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January:

I’ll be cleaning up bottles with you on New Year’s Day 

The one thing about the Bridgerton siblings was that they always ended the year with a bang. Penelope had been to their annual New Year’s Eve party every year, and it was always the same. Everyone would get super drunk, and be very hungover the next day. This year was no exception. Last night had been a trip for her, and she needed to do some thinking. Penelope was always the first one awake, and when she came downstairs she let out an audible groan. The house was a wreck. Penelope took a deep breath and grabbed a trash bag before she started clearing away the trash and empty bottles.

“Pen?” Colin asked sleepily as he came down the stairs. “What are you doing?”

“Cleaning up the bottles,” Penelope replied. “It’s a mess down here, and Violet would be so pissed to see her beautiful house like this.”

“We hire cleaners every year,” Colin told her. “You don’t have to do this.”

“Your mum likes it when it’s cleaned a certain way. It’s important to Violet, so it’s important to me.” Penelope shrugged.

Colin sighed, but to Penelope’s surprise, he started gathering some empty containers and putting them in the garbage bag. She looked at him in shock for a moment, but he just gave her a coy smile. He grabbed the bag from her and held it while she put some of the trash into it. 

“Colin, you don’t have to help me,” She said. “I’m sure you’re hungover this morning. You were pretty toasted last night.”

“I wasn’t drunk, Penelope.” He stated. 

“But we-you-”

“I kissed you last night, completely sober,” He said, setting the bag down on the floor and stepping closer to her. “I kissed you because I wanted to.”

“Why?” She asked, her heart racing in her chest.

“Ever since I came back from my last trip, all I could think about was you. You have been on my mind for weeks now, Pen. I don’t know how I didn’t see it before, but you are the most important person in my life,” He reached out to cup her face. “I am an idiot for not realizing that all this time, when I wrote to you on my travels, when I rushed to see you when I came home, when I hated any guy you dated, it was all because I am in love with you.” 

“Colin,” She gasped tearfully. “Are you sure?”

“I’ve never been more sure of anything in my life,” He assured her, using his thumb to wipe away her tears. “Do you think you might ever return those feelings?”

“Surely you know,” Penelope replied with a shaky laugh. “I’ve loved you since I knew what love was, for an embarrassingly long time really.”

Colin’s smile lit up his entire face. Slowly, he leaned in. She held her breath as he moved in to kiss her. Their lips touched, softly at first, and then deeper and more passionately once they were confident in it. Colin’s arms circled her waist, lifting her slightly. She moaned against his mouth, bringing him back to reality.

“Sorry, love, got a little carried away,” He grinned, bumping their noses together. “Wouldn’t want the Bridge sibs to find out that way, huh?”

“Probably not,” She chuckled. “And we should probably have a real conversation about this. Tonight perhaps, everyone is leaving after breakfast, I was gonna stay another night and clean the house. Wanna join me?”

“Sure, I’ll even cook for you,” He replied. “Let’s get this trash cleaned up before everyone else wakes up.”

            Penelope and Colin made quick work disposing of the cans, bottles, and containers that littered the downstairs. Colin’s siblings and their significant others were sleeping in their rooms still. It was the one weekend a year when the siblings gathered without their children or Violet present. Violet loved having her grandchildren for the weekend, so it worked out well. This was the first year Hyacinth joined them, and she’d been excited to finally be dubbed old enough for their festivities. 

Soon, the rest of the Bridgertons started making their way downstairs. Eloise and Phillip were the first ones to wake up, but were quickly followed by Kate and Anthony. Colin and Penelope had gotten the trash cleaned up by then, and were looking for any sort of substance for breakfast. The rest of the group emerged slowly until they were all eating whatever they could rummage up at the table. 

“Pen, are you sure you want to stay here by yourself?” Eloise asked. “The cleaners will come and handle everything, I don’t know why you insist on tidying up.”

“Violet likes-”

“Everything to be cleaned a certain way, I know,” Eloise said, rolling her eyes. “But seriously, the company does a great job. There’s no need for you to stay and clean up after everyone.”

“El you know how much I love Aubrey Hall,” Penelope said with a smile. “I won’t mind the peace and quiet of the country or an extra day.”

“I understand that, but being all alone?” Francesca asked with a frown.

“This house is huge, Pen. It’s probably really spooky alone in the dark.” Sophie added. 

“She won’t be alone,” Colin said nonchalantly as he munched on some toast. “I’m gonna stay too.”

Colin’s siblings exchanged looks. It wasn’t a secret to anyone that Penelope and Colin had been dancing around each other for years. Penelope had been in love with Colin since she was just a child, and the Bridgertons had watched as Colin slowly came to the realization of his own feelings in the past few years. 

“Why?” Gregory asked his older brother. Hyacinth elbowed him causing Gregory to let out a yelp. “I’m just asking!” 

“I didn’t want Pen to be alone, and since I’m not traveling right now, there’s no reason not to stay and hangout with my best friend,” Colin explained. “I have barely seen her since being home, and I promised her we could watch any film she wanted tonight if she let me intrude on her plans.”

Penelope was pretty certain that his siblings weren’t buying into that story, but none of them said anything about it. She was glad they seemed to understand that the pair needed some time alone to talk. And perhaps other things, or so she hoped. 

After breakfast, everyone started packing up to head out. Most of them had to work the next day, but Penelope was lucky. She was an author and book editor, so she got to work from home, and essentially set her own schedule. Colin had some time off from the travel blog he wrote for, so he was in no rush to return to Mayfair either. 

They said goodbye to each sibling and their partners as they began to trickle out. Eloise and Phillip were the last to go, and Colin’s sister grabbed him by the arm and pulled him aside. He couldn’t even get out a word of protest before she started in on him.

“Listen here, you might be my brother but Penelope is my soulmate. She’s my very best friend, and goodness help her, she loves you. If you so much as look at her wrong, I will hide your body somewhere they'll never even think to look, got it?” She looked at him with such a terrifyingly serious look, he could only nod. She patted his back. “Good, good. I’m rooting for you, don’t fuck it up,” Colin’s jaw dropped at his sister’s words. “Oh don’t look so surprised, Col. Phillip has opened my eyes to the world of love and romance. I know Pen like the back of my hand, and your my big brother. Clearly something is finally happening between you two.”

“And you approve?” He asked cautiously. She nodded at him.

“Like I said, just don’t fuck it up,” She smiled. “Penelope is special. If you break her heart, I’m taking her side.”

“I won’t break her heart.” Colin promised.

“I know, that’s why I’m not totally kicking your ass right now.” Eloise told him. 

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Penelope and Colin were relieved to finally be alone. But, before they settled in for the day, Penelope insisted that they finish cleaning. She tackled the upstairs, and he finished vacuuming, sweeping, and putting things back in order on the main level. It didn’t take them too long, and once they were finished, it was late in the afternoon. 

“Go shower, and change, I’ll handle dinner. Take your time to pamper yourself,” Colin instructed, kissing her neck. “I have a first date planned to blow you away.”

“A first date huh?” She asked. “I don’t recall being asked out.”

“Oh, you’re right, how could I forget?” He smirked, pulling away slightly to look her in the eyes. “Penelope Featherington, will you do me the greatest honor of going on a date with me tonight?”

“I’d love to,” She grinned. “I’m gonna go get ready. Are you sure you don’t want help with dinner?”

“No, I got it,” He assured her. “I’m gonna rinse off quickly and throw on something else, and then I’ll cook you an amazing meal.”

He stole one more quick kiss from her before he released her. She hurried up the stairs to get ready for their night. She heard the shower down the hall turn on a few moments later, so she knew Colin was already getting ready. She looked through her suitcase and pulled out a little black dress. She thanked her past self for packing two potential outfits for New Years Eve otherwise she’d have been stuck wearing a matching lounge set on their first date. 

She showered and then made quick work of getting ready. Colin had told her not to rush, but she was excited. She’d been dreaming about a date with Colin Bridgerton for years, and her brain could not wrap around the fact that it was about to happen. He loved her! 

She blow dried her hair, grateful that Violet kept the Aubrey Hall home stocked with all the essentials. She wished she’d packed her curling iron, but her natural waves would have to do for tonight. She threw on some light makeup before she decided she was ready. She took a look in the mirror, forcing herself to take this moment in. The man she loved had declared his love to her a few hours before, and now she was going to discover what this all meant. 

“Hello there, beautiful, just in time,” Colin smiled as she came down the stairs. “You look amazing.”

“Thank you, so do you.” She grinned, taking him in. Colin had changed into some black denim jeans, and a teal colored sweater. He took her hand and led her to the dining room.

She let out a small gasp. Colin had set the table and had lit a candle for them. He’d plated them up some pasta that smelled heavenly, and had somehow managed to find some fake flowers for the centerpiece. He had obviously been busy while she’d gotten herself dressed.

“My lady,” Colin pulled the chair out for her. “Join me for this 5 star meal, please?”

She let out a chuckle. Colin always made her laugh. It was one of the millions of reasons why it had been so easy to fall in love with him. He was her best friend, and they already had established a certain level of comfort with each other. She didn’t have the kind of relationship she had with him with anyone else. 

“So, what does this mean?” She asked once they were seated. “I know we said a lot this morning, and I meant every word. But I don’t want you to think you have to commit to anything.”

“Penelope, we’ve danced around this for years. I don’t want to waste a single second more. I want us to be together,” He assured her, taking her hands from across the table. “If we do this, you should know it’s serious for me. I mean, if we make this official, you’re either going to break my heart forever, or marry me.”

“Is that a proposal?” She asked, only half-joking because Colin looked very serious. 

“No, Pen. When I propose to you, it will be magical, I promise,” He said. “I’m just saying that you and I will be committed to each other. I want to show you off to all my friends, spend all of my free time annoying you, take you to see the world, bring you home to my mom, all of it.”

“I’ve met your mother, remember?” She teased.

“And she adores you,” Colin reminded her. “Penelope, I want to be with you, but I just want to make sure we’re on the same page. It will change everything in a good way, but it’s a lot. If you aren’t ready for that, I need to know.”

Penelope looked at the man in front of her and felt her heart melt. He looked so vulnerable at that moment. She couldn’t believe he thought for a second that she could be the one to break his heart. 

“Colin, I have wanted this for so long. I am ready to be with you.” She assured him.

She squeezed his hand three times. It was their little code that meant everything would be okay. They’d established it back when they were teenagers, and still used it as a way to comfort each other. 

“Well, then,” He smiled brightly at her. “Penelope Anne Featherington, will you be my girlfriend?”

“Yes!” She exclaimed excitedly. 

“Let’s eat this pasta quickly before I lose all ability to think and carry you up to my room.”

They talked over their dinner. Colin told her about his latest trip to Bali, and she told him about the novel she was working on. Writing had always been something they had bonded over, and she loved that they could still support each other in it. Colin insisted they take their first picture as a couple, and pulled her almost into his lap for a selfie. 

After dinner, they cleaned up so that they wouldn’t need to worry about it for the rest of the night. Then, Colin turned on some music. He insisted they dance together in the living room, just as they’d done many times before at Bridgerton events. She loved the feeling of being in his arms, so it didn’t take much convincing. 

“My god you’re gorgeous,” Colin said looking down at her. “I can’t believe you want to be with me.”

“Colin, you must be joking,” She laughed. “Have you seen yourself?”

“Nothing compares to your beauty, Pen.” He replied.

Colin leaned down and captured her lips. She quickly began to kiss him back, pushing herself up on her tiptoes to reach him better. Colin pulled her as close to him as possible, wanting to have the best possible access to her. Just his kiss alone was turning her on in a way she’d never experienced before. She was gripping him, trying to pull him even close, though it was not humanly possible.

“Colin,” She said against his mouth. “Take me upstairs.”

Colin didn’t need to be told twice. He lifted her into his arms as if it was nothing, and hurried them both up to his bedroom. He gently laid her on the bed, kissing her lips and then her neck. She gripped the front of his shirt in her fists. She felt his hand reach for the bottom of her dress.

“Wait!” She nearly shouted suddenly. Colin quickly went to move off her, but she stopped him. “No, don’t stop. Sorry, it’s just, this is kind of awkward, but I’ve actually…”

“Actually what, love?” He asked, tucking her hair behind her hair.

“I’m a virgin.” She said so quickly he almost didn’t catch her words. 

“Do you want to do this?” He asked her. She nodded. “I won’t push you into anything you don't want.”

“Colin, I want this, I swear,” She insisted. “I just wanted you to know before we went any further. I’ve fooled around with a couple guys, but it never went all the way. I always stopped it because it never felt right, but this is different. You are different.”

“We can stop at any point,” He assured her. “Just say the word and we can stop, I promise. Do you want to continue?”

“Yes, I want to keep going.” She said, pulling him back in for another kiss.

Once that conversation was out of the way, Colin continued his work. Instead of reaching under her dress, though, he gently urged her to sit so he could take the dress off completely. He could see her nervousness kick in, but she had no reason to worry. The dress didn’t require a bra, and Colin had never been more grateful in his life. Penelope had perfect breasts, and he was practically drooling at the sight. 

“May I?” He asked. She nodded.

Colin leaned down, kissing her chest. He then, very gently, took a nipple in his mouth. She let out a moan of pleasure. He kept working on her breasts until he knew she was comfortable to move on. He took off his own shirt at her request. 

“I want to see all of you,” She said. “I’ll lose my panties if you lose yours.”

Colin chuckled. He hooked his fingers into her lacy underwear, and pulled them down her legs. She didn’t look as nervous, so he gently ran a finger up her thigh. He paused to look at her and she nodded, urging him to touch her. He carefully ran a finger through her wetness, causing her to throw her head back. 

“Not fair, you still have your pants on,” She panted. “I want them off.”

Colin leaned back on the bed, unbuttoning his pants. He stood, removing the pants and his boxers and kicking them off. He watched as Penelope took him in for the first time. He swore he saw her lick her lips. 

“Wow, you’re certainly gifted,” She said with a slight hesitation in her voice. “Uh, is that the normal size?”

“Pen, we can still stop. It might hurt the first time, but only for a moment. If you want to pause, though, I’ll put pajamas on and we can snuggle in bed for the rest of the night.”

“No!” She exclaimed. 

“Are you sure?” He asked again.

“Colin for the love of god, please fuck me.” She moaned. 

“I will not be fucking you tonight, Penelope,” He told her firmly. “I will make love to you, and worship you. We can save the fucking for a different time, but our first time is going to be about you. Understood?”

She shuddered and nodded. Somehow, his insistence on checking on her, and making sure she felt loved was the sexiest part of the night so far. He was the kindest man she had ever met, and she loved him. 

“Colin, make love to me.” She restated. He grinned at her. 

Colin returned his fingers to her wetness, inserting them slowly. She moaned and moved her body in harmony with his hand. As his finger moved in and out of her center, his thumb found her clit. She lifted off the bed, practically begging for more. He kept going with his fingers until he felt her start to tighten around him. She was frantically raising her hips, desperately trying to go over the edge. 

“Cum for me, baby.” He said. It was all she needed to be sent tumbling. 

Colin didn’t remove his fingers until he was certain she’d finished riding the waves of pleasure. He gave her a moment to come down from her high, stroking her hair as she did. When she was back to normal state, he leaned in and kissed her. 

“Are you ready for me?” He asked her. 

“I’m glad it’s you,” She said with a smile. “I never wanted it to be anyone else.”

“I need to grab a condom,” He said. “I think there’s some in the bathroom.”

“I’m on birth control for my periods,” She replied. “Obviously I’m clean, and I trust you.”

“Are you-”

“Colin, I promise, I’m sure.” She smiled.

Colin grinned, unable to believe she loved and trusted him this much. He’d never had sex without a condom before, and it was fitting she’d be the first for him. He kissed her once more before moving to line himself up with her center.

“Tell me if it’s too much,” He told her softly. “I need you to tell me if you need to stop or pause, okay?” She nodded.

Colin slowly pushed the first inch inside, checking her face to make sure she was alright. She pulled on his shoulders, wanting him to continue. He kept pushing in until she met the resistance he knew was coming. He looked at her and made certain this was what she wanted. With her vocal consent, he pushed in. He heard her let out a sharp gasp, and he froze.

“Are you alright?” He asked.

“I just need a moment,” She said. “It’s not too painful, but it’s a little uncomfortable.”

“Take all the time you need.” He told her even though his body was begging him to move. 

After a moment, she asked him to continue on. He slowly began to move in and out of her. She started moving with him, letting out little moans of pleasure. She grabbed onto his ass, making him go deeper, and she threw her head into the pillows in pleasure. Wanting to make it better for her, Colin pulled her leg over his hip, and then found her clit again. It only took a few more thrusts before he watched her orgasm take over, and he followed quickly behind, emptying into her. 

He collapsed on top of her while they both tried to catch their breath. After a bit, he pulled out of her, and went to grab a warm washcloth to help her clean up. He gently washed her center and thighs. When he was satisfied, he crawled into bed beside her, pulling her against him.

“Was that okay?” He asked her.

“Nothing has ever been more perfect than that,” She smiled blissfully. “Was it alright for you? I know I don’t have much experience.” 

“Pen, nothing compares to that.” He assured her. 

“So, how should we tell your family?” She asked him. Colin grinned. 

“I have an idea.”

Colin pulled up the selfie they had taken at dinner. He opened his Instagram app, and quickly made a caption. He showed it to her.

“They’re going to murder us,” She giggled. “But, it’ll be funny. Post it, but be aware our phones are going to absolutely blow up.”

INSTAGRAM

Posted by- @ColinTheTraveler 

@PenTheFeather “I want your midnights, but I’ll be cleaning up bottles with you on New Year’s Day” 😘

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Birdgerton Brigade

Hyacinth: OMG

Hyacinth: Has anyone else been on instagram!? 😍

Hyacinth: Added Penelope Featherington to the chat  

Francesca: OMG!!! GUYS!!

Eloise: CALL ME RIGHT NOW PENELOPE ANNE FEATHERINGTON

Violet: Someone please explain! I don’t have an Instagram

Violet: Welcome to the chat Pen, dear ❤️

Daphne: I think Colin just hard launched him and Pen 

Benedict: ????

Sophie: FINALLY 😍

Benedict: Sophie explained what hard launched means

Benedict: I get it now

Anthony: Pen? Colin? Are you going to confirm this??

Anthony: Also didn’t we agree to only add spouses to this chat

Anthony: NO OFFENSE PEN!!! 

Anthony: Kate said that was rude

Violet: Penelope is family, Anthony

Violet: Hold on, so we think Colin and Penelope are together?

Eloise: PENELOPE I SWEAR IF YOU DON’T ANSWER YOUR PHONE

Gregory: They kissed on NYE

Gregory: Lucy and I saw them

Hyacinth: YOU RAT

Hyacinth: WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME

Gregory: Colin said he’d pay me to keep quiet

Violet: Colin, Penelope, please tell me that you have finally figured things out

Kate: Maybe we scared them away 🥺

Daphne: What did he expect when he posted that on Instagram

Daphne: Mum, this what everyone is talking about

Daphne: Daphne Bassett sent an attachment  

Violet: What a lovely photograph! You make a beautiful couple!

Eloise: PENELOPE

Benedict: I don’t think she’s answering, El 🙄

Colin: Sorry, I was far too busy kissing my beautiful girlfriend 😘

Hyacinth: I’M SCREAMING

Hyacinth: IT’S ABOUT BLOODY TIME

Anthony: Congrats! 🍾

Kate: 🎉

Violet: This is the best news!! ❤️

Eloise: All good, Penelope is on the phone with me right now 😊

Daphne: Yes because that’s what we were all concerned about 🙄

Daphne: Pen and Colin, congratulations!!!! 🎉

Francesca: I’m so happy for you guys! 

Penelope: Thank you everyone! We are very happy, and can’t wait to celebrate with you all soon ❤️

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As expected, the Bridgertons were beyond excited to hear of the news. Violet hosted a family dinner the following week, and the new couple was swept up into hugs. They were happy to share their excitement with his family, but Penelope did not feel the same about her mum. Penelope and her sisters were not close growing up, but since losing their dad, they’d grown closer in the past few years. They’d helped Penelope realize how toxic Portia was to her, and helped her set some much needed boundaries. Between their support, the Bridgertons, and therapy, Penelope was in a much better headspace about things. Still, she didn’t enjoy dinners with her mum, but having Colin there would help. 

“So, you managed to convince him to date you, I suppose you want a congratulations?” Portia asked, sipping her wine. “You think this will last? I give it a month before it falls apart, and you will be back here begging for sympathy. I do not understand why you insist on putting yourself in these situations, Penelope.”

“Mum,” Prudence said in a warning tone. “Penelope is happy.”

“I’m sure she is. I would be too if I was seeing a man from one of the richest families in-” Colin quickly cutoff his girlfriend's mum. 

“Portia, I love her. She loves me. We’re very happy together. This isn’t some fling. It’s been building for years. We would appreciate it if you showed a bit of respect to our relationship.” He said.

Penelope couldn’t have loved him any more than she did at that moment. He stood up for her and showed her love in ways she hadn’t experienced before. 

“Well, if you’re sure.” Portia replied with an eye roll.

They didn’t stay much longer. Penelope did what she’d come to do, and got the results she’d expected. She wouldn’t let it stop her from enjoying her new relationship. She would never have a warm and fuzzy relationship with her mum, and she accepted that. She just wanted to spend time with her boyfriend, and relish in this new love they’d discovered. 

They went back to her apartment she shared with Eloise. Her best friend wasn’t home much these days. She spent a lot of her time at Philip’s, and since he lived closer to her office, it made sense. Eloise made certain to spend Thursday nights home so she and Penelope could have their best friend nights, and Penelope was glad. She was happy for Eloise, and seeing her best friend in love was worth potentially losing her roommate. Plus, now it was nice to have to have Eloise out. It made it much less weird for Colin to sleepover.

Since their first time, something had been awakened in Penelope. She couldn’t contain herself. She was always craving his touch, barely able to get enough. Not that Colin complained of course. It had been two weeks since New Years, and they had spent each night together. 

“I love you,” Colin told her as they laid in her bed after lovemaking. “Your mum is crazy for thinking this isn’t going to last.”

“I’ve not given much thought to things Portia Featherington says in years,” Penelope assured him. “She’s bitter, and unfortunately, misery loves company.”

“I just wish she could see the amazing woman I get to love,” Colin sighed. “Why does she belittle you so much?”

“Years of therapy has helped me see that she’s jealous of my success, and holds the closeness my dad and I shared against me,” Penelope explained. “It doesn’t make it okay, but I’ve learned to accept it. I can’t force her to change, I just have to decide if I can tolerate it enough to keep my relationship with her.”

“Can you?” Colin asked. 

“For now, but if she keeps trying to diminish our relationship we are going to have a problem,” Penelope told him. “Things are easier now that Pru and Phillipa and I have mended our relationship. We never saw how much mother came between us and pitted us against one another.”

“I’m glad you have them,” Colin said, twirling one of her curls between his fingers. “And, you know you have my family too, right?”

“Yes, and I love them. I am so grateful for their support, and how much love they’ve shown me since I was just a child.” Penelope replied.

“They’re all pretty excited that I finally woke up and saw what was right in front of me,” Colin smirked. “And I’m pretty glad too.”

“Oh yeah?” She asked with a teasing smile. “Just pretty glad?”

“I’m elated,” He corrected. “Overjoyed, happy in a way words can’t even describe.”

“Maybe, you shouldn’t use words then. Maybe you should show me just how happy you are,” She suggested climbing on top of him. “And maybe, I can show you how happy I am.”

“You are a goddess, Pen.” He groaned, pulling her in for a kiss. 

And I will hold on to you

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February:

Say my name and everything just stops, I don't want you like a best friend

It was safe to say that Penelope Featherington was glowing with happiness. It had been a month since she and Colin had officially gotten together, and she could not imagine anything better. She loved waking up next to him in the morning, and coming back to her flat after work to find him there. It was everything she ever had hoped for and more. 

Since he was always traveling, Colin didn’t have his own flat. He’d always stayed in the guest house on his mum’s property. But, since being with Penelope, he spent his nights with her. Except for nights that Eloise came home. His sister had made it very clear that while she supported their relationship, she did not need to know what happened in their bed. So, out of respect for her, Colin would return to his lodgings when El wanted a night in her own flat, which thankfully wasn’t often. 

“Do we want to ride to your mum’s together tonight?” Penelope asked as she got ready for work. “I’m gonna stop here and change, so I thought we could just head that way together, unless you planned on arriving sooner than that.”

“No, I’d like to go together,” He assured her with a smile. “I plan on finishing up my Bali blog today, and sending it off to be edited. After that, I thought I’d run to the grocery store and get some things to stock us up. Text me if there’s any requests you’d like to make while I’m there.”

“Thank you,” She smiled, leaning down to kiss him. “You are a wonderful partner, you know that? I’m sorry I’ve been so busy this week. I love my job, but going into the office so much is tiring. Thankfully, next week I’ll be back to my usual work-from-home schedule.”

“Love, anything I can do to make life easier for you, I am happy to do,” He replied. “I’ll see you around tonight.”

“Yes, tonight,” She confirmed. “Good luck on your blog, I love you.”

“Have a wonderful day in the office, my love. I adore you.” He replied. 

Penelope felt like she was a highschooler with the way his words made her blush. She wasn’t sure if she’d ever get used to the way he talked to her. He was a poet practically, and she loved it. 

The work day went by surprisingly quickly. The Bridgerton’s had a tradition of brunch one Sunday a month, and family dinner every other Friday for those who could make it. Penelope had always had a standing invite to these events, but now that she was Colin’s girlfriend it was different. It would be the first time she attended dinner as anything more than a family friend, so she was feeling a little nervous. 

After she finished up at the office, she headed back home to meet Colin. She had volunteered to bring dessert, and Colin had kindly picked it up from the local bakery. She’d brought Violet pie from there once, and the Bridgerton matriarch had raved about it, so Penelope would pick it up for her every once in a while.

Dinner was a pretty casual affair, so Penelope changed into jeans and into the knit sweater Hyacinth had gotten her for Christmas. Colin was ready to go, so once she was set they headed out. One of the best things about dating Colin was that he would drive them most of the time, and let her play DJ. She liked to drive, but it was nice to kick back and relax sometimes. 

They were the first to arrive. Eloise and Phillip were on their way, and Francesca and Michaela would also be attending. Hyacinth still lived at home, so she was there too. Unfortunately, the rest of the family was unable to attend, but they all promised to be at Sunday brunch the following week. 

“Hello, my dearest,” Violet smiled, sweeping Penelope into a hug. “How have you been?”

“No worries mother, just the child you birthed standing here as well.” Colin teased her with a smile. 

“Oh hush, you know how special Penelope is to me,” Violet waved him off. “It’s truly about time he finally saw what was right in front of him.”

Penelope chuckled and followed Violet to the kitchen. She was pulling a roast from the over, one of Pen’s favorite meals. The attention to detail, and making her feel at home, always made Penelope feel warm inside. She loved Violet Bridgerton, and saw her as a mother figure. 

“Is that the peach pie from Cobblestone Bakery?” Violet asked, realizing what her son was holding. 

“Oh sure, now she pays attention to me,” Colin smirked, putting the pie into the fridge. “She loves me for the pie.”

“Technically, I ordered her the pie, so she still loves me more.” Penelope quipped.

“Come here you,” Colin said, wrapping an arm around Penelope’s waist and pulling her into his arms. “You are certainly everyone’s favorite.”

Despite his mother’s presence, Colin planted a kiss on her lips. The Bridgertons were openly affectionate with one another. It wasn’t uncommon to see the family embrace one another, or share a chaste kiss. In the Featherington house, this was essentially forbidden. It was another big difference that had taken Penelope some time to get used to, but once she did, she appreciated the love in the home. She remembered the way Edmund looked at Violet, and how much they loved each other openly. She had always hoped to find that kind of love for herself, and now she had. 

“Ew, can you not do that?” Eloise’s voice caused the pair ro break apart.

“El!” Penelope said excitedly. She quickly gave her best friend a hug. 

“Come on Eloise, you know you love seeing Pen and I together,” Colin said after he also hugged his sister. “You said it yourself that you’ve never seen Penelope this happy.”

“Yes, but I don’t want to see you playing tonsil hockey, either.” She pretended to gag.

Dinner was done a few minutes later, and Francesca and Michaela had arrived. They moved to sit at the large dining room table. As much as Penelope loved seeing all of Colin’s family, it was occasionally nice to see them in smaller groups. She hadn’t gotten to know Francesca’s girlfriend well yet, so she was looking forward to having the chance to actually talk to her. 

“How is work, Frannie?” Colin asked his little sister. Francesca was a music writer, but she had started teaching piano lessons to kids, and had found a passion for it. 

“It’s amazing, I have six students right now, and I love watching them learn the notes, and figure out things they were stuck on. It’s wonderful, truly.” She beamed. 

“I told Fran she’d make an amazing music teacher for schools,” Michaela said smiling proudly. “She’s got such a way with the children.”

“That’s our Frannie,” Eloise grinned. “The kindest heart.”

“Fran, will you please play for us later?” Penelope asked her. “I haven’t heard you on the piano in so long!”

“Oh, you could play them that beautiful melody you finished the other day!” Michalea said excitedly.

“Yeah, of course,” Francesca smiled. “You know I love testing new material out on all of you.” 

They finished dinner, and took dessert to the sitting room where Frannie sat down at the piano to play for them. Penelope had always loved listening to the music at the Bridgerton house. Daphne and Francesca in particular had such wonderful talents at the piano. They listened to what Francesca had composed, and as always, Penelope was in awe of her. 

They hung out with his family for a little while longer before they wrapped up the evening. Penelope promised Hyacinth to have a coffee date with her soon, and made plans for a double date with Francesca and Michaela. Eloise and Phillip were going to have dinner with Penelope and Colin the following night, and Penelope was looking forward to it. Despite being with Colin for a month, the four of them hadn’t hung out in that time. They’d all been so busy after the new year, but now that things were back to normal, they’d finally made plans to hangout. 

“Have a lovely weekend, you two,” Violet said, hugging both Colin and Penelope as they headed out the door. “It was so nice to have you for dinner. Pen, love, I know you’ve been to many meals at our home, but having you here as Colin’s girlfriend feels so special.”

“It does feel special,” Penelope agreed with a smile. “Thank you for welcoming me into the family.”

“You have always been family, sweet girl.” Violet reminded her, cupping her cheek. She turned to her son. “You take good care of you, Colin Christopher.”

“Yes, mum.” Colin smiled. 

They headed home after that. When they returned to her flat, they changed into comfy clothes and flopped on her sofa to watch a movie. It was Colin’s turn to pick, and he’d put on the second Guardians of the Galaxy movie. They’d been having a Marvel marathon, and that’s what they had left off on. She snuggled into his side, loving that this was how she got to spend her Friday evenings now. 

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Bridgerton Bros

Gregory: CODE RED 🚨

Gregory: It’s going to be my first Valentine’s Day with a gf and I have no clue what to do

Benedict: Shitttttt 😬

Anthony: It’s like two weeks until then

Colin: I’m taking Penelope to a seafood place she’s been talking about, and I got her these beautiful sapphire earrings 

Colin: And of course I have to do the typical flowers and chocolate 

Anthony: Way to make us look bad, brother 

Anthony: Kate and I will probably get a sitter for the night and have a night out just the two of us

Gregory: Is a necklace too much for our first Valentine’s day? Lucy and I have only been dating for a few months

Benedict: Colin and Pen have been together a month and I am actually surprised he’s not proposing 😂

Colin: BENEDICT

Colin: She would probably be upset if I did

Benedict: But would she say no? 👀

Gregory: FOCUS PLEASE

Gregory: WHAT SHOULD I GET LUCY?

Colin: Greg a necklace is a fine idea

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The Gals 💍

Daphne: Added Penelope Bridgerton the the group chat  

Daphne: Ladies! Vday is coming it’s time for the annual bets

Daphne: Should I add Lucy?

Eloise: Ugh for real 🙄

Kate: It’s tradition, El

Kate: Daff, Lucy might not be ready for this lol Pen knows us all already

Sophie: I LOVE THIS GAME

Penelope: Am I missing something?

Hyacinth: Welcome to the chat, Pen lol 😂

Daphne: We take bets every year on Valentines day. For example, I will go first

Daphne: Who wants to take a bet on which men forget it’s Vday?

Eloise: 100% Philip but it’s fine I hate the idea of Vday 🤮

Kate: Anthony won’t forget but it’ll be lowkey

Daphne: Simon forgot once and never lived it down lol so he’s safe

Daphne: Okay, so Ben, Colin and Greg?

Hyacinth: Penelope if Colin forgets after a month of dating you better dump his ass 😡

Kate: HY!!!!

Sophie: Ben and Greg are probably good too

Sophie: Okay, let’s bet whose getting a ring this year 💍

Sophie: El or Pen?

Eloise: UHM NEITHER

Eloise: If Philip proposes on Valentine’s Day I’ll throw the ring into the river 

Eloise: And Colin would not pop the question after a month

Daphne: Are we sure 👀

Penelope: 💯

Penelope: But maybe next year 

Hyacinth: Boo 👎

Kate: Who do we think is getting knocked up on Vday??

