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It was a simple kiss, really– just closed lips pressing against each other, nothing more. But it felt like everything that didn’t make sense in [Y/N]’s life had somehow fallen into place at the same time. Of course, she knew that wasn’t true, all of her problems would still be there after this– but it was impossible to think about any of them at the moment. Now it was just them together– the rest of the world was gone for the time being. 

When they pulled away, [Y/N]’s eyes were open wide in surprise. She couldn’t believe what just happened– it couldn’t be real. Kurt had not just kissed her, right after she said she was in love with him. That couldn’t have happened because if it did… it could only mean one thing.

He liked her back.

Kurt, on the other hand, pulled back incredibly slowly– lips pouting slightly and eyes closed, looking just barely out of breath. His eyes opened carefully, and when he noticed [Y/N] was staring at him incredulously, he gasped in embarrassment and leaned back, away from her.

“I– I–” He tried to say, but all of a sudden he forgot every word he knew in both English and German.

“You like me too?” [Y/N] breathed out, not even bothering to mask her disbelief. She needed him to say it, to confirm it. This was something too great, too wonderful for it to be happening to her, of all people. Kurt frowned and tilted his head to the side– like he didn’t know why she’d felt the need to ask that question.

“Ja, liebe. Of course I do.” He paused for a moment. “Vell, actually… I am in love vith you, too.” He confessed in a whisper, too embarrassed to look at her.

“Kurt, look at me.” She said softly, and he complied. She looked like she’d just been told she was now a millionaire– and she felt like it too. “What does that mean? Liebe?“  She leaned closer to him without noticing, and Kurt did as well. Her eyes moved from his to his mouth, his scars, his ears, his eyes again. It made her angry that she was incapable of looking at all of him at the same time. She wanted to take him in all at once– marvel at those beautiful lips while looking at his hands, look at his tail behind him without taking her eyes off his own.

It wasn’t fair.

"It means love.” Kurt answered, his hands fidgeting on his lap. “I have been vanting to call you zhat for a long time.” He murmured in a raspy voice. [Y/N] had leaned even closer, so they were just inches away from each other now. She placed her hands on his knees to pry them open, and Kurt untangled his legs for her.

There wasn’t even a chance for them to feel awkward about the sudden intimacy of the moment– it was something they both had been craving for so long that now it just seemed like the only possible thing to do. Kurt’s legs were now open and she moved to sit on his lap, her own legs wrapping around his waist and her arms around his neck. He took a hold of her hips, rubbing her sides softly. They didn’t break eye contact for a moment, and by now they had gotten so close that their noses brushed with each exhalation.

“I’ve wanted to call you a few things for some time, as well.” [Y/N] confessed in a throaty voice, her breath mixing with his. Kurt’s grip on her hips tightened involuntarily and he shuddered. “But just today I found a new one.” She whispered, brushing her lips against his as she buried her fingers on the hair at the nape of his neck.

“Ja?” Kurt asked, closing his eyes at the beautiful sensation. “Vhat is it?” She smiled at his reaction and pecked his lips once.

“My.” She did it again. “Blue.” And again. “Cupcake.” Kurt let out a sinful moan and she gently pushed his head forward, finally connecting their lips together in the kiss they both deserved. He opened his mouth for her shortly after, and she took the lead rather quickly– it seemed that Kurt wasn’t even remotely interested in being in control. 

His hands wrapped around her back in a tight embrace. They only separated to breathe for seconds before going back to the kiss, and when they finally pulled away completely, they looked like they had just run a marathon.

[Y/N] couldn’t help but stare at him like she’d just discovered the meaning of life. Never before in her life she had a kiss like this one– and she’d kissed a couple of guys that were good kissers before. Very good kissers.

But this was something else entirely.

This was the kiss she would forever compare other kisses with– just like Kurt was the person she would forever compare other people with.

He was it.

Kurt had died and gone to heaven.

Well, not literally, but it surely was what this felt like.

It was conflicting– to want to be with her so much when his mind told him he shouldn’t– but he knew in his heart that the God he believed in wouldn’t let him be so happy about something if it wasn’t okay for him to be.

The God he believed him and to whom he prayed every night wanted him to be happy because He loved him, and Kurt couldn’t remember the last time he’d felt so much bliss and so perfectly at peace with himself and everything he believed in.

Kurt loved [Y/N] more than he’d ever loved anyone in his life, so she had to had been sent by the Lord himself for him to do just that.

God had granted him what he’d prayed for his whole life. He would have never imagined it would come in the form of the most beautiful girl he’d ever met, but here she was, smiling at him.

She was it.

“I love to look at zhe clouds.” Kurt said while they were both lying on the grass on their backs. [Y/N] was playing with his hand, caressing his fingers, measuring it against hers, trying– and failing– to find the perfect way to interlock her fingers with his.

“Yeah, why is that?” She asked, trying another different hand holding approach. It didn’t work. “Dammit.” She muttered under her breath and Kurt snickered, his head turning to the side to get a better look at her.

“Because it’s relaxing.” He looked at her in amusement before shaking his head. “Liebe, I don’t zhink zhat is going to vork.” He said, clenching his jaw to not laugh out loud at her frustrated expression.

“But I love your hands– I want to be able to hold them.” She complained, rolling to the side to lean her head on his shoulder. Kurt caressed her hair while she rested her hand on top of his on his chest. “Oh my god, I got it. If I just wrap my hand around your fingers like this…” She did and Kurt closed his palm, his thumb caressing the back of her hand. She lifted her head with an open mouthed smile and leaned down to place a kiss on his lips. “I solved it.” She mumbled against his mouth. Kurt laughed and nodded.

“Ja, liebe. You did.” She smiled, very pleased with herself, and leaned into Kurt, covering half of his body with hers. He wrapped his arms and tail around her and began rubbing her back. “Vhere did you learn to fight like zhat? You vere good.” 

“I’ve been training for a few months, I wanted to show you and surprise you soon. So much for that.” She grumbled, pressing herself closer against him.

“Vell… I vas surprised. Zhank you for doing zhat. Don’t tell zhe ozhers because zhey might zhink I’ll enjoy it if zhey do it too– but I loved zhat you defended me like zhat. It felt very good.” He rubbed a particularly soft spot and [Y/N] closed her eyes.

“Mmm…” She moaned against Kurt’s neck without noticing. “You’re welcome.”

“Liebe, zhat noise you made…” Kurt murmured in a strangled voice, but she was enjoying the way he touched her so much that she missed the desperate edge on his voice.

“What’s with it, cupcake?” She asked, pressing herself even closer against him when he massaged her spine.

“Oh no, please don’t call me zhat now.” He groaned and she looked up, frowning.

“Oh.” She said, crestfallen. “Sorry, I hadn’t realized you didn’t like it.” She apologized but Kurt’s eyes widened and he shook his head fervently.

“No, no, I love it, liebe. Zhat’s zhe problem. If you make zhose noises and call me cupcake, it makes me vant to… sin.” He confessed in a whisper, looking mortified.

“Sin?” She asked, slightly confused. Until– “Baby, am I making you horny?” She asked, removing herself from him and moving back to sit on the grass. “I’m sorry, I didn’t meant to make you uncomfortable.” Kurt looked completely dismayed that she wasn’t above him anymore.

“Nooo!” He complained. “Come back.” When she didn’t, he decided to take matters into his own hands. He sat up and moved towards her, climbed on her lap, and wrapped his legs around her waist like she’d done with him before.

She gasped in surprise, her hands moving to hold his hips without even realizing it. She’d never been with a guy who’d ever tried to do something like this– and she hadn’t even entertained the thought of it happening to her.

But fuck it if she didn’t love to have him on her lap like this.

“Ich liebe dich.” Kurt murmured before kissing her softly. She held him in her arms and kissed him back, biting his bottom lip slightly.

“Does that mean…?”

“I love you.” He answered with a grin before kissing her again.

“I love you too, cupcake.”  Kurt buried his face on her shoulder and hugged her tightly.

“I love zhat. I love you calling me zhat.”  He said, kissing her neck. She sighed in contentment and caressed his hair.

“I won’t stop calling you that, then.” She rubbed his back while he rested against her. “How long have we been here? I hope the guys aren’t worried about us.”

“An hour, maybe, by how zhe Sun moved since ve got here.” Kurt answered, wrapping himself tighter around her. “I don’t vant to leave yet.” She laughed and kissed his cheek.

“Me neither. Where are we, though?”

“Two miles avay from zhe mansion. I come here vhen I vant to be alone.”

“Just two miles? We could go back on foot. It’s a nice weather to take a nice walk, don’t you think, Kurt?” He lifted his head up and scrunched up his nose in displeasure.

“I like it more vhen you call me cupcake or baby.”  He confessed offhandedly before resting his head on her shoulder again. She felt overwhelmed with adoration and only managed to hold him as close as she could.

