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This is just a repost chapter! For some reason, I accidentally deleted the first chapter thinking it was a draft one. My bad 

A happy couple that no one would one would expect dance in the ball room. A sliver haired half-elf, cursed to look like the witch who nearly destroyed the world and boy who has pitch black hair and eyes that spewed evil, both cursed in their own way smiling as they stare at each other and dance the night away.

{The end. Arc 4: completed}

The theatre erupts in applause. Everyone began standing up and clapping for the boy’s “happy ending”. Some were crying, others smiling in admiration, and some whistling as the scene

Garfiel : That’s our captain!! Enduring all that horror and still achieving his goal in the end. Not even the great rabbit could stop him and he’s accomplishments will spread across the land.

He was jumping on his seat all while making the biggest smile he could make. To see the man he respect the most overcoming challenges and saving everyone proved to him once again why he’s “the captain”.

Otto : Your right Garfiel. Sir Natsuki has done a lot for each one. He truly is a noble man but even so I wish he would stop making fun of me. Standing slightly above his chair, slugging his arms down and a fake pout fate.

[Thinking: And he’s a true friend. I will repay my debt to him even if takes me my entire life. Not just because I’m a merchant who pays his debts but because we’re friends.]

He sat back on his chair and a simple smile, thinking of how grateful he is to have a friend like Subaru

Having already standing up, a pink hair oni girl made a sound of someone who disagrees with she’s just seen and cross her arms

Ram : Hmph! Barusu you pervert. Taking a chance to seduce miss Emilia is unbefitting of one who claims to be her knight. I guess when we get back I’ll have to teach you a lesson on how to be a true gentleman.

Ram, ever the tsundere, could never simply compliment the raven-hair boy but even with her insult, everyone knew what she truly meant. Her and Subaru have a brother-sister type of bond where they wouldn’t say what they meant but could feel the other’s thoughts and emotions.

She then looks back at the screen and whispers:

Ram : But with that said, Thank you. Thank you for saving me, my sister and my master.

A whisper only heard by Garfield, her sister, her master, reinhard, Crusch, the cat trio, felix and surprisingly Priscilla. All had the same smile as they heard those words.

With that said she makes a small smile and sits back down

Rem crying over the scene on the screen while hugging her hero’s right arm could not help but think:

Rem: [Thinking: My hero. You did all that, suffered through all that and still was able to keep that smile that I so love. You protected not only me but, miss Beatrice, little Petra and miss Federica. I’m sorry you had to suffer all that. I hurt you, I tortured you and I even killed you yet you still came and saved me. You melted my heart and allowed me to begin living again. I am unworthy of your love. Someone who hurts their lover and also places such a burden on them isn’t worthy of being their partner. I know I hurt you and I don’t know if you have truly forgiven me but if you allow me to, I will give you my full heart. I’ll be someone worthy of adopting your sir name and your future child. I won’t Emilia show me up .]

She wipes her tears away a look at the screen with confidence.

Emilia looks at the screen with rivers made of tears falling from her eyes.

Emilia : You saved me yet again. Ever since we’ve met you have been there for me. At my lowest, when I was in trouble, when I was sad or lonely you were there. You cared for me, risked and died to save me and I all I could do was give to a simple lap pillow and no answer to your question but that’s over. I’m sorry for all the trouble I’ve caused you.

She then wraps her arms around the unconscious boy and cries on his chest.

Emilia : I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry. Sorry for being useless, sorry for never helping, sorry for being a pain, sorry for abandoning you, sorry for causing your suffering. After watching your journey , I know with full confidence that I truly do love you my knight. I will change for you. I will prove to you and to myself that I can be a capable woman. One that is worthy of being your lover, one that worthy of being the queen and one that can protect you as you’ve done for me. I love you, I truly, TRULY do so please wake up you dunderhead.

She lets out a small laugh as she gets off Subaru and returns to her seat. She looks at her unconscious knight and gives a kiss to his cheek and smiles as she watches the credits.

Beatrice wraps her chest after Emilia and begin crying while looking up at her contractor

Beatrice : Betty is sorry I suppose. I should’ve done more, try to help you more but betty was so lost in her grief that she couldn’t even do that. You kept coming back enlisting my help but I only hurt you in fact. Caused you unbelievable amounts of suffering and trauma. Betty isn’t worthy of her contractor but will do all in her power to help you now. Betty only needs you, no one else so please wake up so you can scold Betty for all her wrongdoings.

She cries while shoving her face deeper into his stomach begging for him to wake. She wants to be there for him when he’s happy, sad or stressed. She wants to be for him everyday so she can help him with his mental and physical condition.

Crusch, who sat next to the boy could only stare at him with joy.

Crusch : You did so much for your friends. So much for me. Died over and over again for our happiness is simply crazy. How could you not think of yourself? You’re a true warrior and an amazing hero. You helped me and my men defeat that damn whale that plagued our lands. I can never repay that debt but I do wonder, what happened in your childhood to cause such sorrow? While I do get the gist of it I want to hear it from you. Once you wake up I’ll invite you to my mansion so we can talk in private.

She holds her hand near her chest and blushes thinking about what they’ll talk about once he wakes up.

Petra held her hands together and as she  cries while looking at the screen.

Petra : Subaru you truly are amazing. You did all that and now you’re able to live your dream. I hope you’re truly happy because you deserve it. I’ll try to become a woman in which you can rely on and maybe allow to be your future wife.

She blushes at the last statement and walks to the unconscious boy and whispers

Petra : I won’t lose to them.

As she giggles and heads back to Frederica.

Frederica looks a the screen with a smile upon her face. After a bit she stands up a bows to the unconscious young man

Frederica: Subaru Natsuki, thank you for saving us. For saving my brother and little Petra I owe you a debt I can never repay so I’ll all do all I can do help you on your journey. Again thank you.

She sits back down and begins chatting with Petra

Roswaal continuous to stare and the screen with his signature smile.

Roswaal : [ Thinking: So that’s how you became the knight who fights against fate. I thought you were a simple boy with a power I could use to achieve my dream but you were a true warrior worthy to be my rival. But don’t think just because you’ve won this time that I’ll give up. I will revive my master and get my happy ending. Let’s see if you can stick to your words. The game is still on].

The clown wanted to say that final sentence out loud but realized that had he done so, some could use that as more evidence for his execution. A green haired warrior looked back and could simply tell Roswaal was thinking of his next plan and glared at him with a stare that would kill normal knights.

Roswaal thus gave a sinister smile that matched her stare as the 2 have a begin there mind battle, trying to figure out what’s the next one’s move.

Felt having tears in her eyes begins thinking

Felt:[ Thinking: Big bro you did all that while I was stuck in that crappy mansion. You died over and over again, some to those who you call friends. I cannot just stand by and continue to let this to happen. You may be my big bro but I’ll to protect you from those sinners even though I’m not that much better. I don’t want to ruin your happiness but just taking you to my home but I can at least provide some certain of communication between the camps just in case something happens. I will save you just as you’ve saved me.]

As Felt is thinking of ways to help her bro, a certain red hair knight using his divine protections could feel her emotions and thoughts and smiled at the idea of helping his friend

As the stare battle continues, the knights & warriors of the theatre all simultaneously bowed there head to the knight on the screen saying:

All in Union: We thank you for your sacrifice and contribution to Lugunica, knight of Emilia, Subaru Natsuki.

As they bowed, they all had different thoughts.

Reinhard : [ Thinking: Subaru Natsuki, a true man among men. One who does not win with his gift but his knowledge, he influence and he’s will. A true hero that all should aspire to be and hopefully one day I may be worthy of being your friend].

Felix : [Thinking: Subaru Natsuki, throughout your journey you have come across unimaginable horrors that I know still plague you to this day. If you would allow me to, I will do all that I can heal your wounds and mental scars. I may not be able to heal all of them but I can lessen your pain. And maybe I can earn your forgiveness].

Felix begin staring at his hands, the same hands that boils his friend’s blood. While it was necessary to kill him, maybe he could have found a less painful way to subdue his friend. Felix then begins tearing up after recalling it

Julius : [Thinking: A true knight. That’s what you are Subaru Natsuki. You saved almost everyone here multiple times and have made a name for yourself within a year. One whose very presence uplifts the spirits of all and one who does not waver to help others. To call myself the best knight would be an insult to your journey so I bestow to you that title. I know that I am unworthy of such an action as I have hurt and even killed you. I am unworthy of being your friend but maybe one day I can repent and we can have that talk you wanted to have all that time ago].

He recalls Subaru’s death at his hands and begins tearing up.

Julius: For whatever it’s worth, I am truly sorry. He says with a shaky voice as he’s about to cry.

Wilhelm:[Thinking: A warrior, a simple boy, a knight, a lover, a survivor. That’s what you are. A simple boy who got transported to this world and has faced obstacle after obstacle. Even after all you’ve seen you continue to walk forward and I have nothing but respect for you. Once we get out of here I have a question that I would like you to think about. You without a parent or parental figure are in desperate needs, so will take this old man as a grandfather? I hope you think it over clearly as I would love for you to be my grandson].

Mimi:[Thinking: Thank you for saving my lover Subaru Natsuki ].

She then begins starring at her beloved as he gives his “Brotto” a good old Nugie while Otto tries to get out of his grip. She smiles as she her future husband having fun

Hetaro : [Thinking: I could really learn from you on how to be a better protector for my family. But I don’t think I should take in everything ].

A small giggle is heard from him as he’s recalling about all the funny Subaru and Ram bits

Tivey : [Thinking: Thanks for everything you’ve done for us big bro. Now I wanna go home and rest ]

Tivey then begins imaging her bed and begins drooling which Hetaro would call her out later on.

Ricardo : [Thinking: Subaru bro you so amazing. Defeating 2 of the 3 great mabeast in a year and defeating a sin archbishop is simply mind-boggling. I know you definitely need a drink after what happened in sanctuary so when you wake up, let’s grab a drink, on me.]

Sitting near Julius, a merchant with violet hair smiles with thinking:

Anastasia : [Thinking: Subaru you are an interesting fellow. A boy from another world with knowledge of things we cannot even comprehend is a literal dream for any merchant but even with my need to know everything, I still am impressed with you. While we may not have the best start, I promise on my honour as a Hoshin to mend our relationship and earn your trust to share your juicy secrets with me. And don’t worry, I’ll pay you happily for your efforts. I think I should discuss this with Emilia rather than that clown. Od knows what that teacher lover is thinking about].

She shows a little at the opportunity that has landed in front of her

In the back we see a certain flame princess stare down at the boy.

Priscilla : [Thinking: A clown such as you should seen himself in a higher light. No mere solider could accomplish the feats you’ve done and yet you see yourself as unworthy. Truly detestable. Such a mindset fit for a commoner but do not fret. I shall take you into my home and show you the true meaning of power and this rats can cry all they want but in the end you will be mine because this entire world is my property ].

“Al, I want him” she said as she begins fanning herself while having a confident smirk. A smirk as if she’s already won.

Al next to his princess simply sighs at her request.

Al : [Thinking: Well bro looks like we’ll be seeing each other real soon. Once she has you in her sights, she won’t let you go but at least you’ll be safe here unlike those incompetent people you call friends ].

He remembers all the suffering his bro had to endure because of his camp’s stupidity. Not even a decade could heal all of his brother’s wounds and all he wants now is to keep his bro safe.

After the credits finished, the lights turned on and people began discussing with each other. The 3 camps, Emilia, crusch and felt camps surround the boy and begin discussing ways to help and reward the boy for his action when suddenly

Hey I know you’re glad that it’s over but it actually isn’t

A voice that all in the theatre could recognize as it is the one who trapped them all here and showed them the truth.

Emilia: What do you mean director? Didn’t you say arc 4 was the most recent. After this, I cannot remember anything unusual happening until our trip to Priestella

You are somewhat correct. While the one year span between Sanctuary and Priestella did help the boy out in his recovery, it wasn’t all smooth and as you call know by now, your memories shouldn’t always be trusted.

Everybody beginning understanding what the director meant. The boy’s hell isn’t over yet and from the previous arcs, the events that current during the year span may top the tragedies that occurred in the past.

Everyone begins shaking slightly at the thought of what happened. “Did he die again?”, “Did we fail him again?”, “How many times did he suffer and we not notice?”. These questions and many more went through every member of the half-elf’s camp except a certain clown.

Rem with tears in her eyes says and an angry red aura surrounding her

Rem : So are you saying that my hero had to endure even more hardships in that year?

She begins to stand up and begins growling. The idea that her hero, her beloved may have had to suffer even more, alone when anyone could’ve help him infuriated her. She wasn’t solely getting angry with her camp members but also at herself. If she had stayed with her lover during the sloth hunt, she could’ve helped with the situation that occurred during Sanctuary and now. She felt useless but that feeling was overwhelmed with anger

Before her sister could stop her

Rem before you try to rip anyone’s throats out let me just say that the events that occurred during the 1 year span wasn’t as bad as the arcs before. In fact Subaru had began recovering during this time.

After hearing this rem along with the cast let out a small sigh as they found some relief in the directors words. They thanked Od that the boy hadn’t suffered even more due to their incompetence.

But as I said previously, his recovery wasn’t smooth selling. There were many bumps on that road and the boy’s physical and mental state is still in the gutter. Subaru would need at minimum a decade in order to fully bounce back from his journey and the world isn’t so nice to allow that

With every word that the director said, it felt like a needle piercing through their hearts. 10 years inorder to recover when the boy hadn’t been in Lugunica for even 1 proves that no sane man could’ve done what the young knight had done and with each scar that was shown, there are 10 more hidden ones beneath

Beatrice currently sitting on the lap of her contractor:

Beatrice : Betty will spend the rest of eternity helping her contractor recover if he so wishes I suppose.

A laughter could be heard from the back.

The flame princess laughs behind her fan while looking down on the cast seeing them as ants.

Priscilla : You, help him? What a joke. Maybe I should hire you as my new jester. While you may be a great spirit, you let the poor commoner die nearly as many times as the half elf. You should just relinquish the boy and allow me to handle him. He’ll be safe with me and finally begin to care for himself. Such an interesting specimen shouldn’t stay in the clutches of a witch.

She then closes her fan and points it at Emilia.

Emilia turns around and faces the flame princess with a stare one befitting the title of witch.

Emilia : You won’t lay a single slimy finger on my love. You may be right in that we do not deserve him, but we’ll step up and change so that we may be able to stand along side him. To prove to him that he does not need to always throw his life away in order to save us. I would rather die right here and now than let you anywhere near him.

If magic wasn’t nullified, the entire theatre would be enveloped with ice and flames with only few being able to survive it.

Before Priscilla could say anything:

Ok ladies let’s calm down before you two kill each other. I will summarise the events of the year span. Subaru finally had time to heals from the injuries of the previous arcs and begin training to better himself. He develops a bond with his great spirit and continues being a butler.
Throughout the year, a certain tragedy occurs, causing Subaru to question all he’s learnt throughout his time in Lugunica but eventually comes to a conclusion. After that the year was pretty smooth selling as we begin the Priestella. I won’t be showing you everything because that be crazy but I will show you the most important days.

With that said, everyone heads back to their seat and begins preparing themselves for anything that could be shown on the screen.

Ok ladies and gentlemen. Grab your popcorns and drinks ready. Hold onto your seatbelts cause we this will be a bumpy ride

Ram: What’s a popcorn? You’re starting to sound like Barusu. You’re probably a pervert like him if you speak like that.

HEEY I AM NOT!!!! Popcorn is——wait why am I gonna argue with a Tsundare?!! Uuugh this is gonna be a long one isn’t it?

As the audience giggles at the teasing of the director the screen plays and we begin the adventure.

{Arc 4.5 begins now}

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The screen opens up the mansion being dazzled in the bright lights of the moon. It slowly begins to zoom in to a particular room. A room in which a certain butler accommodated. We see a room with a big bed in the place, some furniture placed throughout the room and 2 people in the middle. A knight and a great spirit occupying the same bed showing there bond through how they sleep. Subaru wrapping his arms around Beatrice’s body and holding her close to his chest, as if shielding her from all disaster and Beatrice wrapping her little arms around his stomach as if she’s holding him together. Both had been asleep for hours and having a face that showed that they truly cared each other’s company.

Petra barely able to contain her emotions as she watches such a cute scene squeals:

Petra : This is sooo adorable miss beatrice!!!  You look so cute together. Subaru truly looks at peace in your arms.

Anastasia being the in love with cute things smiles while saying:

Anastasia : I agree. If you weren’t in Emilia camp I’d beg for you to come to mine. Subaru could join too but it’d be pretty difficult with those nasty looking eyes and his so called haterd for Julius.

At this point everyone knew that Subaru doesn’t truly hate Julius and that their friendship could only be described as “complicated”. Though that didn’t stop anyone from glancing at the purple haired candidate with thoughts of irritation for having the balls to try to take the knight and spirit away from Emilia.

Beatrice crossing her arms says in a cocky tone: I wouldn’t join any of your camps. The main reason why I’m still with the half-elf is because of my contractor’s desire to stay there.

She suddenly imagines Subaru pinching her cheek and saying that you shouldn’t be so mean

Beatrice:[Thinking: Ow, Ow, Ow, I know, I know. What a bothersome contractor you are. Even when you’re asleep you still are able to provoke me.]

The ends of her lips begin to curve upward showing a small smile

[ You really are— ]

Before she finishes her thoughts she continues saying

Beatrice : But even so, Beako has had a somewhat good time there. Somewhat.

The camp and espically Roswaal were shocked to hear Beatrice compliment them. Even if it was a small one, it meant a lot. They always got the impression that Beatrice didn’t like them so to hear that from her own mouth was so heartwarming. They all had a big smile on there facing knowing that Beatrice actually cared for them

Roswaal in the back with a small grin on his face

Roswaal :[ Thinking: You really have changed haven’t you Beatrice? I hope you keep this happiness for as long as you live ]

Rem looks back at the screen thinking:

Rem : [Thinking: Subaru looks so cute when he’s sleeping. I know I’ve seen him sleep before but never so at peace. I wish he’d hold me like that. I wish he’d—- ]

Ram saying in a calm yet stern voice

Ram : Absolutely not!

Rem turns to her sister flustered

Rem : Wha—what do you mean sis?

Ram looking her sister with disapproving eyes

Ram : You may not. Whatever you’re thinking of doing with Barusu, I forbid it. That pervert doesn’t deserve you

Rem shaking in embarrassment

Rem : How did you know I was thinking that sis? Also please don’t call Subaru such a awful word

Ram with the same expression in her face as before

Ram : I could tell with our ability but even without it I know what you’re thinking because I’m your sister.

Rem know looking down at her lap with a pink shade covering her face:

Rem : Please, please sister? It’ll be so fun and I know Subaru would enjoy it.

As the 2 oni twins continue there weird conversation, a certain ice elf was looking at the scene with a smile on her face and slight tears in her eyes

Emilia : He looks so at peace. No self-hatred, no stress, no sadness, just at peace. I wish he’d look like that more often. After all you’ve suffered through, you must’ve endured an overbearing amount of pain in your heart. I’m sorry. Once we’re out I’ll give you as many lap pillows as you want and listen to all your cries and thoughts. It’s the least you deserve.

She says that as she holds her knight’s arm while playing with his hair. Smiling at both the sleeping boy in the theatre and the one on the screen

Beatrice looks at the screen with a simple smile but something wasn’t right about it. She was smiling but also had slight tears falling on her cheek as if she’s waiting for tragedy to happen. Oh how right she was.

The rest were watching with smilies across their faces. Happy to see the boy after going through all the pain and torture he had to endure finally getting some time to just enjoy life. Something so simple for the normal person but to Subaru, this was such a refreshing moment, or at least it was.

Back to the screen:

The boy beginning shaking while in the same position. His hands slowly begin to move to the arms and holds it tightly. The boy begins to speak yet no one could hear. “Please”

“Stop. It hurts”

“No, no please. I didn’t do it.”

The boy’s shaking increase in speed and velocity and his hands began gripping his forearms even harder, digging his nails into his skin as tears begin to falls from his eyes.

Garfiel angrily stand up and speaks at a volume that wouldn’t be considered yelling but on the verge of it

Garfiel : What the hell is happening? What’s happening to my cap?

He suddenly looks at the great spirit and yells while pointing at her.

Garfiel : Beatrice do you know? Why is he shaking? What is he talking about? And why aren’t you helping?

Federica grabbing the tiger boy’s hands says in a manner befitting a maid

Frederica : Garfiel you need to control yourself and watch your language. Knowing Beatrice there must be an explanation for what’s happening.

-He’s having a nightmare-

Everyone then looks at the young loli after she said it with a chilling voice

Beatrice : Since I’ve been contracted to him, nearly every night my contractor has had nightmares that terrorised his mind. The number of times I can recall him having a decent night and getting his full rest could be counted on one hand. I’d help him recover and try to get him to tell me the problem but he never would, only saying that it was something that happened in the past. I thought that stress from slaying mabeats, killing the white whale, fighting sloth, and the events in sanctuary had bottled up to nightmares but never that this was his reasoning.

She tears violently flow her eyes, sitting on the spirit knight lap’s while looking at her contractor on the screen

Beatrice : Beako’s sorry, she’s sorry she never helped you until now. If she had been a better spirit she could’ve done more. Helped you during your times of need and become a better support for your troubles.

Everyone (except for Priscilla cause she’s priscilla) stares at the spirit with sadness in their eyes. To never truly understand why your partner is hurt is a tragic experience. While they understood why Subaru could never say, it didn’t demise the fact that to Beatrice, Subaru never truly trusted her. If she had never gotten trapped in this room, she would never know what troubled her contractor’s mind.

The boy begin scratching himself violently while screaming.

“STOP”

“SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME.”

“OH GOD IT HURTS. PLEASE STOP IT”

Beatrice begins to awaken due to the shaking and sounds. “Su-Subaru?” She says slowly awakening but the moment he started yelling, she quickly realised what was going on and stood up quickly. “Subaru, you loyal Betty is here! Please stop hurting yourself. You’re not alone. Subaru? SUBARU?!” She begins tearing up while trying to wake the boy up. The tears from the boy begin to stain the bed and then…

*Drip*

*Drip*

*Drip*

The young man nails became covered in his blood as he’s trying to scratch. His body was trying to wake itself up but his broken mind couldn’t sync up with it. The boy began breathing quickly.

“Breathe. Breathe, it hurts”

“Please stop”

“Mom”

“Dad”

“Please help me”

“Rem”

“Ram”

“Emilia”

“It hurts”

“Someone, Anyone”

“AHHHHHHH!!!”

He suddenly sits up as he screams his lungs out. The bed is now stained in blood and tears.

Everyone stares at the screen with tears in their eyes. Not even Priscilla could stare at the scene and be unfazed.

Emilia looks at the screen crying and holding her hand to her mouth.

Emilia : Subaru. Ooh Subaru. You did all this for us but you can’t even rest in your own sleep. I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m sor—I’m sorry

She wraps her arms around her knight as if the boy would disappear while crying loudly.

Rem, Beatrice and Petra held some part of the boy while crying and apologising.

Crusch and William in the side held their heads low while thinking

Crusch:[ Thinking: Such a young man facing the horrors of the world. How foolish of me to think that he wouldn’t suffer even while in peace. What can I do to help him? ]

She quickly looked at felix who had his head down, trembling. Felix hated how Subaru was hurting. As a healer, anyone who hurts themselves should ashamed themself. Life is a precious gift so to taint it made the cat boy disgusted. But Subaru was a different. His inability to disclose his trauma and self hatred accumulated into this. It sadden the femboy but what truly made him tremble was the fact that he was apart of the poor trauma. In the sloth fight he boiled the boy’s blood to incapacitate him. How awful. To have the liquid in your body suddenly turn in magma is a form of torture that he wouldn’t want on anyone. The mere thought of the experience Subaru must’ve went through nearly made him throw up.  He had to help him anyway possible.

When Crusch looked him, he took a minute before he collected himself and nodded to his princess command. After they are released they’d fine him, apologise and do what they can to heal and help the boy with his pain.

Beatrice grabs her contractor’s batten arm that is completely covered in bruises and blood. “Shhhhhh. It’s ok. Your Beako is here. It’s ok. Let out your thoughts. I’m here for you.”

Subaru stare at the wall for a moment while trying to come to his senses. He finally realises the situation he’s in. It was all a dream, a very, VERY bad dream. He then looks at his spirits and says with his empty brown eyes, “Beako?”

Wilhelm looking at the screen with a single tear falling down on his face, nearly crushing the arm rest says

Wilhelm : Even after all you’ve done, you cannot rest. What has this world done to you my boy.

He should’ve done more. If he hadn’t been so arrogant, he would’ve been able to notice the face of a man who’s been in hell. Like him, Subaru had lost nearly everyone he cared about but he was able to keep moving forward unlike himself. After his wife’s early death, his world stopped turning. His heart died along side hers and all that was left was anger. He unjustifiably threw that anger onto his grandson. A mere boy who could not understand the situation he was in and yet he threw insult after insult to the boy. So was blind in his anger to kill the whale that he did not only lose his wife but also his family and that was a sin he has to bare. So to see Subaru, someone he deemed as his grandson suffer such a terrible fate in which he could’ve done something angered him. Not at Subaru but his own narrowed mindless. He believed that he fell into the same mistake again. He believed he had changed after the death of the whale but he was the same man as before. A man only thinking of himself and unable to appreciate the gift the has until there gone.

The great spirit moved to his chest and hugged him tightly. “Yes your Betty is here so please stop it.” She says as continues to cry on his clothing.

Subaru looks at his hands that are now stained in his blood. He figures that Beatrice must’ve woken to him scream. [You’re pathetic. Making her scared like. How could you call yourself a protector when you’re in this state? You need to comfort her you trash.]

He finally hugs his companion while silently crying. “I’m sorry”, that’s all he could say. Again and again he repeated the saying until he hears:

“It’s ok. Just stop, ok? I cannot stand you hurting yourself like that in fact.” She says she’s crying into his chest. Subaru then looks at the loli and say,

“I will. Beako?”

“Yes Subaru”

“I’m scared”

“Of what?”

“….”

“Subaru?”

“Of tomorrow”

Al looks at this scene with sadness behind his rusty helmet as his hand is holding a piece of the now broken arm rest

Al : [Thinking: Bro this world is truly hell but it is your fault. You chose to go back to those monsters. Why? Why do you keep going back into the pot knowing you’ll get burned. To save them? What have they done but hurt and kill you? You should’ve ran. Ran away to a far away village where no one can recognise you and disappeared. At least then you’ll have some sort of peace. Please take my advice and run. I hate to see my bro like this. ]

Felt holding Reinhardt’s hand while balling her eyes says:

Felt : This is sickening to watch. To have those memories of everyone dying, to suffer alone and never be able to talk about it. This world truly hates you big bro but when we get out, you won’t be alone anymore. Me and Rein will help you. We can even take you out of that disgusting mansion and let you live with us if you want.

