatos is determined to stop the shades from using the portals, then there’s nothing we can do about it. The only other way to get souls into Heaven is if I hand them over to you personally.”
In a gesture of goodwill, and to illustrate his point, Nico lifted a handful of a few hundred souls and dangled them in front of Michael’s face. They looked like a cluster of magical glowing grapes.
Michael reached out for them desperately, grasping the blue bundle and tucking them into the folds of his flowing garment. He stared at Nico warily, but he didn’t seem motivated to argue any longer.
“Let’s scrap the portals entirely moving forward,” Thanatos said, picking up where Nico had left off. “They’re no longer needed.”
“I agree,” Nico said. “You have me now. I’ll be psychopomp for all the Catholic souls–”
“And I’ll handle the pagan ones,” Thanatos said, finalizing the decision.
Michael gritted his teeth.
“I can run this idea past my superiors,” he said. “But it doesn’t sound like we have any choice.”
“Is there something wrong with the proposal?” Nico asked. “I thought the intent was always for me to be your psychopomp.”
Michael gave him a scathing look. Although that had been the intent, the church had wanted to make that decision on their own terms, on their own timing. Now they were being forced to rely on Nico before he’d been canonized. If they didn’t accept him as he was now, unfinished and imperfect in his faith, they’d have no one to bring them the souls needed to populate Heaven and Hell.
“Take a lesson from me, Michael,” Thanatos cut in. “Our pantheon didn’t appreciate Nico properly, and we lost him. Don’t make the same mistake we did, or you’ll lose him, too.”
Michael ignored this. He put his arm around Nico’s shoulders. It wasn’t a friendly gesture; he had a solid grip on the back of Nico’s suit jacket where Thanatos couldn’t see.
An hour earlier, this would have terrified Nico, but now he knew he’d be fine. Michael might be angry, but he couldn’t do much about it. Nico was needed, necessary, and untouchable– the same privilege Thanatos had always enjoyed had now been shared with Nico, too.
Thanatos gave him one last glance, then disappeared.
Michael grunted in frustration and carried Nico up into the sky, leaving the car wreck scene visible only as a cluster of tiny lights glowing from far below. They passed through damp, cold banks of clouds at breakneck speed before coming to a stop on Tiber Island in the plaza between the hospital and Bartholomew’s church. Nico’s wings hung uselessly on his back, having hardly moved. Michael’s flying abilities were so far beyond his own that he may as well have been a penguin carried in talons of an eagle.
Michael touched down on the ground and began walking around, checking under bushes and behind trees. Nico looked around performatively, too, but there was no sign of Apollo anywhere. He did notice the pile of broken glass under the hospital windows.
While Michael was occupied, Nico tossed a rock up at one window in particular. A familiar face wearing glasses and a grey beard appeared, peering out curiously. Nico turned his back and folded his arms just in time for Michael’s return.
“He’s gone,” the Archangel said furiously. “Adalbert! Bartholomew!” he shouted.
Adalbert and Bartholomew scurried out of the church doors, passing through the bodies of unseeing mortal tourists as they went. Bartholomew’s bare-muscled body gleamed wet and pink in the sunlight.
“Where is the pagan demon?” Michael called out. “You were supposed to be watching him!”
Bartholomew gave Adalbert a harsh look.
“I’m sorry, I– I was watching him through the window. I was afraid to get too close,” Adalbert admitted, flushing with shame. “You never know with these demons, after all.” He tugged on his tunic, glancing back at Bartholomew fearfully. “My hand to God, he was here just a second ago. He must have absconded in the instant before you arrived, Michael.”
“No one should have known he was here aside from us,” Bartholomew said, his brow muscles furrowing. “He was dead asleep; I doubt he woke on his own. Though I haven’t slept or drank alcohol in so long, perhaps I cannot judge these things any longer. I apologize, Michael. I take full responsibility.”
Adalbert’s shrinking posture indicated that it was not actually Bartholomew who would bear the blame for this screw-up. Nico pitied him, but at the same time, he rejoiced. Thanatos must have arrived a split second before they did and spirited Apollo away.
Michael apparently came to this same conclusion. He turned to Nico, who shrugged innocently.
“It was Thanatos,” Michael said with certainty. “He and this one are in cahoots.”
“Thanatos and I aren’t cahooting,” Nico said. “You were there. He found out about Apollo’s attempted break in at the same time I did.”
“Do not speak the demon’s name aloud!” Michael shouted. He, Bartholomew, Adalbert, and Nico all glanced up at the hospital window where Asclepius’ office was located. Asclepius had wisely hidden himself out of sight, but Nico was certain he’d ducked under the windowsill just as they’d turned to look. He’d heard everything. He knew his father was looking for him.
Nico had no idea whether Asclepius would ever be freed. He might end up rotting beneath the Vatican forever. But in the long days ahead, he would know one thing. He was loved. He hadn’t been forgotten. His family wasn’t giving up on him.
Nico knew exactly how precious that was. After Hazel’s rejection and Persephone’s manipulation, he’d felt like his old family was lost to him. Even Thanatos had been hard to deal with at first, but something had changed. Thanatos wanted him to come home, but that wasn’t all he cared about anymore.
Thanatos had supported him. He wanted to see Nico succeed at his endeavor, even though he disagreed with it. He’d taken personal risks in order to ensure that Nico was getting the respect and honor he deserved. He’d kept Nico safe, not by clipping his wings, but by helping him fly.
Nico couldn’t believe this was the same Thanatos who’d once forbidden him to tell anyone he was a psychopomp. It seemed like now Than would be happy to shout it from the rooftops. All Nico had ever asked was for Thanatos to leave him alone and to stay out of his way. He was so glad that he hadn’t listened.
The cruel irony of the situation, Nico thought as he followed Michael back to Vatican City, was that Thanatos had become a good boyfriend right when Nico wasn’t allowed to date him anymore. But had they ever really been boyfriends? They’d been soulmates all along, which wasn’t the same thing. Sometimes that connection had felt like a burden, but Nico was now glad to have something tying the two of them together. Boyfriends could come and go, or be forbidden, but a soulmate was forever.
They stopped in the middle of the St. Angelo bridge, the same place Nico had initially been asked to work as a psychopomp part-time. Now he was about to become a permanent fixture. He stretched his wings out, looking at the angel statues that lined the bridge. Was there, perhaps, room for him too? Maybe next to the one with a sword, and then Nico’s statue could hold another sword, but his could be slightly bigger.
“Get that spacey look off your face,” Michael snapped. Nico whipped his head back around to look at him. The expression on Michael’s face sent a shiver down his spine.
“Now that we’re alone, I can be frank with you,” Michael said. “I understand Thanatos’ terms, but Brigid is managing the Apollo situation, and she is planning on interrogating you her way.”
“But- but we had a deal?” Nico stammered. “I thought–”
“You made a deal at me, not with me,” Michael said. “You should know I can’t speak for God. I have to run this up the chain of command before your request can be honored. In the meantime, I’m not making Brigid wait. You’re already a minute late for your meeting.”
“But… The portals,” Nico trailed off weakly, feeling like a popped balloon. Did Brigid know about the portals? If she did, would she care? He had a feeling the answer was no.
Michael disappeared. Nico was left alone on the bridge.
He was an idiot. The church wasn’t used to saints standing up for themselves, and they were especially not used to saints-in-training trying to bargain with Heaven, cahooting with pagan demons while they were at it. He should have known making demands and giving ultimatums wouldn’t work. Thanatos had tried to help him, but his tactics had been ill-suited for the situation. Michael, responsible for Catholic souls reaching the Catholic afterlife, would be inclined to do whatever it took to keep the wheels of purgatory turning, but other saints and their superiors might prioritize keeping Nico in his place. For all Nico knew, God would make a brand new psychopomp all on his own, call him the anti-Nico, and do away with the outdated models of Nico and Thanatos both.
Nico ripped his wings off and shoved them in his pocket, returning them to the form of earrings. He shadow-traveled straight to Brigid’s office, his heart racing a mile a minute. He was more angry at himself than he was with anyone else. Why had he thought his stupid power play would work? There was no authority but God, and He didn’t negotiate.
Saint Dymphna stood outside Brigid’s office door tapping her foot.
“You’re some article,” she said, looking Nico up and down. “Running late and cavorting with demons? That promotion’s gone to your head.”
“Not now, Dymphna, please,” he said weakly, walking past her. She followed him into Brigid’s chambers, where a wall of cold, wet air caught him off guard. It chilled him to the bone. What was the point in living in Italy if you wanted to feel like you were back in miserable Ireland all the time, he wondered resentfully, walking across the thick carpet to the far side of the room. The massive fire that blazed in the grate hardly took the edge off the clammy air.
Brigid was seated at her desk, leaning back in her chair and reading a paperback novel. She chuckled, turning a page, initially ignoring Nico as he approached her desk shakily.
He glanced at the title– ‘The Exorcist.’ Then he saw something else. There were two long rods leaned against the side of the dark wooden desk. One was the rod of Asclepius. The other was Hermes’ caduceus.
Nico gulped.
A small crochet bag sat on the desktop. It began to wriggle like it was filled with snakes. That must be where George and Martha had ended up, Nico realized, along with whatever Asclepius called his own snake friend.
“Where I’m from,” Brigid said with a slight smile. “We have a special way of dealing with snakes. Shall I demonstrate?”
Nico said nothing. Brigid slowly slid open a drawer and drew out a very large hammer. She drew it back, then slammed it down right on top of the bag of snakes. A weak hissing noise escaped the bag. It stopped moving.
Brigid put the hammer away and shut the drawer again. She looked pleased with herself, her milk-white cheeks glowing pink.
“I’m no Saint Patrick, but I think I got the gist,” she said. She tossed the bag of snakes at Nico. He caught it. It felt wet, and the snakes’ bones made a soft crunchy noise inside. He clutched the bag close to his chest, wanting to protect them. He knew how it felt for an immortal to have all of their bones broken, to wait for healing with no hope of death to set you free. This was a warning.
“Sit down,” Brigid said, gesturing at a chair that appeared suddenly before her desk. “Make yourself comfortable.”
Nico didn’t believe her. He sat down shakily, still thinking of the poor snakes. If she’d broken his bones over a cigarette, what might she do over this Apollo snafu?
Nico raised his eyes to look at her, but he could hardly stand to meet her fiery gaze. Where was the confidence with which he’d stood up to Michael? Where was the diplomat who knew how to advocate for himself? With Thanatos at his back, he’d somehow reverted back to the old Nico, but now he was alone again.
“There’s no need to look so frightened,” Brigid said, smirking at him.
She held her hands out to him in a gesture of openness. Her fingers were white and plump, her palms wide. For a goddess, a voluptuous figure like hers normally signified abundance and fertility. Her nun’s habit, in contrast, pointed to a preference for deprivation and sterility. She was unlike any other saint he’d met, just like he was unlike any other saint she’d met. They were both unique in the universe, created for a purpose– and both of them had turned from that purpose and pivoted to something very different. He knew his reasons, but what had hers been?
“I unscrambled the security footage from that night,” she said. “And watched it.”
Nico’s stopped breathing. Shit, he thought, had he said anything damning? He’d tried so hard not to, but it was impossible to predict how she might interpret things.
She leaned across her desk toward him. He leaned as far back in his chair as possible. The fiery light in her eyes was even more horrifying up close. He thought she was going to grab him, but she reached over and grabbed the caduceus instead.
She hefted it in her meaty palms, testing its weight.
“Quite the coup you pulled off back there,” she said. “You let him go, but you did try to convert him. Meanwhile, we have his symbol of power. I think it’ll look nice over the fireplace. Or in it.”
She shot him a conspiratorial smile. Nico felt lightheaded with relief. She wasn’t angry? He wasn’t getting thrown into another catacomb? Clearly God was real, because this was nothing short of miraculous.
“Do you think he might join us?” She asked. “Because if you were just paying lip service, that’s another matter altogether. It seemed as though he were discontented enough to consider it.”
“Uh, yes,” Nico said, realizing. “It’s possible. With God, all things are, so… Yeah.” He cringed, realizing he was overcompensating. “I should have told you,” he added, shrinking in his seat. “I’m sorry.”
She shrugged.
“I know you’ve been speaking with Asclepius. That demon has quite the mouth on him. I dread to think what lies he’s been whispering about me, free as he is to tell them.”
She gave Nico a curious look, her eyebrows raised, but he wasn’t dumb enough to play along. He was too wary to risk displeasing her, lest he meet the same fate Asclepius had.
“Sure, well,” she shrugged. “After our debate on the subject, the Laundries closed.”
Nico gasped.
“Really?”
“I knew he’d have told you about that,” she said, shaking her head in annoyance. “Yes, really, though not right away. I can’t change mortal minds that easily. Nor do I take moral guidance from demons. He and God happened to be aligned on that issue, probably just by coincidence.” She turned the Caduceus over in her hands thoughtfully. “I didn’t imprison Asclepius out of spite. I did it because he threatened me.”
“Really?” Nico asked, realizing Brigid could not lie, and so it must be true.
“I see he omitted that particular bit of information,” Brigid said. “I didn’t take it too seriously. I can take that scrawny little– ahem. Pardon me, what I meant was, I can defend myself if the need arises. However, most saints would be trounced by a pagan demon like Asclepius, and we have a zero tolerance policy for threats of violence. He had to be secured somewhere he couldn’t hurt anyone.”
Nico considered the likelihood of Asclepius threatening Brigid and found it plausible. Brigid couldn’t lie, and Asclepius was from a pantheon known for roughing each other up on the regular. Nico fully believed he might have said something in anger that had led to his imprisonment. He was disappointed to think that the god commonly called the best of them had made such a serious error in judgment. His failure had probably made Nico’s path harder than it needed to be.
“I would never threaten anyone,” he assured Brigid hastily. “I don’t even really know Asclepius. And I have nothing in common with him. I was raised in the church, unlike him. I know better than to question God’s plan.”
“No, you seem to be doing well on that front,” Brigid said. “Far better than he ever did. Many had called your family members a lost cause, impossible to redeem. But taking a chance on you has panned out so far.”
She looked down again at the caduceus and smiled. Brigid liked trophies, it seemed. She picked it up and shook it, transforming it into a woven gold bracelet that she popped onto her wrist. She did the same with the rod of Asclepius, wearing that on her other wrist.
“Safer this way,” she said, winking at Nico.
He was probably never going to feel comfortable around Brigid, but Nico was starting to feel like he understood her. She did have some pagan sensibilities remaining, it seemed– a taste for domination, weaponized on behalf of the church. Nico could picture her big white arms wrapped around Satan’s neck, choking him in a headlock, having the time of her life.
Dymphna walked over to the desk and set a piece of paper in front of Brigid silently. It was written in an ornate cursive script that Nico couldn’t make out upside down.
Brigid read over what was written there. Then she looked up at Nico.
Her cheeks were flushed bright red with anger, and her eyes blazed like someone had poured gasoline into the fiery depths. Behind her, Dymphna shook her head at Nico in disapproval.
“Nico,” Brigid said slowly. “Are you familiar with the concept of ‘notions’?”
Dymphna sniggered.
“Notions? Like ideas?” Nico asked, his voice trembling. He felt as though at any moment she would grab him and shake him until his brain turned into a milkshake. She was clenching her fists tightly.
“It has a different meaning where we’re from,” she said, glancing at Dymphna. “You explain.”
Dymphna cleared her throat.
“Notions refer to getting a big head. Thinking too much of yourself. Having your own head stuffed so far up your own arse that you cannot see. Is that right, Brigid?”
“Correct, Dymphna,” Brigid said. She grabbed the paper and held it up. “Nico, you are afflicted with notions.”
He thought back to how good it had felt to stand up for himself. He’d used Thanatos as his scapegoat, but he’d been thrilled to shove his power in Michael’s face. He and Thanatos had felt superior because of their abilities, and they’d leveraged that superiority to try to get Nico special treatment. But they’d done nothing to earn their power, nor to deserve it.
Nico realized to his horror that Thanatos had walked him straight into a trap. He and Thanatos assumed they were entitled to fiddle with the procedures of death, but mortals depended on the established processes in order to make it to their chosen afterlives safely. Deep down, he’d never intended to let any mortal soul go uncollected, or to deny them a chance to go to Heaven for judgment at the pearly gates if they so wished. But holy crap, he had not treated the matter with the gravity it deserved. He should have been putting them first and himself last. He’d fucked up.
“Oh, God,” he muttered, his breathing shallow. “Is there a cure?”
“Do you even want to be cured?” Brigid asked bitterly.
“I do. I’m sorry,” Nico said, his voice very small. “I just didn’t want to get hurt anymore.”
“Your redemption was bought through suffering,” Brigid said. “You have already been taught to offer pain up to God. When you are deserving, He alleviates it, and when you are not, He doesn’t. Either way, you are expected to submit to His will. What more can we teach you that you don’t already know? How many chances should we give you before the threat you pose is too great to bear?”
These were rhetorical questions. She stood up from her chair and walked behind her desk to look out her windows at St. Peter’s Square, where tourists from around the world thronged in their thousands to see the most famous church in the world.
“Sometimes I wonder if this program is the right decision,” she murmured quietly.
Devastated, Nico sat motionless. He’d been considering leaving more and more lately, thinking about Hazel and Thanatos and his mom. But there was no way he could leave a failure. He couldn’t walk away and live the rest of forever knowing he was a demon too sinful to redeem. He’d rather fall on his Stygian sword and get it over with than feel this way anymore.
The paper was right in front of him. As Brigid stared out the window pensively, he read the contents of the note.
Brigid,
Effective immediately, Nico di Angelo will be acting as psychopomp for all Catholic souls. His work may not be impeded by any conflicting priority due to an immediate closure of alternative routes for souls to reach Heaven/Hell/Purgatory. This is due to a decision made unilaterally by the Greeks in an effort to protect Nico from further punishment. It seems they expect to be able to review and approve what penances he is assigned.
Nico did not generate this idea, however he chose to cooperate with it. We are complying with the request for the moment in order to minimize workflow disruption. More information to come pending internal discussions.
Michael.
Nico had gotten everything he wanted, but he was so sick with guilt that he didn’t want it anymore.
He looked up at Brigid desperately.
“Please help me,” he said. “I need to overcome these pagan instincts. They’re holding me back. Help me to be more like you. I’m running out of time.”
Brigid turned around, looking down on him.
“Running out of time?”
Another thing Nico felt guilty about.
“I have to prove to my mom that there’s a way forward for me. She’s threatened to cancel spring if I don’t. I have until March 21st.”
“I wasn’t informed of this,” Brigid said, looking at Dymphna angrily. “Cancel spring? How can she do this?”
“My mom is Persephone,” Nico said.
Brigid stared at him blankly.
“Proserpina? Kore? The Queen of the Underworld?” Nico said. “I'm sure you’ve heard of her.”
“You’re just as bad as Luz with her talk of Cococucamonga,” Brigid said. Dymphna muttered, "Quetzalcoatl," under her breath. Brigid ignored her.
“I have not studied the other pantheons," Brigid continued. "There are more than enough names to memorize within this one. It hardly matters what minor demoness spawned you.”
It seemed like a serious oversight on her part, but Nico said nothing. His face, however, spoke for him.
"You assume I ought to know your relatives' names," Brigid said. "Can you name one of mine?"
He smiled in embarrassment.
"Um..."
"So I thought. Tell me who your mother is, then, if you think she's so important to know."
“Persephone is the goddess of spring,” he said.
Brigid’s brow furrowed deeply.
“She makes the flowers bloom and the fruit ripen," Nico said. "Without her, without spring, there will be no harvest. It will cause a famine. I don't know if it'll be the whole world, or just here in the Mediterranean. It'll be bad, though."
Brigid sat down at her desk, clasping her hands together contemplatively. Even Dymphna's face had grown drawn and weary.
"A famine, Brigid," she murmured, real fear in her eyes. Brigid waved her hand to shush her.
"Her terms?" She asked, her eyes pinpricks of bright light.
"Either I come home," Nico said. "Or I have to prove to her that a pagan demon can find happiness as a saint."
He didn’t offer any suggestion for Brigid to offer herself as an example. She lowered her eyes to the tabletop, not suggesting herself either. He thought she was probably the least happy saint he’d yet to meet. The happiest he’d seen her was when she was smashing the snakes, whom he still held in a small bag in his hand. It was leaking juices into his palm.
"Let me think this over," Brigid said. "In the meantime, Nico, you have duties to complete." She tapped the note on her desk.
"Yes, Ma'am," he said. As he left the room, he looked back over his shoulder. Brigid had moved to stand before the fireplace. She stared into the flames as though they could provide her with answers. He wondered, not for the first time, what was going through her mind.
Chapter 103: Bad Saint
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Nico left Brigid’s office with a heavy heart. He stood in the hallway, pausing to stare out one of the tall glass windows. From inside the Vatican he could see the usual throngs of tourists standing in St. Peter’s square taking pictures. He wondered whether any of them would look at their photos when they got home and catch sight of his shadowed face in a high window.
As he was thinking, a strange sound echoed from further down the hall. He glanced around, seeing a few saints walking to and fro on errands, but no one else reacted to the noise.
There was an odd quality to the sound, as though it were unimpeded by walls. It didn’t echo against the high ceilings or the marble floors. It merely was, existing only in his mind.
His eyes went to the door at the end of the long hall. Now that he knew he hadn’t been punished for looking in it before, there was nothing to stop him from going in. He walked over to the door and peered through the keyhole.
Again, light blinded him. The noise grew louder, unbearably so, until he had to stagger backward and clutch his hands over his ears. It did nothing to block the ringing noise, like a high pitched silent scream that was somehow melodic, as though someone was singing in a bizarre tone he’d never heard before.
His heart pounded in his ears. He stepped forward again, summoning his courage. He gently jiggled the handle and found it locked.
Nico could have easily walked right through the doors by becoming intangible, but he decided not to. He told himself he just didn’t feel like it. The moment he decided to walk away, the strange noise stopped abruptly.
He turned around to leave and caught sight of Dymphna walking down the hallway toward him carrying a box of paperwork.
“Dymphna,” he called out, jogging to catch up to her. She raised an eyebrow quizzically.
“I’m surprised to see you still hanging about,” she said.
“What’s in that room at the end of the hall?” He asked, pointing.
She glanced back.
“It’s a storage room,” she said.
“Storage for what?”
“I haven’t the slightest idea,” she said. “I’ve never been inside. Why?”
“I heard a noise. And there was a light.”
“Maybe someone is in there working,” she said, losing interest in the conversation. “Speaking of work, don’t you have an important job to do?”
“I’m doing it. I can be in multiple places at once.” Nico had collected a soul as they were speaking. It was second nature to him now, like a program that ran in the background on a computer.
“Does here need to be one of them?” She asked.
Before he could respond, they were interrupted by another saint. She was strikingly pretty, with long strawberry blonde hair topped with a crown of flowers. Her face was doll-like, youthful and sweet. She was unlike any saint he’d ever seen. Most saints had a slight touch of ethereal beauty, an elevation and grace that set them apart, but this saint had been a knockout even as a mortal. Her saintly gifts were just the icing on top.
“Dymphna, dear, would you introduce me to our new colleague?” She asked, her voice bright and airy.
“Nico, Petronilla. Petronilla, Nico,” Dymphna said flatly.
“We know each other already, sort of,” Petronilla informed him. “I have connections to that catacomb you were in. Achilleus and Nereus send their regards, by the way.”
“Oh. Cool,” Nico said, too stunned to respond properly.
“So you’re a saint in training still?”
“Yes,” Nico answered. “I’ve also just become the new Catholic psychopomp.” In what might be one of my dumbest decisions yet, he added silently to himself.
“How exciting,” Petronilla said, looping her arm through his. “Walk and talk with me?”
Dymphna excused herself, muttering about work to do, and Nico was escorted away by Petronilla. As they walked toward the Vatican library, saints seemed to go out of their way to greet her. She waved back at everyone, smiling all the while.
“I’m on the heavenly welcome committee,” she said. “So, am I to understand that, going forward, all souls will be dropped off by you?”
“Yes. I give them to Michael and he’ll send them to their next steps,” Nico said. “Do you work in Heaven? I haven’t seen it, but I really want to.”
“It’s lovely this time of year,” she said flippantly. “And every other time of the year, too. But I don’t work inside. I work at the gates, helping my father.”
“Oh,” Nico said. He thought about her name, Petronilla. “Oh!” He said. “Your father– Is he–”
“Saint Peter, yes,” she smiled. “He’s a lot to live up to. I can’t imagine what it’s like for you, though. I mean, living under that sort of shadow...”
“Uh, yeah,” Nico said, feeling a dark gloom settle on him at the thought of his dad. “I think you’re the first saint I’ve met who’s related to another saint,” he said, trying to change the subject.
“There are others,” she said. “But at the end of the day, we’re all brothers and sisters in Christ. We’re really one big family, and we’re so happy to have you with us!”
She seemed so bubbly, it was throwing Nico off. Most saints actively avoided him. He could see why she’d made it onto the welcome committee.
“Maybe we’ll have the chance to discuss your background more one of these days. I do have a meeting to get to, but let’s talk soon?” She waved goodbye, heading into the Vatican library.
Nico returned to Bartholomew’s church, wondering at the strange encounter. He’d never met a saint who was so gung-ho about getting to know him. Was that normal welcoming-committee behavior, or was Petronilla really cool with saints of pagan origin? If she was Peter’s daughter, she’d have been born right in the thick of Christian persecution at the hands of pagan Rome. Usually that meant he’d deal with prejudice, but she hadn’t shown any. He’d liked her. He’d especially liked the flowers in her hair, a touch of individuality that most saints eschewed in favor of modesty. The delicate, brightly colored blossoms had reminded him of his mom.
What would Persephone be doing right now? Running the Underworld on her own, hopefully having a change of heart and preparing for Spring after all. He knew that it was unlikely she wouldn’t follow through on her promise to cancel Spring for his sake, but hope was all he had at the moment. He could only wait for Brigid to come up with the name of another pagan god-turned-saint who was happy. Maybe she needed time to go through her Rolodex.
If she was the only former pagan saint, that spelled trouble for both of them, because Brigid herself was not a happy camper. Nico had a brief vision of a future where he desperately had to try to cheer her up before March 21st. Maybe they’d sign up for a dance competition together and he’d help her get her groove back.
He sent up a silent prayer to God that it wouldn’t come to that.
He glanced back at the Fatebenefratelli hospital, but there was no sign of Asclepius peeping through the windows. He may have been moved, Nico realized sadly. As he walked into his familiar home church, he found Patli and Luz whispering to each other in the vestibule next to the donation box. They both turned to him as he approached.
“You have a supplicant,” Luz said quietly, gesturing out at the pews.
“A what?” Nico asked.
“Someone is here praying to you,” Patli explained. “Did you tell them you worked here? We’re not supposed to give out contact information.”
“I don’t think I told anyone,” Nico said. He walked out to the side chapel that Luz indicated, eager to find out who’d come to see him.
Maria Bova knelt before the statue of Mary in the left alcove, her eyes gently shut in prayer. She whispered fiercely under her breath.
Nico tracked the gaze of the statue down to Maria’s face. She appeared to be bathed in heavenly light. Maybe it was the warm regard of the Queen of Peace blanketing her with that ethereal aura. He couldn’t rule it out. The problem was, Maria always looked like she was glowing from the inside out. Especially since Nico had fallen in love with her.
He turned visible and sat down in a pew behind her, waiting for her to be finished. He didn’t want to interrupt a prayer to Mary of all people. After listening closely for a moment, however, he caught his own name, and realized that Maria was praying to him.
He sat for a moment and just listened.
A long time ago, Hazel had made blood sacrifices to him. They hit like Jagerbombs, heady and potent enough to give a young god the zoomies like a dog who’d just come in from the rain. Maria’s prayers felt like soft summer breezes caressing his skin, refreshing like a glass of ice water on a hot day.
Man, he’d kill for some ice water…
Refocusing, he pondered this difference, and decided it was because Maria was merely praying for his intercession. She didn’t worship him, she just talked to him so that he could relay messages to God. Nico didn’t have God’s number, he had to pray like a regular person, too, but she didn’t know that. She was trying to make him a saint, and that meant treating him like one even if he wasn’t yet. He hoped she lived to see the day he became canonized. She’d have to live a really long time for that, but still he hoped.
“Psst,” he said. She turned around and nearly fell over backwards.
“I knew I felt your presence here,” she said, sitting up excitedly. “I’ve been going to churches all over the city looking for you.”
She looked different. It wasn’t anything extreme, but she had on a new leather jacket and dark ripped jeans, and she was wearing makeup. His heart hurt a little bit. She looked good, but he sensed Marco’s influence at work. The old sheltered, innocent Maria was probably long gone.
Oh, God, Nico thought to himself. Were they sleeping together? A brief panic clenched his heart, but he shook it off. Maria spent way too much time in church to have a sex life. At least in that way, Nico’s influence still reigned.
He was like, 99% sure. Maybe 95%. Pretty sure, though.
“Church hopping to run into me, huh?” He asked, grinning.
She slid into the pew beside him, careful to leave a few inches between their bodies. The old school dance rule ‘leave room for Jesus’ entered Nico’s mind unbidden, and he took his arm off the back of the pew and clasped his hands in his lap demurely.
Maria’s eyes were positively drinking him in. She was so stunningly beautiful that he could barely form coherent thoughts. When would this fixation end? He wanted to go back to being gay. This new and jarring straightness was weird and unfamiliar to him, and he hated it. He missed being friends with girls without worrying about coming off like a creep. If Maria knew what was going through his head, she’d probably be revolted by him.
Or she’d be into it. But he couldn’t think about that.
“I have a lot to tell you,” she said. “But you might already know.”
She scratched at an exposed bit of her leg through a hole in her jeans. Nico averted his eyes. He was down bad, down horrendous. He wished she hadn’t come to visit; he didn’t need this right now. Satan’s temptations were no joke.
“You and Marco are dating,” he said curtly. “Congrats.” The words tasted like acid in his mouth.
She turned bright red; he smirked. Still a good Catholic girl in spite of her new rock star boyfriend.
“Thanks,” she said quietly. She paused, then said, “It’s weird. I’ve never been in a relationship before.”
If she said anything else, Nico would burst into tears. He hated that these feelings were getting in the way of being her friend. A year ago, he’d be going, ‘Yes, bitch, spill the tea,’ and they’d drink mimosas and talk about boys together.
Now he was a completely different person, and he fucking hated him. Thanatos, Persephone, Hazel-- all of them liked to remind him that they missed the old Nico. Yeah? So did he. But the old Nico couldn’t come to the phone right now. He was dead.
“How’s the band?” Nico asked, desperate to change the subject.
“You knew I joined?” She asked.
“I assumed.”
“Oh. Yes, I’m in the band now, and we’ve been working our butts off.” She shook her head, smiling just thinking about it. “It’s been a lot of late nights, but I don’t mind.”
“Do you have anything to show for it yet?” Nico asked. “Or is this just for fun?”
Her face lit up with excitement.
“We’ve written an entire concept album,” she announced proudly.
Nico’s jaw dropped.
“That fast?”
“They were already working on a new album when Terezia died,” she said. “I had a few songs that didn’t make the cut for my last record, the one that sold so poorly. We combined efforts and something incredible happened. I need you to hear it. We’re hosting a listening party tonight at Marco’s place. It’ll just be us and a few close friends. Will you come?”
“Of course,” he said. He dreaded seeing Maria and Marco together, but he was curious to see if their music was any good. “Just be prepared for me to be underwhelmed. I was a pretty big fan of your solo work.”
“My voice is on every track but one,” she said. “And I wrote half the songs. It’s still my work, just enhanced.” Her brows lowered thoughtfully. “Introducing me to this band– to Marco– it might be the best thing you ever did for me. And you’ve done a lot already.”
She stared into his eyes, her gaze uncomfortably intense. Maria’s feelings were always an open book. That was what made it so hard. Knowing his feelings were reciprocated, yet still had to be suppressed, was torment.
“I’ll be there,” Nico said. He had that sinking feeling in his gut that told him this wouldn’t end well.
To his own surprise, he ended up having fun at the listening party. It had been ages since he’d socialized with humans, and getting introduced to a room full of strangers as Maria’s friend was weird in a good way. He’d dulled down his appearance to look less stunning and he’d gone blonde again just for the hell of it. To his delight, he was being treated like a normal guy. He was offered beers and chips and pretzels and had to keep turning them down. One of Marco’s friends, a pretty young woman with purple highlights in her hair, kept winking at him and toasting him with her wine glass. It was weirdly reassuring to be disinterested in an objectively gorgeous woman coming on to him. He might have had a thing for Maria, but other women were not a temptation in the slightest.
Marco made sure to introduce him to the other band members, Caio and Leonardo, as soon as he arrived. Something about their demeanor, slightly nervous and a little awed, made him suspect that Marco and Maria had told them he wasn’t a normal human. He wasn’t sure he cared, but it seemed like something that should have been run by him first. Unfortunately, Maria was more gung-ho about his sainthood than he was, so there was always a risk that she’d say too much. He supposed he was lucky she hadn’t taken out a billboard ad.
Marco, of course, already knew exactly who and what Nico was. It was hard to be mad at Marco. He was trembling when he went to shake Nico’s hand, and Nico reluctantly hugged him, sensing that the guy really needed it. Marco held on for a long time until Nico was forced to pry him off.
He regretted the hug, since it revealed that in addition to looking fantastic, Marco also smelled really good. He had silky hair, cheekbones that could slice cheese, and he seemed to be a nice person, too. Nico watched him closely as Marco made a circuit of the room and greeted their guests, no more than a dozen friends and a few relatives crammed into his tiny apartment. Marco was warm and genuine and listened more than he talked, especially when Maria was the one talking. Nico even noticed him shushing other people so that Maria could be heard over the chatter.
That was what made up his mind. He wanted to do a favor for Marco, partly motivated by his own guilt over being a jealous ass. Nico tucked away a little surprise for him later.
“Hey, guys? Listen up,” Marco said, tapping his beer bottle with a spoon for quiet. “We know you’re all here to listen to the album, and we’re gonna play it soon. But first, we have an announcement. As most of you know, we’ve been working on a name change. After we lost my sister Tizi this past winter we knew we had to bury Hell’s Bells with her. That band was our youth. It gave us memories we’ll cherish forever.”
Caio nodded his agreement, putting his arm around Leonardo, who was sniffling quietly. Maria put her arm around them, too. It seemed like the whole band had gotten really close, which made Nico happy to see. Maria had gone too long without friends her own age.
And yet, Nico felt that bitter, jealous snake writhing in his heart. He had liked being her only friend, the only one she could confide in. His happiness for her mingled with pain for himself, and he felt sick. Satan was a real piece of work for making him feel this way.
“The story behind our new name is kind of long, so please bear with me, guys,” Marco said. “My sister always had a weird relationship with religion.”
Religion? Nico hoped he wasn’t about to get dragged into this. He wished he could turn invisible. He considered locking himself in the bathroom, but there was someone in there already.
“As a kid, Tizi used to freak our parents out by saying God wasn’t real. I think she just did it to shock them. She refused to go to church with us most of the time. But she also did this weird thing; she collected saint’s medallions, like, the necklaces. She had a whole box of them. I asked her why, but she never explained. When she died and we went through her stuff, we found them. She’d kept them all these years in a fancy little box. I have no idea what they meant to her. I guess now I never will. But it sort of inspired this album. It’s about contradiction, questioning, faith, defiance– weird theology major stuff,” he admitted, grinning bashfully.
Nico leaned his head against the wall, staring at Marco. He was so cool. The album sounded cool, too. It was funny to think that had Nico not intervened, he would have quit music forever and he and Maria never would have met. Nico wondered if this band would end up being his proudest accomplishment.
Well, that depended on whether the music sucked or not. But he had a feeling it was going to be good.
“With that, I’ll announce our new band name,” Marco said, “Which is also the name of the debut album. This is ‘Bad Saint’.”
Everyone in the room cheered– except Nico.
Bad Saint?
Was this fucking album about him?
His gaze swept toward Maria. The first strains of the opening song started up, and he marched over to her. She took a sip of her beer, avoiding his eyes. Since when did she drink beer?
“Psst,” Nico said, pulling her into the kitchen.
“Please listen before you judge,” Maria said defensively. “We just wanted to–”
“To get me in trouble?” Nico asked. “‘Bad Saint’? Really? I’m trying not to draw attention to myself right now!”
Her eyes flicked toward an iPad on the countertop, which was controlling the music. Nico picked it up and read the tracklist. The song that was playing now was called ‘Nico di Angelo.’ Not exactly subtle.
His eyes flashed at Maria darkly. She took the iPad from his hands, clutching it to her chest.
“Attention is exactly what you need,” she said. “You’ll never be canonized without a following, and this is the best platform I have to tell people about you. The Discord–”
“Stop with the Discord stuff, alright?” Nico ran his hands through his hair in frustration.
Maria watched him for a moment, wide-eyed and sincere.
“This is our offering to you,” she said simply, indicating the tracklist. “We hope you’ll accept it.”
Her last words had a bite to them, an implied, ‘at least listen to it, jerk,’ that he heard loud and clear. He nodded, realizing his reaction had been harsh, and walked over to sit on the couch and behave himself. Squished between Caio and Leonardo, he listened to the entire album without moving. Everyone else took breaks, talked between songs, got drinks and ate snacks, but Nico never budged. Just as he’d once done for Jason, he gave the music his full attention– his offering. And he realized by the end of the last song, that the album was indeed something special. Marco had conveyed everything he’d wanted to– confusion, conflict, hope and grief– all of it deeply personal and coincidentally relevant to Nico. What did that say about him, that a former god and a saint-in-training had life even less figured out than a mortal musician? Nico could never have expressed such complex feelings half so well.
The only thing Nico didn’t like about the album was its genre. He couldn’t help it. He just liked opera.
He kept to himself after the party died down. No one spoke to him, and he disappeared into the corner of the couch, hunched over an empty beer bottle that he’d pretended to drink from. He was so deep in thought that he almost didn’t realize that he was the last one left at the party. The only people in the apartment were the four band members, who were all staring at him expectantly.
“Um, Nico?” Marco asked. “Thoughts? Comments? Anything?”
Nico looked the four of them over. For rock stars dressed in leather, they didn’t seem very tough. All of them were jittery with nerves, and he realized that his thoughtful facial expression might have come off a little angrier than he’d intended. He smoothed his brow. If you want to be a saint, he thought to himself, act like one.
“I’m grateful,” he said, evoking a serene and benevolent presence. “Thank you for the offering.”
Caio looked skeptical. Leonardo said,
“Did you like the drum solo on the fifth song, ‘Bianca?”
“It was fine,” Nico said, more put off by the name of the song than by the self-indulgent, three minute long drum solo.
“And ‘Angel of Death?’ Did you like the drum solo on that one?”
“He’s visiting from Heaven, not Rolling Stone,” Marco said with annoyance. Nico laughed, then remembered that he’d been planning on doing something nice for Marco.
“You’re right. Sorry, I’m not much of a music critic. Maybe you need a more informed opinion.”
He leaned over the arm of the couch, looking toward the bathroom where he’d hidden the surprise.
“Tizi? What did you think?” Nico called out.
Terezia’s shade became visible. She was standing in the hallway, leaning against the wall. The old bare lightbulb on the hallway ceiling flickered, making her look even more eerie than she already did, grey and wispy and dead as she was.
Caio shrieked in falsetto. Leonardo clutched his chest like he was having palpitations. Maria, familiar with Nico’s hijinks, gave a small gasp of delight. And Marco ran to his sister with open arms.
He ran right through her, slamming into the wall with a painful thud. He turned around in disappointment, rubbing his chest.
“That looked like it hurt,” Tizi said, smirking at him.
He reached up to trace his hand along her ghostly face, his fingers passing through the image of her skin.
“You’re not real,” he said dazedly. “This is a dream.”
“It’s a hologram,” Caio said, trembling from head to toe.
“I’m not a hologram, dumbass,” Tizi said, her snark only slightly watered down by death. “I’m a ghost.”
“Madonna Santa,” Leonardo said, falling to his knees and beginning to pray in sheer terror.
“This is the work of San Nicolo,” Maria corrected. “I tried to tell you guys. He’s really a saint.”
“More importantly, I’m really me,” Tizi insisted, looking at her brother. “Are you gonna say something?”
“Hi,” he said, his eyes wide and watery. Nico realized that Marco was in imminent danger of passing out. He went over and nudged him to sit down on a stool at the kitchen counter, pushing empty beer cans aside to clear space. Tizi sat beside her brother, hovering atop the stool without actually sitting.
“You’re really dead?” Caio asked skeptically. He was still inspecting the ceilings and floors looking for a projector.
“Pretty sure,” Tizi said.
“Prove it,” Caio said. “What’s something only Tizi would know?”
“Shower mats are not a waste of money,” she said matter-of-factly. “I’d still be here if we had a good grippy one. Or maybe not. I was pretty high.”
“Sober people fall in the shower, too,” Nico said. “I see it all the time. Don’t feel bad.”
“I don’t,” she shrugged. “Just the way it is.”
Marco reached out again and tried to grab his sister’s hand. Again it passed through.
Taking pity on Marco, Nico reached out to touch Tizi’s back.
“Try again,” he said, smiling at Marco.
Marco reached out for his sister once more, and this time he felt something solid beneath his fingertips. He touched her hand and then embraced her. His whole body shook with the force of his sobs.
Maria, Caio, and Leonardo were quiet, respecting the gravity of the moment. Tizi didn’t, though.
“Would you calm down?” She said, pushing him away. “I’m dead. It’s not the end of the world.”
Marco moved back to sit on his stool beside her, scrubbing tears from his face. He struggled to speak. Nico could sense what he was thinking, though. Losing someone you cared about was like having a hole ripped right through the fabric of your reality. It felt like the sun going out, or the ocean drying up. Marco’s world had ended the day his sister had died. And he’d still had to go to work, buy groceries, and do laundry, all while living through his own personal, private apocalypse. Mortal life was unbearably cruel that way.
Tizi was not comforting her brother the way Nico had hoped. Ironically, she'd died young enough that she'd never had to lose anybody herself. She didn't seem to know how to handle her brother's grief. Nico poked her hard between the shoulderblades.
“I brought you here for a reason,” Nico said firmly.
“Right,” Tizi said, remembering. “Marco, Leo, Caio– and Maria,” she added reluctantly. “I liked the album.”
Marco looked up. His eyeliner was running down his cheeks.
“Really?”
“Yeah,” she admitted. “I mean, I had more talent in my big toe than this chick,” she said, pointing at Maria. “But since I’m not around anymore, I guess I’m happy you kept things going. Even though I told you not to. I didn’t really mean that. Nico was worried you’d taken it too seriously, but I was talking out of my ass.”
Marco broke down in tears of relief. Nico felt a rush of satisfaction. He’d brought Tizi out for the album party on a whim. He’d had no idea whether Marco still felt guilty about continuing the band against his sister’s wishes, or whether he’d moved on. Nico’s gut instinct had been right– Marco had still harbored guilt, and now Nico had set him free.
“Tizi, I swear to Christ, we’re gonna do you proud,” Leonardo said. “We’re gonna take the fucking world by storm. The Sanremo music festival is next week, and we’re going to win for you.”
“I still think you’re a hologram,” Caio said nervously. “But…. Yeah. What he said.”
“Thank you,” Maria said simply.
Tizi looked back at Nico, and he saw in her eyes that she was done here in the mortal world.
“Welp. Guess I’ll see you guys in Hell,” she said, shrugging.
“What?” Marco said, sitting up in alarm.
“Don’t say that,” Maria murmured, pressing her hand to her mouth.
“I’m kidding,” Tizi said, looking at Nico again nervously. “Probably.”
Nico touched the top of her head, condensing her form back into that blue little soul once more.
“What? No,” Marco said, grabbing at it. Nico snatched her back reflexively, and Marco stood up. “No, you can’t! I need more time! Bring her back out!” He insisted.
Nico shook his head and put her into his pocket silently.
“You can’t just take her away again,” Marco said, staring at Nico in disbelief. “I didn’t even get to ask why she kept the saint medals.”
Maria grabbed Marco's arm.
“You’ve been given a gift,” she said. “Let it be enough.” She hugged him tightly, stifling further protests. She knew the full weight of what Nico had done for them. He’d revealed way more than he should have, and given Marco something that even Maria herself hadn’t received. One last conversation with someone who’d passed away was a gift people would sell kingdoms for. In time, Marco would realize that, but for now, Nico needed to leave and give them time to process in their own mortal way. He disappeared.
Outside on the sidewalk, he took a deep breath of satisfaction. His saintly life was not any easier than his godly life had been, but it still had some moments of real contentment. He loved helping the people that worshiped him– or, in this case, venerated him, he thought wryly. The difference from his side was negligible.
“Can I bum a smoke?” A young woman asked. He turned. It was the woman with the purple highlights. He hadn’t looked too closely at her earlier, but he noticed that her eyes were an unusual red-purple color, like wine.
He produced a cigarette from his pocket and handed it to her. She lit it with magic.
“You’re dumb, Nico di Angelo,” she said, cocking her hip and tilting her chin up at him.
He sighed, realizing that he was indeed dumb. But he’d already known that.
“Hi, Ariadne.”
“Did you think you could avoid me forever?” She asked, grinning triumphantly. “The band rehearses in my bar. Maria works for me! Do you think I didn’t see you kissing her that night in the alley? I’ve heard half those songs already when they were working on them. They’re all about you. The whole album, the whole band, are all you. Right?”
“Yeah,” he admitted.
“I knew it,” she said. “Your fingerprints are all over Maria. She told me about her vocal coach, Teri– Terpsichore. Litochoro, Olympus, Apollo, Eurovision, I’ve put it all together. You’ve known her for a long time.”
“Since the beginning.”
Ariadne gave him a knowing look.
“She’s the reason you converted, isn’t she? You’re in love with her.”
“Nero is the reason I converted,” Nico said. “And my dad,” he added more quietly.
“No, they’re the reason you left our pantheon,” she corrected him. “You could have just moved to Tokyo and never seen us again. There’s a reason you’re here in Rome.”
“Why are we having this conversation?” Nico snapped. Ariadne wasn’t exactly right, but she wasn’t exactly wrong, either, and he didn’t like her knowing all of this. “What do you want?”
She shrugged, taking a drag of her cigarette.
“You hurt me when you left without saying goodbye,” she said quietly.
He bit his lip, harder than he meant to, until he tasted ichor.
“Most of us are okay living in peace with the Catholics, side by side,” Ariadne said. “They’re the ones who want to be enemies. We would have been fine calling them our fellow gods, sharing the glory, but they insist on calling us demons. They hurt and imprison us every chance they get.”
“That’s not the full story,” Nico said.
“Oh yeah? Well, I would have been your friend,” she said. “Even if you chose to be something I didn’t understand. But they would never allow it. Am I right?”
Nico didn’t answer. He watched her smoke her cigarette and prayed that the smoke would waft his way, just to give him a taste.