Kate: IT BETTER NOT BE ME 

Daphne: Or me lol Belle is 4 months old 

Penelope: It won’t be El lol

Eloise: PEN IF IT’S YOU I SWEAR 

Sophie: I kind of hope it’s me 👀

Kate: Sending good vibes for you, Soph

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“Okay, while the boys are distracted, I have to ask, how did you feel about the group chat assuming you were getting proposed to?” Eloise asked her best friend during dinner. They were grabbing a bottle of wine from the kitchen while Colin showed Phillip his newest blog post. 

“It didn’t bother me,” Penelope shrugged. “I know we’ve only been together for a little while, but I think the family assumes we’ll move quickly.”

“Pen?” Eloise asked, looking at her friend seriously. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing,” Penelope insisted. “Everything is fine.”

“I’m your best friend, I know when you’re giving me a load of bull.” Eloise replied. Penelope sighed. 

“I’m scared that I’m going to lose him,” Penelope said. “And I don’t know how I’d get through that.”

“Uh, in case you haven’t noticed, my brother is completely obsessed with you,” Eloise laughed. “I know I said you two wouldn’t get engaged after a month, but I would definitely not put it past Colin to drop down on one knee if he thought you wanted him to.”

“That’s the thing,” Penelope replied. “I am ready for everything with him, and it’s terrifying. I would marry him tomorrow if he asked. I’d have eight Bridgerton babies with him if that’s what he wanted. I love him so much, and I just want everything to work out. I’m so afraid that he’s going to change his mind.”

“He won’t, Pen,” Eloise insisted, squeezing her best friend’s hand. “Maybe you should sit down and talk about how fast you want things to move. If you’re both on the same page, you might feel a little better.”

“He’s going to think I’m crazy,” Penelope chuckled a little. “I might send him running for the hills.”

“You won’t.” Eloise said sternly. 

A moment later, Colin and Phillip popped in to see if the girls were set. They grabbed the wine and joined their boyfriends in the living room. It had been far too long since they’d had a Mario Party night, and Penelope and Eloise were looking forward to crushing the guys. 

Penelope chose her character, Princess Peach of course. Which meant Colin chose Mario, Eloise picked Daisy, and Phillip snagged Yoshi. This had been a long standing tradition between Colin, Penelope, and Eloise, and they had been excited to pull in Eloise’s boyfriend.

In the end, Penelope won. Eloise came a very close second, and Colin lost very graciously. They had a blast playing the game, and it made Penelope feel a little more at ease. She sometimes let her insecurities get into her head, but in reality, she knew her relationship with Colin was strong. He had done nothing to earn any doubt from her, and she tried to reason with herself that Colin was amazing. He loved her in ways she hadn’t known were possible, and she just needed to trust in that. 

Eloise and Phillip headed out after the game was over. Penelope hugged her best friend tightly and they made plans to have a girl’s night soon. As nice as it was to hangout with Eloise and their significant others, Penelope loved one-on-one time with her bestie. 

“It was nice having our first double date,” Colin smiled, his arms around her waist, and his head resting on her shoulder. “They make a great pair.”

“Eloise is totally enamored with him,” Penelope agreed. “I never thought I’d see the day, but I’m so glad she had someone. Even if it means I’ll lose my roomie.”

Colin moved and took Penelope by the hand, leading her over to the sofa. They snuggled up together to continue their conversation. Colin held her to his side, wanting her warmth. 

“If El moves out, can I apply for her spot?” Colin asked. 

“Colin! It’s been a month,” Penelope said, unsure if he was serious. “You want to move in?”

“Eloise isn’t moving out tomorrow, Pen. I’m just saying, if we want to live together eventually, is there a point in me finding my own flat and starting a lease?” He asked. 

“I suppose you’re right,” She said, chewing her bottom lip nervously. “You really think we could live together?”

“We practically have been for a month, love.” He reminded her.

“Our lease is up in May, if Eloise decides to move in with Philip then, we can revisit this conversation,” Penelope stated. “For now, it’s nice having you here when El is out.”

“May sounds like a long time away, but I suppose that makes sense. Now, when do you want to take the next step?” 

“What next step?” She inquired, her heart beginning to race.

“I’m not trying to rush you down the aisle, but I know marriage is something I want. I cannot wait to marry you. I also think we should have all of the experiences and steps all other couples have. So, I understand if you want to wait. I won’t push you. But, if you have a timeline or an idea of when you might want to revisit this discussion as well, I’d love to hear it.” He rambled. 

“After we move in together,” She said. “I think we should wait until then to consider a proposal.”

“Fair enough,” He said, kissing her head. “I love you.”

“I love you too.” She replied. 

“One last thing,” He replied, looking a little nervous. “I start traveling again next month.”

“Oh,” She said, trying not to sound disappointed. “For your birthday?”

“No, I’ll leave after my birthday,” He told her. “I’m not sure where my task will be. It’s likely somewhere in Asia, but nothing concrete yet.”

“I’ll miss you,” She said sadly. “But I know this is what you love to do.”

“I do love to see the world, but I have a home now with you, and it’s much less appealing to leave,” Colin responded, hugging her close to him. “Maybe one day, you’ll want to join me on some of my trips.”

“That would be lovely,” She said, snuggling even closer to him. “You’ve given me the world, it’s only fair you take me to see it.”

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Penelope woke up on Valentine’s day to Colin making her favorite breakfast: strawberry and banana crepes. He had even cut the strawberries into heart shapes for her. She kissed him, and thanked him for the meal. 

When she got to the office (whoever decided to plan an in-person meeting on Valentine’s Day was an ass), a large bouquet of yellow and red roses were waiting for her. All of her coworkers swooned when they saw them. He had even sent her a large imported box of her favorite Belgian chocolate. She had never felt this special before. Colin made it so easy to continue to find more things to love about him everyday. 

Colin Bridgerton and Penelope Featherington

Colin: I know I told you this morning, and I will tell you many more times tonight, but Happy Valentine’s day, my love 😍 I am not sure what I did to deserve such a perfect Valentine, but I promise to never take a single day with you for granted. I love you so much, Pen. There are truly not enough words to describe how much I love you, and how much you mean to me. I hope you enjoyed your flowers and chocolate. That’s just the beginning ❤️

Penelope: Colin Bridgerton, you never fail to amaze me ❤️ Thank you for the beautiful flowers and chocolates. I love you so very much. You are the best thing to ever happen to me. I can’t wait to celebrate with you later 😘

Colin: What time do you think you’ll be home?

Penelope: Our meeting ends at 3:00, I should be home around 4:00!

Colin: Perfect, I will have a bath ready for you so you can pamper yourself before our dinner reservations at 6 😘

Penelope: I love you 🥺

Colin: I love you more ❤️ 

Penelope counted down the minutes until she was finally finished at work and could head home. She knew Colin had more planned, but she also had a few surprises for him as well. She had never been super into Valentine’s Day, but that was before she had started dating Colin Bridgerton. She felt like this was a big first for them, and she wanted to make it memorable. 

When she got home, Colin whisked her into the bathroom where there were candles and a bathbomb ready for her. She got into the perfectly tempered water, and soaked for a bit. She wanted to have adequate time to get ready, so after a while, she forced herself to abandon the water and get dressed. 

A week ago, the Bridgerton gals had gone shopping, and Pen had found the perfect dress for the occasion. It was a lacy red dress that came to her mid thighs, and underneath, she would be wearing matching lingerie. She knew Colin would go out of his mind when he took the dress off her body later that evening. 

“Pen,” Colin gasped when she exited the room and joined him. “Wow, you're so beautiful.”

“You clean up nice yourself.” She smiled, gripping the suit jacket he was wearing and pulling him in for a kiss. 

“Are you ready to go, Valentine?” 

“Where are you taking me?” She asked him. He smiled down at her sweetly. 

“It’s a surprise, you’ll just have to wait and see.”

Colin and Penelope loaded up in his car and headed to the undisclosed location. They chatted about their days, and Penelope told him a funny story about a coworker, causing him to roar with laughter. Soon they were pulling up to a busy looking restaurant. 

“The seafood place?” She asked excitedly. He nodded. “I can’t believe you remembered!” 

“Of course I did,” He replied. “Shall we?”

Colin, ever the gentleman, came around the car to take her hand and lead her from the car to the restaurant. It was very busy inside, but Colin had made a reservation, so they were quickly taken to their table. They ordered some wine, and their meals. It was a very nice atmosphere, and Penelope was surprised by how calm the staff seemed to be despite the busy night. 

“Did you know you’re the first Valentine I’ve ever had?” Penelope asked him. “Alfred was away when we were dating during Valentine’s day, and I never have been in a relationship over the holiday before.”

“You’re my first too,” Colin admitted. “Marina I broke up right before Valentine’s Day, and Cressida and I weren’t together very long.”

“It’s sweet that we’re each other’s first Valentines.” Penelope grinned. 

They made it through dinner quickly, both excited to get home and finish off the night in bed. They walked into the apartment, and Colin swept her into his arms. Despite every inch of her protesting it, she stopped him. 

She wanted to give him his present before they got too carried away. He pouted, but admitted that he also wanted to give her her presents. Penelope retrieved the red bag she’d been hiding from him, and handed it to him. Colin opened it to reveal a long rectangular box. He opened it and revealed a watch.

“Pen,” He gasped. “Is this what I think it is?”

“It is,” She confirmed as he took it out of the box. “I asked your mum what model to look for. I know you loved your dad’s watch, and were devastated when you lost it on your trip to Argentina. It’s not the same, I know, but I hope-”

Colin didn’t let her finish. He pulled her in for a long kiss, expressing his love and  gratitude with his mouth. He couldn’t believe she remembered. 

“This is the most precious thing anyone has ever given me,” He told her tearfully. “When I lost dad’s watch, I thought I’d lost a piece of him. He taught me to tell time on that very watch. You’re right, it’s not the same one, but this is even more special. Thank you, Pen. This is perfect, and I can’t even express how much this means to me. I love you.”

“I’m glad you like it,” She smiled, giving him another peck on the lips. “I asked your mum if she thought it would be a silly present, but she insisted you’d love it.”

“She was right,” Colin said. “Now, you’re present.”

Colin pulled a small box from his suit pocket. It looked like a ring box, but Penelope knew after their talk a few weeks back that he wouldn’t propose on Valentine’s day. She opened the box eagerly, and found a beautiful pair of sapphire earrings looking back at her.

“Oh, Colin! They are beautiful.”

“And yet, still only half as beautiful as you,” He smiled at her. “Do you like them?”

“I love them, they remind me of your eyes.” She said in awe.

“Well then, when we are apart you must wear them to have a part of me with you.” He suggested. 

She set the box down on the coffee table, and climbed into his lap, kissing him. Colin wrapped his arms around her waist, so he could hold her close to him. The kissing grew more intense as he reached behind her to find the zipper of her dress.

“I bought this dress so you could take it off of me,” She teased him, kissing his jaw. “And underneath it is your other present.”

“Fuck, Pen.” He moaned. 

He stood abruptly, lifting her and taking her to the bedroom. He tossed her playfully on the bed and she let out a delighted squeal. He was on her in a second, resuming the kissing. Soon, needed her out of the dress and stepped back to do so. She helped him slide it off her body, and revealed the red undergarments she’d selected for him. She was pretty sure he actually started drooling at the sight. 

“See something you like, Colin?”

“I am going to devour you.” He promised. 

It turned out, the lingerie looked better on the floor anyway. He got rid of her clothes then his own, needing his skin to be on hers. He kissed her for a moment before moving between her legs. He nudged her knees apart and kissed the inside of her thighs. She begged him for more, and finally he took pity on her. He dove right in, licking her center and sucking her clit. When she was whining loudly, he added two fingers inside her. It didn’t take long until she toppled over the edge.

“That was amazing,” She panted. “You’re amazing.”

“You are perfect.” He said. She could still taste herself on his mouth when he kissed her. “Are you ready for another one?”

“Don’t you want me to return the favor?” She frowned in disappointment. 

“Later, I promise,” He assured her. “But I want to be buried deep inside you when I come undone for the first time tonight.”

She nodded in agreement. He settled himself back between her legs and pushed himself inside her. They both moaned as he started thrusting inside her heat. After a moment, she used her strength to flip them. He grinned as she straddled him, placing him back inside her, and began to ride him. Soon they both reached their climax and collapsed onto the bed, wrapped in one another’s arms.

“God I love you,” He said, kissing her hair. “I can’t believe how lucky I am.”

“I love you so much, Col.” She replied, nuzzling into his chest. 

“This has been the best Valentine’s day ever.” He concluded.

“It truly has been, thank you for making today so special.”

“I will always make it special for you, my love. One down, a lifetime more of Valentine’s days to go.” 

She couldn’t wait to spend every Valentine’s day for the rest of her life with Colin Bridgerton. 

Carve your name into my bedpost. 'Cause I don't want you like a best friend

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March:

I don't wanna look at anything else now that I saw you (I can never look away)

Penelope was excited for Colin’s birthday, but was also growing sad when the day approached. Two days after his birthday, Colin would be leaving. She knew it was only for a few weeks, but after two months of seeing him everyday, she couldn’t fathom the thought of being alone again. She was dreading the distance, but she didn’t want him to feel guilty, so she kept it to herself. Instead, she chose to focus on celebrating the birth of her favorite person. Starting off his birthday, they were having dinner at his mum’s place. Then, Colin, herself, and some of his siblings were going out for drinks. The next day, she and Colin were spending just the two of them. On the day of his departure, they were having Sunday Brunch so his family could bid their goodbyes. Plus, she knew Colin wanted her to be surrounded by family when he left, knowing how sad she’d be. 

Eloise was going to stay at the flat at least once a week while Colin was gone. Penelope thought it was unnecessary for Colin to request this, but truthfully she knew she’d enjoy the company. The closer it got to his departure, the sadder she got. It was healthy for couples to spend time away from each other, but he was going to be in a whole other country for an unset amount of time. It was going to be an adjustment, and she couldn’t push away the worry she felt. There were always lots of girls around on his trip, and they threw themselves at him. She knew in the very depths of her heart that Colin would never cheat on her, but she wondered if seeing so many beautiful, adventurous women would bring him to his senses and make him realize he didn’t want Penelope. 

Violet Bridgerton and Penelope Featherington

Violet: Hello, darling! ❤️ Thank you again for offering to help me set everything up. It’ll be nice to have your input. Would you mind stopping and grabbing me a birthday card on your way over? I seem to have lost the one I grabbed the other day lol

Penelope: Good morning! I would be happy to grab you a card 😊 Is there anything else you need? 

Violet: Just your lovely company will do! 

Penelope: I will see you soon then 🥰

Penelope made her first stop at the store and picked out a card for Violet to give to Colin. She also grabbed some flowers for Colin’s mum. Then, deciding she needed caffeine, and knowing Violet loved her Vanilla lattes, she also made a coffee pit stop. Colin was hanging out with Anthony and his children for the morning while Kate was out. The party wasn’t until later, and Pen was glad Colin was spending some time with his family before he left. 

“Violet?” Penelope called out when she entered Colin’s childhood home. Violet had always insisted Penelope did not need to knock, but until dating Colin, she always did. “I’m here!”

“In the kitchen, dearest!” Violet called back. 

Penelope toed off her shoes before following Violet’s voice to the kitchen. Her boyfriend’s mum was cutting fruit for the fruit salad. They’d chosen all the food for the party together, and had decided to keep it simple. Sandwiches, fruit, veggies, and some other snacks. Plus the birthday cake, of course. 

“I stopped and grabbed you a latte,” Penelope said, setting the drinks on the marble counter. “I figured we might need the extra boost.”

“Oh you are a gem,” Violet grinned. “I hope Colin knows he can never ever let you go.”

Penelope smiled at the kind words. She loved Violet Bridgerton, and knowing she supported their relationship meant the world. Since she was just a child, Penelope had loved Violet’s company, and soaked up her love and warmth. 

“What can I do?” Penelope asked. 

“I just finished the fruit salad, Daff graciously agreed to bring the rest of the snacks, and Francesca and Michaela made all the sandwiches. Truly, I am so blessed to have such helpful daughters. So, that leaves us to decorate,” Violet replied, placing the large bowl of fruit in the fridge. “Oh is that the card?”

“Yes, and a little something for you,” Penelope said, passing the bag over to Violet. “No one ever remembers that mothers are important on birthdays too. After all, if not for you, we would not be celebrating Colin today.” 

“Penelope, these are beautiful,” Violet gasped, pulling the small pot of her favorite flowers carefully out of the brown bag. “Thank you so much, this was very considerate of you.”

“You’re welcome,” Penelope replied as the older woman embraced her. “I just wanted to say thank you for raising such a wonderful man. Colin certainly gets his kind and sensitive nature from you, though I must say his mischievousness and boldness from his dad.”

“Oh that is very true, Colin is a blend of his father and I in personality, but in looks, he favors Edmund most.” 

“He is an amazing person, Violet. And, I just want you to know how grateful I am, not only for him, but for you as well.” 

“Penelope Featherington, you are an amazing person,” Violet cupped her chin. “We are grateful for you too, my sweet girl.” 

The pair began to prepare for the party. They hung up banners, put together a picture display, and blew up a few balloons. Once they were set, Penelope went up to Colin’s old room to change into her party outfit. She made a quick social media post to commemorate her first time celebrating Colin’s birthday as his girlfriend. She chose the picture Eloise had taken of them the week before. They’d been at a Bridgerton sibling night. Pen had been wearing a brown leather dress that looked like a trench coat. Colin had on dark brown dress pants and a turtle neck. In the photo, they were looking at each other, clearly very in love. Penelope smiled as she selected it. 

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INSTAGRAM

Posted by- @PenTheFeather

@ColinTheTraveler Happy birthday, my love. Last year when I posted for your birthday, I did so as your best friend. This year is the first year I get to gush about you as your girlfriend ❤️ You are the best friend and partner I could ever ask for. Your kindness, compassion, and selflessness never go unnoticed. I am always amazed by your ability to go after what you want, and your unmatched sense of adventure. You can make anyone laugh, and bring anyone comfort when they need it. You are such an amazing guy, and I feel so lucky to call you mine. I hope this year is full of more love, adventure, and exploring. I can’t wait to celebrate with you later, and stand by your side for your next accomplishment. Have the happiest of birthdays, babe 😘

Comments:

@ColinTheTraveler: This birthday is even more special because I got to kiss you goodmorning, and will get to kiss you goodnight. I love you so much, Pen. You’re the best present I could ever ask for, baby!! Always and forever ❤️

@ItsHy_: OMG Mom and Dad 🥺

@EloiseMarie: Barf 🤮 Also, photo credits? I def took this pic 

@MamaViolet: Oh how lovely! ❤️

@ItsHy_: Mum, I see you’re enjoying the account I made you lol 

MsFrannieMusic: This is so cute!! 😍

@DaffBassett: Colin, put a ring on it! 💍

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Colin arrived a bit later, just as Penelope was returning downstairs. He was quick to pull her in for a hug, even though it hadn’t been long since he’d seen her, she still appreciated it. His entire family arrived one by one, and the couple greeted everyone and chatted for a bit. They ate food, had cake, opened gifts, and then it was time to head out for drinks.

“Mum, are you sure you don’t mind having the littles tonight?” Colin asked before they all ventured out. 

“Go! Have fun with your girlfriend and siblings before you go off to South Korea,” Violet insisted. “We’re all going to miss you, and I know your siblings are looking forward to a night out. I’ll see you before you leave on Sunday.” 

Colin gave her a hug, thanking her once again for the party and for offering to hangout with his nieces and nephews for the evening. Colin was looking forward to spending his birthday evening with Penelope, and he didn’t care how they did it. But Eloise and Benedict had planned a whole evening at the pubs. As long as he had his girl by his side, Colin knew it would be a good birthday. 

“I’ll grab us drinks.” Colin offered when they walked into the pub. 

He kissed her cheek before heading to the bar with all the guys. They’d agreed to bring the first round back. Colin had known Pen’s go-to-drink long before they were dating, so he was confident in his ability to order for her. They waited after placing orders for the drinks to be made.

“Colin Bridgerton, is that you?” Colin’s head whipped around, and he suppressed a groan. Marina, his ex girlfriend and a family friend of the Featheringtons, was walking toward him. “I can’t believe I just bumped into you like this! And on your birthday no less.” 

“Marina, hey,” Colin said, dodging the hug she was going for. “It’s been a while.”

“Are you all out celebrating? I haven’t seen the gang in a while,” Marina continued. “Where are you sitting?”

Benedict was suppressing a laugh at the situation. Anthony looked a bit murderous. He knew how badly Marina had hurt Colin. Plus, he’d never liked their relationship in the first place. Phillip, he noticed, was actively trying to get Eloise’s attention to no avail. 

“Look, we’re here for Colin’s birthday maybe you should-”

“Greggy! Look how grown up you are,” Marina cooed at the 20 year old. “You look so much like your brother.”

Colin desperately wanted to get out of this situation, but he knew if he asked her to leave them alone, Marina would make a huge fuss. The bartender was now handing them their drinks. Colin grabbed his and Pen’s drinks, wanting to make it clear to his ex who he was with. The large group walked back over to the three tables that had been pushed together to accommodate them. 

“Pen, my dearest, here is your Gimlet.” Colin said, walking up and wrapping an arm around his girlfriend, pulling her tight against his side. 

“Thanks, babe.” She smiled up at him. To make a point, he leaned down and kissed her lips. 

“We ran into Marina at the bar,” Colin told her, trying desperately to sound casual. “She wanted to come say hello.”

Colin hated the way Penelope’s face fell. While Marina’s father and Penelope’s dad had been best of friends, the two never got along. Marina was a bully when it came to Penelope. That was the reason their relationship ended up coming to an abrupt end. 

They had been all hanging out. Colin was home visiting, and had brought Marina over. He caught her cornering Penelope and mocking her for thinking Colin actually cared about her. He had known the two weren’t close, but he had never seen Marina act that way to Penelope until that moment. He ended things immediately, and Marina went back to her ex. He hadn’t seen her since then. 

“Penelope, it sure has been a while,” Marina said with the fakest smile Colin had ever seen. “I see you’re still following Colin around like a little lost puppy dog.”

“Back off, bitch,” Eloise warned, quickly coming to Penelope’s defense. “Can’t you see that none of us are interested in talking to you?”

“Relax, Smelloise , I just wanted to say hello to an old friend,” Marina scoffed. “Penelope, seriously, it’s sad that you still live in a fantasy world where Colin might notice you.”

“Uh, in case you missed it, Colin and Penelope are together,” Daphne pointed out in annoyance. “He kissed her right in front of you.”

Marina’s mouth dropped open in surprise. She turned to look at Colin, her mouth pouting as she did. Colin found it almost comical, but he kept a straight face, and his arm on Pen.

“Is this true?”

“It is,” Colin smiled. “I finally woke up and saw what had been in front of me this whole time. Two months in, and I’ve never been happier.”

“You’re joking right? You can’t go from dating me to dating her !”

“You’re right, it is a pretty big upgrade, but I’d say I’ve adjusted well.” Colin smirked. He felt Penelope giggled against his side. “I’m not sure what you are trying to insinuate, Marina, but Penelope is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love her. I think I always have, really. So, thanks for wishing me a happy birthday, but if you think you’re getting anything out of me, the door is right over there.”

His ex stomped away without another word. Colin looked down at Penelope, and she grabbed his facing, pulling him down for a passionate kiss. She only pulled away when his brothers started whistling and whooping at them.

“I love you, Colin Bridgerton.” She said.

“I love you more, Pen.” He replied. 

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

The next morning Penelope woke up naked in Colin’s arms. She nuzzled in closer, not wanting to wake him up just yet. They were going to spend their last full day together before he left. She wanted to soak up every moment she could. Colin instinctively tightened his grip on her, but didn’t stir. She tried to memorize every detail of his sleepy face. She loved the way his nose would occasionally scrunch up in his slumber, and the way his lips moved slightly, as if he were about to speak, but did not. He was so peaceful, and so steady. She carefully pulled her phone out to see a few texts from Pru and Pip. 

P3 Power

Prudence: How are you holding up Pen?

Phillipa: Should we plan a few sister nights while Colin is away?

Prudence: 🍷

Phillipa: Seriously, we can have the best wine night ever!

Penelope: I’m sad 😭 I knew this day was coming but it still sucks

Prudence: Does he know when he’ll be back yet?

Penelope: They told him the trip is set to last 4-6 weeks 

Phillipa: UGH

Phillipa: That’s a long time 🙁

Prudence: Colin wouldn’t miss your bday, tho

Prudence: Right?

Penelope: He might not have a choice 🙁

Penelope: He has a contract with the travel blog 

Phillipa: That’s shit

Prudence: Agreed!

“Hey, when did you wake up?” Colin’s voice brought her back to reality, and she set down her phone. She rolled over to face him, and cuddled back up to him.

“Just a few minutes ago,” She answered. “Pru and Pip are planning a sister’s night for while you’re away.”

“I’m glad they’ll be here for you,” Colin answered, planting a kiss to her head. “I wish I didn’t have to go.”

“You love to travel, Col. Eventually, I’ll get used to it. I knew when we started dating what your job would be. I just know I’m going to miss you,” Penelope explained, tracing circles on his chest. “And I wish we knew when you’d be home.”

“We’ll talk every day. We can Facetime, and call anytime you want,” Colin reassured her. “I’m going to miss you so much.”

“I have a stupid thought,” Penelope admitted. “Please know this has nothing to do with you. You have been nothing but perfect, understanding, and loving. But, my silly insecurities are bubbling up, and they’re telling me you’ll meet some beautiful exotic woman, and forget all about me.”

“Well, you tell those thoughts that they are very, very wrong,” Colin said, booping her nose with his own. “I don’t even want to think about any other woman. You are the only one I see, Pen. Even before we got together officially, on my last set of travels, no woman could compare to you.”

“Not even the women in Paris?” She teased. 

“Listen you, no one, not in Paris or Bali or South Korea or fucking Timbuktu, can begin to measure up to you,” He replied, kissing her face over and over, causing her to squeal in delight. “Say it, so I know you believe me.”

“Okay, okay, no one can compare to me because you are completely besotted with me” She laughed.

“That’s right.” He grinned, pleased with himself. 

“What shall we do today?” She asked. He hummed. “It’s your last day here for a while, what will you miss the most?”

“You,” He replied with a smirk. “Obviously.”

“Okay, smarty pants, I mean food or activity wise.” She rolled her eyes.

“Again I say, obviously you.”

“Colin Christopher!” She exclaimed, giggling. “Can you be serious for a moment?”

“Fine, fine. I suppose I’ll miss our favorite bakery. Let’s start with breakfast and see where the rest of the day takes us,” Colin suggested. “But I can assure you, if this day is all about me, it will end back here with us naked again in bed.”

“That sounds perfectly reasonable to me.” She beamed. 

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

After breakfast, they took a stroll through the park. Colin loved going for walks to clear his mind and to get inspiration for his writing, but he also just loved showing Penelope off in public. As they walked near the pond, hand-in-hand, he hoped the lookers could see how in love they were. He had truly never felt this way before. He wanted to scream his love for her from every rooftop they came across. 

Penelope asked him questions about his upcoming trip. He didn’t want to think about being away from her, but he knew hearing him talk about it helped her. So he told her the places he was excited to visit, the food he wanted to try, and the landmarks he had on his list. Usually, traveling put him at ease. He loved seeing new places, and being able to do what he wanted. This time felt different. He was dreading getting on the plane, and couldn’t wait until he was home. For the first time, it really felt like he had something, or rather someone, to come back for. Penelope was his heart, and his home, and he had no desire to leave her. 

After their walk in the park, they grabbed some last minute things he’d need for the trip. They then came home and he finished packing his suitcase. She helped him go over his packing list, ensuring he wasn’t missing anything. Since they’d had a late brunch, it was already close to dinner time, so Pen offered to make them some chicken and rice while he relaxed. 

“It smells lovely,” He said, coming up behind her and wrapping his arms around her. “I can’t wait to eat it.”

“You’re supposed to be playing your video game and enjoying yourself,” She reminded herself. “Dinner still has a few minutes.”

“I’d rather be here with you.” He stated, leaving no room for argument. 

They ate dinner on the sofa where they could snuggle up together. Afterwards, he told her she had to pick a movie. It was her turn, and he insisted that even if it was his last night home, they had to follow their own rules. She picked Mamma Mia , and he made them some popcorn. They cuddled together for the duration of the movie. 

“Would you like to go to Greece?” Colin asked her. She nodded. “We should plan a trip together. There’s so many places on the islands I’d love to show you.”

“That would be perfect,” She smiled. “I can have my Donna Sheridan moment.” 

Colin grinned. He couldn’t wait to show her the world. He was looking forward to the days when he could travel for fun again and not because of his job. It was great for a while, but now he yearned for something more home-based. 

“I think you promised to end this night in bed,” Penelope said with a smirk. “Are you going to make good on that vow?”

Colin didn’t need to be asked twice. He scooped her into his arms, and practically ran to the bedroom. She giggled as he laid her down on the bed. He proceeded to make love to her twice before they fell asleep, holding tightly to one another. It was going to be a long and lonely few weeks sleeping apart. 

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Colin had booked a late flight so that he had the day to say goodbye to his family, and enjoy his last few hours with Penelope. It would be his last Sunday brunch for a few weeks, so he wanted to be present for it. He and Penelope arrived together. He followed her inside, and they were greeted by his family. 

“Colin, will you bring me back something cool?” Hyacinth asked her older brother.

“Sure, Hy,” He replied. “Anything you want?”

“I like surprises.” She grinned. 

Penelope was conversing with Daphne, Fran, and Michaela. Colin watched her as he talked with Simon and Anthony about his travel plans. Colin found himself answering the questions with very little excitement. Of course he was grateful for his job, and the opportunities it gave him, but was it time to consider a new path? 

Colin found his sister a few minutes later. He asked to speak to her alone for a moment. She followed him into the library where no one else was. He sighed before turning to Eloise.

“You won’t let her lock herself away, right?” Colin asked.

“Of course not, she’s my best friend,” Eloise stated. “I’ve been with her every time you’ve gone off on a new adventure.”

“But she wasn’t my girlfriend then, I’m worried she’ll get lonely and isolate herself.”

“Just because you weren’t together before didn’t mean Pen didn’t have a hard time when you’d leave,” Eloise explained. “She missed you, Col. You know how hard it is for her to talk about her feelings. We can thank Portia for that. But, as her closest friend, I knew she struggled with having you gone all the time.”

“I don’t want to leave her,” Colin told his sister. “I have to go on this trip, and then my contract is up for renewal.”

“What are you going to do?” Eloise asked him. 

“I want to stay home, I want to build a life with Pen. I just don’t think gallivanting around the globe has the same appeal it used to,” Colin explained. “I don’t know how long I’ll be gone this time. I’m afraid I’ll miss Pen’s birthday. No job is worth that.”

“I’ll make sure she has an amazing day if you’re not back, and you know she’ll understand,” Eloise squeezed his hand. “But, maybe next year, it won’t be an issue. If you don’t renew your contract, you won’t have to worry about missing birthdays and holidays anymore.”

“You’re right,” Colin nodded. “I’m sick of missing out on so much.”

Before Eloise could continue there was a knock at the door. Colin called for them to come in, and his mother entered the room. She could tell she’d interrupted an important conversation, but she looked to her children.

“Are you alright?” She asked.

“Colin is struggling with the thought of leaving Penelope,” Eloise explained. “He asked me to look after her.”

“Oh, sweetheart, we’ll all be here for Penelope while you’re away,” Violet assured her son. “She’ll come to Sunday brunch, and family dinners. We’ll make sure she’s not alone.”

“I hate this,” Colin told his mum. “I used to love to travel, and nothing ever made me question hopping on a plane.”

“You never had an anchor before,” His mother reasoned. “Sure, you had us, and we know you love us, but you were a free spirit. You’re older now, wiser, and ready for something serious. You finally found love, and now you have to leave her. But, Penelope will be here waiting for you.”

“For how long?” He asked her. 

“I guess that’s something the two of you will have to discuss. How much longer do you plan to travel solo for long periods of time?”

The trio made their way back to the rest of the family. Colin returned to Penelope’s side. He pulled her close. It was nearing time for him to head to the airport, and he was feeling worse about it the closer it got. 

Colin said goodbye to each of his siblings and his in-laws. He hugged everyone, and kissed his nieces and nephews goodbye. He embraced his mother, reaffirming that she’d look after his girl while he was away. His uber arrived, and he grabbed his suitcase from Penelope’s car. He said a last goodbye to his family before walking out with Penelope holding his hand. 

“I guess this is it,” She said, trying not to cry. “You’ll let me know when you make it to your gate?”

“I’ll text you the whole time,” He vowed. “Even if you’re asleep, I’ll send updates.”

“I’ll miss you,” She said, her voice cracking. “So much.”

Colin pulled her into his arms, holding her tight as she gave in to the tears. He wanted to cry too, seeing her this sad was breaking his heart. He hated that he couldn’t do anything about it right now. 

“I’ll miss you too, my love.” He said. He planted a kiss on her head. “I’ll call you every night, I promise.”

“And you’ll let me know when you know when your trip will be over?” She sniffled against his chest.

“You’ll be the first to know,” He promised. “I’ll tell you right away.”

“You’ve gotta get going or you’ll miss your flight.” She said, pulling away reluctantly. She wiped the tears from her face.

“I’ll be home before you know it.” He assured her. 

“I hope so.” She replied. 

Colin grabbed her face in his hands and kissed her. How was he supposed to go weeks without kissing her? He wasn’t sure he could survive it. He kissed her for a moment longer before pulling away. He kissed her forehead one last time.

