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Summary:

Russia had been snowy, yes, but it was an endless blizzard sort of snow. There was no softness too it, no kindness. Instead, it had been hard edged, a place where only the best adapted or the best prepared could survive. Though snowy, the Scandinavian Lostbelt was not that place. Instead, the picture on the monitor was quite peaceful. No blizzard, with rolling hills of snow and conifers made of crystal. The sky showed only the faintest wisps of clouds, and that sun -

CasCu didn’t like that sun.

It was too large, nearly swallowing up the sky. A silver orb that didn’t seem to give out as much light as a sun that size should have had. Perhaps it had been a moon, reflecting the light of something else, but the area was too bright for that. It was clearly day, and that bright disk hung over it all. Too big. Too bright.

It made something in CasCu’s stomach twist. His fingers flexed; he ached for his spear.

AKA Chaldea enters the Scandinavian Lostbelt, and the heavy Nordic presence causes something - or Someone - in CasCu's mind to wake up. Alternatively: my take on CasCu being Odin's emissary. Though in This case, emissary is a preeetty gentle word to use.

Notes:

Hiiiiii everyone! I'm Very excited to start this new project, though I do have some few notes stepping forwards! A) Ima going to mess around with (SPOILERS FOR LOSTBELT SIX) The whole odin/cascu thing a LOT. Fate doesn't treat the norse gods well *sobs at Skadi* so I'm going for something that's a bit more myth accurate. This changes up the whole Odin and CasCu dynamic, as well as Majorly affecting Skadi's characterization. Thought those were heads up I should go ahead and toss out. Secondly! There are going to be some descriptions of self harm in this story, thanks to Odin's myths. I'll put trigger warnings in the chapters that they appear in, as well as where they start and end. So please be careful if you're reading! FINALLY comments and kudos are Always appreciated and you people? Are the best!

 

And now, Forwards! I hope you all enjoy, and have a wonderful day!

Chapter 1: Chapter 1

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Somehow, it was still possible to breathe in the air of the bleached earth. 

The scans run by the Shadow Border had revealed that the air was just the same as it had been before the bleaching. The ground might have been a chalky white, the horizon a blank canvas, the sky devoid of any cloud cover, all life gone from sight and detection, but the air was breathable. And if the air was breathable, the residents of the Shadow Border could scavenge for supplies.

Or, at least, the Servants of the Shadow Border could scavenge. Gordolf had no intention to risk Gudako and Mash any more than necessary.

CasCu leaned back on his heals and sighed, shading his eyes with his arm. It wasn’t that he didn’t agree with the Gordolf - the man was probably right. They didn’t know what this bleached world was like, or if it held any dangers. But it did mean that those with the best scavenging abilities were sent out in small teams, CasCu among them.

And with the earth bleached, scavenging didn’t mean finding supplies. Scavenging meant creating them. 

Sanzang stood on top of the Shadow Border, leaning on her staff. The vehicle was parked to conserve energy, and she was using it as a watchtower, using her traveler’s knowledge to figure out where to go from here. On the other side of the Shadow Border, Geronimo worked, digging at the white soil. 

Sanzang looked for water and good growing spots. Geronimo and CasCu encouraged plant growth, and harvested whatever crops they could from the bleached earth. Inside, Tawara used his Noble Phantasm to create rice, rice, and more rice. 

The Shadow Border was running on fumes at the moment. It could only support four Servants when one of them was constantly setting off a Noble Phantasm. A skeleton crew, compared to what CasCu had grown used to in Chaldea. But he had grown used to that, and he would grow used to this. 

Besides, it wasn’t as if he was fully alone, even when the air around him was so painfully still. A shadow still clung close to him in Spirit Form.

“Oi, artifact. Your mind’s drifting again. Focus on your damn task so we can get a move on.”

CasCu’s lips curled up in a smile. Kage’s voice in his mind was a welcome presence, the abrasiveness worn and familiar. CasCu had long since learned how to tell when Kage’s grumpiness was actual anger, and this was far from that. “We can’t get a proper move on until Sanzang spots water, hellion.”

“You’d think,” Kage groused, “That with all the damn snow we just left behind, we’d have plenty of goddamned water.” 

“We were more worried about the surviving the Lostbelt as a whole, I think,” CasCu said. 

He pressed his fingers into the chalky earth and wiggled them down a couple inches. The dirt was completely devoid of nutrients. There were no microorganisms here, no bugs, no worms, no seeds. Any plants CasCu forced to grow here would be paltry things at best. Like the last three sites they had been too. 

It made his chest ache. He knew Geronimo had to be feeling it worse. This was no longer a place for life.

“I’d call that the fault of our esteemed director and the damn detective,” Kage said. “Will you be able to push through for a couple more fucking weeds, or will you need another mana transfer, artifact?” 

“I’ll be good for this one, hellion.” CasCu promised, “but thanks for checking up on me.” 

CasCu pulled his fingers out of the ground to the tune of Kage’s grumbles. He tugged off the pouch attached to his belt, and poured some of its contents into his hands. They were bean seeds, small and pebbled. One of the staff members had managed to grab some seeds during Chaldea’s evacuation. A stroke of luck. These were beans, and beans were hardy. They replenished the soil, and oh, were the bounties they provided plentiful. 

CasCu tipped his hands, so the seeds fell into the holes in the soil, and then gently covered them up. He brushed his fingers over the dirt, drawing out his rune circle. Berkanan, to fertilize the soil. Naudiz, to show their need for these to grow. Jeran for a plentiful harvest. Iwaz, to encourage resilience and longevity within these plants. It was his hope that, by sewing these small patches of growth, that someone else might be able to use them. 

“Ready?” CasCu asked, soft.

“You’re the one fueling it,” Kage retorted. CasCu aimed a look at the area he figured Kage would be in. He heard a mental sigh. “Fine, artifact. Yeah, I’m ready.”

CasCu pressed his hand against the dirt and shoved his mana into the runes. They lit up instantly, burning brilliant blue against the white. For a moment, they were the only thing CasCu could see, light streaming up into his eyes. Then, bits of green began to push through the soil. In starts and bursts, the beans grew, covering the place that had previously been nothing but white. CasCu pushed his mana until they were done growing, until the pods on their stalks had swelled, and then let it cut out. 

“Nice job, artifact,” Kage murmured, “those fuckers are better looking than what we had at the last location.” 

“Just about,” CasCu grunted. They were still pathetically small, scrawny looking things. There were no nutrients in this soil, and it hadn’t rained as far as he could tell. They would only last as long as his runes lasted. With a sigh, he reached out and began to pick the bean pods from their stalks. 

“Oh! That looks like a good harvest! Need any help?”

As always, Sanzang didn’t wait for an answer. She hopped down from the Shadow Border and bounded over to CasCu’s side, peering curiously over his shoulder. CasCu could feel Kage’s bristling, the annoyance brushing against the corner of his mind. CasCu’s lips tugged into an amused smirk. 

“I think I have this,” he said, straightening a tad to look at her. “How's Geronimo doing?” 

“Not as good of a bean harvest,” she said, “but he’s moved onto corn! And it’s grown this high!” She raised her hand to her chest, beaming wide. “I think he’ll be onto squash next. Do you want me to ask him to come help you out here?” 

“I think I’ll be alright,” CasCu said dryly. “How’s the search for water going?” 

“Nothing yet!” Sanzang bounced slightly, her eyes scanning the horizon, before her hand shot out to point. “But I saw something flashing in that direction! It’s a bit of a ways away, though. I bet its water! I’m great at finding water. There’s always a river or a mountain trying to obstruct my path.” She said the words with a delighted laugh.

“Let’s hope it’s the former, then.” CasCu said, ignoring Kage’s growl. He picked up his small sack of beans, passed it to her. “Mind taking these in for me?” 

“Not at all!” Sanzang beamed, before darting off. 

Her energy was catching. CasCu snorted to himself as he turned back to his little bean patch, fingers brushing away leaves until he could poke a couple more holes into the dirt. It was time for the corn. 

“You know,” he said as he worked, “her cheerfulness is nice. You don’t have to shy away from it like it’ll burn you.” 

“Oh fuck off, artifact,” Kage groused, “Do you need mana or not?” 

“I could use a pick me up.” 

“Needy,” Kage groused. But he appeared, briefly, his form blocking out the sun. His fingers brushed CasCu’s chin and tipping his head up. Then his lips were there, pressing against CasCu’s own. CasCu reached up to hold him there. Closed his eyes to taste the mana as it flowed between them. 

He let go when he was finished, pulling back to gently bump his forehead against Kage’s. “Thanks, hellion.”

Kage grumbled something under his breath. His cheeks were touched with red - a familiar sight by now. CasCu brushed his thumb over the arch of Kage’s cheek, and Kage sunk into the touch briefly. Finally, barely louder than a breath, “You’re welcome, artifact.”

Then he was gone, back to Spirit Form, and CasCu was left staring at the sun again. 

 

The Shadow Border rolled along the surface of the bleached earth, headed towards the glimmer Sanzang had spotted on the horizon. Like she’d said, it was probably water. Sanzang’s extraordinary luck had struck proverbial gold more than once before … but it also had a way of gouging up the worst of bad luck. Monsters and demons. Gods and spirits. They were all drawn into Sanzang’s aura. She was a beacon of luck, good and bad, as interchangeable as the tides. So everyone was expecting something to happen as they headed towards that possible glimmer of water.

It was why CasCu wasn’t surprised when the Shadow Border briefly rocked on its axis, the shudder rolling through the halls. The emergency alert sang through the air, lights placed high on the walls dashing blocks of color onto the floor. Another impact shuddered through the Border, hard. 

CasCu raced towards the bridge. It wasn’t likely that he’d be called upon for battle, not since he’d just been out and harvesting, but he wanted to know what was going on. 

He wasn’t the only one who had that idea. Even in Spirit Form, the whole bridge looked like it was underwater, wavering for the amount of insubstantial Servants packed into it. The distortion warped Gudako’s and Mash’s proportions. Gordolf looked wetter, and more desperate than normal. Sherlock seemed a bit paler, eyes darker and hidden in shadow.

“-and our armor is perfectly intact,” Sherlock was saying, “Normal weapons can’t scratch the Shadow Border, so we shouldn’t need to do more than wipe off a scorch mark.”

One of the staff members - short guy in glasses, CasCu didn’t know the name of this one - said, “That’s not what these readings are saying! That blast took off one of our main armor plates. Another hit like that, and we’ll be in deep shit!”

Holmes blinked. “Really? How intriguing.” 

Gudako cursed briefly. It was good to see her more lively, her voice risen to a screech of righteous frustration. “Are you kidding me, Holmes?! Don’t say it like that! Who’s shooting at us? We need a name!”

Surprisingly, it was Gordolf who answered. “It has to be Koyanskaya! It’s the same sort of explosion that targeted the Shadow Border while we were making our escape from Chaldea.” He bit the tip of his thumb, face twisting up. “She’s back to finish the job. God - Holmes, we need a strategy!

“My apologies,” Holmes said, after a moment, “I’m not used to eating crow. Evacuate all staff in the port-side hallway to the engine room immediately. Gudako, I trust you have already selected your Servants?” 

She nodded sharply. “Mash will defend the Border from follow-up missiles. I want Arjuna and Sanzang up top. Tawara will stay solidified inside to keep the rice he summoned from disappearing. He’ll protect the staff of members if something goes wrong. The final slot will remain empty until I get a good bead on our opponent. Everyone, out now!” 

A rush of figures in Spirit Form. Mash and Gudako started towards the Bridge door.

“Oh no, you don’t,” Gordolf said, grabbing Gudako’s shoulder. “You are staying right here! We can’t have everyone running out of the Bridge. Your life is the most precious resource Chaldea has right now, so you will stay put!”

Gudako opened her mouth. “But -”

“Don’t worry, Senpai,” Mash said. She squeezed Gudako’s hand gently. “You can still issue orders from here. Meunière will pull up the screen for you to watch.” Then she was off, racing through the door to join the people up top.

CasCu watched her go. He let out a breath between his teeth, sharp and slight. These two … they had grown up since the first time he’d seen them. Gudako into a fine Master, Mash into a fine Demi-Servant. But these were not the type of circumstances he wanted to see them growing further in. 

“I’m putting up a visual now!” Called the staff member that had to have been Meunière. “There’s a hostile object approaching rapidly. We should be able to see them soon!”

Gordolf let go of Gudako, and leaned over Grand Cavello’s computer podium, ignoring her grumbled protests. His eyes were narrowed at the screen. “Their vehicle must have impressive suspension if they’re headed straight towards us. I didn’t think Russia had any racecars like that -” His eyes bugged out. His jaw swung down, gaping wide.

Mash’s voice crackled through the communicator. “That’s not a vehicle, Director. It’s a person. They are approaching on foot. Their silhouette -” She too cut off. It didn’t matter. They could all see the silhouette on the screen now.

CasCu had no personal experiences with this man. A tall man, in clergy vestments, with shaggy brown hair down to his shoulders. A hardened face. A liar’s face. Cu and Emiya knew him, the bastard priest Kotomine Kirei, one who had orchestrated one of their Wars and committed atrocities in the name of spilling the corrupted Grail’s mud. Kage knew him, from the growl that rumbled through him, breaking against the corners of CasCu’s mind. Gudako knew him, her eyes going wide, a noise caught tight between her teeth. 

For this was the man who had killed Da Vinci. Who had shoved his hand through her heart in an attempt to retrieve the Spiritron Graph. One of the two who had destroyed Chaldea. One of the ones that had manipulated the strings of the Russian Lostbelt.

And currently, he carried a very large bazooka in his arms. Plastered onto the side was the NFF Services symbol. A gun of Koyanskaya’s make. 

“Well now,” Holmes said, straightening, “I believe it to be Metropolitan Macarius. Mash, patch me through. I would like to speak to him, if possible.”

“Not - possible - at the moment -” Mash gritted out. A boom sounded, crackling the speakers. 

Gudako’s face paled. “Mash,” she shouted into her comm link. “The situation, what’s the situation?!”

“She just blocked one of those shots,” Grand Cavello said. “And -” another boom “- there goes another. He’s brought a lot of ammo, hasn’t he?” 

On screen, the priest brought up his bazooka again. A burst of fire, another boom. They couldn’t see Mash’s defense, but they could see Arjuna’s counter-attack, a series of blue arrows striking through the sky towards him. The priest showed no issue in dodging around them, briefly falling back, before setting off in pursuit again. His legs ate up the distance. He lifted the bazooka once more.

“He won’t penetrate Mash’s shield,” Gordolf said. His tone was nearly a shade calmer than before, and for all he didn’t look at Gudako while saying it, CasCu knew where those words were directed. “The only one who could properly handle a modern mage craft weapon like that is Koyanskaya herself.”

“Unfortunately, we have a bigger problem,” Grand Cavello said. The computers whirred. One of the camera’s blew to huge proportion, so it showed the whole Bridge the empty room that had been holding Kadoc Zemlupus. “The hatch is open,” Grand Cavello said, in her best ‘whoops I’ve made a mistake’ voice, “It seems like our prisoner is making an escape.”

Gordolf’s calm shattered. “WHAT?!”

“There!” Gudako pointed at one of the screens. “He’s on the starboard ramp! Sanzang, move to intercept him. I’m headed up.”

“Me too,” Gordolf snarled. “I haven’t finished asking him questions.”

CasCu watched the two rush towards the hatch. Well, there went Gordolf’s determination to keep someone inside the bridge. CasCu debated following after them. Even if he did, there would be no guarantee he’d be called upon to help - but it wasn’t like he could help either. Besides, he wouldn’t take up space outside. And he needed to know. The computer screens couldn’t give them the full picture, only parts. 

And the parts it showed weren’t good.

“That fucking priest is closing in,” Kage muttered. “Think he’s going to try to rescue Kadoc?”

“Maybe,” CasCu murmured, “He could also be here to eliminate him. We don’t know enough about how they operate.”

“We’re going out there, aren’t we,” Kage said. He sighed with the words, heavy, like he couldn’t fully believe that he was being dragged along in this scheme.

The dramatics tugged at CasCu’s lips, even as he turned to follow after Gudako and the Director. “You don’t have to, hellion.” CasCu was well aware of how standing around and doing nothing hurt his brat. It wasn’t something he was going to force Kage to do.

“You don’t have to either, artifact.” Kage shot back. Beyond the sharpness, there was warmth there, affection threaded beneath the rough edges of his voice. “Can’t stop looking after people, can you? Who the fuck is going to look after you if you continue?” 

“I can hazard a guess,” CasCu said, smiling. 

On top of the Shadow Border, the wind whipped dizzyingly through the air. There were no clouds, but CasCu could see the way it tugged and twisted at everyone’s clothes, yanking people off balance. Mash stood stalwart despite it, blocking another missile with a grunt. In comparison, Arjuna’s flow of arrows was uninterrupted. Only his barrage prevented Kotomine from closing the gap between himself and the Border.

On the back end of the Border stood Kadoc Zemlupus, Sanzang gripping his arms tight together, preventing escape. The man wasn’t fighting. He hung limp in Sanzang’s arms, shadow ringed eyes focused on the Shadow Border’s roof. 

“You don’t have to threaten me,” he mumbled, not meeting their gaze. “Getting out here was a huge pain in the ass, but it looks like it was all for nothing. Not even a life boat … I might have jumped off once but -” He laughed, something tight and a bit broken. Sad. He looked up at them, and CasCu was struck by the spark there. Oddly enough, it reminded him of the spark in Gudako’s eyes. The one that always pushed her forwards. “I made a promise,” Kadoc said, “I can’t keep throwing my life away. You want to interrogate me? Fine. I’ll tell you everything you want to know, as long as I stay alive through it -”

“MASTER LOOK OUT!”

Two voices, mental and physical, raised high in the air. Arjuna, Mash. Gudako yelped and stumbled back, dragging the Director away from Kadoc with her. Sanzang pushed Kadoc away from her and turned, raising her staff - too late. 

The black keys were fast. Faster than the voice of the one who wielded them. They plunged through Sanzang’s chest and curved out of her back. The middle one - the longest of them - caught Kadoc across the back. Blood sprayed through the air and splattered across the Shadow Border’s roof. Kadoc’s fell with a thump. For a moment, the black keys held Sanzang up. They were dismissed, and Sanzang collapsed. Blood spread rapidly across the surface of the Shadow Border. 

“Excellent. That makes this insurance trip worth it,” Kotomine said. He held the bazooka in one hand, balanced against his shoulder. The other he wiped lightly against his vestments, as if to wipe off the blood.

Gudako made a noise in her throat. Mash and Arjuna made to move, but Kotomine simply raised his bazooka and pointed it at Gudako. “Hello again,” he said, “I’m certain everyone here knows that any movement will sign away your Master’s life. I can pull the trigger before you can kill me. And these missiles are fast enough to get to her before you can.”

“Are you certain of that?” Gudako asked. Her hands shook, then balled into fists. Gordolf made a noise between his teeth, gripping her shoulder tight. 

“I’m positive,” Kotomine said, “Besides, I’m not here to kill you today.” He smiled, the smile of a liar. “Allow me to offer my congratulations on successfully taking down the Russia Lostbelt.”

Gordolf made another noise between his teeth. Gudako’s eyes flickered between Kadoc and Sanzang. Her face shifted again, to stone. “What do you want?” 

“Well,” Kotomine said, with a low, husky laugh, “My job was to oversee Kadoc’s role as a Crypter, but his role has come to an end. I believed that it would be best to give him a merciful send-off.” He stepped over Sanzang’s body, and picked up Kadoc in one hand. Kotomine threw Kadoc over his shoulder with ease. Kadoc didn’t move. The priest's vestments were stained with red.

“Not to worry,” Kotomine said, keeping the bazooka aimed. “Russia was my sole jurisdiction. Once you pass this area, I cannot follow after. I lack Koyanskaya’s ability to travel between Lostbelts, and require the Foreign God’s permission. As such, I must make my leave.” He half turned, bent his knees.

“Hold up!” Gudako called. She took a step forwards despite Gordolf’s restraining hand. “Is that all you have to say for yourself, Kotominie Kirei!” 

Kotomine blinked, once. Then he began to laugh. It was a low laugh, growing louder, full of cold amusement. “Well now, it seems like some of your Servants have been babbling! Let me clear up some confusion. Kotomine Kirie is a dead man’s name. I simply happen to be borrowing his body for a bit. My true name,” he smiled, this sharp slasher of a thing, “is Rasputin. Gregori Rasputin.” 

He leapt off the Storm Border, bazooka and Kadoc in hand. Arjuna swung up his bow, a blue arrow lighting in his fingers. “Don’t!” Gudako shouted. She bolted towards Sanzang and pressed her fingers against the Caster’s neck. “She’s alive, but barely. Arjuna, you’re dismissed! Nightingale, I need you here now!”  

Arjuna made a soft noise between his teeth, then disappeared. Nightingale appeared in a wash of sparks. Her eyes were already lit with the familiar glow of madness. And in the distance, the form of Gregori Rasputin was rapidly shrinking, leaving behind a trail of blood across the bleached earth.

 

“Of course the fucker would be possessed by goddamned Rasputin of all people,” Cu groused, words grating. CasCu could feel his speech against the corners of his own mind, the sharp, hot points of Cu’s rage.

“It would have stood out to me,” CasCu said, “But I didn’t know the man like you did.”  He didn’t know the man at all. CasCu’s own Holy Grail War had enough issues that he supposed the Kotomine Kirei from his time had no reason to rush it. Not when the corrupted Grail had been able to manifest by itself without help or nurturing.

“No, you didn’t,” Cu growled. He let out a sound between his teeth, audible for a brief moment. “The fucker was always too smug, too fucking smarmy. He liked … pleasure, in the way that suggested he didn’t actually like it, but enjoyed taking the steps of it. More like how his pleasures made other people feel worse. Bastard was a good liar too. Fucking asshole. I hope his flesh falls off his bones, and he has to watch it rot.”

For a moment, CasCu said nothing. There wasn’t much he could say. His interactions with Kotomine - this Rasputin, had been confined to Chaldea’s destruction and their paths through the Lostbelts. He hated the man for killing Da Vinci. He despised the bastard for what he’d done to Kadoc, a supposed ally. Even with Nightingale’s attention, it was unlikely that Sanzang would survive the Black Keys that had been shoved through her body.

But CasCu’s rage was nothing compared to Cu’s own. It trembled, just briefly, on the edge of a warp spasm. But in their current forms, they couldn’t enter that monstrous state. That ability had been taken along with half their divinity from Mórrígan. 

Well, Cu’s ability to warp, at least. Which was what mattered right now.

CasCu sent warmth down the mental connection between them, letting it soothe over the jagged spikes of Cu’s rage. “You’ll be there to watch it rot too,” he promised. “Gudako said you could participate in taking him down, didn’t she? Our time will come, Cu. We just have to wait a bit longer for it.” 

Cu was silent for a moment. “I guess so,” he muttered finally. “But I’m sick and tired of being patient for that bastard.”

“And what would Scáthach say about that?” That voice belonged to Proto, a sudden interruption to their conversation. If he was angry, he hid it well. All his voice and mental touch held was gentle teasing. “She’d kick your ass and send you back to hunting 101.”

“Her hunting 101 was having us fight phantasmal beasts,” Cu grunted, a bit more sullen. “There was no patience in that.”

“I think we’re remembering hunting 101 differently,” Proto said, “I remember her lecturing about patience. A lot.” 

“I’m certain,” rumbled a different voice altogether, “that was one of her normal lectures. You two would need that lecture repeated.” 

Alter’s accusation got twin squawks of disapproval. CasCu smiled slightly. Proto whined, “Oh come on! You’re us too. You’d need the same damn lecture on patience as us! Multiple times even.” 

“Would I?” Alter asked dryly.

It was a good question. Alter wasn’t really … like them, in a way. He was a twisted version, a wish made true. In many senses, he shouldn’t have even existed. He didn’t have a proper history, not like the rest of them. Therefore, complaints about Scáthach’s lectures, their past with her, meant nothing to him beyond what fragments of memory that wish had given them. 

“Alter’s patient,” CasCu said, “He’d only need to hear the lecture once before getting it. We could ask Scáthach now if you want proof.”

“I think it’s called dissociating,” Cu grumbled. 

They couldn’t see Alter’s shrug, but CasCu could easily imagine it. “Call it what you want.” Alter said.

“I will,” Cu sniffed. He paused a moment, as if debating on chewing this old bone, before letting out a soft curse. “Did Sanzang spot water?” 

Ah, this topic. CasCu settled back against the side of the Shadow Border. “She spotted something she thought was water. We’re going to have a hard time collecting it, though, if only two Heroic Spirits can go out.” 

“She could use A Hundred Personas',” Proto pointed out, “Or ask Fuuma. His noble phantasm makes clones too, just … not as variable as A Hundred Personas?” 

“Or long-lasting,” CasCu said dryly. He could feel the force of Proto’s pout, and smiled. “Hundred Personas will probably be on the team. If they’ve got those spells cast on Tawata’s rice so it lasts past him, he might be sent out to fetch water too. Someone in their Summer Spirit Origin, maybe. Who of them had water controlling abilities?”

A pause. Proto groaned. “Meltryllis does.” 

“Good luck to Gudako, then,” CasCu said, “I hope that they have enough QP stored to pay off her fee.” 

Alter didn’t even bother saying anything. He just scoffed, this harsh, disbelieving sound. CasCu didn’t blame him. They were short of too many resources, and they could no longer reliably gather some of them. Gudako’s QP stores were probably low. Too low to pay off Meltryllis’ fees in her summer form.

“Meltryllis likes Gudako,” Cu said, “She’ll be fine.” 

“I hope,” Proto muttered. Personally, CasCu agreed.

 

It took nearly two days to reach the glimmer Sanzang had spotted. During that time, her recovery period was … rocky. CasCu had heard that Irisviel had to come out of Spirit Form to spam her Noble Phantasm. But right now, she seemed stable. Stable enough that Nightingale felt comfortable leaving her post by the Caster’s side and giving Gudako a report on Sanzang’s condition.

What Sanzang had seen was not water. They were buildings.

Gudako stepped out of the Shadow Border, Mash beside her. Heroic Spirits followed after, an invisible cloak in their wake. CasCu had planned to plant more crops at whatever water Sanzang had spotted, but this took precedence. It was the first remnant of civilization they had seen since leaving Chaldea behind. If they could even call it a remnant.

“It looks like even the buildings have been bleached,” Gudako breathed. She gripped Mash’s hand, squeezed it tight.

The Demi-Servant made a small, protesting noise between her teeth. “Those are buildings, right? They don’t …” 

They didn’t look like buildings. The structures had been warped and twisted out of true, all color bleached from them so only the occasional metallic flash remained. Parts of them had been wiped away, as if erased or swatted by a large hand. Other’s looked like they’d been disassembled and stacked all wrong.

“It looks like surrealist art,” Grand Cavallo said over the comm link. “Or possibly post-modern art. It’s quite beautiful, in its own way.”

Gudako said nothing for a moment. Her grip on Mash’s hand was white knuckled. “Is there any water nearby, Grand Cavallo?”

“Yes, there is,” she said. “A river to the right side of these buildings. It doesn’t have much water flow, but it should give us enough to bolster our supplies.” 

“Good,” Gudako said. “Meltryllis, switch to your summer Spirit Origin, you’re on water collecting duty. Send word to Irisviel, that she’s to step back into Spirit Form unless absolutely necessary. CasCu, go back to growing and collecting plants. Mash, let’s go.” 

Mash started. “Where are we going?” 

“We’re going to look for survivors,” Gudako said. She took a step forwards, then another. Mash squeezed her hand back, then followed after. The two made their way to the bleached buildings, so utterly devoid of color. 

CasCu didn’t think they’d find anything. 

 

“They found something,” Kage said.

CasCu’s focus on his runecraft faltered. The growth of the squash slowed to a crawl. His head jerked up, but it didn’t matter. Kage was solidly in Spirit Form, impossible to see, especially in this whiteness. And yet - “Are you sure?” 

“Positive,” Kage retorted. But his voice was very careful, neutral. “Evidence that a group had been living here for a while. Bottles and canned food mostly. Abandoned communications device. And a journal.”

CasCu swallowed hard. It was more than expected, more than anyone expected. He pressed his fingers against the chalky soil and asked, soft. “How is Gudako and Mash taking it?” 

“About as well as expected,” Kage said. “It gives them a bit of hope. There are still a lot of mysteries - according to the journal people were just fucking disappearing, but if one group survived, there could be more survivors out there. It means we’re not alone out here, not the only survivors.”

“It means we’re not fighting for an empty world,” CasCu finished. He knew how much that would mean to Gudako, to Mash. That they were not fighting for idle dreams and a foolish hope. That they were fighting for people still living. That there was a chance humanity could survive this. 

Kage made a noise between his teeth, tight. “Yeah, that,” he said. “How close are you done to being finished? Meltryllis is about done with water collection, and the higher ups want to leave as soon as possible. We’re almost to the next Lostbelt.”

CasCu nodded. He turned back to his squash, closed his eyes, and pushed a bit more mana into his rooms. The squash began to grow again, swiftly cycling through their cycle of life. Flowers began to burst across the vines, and just as quickly began to fall, squash swelling in their place. “With any luck, it will be better than the first one.”

“Scandinavia is as bad as Russia, temperature wise,” Kage retorted, just the barest touch of humor in his voice. “It’ll be like Boudica’s damn storm all over again.” 

“You can hide within the Shadow Border, hellion,” CasCu returned, but the words took a moment to say. Scandinavia. It felt like something in CasCu had been plucked, sharp and sudden, with that word. Scandinavia. Norse Country.

Scáthach had connections to the Norse countries, at least in the most roundabout ways. Although her Land of Shadows was technically based in Scotland, it was also disjointed from time and space. From there, objects, souls, people of all sorts and all times tended to wash up, although that was rare and far between. At some point, something Norse had made its way there. Norse enough for her to learn their runes and use them in battle. 

The same runes that she had taught CasCu. That currently laid beneath his fingers, his mana powering their growth. Scandinavia. One of the many places those runes had come from. One of those many places those gods had come from. Those gods …

“Oi, artifact, you alright? Or is your old age kicking in and your memory failing?” 

CasCu jerked out of his thoughts, and shook himself sharply. “Thanks, hellion, but it’s doing fine,” he retorted. The squash had finished growing, any more power and they’d be too ripe. CasCu withdrew his fingers from those runes, and shook the soil from his skin. “Tell Gudako I’ll be in with the last of the produce, will ya?” 

“God, you’ve discovered my favorite thing. Being a fucking errand dog.” A pause, brief. “Are you sure you’re okay, artifact?”

CasCu scoffed. “Of course I’m okay. Why the hell wouldn’t I be?” 

“You got a funky look in your eyes, a second there. Better not be drifting off on me, ya hear? Otherwise, I’ll have to drag you back, and you won’t appreciate the way I do it.” There was a brief tap against CasCu’s head, like a hand coming solid for a second, then Kage was off. CasCu was left there to collect the squash, alone.

Gods, maybe the hellion was right and there was something off. For some reason, CasCu didn’t quite like the sensation of being alone right now. It felt too hollow, too empty. His movement’s slightly disjointed from his bodies commands. Fucking weird. 

He shook himself, got back to collecting the squash. The Shadow Border was probably running low on mana. Best to get this back as soon as possible, so he didn’t have to stay out here in this bleached hellscape.

 

From the view screens, the outside of the Scandinavian Lostbelt looked like nothing but a big half dome of light. It was white against white, nearly blending in with the horizon. One could only tell it apart from the surroundings by the way it broke the uniform mountain ranges and carved into the sky. A burning pillar of light sung within the middle of it, reaching out past the top of the dome and towards the atmosphere.

To enter the Lostbelt, they would have to enter Zero Sail once more. 

CasCu remembered their first entrance to Void Space. How the act of transitioning had cut off every one of his senses, how they hadn’t been allowed to take Spirit Form through it. The first couple times had been different. They’d been on the run. This was done willingly, without hesitation. A path forwards instead of a way to run away. 

It felt good to move forwards. 

All around the Shadow Border, people strapped themselves in, preparing for the entrance into Zero Sail. All around the Shadow Border, Heroic Spirit’s left Spirit Form, just for these two minutes of travel. CasCu found a good room, blessedly empty of Chaldea staff members. He coalesced with a sigh; flexed his fingers to get the tingles out of them. 

Kage came into being beside him. He was a sight for sore eyes, white hair tousled as ever, his golden eyes bright and warm. In the dim lights of this room, the traces of his curse pulsed softly over his cheek and arm.

“You’re staring,” Kage said, crossing his arms with a scowl. 

Bluster, through and through. CasCu grinned wide. “What can I say? It’s been a bit since I’ve seen your face, hellion. I miss it.” 

Predictably, heat spread across Kage’s cheeks. He scowled harder. “Goddamned sap, artifact,” he grumbled.

“Not that much of a sap,” CasCu protested. He closed the space between them, wrapped an arm around Kage’s waist, and set his forehead on his shoulder. 

“And here you go doing shit like this,” Kage snarked. But he wrapped his arm around CasCu in turn, and sighed. “Are you ready?” 

“Are you?” CasCu retorted. 

“Ain’t that a fucking question,” Kage muttered. He fell silent for a moment. CasCu felt a face press against his hair, heard the intake of breath beside his ear. Then Kage stiffened, awkward. His arm dropped. “Someone’s coming.” 

CasCu snorted. “It wouldn’t kill you for someone to see you be soft for once.” 

“I’m not fucking testing that, artifact,” Kage retorted, poking CasCu’s side with a finger. “Come on, let go.” 

“The things I do for you, a ghra,” CasCu sighed. He let go of Kage, then moved to his side. There. Close enough that the touch was comforting, but not enough for the blatant physical affection to come through. Kage relaxed for it with a mumbled thank you. CasCu hummed his ‘welcome’ and settled his head on Kage’s shoulder.

They waited. They waited for the room to fill up with Heroic Spirits. They waited for Grand Cavallo’s countdown to start. And then everything shut off. Light, sound, heat, and the sensation of Kage’s body beside him. CasCu drifted in the abyss, and then too was gone.

 

They came too later, when the Shadow Border came to a jerking stop. CasCu groaned between his teeth. His head felt like it’d been smacked with something, his whole mind spinning. He leaned harder against Kage, fingers gripping the armor of his wrist. For a moment, the entire room was disjointed, a double image superimposed in perfect detail. Then CasCu’s vision snapped back to what it should be. 

“Apologies, everyone!” Sang the P.A. system, in Grand Cavello’s voice. “The Director ordered an emergency exit from void space thanks to an - interesting organism we encountered. Nausea and dizziness is to be expected, but it seems like the Storm Border’s capabilities haven’t been damaged too badly! We’re going to give everyone some time to recuperate before we start forwards again. Heroic Spirits, if you could please return to Spirit Form once you have recovered, that would be appreciated!” 

The P.A. buzzed out. Kage grunted. “What the fuck did she mean by interesting organism?” 

He didn’t sound too good, voice thick and slurring. CasCu took a moment to steady himself, then turned to look at Kage. His face was pale and drawn, lips pressed tight together. CasCu reached up to touch his forehead. “How do you feel?” 

“Fucked,” Kage grunted, “Without all the fun.”

CasCu let out a breath of a laugh. “Once we get to that Wandering Sea, we might be able to change that. Hold still.” He pressed his finger against Kage’s forehead, and drew a couple runes. Gebo, Sowilo. The gift of the sun onto Kage, to bolster his health. 

Under the soft blue glow of the runes, color returned to Kage’s face. He let out a breath. “Thanks, artifact.” 

“You’re welcome, hellion.” CasCu murmured. He leaned in, pressing his forehead against Kage’s. Kage didn’t argue. They stood there, holding each other, letting their breaths stabilize. Behind them, one by one, fellow Heroic Spirits’ took to Spirit Form. Slowly, the room emptied, until it was just them.

Kage made a small face. “You ready?” 

“Almost,” CasCu murmured. “Give me a few seconds longer.” 

Kage grumbled at that, but he settled his arms around CasCu, let loose a long sigh. “Needy old man,” he murmured. 

CasCu’s lips twitched. “As if you don’t cling as well,” he returned, this soft tease. He glanced at Kage.

The bastard was smiling. It was that particular smile that Kage reserved for only a few things, small, awkward, but utterly warm. “I have no clue what you’re talking about.”

“Liar,” CasCu grinned back. 

“Am not,” Kage protested, with no heat.

“So are,” CasCu murmured. He leaned up, just a tad, pressing his lips to Kage’s. For a moment they both lingered there, soaking in the touch. Then CasCu took to Spirit Form, and Kage followed after. It was time to see what sort of world was on the monitors.

 

Gudako and Mash must not have been hit too hard by the impromptu escape from Void Space. By the time CasCu and Kage made their way to the Bridge, Gudako had already chosen her team and was off exploring the surrounding area. 

CasCu was almost miffed. He would have liked to see who she’d selected to explore, to see what the surrounding area looked like first hand. A part of him, deep, buried, ached for it. But the monitor screens would have to do, for all it was a second rate showing in Spirit Form. But what it showed - oh, even second rate, it made CasCu’s breath catch. 

Russia had been snowy, yes, but it was an endless blizzard sort of snow. There was no softness too it, no kindness. Instead, it had been hard edged, a place where only the best adapted or the best prepared could survive. Though snowy, the Scandinavian Lostbelt was not that place. Instead, the picture on the monitor was quite peaceful. No blizzard, with rolling hills of snow and conifers made of crystal. The sky showed only the faintest wisps of clouds, and that sun - 

CasCu didn’t like that sun. 

It was too large, nearly swallowing up the sky. A silver orb that didn’t seem to give out as much light as a sun that size should have had. Perhaps it had been a moon, reflecting the light of something else, but the area was too bright for that. It was clearly day, and that bright disk hung over it all. Too big. Too bright. 

It made something in CasCu’s stomach twist. His fingers flexed; he ached for his spear.