The Elf camp wanted to say something. To say that they can handle the task of helping their friend but throughout the showing, it was proven multiple times that not only are they incapable of helping him, they’re mostly the reason why he’s like this. To die in their care over 5 times, some he died alone and some they’ve caused. Everyone is the camp just looked down in shame as they  realised that Felt while not in the best emotional state, wasn’t wrong.

She then looks up at her master and says, “we can stay in here I suppose.”

Still looking forward he says, “I can’t. I need to do my duties. They need me and I need them, but could—

A moment of silence filled the area as Subaru is preparing himself to ask

Subaru: Could you be there with me? I don’t know if I have the strength to face tomorrow alone.

Beatrice: Of course, anything for Beako’s contractor although you will owe me lots of sweets and heat pats in fact!

Saying the last statement with a soft chuckle. She jokingly says to brighten up the mood which she picked up from her contractor. I guess they were truly meant for each other. Subaru softly giggles at the attempt. He truly appreciated the effort as he said,

Subaru: sure thing. I love you Beako. He truly meant it and his spirit knew it as she says,

“I love you too.”

Otto sits nexts to a crying Garfiel, trying his best to comfort the young tiger boy

Otto:[Thinking: I’m sorry sir Natsuki. I claim that you should rely on us, your friends, but in actuality we’re all to blame. We couldn’t see that you were hurting this badly. We were part of the reason you’re so broken. How can we call ourselves your friends when we, no when I have wronged you so much? All we can now is say we’re sorry but how can we right our wrongs? ]

He looks back to the crying boy on the screen and whispers with tears in his eyes

Otto : I don’t know if we can

After a couple of minutes of silence, the boy lets go of his spirit and she begins healings him.

Beatrice: Do you want to talk about your nightmare?

Subaru: I can’t

Beatrice: You can’t or won’t I suppose

…….

-I can’t

Beatrice: …….

I understand then. I can tell you truly want to speak about it but something isn’t allowing you to

Subaru turns to Beatrice who is currently healing his left bloody arm and asks in a sad tone, as if he’s wondering why would she believe him

Subaru: How could you tell?

Beatrice: The smell of the witch increases when you have nightmares and your eyes. Those eyes tell me you’re not lying but even with all that gone, I would still believe you in fact. 

Subaru nearly about to burst into tears again say in a weaken tone

Subaru: Ho-How?

Beatrice looks at her contractor with a small smile on her face

Beatrice: Because you my contractor of course. Has the lack of sleep really dull your mind?

Emilia, felt, Petra, Rem and Otto stood up and collectively hugged the great spirit

Emilia: Thank you for helping my knight. You’re the best miss Beatrice.

Rem: Thank you for helping my hero when I was gone. Thank you Beako .

Felt: Thank you for helping my big bro out in his time of need. You’re the best Beako.

Petra: Thank you for helping my lover out. You’re the best Beako.

Otto: Thank you for helping my friend out. You’re the best Beako.

Beatrice : Hey! Only my contractor can call me Beako in fact!

Beatrice tried getting away from the group hug but with her small body and lack of magic all she could was struggle. Her pouting face eventually turned into a small smile. While she only needed her contractor to be happy, she felt some form of joy being in this hug. She knew if Subaru was here he’d be overjoyed with Beatrice getting so much love.

After a couple, the group broke up and went back to their seats.

Subaru was about to say something but nothing came. Just starring at Beako and hearing those words brought him back to reality and as tears flow from his eyes he says two simple words

Subaru:…..Thank you….

He smiles at her not with his normal, fake one but a true, genuine smile.

After healing his arms he hugs Beako again and says

Subaru: You’re the best spirit ever Beako.

Beatrice: I know I am so as for compensation I want lots of head pats I suppose.

Subaru: You’ll get all the head pats you want then.

Beatrice: Good. Now it’s time to head back to bed. If you’re gonna do your duties then you’ll need all the rest you can get and you especially need some now.

He laughs at the insult and says

Subaru: Okay then let’s—-

The memory of him getting his back stabbed by the thugs forces its way into his mind as he begin shaking

Felt and Reinhard looked down in disappointment. While it wasn’t their fault that Subaru died, those thugs are now in their camp. Reinhard felt especially bad because he could’ve help had he been faster

Felt : Were gonna have to straighten them out and get them to apologise. Sorry again big bro

Reinhard : Don’t put that on yourself miss Felt. It was my fault for not getting to him faster.

Felt angry that Reinhard is once again putting the blame on himself stands up and punches him arm which while doing no damage did send a message

Felt : Uuugh, how could you say not to put it on myself when you’re doing the same thing you hypocrite?! You’re only human no matter how many divine protections you have. You can’t protest everyone all at once and you know it you jerk.

While rude, it was the words Reinhard needed to calm himself down. To not burden himself with something he couldn’t control. He still felt a little guilty but the weight was lessen.

Reinhard : Thank you miss Felt

Felt now looking at Reinhard with a smile on her face

Felt : Your welcome your red jerk

Beako scared of what may happen if she doesn’t stop now holds his hand and says

Beatrice: It’s ok, Betty is here

With those words his mind cleared up as the shaking stopped.

He looks at Beatrice with tired eyes and asks

Subaru: Hey Beako can we sleep in the corner of the room

he point to the only empty corner of the room

Beatrice stares at him in confusion but realises if this can help him sleep then it was fine

Beatrice: Sure thing I suppose but I’m sleeping on your lap. A beauty like me cannot be seen sleeping on the dirty floor.

Subaru: Hey! I swept the floor before I went to bed but ok.

He says the last part with a defeated sigh but was glad that Beatrice agreed. He didn’t know if he could have slept with his back exposed.

He picks up the mattress off the bed frame and put it in the corner as he grabbed the blanket and began preparing for sleep.

He sat in the corner while Beatrice sat on his lap both being covered in a large blanket. Subaru beginning to fall asleep says

Subaru: Beako, Thank you

Beatrice: For what?

Subaru: For being here. For helping me. For supporting me. For picking me.

Beatrice still looking forward says

Beatrice: You’re welcome and thank you for saving me. Thank you for allowing me to begin living after 400 years I suppose.

Subaru: Huh? Sorry Beako, I couldn’t heaaaa….

As he was talking Beatrice sapped some of his mana so he could fall asleep faster. She wanted to talk more but knew that he needed his rest and chose the quickest option. Subaru quickly fell asleep but this time with a small smile on his face.

Beatrice snuggling on her contractor says

Beatrice: Goodnight my silly contractor and thank you.

With that they both fell asleep and began walking around in the land of dreams

*Not Echidna’s domain just in case you got confused*

As the finale scene came about a voice could be heard from the theatre

—Ok, we’ll take a quick break and then we’ll continue the episode. Converse, Take a break, chill and we’ll be back. And No Anastasia you can’t ask questions this time—

Right as the merchant was about to ask she was caught off. She crossed her arms and made a pout face

Anastasia : “Hmph! Buzz kill”

A soft laughter could be heard from her camp knowing that she’d try to get some information to benefit her.

Chapter Text

Before the next screening could begin the Emilia camp began discussing the matter of her spirit knight

Emilia : He’s suffering because we’re incompetent. I’m sorry my knight. What can I do to help?

She continued to play with his hair while having a small, sympathetic smile. She had slight bags under her eyes from all the emotional distress and crying, but this wasn’t a moment about her. Her knight was in a living hell and had she not been brought here, she wouldn’t ever truly have known why he was so sad.

Beatrice: Betty’s contractor is a very forgiving man but I’m not so kind.

She had an arrogant look on her face because of her amazing contractor. But she soon realized this wasn’t the time or place for such a look and quickly returned to her calm yet stern appearance. She sat back on her friends lap and continued

Beatrice : If we are gonna began to help him, we shouldn’t show him pity. He wouldn’t all of us to pity him for his suffering. We have to help him get through it. I am not in the clear either. I abandoned him several times and could’ve eased his heart but chose to only stab it.

Rem was about to counter her argument saying that she did help Subaru but was quickly caught off my the spirit…

Beatrice : I won’t play innocent, but I won’t play victim either. Betty is truly disappointed in her myself but what he needs now isn’t “sorry’s” or “forgive me” but someone who can be there for him to hear his story. Someone who can wipe away his tears and a shoulder to lean on.

She said in a determined voiced. If no one will step up to help her then she’d do this alone. Her contracted need not suffer alone anymore.

Beatrice : That’s what we have to do. If we cannot then we have no rights to be called his friends and family.

Those words opened the eyes of the camp. Throughout the screening, a dark cloud of self doubt and hatred brewed above them. They hated themselves for what they had done to their friend, their brother, their hero, and their lover. They didn’t think they were worthy of being near him. Beatrice word’s were like sunlight piercing through the darkness. There was hope for them. Even if it’s a small glimmer of light, there was a chance that they could help him and still be beside him. They would never forgive themselves but if they could help the boy that saved and bettered all there lives, maybe to could live with themselves and maybe….forgive themselves. They wouldn’t let this opportunity slip away, they couldn’t. He has done so much for them, how could they not try to give an ounce back?

A certain red princess in the back begin laughing at the statement. Her eyes were filled with arrogance, but showed a little form of respect.

Priscilla: Your camp must be with simpletons if it took you this long to realise! How foolish, it’s almost laughable.

She stood up with a smile and confidence on her face and waved her fan to the left.

Priscilla : Your camp is made of filth, annoying flees and incompetent swines. That commoner saved your pathetic lives countless times and yet, it took until now to fully realise your own stupidity. You couldn’t see his sadness, his desperation, nor his lack of self worth. Idiots, the lot of you.

She began laughing at the half elf camp. Priscilla knew the outcome of what will happen once they are released. The world always favoured her and now has shown her someone who can rewrite fate itself. She would acquire him not only for his power and knowledge, but also because of his great and noble character. She respected how much he loved those he held close and showed compassion for others but the lack of self worth and the self harm was nauseating to her. Someone who slayed 2 out of the 3 great ma beasts, defeating a sin archbishop and has contracted himself to a great spirit all within a year should take major pride in his work. No mere mortal could accomplish that in their lifetime yet he did but instead of relishing in his accomplishments, he only felt sadness and emptiness. Such a person disgusted her and she would fix that problem because it was duty as leader to guide those beneath her to a better future, that is the job of a queen after all.

Priscilla : The world favors me and has blessed my divine eyes with that boy. He will be mine so you might as well give up. I will take him in and fix that disgusting self hatred he has. I will make him a man worthy of his own accomplishment as it is my job as future queen of this nation.

She pulled the fan to her face covering only the lower face and she giggled with excitement as she started at her rivals.

Beatrice looks back at the flame princess with complete determination in her eyes. She did not have shred of fear or intimidation in her eyes and she knows that her contractor wouldn’t either

Beatrice : If you want Betty’s contractor, you’ll face a losing battle

Priscilla smirks behind her fan at the challenge as she sits down

Priscilla : I cannot wait to see that determination shatter vermin. Aldebaran begin preparation for our new guest quickly

Al who is trying to mind his business turns to face his lady

Al : Yes my lady but would you mind stop calling me that name? It’s not a go——

A sudden kick to the head stops the 1 armed knight from finishing that sentence

Ok ladies and gentlemen, the next screening will begin so why don’t we get back into our seats and calm down

Al: Ugggh, you didn’t have to kick me so hard did you my lady?

He scratches the side of his helmet as he picks himself up and returns to his seat

With that little hick up out of the way, let the show begin

The screen glow a bright white as the screen light up. The screen then shows a sleeping knight and his spirit. It is currently 9 in the morning. A knock could be heard from the door as it wakes Beatrice up. As she continues to hear the knock she finally remembers what happened last night and quickly stood up and went to the door. She open the door only to see one of the twin oni maids of the mansion.

Petra: Wow Ram, you really do not like Subaru if you’re knocking that hard. What did he do to you?

Ram clearly furious that someone were to question such a simple idea

Ram : He’s lazy, he talks to much, he cuts food horribly, he is trying to sweep my dear sister off her feet while having feelings for another women, he’s a pervert. Should I continue?

Otto: He may be a little strange but Subaru is a great guy. You should go more easy on him Ram.

He wanted to defend his friend more but knew that Ram didn’t truly mean that as her form of showing concern is “unique” to say the least

Ram crossing her arms while looking to the side

Ram : The day Barusu actually matures is the day I will stop my rightful insults.

Everyone knew that it was useless to continue the conversation as Ram would rather die then say something nice about him

Beatrice: What is it I suppose?

She says that rubbing her eyes as she was still gathering her bearings

Ram looking down to meet the gaze of the small spirit and bows

Ram: Hello Ms. Beatrice, I’m here to find Barusu. He didn’t show up for morning routine. He’s probably still being the lazy fly he is.

Beatrice hearing her master being insulted finally was awaken

Felix watches with his cat ears point up

Felix : Ooh she’s mad now. Tear her up

He begins to shout while crusch holds her head down in embarrassment

Beatrice: Said by the useless maid. I pity the other 2 maids for having to deal with such an incompetent co-worker. I wonder how my contractor deals with urchins like you

The entire Emilia camp were shocked to hear that and said in unison: OOH THAT MUST’VE HURT BADLY.

But suddenly at the realisation that Beatrice was also dissing them Rem, Federica and Petra say: HEY!!!

The rest of the cast have a small laugh while the great spirit continues to look at the screen with an arrogant smile as if she already won

Ram was surprised to hear this. Usually her insults for Barusu would only be met with her being told to not to do that so here such a retort was shocking. She didn’t have a come back for this event and so couldn’t say anything as she stares at the old loli.

Even without magic, everyone could sense the anger building up in the pink hair maid. Had this been shown outside, god forbid what would happen next

Rem and Roswaal in the back trying to calm down their companion

Rem : Please calm down sis. Miss Beatrice didn’t mean to say that

Roswaal : I agree. You shouldn’t become soo~ooo overwhelmed by such simple comments

Ram : Thank you both but I’m completely fine

Both Roswaal and Ram looked at the maid with 1 eye brow raised as they took notice of the arm rest that has been completely destroyed by the girl’s hand.

As the trio continue discussing:

Beatrice: Betty’s contractor still resting from the hard work of training and doing your job so he’ll rest for some time. He’ll continue his job when he is fully rested. If that’s all then good day I suppose

Petra: Awww you really care for him don’t you miss Beatrice

Beatrice: Hmph! Of course Betty does. Betty’s contractor is the best and must be treated as so. If he cannot see that himself that it is my duty to do so

She says with her arms crossed and a bigger smile

Ram who finally collected herself from the previous insults but couldn’t find anything to say as she accepts what she says

Beatrice slams the door at her face, clearing still mad about her insulting her contractor.

Ram: [ Thinking: You’ll pay for this Barusu ]

She begins to head back to her master to see that he was having a troubled frown on his face. She grabbed his hand and she returns to her previous position. The troubled face slowing shifted to a small grin as she returns to the dream world.

It is now 11 in the morning and we see a certain butler quickly getting ready as he is voices his concerns

Subaru: Oh god! Oh god! Oh god! I slept in and now I missed the morning shift. Ram is gonna kill me

He continues saying his restless thoughts out loud as he is getting ready as quickly as possible

Subaru: Beakoooo. Why didn’t you wake me up?!!

Garfield and Otto giggling in the background

Garfiel : Captain is always panicking over the little things. We shouldn’t judge him for resting a little more

Otto : Yeah but knowing him, giving him too much leeway could backfire and cause him to develop a horrible habit of sleeping in. I think he needs this schedule to stay on track. Once I saw him waking up at near dawn

As he says that both burst out laughing even more

Felt having the time of her life looking and big bro having a meltdown

Felt : Big bro you’re a comedy wizard. You could create a killer business with those silly faces

Even Reinhard began laughing at the funny scene

She continues to laugh while the Sword saint watches the scene with a small smile on his face

Ricardo : Hey you should never judge a man for sleeping in. Naps is a great source of comfort

He says that while playing his his small beard

Anastasia looking back with a smug look on her face

Anastasia : Like how you sleep in whenever you’re not doing a job?

She says with a small giggle in her voice

Ricardo : HEY!! I will not be judge in the way I spend my free time

The Anastasia came burst out laughing at Demi-human’s comeback

Beatrice not looking at the fool as she reads her book on the bed.

Beatrice: Because you were extremely tired from yesterday’s work. As your spirit, Betty cannot allow such self-destructive behaviour continue in fact

Subaru nearly dressed in his uniform looks back

Subaru: Aww you were worried about me!!! How could I have a better spirit.

He says as he picks up the loli and spins

her around

Beatrice: Stop it I suppose!!!

She says but her words and her face were contradictory to each other. She was enjoying this moment with her master.

Subaru again quickly realising that he’s puts the spirit back down and continues quickly getting dressed and placing the mattress back on the bed.

Subaru: Ok Betty I’m heading off. I will bring you some sweets later for helping me and being the best spirit EVER.

Beatrice suddenly remembering to do some quickly shouts

Beatrice: WAIIT!!!!

Subaru quickly halted his pace and turned around with a confused look

Beatrice: Here!

Beatrice hands a red, 200 empty page, lined notebook with a quill

The half elf camps look at the book with confusion on their faces.

Emilia: A notebook? I don’t get it

Subaru: A notebook?

Beatrice: Yes. You may not be able to say what is bothering you with Betty but you could tell it to this notebook. It may help ease your mind in fact!

Subaru looks at the notebook with tears growing on his eyes as he realises what she had done as he suddenly picks her up and hugs her

Crusch at the sudden realisation that there methods in order to help him looked at her healer with eyes that said “make a note of this” as the healer was already engraving this into his psyche.

Rem jolted up with admiration for the spirit.

Rem : Miss Beatrice you’re a genius. This way of therapy could truly help him with his mental state. Thank you for helping my hero.

She bows down to the spirit who’s on the lap of her master

Rem : Did you learn anything from the pages?

Beatrice the moment the book was shown lost her smile and began looking down in shame

Beatrice: No. As Betty gave him the book, I made a note to myself to never read it as it was my master’s privacy. But the sadder part was that he never used it

The entire theatre gave a look of sadness and confusion. The boy would never deliberately try to hurt his spirit, that is something every one here knew as law so they questioned on why he never did.

Roswaal : [ Thinking: Did he lose the book? No, knowing him he’d spend eternity looking for it then tell his spirit that he simply lost it. Then something must’ve happened that caused him to never use. Yes, I’m beginning to put the pieces together. ]

Ram the ever observant, took notice that her master had come to some ideas on what’s happening but didn’t bother to continue as she looks back on the screen

Beatrice: Last night you told Betty that you couldn’t face the world on your own but Betty knows she can’t always be there. Betty hates it but that’s the cruel reality I suppose. So if you need to talk to someone, even if I’m not there you can really on this book

Subaru while having tears in his eyes

Subaru: Thank you. I know your trying your best and I’m an incompetent fool but thank you for trying your best to help me

Beatrice fully accepting the hug says

Beatrice: Your not a fool in fact. You’re my contractor and Betty will do all she can to help you. Even if I’m not the one who makes the breakthrough

Subaru puts down the loli and pats her head.

Subaru: Still thank you. I will see you right after I finish my tasks and before my training.

After the exchange, the young butler put the book, the bottle of ink and the quill in a drawer in his desk. With that the young butler left the room leaving the spirit with slight tears in her eyes

Beatrice: You simpleton. Betty will be awaiting your return

The Demi-human triplets couldn’t take it anymore as the water gates broke wide open.

Mimi : That bond is so precious. Such a magical bond they have

The other 2 begin sobbing while trying to comfort Mimi

Beatrice while still looking down and a faint smile says

Beatrice : “Magical?” Yes, such a is perfect to describe our bond. Magical

We cut to Ram and Frederica discussing something while cutting fruits when a boy with raven hair suddenly ran in slamming the door open.

Subaru while catching his breath: I’m here! I’m here! Ooh god I shouldn’t have ran so fast but I’m here.

The 2 maids look at the boy who was barley holding himself up

Frederica: Good morning Subaru. How is your day going?

Subaru looking up with tired eyes

Subaru: It’s been going well Frederica. Sorry for not showing up earlier, I was ahhh….

Before he could speak more Frederica quickly walked up to the boy and whispers

Frederica: We already know why but you shouldn’t mentioned it. Ram is especially mad of how Ms.Beatrice acted when you slept in so be cautious.

Subaru after here clenches his fist

[ Thinking: Beakoooo! I don’t know whether I should be mad or happy. But I’ll drop it since you’re soo cute and you helped me last night ]

Beatrice throwing her arms around while having a pouting face

Beatrice: How could you ever think badly of Betty? Your health is all that matters to Betty. I will give a good lecture when we’re out

She says as she begins to punch the unconscious boy, doing no real damage because her lack of muscle

The camp laughs at the cute interaction

Ram: Frederica, please stop babying the insect. A man like that doesn’t need anymore hand outs than he already has.

She turns around to face the 2 while glaring at the knight

Subaru: Please forgive me Ram!

He says while lowering his head and clasping his hands to make a peace sign

Subaru: I’ll do double, no triple the amount of work to make it up

Al: Ooh that sounds bad. Why do you keep putting yourself in these situations bro?

He says he hold his head while shaking

Felt: Yeah big bro. Be more like me.

She says while pointing at herself

Reinhard : Please calm yourself Ms.Felt. It’s unbecoming of a lady like you

Ram turns back to continue chopping up the fruits

Ram: You better otherwise it’s the garbage for you. Not like it’d be a punishment for someone as gross as you. You pervert.

Rem looks back her twin sister while have an evil yet happy smile

Rem: Sis, please stop insulting my hero. I really want you 2 to get along.

Ram after hearing this quickly looks away, not finding the right words to say to her adorable younger sister while hearing little giggles from Petra and Otto but this wasn’t the main reason she turned away because she had come to a dreadful thought.

“ I don’t remember this ”

She had quickly thought of the worse but a new idea came into her mind.

Ram :[Thinking: Maybe I simply forgot. The many conversations I’ve had with Barusu must’ve made me forget when he speaks in his annoying voice]

This was only logical thought that she could she as the possible solution. This was also the way in which she could continue to watch the scene with shedding a tear or acting abnormal but her mask wasn’t perfect enough to hide from her master

Subaru: Ooh you hit a nerve! I don’t think I’ll recover from that one.

He grabs his chest as if a spear went through it but stands up fully now breathing normally

Subaru: But hey at least I can be useful so I’ll take my leave and begin my duty.

Otto: You idiot. You need to have more self respect. I should give you a good punch to wake you up

Petra: I wonder where I’m at while this is happening

He grabs one of the an cut appas from Ram’s basket

Subaru: Since I didn’t have breakfast yet, I’ll take this. You know what they say, “an apple a day keeps the doctor away”

He says as he quickly leaves the kitchen before Ram could say anything.

BARUSUUUU!!!

The entire burst into laughter seeing the angry girl. Even priscilla has a little giggle behind her fan

An angry roar could be heard from the kitchen and the young man runs away while chewing on the appa

Frederica looking back at the pink haired maid while uncovering her ears from the loud roar

Federica: You two have a strange relationship

Ricardo: Strange isn’t even the half of it. More like a toxic relationship.

Ram: Whatever do you mean? That man is a fool who happens to be lucky to be living near my presence

Frederica: Ooh hush up. We both know you enjoy his company. Before he came here you weren’t this energetic.

Frederica after hearing this also came to the same conclusion as her pink haired friend, she had once again failed to help her friend. Many did not take note but over the year, Frederica and Subaru became close. Nothing too crazy as his something like him and Otto or him and her brother but it was a relationship based on respect and understanding. So when she finally realized that she had let him die again, she wanted to shed a tear but her years of working as a maid made her bottle down the emotion as to not seem weak

Rem not noticing the inner meltdown of Frederica was blushing at the scene: Yes before Subaru showed up, the mansion was pretty quiet and dull but it looks like one big happy family. I’m truly glad

Emilia looking to her to see Rem holding Subaru’s arm and smiling

Emilia: I agree. Before I didn’t have friends and didn’t have the confidence to speak to you guys but now I couldn’t even dream of living anywhere else. I love you guys

The camp smiled in agreement. They love their home and all the members in it,(except a certain clown)

Ram: I don’t know what you mean. Maybe all that time outside the mansion dulled your mind

Frederica: Suuuure. And also your one evil lady. We both know that you aren’t truly mad at Subaru. You just wanted some excuse not to do your chores and used that as an him to get to do your job

Rem couldn’t answer because whatever she would say would be an obvious lie and so chose to drop it and continue her work

Frederica: Ram, whatever shall I do with you?

She says as she returns back to her duty of being a maid

Throughout the day we see the young butler clean the bathrooms, sweeps the halls. Wash the clothing, fix all the beds in the mansion, wipe the windows and cut the grass

Subaru lies on the field while staring at the sky

Subaru: Oooh wow I’m tired. Why did I agree to do triple the work. I’ve barely did my own duty today and it’s only 1 pm. I have so much to do before my training with Clind and Garfield at 5.

Felix: Wow he does all that then goes off to train? That’s a hard worker but he needs to take more breaks and sleep. All that fatigue will build up and will cause future problems

Julius looking at the scene with some admiration for the young man’s hard work

Julius: It’s incredible how hard he works. The true spirit of a knight. I would like to spar with you more and maybe…

He says the last part in his head

Julius: [ Thinking: And maybe hang out with you. I hope to become good friends with you Spirit knight and if I myself am unworthy ]

A certain sliver hair elf girl with amethyst eyes comes into view of the young butler.

Emilia: Would like to hear what you should do?

Subaru still laying down but having slight blushes on his cheeks

Subaru: Hey Mili, wow you just get more beautiful everyday don’t you? I’m lucky to be able to see it everyday.

Wilhelm: He truly put his heart on his sleeve. I admire that. I should visit him more and bring some tea

He says while having a genuine smile on his face thinking of what he’d do once he leaves this place

Emilia madly blushing: You block head

She says while holding the young boy’s hand

Emilia looking away, blushing from her face and elf ears

Emilia: You dunderhead, you shouldn’t such things so casually

Subaru: Who even says “dunderhead” in this day of age?

They both begin laughing at the interaction. Both really cared for each other and seeing one another brought great joy for them

We cut to the 2 sitting on the bench. Subaru laying back on the table while Emilia sitting in a formal position

Emilia: Wow that sounds rough. Maybe I should speak to Ram to ease the amount of work you have to do

Subaru quickly sitting up right says

Suabru: No, No, No, No! Don’t do that. While yes it is a lot of work, it’s my fault for sleeping in. Also I was the one who said he’d do it and as a knight of Emilia and a man I cannot back down on my words.

Reinhard: It’s nice to see that he finally is an official knight. He should’ve gotten it way earlier but still

Nearly everyone in the theater agreed with the Sword Saint. They all plan to throw him a celebration for his knighthood and his accomplishments once they get out

Emilia smiling while hearing this

Emilia: Wow. You have such a determined face right now. Alright but quickly do your chores and your training so you can meet me in my room. I’ll give a reward afterwards if you do a good job.

Subaru blushing all over his face says

Subaru: A lap pillow from you? Wow you’re so amazingly generous Mili. I will get to it right away so I don’t waste any more time

He says as he begins to stand up, filled with determination to get through the day and get his reward.

