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“I think I’d miss you forever, like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky.”
— “Summertime Sadness” (Lana Del Rey)

Tsukasa’s alarm blared from his side table, waking him up with a jolt.

“Oh crap! What time is it?” He exclaimed, sitting up so fast his head spun, glancing at his alarm before turning it off.

“6 pm already? It sure hasn’t felt that long…”

His thoughts trailed off, leaving him confused for a second. Weird, he couldn’t remember anything at all before waking up. The only thing he remembered was that Saki had gone for a sleepover at Ichika’s house with the rest of her bandmates. He tried harder to remember, squeezing his eyes shut but coming up empty. He tried it again. Did he go to a coffee shop with Emu yesterday? Shopping with Len and Rin? He was in his school uniform, maybe that could help? He checked his phone for the date, Sunday? That was weird. Why would he be in his school uniform 2 days after school? He scanned his room, hoping to see something that might hint at anything that had happened before he slept. But he came up empty, with only more frustration. Eventually, he gave up and decided to get something to eat first.

After pacing around the kitchen for a while, he settled on making ginger-fried pork. He couldn’t cook as well as Saki, but of course he still knows how to make his favourite dish. After meticulously working around the kitchen for a short bit, He placed the food on the small coffee table, then sat down on the sofa, pulling one of Saki’s gigantic plushies close and getting comfortable. He scrolled on his phone for a few minutes before getting bored and turning on the TV, sifting through various channels before settling on a musical. While eating, he decided to message Saki to check up on her. He also looked through his chats, hoping to find some clues about his situation, and expecting to see Emu spamming everyone in the group chat, but it was empty. In fact, everything was empty. All his chats, just - gone.

“What in the world?”

He was starting to panic, not being able to remember anything was already worrying enough, now his life had basically been erased? This can’t possibly be real. And now that he was looking around more carefully, he noticed things that had slipped through his mind before, but were wholly unnatural. It was completely silent except for the TV still blaring in the background. He peered through the windows, hoping to see someone or any sort of life form outside, but was greeted with utter darkness. It was the kind of black that seemed to swallow everything in its presence—an impossible darkness, like an endless void. A chill crept down his spine; it suddenly felt like the room temperature had just dropped double digits into the negatives. He tried to contain his growing fear and anxiety, hoping it was just a bad dream, but he couldn't help the doubts that clouded his mind.

He had to check, even if it cost him his fragile hope that all this wasn’t real. Just as he was about to open his front door, a loud shattering, followed by a crash, came from upstairs. He froze with his hand still on the door handle, sheer panic coursing through him. All sorts of unpleasant thoughts ran through his mind, each one worse than the last. The sound of footsteps thumping down the stairs snapped him out of his thoughts. He couldn’t decide between hiding or just making a mad dash out of the house into whatever was waiting for him outside. But before he could decide, a figure emerged from the shadows of his hallway—a very familiar one.

His mouth opened and closed without being able to make a sound; for once, the star was stunned speechless. The two stared at each other, one shocked and one mildly amused.

“…Rui?” Tsukasa managed to squeak out his name after what felt like an eternity of silence.

Rui smiled at him, bowing slightly. The gesture unnerved Tsukasa; it seemed so... practiced and unnatural.

“Here you are, Tsukasa, I’ve finally found you.” Rui's voice was gentle, almost warm, but Tsukasa didn’t miss the faint edge of a threat.

“What are you…” Tsukasa’s voice trailed off as a million questions ran through his head.

“Don’t worry, you’re safe here with me,” Rui spoke calmly. Tsukasa almost believed it. Wanted to believe it, in fact. In this realm of confusion and chaos, Rui’s familiar presence was like an anchor, helping him remain sane. But there was something very wrong about his existence at this moment. Like an oddity he couldn’t quite place his finger on.

“Who are you?” Tsukasa asked, cautiously taking a step back. To his dismay, Rui took a step forward, still maintaining eye contact with him.

Rui tilted his head in mock confusion.

“Whatever do you mean by that? I’m Rui, of course.” Tsukasa glared at him.

“No, you’re not. You broke into my house, and the Rui I know wouldn’t do that.” Tsukasa snapped. Although he knew it wasn’t smart to get angry at someone who just broke into his house and was possibly armed, it’s not like things could get much worse than this. Right?