“I love you more than anything, Pen.” He told her.

“I love you too, Colin,” She leaned in and placed a quick kiss on his lips. “Go before I start begging you to stay.”

Colin reluctantly pulled away from her. The truth was, job be damned, if she begged him to, he would have stayed. He almost wished she would, but Penelope was far too selfless for that. He waved goodbye as the car drove away. He couldn’t wait to come home to her. 

I don't wanna think of anything else now that I thought of you (Things will never be the same)

Chapter Text

April:

My baby's fly like a jet stream, high above the whole scene, loves me like I'm brand new

Penelope was embarrassed by how much she missed Colin. She had always seen herself as a strong and independent woman, and she still was. But, she missed her boyfriend. It sucked not having him around after a bad day. And she hated seeing his empty seat at Sunday brunch. Eloise, Violet, and Pen’s sisters tried to keep her busy and distracted, but she spent most of her days waiting to hear from him. To make matters worse, her birthday was coming soon, and Colin still didn’t have an end date for this trip. She was losing hope that he’d be there to celebrate with her. 

It had been over a month since she’d been in his arms, and it felt like time was barely moving. Even with their facetimes and phone calls, she felt empty. She couldn’t wait until they could see each other face to face again. 

“You’re getting scruffy,” Penelope commented on their facetime call. “Are you trying to grow a beard?”

“Nah, just haven’t shaved in a bit,” Colin replied. “Are you cooking dinner?”

“Just throwing together a salad, kind of a girl dinner night,” She replied. “I had a bunch of meetings today, and then I had to stop at my mum’s place. It was a mess, as you can imagine.” 

“I’m sorry, babe. I wish I was there to hold you and kiss your worries away,” He sighed. “How was Portia?”

“The usual, she assumed I had already driven you away,” Penelope said as she took her bowl of salad and moved to the table, bringing her phone with her and propping it up. “She also made three comments about my appearance, and two about my job.”

“Damn, I’m so sorry. You know it’s not true right?”

“I do, but it’s hard to hear it still.” Penelope told him. She pouted a bit. “I just wish you were here.”

“Me too, love.” He said. 

“Eloise and I are having lunch with your mum tomorrow,” She told him. “They want to discuss plans for my birthday. Do you think you’ll be here by then?”

“I hope so,” He said, looking guilty. “But, I’ve still got a few more stops on this trip around South Korea.”

“It’s okay, I know you don’t have much of a choice,” She assured him. “But I’ll admit, I do hope you’re able to come home before then.”

“I’ll do my best, honey,” He promised. “Give El and my mum my love, yeah?”

“I will,” She smiled. “I hate to cut it short, but I’m exhausted. I’m gonna eat and go right to sleep. We’ll talk tomorrow?”

“Of course,” He stated. “I love you, Pen.”

“I love you too, babe.”

She hung up the phone and let out a sigh. She missed him.

Eloise Bridgerton and Penelope Featherington

Eloise: Colin texted me. On a scale of 1-10 how sad are you? 

Penelope: 1000 😭

Penelope: I don’t want him to feel bad, but I will be really bummed if he misses my birthday 

Eloise: I will kick his ass 😑

Penelope: It’s not his fault, El

Eloise: He better be here

Penelope: If he can, he will

Eloise: And if he can’t?

Penelope: He’ll make it up to me when he comes home

Eloise: I just hate seeing you sad 😞

Penelope: I know

Penelope: And I appreciate your support ❤️

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Penelope’s day had been shit, to put it lightly. She’d slept past her alarm, missed her therapy appointment, had a horrible meeting with her agent, and was battling a terrible migraine. She was ready to turn off her computer for the day and crawl into bed. But, she’d promised to call Colin when she was finished with work, and truthfully, she thought talking to him would turn her day around. 

“Hi love,” He said when he answered the Facetime call. “How has your day been?”

“Awful, honestly, but seeing you helps.” She smiled.

She was snuggled up in bed, holding her phone close so she could see him. The time difference sucked, but Colin always worked around her schedule. He was in bed too, having woken up very early in the morning to talk to her. 

“Pen, I need to tell you something,” He said nervously. “I got an update on my trip.”

“When are you coming home?” She asked, but seeing his face she knew it would not be soon.

“They extended it,” He answered. “I probably will be here at least two, possibly three more weeks.”

“Oh,” She said, trying her best not to sound disappointed. “That’s alright.”

“I’m so sorry, babe. This really sucks,” Colin said. “I hate that I’m going to miss your birthday.”

“It’s fine, honey, I know you can’t just leave. Your job is important to you, and you have to see through your assignment.” 

“I promise we’ll do something special when I get back,” Colin vowed. “I am so sorry.”

“Stop apologizing,” She insisted. “Yes it’s a bummer, but there’s nothing we can do about it right now. I’m more sad that you could be gone another three weeks than I am about you missing my birthday. I just miss you.”

“I miss you so much,” Colin agreed. “I can’t wait to come back to you.”

Eloise Bridgerton and Colin Bridgerton

Eloise: COLIN WHAT THE FUCK

Colin: I’m guessing you talked to Pen

Eloise: You’re missing her birthday 😡

Colin: Do you trust me?

Eloise: Right now? Not exactly

Eloise: 🙄

Eloise: You’re kind of an asshole right now

Colin: Just believe me when I say it’s going to be fine 

Eloise: Colin

Eloise: I told you if you hurt her I am taking her side

Eloise: That’s still true

Colin: I know

Colin: Pen is lucky to have you El ❤️

Eloise: Dude

Eloise: Don’t even try to suck up

Eloise: You made my best friend cry

Colin: She’s crying? 😢

Eloise: Of course she is, idiot 🙄

Eloise: You better have something good up your sleeve

Colin: I’d never let Pen down

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Violet and Eloise were insisting on planning a party for Penelope, though she insisted she didn’t need one. Violet was adamant that they were celebrating her birthday even if Colin was in a different time zone. Penelope couldn’t deny Violet the opportunity to plan an event, so she agreed. She was expecting something lowkey, but Violet did nothing half-assed. She had an entire masquerade party planned for Penelope. 

Penelope tried to be excited, but Colin was not going to be there, and so feeling positive about the day was hard. She wanted to spend the day wallowing, but the Bridgertons would never let that happen. She appreciated everything they were doing, but she just wanted Colin to be home with her. 

“Come on, Pen, smile, it's your birthday.” Eloise instructed as the pair got ready for the party together.

“Sorry, I know you and your mum put in a lot of work for today, I’m just missing Colin a little extra right now,” Penelope explained with a frown. “I wish he was here.”

“I know,” Eloise replied, putting an arm around her best friend. “I made him swear that he’d make it up to you.”

“El, it’s okay, really. When we started dating, I knew what I signed up for. It’s just taking some getting used to,” Penelope insisted. “But it’s not Colin’s fault.”

Penelope didn’t want Eloise to make Colin feel bad. He already was feeling guilty despite Penelope trying to reassure him. He’d sent her flowers just that morning, and she knew he would make it up to her when he returned. 

“Listen, I know you’re sad, but let’s have fun tonight, okay? It sucks not having Colin here, but you have the rest of the Bridgerton brigade and your sisters and friends here to celebrate.”

“I’ll do my best,” Penelope said with a weak smile. “But, you have to let me sneak out for my nightly phone call with Colin. Deal?”

“Deal.” Eloise grinned. 

Penelope changed into her dress. It was a beautiful dusty blue gown. The shade she always associated with the Bridgertons. When she’d ordered it, she’d pictured the look on Colin’s face when he saw her in it. She’d have to settle for a Facetime reaction. She also grabbed her mask. It was intricate, and matched her dress perfectly. 

Eloise was also dressed in blue, though hers was more navy. They’d shopped together a few weeks ago when Violet insisted on the party theme. She’d sent them with her credit card, making Eloise swear she’d use it for both their dresses no matter how much Penelope protested. 

The downstairs was decorated to the nines. Violet had truly gone all out to make everything glamorous and classy. Penelope forced herself to take it all in, and was more determined to enjoy the night. She’d promised Colin she wouldn’t spend her birthday feeling sad, and she wanted to make good on that promise. So even if she missed him, she decided she was going to do her best to have fun. 

“Happiest birthday, sweet girl,” Violet said, hugging Penelope. “We are so blessed to have you in our lives.”

“Thank you so much, Violet,” Penelope said sincerely. “This is truly above and beyond. I can’t believe you did all of this for me.”

“You’re family, Penelope. Even before you were dating my son I loved you like you were my own. I have wanted you to be my daughter for so long, and now that Colin finally came to his senses, I am determined to make up for lost time,” Violet smiled at her. “Now go, have fun, my dear.”

Penelope wandered around, saying hello to all the Bridgertons. The masks did make it tricky, but she knew them all well enough that the masks did not keep her from identifying them. Daphne and Simon had given her airline tickets to visit Colin on his next trip, or whenever she wanted. She insisted it was too much, but they waved her off. 

Hyacinth was excited to wish Penelope a happy birthday. The youngest Bridgerton had been arguing about something with Gregory, but ended the discussion when Penelope approached them. Penelope chatted with Hyacinth, Gregory and Lucy for a few minutes before moving along. 

“How is your birthday so far?” Francesca asked her.

“It’s been pretty good, your mum truly is amazing,” Penelope said. “Thank you both for coming.”

“Of course we came!” Michaela exclaimed. “It’s your birthday.”

Penelope was feeling a lot better as the night went on. Her sadness over missing her boyfriend was pushed out of head for a bit. She had moved to the punch table to get a drink when Violet found her. 

“Darling, I’m afraid I left your present in the guest house. Would you mind grabbing it before we do gifts?” Violet requested. 

Penelope agreed right away. She headed out the door and through the garden. Colin had technically been living in the guest house when he was home on travels, but he still spent most nights at Pen’s place. She had only stayed in the guest house with him a handful of times, and it felt strange to be there without him. 

She could almost smell his cologne as she searched for the gift bag Violet had sent her for. She saw it sitting on the table and moved to grab it. She was just turning to leave when someone grabbed her arm. She turned to see a man in a mask, but it did not conceal him from her.

“Colin!” She exclaimed, dropping the bag and throwing herself into his arms. 

“Happy birthday, baby,” He said, lifting her off the ground and squeezing her tightly. “I missed you so much.”

“How are you here?” She asked, tears now flowing down her face as he returned her feet to the ground. 

“I wanted to surprise you,” He explained. “I found out I would be home for your birthday a while back. I didn’t land until this morning, but I came here to nap before seeing you. I wanted to be well rested for your party.”

“I missed you so much,” She said, her lip trembling. “I’m so happy you’re here.”

She stood up on her tiptoes to kiss him. Violet must have been in on this. She wondered if anyone else knew about his return. She was still in shock that Colin was here, holding her again. It was the best birthday present she ever could have asked for. 

“I love you, Pen,” He said, pulling back slightly from their kiss. “I’d never miss your birthday, and I’m sorry I lied. I just wanted to surprise you.”

“This is the best surprise,” She assured him. “I love you, Colin Bridgerton.”

As much as Penelope wanted to spend the rest of her night alone with Colin, she would not do that to Violet and Eloise. They’d put a lot of effort into the party, and she didn’t want to disappear on them. Plus, she knew everyone had missed Colin, and she wanted to be sure they all got a chance to see him before she stole him away for the rest of the weekend. 

“Colin!” Eloise said in surprise. “You’re here!”

“I told you to trust me,” Colin smiled, hugging his sister. “I knew if I told you I was coming, there was no way you’d keep it from Pen.”

“You didn’t have to see how sad she was,” Eloise replied, not denying his accusation. “And, you know I’m always team Pen.”

Violet was excited to see her son, and happy to see the light return to Penelope when she was with him. She knew how hard it had been for Penelope to be away from Colin, and she hoped they wouldn’t have to continue with long periods of distance. She had been glad to hear Colin was coming home in time for Pen’s birthday, and had done everything she could to help him surprise her. 

“We’re glad you’re home,” Kate told Colin. “We all missed you.”

“How long are you home for?” Anthony asked. Pen tried not to tense up under Colin’s arm at the question. He’d just gotten home, she didn’t want to think about him leaving again yet. “Any idea where your next trip will be?”

“I’m not leaving again for a while.” Colin said. 

“Good, it’ll be nice having you back for a bit.” Daphne smiled. 

“Listen, I love you all, and I’m looking forward to catching up soon, but I’m going to take my girl home now,” Colin announced, grinning. “Maybe don’t expect to hear from us for a few days.”

“Colin!” Penelope exclaimed with a blush.

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Having Colin back was everything Penelope had wanted. He’d been gone for a month and half, but it had felt like so much longer. Getting to fall asleep in his arms, and wake up beside him was pure bliss. She’d never take a single moment with him for granted. She watched him as he cooked her breakfast in his plain white t-shirt and boxers. She was wearing one of his shirts and a pair of underwear. 

“I missed having you cook for me,” She hummed happily from her place at the kitchen counter. “I can never make an omelet as well as you.”

“It’s a special talent,” He smiled at her. “I love cooking for you.”

She grinned. He put her omelet and toast on a plate with a few strawberries and handed it to her. She ate while he finished making his own omelet. He came and sat beside her as they finished their breakfast. 

“What do you want to do today?” He asked her.

“I want to spend the day locked in this apartment with you,” She replied. “Do you think anyone will mind?”

“I told them not to bother us for a few days,” Colin chuckled. “Truthfully, I don’t want to share our attention today.”

“Me either,” She agreed. “Let’s enjoy each other today. We can turn our phones off and ignore the rest of the world.”

After they ate, Colin suggested they take a shower together. Shower sex was one of his favorites, but she was surprised to find he didn’t try to start anything. Instead, he took the time to wash her hair, clean her body, and hold her close under the water. She’d never had something so intimate in her life. She returned the favor, wanting to care for him the way he had her. When they were done with their shower, they snuggled up in her bed. They put on the first Pirates of the Caribbean movie, and decided to have a marathon. 

“What was your favorite part of your trip?” Penelope asked him.

“The food,” He said with a smirk. “And seeing new places I’d never been.”

“I loved all the pictures you sent,” She smiled. “It felt like I was there with you.”

“I wish you had been,” Colin replied. “I can’t wait to travel together.”

She liked the thought of traveling the world by his side, but wondered how realistic it was. Sure, she had a lot of freedom in her job, but she still had to be in the office occasionally. Plus, he was never sure how long he’d be gone for, and she had writing deadlines to meet. What would their life be like if they were constantly in a different city? And how long could she keep up with the long distance? She wondered if any part of him wanted to settle down. 

“I know this isn’t ideal, but just know being here with you is exactly where I want to bet. One day, we’ll travel because we want to, and not because my job says I have to,” Colin said as if reading her mind. “I love seeing the world, but having you come home to is everything to me.”

It did help put her mind at ease. She wanted Colin to live his dreams, and she would not stand in the way of them. She wanted to be supportive. She knew someday they’d have to talk about the future of his traveling, but today wasn’t that day. She didn’t want to potentially spoil her first day home with him. 

“Do you think your mum is mad we skipped Sunday brunch?” Penelope asked. 

“No, she gave us a free pass, but we are expected to be at dinner on Friday,” Colin explained. “I figured by Friday you’d be sick of being holed up here with me.”

“Never,” She grinned, snuggling into him further. “I could do this everyday for the rest of my life.”

“Me too, Pen,” He said, kissing the top of her head. “Oh! Before I forget, I have your birthday present.”

Colin reached for his bag and pulled out a small square box that was a light teal color. A Tiffany and Co box. Penelope gasped, and tried to insist it was too much, but he stopped her. He insisted she open it and not say anything about the price. She sighed but opened it and gasped. Inside was a silver necklace with the letter C on the chain. 

Because I really know you, not because I own you 

She looked at him tearfully.

“Reputation is one of your favorite Taylor Swift albums, and I remember you loved that song,” Colin said. “I asked Eloise if it was weird, and she said she thought you’d love it.”

“I do,” She smiled. “I love it, and I love you so much.”

“Happy birthday, love. Here’s to your next year, I have a feeling it’ll be the best one yet.

“So do I.”

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Reunited with my best friend, and love of my life ❤️ Happy birthday @PenTheFeather. I love you more than I can put into words. You are everything to me. Each day with you is truly a gift. I hope you know what you mean to me. I can’t wait to spend the rest of our lives together. You’re the sun, moon, and all the stars. Thank you for loving me. You’re truly the greatest person I know, and I love you so much 😘

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@PenTheFeather I want to wear your initials in a chain around my neck 😉 Love you so much, babe! You’re the best thing that’s ever been mine ❤️

@EloiseMarie 🤮

@EloiseMarie SHE’S MY BEST FRIEND!!! Remember how you made her think you weren’t going to be here for her birthday? 👀

@ItsHy_ That was romantic, El 

@DaffBassett UGH! You two are so cute 😍

@KateSharmaBridgerton Love you guys so much!!

@MamaViolet We missed you at Brunch, but it’s so lovely to see you back together again! ❤️

@BenedictBridgertonArt lol I wonder why they missed brunch 😂

@Pip_Finch This is so cute 🥺

@PrudenceJoy Our baby sis 🥺

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Penelope’s mum had insisted on a later birthday dinner the following weekend. Penelope had been enjoying her time with Colin. They’d had dinner with his family, and it was so nice to have everyone there. She was, however, not looking forward to seeing her own mother. Prudence and Phillipa were both unable to join them which made it even worse. Not that Penelope blamed her sisters, they’d been at her party, and they couldn’t always be there to save her from their mum. At least she had Colin. 

“I see you brought Mr. Bridgerton,” Portia commented when the pair arrived. “I wasn’t aware he was back.”

“Mum, I told you he was coming,” Penelope fought the urge to roll her eyes. “He got back last week. I texted you to let you know he was joining us.”

“Must have forgotten,” Portia replied with a shrug. “Come, sit.”

They followed her mother into the dining room and sat down at the table. Penelope found it strange whenever she dined in her childhood home. It had never been a very warm environment growing up, but it was even less so now. 

“I heard from Marina recently,” Portia stated. “She seems to be doing well. It's a shame the two of you didn’t work out.”

Penelope felt her boyfriend tense up beside her. She placed a hand on his thigh and squeezed gently. She didn’t want him to take her bait. Their dinner had just started, she didn't want an argument right now.

“Well, it seems things worked out in the end,” Penelope gave Colin a smile. “I think so, anyway.”

“Marina was devastated by the breakup, as you know. It was heartbreaking to see. And now, less than a year later he’s dating her close friend. That seems a bit odd, does it not?” Portia was doing her best to get a rise out of them.

“Marina was not my friend, mama. Daddy and Mr. Thompson were close, but Marina and I never got along. She used me to get close to Colin, and then proceeded to mock me daily,” Penelope reminded the older woman. “Colin and I were always dancing around each other. It was all about timing for us, and the timing was finally right.”

“I love your daughter, Mrs. Featherington. I’m sorry if my intentions have not been clear to you, but I assure you, Penelope is the one I am meant to be with.” Colin declared. 

Penelope felt her heart warm at the words. Colin was truly too good for this world. She loved how fiercely and confidently he loved her. She had never had anyone care for her like this before, and she felt so lucky to have him by her side. 

“Well, I do hope it all works out,” Portia said. “Colin I am sure you get lonely on your travels. How long until you find someone to warm your bed?”

“I would never do that to Pen,” Colin practically snarled. “There will never be anyone else. I might get lonely, but I would never, ever even consider another woman. That’s an insult to my character that the thought would even cross your mind.”

“Penelope surely can’t keep your interest that well,” Portia scoffed. “You’d have been better off with Marina.”

“Penelope is the most eligible amongst any of you, and the fact that you can’t see it makes me furious. Your daughter is the most kind, loyal, loving person I know. You should be so lucky to have her, but you continuously cast her aside. In my presence, I must insist you watch your tongue. For I will not stand for anyone talking ill of her.” 

“I see you think yourself to be in love,” Portia replied. “How foolish.”

“I don’t think it, I am in love with her,” Colin left no room for questioning in his tone. “What do you have against love?”

“She doesn’t believe it to be real,” Penelope said. “She never loved my father, and her love for my sisters and I always came with a price.”

“Well, I do believe in love. My parents taught me from a very young age that love can conquer anything, and I find myself knowing the truth behind those words now more than ever. Penelope and I might have taken a long time to get here, but there’s nothing I would change. I love her, and she loves me. Nothing has ever felt foolish about that.” Colin said. 

“Let’s see how long this lasts, and then we can see which of us is the fool.” Portia replied.

“It will be you,” Colin stated. “Because I’m not going anywhere. I will spend the rest of my life at your daughter’s side if she’ll have me.”

“Mama, I want you to be a part of my life, but if you keep acting this way, I’m going to set some very strong boundaries,” Penelope warned. “Colin and I are going to go. The next time you want to see me, I hope you think about what we’ve said.”

“By the way,” Colin said, standing and taking Penelope’s hand. “You forgot to wish your daughter a happy birthday.”

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P3 Power

Penelope: Colin told Portia off 

Prudence: TELL US EVERYTHING 👀

Penelope: She was pulling her normal shit and he called her out on it

Phillipa: OMG

Phillipa: PEN YOU HAVE TO MARRY THIS MAN 😍

Penelope: I walked out of the dinner

Prudence: GOOD FOR YOU 👏🏻

Phillipa: I’m proud of you ♥️

Prudence: Let’s get together soon? 

Prudence: P3 and their men?

Penelope: Yes! 

Phillipa: Now that your done tying Colin to your bed for days 😂

Penelope: Who said he was the one tied up? 👀

Prudence: PEN!!! 😲

I want to wear his initial on a chain 'round my neck, chain 'round my neck. Not because he owns me, but 'cause he really knows me

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May:

I don't wanna do, I don't wanna do this to you. I don't wanna lose, I don't wanna lose this with you

“I just don’t understand why Colin gets to claim you for movie night,” Eloise pouted as she and Pen shopped. “We’ve always sat together and talked about whether or not said movie passed the Bechdel test.”

“El, we’re all sitting in the same room,” Penelope laughed. “I think you can both claim me.”

“But you’re gonna cuddle Colin and not me,” Eloise huffed. “It’s not fair.”

The Bridgerton siblings got together a few times a year for a big movie night. Penelope, of course, had a standing invite even before dating Colin. She had always sat with Eloise, but usually Colin was on her other side. She hated to break El’s spirit, but she was actually looking forward to getting to snuggle Colin this year. 

“Are you not planning on cuddling up to Phillip?” Pen asked. 

           “Please, he knows it’s Peneloise forever,” Eloise replied. “He’d never try to come between us unlike some people.”

“Are you just saying that because you’re feeling petty, or do you really think Colin is coming between?” Penelope asked in a slight panic. Eloise looked at her and sighed.

“I’m just feeling petty,” El confirmed. “I’m on the Polin ship, truly. I just have to remember that it means sharing my best friend with my brother.”

“You had me first,” Penelope reminded her, putting an arm around her best friend. “And you’ll always be my best friend.”

“Good.” Eloise grinned.

The pair finished their shopping a little while later. Eloise had wanted to grab a new outfit for an event she had at work, and then they’d gone to the bookstore. They both left with a large sack of books, of course. 

Penelope headed back to their flat. Eloise had decided she was going to move in with Phillip in the following month. Penelope had been looking for a different flat, Colin helping her. They’d talked about him moving in with her, but nothing had been decided for certain. With Colin traveling all the time, she wasn’t sure if it made sense for him to pay half of the rent, or sign a lease with her. He’d be there all the time, though, and it would be nice to have the same address. She was conflicted, and she knew they had to make a decision soon. 

“I’m back!” Penelope called out. Colin was typing away on his laptop, editing his blog from South Korea. “Did you get a lot of work done?”

“I did,” Colin smiled as she leaned in to give him a quick kiss. “I’m nearly finished editing the first two weeks of the trip, so hopefully it'll be ready to be published by the end of the week. I’ll do the second part after that.”

“And then you’ll know where you’re going next?” She asked, hoping the disappointment didn’t come through her voice. 

“That’s usually how it goes,” Colin answered. “But, I don’t want to even think about getting on a plane right now.”

She didn’t want to think about it either, but she knew eventually he’d be leaving again. He was a wanderer, a traveler, an adventurer, he wouldn’t stay in one place for too long. She loved the part of him that wanted to see the world, but also hated that it meant he’d always be leaving her. 

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Movie night was usually held at Daphne and Simon’s place. They had a huge theater room that could hold everyone. They didn’t need to worry about a sitter and neither did Kate and Anthony. They’d put the kids to sleep upstairs before the movie, and then Kate and Anthony would grab Edmund and Mia before leaving for the night. Everyone would bring snacks and drinks to share with the group. 

Penelope and Colin arrived and got set up in the theater room. Eloise and Phillip sat beside them, Eloise insisting she still got to sit next to Pen. They always took turns to see who got to pick the movie. This time, Benedict had won, which meant a horror movie night. Penelope wasn’t the biggest fan of scary movies, but it helped to have Colin. She could hide her face in his chest during the jump scares. 

“Penelope, how’s the novel coming along?” Sophie asked while they set up the movie. 

“It’s a slow process, but we’re getting there,” Penelope replied. “I have deadlines for the short stories I’ve been doing the last few years, but the novel is making progress.”

“We can’t wait to read it,” Kate said excitedly. “You and Colin both are such amazing writers, it’s no wonder you bonded over it.”

“Penelope is the novelist, my travel writing truly doesn’t compare.” Colin stated proudly.

“Oh hush, you are a beautiful writer. Remember those letters we’d write back and forth while you were gone? You could be a poet, really, Col.” Penelope insisted.

“Colin, have you ever considered it?” Daphne asked her brother. Colin shrugged.

“Those words were just for Pen, I’m not sure how I’d feel publishing them for anyone else.”

“The world deserves to hear your beautiful words,” Penelope told him. “Promise me you’ll think about it.”

“Pen,” Colin laughed. “I will think about it, but just know you are my muse, always.”

“Ah, there’s the poet,” Kate grinned. “Penelope isn’t wrong.”

Colin blushed, but Penelope knew part of him was also pleased with the praise. She wanted him to be confident in his writing, and really did hope he’d consider publishing something for himself. She knew he’d be successful. 

Simon clicked the movie on, and the discussion about writing came to a temporary halt. Benedict had gone with the original Nightmare on Elm Street . Penelope half hid behind the blanket, and half hid in her boyfriend’s chest. Even Eloise was burying her face against Phillip. Penelope reminded herself to get payback on the second Bridgerton brother by choosing a musical when it was her turn. 

“You okay?” Colin asked, wrapping his arms around her. She nodded, not daring to look up at the screen. “You sure?”

“I don’t want to look, I might never sleep again.” Penelope muttered into his shirt. 

“I can think of ways to tire you out enough that you won’t even think of Freddy Krueger,” Colin smiled down at her. “We can leave now if you’d like.”

“I might take you up on that, but Daphne gets to pick the second movie, and I already know it’s going to be Legally Blonde , so there’s zero chance I’m missing that.” 

Colin chuckled. She snuggled against him. The movie ended, thankfully, and as predicted Daphne picked one of their all time favorites for the second movie of the night. Penelope sent her a grateful smile. She was glad she wouldn’t have to endure another scary movie for a while. 

The Gals 💍

Sophie: Pen, you okay? I know scary isn’t your thing

Eloise: Blame your husband for subjecting us to IT when we were way too young 🙄

Penelope: lol it’s true

Penelope: I’m okay tho!

Daphne: I figured some comedy would lighten the mood 🩷

Hyacinth: Listen Benedict is the reason I love horror films lol

Kate: Unsurprising 😂

Hyacinth: As the youngest I found anyway I could to bond with my older sibs 🤷‍♀️

Francesca: She even let me give her piano lessons for a bit 

Hyacinth: Sorry Fran love, I’ll stick with slasher films thx 😝

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Penelope knew Colin was keeping something from her. He was avoiding any discussion of his work, and it was starting to make her uneasy. She wondered if it meant his next trip would be really long. Whatever the reason was, she knew he couldn’t keep putting off this discussion. So, she sat him down after work to get answers out of him. 

“Where’s the trip to?” She asked bluntly.

“It’s a quick trip to Italy, Lake Como actually,” He told her. “A repeat destination will make it easy.”

“And you were putting off telling me because?” She pushed. He sighed.

“It wasn’t the trip I wasn’t telling you about, babe. I wanted everything to be finalized before I told you,” He began. “But, everything is good, so now I can let the cat out of the bag. This is going to be my last trip. 

“What are you talking about?” She looked at him in confusion.

“I put in for a transfer to the editing department. I won’t have to take long trips for work anymore. We can be together now. I know the traveling was hard on you-”

“Wait, stop, you did this without talking to me first?” Colin was shocked by her tone. “Colin, this is a big deal.”

“I thought you’d be happy, love,” Colin scrunched his eyebrows together. “I can write what I want in my free time, and be closer to you.”

“Why so you can resent me for making you stop doing what you love?” She accused.

“Woah, that’s not going to happen,” Colin tried to reassure her. “I did this for us.”

“Traveling is everything to you.” She reminded him.

“No, you’re everything to me,” He corrected. “I want a home, roots. I want to be with you and not constantly in different time zones, Pen. We can move in together, and start looking at our future. Isn’t that what you want?”

“I don’t know because you did this without discussing it with me,” She said cooly. “You rushed into a decision, as usual.”

“What does that mean?” He asked her.

 “You rushed into suddenly having feelings for me, and now you want to change your entire life for me.”

“I don’t know what you’re saying, because we both know that’s not what happened. Where is this coming from?” He asked, desperately trying to understand why she was suddenly upset with him. 

“This is too much. I can’t let you give up your dreams.” 

“Dreams change! Traveling is something I can do when I want, or when we want. I just don’t want to live the way I have been. I want to be home.” He explained.

“Colin, we’ve been serious from day one. I don’t think we’ve even stopped for a moment to catch our breaths. Maybe we should.” She looked at him tearfully.

“Penelope, what do you mean?” His heart stopped momentarily. 

“I think we should take a break.”

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Self destructive behavior. That’s what Penelope’s therapist called the way she acted out sometimes. Penelope had a habit of ruining good things in her life because she didn’t feel she deserved them. It was almost like she took them away from herself before someone could take them from her. She hated that she did this, but habits were hard to break. She missed Colin, and she knew he was leaving for his trip in a few days. They hadn’t spoken since she’d asked for a break, and kicked him out of the flat. She was miserable, but she needed to give Colin his freedom. 

She hadn’t heard from any of the Bridgertons, except for Violet. Colin’s mum had asked her about Sunday Brunch, likely not knowing about the split. Everyone else, who probably did know, did not reach out to her. It was better that way, she thought. It would be harder to keep her walls up if everyone was trying to knock them down. 

“So, you broke up with him because he quit his job to be close to you?” Phillipa asked. Penelope had invited her sisters over, needing some company, and someone to wallow with. 

“He didn’t quit, he transferred,” Penelope replied. “Without even mentioning it to me first.”

“Pen, didn’t you want Colin to be home?” Prudence asked the youngest Featherington in confusion. 

“He’ll resent me for this!” Penelope exclaimed in frustration. “He’ll hate me eventually, just like daddy hated mama for trapping him into a life he didn’t want.”

“Oh, Penny,” Phillipa took her sister’s hands in her own. “Colin and you are not our parents. Our father was a selfish, ungrateful bastard, and mother is an emotionally complex bitch most of the time.”

“You can’t allow them to ruin the best thing to ever happen to you,” Prudence added. “Colin loves you so much. He wants to be near you, there is nothing wrong with that. He probably didn’t tell you because he assumed you’d be happy about it.”

“Things happened so fast with us, I think we need the space to think it over.” Even as the words left her mouth Penelope knew they weren’t true. 

“Penelope Anne Featherington, you and Colin have danced around each other for years! You were friends, best friends really. You knew each other better than anyone else, and understood each other in ways no one else did. It wasn’t moving fast, if anything it took you forever to finally open your eyes to each other,” Prudence stated. “Why are you so quick to let him go? You love him, don’t you?”

“More than anything,” Penelope whispered as tears formed in her eyes. “So much that it terrifies me. I fear he has been so wrapped up in our relationship he hasn’t truly had time to reflect. I, I think it’s best that he has some time to think about whether or not he really wants this.”

“You’re leaving him before he can leave you,” Phillipa concluded. “That’s the stupidest idea you’ve ever had.”

“Pip!” Penelope gasped.

“She’s not wrong, Pen.” Prudence agreed. 

“You’re going to let Colin go for no reason at all other than your misguided fear,” Phillipa said. “You’re not only breaking your own heart, but his as well.”

Penelope could take it no longer. The dam burst, and her tears came pouring out. She let out a sob. Her sisters were right, she had been stupid. She let some silly insecurities get in her way, and now she was risking everything. There was a chance Colin wouldn’t take her back after this, and she couldn’t blame him. He’d tried to do something sweet, something that would take their relationship to the next level, and this was how she’d reacted. 

“What do I do?”

Eloise Bridgerton and Penelope Featherington

Penelope: Have you seen him?

Eloise: No

Penelope: Have you talked to him?

Eloise: Yep.

Penelope: I get that you’re mad, but I need you

Eloise: What do you want me to say, Pen? You broke my brother’s heart for literally no reason.

Penelope: I know

Penelope: You can’t possibly know how sorry I am 

Eloise: You should be telling him not me

Penelope: I can’t imagine he wants to hear from me right now

Eloise: Why did you break up with him?

