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“I fucking hate it here.” Remus mutters to himself as he walks down the halls. Another year of this shitty fucking school. I

He walks down the hallway, another 4 dormmates voting against him again. Remus hopes that one of these years, they'll just give up on giving him dormmates. 

He heads into McGonagall’s office. “Mr lupin.” she says upon him, entering. “Take a seat.” she says, her face stern as ever. 

Remus sits down opposite her. Her brown eyes stared straight at him. She blinks. “I assume you know why you're here?” she asks, and Remus nods. 

“look are you giving me my own bloody dorm or not?” Remus’ eyes flick over to a painting on her wall. ‘Live today, tomorrow, and all the next ones.’ Remus sighs inwardly. What. the. fuck? 

“No,” of course not. How stupid could Remus be? Never was he ever going to get his own dorm. “You'll be sharing with one other boy.” What? “Hes well liked among his friend group, so hopefully you two will get on well,” what. “His name is Sirius. I think you share most of your classes with him, correct?” w.h.a.t.

The door slides open. Pirceing blue-grey eyes, long - gorgeous - black hair, outfit like a fucking rockstar. “You called, Minnie?” That smirk. 

Sirius fucking Black stood at the doorway. oh fuck no. 

Sirius’ eyes flick towards him. 

But if you're too drunk to drive, and the music is right

She might let you stay, but just for the night

And if she grabs for your hand, and drags you along

She might want a kiss before the end of this song

Because love can burn like a cigarette

And leave you with nothing

And leave you with nothing

Remus swallows, hopefully not too loudly. 

“Oh great.” Sirius eyes land on him. Send help, a helicopter, a ambulance. “you.” 

Sirius wrinkles his nose. “What do you need, Minnie?” 

“McGonagall or at least Minvera.” she sighs, her eyes still stern. “You will be moving dorms-” 

“EW TO BE WITH HIM?” 

“Lower your voice, Mr Black.” She tsks. 

Sirius quite literally grinds his teeth, - like a dog - before sitting down. 

As he sits down their legs brush together. They both sit up incredibly straight. Remus pretends he didn't notice. Sirius definitely didn't notice Remus did the same thing as his eyes are staring straight at the wall. 

“Unfortunately this is final and nothing will change my mind-” She continues to rant about things but Remus isn't listening. He looks over to Sirius, whose eyes are glewed to the wall. 

Remus stares at him. The boy who had been his enemie since the first day he met him on the train. 

“I'll take the marsbar.” Remus says rocking himself back and forth on his feat. 

“I wanted that!” a boy with short black hair exclaimed, literally jumping onto Remus attempting to snatch it from him. 

Remus rolls his eyes accidentally - Luckily no one seemed to notice - Since Remus ended up winning, having trained himself to fight at the ripe age of 11 years old, Sirius had it out for him. 

The rivalry between him and Sirius had made him slightly popular, giving him actual friends. So at least some of it is sunshine and rainbows. 

Sirius turns his head. Not towards McGonagall but towards Remus. Catching him staring. Shit! Remus curses inwardly. 

Sirius’ frown turns into a smirk as he raises an eyebrow. “A-” before he can say anything McGonagall interrupts. 

“Ahem,” she clears her throat. “If you two can stop whatever this is,” Remus and Sirius both look towards the wall now. “I'm sure you haven't payed attention to anything I said so, just behave. I'll be calling both of your parents if you so wish to disobey. I'm serious. Behave.” 

Sirius does not comment say ‘but I'm Sirius!’ instead he just kicks away from his chair and storms out. 

Remus tries to give McGonagall a small smile before - much more politely than Sirius- getting up from his chair and going to find his dorm. 

As Remus is walking down the halls he has a sudden realization that he did not pick up the sheet that tells him where to go from McGonagall’s desk. He sighs. 

“Fuck me.” he mutters to himself, now walking aimlessly around. 

“Don't suppose you got that amazing piece of paper that tells us where we're supposed to be going?” Sirius asks. 

Remus shakes his head as Sirius starts walking next to him. 

Remus’ eyes scan the hallways looking for a prefect. He spots Lily Evans. He drags Sirius over there. “Sorry, Lily?” Lily's green eyes light up upon seeing him. “Please tell me you know where my dorm might be? I cannot fave McGonagall.” 

Lily smiles warmly at him. “Yes, she assumed you and Sirius - un lucky by the way - wouldn't pay attention.” Sirius rolls his eyes

“Where is our dorm, woman.” 

Lily whacks behind his ear. “Shush you.” She turns around. “Follow me.” she, luckily, shows Sirius and Remus where heir dorms are. 

Remus thanks Lily as Sirius goes in to start unpacking his bag. Remus wonders who actually is the one who takes the bags up. 

Remus takes some of his posters, which he usually doesn't do because  he never usually stays anywhere too long. But he doesn't want to get in trouble with McGonagall when she's already mad at him enough. 

He puts up his ‘The Smiths’ poster first. He's got to at least try to make this place feel like home, right? 

“You like The Smiths?” Sirius says, disgusted. Remus simply rolls his eyes. 

He digs through his bags for his clothes instead of putting up the rest of his posters. 

He organizes his clothes into his drawers, puts all of his books in the shelfs - which isn't much space so he puts some on top of his chest of drawers. - decorates with some Arcane and other shows Funko Pops he's got. 

He puts up the rest of his posters, Sirius yet again remarking about his ‘Horrible music taste.’

He moves into to putting up all the posters he's made himself. This time Sirius comes over next to him. “You like Tv Girl?” he asks, surprised. 

“Stop bullying my excellent music taste.” Remus replies as he tries to make a ‘Anne with an E.’ poster  stay up with bluetack. Stupid fucking bluetack, it's fucking useless. 

“I love Tv girl.” Sirius says admiring the poster. “Did you make this?” He asks. 

Remus turns to him, surprised Sirius for once in his life is actually being nice. “Yeah, I like making things it takes my mind off-.. Things.” 

“It's beautiful.” Sirius says, still in awe. 

In all honesty Remus hadn't been happy with it, at all. Not even in the slightest. He stares at the amazement on Sirius’ face. 

“Thank you.” Remus mutters, going to put up the random other bits he's made. He finds a smaller version of the big Tv Girl  poster he did as a tester. 

Sirius is still standing there in awe. 

Remus clears his throat. His hands feel all sticky. Thinking of what to say. Do not make a fool of yourself, Remus. “I have a smaller version,” Remus starts and Sirius looks over. “If you want it.” 

Sirius takes it without saying a word. He hangs it up on his wall - stealing Remus’ bluetack. - 

Remus is staring at him, which he can't take so he leaves. Leaves to go get dinner. 

He gets to the main Hall. Dinner. He breathes in. His mind can't leave that beautiful look in Sirius’ eyes- 

He shakes his head once more and sees Marlene waving him over, Regulus, Barty and Evan all sitting next to her. 

He goes over to them and sits down. Their all chatting about something or another. Remus ignores Dumbledores probably stupid speech. His mind continues to spin unhelpfully as he puts more and more food onto his plate. 

“Remus!” Marlene exclaims clicking her fingers in front of him, making him blink. 

“Hm, sorry?” 

“I've been trying to to talk to yu for the past five minutes!” She shakes her head. “Wheres your mind at?” She asks. 

Barty’s face is in his food. Evan is staring at Remus along with Regulus. 

Remus shakes his head. “Bad morning. Drama butterfly is my new dormmate.”

Barty chokes on his food. “WHAT. Who are the others.”

“It's just him.” 

“Just him?!?” Marlene gasps. “I thought you were going to ask to dorm with Barty, Evan Regulus and, ” she rolls her eyes. “-Snape.” 

Remus was going to. No he wasn't. He hated the thought of even being in the same school as Snape. The thought of him makes his whole body shiver. “She didn't let me get a word in.”  is all Remus says 

***

And suddenly Remus is seeing Sirius Black everywhere. In every single hallway, class - although that was inevitable. - bathroom. And anywhere else you can think of. 

And secretly if Remus sees Sirius in a hallway he'll just change his path slightly. Just so then he ends up walking next to Sirius once or twice. 

Sirius actually smiles at him when he does this. Made conversation at one point. 

Remus obviously replys to all of his questions, stupid ideas. 

Most of the time their in classes together. It's a living hell because Remus can't help but look at him at times. 

He's incredibly distracting, because he does not sit still and most of the time is disturbing the class in one way or another. 

Sirius has caught him staring a few times. But all Remus has to do is smirk at him and he'll look away. Hes starting blushing as well, covering his face. 

