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  1. Falka_tyan on Chapter 4 Tue 17 Jul 2018 02:25PM UTC

    This is so toxic and confusing. Rai does have Konoe's interests at heart, and yet, it's so wrong at the same time, that he considers his own wishes above all else

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    1. SonicoSenpai on Chapter 4 Tue 17 Jul 2018 04:01PM UTC

      Murderous Joy by foxyladycpz

      Thanks for you comments. I haven’t re-read this lately, and crap—this is probably their worst relationship—even worse than the slave/owner in broken spirit.

      If you can stand it, keep reading. I wanted to show improvements between them, and reading this is very different than the gift-fuc (lol) I did separately. Konoe does get more power—eventually. But I wanted to show Rai as a pirate ship captain, ruthless, demanding, and yes, he considers Konoe “his”—and not like “his person.”

      Overall, if you look at this relationship, it’s probably the darkest of mine, bc of this toxicity and absolute lack of consent or power.

      I have to admit, re-reading that belting scene makes me want to cringe, and ALSO really makes me want to write an entire fic from Rai’s POV. I have a few chapters like this, but I don’t ever identify as the abuser—writing this scene was an insane power trip.

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      1. Falka_tyan on Chapter 4 Tue 17 Jul 2018 04:10PM UTC

        You're welcome!
        "re-reading that belting scene makes me want to cringe" - why exactly?
        I don't feel a power trip when I describe an abuser. Or do I? I feel it when I write a consensual relationship and someone gets the consent to bit the shit out of their partner. Oh. It makes sense! I haven't written abuser's POV's, as far as I can remember, I just don't know what I'd feel) I only write victim's POV, I guess

        "it’s probably the darkest of mine" - and who'd expect, after Broken Spirit and Castle Walls) Actually, Broken Spirit is similar, but, at the same time, there's no such amount of magic. Behind the Castle Walls looks fairly healthy in comparison, if it's Rai/Konoe))

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        1. SonicoSenpai on Chapter 4 Wed 18 Jul 2018 12:46AM UTC

          Murderous Joy by foxyladycpz

          Crap--I was replying on my phone and forgot to send it earlier today. :) Sorry--

          I guess I want to cringe because it's a little... well, I don't know. I don't like to write from the abuser's point of view. Your comment--about getting a consensual relationship and having the partner get the shit beat out of them--I get that. But as a survivor, being able to write from the abuser's POV is very, very strange. And when I was writing it, felt powerful. Because when you are a victim, you don't feel any kind of power.

          I guess at the time, I would wonder what I was doing to make my abuser treat me the way he did, rather than realizing he was an abuser and an ass. You know? Being able to write from an abuser's POV makes me feel... I don't know--like I have a fresh start, but super cringy, too, almost like I AM abusing someone, even though Konoe is a fictional character.

          So powerful and cringy at the same time? Does that make sense?

          Their relationship in this fic does get a little better--power-structure-wise, I think. :)

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          1. Falka_tyan on Chapter 4 Wed 18 Jul 2018 08:26PM UTC

            It seems strange indeed but... who knows what is right or wrong for our heads? Our brains are wired so complicatedly. Our choices matter the most)

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