“Fucking great,” Kage breathed beside him. “It’s goddamned snow again.”

“You knew it’d be snow, hellion.” CasCu murmured back, soft. The touch of Kage’s mind against his was grounding. He relaxed slightly, fingers uncurling.

“Yeah,” Kage muttered, “but that doesn’t mean I have to like it. Disgusting.” 

CasCu’s lips twitched slightly. “I’ll keep you warm if we have to go out, a ghra.”

A touch of embarrassment, warm, brushing along CasCu’s mind. Kage’s voice dipped to something softer, awkward but happy. “Thanks, artifact.”

“You’re welcome.”

They fell silent. The comm links from Gudako and Mash’s end were silent as well. The two were experienced with enemy territory. They knew that - no matter how pretty their surroundings were - dropping their guard and drawing unnecessary attention to themselves would only be painful in the long run. It took a while before the comm links finally crackled, and Gudako’s voice filtered into the room. 

“We’ve found a hill that gives us a good vantage point,” she said, “From here we can see a mountain range and a river, and this conifer forest continues for a while. Everything’s covered in ice and snow, but … the mountain range also appears to be on fire? There’s a blue haze where the trees aren’t, and it sure looks like flames, but the snow isn’t melting at all.”

“There’s another thing,” Mash said, leaning in close. “I can’t see a tree of emptiness anywhere. It was clearly visible outside the Lostbelt, and I don’t think it can disappear on its own, so I think it must be hidden by mage craft of some kind.”

“An excellent deduction, Ms. Krielight,” Holmes said. “However, it is too early to make any proper deductions yet.”

“Of course,” Mash said. 

“It seems like you’re about five hundred meters away,” Holmes continued, “That’s about a perfect distance, since we’re still unable to detect any hostiles entities. Thankfully, our emergency exit didn’t strain the Border as much as we anticipated, but I am afraid we’re not going to be moving for a while.”

“Would you like us to continue the patrol?” Gudako asked, “There’s not much else to see from here.” 

Sherlock hummed. His voice was distant. “A land of ice and fire … it seems like this Lostbelt will present its own challenges. I do have a few things to note on the sun, which I’m sure you both noticed. It would take billions of years for our sun to reach this size, which would make it a red giant. However, the presence of a red giant would certainly melt all this snow and leave a desert in its wake.”

“Which means … it can’t be our sun?” Mash guessed.

“Exactly,” Sherlock said, “it might look like our sun, but it is not. I don’t recall anything along those lines within Scandinavian and Germanic folklore, but I’ll have Grand Cavallo to run through stories just in case.” 

“And what about the fire?” Gudako asked. “That’s pretty odd.”

“Take a closer look,” Sherlock said, “If nothing is burning or melting, then the flames must be separate and floating above the mountain, which makes it a byproduct of magecraft. For it to be existing here, it must have been made by a Crypter or a Lostbelt Servant. That I can say for certain.”

“Great,” Gudako said. “Can you ask Grand Cavallo to look for Servants that might have been able to cause something like this? The quicker we can find who it is, the better for us.”

“Certainly, she’s already on the ca -”

Lights blared on in the Bridge. CasCu jerked back out of listening, his hand reaching automatically for his spear, his staff. Nothing came, not like this, in Spirit Form. One of the Chaldea Staff had hit the alarm. They looked up, eyes wild. “We’ve got hostiles incoming! Mash, Gudako, prepare for battle!” 

Gordolf, who’d been muttering to himself, lunged forwards. He near shouted into the comm link, this desperate thing. “Mash! Gudako! Get back, I say, get back! There’s no use in engaging with something right now. Retreat to the Storm Border, but cover your tracks! We don’t want to be followed.”

“Too late for that,” Gudako breathed. “It’s not like we could escape something as large as that! Director, we have giants. I repeat, we have giants!”

Giants.

The word sank through CasCu like a stone cast from a well. He froze, breath caught in the back of his throat. Giants. He’d fought giants in life, the Formarions of Ireland. Perhaps these were similar. Then again, with the location, they were probably different. He listened numbly as orders were shouted, keys were typed. The Shadow Border’s cameras were pushed to their greatest extent, forced to view the battle in grainy detail. 

Giants indeed.

They were huge. Disproportionately long arms gripped a giant spear, the tip like a solid wedge of frozen metal. It was clothed in fur and leather, and its face was hidden by an icy mask, two tusks jutting out past it’s jaw in jagged curves. It roared something, and CasCu swore for a second - for a split second - that the sounds made sense.

Then battle broke out.

It was always nerve wracking, watching Gudako’s battles and being unable to participate. CasCu drew in a sharp breath past constrained lungs, his fingers flexing painfully by his side. But it didn’t matter. New enemy or no, Gudako was too experienced to be overrun by a lone creature. In the end, the giant hit the snow with a loud thump. The communicator was filled with the sound of Mash’s panting breaths.

“I am alright,” she said, “All my vital signs are alright. I’m still good to fight.”

“Of course you are!” Gordolf blustered, “Now, come back here this instant! This drastically changes our approach to this Lostbelt!”

“We’ll make our way back,” Gudako promised. “Did we get a proper reading on our enemy? Our detection was a bit late.” 

“At this point, there are a few things we can say,” Sherlock said. “What you just fought was neither Heroic Spirit nor Phantasmal Beast. Farfetched as it might sound, he was simply an inhabitant of this Lostbelt. One that could not have existed in the twenty-first century. What do you know of giants, Ms Kyrielight?”

One could practically imagine Mash straightening up, eager to report. “I read that a number of powerful giants used to live in Scandinavia. But in the modern area, giant sightings in Sweden, Denmark, or Norway have ceased. I believe most of them existed in the Age of Gods.” 

“You are correct,” Gordolf stated. He pushed Sherlock away from the console, taking his place with a tight expression. “A encounter like this should have been impossible! And yet you met one! The way it roared - did it sound like it was speaking in a language you couldn’t understand? We don’t have any records of giantish, but myth says they had their own language.”

“It did sound like a language,” Mash said, “but its eyes - the glimpse I caught was filled with bloodlust.” 

For a moment, everyone fell silent. The comm link, and therefore the Bridge, was filled with the crunch of Gudako’s and Mash’s feet against the snow. There was a pit in CasCu’s stomach that he couldn’t fully push away. There was no name to it. It just stuck there, heavy in his stomach. Giantish. Something he had nearly understood. Which wasn’t possible. By Lugh, perhaps Kage was right, and his mind was leaving him. 

Then again, none of this was fucking possible, and here they were.

The console buzzed briefly. “Anyway,” Grand Cavallo said, “We have a reason as to why we couldn’t detect the giant until too late. The ice and snow on the ground is imbued with faint magical energy. It’s interfering with our sensors. However! With my expert genius, I’ve already made a way to account for this! I’m sending the update to Ortinax now, so even if we’re late on detecting enemies, you should be able to!”

“Oh, that’s going to be helpful!” Gudako said, after a beat. “Thanks, D- Grand Cavallo!”

“You’re welcome~” The AI sang, in that particular beat that made CasCu’s chest ache. He knew it was an ache familiar to many. Grand Cavallo was not Da Vinci, but she had many of Da Vinci’s habits. Each one was a painful reminder of Da Vinci’s lost, but what could they do? Tell Grand Cavallo to stop? No one was that heartless. 

“Um, Master?” Mash asked.

“Yeah?” Gudako said.

“Ortinax is picking up new hostiles. One is a giant. The others are new, but they’re rapidly approaching. I think we should pick up our pace.” 

“Alright,” Gudako said. “Director, Sherlock, Grand Cavallo, we’re cutting off the comm link. We need to focus on running and fighting, alright?” She didn’t wait for an answer. With a crackle, the feed went dead. 

“Damn it,” Gordolf growled. He pulled back from the console, biting the edge of his gloved thumb. “Barely two hours in and we’ve already had two encounters with enemies. How long until the Shadow Border is finished recharging, technical advisor?”

“Fifty two minutes left!” Grand Cavallo said. “Depending on how fast Gudako and Mash are, they might make before we’re done.” 

Gordolf nodded. He started to pace, hands working together. “So creatures from the Age of Gods still exist here - did the Age of Gods just never stop? And this is only the Second Lostbelt! This is too soon! Do these damn Crypters have no sense of restraint? What if these Giants are our humanity. We still haven’t seen any trace of humans in this Lostbelt -”

“Director,” Sherlock said, “you’re panicking. I think you should sit down for a few moments.”

“Of course I-” Gordolf cut himself off. He took in a deep breath, then smoothed his hand over his hair. “Of course, he said,” and for a moment he was a picture of calm, expression blankly forced, “A rest would be a good idea. I’m afraid that emergency exit took more out of me than I expected, to suffer such a nervous breakdown. I’m going to take a little rest.”

“Of course. We’ll hold down the fort until you’re back and feeling better,” Sherlock murmured, tipping his head.

Gordolf nodded shakily, then started away. CasCu felt Kage’s mind touch his own again, this short ‘tch’ of disgust. “Worried himself so much about the damn situation he had to retreat? I still don’t think this fucker’s much of a leader.”

“I’m not exactly fond of him myself,” CasCu murmured, “But being worried isn’t a bad thing. He shows some qualities a leader needs. He snaps too in a dangerous situation, and when things get too dicey he pulls out. Most higher ups don’t tend to think like that, but Gordolf is decently good at it. That means the people of Chaldea are certainly safer.” 

Kage was quiet for a moment, thoughtful, before he grumbled, “I guess you’re right there. But there’s still a line between ‘snapping to attention’ and ‘having a panic attack over every little thing’. Bastards, solidly in category two.”

“I think it’s a better category than our Master is in right now. Perhaps in that way, they can balance each other out.”

Kage had no reply to that. CasCu didn’t blame him. But it was true, as much as they both might have hated it. Gudako was becoming too accustomed to fighting. Too accustomed to seeing new and dangerous things. They rarely had an effect on her anymore. One prone to panic attacks wouldn’t make a good Master, but a part of CasCu wished that she wasn’t so … accepting of her situation. Wasn’t able to roll with the punches so well.

It showed, far too easily, just how much she had been through.

Too much for any one human.

 

“They were ice beasts,” Gudako said, once she and Mash had returned. “Those things that we faced, the ones flanking the giants, were ice beasts. I guess they could have been Phantasmals, but it was certainly weird. Especially since the giant looked like it was using them like people used hunting dogs.”

“You two really had a rough time of it, huh?” Grand Cavallo asked.

Mash nodded. She’d changed out of Ortinax, back in her normal clothes. She looked tired, hugging one arm to her side. The fingers of her free hand were tied with Gudako’s. “Yes, we did.” 

“Luckily for you,” Grand Cavallo continued, “Sherlock’s got an idea where those giants came from. It might clear up some confusion. Then again, knowing Sherlock, it might not!”

Sherlock tapped his fingers lightly against the console. His voice was very dry. “Thank you for that, Grand Cavallo. I’ll endeavor to make this as clear as possible. I believe those giants you encountered were Jötnar, members of the Jötunn race of giants. Do you know the mythos those came from?”

“Norse, right?” Gudako asked, voicing the words on CasCu’s lips. He felt a bit frozen, listening to Sherlock. A bit off. That odd feeling of not fully belonging to his body was back.

“Correct,” Sherlock said. “The Norse world was composed of nine realms. One of those was Muspelheim, the land of flame. Another was Niflheim, the land of ice, through which an icy river of poison flowed. When these two realms collided, the poisonous frost melted. Then, when it was exposed to Muspelheim's heat, grew into a tremendous giant, Ymir. The race of giants that went on to spring forth from Ymir's body were called Jötunn, the frost giants. It's said that the surviving Jötnar eventually fell out of mythology and went on to become trolls, but what you two saw today were no trolls. They were most definitely Jötnar.”

“You sound certain,” Mash said. She frowned slightly, gripped Gudako’s hand harder.

Sherlock gave a little laugh. “Of course I am. But there are still many questions to be answered. Is this simply a Norse Lostbelt where a once-lost race of giants still runs amok? No, I very much doubt that is all there is to it. Based on what we know from Russia, we can assume there is a being here who rules over this Lostbelt, and a Crypter who tends to the Tree of Emptiness. While our primary concern is with the latter, there remains a strong possibility that we will come into conflict with the former as well. That said, our goal this time does not include engaging them in battle. Our intent is to cross Scandinavia without them ever knowing we were here.”

“But we can’t do that quite yet,” Grand Cavallo beeped. “There’s a lot of magical energy gathered here, so we’re going to take a little more time to recharge and stock up on mana. You two should get some -”

Lights flashed, nearly blinding the cockpit. The Shadow Border’s emergency alert sounded through the cockpit, painfully loud. All across the Bridge, people flinched back, covering their ears. One of the staff members - CasCu thought it was Meunière - pounded on the dashboard as if to reset it. “Gudako! Holmes! A freakin' enormous magical energy signal just popped out of nowhere! It’s like a magical reactor core! This monster’s on par with the Angrboda powered by the Greater Grail we saw in London!”

Sherlock spun around, his cape flapping. “It’s most likely a Servant. They must have been using their Spirit Form. Mash, I advise preparing for combat.”

Mash stuttered. “Hai!” Then she was off, racing to go out on her Ortinax. 

Gudako stayed right where she was, eyes focused on the monitor. “Is it a Lostbelt Servant?” 

“Well, their Spirit Origin matches one of our Sabers - but it’s also? Wrong? Like the wrong color somehow,” Meunière said, peering at the monitors, “I don’t know! But I know they’re hostile! Their magic energy is going all over the place!”

Sherlock hummed, unconcerned. “The Border's spirit radar is one of the most sensitive in the world. If it failed to detect this Servant until now, then they are probably getting some help with their Presence Concealment. Had they wished to do so, I have no doubt they could have gotten much, much closer. They must be incredibly confident…or perhaps incredibly cruel. Mr. Meunière, can you put them up on the monitor?”

“I can’t!” Meunière said, “They're right in our blind spot! Shouldn’t we be leaving by now?”

“No,” Gudako said. She sounded too calm. “We’re still in camouflage mode. But it won’t last long if he keeps on looking around. Saber, you said?”

“Y-yeah,” Meunière said, “Why?” 

“We shouldn’t let them into the Border,” Gudako continued. “With our current resources, we wouldn’t be able to keep him from hurting people inside. Has he moved at all?” 

“N-no,” Meunière said, “they haven't moved a muscle since they showed up… But I still can't see anything on the monitor. They're right in the middle of our blind spot.”

“Then it would seem they're waiting to see how we react,” Sherlock said, “Bold, yet with a touch of caution. Grand Cavallo, I'd like you to start up the Border's engine the moment we step outside. Make sure it is ready to depart at any time.”

“You got it,” Grand Cavallo said, “But make sure you buy us enough time for it to warm up, okay?”

“We will,” Gudako said. She turned - Mash was already there, hurrying forwards with her Ortinax equipped.

On her heals, imposing, eyes burning, was Gordolf. The man had pulled himself up, chest puffed up in fury. “We make an emergency dive!” He shouted, into the stunned shell of the Bridge. “I will not have you going out to face an unknown and extremely powerful foe. I absolutely forbid it! An emergency dive is the only option!”

“Sorry senpai,” Mash said, “he caught me as I was coming back.”

Gudako smiled, strained. “It’s alright, Mash.”

Gordolf strode forwards, shoulder back, eyes glaring. “A situation like this calls for a retreat, not meeting the enemy on their own terms. Traversing this Lostbelt to make a getaway is out of the question as well. If the enemy has found us out, then our first order of business is to hide again. And that means a Zero Sail! Once we’re within Void space, we can make a clean get away.”

“That is true,” Grand Cavallo said, beeping softly, “We'd have to figure out how to get back to reality once we set sail, but it would give us a secure way out of this particular predicament. That said, are you sure about this? We still haven't finished reapplying the Logic Formula. There's a nonzero chance that our armor just comes off in Void Space, and we end up adrift there forever. Let's see, I'd say the odds of that happening are maybe 0.003 percent?”

“That’s nothing!” Gordolf snapped. With each word, his voice rose a little louder, until it rebounded off the Shadow Border’s walls. “I've never even come close to winning a race in my own vehicle with odds like that. At any rate, given we’d only have three Servants available, fighting on this powerful is out of the question. Need I remind you of the sort of enemies we faced back in Russia!? These Lostbelt Servants are tremendously powerful. Just because the girls are able to fight now doesn't mean you should run to battle at every chance you get. As your commander, and your director, I will support whatever option I feel offers the best chance of survival, no matter how slight the difference. No, in fact, this is an order! As my advisors, it's your job to justify my decisions, not mine!”

For a moment, the Bridge was resoundingly silent. Everyone stared at Gordolf. Gudako and Mash did it with round, startled eyes, as if they’d been hit across the face without warning. For once, they looked their age. It came to CasCu, then, just how long it had been since someone prioritized retreat and fighting another day instead of moving forwards and fighting, no matter the odds or questions.

“Shit,” he breathed to Kage, “I think this bastard is growing on me.”

Kage made a noise between his teeth, tight and disguised. “Like a fucking fungus.” But he didn’t argue. Gordolf’s explosion had made an impression.

“Well,” Grand Cavallo said, “Sorry Sherlock, sorry Gudako, but there’s been a change of plans. Everyone, buckle up!” Her voice broke, crackled, and then came through the P.A. system. “Heroic Spirits, please exit Spirit Form for an emergency Zero Sail.” She started to go through the countdown, the preparations. 

CasCu came to existence, Kage pressed right against him. With the Heroic Spirits all suddenly there, the Bridge was absolutely packed. Sherlock had to push through people to take the wheel. CasCu glanced to Kage, who stood tight, shoulders bunched. “Hallway?” he asked.

Kage nodded. “Hallway.”

They pushed their way into the hallway. It was still packed, but it wasn’t nearly to the level of sardines. CasCu nodded to the few who nodded to him, then settled against the wall, pressing his hand against Kage’s. Kage took it, cheeks a tad red, then gave it a squeeze. “This fucking thing again,” he muttered.

“It’ll pass,” CasCu said. 

Kage nodded. He shifted, once. “If - is we do end up having to engage that Servant, Gudako said she wanted me on the team. Thought I should let you know.” 

Ah. That made sense. Kage was a skilled Archer, and his stores of Independent Action made him more preferable to fight in a setting like this. CasCu squeezed Kage’s hand tight, then nodded sharply. “Alright,” he said, his voice soft. “Be safe.” 

“I will,” Kage promised.

CasCu nearly called out the lie. But at that moment, everything blacked out, sensation, touch - and then it turned on again. CasCu blinked. He stared at the hallway, the Servants within it. “That wasn’t nearly long enough,” he murmured. 

Kage was already pushing off the wall. “Did Zero Sail fail?”

Grand Cavallo’s voice crackled over the speakers. There was just enough panic in there that made CasCu freeze. “They got us good! Whoever’s out there sensed our spells going off and caught us in a split second. They’re physically holding us back. I’m impressed. Their physical strength exceeds the Border’s maximum output!”

“Physical?” Someone breathed.

CasCu blinked. “They grabbed hold of the border,” he realized, the words falling heavily into the air. They grabbed onto the border, and through that alone, stopped their Zero Sail. It shouldn’t have been possible. The pit of dread in CasCu’s stomach expanded.

“All hands, prepare to crash!” Grand Cavallo shouted, speakers screeching. “Heroic Spirits, return to Spirit Form!” 

CasCu had just enough time to blip out of experience before he felt it. The roll and shake of something being thrown, of being caught within an object and rolled around like a marble in a tin can. The spells on the Shadow Border made it harder to feel, but CasCu saw the way the walls tilted, and went flying with it. His Spirit Form phased through the wall. He landed in the bridge, amongst groans of pain and confusion.

Mash was already up, Gudako moving up with her. She sounded confused, holding her head. “Did we just barrel roll and crash?”

“Hai,” Mash said, “I felt the same thing.”

“That is precisely what happened,” Holmes said. He was the only one who didn’t look dizzy, his hands resting on the wheel of the Shadow Border. “That hostile Servant stopped our Zero Sail in its tracks before simply tossing us like a baseball. That is truly incredible strength. Perhaps -”

“Attention!” Grand Cavallo interrupted, “I'm afraid that crash completely shut down all our navigation systems. I can try to bypass the damaged systems, but even that's going to take some time. And then there's all the damage to the suspension. Luckily, we didn’t end up completely upside down, but we’re still not going anywhere anytime soon. I’m sorry, everyone, we can’t drive or run away on land anymore.”

Gordolf struggled to his feet. His face was too pale. “This is bad. Really bad.”

As if that wasn’t obvious. CasCu struggled to his feet, as Menurie frantically gestured at their sensors, “The magical signals are coming at us. One hundred meters, fifty meters - they’ve collided with the exterior! It’s melting our external armor!”

“Do they not realize how long was spent reinforcing this armor?” Grand Cavallo screeched, P.A. breaking with her voice, “There's no way anything should be able to break through it this easily… I mean, Da Vinci spent a ton of time making sure of that! What kind of weapon or Noble Phantasm do they have that could possibly do this!?”

Mash glanced at Gudako, her face pale. “Senpai -”

Gudako nodded sharply. “Let’s go. Kage, Hercules, Arjuna - come.” 

They appeared, minus Hercules, who was too big for the Shadow Border. Kage stood next to Arjuna, shoulders back, face a mask. CasCu hated to see it. He wanted to reach out to smooth out the harness in that gaze, the stiffness in his shoulders. Gods, Kage hated fighting. Hated killing, in part because it made his curse, the remnants of the twisted thing he had been in Fuyuki, stronger.

“Three Servants isn’t going to be enough,” Grand Cavallo said. “That person’s Spirit Origin is on par with Ivan’s. You need to take everyone you can.”

“Nightingale’s still treating Sanzang. I’ll call her if we need it,” Gudako said.

“Still not enough,” Sherlock said. “I believe that, for this one, I need to come with you. We can hold nothing back, and at the very least, I can keep you safe if your Servants and Ms. Kryielight fall.”

Mash started, “But-”

Gudako held her shoulder, then nodded to Sherlock. “Glad to have you. Come on, let’s go.” They started off towards the hatch. CasCu watched them go, his fingers curling tightly into his hand. He could barely breathe. This was wrong, this felt wrong. He watched Kage leave the bridge, the tattered ends of his butt cape flickering after him. 

“I’m following after you,” CasCu sent. “If needed, I can help out.”

“Alright,” Kage murmured. His voice was silent, near curt. It was a familiar shortness. CasCu wanted to flinch.

Outside, the winter wonderland stretched out. And at the Border’s port side - the Servant. He was a tall man, well-built, covered in silver and black armor. His face was completely hidden by a black mask, almost reminiscent of the Jontunn’s masks. And glowing from it - red eyes. Two, burning red eyes.

CasCu’s feet froze to the top of the border. His breath cut out. Even in Spirit Form, these eyes were red. Burning, painful, hateful red. And CasCu couldn’t breathe. He couldn’t breathe-

“Step away from there,” Gudako said, her voice utterly calm.

“Well now,” the Heroic Spirit said, his voice deep, “A human and five Heroic Spirits. No - three Heroic Spirits. Two of you have something else mixed in. Hybrids, then. Interesting.” He chuckled, a low grinding sound. He took a step forwards.

Mash slammed her shield down. Gudako raised her hand before anyone else could move. “I assume you want to talk to him?”

“I do,” Sherlock said. He stepped forwards, stared at the Servant. “The Border’s external armor is one thing, but you managed to cut to the multilayered Bounded Fields surrounding the inner hull. Back at Chaldea, Da Vinci, Nitocris, and Paracelsus worked to ensure those Bounded Fields would be as strong as any from the Age of Gods. They were as strong as any fortress made of divine iron, yet you cut through them like so much better, without even revealing your True Name. Utterly fascinating. Tell me, how did such a powerful demonic sword come to be?”

The Servant said nothing. Just watched them with those coldly burning eyes.

CasCu wanted to shout at them, but the words were trapped between his teeth. He didn’t know why, but he knew. He knew they couldn’t fight this thing. It wasn’t possible. They had to run, had to leave-

“Ah, I was right. It is a demonic sword, then. I thought it seemed far too dark to be a sacred sword,” Sherlock said.

The Servant finally spoke again, in that same voice of gravel, “I don’t talk to humans.”

He moved. None of them saw it, only knew after the sharp clang of metal against metal. Mash cried out, stumbled back, then caught her ground again. She planted her shield into the Border’s surface and grit her teeth.

The Servant held a short sword in hand, his glowing red sword out to the side, unused. His head tipped to the side, slight. “Have you lost your mind, girl? You should be running for all your worth. You don’t look like enough of an idiot to fail to see how outmatched you are.” 

“She’s not outmatched,” Gudako said. “We’re not stopping on this journey, and you aren’t going to get in our way.”

Those eyes flashed up, burning. Then he looked back at Mash. “A journey, huh. I don’t care where you’re going, I have my own destination in mind. Now die, so I may take your precious treasure.” 

“NOW!”

Arjuna’s blue arrow blazed forwards, cutting off the next swing of that Servant’s short sword. Kage lunged forwards, his twin blades in hand, a black and red blur across the roof of the Shadow Border. Hercules was right after him, appearing in mid-stride, lunging forwards with an overhead swing.

Useless. CasCu knew it was useless, and he couldn’t name why.

That demonic blade swung up and batted away Hercules’ blade as if it was a gnat. That short sword split into two, and each one blocked Kage’s strings of attacks. That Servant stood there, his blades moving in concert, keeping both Hercules and Kage busy. Their attacks barely made him budge. 

A flash of movement, too fast for CasCu to track, and Kage went flying across the Storm Border’s roof. He hit the ground and rolled, hard, got to his feet with a gasp and a spatter of blood from his lips. The Servant spun around Arjuna’s shot arrow, planted his short-sword in Hercules’ chest before he could dodge, then kicked him off the Shadow Border. He spun around right after, two swords striking out towards Arjuna.

They clanged hard against Mash’s shield. She slid back with the impact, panting for breath. The Heroic Spirit was there in her face, short-sword flying towards her. Kage was there again, sudden and abrupt, blocking that blow and sending his own barrage of attacks. They did nothing, merely scrapping his armor. When Kage was shoved away, Arjuna shot again.

This time they hit, one blue arrow after another. The Servant was driven back, his demonic sword lashing out to block, block, block - a roar, Hercules leapt on top of the Shadow Border and lunged forwards, swinging wildly. He was moving quicker than before, eyes glowing with mana. That short sword through his chest had to have burned through a life.

Just one strike, and Hercules was down a life. CasCu wanted to leap forwards and shake Gudako. This wasn’t right. He was too strong, too swift. They were barely hurting him. Everything about this was wrong, couldn’t she see that?

She could. Of course, she could. She took a single step back, bunching her fists tight. “Sherlock, what do you have for me?” 

“Well, for one - he’s pulling his punches,” Sherlock said, his cool, calm voice carrying over the battlefield. 

“Shit,” Gudako breathed.

One of Kage’s swords fractured, scattering metal across the roof. The short sword bit into his arm before the Servant was shoved away by Mash’s shield bash. He took a couple step back, only to bit hit three more times by blue arrows. He batted them away, blocked an incoming strike from Hercules. The air boomed at the contact. 

“His swordsmanship is exquisite, surely the finest in the Norse lands,” Sherlock said, “He is also immensely strong, and have both the knowledge and reflexes to stop all attacks coming at him, no matter the direction. His wisdom alone is a force to be reckoned with. Which means,” this was louder, directed at the Servant in the midst of the melee, “you must be the one who slew the evil dragon and consumed his knowledge. Am I wrong?”

“Oh?” The Servant said, his voice even rougher. There was an explosion of mana. Briefly, within the light, CasCu caught the flicker of red runes. Mash, Kage, and Hercules were tossed off the Shadow Border. Arjuna was blown off his feet. 

Gudako stumbled back, but Sherlock caught her. The magnifying glasses begin to rise from beneath his coat. “You are the child of Sigmund, king of Francia, and Hjördís, daughter of King Eylimi. Even among other peerless heroes who stand head and shoulders above ordinary people in strength, intelligence, and all other aspects. You were hailed as the greatest warrior-king of them all. A phenomenal swordsman who reforged your father's demonic sword - the one he earned after overcoming Odin's trial of Barnstokkr.”

No, something in CasCu whispered, that isn’t who he is at all.

“You are the fearsome warrior who defeated King Hunding's army, thereby avenging King Sigmund,” Sherlock continued, “You are the brave hero who single-handedly slew Fafnir, the evil dragon, consumed by greed, who horded his riches in the caves of Gnitaheiðar. You are the one who made a loyal friend out of Sleipnir's foal, Grani, who would gladly carry you to the ends of the earth. You are the great hero who ate the dragon's heart, gaining unimaginable power and the wisdom of the gods! Your True Name is Sigurd! You stand alongside Siegfried as one of the most powerful heroes of all Norse myth!”

Wrong. But the word didn’t push past CasCu’s lip. It was as if his body wasn’t his own, anymore, and he could do nothing but watch.

“However,” Sherlock finished, “that raises a number of questions. A true legend you may be, but that doesn't explain where your Monstrous Strength comes from. More importantly, why do your eyes glow red?”

The figure, the thing being called Sigurd, laughed. It was that same laugh of rock and gravel, the same thing of fire and destruction. “So you're a clever one on the side of Proper Human History, hm? Now what, then? Now that you know who you're up against, how do you intend to fight him?”

“We know Siegfried,” Gudako said. “We know your myth. And you haven’t used Gram yet, which means -”

“Means what?” Finally, those eyes met Gudako’s. “That I can’t use it? How wrong.” 

He moved. He moved, in a burst of mana like fire. Other things did too. Hercules, leaping onto the edge of the Shadow Border, so far away. The burst of Arjuna’s blue arrows, brilliant blue and battered away by that red blade as if they were nothing. Sherlock, his cane sweeping up to block. And a blur of black and red, hitting Gudako in the center of her torso, knocking her across the roof of the Shadow Border and towards Arjuna.

A black flash. The sick sound of metal hitting flesh.

“HOLMES-” Gudako cried out.

CasCu couldn’t look at Holmes. Not how his body had collapsed. Not the arm that had been flown from Holmes’ body, nor the splatter of blood across the Shadow Border’s. 

His eyes were on Kage. 

Kage, who had tossed Gudako out of the way. 

Kage, who had taken the rest of the blow, a large cleaving cut across his ribs and into his waist, spilling scarlet across silver metal.

Chapter 2: Chapter 2

Summary:

We're handing out Primordial Runes to everyone! Just watch out - consequences of use might be death!

Notes:

Thank you all for your comments and kudos! I hope you enjoy, and you have a wonderful valantines (or singles awareness) day!!

 

TW: suicide implications from "he saw a well" to "Odin"

Chapter Text

“You so-called Heroic Spirits are more fragile than I thought,” Sigurd said. “For two to be felled by one blow. How useless.”

The words faded out to nothing. CasCu couldn’t breathe, couldn’t think, couldn’t hear. It wasn’t just sound, but the whole world beyond Kage’s body had faded out into nothing. CasCu thought he must have slid into solid form because Kage was all color. The blaze of his white hair, the warm brown of his skin and the red flash of curses on his arms and cheeks. The sooty armor, spread out beneath him. The growing pool of blood, and the slowly rising vapor that came from the injury. 

Kage wasn’t moving.

He wasn’t moving.

CasCu was. He jolted across the Shadow Border’s roof to collapse beside Kage. Blood soaked into CasCu’s robes, staining the blue purple. CasCu swore and placed his hands over the massive cut in Kage’s side. It was too large, so large. Not nearly a bisection, but gods, if Sherlock hadn’t absorbed the first half of that blow - 

CasCu whined, high between his teeth. Frantically, he began to lay runes against Kage’s skin. Behind him, there was the murmur of voices. Sherlock. A different cadence. Nightingale? Irisviel? He hoped so. His runes were doing nothing. They flickered against Kage’s side, bright blue, in and out like a faulty light. On off. On off. Gone. CasCu wanted to scream.

Footsteps, running away. Gudako and Mash were leaving. The heavy presence from Sigurd was gone - had he left too? It didn’t matter. Nothing mattered but stitching Kage back together. CasCu did his best to focus. Kage’s shoulders were rising and falling, the short jerky movements of swallowed breaths. His finger’s flexed. Alive, but for how long? CasCu didn’t know. He didn’t fucking know.

“You idiot,” he sobbed, around a throatful of fear and anger and worry. He laid down another set of runes, shoved more mana into them. Distantly, he could hear Nightingale’s chant. Felt the wash of her mana over him. Kage’s wounds struggled to close, then gave up and remained open. “Why isn’t it fucking closing?!” 

“There were death runes along that blade,” Sherlock said. 

CasCu’s head whipped up so fast his he felt the whiplash reverberate in his skull. “No.” 

Sherlock nodded. The man didn’t look so good, all his famous calm shattered. His hair fell half across his face, his eyes glazed over with pain. Irisviel was in the process of bandaging his coat tightly over the stump of his arm. Nightingale left her to it, pushing CasCu gently to the side so she had access to Kage’s wound. The energy of her Noble Phantasm washed over them again, again. 

“I suspect I am only living because the blade didn’t hit anything vital,” Sherlock said. “Kage’s wound is more grievous. Luckily, his magic resistance is working against the curse.”

“But - most runes can’t kill heroic spirits,” CasCu breathed. 

“Primordial runes,” Sherlock said. He wavered a second, caught himself. “The ones Odin created that served as a mage craft foundation in the Age of Gods. Sigurd learned them from the Allfather’s daughter. It all - comes down to - Kage’s magic resistance…”

Sherlock fell forwards, eyes shut. Irisviel caught him and set him down gently. CasCu sat there, gutted. Primordial runes. Odin. Kage’s magic resistance. It was shit. Repeated exposure to Grail mud had eroded his resistance to curses. Primordial runes, capable of killing Servants. Odin.

“I’m loosing him,” Nightingale said. “I can no longer continue utilizing my Noble Phantasm. Irisviel.”

“Of course,” Irisviel said. She stood, holding her arms out. Golden light began to glow around her fingers, her form. “O white grail, sing …” She lifted off the ground, golden light spilling off her white robes. The golden light coalesced into a cup, a grail, overpouring with mana. The mana splashed down, bathing both Kage and Sherlock in brilliant light. 

Sherlock’s chest inflated. Kage made a sound, tight, pained between his teeth. But his shoulders were moving, breathing again. CasCu made a noise in the back of his throat, broken. Somewhere else, there was the sound of combat. 

“Come,” Nightingale said, “we must get them both to the infirmary.” 

CasCu nodded, throat tight. He picked Kage carefully up in his arms. The bandages Nightingale had placed were already starting to bleed through. His eyes fluttered, a hint of gold and amber beneath his white lashes.

“You better not die on me,” he rasped out, holding Kage tighter to his chest. “You better not fucking die on me, alright?” 

Kage made a noise between his teeth. He leaned a bit against CasCu. The small motion made CasCu’s blood boil. He gripped Kage a bit tighter, glanced to Irisviel and Sherlock. Sherlock was being held by Irirsviel. It was an awkward look, but Servant strength made it manageable.

Nightingale’s eyes were glowing painfully bright, the Madness in her gaze painful present. “It sounds like there’s fighting on the deck,” she said, “I will go join them. Irisviel, CasCu, you are in charge of keeping these two alive. Irisviel, you will have to continue to use your Noble Phantasm until you can find a way to reverse the runes.” 

Irisviel nodded. “We’ll do our best.”

“I might be able to reverse the runes,” CasCu rasped out. “Or suspend them. But there’s not much I can use against Primordial Runes. Best I can do is weaken them.”
“Weakening will be sufficient,” Nightingale said. “Now move.”

They moved. Nightingale bolted to the side deck, leapt off the roof of the Shadow Border with a cry of her Noble Phantasm’s name. CasCu and Irisviel bolted the opposite direction, towards the hatch. Irisviel slipped inside first, with CasCu right after her. The innards of the Shadow Border were in chaos. CasCu barely gave them a glance, focused on making his way to the Infirmary instead.

Sanzang was still there. She looked up, opened her mouth - Irisviel steam rolled over her. “Please, dismiss yourself, Sanzang. We have two critically injured patients and need to focus on their health.” 

Sanzang nodded, and disappeared without argument. CasCu laid Kage out on one of the bed’s, hands shaking. He pressed his fingers against Kage’s neck, felt the sluggish beat of his pulse. Panic twisted tighter in the center of his chest. He shoved it down. “We need your Noble Phantasm again. I’ll get started on the runes.”

“Alright.” Irisviel spread her hands out. Once more, she started to glow.

CasCu couldn’t look. Couldn’t think about the cup forming, couldn’t think about the gift of Guts being placed on Kage, again and again. As many times as it took. As many times as it had too, until the two were stable. CasCu scrambled through his runic knowledge, desperate patterns on the sheets. It was like his hand belonged to someone else. He felt disjointed from it, the movements. His mind kept snagging on Kage’s failing breaths.

Uruz: endurance.

Fehu: luck.

Thurisaz: strength, protection.

Naudiz: survival.

Iwaz: tree of life, eternity, resilience, longevity.

Algiz: divine protection.

Sowilo: Health.

Too many options, too many combinations. CasCu wanted to cry. Kage was breathing stronger again, but how long would that last? Too long. Not long enough. CasCu’s panic was a living thing, stealing his breath, his mind - but his hands didn’t shake. They knew what to do. He pressed one hand against Kage’s bandages, felt the rough texture of them under his palm, how soaked they were. The other began to write.

Naudiz, for survival. Sowilo, for renewed health. Iwaz, for the tree of life, for resilience and longevity. Algiz, for divine protection against the strength of this death rune. Ansuz, Odin, to tie it all together. 

CasCu waited with bated breath. Kage’s body seemed to relax into the bed. A bit of color returned to his cheeks. His breathing stabilized. Still bleeding, still injured, and CasCu knew he wasn’t strong enough to keep the runes at bay forever, but this would keep him for a bit. At least until they wore off. 

