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It was supposed to be a normal day, you were attending customers and working in the bar, until this guy sat in front of you, "hey! you seem a bit down, something on your mind, Schatz?," he said with a cheesy tone and a smirk, "Hello, I don't know you so I won't answer your question and not to mention I'm just working." You respond with a cold tone, "Don't be so rude! I'm Strade," his smile drops for a second before extending his hand, waiting for you to shake it, "Well thank you for your introduction but I got customers to attend," you mumble under your breath with a sharp tone, what was this guy's problem? Couldn't he take the hint and leave me alone? Fuck him and his fake ass "friendliness" You think to yourself as you continue serving other customers their drinks.

After some time, "Well I would like some beer, please" Strade speaks up again with that same fake nice tone, "Here, it'll be $10," you hand him a mug filled with beer with a bitter tone. He hands you a $20 dollar bill, "keep the change, it's fine, just a tip for great customer service!" he says as he sips on his drink, "you're really pretty, I want to buy you a drink," he points to an bottle of vodka, "Can't drink, I'm at work," you turn around to put the money at the register, "what about when your shift's over?," he winks at you, "when my shift's over, I'm going home," you mumble with a annoyed tone as you roll your eyes at his suggestion, this guy seriously has a problem with harassing women! You yell inside your head as you think of the interaction over and over again. "Well I should get going, see you soon, Liebchen." He stands up and waves bye to you as he leaves the bar, finally! It was time he leaves me alone! You celebrate inside your head and hummed happily for a few minutes before resuming your tasks.

After a few hours, you start closing the place down, you lock the door and you take drags out of your cigarette. You start walking in a dark alleyway to get home quickly, you continue to take drags out of your cigarette and as soon as it's done, you drop it to the floor and walk away, you stop as you see Strade standing by you and looking directly at you, your heart drops to your stomach.

Suddenly, you feel a fist punch you in the face, "fuck...." You groan in pain rubbing your bloody and bruised nose, you run away fast as possible as you feel blood trickling down your nose, you feel a hand pull you against him in that same alleyway, "stay quiet and still, little mouse," he smiles sadistically as he puts a weird smelling bottle on your mouth forcing it down your throat, you move and try to fight back while yelling for help but Strade takes out a hunting knife and stabs you in the waist, until you finally drink the contents of the bottle, your vision starts to get blurry as you feel the effect similarities between the drugs you take and do and the liquid Strade is forcing down your throat, you feel the blood staining your clothes and the sharp pain where the blood is trickling from, you try to scream for help but only comes out as a weak, hoarse, and low whimper.

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You open your eyes slowly, you feel a strong headache, you try to stand up but you hear rope restraining you from standing up, your hands are tied to a pole, all of the memories from the events from yesterday, the strange  liquid, the blood, the knife, and STRADE. That motherfucker! You curse him under your breath. Suddenly, you hear a door open and boots walking down the stairs, Strade stands in front of you, "Good morning, Schatz! Thought you were dead!" He smiles at you with that same sadistic expression, "Fuck you, hope you rot in hell!" You yell as you spit on him, "Ooohh you're feisty, I love it!" He laughs manically as he cleans the spit off his shoe. He turns around and walks over to a counter, "do you want anything to eat or drink before we starts?" He says looking directly at you while playing with a hunting knife lazily almost bored, "I don't want shit from you!" You blurt out with an angry expression.

