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“I love you, Ben Solo,” Rey murmurs softly, her voice a mere breath that escapes her lips, as she discreetly peeks from the shelter of her locker, stealing fleeting glances at the boy who effortlessly commands attention, his laughter echoing through the corridors amidst his athletic friends.

Ben Solo.

The superstar of the soccer team. The son of the principal, Leia Solo. Son of the mayor of Jakku Han Solo. The most popular boy at Jakku Highschool. The boy every girl wanted and the boy every guy wanted to be. 

Standing at an impressive height of 6 feet and 2 inches, he possesses an athletic physique characterized by broad shoulders, sculpted arms, and a distinctive nose. Rey can't help but find his unconventional mop of black hair adorable, even as it partially conceals his ears, a minor quirk she secretly adores.

Since her freshman year, Rey has harbored an unspoken infatuation with Ben. Each day, she embarks on her journey to school alone; her father's inability to accompany her due to his struggles with alcohol. It is during one of these solitary walks that a fateful encounter unfolds. Unbeknownst to Rey, a skateboarder crashes into her, causing her cheap backpack to tear and its contents to scatter across the pavement. In that moment of chaos, a hand brushes against hers, unexpectedly offering assistance.

“Ah shit, sorry bout that. I wasn’t paying attention,” a boy utters, reaching out to retrieve her scattered belongings and offering them back to her.

Barely above a whisper, Rey clasps her books tightly to her chest and responds, "It's alright."

"You're Rey, right?" Ben queries, pointing towards her.

With her gaze fixed upon the charming figure before her, Rey confirms, "Yes."

"Great, I'm Ben. Are you sure you're alright?" Ben inquires, displaying genuine concern.

Reassuringly, Rey responds, "Yes, I'm fine."

"Alright then. I'll see you at school, Rey," Ben says, skating away while glancing back at Rey, leaving her with a captivating smile and a wave goodbye. In that fleeting moment, Rey feels as if she is on the verge of melting. This newfound emotion is foreign to her, and a tinge of embarrassment lingers for how she reacted. She has rarely engaged with boys before, except for the occasional school-related interaction. Ben's kindness stands out to her.

He made sure that she was unharmed.

He cared.

No one has ever displayed such care toward Rey. Her mother left her when she was two years old, and her father, often preoccupied with work or inebriated on the couch, rarely showed concern. Rey felt an absence of care from the world around her.

But Ben was different.

From that day forward, Rey would spend the following three years consumed by thoughts of Ben. He became her sole focus. In class, she would find herself staring at him. She would compose poetry dedicated to him. She would clandestinely follow his every move on social media. Her notebook pages became a collage of her aspirations.

Mrs. Rey Solo.

Mr. and Mrs. Ben Solo.

BEN is written in bold letters, embellished with hearts.

It started off innocent, but as the years went by, Rey’s thoughts about Ben became very sexual. After Rey was first introduced to porn, she would dive into a black hole of pornographic videos, imagining Ben and her doing the things the people in the videos were.

Making out

Oral

Intercourse

Anal

Rey would touch herself late at night while crying out Ben’s name when she cums. She has never done anything with a boy before. She’s never been kissed or been on a date. She only wants to do those things with Ben. She wants to give him everything.

The only thing she wanted most in the world was for Ben to be hers. So imagine her surprise when one day during school, Ben walked right up to her locker and asked her if she would like to study with him at his house after school.

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It was common knowledge to Ben Solo that Rey Niima had a crush on him. Like, come on, he wasn’t stupid. She would stare at him in class, and he knew about the little doodles in her notebook. She is really fucking creepy. 

Ben knows that Rey is a virgin. He has never seen her talk to a guy or to anyone for that matter. Graduation was around the corner, so he decided to throw a bone at her and might as well get a good fuck out of it too.

Everyone knows that quiet girls are always freaks in the sheets. 

Ben walks up to Rey’s locker with a smug look.

“Hey Rey,” He says with his gashing smile. Rey jumps up a little, and her eyes widen when she sees Ben standing before her. 

Cute , he thinks to himself. I wonder if she will have that same look when she sees my cock. Ben snaps out of it and smirks at Rey.

“Oh, hi, Ben,” Rey says shyly.

“You’re good at math, right?”

“Yeah, it’s my favorite subject” Rey hugs her books closer to her chest, looking down at her shoes.

“Cool, well, I was wondering if you could come to my place to help me with homework?” Rey looks up at Ben in shock. 

He wants me to come by his house! 

Why? 

He hasn’t talked to me in years. 

Why now?

Rey figures that this is something she can’t pass up.

“Um yeah, sure, I can help you,” Rey says with a smile.

“Cool, I’ll see you after school. I’ll pick you up your locker,” Ben winks at her, then walks down the hallway.

Rey turns towards her lockers and squeals with excitement. Her Ben wants her help. She was so excited.

