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Mika hated when he couldn't take care of things himself, becoming frustrated and annoyed by the loss of independence. It was even more irritating when it came to his own body and pleasure, laying on his side in bed next to Shu trying to get off quietly, stealthily, and failing miserably. He wasn't sure if it was the fact he had to be discreet was keeping him on edge, or the fact he didn't feel fully comfortable, but either way, he just couldn't get off.

He whined softly and lowered his head, shamefully still jerking off as his hard cock kept leaking precum, staining his hand and fingers. He closed his eyes tight, feeling increasingly desperate and needy as he curled up into himself, biting his lip and tugging the blanket up to his mouth to bite it if that didn't keep him quiet. He was making a mess in his pants, with his wrist cramping from holding himself at such an odd angle and not being allowed to be freed from the confines of his pajamas. The brushing of the fabric against his too-sensitive skin made him whimper and he huffed, panting as softly as he could. He wished it wasn't so late at night, maybe then it wouldn't be so quiet, and he didn't have to worry about the silence.

Thankfully, an angel must have been watching over him - or a demon - because Shu shifted in bed next to him. Mika paused instantly, body freezing in place as Shu slowly turned over. He reached out to wrap his arms around Mika, something he'd normally appreciate, but given his current state, he gave a small whimper and squirmed away. That seemed to gain his attention, with the older one blinking sleepily and staring at the back of his head, still not knowing entirely what Mika was up to. In fact, he hadn't even expected him to be awake.

“...Are you okay, Kagehira?” He asked in a soft whisper, moving close to his back as Mika felt his body burn with excitement at his proximity. Naturally, being close to the one he was attracted to would make anyone aroused.

“Yes…” Mika rasped back, hoping Shu wouldn't dig further and would just go back to bed so he could hopefully finish and go to sleep properly. At this point, that's all he wanted, rather over the whole ordeal. He was tired.

“Then why did you pull away from me?” Mika gulped, swallowing audibly as Shu waited for his response. Mika had none, at least, none that wouldn't give away what he was doing. And the last thing he wanted to tell Shu was that he'd had an erotic dream with him in it and woke up needing to deal with the pent-up need and emotions leftover. With that namely being his erection and ridiculously horny body.

“I got… Warm…” He lied hesitantly, with Shu scoffing and pressing his head against his shoulder blades from behind, playfully headbutting him. Mika bit his lip to hold in a squeak of surprise at that, hand still gripping his shaft and causing a small bit of unexpected movement. This wasn't good. The shame and sense of this being wrong was only making him more turned on, as much as he hated to admit it.

“Says the one who wears long sleeves in summer!” Shu scoffed. He didn't buy it, and Mika wasn't sure how much longer he could take this torment. His length was still in his hand, throbbing and twitching as he felt his lip quiver. He would have to be honest then.

“O-Okay…” He puffed out, turning his head to look at Shu over his shoulder. “I'm not hot…” He confessed, and Shu stared back at him curiously as Mika glanced away, evading his gaze. “I was… T-Touchin’ myself…” Shu looked surprised before blushing, staring at him in disbelief.

“While we're sleeping together?!” He questioned incredulously, with Mika flushing from shame as his ears turned red. Sure, it wasn't ideal, but he didn't want to risk waking Shu up by going to the bathroom. Then it would be obvious what he was doing! He turned away and hid his face, curling up into a ball as Shu waited for a moment before moving closer again. He took a moment to calm down and rationalize, surely Mika wouldn't do something so heinous unless he was desperate. It also wasn't entirely unnatural; they were dating now. “I mean… I just didn't expect that…” Mika groaned, hating how much this aroused him, getting caught. The mixture of humiliation and excitement was so enticing in a strange way, he almost felt closer now than he had before. Why was he like this?

“But I… I couldn't finish…” He admitted, voice a very faint whisper as Shu flushed at that, face turning as red as Mika's. “I don't know why… I only started doin’ this ‘cause I had a dream and…” He mumbled, cutting himself off and preventing himself from finishing with Shu slowly sitting up. Did he really confess what he was dreaming about too? No, that was definitely too much.