Emilia: That’s great to hear. I can’t wait till then. I have to get back to my candidate studies so I’ll see you soon.

She says as she sees the knight ran away while waving at her

Petra: Aww you’re so cute together but I won’t lose to you Ms.Emilia and Ms.Rem

Emilia: We’ll see. My love for him is stronger then anything you could muster

Rem: He did tell me he loved me so I guess I already won.

Rem says thinking back to the aftermath of the white subjugation. While it was underhanded, she did get him to say it so she thought she already won

Garfield, Al, and Ricardo all looked at the girls and came to the same question: Subaru, how do you do it?

As the three women continued their argument

Crusch looks at the screen with a slight blush: I wonder how it would feel to have a man like him say that to me.

Then Crusch begin blushing even more and the thought of the boy and her being together

Crusch : Get that idea out your head. He likes them. Bu-But—-But he never said he didn’t like you

As Crusch is having an internal breakdown

We cut to the boy dusting some vases humming to himself but as he looks to the center of the hallway he sees it

Suddenly the mood of the entire theater changes and what they have just witnessed shaken them to their core

Subaru’s pupil had dilated, his heart begins beating faster, his body begins shaking as he sees a dead Rem. Body facing down with witch cultist blades stabbed in her back.

Garfiel quickly stood up and shouted:

Garfiel : What’s going on?! Rem should be in her bedroom still in her coma form right? What’s happening

Otto quickly grabbing his friend saying

Otto : Calm down Garf, we don’t know what’s happening. We need to continue watching to figure what’s going on

Rem and Ram held each while trembling while Emilia held onto her knight’s jacket as hard as she could nearly tearing it

Crusch shocked to see the scene, quickly turns to Emilia and ask

Crusch : Emilia to do have any knowledge on what’s going on?

Emilia still being shaken by the scene takes a couple of seconds to calm herself as she looks back and says

Emilia : No. This entire year we, or more likely I, never saw anything abnormal with Subaru or with the people in the mansion

The conclusion that many came to is that either Subaru had used RBD or something else was happening and that idea broke any layer of happiness or joy. No one, not even Ram, Emilia or Beatrice had noticed any changes with Subaru within the year and so they began sobbing at the idea that he suffered and they couldn’t notice while the rest were in a state of shock but until someone were to confirm there suspicions, they decided to believe that he didn’t use RBD as it was the only way they could continue to watch

Subaru begins hyperventilating

Subaru:[ Thinking: NO! NO! NO! NO! This isn’t real. She isn’t dead. She’s still alive in her room still asleep. Please just go away. I know I failed you and others many times but please stop this. ]

Rem: Oh my hero, what’s happening to you?

She says she holds her sister and crying heavily

Roswaal already knowing what’s going on says in a stern voice

Roswaal : He’s seeing a hallucination

Everyone turns to the clown with sadness but a bit of concern as he may be part of what’s going on

Felt : What are you talking about you clown bastard?! I swear if you are causing this then I will kill you

Reinhard grabbing his lady hand calmly says

Reinhard : Lady Felt, please calm down. We do not know the reason for what’s happening and any information we can gather will help Subaru in the long run.

Felt finally calming down faces the clown with a much more calm face

Reinhard : But if this is his doing, then I will punish him with every ounce of strength I have.

That threat allow make the magician sweat. If he lied or didn’t word his words carefully then it’d be the end for him

Roswaal : After all the amount of mental and physical damage he’s endured, it’d make sense that he would begin seeing hallucinations or suffer through panic attacks. He’s reliving his failed loops over and over again. No amount of healing magic can help deal with his inner mind

The half-elf camp becomes frozen, as if they all got encased in a layer of ice. Of course they knew that Subaru would be dealing with mental issues. No mortal could walk through his hell and come out unscathed. Even with the witches help, his suffering and tragedy would continue to haunt him but to this degree was nerve-racking.

Subaru continues to hyperventilate as his eyes slowly becomes blurry as his he begins to wobble around trying to regain his sense of balance but then his left arm, the arm that was carrying the duster suddenly went limp

Everyone eyes widen and the scene they were looking at.

Subaru begins to look down only to see that one of his arms is missing

Subaru: Huh?

Emilia and Rem began crying while holding the young knight as if he’s about to disappear

Rem : It’ll be alright Subaru. I’m here, you saved me. You didn’t fail. I love you so please wake up

Beatrice silently cried while in the fetal position continuously saying:

Beatrice : I’m sorry. Betty is sorry. Please forgive me for not being a better spirit

All the knights held their heads down in shame and sadness

Julius : To not even find peace in your own home. This world is truly sick. How can we help you my friend?

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Subaru’s continues to stare at his now missing arm

Subaru:[Thinking: Where’s my arm? WHERE’S MY ARM? I CAN FEEL IT BUT I CAN’T SEE IT!! OH GOD WHAT’S HAPPENING?]

Rem, currently sobbing her eyes out while wrapping her arms around Subaru

Rem: I’m here. Your Rem is here. Please Subaru wake up.

Emilia silently crying while starring at the screen when her anger and sadness couldn’t handle it anymore as she pull Beatrice by the dress to her face

Emilia: WHAT IS HAPPENING? WHERE IS HIS ARM? WHY DIDN’T YOU EVER SAY ANYTHING ABOUT HIS CONDITION?

Beatrice surprised at what had just happened. Never in a million years would she think that Emilia could this angry and so did not have a an answer as she begins to cry. Not for herself but because she could never say why.

Suddenly Frederica grabs Emilia’s arm and looks at the Half elf with tears in her eyes

Frederica : Please Emilia. As a candidate of the throne I cannot command you to do something that goes against your judgement but as your friend and Subaru’s please let go of her and allow her to explain. She has the right to as Subaru’s caretaker

Petra wraps her arms around Emilia’s waist

Petra: Please Emilia. If not me, then for Subaru. What would he think if he saw you now?

Emilia while still holding a crying Beatrice, turns to see the young man still asleep being held by the blue hair maid

After a couple of seconds she lets go of the great spirit

Emilia: I’m sorry. I’m…I’m sorry: I shouldn’t have blamed you for his condition. We are all somewhat responsible but even still…

She bows her head down and begins to cry

Emilia: Please, what is happening to him? Why is my knight, my friend, my love missing a piece of himself. I beg you that you tell me

Beatrice stands on Emilia’s seat and stares for a couple of seconds as she finally finds the words to say

Beatrice: I…I don’t know. In all my efforts of trying to help him, I’ve never been able to label all his conditions but for this one it’s some sort of reverse phantom pain.

Emilia rises her head: Reverse Phantom pain?

Beatrice: Yes. Phantom pain is when someone with a missing limb experiences pain where the former piece is…

Al turns away as he knows the feeling with Priscilla stares at the half man with some sadness in her eyes. Not so much that anyone would notice but still

Beatrice: But in his case, it’s some sort of opposite. He has all his pieces but he see them as missing and experiences the pain of losing it. Before we came here I couldn’t understand the reasoning on what he thought that but now I realize that he’s experiencing previous loops in which he lost those limbs. I’ve only seen this reaction twice and have caught the aftermath of his injury multiple times

Felix listening in on the conversation while crying silently over the realization that he too may be apart of this and asks in a scared voice

Felix : Ho..Ho….How have you be..en a..able to dealing with i..it?

Crusch holds the demi-human knight’s hand knowing what is thinking

Crusch : We’ve all been apart of suffering so don’t take it solely on yourself

Felix : But Ms.Cus—

Felix gets interrupted by Beatrice

Beatrice : By putting him to sleep and healing him. If I found him in the aftermath I would simply hug him, listen to him while also healing him. But…

She began to cry heavily

Beatrice : I couldn’t understand why he was doing it or how to permanently stop it. I’ve tried multiple method and none stuck, they only halted it. I want to help him but I don’t know how.

She curled up while sitting on her contractor’s lap

Everyone then understood that Beatrice was also suffering from her contractor’s action. Her contractor was suffering and no matter what she did, she couldn’t help her master.

Felix stepped up, walked down to the great spirit and put his hand on her shoulder

Felix : You won’t be alone now. We all want to help him and with all of power, skills and knowledge, I’m sure we can find some way to help him. Even if it’s only a small bit

Beatrice looks up and turns to the cat boy with tears in her eyes and said in a quiet voice

Beatrice : T..thank you

After the conversation, everyone returned to their seat to continue to watch this tragedy

As he continues to stare at the missing limp, a  massive wave of pain spreads through his arm to his shoulder causing him to hit on his tongue to not scream

Subaru holds his arms tightly and begins stretching

Subaru:[Thinking: It’s there, it’s there, I can feel it but I can’t see it! Why can’t I see it! Oh god what’s happening to me? It hurts, it hurts so much. It feels like—

A flashback of Rem tearing Subaru’s arm off with her Morningstar and killing him. He begins to tear up and profusely sweating at the face

Rem seeing herself slaughter her love, made her hatred of herself grow even more. No matter what others said, whether they hated her and sympathize with her, she only saw herself as a monster. One who stole her sister’s horn and now tortured the one who melted her soul and made her time start moving.

Rem let’s go of her hero’s arm and says in a sad tone

Rem : I’m sorry. I know I’m unworthy of your love as I’ve killed you not once, but twice. I really am a monster

Before her sister or Emilia could speak to Rem

Subaru:[Thinking: No, it wasn’t her fault. I was acting suspicious and I had the witches scent on me. I deserved it! right. RIGHT?!! ]

He turns around while continuing to tear at his own flesh

Felt starring at the scene couldn’t stomach it anymore and vomit on the floor. After she finish she stares at the floor while hysterically breathing

Felt : I’m useless. I’m so useless. I claim to be his friend but all I did was relax and study across the country while my big bro is dying over and over again. Why did I try harder? Am I so heartless that I couldn’t help the guy, the man who saved my life?

Reinhard quickly hugs Felt from behind

Reinhard : It isn’t only your fault. We all failed him in a way. I have many divine protections, and yet I couldn’t help an innocent man from death. I failed him many, many times but this viewing isn’t just showing us our failures but how we can better ourselves. To help the man who helped and saved us all so please don’t think like that

After a minute, Felt dried up her tears and hugged her knight back

Felt : Hah, where did you learn how to speak like that? You get another Divine protection that allows you to speak like Subaru

Reinhard : Heh, I learnt it from my lady. A lady and her knight begin to rub off on each other as they say

Felt hugged Reinhard back, happy to see that he is finally beginning to think of himself better as they let go of each other and returned back to their seats

Subaru:[Thinking: I need to get to Beako ]

Beatrice clasps her hands together as she says: Please do! Please Betty, don’t fail him again

As he as takes his first step, he collapses nearly knocking the base over

Subaru turns around to see what had happened, when he sees

Subaru slightly giggles as he begins to contemplate what he is seeing

Subaru:[Thinking: Ha…., Where is my leg? ]

Wilhelm starred at the screen in horror

Wilhelm: By Od, how long will this last?

He says as he again crush the arm rest. To see his friend, his grandson suffer in such a way infuriated him. No because of nothing Subaru did but at his own slothfulness

We cut to see a Subaru missing his left arm and right leg as he mind is slowly falls apart. His eyes are balling and his body shaking with fear and pain.

Subaru:[Thinking: Now my leg! This must be a prank or something. What is happening ]

He finally figure what’s happening as a chilling feeling courses through his lower half. It became so cold it began to burn

Subaru:[Thinking: I-I think I’m understanding]

As his puts the pieces together, the chilling reality sets in causing him to shake even more of fear.

Subaru:[Thinking: These are the pieces of me I lost when I died. Puck fre..freezing, my leg and Rem… ]

He couldn’t even finish the thought as he truly cared for Rem and didn’t want to think of what she did

Rem could only silently repeat the words “I’m sorry” as Ram hugs her dear sister, failing to comfort her

Subaru:[Thinking: Bu..but does that mean the rest will…]

He truly feared what experiencing the Rabbit death again. Such a feeling would truly break him down

Julius too couldn’t handle it as he vomits to his side

Julius: If he has to face that pain again, how will he be able to handle it? Could anyone truly live a normal life after experiencing that?

Anastasia : I think I’m beginning to understand why it’s happening now instead of a long time ago.

Julius quickly looks at the lady

Julius: Lady Anastasia, please explain

Anastasia: First I need to get confirmation of something

Anastasia looks back at Roswaal

Anastasia: Hey clown, has there been any disasters or threats to the mansion or to Subaru within the year?

Roswaal wearing his perfect smiles replies back:

Roswaal : I would nee~ver allow such harm to come to mansion unless it I who permitted it and as the rule of the contract between I and Subaru, I could not doo~o so if I wanted.

Anastasia still suspicious of the clown continues

Anastasia : Well if what your saying is true then that only proves my theory

The entire cast became interested in the merchant’s theory

Anastasia : Well if Subaru has been in this world for nearly a month chronologically then that would mean that everyday since he came to our world, his mind was set on rescuing, survive and death. Rinse and repeat. Just a mindset while very toxic, could hold off all the tragedies he’s lived through. He didn’t have time to actually deal with it in a healthy manner because there was no time to do so and so it just build up in the back of his mind. That was his only way of surviving. To stuff down all his worries, his pain, his sadness and only letting little bits of it leak out. But now it’s different. If there’s not threat then that mindset dissolves which means all that he was stuffing down can finally burst out and the result is that.

The entire theater then became as quiet. So quiet you could hear the heartbeats of nearly every member. Everything they thought they knew about the boy’s suffering had been thrown out the window. They did not know where to even start if they wanted to help him. There previous declarations of helping Subaru became as hollow as a tree. They didn’t know if they could help the boy and so all went silent as they began to turn to look at the screen

Subaru begins hysterically searching around for something. With his eyes blurry and mind breaking apart, nearly everything was a blur until his saw a small closet. A closet where they store cleaning supplies

Subaru: Perfect

He said out loud. He made sure that the vase was fine and began crawling to it

Subaru:[Thinking: It hurts. It hurts. It hurts so much I wanna vomit. So much I wanna..]

Otto hugged the tiger boy as they both silently cried

Otto:[Thinking: My brother what can we do to help? Can we do anything besides make you suffer? Maybe it would have been better if we never met ]

Petra grabs one of Otto’s clothing

Petra: Please don’t think like that

Otto stares at the young maiden as she continues

Petra: I know we all failed him and maybe it would be better for him if we never met, but the reality is that we did this. We made him like this and it’s our responsibility to help him. No matter how hard or long it takes. We will help him, not because we owe him but simply because we are friends. That’s what friends do, am I wrong?

She smiles at the grey-haired merchant with tears in her eyes

Otto:[Thinking: How could someone so young mature so quickly? I guess this place did help us in some ways ]

Otto makes a small smile and says: Your right. We will all help our friend out no matter the obstacles in our way

Priscilla looks at the young as she closes her fan and points it at her

Priscilla: You in the maiden outfit, what’s your name?

Petra looks back at the scary lady

Petra: Pet-Petra ma’am. Petra Leyte

Priscilla stands and says in a proud voice

Priscilla: Take heed worthless insects. This young girl over there has finally said the very words you all have spoken about, only to crumble in your own lack of conviction. She may be weaker than us and she may be a commoner but she has proven to be your greatest chance of stabilizing the boy, well besides me of course. You’ll be a great rival. Will you shatter or will you sparkle even brighter? We’ll have to see.

After her speech, she begins to sit down, opening her fan as she relishes in the spotlight.

Petra: I will save him not just because she’s saved me many times but because I love him. You’ll be a great opponent but don’t cry when you fail

Priscilla still as confident as ever

Priscilla: I agree to this duel

Everyone stared at the little girl with a small smile. If a young girl still believes in the possibility of helping him then how could they stand ideally by. Her words, while harsh brought a new sense of confidence in their souls.

A memory of Satella, the witch of Envy wanting him to live made him stop his thought

He finally made it to the closet, holding the handle as if his life depended on it, as it might as well have. He shut it from the inside, lock it and push himself to the corner of the room hiding in darkness. He sits in the fetal position as he holds his head down frantically looking around the room as the light shines through the cracks of the door

Subaru:[Thinking: When will it end? Please let this end.]

He grabs his missing arm again and continues scratching

Subaru:[Thinking: I have to stop. I have to! Beako is gonna cry! You gotta stop your monster! Bu..but I can’t. It hurts, it hurts so much and the only thing stopping the pain from growing is this. I’m sorry Beako. I’m sorry]

Beako grabs the sleeping boy’s arm

Beako: Your not a monster. Betty’s Subaru is a kind soul. Why can’t you see that? You’re a good boy and the best contractor anyone could ask. So please, please stop for Betty.

She knew that she couldn’t change what was happening on the screen but still she begged for him to stop

He continues to cry until he feels a warm liquid spill onto his remaining hand. The warm, almost water like texture of blood stains his hand down to his palm.

He then pulls the bloodied hand to his face to see proof that his other arm was still there.

There is a couple of mins of silence as he continues to stare at it when his left eyes began to lose its light. It didn’t even register with the young butler until his left eyes went completely dark

He put his bloodied hand to his left eye when he begin to chuckle at what had just happen

Subaru: It’s gone

Emilia ever since he lost his arm become in a trance of self- loathing

Emilia silently stared at the screen while tears fell down her face. Her face almost seemed dead with the only thing confirming that she was alive was her scratching herself mimicking her knight. “A lady and her knight rub off on each other as they say right?” All her thoughts were that she had caused this

Emilia:[Thinking: You did this to him. Your plain ignorance brought him nothing but despair. While you were thinking about how the world perceives you, the first man to truly love you was dying over and over again, to save you and you told him to wait for an answer to a simple question. Your evil, your wicked, you truly are the witch of Envy]

He now imagines himself as a laboratory experiment gone wrong. An even worse version of Frankenstein’s monster. A man who’s missing an arm, a leg and now an eye. He giggles became full on laughter as the stares at nothing

Subaru:[Thinking: I get it now! This must be my past sin coming back to haunt me. The death of Emilia, Rem losing her memories, Ram losing her sister, the Crusch camp losing their leader and many more. All those fell on me and now they’re coming back to punish me. I’m sorry. Rem I’m sorry I couldn’t be your hero. Crusch I’m sorry I wasn’t a better solider. Ram I’m sorry I couldn’t protect your sister. But I won’t hide from it. I’ll take my punish full force.]

He stops scratching himself and returns to a neutral sitting position as he stares at the ceiling while silently giggling at his own worthlessness as he slowly passes out

Rem: He’s truly broken. Oh my hero, I, no we’re all terribly sorry for what we’ve done to you. If you hate us that is fine, if you loathe us that’s fine. As long as you’re happy we’ll take out any punishment punish needed if it means to help you.

Wilhelm angry at the words that just came out of he mouth crushes the arm rest AGAIN as he stood up and yelled

Wilhelm : ARE YOU ALL COWARDS?!!!

Everyone started at the Sword demon in shock

Wilhelm : DO YOU TRULY BELIVE THAT YOUR SUFFERING WILL DO HIM ANY GOOD? HE DIED OVER AND OVER AGAIN SO YOU COULD LIVE. IT IS TRUE THAT WE HAVE FAILED HIM BUT DO YOU THINK HE WENT THROUGH ALL THAT SO YOU WALLOW IN SELF PITY. IF YOU BEILIVE THEN ALL SUBARU’S WORK WAS FOR NOT. LOOK AT THE BOY

They moved their faces towards the screen

Wilhelm : HE IS SUFFERING BECAUSE NONE OF US ARE THERE FOR HIM. WE COULDN’T NOTICE THE BOY’S DEAD EYES AND THIS IS OUR PUNISHMENT.

Wilhelm looks at the ground in sadness:

IT’S TRUE THAT I WANT TO TAKE AWAY ALL HIS PAIN. WE ALL WANT TO BUT TGE REALITY IS WE CANNOT. WHAT’S DONE IS DONE BUT WE GIVEN A GIFT.

Wilhelm looks up. He can see the dark ceiling but above that is the gates of heaven in which is late wife dances on. Wilhelm smiles as he put his heart to his chest

Wilhelm: WE ARE ABLE TO SEE OUR PAST MISTAKES AND REFLECT UPON IT. NOW ANSWER ME THIS IS, WILL YOU STAND BY AND CONTINUE TO WATCH THE BOY CRUMBLE OR WILL YOU STAND WITH ME SO MAY BE ABLE TO PICK THE PEICES AND HELP THE MAN TO SAVED US ALL!!!

Rem thought in her head: I can’t, no I won’t fail him again. If he hates me that’s fine, if he wants my life and body that’s fine too. As long as I can help him, I’m fine with the results

Wilhelm’s works break to Emilia causing her to begin thinking to herself

Emilia:[Thinking:I love him. I love him too much to let go. I know it’s selfish but I cannot keep standing by watching him suffering. I’ll hold his hand, hear his wounds, wipe away his tears and listen to his story. Because I truly love you Subaru Natsuki

Otto raises his hands and says

Otto: I owe him my life but that’s not the only reason why I want to help. He is my first friend, my first true friend and I want to help him anyway possible

Garfeil getting inspired from his brotto allow raises his hand and says

Garfeil: Brotto is right. Captain is captain and I want to kick all those dark thoughts away. I want to be his shield but also his friend

Ram raises her hand to

Ram: He’s stupid, naive, lazy and uneducated. But even then I want to save him

Rem: So do I. I love him so much and I cannot just stand still while he suffers alone

Emilia: Yeah! He’s my knight and lover. It’s my duty to help him when he’s in trouble. He’s done so much for me and this is a mere fraction of what I can do for him

Beatrice stand up and says

Beatrice: As a great spirit and Subaru’s sprit I want to do all I can do help my contractor. He saved me from 400 years of solitude and so I must help him with his own demon

Frederica: He saved me and little Petra. Not only that but we may have known each other for a little while, he is still a dear friend and I want to save him

Petra: Yeah. He helped me out, played with me, gave me a job and saved my life. I love him and I want to fight to protect him

Felt: You already know me and Rein are in. Big bro cannot go at this alone and this time I want to help him.

Reinhard: What my lady says is true. He is my friend and as someone really close to me once say “I need to be more greedy” and so I will. I want to help him, I want to help fight against those things that plague his mind because that’s what a friend with do

Julius: As a knight, it is my duty to help all who are in danger but right now I’m not Julius, I’m Juli and what I want is to save my friend

The merchant’s camp began laughing at such an odd declaration from the so called “perfect knight”

Anastasia: Well then Juli, I guess I no other option but to join you. I still owe him a great debt after all and as a merchant, I pay all that I owe

The rest of the camp scream: YEAH

Crusch stand up and says

Crusch : I also owe him a great debt. If not for him, the subjugation of the white whale would never have succeeded. Not only that but he saved mine and my men’s lives multiple times. But also he’s my friend. I feel terrible for not speaking to him more when I had the chance but I will not waste it again. I want him to tell me his story, his rough journey from his perspective whenever sadness fall upon him

Felix then stands up says

Felix : I agree. He is in the same rank as me yet he’s done more for this nation than I ever did. I caused tremendous suffering and there is nothing I can do about it but as his friend as his doctor I want to help him live a normal healthy life and I believe with all our power together we’ll be able to so.

Pricilla : The world only favors me so it is fate that he shall fall into my hands. All I have to do is wait but once he is in my domain, I will rebuild him in such a way that those thoughts will never harm him again

Al: My lady you are correct. I guess I will be seeing you soon bro

In the back a certain blue haired clown smilies

Roswaal: I have no right to say this. It is my fault that he suffered so much. Nearly all of his deaths can be attributed to my plan and for that I can never ask for forgiveness but I will do all I can so that the boy can gain as much help as possible

Wilhelm smilies at the fact that everyone truly loves the boy

Wilhelm: THEN WE MUST CONTINUE TO WATCH. THROUGH THE GOOD, THE BAD AND THE WORSE. WE WILL WATCH IT ALL UNFOLD AND I SWEAR ON MY LATE WIFE, THERSIA VAN ASTREA WHEN WE GET OUT I WILL COME TO HIS AID AND DO MY BEST AS HIS HONORARY GRANDFATHER AND SO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO HELP SUBARU NATSUKI, WILL YOU JOIN ME?!!!

EVERYONE: YEAH!!!!!!

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Beatrice sits quietly in her comfy chair, reading a book in the brand new mansion library. Ever since the forbidden library was burned down, she couldn’t find a quiet place to read so her contractor suggested that she tries to make do with the new library her home but Beako wasn’t comfortable with the idea. While the previous one was her prison, she still has some attachment to it and so choosing to stay in a different library felt unusual, but this time she wasn’t alone. She had her lovely contractor, one she chose instead of being chosen and it was someone who she dearly cherished

Beatrice finishes reading a chapter and closes her book.

Beatrice: That’s enough for now. Betty deserves a treat for being so cute

Petra : You sure do love your sweets don’t you Beatrice? You know, most of it I baked with the help of Ms. Frederica so I’m glad that you enjoy it

Beatrice : Yes, you should get an award for making such treats that satisfies Betty’s taste buds. Be honored

This interaction between the spirit and the young maid reinforces the idea that besides Subaru, Petra was the closest to the great spirit which made Anastasia nearly pass out from all the cuteness

The 400 year old great spirit begins skipping around as she heads for the a plate. Subaru before meeting up with Emilia left a big pallet of snacks as a reward for Beatrice but in less then an hour, a serving that would send a normal person to the hospital for its amount of sugar was gone.

Beatrice reaches the plate and stops smiling as she sees an empty plate

Beatrice: Where did it go? I want it now!!!

She begins have a tantrum session at the fact that there are no more treats when she gets a thought

The audience began laughing at how the great spirit, one who proclaimed to be above all of them is acting like a mere child. Beatrice face went red looking at this scene as he looked down because anywhere else won’t lead to her feeling more embarrassment

Beatrice: Petra! She must have some more. Betty must fine her and with my cuteness I shall acquire more treats

She has a devilish smile while creating her plan to satiate her hunger.

Petra quickly looks at Beatrice

Petra: Hey! That’s just rude. Weaponizing our friendship to benefit yourself is just rude and unbecoming of someone with your status

Beatrice continued to look down in shame as the scene played out. Ooh if she had magic she would’ve teleported out of there out of pure embarrassment

She picks up the plate and begins heading to the door when suddenly a wave of sadness and trouble passes through her as a single tear falls on her face

Beatrice touches her face as she questions

Beatrice: A tear? Why am I cryin—-

Her face, once having a bright smile now just in a state of shock as she drops the plates shattering it while she uttered a single words in a frightful tone

Beatrice: …subaru….

The entire camp then faced the screen with a serious face. Gone were the silent conversations of giggles because they knew now wasn’t a time for it. They knew that Subaru was having a mental breakdown as this was playing out but they didn’t expect this to be how she’d learn about him state

Rem : Ms.Beatrice, are you able to feel what Subaru feels?

Beatrice starring at the screen didn’t even bother turning around as she said

Beatrice : In a normal situation both me and my contractor wouldn’t be able to connect our emotions like what’s being shown. Only when one is experiencing a great emotion, whether good or bad, can the other begin to feel it and it but it isn’t the full emotion we feel. Maybe only 1/10 of it from my own experience

The cast then was able to breathe safely. The idea that another person experienced the same feelings and thoughts as the young knight shook them to their core so to hear it was only a tenth and that it was rare brought them some form of comfort to them

She quickly ran to hers and Subaru’s room and grabs the book, quill and a small bottle of ink and begins frantically running.

