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a crooked touch (Astarion x m!Tav) by eyes_of_the_lamb
Fandom: Baldur's Gate (Video Games)
- Mature, Explicit
- No Archive Warnings Apply, Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death, Rape/Non-Con
- M/M
- Complete Series
16 Nov 2024
- No Archive Warnings Apply
- Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
- Graphic Depictions Of Violence
- Major Character Death
- Rape/Non-Con
- Astarion/Tav (Baldur's Gate)
- Astarion (Baldur's Gate)/Original Male Character(s)
- Astarion (Baldur's Gate)
- Tav (Baldur's Gate)
- Original Male Character(s)
- Wyll (Baldur's Gate)
- Gale (Baldur's Gate)
- Lae'zel (Baldur's Gate)
- Shadowheart (Baldur's Gate)
- Karlach (Baldur's Gate)
- Halsin (Baldur's Gate)
- Abdirak (Baldur's Gate)
- True Soul Nere (Baldur's Gate)
- Withers and companions appear briefly
- the whole gang's here
- yes even Scratch and Volo
- Others are mentioned
- Jaheira (Baldur's Gate)
- Rolan (Baldur's Gate)
- Cal (Baldur's Gate)
- Lia (Baldur's Gate)
- Z'rell (Baldur's Gate)
- Araj Oblodra
- Others Appear - Character
- others appear briefly
- Arabella (Baldur's Gate)
- Raphael (Baldur's Gate)
- Balthazar (Baldur's Gate)
- Yurgir (Baldur's Gate)
- Dame Aylin | Nightsong
- Thaniel (Baldur's Gate)
- Ketheric Thorm
- the whole gang
- Withers mentioned
- Isobel Thorm
- Withers (Baldur's Gate)
- The Emperor (Baldur's Gate)
- Orin the Red (Baldur's Gate)
- Gandrel (Baldur's Gate)
- Ulma (Baldur's Gate)
- Danis (Baldur's Gate)
- Bex (Baldur's Gate)
- Enver Gortash
- All the Companions
- Nym (Baldur's Gate)
- Sorn (Baldur's Gate)
- Astarion's Siblings (Baldur's Gate)
- Lathander
- Dolor - Character
- the gang's all here - Character
- Romance
- Pining
- Vampire Bites
- Blood Drinking
- Blood and Gore
- Obsession
- Masturbation
- Painplay
- Sexual Frustration
- Voyeurism
- Wet Dream
- Explicit Sexual Content
- Suicidal Thoughts
- Hand Jobs
- Desperate!Tav
- Dominant!Astarion
- Porn with Feelings
- Frottage
- Grinding
- Tav has a death wish
- Astarion is just dead
- Protective!Tav
- Guarded!Astarion
- Mildly Dubious Consent
- Blood
- Knifeplay
- Coming Untouched
- Tav has a history
- and Astarion wants to know everything
- Abdirak does not get any
- a lot of fucking banter
- Tav understands consent
- Astarion really doesn't
- Blood is a turnon
- Physically no one is a virgin but emotionally? yes.
- Sadomasochism
- Canon-Typical Violence
- Blow Jobs
- Oral Sex
- Face-Fucking
- Blood Kink
- now it's time for the fun tags
- Tav falls first
- Astarion doesn't catch him
- Tav is a masochist
- Shadowheart would like to remind you that cleric healing is not intended for sexual purposes
- what if asking for a kiss was the kinkiest thing you could do
- egregious use of sex as a metaphor for death
- counting the times Astarion says darling: the deadliest drinking game
- are you in pain like I am?
- Exhibitionism
- Dubious Consent
- Tav has intrusive thoughts
- Astarion doesn't understand consent
- banter as always
- will they or won't they
- Possessive Astarion (Baldur's Gate)
- Masochistic Tav
- they're constantly lying to each other
- and i mean constantly
- Astarion has 8 strength but he thinks he has 20
- these two desperately need a safeword
- Mind Control
- Sexual Coercion
- Trauma
- Tav and Astarion are hooking up
- and it's not going well
- death and sex are the same thing right
- Tav's in love
- Astarion is puzzled and concerned
- Combat is Foreplay and Sex is Aftercare
- they're making each other worse
- Tear Drinking?
- Crying Kink?
- I Don't Even Know
- Temporary Character Death
- S&M
- doing the githyanki creche wrong
- Withers isn't infallible
- Astarion reaping the consequences of his actions: well this fucking sucks. What the fuck.
