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It was Nathaniel and Nathalie’s 4^th birthday. They were playing in the yard with their mother. Nathan came out on the porch.

“Nathaniel! Come here boy.”

Nathaniel looks up from his new toy he got from his mom. Mary frowns, looking over at Nathan who ignores her, tapping his foot impatiently waiting for Nathaniel. Nathalie looks up at Nathan.

“Can I come too, dad? Is it a birthday surprise?!” she asked enthusiastically.

“No.” Nathan said growing more impatient by the second “This is only for men.”

Nathaniel, not wanting his father to get more upset, gets up and says to Nathalie “Don’t worry Nat I will be back super-fast” Nathalie smiles at that and watches her twin brother go inside with their father.

Inside Nathan took his son down to the basement. Nathaniel looked up at his father getting a bit scared since his father was very strict that nobody could enter the basement.

“What are we doing, father?” Nathaniel asked a bit of fear creeping into his voice

“Do not worry boy. We’re simply going to have some fun with my friends.” Nathan says his voice a bit too sweet.

“Really? I’ve never met your friends before father” Nathaniel said surprised but also curious.

“Yes, now be a good boy and shut up” Nathan says while he opens the door to the basement revealing older men and 2 boys who seem a bit younger, one looks a bit uncomfortable, the other one looks eager.

Nathaniel stepped inside a smile on his face, happy to finally meet his father’s friends.

Nathan locks the door behind them but Nathaniel doesn’t notice.

One older man steps better in the light he looks Japanese, he also looks like the boy who looks uncomfortable when Nathaniel listens to the man speaking to his father he learns the man’s name is Kengo and the younger boy, presumably his son, is called Ichiro.

Nathaniel stands by his father happy to be included in grown up stuff but then gets confused when he sees the older man, Kengo, reach for his belt and undo his pants.

The next few hours Nathaniel gets raped by all the man in the room. Now, after all the men had their turns, the younger boy who had been looking eager steps up still smiling brightly, he leans in to Nathaniel’s ear and whispers “Hello there, I’m Drake, now be a good boy and scream a lot for me” The boy, Drake apparently, proceeds to take of his pants and also do what all the older man had been doing one of the older man who Nathaniel recognized as Richard who had liked to slap Nathaniel’s ass when it was his turn stepped closer to Drake and spoke “good job son, your first time will be one to remember.” The man smiled at Drake, who apparently was his son.

Nathaniel who had been crying and screaming for hours looked at the other younger boy, Ichiro as he had learned earlier, thinking he was going to go next but the boy looked as if he was about to puke and his eyes filled with so much sympathy Nathaniel passed out right there, he felt himself wake up in arms he knows aren’t his sister’s or his mom’s he opened his eyes and was met with Ichiro’s gaze, holding him, when Nathaniel looked around he saw he was in his bedroom.

Nathaniel immediately scrambles away from the boy scared.

“Don’t worry, it’s over now, they won’t touch you again today, I told them I’d do it here so we were alone but truth to be told I don’t want to do that to you… How old are you boy?” Ichiro looked so genuine that Nathaniel started to relax a bit more. Nathaniel found himself answering “It’s my 4^th birthday today, and my sister too… will they also do that to her?”

Ichiro seemed to be disgusted and angry

Ichiro sighed, calming himself down after seeing Nathaniel flinch  “No, they won’t do this to your sister as long as they have you. I am so sorry….”

For the next couples of years Nathaniel had to go to the basement every Wednesday and Saturday after dinner. Nathaniel decided not to tell his sister or his mother bc he was scared of how they would react, if they would be disgusted, mad, scared. Sometimes his father joined the men in their ‘fun’.
Every day Nathaniel and Nathalie had to go through training with their father and their mother would just ignore them, she’d only just stich them up and go to her room.

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It was the morning of their 4^th birthday, Nathalie jumped out of bed excitedly running towards her identical twin brother’s room and barging in.

“Wake up, Nate!!! Today is our special day!!!”

Nathaniel made a weird sound that told Nathalie he was awake but didn’t want to get out of bed, luckily, she knew exactly how to get her brother to listen to her

“Mom is making brownies~”

With that Nathalie saw her brother jump up and run out of the bedroom. Nathalie chuckled and followed her brother downstairs. There Mary was indeed making brownies, it was the only day of the year she actually smiled and put a bit more effort into her kids, Nathalie was just happy to see her mom smiling. She laughed as Mary slapped Nathaniel’s hand away from the batter.