“Do you realize what you do to me?” She asked, scratching his scalp gently.

“Vhat do I do?” He asked innocently, looking up at her.

“I adore you. You are the most beautiful, most adorable, most wonderful person I’ve ever met.” She admitted, voice thick with emotion. “You make me melt. Every little thing you do, like that cute face you did just now– all of it makes me fall more and more in love with you.” She grabbed the sides of his face, caressing his scars with her thumbs. Kurt stared at her eyes, mesmerized, unable to look away. She pulled his mouth to hers and kissed him as slowly as she could. It was hard because she wanted to devour his mouth– but the moment just wasn’t right.

“Meine liebe– mein schatz. I adore you as vell. I knew I vas in love vith you vhen you held me in your arms vhen I lie vith you on your bed after zhat nightmare, do you remember?” He asked while she left soft little kisses all over his face.

“I held you that night? All I remember is waking up and you were gone. I thought maybe you’d felt better and left.” She said, grabbing a fistful of hair before pulling on it, making him expose his neck to her. Kurt’s eyes rolled back and he sighed in pleasure when she began licking and kissing it.

“Nein. Vhen you fell asleep I vas avake still. And zhen you reached to me and vrapped me in your arms. I felt safe, like never before. And zhen you tangled your legs vith mine and my tail vrapped around you and you vere asleep, but you smiled and held me tighter. I knew I loved you zhen. And zhat night I slept better zhan I had in years. But vhen morning came I vas afraid of how you’d react… so I left.” She had stopped kissing him and now she was just looking at him, surprised.

“I thought– I was sure that had been a dream. I figured you’d left not long after I fell asleep.” She laughed. “I even wrote a letter to my friends telling them I had the most amazing dream ever with you. They know all about you, you’re pretty much everything I talk about.” She rested her forehead on his and rubbed his nose with hers sweetly. “I wish you would’ve stayed. Do you want to know when I knew I was in love with you?” Kurt nodded with his eyes closed, a content smile on his closed lips. “Remember that time you were reading The Metamorphosis in German and I sat down with you and you read some of it out loud to me? When I looked at you reading, I finally knew. I’d fallen in love with you.” She traced a scar with her fingertip. “But I wish I would’ve told you sooner. I’m just glad we’re finally together.” Her eyes widened the moment she realized what she’d just said. “I mean, if you want to be my boyfriend… but we don’t have to call this anything you’re not comfortable with.” She quickly amended.

“Hmmm…” Kurt hummed, sounding pleased. “I am [Y/N]’s boyfriend. [Y/N] is my girlfriend. Ve are a couple. Ja, ja, zhe most beautiful girl in zhe school is meine girlfriend.” He said in different tones, trying out the terms on his tongue. “I like zhat.” He concluded, grinning widely. She laughed happily and gave him a hard, quick kiss.

“How was I supposed to not fall madly in love with you?”

“C'mon baby, if we start walking now we’ll be home before sunset. If we don’t you’ll have to take us there and I really want to walk with you.” [Y/N] said, trying to pull Kurt up from the ground unsuccessfully. He was pouting, looking away. “Cupcake…” She said, kneeling down in front him, grabbing his chin to make him look at her. His eyes showed how much he wanted to stay there with her a little longer. “Consider this: I’ll be kissing you all the time because I can’t get enough of you, and also, tonight you can go to my room when everyone else has gone to bed and we can fall asleep together. How does that sound?” Kurt’s mouth opened in surprise and he stood up, bringing her with him.

“All zhe time. Many kisses.”

“Yes.” She whispered before kissing him passionately to seal the promise. When she pulled away, Kurt looked almost hypnotized. “Many kisses.” She reassured him and he nodded, out of breath, as she grabbed his big hand before pulling him with her. “So, which way is it?”

“[Y/N]! Look at zhis.” Kurt said, excitement clear on his face. He pecked her lips before disappearing in a puff of black smoke before her, only to appear upside down, hanging from his tail on a tree nearby. “I am upside down!” He said with extended arms and she laughed before running to him.

She aligned her mouth with his and kissed him again, enjoying how he tensed up above her.

“My beautiful, talented, blueberry cupcake.” She praised against his lips. “I am so lucky to have you.” She continued kissing him like that until he got so lost in the sensation that his tail released the hold it had on the tree branch. He fell on his back and she gasped in horror. “Kurt! Oh God, are you alright? Do we have to get you to a hospital?”

“Liebe, it is okay. I have fallen down many more times I can count. It is nozhing. But… a kiss can make it better.” He said with the most adorable puppy dog eyes she’d ever seen in a person; and the best part what that never did them on purpose– he was just that adorable.

“You scared me, baby.” [Y/N] said before kissing him softly. “I thought you were hurt. Let’s go, I can see the mansion behind the trees.”

“One more kiss. Zhe last one.” Kurt begged, wrapping his arms around her waist to pull her on top of him. How could she say no to him? He was her absolute weakness.

“Okay, let’s make it a good one.” 

“Oh no, I left a bite mark on your lip. Fuck, I knew it was too hard. I’m sorry.” [Y/N] said, running her thumb over Kurt’s lips. He captured it with his teeth and bit down softly– only enough to arouse her like crazy. 

“I like zhe bite mark you left.” He said after releasing her finger. She smiled and pecked his lips, unable to stop herself. They walked past the last line of trees and she stopped dead in her tracks. Kurt stopped as well, looking at her with a frown.

“Oh no.” [Y/N] said, squinting her eyes at the back door of the mansion. “They’re waiting for us, and Jean looks like she’s got her arms crossed, which means she’s angry.”

“It is no problem, zhey vill understand vhen I tell zhem ve told each other ve vere in love and I vanted to kiss you.” She giggled at his pure honesty– because he looked like he was certain that was the solution. She was contemplating the possibility of just telling Kurt to take them both to her room– but then, Professor Xavier appeared.

“Ah, double shit. They told the professor. Now we can’t get away.” She complained, crossing her arms. Kurt looked a little nervous now, because he didn’t want to be in trouble with Charles.

When they reached them, Jean was standing with Scott looking furious, but the Professor looked like he was trying with all his might not to laugh.

“It was about time.” Jean said with a sharp look. “You were gone for four hours!”

“Now Jean, don’t be so hard with them. I told you they were okay.” Charles said, failing to hide his amusement.

“More than okay, apparently.” Scott said, narrowing his eyes even though no one noticed. “Are those… hickies?” 

“What? He didn’t leave any hickies!” She said, looking affronted– but when she noticed Scott’s expression, she realized she’d just walked into a trap.

“Oh my God! You worried Jean to death so you could make out?” He scoffed and turned around. “I’m outta here.” He said before going inside.

“Sensitive.” [Y/N] said with raised eyebrows. “I’m sorry Jean, we didn’t want to worry you. Time just… flew away.” She looked at her with pleading eyes but still, Jean was angry.

“Ve are sorry, Jean. It is just zhat ve said zhat ve loved each other and zhen be just vanted to be togezher all zhe time. It vas hard to come back now because I vanted to stay vith her but she said ve–”

“Oooookay, baby. She got it.” [Y/N] said, covering his mouth with her hand.

“Baby?” Jean asked, the corners of her lips curling upwards.

“Yeah, well… We talked a lot, about a lot of things.” Ah, finally, there it was. Jean uncrossed her arms and looked at them with soft eyes.

“Try not to scare me like that again, okay? You were angry when you left and I didn’t know what could’ve happened.”

“We’ll do our best, promise. Now, can we go?” [Y/N] asked with a teasing smile and Jean rolled her eyes before moving out of the way. Once they’d disappeared inside, Charles looked up to her with a smirk.

“Did or did I not say they would be busy doing the things you teenagers do?”

The months passed while Kurt and [Y/N]’s relationship bloomed into something beautiful. They had made a habit of sneaking into each other’s rooms late at night– and while everyone knew what they were doing, they always denied it and it was impossible to prove it. Kurt teleported from his room to hers, and she made herself disappear and walked calmly to his without anyone noticing what she was doing. On weekends they stayed up all night talking, and ended up sleeping through breakfast and sometimes even lunch. 

Kurt’s training with the X-Men continued to go very well, and [Y/N]’s training with her own powers had evolved beyond being able to make herself unnoticeable. Now, she could also make herself and other people disappear. She and Kurt had taken full advantage of this, kissing in the most inappropriate times without anyone noticing.

Right now, they were at the point of the year where Christmas was close enough to talk about it without sounding too eager, and [Y/N] and Kurt were ready to go shopping early for presents. They walked together towards Scott, Jean, Jubilee, Ororo and Peter, who were sitting by the fire. 

“Kurt and I are going to do our Christmas shopping today, anyone wants to come with us?” [Y/N] asked the group with a bright smile, putting her scarf on.