Remus will sometimes look behind him and suddenly, Sirius is right there. Staring at him with this weird look of, 

Something. 

Every time Remus goes into his dorm he looks over to find the poster he gave Sirius still on the wall. Remus was sure he was just going to burn it, or something. 

Remus lays down on his bed looking up at the ceiling. Remus wonders if he can put something up there that he can look at. 

Theres people laughing outside the dorm, 3 Remus thinks. 

Sirius opens the door with Peter Pettigrew, and James Potter following behind him. “So this is what I have to put up with now, McGonagall thought I was such a good friend that I needed to help Looney over here.” 

Loony. 

Remus turns over pulling his blankets over him, fighting the urge to slam a pillow into Sirius’ face.

“That's a bit rude, mate, don't you think?” James asks probably looking over at Remus - who is not going to turn around anytime soon- 

“Nah.” Sirius waves a hand lazily. “He's bloody mad.” 

He hears Peter shuffle back a few steps, “W-wait. So he's actually Looney?”

“Aka coocoo pants, yeah definitely.” Sirius shrugs laughing just a little. 

Remus gets up this time around a chucks a pillow straight into Sirius’ face, making him so surprised that he literally stumbles back in shock. 

Remus runs out of the room. 

Looney. 

He breathes in. 

Looney. 

Out. 

Looney

In

Looney

Out

Looney

In

Looney. 

“Look who have here it's Looney  Lupin!” Snape snickers. “No friends the poor bunny.” He smirks, kicking his boot into Remus’ face. 

Tears bubble in Remus’ eyes. Fight back, he tells himself but it's no use, he's frozen. 

“Awh no going to cry to your ‘mummy,’ Loony?” Snape laughs along with his stupid minions in the back. 

He backs his way to an old willow tree that he always sits under. No one ever goes there because they are, for whatever reason, scared of it. 

He sits down breathing heavily. 

“Awh poor baby Looney.” Snape corners Remus in the hallway. Where is everyone when he needs them? 

“No friends, still?” 

Remus says nothing. 

Snape pushes him to the floor. Making him bash his head on the wall behind him. 

“Such a shame. But then again who'd want to be friends with you, Looney?” He scoffs leaning down next to him. “Hm? Whats that?” Snape says, Remus still says nothing. 

“Reply to me when I'm speaking to you.” He growls. 

“I'm sorr-” 

He kicks Remus in the eye. Unfortunately he doesn't stop there. 

Remus feels himself start shaking. “Headphones, sketchbook, anything for goodness sakes!” He mutters angrily to himself searching through his bag. 

He punches, kicks, slaps. Does anything he can to hurt remus. Remus is well beyond crying at this point he's screaming, which in hindsight, only made things worse. 

Remus is literally choking on his own tears. Which Snape sees and takes to the next level. “I hope you die Looney.” 

He wraps his hands around Remus’ neck. “HEL-” he chokes out. “PLEASE help.” he can't even get proper words out. 

McGonagall comes down the hallway. “MR SNAPE PUT HIM DOWN THIS INSTANT.” McGonagall stomps her foot. 

Remus breathes out. He's shaking madly. Looney. 

“Remus?” Marlene’s soft voice calls. She sits down next to him. 

“Can you hear me?” She asks, her light Hazel eyes staring at him. 

Remus nods. He blinks, expecting tears, nothing. Absolutely nothing. 

Marlene gives him a hug. 

Remus comes back to himself. “Sorry.” He says, he voice somewhat hoarse. 

Marlene smiles at him. “Don’t be.” she pulls away. “Library?” She asks, and Remus nods. 

***

Remus opens the door to his dormroom, hoping he didn't actually look crazy earlier. He heads straight to his bed. Placing one of his books on his night stand, and opening the other to read. 

The room has a soft glow about it because he and Sirius have their lamps on. The red curtains of Remus’ bed having slight light to them. 

The room in itself his slot of dark wood. Some sort of oak, Remus thinks. The walls are pretty similar in colour and go well with most -if not all of his posters.

Remus turns his page. 

Sirius is laying in his own bed, with the curtains shut. 

Remus shakes his head, directing his eyes to his book. 

“Remus?” 

“hm.”

“Why did you run off?” 

Remus does not reply. He turns the page of his book and continues reading. 

Chapter Text

Remus Lupin. 

Tuesday 15th of September. 

Would Remus have blamed you if you said he was crazy? No, he would not. 

He stares at the poster on Sirius’ wall. Sirius had asked if he could make him another one. Conan Gray. 

After days and days of not speaking, and that's what Sirius asks him? Not even a sorry- Remus does not take in the fact that Sirius had said sorry, in a way. Instead, he just says he doesn't. He didn't even try to be kind. James probably told him, too. 

You do not have access to your phones at Hogwarts, so Remus has to walk down to the library to look up Conan Gray. 

He knows who he is, of course, but he'd like to have some inspo.

‘So what? It's not for him. It's for me.’ he tells himself over and over on his way down. 

Entering the library, he sees the endless number of bookshelves. They stack so high. The lights. He finds comfort in the way he can hide behind books. Hide in the endless stacks of bookshelves. 

He heads over to the computers and quickly searches for Conan Gray posters. Nothing gives him much inspiration, so he takes a photo with his camera - which are permitted at Hogwarts -  and then goes to a random table. 

He takes some pens and pencils out of his bag and sets them on the table. He puts his headphones on and starts to draw. 

He takes inspo from a poster that's promoting found heaven. 

He doesn't listen to Conan Grey himself, so he doesn't understand it, but he knows what to do anyway. 

When he's -somewhat- finished, he begins to draw something else.

“Hey Remus.” Regulus and Marlene sit down opposite him. He can only just hear them because of his headphones. They're still mumbling, and he can't understand a word. 

He takes off his headphones. “What?”  

“We we're  just thinking about-” Regulus starts calmly before Marlene interrupts. 

“We should get a bunch of tattoos!-” 

“Yes that ones of-” 

“Like flowers and stuff, you- well you me, Reggie Evan ba- you get the gist - can have one matching ones on one arm!-” 

“And then get your own the other arm,” 

“YEAH! We should totally do it. How about like a snake on my neck?- You think Mary will think it's awesome?”

“Obviously, she's obsessed with you.” Regulus murmurs focusing on drawing two trees. 

“Anyways... YOU AGREE RIGHT?” Marlene grins, directing her eyes away from Regulus 

“ ‘Course.” When does he not? “I did the piecing-” He runs his tongue piercing over his teeth. “Why not the tattoos?” 

Marlene squeals happily, not even asking Remus before grabbing paper from his bag.

Remus looks over to Regulus, “We’re finally rubbing off on you.” 

Regulus shrugs, “Had to happen eventually, right?” 

Remus gives him a smile here, passing Regulus a paper of his own. 

Regulus gives him a thank you nod before scribbling some of his own ideas down. 

“Is that a ‘J’ with a heart, Mr Black?” Remus says after a while, seeing it scribbled mess-ily in the bottom corner of the page. 

“No..” Regulus says bashfully, covering the corner of the page with his hand. 

Marlene’s head suddenly snaps up. “YOU LIKE JAMESIE!” 

“Be quiet, marls!” He exclaims, “I’d rather the whole word not know.” He shakes his head as Marlene starts to spring questions at him. 

Remus wonders what it's like, having someone like James. 

He knows Regulus swears it's just a crush, but Remus has seen them about in the astronomy tower. 

Remus thinks miserably if anyone will ever love him as much as that. 

They won't

A voice in his head says. 

‘Probably true.’ He tells himself in his head. What's there about Remus to love? 

Barty clicks his fingers in front of Remus. When the hell did he get there. 

“Where’d you go, Lupin?” 

Remus looks straightforward. “Nothing.” 

Barty shrugs. 

“You in on the tattoo idea?” The green haired boy asks. 

Remus nods. 

“Great- Hand me a piece of paper, I wanna draw some.” Knowing Barty it’ll be some big grand drawings. 

He's always been the big artist of the group. 

“Could you make me one?” Remus asks, and Barty’s eyes light up. 

“ohmygosh Really? You’d really let me design - forgot that, What type of one? Like what style-” 

Everyone at the table - which now includes Evan - chuckles. 

Remus digs into his bag, putting a picture of a flower in front of him. “It’s a Fuschia Annabel. Could I have the drawing after you’re done?” 

Barty nods excitedly. “Mhm!!” 

Regulus shakes his head, eyes twinkling fondly. 

“Could you do me one after?” Evan asks. Barty looks like he's won the lottery.