Strade walks and stands in front of you, "Now Liebling, you better stop with that attitude, it's getting me irritated," he says with a warning tone, "I don't fucking care, you disgusting piece of shit! Go fuck yourself!" You yell again with an angry tone, why does this guy expect you to be nice to him when he literally kidnap you and stabbed you?! You think to yourself, Strade grabs your face roughly to make you look at him, "say that again!" he looks at you in the eyes with a warning look and tone, you hesitate before speaking out again "I said, I don't fucking care, you disgusting piece of shit!" You say with a quiet but angry voice, "oohhh this will be so fun! You're so interesting, Mäuschen!" He laughs with a humorless, and cold tone. He grabs your hair roughly and rubs his growing erection against your face, "see what your feisty attitude and your sexy body does to me.", you have the urge to vomit because of his disgusting actions and words, he lets go of your hair and grabs a hunting knife and presses it on your neck, "we will have to get rid of those clothes of yours," he doesn't wait for an answer and rips off your shirt and bra, you feel the cold air and you shiver, "that's better!" He looks at you and positions the knife on your chest, "No! Fuck!-" you barely blurt out as Strade moves the blade on your skin and cuts you, blood starts running down your chest, you feel the wet red liquid stains your skirt, "you look stunning, Schätzchen!" He says as he takes a step back to admire you as if you were a precious masterpiece he worked so hard on, you glare at him, wanting to cry but you can't, you simply don't want him to laugh at your tears, you don't want him to see you as a weak, helpless crybaby, even though you clearly are in this never ending torture.

Strade stabs your abdomen as you snap out of your thoughts, he then grabs you by your hair, "What's on your mind? Hmm?" Strade looks at you as you continue to bleed slowly, "I'm going to give you a choice here, you give me a blowjob while I continue to cut, stab and make you bleed or I kill you right now!" Strade tells you as if it's something normal to ask, your eyes wide as you think which one is better, "tick tock, little mouse, choose one quickly and wisely," he tilts his head slightly waiting for your answer, "the first one.." you say with a weak, and low whisper barely audible, "wise choice, Liebling!" Strade helps you get on your knees, he then proceeds to unzip his pants and boxers, you gulp as you see his hard and throbbing dick, "hurry up, and start," you open your mouth and take his dick in, you start licking his tip slowly, you hear him moan and groan multiple times as you continue to lick, you finally start moving your head up and down as you continue to suck him off, then you feel his hand grab your hair and make you go faster and rougher, as Strade's other hand continues to cut you and make you bleed, you whimper and moan a few times as you feel the wet red blood running down the wounds, you then feel a hot, and thick liquid explode deep in your throat, you are unsure on what to do, you look up at Strade, "swallow it," he glares at you as a warning to follow his command, you obediently swallow it and feel the urge to throw up, it makes you feel sick to your stomach, you finally take his penis out of your mouh with a wet pop sound, Strade fixes his disheveled, and sweaty appearance, he then puts his dick away and zips up his pants, "you want me to help you with those wounds?" He asks you as if nothing happened, you barely process what he said and just slowly nod, Strade cleans and cures your wounds, he takes care of you before going upstairs and leaving you in that cold, dark basement by yourself, a million thoughts are running through your head, you need to escape but how? He'll surely find you and torture you even worst as a punishment or even kill you in the most painful way ever, your eyes start feeling sleepy and tired, you finally give in and go to sleep.

A few weeks pass, and Strade continues to torture you horribly, this time it's different, "I like you a lot, I'll keep you as my pet along with Ren!" He smiles to your confused expression, "Ren is going to be so eager to meet you! I'm sure you two will get along!" Strade doesn't wait for an answer before putting an electric collar on you, he then unties you and brings you upstairs after weeks that felt like months of being stuck on his basement, you see an unknown figure look at you from the living room, you assume that's who Strade is talking about, that's Ren, he has orange, messy hair, with fox ears?... They must be fake, knowing Strade he might asked the boy to put it, he looks around your age, he is very short, he also has bright yellow eyes, he wears red glasses, near his eyes he has red upside down triangles which must be makeup, he has a simple outfit consisting of a white shirt and black shorts, "Ren, come here!" Strade voice snaps you out of your thoughts, Ren approaches carefully, "Y-Yes?" Ren says with a voice barely above a whisper, "I want you to introduce you to your new friend! Her name is (reader's name)!" Strade tells Ren with that same fake smile, "I-i'm Ren.." he says as he examines you up and down, "I'm (reader's name)" you say with a stern, cold voice.

