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Day in the Devildom. Dark as always, huh…? After all these times here I was already able to get accustomed to the lack of sun here. And I'm not feeling bad about it? I'm literally living here now. I'm not going to the Human world that often. And since there's no sun, shouldn't I lack vitamin D? I'm not paler than before. I'm not getting sick. I'm just feeling okay. I never felt like something was wrong. So I never needed to quickly go back home.
But… isn't House of Lamentation my home now? Brothers would be offended if I would tell them that this is not my home.. hm.. especially Asmo… and maybe Levi? And Belphie… Beel probably would be sad… Satan too… Mammon? He would be playing like he doesn't care. And Lucifer? I don't know how to feel about it… Lucifer would say he's okay… probably… but knowing him? He would be either annoyed or a little sad. But he won't tell anyone. You could tell that he's annoyed, because he's scolding Mammon even more than always. And I know when he's normal and when something is wrong with him. Even if he hates to admit it.
I… really want to say that the House of Lamentation is my Home. I will always think about this place like that.
I don't have more in the Human world than here - in Devildom.
The World up was my place for so many years. Then I suddenly showed up. And that changed. This is my place… I promised them I won't be leaving. They'll be sad if I broke that promise.
I needed to go a few times. And both them and I were… almost devastated.
Why are demons better than humans?
Why do I feel better with them?
They're so nice and soft. Shouldn't they be the ones who are created to only feel sins? Shouldn't I be tempted by them? Tempted to be sinning. But they're not like that. They're… showing love. Their love for me… They said they love me so much…
How was I even able to get love of The Seven Rulers?
And why are they more pure than humans?
"Do you really think we're pure? Hmph…”
“MC, what are ya… you… why you–”
“Y-You promised me! W-why you're now…–!”
“... Why did you say something like that…? Before…, you said something different…”
“... But… You said… Tell me you're joking… Please…”
“You…said that you're not going anywhere…”
“You said you won't leave!”
I didn't meant to–
“We're demons, MC. Thinking about us like that is ridiculous. You're too innocent. But also… you did it. I'm not taking responsibility for what'll happen now. If it's me or my brothers. You're the one who broke the promise.”
What– But I–.
That hurts…
I'm sorry–
I didn't meant to–
I wanted to say–
I love yo–
What happened?
Why are you like that?
You're scaring me…
“Unfair? No, that's not. Love's never clean. Do you know what addiction is? The more sweet Demonus is, the more you want. Especially for our kind. And you? You accepted us. You're not finding a way out now.”
What have I done? I don't know… is that so bad? But I never told them that I'm going back… I never told them that I won't be living with them… I have never done anything like that…
I was told to go back so I can rest. So I can train a little more magic with Solomon. So I can do more than I can do now. I can't do anything at all with the powers I have. Only when someone is with me to tell me what to do.
And that's why I was about to meet with Solomon.
But they think I'm going back. So I'll live in the human world. Because they think that I'll be leaving them.
I promised them that I'm not leaving. I'm with them. Like I want and like they always wanted.
They were always so nice. I love them all. But… Why are they acting completely differently now?
It's my first time when I can actually feel fear, when they're like that...
Everyone said… that'll be better to leave them for some time. Because they're not acting normally. Because they're just angry and sad. They said to give them some space so they'll get accustomed to the fact that I'll be gone.
But they're not letting me out at all… I can't go…
And they're… scary now…
They're thinking I'll be gone completely. They're clinging around. Tying to my body like ropes. To hold me in place. Their place. So I'm not able to disappear from here.
And they're telling me that I promised I'll stay with them. That I'll forever be there. I'll never leave them like that. Because they can't live without me now… well… I never wanted to leave… but I started thinking… What happened to them? Should I really go somewhere so they'll go back to normal? So they'll calm down and realize that I'll be gone only for a few days?
They were once raging already… so suddenly… and now, they're just like that. But they have their minds clear this time.
When I needed to run from them before, there was only one demon who was getting crazy. And we needed to help him.
Right now, they're all like that…
Should I run away or just stay in my place…?
Some will tell me that I should hide from them. And not appear before the end of their crazy phase.
But… that was the reason for them to be like that…
I know that… they're demons, and I am just a human…
But…
No matter how scared I'll be.. no matter how much I'll tremble. How much I'll want to run away… or just hide somewhere… I'm not leaving them… until they know that completely…
My fault… because I made them think I may be gone…
That was my fault. Of not knowing what Demon's love looks like.