Penelope: I didn’t, I asked for a break!

Eloise: We both know there’s not much of a difference

Penelope: I was scared, El

Eloise: You’re my best friend, but what you did was shitty

Eloise: He’s a mess

Penelope: I know I suck

Penelope: I don’t know how to fix it

Eloise: He leaves for Lake Como in a few days

Eloise: Are you going to see him before he leaves?

Penelope: I feel like I should wait until he gets back

Eloise: Do you want to be with Colin?

Penelope: More than anything in the world

Eloise: Okay, I might have an idea

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Packing for a trip to Italy was the last thing Colin wanted to be doing. He wanted to stay and fight for his relationship, but Penelope had asked for space. He was trying to respect, and hoped it would help her see things clearly. He was still in shock over how things had happened. They had been so happy, and suddenly she was kicking him to the curb. Maybe he should have talked to her before transferring, but he had really thought she’d be happy about it. He just wanted to be close to her, he didn’t mean to upset her. They had been on the same page when they’d discussed their future, so he thought being home instead of on a different continent all the time would be good for them. 

“How’s the packing, honey?” His mum popped her head into his room in the guest house. He shrugged. “Need any help?”

“I’m just about done,” He commented, sitting down on his bed. “I just want to get this trip over with.”

His mum came and sat down with him. She took his hand in hers, knowing he needed some comfort. He was grateful to have a mother who could read him so easily. She didn’t need to ask him how he was feeling, or what he needed. She just knew. 

“Penelope will come around, dearest,” His mum sounded certain in this. “She’s waited for so long to be with you, it’s only fair to allow her to freak out a bit.”

“She ended things so easily,” He said, not caring that he was starting to cry. “She said she loved me, but she just, she…”

“I know, and I know how much it hurts. Colin, you have always been one of my most sensitive children, and I have always loved that about you,” She tells him. “You care so deeply about those around you. Penelope and I are, in some ways, a lot alike. I too was a wallflower who longed secretly after her dearest friend. I was so afraid when your father and I started dating that he would change his mind. Even after we’d gotten engaged, I worried he would realize he made a mistake.”

“That’s crazy, mum,” Colin sniffled. “Father loved you so much. He worshiped the ground you walked on.”

“Yes, he most certainly did. And, he was very patient with me. Even when I insisted we take a break so he could decide if he truly wanted to be with me.”

“You did?” Colin asked in surprise.

“I did. He gave me some space, and I soon realized that I’d make a huge mistake.” Violet told her son. 

“I love her so much,” Colin cried. “I don’t know how I’m supposed to let her go if she doesn’t come back to me.”

“She will, of that I am sure.”

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Penelope didn’t often doubt Eloise, but this was one of those instances where she wondered if her best friend was right. El had been very sure this plan would work, but as Penelope put it into motion, she felt very uneasy. What if things were over between her and Colin? What if he didn’t want to reconcile with her? She was a bundle of nerves as she approached the door and knocked. 

“Room service!” She called out. 

“I didn’t order anything!” Colin called back. She knocked again, louder this time. She heard shuffling, and then the chain to the door sliding. “I said I didn’t-Pen!”

“Hi,” She said shyly. “Can I come in?”

Colin’s mouth was dropped open in surprise, but he stepped aside and ushered her into the room. She’d come straight from the airport. Eloise had found out his room number for her, and she hadn’t allowed herself to stop and think this through. 

“How are you here?” He asked her as she sat in the chair and he sat on the edge of the bed. 

“Daff and Simon got me airline credits for my birthday so I could join you on a trip,” She explained. “Eloise helped with the rest.”

“Why are you here?” He asked again.

“I, I-” She suddenly felt a sob escape her. “I’m so sorry, Colin!”

Colin dropped to his knees in front of her. He took her hands in his, holding them tightly. 

“I was so scared when you told me your were done traveling. I was so afraid you’d regret it, and then resent me. It was silly. I know that, but my walls started closing in on me, and I freaked out.”

“My love, I know this is scary. What we have, it’s real, and serious, and everything happened fast. We went from being friends, to being in love, and spending every moment together for a while. Then I was gone for over a month, and when I got back, I was changing my entire life to be with you. I understand if I came on too strong, I should have talked to you first.” Colin told her. 

“No, Colin, I want all of this with you, that’s why I was so scared. Losing you would kill me. I do want you home with me, of course I do. But, you love your job,” She said shakily. “It’s not fair to ask you to give it up.”

“My job was fun when I was young and single and wanted to go anywhere whenever I wanted,” Colin replied. “I don’t want that life anymore. You're not asking anything of me, Pen. I am asking you, please, take this step with me?”

“Yes,” She sobbed, throwing herself into his arms, knocking him onto the floor. “Let’s move in together, let’s be together, anything, everything. I want it all.”

“I love you,” He said, kissing her. “You are my world, Penelope. I don’t need to travel when I have you with me.”

“We can travel together,” She proposed. “We can go anywhere you want. I just want to spend the rest of my life with you.”

“I like the sounds of that.” He grinned. 

Eloise Bridgerton, Colin Bridgerton and Penelope Featherington

Colin: Changed the group name to The Third Wheel  

Colin: Thanks, El

Eloise: Did you work it out?

Penelope: Sent a picture to the group

Eloise: PEN IS THAT YOUR AIRPORT OUTFIT? 🙄

Penelope: I went straight to Colin’s hotel! I didn’t want to waste another moment 

Eloise: So much for that hot dress we picked out 🙄

Penelope: I’ll wear it to dinner lol

Colin: Don’t tease her, El! 

Eloise: Oh hush, third wheel 😝

Colin: YOU’RE the third wheel!!!

Penelope: Children, be nice 

Colin: Yes, babe 

Eloise: Whipped 

Colin: Absolutely 😜

Eloise: EW

Penelope: Sorry El, you kind of asked for that one 😂

Colin Bridgerton and Violet Bridgerton

Colin: Sent a picture

Colin: Out to dinner in Italy with my girl 🥰

Violet: That’s wonderful, honey! I’m so glad everything is alright with the two of you ❤️

Colin: Penelope said you knew she was coming

Violet: She told me, yes. As I said, we have much in common.

Colin: She adores you, you know? 💜

Violet: And I her 💛

Colin: I might need your help soon

Violet: Oh?

Colin: I think it might be time to look for rings

Violet: YAY!! ❤️❤️❤️

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Lake Como was amazing. They spent the next few days enjoying its beauty, and each other. They explored during the day, and spent their nights making love at the hotel. Penelope was glad their fight was behind them. She never wanted to go through that again.

“I hate that we fought,” She said, laying in his arms in the dark of the hotel room. “I’m so sorry for losing my cool.”

“Pen, you don’t have to apologize, it’s okay, love,” He assured her. “Couples fight, it’s normal.”

“I know, but not talking for over a week was horrible,” She said, nuzzling her face into his chest. “Let’s not do that again, alright?”

“I agree,” He said. “We will have disagreements in the future, and we might need some space to work through our feelings. I think we should establish an end of the night rule. We never go to bed angry at each other, and we have to at least find common ground by the end of the night, even if we can't fully solve the problem by then.”

“I like that,” She nodded. “And I promise to work on communicating my feelings better, so this doesn’t happen again. When I’m scared or upset, I need to voice it instead of letting it build.”

“And I won’t spring big life changes on you like that again,” He vowed. “We talk and make decisions together, as partners.”

“Partners,” She smiled at the thought. “When we get home, we should look for places to move into. I have a few flats saved that I thought we might tour.”

“Only if you’re certain you’re ready for this.” Colin replied. 

“I am more than sure.” She promised. 

She leaned up and kissed him, hoping he could feel her happiness in the kiss. She loved him with her whole heart, and she felt like they were even stronger now. She never wanted to lose him, and she vowed not to let her worries flood her head again. Colin loved her, and he had done nothing but show her that since they’d gotten together. He was her future, and she couldn’t wait to spend her life with him.

I need to say, hey it's all me, just don't go meet me in the afterglow

Chapter Text

June:

And when we go crashing down, we come back every time

Since reconciling in Italy, they had come back stronger than ever. Penelope was so happy that she and Colin had been able to work things out, and were making good on their promises to communicate better. She hated that they had fought, but she was glad that they talked about some of their feelings, and made some goals together as a couple. 

The focus was now on finding a new place to live. They’d viewed a few flats, but so far nothing was what they wanted. They could stay where Pen was currently living, but they were hoping to pick somewhere out together instead. 

“Hey, come look at this listing,” Colin said over his laptop screen. “It’s in Bloomsbury, which I know isn’t top of our list, but this place is beautiful.”

“It’s a house?” Pen said looking at the photos.

“I know we’ve been looking at flats, but this came up when I was searching. It’s everything we’ve both talked about wanting. I know this is a little spontaneous, but we could look at buying it, if you are interested.”

Colin showed her his screen. It was a cozy looking house. The outside appeared to be mostly brick, and ivy covered the exterior. She clicked to see the inside and was met with exactly what she’d want. It had five bedrooms, and two bathrooms, plus a sunroom. It could easily grow with them. She loved the pictures of the outdoor garden. The blue door was the perfect edition.

           “It is a really amazing house, I would love to go and see it in person. I am not opposed to buying a house together, but that’s much different than just moving into a flat together,” Penelope said. “Is that something we want to commit to?”

“I have no worries about owning a home together, but I will not pressure you if you think we should stick to looking for flats instead.” Colin replied. She nodded.

“We should ask for a viewing,” She smiled. “I think we just might have found our place.”

They heard back quickly about scheduling a time to come and see the house. Penelope was surprised by how excited she was. The pictures made the house look like a home, and she found herself hoping it would be there's.

A few days later they pulled up to the small blue house. A woman met them at the door, and introduced herself as Isabelle, the estate agent. She took them inside, where they were both drawn to the beautiful details. The house was older, and had many of its original charm. The wooden floors, the crown molding, and the lovely staircase were all characteristics the couple adored. 

“So, we just let you know about putting in an offer?” Colin asked.

“Yes, the sooner the better, I think many will jump at this house.” Isabelle told them. 

            They had sat down with Anthony, who had helped them figure out loans and finances. They made good money between the two of them, and Anthony saw no reason why they wouldn’t be able to buy the property. 

         “We’ll be in touch by the end of the day,” Penelope assured the woman. “We love the house.”

“The previous owners lived there for the duration of their marriage. When the husband died a few months ago, the wife put the house up so that she could move in with their son. She told me her wish was that a young couple would buy it and raise their family here as she did hers,” Isabelle smiled. “You seem like the perfect fit, so I truly hope it all works out.”

“That’s such a beautiful story,” Penelope said. “It would be a dream come true to own a house like this.”

“Thank you for everything, we look forward to talking with you soon.” Colin smiled, his arm around Pen. 

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Waiting to find out if they got the house was proving to be tough. Penelope tried to keep herself distracted with work and spending time with Colin, but she was getting anxious. It had been a week since they’d submitted an offer, and she was starting to lose hope. 

“There will be other houses, surely,” Prudence insisted. “I know you both loved this one, but if you don’t get it, the right one will come your way.”

“I have a friend who works in estate, he might be able to help you,” Harry offered. “I can send you his information.”

“That’s really nice of you, Harry, but it’s not about buying a house,” Pen sighed. “We saw this one, and it just felt like it was meant to be ours.”

“Don’t lose hope yet, Penny!” Phillipa encouraged. “You could still get it.”

“We’ll host a big dinner party for everyone if we get it,” Colin assured her sisters with a grin. “It’s got such amazing potential.”

“Will you be filling it with lots of little Penelopes?” Albion asked. Colin blushed. 

“Albie!” Phillipa warned, giving him a playful shove.

“Someday.” Colin said once the shock wore off. “Benedict and Sophie are having their first, so it might be nice to give their child a little cousin.”

“We need a place to live first,” Penelope reminded her boyfriend, then she looked at him seriously. “And I need a ring.”

Colin grinned at her and kissed the top of her head. Since their brief split, Colin had been careful not to push her. She assured him that even though she’d had a momentary panic, she still wanted to get married. She was looking forward to their future, and didn’t want him to feel nervous about discussing it. She knew it put him at ease when she was the one to mention marriage. She teased him often about getting a ring, but truthfully, she was hoping he was thinking about proposing. The short time apart had made her realize she didn’t want to waste any of their time together, and wanted to be with him for the rest of her life. 

“We’re so glad you two made up,” Prudence said. “Penelope was so sad.”

“It wasn’t the best time of my life,” Colin replied. “But we’re stronger than ever now.”

“Truly, it’s wonderful to see you both so happy,” Phillipa agreed. “And I really hope you get your house.”

“You just want a niece or a nephew.” Colin teased her. 

“Well yes, of course. Penelope was an adorable baby, you would be blessed to have one of your own.” Prudence smirked.

“Oh, I know.” Colin smiled. “Benedict and Sophie are having their first, so it might be nice to give their child a little cousin.”

“You should make an honest woman out of her first, Bridgerton.” Albion stated. 

“I know that too,” Colin assured them. “One step a time.”

ABC

Colin: HELP

Anthony: What’s up?

Benedict: I am busy

Colin: We’re having dinner with Pen’s sisters/inlaws

Colin: They keep mentioning a ring

Benedict: So?

Colin: So!

Colin: I don’t want to freak Pen out

Anthony: You have a ring, though? Don’t you? 👀

Colin: Yes

Colin: Mum actually gave me her engagement ring from dad

Benedict: That’s actually very sweet

Anthony: Penelope deserves it

Colin: You’re not bad that she gave it to me?

Benedict: Well Penelope is her favorite child 

Anthony: Col, he’s known Pen since she was just a little girl. She’s practically her mother already. Of course she wanted her to have the ring. None of us would be mad about that.

Anthony: If anyone gives you shit for it, send them my way

Colin: Thanks guys

Benedict: Wait, so are you proposing soon?

Colin: I don’t know

Colin: Do you think she’s ready?

Anthony: Do YOU think she’s ready?

Colin: I do actually

Benedict: Sophie said to tell you “then you better be dropping to one knee right now” 😂

Colin: I want to make it special

Anthony: Let us know it there’s anything we can do to help

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Colin Bridgerton and Penelope Featherington

Colin: Are you on your way home?

Penelope: ETA 10 minutes ❤️

Colin: Yay!

Colin: I have a surprise for you 😘

Penelope got home a few minutes later, and Colin was excitedly waiting for her. She couldn’t help but smile at his excitement. She would jokingly refer to him as her golden retriever boyfriend because of his energy and happiness. 

“I need you to put this on,” He told her, handing her a blind fold. “Okay?”

“Uh, yeah, sure,” She said, tying it around her head. “Okay, it’s on.”

“Great!” He said, leading her into his car. 

Penelope chuckled. She trusted Colin with her whole heart, and couldn’t wait to see what he was planning. A small part of her hoped it was a proposal, but she knew it was unlikely. Colin wouldn’t propose after she’d been working all day, especially in the middle of the week. He’d do it on a day where they could properly celebrate. Still, she was starting to get hopeful anytime they went to dinner that maybe this was the time. 

Colin drove them for a bit. They chatted about how their days had gone. He told her about some of the work he was editing, and she told him she was finally ready to submit the newest draft of her manuscript. After driving for about twenty minutes, the car stopped, and Colin came around to her door. 

“Ready?” He asked. She nodded. He took her hand and led her out of the car. He guided her up a few steps, and then into a building. He untied her blindfold, and her eyes began to adjust. “Welcome home, baby!”

She realized they were standing in the Bloomsbury house. She felt her mouth drop open. They had gotten it! She was in shock. Truly, she’d given up hope after not hearing anything more, and had accepted that they’d have to keep looking.

“It’s ours?” She asked, growing tearful. He nodded, and she threw herself into his arms. “Colin, this is our home!”

“I know, it was so hard keeping it a secret, but I wanted to surprise you. I got the keys yesterday. Come, there’s more to see upstairs.” He instructed in excitement. 

He took her hand and led her to the second floor. The master bedroom had been a selling piece for them. It was spacious and had an attached bathroom with a large free standing tub. Despite the old characteristics of the house, there had been a lot of modern updates, and the ensuite was one of them. 

Penelope noticed an old bed set. It was kingsized, and a dark wood color. She recognized it as one of the old pieces from Aubrey Hall before Violet had renovated some of the rooms. She had told Colin how much she’d loved the old sets, and found them charming. 

“Mum had it sent from storage. Anthony and Ben helped me set it up this morning. I thought we could spend our first night here tonight," he suggested. “There’s a bag in the car with everything we’d need tonight.”

“That sounds perfect,” She smiled softly at him. “I can’t believe we have a house.”

“I can’t wait to make it a home with you.”

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

They ordered pizza and got settled in. Colin had brought them clothes, toiletries, and even had grabbed his laptop so they could watch Netflix. They ate on the floor of their new bedroom, soaking in the fact that they were in their own house. 

“Cheers to the rest of our lives,” Colin said, raising the plastic cup full of wine. “I’m so happy we got to take this step together.”

“Me too,” She grinned at him, clicking her cup to his. “We live together officially now!”

“You’ll have to deal with me leaving wet towels on the bed,” He teased. “And I’ll have to remind you to turn off the lights when you leave the room.”

“Domestic bliss,” She replied. “It sounds perfect.”

Colin leaned in and kissed her. They had finished their pizza and had been talking about where they’d put things in the new house. Colin and Penelope had agreed to turn one of the rooms into a shared study, so they could write together in a cozy space. 

“We can fill those other rooms someday,” Colin said almost shyly. “I mean, we don’t have to rush. But it would be amazing to have little Pens and Colins living in them.”

“It will be so wonderful,” She agreed. “And while we might not be ready just yet, I see no reason why we can’t practice creating a new life.”

“And just what did you have in mind?” He asked with a sly grin. 

“Won’t you join me in our bed, Mr. Bridgerton?” 

Colin stood, and pulled her to her feet. He kissed her passionately and backed her up until the both tumbled onto the bed. She giggled as they kissed. He wasted no time in getting rid of their clothes, wanting to be bare as soon as possible.

“We have to christen the place,” He smiled as he removed the last of his clothing. “It’s only right.”

“Christen away.” She encouraged me.

Colin made his way between her legs.He flicked her clit, and added two fingers inside of her. He licked her center until she was teetering the edge. He knew she wanted to cum desperately, but he wanted them to reach their climax together. He stopped, despite her protests. 

“Soon, love, soon.” He promised, kissing his way back up her body.

He rolled them so that she was on top, knowing it would bring her to the end quicker. Plus, he loved watching as she rode him. She didn’t make it easy for him though. She decided to get pay back for him not letting her finish on his mouth. Pen rubberself herself on him, moving her center against his throbbing dick, but not letting him enter her yet. He held onto her hips, moaning loudly as she teased him. 

“Pen,” He pleaded. “Please, babe. I need you.”

Hearing him beg for her made Penelope finally give in. With her hand, she gently guided him into her. They both sighed in relief. She rocked her hips back and forth, taking them both to the ultimate place of pleasure. 

“Let go for me,” She instructed. “I’m right there, I want to feel you let go inside me.”

Her words sent him toppling over the edge, and she followed right behind. They both collapsed onto the bed, sweaty and spent, but satisfied. 

“I love you,” She said, kissing his bare chest. “You are the best man I have ever known.”

“I love you, my sweet Pen.” He responded. 

“How many more rooms do you think we can christen tonight?” She asked with a wink.

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Bridgerton Brigade

Colin: Sent a picture 

Penelope: Home sweet home ❤️

Violet: How lovely!! Congratulations, I cannot wait to see it ❤️

Eloise: That’s going to be THE party house 🥂

Hyacinth: YES EL

Hyacinth: WHEN??

Violet: A housewarming party perhaps

Kate: Guys it’s so cute!! OMG 😍

Anthony: Very happy for you two

Benedict: Nice! Let me know if you need help moving!!

Sophie: It’s very YOU 😍

Gregory: I am also down for helping you move as long as Pen makes me a batch of snickerdoodles 😉

Daphne: I LOVE it!! 

Francesca: It looks so cozy and quiet

Francesca: Congrats 😘

Penelope: Thanks everyone! ❤️

Penelope: We cannot wait to have you all over!

Colin: Maybe not all at once tho 😂

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

They made quick work of getting settled into their new home. Their families were a huge help. Penelope had never been more thankful for their big family, because having that many people made the process much more smooth. 

“Thank you so much for the bed set, Violet. It’s the perfect piece for our bedroom,” Penelope said to Colin’s mum as they unpacked their kitchen things. “It’s so beautiful.”

“My grandfather made it, actually,” Violet told her with a smile. “He was a woodsman, and he made furniture. He was very talented. I always knew how much you appreciated the old set, and when we replaced the things at Aubrey hall, I stored it for you.”

“I will cherish it always.” Penelope assured her. 

“This house truly is wonderful, Pen. I am so happy you and Colin got it, and are able to make your life together here,” Violet said. “I know you hadn’t planned on buying right now, but it seems fate has a funny way of intervening.” 

“It does feel as if it was meant to be ours,” Penelope smiled. “It already feels like home.” 

“I know you will have many happy years here,” Violet told the younger woman. “Penelope, I hope you know how happy I am that things worked out with you and Colin.”

“Our fight seems so silly now,” Penelope admitted sheepishly. “I’m glad he forgave me so easily, but I still feel guilty for hurting him.”

“No couple avoids hardships, sweetheart. Edmund and I, as I told Colin, had many bumps in the road when we went from friends to lovers. It’s how you get through these hard times that matters, and how you grow from them together.”

“I still get frightened by how much I love him,” Penelope confessed to the woman she already viewed as a mother. “I can’t imagine my life without him. I know that if he were unhappy, I’d let him go, but I would be devastated. I have never loved someone the way I love Colin. I want to spend the rest of my life loving him.”

“You will, my darling girl,” Violet grinned, hugging Penelope tightly. “I cannot wait to officially call you my daughter. It truly has felt that you’ve been one of my children for so long, and I always hoped that you and Colin would fall in love. It’s been beautiful to see you together.”

“That means so much to me, Violet,” Penelope smiled, leaning into Colin’s mum. “I am so glad I won’t have any horrible mother-in-law tales you always hear about.”

Violet let out a rich laugh. Penelope really did feel lucky to have Violet, and she had long before dating Colin. She’d felt so alone growing up before finding common ground with her sisters. But, Violet had always been there for her. She’d braid her hair, went dress shopping with her and Eloise for school dances, and provided hugs without question. 

“You won’t, but if Colin treats you less than you deserve, you send him my way, and I will straighten him out.”  Violet said. Penelope chuckled.

“Colin is an amazing partner, you raised him well. He has never treated me with anything less than the very best.”

“I never have to worry about him, but thank you for reminding me how wonderful he is.”

Penelope smiled. Colin was wonderful. She couldn’t wait to marry him. She just hoped he didn’t keep her waiting too much longer.

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

After a long day of unpacking, Pen and Colin finally collapsed into their bed. They were both exhausted, but happy with the progress they’d made. Within the next few days, they’d be fully settled in, and all of the hard work would be paid off. They loved their home, and showing it off. 

“I love you, babe.” Penelope said, quickly followed by a yawn. Colin pulled her into his arms. 

“I love you so much, my sweet Pen.” He said, kissing the top of her head. 

“I think I’m going to fall asleep in a moment,” She told him. “I am so tired.”

“Me too. Moving is exhausting.” He agreed.

“Col? I love sleeping in your arms every night.”

“So do I, my love.” He smiled. 

“It’s wonderful only having to say goodnight, and not goodbye anymore.” 

“It’s the best feeling in the world.”

Just take me home

Chapter Text

July:

And there's a dazzling haze, a mysterious way about you, dear

Have I known you 20 seconds or 20 years?

Prudence’s wedding was going to be the best day of her life, and Penelope would be damned if Portia spoiled it. It was no secret that their mother was less than pleased with Prudence’s choice of a spouse. Harry didn’t come from a well known family, though he himself was very successful. Portia didn’t feel he came from an elite enough family for her oldest daughter, and she voiced this opinion often. 

“Are you sure this is how you want to wear your hair?” Portia asked her oldest.

“She looks beautiful,” Phillipa jumped in quickly. “Harry will surely faint when he sees her.”

“You do look beautiful, Pru,” Penelope smiled. “I am so happy for you.”

“Thank you, it means so much to me to have my sisters by my side today.” Prudence said with a smile. Penelope knew the deeper meaning behind her words. Years ago, Penelope and Prudence barely talked. Now, they were sisters and best friends. All three of them felt lucky for this, and would never lose sight of their sisterhood again.

“Well, two daughters married out of three is pretty good, I suppose.” Portia sighed. 

“Penny will not be far behind, I am certain.” Phillipa said. 

“We shall see.” Portia replied with a tight smile. 

Penelope didn’t let her mother get to her. She was very confident in her relationship with Colin. They’d discussed marriage after living together, and they had only been doing so for a few weeks. Still, she did hope a proposal wasn’t too far in the future. She couldn’t wait to be his wife, but she trusted Colin. He would ask her when they were both ready. 

“Pen, will you help me zip up my dress?” Prudence asked. 

Penelope grinned at the request. She loved being there and helping her sister with whatever she needed. Prudence had asked her to be her maid of honor, and Phillip to be her matron of honor. She didn’t have anyone else in the wedding, instead wanting it to just be her sisters. 

“We’ll need to leave in a few minutes to get you down the aisle,” Phillipa said, checking the time. “Are you ready?”

“I am nervous, but ready.” Prudence said. 

“Don’t be nervous, everything will go perfectly.” Penelope assured her sister.

“We’ll get through the ceremony, and then pictures, and then celebrate hard at the reception.” Phillipa grinned. 

“Speaking of, Pen,” Prudence smiled at her little sister. “I asked Colin to come with us for photos.”

“Why would you do that?” Portia asked in shock.

“Because he and Penelope are together, mum. They’ve bought a house together, and are on the road to marriage. I know you refuse to acknowledge it, but they're not just some fling. He’s family, he should be in the pictures.” Prudence left no room for argument in her statement. Portia scoffed, but didn’t argue with her oldest daughter.

 “Thank you, Pru,” Penelope whispered to her sister. “I appreciate the gesture. If it causes too much issues for you though, we both under-” 

“Penelope Anne Featherington, this is my wedding. Portia does not get to make decisions about today. It’s up to Harry and I. We both agreed, Colin should be there.”

“You’re the boss…I mean bride.” Penelope smirked. 

A few minutes later, they were leaving the bridal suite and heading for the ceremony. Penelope and Phillipa helped Prudence with her dress, making sure to carry the train. Soon, they were preparing for her to walk down the aisle. When they’re dad had passed, Penelope had mourned the idea of ever having her dad walk her down the aisle. Prudence and Phillipa had never been close with him, but Penelope had. Portia had given Phillipa away, but Prudence wanted to go down the aisle on her own. She felt it was important to show that even though she was getting married, she was strong and independent. 

“Ready?” Penelope asked her sister. Prudence nodded. 

Thirty minutes later, Penelope was officially the only Featherington sister left to have that last name. She couldn’t believe both of her sisters were now married. She was so happy for them, and was excited to celebrate at the reception with Colin by her side. She knew that Colin and herself would have their time soon, and celebrating Prudence and Harry made her even more excited for it. 

After pictures, it was time for the reception. Colin had thanked the couple for including him, but Prudence waved him off. She insisted he was family, and dropped a not so subtle hint about him needing to propose. Penelope chuckled at the comment, but did watch to see Colin’s reaction. To her surprise, she swore she saw him wink at her sister. 

The reception was in full swing. Colin’s family had been invited. Which made sense considering the Featheringtons and Bridgertons had lived across from one another for years. Penelope and Colin were seated with her family at the bridal table, but we're looking forward to hitting the dance floor with his family after dinner. 

The Gals 💍

Hyacinth: Snapped this pic of P&C during one of the toasts. I mean…come on…

Hyacinth: Sent a picture

Penelope: AWW

Penelope: Thanks Hy ♥️

Kate: The way you two look at each other is simply too pure 😍

Sophie: OMG! I can’t with you guys!!

Daphne: UGH

Daphne: WISH WE WERE THERE 

Penelope: We miss you, Daff

Eloise: V cute

Eloise: When does the dancing start?

Hy: Just remember me when you get married, Pen. 

Hy: I’d make a fucking fantastic bridesmaid 😉

Penelope: LOL

Penelope: Noted 😂

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Colin would never get over the feeling of dancing with Penelope. He had been the first person she’d ever slowly danced with. It was at a holiday party his mum threw. He was seventeen, she was fifteen. No one else had asked her to dance, and he couldn’t bear her sitting in the corner alone. Since then, it was a tradition for them to dance at any appropriate occasions. But holding her in his arms as partners in more than just dance was even better. 

“This has been a beautiful wedding,” Colin commented. “Pru seems really happy.”

“She’s the happiest I’ve ever seen her,” Penelope replied as they swayed. “It’s nice to know we’ve all found our person.”

“The Featherington sisters deserve the world,” Colin said. “Albion, Harry, and I are lucky to be part of that world.”

“I love you, Colin Bridgerton.” Penelope beamed up at her boyfriend. 

“I love you, Pen. More than you could ever know.”

After they finished their dance, they joined his family at the table they were sitting at. Everyone except for Daphne, Simon, Gregory and Lucy had been able to make it. Eloise and Phillip were discussing the ridiculousness of how much people spend on a wedding cake. Sophie and Kate were reminiscing about their own special days. 

“There you are, we’ve missed you,” Violet grinned as her son and almost-daughter joined them. “You look lovely out on the dance floor.”

“It’s because I had the most beautiful girl in the world in my arms.” Colin smiled, kissing the top of Pen’s head.

“Don’t say that in front of the bride,” Eloise rolled her eyes. “Pen is gorgeous, though.”

“It’s a wonder that it took Colin so long to see it,” Hyacinth added. “I mean just look at how he looks at her, it was obvious to the rest of us.”

“Yes I am truly an idiot for taking so long,” Colin agreed goodheartedly. “Pen has graciously forgiven me for it, and for that I am most thankful.”

“Don’t you just love weddings?” Francesca asked with a grin. 

“Uh, not really,” Eloise replied. “When I get married, I think I’ll elope.”

“Name the time and place, love.” Phillip smiled at her. El grinned, knowing she’d found the right man who would agree to forgo such unnecessary festivities. 

“The party is going to be wrapping up soon. Does anyone have any interest in going back out to the dance floor?” Hyacinth asked. “Pen, do you know that guy talking to Phillipa and Albion?”

“Oh, that’s Agatha Danbury’s grandson! He’s interning at Albie’s office this summer,” Penelope explained. “His name is Gareth, I’d be happy to introduce you.”

Penelope could see the excitement in the youngest Bridgerton’s eyes. Penelope had met Gareth a few times, and he seemed like a very nice kid. She would never have offered to introduce Hy to him if she thought otherwise. Hyacinth was practically her little sister, and she wanted her to be happy.

“You are officially my favorite sister,” Hyacinth grinned. “Lead the way, Penelope.”

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Hyacinth Bridgerton and Penelope Featherington 

Hyacinth: HELP

Hyacinth: Gareth and I are going to the cinema tonight, what do I wear?

Penelope: Relax, Hy

Penelope: You’ve date before, just be yourself 💕

Hyacinth: UGH you’re right

Hyacinth: IDK why I’m so nervous

Penelope: You got this, babes!

Penelope: Text me if you need anything 

Hyacinth: You’re the greatest! 

Hyacinth: Love you always 😘

Penelope smiled at her phone. It had been a week since her sister’s wedding, and she knew Hyacinth and Gareth had been texting nonstop. She was excited for them, and hoped it would all work out. The Bridgerton brothers, however, were less than pleased about their baby sister dating. It wasn’t like Hy hadn’t dated before, but she was young. It had never been serious before. This time seemed different. 

“What if he breaks her heart?” Colin asked with a pout. 

“He might,” Penelope replied. “Or, she might break his. Or, which I personally hope for, they end up really happy.”

“I know she’s an adult now, but I’ll always see her as that little kid with no front teeth and freckles,” Colin admitted, cuddling up to Penelope’s side. “I think because she never got to meet our father, we have always felt the need to protect her.”

“Hy is very lucky to have four older brothers who love her so much, but you have to let her grow up,” Penelope said, running her hand through Colin’s hair. “Trust her to make her own choices. Let her fall in love, maybe more than once.”

“It sucks watching her grow up,” Colin huffed. “Time's a thief.”

“That’s something most parents say,” Penelope chuckled. “I know for a fact I’ve heard your mother utter those exact words a few times.”

“Wait until we have children, I’ll be the sappiest father ever. Our daughters will be embarrassed at how often I cry over something they do.”

“No, they’ll know it means you love them very much,” Penelope smiled softly at the thought. “They will be lucky, just like their auntie Hy, to have you guiding them.”

“And to have you as their mum,” He said, nuzzling into her. “Thank you, Pen, for being there for Hy. I do want her to be happy, and I’m glad she knows she can talk to you.”

Hyacinth Bridgerton and Penelope Featherington 

Hyacinth: 😍

Penelope: Did it go well?!

Hyacinth: it was perfect! 

Hyacinth: Pen, I really like him 🥺

Penelope: AWWW

Penelope: Hy this is wonderful ❤️

Hyacinth: We’re going out again on Wednesday! 

Hyacinth: I’m really excited ❤️

Penelope: You deserve this! 