- there's love in the air
- or maybe just a lot of blood
- Under-negotiated Kink
- Don't Try This At Home
- Astarion has sexual trauma
- and every other kind of trauma tbh
- blink and you'll miss it Scratch content
- it starts cute and then it gets so heavy you're welcome
- Tav's bedroom knife is back
- Orgasm Delay/Denial
- Light Dom/sub
- Fluff and Angst
- Established Sexual Relationship
- Suicidal!Tav
- improper wound care
- Crimes against fashion
- the gang has breakfast but Astarion's already had his
- the sex is on and off but the banter is constant
- Tav is a himbo and everyone looks out for him
- tfw you've been banging a man for weeks and you have no idea if he likes you
- elves can sleep if they want it's in the rules
- Suicide Attempt
- Anal Sex
- Sadism
- Masochism
- dear gods these men are not thriving
- this is the peak of the "make each other worse" era
- the peak so far
- Tav needs the sun and the shadow-cursed lands are not kind
- Astarion is helping the only way he knows how
- and it's not pretty or good
- but if it works it works
- Implied/Referenced Suicide
- Drug Use
- Aftercare
- Psychological Trauma
- No Sex
- just feels
- no sex but it's sexually charged
- nonsexual dubiously consensual cuckolding
- don't worry just go with it
- why should the dom always have to handle aftercare
- Role Reversal
- so many bodily fluids from so many different people dear lord
- Self-Harm
- Self-Hatred
- Panic Attacks
- Power Dynamics
- Bathtub Sex
- The boys are filthy and Jaheira's sick of it
- Tav is a sub to his core
- it's getting harder to lie to each other
- and themselves
- that awkward moment when your friends demand to know if your dom is abusing you
- Tav's friends love him
- someone else might too
- Blood and Injury
- Groping
- submissive tav
- Dominant Astarion
- OR IS HE
- masquerades within masquerades
- who's manipulating who again?
- Tav wants to protect Astarion
- Even from himself
- doing Moonrise Towers sort of wrong
- the ol' "distract the guards by making out" trick but whoops Astarion made it super kinky
- these idiots still don't have a safe word
- Torture
- Body Horror
- Assisted Suicide
- Whump
- Hurt/Comfort
- Established Relationship
- Tav and Astarion are having another spat
- heroism is its own punishment
- Tav accumulates trauma
- he's going to feel this one for a while
- there's a big damn rescue
- level up screen noise
- Tav's friends are this close to an intervention
- tfw you don't mind being tortured you just don't like your torturer
- Psychosis
- Angst
- 7k words of lying in bed and talking
- it all takes place in one room
- the gang finally has that intervention but it might be too late
- the anti-Durge version of "that Act 2 camp event"
- Tav finally understands that everyone loves him
- the boys kiss three entire times
- I'm Sorry
- Choking
- Flashbacks
- I'm not saying the narrator is unreliable
- but if he tells you there's a bridge over there
- it probably doesn't exist
- riding those good intentions all the way to hell
- Tav's at the PTO cap
- the party leaves Astarion to babysit
- things are better but also worse
- the inherent homoeroticism of letting a man bite your neck
- Tav is irrepressible thoughts of death Barbie
- Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
- Canonical Character Death
- Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD
- Grief/Mourning
- and the hits just keep on comin'
- the house of healing? sounds like a nice place to oh shit fuck this is terrible actually
- Tav wants to keep his boyfriend happy
- but happy is more than a buff on Astarion's character sheet
- these boys need to DTR stat
- Substance Abuse
- Tav doing Tav things
- Tav makes an indecent proposal
- two of them actually
- Astarion accepts despite obvious confusion
- Raphael rubs his hands together in the background
- some things just won't stay buried
- you can keep shoveling dirt but your arms are gonna give out eventually
- Past Sexual Abuse
- Dissociation
- the boys are not okay
- no one is dealing with their trauma appropriately (or at all)
- the tables have turned but not in a fun way
- spellcasters are Tav's second worst enemy
- no prizes for guessing the first
- that awkward moment when worshiping your lover starts to get a little out of hand
- Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault
- everyone wants a piece of Tav
- Lathander wants a do-over
- fellas is it gay to defy your god for your ex-fwb
- Astarion is struggling big time
- but they do three whole conversations in this one
- they're getting better i swear
- they both deserve a turn on the pining carousel
- It's only fair
- Sex Toys (kind of)
- Nipple Torture
- Light Sadism
- Light Masochism
- Teasing
- Sexual Tension
- god's favorite princess is so sick of the boys and their issues
- Astarion's all "look Tav no hands"
- misuse of magical artifacts
- poor Wyll
- Tav handles the self-same trial about as well as anyone could expect
- but somehow Astarion struggles more
- what if the Shadowfell was worse than it was in the game
- so many callbacks count em all
- Self-cest
- Hate Sex
- Rape/Non-con Elements
- Mind Rape
- Biting
- elf ear kink for real this time
- Character Death
- this one has its own playlist
- we took our time getting here but today's the day
- nobody can fix Tav
- (except the one person who hasn't tried)
- unless he kills himself first
- spiderman pointing meme
- if it works it works
- Dead Dove: Do Not Eat
- Angst and Hurt/Comfort
- Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con
- we finally got here lads
- it's my version of the confession scene
- it's been a long night
- are you ready for the dawn?