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It has been a few weeks since Strade kidnaped you and brought you to his basement, you sometimes see Strade bring people and torture them then kill them, it scares you, what if you're next? What if Strade doesn't like you no more? You know that's not true but can't help but fell that way, Ren and you have gotten very close over the weeks, he's a really nice and sweet guy, he comforts and takes care of you after Strade is done with you, you do the same when it's Ren instead of you, you have noticed Strade staring at you and Ren when you two are together, laughing, talking, or just enjoying each other's company, you suspect Strade is planning something but you just can't guess what and it's not like you can go ask him out of nowhere, "uhh, (reader's name) you're spacing out again, everything's okay?.." Ren asks softly as he waves a hand in front of you that quickly makes you snap out of your thoughts, "yeah, umm just tired," you respond with a weak smile that doesn't reach your eyes, Ren seems to be convinced with your answers but doesn't press it, "What do you want to watch now on the TV, it's your turn..." Ren speaks softly as he gives you the control remote, without hesitation you grab it and change it from the channel he was watching to the one you want to see, the news one, "it has been a few weeks since (reader's name) has went missing, police keep searching for her but no trace has been found on where she could possibly be at, she was last seen at the Braying Mule, if you see something indicating where she could be please call the number on the screen," the newswoman on screen speaks as she switches the topic to the weather, "isn't that you?" Ren tilts his head, "yeah, that's me, guess the police is useless in this cases," you said with a annoyed scoff, no one cared about you when you weren't missing, why care now?! Fuck all of them, you switch the channel to another one as you continue spacing out deep in your thoughts, Ren just stays by your side watching the television with you quietly.