“Got it?” Irisviel asked. There was strain in her voice, tight.

“Yeah,” CasCu breathed, pulling his hand away from the hanging blue runes. He retreated to Sherlock’s side and repeated the rune circle. Like Kage, Sherlock eased. His skin regained some of it’s color.

Irisviel let out a breath. Repeated use of her Noble Phantasm had made her haggard, shadows under her eyes and nestled in her cheeks. She pushed a sweaty strand of hair behind her ear, and gave CasCu a tight, encouraging smile. “We need to redo the bandages. The wounds might need to be cauterized to stop the bleeding, but I’ll wait until Nightingale comes back before making that call. But we need to slow the blood flow first, and fast. Do you think you can help me with that?”

CasCu stared out over Sherlock's body, at Kage’s unconscious form. He swallowed hard, then pushed himself up. “Of course,” he said, and blinked back the hot burn of tears.

 

Nightingale came back, furious. 

There was no talking to her in that state, when the Madness near poured off her in waves. Arjuna was in her grip, unconscious. Mash followed after her, looking pale and sick. Gudako was nowhere to be seen, but CasCu could hear the distant sound of yelling. Possibly from the director. He didn’t have the energy to care. Nightingale ordered him around, and he followed, numb. 

When Nightingale told him to use his flames to cauterize both Kage and Sherlock to staunch the bleeding, he did it. He did it and did his best to ignore the stench of burning flesh. Didn’t look at the reflexive pain on Kage’s face as he seared shut that massive cut. Kept the gorge down as he pulled away and let Nightingale get started on treating the wound.

He went to Arjuna next, and used his runes to help the process of healing. He had no death runes, was just severely beat up. He’d recover in a couple of hours. 

Mash was heavily fatigued and out of magical energy. Irisviel soothed away her wounds with gentle touches, before pushing Mash’s hair out of her face and guiding her to lay down on the bed. “Do you feel well enough to tell us what happened?” She asked, her voice softer than snow cover.

Mash gave a shaky nod. Her fingers twitched on the blankets, her face screwed up faintly. She looked like a normal girl, like this. Young, worried. Afraid. Her voice was fractured and tight. “That Heroic Spirit - Sigurd, he went after the Paper Moon. The thing that guides us in and out of Void Space. The Director was just going to give it to him -”

“I’m sure the Director had his reasons,” Irisviel murmured, her voice soft. She thumbed over Mash’s forehead again, gentle, careful. “For one, Sigurd seemed very powerful. I’m certain the Directer wanted to keep injuries to a minimum by giving away Paper Moon.”

Mash’s face twisted up. “Senpai nearly died!” She said, in a hoarse, whispery shout. “He nearly cut off her head! I don’t know how he didn’t - why he didn’t. He was so close - and I couldn’t stop it -” her shoulders shook. A sob burst from her, broken. 

Irisviel shushed her, fingers wiping away at her tears, thumbing over her forehead. Mash curled into the gentle touch, her face twisted up in pain. CasCu watched this, fingers flexing. He felt numb. He knew he should help Mash - gods, he’d been guiding the girl since the start of this mess, of course he cared about her pain - but Kage still laid on his cot, the runes CasCu had woven barely enough to keep him from dying. CasCu could feel the stream of mana connecting the two of them. 

He understood what Mash was going through. Gods, he understood what Mash was going through all too well. He just had no energy to do anything about it.

Slowly, Mash’s tired sobs finished. She leaned into Irisviel’s eyes, blinking back a sheen of tears. “It was useless,” she mumbled, “he managed to retrieve Paper Moon anyway. We’re stuck here, with no way to get out.”

Irisveil pressed her lips together, slight. But her voice was soft still. “We’ll figure a way out, Mash. I promise you that. We always will.” 

CasCu couldn’t listen to them anymore. The hope in Irisviel’s voice was fragile and weak. The beginning notes to a warbled song. CasCu could barely hear it, and Nightingale was done fussing with Kage’s wounds. CasCu moved over and sat on the side of Kage’s bed. “If I sleep,” he said numbly, “Then I’ll take up less mana. May I stay?”

Nightingale glanced at him. Her eyes were brilliant red. “I will move you if I need to tend to the patient.” She turned to Mash, asked, “You said Gudako had been attacked? Is she hurt?”

CasCu didn’t listen. He slid into the bed, carefully beside Kage. The cot was narrow, and Kage was flat on his back, taking up space. CasCu curled up, and pressed himself against Kage’s uninjured side. He found his hand and twined their fingers between his. Kage’s skin was frightfully cold to the touch. But CasCu could feel his pulse, watch the intake of his breath. Slow and steady. In and out. CasCu let his eyes half close, and watched Kage breathe each fragile breath.

The magecraft they had right now could reduce the effects of a Primordial Rune. But they could not stop it. The only way to remove the Primordial Rune fully was to kill the one who had placed. Even then, if there had been enough mana forced into the rune - they would have to outlast it. Kage would have to outlast it.

CasCu closed his eyes, and squeezed Kage’s hand. Tight. 

 

He saw a well. Rough stone, fit together haphazardly, with moss blooming across it’s sides. The sides were wet. It glimmered with reflected starlight, winking softly at him. Encouraging. Promising. 

“The lost Norse Runes are one of the foundations of magecraft. Mages have partially reproduced them, but they pale in comparison to the originals from the Age of Gods.”

The well had water. It was silver, like the stars, and the sky danced within it’s circle. Within that skylit reflection was a rope.

“According to Norse Myth, Odin created the world from the remains of Ymir. Except for the runes.” 

He looked up. 

“Those Odin discovered after offering up his own life. Their shape contains the depth of the world itself.”

Beside him stood an ashe tree. It was a large thing, spanning the sky and breaking apart the ground at his feet. From the branches hung a gently swinging rope, spun from threads of starlight.

“Runes are the pathways to truth Odin discovered.”

The rope had been fixed and hung as a noose.

“If you inscribe the rune for death, then there’s no escaping it …”

He reached up -

“... if you’re made of flesh and blood.”

-and his fingers brushed against the noose of stars. Beneath his touch, the light flared. It twisted, turning, and he caught the shapes of runes within their flickering periods of darkness and light.

“We’re not flesh and blood.”

Ansuz.

“We can beat the Primordial Rune.”

Odin.

 

CasCu’s eyes flew open. He sucked a ragged breath between his teeth, chest billowing with the effort. A body laid pressed against his. Kage’s. His head had fallen to the side, tangled white hair brushing over his brow. CasCu stared for a long moment until the sight made sense. Kage’s skin was pale. But there was a pulse beneath CasCu’s fingers, and he could hear the faint sound of Kage’s breathing. Alive. Still alive.

CasCu pressed his forehead against Kage’s. “Fight it for a little longer,” he breathed, his voice soft. “You’ve got this, a ghra. Just fight it for me. There’s no way you can lose, stubborn brat that you are.” 

Kage said nothing. CasCu swallowed down a curse, a sob, and pushed himself up. Sherlock was still, like Kage, unconscious. Arjuna had disappeared, probably cleared and within Spirit Form. Irisviel was gone as well, most likely resting. Mash was gone too, which meant she had to be in the bridge. They would be discussing their next step. CasCu’s fingers flexed briefly, tight on Kage’s hand. “Hey, Nightingale?” 

Unlike the others, Nightingale was still here. She was redoing Sherlock’s bandages, setting the bloodied ones aside and putting fresh ones in their place. There was less blood than CasCu remembered. A good sign. “Yes?” She asked, her voice sharp. 

“Are they discussing what they’re doing next?” He asked. His voice felt rough. His throat hurt. He flexed his fingers again, ingraining the sensation of Kage’s skin against his own.

Nightingale narrowed her eyes briefly. “They just started discussing their next moves.” 

“Good,” CasCu said. He squeezed Kage’s hand once more, then leaned down. Pressed his lips against Kage’s forehead. Finally, there was a reaction, the faintest shift, a slight groan. CasCu bit back his relief, and forced himself to pull away. “You’ll keep him alive, right?”

It was a rhetorical question. Nightingale answered anyway. “I’ll save him even if it kills him.” 

Normally, CasCu would have been worried. Would have hesitated at leaving Kage within the insane nurse's hands … but this was a Primordial Rune. Nightingale and Irisviel were their best hope for survival, at the moment. Keeping Kage alive, even if it meant killing him, was their best bet. Gods, he hated that it had come to this.

CasCu slid off the bed. He held Kage’s hand for a longer moment, breathing in, then out. He could feel Nightingale’s eyes on him. He couldn’t muster a smile. Not even a fake one. “I’ll be back. And hopefully I’ll have those goddamned runes removed when I do.” 

“We’ll keep him stable until then,” she said. 

It was the only promise she could make. CasCu wasn’t going to try to extract another one from her. He left, leaving Kage’s unconscious body behind him.

 

“Are you okay?” Cu’s voice, a gentle touch in his mind. It was a questioning thing, worried. “I couldn’t reach you before.”

“I was sleeping,” CasCu mumbled. Two more touches, Proto and Alter. They were silent for now, but their touch was gentle still, careful. CasCu relaxed for it. The care implicit in the check-up. “But thanks for checking, I’m … alright. Angry, right now. I want the fucker who did that to him dead-” the words ended in a growl, rattling in the back of his throat.

“Going out with Gudako?” Alter asked.

“I’m sure as well going to try,” CasCu gritted. “She’ll need someone on her team that understand rune craft. That leaves me and Scáthach. You dumbasses don’t know anything beyond the basics.”

“Ow, rude,” Proto whined. “And here I thought we were helping out!”

The protest made CasCu’s lips twitch. “You guys know enough rune craft to feed the runes I laid down while I’m gone. Think you can manage that much, brat?”

The grumble he got for that was predictable. Proto whined, loud, but Cu was the one who agreed. “Yeah, we will. Besides, good news for you! Alter’s out on the group with you, so you won’t be alone.” With your grief, he didn’t fill in.

CasCu almost wanted to punch him. But he knew that it was the right call. He let out a long breath between his teeth, this angry sigh, before he nodded. “Yeah, yeah, alright. Glad to have ya, big guy.”

“No problem,” Alter said. 

CasCu nodded, even if Alter couldn’t see it. He slid into the command room, taking note of everyone inside. Mash and Gudako were standing beside the director and the command computer. Grand Cavallo was speaking, her voice tinny. “This mission has three main objectives: recovering the Paper Moon, cutting down the Tree of Emptiness, and finding a path to the North Sea.”

Mash bit the corner of her lip. She looked a bit uncertain, worried. Her confidence in her own abilities shaken. “Um … I understand why we need to get the Paper Moon back, since we can't continue our journey without it … but why is cutting down the Tree of Emptiness part of this mission too?”

“An excellent question. As you'll recall, Sigurd didn't come here to kill us; he came to steal the Paper Moon,” Grand Cavallo said. There was something in the cadence of her speech, like she was trying to emulate Sherlock, and be comforting at the same time. “Why would he do that if he belonged to this Lostbelt? Simply put, he wouldn't. Never in a million years. The only ones who would consider the Paper Moon a threat are the Crypters, especially now that they've lost Russia. In which case, it makes sense to assume that he is one of the Crypters' Servants.”

Gudako looked up, sharp. Despite her close brush with death, her face was hard, set. CasCu didn’t know the spark in her eyes. It was wrong. Duller. It lacked the gleam that had carried her through Singularity after Singularity. Her voice showed it. “This Lostbelt’s Crypter already knows we’re here. So if we have to deal with them, then we might as well deal with the Tree of Emptiness as well?”

“Correct,” Gordolf said. He leaned against the Grand Cavello’s computer, fingers fiddling with his cuff sleeves. But his voice was assured, much calmer than CasCu had expected from him. “Once the Crypter realizes the Tree of Emptiness is in danger, we can be certain they will have some sort of response. And when they do, that will be the perfect chance for us to take the Paper Moon back. Maybe I'm being a little overly optimistic here, but I'd say this plan is absolutely foolproof!”

“But there’s a bunch of work we have to do before that,” Grand Cavallo said. “First order of business: we need to conduct a thorough investigation of this Lostbelt. And since we have to stay here and repair the Border, that will require both of you to head out and investigate the area. Are you alright with that?”

“What if the Border’s attacked again?” Mash asked.

“We’ll do what we did in the first Lostbelt,” Gordolf said. “If we’re attacked, then we’ll deploy Servants to counteract the attack. We’ll also set up a watch as people work on fixing the border. But with two in the infirmary, we’ll have to deploy fewer people.”

“I’ll figure a good setup for you,” Gudako said. She relaxed a tad, her shoulders shifting downwards.

“Before you go,” Grand Cavallo said, “we need to catch you up on what you might be facing. First things first: the Norse mythology we know from Proper Human History. Scandinavia used to be home to all sorts of gods, giants, and other Mystics, just like the Age of Gods in other areas. But then in 1000 B.C., about three thousand years ago, Mt. Katla erupted…and Ragnarök began. The end of the Norse Age of Gods.”

Gordolf nodded. His voice took on a lecturing tone, sharp, like a teacher’s. “Loki's mischief eventually begat all sorts of disasters, culminating with Muspel fire giants invading from Muspelheim, the land of flame. It's said that during Ragnarök, Odin was eaten by Fenrir, the great wolf of ruin, and that many gods died in a fearsome clash with the giants … before Surtr, the Fiery King of Giants and ruler of Muspelheim, laid waste to all the land with his flaming sword.” 

“It was after that the Age of Humanity began,” Grand Cavallo finished.

Gordolf continued to speak. CasCu found his attention wavering. His old scars were burning, the ones caused by the bite of Chulainn’s hound. Despite the lack of physical body, despite the memory being so distant, CasCu could still feel its teeth in his flesh. Digging, digging, deeper, deeper. Ripping meat from bone and sinew -

“It’s likely the Age of Gods in this Scandinavia never ended.”

CasCu snapped out of the memory, head jerking up. That was - it felt wrong. The memory felt wrong, but that didn’t matter. Focus. This was important information. He couldn’t let his mind drift.

“One of the big questions we need to answer is, when did this Lostbelt diverge from Proper Human History?” Grand Cavallo said. “We can determine that this Lostbelt is before the A.D. era, and that Age of Gods-level Mystics still exist, but we also need to figure out why that is. Our big questions are when and why. At this point, I think it would have diverged around three thousand years ago, around the time of Ragnarök in Proper Human History's Scandinavian Age of Gods … but as to why that happened, your guess is as good as mine.”

“Why does this Lostbelt look like this? What are those flames you saw on the northern mountains? And based on what we've been able to observe from the Border, why does it look like there aren't any towns or cities, like there were in Proper Human History? Are there even any other humans here? If so, did they change into something else, like the Yaga? There are too many unanswered questions, but we can start with those first two.”

For a moment, everyone was silent. It was a lot of questions, so many. CasCu was nearly dizzy with them. It wasn’t like this was the first time they had walked into something with no knowledge. They had probably done it too many times in the past. But with Sherlock and Kage fighting Death Runes, with the Paper Moon stolen and Gudako nearly killed herself by Sigurd’s strike - it was too much. CasCu’s breathing felt a bit pained. A world that diverged around the time of Ragnarök ….

Ragnarök.

CasCu’s head hurt.

“Finally,” Grand Cavallo said, “There’s the Tree of Emptiness. Since neither you nor Mash could see it, Gudako, and the Border has been unable to sense it, we must assume that the Tree of Emptiness has been concealed.”

“This is why your mission objectives include finding it,” Gordolf said. He smiled, once. It was an odd smile, something that was obviously meant to be encouraging, yet too tight around the eyes. Fragile. Like he didn’t like throwing them out to the wolves, but was trying to comfort them anyway. “Good luck, we’ll be counting on you.”

The words made Gudako relax. She looked away from the monitors. Her eyes had a bit of that spark back in them, a determination that burned like a covered flame. “And if we locate the Tree of Emptiness, Director?”

“Then no need to wait on my orders,” Gordolf said, “Go ahead and chop it down.”

“Alright,” Gudako said. She straightened, gave both him and the computer a nod. “Then we’ll be on our way.”

“One last thing before you go,” Grand Cavallo beeped. “It’s not going to be possible to Summon new Servants here.”

Mash blinked sharply. “It’s not?”

“Are there no leylines nearby?” Gudako asked, frowning faintly.

Grand Cavallo made an agreeing hum. “The Border is running way low on power thanks to all the damage, but the biggest issue is the fact that we couldn't detect any leylines. I bet it's because of all the magical energy here is intertwined with the ice and snow at a molecular level. I'm afraid it's also going to interfere with our long-range comms. Another thought is that the ice and snow’s magical energy could be completely controlling both this Lostbelt’s mana and history, which makes it hard for us to hijack it.”

Gudako’s head jerked towards the computer. She stared at for a moment, then grit her teeth tightly. “If someone’s manipulating all the ice and snow within this Lostbelt, it would make them incredibly powerful.”

“It might be the Lostbelt King,” Mash filled in, her voice very small.

“But at present, there’s nothing we can do about it, so there’s no use worrying about it.” Gordolf said. “Our sensors located a group of life forms one hundred and fifty kilometers northwest from here. That will be your first destination.” His face grew sterner, shoulders drawn back. “And do your best not to be discovered. As of right now, with our current power levels, it’s best to make as little impact as possible. Otherwise, that damn Sigurd might come back and finish the job.”

“Yes, director!” Gudako said. She snapped off a sharp salute, gave a tight smile. “We’ll do our best to be careful.” 

“Good,” Grand Cavallo said. “Mash, Ortinax is back up and running. You shouldn't have to worry about it acting up after getting hit with a demonic sword again.” 

Mash started. She stared at the computer, wide-eyed, before she gave a swift bow. “H-hai! Thank you, Grand Cavallo.” 

“Of course! Are there any further questions?” 

Mash and Gudako glanced at each other. It was an odd sort of glance, deep, searching. The type of look traded between people who knew each other’s mind like the back of their head. Mash hesitated, then shook her head. Gudako nodded once, then turned back to the Director and Grand Cavallo’s computer. “No further questions.” 

“Very well then,” Goredolf said, “we begin tomorrow morning at zero nine hundred! Until then, you two get all the rest you possibly can!” 

He didn’t have to say why. Everyone knew the two would need it. CasCu knew the two would need it. Gudako would be supporting at most five Heroic Spirits, plus Mash, and any Servants she managed to contract within the Lostbelt. The strain on her mana resources would be high. She’d need all the energy that she could possibly gather for this mission.

CasCu didn’t like taking that break time away from her. But his request wouldn’t take long. He just hoped she listened. He couldn’t just sit here and do nothing while Kage rested within the infirmary, like - like that.

He waited until after Gudako and Mash exited the Bridge room. He couldn’t wait any longer. He stepped from Spirit Form, and pushed his hood down. “Gudako? Can I take a moment to speak to you?” 

Gudako didn’t jump. Of course, she didn’t. She was too in tune to her Servants, and it would have been impossible for her to not sense his approach. “Of course,” she said, “How are you feeling? How is Kage doing?” 

Of course. After everything, even after her own feelings, her first response was for her people. CasCu huffed and reached out, ruffling her hair gently. “Those are things I be should asking of you,” he replied, his voice tighter than he wanted. “Kage is- he’s stable for now. He got a worse dose of those damn death runes than Sherlock did.” 

Gudako’s face fell. “I’m sorry.” 

“Not your fault, kid,” CasCu breathed. “You had no way of knowing.” 

“I still should have -” 

“Should have what?” CasCu asked, interrupting the burst before it could begin. “You took everyone up you could, and had Nightingale waiting in the wings in case of the worst. Arjuna is a damned powerful Archer, and Hercules is an immensely powerful force. Kage ain’t - he isn’t no slacker skill wise either. Sherlock and Mash were there helping out. But our opponent took everyone by surprise. There’s not much you can do against that.” 

Gudako nodded, but didn’t look at him. Her gaze remained fixed on the floor. “I’m sorry anyway,” she muttered. “After last time, I was too confident. It won’t happen again.” She lifted her gaze again, and there it was. That flare in her eyes. Determination and fire, shining bright without restraint. CasCu was glad to see it back on her face.

“Good to hear,” He said, pulling his hand back. “Gudako, I want to be on your team when you go out again.” 

Gudako opened her mouth, then closed it. CasCu waited patiently for her to ask him to explain. If she needed him too, he would. But that was the good thing about Gudako. She knew. She knew people, probably so well, it was a weapon. And when she looked up, there was understanding on her face, but a hardness CasCu knew he required. “I won’t tolerate anything stupid, CasCu. If we meet Sigurd without preparation, we’re going to do our best to get the hell out of dodge. You being reckless to save Kage will only get yourself killed.” 

CasCu grit the back of his teeth. But she was right. He knew that. So he swallowed hard, pushed that anger down, and met her gaze. “I know. But you’ll need someone with my knowledge of runes on this trip. And I’m the only Caster you have that uses them consistently.”

“You are,” she agreed. She considered this, before settling on her heals. “Scáthach and Alter are on the team. You going to be okay with that?” 

He’d known Alter was going to be on the team. But Scáthach? No- that made sense. CasCu let out a breath, and nodded. “Yeah, I’ll be okay with that. Anyone else I should know about?”

“I want to take an Archer,” Gudako said. She bit her lip, eyes narrowed as she considered her options, “I’m thinking of taking Tesla. It will be difficult to balance the mana requirements between him, Scáthach, and Alter, but his Noble Phantasm would be useful against the type of enemies we might face.”

“I think that might be a good idea,” Mash murmured, nodding slightly. “It will balance out the parties Noble Phantasm’s as well … hai?”

“Yeah,” Gudako said, giving a bit more of a grin. “Yeah, I think that’ll work out well.” She straightened up and met CasCu in the eye. “We’ll see you in the morning, then?” 

“Yeah,” CasCu said, letting out a slight breath. “Do you want me in Spirit Form, or may I stay with Kage?”

Her expression softened, just a tad. “Go ahead,” she said. “The Director might complain about the mana drain, but I’ll just say you’re helping Nightingale out for the time being, alright?” 

“Yeah - yeah.” CasCu let out another breath of relief, gave her a tight grin. “Thanks, kid. You two take care.”

“Hai!” Mash said.

“We will,” Gudako promised. “Now go on. He’s waiting for you.”

CasCu didn’t even think about disobeying. He headed right back towards the infirmary, where Kage waited for him. 

 

The Scandinavian Lostbelt would have been, under any other situation, gorgeous. Light bounced off the crystal trees. The sky was a perfect shade of soft blue. The snow that decorated the ground was gentle, not harsh, and gleamed like silver.

CasCu stepped out of the Shadow Border, Alter by his side, and his feet crunched into the snow. Unlike normal snow, it didn’t melt at his touch. He could feel the low level hum of mana against the toes. Somehow, it felt familiar. Like he’d touched it in another dream. He would have suspected a Holy Grail war, if the only one he’d ever been through hadn’t been the one that created Singularity F. 

The giant sun still made some tight part of him twist up, even if he didn’t understand why.

Perhaps it was the mana underfoot, the silence of the snowy Singularity. Perhaps it was their circumstances. No Summonings to get help. No communication with the Border until they got back. There had been times in previous deployments that comms had been cut, but this was different. Somehow more final, as long as they were separated from the Shadow Border and it’s supplies. 

Not that getting back to the Shadow Border should take too long … CasCu eyed the set of skis attached to Gudao’s and Mash’s feet. “Are you sure those will work like Grand Cavallo said they would?” 

Gudao shook out one foot. “Even normal skis would make us move faster.”

“Besides,” Tesla said, “I followed Grand Cavallo’s instructions to the letter - besides adding my own additions of course. They will be swift, efficient, and should reduce the amount of energy required by travel. It significantly decreases the danger as well.”

“A shame,” Scáthach said. She stood loosely, arms crossed. CasCu wasn’t fooled by the posture. Her eyes told the real story, sharp, flicking around the landscape, evaluating. Constantly aware of danger.

“Not for me,” Gudao said, “I’d like to save as much mana as possible without any emergency donations. Alright everyone,” he clapped his hands together, this sharp snap that echoed through the landscape, “back to Spirit Form. Mash and I are going to get started on moving before the Director starts having second thoughts. He was way too worked up this morning.”

Alter grunted his affirmative, then took to Spirit Form. Everyone else followed suit. The colors of the Lostbelt were wiped away before CasCas eyes. Gudao and Mash gave each other a nod, then started off on their skis. Tesla had not lied. The things were extremely fast, propelling Gudao and Mash up inclines and around obstacles without issue, and with seemingly little effort on their parts. CasCu followed after, swift in Spirit Form. The snowy landscape flashed past them, one blurred tree after another.

The sun in the sky never changed. It continued to watch them, unblinking.

A few hours into their run, Gudao and Mash slowed down their progress for a break at the top of one of this Lostbelt’s many hills. It was the first time CasCu had gotten a proper look, grayed out as it was, as the scene Gudao and Mash had described before Sigurd’s attack. Massive, monstrous hills in the distance. The burning licks of fire reached towards the sky, but CasCu could still see the layer of ice beneath them. 

It was -

No. Not familiar. CasCu had never seen anything like this.

“It would require high level mystics to cause something like this,” Scáthach remarked, “something god-level.” Her voice was lower, huskier. Hungry. 

CasCu scoffed. “Wouldn’t you like that?”

“Of course I would,” she retorted, “So should you. We have a plethora of god-killers in Chaldea. We will be well-prepared should this Lostbelt King be one of those.”

Well, it wasn’t like CasCu could argue with that. And it was never good to argue with Scáthach. CasCu kept his mouth shut.

“Gudao?” Mash asked, her voice a bit tight with something that might have been awe, “These trees - they’re not covered in ice. They’re ice all the way through.”

What?

CasCu blinked and turned around. Mash was standing by one of the trees, her hand resting upon the crystalline trunk. Gudao pushed to his feet, thermos between his hands. He didn’t ask, knew better than to second guess Mash’s observations.. Instead, he looked around, frowning. “Hey, CasCu? Can you do a brief check for any plant life close by?”

CasCu stepped out of Spirit Form. Once more, his toes crunched against the snow. “Not a problem, Gudao.” He gave Gudao a smile, too tight around his eyes, then knelt into the glimering powder. This was easy stuff. Druid craft at the very base of its form. CasCu drew in a deep breath, then let it out in a long, slow rush. He plunged his fingers into the snow, and sent off a short pulse of mana.

It didn’t return. He frowned, then pushed himself to his feet, brushing the snow off his fingers. “Nothing. There’s no plant-life close enough for me to sense.”

“But there have to be plants,” Gudao said, frowning. “Maybe not in the forests, but in any villages? Animals need plants to live …”

“Maybe it means there’s a different force at work here?” Mash suggested. She pulled her hand from the bark and fiddled with the edge of her coat. “Something very different from what caused Russia’s ice age. Lostbelts are alternate, hypothetical versions of history. What must have this world’s history been like to have this sort of -”

A bird call cut her off. This cawing croak. Crows? CasCu looked up at that painfully blue sky, blinking back spots from the influx of light. Two birds circled them. They looked like crows at this distance, these cut out shapes. But now, that was wrong. They were too large. They were -

Ravens.

Mash and Gudao’s voices faded out into a low drone. The around him, the landscape blurred to just white, the sky to a simple haze of blue. Touch receded. He could not feel the snow against his feet, the wind against his hair, his clothes against his skin. He stood in nothingness, with the two ravens circling above his head.

“Huginn,” CasCu’s lips shaped, though the words weren’t audible to his ears. “Muninn”

Thought. Memory.

Something in CasCu stirred. It felt like a plant pushing out from a pile of compacted dirt. The seed beginning to break, soil loosening just enough that that initial tendril could start pushing its way out. CasCu was rooted to the spot, dizzy. The ravens were circling him. Thought and memory. Huginn and Muninn. The plant in his chest, in his mind, wiggled a bit further through the dirt, searching for air and sunlight so it could spread out and cover everything -

“CasCu.” 

He blinked. The world reinstated itself. His clothing against his skin, wind in his hair, feet on the snow. The sky was still a burning, blazing blue that hurt to look at. The icy landscape around him was unchanged. The ravens were gone. 

He glanced over. Gudao and Mash were on their skis again. Gudao was sending him a concerned look. “Are you okay? You spaced out there for a moment.” 

CasCu shook himself. “I’m fine,” he said, “just lost in thought. Thanks for checking in, though,” he smiled at Gudao and Mash, put a touch more warmth, appreciation in it.
Gudao did not look assuaged. “Alright. But if you need anything, just say so.”

“I will,” CasCu promised, before taking to Spirit Form. There, he let his smile drop. He pressed his hand against his head. It was aching, this low thud at the base of his skull, like something was pounding repeatedly at a barrier. Like it was trying to break through. Those ravens … gods, had they been that odd? No - just normal birds. Didn’t - what? Didn’t even have what? The whole moment was a blur.

“Are you okay?” Alter grunted.

CasCu recoiled at the sudden touch in his mind, not quite painful but certainly too present. But the wariness receded as fast as it came. Just Alter. He let out a breath. “I’m fine. Just a bit rattled. Thought I remembered something, but it’s gone now. But I think I’ll keep an eye on the sky from now on.”

“Worried about those ravens?” Alter asked.

No. No, he wasn’t worried about the ravens. The ravens felt … right in a way he couldn’t name, which was wrong. They’d just been birds. And at the same time - it felt like he was missing something. His head was hurting worse. “No,” he said, slowly, “No, I’m not worried about the ravens.”

Alter hummed. It was a low thing, suspicious, but Alter knew boundaries. He didn’t push. CasCu was grateful. He closed his eyes, and took a moment to recalibrate himself. Slowly, the pounding in the back of his head begin to ease up.

Chapter 3: Chapter 3

Summary:

A fun tale of a fucked up singularity :D

Notes:

Thank you all for your comments and kudos!! I hope you all enjoy and have a wonderful day!

Chapter Text

The ravens didn’t follow them.

A part of CasCu was relieved about that. There was something wrong - or right - about those ravens. Something that prickled at the back of his brain, itching there. But no one else seemed to have noticed anything amiss about them. He resolved to watch the sky by himself, occasionally sending glances towards the blue dome above them.

Through the haze of crystal branches and leaves, that large sun watched him back.

CasCu fought a shudder.

Gudao and Mash had set them on a course through the forest of crystal trees. The two had put up their ski sets, and were going on foot. The snow crunched beneath their feet. It was a sound too loud in the comparative silence, echoing sharply between trunks and branches. It made sneaking around impossible.

Not that Guda and Mash’s conversation helped that either. Their sounds carried, in this place of ice and snow, for all they kept their voices soft, lowered.

“Gudao,” Mash murmured, soft, “can I ask you about something?” 

“Of course,” Gudao responded. And then, because he knew her, “is it about Sigurd?” 

CasCu blinked sharply. He drew his gaze away from the sky and sun, and focused on Gudao and Mash’s conversation about the not-Sigurd. It felt important in a way he couldn’t fully name, bone deep and instinctual. 

“Hai,” Mash hesitated, then forged ahead. “Sigurd,” she said slowly, “is one of the greatest heroes in all of Scandinavia. He reforged King Sigmund’s demonic sword, Gram, after the divine spear Gungir shattered it, then went on to defeat the dragon Fafnir and gain its wisdom. Later, he and Brynhildr the Valkyrie fell in love, but their relationship was poisoned by hate, and ended with his death. He has many of the same roots as Siegfried, but -”

“He and Siegfried couldn’t be more different,” Gudao finished. He scowled, faintly. “And when he spared my life, do you remember what he said? That -” 

Someone screamed. 

It was a high-pitched scream, a child-like thing filled with fear and terror. CasCu’s head jerked away from Gudao and Mash. He, Scáthach, Alter, and Tesla all appeared at once, weapons ready. The staff in CasCu’s hand felt wrong. The wood, despite being worn away with use, was rough. He expected a smoother feeling, something more like metal, more like -

“That came north-west of us,” Gudao called. “Scáthach, Alter, Tesla, go run interference! CasCu, get whoever was screaming out of there as quick as possible. Mash and I will be right behind you all!”

They moved, swift. Scáthach was as quick as ever, running through the snow with nary a footstep left behind. Alter was larger than life, monstrous chitin and teeth bared, a blazing hacksaw of sharpened white gleaming against his skin. Tesla was a bit slower, and after a moment, took to Spirit Form again. 

This motley crew would terrify any kid they came across. CasCu cast raido to bolster his speed, to make himself travel quicker. He bolted past Scáthach and Alter, feet skimming over the snow drifts. It didn’t take him long to crest over a hill, slide down the embankment, and see the cause of the scream. 

The scream had been from a child. A girl, in particular, who was dressed for the cold in a massive green cloak decorated in thick brown fur. The hood had fallen down, and her golden hair tumbled out, streaming and snarling as she ran and scrambled through the snow, away from the giants that chased her. 

CasCu growled, low in the back of his throat. He lunged forwards, catching the girl around her midriff, tucking her against his chest as he rolled across the snow. The hiss of air. The blurred movement of a weapon. CasCu’s fingers flicked up. Algiz. The shield was a paltry thing, only one rune hastily cast to its name. It shattered upon impact, sending CasCu and the girl flying - but they were uninjured, and the giants had other things to focus on. 

Namely, Scáthach and Alter cresting the ridge, weapons bared. Scáthach leapt up, and copies of her spear blazed into existence, rocketed down towards her chosen giant. Alter didn’t do anything so fancy. He just lunged off the ridge, hit one of his giant with enough force to send it crashing to earth. Thunder boomed. Tesla appeared midair, lighting raining down from his fingertips.

They had that well in hand. CasCu slowly unrolled, and set the girl gently down on her feet. He left his hand on her shoulder, crooning softly. “Are you alright?”

She stared at him with wide green eyes. “What are you doing?! Any child found by the Bergrisar is doomed!” 

CasCu kept crooning, even if a frown threatened to tug at his face. “Not as long as we have a say in it, kid.” 

It wasn’t an answer she appreciated. Her face twisted up, as if fighting an onslaught of tears. “You - you have to run away if you see a child being attacked by one of them! So go! Get out of here! You can’t be here!”

Bergrisar. Jotunn. They were the same damn thing, and CasCu felt fury rise in him like the beginnings of fire. Who the fuck told a kid that they wouldn’t be saved if the Bergisar caught them? CasCu could see it in this girl’s eyes. Despair. Terror. She didn’t believe they would stay. She thought they would just turn their back and leave her to be ripped apart. 

Lugh no. 

Never.

“No can do kid,” CasCu said. He gave her shoulder a rub through the thick layers of clothes, and projected his croon a little louder. “We’re not leaving you to fend for yourself out here, especially with those nasties out. Not when we can do something about them.”

“H-huh?” She blinked at him, then tried to look around him. CasCu shifted to block her view. She didn’t need to see the sight his friends were making. 

Not that the sight lasted much longer. The three were just finishing up by the time Mash and Gudao caught up. The two slid down the slope. Gudao’s voice rose high. “Is anyone injured? Come here if you are.” 

“Sorry we didn’t get here sooner,” Mash murmured, “it was farther than we thought.” 

The girl’s face flexed, blinked. A couple of her held back tears escaped, and she scrubbed at him hard. “Who are you?” She asked, small.

“You’ll learn in a second,” CasCu promised. He crooned once more, then stood, leaving his hand on her shoulder to keep her stable. “Gudao, Mash, there’s someone I’d like for you to meet. I can finish up healing, if you’d like.” 

Gudao glanced over from where he was healing Alter. He blinked at the sight of the girl, then brightened. “Sounds like a plan to me!” 

The girl looked at him nervously. “And whose that?” 

“My Master,” CasCu said. He gave her shoulder a small, encouraging nudge forwards. “Go ahead and say hello. He’ll clear up some of the air, I promise.” 

She bit her lip, then nodded. Step by step they made their way over. Gudao beamed at her, held out his hand. After a second, the girl took it, shaking it shyly. CasCu smiled faintly to himself, then walked the rest of the way to Alter. His smile fell.

Bergrisar. Mountain giants. Friends to the Jotunn, frost giants.

“Are you alright?” Grunted Alter. The man was a mess, covered in weeping wounds and bruise marks. CasCu shook himself, and knelt by Alter’s side, placing the first of many runes upon his skin.

“I’m alright,” he murmured. “This place just rubs me the wrong way.” He hesitated, then asked, a bit quieter. “Are any of these words… ringing weird bells with you?”

“No,” Alter said. He eyed CasCu for a long moment, before letting out a growl between his teeth. “That’s a better question for Cu, or Proto.” 

“I suppose so,” CasCu breathed. He traced the last rune, and watched as the final wound on Alter’s skin stitched itself back together, the discolored bruises smearing away until they could no longer be seen.

Alter took to Spirit Form right after they were finished healing. CasCu hesitated a second longer, glancing back at Gudao, Mash, and the girl. They were just finishing their introductions, smiles on their faces. The kid’s fear seemed to have been smoothed away, at least. He let out a sigh, then took to Spirit Form himself. 

“Your friends are incredible,” the girl was saying, “I can’t believe they saved me! And none of them are squished!” She gave a small look around, then squeaked. “They disappeared!” 

“Don’t worry, Gerda,” Gudao said with a chuckle, “They’re still here. They’ve just gone invisible for a moment. I’m afraid it costs them a lot of energy to be seen, so most of the time they rest in Spirit Form.” 

The girl, Gerda, considered this for a moment. “Like ghosts?” She asked, hesitantly.

“A bit like them, yes,” Gudao said. 

“Oh!” Gerda hesitated, then apparently decided it was okay. She grabbed Gudao’s hand, then Mash’s. “Thank you for having your ghost friends help me! What village are you from? You’re not shivering … how can you be so cold with so little layers? I’m only warm because I knew I had to bring my coat when I went out on my own. The grown-ups won’t help because they’re getting everything ready for tomorrow, so I have to treat the children myself!”

CasCu’s lips twitched. It seemed that, with the threat of danger gone, little Gerda was a bit of a babble mouth. Mash and Gudao were obviously thinking the same. Gudao’s shoulders were twitching with repressed chuckles. Mash’s lips were affixed with a small, amused smile.