“Ugh, no.” Scott said with a groan. “It’s way too soon to do Christmas shopping.”

“Ja, [Y/N] says zhat’s better because ve can shop vithout zhe stress.” Kurt answered, smiling lovingly at her. When she’d told him about it he’d thought she was the smartest person he’d ever met. The previous year he and the others made their Christmas shopping on December 23rd and it had been one of the worst experiences of his life. He hadn’t known better– but now he did, thanks to his girlfriend.

His girlfriend. That never failed to make him feel warm and happy inside.

“I pass. I love you guys… But you’re so in love that sometimes it gets impossible to be around you.”  Jubilee said with a smile that bordered on being a grimace. [Y/N] narrowed her eyes at her, teasingly, before kissing Kurt full on the lips in front of her.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” She answered innocently while Kurt hid his face on her shoulder with an embarrassed smile. Jubilee rolled her eyes and smiled.

“I don’t need to do Christmas shopping.” Peter answered, smiling as innocently as he could– which was to say, not innocently at all.

“Peter, do I really need to tell you again that stealing is wrong?” [Y/N] said, shaking her head in disbelief. Peter just shrugged his shoulders, not even bothering to answer.

“I don’t feel like shopping today, sorry guys.” Ororo apologized, and [Y/N] nodded, smiling softly at her.

“I am not going to be the third wheel again.” Jean said, shaking her head. “You go, have fun.” She said with a grin and Kurt and [Y/N] shrugged their shoulders.

“Ok, baby. Take us to the old alley two blocks from the mall, and we’ll go from there.” She told Kurt, zipping her coat before wrapping her arms around his waist, looking at him with a smile before placing her lips on his.

BAMF!

And they were gone.

“Mmmm… I love you.” [Y/N] moaned into the kiss she was sharing with her boyfriend in an old, dirty alley. As usual, the place where they were kissing mattered very little– they got so lost in each other that they forgot about their surroundings. “Does it make me a bad person that I’m happy no one agreed to come?” She asked, burying her fingers in the hair on the back of his neck.

“I hope not. Because zhat vould mean I am a bad person as vell.” Kurt answered, smiling teasingly. [Y/N] pulled away, surprised, and let out a joyful laugh.

“Okay, let’s go. Before we leave we have to go to this little shop I saw the other day, I think it’s owned by a pair of ladies and everything they sell is so pretty.” Kurt nodded, and they walked into the street hand in hand.

It didn’t take them as long as [Y/N] had believed it would to find presents for everyone, but she couldn’t say she wasn’t a little bit jealous of how good Kurt was at choosing gifts for people. While she struggled to find something, Kurt appeared in front of with the most thoughtful gift she’d ever seen. He was naturally good at being incredible, apparently. 

Now they were almost reaching the shop [Y/N] had told him about, carrying various bags on their hands. 

She noticed that something was going to happen before Kurt did. He’d been telling her something funny that had happened while he was choosing his gift for her, when she noticed an old man looking at him with an expression of pure disgust on his face. She wrapped her arm around his and held his hand, looking directly at the old man– but he was too busy staring at Kurt.

“Get out of here, freak!” He yelled at him the moment he walked past them, and Kurt stopped dead in his tracks, stunned. [Y/N] clenched her jaw and held onto him tighter, offering her undivided support. Kurt looked at her for a moment and took a deep breath, turning to the man with clear resolve.

“I have done nozhing to you. I have every right as you to be here, Sir.” He answered in a strong voice, standing up a little straighter.

“You are an abomination!” The man said, spitting to the ground in front of Kurt. He swallowed thickly, but didn’t budge. Countless memories of  [Y/N] telling him that he was the most beautiful person she’d ever met swarmed around his mind, keeping him grounded.

“No. I am not. I am a person, just like you.” He answered seriously– and now the man looked furious.

“How dare you compare yourself to me?” He spat, disgusted. By now people had begun turning around to look at them, paying close attention to the exchange.

“Say one more word and I’ll get my gun to shoot you in the foot, man.” They heard a female voice say from behind them, and when they turned around they found the two ladies that owned the shop standing protectively behind them.

“Of course it would take two abominations to defend another abomination. Go back to sinning, lesbians!” He yelled, face red in fury. The women looked as unimpressed as humanly possible.

“Jemma, get my gun.” The woman who’d threatened him said, and the other walked back into the store. The man walked back a few steps, looking at them with pure, deep rooted hatred.

“You are all going to hell! Sinners!” He yelled before walking away quickly. The people that had gathered began to walk away, some smiling at Kurt and [Y/N] in support, and others looking down at them.

“Do you want a cup of tea? A glass of water?” The woman offered with a kind smile. [Y/N] came out of the daze she’d been in for the past minute and nodded.

“Yes, sure. Thank you. We were just about to go inside your shop before he stopped us.” She rubbed her thumb on Kurt’s hand before kissing him quickly on the lips. He looked a bit shaken, but otherwise he seemed to be doing okay. “You did so good baby, I am so proud of you.” She whispered, resting her forehead against his, before they both walked inside.

“Jemma, can you bring us some tea?” The woman yelled to a room on the back of the store as they followed her up to the counter. [Y/N] noticed a big framed picture hanging on the wall, standing out from the rest. There was no doubt that two of the women were the owners of the shop, and they were standing with their arms around two others. The four were wearing matching t-shirts, and when she read what they said, she gasped.

“You were part of the Lavender Menace?” Her eyes were wide in amazement. “My aunt told me so much about you! It’s such an honor to meet you!” Kurt looked at her like she was speaking in Chinese, completely confused.

“Vhat is zhe Lavender Menace?” He asked, frowning. The woman looked at [Y/N] with questioning eyes and [Y/N] nodded with a little smile.

“The Lavender Menace was a group of lesbians that fought for inclusion in the feminist movement.” Kurt still looked confused; he knew what a feminist was because [Y/N] had explained it to him, but he still couldn’t understand what the woman was saying completely.

“I am very sorry, but I don’t know vhat a lesbian is. Zhat’s vhat zhe bad man called you, does he zhink zhat it is a bad zhing, like zhe vay I look?” The woman looked at him with a small frown but nodded anyway.

“He does. Many people do. Look, kid… I don’t want to be disrespectful but the crucifix you got there makes me think you might not like what a lesbian is.” She said and Kurt tilted his head to the side, confused. 

What could be so bad?

Was a lesbian a murderer?

“Give him a chance.” [Y/N] said, looking at Kurt with her usual loving smile. 

“A lesbian is a woman who likes other women. Romantically.” The second woman, Jemma, appeared carrying a tray with four teacups.

“Oh. Zhat.” Kurt said, nodding. “Ja, in zhe circus zhere vere two vomen zhat helped raising me zhat vere in love vith each ozher, too. I never zhought zhat vas a bad zhing, zhey loved me and I loved zhem very much. My faith does not preclude ozher people’s rights to be happy and free, miss.” He answered respectfully.

[Y/N] was looking at him with soft eyes, and the women’s eyebrows had shot up to their hairlines.

“Well, that’s a pleasant surprise.” Jemma said, smiling. “I’m Jemma, and she’s my girlfriend Suzanne.” She extended her hand and Kurt accepted it with a smile.

“I am Kurt, and she’s my girlfriend [Y/N].”

“Can ve go back soon? I really liked zhem.” Kurt said as they both waved at Jemma and Suzanne from outside the window of the shop before continuing their way.

“Oh, definitely. Wait till I tell my aunt about this, she’s gonna want to come here too.” Kurt smiled, satisfied, and nodded. “Are you ready to go home or is there something else you need?” Kurt shook his head.

“I am ready, ve should go back. It’s getting colder. Come on, ve can go from here.” He pulled her to an empty corner and held her close, placing a soft kiss on her lips before–

BAMF!

“Oh come on! Do you have to kiss every single time? Don’t be gross.” Scott groaned, covering his glasses with a hand.

“As a matter of fact, it’s none of your business.” [Y/N] said sweetly. “You know what I’m going to do with your present now? Throw it in the trash.”

“No! Wait! You know I love your love guys…” He amended, smiling innocently.

“Yeah, that’s what I thought.” [Y/N] answered with a roll of her eyes, clearly amused.

“No, I haven’t asked him yet. Yes, I know he might say no but I wasn’t going to ask him without asking you first. Yes, I know, I want you to meet him as well. Okay then, when I get his answer I’ll call you again. Kay bye, love you too.” [Y/N] hung up the phone and sighed, smiling in relief. She’d just asked her mother if Kurt could spend the winter break at her house and she’d agreed. God bless her aunt and her beautiful liberal ideals that had been permeating into her mother’s way of thinking for years.

BAMF!