Penelope: Just know if he hurts you he has to answer to me

Penelope: And your brothers, and brother in laws, and sisters, and sister in laws

Penelope: And mama Violet

Hyacinth: HAHA

Hyacinth: Poor guy 😂

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Penelope was trying not to get her hopes up, but she had a feeling Colin was proposing soon. Violet had asked if she wanted to do a girls day, which would include a trip to the nail salon. And, Colin had asked her to meet him for dinner after. She was not going to let herself dream it too much, but she did know the day was coming soon. 

“I think I’m going with blue,” Hyacinth declared after looking over the nail colors. “Penelope, what are you thinking?”

“The blue is nice maybe I’ll-”

“No!” Daphne and Kate exclaimed. Violet shot them a look that added to Penelope’s suspicion. 

“The blue will definitely not match the dress you picked for dinner tonight,” Eloise said. “It will clash.”

“The dress is white,” Penelope said, raising an eyebrow at her best friend. “How would it clash?”

“I’m thinking about a nice glossy pink? Light, a light nude almost?” Sophie suggested, showing Penelope the color she was looking at. “We could match if you want.”

  “Oh, I do like that!” Penelope said. “Very classy. But, I was thinking of a bolder color this time, I never go with anything crazy.”

At that point, she was just trying to gauge their reactions. She could see Violet starting to panic slightly. Kate was passing her a different book of colors, and Daphne was texting someone quickly on her phone. Likely, she was explaining the issue to Colin. 

“Pen, dear, whatever you think is best,” Violet smiled, trying desperately to shake Penelope of any suspicion. “I myself always go with a nice french set.”

“For the love of God, Penelope do not pick something crazy, okay?” Eloise said. 

“El,” Daphne hissed. “Don’t push her.”

“You know, on second thought, maybe I will match with you, Sophie.” Penelope smiled, feeling more certain that the proposal was coming. 

“Pen, how’s Pru doing? Married life treating her well?” Kate asked, clearly steering the conversation. Penelope nodded.

“We had dinner with my sisters and their spouses the other night. It’s really great to see them so happy. Growing up, we were never close, but as adults they’ve become true sisters for me. I’m glad we found common ground, and have been able to form such strong bonds. I never imagined Pru and I would be so close, but I am forever grateful for it,” Penelope explained, warmly. “It’s nice to have them on my side when we see our mother.”

“Ugh, Portia Featherington can-”

“Eloise, please be mindful of your choice of words,” Violet warned. “She is still Penelope’s mum.”

“It’s okay, Violet. Eloise has always been rather protective of me against my mother,” Penelope assured her, sharing a smile with her best friend. “You should hear how Colin feels about her.”

“Oh, we know,” Daphne chuckled. “He has never been a Portia fan.”

“Can you blame him?” Fran asked. “Pen is the love of his life. He won’t stand for anyone treating her less than she deserves.”

Penelope was thankful for the support she had. A year ago, she had felt so lonely. Sure, she had El and her family, but it was different. She was part of their circle, but she never felt like it was permanent. Being with Colin made it feel more real. She was included in the Bridgerton siblings in a much more definite way. This was her family now, even without a ring on her finger yet. 

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Penelope went home from getting her nails done, and quickly started getting ready for dinner. Eloise had helped her pick out a dress, and had been thrilled when Pen held up a white sundress. She was hoping her best friend wasn’t getting her hopes for nothing. Eloise wasn’t the greatest secret keeper, though, and Penelope was almost certain tonight would be the night. 

“You look beautiful, my love,” Colin said when she exited their bedroom and joined him downstairs. “Truly, you are exquisite.”

“Sweet talker,” She smiled, stretching up to kiss his cheek. “We should head to dinner, we wouldn’t want to miss our reservation.”

Colin was, oddly, extremely calm. She kept hoping to find him fidgeting, or feel his leg shake with nerves. But, he was normal. She frowned at the thought as they pulled up to the restaurant. 

“Everything alright?” He asked her. She nodded, reminding herself that even if he didn’t propose tonight, it would still be a wonderful evening with the man she loved. 

“Perfect.” She smiled at him.

Colin came around to her door, offering her his arm. They headed into the restaurant and led to a table. It wasn’t too busy, and they had a nice little corner spot to themselves. After ordering some wine, they looked over the menus.

“The duck a l'orange sounds really good,” Colin commented. “Though I am also considering the veal parmesan.”

“I’ll get the duck if you get the veal, and we can share them,” Penelope offered. “They both sound amazing.”

“This is why we are perfect for each other.” Colin grinned. 

They placed their orders a few minutes later. Penelope filled Colin in on her day with his mum and sisters. They’d finished getting their nails done, had lunch, and then did a little shopping. It had been nice to spend time with them all. 

They enjoyed their meal together, and decided to split the creme brulee for dessert. The bill came, and Colin had not dropped to one knee yet. Penelope had been so sure this would be the night, but it seemed she might have been wrong. 

“Should we head home?” He asked her. 

“Already?” She asked, trying not to sound disappointed. 

“The sun hasn’t set yet, I do think it might be a nice night for a stroll around.” He replied. 

She took his hand and they began to walk together. The area they were in was lovely. It was surrounded by stonework on the ground, and beautiful buildings. Penelope had been excited when he’d suggested this particular restaurant. 

“Pen, love, are you sure you are alright?” He asked. She sighed.

“It’s nothing,” She insisted. “Just lost in thought.”

“Don’t forget, I know you better than anyone. I know when you’re feeding me a load of shit, lovey.”

“It’s silly,” She replied. “I just…I went with your family to get my nails done, El insisted I wear a white dress, and you took me to a fancy french place. I was certain that tonight you were going to…well I-”

To her dismay, Colin started to chuckle. She turned and glared up at him. Sure, she’d said the idea was silly, but he didn’t have to laugh at her. 

“I’m sorry, baby, I’m not laughing at you,” He insisted. “It’s just, it was too easy. Daff told me she thought you were suspicious, and I wanted to surprise you. So, I decided the restaurant was too obvious, but I can’t keep anything from you. Turn around, my love.”

He spun her body so she was facing a large marquee in front of them. In big bold letters it read, Will you marry me, Pen? Her jaw dropped, she turned back to look at him. He was kneeling on the ground. 

“Well, for god sake, Penelope Featherington, are you going to marry me or not?” He asked. 

She let out a sob and threw herself into his arms, nearly knocking him over. She kissed him, and they both stood, hugging each other tightly. She noticed he was also crying. A crowd around them began to clap, but they were too in their own bubble to notice. She felt bad for nearly ruining his surprise, but also felt like this was more their style. 

“Is that a yes?” He asked, holding her close to him.

“Yes, yes of course I’ll marry you!” She exclaimed. He grinned, kissing her again. 

“Would you like to see your ring?” He asked. She nodded in excitement. He pulled out a small black box. Inside was a ring encrusted with diamonds and pearls in the shape of a flower. “My father used this to propose to my mum. When he died, she knew she wanted to save it for her children. I asked her a while ago to help me pick a ring, but she felt very strongly that this ring should go to you. She said you are very much like her, and I like my dad. I know it’s not a traditional ring, but when she handed it to me, it felt right.”

“This is beautiful, Colin.” She gasped.

“Yet, still only half as beautiful as you.” He smiled lovingly at her. “This is okay, right? If you’d rather something new-”

“No! This is perfect, really. I can’t believe Violet wanted me to have it, but I love it. I think it’s a beautiful way to honor your dad, and I feel truly blessed to be able to wear it. I couldn’t pick a more perfect ring.” She insisted.

With that, Colin slipped the ring from the box and onto her finger. They quickly messaged the family group chat to let them know that they were officially engaged, though they had all known it was happening anyway. Then, they were ready to share their news with the world.

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@EloiseMarie Good thing you didn’t go with the blue nails! 😘

@ItsHy_ ACTUALLY CRYING 🥹

@PrudenceJoy AH!! ABOUT TIME!!

@Pip_Finch So excited for you!!

@MamaViolet The ring looks perfect on you, my dear! I am delight for you both ❤️

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@KateSharmaBridgerton The cutest ever 😍

@EloiseMarie Congrats, you just signed up to be a third wheel for life 

@DaffBassett I love you guys 🥺

@MissFrannieMusic I feel like I’ve waited forever for this!!

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

As soon as they got home, they shed their clothing and fell into bed. They couldn’t keep their hands or mouths off each other. Colin was kissing Pen’s neck as he gently laid her onto the blanket. She lifted her hips, desperate for some friction. 

“We’re getting married,” He said in between kisses. “You’re going to be my wife.”

“You're going to be my husband.” She smiled. 

Soon he was sliding into her, joining them together. They didn’t take long to reach their climaxes. When they were spent, they fell into each other’s arms, too tired to bother putting pajamas on. 

“I love you so much,” She said, kissing his bare chest. “I can’t believe I get to spend the rest of my life with you. Can we have a short engagement?”

“Whatever you want, I just want to be with you.” Colin replied with a smile.

“Thank you for loving me.”

“Loving you is easy.” He grinned, kissing her head. 

“Goodnight, love.” She said.

“Goodnight, Mrs. Bridgerton.”

“I’m not Mrs. Bridgerton yet,” She giggled. “We’ve been engaged for less than five hours.”

“You are in my heart.” He replied happily. “Sleep well, little wife.”

Can I go where you go?

Can we always be this close forever and ever?

Chapter Text

August:

“No one’s ever had me, not like you”

Being engaged to Colin was everything Penelope had ever dreamed of. Even though she’d known this would be their next step, it still felt surreal. She was going to be a Bridgerton officially , and she could hardly wait. They had agreed on a small ceremony, not wanting anything too crazy. They just wanted to be married and start the next chapter of their life together. So, simple and sweet was the theme. 

“I had a bit of a crazy idea,” Colin said as they sat at the table for breakfast on Saturday morning. “Do you think we can plan a wedding by the end of the year?”

“Maybe, I mean I think some people do it with a shorter timeline. Why?” She asked.

“I was thinking, what if we got married on New Year's Day? Our one year anniversary of officially being together.” Colin’s suggestion made Pen’s heart swell. 

“Col, that’s perfect,” She beamed at him. “Have I told you I love you yet today?”

“Mmmm, not in the past thirty minutes, no.” He smirked.

“I love you,” She said, leaning over the table to kiss him. “So very much.”

“I love you too, Pen.”

The pair was having dinner later that evening with Daphne and Simon. Penelope needed to run to the store so she could grab the things she needed to make dessert. Colin’s sister and brother-in-law had asked the two over, and Penelope was rather excited about it. Growing up, Daphne had been like a cool older sister to Pen, and now she was actually going to be her sister. Colin and Daphne had always been very close. They were barely a year apart, and had been mistaken for twins when they were younger. Penelope was excited to spend time with Daff and her husband. 

“Apple peanut butter crumble?” Colin asked, glancing over at the list Penelope had written. “Woman, you’re a goddess.” 

“I told Daff I’d make dessert, and she said she was feeling crumble,” Penelope explained with a smile. “And, I know how much you love it.”

“I do love it, but not as much as I love the woman making it.” He told her, planting a kiss on her cheek. “Shall we head to the store then?”

Penelope found that being with Colin made her enjoy tasks she normally despised. Before dating him, the grocery store was a mundane chore she had to do each week, but now she actually almost looked forward to it. Colin would make puns in the vegetable aisle, and beg her to let him pick the sweets for the week. She never went shopping without him anymore. 

After a successful shopping trip, they returned to their house. Penelope went right to work making the crumble, while Colin hoped for a taste. She loved cooking with him. He’d put on the playlist he made for them as they moved around the kitchen. Sometimes he’d even stop to make her dance with him, which always made her giggle. 

“I have a song for you, though I’m sure you know it already.” Colin said, searching his phone for the song. “Ah, here it is.”

“Colin, this is Taylor Swift! Of course I know it. Do you not remember how hard Eloise and I fought for Eras Tour tickets?”

“I know, but I think this song is cute, and it seems right for how I felt about you before we started dating, and well, there’s some lyrics that just…fit.”

“So High School,” She said with a smile. “So, Colin ... .are you going to Marry, Kiss, or Kill me?” She asked.

“Yes to the first two,” He smiled, reaching out and playfully tapping her ass.. “But you might kill me in those jeans, baby.”

“Colin Christopher,” She giggled, throwing her arms around his neck. “You are a highschool boy sometimes, aren’t you?”

“Only when it comes to you.” He assured her, kissing her neck. 

“The dessert is going to burn if you don’t stop distracting me,” She warned, knowing he’d never let a crumble get ruined. “And then you won’t have any sweets tonight.”

“Oh, I’ll still have something sweet,” He winked. “But I’ll behave for now. Scout’s honor.”

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

They arrived at Daphne and Simon’s home a few hours later. Their four year old son was excited to see his Auntie Pen and Uncle “Collie”. Having been so close with the family before dating Colin, she was already an auntie to his nieces and nephews. She loved them like they were her own, and was so excited to officially be their aunt.

“Belle here is looking for some cuddles while I finish with dinner,” Daphne smiled, handing the 10 month old to Colin. “Here, have some practice.”

Belinda, or lovingly known as Belle, squealed at her uncle with delight. She took her little baby hands, and grabbed his mouth. She thought it was funny when he tried explaining that it hurt him. He pretended to bite her fingers, which made her laugh even harder. 

Penelope loved watching Colin with children. He was a natural. She had no doubt that he would be an excellent father. Colin missed his dad every day, and Penelope knew he couldn’t wait to have children of his own. He would tell them stories of the grandad they would never get to know. She hoped she would be a good mother. She would do her very best to make sure she didn’t do to her children what Portia had done to her. They would never have to question her love for them.

“Belle wants to see her auntie Pen,” Colin said, pulling her from her thoughts. “See, she’s even reaching for you.”

It was true. Belle had her arms stretched out, and was whining for Penelope to take her. When she realized Penelope was paying attention to her, she smiled. Unable to resist the infant's dimply little smile, she took the girl from Colin’s arms. She kissed Belle’s adorable, chunky cheeks, causing more squeals from the littlest Bassett. 

“Uncle Collie, I want a piggy ride!” Auggie requested. Colin lifted the little lad onto his back, making the four year old very happy. “Faster! Faster!”

Penelope laughed as her fiance ran around the living room with Auggie. It made her ovaries hurt when she imagined him with their future child. As she snuggled Belle, she couldn’t help but picture a little boy with red curls, and a little girl with brilliant blue eyes. 

“Let’s get Auntie Pen!” Colin exclaimed as he and Auggie ran to her. Colin grabbed her waist, pulling her and Belle into his arms. Auggie giggled as Colin pressed a kiss to Pen’s cheek. “We got her.”

Daphne and Simon came out a moment later to let them know dinner was ready. Penelope and Colin sat on either side of their nephew who insisted he be by both of them. The four year old did most of the talking at dinner, keeping everyone entertained. When dinner was done, Simon and Daphne put their children to bed. Auggie insisted that his uncle Colin tucked him in, and his Auntie Pen read him a story. Soon, he was fast asleep, and the adults returned downstairs for a nightcap.

“Okay, now that the littles are asleep, I’ve been dying to ask about wedding details,” Daphne said as they sat on Daff and Simon’s patio. “What have you discussed?”

“Well, we have really only chosen a date, and the location,” Penelope smiled. “We’re getting married on New Year’s Day.” 

“This New Year’s Day!?” Daphne asked in surprise. Penelope and Colin nodded. “That’s in less than six months!”

“It’s going to be a simple ceremony,” Penelope replied. “We just want something intimate with the people we love. Actually, we were thinking we’d have the wedding where it all began.”

“Aubrey Hall,” Colin finished with a grin. “Simon, any chance you’d be willing to perform the ceremony for us?”

“I’d be honored.” Colin’s brother in law replied. 

“It’s a good thing we’ll all be there next week then,” Daphne said. “We can look at vendors and stuff in the area.”

The entire Bridgerton family was headed to the family’s vacation home for an end-of-summer vacation. It was a tradition that they looked forward to every August. Some time at the large mansion on the lake was refreshing. Naturally, Pen had been invited every year. Still, this year was different. It would be the first time they’d be returning to the family vacation home since getting together. It was exciting. 

“I know of a florist in town, we could take a visit if you’d like,” Daphne suggested. “And we can do some research for DJs, caterers, and everything else. Sorry, I don’t mean to overstep, I’m just so excited for you, and I love planning these kinds of events!”

“You’re not overstepping,” Penelope reassured Colin’ sister. “You’re really helpful, and I would love nothing more than to have your help. You and Violet have much more experience with weddings than I, and I think it would be wonderful to work together on this.”

“Pen, I know El is your best friend, but I can’t begin to explain how elated I am that we are to be sisters.” Daphne smiled.

“I have always looked up to you as a big sister, and even though I have two older sisters already, I am honored you will be my third,” Penelope replied. “And I hope you know how much it has always meant to me that you have allowed me to be an aunt to your children.”

“Well, in case you haven’t noticed,” Simon said. “They adore you.”

“I love them.” Penelope grinned.

“Daff, any chance you can be my best man?” Colin asked. Daphne laughed.

“I think Anthony will take offense to that,” Daphne replied. “And Ben, and Greg.”

“Daphne will stand with me, of course,” Penelope stated. “All of your sisters will, and Pru and Pip.”

“The wedding may be small, but our wedding parties will not be,” Colin chuckled. “But, we’re very grateful for all the support we’ve had from our family.”

“Colin, we’ve all waited years for you to stop being a blundering idiot and see what was right in front of you. I speak for the whole family when I say this is just as much our wedding to Penelope as it is yours.”

Penelope smiled at that comment. It made her heart happy to know she had the support of his family. She wished her own mother was as welcoming of their marriage. She had pushed the news off as if it was nothing, not that Pen was surprised, but she was still disappointed about it. But, she was going to be a Bridgerton. She’d be surrounded by love, and so would her children. She was excited for the future that awaited her. 

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HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

A week later, Pen and Colin were on their way to Aubrey Hall. They had carpooled with Violet and Hyacinth, Colin offering to drive them. It was a bit of a road trip to get there, nearly three hours total, but the destination was beyond worth it. Penelope had always loved Aubrey Hall, and she’d been so happy when Violet excitedly agreed to have the wedding take place there. 

“Pen, did I tell you that Gareth is coming to visit this weekend?” Hyacinth asked. “He’s coming to dinner on Saturday. His cousin lives nearby, so he’s staying with him. He’ll meet the family officially.”

“Brave man,” Colin smirked as he pulled up to the house. “He’ll be lucky to make it out alive.”

“Colin,” Pen warned. “You, and your brothers, will be on your best behavior.”

“Sure.” Colin smirked.

“You listen to your wife, young man.” Violet chastised, stepping out of the car. 

“Do not forget, your sister-in-laws and I talk often. Kate, Sophie, Michaela, Lucy, and I are all in agreement. If we didn’t get threatened when we entered the family, neither should Hy’s boyfriend.”

“Pen, the family already knew you,” Colin tried to reason. “We did give Simon a hell of a time.”

“You will give Gareth a fair chance.” She stated.

“I’ll do my best.” Colin huffed, knowing he was fighting a losing battle. 

The four of them unloaded the car and brought their stuff inside. Colin took his and Pen’s bags up to his room. It would be odd, Penelope realized, staying in his room. Aside from New Year’s, she’d spent every night she’d slept in this house in her own designated room. But, instead of sharing a wall with El, they’d be on the other side of the house in Colin’s corner room. 

Everyone else started showing up quickly after. Soon, the large house was filled with the family. Penelope had never felt more at home than she did surrounded by the Bridgertons at Aubrey Hall. She and Colin helped their family bring their belongings inside and get settled. Dinner was still a few hours away, so everyone disappeared to their own rooms to unpack. 

They’d be there for ten days, which meant it was necessary to unpack their suitcases. Penelope smiled when Colin showed her which half of the dresser he reserved for her. She had thought she’d feel less at home in his room, which was silly. They shared a bed at their own home for goodness sakes, but this was different. It turned out, being in Colin’s room felt even more perfect. 

“I love being here with you,” She said, wrapping her arms around his waist from behind him as he put his clothes in a drawer. “It’s so nice.”

“I love being anywhere with you.” He responded sweetly. 

He turned and pulled her into his arms. He gently urged her backward before lifting her slightly and throwing them both onto the bed. She let out a squeal. He peppered kisses all over her face. 

“This is where it all started,” He said, tucking her hair behind her ear. “Where we made love for the first time.”

“And now I’m your fiance,” She smiled, leaning up to kiss him. “I can’t believe how much has changed since then.”

“I could only ever dream that we’d end up here,” He said with a crooked smile. “I’m so happy, Pen. You make me so happy. I don’t think I’ve looked forward to an Aubrey Hall trip this much since before my dad died.”

“I love you,” She said softly, reaching up to stroke his cheek. “You are a very good man, Mr. Bridgerton.”

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

It was always a lively affair when the entire Bridgerton brigade was all together for dinner. Often there were half a dozen different conversations going at once, and if one wasn’t paying attention, they’d get lost in the voices. Penelope, though, was an expert at navigating Bridgerton dinners. She knew Eloise would find someone to discuss politics with, Hyacinth would taunt Gregory about something, Anthony would be flirting with his wife, Violet would be engaged with her grandchildren, and Frannie would be quietly chatting with Michaela about her music. Colin would be sneaking desserts early, Daphne would be wrangling Auggie back to his chair, and Benedict would be thinking of ways to sneak off with Sophie. 

It was nothing like the meals Penelope grew up attending. When her father was alive, he’d talk to her about the books she was reading. After his death, she kept as quiet as possible to keep Portia from picking on her. But with the Bridgertons, she could chat with everyone about anything, and was never scolded for her elbows being on the table or her napkin being unfolded. 

“Pen, tell my brother that he might be your future husband, but I was here first, which means I get dibs on you for charades.” Eloise said, her arms crossed. 

“Eloise, I am Penelope’s charades partner, and you are Phillip’s.” Colin replied firmly. 

“Perhaps they should flip a coin.” Kate suggested with a smirk.

“Or rock, paper, scissors.” Sophie added. 

“None of that is needed,” Eloise declared. “Because Pen gets to make her own choice.”

“Do not put her in the middle of your bickering,” Anthony said. “And, anyway, none of us stand a chance if Eloise and Penelope are partners, so I say Penelope is Colin’s partner.”

“You won’t win regardless of who your partner is, brother,” Benedict chuckled. “You stink at charades.” 

“I have a solution for this silly dispute,” Violet stated. “Penelope will be my partner.”

“That’s completely un-”

“Eloise, do not argue with your mother.” Violet smirked. 

Colin shot his younger sister a glare, clearly blaming her for causing this problem to begin with. He was unimpressed with the fact that Penelope would not be his partner for the game. With his mother stealing his fiance, he was paired with Hyacinth. At least he stood a chance at winning with his little sister, but Penelope was the reigning champion. 

They cozied up in the drawing room after dinner to begin their game. Penelope and Violet sat together, and talked strategy. Colin sulked next to Hyacinth as his little sister mocked him for losing Penelope for the evening. 

Eloise and Phillip took an early lead, but not for long. Penelope and Violet were a strong team, and soon passed them in points. It was a tight race, though. Not only were Eloise and Phillip close to them, but Francesca and Michaela were right on their heels, with Colin and Hyacinth quickly catching up. It was down to the last riddle. Kate had answered the last question correctly, so she read them the last clue.

Who makes it, has no need of it. Who buys it, has no use for it. Who uses it can neither see nor feel it. What is it?

Penelope could see everyone’s minds running. Eloise’s eyebrows were close together as she thought about the answer. Violet was next to Penelope thinking quietly. Michaela looked as if she had an answer, but then decided it was incorrect before speaking. Suddenly, the answer came to Penelope.

“A coffin!” She exclaimed. 

“That’s right!” Kate confirmed. “Violet and Penelope are the winners!”

Violet shouted in excitement. She tackled Penelope with a hug. Violet had never won charades before, not for her lack of wisdom, but she didn’t have the competitive nature her children did. They had inherited that from Edmund. Winning, however, was much more fun than losing, and Violet planned to use this over her kids for a while. Not only had she stolen Penelope from Eloise and Colin, she had thoroughly kicked their asses with her as a partner. 

“We won!” Violet said excitedly to Penelope. 

“Yes, we did,” Penelope laughed. “Perhaps you should be my partner in all future games.”

“Absolutely not,” Eloise huffed. “Mother, you cheated.”

“I agree,” Colin crossed his arms in defeat. “She knew what she was doing by pairing up with Penelope. It was rigged against us.”

“Well, I surely don’t remember raising such sore losers,” Violet smiled, hugging her daughter-in-law closely. “Thank you for being my partner, Pen.”

“It was an honor, really.” Penelope replied happily. 

“We need a picture of the winners!” Sophie insisted. She took her phone out and snapped a picture. “I’ll send it to the group chat.” 

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Charade champions we are! @PenTheFeather is the best teammate and bonus daughter I could ever ask for. Love you, sweet girl 💕

Comments:

@ItsHy_ Of course the first pic you post on insta would be of Pen 😂

@BenedictBridgertonArt we know who her favorite child is 😆

@ColinTheTraveler I suppose you are forgiven for stealing her, mum

@EloiseMarie Speak for yourself dude 🙄

@PenTheFeather Love you, mum. So glad we could crush everyone 🥰

@DaffBassett We have all claimed Pen at some point. El and Colin have to learn to take turns with her lol 

@EloiseMarie she was mine first

@ColinTheTraveler well she’ll be mine forever soooooo 💍

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Penelope and Colin had turned in for the night. After charades, the siblings had all stayed up for a nightcap. Pen had nearly falled asleep on Colin before they finally decided to head upstairs. His brothers were going to play some video games, but Colin declined the invite this time. They changed into their pajamas and crawled into bed with a yawn. It had been a busy first day of their vacation, but they’d had a great time with his family. 

“I still can’t believe my mum stole you,” Colin said with a yawn as he held Penelope close to him. “Do you know how much you are loved?”

“I very much love being a part of your family,” She smiled, snuggling closer to him. “It’s all I have ever wanted.”

“Me too, Pen.” Colin kissed the top of her head. 

Before they fell asleep, Penelope felt her phone buzz. She groaned, wanting nothing more than to sleep, but her brain wouldn’t let her ignore it. She worried it could be her sisters, and she wanted to make sure nothing was wrong.

“It’s my mother,” She sighed seeing her contact pop up. “She texted me.”

“What’d she say?” Colin asked. 

Portia Featherington and Penelope Featherington 

Portia: You aren’t even married yet and you have already replaced your family I see…

Penelope: I’m sorry, what are you talking about?

Portia: It seems Violet Bridgerton is your mother now. At least that’s what you called her on that Instagram post

Penelope: Mum, no one is being replaced

Portia: After everything I have done for you, this is how I’m repaid!

Portia: You ungrateful girl

Penelope: You’re making a big deal out of nothing

Portia: Nothing is apparently what I mean to you, Penelope.

“I cannot believe her,” Penelope mumbled, placing her phone down on the nightstand. “She treats me horribly my whole life, and when I’m finally happy, she tries and makes me feel guilty.”

“Baby, you have nothing to feel guilty about,” Colin reassured her. “Portia is a master manipulator. She knows what to say to make you feel bad, but it’s not true.”

“I know, it just sucks that she always does this,” Penelope sighed. “Since I was seven years old, your family has taken me in and loved me without any reservation. Why can’t Portia see that?” 

“I don’t know, love. I ask myself all the time why she can’t see the amazing woman you are. I never find an answer.” Colin told her. 

“I’m just glad I have you,” Penelope said. “I don’t know how I ever survived without your love.”

“I’m sorry you had to wait so long,” Colin replied, kissing her. “I promise you’ll never have to be without it ever again.”

“It was worth the wait.” She said against his lip.

Colin gently pulled her on top of him. She straddled his body, kissing him and grinding her body against his. Colin’s hand slid beneath her silk sleep shorts. She moaned, urging him to take her pants off. He obliged, rolling her underneath him. 

Once her pants and underwear were discarded, Colin’s fingers found her center. He groaned when he realized how wet she already was. He slipped two fingers inside, his thumb teasing her clit. She rocked her hips in rhythm with his hand. 

“It feels so good,” She whined as she neared the edge. “I’m close.”

Colin, desperately wanting her to reach her climax, slid down her body. His tongue replaced his thumb on her clit. She tried to be quiet, not wanting to alert anyone in the house about what they were doing. She grasped his hair as he brought her to the precipice. She toppled over, and he kept moving his tongue and fingers until she finished riding out the waves. 

“You’re so fucking beautiful,” He said, crawling back up to the bed and kissing her. “I love you so much.”

“I love you more than anything in this world,” She replied, holding him close to her. “Col? Make love to me?”

“Always.” He smiled.

He quickly got rid of his own clothes. He was painfully ready for her, but wanted it to be good for her too. He reached between them, and found she was definitely ready for more. He smiled at her with a proud grin. Gently, he took his member in his hand and guided himself into her warmth. 

“Perfect,” she sighed, gripping his back. “You feel perfect.”

“So do you.” He said bending down to kiss her.

He picked up the pace. He lifted one of her legs up onto his hip, driving into the spot he knew would drive her made. She groaned in pleasure as he thrusted over and over. It didn’t take long before they were both reaching their finish. 

“Together?” She requested. 

He nodded, reaching between them and rubbing her clit. She felt her eyes roll back as she tumbled over the edge. Her orgasm triggered his own and he spent inside her. He fell onto the bed, pulling her on top of him, still inside her. He kissed the top of her sweaty head.

“I love you.” He panted. 

“I love you.” She grinned. Then let out a little giggle. “I can’t believe we did that with your brothers down the hall.”

“Touch me while your bros play Grand Theft Auto”

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September:

And isn't it just so pretty to think, all along there was some invisible string tying you to me?

Violet was set on having an engagement party for Pen and Colin as soon as they all returned from Aubrey Hall. Since the wedding was only a few months away, it would also serve as a bridal party because Penelope insisted she didn’t need both. All of their friends and family gathered together at Violet’s home for the party. It was perfect weather to have it outdoors, and Violet had made the theme garden tea party.

“Colin, you can’t hog her all day, okay? As her maid of honor, I have rights to her too.” Eloise said when the couple arrived. Colin chuckled. 

“No worries, tea parties aren't exactly my thing. Anthony has set up some cards and drinks in the study for me and the guys. But, my love, if you need me, I’ll be here in an instant.” Colin said, turning to his fiancee with a smile.

“I’ll let you know before we have cake and open gifts,” Penelope replied, leaning up to kiss his cheek. “Until then, have fun with your boys.”

“I’ll miss you,” He replied, knowing it would drive his sister crazy. “I’ll think of you each moment we are apart, dearest Pen.”

“Ugh, get out of here,” Eloise scoffed, playfully shoving her older brother away. “Go hangout with Phillip.”

Penelope giggled as her best friend took her arm and led her to the party. Violet’s garden had truly been transformed into a beautiful and classy tea party. She knew her future mother-in-law loved any excuse to host a party, but Penelope was always astonished by the effort she put into each event. 

The whole Bridgerton female population was in attendance, of course. Phillipa and Prudence were also seated at a table, chatting with Kate and Sophie. What nearly stopped Penelope in her tracks was seeing her mother talking with Violet.

“Portia is here?” Penelope asked Eloise.

“Mum said she invited her, but she never responded, and mum assumed she wasn’t coming. Turns out, she decided to crash after all.” 

Eloise was never a fan of Penelope’s mother. As her fierce protector, and very best friend, Eloise hated the way Portia talked to and about Penelope. She criticized everything her youngest daughter did, and Penelope could never live up to the older woman’s unrealistic expectations. In turn, Violet also was not Portia’s biggest fan, but she was much quieter about it. Colin and Eloise’s mum tried not to bad mouth Portia to her own daughter, but Penelope knew the two women would never see eye-to-eye. 

“There’s the guest of honor,” Violet smiled, opening her arms to hug Penelope. “You look beautiful today, darling.”

The Bridgerton woman sent a pointed look to the head of the Featherington family. Penelope had a feeling Portia had made an ill comment about her looks to Violet. It would not surprise Penelope, but it did feel nice to hear kind words from Colin’s mum rather than the mean ones Portia liked to spew. 

“Where is your fiance?” Portia asked almost as if she was about to crack a joke. “Couldn’t escape quick enough, hm?”

“The men are all inside,” Violet replied with a tight smile. “Colin will join us later.”

“How convenient.” Portia said back. 

Penelope squeezed Eloise’s arm when she felt her best friend move toward Portia. Eloise sighed, but backed down. Penelope wanted to enjoy the day, and refused to let Portia put a damper on things. Eloise and Penelope went around and said hello to all the guests. Penelope appreciated Eloise attempting to shield her from Portia. She loved the Bridgertons and their protective nature. They were always keeping Penelope safe, and making sure she knew her worth. 

“I still can’t believe our baby sister is getting married!” Phillipa squealed in excitement. “Let me see the ring again.”

Penelope held out her left hand. Her sisters took hold of it and admired the ring on her fourth finger. They said how beautiful it was, and Penelope couldn’t agree more. She loved her ring, and found it so special that Violet had passed it on to her. 

When Edmund died, Penelope and Eloise had been 7 years old, but Penelope still remembered the man. Edmund had been so kind, and had loved his children beyond comparison. But, the thing she remembered most was how much he adored his wife. It was the first time Penelope had seen a couple openly affectionate and loving toward one another. She had always dreamed of finding that kind of love for herself one day, and now she had. She knew Violet saw glimpses of herself and her late husband in Penelope and Colin. Penelope felt awed by that, and would do anything to honor the two people who had created the man she loved so much. 