“Oh!” Gerda let go of their hands, pressing her own over her mouth. “A reward! When someone does something nice for you, you have to repay them. Oh … um … I don’t have anything on me right now, I’d have to go back to the village … But I also still have to find the medicinal herbs … what should I do …”

Village.

Humanity. There were more remnants of humanity than just Gerda out here. CasCu glanced sharply to Gudao and Mash. They were conversing silently. Mash’s face had fallen slightly, her smile more sad. Gudao’s expression was a bit tight. But then he flicked his smile on, a warm - if weak - thing. 

“How about this,” he said to Gerda, “Me and Mash will help you look for your medicinal herbs, and then you can take us to the village. How does that sound?” 

Gerda brightened. “That would be great!”

“We’ll have to be careful about the giants,” Mash warned her voice soft. “There seems to be a lot of them in this area.”

Gerda’s excited face fell, a tad. “We only see them occasionally near the village, but there are lots of giants in the mountains. But I have to find those herbs. The envoy isn’t coming until tomorrow, and she’s the only one who can use runes. Laura probably can’t survive the night - but someone said that there were amazing healing herbs near here! That they can heal anything, but are really good for fevers!”

“Brave kid,” Scáthach murmured, “Given a few years, I would have whipped her into shape. She’s got the determination of a warrior.” 

Alter snorted. CasCu’s own lips twitched, slight. Oddly enough, it was Tesla who responded, “Perhaps, Miss Scáthach. But children should be allowed to be children. It’s not right for them to hold such weight on their shoulders.” 

“Difference in times,” Scáthach said, smoothly, and well - no one was going to argue with Scáthach when she spoke like that.

“I know it’s reckless to be out here,” Gerda said, “And that we’re never supposed to leave the village -”

“Never?” Gudao asked, blinking.

“Well, yes,” Gerda said, staring at them. “Nobody’s ever supposed to leave. Isn’t it like that in your village too? The only ones permitted to go outside are the envoys chosen to be the servants of the gods.”

The look Mash and Gudao exchanged was swift. Easy to miss, if you weren’t in tune with their reactions. But CasCu saw it. CasCu knew. The two had been on too many field missions to let such valuable information slip by. 

“What do you mean by that?” Gudao asked.

Gerda blinked, then burst into giggles. “Nice try! But you won’t trick me so easily. Lady Mash and your ghost friends - well, people have always told me that envoys of the Goddess have swords or spears, but I didn’t know they could use shields too! Or disappear like ghosts!”

Mash and Gudao stood there, stunned. CasCu fought back a groan of his own. No wonder Gerda had taken to the idea of them being ghosts so well. She hadn’t believed it. Instead, she’d thought that they were envoy’s of this Goddess. 

A Goddess … CasCu’s head hurt. He’d known too many troublesome Goddesses in his lifetime. The very thought of another one made a crackle shoot down his spine. It couldn’t be the Mórrígan - she had no part in Norse myths - but the thought of a Goddess here, pulling the strings … for some reason, it twisted the pit of his stomach, made him press his lips together tight. A sense of dread hung heavy on his shoulders, weighing him down. 

Instincts. Like Gudao and Mash, he’d been through too much to just ignore them. Gods, what the fuck had they gotten into now?

 

Mash and Gudao didn’t refute Gerda’s belief that they were envoys of the Goddess. It was probably better that way. It meant that, even if Gerda found their questions about the Lostbelt odd, she didn’t refuse to answer them. She knew nothing about the Tree of Emptiness, and according to her the Sun had always been the size it was now. It was, as it had been in the last Lostbelt, simply a fact of life and not a new oddity.

She also took their supposed status as envoys as proof of their strength. Because the place she was leading them too - the place where her medicinal herbs grew - was filled with giants.

“They said that long ago,” Gerda had explained on their trek, “there were places outside the villages that had plants and animals. They said it happened way high up between the ice and fire mountains all the time. But the giants like to hang out in those areas, because of all the animal life. I was going to sneak by them and get the herbs that way, but now you’re here if things go wrong!”

CasCu had no doubt things would go wrong. The tales Gerda had heard had not led them astray. In the areas where fire and snow met, there were small patches that had melted, creating areas of green. The air was warm. Water moved swiftly through a small creek, cutting through a meadow of flowers and plunging through a grove of conifers that looked like actual conifers, not tree shaped crystals. There was birdsong, and the hum of insects, and the stomp of feet as giants in and out of the trees. 

A lovely place, but it would only take one wrong step for the giants to notice them. 

Mash, Gerda, and Gudao were crouched on the outer edge of clearing, right where ice and snow gave way to green. Mash was equipping her skis to the bottom of her boots, while Gerda was holding her bag tightly. Gudao brought his wrist to his mouth, and CasCu felt his voice touch his mind, soft. “Alright, CasCu, I need a distraction. Think you can make one for me?” 

“How big of a distraction are you asking for?” CasCu asked. Mentally, he started rolling through his runes. An illusion could probably do it … but there would need to be enough oomph behind it that it’d grab all the giant’s attention. They couldn’t risk loosing one while they were still searching for the herbs.

“Gerda knows what she’s looking for,” Gudao said, “So hopefully it shouldn’t last too long. But it needs to be something that gets them out of the way without being discovered as false.”

That was tricky. CasCu pressed his lips together, slight. “And what if we went to the village without the herb? Both Scáthach and I have runes that we can use instead.”

“I’d rather not reveal everything you can do,” Gudao said, “I know Gerda’s already seen a bit, but if word of you guys gets around to the rest of the village, I don’t know what will happen. So we’ll stick to the herbs as plan A, and your runes will be a backup if this doesn’t work.” 

That was sensible. “Alright,” CasCu said. He stepped into solid form, and pressed his fingers together, frowning faintly.

He knew what would probably be the best distraction to use. An explosion, of some sort. People loved their explosions, and most giants would be drawn in by the sound of a large noise, the promise of a fight. An explosion would the type of distraction Kage’s friends would have chosen. The type of distraction Kage would have chosen. 

Kage … 

No. CasCu bit the corner of his lip, hard. No. He had to focus, damn it. His heart ached, but he was here, right now, and he had to focus. He promised Gudao he’d focus, and gods he wasn’t going to let his Master down. And he wasn’t going to let Kage down, either.

Uruz, for creativity and the endurance of the illusion. Ansuz, for inspiration. Kaunan, revelation, fire, and illumination. Perbo, magic.

The runes burned at his fingertips, bright blue against the air. CasCu fed his mana into them, weaving them tight together. A bit more, a bit more - he held the image of what he wanted in his mind. Watched it take shape within his mind’s eye. A bit more mana into the runes, his intent, pushing and nudging their meanings to his will. He held it there, tight like a bowstring, and then snapped his fingers, released. 

Mana shot out. A boom sounded, loud enough to shake the birds from the trees. CasCu’s eyes snapped open just in time to catch the billow of smoke from the treeline. It was dark, shadowy, and thick. It ballooned out from where trees met crystals, in the opposite direction as where they stood now. All giants in the clearing turned to stare. And giants, being a warrior race, were unlikely to flee from a possible enemy attack. 

One of them roared, in that language that nearly made sense, but just slid by CasCu’s ears. Another stepped forwards, and then they were all at it, moving towards the billowing smoke in a wave of bodies. 

Gudao let out a soft whistle. “Nice job, CasCu. Gerda, we have about until they reach that smoke before they’ll be coming back. Think you can find that plant before than?” 

Gerda startled, yanking her gaze away from CasCu’s display of rune work. “Yes, I can!”

“We’ll help,” Mash promised, giving Gerda a small smile. “What do they look like?” 

Gerda beamed back at her, then began to babble about the herbs. The three split up to search, and CasCu took to Spirit Form. He glanced up at the sky right before he did so, instinctual. It felt … like something was watching. But there were no birds in the sky, just the sun, and the giants in the distance, searching for whatever had caused the explosion. It wouldn’t be too long before they came back here. They would just have to make sure those herbs were found before that happened.

 

They made their escape on those specially powered skis. They were quite impressive, those things. CasCu had to admit that they were already making the most out of their construction, rocketing Gudao, Gerda, and Mash down the mountain-side before the jotunn that had noticed their presence could catch up. It meant that, with Gerda’s pointed instructions, they wasted nearly no time reaching her village. 

Her village, like the Jotunn’s home, was a spot of green against the ice. There were trees, and grass, with fields and gardens and wooden and stone brick houses. A quaint little village, fitting of any countryside, except for the fence of sharpened wooden spikes that surrounded it. That must have been to keep the giants out, though CasCu had a hard time imagining anything as simple as a wooden fence would have been enough to deter jotunn. Wood hadn’t been enough in …

Enough where? Gods, his head fucking hurt thinking about it. 

CasCu shook himself, hard enough his head rattled, and glanced over at Gudao and Mash. They were putting the skis away. Gerda was skipping ahead of them. She swung her arms out, spreading them to the sky. “Welcome to my village, everyone! Oh, this is so exciting! I’ve never gotten to invite guests in.” She giggled, delighted.

“Have you never had someone outside your village visit before?” Mash asked.

“No, we haven’t,” Gerda said. She let her hands fall. “All the villages keep to themselves … although it might be different in other villages? No one’s ever come over.” She shrugged, turned, and started walking towards the gate. It was the only entrance to the village, and CasCu could feel the weight of the bounded field tied to it, a physical presence that nearly pushed him away. No wonder their fence was only made of wood, if that was the thing that was truly protecting them. 

Gudao and Mash followed after her, exchanging small looks. “What’s the name of your village, Gerda?” Gudao asked.

“Oh, it’s Village 23!” Gerda said, reaching up towards the gate doors. They came open at the softest tug of her hands.

CasCu felt his stomach plummet. Mash and Gudao paused, brief. “Village 23?” Mash asked, but her question fell on deaf ears. It didn’t matter. They all still felt the impact of the words, for all Gerda didn’t seem bothered. Village 23. Like they weren’t actual villages, but simply pens. Pens for livestock. 

The inside near about reflected the suggestion the name gave. Although the area inside was spacious, there weren’t many houses. Maybe fifty. It wasn’t many. Not nearly enough for a village, not by any modern standards. Hell, CasCu was pretty sure the villages in the Russia Lostbelt had more homes then this one. 

“It’s lovely,” Gudao said, his voice small. He didn’t sound like he meant the words. Behind them, the gates closed with a soft thud. CasCu felt the burn of the bounded field as it sprung back to life, full force. Warding. Preventative.

“Isn’t it?” Gerda asked, delighted. “I can’t wait to show you -”

A crackle, a buzz. Gudao’s comm link burst to life with burst of static. Gerda yelped and leapt behind Mash, gripping onto her shield. Both Mash and Gudao stumbled and caught themselves. Another burst of static, then Gordolf’s voice came through, loud and clear. “Oh, I got through! Is this thing on? Can you hear me? This is the Shadow Border, can you hear me field ops?”

Gerda squeaked. “Your wrist is talking!” 

Gudao’s grin was small, his laugh a bit sickly. “So it is. You’re coming through loud and clear, Director, we can hear you perfectly fine.”

“I thought we couldn’t communicate once we got a few kilometers away,” Mash said. She took a step closer to Gudao, and he turned, so the comm link was between them, and both their voices could be easily picked up.

“Yes, well, we’ve been working on that,” Gordolf huffed. “All thanks to our efforts, we’ve been able to deploy a Mystic Code to extend our comm range. I was told that it should help us both observe and communicate over great distances, but I didn’t think it’d start to suddenly work now.”

Gerda tugged at Mash’s arm. “Miss envoy, your wrist is speaking. And you’re speaking to it.” She said it slowly, in the way children did when they thought adults were doing something particularly foolish. “Is this an envoy thing?” 

Mash giggled faintly. “Well - this is a communicator. It’s a tool we use to speak to people far away.”

“Oh,” Gerda breathed, her eyes wide and round. 

“You’ve found a native?” Gordolf asked. The familiar bluster was back, full force. CasCu could practically see the man stroking his hair back. “What a stroke of good luck. Are you in a safe spot right now?” 

“Yes,” Gudao said. “Gerda - she’s a kid from this place - led us to her village. We’d just stepped inside when the comms started working again. I guess the snow can’t interfere with communication links from inside here.”

“A village?” Gordolf asked, “Good job. It seems my supervisory role in Russia has benefited you even after that Lostbelt-” and here, CasCu had to roll his eyes, “-Not bad, making it this far that fast. Now, given that our connection is still unstable, it seems I must take matters into my own hands!” 

Gudao started. “You’re coming here, Director?”

The sound of appalled horror was a rush of breaking static. “What do you think I am? Some adventure-crazed nut like the rest of you? Goodness no! I’m talking about the remote interrogation of a local via the communicator! Gerda?” 

Gerda scurried around Mash and gripped Gudao’s arm. She seemed to have gotten over her fear, her eyes wide and sparkling. “Yes?” 

“Take us to your parents, if you don’t mind. We’ll need to speak to them,” Gordolf commanded.

Gerda blinked. “Parents? What are those?” 

CasCu felt his gut drop. Someone, possibly Tesla, drew in a shocked breath. Gudao and Mash looked stunned, staring at Gerda with shocked eyes. Gordolf’s bluster failed him. “What do you mean you don’t know what parents are? Your mother and father, of course. Your your legal guardian, if you don’t have one of the former.”

“Well, there’s the Goddess,” Gerda said, her voice thoughtful. “But she’s everyone’s guardian. Every human is her responsibility. But the Goddess isn’t here, Mister Director.” 

Mash made a small noise between her teeth. Gudao’s arm was shaking. 

“Is everything alright?” Gerda asked.

“Don’t tell me you have no concept of parents!” Gordolf burst, “I’ve never heard of such a culture. Just fetch me your village elder, or mayor, or your supervisor - oh I don’t know, someone with authority in your village!”

Gerda blinked. Her hand left Gudao’s arm, fingers curling in on themselves. “Um … I don’t …”

“The most amazing person in your village,” Gordolf snapped. “The one you can always count on to help you!”

“Don’t yell, Director,” Gudao said. His voice was a touch too stiff. “You’re scaring her.” 

“Oh-” He huffed, this sharp thing. “Well … my apologies, Gerda. Who's the most amazing person you can trust in your village?”

“Well …” Gerda hesitated, then bit her lip. Her eyes flickered to Mash, then darted around. CasCu realized, with a sinking, numb feeling, that she was searching for them. “Are you talking about the envoys? Lady Mash and the others are certainly more amazing than other people … the only amazing people I can think of are the giants and the envoys, and the envoys aren’t coming until tomorrow.”

“Envoy?” Gordolf asked.

“Gerda calls me and the other Servants envoys,” Mash explained. “I’m afraid I still don’t know what she means by it.”

Gerda giggled. It sounded sharp, a bit forced. She bounded away from Mash and Gudao with a short hop. “Don’t be silly! Anyway, I need to show you around properly, don’t I?” She held her hands before her, clasped, and took a deep breath. When she opened her eyes, she looked a bit more composed. 

“Welcome, honored envoys,” she said in a child’s approximation of a mature voice, “Please, let me repay you for saving my life. You can spend the night in my house! I’ll be thirteen soon, after all, so we won’t have to share with anyone. We can have dinner in front of the fireplace, and I can get the mead I’ve been saving for special occasions too! We can have freshly baked bread - and fish! I’ll get the biggest fish out of the pond before it gets too dark, and we can have that for supper! But before that - you have to meet the residents of Village 23!” She spun around then, her cloak flapping, and cupped her mouth with her hands. “It’s safe to come out, everyone! I’m back!” 

Her words were like a bell. Before Gudao or Mash could respond, doors opened. Kids peaked their heads out, and looked at them. Someone called out, in a high-pitched, squeaky five-year old voice, “It’s Gerda! Gerda’s back!” 

The words opened a floodgate. Kids poured out, one after another, emerging from houses and in between cracks like mice. A group of fifteen, all younger than ten, but older than four, circling Mash, Gudao, and Gerda like a flock of ravens around seeds. No - not ravens. Small songbirds, for these children would not stop talking. They were a babble of voices, one on top of another, an impossible wave where only fragments could be heard. Gerda was at the head of them, laughing and giggling, telling her story with great sweeps of her hands.

Gudao and Mash looked stunned. It was Gudao who spoke first, small. “Where are the adults?” 

“Maybe in the fields?” Mash asked. She sounded a bit small, her voice tiny. “This place looks like it runs off of agriculture …”

“I don’t see any adults in the fields,” Tesla said, his voice quiet, somber. “Just older children. Teenagers. Some that might be in their twenties, but no one older than that.”

“Where are the adults?” Gudao asked, then a bit louder. “Gerda, where are your adults? The elderly?”

Gordolf made a noise in between his teeth, choked off, like he couldn’t fully form the words. The children around Gerda quieted, and Gerda turned to them. Her eyes were bright green and sparkling. She had no clue the implications of the words she spoke. “Well, of course it's mostly children here. That’s how it is everywhere, right? And of course there’s not going to be any elderly! The elderly are just in legends. I mean, every grown up leaves when they turn 25, right? So they can’t be elderly.”

“What?” Mash breathed.

Gudao’s fingers clenched. “Gerda, what does that mean? They couldn’t survive out there, not with all the giants -”

“Of course not,” Gerda said. She giggled again, as if she thought they were being foolish. “Every grown up with a ten-year-old child leaves once they turn twenty-five, and get eaten by the giants. And if you haven’t had children by fifteen, you have to go too. I’ve heard that’s true for every village, one through one hundred.”

Gudao opened his mouth. Nothing came out. Mash looked shell shocked, her reaction stripped from her. It was Gordolf who reacted first, horrified, his voice breaking in surprise. “Then - you’re telling us that there are NO adults over the age of twenty-five there? None?! And that people who turn fifteen without having children have to leave and die?!”

Gerda nodded. “Children and the grown-ups raising them are the only ones allowed to live in the hundred villages the Goddess and her envoys made for us.” 

Mash made another, small noise in the back of her throat. She looked sick, her fingers gripping onto Gudao’s tightly. Gudao was holding her back, face drained of blood. He stared at Gerda with wide eyes. On the comm link, Gordolf was making choked off sounds. 

Gerda stared at them, uncomprehending. “Um, Lady Mash? Lord Gudao? Director? I’m sorry, I don’t understand. Why are you all so shocked? That’s just how it is!” She smiled, something that was obviously meant to be comforting. “I’m turning fifteen in two years, so if I don’t have any children, that’ll be it for me! I’m afraid your envoys won’t get to save me from going splat a second time.” 

“I -” Mash cut herself off, reaching up with one hand to cover her mouth. Gudao could still do nothing but stare. The Director said nothing. Through numb horror, CasCu wondered if Gordolf had been dragged away in a fit, or if their communications had finally, mercifully been cut off. The staff in the Shadow Border didn’t need to hear about this hell.

Gerda’s smile fell. She made a small, concerned noise, then gestured to the rest of the children. They began to back off, returning to their houses, although there were plenty of glances back to them. Only when the coast was clear did she ask, “Why are you so sad all of a sudden? Oh no, did I do something to offend you again?” She bit her lip, frowning.

“No!” Gudao said, too loud. Gerda flinched back, and he softened his voice, lowered. “No, you didn’t do anything wrong, Gerda. Thank you for telling us about this. Dinner … dinner sounds about lovely right now.” He didn’t look like he could eat.

Gerda visibly brightened. “Of course! Follow me!” She grabbed Gudao’s hand, then Mash’s, and dragged them further into the village of children, all destined to die so soon.

 

CasCu couldn’t stay in Gerda’s home. That house built for a family, adults and children, filled only by one girl and two guests. Even in Spirit Form, his hands were shaking. He walked the village as the sky gradually darkened, watching the people in it. The kids, the teenagers, the adults. To bear children before fifteen. To die at twenty-five. 

In some ways it was similar. In CasCu’s lifetime, it wasn’t uncommon for people to bear children while young. Adulthood was considered to happen around fourteen, fifteen. Marriages happened in accordance with that. But to be forced to bear children before fifteen - gods, he hated the thought. He was a druid, knew every complication that happened during childbirth, knew how much harder it got with age, young or old. And these were kids - they weren’t emotionally equipped to deal with children. There were no midwives to help them give birth, no nurses to help them raise, and if only the envoys could heal, and herbs required going out where the giant’s could catch them …

The death toll of infants and mothers had to be so high CasCu could barely comprehend it. Mothers, before the age of fifteen. Gods, CasCu had a daughter. He couldn’t imagine Finscoth in this situation. Couldn’t imagine any of the children he and Emer had fostered in this situation. 

Kage would have hated this place. He would have ripped it apart. 

“This isn’t a village.” Scáthach’s voice, touching his own. The cadence of it was grounding. CasCu stopped wandering and closed his eyes, letting out a slow breath between his teeth. She must have felt his agreement, because she kept on talking. “This is how you raise livestock. Breed them young, and once they’ve fulfilled that duty, feast on them before they grow too old and too tough. These people are not humans, but feed for the giants, and the envoys are their keepers.”

CasCu swallowed a lump in his throat. “That Goddess …” He couldn’t finish the thought. 

“No doubt this is of her orchestration,” Scáthach finished. “She must have no love for humanity, to allow them to exist like this. The giants have no walls, no constraints … they have her favor, I believe. This Goddess is not of humanity’s ilk.”

Who were the Norse goddesses? CasCu should have known the answer. But his mind felt blank, scrubbed and erased with the shock, the disgust, the horror. The answer was there, but it remained out of reach. He had nothing to add to Scáthach’s assessment, but his agreement. No goddess of humanity would have chosen a fate like this. Gods, he had a hard time imagining the Mórrígan selecting a fate like this. 

For a moment, they lingered in silence. CasCu scrubbed his face again, forced his mind to work. “How has Alter been taking it?” 

“He’s fallen into his curse,” Scáthach said.

CasCu winced. Shit. Alter’s curses, his Madness Enhancement, was different from other Berserkers. It wasn’t endless battle fury, or rage. Instead, it was mind-numbing, body freezing depression. With his curses in full effect, he didn’t care about anything beyond following his Master’s orders. It had taken CasCu and Proto forever to drag him out of it when he was first Summoned. And yet … 

It might be the better option here. CasCu almost wished for a curse like that, so he wasn’t stuck in this endless, looping cycle of sick. But It wasn’t a healthy way to deal with this, and he knew it. “I’ll talk to him later,” he mumbled, scrubbing his face once more. “Tomorrow, when we’re out of this damn village.” 

“It might do him some good,” Scáthach said. “What is not doing you any good is wandering out here, watching this abomination. Go back to Mash and Gudao. Listen and support them. And if you have to … sleep tonight, Setenta. It would be a better way to conserve energy than worrying and pacing when you can do nothing.”

Setenta.

Some part of CasCu twisted. He ducked his head, slight, and let out a huff of a breath. “As you wish, Scáthach.” He hesitated a moment, then sighed. There was nothing more he could add. He turned from the village, and started walking back to the house, one step after another. 

Above him, brief, the caw of a bird. CasCu’s head snapped up. Against the darkening sky, he caught sight of two wheeling shapes. His feet froze in their place. A goddess who held no affection for humanity, was not of humanities ilk. A goddess who heralded from the jotunn.

Loki.

And then.

Skadi.

CasCu blinked sharply. The words were gone, leaving him with lingering impressions. Fire: ever shifting, tame and dangerous in one breath, spilling out of hearth confines to cause an engulfing blaze. Ice: slowly growing, beautiful and deadly, the sharp bite of cold metal, words the only way to stop its freezing rage. 

Chapter 4: Chapter 4

Summary:

In which we discover just how fucked up this Lostbelt can get.

Notes:

Thank you all so much for your comments and kudos! I'm so glad you enjoyed, and I hope you have a wonderful day!

 

TW: Self harm. Starts at "Place your eye into the well" and ends with "your sacrifice has been accepted."

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

The ravens caw. 

Two of them have been following him, flitting from one branch to another. Their shapes cast shadows upon the roots of Yggdrasil. They follow him, as he walks along one particular root, one of three largest, thickest. The bark scrapes off beneath his boots. The wind tugs at his hair, his cloak. And the ravens follow him, cawing occasionally to one another, beady black eyes watching his progress.

He walks along Yggdrasil’s root until the air grows cold. Until he can taste the frost on his tongue, and there’s snow coating his shoulders. Jötunheimr, the realm of the Jotun. A place that once existed as Ginnungagap, the void that begun everything. The realm of nothingness from which everything had sprung. Linked to power. Linked to magic.

It is here, above which Ginnungagap had once spread, that he stops and turns his head up. The sky of Jötunheimr is black with storm clouds, and white with oncoming snow. Only distantly can he see the twisting patterns of the World Tree’s branches. Two flickering shapes dart in between them. 

The ravens. 

He smiles, and calls out. “You cannot follow me where I go.” 

The sound of a distant caw echoes through the howling air. His ears barely catch the noise. But no matter. Soon, no sound will be out of reach. No sight too blurry to make out. He turns his gaze from the circling birds, and down. 

The root of Yggdrasil kinks up, creating a hollow between it and the snow. The hollow is blackness itself. No light can penetrate it, no snow falls within the maw. He knows where it leads. And with a hand braced against the root to steady himself, he leaps off the lifeline of the Wold Tree, and into the darkness.

It accepts him, swallowing him up. His feet do not hit the bottom. The hole is not a cavern, not a cave, but a hole in truth. He falls , and he falls , and he falls into darkness. Air rushes by him, then not at all. He’s descending in nothingness, the only hint he’s still falling the way his clothes and hair still pull up. It’s the remnants of Ginnungagap he travels. The entrance to Mímisbrunnr, well of all knowledge.

He cannot see a well. He cannot see anything.

But he feels something, the press of power old and ancient. A set of eyes watching him as he descends. And he hears it too, a voice low and thrumming, questioning his motives, felt in the bones more than heard with the ears. Mimir. Guardian of the well. Keeper of knowledge found within the universe. The single most knowledgeable being in all the Nine Realms.

But not for long.

He opens his mouth, and sound is whipped away from his lips before he can properly speak. It does not matter. As long as he can shape the words, Mimir will know what he wishes. “I have come to drink the waters of Mímisbrunnr.”

Mimir laughs. It’s a rolling, deep thing. “Of course you have, All Father . King of Valhalla , chief of both Aesir and Vanir. Most powerful already, what wish do you have for more knowledge? Wisdom is the domain of others. You are accustomed to war, to easy power. What I hold in this well is not for your mind.”

“And is it for yours?” He retorts. At the words, his speed picks up. He can feel air again, pressing against his face. “You, Mimir, are keeper of all knowledge, but only so because you drink from the waters yourself. The knowledge within that well belongs to whoever drinks from it. To you, and to me.” 

There’s a rumble, another laugh. “Such confidence,” Mimir calls, “As to be expected from the All-Father himself. You believe that you will land at my well, vanquish me as you have vanquished others, then drink from the waters without breaking a sweat. Easy power, as you have always expected. But Mímisbrunnr does not give up it’s secrets so easily. To be brought to it, to drink from it, requires sacrifice. And what will the great god of Asgard sacrifice for this flight of fancy of his?”

He is silent, for a moment. Silent, but for the roar of wind in his ears, the press of nothing against his back. Here, he cannot see. His very senses are being robbed from him, bit by bit, as he falls further. Perhaps he will fall forever, never reaching the well. It is impossible to know, without all the knowledge of the world at his fingertips.

A sacrifice…

What would be a good sacrifice for Knowing? 

He moves his hand against the wind, and presses it against his face. An old face, aged by displays of power, of war. With eyes that have trouble picking out what they once did. He smiles, a sharp thing, full of teeth and amusement. Fitting, to give up one form of perception and trade it for another.

“You ask what I would sacrifice,” he says, pulling his knife from his belt. “How about this? An eye. To take the eye of the All-Father, one of the most powerful beings in existence. To impose a disadvantage upon myself for any battle I might enter upon the future. A disability that will be carried with me always, no matter how wise I become. Does that sacrifice suit your taste, Mimir the wise?” 

A pause.

For a second, a moment, an infinity silence. 

And then, speech. The world around him changes. His feet land on stone, and he finds himself within a hollow of rock and dirt and twisted roots. Above his head, an opening, where cold, frosty light pours in. It illuminates the rough well, with its mossy sides and ill-fitting blocks. Highlights the starlit water within its curve . And across from it, sitting on a stone podium, a head. Its eyes are swirls of white and black, the voice that emanates from its throat loud enough to send dirt cascading across his head.

“Place your eye into the well, old man Odin. Only then, may you drink.”

He smiles, more urbane than before. “As you wish.” He raises his hand, and the knife tip finds skin. 

It is not a pleasant process. The knife is the wrong shape to scoop out his eye, not curved like he would have preferred. It takes many cuts, many jagged slices. Too much wiggling the blade around in his socket to cut everything free. He goes blind from the pain long before his eye slips down his cheek. His skin is wet with blood. His fingers scrabble against his skin, and catch his eye before it can fall where he cannot see. It’s slimy, oddly squishy to the touch. Warm, and coated in blood. 

Distantly, he hears Mimir laugh. Everything sounds distant for the pain.

He steps forwards, one, then another, until the tips of his boots bump against the well. He holds his hand out, and then tilts it. A small plop assures him that the eye finds the water. Mimir makes a sound like a sigh. 

“Your sacrifice has been accepted, one-eyed Odin. You may drink from the well.” 

His fingers fall to his belt, unhook his horn. Giallarhorn, taken from Heimdellr, smooth and thrumming beneath his touch. The pain is starting to recede. It’s enough that he can see the well, blurry through tears. He dips Giallarhorn into the water, and ripples expand through the water. It’s no longer just starlit, touched red and gold with his own blood. He pulls out Giallarhorn, full, and brings it to his lips.

There are no words to describe the taste of knowledge. He thinks he should drink the mead of Kvasir, which would give him the dexterity of tongue to draw out it’s likeness in word. But he can feel it working, crystal cold and burning, threading through his body. He swallows, and swallows, not daring to breathe, and when the horn is empty he licks his lips, catching every last drop of knowledge.

He can see again. 

It is not the way one sees with sight, with colors, definitions, and shadows. Instead, he sees the weave of everything. He sees the well and knows what it’s made of. Looks at the head and understands where it came from. The very fabric of the world fills the space where his blind side had once been, but for all he can see it. He cannot read it.

Of course, he cannot. 

He has not made the proper sacrifice yet. 

“Are you pleased with yourself?” Mimir asks, and he can pinpoint the voice, the location of the speech. It’s not coming from the head, and his lips twitch, then pull up in a sharp smile.

“Very,” he says. “Content yourself, Mimir, with keeping the well. I go to find the source of runes, and then perhaps to drink from the Kvasir’s mead. Keep this knowledge well, for it is the only thing you shall have.” 

“Smug for someone whose lost one eye,” Comes the retort, jagged and sharp. 

“Oh,” he returns, turning from him, “but I gained so much more than I have lost.” 

He walks out of the hole and back into the freezing weather of Jötunheimr. It’s a much shorter trip out then it was in. Of course, he has made his sacrifice, and now he sees the workings of the magic guarding that hole. But he cannot read it. Rune craft . Something still out of his reach. But not for long. 

He sees what he has to do. 

The ravens are still circling. Now he can see their forms flitting between the branches of Yggdrasil far more clearly than before. He steps up onto the great root of the world tree, and holds up his arms. They dive towards him, twin blurs of black, one upon each arm. They stare at him with beady eyes. Watching. Waiting.

Clever little birds.

He smiles, this sharp thing. “If you derive such entertainment from watching me on my quest, then I see no reason you will not serve a greater purpose. I want eyes everywhere. I want thoughts that come to me on the wind, and a memory that never falters , even if information must be stored elsewhere for a time. So henceforth, you two will be mine. Huginn. Muninn.”

Huginn, thought, gives a little caw. His feathers ruffle, puffing up against the freezing wind. But there is sly pleasure in the bird’s eyes. Pleased.

Muninn, Memory, considers her name for a longer moment. Then she walks up his arm, watching him close, and takes a strand of gray hair within her beak. With great deliberation, she begins to groom him. 

It seems he has both their agreement. Not that it would matter, now that he has named and claimed them. With a laugh like a raven’s caw himself, he tosses both birds back into the air. Huginn and Muninn circle him briefly, before flying off. He watches them go for a long moment, teeth bared against the wind, before turning towards Yggdrasil . He has a long walk ahead of him, and at the end of it, the answers he seeks.

 

CasCu woke with a reflexive groan, squinting and blinking blearily. It’d been a while since he’d slept properly - certainly not since Chaldea was destroyed - and the experience left him disorientated, disjointed. His vision was blurred with tears. One eye - the one pressed against his arm - itched and stung. He blinked repeatedly, then groaned again. The movement sent pain spiking to the back of his head. Gods, it was like he’d gotten fucking blackout drunk last night, instead of just going to sleep.

Muttering to himself, CasCu slowly levered himself up off the ground. Mash and Gudao had taken Gerda’s guest bedroom, so he’d had the delightful position of the floor, with only his robes and cloak to soften the ground. Maybe that was why he felt so pulverized, why his head hurt so blindingly much. Gods, his back too. Fucking hell.

A snort, ghostly in the back of his mind. “You look drunk.”

“Thanks, Alter,” CasCu breathed. He stumbled a few steps towards a window, opened it up, and stuck his head outside. The sun had just crested the horizon. CasCu closed his eyes and let its rays touch his face. The headache receded a tad, but the pain in his eye remained. “Anything happen last night?”

He sensed more than felt Alter’s presence beside him. “No,” came the response. “You?” 

“Fucky dreams, apparently.” He thought, at least. As most dreams did, his were dissolving with the rising sun. And it didn’t feel quite like a memory. Gods, what had it been… ravens? Something about ravens? His eye stung. He scrubbed at it briefly. “Think I got something stuck in my eye too.” 

At a normal time, Alter might have shot back some snark. Now he just hummed, this low flat note. 

So he was still residing in that curse. CasCu let his hand fall, and sighed. “Are you going to be alright, big guy?” He asked, quiet. 

“Are you?” Alter retorted.

CasCu didn’t know, so he kept his mouth shut. He ached for Kage to be here, to stand beside him. To slug him lightly in the shoulders, then make a cup of tea, and ask him about the damned dream. To hold him, afterward , though he’d swear up and down it meant nothing. But Kage wasn’t here. Kage was on a cot, struggling and fighting for his life. CasCu’s fingers curled into fists. He tilted his head into the rising sun, fought the unease that came with its sight, and let the light burn away the pain in his eye. 

“I’ll be fine,” he said, gruffly. “Where are Gudao and Mash?” 

“Outside,” Alter said. 

“Let’s catch up then,” CasCu said. He looked away from the sun, so large and bright, and took to Spirit Form. 

It was barely dawn, but outside Gerda’s house, the village was bustling. Children and teenagers ran around, dragging garlands of flowers with them. The village had been nice before, well presented, but now it was bustling with activity and life, the final touches set upon the houses. Like a celebration, a festival. 

CasCu wasn’t sure he wanted to know what type of festival these people partook in. Not with what he’d already learned of their culture.

Even in the chaos, it was easy to find Gudao and Mash. All he had to do was follow the swirl of children forwards, towards the gate. Here, the area was even more decorated. The world was in black and gray, but CasCu could just tell the houses were decorated with flowers of the brightest colors. There was laughter, giggles, but also an odd solemn air. Like this was a cheerful goodbye. At the edge of the crowd, listening in, was Gudao and Mash. They stood close together, pressed side by side.

Something in CasCu’s gut threatened to drop. He shoved that feeling away, and continued forwards. The crowd Mash and Gudao were watching changed into a more distinguishable mass. Children, yes. Teenagers, yes. But at their center, two adults. One male, one female. They had flowers in their hair, and were smiling happily.

The woman bent down, and picked a bouquet from the children. She pressed her face against the flowers, and breathed it in steadily. The man accepted his own bouquet, and smiled, warm. “Thank you all,” he said, “thank you so much.” 

The woman pulled her face from the flowers, and smiled. Like the man’s expression, it was filled with joy. But there were tears at the corners of her eyes, glimmering slightly. “You’ve grown up to be such wonderful children, you follow the goddess’s teachings so well. We’re so happy to have you send us off today.”

“Make sure you get along even after we’re gone,” The man said. He scrubbed at his cheeks with one wrist. His smile was a bit more watery. “We can’t wait to see you again when you come join us.”

“Take care of yourselves,” the woman whispered, then pressed her face into the flowers once more. 

This festival was a goodbye, CasCu realized, with a sudden drop in his gut. They were saying goodbye to these twenty-five-year-olds , barely at their prime. His hands were shaking. He felt sick. His fingers balled up into fists, and he swallowed hard, biting back the growl in his throat. He could see the realization dawn upon Gudao and Mash’s face. The way Mash’s eyes widened, the way Gudao paled.

Gerda pulled from the conglomerate of people, and walked up to Gudao and Mash’s side. She smiled at them. There was terrible joy on her face. “It took six months to grow those flowers,” she said, and there was pride in her voice, bright. “They’re very special.” 

Gudao licked his lips. “Why’s that?” he breathed, and his voice shook slightly.

“Only those with flowers can arrive at Valhalla’s halls,” Gerda said. She turned to watch the goodbyes, smiling. “The flowers show that these two were an important part of the community here, and only those important can go to Valhalla. The Goddess decided that so long ago it would make your head spin!”

Valhalla.

CasCu felt like he’d been hit with something. Like the whole world had fundamentally shifted with the word. As if he’d been forced off his feet and was slowly growing steady again. His eye ached. Valhalla. The golden city of the Norse gods. The home of Odin and the Asgardians. The place where the Valkyries, the created daughters of Odin, shepherded the chosen to the greatest of afterlives. But those chosen were warriors. Great heroes who had died upon the fields of battle. 

Not normal, twenty- five-year-olds , who had been forced to bear children too young. Who had stayed their entire lives within a pen. 