She felt a pair of strong arms wrapping around her waist from behind and soft lips pressing against her cheek. She grinned before turning around to wrap her own arms around Kurt’s neck, kissing him on the lips. Kurt pressed his body even closer to hers and when she opened her eyes, she saw they were standing in his room.

“Hello, liebe. You look beautiful today.” He whispered softly in her hear, and she could feel his smile against her cheek.

“Hello, cupcake. You look beautiful every day.” She responded teasingly. Kurt grinned and sat down on his bed, pulling her down on top of him, straddling his lap. He rested his forehead against hers and sighed happily, pulling her close to him. She pecked his lips before pulling away slightly to look at him. “Baby, I have something to ask you. It’s an invitation, actually.”

“Vhat is it?” Kurt asked, clearly curious. She traced his scars with her finger before answering.

“Well… I talked to my mom and we wanted to invite you to spend Christmas at my house. My mom said she can arrange a room for you without a problem and we’re going to go to my grandmother’s house on Christmas Eve and I just want everyone to meet you.” She waited for his answer with baited breath.

“You really vant me to go?” He asked softly, caressing her cheek. She placed her hand on top of his and leaned into his touch.

“More than anything, cupcake.” She said honestly, voice thick with emotion. Instead of answering, Kurt leaned back on the bed with her still on top of him, and kissed her passionately.

“Zhen of course I vill go, meine liebe.” He said between kisses. “Ich liebe dich.”

“I love you too.”

“It’s a big deal, meeting the parents.” Peter said, leaning back on the headrest of Kurt’s bed. “But you shouldn’t worry, there is only a small chance that they won’t like you.” He continued, face serious. Kurt frowned and looked at him.

“Vhat? You zhink they von’t like me?” He narrowed his eyes at Peter. “You know vhat? [Y/N] said you vould tease me about it and to not listen to anyzhing you say.” He continued placing his clothes carefully on his suitcase.

“Ah, damn. She’s smart.” Peter complained, pouting. “Anyway, believe me, it’s a big deal. I know you guys have been together for months but meeting the family is like… the thing that makes it one hundred percent official.” Kurt looked confused, because he was sure that what he and [Y/N] had was already completely official, and it was hard to understand how meeting her family was going to change that. Before he could answer, Scott entered his room and sat down on a chair, leaning his head back into his interlocked fingers.

“You ready to meet the parents, Kurt? It’s a big deal.” He added and Kurt sighed, exasperated.

“I don’t understand vhy you talk about it like I should be scared! [Y/N] said her parents couldn’t vait to meet me, and zhat her mozher is very excited.”

“Because it’s important to make a good impression! I’m sure [Y/N]’s parents are the kind of parents who only want the best for their daughter, so you should make sure you show them that you are.” Peter said, and just as he was finishing, [Y/N] walked into the room with an unimpressed expression on her face.

“Actually, my parents are the kind of parents who trust me to know what’s best for me, and they already know Kurt is that and more.” She said, kissing Kurt’s cheek before narrowing her eyes at the other two. “Stop trying to scare him, he has nothing to worry about.”

“We were just trying to help.” Scott said, lifting his palms up in surrender. 

“If you want to help why don’t you actually do something and help him pack his bag?”

“Are you cold? I’m so cold. Hold me, I’m cold.”  [Y/N] said, trembling slightly. Kurt opened his arms for her and rubbed her back to warm her up.

“Vhy don’t ve go inside? Your parents vill come find us vhen they get here, I am sure.” He offered but she shook her head.

“I want to be the first person that sees them. I’m sure they’re almost here.” She squinted her eyes and her expression morphed into one of pure happiness. “Look! There’s their car! Here they come!” She jumped up and down in excitement and Kurt smiled before she pulled away from him and grabbed his hand. “Ohhh, I’m so happy. They will love you.” She said, leaning into his arm.

Kurt didn’t answer– he just gave her a reassuring smile while they both waited for the car to reach them. Inside, however, he didn’t feel as calm as he looked outside. He hadn’t wanted to let himself get worried about what Peter and Scott had said, but in the end, he’d lost that battle. He’d been thinking all day about the possible outcomes of this holiday, and most of them involved her family disliking him completely. He knew he made her happy, he saw it every day. But what if in the end, they didn’t think he was good enough for her?

The car was almost in front of them now, and [Y/N] was now trembling from excitement instead of because it was cold. Her mother opened the door the moment the car stopped and flung herself out of it, running to them with open arms. Kurt tried to let go of her hand so she could hug her mother properly, but [Y/N] held on tighter and the next second he had an arm wrapped around his neck and was being squished by her mother.

“Ohhhhhhhhhhhh, you looked so nice standing together like that.” She gushed before kissing them both of their cheeks, and then pulled away with a bright smile. “Hi, Kurt, it’s a pleasure to finally meet you. [Y/N] has been talking nonstop about you, I feel like I’ve already known you for months.” She said with an exaggerated roll of her eyes before winking at him. 

Behind her, [Y/N]’s father was fast approaching, looking just as happy as her mother. [Y/N] walked to him and hugged him tightly, laughing out loud at something he whispered on her ear. 

“Hello. I’m Kurt Vagner.” Kurt introduced himself, extending his hand for a handshake, but [Y/N]’s father pulled him into a hug instead, clapping his back twice before pulling away.

“I know very well who you are, I read her letters with her mother every week. She really talks nonstop about you.” [Y/N] buried her face on her hands, embarrassed, but Kurt didn’t miss her smile. 

He understood her perfectly, because he felt a lot like smiling too.

Before they left, [Y/N] and Kurt had introduced her parents to the rest of the group, who had liked them immediately, and even went outside to wave them goodbye as they drove away. 

During the whole ride, [Y/N] and Kurt sat on opposite sides of the backseat, not even trying to get closer to each other. It felt incredibly awkward, not to mention wrong– because they were so used to be all over each other that not being holding hands at the very least was like something was missing.

Her parents asked Kurt all sorts of questions, and Kurt answered every single one of them with no problems whatsoever. He told them about his life on the circus, what was like fighting Apocalypse, his training, and he even told them his side of the story of how he and [Y/N] had met. When they finally arrived to their home, her parents were completely charmed by him.

They showed them his room, which was on the first floor– far away from hers– and then they went to the kitchen to begin making dinner while they got settled. 

“Here, leave your bag here and then I’ll show you my room.” Kurt did as told and got ready to teleport them to the top of the stairs, but she shook her head fervently, before pulling him up the steps with her. She lead him to her room and closed the door behind them before turning to them. “They can’t know you can teleport, at least not yet.” She said in a whisper.

“Vhy not?” Kurt answered with a puzzled frown.

“Because I want you to come into my room after they’ve gone to bed, and the only way for you to do that without them knowing is teleporting. Look, my parents are chill, but not that chill.”

“Vell, maybe ve shouldn’t be in the other’s room if zhey don’t vant us to be.” She raised her eyebrows and leveled him with a look.

“Are you serious? During summer I could accept that, but you’re trying to tell me that when it’s this cold you won’t want to cuddle with me at night?” Kurt looked torn between what his mind told him he was supposed to do, and what he truly wanted to do, which was fall asleep with [Y/N] every night. 

“Fine, I von’t tell zhem… unless zhey ask. If zhey ask me, I vill.” He said with crossed arms and she nodded.

“Fair enough.” She answered without complaining. She knew her parents wouldn’t ask him what powers he had because he already had such a visible mutation, and they knew it wasn’t polite to ask people what their mutations were. For now, everything was okay.

On Christmas Eve, the four of them had travelled to [Y/N]’s grandmother house, where there was going to be a big gathering of the family– who apparently were tripping over themselves to finally get to meet Kurt. 

To no one’s surprise, everyone loved him. But especially [Y/N]’s grandmother, who adopted him as her grandson within ten minutes of talking to him. Her cousins were fascinated by him, and ended up calling him the Blue Elf King, which made Kurt feel incredibly happy inside. Her aunt, who, as far as Kurt knew, was the person who’d taught [Y/N] a lot of the things she knew about her own body and herself, had liked him from the moment she saw him. That meant a lot to Kurt, because he knew that she was a big part in [Y/N]’s life. At one point, she and her had disappeared to another room for a few minutes, before coming back like nothing had happened. But even though no one else had noticed, Kurt had seen that [Y/N]’s face had looked just a little darker than usual, which mean that she’d seen or heard something that had made her blush.

After they returned to [Y/N]’s house, they were so tired that Kurt fell asleep before he could teleport into her room to fall asleep with her– and it was only when he woke up in the middle of the night and felt a warm body pressed against his back and an arm wrapped around his middle that he realized she’d came into his room to sleep with him. He couldn’t stop the smile that appeared on his face and pressed himself a little closer to her, holding the hand that she’d draped around him with one of his own.

