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You are still asleep on his bed in his extended mission quarters. Until you feel the impact of the command shuttles touchdown in the hanger bay. You wake up in a panic breathing too erratically. You start to do what your former master had told you to calm down and regulate your breathing. You wipe the yucky liquid from your mouth. You see the canteen on the bedside table and take a long swig of the water to clear your mouth and throat. You wonder if he placed the canteen there with an ulterior motive and if you should have had it tested for mind altering substances. But it's way too late for that now that you have drank it.
"Get up to your feet and come with us" the same two random stormtroopers order. You get up and go with them it would be pointless to resist." Where are you taking me" you ask them. " To Commander Ren's quarters you are his guest and he is probably going to have a few questions for you to answer". The random stormtroopers tells you as you are walking to the aforementioned quarters. You have heard about people who tried to escape. Their deaths were brutal and decisive with a frightening amount of effeciency. So you know that escape is not going to be an option. But submission is not going to be an option either. You just have to play this out to your advantage. And just knowing that you are to be placed in his own quarters you feel a shiver down your spine and dread in your heart. You reach out with the force to figure out where he is onboard this massive stardestroyer. You feel his signature on the bridge and he senses your prodding in the force. He remembers how you both used to do that exact same thing as padawans and smiles inside of his mask.
You reach his quarters and are walked inside and told that you should make yourself at home because this is your new one. You look around the place and find a wall of books both paper and holo. You also see that he still enjoys calligraphy. You are not surprised that he is the former Ben Solo he may believe that he killed his former self but you know that signature anywhere. You also see the large sectional sofa and the large chair and ottoman in the middle of the sitting room. You also noticed that he has a large kitchen and the things are organized to a ridiculous meticulation. Even the chilling unit is hyper organized. You go into the refresher and start to feel worried that he has OCD off the charts. Everything is organized and nothing is out of place. His bedroom is the only place in the apartment quarters that is messy but an organized mess. You see at least the bed is made. You go back out into the sitting room and sit on the couch and just wait until he walks in and starts with his interrogation.
That's until your stomach growls loud enough to embarrass you even though you are by yourself. You get to the kitchen and start cooking and cleaning up along the way by the time you get finished and the table set with the dishes you had prepared. You hear the door open and in walks Kylo Ren. "I see you made yourself useful and you made enough for the both of us. How domestic of you Y/N . I hope you had the time to accept the fact that you are going to be here for the rest of your life with me." Kylo stated matter of factly without the room for refusals. " I knew that when I was brought aboard I had no hope of escape or rescue. I'm not an idiot Kylo I just don't know what you are going to want from me and why you didn't kill me on sight. I am just curious about your intentions and also confused as to why you didn't kill me." Y/N confessed.
" Isn't it obvious I want us to continue where we left off. I'm willing to teach you the ways of the force. And also I never forgotten about you have you any idea how long I have missed you. And how pissed off I was to find out you were not coming back to me that you simply ran away and hid from me on that backwater desert planet. Do you know what that did to me and what that does to a man who thought his only friend and lover abandoned him. Only to find her on a complete accident and with his enemies. Do you have any idea how long I tried to look for you on every planet I went to on missions I took side trips to search the areas to see if you were there. Do you know how much you broke my heart when you didn't come back. Did you even care about us at all because I did and I still do. Snoke even though you should have stayed by my side and should have been by my side. He wanted you to be here as well as the one I would call my lover and soon enough my wife. I still love you and I will never let you go you belong to me. That braid says it all you have never taken it out and that is all the confirmation I need. Are you going to honor the commitment that braid represents it's after all our symbol of engagement . "Kylo laid it all out on the table before me.
"I never stopped loving you but I love you as Ben and not this person who you have turned into. But I don't have any choice but to learn to love this side of you as well. When I got home I heard about the razing of the temple by your hands. For the longest time I thought you were dead but you becoming this the thought you embraced the dark side terrified me. I needed some time to get my head back together and to wrap my mind around your turn to the dark side. I also needed time for my body to heal and get healthier than I was. My mind is still in the process of healing. I was never hiding from you I was trying to get myself in the right place in my head and heal my body the best I could. The memory of you was all I could dream about. You infected me when we first got intimate with each other. I can never forget that I never want to forget that." Y/N confessed while preparing the plates. You know now why you were not killed and also why you were brought here.
It's going to be a lot to get used to. You just needed a year longer than you had. You were going to reach out through the force so he could find you eventually. He just moved up the process a little earlier than you had wanted.