“If you and your friends hadn’t saved me from those giants,” Gerda said, “they would have squashed me before I had a chance to get my own banquet. The envoys would have never given me my weapon. Then my soul would have wandered around forever, and I’d never get to Valhalla! So thank you!” 

Gudao and Mash just stared at her. CasCu’s head was spinning. He pressed his fingers against his temples, as if that could make the whole world stop tilting around and around and around him. Had Gerda said the envoys gave them weapons? The words didn’t make sense. Nothing made sense. This wasn’t how souls entered Valhalla. 

The children had finished their goodbyes. They pulled from the man and woman, leaving them to stand in a clearing. Both of their bouquets were bursting with flowers. Smaller garlands adorned their hair. The two, in unison, stepped towards the gate. They reached out, held each other’s hand. Their others held the bouquets close to their chest, flowers tickling their chin. Their voices rose in prayer, in sync.

“Envoy, O envoy, we have come to offer you everything in accordance to the Heavenly Goddess. We carry the flowers of our children, in proof of our love and devotion to our people. Our hands await your weapons, to show our determination to remain by your side. Our bodies are yours, as they have always been. Envoy, O envoy, we offer ourselves to you. We offer ourselves to the Heavenly Goddess. May she see us worthy of Valhalla’s homes.” 

They bowed, deep, eyes closed. For a moment, silence swept through the children, through the village. The world stabilized around CasCu. His hands dropped. He looked up, and tilted his head towards the sky. The sun watched them, a blazing circle of silver. Two birds watched them too, wheeling overhead. 

Somehow, CasCu wasn’t surprised.

“Humans”

The word boomed, like gentle summer thunder. The light from the sun burst, then fell. CasCu was left blinking away sunspots, dizzy with the sudden blindness. But it retreated swiftly. A figure had joined the swirling ravens, which retreated swiftly at her appearance. It was a woman’s figure. She was a dark silhouette, light blazing at the edges. And as just a silhouette, she almost made out the shape of a rune. 

Algiz.

Divine Protection. Courage. The energy of a Valkyrie. 

“O’ humans, today is an ordained day. O’ humans, today is the day your lives shall be taken. Know that this is an act of love. Know that - through this act - the last remaining deity, the Goddess, extends her hand to you. O’ humans, bow your heads. Give thanks to the ice, the snow, and the light.”

The two adults bowed their heads, and closed their eyes. CasCu could see their lips moving, as if in prayer once more. The children ringing them raised their heads, raised their voice. Their speech was perfectly in sync, and had obviously been repeated before. “Envoy! O’ Envoy! O glorious Valkyrie, gleaming bright, please take the grown-ups with you! They followed all the Goddess’s teachings, raised us, and those that couldn’t raise us played with us until they were fourteen! None of them are bad people, so please, take them to Valhalla!”

“They’re going to kill them,” Gudao breathed. His hand shook. The expression on his face was terrible to look at. Mash made a noise in the back of her throat, small and choked off. Rightfully horrified.

The Valkyrie descended, and the algiz silhouette broke apart into definable form. Two bars of light, sticking out from her sides like unmovable wings. Intricate silver armor, with wings wrapping around torso and waist. A white skirt billowed around her armored legs. Her face was hidden by a similar, matching white cowl. Nothing could be seen of it but glowing red eyes, a nose, and an unsmiling mouth.

A pang, in his chest. Brief and fleeting. There was something about her. Familiar, almost. But the feeling disappeared just as quickly, and CasCu was left reeling in the aftermath.

Her voice, as she descended, grew softer. More human. More approachable. “O’ humans, rejoice, for I will open the great gate for you. Your weapons will be bestowed, in accordance with divine law. Walk through it. Do not hesitate. Meet your end as a sacrifice bravely, and your souls shall be taken to the Hall of Warriors, though you have never known anything but peace. This is the gift bestowed upon you.”

Gudao was shaking now, fingers digging into his palms. Mash held onto his shoulder, tight. Her expression was pained. CasCu took a step closer, then another. 

The man and woman stood, and looked up at the Valkyrie . Their faces were lit with terrible joy. As one, they raised their voices, “Thank you, O envoy. We are endlessly grateful for the blessings you and the goddess have bestowed upon us. We will go to meet our end. Please, open the gate for us.”

The Valkyrie held out her arm, and gestured to the gate. With the motion, the gate began to creak open. “It will be done.”

“HOLD IT!”

The words were raw. Wild. Screamed at the top of the lungs. Gudao broke from Mash’s hold and jerked forwards. CasCu’s fingers closed around his wrist too late - not that it would have done much, still in Spirit Form as he was. He cursed as Gudao planted himself between the two adults, arms outstretched as if to stop their movement forwards. He glared up at the Valkyrie, eyes burning.

“I said,” he hissed, “hold it.” 

The Valkyrie ’s head tilted. Her face showed a trace of surprise, her eyes slightly wider then they had been before. There was something stilted in her speech, almost ritualistic. “Humans? What is this strange sound? This is astonishing; a crime most grave. This ritual marks the solemn, glorious end to these human lives . It is not to be trifled with.” 

Mash stepped up beside Gudao. She had recovered from her shock, and held her shield tight between her fingers. Her eyes were bright. “Please wait, Valkyrie.” 

Gerda took a step forwards, her mouth open to protest. CasCu stepped out of Spirit Form and caught her before she could move forwards, into the line of fire. “Not right now,” he murmured, quiet. “That woman won’t care about catching you in the crossfire.”

But - we ’re not supposed to go against tradition on an ordained day!” Gerda protested, but she didn’t fight his grip. Perhaps she knew she couldn’t. Or perhaps she remembered that he was the one who had pulled her from the giant’s grasp, and the debts she owed to Gudao and his Servants.

“Sorry, kid,” CasCu breathed, offering a low, thin croon. “But my Master’s not the type to stand around doing nothing, when it comes to shit like this.” And gods, a part of him couldn’t help but swell with pride. Both Gudao and Mash had grown up.

“Valkyrie,” Mash said, “you said these people would go to Valhalla, to Odin’s palace, the Hall of Warriors. But that is supposed to be the resting place for the souls of brave heroes!”

“But these people,” Gudao said, gesturing, “are not brave heroes. They’re people, ordinary people, and no garland of flowers or gifted weapon is going to change that. And you’re sending them to die? These people that worship you? For what?!” 

The Valkyrie was silent. For a long moment, she was silent. The adults edged back, and the children pulled away, trembling slightly. The light from the Valkyrie’s wings was starting to brighten. Near painful to look at. CasCu tugged his cloak around Gerda, so her eyes didn’t get seared.

“Heathens,” the Valkyrie breathed, “Our shared records had reported that heathens had invaded our holy lands - and now, here you stand. In that case, it falls to me to execute you.” A twist of the hand, a burst of light. When the light died, she held a gleaming silver shield , and a blazing spear of white. “Humans,” she said, “know that it is futile to resist. Humans, know that the will to resist is itself a grave offense. Your souls will never ascend to Valhalla. You will simply die, and wander, loveless and forever alone.” 

“No they won’t!” CasCu called out. The Valkyrie’s head turned. She froze, her eyes widening a tad. CasCu grinned, a sharp, vicious thing. “Your job is to escort the souls of brave heroes to Valhalla. Well, Gudao and Mash are some of the bravest heroes I’ve ever met. Even if you want to leave them as shades down here, you could never bring yourself to do so. Your initial programming would never allow you to do so.” 

The Valkyrie yanked back, slightly, as if struck. Her face slowly twisted, an incremental amount, but CasCu could see how much she disliked the words. “You are above the age of 25,” she said. “You will be executed too.” 

“No, he won’t!” Gudao called out. The Valkyrie twisted to him again, and he reached out, gripped Mash’s free hand. Gudao’s laughter was wild, loud. Perhaps a touch hysteric. “We don’t know this Scandinavia. We don’t know what you value. But we know that we are not loveless, and we are not alone. And we know that what you’re doing, right now, is cruel! Offering up people's lives to the giants. Ending children’s lives before they even have the chance to grow up. It’s all cruel. And we will not look the other way when it happens!”

“Hai!” Mash said. She gripped his hand tight, then planted her shield into the ground. “What you’re doing here is wrong! And as long as we have breath in our body, we will say that it is wrong! Master, preparing for battle!”

Gerda began to struggle against CasCu. “No! Envoys aren’t supposed to fight each other. Envoys aren’t supposed to fight!”

CasCu held her still, he’d her tight. “We’re not envoys,” he said, “Which is why we will call her out on her bullshit.”

Gerda froze. Her sob was lost beneath the sound of Gudao’s orders. “CasCu! Protect the village, make sure none of these people get hurt. Scáthach , this one’s yours.”

The Valkyrie jerked back, her eyes flying wide open. Scáthach appeared mid-lunge . A burst of red light around her; copies of Gáe Bolg raced down towards the winged being. To Valkyrie’s credit, she blocked the first Gáe Bolg with her shield, knocked away another, and dodged around the third. But CasCu knew Scáthach . This would only be the first attack of a swarm, and he had no time to watch the battle. 

He grabbed Gerda and threw her into the ring of children. She yelped in surprise. Someone - an older teen, CasCu thought - grabbed her and dragged her off with them. The children and teenagers were scattering. It was the adults who were frozen, watching this battle with horrified eyes. CasCu didn’t have time to go after them. He ordered the runes he’d need in his head, lined them up one after another, then slammed his staff into the ground. A ring of runes lit up around it’s base, then another, another, another, another. 

Nine circles of runes in all. Thurisaz. Algiz. Iwaz. Opilan. Ansuz. Protection against the Valkyries , the gods, resilience, and strength for this home, this village. All tied close together by Odin. 

The bounded circle burst to life around the battlefield, a bubble that kept the villagers out, and the dueling Valkyrie in. Not that it seemed the battle would last long. Scáthach ’s expression was of boredom, not the fierce hunger it would have showed if the fight was challenging her. The Valkyrie was struggling, fighting off Scáthach ’s attacks, but unable to land or even start her own. The end of the battle was inevitable as the tides. Scáthach ’s spear buried deep within the Valkyrie’s sternum, the metal armor broken and bent with the blow.

“How -” the Valkyrie gasped, blood leaking from her lips. “How -”

It was Mash who spoke. Though she was prepared for battle, she’d never had a chance to deal a single blow. Yet her voice was hard, flinty. “Like CasCu said, Master consorts with heroes. I have a Heroic Spirit within me. Scáthach is a great teacher of them. Given your nature, you can’t ignore the souls of heroes here.”

“The soul of a hero,” the Valkyrie breathed. Her wings were starting to flake off into gold flecks, rising to the sky. “Two thousand and several hundred years since I was manufactured … and never once … did I get … to see one …” She disappeared on Scáthach ’s spear. A wash of sparks that rose, then fell, like dying stars.

Scáthach flicked her spear to clear it of the remaining blood. “How foolish,” she noted, dispassionate. “She should have stayed to the skies, and kept her advantage.” 

Gudao relaxed, slightly. “Thank you Scáthach . CasCu, keep up the barrier for now. We don’t know -”

“How could you do that?!” Gerda’s voice was raw. They all turned to stare. At some point, Gerda had escaped the one who had dragged her off. Her eyes were full of confusion, small fists balled up by her sides. “How could you fight another envoy like that? The Goddess … is going to be really mad …”

Slowly, one by one, children begin to slip out of their hiding spots. Voices rose, a low murmur of chatter, of fear. The grown-ups glanced at each other. CasCu could see the tightness in their eyes. Then the woman turned, and her voice traveled over the growing rabble, soft and gentle, but instilling instant quiet. “It’s okay. The envoys are servants of the Goddess. Even if one disappears, another will take her place. Look!” She pointed up, to the sky. “See that light in the sky? They’ll take care of this, and then the ritual will continue.” 

They looked up. Everyone, looked up. CasCu stared, blinking, at the light in the sky. There were so many. They looked like stars, one after another, little glints of gold against the blue. At this distance, it was just a repeated number of Algiz runes. The Valkyries

“Master,” Mash said, shifting her stance, “The Ortinax should be able to handle a series of consecutive battles. Amalgam goad is in good shape. It should stand up to combat, at a minimum.” 

Gudao nodded. His fingers tightened into fists. “It seems the Valkyries view these villages as something to be protected,” he said. “The other Valkyrie didn’t try any large scale attacks, though flying Servants tend to have them. I’m willing to bet the next Valkyries will come to the ground as well. Alter, Tesla, come on out. CasCu, your main focus is going to be the bounded field, but I want you to heal as needed. Got it?” 

“Got it,” CasCu said. He planted his feet, and wiggled his toes into the dirt. Beneath his skin, he felt the pulse of power, so much clearer in this place without snow.

Tesla and Alter entered solid form in a wash of light. Alter was crouched, growling, spear held tight in his grip. He looked ready to spring into action. Tesla stood straight, one hand adjusting his giant gauntlet. Sparks flew around his fingers. This time Scáthach grinned, this feral, familiar thing. She spun her spear, and copy after copy littered the ground around her, a circle of available weapons. She grabbed one, then hefted it, ready to throw.

“They’re coming down!” Gudao called. “Now!” 

The Valkyries descended, seven of them in all. CasCu could feel their power, the differing levels, and knew the others could too. Scathech threw her spear with unnerving accuracy, lightning fast. It was hardly her Noble Phantasm, but it was still a powerful blow. The lead Valkyrie batted it away as if it was nothing. Scáthach didn’t let up. One after another, she pulled her spears from the ground, and threw them. Some hit, others were batted aside. One of the Valkyrie’s fell, impaled through the chest.

Six left.

Tesla’s lighting burst into action. He raised his hands, lashed out. A bolt of pure white light shot towards the Valkyries . They dodged around it - some too slow, singed and clothes burnt. Another shot, quicker this time, a thinner stream of lightning, more accurate. This time, a Valkyrie was knocked out of the sky - one of the ones Scáthach had hit. She disappeared into golden motes as she fell. And then the remaining five Valkyries were upon them, and Alter was meeting them. He roared, this earth-shattering thing. His tail and spear swept around, battering at their opponents. Scáthach joined the fray, darting and twisting, jabbing and blocking. Tesla took to the air, shot lightning down from above. 

A few Valkyries separated from the melee, and went after Gudao. He stood there, watching them, with flinty eyes. Then Mash was there, her shield grating against their weapons, the force of her shove sending them backwards. With this, Mash entered the fray, her shield smacking from one side to the other, her eyes burning with the most anger CasCu had ever seen from her. She’d grown into a true shield maiden, he thought, watching as she deflected a blow from the Valkyrie ’s leader.

The rest of the village had run, again, including the adults. This large scale battle was too much for the people of such a peaceful home. Only Gerda stayed. She banged her fists on CasCu’s bounded field, shouting for them to stop, to please stop, that this was wrong and that they shouldn’t be doing this. There were tears in her eyes. CasCu commended her bravery, but the shouting would only work to distract Gudao. He cut off sound from the bounded field, so they could not hear her protests, or her pleas.

Scáthach , Alter, Mash, and Tesla fought. For all it was five - no, four against four, they did not seem to be struggling too badly. Alter was the most injured, covered in weeping wounds across his chest, his back. CasCu flicked a series of runes into the air, searing blue. Sowilo, sun and health, which was all that was needed for a person of Lugh’s blood. Alter’s wounds knit together in small flairs of bright light. He plunged his spear into the chest plate of one of the Valkyries . She screamed out, and died in a burst of golden light upon his attack.

The final the three Valkyries flew into a flurry of action. It wouldn’t be long now, CasCu thought, his fingers flexing slightly. A stab to Scáthach ’s side, another bright burst of runes, another knitted wound. Mash was holding steady, her guard unwavering. She was barely injured, each shove and push of her shield strong and steady. But CasCu could see she was growing tired, her shoulders shaking, her chest heaving. Without a Servant’s endurance to keep her going, she was beginning to falter.

Then her eyes widened. Her head whipped around. “Senpai! There are more enemies coming from -”

“Divine execution!”

The roar came from above them. CasCu’s head jerked up just in time to catch another fleet of Valkyries, flying down quickly. The one at her head was launching her spear - but it wasn’t a spear anymore. It was a burning bolt of brilliant, electrical light. CasCu cried out a warning too late. It had already left her hand. Tesla, still in the air, only had time to turn and see it rocketing towards him.

The bolt hit him straight through the chest. His lightning went out. He fell, and CasCu broke formation, jolting forwards, his feet digging into the earth and propelling him onwards. He caught Tesla as he fell, grunting and rolling with the impact, before setting him on the ground gently. The man was alive, though his eyes were crossed, and the air rasped from his lips in jagged gulps. He didn’t look good. His Guts skill had probably been activated, which - with his own resistance to electricity - must have kept him alive.

Not that that mattered. CasCu threw those thoughts from his mind, and got started. Sowilo, Kaunan, and naudiz. Health, rejuvenation, and survival. They burned under CasCu’s fingertips, then sunk into Tesla’s suit. Bit by bit, the hole in his chest started to knit back together. The burns across his body began to sooth away.

Around them, chaos. CasCu heard the calls of more Noble Phantasms being unleashed, then just as swift, Mash’s cry, “FORM CAMELOT!” The wash of her Noble Phantasm was immediate. CasCu gasped, body shaking, as he felt the layers of protection cover his form, the bolstering rally she gave off. It protected him from the brunt of the collected attack, though he could feel his skin steaming.

Not quite lightning. Not quite heat. What the hell were they wielding?

It wasn’t the time to ask, though some part of CasCu felt that he would know if he dug deep enough inside of his own memories. He ignored the feeling, and patted Tesla’s shoulder, rasped out, “Can you get to Gudao okay?”

Tesla gave a shaky nod. His eyes seemed to have trouble focusing. “Yes,” he said, “do not fear, I will not be from the battlefield for long.”

“Grand to know,” CasCu breathed, before pushing away from him and surveying the scene. His bounded field was holding. But Mash, Alter, and Scáthach were badly outnumbered. These new Valkyrie’s, like the others, had come to the ground after their initial attack. His eyes flickered, found Gudao’s. 

“Do you mind?” He asked, sent along that mental distance.

Gudao tipped his head. “Be my guest.”

CasCu nodded, then stepped forwards. He could feel the pulse of his bounded field, the drain from his runes into Tesla, those protections. CasCu closed his eyes and shut it out. The sound of battle, the burn of his bounded field, all of it. Gone from mind. All that remained was the brilliant river of mana beneath his feet, accessible, willing. It had been a long time since this land had felt a druid’s touch. He raised his staff high over his head, lips moving softly, words quiet under his breath.

“Timber Giant, eaten away by fire. Become a cage of flames. WICKER MAN!

CasCu slammed his staff into the ground, hard. Earth cracked underneath the impact. CasCu’s eyes snapped open, and he looked up just in time to see Scáthach hook an arm around Mash and drag her away from the blast area. Alter had already gotten out of the way. Some Valkyries had sensed the incoming mana, had taken to the skies. More were caught off guard as the ground opened up beneath their feet, and Wicker Man’s hand rose to meet them. Not the full thing - that would burn the whole village down - just the hands, snapping up Valkyries in their woven grip, catching on fire the next second. For a moment, the screams of the dying. Golden sparks and firelight danced up towards the sky. Wicker Man’s hands burned away, and the hole in the ground was sealed. The Valkyries that had stood there - gone. 

One in the air’s eyes flashed. Her voice, robotic, “Requesting assistance. More backup required. Requesting -” 

A spear cut her off, thrown right through her chest. Scáthach dismissed her replica with a flick of her fingers. “They are unlikely to come to the ground again,” she noted. “How long until Tesla is in fighting order?” 

“Not long,” Gudao panted. Sweat beaded at his brow. His hands were held over the wounds Tesla bore. Increment by increment, they were starting to mend. “CasCu, continue running interference. You and Scáthach are our only ones with long ranged attacks until Tesla’s healed. If we can clear this wave, we can get out before -”

“It’s too late Master,” Mash said. “Look.”

Up, again. The two remaining Valkyries had been joined by more. Another fleet of seven. Back to nine enemies, and Gudao was starting to grow exhausted. Mash couldn’t be far behind. CasCu cursed, got ready. He could feel the pulse of mana in the air. One of the first two held out her spear. She spoke, cold, her voice carrying across the battlefield. “All Valkyries, deploy Noble Phantasms.” 

“Shit,” CasCu breathed.

Mash’s face was pale. She raised her shield, drew in a deep breath. She would be too slow, CasCu could already tell. The last attack had been barely blocked. Mash was more exhausted than she had been then, and now -

A sound split the air. A roar like nothing CasCu had ever heard. His eardrums shattered. He cried out, plastering his hands over his ears. Light burst before his closed eyelids. He heard the cries as the Valkyries’ Noble Phantasms were shot to shreds, blasted apart by - what had it been? The answer came through ringing ears, from the Throne’s knowledge, distorted and so far away. Or perhaps it came from somewhere else, welling up from inside of him, from the sudden blinding pain in his eye.

Cannon fire. 

That had been cannon fire.

CasCu straightened, and let his hands fall from his ringing ears. The oldest two Valkyries - who had already sustained wounds from the battle - had been ripped to shreds by that blast. A few of the new ones had been similarly vaporized. The others were badly injured, steaming gently. They seemed shocked at the attack, frozen. CasCu could see many of them blinking repeatedly, an almost human gesture.

“Impressive,” Scáthach noted.

Tesla made a noise between his teeth. “I could have done that,” he muttered. 

“Well, who did?” Gudao said, patting Tesla’s shoulder. 

“I think - he did, Senpai,” Mash said. She leaned on her shield, and pointed.

CasCu turned to follow the direction of the point. It was towards the fence, so the man she pointed at had either slipped through, or materialized right there. The shot had to have been from this man, if the absolutely massive cannon pointing the angels way was any inclination. The proportions of said cannon were made nearly comical by the proportions of the man, whose small stature was only made smaller in comparison. But his grin was wide, and big, and he carried himself like a man twice his size. 

“How did you like my little cannon here?” He called out, voice booming across the village. “C'est magnifique, non? Haha! Nothing better than a fine gentleman like myself fighting off a swarm of angels!”

The burst of sudden french had CasCu’s chest twisting tight. Marie used to do that, to pepper her speech with sayings from her native tongue, and then giggle right after. With Servants, that sort of habit wasn’t an issue. The Throne translated everything heard into something they could understand. But CasCu hadn’t heard anyone do that in a while. His chest ached, a brief, painful pain for her loss. But the battlefield was no place for such pain. He shoved it away, tucked it right beside where his pain for Kage still burned.

“I see,” the lead Valkyrie said. Her eyes flashed, glowing. “Though they were just mass-produced models, this one can blast several away at once. I also see that he is working with an individual known as Mash Kyrielight. Servants are beings that threaten the Goddess’s rule. They are to be eradicated. Begin link. Begin link. All nearby envoys begin link. None my defy her will.”

The Valkyries began to cluster. More lights in the sky lit up, one, two, three, four. Not a full platoon then, but enough to bolster the ranks, to replace who was missing. And the man with the cannon only laughed. “Go ahead!” He called out, “I’ll blow you right out of the sky! Haven’t you learned that anything in the air is just a target for my incredible firepower?”

“A Servant,” Mash breathed. “Master, he’s a Servant from Proper Human History!” 

Gudao gave Tesla’s shoulder a pat, then straightened up. “I know,” he said. “You, Servant? My name is Fujimaru Ritsuka, the last Master of Humanity! What is your name, and will you help us?” 

“Well, let’s see,” the man said. He closed his eyes briefly, a pause just for dramatics, then opened them in a sudden burst. His grin was nearly blinding. “As long as someone’s out there’s got their hopes up, or wishes things were different, I’ll make their dreams come true. And I see those stars shining bright in you and your friend, fighting against the fate of the world! Go ahead and lead the way, Fujimaru Ritsuka, Mash Kryielight. My cannon is yours to command! Let your magical energy loose, and don’t hold back! Let’s get this done in style!”

“Well, close enough.” Gudao muttered. He held out a hand. “Archer, Tesla, CasCu! Focus your fire on the Valkyries . Scáthach , Alter, take down any that are still living when they reach the ground. Mash, you’re on the defense. I want you blocking every Noble Phantasm you possibly can. Got it?” 

“Hai!” Mash called.

The word was barely finished with before the mysterious Servant ’s cannon fired again. It was another blazing burst, but this time the Valkyries reacted . They swooped and twirled around the attack, eyes glowing. Their movements were in sync. As one, they raised their lances, glowing, burning. Their Noble Phantasm. 

This time, Mash was ready. She lunged forwards, slammed her shield into the ground. A cry, and the walls of Camelot rose around them, flickering in holographic projectiles. CasCu dug his toes into the ground, and pulled. Roots ripped from the ground, reaching up to support those walls. Just in time, for the Noble Phantasms crashed down upon them. Flecks of Camelot’s walls flickered away in the onslaught. CasCu’s roots began to crumble to burn.

And then they were through. As one, Archer and Tesla lit up the sky. Lightning crackled from nothing. Cannon bursts broke the sky, one after another. One of the Valkyries fell to be finished off swiftly by Scáthach ’s blows. More burned away from combined onslaught. The rest of the Valkyries swept low, spears at the ready. 

Alter met them like a wrecking ball. His spear flashed, his tail lashed out, knocking away weapons and shields both. Then Scáthach was there, her spears flashing, diving, coming away with slashes of blood. CasCu let his control of the roots dropped, then focused on support. His runes burned arcs into the air, bolstering their speed, their strength, healing the wounds stitched across their skin. 

Valkyries fell in golden sparks all around them. Mash and the nameless Archer joined the fray, and Tesla shot his light towards the sky, discouraging further reinforcements. A smart move. CasCu eyed the fray, but - no . He wasn’t needed there. He pressed Thurisaz and hagalaz, Thor tied to the uncontrollable power of nature, against Tesla’s arms. The Archer’s bolts grew in power, lashed out further. One of the incoming Valkyries burned away mid-descent

The rest drew up, short, and watched as the last of the group was destroyed. They were too far to shoot down. Heads turned, as if one of them was speaking, but they were too far to hear the words. Then, as one, the group rose to the sky, and left. 

Scáthach pulled her spear out of the last Valkyrie , and flicked the tip to clean it. “Must have decided they were loosing too many,” she noted, her tone sliding back to blandly bored. “A shame. Things were just getting interesting.”

“Of course you would say that,” CasCu breathed. 

Alter grunted, then took to Spirit Form. Gudao watched him go, then wiped the edge of his sleeve over his face. “Alright. Everyone, back to Spirit Form. CasCu, drop the bounded field for now, but the runes just in case we need to pull it back up.”

“Got it, Master,” CasCu said. He cut off his runes on Tesla, then tore down his bounded field. He took to Spirit Form just in time to watch Gerda stumble back. Her face was pale, blotchy with tear stains. She stared at Gudao and Mash, then at the Servant, and then at the bloodstained ground. She made a noise in the back of her throat, broken, then turned and ran. 

“Gerda -” 

“No,” Gudao murmured, cutting Mash off. “Let’s not - she won’t understand, right now. Best to leave her alone.” His lips pressed together, obviously unhappy with having to say those words. His hand slipped down to grab Mash’s hand, squeezed. In response, she dropped her outstretched arm, and turned away.

“Hai,” she said, quiet.

The moment was interrupted by the new Servant, who sauntered up and slapped Gudao’s back so hard he nearly stumbled, set his other hand on Mash’s shoulder. “Good work, you too!” He said, grinning wide. “To command so many Servants, and to stand beside them when you’re not exactly one of them, is quite impressive! I can’t promote you to general at our first meeting, but there’s a metal in store for the both of you!”

Mash stepped away from his hand. “E-excuse me,” she said, “We really appreciate the help, but could you please not slap him so hard?”

The Servant blinked. He withdrew both hands, raised them high. “Oh, was that hard? Sorry ‘bout that! Old habits die hard, they say.”

Gudao coughed, clutching his chest. CasCu wondered if he needed to step out of Spirit Form to heal him.

“Sorry again,” the Servant said. He didn’t sound very sorry. “Here, how ‘bout I give ya a back rub? Or are you alright now?”

“I’m fine,” Gudao said. He straightened, grimacing, palm pressing into his chest. He swallowed hard, then let his hand drop. “Like Mash said, thanks for the help. But you didn’t actually introduce yourself.”

“Ah, I suppose I didn’t.” The Servant chuckled, then stepped a bit away from them. He set his hands on his hips, puffed up his chest, and then beamed wide. “Then listen up! Humans, one day, your desires will become a rainbow emblazoned across the sky. Know why? ‘Cause I’m here now! That’s right! I’m the man of infinite possibility! Wherever I go, I leave rainbows in my wake … I am Napoleon, an Archer! You’re looking at the only hero of humanity in all of Scandinavia!”

There was a pause, prominent, and long. CasCu felt the information from the Throne flood his mind. His eyebrows rose high. Alter made a noise between his teeth. “He’s insane.” 

“Absolutely,” CasCu breathed.

 

They left Village 23 behind them. No one stopped them. No one came out of their homes to watch them leave. CasCu wasn’t too surprised. They had walked into their home under false pretense, interrupted a sacred ritual, killed multiple Valkyries on their soil … it was probably the most violence that supposedly peaceful village had ever seen.

The Valkyries

CasCu found them sticking in his mind as they walked. Someone had tampered with the Valkyrie ’s initial purpose. He could feel it, down deep inside of him. Without any heroes to collect, the Valkyries had been changed so they would accept normal people. A weapon did not make a hero. A crown of flowers did not make a hero. Their purpose had changed, and it felt … utterly wrong, in a way CasCu couldn’t name.

Lugh, a part of him felt disgruntled for no reason. They weren’t his Valkyries . Not his to be disgruntled over. The feeling was foolish. He shook it off, harsh.

CasCu forced himself to focus on the progress Gudao, Mash, and Napoleon were making. Napoleon - despite Gudao’s poke - had refused to take Spirit Form. Instead, he traveled on his own pair of skis. He was talking, right now, and CasCu must have been too involved in his own damn head to have caught the initiating question.

“Of course I know what’s going on with all the snow and ice,” he called, “if we stop for a bit, I’ll tell you. It’s not a story to be yelled across traveling.”

“There’s a good spot up ahead,” Mash said, pointing briefly. It was the top of a hill, bare from trees. It would be a good place to keep an eye on their surroundings while they took a break.

Gudao nodded, once. “Looks like a good place to me.”

They made swift time, and were soon swirling to a stop at the top of the hill. Napoleon buried his skis into the snow, and crouched. Gudao and Mash planted their own skis, so they wouldn’t move, and settled. Gudao crossed his arms over his chest. “So,” he asked, “What’s the deal with the snow and ice? We already figured it has to be connected to the Lostbelt King, but we don’t have much more information than that.”

Napoleon closed his eyes, hummed. “All right, then let’s start at the beginning. You two know the myth of Ragnarök, right? Well that battle happened here as well. But the age of the gods didn’t end that day. Something caused to last, even until now, which forced the history of this world to change with it.”

Mash blinked. “So Director Gordolf and Da Vinci were right …”

“This Goddess,” Gudao said, frowning, “She survived Ragnarök, right? And she’s not been existing as a Pseudo-Servant, or a Divine Servant - she’s just a goddess.”

“The one and only Goddess,” Napoleon agreed, “The last God of Scandinavia, who rules this Lostbelt, using her envoys as go-betweens to keep both giants and humans in check. She lives in the northern part of Oslo Fjord, in a castle located in Proper Human History’s old Oslo region. The Queen of Scandinavia, who covers half its mountains in frost. A Goddess of Snow and Ice …” 

He paused, as if for dramatic effect. CasCu didn’t need him to fill in the gap. Electricity shot through him, painfully cold, throbbing in his eye socket. His fingers flexed around his staff. His throat locked up, as if it had been frozen. In his minds eye, he could see a towering woman of jotun blood. He saw the armor she wore, the weapons she carried. Blood for blood. Family for family. A goddess of snow and ice. One who favored giants over humankind .

Skadi.

Notes:

It's been a while since I've done full on end notes, but since I've been changing some things about this Lostbelt, I wanted to go over the particular changes for this chapter/part of the story!

As you might have noticed, the ritual of death (as I’m going to call it) is a bit different in this story, so I wanted to explain how it works! It happens in a few stages. The more important a person is to the village (i.e. how beloved, how active in the community, yada yada), the more flowers and the better quality of flowers they will receive. The amount and quality of flowers is basically a signal to the Valkyrie, and determines what quality of weapon the individuals sent off to die will get.

After being passed the weapon, the individuals are brought out of the village. They wander until they eventually encounter, fight, and then die to a giant. Only then will their souls be gathered. At this point, the make of the weapon and their strength of fighting prowess determines where in Valhalla they’ll be placed. As Hel (the Norse goddess of death) is dead, her lands are no longer accessible to human souls. As such, Valhalla has changed to reflect this.

Basically, the quality and amount of flowers, the quality of weapons, and how well you fight before you’re squished to death determines if you got to heaven or super heaven.

As for my last notes, both the Valkyries and Napoleon got some changes to cannon design. The Valkyries have more sensible armor, and their wings are straight, so their silhouette reflects the Algiz rune. Otherwise, they’re essentially the same as cannon. Napoleon is also the same design as cannon, except he’s significantly shorter now. As a Servant that’s a caricature of his true self, it made sense that he would actually be Shorter than he was in real life instead of Taller. Skadi will also get a bit of a redesign for some of her ascensions, which will be described at a later date.

Chapter 5: Chapter 5

Summary:

Don't worry about the dreams. *kicks them under the rug* I'm sure they mean nothing. Focus on Skadi. Skadi's cool.

Notes:

Hey everyone!! Thank you all for your comments and kudos, and I hope you all enjoy and have a wonderful day!

TW: self harm from "After all this, it all will be his" to "Nine days. Nine nights."

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

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Napoleon kept talking. CasCu didn’t hear him. It felt like that name had frozen him to the ground, trapped him efficiently as ice he couldn’t melt. Skadi. A Goddess of Jotunn ilk. The woman who had marched upon Asgard to avenge her father’s death, and left with a husband, her father’s eyes in the sky, and Loki’s pride in tatters. The details of the myth curled in the corners of his mind. Some of them were hazy. Others were cut in crystal.

A Goddess of Ice and Snow, with gold chipped blue eyes. A Goddess of Hunting, her armor made of crystal and accented in leathers. Her voice - he thought it was deep. Maybe smooth. Cold. Or maybe it crackled, like ice reforming. That exact detail was hard to remember. 

It didn’t feel like something imprinted by the Throne. It felt too real, parts of the memory too sharp, others too hazy, like something that happened long ago-

“Skadi? Now that is surprising.”

Scáthach ’s cold words snapped CasCu out of it. He stumbled, then caught himself, mind spinning around in rapid circles. His mouth worked, but nothing came out. Something clogged his throat. Oddly enough, it was Alter that spoke, his voice a comforting rumble in the back of CasCu’s mind. “You knew her?”

“In a way,” Scáthach said, “My Isle of Shadow is connected to Scotland, but it is disjointed from space and time. Skadi is also tied to an Island of Darkness. There were bound to be some ties built through that.”

“Your rune work,” CasCu rasped out. “You said you learned that through someone Norse.” They were norse runes, after all. Primordial runes.

“I did, didn’t I?” Scáthach said, and then didn’t say anything else. 

That was how she cut off conversations. Giving just a bit, and then leaving the rest of it to them to put together. A teacher’s tactics, and they never stopped even if the information felt - important. CasCu shook himself, and forced himself to focus on the conversation. He could think on Scáthach ’s words while he listened.

“Here in this Lostbelt,” Napoleon was saying. He’d changed positions. Had shoved his giant cannon deep into the snow, and was perched on top like an odd bird, “the Age of Gods never ended, she rules over humans and giants alike. Her goal seems to be for everything to remain as it is. I guess that’s the same as other Lostbelts? If nothing else, she doesn’t want to wipe humanity out.”

“Well,” Gudao said after a moment, too long, “That’s good. Do you think she can be reasoned with?”

Napoleon closed his eyes and hummed. It was over the top, meant to convey how seriously he was taking the question. “Possibly. She’s secure in her power. As long as we don’t openly declare war, I don’t think she’ll see us as enemies.”

“Um,” Mash bit the corner of her lip, “We did just destroy a number of her envoys. Would that be considered a declaration of war?”

That. Was a good point. CasCu shot the last remnants of his questions about Scáthach out of his head. Skadi was a warrior goddess. If she acted anything like her myth, she would not take the destruction of her Valkyries lightly … but the Valkyries had never been hers in the first place. They had been Odin’s; CasCu could only guess as to why they were following Skadi’s orders. But it was doubtful Skadi cared about them like she’d cared about her father.

“Trust me,” Napoleon said, winking briefly, “It’s going to take more than that to ruffle this queen’s feathers. I know that sounds pretty weird, but it’s true … That said, I can understand why you’d feel nervous. Especially after that big dust up.”

“I’d call that more than a dust up,” Gudao said, dryly. He stretched, then pushed himself up. A roll of his neck, a grimace, and then he was looking up, meeting Napoleon's gaze. “You know an awful lot about this Lostbelt and Proper Human History.”

Napoleon blinked. “Oh?” 

“Napoleon Bonaparte,” Mash said, and it was that voice. The almost flat one she used when she was regurgitating information she had learned long ago. The one that hinted at the inhuman thing she’d been at the beginning of her life. “You first made a name for yourself after the French Revolution in 1789, and eventually become the first Emperor of France. As the Supreme Commander of the Grande Armée , you were one of France’s greatest rulers and conquerors. For a time, you controlled over half of Europe, and your grand expedition to Russia is particularly well known… but at least in our database, I haven't seen anything regarding your exploits that pertains to Scandinavia. I did hear that you were quite the fan of James Macpherson's Ossian, which had epic poems similar to the Norse Poetic Edda, but that's all.”

Napoleon’s eyebrow rose. Gudao whistled. “It still impresses me when you manage to do that,” he said, grinning slightly.