Two days before December 31st, [Y/N]’s parents had a New Year’s party at some friends’ house– which meant that for the first time, she and Kurt would be completely alone. Apart from the nights Kurt had snuck into [Y/N]’s bedroom, most of their time had been spent with other people accompanying them. That’s why they were almost jumping in excitement when it was time for her parents to leave, even though they looked perfectly calm on the outside.

“Okay, we’ll be back late, so don’t bother waiting up for us.” Her mother said at the door, adjusting her father’s tie.

“How do we look? The Adams are going to be there and I can already see them looking down at us. I wish Charlie and Alex hadn’t invited them.” Her father said with narrowed eyes. [Y/N] shook her head and waved him off.

“You look wonderful. Don’t worry about them, they’re just jealous.” She answered, shrugging her shoulders.

“Vhy are zhey jealous?” Kurt asked, curious. [Y/N]’s mother rolled her eyes and shook her head at him.

“Don’t listen to them, they’re not jealous. They just wish they were as happy as we are.” She said dismissively.

“They are jealous.” Her father agreed with a smile and looked at Kurt. “We’ve known them for years. They went to a private school and we all know they got married to join their families’ money. They don’t like each other very much. And Theodore– the husband– was in love, or so he’d say, with this lady over here.” He pointed at [Y/N]’s mother with his thumb. Kurt looked enthralled, with his mouth opened a little in surprise. “When we started dating he was furious– like he had some sort of claim on her and no one could even come close to her. Disgusting. Anyway, we obviously kept on dating, and then we got married because we were in love with each other and he never got over it.” [Y/N] just rolled her eyes and smiled at Kurt, because she knew this story by heart already.

“Oh, really? You’re one to talk! Everyone knew Gwendolyn–” She looked at Kurt. “–that’s the wife–” She turned to her husband again. “–had liked you for years, and when I asked you out and you said yes I thought she was going to murder me. It’s like they joined forces to hate us together.” She made a face before lifting her palms up, shaking her head. “I swear to you, in front of our only daughter and her boyfriend that if she tries to make a move on you again this year, I will jump your bones right in front of her to show her what’s mine.”

“Mom!” [Y/N] yelled suddenly, embarrassed. Kurt was grinning widely, and her father looked beyond excited. 

This couldn’t get worse.

“Then I’ll be praying for her to do so.” He said with a smile and [Y/N] opened her mouth in surprise.

Okay, maybe it could get worse.

“That’s it. Bye, have fun.” She opened the door for them and ushered them out after kissing both of their cheeks. They waved at her and Kurt while laughing. She waited until they pulled out of the driveway and into the street before closing the door again.

“Okay, that was embarrassing, let’s not talk about it.” Kurt snickered but nodded. “Can you take us to my room?” She asked, holding his hand, and a second later they were gone from the door and standing in her bedroom. 

[Y/N] sat on the bed and began taking off her shoes, while Kurt looked at her with a hopeful smile.

“Are ve going to cuddle?” He asked in an impossibly adorable voice. She nodded and got under the covers, lifting them up for him to get in. He quickly moved and placed himself on top of her, burying his face on the crook of her neck. “I love you.” He mumbled, tangling his legs with hers and wrapping his tail around her arm.

“I love you too, baby. You are everything to me.” She said softly, kissing his head. 

They fell asleep like that, holding each other tightly.

[Y/N] was the first to wake up, to the sound of her phone ringing on her bedside table. She took her free arm out of the covers and quickly picked up, not wanting Kurt to wake up, but he just snuggled closer to her.

“Hello?” She asked with the steadiest voice she could manage. “Hi, mom. We fell asleep, actually. What time is it? Oh… No, yeah, I can hear it now. So you’re coming home tomorrow morning? Okay, be safe. I love you. Bye.” She hung up and moved to open the blinds on her window a little only to find that indeed, there was a raging snowstorm outside and everything was white.

She pulled the covers tightly around them and held Kurt closer against her body. It wasn’t until he woke up and began to stir that she noticed something.

Something really hard between his legs.

She knew it was because he wasn’t completely awake yet, but he rubbed himself against her thigh and a little moan came out if his mouth.

Oh, no. 

She felt herself getting wet and cursed inwardly. She and Kurt had been together for a little less than a year already, and they hadn’t come close to anything even remotely sexual. She had been ready for months, but he wasn’t and that was the most important thing. So they kissed and cuddled and fell asleep together– but they never went beyond that. And that was fine, because that’s what he believed in and she would die before she pressured him into anything he wasn’t ready for.

But now he had just rubbed his hard erection on her thigh and she was aroused as hell. She had to wake him up, he didn’t know what he was doing.

“Kurt, baby. Wake up.” She said, swallowing thickly. He stirred and another moan left his mouth before his eyes opened wide and he looked at her, pulling away slightly.

“Liebe.” He breathed out with wide eyes– and she knew he had just realized what he’d done.

“I know baby, I woke you up because I know you don’t want any of that yet.” She said with a soft voice, caressing his cheek. “If you want–”

“I vas dreaming of you.” He cut her off as he returned to her embrace, pressing himself against her again. She could feel he was still hard. “It vas such a beautiful dream, liebe… Ve vere together…” He looked away. “Vith no clozhes on. It felt so good.” He confessed, his warm hand going underneath her shirt to caress her stomach tentatively.

“Kurt…” She said, her breath hitching. “My parents aren’t coming until tomorrow. There’s a storm. We are all alone tonight.” She blurted out and Kurt looked at her for a moment before pressing his lips against hers.

“Liebe… I am ready.” He breathed against her mouth and she felt like her heart was exploding. 

She and Kurt had talked about being intimate with each other a couple of months before, and he had stated that he didn’t think he was ready for that, and that he would like to wait until marriage. She had been slightly disappointed, but in the end the only thing that mattered was being able to be with him, even if that kind of intimacy was off the table.

Apparently, that had changed now.

“Are you sure, cupcake? You know we don’t have to do this.” She reassured, caressing his back while he moved to straddle her. His response was removing his sweater and t-shirt, looking down expectantly at her. She gasped. “Baby…”

“I need you, [Y/N].” Kurt whispered, almost desperate. “I have vanted to be vith you like zhis since our first kiss, but I have been holding back because of my beliefs. But zhe dream I had– it felt like a signal. I vant to give myself to you completely, tonight.” It was impossible not to get immensely turned on, hearing him talking like that. She sat up and grabbed the back of his neck, kissing him roughly. Kurt whimpered into the kiss and wrapped his legs around her waist, sitting comfortably on her lap.

“You’re gorgeous.” She moaned against his neck, licking and biting. Kurt was a whimpering and shuddering mess– he was clearly overcome by the sensations. She kept on kissing his neck before moving her hands to squeeze his ass. Kurt groaned and his tail wrapped around her forearm, urging her to squeeze again. She did and Kurt’s head fell back, exposing his neck to her. She grinned and licked from his sternum to his Adam’s apple, finishing with an open mouthed kiss on his lips. Kurt began to unbutton his pants but it was just so difficult to do anything when he was so turned on– so he whimpered, resting his forehead on her shoulder.

“Do you want me to help you take them off, baby? She asked and he nodded, trembling slightly. "And what about your boxers… Those too?” Kurt took a second to answer but nodded again. “Okay. Lie back, beautiful. I promise I’ll take care of you.” Kurt untangled himself from her and did as told. He brought his hand to his mouth and bit down on a finger softly, eyes glazed over.

He looked incredible.

She caressed his thighs and his hips thrusted upwards involuntarily. She noticed his rather big bulge against his leg and swallowed, trying to control herself. She had to be gentle with him. When she reached the waistband of his open pants, she slid two fingers inside and caressed his skin slowly, softly. He whimpered again and looked at her with pleading eyes. She grabbed the pants along with his boxers and pulled them down, setting his hard cock free, finally. He was so gorgeous– rock hard just for her. The tip was wet and leaking, and she clenched her thighs to try to alleviate some of the pressure she felt between her legs.

Kurt was simply the most beautiful being on Earth, naked and ready for her.

“Liebe…” He managed to say in a needy voice. “I vant you to touch me.” She caressed his legs until she reached his thighs again and pressed her palm against his length before squeezing him just enough for it to feel good. He cried out in pleasure and she took a firm hold of him before pumping him up and down. However, all of a sudden she had to stop and release him.

Kurt was crying.

“Oh my god, baby. You weren’t ready.” She cried out, dismayed, and covered him up with her sheet. “I’m so sorry…” But Kurt was shaking his head fervently– eyes still filled with tears– and quickly uncovered himself again.

“It feels so good. So good. I vant more, I need more. Please, give me more. Touch me harder.” He begged, tears streaming down his face. [Y/N] realized that he was overwhelmed by pleasure– and the only way he’d found to deal with that had been through crying.

She loved him so much it hurt.