“Apollo wants to start a holy war,” Ariadne said casually. “To rescue Asclepius.”
Nico froze.
“A holy war?” He said, his mouth going dry.
“Gods versus saints,” Ariadne said. “You could call it ‘gods versus God’ if you want, but we don’t expect your God to show up.”
“You’d better hope He doesn’t,” Nico said, frowning. “Or you’re toast.”
“Maybe,” she shrugged. “I’m not planning on fighting, but Di will, and I can’t have that. I need you to stop this war from happening.”
“I need me to stop this war from happening, too,” Nico said, heart racing a mile a minute. “I feel like we just got done with one of those.”
“Right? I still haven’t found a magical daycare that’ll take my brother,” she added, referring to the minotaur that, last he’d heard, was running around her vineyard. “The good thing is it’s still early days. Zeus isn’t backing Apollo’s plan yet, but if he changes his mind, things could get serious. Asclepius might not be worth going to war for, but you just might be. Zeus knows you have the power and the motive to kill him. He’s terrified of you. He might prefer to fight you on his own terms rather than wait for you to come to him.”
“I’m flattered that he thinks I’m capable,” Nico said, feeling pure, unadulterated exhilaration. He wondered if Zeus lay awake at night in fear that Nico would come for him wielding Stygian iron. He’d given his sword up, but Zeus didn’t know that.
“He knows you’re capable, after what you did,” Ariadne said, giving him a wary look. “He’s right to fear you, but most of us would prefer not to get involved. He’ll wait until he has everyone all riled up, which takes time. I’m asking you to step in and de-escalate now, for all of our sakes, before it’s too late.”
“You mean free Asclepius,” Nico said, frowning. “That’s what it will take.”
“Can you do it?” Ariadne asked.
“I don’t know," Nico said. "But I'll have to see what I can do."
Nico only ended up making things worse. What else was new?
“Bring it on!” Saint Brigid shouted, slamming her fist down. Sparks flew out from under her fingers, and the other saints at the meeting table flinched backwards.
They’d gathered in a meeting room in the Vatican, pulling together the major saints who were available on short notice that knew about the situation with Asclepius. The room was clearly meant for high level discussion. It was on an upper floor with a massive gold and crystal chandelier hanging over the table. Brigid was making it rattle and shake in a highly concerning way.
“We don’t want a holy war,” Saint Philip said calmly, sitting in a high-backed chair across from Brigid. “Imagine the collateral damage to humanity that could potentially ensue.”
“We are not the ones starting the war,” Saint Bartholomew said, “But if we are tasked with finishing it, that is another matter.” His fleshless face smiled in an eerie grin. “We must put on the full armor of God so that we can take our stand against the devil's schemes.”
“Praise be to the Lord my Rock, who trains my hands for war, my fingers for battle,” Brigid said, cracking her knuckles.
Nico wanted to hide under the table. His report had sent the saints into an uproar such that he wished he’d kept his mouth shut. The irony was not lost on him that the saints in charge of the Demon Rehabilitation Program were the two most keyed up for a fight.
Saint Petronilla sat at the head of the table in place of her father, who had sent her with his advice written on a Post-It note. His chair, marked with the papal keys, dwarfed her small frame, but that didn't seem to bother her. For some reason, she’d asked to participate in his stead and he’d allowed it. Maybe that was normal for them; after all, Peter carried a huge number of responsibilities. Nico was disappointed not to meet with the keeper of the keys to the kingdom, but Peter was also notoriously impulsive, so it was probably better not to have him in the same room with Brigid and Bartholomew at the moment.
“My father is willing to give them one final chance to repent, in an act of mercy,” Petronilla said. “But after that, it’s ON. He wrote ‘ON’ in capital letters, in case you were wondering,” she added.
“All of you, please,” Nico said, close to falling on his knees and begging. “Most of the demons know nothing about this, don’t want it, and wouldn’t participate. It’s just a handful who are upset about Asclepius.” And upset about me, he thought, but he wasn’t going to mention that. “We should take them seriously, but we shouldn’t take them for something they’re not. No threats have been made, but you’re acting like there’s been a declaration of war already.”
“We’ve been in a cold war for centuries,” Bartholomew said.
“If a person holds a lit match over a puddle of gasoline, do you wait for the match to fall in order to intervene?” Brigid asked.
“No, but you don’t shoot them before they drop it, either,” Nico said. “Then the gasoline explodes anyway. What happened to ‘blessed are the peacemakers?’”
Nico looked to Philip, the calmest saint in the room, for intervention. Philip raised a hand, and the others quieted.
“Peter asked that we give them one singular chance to back down,” he said. “I would go one step further. I propose that we turn the other cheek. We let Asclepius go. Keeping him imprisoned poses more risk than benefit to our spiritual community.”
“What about the threats he made?” Bartholomew asked, his exposed eyes bulging.
“He can swear on the Styx not to hurt Brigid or anyone else,” Nico suggested quickly. “That oath binds gods permanently, and they take it incredibly seriously. We can extract promises from him in exchange for his release.”
“Binding promises?” Petronilla asked, her eyes gleaming. “A binding promise from a demon is something we haven’t considered.”
“Too risky," Brigid said. “They lie.”
“The oath works,” Nico insisted, looking at Brigid insistently. “Apollo is just a father who wants his son back. He doesn’t know why we’re keeping Asclepius prisoner. Maybe if we talk things through–”
“We don’t negotiate with demons,” Bartholomew said.
“No, hang on a moment,” Petronilla said, steepling her fingers. “Phillip is right. Imprisoning Asclepius here forever is not an ideal solution. We gain nothing from keeping him, but if we give him back, we can receive something in exchange.”
“I see what you’re getting at,” Brigid said. “First, we castrate him with promises so that he’s no longer a threat. Then, we do the same to the father so that he cannot revenge himself upon us. We make those the starting conditions for negotiation. After that–”
“We squeeze them,” Petronilla said. “We find out how much Asclepius is really worth to them.”
Nico clenched his teeth nervously. Ariadne had warned him about this. They saw the Greek gods as demons ripe for eradication. Although they were obligated to be honest, they weren’t obligated to be fair. They held all the power in the situation, and Apollo would be at a disadvantage. Nico could only imagine what the saints might want from him. Magical objects? Information, real estate? The latter was the most likely. Maybe he still clung to a temple or two that they wanted demolished. Nico thought of the sinking island of Delos and its ruins, and his heart sank with it. The Catholics already had so much… But he’d chosen his side. There was nothing he could do.
A day later, Nico stood in the square outside the Pantheon. The sun was beating down on the top of his head as though Apollo were deliberately trying to ruin his day. The Pantheon wasn’t far from the Church of Santa Maria Sopra Minerva, where he’d met his first saint, Catherine of Siena. It brought back memories of his first saintly negotiation, and how, in the end, Isis had left disappointed. He had a feeling this one was going to end the same way for the gods. There was no question of who ruled in Rome nowadays.
The meeting with Apollo had been arranged, and Nico would be leading the negotiation, at least on the surface of things. Everything he was to say had already been scripted, and the charming Petronilla would go with him. The saints had made the very accurate assumption that her pretty face would help smooth the way with the pagans, particularly Apollo. Saint Adalbert had come along, too, nervously escorting Asclepius to the meeting site with the instructions to bring him into the Pantheon when the signal was given.
“Are we going inside?” Asked Petronilla. “We don’t have all day.”
“I’m sorry, do you have a hair appointment?” Nico snapped. He’d been dragging his feet, his mind racing with anxiety. The Pantheon had been chosen as semi-neutral ground, a former temple to all the gods that was now a church. The same concept reigned in the choice of location-- the saints had total control, and the olive branches they extended were just for show. This was not a meeting between equals, and Nico was growing more worried about the outcome by the minute. He'd been locked out of the final planning stages, and Petronilla had been given final authority over the negotiation terms.
“Is that meant to imply that I am vain? That’s a serious accusation to make of a saint,” she said, genuinely offended. “I can’t help the way I look.”
“That flower crown just fell out of the sky and landed on your head, huh?” Nico asked, unable to help himself.
“Don’t let’s start fighting,” Adalbert said. “We’re all on the same side here.”
“I’m not,” said Asclepius quietly.
Nico turned around and looked at the god of medicine. Asclepius had sacred seals all over his body, so many that he could barely move. He hadn’t said more than a few words all day, and he hadn’t made eye contact with Nico once. His expression was stoic, as though he didn’t dare to get his hopes up. Nico felt spurred on even further towards his goal of returning him home through diplomacy.
“I’m ready,” Nico said, squaring his shoulders and adopting a posture of serene saintly dignity. He and Petronilla walked forward in lockstep, their feet not touching the ground, their halos aglow, and entered the Pantheon.
The sight of the familiar temple sent a jolt of recognition down Nico’s spine. He’d nearly forgotten the last time he’d seen it. His dad had brought him here when he was just a toddler– it was Nico’s oldest memory, the first experience his brain had registered as worth keeping. Hades had carried him inside and showed him how to play with the shadows on the walls. Little Nico had absorbed every detail of the vast domed space, the carved inset ceiling, the cavernous echoes of Hades’ footsteps. Most of all, he remembered his father being kind to him, giving him the sort of love and attention that every child wanted from his dad. It was a special memory.
His eyes glazed over, and he felt like he had a rock stuck in his throat. He missed Hades. He knew he was better off without him in his life, but he wanted to see him anyway.
Petronilla cleared her throat.
Nico snapped out of his reverie. That wave of nostalgia was going to be a problem. He was supposed to be cold and professional for this meeting, and he was already feeling all weird and sappy. Why did it have to be the Pantheon?
He looked for the first time at the two gods they were scheduled to meet. Hermes and Apollo were standing in the center of the room, directly under the aperture at the apex of the dome.
Nico’s eye twitched in irritation. It was time to lock in. He did his best to push his feelings aside. They might not be perfect, but he’d chosen to throw his lot in with the Catholics and was one of them now. He was not going to let them down.
Petronilla touched her earpiece.
“Security check?” She said quietly. “Clear,” she said, looking at Nico. “Go ahead.”
He strode forward silently, approaching fast. He’d clocked that Apollo and Hermes had picked a spot in the dead center of the room, and he wanted to make them regret picking the best spot like they still owned the place. They needed to humble themselves or talks would get nowhere fast.
He walked toward Hermes, and, just as he predicted, Hermes balked and stepped backward immediately. Apollo, taking a cue from his brother, stepped back as well, but only slightly.
“Hello,” Nico said immediately, making eye contact with them both. He spoke with all the authority he could muster, and his voice resounded in the cavernous space. “I heard you’re starting a holy war.”
“H– Hey, cousin,” Hermes said. Nico had spooked him, understandable based on their last encounter. He looked like he wished he hadn’t come.
Apollo had a look of satisfaction on his face, like someone who’d just fit the last piece into a puzzle they’d been working on for a long time.
“I could have told them, you know,” Apollo said casually.
Nico was not going to be baited into asking for more information. He stared at Apollo until he gave up on his play for conversational dominance.
“I foresaw this,” Apollo clarified, reminding Nico of the prophecy he’d nearly forgotten about. “I saw the halo in my vision, and the stodgy suit, but I never told anyone that I knew you were going to become a saint. I didn’t want to get you into trouble. I liked you. We’ve had some interesting times together.”
Petronilla gave Nico a side-eye, possibly assuming that they’d dated. They hadn’t, but his words brought to mind Nico’s first visit to Olympus, their revelry on Mykonos, Parentalia, karaoke, visits to Delos and Epidauros. Apollo was right. Even the bad times seemed kind of fun in hindsight. He almost smiled.
He didn’t, though. He refused to show any weakness. Apollo was meeting with a stranger. That was how it had to be.
When Nico said nothing, Apollo and Hermes glanced at each other, Hermes shrugging hopelessly. Hermes had probably suggested this meeting, telling Apollo that Nico could still be reasoned with– Nico had let him go, after all. Hermes didn’t realize that Nico had caught himself slipping. He wasn’t going to make that mistake again.
“You stole my son from me,” Apollo said, his polite mask slipping off to reveal a scorching fury in his face. He bared his teeth. “I want him back. And make no mistake– I may have come in peace today, but I am willing to burn this earth from pole to pole if that’s what it takes. I’ll make global warming look like a cold snap. I’ll make Covid look like a case of the sniffles. I'll--”
“They get it,” Hermes said, elbowing his brother.
“Threats of violence,” Petronilla chirped. “How unoriginal.”
“Empty threats,” Nico added, folding his arms across his chest. “Apollo has no backing from Olympus. Zeus doesn’t care about Asclepius. He won’t go to war for him.”
Apollo’s ears turned red. Hermes stared at the ground, gritting his teeth.
“Traitor,” Apollo said bitterly, his expression raw with hurt and anger. “My boy hasn’t done you any harm. Why can’t you just let him go?”
Nico looked at Petronilla, who nodded her permission.
“Asclepius joined the Catholic pantheon of his own free will,” Nico said.
“He would never!” Apollo said, bristling.
“I’m pretty sure Nico can’t lie,” Hermes said. Apollo furrowed his brow.
“He failed to progress in his faith,” Nico said, “He threatened a saint with violence. He was imprisoned for everyone’s safety, but he hasn’t been harmed. We’re here because we’re open to negotiating with you for his freedom.”
Apollo’s and Hermes’ mouths both fell open in surprise.
Nico stretched his hands out openly.
“Let’s make a deal,” he said, smiling. “I’ll even give you a gift to demonstrate our goodwill.”
Apollo returned his smile hesitantly. Hermes sighed with relief, looking slightly less like a fainting goat. He accepted the bag that Nico proffered him.
“What is it?” Apollo asked, looking over Hermes’ shoulder. Hermes reached inside the bag and pulled out three snakes.
Nico waited for their reaction hesitantly. The saints had liked the idea of giving them their snakes back bloody and broken, but still alive. It was crucial to establish that they could get their stuff back if they played their cards right, but it was also a gory reminder that Asclepius was at the mercy of the church.
“George?” Hermes said. “Martha?”
“And Spike!” Apollo said. “They’re hurt!” He looked up at Nico with tears in his eyes. “You bastard. What did they ever do to you?”
“Brigid, um… She’s not into snakes,” Nico admitted.
“Master… We’re sorry we failed you,” George hissed weakly, coughing.
Hermes held them out to his brother, and Apollo kissed each of the three snakes on the top of their scaly heads. All three were healed instantly.
Petronilla made a sound of disgust.
“You were told not to use any magic during this meeting,” she said. “Strike one.”
Nico looked back at the snakes. One by one they crawled inside the neck of Hermes’ shirt, disappearing from view. He didn’t mind that Apollo had healed them. He wouldn’t have given him a strike for that. But he wasn’t in charge.
“What do you want from me?” Apollo said, dead eyed. “For Asclepius, I’ll give anything. But what can I give that hasn’t already been taken? You’ve taken my temples, my prophets, and my worshippers. Do you want my heart on a platter? You can have it.”
“We want you to swear on the Styx that you will never harm, imprison, or otherwise inconvenience a saint again,” Nico said. “That’s all.”
“You told them about the Styx?” Hermes said, wilting. He turned to his brother. “We can’t do this,” he said. “We should go.”
“I don’t see what the big deal is,” Nico said.
“Of course you don’t,” Hermes said bitterly. “You’re just a baby. You’ve never lived in a world they didn’t already control. You don’t know what they did to get this power. You have no idea what it cost the rest of us. You’re taking away our right to self-defense– the only power we have left to challenge them with. The only reason we still exist is because we’re strong enough to hurt them. If we swear this oath, we’re doomed.”
“Fuck it,” Apollo shrugged. “I’ll swear.”
“Apollo!” Hermes insisted, grabbing his brother’s arm.
“So long as they have Asclepius, they’ve got me by the balls,” Apollo said. “Nico's right. I’d never be able to take him back by force unless the whole pantheon was backing me up. And they’re not. This is the best shot I have at getting him back.”
“And what’s to stop them from kidnapping all of us one by one and forcing us each to take this oath in exchange for freedom?” Hermes asked. “If they get enough of us, the pantheon will become so weak that they’ll be able to cast us all down into their Hell for good. I’m sure that’s their end goal.”
Nico hadn’t considered that, and for a moment, he really did feel like a dumb kid who’d never cracked a history book.
“I understand you have some concerns,” Nico said. “Maybe we can have you swear to something a little less extreme. What if–”
“No,” Petronilla said. “Nico, we have our orders. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.”
He recognized her quote from Hebrews. She was right. He had to have faith that they were doing the right thing and keep pushing through his doubts.
“Maybe we can entice you a little more,” Petronilla said, tapping her earpiece. “Bring him in.”
Adalbert walked in, escorting Asclepius. He’d been tied up with a golden chain that was clasped to a ring around Adalbert’s wrist. The chain was wrapped around Asclepius, the whole length of it gleaming with sacred seals.
“Dad!” Asclepius cried out, seeing his father for the first time in more than fifty years. His bearded face, usually so lonely and forlorn, was transformed by a smile that seemed to light up the room.
Heedless of decorum, Apollo threw himself at Asclepius and tried to hug him despite Hermes’ attempts to hold him back. As soon as he touched the chains he was thrown backwards as if he’d been electrocuted. He flew across the room and smacked into the wall. He slid down and lay sprawled on the marble floor, dazed.
Nico was reminded terribly of Marco’s attempt to hug Tizi, and how he’d passed through her and hit the wall. It was the illusion of reunion only. It wasn’t real until he made it real.
“I’m good,” Apollo said, standing up with ease and brushing himself off.
“I’m sorry, Dad,” Asclepius called out. “I should never have tried to join them. I didn’t intend for any of this to happen.”
“It’s okay, son,” Apollo said, walking back over to the group. He looked Asclepius in the eyes, although this time he kept his distance. “All is forgiven. I don’t care about anything besides getting you home.”
He wiped tears from his eyes, looking at Nico.
“Tell me the words to say. I’ll say them.”
Nico hesitated. This didn’t feel right, but the only way forward was through.
“Swear on the Styx that you will never harm a saint,” Nico said.
“I swear on the Styx that I will never harm a saint,” Apollo repeated immediately.
“There were other parts,” Petronilla said. “About imprisoning and inconveniencing. Have him swear to those, too.”
“Inconvenience is too vague,” Nico said. “He won’t harm you– I mean, he won’t harm us. That should be enough.”
Petronilla frowned at him, but he felt sure this was the right thing to do. Apollo had already given enough. He hoped she wouldn’t see it as a mutiny.
“Asclepius will have to swear it, too,” she said, sighing.
Nico’s shoulders relaxed. She wasn’t arguing the point– he’d obtained a compromise. That was progress. Asclepius and Apollo both looked more hopeful.
“I swear on the Styx that I will never harm a saint,” Asclepius said, looking at his father happily. He was buzzing with excitement, more than ready to go home and be reunited with his family.
A grin broke out on Nico’s face. He knew it was unprofessional, but this was a moment of triumph for him. Ever since he’d met Asclepius, he’d felt driven to help him. He was way too good of a god to waste on imprisonment. All he’d ever wanted was to help people. It felt like by freeing him, Nico was righting a part of the universe that had been lopsided.
“Is that it? He’s free to go?” Apollo asked.
Petronilla raised an eyebrow.
“Your brother has to swear, too,” she said.
“Nuh-uh,” said Hermes, shaking his head.
“Brother,” Apollo said, looking at him desperately..
“No. No way,” Hermes said. “This is a bad deal. I want no part of it. I’m not part of this!” He added, speaking to Petronilla and Nico.
Seeing that Petronilla was unmoved– Nico avoided his eyes, feeling that he’d already spent what currency he had in getting the oath watered down– Apollo grabbed his brother by the shoulders.
“Little brother, if you do this for me, I’ll make it up to you a thousandfold. I’ll be your servant, your slave, I’ll be your number one fan, just please do me this one favor!”
He fell to his knees before his divine brother and looked up at him, clasping his hands.
Seeing the god Apollo beg was not as fun as Nico had imagined it would be.
Nico was utterly disappointed, not by Hermes, but by the whole situation. They’d done this all out of order. Now Apollo and Asclepius had already made the binding oaths, and yet Asclepius’ freedom was still up for debate. He wondered if it was poor communication, or whether Petronilla had intended that to happen. With a weary heart, he suspected the latter.
“I just came to support you,” Hermes said, rubbing the outlines of George and Martha where they rested beneath his shirt. Their slithering didn’t seem to bother him. “Why did you make the damn oaths before he was free? This is so screwed up.” He looked miserable, torn between two bad options.
“Uncle,” Asclepius said, hanging his head. “I cannot ask you to do this for my sake. It was my choice to come to the church. I didn’t understand what I was risking.”
“Brother, please,” Apollo insisted.
Nico tried to hold his tongue, but he just couldn’t.
“Why does Hermes need to swear?” Nico said, looking at Petronilla and Adalbert. “Isn’t it enough to have two gods humiliate themselves for you?”
“Demons, not gods,” Adalbert corrected.
Nico turned red with shame.
“Demons. That’s what I meant.”
Hermes snorted.
“I count three demons humiliating themselves right now,” he said, looking at Nico. “But I guess I’ve got no choice but to become number four.”
Apollo gasped.
“Hermes!” He said, embracing his brother gratefully.
“I know we’ve had our differences over the years,” Hermes said, clapping Apollo on the back. “But never doubt that I love you, brother.”
“I never did,” Apollo said.
Seeing the love between them made Nico feel suddenly lonely. He had no one else to blame. He’d chosen a path that led away from his family, and he’d done it deliberately, hoping to find a new spiritual family in Rome. There was still a chance of things working out, but he couldn’t help but be reminded of all the people he’d pushed away to get here.
“I swear on the Styx,” Hermes said, looking at Petronilla determinedly. “I will never harm a saint.”
Far from being excited, Nico now just wanted this whole thing to be over. He wanted Asclepius unchained, and then he never expected to see him, Apollo, or Hermes ever again.
“Very well,” Petronilla said. “All oaths are made, except for the last and most important.”
Four godly — ahem, demonic jaws dropped in unison.
“Petronilla,” Nico said weakly. “Come on.”
He was beyond disappointed. She’d been playing them all like fiddles, and he dreaded to think what her last request was. Whatever it may be, he hadn’t been told about it. There was probably a reason for that.
She adjusted the ring of flowers on her head. He wondered whether this was her plan, her father’s, or a collective decision that he’d been cut out of. At least Adalbert seemed equally clueless.
Asclepius was enraged.
“Of course. Once you have us all bound by oaths, your real intentions can be shown. Was this a ploy to throw us all in the Vatican dungeons for eternity? Out with it!”
“You wound me,” Petronilla said, pressing her delicate hand to her breast. “I would never lead you here under false pretenses. My only wish is for us to resolve our differences peaceably. It’s really a small thing I ask of you now, in exchange for this.”
She held up a small golden key.
“Asclepius, you must vow never to use your powers of healing again.”
Asclepius’ expression went very dark, very fast.
Nico didn’t stay to hear the rest. He already knew what the answer would be.
Back on the streets of Termini, he headed straight for Ariadne’s bar. He walked across the familiar sticky floor and ignored the maenads who shouted that he was trespassing. He found Ariadne in the back office, a room he hadn’t visited before. It had thick, dark carpets– wine colored, unsurprisingly-- and dark paneled wood walls.
Ariadne’s back was to the door, and an Iris message hovered in midair, Dionysus in the middle of the frame.
“They’re in the meeting now,” Dionysus was saying. “I just hope Apollo doesn’t fuck it up. I don’t want to go to war with these nutjobs.”
“Hold on, Nico just walked in,” Ariadne said, looking up at him hopefully. “How did it go? Did you stop the war?”
“Um,” he said, leaning on the doorframe. “Yes and no.”
With Apollo and Hermes bound by an oath, there would be no war. Zeus wouldn’t fight with one hand tied behind his back, and two of his strongest warriors were now useless against their foe. Nico had averted the worst case scenario.
But Asclepius still wasn’t home.
He explained what had happened, since they were going to find out anyway. He wasn’t sure if he wanted Ariadne to yell at him, or if he was hoping she’d tell him he’d tried his best and it wasn’t his fault. In the end, she didn’t do either of those things. She just opened a bottle of wine.
“Pour one out for me, would you?” Dionysus said. He hung up the call.
Nico sat in the chair across from Ariadne’s desk. She had a claw clip in her dark curls in the shape of a cluster of grapes, and her t-shirt had the Bacchus vineyards logo on it. She swung her feet up to rest on top of the desk, revealing a pair of expensive looking Louboutin's.
“Welp,” she shrugged. “At least Di won’t have to fight. Thanks, I guess.”
“No problem,” Nico said glumly. “I like your shoes.”
“Thanks.” She poured a glass of wine and set it in front of him.
“I can’t,” he said, shaking his head.
“You need it,” she said. “You look like death. More so than usual.”
“I know,” he said. “It’s this whole thing. Getting pulled between two worlds. I can’t do it.”
“Would you want to come back to the fold? At least we let you drown your troubles,” she said, drinking straight out of the bottle to prove her point
He took a deep breath. Ariadne was one of his oldest friends. He felt like it was time he opened up to somebody. It might as well be her.
“Things aren’t working out,” he said. “My mom is canceling spring if I don’t come home before March 21st. But there’s a catch. If I find a pagan god who became a saint who’s happy, she’ll let me stay.”
“Fair enough,” Ariadne said. “Did you find one?”
Nico sighed.
“There aren’t any.” If there were, Brigid would have found them by now.
“So… No spring?” Ariadne said.
Nico swallowed.
“I’ll come home if I have to,” he said. “I don’t want mortals getting hurt because of me, and I don’t want to abandon Hazel. But the thing is, I can never really leave the church. I’m their exclusive psychopomp now. I might be able to walk away from some parts of it, but not that.”
Just as Asclepius had refused to give up his healing powers, Nico would never give up his psychopomp status. He’d waited a long time to get the respect and recognition he deserved, and that job was a part of him now. It felt like it was the will of the Fates, like his whole life had led up to it.
“You’re going to end up just like your mother,” Ariadne said. “Half one thing, half another.”
Nico had never thought of it like that. He wasn’t sure he liked the way it sounded. On a surface level it made sense. Two psychopomps for two pantheons. A diplomat that could help them resolve their inter-pantheon problems.
Yeah, right. He’d tried to play diplomat. It hadn’t gone so great.
“It’s fine to double-fist pantheons. We all do it. Isis is in three, and she manages. The problem is your new bosses won’t share you,” Ariadne said.
“The saints understand that sometimes they need to work together with pagans,” Nico said. “We all share this city, these people, this planet. We’ve got to find a way to get along without hurting each other.”
“Who knows,” Ariadne said between sips. “Maybe someday a new pantheon will show up and kick the Catholics out of here. What do you wanna bet they’ll come crawling to us, begging to be friends?”
It seemed unlikely. The Catholic church was eternal. At least to him it seemed to be. But as Hermes had reminded him, that actually wasn’t true. Nico was just too young to see the bigger picture.
Suddenly, Nico remembered that Protestants existed. If a major reformation and split could happen once, it could happen again. All things had to end– Didn’t he know that better than anyone? Someday, on the long scale of eternity, things would change. And he’d live to see it.
Maybe the church wasn’t ready for him yet. Maybe he wasn’t ready, either.
That wasn’t a shocking revelation. Signing up to become a saint hadn’t been a decision made after lots of soul-searching and contemplation. He’d been running away from home and away from himself. It was no wonder he found it incredibly hard. But he was in it now. Talking with Ariadne made it seem like he could just walk away. It wasn’t that simple, though. Talking with the saints themselves always left him with the complete opposite impression. It was almost like he switched between two different versions of himself, like flicking a switch on and off. It made his brain hurt.
Talking with Ariadne hadn’t made him any more certain of what he had to do. At least it’d felt good to talk about it with someone. He was about to tell her this when someone burst through the door, slamming it open so hard that it hit the wall and bounced, swinging on its hinges.
“Ari!” Maria Bova said, her voice shrill and excited. “You’re never going to believe what just happened!”
Nico turned around in his seat to look at her. His eyes skipped over her face and body entirely, zeroing in on a single point of light. There was something sparkling in the darkness.
There was a brand new diamond ring on her finger.
Wordlessly, Nico turned around and picked up the wine glass, downing its contents in one gulp. He held the glass out to Ariadne for a refill, then thought better of it, picking up the bottle instead.
"Congratulations," he told Maria, walking past her without a second glance.
He took the bottle of wine to the riverbank and stared out at the Tiber river.
Tourists and couples passed him by, laughing and taking pictures as though everything was normal. He stared into the murky river water, resenting every single happy person that walked behind him. How could they act like everything was normal when the world was clearly ending? It wasn't fair.
He snorted, thinking about Marco grieving his sister, working and trying to make music while living with a gaping black hole in his life where his sister had once been. Nico had grieved his share, too. He knew exactly how painful and all-consuming loss felt when you were in the thick of it.
What he was just now learning was that heartbreak could feel the exact same way.
Notes:
A little late Valentines day present for y'all. Devastated I didn't work Saint Valentine in, but oh well.
It's funny to write about fake music knowing that everyone will interpret how the band might sound in their own way. For me, the band is inspired by a combination of Maneskin and the solo artist Madame. Both Italian, both very good but different artists. Both of them competed in Sanremo music competition in 2021, but only Maneskin won the chance to go to Eurovision, which they proceeded to win.
In terms of the concept album and the themes it was exploring, that was inspired by Unreal Unearth by Hozier. When that album came out, I thought it was a fantastic coincidence that Hozier references a lot of the same stuff included in this fanfiction. Dante's Inferno, the river Lethe, Thanatos and Nyx are all included. There are songs called Psychopomp and Son of Nyx, and additional references to Thanatos in the other songs. Hozier also explores themes of Catholicism, though moreso in his earlier albums, so he was eerily relevant to what I was writing. I feel like the list of people that thought about Thanatos every single day in 2022 was a pretty short list, so I guess I can say I have something in common with Hozier now?
Anyway, I hope you all enjoy this chapter. I do take longer between updates because they're so long now. The downside to that is not seeing new comments come as frequently to help push me forward! You're not obligated, but comments genuinely do help me write faster. If you want to know what happens next ASAP, go ahead and tell me so! I really appreciate everyone who takes the time to read and comment. Thank you all sincerely!
Chapter 104: Occupy the Pantheon
Notes:
(See the end of the chapter for notes.)
Chapter Text
Maria Bova was getting married. Maria Bova was getting married, and the world was ending.
That refrain played on repeat in his head every time he took a swig out of the wine bottle he’d swiped off Ariadne’s desk. Deprivation worked strange wonders on the senses, making this sinful indulgence one of the most decadently sensual experiences of his life. Each sip was heaven, every swallow bliss, because it had been ages since he’d tasted anything at all. His taste buds were dancing the congo in his mouth. Gutter water would have tasted like summer dew, but a good red blend was ambrosia.
The heady pleasure of wine didn’t cancel out the emotional torment he was experiencing. Rather, it enhanced it. Lust was bad, drinking wine was badder. The two sins complemented each other perfectly.
Jealousy was such an evil emotion. It made him wish harm on Marco, who’d done nothing wrong. It made him angry with Maria, who didn’t deserve it. Satan, the person responsible for his dark temptations, was not around, so Nico was forced to take his anger out on himself. Drinking wine was self-destructive, especially when his faith was already crumbling. He knew the right thing to do was to throw the bottle into the river and repent. And yet, the mouth of the bottle kept meeting his lips, and he kept swallowing, no matter how many times he told himself to set it down.
Once the bottle was empty he tossed it into the river and lay on his back on the concrete. To any mortal passerby he would have looked like a well-dressed drunkard. There weren’t many people around, however, as night crept over Rome. The banks of the Tiber were known to get a little sketchy at night, and the wise avoided the area.
A set of footsteps approached him, the first that had dared get close.
“Hi,” Maria said softly.
Nico shot upright. He caught a glimpse of her face in the moonlight, gleaming bright and beautiful, and turned aside before his expression gave him away. Although his face probably wouldn’t tell her anything that his reaction to her engagement had not already.
An awkward silence stretched between them.
“I should go,” he mumbled.
She sat down on the concrete beside him silently.
“You shouldn’t see me like this,” he said, tears flooding his vision. This was humiliating. He was a god, and nearly a saint, too, and she was just a mortal. If she saw him struggling against his feelings for her, she might lose faith. He didn’t want her to be lost like him.
She took his hand. Mortal strength was frail compared to what he was capable of, but she could have made him do anything. In a very real and terrifying way, he was totally under her power.
“I love Marco, but he isn’t you,” she said.
“You can’t say things like that to me,” Nico said fiercely, pulling his hand away. “Please. Don’t make this harder than it already is.” He let his hair hang over his eyes, obscuring his tears. So much for hiding what he felt.
“You introduced us. I thought you wanted this for me.”
“I do,” he insisted. “He adores you. He makes you happy. He’s talented and gorgeous. Human,” he added more quietly.
Another long silence stretched. The sounds of busy Roman traffic echoed, horns honking and aggressive drivers shouting angrily.
“Marco understands,” Maria said. “He’s nearly as obsessed with you as I am. We want to get married, but we don’t want to lose you. It doesn’t have to change anything.”
Nico snorted, reacting without thinking. He could feel the tension between the two of them, the obvious sparks of electric chemistry that had been buzzing around for the last few months, as well as the shared fear that their special bond was about to be lost. If she got married, Nico might not be able to stomach ever seeing her again. Thinking of her in the arms of another man was too painful to comprehend.
“It’s hard for me, too,” she said, removing her hand and placing it in her lap. It was her first verbal admission that she was feeling the same temptation he was, although the signs had been there. “But you’re meant for bigger things than I can even imagine. And I refuse to be reduced to a stumbling block in your path.”
She smiled at him, and her eyes held a spiritual confidence and certainty that he’d have killed for. Her faith had never been stronger. How did she do it? He’d hoped that joining the church would make him more like her. Instead, it had made him like her more.
“I’ll be the one who makes you a saint. Not the one who causes you to lose faith,” she said with the blind determination of a zealot.
He nodded, feeling an immense weight of guilt suddenly settle on his shoulders. She and the band knew what he was. They were spreading the word– the bad word– about Nico, the titular ‘bad saint’ of their album. With a little more time, he could become a household name. He was such a young and inexperienced god, he hardly knew what it would mean to be famous, to receive prayers from complete strangers, to have merch , for God’s sake. And he wanted to experience that, he did, except…
“I just don’t think you’re going to see me canonized,” he said. “Not in your lifetime.”
She frowned in disappointment.
“Are you sure?”
He nodded, smiling at the irony.
“Your band name turned out to be a little too accurate,” he said. “Just know if I fall from grace, it’s not your fault. It’s only because of you that I made it this far.”
“Fall from grace?” She asked in alarm. “Is it going that badly? It’s only been a few months.”
A few months, and most of that time had been spent in a catacomb saying Hail Mary’s.
“Are you sure it’s not my fault?” She insisted.
“It’s not,” he said, feeling that she deserved the truth. “I haven’t told you about my family– my new one, not the one you found in historical records. My adoptive mom is a very influential woman. She’s threatening serious consequences if I don’t go home in a few weeks. And my sister is devastated that I left. She’s young and she needs me. I guess I could come back someday, if I can get them to be supportive, but it’s complicated.”
Maria clenched her teeth, the muscles in her jaw working. Shit, Nico thought. She wasn’t taking it well.
“It’s really not your fault. You can blame my mom if you want, but she is what she is.” He was just grateful Persephone and Hazel hadn’t colluded to kidnap him yet. If he kept them waiting, it was still possible.
She nodded, and thought silently for a moment, staring out at the river. Streetlights reflected off the dark surface of the water, sparkling like the little diamond on her finger that he was trying not to look at.
He stared at her, waiting on pins and needles for her response. It felt as though the universe revolved around her opinion of him. He would give anything to go back to the loving friendship they’d once had, before these intense feelings had hijacked his body and mind. What kind of a crappy saint fell in love with his most reverent devotee?
He could also ask himself, what kind of a god fell in love with his own high priestess? But gods did that all the time.
Maria got to her feet, hoisting her purse on her shoulder.
“Maria?” Nico said.
She turned around to face him, looking down at him. Her eyes were dark, hard set in her face.
“Canonization is just earthly paperwork,” she said, a statement that took him by surprise. “What you are and what you can do is already evident. Your existence is proof that there’s more to this world than cruel reality. That’s a gift beyond price to everyone that encounters you. To me, you’re a saint whether the pope agrees or not.”
“Thanks,” Nico said, touched. “That’s really–”
“But if threats from your relatives are all it takes to break your faith, you’re not who I thought you were,” she said. “I’d rather you’d blamed it on me.”
She walked away without another word.
Nico was still sitting on the sidewalk in stunned silence when Adalbert came to find him. The sun was coming up, and he’d been summoned to a meeting to discuss the results of the Pantheon negotiation.
Later that next day, he was staring into space, daydreaming about storming into the wedding with an objection and carrying Maria away. What had she meant by ‘I’d rather you’d blamed it on me?’ Was she trying to make a point? Had she actually wanted to hear that he loved her too much to carry on being a saint? More importantly, had she lost all respect for him? He was racking his brain for ways to salvage the situation. He couldn’t tell her any more details than he already had…
“Are you listening?” Petronilla asked, rapping her knuckles on the table sharply.
“Not really,” he said glumly.
“Pull yourself together. We have a crisis to manage, and your diplomatic skills are still needed, if you can refrain from running away this time,” she said. “Apollo is refusing to leave the pantheon until he gets his son back. We can’t have that.”
“At least he isn’t hurting anyone,” Nico said. “Although I guess that’s not an option for him anymore, huh?”
“Yes, that was my strategy, and it worked well,” she said proudly. “The risk of holy war is far lesser now than it was.”
“Should make the next round of negotiation less tense,” Nico shrugged.
“Oh,” Petronilla said, picking an errant petal off her shoulder that had fallen from her flower crown. “There will be no further negotiation. Your task is to evict Apollo from the pantheon, but we will not be giving in to his demands. Asclepius will remain here.”
Nico was tempted to bang his forehead on the tabletop out of sheer frustration. The church’s stubborn refusal to give ground was so tiresome. They didn’t want Asclepius hanging around, but they couldn’t see their way past their pride to let him go home.
“The only reason this is still an ongoing issue is because you demanded Asclepius give up his divine purpose,” Nico said, not bothering to conceal his irritation with Petronilla. “You don’t do that. Each pagan demon is created for a purpose, and if they don’t get to do it, they implode.”
Ask me how I know, he thought to himself wryly.
Petronilla wriggled her nose, displeased at being called out.
“I certainly didn’t intend to implode anyone,” she said. “But you can see how it might be confusing for mortals if healing miracles come from unsavory sorts like him. We’re perfectly capable of managing that domain without him interfering.”
“Mortals don’t pray to him anymore!” Nico said. “For all you know, half the people he healed would have given the saints credit anyways.”
Petronilla’s eyebrows raised thoughtfully, as if she hadn’t considered that.
“Petronilla, I am not helping with your negotiation – I mean your eviction, if it’s just gonna end up like the last one,” Nico said, spreading his hands out on the table. “There’s no point in us working together if you don’t tell me your plans ahead of time. That divine purpose thing was a bullet I could’ve helped you to dodge, but you never gave me a chance.”
“You have to do it. Brigid’s orders,” she said. “And I won’t be joining you. I’ve had my fill of pagan demons, present company excluded. I’d forgotten how much I loathe those types.”
“How diplomatic of you,” Nico said wearily.
She gave him a cold look.
“I starved myself to death rather than be forced to marry a pagan king,” she said, her tone icy. “I remember his lecherous advances and his disdain for my morals quite well.”
“Jesus…” Nico said.
“Was my solace, yes. Tell me, do you have any relatives that aren’t rapists? I might be more open to negotiating with them,” she said smartly, looking down her nose at him.
Nico was silent. He could probably come up with some names if he had a few minutes on Wikipedia, but the fact that he felt the need to double check was enough to prove her point. She’d seemed confident and steadfast in the negotiation, but she had every right to feel uncomfortable around Apollo and Hermes. For a saint who’d come up in the early days, when persecution and martyrdom were rampant, diplomacy with pagans would be laden with emotional baggage.
Maybe he’d been a little quick to judge Petronilla. After all, forcing Apollo, Asclepius, and Hermes to vow not to harm saints probably made a lot of the saints feel safer. The pagans might have felt as if the church held all the power these days, but saints like Petronilla still remembered how it felt to be powerless. She was safe around Apollo and Hermes so long as they were scared of the organization she worked for, but Nico dreaded to think of what they might do to a pretty saint like her if the balance of power ever shifted back in their favor.
“Asclepius was the best of them,” Nico said. “Returning him will foster goodwill between our pantheons, but more importantly, Asclepius inspires the others to be better – to help people, to be kind, to refrain from acts of wrath. Sending him home is what’s best for the world. I think it’s what’s best for the church, too.”
Petronilla rested her hand under her chin, looking at him with a droll expression.
“Is that the sort of wisdom found at the bottom of a bottle?” She asked, smirking.
It didn’t feel good to know that Satan’s influence had won and he had failed. It was embarrassing to learn that he was more susceptible to self-pity than any other weakness of the flesh. Maria Bova was breaking him, and if he wanted to survive her wedding, he needed to figure out a way to deal with these feelings that wasn’t self-destructive. He worried his indulgence in temptation wouldn’t stop at just wine.
Sometimes being a Catholic felt like a huge mistake. Sometimes it felt like he was getting shoved into a pasta maker and squeezed out the other end flattened out and weird-shaped. But every so often he was reminded of how much he was learning from his supernatural siblings in Christ. Petronilla had intentionally starved herself to death. Bartholomew had been skinned alive. Philip had been crucified upside down and had kept right on preaching as he died. All of them had more mental fortitude in their pinky fingers than Nico had ever possessed. If he wanted to develop his endurance and strength of character, he was in the right place.
“I’m sorry about the wine,” Nico said. “I’m gonna pray about it.”
“Good idea. Brigid is livid that she can’t punish you anymore,” Petronilla said. “I’d avoid her if I were you.”
“Thanks,” he said. “So, now I’m supposed to go to the Pantheon and order Apollo to leave? And I’m on my own this time?” At her nod, he added, “I want to keep Asclepius’ release on the table. If I can secure something in exchange, other than the promises already made, can we send him home?”
She sucked in air through her teeth.
“My father only intended to give them one chance. But I’ll see if we can make an exception. Proceed as though it’s not an option for now. And hurry. There are reports that he’s gathering more demons to help his cause.”
Nico leapt into action. He proceeded to the Pantheon, wondering if he ought to draw up a formal eviction notice, or if the threat of a butt-kicking would suffice to send his cousin packing.
The sight that awaited him made it clear that the situation was a little more complicated than he’d been anticipating.
Outside the pantheon, a huge white banner had been hung over the pediment, with words written in bold red paint, dripping like blood:
Occupy the Pantheon
Nico could hear singing echoing in the cavernous space, the singer’s lovely voice distinctly audible even from outside on the street. The milling throngs of tourists commented on the lovely music in dozens of different languages, and many complained about the unanticipated closure of the historic building.
Nico slunk around the columns that stood in the front of the building, careful to hide in the shadows. He peered through the doorway to observe what was happening inside.
Apollo sat near the center of the rotunda, cross-legged on the floor. A glorious ray of sun shone down through the oculus in the pantheon’s ceiling, hitting him directly on top of his head. The sun god gleamed as brightly as any haloed saint. He had on a tie-dyed shirt, and his hair was long and parted down the middle. A giant peace sign necklace hung from his neck.
“How many roads must a god walk down,” Apollo sang in his clear, bright, perfect voice, strumming his guitar gently. “Before you can call him a god?”
Apollo may have been in the center of things, but he wasn’t alone. The number of Olympians in the Pantheon sent a shockwave through Nico’s system. He hadn’t been prepared for this.
Hermes was in attendance just as he had been the day before, though this time he was wearing a fringed vest and tinted sunglasses, and appeared to be smoking a joint. Artemis had joined, and it was no surprise that she was there to support her twin. As Nico watched, Hermes passed her the joint, and she took a drag.
With them were the five Asclepiades, easily recognizable in their scrubs. None of them were smoking. They seemed more ill-at-ease than the older gods, understandably so. They were probably wondering whether they’d ever get to see their father again.
More concerningly, Artemis’ huntresses were there too. Their familiar hunting jackets and signature braids were as discomforting a sight as ever. He still couldn’t see them without thinking of Bianca.
He made a quick threat evaluation. Apollo and Hermes had vowed not to fight the saints, and the Asclepiades were minor gods and healers. The only real danger was Artemis. Her huntresses were well-controlled and would not attack without her signal. Their bows weren’t on their backs, but they might have stashed those within easy reach. The Pantheon was a large space, and despite the circular construction, there were plenty of hiding places. Various important Italian kings and historical figures had been entombed in ornate sarcophagi built into the walls. Nico wouldn’t put it past the huntresses to toss their bows and arrows in one of the tombs for safekeeping. The girls were lined up around the wall, guarding the perimeter on high alert and watching Artemis’ back.
Thalia in particular was a concern. Nico didn’t see her on the far walls, and guessed that she was likely placed near the door, out of the line of sight of anyone walking into the building. The demigod daughter of Zeus would be able to call down lightning through the oculus in the roof anytime she wished.
Nico rallied his confidence. He had a job to do. He straightened his suit jacket and checked that his shirt buttons were done up properly, smoothing back his curls.
The moment he took his first proper step inside the doors, every head turned to face him.
For a brief moment, silence fell. Nico’s footsteps would have echoed if his feet still made noise. They didn’t, because his feet didn’t quite touch the ground as he walked forward. The absence of sound was palpable.
He felt everyone staring at his black wings. He regretted putting them on, but they’d seemed like a good idea at the time. He’d expected this encounter with Apollo to require nothing more than a simple ‘GTFO’, and had wanted to look as intimidating as possible in order to speed proceedings.
He had never imagined that Olympians would embrace peaceful protest. As he approached, the Asclepiades raised handmade signs reading, ‘Free Scleppy!’ ‘It was our Pantheon first!’ and ‘Hoc est meum protest est!’. They were all wearing matching tie-dyed t-shirts with Asclepius’ face on the back, and each of them had murder in their eyes. One of them was holding a scalpel very tightly in her fist. Maybe the hunters of Artemis weren’t the only threat.
“Relax, everyone,” Apollo said. He didn’t get to his feet, but instead continued strumming his guitar idly. “Remember. Peace and love.”
“Peace and love,” Nico repeated. “That’s new for you.”
“Don’t have much of a choice, now, do I?” Apollo said, flashing his blindingly white teeth. “We’re making ourselves at home here, as you can see,” he added, gesturing at Hermes and Artemis on either side of him.
Hermes glared at Nico, the lit joint still in his hand. He blew a puff of pungent smoke in Nico’s face. It wasn’t marijuana, but a more noxious and magical blend of hallucinogenic plants that smelled like it’d come straight out of Hecate’s personal stash. Nico accidentally breathed some in before he could stop himself, and for a few seconds the world turned into a kaleidoscope before his eyes.