Mash started, then flushed, dipping her head. “Sorry. What I meant to say is that Napoleon must have acquired his knowledge of Scandinavia after he was summoned.”

Roundabout way to say it, CasCu thought. But it was a warm thought, amused, lingering in the back of his head. It helped ease the ice that Skadi’s name had left in him. It was good, to see that Mash and Gudao could still be normal people, sometimes, even after everything they had been through. Especially after today’s shitshow.

Napoleon certainly seemed to find it amusing. He laughed, this loud thing for his size. “I materialized here just a little bit before you all showed up,” he said, “That’s why I happen to know so much. I’ve been traveling all around this place getting information. As for the source of my information … I think I’ll hold off on it for now. An air of mystery make hotties like me even hotter, don’t you think?” He tossed another wink.

Mash and Gudao’s faces were very blank. CasCu fought another laugh at their expressions. “Sure,” Gudao said, his voice completely bland, “Is there any other wisdom you wish to impart on us?”

“I’m on humanities side,” Napoleon said, an immediate response. “I’m your ally, and I came here to save you. Just make sure you don’t forget that. Long as you don’t, we can make a temporary contract.”

CasCu considered this, a moment. Gudao didn’t have much mana to spend, and Napoleon didn’t seem the type of person to retreat to Spirit Form to save mana. But he was strong, very much so, and he knew the layout well. It would probably be for the best that Gudao made a contract with him.

He could see Gudao working out those same gears in his head. He frowned, this sharp thing, then glanced up again. The grin that replaced that frown was bright, cheerful, so customarily Gudao that it hurt to look at. He held out his hand to Napoleon , and said, “I trust you, and I’m open to making that contract.” 

Napoleon laughed, held up his hands. “That’s wonderful to hear! But it’s something I think I’ll hold off until later.”

Gudao’s eyebrow rose, high. “And why is that?” 

“It’s a secret,” Napoleon’s smile flashed. “And I’d hate to ruin the surprise. Now, is there anything else you wanted to ask me?”

Mash and Gudao exchanged brief glances. Gudao nodded. Mash turned to Napoleon. “Hai!” she said, “Remember how Gerda said that, at least in Village 23, an envoy won’t come again for another year? Is there a reason for that? Something you know from your unidentified information source?”

“I can’t be totally sure it will be another year,” Napoleon said, frowning, “but I’m relatively confident that it will be. But that’s my own information talking.”

Mash blinked. “How?”

Napoleon shrugged, this easy, short thing. “Just look at how many of them showed up this time. The envoys aren’t allowed to sacrifice humans on any day besides the one that Skadi ordained, so they must’ve brought a whole bunch of them along to make sure the ritual didn’t go off the rails again.”

Gudao’s eyebrow rose. He crossed his arms, and gave Napoleon the look. It was the look he normally used when the Chaos Crew was acting up. “Again?” He asked, pointed. 

CasCu fought back a brief burst of amusement at Napoleon’s startled face. The man waffled a moment, then huffed, crossing his arms over his chest in turn. “Again,” he said, in the too-boisterous voice used by some painfully prideful kings Gudao commanded, “This wasn’t my first run in with them. Back at another village, I caught one of them trying to open those giant gates and sniped ‘em. There was just the one back then, probably because ‘cause they didn’t expect anyone to attack them, but that obviously wasn’t the case with that last village.”

Gudao’s eyes flashed. He snapped his fingers. “The Valkyries mentioned something about shared records. Your attack must have been recorded, so they prepared in advance for another one.” 

Napoleon nodded, grinning wide. “Exactly! They’re basically machines. There’s no reasoning with them.” 

Mash and Gudao’s faces were a sight to behold. Gudao’s eyebrow slowly started to rise. CasCu pressed his lips together, tight, as Napoleon’s expression slowly twisted. His pleased grin slowly fell. He squirmed, on top that giant cannon, and Gudao’s expression didn’t change. He watched, waiting, as Napoleon broke. 

“So,” Napoleon said, “uh, I guess what I’m trying to say is … I’M SORRY!” The last two words were shouted. He bowed, this jerky thing. “I had no idea they’d come back with those kinds of numbers. Guess I’ve really messed things up for you.”

“Mister Gudao and Miss Mash have gotten very good at that,” Tesla noted, something almost like surprise in his voice.

CasCu could hear Scáthach ’s barely restrained grin. “He’s had a lot of practice.”

Gudao’s posture relaxed, and he smiled. “You’re forgiven. But you are a king. You have to think about the consequences of your actions.”

“And you did help us,” Mash said, in a bit of a rush, “which was much appreciated. The envoys were quite strong individually.” 

Had they been? CasCu hadn’t noticed. Then again, he’d been outside the conflict for most of the battle. On the fringes, doing what he could to help and protect the village. He supposed that, for Mash, with her current capabilities, she would see things differently. 

“Oh yeah, that …” Napoleon waffled a moment, glancing away. “Guess I should probably be level with you. I’m pretty sure the sisters they based the envoys off of are even stronger. The ones we met yesterday were basically mass-produced dolls Skadi made by infusing them with her magical energy.”

Something in CasCu’s chest flickered, this brief waffle, hard to understand. It was odd, the feeling the truth of the Valkyries brought up. And yet, it felt right. The Valkyries were sisters, the daughters of Odin - but most of them were replicas. The Valkyries were made with a purpose, and it was easier to program replicas then actual people.

CasCu blinked, at that thought. The back of his head was aching, this dull pounding that was making it hard to focus. His eye hurt. He reached up, pressed the heel of his palm against his temple. His hand felt hot, vision wonky. The world was built as Spirit Form made it, gray and flat and slightly shimmery, like it was underwater. But that sight felt wrong. Like there was something vital missing from it. 

Skadi had rewritten the Valkyrie’s programming. That wasn’t her power. Skadi was a hunter of Ymir’s blood. A goddess of ice, of snow, of killing, of surviving within the mountains. Magecraft wasn’t under her jurisdiction. The Valkyrie’s weren’t under her jurisdiction.

But they were, here. Somehow, during Ragnarök , Skadi had gained the Valkyrie’s. Somehow, during Ragnarök , Skadi had gained mage craft , primordial runes. Mage craft enough to rival his - Odin’s own. 

CasCu squeezed his eyes shut, tight. Blocking out the world , and it’s missing factor helped his head. He squeezed his eyes shut until the hurt distracted from the throbbing pain in the back of his head. He breathed, slowly and steadily, until he felt a little less wobbly. A little less like he was about to fall apart. CasCu opened his eyes, blinking sharply, and pulled his hand slowly away from his temple. 

That odd feeling was gone. It was just Gudao, Mash, and Napoleon talking. Something about Privates, and medals. Why Napoleon was here in Scandinavia, when he’d never been near Scandinavia in life. CasCu couldn’t pull himself together enough to care. He closed his eyes, and breathed, slowly and surely, slowly and surely.

Mash stood, sharply, reaching out for her ski’s. “We should go, Master,” she said. “Ortinax is picking up a group of giants near bye. If we use my thrusters, we should be able to make a clean get away.”

“No,” Napoleon said. He leapt off his cannon and sank into the snow. One-handed , he yanked his seat out and spun it around, a comical display of impressive strength. He set his massive cannon across his shoulders, and said, “We should fight them. I want to get a better look at the way you two fight, and we’ll need to learn how to fight as a unit.” 

Gudao shook his head, briefly. “Normally, I’d agree with you,” he said. “But we’re under direct orders from the Director not to spend more mana then necessary. And after such a large fight with the Valkyrie s, I don’t have the mana for another one so soon. We’ll go at the next group of giants we encounter. Right now, we need to keep on moving.”

Napoleon frowned at that, obviously displeased. CasCu forced himself to focus, watching Napoleon’s face closely. Gudao’s plan made sense, especially for the resources and the orders they’d received. The only question was if Napoleon would be problematic, or if he’d go along with it. A part of CasCu would bet problematic.

But to his surprise, Napoleon shrugged. “You have a solid idea of what your resources are, Private. That is an admirable quality, if difficult to work with. Very well! We’ll target the next group of giants for our target practice instead.”

Gudao relaxed, then grabbed his skis. “Great,” he said, “then let’s get a move on. I don’t want to be here any longer than we have too.”

 

It took until sundown before they met the next group of giants. That large, silver sun was just dipping under the horizon, sending brilliant colors darting across the sky. Oranges, pinks, and purples in a brilliant dance. Violence and softness at the same time. And a group of giants, being escorted by Valkyries, bathed in the dying light.

Per Napoleon’s request, Gudao did not summon anyone else. It … was probably a good thing, CasCu thought. Kept the amount of mana Gudao had to provide low, and Napoleon had already worked with them as a group. This was about how Gudao, Mash, and Napoleon worked together. If needed, one of the waiting Servants could leap out of the wings to assist.

At first, it wasn’t needed. Mash stalled the giants, her shield blocking their swings, throwing in her own attacks when the opportunities presented themselves. While Mash dealt with them, Napoleon dealt with the Valkyries . This time, CasCu paid close attention to the man’s fighting style. 

It was … something for sure.

Despite barely being over five feet, Napoleon wielded his near seven-foot cannon with ease. He shot the Valkyries down with massive blasts, and when they got too close, used his cannon to both block and attack. It was an impressive showing, and in a way reminded CasCu of how Moriarty fought. Somehow, this looked more deceptively ridiculous. 

The fight, though, with only the two of them was drawing out. CasCu could see Mash growing more exhausted, her arms shaking with each block. Scáthach noted it too. “Gudao,” she said, “this cannot go on. Tell Napoleon to release his Noble Phantasm. I wish to see what this man is made of.”

“Was just thinking that,” Gudao said. He straightened, drew a breath. “Napoleon, release your noble phantasm! Mash, pull back to cover him!”

“Hai!” Mash called out.

Napoleon’s eyes widened, then he tossed back his head and laughed. He threw himself back from a Valkyrie ’s attack, the follow-up swiftly blocked by Mash. Napoleon planted his feet into the snow and held the cannon above his head, pointed at the sky. The whole thing unlatched, split to reveal another barrel within, white and striped with rainbow lights, doubling the size of the cannon. He leveled the contraption at the giants.

“As you wish, Private!” He shouted, his grin wide across his face. “Rainbow, O Rainbow. Now’s the time to suspend the bridge of possibilities. Conquer the skies! Arc de Triomphe de l'Étoile!

At his words, light burst from the cannon. It was a blazing, brilliant thing, blasting across the snow and scattering rainbows against the surface. It was too bright to look at, too painful to stare at. Even in Spirit Form, the color was brilliant, and CasCu had to cover his eyes, wince and look away. When the roar of the cannon went out, CasCu opened his eyes.

The light was gone. So were the giants. And the Valkyries.

Gudao let out a breath between his teeth. “Impressive, Napoleon,” he breathed. 

Napoleon’s cannon shrank to its normal size. He planted it in the snow, drawing his shoulder’s back and grinning wide. “Why thank you, Private! Gotta say though, you two handled yourselves pretty nicely. I could tell you’ve done this before. You’ve got real guts, little shield lady. You too, Private. And those Servants you summoned before … how many can you control?”

Gudao’s lips twitched. “Outside the Shadow Border? I only have the ability to control five. My mana reserves aren’t the best.”

“Well, that’s a damn shame,” Napoleon said, closing his eyes. “Otherwise, I could have put together the greatest Grande Armée of all time! But there's no sense crying over uh, milk you can't even spill.”

“Not that you’re the first to try.” Gudao said. His crossed his arms over his chest, head tipping to the side. “So, since you’ve been here longer, I figure you know how best to fight giants. What tips do you have for us?”

Smug, pleased, Napoleon started to speak. CasCu tuned him out. He already knew how to fight giants, those people larger than him. Alter scoffed in his mind, this low rumble that could have meant anything. “Could have asked us.”

“I doubt Gudao wanted to risk another one of Scáthach ’s lessons,” CasCu said, just to Alter. During normal times, Alter would have huffed a low laugh. Right now, all he did was huff. This low thing that only allowed the smallest trace of amusement to be heard, but carried none of it’s customary chuckle. Still, the curse ran deep. CasCu fought the urge to sigh.

The last bit of that giant sun slipped beneath the skyline, silver disappearing over the tops of the trees.

 

Napoleon already had a campsite set up in the area. They got to it just as the last traces of light disappeared, twilight replaced by full darkness. The cave itself was predictable. Rock formations had been replaced by dark, sparkling ice. Their small campfire cast flickering reflections across the surface walls, but like the rest of the snow in this Lostbelt, the ice didn’t melt. Gudao, Mash, and Napoleon were capable of surrounding the campfire without worry of cave in.

With the sleeping bags set out, water being passed around, and food cooking, the whole scene was near darn right cheerful. They ate, and talked, getting to know each other as Gudao was wont to do. CasCu left them to it, exploring the dimensions of the cave. It wasn’t large, and the back end went nowhere. A little, shallow hole scooped out of the mountain side. If not for the stalagmites and stalactites, it could have been hollowed out by a bear.

Bears …

CasCu blinked, glanced up. “Has someone been assigned watch, yet?”

“I have,” Tesla said, “I will see the best and furthest out of everyone. Though if there is someone who wishes to join me, I will not deny the company.”

A moment passed. Then Alter grunted, sharp, “I will.”

CasCu let out a breath, then turned from one icy wall. That left him with nothing to do. Technically, he could have joined watch with the two of them, but there was nothing he could contribute beyond a bounded field … which he should get started on. He should have thought about that beforehand . He took a moment to rub his aching head, then made his way out of the cave.

The Scandinavian night was very different than the Scandinavian day, or even a night from Proper Human history. The sky was almost empty without that large, silver sun filling it. There were stars, yes, but they were faint and far away. Brief, twinkling points of light in the blackness, easily missed. The shadows were thick, and the winds were cold. A place devoid of life. Skadi’s home.

CasCu took stepped out of Spirit Form, and flicked his gaze up briefly. For a moment, he thought - but no, if the ravens were there, he could not see them in the darkness. CasCu turned his gaze to the snow, and got started on making his runes. One after another, etched into rock and the base of the crystal trees. The snow was Skadi’s domain. He’d have a hard time getting anything to stick with her mana thick through it. 

Skadi …

Had Scáthach really known Skadi? It was possible, a part of CasCu said. The part of him connected to the Throne of Heroes. Their names had many of the same linguistic roots, both tied to the nature of shadow. They both made their home on an Isle of Darkness, Scáthach Scotland, Skadi Scandinavia. Both of them fierce warriors. Scáthach was immortal, famed for killing the gods. Skadi had brought war to Asgard when her father was killed.

And yet there were differences, distinct as day and night. Scáthach was a warrior, a god slayer, but her main purpose was to teach heroes. Skadi was not the type to teach others. And where Scáthach would never be swayed with empty words and a promise of a husband, Skadi had been willing to put away her weapons for just that.

Skadi’s husband had been Njörðr, god of the sea. Though Skadi had only been married to him for a brief time, could that have been their connection? Had Njörðr given her the chance to meet Scáthach ? How much did that connection actually matter?

For some reason, CasCu couldn’t help but feel that it mattered a lot. Skadi was a Goddess, and this was the Age of Gods. She would have a physical body … but all the Divine Spirits they had met so far had required human hosts. But Skadi wasn’t a Divine Spirit. Napoleon had said she was flesh and blood, a Goddess in full.

What had Skadi looked like? CasCu stared up at the sky again, like it could give answers. He knew what Skadi looked like. A part of him knew what Skadi looked like, but it was like the memory, the information, had been scrubbed from his mind. Something tugged at his chest, like a string attached to a swooping kite. His eye ached, painful, followed by a jolt to his head. CasCu jerked his head down with a curse, yanking his fingers away from his current tree trunk and pressing them against his eye. Gods -

Skadi would need a host.

The thought came from nowhere, and everywhere. CasCu pressed his eyes tight shut, kneading at the aching one. Skadi would need a host. A Goddess in full, yes, but Ragnarök was the destruction of the gods. The fall of all of them. For Skadi to have survived Ragnarök , she would require a body to host her consciousness in. One that would have a similar skill set to her. One that -

Scáthach ?” CasCu asked, his mental voice a rasp, “Do you think -”

“Quiet, CasCu,” Scáthach said. “And come listen. We’re planning our approach to Skadi’s castle. This Napoleon does have a good grasp on tactics. Perhaps once, he would have made a fine student. But like all my students his ambition and pride needs to be ruthlessly cut down until he can control it.”

The words were so out of the left field that a small, raspy laugh burst from CasCu. The pain in his eye eased. He scrubbed it a final time, then pushed himself to his feet. If Skadi had really required a host, it was more likely that she had found someone close by to possess and assimilate. Scáthach would have been too out of the way. And Scáthach was a God killer. There was no way she would have allowed Skadi to possess her. And if there was any scrap of Scáthach in that Skadi, this world would have looked radically different.

The idea of Scáthach being Skadi’s host was ridiculous. Gods, the stress of the place must be getting to him if that was the sort of shit he was thinking. If Kage was here, he’d have said something about CasCu not listening to blinding eye aches. The thought brought a small smile to his lips.

“So, Scáthach ,” he asked, “What does this Napoleon say about our tactics?”

“It’s quite simple,” came the reply, and by the faint reverb CasCu knew it had to echo to everyone. “Our winning condition is to get back Paper Moon and locate the Tree of Emptiness. Our loosing condition is Gudao and Mash’s death. Skadi does not yet see us as a threat, so we should have no issue getting into the castle and getting our meeting. The best he has saved for last.”

She sounded … so battle hungry about it. CasCu could just about hear the smile in her teeth. Excited about the prospect of fighting Skadi, no doubt. CasCu found himself laughing, again, this hoarse whisper of a chuckle, as he struck the final rune. The bounded field blazed into life, and CasCu took a step into Spirit Form. 

 

The answers he wants are at the very center of Yggdrasil. The walk from Jotunheim to there is long, and without the presence of his ravens it feels longer. Yet he is not alone. He can feel them, flying out across the realms, collecting and storing every bit of info they came across. He knows that, all he has to do is close his eyes, and he can ride their minds as well. It is something he will indulge in later. Right now, he indulges in his new type of sight.

The weave of the world is wonderful. It’s constructed of something silver, glimmering threads making up every object, superimposed on top of everything he sees. Though he cannot read the threads himself, cannot tug and twist at their strands, the information they carry still floods into his mind. History, wisdom, small tips and intricate stories. 

Mimir’s wisdom is at his fingertips. All he has to do is look. All he has to do is think.

And it is this information that leads him towards the glimmering strands that make up this world. He cannot read what they say, but at this stage he does not need to . They are the world’s weave, which means that the world’s weavers must understand their nature. If these strands write the fate of realms and mortals alike, then those that pluck the strings of fate must be able to know what they pluck.

The answers he seeks lie with the Norns. 

And the Norns lie at the very center of Yggdrasil . At the base, the roots, and the place the World Tree grows from. The Well of Urd. A pool of fathomless depths. A home to things his mind - even now - can barely comprehend. Things that are less gods, and more like forces. Like Power. Things like the Norns, who treat fate as their plaything, working with the fabric of this world so effortlessly.

He wants it. That power, that ability, that knowledge, that understanding. He wants it like a drowning man wants air. He wants it like a dehydrated man wants water. Like a starving man wants food. Like a plant searching for sunlight. Intrinsic. Instinctual. Impossible to ignore. 

And he has no reason to stop. To deny himself. Why should he? The world is at his fingertips, and soon, he will be able to move it.

He draws himself up at the base of Yggdrasil. The trunk of the World Tree is massive, so large that he cannot see around it. But he doesn’t need to see to know the tree’s radius, to know how its roots shoot out in cardinal points, to know why each world is attributed to which root and which branch. To know that, as there had been in Jotunheim, that there was an entrance to a Well beneath this tree.

Here, there is nothing for Yggdrasil to bury its roots. It is the meeting place between worlds, between realms. Here, the tree is the world, and it’s just it, its bark, the nebulous sky and the nebulous ground below. Before they had been real. Now he knows they are simply illusions his own mind has placed, so that the truth of the matter does not destroy him.

For here, there is only the Tree. The Tree and the Well below.

He takes a breath, and closes his eyes. Then he opens them again, and steps off the root. Like before, he plummets. This time, he can count how long his fall takes. This time, he can see the world rushing by him, silvery filaments that stretch the air, then snap closed like a net. A room builds before his eyes, this hollow beneath the roots. A place where walls are made of bark, a ceiling created by the trunk of Yggdrasil. The bottom is nothing but a pool of water, the Well of Urd. If he wants too, he will fall into it, and then keep on falling for all of eternity.

The entities are house in layers, then. One for each type, like the species are separated into realms. His lips curl with the knowledge. Briefly, there’s an ache where his eye used to be. He welcomes it with open arms. It is only because of this pain, he can see this, understand this, and see them. 

The Norns.

There are three of them, and their names blossom in his mind. Urd, the past. Verdandi, the present. Skuld, the future. Their outside appearance is of women. Beautiful in their plainness, eyes bright and watching him. But their true forms, the ones only he can see now, are something he finds impossible to describe. His mind twists, bends, and then snaps back into position, and only their outside appearance is left.

Yes. He will certainly have to retrieve that mead. Only then can he describe it all. 

“One eye,” Verdandi says, her eyes fixed solidly on him. “Welcome to the Well of Fate.”

“I come for -”

“We know what you’ve come for,” Urd says. She looks left, seeking the past. “It is written in every step of your journey. Your thirst for knowledge has driven you far.”

“And it will drive you further,” Skuld says. She looks right, into the future. “The secrets you want are in reach, All Father, and they will make you powerful beyond measure. But to reach them you must sacrifice far more than a paltry eye.”

Their knowledge is breathtaking. He sucks in air like he can drink in their power. He can smell it, in the musty scent of roots and the clear smell of water. He can feel it, from the ache in his eye socket to the way the hairs on his arms rise. “And what do I seek?”

Even while looking human, Verdandi’s eyes glow silver, just as the weave of the world. “Runes,” she says. “You seek the runes, which do not belong to Godkind, nor mortal. They are the fabric of the universe, and you seek the power to pluck it.”

Runes. He tastes the word on his tongue, shaping it with his lip. Runes. “And how do I find them?” 

“As you have found all things,” Urd says, and turns her head to look at him. “Through sacrifice, and pain, and growth.”

“But this is no pain you can just forget,” Skuld says. Like her sister, she turns her gaze. Past, Present, and Future, all staring into his soul. “To find the runes, you must walk the line between life and death. A day for each world. A day for each realm.”

“Hang yourself,” they say, in unison, “and stab yourself. Feed your blood to the Tree, to the Well. For nine days, and nine nights, hang and bleed, and refuse all drink, and refuse all food. Given to Odin, yourself to yourself. Only then will you be fertilized and wise. Only then will you grow and thrive.”

The words echo with power enough to make his eye water. He blinks hard, and when his eye opens, the cavern beneath Yggdrasil is gone. He its standing on its root again, his hand pressed against the bark of the tree, the words of the Norns echoing in his ears. 

He draws in a ragged breath, listens to the whistle of air between his teeth. 

Hang himself.

Stab himself.

For nine days, and nine nights, refuse all water and drink. 

A breath leaves him, and then another, and another, his laughter spiraling through the air. He throws his head back and laughs, and laughs, watched the glimmering twists of silver and the overarching branches, black against nothing. The branches of Yggdrasil, creaking and swaying, over the gulf that lead to the Well of Fate, the Norns below. The branches that will be the answer to his question, his want.
Given to Odin, yourself to yourself.

A sacrifice, greater than his paltry eye. His laughter fades. He stares up at the branches above. The gods of Asgard will not let him do this. The gods of Asgard will try to feed him, try to keep him alive. Yet he cannot let them stop him. For everything to be his, he must walk the line between life and death. A sacrifice. 

After this, it all will be his. 

He smiles, and raises his fingers to his throat, his fingers to his chest. He feels the rope against his throat, rough, and can no longer feel the air. His hand grasps his spear, and feels how slick it was, blood warm against his fingers. Nothing whistles past his dry and cracked lips, for he has no breath to breathe. His eye aches, a painful fire, as the knowledge he wishes for floods into his mind. 

Nine days. Nine nights. Eternity and a moment. His stomach clenches. His blood drips down his spear, his boots, and falls into the Well of Fate below. He sees the Norns watching him, their silver eyes glowing. Watches his blood cloud the Well of Fate, and watches the runes spiral in its surface. 

Fehu: luck, abundance, wealth. Uruz: power, strength, courage, creativity, endurance. Thurisaz: strength, defense, protection, conflict, change, catharsis. Raido: Wheel, movement, travel, destiny. Kaunan: revelation, creativity, fire, transformation, illumination, regeneration. Gebo: gift, partnership, love. Wunjo: connection, fellowship, hope, harmony, friendship, kinship, comfort. Hagalaz: loss, transformation, nature. Naudiz: necessity, hardship, endurance, survival, self-reliance. Isaz: quiet change, challenge, stillness, self-control , concentration. Jeran: peace, hard work, prosperity, fruitfulness. Iwaz: Yggdrasil, stability, reliability, strength, tree of life, eternity, resilience, longevity. Perbo: hidden secrets, magic, divination, mystery. Algiz: divine protection, courage. Sowilo: Health, energy, mastery, success, wholeness. Tiwaz: victory, honor, justice, balance, leadership, authority. Berkannan: birth, fertility, growth, fresh starts. Ehwaz: partnership, swiftness, trust, teamwork. Mannaz: friends, self, mankind, social order, intellect, mind, memory. Laguz: flow, sea, renewal, dreams. Ingwaz: unity, harmony. Dagaz: the dawn, awakening, challenge, adventure, breakthrough. Ophalan: ancestral possession, home, abundance, heritance , legacy.

And finally.

Ansuz: God. Wisdom, truth, communication, inspiration. 

And now, Odin. 

 

CasCu woke up choking. 

His fingers scraped against his throat, nails digging against his skin, chest heaving as he tried to draw in breath after breath. The air didn’t want to come. It was like something was blocking him, cutting off his airways. But his fingers felt nothing. CasCu arched against the icy ground of the cave, dug his fingers into his skin, and scraped until something made his fingers freeze, his chest stop heaving.

It was odd, the icy calm that replaced the sensation of choking. The pain in his socket had flared, brief, and then settled there, warm like an ember. CasCu blinked swiftly, and like a flip had been switched, he could breathe again. His hands relaxed. The haze before his eyes settled. Sensations other than his own panic began to sink in.

Sound was first, and then swiftly followed by clear sight. Gudao, Mash, and Napoleon crowded around him. Gudao’s hand was wrapped tight around CasCu’s, useless in his attempt to stop CasCu from hurting himself. “CasCu! CasCu, are you with us now?” 

CasCu opened his mouth. Nothing came out but a croak.

“Here,” Mash breathed. She helped him up, pressing a water skin to his lips. It was cold, soothing as it trickled down his throat. With each small swallow, he felt a bit more grounded, less like he was spiraling into nothing.

“Strange Servants you have with you, Private,” Napoleon said. He pulled away. CasCu had a bit more room to breathe.

“This isn’t normal,” Gudao shot back. He rubbed CasCu’s shoulder, then nodded to Mash. Mash pulled the water skin away, frowning with worry. Gudao’s voice was soft. “CasCu? Are you alright? What happened?” 

“I -” He broke off, wincing at the sound of his own voice. He pressed his eyes closed, tight shut. What had happened? He’d woken up choking. He had dreamed … dreamed what? His eye socket pulsed. His mind felt blank, as if scrubbed. CasCu dug his palm into his eye and tried again. “Just a nightmare.”

Mash and Gudao looked at each other. Mash made a soft noise between her teeth, worried. “What about your charm to prevent them? The one Medea made for you?”

CasCu shook his head. “Lost with Chaldea,” he breathed. “Couldn’t take it with me in Spirit Form, and Kage ain’t here to replicate it. But those fucking dreams haven’t plagued me in a while.” He gave them both a smile, crooked. He hoped it was reassuring. “It was just a dream. A stupid dream, is all. Don’t even remember it.”

Gudao frowned. “Are you sure?”

“Yeah,” CasCu rasped out, and did his best to ignore just how badly his throat ached.  “I’m sure. I’m alright, kiddo. You two don’t need to worry about me.” 

He said the words soft, as if that would cover the scratchiness in his throat. They were words Gudao and Mash needed to hear. There was so much more for them to fucking focus on, more than CasCu’s own issues. And CasCu wasn’t even sure what issues these could be called. He’d had a bad dream. He’d woken up choking, and couldn’t remember what or why. That was all. 

That was all.

Gudao and Mash glanced at each other, brief. It was Mash who pointed out, “You have a bruise on your throat,” she said, “like a rope.”

Shit. CasCu’s hands flew to his neck. He felt the tender skin there, and tried to restrain a wince. “Must have been my cloak,” he said, and did everything he could to make it sound truthful, like something in his gut wasn’t spiraling. “Damn thing must have caught around my throat while I was sleeping.”

Neither of them looked convinced. Mash bit her lip, obviously considering asking more questions. But Gudao’s eyes were dark. In Chaldea, he would have followed up. In Chaldea, he wouldn’t have rested until they knew what was wrong. But this wasn’t in Chaldea. They were in enemy territory now.

CasCu pushed himself slowly to his feet. “Teaches me to sleep when I could have been taking watch with the others, right?” he asked, and he forced himself to sound light. “Next time, throw me up on watch with the rest before I get any funny ideas, alright, Gudao?”

“... Alright.” Gudao said. He squeezed Mash’s shoulder once, then stood up too. “Are you certain you’ll be alright? We’re going to Skadi’s palace today. I need you to be okay.”

“Of course I’ll be okay,” CasCu said. He gave Gudao a brief hair ruffle, Mash a wink. “Now you two focus on packing. I’ll take down the bounded field.” He took to Spirit Form before either one of them could argue.

It didn’t matter. Arguments were waiting for him in Spirit Form too. “You’re a liar,” Alter said, a low rumble in the back of his throat. 

“And you’re feeling better,” CasCu returned, “Did you pick up anything from that dream last night?”

“Didn’t sleep,” Alter said, voice dry.

“Damn,” CasCu sighed. He’d been hoping. Copies of Servants could pick up each other's dreams, their memories. CasCu couldn’t recall what the fuck he’d dreamt about. If Alter had, maybe those questions would have been cleared up. Maybe he would have had some damn answers. Maybe the tender skin around his neck would have made some sort of since. Cloak his ass. But there wasn’t much else it could have been. 

Shaking himself, CasCu walked outside. It was easy, to take down the bounded field. The brief tug of runes, the pull of mana. It felt easier than it should have been, in any other circumstance. Like, his rune craft was more responsive than it had been before. CasCu paused a moment, and frowned at his fingers. 

They looked the same. Like his fingers. For some reason, it felt like a part of him was convinced that they should have looked older. 

A cry from above, the too familiar sound of ravens. CasCu looked up to watch the two swooping, darting shapes, black against the sky. His lips tugged into a small smile. “You know,” he said to Alter, “If they’re going to continue to follow us, they should get names.”

Alter grunted, uninterested. It was Scáthach who asked, just a note of curiosity in her tone. “And what would you suggest?”

CasCu tipped his head back a bit further and watched. Waited. The birds swooped again, and he caught the glint of one beady black eye. Felt the connection burning between them. Druid craft . He almost wanted to laugh, for some reason. Another part of him wanted to reach out his hand and let the birds land upon it. To have that weight so familiar and so strange perched upon his fingers.

“How about,” CasCu mused, slow, “Huginn and Muninn. Fitting, I think, for two Norse ravens.”

“I suppose it is,” Scáthach said, her voice low. And at another time, CasCu might have noted something about that tone. The slow consideration, like a snake deciding if now was a good time to strike. It was a tone that would have sent him running. But right now, it was hard to care.

His eye ached, his runes were responsive, and Huginn and Muninn watched over them. CasCu could tell that today was going to be a good day.

Notes:

I like to think that, after Odin brought the runes back to the Gods, he connected each of them to a specific rune, though the connection isn’t as strong as his is to Ansuz.

Also, if you're curious, I get my rune meanings from https://norsemythologist.com/norse-runes/ though meanings vary wildly where ever you look.

Chapter 6: Chapter 6

Summary:

Hiiiiii Skadiiiiiii, I'm sure that nothing will go wrong here <3

Notes:

Hey everyone! Thank you all so much for your comments and kudos! I hope you all enjoy and have a wonderful day!

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

Skadi’s castle was different from what CasCu had been expecting.

In myth, Skadi was a hunter, a warrior. Here, as the last God, she would also be the ruler of Valhalla. CasCu’d expected her halls to reflect that. A warrior’s home, defensive and imposing. Something cold and sharp and dangerous, just as she was. Protected. Dangerous. Not a place that could be broken into easily.

But something of Skadi must have changed, over the years. Or perhaps her place as the most powerful being in this Lostbelt meant that she could place aesthetics over practicality. Or maybe the Skadi that resided here was different than Proper Human History’s. For Skadi’s castle was beautiful, cold. A frozen, architectural masterpiece, with Nordic designs and runes etched into the ice. There was a delicacy in its construction - the many bridges, the fluted parapets, the careful consideration of each decoration. It was something that must have taken forever to build. A place where beauty had been chosen over function.

Or maybe the appearance was all a lie. This castle was made of snow and ice, clear through. Skadi was the Goddess of Snow and Ice. Her mana signature sung through every falling flake, resided in every pile of power, and every icy leaf of her crystal trees. Her castle was beautiful, and had nothing in the way of defenses, but that did not mean it would be easy to be breached, for her divinity would be etched into every little design, every little rune. Every corner and crystal that formed her home was hers and hers alone.

CasCu’s eye ached. He stared at the structure, and wasn’t sure if it was the rebound from the massive sun, or the glow of mage craft that hung about that made his eyes sting. 

Mash made a small noise between her teeth. “If we were in Proper Human History,” she murmured, “this would be considered an architectural masterpiece. People would flock everywhere to see it.”

“Not many people here get to see it,” Napoleon said. He tipped his head towards the masterpiece, spoke conversationally. “It’s a kinda temple, a place where a real-life God resides. Not the kind of place anyone just gets to walk into.”

“But you know how to get in,” Gudao said. He glanced at Napoleon and raised his eyebrow. “So, how do we get in?”

“Through the back,” Napoleon said.

There was a pause. Mash’s head whipped around, and she stared at him with wide eyes. Gudao made a noise between his teeth. “You have got to be joking.”

“Nope,” Napoleon said. He pointed to the castle, and grinned wide. “I’ve already tried breaking in here once. As you might have guessed, it didn’t go so well. Didn’t get many spoils, but I got enough information to keep me happy! But if we go over the bridges, we’ll be swarmed by Valkyries. But if we go over there -” And here he pointed to the mountain flanking the castle “- there’s an underground passage that will lead to the main building. There’s not as much security that way.”

“She doesn’t need security, Master,” CasCu said. He tugged his gaze away from the castle, and stepped closer to Gudao’s side. Though he might have been in Spirit Form, he knew Gudao had to sense him. The kid stiffened, frowning. CasCu leaned over and lowered his voice. “That whole castle is hers, from top to bottom. She’ll know if someone walks in, no matter what path we take. She’ll know he took that path.”

Gudao nodded slowly. “Alright … Napoleon, do you think she’ll have increased security? Or will we have a relatively easy time getting in?”

Napoleon let out a low hum. “I doubt it,” he said after a moment’s consideration. “Since we’re not dead yet, I doubt she sees us as anything worth worrying about. But we’ll have to be ready to face her once we reach the castle proper. She’ll be waiting for us.”

“Alright,” Gudao said. He pressed his fist into his palm, and said, “then here’s the plan. Scáthach , CasCu, Mash, you three are going to be our main attackers if we run into anything on our way to the main building. Napoleon, your cannon’s going to be too loud. Alter’s hardly quiet during fighting, and Tesla lighting is liable to bring the down the castle upon our head. I want any fights dealt with quickly and cleanly, got it?”

A round of responses, agreements. Alter’s was as flat as ever. Tesla sounded mildly disgruntled, and Napoleon was roughly the same, though the man could hardly argue. Tesla’s lightning was dangerous, but it wasn’t as loud as the giant cannon Napoleon carried around. That would only be a liability. 

“Good,” Gudao said, once they’d all agreed. “CasCu, I want you to keep an eye out for any runes or traps in our way. She might not have upped her security, but I don’t want to take any risks. Do you think you’ll be able to sense anything?”

This wasn’t a question CasCu could answer in Spirit Form. He hesitated, then stepped out of it. The gray-white fabric of the world fell away, and color bloomed. Skadi’s castle was even more impressive like this. The crystal shone with shades of silver, blue, pink, and purple. Each glance of the sun sent rainbow sparkles scattering across it’s surface. And woven throughout it, he could see the map of mana, pulsing silver threads like a spider’s web. Within the web, he could just make out the shape of runes. Isa  and opilan seemed to be the most prominent ones. Ice and home. Not surprising.

CasCu knuckled his aching eye. “Possibly,” he said, “but if you want me to focus on traps, I’m going to be pretty much useless in combat. Skadi’s mana is threaded so thickly through this place that I’ll have a hard time picking out anything specific.” He paused, a moment, then added, “Master, I think she’s a Caster.”

Mash started. “Really?” She asked, “I would expect a Lancer or an Archer, or even a Rider, from what I know of Norse mythology …”

“A Lancer or Archer wouldn’t have this much mana,” CasCu said. He tapped his toes against the snow, and felt the jolt in response, sharp and electric against his skin. Beneath it, deeper, just barely could he feel the actual pulse of the earth. “To have this much mana, to imbue all the snow and ice with it, means that she must be a Caster. Either that, or a duel Class like Semiramis is.”

“What about a Ruler?” Gudao asked. “That would make sense for the situation.”