She pressed down softly on the tip of his cock before leaning down and licking the precum that was coming out. Kurt gasped and sobbed, whimpering while he begged her to keep going. She massaged his balls for a second before Kurt sat up on the bed, eyes wide.

“Stop!” He screamed, and she pulled away immediately, scared. “I’m sorry, I vas going to–” He dried his tears with the back of his hand. She moved closer and kissed his wet cheeks.

“Come?” She asked in a whisper, biting and pulling on his earlobe. He nodded. “Do you want to taste yourself in my tongue?” She asked tentatively and he gasped before biting his lip. He looked down, embarrassed, and nodded.

“Ja, please.” He said and she lifted his chin up before leaning down, caressing his tongue with hers. Kurt was breathing heavily, moaning against her mouth. Finally, he was the one who pulled away.

“I vant to see you. Can I help you take your clothes off, liebe? Please?” He begged desperately and she nodded before remembering something very important.

“But before that, Kurt… Do you want to go all the way?” He looked into her eyes and nodded, resolute.

“I vant to make love.” He said softly and she melted completely. 

How on Earth had she managed to get this beautiful soul to fall in love with her?

For now, that didn’t matter. There was only one thing that mattered, and that was that they needed condoms urgently.

“Okay, cupcake. We need condoms.” She said, pulling away from him. 

“Vhat are condoms?” Kurt asked, tilting his head to the side.

“A condom is like a rubber cap that you put on your penis so when you come, I don’t end up pregnant.” She explained as simply as she could and he nodded immediately.

“Ja, zhat is very important. But– I don’t have any.” He said, frowning worriedly.

“My parents have some.” She told him, quickly blocking the image of her parents that threatened to ruin the moment. “But I have to get them now, okay? I’ll be right back.” Kurt nodded and she kissed him softly. “Cover yourself, it’s really cold.” Kurt did as told and she walked out of the room as fast as humanly possible.

She opened the door of her parents room and immediately went to rummage through her mother’s underwear drawer. She opened it as much as she could and thrust her hand in, feeling for the little packages she needed so much. She finally found them and sighed in relief, but just as she was grabbing a couple, her hand made contact with something hard and thick.

Something hard and thick with leather straps.

Her mother had a fucking strap-on inside her drawer.

FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, DON’T THINK ABOUT IT!

She quickly closed her eyes and imagined Kurt on her bed, massaging his balls while moaning her name.

That did it.

She quickly took two condoms and got the hell out of that room. When she walked inside her own again, Kurt had his eyes closed and she could see his hand moving underneath the covers.

“[Y/N]… harder– oh– Harder… Touch me zhere, meine liebe…” He was moaning under his breath and the condoms nearly fell from her hands. This night only got better and better. She walked as quietly as she could and kneeled before him. She lifted up the covers only slightly while he continued moaning her name, desperate to see what he was doing.

She was unable to stop the loud gasp that left her mouth.

One of Kurt’s hands was cupping his balls while the other moved up and down his cock, but the best part was that he was pushing the tip of his tail between his butt cheeks.

“Touch me there.” He’d said in his fantasy. 

Damn right, she would. The moment he asked her, she would.

Kurt stopped when he realized she was staring at him, and looked at her with terrified eyes. She turned to him with dark eyes and practically slammed the condoms on the bedside table, quickly standing up from the floor. She took her sweater and t-shirt in one quick motion before dumping them on the floor. Next, she opened her pants and let them fall down, taking them out with her socks. She was only wearing her underwear now, and Kurt was looking at her like he’d never seen something so amazing in his life.

She climbed on top of him and threw the covers on top of them, because even if she was on fire it was still too cold.

“I saw you.” She said, kissing him deeply, one hand going between their joined bodies to massage his cock. “I heard you.”  Kurt whimpered and the tears came back with vengeance. He couldn’t take much more of this. “It was the hottest thing I ever saw. You playing with your tail like that? Give me your hand, I’ll show you how it made me feel.” His nails were trimmed short, thanks to God. He’d begun trimming them a couple of months ago, after he’d scratched her hand enough to draw a little blood while they were holding hands. 

She guided one finger inside her underwear and placed it in between her lips, and Kurt gasped before moaning loudly. She guided his hand until he could rub her by himself.

“K– Kurt!” She gasped when he pressed hard on her clit.

“Vhat, liebe? Did I do somezhing wrong?” He asked, panicking.

“No, you did everything right. Touch me in that little place again. Can you do that?” She asked breathlessly. He nodded and pressed his finger against her clit again, rubbing in little circles. She shuddered and rested her head on his shoulder, trembling. “Put your finger inside me, baby.” She said and he gasped, his cock twitching. “Do you want me to guide you?” She murmured and he nodded, impatient. She grabbed his big finger and slowly inserted it in her. She moved her hips against it while pulling it in and out, until Kurt was able to do it without her help. He used his thumb to rub her clit again and before she even knew what was happening, an orgasm it her full force. She screamed and bit his neck softly, making him moan loudly in return.

“Vhat happened?” Kurt asked as she pulled his wet finger out of her.

“You did great, cupcake. That’s what happened. I love you.” [Y/N] said, looking satisfied, and Kurt’s eyes fired up at the compliment. He loved to be praised by her– and that was good, because she loved to tell him how great he was.

She caught him staring at his finger wistfully and then back at her with questioning eyes.

“Do you wanna taste it, baby? She asked, moving a strand of hair behind his ear. He nodded, eagerly. "Then do it. Find out how I taste.” He did as told and a sinful moan came out of his mouth after the first lick. He continued licking himself until his finger was clean.

“Kiss me, liebe.” He whispered, eyes dark with desire. She pulled his mouth to hers and kissed him vigorously.

“I think it’s time. Are you ready?” Kurt nodded and moved to lay on his back. She opened a package and took the condom out, showing it to him. “And now you roll it down like this…” She instructed, massaging his balls as she did so. Kurt was biting his lip hard to stop himself from moaning. “Don’t hold back, baby. Moan for me.” He did as told, and loudly. “Okay.” She said, aligning him to her entrance. “I will go slowly, I haven’t done this before.” She said and he nodded, hands on her hips. She lowered herself on him gradually, inch by inch, until he was balls deep inside her. She groaned and placed her hands on his chest, scratching him a little. She moved a little to adjust and then began to move up and down and up and down until she was riding him like her life depended on it. Kurt was whimpering and begging for more, and she leaned down to kiss his beautiful lips. Kurt’s finger found her clit again and she moaned loudly, feeling her second orgasm approaching quickly.

“Are you close, baby?” She asked and he nodded, hips thrusting upwards to meet her.

“Ja, liebe. I am so close. Tell me vhen I can come, I von’t unless you allow it.” He said in a shaky voice and that was her undoing. She came even harder than the first time, clenching tightly around Kurt’s dick.

“Do it now, gorgeous. Do it for me.” Kurt came hard into the condom, thrusting deeply into her. [Y/N] kept riding him after he was done, making him tear up again due to the intense pleasure brought by overstimulation.

She fell back on the bed next to him, satisfied like never before in her life. He was trembling, but looked every bit as satisfied as she felt.

“Now we have to dispose of the condom.” She said, helping him do so. He threw it on the trash can next to her bed. She caressed his chest and he turned to look at her with bright eyes.

“I vant to do zhat again. Many times.” He said seriously and she laughed blissfully.

“Me too, baby. But right now we should drink some water, and then I want to take you to the bathroom and clean you up. Would you like that? Taking a shower together?” Kurt looked at her like she’d offered him all the secrets of the universe.

“Yes, I vould.”

New Year came and went without them being able to pay much attention to it. They were both desperate to be with each other again, but that was simply out of the question. They didn’t find themselves alone again after that night, and they had agreed that it was best if they didn’t sleep together anymore because they knew they wouldn’t be able to stop themselves if they did.

The day they were supposed to go back to the mansion, [Y’N]’s aunt picked them both up in her car to get something to eat one last time before they both went back to school. As they drove away– [Y/N] sitting in the front seat and Kurt sitting in the backseat alone– he noticed a paper bag with a Pharmacy logo on seat next to him. 

“Okay, I got you enough to last you for some time, but remember, the moment you need more you give me a call, send me a letter, whatever, and I’ll get you more. No questions asked, yeah?” Her aunt told [Y/N], pointing at the bag he had just been looking at. [Y/N] nodded like she knew what her aunt was talking about, and Kurt just couldn’t stop his curiosity. He carefully opened the bag and peeked inside, eyes widening in surprise the moment he noticed what it contained.

“Mein Gott!” He said, mouth agape. “Zhose are a lot of condoms, liebe!” [Y/N] blushed, even though she couldn’t help but smile at him. Her aunt snorted and shook her head, grinning.  

“I suspect you’ll find they’re not that many once you get down to it, Kurt. But it’s always better to be safe than sorry.” She said, shrugging her shoulders. Kurt swallowed and nodded, closing the paper bag again.

