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    - modern au prompt fills
    - little bits of a life shared together

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    A series of prompt fics from the Summer of Dove 2023 challenge.

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    on life and living; on death and dying

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    apocalypse werewolves~

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    Abbot lifted his head to look down at her. “See, that’s the post-traumatic stress. Something happens that your brain decides is a life or death situation. You have a massive adrenaline kick while it’s all happening, and then when it’s bleeding out of you on the comedown, your brain throws out anything that’s not completely vital. The amount of car crash patients we have who don’t even remember coming to the ER when they submit requests for their medical records for insurance… the brain’s a weird thing, Mohan.”

    “Yeah,” she said, shooting him a look out of the side of her eyes. “It can even make you convinced you have to hurt yourself in order to seek external validation when the most logical course of action is rest.”

    He snorted softly, shaking his head and leaning it back. “God,” he muttered, his cheeks stained pink. “Robby was right. You should have gone into psych.”

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    A night shift from hell ends in Mohan giving Abbot a ride back to his place, where tensions finally boil over.

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    03 Jun 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    i just keep coming back to this one

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    She looked over at him, startled, but Abbot wasn’t looking at her face, he was looking at her hands where they rested on the table, or maybe at something past her hands that she couldn’t see. “I thought— I mean, you wear a wedding ring,” she said hesitantly.

    He looked up at Mohan, keen-eyed and sharp. “Well, I wear dog tags, too,” he said.

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    Abbot and Mohan's unspoken situationship gets out of hand at work, and Mohan suggests a private conversation.
    Whether or not any actual talking gets done is another question, though.

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    01 Jun 2025

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    For Bucky Barnes, choosing to run his term out and join the New Avengers was an easy choice to make.

    For Melissa Gold, choosing to put de Fontaine behind her and ally herself with the new team was also an easy choice to make.

    But the world they both live in now exists in shades of gray. And many other decisions aren't that simple.

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    27 May 2025

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    Cazador was dead: to begin with. There was no doubt whatever about that. Astarion had plunged a very beautiful knife a dozen times or more into his gut and left him in tattered shreds upon his ritually carven floor. The compulsion which had haunted the farthest reaches of his memory had vanished like mist with his master’s death.

    Mind! It cannot be implied that there is a particular similarity between a vampire lord, who is un-dead, and a dead vampire, despite the mimicking shape of those descriptors. Neither bears real facility of life, true, with a beating heart and a cheek which might yet blush, but the one may wield an un-life never again to be possessed by the other, who will do little more than lie still and rot away into new earth. Cazador was a corpse, mouldering beneath the ground. In all ways he had been flung across that lofty river into the mundanity of real and final death. This must be distinctly understood, or nothing that follows will seem wondrous.

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    The secret to surviving is simple. It’s the execution that poses problems.

    Don’t die.

    It’s that easy.


    auri knows people, and that's how she can tell; astarion is deeply, deeply fucked up.

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    ch 42 tho
    ch 73, tho i suspect 74 will be the real banger