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    He knows Tommy isn't actually buried here, of course. He's not sure where his body is. Probably somewhere around Logstedshire, broken and crumpled amongst the yellowing grass. If he wasn't a coward, maybe he would've looked for him, brought him here. If he was a better friend, maybe he wouldn't have had to.

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    Tubbo holds a private funeral.

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    Tommy has been here multiple times, whether to just chill or actually consider dying, which is the more usual.
    He comes across a few people that also wants to off themselves, but manages to make them climb back over the railing of the building, despite wanting to be there himself.

    Until he really just cant take it anymore.

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    "Tubbo is falling, but it's all wrong. Because instead of gliding down, he’s being ripped apart. And his vision is purple, the color of a nether portal, and he’s surrounded by purple, and the sky is not supposed to be purple.

    He can feel himself being pulled apart, ripped into shreds, and it feels so wrong, yet it dosn’t hurt. His consciousness is tugged and pulled and scattered into millions of little particles, and the air- at least it should be air- around him is thick and syrupy and surrounds him like a net. The fabric of time and reality is folding around him, bending to fit his shape perfectly."

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    Or, Tubbo accidentally breaks reality and ends up on the Hermitcraft server, even though all he really wanted was to die. Surprisingly, people there seem to like him a little bit.

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    At midnight, in approximately seven minutes, Tubbo would jump off the roof of the wall hotel and end his life. The hotel's owner doesn't really agree with that plan too much.

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    “So you want to form an alliance based off survival.” He stated.

    “Yes.”

    Tubbo looked at Fit and Pac, then at the two kids. Then, he made his decision.

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    Since the apocalypse began, Tubbo had preferred to be alone. Especially after a certain experience.

    But then he accidentally saves a group of survivors, and now they're adamant about keeping him from getting hurt.

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    With his son in his arms and nothing but the armour and clothes on his back, Tubbo is trapped in a world he'd thought long gone, with familiar black walls instead of ruins, laughter in the air instead of gunpowder and smoke, and the hope of a second chance thrumming under his skin. He's not going to throw this chance away, not when Tommy was here, not when he was happy and safe- not when he had a chance to win this war for them, whether they knew they were fighting it yet or not.

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    Or, Tubbo would say it was an accident if anyone asked. He'd say that and he'd spin this whole story about how it had happened and how much he regretted it and how he really didn't mean to-! But that wouldn't be the truth.

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    Or, or, c!Tubbo from Snowchester ends up in the past with Michael after the nukes go off and destroy the server. Once he realizes where they are, he decides he's not going to let any of the war and grief and loss happen. Not again. Not when he was given a second chance.

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    “So what’s new? Are you getting settled? Are things good?” Puffy immediately started questioning him. “You know, you have to talk to me. You can’t just give me silent treatment here.”

    Tubbo still didn’t look up from the red and white bracelet Tommy gave him.

    “I made new friends here.”

    “Really? In the mental hospital?”

    “Yeah, you got a problem with that?”

    Or:

    Duo to his dad’s horrible passing (which he refuses to talk about) and amazingly downfall of his mental health, Tubbo can say he was rushed to the nearest mental hospital by his aunt. He never knew his life could get any worse.

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    When Fred is gone, Tubbo feels numb again. He has done nothing wrong and yet somehow he is to be blamed for everything. Love is death and it kills two birds with one stone.
    “It just sucks, man,” he tells Fit. The sky outside is dark. Stars twinkle with hope and Tubbo wishes he could be one, like he was when Phil flew them to safety.
    Fit puts an arm around his shoulder and squeezes him closer. “It’s okay, Tubbo,” he says. “You’re gonna see him again.”

     

    or; qtubbo and how he loves

    or or; qtubbo has consumed my life Help

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    A collection of works for the FFL Alltober challenge! Expect almost every fandom I’ve ever written for and one or two that I haven’t, extremely self indulgent little scenes and ideas that come to me based on prompts! I’ll list the specifics in the chapter titles and summaries :]

    Happy Alltober!

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    (A sequel to 'The Night Tubbo Tried (And Failed Spectacularly) To Kill Himself))

    So, maybe things didn't go the way he wanted. Maybe, instead of being a strange new stain on the pavement in front of the Manifold Hotel, Tubbo was sitting in Tommy Danger Kraken Innit Watson's living room, waiting for his best friend to arrive to chew him out for almost going skydiving with a backpack. And maybe, when his friend does get there, Tubbo will have to face the biggest struggle he's ever had--worse than the absent father, the singular friend in another town, and even the suicide attempt; making a friend.