After a few hours, Strade comes back home and Ren tenses and looks at you, and you both think of the same question, did he bring another person to torture or it's one of y'all turn for the basement, "Good night, Ren and my Liebling," Strade speaks with that sickly, fake, and sweet tone, "uhh hey..." You mumble under your breath, Ren just waves at Strade, "tonight you two will be my two main superstars for my stream tonight!" He says excitedly, what is he referring to? What stream? You're confused and don't know what's Strade is talking about, Ren seems visibly sick and pale, Ren must know what Strade is referring to, you stay quiet and wait until Strade goes downstairs to the basement, "um Ren?" You tap his shoulder softly, "yes? What happened?" Ren says with a shaky voice, "what is Strade referring to?" You tilt your head in confusion, Ren leans in closer to your ear and whispers, "It's when Strade tortures his victims, live with other people like him watching and cheering for him and his antics," Ren thinks before speaking out again, "don't worry, as long as Strade likes you and those people do too, you will survive," your heart drops to your stomach, you feel the urge to throw up, your heart is pounding in terror as the color in your face disappears, "time for stream!!" Strade calls for you and Ren, Ren stands up first and offers you his hand, "I'll help you, just stick close with me and you'll be fine," you grab his hand and nod. You two start walking downstairs to the basement, all the bad memories hit back to you but you try to ignore them, you grip Ren's hand and hear him wince a bit, once you and Ren are finally downstairs, Strade turns to both of you, "Strip down, now" his tone is commanding which is best to do what he says, you quickly strip out of your clothes, Ren does the same quickly, you look him up and down and turn around quickly while blushing, he looks at you confused but seeing you fully naked, his eyes widen and looks away in embarrassment, Strade ignores both of you as he sets up a camera, he then makes sure everything is perfect, "both of you, stand there," he points near a chair in the middle of the basement, you and Ren walk to the chair and stand beside it "Ren sit down in that chair," Strade said with a cold tone, then, Strade covers his face with a skull scarf below his eyes, "welcome back to another stream! Today I decided to bring two of my favorite victims, Ren and (reader's name)!" He exclaims with excitement, you and Ren make eye contact for a bit, "we want to see sex or blood today? Or maybe both?" Strade asks the audience as he reads the chat, he laughs sadistically, "it's decided then!" He sounds so happy and pleased, "Mäuschen, stand in front of Ren" he says maliciously, you obey and stand in front of Ren as you avoid eye contact with him, Strade moves the camera so it can see what's about to happen, Strade grabs a nail gun and a knife, he puts them on his pocket, as he approaches you, "bend over and start sucking him off," Strade whispers behind you, full of mockery, you gulp down the lump in your throat and bend over and take Ren's cock in your mouth as you slowly lick his tip, you could feel Strade's hard dick behind your bare ass, he puts himself on your entrance, he starts thrusting, you moan softly as Strade starts thrusting into you as you continue to bob your head up and down on Ren's hard dick, you feel the stab of a knife in your back and the blood starts trickling down and stains the floor, you start crying silently, you grab Ren's penis as you move your hand up and down his dick, Ren moans and whimpers as you continue sucking him off and stroking him, you continue to feel the new fresh wounds from Strade from behind as he continues thrusting mercilessly into you, you can't bare the pain anymore and you're close to an orgasm, you continue taking Strade's hard penis from behind, and sucking and stroking Ren's cock, you notice that Ren is close to cumming, you feels his hot and sticky seed fill your mouth and hands, you swallow it quickly, you continue noticing the blood on the floor as you feel a nail being shooted in your shoulder and the blood running down and staining Ren's thighs, Ren breathes deeply and breathe out, you finally had enough of holding it in and squirt all over Strade's dick and cover his dick in your juices, you pant as you feel the relief of it, you feel a deep stab in you lower back, you can't hold it in anymore, you cry out in pain as you feel Strade cum deep inside you, you look at him with a face full of tears and he just smile sadistically like the maniac and psychopath he is, "your turn to sit down in the chair," Ren stands up and you sit down, "now eat her off, Ren" Ren hesitates before lowering himself down on his knees, he pushes your thighs gently as he sticks his tongue out and start licking your clit, you moan as you feel the pleasure hitting, Ren's whimpers are muffled but you can hear them, you can also see Strade just stabbing Ren the same way he did with you, cutting him, making him feel pain, Ren cries mix with his muffled moans and whimpers, you feel his tears stain your thighs, you see a bit of blood staining your skin but don't care at all, this feels so good, you continue to moan as Ren tongue hits all the right spots, Ren continues until he feels your legs start to shake, Ren goes faster until he feels you start panting and cry out in pleasure as your juices soak his face, "well, what do we think?" Strade asks the chat, they all think it was fantastic and good, "so I see y'all are satisfied, this is my goodbye, see you on another stream!" Strade waves goodbye as he turns off the stream.

Strade starts to clean your and Ren's wounds, you feel so much better than before, "you two may go upstairs and do whatever you want," without wasting time, you two hurry up the stairs, "a-are you okay?" Ren asks you with a soft voice, "as long as I'm alive and with you, everything's fine," you smile at him which seems to cause him to blush but calm down a bit, you two go to Ren's room and just cuddle there for the rest of the night.