Where would he be? Where would he be? He’s in trouble! I don’t know why but if it’s reaching me then it must be very bad I suppose

Beatrice begins crying watching the scene, imagining what her contractor is suffering through

Beatrice: Please save him Betty

She thank whatever god that no one saw her because questioning what was going on would take more time then what little she had. Rem was cleaning the opposite side of the mansion, Frederica was washing the outside of the mansion, Otto and Roswall were in his offices, Petra was out gathering items, Emilia was studying in her room and Garfiel was taking a nap outside.

She ran from hallway to hallway unable to find her master and with each min her fear continued to grow not because of her, but her contractor. He was feeling as if he’s soul was leaving his body and that emotional distress reached her. After 2 mins of restlessly running, she finally was able to location the contractor through the use of the witches scent. Usually she would just turn off the sense as it would only irritate her. Being near the source 24/7 was bound to make her sick at some point so after making the contract, she decided to simply turn it off and only occasionally turn it on. While running she activated it but such a smell nearly overwhelmed her so taking a couple of seconds to collect herself was needed in order to properly use it.

Garfield curious at the loli’s ability

Garfiel: How are you able to turn it off? You just can’t turn off a sense like smell

Beatrice looked at Mr. Gorgeous tiger and explained

Beatrice : I’m a spirit. Everything about my body is made of mana and the manipulation of it so simply turning off the sensation of smell is quiet easy

The two demon maids along with the young blond boy took note to that and making sure to ask further questions when things calm down

Now she stands in front of the door already smelling blood and prepare herself for what can only be a sad sight. She tried opening it but it was locked and so she began violently knocking the door.

Beatrice: Subaru! It’s me! Your Betty is here so please open up.

She continued to hit the door until she took a step back and put her hand up facing the door deciding it was faster this way. Nothing was gonna stop her from helping her contractor until she heard a voice she’d recognize anywhere but it sounded as if it was made of tears, anger and overall darkness

STOP!!!!!

After hearing the desperate plea she took a second before he continued

Subaru: Beako I know it’s you but please stop. I don’t want to come out and I don’t want you to come in and see me.

Beatrice continued to cry as she hugs her sleeping partner

Beatrice: Please allow me to help you. You can’t keep going on like this

Emilia holding her knight’s arm sobbing her eyes out. She starred at the screen making sure to not miss a moment so that she could remember her uselessness.

Emilia:[Thinking: Watch it. Don’t miss a moment. This happened in your house. Your love is sinking in his thoughts yet you are simply studying. How useless. How disgusting. How.. ]

Suddenly Emilia feels something hold her shoulder and as she turns around with tears in her eyes she realises who it is.

Crusch: Please, don’t. For yours and his sake, don’t blame yourself

Emilia hearing these words let go of her arms rest and placed her free hand ln her lap as she continues to weep at the scene

Beatrice: Why I suppose? I can feel your emotions. You’re in terrible pain. Your hurt, your sad, and you sound like your out of breath. I need to come in and help

Subaru: No. Please. I’m fine. I don’t need your help

Beatrice: STOP LYING I SUPPOSE! THIS IS JUST LIKE YOUR NIGHTMARES. YOU  CLAIM TO BE ALRIGHT BUT YOUR BODY AND MIND ARE MANGLED AND IN RUIN. HOW CAN I CALL MYSELF YOUR SPIRIT AND YOUR FRIEND IF I CAN’T EVEN HELP YOU?!!

Otto: Friend huh? What a friend I am

Garfiel suddenly jabs at the merchant with tears in his eyes

Garfiel: It’s like what the old man said, we may have failed our captain before but now we have a chance to change. So we must endure because he did for us

Otto holding his arm was shocked to see that Garfiel of all people was being this mature. He wanted to hell his friend and in order to help him, he must understand him

Otto: Your right, thanks for that Garfiel but did you need to hit me?

Garfiel: Yeah! You were acting stupid again

They both had a small laugh as they both looked back at the screen

The boy didn’t have any responds that word defend himself or get her to leave and so chose to stay silent.

After a minute of empty silence between the pair she said in a quiet but shaky voice. As if she’s was about to ball her eyes out

Beatrice: I’m sorry for yelling. I don’t know what’s troubling you but I want to help. I want to be there for you. Even if you’re broken, I’ll be here to put you together because you saved me from the library. So I’ll slide the notebook I brought with and quill so you can tell it your thoughts. I also brought a bottle of ink with me but it won’t fit so you’ll have to open the door. Can you do that for me?

Rem looks to the great spirit as she was holding one of her hero’s arms having a puffy face from crying. She had cried so much that she couldn’t muster anymore and had just eyes of one who lost her beloved

Rem: Thank you for helping my hero while I was out Ms.Beatrice

Beatrice: Betty didn’t do it for your sake woman. And besides I still haven’t been able to completely help him I suppose!

After another minute of what felt like an eternity, he slightly opened the door. Not enough to allow her in but enough to grab the bottle.

She had a faint smile as her face has a tired look to it with puffy eyes from crying so much.

She handed him the bottle and he quickly closed the door. She then slides the book and quill and sat down, laying her back on the side of the door

Felix was in shock of what had transpired. Seeing his friend at this state sadden the knight because as a doctor he should have been able to detect distress with someone. Especially one with the title of Blue, but right now wasn’t the time for self-loathing. They’ll be time later. Like Wilhelm said, they needed to watch in order to truly help him and so said in a whisper

Felix: So he did try the book. It’s good to see that he’s willing to try

After 10 minutes of dreaded silence, the boy spoke in a tone that had less sadness it in but one of still clouded in fear

Subaru: I’m sorry

Beatrice: It’s ok

Subaru: Do you hate me?

Beatrice: Never. Betty could never hate her contractor

Subaru: Will I ever be able to live normally?

Beatrice: I cannot say

Subaru: Why am I like this?

Beatrice: I cannot say but Betty knows this isn’t your fault

Subaru: How can I face tomorrow?

Beatrice: With your  by your side

Subaru:……

Another minute passed, as the door began opening from the inside

Beatrice happy to be let in slowly walks in but before she could make note of the surroundings she is quickly pulled into a hug as the boy begins crying again

Subaru: It hurts. It hurts so much. Everyday the pain just grows and grows. But I have to put up with it. I have to keep smiling because I don’t want them to see me different.

Felt looked down at the floor with streams of tears flowing. The sight of her friend in such a state became too heavy to bare, especially for one who is so young and so she tried blocking her sight from reality. 

Felt: Big bro

Reinhard grabbed his lady hand as a way to say that “they all feel the same right now” but it wasn’t able to help the young girl much

Beako while tearing up kept listening to his words. It saddens her to see her lovely contractor be reduced to this but at least now he was opening up. He wasn’t hiding behind a mask and so in this rare open of the true Subaru Natsuki, she continued to let him speak. Not interrupting as that would likely make him push away

Subaru: I know I’m weak, I’m not smart, I’m not gifted so there’s not a lot I can do. There eyes. There eyes haunt me everyday because I have to keep smiling so they don’t have those eyes. Ones of disappointment, ones of sadness.

-A flashback of the argument he and Emilia had -

Subaru: If they knew me, the real me, things would never be the same and…..and that’s what scares me.

-A flashback of Ram and Roswaal starring at the boy while he simply looks towards a dead Rem-

Ram looked down while holding her dress and looking to the side. It was too much to see the man she consider her little brother in a such a state and it was her fault that he was like this. All anyone could see was a pink haired maid gritting her teeth while having a single stream of tears falling from her face

Ram: Barusu, I’m sorry

I don’t know how to keep moving while carrying this pain. I’m sorry Beako. I’m truly for being utterly pathetic. I can’t even keep you happy.

Emilia: Your not pathetic. We all love you. Saying sorry simply won’t do but please allow us to help you. We won’t judge. You’ve helped us so please allow us to help you

He sounded so out of breath, as if he ran a mile or that he was just gasping for air after nearly drowning

Beatrice: Subaru, I love you. Not only because you saved me, but also because everyday I live with you is another day I know I’m truly happy. Happy to be alive. Happy to be with you.

She turned around to face her master. He eyes was red as cherries, the bags around his eyes was very dark. He was still hyperventilating and looking around as if he was being hunted. He was holding he’s bloodied arm while his jacket was on the other side of the of the closet. He hair was a mess and his entire body was shaking

She looked at the bloodied arm horrified but chose that at this moment his mind needed her more then his body

Julius: He looks so broken and tired. Why can’t I be of use to you my friend?

He only looked down while sweating and crying. He wasn’t as quiet as the ladies in the front and so everyone could see how human Julius truly was. He wasn’t a knight right now, but a man sobbing over his friend’s state

Beatrice puts her hands on her contractor’s face so that he would focus on her and her voice

Beatrice: Everyone in this mansion loves you. From the pink hair maid to that alcoholic merchant, every single one cares for you not because what you can give but because who you are. It is true. You may not be the strongest, the fastest or the smartest but they do not care for that. They care for you and your well-being as much as I. We all love you Subaru Natsuki, don’t ever doubt it.

Petra crying while holding Frederica

Petra: It’s true, we all love you. Please just speak to us. We want to help you and we won’t judge. I can’t keep seeing you like this my love

Subaru’s eyes began to gain a glimmer of light in them. As if an angel was shining through the dark clouds that faded his mind

Subaru in a tired and sad voice

Subaru: But how can I face them? I’m too afraid to face them. I don’t think I ever will have the strength to

Beatrice letting go of her master’s face begins to place her face onto his chest and wrap her arms around him

Beatrice: Then face me. Pour all your sadness, all your tears, all your darkness upon me and then when you’re done I’ll still be here ready to listen to you. You’ve done so much for me so it’s only right I can do it for you

Emilia: Thank you Beatrice. While we were useless in this situation and saved my love. Thank you

Beatrice ignored the words of the half elf as she continues to watch. What she or anyone had to say at this moment held no weight as what she was solely focused on was her contractor on the screen

Subaru finally began to calm down as he lets out a small chuckle. The reverse phantom pain begins to fade away at the great spirit’s words. After a min of silence he returns the hug while crying

Subaru: I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry

He continues to repeat the phrase as the great spirits listens while also crying

Beatrice: Shh shh shh. It’ll be alright. Your partner is here

Beatrice: For once Betty was able to help you. I’m so grateful that I was able to relieve some of your hardship or at least some version Betty did 

She looked down in sadness as she knew that she wasn’t that Betty. The Betty who was able to pull her contractor out of the darkness and she envy her

Subaru wiped his tear was still trying to catch his breath. Subaru looked to his spirit and asked 

Subaru: Beako….can we just stay here? I don’t want to go outside yet

Beatrice: That’s fine although Betty will have to leave and tell someone that you’re done with your duties for the day. I will not allow you to return until you’re fully healed, physically and mentally.

Subaru began to panic at the idea of her disappearance but as quick as the idea came, it was ripped away by the words of his spirit

Beatrice hugs him even tighter

Beatrice: It’ll be alright. I’m here

The atmosphere while small, felt truly free to the boy. While he won’t be able to speak of his previous loops or his failures, he was able to let go of a weight that was holding his body down, the eyes of expectation.

Reinhard: Great spirit Beatrice I thank you for helping my friend when I was never able to

Again, Beatrice ignores the comments and continues to watch, almost like she I’m a hypnotic trance

The duo began to discuss various topics while Beatrice began to heal Subaru’s arms. After a couple of hours Beatrice had to tell her contractor

Beatrice: I will have to leave soon to inform the people of your sudden sickness. I’ll be back in a bit

She begins to wipe herself clean off all the tears and sweat they both shared.

Beatrice: If you want to speak to someone while I’m gone, try the book. It seems like it is helping you.

Subaru looked back at the elderly loli and gave a thumbs up

Subaru: You got it Beako

He gave a big smile, not one of those practiced, perfect smile but one true and kind. It looked quite beautiful for the raven haired boy

Otto: He actually looks happy. I’m so glad he’s finally able to smile again

Frederica still holding her Petra

Frederica: Yes I agree. He looks so at ease right now

Beatrice left and went to Frederica to inform her. While she was a bit skeptical, the face of the great sprit made it certain that no matter what, her contractor will not be able to work for the day or the next couple of days and agreed and offered her condolences. Beatrice went back to the closet and was glad to see that her master was using the notebook and was smiling.

Roswaal:[ Thinking: So he is using the book and it is proving to be effective. So what made you give it up when it was working so well? ]

She closed the door and continued to talk to her contractor until night arrived.

Subaru’s stomach began to growl as he realizes how long they’ve been in the closet.

Subaru: Wow we’ve been here for a while. We should grab dinner.

Beatrice: Yes! As your spirit it’s my job to make sure you’re well fed so we will return to our bedroom while Betty grab our dinner.

Subaru: You don’t hav—-

Beatrice looks back at her contractor with a red aura surrounding her

Beatrice: That wasn’t a request, it’s an order

Priscilla begins fanning herself while having a mischievous smile

Priscilla: That’s the authority one must have in they want true change. I respect that great spirit

For the 3rd time, Beatrice ignored the words of whatever was speaking but Priscilla knew the outcome already but had to show some form of respect

Subaru not wanting to be at mercy of a thousand pink gems being flung at him said

Subaru: O..ok

As she said, they returned to their room, surprised to see a pallet of food already there. They had checked the time at it was near 10 at night. Everyone had already eaten and some were already asleep

And at the sudden realization, Subaru grabbed Beatrice and quickly walked to a certain bedroom

Ricardo: where is he going? He should some rest

The cast agreed with the Demi-human. After what occurred the boy desperately needed some rest but the Emilia knew exactly where he was going. The place he always goes around this time of night

Beatrice was asking many questions as she was being dragged across the mansion until she too came to the realization as they were near a familiar door.

Once they reach the door Beatrice says the first line

Beatrice: I’ll give you some time with her but don’t take too long I suppose.

Subaru: Thank you Beako. Your the best

Beatrice: Of course Betty is. Betty thinks she should be rewarded for this in fact.

She says with full confidence as she crosses her arms with a smug smile

Subaru: And you will

Subaru enters the room to see a sleeping angel in the corner of the room

It became a routine of his to visit her every night and speak to her. Speaking to her brought them even closer and it help calm him down

Subaru waved his hands as she says with a big smile

Subaru:….Hey Rem

Rem blushing looking at the scene: Hello my love

Ram didn’t know weather to be mad at stupid Barusu for trying to seduce her sister or be happy that even if she lost her memory of her sister, someone was spared for some reason and was able to keep her sister company and memories alive

Subaru sat down in a chair near the girl, held her hand and began to speak to the sleeping Rem about the day. He spoke about the good, the bad and the worse as he begins to cry.

Subaru: Rem I will save you. I will bring you back and we’ll go on as many dates as you want. Your hero will save you but this time—-

He looks back at the door where his spirit was

Subaru: I won’t be alone

Both the great spirit and the blue haired maid began crying loudly while holding there partner as if he about to die, or die again I mean

He let go of her hand, kissed her forehead and bid her goodnight. He walks out and hold his spirit’s hands as they returned back to their room and ate there dinner while chatting

After eating, they both prepared for bed as they began heading to bed. They went back to their usual position as they both stared to the ceiling

Subaru: Thank you Beako

Beatrice: Your welcome

After a couple of minutes of silence

Beatrice: Thank you Subaru

Subaru was about to ask why but knew that it was a stupid thing to ask and simply said

Subaru: Your welcome Great spirit Beatrice

After a couple of minutes they both fell asleep, holding hands and smiling as they knew that they were inseparable

{Episode 1: Complete}

The theater was an in awe. The great sprit of Yin was able to help their friend through the darkness and able to bring him back into her arms. Such words could not convey the feeling they were having at the moment and so they all chose to stay silent

Chapter Text

As the end of the episode came, the audience looked towards the screen with many thoughts

This is the end of episode one guys. We’ll take a break before the next one

Emilia: I know I said this again but thank you Beatrice.

Emilia had slight bags under her eyes, her hair was slightly messy and she her cloth was dripping with her own tears

He starred at the unconscious boy with many thoughts

Emilia:[Thinking: Subaru, it breaks my heart that you do this to yourself. I, of all people shouldn’t judge you but I want to help you. To take you out of the darkness and hold you tightly. To protect you from whatever is hurting you. ]

Beatrice: I didn’t do it for your sake half elf. My contractor was hurting so as his companion, I had to help him

Pricilla : Words as hollow as your soul

Everyone suddenly turned to the cocky sun princess. Most has grown tired of her attitude and some simply tried to ignore her but at all knew that under her insults and arrogance, were words of wisdom

Wilhelm : Do you mind explaining what you mean lady Priscilla?

Wilhelm while acting professional, still had a hint of anger as the only one that was helping Subaru in his time of need was being insulted

Priscilla turned to the elderly gentleman while continuing to fan herself

Priscilla : So even someone as wise as you cannot see what’s truly happening? I pity you as this only proves yet again how infinitely superior one as myself is to you commoner

She then turned to the great spirit

Priscilla : You dare speak of aiding the fool when you did no such thing? How utterly disgraceful. You shall explain yourself immediately or else I will.

Everyone then turned to the spirit with confusion on their mind. Priscilla was not one who make a mistake often so what they were concerned about was what with the spirit hiding

Roswaal didn’t speak because he too came to the same conclusion as the flame princess

Rem : Ms.Beatrice, what is she talking about?

Beatrice realizing that Priscilla found her out looked down in shame. Rarely would the spirit ever feel such a disgusting feeling as shame but at this moment that is all that consumed her

Beatrice : …I don’t remember this…

Rem : Sorry, could you repeat that? I couldn’t hear

Rem wasn’t trying to be disrespectful, it was just that Beatrice said it in such a low and quiet tone that not even Garfeil nor Ram could make out what she said

Beatrice in a pool of different emotions and not in the right mindset simply yelled

Beatrice : I DON’T RECALL THIS I SUPPOSE!!

Everyone was shocked to hear such a loud cry from such a tiny individual. But as that wasn’t enough, the words that she cried out finally registered with their minds

“He must’ve died” that’s the conclusion that everyone came to. Making theories and confirming it are two very different things. They were finally accepting that the theory that he may have used RbD by now that’s basically confirmed, a new terror filled their hearts as a form of poison

Beatrice: THIS ENTIRE DAY NEVER HAPPENED. AFTER BETTY GAVE HIM THE BOOK, BETTY CANNOT RECALL ANY OF THE EVENTS THAT WAS SHOWN

Every word that the spirit said broke her even more and more. She wanted to believe that she did this, that she had helped her contractor but she knew the truth. The moment she figure it was when he put the book in the desk. She recalled that he took it with him outside the room and from then on, she tried to lie to herself. To believe what she is looking at was a lie

To live in a false world when she wasn’t incompetent as to not notice that her master was in trouble but with every second the tragic truth came nailing her mind until she saw herself reaching the closet. From that moment she knew what a failure she was. A different spirit, a different Betty was able to save her master but she was that Betty. She had failed utterly as a spirit as and his closest companion.

After finish her sentence, she hopped off her contractor’s lap and sat on the floor to wallow in self destruction as everyone watched with sadness and shock. They were sad that Beatrice had to watch a different version of herself help her contractor while the true her couldn’t even tell that her contractor was drowning but the other was emotion was true dread. The fact that he died when Roswaal confirmed that there were no threats that he was aware of means that either an incredibly dangerous foe appeared and the man didn’t notice or Subaru simply killed….

They couldn’t finish such a vulgar thought as it would shatter what little sense they had left and so chose to stay completely

Priscilla, well hearing this was filled with a emotion unfamiliar to her. It was a feeling she did not remember experiencing before coming to this hellish room, a feeling of pity. Pity for the small spirit who had to watch this. But as quickly as it came, it was discarded as she knew that she had to keeping up this image and so she continued speaking after letting the spirit finish

She then stood up and closed her fans she she knew that must continue the conversation, lest their ignorance continue to blind them

Priscilla pointed her fan the Emilia camp

Priscilla:  You, the house maid, half elf and pink demon. Do you recall and of the events that had transpired? Do not waste my time, lest you want to be another victim of my blade

The girls quickly turned around as they knew the answer to it

Ram : No

Frederica : No

Emilia : Kinda

Everyone turned to the half elf in shock. Now the situation was getting confusing. How does Emilia remember that day when none of the house members could?

Priscilla’s eyes widen in shock at the half elf’s claim

Priscilla:  Explain yourself, immediately

Emilia : I remember this conversation, but not as this. I had just finished my morning studies and was walking in the garden when I saw Subaru but this place showed something different.

Otto trying his best to answer the situation

Otto : What alterations were there Ms.Emilia? Please tell us

The boy couldn’t stand how useless he was in helping his friend so the only way to quell his self hatred was to solve this mystery.

Emilia : He wasn’t laying on the grass when I saw him and his eyes were…they were hollow. As if he had no light behind those eyes. The conversation was the same mostly but it didn’t show when I had asked him but was wrong. He told me he didn’t get much sleep as training was brutal and I didn’t want to bother him too much so I told him that once he was done that he could rest at my lap. Besides that, the film showed the same events

Everyone was trying to puzzle the mystery out. Otto and Anastasia had a vague idea and Priscilla nearly had it solved until a certain magician spoke

Roswaal : I think I knoo~w what happened Ms.Emilia

Emilia quickly turned to the master of the mansion with slight tears in her eyes

Emilia : Please Roswaal, tell us what happened

But before he could speak a certain swordswomen spoke

Crusch : But let it be known that even without my magic, I will be able to tell if your lying

Crusch while having a somewhat idea of the answer didn’t want to waste any more time then necessary and so allowed the man to speak

Roswaal spoke with his “perfect” smile and so called “happy” demeanor

Roswaal : From what Emilia said, nearly all the events with her and Subaru happened the same and since Beatrice cannot remember helping p~oor Subaru, that must mean that he returned to this day. I cannot tell for sure when exactly he returned but he must’ve come back to this morning. Likely either he’s interaction with Beatrice, right before meeting Ms.Emilia or somewhere in betwe~een

Emilia, Beatrice, Ram and Frederica all held their heads down in shame. They knew that had failed already but he hear it from Roswaal who didn’t sugar-coat it at all broke their hearts even more

Beatrice still not facing her contractor quietly says

Beatrice : Betty is useless, Betty is—-

Before she could continue, the great spirit was brought back to the words of the Sword demon. Even after her failures, she still had the chance to mend her mistakes. She had the gift of time and it was one she wouldn’t waste

After taking in the information, the cast began thinking about what could had led to his death. A new enemy, an accident, was it someone in the camp, or was it suicide? All had some backing to it when suddenly 2 people had come to the same idea

Priscilla : Your hiding something

Crusch : Your hiding something

The two girls after understanding what he said knew that he was hiding something because of the way he worded his information. He knew that he did die, he knew that returned to a specific place and time but he must’ve had some idea on how the boy died

Roswaal : I can assure you that I do not have any information that is relevant to this situation

Crusch quickly stood up as her rage was beginning to show

Crusch : You claim that and while I can tell you aren’t lying, I know that you have some ideas on the events that lead to his demise

Priscilla was getting annoyed at the man. His entire being was a lie. From the way he spoke, to the way he acted, to way he looked was filled with lies and deception and these qualities are ones of roaches and she especially hated roaches

Priscilla : What the warrior says is true. You hold certain information. You shall tell us now or suffer my flames

Roswaal still very calm and was about to defend himself when all heard the same voice

Ok ladies, gentleman and whatever the hell Roswaal is, the next episode is beginning. Please get to your seats and prepare

Garfeil was enraged at this idea. The entire conversation he wanted to yell, to let it be known that if Roswaal wasn’t gonna tell them that he’d rip out his throat but the only thing stopping him was his Brotto and his sis but that he was about to get away with this he couldn’t take it anymore

Garfeil : What the hell are you talking about? He has information that could help my Captain and you choose now to begin the next showing?

The reason on why I’m beginning the next play is because, had I let this discussion continue, someone was gonna die. Whether it was the magician, the princess, the warrior or a bystander, one of you would have been severely injured so instead of wasting my time healing you and calming you down, I’ve decided to end the discussion at the source

The cast were shocked to hear that one of them were to perish had it not been stopped by the director.

Garfeil still mad saw that his friend was trying to calm him down and finally sat back down

Priscilla not liking the outcome starred back at the clown and state in a voice anyone else trembled in

Ooh yeah, and I want to ask the members of the Emilia camp, did you notice anything weird about Subaru throughout the year?

The cast didn’t know how to answer. They wanted to say yes but they weren’t really sure

Beatrice : Yes! Betty’s Subaru began leaving the mansion more frequently and for longer period of time. His visit neither helped nor harmed him but he never told Betty were he went

Ram:  Yes. Barusu also didn’t allow many people to enter his room and whenever someone does, he would want it to be quick. Ram thought that Barusu was hiding an embarrassing secret so I didn’t want to intrude

Frederica a bit hesitant to answer

Frederica : Umm, whenever we worked together, I’d see him stare through the window that faced the forest. I tried to see what he did but never found what exactly he’s looking at

The rest of the members looked at the trio with concern and confusion. If they knew this about Subaru why didn’t they make it known

Emilia was about to question them before—

Yeah those odd behavior should have been a major red flag but you’ll figure it out later on. But the next episode will begin shortly

The sun princess while shocked to hear the utter stupidity of her rival’s words knew the bigger problem and so turned back to face the clown

Priscilla : This isn’t over clown. You will reveal your secrets to me as it is fated to happen

Roswaal : Oo~h fated to happen you say? Well sad to say but I know of fate all to well and fate isn’t something you can control

Ok before another argument begins, the next episode is gonna begin

Episode 2: Blue flower blooms

Petra:  This sounds like a happy episode. Please let it be

Petra was tired from the emotional roller coaster that was the previous one so she was begging that this would be a lighter story

{Episode 2 begins}

Chapter Text

We begin the story as we see a familiar boy on a beach starring at the ocean, yet something isn’t right. Everything is in black and white, well everything besides himself. His face is one of someone who is tired, tired of what is unknown

Subaru begins walking towards the ocean. Step after step, he continues to walk while not thinking of anything

Anastasia : I do not know of this location. Emilia do you have any memory of it?

Anastasia was very curious on such a unique looking location

Emilia : No, I do not. Maybe this is a location from Subaru’s homeland

Crusch observing carefully

Crusch : Probably not. If it was then Subaru’s body would’ve regressed to a younger form. Maybe this is a dream?

Subaru kept on walking as he enters the ocean, continuing to stare at the horizon. The water kept on rising as he continued to walk silently

Petra : This is creepy. He doesn’t look well and the lack of colour is very off putting.

Petra was holding Frederica’s sleeve with one hand

Frederica : I agree. Such a location is very haunting

When the water had reach his torso Subaru stop walking. Subaru finally looked at his reflection in the water. He wasn’t smiling, he had very dark bags around his eyes, his face paler then usual and his body lost some weight

Rem: [Thinking: Subaru….]