He took a step backwards, and tried to ignore Hermes’ smirk. Artemis stared at him with blistering curiosity. She hadn’t seen him since he’d switched pantheons, and was sizing him up now with a critical eye.
“Ahem,” Nico said, clearing his throat. “You are all trespassing on church property. This is your official notice; you’re ordered to leave immediately. If you don’t, we’ll have no choice but to forcibly remove you.”
All the huntresses of Artemis that encircled him tensed up simultaneously. Nico figured that God had a heavenly army stashed away somewhere, but he really didn’t want to see what happened when the huntresses clashed with a bunch of angels armed with flaming swords. They’d never been kind to him, but he wouldn’t be able to live with himself if his ineptitude got the girls slaughtered.
The thought of any blood being shed over this nonsense disturbed him. It wasn’t necessary– and the gods apparently agreed, since they’d come in peace. Nico wasn’t above making a few threats in order to spook them, but he needed this to end without anyone getting hurt.
“We will leave,” Apollo said, “When you give Asclepius back. End of story.”
He started playing a new tune, turning away from Nico.
“Asclepius made his choice,” Nico said, trying to catch his attention again.
“That was an impossible choice, and you know it,” Hermes said. “You’re such a hypocrite. How do you live with yourself?”
Good question, Nico thought. It certainly wasn’t easy.
“Hey! Peace and love, remember?” Apollo said firmly. “No more talking. Asclepius isn’t here, so we’ve got nothing to discuss.”
“You need to leave,” Nico insisted hopelessly.
“Everybody!” Apollo said, standing. “One, two, three– Kumbaya, my Zeus! Kumbaya!”
“Oh God,” Nico muttered, shaking his head. He stepped further away from Apollo. If there was one thing he’d learned at Camp Half-Blood, it was that he hated campfire singalongs.
“You know the words!” Apollo shouted, jamming on the guitar and swaying to the music. “KUMBAYA, MY ZEUS! KUMBAYA!”
Everyone joined in with the song, even the huntresses. They grew more enthusiastic as they saw that Nico was backing away slowly. He was fighting not to cover his ears. Apollo could get really loud when he wanted to.
Nico had almost backed himself right out the door when he realized the song was magic, and that he was under a sort of compulsion to exit. He was pretty sure that was the case, although it might have just been a really annoying song. Either way, he mustered the will to resist.
His feet stopped moving just in time, because he’d nearly bumped into someone while he was shuffling backwards. He looked over his shoulder.
“Reyna?” He said, shocked.
Reyna’s dark brows lowered, and she glared at him. Immortality suited her, and her skin was glowing almost as brightly as the shiny new lunula around her neck. She didn’t look happy.
“I didn’t know you joined,” he said awkwardly.
“Heard from Jason lately?” She muttered.
His mouth went dry, but he didn’t respond. He knew from experience that no matter how many times you told people that shades didn’t feel negative emotions, they never really believed it. Reyna probably thought Jason missed him terribly.
More concerning was the fact that she probably kept in touch with Hazel and Frank. Nico had always respected Reyna, and the feeling had once been mutual. Probably not anymore.
He tried to remind himself that no one in his old pantheon understood what he’d gone through or why he’d felt compelled to make the choices he’d made. They didn’t get it. And they didn’t need to– it was his life. He’d always had his reasons, even when his choices didn’t pan out the way he’d hoped.
Still, seeing Reyna was a blow he hadn’t needed. It didn’t help that he spotted Thalia next to her on the other side of the doors.
Apollo and the others were still singing, and the acoustics were incredible under the Pantheon’s domed ceiling. Nico desperately wanted to go outside and clear his head, but it would only make it clearer that he was out of his depth. What if the Archangel called in a bunch of cop angels with dogs and firehoses to chase the hippies out?
“Hey, Nico!”
Nico turned around and saw a very welcome sight; a familiar dark haired saint wearing a robe half tugged up to reveal a weeping sore on his leg.
“Rocco,” he said, grinning.
Rocco walked up to him and put his arm around Nico’s shoulders.
“Ugh,” Apollo said, recognizing Rocco with a grimace.
“Well, well, well,” Rocco said, laughing in Apollo’s face. “If it isn’t the bringer of plagues himself. What are we dealing with here, Nico?”
Rocco’s supportive arm around his shoulders was a beacon of light in the storm. Nico was reassured of his position once more– he was not alone.
“They won’t leave,” Nico said. “They won’t listen. They just keep singing.”
“Maybe we ought to call in the choir of saints for an impromptu concert,” Rocco said. “A few hymns would sort them out right quick!”
“Hymns?” Artemis said, looking at her twin with concern.
“Uh, just how many saints are in this choir?” Hermes asked, pushing his tinted sunglasses on top of his head. “I thought you said we’d have superior numbers.”
Apollo got to his feet, tossing his guitar aside. Nico’s hopes lifted. It seemed like Apollo wasn’t interested in a sing-off, and that meant they could finally talk.
“I don’t care if I have to sit through a Switchfoot concert,” Apollo said, straightening his shoulders and tossing back his long golden hair. “I’m not going anywhere until I get my son back.”
“Alright,” Rocco said, holding up his hand for silence.
Nico watched as the gods actually quieted down a little. They were still disgruntled, but Rocco got a heck of a lot more respect than Nico had. Nico realized that there had been no good reason to send him in a second time for negotiation. His presence was just riling the gods up even more, since the gods saw him as their weird and traitorous cousin first, and a saint-in-training second. Why had Brigid wanted him to participate in round 2? It seemed like he’d been doomed to fail from the start.
“I think I have something that can re-engage your interest in negotiating.”
Rocco held up a golden key.
“Saint Adalbert is holding Asclepius in a secure location nearby. He’s been covered head to toe with sacred seals and a golden chain that can only be unlocked with this key. If we can make a deal, I will give this to you.”
He waved the key in the air, then tossed it to Nico.
“If they try to take it by force, do your disappearing act, Nico. I understand you’re hard to pin down.”
“Got it,” Nico said. So long as he had all of his faculties intact, he could slip away with ease at any moment. He looked down at the key in his hands, clutching the cold metal in his palm. He had a good idea of where Asclepius was being held – the church of Santa Maria Sopra Minerva was right around the corner.
He was glad Asclepius hadn’t been dragged into the Pantheon for a second time. Nico didn’t think he’d want his daughters to see him as a prisoner, beaten down by disappointment and sealed from head to toe. It wasn’t lost on him that, in addition to sparing Asclepius the torment of being dangled in front of his family like a carrot on a stick, Saint Peter had changed his mind and made an exception. He had not initially intended to give the gods a second chance to win him back.
Nico smiled, watching Rocco and Apollo start to hash out a new deal. There were no villains here, just two pantheons trying their best to communicate across deeply etched lines in the sand. The feeling of hope that now filled the room was palpable. If they managed to send Asclepius home today, it might change the way the pantheons interacted forever. Centuries of animosity might finally start to heal.
“I’d like to offer a suggestion,” Rocco said. “For what you can offer in exchange for Asclepius. On the island of Delos, there was once a small but thriving Christian community. We would like to lease a small part of the island, build a museum, and reconstruct one of the basilicas. Our in-house archaeologists have taken the liberty of drawing up a proposal.”
Rocco handed Apollo a pamphlet, careful not to touch him in the process, but Artemis snatched the papers before Apollo could accept them.
“This is an insult,” she said, her voice rising in pitch. “Our sacred island, polluted with your kind?”
“You must have been okay with it at some point in the past,” Nico interjected, desperate to keep discourse civil.
“You think so?” Artemis sneered. “Ha! I’m the reason the church is in ruins.”
Rocco shook his head minutely. Nico realized this was another instance of a conflict that predated his memory.
“Isn’t Delos… You know,” Hermes suggested, poking his brother and making a downward motion with his hand. Delos was sinking into the sea, and soon it would all belong to Poseidon anyway.
“How does it look when our temples are rubble and theirs is right next to them looking shiny and new?” Artemis interjected.
“It looks like literally everything else in the world nowadays,” Apollo shrugged. “Fuck it. I accept your deal on the condition that the terms of your lease will begin one hundred years from today.”
“Deal,” Rocco said immediately. “Will you swear on the Styx to this?”
“Once my son is free, sure,” Apollo said.
This was a huge step in the right direction. They were so close now, Nico could almost taste it.
Apollo nudged Artemis, and she sighed.
“Fine. I accept,” she said. “But you owe me one, bro.”
The Asclepiades raised a cheer and mobbed their great-aunt in a group hug. Artemis pretended to be annoyed by them, but she couldn’t help smiling.
“Go and fetch our prisoner,” Rocco said to Nico. “He’s at Catherine’s.”
Nico didn’t need to be told twice. He was in the Basilica di Santa Maria Sopra Minerva within milliseconds.
At the far end of the ornate church, before the altar, Asclepius was kneeling on the floor. He was covered head to toe in sacred seals. Isis, wearing a transparent cotton dress, appeared to be rubbing him down with lotion.
As Nico approached, Saints Catherine and Adalbert turned and waved at him. They were sitting in the pews nearby, watching Isis do whatever it was she was doing.
There were empty cosmetic jars and glass bottles lying scattered across the shining marble floor, some of them leaking brightly colored fluids.
“Um,” Nico said. “Do I even wanna know?”
“Isis claims she’s found a way to remove our seals with one of her unguents,” Adalbert said. “Only she’s forgotten which one it was.”
“We’re letting her test them out on Asclepius, since he’s chained anyway,” Catherine said. “Isis, you already tried that purple one!”
Isis was deep in magical concentration, whispering spells under her breath that seemed to leave her mouth and hover in the air like wispy gold hieroglyphics. Her eyes were glowing with golden magic, and Asclepius kept looking back at her nervously. His back was covered in so much multicolored paste and cream that he looked like a Jackson Pollock painting.
“You’re letting her do magic in a church?” Nico asked. “Is that allowed?”
“No,” Adalbert said immediately.
“Better she do her experiments under our supervision in a controlled environment,” Catherine said. “If she really can remove them, that’s something we need to know. Besides, she’s a contractor now”
“I’m sorry,” Nico said, sitting down in the pew beside Catherine. “I must have misheard you. She’s a contractor?”
Isis’ concentration broke. She snapped her head up, her kohl-ringed amber eyes glinting fiercely at him.
“Why shouldn’t I be a contractor? Got a problem with that?” Isis asked.
“Not at all,” Nico said, raising his hands defensively.
“She’s your replacement,” Catherine said. “Recently we had an issue with a young witch who was trying to summon the devil. Isis handled the situation quite beautifully, if I may say–”
“You may,” Isis said, smiling smugly.
To Nico’s surprise, Catherine smiled back at her. He couldn’t believe his eyes. The roommates were actually getting along.
“It’s not my first inter-pantheon rodeo. Probably not my last, either,” Isis added. “I’m good at what I do. Good enough to develop an antidote to those seals, anyway, except I can’t find the right bottle. I remember only having a little bit left over after I cured Hercules.”
Nico recalled the day she’d started cooking up recipes in Ariadne’s basement. One of the concoctions had left him choking on fumes and coughing up ichor.
“Was it the one that made me sick?” Nico asked.
Isis had to think about it for a moment before she remembered. Her face lit up as the memory came back to her.
“Right! It was one of the first ones I brewed, it just took a while to work. It must have poisoned you because you’d been baptised.”
“Baptism is meant to help seal one to the church,” Catherine said. “Perhaps there is an underlying mechanism to the seals that’s similar?”
“It was definitely in one of these,” Isis said, kicking at the pile of empty bottles. “But it needs to sit on the skin for about twenty four hours.”
“Asclepius doesn’t have that kind of time,” Nico said, no longer willing to dawdle. “He’s going home!” He announced joyfully.
Everyone scrambled to wipe the goo off of the prisoner. Asclepius was barely responsive, and the magical ointments were probably only part of the reason why. He’d shut down after the last failed negotiation, and he didn’t trust Nico’s word that it was finally over. The only thing he said was that he didn’t want his daughters to see him looking too pathetic, so they all worked together to get his hair and beard looking decent, cleaned his glasses, and quickly found him a new shirt. Adalbert even removed most of the sacred seals, including all of the ones that weren’t covered by his clothes, an act of unnecessary and spontaneous kindness. As he watched Asclepius’ face brighten with the slightest glint of hope, Nico felt it too. Something good was finally happening.
The five of them walked down the street together back toward the Pantheon as a group. Nico felt as though he was walking on air, this time even more than usual. He had the key in hand and Asclepius beside him. Everything was going to be okay.
A massive tour group of school children passed on the road in front of them, and the interfaith traveling party paused to let them get by. Nico looked around at the crowded street full of obnoxious and sunburnt tourists taking photos, busy locals trying to cut through crowds, and a good number of highly skilled pickpockets. He wondered if anyone knew how many immortals were lurking in their midst, existing just out of sight, yet close enough to touch.
“You seem cheerful,” Isis observed.
“I’ve wanted to send Asclepius home ever since I realized who he was,” Nico said. “And I really needed a win today. I’ve had a rough week.”
Nico gave Asclepius a friendly smile. Asclepius didn’t smile back, but Nico couldn’t blame him for being too emotionally exhausted to interact.
“Rough week, huh? Thinking about leaving?” Isis asked.
“Constantly,” he admitted. “It doesn’t necessarily mean I’m gonna do it,” he added, seeing Adalbert and Catherine look at him with alarm. “Brigid already knows, or I wouldn’t have admitted it in front of you guys. Don’t waste your time tattling on me.”
Adalbert flashed a guilty grin, since he’d definitely been planning on tattling. The schoolchildren dispersed, and they started walking again.
“It’s disappointing to hear,” Catherine said. “I see great potential in you. I’d be devastated to hear that you’d given up.”
Nico’s eyes tracked a gelateria they were walking past. There were so many flavors, and all of them probably tasted way better than the nothing flavored nothing he was currently allowed to eat. Isis elbowed him and giggled, seeing he was getting distracted.
“I’m doing my best,” Nico replied to Catherine.
“Cut the kid some slack,” Isis said. “I’ve been worshipped all the way from England to Afghanistan. I’ve worked with so many other pantheons that my parties look like United Nations meetings. It gets easier, but leaving your birth pantheon for the first time is as tough as it gets.”
“Catholicism is my birth pantheon,” Nico said. “I was baptised before I can even remember.” That answer got a thumbs up from Catherine, which made him feel a little better about disappointing her.
“Splitting hairs,” Isis said, waving him off. “You know what I mean. You’re going cold turkey. That’s doing it the hard way. The best technique for syncretization is the same as introducing a fish to a new bowl. You keep it in a plastic baggie of the old water until it gets acclimated to the new water. Then you let it out of the bag.”
“That’s what we tried with Asclepius,” Adalbert said. “He wasn’t asked to change anything about his identity until he’d had time to get to know us. And you see how that worked out.”
“No access to the outer circle without a commitment up-front,” Catherine said. “No access to the inner circle until the transition is complete. That’s the new system.”
Isis sighed. They’d reached the doors of the Pantheon once more. Before they walked in, Isis gave Catherine a stern look and stopped her in front of the entrance.
“Screw the system. You need to take better care of Nico,” Isis said, squeezing his upper arm. “He’s just a baby. He shouldn’t be this stressed. He looks terrible! He’s washed out, thin, and he’s got split ends!”
Nico touched the ends of his hair worriedly, trying to see what she was talking about.
“Nico is nearly a century old,” Catherine said. “Though perhaps you see us all as babies at your advanced age.”
“I’m five thousand years young, thank you very much,” Isis said, “But Nico is only four!”
Catherine looked at Nico in confusion.
“Four?” She said in disbelief.
“He’s my friend Persephone’s only child,” Isis continued. “He’s precious to her, and I can tell you’re breaking his little baby brain with all your rules. You need to cut him some slack.”
“I can advocate for myself, Isis,” Nico said, annoyed that she was butting in. He hadn’t seen any split ends, thank God, so he figured she was exaggerating. “And I don’t have a baby brain!”
“We’ll discuss this later,” Catherine said, pulling on his other arm. “Christ tells us: do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
With that, she pulled Nico back into the Pantheon. Asclepius and Adalbert had already gone inside ahead of them, as evidenced by the tearful exclamations of the Asclepiades. They were seeing their dad for the first time in over fifty years and were making a lot of noise about it.
The expressions on their faces, as well as on Asclepius’, made all of Nico’s efforts worth it. Asclepius wasn’t free yet, but seeing his daughters seemed to lift his spirits immensely, and his eyes were brimming with happy tears. The girls were clamoring to hug their dad while Apollo explained to them that until his remaining sacred seals were removed, that wasn’t a good idea. Meanwhile, Adalbert and Rocco were speaking to a woman near the entrance. Rocco was holding up the Delos pamphlet and explaining something about the proposed church.
Nico did a double take. This woman was new; he’d never seen her before. He found it hard to look away. She radiated a peaceful and loving energy that felt like she was giving the whole room a warm hug. Her face was soft and lovely, her smile gentle. A deep blue mantle was draped over her head, covering her chestnut brown hair modestly.
Nico stared and stared, but his brain couldn’t make sense of the information his eyes were feeding it. This woman looked exactly the way he’d always imagined the Virgin Mary to look. But why would she be here now? He didn’t dare ask her to identify herself.
As he watched her deep in discussion with Rocco, he began to doubt. He wanted it to be her. He’d been praying for an introduction, for her intercession, for a hug. He had always sensed the loving and motherly energy radiating from Mary’s icons, and it was radiating now, right here in this room. And yet he sensed that something wasn’t right.
It was the context. The way Rocco spoke to her, the way she was reading the pamphlet. The way Artemis and Apollo were looking at her with too much familiarity.
Nico backed away from the blue-mantled woman and found Isis again. She’d moved to stand against the back wall alongside the door, close enough that she and Catherine were able to whisper to each other. Not for the first time, he suspected the two roommates had secretly become friends in spite of their bickering. They made for an odd pair with Isis in a see through dress and heavy makeup and Catherine in her demure nun’s habit. He wished they would whisper about something other than him, but his ears were burning.
“Who’s the new lady?” He asked, directing the question to both of them.
“That’s Leto,” Isis said helpfully. “The twins’ mom.”
Leto– the goddess of motherhood. Of course. Delos was important to her, too, and she needed to be involved in the leasing agreement.
Nico had always been a mama’s boy. He’d been blessed with two of them, and they’d both been wonderful. His cup runneth over with moms. It was no wonder he’d felt drawn to the Greek goddess of divine motherhood. Still, it was a blow. Just for a second, he’d really thought…
Leto, the goddess in question, turned her gentle face to look at Nico. Mary, she was not, and yet her gaze imparted a warmth and affection that he appreciated immensely. She and Rocco had come to an agreement, and it seemed as though they were a few oaths on the Styx away from Asclepius finally going home at last. Nico stepped forward, intending to thank her for her cooperation.
“Is this the one who killed his father?” She asked, pointing directly at Nico.
Nico looked back over his shoulder, trying to see who she was pointing at. Was there a father-killer in attendance? How terrible…
There was no one behind him.
“Who, me?” He said, pointing at himself.
“You. The son of Hades,” Leto’s gaze went from mildly pleasant to disdainful. “Zeus told me you killed him.”
Nico was left speechless. Leto turned away, looking at Rocco once again.
“If your organization employs patricides, I shudder to think what other sorts of crimes you saints tolerate.”
“Every sinner has a future, every saint has a past,” Rocco shrugged cheerfully. “Although if Nico is a patricide, this is the first I’m hearing of it.”
He said it as though it meant nothing to him. His smile never wavered. Of course, Nico had a new life in Christ. Whoever he’d killed before turning over his new leaf didn’t matter to Rocco.
It certainly mattered to Nico, though.
Nico blinked a few times, wondering if he was in a weird dream. Unfortunately, you had to sleep to dream, and he wasn’t allowed to sleep anymore.
“Um,” he said, not even sure where to start. “I, uh... I didn’t kill my dad. You must be confusing me with someone else.” That was the most charitable way he could possibly phrase what he was thinking, which was ‘WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT’. The wings on his back twitched, feeling like they didn’t belong there. He resisted the urge to scratch the spot where they joined his shoulder blades. Feathers were terribly intrusive; he didn’t understand how the children of Nyx put up with them.
“That’s merely what Zeus told me,” Leto said. She went back to the Asclepiades, who were still speaking to their father tearfully, telling him about all the medical advancements they’d pioneered in his absence. Leto conversed with Asclepius in low tones, and he thanked his grandma profusely for helping him to obtain freedom.
Leto may have disengaged from the conversation, but Nico was left reeling with no answers. He turned back to Isis again, since she was the only god in the room whom he felt was his friend. She shook her head, apparently just as confused as he was.
Nico had no choice but to appeal to the Olympians. He looked at Apollo, Artemis, and Hermes.
“Is Zeus spreading rumors about me?” Nico asked. He felt strange inside. Not angry, more chilled to the bone. “Did something happen to my dad?”
This was the real meat of the question. He hadn’t seen or heard from his dad in months. His communication with Persephone was obviously abnormal now. There was a small but real chance something had happened that he hadn’t been told about yet.
No matter how bad things got between him and his dad, he didn’t wish any harm to him. Well, maybe a little bit of harm. Nico would certainly take pleasure in watching Hades stub his toe or bonk his head on a low-hanging tree branch. But death by Stygian iron wasn’t merely death in the traditional sense– immortals could not die by traditional means. Death by Stygian iron meant logging into the universe in administrator mode to delete a file the operating system required to function. It was nothing to play around with, even in circumstances where it was warranted. There was a reason only a small handful of people could use it– the people who knew better than any what death meant, and when it wasn’t enough.
The idea of killing his dad like that was one of the most viscerally horrifying concepts Nico had ever encountered.
He kept waiting for someone to answer him, but Apollo, Artemis and Hermes just stared at him blankly.
“Somebody answer me!” Nico shouted. His voice echoed, soundwaves bouncing off the high domed ceiling and reverberating around the circular room.
“Inside voice, Nico,” Rocco said gently. Nico shot Rocco a sidelong glare. Now of all times he didn’t need to be tone policed.
Hermes snorted. Nico rounded on him, stepping up to get in his face.
“It’s just a rumor,” Artemis said, rolling her eyes and flipping her braid over her back. Given her tween-like appearance, the eye-roll made her look even less mature than usual, although her immaturity didn’t go any deeper than the surface. “And our dad didn’t make it up to get back at you. He believes it, and he’s not the only one.”
“No one’s seen Hades in ages. Everyone knew you had a grudge. You killed Nero,” Apollo said, speaking slowly, watching Nico like he was potentially dangerous. “So it’s not based on nothing.”
“Yeah,” Hermes said, a mischievous smirk on his face. “If you didn’t kill him, where is he?”
Nico was speechless. He didn’t know where Hades was.
“I’m not his keeper,” he said, shifting uncomfortably.
That answer raised a few eyebrows. Hermes shook his head sadly as though he didn’t believe him.
“Maybe you drank from the Lethe to forget,” he suggested quietly.
A chill shot up Nico’s spine.
That wasn’t possible. He hated the Lethe. He loved his dad. To kill his dad and drink from the Lethe were the last two things he’d ever want to do. There was a less than zero chance of those things both happening. But that .0001% chance still freaked him out.
Wasn’t it impossible? Hadn’t Persephone said she knew where Hades was? But gods lied, and she’d been trying to manipulate him into coming home. She may not have told him everything.
And Nico had been thinking of his dad very rarely since joining his new pantheon. For someone so pivotal in his life, someone who’d hurt him so badly, Hades had almost never crossed his mind. He’d never planned out any revenge. Was that because he’d erased a memory of something?
He cursed whoever planted that stupid rumor. Now he was going to be paranoid about it, and his psyche was just fragile enough that this dumb conspiracy theory was going to really work him over. He could see the impending crash out coming like a deer frozen in front of headlights.
“Nico,” Adalbert said, pulling him away gently. “Let them make the oaths now. We’ve almost come to the end.”
Nico had been so stunned that he hadn’t seen Adalbert approaching from behind. He saw Asclepius and his daughters staring at him in annoyance, waiting for him to leave Apollo and Artemis alone so that they could swear on the Styx to their real estate deal.
He let Adalbert lead him back to the side of the room, where Isis and Catherine were standing together. Catherine smiled at him reassuringly. He smiled back, glad that not everyone bought into the lie that he’d committed such a heinous, unnatural betrayal.
As Apollo and Artemis made their vows on the Styx, with Rocco dutifully recording them for posterity, Catherine leaned over and whispered in Nico’s ear.
“You know,” she said, her voice tinged with excitement. “I’m not saying you did it, but speaking hypothetically, if you did do it, it might be good for your career.”
Nico clenched his teeth together so hard they nearly shattered.
“That’s a good point, my sister in Christ,” Adalbert nodded. He, too, seemed cheered by the idea of Nico’s father being dead. “Although ‘Revelations’ states that someday Hades shall be cast into the Lake of Fire and destroyed, so I think the timing isn’t right.”
“That was the place, not the person,” Catherine whispered.
“Are you sure?”
“Pretty sure,” she said, raising a single eyebrow. Her saintly scholarship was notorious for being thorough, so she surely knew what she was talking about.
“Ah. Never mind, then,” Adalbert said, settling back against the wall.
Nico’s eye twitched. So they wanted to see his home burnt up in a lake of fire? Great. He wasn’t worried about what the Book of Revelations said, since he doubted it would come to pass anytime soon, but the topic worked on his frayed nerves all the same.
“So in that case,” Catherine said, going back to her whispering. “I think it would go over well if you wanted to take credit for… You know. That thing you may have forgotten you did.”
She winked at him, settling herself against the wall, too. She and Adalbert bracketed Nico, and the huntresses of Artemis bracketed them in turn. Nico felt claustrophobic. He wanted to yell and scream at Catherine to shut up, but he didn’t want to give the Olympians the satisfaction. He simmered quietly, trying to hold still and dissociate from the situation.
Leto was now talking to Rocco, reviewing finer details of the maps he’d brought, debating the exact placement of the basilica. Nico frowned. She may have been the goddess of motherhood, but her grandmothering skills were lacking. Asclepius looked like a sad basset hound beaten down by life. He stared at Leto with miserable puppy-dog eyes, his shackles weighing down his wrists, his shoulders slumped. She didn’t seem to notice.
Nico had to check his own posture. It had grown slumped and depressed looking, too. He caught Hermes looking at him and shot his cousin a glare. Hermes giggled to himself and turned away.
“Do you really not know where he is?” Catherine asked.
“Tch,” Isis cut in.
“What?” Catherine asked defensively.
“Take a hint,” Isis hissed.
Catherine looked more closely at Nico. He hadn’t responded to any of her remarks, and something in his expression seemed to concern her.
“Never fear. Your Father is alive and well,” she whispered. “And He loves you more than you can ever comprehend.”
Nico looked at her in surprise. Did she know something after all? Was Hades okay?
“See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God!” She said cheerily.
Nico’s reaction was cut off by a loud cheer from the Asclepiades. This was good timing, because he had been dangerously close to adding a few hundred bucks to the swear jar.
“Nico, the key, quickly!” Rocco said, overjoyed to have the exchange over and done with. He removed the last sacred seals on Asclepius’ back, and the god of medicine shook out his body like a wet dog. His eyes and skin looked brighter and fresher, like he’d just gotten back from a spa.
Nico walked up to Asclepius and the other Olympians with the key in hand. Asclepius held out his shackles, a blazingly brilliant smile splitting his face.
“Thank you for your efforts,” he said to Nico. “Sincerely. I hope in the future that we can call each other friends– no matter what pantheons we might belong to.”
“Definitely!” Nico exclaimed. “I’d like that!”
He reached out to unlock the chains.
To his surprise, Apollo grabbed him and hugged him before he could finish turning the key.
“Oh– Uh,” Nico stuttered. “Wow.” He found it sort of sweet that his cousin wanted to hug him. Also, Apollo’s muscular biceps felt pretty dang good wrapped around his waist. He was a little sad when he let go.
“This isn’t a declaration of friendship,” Apollo said. “I hope I never see you again. You saints are just too dangerous.”
“Are you at least gonna say thank you?” Nico asked, grinning.
“Absolutely not,” Apollo said, grinning back.
Nico ought to fully enjoy the moment, but something was still niggling in the back of his mind.
“In place of thanking me, you can get rid of that stupid rumor,” Nico said. “I can’t lie, so you know I have to be telling the truth. I didn’t hurt my dad. If he’s disappeared, I’m not respons–” He bit off the word ‘responsible’ before he could lie.
If Hades had disappeared, Nico could be indirectly responsible. Hades had left just after Nico ran away. The two events were not unrelated.
“I’m not aware of where he went,” he corrected himself.
“I never believed you killed Hades,” Apollo admitted. “I don’t think you’ve got it in you.”
“I don’t think I’ve got it in me, either,” Nico said, feeling relieved.
“Don’t stress about it. Some people believe everything they read on Gossip Goddess.”
Slowly, Nico turned around.
“Gossip Goddess?” he repeated.
Hermes was standing a few feet away. He winced.
“I didn’t think you’d find out,” he said. “But–”
Nico’s fist connected with his face before Hermes could get more words out. There was a deep, satisfying crunch as his knuckles slammed into his jaw. He used every ounce of divine force he could muster, and Hermes hadn’t been anticipating it. Consequently the messenger god was sent flying backwards, slamming into the large bronze tomb of the first king of Italy that was built into the wall. The decorative eagle that sat atop the tomb fell down and smacked Hermes on the head with a heavy thud.
“I showed you mercy!” Nico said, stalking towards him. “This is how you repay me? Social media slander?”
As he approached Hermes where he lay slumped on the floor, Artemis gave a whistle. The huntresses that lined the walls retreated to the center of the room, all of them hustling and avoiding eye contact with two gods who were in the midst of an argument.
Hermes looked up at Nico with a twisted smile of satisfaction on his face. He spat ichor out of the side of his mouth. A long trail of it dripped down his chin.
“Mercy, schmercy,” Hermes said. “I had to get back at you somehow. You stole my Caduceus.”
Nico had done more than that. He’d beaten him up, humiliated him, and made him cry. Unfortunately he hadn’t gone far enough that night in the Vatican basement. Hermes obviously hadn’t learned his lesson – gods usually didn’t. Instead he’d plotted a coward’s revenge, figuring he could get away with an anonymous post. Too bad for Hermes, Nico knew who Gossip Goddess really was. And he wasn’t taking insults lying down anymore.
Hermes kicked out viciously, jabbing Nico in the shin with the heel of his winged sandal as hard as he could. Nico hadn’t bothered to dodge, since he’d expected the pain to feel pleasantly tingly just like it had last time.
It took him a few seconds to figure out why his leg hurt so much. God wasn’t protecting him. Instead he was feeling pain normally again. But why?
By the time he’d connected the dots and refocused, Hermes had nearly gotten away. Nico just barely managed to throw up a wall of shadow around the Pantheon, closing off the door and shutting the oculus. It wasn’t totally dissimilar to their last fight in the basement; two extremely fast gods trapped together in a small space. Only this time, the venue was larger and more people were shouting at them to stop. Nico vaguely heard the voices of the other gods and saints, who had huddled in the center of the room. They were calling for an end to the confrontation, but no one moved to physically intervene.
Nico ignored them, entirely focused on beating the shit out of his gaslighting liar of a cousin. Hermes had gone too far this time. He had to be taught a lesson.
Once he realized he was trapped inside the Pantheon, Hermes became intent on escaping Nico’s clutches, correctly assuming that Nico would try to put a sacred seal on him and shut off his powers. Kicking off the wall, he flew across the room at lightning-fast speed, barely a blur in the air. Nico pursued.
During their last encounter he’d caught Hermes easily, like a rat in a trap. This time Hermes wasn’t surrounded by sacred seals on all the walls and doors, whereas before he’d accidentally touched a bunch of them. Consequently, his movement speed was considerably faster than it had been back then. For Nico, that meant that he struggled to catch him.
Just as soon as he saw Hermes flash by overhead, Hermes was appearing behind him, and then to his right, then the left. Nico was fast enough to keep up, but not fast enough to outpace him. Hermes seemed destined to hold onto his title of the fastest among the gods.
They flashed around the room like bouncy balls thrown at the wall at maximum speed, pinging off every available surface in a blur. Speech wasn’t possible when you were moving that fast, but Nico could sense that he was being taunted.
It was a slightly dirty trick, but he had no choice. Nico set a trap. He chased Hermes from one side of the dome to the other, moving towards him in just the right direction to push him back toward King Victor Emmanuele II’s tomb. As Hermes reached it, he kicked out at the now-dented bronze surface to push off, using it as a launch pad to go even faster.
A skeletal hand reached out through a newly-formed crack in the bronze, grabbing Hermes by the ankle. The sudden undead interference caught him off guard, slowing him down just enough that Nico was able to slam into him hard, the combined weight of their bodies denting the tomb even further.
They tumbled to the floor in a heap. As soon as he was able, Nico began slapping his hand on Hermes’ torso again and again, attempting to seal his powers. No golden seal emerged from his palm. In fact, nothing happened at all.
Hermes shuddered in terror and shut his eyes, thinking he was about to be sealed up and thrashed. As soon as he realized it wasn’t working, he let out a holler of triumph and punched Nico in the stomach.
The blow hurt every bit as much as it ought to, but there was no time to wonder why God wasn’t looking out for him that day. Nico took the punch, and the one that followed, and then followed those with another few jabs of his own.
The last time they’d fought, Nico had trounced Hermes. It was clear now that he’d only managed a win thanks to the literal grace of God. On even footing, their fight devolved into a flurry of punching and kicking on the floor.
Maybe Hermes was sick of running away, and maybe Nico was, too. He could have slipped away, but this time he didn’t want to. He desperately wanted to hit something. It felt good to hold nothing back, to vent his anger and frustration on somebody who really deserved it. Every time Hermes said, ‘Ow!’ was like a small catharsis in his heart.
Over their heads, someone clapped their hands twice.
“Boys,” Leto said. “It’s time to stop now.”
Nico and Hermes both looked up from where they had been grappling on the floor. Leto frowned in motherly displeasure, and Nico felt a knee-jerk rush of shame envelop him. He relaxed his grip on Hermes’ shirt.
While he was distracted, Hermes quickly licked his finger and shoved it in Nico’s ear.
“Ew!” Nico said, flinching away and rubbing his ear. “Gross! What’s the matter with you?”
Hermes shrugged.
“Clearly you didn’t grow up with brothers,” he muttered. He got to his feet and walked away.
Nico stood too. He saw that the huntresses of Artemis had formed a protective circle in the center of the floor. Behind their teenage blockade, the three saints, Catherine, Adalbert, and Rocco, were huddled.
Nico was perplexed. Had Artemis ordered her girls to form a protective cordon around the saints? He and Hermes had not endangered anyone but each other, but it was a remarkably thoughtful gesture all the same.
Artemis gave a hand signal, and the huntresses went back to lining up along the walls where they’d been before. She gave Hermes and Nico each a single, brief unimpressed head-shake, catching Thalia’s eye and mouthing the word, ‘men…’ The huntresses giggled quietly behind their hands.
Nico turned to the saints, realizing they would have had no idea why he’d sucker punched Hermes out of the blue. Adalbert was trembling like a chilly chihuahua, his monk’s robes wrapped around himself like a blanket.
“He gets shaky around violence,” Catherine said, rubbing Adalbert’s back as he wiped his sweaty palms on his robes. “He was beaten to death by pagans, you know.”
“Sorry, Adalbert,” Nico said, feeling terribly awkward. Catherine and Rocco were both giving him baleful looks. “Hermes, um– so there’s this app. He posts, like, gossip and rumors–”
“You attacked someone over a social media post?” Rocco asked, blinking owlishly. “There must be more to it than that, surely.”
Nico bit his tongue.
“Don’t bother explaining further,” Catherine said. “God made His opinion on the matter clear.”
Nico’s cheeks flushed bright red with shame. God didn’t care about fake rumors on Godstagram. Nico had been expected to turn the other cheek. He’d reacted without thinking, and now he probably seemed like a violent hothead, dangerous and out of control. The saints weren’t used to witnessing supernatural violence. He’d probably never looked more demonic in their eyes.
The sad part was, for a god, throwing a few punches and then letting it go was showing restraint. In his old pantheon, false accusations of patricide were fighting words of the highest order, and it would have been unthinkable for him not to defend his honor. He felt like he and Hermes had kept things relatively civil, but he’d get no credit for it. He was being held to a higher standard now, but it left him feeling jumbled and confused inside.
“Well!” Apollo clapped his hands together, smiling disingenuously. “Thank you so much for the entertainment, you two, but we’ve made our oaths on the Styx, and my son is somehow still not free. Crazy, right? All these delays are taking centuries off my lifespan. Nico, if you don’t hand over that key in the next ten seconds, I’m going to start punching you and you’ll get to start all over again. Sound good?”
“Uh, yeah,” Nico said, digging around in his pockets. “Hold on a second.”
“Ten,” Apollo said. “Nine…”
“It was right here,” Nico said, checking every pocket frantically.
He got down on the floor and started looking around.
“Are you fucking kidding me?” Apollo shouted.
“I’m sorry! It must have fallen out of my pocket,” Nico said. “Blame Hermes!”
“I didn’t reach in and take it out of your pocket!” Hermes said.
“You should have freed Asclepius before you punched him,” Apollo said, his nostrils flaring. “This is your fault!”
He got on the floor and began to search.
“Come on, everybody,” Apollo shouted, “Help look! I want to get out of here and be done with this shit!”
“Amen,” Adalbert muttered with a soft sigh.
Nico, the gods and the saints began crawling around on the floor on their hands and knees, looking around for the key. The only one who didn’t help was Leto, who seemed to think standing around and saying, ‘You already looked over there’ was somehow helpful. No one had any luck finding it. Not only was the Pantheon a massive building, but the floor was made up of different colored marble sections that played tricks on the eyes.
“Is there a backup key?” Artemis asked, brushing her hair out her face as she sat up on her haunches. “I’m just not seeing it. And I’ve got great eyesight.”
“Uh, I think we all have great eyesight,” Apollo said, side-eyeing his sister.
“Saint Peter custom-made those chains,” Catherine said, pressing her cheek to the floor and squinting, looking for a telltale glint of shining metal. “I doubt he made a copy. I suppose we could ask?”
“We are not asking!” Nico said. Sweat was beginning to bead on his forehead. Peter would be expecting his shackles back, and not with Asclepius still in them. “We’ll find the key. It can’t have gone far! Please keep looking, guys. I’m so sorry…”
The only silver lining was that Asclepius and his daughters had gone outside to catch up while Nico and Hermes had been punching each other. They were still sitting on the stoop chatting, and Nico hoped he could find the key before they wandered back inside. He didn’t want to have to break it to Asclepius that he’d be going home with a couple of permanent souvenirs clamped around his wrists.
Hermes was crawling around searching just as determinedly as the others. Weirdly, Nico felt kind of okay with him now. There was nothing acceptable about his behavior, but between today’s fight and the last one, Nico had been able to hit him a lot. That helped.
Hermes shuffled over to search for the key near Nico, not saying anything at first.
“I think Hades is alright,” he said quietly.
Nico’s head shot up to look at him.
“Really?” He said, his voice wobbling with relief.
“I’m pretty sure I heard Persephone talking to him on the phone,” Hermes admitted. “Don’t take it for a sure thing, though.”
Nico let the relief sink in for a moment before he asked,
“You’ve been to see her?”
“Obviously,” Hermes snapped. “I’m still a psychopomp, even though I’ve recently been made redundant. I check in down there.”
“Is she doing okay?” Nico asked, not addressing the redundancy remark.
“Not really,” Hermes admitted.
Nico didn’t want to know anything else. He started searching in the opposite direction from Hermes, cursing himself for asking questions he didn’t want the answers to.
“This is a waste of time,” Isis said, sitting up on her haunches. “Call your guy and tell him we need another key. It ain’t here. We’ve searched every inch of this place.”
“No, no, no,” Nico said, shaking his head violently. “No way. We can’t tell Peter I lost his key. He’ll think I’m totally hopeless.”
“If the shoe fits,” Adalbert muttered.
Catherine shushed him.
“Have faith,” she said calmly. “We’ll find it.”
“We’ve looked everywhere,” Artemis said, growing frustrated. “I’m sick of being stuck in here with you people. I signed up for a cool protest and getting my nephew back, not a scavenger hunt with you people.” She gestured at Catherine to make it clear who she meant.
“I am not particularly happy about the situation either,” Catherine said. “But it is not my doing.”
“It’s Nico’s,” Adalbert clarified unnecessarily.
“Let he who is without sin cast the first stone, Adalbert!” Nico snapped defensively.
“You have no right to complain,” Artemis said angrily. “This negotiation has dragged on forever. Delay after delay, and you’re the common denominator in all of them. Why does everything get so much more complicated when you’re involved?”
“Would you guys lay off the kid?” Isis said. “He’s only four!”
For some reason, everyone found that very funny. Nico blushed as the gods and saints laughed at him en masse.
Suddenly, Rocco gasped.
“Anthony!” He shouted.
“Anthony!” Catherine agreed. “Brilliant idea, Rocco!”
She closed her eyes and silently sent up a prayer. Nico, Rocco, and Adalbert joined in, raising a silent alarm that assistance was needed urgently.
“You rang?”
A saint was in the doorway, smiling at all of them. Anthony was a young man in nondescript monk’s robes, unremarkable in appearance aside from a knowing look in his eyes.
“Anthony! That was fast,” Catherine said. “Listen, we need–”
“Looking for… This?”
Anthony held up his hand. The golden key dangled from his finger, sparkling gold and beautiful.
Catherine shrieked with delight, and the gods murmured in amazement.
“Where was it?” Nico asked, feeling incredibly relieved.
“In the king’s tomb,” Anthony said, pointing at the destroyed bronze sarcophagus. He reached out to hand Nico the key.
“Uh-uh, no way, he’d just lose it again,” Apollo said, snatching it from Anthony. “Yoink!”
“Will you leave the chains on the stoop, please?” Rocco called out.
“Will do!” Apollo said, dashing outside to finally free his son.
Abruptly, everyone went their separate ways. Leto didn’t linger, and Anthony left as quickly as he’d arrived. The huntresses walked out in an orderly single file line behind Artemis. As they emerged onto the street, the mist warped around them, disguising them as a tour group in school uniforms.
Hermes shot Nico an unreadable look before he departed, zipping off into the sky like a spring uncoiling.
Nico dashed out to the steps just in time to watch Asclepius disappear, unchained, unsealed, his arms thrown about his daughters’ shoulders. Nico blinked back tears of joy.
Just like that, he was gone. It was over. The gods had disappeared. Even Isis and Catherine had headed home, strolling down the road together chatting as they walked back to the church they shared.
“I’ll see you at Bart’s later, Nico,” Adalbert said, taking his leave.
Nico and Rocco were left alone.
“You might be too young to fully appreciate this,” Rocco said after a moment’s silence. “But that was the first time we’ve ever successfully made a deal with the pagan demons.”
“Really?”
“Really,” Rocco said. “And no one got hurt. Some would have said that was impossible. But it happened.”
Nico swallowed, trying not to show how much it meant to him. To imagine that the two pantheons could coexist peacefully gave him hope. Maybe in the future he wouldn’t have to choose sides.
Rocco chuckled.
“What’s funny?” Nico asked.
“I don’t know if you know this,” Rocco said. “But Delos is sinking. In a hundred years, our new basilica site might be underwater.”
“You knew?” Nico asked. “So why did you suggest it?”
“Because it was time for Asclepius to go home,” Rocco smiled.
All Nico could do was smile back. This was it, he thought. This was the church he’d been looking for all this time.
“Ready to report in?” Rocco asked. “Brigid will want to hear about this.”
“In a second,” Nico said. “You go ahead. I’ll catch up.”
Rocco departed, and Nico was alone in the Pantheon. The ‘closed’ sign, along with the banner that had hung from the pediment outside, had disappeared. He only had a few minutes before the mortal security guards returned and reopened the room to tourists.
He took a deep breath, trying to take in the moment. He had not carried himself with perfect decorum. The negotiation had not gone flawlessly. He’d been yelled at, and laughed at, and he’d gotten in a fight. And yet he found himself grinning like a madman thinking about it. Because despite all that, he’d gotten exactly what he wanted.
He looked around at the now-familiar building, the tombs of famous Italians and the altars and statues lining the walls. He went up to King Victor Emmanuele II’s tomb and gently tucked his skeletal hand back inside, sealing up the bronze and replacing the decorative eagle on top neatly.
He stared up at the oculus, noticing a shift in the light. As he watched, the sky darkened and the patter of rain began to sound on the dome of the roof. A narrow curtain of rain fell through the oculus, draining into a grate inset in the floor.
He wished his dad was there to see it. Hades had loved the Pantheon.
“Wherever you are, Papa,” he said quietly, watching the rain. “I hope you’re okay. I’m still angry with you. But I hope you’re okay.”
He sat cross legged beside the column of rainfall and summoned a drachma in his hand, tossing it into the spray of water. An Iris message shimmered in the air.
“Mom?”
Persephone’s face appeared in the air. She was dressed in her regalia as the Queen of the Underworld, ruling alone. Her crown of thorns had little bird skulls woven through it, and she looked tired.
“Nico,” she said, her stony face softening immediately. “I’m so happy to see you. Are you alright?”
“Better than alright,” he said, “How are you?”
“Lonely.”
They stared at each other through the haze of water.
“Have you heard from Dad recently?”
Her mouth opened in stifled surprise.
“Yes,” she said hesitantly. “Why? Did you want to get in touch?”
He shook his head violently. His immediate relief at hearing Hades was okay was quickly overwhelmed by remembered anger. No, he did not want to get in touch. So long as Hades was alright, Nico was happy to keep his distance.
“There’s a rumor on Godstagram saying I killed him,” Nico said.
“Ugh!” Persephone shuddered, picking up her phone. “I’ll take care of it. Don’t worry.”
“Thank you.”
She typed furiously on her phone, probably tearing Gossip Goddess a new asshole for spreading lies.
“A horrible thing to accuse someone of,” she said. “I’m sorry, dear. That must have been hard to hear.”
“A little bit,” he admitted. “Mom, there’s something I need to talk to you about.”
She nodded, leaning in toward the Iris screen. It was as though they were speaking face-to-face, and Nico felt very nervous about how she would react to what he was about to say.
“I got Asclepius freed,” he said.
“That’s wonderful,” she said. “You did that all on your own?”
“Not on my own,” he said. “But I don’t think it would have happened if not for me. It’s not just that. Isis has become a contractor for the Catholics. She’s not even hiding it, and no one seems to mind.”
“Really?” Persephone asked, frowning.
“Today we negotiated for Asclepius to go home. It wasn’t pretty, but we got it done. If you’d been here– Mom, things are getting better! I swear to you, it’s not always going to be like it has been. Gods and saints can work together. We can coexist. Times are changing.”
She began counting off her fingers.