A few minutes later her dad came downstairs, her dad who lost his temper with someone breathing wrong, her dad that scared her so much she felt a shiver go down her spine every time he looked at her, but still, it’s her dad, he wouldn’t hurt her would he? He loves both Nathalie and Nathaniel, he loves Mary, his wife, didn’t he? The thing is, Nathalie wanted to love her dad, but she was scared and sometimes… sometimes she’d catch herself hating him, she would always feel guilty, but she never really knew why, bc he was mean, he did bad stuff, it was okay to hate him, wasn’t it?

He looked as grumpy as always but there was something in his eyes that only appeared when he was planning something he thought of as fun. Nathalie didn’t always think it was fun like how last year he gave her a puppy and Nathaniel’s ‘gift’ was to kill the puppy. She was sad of course but it was always like that she got something, and her brother had to ruin it for their father, she wasn’t upset with Nathaniel, she understood that he didn’t want to make their dad mad but still it hurt sometimes.

They ate the brownies all together as a family blowing out the candles. Later Mary had given Nathaniel a new toy to play with, Nathalie didn’t really understand what the toy was, but her brother seemed so happy with it, so she was also happy, she had been given a doll. Nathalie didn’t really like dolls, but it was the thought that counted, wasn’t it?

Nathalie was playing outside with her twin and their mother when their dad came outside asking her twin to go to him, she had asked if she could also come but she couldn’t. Her dad said it was only for boys. Nathalie was sad of course but her brother reassured her and went with their dad, that was the last she saw of her brother that day.

The whole day she had to play with their mother, Nathalie was happy to spend some time with her mother, but she missed her brother. She had asked more than once when her twin was coming back but she always got a vague answer.

That night she snuck into her brother’s room to ask why he didn’t come back but she found a Japanese looking boy sitting on the edge of her brother’s bed. The boy looked up to see who it was.

“Hello there young lady, I am Ichiro, your brother here was a bit tired, I’m just keeping an eye on him, I’m sure you can ask him tomorrow whatever you came here to ask”

How strange how did Ichiro know she wanted to ask her brother something, why was he in her brother’s room, she wanted to ask but decided not to, instead she nodded and left.

The next day when Nathalie asked Nathaniel what happened yesterday, he just said they did something fun and nothing else, but something seemed wrong. Nathaniel didn’t look as happy as he used to. That day was also the first day their dad had decided they would start more serious training. For the next few years, she and her brother trained how to be like their father but some days in the week Nathaniel and their dad would go down to the basement and Nathaniel would look a bit more numb the next day.

On their 6^th birthday Nathalie and Nathaniel had come up with a whole new life with different names, Nathaniel would be Neil and Nathalie would be Katelyn, they would keep their middle names, Abram and May, of course but they hadn’t decided which last name they wanted yet…

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Today was the day. Today Nathaniel was going to try out for an Exy team, he’ll finally be part of a team.

They arrive, Nathan, Nataniel, and Nathalie arrived at Evermore.

“Go get changed quickly, son.” Nathan said he sounded a bit excited, Nathaniel just passed it off as his father being happy for him, he should’ve known that wasn’t it.

After Nathaniel had changed, he found his father and twin sister waiting for him outside the changing room with 2 boys who looked a year maybe 2 years older. One of the 2 boys looks like Ichiro and… and Kengo… Nathaniel felt a shiver go down his spine remembering Kengo roughly taking him just 3 days ago and then after, Ichiro’s soft arms holding him making sure he’s comfortable. The other boy didn’t recognize it but both boys had the numbers 1 and 2 on their left cheeks with markers, they were both also dressed in Exy gear and Nathaniel excitedly went over to talk to them. The one that looked like the 2 men Nathaniel knew introduced himself as Riko, the other boy was named Kevin.

“Let’s go children, I have work to do.” Nathan said.

They all followed in a group behind Nathan, Nathaniel was walking next to Nathalie, they were talking when suddenly they stopped at a lift.

“We’re going to my brother and father?!” The boy named Riko said

Nobody answered just going into the lift in silence instead. When they arriver at the top Nathaniel froze as everyone was coming out of the lift, but Nathaniel was stuck, he couldn’t move he couldn’t breathe because there was Kengo, Kengo the man who took his virginity at 4 years old, Kengo who looked at him with lust and excitement in his eyes.