“Colin sent us pictures of the ring, but it’s even more stunning in person.” Prudence said. 

“I’ve not seen it, let me see.” Portia’s voice came from over Penelope’s shoulder. Reluctantly, Penelope showed her mother her hand. “That looks rather old.”

“It’s an heirloom, mama,” Penelope explained. “It was his mother’s engagement ring.”

“He couldn’t buy you something of your own? With all the money this family has?” Portia asked.

“Listen hear-” 

“Eloise, it’s okay,” Penelope stopped her best friend from letting Portia have it. “Mother, Colin and his father were very close. As you know, losing Edmund was hard for the whole family. This was a beautiful way to make him a part of our story. I wouldn’t have wanted anything else.”

Portia didn’t reply. Penelope moved on to chatting with Kate and Sophie. She was glad to have so many people who loved her there. It distracted her from her mother, which was always welcome.

They ate lunch and had tea a bit later. Everyone wanted to hear the engagement story, even those who knew it. Always willing to gush about Colin, Penelope happily recited it. Almost everyone was impressed by the tale, and laughed at how Pen almost spoiled her own engagement. 

After lunch and some more mingling, it was time for gifts and cake. Penelope was excited to have Colin back with her. She enjoyed spending time with her friends and family, but it was always nice to have Colin by her side. He just made everything better. All of the guys joined them in the garden, Colin finding his seat next to Pen. He gave her a quick kiss hello. 

“How has it been?” He whispered to her.

“El has only tried to kill Portia twice, so I’d say it’s going smoothly.” She smirked. Colin chuckled. 

Penelope was overwhelmed with all the gifts they received. It was very appreciated. A lot of the gifts were home items that would be very useful in their new house. Colin and Penelope thanked everyone for being so generous. They were so grateful to have people who loved them so much. 

After gifts, Penelope and Colin found themselves cornered by her mother. Violet was bringing out the desserts with the help of his sisters. Pen knew there was no escaping Portia, but at least she had Colin with her.

“Penelope, when will I see this home of yours?” Portia asked. 

“Oh, well, you can come over anytime, mama.” Penelope answered, surprised that her mother was even showing interest in their house. 

“You know, hosting our family dinners is rather tiring, perhaps you can take over.” Portia suggested. Penelope tried not to let her jaw drop. “Since you and Mr. Bridgerton have such a beautiful home, or so I’ve heard.” 

“We’d be happy to have you all over for dinner some time.” Colin said with a tight smile. 

“It’ll give us a chance to plan your wedding. I have a list of people I expect to be in attendance, of course.” Portia added.

“Mama, we actually have decided to keep the ceremony relatively small. The wedding is only a few months away, and we just want it to be us and those closest to us.” Penelope explained. 

“Penelope, we have little family to invite. Surely you can save room for some of my friends. These people have known you your whole life.”

Penelope doubted she could name any of Portia’s friends. Her mother wasn’t close with many people. The only friends she had, she used as an excuse to get out of the house away from her daughters. It wasn’t as if they came to the house and played with Penelope as a child. 

“Portia, it’s really just going to be family,” Colin said firmly. “And a few of our closest friends.”

“Well, I insist you at least invite the Thompsons. You know how close daddy and Frank were,” Portia said. “And despite the history there, it would be wrong not to invite them.”

Penelope knew her mother was using her father as a way to guilt Penelope. Frank and Denise were nice, but they were her parent’s friends. Marina’s parents had never taken an interest in her, despite Frank and Archie being close friends since childhood. 

“Mama-”

“We can discuss this at the next family dinner. I have another obligation to attend to. Please send my thanks to Violet for hosting today.” Portia said. 

Colin and Penelope sighed with relief when her mother walked away. Portia had a way of draining a person’s energy with a single conversation. Still, they had had a wonderful day with those they loved celebrating their upcoming vows. They focused on that and decided to deal with Portia Featherington later. 

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Only 113 days until this beautiful woman is my wife. I cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with you, @PenTheFeather. I love you, always and forever 😘

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@PenTheFeather I can’t wait to call you my husband, you are everything to me ❤️

@EloiseMarie it only took you 21 years 😂

@KateSharmaBridgerton I cannot wait for this wedding ❤️

@ItsHy_ My OTP for real tho 🥺

@Gregory.lol wtf does OTP mean???

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Penelope felt like her head was going to beat out of her skull. She hadn’t had a migraine like this in a long time, and it had forced her to call out of work. She was stuck laying in bed with the lights off, willing the pain to go away. Colin wanted to stay with her, but she insisted he go to his meeting. He couldn’t do much to help her. She’d already taken her migraine meds, and was just hoping they’d take effect soon. 

She finally managed to fall asleep a little while after Colin left. She slept for two hours, and woke up feeling better, but groggy. She needed to find food, but had yet to go grocery shopping. 

Eloise Bridgerton and Penelope Featherington 

Penelope: Love, any chance you’re finished with your meeting yet? I feel much better, but we are sadly out of anything edible 😢

Eloise: LOL

Eloise: Wrong Bridgerton 

Penelope: Omg 🤦🏼‍♀️

Penelope: Sorry El!!! Recovering from a migraine

Eloise: What do you want food wise? I can be there in like 15 minutes

Penelope: You are my hero 🥹

Penelope: Love you so much 

Penelope: I could go for a black bean burrito

Eloise: Aye aye

Eloise: omw babes 

Eloise arrived 20 minutes later with a black bean burrito and a strawberry-banana smoothie in hand. Penelope hugged her best friend and thanked her for saving her. Eloise joined her on the sofa and the pair enjoyed their lunch together.

“Ugh, I have been craving this for days,” Penelope practically moaned as she ate the burrito. “This is perfection.”

“I didn’t know your migraines were resurfacing,” Eloise said. “I haven’t heard you say anything about them in a long time.”

“This was, hopefully, an anomaly.” Penelope said back. “And it went away, thank goodness. They used to last at least for a full day, but this was gone after a few hours.”

“Head pain and cravings, what’s next, Pen? Morning sickness?” Eloise joked. Unfortunately, her words made Penelope freeze. Fuck, w hat day was it? “Penelope? Bad joke?”

“Shit,” Penelope gasped. “El, I’m late.”

“Late as in late ?” 

“Uh, yeah,” Penelope said shakily. “Like months late. My birth control throws my cycles off sometimes, but not this long. It’s just supposed to help with the cramps.”

“Oh, oh shit,” Eloise said as the shock began to wear off. “I can run back out and get you a test.”

“N-no, it’s okay. I should call Colin and ask him to grab one.” Penelope replied. She kept thinking as her mind began spiraling. “I skipped two doses of birth control when we moved into the house. Things were packed and crazy, and well…Colin and I still slept together.”

“That probably wasn’t very wise, Pen.” Eloise said. 

“I wasn’t thinking!” Penelope exclaimed.

Just then, the door to the house opened. Penelope knew Colin had probably left work as soon as his meeting wrapped up so he could come check on her. Penelope looked at Eloise, and her best friend nodded. Penelope needed to talk to Colin about this alone.

“Thank you for lunch, and well, you know,” Penelope said, hugging her best friend tightly. “Love you, El.”

“Love you too, Pen. Text me later, okay?”

Penelope promised she would. Colin came into the living room, surprised to see his sister, and even more surprised when she booked it for the door. He focused on checking on his fiancee, though. Wanting to make sure she was feeling better. 

“Eloise brought me lunch,” Penelope explained. “The head is better.”

“You’re looking a little pale, my love,” Colin commented. “And you’re shaking. What’s wrong?”

“Colin, we fucked up,” She said, tears pooling in her eyes. “I think I might be pregnant.”

“Pregnant?” Colin asked in surprise. “You’re on birth control, babe.”

“Remember when we moved and we decided not to worry about the fact that I missed a few pills? Well, my period hasn’t come yet. I thought it was nothing, but Eloise was teasing about the headaches, and I have felt a little off lately. I’m sorry, I know this wasn’t planned and-”

“Pen, breathe.” Colin said, pulling her onto his lap, and holding her close. “Everything is going to be alright, I promise. I’m going to order a test from the pharmacy, and we’ll find out together.”

“Okay,” She cried against his shoulder. “Can we do it now?”

Colin pulled his phone out and quickly made a delivery order. He ordered a few for good measure, wanting to be certain. He was oddly calm about the whole thing, knowing Penelope was freaked out enough for the both of them. 

“It’ll be here in an hour,” He said. “What can I do to help you right now?”

“Hold me.” She said, and he nodded. 

“I know you’re scared, honey, but we’re going to be fine.” He assured her. 

“Can we put the TV on for distraction?” She asked.

Realizing she needed some time to take this in, Colin turned the TV on. He put on one of her favorite comfort shows, and held her for a while. It was probably the slowest hour of their lives while they waited for the pharmacy delivery to arrive. 

Finally, Colin got the notification on his phone. He gently untangled from Penelope and went to the front porch where the package had been left. He quickly pulled it inside and handed the bag to Pen. She took one test out. 

“Hey, it’s going to be alright,” He repeated, holding her hand tightly. “Take the test, and we’ll set a timer, okay?”

She nodded and headed into the bathroom. After a few moments she came back out. She informed him that the box said to wait three minutes. He set the timer on his phone as she came back to sit beside him.

“What if it’s positive?” She asked him. “I know we have discussed kids eventually, but this is sooner than we wanted. The wedding is in a few months.”

“I know this wasn’t the way we planned things to go, but never, and I mean never, could a baby with you be unwelcomed,” Colin told her. “I can’t wait to have children with you, Pen. I think about it all the time, especially after we spend time with my nieces and nephews. Having a little girl with curly red hair or a little boy with your eyes is everything I could ever want.”

“And, if it’s negative?” She asked, her lip quivering.

“Then it wasn’t meant to happen right now, and we can decide when we’re ready to take that step.” Colin said, pushing a curl behind her ear. “Pen, my love, what do you want this test to say?”

“I was so scared when I first thought about it being a possibility, but when we were sitting here waiting for the test to arrive, all I could think about was holding out baby. I know we weren’t trying, but I have to admit, I want a child. I think I was worried about people thinking we rushed it, or that it was an accident and they’d assume the baby wasn’t wanted. But, I don’t care what other people think. If the test is positive, I’ll be so happy about it.” She admitted. Colin grinned, and pulled her in for a kiss. 

“I love you so much, Pen.” He said. 

“I love you, Col.” She smiled tearfully at him. 

The timer on Colin’s phone started to go off. She stood, and offered her hand to him. He took it and followed her to their bathroom where the test was sitting on the counter. She looked at him, and he nodded with encouragement. Penelope picked it up and flipped it over.

“It’s negative.” She said, holding back tears. “I’m not pregnant.”

Colin didn’t say a word. He took her into his arms as she let out a sob. He knew they’d only known about the possibility of a baby for just over an hour, but the disappointment was still real. That short period of time when they thought she could be carrying a baby had him full of hope.

“I’m sorry, babe.” He said, rubbing her back. “I’m so sorry.”

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Later that night, they laid in bed. She had her head on his chest as he held her. They hadn’t said much about the negative test. They were both wrapping their heads around the entire situation. It had been a rather long day, and they needed to come to terms with what had transpired. 

“Babe?” Colin said. “What if we stopped preventing it?”

“Getting pregnant?” She asked, moving to look at him. Colin nodded. “You mean I’d stop taking birth control?”

“If you wanted to, I understand if you’d rather wait until after the wedding, or even longer if you wanted to have more time. But we were both disappointed when there was only one line on the test. And, if we’re ready now, what if we started trying?” Colin asked. Penelope didn’t think she could love him anymore than she did at that moment. 

“It could take some time, we might not get pregnant right away,” She replied. “Even if we stopped using protection, it could take months.”

“What are you saying?” He asked with a small smile. She leaned down and kissed him.

“Let’s make a baby, Colin.”

Colin rolled over so she was under him. He was only wearing his boxers, and was in a large t-shirt and underwear. He ran his hand up her leg until he reached the bottom of the shirt. She quickly sat up so he could discard the t-shirt. He tossed it somewhere in the room before kissing her again. She slipped her hands into the waistband of his boxers, and he quickly kicked them off. Soon he was removing her panties, and slipping his fingers through her wetness. 

“I love you,” He told her, kissing her forehead as she withered beneath him. “You are so perfect.”

“I love you,” She said, happy tears welling in her eyes. “Shit, I’m close.”

“Let go for me, love.” He said.

“That won’t get us pregnant.” She teased. 

“That’s not all this is about. I’m going to make sweet love to you, and if it results in a baby that makes it even better, and if it doesn’t we’ll still enjoy it. Right?”

“Right.” She smiled at his sweetness. “But I still want to come with you inside me.”

“My pleasure.” He smiled, slowly removing his fingers. 

He placed himself at her entrance. With her nod of encouragement, he pushed himself inside her. He started to slowly thrust in and out. Eventually the slow pace wasn’t enough, and she begged him to go fast. In a few minutes, they were both close to their climax. He reached between them and rubbed her clit, sending her over the edge. He followed behind her, emptying inside her. 

“That was amazing,” She sighed happily as he snuggled up to her. “We’re so good at that.”

Colin chuckled. He kissed the top of her head as they cuddled. He felt so lucky to be living the life he was. He was marrying his best friend, and hopefully they’d welcome their first child soon. He still couldn’t believe he’d spend so much time without realizing he loved her. Now he couldn’t imagine his life without her love. She was truly everything to him. 

“Have I told you lately how grateful I am for you?” He asked her. 

“Not recently,” She smirked. “And I do love hearing your praises of me.”

“I would be lost without you, Pen. Honestly, how did I survive before January?” He asked her. She giggled. 

“I don’t know, you must have wandered around aimlessly.” She grinned.

“I did, I swear.” He replied, leaning down and kissing her. “Thank you, for being such an amazing partner. I love you and our life together. I can’t wait for our future.”

“Colin Christopher, you never fail to amaze me. I hope you know how much you mean to me. I love you so much, and I am so excited to spend the rest of my days with you by my side.” She told him. 

“Oh hey, did you text El? She might be panicking.” Colin reminded her. 

“I haven’t. Listen, I don’t think getting asked every few weeks if we’re pregnant will be good for our mental health. I think we should keep the fact that we’re actively trying to have a baby between us. Is that okay?” She asked.

“I think that makes perfect sense, Pen.” He agreed. “I think letting this be our thing for now is a good idea.”

“Okay,” She smiled. “I should still text your sister so she doesn’t have an aneurysm.” 

Eloise Bridgerton and Penelope Featherington

Penelope: Hey, it was a false alarm

Penelope: Thanks again for being there today ❤️

Eloise: Are you okay?

Penelope: I was surprised by how sad I was, but I’m okay 

Eloise: Let me know if you need anything? 

Penelope: Always 😘

After sending her last message to Eloise, she turned back into Colin’s arms. She felt a little bad for not telling Eloise, but she really did want to keep this between her and Colin. She’d make it up to El by making her godmother to their first child. 

“In other news, how was your meeting today?” She asked him. 

“Great, my boss asked me if I’d be willing to take a trip to Greece sometime in the next year. I told him I’d talk with my fiance about it, and asked if you would be able to join me. He actually wants me to do a special assignment on the ultimate romantic trip around the Greek islands since I’ve been there, and he thought it’d be perfect to have you join me,” He told her with a smile. “It looks like the trip will be around Valentine’s Day, if that was something you’d be interested in.”

“I’d love that!” She grinned. “Who knows, it could double as a honeymoon and babymoon.”

“That would make it even more perfect.” Colin agreed. “And if not, maybe the Greek deities will grant us some fertility luck.”

“Even better.” She said. “Col, we don’t have to put too much pressure on this, though okay? I want it to happen, but I don’t want it to be too overwhelming for us either. I think we should just let it happen when it happens.”

“I agree,” He nodded. “I know we will be blessed with a child when the time is right. I hope it’ll be soon, but if not, we can focus on the wedding and our new marriage.”

“Exactly.” She said. “I love that we think the same way about these things.”

“That’s because we’re perfect together.” He told her. 

“We sure are.” She smiled. 

Time, mystical time, cuttin' me open, then healin' me fine were there clues I didn't see?

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October:

“Outside, they're push and shovin', you're in the kitchen hummin'

All that you ever wanted from me was sweet nothin'”

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Happy birthday to my very best friend. El, I could not be more grateful for you. Truly, having you by my side in this crazy adventure of life has meant the world to me. And just think, those little 7 year olds are about to be sisters for real 🥺 I believe we were meant to be best friends, and will be in every lifetime. I do not know what I would do with you. I hope you have an amazing day, and I cannot wait to celebrate with you tonight. Cheers to my forever bestie, and my sister for life ❤️ PS sorry for posting this picture, but the world had to see us when we were practically babies. Circa: our early teens lol

Comments:

@EloiseMarie PEN! How could you post this 😂 I suppose I forgive you. Love you so much, you were my sister long before Colin came to his senses 😘

@SirPhil.Crane You both look beautiful! 

@ColinTheTraveler I agree!

@MamaViolet This photo makes my heart very happy. I love you both so much! Happy birthday, my feisty, smart, daring girl ❤️

@KateSharmaBridgerton HBD, El! Look at those cuties 😂

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Happy birthday to our favorite third wheel. Just kidding. El, we’ve always understood each other so well, and I am so grateful to have you as my little sister. Thank you for bringing Pen into our lives, and for supporting our relationship from the very beginning. We love you. I suppose since it’s your birthday, I’ll let you hog Pen’s attention, but only this once!

Comments: 

@EloiseMarie We’ve already established that YOU are the third wheel, dweeb. You’re lucky you make Pen so happy or I’d challenge you to a dual. Thanks for giving me Pen time, tho. I will take you up on that 🥰

@A.Bridge Wtg, Colin. Now we all have to make bday posts or you’ll be El’s favorite.

@BenedictBridgertonArt Or you can do what I do and offer to smoke on the swings with her lol it seems to work for me 🤷🏻‍♂️

@MamaViolet Benedict Robert!

@PenTheFeather I love this picture 🥺

@DaffBassett You all look so lovely in it ❤️

@SophBridgerton Happy Birthday, El! 🥰

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Eloise took Colin’s promise to let her steal Pen very seriously. As soon as they got to Eloise’s party, his sister whisked his fiancee away. Penelope had shrugged at him, and he’d waved her off. Truthfully, he loved Penelope and Eloise’s friendship. They were thick as thieves, and had been since the day they’d met. 

“There you are,” Anthony and Kate approached him, his sister in-law giving him a squeeze as she spoke. “I see you’ve lost Penelope to our dear birthday girl already.”

“Eloise gets to hog her attention one day a year,” Colin explained. “And since she’s so kindly given us her blessing, I suppose it’s a fair trade.”

“How is wedding planning going?” Kate asked curiously. 

“Surprisingly well,” Colin smiled. “Pen has, truthfully, done the majority of the work. Daff has insisted on helping as well, so between the two of them, things are moving quickly.”

“I think it’s so romantic that you’re getting married on New Year’s Day!” Hyacinth said, joining her brothers and sister-in-law.

“Penelope said it was your idea.” Anthony said. 

“New Year’s changed everything for us,” Colin replied. “After all those years of figuring our feelings around, and the months we spent dancing around the truth, it all led up to that night at Aubrey Hall. It only seemed fitting that we marry on that day.”

“And you’re holding the ceremony where it all started,” Kate beamed. “This will be such a magical day.”

“I’m a lucky man indeed.” Colin grinned. 

A little while later, Colin wandered away from the group. He spotted his mum chatting with Daphne and Simon. He was debating on joining them when he noticed Pen was coming toward him. He smiled at his bride-to-be.

He found it funny that he still craved her presence. Even though they lived together, and spent every day with one another, he still missed her in moments they were apart. He hoped that feeling never faded, though he seriously doubted it would. 

“Hi love,” He grinned, pulling her in for an embrace. “Get bored of my sister already?”

“You be nice to her, mister,” Penelope teased. “It’s her birthday. She’s off chatting with Phillip and his parents at the moment.”

“Ah, so you’re all mine for the time being.”

“I’m always yours.” She assured him with a squeeze.

Colin led Penelope over to Violet and Daphne. They were discussing Simon’s work. The conversation came to an end when Penelope and Colin joined. Eloise had stolen Pen away so quickly, she hadn’t gotten to greet anyone else. She happily accepted hugs from Colin’s mum and sister. 

“Did Eloise tell you what Phillip got her?” Penelope asked the group. 

“No, what was it?” Daff asked. 

“A first edition of Pride and Prejudice !” Penelope exclaimed. “I’m not sure how he even found one, but I bet it’s stunning.”

“He certainly knows the way to her heart,” Violet smiled. “Do you think they’ll finally get engaged this year?”

“Mum, the more you push her on it, the less likely it will happen,” Colin warned his mother. “It needs to be on her terms. Plus, we all know El would rather elope than have a big wedding.”

“She wouldn’t!” Violet gasped.

“Don’t worry, Violet. I’ll warn you ahead of time,” Penelope promised. “But in all seriousness, I do think they’ll get married. Eloise mentioned that they’ve even discussed fostering children in the future.”

“Eloise? Foster children? She hates children!” Simon laughed.

“No, she doesn’t like babies, children she tends to enjoy,” Penelope replied with a smile. “She’s even offered to be godmother to our first child.”

The group chuckled at that. Leave it to Eloise to volunteer for such an important role rather than wait to be asked. Not that she wouldn’t have been their first choice, of course. Penelope had always known Eloise would hold a special role in her children’s lives. Being their aunt biologically was something Penelope had always dreamed. Now, it was a reality. 

“Pen!” El’s voice carried across the room as she dragged Phillip over to the group. “Sorry for losing you for a moment, Phillip’s parents can be quite chatty.”

“She was in good hands in your absence, Eloise.” Colin assured his sister, smiling brightly at his fiancee. 

“Yes well, if you remember, you provided your permission for me to hog her all evening, and I was not finished showing her the gift Phillip got me. Pen, would you like to see the copy of Jane Austen.”

“Yes!” Penelope exclaimed in excitement. She leaned up to kiss Colin’s cheek. “See you later, love.” 

Colin let out a chuckle as the pair scurried off. Phillip shrugged as well, seeing he had lost Eloise for the time being. The two men joined back into conversation with Colin’s family. As much as he teased his sister, Colin knew how much Penelope valued her time with Eloise. The two of them had been friends for nearly their whole lives, and would always share an unbreakable bond. He was more than happy to share his fiancee with his younger sister.

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Eloise and Penelope spent the next day doing something they’d done for years. They had set aside the entire day to sit together and read. It was a tradition for Eloise’s birthday, and since they no longer lived together, they were camping out at Penelope and Colin’s house. 

“No offense, Colin, but you know you have to leave, right?” Eloise asked him as she started setting the living room up with pillows, blankets, and a few bean bag chairs she’d brought with her.

“Leave my own house?” Colin asked.

“Eloise, Colin does not have to leave,” Penelope laughed as she entered the room. “He is going to spend some time working on some writing in the study.”

“You won’t even know I am here,” Colin vowed. “Though if you need me, Pen, I’ll be down in an instant.”

“Ew, she’ll be fine. Go away.” Eloise replied, teasing in her voice. 

“I’m going, I’m going.” Colin threw his hands up in defeat. 

“You may, I suppose, join us for dinner later.” Eloise offered.

“Thank you, how very kind of you.” Colin smirked.

He leaned down and gave Penelope a quick kiss before retreating up the stairs to the study. Penelope had brought in some snacks to get them started on their reading-in as well as mugs of tea. She got comfortable next to her best friend.

“What are you reading first, Pen?” Eloise asked.

“ The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo, ” Penelope replied. “I’m afraid it’s been sitting on my shelf for ages and I just haven’t gotten to it yet. But, everyone has raved about it, so I think it’s time to give it a chance.”

“I do believe you’ll love it,” Eloise replied. “I am reading A Room of One’s Own . Virginia Woolf is such a tragic, but beautiful writer.”

Penelope didn’t have a friendship with anyone like she did with Eloise. While she and Colin could sit in comfortable silence together, they were alway cuddling, making comments, giggling, and rarely stayed quiet for long. Eloise was the only person in the world she could spend an entire day reading with, and be content with it. It was part of what made their friendship so special, and Pen would always cherish it.

They spent the next few hours in the chapters of their books. It didn’t take long for either of them to finish their first book and move onto the next on their list. Penelope gave her book a perfect five star review on Good Reads. It had made her laugh, cry, and she wished she hadn’t put off reading it for as long as she had. 

“I need food,” Eloise announced. “Should we order pizza now?”

“Yeah, that sounds like a good idea. I’m afraid my neck needs a break from being bent over the pages for so long.”

Penelope called the local pizza place and placed their order. It would be ready for pickup in 30 minutes. Eloise elected to stay at the house, so Pen went up to see if Colin wanted to join her to get their dinner. 

“Hi lovely,” He smiled when she came in. “Taking a break from the books?”

“We ordered dinner, I was coming up to see if you wanted to come with me to pick it up,” She told him. “Any interest in taking a moment away from your writing?”

“Of course I will,” He smiled. “Give me one moment to finish this paragraph.”

Not wanting her to leave, he pulled her onto his lap at the desk. She giggled, but held onto him as she snuggled into him. He finished the section he had been working on. After he finished, he closed his laptop, and kissed his fiancee. 

“Got to get my kisses in while El is distracted,” He teased. “Are you two enjoying your read-in?”

“We are,” She confirmed with a smile. “Are you okay up here?”

“I’ve been productive,” He said. “It’s been nice to actually edit some things. I never tend to go back over things, and I’m realizing I need to be more on top of it.”

“I can’t wait to read it,” She grinned. “I love to read your writing.”

“As I do yours,” He replied. “Perhaps we can have a writing date next weekend. I know we’ve been pretty busy lately with wedding planning and other things, but your writing is important. I want to make sure it still gets prioritized.”

“I love you, you know that right?”

“I had an inkling.”

After another kiss, they headed downstairs. Penelope checked to make sure Eloise didn’t want to go with them, but the brunette was sprawled on the couch, slightly dozing off. Seeing that she was set, the pair headed out to grab their pizza.

When they got home, Penelope woke Eloise up from her nap. Penelope had learned years ago that the best way to wake a sleeping Bridgerton was by offering them food. As soon as the word pizza left Penelope’s lips, Eloise jumped off the couch and hurried to the dining room to fight her brother for food. Hearing them bicker over who got the biggest slice made Penelope smile. She loved her family. 

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Birdgerton Brigade

Violet: Hello my loves! I was hoping we could all get together for the Mayfair Hayride this weekend? 

Daphne: We are in, of course ❤️

Kate: Us as well! 

Anthony: Yes, whatever Kate says 

Sophie: Ben and I will be there too!

Benedict: 👍

Eloise: I suppose I can be there 😜

Hyacinth: Count Gareth and I in as well 🥰

Gregory: Lucy and I will join

Francesca: Same for us 🤗

Violet: Wonderful! 😘

Violet: Pen and Colin?

Eloise: Pen! I swear if you leave me alone with our family 

Eloise: No offense everyone lol

Francesca: none take, El

Daphne: Speak for yourself, Franny 🙄

Penelope: Sorry! 

Penelope: Of course we will be there ❤️

Benedict: LOL

Benedict: Do we want to know why it took you so long to reply, Pen?

Eloise: Ew do not encourage Colin 🤢

Colin: No encouragement needed 😉

Penelope: Colin!!!

Penelope: We were writing, do not let Colin fool you 

Colin: Pen ☹️

Colin: You know how much fun I have teasing Eloise

Eloise: HA

Eloise: See she does love me more 😝

Violet: Alright, children.

Violet: I look forward to seeing you all Saturday evening 

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Colin and Penelope arrived at the annual Mayfair fall festival that Saturday. Every year, for as long as either of them could remember, there was a huge festival to celebrate the Autumn harvest. It was a tradition for the Bridgertons to go together, but Colin hadn’t been in the country for the past few years during the festival. It was the first time he’d be joining. The invitation had always been extended to Penelope, and she had joined when she was younger, but not in recent years. They were looking forward to spending the time together with his family. 

“Pen! Colin!” Hyacinth called out to them and hurried over, pulling Gareth with her. 

“Hello there, Hy.” Colin smiled, squeezing his baby sister tightly. 

“Gareth, nice to see you,” Penelope smiled at the youngest Bridgerton’s boyfriend. “Have the others also arrived?”

“Penelope, nice to see you as well. I think you’re the first ones to join us.” Gareth replied. 

“We haven’t found anyone else, but we’ve been here for hours,” Hyacinth answered, hugging her future sister-in-law hello. “We spent the entire day here.”

“I’ll text Violet, and see if she’s here.” Penelope offered with a smile. 

Violet Bridgerton and Penelope Featherington

Penelope: Hello! Col and I just arrived, we found Hy & Gareth. Is there somewhere specific we should meet? 😊

Violet: Hello dearest! ❤️ Daphne, Simon, the children, and myself will be arriving in a few moments. I have already purchased the tickets for the hayride for all of us, let’s meet at the entrance? 

Penelope: Sounds good! See you soon ❤️

The foursome headed over to the entrance of the hayride where they bumped into Eloise, Phillip, Sophie, and Benedict on their way. As they approached the area, they found everyone else aside from Violet, and Daphne’s family. Lucy and Francesca were discussing Fran’s newest student, who happened to be Lucy’s cousin. Michaela and Gregory were listening intently as their partners geeked over the coincidence. 

“Where is our mother?” Gregory asked. “Was this not her idea?”

“Patience, Greg,” Lucy laughed. “It’s still five minutes before the agreed upon time.”

“She’ll be here soon, she’s with Daff.” Penelope supplied. 

“Penny!” Anthony and Kate’s two year old daughter put her hands up for Penelope to pick her up. Penelope grinned, loving that the Bridgeton children all loved her, and already saw her as their auntie. “Uppy!”

“Hello, sweetheart,” Penelope smiled as she lifted the toddler into her arms. “Are you excited for the hayride?”

“It’s a train, auntie P!” Mia’s older brother, Edmund exclaimed in excitement. Edmund and Mia were Irish twins, just barely eleven months apart. Most everyone who met them thought they were twins. 

“It’s sort of like a train, buddy,” Anthony replied, not wanting the oldest of his children to be disappointed when they did not in fact board a train. “It’ll be lots of fun, though.”

“I wanna sit with Granny! Where is she?” Edmund pouted. 

“Right here, darling,” Violet approached them, helping Daphne and Simon wrangle August and Belle.  “Are we all ready?”

Since the Bridgerton brigade was so large, they got a whole hayride to themselves. Colin and Penelope found a seat in the back, and were quickly joined by his nieces and nephews. Violet held Edmund in her lap, but Mia refused to leave Penelope. August curled against Colin’s side, and Belle made her way in between the pair. The now one year old was taking a few steps, but still used crawling and being carried as her main modes of getting around. She’d crawled between the pair, settling in. 

“It seems our children have deserted us,” Kate commented with a chuckle. “They really do love their Auntie Pen and Uncle Colin.”

“Of course they do,” Daphne grinned. “They know after Sophie and Benedict’s baby is born, Penelope and Colin will likely provide their next cousin.”

Penelope hoped her cheeks turning bright red didn’t give too much away. She and Colin were excited to have a baby, and hoped it would happen soon. She didn’t want them to put too much pressure on themselves right now, but she really did hope they would get a positive test in the next few months. Being a mother to his child sent chills down her spine. She couldn’t wait to start a family with him, and knew he was going to be an amazing father. 

“Penny!” Mia exclaimed. The tractor had begun to move, and the jolt had frightened the toddler. Penelope hugged her niece closer to her body. 

“It’s alright, pumpkin, it just means the hayride has started.” Penelope assured her. She readjusted the little girl so that she could see better. “Can you see now?”

“Look!” Mia giggled, the fear leaving her body once her aunt confirmed her safety. 

“Uncle Collie, can I stand up?” Auggie asked.

“Sorry, buddy, we need to stay sitting down,” Colin replied. “It might be a little bumpy.”

“I like bumpy!” Auggie giggled. 

Penelope moved so that she could hold onto Belle as well. She knew there was no way the littlest one could fall out, but she wanted to make sure she was secure. Belle smiled up, and pulled herself into Pen’s lap, snuggling in with her aunt and cousin. Colin took the opportunity to slide himself and August closer to them, putting an arm around Penelope and his nieces. 

“It’s so nice for us all to be together for a nice casual outing,” Violet smiled, looking around at her family. “I can’t believe we all were able to be here.”

“A rarity for sure, but a nice occasion,” Anthony agreed with his mother. “Things have been busy lately, it’s nice to relax with the family.”

“I admit, it is nice for us all to hang out occasionally,” Francesca smiled from her place beside Michaela. “Even if there is never a moment of silence.”

“I love having all of my babies together,” Violet said. “Those I birthed, my grandchildren, and those who came into my life later.”

Penelope smiled at Violet’s words. She agreed. It was nice to be with all of Colin’s family. Normally it only happened during holidays and gatherings. She enjoyed the calmness of just being able to enjoy everyone’s company. 

“Pen, how are you feeling about wedding preparations?” Sophie asked. 

“I feel oddly unstressed over it,” Penelope admitted. “Things have just sort of fallen into place, and since we want a small, intimate ceremony, there’s been nothing to fret over. Plus, Daff has helped me so much, I feel like I’ve hardly had to do a thing.” 