“They punish you, they make you feel guilty for everything, they have all these crazy rules–”
“You don’t understand,” he said. “It’s not all bad.”
“They call you a demon, Nico!” She insisted, her voice rising in pitch.
“You’re not listening!” he yelled.
She rubbed her temples, groaning.
“I can’t sleep,” she said. “I can’t eat. I can barely hold the kingdom together because I spend all my days and nights worrying about you. Why can’t you just come home?”
“Why can’t you just be supportive of me?”
“I will not support a terrible decision!”
“It’s my life! Not yours!” Nico shouted.
They both fell silent. The only sound was the echoing patter of rain.
“I called to tell you that I’m staying,” Nico said. “Your threats won’t work on me. If you want to cancel spring this year, that’s your decision. I am not going to be bullied.”
If she cancelled it, he had to trust that God had a plan. Maria Bova had been right to call him out. If he had so little faith that he buckled under a few threats, he was in the wrong line of work. If he quit, it needed to be his choice– not his mother’s.
Persephone rubbed her face with her hands, looking suddenly weary.
“When they said all women turn into their mothers, I didn’t think it applied to goddesses,” she admitted. “Of course the Fates would give me a son who’s just like me.”
“Are you still going to cancel spring?”
She let out a humorless little chuckle.
“Let’s just say this year is going to be great for people with seasonal allergies.”
“Mom!”
“What did you expect? I’m a demon.”
Notes:
Happy St Patrick's Day!
I've decided it's time to admit to you my secret agenda behind this fic. I've been brainwashing you guys and rearranging your neurons. My dastardly goal is to ensure that every person who reads this who happens to visit Rome, is forced to think about this fanfiction while you're at those nice historic sites like the Pantheon. Muahahaha! Good luck paying attention to your tour guide while you're distracted thinking of that insanely long fic you read on AO3 once!
Chapter 105
Notes:
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Chapter Text
Hazel flipped through the pages of her in-flight magazine, wishing she could make time move faster. Air travel was a drag when you could teleport.
Unfortunately, intercontinental shadow travel with four people and their luggage in tow was beyond her capacity. She didn’t want to be tired the whole time she was in Italy, so she decided to save energy and take the seven hour flight across the Atlantic. It probably hadn’t been a smart move. She’d realized she couldn’t sleep on planes, so she was destined to spend the whole trip tired anyway. What a waste!
Frank didn’t have that problem. He was snoring loudly on her shoulder, having conked out during takeoff.
“Can’t sleep?” Annabeth whispered from across the aisle. The plane had been darkened for the overnight flight, and there were only a handful of people still awake.
“Nope,” Hazel said. “I should have thought to make an amulet or something. You can’t sleep, either?”
“I have a headache,” Annabeth said. “Probably dehydrated. Percy, do you have that ambrosia?”
Percy, sitting beside her, wasn’t sleeping either. He leaned down and dug through his backpack, pulling out a plastic baggie of golden ambrosia nuggets. Annabeth popped a handful in her mouth, sitting back and sighing.
“Geez, Annabeth,” Percy said, taking the bag from her. “Be careful with that stuff. One piece is plenty.”
“I’m fine, babe,” she said, smiling at his concern.
“Next time, just drink water,” Percy said, shaking his head in disbelief at her reckless dosage.
Hazel met Annabeth’s eyes and caught a glimpse of a deep melancholy lurking beneath the surface. Her ambrosia tolerance was getting higher because someday it would become her primary source of nutrition. At some point in the next thirty years, her blood would turn to ichor, and on the appointed day, she’d be formally elevated to a place among the gods. And Percy still had no clue about any of this.
It was none of Hazel’s business, but she knew how much Annabeth valued honesty in her relationship. She wasn’t becoming a goddess until after Percy was dead. She didn’t necessarily have to tell him, but she was surely going to anyway. It was just a matter of finding the right time.
She’d also cheated on him. Hazel had never asked, but she wondered whether Annabeth was ever planning on coming clean about that– for the second time, since she’d told him once before and Nico had erased the memory from Percy’s mind. Hazel didn’t envy her the decision.
“Can’t sleep either, Percy?” Hazel asked.
“Air travel freaks me out,” he said gruffly. He’d kept the window tightly closed the whole flight, and he flinched every time there was turbulence, as though he were worried Zeus would snatch the plane out of the air and shake it like a child with a rattle.
“Same,” she admitted, sharing in his instinctual discomfort. “But I’m not worried. Nico will protect me. If by reputation alone.”
Percy didn’t seem so convinced, but Hazel knew she was right. She and Nico had their differences of opinion, but she doubted that Zeus wanted to risk provoking his wrath now that he had a bunch of powerful new friends. He wouldn’t dare hurt her just in case it came back to bite him.
The seat in front of her jiggled as Will turned around in his chair to look at her, his freckled face poking out into the aisle.
“Do you really think he can protect you?” Will asked, his bright blue eyes narrowing skeptically. “Because he didn’t save me from being in a car accident.”
The demigods had gotten in touch with Will through Maria Bova’s Discord. He was going to medical school in New York, so Percy and Annabeth had met up with him in Central Park to carefully discuss the subject of Nico. At first they’d been wary of including a non-demigod in their discussions, but those distinctions didn’t seem to matter anymore. Maria Bova, the Discord administrator, had apparently known Nico for years, and she was 100% human.
It was a bitter pill to swallow, but Hazel had come to reluctantly accept that there had been a big part of Nico’s life she’d never known about. None of them had ever known exactly who or what he was. They still didn’t.
“He’s never been able to heal people,” she told Will. “But he can avenge them. Like I said, protection by reputation.”
“Okay,” he muttered. He turned back around and went back to watching his movie.
Will had shared his story on their Discord chat a few weeks previously. Meeting Nico, their whirlwind romance, the ever-changing web of lies around his identity, and finally, the tragedy that had ended everything. It was heartbreaking, but all too common. Dating gods was a dangerous business. He was lucky to have gotten out alive, although his friend Kayla hadn’t been so fortunate.
Hazel remembered the suffering Jason had endured trying to make things work with Nico. He’d always claimed that Nico had been worth it, and in the end, Jason had gotten the Underworld premium deluxe afterlife package. Now he got to play beach volleyball with Kobe Bryant and do karaoke with Robin Williams for eternity. When Will eventually died, would he be rewarded, too? Or had it all been for nothing, since Nico was a saint now?
Well, sort of a saint. Maria had tried to explain the nuances of the canonization process in a Discord livestream, but Hazel’s eyes had glazed over during the explanation. It was all so formal and complicated, and there was so much bureaucracy involved. For a religion that practiced ritualized cannibalism, Catholicism was remarkably boring
Maria had been inviting them to come to Rome for weeks, but they’d only decided to buy last-minute tickets after she’d told them about the Bad Saint concert. They would perform one last local show before going on tour for their new album, and Maria saw it as a chance for the hardcore Nico fans to connect before the ‘movement got too big’, as Maria so optimistically put it.
Maria Bova had a charisma that was hard to describe. She was an introverted woman, slightly bashful, but when she started talking about Nico on their Discord streams, everything about her demeanor shifted. Hazel had once been zealous like that, too, pontificating about her brother’s virtues to anyone who would listen, but Maria took it even further, lighting up like a Christmas tree and ranting for a little longer than was neurotypical. Hazel suspected she was in love with Nico. Will had stated the same opinion outright, shaking his head sadly.
“I wish her the best of luck,” he’d said sadly. Maria was engaged to someone else, but they knew that didn’t really matter. When a god walked into a room, people tended to forget about pesky little details like engagement rings.
Every time she thought about her brother becoming a saint, Hazel’s chest got tight and her stomach hurt. She was still angry with him for trying to convert her and destroying his temple, but she knew they couldn’t leave things the way they’d left them. She wasn’t sure what kind of closure she was hoping for, whether she wanted to make up with him or say goodbye for good. First she needed to understand what was going on, and Maria had promised that the concert was the best place to find out.
As Frank snored beside her, Hazel closed her eyes and tried to sleep, mumbling a prayer to Hypnos for a little assistance. To her surprise, she woke up a few hours later feeling refreshed. At least some gods still felt like being helpful, she thought, stretching out her arms above her head. The lights had just come back on, and soon they would be landing in the Eternal City. Everyone else was exhausted, but she felt wide awake. She owed Hypnos a sacrifice when she got home.
Her wakefulness meant that she was the one who had to handle purchasing train tickets. She managed to get everyone’s bags collected and tickets distributed, and soon they were on the train into the city.
Her heart was racing. Maria would be waiting for them at the station. Would Nico be there? Or would they have to wait until the following night at the concert? What if he didn’t show up at all?
Will had his face pressed against the train window, watching the scenery flash by. He had dark circles under his eyes due to lost sleep, but he’d had those before the flight. Med school did that to a person. He was still an incredibly handsome young man; fit and tanned with golden blonde hair. The moment they’d met him in person, the demigods had all secretly agreed that Nico had a type. Will reminded everyone of Jason.
It wasn’t just his physical appearance that led to the familiarity. Will was kind, just like Jason had been, and was deeply driven to help others. In med school he was planning to specialize in pediatric oncology. It was impossible not to respect the guy. But whenever they talked about Nico, his expression became haunted. It was an act of great bravery to come to Rome in the hopes of seeing him. Hazel could only pray that his courage was rewarded and he got the closure he needed, whatever that might be.
The group was quiet when the train pulled to a stop at Termini station, the brakes squealing and hissing. They grabbed their suitcases and filed out with the crowd.
The four demigod heads were on a swivel. Two airports, a plane, a train, and now a crowded, bustling station– going this long without encountering a monster was practically unheard of. Nothing had accosted them or tried to eat them yet. They were all thinking the same thing. It was quiet, too quiet. They’d been to Rome before, and it hadn’t been nearly this easy.
Will, naturally, was unconcerned. He was the first to spot Maria, who they immediately recognized from their Discord calls. She was waving frantically with both hands and jumping up and down, with a tall, scary looking man standing behind her.
Hazel waved back awkwardly. Maria didn’t know them by sight, since she’d been the only one on camera most of the time. Hazel in particular had kept her camera off, uncomfortable talking to a mortal about her brother. Now she was unmasked, and it was just as awkward as she’d anticipated.
“Which one is Hazel?” Maria asked, looking between her and Annabeth in confusion. When Hazel raised her hand and smiled crookedly, Maria hugged her tightly.
“I don’t believe I’m meeting his family,” she said. “Very weird! Okay, come, please, give – uh, the, uh… That.” She pointed at the suitcases.
“Suitcases,” Annabeth supplied.
“Suitcases,” Maria repeated. “Sorry. Give your suitcases to Caio.”
Caio waved again.
“My English is bad,” Maria admitted. “Sorry.”
“It’s alright,” Frank said. “At least you speak a second language. Most Americans don’t. Although I’m Canadian, so I know four, but that’s because Canadians are awesome.”
Caio took the girls’ suitcases in a chivalrous gesture, and they walked a couple of blocks to Maria’s apartment, which she’d generously offered to let them crash in for the two nights they were staying in Rome. Hazel would have preferred a hotel, but Maria had been incredibly persistent.
Maria, if Hazel was being honest, freaked her out. She had the same name as Nico’s mom, and she even looked like him a little. That was because they were both Italian, so it wasn’t really that weird, but Hazel was self-conscious about it anyway. Maria had probably seen her and thought she and Nico looked nothing alike. Maria was also fully aware that Nico had been born in the 30’s, so Hazel couldn’t exactly volunteer her own time traveling origin story without getting into way too much personal detail. It bothered her to think that Maria had her own unique understanding of who Nico was and what his family dynamics were, one that fit into a narrative that made sense to her– and probably didn’t align with Hazel’s much at all.
Hazel had felt Nico slipping away for so long. Now that she saw the woman Nico had been slipping away to, she was jealous. It was that simple. She didn’t want anyone to have more in common with her brother than she did.
As Maria and Caio talked to each other in Italian, Hazel felt even worse. Why hadn’t she ever bothered learning the language? For someone so nuts about their godly brother, you’d think she would have made time. She’d never even read Dante’s Inferno despite Nico begging her to. She knew Maria had, because the album had a bunch of allusions to it hidden within the song lyrics. It was an album devoted to Nico, so of course it did.
“Did Nico ever confirm he was going to actually be at this concert tomorrow?” Percy asked.
“Yes,” Maria said. “We talked yesterday. He promised.”
“Glad we didn’t fly out here for nothing,” Percy muttered. He was being a good sport coming at all, since Nico was Annabeth’s friend and not his. Still, he didn’t seem very enthusiastic. Hazel knew that being in such a populous city meant he’d be too hypervigilant to have fun. The plane ride hadn’t helped his mood, either.
“How often do you see Nico?” Hazel asked.
“Sometimes a lot, sometimes not much,” Maria said. “Never for long.”
That sounded familiar. At least Hazel had gotten to live with him once in Crete. She almost told Maria, then stopped. She wasn’t going to try to one-up this girl. That would just be pathetic.
“Does he know we’re coming?” Annabeth asked.
Maria smiled mischievously, her dark eyes flashing.
“No! I keep secret,” she winked playfully.
Ugh. Maria was adorable. Hazel felt like a bitch.
They climbed the stairs to Maria’s apartment, which was dingy, not particularly clean, and smelled of cats.
“I rescue them from the streets,” Maria said, picking up a kitten with one-eye and no tail and kissing it on the nose.
Of course she did, Hazel thought bitterly.
Maria checked on something in the oven, then told them to rest and take showers and that she’d be back in an hour to finish dinner. She left for her fiance’s apartment, leaving her guests alone– if you counted the presence of an indeterminate number of disabled cats as being alone.
Percy, who hadn’t slept on the plane, started blowing up an air mattress immediately. Annabeth took the first shower, and Frank explored the apartment.
“Hazel,” he called out. “You’ll want to see this.”
Hazel followed him into Maria’s bedroom, which she’d offered to Hazel as a gesture of honor for Nico’s sister. A framed photograph of Nico sat on the bedside table.
She picked it up. He was standing on the edge of a building without a shirt on, wearing a pair of black wings.
She’d seen the wings in pictures on the Discord. He’d been spotted flying around over the train station, and some photos had made it to the internet. Maria had connected his name to them and shared some better shots, but she’d never shared this one.
He was looking out over the ledge, staring down at the earth below. He looked like a handsome gargoyle, like a statue by Michelangelo. This wasn’t the Nico that she knew, the brother that teased her and cooked for her and sometimes annoyed the crap out of her. This was that other Nico, the idealized version that lived in her head when the real one wasn’t around. The one she prayed to, the one she believed in beyond all reason. Sometimes she thought he was a product of her imagination. The Nico of reality so often fell short of her lofty expectations. But every once in a while, just for a moment, the two images would overlap. Rather than see a person with an obnoxious amount of power, she’d see a god– a god she could reach out and touch. A god who loved her.
In those moments, she felt like she was seeing the real Nico. The normal everyday Nico was just a shadow cast on a cave wall, a reflected image of something greater that hovered just out of sight. In fleeting glimpses, she saw the truth.
Not only was Maria getting glimpses, she was getting entire photoshoots. And he had his shirt off! How tacky was that?
Hazel tossed the photo back on the table and sat on Maria’s bed with a thump. She looked around Maria’s bedroom with jealous eyeballs and found lots to criticize. Crucifixes on the walls, rosaries on the bureau, pictures of the Virgin Mary hanging on every surface. Also, a lot of cat litter tracked on the floor.
Frank sat on the bed next to her.
“She’s a religious nutjob,” Hazel said.
“Says the Pontifex Maximus of Camp Jupiter,” Frank snorted.
“That’s different. She’s too nice! I’m concerned she’s planning to kill us and eat us,” Hazel said, running her finger around the base of Maria’s bedside lamp and finding it dusty. “Catholics love eating human flesh. Did you know that?”
“No,” Frank said. “Are you serious?”
“Deadly,” Hazel said, falling back on the bed and staring at the ceiling. “Do you think she’s a virgin?”
“Based on all the pictures of Jesus and Mary in here, I’d say yeah, probably,” Frank said. “Can you imagine trying to do it with them staring at you the whole time?”
“We could try,” Hazel suggested. “It’d be kind of funny.”
Frank frowned at her.
“I think you’re taking this a little too far,” he said. “We can all tell you don’t like her. You practically hissed when she hugged you earlier.”
“What’s not to like about the Virgin Maria?” Hazel said sarcastically. “So nice and sweet and Catholic and Italian. I bet Nico can’t get enough of her.”
Frank cupped her face in his hands.
“Haze, as your boyfriend, it’s my sworn duty to tell you when you’re being a shit. And you’re being a shit.”
Hazel pouted, but before she could defend herself, Annabeth walked in. She was freshly showered and had changed out of her traveling clothes.
“Percy just got in the shower,” she said. “I need to talk to you guys.”
“Everything okay?” Frank asked.
Annabeth leaned against the door jamb, turning her head to check that the shower was running and the bathroom door was closed.
“I know Italian,” she said quietly.
“Sweet,” Frank said. “You can translate for us!”
“Not sweet,” Annabeth said. “I didn’t know Italian when I got on the plane. But I knew it when we landed.”
Hazel wrinkled her nose in confusion.
“How is that possible?”
“The in-flight announcements were gibberish to me,” Annabeth said, biting her thumbnail nervously. “But when Maria started talking to Caio, I understood every word. I think it’s another symptom.”
“Must be something to do with actually being on Italian soil,” Frank said, scratching his chin with interest. “You knew Latin already, right? Are you sure it didn’t just transfer over?”
“I don’t know. I can probably explain it to Percy that way,” Annabeth said. “But it won’t be so easy to explain if we ever visit the Taj Mahal and I suddenly know Hindi.”
“I’m never going to India,” Frank mused. “They’ve got a god with an elephant head. I’m not gonna risk getting on his bad side. Since apparently they’re all real? Are we ever gonna talk about that?”
“Nope,” Hazel said, shutting that subject down fast. “Two is plenty. I can’t handle any more.”
“That’s probably wise,” Annabeth said. “Although, to your point, Frank, I think Ganesh would be fascinating, based on what I’ve–”
“So you’re gonna tell Percy that you’re becoming a goddess?” Hazel interrupted. They couldn’t waste time when they could only talk for the duration of a shower.
Annabeth wrapped her arms around her body like she was cold.
“He promised to take me to the Pantheon tomorrow morning, just the two of us,” she said sadly. “We’ll have some time alone to talk. I’ll tell him then. If he wants to leave me afterwards, he can get it over with before the concert. He didn’t want to come in the first place, so it’s kinder that way.”
“He’s not going to leave you just because you’re becoming a goddess after he’s dead,” Hazel scoffed. “Why would he?”
“I’m already changing!” Annabeth said. “Who knows whether I’ll age normally.”
“Oh no, an eternally young girlfriend. How awful!” Frank said, laughing out loud. “Why would Percy mind that?”
“Some people actually want to grow old with their partners,” Hazel said. “I do. Aging is a privilege I didn’t get the last time around. But you might still age normally, Annabeth. You don’t know what’s going to happen.”
“I know one thing that’s going to happen,” Annabeth said. “I know the date of his death. Who would want to be with someone who had that kind of information at their disposal?”
“Uh, me?” Frank said, pointing at Hazel.
“I don’t know when you’re going to die, Frank,” Hazel said, sighing and rolling her eyes.
“I don’t believe you!” he said cheerfully. Frank had only ever asked her about his death-date once, and she’d told him with complete honesty that his aura was unreadable. He hadn’t believed her, and now they had a don’t-ask-don’t-tell policy on the subject.
“Sorry, I forgot that applied to you, Hazel,” Annabeth said, kneading her forehead and pacing. “My head is killing me. I’m not thinking straight. I can’t keep lying to Percy like this, it’s gonna kill me. He deserves to know what I’m turning into. And he deserves to know what I did…”
She wandered off, leaving the conversation abruptly unfinished. Hazel and Frank were left to stare at each other. If Annabeth told Percy about the cheating incident tomorrow, there was absolutely no telling what might happen.
They’d both had front row seats to Percy’s initial reaction to learning that Annabeth had cheated on him. They’d seen his total devastation, and then his resignation when he’d gone to Tartarus to save her anyway. Her betrayal hadn’t made him stop loving her, and it hadn’t broken their bond, but it had caused Percy an enormous amount of emotional damage.
That experience had been erased from Percy’s mind in an act of mercy, but now he might be forced to live it again. Annabeth had convinced herself that he would leave her once he knew the truth, but that wasn’t what had happened last time.
Percy and Annabeth weren’t a normal couple. They’d trauma bonded so hard over a lifetime of shared adventure that they’d practically melded into a single being. It was hard to imagine Annabeth happy without Percy by her side. It was hard to imagine Percy even functioning if she weren’t around.
Maybe the relationship wasn’t healthy, but it was naive to think that either of them would ever fully recover from a breakup. Realistically, it was more likely that they’d stay together, and their codependent but otherwise happy relationship would morph into a toxic nightmare that they’d spend the rest of their lives trapped in.
Deep down, Hazel and Frank were both thinking the same thing. If Annabeth told Percy the truth, she’d ruin his life. Honesty was important, but this time, maybe it wasn’t worth it.
Neither of them said what they were thinking out loud. This was a topic they were wise enough to steer clear of.
On that awkward note, Percy walked into the bedroom. Both Frank and Hazel nearly jumped out of their skin when they saw him.
“Hey guys. Bad time?”
“It’s fine,” Hazel said, trying to appear normal.
“Really? You flinched when I walked in.” He shut the door behind him and looked around the room. “Dang. That’s a lot of crosses.”
“It’s weird, right?” Hazel said.
“It’s weird,” he agreed. “But I feel like Maria’s the good kind of crazy, you know? Anyway, Annabeth is taking a nap. I need to talk to you guys about something.”
Before Hazel and Frank could say anything, he pulled a ring box out of his pocket and opened it. A hefty little princess-cut diamond glinted back at them, set in silver that matched Annabeth’s eyes.
Hazel gasped, putting her hand over her mouth.
“Jesus!” she murmured.
“Now you sound like Maria,” Frank said, nudging her.
“Sorry,” she said, laughing at herself. “I couldn’t help it, there’s pictures of the dude all over the place. Let me start over. I meant to say, ‘Sweet merciful Hercules, look at that rock!’ Better?”
“Way better,” Frank agreed.
“Keep it down,” Percy said, grinning and putting it in his pocket. “I’m asking her tomorrow morning in the Pantheon. It’s her favorite work of architecture in the world, and we never thought we’d get a chance to see it without monsters chasing us around inside. I just need your help with something, Hazel.”
“Sure,” she said weakly. He’d already planned the proposal, so where did that leave Annabeth’s confession? Frank squeezed her hand, similarly conflicted.
“I wanted to ask if you two wouldn’t mind picking up a bag of rose petals,” Percy said. “And then can you shadow travel up to the roof and dump them through the ceiling hole after she says yes?”
Damn it, that was so romantic…
Assuming she said yes.
“Of course,” Hazel said, plastering on a smile.
“Thanks,” Percy said, smiling at both of them. “I appreciate your support. For a second you guys both had this horrified look on your faces and I got worried. I was expecting more of a ‘yay, love!’ reaction. You know?”
They both gave him thumbs up, and he left.
“There’s no way she doesn’t know he’s carrying a ring around,” Frank said. “She’s Annabeth.”
“I bet she’s in denial,” Hazel said. “She feels too guilty. She’s not seeing things clearly.”
The two of them worried for their friends, but this was a problem Percy and Annabeth had to solve together. There was nothing they could do.
When Maria came back for dinner, Hazel and Frank were both slightly shell-shocked, and Annabeth and Percy were twitchy with nerves for two extremely different reasons. Will, bless his heart, had no clue why everyone was acting so weird, but he had too much weighing on his own mind to care.
Maria was unfazed. Her kitchen quickly transformed into a very polite dictatorship.She ordered them about, directing them to chop this, taste that, and peel an insane amount of garlic. She’d pre-cooked all week for their visit, and after a few rotations of baking dishes in the oven they were ready to eat.
She texted her fiance, and a scant few minutes later three rock stars walked into the apartment. The guests had met Caio that morning, but they were being introduced to Leonardo and Marco for the first time.
None of the guys spoke much English, but Marco was charismatic enough to charm the tourists with lots of cheek kisses and pretty Italian phrases. He called Hazel ‘bella’ a few times, which didn’t hurt anything. You didn’t need to know English when you were that good looking.
How the heck was this dude okay with his fiancee having a picture of a shirtless Nico next to her bed? Hazel couldn’t figure it out. Maybe he had never been in her bedroom before.
Once the nine of them were seated around the small dinner table, the Americans started eating without delay, half starved since the inedible in-flight meal they’d been served in the middle of the Atlantic. They had to awkwardly put their forks down and wait while the four band members prayed the Our Father in a practiced cadence at the other end of the table. Will was the only guest who prayed along with them.
“Are we supposed to say it too?” Frank whispered under his breath to Hazel.
“I’m not doing it,” Hazel said stubbornly, shoving a forkful of lasagna into her mouth. She cursed under her breath. It was the best freaking lasagna she’d ever tasted. Maria was a Disney princess, all smiles and bubbling laughter and home cooking. It just wasn’t fair.
“I’ve never liked burning offerings to the gods,” Percy joked under his breath. “But it feels like a competition at this point.”
“For real,” Frank agreed, laughing. “Uh. Hazel? Where ya going, babe?”
Hazel had gotten up from her seat. She reached into the serving dish in the middle of the table and grabbed a veal cutlet with her bare hand. She carried it over to the stove and lit the burner.
“Oh no! Was it undercooked?” Maria asked, knowing full well that she’d never undercooked veal in her life. She was trying to be polite, but Hazel caught a fire in her eyes. Italians and food– the obsession was real.
She smirked, and fed the veal cutlet to the flame. As it burned it made a drippy, scorched mess over the stovetop, and she had to pull it away after it was only half-burnt, unless she wanted to burn her hand as an offering too. She had time to say a deliberately loud prayer in Latin, naming Nico extra loud multiple times to make it clear who she was praying to.
There! Now Maria would learn her place, she thought with satisfaction. Catholics didn’t give their God juicy hunks of meat. She looked right at Maria, searching for the slightest hint of jealousy in her eyes.
“What was that?” Maria asked, cool as a cucumber.
“An offering to Nico,” Hazel said. “Where I’m from, I’m the Pontifex Maximus,” she added, pointing at herself proudly.
Marco snorted, then the band members burst into laughter. Even Maria giggled.
Annabeth beckoned for Hazel to sit back down, which she did.
“Hazel, that’s the same title as the pope,” Annabeth said. “Think how that sounds to them.”
“I don’t care how it sounds to them!” Hazel said. “It’s my title too! It was ours first!”
Annabeth sighed, staring at her plate. Frank reached over and rubbed Hazel’s back, but it didn’t make her feel better.
“Sorry,” Maria said, clearing her throat. “We’re not laughing at you. Translation problem, maybe?”
“Translation problem, my ass,” Hazel muttered under her breath. The Catholics thought they were better than the pagans, clearly.
“What the hell did you do to that veal?” Will asked her. “And who’s Maximus? The guy from Gladiator?”
“Veal?” Frank asked, poking his slice with a fork. “What is that? I thought it was just weird chicken.”
“Veal is calf meat,” Will said.
“I’m eating a baby?” Percy said, dropping his fork and taking a frantic sip of water.
“Y’all wouldn’t last a day on my ranch,” Will said. “And you didn’t answer my questions, Hazel.”
“Yes, we are also confused,” Maria said eagerly. “Please share with us!”
Annabeth rubbed her temples. Her headache had gone nowhere, but she took the burden of explaining on her own multilingual shoulders, repeating herself in both English and Italian so that everyone could be on the same page.
“We’re old fashioned pagans,” Annabeth said. “And I mean really old fashioned. Back home, Hazel holds the title of Pontifex Maximus. We worship Jupiter. Among others.”
She explained the basic concept of the burnt offering and what Hazel’s responsibilities were, trying to gloss over the fact that they knew the gods personally and were related to them.
“We can’t get into details,” Annabeth said awkwardly. “This isn’t something we normally share with outsiders. I think the circumstances made it necessary, though.”
“Jupiter?” Will blurted out in alarm. “You’ve gotta be kidding me. When were you planning on mentioning that you’re all in a pagan cult together? Wait, is that why Nico kept buying aesthetically pleasing cows from me? For animal sacrifice?”
“Animal sacrifice?” Maria said, her eyes widening. She was struggling to follow Will’s rapid fire English, especially since his surprise brought his Texan accent out in full force, but she’d caught that bit.
“Kinda judgmental for people that eat baby cows,” Percy muttered. “I’ve never sacrificed a live animal. Not by choice, anyway.” He frowned as though he was remembering something he’d rather forget.
“We’re not in a cult,” Hazel said firmly, standing up from her seat. “All of you are the cultists, and we’re the normal ones! Our people have worshipped the old gods since before the Roman empire fell. We’re preservers of ancient tradition going back thousands of years. You guys are the ones in a cannibalistic death cult that glorifies torture!”
“At least Jesus was a good person,” Will fired back. “Wasn’t Jupiter, like, a serial rapist?”
The four demigods stared blankly, nobody willing to jump on that conversational grenade. Even Hazel, who’d gotten her feathers ruffled, bit her tongue.
Will’s words faded into an awkward silence.
“Ahem,” Maria Bova coughed.
Everyone turned to look at her. Hazel braced herself. Her sharp tongue was about to get them kicked out of the apartment and uninvited to the concert. She could practically see herself arguing with the bouncer outside, claiming her brother was in there and she just needed to talk to him.
“Thank you for trust us with the truth,” Maria said, her imperfect English merely emphasizing her adorableness. “We respect your faith.”
Hazel knew a mic drop when she heard it.
She thought about the nasty stuff she’d said and thought about Catholics since arriving at the apartment and cringed inwardly. Nico would have been so ashamed of her.
It wasn’t that Hazel thought she was wrong; in fact, she could have gone on a rant for an hour and never covered everything wrong with Catholicism and Christianity in general. She’d been down a few Google rabbit holes researching it in order to bolster her decision not to follow Nico into his new faith. But Maria wasn’t trying to defend Catholicism. She was just trying to be nice.
Frank was right. Hazel was being a shit.
They sat in awkward silence for a while, eating and avoiding eye contact.
“Sorry if my comment about Jupiter offended you guys,” Will said quietly.
“Not at all, dude,” Percy was quick to say. “Sometimes I think he exists to be an example of what not to do.”
“Religion is weird,” Will said. “I used to be a Fundamentalist. I did it all– AWANAs, Young Life, telling people that I’ll be praying for them, but like, passive aggressively. I memorized a ton of Bible verses for a competition once. Including the one where it says you’re not allowed to be gay.”
“Yikes,” Frank winced.
“Can you translate what I’m about to say?” Will asked Annabeth. “I want them to know the whole story. I didn’t feel comfortable talking about it on Discord, but I do now.”
Annabeth nodded, and Will forged ahead, the four band members giving him their full attention. He’d told Percy and Annabeth about his background with Nico, and Hazel had heard it secondhand, but she was curious about whether he’d told everything. It seemed like he struggled to talk about it, even though over a year had passed since he’d seen him.
“I realized I was gay when I was fifteen,” Will said. “I didn’t come out to my parents until I started college. It didn’t go the way I’d hoped. My parents thought I was going to Hell. They threatened to stop paying my tuition if I didn’t go to a conversion camp. That’s a place where they take gay people and psychologically torture them–”
“We have them too,” Leonardo interrupted quietly.
“I didn’t realize they were a worldwide phenomenon,” Will said. “That sucks. Anyways, I refused to go and my parents disowned me and cut me off.”
“You should be proud. You were brave enough to be true to yourself,” Marco said. “I’m bi, but I’ve always kept it from my parents. I tell myself they wouldn’t understand, but maybe I’m just a coward.”
Maria took Marco’s hand and squeezed it reassuringly, and Marco looked at her with pure adoration in his pretty dark eyes. If Hazel squinted, he looked a little bit like her brother. This whole thing was so weird, she thought, resting her chin on her hand thoughtfully.
“I moved in with my grandpa. That’s when I met Nico,” Will said. “I’d never dated a guy before. It felt like being gay on the inside was bad enough. I was scared that my life would get harder if anyone found out I was dating a man. I probably didn’t question it enough, but Nico was really good at sneaking around and keeping things secret. It was almost like he could turn invisible.”
“He can,” Hazel said, her voice joining literally everyone else’s at the table.
“Wow. Great,” Will said, visibly irritated. “I love being the last to know. Let me guess, he can fly, too?”
“He can,” Maria repeated.
“Jesus,” Will winced. “I’m gonna pretend I didn’t hear that, for my sanity’s sake. I don’t have a lot to spare. I’m gonna finish my story, although this is the worst part to talk about.” He took a deep breath, steeling himself.
“My grandpa died. Nico came to the funeral. I was driving home afterward with him and my best friend Kayla.” He spoke gruffly, moving through the story fast to get it over with. “I hit a cow and flipped my truck. I broke both my legs, and of course, Nico was fine,” he added resentfully. “But Kayla didn’t make it.”
“I’m so sorry,” Maria said, her eyes welling up in empathy.
Will shrugged dismissively, not looking for pity. His vaguely anxious demeanor had been replaced with a cold darkness, grief draining the life from his form.
“I blamed Nico for not saving us,” he said. “I dumped him. I don’t regret it. I had no idea who the fuck he was. I still don’t. We had no business being together in the first place.” His words and his voice didn’t match up. He sounded like he was trying to convince himself. “But right after he left, my parents came to the hospital room and apologized.”
“Plot twist!” Percy said. “Did you accept their apology?”
“They’re my parents,” Will said, smiling in spite of himself. “Of course I did. Now they’re almost too supportive. They’re coming to New York in June so we can go to a Pride parade together. I don’t even like parades. It was their idea.”
“What changed their minds?” Maria asked.
“They never gave me any details,” Will said, twisting his napkin nervously. “They just called it a divine revelation.”
A broad smile spread across Maria’s face. She knew exactly who was responsible.
So did Hazel, but she didn’t see anything to smile about. Will was Christian, his parents were Christians, and Nico had been messing around with this Christian stuff back when he was supposed to be a pagan god. It just confirmed what she already knew; Nico had kept secrets from their family for a long time. It was no wonder his relationship with Hades had fallen apart. It had been built on a foundation of sand.
She wished she’d asked more questions when he’d come to see her. She had been too focused on her own hurt feelings to think about anything else. She’d looked at Nico and seen a stranger, but the Nico she’d known before hadn’t been the real Nico, either. Who was he? What did he believe? How did he see himself when he wasn’t trying to fit someone else’s mold? If he told her the truth, could she even handle it? It was hard to contemplate sharing him with the four strangers at this dinner table. If he became an official saint, she’d have to share him with billions of people around the world.
“What’s your relationship with God like now?” Maria asked, leaning across the table and giving Will her undivided attention, which felt slightly like being penetrated by high-intensity UV rays in a tanning bed.
“God? Uh, it’s complicated,” Will said. “Med school keeps me so busy that I can barely think most of the time. It’s kind of nice.”
“But you still believe?” Maria asked.
“I don’t know,” Will said, draining his wine glass nervously. “I don’t want to talk about it anymore. Somebody else trauma dump so I’m not the only one, please.”
“Can someone else translate?” Annabeth asked weakly, sipping her water. “My voice is–”
“My sister slipped in the shower and cracked her head open,” Marco said in rapid Italian, forcing Annabeth to keep translating. “Nico was there, and then he took her soul out of her body, and then he showed me her ghost and I got to speak to her again.”
“What!?” Will asked, his eyes going wide as saucers.
“It’s true,” Caio said. “We were all there. Although I still think it was a hologram.”
“That was no hologram,” Leonardo said. “It was a divine revelation, just like your parents had. It changed my life. I was able to stop taking my mood stabilizers! I don’t need them anymore!”
“That explains a lot,” Caio muttered.
“Leo, dear, I think maybe you do still need them,” Maria said, her voice tinged with motherly concern. “But it is true that we’ve all been deeply impacted by what Nico has shown us. It means so much to be able to share these experiences with others that understand.”
“I guess I’m glad I’m not the only one who’s encountered him,” Will said. “That makes it statistically less likely that I’m schizophrenic. Not impossible, though.”
“Can we back up for a second? Because y’all had better be kidding me,” Hazel said, bracing her hands on the tabletop and staring at the four band members. “Nico let you four talk to a ghost? Why would he do that?”
“It was a miracle,” Maria said, grinning brilliantly.
“It was necromancy,” Hazel corrected. “Nico isn’t the only one who can summon the dead. He’s just the best at it, but I can do it too.”
“You can do necromancy?!” Will said, going white as a sheet.
“Oh, so miracles are fine by you, but necromancy is where you draw the line?” Hazel asked. “Want me to prove it? I can summon your friend Kayla to this dinner table right now. His sister, too, just tell me their full names.”
Will looked ill and hesitated to speak, but Maria didn’t stutter.
“Terezia Taviani,” she said boldly. “And go ahead and find my mother, too. Rosa Bova.”
Marco propped his elbow on the table and rested his head in his hand, seeming open to the idea of seeing his sister again. Caio put his head down and started muttering, ‘It’s just a hologram’ over and over.
“Hazel, don’t do it,” Percy said, “Summoning people’s dead relatives to prove a point is just… I don’t know.”
“Bad table manners?” Frank suggested.
“Yeah, extremely,” Percy said.
Hazel ignored him, searching the Underworld roster in her head. She was weighing whether she would need to sacrifice an animal to get the ghosts to show, or whether leftover pasta would do the trick. She even began to chant in Latin under her breath, shutting her eyes so that she could concentrate.
Then she stopped. The two souls she was looking for weren’t in the Underworld. She felt a jolt of absence in her gut, like she’d walked down a flight of stairs and missed a step.
She opened her eyes.
“I don’t think–”
“Having trouble?” Will said, furrowing his brow angrily. “Kayla Rodriguez. Go ahead, call her up, too.”
Hazel shook her head.
“I, uh, can’t,” she said, feeling humiliated. “Never mind what I said.”
“I need some air,” Will said coldly.
He got out of his chair and stormed out of the apartment.
Maria stood up and began collecting everyone’s dishes. The moment she stood, the three guys from the band also got to their feet and began helping. She had her boys well trained.
“When Will and I first spoke on Discord, he told me that he thought Nico was a vampire,” Maria said, smiling as she took Hazel’s plate.
Hazel wanted to crawl in a hole and die for the second time. She’d called herself a necromancer, but she hadn’t been able to mance a single necro. Now Maria was brushing the matter off like it was nothing, like she’d thought it was just a joke. And maybe Hazel was a joke to her. Maybe she saw her own God as so superior that pagan party tricks merely amused her.
“I can see how he came up with vampire,” Percy responded. “Nico’s definitely kinda creepy. And pale. And old. You okay, Annabeth? That was a lot of translating.”
“No more talking,” Annabeth mumbled, chugging her glass of water.
“Alright, no more talking,” Percy grinned. “I had no clue your Italian was so good. I could have sworn you told me you didn’t speak it. You’re such a Renaissance woman! I love that about you,” he said, kissing her on the cheek. Annabeth’s eyes widened slightly with stress.
“Coffee? Limoncello?” Maria asked, loading up a Moka pot with ground coffee.
“We can’t impose on your hospitality any longer,” Annabeth croaked out frantically. “We should get out of your way.”
“Of course, you’re tired,” Maria said, putting the coffee back and rounding up her bandmates. “We’ll go and let you all sleep.”
The three guys in the band said their goodbyes and headed out, but Maria hung back in order to give longer, more thorough hugs to each of her guests
“Call me if Will does not come back,” she said. “This neighborhood at night is not the best.”
“Crap,” Frank said. “Maybe we should go after him?”
“Your decision,” Maria said. “Let me know and I call my boys to save him.”
“I think we can handle it,” Hazel muttered. The last thing four super-powered demigods needed was a bunch of musicians trying to play tough guy.
Maria turned her gaze to Hazel.
“I respect you,” Maria said. “Your title. Your faith. Truly.”
Hazel’s spiky hedgehog-like emotional walls began to soften slightly.
“Well, thanks,” she admitted. ”I guess I respect you, too.”
She wasn’t sure if she meant it, but she had to say it. If for nothing else, she respected Maria’s ability to make tall, leather clad men do her bidding. Hazel could definitely get behind that concept. She was already planning on buying Frank a cool new Italian leather jacket while they were there.
Maria hugged her again, pressing their faces close together.
“He almost went back to you, you know,” Maria said. “He couldn’t bear to hurt you any longer.”
Shock swept Hazel’s defenses away like a wave wiping out a sandcastle.
“Really?” She asked, moved nearly to tears.
“Mhmm,” Maria said. Her dark eyes sparkled. “But I convinced him to stay.”
Frank nearly had to hold her back, because Hazel was about to throw hands. Fortunately, Maria had the good sense to leave before things got ugly.
In a way, it was nice to know that Maria had a catty, competitive side to her. Her beatific demeanor was hard to find fault with, but Maria had lost her perfect halo now. If she wanted to play dirty, Hazel would roll around in the mud right along with her.
One way or another, she was getting her brother back.
She had gotten a shower and was in bed in her pajamas when the front door swung loudly on its hinges, opening and then shutting with a slam. Hazel leapt out of bed and rushed to the living room to see what had happened, followed by the other three demigods. Will had crumpled on the couch, his face a red and swollen mess of tears.
“I saw him,” Will said frantically, his eyes wide like he’d seen a ghost after all. In truth, he’d seen something much scarier– his ex.
“He’s here, just like they said. I can’t believe this is happening. I think I’m having a panic attack,” Will said, putting his head in his hands.
Percy sat down beside him and began talking about the weather until Will could regain his composure.
Annabeth hovered nearby, clutching her robe around her body tightly. She never took her eyes off Percy, watching as he cracked goofy jokes trying to get Will to smile. Hazel wondered how many times Percy had done this for Annabeth and brought her back to reality when she felt like the world was spiraling out of control.
After a few minutes of hyperventilating, Will calmed down and explained what had happened.
“I just started walking in a random direction and got lost. Somehow I ended up at the Trevi fountain. It was really crowded, but I figured I’d go make a wish since I was there anyway. I know it’s stupid, but… When I threw my coin in, I wished I could see him,” Will said. “When I turned around he was standing right behind me.”
“Seriously?” Frank said. “All it took was a wish? Is it a magic fountain?”
“It’s got a giant Poseidon statue,” Percy shrugged. “So why not?”
“Actually, it’s Oceanus,” Annabeth corrected. “I have a few theories about why the wish worked, but what matters now is that it did. What happened, Will?”
“Nothing,” he said weakly, avoiding their eyes. “I ran away.”
“Are you freaking kidding me?” Hazel said, puffing up like an angry kitten. “You should have told him I was here! I just flew seven hours to see him!”
“You wanna see him so fucking bad, go throw your own goddamn coin in the magic fountain!” Will exploded.
“Maybe I will!” Hazel snapped.
But she didn’t really want to. Deep down, she was afraid she’d have the same reaction Will had. How did you even begin to start talking about pantheons and religions when you had no idea what any of it was? From the moment she’d heard the word saint, she’d been completely out of her depth. She couldn’t imagine how Will felt.
Will pulled his feet up on the couch, pressing his head against his knees.
“I’m sorry,” Percy said kindly. “I know this is heavy. But guys, we’re all jet lagged. How about we hit the hay and see if things look better in the morning?”
“And you call me the wise girl,” Annabeth said, kissing Percy on the cheek. “Go to sleep, seaweed brain. I might go for a walk. I’m not tired yet.”
Percy went into the back bedroom and began re-inflating the air mattress he and Annabeth would share. Hazel, already in her jammies, was more than happy to crash for the night, and she followed Frank into Maria’s bedroom with the intention of being unconscious for at least ten hours.
Unfortunately, the Fates had other plans.
“Hazel? A quick word?” Annabeth whispered.
Hazel reluctantly sent Frank to bed without her, joining Annabeth in the kitchen. Will was on the couch cocooned in a blanket with a pillow over his head, and he didn’t seem to be listening to them.
“Maria slipped me a note when she hugged me goodbye,” Annabeth said, showing Hazel a piece of paper. It read ‘Serata tra donne’ with an address beside it.
“It means ‘Ladies Night’,” Annabeth said. “I looked up the address. It’s a bar down the street. They don’t allow men on Thursdays. I think she wants to meet us.”
Hazel let out an extremely long sigh.
“I already put my pajamas on!”
“Just put a coat on and come check it out with me,” Annabeth said. “It isn’t far. We can just say hi and leave.”
“No,” Hazel whined, so frustrated and exhausted that she was near tears. “I’m tired of hanging out with Maria pretending to be besties.”
“I strongly suspect that Maria is controlling our access to Nico right now,” Annabeth said. “I don’t think you’re going to leave this trip happy unless you can get her on your side.”
Hazel hated that she was right. She pulled her coat on and prepared to go back out into the nippy February evening.
“One drink,” she muttered. “Then I’m done.”
“You’re not old enough to drink,” Annabeth said disapprovingly.
“I helped save the world,” Hazel said. “That should earn me a pass!”
Annabeth chuckled.
“Yeah, I guess it should,” she admitted wryly.
She and Annabeth walked down the dark streets of Termini until they reached a bar. The place was barely noticeable, marked by a neon cluster of grapes in the window.
There were two young girls posted by the front doors, standing like very small bouncers with their arms folded. Neither looked old enough to drink. They made no objection to Annabeth and Hazel going inside.
“Those braids looked familiar,” Annabeth said, a smile twitching at the corner of her mouth. “You don’t think–”
Inside, the bar was awash in purple light, a disco ball twinkling above a packed dance floor. Half-dressed wild women were whipping their hair back and forth and twerking alongside girls who looked like they were in middle school. The rampant toplessness and crazy dance moves made it seem like a vaguely queer coded bachelorette party, or at least what Hazel imagined what that might be like. But that didn’t explain the underage girls unless they were a lot older than they looked.
Hazel caught sight of one young woman who looked familiar. One of the topless women was attempting to teach her the wobble, and the dark haired girl was wobbling painfully awkwardly on the dance floor.
“Reyna?” Hazel blurted out.
Reyna turned around and grinned.
“You finally made it,” she said, hurrying over to greet them. Reyna looked taller, more muscled, and generally healthier and happier than she had been back at Camp Jupiter. After Jason’s death, she’d made little effort to go back to normal. It was clear that, for her, there was no New Rome without her best friend by her side. It was good to see she’d found a new purpose.
“Get me off this dance floor,” Reyna whispered under her breath, leading Hazel and Annabeth over to the bar’s seating area. “I’m immortal now, but these maenads are trying to dance me to death anyways.”
“Maenads?” Annabeth said. “Is this one of Mr. D’s bars?”
“It’s Ariadne’s,” Reyna said, sitting on a bar stool. “She’s in the back room.”
They joined her at the bar, each ordering a cocktail for themselves from the maenad tending bar. Hazel wasn’t of legal age to drink liquor, even in Italy, but no one asked for an ID.