“Thank you.” [Y/N] said, looking at her aunt gratefully. “This means a lot. Remember, don’t tell mom. I don’t think she’s ready for that yet.”

“I won’t kid, don’t worry about it.”

[Y/N] had safely packed the bag inside her suitcase, which was now travelling in the trunk of her parents’ car as they made their way to the school again. She and Kurt were once again sitting in separate sides of the seat, longing to be with each other alone more than ever. 

The ride felt like it had lasted an eternity, and as they waved [Y/N]’s parents goodbye from the entrance of the house, they were both trembling with pent up need for each other. The moment the car disappeared from their sight, [Y/N] turned to Kurt with dark eyes and jumped on him, wrapping her legs around his waist before devouring his mouth with hers. Kurt squeezed her ass and rubbed her against him, unable to get enough of her.

“Bedroom, now.” She commanded in a deep voice she hadn’t known could come out of her own mouth, and Kurt teleported them to his room without even opening his eyes.

“HOLY SHIT! HO-LY! SHIT!” Someone said and they pulled away from each other, turning their heads towards the place where the voice had come from, only to find Peter, Ororo and Jubilee sitting on Kurt’s bed, apparently playing a board game. The voice belonged to Peter, who had his mouth open in surprise, just like Jubilee and Ororo. [Y/N] jumped down from Kurt and looked at them, not saying a word.

“Get. Out!” Kurt growled deeply, baring his teeth at them. They looked at each other with shit-eating grins and then back at them before scurrying out of the room without saying anything, closing the door behind them. [Y/N] could hear them laughing behind it, and groaned loudly before throwing herself face down on Kurt’s bed, making a few pieces of the game bounce to the floor.  

“They killed the mood so fast.” She whined. Kurt didn’t answer, so she lifted her head up to look at him. He was just standing there, frowning slightly.

“I didn’t mean to growl at zhem like zhat.” He said, fidgeting with his hands. [Y/N] turned around and extended her arms, inviting him to lie down with her. Kurt moved the rest of the game from his bed to the floor and snuggled closer to her, resting his head on her chest.

“You were turned on, baby. If I could I would’ve growled at them too. And judging by their laughs, they didn’t take it the wrong way at all.” She said, caressing his head. Kurt nodded and sighed.

“Maybe it vasn’t meant to be right now. Maybe ve have to vait until tonight.” He said, yawning.

“Yeah, maybe.” She replied, holding him until he fell asleep.

As it turned out, it had been better to wait until the night after they were interrupted by Ororo, Peter and Jubilee, because they’d been more calmed and they had worshipped each other like they knew they wouldn’t have done in the heat of that moment. 

And after that night came many more nights like it– and sometimes evenings, and sometimes mornings.

But above everything, [Y/N] loved lying down with Kurt on his bed during the sunset, both of themon their sides, looking at each other. Because of the position of his window, right as the sun went down there were a couple of minutes when the light hit him directly, and his eyes turned from red to gold. To [Y/N], that was almost a miracle of beauty. He also made the most adorable face she’d ever seen– scrunching up his nose and closing his eyes tightly for a moment before he opened them up again because– and these had been his exact words– “Not looking at you vhen you are so close to me feels like a vaste.”

Right now the sun was already gone enough that his eyes were red again, and she leaned in to place a soft kiss on his slightly parted lips before pulling away so she could continue staring at his magnificent face. There was no way she’d ever get tired of looking at him. [Y/N] had never met a person who made her feel like Kurt did. Never in her life had she considered another person to be so incredibly beautiful that it felt like a sin to not look at them every chance you got.

And then, Kurt came into her life.

“Vhat are you zhinking, liebe?” Kurt asked in a whisper, moving a loose strand of hair behind her ear.

“How beautiful you are and how much I love you.” She answered in the same tone, and Kurt smiled before looking down, a little embarrassed, and then up again, right into her eyes.

“Ich liebe dich, my love.”

It was a natural progression of things now: after they told each other I love you, what followed tended to be an intense kiss that ended up leaving them panting and breathless, with flushed cheeks and desperate for more.

She pushed him on his back and moved to straddle him, her hands grabbing his to bring them on top of his head, holding them firmly in place. Kurt could’ve pulled away from her hold without a lot of effort– but he didn’t want to. Instead, a deep, throaty moan left his lips when she nibbled on his earlobe.

She guided his hands to the headrest of the bed, and he quickly complied to her silent command. He held on tightly, his body trembling with excitement and arousal. [Y/N] accommodated herself better on top of him, causing beautiful friction between their bodies, and this time they moaned in unison. Kurt’s body arched upwards as he closed his eyes and bit his lip, and she took a moment to admire the sheer beauty of the moment she was sharing with her boyfriend.

He was helpless underneath her like she had learned he loved to be– like he had learned she loved him to be. His chest heaved with every breath and when he looked at her, his eyes were glazed over with tears. This was a common occurrence– when they were getting started Kurt got overwhelmed by pleasure rather quickly, and he couldn’t stop himself from tearing up due to the intensity of the emotions he felt. It was a good sign, and just another thing about him she was irrevocably in love with.

She reached down between their bodies to feel him, and just as she expected, he was hard and throbbing. The moment her palm made contact with his cock, Kurt whimpered and closed his eyes tightly, a tear rolling down his cheek. She was torn between wanting to hold him in her arms while they made love slowly and tenderly and wanting to ride him harder than she’d ever done– so she opted for a medium point. She took her shirt off and her bra in two quick motions, and Kurt whimpered again at the sight of her topless on top of him.

[Y/N] lifted her leg and moved to kneel on the bed beside him, smiling when he looked at her with a sad frown, not pleased at all that she wasn’t on top of him anymore.

“Come here, baby.” She commanded and Kurt let go of the headrest to kneel right in front of her.

She grabbed the back of his neck and pulled him to her, their lips connecting in a deep kiss. Kurt pulled her closer to him by grabbing her ass, and rubbed her against him the second he got a chance. Their kiss was interrupted by his gasps, and she grinned before kissing him again. Their tongues had no battle to fight– she was in charge and they both knew it.

Once again she reached down to massage his cock, but this time she left no clothing barrier between his skin and her hand. Kurt whimpered louder than ever and almost fell down on top of her, unable to keep himself upright. He was breathing with difficulty, his hips thrusting into her hand as she jerked him off.

“If you don’t– Ah!– s–stop, I vill–” He managed to say and she grinned wickedly before removing her hand.

“Not yet, baby. Remember what I said? You’re only allowed to come if you’re buried inside me.” She said seriously and Kurt whimpered again before nodding, resting his forehead against hers. “Okay. I want you naked, now.” Kurt’s tail was moving wildly behind him, and she had to bite her lip to stop herself from smiling. She had a beautiful plan for it, but it wasn’t the right time for it just now. Now the priority was to make Kurt lose all of his clothes. She moved her hands underneath his t-shirt, caressing his stomach before running her nails down his back slowly and gently– with no intention to leave any marks.

Yet.

She helped him take it off while still kissing him, only pulling away when he lifted it over his head, throwing it carelessly towards some place on the floor. His arms were now around her, holding her tightly against his bare chest. She licked the base of his neck slightly before pulling away from him completely.

“Lie back down. Hands over your head.” Kurt complied instantly, holding onto the bars of his headrest for dear life. “Well done, baby. You are doing so great.” She praised and the lovely sound of his whimpers reached her ears once again. “You deserve a reward for being so good.” She smiled and Kurt gasped as his hips thrusted upwards involuntarily. [Y/N] moved on top of him and kissed him deeply, her hand going between his legs to massage his stiff cock again.

“P–please, liebe.” He begged breathlessly, a couple of tears running down his cheeks. “I need you.” God, this was heaven. Nothing would ever feel as wonderful as this.

“I know you do, beautiful.” She whispered against his lips before biting him softly, pulling at his bottom lip slightly. “I need you too, I am dying to have you inside me. But not yet. Now, you deserve your reward.” Kurt bit his lip in anticipation while she kissed his neck softly before going lower. She licked and bit his nipples while Kurt’s back arched up. She continued lower until she reached the waistband of his pants, and pulled them down with his boxers in two quick motions.

Kurt’s throbbing dick sprung free, twitching slightly. His tip was leaking precum, and she quickly caught it with her tongue. Kurt moaned so loudly she was glad her power allowed her to make them go unnoticed, because otherwise they would’ve had a lot of explaining to do.  She took as much of his length as she could– which wasn’t a lot– and used her hand to take care of the rest. Her tongue caressed him with every suck, while she tried not to smile at his wrecked state. He was moaning and whimpering and crying and begging for more, and it was gorgeous.

“Liebe, I can’t take it, stop, I am going to–” She let him free with a pop before massaging his balls teasingly.