“Kagehira, come here.” He urged, with Mika looking up. He looked at Shu with clear desire and want, but restraint and hesitation lingered in his eyes. Clearly, he felt bad, and it made Shu feel guilty for snapping at him initially. “It's okay.” He reassured, with Mika pushing the blanket down and off his body before moving up and settling into Shu's offered lap.

“Oshi-san, I'm sorry…” Mika murmured, hiding his face in Shu's shoulder as the older one hummed and wrapped his arms around him, hugging him. “I didn't mean to wake you up. I didn't want to disturb ya. So I just thought I could take care of it myself…” Shu admittedly appreciated the thought, and it was true that if he'd been fully asleep, he probably wouldn't have even caught him in the first place.

“I know, you didn't mean anything by it.” Shu agreed, knowing Mika wouldn't do something that would potentially make him uncomfortable. He reached down and gently pushed the waistband of Mika’s pajama bottoms and underwear down. The younger one whined softly in confusion before Shu shushed him. “Just hold onto me, Kagehira.” He said calmly, with Mika embracing him tightly as Shu wrapped his hand around his arousal as soon as it was released. Admittedly, Mika hadn't expected that at all, body instantly heating up further. Was this really happening? Was Shu going to touch him himself?!

“ Ngh !” Mika whimpered instantly, hot breath erupting against Shu's neck as the larger one pumped, feeling him pulse in his hand with each stroke. His cock was already slick and damp with precum, flushed and fully hard. “Mmm! Mmm… ” Mika groaned noisily in approval, still trying to keep quiet even as he couldn't keep from making noise. Why did Shu's hand feel so much better than his own? He already felt as if he could feel the edge, just from a few touches.

“That's it, just relax.” Shu encouraged, using his other hand to wrap around and rub his back, closing his eyes as he kept jerking him off. Mika felt dizzy, mind going numb from pleasure at how much better Shu's hand felt over his own. Was it just because it was someone else, because it was Shu? The rhythm was perfect, slow and attentive, rubbing everywhere he liked and leaving him trembling. “You're doing so good, Kagehira.” Shu praised him, and Mika moaned right in his ear as his cock twitched, thriving from the much needed touch. Shu could feel him shaking, encouraged by his body's reaction. “Good boy, such a good boy.”

Mika felt tears gathering in his eyes, this felt so intimate, so close. In a way, this was even better than sex to him. He couldn't take it, body excited and every nerve ending overwhelmed from physical and mental stimulation as he grasped at Shu's back and dug his hands into his shirt, pulling and tugging urgently for more. Mika still couldn't believe Shu was touching him, helping him get off, that he was going to make him come. The anticipation of his climax pulled him closer and closer. He panted into Shu's neck, turning his head and furrowing his eyebrows, not even realizing he was begging.

“Please… Please , please Oshi-san…! ‘M so close… So so close… Oshi-san~ So good~ Oh God…!” Shu swallowed and felt his own eyebrows knit together, not having expected this to have an effect on him too as Mika weakly rocked and rolled his hips into his hand. Was it wrong to feel excited and aroused by this? Mika sounded so desperate and pent-up that it was impossible to ignore… But the sounds Mika made were so erotic , and he could only imagine how he looked… He'd only did this because he was taking pity on him, but...

“Shh, it's okay. I've got you, Kagehira.” He mumbled to him, nuzzling against his head as he felt the heat pouring off the smaller one. This was a form of care, after all. Not much different from maintenance at the end of the day. It was fine. “I've got you, and I'm not going to let go anytime soon.” He added, feeling Mika's cock jump in his palm again. There was something oddly adorable about that, how he so easily responded to his voice. He seemed to really like his sweet words and reassurances, deciding to lean into that fully. “So, if you're close, it's okay to come. You can let go.”