“Aside from getting your dress, that is.” Eloise reminded her. 

“Which I have an appointment for in a couple of weeks,” Penelope stated. “I’ll text the details to anyone who wants to join. No pressure, though!”

“Pen, of course we all want to be there!” Kate said excitedly.

“I will most certainly be there,” Violet beamed. “You are going to make such a beautiful bride.”

“Thank you,” Penelope blushed. “I admit, I am excited to find my dress.”

“It’s going to be perfect,” Daphne said. “I can’t wait!” 

“Me either.” Penelope smiled. 

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Pen’s Ladies  💛🩵

Eloise: As Maid of Honor, I figured we should have a place to discuss wedding things 

Penelope: Thanks, El 😘

Violet: A wonderful idea, honey!

Daphne: So, dress shopping?

Phillipa: Yes! When is your appointment?

Penelope: The 3rd at 11 am, perhaps we can grab lunch after?

Prudence: I am in! ❤️

Hyacinth: You know I will be there 😍

Kate: Sophie and I will be there too!

Francesca: Wouldn’t miss it for the world 😊

Hyacinth: OMG

Hyacinth: Countdown to the Polin wedding 🥹

Sophie: AWWWW ❤️

Violet: It’s about time!

Eloise: Mum speaks for us all lol

They said the end is comin', everyone's up to somethin' I find myself runnin' home to your sweet nothings

Chapter Text

November:

But I'm a fire, and I'll keep your brittle heart warm if your cascade ocean wave blues come

All these people think love's for show, but I would die for you in secret.

The devil's in the details, but you got a friend in me. Would it be enough if I could never give you peace?

Penelope had decided to invite her mother to go dress shopping with them. She had debated about it, but felt that she wanted her mum there. Portia had been, surprisingly, well behaved. She’d arrived with Prudence and Phillipa and had made no sarcastic or degrading comments. 

“Penelope, have you seen this one?” Francesca asked, pulling a lace dress from the rack. 

“Mmmm, too much lace for me, I think.” Penelope said.

“How do you feel about a little color?” Genevieve asked. Gen had owned a wedding boutique for years, and Penelope had always loved the work her high school friend did. She knew there was no one else she’d want to get her wedding dress from.

“I think maybe a blush or a pink could be nice,” Penelope replied. “I’m not set on traditional white, but I don’t want anything too crazy.”

All of Colin’s sisters and sister-in-laws were present, as well as Violet, of course. Penelope was glad all of the women in her life that meant so much to her could be here on this important day. She couldn’t imagine trying on dresses and choosing one without them. 

“Pen, I found something I think you should try on,” Phillipa said. “It’s nothing like what you’ve shown me so far, I know, but it feels like you.”

Penelope was willing to try on anything. She wouldn’t know what she liked and didn’t like if she didn’t see them on herself first. Phillipa told Genevieve what dress she’d found, and the woman gathered it up, and led Penelope to the back. 

As Gen helped Penelope step into the gown, Penelope noticed that it was a light pink. She loved the floral details on the bottom, and the satin material of the dress. The capped sleeves and cut of the neckline weren’t something she’d have gravitated towards, but couldn’t help but love on this dress.

“Look in the mirror, girl, you are stunning.” Gen instructed.

Penelope turned and gasped when she saw her reflection. Pen was confident in her body, but seeing herself in the wedding gown made her feel beautiful in a way she hadn’t before. She knew this was her dress. It was like it was made for her. 

Genevieve helped her walk back to the lobby. Everyone was seated, waiting to see her in the gown. Violet got the first glimpse, and tears immediately formed in Colin’s mum’s eyes. She heard a gasp from Kate and Daphne, and then a squeal from Eloise. Everyone else was grinning at her. Well, aside from one person.

“It’s something, that’s for sure,” Portia said coolly. “Pink for a wedding?”

“It’s perfect, Pen, don’t listen to her,” Eloise said quickly. “You look beautiful.”

“She’s right, you are a vision, my darling,” Violet said tearfully. “I can’t believe I’m watching you try on your wedding dress. And to have you marrying Colin makes it even more special.”

“I think this is the one.” Penelope smiled, tears now forming in her eyes as well when she came to the realization that this was the dress she’d walk down the aisle in. 

“Let me grab some champagne for a toast!” Gen exclaimed excitedly. 

“Penelope, you look so beautiful,” Prudence smiled. “I am so happy for you.”

“This is so amazing, watching my baby sister get married!” Pippa added in excitement. 

“I think we all can agree, no one deserves this more than you,” Daphne grinned. “And we can’t wait to stand by you on your big day.”

“Even if you are far too good for our goofy brother.” Hyacinth teased with a chuckle. 

“I’ll drink that!” Eloise exclaimed as Genevieve returned with the champagne flutes. 

“To Penelope and Colin.” Fran said, lifting her glass.

“To Pen and Colin!” Everyone repeated. 

Penelope, rather reluctantly, changed out of her dress. She texted Colin to tell him she’d picked her dress, and he excitedly sent back heart emojis. Things were becoming more real, and the countdown to becoming Mrs. Bridgerton was in full swing. She couldn’t wait to call Colin her husband. 

“Penelope, I wanted to ask you about having dinner together next week,” Portia stated. “I know things have been a bit crazy lately, but there are some things I would like to discuss with you.”

“Sure, mama. Colin and I are free next Saturday.” Penelope stated.

“Great, I’ll call you tomorrow to decide what time I should be there.”

Penelope had a gut feeling that this dinner would be anything but a lovely family evening. 

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Penelope was a bundle of nerves as she waited for her mum to arrive at her house. She knew Portia would look for any possible reason to criticize her and her home. Nothing would be good enough, despite the beautiful house and perfectly kept space. Colin and Penelope were both very tidy people, and liked to keep their home clean and organized. Still, Penelope knew her mum would detect even the tiniest speck of dust. 

“Love, relax, nothing she says can change the fact that we have a beautiful home,” Colin reminded Pen. “She’s probably going to find something to complain about, but we can’t let her get to us.”

Penelope knew he was right. It was just that Portia always made Pen feel like she was in trouble. It was like being a child all over again. She was about to be married, and yet her mother’s words still cut deep. 

They were finishing setting the table when the doorbell went off, alerting them that her mum had arrived. Penelope took a deep breath, readying herself to greet her mother. Portia had requested it just be them, so Penelope wouldn’t have Phillipa and Prudence as buffers. When Penelope opened the door she expected to see her mother standing alone, but to Penelope’s shock, Marina was also there.

“Marina wanted to come see your place, and since we’re all old friends, it seemed rude to deny her,” Portia explained with a cold smile. “Are you going to show us inside now?”

“Uh, y-yes, of course,” Penelope stuttered, motioning for them to come inside. “You can take your shoes off and put them on the rug, I’ll take your jackets.”

“What a lovely host you make.” Marina said, sounding anything but sincere. 

Penelope took their coats, hanging them up in the closet. Colin was still in the dining room, and Penelope led her guests to him. She could see the surprise on Colin’s face when his ex followed behind her. Portia was watching the interaction curiously as Marina went to hug Colin, who took a step back to avoid her embrace.

“I wasn’t aware you were bringing anyone with you, Portia,” Colin said, taking his place beside Penelope. “We thought it would just be the three of us.”

“Marina is practically family, surely she’s welcome in your home. Is she not?” Portia looked at Colin as if she was sizing him up. 

“It’s fine.” Penelope said quickly to avoid any awkwardness. She wrapped an arm around Colin and squeezed his waist. “We were simply surprised, but it’s nothing. I’ll put another place setting at the table. Would either of you like a drink? We have tea, water, or I can open a bottle of wine.”

“I’ll take a glass.” Marina stated. 

“As will I.” Portia agreed.

Penelope nodded before hurrying to the kitchen. She felt bad for leaving Colin alone with them, but needed a moment to gather her thoughts. Portia always had a way of throwing her for a loop. She should have known this would be anything but a nice, normal dinner. She sighed before gathering the drinks and place settings. 

When she returned, her mother was questioning Colin about his work. Marina was batting her eyes at him, rather shamelessly. Colin was ignoring his ex, and answering Portia’s questions as respectfully as possible. 

“How much do you make without traveling?” Portia asked.

“Mum,” Penelope warned. “We don’t need to discuss our finances, okay?”

“Well, with a house payment, a wedding and other expenses, I just wonder how you’re both affording everything.” Portia replied.

“We’re managing well.” Colin said vaguely. 

Portia, Penelope could tell, wanted to press on, but must have realized Colin was finished discussing it. Truthfully, the two of them were doing well financially. They were able to pay their bills, and have money in their savings. They were blessed to have the opportunities they did, but they didn’t feel the need to discuss this with Portia. It wasn’t her business, and Penelope knew her mum would pressure them into letting her borrow money. 

They sat down to eat at the table, and Penelope noticed how quickly Marina took the seat next to Colin. She normally sat across from him, but let Portia take that seat, and sat on her fiance's other side. Penelope knew she had nothing to worry about. Colin would never cheat on her, and she knew he had no feelings for Marina. But, she could tell how uncomfortable the brunette was making him, and she wanted to be close by to comfort him. 

“So, the wedding is coming up quickly, yes?” Portia asked as they began to eat the salmon Penelope and Colin had made. 

“January first,” Colin smiled. “We can’t wait.”

“Obviously.” Marina snorted under her breath. 

“Why are you rushing things?” Portia asked, narrowing her eyes at her daughter and future son-in-law.

“I wouldn’t consider it rushing, mama,” Penelope said. “We’ve been friends since we were children and-”

“And he suddenly decided, after years of you pathetically chasing after him, to notice you? Then he gives up traveling because you likely forced him to. He then buys you a house, proposes to you, and plans a wedding with you all within a year?” Portia’s accusation hit Penelope in the gut. 

“Now hold on a second,” Colin’s voice let Penelope know he was not going to stand for Portia’s inaccurate assumptions. “I loved Pen for a very long time before we got together, I just needed to figure it out. I didn’t give up traveling because she forced me to, I did it because I was ready to settle down. I wanted to be with Penelope more than a few days every couple of months, and I was offered an incredible position that allowed me to do just that. I did not buy her a house, we own it together. And, I proposed when we were both ready. Because truly, as soon as she agreed to be my girlfriend, I was ready to marry her.”

“What has she done to trap you?” Marina asked her ex boyfriend in mock concern. 

“Are you pregnant?” The question directed to her daughter was like a knife in Peneleope’s heart. She felt Colin tense up beside her. They’d had another negative test two weeks ago, and even though she knew it could take time, it was still disappointing. The silence apparently gave Portia the wrong idea. “Oh my, you are, aren’t you? No wonder there’s such a hurry to get to the altar.”

“I’m not pregnant,” Penelope said, her voice just barely above a whisper. “There’s no baby to trap him with.”

“Thank goodness!” Marina exclaimed. “That means you can still come to your senses, Colin.”

“Do you hear how she’s talking about your daughter?” Colin asked Portia, angry at the woman for not standing up for Penelope. 

“You never wanted to get married or have children!” Marina all but shouted. “And now suddenly she comes along and changes your mind? You don’t have to tie yourself to her!”

“I never wanted to marry you or have children with you ,” Colin was stone cold as he spoke to the woman next to him. “It’s always been Penelope for me. She’s the only person I have ever wanted as my wife, or as the mother of my children. Even if she was pregnant, it wouldn’t be to entrap me. I would love to have a baby with her.”

“So what, you were pinning after her the entire time we were together?”

“I didn’t understand it then, but yes.” Colin admitted.

“And this is the kind of man you want to marry, Penelope?” Portia asked. “If he did it to Marina, a beautiful, successful, strong woman, he would most definitely do it to you. Who are you compared to-”

“Get out,” Penelope said, standing. “Get out of my house right now.”

“I’m your mother.” Portia stated.

“No, you’re not. You have never cared about me like a mother should. And now you want to come in here and judge me, and question Colin’s love for me?” Penelope was surprised that her voice didn’t shake, not even a little bit. “No, I will not stand for it. You can’t fathom that he loves me? Fine, but I refuse to let you voice your opinion in our house. Colin and I are getting married because we love each other. You should be happy for us, but your so jealous you refuse to see it.”

“Your mum is trying to help you, both of you.” Marina said.

“And another thing, thank you for reminding me, Marina. You brought her here to stir up problems, but it’s not going to work.” Penelope said.

“It’s time for you two to leave,” Colin said, standing and placing an arm around Penelope. “Penelope asked you once already, and I will not make her do it again. Get out.”

“You’ll regret this, Penelope Anne. When he leaves you, and you’re all alone, don’t think you can come crawling back to me for pity.”

“You’re the last person in the world I’d go to,” Penelope replied. “And in case you didn’t know already, you are no longer invited to our wedding. It’s for family, and you are not a part of our family anymore.” 

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Colin kept waiting for Penelope to break down about her mother, but she hadn’t. He knew she was strong, but her mother’s words had been harsh. He didn’t push her, and instead gave her comfort when she needed it. With no words needed, she’d come sit on his lap while he worked at the desk, and hug him from behind while he made breakfast. He was realizing that she was handling this well because it had needed to happen. She’d finally stood up to her mother, and as hard and messy as it was, she was healing. 

Anthony Bridgerton and Colin Bridgerton

Anthony: Mary and Edwina are taking the kids for the weekend

Anthony: Kate would like me to invite you and the Mrs over for a card night

Colin: We’d love to

Colin: Tell Kate we’re in

Anthony: Cool!

Anthony: Can’t wait to see you and Pen

Anthony: How is she doing after Hurricane Portia?

Colin: Good? Honestly, better than expected

Colin: Fuck Portia tho

Anthony: Lol

Anthony: Damn I wish I could have seen Pen take that woman down

Colin: It was glorious

Colin: I’m so proud of her

Anthony: I always knew she had it in her

Kate Bridgerton and Penelope Featherington

Penelope: Can I bring anything this weekend?

Kate: Perhaps some snacks? 

Penelope: On it! 😘

Penelope: Sausage rolls sound okay?

Kate: A woman after my own heart 😍

Penelope: Wonderful! I’ll grab some crisps and dip as well 

Penelope: You know how much Colin loves his food 😂

Kate: How do you keep up with his stomach? 🤣

Penelope: Lol the grocery store hates to see us coming 

Kate: LMAO 

Kate: How are you doing, btw? C told A about your mum 

Kate: 😡

Penelope: I can’t believe she brought Marina 🙄

Penelope: I’m okay tho

Penelope: I just hate that I drug Colin into this

Kate: Girl you didn’t drag that man anywhere

Kate: He’s literally obsessed with you 

Penelope: I know

Penelope: It just feels unfair, you know? I get welcomed into this amazing, loving family and he ends up with Portia

Kate: He also gets you, Pen. And that’s what matters

Kate: Plus Pru and Pip have really changed

Penelope: They have, they’re great

Penelope: I just hope I’m enough for him

Kate: You’re all that matters to him ❤️

Penelope and Colin were looking forward to seeing Kate and Anthony. It had been a while since the four of them hung out without any of the other family members. Penelope remembered how quickly she clicked with Kate when she and Anthony started dating. Of course, that was after Anthony tried to date Kate’s sister to make her jealous. Penelope had been so glad they’d worked it out in the end, and loved having Kate as a sister. She brought out the best in Anthony. Penelope hadn’t seen that side of him since his dad died, and it was beautiful to see him back. 

“Hey! So glad you could make it,” Anthony greeted when they entered the house, giving them both a quick hug. “Colin, you can take that bag of stuff to Kate in the kitchen. Pen, follow me to my office?”

Though Penelope knew under it all Anthony was a softy, being called to his office felt like being sent to the principal or headmaster. She knew realistically she wasn’t in trouble, but she couldn’t help the nerves that rose up. She looked to Colin who looked just as confused as she did.

“Relax, brother, I just want to talk to my sister alone for a moment,” Anthony replied. “Kate has some biscuits she pulled out of the oven a few moments ago, I’m sure she’ll let you eat one now.”

That wasn’t playing fair. Colin would never turn down biscuits fresh from the oven. He gave Pen a quick kiss to the top of her head before hurrying off to the kitchen. Penelope followed Colin’s brother into his office that was just down the hall. He motioned for her to sit on the sofa while he took the chair across from her. 

“I heard about your mother. Are you alright?” Anthony asked her.

“I’m fine, honestly. It was a lot, but it needed to happen. I can’t spend the rest of my life allowing her to treat me or Colin that way,” Penelope explained. “I know that she’s my mother, but right now I need to cut her out.”

“I’m not judging you for that, actually I wanted to tell you how proud I am of you, Penelope.”

“Proud?”

“Yes, proud,” Anthony smiled. “You’re my sister, and you have been since you were just a little girl. I’ve watched you come into your own, I’ve seen your confidence grow, and you learn to accept the love you deserve. I know how hard this was for you, but I hope you know that you have my support, as well as the rest of our family’s.” 

“Thank you,” She said. “I’m sorry you all have to deal with this mess.”

“Pen, have you met half of this family? None of us are perfect, we all come with our own mess. We love you for you, and that doesn’t change just because of your mother. You know that, right? When you first started hanging out with El, all those years ago, and we saw how your mother treated you, we decided then and there that you were a Bridgerton. No matter what happens, we are your family.”

“I do, it’s just hard not to worry sometimes. I think taking space from Portia will be good for me. I want to focus on the family Colin and I are creating together rather than the toxic relationship I have with her. Maybe one day she’ll come around, but clearly she isn’t going to any time soon. I uninvited her from the wedding.” Penelope said. Anthony nodded.

“That brings me to my next question, who is walking you down the aisle?” 

“I was considering asking Albie,” Penelope replied. “Harry is another choice, but Albie has known me longer.”

“I know I’m Col’s best man, but I’d be honored if you’d also let me escort you down the aisle,” Anthony said. “I understand if you’d rather ask one of your sister’s husbands, but like I said, you are my sister. I remember when you were eight years old and sprained your wrist ice skating on the lake at Aubrey Hall. Or the time you and Eloise drank too much, and you kindly offered to take care of her when she threw up all night.I also remember when you cried because Colin had his first girlfriend and I reassured you that he was stupid for not seeing you. And then, when you and Colin were unable to keep your eyes off each other during New Year’s Eve last year. I gave Daff away, and hopefully will give my other sisters away too. I really hope you consider me to be your big brother Pen-”

“Anthony, I would love it if you gave me away,” Penelope smiled at him. “Brother.”

Anthony’s face lit up. They both stood and shared a quick hug. Penelope was moved by Anthony’s offer. He had always protected her, and made sure she knew that she was a member of the family, but she had never expected this. She was lucky to call Colin’s siblings her own. 

“Thank you for loving my brother,” Anthony said as he pulled out of the hug. “And thank you for everything you do for the family.”

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“I like shiny things, but I’d marry you with paper rings” 💕

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@ColinTheTraveler “I hate accidents except when we went from friends to this” 😘

@ItsHy_ COLIN QUOTING TSWIFT WHAAAT 🤯

@PenTheFeather He’s a full blown Swiftie now 😉

@KateSharmaBridgerton Such a fun night! Love you guys ❤️

@A.Bridge Colin def cheated! Also this picture looks familiar 📸

@PenTheFeather Thank you for such a great evening! 😘

@MamaViolet My loves ❤️

@PenTheFeather Love you, mama V ❤️

@EloiseMarie Wait, this picture is actually so cute!! 🥺

@PenTheFeather Thanks, babes ❤️

@MsFrannieMusic PEN ARE THOSE SAUSAGE ROLLS 

@PenTheFeather I’ll make you some soon 😘

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“I know we haven’t talked about it, but I have to ask once then I’ll drop it,” Colin said as they snuggled in bed that night. “Are you really okay?” 

“I’m feeling better about the situation than expected. I won’t pretend like it’s easy, but it does feel like a weight has been lifted from me.”

“You know nothing she said was true, right?” Colin asked gently.

“It’s hard to remember, but I know her words were spewed from hate, and not from truth. Colin, I think my biggest worry in all of this is not giving you peace,” Penelope admitted. “I know right now I’ve cut her off, but she’s still my mother. She’ll always be a part of me. I fear she’ll loom over us, threatening us with ex girlfriends and harsh words.”

“Pen, honey, I knew who your mother was when we got together,” Colin reminded her. “Nothing Portia does will ever change that. I will stand with you always. I think this is a big step for you, and I hope it will force your mum to see things in a different light.”

“It feels like you got the short end of the stick. I get Violet Bridgerton and you get-”

“I get you,” Colin said, cupping her face. “And that’s all I care about. I’d deal with 1000 Portia’s if it meant getting to marry you, to love you.”

“You’re a good man, Colin Bridgerton.” She smiled at him.

“I am so proud of you. It was bloody brilliant, babe! You are brilliant, and strong, and kind, and beautiful. I love you so damn much.” He looked at her with such intensity, she knew he meant every word. She leaned in and kissed him. 

“I love you,” She told him. “I love every part of you.”

“This, right here, you and me, it is peace, Pen.”

Give you my wild, give you a child.  Give you the silence that only comes when two people understand each other family that I chose, now that I see your brother as my brother

Is it enough?

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December:

In my heart is a Christmas tree farm. There's a light in the barn. We'd run inside out from the cold. In the town, kids are dreaming of sleighs and they're warm and they're safe. They wake to see a blanket of snow

Penelope loved Christmas. The first week of December, she and Colin started to decorate their home for the holidays. They were so excited to put up a tree and lights and to make their home cozy and jolly. It was also their first official Christmas together. Last year they had been dancing around each other, both knowing things were changing between them, but neither of them made a move yet. This was going to be the best Christmas yet, Penelope knew.

“Alright, I have a box of ornaments mum insisted I take,” Colin said, bringing a box into the living room. “There are old ones she doesn’t use anymore, and she said we needed to have something to start our collection with.”

“That was very sweet of her,” Penelope smiled as she and Colin opened the box to reveal gold and silver ornaments. “Shall we start putting them on the tree now?”

“We should have time before family pictures,” Colin replied. “Are you excited to be a part of your first Bridgerton Christmas card?”

“I am,” She grinned. “Your mum always offered to include me before, but it felt strange being on the card when I wasn’t family.”

“You’ve always been family,” He reminded her, kissing her cheek. “Now it’s just official.”

She smiled at him. Together they started to hang the ornaments on the tree. Penelope wanted to get some personal ornaments as well. One to commemorate their engagement, and some other things to represent them. They also put on a strand of lights. She loved how it was coming together, and was even more excited to finish decorating once she saw the tree completed.

“It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas,” Colin smiled from behind her as he wrapped his arms around her body. “Are you excited to celebrate the holidays together?”

“So excited.” she grinned as he kissed her neck.

Bridgerton Brigade

Violet: Okay my loves, please make sure you arrive on time for family pictures tomorrow! We will be starting at 10:00 with brunch to follow 🥰

Eloise: What’s the dress code again?

Francesca: Black and white I think

Kate: Women wear black men wear white

Eloise: What if I want to wear white?

Benedict: Yeah maybe I want to wear black

Violet: Wear whatever you’d like as long as it falls in the color scheme 🤍🖤

Hyacinth: I want to wear pink

Greg: Can I wear orange?

Anthony: What if I wear lilac?

Colin: I’m wearing christmas colors 🎄

Daphne: Guys mum is literally going to stop breathing, stop teasing her

Penelope: Not to worry, we will all be there on time, dress accordingly! 

Violet: Thank you, sweetheart 😘

Anthony: Suck up 🙄

Penelope: 😜

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Penelope was excited for family pictures. She always loved looking at the beautiful photos the Bridgertons took each year. Her family had sent out cards, but they were never very personal. The Bridgerton Christmas cards always featured pictures of each child, or couple, in the family. Then there was the full family shot that Penelope always dreamed of being in. Now, she would be, and it was surreal to her. 

“Okay, couple and small family pictures first,” Violet instructed. “Let’s go from oldest to youngest, so Anthony and Kate, you’re up.” 

Penelope and Colin sat and talked with Eloise and Phillip while they waited for their turn to get pictures taken. Penelope was glad she wasn’t the first newbie getting family photos, Phillip was also a first timer. He seemed much more nervous than she did, though. He was usually behind the lens, taking pictures of flowers and plants. 

“Pen, Colin,” Anthony called. “You’re up!” 

The pair came over to the backdrop that was set up for them. The photographer wasted no time, she had them set up for a few pictures. They posed normally, and then did a more candid picture. The photographer moved them around, grinning as she snapped a few shots. They could tell she was having fun with them. 

“You’re such a beautiful couple,” The photographer said. “Can we do a silly picture? I won’t use it for the Christmas card, but you two are so sweet, and I just want to play around for a moment.”

Penelope reached out to grab Colin’s cheek, winking at the camera and pursing her lips together. The photographer snapped the picture, looked at the result, and laughed. She brought the camera over to show them, and Penelope let out a chuckle as well.

“We’re making almost the same face,” She said, amused. “We’re always in sync, aren’t we, honey?”

“Always, love.” He confirmed with a smile. 

“Do you do wedding pictures?” Penelope asked. The photographer nodded. “It’s a long shot, considering the wedding is soon, but we’re getting married on New Year’s Day. We weren’t sold on the photographer we chose, the pictures just seemed rather stiff. Is there any chance you’d be available?” 

“I actually am free, and would love to shoot your special day,” The woman said in excitement. “Here’s my card, we can call and talk about the details this week?”

“That’d be lovely. I’m so sorry, I don’t think I caught your name.” Penelope said.

“Oh, right! I’m Felicity,” The girl answered. “I should get the next couple ready, but I can’t wait to talk more later.”

They finished up with pictures a little while later. Felicity and Penelope set up a time for a zoom call later in the week to go over all of the details for the wedding. Penelope was excited to have the woman take pictures of the most important day of their life. 

The Bridgerton bunch headed to grab lunch after they finished the photo session. Anthony had booked them a room at one of the country clubs nearby. Since there were so many of them, they always made reservations ahead of time. 

“I can’t wait to see the pictures,” Sophie said as they ate their meal. “Everyone looked so lovely.”

“Felicity was a great photographer,” Colin stated. “Where did you find her, mum?”

“Agatha Danbury, naturally, recommended her,” Violet explained. “I heard her mention shooting your wedding, how exciting.”

“Yes, she had such great energy!” Penelope grinned. “We want more candid, intimate pictures, and we hadn’t found anyone that fit our aesthetic until today.”

“I’m sure Felicity will capture the day perfectly,” Kate smiled. “The wedding is so close, how are you feeling?”

“Ecstatic,” Colin answered, beaming. “And like the luckiest man in the world.”

The women around the table awed at his comment. Everyone knew he was being honest. Colin was never quiet about how much he loved Penelope, and how lucky he felt to have her love him in return. He had already slipped up and called his wife many, many times at family functions. He would truly be insufferable once they were officially wed. 

“When can we expect to see the pictures?” Anthony asked.

“Felicity said she’ll email them to me within 48 hours,” Violet replied. “I will forward them to all of you. I didn’t want to scare the poor girl by giving her a list of over a dozen emails she’d need to send our pictures to. So, I figured I’d handle that part.”

“Can we vote on the color scheme for next year?” Hyacinth asked.

“Hy, Christmas photos are mum’s favorite part of the holiday,” Daphne sighed. “Can you let her enjoy them without any arguments?”

“I was just asking,” The youngest Bridgerton replied with an eye roll. “But fine.”

“I’m open to suggestions,” Violet smiled, squeezing Hy’s hand. “As long as it fits my vision, of course.”

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Happy Holidays from my silly girl and me ❤️ In less than a month I get to marry the girl of my dreams. It’s hard to think of anything that could top this Christmas season. I love you forever, Penelope Anne (almost) Bridgerton 💚

Comments:

@PenTheFeather Our first and last Christmas as an engaged couple 🥺 I can’t wait to be your wife in a few weeks. I love you, Colin Christopher 😘 

@ColinTheTraveler I love you so much ❤️

@EloiseMarie UGH! Penelope Bridgerton sounds SO fucking good 😍

@PrudenceJoy lol she’s only been writing it in her notebooks for 20 years 😂 @Pip_Finch Pen + Colin = 4 ever was another common one lol 

@PenTheFeather thanks sister 🙄

@PrudenceJoy JK Pen, you know we love you both very much 😘

@MamaViolet 💛

@SophBridgerton omg you’re making the same face 🥺

@ItsHy_ right!? Can they be any more perfect?! 🥹

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Penelope went Christmas shopping with Francesca, Hyacinth, and Violet a few days later. Violet had a few last things she wanted to pick up, and she’d messaged the family group to see who was free. Colin had a busy day at work, but Penelope finished early, and decided to spend some time with her inlaws. 

“Penelope, what did you get Colin for Christmas?” Hyacinth asked.

“A new film camera, a voucher for us to take a Macaroon making class together, and a few other little things,” Penelope answers. “We decided not to go too crazy since the wedding is coming up.”

“Do you think he’d like a new tie?” Hyacinth asked. “Men are so hard to buy for.”

Penelope chuckled, and then assured the younger girl that Colin would appreciate any gift she gave him. She ended up settling for a leather journal Penelope helped her select. Francesca was searching for a gift for Michaela, and Violet and Hyacinth had moved on to picking things out for Kate. It gave Penelope a chance to sneak away for a moment.

Penelope had planned another gift for Colin, but she didn’t want to tell Hyacinth, or anyone else about it. She wanted it to be a surprise, so she went searching for the items she needed by herself. 

She found what she needed, excited to set it all up when she got home, deciding to give it to him a little early. She hid the items in her basket, making sure snooping Hyacinth wouldn’t spot them. She smiled as she found her family again, and they showed her what they’d found for various Bridgerton members. 

“Dearest, I am so excited we will have you with us on Christmas day,” Violet beamed. “We don’t usually see you until that evening for dinner.”

“I am so happy you’ll be there to open presents with us!” Hyacinth added in excitement.

In years past, Penelope spent Christmas eve with her pseudo family, and then rejoined them on the evening of Christmas. But, she spent Christmas day with her family. She was looking forward to being a part of the entire Bridgerton Christmas this year, and every year for the rest of her life. She and Colin would celebrate with Prudence and Pip the day after Christmas. It was going to be the best holiday ever. 

“Colin and I are both looking forward to the holidays,” Penelope smiled. “Our first Christmas together, and then our wedding quickly to follow.”

“It sure is going to be a magical season,” Violet put an arm around Penelope and gave her a squeeze. “For all of us.”

“I can’t believe your wedding is in just a few weeks,” Francesca said, grinning. “It’s finally happening.”

“I’ve dreamed of this for so long, it’s surreal to me that it’s all coming true,” Penelope admitted. “I keep waiting for someone to wake me up.”

“You deserve this, Pen.” Fran assured her. 

“You do,” Violet agreed. “You’re going to have the most perfect wedding.”

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Colin got home from work not long after Penelope returned from shopping. They spent a few moments hugging each other hello, and catching up on their days. Colin offered to order dinner for them so that neither of them had to cook. Penelope happily agreed, and they placed an order for French food from one of their favorite places. 

“Did you find any good presents today?” Colin asked her as they cozied up on the sofa. “Any for me perhaps?”

“Oh, maybe a few,” She teased him. “Have you been a good boy this year?”

“I don’t know, have I?” He asked, tackling her with kisses. She giggled as his scruff tickled her. “Say I’ve been good, Pen.”

“Alright, alright, you’ve been a good boy this year.” She laughed. He stopped his torment, placing one last kiss on her mouth. “I actually found the cutest ornament for our tree.”

“Did you?” He asked curiously. “Shall we put it on?”

“We should.” She smiled.  

She stood up and went to grab the bag containing the ornament. She brought it over to the tree and gestured for her fiancee to join her. Colin looked at her in amusement, and then came to stand next to her. She handed him the box that the ornament was in, and asked him to open it. Curiously he did, turning over the silver bulb. She watched his face as he read what the ornament said. 

Baby Bridgerton

Arriving August 2025

“Pen,” He gasped as he realized what it said. “Are-are you?”

“I just took a test this morning,” She replied, tears growing.  “I had this made today when we went shopping. I had to be really discreet.”

“Oh my God!” He exclaimed, nearly dropping the ornament, but catching it before he did. He gently sat it down, and then lifted her into her arms. “Penelope, we’re having a baby?”

“We are,” She said as tears ran down her face. “It’s still really early, but the test was clearly positive.”

“This is the best gift you ever could have given me,” He told her as he slowly returned her to the ground. “I love you so much, Pen.”

“I love you too,” She said as he kissed her. “I can’t believe it.”

Colin dropped down to his knees, placing his hands on her belly. He couldn’t wait until she had a bump. It would be visible proof that she was carrying the child they’d created together. He placed a kiss on her belly, not caring if it was silly or not. Their baby was there. 

“Hi baby Bridgerton, I can’t wait to meet you,” Colin said. “I’m your father, and I love you so much. You and your mummy mean the whole world to me. I promise to always take care of you both, and to love you every day of my life.”

“Colin,” Penelope sobbed at his sweet words. “You’re talking to them already?”

“Of course, now hold on, let me finish,” He replied. “Sorry baby, where was I? Oh yes! I can’t wait to show you the world, and teach you how to make crepes, and read stories to you every night. We are going to spoil you rotten, little one. You are already so loved, just wait until you get here, and we can dote all over you. I love you, baby.”