“Is she talking to Artemis? Is Thalia here?” Annabeth asked, tasting the drink that was set in front of her. Hazel noted that she’d ordered a Sex on the Beach again, but refrained from making the same joke that Nico had the last time they’d been at a bar together.
“Thalia’s out picking up our pizza order. You didn’t see Artemis on the dance floor?” Reyna asked. She pointed out a young dark haired girl who was bathed in the radiant glow of moonlight while she shimmied to ‘Shake It Off’.
“Jason used to love that song,” Reyna sighed wistfully.
‘How’s life?” Annabeth asked gently.
“It’s going okay,” Reyna said, smiling grimly. “I was used to being the oldest back at Camp Jupiter, so that much is familiar. It’s funny how little life experience some of the huntresses have in the real world. They’re really good at hunting monsters, but we went to a restaurant the other day and three of them had mental breakdowns when I tried to explain QR code menus.”
“I can relate,” Hazel said, sipping her drink. “What was wrong with paper?”
“The hunts are great. As a demigod, you’re used to being prey for monsters. It feels good to become the predator,” Reyna smirked. “But I still have a lot to learn.”
“You have forever,” Annabeth reminded her.
“Forever until I get killed by something,” Reyna corrected her. “Someday I’ll end up in the Underworld with Jason. But until then, I’m gonna have a few more adventures. Hopefully enough to merit the Isles. We’ll see.”
Hazel finished her drink while Annabeth and Reyna continued chatting, feeling the warm buzz of alcohol begin to dull her senses.
“Alright,” she said, seeing that Annabeth was ordering another drink. She slapped her thighs and stood up. “Imma head out.”
“Thalia didn’t get back with the pizzas yet!” Annabeth protested.
“Thalia is your friend, not mine,” Hazel said, resting a hand on her hip. “I told you one drink. Now I want to go to sleep. I’m in my damn jammies!”
The door to the back room opened.
“Oh, you’ve gotta be kidding me,” Hazel muttered for what felt like the millionth time that night.
Maria walked out of the door to the back room linked arm in arm with a woman in a purple dress with grape leaves in her hair. It was obvious who the grape lady was, but less obvious why she and Maria knew each other.
“You came!” Maria said happily. She moved to hug Hazel again, but Hazel pushed her away, emboldened by the heady mix of alcohol, pop music and purple strobe lights.
“What’s going on here?” Hazel asked aggressively. “How do you know these people?” They’re our people, she would have said, if they weren’t such total weirdos that she didn’t necessarily want to be associated with. Maenads were scary.
“I’ve known Maria for ages,” Ariadne said, putting her arm around Maria’s shoulders. It was Hazel’s first time meeting her, and Ariadne was gorgeous– way too hot to be a good match for the version of Dionysus she was familiar with. “I took Maria under my wing when she first moved to Rome. Do you have a problem with that, little missy?” Ariadne raised an eyebrow.
Hazel felt the eyes of an irritated goddess boring holes in her skin. She cringed. Forget Pontifex Maximus, she was feeling more like a Pontifex Minimus. She should have known better than to be so disrespectful to a goddess.
“Hazel is just surprised,” Annabeth explained. “We didn’t expect Maria to hang out in a place like this.”
“In what, a supernatural bar full of demons? Why not? She looooves demons, can’t get enough of us,” Ariadne teased, pinching Maria’s cheek. “Isn’t that right, Maria?”
Maria flushed bright red, which Hazel thought was a strange reaction.
“Demons?” Annbeth said, frowning.
“Good little Catholics like Maria are well aware that the pagan gods are real,” Ariadne explained. “They just see us as demons and refuse to worship us. Although I’d love it if she’d change her mind! I’d give anything for a taste of that deep devotion you give your darling Nico,” she whined.
Again, Maria looked embarrassed. Hazel realized that Ariadne was teasing her about having a crush on Nico. So it was that obvious to everyone, so obvious that they were joking about it? Maybe Hazel could do something with that information.
“If you convert, I will think about it, Ari,” Maria said quietly, still looking a bit embarrassed. “You can be saved like Nico if you try.”
Ariadne rolled her eyes. She didn’t appear to be teetering on the edge of conversion, which was a small comfort. Hazel looked at Maria with completely new eyes, and she liked her even less than before. This woman knew too much.
“I’m not the type,” Ariadne shrugged. “Besides, I Googled it. There’s already a Saint Ariadne, and I don’t share. Now, if she were to meet with an accident, maybe we could talk!”
Maria frowned and shook her head in silent disapproval.
Hazel relaxed. For once, she actually appreciated the Greek gods’ reckless disdain for the well-being of others. If not safe, at least it was familiar, unlike Maria’s creepy holier-than-thou schtick.
“No, the saintly life is just not for me,” Ariadne sighed. “I can’t imagine being abstinent for the rest of eternity. I mean, I can imagine, since my husband has been away for so long, but at least we have sexting. Saints don’t even get that! Imagine!”
“Huh. I didn’t know that,” Annabeth said, looking at Hazel. “Interesting.”
Hazel’s mind was racing a mile a minute. Nico had never mentioned that little nugget of info . Compared to the other gods, Nico wasn’t exactly the horniest toad in the swamp, but that didn’t mean complete abstinence was a walk in the park for him. Her brother had been a serial monogamist the entire time she’d known him, and he’d had two boyfriends at the same time on two separate occasions. She suspected that he was struggling with the celibacy requirement.
She also suspected that he was in deeply requited love with Maria Bova. In fact, Hazel was growing certain of that fact. Elation soared in her chest, though she tried to play it cool on the outside. This was a way in, a crack in the Catholic armor that could be exploited. If there was one thing Nico was good at, it was loving people. He’d never shied away from love, even when it was hard and messy and caused problems for other people around him and a bunch of people told him not to do it. Knowing him as well as she did, Hazel wondered if she even needed to do anything. Maybe it was inevitable that Nico would give in to his feelings and break whatever vows he’d made. But just in case, she didn’t mind giving him a little nudge.
“Do you and Marco sext?” Ariadne asked Maria suddenly.
Maria blushed a deeper red and stammered an inaudible reply.
“Oh, come on, you’ve gotta have a little fun!” Ariadne said. “Though I don’t blame you for saving yourself until marriage– I wish I had. Ladies, a little advice for you? If a man ever pulls up to the island of Naxos and tells you to get out and check his hull for barnacles, take a bottle of water and some snacks, because he’s leaving your ass there.”
None of them seemed to know how to respond to Ariadne’s advice, so they just stared at her.
“When’s the wedding, Maria?” Annabeth asked, changing the subject.
“We are not sure yet,” Maria said, looking troubled. “We’re making the tour schedule now. We prefer to get married before we leave, but that is very soon.”
“Elope tomorrow! Why not?” Ariadne said. “Mortal lives are short. Just a blink and it’s all over. Make love while the sun shines!”
Maria shook her head, but she didn’t elaborate on why she was hesitating to get married. Hazel felt her suspicions grow even more justified. Maria seemed like the type of person to dive into things headfirst so long as she had faith behind the decision. If she was waiting on a sign, it might be a sign from a particular individual. Maybe she wanted to shoot her shot with Nico before she was tied down to a mortal man for good?
“Pizza’s here!” Thalia said, opening the door and carrying in a huge stack of pizza boxes.
“I should go,” Maria said, shouting to be heard over the screams of the maenads, who were tearing the pizza boxes apart and slapping each other with hot, cheesy slices, flinging sauce everywhere.
“Night, sweetie!” Ariadne said, waving as Maria departed. Hazel was relieved that the Greco-Romans finally had the bar to themselves. “Well,” Ariadne said, raising her flawless eyebrows and tossing her hair. “Now we can have a real chat.”
“A real chat?” Annabeth asked. “It didn’t seem like you were holding anything back for Maria’s sake. Am I misunderstanding something, or are we forbidden to share all our secrets with humans?”
“Something’s changing,” Ariadne said, beginning to walk back toward her office. “I don’t know how yet. It’s bizarre, but in a good way.”
“Is it good, though?” Hazel asked skeptically.
“When it comes to Catholics, we’ve always either hated each other or pretended the other doesn’t exist,” Ariadne said. “To be on polite terms is something we never considered, but it’s happening, thanks to Nico.”
“Fascinating,” Annabeth murmured, frantically typing theories into the notes app on her phone. Hazel sighed. That sounded nice and all, but if Nico was going to play diplomat, she really wished he’d do it from her side of the fence.
Ariadne ushered Annabeth and Hazel into her office and sat down behind her desk. Annabeth and Hazel sat in chairs across from her, feeling like they were in an interview. Before they could ask why they’d been called in, the door opened, and Thalia and Artemis came in.
Hazel greeted Artemis politely, trying to retain some of the good manners expected of her in her job at Camp Jupiter. Annabeth had other priorities.
“Hold on a second,” Thalia laughed as Annabeth immediately went to hug her. “I got pizza grease on me.”
“I don’t care,” Annabeth said, squeezing her old friend tightly. “Every time I see you, you get shorter!”
“Just wait until you’re a goddess,” Thalia said, hugging her back. “I am so proud of you, by the way,” she added, pulling back.
“I’m not proud of you, since I hardly know you,” Artemis interrupted, her girlish voice and small stature at odds with the dominance in her tone. “But I congratulate you on your ascension all the same. Perhaps you will accompany us on a hunt so that I can test for myself whether you are worthy.”
“Oh!” Annabeth said. Put on the spot, she stumbled awkwardly over her words. “Yeah, that’s– I mean, sure, okay. Thank you.”
Artemis nodded, a single short bob of the head, her gaze piercing. Hazel didn’t envy Annabeth’s situation. She was going to be sized up and judged on a whole ‘nother level now that she’d been selected for divinity. Luckily, if anyone could handle it, it was Annabeth. She really did deserve the honor she’d been given.
Nico, on the other hand… Hazel was pretty sure there had been absolutely zero vetting process when he’d been deified. He’d just been in the right place at the right time. That explained a lot about their current situation.
“Alright, mortals,” Ariadne said, clapping her hands together. “Skedaddle. The goddesses are talking now.”
The world blurred. When Hazel’s vision cleared, she found herself standing on the other side of the door to Ariadne’s office. Thalia was beside her, looking slightly less stunned.
“Goddesses, man. What can you do?” Thalia shrugged, smiling. “I’m really excited for Annabeth to become one of them. She’s going to do great things on Olympus.”
“Percy is proposing tomorrow morning,” Hazel blurted out.
Thalia blinked a couple of times.
“Wow. I’m so out of the loop now, for a second I was thinking they were way too young . I keep forgetting they’re in their twenties. Time goes by so fast nowadays. Are you sure he’s doing it tomorrow? I would have thought he’d want to ask her at Camp Half Blood, somewhere they had history.”
“He’s doing it at the Pantheon, for the architecture or something. I’m throwing rose petals,” Hazel said, slightly distracted by goings-on on the dance floor nearby. The maenads had started grinding on each other in a grind train, which made Hazel think that, although she didn’t want to find Jesus, some people probably ought to.
“The Pantheon? Tell him to re-think that, would you? Maybe try the Coliseum.” Thalia said worriedly. “I was just at the Pantheon the other day, and you wouldn’t believe what happened–”
“I’m more concerned that she’s gonna say no,” Hazel said.
Thalia shook her head, smiling.
“She loves that idiot. She’ll say yes.”
“How can you be sure?”
“I know my Annabeth,” Thalia said, her bright blue eyes flashing with humor. “And besides, didn’t you notice? She got her nails done.”
Hazel walked back to Maria’s apartment alone, yawning the whole way. She slipped into bed beside Frank and dozed off immediately. It felt like five minutes had passed before Frank was shaking her awake.
“Psst,” he whispered. “We have to go buy the rose petals. Percy and Annabeth are getting ready to leave.”
Hazel dragged herself out of bed blearily, jet lag still hounding her steps. The pre-dawn hours in Rome were already noisy as trucks drove around delivering baked goods to the various cafes that would supply the city with pastries to power their mornings. Also the cats had kept her up all night.
She dragged herself out of bed and shook Frank awake, and the two of them quietly got ready and traveled to a flower market called the Campo de Fiori. The square hadn’t quite come alive yet, but they managed to find a stall that was willing to sell them something as they were setting up their flower stall for the day. Frank bought a bag of rose petals, along with a single bright red rose that he tucked into her hair.
“You’re alive,” he reminded her, winking.
Hazel’s heart melted. She’d told him once about how much she’d missed flowers in the Underworld, and he’d never forgotten. She kissed him on the cheek, appreciating the reality check. Obsessing over Nico and his weird situation with Maria was distracting her from the fact that she and her boyfriend were in one of the most beautiful cities in the world. Two of their dear friends were getting engaged that morning, and none of them were being chased around by monsters. It was almost too good to be true, but she’d barely been able to appreciate it. It was easy to focus on the negative, the complications, all the skeletons everyone carried around in their personal closets. But they were safe, they were alive, and they were with the people they loved.
Hazel and Frank shadow-traveled hand in hand to the Pantheon, smiles on both of their faces. From a distance, they watched as Percy and Annabeth stood outside. Annabeth was snapping photos of the pediment and the columned facade, her face alight with architectural inspiration. Percy was watching her, the look on his face one of pure love and adoration.
Frank squeezed Hazel’s hand. It was impossible not to feel Percy’s anxiety, his excitement, and his hope for the future in that special moment.
Percy and Annabeth started to walk inside. Hazel looked up at the roof and wondered whether she should head up there now, or if Percy would wait until Annabeth had taken some more photos to pop the question.
Before Percy and Annabeth had made it two feet inside the doorway, a bright red light started flashing. A siren began alarming with a loud ‘WEE WOO’ noise, and a shining golden grate slammed down both behind them and in front.
“Wow,” Frank said. “The metal detectors in Rome are kind of over the top.”
As Hazel got closer she saw that other mortal tourists were walking in with no problem, oblivious to the weird, fancy cage that their friends were stuck in.
“I don’t think that’s a metal detector,” she said worriedly, hurrying over to the doorway without getting too close.
“Halt!” A loud, booming voice said. “You dare trespass in the house of the Lord?” It sounded like someone trying to replicate what the voice of an angry god would sound like, only they weren’t committing to the bit. In fact, he just sounded irritated. “Foul demons, begone!”
The outside grate of the cage began to roll up, revealing the exit for Percy and Annabeth. Hazel breathed a huge sigh of relief. That could have gone worse.
Before the grate rolled up past their knees, however, it stuck.
“Hold on,” the voice murmured, the volume lowering to a normal level. “Percy? Annabeth?”
Hazel ran to the outside part of the grate and peered through the fine golden mesh. On the other side, in the Pantheon’s interior, stood Nico. He was wearing the same annoyingly fashionable black suit as she remembered, and had his hair pulled back from his face, which she hated. Also he had a halo.
He looked just as surprised to see Percy and Annabeth as they were to see him.
“Hi?” Percy said awkwardly.
“Can we go inside?” Annabeth asked, more concerned with the architecture than any other aspect of the situation. She was looking through the bars at the ceiling, analyzing the angles of the dome.
“No,” Nico said, stomping his foot for emphasis. “No pagan demons allowed.”
“Pagan demons? Is that us?”
“Just Annabeth,” Nico clarified. “You can go in, Percy.”
Percy turned to look at his girlfriend, hopefully soon-to-be fiancee, in confusion.
“By pagan demon, in this context, he means a goddess,” Annabeth said awkwardly. “I’ve been meaning to tell you. Today, actually. I was chosen…”
Percy’s expression froze for a minute. Then whatever was going through his mind solidified into a single thought.
“I figured,” he shrugged, grinning. “Nico, can we go inside? I need to propose to this pagan demon.”
Nico’s jaw dropped.
“I– Uh– Well, no,” Nico said awkwardly. “No exceptions!”
“I’m not a goddess yet,” Annabeth insisted. “And I won’t be for a very long time. I think your scanner is malfunctioning.”
Nico looked troubled. Hazel watched him carefully, signaling for Frank not to make a sound. She didn’t reveal her presence. She wanted to see what Nico chose when it came down to it– the rules, or the right thing.
The grate began to rise– on the inside. Percy and Annabeth walked into the Pantheon.
“Make it quick,” Nico said quietly, disappearing.
Hazel and Frank quickly traveled to the roof. They leaned over the top of the oculus and looked down at their friends, who took positions in the middle of the room. They were both grinning so hard their faces looked like they were about to fall off.
“Annabeth,” Percy said shakily, getting down on one knee. “We’ve been through more crazy situations together than most couples go through in a hundred lifetimes. We’ve fought wars side by side. We’ve made new friends and we’ve lost people. You’re already the love of my life, my partner, my best friend. I guess I’m just asking if you’d want to be one more thing. Kind of a big thing, though.”
He brought out the ring, his hands shaking with nerves.
Annabeth swallowed.
“There’s something you should know,” she said quietly. A tear rolled down her face. She didn’t wipe it away.
Percy shook his head, but she got down to one knee in front of him, too, reaching out to him.
“I need to tell you–” She started. Percy cut her off.
“I don’t want to know,” he said. “Will you just answer my question? Please?”
Annabeth didn’t hesitate. She threw her arms around him.
“Yes, seaweed brain,” she said tearfully. “Of course I will.”
Hazel and Frank dumped their petals, and Percy and Annabeth kissed beneath a rainfall of roses in Annabeth’s favorite building in the world.
The proposal hadn’t gone perfectly, but it didn’t need to be perfect to be good.
“Hey,” Nico said, appearing behind Hazel. She turned to look at him. He was beautiful in the early morning light, pretty close to perfect. If she squinted, she could see the godly brother she wanted him to be.
“You let them in,” she said. You passed the test, she thought. Maybe he wasn’t as much of an extremist as she’d feared. Maybe they could find common ground again.
Frank backed away to give them space, and she fell into Nico’s arms in a hug.
“I missed you,” she said.
“I missed you, too,” he said. “Thanks for giving me a chance.”
She thought of the day she’d reached out her hand and he’d taken it. She wasn’t ready to let go yet. Not without a fight.
Notes:
Happy Easter to my readers who celebrate and condolences to those who are sad about the Pope passing away. I have just wrapped up a vacation in Guatemala during Holy Week watching the processions in Antigua. They have a unique form of religious syncretism there which, as you can tell from this fic, I am very interested in! I didn't get to visit Maximon/San Simon in Santiago Atitlan, but he is a folk saint/syncretic deity you might find interesting to read about. He smokes cigars which is neat. :)
Chapter 106: Una Selva Oscura
Notes:
A very light trigger warning for suicide in this chapter. It's highly medicalized physician-assisted suicide and not graphic.
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
“Hot singles in your area want to connect,” Nico read aloud from his email, frowning. “Yeah, right. Not today, Satan!”
He hit the little trash can icon in the corner of the screen, sending the devil’s temptations right where they belonged.
Nico was on fire. Not literally, of course. Been there, done that. He was having one of the most productive days of his spiritual life. He’d cleared out his entire inbox of prayers, though in truth it hadn’t taken long to get through the list. Most of his prayers were from dabblers, people the band Bad Saint had reached via Maria’s zealous social media campaign.
At first he’d scoffed at his new believers. Some people were dumb enough to believe any nonsense they saw on Tiktok. He’d already deleted half their prayers before he’d remembered that he wasn’t a conspiracy theory, he was a real person who existed. He’d rescued their emails from the trash feeling slightly silly.
Disappointingly, none of the prayers had anything to do with death. Someone was praying to him to cure their cat’s cancer, another person wanted a better grade on their finals, and someone else had asked him to make the rattling noise in their car engine go away. He forwarded the prayers he couldn’t help with to the appropriate Saint, or otherwise sent them straight up to the Cloud server, putting their requests directly in God’s hands.
He opened the last email in the inbox,
“Dear Saint Nico,” it read, “I don’t know if you’re real or just a scam. Either way, please please PLEASE help me find my hamster. It’s been three days since it escaped and my grandma thinks it died under the fridge. Amen.”
He squinted at the email, scratching his chin thoughtfully. It was a lost object– Saint Anthony’s province. And yet it was an animal. Maybe Saint Francis could encourage the little guy to come out from beneath the fridge? But which Saint did he forward it to?
He sent it to the Cloud. God was always the answer.
He shut down the computer feeling accomplished and ready to enjoy his well-earned free time. He’d had a busy morning. After his shift at the Pantheon had ended he’d scrubbed the floors of Bartholomew’s church and spent an hour re-shelving books in the Vatican library. The bronze doors of St John Lateran were freshly polished and he’d attended mass twice already. It wasn’t even noon yet. He was on a roll.
He wasn’t taking any chances on unfinished chores. He was meeting Hazel and the others for a spaghetti lunch at 12:30 sharp. Afterwards they’d head to the concert venue for sound check and rehearsal before the tour-kickoff performance in Bad Saint’s biggest venue yet. It was still a warehouse show, but it was a BIG warehouse this time.
He walked out into Adalbert’s office wearing civvies– black ripped jeans and a black t-shirt with a skull on it.
“Out of uniform?” Adalbert observed, his eyebrows lowering. “You look very Gothic. And not in the nice cathedral kind of way.”
“I’m going to a concert tonight,” Nico shrugged. “Gotta blend in.”
“Bartholomew won’t approve of a concert if the floors–”
“The floors are so clean you could lick pudding off them,” Nico said. “If you could eat.”
Adalbert nodded, shuffling through the papers on his desk.
“While I have you here, I need to note down what you’re giving up for Lent,” Adalbert said.
“Lent?” Nico squeaked out nervously. Lent meant Spring was coming– or in the case of this year specifically, not coming. “Wow. Is it Lent time already?”
“Lent starts March 10th,” Adalbert said. “Late this year. Today is February 25th.”
“Phew,” Nico said.
He still had a whole month left before spring failed to start on March 21st. He probably should have been paying more attention to the date, but he’d been so busy that the days had blended together.
In the old days he’d never not known when Lent was coming, because Venice Carnival always took place in the two weeks preceding it. As a young child, Nico’s year had revolved around the festivities. It was a weird feeling of deja-vu to have come so unmoored from his old rituals only to find himself thrust back into them almost a hundred years later.
He was still mad that he’d missed Christmas. Brigid had decided it was better he spend that holiday in a catacomb praying alone, which made no sense to him. Sometimes it felt like she was conspiring to make him so miserable that he quit.
“Why should Saints give anything up for Lent?” Nico asked, turning to Adalbert. “What do we have left to give at this point? We can’t eat or sleep or do anything fun.”
“You have so much to learn, Nico,” Adalbert said, chuckling at his naivety. “There’s always more you can give. Last year I tied my hands behind my back and went without the use of them. I had to write like this,” he demonstrated, putting a pen in his mouth and scrawling something illegible on a pad of paper in front of him.
“What did Bart give up?” Nico asked, leaning against the desk.
“He put his skin back on,” Adalbert said. “He could hardly stand it. Says it makes him claustrophobic. It collects dust, so I think it’s itchy on the inside.”
“Ugh!” Nico shivered. “I’ll just get a bad haircut or something. Would that work?”
The light from the candle on his desk reflected flickering light off the bald spot on top of Adalbert’s head, and he frowned.
“I suggest you think a little harder on that one and get back to me,” he said, turning back to his paperwork. “Bartholomew is ready for your confession now. Don’t keep him waiting.”
Nico had been kidding about the haircut, mostly, but as he walked out to the confession booths, he thought more about Lent. What more could he give up?
He supposed he could stop seeing Maria for a while. That would coincide nicely with her wedding and honeymoon. Did it count as a deprivation if it was something he’d planned on doing anyway? He almost looked forward to getting her marriage over with, though it was sure to be heartbreaking. He was sick of being in love with her. He didn’t understand why he was being tested so sadistically. The devil’s machinations were cruel.
He slid into the now-familiar confession booth and observed Bartholomew’s silhouette through the ornate screen that separated them. The stuffy wooden box was warm and claustrophobic. He knew he ought to be used to it by now, but every time he was stuck in there he got sweaty and had palpitations.
They recited the opening prayer and Nico rolled straight into his confession.
“I was prideful yesterday,” Nico said. “I read the Youtube comments under some of the Bad Saint songs and kept thinking, ‘I did this, I inspired all this music.’ I almost commented and told everybody. I didn’t, but I thought it in my head, which was still wrong. I should’ve given all glory to God,” he sighed.
“One hundred Hail Mary’s,” Bartholomew said, sounding bored.
“Also, I lusted after Maria again,” Nico said. “She just looked really great in their last photoshoot. I lusted after her fiance Marco, too. His hair is unreal. And he was wearing leather pants.”
“I don’t need the details,” Bartholomew said, sighing. “Pray for strength to resist the devil’s temptations, as usual. But don’t bring that couple up again. If you were going to act on this urge, you would have by now.”
“Also, this morning I let two pagans get engaged in the Pantheon,” Nico added, having almost forgotten to bring it up. It was only a few hours ago, but it felt like a long time had passed. It was what came of being busy, he supposed.
“Pagans? Hmm. Have they been living in sin?” Bartholomew asked.
“Oh, most definitely. You know how pagans are.”
“Hmph,” Bartholomew grumbled. “So long as they left peacefully, that’s not a concern. Anything else?”
Nico braced himself.
“I’m going to see my sister this afternoon,” he said. “And there’s a concert tonight.”
The long silence worried him.
“I did the floors already–” He interjected, but was cut off.
“I know,” Bartholomew said. “Fear not. We want you at that concert tonight. Anything you can do to improve the image of Christian rock music is well worth the risk of your ego getting inflated.”
“Really?” Nico asked, feeling the weight of anxiety lift. “I thought for sure that Brigid would be against it.”
Bartholomew paused, touching his earpiece.
“Uh,” Nico said. “Bartholomew?”
Bartholomew slid open the door of the booth and stepped out. Nico followed suit, confused. They hadn’t closed out their confession session yet.
“I must apologize,” Bartholomew said stiffly, his sinewy shoulders hunched. “I received a voice note from Brigid while we were speaking. She listens in on your confessions. She’s just summoned you to her office.”
Nico felt a lead weight drop into his stomach.
“I’m supposed to meet my sister in a few minutes,” he said weakly.
“You can be in multiple places at one time, no?” Bartholomew asked.
“Not right now,” Nico admitted. “The death collection schedule today is insane, and I can’t be everywhere at once. I’m not God.”
“No, you are most certainly not!” Bartholomew heartily agreed, giving Nico one of his rare toothy smiles.
Nico sighed.
“Can I ask you something?” He said haltingly. “Sometimes it feels like Brigid is out to get me. I know it isn’t supposed to be easy. But I’ve been on the verge of quitting a few times now, and it feels like she’s not trying to help me stay. More like the opposite. I thought our shared experiences would help us connect, but that hasn’t happened.”
“You misunderstand her, surely,” Bartholomew said. “She has every reason to want you to succeed. In truth, if you fail, the Pagan Demon Rehabilitation Program is in danger of shutting down entirely.”
“Woah,” Nico said, stunned. “No pressure.”
“You were baptized and raised in the faith, and you were a fully fledged demon for only four years. If we cannot succeed with you, what chance is there for one of your kind who is more established in their identity?”
Nico didn’t want to argue the point, but he felt in his gut that Bartholomew was wrong. The best candidate for conversion was someone like Isis who could swap pantheons like other people changed jackets. Nico was clinging to God like a shipwreck survivor holding onto a piece of driftwood in a raging sea.
He’d barely managed to keep his head above water in his old pantheon. This one was no different. He knew that he was the problem– Catholicism was a great help in identifying one’s personal failings. But he didn’t know what else to do but keep swimming.
He put his suit back on and headed to Brigid’s office. He could be a little late for lunch with Hazel and the others, it wouldn’t be the end of the world. He’d just find out what Brigid needed and then be on his way. That’s what he hoped for, though he knew to be prepared for the worst.
Brigid’s office was as frigid and damp as ever. He loathed the place almost as much as he loathed her. As he walked across the thick carpet of her rooms, he saw her seated behind her desk.
Saint Dymphna was ironing Brigid’s nun habit on the desktop. For the first time he saw his program director with her hair uncovered.
She had the longest, thickest, shiniest red hair he’d ever seen. It flowed in waves across the desk and onto the floor, glowing bright as flame. It was no wonder she hid it. No one would see that hair and think she was anything but a pagan goddess, inhumanly beautiful and terrifying.
She pinned her hair back in a tight coil and replaced her habit when she saw him coming, giving him a deep frown as he approached the desk and stood at attention on her rug. With the hair covered she was just a moon-white face surrounded by fabric. She looked washed out and under-sunned. You’d never know that a millenia-old fire goddess lurked underneath.
“I heard a rumor,” she said brusquely, skipping the greeting. “You’re four?”
Catherine had obviously told everyone. Her friendship with Isis was going to end with all of his dirty laundry aired to the saints, he suspected.
“I’m almost a hundred years old,” Nico said. “I got turned immortal– incorruptible– four years ago.”
Dymphna snorted.
“That explains a lot.”
“Never mind,” Brigid said, looking down at her clasped hands with a troubled expression. “I have heard about the concert you plan to attend tonight.”
Nico had been down this road before. He wished he could be surprised, but this was classic Brigid. She hated to see him happy. Surely she’d ban him from attending.
“I promised my sister I’d be there,” he said, letting only a small fraction of his disappointment show, not wanting to give her the satisfaction.
“This sister is a mortal?” Brigid asked. “Your mother, Pine-Sol–”
“Persephone,” Nico corrected harshly, his hackles rising.
“She gave birth to a mortal child in addition to you?”
“Persephone can’t have kids,” Nico said. “Hazel and I are related through my dad.”
“Then how–”
“She made me with magic,” Nico said. “It’s a long story.”
Brigid suddenly changed the subject, pulling a slip of paper from her desk drawer.
“I appreciate Maria Bova’s efforts to bring the youth to Christ,” she said, her tone shifting to become more businesslike. “But we are getting dangerously close to notions territory with the content of the album. We listened to it, didn’t we, Dymphna?”
“Indeed we did, Brigid,” Dymphna said, eyeing Nico disapprovingly.
The album, it had to be said, was deep in notions territory. Maria was devout, but she didn’t try to hide the fact that she thought Nico was a dark, sexy angel.
“I’m not forbidding you from attending the concert,” Brigid said.
“Thank–”
“Yet.”
“Oh,” Nico said, deflating. “What do I need to do?” He braced himself.
Brigid shrugged casually as if it were unimportant.
“Collect a soul,” she said, passing him a slip of paper.
He looked down at the time and address on the paper. The soul’s name was James, and he was due to die in a few minutes. Nico would have collected him regardless of the reminder.
“James Peretti. He’s on my list for today.” He moved to hand back the paper. “You’re my boss at one of my jobs, Brigid, not both of them. I’ve got this one scheduled already.”
“I want you to have a chat with him after he’s died,” she said. “That won’t be a problem, will it?”
Nico was surprised by how doable the request sounded.
“That’s fine. I don’t usually speak with them unless I have a reason to, though. Is there something special about him?”
“You will have to learn that for yourself.”
Nico stared at her for a minute, but he gleaned nothing from her expression.
“I just need to talk to him and then I can go to the concert?”
“And turn him in.”
“That’s fine.” Nico usually dropped souls off in big batches, but he could drop James off in Purgatory early if he needed to. “Alright. I’ll do this, and then I’ll head to the concert.” Maybe he’d be able to come in at the tail end of the spaghetti lunch if he hustled.
If Brigid had wanted to ruin his night, she needed to try harder. Talking to a soul was a piece of cake.
James Peretti had picked a beautiful place to die.
That was Nico’s first thought as he stood on a hilltop overlooking the town of Lucerne, Switzerland. The Alps were blazing in the late February sunlight, their snow-capped peaks reflecting blinding white light. The clear blue sky overhead and the deep azure of Lake Lucerne framed the snow-blanketed lakeside town, and the juxtaposed blues and whites made both hues glow all the more intensely. It felt like God had turned up the color contrast on the world.
When he was working, Nico was usually in a flow state that brooked no interruption, but he made time for this view. The air was crisp and clean, and the snow absorbed sound, creating an enveloping aura of peace and tranquility. The only sound that broke the silence was the crying of a gull soaring across the lake.
Nico imagined that heaven might look something like this. He reached out his hand and a single snowflake fell into his palm, sparkling and cold.
Was heaven even necessary when places like this existed on earth, he thought, observing the tiny miracle of the snowflake. Every plane and every angle glittered like a diamond, its sacred geometry mesmerizing.
The seagull circling the lake swooped overhead, dive bombing him, and he ducked. His snowflake melted. The gull landed on the snow behind him and plucked what was clearly a McDonalds french fry off the ground.
Nico sighed, watching the yellow-eyed creature squawk loudly and munch on its prize. Persephone had once told him that nothing in nature was made perfect, and she wasn’t wrong. Switzerland might be close to heaven on earth, but it was definitely not the real deal.
James Peretti was dying in a clinic off a side street on the edge of town. Nico walked inside the building, noting nothing particularly unusual that warranted Brigid’s request for extra attention to be paid. He walked down a mundane hallway to a wooden door marked with the number three, then walked straight through the door, entering James’ room. All business as usual.
Once inside, he questioned whether he’d gotten the wrong address.
The room was three times as large as a normal hospital room. A massive curved TV screen dominated half the wall, showing footage off-white clouds drifting across a vast blue sky.
A hospital bed sat in the dead center of the room, and a middle-aged man was lying in it. He was facing the screen without really seeing, his eyes unfocused.
As Nico took a step towards him, the man closed his eyes and let out his final breath.
Muscle memory had Nico reaching for his forehead before he’d taken in all the details. James’ soul found its home in his palm, and he gripped it like a stress ball as he continued to examine the strange room. He watched the clouds drift across the TV for a while and realized there was soft music playing from a hidden speaker in the headboard of the bed. It was a gentle classical piece he didn’t recognize, slow and comforting. Bach, he guessed.
He looked back at James. The object of his visit had possessed a forgettable face, slightly pudgy. He’d been sixty, with thinning hair and dark circles under his eyes. Something had been clutched in his limp right hand that was about to tumble to the ground.
Nico reached out and gently nudged the empty water glass back into James’ rapidly stiffening grip.
The god of death appeared apropos of nothing, as usual. He strolled over to sit on James’ bed and leaned back on one of his hands in a casual posture, his wings resting over James’ body. Thanatos obstructed the space without intersecting it, one reality superimposed on another.
Nico gave no indication of surprise. Bumping into one another in hospitals and hospice facilities wasn’t unusual, although it was rare for Thanatos to stop for a chat. He was usually pretty locked in.
Thanatos jerked his thumb over his shoulder.
“Gretchen in Room 5. You?”
Nico stared at the soul in his palm.
“James,” he said.
Thanatos squinted at the little blue light.
“Are you sure he was one of yours?” Thanatos asked skeptically.
“Yes,” Nico said. “He was Catholic. Why?”
Thanatos cocked his head to one side.
“You don’t know what this place is?”
“No, I’ve never been here before,” Nico said. “It’s cool, though. My dad would love the TV setup. Is this a fancy rich people hospital?”
Thanatos smiled knowingly.
“No,” he said. “Guess again.”
Nico looked around the room some more, but gleaned nothing about the purpose of the facility. Thanatos tapped the side of James’ water glass, hinting.
Nico picked up the glass. There were a few beads of water left, but otherwise he noticed nothing strange about it. Then he lifted it to his lips and sniffed. A sharp, slightly acrid chemical scent hit his nostrils, along with a sickly sweet strawberry smell that reminded him of the Kool Aid they used to serve at Camp Half Blood. The glass hadn’t held water but some other clear liquid that had likely tasted foul. The strawberry flavor had probably been added in an attempt to make it palatable.
“This was some kind of medicine,” he guessed, looking to see Thanatos nod that he was correct. But what clinic offered their medicine in water glasses?
The realization hit Nico all of a sudden.
Most hospices kept patients drugged on morphine and other sedatives to spare them the pain of dying, and end-of-life usually left people unable to eat and drink on their own in their final days. James had finished this glass of whatever-it-was under his own power. He wasn’t hooked to an IV and there were no patches on his arms. In fact, his body still looked relatively healthy, missing the typical gaunt and hollowed out look of the dying.
Moreover, James was alone. There were no family members near, no nurses or doctors. He wasn’t even hooked up to a monitor. That meant there were no witnesses.
James had drunk a glass of poison– deliberately.
“What is this clinic?” Nico asked, looking around like he was seeing the room again for the first time.
“One of my favorite places in the world,” Thanatos answered, smoothing back James’ hair and accidentally revealing an egregious combover. Nico watched as he carefully replaced the hair to cover his bald spot, sparing the man some dignity.
“It is?” Nico asked. “How come I’ve never heard of it?”
Thanatos’ cheeks turned a very light shade of pink, tinting the ivory of his skin.
“I guard it a bit jealously,” he admitted with a smile. “But I suppose I’ll explain it to you. Come! Look at this here!”
He brought Nico through the wall, entering into a small office where a woman was filling out forms on a computer. Behind her was a counter with lab equipment, a small sink and a mini-fridge. Nico got a whiff of strawberry and deduced that she’d been the one to mix the cocktail.
“She’s a doctor,” Thanatos explained. “But not the annoying kind that keeps people alive. She makes poison!”
Nico had no idea what to say to that. What kind of doctor killed people? He’d never heard of such a thing.
“Does it taste bad?”
“I thought it was lovely, but the patients all gag,” Thanatos shrugged. “Death is bitter.”
Too curious to help himself, Nico lifted the glass jar of chemicals on the countertop, unscrewed the lid and took a swig. It was bitter, as Thanatos had said. He spit it out into the sink.
The doctor turned around as though she’d heard something, and Nico and Thanatos shared an amused glance. She could neither see nor hear them, but she must have been perceptive enough to get the sense that something was off. In fairness, they were touching a bunch of her stuff.
“Go in the other room again,” Thanatos said, taking up position at an iPad that had been lying on the doctor’s desk.
Nico went back to the circular room where James was still lying in repose. He sat down on the bed beside the corpse and looked up at the screen as though the two of them were about to watch a movie together. For a moment he had a flashback to the days when he used to camp out in his dad’s bed watching movies on Hades’ big TV. They’d used to eat snacks and binge Netflix for hours in total silence, which had been the key to why it worked for them. He’d really liked hanging out with his dad, but they could never talk without arguing.
Thinking about Hades made Nico sad. Those days in the Underworld were starting to feel increasingly distant, and absence made the heart grow fonder. He never wanted to forget his reasons for leaving, but it was impossible not to miss the good times, too. He tried to put it out of his mind.
He was grateful for the distraction when the cloud scene on the wide semi-circular screen slowly shifted into a video of a forest full of trees. Birdsong rang out from the bed speakers. The screen changed again to a rainstorm over a cityscape, and the music switched over to smooth jazz. After a few seconds, it changed once again to the Beatles’ song ‘Across the Universe’, and the screen displayed a dark sky full of swirling stars and galaxies.
Nico watched as a meteor shot across the screen. He picked out the familiar constellations. The image was so vivid that it seemed almost real, like the roof had opened up to the sky. Whoever had built this facility had spared no expense or effort, and he appreciated it.
Thanatos appeared beside him. For a moment they stared up at the stars together. Thanatos slipped his hand into Nico’s, and a smile tugged at the corner of Nico’s lip. His chest ached with a warm heaviness, the telltale sign of deep and abiding love.
Never in a thousand years would he have guessed that it would take a religious conversion for him to make amends with his soulmate, but somehow, day by day, it had happened. Thanatos had made a noticeable effort to change, and he’d handled Nico’s transition a lot better than either of them had expected. If only he’d been this supportive before, Nico would never have needed to leave in the first place.
There was nothing particularly exciting about realizing they were together again. It happened with the normalcy of puzzle pieces clicking into place, coming back to their original positions to form a bigger picture together.
“So people decide they want to die,” Nico said. “They come here, pick the scenery and some music and drink a glass of poison?”
“And they slip right into my arms. Euthanasia,” Thanatos sighed dreamily.
“Good death,” Nico translated.
“Good me ,” Thanatos corrected. “These people aren’t afraid of me. They actually want to meet me. They’re grateful for what I do.”
“It’s like a temple to you,” Nico said, staring up at the screen glittering with stars. When he glanced back at James’ body sitting on the bed, he could picture him as a sacrifice lying on an altar. A willing sacrifice, he thought.
“Few have ever been brave enough to build a temple in my name,” Thanatos said. “Some come to me willingly, but most people fear me even when they have no reason to.”
Nico thought of Jason’s final few weeks. Jason had gotten white glove treatment with professional consultation during his dying process, but it hadn’t spared him the knee-jerk animal terror of death that all humans had to bear. He’d worked through it eventually with a lot of help. When he thought about it, it was kind of amazing that normal mortals could come to terms with death on their own, with none of the assistance Jason had been offered. It was impossibly brave to walk into Death’s arms with no knowledge of where he might take you.
Nico watched as Thanatos continued clicking on the iPad, flipping through different sounds and images. Andrea Bocelli’s ‘Time to Say Goodbye’ played over images of baby ducks floating down a stream. ‘Amazing Grace’ backed a sequence of someone’s family photos, including clips of small children waving to the camera. Nico wondered if someone’s final wish was to see their grandkids smiling back at them.
“I like your temple,” he said quietly.
“Your bosses don’t,” Thanatos said.
Nico remembered what he had to do. Slowly, he pulled his hand away.
The door opened, and three mortal employees walked in. Nico and Thanatos stood to get out of their way, watching as they closed James’ eyelids and covered his face with a sheet. Once he was covered they took a moment of silence, closing their eyes and remaining still for one minute. Whether they prayed during that time or not, Nico didn’t know.
“I’ll see you later,” Nico said, trying not to make it obvious that he was growing distinctly panicked at the thought of his impending conversation with James. Thanatos nodded, disappearing with a shudder of feathers.
It was getting later, and Nico was eating into the time allotted for meeting Hazel, but this was too important to rush. He went back out to the hilltop where he’d first looked out at the lake. He took in a deep breath of cold mountain air and summoned James.
In direct sunlight the shade looked like tissue-paper, so diaphanous and flimsy that he seemed in danger of blowing away with the breeze. James wavered in the sunlight, blinking up at the trees and listening to the birds singing in the bare upper branches.
“Hi,” Nico said, taking the initiative and holding out a hand for James to shake. “I’m Nico. How’s it going?”
James stared at him in confusion for a moment, but he didn’t hesitate to shake his hand.
“I’m James,” he said, his voice barely above a whisper.
“I know,” Nico said. “I have some bad news for you.”
James raised his ghostly eyebrows.
“I did it?” He looked profoundly relieved.
“Afraid so,” Nico said, his brow furrowing. “Do you mind if I ask why you flew all the way to Switzerland to die in a euthanasia facility?”
James rubbed at his eyes, slow on the uptake, which was only to be expected. He’d just gone through a major afterlife transition.
“Take your time collecting your thoughts,” Nico said, sitting down on a snowbank and patting an icy spot beside him. “I’m in no rush.” He might have been running late for spaghetti, but he wasn’t going to make that James’ problem.
James settled in next to him, huddling close to Nico’s side. The cold didn’t bother either of them, but like most shades, his instincts told him that he needed to stick close to his psychopomp at all times. Getting lost was pretty much the worst thing that could happen to a shade.
Actually, no. There was one thing that was worse.
Reluctant to sit with this thought, Nico nudged James with his elbow.
“I asked why you euthanized yourself,” Nico said gently.
“Oh, right!” James said. “I had Benson’s disease. My brain was atrophying. I only had a few months before I’d start to lose my faculties. I don’t have any family, and I didn’t want to rot away in some state facility like a zombie. I decided to die with dignity.”
“Atrophying? Do you think maybe your judgment was compromised when you made the decision? Like you weren’t being rational?”
“No, there was a vetting process. I passed the mental health check.”
Nico caught himself biting his nails and stopped.
“Damn it, James,” Nico muttered, digging deep furrows into the snowbank with his heels.
“Did I do something wrong?” James asked.
Nico leveled him a look of frustration.
“You were Catholic,” he said, the statement coming out with a distinct note of hopelessness in his voice.
James stared at him, and Nico realized that he had never actually introduced himself as belonging to any particular denomination.
“I’m here to take you to Purgatory,” Nico informed him.
James’ eyes widened.
“After that…” Nico clenched his jaw. “God decides.”
James went silent. Nico couldn’t blame him. But he could certainly blame himself.
He had no answers for James, no reassurances. He’d never seen Hell, and had never reviewed the criteria for entering Heaven. He’d been collecting souls without questioning where they were going or why, accepting that God was in control. Thanatos had once accused him of using faith as an excuse to remain ignorant, and Nico felt the truth of that quite deeply now.
“Why, James?” Nico asked despairingly. “You knew the rules.”
“It’s hard to explain,” James said hesitatingly. “Are you telling me I’m destined for Hell?”
“I’m not saying that,” Nico said. “But I’m not not saying it either. I really don’t know any more than you do.” That was humiliating for a death god to admit, but he wasn’t a death god any longer. He was basically just an Uber driver for the dead. He didn’t have any answers.
He and James both watched as the seagull circled overhead, looking for more french fries.
For a long time they sat in the cold, snowy woods, and Nico observed the spindly branches of the naked trees of winter. He thought about another forest, another grove, one he’d read about in a book long ago. He pictured those dark, mangled trees that bled and cried and lamented with no reprieve from their torment.
Was that destined to be James’ fate?
Nico didn’t have time to waste. He couldn’t go to Hell, he knew he wouldn’t be allowed in, but he knew somebody who’d once been there. Maybe there was a way to get some answers.
He put James back into his pocket and disappeared.
Returning to the Underworld felt like slipping out of a backpack full of lead weights. The air in Switzerland had been clean, but the air in the Underworld was sterile and completely still. Lucerne had been quiet, but the silence that reigned in his dark homeland felt like the silence of a tomb, the ultimate peace. He felt a desperate urge to head back to his old room and slide beneath his Stygian silk sheets, to fall asleep for a million years and wake up when it was all over.
Unfortunately his room, as he recalled it, still had a smashed TV, a bunch of video game consoles, and a bathroom in it. Just thinking about the toilet made him gag. He never wanted to relive the humiliation of being human, and he never wanted to step foot in that room again. There was a reason he’d left, and a reason he was Catholic now. He needed to stay focused. He was here to ask a question, and then he’d need to leave immediately. He prayed that the answers he received would be worth the inevitable punishment for sneaking down here.
He traveled to Elysium invisibly, encountering the hazy forests of petrified trees and the misty river, passing by the big villas where the Underworld elite partied and the magic door where his mother was eternally shopping. He missed her terribly, but she’d been part of his bad human memories, too. She’d fed her child Easy Mac and Prime energy drinks. She’d betrayed him.
He refocused on his mission and tracked down Dante Alighieri, his older brother. He was sitting on a riverbank covered in soft artificial moss, talking to Virgil, both of them dangling their ghostly feet over the river’s surface.