Tuesday 4:44pm, main Hall. 

“Pandora!” Marlene waves her arms, inviting her over, Dorcas in toe. 

“You guys in for the matching tats?” 

“Don’t ever say that again.” Regulus mutters. 

He’s staring over at James, who is making a big show of being sad that Sirius has ‘Left him'.’

“Whats got Potter’s balls in a twist?” Barty asks. He gets his answer because Peter - Who Remus thought was the ‘shy one’ - Gets up on the table then on his knees

“Oh Sirius, whatever will we do without you!” Peter starts. 

“It's a tragedy!” James exclaims. 

Successfully getting all of the schools attention they all stand on the table, arms fucking linked. 

“We are sad to announce-” Sirius says

“That our most beautiful marauder-” James continues. 

“Is no longer in our arms.” Peter says

“I’ve moved on to another dorm.”

They all unlink arms and start fake crying? 

“What the fuck are they doing?” Evan asks genuinely so dumbfounded that it’s comical. 

Regulus mumbles something about idiots. 

Marlene shakes her head. 

“Thats who you're dating, Register?” Barty asks. 

“Don’t call me that, also crushing on.” He corrects harshly. 

“Whatever you say.” Barty muses. 

“Thats quite enough!” McGonagall’s voice calls. She clears her throat as the boys sit back down. “I'm here on behalf of Dumbledore, I’d like you all to stop and listen please.”

She waits for everyone’s attention to go to her before speaking again;

“As you're all aware that was quite a lot of.. Discourse last year,” 

There’s a murmur of people speaking about it. It was a shit show. 

“So we've listened.” for once, Remus thinks. “You can now all officially make your own clubs-” 

Everyone cheers at this. 

“Quite. They are a few rules. You must asks me before making any. And report to Lily Evans” She nods towards her. “For offical approval.” 

More cheers and chatter before McGonagall steps back a tad and Lily steps up. “Woo go Lily!” James screams

“Thanks Potter.” She smiles warmly at him, before putting on her ‘Mum face.’

“For, unfortunately less exciting news.” She brushes some hair out of her face. “As head girl, I’ve decided to make some changes. We have a big bullying problem, so we'll be announcing around 10 new prefects, and on protrols you will be walking in 3 sets of 2 around the school. Following that, new protocol, if you're partner is apart of any bullying you have to report it to myself, or McGonagall.” 

The last part of that seemed a bit targeted. Her voice had cracked slightly mentioning Prefect being bully's. There’d been a rumour going around that someone had been removed as a prefect. 

She swallows. 

“In other news, if you do want to create a club, we're looking for artists of any kind to help with the setting up. Thank you.” she smiles at everyone. 

Everyone claps as she steps off the stage. McGonagall steps back up. 

“Thank you Miss Evans.” she smiles. “I’d like to remind you all, bullying will not be tolerated at Hogwarts.” everyone goes quiet, murmuring to each other. 

“In any case, These types of speeches are going to happen regularly to help the flow of our school. Thats all for to say but I'd like to say that this has been a very good, positive  few weeks. Thank you all for being so amazing this year!” She steps off as cheers erupt. 

Dinner is served a few minutes later. 

“I wonder what that was about?” Barty says. 

“What was?” Dorcas asks, seemingly clueless. 

“The bullying speach!” 

Remus thinks he knows what has happened. Lily hasn't really told him anything but, Snape has been a bit of a... Whats a nice way to put it? A twat. A massive fucking twat. It's definitely about that. 

Remus’ eyes trail lily as she goes to sit back down. ‘That was great lils!’ Sirius and James says in tune. ‘Your so good at speaches!’ James says. 

Remus looks over to Mary whose looking down. Remus believes she's got something to do with it as well. 

“Just leave it, Barty. She’s clearing going through something!” Pandora says out of nowhere, pushing herself off the table. “I'm going over there.” Pandora murmurs quietly. 

She heads over and goes towards Lily. 

“Whats her problem?” Barty asks. 

“Leave it.” Evan says. “She’s clearly upset.” 

Dorcas scoffs. “Shes been in a bad mood all day. Way to go Barty.” 

“HOW WAS I SUPPOSED TO KNOW?” 

“USE YOU’RE COMMON SENSE!” 

“I'M NOT A FUCKING MIND READER, MEADOWS.”

“Guys calm down!” Regulus says. “This isn't getting you anywhere! No where at all. Cas, Barty couldn't have known, okay?”

Dorcas mumbles something to herself before getting up. “I'm going to eat with Em.” 

“Meadowes?” Barty says seemingly going to apologize. Dorcas does not stop. 

“You’ve been quiet, Remus.” Evan says arching an eyebrow. 

“I’m not feeling the best..” He gets up from the table. “M’not hungry.”

“I didn't mean t-” Barty starts. 

“Don’t worry about it. I have a headache, s’not you.”

Remus walks off. 

He heads into his dorm, surprised to find Sirius already there. 

Remus thinks about the poster and how he should finish it -for himself of course- quickly. 

He goes to his desk and finishes it off quickly. 

Him and Sirius Haven't even glanced in each others direction. 

“I'm sorry for whatever I did.” Sirius says. “I already apologized b-” if you could even call that and apology. “Why'd you run off?” pft pathetic. “But I didn't do it properly.”

“Nah s’fine.” Remus says. “Jus’ me being silly.” 

Stupid more like? Idiot is better word too. 

shush. 

“Oh okay! Uhm that's all I wanted to say really, I'm going to go take a shower.”

Remus nods as if Sirius needed his permission or something. 

idiottt

his brain sings. 

Remus writes a small note and then puts it on his bed along with the poster. 

Hope you like it, don't listen to him much. 

-Remus. 

Ps, I’’ve gone out with some friends. 

Remus leaves. 

His friends are waiting for him at the bus stop seemingly having worked everything out -though Dorcas does look a bit iffy- 

“Ready?” he asks

They all murmur in agreement. 

As they walk along in awkward silence Remus wonders how long the tattoos will actually take. 

Two -reasonably big- arm tattoos, and bunch of other small ones. Ouch. 

Barty promised to pay for all of them, but Evan and Pandora perked up saying they could all split as Regulus’ parents would never let him (he has plans to hide his tattoos over Christmas somehow? Remus tuned out when he said how) Marlene didn't have enough money. And Remus’ family was, unfortunately, poor. 

They ended up having to wait 5 minutes which Regulus complained about but no one really cared.

Remus got the flower -Fuschia Annabel- first. And throughout the next few weeks, Marlene, Remus, Barty, Evan, Regulus, Dorcas and Pandora all got the matching arm tattoos and others. 

Sunday 20th of September. 

Remus Lupin. 

on the way back from a very, very long tattoo appointment Remus wonders what exactly it is he wants to do for Christmas break. 

Hes staying at Hogwarts of course, the thought of spending more than five minutes in that house with Lyall Lupin makes him shiver. 

Lyall, had, of course, asked for him home but Remus had sent a letter back about wanting to be ahead of study's, yadayada. 

Lyall had let him off this time, luckily. 

“We all staying for the break, then?” Marlene asks. “I’ll ask my mum.” 

“Yup! We’very all got the clear, I think.” He looks over to Regulus who doesn't look up, eyes fixed on the floor.

Barty swallows. “Well, I was thinking we could go to some concerts- yes Regulus and study.” Barty wouldn’t they all knew he wouldn't. “As well as maybe doing some art, sneaking into some cool places- Oo and eating at some cool places, my treat.” 

“Sounds fun, Bat.” Evan says as Barty continues to ramble on about stuff they're going to do. 

Remus walks faster to catch up with Regulus-who given the first chance had slipped out forward- “You okay, Reg?”

“Yeah.” He mutters looking straight forward. 

“You still staying for Christmas?”

The shorter boy nodded. 

“What's up, then?” Remus asks giving Regulus a comforting smile. 

The Raven haired boy looks away. “Nothing, just feeling down, bad case of the blues.”

Remus knew that wasn't it, but he didn't pry. If Regulus didn't want to talk about it, he didn't have to. 

“Alright, if you’re sure.” Remus smiles. “Want to ditch these losers and go hang out and listen to some music on the roof?”

Regulus finally looks at him and smiles. “race you!” he sped off. 

Remus laughed running behind him. 

Tuesday 15th of September, 23:42 

“thanks for the poster.” Sirius whispers softly as Remus gets into bed, wincing at the pain from his arm. 

Remus smiles back. “No worries.” 

Sirius’ eyes light up for some reason. 

Chapter Text

Remus Lupin. 

