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I was right from my time at that school I didn’t make a singular friend I had a couple popular people approach me but they always seemed to snicker during talking to me like it was funny to just be associated with me. The first week there I sat with Will though he didn’t talk to me he only showed me round school. I followed him to class and he only talked to me then, it was clear that he was only tolerating me now he later became a big bully for me more than the popular students I didn’t have any friends so I would eat in the library until he found out he’d show up and tease me and throw paper at me he told the rest of the kids too they would show up and steal my stuff some girls even decided to pester me even more outside of class with trying to make me draw them I made the decision to eat in the toilets after that. I quickly became a favorite for teachers even though it wasn’t something I particularly wanted the kids called me a suck up when I wouldn’t try to steal answers for them for an upcoming test I just wanted to nail down on school why did everyone have to make that difficult. I stayed away from everyone there the only person I talked to was an old friend from my old school I still miss her now talking about it we just drifted apart, I hope she’s doing good now. I don’t know why I constantly have to replay memories from secondary school maybe its just cause I never really got why Will had to mock me he seemed as much as a loner as me so why be mean I just didn’t get it the times he’d pin me against a wall and ask me for money or else he’d hurt me was always the scariest he seemed like someone who had nothing to lose at least if a popular kid were to slam my face in their parents would get on their case but I don’t think this would be the case for him I always carried an extra fiver with me after this became a regular thing.
I huff some air out in frustration I’m sat in my bedroom the night before I have to move and I’m thinking about this shit. I look around my room sat on my mattress looking at my cat all my stuff is on the way to my new place I finally rationalize to myself I need some sleep for the three hour drive I need to be there before the movers are there I shut my eyes and slowly drift off to sleep.
I wake up to the blearing sound of my alarm from my phone I sit up my cat peacefully sleeping on the floor next to her bed god does she have to make everything I buy her useless she seemed startled by my alarm and she shot up I walk over to my alarm to stop its whining I look at the time 6:20am cool just enough time to get ready and avoid any delay cause of traffic. I walk back over to my mattress I place my pillows in the blanket as I fold it up creating a wrap shape I open my cats carrier putting some treats leading into it with a huge pile inside right at the back I get up from my crouching position and look at my cat licking her paw I make my way to the bathroom to brush my teeth to get rid of the putrid smell my mouth emitted I look at my dreary eyes in the mirror god we’ve come a long way my friend I wash off my tooth brush and grab the toothpaste tube to put in my suit case I go back into my room cat disappeared from her spot I peer into the cat carrier to see he tail wiping back and forth I went over crouching down shutting the carrier as I giggle slightly imagining her betrayed face I open my suit case shoving the items in my hand inside I ponder whether I should change my outfit but I just decide to stick with the white t and grey sweats though I did decide to wear my binder I flatten out my shirt a sense of euphoria overwhelms me feeling the flatness I shake my hands with excitement god that feeling does not get old I zip up my suit case picking it up and pulling out the handle I grab my cats carrier and made my way downstairs I put her net to the door and went upstairs picking up my items one by one bringing them to the same place I went up for the last time grabbing my favorite stuffy a pink rabbit I’ve had since I was born it was a gift from some relative It was wearing a black t shirt one I wore when I was a baby I shove it under my armpit as I put a bag on filled with some of my favorite books mostly manga though I remember something I almost forgot I went over to my mattress lifting it up slightly to find my goodbye letter it was filled with toxic words I spilt my guts into this and I was going to make my dad cry he deserved it after everything they did I then grab my suit case and went down stairs I drop all my stuff at the door except the letter I turn around and enter the living room I put the letter down I place a dirty mug on it to make sure it stayed there I turn back and put on some slip on shoes and I carry all my stuff all my stuff out to the car my cat with a bowl of food and little bit of water with a litter box was all placed into the backseat I shoved my bag of stuffy’s as well as my other bag of cloths with the rest of my cats stuff in the boot I placed my suitcase on the seat next to mine retracting the handle and sitting my stuffed bunny on top buckling it in I then put my backpack on the floor of this seat. I finally finished packing up my car god all this felt so freeing finally leaving this hell hole I start up the car and pull out my drive way I cruise through the 3 hour drive only making a couple pit stops for gas and toilet breaks.
I finally arrive I look up at the building its tall I cringe thinking about the possibility of my room being on the top floor though I knew that wasn’t true I look back at my cat she was asleep in her carrier I reach my hand over the back seat and shut the door of the carrier throwing her small blanket on top. I get out my car and go to the boot and grabs my two trash bags I shut the boot and went back to the front door to grab my suitcase and back pack I grab my key out of the backpack and make my way into the building reading the room location I sigh in relief only the second floor. I make my way in I walk over and kick open a door in the apartment its full of stuff a bed a pc I quickly realized this was not my room so I waddle over to the second room seeing nothing but a bare floor I set all my stuff in the room and I make this trip a couple more times I make my final trip with just my cat and my rabbit plush I lean against the wall and blow out some steam I really need to exercise I head out my room to go shut the front door till I’m met with some brown eyes.