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“Stay on the line,” Bruce says, like it’s easy. “Tell me.”
Dick looks at the phone and he can’t get the word out. Words like, Hey. Um. I'm a little scared. I can't stop, and there’s this sick-feeling here, basking against all my organs that will never be small enough. It’s in every thought, every mouthful.
Or instead, he says, “I can't eat.”
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Dick rips his arm away from Bruce’s hold. He stumbles back against the tub, dizzy. Wine spills over the bottleneck, and there’s blood and blood and blood. In his hair, on his hands, in his mouth. He tells Bruce, “Go. I want to drown myself.”
Dead Jason smiles at Dick like he doesn’t have anywhere else to be.
Or a very wine-drunk Dick escapes a gala and hallucinates Jason. Bruce is there.
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i am all the things they might’ve said to you by cyanica
Fandoms: Batman - All Media Types
04 May 2025
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Bruce’s hands tighten around his. It’s reminiscent of the way he’d held them when Dick was nine-years-old and panicking so terribly he’d thought he’d die. It aches when Bruce tells him, “Dick, breathe. I’m going to help you both. I need you to tell me what you meant when you said you wanted to hurt Damian.”
Six weeks after feeling so damningly in love with his son he thought it would kill him, Dick’s gone fucking crazy! He can’t take the chance he reaches for the kitchen knife and—
“You need to kill me,” Dick rasps. “He was screaming and screaming for so long, and nothing I did helped. I couldn’t take it anymore, so I thought – oh god, Bruce, I thought about—”
Or Damian is six weeks old and something is very, very wrong with Dick’s brain.
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it feels like we were built from the same dirt by cyanica
Fandoms: Batman - All Media Types
15 Feb 2025
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“‘s the drugs. I did drugs,” Dick slurs, and then collapses to the ground.
Jason pulls up the collar of Dick’s uniform, exposing the familiar skin Jason can’t ever seem to run far enough from. Track marks, a blown vein, ecchymosis. Needles.
And just like that, everything comes back to a bathroom in Crime Alley. Jason has been here before, and he doesn’t ever want to do this again. He knows what this is. He fucking knows.
or Robin!Jason rescues Nightwing after Blockbuster’s murder, crashes the getaway car, and then has to keep them both alive as Dick overdoses on whatever-the-fuck those bad guys gave him. Given Jason’s history with drugs (and with Dick revealing things he wouldn’t willingly reveal about the Blockbuster incident), things go to shit pretty quickly.
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i was told that i was vital in the plan to save my life by cyanica
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
25 Nov 2024
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“I'm pregnant.”
Andrew’s words stay in the air like smoke, like the embers of his cigarette still clinging to their life, despite everything.
“Okay,” Neil says. Breathes. It’s easy, as if it’s the worst thing he’s ever had to say and that doesn’t even matter to him. Andrew wants to kill him.
Or two months after November, everything comes undone again. Andrew decides he deserves better than this.
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Trade Your Heroes for Ghosts by CaramelMachete
Fandoms: Batman (Comics), DCU (Comics), Nightwing (Comics), Batman - All Media Types
23 Oct 2018
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The day after Nightwing's shooting, Batman sits by his bedside and waits.
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10 Mar 2025
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It's been months since Baltimore. Sometimes it visits Neil, regardless.
Andrew helps.
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Bookmarked by cyanica
25 Sep 2023
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Neil cannot help but run when things build up, but he always calls Andrew.
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23 Sep 2023
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Mystery Work
Part of thierampriv
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This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!
Bookmarked by cyanica
22 Sep 2023
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Neil has a nightmare, Andrew takes care of him.
Pretty basic nightmare oneshot lol.
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20 Sep 2023