October 1st.

“Listen up, prefects!” Lily calls coming into the room -surprisingly, late -  she stands in front of everyone adjusting her hair. 

“It's officially October, so you all know what it means!” 

Murmurs of Halloween starts up.  “Exactly!” Lily smiles. “We have quite a few plans, so you all are going to be quite bus-” 

“Excuse me, uhm, Miss Evans?” A girl from the back starts. 

“Yes?” 

“Why haven’t we had any meetings for the past like four years?” 

“Weeks.” Lily corrects. “And we’very been very busy with recruitment. Now getting back t-” 

“Why isn’t there anyone new here then?” The girl raises an eyebrow, placing her hand on her hip. 

“Please discuss this later.” Lily says, plasters a smile on her face. “Now! Halloween decorations! Let's get this started, we have a WHOLE room dedicated to the decorations on the fourth floor, it’s easy to find, but just in case you can’t find, you can ask Filch-” 

A group of groans erupt. 

Lily clears her throat. “Where to find it.” 

“Can you believe her?” Regulus asks on their way up to the fourth floor. 

“I mean, I doubt it's her fault.” Remus says, looking at the doors. 

Remus wonders why they have it on the fourth floor as it's been more of don’t go there. 

The door at the very end of the first hallway has an orange day and a label that says ‘HAPPY HALLOWEEN!’ bingo. 

“Her and McGonagall have definitely planned this,” Regulus says. “And all that news bull crap? I haven’t seen a single club or new prefect. All I know is that Snape isn’t a prefect anymore.” 

“Wait, are you serious?”

“Regulus, actually.” He laughs slightly. “But yes. I heard him talking about it in our dorms with one of his little friends.” 

“How odd, I wonder what happened? Little girl never gets in trouble.” Remus opens the door. 

“Yeah- OH EW WHAT IS THIS!” Regulus jumps back. 

“And they say Sirius is the dramatic one..” Remus mutters quietly, though Regulus is somewhat right. The decorations look like they've come from the 18th century or something. 

“Oh my God, it's so disgusting. Do we really have to do this?” Regulus now has his hand over his mouth. 

“Unfortunately..” 

“Oh ew!” Sirius comes out of literally nowhere. “That’s gross. I literally can’t imagine being you.” 

“How about you literally just buzz off?” Regulus asks. 

“No, my dear brother, I can’t. Anyways I was referring to that slime. Decorations look cool!” 

“Of course you would think that..” Regulus mutters “What are you doing here anyway?” Regulus scowls

“Oh no reason! Anyways, Remus sidebar?” 

“Sorry but uhm, we have to do this, or Evans is going to have our heads on a stick.” 

“Ugh fine, but actually be back in the dorm tonight, by like 8.” 

“Giving me a curfew now, Black?” 

“Yup, be back, or I’LL have your head on a stick.” Sirius turns around. “Toodles!” He says, running off to his little gang. 

“Ugh, I hate him. You should request to change dorms.”

“I tried.” 

Remus didn’t try. And Remus wasn’t going to. 

Sirius Black 

October 1st.

“Well my dearest friends!” Sirius says, walking into the room where Peter Mary and James are. 

“Whys lily absent?” Sirius asks, “this is an EMERGENCY meeting!” He says dramatically. 

“She had a prefects meeting.” James says, taking his seat on one of the sofas. 

“Oh of course she did.” Sirius sighs. “Anyways my deer friends, we have some SCARY pranks to play!” 

They all grin. 

***

“Okay Mary just move it over a bit..” 

“Yeah yeah.” She sighs wombling on the ladder. “What are you doing this for anyway?” She asks. 

“Slime of course! Saw Evans move it. I'm going to go ask if Remus can snag it for me!” 

“No offence, mate..” James starts “But I don’t think he's the most.. Fond of you..” 

“What? Of course he is.” Sirius turns over to James, who shrugs. 

Remus does like Sirius. He’d given him that poster... And made him a whole over one. James is just crazy. 

He did mean it, though, right? I mean, sure, he did kind of scare him off in that weird fit of rage, but he probably just had a headache. 

That was it, just. A. Headache. Nothing else. He breathes in. 

“I agree with James. He kinda ran out on you, and he avoided you before.” Peter pipes up. 

“Before? Before when!?” 

“Before the roommates thing, went on for like 2 years. I'm surprised you didn’t notice.”

“Ugh what do you know, Peter?” Sirius grinds his teeth, looking down at the ground. 

When he looks up every time one is looking at him. 

“You alright?” Mary asks. 

“Headache, or something. I’m going to see if I can get that slime.” 

Sirius walks off, shaking his head. What has Peter ever known? 

Remus is very happy, smiles, and warm like books. He doesn’t dislike anyone. 

Not unless their mean. Sirius hadn’t done anything. 

He walks up the winding staircases. Sirius swears to Orion, and some of them go to nowhere. 

“Unfortunately..”  he hears Remus say as he approaches. 

Disgusting, one of the slime buckets is all over the floor. One proped up, though, good to use. 

“Oh ew!” Sirius says, walking up behind them“That’s gross. Literally can’t imagine being you.” 

Remus gives him a slight smile while Regulus... 

“How about you literally just buzz off?” Regulus asks. 

“No, my dear brother, I can’t. Anyways I was referring to that slime. Decorations look cool!” 

He says, realizing they had their noses up at the decor. 

“Of course you would think that..” Regulus mutters quietly, Sirius barley hears it. “What are you doing here anyway?” Regulus scowls at him. 

“Oh no reason! Anyways, Remus sidebar?” 

Remus blinks at him before replying 

“Sorry but uhm, we have to do this, or Evans is going to have our heads on a stick.” 

“Ugh fine, but actually be back in the dorm tonight, by like 8.” Sirius says, hoping if Remus does. In fact, not like him, he doesn't get caught in the prank. 

“Giving me a curfew now, Black?” Remus smirks at him. 

Hm. 

“Yup, be back, or I’LL have your head on a stick.” Sirius turns around. “Toodles!” He says, running off to Mary and James, who have appeared out of nowhere. 

“Ugh, I hate him. You should request to change dorms.” he  hears Regulus say behind him. Little shit always puts his nose where it shouldn’t be. 

“Sorry about easier Pads..” James says guiltly. 

Sirius raises an arm, waving him off. 

“Right you two get back ‘cause we might have to wait for that slime..”

“Oh don’t worry about that.” Mary smiles. 

Sirius raises an eyebrow, and Mary's smile turns into a smirk. 

***

Having successfully left Mary and James to work on the prank, he goes to talk to Regulus. 

He finds him instantly, seemingly waiting for someone. 

better make this quick then. 

“Oh, hello, my darling brother!” Sirius exclaims again, using his old line. It just works so well. 

Regulus scowls seeing him. “Sirius.” he says, rolling his eyes. “I’m waiting for someone, so fuck off.” 

“Now, now. Is that such a way to talk to your most gracious brother?” Sirius tsks. 

“What do you want Sirius.” Regulus says angryily stomping his foot. 

“Just wanted to see if ol’ mama’s boy has said anything about me to Remus.” Sirius leans on the wall. 

“No. Go away you creep.” 

Sirius tsks. “That’s not very nice, I simply just asked you a question.” 

“A creepy one.” Regulus turns to face him. “Lupin hasn’t mentioned jackshit about you, and I have told him anything other than what happens in the Black house.” 

“Not making me out like mother, are you?” 

“Not him. But you Sirius. You’re practically mother dearests exact copy.” 

Regulus never went for easy blows. Just for the ones that hit close to home. 

“I never abused you.” He whispers angrily. 

Regulus scoffs. “Not like you don’t pay everyone at this school the same fate.” 

“FUCK YOU!” He barks at him. 

“Got the crazyness of her down, that’s for sure.” 

Sirius storms off. 

***

“Wheres James?” Sirius asks he comes in. 

“Dunno, said he’d be back in a bit.” Mary shrugs. 

“Whatever.” Sirius says. “Good job setting up.”

“thanks!” Peter says. 

“Yeah we’re almost done!” Mary exclaims excitedly. 

“Unfortunately we are now making this like ten times more big.” Sirius says pulling more slime for part of it. 

“WHAT!” Mary and Peter exclaim at the same time. “You’re joking, right?” Mary asks. 

“Not in the slightest, now chop to it.”

The both of them sigh and head to grab more things. 

It’s a blur from there but if Sirius knows one thing. It’s that if Remus came back at all to the dorms, it wasn’t at eight.

 Remus Lupin. 

hallway outside the main Hall. 