That’s all she could think about in the moment. He looked tired, as if he’s given upon on moving forward. It was like when he was trying to run away but that version of himself was scared, this one just looked empty

Subaru continued at his reflection specifically his eyes. His eyes had no semblance of life in it. Eyes as dark as his hair. He took a breath in and closed his eyes for a moment and when he opened his eyes he saw a corpse. A corpse of himself who’s been dead for quite some time. It looked like the aftermath of his first death to Elsa

Garfiel: That bitch!!!!

Garfiel was furious that he didn’t get to torture her more before ending her life. Every time he remembered her death, he was disgusted at how happy she was. She looked like she was having the time of her life fighting him. He wanted to change that smile into one of pure dread. He wanted her to cry, to suffer, to feel an ounce of what she did to her victims and most of all, his captain

Otto then grabbed his friend’s clothing signaling to calm down. Garfeil looked at him with slight anger but knew that his friend had no ill intentions and so complied

Subaru continued to stare and the reflection of his dead body when a new image came to the reflection. It was his second death. Blood continued to spill from his torn stomach as flys danced are his soulless eyes

Various images began appearing, showing each one of his death and the boy continued to stare with a blank face

Felix: He looks so mentally exhausted. Like death and the fear behind death fully left him, as though he was a corpse walking

Felt : Yeah it’s kinda scary

Felt look down for a second thinking to herself

Felt : Thinking:[ Big bro, what kind of trouble are you in now? ]

After the most recent death was shown the reflection returned to its original state, simply reflecting a broken man. He then looked up to the grey sky. Clouds filled the sky as far as the eye could see.  He closed his eyes as though he had just woken up and when he opened them, he was in a new area

Julius: So this is a dream. He doesn’t look scared

Julius began to sweat at what he was looking at but then a thought came to his mind and before he mind cut himself off, he spoke out loud

Julius : Is this what he dreams of when he’s not having a nightmare?

That thought shocked everyone in the Emilia camp. Sleeping is a time when the body and mind rest. A time when you can detach from reality and just enjoy a time to rest but that wasn’t the case for him. For every moment he was alive, it was a moment of eternal hell. As the thought creeped into their minds everyone looked down is despair

He was now in a a graveyard where 17 headstone can be seen organized in a 3 x 6 formation. Subaru was at the front of the graves where each one was labeled “Here lies Subaru Natsuki: Lugunica’s Ultimate Fool”

Priscilla: Someone who defeated a sin archbishop and 2 of the Great Ma beast sees himself as a simple fool? How grotesque. I must acquire him immediately lest his mind further corrupts him

Rem with her great sense of hearing took notice of the sun princess’s words and aggressively stared at the women while gritting her teeth in anger

Rem : You won’t lie a finger on my love

Priscilla : Big word coming from one who snuffed out his life and then immediately began torturing him

Rem : Words coming from one who saw him as worthless and chose to throw him out like trash and had threaten to murder him

The two women continued to scare at each other. Both, if had the option, would easily begin a bloody fight but knew it was useless so long as they were in the theater and thus turned back to the screen

Subaru looked at one the graves. The tomb was blank and the grave didn’t have a body

Felt : Wait why is one of them empty?

Reinhard: It’s probably because Subaru has passed away a total of 17 times but they are 18 graves so it’d make sense as 1 would be empty

Subaru began walking to the empty grave.

*Step*

*Step*

*Step*

Keeping the same pace, he walked to the grave with his hollow eyes. He stood in front of the grave and starred and after a min a small smile came to his face

Otto: He’s smiling? But why

Al : I do not know dude. It’s creepy as hell

He smiled but not one of his fake, practiced smiles. It was a true smile that he hadn’t made in quite a long time. He then let his body go, letting it fall into the empty grave, face first, until it hit the soft dirt and as his body fell the grave stone, one that was once empty now has something written on it. “Here lies Subaru Natsuki: Lugunica’s Ultimate Fool”

Beatrice throughout the screening didn’t make a sound. She wanted to learn as much as possible but now she wished she didn’t. As the information that was displayed showcased that her contractor’s thoughts had transcended reality and infected his dreams. Even his happiest dreams are ones filled with sadness

Roswaal :[Thinking: Did he die right then? No, this is days passed of when he got the book. This must be telling us something else ]

Priscilla :[Thinking: So when the commoner passes this time, it won’t be one that causes him sadness. What could that mean? ]

Al : Bro, what kind of fucked up dream was that?

Subaru opened his eyes as he realizes that all he saw was a dream. He didn’t look sad or angry, he had a simple, blank stare.

Subaru: March 20

Garfiel : Why is Captain stating the date?

Beatrice : It is something Betty’s Subaru does nearly everyday. There is a calendar placed in our bathroom and one in our bedroom and no matter the situation my contractor would always start the day by stating the date and checking the calendar

It took many members some time to understand. Ever since Subaru died in his sleep, he’s been fixated with remembering dates as a way to know weather RBD had activated and how far back he went if it did

Emilia intertwined her’s and her knight’s fingers while having a face of one who’s seen a loved one pass away

Emilia : Ooh Subaru

He looks around to see Beatrice next to him and checks the clock to see that it’s 4 in the morning. He begins to slowly release himself from Beatrice’s clutches as he heads out the room

Ram : Where is Barusu going?

Rem : He’s probably going to get fresh air.

She was hoping that he wouldn’t do anything reckless

Right as Subaru is about to close the door, he looks to the corner and sees a calendar stating that it was March 20. He sighs in relief and shuts the door. He began walking in the halls with nothing in mind. He knew that he wasn’t going back to bed anytime soon and chose to get some food. He finally reached the kitchen and grabs 2 appas and a glass of water 

Ram : The nerve!!!

Roswaal slightly shocked to hear such a voice at a mundane scene

Roswaal : Is something wrong Ram?

Ram realizes that she had let her emotions take over and quickly calmed herself and turned to her master

Ram : I apologize for my outburst master Roswaal. It is that I finally figured out something that had been bothering me and Ms.Frederica

Everyone really curious on the oni maid’s words

Roswaal : That is quite ok Ram. Would you like to explain what you’ve discovered?

Ram : Of course sir. Over the course of the year, me and Frederica have notice an abundance of food missing. Sometimes it was an appa, sometimes it was loafs of bread and other was leftovers. We tried meticulously to reveal the person behind it but to no avail. We stayed up countless nights to find out who but every time the criminal would get away. We questioned nearly everyone in the mansion but no leads were found but now the case has been solved

She stood up and pointed up the unconscious boy in the front and said

Ram : That criminal right there has been eating our food for nearly a year. The fool had caused me and the little one to keep running back to the store to buy more and causing my divine self and Frederica time from our beauty sleep

Everyone took a minute to make sense of this but then laughter erupted. Such a violent emotion to such a simple issue was laughable and was needed to lighten the mood.

Felt laughing very loudly

Felt : Ram you should calm down a bit. That face of yours is hilarious. You shouldn’t get so worked up at such a small thing. Hell, I do that all the time, only difference is that Rein always catches me

Reinhard : Lady Felt, if you desired more food then you should ask during dinner. We could give you as much as you need to be full

As the two began the routinely argument, Rem was silently giggling at the scene finally calmed down and said

Rem : Sis, please don’t be angry. The mansion hasn’t suffered from Subaru’s midnight meals. Please forgive him for me

Rem was using her cute charm on Ram and knew that Ram couldn’t stand against such a scene. It was a dog doing his puppy dog eyes to get more treats and the owner being unable to fight

Ram after hearing her words and seeing her one adorable eye slumped down in defeat

Ram : Fine, since it’s coming from you I’ll let it go but next time I’ll throw him into the forest.

Rem looked please with her sister and looked at the young knight

Rem : Subaru oh how you make my life so interesting

Subaru after spending a couple of minutes eating thought

Subaru: [Thinking: Ram would kill me if she knew it was me who was eating during this hour. I do feel bad but hey, a man’s gotta eat. I’m sure she’ll forgive me. I should also apologize to Frederica and Petra for making them go back to the store more times then they should for me ]

Frederica : It is fine Subaru. I had suspected it was you but didn’t want to question you. I’ll try to buy more fruits so that you have your midnight meals

Petra : Yeah. You shouldn’t have to apologize

Ram seeing this could not believe it. Frederica knew it was Barusu yet didn’t tell her and had caused her to stay awake for many hours. If she wasn’t the house maid she could get an ear full.

Subaru soon finished his food, cleaned up his mess and began walking again. To where, he does not know

Emilia : Beatrice, does Subaru do this often?

Emilia was concerned over Subaru’s lack of sleep. From Puck’s teaching, sleep is very important and one who does not get enough sleep, cannot perform at his or her best ability

Beatrice : It’s not common but it has occurred at times. Usually my contractor would walk about from midnight till 5 then finally fall back to sleep. Betty has been trying to get him to get a full night’s rest but has little success

Rem : That’s terrible!!! Poor Subaru

Felix : Why not just drain his mana to make him fall asleep?

Crusch : Felix you should already know the answer to that. While yes it would help at the moment, Ms. Beatrice is trying to find a more permanent solution.

Beatrice : You are correct I suppose

Felix looked down in shame as a doctor, he should’ve known the answer

Felix : Sorry Ms.Crusch

Crusch grab his hand and looked at him with a faint smile

Crusch : It’s fine Felix but could you help with Subaru’s sleeping issues when we get out?

Felix starred with determination

Felix : Even if you hadn’t told me, I was already developing plans to assist him

Crusch : That’s great to hear. Thank you Felix

Subaru walked around the mansion countless times before looking at another clock. It was 5 am and he knew that he was supposed to begin his work in an hour

Subaru: Might as well go to her before I go back to bed

Subaru walked down a couple of hallways and stood in front of a closed door. He quietly opened it, praying that the person in the other room didn’t hear him or else it’d be a whole another conversation and he did not want to deal with her. He entered and closed the door before smiling and waving at a sleeping girl

Subaru: Hey Rem

Rem was excited to see her hero interacting with her again. She truly loved watching how much Subaru cared for her when none could remember. She loved how open he was, all the different emotions he displayed, the way he spoke about his day, informing of what’s going on in the outside world. He truly cared for her and she was madly in love with him

Rem blushing slightly whispered

Rem : He.He….Hello Subaru 

Ricardo: Wow what a gentleman. Visiting the sleep beauty every night and in his free time. Rem your one luckily lady

Rem looked back at the warrior with a big smile on her face

Rem : Truly I am

Subaru sat down in his chair and began to talk to Rem about various topics. What the candidates were doing, his adventures with the small children in the village and his work.

Subaru then saw some dust accumulating in the corner of the window and stood up to clean it

Subaru: Wow I’ve become quite clumsy if I let this amount pile up in your room. I’m sorry Rem

Rem: You have nothing to be sorry about Subaru.

Emilia while happy to see the two interact in such a manner, had a lingering feeling in his heart. One that she did not recognize at first but it made her feel a negative emotion to what she was looking at. It was the lingering sense of jealousy.

Subaru: It’s getting quite dusty in here isn’t it?

While almost done cleaning the room an idea came into his head

Subaru quickly turned to face the maid and said in an excited voice

Subaru: Hey how about we go on a date in a couple of days? You’ve been here for months and being stuck in one place for so long is quite boring. I’ll finish my duty for the next couple of days and on my next day off we can go somewhere. I will get your wheelchair and we’ll go on a fabulous date. Will you go with me Rem?

The boy was excited at the thought of it. He was already planning on where to go and what to where.

Rem madly blushing at the idea

Rem : Of course I’ll go with you Subaru. I would love it

Her heart was beating quickly. Faster than it had ever been. She and Subaru was going on a date and the memory of their first one made her very happy

Everyone was happy to see a true smile on the boy. They finally saw the Subaru they knew and loved

Subaru: I’ll have to convince Ram but while she may not think I’m worthy, I do know she wants you to have some fun so I don’t believe it’ll be impossible to convince her. We’ll have to restrict to maybe 1 afternoon, otherwise Ram would probably deny it.

Subaru gently grabbed one of Rem’s hand and said with a big smile on his face

Subaru: Don’t worry your hero will save you. I’ll beat that Gluttony bastard and restore your name and memories and we’ll go on so many dates that it’ll fill up the time you’ve been asleep

Rem was crying tears of joy seeing this. She was truly blessed to have such a lover like him.

Rem : I cannot wait. I love you Subaru

Otto was nearly in tears. If he was in Subaru’s home world, he’d definitely watch and cry for crappy Romcoms

Subaru kissed Rem’s hand as he usually does every night and bid her farewell. He quietly left the room and closed the door as he began developing ideas as he walked back to his own room and went back to bed, this time able to fall asleep within seconds and sleeping with a smile on his face

Rem was madly blushing and was on verge of passing out watching the scene

Petra: This is so romantic. I’m about to cry

Frederica holding Petra’s hand was also on the verge of tears.

Frederica : Your right little one. Such a lovely scene could make anyone tear up

Her words weren’t false as many had slight tears in their eyes from watching some a heartfelt moment as the episode continues

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It’s been 3 days since Subaru made a decision to take Rem out and he was doing all possible to prepare. He not only did 3 days worth of his own work but also did Ram’s work as to gain some leverage in order to convince her of this idea. After lots of begging she finally agreed, only with some conditions

1. He must inform her of what they’ll be doing
2. She must be there when they depart from the mansion
3. They must return before 8
4. No touching. Just hearing that rule made Subaru angry at that thought that Ram thought so little but the anger subsided as he knew Ram was only protecting her sister
5. He must put Rem above all else, even his own life if the situation arrives. He already knew that and already promised to protect her

Garfeil: Damn Ram, you didn’t have to make all those rules. Captain is a good guy, he’ll take good care of Rem

Frederica : I agree with Garf. Subaru would be an amazing husband for Rem and would take great care of her

Ram : These rules are necessary for someone as perverted as Barusu

Everyone rolled their eyes back at the pink maid speaking

Ever since Rem declared her love for Subaru, the entire theater branched off into certain ships. There was the Subaru x Rem ship, the Subaru x Emilia ship, the Subaru x Petra ship, surprisingly the Subaru x Patrasche ship and Subaru x Crusch ship

The following members of each group is

Subaru x Emilia ship:

Emilia

Anastasia

Wilhelm

Julius

Felt

Reinhard

Rem

Subaru x Rem ship:

Rem

The Demi triplets

Garfeil

Frederica

Anastasia

Emilia

Subaru x Petra ship:

Petra

Federica

Subaru x Patrasche:

Otto

Al

Garfiel

Ricardo

Subaru x Crusch ship

Crusch

Felix

Wilhelm

But this ship was known only to the 3 in which they WILL NEVER speak about

Everyone else was either weren’t interested or did not choose a side

Rem, madly blushing while covering her face says

Rem:[Thinking: I..I would lo..love to be his wife]

Ram starred at the ground while violently shaking as the conversation happening right now was absolutely despicable. She would have knocked herself out had not been for the pesky director and so all she could do is listen to hell on Earth or Lugunica

After that he scoured over many places to find great sights for their date

It was now 1 in the afternoon and we see a young boy brushing his hair in the mirror while humming a tone

Beatrice standing outside the bathroom was smiling at the sight of her knight being so care free

Beatrice: How long will you stand there I suppose?

Subaru not turning around looked at Beatrice through the mirror

Subaru: Give me a minute Beako. I wanna look good for Rem

Beatrice: You claim that while wearing the same clothing I suppose

Subaru: Hey! This track suit has survived through tick and thin but this isn’t my normal track suit

Anastasia: Emilia I do wonder how is Subaru’s cloth still in tact? Did he use some sort of special fabric to toughen the clothing?

Emilia : To my knowledge no. Besides Rem and probably Beatrice, I do not know how Subaru’s track suit always seems to bounce back. There have been multiple incident wear nearly all his clothing was torn away

Over his stay in the mansion, Subaru sewed together multiple jump suits as he always wanted to keep his iconic look but also he wanted something from his home as everything else had been traded away, eaten or destroyed

Ricardo: Wait so he just makes the same looking cloth? How can he tell the difference? And how many does he own?

Beatrice: Betty’s contractor wears his clothing with pride as it is one of the only things left from his original home so with the help of I and the blue maid, we three sewed together over 20 of his clothes. How he can the difference I cannot say. It is likely his keen observation skills that allow Betty’s contractor to distinguish slight differences to make sense of it

Rem : I remember it. After he saved me from the Ma beasts, we went to the store together to buy threads to repair his old uniform again but then he came up with the brilliant idea to make more as back ups. Subaru is a true genius

Subaru turned around, pointing two thumbs at himself while having a big grin on his face

Subaru: What you are looking at is jump suit #1. The original jump suit that I wore when Emilia carried me in after facing off against the crazy girl, Elsa

Beatrice: Betty thinks that isn’t something you should be proud of in fact

Subaru: Why is that? Anyways, it took awhile to sew back together but with the help of Rem back then, it has been brought back to its original glory

Rem: It was my honour to help you Subaru

Beatrice begins laughing at her contractor while for his statement. Such passion for simple clothing amused the great spirit that she couldn’t hold back anymore

Beatrice: Ha ha ha ha!! Betty’s contractor is a simple fool I suppose

Subaru: Hey!

Subaru quickly left the bathroom and playfully picks up his spirit and begins tickling her

Subaru: While you were the one who chose me so who’s really is the fool I suppose?!

Subaru mimicked Beatrice’s speaking habits which was another example of the bond they’ve developed. They both kept laughing in their room, enjoying every second of being together

Anastasia not being able to quell her emotions yells

Anastasia: Emilia how much do you want for the great spirit? I’ll pay anything. I need her, she’s too cute not to want. Please!!!!

Julius grabbed one of his ladies hands and explains

Julius: Lady Anastasia, you must calm yourself. We cannot simply buy a great spirit, also it isn’t up to Emilia but Ms.Beatrice.

Emilia : Julius is correct. I would never give up my family but only Subaru and Beatrice can decide where they want to go

Emilia’s words brought great happiness to her camp as they all, even Ram, felt like they were closer then friends

Beatrice looks back at the finest knight

Beatrice: It would seem someone understands the status of a great spirit. You should listen to him lady as Betty isn’t for sell

She turned back to face the screen while crossing her arms as Anastasia was crushed to hear such a response as she sat back down while pouting

After a couple of minutes they had calmed themselves down and looked at the time

Subaru: Ooh look at the time. If I don’t hurry I’ll be late

Beatrice: Does thou not remember that his so called “date” begins at 2?

Subaru: I know but since I asked her out, it’s only right if I arrive at least 30 minutes early.

Reinhard: Wow, Subaru really matured within a year. He’s acting like a true gentleman

Felt : I agree. Go get her Big bro

Felt fist bumping the air while cheering

Beatrice surprised to hear that her contractor was actually being mature felt proud at what she was looking at. Not a boy right now, but a gentleman who could do anything he puts his mind to

Beatrice: Well then get going I suppose. Betty will be here until you return

Subaru began walking out his room when he looked back and said

Subaru: Betty, I don’t want you to be lonely so I called in your best friend to play with you, well your best friend besides me of course. I’ll be back in a couple of hours and so I asked Frederica to prepare you some sweets later on

Frederica: I can already guess who’s about to show up

Frederica said while giggling to herself

Petra already knew what was gonna happen began giggling too

Beatrice was experiencing many different emotions. Happy to see her contractor thinking about her well being, curious who was coming in to see and play with her, slight angry that Subaru created this plan without her and excitement for the delicious treat that was to come

Beatrice: You planed this out pretty well I suppose so Betty will indulge in your thought.

Subaru: Thanks Beako. Ooh, here she comes now

A young girl with orange hair and green eyes, sprouting a maid outfit similar to the maid in the mansion popped from the door

Petra: Heeey Ms.Beatrice!!!!

Anastasia could be seen having a mental breakdown of how cute this scene was. While not physically strong, he began to crack the arm rest to the right of her

Petra said in excitement, thrilled to play with her friend.

Beatrice looked to the side while crossing her arms

Beatrice: It’s the maid

Emilia: Beatrice, you should be open about your feelings. We all care for you

Beatrice looks to the right while slightly flustered

Beatrice : Betty does not know what your talking about I suppose

Petra already knew that Beatrice was too proud to show her affections to anyone but Subaru and so didn’t take the rudeness to heart

Subaru: Well you two girls have fun, bye

He begins to leave but crouches down to whisper in Petra’s ear

Subaru (whispering): Thanks for doing this for me. I owe you one

Petra(whispering): You don’t need to thank me. I love playing with Ms.Beatrice but I’ll take a date as payment

Subaru sighed in a defeated look

Subaru: I really should keep my mouth shut but a deal is a deal. Schedule the time and place and I’ll be there

Petra winked in excitement while saying in a mischievous tone

Petra: Pleasure doing business with you Subaru

Anastasia straight up fainted at the scene. A cute girl who knew how to negotiate and saying the exact line she was known for was too much to handle as a cog in her brain and be seen burying through her head

Anastasia now layed back in defeat as she knew that she would never be able to acquire such a gem

Subaru continued to walk out the door as he headed to the entry to the mansion excited to see his lovely Rem. After walking for a couple of minutes he was near the entry when he saw 2 people standing beside the door.

One was Rem, wearing her normal maid outfit, looking at Subaru but the figure near the pink maid was Rem, wearing a light blue and white covering her body except her shoulders, wearing her trademark hairstyle and wearing long white socks and blue slippers

Subaru after arriving starred at the sleeping girl while madly blushing.

Subaru: Wow Rem, you look so pretty. My jaw nearly dropped from the sight of you

Emilia: Oh wow she’s gorgeous

Crusch : I agree. That outfit is lovely on you Rem

Petra : Wow you look like a princess Ms. Rem

Frederica : She sure does. I’m glad to know that the shoes I picked out fit lovely on you Rem

Ram : Of course she looks fabulous.

Rem looked back at her friends and smiled as she says

Rem : Thank you all for your kind words

Ram: Yes yes, she is quiet lovely as she is my sister but that doesn’t justify you deflowering her with your eyes you pervert

Subaru not caring for her words went on one knee to get a better view of the girl. Her blue hair grew slightly but it didn’t diminish her beauty as Subaru continues to lovely stare at Rem

Rem: ooh how I wished I was awake to see those beautiful eyes of yours Subaru

Rem was truly happy to be witnessing this. She vowed that when she is free and awake, they’ll go on so many dates

Subaru: Yeah, I’ll let that one slide since you are allowing this to happen

Ram slightly smirks at the boy while keeping her arms crossed

Ram: Yes you should be grateful for allowing someone like my sister to entertain a fool such as you.

Beatrice: You should be kinder to Betty’s contractor maid

Ram : I see no reason to be kind to a fool like him

Before the two could begin another argument, the sight on the screen grabbed their attention

She then stopped smiling as she looked at Subaru. Subaru sensing the shift in the room, looked up at Ram

Ram: You remember the rules?

Subaru dropping the joking persona and looked up at Ram directly in eye as to make his words known 

Subaru: Yes. I swear on the name Subaru Natsuki to defend Rem from any calamities that may arise as she would have done for me

His eyes once rounded and filled with joy now were jagged and showed a level of seriousness that

Crush was overjoyed to see how far he’s come sense their first encounter in the capital. From a whiny child to a true man and she REALLY admired the way he wanted to protected all

Crusch: He truly means every word and will do all to protect her. I commend him for that

Priscilla : I agree. Those eyes are ones that know only victory. He should be like that more often and have that level of confidence in himself.

Garfeil : Ooh Captain is soo cool right now. Don’t you agree Brotto?

The boy says as he violently shakes his friend

Otto : My name is Otto and stop shaking me! But I must admit that he does look like a true knight right now

Felix was happy to see his companion look so determined

Felix :You must be very happy right now rem to hear him make a vow

Rem was tearing up seeing hero proclaim such words. These weren’t tears of sorrow but one of joy

Ram knowing that Subaru was serious about this grew a faint smile

Ram: Well then I trust you. Protect my sister or else you’ll face a fate worse then Emilia’s cooking

Subaru smiled back but internally he was a mental breakdown from the threat. Subaru: Thank you

Emilia:  Hey, what’s wrong with my cooking?

Everyone chose to stay silent, lest they want to speak of the truth that Emilia CANNOT cook. The last time she did, the mansion resident all became food sick and Subaru was out of commission for 4 days because he couldn’t lie to her and ate a whole bowl of whatever nonsense she made

Ram simply smile as she opened the door. Subaru grabbed the wheelchair’s handle and began to push the sleeping girl through the door

Subaru:[Thinking: I’ll make this a day you won’t forget Rem ]

Rem: I won’t forget my hero! I love you

Roswaal throughout the episode was constantly thinking of how the boy passed away and so began ask questions to the great spirit 

Roswaal : Beatrice, could I ask you something?

Beatrice : No

Roswaal: It’s about Subaru

Beatrice turned to the clown looking at him with coldness in her eyes

Beatrice : What then?

Roswaal keeping up his fake persona

Roswaal : Do you remember having that conversation with Subaru?

Everyone’s attention was put on the teacher’s pet

Beatrice : What an idiotic question to ask Betty. Of course I do.

Roswaal : Think carefully Beatrice. Do you remember the exact words and action you’ve showcased on the screen?

Beatrice began thinking back. Spirits like her have perfect memory as forgotten memories were something only akin to living creatures well she would have said so before Gluttony. After thinking for a bit, her intense aura became one filled with sadness and confusion

Beatrice : Betty can not

Roswaal after hearing this continued his interrogation

Roswaal : Ram and Petra, do the actions and words shown match with your memory?

Ram : No sir. When I brought Rem down, Barusu was already there smiling as if he knew where to be. We had a similar talk but not exactly the same as in the flim

Petra : Yeah. When I met with Beatrice he already knew I’d ask for a date and it was him who scheduled the time and place

Roswaal after hearing this new information said

Roswaal : How unfort~unate . This means one thing. What we are witnessing now is a failed reality. A reality in which Subaru sadly passes away

Everyone’s laughter and inner monologue came to a halt after hearing this

Priscilla : And what of it clown? We knew that the boy will pass away soon so what good is it to return to such a subject

Roswaal : Ms. Priscilla, you didn’t let me finish.

He stood up so that everyone could hear

Roswaal : We are aware of Subaru’s checkpoints is chosen by the witch of Envy, Satella. She chooses this checkpoints in order to help her so called “lover” survive the upcoming tragedies. Since no one has been able to perfectly remember the events being displayed then that means that Subaru’s future had spiraled so out of control that Satella brought him back not just a day, but weeks behind.

The information that Roswaal had just given them out broke everyone. The farthest they’ve seen RBD bring Subaru back was mere days but the possibility of it bringing him back by weeks truly frustrated them. Weeks of unique experiences and emotions wiped away with the only person to have it being their dear friend. What event could have lead to the witch bringing him back so far? That was the question all had at this moment

All began preparing themselves for the inevitable disaster that is to come

Chapter Text

Subaru was pushing Rem to the an area the two of them are very familiar with.

Subaru: Before we go Rem, we must summon our legendary creature

Mimi : Legendary creature? What does he mean by that?