Hearing Shu give him permission to come nearly sent Mika to cloud nine, but instead, his climax just kept building . His legs started shaking, becoming so aroused and almost scared of how intense the wave was rising in his body, tears breaking free from his eyes now as he felt increasingly lightheaded. He felt helpless to his own pleasure, becoming unbearable. Shu stopped rubbing his back, now just holding him and mumbling soft reassurances to him, right into his ear. Mika just squeezed his eyes shut, focused purely on the sense of touch and what he heard. The high kept mounting, and Mika wasn't sure if he could take much more. He wanted to live in this pleasure forever, but it was so intense.

“Just relax, let your body do what it needs to. You'll climax when you're ready…” Shu murmured, hand still keeping that same rhythm, dragging Mika closer and closer to Nirvana with each pump. His fingers were getting messy from the excessive amount of precum Mika kept dripping, leaking heavily. “Good boy, you're doing so well, Kagehira.” Mika wanted to live in that moment endlessly, being praised and touched by Shu in a way that had him struggling to hold back his cries. It seemed that Shu noticed that he was restraining himself, deciding to address it. “You don't have to hold back, just let go. Let everything out.” Shu encouraged, and that was the final thing he said as Mika's body finally snapped, reaching orgasm as he arched his back on Shu's lap and mewled loudly, spilling messily into his fist, getting some of his seed on their clothes.

“Oshi-san! Oshi-san ! Ahh -!” The desperate sobs of Shu's name made the taller one bite his lip, feeling the undeniable heat in his own body as Mika began to calm down, with Shu still gently stroking him until his length softened and he seemed fully drained. Mika kept panting against him, leaning heavily against his body as Shu slowly moved his hand away from Mika's body and raised it up to the faint light of the room, seeing the sticky remnants of his pleasure. It left him with a strange feeling, an undeniably sense of accomplishment and pride. This was proof of how good he'd made him feel, and he was the one who'd done it. Was this feeling why humans had sex? He was beginning to see the appeal, after so long of not understanding.

“Are you okay, Kagehira?” He asked, lowering his hand awkwardly as Mika nodded drunkenly against him, clinging to him tightly. It seemed like it had been an intense orgasm, with his body still shaking and trembling. He didn't speak for a moment, as if still coming back into his own body.

“ Ngh… That was… A lot…” He huffed, nuzzling into Shu's neck and finding the fatigue hitting his body hard. The pulsing sensation still lingered in his body, faint waves of pleasure still running through him. He felt drowsy and incredibly satisfied, ready to pass out instantly. “Thank ya, Oshi-san…” He mumbled sleepily, and Shu awkwardly shifted Mika in his arms.

“Here, let me clean you up.” He excused, laying Mika down on the bed and getting up. He slid the younger one's pajamas bottoms and underwear off, wiping his hand with them before tossing them in the hamper and stopping in the bathroom to grab some tissues. As he returned to the bedroom, Mika had already fallen back asleep, laying mostly naked on top of the covers with streaks of his cum still spattering his lower stomach. Shu flushed again as he wiped him off and went over to the dresser to find him some clean pajama pants and underwear. Unfortunately, he was certain that image would remain burned into the back of his eyelids.

Focusing on Mika allowed him to ignore his own nagging erection, hoping it would just go down on its own as he raised Mika’s legs and redressed him, feeling weirdly aroused by that as he looked down at his peaceful sleeping expression. His limbs were so pliable and felt good in his hands when he moved them, very similar to maintenance, and yet knowing what they'd just done added an undeniable sense of eroticism to it all. His lips were slightly parted, still flushed and breathing slowly and shallow. He was so adorable and innocent, and as awful as it was, Shu liked seeing him like that, almost defenseless. In the same way, he'd enjoyed taking care of him, even more after hearing Mika couldn't get off on his own.