“What are you lot having for dinner?” Marlene asks. “I wan-” 

Before Marlene can finish buckets slime fall into them as the open the main Hall dorms. Other students coming in as well all get slime all over them. 

Toilet paper falls into the tables. Along with pumpkins on strings which most break off and clatter onto the tables also. 

Where McGonagall and Dumbledore are standing there's a drop of fake skeletons, along with more pumpkins, all falling one after the other.

Shouts of confusion erupt quickly. 

Sweets falll everywhere. And when Remus says everywhere. he means everywhere. 

All over the tables, floors, on students heads. everywhere.

More toilet paper. And then.. 

Cats? 

Cats with pumpkins hats on their heads, each with a different face. The cats run around like wild. 

Letters than fall saying a range of things. 

Mary would like to wish you a happy Halloween! Orange and Black lipstick Halloween ladies! 

Sirius would like to say that you’re about to have the best Halloween at Hogwarts yet! 

Peter says happy Halloween. Make sure your customers are positively creative! 

Lily who has been forced would also like to say she hopes you get a bunch of sweets! Happy Halloween<3

James says HAPPY HALLOWEEN FROM THE PRANKSTERS! 

Are the main ones but there's others as well;

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! 

SLIME MONSTERS!! 

Kitties!! Wait.. With pumpkin hats? 

HEY YOU! PICK UP THE SWEETS WILL YA? ACCIDENTALLY DROPPED ‘EM.

oooooooo BOO! did I get ‘cha?  

SPOOKY SCARY SKELETONS!! 

BOO!.. bitch! 

there was hundreds. Thousands. 

“Holy shit.” Barty says. “how’d they do so man-” once again someone is cut off because suddenly something goes off.. 

Fireworks? 

But nothing happens. It was one firework. 

McGonagall still shaken up, steps up begining to say something “A-”

BANG! 

B-BANG! 

Small fireworks start going off.

BANG! 

BANG! 

People start cheering 

They spell out. 

ONE PRANK FOR EACH DAY UNTIL HALLOW’S EVE! 

Chats start up instantly, people talking about what could possibly happen on Halloween. 

Suddenly Sirius, James, Peter and Mary -Lily being nowhere to be seen- step out. They step into the place where the fireworks were

“Before I announce where we are actually eating. Direct your eyes to the rip off- less fun- me! Regulus Black.” 

Remus immediately looks next to him. But nothing happens. 

He looks back over to Sirius confused. Oh. 

Peters gone

Suddenly Regulus starts  kicking and screching. . 

Remus looks back and Peter is holding him still. Before anyone can do anything Sirius comes and 

Cracks the floor boards? 

Underneath is a pit of slime. 

Regulus falls in. 

He screams

“STOP! PLEASE I HATE SLIM- HELP. JAMES!” 

“James?” Sirius asks confused. 

Regulus is still screaming. 

“WHAT THE FUCK!” Barty, Evan, Remus, Marlene, Pandora and Dorcas all scream and the same time. 

“Sirius what the hell?” James says. It sounds like hes supposed to scream it, but he's just standing there. 

Barty runs over to Peter holding him back while Remus and Evan try to get Regulus out. 

Sirius is just laughing. Peter was laughing.-though he can’t with Barty whispering threatens into his ear.-  Mary’s laughing unsure of herself. 

Lily runs up. “Sirius! What is this? It was only supposed to be the cute cats!?” 

James still stands baffled, in fact he looks horrified. “Regulus..” He whispers weakly. 

Evan and Remus manage to pull him out, but nothing without half of the main Hall laughing. 

“Sirius Black what is the meaning of this- This harassment!” McGonagall calls coming down to meet him. 

The skittles (Barty, Pandora, Marlene, Regulus, Evan, Dorcas, and Remus) all head away before they can tell where dinner was going to be moved to. 

They don’t stay for whatever McGonagall says either. 

“Those Wankers!” Evan says as they arrive into Pandora’s dorm, as hers was the closest. 

“We’ll make them pay, Register.” Barty says. “No pun intended.” he adds. 

“Thanks, Bat. I'm going to take a shower..” He mumbles. 

Pandora points him into that direction. 

Pandora turns to Dorcas. “Maybe go get him some clothes?” She asks, her voice warm and soft. 

Dorcas nods. 

“What do you guys think, movie night?” Pandora asks. “We haven’t done that I  a while.” 

“Not a movie.. But arcane! I want to dye my hair like Vi.” Evan says. 

“I thought Cassie said that?” Barty raises an eyebrow. 

“Shut it, B.” 

Barty laughs. 

“Ill set up the pillows, beanbags and such, you guys give me a hand?” 

They do, Dorcas does when she gets back as well. 

It goes perfectly with Pandora’s colourful walls. It looks like home. 

Dorcas goes to the bathroom to go get Regulus -And give him his clothes- 

Barty gets snacks. 

Evan and Pandora get blankets. 

Remus gets Arcane up. 

It feels incredibly home like. It makes Remus feel odly calm. 

home.

His friends, watching, laughing, talking happily. 

Regulus, ever greatful, said exactly his thoughts, tapping Remus on the shoulder. “Hm?” Remus whispers. 

“on se sent comme à la maison.” He says in French. 

This feels like home.  

And it does. 

Chapter Text

Remus Lupin. 

October 3rd, Sunday. 

“I’d like to announce the new headboy! James Potter!” Lily smiles as James steps up next to her. 

Remus was happy with this. All though James had taken part in the prank, he didn’t seem to know Sirius was going to do that to Regulus. 

Remus smiles and claps along with everyone else. 

“Now to announce the long awaited prefects- for Godric, Gideon and Fabian Prewett!”

Applause. 

“Along with Alice Fortescue and Frank Longbottom!” 

Applause. 

“For Helena, we have Emmeline Vance, and Pandora Lovegood!”

Applause. 

She swallows. “And for Salazar we have- uhm. Avery II-” Boos erupt immediately. Lily clears her throat. “And Bruce Mulciber.” 

No applause. 

“Right-” She swallows again, putting on a very forced smile. “We’re happy to have them..” 

“For more we Have Salazar, Evan Rosier and Barty crouch, Jr.” She says, and then mutters a “Somehow.. ” under her breath. 

Somehow indeed. 

Pandora was obvious, not only does she like Lily she’s also so incredibly kind. But. 

Evan and Barty? 

Psh.

they must’very been desperate. 

In any case that was kind of slipped over as everyone -except of course, teachers.- Knew Avery and Mulciber where bully’s. 

And even if they don’t know for sure if Snape was kicked out or if he decided to leave. They were apart of his gang. And it didn’t mean good knews. 

“Settle down please!” Lily says, her voice wavering. 

They all stop. 

“We’re going to announce partners now!” Lily says. “Based on houses.” 

Oh God. 

Please no. 

Anyone but them. 

“OI Loony! No one can find you here.” He said, in hogsmeade. “You’ve come straight to us!” he laughs. 

“Heard what you got Snape into. Even though he was proven not guilty. But he's got so many detentions now. No thanks to you!” he kicks Remus’ hand. 

Remus gets up and attempts to fight back, his body not stopping him. 

Avery gets him from behind, holds him on the floor while Mulciber laughs. 

“Remus Lupin,” please. “Regulus Black,”  plesse. “Bartu Crouch Jrx” Please. please. “And,”

please not them. 

“Bruce Mulciber.” 

Remus can’t hear anything but his own screams after that. 

He knows he’s not saying it outloud. 

But he’s screaming. 

Not him. 

No, him. 

It’s definitely himself. 

His young self. 

13 year old Remus. 

“PLEASE!!” HE SCREAMS. HE SCREAMS

He’s stuck like that, screaming, like crazy. Not even words. Just screams. 

“Shut up, brat.” 

SCREAMING. 

scream. 

Scream. 

Scream. 

SCREAM. 

SCRE-

S- 

SCREAM.

SOBBING. 

YOU DESERVE IT. 

BRAT

BRAT

BRAT

BRAT. 

USELESS PIG. 

Sob. 

“Oh look he really is crazy!” Mulciber laughs. 

C

R

A

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Y

crazy. 

Crazy

Crazy

CRAZY. 

“CRAZY! YOU CRAZY CHILD!” His father. 

“awh look Ave,  he’s crying.”  

Laughing. 

“Leave me alone- please..” He says quietly. 

“H-How am I going to explain this?”

“He’s got a point, Bruce, let’s go, we can make him pay more soon.” hope. 

They laugh. 

“Nah, keep going.”