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Strade was busy on the basement with a new victim, you and Ren take this small opportunity to get freaky for the first time since you two met and experienced a bond with a lot of unhealthy codependency and "love", you know it's unhealthy but you couldn't care less, you love him, he's your savior, he helped you with your wounds everytime Strade made you bleed and left you alone with your thoughts, you look at Ren that looks really nervous and he's sweating, "Ren, it's something on your mind? We don't have to do it if you don't want," you say knowing if you're making him uncomfortable, "huh? Oh- yes I'm fine! Just really nervous! But I really want to!" Ren says quickly, "Ren, please don't force yourself to do something you don't want," you say with a nervous tone, "it's fine really! We should just get going umm," Ren quickly takes his shirt and shorts off, he quickly puts his boxers down revealing his growing erection, you quickly take your clothes and underwear off, Ren's eyes widen with desire seeing your bare figure, he lick his lips, you quickly put your lips in his in a passionate kiss, you could feel Ren's muffled soft whimpers against your lips, you break the kiss to breath, "Ren, make all of these horrible memories disappear for tonight, love me to the fullest, just us in this room, no Strade, no streams," you say as you look up at Ren with soft eyes, "I will, I promise, Can I ask you something?" Ren says in a embarrassed tone, "yeah, what happened?" you ask curiously, "I want you to praise me and degrade me and make me bleed, if you don't mind, please," he looks away full of embarrassment, "I'll try, anything you ask for," you respond quickly, Ren quickly rubs your clit in circles after hearing those words, you shiver to his touch, you quickly feel him positioning his hard cock against your entrance, he slowly pushes inside you and you quickly accommodate to his size, you moan softly as Ren starts thrusting slowly inside you, he whimpers and moans, he picks up the pace and goes faster and rougher, "stupid useless, bad boy, you deserve this," you say with poison on your tongue and Ren moans loudly hearing your tone and words, you claw at him multiple times until it draw blood out and put your legs on his back, "good boy, doing such a great job," you say multiple time between moans and groans, Ren in response he just responded with a weak voice between moans, "I'm a good boy," you start squirming feeling that you were about to cum, Ren looks like he has noticed you flushed face, and rub your clit while he bites your neck leaving soft bite marks along your neck, he kisses you deeply, you finally can't hold it no more, you start squirting all over Ren's dick, you feel him explode his white and sticky seed inside your pussy, Ren whimpers a d shivers completely spent, he pulls out his cock from inside your pussy, you finally put your legs down and Ren falls beside you completely flushed and spent, "you did such a good job, my naughty boy," you giggle teasing him, Ren just laughs weakly and pulls you into a hug, he kisses you head softly, you ruffle his hair in return, "I love you," he whispers softly in your ear which makes you melt at his words, "I love you too, my fox" you kiss him passionately.

A few weeks have passed since you and Ren had sex, you pray that Strade hasn't noticed something is off with you and Ren, you two have been acting weird since the encounter, avoiding each other, barely talking to him, which is weird because as soon as you left the basement you built a bond with Ren and stuck to each other, suddenly you hear Strade call you from the basement, "oh my dear, Mäuschen, come downstairs!" Strade says with maliciousness in his voice, you know what this meant, it was your turn to get tortured, you walk down the stairs waiting for your fate waiting for you in that basement of death and despair, you finally get to the last step and go forward, your eyes adjust to the light downstairs, you see Ren tied there and his eyes widen with terror as he sees you, you are confused on what's happening, Strade must have surely told Ren something involving you, "looks like you made it, Schatz!" Strade smiles widely, "what's this about?..." You ask carefully to not get yourself punished for speaking out of turn, "didn't you little lover tell you? Hmm guess you two weren't as close as I thought, haha!" Strade laughs with a humorless laugh, Ren quickly starts shaking, "well now that you two are finally here, I'm going to talk why you two are here, well just to make it simple," Strade stops to think how he's going to worded it, "I know what happened between you two, the whole chat room heard both of you! And that's a big deal!" Strade says with a annoyed and angry tone, "now, I'm going to give you a choice here, Liebling! Ren gets killed in the most painful way in front of you while you can't do nothing or you take his spot!" Strade smiles sadistically with his words, a sudden urge to throw up hits you hearing Strade's question, you feel your heart drops to your stomach and your ears ringing, "I- I choose the second one!" You blurt out with no hesitation in your tone, Ren quickly refuses, "N- No, Strade! Please not her! Kill me!" Ren yells out in panic, "Shut up, she made her decision, she's going to take your place," Strade takes a pocket knife and cuts Ren ropes that were holding him back, "now, sit down where Ren was sitting, Schätzchen!" You quickly obey and sit down where Ren was, Strade ties your hands behind your back, "das wird so lustig!" Strade says excitedly, you don't know what he said but it's most likely something bad, Ren tries to reach for you but Strade quickly punches Ren in the jaw, "Ren, she already made her decision, now go do something or stay here, I don't care," Strade quickly turns his attention to you.