“You break my heart, darling,” Rui said, frowning, pressing a hand to his chest in feigned hurt. Tsukasa scoffed, expression faltering as a faint glint from Rui’s pocket caught his eyes, something Rui was trying to hide. Dread pooled in his stomach; the meal he’d just eaten threatened to come back up. No way. No. No. No. Rui could never. But was this even the Rui he knew? Calm down, Tsukasa. It could be... he failed to think of anything that Rui could want to hide from him. Okay, Plan B: distract him and run.

“Why are you here?” Tsukasa asked carefully, afraid Rui might’ve noticed what he saw.

“Why? For you, of course. I’ve missed you so much.” Rui replied with a smirk. The sincerity was laughable.
He took a tender step backwards, then another, never breaking eye contact with Rui. Rui, on the other hand, appeared relaxed like nothing was wrong. Like breaking into someone’s house was normal. While pondering his thoughts, Tsukasa unfortunately didn’t notice Rui pulling the dagger out of his pocket. By the time he realized, it was too late.

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"I had all and then most of you, some and now none of you."
— "The Night We Met” (Lord Huron)

Tsukasa spun to run, but Rui was faster. Rough fingers tangled in his hair, yanking him backward. The cold dagger pressed against his throat as Rui’s other arm locked around his waist, pinning him against the taller man’s chest. Tsukasa gasped, struggling, but Rui’s faint smile only widened.

“Eep!” Tsukasa cried out, his hands instinctively reaching up to grab at Rui’s sleeves in an attempt to bring the weapon farther away from his throat.
In response, Rui pressed the blade closer against Tsukasa’s throat, a warning to stop his futile attempt at struggle. It worked—a little bit. Tsukasa’s vicious kicking died down to occasional squirms in Rui’s grip.

“Good boy, I really don’t want to hurt you. Yet.” Rui whispered the last part to himself, grin widening to resemble that of a Cheshire cat. He undid his tie and wrapped it around Tsukasa’s hands, which twisted weakly in protest. Rui then proceeded to drag Tsukasa across the living room back to the couch, where he laid the still struggling star down, and little did he know, it would be for forever.

“What do you want from me?!” Tsukasa tried to keep his voice steady, but he couldn’t stop it from cracking at the end.

“I just want to…show you some love~” Rui purred, gently stroking his soft blond hair, an action that brought both comfort and unease to the star.
“Now then, the real fun starts.” Rui chuckled darkly, an ominous sound that made Tsukasa shiver.

Nothing Tsukasa imagined Rui might do could have prepared him for what followed.

Rui unbuttoned Tsukasa’s cardigan slowly, making sure the boy underneath him could see and understand his intentions. Realization dawned on Tsukasa, slowly first, and then all at once. That seemed to help him regain some of the fight he lost earlier, when Rui had a blade pointed at his throat. He started struggling more against his binds, kicking his legs blindly until he heard a loud thump, causing the purple-haired boy to grunt and jerk back.

“Alright, that’s enough outta you!” Rui hissed through clenched teeth, hand rubbing the spot where he had been kicked.

Tsukasa saw it before he felt it. Red. Then the pain hit him like a truck. He screamed, tears that had threatened to fall before now flowing freely. Blood dripped steadily from his upper thigh, where Rui had sunk his dagger, down onto the couch and the carpet below, staining everything crimson.
Meanwhile, Rui watched, awestruck. He never thought someone crying could be so pretty, but oh, Tsukasa, his heart ached for him. And that scream, delicious, music to his ears. All these sensations had blood rushing straight to his dick. Taking advantage of Tsukasa’s shock, he leaned in and roughly kissed him, effectively silencing the blonde as well. And oh, did the star taste as good as he looked. Essence as divine as that of an angel’s, he could very well be one. Tsukasa whimpered underneath him; he was rapidly losing blood, and the wound hurt like a bitch whenever he moved.

Aroused and painfully hard, Rui sped up his actions of undressing Tsukasa, enjoying the way the blonde squirmed whenever his fingers made contact with his skin. He pulled back his dress shirt, pausing to admire Tsukasa’s slender body, how fragile and perfect it looked, as if the slightest touch could break it. Rui traced a finger down the star’s trembling chest, stopping at the waistband and gently tugging at it before peeling it off. Tsukasa shivered as the cold air caressed his body down to the core.

“Rui, please… You don’t have to do this.” Tsukasa pleaded desperately, searching for the Rui he knew and respected so much. But he was met with an empty gaze filled only with lust and need.