He stared up at the ceiling when he laid back down on the bed bedside him, feeling rather restless now as he sighed and furrowed his brows. His own half-hard length pulsed and throbbed in his pants, with Shu doing his best to ignore it. He'd have to blame Mika for this, glancing over at him as he remained splayed out, sleeping soundly. In a way, Shu couldn't help but be jealous, forcing his eyes closed as he turned his face back up towards the ceiling. Maybe they could address that another time.

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Shu was groaning, and that sound was what woke Mika up. He sat up slowly, blinking sleepily as he reached up to rub his eyes. He looked over to where Shu was in bed next to him, hearing him make another sound, another groan and incomprehensible mumble. Shu didn't sleep talk, at least as far as Mika knew, so it was definitely unusual. Yawning, Mika shifted and moved over to Shu, pulling his blankets away and peeling them back just enough so he could lay down on top of him and snuggle up against him. He smiled happily as he did, hoping his weight would maybe reassure him if he was having some kind of bad dream. However, what he didn't expect was for Shu to shift under him, pushing up against him.

Mika hummed curiously, raising his head up as he looked down at Shu and quickly started to put the pieces together. He was flushed and his eyebrows were furrowed, teeth gritting together as he muttered again and Mika felt him buck up once more. He wasn't pushing up against him with his whole body, he was rolling his lower half and hips up to grind against him. Mika instantly flushed, finding himself intrigued as he rolled off Shu's body and shimmied the blankets down and off his body. Once he did, he could see just how affected Shu was, with his prominent erection showing through his pajama pants and tenting them. He never really noticed just how large he was until now, seeing him hard like this for the first time.

Mika couldn't believe his eyes, looking back up at Shu as the older one huffed and turned his head. He couldn't help but wonder what he was dreaming about, but he needed to focus. Shu had helped him out last night, so surely it only made sense for Mika to help him out in the morning, right? He straddled Shu again and settled on his thighs, slowly pushing his pajama waistband down as he glanced up at him every few seconds. This still felt wrong to an extent, but he only meant to help him, truly. If anything, the small chance of getting caught only excited him once more.

Gathering courage to continue, Mika reached up and took hold of his underwear waistband next, slowly moving it down, being extra careful as he felt his nervousness taking over, breaking out into a sweat. He'd never seen Shu naked like this before, seen him aroused or hard, and now he had to mentally prepare himself for that image. Finally, he freed Shu's length, letting it spring free and out into the open air of the bedroom as Mika's eyes widened.

Shu was… Perfect. He was definitely slightly on the large side, something Mika hadn't entirely expected, with his mouth watering as he took it in. He had a decent girth too, and as he sat there watching it, he saw it visibly twitch from whatever dream he was having. Mika whined quietly, feeling rather aroused himself as he hesitantly reached out and gingerly wrapped his hand around him. Shu's cock was hard and hot against his palm, with a nice weight, and Mika bit his lip as he slowly and carefully gave it a few strokes, moving delicately as he looked up at Shu. It felt so different from touching his own length, and he found it rather exciting, eager to see Shu's response.

The larger one groaned again and raised his hips some more, encouraging Mika to keep going as he experimented with his touch, running his fingers over every inch and exploring what seemed to make him feel the most pleasure. Teasing the sides of the shaft, making his way up and around the tip. Mika wanted to map out every inch, touch and see every part, figure out how he worked. Shu continued muttering and mumbling incoherently, eyebrows furrowing as Mika saw him start to leak precum from the tip. It was too much for him to resist, and before he knew it, he was leaning down and over him, opening his mouth and flicking his tongue against the head. He caught the single drop of precum and licked it up, tasting it and swallowing it down gleefully.

Shu huffed above him, stirring somewhat as Mika whined softly, lowering his own hand to press against his groin and stirring erection as he kissed Shu's cock sweetly, still licking and gently sucking as he massaged the lower end of his shaft, fingers wandering slightly to massage and rub at his balls. They seemed full, and the thought of that excited Mika more. He looked up, seeing Shu toss and turn his head as he moaned and balled his fists up, wiggling and raising his arms above his head. Seeing Shu in pleasure like this gave him a rush, especially knowing he was the one making him feel good. He could get used to this, this position, this sight.