Remus doesn’t want to be shaking. Breath in. He tells himself. Remember what happened after. 

“LEAVE HIM ALONE!” Barty. 

He’d seen him before, sat with him on the train even. Talked to him more. 

“LEAVE HIM!” He shouts again. 

“lets go ave!” 

Barty crouches down besides him, a blonde boy coming out of nowhere and crouching down next to him. 

“You okay?” 

He feels a hand on his shoulder. Barty. 

“You alright?” He whispers. “You’very gone a bit.” 

Remus clears his throat. “Yeah, thanks.” 

“You sure?” 

Remus nods. 

“Okay. Let’s go.” 

“Go?” 

“Remus, Lily’s done.” 

Remus looks around, he’s right, everybody’s leaving. 

“oh.” 

“Come on, Don’t want to keep Reggie waiting.” Barty says turning around. 

And Mulciber. He thinks sadly.

They walk out. Regulus standing there waiting for them, in a jumper Remus doesn’t recognize. 

Someone’s behind him. 

Remus places a hand on Barty’s arm. 

James. 

“If anyone bothers you,” James starts, fire in his eyes. “I’ll kill them.” he places a hand on Regulus’ shoulder. 

“James..” Regulus lifts his head up. “Someone might see us.” 

James shakes his head. “They’ll be too distracted.” 

“Stay safe, mi vida.” 

James kisses Regulus’ hand before walking off. 

Regulus’ smile could light up a whole city. 

“Je t'aime.” He whispers quietly. Remus can hear him, Barty doesn’t. 

“prêt à partir ?” Remus asks Regulus making him jump. 

“Oui.” 

“Guys I can’t understandd!” Barty whines dragging out his ‘d’. “Speak Italian! If anything you both know how.” 

They both shake their heads. 

“Oi, you lot!” Mulciber calls coming up to them. 

“Loony lost someone?” Mulciber calls. 

Remus is crying on the bathroom floor. “Go away!” He screams getting up and punching mulciber straight in the face. 

“Ouch! MCGONAGALL!!” 

“Oh.. Uh oh.” Remus says, voice cracking watching him run away. 

“How about you go do it by yourself, Bruce.” Regulus says, his voice dropping low as he says ‘Bruce.’ 

“Now, that would be cheating Evans wouldn’t it?” 

Go away. 

“Cmon then Loony just like old times, aye?” 

GO AWAY! 

“Come now, wouldn’t want innocent children being bullied now would we?” He says, gesturing for them to follow him. 

Easy for you to fucking say, isn’t it? 

Regulus mumbles something about mulciber being an absolute twat under his breath. 

“Do much nowadays, Loony, or are you still crazy?” 

Remus says nothing. 

“Crazy..” 

“SHUT UP.” He said accidentally out loud. Much louder than he meant too. 

“Still same ol’ loony then!” He cackles. 

“Oh shut up Mulciber, isn’t the guy who- I’m forgetting his name- who had bad hair, a bit of a disappointment?” Barty asks

Mulciber grinds his teeth. 

“Don’t get your teeth out at me, pup. It’s not brand new news that Sevy has clearly been kicked out.. Sent you to replace him did he?”

Mulciber jumps at him. 

“Stop!” Regulus says. 

They don’t.

“Mulciber!” Lily gasps, Severus in front of her, looking very angry. 

He jumps off Barty as quick as a bolt. 

“I thought you were supposed to be good!” Lily stomps her foot. 

“Oh. Well, one time thing Evans, won’t happen again swear!” Mulciber says pathetically. 

“I’m not letting you off easily!” Lily exclaims. “You’re no longer a prefect. Come with me we’re going to McGonagall.”

“NO!” Mulciber exclaims. 

“Fine. Come Sev- Severus. We’re going to go fetch McGonagall.” 

Snape trails her like a lost puppy. 

“That’s what you get for being a dickhead.” Regulus mutters. 

Mulciber turns around in an instant. “What did you just say to me?”

Regulus swallows. “You head me. You’re horrible. Condom what have saved us all the trouble.” 

“EXCUSE ME?” He exclaims. 

“It’s only the truth; it’s what you deserve.” Regulus says much less sure of himself now as he scans Mulcibers face. 

“You think so?” He says. Thats the only warning he gives, beifee jumping like a wild dog onto Regulus punching his Facebook over and over so quickly that Remus hasn’t even clocked that he's jumped onto him yet.

“OH MY GOD!” Barty exclaims. “GET HIM OFF!” Barty satr, to himself or Remus? Remus isn’t sure but they both rush to at least try. 

Remus trys to pull mulciber off, but he can’t. As much as he trys to his rage is too strong. 

Remus feels helpless stepping back just staring. 

useless.

Don’t something with yourself why don’t you?  That’s your best friend. Your brother. TRY HARDER. 

USELESS. 

Remus trys again with Barty’s help, no use. 

“PLEAASE!” Regulus screams, pure agony. 

James, Snape and Lily come around the corner with McGonagall. 

“STOP!” James screams instantly at the same time as McGonagall screams, 

“MR MULCIBER! GET OF HIM RIGHT. NOW.” 

Mulciber, who looks like a deer-or a monster- caught in headlights. 

James falls to his knees next to Regulus. “Oh God.” he whispers. 

“Come with me. Lily give me a hand in my office with Bruce and Severus, would you?” McGonagall doesn't give her time to answer, instead she drags mulciber behind her, storming off. Snape and Lily follow closely behind. 

“Mi Vida, can you hear me?” James asks running his hands through Regulus’ hair. 

“James they're  right there.” Regulus, whose luckily not knocked out, says. 

“Don’t care. Mierda, what did they do to you?”

“I’m fine, Potter, don’t be dramatic.” 

Remus thinks Regulus is not in fact fine, as Mulciber just beat the living shit out of him for 40 seconds. 

His point his proven when Regulus attempts to prove his own point by standing, but falls before he can even get off the ground, James catching him. 

“Don’t Regulus.” Barty says. “We figured about you and him anyway. You’re hurt, let him play white night.” 

“Listen to Crouch Jr. Let me help.” James says. 

Regulus is in no state to take care of himself, so he has to agree. He leans on James’ shoulder the whole way back. 

“I would’very carried you, Ya’know.”

“.‘Ya’know’ That never  never would have happened.” Regulus said. 

“At least he only hit my face once..” Regulus laughs and then winces. 

“I swear to God, Regulus. This is what I’m strong for. Let me carry you.” 

“Absolutely not!” 

“non sono una coppia carina?” Remus whispers to Barty. 

“Sì, è disgustoso.”  Barty whispers back, laughing quietly after. 

“Stop talking about me and James, I understand Italian you know, idioti.”

“It’s cute you all the language together.” James smiles. 

Remus smiles fondly. home.

Barty grins. “Yeah. We’re like brothers. So James, or prongs as your friends call you. You hurt Reggie, and I will throw you so far into the lake that your heart will actually become the Size of it from being torn apart. Understood?” 

“BARTY!” Regulus exclaims, but winces. 

This stops James from replying instead aiding to Regulus. “Almost there now, Amor.” 

“I’ll take that as a yes!” Barty cackles. 

Remus flicks Barty behind the ear. “Shut up, idiota.”

“Fine, I’ll let them have their cute moment.” 

“Atta boy.” 

Brothers.

While in the infirmary James cracks jokes, gets food, and is overall so loving to Regulus. 

“You’re okay.” He repeats to Regulus over and over in that soft voice of his. 

Poppy comes out. “Okay Regulus I’m going to keep you here for one or tell nights.” She smiles warmly, placing a cup of tea on the side table. 

“McGonagall has called mulciber’s parents. I asure you, he will be punished.”

doubt it. Remus thinks miserably. 

“She’ll talk to you in the morning about it.” She turns to Barty and Remus. “Sorry boys, but non relationship partners or non family have to leave.” 

She turns to Regulus and James. “I assume you and Him are-”

“Together yes. I need to stay with him, please.” James says immediately. 

Regulus’ faces glows a very bright shade of Ruby red. 

Poppy smiles at them. 

“Thank you, Poppy.” He does his best to give her a warm smile as he leave the infirmary. 

Remus goes back to his dorm. Sirius isn’t there. Remus stares at his wall. 

He swallows. He wonders why Sirius did it. To Regulus, his baby brother. 

Theres a  note tape-ed on Sirius bed. 

Out for a bit, if you so happen to actually come back tn. 

-S

Talk about vague. 

Remus rolls his eyes, he didn’t feel like sleeping anyway.

He walks out the dorm avoiding Filch as he heads to the filth floor, astronomy tower. 