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As promised, Ben approaches Rey's locker, and they come to his car together. The sound of blaring music fills the air, amplifying the excitement within Rey. Although she longs to converse during the car ride, she finds solace in simply being in his presence.

Pulling up to an expensive-looking house, Rey gazes at it in awe, marveling at its grandeur. It surpasses any abode she has ever encountered. With no words exchanged, Ben parks the car, switches off the engine, and steps out, slamming the door. Rey scrambles to keep up with his brisk pace. They enter the house and remove their shoes, realizing his parents are absent.

"Your house is really cool," Rey expresses, her voice filled with admiration.

"Thank you. Come on, my room is upstairs," Ben responds, leading the way.

Ben's room is enormous. Trophies and photographs adorn the walls, accompanied by posters of movies and bands. A king-size bed dominates the space, positioned towards a large flat-screen TV. Ben sets his belongings down next to the bed and reaches for the remote, ready to ignite the screen. Rey's confusion is palpable.

"Ben, I thought we were going to do homework?" she questions.

"Let's just watch a movie first, then we can tackle the homework," Ben suggests, bouncing onto the bed and patting the spot beside him.

"Don't be shy. I won't bite," he teases with a mischievous smirk. Rey timidly glances at the bed, hesitates for a moment, then gathers the courage to join him.

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They sit on the bed and watch the movie for a while until a sex scene comes on the screen. Rey blushes and looks down at her hands. She turns and looks at Ben to see him staring at her with a hungry look. Rey opened her mouth to say something but was cut off by Ben's lips on her mouth. Rey's eyes widen, and she freezes. It was finally happening; she was finally kissing her Ben. Rey longed for this for many years, and now it’s finally happening.

Rey closes her eyes and wraps her arms around Ben’s neck. Ben groans and deepens the kiss by tracing his tongue at the seam of her lips. Rey nervously opens her mouth, and their tongues fight for dominance. Ben rolls on top of her and begins kissing her neck. Rey wraps her fingers in Ben’s hair gasping at the feeling. 

Ben’s hand wanders over her sweater until they paw at her breasts. A part of Rey wants to tell Ben to slow down, but she can’t. He feels so good. Ben pulls away, and Rey whimpers at the loss. Ben sits on his knees and pulls Rey’s sweater and tank top up and over her breasts. Rey lays still on her back as Ben cups her left breast and rolls her nipple under his thumb.

Rey squeals when Ben leans down and swirls his tongue around her rosy bud. “Oh, Ben,” Rey moans pushing her chest to his mouth. Ben then takes the whole nipple and sucks it into his mouth. Ben groans as his cock hardens and presses it on Rey’s thigh.

Ben pulls away again, and his hand begins to unbutton her jeans and pulls them down her legs, revealing her pink hello kitty underwear. Rey squeezes her thighs together at the embarrassment, but Ben laughs and pushes her legs apart. “Cute,” he says with a smirk in his face. Ben scoots down Rey’s body until his head is near her covered pussy. Ben leans in and runs his large nose along her slit.

Rey snaps her legs together again with a gasp, making Ben laugh again, and pushes her legs apart again. Ben then runs his hot tongue along her covered slit, making a wet patch on the pink fabric. Rey’s hips jerk up, at the feeling causing Ben to loop his arm over her lower stomach to hold her still. Ben continues to run his tongue over her underwear. He finally leans up and pulls her underwear down her legs. 

Ben then dives into Rey’s pussy and devours it like it was his last meal. Rey screams from the intense pleasure she feels. “Ah ah, oh my god, Ben, please,” Rey moans out, and she reaches her climax. Ben continues swirling and sucking her clit at Rey's screams in pleasure as she finally cums. “AH! BEN!” Ben licks her through her orgasms until she comes down from it.

Ben leans his head back and says, smirking, “Your pussy tastes so good, baby” Rey’s heart melts at the pet name he called her. Ben gives Rey’s pussy one final kiss before he pulls back and crawls back up Rey’s body. This time he crawls up to almost sit on her chest. Ben unbuttons his jeans and pulls his cock out of his boxers. Rey’s eyes widen, and she looks up at Ben nervously. 

He’s really big

Ben slowly strokes himself and says “Suck me off.” Rey hesitates before she wraps her small hand around his cock and slowly strokes him up and down. Ben groans and grabs the back of Rey’s head, and pushes her mouth toward his cock. Rey slowly opens her mouth and begins sucking on the tip. Ben leans his head back and groans loudly. Rey does her best to mimic the women she would see in the pornos.

Ben is groaning, so she is sure she is doing it right. As she moves her head up and down slightly, she remembers that men seem to like having their balls licked. So she pulls Ben’s cock out of her mouth and starts licking his balls while still stroking him. Ben’s groans begin to get even louder. He knows he is about to cum, so he pulls away from Rey completely and gets in between her legs. He pulls his boxer and pants off completely. Ben grunts as he viciously jerks his cock and then rubs it on her wet pussy.