Rui's hands found their way down to Tsukasa’s half-hard dick and gently stroked it. He chuckled a little, noticing the little blush on Tsukasa, then moved his hands farther down to his hole. Rui pulled the dagger out of the star’s thigh, bringing it to his upper torso, where he slit the poor boy’s stomach open. Tsukasa cried out, jerking violently. All this pain and blood was making him dizzy and nauseous. Rui dipped his fingers inside Tsukasa’s stomach, coating it with his blood. Then he spread it onto his hole and slipped a finger in, making the blonde gasp. He continued thrusting into him, eventually adding another finger.

“Is this your first time, darling? Loosen up a little, you’re going to snap my fingers off.” Rui chuckled at his own joke (rather dark, aren’t you, Rui?).

Rui pulled his fingers out with a satisfying squelch, looking down at Tsukasa with sadistic pleasure, drinking in the sight of his star, bleeding and crying. He quickly undressed himself and threw his clothes onto the ground. Tsukasa cried harder, begging Rui to stop, but he ignored him and pushed his dick into his tight hole with one quick thrust. Tsukasa squirmed and cried, but Rui grabbed his waist with one hand and wrapped the other around his throat, cutting off his cries and sobs.

“Stop, Rui! Please, this is too much,” Tsukasa barely managed to choke out. “You must have had enough by now.”

“Oh, my innocent little star... this is far from enough for me. Now lie back and enjoy the moment,” Rui laughed, darkly.

Rui answered him after slowing down his thrusting to an awful slowness, which made Tsukasa cry out a little. The contact caused a wave of nausea to hit Tsukasa, disorienting him. His stomach lurched, and he threw up inside his mouth, gagging and choking on the vomit. Rui watched the blonde's body convulse and jerk, feeling his hole tighten, almost painfully, onto his dick. Wet choking noises filled the room, but not for long. Rui tilted Tsukasa’s head to the side, making sure the vomit was able to spill out. Tsukasa could feel his consciousness slipping, eyes rolling to the back of his head. Rui smiled when he saw his beloved star pass out. Then he whispered into his ear,

“Don’t worry, my love, I promise to take care of you while you sleep, I'll be as gentle as I can…for a few seconds”

Rui immediately started thrusting back into Tsukasa. He started slow, the blood blending with the slick, turning the mixture light pink. But then he picked up the pace and started brutally ramming into him, chasing his own pleasure. Tsukasa shifted in his sleep, letting out soft moans and whines. Rui moved faster, just barely holding back from tearing Tsukasa's asshole, and Tsukasa’s little whimpers didn't help at all with it; it only made Rui more turned on. Rui then moved his left hand off Tsukasa’s waist and onto his dick, simultaneously stroking Tsukasa’s dick, while thrusting into him furiously, trying to make them both climax at the same time. Sweat dripped down Rui’s neck; he was getting close to his release. Then, in one quick, aggressive thrust, he came inside Tsukasa, gasping and hunched over the blonde. Rui’s eyes wandered up and down the star’s body, stopping at his dick. He had a brilliant idea.

Rui stuck his tongue out, his eyes fixed on his dick, still sweaty and disheveled. He licked Tsukasa's dick, determined to make Tsukasa cum unconsciously. He smirked when he heard Tsukasa moan softly from the contact and noticed how his hips bucked up a little, trying to get more of whatever it had felt before.

“Now, now, don't get so impatient, my star.. But if it's what you want, I'll gladly give it to you~”

Rui moved his face closer to Tsukasa’s dick and trailed his tongue along it, making sure his saliva was all over it. He took out his dagger and made small incisions on Tsukasa’s inner thighs, watching the blood seep and trickle onto his hand. He took his star’s dick in one swift motion, feeling it hit the back of his throat, and started moving up and down. He applied a bruising pace to his thrusts. Rui moaned deeply as he moved, and his hand found its way down to his dick. He gave his own dick a few strokes before becoming as hard as Tsukasa's dick. Tsukasa started to breathe harder. Rui could tell that he was about to cum, and in luck, so was he. With a few more sloppy thrusts, Tsukasa finally came. Rui swallowed all of it, adoring the taste of his beloved star. Rui stroked himself harder and came all over Tsukasa's unconscious body.

Rui lay down next to Tsukasa, now entirely drained and content. He pulled Tsukasa closer to himself, cuddling with his star and caressing his mango-colored hair.

“Oh, Tsukasa, you are just absolutely perfect to me. I will make sure you stay with me now. After all, you can only have me...” he chuckled to himself and kissed his star again, for the last time, finding peace amongst the darkness that enveloped both of them, and slowly closed his eyes, falling asleep next to Tsukasa's cold body.