“That Canto was one of the more challenging to rhyme, I admit,” Dante said, laughing at some comment Virgil had made. “But–”
“Hey,” Nico said, kneeling beside his brother and revealing himself. “I need to talk to you. Privately,” he added, looking at Virgil, who appeared miffed that Nico had interrupted their endless chat.
Dante looked Nico up and down and seemed to sense something was afoot, his eyes narrowing in an eerie imitation of a look Nico was used to seeing on their father’s face. He wished his memories of Hades would quit haunting him and let him focus.
“Ah! The lost prince returns to the Underworld at last!” Virgil announced loudly.
“Keep that to yourself if you know what’s good for you,” Nico said. “Have you been sitting here this whole time?”
“Where else would I be?”
Nico ignored the question and dragged Dante by the arm, pulling him to stand in the shadow of a gnarled petrified tree. It seemed a fitting place for this line of interrogation, although the silk olive leaves glued to the branches overhead were a lot prettier than the bleeding, screaming trees he was concerned with.
“You have a halo,” Dante observed, looking over Nico’s head. The expression on his face was hard to read. It seemed partly wistful and partly skeptical. Nico wasn’t sure what to make of his reaction, but he’d never gotten to know Dante particularly well.
“It’s just a trainee halo,” Nico said, adjusting it self-consciously. It was small, but he was proud of it nonetheless. “A lot has happened since we last talked.”
“It seems so,” Dante said, intrigued. “I would love to discuss this at length with you, brother, for it seems we have much–”
“Nope, no time,” Nico said bluntly. “I just need to know whether people who commit suicide really get turned into trees.”
Dante stared at him blankly.
“That’s it, that’s all I need to know. Yes or no question. Come on, spit it out,” Nico said, nudging him. “You’ve been there, so I know you know. I just need to sort out how much of what you wrote was accurate.”
Dante sighed heavily.
“There was no way to record my experience accurately, of either my visit here or my visit to Hell,” he said. “Both accounts had to be mingled in order to abide by the conditions of the visits. I did the best I could, limited by my mortal faculties, to convey my spiritual journey.”
“You’re not answering my question,” Nico said.
“I cannot answer,” Dante said, rubbing the bridge of his long, aquiline nose. “Another condition to which I agreed.”
Nico wanted to smack Dante so hard that his little red hat flew off, but he restrained himself.
“Dante, please,” Nico insisted. “I need this answer. A man’s soul is on the line here. He killed himself, but he was a good person. He did break the rules, and I know there’ll be consequences, but will they be permanent? Are they as bad as you said they were?”
“Erm,” Dante said, struggling with the question. “I can’t tell you that.”
“Just blink twice if he’s gonna suffer for eternity,” Nico said. “Wink if he’s going to be forgiven. Give me something to work with here.”
Dante neither blinked nor winked. Nico sighed in exasperation, feeling dejected. It would have been great to be told that the tree thing was fictional, but any answer was better than just not knowing at all.
“It sounds as though you are going through a test of faith,” Dante said carefully.
“That’s exactly right,” Nico said. “I’m trying to become a saint someday.”
Dante took Nico’s hands, looking at him pityingly.
“I cannot give you the answers you seek, brother. And if you truly seek sainthood, and the light of Heaven,” he sighed. “I fear you have already failed this test of yours.”
Nico pulled his hands away.
“No,” he said, unwilling to believe it. “That’s not fair. I just wanted to double check the suicide policy.”
“And you had no other counsel to reach out to?” Dante said. “You can see that I am here and not in Heaven. You know what side I stand on. Why not ask the saints, or pray for guidance?”
“Because I know that wouldn’t get me a straight answer,” Nico admitted frustratedly. “But you can tell me. You’re outside their system.”
Dante’s face softened, and he looked at Nico compassionately.
“To one who has faith, no explanation is necessary. To one without faith, no explanation is possible,” Dante said, his dark eyes crinkling with sympathy.
Nico shoved him away– not hard, since he’d sooner hurt himself than hurt a shade, no matter how little pain they felt. But he shoved hard enough to tell him he needed to back off.
“Don’t quote Aquinas at me,” he said, trying to channel his emotions into anger in order to fend off the growing despair. “I care about shades, okay? I can’t help myself. If I hand James over, I’ll always wonder what happened to him or if he’s suffering. What am I supposed to, just– Uh, Virgil? What are you doing?”
Virgil had come up behind him and put something on his head. Nico reached up and felt it. It was a little circlet of olive leaves, each of them made of silk, since real leaves couldn’t survive in the Underworld. He turned around and saw Virgil staring at him with a serious look on his face, his own head now bare.
“Your will is already free, upright, and whole,” Virgil said. “And it would be wrong not to heed its call. So I crown and miter you over yourself!”
“Uh, thanks?” Nico said.
“It’s what he said to me,” Dante said, folding his arms across his chest. “A long time ago. He means for you to take accountability for your own decisions. To trust yourself.”
“I know what he means,” Nico said bitterly, running his fingers along the crown. “I read the book.”
It felt like he’d been put in an impossible position. His instincts screamed at him that he needed to protect James from undue pain, but his new pantheon expected him to hand James over without questioning God’s plan.
So who did he trust?
A voice in the back of his mind said, ‘Trust God.’ It would be easy to shut his brain off and just hand James over. Maybe he could cope with not knowing if James was in Hell if he never thought about it again. He was pretty good at pushing thoughts out of his head he didn’t want to think.
Another, louder voice in his head whispered, ‘You’re a god, too.’ The crown on his head weighed as much as a feather, but it felt heavier than it had any right to. And perhaps Virgil had a point. Should he just go with his instincts and bring James here to the Underworld? Spare the man the pain of Hell and give up his pursuit of sainthood entirely? Rather than forgetting James, he could forget about God instead. Catholicism wasn’t exactly a walk in the park. He wouldn’t miss scrubbing floors, and Persephone wanted him home.
Then he had an idea.
What if he didn’t listen wholly to either voice? He was a diplomat, after all, and diplomats knew how to compromise. He looked up at the two poets, and although both of them had played on his already-frayed nerves, he deeply appreciated that they’d tried to help.
“I think I might have figured something out,” Nico said, looking between them both, “I need to go. Someday I’ll explain everything, I promise.”
Dante sketched him a short bow, and Virgil pressed his fist against his heart. Nico disappeared.
Back on the hilltop in Switzerland, dwarfed by the Alps and chilled by the wind, he felt his courage fading away. The rush of being back in the Underworld, his natural habitat, had given him a burst of false confidence. He thought his plan was as good as he was gonna get, but that didn’t mean it wasn’t a crappy plan. Something told him that compromising with God wasn’t a thing.
He was gonna do it anyway.
He brought James out of his pocket again, but this time the shade didn’t say a word. Instead James stared out at the mountains and watched the birds wheeling overhead, gazing at everything intently as though he were trying to memorize it. Nico suspected that the shade had realized that this reprieve couldn’t last forever. Eventually Nico would take him to Purgatory, and from there he’d be dragged down to Hell. Naturally James didn’t dare say anything that might hasten their departure.
Nico was in no rush. In fact he was in the opposite of a rush. He could hardly muster the will to move. Once he enacted his plan, he had no idea what would come next. He might be dragged down to Hell himself. But he was pretty sure he’d calculated the situation correctly, and suspected he might just get away with this.
Instead of worrying about his own fate, he watched James instead. The ghost stood in the snow, his hair and clothing untouched by the wind, his cheeks the same color as the snowbank. He would never be touched by the world again, nor would he touch it, but he could still experience it in a limited way. His existence as a shade still had value. He still mattered– especially to Nico.
Nico hated to see his shades unhappy. It made him unhappy. His shades were a part of him, their names etched in his mind, their fates weighing on his heart. Whatever happened to James, Nico would have to live with for eternity.
He made up his mind.
With a wave of his hand, he summoned a bright red apple to sit in his palm. It was roughly the same size and shape as James had been a moment ago. It seemed fitting.
“This looks like a pretty good apple,” Nico said.
James turned to look at him, startled by the sound of his voice after such a long silence.
“If I eat this,” Nico continued. “I’ll be distracted for a couple of minutes. If you were to walk away, I wouldn’t notice.”
“Where would I go?” James said with a jolt, panic entering his tone.
“Anywhere. Doesn’t matter,” Nico said. “But I can’t turn you in if I don’t know where you are. Do you understand what I’m saying?” He asked, raising his eyebrows.
James nodded, watching Nico warily. Nico realized he probably came across a little frenzied, but he couldn’t help himself. He was anticipating what Brigid would have to say about all this later.
Before he could think better of it, he put the apple in his mouth and took a bite.
It was the tastiest, crunchiest apple Nico had ever eaten. He savored every morsel, enjoying it all the more because he was about to get in huge trouble over it. At least he was doing the right thing. He’d have that fact to lean on while he sat in some catacomb for another year. Maybe this time he’d miss two Christmases.
He ate the apple right down to the core, and then ate that, too, crunching it down to nothing between his teeth. Then he glanced to the side.
James was still sitting there.
“James!” Nico said exasperatedly, assuming he hadn’t understood. “What did I just say? Get out of here! Skedaddle!”
James shook his head.
“What–” Nico spluttered, confused. “Do you want to end up in Hell getting tortured for eternity?”
“Of course not,” James said. “But I’d rather be with God than be nowhere at all.”
Nico’s jaw fell open. He stared at James, words failing him.
What sort of lunatic would rather be in Hell than in Switzerland? If Nico was in his shoes, he’d have gotten out of there so fast he’d have shattered the sound barrier.
Slowly, the cold weight of the truth settled in his chest.
Nico wasn’t smarter than James. James wasn’t crazy. Or if he was, he was merely the same flavor of crazy as all the rest of the saints. James had faith, and Nico didn’t. That was the abyssal difference between them, stark and unavoidable.
Nico had spent the last few months hoping for a revelation, working to earn one. A visit from Mary, a pat on the back from Jesus, some sort of ecstatic vision or prophecy that forged a connection between him and God that went deeper than a few fickle magic abilities. Now he had his epiphany, but it wasn’t the one he’d hoped for.
Nico didn’t have any faith. His relationship with God was strictly professional. He was a Catholic cosplayer.
The heaviness of this realization nearly brought him to his knees, but he fought it back with everything he had in him. He didn’t want to break down just yet. He had work left to do.
After all, one thing hadn’t changed. James was a shade, and Nico had a responsibility to him. He forced a mild expression onto his face, trying not to let his own crisis bleed out onto James.
“Okay, James,” Nico said. “I respect your decision. I’ll make sure you get to Purgatory.”
“Thank you,” James said.
Nico snorted a humorless laugh at the irony of James thanking him. He felt like James’ arresting officer, handing him over to a judge with a reputation for divine wrath. But James didn't see it that way.
“Do you think God will have mercy on me?” James asked.
Nico glanced up at the sky and saw a bright ball of flame hurtling towards them. He recognized the angry meteor.
“I don’t know,” Nico said. “I’ve never met the guy.”
He turned James back into a glowing soul just as the Archangel Michael crashed down beside him, a gout of flames sputtering from his brandished sword.
“You are in for it, di Angelo,” Michael said, baring his teeth viciously on the words of Nico’s last name. “You have abducted a Christian soul and stolen him away to your Underworld. Have you no–”
Nico held out James.
“Here. He’s all yours.”
Michael froze, looking down at James’ soul in Nico’s offered palm.
“Oh,” he said. He snatched James away. “And is it not true that you visited that foul place unauthorized? Did you think you could hide from the Father of all Creation?”
“No, I understand it was against the rules,” Nico said. “But I didn’t abduct any Christian souls. James is going where he needs to go.”
Michael looked disappointed not to have the opportunity to smite him, but he let the fire on his sword go out.
“I’ll let Brigid deal with you, then,” he muttered, soaring off into the sky on wings as wide and white as an albatross.
As Hades used to say, there was no point grieving the inevitable. Nico returned to Brigid’s office, sparing lake Lucerne one last glance. He never wanted to see this beautiful place again as long as he lived.
Brigid sat alone in her office, Dymphna nowhere to be found. That was good; Nico was sick of her snide comments. Brigid was bad enough on her own.
He approached her desk slowly. A chair appeared for him to sit, and he sat. It took courage to meet her eyes, and she gazed deeply into his, as though searching for a sign of some change in him. She sat back in her chair after a moment with a look of satisfaction, obviously seeing exactly what she was looking for in his expression. His despair, it seemed, was her triumph. It figured.
“How was your chat with our friend James?” She asked.
“I don’t think this is working out,” he said.
“Come now,” Brigid said, smiling with false warmth. “Did your short jaunt back home throw you off kilter? Or is your mother still threatening to cancel spring?”
“I don’t know. I didn’t see her down there,” Nico said, irritated that Brigid seemed so fixated on his mom. “We don’t need to play games anymore. That conversation with James was a setup. You don’t want me here. I don’t think I should be here anymore, either. We’re finally in agreement on something.”
“Why do you think you shouldn’t be here anymore?” She asked.
“My faith is weak,” he said. “I’ve tried, but it’s just not getting any better.”
Brigid nodded, clearly satisfied with what she was hearing.
"No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God,” she said. “How can we describe a visit to the Underworld as anything but a look backwards, a regression, a failure?”
If all Nico had done was visit home, he’d think this was overkill. Deep down, he knew he’d been willing to let James walk away and wander the earth as a ghost to escape judgment. If James had gone along with it, they’d be having a very different conversation right now. Given that, it felt as though Brigid’s overkill was actually undershooting the gravity of his failure, since she didn’t know the full scope of it.
“Wrestling with doubt is part of the journey,” she said. “It isn’t meant to be easy. Mistakes are natural, but that does not mean they come without consequences. Furthermore, your pattern of ‘one step forward, two hundred steps back’ must end. I will not reinforce your desire to give up the good fight. But I agree that, in order for you to be successful here, serious rehabilitation is required.”
She pulled something out of the air and passed it to him. He took it; it was a folded brochure. On the cover was a picture of a monastery built on top of a mountain.
“You’ll be granted the facade of a human appearance and initiated as a brother with the Carthusian order. You’ll even get to eat again, lucky you!”
He scanned the brochure. He’d get to eat, sure, but it seemed as though the menu was going to be gruel, gruel, and more gruel. A private cell, a remote location, no internet or cell service.
“A vow of silence?” He asked, looking up at her. “For how long?”
“Not long at all,” she said. “Merely a human lifetime.”
He thought it over. In some ways it would be easier than what he was doing now. The city of Rome was layered like a lasagna with saints and gods and mortals getting all up in his business. Temptations to sin were unavoidable; there were simply too many gelaterias. What was he supposed to do, resist all of them forever? That just wasn’t realistic.
Maybe he could go up on this mountain and just chill out for the next sixty years. He’d still have soul collecting, so it wasn’t like he’d be totally bored. In that time, if he put his mind to it, maybe he’d find the connection with God that he was missing.
It was another chance. But it would mean giving up too much.
He folded up the brochure and handed it back to her.
“I don’t have a hundred years to spare,” he said. “I have a sister. And there’s a concert I’d like to get to tonight.”
She nodded and stood to leave.
“Wait,” He asked, panic gripping him. “You’re leaving?”
“I have to go and arrange your exit interview,” she said, as though it were obvious. “Your email address has already been disconnected. I must ask that you refrain from entering church property or speaking with any saints for the next year.”
“What?” Nico could barely catch his breath. This was all happening too quickly to parse. He thought there would be more discussion before they came to this conclusion. “I can’t talk to anyone? Not even to say goodbye?”
“It's a policy to prevent incidents with disgruntled former employees. You understand,” she said. She was avoiding looking at him, but not because she felt guilty. She was smiling, and trying not to show it.
Nico felt a wave of nausea rise in his gut. He’d failed. Now he was about to be lost again.
“What about my work as a psychopomp?” He asked. “Don’t you guys still need me?” Maybe it was foolish, but he needed to cling onto something. It couldn’t all be over just like that.
“Michael will work that out with you, but I suspect you’ll be demoted to contractor status,” she said.
That made sense, but it was hard to hear. The work would be the same, but he wondered if he’d still feel the same honor and pride in it.
“There’s no need to cut ties completely,” she reassured him. “It’s only my program you’ll be leaving.” She had to reaffirm that, since the church needed him, or otherwise she would surely have been happy to tell him to fuck off. She was only playing nice because they had to remain on good terms.
He had to give her credit. She’d wanted him gone, and she’d played her hand well. She’d made him miserable under the guise of helping him, and had deftly located his weak points and plucked at them until he snapped. There was nothing he could do to pin the blame on her. She’d even given him one final opportunity, something she’d known he’d turn down, so that she retained plausible deniability.
She was right that he was only leaving her program, which was only one of his two jobs. He wasn’t fully cut off, but it was close enough. Her program was the venue through which he met and worked with other saints and trainees. He’d grown fond of a lot of them, and now he couldn’t speak to them for a year. He was a pariah, a persona non grata on church property, and it felt intentionally humiliating.
Now what was he supposed to do? Go home and tell Persephone she’d been right about everything? He’d never hear the end of it. And if this failure got back to Zeus’ ears, the embarrassment would annihilate him. He couldn’t go home.
Shit, he thought. Was Buddha hiring?
Notes:
This chapter took forever to figure out and it has taken a long time to write because of that. Obviously it is a climactic moment in Nico's journey that needed to be done correctly. It will take our boy quite a while to process what's happened in this chapter.
Long ago I watched a documentary that the author Terry Pratchett made about assisted dying after he'd been diagnosed with Benson's disease. Terry ultimately chose to die naturally, but seeing that at a young age had a huge impact on me and I gave James the same condition Terry had. The clinic in the story with all the screens and stuff is slightly exaggerated, but the water glass full of poison is taken straight out of the documentary.
Also, RIP to my search history because I got so many warnings for hotlines when researching this lol. I kept wanting to tell Google I promise I'm fine, I'm just writing a really weird fanfic!
Chapter 107
Notes:
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Nico was loitering at the base of a big statue of Garibaldi on horseback. He’d wanted somewhere secular to hide out and clear his head, and Janiculum Hill had won out over McDonalds.
He had a fondness for Garibaldi. His nonna used to claim that the di Angelo family was descended from him, along with Julius Caesar and Marco Polo. It was totally not true, but he still felt a vague sense of camaraderie with the guy.
He’d been sitting under the statue for half an hour trying to appear externally composed even as he fought back tears. He was determined not to blubber like an idiot. That would only make it seem like he’d been fired, and he was choosing to interpret his departure from sainthood as a decision of his own making.
A familiar tall figure dropped out of the sky. Thanatos was never far, and Nico had been waiting for him.
“What happened?” Thanatos asked with concern.
“Why do you assume something happened?” Nico asked, slightly perturbed. He’d been practicing his aloof face, trying to channel someone who’d just proudly walked off a job that was beneath him, flipping off his old boss as he went. He didn’t have the guts to flip off God yet, but perhaps that would come in time.
“This isn’t one of your usual moping places,” Thanatos said.
“My usual moping places?” Nico asked.
Thanatos sat beside him on the concrete stoop, the equestrian statue casting its shadow above them. The two gods framed a piece of the statuary, a little bronze wreath with the words, ‘Roma o Morte’ above it. It was the sort of droll ironic coincidence that dogged the footsteps of all immortals, proving that the universe had an innate sense of humor.
“Yes, your usual moping places,” Thanatos said, counting off his fingers. “The roof of the hospital, Maria’s roof, Marco’s stairwell. The back alley next to the dumpsters outside Ariadne’s. Oh, and the riverbank.”
Nico suppressed a shudder at the mortifying ordeal of being known.
“I quit,” he said, deciding not to beat around the bush.
Thanatos’ expression vacillated between a genuine look of delighted relief and a maudlin look of forced sadness, putting Nico in mind of a pair of ancient Greek theatre masks. He reached out and hugged Nico tightly, transparently trying to conceal his bad acting.
“You don’t have to pretend to be upset,” Nico said, resentment oozing. “I know you’re thrilled.” He could practically hear the grin splitting Than’s face, though it was now out of view. Although Nico felt sour about the fact that Thanatos was going to celebrate his failure, he had really needed the hug. He tried to passively absorb as much of Than’s reassuring comfort as he could, grateful there was at least one person he could confide in.
“How can I be thrilled when you are in despair?” Thanatos asked, pulling back and looking at Nico’s face. He’d schooled his own expression into compassionate neutrality, which Nico appreciated.
“Do I look like I’m in despair?” Nico asked, touching his cheeks to check for unnoticed tears and finding none. He thought he was holding together pretty well considering he felt as though he’d been clubbed upside the head. “I still want to go to Hazel’s spaghetti lunch. I’m running late, though.”
“You really feel up to that?” Thanatos asked hesitantly.
“I’m fine. Why?”
Thanatos cocked his head to one side.
“It’s just that if I were you, and I gave up all my family and friends to join a new pantheon, and followed terrible rules and endured cruel punishments and worked so hard to try to mold myself into what they wanted for six months– and then it didn’t work out and I ended up with nothing to show for all my efforts– well, I wouldn’t take it very well,” Thanatos said, pressing his palm to his chest.
Nico stared at him blankly. It took him a moment to form a response.
“Let’s not talk about it any more,” he said, slumping against the statue pedestal and stretching out his legs with a sigh. He crossed his arms across his chest and watched tourists stroll across the plaza. There was an overlook nearby with a panoramic view of the entire city, but he was avoiding it. He was getting terribly sick of Rome.
His thoughts kept straying to the Underworld, but it wasn’t time to leave yet. He still had an exit interview to get through tomorrow, and Hazel to see today. And even then, he had no idea where he’d actually end up going. Nemesis waited for him in the Underworld, wingless and probably more vengeful than ever. She had way too many brothers and sisters that would be out to get him. He didn’t want to put Thanatos in the position of having to protect him from the children of Nyx.
“As you wish,” Thanatos said. “Can I tell Persephone the good– the, erm, news?”
“No!” Nico said. “God, no. I mean gods. Gods, no. Is that what I mean? Ugh. I don’t even know how to talk anymore.”
Dread began to creep in. He was still relatively numb from shock, but it was slowly dawning on him how confusing this de-Catholicizing process was going to be.
“Look, don’t tell my mom,” he said, sighing. “She needs to hear it from me. Later.” Much later, after Nico had time to process on his own. Although he wasn’t sure there was any amount of processing that could prepare him for that level of ‘I told you so’ he could anticipate coming from his mother. “Do not tell anyone.”
“Fine,” Thanatos said. “But when it is ready to become public knowledge, I hope you’ll let me tell Eros. I’m sure you don’t wish to tell him yourself, but he’s been very concerned about getting you to come home. He felt responsible for–”
“I don’t want to hear about Eros right now!” Nico snapped.
Nico was not ready to dive back into the Greek drama that had once dominated his life. He’d never really escaped it, even after leaving the pantheon, but it had been refreshing to deal with a different set of characters for a while.
That adventure had now come to an end. At this point, he felt a soul-deep need to be alone.
But he’d made a promise to Hazel.
He bid a rushed goodbye to Thanatos, whom he was certain would continue to stalk him out of concern for his well-being, and headed to Ariadne’s bar.
Well over an hour late, he walked into the bar invisibly. The sign on the door read ‘closed’, but a few demigods were sitting at a booth in the corner, talking together in low voices. Percy and Annabeth had skipped out, probably off somewhere enjoying a post-engagement love-fest, and Reyna and Thalia were in attendance in their place. Nico didn’t love that, mainly because it indicated that their mistress Artemis was around somewhere nearby.
He wasn’t sure if he was happy or sad that Will wasn’t there. Talking to him in a group setting would be weird, but it would also provide a buffer while he tried to figure out what Will wanted out of their awkward reunion. When he’d run into Will at the Trevi fountain he’d assumed it was a coincidence. In fact, he’d been happy to see that Will was enjoying a nice vacation and felt bad for spooking him. Meeting up with Hazel and learning that Will had tagged along with them had been deeply disappointing.
He’d wanted Will to move on with his life. The only words he had for Will after all this time were apologies, and he doubted they’d do any good.
Will could wait. Nico had come to see Hazel, and she was there at the table, shoving spaghetti into her mouth in an endearing, inelegant manner.
His heart warmed to see her sweet, round face surrounded by the familiar ringlets of auburn curls. He’d missed her, and he looked forward to sharing a proper conversation without a Bluetooth earpiece and an annoying saintly trainee nipping at his heels.
Seeing her now, he could hardly fathom that he’d considered accepting Brigid’s offer. If he’d spent the next hundred years in a monastery, he’d have never seen Hazel again. Not until she died, anyway. And what was the point in giving someone a new life if you didn’t get to watch them enjoy it? He felt certain he’d made the right decision.
“Fuck Nico,” Hazel mumbled, shoving a forkful of spaghetti in her mouth.
He felt less certain he’d made the right decision.
“Don’t say that, Haze. It’s not like you,” Frank said, looking at her worriedly.
“He ghosted our spaghetti plans! After we flew all the way here!” She whined self-pityingly. “He got my hopes up for nothing. I’m never trusting him again.”
She sliced at a meatball with her knife brutally, her teeth clenched with rage. Nico frowned at her. Was she envisioning that the meatball was his head?
“He probably asked permission to come and wasn’t granted it,” Reyna said calmly, gnawing on garlic bread. “The saints are strict.”
“Super strict, based on how they acted at the Pantheon the other day,” Thalia said, her arms stretched confidently across the back of the booth seat she shared with Reyna. “Nico was probably scared he’d get in trouble for being seen with us.”
“That wouldn’t have stopped him before,” Hazel said. “He’s changed. I don’t even know who he is anymore.”
Her voice broke on the last word, and compassion bloomed in Nico’s heart. He’d put her through a lot the last few months. Maybe he could forgive her a few harsh words.
“Didn’t you say he was an intern for them or something?” Frank asked, changing the subject to something that would be less upsetting to Hazel. “This whole time I thought he was a saint, whatever that means.”
“Whatever they are, he’s not. Nobody respects him at all,” Thalia said, her eyes gleaming with superiority. “And he was acting like an idiot, punching people and crawling around on the floor. It was embarrassing to watch.”
She reminded Nico sickeningly of her father, and he weighed jamming a fork into her eye socket. Not only was she talking mad shit about him, but she’d told Frank and Hazel about what happened in the Pantheon. On top of being embarrassing, it was also not meant for mortal ears. Huntresses weren’t gods, and when they got invited to important godly stuff they weren’t supposed to gossip about it afterwards.
“You’re going too far, Thalia,” Reyna muttered. Thalia shook her head dismissively, scooping more spaghetti onto her plate.
“He’s probably with Maria instead,” Hazel muttered. “He likes her better than me anyway.”
“Come on, no he doesn’t,” Frank said, although he didn’t sound like he meant it.
“Fuck her, too,” Hazel muttered.
Nico dug his nails into his palms, his forgiving impulse dissipating. Hazel was sleeping in Maria’s bed, and this was how she showed her appreciation?
He reminded himself that Hazel was just a sixteen year old girl venting to her friends. She was feeling sorry for herself because she thought he’d stood her up. She was probably jet lagged.
He knew that, but he still wanted to strangle her.
His heart softened when he watched her scrubbing tears out of her eyes. Frank held out a piece of garlic bread which she refused.
“Carbs always make you feel better,” he suggested.
“It’s okay, Frank,” she sighed, twisting spaghetti around her fork. “I should’ve seen this coming. It’s not like I didn’t know he was an amateur when I met him. He was so great at first, but there were always signs.”
“Remember when he got kidnapped by Gaea? The evil sunflowers?” Frank snorted.
Nico gritted his teeth. There was nothing funny about drowning in dirt and getting tied up by vines. Why did Frank have to chime in? He’d thought he and Frank were cool.
“I’m glad that happened. He saved my life,” Reyna interjected. “I think you guys are being harsh.”
“Remember when he killed thirty people because Cerberus died?” Hazel said.
The demigods went silent for a moment. Even Reyna said nothing in his defense.
Nico rolled his eyes. Clearly they weren’t dog people, or they would have understood.
“And let’s not forget about what he did to Jason,” Thalia added gravely.
Nico seethed. What the fuck did she know about Jason? She’d barely known him.
Nico knew he ought to turn the other cheek, but actually, that didn’t apply to him anymore, did it? He could be as bad as he wanted and no one was coming to punish him. It was hard to break the habit of feeling like he needed to restrain his impulses, though. It was a weird form of paralysis. He didn’t belong to God anymore. So why did it feel like someone was still watching and judging?
“I think I just need to come to terms with it,” Hazel said, helping herself to another serving of noodles. “Nico wasn’t very good at being a god. I kept faith as long as I could, but maybe I need to stop letting him string me along.”
“Good idea,” Thalia said.
“He did abandon you for six months,” Frank said. “Maybe it’s time.”
“The Pontifex of New Rome has to have a patron god,” Reyna admitted. “You will need to replace Nico if he can’t do it anymore. Artemis has decided she doesn’t like you for some reason, so I can’t recommend her.”
“We have history,” Hazel said. “I wish I could just wait for Annabeth to become a goddess. Is Athena cool?”
“Um,” Thalia hesitated. “Well. Depends on your definition of cool.”
Nico glared at her. Thalia was smart enough not to say anything disrespectful about Athena, but Nico was apparently fair game for her mockery? How was that fair?
“How about Mars?” Hazel asked Frank. He waved his hand noncommittally, also wise enough to keep his mouth shut.
“Maybe Hermes is free,” Hazel mused, taking another bite.
Her fork clattered to the floor, and she fell backwards out of her chair, making a choked gagging sound as she collapsed onto the tiled floor. Frank leapt to her side without hesitation, but he immediately recoiled when Hazel suddenly spat out something long, pink, and stringy. It fell to the floor with a splat, where it wriggled and writhed.
Hazel gagged, pawing at the ground in her panic, and brought up a tangled clot of worms to join the one already on the ground. Frank involuntarily gagged too, and had to turn his face away as
she wretched, bringing up another thick knot of worms.
Thalia and Reyna watched, both of their faces having gone pale.
“I think he made it to lunch after all,” Reyna murmured.
Nico observed impassively as his sister continued to choke. Maybe if she hadn’t eaten so much pasta, it wouldn’t have been so bad, but the worms just kept coming and coming.
Nico had brought her back to life. He’d trained her, he’d gotten her a high position at Camp Jupiter, and he’d led her quest to victory in the Gigantomachy. Leaving her had been one of the hardest parts of his conversion, and she’d been the main reason he’d turned down Brigid’s offer to stay.
He wasn’t perfect, but he didn’t deserve to be mocked behind his back, and he’d be damned before he got replaced with some other god – especially Hermes. The punishment had been impulsive, and maybe it had been harsh, but it would be over soon.
At least Hazel would know he still cared.
He turned on his heel and marched into Ariadne’s office. As he’d suspected, Ariadne and Artemis were both inside. They were sitting hunched over a laptop together. The scene struck him as odd, since they seemed an unlikely pair of friends.
“Uh, hi?” Ariadne said, pausing her video and frowning at him.
“You!” Nico said, pointing at Artemis.
“Me?” Artemis said, glaring at him. The silver tiara on her forehead glinted at him threateningly.
“Your huntresses are out there blabbing about what happened in the Pantheon the other day,” Nico said. “You need to discipline them before I do it myself.”
“Oh, whatever,” Artemis said, rolling her eyes. “Don’t tell me how to manage my girls. And don’t you dare lay a hand on them, or I’ll cut it off.”
“I’d like to see you try,” Nico said, marching up to the table and matching her glare. “I’m not in the mood today, Artemis. Thalia disrespected me, and I’m not going to let it go. Either you do something about it or I will. Don’t make me wait.”
The two of them locked eyes in a staring contest, and Nico widened his stance, determined to stand there all day if he had to.
It was scary to stand up to her. His brain was still fried from the damage Catholicism had done to his self-esteem. For the last few months, every time people had criticized him and treated him poorly, he’d believed that he deserved it. There was still a little voice in his head that said Hazel and Thalia were right, that he was a failure and an embarrassment, and Artemis didn’t owe him anything.
Those thoughts hovered on the surface of his mind, but a deeper part of him was acting on instinct, and he was letting that part lead. He was about to be flying solo with no pantheon to back him up. If he projected weakness, he’d get walked all over. If he didn’t stand up for himself, his life would get crappy quickly. If he could convince Artemis not to fuck with him, maybe the message would spread.
To his surprise, it worked.
“Fine!” Artemis said, rising from her seat with a jerky movement. She stomped out of the room, and he heard the satisfying sound of Thalia and Reyna both shrieking. It was hard to guess what Artemis had done, but it had certainly hurt.
Nico and Ariadne both waited and listened as Thalia argued with her leader.
“He’s not a god anymore,” Thalia whined piteously. “I thought you wouldn’t care if I–”
“How do you know he’s not a god anymore?” Artemis said. “You will not drag any god’s name through the mud. Not from this pantheon or from any other. Do you understand?”
“Yes, Lady Artemis,” Thalia said meekly, Reyna echoing her.
Artemis swept back into Ariadne’s office.
“Alright. Back to what we were doing, before we were so rudely interrupted,” she said, swinging her short adolescent legs onto the top of the desk. “I’m changing the video,” she muttered, grabbing for the laptop, but Ariadne swept her arm over it protectively, not allowing Artemis to touch it.
Ariadne leaned over the desk and fixed Nico with a knowing stare. A Cheshire cat-like smile spread across her face.
“Nope,” Nico said, “Not talking to you.” He had neither the patience nor the inclination. He didn’t want anyone to know he’d been fired. Or quit, rather.
“You’re prepping for a comeback,” Ariadne said in a singsong voice, her eyes sparkling.
Nico stared at her face and swallowed. There were moments when he found Ariadne to be way too similar to her father, and this was one of them. They could both read him like a book, and they had a shared annoying habit of learning things about him that even he hadn’t yet figured out.
Was he prepping for his comeback? He supposed that, if he didn’t care about his relationship with Hazel, he’d have just left without doing anything. By punishing her, he’d made it clear that he’d shown up to her spaghetti lunch and kept his promise to her. He’d also made it clear that he still cared enough to have his feelings hurt when she talked about dumping him for another patron god.
He chewed on the inside of his mouth anxiously, not ready to admit to Ariadne that he was considering coming back to his old pantheon. After all, he wasn’t sure he wanted to. He wasn’t sure it was even possible.
“He’s not coming back,” Artemis said flippantly. “Zeus doesn’t suffer traitors. The second he’s no longer under the church’s protection, Dad will turn him to cinders.”
“I never said I was coming back!” Nico shouted, reacting defensively. He felt embarrassed that he’d even thought about it; he’d forgotten about how bad things had been with Zeus. “I’d rather drink a gallon of paint than associate with you people again. But tell Zeus if he wants a round three, he can go for it. I’m not scared.”
That was the first lie he’d told in months. It was almost physically painful to let the words escape his lips, although he felt like it was the smart thing to say if he was going to keep protecting himself by bluffing. Lying had royally screwed up his life once, and the truth made life less complicated. Going forward, wherever he was going, he wanted to do it as honestly as possible.
Artemis flipped him off. Ariadne pressed play and turned up the volume on the video, sighing.
“I want you to come back,” she muttered.
Nico shook his head. It was an insane idea. He could never go back. He’d made too many enemies.
It was only after he’d left the office that he realized what they were watching on Youtube. It was a Bad Saint song– the one called ‘Nico di Angelo.’
He took a walk for a few minutes, idling around outside waiting to see where Hazel would go. He wasn’t vindictive enough to make her wait, dreading whether she might never see him again. He knew from experience that psychological punishments were worse than the temporary discomfort of a few worms in your esophagus.
Hazel walked down the street alone to the concert venue, the same abandoned warehouse-turned auditorium where he and Maria had gone to see Hell’s Belles play a few months ago. Nico lingered in the alleyway, thinking of the awkward kiss he and Maria had shared there. Then he went inside.
He found Hazel already seated even though it was hours before showtime. Marco and Caio were on stage fiddling with sound equipment, but the warehouse was empty otherwise.
The performance would mainly be standing-room only right in front of the stage, but Hazel had found the small accessible seating area on the upper mezzanine and parked there with her backpack.
Nico stood behind her and watched her turn the pages of a book on the Roman emperors. Of course she had homework. This spontaneous weekend trip had happened right in the middle of her school year.
He slid silently into the seat beside Hazel and whispered, “Hey.” As she turned her head, he faded into view.
Her eyes went wide.
“Um, hi,” she stuttered. “I don’t know what to say.”
“‘I’m sorry’ would be a start,” Nico said bitterly, looking straight ahead at the stage and watching as Maria walked out on stage and began adjusting her microphone, tapping it to ensure it worked.
“I am sorry,” Hazel said, looking down at her textbook. Unshed tears hovered in her eyes.
“Sorry for what you said, or sorry you got caught?” Nico asked, shooting her a sharp look.
“Both!” Hazel said. “And I’m really sorry, but you broke my heart when you left and I haven’t been getting any sleep thanks to jet lag, and I said something I didn’t mean. Okay? I would never want to replace you, but if you don’t come back it puts me in a difficult position at Camp.”
“Everything after the ‘but’ didn’t need to be said,” Nico said, folding his arms across his chest.
“Okay. Then I’m just really sorry, I guess,” Hazel said, her eyes still downcast.
Nico glanced skeptically at her, taking in her familiar, beloved face. Her round, youthful cheeks weren’t as plump and cute as they used to be. Her septum piercing glinted in the light. His little sister was growing up.
“How was Parentalia?” He asked. “It was last week, right?”
She looked relieved to be changing the subject, and attempted a smile.
“It wasn’t as exciting as last year,” she admitted. “We still had the Parentalia games, but they played out like a training exercise. I didn’t enter.”
“No point,” Nico shrugged. “You’ve already proven that you’re unbeatable.”
“Yeah,” she laughed quietly, turning the pages of her textbook idly. “I guess. All the sacrifices in Pluto’s temple were to Persephone. I figured you wouldn’t want them. And Persephone told me in a dream not to waste any on Pluto. Seems like she’s pretty unhappy with him, since she went out of her way to tell me that.”
The page Hazel turned to in the textbook had a photo of a bust of Nero centered on one of the pages. He stared up from the pages looking exactly like he had when he’d been torturing Nico, neckbeard and all. For a moment Nico stared back at that cruel stone face, remembering the worst day of his life.
Nico had healed remarkably well from what he’d endured in the basement of Triumvirate Holdings. His divine body and mind were more resilient than any human would be in his circumstances.
His relationship with his dad, though? Those scars were permanent.
“Yeah,” Nico said, referring to Hazel’s comment. “Just pretend dad doesn’t exist for the time being.”
She nodded. That wasn’t a problem for her. She’d never cared for Hades.
“How is sainthood going?” She asked.
He really wished she hadn’t brought that up. He didn’t want her to get excited about him coming back yet. Still, he wasn’t comfortable lying to her.
“Let’s not talk about that,” he said. She nodded, and the matter dropped.
Just as he was about to ask her about school, Maria began singing warmups into the microphone, and his heart did a backflip. He worried he might need to see a cardiologist if this nonsense kept up. How could something feel so real and yet so unnatural at the same time?
Maria chatted with Marco and Caio, tapping the mic and pointing at the lights overhead, too focused on the task at hand to even notice him. He liked this facet of Maria the best, the version of her that had nothing to do with him.
That was overstating it, he thought to himself. There was no Maria Bova that had nothing to do with him, just like there was no Nico that had nothing to do with her. She was the reason he’d converted. Her encouragement that night on her couch when he’d first fled his home and had needed a friend had changed the course of his immortal life.
He didn’t know how she’d react to the news of his firing. Best case scenario, she still loved him. Worst case, this warehouse would turn into the set of the next Exorcist movie and she’d try to send him back to the pit from whence he came.
He was trying to stay optimistic.
“How’s staying at Maria’s apartment going?” He asked, unable to think of anything but her when she was in his line of sight.
“Well, I learned how to give a cat insulin, so that’s been interesting,” Hazel said, trying to make a joke out of it.
“You hate her,” Nico said, reading the look on her face.
“She hasn’t exactly been my biggest fan, either,” Hazel said, frowning. “We’re playing for different teams. Is it really surprising?”
“No,” he admitted.
“I’m being good,” Hazel reassured him. “In spite of my ugly talk earlier, I’m here for you. If Hitler himself did a concert dancing the Lindy Hop in your honor, my ass would be seated.”
Nico laughed out loud at that, and Hazel grinned. To them, 1940’s humor never got old.
Things would never be the same for their sibling relationship. Even if Nico went back to Camp Jupiter and tried to play the attentive divine brother again, they’d both changed. She’d grown up, and Nico had grown outwards. As the years passed, she’d need him less, and she’d get less of him.
Nico didn’t care if things were different. He still felt the love. Right now, that was enough.
“I have a funny story about Maria,” Hazel said. “Don’t tell her I told you.”
“What is it?” He asked, still smiling.
“When I got here, I assumed she was this squeaky clean straight-edge girl waiting for marriage.”
Nico raised his eyebrows.
“She’s almost thirty, so she’s hardly a girl. And she is waiting for marriage. She’s sleeping on Marco’s couch.” He’d confirmed that for himself. Every night. Twice. Maria had never strayed into her fiance’s bedroom after the lights went off, not even once.
“I believe you. But that doesn’t mean she’s totally innocent,” Hazel said. “The other day, she and Marco were sexting.”
“Sexting!?” He yelped.
Hazel turned to look at him and raised her eyebrows. Nico flushed, looking away.
“That’s none of my business, Hazel,” he hissed under his breath. “Or yours.”
“I thought you two were besties,” Hazel said innocently. “Sorry. I figured you’d just be like, ‘Yass, queen, get it,’ you know?”
She thought he’d act like Maria’s gay BFF. He would give anything for that to be the case, but the supportive gay BFF in his heart had been stamped out by the dark works of Satan. Fate was cruel.
“Yass, queen,” he said weakly, trying to smile.
Hazel chuckled under her breath, looking pleased with herself. Luckily, before she could divulge any more disturbing details, Marco knocked over his mic stand and tripped over the wires.
Nico and Hazel both snorted in unison, then had to stifle a fit of giggles. In that moment, Hades was present in spirit, his mean sense of humor persevering in his children.
“Is sexting even allowed in Catholicism?” Hazel asked, ruining the moment.
“Probably not,” he said. “Sounds too fun.”
Hazel raised her eyebrows, and Nico realized he probably sounded suspicious. He didn’t want her to guess what Ariadne had. More importantly, Maria had just walked offstage, and he wanted to investigate this sexting business. He felt compelled to check her phone so that he might know the right amount of miserable he ought to feel about it.
“Maybe it says it in the Bible somewhere,” he said, standing. “I’ll go research.”
“Research?” She asked, barely able to speak through her giggles. “Research what? The Dead Sea Scroll that said ‘thou shalt not send eggplant emojis’?”
He disappeared before Hazel could argue further. He reformed offstage behind the heavy velvet curtain. He glanced around looking for Maria, but she was already gone.
He paused a moment to run his hand down the curtain and look over the stage decoration. There was a fog machine and some funereal black crepe paper decorations, but it wasn’t anything extravagant. He’d heard talk of holographic skulls and a laser show, but the band had neither the venue nor the budget for that at this early stage of their tour.
He saw an oddly shaped piece of cardboard leaning against the wall and picked it up. It was a cutout silhouette, a figure with wings and a halo forming a classically angelic shape. There was something about it that made it clear it was not a normal angel. Maybe it was the vague implication of skinny jeans, or just the fact that it was obviously a life-sized replica of himself.
He heard an exclamation of surprise as Marco and Caio, who’d been working on preparing the stage, suddenly saw the cardboard cutout move in thin air. He became visible so as not to weird them out.
Caio immediately jumped in to explain, pointing at the holes in the top of the cutout.
“We’re gonna hang it overhead while we play,” he said eagerly. Caio had overgelled his hair so much that it looked like a hat, and he had a button pinned to his shirt that said, ‘I had a divine vision of Nico di Angelo and all I have to show for it is this button.’ Nico hoped the button was one-of-a-kind, or they were going to have to have some serious conversations about appropriate tour merch. “I made it myself. It’s to represent you watching over us. Unless you’d rather just come onstage and jam?”
“No, I will not be jamming,” Nico said hurriedly. “Your, uh, picture is fine.” The cutout looked a little cheap and flimsy, but he didn’t have a problem with DIY. It was amazing enough that there was going to be a concert in his honor. They could bring out a miniature model of Stonehenge and have midgets dance around it, and he wouldn’t even complain.
“You’re gonna kill it tonight, guys. I’ll be watching, don’t worry,” he said, affecting a bright, confident smile. Both Caio and Marco seemed to stand a little straighter, buoyed by his faith in them.
Looking again at the winged cutout image, Nico fixed his gaze on the halo atop his head. He still had his little trainee halo, but he assumed after his exit interview it would disappear for good. His stomach twisted with guilt, and he reached up to touch his halo to make sure it was still there. It was– for now.
Her less pious bandmates wouldn’t be as bothered, but how would Maria react when he told her about getting fired from the program? Would she try to encourage him to sign up for that monastery after all? Would she refuse to play tonight?
The old Nico would have obfuscated, lied, and avoided the issue. But he was going to tell Maria the truth and let her make an informed decision.
“It looks better with the lights and the smoke machine going,” Marco reassured him, interpreting Nico’s troubled expression as concern over the quality of his cardboard sign.
“I’m sure,” Nico muttered.
Something bright and golden caught his eye. He looked down at the cutout, which Caio was holding in his hands. On one of Caio’s wrists was something that looked remarkably familiar.
“Where did you get that bracelet?” Nico asked, pointing it out.
“Maria gave it to me,” Caio said, holding it up. It was a partially open ring of twisted gold with two knobs capping the open ends. Nico knew he’d seen it somewhere before, but he couldn’t place it.
“Where’s Maria?” Nico asked, thinking that she might have the explanation for where he’d seen the bracelet.
“Dressing room,” Marco said. “Um, can I talk to you for a second before you go in there?”
Nico sighed. Everybody wanted a piece of him today. But he could spare Marco a moment. It felt only fair, since Nico was about to walk into Marco’s fiancee’s dressing room and potentially get the show canceled.
There was another possible outcome to his come-to-Jesus meeting with Maria. There was no longer anything keeping him chaste. If she didn’t mind that he’d quit Catholicism and they remained on good terms, that opened the door for Nico to make a move. Seducing mortals was like shooting fish in a barrel for gods. If he wanted her, he could have her.
But she was religious. And engaged. And a woman. He wasn’t into women like that normally, and the idea of letting Satan lead him into temptation rankled him. And what if she regretted it afterwards? He didn’t want to saddle her with a lifetime of guilt for a hookup he wasn’t even sure he wanted.
“Sure,” he said reluctantly. “We can talk.”
“We haven’t talked much, just the two of us,” Marco said, glancing over his shoulder and backing up to hide in the shadow of a large amp.
Nico joined him behind the amp, leaning against the panel on the back. Why did Marco care if Caio watched them talking? The guitarist seemed slightly antsy, but Nico had always had that effect on him.
“No, we haven’t. Not since I pretended to be your therapist that time,” Nico said, trying to lighten the tone of the conversation to help Marco relax. “Remember? I wore fake glasses and everything.”