Slowly, Shu woke up, still not feeling entirely lucid as he blinked, biting his lip and raising his hips up into the pleasant sensation he felt - something delightfully hot and wet - before looking down. Mika had closed his eyes at that point, working more of Shu's length into his mouth as he whimpered around it, hand still greedily palming against his crotch to relieve the pressure he felt from his own arousal. It took Shu an embarrassingly long moment before he finally realized this wasn't a dream. He was awake and this was real . Mika was jerking and sucking his cock, having been doing so while he was sleeping and having an embarrassingly intense wet dream, apparently.

He wanted to be mad or upset - truly - but anger or disappointment was the furthest thing in his mind as he moaned and found himself excited by the sight that greeted his eyes. Just seeing Mika down between his legs with his lips upon his fully hard cock, licking and sucking made him feel weak. A pleasant surprise, even if it was unexpected. There was no doubt that the fact he was already aroused was playing into this, but he could care less now, now that he was awake and Mika was making him feel so good. The feeling of Mika’s tongue and mouth was amazing, leaving Shu gasping as he arched his back, struggling to hold back his noises and keep quiet. Mika finally reopened his eyes, looking up to see Shu still in the throes of ecstasy, but now awake as he groaned and sank further down still, even as his gag reflex tried to stop him. Despite Shu being awake now, he had no intention of stopping. If Shu wanted him to stop, he was certain he would've said something or pushed him away.

Shu felt Mika's throat tighten up, shaking as he raised his head up to look down at Mika again. Mika met his gaze, returning it with a pleading expression as he raised and lowered his mouth upon him, still licking and pressing his tongue against the shaft, as if begging for Shu's pleasure. Shu hissed and grabbed at the blankets beside him, knuckles turning white as heat broke out all across his body, sweating. As if the dream he'd just been experiencing of seeing Mika begging and mewling in his arms erotically wasn't enough, he was truly blown away by everything occurring right now. Now he was the subject of pleasure, and Mika was the one giving it. He wasn't sure which version he liked more, but selfishly, he had to pick this one right now.

“K-Kagehira…” He panted his name, sounding urgent and breathy as Mika slipped almost entirely off him, licking and sucking the tip teasingly as he continued looking at Shu. His gaze was heated, clearly enjoying this, and Shu found when their eyes met that his pleasure only increased tenfold. The fact they both wanted this was clear, both enjoying this in very different ways.

“ Mmm… O-Oshi-san…” Mika mumbled back to him, sliding back down after speaking as Shu's body shuddered. He wasn't sure how much more of this he could take, especially now, seeing and watching Mika do this to him. The way his cheeks puffed out and became filled from the size of his cock was nearly enough to make him come. He was flushed too, and the way he shivered from his own hand desperately rubbing at his cock through his pajama pants was just as adorable as it was erotic.

“Kagehira…” Shu's eyes closed when he said his name again, breath coming out heavily as he felt his cock twitching and aching in Mika’s mouth, throbbing from the delicate attention he gave. He'd never experienced any type of sex before, let alone oral, and the way Mika was giving it was perfect. He never thought he'd experience such an indescribable amount of ecstasy, but here he was, struggling to articulate his own thoughts as Mika bobbed his head between his legs. “Kagehira…!” His voice pitched up with urgency, desperation, feeling his climax building in his lower stomach as Mika swallowed around him.

“Ngh… Hngh…” Mika made a few noises around his length, still stroking him even as he continued bobbing his head up and down, with Shu's cock continuing to nudge further, deeper down his throat. Shu started trembling, losing control of his body as his hips rocked up and forward, chasing the heat of his mouth. Mika could taste his precum again, swallowing it down and whining as he rolled his hips into his own hand, struggling to contain himself. Shu couldn't restrain himself, even when he tried, unfortunately, his body continued to buck up, body completely focused on the pleasure Mika provided. He was just grateful Mika wasn't choking.