Now Rey was scared.

She didn’t know if she wanted to lose her virginity like this.

She wanted Ben to take her out on dates. Ask her to be his girlfriend. Meet his parents. Go to prom. Then lose her virginity. 

They weren’t boyfriend and girlfriend. Rey wanted to be.

This is my only chance.

Maybe he will fall in love with me after.

I just wish he was my boyfriend.

Please, Ben. 

Please fall in love with me.

Rey is pulled away from her thoughts when Ben pushes into her. Completely.

“Ahh!!!” Rey screams as a surge of pain courses through her lower parts. Tears leak out of her eyes as Ben groans and starts to slowly thrust in and out of her. Rey whimpers as Ben continues thrusting into her. The pain is not going away. She heard from other women that at first, it hurts, but then the pain will go away and start feeling good.

The pain didn’t go away.

Rey tries her best to moan and to get pleasure from it. But the pain was still there. 

“Ben, it hurts,” Rey sobs, and she grips his sweater.

Ben didn’t care

Ben begins thrusting even faster, causing Rey to sob even louder.

It really hurts.

The bed bounces and squeaks with Ben’s thrusts. All Rey could do was cry.

“Ow…ow…Ben…ah…ah…ow” 

Ben’s moans become louder as his thrusts lose the rhythm, and his hips start jerking. Ben pulls out of Rey and viciously jerks his cock as his cum squirts all over Rey’s lower stomach and red pussy.

When Ben’s breath slows down, he gets up and goes to his bathroom without saying anything. And Rey was laying on her back on Ben’s bed, tits out, legs spread, cum on her stomach and pussy, and blood on her inner thighs. Rey hears the water running as she stares at the ceiling sniffing and silently crying.

Ben comes back with a wet cloth in his hand. He throws it at Rey, landing on her head. “Clean yourself,” he says, looking away from her, putting his boxer and pants back on. Rey wiped herself, trying to be careful around her sore pussy while still sniffling. Ben then picks up Rey's clothes and tosses them at her, hitting her. Rey frowns

Why is he being like this?

Did he not like it?

Oh no.

He used me.

Rey silently sobs as she puts her clothes back on. Ben grabs her backpack and grabs Rey’s arm when she was done getting dressed. He pulls her down the stairs and leads her to the front door. Rey looks at him with sad eyes as she put her shoes on. She opens the door and steps out onto the porch. Ben hands Rey her bag. She looks up hoping that he would say something, but he just looks at her with a blank stare.

Rey nervously tries to lean in for one last kiss, but Ben softly pushes her away and slams the door in her face. 

Rey's heart breaks.

She looks at the door in shock. She doesn’t know what to do. She knocks on the door, hoping that she could talk to him. “Ben?” No answer. “Ben please open the door,” Rey says with tears in her eyes. Rey sobs as she begs, “Ben I’m sorry” Rey continues knocking on the door. “Ben, I’m sorry for crying…It…it really hurt…I’m sorry I wasn’t good…bu…but I was a virgin, and I didn’t know what I was doing” Rey's knocks soon turn into pounding. “BEN OPEN THE DOOR…PLEASE!!!!” Rey presses herself against the door, sobbing. “BEN, PLEASE I LOVE YOU!!!!”

Still no answer.

Eventually, Rey turns and runs away from Ben’s house and out of Ben’s life forever. 

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Because Rey would go missing that very same day. The guilt was eating up Ben. The police questioned him, but he told them that she had left his house and that he never saw her again. He helped search for her. He didn’t mean for this to happen. He wanted to apologize to her so badly.

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Rey’s body was found 4 days later hanging from a tree in the woods near her house. Next to the tree truck, they found her backpack with a letter that has Ben’s name on it. That letter was then given to Ben by the police.

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Dear Ben,

It was all my fault.

I'm sorry I wasn’t good enough for you. I'm sorry wasn’t pretty enough. I’m sorry I cried when you made love to me. I’m sorry that I wasn’t experienced enough for you. All of this was my fault.

You were the only one who cared about me when no one else did, and I scared you away. I’m so sorry.

You were the only one for me. So now I have to go away forever so I can’t hurt you anymore.

I will always love you, Ben Solo.

Forever Yours,

Rey Niima

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Ben sobbed when he finished the letter. After that, he couldn’t eat. He couldn’t sleep. All he could think about was Rey. She was good. She didn’t deserve what he did to her. He hurt her and made her think that it was her fault. He was a terrible person. 

She didn’t deserve to die.

He did.

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One gloomy morning Ben is walking around the woods when looking at the scenery with tears in his eyes. He comes across the very same tree that Rey committed suicide on. Ben then pulls his dad's pistol from his pocket and points it to his head. Ben cries as he looks up at the sky. “I’m coming, Rey” Ben pulls the trigger, and his world cuts to black.

Ben and Rey are together again.

She is finally his.

And he is finally hers.