No. CasCu knuckled at his eye again, then dropped his hand. Twin caws from above had him glancing up. There, circling him - them - were Huginn and Muninn. Some part within CasCu eased. His shoulders relaxed. He knew he was right. “Caster,” he said again, “I’m not sure what would make her that, but I’m positive that she’s a Caster.” 

“Confident,” Alter grumbled, in the back of CasCu’s mind. There was almost a question there, hidden within the depths of those words.

“But right,” Scáthach added, “This depth of power and knowledge of rune craft only comes with the Caster class. Though we may use it ourselves, our class limits our abilities. It is why CasCu’s rune craft is stronger than yours or Cu’s.”

“We’ll plan for a Caster, then,” Gudao said. He turned to Napoleon, then lifted his chin. “Well? Show us the way, Napoleon. If she knows we’re here, then there’s no use in waiting around any longer.”

Napoleon grinned, this sharp, wide thing. He sounded far too excited to walk into enemy territory, with so few on their side. “This way then, Private!” 

 

Napoleon’s back door to Skadi’s castle was not guarded nor trapped. In fact, it was very ornate, and very easy to find. Like an offering, an open hand, a challenge. Come on in, if you are so confident in your abilities. At the end of the road, Skadi will be waiting for you, and she’ll be as cold and unforgiving as the snow outside. 

The inside of Napoleon’s tunnel gave off the same vibe. It was sculpted from ice, so that each detail stood out in clear relief. Bricks and side alcoves and passageways, with ice cycles hanging from the ceiling. The whole place was a thing of light and beauty, blue rune flames sending shadows and lights cascading along the hallway. No matter how hard CasCu stared at the runes, no matter how hard he pressed his fingers against the walls, or his toes against the flagstones, he felt no prickle of anything malicious.

No traps. No enemies. It was an invitation through and through, a dare all the way. Someone would be foolish enough to walk into this hall and into her throne room. And today, that person was them. The easy confidence in the challenge made a part of CasCu twist. Another part of him felt far too calm. His eye socket ached, and his throat felt tender, but beneath his fingertips the rune craft pulsed, slow and steady and thrumming. 

“I’m still surprised you came in here alone,” Gudao said. His voice bounced off the walls back at them, and he winced briefly.

Napoleon didn’t seem too bothered by the echo. “Damn straight, I did!” He said, cheerful. “It’s not like I was overly confident in my abilities or anything - I was mostly curious to see how far I could go. And it seems like we were right, she hasn’t changed this place at all. She doesn’t see me as a threat.” 

“It’s exactly the same?” Mash asked. She glanced up at the walls. 

“Yup,” Napoleon said. He closed his eyes and hummed, as if recalling a particularly difficult memory. Some part of CasCu wanted to scoff at the dramatics. “ Same walls, same alcoves, same lights, same presence of power. Absolutely nothing’s changed.”

“So you know what the magical signals up ahead are?” Mash asked.

Both Gudao and Napoleon froze. CasCu dragged his gaze from a complicated patch of rune craft and frowned. “I’m not sensing any traps,” he said. “What’s Ortinax picking up?”

Mash shifted from foot to foot, gripping her shield tight. “It’s the same signal as the ice beasts the giants had with them,” she said, in a tone that could nearly be apologetic. “I’m guessing that they’re new, then? Does this mean she sees us as enemies?”

“No,” Napoleon said. He shook his head, grinned. “If she believed that we were enemies, there would be more than mere ice beasties waiting for us. My guess is they’re just creatures that decided to make their home here. We’ll be able to take them out quickly enough.” He held out his arm, pointed his massive cannon down the hallway. 

Gudao tapped Napoleon’s cannon. “No artillery fire,” he reminded. “Mash, Scáthach , move out. CasCu, remain on trap duty, but support as needed. I want as little ruckus caused as possible, got it?”

Napoleon’s arm drooped. He sighed, a sound near too large for his body. “Fine, fine, private.”

“Hai, Master!” Mash said. 

She lifted her shield, then started forwards. Scáthach took the space right beside her, spears ready. CasCu tugged his hands away from the walls, and started after them. The flicker of runes was a constant mirage at the edges of his sight. Silver shone, twisting, turning. Isa. Opilian. No matter what Napoleon said, the ice beasts were probably Skadi’s. She was a hunter. A fondness for hunting animals wasn’t out of the question.

The passageway widened into a larger circle, with three hallways split out from it. Within the circle, the ice beast's home. There were scraps of fur and fabric that had been dragged into a rough nest. They’d been fed recently. Picked clean bones littered the floor. The white curved line of ribs, the broken shatters of snapped apart femurs . Their recent feeding was probably why they were just now waking up, grunting and growling as they emerged from their bed.

It was a creature Mash had faced before. CasCu’s mind spun, but he didn’t think he’d had the chance to face them yet. But they looked like things Skadi would have appreciated. Big and large and threatening, like a cross between saber toothed lions and wolves, sculpted out of ice. Proto would have liked fighting these.

“A hunting lesson it is,” Scáthach said. She stepped around Mash and spun her spears. “Are you ready to learn, Mash?”

Mash swallowed hard, then lifted her shield. Her face was set, her feet pressed hard against the ground. CasCu kept an eye on the pulse of magecraft beneath her stance. If that changed, went against them, he’d have to do something. But if Mash felt it, she didn’t show. She lifted her head, then nodded. “Hai!”

The beasts hadn’t waited for them to finish talking. The smallest too - young and lean looking, hungry - lunged before Mash got the words out. Mash was quick, though, her shield flashing out to block both of their lunges. There was a bang of ice against metal, and she shoved, sending them off their feet. The other three - all larger, older looking, with scratches along their icy flanks - were out of the nest and moving now. Scáthach darted around and met them face on. Her spear glanced off the flank of one, sending ice chips flickering through the air.

Beneath their feet, the power of the castle pulsed. CasCu planted his staff into the flagstones, closed his eyes. With his eyesight gone, the silver lines of the castle showed all the more strongly. The runes were pulsing, pulsing. Not attacking, just … watching. As if judging their abilities.

A test. She was testing them.

CasCu’s eyes snapped open. His hand reached out, flickered along the air, drawing gold lines of fire before him. Uraz, for power, strength, and courage. Tiwaz, victory and the warrior. The two runes burned across Mash and Scáthach ’s backs. The next time Mash blocked a beast, it shattered into shrapnel. She stumbled back in shock, her eyes wide.

Scáthach had to block the next blow coming for Mash. She danced between the beasts, her spears a flash of red in her grip. A stab, a shatter, one of the beasts scattered in chunks of ice against the ground. “You’ve gotten stronger, CasCu,” she noted, bored, spinning around another attack. 

“Had to at some point,” CasCu retorted. He flicked another series of runes out, and one of the beasts slammed into an invisible shield. “Mash,” he said, a gentle reminder, “you can’t phase out in the middle of a battle. Keep your head in the game.”

Mash blinked sharply, then nodded. “Hai!”

CasCu smiled to himself, watching as she turned back to the battle. With the runes in place, the rest of the beasts were swiftly destroyed. The last few echoes of the fight danced off the chambers and down the hallways. CasCu waited for a long moment for the reverberations to fade. The mana beneath their feet didn’t react. Skadi had yet to make her move.

“Gudao,” he sent back, “The way is clear.”

“Then we’re on our way,” Gudao returned.

Scáthach glanced down the hallway they had come from, then tapped her spear against the ground. Her eyes met Mash’s. It was a familiar look, one that CasCu was well-used to by now. “A challenge,” she said, her voice just a touch of amused. “The Goddess wants to know how strong we are, and how we deal with unexpected foes. She knows better than to underestimate us thanks to our fight with her Valkyries, but she is not so foolish as to leave this place unguarded - no matter what Napoleon may claim.”

“You speak like you know her,” Mash said.

CasCu’s lips twitched. He couldn’t keep quiet, not on this. “Perhaps she does,” he said, “ Scáthach had to learn Norse Runes from someone, and Skadi clearly knows them. But that would be in Proper Human History, not here. Things have probably changed.” Had definitely changed.

“Hai, but -” Mash chewed the corner of her lip, then pushed forwards. “Is there anything you can tell us about her? Anything that might be of some help -”

“You can’t be careful with a cannon,” Gudao sighed, the words bouncing off the walls before Scáthach could answer. Gudao and Napoleon entered the room, side by side. Gudao was wearing that expression again, the one he reserved for troublesome heroic spirits.

Napoleon, in contrast, almost looked like a kicked puppy. “No … no, I suppose you’re right,” he sighed. “I should have known from the minute I materialized with this giant cannon that I wasn’t really going to be great at covert ops.” 

Gudao’s expression said ‘no shit’, but he kindly kept those words to himself. CasCu fought the urge to laugh at the expression. Scáthach ’s showed no such restraint. Her lips twitched, eyes narrowing in mirth, before she took a step into Spirit Form and disappeared. A part of CasCu was tempted to follow after her, so he could laugh without the miniature emperor getting all huffy at their amusement. 

“Anyway,” Napoleon huffed, pointing his cannon down the rightmost hall. “We need to go down that way. It’ll lead us to a set of stairs that will take us to the throne room.”

“And Skadi will be waiting for us,” Mash said. Her fingers gripped around her shield, tight, biting into the metal. Gudao stepped up and set his hand on her shoulder. It was a small touch, immediately comforting, and Mash relaxed under his hand like melted butter.

Napoleon nodded sharply. “And probably that Sigurd guy too. We’re not here for a rematch, but we don’t have much of a choice. Will you be ready, private?” 

Gudao froze, brief. This time it was Mash who raised her hand and covered his own. For a moment, the two stood there, touching each other, drawing comfort in each other’s strength. A pang shot through CasCu, brief and liquid warm. Then Gudao turned to Napoleon. He lifted his head, and there was steel in his eyes, a determination that rested there, red-hot and burning. 

“We have no other choice,” he said, and started forwards down the hall.

 

Skadi’s castle did not stop being beautiful. The halls were made of crystal, and spun ice allowed silver sunlight to pour through the ceiling and send the whole place sparkling. Banners hung down the halls, each identical, the fabric decorated with stars and runes. It was different from what CasCu was expecting. Less rough, and more polished. But the castle wasn’t important, the design it held wasn’t important.

What was significant was that, with every step they took, the mana in the air only grew stronger. He could barely see the runecraft in the walls for the power that poured off it. Mash kept on running her hand along Ortinax, as if to check that it was working. She could tell too, that every step forwards brought them towards something they had never faced before. 

“Gudao,” she murmured, “I’m getting a powerful energy signal from everywhere. It’s as if the castle itself is emanating magical energy … I am not sure if I will be able to pick any enemies up.”

“That’s the queen's power,” Napoleon said. He pointed down the hall, towards two carved, double doors. Runes and Celtic knots decorated their surface, and a multifaceted star was emblazoned in the middle. Fainter, CasCu could see the shape of ice beasts, humans, and giants, and two circling ravens. “Past that,” Napoleon said, “is the throne room. We’re in the center of her power now. We might as well be in here.”

“Great,” Gudao murmured. He hesitated, then glanced back at CasCu. “I don’t think they’ll be any traps here,” he said, “and you look like you could use a break. Retreat to Spirit Form. If I need you, then I’ll call.”

CasCu frowned. He needed to go further, he needed to see what lay beyond those double doors. It was a drive he couldn’t name, a push forwards he had no words for. He had to step forwards. He had to keep going. “I’m fine.” 

Gudao glanced to him. “You’re crying.” 

CasCu blinked. “What?” 

“Your eye,” Mash said, her voice smaller. “It’s weeping. Hadn’t you noticed?” 

No, he hadn’t. CasCu reached up and scrubbed under his eye. His hand came back wet. Frowning, he scrubbed again. He was crying, his eye squinted up with a pain he didn’t fully feel. The lights of this place were too bright. The pain in his socket felt bone deep and right, so intrinsic to his own being that he had forgotten to make note of it. He pulled his hand back and stared at the gloss of tears over his fingers. “Huh.”

“You’ve had a rough day,” Gudao said, gently. “Sit back, CasCu, and breathe. We’ve got it from here.”

CasCu let his hands drop. “Alright,” he said, “but if Sigurd should pop up - I want a shot at him, Gudao. You can’t fucking take that away from me.” 

Their eyes met, and for a moment, CasCu thought Gudao wouldn’t agree. It burned at him, itched in his back. Sigurd, the man that was not Sigurd, needed to go down. For Kage. For Sherlock. For Gudao and their path forwards. The thing that wore Sigurd's face had to fucking go down, and CasCu wanted to be the one burying his staff in his chest when that happened. 

“Fine,” Gudao said, “but if I say pull back, then you pull back, got it? You agreed at the start of this that you wouldn’t let your anger get the best of you. Don’t break that now.” 

“I won’t,” CasCu said. He took to Spirit Form before Gudao could say anything else on top of it. The kid was right and CasCu knew it. Not-Sigurd was too much of a problem for them to run in, without a plan, their feelings driving their swings. But Kage’s life depended on that fucker’s death. CasCu wasn’t going to forget that.

“Your friends are full of fire, Private,” Napoleon said. He was grinning, as if CasCu’s anger, his determination, was particularly pleasing. “It’ll be needed ahead!” 

yeah,” Gudao said. He glanced at Mash, exchanged a nod, and then turned to the double doors. “Let’s do this.” 

Napoleon never had the chance to open the doors. They swung open wide at Gudao’s voice, as if they had been waiting for them to gather their never and enter. The doors did not open fast, a slow inwards crawl, and at first the room beyond was veiled in light, so sharp and bright that even in Spirit Form CasCu couldn’t make anything beyond it. 

“A god is eternal. A god is absolute.” 

The voice boomed around the hallway they were in, and made the doors shake and open faster. It was a woman’s voice, a low voice. Inhuman, giant, and full of power. With it, the banners on the walls fluttered. The very ice itself sung. It was a familiar voice, deep and full of confidence, of tranquil danger.

“In ancient times, humans saw gods in everything, but in my world, there is only one. If a god is everywhere, in all things, then so am I. If a god is death, if god is life, if god is power, then so am I. Fragments of Proper Human History, you who have never known god, I now give you a chance. Enter, and bow your heads before me, so that you may know god.”

“Confident,” Scáthach noted. 

CasCu’s step forwards froze, feet planted on the spot. Scáthach ’s voice echoed in his mind, and he felt stunned, smacked upon the head. Her voice - Skadi’s voice - the familiarity. The low confidence, the deep velvet of it. The doors to the throne room opened, and the light brightened, and cleared, and CasCu didn’t have to look because he knew what he would see, knew it from the pulsing pain in his eye, from the voice that had boomed those words across the ice and the same voice that had just spoken in his mind.

Skadi’s throne was a masterwork of shattered glass and sculpted figures. The skylight above her was formedsheets of white ice and sheets of black, and light bounced from the glittering chandelier and the blue dancing flames around the throne. But for all its magnificence, it was not the throne that drew attention. It was the woman who lounged in it with easy confidence, gold eyes watching them coldly.

Mash sucked in a sharp breath between her teeth. Gudao took a step back. “ Scáthach ?!”

“Is that what draws your attention?” Skadi asked, and laughed, a low, rolling thing. “My Crypter told me you were acquainted with Heroic Spirits from Proper Human History. I suppose you are right, to react that way, considering the Celtic warrior holds my essence - but I am not Scáthach . You will not find her here. I am Skadi, God of this land, and your lives exist through my power alone.” 

But she was not Skadi. Or she was - her mana signature was clearly Skadi. Yet her body was not. That was Scáthach ’s body, Scáthach ’s face. The shape of her eyes, the fall of her hair, the easy way she held herself - it was all so Scáthach , and hysterically CasCu thought about his brief, fleeting theory. The connection between Scáthach and Skadi. The idea of how Skadi had survived Ragnarök . How he had foolishly dismissed it -

“Well, interesting,” Scáthach said, her voice low and hungry.

A part of CasCu wanted to laugh, high and hysteric. Of course, she would find it interesting. Of course, she would look at this and find it amusing, an interesting facet to a fight, instead of the horror it actually was. 

Not everything was the same as the Scáthach he knew. The shape of her face, the line of her posture - those were the same, but there were differences too. CasCu had never seen Scáthach wear a dress, but Skadi did - this dark purple, blue, and silver thing with a collar of raven feathers around her neck. Skadi’s skin was paler than Scáthach’s, and had the translucent tint of ice. The red of Scáthach’s eyes had been replaced with divine gold. Her hair, too, was no longer the purple-maroon of normal. Now it was shot through with a dozen lighter highlights, darker blues and lighter pinks, giving it a colder appearance. But it was still too close to the same. It was still so fucking disorientating -

Skadi’s eyes narrowed at their lack of response. “Set the matter of this body aside, for it s original owner no longer requires it. It is your situation that I find interesting. You fought bravely within that hunk of metal called the Shadow Border, clashed repeatedly with my giants, rescued one of my humans, and slain my envoys. It has been a long time since heroes of such caliber have existed. For your bravery, and prowess in battle, I am willing to hear you out.” 

Mash’s eyes flickered to Gudao. CasCu could read her expression clearly. The relief in it, the trace of hope, the fear. Gudao stood there, shaking a moment, before he drew himself up. Perhaps Scáthach had said something, because he looked suddenly more defiant. More sure of himself. “Does that mean you’re willing to negotiate with us?” 

“I said as much, did I not?” Skadi asked, her eyes narrowing a fraction more.

“That’s real generous of you, Your Majesty,” Napoleon said. He stepped up beside Gudao, bumping shoulders with him briefly. He sent a small wink towards their Master’s way, then asked, “Does that mean we’re under your protection as well?”

Skadi’s narrowed eyes were replaced by a look of boredom. “I see it’s you, Nameless Archer. You are alive because I wish it so. Is that not enough of an answer for now?” 

Napoleon winced. “Damn, is my name really that hard to remember? I’m Napoleon Bonaparte . I used to be an Emperor, and now I’m a Hero of Humanity. I told you that before.”

“And I have no interest in your name, or your deeds. It is not the Spirits of Proper Human History that interest me, but the humans. You have come here for a reason, Master of Chaldea. Speak it now, or be evicted.” 

“I’ve come to recover Paper Moon .” 

Gudao’s words bounced off the crystal chandler, the icy halls. Skadi’s eyebrow rose, and Gudao swallowed. But he didn’t step back. He kept his chin up, his gaze level, and his fists unclenched by his side. “ Paper Moon was stolen by a Servant from this Lostbelt, who goes by the name of Sigurd. We have also come to discover the location of your Tree of Emptiness. Your help in either of these tasks would be greatly appreciated, your majesty.”

Silence.

CasCu swore the temperature in the palace dropped a by an increment. The light that built the palace - the power of Skadi’s magecraft - increased briefly, flashed silver. CasCu blinked spots from his vision, another stream of phantom tears from his eyes. The smile Skadi wore was sharp and amused.

She straightened on her throne. No longer did she lounge like a bored predator. She sat straight now, elegant and poised, like a wolf about to lunge. “I will not disclose the location to the Tree of Emptiness,” s he said, “and I suggest you do not pursue it further. As for the Paper Moon , you are free to do with it as you will. Of course, I imagine its current owners may have something to say about that.” 

Napoleon laughed. It was a brief thing, loud and wild. He hoisted his cannon up a tad higher. “So that’s it, huh? You want us to put on a little show and fight for it, do you?” 

Skadi’s smile was urbane as ice. “A lovely little idea, and I’ll entertain it for a later date. But no, I had a different idea in mind. Thrud, capture them.”

Thrud. 

The name felt like a hammer, slamming down from the sky. Like the fracture of ice and snow and wind and the very truth of the world. Thrud. CasCu might have been in Spirit Form, but he felt the impact of that name, rattling him to his very bones. Worse than Skadi. Worse than the sun and Huginn and Muninn. His stance felt unsteady, mind fetching back, to memories of- of- of-

Finscoth?

No-

Something landed on the ground, and CasCu realized the crash and shatter of ice had been very real. The crash had caused Napoleon and Mash to yank Gudao out of the radius of shattered ice. Skadi sat on her throne, unconcerned, and with a wave of her hand the ice fragments shot up to reform the ceiling, as if the break in had never occurred. But it had occurred. And CasCu could do nothing but stare at the woman, the Valkyrie that hovered above the floor.

She was a cut above the Valkyries in the village. That was clear from her unhooded face, to the way power radiated off her in beams of warm light. Her armor was golden instead of silver, imprinted with filigree, and the same could be said of her shield. The face that shone down at them carried none of the impartiality the other Valkyrie had. She held her weapons openly, and at the ready. Wings sprouted from each side of her head, the same color as her dancing hair. And her eyes were blazing, blazing red, with pupils of bright gold.

CasCu had seen that face before. His eye socket ached with the knowledge. He’d seen that face before. Or he saw another, imposed on top of it. Finscoth’s bright red eyes, her hair brown and red and gold, her face set in a ferocious scowl. And then he blinked , and the image was gone, and it was Thrud again. Just Thrud.

His mind felt muddled. He couldn’t think. Couldn’t move. 

“Command received, Skadi,” Thrud said, “What shall I do if the targets resist?”

“Kill the Spirits if you need too,” Skadi said. She eased back into her chair, and set her cheek on her hands, watching lazily. “But the humans keep alive. This will be their test of valor. I want to see how well they’ll fare.”

“As you wish,” Thrud said.

She moved. Only, CasCu didn’t register her movement as a movement, but simply a clash of weapon against weapon. Thrud’s speed was greater than the Valkyries they had faced before, her strength stronger. Strong enough that her strike sent Mash flying off her feet, her shield thrown to the side by Thrud’s first attack. The Valkyrie followed up, a blaze of white light, her spear raised -

“Napoleon, now!”

CasCu nearly missed Gudao’s voice. The roar of Napoleon’s cannon was loud enough to send ice raining from the ceiling. Thrud twisted in midair, golden shield slamming down before the cannon blow. There was a flash, a bang, and when the smoke cleared, Thrud hovered close to the wall, her eyes faintly narrowed. “Your attack is powerful, but insufficient to break my shield.”

“Oh la la,” Napoleon laughed, holding his cannon up a bit higher. “Your shield’s something else. Was that made in the Age of Gods? Don’t tell me Odin himself forged it!”

“You have a keen eye,” Thrud said. Something like a small smile flickered across her lips. “My divine iron shield was indeed forged before Ragnarök, and bestowed upon me by Odin. It will not break, no matter what strange firearm you wield against it.”

“Oh, my weapon here?” Napoleon laughed, patted its side. “It’s called a cannon! Don’t you forget it.” And with that said, he fired.

Thrud’s eyes flashed. “Designation: Cannon.” She noted, then blocked again. This time, the cannonball was deflected into the castle walls. More ice rained down from the sky, cracks littered the walls, and Skadi watched it all with a small, amused, bloodthirsty smile. 

Gudao had run to Mash’s side. He helped her up to her feet, flares of mana healing away the small wounds across her arms and shoulders. “Are you okay?”

“Hai!” Mash panted. But she lifted her chin, the set of her face determined. “She’s very strong. I am adjusting Ortinax’s output. Auto-Maintenance function activated. I’m ready now, Master.” 

Gudao nodded, then stood. “Go, defend Napoleon from her attacks. Alter, come out. I know you’ve been hungering for a fight.”

Alter came out in a wash of sparks, growling low, tail lashing. As if she sensed his appearance, Thrud spun on a dime and threw her golden spear. There was something familiar in its shape, the form of it, like liquid light as it rippled through the air. Mash met it head on, shield turned just so to deflect its arc into the floor. This time she wasn’t blown off her feet. This time, she held her ground as Alter lunged around her and hurtled towards Thrud. 

Thrud held her hand out, and the spear flashed back to her grip. She deflected another cannonball from Napoleon without even looking. The room shook at its impact. The recently shattered chandelier rained down a few more ice fractals as Alter and Mash converged on the Valkyrie. Yet Thrud held her own, spinning and danging between them and Napoleon’s own blows.

“You keep yourselves together well, Proper Human History.” Skadi said, “But if you are to be summoning secondary fighters, then so will I.”

She waved her hand, and the floor cracked open. The fighters broke apart, and Thrud flew up, hair streaming behind her. Increment by increment, a cage rose out of the ground, built of thick ice. There was a being within it, chained, constrained. Like the Joutun and the Bergasi, it was a giant. But this one’s skin was made of cracked lava, its face covered in a shining golden disk. Its weapon was strapped to the top of the cage - a massive, triangular like blade with glowing, fiery runes.

“Great,” Gudao breathed.

“Quasi-link to Muspel established,” Thrud said. Her eyes flashed, and the mask began to glow. Skadi waved her hand again, and the icy cage shattered. The giant grabbed its weapon, and lunged towards the small group of Servants. 

“Shall I engage, Master?” Tesla asked. CasCu could hear the note of tension in his voice.

“No,” Gudao said. He bit his thumb and frowned, watching Alter meet the giant head on. There was the clash of weapons, the spurt of blood. Thrud attacked, only for Mash to block it. Napoleon readied his cannon again and shot, this time into the Muspel. The giant barely staggered at the impact. “If we add another Servant, Skadi will just add another Giant. CasCu, is there anything you can tell me about this guy?”

CasCu yanked his gaze away from the fight. His eye socket throbbed, and the information came easily - far too easily. The Throne, probably, messing with his innate knowledge. CasCu shoved away the confusion and reported, “Muspel’s are flame giants, and live within the realm of Muspelheim. They’re the most powerful race of giants. Surtr, the one that burned the world during Ragnarök , was essentially their king.”

“Got it,” Gudao said. He grinned then, suddenly. “Mash, Napoleon, I want you to focus all your attention on Thrud! She’s the one that will take us out if we get distracted. Alter, here’s an opponent finally worth your spear.”

Gods, it was easy to forget sometimes how effective Gudao was at his job. Making split second decisions, analyzing the flow of battle, determining what words would encourage his Servants to do their most. And those were the words that would goad Alter into giving it all. Alter’s curses might have sapped the care he had about everything, but a part of him was still Cu Chullainn, and at the heart of it Cu Chulainn would always hunger for a proper battle. CasCu knew it too. He felt that urge himself. 

Alter roared as Currid’s curse took him over. The curse marks painted across his chest glowed vivid red. His skin darkened as the black, chitinous armor began to push out of it, his head transforming and shaping into that of the beast whose bones had donated their spear. He would pay for it later, in aches and pains and a flair of his curses, but right now Alter was a savage beast born from a sea monster, and he tore into the muspel with a ferocity it had obviously not been expecting. 

Somehow, the damage the Giant was taking transferred over to Thrud. She flinched briefly. Napoleon’s next cannon shot punched through her defenses. It sent her spinning through the air to slam into the wall with a gasp of pain. Her eyes flared, the glow cut out, and then with a growl she used the wall to rocket towards them. Mash met her, shield first. The resulting blast of light sent all parties scattering. When it died down, Alter’s monstrous maw was closed around the muspel’s neck. He ripped, blood sprayed.

“One down,” Mash panted out. She raised her shield again. “Energy remaining stable. I never thought there would be so many enemies on par with Sigurd here before.”

A pause. Silent, lingering, beyond the sound of everyone’s exhausted breaths.

“My, my, my,” Skadi said, “I would expect someone as traveled as you, shield maiden, to know better than to speak those words. Names have power, after all. Now, the one who fills you with such dread approaches. He would have stayed to the shadows, if you’d kept silent.”

Gudao and Mash froze. CasCu could feel it too. The sudden heavy presence, palpable despite Skadi’s power. CasCu’s anger surged, sudden and fast, hot in the center of his chest. He turned - the all turned - to the double doors as they cracked open. And there, his blade strapped across his back, eyes glowing red from within his mask. 

“Sigurd,” Gudao breathed, fingers clenching.

“Oh, now I see,” Napoleon said. He fell into stance again, his cannon aimed at Sigurd. “This one’s tough, just as the shield mademoiselle described! I’m getting goosebumps. But I’m afraid that’s where it stops. That isn’t enough to trade my cannon for a white flag … and I’m getting curious as to how much gunpowder it takes to break through the Spirit Origin of such a great hero!”

Thrud’s light flared. She floated up a few more feet off the ground, her expression twisting towards disgust slightly. “Why are you here, child of Barnstokker? Do you mean to interfere with my task?”

Sigurd - the one that was not Sigurd - grunted. He glanced around briefly, as if to take in the battlefield with derision, before speaking. “Don’t worry,” he said, “I hear I’m supposed to be a knight now, so I’m just here in case her Majesty needs me, like my princess told me to be. Those Chaldeans? Well, here they are, just like Her Majesty said. What do you want to do with them, Ophelia ? If you want them dead, I can kill them right now.”

It was almost laughable, watching this man that wore Sigurd's skin talk about knighthood and following the orders of a princess. CasCu’s fingers curled into fists, nails biting into his palms. He pressed his feet against the ice. Nothing. No earthen beat, no mana he could tap into. All he could do until Gudao gave the go ahead was sneer.

“Quiet, Saber,” said another voice. Softer, lower, and measured. A woman stepped out from behind Not-Sigurd, and looked up. “Your majesty, would you be so kind as to have Thrud stand down? I wish to speak to that young woman.”

Mash made a small noise between her teeth. “ Ophelia …”

So this was Ophelia , one of the mages that had belonged to team A, one of the mages that had betrayed the world by turning crypter. She cut a less imposing figure than what CasCu had been expecting. Her hair was mousy brown, cut to hide one eye, and fell past her shoulders. She wore a simple suit, dark and professional. Only one eye showed, a soft crystal blue. The other was hidden beneath her hair and an eye patch .

A mystic eye, some part of CasCu whispered. He’d bet money on it.

Skadi leaned against her chair again, posture going back to ‘bored’. “Granted. Thrud, stand down.” 

Thrud made a sharp noise between her teeth, then flew higher. “As you wish.”

Ophelia nodded once, then took another step forwards, past Not-Sigurd. She seemed at a loss for words, for a moment, before she found them again. “Mash Kyrielight,” she said. “It’s been a while since we’ve spoken. Two years, if I’m not mistaken?”

Mash took a small step towards Gudao. He reached out, set his hand on her shoulder, and gave a small squeeze. Mash took in a deep breath, then nodded. “Hai, it’s been a long time, Ophelia . I have been wanting to talk to you again too. I wanted to tell you everything that happened in Chaldea, about our journey to restore humanity. I wanted to tell you about who I was now, and who I was then, and ask about the name ‘crypter’. I’ve been to so many places, learned from so many people. I’ve learned about people. About good and evil, and how people retain their humanity in difficult times …”

She trailed off a moment, then drew in a deep breath, pulled her head up. Her eyes blazed, suddenly bright with fire. “Back then, I never got to know you as a team. I never really got to talk to you properly! So, I wanted to talk to you all properly now. I want to find out if there was meaning to the time I spent with you!”

Oh. 

That was right.

CasCu forgot, sometimes, that Mash was initially a part of team A. That the people they were facing, their enemies set out to destroy the world, were the people she should have worked with. And yet here Mash stood, stubbornly defiant despite it. A burble of pride rose through the anger, then burst like a warm bubble. 

Ophelia smiled, this small, faint thing. “I see … I am glad to hear that, Mash. You really are earnest, aren’t you?” Her face grew harder, sterner. “But I am afraid we won’t be able to do that. This is where your journey ends.”

Mash took a reflexive step back. Her face twisted. “But -”

“You’ve seen many things I don’t know about,” Ophelia said, cutting over her, “and been to worlds I’ll never visit. I would love to listen to it all. I do wish we could sit down and have a nice talk, I’ve wished that ever since we first met, and now that you’ve grown … I think we could have a good discussion.”

Was it CasCu’s imagination? Or had Not-Sigurd moved minutely towards Ophelia , angling his body towards hers?

Ophelia took in a deep breath, then met Mash, and then Gudao in the eyes. “But that doesn’t matter. I am not going to change. I can’t. I am a Crypter now, with all the responsibility that entails.”

“Even if that means resetting the planet?” Mash asked, her voice small. “Even if it means forsaking our own history? Our own world?”

Not-Sigurd made another small, incremental shift towards Ophelia . She didn’t need it. Her shoulders pulled back; she tipped her head up. “What if it does? That’s who the Crypter’s are. That’s who I am, under Lord Kirschtaria Wodime's guidance.” She gave a small laugh, soft, lacking amusement. “It’s strange, isn’t it Mash? You were originally supposed to come with us. Now you are a Demi-Servant, and our enemy. I’m not sure if this is irony, or fate.”

Mash took a breath. She glanced at Gudao, and Gudao nodded, one of those moments of silent communication that defined them. This was Mash’s moment, Mash’s battle, Mash’s conversation. Gudao would not step in. So Mash stepped forwards, and she stepped up. “I don’t think of myself as your enemy. I would like to resolve our differences peacefully, if we can. Is that not the case for you too, Ophelia ?”

This time, Ophelia took a step back. Her shoulder bumped into Not-Sigurd’s. Her expression shifted, slight. “I -”

A bang, the clatter of metal against ice. Heads turned. Napoleon stood - figuratively - tall. His gaze was focused on Ophelia , though his words were directed towards Mash. “Go easy on the girl, Mademoiselle Mash. She won’t be able to take it if you push her too hard.”

Gudao frowned. His eyes flickered between Napoleon and Ophelia. “Wait. Do you two know each other?”

“Well, this is the second time we’ve met.” Napoleon said. He seemed very proud of himself, a smile curling across his lips. “We first met when I broke into the castle. In fact, let me be frank. Mademoiselle Ophelia Phamrsolone isn’t just beautiful. She’s also my fiancé !” 

A moment of silence, as the words resounded around the hall. Skadi straightened, as if suddenly interested in the conversation. Ophelia’s face fell into something that approximated careful neutrality. Behind Ophelia, Not-Sigurd bristled. CasCu felt the energy in the air tick up, threatening. “ Fiancé ?!” Mash repeated, her eyes blown open in surprise.

“Let me find my jaw,” Gudao said, his voice dripping towards dry, “I think I dropped it somewhere.” 

Mash reached out to grab his hand, stabilizing herself. “I am trying and failing to imagine Ophelia … and Napoleon Bonaparte, the Heroic Spirit … married …” Her head jerked around, “B-Besides, aren’t you already married? Oh - but you divorced your first wife, and went on to marry an archduchess - but-there are some Heroic Spirits who believe they’ve made a clean break to their past when they materialize, so - but Ophelia, a -”

“I’m not,” Ophelia said, flat, cutting Mash’s babblings. CasCu was thankful. He’d never heard Mash babble so much before. It was almost embarrassing, and certainly would be for Mash later, when Gudao eventually teased her about it.

But for now, Mash stared at her, gaping, “You’re not?”

“Of course not,” Ophelia said. She stood there, rigid, her voice utterly collected. Not-Sigurd was more imposing, bristling right behind her. At some point he’d reached up, and his hand had wrapped around the handle of his sword. CasCu called his staff to himself, pressed his fingers against the grains of wood. 

“I’m one of the seven chosen Crypter’s. Such trivialities are rather unimportant now,” Ophelia continued, “Besides, Mash, you said it yourself. The world we grew up in has been completely wiped clean. Engagement? Ridiculous. Marriage, family, every institution of human society is gone. All that remains now is the new worlds in each Lostbelt, with new societies and new norms to guide humanity. Take a look at Scandinavia! The very idea of marriage doesn’t even exist-”

“I proposed to you!” Napoleon roared. “You didn’t say no!” 

Mash gasped. “So you ARE engaged!” 

CasCu wondered at what point this conversation had turned into a soap opera. Mash, Napoleon, and Ophelia seemed to have completely forgotten the situation. Gudao was splitting his attention between them, and Not-Sigurd, whose aura was growing blacker and blacker with each word traded. Alter stood there, waiting in the wings, rumbling. Thrud hovered, and her gaze kept on flicking to Skadi, as if expecting the goddess to interfere. 

CasCu didn’t think Skadi would interfere. She looked like she was having too much fun watching the proceedings. A part of CasCu wasn’t surprised. Skadi had always liked a good show.

“Listen, Ophelia,” Napoleon continued, “Not saying no outright to a proposal is like saying yes. Don’t go all Tallyhand on me now.”

“That’s not how consent works,” Gudao said.

Napoleon ignored him. “I want you to be my beloved Joséphine!” He winced right after the words. “No, scratch that, that’s an awful thing to say. I want you to take your place beside Joséphine in my heart.” 

That. Was actually a damn romantic thing to say. In another situation, CasCu might have applauded. Mash certainly seemed to think so, her expression softening as she turned to Ophelia. “You really didn’t turn him down?”

This time, Ophelia’s calm appearance seemed ruffled. She stuttered once, then caught herself again. “B-Because the very idea was preposterous! It was so stupid, it didn’t even merit a response! Regardless of your absurd claims, my silence in no way indicates an affirmative answer!”

“That’s alright,” Napoleon said. He placed his hand over his heart, and said, “because I feel in love with you.”

Ophelia took a step back, one visible eye slightly wider than previously. Her shoulder bumped against Not-Sigurd, and he let out a small sound, barely heard. It sounded like a growl. Like the faint rumble of thunder.

“Yeah, that’s right. I’m in love with you!” Napoleon looked Ophelia in the eye, and smiled. “Are you convinced now? Ma chérie, Ophelia Phamrsolone?”

“Oh shit,” Gudao breathed, “you’re actually serious.”

“Of course I’m serious,” Napoleon said, and this time, he actually sounded it. His voice was softer, more earnest. “She’s one of my main motivations. If a woman I’m in love with is here, I can’t just sit back and do nothing, can I?”

Ophelia actually looked flustered. CasCu didn’t blame her one bit. Hell, he probably would have been flustered, if the situations had been reversed. It was that kind of sappy, romantic shit that would have sent Kage red in the face and stuttering even if he didn’t have any feelings.

“Y-your words,” Ophelia said, trying to catch her feet, “Ring as hollow now as they did back then. I can’t stand to listen to them any longer. Why would you even think to propose to someone you’d only just met?”

Napoleon looked vaguely affronted. “Haven’t you heard of love at first sight?!”