Anastasia: I’m not sure but if it what Subaru describes that it mean be a rare kind of beast

Anastasia begin developing theories on what creature could the young boy be speaking of? A ma beast of some sort, a new technology from he’s home or is it something else?

Subaru: One who is faster than the wind, tougher than Garfield and one who is completely fearless. A true champion one would claim.

Al: What could bro be speaking about? “Tougher than Garfield” how could he tame such an animal?

Priscilla: I concur. The way this fool is spouting, the creature must be the divine dragon.

Garfiel : The animal my captain is about to show you lot will most definitely impress you. This beast is one worth being my rival.

Frederica was besides him giggling at how well her brother was speaking of this animal

Subaru was smiling while hinting at who he was speaking to

Subaru stop and head a big grin of his face as he thought of something. He covered the sleeping beauty’s eyes as the mystical creature begins to walk

Subaru: Our sworn allay who helped us greatly in our battle against the great whale and taming the unstoppable juggernaut that is Garfiel…

He moved his hands away from her face revealing

The unstoppable, loyal and best ground dragon in Lugunica, nya the world, PATRASCHE !!!!

The ground dragon stood a couple meters away of the two facing her nose his up to the sky, showing its beauty and power as the sun’s rays shine upon her scaly figure, bringer her her animatic beauty as it roared with confidence 

The Emilia Crusch and Anastasia camps began applauding at the speedy dragon. Loud whistles and cheering could be heard throughout the theater as if the climax of a movie had just been played.

Ram : For once Barusu is right. That divine creature is worth the praising

Petra clapping her hands in excitement of the reveal

Petra : Your right. Patrasche has always helped Subaru and never wavered. GO PATRASCHE!!!!

Otto : Ever since I met her, she has always topped herself in her achievement. Truly a befitting companion for Mr. Natsuki

Ricardo : That ground dragon has the determination and loyalty of a knight. He has my approval

Mimi : Yeah I saw it in the battle against sloth. She was so quick you’d think she was teleporting and her love for Subaru is truly inspiring. She has my approval too.

Another member joins the Subaru X Patrasche ship

Patrasche runs to her master, gently licking his face then rubbing her beak on his shirt

Subaru wraps his arms around the dragon as a showing of affection. No matter the situation, Subaru always knew that he had one loyal companion and it was her. Through thick and thin, she has devoted herself to him and he truly loved her for staying with him

Subaru: Hey girl how have you been? It’s been too long. Guess what we are going somewhere today and we need your help. Could you do that?

Patrasche looked at her rider with excitement. Anywhere would be exciting as long as she had Subaru with her and so Subaru secured a small wagon and put Rem’s wheelchair in there while putting the sleeping girl in front, securing her so she does that move or fall

Felt: Look at how gentle and careful he is being with her. He truly does love you doesn’t he Rem?

Throughout the screening, Rem was quiet as she was simply loving seeing her with her lover and seeing his smile. Even if she wasn’t there really, the way he showed his loved towards her warmed her heart and she wanted, more then ever, to be with him

Rem : Yes. My hero is truly kind.

The trio began heading to the village stationed below the mansion. As they arrive the residence there walked up to the trio and starting interacting with them. Everyone there loved Subaru for his contribution in protecting them and there children. He always came to the village to play with them, help them out with daily activities and their weekly calisthenic exercises was something they all loved.

He stationed Patrasche is an opened area and asked her to protect Rem while he grabbed some equipment. A male, somewhere in his mid 20’s, wearing a blue shirt with black pants came up to the hero and whispered something in his hear.

Julius : I wonder what they could be talking about.

Petra : That’s one of my friend’s dad. He does various jobs throughout the village and is a dear friend to Subaru.

Subaru after hearing the man, smiled with excitement as he heads inside the man’s home. A couple of minutes later, Subaru walks out holding 2 boxed item. One was a small white box, being able to fit in the boy’s hand and the other was a light blue, rectangular box

Subaru while walking back to his carriage, turned back while smiling

Subaru: Thanks man but please let me pay for it. You spent so much time making this that it’d be insulting to take it

Emilia: So the man gave Subaru a gift? How lovely, I wonder what’s inside?

Karl: No need to thank me man. You saved my child and me multiple times. It’s I can do for the town’s hero

Subaru still smiling put his hand behind his head while slightly scratching and nervously laughing

Subaru: I didn’t do much. People like Emilia, Wilhelm and the Iron Fangs did most of the job. I just help move them in the right direction

Otto facepalmed seeing the dumb scene

Otto: Mr. Natsuki, when we get out we’re gonna have a talk about this How could you think like this ?

Even though Otto is a dear friend to Subaru he can’t help but want to punch his friend for not seeing himself in a better light. He accomplished so much yet he never took credit for it

Beatrice was sitting on her contractor’s lap smiling. She quiet like how this episode was one where her master was happy, even if she wasn’t there herself. His happiness , was her happiness as with all his emotions. There bond went beyond simple things like talks, as their very soul were entangled together.

Beatrice: I agree with the merchant. Betty’s Subaru should praise for himself I suppose

Emilia, like Beatrice was enjoying how happy her knight as opposed to how he was previously.

Emilia : You nincompoop, take some credit. You did so much for them and us

Laughter erupted from the background as everyone couldn’t control themselves at the half-elf’s comment while she covered her face in embarrassment and having blushing

Karl: Come on. You’re the one who ran into the woods saving my child, and it was you and Emilia who told us to evacuate. If you weren’t here, surely we’d be goners. This little gift is a some token to show my appreciation.

Subaru looked at the man with awe. He usually didn’t think much of himself, as he knew of his previous failures but hearing the man say such kind words befuddled the knight as he didn’t know what to respond with blushed with embarrassment

Subaru: Thank you man. I do not know what to say

Karl: Just enjoy the gift and tell Emilia I said hello. She along with that little friend of yours should come more often.

Subaru began walking away while waving his hand

Subaru: I will. See you next time

When he walked back he saw the village children’s playing with the ground dragon. He loved the scene and began to imagine everyone here playing with the kids. Otto on the floor get robbed, Garfiel showing off and the kids praising him, Ram playing with Petra, Frederica in her beast form having kids ride her and kids surrounding Emilia while she was laughing

Subaru: That would be the life

He whispered to himself as he stared at the blue sky

Emilia looked back and her camp seeing all their smiles on their faces as they all internally planned to visit the village.

Emilia turned back to face the sleeping boy while having a big smile on her face

Emilia : We’ll come with you next time so your dream can come into fruition

Subaru hopped on Patrasche while speaking to the kids

Subaru: Come on guys. We have to go. I’ll come back tomorrow for a routinely exercise

The kids began crying because they didn’t want him to leave. He was like a big brother to them and they enjoyed playing with him

Subaru: Come on guys, please don’t cry. We’ll have so much fun next time and I’ll even bring Beako with me. She loves showing you magic

The kids then wiped there tears as they were getting excited to see their dear friend

Beatrice whispered to herself as her pride couldn’t allow her to say this out loud

Beatrice : I can’t wait either in fact!

Right as he began to leave a child we’ve seen before, Meiina ran to him while yelling

Meiina: WAIT!!!!

Subaru quickly pull Patrasche back while looking back to see the girl

Meiina hid something behind her back as she said

Meiina: It took me awhile to make this so I hope you like this. You can give this to your girlfriend

Subaru was blushing madly from her words

Subaru: Sh—she isn’t my girl-fr-friend. Well is she? I love her but I also love Emilia. They’re both in my #1 in my heart.

Emilia turns to the blue maid smiling but hesitant to say

Emilia : Um…R…Rem?

Rem was also blushing while hearing her love speak about her

Rem : Yes Emilia?

Emilia : I’m fine with Subaru having you as his wife but…

She took a moment as she was preparing herself

Emilia :…I— I WANT TO BE HIS FIRST!!!

Rem stood in shock for a moment while hearing this. She was serious about being Subaru’s wife but was afraid of having the talk with the half elf but now that it’s out, she is finally able to say

Rem : Thank you for saying so Emilia. I’m happy to wait but hearing your blessing brings joy to my heart

Al : WEAR A CONDOM BRO!!!!

The one man hollered while snickering to himself

Everyone looked back at the knight who was standing wondering what a “con-dom” was

Everyone turned their attention back to the main girls, smiling ear-to-ear. Finally the boy would get the love he deserved. All his torment will come to the end with these girls by his side

Meiina ignored the boy while he was rambling to himself and showed him the gift. It was a flower crown made of blue and pink flowers weaved together to make a beautiful accessory

Frederica : Wow it looks gorgeous. Did Subaru teach her how to make that

Petra : Yeah. Subaru taught the village how to make many things. Like paper areo-planes, crowns and fortune tellers but they don’t really tell the future

She giggled to herself as she recalls the days they played together

Subaru stared at the crown with sparkles in his eyes. He’s made many flower crowns before but none compare to the divine beauty he is blessed to behold

Subaru slowly grabs the crown from the girl and behind looking around the marvelous object

Subaru: This is the best crown I’ve ever seen. Thank you very much. I know Rem would love it too

The girl back away as she tries to hide her face which was cherry red

Meiina: No need to thank me, I just wanted to give you something in return for help

Ricardo: Man, what is this man and charming the young women around him?

Al: I don’t know but if he doesn’t stop we’ll have to take him in

Both of them began preparations for the arrest of the sleeping boy while laughing to themselves

Subaru put the crown on Rem’s head and looked at her beauty.

Subaru: Wow Rem, you look even more cute.

Subaru then wink while holding her hand

Subaru: The pink petals really complement your ocean blue hair. Simply stunning and it’s all thanks to Meiina. Thank you again

Steam began forming from the top of the maid as she was having many thoughts on the boy’s compliment. If her sister wasn’t there to hold her hands, a fuse would’ve burst from Rem.

Anastasia : He isn’t wrong. You do look good in that crown

Felt : Yeah she’s right. You and Big bro would be a cute couple

Rem covering her face in embarrassment

Rem: Th-Tha—Thank you both

Hearing the how their ladies liked the design of the crown, both the finest knight and the Sword saint made a mental note to make one for their ladies as a token of appreciation

Meiina’s face grew even brighter as the trio began moving again.

Subaru: I’ll come visit you again and bring gifts with me. See you soon

He waves as the village became smaller and smaller. He could still make out an image of a girl waving back while jumping in place

The boy was happy to see that the town was as lively as ever. The town’s people were happy and he was really glad they liked him. He began talking to Rem about the town while the ground dragon huffed in jealousy.

Subaru looked at his loyal companion and patted her on her head

Subaru: I forgot to thank you Patrasche. You’re willing to carry us to any location without any form of compensation. I should make a crown for the best ground in the world

The ground dragon looked back at her masters, rubbing her head on his hand while slightly slowing down. She never wanted any compensation as just being with him was more then enough but to hear the kind gesture warmed her reptilian spirit

Subaru: Yeah I’ll make one right aw….

Subaru’s friendly tone quickly stopped as the boy began looking in front of him. Subaru while starring accidentally drooped Patrasche’s Rein as all his focus was direct at what he was looking at.

Julius: What’s going on? Is he in danger of something?

Ram: Neither I nor anyone in the mansion recall any attackers in the village nor in the mansion so I do not know

Ram was doing her best to keep calm. She was the one logical one of the twins and rarely showed emotion but at this moment she wanted to jump into the screen to protect her little brother from any danger

Emilia : Beatrice do you know what’s happening?

Beatrice: Betty cannot recall any mention of an attack here so Betty doesn’t know

Patrasche sensing her master’s distress quickly looked ahead to determine wear the danger was that she couldn’t see it. Ahead of her was more empty road with guard rails on both sides for safety, she couldn’t hear nor smell anyone near them and looked up to any possible air strike but no danger was registered.

Otto: So there isn’t an attacker then what’s happening to Mr.Natsuki?

Reinhard: I do not know but we must prepare ourselves for anything that may happen

She turned back to her master and saw that he is now uncontrollably shaking while profusely sweating. His eyes seemed like they shrunken by 3 times as he wraps his arms around himself

We cut to see from Patrasche’s point of view. She seemly saw a road in front of her. Nothing to harm her or her master then she looked back with concerning eyes. Her master what in trouble, but from what?

Rem: Is it some form of invisible attack?

Crush : Can’t be. If they were to be attack, they’d likely attack Patrasche so that you two had no form of escape and by now Patrasche would’ve been able to pick up some more of the attack. Her excellent senses would be able to notice a change in the atmosphere

The cast continued to question what was happening to Subaru. If not an attacker then what could cause him to act like that. To be so afraid that all others became a distant memory to what was in front of him

Subaru was biting his gums, nearly tearing them off as what was terrifying the young man finally was seen

Subaru wanted to scream his lungs out. The image he was looking at shook him to very soul but all that came out was one word as the screen turned black 

Subaru: Su….Subaru…?

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Subaru: Su….Subaru…?

Emilia : Wait why are there 2 Subarus? I don’t understand

She saw her Subaru’s face like that. It was one of fear. Like prey starring at its predator, the young man’s face made one thing known: he wanted to run away. Who was this other Subaru?

Crusch : Ms.Beatrice, do you recall anything connecting to this situation?

The young Duchess was also questioning what’s going on. Through Patrasche she knew that this wasn’t a normal being. Maybe it was just a look like? Maybe it was his imagination? Theories like these ran through her head as she wanted to wanted to protect the man she’s come to admire. He’s face was one she was sad to look at. Not because she was ashamed of how sacred he was, Subaru while accomplishing great things was still a young boy so she couldn’t judge. No she was sad that she wasn’t there to protect him. Knowing that this was illogical as she was no where near to help him, she wanted to anything to alleviate his pain any means possible

Beatrice : No. As far as Betty can remember, Subaru has never talked to her about this

Two Subarus were looking at each other. One was in the carriage with his ground dragon and sleeping Rem while the other was standing a couple meters in front of the carriage but something was different about him. He was slouching forward, his hair was an utter mess, his leg badly damaged, he wasn’t wear his jacket and his face was covered with some sort of fabric. Blood was everywhere on this young man’s body and more blood could be seen spilling from his mouth

*(O Subaru)= Our Subaru*

*(E Subaru)= Else Subaru*

E Subaru began walking slowly to the carriage. His arms dangling as he could be heard mumbling something

O Subaru slowly grabbed his ground dragon’s reins and was began to command her to run in the opposite direction but he but as his finally collected his thought, a question was asked that made the boy stop abruptly. The voice sounded unnaturally dry, filled with emptiness and despair but he could still hear the question

E Subaru: Whooo…are…you?

O Subaru: ….w..wha..what?

Petra: He looks so sacred. What’s happening?

The young girl was terrified looking at this. She’s seen the horrors that her lover went through. His death, his self harm, he madness and his tragedies. The girl who entered the room and the girl now could be considered to very different people. It was like she had matured by many years but that would be expected watching what she did. Even after all the change, at the end of the day, Petra was still a child and so watching the joyful scene dulled her senses by a bit, not so much that the current events would be traumatizing but still fear held a nasty grip on her heart

Otto: I cannot come with the slightest idea of the event being played

Fear and confusion was what filled the room right down. Multiple people cannot exist so why were there two Subaru’s. Some had small theories while others were watching completely blind

O Subaru : I am Subaru Natsuki, Emilia’s knight.

He answered the question with many sweats marks across his face. He didn’t need to lie as there was no benefit to it but even now he wanted to run, but why?

The wounded Subaru halted for a second as he listened to the other’s answer. Both stood still for what seemed like forever when E Subaru began walking fasting towards them. He was now less then 4 meters away from the trio

E Subaru: Whooo…are…you?

Garfeil: What is happening? Did Captain not answer his question? Captain is Captain.

Garfeil already knew not to ask the main question as everyone was as confused as him

Frederica: Your correct Garf. He did answer truthfully so why is the other one asking again?

Rem stared at the screen scared for her lover. She stared at both with sadness in her heart. Even if this wasn’t “her” Subaru, it was a Subaru. He looked dead, blood dripping with every step, his face that one who accepting death and that’s what scared her. She recognised that face, it was similar to the face she saw when he and her was at the stand but this was worse far worse then what she remembered

Rem : Why aren’t I doing anything?

She said in a whisper that none could hear as they we’re currently focused on the screen but she knew the answer, she was in a coma but it didn’t matter. Anyone in her situation wouldn’t be able to do anything but even with the logic in it, she wanted with all her soul to save him right now

O Subaru: I am Subaru Natsuki, Rem’s hero

E Subaru heard an answer but kept on walking towards them. O Subaru was terrified. He wanted to run, he wanted to hide, he wanted to call for help but a new fear dawned on him, trumping whatever all previous fears today. He feared what would happen if he tried. Would he attack? How would he? Could Patrasche help? No, in his mind and body he knew the moment he tried, disaster will come and so while he’s body wanted to run, he chose to stay and continue answer the question

E Subaru: Whooo…are…you?

O Subaru: I..I am Subaru Natsuki, slayer of sloth

He click his teeth with disgust at what he just said. He hated the title. He didn’t think he did  much against the archbishop and thought that title belong to Julius.

Julius: No Subaru, take some credit. Without you Sloth would’ve gotten away and killed many more. Why can’t you see that my friend?

Julius couldn’t understand how someone who accomplished so much could think so little. Was he a true friend if he never notice these awful habits about his comrade? He wanted to be sad, to cry for his friend but he knew he needed to watch. If he wanted to help his friend, he needed to continue this journey.

As E Subaru continues to close the distance, the same question was asked over and over while O Subaru kept on giving him some form of answer with more fear harbouring in his heart

E Subaru: Whooo…are…you?

O Subaru: I am Subaru Natsuki, the man who defeated the great rabbit

*Again*

E Subaru: Whooo…are…you?

O Subaru: I am Subaru Natsuki, Beatrice’s contractor

*Again*

E Subaru: Whooo…are…you?

O Subaru: Subjugator of the white whale

*Again*

E Subaru: Whooo…are…you?

O Subaru: Garfiel’s captain

*Again*

E Subaru: Whooo…are…you?

O Subaru: A knight of Lugunica

*Again*

E Subaru: Whooo…are…you?

O Subaru: Otto’s friend

*Again*

Every question, the wounded boy got closer and closer to the cart. O Subaru wasn’t understanding the purpose of the interrogation. He kept answering truthfully yet this, this THING, kept on asking who he was. He began questioning himself who he was

E Subaru now stood right beside the carriage, his eyes were looking at the ground as we see how lifeless they are. O Subaru didn’t want to look at the bloodied man but knew that he’d stay until he did and so he looked and it finally came to him and the light in our Subaru’s eyes faded. His eyes, a gorgeous bright hazel now turned to a muddy, lifeless brown

Emilia: What happened? Why does he look even more afraid?

She didn’t understand what was going on. His day started great. He spoke with a real smile, was able to meet the towns people and is on a date with Rem, so why is this thing hunting him?

Beatrice : It’s like when a mice sees the shadow of its predator. It knows death is near and the fear keeps on multiplying the longer the silence lingers I suppose

Beatrice could only look in horror. What ungodly thing is happening to her contractor to make such a face? She gripped her dress tightly as it was the only thing stopping her from trying to jump through the screen

He finally figured out what he was looking at. The version of himself that left sanctuary and more importantly, Emilia behind. The one who by leaving her side, sentenced her to a life of insanity and utter delusion. He didn’t want to talk anymore. He just wanted this to be over. This irrational fear to an unknown force was eating him alive as he wanted to just disappear. He was recalling all the horrors of Sanctuary and was barley able to put the two words together

O Subaru: Y….You…Your me…..

Emilia: …..disgusting

Emilia didn’t know what else to say. She still remembered those eyes that were once hers. Eyes of desperation and insanity. Lusting over 1 thing while discarding the rest of the world. Love for Subaru. That version of her was closer to that of the witch of Envy then it is to who she is now

Rem looked at her friend’s face and saw one of self-hatred as she had that face for many years, that was until a certain black-haired boy came in and saved her. She needed to help her as he would and so softly grabs her soft, pale hand and looks at her with a soft smile

Rem : Please don’t look at yourself that way Emilia. That isn’t you. The actions of the failed realities do not dictate who you are in the present. If that was to be true, nearly everyone here wouldn’t be able to live with themselves, especially me. Love yourself, the way he loves you.

Emilia stared at the maid with open eyes. Such words, such kind words she wasn’t used to. The darkness that was suffocating the half-elf quickly dissolved as she remembered the kindness her Subaru showed her. She lifted the oni girl’s hand and placed it on her cheek saying with slight tears in her eyes

Emilia : Thank you Rem

Both stared at each other as they both knew that they were similar to each other. Both maidens struggled with their self-worth. Thinking that no one truly loved them as the world condemned them to loneliness but it didn’t. A boy with a heart too big for his own sake saved them from the pit of despair and showed them the truly beauty of this world

Rem : Now let’s try to help him out, the way he saved us countless times.

Emilia nodded in agreement, reinforcing her heart for whatever was to be shown next

He continued to stare at the bloodied hero looking at every part of him. Noticing all the bruises, the scars, the dried blood and fresh new ones spilling from his head

The wounded Subaru while continuing to look down asked again

E Subaru: Whooo…are…you?

O Subaru: I am Subaru Natsu—-

He was suddenly cut off when the other Subaru suddenly jumped on the carriage and grabbing O Subaru’s throat. His fingers nail broken, his arms looked weak and was covered in bite marks and blood but even so, O Subaru’s couldn’t get him off. He tried kicking him off, pulling his hair, punching his face anything possible

Al: Wait, where is the ground dragon? If bro is in danger surely she would’ve acted by now, right?

Otto : I agree. Something isn’t adding up

From O Subaru’s POV, a slightly different version of himself was now trying to kill him but he had a thing in his head

O Subaru:[Thinking: Patrasche please help ]

The boy then looked at his dragon as he sees that the ground dragon isn’t even noticing him and continued to look forward perplexed.

O Subaru quick on his feet came to a conclusion

O Subaru:[Thinking: Why isn’t she looking? No! If Patrasche saw me in danger she would’ve stopped at nothing to help me so this mustn’t be real. I’m hallucinating again. But the only way out is to give myself the right answer ]

Roswaal : The right answer? What could that mean?

Wilhelm : I do not know. Could a hallucination murder a real person?

Wilhelm sat back thinking of an answer

Wilhelm : Thinking:[ “Who are you?” Such a question cannot be answered with a simple title. To know one’s self, one must search to their very soul and even then, the answer may not show itself. I pray that you figure out who you truly are my boy. ]

While chocking out his counterpart, the bloodied hero asked again in a more aggressive tone

E Subaru: Who are you?

O Subaru: I am Subar—-

The hallucinations strengthen his grip on the boy’s neck causing the boy to struggle to breathe. O Subaru’s vision became blurry as the lack of oxygen was beginning to heavily affect him

O Subaru:[Thinking: Crap I got maybe one more chance before I black out. What will he do once I’m passed out. I don’t want to know. Come on think. ]

E Subaru: WHO ARE YOU?!!!

The man screamed as he held down his alter ego’s neck as hard as he could

Rem jumped towards the screen. She knew that it wouldn’t matter as what’s being shown is in the past, a past where she’s not there but it didn’t matter. Right now her lover was in danger and she couldn’t handle watching it any more but even with her superhuman strength she couldn’t make it 10 feet in the air before magic chains quickly grabbed her and tying her down with many other chains and fabric covering her mouth while tear stream came down the girl’s face

Ram screamed her sister’s name as more and more chains come out to strap her down but a message was sent out to all viewers mind

DO NOT INTERRUPT THE SHOW

All watched the girl try to struggle out the chains but to no avail. They sympathize with the girl’s want to help but knew the action was futile in the end

O Subaru:[Thinking: Come on! Think! THINK!!! ]

But a sudden thought came to the boy’s mind

18!!!!!!!!!!

E Subaru’s one visible eyes widen at the answer

O Subaru had tears on his face while holding his doppelgänger’s hands from his neck

O Subaru: I KNOW WHO I AM!! I AM 18

Priscilla: 18? What is the fool babbling about?

Priscilla knew that this must’ve been a dream or some form of hallucination but could not understand the meaning behind the question

Ram : 18. I do not how a number is affiliated with who a person is. Maybe something about his age. Barusu is 18 now

After a moment of silence came between the two. E Subaru began to let go of his other’s neck and he chose to sit beside the other, sandwiching himself between O Subaru and the sleeping Rem. It took a couple of minutes for O Subaru to recollect himself as he was thinking of what to do next.

Finally calm enough to talk, the boy asks

O Subaru: Wha..What is it you want?

He turns to face the other him with hatred is his eyes. Attempted murder was not something Subaru could easily let go of which was contradictory as he forgave many people who’ve done it to him

E Subaru faces the boy with emptiness in his eye as he simply said

E Subaru: We’ll meet again

The man drenched in blood began to evaporate into a dark mist and began to enter Subaru’s body.

O Subaru then looks up to the sky with eyes similar to his doppelgänger, hollow and filled with despair.

Subaru: Thinking:[ I’m 18…. ]

Al just continue to watch in silence, doing his best not to move as any indication of sympathy could be met with questioning and he wouldn’t want to share his history

Al:[Thinking: Ooh so you’re in this stage of your life huh bro? I was there too once, it took a long time for me to come to an answer so I hope you come to it sooner than me.]

Felt: What does 18 mean in this context? Why is that simple number hurting him so much?

Felt spoke again as she was visibly upset with the result. Her brother was having a crisis and the answer or the one that satisfied him was a number. Throughout the viewing, she has never once heard how 18 is related to Subaru besides his age.

Wilhelm: I cannot say but looks like it’s over for now

He continued to stare into the sky when a massive pulse courses through his body causing some pain. He held his left eye while feeling massive pain when he closed both eyes

Subaru: AHHHHHHH!!!!

He screamed out loud making the ground dragon quickly stop the carriage. Patrasche looked back up the boy with concern in her eyes. She immediately stopped at faced her master with worry. Subaru was looking around frantically searching for the man or more likely him.

Subaru looked at his hands and saw that he was holding the rein’s of his loyal steed and saw the ground dragon’s head on his chest, attempting to comfort him.

He began to pat her heads while slowly coming to his sense

Subaru: Thank you girl. I don’t know what I’d do without you.

He continued this for a couple of minutes while thinking to himself

Subaru:Thinking:[ Did I just use RbD or was all that a dream? If it was RbD then I just killed myself but how? What was that pulsing feeling? No, it was most likely a dream. I must’ve began day dreaming the moment I looked at the horizon. That would explain why she couldn’t help me and how minutes felt like hours ]

Beatrice: Subaru should return home and try this date again another day. He looks too unwell to continue going

Ram: I agree. Barusu isn’t in the right mindset to protect sis

He was brought out of his thoughts when he sees Rem. Throughout the dream he didn’t see her. Why is that? He couldn’t find a reason but knew that he must continue the date and so forced a smile to both of them

Subaru: So…sorry Rem, I thought I saw a cockroach and it frightened me. Let’s continue this special day. I still have so much to show you

The noticeable bags under his eyes was a hint that he wasn’t being honest but he knew if he returned now, then he would’ve wasted his, her’s and Ram’s time.