He stood back up, and pulled Penelope tightly against him. Penelope’s father had been a spineless man, who didn’t always treat his family right. Colin’s father had been the best man he knew, but he’d lost him at such a young age. Colin vowed to be the best parent he could be to their children. He wanted to be active in their lives, and for them to know their parents loved them endlessly.

“You are a very good man, Colin Bridgerton,” Penelope said, lifting her head so she could see him better. “And you are going to be the best father.”

“You are going to be the best mother ever, Pen,” Colin said without any doubt. “Our kids are going to be so lucky.”

Colin leaned down and placed a sweet kiss on Penelope’s mouth. He couldn’t believe this was his life. He had the girl of his dreams, and they were going to have a family together. It was everything he could ever want and more. 

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They had decided that because she was so early on in her pregnancy, they would keep it between them until their wedding. It would be tricky, as Penelope knew her bridesmaids would try and offer her champagne. Deciding she might need some help swapping alcohol for sparkling juice, they agreed to tell one person. 

“Mother, thank you for coming for dinner,” Colin greeted as Violet walked into their home. “We’re so glad you’re here.”

“I never turned down any opportunity to see my children, or to get out of cooking.” Violet smiled. 

Since finding out two weeks ago, Penelope and Colin had gone to the doctor, and were able to get an update on their baby. They were relieved to hear that everything looked perfect. She was eight weeks along, and they were due on August 11th. They were both so excited, and they couldn’t wait to share their news in a few weeks with the rest of the family. 

“Penelope, darling you look lovely.” Violet smiled as her daughter-in-law joined them in the living room. She was wearing a green sweater and jeans, but Colin agreed, his fiancee was glowing. 

“Thank you,” Penelope smiled. “Dinner should be done soon. What do you think of our Christmas decorations?”

“Oh, your home is lovely!” Violet exclaimed. “I love how you decorated.”

“Thank you again for the box of ornaments, they worked out perfectly.” Colin said, winking at Penelope.

“I know you’ll end up with your own personal ones as the years go by, but I wanted you to have a little something for now,” Violet replied. “I’m glad you are enjoying them.”

“Colin, would you like to show your mum the ornament I got you?” Penelope asked, looking at him with a smile. Colin grinned.

“Oh, mum you’ll love it.” Colin replied. 

He got up, gently picking the ornament from the tree. After they’d finished celebrating the news, they had chosen a spot in the center of the tree for the ornament. Colin doubted any other Christmas decoration could top this one. He carefully carried it over to his mum and handed it to her.

“It matches perfectly!” She noted.

“Read what it says.” Penelope instructed, trying to keep her excitement in check.

“Alright, it says Baby Bridgerton Arriving August- wait! Baby Brigerton? You’re having a baby?” Violet asked, her eyes already wet with happy tears. Penelope nodded, also crying. “This is the best news!”

Violet embraced Penelope, kissing the top of her fifth daughter’s head. Colin watched his two favorite women embrace. He knew how important this was for Penelope. Even if she and Portia were on speaking terms, the Featherington woman was not very warm, and would never have this reaction to their news. Seeing his mum cry in happiness, and holding his wife so sweetly made Colin’s eyes water too. He joined their hug. 

“You two are going to be amazing parents,” Violet told them. “I am delighted for you.”

“Thank you, mum.” Penelope said, sniffling. “We are over the moon.”

“When did you find out?” She asked.

“A couple of weeks ago, we wanted to see a doctor before we told you, just to ensure everything was alright. Pen and the baby are perfect,” Colin grinned. “But, we are going to wait to tell everyone else until after our wedding.”

“We wanted you to know first,” Penelope added. “Because you mean so much to Colin and I, and we know you will be so special to our baby.”

“Oh, Pen,” Violet gushed, pulling Penelope back in for a hug. “I cannot wait to meet this baby.”

“Penelope might need help dodging champagne at the wedding,” Colin said. “We’ll swap her glasses with sparkling juice, but another hand would be great.”

“It’ll be my honor.” Violet replied, elated. 

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A few days later was Chrisrtmas. The countdown to the wedding was in full swing. But, for today, they focused on spending the holiday with their family. They arrived at the Bridgerton house early in the morning. They ate a light breakfast before it was time for presents.

They took turns opening gifts. It was the most fun to watch the children unwrap their gifts. Watching the magic of Christmas through the kids was something else entirely. Colin and Penelope couldn’t wait to have their own child with them the next year. 

As they sat, snuggled up under a blanket on the sofa, they couldn't help but think of their Christmas miracle. Neither had expected to get pregnant so fast, but they couldn’t have been happier. It was the best gift they could have ever wished for. 

“Colin, if you keep placing your hands on my belly, someone will notice,” Penelope whispered to him. “Your siblings have eyes like hawks.”

“I’m sorry, I can’t help it.” He replied, sheepishly. “But, my hands are under the blanket, no one can see right now.”

“I suppose I can’t argue with that.” She smiled, snuggling closer into him. Truthfully, she loved that he was always touching her belly. He was going to be very attentive to her and their baby. That wasn’t a question. She had always known he’d be an excellent father, obsessed with their kids much like he was with her. They would be so lucky. 

“I love you, and our little present.” Colin said, kissing the top of her head. 

“I love you too, and our present.” She smiled. 

“ It’s your last Christmas as a Featherington.” Colin reminded her.

“In a week, I’ll be your wife.” She grinned happily. “I can’t wait.”

“Me either, my love.” He told her happily. “Merry Christmas, Pen. This has been the best one of my life.”

“Me too, honey. Merry Christmas.”

“Under the mistletoe, watching the fire glow, and telling me, "I love you".

Just being in your arms takes me back to that little farm where every wish comes true.”

Chapter Text

January:

Don't read the last page, but I stay when it's hard, or it's wrong, or we're making mistakes

I want your midnights but I'll be cleaning up bottles with you on New Year's Day

Penelope was finally marrying the love of her life. For years she’d dreamed of this day, and now it was actually happening. In a few short hours she would be Mrs. Penelope Bridgerton. She could hardly believe it. All that she had ever wanted was Colin, and now he was going to be her husband. In less than a year, they’d gone from friends to getting married, but she wouldn’t change anything. This was exactly how their story was meant to go. 

The little life she was growing was a reminder of how far they had come. She’d known Colin almost her own life, and in a few months, they’d have a baby together. She couldn’t wait to watch him with their child. She knew he was going to be an amazing father. He was already a perfect husband, and they hadn’t even said their vows yet. 

“Are you ready, Pen?” Eloise broke Penelope out of her trance. The redhead smiled at her best friend and nodded. “We’re going to be sisters!”

“Can you believe it?” Penelope asked in awe. 

“It’s about time you officially became a Bridgerton,” Eloise grinned. “It certainly took Colin long enough.”

Penelope let out a laugh. It was just the two of them in the bridal suite. Everyone else had already moved to get ready to go down the aisle, but Penelope had requested a moment alone with her best friend. Eloise had been by her side for so long, and she wanted to tell her about the baby privately. She’d talked to Colin and he’d agreed, Eloise should know. He encouraged Penelope to share the special moment with El, just the two of them. 

“Before we join the others, there’s something I wanted to ask you,” Penelope began, suddenly nervous. “You’re my maid of honor, but how would you feel about also becoming a Godmother?”

“Well, duh, as soon as you and Colin reproduce, I’m up for the job.” Eloise said with a smile.

“El, you’re up for the job.” Penelope stated. Eloise’s mouth dropped open. “I’m pregnant.”

“Oh my god!” Eloise exclaimed in excitement. Her hand fell to Penelope’s belly. “Pen!”

“I know,” Penelope said, growing tearful. “We didn’t tell anyone we were trying. After that day you came over, and we thought I was pregnant, I was surprised by how sad I was when I wasn’t. Colin and I decided to stop preventing it, and just let it happen. And, well, it did.”

“My best friend’s having a baby,” Eloise sniffled. “With my brother, which is only mildly horrifying. Getting a little niece out of it definitely outweighs the ick of you having sex with my brother.”

Penelope let out a chuckle. 

“We don’t know if it’s a niece or a nephew,” Penelope said. “We’ll be delighted either way.”

“Oh, it’s a girl, I’m calling it. Auntie tuition and all.” Eloise grinned. 

“Colin also thinks it’s a girl,” Penelope said. “Your mum thinks it’s a boy.”

“Mum knows?!” Eloise exclaimed.

“Yeah, sorry. We were going to wait until after the wedding to tell anyone, but I knew I might need some help avoiding champagne. Plus I’ve gotten to the stage where I’m nauseous pretty often, and thought I haven’t puked yet, if it happened, I’d need someone to cover for me.” 

“I guess that’s okay,” Eloise teased. “I can’t believe there’s a baby in there right now.”

Eloise rubbed her hand over Pen’s belly again. It made Penelope teary, which she blamed on the hormones. Something about knowing she was carrying her best friend’s niece or nephew made Penelope extra emotional. Her children, regardless of if she had married Colin or someone else, would have always called Eloise their aunt, but this was something more. It was like a tie that bound them by both love and DNA. 

“You’re going to be an amazing God mother, El.” Penelope said.

“And you’re going to be an amazing mum.” Eloise said. 

The pair exchanged a tight embrace. A year ago, Eloise had blessed Pen and Colin’s relationship, and now she was going to stand with them as they exchanged their vows. Penelope could hardly believe how much her life had changed in a year, but having Eloise by her side was something she could always count on. 

“Let’s make you a Bridgerton.” Eloise smiled. 

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Colin was holding his wife in his arms. His. Wife. The words sounded so sweet. They had been married just moments ago in front of everyone they loved, and it was perfect. Colin’s only request for the day had been to get a few moments of privacy after the ceremony and before the reception. No cameras, no one else present, just him and his bride. 

“Hello, husband,” She smiled sweetly at him. “How do you feel?”

“Like I’m floating,” He grinned. “You are my wife, Pen!”
“We’re married!” She exclaimed, excitedly. He laughed, and lifted her off the ground, spinning her in his arms. “Colin!”

“I can’t contain my happiness!” He replied. She giggled. “I love you so much!” 

“I love you too,” She said. “Kiss me?”

“Always.”

He leaned down and placed a kiss on her lips. Her arms encircled his neck, drawing him in closer. He had to remind himself that they only had a few minutes before they needed to take pictures. And, he didn’t want to ruin her hair or makeup before then. His family would surely know what they’d been up to, and the teasing would never cease. 

“I want to say something to you before we return,” Colin said. “I love you with everything I am, everything I've been, and everything I hope to be. I love you with my past, and I love you for my future. I love you for the children we'll have and for the years we'll have together. I love you for every one of my smiles and even more, for every one of your smiles. I am so happy to be your husband, and I will spend the rest of my life loving you with all my heart.”

“Colin,” She said tearfully. “You are perfect. Truly, I couldn’t love you more if I tried. You are my soulmate, my best friend, my everything. Thank you for loving me, and for giving me this wonderful life. I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life loving you with my whole heart.”

They spent a few more moments basking in their marriage. They were so in love with each other, that they both felt they could burst from it. Going from best friends to husband and wife had felt so easy. It was meant to be, and they knew they would have a very happy marriage together. 

Soon, Violet knocked on the door, letting them know Felicity was ready to start taking pictures. Reluctantly, they rejoined their family. They would have plenty of time to be alone later. They weren’t the only ones who were elated by their wedding, and they did want to celebrate with their family. 

Felicity worked her magic. She took some pictures of the bridal party with Penelope and Colin. She switched to the groom’s party next. They had given her a list of a few pictures they wanted, and she made sure she got each one of them. They took pictures with each member of the family, wanting to savor the day with the ones they loved. She took them into a ballroom, and got some shots of the two of them alone. The last picture Colin and Penelope had asked her for a picture of the entire group. She had them all set up and just before she snapped the photo she said:

             “Everyone say, Pen is pregnant!” Just as the couple had asked her to do. 

Some of the family started to repeat her, while others realized what she said right away. The reactions were caught on camera, making it so they could always look back on the moment. Felicity continued to snap the pictures as the family quickly embraced the couple. 

“When did you find out?” Prudence asked, holding her little sister tightly, Phillipa also joining the hug. 

“Just a few weeks ago,” Penelope replied. “We’ve been so excited to share the happy news.”

“When are you due?” Kate asked. 

“August,” Colin answered. “We’ll have an end of summer baby.”

“This is amazing, truly,” Anthony grinned. “Congratulations, you two are going to be amazing parents.”

“We can’t wait to meet your little one,” Sophie said. “Our babies are going to be so close!”

“Can I feel your belly?” Daphne asked, placing her hand on the bump that didn’t exist yet. “I could cry right now, this is the best news ever!” 

“You already know how over the moon I am, but I’ll say it again. This is the best news,” Violet said, cupping Penelope’s face. “Nothing makes me happier than knowing two of the kindest, most caring people I know are having a baby.”

“You’ll definitely break the Portia cycle,” Eloise chuckled before turning to Pen’s sisters. “No offense.”

“None taken,” Phillipa replied. “Besides, Penelope really does deserve the world.”

The family continued to congratulate them for another few minutes before it was time to head to the reception. They hadn’t invited many others aside from the family, but some friends and extended family members were waiting for them. Penelope and Colin had wanted to have their family receive the news in a special way, and they couldn’t have asked for anything better.

They entered the room, and greeted the rest of their guests. They went around, thanking them all for coming to celebrate their special day. Everyone was so happy to see the couple married. It had been such a long time coming, and everyone knew they’d end up together eventually. Most of the people had watched them dance around each other for years, so seeing them exchange vows had been so magical.

“Shall we dance now, Mrs. Bridgerton?” Colin asked his wife. She grinned and nodded her head. 

They had discussed songs for their first dance for weeks. Nothing had sounded right to them. They had been listening to her Taylor Swift playlist one morning when You’re In Love shuffled on. Colin had looked at her, smiling brightly, and they both knew it was their song. The lyrics had been too perfect. 

“Strange look on his face pauses, then says, You're my best friend

And you knew what it was he is in love

You can hear it in the silence, silence, you

You can feel it on the way home, way home, you

You can see it with the lights out, lights out

You are in love, true love

And so it goes

You two are dancing in a snow globe, 'round and 'round

And he keeps the picture of you in his office downtown

And you understand now why they lost their minds and fought the wars

And why I've spent my whole life tryin' to put it into words”

Colin held her close as they swayed to the music. She couldn’t stop smiling up at her husband. He was no better, he was almost certain his mouth was now permanently curved upward. How could they not be happy? They were getting their own fairytale ended. Nothing could be more exciting than that. 

“Are you sure you’re ready to spend the rest of your life with me?” Colin asked, teasingly.

“It’s a little late to change my mind now,” She teased back. “I guess it’s a good thing I am very much in love with you.”

“I love you so much,” He said. “I can’t wait to get home.”

“Why, Mr. Bridgerton, are you planning on seducing me?” She asked. 

“You can count on it.” He vowed. 

After the song finished, they danced with their guests. Colin shared a dance with his mum, which had everyone tearful. The bridal party came out together, and jammed out to a few songs. Soon, the reception was coming to a close. Colin and Penelope were having one last private dance while the guests prepared their exit. 

They’d picked an instrumental version of You Belong With Me by Taylor Swift. They both loved the song, and found it fitting for them, but they liked the idea of having just instruments play so they could truly soak in the moment. 

Their guests saw them off after, holding up sparklers for them to walk through. It was a perfect end to the perfect day, and the start of the rest of their lives. 

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

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You belong with me, always and forever. Today I married the love of my life, and my very best friend. This was the best start to the New Year, and I can’t wait to spend the rest of my life loving you. Here’s to us! I love you, @PenelopeBridgerton ❤️

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@Pip_Finch Welcome to the family, brother! 

@MsFrannieMusic I’m crying! 🥹

@MichaelaStirlingLove Congrats, you two are going to have such a beautiful life together ❤️

@Gregory.lol Welcome to the fam officially, Pen! 

@SophBridge Love you both so much ❤️

@DaffBassett my favorite couple is finally married 🥹❤️

@MamaViolet Oh, my loves! There truly are no words to tell you how happy I am for you. Congratulations, may you have many, many happy years together. I love you both so much ❤️

@PenelopeBridgerton My sweet husband 😍 I love you so much. Thank you for choosing me, and for loving me in ways I have never known before. I am so excited to start the next chapter of our life together 😘

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Posted by- @PenelopeBridgerton 

It’s always been you. My dreams came true today. I married my soulmate! I love you so much, and there are simply no words to describe how lucky I am to be your wife @ColinBridgerton ❤️

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@EloiseMarie OMG! THE NAME CHANGES 🥹 My bestie just became my sister!! I love you guys!! ❤️ 

@A.Bridge Pen is finally a Bridgerton!!!

@ItsHy_ The most beautiful bride 🥺❤️

@KateSharmaBridgerton Congratulations to the sweetest couple I know 😘

@PrudenceJoy My baby sister is a wife!! ❤️

@BenedictBridgertonArt Welcome to the family, sis! ❤️

@MamaViolet My darling girl, it’s about time you officially joined the family. The way you two are looking at each other truly shows how much you love each other. I don’t think anyone hoped for this as much as I did. I am delighted to have you as a daughter! ❤️

@ColinBridgerton My wife 😍 I love you so much, Pen. I will show you everyday just how much I adore you, and how much I cherish you. Happy wedding day, love ❤️

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Colin insisted on carrying his bride over the threshold. She tried to protest, but he would hear none of it. It was a tradition. He gently lifted her into his arms, cradling her close to him. He carried her their bedroom, and laid her on the bed. 

“Wife, as much as I love this dress,” He smirked. “I need to get it off of you.”

“Well, my husband, you are far too over-dressed as well.” She replied. 

Colin helped her stand, and then unzipped her dress. He got her undressed quickly. Then, he helped her take the pins out of her hair. He loved the way her hair cascaded over her shoulder. He placed soft kisses on the bare skin of her neck. 

They worked together to remove his tux. In her head, she thought they should hang up their clothes, but his mouth was moving down her chest, and all other thoughts quickly disappeared. Once they were both fully out of their clothes, they laid back down on the bed together. Colin pulled her against his body, kissing her.

“I love you,” She said against his mouth. “So much.”

“I love you too,” He smiled. “So much.”

He ran his hands up her thigh. She groaned as he reached her center, unsurprisingly finding her already very wet for him. He ran his finger through her heat, earning moans of approval from her. He added a second finger, quickly finding the spot that always drove her mad. She moved her hip against his hand, trying to get friction to her clit. He smirked, knowing what she wanted. 

“Colin,” She whined. “Please.”

“One second love, I’ll give you what you need.”

He gently spread her legs apart, shimming down the bed so that he was nestled between her thighs. She knew what was coming, and tugged at his short hair, urging him to go on. He licked her center, and she moaned above him. He finally took her nub in his mouth, returning his fingers inside of her. She was withering in a few moments, and as much as he wanted to take her over the edge, his need to be inside her was stronger.

“Colin,” She cried when he stopped. “I was so close.”

“I’m gonna take you there, love.” He promised, moving back up her body to kiss her.

“I can return the favor.” She said, reaching for his member.

“I want to be inside you, Pen.” He replied. “My beautiful wife.”

“I want that too,” She smiled, cupping his cheek. “Make love to me, husband.”

With that, he inserted himself inside her. Her heat welcomed him home. They both sighed in pleasure as he bottomed out inside her. She clawed at his back, wanting him to be as close as possible. Their hips were touching, and for a moment they stayed that way, relishing in the feeling of making love as husband and wife. 

After a moment, they both could no longer stand it. He started to thrust in and out of her. She moved to match his pace. It was heaven like this. They were both reaching for the precipice. He wanted them to let go together. He moved his finger to rub her clit. She felt herself shatter, and he followed quickly behind, her name on his lips. He finished inside her, and then collapsed on top of her, breathing her in. 

“That was perfect.” She told him, running her fingers through his hair. 

“ You are perfect,” He said, kissing her. “And you are all mine.”

“And you are mine,” She smiled at him. “Wanna go again?”

“Give me five minutes,” He smiled at her. “Maybe ten.”

She laughed below him. He hugged her close to him. 

“I love you, Mrs. Bridgerton.”

“I love you, Mr. Bridgerton.”

“I will hold onto you”

Chapter Text

One Year Later:

Take me home where we met so many years before. We'll rock our babies on that very front porch.

After all this time, you and I.

It had been one year since Penelope and Colin had become husband and wife. She still couldn’t believe it. Two years ago, they confessed their feelings to each other, and now they had a family together. It was everything she had ever wanted. She found reality was even better than her wildest dreams these days. 

“Allie, look at dada,” Colin was trying to get their 5 month old to smile at him. “Come on, give me a smile. Allison Violet, I just want a little smile, please.”

“Als, are you giving daddy a hard time?” Penelope asked, announcing her presence to the pair. 

“Hey, you’re supposed to be sleeping in!” Colin said.

“Sorry, I heard you two down here, and decided to join you,” Penelope said, kissing him good morning. “Happy anniversary.”

“Happy anniversary, love.” He smiled.

“Allie, can you give us a smile?” Penelope asked their daughter, who in turn gave her mother the biggest gummy-mouthed grin. 

“Unbelievable! I’ve been trying to get her to smile for the camera for ten minutes,” He laughed. “It’s okay, Als. Mommy makes me smile too.”

“You are a sap, Colin Bridgerton.” Penelope told her husband. 

Colin pulled her into his arms. They sat together watching their baby happily play in front of them. Life truly could not be any sweeter. The past year had flown by, and it had given them the greatest gift. 

Allison Bridgerton was the spitting image of her mother, but when she smiled, everyone could see her father poking through. They’d been blessed with a very happy baby, who had them wrapped around her little finger. The entire family adored Allison. 

“Mum said brunch is at 10, so we should probably get ready soon,” Penelope said. “You got up with Allie, so you can shower first. I’ll snuggle our girl and drink my tea.”

“I had some croissants and pastries delivered from the bakery downtown,” Colin told her. “They’re in the kitchen for you.”

“You truly are the best husband, did you know that?” 

“I like the reminder,” He smirked. “You two all set for a few minutes? Do you need anything before I jump in the shower?”

“We’re all set, thank you,” She said, tilting her head up so he could kiss her. “I love you.”

“I love you too, Mrs. Bridgerton.”

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

They lost their daughter as soon as they arrived at the Bridgerton home. Violet was the first to scoop her granddaughter from her father’s arms. Soon, Anthony had taken his niece, and then Eloise claimed her. She was passed around from family member to family member. It didn’t bother Penelope or Colin, though. Their daughter was surrounded by people who loved her. 

“Penelope, when are your sisters due again?” Sophie asked. 

“Phillipa is due at the beginning of March, and Prudence is due at the end of April,” Penelope said. “I am so excited to meet them, and for Allison to have more cousins.”

“It’s crazy that all three Featherington sisters are going to be mums,” Benedict said. “Though, I never thought I’d settle down and have children, so crazier things have happened.”

“You’re a wonderful father,” Penelope assured her brother-in-law. “Charlie absolutely adores you.”

“Thanks, Pen,” Benedict smiled. “You and Col are crushing the parenting game too. Allison is the happiest baby I’ve ever met.”

“She’s pretty perfect,” Colin agreed, putting an arm around his wife. “Which unfortunately means we never get to see our own child when we’re with the family.”

“Actually, you can have her back now,” Eloise said, bringing the little girl to Colin. “She needs changing, and Auntie Eloise’s duties only go so far.”

“I’m on it,” Penelope laughed, taking Allie into her arms. “She’s due for feeding anyway.”

Penelope took their daughter into the study to feed her, and change her. When she was in a fresh nappy, they snuggled up in the chair together. Allison was definitely hungry, and she made quick work of getting milk into her belly. Allie certainly had her father’s appetite. 

It didn’t take long for the infant to finish drinking. Penelope closed her shirt, and brought the, now sleepy, girl up. She rubbed her back until she burped. As much as Penelope loved being near their family, moments like this were ones she cherished most. She took a few extra minutes to love on her daughter, knowing she’d nap, and then be taken by another family member. 

“Look at you, my beautiful girl,” Penelope cooed, lifting Allison so she could kiss her chubby baby cheek. “You’re mummy’s sweet peanut, aren’t you.”

            “My two favorite people.” Colin said from the doorway, snapping a picture with his phone.  “Can I join, or would you prefer some one-on-one time?”

“You’re always welcome,” Penelope insisted. “Come cuddle your girls.”

Colin didn’t need to be told twice. He snuggled up with his wife and daughter on the sofa. He kissed the top of his daughter’s head, as Penelope settled the baby on her chest. Allison was quickly falling asleep. With Penelope and Allison in his arms, Colin had never felt more content. He was so lucky to be blessed with his wife and daughter. 

Their daughter was asleep a few moments later. Penelope didn’t want to move her yet, so they relished in the cuddles for a few minutes longer. She knew, though, that Allie would sleep better in the small cradle Violet kept in the study for her grandbabies. Plus, Penelope felt a little bad for hiding away during all of brunch. It was nice to see the family, and get out of the house. 

“Can you take her?” Penelope asked her husband. “I’m afraid she’ll wake up if I try and stand with her.”

Colin nodded. Expertly, he slipped his hands under the baby, and then pulled her into his arms. He carefully carried her over to the cradle, and slowly laid her down. He rubbed her back for a moment, ensuring she was still asleep, and then crept back quietly. He gave Pen a thumbs up. They turned on the baby camera, and very slowly slipped out of the study. 

“She’s asleep,” Colin told his family as they returned to their family. “Poor girl was very tired.”

“It’s from all the growing she’s doing!” Violet exclaimed. “I swear I saw her a few days ago, and it already looks like she’s gotten bigger.”

“She is growing fast,” Penelope frowned. “I don’t like it.”

Violet let out a chuckle, and hugged her daughter-in-law. She understood all too well how it felt for children to grow up. She suspected, though, that Allie wouldn’t be the only child they’d have. She’d be surprised if they didn’t announce a pregnancy before Allison’s first birthday. She had never seen a couple take to parenthood with such ease. It was like they were meant to be parents, and she couldn’t wait for them to expand their family. 

“Pen, when is your book release?” Francesca asked. 

“It’s in May,” Penelope told them. “We’re going to have a little get together at the local bookstore for it. I’ll send everyone the details when I know more.” 

“I’m sure Lady Whistledown will be a number one best seller,” Colin beamed. “The author is exceptional.”

“You’re too much, Colin,” Daphne laughed. “You still act like a newlywed husband, but you’ve been married for a whole year.”

“Oh, yes, happy anniversary!” Kate said, excitedly. 

“If you want a date night, let me know,” Hyacinth offered. “I’ll gladly take Allie.”

“No way, I’m her godmother,” Eloise huffed. “I get dibs.”

“El, you didn’t even want to change her earlier,” Daphne reminded her younger sister. “I’m not sure you should be alone with her. Simon and I will take her.”

“No fighting over this,” Anthony chastised his siblings. “Besides, if anyone is watching Allison, it’s me and Kate. We get dibs as the oldest siblings.”

“Actually, it’s neither of you,” Colin told them. “We have a sitter already.”

“Mum asked ages ago.” Penelope added, smiling lovingly at Violet.

“It seems I get dibs, darlings.” Violet grinned. 

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Violet had come over to their house the next night so Penelope and Colin could celebrate their anniversary. They were nervous to leave their daughter for the first time for longer than a few minutes, but they knew she couldn’t be in better hands. Violet would never let anything happen to Allison, and the couple really did want to celebrate their anniversary. They were going to dinner, and a show. 

“I can’t believe we’ve been married for a year already,” Penelope said as they ate dinner. “It’s crazy. In some ways it feels like we’ve been together forever, and in other ways it seems like just yesterday.”

“I’ve never been happier than I am right now, Pen,” Colin told her. “Marrying you, starting a family together, publishing books within the same year, all of it has been everything to me. If my purpose in life is to love a woman as great as you, then I will be a very fulfilled man indeed.”

“Colin, I love you so much,” She gushed. “Thank you for giving me this life. I didn’t think it was possible for me, but now I can’t imagine not having it. Our family is everything to me.”

“I love you, Penelope. I always have, and I always will.”

“It’s always been you for me, Colin.” She said.

 He leaned over and kissed her. Sometimes, there were just no words to describe what one was feeling, and kissing her was the only way he could communicate it. They were going to live a very happy life together. 

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Posted by- @PenelopeBridgerton 

My whole world in one picture. A year ago, I became Colin Bridgerton’s wife. Now, we get to celebrate our anniversary with our perfect daughter. Happy one year married, my love. Here’s to many more years of our love. I still can’t believe you’re mine. I will hold onto you forever, @ColinBridgerton 😘

Comments:

@MamaViolet Happy anniversary, you two! Thank you for letting me hang out with sweet Allie girl while mommy and daddy got some much needed couple time. Love you all so very much ❤️

@ItsHy_ Stop it I’ll actually cry 🥺 The way you look at him!! I win the ship wars for real 💕

@A.Bridge Happy anniversary, Pen and Colin! 

@PrudenceJoy I can’t believe it’s already been a year! So happy for you, Pen. You and your little family deserve the world 😘

@SophBridgerton What a sweet family 😍

@DaffBassett Love you three so much ❤️

@Gregory.lol Happy anni guys! 

@KateSharmaBridgerton Happy anniversary! I know Mama Vi is on baby duty this time, but anytime you want a date night, we are always down to watch that precious girl 😉❤️

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Posted by- @ColinBridgerton 

I don’t know how I got so lucky. These two girls are everything to me. Happy anniversary, Penelope Anne. I hope you know how much I adore you. Here’s to never taking a single day with you for granted. I love you, and our sweet little girl more than anything. I can’t wait to see where life takes us next @Penelope Bridgerton ❤️

@EloiseMarie I know I give you shit, but thank you for taking such good care of our girls ❤️

@Pip_Finch I can’t wait for our daughters to be best friends 🥹 Happy anniversary, love you guys!

@BenedictBridgertonArt Happy anniversary!! ❤️

@ItsHy_ In Polin we trust 🫡

@ItsHy_ also look at Allie’s chubby lil cheeks 😥

@MsFrannieMusic AWWW my sweet little niece, and beautiful sister. Love you guys so so much ❤️

@MamaViolet Seeing you two become parents has been the greatest gift. Allison is so lucky to have you both. Happy anniversary, my loves. Allie and I will see you when you get home 😘 

HOLDONTOTHEMEMORIES

Violet’s prediction hadn’t been far off. A month after Allison turned a year old, Colin and Penelioe told everyone they were expecting again. Elliot George Bridgerton was born eight months later. Two years later came Henry Thomas, who Penelope claimed would be their last  baby. No one believed her for a moment. 

“I can’t believe I let you get me pregnant again,” Penelope cried as a contraction hit her. “Henry was supposed to be the last one.”

“Oh so it’s my fault?” Colin asked, teasingly. “You were a very active participant, love.”

“Let me blame you right now,” She pleaded. “It makes me feel better.”

“Whatever you need, honey.” He assured her, pressing a kiss to her sweaty brow. 

“Mrs. Bridgerton, we’re going to need you to push on the next contraction, alright?” The doctor said. Penelope nodded, ready for this to be over. 

When the next contraction hit, moments later, Penelope beared down. Colin held her close, whispering encouraging words into her ear. She sobbed as she slowly brought their baby into the world. After what felt like hours of pushing, when really it was only 30 minutes, their daughter was born. She let the whole world know she arrived.

“Congratulations, it’s a healthy little girl,” The doctor said as he laid their daughter on her mother. “She’s got a set of lungs on too.”

“Shhh, it’s okay little one. Mummy has you, everything is going to be alright.” Penelope cooed to the newborn. 

“She’s got your eyes,” Colin commented tearfully. “Oh Pen, she’s so beautiful.”

“Thank you,” Penelope cried, looking lovingly at her husband. “For convincing me we should try for one more. She’s the perfect final piece to our family.”

“Yes she is,” Her husband agreed before giving her a kiss. “Welcome to the world, Rosalynn Jane Bridgerton.”

“Our sweet little Rosie,” Penelope smiled, she leaned down and kissed the newborn. 

A little while later, once they were settled, the family came to visit. Violet brought Rosie’s older siblings in first to meet their little sister. Allison has just turned seven, Elliot was five, and Henry was three. They all instantly fell in love with their new sibling. 

“She’s so little, momma.” Allison said. Colin was helping Allie hold the newest addition. The oldest was sitting next to her mum on the hospital bed while her brothers sat at the end of the bed, their grandmother standing close by. 

“You were this little once too, Als,” Colin said, ruffling her red curls. “It seems like just yesterday.”

“Hi Rosie, I’m your big sister,” Allie smiled down at her new sibling. “I love you already.”

Colin and Penelope shared a smile. They were so happy with their family. They had taken a long time to get together, but everything was worth it. This was exactly what they’d both wanted for so long, and now they had it. All those years of pining and wishing led them to right now with their four perfect children. 

“I love you.” Colin whispered to his wife. 

“I love you so much.” Penelope said back.

They couldn’t wait to make their next memory with their family. 

I’ 'll be eighty-seven; you'll be eighty-nine

I'll still look at you like the stars that shine

In the sky, oh my my my

All Taylor songs used in this fic:

-New Year’s Day x2

-Dress

-Daylight

-Call it What You Want To

-Afterglow

-Style

-Lover

-So High School 

-Invisible String

-Sweet Nothing 

-Peace

-Christmas Tree Farm

-Paper Rings

-You’re In Love

-You Belong With Me

-Mary’s Song