After a few seconds Nathaniel was able to calm down a bit, remembering that his twin was there, he took a deep breath and stepped outside the lift, when he did he saw Ichiro was also there, Ichiro who would hold him and tell him everything will be okay, Ichiro who meant it was the end of the torture of all the older men and Drake, Ichiro looked at him with a soft gentle smile and Nathaniel hurried to Ichiro’s side trying to not be seen by Kengo. It was in vain bc Kengo did see him, and he was looking hungry, Nathaniel stiffened but he felt Ichiro’s arms wrap around him and instantly Nathaniel calmed down, he was save, Ichiro was save.

Then Nathaniel noticed something, a man he didn’t recognize and he saw Romero walk out of the lift who had apparently already gone down and back up, Romero was holding Nathan’s axe and cleaver, that’s the moment Nathaniel realizes why his dad was so happy, that’s why his dad had said he has work to do, he was going to kill the man, that makes sense, that’s why Kengo and Ichiro were there because they were his father’s boss and future boss, though why were the other 2 boys there, they both seemed scared, Nathaniel frowned and was about to ask Ichiro but Ichiro as clever as he is already knew what he was going to ask.

“The one with the number one is my younger brother, the other one my uncle kind of adopted, my uncle is his godfather, they’re here bc dad wanted them to know why they aren’t part of our family, they’re the second branch” Ichiro whispered to Nathaniel and Nathaniel nodded understanding, Ichiro’s uncle was Tetsuji Moriyama, the co-creator of Exy, so Kevin must be Kailey Day’s son. Kailey Day who had co-created Exy with Tetsuji had died under suspicious circumstances and since nobody knows who the father is of Kevin he was send to Tetsuji.

Then it began, Nathan started to torture the man Nathaniel didn’t know, he was getting cut up into tiny pieces, and a bit later Lola came in to get rid of the body… uhm… the little pieces of the body.

During the torture and cutting  up Nathaniel and Nathalie were unfazed, after all they were being trained to do exactly that in the future they had already done this, though animals weren’t the same as actual humans it was almost the same, both made horrible sounds in pain, both bleed out. Riko and Kevin though, they didn’t look okay, they were looking horrified, scared and Riko looked as if he was going to puke. That’s the moment Nathaniel understands, he understands why Ichiro said they would understand why they weren’t part of this, because everyone in that room looked calm and collected but Kevin and Riko didn’t. Nathaniel felt a sense of pity for them, they really seemed to think that was the worst thing alive, oh they had so much to learn…

As everyone except Ichiro and Kengo were leaving Nathaniel felt the need to do something, he didn’t know why, he didn’t know what he was doing but Nathaniel stepped back out of the elevator and walked to Ichiro stopping in front of him.

Nathaniel kneeled and kissed the back of Ichiro’s hand, a clear sign of respect and loyalty. “My future lord, I will serve you with pleasure” Nathaniel said looking up at Ichiro who looked a bit surprised but smiled and then he was dismissed. Nathaniel went back into the lift, he didn’t know why he did it or why he said that, but it had felt right, he felt grateful for Ichiro, and he had all the attempt to follow through on his promise.

Later Nathaniel was playing Exy together with Riko and Kevin being watched by Tetsuji, Nathalie was cheering her twin on, and their father had gone back up to discuss some more with Kengo.

Then on their 10^th birthday, the day before Nathaniel would be signed to the Moriyama’s Mary had told her kids to go pack their important stuff, no toys, just some clothes and a duffel back, she said they were going somewhere as a surprise. And so Nathaniel and Nathalie sneaked around making sure their dad didn’t see and they left through the tunnels underground. Only after 2 weeks Mary had told them they were on the run and they needed fake identities, and so began their  life long running away