Rem: No Subaru you didn’t waste my time. You were great today but you have to put yourself first. Please return to the mansion. We can go again at a later time

Rem finally being let out of the restraints shouts

She was begging for him to rest. He looked tired, like he stuck in between reality and the land of dreams. A star contrast to how he was a few minutes ago. She couldn’t bare seeing him go through this for her sake when she couldn’t even recall this event

Subaru looked at his ground dragon and asked while scratching her ear

Subaru: I didn’t apologise to you haven’t I? I’m so sorry my dear friend. I didn’t want to scare you. Could you please take us to our next location? Please!!!

She looked at her master questioning weather she should continue or try to take him home to rest but trusted her master’s words and began pulling the cart down to their next location

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Throughout the viewing, a certain duchess thought in silence as she furiously gripped her hands together. Seeing her friend, or something more than that, in such an event boiled her blood as she couldn’t be there. Her logical side and emotional side fought over many times as she questioned what she should do. She wasn’t only representing herself but her camp so she must do herself and her members justice

Crusch : Director sir, could you please explain what happened!?

She asked in a serious tone making it known that she wasn’t asking but demanding

Could you be more specific Ms.Crush?

Crusch : Could you explain in medical terms what happened to Subaru and why it happened right now? Felix may be able to diagnose him if we have specific information

Well to be exact, Subaru was suffering through a breakdown of character.

Emilia did not understand the meaning and so ask

Emilia: Of character? What do you mean?

Well Emilia, as you’ve seen, Subaru doesn’t view himself in a high fashion. He doesn’t think he’s worthy of those around him but with the Witches help he was able to begin loving himself but…

Roswaal finishing the directors sentence as he knew where this was going

Roswaal : But breaking a habit that was is intertwined with his very character is hard to break now isn’t it? Am I correct?

All turned to face the clown with some level of fury in their eyes. His very existence was something nearly all hated. The pain he caused to Subaru and many people here was something that they’ll never overlook

Felt still a child could not keep silent for long

Felt : And whose fault is that? Big bro had issues before but you’ve only worsen it through “your trails”. It’s like putting oil on bond fire. We should kill you where you stand

She lifted her hands to make air quote signs and using a phrase from her big bro. Throughout the viewing, she only with a lot of people here learned some lingo from Subaru

Roswaal chose to ignore the threat as someone so fragile and worthless as the slum girl couldn’t dare touch him and said in his annoying voice

Roswaal : But is it not through his suffering that you’re alive? Would you rather have him live a normal life and allowing you, your so called grandfather and many others die? One soul for the price of many is a simple sacrifice

Felt looked down for a second as she remembered. She was also apart of his suffering as if she was smarter in checking her client’s background, she would’ve found some reason to call it off or even better never taken the job. If she allowed Rom to handle the setting up of the job, her brother wouldn’t have died 3 times in his first day.

Roswaal while saying this knew that his words would only further hinder his chances of survival. Everyone, even he himself had some sort of fondness for the boy and to say that his suffering was necessary made the target on his back even bigger, even if what he said wasn’t so wrong.

Roswaal, even you are indebted to him, not that you’ll ever cared. I wonder what your teacher would think of this?

Roswaal, for the very first time since the showing began, began slightly agitated. The word uttered truly got to him as all the atrocities he committed was in her name. To revive her and finally get “his happy ending”. Within seconds the anger multiple and for the very first time in a long time, Roswaal lost himself to his anger and so raised his hand in rage

Roswaal : EEELLL GOOO….

Everyone was preparing to duck out of the way from the mad man’s attack, all but Pricilla, Wilhelm and Crusch. Even in such unexpected situation, they were wise enough to remember that no magic would work and that the director was more powerful than the Sword Saint in his domain.

Before even the mad man could finish reciting a spell that couldn’t even be casted, many purple cloth wraps tightly around the clown, strapping him to his chair violently and covering everything but his eyes

Oooh Roswaal, you poor, poor puppy. Your obsessive nature to your teacher is truly sickening to watch. A dog forever serving his long gone master. A trait you once had similar with the boy you claim to be your puppet yet he overcame that within days while you’ve have centuries to change but simply chose to blind yourself. A true fool, through and through.

The tone the director said was one of pure superiority which was familiar with the Margrave. To know that you, in every sense are superiority to those you speak to truly was a superb feeling and those in high power would make it known to those below. A perfect example would be Priscilla but even she wasn’t so blind as the fool. While none could fully see his face, they knew that the fool was furious just with his eyes. Eyes that would kill a normal person.

Everyone simply stare at the clown. There was sympathy in their eyes, as they knew that this was nothing to the punishment one such as him deserved,….all but one maid.

But back to you Emilia. What the fool said is true, such a trait is hard to break and through these hallucinations, they would sometimes manifest themselves as failed versions of himself asking him the question.

Everyone was in there own heads trying to understand what the director said but no long then a couple of seconds later

Otto : …Did he pass?

Everyone turned to the merchant

Rem : What do you mean, Mr.Otto?

Otto lowered his hat down in a humble manner and placed it on his chest

Otto : You can just call me Otto. We are camp members after all so formalities aren’t needed. Also Sir Natsuki would probably punch me if I didn’t say that.

He said while giggling to himself as the rest of the camp laughed with the man

Otto : But back to the subject, this battle between the Subarus seems more like a test than anything. The way the other Subaru kept asking the same question until he got a satisfying answer must have been a test to see whether our Subaru kicked the habit. So my question is, did he pass?

Anastatia : That’s a good theory my fellow merchant. His previous answer didn’t satisfy the other boy. It wasn’t until the last second that the bloody Subaru stopped. A hallucination cannot kill what’s real so either Subaru answered correctly or the fake one stopped as it realised it will not get the right answer.

The 2 merchants seemed to grasp the problem within seconds and correctly described the situation

Al : Was there analysis correct my lady?

The helmet man turn to his side to see a Priscilla starring at Otto with a smile on her face while hiding it behind her fan

Priscilla completely ignoring her jester

Priscilla : Quiet the thorough explanation merchants. I am quiet pleased with your statement

Otto nervous to be speaking to Priscilla as the confident aura shook him then he realised that his friend Subaru wouldn’t act like this and so chose to embody some of his friend’s courage.

Otto : Thank you lady Priscilla

I’m impressed Otto and Anastasia, you figure out the situation and explained it quite well. It’s clear to see why you two are Lugunica’s best merchants.

Anastasia covered her face in embarrassment while saying

Anastasia : Th…Thank…You

Every member in her camp began applauding the girl which embarrassed her more but before Ricardo could tease her, he was interrupted by the Rem

Rem : Did he pass Mr.Director?

…..No

Everyone suddenly quiet down as the single statement was said. “He failed”, “What was the right answer then”, “what will happen to him now?” All question that needed to be answered but the process was cut short

The battle to break the habit is a long and hard path. This issue is like an infection that Subaru is trying to rid himself of, but not all battles are won and sadly you’ve witnessed him fall in this one.

Beatrice : Has he ever one won in these battles?

She hoped, she prayed, she begged that he did as if he didn’t, then all his smiles and loving words were to be seen as fake

Fret not Beatrice, throughout the year, he’s won more then he’s lost and it’s all thank to you guys.

Beatrice started at the screen with confusion and tears from her face

Beatrice : Us? What have we done to help him in fact?

He only started to fight because you guys gave him the courage to. Every hug you gave him, every joke Otto made, every interaction with you guys kept him going. So do not see one loss as big as it is, try to motivate him to win 10 more times as you guys are his anchor.

Emilia looked at her knight with a smile on her face and tears in her eyes. She grabbed his hand and begins feeling it while lowering her head to meet it

Emilia : Oh Subaru. Please keep going. We all believe and love you. Please do not give up.

Every member of the half elf’s camp cried along side her. They were helping him by just being there. They could save him. They wanted to help even more and promised themselves that they would once there out

But let’s get off the mushy stuff for now as the episode has match to show…and OH! How can I forget about our favourite teacher’s pet / Clown. I’ll release the bindings now but should you try anything I’ll subject you to things worth then death and believe me, I have some ideas to test out

Hatred, superiority and venom was laced with every word directed at the Margrave as the cloth wrappings began to fade away, allowing the man to move. Roswaal after being released simply sat in a comfortable position with his ever-so-perfect smile but his eyes betrayed his face as it stared at where the voice was coming from and said with quiet intensity

Roswaal :…I understand…Director

Well then let’s continue

The capital of Lugunica, a city straight of a fantasy world and is where many important events that made Subaru who he is today.

We see the crew finally enter the city with their carriage. As they entered the capital they found a place to let Patrasche rest

Subaru patted her head.

Subaru: Thanks for helping us girl. Me and Rem will get you a treat before we’re back. I’ll be back within the hour so don’t worry.

He gave a smile to not worry his loyal friend which she gave her affection through licking his face.

Al: Like I’ve said many times before, Patrasche is easily bro’s best fit.

He says with a mocking voice

Ricardo joining in on the fun

Ricardo : Preach it friend. I’ll get them both a beer to celebrate

Suddenly both got hit in the head by both of their ladies as they both say in unison

Priscilla/ Anastasia : Idiot

A loud *WHACK* could be heard from 2 places.

Al while holding his helmet with his only hand

Al : Princess, you did not have to hit me so hard

Priscilla : You were acting foolish and it wasn’t to my advantage so I of course struck you

Ricardo was holding his head in pain where you can see a big bump on it

Ricardo : Ana, why would you that? It hurts

Anastasia : For once I agree with Priscilla. Idiots who don’t benefit me deserve to be punished

We see the lovers strolling across the streets of the capital

Subaru: The place really brings back memories. Some good and some definitely bad

Crusch : This is the place where Subaru arrived at from his world correct?

Emilia : Yes Ms.Crusch, Subaru’s first day was *cough* *cough* a challenging one to say the least

She along with Felt tightly clutched their knuckles as they remember how much Subaru suffered that one day. He nearly got sliced open, got beat up, and died. He died 3 times on his first day

As they continue their date a familiar, green haired man could be seen. Subaru began getting excited as he saw who it was

Subaru while nearly at his stand began waving his hand was yelling

Subaru: Is that you Apple guy!!!!

The appa man eye’s began forming a body until he figured out who it was

Kadomon: Is that you broke kid?! And it’s Appa you idiot 

Subaru after walking up to the stand and they began talking about various things

Rem : I quite like that man. He may be a businessman but he is truly kind to Subaru. But I’m also quite afraid

Garfeil : Afraid? What do you mean? Is he dangerous or something?

Rem: No Garfeil, he himself isn’t dangerous but every time Subaru talks to this man, disaster is not far from him.

Garfeil: What do yo—

He then remembers his captain’s first day and the disaster that was the White whale and Sloth

After his realisation he began trembling on the possible calamity that may occur soon when his older sister grabbed his hand

Frederica: Come on Garfeil, I thought you believed in Subaru or what you call him, Captain. Even if something bad happens, Subaru will face it head on and will overcome it.

Garfeil looked at his elder sister with a new sense of confidence says he loudly proclaims

Garfeil : Your right sis. How could I lose faith in our captain? He’s stronger then anyone here

Kadomon: I heard what you’ve been doing. Taking out not only 1 but 2 of the Great Ma beast is incredible work. I would have never imagined it was you who did it. You gotta tell me kid, how did you do it?

Subaru became quite embarrassed at hearing the compliments and so said with a nervous laugh

Subaru: I didn’t do much. The Great Rabbit was defeated by Emilia and Beako and for the White Whale was defeated through a combined effort of the Crush and Anastasia camp and Rem over here. I didn’t do much

While everyone was discussing various things in small whispers, there was one member, a certain jester you could say, scheming in the background 

Roswaal :[Thinking: 18? What does that mean and how it does relate to Subaru? He’s seeing a past version of himself, one who died in Sanctuary. What was that? His 17th death. WAIT! Is the number 18 relating to the amount of times he’s looped? If that’s the case then he may be suffering from an identity crisis. Yes that has to be it, but the question is how does his identity have to with the amount of times he’s looped? And more importantly, how could I benefit from this? ]

He gained a small smile on his face as he began putting the pieces together. He didn’t want the others to see him like this and so quickly recollected himself and began playing his role again

Beatrice began lightly punching his chest while whining like a child

Beatrice : Betty’s contractor should take more pride in his work. Betty will punish you when we’re are out I suppose

Otto hearing her words, raised his hands while declaring

Otto : I would like to join you Ms.Beatrice. Subaru is a bit of an idiot so he needs someone to help straighten him out

The entire camp began giggling at the hilarious interaction

Crusch while analysing the scene that is happening on the screen had a memory pop in her causing her to quickly stand up

Felix concerned for his mistress asks

Felix : Crusch?? Are you ok?

Crusch looked to her knight with a smile but said out loud

Crusch : I’m fine Felix it’s just that I call this day as we were both there.

Emilia quickly looked to her side asking

Emilia : Ms.Crush, could you explain? Were you at the capital that day?

Crusch sat back down but continued saying

Crusch : Yes Emilia. That day me, Felix and Wilhelm were in the capital to take to some noble members about some political issues. The meeting went fairly well and before we began returning back to our manor, I asked Felix for a scroll throughout the capital and that’s when I met up with Subaru

Felix : Oh yeah. I healed his hand and he asked to get check up

Julius : Healed his hand? Could you explain Felix?

Felix: Yes Julius. When I saw him, his right knuckle was very bloody and there was a slight fracture on his ring finger. We questioned him and his answer was..

Felix wiped away a fake tear while clutching his fist

Felix : It was manly. He almost looked like a younger version of Wilhelm. After that he asked for a full body check up which I was glad to do and then we departed

Rem : [Thinking: What could Subaru have done to get such a reaction out of sir Felix? ]

Beatrice: Wait, Subaru asked for a check up?

Felix looking confused responded

Felix : Yeah. He said he wanted to know if anything is wrong with him or his gate

Beatrice had a concerned look on her face which Ram took notice

Ram : Is there anything wrong with that Ms.Beatrice?

Beatrice : Yes in fact. We all know my contractor’s tendency of keeping things to himself. It’s an issue he developed on his own but because of the taboo of the witch but….

Emilia : But what?

Emilia was very concerned for what Beatrice was about to say because she could not understand the issue of asking for help

Beatrice : But if Subaru is quite insisted on getting a check up, what could be wrong with him?

Otto : Your right Ms.Beatrice. We know how much Subaru is willing to burden himself with our’s and his issues so for him to ask for help is very concerning

The audience thus began worrying on what’s wrong with Subaru. Besides what happened at the exit on the village, Subaru seemed to be very happy and healthy so what could be the issue

Wilhelm : We’ll just have to see but Felix you’ll have to explain by how Subaru reminded you of me

Felix waved his finger towards Wilhelm

Felix : No can do Mr. Sword Demon, you’ll just have to wait like everyone else

Wilhelm sighed as he knew he wouldn’t an answer from his friend and so chose to continue watching

Kadomon: Beako? You’ve surrounded yourself with very interesting people. But take some credit, from what I heard it was you who came up with the strategies to beat those bastards.

Subaru looked at him shocked to hear such praise. He didn’t see himself worthy of his own accomplishment but to hear it form Kadomon, the first people he met in this new world made him truly happy

Subaru: Thank you for your words sir but it wasn’t only me. Rem helped out a lot

Kadomon: Sorry kid but…..who is this Rem?

Subaru’s smile wavered, his eyes had a slight red glow to them as he held Rem’s wheelchair handles tightly but his fury was quickly dispelled and so returned to his normal smile

Garfeil: Wow captain can get really mad. I don’t want to face him like that

Reinhard : I agree Garfeil. Even with all Devine protection, I wouldn’t want to be the one facing Subaru’s wrath

The audience slight nodded at the statement. Facing Subaru is basically a losing battle with RbD paired with Subaru’s intelligence and crazy strategies

Subaru after calming himself within a fractions of a second said with some rage in his voice but not to the extent that Kadomon would notice

Subaru points at the sleeping girl and says

Subaru: This is Rem. You may not remember her but she’s a good customer.

Kadomon noticing the grip on handlebars realises that he may have said something out of line

Kadomon: Sorry if I sounded disrespectful. I’m usually good at remembering faces

Subaru: It’s fine. I should’ve expected this

Kadomon: Kid, sorry if I sound rude but do you mind explaining why she’s asleep

Subaru smile fell as he has to explain what happened to Rem

Subaru: She fell into a coma after a fight with those damn Witch Cultist

Kadomon hearing that name begin to sweat but at the same time was also enraged

Both oni sisters also began to get enraged as the memories of their village burning and the many atrocities they committed, that Subaru died to fix came flooding in

Ram : When Ram is out of here, she is going after that damn archbishop Gluttony.

Garfiel : Count me in too. Those bastards will suffer for hurting Rem and our captain

Even Federica became slightly enraged and thus didn’t stop her brother from his statement

Wilhelm : If you ever need assistance with dealing with such filth, do not hesitate to call us Ms.Ram

Ram looked back at the elderly swordsmen and say with a confident yet kind voice

Ram : Thank you sir

Kadomon: Disgusting bastard

Subaru: Yeah but no matter how long it takes, I’m gonna find them and remove the curse they brought on to my Rem.

Rem: [Thinking: I know you will Subaru .]

Silence soon came as the sounds of the capital filled in the tense scene. Subaru took a deep breath in…

Subaru: Well it’s been fun but I mostly came here to buy some appas. Could I get 3 please?

Kadomon shaken out of his thoughts replied

Kadomon: Oh right. Sorry for that. I was lost in thought. Yeah you can have them, on the house.

He said with a smile on his face while grabbing the appas and placing them in a brown bag

Subaru confused asks

Subaru: On the house? What did I do to deserve such a reward?

Kadomon: Don’t make me spell it out for you kid. Those two beasts are finally dead after 400 long years. They may have never affected me personally but now the world is more safe for my daughter to live in and also all those lives they’ve destroyed can finally rest. So as a friend and a father please take these as a reward

Kadomon lowered his head as a token of respect as he hands the bag to Subaru.

Kadomon: As a citizen of this fine country, I thank you for your hard work.

Anastasia: I quite like this man. He’s very kind to someone he’s only met twice and such words are a reflection of his character

Ricardo : I agree. He embodies what it means to be a man and a father

Subaru just took their shocked as ever. His lack of self worth couldn’t comprehend such an action from Kadomon of all people but after hearing his words slight tears came to Subaru’s left eyes as he says with a big smile

Subaru: Thank you too Kadomon. Without you I wouldn’t have made it this far. I will keep trying to protect this country so your daughter may live a life without worry but I will have to go now. I’m taking Rem to a special place.

Mimi: Ooh I wonder where that place is. I’m so excited to see.

She says while jumping on her seat while her 2 brothers try to pull her down

And so the two departed while waving back but before he was out of earshot, Subaru yells

Subaru: And don’t worry sir, I’ll tell everyone I know to come visit your lovely store. Oh and say hi to your daughter for me

Kadomon hearing such kind words yells back

Kadomon: I’ll you up to that and will do. See ya kid. [Thinking: What a kind young man. If everyone was like him, world peace would be achieved within seconds ]

Chapter Text

Subaru is shown walking throughout the capital, heading to a familiar location speaking to a sleep Rem

Subaru: And then I actually ate it. Do you know how nasty pizza with pineapple is? It’s one of the few times my family tried it but pizza should not go with fruits, ESPICALLY PINEAPPLE. I nearly died

He laughed while recalling his childhood

Al looked down on a sleeping Subaru frustrated at such slander

Al : How dare he say such awful things of a delicious treat? You may be my bro but I’ll have to cut you down for such blasphemy

Rem quickly grabbed Subaru and placed his head on her chest, trying to protect him

Rem : You will not touch him. If Subaru decrees that it was awful then it probably is.

Al and Rem began to glare at each other. One was defending the DISGUSTING food known as pineapple on pizza and one was defending her man when eventually Al gave in, sitting back on his seat still a bit enraged

Al : Bro you have a scary goddess on your side. I ain’t gonna fight her

Ram snickers at the statement

Ram : That is a wise choice Jester

Al sighs as he chose to ignore the taunting and just look back at the screen

Subaru: Yeah I nearly died because of it, but you know what they say, “what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger”.

As he says that, he gradually dropped the smile mask for a bit saying the next words with great sadness behind it

Subaru: …..if only that was true

A sense of loneliness and sadness enveloped the room as all see the true Subaru for a second. A lonely boy who masks his pain for a second.

Emilia:[Thinking: … .subaru]

She recalls all the suffering he had to do to reach this point. A lost boy turned into a broken shell from the pressures of this world. She tightly squeeze Subaru’s hand while using her other hand to play with the ends of her hair

Reinhard:[Thinking: My friend, the thing I desire most of all right now is an opportunity to hug you and quell your pain, even by a little ]

Crusch :[Thinking: If I could I would take in your pain. Once we are head, I swear on my life I will do my best to tend your heart even if….. ]

She quickly dropped the last part of the statement as she couldn’t promise it as she knew her rivals were near

Subaru realising he soured the mood, quickly put on the mask and made tried to savoured what left he could

Subaru: So..Sorry Rem. I ruined the mood didn’t I? Let’s get back on the date. We don’t have much time before Ram kills me for bringing you home late

Ram: You idiot

Even as a trained maid, she couldn’t hold back the sadness she felt for her brother. She wanted to help him but she only mocked and/or threatened him. If she only took a moment to see him for who he truly was, maybe she’d try to be nicer rather then harm him

They continued their walks while Subaru tried to bring back the light mood but utterly failing at it as he bumps into a man causing Subaru to be pushed back more than the man himself.

He looked to be in his later 30’s, dressed like a high ranking citizen with some gold piercings, a quarter inch taller than Subaru with slightly long blue hair with emerald green eyes.

Subaru quickly stood up while wiping the dust off himself trying to get look of the man before apologising. He saw that the bag of Appas was safe breathed a sigh of relief.

Subaru: Sorry sir, I wasn’t looking going. We’ll get of your hair

The man, Charles, looked down on the duo with utter rage seeing that his expensive robe has been defiled by the touch of those lower then him

Charles: You dare touch me utter trash! How dare you?

Anastasia: Wow, it’s been 5 seconds and I already hate him

Ricardo viciously grabbed his arm rest so hard it broken into small pieces

Ricardo : Royal trash 

Felt looked at the screen with hatred in her eyes. She has experienced being called such awful names before as she was a thief from the slums so people like Charles, people who deem themselves superior for just their status made her skin crawl and the only thing holding her down is her knight, Reinhard

Felt : I want him to die so badly

Subaru looked at the man with a blank stare as his insulted didn’t affect the boy

Subaru:[Thinking: Ooh he must of high status if he has that attitude with a stranger. That insult wasn’t needed you know? Best to simply walk away before it gets any worse ]

Crusch: I’m impressed, he’s surprising calm

Julius : I agree. Usually you’d expect him to be angry but he’s handling the insult well, like a true knight.

Subaru grabbed the handles of Rem’s wheelchair and began walking away without making a comment

Charles began wiping himself while whispering

Charles: Yeah walk away and take that harlot of a women with you

That comment allowed made the entire cast quiet. The only thing that could be heard throughout the room was the heartbeats of everyone. A silent fury washed through them as Ram chose to speak first

Ram : He’s dead. Sir Reinhard you can try to stop me but the second we are out of here I’m killing that insect. Charles was it? Yeah, a perfect name that will shown to everyone on his tombstone.

A red aura surrounded the girl as a major vain could be seen on her upper forehead Everything from the chair to the arm rest had been completely crushed from the strength of the demon sister but she wasn’t the only one who wanted him dead

Wilhelm was usually able to control his emotions simply could not quell the anger in his chest. The kind girl who helped his grandson out in his moment of his despair, a kind young girl who had a big heart had been called such a vulgar name. He felt as though of one his own companion had been stricken down and this elderly swordsman would not let it go.

Wilhelm : Yes Reinhard, do not involve yourself in which what is to come. His future had been set the moment those words spilled from his lips

Reinhard wanted to say something. His mind was that of a knight and even though what they felt was right, the threat of killing the man was plainly wrong but for some reason, all his preaches of justice, all the things he wanted to say to quell the oni maid’s anger felt wrong, utterly wrong, stupidity wrong to say and so he just chose to look at the screen

Subaru being a couple of feet away could still hear what he say as his entire body suddenly stopped. The utter nonsense that he just heard sounded almost blasphemous to hear

Subaru:[Thinking: What? Who is he talking to? Me? No he already insulted me? Then who? Harlot? Who is he talking to? Who? Who? Who? Who? Who? Who? Who? Who? Who? Who? Who? Who? Who? Who? Who? Was he, no, was IT, talking about Rem? Rem? The kind girl in front of me? The Rem? My Rem? I can’t let this stand! I won’t let this stand? I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, won’t, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, won’t, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, I won’t, I WON’T LET THIS STAND!!! ]

Subaru turned his head to face the bastard that insulted his Rem. He face showed utter fury with a large vain pulsing on his forehead face and eyes that were of a beast on wild. His hair fell down on his face as his bangs covered one of his eye. His breathing was heavy but his mind was clear as water for what Subaru is about to do, he was fully conscious and aware of.

Priscilla looked at this with an arrogant grin her face. The hatred in his eyes, the breathing of someone who is preparing to kill was something she wanted to see. The boy has taken too much of the world’s wrath smiling as that all he can do but right here, there was no mask and this true face was one she knew she’d relish looking at

Quick pause

All turned to the voiced that said that

Before we continue I need to ask something of the knights and Ms.Crusch a question.

Julius already angered by the man who insulted such a kind girl asked with some venom in his heart

Julius: What is director!

Wow mad are we? Anyways, it’s a quick question. Will any one of question Subaru’s action that are about to shown on the screen?

Wilhelm immediately said

Wilhelm: No. Sir Subaru has every right in whatever action he chooses. If I were in his place I would’ve cut the man down

Felix : Yeah, that bastard has it coming for insulting dear Rem

Julius : As a knight, I cannot allow this to happen but as a fellow man and friend of Subaru, whatever action he does I will fully support

Crusch : I agree with Wilhelm. Weather a man or women, one must be able to stand for what’s right no matter the consequences

Reinhard: If my grandfather supports this so will I.

Reinhard didn’t know whether to support or be against this. He liked Subaru’s friends, he truly did but as a knight he had a duty to fulfil. It was in inner battle between his human side and his knight side and there’s yet to be a victor

Good now does anyone reject what Subaru will do?

Emilia: No. He’s a villain that needs to be dealt with

Rem: Of course not

Ram: That bastard deserves death so of course not

Beatrice: My contractor is simply defending his maiden. If possible I would’ve joined him

Garfeil: Yeah, that bastard deserves to face Captain’s wrath

Otto: Agreed

Frederica: Garfeil, language! But I do also agree with the actions of sir Subaru

Anastatia: Such actions are deemed necessary for filth such as him

Ricardo: Yeah, Subaru has my blessing to tear him apart

Mimi: Tear him apart

Hetero: Blast him till nothing is left

Tivey: Burn him alive

Priscilla: I’m quiet intrigued with what the commoner will do, so I’ll allow it

Al: He’s got my vote. A man has to stand on his principles when it comes to his lover

Roswaal: I’m indifferent to it

Felt: Of course you are, you monster but whatever Big bro does, me and Rein will support it

Good, now sit back and enjoy the carnage

Suddenly we switch to an alleyway where we can see Subaru holding up the man by his collar, chocking the man against the wall. Subaru eyes were that of a predator hunting it’s prey

Subaru: You just couldn’t shut your mouth could you? COULD YOU? Who do you think you’re insulting?