“K-Kagehira-…! Ah -! I'm… Close…” He groaned, wanting to give his partner a heads up as he felt his release creep closer and closer. Mika nodded, looking up at him before finally sinking down and taking Shu's entire arousal down into his throat. He sat there for a moment, not moving as Shu reached out and grabbed at his hair, keeping his head down and against his pelvis as he growled and furrowed his eyebrows. He could tell his whole length was in, feeling fully submerged in the tight, wet, hot heat of Mika's addictive mouth as he felt his legs shake and tremble against the bed. It was the most intense thing he'd ever felt in his life, unsure how to even describe such a delightful feeling.

Just the sensation of Mika's mouth around him unmoving was excellent, and as he struggled to look down at him, he could see how turned on Mika was, keeping still and letting Shu hold him against his hips with his cock in his mouth and down his throat. The smooth, well-kept skin of his clean shaven pelvis was softer than expected, and Mika nearly drooled from how aroused he was, taking a deep breath of Shu's natural scent through his nose. They both couldn't hold this position for long, far too enticed to be patient. Shu shakily pulled Mika’s head up, with Mika eagerly lifting with him, still desperately holding eye contact, as if taunting him, as he squeezed his hand around his cock, encouraging him to continue. He didn't want him to hold back at all; he wanted him to know it was okay to keep going. Shu could barely think about that, about the way Mika was allowing himself and his mouth to be used like this, all for his sake and pleasure.

“Kagehira, Kagehira… Kagehira… ” Shu repeated, gasping as he pushed Mika’s head back down, with Mika dropping down fully, sucking harder as his hands moved to hold onto his thin hips, making sure he was taking Shu all the way down to the base once more. “ Ahh !” He moaned and finally came, body convulsing against the bed as Mika sucked, taking his load into his mouth and swallowing it down eagerly. He didn't dare move his head either, loyally staying pressed against him and allowing Shu to release fully down his throat without pulling back.

Mika pulled off once Shu was finished, gasping for air and noting that his jaw felt sore and stiff as he rubbed it. Shu was laying back against the bed limply, still breathing roughly and looking disheveled as Mika couldn't help himself. He hastily pushed his pajama pants and underwear down and loomed over him, touching himself directly as he looked down at Shu's face, at his dark, half-lidded dilated eyes, and mused hair sticking to his sweaty forehead. The taller one looked back up at him, still partially out of it from his release, lips parted and breathing shallowly, watching Mika hover above him with a ravenous hunger in his eyes as he wrapped his hand around his cock.

“Kagehira… You…” He started, looking down to see Mika jerking himself off, whimpering and moaning desperately as Shu looked back up at him. He reached up and wrapped his arms around his neck, pulling him down slightly as he kissed him on the side of his face, right on his cheek. Words could wait, Mika needed his help right now.

“Oshi-san… Oshi-san …!” Mika cried, stroking himself faster and faster as Shu groaned quietly against his skin, feeling his warmth through his pajamas. He was burning up, nearly as sweaty as he was. Had he really enjoyed giving him head that much? Shu moved one of his hands up into his hair, digging into the dark strands and grasping. The emotions welling up in his chest got the better of him, lost in the intimacy of the moment.

“I love you, Kagehira.” Shu whispered, and that did him in. Mika yelped and came across Shu's stomach and chest, dirtying his clothes as the taller one just kept hugging him, giving him more kisses, moving up to his jaw and near his ear as he continued. “I love you, mon cher~”

“ Ooh , O-Oshi-san…!” Mika panted out, still shaking faintly as Shu felt him shift, placing his hand against the bed and pressing his forehead into Shu's shoulder. “I love ya too. I love ya so much…” He mumbled, with Shu feeling content and relieved. Perhaps it was just the emotions released from his orgasm, but he liked this. He held Mika close against him, with Mika finally sinking down against his chest as he sighed, finally relaxing. It seemed they were taking the next step in their relationship.