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It was a week of the red haired twins 12th birthday, they had their new identities, they enrolled in their new school and even if Mary forbid Nathaniel from joining the Exy team that didn’t mean both Nathalie and Nathaniel decided to join the cheerleaders together.
The cheering helped them both keep in shape and grow more flexible, of course neither informed Mary they joined the cheer squad.
After a few days of their new lives Nathaniel was out on the Exy court thinking that everyone had already left. Nathalie was in the stands watching her twin light up.
Little do they know a certain blond boy had forgotten his keys at the stadium and walked into them.
The boy had beautiful blond hair, he was dressed in all black and he was slightly shorter than Nathaniel, which made the girl be the tallest of the 3.
The blond stayed quietly in the shadows of the stands, watching Nathaniel play. When the blond finally moved both the red heads looked at him. They both recognized the blond it was the goalie of their school’s Exy team, though the blond looked as if he was only playing Exy to be away from home.
For weeks this would happen the 2 red heads, sometimes it was only Nataniel would sneak into the court to play and the blond goalie would show up in the middle, just sitting in the stands not doing anything.
After a tiering private practice Nathaniel got the courage to go and sit next to the blond, at first they would just sit in silence but over some time they started to chat about nonsense. It was a Friday while Nathaniel was alone practicing and something was off, it had already been past time that the blond, who he still hadn’t asked the name off, would show up. Practice was almost over when the blond did walk in, but his eyes were dull, he had a light limp he was trying to hide, but Nathaniel knew that, he knew exactly what happened because he had experienced it himself.
They sat on the bench in silence for a bit when suddenly “Abram” Nathaniel was surprised to hear his own voice speak. A few seconds later and the blond spoke “Andrew… don’t call me Andy or AJ”. Another few seconds pass until Nathaniel speaks again “Why the J?” First Nathaniel thought he said something wrong because the blond, Andrew apparently, stiffened but in the end he answered “my middle name is Joseph”.
A minute or two pass before Nathaniel speaks again “Abram is my middle name, I don’t like my first name…” It was silent for a minute. “Okay” was all Andrew responded.
The next day Nathalie came along again and Andrew was again late and limping. After practice Nathaniel introduced his twin to his new… friend? I mean they didn’t really know each other that good and yes Nathalie had seen Andrew before but they didn’t know each other’s names.
“Drew this is Anne, that’s also her middle name. Anne this is Andrew.” Nathaniel said and belatedly realizing he called Andrew with a nickname he froze, though it wasn’t one of the names Andrew told him not to call him it could still be not okay for the blonde “Wait sorry Is it okay if I call you Drew?” He asked the blond with an apologetic expression. But Nathaniel didn’t(t have to worry because Andrew nodded and a soft small smile appeared on the blonde’s face, so small you almost couldn’t see it.
For the next few months the 3 hung out at the Exy stadium, sometimes also in a nearby park, It was mostly Andrew and Nathaniel but sometimes Nathalie would join too.
One day Drew and Nate were sitting on a park bench and Nate had asked Drew if he wanted to do ‘a truth for a truth’, Drew agreed and Nate asked Drew for who was hurting him. Drew hesitated for a bit before answering “My foster brother, Drake, and some of their friends, my foster father, Richard, knows about it but he doesn’t care.” Nate immediately froze when he heard those names, his voice was shaky when he said “A-are their last names Spear?” Drew was a bit confused but nodded. Nate inhaled sharply.
Drake Spear… Richard Spear… he remembered the 2 very well, though it had been about 3 years since he last saw them. How could he ever forget? The 2 liked to take him at the same time when in Nathan’s sex ring, either one took the front and the ither the back or they both took the back at the same time, they both were very violent and every time they grew more cruel….
Drew looked at Nate, surprise evident on his face “You know them?” He asked.
A bitter and humorless laugh rang between the 2. “Know is a bit of a stretch, I know their preferences yes, not much else.”
Drew stared at Nate “I thought you weren’t in foster care, how do you know them? And Richard doesn’t… right?”
“Let’s say my father has a few friends which happened to include Richy and his oh so sweet golden son.”
It fell silent and they both didn’t say another word to each other that day. The next day Drew was surprised to find Nate waiting outside the court for him, instead of going inside Nate lead him somewhere out of sight and began to teach him how to use a knife, sparing with each other, throwing the knifes. Drew found it strange how such young boy knew all this stuff but he didn’t ask, knowing full well that the kid must’ve had a reason, and he thought the skills useful to protect himself. This became their daily schedule when Nathalie wasn’t around, otherwise Nate would play Exy while Nat and Drew chatted with each other watching Nate play, and after wards all 3 of them would go to the park.
It had been about 3 months since Drew met the twins, Nate had learned him how to defend himself, how to use lock picks, how to use a knife properly, … Today It was just Nate and Drew sitting on the park bench they were sitting in comfortable silence when suddenly the redhead spoke up. “Promise me you’ll stay Where Cass can see you for the next 2 days.” Nate sounded serious and Drew was about to ask why before Nate continued “There will be a storm this weekend and I have a feeling Richy and dragon boy will be out for a boys trip.” Drew froze.
“You’re not planning something stupid are you?”
“Promise me.”
Reluctantly Drew said “I promise, now promise me I’ll see you again Monday”
“Promise.” That was all Nate said before he got up and left. Drew sighed and watched the boy who probably knew more about himself than he did himself walk away.