He walks up  the stairs, pushing the door open. He goes to the fence and climbs on the roof. 

He looks and someone’s there. 

He’d never seen anyone up here other than a stuck first year a few years ago. 

“Bonjour, Reggie, Je-” It’s Sirius fucking Black. 

“Are you talking to yourself but to your brothers star? Also you do know you can’t do that in October, right?” 

His voice makes Sirius jump. “Yes I know!” Sirius says straightening himself straight up. “M’not a idiot.” 

“Since when do you not pronounce all of your letters perfectly?” Remus asks sitting next to him. 

“Why would I? Don’t like the fuckers that taught me that anyways..” 

Remus raises an eyebrow at him. 

He slumps down on the roof. “Is Regulus okay, I didn’t know he’d be so upset, I thought he was jus-” Sirius sighs and shakes his head. 

They sit in silence. 

Remus feels the need to hum something, it being too quiet. 

He chooses ‘I was all over her’ by salvia palth.

“Are you humming?” Sirius asks after a while. 

“Mhm.” 

“S’calming.” Sirius says. Remus turns his head over to Sirius. 

His eyes glistening in the light of the moonlight. Sirius’ face is turned now so Remus can't see it properly but he's still gorgeous, he glows in the moonlight, it had to be the most beautiful Remus has ever seen Sirius, it makes him not want to hate the moon as much as he does.

Sirius’ hair is blowing ever so softly in the wind, matching the smoke from his cigarette. Remus can see one of Sirius’ eyes.

They also glow with the moonlight somehow. He's just so pretty. Sirius eyes are this unreal shade of blue, which is odd because none of the black family have eyes that blue. All of their eyes are grey. But Sirius’ they make Remus want to stare at them for ages.

It's not even just that about Sirius that makes Remus drawn to him, he's incredibly funny and smart (although he doesn't have the best reputation for that, he just doesn't do his work). And just he has this thing about him that makes Remus want to kiss him.

Remus blinks at himself. What is he thinking. 

He stops humming. “Why’d you stop?” Sirius asks.  Remus starts to sing ‘Heavy focus.’ By Adrianna Lenker. Sirius seems to ease up a bit. 

Remus chuckles lightly, staring back at him. They stay like that for a while, just looking under the perfect moonlight. “Why'd you come out here?” Sirius asks after a while. 

“Didn’t fancy sleeping.” Remus says simply. 

“Oh. Neither.” 

“Saw your note.” 

“Didn’t want you to worry, I suppose.” 

Sirius’ eyes are glowing more than ever, every part of him looking gorgeous in the moonlight. 

“Thanks for coming out here.” Sirius out of the blue. 

Remus wasn’t out here for Sirius per say. But he didn’t think that was what Sirius meant. 

“No worries.” Remus smiles softly at him. 

“what prank did you pull today?” Remus asks, yesterday they seemed to have cooled down. Doing hanging spooky pumpkin heads through the halls -And the main Hall, of course.- with a count down made out of fireworks ‘29 more days!’ 

“Cats again, this time dressed as little ghosts. They ran around like crazy, it was so funny watching Filch run after them.” 

Remus chuckled along with Sirius. 

“What have you got planned for Halloween, then?”

“Pranker never shares his pranks. Especially not with prefects.” 

“You don’t know yet do you!” Remus laughs

Sirius giggles. “Whoopsies!”  

They laugh together and go back to that nice silence, shared together. Remus wonders if he shines as brightly as Sirius does under the moon. 

Sirius basks in the moons attention. 

Remus basks in Sirius’ slight gaze at him.  

Chapter Text

Remus Lupin

October 4th, Monday. 

Having a sad time being back in classes for whatever reason, Remus is distracted. 

“Remus!” Marlene whispers, leaning over. 

“what’s up Marls?” Remus whispers back. 

“Have you seen Ev anywhere?” She asks, taking another scan of the classroom before looking back at Remus. 

“No.. I haven’t.” Remus murmurs. 

He had. In the boys bathrooms on the 7th floor. The bathroom that wasn’t really used since a tragedy a few years back. 

He’d seemingly been crying. Evan had always been bad at hiding, it had surprised Remus greatly seeing him. 

“Awh man, was gonna ask if he wanted to come for the last appointment for my neck tattoo.” 

“I can’t believe you actually did that..”

“It’s only small!” Marlene exclaims quietly. The tattoo was not, ‘Only small’ and was in fact  a - small, ish yes- snake that wrapped around her entire neck. 

It was infact a small snake but it wasn’t a small tattoo in the slightest. 

Remus just shakes his head and goes back to looking through his notes. 

***

Remus walks through the halls, all classes having been done for the day. 

He looks at a clock on the wall as he walks into the next hallway. 

21:53pm.

He sighs to himself. 

He sees Sirius. 

What? 

Sirius is walking outside. Remus has nothing else to do, so he follows him, curious. 

The moonlight as it seems to always do shine on Sirius’ hair. Sirius’ everything. 

Oh Sirius is so beautiful. 

Remus truly doesn’t know where the thoughts have come from, he think vaguely that, maybe, they’ve always been there. 

Remus doesn’t know what that looks like. Love? No crushing. Any of it. 

What does it mean when someone despite them being so horrible you still are, so, so, inlove with them? 

Theres no bad thoughts, no nothing just the glimpses of Sirius’ blue eyes. Those gorgeous ocean like eyes. 

I’ve been watchin’ you for some time

Can’t stop starin’ at those ocean eyes

Burning cities and napalm skies

Fifteen flares inside those ocean eyes

Your ocean eyes

oh he’s just oh. 

Oh. 

oh.

O

H. 

Sirius turns around just as he goes into the Godric Football team locker rooms. 

“Remus?” He breathes out. 

Sirius voice is so  mellifluous  it hurts. Mellifluous in the way he hears the birds sing, except it’s actually a person.

“Sorry!” Remus croaks out, at a lack of better word. 

Sirius stares at him, his head tilts. “Huh? When did you come here?” 

“I came to see what you were up to.” Remus says simply. 

Sirius starts moving towards him slightly. His gaze never leaving Remus’ eyes. 

No fair

You really know how to make me cry

When you gimme those ocean eyes

I’m scared

I’ve never fallen from quite this high

Fallin’ into your ocean eyes

Those ocean eyes

Those ocean eyes, staring at him. 

Remus is normally good at reading people, except he’s never seen that look before. 

Admiration, maybe? Something along those lines. He looks so perfect. Adoring? 

Remus thinks pitifully that maybe he also looks like that. But more pathetic. Staring at Sirius black as if he’s art, the night sky. The sun. 

Sirius looks so.. So something expect instead of debating on words he’s all of them. Gorgeous, beautiful, handsome, pretty, adorable, cute, perfect, perfect oh so perfect. 

He looks like hes out of a dream.

I‘ve been walkin’ through a world gone blind

Can't stop thinkin’ of your diamond mind

Careful creature made friends with time

He left Him lonely with a diamond mind

And those ocean eyes

Remus doesn’t believe in perfect. Expect if it existed it would be Sirius Black. 

Snap out of it. 

Remus thinks

He was mean to your friend, his brother. 

I don- I don’t want to. 

He doesn’t it think miserably. 

Forgiveness is a virtue that Remus Lupin would grant Sirius Black at the drop of a hat.

Sirius was the sun. 

And Remus was looking directly at him. 

Perfect star. 

he looks endlessly beautiful. Like he’s not only the dark night sky, but he’s also wearing it. Because Sirius’ outfits were nothing but who he was. 

No fair

You really know how to make me cry

When you gimme those ocean eyes

I'm scared

I've never fallen from quite this high

Fallin' into your ocean eyes

Those ocean eyes

Remus and Sirius step forward. 

What does that look mean?  Remus questions himself. 

The look being Sirius’ look to him.. 

Or his own look to Sirius? 

He doesn’t understand. He claims to all the time. All lies. But this time maybe it isn’t a lie. Maybe he does understand. 

His hand brush against Sirius’ on purpose. 

Da, da-da, da-da

Da-da-da, da, da

Da, da, da, da, da-da-da-da

Mm

Mm

Mm

A peaceful melody. 

A peaceful melody like the rare warm smile from Sirius. The one that Remus would search for. 

Peaceful. 

Pure peace. 

Pure warmth. 

Pure Sirius. 

A Peaceful Melody. 

Remus hand lands softly on Sirius’ cheek, looking for something in his eyes. 

Sirius nods just slightly. 

And Remus doesn’t understand. But oh, he does. 