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    hiraeth
    /ˈhɪərʌɪθ/
    noun
    (especially in the context of Wales or Welsh culture) deep longing for something, especially one's home.

    Where

    Tubbo Schlatt, a Broken soul, he was sure he was broken beyond repair, the constant feeling that he he had a part of him missing from him ever since, his mom left, ever since his brother left, ever since his boyfriend broke up with him. The numbness and Emptiness had started getting too much.
    To cope with this, Tubbo starts writing letters to his love.
    Or
    Where Tubbo Schlatt feels heartache for the first time.

     

    (This is set in an alternative Universe, Highschool au, Let me know if any of them are uncomfortable with these type of works, I'll take it down, if you don't like it, simply don't read.)

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    Tubbo didn't have much to live for anymore, with a best friend living a city away, a dad always drunk off his ass, and a mom so dead that even her grave was rotting. So, as one does, he plans to take a nice dive off the roof of Manifold Hotel.

    Except, who the fuck is this kid, and why does he know Ranboo?

    (This is potentially going to be part of a series, so we'll see how this goes)

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    TWs: Swearing, alcohol, death
    More TWs will be showcased at the top of each page

    Alone.
    Tubbo was alone.
    Was he ever not alone?
    Maybe, who knows.
    His father is an alcoholic bastard
    His biological mother is dead
    His step-mother ran away
    His friends seem to not care

    He wishes someone understood.

     

    However, not every wish people make comes true.

     

     

     

    Not every wish.

     

     

     

    (My account was originally on WattPad, so if you find this there, that was my acc :D)

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    aka the fic where cTubbo gets isekaed to Double Life and tried to go back home with the help of his new pals, however said pals may or may not be as deranged as him

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    The mansion was too big
    Tubbo finally finished moving in after he had made sure Michael was safe
    He thought it was just the emptiness that made it so lonely he was right but it wasn't the emptiness he thought it was
    It was the lack of his family, the people he had had the house built for not being there and the only proof they had ever been there with empty rooms and spaces where they used to be
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    I was sad one night and made this (my depression is useful sometimes)

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    What does life mean to me?

    Well, it’s like a mountain you want to climb for some sort of reward. Fame, fortune, love, you name it.

    The mountain keeps growing higher and higher into the clouds. Everyone wants to reach the top but it’s not going to be an easy hike. The road will wind and you'll lose friends along the way. Falling rocks are inevitable and wild animals are around every corner. Once you get to the top, oxygen gets sparse and the disorienting mist leaves people sightless.

    Eventually, you're bound to fall. But once you fall, who’s going to be there to pick you back up?

    (Takes place in the same universe as If I Walk Away, There's No Turning Back by arcticjaybird. HEED THE TAGS PEOPLE!)

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    "Um.." Ranboo turns his head, dropping it a bit. "Yeah. It's just like that, I guess."

    "You 'guess'?"

    Ranboo shrugs, looking back up at him.

    He is so, so strange.

    Tubbo wants to change the subject, so he takes a leap. "So like, do you always go up to random people and start telling them about animals that kill themselves, or is that just an obscure hobby you have?"

    Ranboo laughs again, and Tubbo can't think of a single explanation as to why it makes him feel as relieved as it does.

    He shrugs again. "I just really like sad animal facts."

     

    or, in which Tubbo spends a lot of time smoking on a bridge over a highway alone, until one night, when somebody sits down next to him.

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    you’re supposed to be the example

    he smiles back. distantly, he thinks ranboo looks like an angel, so bright against the monotony of his life.

    this is not how it ends

    he ascends the ladder.

    in what seems like the next moment, when he is curled into a corner with his hands pressed tightly to his ears because he knows firsthand how loud tnt is and his teeth are clenched to hold back his sobs, an explosion rocks the room and rock comes tumbling around them, burying everything in a thick layer of gray dust.

    and it ends.

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    The plan is simple. Within the next couple of hours, if everything goes right, Thomas Innit will fall off the side of the largest hotel in Essempee. No, not fall; he is going to jump off the edge, finally freeing himself from his lonely existence after fourteen long years of it.

    Unfortunately for him, a few inconvenient encounters on the roof prove to him that dying might just be the hardest thing he's ever tried to accomplish.

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    Big TW for suicide attempt. It is unsuccessful, but that’s the whole point of this fic.
    This was a vent fic! If I’ve crossed a boundary I wasn’t aware of let me know and this will immediately be taken down!
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    The one shot where Tubbo gets away from his abusive father, only to then attempt to off himself. He finds possible friends.

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