- Tav leveled up again
- and gained the power of friendship
- Astarion goes through all the stages of grief
- nobody's fixed but goddamn are they ready to start healing
- Tav also learned "snark" and "righteous anger"
- the paladin oath fuckery continues
- tfw you come back from horny jail all self-actualized and your friends are like "hello who's this"
- "no wait really who are you and what have you done with Tav"
- 10k words of talking
- 4k of it in bed even!
- it all takes place in Last Light
- Tav has The Talk with the gang
- twelve almost-uninterrupted hours of sleep
- wait you can clear the bloodless debuff?
- the boys have no idea how to just... date
- tav: wtf am i supposed to do with all this blood in my body if you aren't using it
- new day new tav new kink discovered: platonic kissing
- Fluff
- Forehead Kisses
- Morning Kisses
- so much kissing dear gods
- like someone stop these boys please
- Astarion can make a fun sexy game out of anything including his trauma
- not therapist approved
- is that a little bit of role switching I spy?
- a little bit of domesticity
- as a treat
- fellas is it gay to date a vampire and be fwbs with a god
- tfw you booty call god and he leaves you on read
- Orgasm Denial
- Chronic Pain
- Cuddling
- first date with tav: ptsd in a graveyard
- second date with tav: traumadump behind a waterfall
- tav is the heavyweight champ of sad/wet/horny
- they both have hardcore abandonment trauma
- "you're gonna leave me aren't you"
- "not if you leave me first"
- aggressive making out ensues
- Seizures
- Tav is doing his best
- he's trying really hard guys
- Astarion gets possessive and a little bit feral
- maximum paladin oath fuckery
- homoerotic sparring practice by the campfire
- Astarion is still a manipulative bastard he's just doing it for love now
- tfw the love of your eternal life is basically a malfunctioning tamagotchi
- Clothed Sex
- Dry Humping
- Coming In Pants
- Making Out
- the boys are sleep-deprived and scared and horny
- the emperor doesn't ship it
- oops they have incompatible trauma oh no
- meanwhile shadowheart is having a moment
- isobel and aylin are basically on their honeymoon
- and astarion is jealous
- Implied/Referenced Torture
- when tav was a young boy
- his father took him into the city
- to see an interplanar circus
- rip tav and his coulrophobia
- hey it's that guy we haven't seen for 200k words
- let's kill him
- ship of theseus but it's leaky and named tav
- tav's got that exhibitionist streak but Public Displays of Emotion? no thank you
- Crying Kink
- Emotional Hurt/Comfort
- tav goes home
- astarion's like "damn bitch you live like this"
- "your reflection / your bitter deception"
- is that a glimpse of long-awaited astarion pov i see
- remember kids this is the anti-durge storyline
- they're doing trauma healing in their own roundabout way
- Be patient with them
- unconventional talk therapy
- tav is barbie again but it's different this time
- playing mind games with tav is everyone's favorite pastime
- no solving problem only horny
- sleepover at the brothel! what could go wrong?
- tav's sick of all these menacing vaguely flirty villains jesus fucking christ
- Action/Adventure
- Suspense
- get in losers we're rewriting act 3
- it sure does suck to be the main character
- the gang infiltrates a wedding animorphs-style
- sudden jarring genre shift warning
- tav doesn't cry in this one but he probably should
- does it count as a date if you're on a stakeout
- tfw a god gets tired of being your side piece
- The pain train is leaving the station
- Horror
- Canon Rewrite
- Spoilers for Act 3 (Baldur's Gate 3)
- BDSM
- Depression
- Suicide
- Oops! All Hurt
- Tavstarion is endgame but we're taking some detours
- do you trust me?
- for when you want that "doomed by the narrative" flavor without actually... well anyway
- Not A Fix-It
- It's Actually More of a Make-It-Worse
- the ship might be sinking but they're playing our song
- Eventual Comfort
Summary
“Make it hurt, then. Kiss me like you want to kill me.”
“I can do that.”
Two broken stars in a decaying orbit, passing closer and closer together until the inevitable, devastating collision.
Or, Tav is fucked up and down bad for Astarion, who doesn't quite see the appeal (but he's getting there). Sexual frustration, sloppy handjobs, a heavy dose of masochism, and way too many failed Insight checks ahead. Tav falls first, Astarion falls harder (eventually).
Or, a tragic-but-hopeful romance told through a series of incredibly ill-advised sexual encounters.
If you want to read a story where Astarion is sweet from the start and Tav is here to fix him, this isn't the one. If you want to read about two terribly broken men spending a good long while making each other worse before they make each other better, this might be for you. If you thought the in-game romance was a little too easy and it should have been ten times more painful and difficult to convince Astarion he's worthy of love, this is definitely for you.
Set during the canonical events of Baldur's Gate 3.
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Bookmarked by seadog45
01 Nov 2023