Remus kisses Sirius Black. 

He kisses Sirius Black and it’s everything

No fair

You really know how to make me cry

When you gimme those ocean eyes

I’m scared

I’ve never fallen from quite this high

Fallin’ into your ocean eyes

Those ocean eyes

They stay like that for maybe a few seconds. A warm smile on both of their lips, a moment that feels like it should last for ever. 

yes.yes.

Please. 

He’s everything. 

Everything I’ve ever wanted. 

They pull apart, but nothing can take it from them. No one can take it. Not even Remus’ brain. Happy thoughts only. 

“oh.” Sirius says breathlessly. 

“I came here to get something for a prank..” He whispers. “Got something better.” He smiles, that warm peaceful smile. He looks up at Remus. 

“You’re a good kisser.” He says. 

He cheeks light up red. He jumps back a little. “Did I just say that out loud?”

Remus chuckles. 

“Sorry-” Sirius says. “I didn’t mean to make yo- I just.. You looked at me- and- and.. Kissed me!” 

“I did.” Remus smiles, finding a wave of confidence, he walks forward, raising his hand to Sirius cheek again. 

“It wasn’t a mistake?” Sirius asks. 

Remus shakes his head, pulling Remus up gently onto up so he can kiss him again.

And again. 

And again. 

“Sirius can you hurry up with the pran stu-” James starts before he gasps. “OH!” 

They pull apart slightly -Remus still holding Sirius close.- looking at James. 

“Uhm.” Sirius says. 

“Do you mind?” 

James’ cheeks go red. “Sorry didn’t mean to disturb your- uhm.” 

“I'm just gonna go.” 

“Yeah and hurry up.” Sirius says not even waiting until James is gone before pushing himself onto Remus. 

He holds the side or Renus’ neck whilst kissing him. 

Forget the weird prank fireworks. 

fireworks.

This was what they were. 

Sirius Sirius Sirius. 

October 5th, Tuesday. 

The truth was that, Remus had fallen for Sirius Black. 

His cheeks had gone red when the prank the next day was more half hearted than anything. 

“I wonder if Sirius has someone new he’s with!” A third year girl said. 

“Hmm maybe a new debutant?” another one said. 

“I heard they’re losing their prank touch!” a boy in the same year as Remus said. 

“I like romantic comedy better.” Another boy said, uninterested. 

“I think it’s a load of crap.” Regulus said on his and Remus’ way to breakfast. 

He turned on Remus. “It”s you.”

“Oh great so prongs told on us then.” 

“You brotherfucker!” He exclaims quietly. 

“Oi. We did not ‘fuck’ we kissed a few times and talked.”

“Talked?” Regulus scoffs. 

“WHO talks on their first date?”

“Technically it was our second date. And it wasn’t a date. I was trying to catch him in the middle of prank.”

Regulus rolls his eyes and they continue walking. 

“Wait what was your first?”

Remus just smiles. “Doesn’t count either really.”

“Bullshit. Tell me the truth!” 

“It was just talking on the astronomy tower roof. Not a date now, I want breakfast so let's go.” 

Remus was surprised at how supportive Regulus was about the whole thing. He’d thought he’d at least be a little mad. 

As they get into the mainhall Sirius and James get up on their tables. 

“TIME TO PROVE OURSELVES PRONGS!” Sirius exclaims. 

“OH YEAH. SORRY FOR THE ‘LAME’ PRANK AS YOU ALL WERE CALLING IT EARLIER. BUT WE HAVE SOMETHING ELSE IN STORE!” 

Mary was shaking her head. Lily had her head in her hands, and Peter was practically rolling around on the floor in his laughter. 

Sirius and James began to sing the worst rendition of ‘California gurls’ Remus had ever heard in his life. 

“Greetings loved ones, Let's take a journey!” James starts and the whole hall’s attention is on the them and the purposeful bad singing. 

“I know a place,  Where the grass is really greener,  Warm, wet, and wild,  There must be somethin' in the water! ” Sirius continues, swishing his hair up and down as he walks along the table, knocking cups and candles over. 

McGonagall seems to have giving up. Her own hand whacking the top of her forehead. 

“Sippin’ gin and juice Layin’ underneath the palm trees!” James sings, his voice getting worse. “(undone)” Sirius chants “The boys break their necks. Tryin' to creep a little sneak peek!”

“(at us)!”

“You could travel the world. But nothing comes close to the golden coast. Once you party with us. You'll be fallin’ in love! Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!” James is dancing -And singing- like a crazy person. 

Sirius swings around going back towards James belting the lines; “California girls, we're unforgettable. Daisy Dukes, bikinis on top! Sun-kissed skin, so hot We’ll melt your popsicle! Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!”

Batty is laughing his head off, actually rolling around on the floor. Remus finds himself laughing also. 

Regulus is shaking his head fondly at James. 

“California girls, we're undeniable. Fine, fresh, fierce, we got it one lock. West Coast represent. Now put your hands up! Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!” James sings, trying not to laugh in between verses. 

“Sex!” Sirius starts

 “(sex)” James achos

“on the beach! We don’t mind sand in our stilettos. We freak in my Jeep. Snoop Doggy Dogg on the stereo, oh-oh!”  Sirius says now doing different crazy dances every 5seconds.

Lily Evans is actually laughing so hard it looks like she’s choking. 

“You could travel the world!”

“(you could travel the world)!”

“But nothing comes close to the golden coast! Once you party with us!”

“(once you party with us)!”

“You'll be fallin’ in love!”

“Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh!” A lot of people start singing along with the verses now. 

“California girls, we're unforgettable!”

“(California)!” most people shout along with James here

“Daisy Dukes, bikinis on top!”

“Sun-kissed skin, so hot!”

“We’ll melt your popsicle!”

“Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!” everyone sings along.

“California girls!”

“(California!),”

“we’re undeniable!”

“Fine, fresh, fierce, we got it one lock!”

“West Coast represent!”

“(West Coast)!”

“Now put your hands up!” everyone does. 

“Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!” it's like being at a busy concert. 

Everyone’s throwing there arms up and singing through laughs. 

“Toned, tanned, fit, and ready!”

“Turn it up ‘cause it's gettin’ heavy!” 

“Wild, wild West Coast!”

“These are the girls I love the most!”

“I mean the ones, I mean like she’s the one!” 

“Kiss her, touch her, squeeze her buns!”

“(uh)!”

James and Sirius are dancing like wild people whilst everyone else is scrambling to keep up. 

Sirius and James also seemed to have lost the plot of what they were doing as they mix up lines with each other, sing at the same time and are just overall James and Sirius so maybe it's normal. 

“The girl's a freak, she drives a Jeep!” 

“And live on the beach!”

“I'm okay, I won't play!”

“I love the Bay just like I love L.A!”

“Venice Beach and Palm Springs!”

“Summertime is everyday!” 

Mary and lily have actually joined them causing James to shout a ‘YES EVANS AND MACDONALDS!”  Before continuing. 

“Homeboys bangin’ out!”

“All that ass hangin’ out!”

“Bikinis, zucchinis, martinis, no weenies!” 

“Just a king and a queenie”

“SIRIUS,” James sings instead of ‘Katy’. “my lady?” 

“(Yeah?)”

“Look here, baby!”

“(uh-huh)!”

“I’m all up on ya!”

“. ‘Cause you're representin’ California!”

“(oh-oh, yeah)”

‘OH, OH, YEAH!’ they chant back. 

“California girls, we're unforgettable!”

“Daisy Dukes, bikinis on top!”

“Sun-kissed skin, so hot!”

“We'll melt your popsicle!”

“Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!”

“(come on, come on)!”

“California girls, we’re undeniable!”

“Fine, fresh, fierce, we got it one lock!”

“West Coast represent!”

“(West Coast, West Coast)!”

“Now put your hands up!”

All hands are up. Remus even sees someone with a spoon of yogurt in the air(which does fall down). 

“(ayy, ayy)!”

“Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh-oh-oh!”

“California girls, man!”

“(California girls)!” 

“(California)!”

“(California girls)!”

They take a moment breath. “WELL THANKS HOGWARTS! MAYBE NEXT TIME WE’LL SING PROPERLY!” Sirius exclaims sitting back down on his chair. 

Mary, Lily and James also get down and they all started chatting happily. 

It’s changed drastically in the last few weeks. But Remus thinks it might just be the most welcome change of all. 

“THAT WAS EPIC!” Batty exclaims as they sit down. 

“HELLO YEAH!” Marlene says. 

Remus looks over to Sirius, who, a second later look back at him. 

A very welcome change.