“Yeah,” Marco laughed. “They looked great on you. I mean, everything does, but… Yeah.”
Nico raised his eyebrows. Was there anybody at this concert that wasn’t obsessed with him? On one level, he understood that the concert was, in essence, a Nico di Angelo superfan meetup, but it was still weird to experience it. He wondered if this was what it had felt like for the OG Greek gods to visit their own temples and talk to their priests and priestesses.
He was starting to understand why those visits had been few and far between. He felt a little smothered. And he hadn’t even seen Will yet… It felt like he was living through the longest day of his life.
“What can I help you with, Marco?” He said, trying and failing not to sound exhausted by the conversation. He’d had a rough day, and Marco just wasn’t someone he felt he owed his energy to right now.
“Oh, I don’t need help with anything,” Marco said, wringing his hands. It was an odd look for a guy covered in tattoos and piercings, but Marco was trembling like a newborn fawn. “I wanted to tell you, um– I respect your relationship with Maria.”
Nico raised his eyebrows even further than the last time.
“What?”
“You knew her first,” Marco said, raising his hands in surrender. Nico wondered if he thought relationships worked on a dibs system.
“You introduced us,” he continued. “You’re the most important person– the most important being in the universe to her, I think.”
“I’m really not,” Nico said. “If the Virgin Mary walked in here, she’d step on me to get to her.”
“I’m not sure that’s true,” Marco said, then caught himself. “But you know her better than me.”
Nico wasn’t sure that was true.
“So, you respect me.” Nico said, cocking his head. “Okay. I knew that already.”
“No, no, I mean– I do, but I meant– I love Maria. I’m so grateful I got to– I get to marry her,” he said.
Nico struggled to contain a choked noise of rage in his throat. Did Marco want to get punched? Because it felt like he was rubbing it in Nico’s face right now.
He had no idea, Nico thought viciously, that weird, twisted obsession rearing up in his heart. He could walk right into Maria’s dressing room and sweep her off her feet. She’d forget that Marco existed by the time Nico was done with her.
He cringed at himself. He didn’t want to do that. When would Satan’s grip on his soul loosen? This was getting ridiculous.
“But the biggest thing she and I have in common is, is, um,” Marco swallowed. “Is how we feel about you.”
That last bit came out quietly, almost a squeak.
Nico squinted at Marco.
“I appreciate your devotion,” he admitted. “But hypothetically, if I didn’t want to be a saint anymore, what then? Would you still revere me if I was just me? No church backing me up?”
“That wouldn’t make any difference,” Marco said with confident certainty.
“To either of you?” Nico asked incredulously.
Marco nodded so vigorously that it looked like his head might snap off. As leaned against the amp to catch his breath, Nico saw that he had a bracelet identical to the one Caio wore. His interest was piqued, but he still couldn’t place where he’d last seen something like it.
“Huh,” Nico said. “Well. If I don’t talk to you, break a leg tonight. Tell the guys for me.”
“I will,” Marco murmured, gazing after Nico wistfully as he walked away briskly.
Nico didn’t believe a word of Marco’s ‘it won’t make any difference’ claim. Maybe Marco the theology major could worship Nico in the abstract, no organized religion required, but he knew Maria had Catholic doctrine deeply ingrained in her personal brand of spirituality. Surely it would make all the difference in the world.
Nico went into the hallway and stood outside Maria’s dressing room door, feeling tension tighten the muscles of his body like he’d been splashed with cold water. The hallway floor beneath his feet was polished concrete, sticky with years of spilled beer. The walls were plastered with remnants of old posters and stickers pasted haphazardly, half of them old and peeling off. He didn’t know any of the bands listed. He was an opera fan. What was he doing at a warehouse concert for a rock band?
He asked himself the question with a smile, and felt grateful. He had been fired that morning. He had an exit interview the next day. Catholicism was leaving his life, and not by his own choice. Not completely, anyway, though he’d had his own agency in the decision. Or maybe it was more like the illusion of free will, he thought savagely, lighting a cigarette.
If not for his out-of-town visitors and the band, he’d have spent the day alone with his thoughts, spiraling into crisis while he waited on the interview. Instead, the people he loved, and who loved him, had been there to cushion the blow. He was grateful, but he also knew that he’d earned this. Everyone who was here for him now was here because he’d been there for them in their hour of need.
For a few moments he savored the cigarette and absorbed the fact that he was allowed to enjoy it now. No rules, no punishments for breaking them. It was odd to think this had once been normal to him, and now it felt like sneaking a forbidden treat. It felt sad, almost, to realize he could eat and drink and smoke whenever he wanted to. It meant it wasn’t really special anymore.
He checked the time. Two hours until curtain, maybe a little less if they were worried about being punctual. He needed to give Maria the news. If the concert was canceled at least they could get word out before the crowd started lining up outside.
He knocked on Maria’s dressing room door and she chimed, ‘Come in!’
The dressing room was just as grungy as the rest of the venue. There was a mirror covered in stickers, a few metal chairs and a pleather couch that had seen better days. It smelled like smoke and stale beer. Nico self-consciously put out his own cigarette and dissipated the scent. A bouquet of lilies appeared in a vase on the mirror-table with a casual wave of his hand.
Maria gasped, turning around to look at Nico in delight. Her makeup was half-done and one of her eyes wasn’t lined, but she still looked beautiful in his eyes. Delusional, he thought to himself, unable to keep from smiling at the sight of her.
She ran to give him a hug, and he wrapped his arms around her, feeling the warmth of her body pressed against him. He felt guilty, but only about 30% of the guilt he’d felt when he was a saintly trainee. Now her faith was the only thing that stood between them and… Well, whatever they wanted. He wasn’t sure what he wanted.
He felt something cold and hard press against his chest and looked down.
“Your rosary!” He exclaimed, lifting the ruby and pearl studded cross from her chest and examining it. He hadn’t seen it since she’d performed at Eurovision. “I thought you mailed it into the–”
The expression on her face was grim.
“What’s wrong?” He asked.
“I was going to ask you that question,” Maria said, her brow furrowing. “The office of the Promotor Fidei said I wouldn’t get this back until your cause for Canonization either closed or was promoted to the next step. This was in my purse this morning along with two big gold bracelets. Did something happen?”
Nico stared at the rosary in consternation.
“It was in your purse?” He asked incredulously. Maria had been emailing with the Promotor Fidei and exchanging information about his Cause for months. If they were going to return the rosary to her, it ought to have been through mortal channels. Nico was pretty sure the Pope hadn’t rifled through her purse in the wee hours of the morning, so that meant that something unorthodox had happened.
“Yes,” she sighed. “I realize what it means. You don’t have to explain.”
His heart sank.
“It will be finalized tomorrow,” he admitted. “I have an exit interview.”
She nodded, hanging her head.
“I failed you,” she blurted out.
“No!” Nico insisted. “It was completely my fault!”
“No. It was me,” she said with resignation. “I didn’t campaign hard enough. I should have been more aggressive. If I’d had your body to display, that would have helped a lot, but I suppose that would have been too inconvenient.”
“I happen to be using it right now,” Nico said. “So, yeah. Kinda inconvenient.”
“As soon as Carlo Acutis was announced, it was over for you. They won’t canonize two Italian teenagers in the same decade,” she said, brushing her hair back from her face. “Carlo’s mom just played the game better than I did. It’s all political anyway.”
“The better saint won,” Nico said, feeling an incredible relief wash over him. “We did our best. It just wasn’t meant to be.”
“I’m so glad you aren’t upset,” Maria said, hugging him again. “Thank you for trying for as long as you did.”
“Same to you,” he said, smiling.
“I mean, it would have been really great if you could have cured someone’s cancer at least once,” she said, drawing back and giving him a wry smile. “But I don’t hold it against you.”
“Not my forte,” Nico said.
“No, I know. It’s alright,” she said. She went over to the lilies he’d made for her and admired them, tracing her finger along one of the long white petals. “Do you think you’ll try again? Will they give you another chance?”
“Probably not for a long time,” he said, answering both questions.
“What does it mean for you, then?” She asked. “What will you do?”
There was a note of worry in her voice. She avoided his eyes. He realized she was afraid he’d go back to his old ways and leave the church behind– along with her.
“I haven’t decided yet. I need time to think,” he said honestly. “I won’t rush into anything.” He’d made that mistake once. He didn’t regret his conversion, but in hindsight, he wished he’d taken more time to think through the implications before he’d thrown himself into the deep end.
She accepted his answer with a silent nod, sitting down at the mirror table and picking up her eyeliner pencil. Nico noticed her phone sitting on the couch unattended. While she was occupied with her makeup, he unlocked her phone and read through her texts with Marco.
He didn’t find any of the sexting Hazel had warned him about. What he saw was actually far more disturbing.
He locked the phone silently and set it down on the couch as though it were a grenade. There was no point tiptoeing. He’d just pulled out the pin.
“When were you gonna tell me you eloped?” Nico asked, trying to keep his bitterness in check. He failed. His tone was acrid, tinged with pain.
Maria dropped her eyeliner, leaving a streak of black pigment on the side of her cheek. The pencil rolled across the floor to stop against the toe of Nico’s shoe. He picked it up and set it back down on her makeup table, catching her eye in the mirror. He avoided looking at the reflection of his own face. He didn’t want to know what sort of demonic look he now sported.
“W-We only technically eloped,” she said, her voice faint. “A civil ceremony. Paperwork. We’re not married in God’s eyes yet. It isn’t real.”
“If it’s not real, why’d you do it?”
She huffed a sigh, sweeping her makeup off the table and into her makeup bag.
“The last couple of days sleeping on Marco’s couch have given me a lot of time to think,” she admitted. “Going on tour, staying in hotels, it’s a lot of trouble to stay apart. I know he’s the man God chose to be my husband, so I thought we could marry before we leave. Why not? Why wait?”
She had a wild look in her eyes and was flinging her hands around wildly, desperate to convey her logic to Nico.
“So I spoke to my priest– we’re very close,” she added, which was the least surprising thing Nico had ever heard. “He wants your autograph, by the way.”
“We’ll see,” Nico glared, his voice clipped. Maria swallowed, eyeing him warily, and continued.
“So I spoke to my priest and he said we needed to complete Pre-Cana classes and submit copies of our baptism, communion, and confirmation certificates. But Marco can’t find his baptism record, and I have to get my confirmation paperwork sent over from Greece, and we haven’t had time for classes because it conflicts with the band’s schedule. We can’t get the priest’s blessing without the Pre-Cana completion certificate, and we can’t get the Nihil Obstat form from the Bishop’s office without the priest’s blessing and the prenuptial enquiry form, and then it all has to be sealed by the Archdiocese. You get the point.”
Nico did not get the point, unless the point was that he’d dodged a bullet by getting out of the religion when he did. He’d never been a big fan of bureaucracy.
“Last night at Marco’s apartment I called my priest and talked his ear off,” Maria continued. “We won’t be able to receive the sacrament for another six months at the earliest with all the red tape we have to wade through. I’ve never been one to complain about following rules. I love rules normally! But when the priest offered a convalidation or a radical sanction to retroactively bless our marriage after the fact, it seemed like–”
“Maria, stop,” Nico said, at his wits’ end. “I’m not following any of this. What exactly are you saying?”
“I’m saying we got married in order to share hotel rooms,” she said, finally getting to the point. “But we’re still going to sleep in separate beds until we receive the sacrament.” She spoke defensively, deeply concerned with reassuring Nico that she’d still observed her religious obligation to chastity.
Nico didn’t care about the details. No matter how you looked at it, she was off the market. It hurt to think he had gotten to her too late, that whatever chance they might have had was gone. But the larger part of him was grateful. His love for Maria had always felt wrong. Now that she was married, it was time for him to finally move on.
“I think it’s for the best. If something had happened between us, we’d have regretted it. I really believe that,” he said. “I wish you both nothing but happiness.”
She winced, then nodded reluctantly.
“I’m sure you’re right,” she said.
A heavy silence fell between them. Nico glanced at her phone screen and noted that nearly two hours still remained before the concert was scheduled to start. He’d wanted to catch Will before the show, but he didn’t feel up to it now.
He and Maria spent another minute in awkward silence before the door abruptly opened.
Marco walked in. His eyes flicked to the lilies on her dressing table.
“Sorry,” he said, stepping back. “Bad time?”
“It’s fine. I was just leaving,” Nico said. He noted the look of disappointment on Maria’s face.
“Will you be on stage with us tonight?” She asked hopefully.
“Probably not,” he admitted. “Unless you need me to?”
“No,” she said, glancing at Marco. “I don’t get stage fright anymore.”
Marco smiled at her. The love in his face made Nico want to be sick.
“We were planning on going out to dinner,” Marco said. “We have a little time to kill and the stage is set up. Nico, we’d be honored if you’d join us.”
Nico had forgotten about food. He considered it, salivating just a little at the thought of eating as much food as he wanted, guilt free. But before he could say yes, Maria cut in.
“I’m not hungry,” Maria said quietly. “I didn’t sleep well last night. I think I’ll go back to the apartment and take a nap while there’s still time.”
“Good call,” Marco said. “Nico?”
“Count me out,” he said. He and Maria avoided looking at each other.
Marco left them alone again.
Nico knew he should leave. He shouldn’t offer to take Maria back to the apartment.
He offered her his hand, and she took it. He brought her to Marco’s apartment. She slipped off her shoes at the front door and took off her jacket, tossing it on the couch.
There was a pillow and blanket set up on the couch, but Maria walked down the hall toward Marco’s bedroom.
“He isn’t home, so I might as well sleep on a real mattress,” she said without looking back.
Nico noted a tremor in her voice like she was nervous. He sighed quietly, keeping the sound below her hearing, feeling a growing dread in his gut. Was this what it felt like when mortals fought fate? Weren’t gods supposed to know better?
Maybe it was fated that he and Maria hook up tonight. Maybe he ought to just go with the flow. Why not? He was already fired. He was leaving town the next day. It felt about a hundred flavors of wrong, but maybe that was just religious indoctrination talking. What sort of religion forbade two people who loved each other from expressing that love physically? What was the harm in it? Marco had basically given him permission already. Maybe he’d seen the inevitable conclusion to their story more clearly than Nico himself had.
He glanced at the bathroom door, pausing in the hallway while Maria walked into the bedroom ahead of him. He remembered collecting Terezia’s soul there, the blood pooling beneath her cracked skull on the hard tile floor. Her picture was hanging in the hallway now, staring at him. He didn’t fail to catch the judgmental cant to her gaze.
He walked into the bedroom. Maria hadn’t switched the lamp on. In the darkness, she padded forward a few steps and kissed him.
Nico shut his eyes, savoring the sensation of her hands moving across his chest, traveling up his arms, one of her hands clasping the back of his neck. He hadn’t been kissed in months, but it felt like centuries. He was so starved for touch that her loving little caresses nearly brought tears to his eyes.
“Don’t be angry with me,” Maria whispered, pulling away. “But I think even if I spend the rest of my life repenting, this will be worth it.”
She took his hand and started pulling him over to the bed.
He hesitated.
A lifetime of repentance, for him? He was pretty great, but that was a lot of pressure to put on a guy. If he was a normal human, she’d be an idiot. No man was worth that.
Nico wasn’t a normal man, but he’d once felt the pain of waking up in someone else’s bed alone after thinking they’d still be there. He’d hurt somebody he loved and had to live with the guilt afterwards. He could deny Catholicism all he wanted, but if they did this, Maria wouldn’t be the only one repenting.
“I’m sorry, Maria,” he said, squeezing her hand before letting it fall between them. “I think you should just go to sleep.”
Her face fell, but to her credit, there was no embarrassment in her expression. She was merely human, after all. To be overcome with love and passion was as natural to humans as breathing, no matter how hard they tried to deny their impulses. Nico didn’t judge her.
After a sad little sigh, she looked up at him. Relief and disappointment were both mingled in her expression.
“I don’t think I’ll be able to fall asleep,” she admitted with a wry smile. “But I’ll try.”
He smiled back at her, then abruptly walked out of the room, shutting the door behind him. Once he was in the hallway, he stared up at the photo of Terezia and tried to work through what the heck had just happened.
Suddenly, he was rocked by a wave of regret. He loved her, and now he was standing in a hallway with a closed door between them. It was just as nonsensical as her sleeping on the couch in her own husband’s apartment.
Nico opened the door and walked in. Maria had gotten under the blankets, but she hadn’t fallen asleep yet. She glanced up at him, wide eyed with surprise.
He leaned down and kissed her again, not even giving her time to close her eyes. When he pulled back, she was staring up at him.
Something caught his eye on the bedside table beside her. The ruby crucifix he’d made for her – she’d taken it off. Looking at it, he suddenly forgot why he’d come into the bedroom in the first place. Wasn’t he trying to save her from regret? What was he doing?
He’d never felt more confused, but he knew he wasn’t strong enough to walk away. He did the only thing he felt he could. He kissed her again.
Her head fell back against the pillow, her eyes shut, her mouth hanging open. She’d fallen dead asleep. Nico leaned forward and entered her dreams.
Notes:
If this plotline seems weird to you, it does to me too, it's for a reason. Next chapter will explain a lot! I'm sorry for the long gap between chapters. This whole Rome storyline is overwhelming to write and I have other projects I like to work on and I've been neglecting this. that's on me y'all. But nico has not been nor will ever be forgotten!
Chapter Text
When Nico emerged from the dream, Eros was standing at the foot of the bed. In the darkened room his white wings glowed with an eerie light that illuminated Nico’s face, forcing him to squint.
Eros raised his hands and began to slow clap.
“Bravo,” he said loudly, tossing his golden hair back arrogantly. “Honestly, that was incredible. Congratulations on finding an elegant loophole to resolve the effects of my arrows. Too bad it won’t work!”
The sight of Eros was shocking, but his presence also came with the added impact of his incredible hotness. He was shirtless, wearing Lululemon leggings that left little to the imagination. His tanned, perfectly defined abs kept derailing Nico’s thought process as he tried to unpack what Eros was saying.
“Arrows?” Nico said.
The realization dawned slowly. For a moment he felt almost paralyzed with the force of the pieces clicking into place. The sudden onset, the way it had always felt like it didn’t quite fit– of course. He’d been shot.
“Obviously!” Eros said with a cheeky grin, brandishing his quiver. The arrows rattled inside menacingly. “Nasty little buggers, right?”
Nico launched himself at Eros in a heedless rage. He wrapped his hands around Eros’ neck, desperately wishing he hadn’t given up his sword.
Eros shut his eyes and threw his head back.
“Ah! Feels so good,” he moaned. “Tighter!”
Nico immediately loosened his grip. He wanted to hurt Eros, not turn him on. Before he could plot his next move, he felt something cold and hard against the small of his back.
He froze.
Eros raised his eyebrows.
“Feel that?” He whispered, driving the point of the arrowhead in harder, forcing Nico’s body to press forward, their torsos flush. “I always thought we deserved a second chance. Tempting…”
Cold terror began to pump ice water through Nico’s veins. If that arrow pierced him, he’d fall in love with Eros. He’d be totally at his mercy. The thought of losing control of his senses made bile rise in his throat.
Reflexively, Nico turned incorporeal. He attempted to shadow travel away only to find that he couldn’t. Just like his brother Thanatos, Eros could follow him anywhere. Death and love were two forces in the universe that no one could escape. There was no way to outrun them, nowhere to hide. He was trapped.
He took in a shaking breath, terrified that Eros would nick him with the arrow that rested against the base of his spine.
“Why?” He said, gritting his teeth against his rage. He wanted to rip Eros’ head from his neck. He wanted to see ichor pour out of him, to yank his teeth out, to cut off his fingers and eat them. Why had Eros manipulated him so shamelessly? Why had he dragged Maria Bova into it? The amount of misery and confusion he’d caused both of them was impossible to quantify. This so-called god of love was the most terrifying monster he’d ever encountered in a pantheon full of them.
“I struck a deal,” Eros said, stroking the side of Nico’s face with his free hand, pressing the arrow into his flesh with the other. “My return to the Underworld in exchange for getting you to come home.”
“I’m not coming home,” Nico growled, never more certain that it wasn’t an option.
“You will,” Eros said confidently. “You’ll be expelled from the Catholic pantheon for what you just did,” he said, gesturing at Maria’s still-sleeping form. “You’ll have nowhere else to go.”
Nico could see how, from Eros’ perspective, it had seemed like a solid plan. Tempt Nico into sin and then watch him get kicked out of his program– it was a simple solution. But Nico had identified his feelings from the get-go as diabolical temptations, as Satan working on his heart. He’d fought them tooth and nail, and he’d won. Nothing had happened between him and Maria until he’d decided to leave the program on his own. Even then, it had only happened in a dream.
Flooded with relief and triumphant pride, a smile spread across his face.
This disconcerted Eros. The sharp point at his back fell away.
“What’s with the look?” Eros asked.
“I quit this morning,” Nico said. “You didn’t get me fired.”
“Oh,” Eros said. “Well. Same difference. You won’t be able to change your mind and go back,” he said, gesturing at Maria with the arrow in his hand.
Nico stepped back, watching the movement of the arrow warily. It was just a little metal triangle on the end of a stick, but he now firmly believed it was the most dangerous weapon on earth. Maybe it came in second to his Stygian iron, if he really thought about it. But he didn’t have that anymore.
“They’ll take me back,” Nico said, unwilling to give Eros any avenue to believe he’d succeeded. He thrust his chin upward. “I can walk into the Vatican right now and work something out. You’ve accomplished nothing.”
“I don’t believe you,” Eros said.
“I don’t lie anymore,” Nico said.
This announcement thrust Eros into confusion. He popped the arrow back into the quiver on his back and propped a hand on his hip, looking Nico up and down skeptically.
“You don’t lie anymore, huh? Good luck with that,” Eros snorted. “But what you’re saying doesn’t make any sense. You broke the rules.” Again he pointed at Maria, this time with an open hand. “You’ve just corrupted a sweet and innocent little Catholic girl. You’ll be in huge trouble for this!”
After what went down in that dream, Nico found it hard to associate the words ‘sweet and innocent’ with his friend Maria any longer. He was slightly scared of her now.
“I know they’ll give me another chance if I ask for it,” Nico said confidently. He couldn’t be certain to avoid punishment, but he knew there would be some path to redemption available to him. He’d been the prodigal son before, so he’d just be starting over, maybe a little more prodigal than he’d been last time. He didn’t want to join Catholicism for a second time purely out of spite, but Eros was forcing him to consider it.
“You must be in denial,” Eros shook his head, tutting. “I find it hard to believe that your prudish, celibate, sex-negative little cult is going to tolerate erotic supernatural dreams.”
Nico rolled his eyes. Eros didn’t understand Catholicism at all.
“If only you hadn’t appeared to gloat, you’d have gotten away with your stupid scheme,” Nico said, feeling certain that he had the upper hand. “But whether they take me back or not, I’m not coming home. ”
Eros snorted, folding his arms across his chest.
“Yeah. I said that once,” he said, staring down at the Dior slides adorning his perfectly pedicured feet. “Look at me now. You’ll miss your family eventually. I know you too well to doubt it.”
Nico opened his mouth to argue, but the words died in his throat. What was he supposed to say, that he didn’t miss his family? He missed them more than life. If there was a way to put his parents back together and undo all the painful memories they’d gone through, he’d do anything to make it happen. It was impossible to imagine never seeing Cerberus and the shades and Minos and Jason again. Even now he felt the pull of the Underworld calling him home.
Maybe it was inevitable that he’d return someday, he thought, glaring up at Eros defiantly. But this swan-winged, arrow-wielding, love-bombing motherfucker had just pushed that date back on the calendar. Eros would not, could not be rewarded for shooting him. His pride forbade it.
“Go fuck yourself,” he said, putting his point succinctly.
Eros pouted.
“Are you like, actually mad at me?” He asked, batting his long eyelashes.
“Mad doesn’t even cover it,” Nico said, his voice dripping with venom.
“I wasn’t really going to stab you with an arrow just now,” Eros said. “You were strangling me!”
“You shot me!” Nico said angrily. “How did you think I was going to react?”
“Oh, wah wah, poor you, you fell in love with your friend and it was awkward,” Eros said, making a mock crying gesture. “Call the Hague, there’s been a human rights violation over here! Something normal happened to Nico di Angelo!”
“This is not a joke!” Nico said. “I was questioning my sexuality!”
“So is everyone else on this planet!” Eros shouted.
Nico caught himself pouting petulantly and attempted to smooth his facial expression, taking a deep breath. Eros seemed to be attempting to do the same, though for a different reason.
“Thanatos and I have only just started hanging out again,” Eros said plaintively. “I knew you’d be angry. I expected that. So be mad at me, I can take it. Just don’t blow this up into something it’s not and drag him into it. Don’t act like this is some kind of consent thing–”
“Isn’t it?” Nico muttered.
“Says the guy that kills people,” Eros scoffed. “When you start getting informed consent before you end people’s lives, I’ll start making people sign waivers before they fall in love. That seems fair, no?”
“Fuck you,” Nico grumbled under his breath, for lack of any better comeback.
“Can you imagine?” Eros laughed. “Sign on the dotted line if you consent to getting horny for a specific person and becoming temporarily obsessed with them. The gods cannot be held liable for any of the following side effects: heartbreak, pregnancy, exorbitant wedding expenses, mother-in-law problems… The jokes write themselves, really.”
He grinned brightly, and Nico was briefly blinded.
He resented Eros’ charm, the ease with which he found common ground between their two divine jobs, and more than anything, he resented that he did find his joke sort of funny. He wanted to be angry, to hate Eros even more than he already had before. Hate was always easier than the alternative. It gave him direction, a sense of purpose and identity– all things Nico was desperate to find lately.
Maybe Eros sensed Nico’s inner struggle. He was an empath, the motherfucker.
“If it makes any difference, you successfully resisted the first arrow,” Eros said. “That second arrow I pumped into you at the last minute was a little egregious. I realized you were gonna break my spell from sheer willpower.”
That was a relief to hear. At least his efforts to resist temptation hadn’t been meaningless. He’d given Eros a run for his money, and he was proud of himself for it.
Eros gave him a little nod of respect, and Nico found his anger lessening just a little. The self-esteem boost had been sorely needed.
“I just can’t understand why you’d want to live the way the church had you living,” Eros said. “No food or drink, no showers, no sleep, no sex. Not even being allowed to touch yourself? Talk about cruel,” he said, shaking his head. “But if you ever had any doubt of whether you could do it, the answer is that you could. If not for my interference, you’d have been fine.”
“I think I knew that already,” Nico said, forcing a frown to hide the fact that he wanted to smile.
“You’d have made a great saint, Nico di Angelo,” Eros smiled, spreading his wings and folding the space around him in preparation to leave. “Better luck next time.”
A great saint, Nico thought?
Not likely.
Before he left the apartment, Nico set an alarm on Maria’s phone and plugged it into the charger on the bedside table.
He didn’t stop to kiss her on the forehead or anything cute. Couldn’t bear the thought of it, in fact. He still cared for her as a friend, but his romantic feelings had disappeared completely the moment he’d left the dream. As Eros had predicted, things were going to be awkward for a while.
Nico couldn’t concern himself with the future of their friendship now. His life was in shambles; he had a concert starting in an hour and a half, and then he’d have an exit interview with the Catholic church in the morning. This was his last night to have fun before he either recommitted to the church– which would likely involve a lot of tears and begging and humiliation rituals of punishment– or he went home to his mother, which would be another sort of humiliation ritual in itself.
Or he could walk away and attempt to move forward without any guidance from a higher authority.
He’d never quite fit in with the saints, and though he loved Persephone dearly, he couldn’t picture himself living with her for eternity, either. What would he do with himself for the half of every year when she was gone? To sit around in the Underworld without his dad there for company– the idea of it freaked him out. His father’s absence would be almost as hard to cope with as his presence.
He returned to the warehouse where, in a little over an hour, the concert would begin. By some twist of the Fates he chose to arrive in the precise spot in the hallway backstage where Persephone was standing, resulting in a very embarrassing jump-scare reaction on his part that involved tripping backwards over his own feet.
She stood before him with a big grin plastered across her face, her hair teased and hairsprayed so high that it towered nearly a foot from the top of her scalp.
“Jesus Christ,” Nico said, pressing his hand to his chest. “You scared me.”
“Uh oh. Is he here?” Persephone asked warily, looking over her shoulder.
“I doubt it,” he said, chuckling to himself. That never got old. “Mom, what are you doing here? And what the heck are you wearing?”
Persephone spun around to model the oversized white leather jacket and frayed cut off shorts that she was currently rocking over a pair of fishnet leggings. Her jacket was unzipped. She didn’t appear to be wearing anything underneath it.
“It’s rock and roll, babe!” she said. “I think I look good. I put little pieces of tape over my– oh,” she sighed, as Nico aggressively zipped her jacket closed. “Don’t you want your mom to look hot?”
“Not really.”
“At least I was on theme. I love your hair! It looks nice and messy, just the way I like it. The last few times I’ve seen you it’s been very flat and uninteresting.”
Nico smoothed his hair self-consciously, wondering if his unkempt appearance was a dead giveaway that he’d left his job as a saint. He really didn’t want his mom to know yet. It would be a whole thing.
As soon as he was done smoothing it Persephone reached out and mussed his hair up again.
“Forget about me. What’s going on with your hair?” Nico asked, eyeing the towering mass of brown curls that crowned her head like a beehive.
“The higher the hair, the closer to Olympus!” She said brightly. “Come on, let’s take a picture together!”
Nico obediently posed for a selfie with her, flashing a rock and roll sign while she stuck out her tongue and held up her middle finger. It didn’t occur to him not to take the photo with her, but as soon as he saw her opening the Godstagram app, he realized he might have miscalculated.
“You know, I had no idea you were planning on coming tonight,” he said, watching as she typed out a caption for Godstagram, her fingers moving at lightning-fast speed. He wasn’t sure how he felt about a return to social media, but decided he didn’t have the energy to fight that battle with her.
“Surely you didn’t think I was going to miss my baby’s first mortal assembly in his honor?” She asked incredulously. “This is an important milestone, honey. You’ll remember this for eternity.”
“It’s not really in my honor. I inspired a couple of songs, that’s all,” Nico said humbly, knowing he was vastly understating his influence.
“I remember my first time,” she sighed dreamily. “The Eleusinian Mysteries were incredible in their heyday. All the chanting and singing and sacrifices, the ceremonial wheat, the ritual tilling of the soil! Oh, it makes me nostalgic. And now it’s your turn,” she said, pulling him into a hug. “I’m so glad I can be here to support you. You make me very proud, my son.”
For a moment Nico was transported to a simpler time when he and his mom hadn’t had any barriers standing between them. He was glad she’d come. It felt right to have her there; after all, she’d been his fan before he’d had a fandom at all.
Then he remembered that Persephone hadn’t been invited. He’d never told her about the concert. She certainly hadn’t bought a ticket. And he recalled that, until today, he hadn’t really been allowed to speak freely with her. How had she known he’d welcome her presence? It was almost as if someone had told her he’d quit his job.
“Have you seen Thanatos today?” Nico asked.
“No,” she said innocently. “Why?”
Nico didn’t answer her. There was a voice in the back of his mind warning him. Someone had made a deal with Eros. Someone had set him up to be fired from the Catholic pantheon. There was no one more motivated to bring Nico home than Persephone.
But it was Eros they were talking about! Persephone was the reason he’d been banned from the Underworld in the first place. Despite it making logical sense, Nico’s mind struggled to accept that she could have done that to him.
He could kick himself for forgetting to ask Eros who’d hired him, but he’d been too caught up in his anger with the god of love. Investigating the identity of the mystery patron had totally slipped his mind.
Persephone walked toward the metal doors that led to the stage, beckoning for him to follow. Nico followed her out, trying not to think about the worst case scenario. Maybe there was some other explanation. Who else would have been willing to pay any price in order to bring him home?
Hades, Nico knew, would never have worked with Eros. Even if he’d been willing to, would he go out of his way to bring his son home? Seeing as Hades wasn’t home and hadn’t been for a long time, that didn’t make any sense. Besides, he knew his dad loved him, but that wasn’t the same as wanting him back. Both of their lives were easier without the other one in it.
That was depressing to think about, but it did cross Hades off the list. Who else did that leave as a potential culprit but Persephone?
His ruminations were interrupted when they emerged from the hallway and walked out onto the stage.
“What did you do?” Nico asked, looking around the space in awe.
Not just the stage, but the entire warehouse had been transformed into an eerie, dark scene reminiscent of the Underworld. Giant purple crystals sparkled on either side of the stage, framing the area where the band would perform. A haze of black smoke swirled in spiraling plumes, drifting out across the stage and falling off the edge like a waterfall. The crepe streamers had been multiplied a hundredfold and hung from the ceiling like black tinsel.
“Hazel helped with the crystals, but I did most of it,” Persephone said, bouncing up and down on her heels. “Do you like it or do you love it?”
“It’s fantastic,” he said. She’d done a good job of holding back, designing something impressive that still looked like it had been made with mortal hands. “Thanks, Mom.”
She put her arm around his shoulders and inspected his facial expression.
“Are you okay?” She asked, searching his face. “You’re supposed to be excited. Is something wrong?”
He didn’t want to say he was fine when it was obviously not true. He was done lying to his family. He wasn’t willing to tell her his suspicions, but he could tell her one undeniable truth.
“I’m really tired,” he said. “I haven’t slept in six months.”
“Come on,” Persephone said, urging him to follow her up to the accessible seating balcony. “I know what’ll perk you up.”
He dragged his feet, not wanting to ditch her, but also not fully at ease in her presence. His worries kept rattling around in his mind.
She magicked a bowl full of ambrosia cubes and passed it to him, settling into a seat beside him and putting her feet up on the railing.
In the distance, Nico heard the sound of a large metal door opening and shutting. He recognized the voices echoing in the distant hallway; Marco and the band had returned from dinner.
Nico popped an ambrosia square into his mouth absent-mindedly, forgetting that it had been a very long time since he’d eaten any. The burst of pure, life-giving sustenance on his tastebuds sent him salivating, and he quickly devoured more than half the bowl before he could think twice about it. He felt a rush of energy coming back to his limbs, a renewed clarity enervating his thoughts, and realized that he’d been starving himself for the last six months.
Of course, he’d known that already. But for a god, fatigue was subtle, and had crept up on him slowly. It wasn’t as though gods needed three square meals a day just to function; he could technically have kept going forever. But damn, he thought, feeling the heat of another ambrosia cube dissolving on his tongue. It felt good to be nourished. It was the difference between living and just existing.
When he came up for air he saw that Persephone was smirking with slight amusement. She was well aware he wasn’t allowed to eat. If there had been any doubt that he was done with the Pagan Demon Rehabilitation Program, it was gone now.
Worry niggled at him. She had already known; there was no surprise in her expression. But did that really mean she’d stooped so low as to put a hit on him? A love hit, but a hit nonetheless.
As though sensing that his timing would provide a helpful distraction, Thanatos swooped across the warehouse, as silent as a barn owl on his white-gold wings. He landed on the railing, forcing Persephone to move her feet so that he could perch like a gargoyle with his toes wrapped around the metal rail.
“What sort of an outfit is that for a concert?” Persephone asked, gesturing at his everyday grey mantle. “At least add a few safety pins.”
“I have no need for additional safety,” Thanatos said archly, tossing his head like a horse. “And I do not intend to watch the concert. I don’t like loud noises. Or crowds. Or music. Unless you want me to, Nico?”
Nico didn’t immediately respond. Than’s appearance was giving him uncomfortable flashbacks to his encounter with his near-identical older brother.
He stared at his soulmate, chewing on the inside of his mouth. Thanatos had brought up Eros almost immediately after Nico told him about quitting. Why had Thanatos connected those two subjects in his mind? Thanatos didn’t have the ability to grant Eros access to the Underworld again, but the possibility remained that Thanatos had known something about the situation that he’d chosen not to share.
Persephone answered his question before Nico could.
“You have to stay for the song that’s named after Nico,” she said. “It should be third on the setlist.”
“Alright. I wouldn’t want to miss that,” Thanatos nodded.
“How did you know the setlist?” Nico asked Persephone. She laughed aloud, her giggles pealing like bells.
“I disguised myself as a human and asked your friend Caio. He gave me his number,” she added, unzipping her jacket and showing Nico where he’d written it in Sharpie on her cleavage.
Again, Nico zipped her jacket back up for her, frowning.
“Please don’t play with my rock stars, Mom.”
“It was just a bit of fun,” she sighed. “Not to worry. I’m not dating or anything.”
The remark caught Nico off-guard. He’d never even thought about Persephone dating. He knew his parents were separated, but exactly how separated were they? Was he a child of divorce now? Did he come from a broken home?
He shuddered at the thought, and added it to the long list of reasons he probably needed to be in therapy.
“How long until the show starts?” Thanatos asked. “The rabble are already lining up outside. I saw them on my way in.” He caught sight of the ambrosia remaining in Nico’s bowl, and reached out and grabbed a handful.
“Doors open in ten minutes, show starts in an hour,” Persephone answered promptly.
“Get down from that railing, Than,” Nico snapped. “I just pictured you pecking at that ambrosia like a bird and it’s giving me the ick.”
“A bird? What made you think of birds?” Thanatos asked, flapping his wings with a complete lack of self awareness. A white feather fell out and floated on the air toward them. Persephone grabbed it and tucked it in Nico’s hair, making him smile.
Thanatos, rather than sitting in the chair beside Nico, sat on the floor in front of him. He chewed on his ambrosia, looking between Nico and his mother.
“I assume you told her about what happened this morning?” Thanatos asked.
Nico’s mouth went dry.
“Uh. No,” he said, looking at Persephone. She wore a quizzical expression, as though she were only mildly curious.
Thanatos winced, hunching his wings.
“Sorry,” he murmured, touching Nico’s knee in apology.
“No, it’s okay,” Nico said, only partially meaning it. He really hadn’t wanted to talk about this. “I guess the ambrosia was a giveaway. Mom, I quit the program this morning.”
There was no surprise on her face at the news. Nico grew more certain of exactly what he didn’t want to know.
“I have a meeting at the Vatican tomorrow to discuss what happens moving forward,” he added, avoiding her eyes.
“Moving forward?” Persephone asked, her voice tightening as her serenity dissipated. She gripped the edge of her seat, her knuckles turning white. “You mean you’re not– Didn’t you just say you quit?”
Nico stared at her coldly, weighing the possibility that she’d betrayed him in order to facilitate his homecoming. He didn’t want to accuse her until he knew for certain, but he wasn’t going to play the fool for her, either. When she’d turned him into a god, she’d lied through her teeth about it for years without a hint of guilt. Nico wasn’t going to fall for her innocent act again. He knew what she was capable of.
“I’m gonna weigh my options,” he said simply, folding his hands across his lap. “The Pagan Demon Rehabilitation Program is only one path to God, after all. There are others.”
He said it deliberately to piss her and Thanatos off. They’d both assumed quitting the program meant quitting Catholicism altogether. It probably did, but that wasn’t a foregone conclusion. Nico was satisfied to see them glance at each other nervously, both hesitant to voice their dismay.
He watched in silence as sound techs came on stage to double check the last preparations for the show. He heard the back door opening and closing repeatedly as the crew and venue staff hurried to complete their tasks. Soon the doors would open, and he’d see how many fans had come to see Bad Saint’s first live performance of songs from their new album. Everyone who’d listened would already know his name, but they’d have no idea that today they were attending an event that had been planned and orchestrated with the express purpose of worshiping him.
No, he thought. He wouldn’t let Persephone and Eros ruin this for him. He’d play nice while he still could. At least he’d beaten Eros at his own game and figured Persephone out quickly. They hadn’t bested him, and they weren’t going to get what they wanted out of their little plot, either.
“I'm gonna go freshen up before the show,” Nico said, standing up from his chair. “I think my jeans need a few more rips added to them.”
Persephone and Thanatos both watched as he headed toward the stairs.
“Good call. Also, just a tip, honey? Black eyeshadow on your lash line, blend it out, stop when you see a raccoon in the mirror,” Persephone called out.
“Hurry back,” Thanatos said affectionately, eating more ambrosia and settling in on the floor.
Neither appeared likely to follow him, which was a relief. Nico descended to the back hallway to check in with the band. He wanted to be present for them tonight, since he didn’t foresee himself joining them for the rest of the stops on the tour.
Leonardo and Marco were both standing in the hallway, hovering outside the dressing room. They looked worried about something.
“Maria not here yet?” Nico asked, chest tightening at the realization that she wasn't backstage yet less than an hour to showtime.
“She's on her way,” Marco answered, seemingly unconcerned by her absence. “Said she was posting one last pre-show Tiktok.”
Nico relaxed. He didn't want their little dream rendezvous to put the concert in jeopardy, but maybe he was giving himself a little too much credit. She took this event just as seriously as he did, and the arrow had hopefully worn off for her too.
“Okay, so why do you look like you’re freaking out? I need you calm and ready to rock,” he said half-jokingly.
“We have a problem with the opener,” Leonardo said, fiddling with one of his crucifix earrings. “It's cool that you booked the guy last minute, I'm sure he's talented, but his rider is nuts. We can't get all yellow Skittles on this short notice.”
“Huh? What do Skittles have to do with anything?”
“We need a pound of all yellow Skittles for the opener,” Marco explained.
“What opener?” Nico asked, not understanding what they were referring to.
“The blonde guy? He said he was your friend,” Marco said, gesturing at the dressing room door.
Unhesitating, Nico kicked the door open. The door flew inward, and, in an unfortunate coincidence, Caio was standing just behind it. The door slammed into his body with significant force, knocking him onto the floor with a massive crash and thud.
“Oops,” Nico said, grimacing as Skittles flew everywhere.
“A little overzealous,” Apollo said, standing up from where he’d been sitting on the stool in front of the dressing table. He knelt next to Caio, who was moaning in pain. Based on the white mesh top and black leather pants Apollo was wearing, as well as his blended-out eyeliner, Nico surmised that Apollo had been planning on opening for his band.
He cringed internally, and not just because he’d inadvertently hurt Caio. He’d assumed the blonde man demanding Skittles had been Eros, but if he’d given it another moment’s thought he would have realized that Apollo made a little bit more sense– and more importantly, was not his enemy. Now he’d escalated things for no reason.
“Look, you broke his arm!” Apollo said, holding it up and wiggling at Nico to show him what he’d done. Caio thrashed in agony, and Nico heard Marco and Leonardo exclaiming in dismay behind him.
“Oh no,” Nico said, his stomach dropping. Caio couldn’t play with a broken arm.
To make matters worse, he heard the noise level in the warehouse suddenly explode into a cacophony of excited voices layered atop one another, echoing off of the warehouse ceiling. The venue doors had opened and the fans were pouring in. Was Bad Saint going to have to cancel and give all of these people refunds thanks to his impulsivity? At this early stage of the tour, it could mean no tour at all.
Before Nico could spiral into full-fledged panic, Apollo ran his hand across Caio’s arm gently, whispering something to him under his breath. Instantly the bones of his arm knitted themselves back together. His skin glowed golden, then faded back to its natural olive tone.
Apollo helped him to sit up, tracing his fingers across Caio’s body carefully, fixing every small nick and bruise he could find. Caio relaxed totally under Apollo’s ministrations, gazing up at him like he was some supreme being. Which he was, obviously.
“You’re all better,” Apollo said, his entire being radiating golden light and warmth. “Even took care of those hemorrhoids. You need to eat more fiber, pal.”
“Who are you?” Caio murmured, looking into Apollo’s eyes.
Nico felt hot jealousy flood his system.
“Nope, nope, nope,” he said, helping Caio to his feet and positioning his body between the band members and Apollo. “They’re mine. Keep your mitts off them.”
“Ungrateful much?” Apollo asked, still sprawled on the floor. He picked up a yellow Skittle and popped it into his mouth. “I just fixed your bassist. That you broke.”
“Actually, he’s my drummer,” Nico said. “MY drummer. Mine.”
He pushed Caio, Marco, and Leonardo back out into the hallway.
“You saw nothing,” he said, pointing at them forcefully. “Forget you met that guy. He’s not as nice as he looks.”
“He fixed my arm, though,” Caio murmured.
“He also invented Covid. Did you like lockdown? No? Didn’t think so,” Nico said, closing the door in their faces.
On the other side he huffed a frustrated sigh, his back pressed to the door.
“I’m gonna have to wipe their memories or something,” he grimaced.
“Probably,” Apollo said, sitting back down at the dressing table and fiddling with an elongated rod-device in his hair.
“What are you doing?” Nico asked.
“Using my Dyson Airwrap,” Apollo muttered without turning around. “Obviously.”
“What are you doing here ,” Nico said, taking the device from Apollo’s hand and forcing him to look at him. “I don’t remember asking you to open for my band.”
Apollo groaned, wriggling uncomfortably.
“You’re really gonna make me admit it?” He asked.
“Admit what?” Nico asked. “Did somebody put you up to this? Was it my mom?”
“What? No! I’m trying to do something nice for you, you jerk,” Apollo said, forcing the words from his mouth as though they tasted foul. “You helped Asclepius, so I figured I owed you. Happy?”
He returned to his airwrapping, and Nico took a moment to process. Apollo was the god of music, so his presence could only make the show better. If he opened, the crowd would love every second of whatever he chose to sing. Maybe Bad Saint would pale in comparison to his supernatural talent, but he’d probably enhance them, too. The concert would undoubtedly be a huge success.
“Apollo,” Nico said gently, placing his hand on the sun god’s arm. “I appreciate the intent, but I would prefer that you don’t open for my band. Thanks anyways.”
Apollo turned his bright blue eyes up to meet Nico’s, seemingly gauging his sincerity. After a moment, he grumbled a bit, then chucked his Dyson airwrap onto the dressing table with a clatter.
“Guess I’ll go fuck myself, then,” Apollo said, flinging his hands in the air dramatically. “You didn’t deserve me, anyway. You might try to act cool, but at the end of the day, Christian rock is still Christian rock. I just feel sorry for your fans. They’ll never be able to appreciate the subtle heartache in my rendition of ‘Don’t Cry for Me, Argentina’. Patti Lupone heard it once and vowed never to perform again. I had to slip her some Lethe water before she’d go back onstage.”
“Don’t waste your time casting pearls before swine,” Nico said, happy to soothe Apollo’s ego if it meant peace between them. To placate him, he conjured a bowl of yellow Skittles and placed it on the dressing table. “It’s nothing personal. I just don’t want to mix pantheons. The band’s been confused enough as it is.”
Apollo shrugged, and Nico was relieved to see that he was taking the rejection well.
“How’s Asclepius settling in?” Nico asked, watching as Apollo shoved a handful of Skittles in his mouth.
A big grin split Apollo’s face. The room suddenly felt a few degrees warmer, like the sun itself was hitting it directly.