Charles being scared for his life couldn’t answer as he is pulled even higher by the young boy

Subaru: People like you disgust me. So much power, so much wealth yet you squander it on rings and other shit when you could be doing something better. You believe with all that money, you’re invincible?! Well guess what you’re not. This worthless trash you’re speaking of is currently holding YOUR PATHETIC LIFE in his hands? What will you do?

Otto: Wow I’ve never seen Mr.Natsuki like this. TEAR HIS HEAD OFF!!

Felt : YEAH BIG BRO KEEP GOING. MAKE THAT ARROGANT WASTE OF A MAN BEG FOR HIS LIFE.

Felt was yelling while applauding at the sight. Finally someone gets a dose of what it feels like

Ram was watching the screen with the biggest smile on her face anyone has ever seen. It was quiet haunting to be honest

Charles still afraid of the boy finally grew enough balls to say

Charles: Ge..get your disgusting hands of me. Do you know who I am? You’ll be executed for this!!!

Subaru lets go of the man to fall straight on his ass to the filth below. Charles after seating back up sees his assaulter inches from his face, starring directly into his eyes and soul. The man tried many times to look away but those hazel brown eyes penetrated every inch of resistance

Subaru: Filth? You call me filth! Sadly I don’t give a damn about what someone as disgusting as you thinks of me but look to your right.

The man slowly begins turning when Subaru grabs his lower face with one hand , forcing him to look at the sleeping maid

Subaru: You insulted Rem. You insulted my Rem. How dare you? She’s done more in a year than you’ve ever done with your entire worthless life. She’s a gem among gems and you dare defile her with your tongue.

Subaru then pulled Charles face even closer to him, pulling him so close that Charles can feel his breath

Subaru: You know, I should just cut your tongue for such an action. For insulting my Rem it’s the least I should do but I won’t. Don’t think it’s because I’m a good guy, it’s just because I don’t want your putrid blood on my track suit.

Rem nearly fainted watching this. Her hero nearly killed a man for his outburst and he kept stating how she was his. Ooh how she wishes she was alone with him

He lets go of Charle’s face causing him to crawl back to the wall. Charles begins to slowly to look up when a sudden punch was about to strike him but it missed by a hair, punching the wall, cracking the brick but injuring Subaru’s hand. Charles had tears running down his face as he stared at the warrior

Mimi was sitting on her big brother’s lap, waving her hands like a child bursting with joy

Mimi : RIP HIS HEAD OFF!!!!

Ricardo : NO RIP OUT HIS HEART AND SHOW IT TO HIM. THE SHOCK WILL BE WORTH IT

The demo humans in Anastasia camp were having a felid day seeing such a scene and even though felt a bit embarrassed seeing them, her joy and satisfaction was too much for her to try to come them down

Subaru: You speak of execution as if you’ll live long enough to see it. I could kill you now and take the execution later which I’d be fine with. Knowing that trash like you is dead would more than satisfy me. Are you the same? Are you willing to die for your ideals?

Charles began imaging his own death, a thought that never struck him as all the wealth and power blinded him from the inevitable destination and thus soiled his pants

Subaru looked down to the Man-baby soiling himself but didn’t care as he got close to his face again

Subaru: I don’t think so. You’re a coward, trash, disgusting hypocritical swine. One who would gladly execute a man while praying to the same one to let you go. I pity your mother for having to raise such a disgusting man. I hope she isn’t here because just the sight of you would kill her.

Al beholding the sight in front of him was smiling ear to ear under his helmet barley containing himself in his chair

Al: Yes bro keep going. I’ve never been so proud to be a Japanese then right now

Subaru placed his bloody hand on the wall Charles was leaning on as the blood stains it and some blood drops on Charles’s dirtied robe

Subaru: Listen hear you disgrace of a man. If I ever, EVER, have the unfortunate pleasure of seeing you again, not even your bones will be found. You don’t deserve the opportunity to apologise to Rem as every word that comes from your filthy mouth is poison to her. Now get out of here, you’re wasting my valuable time.

Before Charles got up to run, Subaru comes in close to his ear and whispers

Subaru: And if I find out you told anyone about this, you’ll wish I killed you here. I have some ideas on how to break you so don’t test me. Now scram

As a the rat that he is, Charles quickly ran away from the alley with tears and urine dripping from him. Subaru looked for a bit then began heading back to Rem while looking at his bloody hand.

A round of applause is all that could be heard in the room. Everyone, even the greatest of knights was cheering for the boy who reality checked that idiot

Garfeil was standing up whistling loudly

Garfeil : I’ve never seen Captain so mad. So cool, SO COOL.

Wilhelm : Yes I’ve got to agree with the young boy. Sir Subaru is truly incredible for his display today

Felix was seating in his seat holding his mistress’s hand but very happy.

Felix : So even someone as kind as Subaru can get mad? I never would’ve expected that. He looked even scarier than Wilhelm.

Crush : I agree. The wrath of a kind man is the greatest mistake one could come across and Subaru showed us why.

Beatrice : That is to be expected of my contractor. To go against my master is to make the gravest of mistake

Anastasia : Julius remind me never to make Subaru angry. Even a merchant like me felt threatened

Julius : Duly noted lady Anastasia but I think everyone here now realises that.

Priscilla : So the rabbit does have claws? Or were you a wolf in sheep’s clothing all along? I will get you into my domain, as the world is fated to give me want I yearn for and right now I desire you Subaru Natsuki

Ram :[Thinking: You did well Barusu. For the first time I believe you may be a good partner for my sister ]

Rem was madly blushing at the seen, unable to say.

Rem :[Thinking: He got this mad over me? Over one insult he resorted to this? He called me his Rem. I’m his and his alone. He truly loves me. Ooh Subaru, I wanna… ]

She leans over her seat towards the sleeping boy and kisses him on the cheek

Rem : Thank you for protecting me my hero and it’s as you say, I’m truly yours.

Emilia was smiling looking at the seen. To be enjoying watching such a disturbing seen may seem odd but Emilia couldn’t help but admire the loyalty that Subaru shown today even if she is a bit jealous that it wasn’t about her

Emilia : Subaru, you were so amazing there. I love you so much

Subaru: Sorry Rem, I wasted some of your time with that filth. I know if the role were reversed you would’ve done way better, probably would’ve broken his arm or a leg. But don’t worry the places we’ll be going will be more than worth it.

They continued their stroll throughout the capital. Visiting shops, eating various foods and trying the best ice cream in Lugunica, or as they say. Rem being in her situation needs her knights help to properly eat which Subaru was glad to do and now they are heading towards the location Subaru chose to spend his time with Rem when he gets interrupted by someone he hasn’t seen in months.

???: Is that you Subaru?

Subaru turn around to see who noticed him and saw a certain Demi-human and his lady

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???: Is that you Subaru?

Subaru turn around to see who noticed him and saw a certain Demi-human and his lady

Subaru rising his arm up while waving his hands at his old friends

Subaru: Hey it’s Felix and Ms.Crusch

Emilia: So that’s when you two met him that day?

Crusch : Yes it was quite a nice day especially with Subaru’s unique quirks

Emilia giggles to herself imagine what nonsense her knight was gonna get into to

Emilia : Yes, Subaru can be quite silly but he’s a good boy

Crusch smiles at hearing the nice words

Crush : He truly is.

We cut to see the group sitting around a table outside a restaurant which Felix and Crusch on one side and Rem and Subaru in the other

Felix: What are you doing in the capital today?

Subaru: Me and Rem are on a date right now. Ain’t she adorable today?

Rem: Aww thank you Subaru. You look quite nice too

Al:[Thinking: But he’s wearing the same clothes he normally wears]

Garfiel : Wow Cap’n knows how work his magic. He’s so amazing

Rem : He quite is and so are you Garfeil

Garfeil : Of course I am. Who knows me better than me. But thanks Rem

Throughout the screening, Garfiel and Rem have developed a friendship as both were younger siblings and who truly admire Subaru

Crusch looked down at the sleeping girl and her amazing outfit

Crusch: She very quite lovely

Subaru: She sure does. You look good too by the way. That outfit of yours makes your like a true warrior

Ram: How foul. Trying to seduce Ms.Crusch when my beloved sister is right there. How utterly perverted

Rem : Sister, you shouldn’t say mean things about Subaru. Subaru is a good guy and would never try something like that

Ram turned away clicking her tongue as she didn’t believe a word she said

Crusch was wearing her normal uniform without her weapon and hat

Crusch: You shouldn’t compliment another women in front of your lover Subaru

Felix: Yeah your breaking Rem’s poor heart

Felix teases as he holds his chest pretending to have a broken hearts

Subaru ever the loyal boy he is simply said

Subaru: But I’m not just complimenting a random women, I’m complimenting a great friend who housed me and Rem during our time of need. As both a knight and a friend I thank you

Subaru lowers his head as he puts his bloody hand on his chest, staining it a little

Wilhelm: What an honorable man you are young Subaru

Julius: Have I been miss judging him? I’ve never seen him speak so formally until we arrived here.

While Julius did acknowledge Subaru as a knight after hearing the news, he didn’t believe Subaru had the formality of a knight but time after time he’s been proven wrong.

Anastasia : What was that saying Subaru used once before. “You shouldn’t judge a book by its cover”, yeah Julius that’s something that would apply here. While it’s rare, Subaru knows how to be formal. He just chooses to act casual most of the time as he doesn’t see status as something major

Julius : Your right lady Anastasia, I should’ve thought of that.

Before Crusch could make a retort Felix slammed his hands on the table as he finally saw Subaru’s hand

Felix: What happened to your hand?!!

Crusch seeing that blood nearly covering Subaru’s hand was shocked and quickly grabbed his to inspect it while asking

Crusch: Mr.Subaru what happened? Were you attack?

Subaru trying his best to calm the situation was waving his hands in denial

Subaru: What? No I wasn’t attacked. It was actually me who did this did. Probably wasn’t a good idea in hindsight

Felix leaned over the table to examine the situation too

Felix: Then explain while I heal your hand

Felix began applying healing magic on Subaru hands

Subaru: Thanks Felix. You’re the best and I’ll explain.

Felix: And this is when I acknowledge Subaru as a man among men. He truly loves you Rem. Never forget that

Rem looks at the cat-man with a pink spots across her face and a small smile

Rem: I wont Mr. Felix

Rem turns back to face her sleeping knight and gently caresses his checks

Rem :[Thinking: I love you too Subaru ]

Subaru began to explain what had happened earlier as Felix finished healing his hand and used a wet rag to wash away the blood. Both Crusch and Felix were shocked to hear that Subaru threaten someone but were also proud to see such loyalty

Felix wiped away a fake tear after hearing this

Felix: How noble of you Subaru. Such profound loyalty and love is rare in this world. That bastard deserved it. You and Wilhelm are very alike.

Subaru was scratching his head while looking down in embarrassment

Subaru: I don’t think I could ever be as amazing as Wilhelm but thanks

Wilhelm: Ms. Emilia when we are out of here, do let Subaru know that he far surpassed me.

Emilia: Why not do that yourself? I know Subaru would love to hear that from his role model.

Wilhelm felted a little embarrassed to hear such kind words and so looked down at his feet

Wilhelm: I’m no role model but I do thank you for your kind words

Emilia began giggling to herself while covering her mouth

Emilia: You two are alike. You both can’t take a compliment without feeling embarrassed

Wilhelm smiled as he faced the half-elf

Wilhelm : ….I guess we are

Crusch: That is quite commendable Subaru but are you not concerned over the possible consequences? What if that was a noble or a council member?

Subaru then looked at the young duchess with a glimmer of red shining in each of his eyes as his body shifted to one of seriousness

Subaru: Ms. Crusch, if someone offended Felix for simply being a Demi-human, would you stand ideally by?

Crusch noticing the shift in the room also become serious as she truthfully answered

Crush: No. One should not insult another for how they are born, no matter the circumstances. I would’ve cut them down at the moment

Subaru smiled at hearing this but kept his composure as this was not a moment that jokes would be appropriate for

Subaru: I agree. It doesn’t matter whether that bastard is a noble or a council member. I will burn this entire country down if it met protecting those I love. I am Rem’s hero and I’ll do anything to protect her and her name even if I must destroy everything else to do so.

Felix: Big words, you sure you can handle that role?

Subaru looked at the doctor with confidence and determination. In his body and soul, he knew that whatever it took to protect them, he’d do not because he has to but because he wants to

Subaru: It’s a not of matter of if I can, I know I can and I will win. It’s simply a matter of time.

Felix: And that’s why I said he reminded me Wilhelm. I’ve never seen him with such a look before

Priscilla crushed her arm rest while starring at the screen with a devilish smile. Priscilla stood up, closed her fan and pointed at the screen overfilled with joy. Her face was that of a father seeing her son hit a home run 

Priscilla : Yes! That’s the look I have longed to see. Someone who will protect and has the mind to do so. Subaru Natsuki, you will join my camp as the world revolves me, granting me all my wishes and once you join my group you’ll pave a path for me for the throne

Al : Wow princess, I’ve never been seen you so happy until now

Priscilla : Al, did I allow you to speak? But you are correct. I am overfilled with joy. The boy may not see himself as worthy but his confidence towards his ability to protect others is quite remarkable. He’s nearly a perfect knight. When he falls into my clutches, I will fix his self worth issues and he’ll be nearly as perfect as me.

Beatrice : Once again another woman falls for my contractor. It isn’t surprising as he is quite the man but claiming he’ll leave the half-elf to join you is utter foolishness.

Priscilla : A bug cannot comprehend the actions of a dragon. We are of two separated species and as insignificant as you are, I know that if the boy joins me, so will you so show some respect to your future leader

The two were at a stalemate but chose to avoid continuing as the episode continued

Crusch smiles at the response as she takes a sip of her tea she ordered.

Crusch: That’s a good answer. I hope good fortune for you two.

Subaru: Thanks. So what are you doing here today?

Felix : Today me, Ms.Crusch and Wilhelm were in the capital to talk to some noble members about some political issues. The meeting went fairly well and before we began returning back to our manor, lady Crusch asked to go for a scroll throughout the capital and that’s when I met up with you

Subaru: That’s good to hear. Hey Felix can you do me a favour? Knight to knight?

Felix: Sure what is Sir Subaru?

He asks teasing the young knight

Subaru: Don’t call me Sir. It makes me sound old.

Rem : He really does not like formality does he?

Beatrice : Yes my contractor sees people not through their status but their character. He has too big of a heart I suppose.

Rem : He really does.

Subaru: But anyways could you do a check up on me. My whole body I mean?

Felix tilted his head in confusion to the boy’s favour

Felix: It’s not the fifth of the month yet. Why check so early?

Frederica: Sir Felix, why does the fifth matter so much?

Felix turns to the house maid stretching his arms behind his head

Felix : Well as Subaru’s secondary doctor, he visit our home every month for a routine check up. He usually does it early in the morning as to not wake you up.

Frederica: But it’s an hour and a half to and back! How early does he get up to meet you, return home and get ready for the day?

Beatrice : Betty’s Subaru wakes up an hours before sunrise in fact.

Otto : Wow that’s so early and here I thought he was just lazy

Subaru closed one of his eyes and stared at his hand

Subaru: I have been some sleep issues recently and wanted to know how it affected me

Emilia looked down with her bangs covering her eyes as she recalls the nights in which Subaru could not rest

Emilia: Has he told you about his nightmare?

Felix: No. Sadly he only told me he had issues with sleeping. Anything more he’d try to change the topic. And Beatrice could I ask you a question?

Felix began to shake as his bottled anger slowly began to release

Beatrice : What is it now?

Felix : …why did you lie to me?

Beatrice: Betty does not know what you mean

Felix not able to contain his rage stood up and yelled

Felix : WHY DID YOU LIE TO ME ABOUT THE SITUATION WITH HIS ARMS? YOU TOLD ME IT WAS MA BEASTS THAT DAMAGED HIS ARMS BUT AFTER CONFRONTING YOU PRIVATELY, YOU TOLD ME TO DROP IT! AS HIS MAIN DOCTOR I RESPECTED YOUR DECISION BUT YOU HAD NO RIGHT HIDING THIS!!!!

As a doctor Felix had to see Subaru’s entire body and though he had many scars, he knew where they came from as he is a fellow knight but the damage around his arms looked fresh and so he questioned Subaru. Subaru did his best to avoid talking it and through the help of his Betty, they convinced the femboy to drop it but this issue had always been on his mind so to see THIS as the answer, as a doctor he could let it stand

Beatrice stood on Subaru’s lap while looking up to the catboy

Beatrice : But it was my responsibility to. If you knew the reason, you’d probably make him tell you why or tell your precious mistress which would’ve caused conflicted between the camps. My contractor knew this and chose to stop the matter before it even started.

Felix: But—-

Felix gets interrupted by the old loli who began to violently point at him

Beatrice : But nothing. The burden my contractor holds in a great one and Betty will not allow such treatment to fall upon him. Not while Betty is hear

Crusch raised her hand as she wanted to say something

Crusch : Ms.Beatrice while I understand your concern, you should’ve informed Felix. He is also a doctor.

Beatrice looks further left to face Crusch

Beatrice : If you knew about Subaru’s situation, would have left it alone?

Crusch couldn’t answer as she knew she would’ve done something about it

Beatrice finally calming herself began speaking in a manner that wasn’t of rage but of concern for her master

Beatrice : Betty understands you mean well. Betty understands you want to help her Subaru but he also knew any method of helping him would’ve caused harm to others and so he chose to only tell Betty. Now that we all know why he is like this, we can construct a plan in which we can help him but also doesn’t cause him sadness

Nobody could object to the great spirit’s words cause they were of the truth. Felix after hearing was satisfied with the answer. It wasn’t the answer he wanted but it was once befitting the main doctor of Subaru

Felix : One more question and I want your honest opinion. Besides the self harm, the nightmares and the panic attacks, are there any other threats to Subaru’s wellbeing. As a doctor I should know.

Beatrice paused for a moment to think. Any chance of helping her contractor is one she must take, but she promised to keep his secrets and so she chose to dance around the truth

Beatrice : No. That is as much as Betty knows

Felix : Ok then. I apologise for my outburst

Felix then sat back down but began making more plans in order to help his friend. A plan that helped him in his recovery but didn’t strip him of his home

Felix seeing the troubled man chose to not asked for more and complied. Felix and Subaru went into a private room that the owner allowed since they were both knights and the owner knew Felix. Felix placed some magic on Subaru for examination and after a couple of minutes he had some answers.

Felix: Well from what I can tell your body is healing quite nicely, your horrible sleeping habit has slightly affected your stamina and the bags around your eyes have darken a bit. Also your hair is thinning a bit but thy may be due to stress. Your gate is still shattered and you’ll need your spirit within 3 days but besides that your overall physical is steady. Try to sleep more and take more breaks, you need it.

Subaru putting his jacket back on without showing his arms sighed as he had something on his mind which Felix took note of

Subaru: Well that’s great to hear. I’ll try to improve my sleep schedule. Thank you Felix

Even though he was grateful, he’s eyes lost the embers of happiness as he was stuck in thought

Emilia: Umm Felix, why does Subaru look so sad right now? Did you find anything else wrong with him?

Felix : No. This exact conversation happened in my memories and I never understood why he was like that

Beatrice : Betty can agree. When he returned home, while joyful, Betty’s Subaru had a level of sadness in him. Betty didn’t get an answer either I suppose

Felix’s ear stood up while he looked at the boy in confusion and concern

Felix: Are you ok Subaru? Is there something you want to talk about?

Subaru realising he was worrying his friends quickly collected himself and forced a smile

Subaru: I’m ok Felix. I’m just thinking about something I need to do later on

Crusch: He isn’t lying, but he isn’t tell the whole truth either.

Crusch : [Thinking: How can he have such a face and I did not notice? I have to better in order to help him ]

Felix looked at the boy trying to figure out his true intentions but couldn’t come with anything and so to simply play along as they return to the table with Crusch and Rem

Subaru: It’s been fun guys but me and Rem have a schedule to maintain and so we should get going. It was fun talking to you guys

Subaru began to prepare to leave while dusting himself off. He put his hands on Rem’s wheelchair handles and began pushing her

Crusch: Ok well, have a great day and hopefully we’ll meet again

Subaru stopped before the door, quickly checking his pocket, as if he had something to give. He turned around and walked up to Crusch

Subaru: Oh and Ms.Crusch?

Crusch: Yes?

Subaru pulled out a a green flower with 5 petals and a yellow calyx putting it in her hand as he began walking back to Rem

Subaru: I found this flower earlier and wanted to give you it. You may be a warrior but you’re also a lady so take care of that beauty of yours.

Crusch looked at her the flower and became very flustered, showcasing blushes all across her face.

Otto face palmed himself as the scene was outright ridiculous

Otto : Crusch too? Mr. Natsuki, how many women are you trying to get?

Rem looked to face the young Duchess

Rem: So you too are a rival huh? I won’t lose to you Ms.Crusch

Garfiel : How does he do it? Cap’n is such a charmer. I wanna be like him

Mimi : Why would you want to be like when you only need me?

As the 2 cat Demi human began arguing Frederica could only look and laugh at the young lover blooming in front of her

Ram : Barusu is truly depraved. How could he seduce Ms.Crusch yet be attracted to both Ms.Emilia and my adorable sister? I should strike him where he stand

Crusch could look down in shame as she knew any comment made by her would only further the hole she dug herself in

Crush:[Thinking: I do see him as attractive but LOVE? That’s a whole different thing and yet my heart cannot deny it. I wonder if I could be his…. ]

Al was grateful he was wearing his mask, otherwise everyone would see the look of utter jealousy on his face right now

Al: Thinking:[ Come on bro, leave some women for the rest of us ]

Ricardo was dying of laughter looking at this scene

Ricardo: That’s it, when we are out of here, I’m gonna find him and make him teach me his ways. I need to know his secret

Emilia was in a tight spot looking at this scene. She liked Crusch, she saw her as an ally and a friend but her hidden feeling for her knight also made Emilia’s chest tighten as she imagined Subaru and Crusch beginning together

Emilia :[Thinking: I won’t lose to you Ms.Crusch. He’s my knight, my lover, MY SUBARU. Rem I could understand why he would want her as a wife and I wouldn’t be against the idea but not you Ms.Crusch. ]

Subaru opened the door and looked back while waving goodbye

Subaru: See you Crusch and Felix, and thanks for the check up

Felix waved back in excitement

Felix: It’s no problem Subaru. See you on the fifth

They head towards a familiar path. One in which Subaru’s life could’ve been forever changed. As they reach there spot, they appear on a high building showing the capital and all its beauty

Subaru pushes Rem so she near the edge so she too can see its surroundings

Subaru: I wanted to take you here Rem because this is where you changed my life and I’m forever thankful for that.

He bite on one of the appas as he stand behind Rem taking in the view

Subaru: I was lost…

*A flashback of him finding everyone’s dead corpses

I was scared…

*A flashback of him Freezeing to death*

I wanted to give up…

*A flashback of him laughing at himself as he died again*

Rem: It is you I have to thank Subaru. You freed me from my own despair and forever changed my heart. I love you for continuing to fight, though it saddens me that your suffered far more then you deserved and it was caused my me

* A flashback of Subaru killing himself in an attempt to save her*

Everyone chose to stay silent as this was a moment for the couple and not even Beatrice had the heart to interfere

She leans in and gives a quick kiss on his cheek while continuing to stare at his face

Rem : I love you and I always will no matter what happens. I’m proud of you

A small smile grows on his face as he continues to look forward

Subaru: All I wanted to do is leave and never return. But you didn’t give up on me. You continued to stay by my side and gave me hope for a better tomorrow. No one trusted me and no one truly believed me…all except you. I thank you

A small tear crawls from his eyes but he quickly wipes it away

Subaru: With all my heart I can say I love you just as much as Emilia. You may think what I said after the whale hunt was a moment’s decision but even today, I am yours.

*A quick flashback of him declaring his love to her while she pretends to faint*

Subaru: Once you wake up I want to show this place again. With you able to see how far I’ve grown. I want you to continue to be at my side, you and Emilia.

Wilhelm began tearing up. Such a declaration of love reminds him of his late wife. Love truly brought the best out of people. If he could even be an ounce like Subaru, he maybe could repair his relationship with his son and grandson.

Wilhelm : Beautiful, simply beautiful.

Everyone stared at the warrior with some shock. All understood that tearing up at this scene would be completely justified but to see THE sword demon tearing up was something none expected to see. Subaru really did bring the best out of people

He scratches his head in embarrassment

Subaru: It may be selfish to say this but I would love to marry you both as you two are the most important people in my life. I don’t know how Mili would feel but I gotta hope

He finally down as at the sleeping girl as he turns her around. He back away a little bit as he point to the sky and performs his signature pose

Emilia turns her head brimming in red as she was scared to discuss this…at the moment

Emilia: R..ree..rem?

Rem looked towards her lady with a curious but friendly look

Rem: Yes Emilia?

Emilia: We…We’ll discuss marriage a bit later. I just wanted to give you a warning now or how would Subaru say, a “heads up”.

She felt really proud of using some of Subaru’s words correctly

Rem: Of course. I understand and cannot wait to discuss it

Subaru: I am Subaru Natsuki. I am your hero and knight of Emilia. I will continue to walk so long as you allow me to lean on you for support. I may not be the strongest, or smartest but with your help I can do anything.

By the way, this a moment in which he’s breaking his bad habit so pat yourself on the back Rem

Rem stared at where the voice was coming from

Rem: Thank you Mr.Director

She grab her hero’s hand as she smiles and thinks about the future

Subaru return to his spot with rem as he picks up his Appa and begins eating it

Subaru: Thanks for listening Rem and when we reach our final spot, I would like to tell you something. But for now let’s take a couple of minutes to admire the world around us

While Subaru was smiling, he had a few moments where his eyebrows twitched as if he hiding something

Anastasia: He’s hiding something big. My merchant senses are tingling

Crusch: Your right. The way his face twitches is telling me his wants to talk more but he’s putting it off till his last destination. Speaking of which, does anyone have any clue? Emilia?

Emilia: No. He never told anyone, he said he wanted it to known exclusively to him and Rem

Ram : Ram can vouch for her. Barusu only told me Rem was the only one he’d tell. While Ram disliked it, she trusted him to keep her sister safe, and so he did

Crusch : Hmm, I guess we’ll have to wait until he reaches his finale destination to learn

And so the couple stay on that area for about half an hour. A place where the life of Subaru Natsuki truly began as his darling Rem pierced the clouds of darkness with glimmering light