“[Y/N]!” Kurt gasped in a broken voice.

“Sorry.” She laughed and climbed on top of him again. “You can touch me now, baby.” She was still wearing her pants, and by the way Kurt’s hands and tail immediately went to tug desperately at them, he wasn’t pleased about it. She grinned at his eagerness and helped him by getting them down.

“If ve do it right now I von’t last. I vant…” He bit his lip and turned away from her. She grabbed his chin and forced him to meet her eye before leaning down to kiss him softly.  His tail wrapped itself around her leg slowly, and she smiled lovingly, caressing his cheek. He leaned into her touch and closed his eyes as a satisfied sigh escaped his lips.

“Tell me what you want, Kurt.” She ordered in a whisper and Kurt opened his eyes to look at her, keeping his stare focused.

“I vant my tongue inside you.” [Y/N]’s eyes darkened with desire and she connected their lips in a desperate kiss that made the tip of Kurt’s cock leak too much precum and her underwear to dampen even more, if that was possible. When they pulled away, she was smiling the wicked smile Kurt was so incredibly in love with.

“Then what are you waiting for, cupcake? Eat me.” She muttered in a dark, deep voice that had Kurt’s dick twitching in anticipation.

Kurt moved to the end of the bed while she accommodated herself, leaning against the pillow in an almost fully seated position. She spread her legs wide, inviting him in, and Kurt licked his lips hungrily before rubbing his dick a couple of times. He moved slowly, carefully, until his breath warmed her inner thighs. He kissed them reverently, like it was a privilege to be touching her like that. And then, he kissed her covered pussy. [Y/N] gasped and let out a heavy moan that had him smiling, and then looked at him as he bit the fabric and pulled it down without using his hands. She helped him by closing her legs until the garment was thrown across the room, and then spread them even wider than before. Kurt rested his hands on her bent knees and then caressed her legs until he reached her hips. He leaned down again and made eye contact for a second before giving one long, wet lick to her lips. She moaned and pushed herself against his face, making him moan in return. He placed the back of her knees on his shoulders before thrusting his tongue inside her, licking and sucking. One of his hands moved up to massage her breast, squeezing her nipple between his fingers.

His tail was trembling behind him, and she leaned forward and grabbed it with one hand. Kurt lifted his head from between her legs– mouth soaked with her juices– and she held his stare as she pressed her thumb to the middle of the tip. He moaned and she buried her fingers on his hair before bringing the tip to her mouth to lick it. Kurt’s eyes rolled back in pleasure and he once again buried himself on her wetness, feasting on her like a starving man. She pulled on his hair at the same time she licked and massaged his tail, and before long she was throwing her head back, screaming in ecstasy.

Kurt kept on licking her sporadically until she finally came down from her high, panting with a satisfied smile.

He climbed up the bed and lay beside her, leaning his head on her shoulder. She scratched his scalp lovingly before kissing his forehead.

“Did I do it vell?” He asked, looking at her with shy eyes. She felt her heart swelling with adoration.

“You did amazing, baby. C'mere. ” She brought his head to hers and captured his lips in a languid, lazy kiss. She could taste herself on his tongue, and fuck it if it didn’t make her even wetter than she was already. “Are you ready?” She asked in a whisper against his lips, and Kurt nodded.

She turned around to his bedside table and opened the drawer to take one small foil package. She closed the drawer and turned around again, finding Kurt already on his back. She kissed him softly while he held the back of her head before pulling away to open the condom. She rolled it down on his cock and climbed on top of him again. She guided him to her entrance with her hand before sinking down on him, throwing her head back in bliss once he was completely inside her. Kurt’s hands found her hips, and his tail wrapped around her waist, the tip just an inch away from her clit. She moved up slowly and sank down once again, moaning loudly as she did so. Kurt was helping her with his hands every time she went up, and then pushing her down.

“You feel so good inside me.” [Y/N] breathed out with closed eyes and Kurt finally took his chance to rub her clit with the tip of his tail.

[Y/N] gasped in surprise and opened her eyes to finding him looking at her with dark eyes, biting his lip hard.

He was holding back his moans, and she was not having that.

“Moan for me, gorgeous.” She commanded, leaning down to kiss him deeply, biting his bottom lip. “Do you enjoy this?” She asked in a whisper, her lips barely grazing his. He whimpered and nodded. “How much?” She asked riding his cock slowly, and then moving her mouth to nibble on his earlobe. His hands moved around her waist to hold her close while his tail played with her clit mercilessly. [Y/N] was getting closer to her second orgasm of the day while Kurt got closer to his first. 

“I love zhis. I love to be inside you, liebe.” He managed to say before a loud groan left his beautiful, plump lips. “I– I am close, [Y/N].” He whimpered again while she continued her motions and licked his neck.

“So am I, baby.” She said before sitting up and removing his hands from around her. She brought them above his head and held them in place with hers. Kurt moaned and she began to move faster, harder. She leaned down again and kissed him as best as she could, swallowing his moans.

Kurt thrust his hips upwards and emptied himself, while she rode him a couple more times before reaching her own release.

His mouth found hers and they kissed with as much intensity as they could muster, Kurt whimpering and crying due to the overstimulation caused by [Y/N] riding the waves of her own orgasm.

She threw herself next to him after his tail released her waist, grinning like a fool. Kurt smiled widely at her and kissed her cheek before standing up to dispose of the condom and clean himself up. He returned as fast as he could to the bed, where [Y/N] was waiting for him underneath the covers. He got in and she immediately opened her arms– an invitation he gladly accepted. He rested his head on her chest and tangled his tail and legs with hers, snuggling into her as much as possible. She moved one arm around his back and her other hand to his hair, massaging his scalp lovingly.

“I love you so much, cupcake. I didn’t even know it was possible to love someone as much as I love you.” She confessed in a whisper, holding him a little tighter against her naked body.

“Ja, I understand.” Kurt said seriously before moving upwards a little so both of their heads rested against the pillow, because it was easier to kiss her that way. “I vas never in love before I met you. I didn’t know vhat it vas like. But now zhanks to you, I do. And it is zhe best feeling in the vorld.” Her eyes filled with tears and all she could do was nod in agreement before kissing him.

When they pulled away, he had a strange, thoughtful look in his eyes.

“Kurt?” She asked, moving away a strand of hair that had clung to his sweaty skin. “Talk to me, baby.”

“Remember months ago, vhen zhose men said I vas only allowed to talk if zhey told me I could? And you got angry and hit zhem all?” She nodded, trying not to get angry at the memory. “Vell… zhat vasn’t zhe first time someone said somezhing like zhat to me.” She frowned in despair and he could see her eyes glazing over with frustrated tears. He kissed both of them before kissing her lips. “In Germany, zhere vere people who sometimes came to zhe circus who vanted me to show them vhat I could do. I vanted to say no, but I couldn’t because zhey had money zhey gave to the circus if I performed for zhem alone. Ve needed zhat money. Sometimes I had to do it for hours until zhey finally said I had permission to stop.” A tear rolled down his cheek and she quickly dried it with her thumb. She kissed him and snuggled closer, their naked bodies feeding of the other’s warmth. “Zhe circus vas my home, and even today I miss it, but zhose vere the times vhen I couldn’t ignore the feeling zhat they owned me. Zhey came vith zheir money and zhey decided I belonged to zhem.” [Y/N]’s lower lip was trembling, and she took a deep breath.

“Kurt, listen to me: you will never, ever, belong to anyone but yourself, okay? Never. No one can come and tell you that you belong to them because that has no value. You are yours and yours alone.” She said in a tone she meant to be firm, but her voice was breaking. Kurt smiled and looked at her with those beautiful eyes that shone with the pure love he felt for her.

“Ja, liebe. I know zhat now. Zhere is no person who can decide I am zheir property. But it is not true zhat I belong only to myself. I belong to someone ozher zhan me.”  [Y/N] frowned deeply, worrying that there was someone who’d made him believe something like that.

“What do you mean?” She asked cautiously.

“No vone decided zhat zhey owned me.” He took a deep breath. “I chose to be yours.” He whispered and for a moment, [Y/N] was unable to respond. Then, her eyes overflowed with tears and she connected their lips in one quick move.

“Oh my God, cupcake. I love you so much. I am yours too, baby.” She wanted to say so much more but the need to kiss him was too much and it felt like nothing she could say was going to be enough. “I love you more than anything.”

Kurt was grinning, and pulled her on top of him. His dick was hard again, ready for another round. She laughed through her tears when she felt him against her belly, and he sat up and wrapped his arms around her waist. [Y/N] grabbed his face gently and rested her forehead against his.

“It’s so easy to love you.” She muttered, resting her head on his shoulder. “I want to love you forever.” Kurt smiled and kissed her temple.

“I vant to love you forever, too.”