“He’s the happiest I’ve ever seen him,” Apollo said. “It’s been great to have him home. We threw a huge rager at Epidaurus. You would have been invited, but we didn’t think you’d be allowed to come,” he added, looking at Nico apologetically. “Isis told us the inside scoop on what happened. If not for you, he’d have been stuck six feet under the Vatican for eternity.”
“That’s not true,” Nico said immediately. “I wasn’t the only one in the church that wanted him home.”
“Dude, just take the credit,” Apollo said. “The saints had him imprisoned for seventy years, and then six months after you got there, he was out. It was obviously your doing, and we’re grateful.” He pursed his lips. “Are you sure you won’t let me open? Or at least play emcee tonight? Because if you don’t let me do something, I’m not gonna be able to ever repay you for what you did for him.”
“You healed Caio,” Nico said. “That’s something.”
“That’s nothing,” Apollo insisted. “That’s like somebody giving you a kidney and then asking for a Starbucks gift card in exchange.”
Nico laughed aloud, then paused, hearing a familiar voice in the hall. A few seconds later Maria Bova poked her head into the dressing room.
For a moment, she and Nico stared at each other. He realized that, as the resident supernatural being, he was the one who ought to take the lead in defining their relationship going forward.
“Did you see the crowd out there?” He asked, affecting a casual, friendly smile. “Crazy, right?”
“Uh, yes,” she responded hesitantly, her face flushing. “Crazy. I just wanted to let you know I’m here, and I’m going to give it my all tonight. You’ll see.”
“Can’t wait,” Nico said, turning away as though he preferred to return to his conversation with Apollo. She took it as a dismissal, which was the intended effect.
“Bye,” Maria said. “Nice seeing you again, Apollo.”
She shut the door behind her.
“How does she know who you are?” Nico asked, immediately suspicious.
“Chill with the dagger-eyes,” Apollo said, raising his shoulders defensively. “Terpsichore was her voice teacher, remember? I helped them win the Sanremo music festival the year before last.”
“Right,” Nico said, breathing a sigh of relief. “Sorry. I forgot you knew each other. Does she know you’re THE Apollo?”
“I’m sure she’s put it together by now,” Apollo said. “What’s with the paranoia? You do realize I’m here to help you, right? Not trying to sabotage your life and wreck your concert? This is the second time you’ve jumped to the wrong conclusion about me in the last ten minutes.”
Nico had to take a deep breath to re-center himself. Apollo was right. He was paranoid. He felt like he had every reason to be, just based on all the unfair twists and turns he’d been subjected to in his life. But Hades had always used that excuse, too. It had never made his accusations any less hurtful.
He hopped up onto the dressing table. If his options were between sitting with his mom and Thanatos and hiding out in here until the show, he’d prefer to talk to Apollo.
“Can I vent to you about something?” He asked.
Apollo shrugged his shoulders, and before he knew it, Nico was recounting everything that had happened earlier with Eros, Maria, and his suspicions about his mom. His re-telling of events eventually turned into rambling about how he was sick and tired of not being able to trust anyone, and that rambling meandered into general complaints that he had no idea what he was doing with his life. He talked for so long that Apollo got bored, found a Sharpie on the ground, and started doodling a picture on the leg of Nico’s jeans.
Out of breath, Nico stopped abruptly.
“Ahem,” he said, raising his knee and inspecting Apollo’s artwork. He’d added a bunch of scribbles, alongside a picture of the sun wearing sunglasses. “Okay. Rant over. Sorry.”
“It’s cool,” Apollo said. “I was pretty messed up after my first run-in with Eros, too. My reputation never recovered. Neither did Daphne. She’s still a tree. And she’s still mad at me! Guess I wasn’t as tough and strong willed as you, mister ‘it took two whole arrows to get me to still not even technically have sex with someone’.”
“I’m Catholic. I’m good at being repressed,” Nico said. “Now I’m just not sure what to do about my mom. Should I confront her? I’m pretty sure she was the one behind it all.”
“How should I know?” Apollo said, drawing a crown of laurels encircling the hem of Nico’s skinny jeans. “My mom is the goddess of motherhood. She doesn’t do stuff like that to me. I can’t relate to your situation.”
“Must be nice,” Nico said bitterly.
“Well, my dad is Zeus. They cancel each other out.”
“Fair point,” Nico admitted. His parents were more complementary than opposite; he wouldn’t call either of them perfect. They both loved him in their own way, but Persephone could be self-centered, and Hades could be… Well, he could be a lot of things.
“The wise thing to do would probably be to wait until I’m sure before I accuse my mom of anything,” Nico admitted, glad that his ranting had resulted in some clarity on that one point, if nothing else. “I can confirm it with Eros before I confront her.”
“Mm,” Apollo hummed absent mindedly. He wasn’t really paying attention, but Nico was happy enough to have a listening ear for his troubles. His expectations when it came to Apollo had never been very high.
“You know, you’ve got your life together a lot better than you think you do,” Apollo said unexpectedly.
Nico snorted.
“Are you kidding me?”
“I’m not,” Apollo said insistently. He began to draw a spiral on Nico’s knee, slowly expanding outward. It tickled a little. “All of my adventures seem to end with me kneeling in front of my father’s throne, begging him for forgiveness. But when you got treated badly at home, you just walked away. You had a backup pantheon waiting.”
It was a massive oversimplification, but Nico waited, seeing that Apollo was being genuine.
“I think a lot of us envy you,” Apollo admitted. “Or at least envy that you were in a position to do that. A lot of the time it feels like we have nowhere else to go. You got us to question that. It’s kind of exciting.”
“Thank my mortal mother,” Nico said quietly, understanding what Apollo was trying to say. “She baptised me in secret. Somehow she knew.”
Apollo made a face.
“Kind of unfortunate that it had to be Catholicism, but I guess it can’t be helped,” he smirked, signing his name beneath his completed spiral artwork. Nico looked down at his leg, which was now covered in tortoiseshell lyres, musical notes, and what looked like a poem.
Nico leaned down to read the poem, but Apollo abruptly put his head on Nico’s knee, blocking it from view. The sight of Apollo’s golden curls spilling across his thigh made Nico’s throat go tight. Over the years he’d had a lot of opinions about Apollo– most of them negative. But he’d never not found him incredibly attractive.
Apollo leaned his arm on Nico’s leg, continuing to draw lines and spirals and hearts and stars all over his thigh. As his toned golden bicep crept further up his thigh, Nico swallowed hard, his heart racing. Was Apollo flirting with him?
Surely he was just overthinking the situation. Apollo was probably just more comfortable with casual touch, and Nico was oversensitized from deprivation. This was friendliness. There was nothing more to it than that.
Apollo looked up at him, putting the Sharpie away. Something in his gaze, the knowing slant of his eyebrows and the soft curve of his lips, gave the impression that he knew exactly what effect he was having. He’d managed to find a convenient excuse to run his hands up and down his legs for half an hour, which was a fairly brilliant move on his part.
Nico realized self-consciously that Apollo had definitely been able to hear his every heartbeat loud and clear. He flushed at the realization. It had been a long time since he’d been with another god.
Apollo stood up from his seat, and Nico slid down from the dressing table, still slightly flustered. He expected anger to accompany his embarrassment at not having realized what was going on for so long, but instead of angry, he felt pleased. It really did feel like a bit of harmless teasing. For someone coming off a long stint of enforced celibacy, it was a shock to the system, but not in a bad way.
“I’ve decided there is gonna be an opener,” Apollo said casually. “They’re gonna go on in five minutes.”
Nico’s heart sank in disappointment.
“I thought we agreed–”
“It’s not me,” Apollo assured him, putting his hands on his shoulders. “Relax. I picked someone totally Catholic approved. You’ll like him.”
“Apollo,” Nico said, worried. “I don’t know.”
He didn’t trust him or his judgment or his choice of song. For all he knew, Apollo had asked Madonna to sing ‘Like a Prayer’ thinking it was a hymn.
Apollo reached up and curled a piece of Nico’s hair around his finger, twirling the silky black strand, tugging on it, then letting it fall to bounce against his cheek.
“We’re not all out to get you,” Apollo said gently, meeting Nico’s eyes with compassion. “At least not all the time.”
Nico clenched his teeth and looked away.
“Fine,” he said reluctantly.
Apollo snorted, disappointed with his reaction.
“You’re welcome,” he said snippily. “You can apologize and thank me later.”
He disappeared without saying anything more. Nico knew he probably came across as paranoid and ungrateful, and he felt bad about it. But he didn’t know what else to do. The part of him that knew how to trust people had died a long time ago.
He heard someone, possibly Apollo himself, make an announcement onstage introducing the opener. He could hardly bear to listen; his stomach churned with stress. There were so many ways for Apollo to fuck this up. Nico knew how Greek god egos worked. Despite promising the opener wasn’t him, there was still a ninety percent chance the opener was gonna be Apollo in a wig. He didn’t want to know; he hesitated in the dressing room, reluctant to walk outside.
The crowd began to scream with wild, unhinged excitement, the sound outside redoubling into a roar that he couldn’t tune out. Whoever was opening, they must have been very famous. That probably wasn’t good.
Procrastinating the inevitable, Nico leaned down to look at the poem Apollo had scrawled on his pant leg. The Sharpie had bled into the fabric a little, blurring the words on the dark fabric, but he was just able to make it out amidst the suns and stars dotting the denim.
‘Hyacinth’s purple, Daphne’s a tree,
Break up with Jesus and go out with me!’
Nico couldn’t help but smile. Damn it. That was cute.
Feeling slightly giddy, he mustered the courage to walk into the hallway. Once he opened the door and heard the opener, who had just begun to sing, he broke into a run, covering the short distance between the dressing room and the side-stage faster than humanly possible.
The four members of Bad Saint were huddled together, clinging to each other and staring out at the old man standing center stage who was singing into the microphone. All of them wore identical expressions of awe, as did Nico.
He went up to Maria and grabbed her hand, squeezing it as tightly as he dared.
“I can’t believe it,” she mouthed to him silently, loath to speak over the music. There were tears running down her face. “It’s Andrea Bocelli! The Andrea Bocelli!”
“I know!” He mouthed. She leaned over and kissed him on the cheek, whispering fervent thank you’s that were quickly echoed by her band-mates. He didn’t bother explaining that it hadn’t been his doing. He’d transfer her thanks over to Apollo later.
Andrea Bocelli was singing ‘Ave Maria,’ and his resounding, perfect tenor filled every inch of the warehouse with glorious sound. The entire venue was silent, with exception of a quiet rumbling from those too excited to keep quiet. Nico hung on every note.
Perhaps it could be argued that the choice of song and performer didn’t fit the tone of a rock concert, but that didn’t seem to matter. The audience was enraptured, and Nico glimpsed thousands of phones held up to record. The unexpected juxtaposition of genres made the surprise performance even more remarkable. It would go viral, it would be on the news, it would be watched on Youtube over and over and over by millions of people. And if they watched Andrea’s performance, maybe the performance right afterward would be able to latch on to some of those millions.
After the closing notes, Andrea didn’t linger. Nico was crestfallen that he was only singing one song, but that one song alone had been one of the most unexpected delights of his life. He could have kicked himself for nearly telling Apollo not to allow the performance to go ahead. He couldn’t imagine missing out on this solely because he was unable to trust.
As soon as Andrea had walked offstage, Maria and the band rushed onstage and picked up their instruments. It surely stung to miss the opportunity to gush over his performance and beg for autographs, but the four musicians had a greater purpose in playing that night. Maybe a normal concert could have taken a breather, but this was not just a promotional tour for their album– it was a promotional tour for Nico himself. The thousands of recording phones in the audience now would translate into millions of watching eyeballs on Youtube later. This was a moment to seize.
Nico didn’t share that priority; he was so desperate to get Andrea’s autograph that he almost missed hearing Maria’s opening statement. She’d learned a lot since her spiel on TV after Eurovision when she’d rambled incoherently about the weird saint she believed in. Her time on Tiktok had taught her that brief statements were more impactful than long rants. Besides, there was no reason to go on at length when you could let your music speak for you.
“We are Bad Saint, and tonight, we dedicate this performance to Nico di Angelo,” she said into the microphone. She was struggling to capture the crowd’s attention, which was understandable; the gulf between her fame and the opener’s was wide, but that was part of what made the moment potent. “He’s a bad saint, a good god, and he’s the last thing any of us will ever see!”
They immediately launched into the song named for him.
Nico was grinning ear to ear. He couldn’t believe it. He’d gotten Andrea Bocelli to sign one of his sneakers!
Though it was a lower priority, he had also heard Maria Bova call him a god, which was slightly mind blowing. He knew her heart. She surely believed in only one God who was decidedly not Nico di Angelo. He wondered if the statement was a concession to the demigods she’d spent the last couple of days with, who obviously did see him as a god. It felt strange to think of those two sides of his world colliding together, but he was willing to lean into the weirdness and appreciate the love being sent his way.
Apollo appeared out of nowhere in a flash of light. Before Nico could unleash a litany of overflowing gratitude, Apollo held up his hand.
“Hold that thought,” Apollo said, glowing with happiness. He knew that he’d done a good job, and looked relieved at having his debt to Nico paid. “I need to take my kid home. Daddy’s so proud of you, buddy,” he added, putting his arm around Andrea’s shoulders.
“You only get in touch when you need something,” Andrea muttered, frowning.
They disappeared in a burst of light. Nico watched the performance for a few moments from behind the curtain. All four band members were on fire with passion, playing like it was the most important show of their lives– which it was. They sounded better than Nico had ever heard them before. He wanted to hear them properly, to get the experience the rest of the crowd was having, so he shadow traveled to the back of the warehouse.
The vibe in the audience was electric. Bad Saint didn’t have a large fanbase yet, but it was a cheap show in a big city, so a lot of people had showed up to give them a chance. Undoubtedly there would be even more people who regretted not seeing this show with its iconic surprise opener. Two girls in front of Nico were currently on the phone attempting to buy tickets to the next stop on the tour.
“Fucking website keeps crashing,” the girl said in English, refreshing the page in frustration.
“It’s because you’re buying too many at once,” her friend said.
“Did you get them yet?” Artemis shouted over the din, elbowing her way through the crowd on her way to the back. She stopped short when she saw Nico. “Oh. Ew. It’s you.”
The girls in front of Nico turned around. Thalia and Reyna looked shocked to see him standing just a few feet behind them.
“Are you wearing my merch?” Nico asked, staring at Artemis in glee.
She folded her arms across her chest, attempting to cover the Bad Saint t-shirt she was sporting that had his silhouette on it.
“No,” Artemis muttered. “Yes. Maybe. Shut up.”
“We had to stand in line for an hour to get enough shirts for everyone,” Reyna said. “They sold out.”
“I can send you some extras,” Nico said, smirking smugly. “Have you seen Hazel and the others?”
“They’re in the mosh pit. You’re still on speaking terms? After the, you know–” Thalia made a gesture meant to emulate worms coming out of her mouth, wiggling her fingers and coughing.
“We worked it out.”
“Did somebody say mosh pit? Artemis, why are we not in the mosh pit? I want to mosh!” Ariadne said, pushing back through the crowd to reach her friend. She had on an identical t-shirt and had done her hair up in piled curls like Persephone. “Oh, hi Nico! Great concert!”
“We’re not in the pit because you get too wild,” Artemis said. “The same reason the maenads aren’t here. They take crowdkilling too literally.”
“Nico!”
He looked up to see Persephone calling his name. She and Thanatos were leaning over the railing overhead, looking down from the balcony directly above.
“You abandoned us!” She shouted. “Get your butt back up here and enjoy this rock concert with your mother!”
Artemis snorted.
“I’ll be there in a minute, Mom!” Nico shouted back up at her. “I’m talking to my friends!”
“Not very rock and roll, getting bossed around by your mom,” Ariadne giggled. “How are you feeling?”
“I feel kind of lightheaded, actually,” Nico said. “Is there enough oxygen in here? I guess I don’t really need oxygen. I would like some, though.”
“It’s the worship,” Artemis said matter-of-factly. “It hits pretty hard on this scale once it kicks in. You are going to be zonked out of your freakin’ mind in a couple of hours.”
“Very few people here actually worship me,” Nico said, looking around the crowd. “They just like the music.”
“Name recognition alone is enough to feel a kick,” Ariadne said. “And this song is named after you.”
As she spoke, the first song ended. The music faded out, and all that was left was a warehouse full of people chanting his name.
Nico listened, stunned. He’d thought he’d known what it meant to be worshiped. He’d received sacrifices and prayers before and felt their effects. He’d been underselling the significance of this concert to himself, he realized, because the vast majority of people in attendance didn’t worship him or believe he was necessarily real. Most probably saw him as nothing more than Maria’s delusion, or a publicity gimmick for the concept album, or they didn’t lend any significance to his name at all.
What he’d failed to understand was that it didn’t matter. There was still a weight to their recognition, the attention paid to him. It made sense that worship could come in a myriad of forms, once he thought about it. Maria’s devotion hadn’t meant less to him just because she didn’t technically worship him, since she didn’t worship any of the saints. And Zeus was still as powerful and arrogant as ever. He didn’t have much of a religious following in the modern era, but his name recognition had never been higher, and his status in pop culture was untouchable. The impact might have been less intense in the modern world, but it was spread out across more people than had ever lived in Ancient Greece, so perhaps it balanced out.
Nico swayed a little on his feet. Was he ready to feel the full effects of this concert? He felt like he’d just ate one of Hecate’s special brownies without asking about what was inside. Doing that usually meant that you had an hour before you started believing you could fly. He already could fly, so he wasn’t sure what else he had to look forward to.
“Hey,” Apollo said, appearing in a burst of light. “What did I miss?”
Nico didn’t waste any time. He threw his arms around Apollo in a hug, taking extra care to feel the muscles of his back under his hands, to smell the scent of sunlight on his neck. His opinion of Apollo was growing more positive the longer he got to keep his hands on him.
His whole body was beginning to ache with long-neglected desire. He’d really, really missed hot blonde guys.
“Thank you,” he said, kissing Apollo on the cheek. “I’m glad I trusted you.”
“Heh,” Apollo said, turning slightly pink. “You’re welcome. Wow. Didn’t expect you to be this happy.”
Nico was surprised to see the sun god looking bashful, and found the sight very charming. He hadn’t taken the flirtation or the poem very seriously, but he wondered whether it might be worthwhile to find out how far this could go.
“Why wouldn’t I be happy?” Nico asked. “I love Andrea Bocelli. I mean, for a pop singer. He’s not an opera singer, technically, so he’s not on my official list of favorite tenors, but he makes the honorary Popera list. He’s better than Josh Groban.”
“You’re an opera snob,” Apollo said, raising his eyebrows. “I didn’t know that about you. Makes sense, though. We should, uh, get nectar and talk about it sometime.”
Ariadne burst out laughing, not in mockery, but in genuine amusement.
“You should go for it, Nico!” She said. “You two could make beautiful music together!”
“Oh, Fates, I’m gonna be sick,” Artemis said, rolling her eyes dramatically. “Go ahead and write him a cutesy little poem while you’re at it, bro. That’s been your modus operandi since the Bronze Age.”
Nico laughed aloud at Apollo’s obvious embarrassment. In a distant part of his brain, he was self-aware of the fact that he was smiling a lot more than he usually did, and was finding things extremely funny. It was no wonder Apollo was a little thrown off by his demeanor, since Nico had been anxious and downcast when they’d spoken in the dressing room earlier. Right now he was beginning to forget he had any problems at all, and the room in the periphery of his vision was spinning just a little bit.
He could get used to this mass-worship thing.
He stumbled slightly, falling into Apollo, who caught him and slipped an arm behind his back. Nico laughed again, the room spinning around him. The night was just starting to really get good, he thought.
To think, it was only just getting started.
“Aha!” Shouted an all-too-familiar voice.
Nico looked up to see a skinless accusatory finger pointed directly at his face. His breath caught in his throat.
“Faithless sinner,” Saint Bartholomew said, his voice booming with rage. “Reprobate heathen! You are a wicked serpent who has slithered into our midst!”
Nico jerked out of Apollo’s grip and backed up against the wall, trembling. He felt as though he’d just shrunk to about two feet tall.
“Bartholomew,” he said weakly. “I– I wasn’t doing anything–”
“Liar!” Bartholomew shouted, spittle flying from his damp mouth, the visible muscles of his jaw working. Nico caught a glimpse of Saints Catherine and Adalbert behind him, but his eyes never left Bartholomew’s bulging orbs. “Mark my words, foul servant of Satan, I will have you fired for this!”
The initial terror of being caught began to fade, and Nico started to piece together what Bartholomew had just said.
“Who yells?” Apollo scoffed, propping a hand on his hip.
“Nico, how could you?” Catherine asked, staring at Nico in horror. “Was it all a lie? From the beginning?”
She and Adalbert had never looked more out of place than at the concert surrounded by a horde of vaping twenty-somethings covered in tattoos and piercings. Her demure brown cloak and Adalbert’s monk’s robes stood out amongst the leather and chains. Ironically, Bartholomew’s terrifying visage didn’t look so out of place. He’d have fit right in at a metal show.
“What are you talking about?” Nico asked. “Was what a lie?”
Adalbert gestured at Apollo.
“We are not fools, Nico,” he said, his voice sounding hollow. “Was this your plan? Gain our trust in order to get his son free, then mock us behind our backs?”
Nico realized what they’d assumed, and suddenly understood why Bartholomew had reacted immediately upon seeing Apollo and Nico acting overly friendly.
“We thought you were different from the rest,” Catherine said, hanging her head in disappointment.
“There was no plan,” Nico insisted. “And I didn’t lie to you. My reasons for joining you were sincere. I wasn’t plotting to free Asclepius from the start; that happened organically. I didn’t even know you had him. There’s nothing going on between me and Apollo.”
Apollo snorted.
“Yeah, apparently not,” he said in annoyance. “Why do you care what these people think, Nico? I thought you didn’t work for them anymore.”
Nico looked between the faces of the three Saints he’d worked with in the program.
“I don’t,” he said.
He swallowed hard around a lump in his throat. He’d been doing such a good job so far of focusing on the positive aspects of leaving the church, but this was unavoidable. He looked between Bartholomew, Adalbert, and Catherine, feeling his heart ache. He was going to miss these people.
Not Bartholomew, obviously. But the others, he’d miss.
“You’re quitting,” Bartholomew said, filling in the blanks. “Well. I should have known this concert would be too much for your ego to handle. Of course you’ve decided to return to your so-called godhood.”
“Um, no,” Nico said, offended. He was proud of what he’d accomplished to make the concert happen– the concert which currently raged around them, the floor shaking with the impact of thousands of people jumping up and down and screaming. He was feeling better about himself than he had in a long time, and he was also slightly high. But he hadn’t been strutting around taking credit for it all. On the contrary, he felt that in some ways the concert had happened in spite of him.
“No, Bartholomew, I haven’t decided that,” he said, speaking loudly and clearly so that there was no chance of misunderstanding. “Brigid decided that for me. She essentially fired me this afternoon. She said the only way I could stay was to spend a hundred years in a monastery under a vow of silence in human form. I said no, and so I quit.”
Bartholomew’s jaw dropped open, his tongue hanging loose amidst his skinless face in a very unpleasant visual.
“That can’t be true,” Catherine said, a look of total confusion on her face.
“It has to be,” Adalbert said. “We’d know if he was lying.” He, too, looked concerned.
“I guess she didn’t get around to telling you yet,” Nico shrugged. “Doesn’t seem like her. But it doesn’t change what happened.”
“No, Nico,” Bartholomew said, the muscles in his forehead bunching. “It changes everything. We came here this evening to inform you that you are being promoted.”
Chapter Text
“A promotion?” Nico said, flabbergasted. “Why?”
“The Tiktok,” Saint Catherine said, shouting to be heard over the wailing of the electric guitar and the screams of the crowd. “The one Maria Bova posted a little over an hour ago? It’s been the talk of the Papal state this evening. Surely you’ve seen it.”
“I don’t have a phone,” Nico said. “One Tiktok was enough to earn me a promotion? Seriously?”
He glanced up at Maria where she was singing on stage. He’d thought that she’d given up on his sainthood campaign after conceding victory to Carlo Acutis. Something in the last couple of hours had changed her mind.
There was really only one thing that could explain it.
“You sent her an ecstatic vision earlier,” Adalbert said. “Her faith has been redoubled after a period of crisis. Re-tripled, actually. A lot of people have found it quite inspiring. This looks very good for you.”
“An ecstatic vision?” Apollo snorted, listening in. “Is that what the kids are calling it these days?”
“This isn’t any of your business, demon,” Bartholomew snapped fiercely. “Begone!”
“Come on, Nico, you’re not really listening to these jerks, are you?” Apollo asked, looking at Nico incredulously. “Haven’t they put you through enough?”
They certainly had, Nico thought to himself. He was tired. He wanted to eat and sleep and shower again. To be fired had been a relief, but the idea of having something to show for all of his efforts was incredibly tempting.
“I need to hear them out at least,” Nico said, not wanting to meet Apollo’s eyes.
Apollo scoffed, then shouldered his way back into the crowd without a word. Artemis, Ariadne and the huntresses had departed as well, leaving Nico standing alone with the saints in the far back of the concert. Nico knew he’d disappointed Apollo, but he didn’t owe him anything. The sun god had absolutely no idea how much of himself Nico had sacrificed on the altar of potential sainthood. He’d be a fool not to find out what was on offer.
“I used to have ecstatic visions,” Catherine said, sighing nostalgically. “My entire being would be aflame with blazing passion. For the lord, that is,” she added, smiling. “I was married to Christ in one of them. Married in faith, of course.”
“Good for you,” Nico said awkwardly, wondering what exactly that had entailed and deciding it was none of his business. “What is this promotion?”
“There isn’t going to be any more talk of a promotion until we sort out two things. Firstly, what happened between yourself and Saint Brigid,” Bartholomew said. “To my knowledge, you have not been fired. Perhaps you misunderstood something she said?”
“I don’t think so,” Nico said. “What’s the second thing?”
“In order to advance your cause, we’d need to have one of your miracles recognized. We’d been keeping that ruby and pearl rosary on file in case this were to happen, but it’s gone missing.”
“Oh!” Adalbert said, pointing. “She’s wearing it right now!”
Nico turned and saw the ruby rosary glinting around Maria’s neck onstage, catching the stage lights so that it looked like a fiery red star was shining on her throat.
“Someone returned it to her early this morning without explanation,” Nico said. He suddenly remembered something and frowned. “But I wasn’t fired until the afternoon. Something strange is going on. It had two gold bracelets–”
“Bracelets?” Catherine asked.
Nico squinted up at the stage and saw the golden bands glinting on Marco’s and Caio’s forearms. He had a sudden vivid recollection of two staffs entwined with snakes, and Brigid transforming them each into golden torques.
“Brigid gave Maria back the necklace.” He didn’t bring up the bracelets again, thinking it was better he be the one to decide what to do with Hermes’ Caduceus and Asclepius’ rod. “She returned it before she fired me. I was set up. Before she gave me the test of faith she knew exactly what the outcome would be.”
“A test of faith? What happened?” Adalbert asked.
“I don’t want to get into it,” Nico said, depressed at the mere thought. The more he recalled the encounter he’d had with James and the realization that his faith was completely hollow, the more he felt like he wanted to be done with the whole charade of being Catholic. Brigid had obviously not done her due diligence in terms of informing the rest of the church about his firing, but that didn’t mean it wasn’t valid. Whatever the promotion was, he doubted it would hold up to scrutiny.
“You know what?” he said bitterly. “You guys need to go sort things out with Brigid and leave me alone. I don’t want to get jerked around anymore. If this promotion isn’t legit, don’t waste my time. I’ve already spent the whole afternoon sinning, and I’m gonna continue to do so, because I’ve been informed in no uncertain terms by my supervisor that I don’t work for you anymore.”
“Must you?” Catherine asked, wincing.
“Yeah, I must,” he said stubbornly. “I’m trying to get high off all this worship in here and you’re killing my vibe!”
He left them behind and walked into the crowd, disappearing into the mass of smelly, scream-singing bodies. He was glad he’d ended that conversation, and not just because it was unpleasant and confusing. He was starting to feel the effects of the concert kicking into high gear, and the periphery of his vision was starting to glow with kaleidoscopic rainbows. Every time he set a foot on the ground, it didn’t quite reach, but instead sat a little further off the ground with each progressive step as though he was climbing invisible stairs. He had to make a conscious effort to stay on the ground and walk normally, but his progression through the melange of jumbled, gyrating bodies felt like he was swimming through human stew. The music was ear-shatteringly loud, and yet it sounded as though it were playing in the next room through a thick wall of carpet.
He managed to push his way to the mosh pit in front of the stage and watched with amusement as Ariadne danced in the center of a circle of onlookers, flailing her limbs wildly and violently knocking into people. He watched for a moment, wildly entertained by the ferocious elegance of her dance moves. Multiple people had to be dragged out of the pit bleeding and unconscious, but most of them were huntresses of Artemis, so that was okay by him.
Nico caught sight of Hazel, Frank, Annabeth and Percy on the very edge of the stage on the far side of the pit. He just happened to make eye contact with Frank as he lifted Hazel onto his shoulders. Frank shot him a sheepish smile as he hoisted her butt over the edge of the platform. She ungracefully rolled herself onto the stage, keeping off to the left side where most people weren’t looking.
Nico didn’t necessarily have a problem with Hazel playing around on stage, but he wasn’t sure what her motive was for doing so. He wondered whether he would need to tell the venue security to leave her alone, but Annabeth already had that covered. There was only one guard, a pudgy older man who looked slightly overwhelmed at the unexpected crowd he was meant to be handling all on his own. Crappy warehouse shows for new, unpopular bands didn’t typically have huge turnouts, but after word of Andrea Bocelli’s performance, more people had poured in to see the show. Nico wondered whether the venue was over capacity and if people were just walking in off the street. He figured the more the merrier, though it was probably against fire code.
Percy was telling the security guard a long-winded story, and Annabeth was playing backup by manipulating the mist to obscure Hazel’s frantic scrambling. Hazel ducked behind an amp clutching a small bundle in her arms, and Nico lost sight of her.
Before he could investigate further, he was distracted by a low scream emanating from the crowd around the pit. A heavy weight smacked into him with a thud. If not for his godly strength and the crowd of bodies behind him, he’d have been knocked flat on his back. As it was, he looked down at the young man who’d been pushed into him.
“Will?”
“Nico!” Will said, brushing blonde hair out of his eyes.
He was just as handsome as Nico remembered, rosy cheeked and freckled. He was paler, and he'd probably gained twenty pounds since Nico had last seen him, none of it muscle, but that was a good thing. It meant Will was in medical school in the city and not hauling hay bales in Texas. It meant Will had moved forward in pursuit of his dreams in spite of what Nico had done to him.
Nico hauled him to his feet.
“Are you alright?”
Will coughed.
“Maybe a couple of cracked ribs. I’ve had worse.”
Both of them vividly remembered when he’d had worse. Their brief meeting by the Trevi Fountain excluded, they hadn’t seen each other since Will was in a hospital bed suffering from two broken legs and two deceased loved ones, demanding that Nico never come near him again.
Nico’s mouth worked to form words, but his head was swimming. He was way too high for this conversation.
“How’re your legs?” He asked, stupidly.
“Better,” Will said, “Except when it rains.”
“Good. That’s good,” Nico said, wishing they could have run into each other at literally any other time. He'd wanted to be better prepared for this.
He looked over his shoulder, desperate to come up with an excuse to reschedule this encounter. He met eyes with a middle-aged man standing not too far away who was holding a small dog in his arms. He didn’t recognize the man at first, but he knew the dog on sight.
“Cerberus!” He said. “And Rocco!” He waved them over. “Rocco, this is my friend Will. Will, Rocco has a leg thing going on, too.”
Without hesitation Rocco lifted his pants leg and showed Will the open plague sore he kept there as a memento. Will’s eyes went wide with interest.
“Rocco, Will is in medical school,” Nico said, gesturing between them. “Will, Rocco’s the patron saint of disease. Discuss!”
He made a run for it. A bit cowardly, but he couldn’t take any more socializing. If he ran into one more person he knew, he was going to have an anxiety attack.
“Where are you headed in such a hurry?” Saint Petronilla asked, batting her long eyelashes at him. He turned around and saw that she was wearing her flower crown, along with a Bad Saint t-shirt. “It’s been a while! Let’s catch up! Congratulations on the promotion, by the way.”
“Oh, that’s– I mean, thanks, but– Well, that might not really– Have you seen the mosh pit?”
“What’s a mosh pit?” She asked, her eyes following his pointing finger to the pit at the front of the stage.
“Kind of like a dance area mixed with a fighting pit,” he said. “It’s girls only right now. There’s a pagan goddess really tearing up the dance floor, too.”
Petronilla’s interest was piqued.
“How interesting,” she said. “I certainly hope she understands that this band is made up of devout Catholics who are exploring their faith through music. This is no place for unhinged pagan shenanigans.”
If only she knew how many pagan shenanigans had already gone down that evening.
“You can try to tell them, but they might not listen,” Nico said. “Sometimes pagans need the way, the truth, and the light really pounded into them before they get it.”
Petronilla cracked her knuckles.
“We’ll see about that,” she said, heading down to the pit.
Nico was glad to see her go, and suspected she’d be a lot easier to get along with if she was allowed to let off some steam in a safe environment. He knew Ariadne would love every second of it, too.
Officially done with talking to people he knew, Nico ducked down low and magically altered his appearance. When he stood up, he had light brown hair and big, dorky glasses. No one would know it was him, and he could have fun in peace.
“Nico! You changed your hair,” Thanatos said, landing beside him. “I don’t like it.”
Nico groaned aloud. There was only one person out of the thousands present who could always recognize him, and he’d found him within seconds.
“Sorry. Was that unsupportive?” Thanatos asked. “You still look handsome.”
“It’s a temporary disguise. I just want to enjoy the concert in peace,” Nico pleaded. “You can only stand here with me if you swear you won’t talk or give away my location. And don’t bring up anything stressful.”
“I won’t,” Thanatos said sweetly, patting Nico with one of his wings.
For the next few minutes they stood in silence. Nico was able to become absorbed in watching the concert. He was swaying on his feet a little bit, but that was natural in the jostling crowd. Other than needing to occasionally regain foot contact with the ground, he felt like he was coping well with the potent effects of the concert.
“By the way, your mother is looking for you,” Thanatos said.
“Stressful!” Nico blurted in irritation.
“Why is that stressful?” Thanatos asked curiously. “She’s just worried about you. The effects of this much worship can be very overwhelming. She was concerned that you might be teetering on the edge of a bad trip.”
“She’s the one who put me there,” Nico muttered.
“She did? How?”
Before Nico could remind him that he was supposed to be quiet, a small, sharp bleat cut through the noise of the crowd.
None of the humans in the room heard it, but Nico and Thanatos both flinched. Greek gods could recognize the sound of a dying goat anywhere.
“Hazel,” Nico said, pouring all his love and affection for his sister into those two syllables. Hazel had performed an animal sacrifice on stage in the middle of the concert. Of course she had. She was old school like that.
“Hazel did that?” Thanatos craned his neck to watch as Hazel performed a graceful tuck and roll maneuver, tumbling off the stage and into Frank’s arms. There was no sign of the goat anywhere, but her arms were covered in blood up to her elbows. They disappeared into the crowd.
“Are you going to be alright?” Thanatos asked Nico, glancing at him with concern. “You’re not used to this.”
“I can handle it,” Nico said defensively. “Zeus used to get hecatombs of oxen sacrificed to him. You think I’m going to OD on one little baby goat?”
“Zeus worked his way up to the hecatombs,” Thanatos said, watching Nico skeptically. “You don’t have that kind of tolerance.”
Nico intended to formulate a logical response, but instead he began giggling uncontrollably. Thanatos rolled his eyes.
“Told you,” he said.
Another song finished. The concert was almost over; the energy in the room had shifted. The crowd had given up on Andrea Bocelli coming back out, and people were thinking about calling cabs.
To Nico it felt as though the night was just getting started. This was the delayed reaction he’d been warned about; Hazel’s sacrifice had kicked things into a higher gear. At some point, unknowingly, he'd dropped his disguise. A distant part of his brain realized he was no longer thinking clearly.
“Is this real life?” He asked.
“Yes.”
“Why is the room spinning around?”
“It’s not.”
He tried to focus on the song that the band was playing, which had a particularly indulgent drum solo that Caio was making a meal out of. The more intently he listened, the more suspicious he got.
“This song is longer than I remember,” he muttered.
“Is that right?” Thanatos asked.
“It’s supposed to be about four and a half minutes long, but it’s been at least three hours and it’s still going.”
Thanatos sighed.
“If you say so, Nico.”
“Are you supposed to be able to taste music?” Nico licked his lips. “It tastes… Blue.”
“Blue isn’t a flavor.”
“It isn’t? Uh oh,” Nico said, growing irrationally fearful. “Then why does it taste so much like blue? I should go and ask.”
He shadow traveled onto the stage. Thanatos, cursing loudly, followed him up and immediately wrangled Nico around the shoulders. Nico had traveled behind the band to an area partially obscured by equipment and the drum kit. Thanatos quickly yanked him down to the floor behind the kick drum.
“Turn invisible, idiot,” Thanatos hissed at him.
“It’s fine,” Nico said, catching Caio’s eye and wiggling his fingers in greeting. Caio dropped one of his drumsticks and scrambled to pick it up. Nico handed it back to him, surreptitiously slipping his golden bracelet onto his own wrist as he did so.
Maria and Marco both glanced back and saw Nico. Maria was a little late to start the next line of her song, but her hesitation was brief.
Nico was about to ask Caio why the music tasted blue, but Thanatos yanked on his hair.
“Invisible!” He insisted. Nico obeyed reluctantly, and disappeared to all eyes but Thanatos.
“They’re my friends,” Nico said. “It’s fine if they see me.”
“The mortals in the audience can see you, too,” Thanatos said.
“Mortals don’t have that good of eyesight, I don’t think,” Nico said. “You know I hooked up with Maria in a dream earlier? It was weird. I mean, really weird.”
Thanatos took his hand and gripped it tightly.
“I don’t care about what you do with the mortals,” he said, “But if you fall in love with Apollo I’ll kill myself.”
“I think that was heading more towards a friend-with-benefits situation,” Nico said. “Where’d he go, by the way? I need to, um… Ask him something.”
“No you don’t,” Thanatos said. “You’re not in your right mind. Please stay put. You’re going to get yourself into trouble.”
Nico wandered back out onto the stage and was promptly towed back again.
“Stay behind the curtain!” Thanatos hissed.
“I was invisible that time!”
“I don’t trust you to stay that way,” Thanatos said.
Nico flipped him off and walked back onstage, moving to stand in the front beside Marco. The guitarist was entirely in the zone, playing with sweat streaming down his face, seemingly both aware of the crowd and yet totally focused on his instrument.
For a few moments Nico stared out at the crowd, looking at each upturned face and marveling at the number of people mouthing along with the words of the song. How many of them believed in him? How many would come to believe after feeling the energy in this room tonight? Surely it was no ordinary concert. He didn’t know for certain, but he assumed that there hadn’t been another band or artist in recent memory who’d ever had so many immortals in attendance– at least if you didn’t count the Eras tour.
His vision swam with tears, and he wiped them away, only half-aware of where he was and what he was doing. He didn’t remember why it mattered, but he slipped the golden bracelet off of Marco’s wrist and stacked it with the one he’d already taken from Caio.
He felt Thanatos’ glare without seeing it, and saw him peeking out from behind the curtain at him. He snorted in irritation at his babysitter’s attentiveness. He was fine, he thought, probably.
“I want a better view,” Nico said casually. “I’m gonna fly over the crowd.”
“That’s fine. Just stay invisible,” Thanatos said.
Nico had put his wings on and flown over the crowd. He had not, in fact, remembered to stay invisible.
Screams rose up from below as he settled on the accessible balcony where he’d sat with his mom earlier.
“Much better view from up here,” he said, gazing dreamily at the stage, totally oblivious to the chaos he’d incited below. His tunnel vision only permitted him to look at one thing at a time, and one of the decorative crystals Hazel had added to the stage earlier had a spotlight hitting it, causing it to sparkle with iridescent waves. Nico watched the colors change, paralyzed in fascination.
Thanatos tackled him for the second time that evening, pulling him onto the sticky floor of the balcony. A herd of pounding feet began stampeding up the stairs. By the time the horde of investigators reached the balcony, Thanatos and Nico were invisible and intangible, there without really being there. The stampeding feet departed, the crowd talking about hologram technology and special effects.
Thanatos took Nico’s hand and pressed it between his own.
“You deserve to enjoy this adulation, so I will not ask you to leave,” Thanatos said. “But you need to stay in one place. Just enjoy the music. It’s almost over.”
He wrapped Nico in his long, clinging grey mantle and held him tight against his cold, unmoving chest. Nico watched the end of the concert from his invisible vantage point, still restless, but content to sit still. Thanatos’ calming presence soothed his overstimulated nervous system, but it didn’t negate the effects of the worship on Nico’s mind.
As the final notes of the encore played and the band took their leave of the stage, Nico slumped over on the railing, half hanging off of it.
“Wow,” he said, watching the crowd file out. “That was intense.”
“You can certainly say that again,” Thanatos said, sinking into one of the chairs and sighing with exhaustion. “I don’t even like music.”
“I mean, there were so many colors, and it kept changing, and it was so sparkly. Where’d it go?”
“Where did what go?” Thanatos asked, rubbing his temples.
“The sparkly crystal,” Nico said sadly. Some of the stage lights had shut off, and it wasn’t sparkling any longer. It felt like losing a dear friend.
Thanatos rolled his eyes derisively.
“You know, I’m not feeling well,” Thanatos said. “I think I’m getting a contact high off of you.”
Nico’s eyes widened.
“Oh my God,” he said. “Because we’re connected. We’re cut from the same thread. We’re made out of string that lives inside a Wal-Mart shopping bag. How is that possible? I don’t feel like a piece of string. Wait, am I in the bag right now? I need to get out of the bag!”
Nico started hyperventilating, feeling the walls of the plastic bag closing in around him. He fell to his knees, clutching his head in his hands.
Persephone climbed the stairs to the balcony, stopping at the top stair to look around.
“Nico? Are you still here? I thought I saw you earlier.”
Thanatos became visible.
“He’s here,” he said, pointing at the spot on the floor where Nico was invisibly rocking back and forth. “He thinks he’s a piece of string right now.”
“Oh dear,” she said. “It happens to the best of us. Try this.”
She held up a cell phone playing a video called ‘Sensory Fruit Music’. Nico watched a cartoon pineapple bounce around the screen, becoming engrossed in the bright colors and gentle movement. After a moment he came back to himself, no longer scared of the plastic bag, and became visible once again.
“Better?” Persephone asked, patting his head gently. “That’s your old phone, by the way. I brought it for you from home.”
If Nico hadn’t been so high, he might have thanked her, but the dancing strawberries prevented him from responding.
“He’s a mess,” Thanatos said, his brow furrowed. “People saw him. It isn’t good.”
“I wouldn’t worry,” Persephone said. “People always think it’s AI nowadays, anyway. Nico, I came to tell you that you’ve been invited to an afterparty at Ariadne’s. It might be wiser if you go home and sleep this off, though.”
“Agreed,” Thanatos said. “I can take him back to the Under–”
“I want to dance!” Nico said, blinking and trying to clear his head. Now he was seeing fruit everywhere in the corners of his vision, but that wasn’t such a bad thing. Going home and sleeping sounded like a waste.
“I’ll take him to the party,” Persephone said. “You can go home, Thanatos. I’ll see that he doesn’t get into too much trouble.”
“I think I should stay with him,” Thanatos said, looking at Nico questioningly. “He’s still quite misled by the soup.”
Persephone frowned as she attempted to puzzle out what he meant by that statement.
“Lost in the sauce,” Nico supplied.
“Ah, yes,” she said, nodding. “Don’t worry. I’m his mom. I’ll keep him safe.”
Nico gave Thanatos a thumbs up, and Thanatos reluctantly nodded, disappearing with a fold of his wings and a shudder of space-time.
“Better?” His mom asked.
“Yes,” he said, still transfixed by the spinning kiwis on the phone screen. He took note that his phone was showing he had over one thousand text messages and had run out of storage for voicemails, and his stomach lurched. That was quite the buzzkill. He wondered if he ought to just delete them and start over.
“Your dad was the one to put me onto the fruit,” Persephone mused idly, gesturing at the video. “Of course, back in the day, we had to use real fruit.”
“How did they dance?” Nico asked.
“Magic. We are gods, you know,” Persephone said, nudging him playfully. To demonstrate, she summoned an apple out of thin air and made it hover in front of his face, bobbing along to the beat of the song.
Nico pictured Hades making fruit dance to comfort his wife during an anxiety spiral. He was hit with an abnormally intense wave of longing to see his dad again, and felt the threat of tears urging at the backs of his eyes. Persephone noted his reaction and grimaced.
“I shouldn’t have brought him up,” Persephone muttered, snatching the apple from the air and chucking it into the now-empty warehouse floor.
“Where is he?” Nico asked.
“Do you really want to know?”
“No,” Nico said, knowing that it would haunt him. He’d never make the first move to reconcile with Hades, but so long as his father continued to avoid him, he’d be tempted to go check on what he was up to. That wouldn’t lead anywhere good.
“I can’t believe I just had my first big devotional event and he missed it,” Nico said, shutting his phone off and staring at the floor dejectedly.
“You didn’t invite him, Nico,” Persephone asked.
“I didn’t invite you either,” Nico said. “You still came.”
“You and your father aren’t on speaking terms,” she said. “I was under the impression that you’re still angry–”
“I’m angry about what went down six months ago,” Nico said. “But now I’m also angry that he’s decided to just not be my dad anymore. I guess he was looking for an excuse to drop me like a hot potato and finally found it. He’s probably already got another demigod son in the works that he’ll ask you to deify. Maybe he’ll have better luck with the next one.”
“That,” Persephone said, taking Nico’s hand and pulling him to his feet, “Is a load of nonsense. You can’t just sit here and brood over your father when there’s a party in your honor happening down the street. This is your special night!”
“I know,” Nico sighed. “You’re right.”
“Besides,” Persephone said, looking unsure as to whether she ought to say it. “The truth is, he was here.”
“I’d have noticed,” Nico said with certainty. Hades’ aura of power was unmistakable. He’d have known the moment his dad walked in.
“He was here. He insisted on coming, even though I told him it wasn’t a good idea,” Persephone said. “He’s already gone now. You might still be able to catch him at the train station if you want to see him.”
Nico was so stunned at this news that he didn’t even stop to wonder why a god would need to take a train. Hades had come to the concert. He hadn’t said or done anything to indicate his presence. He probably hadn’t intended for Nico to find out at all. He’d simply wanted to be there for Nico’s milestone.
He still had a dad, if he wanted one. It didn’t solve everything, but it was better than the alternative.
Nico felt a small piece of his heart settle back into place. He hadn’t realized it had fallen out of alignment until it was back where it belonged.
“I don’t want to see him,” he said. “Let’s check out this party.”
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