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You made your decision, and that means that there's no way out, it terrifies you but as long as Ren stays alive and well, you love him and this is the prize you pay for love, "we're gonna have so much fun, mein liebling!" Strade grabs your chin forcing you to look at him, you want to cry and he knows it, you won't let the tears fall, you won't give him the satisfaction of watching you break slowly in front of him, is it your turn to die? Will Ren mourn your death? Will Ren move on and date another one of the victims Strade brings? Those questions ran through your head, suddenly a stab to your leg snapped you out of your thoughts, you see the blood running down your thigh, you screamed as tears ran down your cheeks, "we're just getting started, Schätzchen!" Strade says with a wide smile as he twists the knife deep in your thigh, you cry and groan at the intense pain in your thigh, you know you can't complain, after all, this is what you picked, this is the price you pay for saving Ren's life, Strade takes the knife out of the fresh wound, he then stabs your shoulder and you feel the sticky red blood trickle down your sides, you want to puke and scream, you whimper and groan full of pain, Strade continues to stab you in multiple places with a beaming grin.

Suddenly, you see Ren with a knife behind Strade, Strade doesn't seem to notice the fox behind him, your eyes widen full of panic, what was Ren going to do with that knife? Ren was surely out of his mind, you try to speak but you don't have the words and it only comes out as a weak sob, Ren puts his fingers to his lips to shush you, you just keep your mouth shut, in a swift motion that felt like slow motion scene from the movies, Ren stabs Strade in the back off guard, you can see the blood on Ren's hands, Ren takes the knife out of Strade's back, Strade stands up and turns towards Ren slowly with a sadistic and excited expression, Strade shoves Ren towards a wall, Strade turn on the electric collar and you see Ren shaking and almost crying, you try to free yourself from the ropes and pole, desperate to save Ren from the horrible punishment that was about to happen to him, "so I guess the little fox grew teeth and claws? Huh? So funny and brave!" Strade exclaimed with a humorless laugh that followed, "Please don't kill her, I love her! Kill me instead!" Ren begs for Strade to show mercy on you, sacrificing himself to save your life, "enough! Both of you are getting tortured as a punishment and maybe even killed!" Strade says excitedly.

Strade quickly ties Ren beside you, "w-why would you do that?" You ask curiously and full of worry, "because I love you, my dear" he responded with a sweet smile that didn't reach his eyes, Strade doesn't waste anytime and starts using his tools on you and Ren making both of you bleed on the spot, you can barely keep awake, you feel like unconsciousness is on its way to your brain, you look at Ren one last time before you pass out and he looks worried like his worst nightmare came to life, your death.

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You wake up slowly, opening your eyes slowly, feeling the horrible pain in every single part of your body, you notice that one of your eyes is missing, Strade must have done this in yesterday's torture, you don't remember much, your mind blocks the memories, you only remember the overwhelming pain and blood that stained the floor and your skin, your left eye feels as if it's still there when the truth is it isn't, you tear up and want to cry and scream at the world for this terrible fate that has been imposed on you, you slowly sit up and search for Ren and his presence, "omg! You're alive! I-I was so worried!" You hear a shaky voice beside you, it's Ren, you're relieved he's alive and beside you but you see that he has a lot of wounds and cuts which worries you deeply, he notices your missing eye and bloody face full of scratches and bruises and the tears he was holding back finally fall, he sobs while apologizing over and over, you just stare at him not knowing what to do, you are confused and angry, Strade did this, he deserves to get brutally murdered by Ren, you finally hear Ren stop sobbing and he speaks up softly and quietly, "I have a plan, what if I kill Strade?, hear me out, I know I messed up the first time but this time it'll be different, I know Strade hates to be restricted physically in any form, you can tie his hands and I'll kill him," Ren explained to you clearly to make sure you understand him, "Ren... You're a genius! But where I'm going to get something that will restrict him, he's really strong-" you were suddenly interrupted by Ren, "Zip ties, he has them around here and I know where he keeps it," Ren pointed to a drawer, "I'll go get them," he started trying to free himself from the tape holding his wrists together, in a last attempt to break them, he finally succeeds, he rubs his wrist with his hand, he stands up, he starts walking slowly and quietly towards the drawer where the zip ties where at, he opened and grabbed a pair, he threw both of them near you, you do the same thing as him and free your wrists and quickly grab the zip ties, Ren sits down next to you with his arms behind the pole, you do the same and wait for Strade.

