Deadbugapplepie
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I still remeber the first fall of snow by Deadbugapplepie
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
30 Sep 2025
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a series of memories surrounding the cold that ellie looks back on as she leaves David
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With the world burning in the background by Deadbugapplepie
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
31 Aug 2025
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What if David got a bit further? Plus the aftermath and hard conversations that Joel and Ellie need to have once he finds her with a new sweater and rippped jeans.
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I laugh like me again (She laughs like you) by Deadbugapplepie
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
31 Jul 2025
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"It felt wrong. To grieve someone she’d never met. A life she had never seen lived. Someone she had no tangible connection to.
It felt wrong. To miss someone who had lived and died all years before she was even born.And yet, Ellie grieved Sarah. "
a series of instances in which Ellie learns about Sarah, and how a bond can be formed even over the barriers of time, death, and an emotionaly constipated father.
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The look of love (The look of loss) by Deadbugapplepie
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
30 Jun 2025
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"He felt an overwhelming sense of gratitude, and vulnerability, and fear, so much fear. At the way she was able to read him like that, the way his walls must be coming down. She didn’t even know about Sarah, didn’t even have the context and still she knew exactly which crevices of his soul the hesitation lay in.
He wondered if she knew, if she suspected, if he seemed like a dad. He doubted she had any idea what a father looked like, so maybe not."TLDR/ Joel has to help Ellie out of a dark place after she sees Henry kill himself. the emotional roller coaster both before and after that
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proof of life (and proof of pain) by Deadbugapplepie
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
31 May 2025
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He didn’t believe in god, but he hated him anyway, how could anyone with that much power simply do nothing as a little girls body got ripped to shreds, as she bled and screamed.
He didn’t know who he was talking about anymore.
or- Joels thought process and all the trauma and guilt and shame that resurfaces that first night after silverlake taking care of Ellie. lots of memories around sarah, lots of sadness and greif basically. enjoy!
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i'll have you know i tried, and tried, and tried, and tried, and now i'm giving up by thesco
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV)
13 Mar 2023
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She wonders if the water will stain if her body lands the right way. If the blood will spray and tinge it pink, or if it’s too large for that. Will they have to drain it? Will her blood become a biohazard, a source of infection that she failed to cure? Maybe the gunshot will scare the frogs and they won’t be seen until next year. How many children will wake up crying like they do with flares and fireworks? How many will hear their first shot, and attend their first funeral?
How many lives will Ellie ruin before she turns sixteen?
[Ellie has a plan. Things don't turn out the way she wants them to.]
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- Part 2 of graveyard etiquette
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15 Jul 2025
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It’s a novelty to work on an art project that Ellie doesn’t have to quickly fold away before it’s ripped up by someone like Bethany. There’s paint in Jackson, and walls and canvases, and more free time than she knows what to do with.
Or: Ellie paints her heroes and villains. Joel gets rare insight into Ellie’s mind.
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- Part 2 of Fish Out of Water
Bookmarked by Deadbugapplepie
15 Jul 2025
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as you cradle my names, i carve out yours by omgahgase
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
21 Mar 2023
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To Ellie, Joel is so unbelievably special. And she wants to level the new territory they’ve found themselves in: Joel calling her every sugarcoated name of endearment under the sun with a voice full of that something neither of them has been able to say.
But Ellie…well.
Ellie doesn’t know what the fuck to call him.
Or: Ellie is one second away from going on a teenage girl rampage because names are hard and thinking of a name for Joel is harder, especially if nothing fucking fits.
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- Part 1 of me and mine
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12 Jul 2025
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used to wish i was anything to anywhere (to anyone) by cardigains for marchflower
Fandoms: The Last of Us (TV), The Last of Us (Video Games)
15 Feb 2024
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“Thank you, baby girl.” Metal hits the ceramic edge of a plate. There’s the squelch of doused french toast being lifted out of a river of syrup, the muffled sounds of chewing. “Been a long time since someone…” Joel clears his throat for like the third time in two minutes. “Imma keep this someplace safe.”
“Whatever, man,” Ellie manages to find her way back to flippant, feeling the twisting, twining thing within her stomach finally beginning to settle, finding that the sugary sweetness is bright and tacky on her tongue. “It’s just some blueprints.”
Joel chews like he’s thinking. Somewhere along the way, Ellie’s learned what it looks like when he’s thinking.
Eventually, he says, “No, it ain’t.”
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or: A little peek into the journey of settling in and becoming a family that's not afraid of titles and the certainty they hold.
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- Part 2 of Next Door Neighbors
Bookmarked by Deadbugapplepie
09 Jul 2025
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hell hath no fury like my father by flannelfeelings
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
23 Aug 2023
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Joel knows FEDRA used corporal punishment, Ellie’s flinched away from enough outstretched hands for him to put that together.
He knows that when they first met, she’d watch him out of the corner of her eye every time he took his belt off before bed. He’d assumed with a small sadness that she was worried for her safety in a different way, more similar to the way she gets nervous around teachers after Silver Lake.
He hadn’t realized that the faded white scars on her back he sometimes sees peeking out of her tank top are from being hit with a belt.
(joel finds out more about ellie’s past once they’re settled in Jackson- and vows to stop at nothing to protect her from it ever happening again)
Bookmarked by Deadbugapplepie
07 Jul 2025