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Nate took a deep breath and dialed the number that had been carved into his side, one of Drake’s doings so Nate could always come and beg him for some ‘fun’ as he called it. The phone rang twice before a voice picked up “Hello? Who is this?”
Nate took a deep breath before answering “You don’t remember your favorite toy? Oh how heartbroken I am.”
It was silent for a beat before “Doll? Is that you? Oh how I missed you. You didn’t call me for so long.”
“Hey… I am in town and I thought of you and your dad, I just missed you both so much. Do you want to spent the weekend with me? Invite your dad too, you can also invite some friends if you want, the more the merrier.” Nate said with his most sweetest and innocent voice he could.
“Oh doll… Let’s play tonight already, I know a good forest nearby the town where nobody will disturb us, me and dad will be there tonight I’ll see if some friends of mine want to join but I’ll tell them to come tomorrow so we can have tonight just the 3 of us” Drake said in his most sweetest voice
“See you there~” Nate said and hung up feeling as if he would throw up.
That evening Nate told his twin sister he was going on a stroll and to not tell Mary about it. Nat nodded and waved her twin goodbye as he left, little did she know Nate had a gun and knifes hidden underneath his clothes.

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That evening Drake and Richard told Cass they wanted to go camping since it was the last year Drake would be home before joining the marines. Drake said his goodbyes to his favorite little brother and they both left.
The weekend was peaceful not a single sign of his foster dad and brother, even some of Drake’s friends who had come and ‘played’ with Drew also left to go camping.
Drew spent his weekend baking with Cass, reading in Cass’s library, they enjoyed their time together with just the 2 of them, though Cass would sometimes check to see if she had any new messages, nothing really happened.

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The weekend passed and on Monday the men had still not returned Cass said that they probably had decided to stay a bit longer, but Drew had a feeling a certain redhead had do with this.
Monday Drew was looking for Nate all over school. He finally found Nate at his cheer practice. All the cheerleaders were surprised to see Drew, an athlete who avoided everyone, Nate on the other hand immediately went over, smiling.
“Hey Drew, missed me?” Nate teased.
Drew flushed a bit, but he calmed down quickly, and Nate did not notice. “I was…. forget it” Drew turned to walk away, and he did.
Nate threw a quick see you later to his twin, ignoring his teammates, and ran after him. He caught up with Drew and together they walked in silence towards their bench in the park.
After sitting in silence on the bench for 5 minutes, Drew broke the silence “Did it hurt? For them I mean?”
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It was Friday night, Nate took a deep breath and told his twin he was going out for a bit. Before he had left, he had been in his room staring in the mirror at the numbers carved into his side. He took a deep breath and texted the number, then he got dressed in something he knew the men would like. He took a deep breath swallowing the nerve and sickness down and went to the forest with a tent.
Nate arrived and only had to wait one hour before the father and son out of his nightmares arrived.
“I told my friends to come tomorrow, so we can have tonight just us 3, doll~”
Nate felt shivers run down his spine, he swallowed the lump in his throat and responded to drake “That sounds perfect, let’s have some fun.”
While they were undressing Nate took advantage of their distraction. He sliced their nerves in their arms and legs, and he made sure to cut off their cocks and their balls, making sure they felt all the pain. Watching them die slowly, in agony, and screaming for help but nobody was listening since they were in the woods.
He got rid of the bodies so that there was no trace left to be found.
The next they he did the same with Drake’s friends. They all arrived at different times and so he had enough time to kill them all just like the Spears just the day before, There was only one thing that went wrong and that was that the last guy arrived in the middle of the torturing death of the before him. Nate, of course, managed it easily and got out with just one black eye.
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A laugh was the first thing of Nate’s laugh “You think I’d let those bastards die peacefully?”
“How did you do it? Did they touch you before?”
“It’s best you don’t know about it, future investigations and all that…” Nate started to sound sadder, and Drew looked at him. Nate continued “Drew… I don’t know when the news will get out about their disappearance… I just want to make sure I can give you this because I know mom will want to run when the news gets out.” Nate holds out a set of knives and lockpicks, it were the ones that Nate had taught Drew with.
“So… this is goodbye?” Drew tried keeping his voice neutral, while he takes the gifts.
“It’s never goodbye with you Drew, I promise I’ll find you again Drew.”