Hours pass and you and Ren are still waiting, you feel tired and close your eyes to rest a bit, "Don't fall asleep now, he'll be here soon," Ren whispers, "I'll just rest and if he comes you wake me up," you respond back, you close your eyes and fall asleep. Ren kicks your leg softly to wake you up,  "what the?-" your eyes flutter open and see Strade, "aww look who woke up, wakey wakey, mein schatz mäuschen," Strade said as he laughed humorless, you knew at any moment it was time to attack him, Strade turns around and Ren nods at you meaning that it was time, Ren stands up quickly and quietly, he walks behind Strade and grabs him, Strade is caught off guards and tries to get Ren off him, "Ren! Fuck! Get off me!" Strade yelled as you grab the zip ties and stand up, Ren holds Strade's wrist together, you quickly tie his hands, Strade starts to pant and panic, "Ren and (reader's name)! I'll kill both of you, I swear to God!" Strade says in between breaths, "We'll be the ones to kill you, Strade!" Ren says with tears in his eyes, Ren grabs a knife from the counter, and stabs Strade in the back, you hear Strade coughing blood onto his chest, you smell the metallic smell of blood, you see the blood staining Strade's green jacket, you snatch the knife out of his wound and hear a deep groan of pain, you stab him in the neck, then you see as Ren grabs another knife and cuts Strade's tongue off, you hear Strade gag on his blood, not being able to say anything, you and Ren finally let go of Strade, Strade falls to the floor lifeless, you decide to cut his stomach open to truly make sure he was dead, you see he doesn't move, you can't believe that you just killed Strade with Ren's help, you look and Ren and hug him tight as tears run down your cheeks, you kiss him passionately and deeply.

After the kiss, you you just look at Ren and he just stares at you, "I love you, Ren, and I'm sorry." You say with a soft voice, not meeting his eyes full of sadness and tears running down in your cheek, you quickly go up the stairs and search frantically for something to wear and your belongings, you find them and put them on and grab them, you walk to the doorway and take a look back and hear crying, you walk out the door and feel the cold breeze hit your face, you look at the stars, you waste no time and get to running away from that place, you feel guilty for leaving Ren but it was for the best. 

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Reader's life after the story:

It has been a year since you were kidnapped by Strade, met Ren, and with his help killed Strade and left him, you feel guilty for leaving Ren by himself but it was for the best, you still miss him and love him, he holds a special place in your heart, you moved to another city far away from where Strade used to live at, you changed your name, you started working in a small cafe, you get extremely anxious when you see people that look like Ren or Strade, you try to hide your missing left eye as much as you can, it embarrass you a lot, it reminds you of Strade and his cruelty, people sometimes looks and your scars and ask, "what happened?" And you need to lie and tell them to mind their business, your family and friends though that you ran away to start a new life, and it's true, you moved cities away from your old life, you dropped your old friends and cut contact with your toxic family, you feel calm but also really scared that somehow, someway, Ren might find you, you have started to drink, do drugs, and smoke way more than you usually do to cope with the guilt, shame, and unbearable pain.

Ren's life after the story:

His life hasn't been the same after you left, he feels anger and hurt that you left him,  you were the only person that truly loved and cared for him, he killed Strade just to be with you, he ate Strade's heart just to have a piece of him inside of himself, he put Strade's corpse in a freezer in the basement, he wishes every single night to see you again even for a second, he has tried to find you multiple times but he gave up as soon as he saw that there wasn't any chance of ever seeing you again, he thinks of you everyday and the fact that you left him so quickly hurts him the most, he loved Strade, but he loved you more, he can't sleep and eat after you left him, he just watches Strade's old tapes where you and him where in, he misses you and he'll love you until the day he dies.