“He just fumbled,” Scáthach noted. CasCu sent her the mental equivalent of a nod. There were types of love at first sight, that he fully believed in. And if you were young enough, and full of hormones and adrenaline, then one of those types might be enough to make you want to propose. But the love needed to survive a marriage required more than a pretty face and a brief meeting to last. And it seemed that Ophelia knew it too.

Ophelia’s face with through many incremental shifts. Then she straightened. Her expression hardened. “I have neither time nor patience for jokes,” Ophelia said, her voice cold. “Any Heroic Spirit fighting for humanity is our enemy. Your Majesty, will you grant me permission to stain his castle with his filthy blood?”

Skadi tilted her head, briefly. Everyone turned to look at her, waiting. When she spoke, it was low, and amused. “No. I see no reason why you cannot entertain his request. If he is not a satisfactory husband, then you can always divorce him, or kill him later. In fact, he has so amused me with his blatant declarations of love, that I wish to test his metal. You will capture him without killing him, Ophelia.”

Well.

That wasn’t quite what CasCu had expected. 

Ophelia’s lips pressed together, brief, before she nodded. “As you wish, my queen. You heard her, Saber. Neutralize them. No killing. And make extra sure you don’t kill Mash Kyrielight, even by accident.”

“Got it,” Not-Sigurd said. He stepped past Ophelia, and drew Gram. The blade’s glow flickered. In spirit form, it almost looked blue. It was supposed to be blue, instead of the red CasCu knew it’s current hue was. “Precision work isn’t exactly my specialty, but if that’s my order, then fine. So I just have to not kill the shield girl, right?” 

“I meant what I said,” Ophelia said.

Skadi laughed, brief, and shook her head. “Such a stubborn girl.” But she didn’t sound displeased by the fact, just amused.

Gudao half turned. He glanced to Skadi, and asked, “For this fight, am I allowed to summon more of my Servants? Or will you add more giants to the fight if I do?” 

“This is not my fight,” Skadi said. “The matter of the Paper Moon is between your two groups. Summon who you will.” 

Gudao turned. “Tesla, CasCu, come out. Mash, are you ready?” 

She didn’t look ready. Her face was pale, and she gripped tight to her shield. But her chin lifted, and her voice was even. “Ortinax output is stable. This battle won’t turn out like the last one, Master!” 

“Don’t worry,” Napoleon said. He readied his cannon, held it up, pointed at Sigurd. “I might have stirred this pot, but I’ll make damn sure you two make it out alive! Time to undo some damage I just did to my reputation, here!” 

CasCu tuned him out. He stepped out of Spirit Form, onto the pulsing floor of Skadi’s castle. He could feel the sudden influx of her attention on his back. He ignored it, and fell into stance, fingers gripped tight around his staff, dug into the wood. For all Skadi’s castle was a silver glow he couldn’t ignore, he could still feel Not-Sigurd’s presence. Overwhelming. Overpowering. CasCu could see the runes writ across that cursed blade, and felt his blood boil.

Kaunan: fire, transformation, death. Halgaz: radical change, loss. 

The runes that had struck down Kage.

“This won’t take long,” Not-Sigurd said, his voice full of dry confidence. And before the words had filtered through the air, he was moving. Tesla’s blast of lightning shot straight through his after image. Mash’s shield slammed down before Napoleon. There was the clang of metal as Not-Sigurd’s short sword crashed down upon her shield, split, and then shot off around her guard towards Napoleon’s back. Napoleon spun around and blasted the blades away with a cannon shot. Not-Sigurd twisted just in time to block a monstrous strike from Alter with Gram, blades jarring, ringing.

CasCu didn’t bother to join the fight. It was too cluttered, and his fired runes wouldn’t work in such a melee. He focused instead on the damn splitting short sword, the way the shards would spin around like knives, blocking blades and dodging cannon blasts, attempting to find chinks in their armor. A few rocketed towards Tesla, forcing the Archer to stay on the defense. A few more raced towards CasCu, but he just poured mana into his Protection from Projectiles, and watched as those shards bounced away from him. His fingers and lips moved, lighting gold through the air.

Isa, ice, stillness. A risky choice with Skadi right there, but he doubted she would interfere. Raido, for travel. “Ansuz,” he breathed, two tie the two runes together and grant them greater strength.

Ice fractured through the air, sounding with sharp cracks. The swirling fractures of Not-Sigurd’s short sword froze in midair , their movement stalled. It was unexpected, obviously. Not-Sigurd actually paused, as if he hadn’t thought it was possible, None of them were foolish enough to let such an opportunity to waste. Napoleon twisted around Mash’s shield and shot Not-Sigurd, point-blank in the face. 

A bang, a flash, Not-Sigurd was sent stumbling back across the ground. Lightning rushed from Tesla’s position and grounded itself in Not-Sigurd’s body, the same time a stream of fire lit from CasCu’s fingers engulfed him. CasCu watched the bastard burn with bared teeth. Alter was closing in, swift. He jumped, his spear falling down upon Not-Sigurd’s head -

Gram lashed out. They were lucky. The blade didn’t hit Alter, but that long, long pommel sure did. CasCu heard the ribs crack, heard the grunt of breath. The power of Not-Sigurd’s strike sent Alter across the room and straight into the wall. The foundations cracked. Rumble fell. Alter was buried in a pile of ice. He wasn’t moving. 

The lightning cut out. The flames died down. CasCu didn’t waist time seeing if Not-Sigurd still stood. He knew what he would see. Instead, he grit hit teeth, yanked his gaze away from the battle, and lunged across the battlefield. He wasn’t going to fucking lose another. He fucking wasn’t.

He could hear Sigurd’s laughter, as he darted across the battlefield and fell at the pile of icy rubble. It was an insane sound, skipping and amused. “It seems like you can finally fight back a little! Good! This would have been boring otherwise. Ophelia, release one of my limiters.”

Shit. CasCu grit his teeth and grabbed at icy chunks, dragging them off Alter’s body until he could see an arm. CasCu pressed his fingers against Alter’s wrist, counted the heartbeats. Alive, but sluggish. He’d probably lost his rage. CasCu swore, then started laying rune after rune across Alter’s available flesh, using Sowilo as his base.

“Very well,” Ophelia said. “Forced Spirit Origin Ascension limiter released. Destroy all who would stand in our way, my knight.” 

“Phase two limiter released,” Not-Sigurd said. His voice seemed deeper, threaded through with a growl. “Authorization granted to Heroic Spirit Sigurd for full employment of the demonic sword Gram. Now then, how shall I kill you? Who should I kill first? HA! That’s a given. I’ll start with you, lover boy. Maybe that will shut you up.” 

CasCu could feel it, in the air, the increase in energy, palpable and hot. It was hard to breathe, hard to focus. Sweat beaded across his brow and dripped off his nose to plop onto Alter’s arm. He poured more mana into the runes. Come on, come on. Alter hadn’t been struck with the blade. He’d heal. He’d fucking heal. 

“I’m sorry about this.” 

Ophelia’s voice was cold. CasCu blinked sweat from his eyes. Shit. He’d lost time. How much? He could feel Alter’s heartbeat beneath his fingers. It was stronger. The runes were taking effect

“Phenomena, schufen auf.” Ophelia said. The words to a spell. CasCu’s eye ached, and he knew that she was using her mystic eye, knew that - shit. “That armor of yours is impressive. Ich will es niemals glänzen sehen.”

Metal broke. CasCu cursed, spinning around in time to see Mash buckle, before he could call out warning. The metal of Ortinax was starting to warp, to rust. And Ophelia Phamrsolone’s hidden eye was uncovered, glowing silver and red. She took a step forwards, and Mash fell to one knee with a cry.

“My Mystic eye’s rank is jewel,” Ophelia said, “Once I have decided I don't want to see something shine, it will never shine in front of me. I never showed this to you before, did I? Well, now you know: This is what I can do if I feel like it. I’m sorry Mash, but you will sit this one out.” 

CasCu swore again, he leaned forwards, froze, turned back to stare at Alter’s buried form. The runes were still at work. He couldn’t fucking leave Alter to focus on the fight, or he’d die. But Mash needed his support - 

Alter’s hand wrapped tight around his wrist. “Go.” 

The word was a gritted out, bloody thing. The pile of rubble shifted, then stilled. CasCu felt his gut drop. “You’re -”

“I’ll get to Gudao. Mash isn’t going to stand down. She needs you more than I do. GO!” 

One didn’t argue with Alter when he spoke like that. Edge was going to kill CasCu, later, for leaving Alter such a wreck. But Kage would kill CasCu if Mash or Gudao got hurt. CasCu gritted his teeth until they hurt, yanked his hand from Alter’s grip, turned, and ran. 

Not-Sigurd’s released limits had caused a change in his physical appearance. He had more armor, now, and there was an increased number of spikes and blades coming off of it. The lower half of his face was still covered by that mask, but the upper half was free, giving sight of red eyes half hidden behind glasses. Silver and black hair spilled over his forehead. There was something familiar about it, something that struck a chord deep in CasCu - but he pushed past it. Not-Sigurd was lunging forwards, and Napoleon was racing to meet him, cannon held up as a shield instead of a weapon.

Mash stood behind them, buckled under the pressure targeting Ortinax. There were cracks across her armor. Her face was a twisted mask of strain. Yet she gritted her teeth, tried to stand. “I can’t-” she panted, breathless, “I can’t back down - I can still fight! I have to still fight!” 

“Don’t over do it, Mash!” Gudao called. Alter had managed to get free of the rubble, and was limping his way towards their Master. That left Tesla and Napoleon against Not-Sigurd. Class advantage. But a class advantage hadn’t helped Kage.

“I can’t run away from him again!” Mash cried out. 

“And you won’t.” CasCu said. He fell to her side, one hand on her shoulder, the other tracing runes against her back. “Breathe, calm down. Give me a few moments , and I’ll get you back up into running order. Okay?” 

Beneath his fingers, Mash’s back rose with her sharp inhale. “Hai!”

The sounds of the fight continued. The clash of weapons, the bang of thunder. It didn’t sound like Alter had rejoined. CasCu wasn’t sure Alter would be in the shape to rejoin. He shoved all thoughts and sounds from his head and focused on Mash’s breathing. The rise and fall of her chest, the creaking and groaning of Ortinax. The heavy pressure of Ophelia ’s Mystic Eye. His own eye ached, the world bathed in silver. It felt like something constrained his breath.

Gold flowed from CasCu’s fingers like ink from a pen. Uraz, for power, strength, and endurance. Thurisaz, for strength, defense, and protection. Iwaz, for stability, reliability, resilience, and longevity. Algiz: divine protection, courage. Asuz, Odin, to tie it all together. Nine rings of these runes, one after another, until Mash’s back was patterned with them, until she could breathe without laboring.

CasCu was the one having a hard time breathing now. He pressed his hand against the ice and sucked in a sharp breath. His head swam. Too many runes, too much mana spent too quickly. The sun wasn’t reaching him in here. He pushed past it all and looked up at Mash. “How does that feel?” 

“Better,” Mash said. She pushed herself to her feet, lifted her shield. “I can fight now. Thank you, CasCu.”

“Welcome,” CasCu choked out. He spat onto the ice, and rubbed at his throat, wheezing.

A whumph of air. From the corner of his eye, he caught Napoleon flying back, his cannon flying in the opposite direction, Not- Sigurd right after him, fire blazing in his eyes. “If you’re going to prattle on about love,” he growled, “then you’d better make sure you’re good enough to back it up.” Gram raised, came down.

It bounced off Mash’s shield with an audible bang. Mash’s legs buckled, then she pushed up and pushed back. Sigurd went skidding. The runes across Mash’s back glowed brighter, and CasCu could feel the enchantment draining more mana from him. Of course, it was. It was powered in part by Mash’s own courage, but something this complicated needed more than that. CasCu gagged on nothing, fingers scrapping against his neck. Gods, why couldn’t he get any fucking breath -

Sigurd growled, low and thundering. “And you - Ophelia doesn’t want you dead, Demi-Servant. Get out of the way before I make a mistake.” 

“No!” Mash cried out. She blocked another one of his attacks, limbs shaking, the runes glowing brighter. “I’m not running away from you again!” 

“Stop.” 

Everyone stopped.

It wasn’t even that everyone quieted. It was simply that Skadi’s voice had frozen them in place. CasCu himself froze mid-scramble , mid gasping breath. The power in the castle, beneath his feet, rose a notch. Before tear-glazed eyes, he watched as the Isa rune that formed the base of this home began to burn blue-gold. Skadi’s power. Skadi’s influence. Skadi’s command, freezing them all mid-fight .

Skadi had stood. She was taller than Scáthach was, a stupid detail CasCu couldn’t help but note. Her voice was just touched with frosty - something. He couldn’t tell. He needed more air. “That was an impressive fight, everyone, but it is time for the curtains to close. Ophelia, stand down. At this moment, you do not have the power to stop Mash from fighting, unless you commit to hurting her. Permanently.” 

Ophelia’s face twisted. For a moment, she almost looked regretful. Then she hardened into cool neutrality once more. “As you wish, your Majesty. Saber?”

Not-Sigurd growled. He pulled Gram from Mash’s shield, took a step away. “I’m warning you: next time, I won’t hold back.”

“Not necessary,” Skadi said, “for I shall finish this myself.” 

CasCu’s gut dropped. Ophelia and Not-Sigurd could move, but no one else could. They had been frozen to the spot. Immobile . Helpless. At this moment , this span of breath, they were completely in Skadi’s power. She could do whatever she wanted , and they wouldn’t be able to stop her.

“I will admit to being disappointed, People of Proper Human History.” Skadi said, “I was expecting more, after being told how you destroyed the King that ruled the Russian Lostbelt, but it seems you are not quite up to the task of killing a god. You cannot even fight the runes bestowed to me by the All father himself. You are helpless. You are no threat. Bow down and rejoice, for I have determined that today you will live. Know your place within my dungeon, and get used to the snow and ice. It will be all you will ever know from now on.” 

And with a crack, earsplitting, the floor beneath them broke apart, and they all toppled into the black abyss.

Notes:

Skadi’s finally here!

To be honest I really enjoyed writing my interpretation of her, even though - plot wise - the consequences of her words stay roughly the same. Character design wise, I did want her first ascension to stay roughly the same, though I did want to put more work into why an actual goddess would be using someone as a vessel more than the excuses the game used. However, ascensions two and three are pretty different. Ascension two is more of a ceremonial battle dress, while Ascension three is kind of the ‘gloves off, ima kick your ass no ceremony’ armor. She also progressively appears more jotun in each ascension.

As for her characterization - she’s a bit difficult to pin down lol. On the surface, Skadi is a goddess of snow and ice, but she’s also considered a goddess of hunting, so therefore has warrior aspects. Fun fact, she also invented skis! She’s of jotun decent, and joined the Asgardians via her marriage to Njord, norse god of the sea. It’s this marriage that I was looking at in particular for Skadi’s response to Ophelia’s situation with Napoleon. I feel like Skadi treats marriage less as a union of love, but more as a political union (hers to Njord was done as an apology for the gods killing her father, essentially. I don’t want to get into too many details because I want to hit this story in story). To her, you learn who your partner is during the process of the marriage. If it doesn’t work out, then you dump them, which is what happened to her and Njord.

Essentially Skadi is the type of person who skips the dating stage, tries out marriage for a bit, then divorces them and moves onto the next. I also figure she’s the type of person to push that mentality onto others. And yes, I know the game tries to say that the Njord story never happened in this Skandinavia, BUT the Njord story is why Skadi is even counted among the norse gods, so for her to be a goddess instead of a normal giant, it would have had to happen. So, I’m calling the shots that it happened.

And FINALLY some notes (brief) about Thrud and the Finscoth connection. I feel like Odin would be closer to Brynhildr as his ‘first created’, and since Thrud and her two sisters were made after Brynhildr, they have second child treatment asdkjfh he cares less about the copies he used them as a basis for, though. CasCu, however, cannot understand that mindset, so his brain takes ‘Odin’s daughters’ literally and draws that Finscoth connection to it.

Chapter 7: Chapter 7

Summary:

The cold depths of Skadi's castle holds surprises ... also Loki's here.

Notes:

Hey everyone! Thank you so much for your comments and kudos! I'm glad you enjoyed, hope you enjoy this one, and have a wonderful day!

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

Prison had been part of Napoleon’s supposedly brilliant plan.

He’d bet that Skadi wouldn’t kill them - which had been the right bet to make. They just simply weren’t a threat, right now. They didn’t have the firepower to take her down, or make her pay a moment’s worth of attention. At best, they were entertainment. At worst, they were simply nothing. And she had no reason to kill nothing.

Perhaps the years since Ragnarök had softened her. Perhaps she just couldn’t conceive anything being a threat, and if it wasn’t a threat, she had no use to kill it. This world was hers, from the giants to the ice beasts to the Valkyries to the humans to the very snow itself. Nothing here was a threat, so why should she treat it as such?

It would have still been nice not to be tossed so abruptly into prison. Or dropped from such a height. 

The ice was hard and unforgiving, and CasCu’s breath was blown out of his lips. He lay there, on the ground, head spinning, stunned. His throat and eye throbbed. He felt weaker than he should. Too much mana spent too quickly. The magecraft woven into this prison burned his eye sockets , and he squeezed them shut, tight. Above them, the ice closed, sealing them up tight.

“Gudao,” Mash asked, “Are you alright?” 

“I’m alright,” Gudao breathed. “Alter got me. How’s everyone doing?”

“Hurting,” CasCu rasped.

Alter grunted, then took to Spirit Form. CasCu couldn’t blame him. Tesla rubbed his back, then sighed. “I think I will follow Alter into Spirit Form. It will be easier to recover my mana, that way.” and it would hurt way less, but he didn’t need to say that out loud. It was the unspoken truth of the matter.

“And you, CasCu?” Gudao asked, glancing to him.

CasCu slowly pushed himself up, then rubbed his back. “I’ll be fine. I’m going to take a look at the rune work on the walls, alright?” 

“Alright,” Gudao said, slow, but he didn’t pry. Not that Napoleon gave him a chance. 

The Servant had been hazy at first, rubbing the back of his head as if he had banged it. But now he sprung to life and bowed so low his head nearly hit the floor. “I’m sorry for putting you through that! We could have avoided that battle with Sigurd if I hadn’t been so brazen in my courtship. I really didn’t think that one through … sorry again!”

Mash started, a bit, glancing over to him quickly. “N-not at all! Your plan did work out in the end…”

“Though it was a close call,” Gudao added, grimacing. “Alter will take a bit to recover, and CasCu’s mana is low. Sorry, I can feel it. We might have to do a transfer.” 

“Probably,” CasCu agreed, pulling away from the wall with a grimace. He hated drinking blood, damn it.

Napoleon winced once more. “It was too damn close, wasn’t it? And it’s all my fault. I’m sorry.”

He sounded really heartfelt, for an emperor that reminded CasCu of Iskandar and Gilgamesh occasionally. CasCu shook his head and turned back to the wall, examining the gap space where false icy bricks turned into thick icy bars. Mash’s voice was a touch forgiving, soft. “Now that we’re away from Ophelia’s eye, my Ortinax is in working order. It hasn’t taken any critical damage. So our position isn’t overly worse.” 

“And Scáthach ’s still in the wings,” Gudao agreed. “She’s an expert in killing gods, so I wouldn’t be too worried about our firepower .” 

Napoleon relaxed faintly. “Well, that’s good to hear!”

Mash nodded. She hesitated a moment, glancing to Gudao, before glancing back to Napoleon. Another hesitation, then she started, her speech filled with pauses and stutters. “So, um, I’m a little hesitant to ask this, but … Napoleon, are you serious about

“Ophelia?” he asked, immediately straightening out of his slump. 

“H-hai,” Mash said, nodding, “You didn’t sound like you were joking about that, or like you wanted to confuse them … So did you mean what you said about her?”

“Sure did,” Napoleon said, “I fell for her hard.” He paused a moment, brief, then sat on the edge of one icy cot. “Well, more accurately, my heart went out for her. I didn’t have much compassion for anyone back when I was alive, but now it feels like that side of me has been cracked up to eleven! Being a Servant can be a real pain in the ass, huh? I wouldn’t have to worry about this stuff if I was a mindless battle robot.”

Gudao took a seat on the second cot, Mash beside him. His voice was very dry. “I prefer who you are now to a mindless battle robot.”

Napoleon gave an awkward cough. “Anyway, all that aside, I’m well aware that she’s a Crypter. I know they’re using the Tree of Emptiness to prevent the continuation of Humanity, and that we’ll have to take her out eventually. I know that, but I am choosing to side with you two.” He gave a smile then, gentle compared to most of them. “I won’t betray your trust. I won’t stop fighting until we’ve saved Proper Human History.”

Gudao considered him for a long, long moment. “This is why you wanted us to wait to make the contract,” he said. “You wanted us to know how you felt about Ophelia first.” 

“Exactly,” Napoleon said, “Not all the marks I made on History were glorious. I made a lot of bad decisions too, like the one that resulted in the destruction of my Grande Armée . I wasn’t very good to the two women I loved either. They must hate me, and I don’t blame them. I’m not going to pretend the past never happened. If humanity goes away, everything else will follow. It’d be great if all we lost was just the sadness and tears, but that’s not how it’ll work. Everything, good and bad, will be gone forever. My own glory doesn’t really matter now, but to see all the joys, hopes, and dreams people have held through history disappear… well I can’t just let that happen.” 

Gudao was silent, a moment. Mash was too, her fists a tight ball in her lap. They glanced at each other, obviously mentally talking. And then Gudao sighed, stepped up. “I agree, Napoleon. And this doesn’t change my decision. I would like -”

“Someone’s coming,” CasCu said, pulling away from the bars. “So I think we’ll have to hold off on that contract for a moment.”

Mash stood, reaching out for her shield, gripping it tight. “Who is it?” 

“It sounds like Ophelia’s footsteps,” CasCu said. He took to Spirit Form. It would be best to save what little mana he had, just in case there was another confrontation.

Napoleon brightened. Gudao stood and shook his head. “No, not right now. Your attempt at wooing will have to hold off for now. Mash and I want to talk to her.” 

Napoleon let out a long sigh, and then sat back down onto the cot. “You’re right, Private. I’m not going to make a mess of things again.”

“Thank you,” Mash said, softly.

“You’re welcome, mademoiselle,” Napoleon said.

Mash gave him a small smile, and Gudao gave a nod. The two stood there, waiting. They didn’t have to wait long. Ophelia’s footsteps were soft and measured. It wasn’t long before she stood before the bars. Her eye was covered again. She held a small circle in her hand. Even in Spirit Form, CasCu could feel the mana pulsing off of it. A device of some kind, with potent magecraft attached to it.

She held it tight between her fingers. Her voice was very cold, very flat. A forced distance. “Mash, I bring you a message from Kirschtaria Wodime. It was delivered shortly after you were imprisoned by his Servant. Since it was addressed to both you and her majesty, I brought it down here for you to listen to.” 

“To me, or for Gudao too?” Mash asked, her voice soft. 

Ophelia gave a single hesitation, then nodded. “To the both of you,” she said, “I’ll replay it now for you -”

“We’d like to talk first,” Gudao said. He crossed his arms over his chest, and watched her, closely. “Both Mash and I have a lot to ask you, and Mash wants to catch up with you. She has a very favorable impression of you, Ophelia, and I - would like to know why you’re doing all of this.”

Mash nodded. “He’s right,” she said. “I want to know more, so Ophelia, please, tell us.”

Ophelia hesitated, as if uncertain. In Spirit Form, CasCu’s eyes narrowed. This woman wasn’t living up to her reputation as a Crypter very well - then again, neither had Kadoc. They were both very human, and though Ophelia might have been the superior mage, gifted with a Mystic Eye of such power, her humanity seemed very intact. CasCu would have liked to know exactly what a woman like her was doing in a situation like this too.

But then Ophelia shook her head. “Now that Skadi has taken you prisoner, we can have that talk at any time, and since Saber has been … disturbed, I need to take time to keep him calm. I will play this message for you, and then leave. Please don’t argue, Mash.”

Mash and Gudao glanced at each other. None of them were planning on spending any more time than necessary here. Gudao’s arms dropped, he reached for Mash’s hand. Mash took it, squeezed tight, and then nodded to Ophelia. “Alright,” she murmured, small, “We’ll talk later. Please play it, Ophelia.”

Ophelia nodded, and then pressed the center of the communication device.

A hologram appeared midair , not so unsimiliar to the ones projected by the Chaldean communication devices at times. Formed out-of-the-blue light was the upper torso of a man, this Kirschtaria Wodime, leader of the Crypters. He had a cold face, aloof, disinterested. His hair was long, framing his features and spilling past his shoulders. He wore an ornate suit, a cape with something that looked like a shoulder pauldron, and held a staff in one hand. The traditional upper class magus. 

His voice reflected that look, cool and smooth, a bit arrogant. “A pleasure to make your acquaintance, Queen of the Scandinavian Lostbelt. My apologies for delivering a recorded message rather than visiting in person. I am Kirschtaria Wodime. I am in charge of the largest Lostbelt, Greece, and the leader of the Crypters. As for you, Chaldeans, welcome to this bleached Earth. As your ‘senpai’, I am proud to welcome you here. While I confess that doing so required some speculation on my part, I have taken the liberty of sending this message to the King of Scandinavia with the assumption that you will all be present as well. Given how you triumphed in Russia, and how close this Lostbelt lies to it, I am confident you will have reached it by the time this message is delivered.”

“Our goal,” he continued, “is to rebuild human history. This entails recreating a land for gods to inhabit. Proper Human History was not a mistake per se, but neither was it correct. Instead of loss and gain resulting in a net benefit, they became caught in a system that resulted in unchecked growth for both. It was an incredible waste. What should have been a virtuous cycle was effectively stuck in a rut. The Foreign God wept to see the state of this planet, and decided to grace it with their presence. As Crypters, our duty is to help the Lostbelts take root and become stronger than Proper Human History.”

He paused for breath, incremental. Ophelia’s face was utterly composed. Mash’s expression was tight; she gripped Gudao’s hand with white knuckles. Gudao’s own expression was … something. He didn’t get angry often, but there was fire in those eyes right now, and the fingers of his free hand curled into fists. 

“The King of Mages' answer to humanity's failure was to have other humans incinerate it, but that is not my answer,” Kirschtaria said, “I choose to rewrite history, with the Foreign God's help. People have had gods running the world behind the scenes since ancient times. They believed gods were both the planet itself, and the laws of nature that governed it. But humanity lacked self-awareness. Those laws were meant to be used, not obeyed. It was that mistake that led to humanity and the gods parting ways. Humanity did not forget the gods. They abandoned that possibility once they became unable to handle them.”

“Your Majesty, Queen of Scandinavia. You care for a mythological ecosystem that met its end in a self-imposed ruin, rather than one which ended when its people forgot it, like Greece. Keep the Tree of Emptiness safe. As long as it exists, your Lostbelt will never vanish. I implore you to turn your back on your fate, and to decide the path of survival. Once you do that, I would like nothing more than for you to face off against my own Tree of Emptiness.”

“My Tree of Emptiness is already fully grown,” and finally, that cold expression changed into something that could have been considered smugness, “While the Norse world has Yggdrasil, a world tree that serves as the foundation of its every realm, Greece now has a Tree of Emptiness supporting the very heavens. Thus, it has been dubbed the World Tree Atlas by my ally, the great god Zeus.”

“Chaldeans, I can say that, as far as you are concerned, Atlas is your greatest and most important target. The roots of my Lostbelt's Tree of Emptiness now cover eighty percent of the earth's surface. Even if you succeed at cutting down every other Lostbelt's tree, you will never be able to restore Proper Human History so long as Atlas remains standing.”

“Queen of Scandinavia, you are a god, and so I have high hopes for you. Indeed, you could even think of this as the gods taking revenge on humans for usurping their throne. As for me, I am prepared to make full use of the gods despite being human myself. I will create a fully realized Age of Gods. A glorious history where human weakness is a thing of the past. It will be a world that will endure no matter how heated human consciousness becomes. A place where life can flourish with neither deficit nor fragmentation. Be warned that I will show no mercy to any who would stand in the way of that goal. I hope that, alongside Ophelia, you will choose the best possible future.”

With those words ringing across icy walls, Kirschtaria’s image fizzled and disappeared. Ophelia closed her hand around the device, and slid it into her pocket. Mash stood there, face pale, her body trembling. Gudao was shaking too. He had to take a moment, jaw working, before he spoke. “That was a declaration of war.” 

“Wrong,” Ophelia said. “That was a declaration of victory. Thanks to Lord Kirschtaria’s leadership, we Crypter’s have already begun a new chronicle for humanity. There is no hope for Proper Human History.”

“Do you really believe it?” Mash asked, her voice shaking, tight. “Do you really think that it's a good idea to whip everything out. Destroy all of Proper Human History? Both the bad … and the good?” 

Of course.” Ophelia took a step back. “But we can speak on that at greater length later. I believe, Mash, that you will agree with us in time. I will see you later. Goodbye Gudao, the last  Master of a Humanity that will no longer see the world’s light. I hope you will come to enjoy this Lostbelt.” 

With that, she turned, and started walking away. Her footsteps were measured. Mash opened her mouth, then flinched and glanced away, staring at the floor. Gudao hadn’t stopped shaking. His voice was utterly cold, quiet, and filled with something approximating rage. “CasCu,” he said, “have you figured out how to break us out of here yet?”

CasCu stepped into solid form once more. “Maybe,” he said, “Like the rest of this castle, the basis of this cell is opalan and isa. But there’s hagalaz, perbo, and jeran. Opalan and isa makes this place Skadi’s own, the shape and form of it bends to her will. Perbo stands for magic, hagalaz for loss - together it means that while we’re in these cells, we cannot access our skills. Jeran is peace. Having it here makes us less inclined to break out.”

“But can we break out?” Gudao repeated, frowning. 

“Not right now,” CasCu said, frowning. “Theoretically, I can nullify the runes by writing their opposites - canceling them out, but I have no mana to do so right now, and I’m not sure how well it will work.” Hagalaz and perbo were a difficult combo. The loss of magic. But he could still see the runes writ on the walls , in the bars. Maybe, just maybe, his runecraft would be left untouched. Maybe he could do something.

Gudao sighed and let go of Mash’s hand. He started rolling up his sleeve, frowning. “I’m going to lend you some mana.” He said, frowning, “and then I need you to sleep for a bit.”
CasCu flinched. His hand flexed, went up to his throat. The bruises were still there, tender beneath his touch. “Are you sure?”

“I’m sure,” Gudao said, “You’ll regain mana faster that way than in Spirit Form. While you sleep, I’ll make a contract with Napoleon, and we’ll figure out our next steps from here. How does that sound?”

Like a bad, bad idea. But he was right, and CasCu knew it. He swallowed hard, then pulled his hand away from his neck. “I’d like the cot then,” he said, and ignored the small nugget of fear in his chest, “it’ll wreck less damage on my back.”

 

She brings with her cold wind.

He’d known that she was coming. That she would appear before their gates, armored with weapons raised, her fury the icy winds of the north, to avenge her father’s death. Yet the cold she brings is sharper than he expected. Each breath he breathes is painful. Frost crystallizes and hangs in midair. The first flakes of snow begin to fall upon Asgard in thick, white drops.

Footsteps, beside them. They’re a light thing, almost like a dance, sporadic in nature. Their owner is the same. 

“Avoiding the celebrations, old man?” Comes a voice, ever shifting in nature and tone, right by his side. “What a shame. I would think you too would celebrate Idun’s return, considering you need her apples of youth more than any of us.” 

He doesn’t look over. He knows that capacious voice well enough to label its speaker. “Though Idun’s return warms my heart, the death of Thjazi chills it. His daughter, Skadi, is coming to avenge him. She’ll want blood price for his death.”

“If I remember correctly, it was you lot who killed him, not me. Burned him alive, remember? I believe his smoldering corpse is right over there.” 

He doesn’t look. He knows the truth of those words. He barely wavers in his own response. “It was you who gave Idun up. It was you who took her back, and brought Thjazi here to kill. It is you, Loki, who Skadi will have the greatest hatred for, not I. You are the sole architect of his death.” 

“I would hardly consider myself the sole architect. I didn’t ask you all to burn him alive, and Thjazi could have easily coerced you into giving Idun over. It’s not fair to place the whole blame on me, old man.” 

“The world is not fair,” he returns, “and it does not matter what could have happened, but what did.” 

There’s a sharp sound from beside him, like the displeased hiss of a snake. The snow is starting to grow thicker. He holds out a hand, and watches as the flakes fall onto his skin. They stay there for a moment, then melt.

“The Gods of Asgard are a sorry bunch, right now.” Loki says, after a moment. “Drunk with celebration and newly returned power. Fragile. Prone to making mistakes. Normally I’d bet against her, but Thjazi was a powerful one, a clever one. Any daughter of his is bound to bring pain with her. And with your gods drunk and high, they’ll be easy targets for frost. So what’s your plan, old man? I know you have one.” 

Finally, he turns to look at Loki. The form they’ve chosen today is male, though slim and effeminate. Though both him and Skadi are of giant ilk, Skadi is jotunn, ice. Loki, however, is flame, from Musphiem, and his appearance reflects it. Every shifting, ever-changing , not even their gender is subject to stability. Today, his skin is the soft gray of a hearth’s fire, his red hair intricately braided to frame his face. Gold eyes flash like sparks from black sclera, and his grin is far too nice to be believed. 

He looks away from the giant-turned-god beside him. “Which one are you planning to lure into bed today?” Loki likes looking pretty on average, but he knows Loki like the back of his hands. Gold eyes mean trouble. Mischief.

“I’m not quite sure,” Loki lies, “I like this form, but I might shift again soon. What face do you think Thor will make when he finds the wench he’s taken to bed is no one else but the most hated god in Asgard?”

A shake of the head. “His reaction will be on your shoulders, if you do so. Now leave, Loki. Your hated presence will make this talk more difficult.” 

Loki laughs. “Oh, a talk? Are you going to try to reason with her, instead of taking her down? What a change of pace, old man. Tell me, has that all seeing eye gotten a glimpse of her supposed beauty? Have you been smitten like the fool that you are?” 

He turns, and when he looks, Loki is a she. Her face is terribly beautiful, her curves outlined by her dress. She fans her hand in front of her face and smiles, side long, this low amused grin. “I’m on to you~”

“You should be careful when you choose your bed partner, Loki,” he says, “I cannot save you from your own stupid decisions all the time.”

Like fire, her face twists, eyes blazing to red, form swelling into something more true to her origins, tall and muscular, a giant’s body. She spits venom from her lips. “Like the All Father’s protection means anything to me. We’ll see, when Skadi asks for her revenge, if you will protect me at all, like you have in the past.” Her face twists, the flicker of silver scars around her lips, “Good luck, old man, you’ll need it in this talk. Let's see how fast your silver tongue will fly, and if you can melt any of the ice in Skadi’s heart.” 

Then Loki spins and goes. With each step, she shrinks, back into her lovely visage, her red hair streaming behind her. He looks away, and watches the approaching storm. Without Loki’s fire to fill the space around him, it is rapidly growing cold. The clouds are thick, the sky growing dark, and snow blazes the sky with gray and white. It doesn’t matter. He sees all.

And he sees her, Skadi, walking through the snow towards Asgard’s walls. 

Her father had been a shape-shifter , but Skadi shows her jotunn heritage clearly. It’s apparent in the blue of her skin, to the icy white of her hair, to the ice that coats her cheeks and covers her eyelashes with frost. Her height is a giant’s too, and so is her bulk, though her figure is hard to tell beneath layers of leather armor and chain mail and fur. There is a bow in her hands, a quiver on her back, and a sword and hatchet strapped to her waist. 

She sees him, of course she does. He must be a beacon, standing alone on this wall. An arrow leaps into her bow, she brings it up and points it at his face. Her eyes blaze through the snow, gold against the blue of her skin.

He wonders if she is already a god. He wonders if the color of her eyes means merely that she was always destined to be more than her trickster father and the pile of burned feathers he had ended up as. 

“Odin!” She calls, her voice clear and strong over the wind and the snow. “One eyed All-father, king of Aesir and Vaneir, of Asgard, I come looking for my father, Thjazi. I know he came this way, and I know he had dealings with Loki. I demand his return!” 

She knows, he thinks, watching the way the arrow doesn’t waver. She already knows her father’s fate. 

He leans against the banisters and lets his voice carry. Allows the sorrow to cloud it, for all he feels no grief. “Then I must apologize to you, Skadi of the jotunn folk, for it is too late. Your father marched upon Valhalla with intentions to kill, and such he was treated as an enemy. If you should wish, I will give you what is left of his remains to bury.”

If he was expecting screams and wails, he does not get them. Skadi bows her head, her shoulders quivering. Tears flicker on her cheeks and freeze there. When she opens her eyes, they blaze. The storm rages louder. “Then you will die,” She says, the whisper of snow, before she lets her arrow fly.

He raises his hand. Isa burns gold at his fingertips . Her arrow freezes, and falls to the ground to be lost in the building snow drifts.

“Do not be foolish,” he says, “Your father kidnapped one of our own, and when we took her back, gave chase. He threw his life away. Do not do the same. As someone who has lost my own fair share of family, it is not worth it.” 

She laughs. A grief stricken bark, more benefitting an animal then one of Ymir’s ilk. “Play your games with someone who appreciates them, gray beard! I can hear the celebrations going on inside your walls. How many drinks have your gods drunk tonight? Perhaps I cannot slay you, but my storm will take their breath. When was the last time you gods faced the cold bite of winter unprepared and inhibited? Tonight, you are in my hands. Tonight, you will die!”

“And what will their deaths bring, Skadi?” He asks, pressing his hands against the stone walls of Asgard. “Their deaths will not bring your father back, and will only incite vengeance upon your own head. It’s an endless cycle, vengeance. Are you willing to continue it?”

“As if you have ever stopped it,” she says, sneering. “As if you have ever done anything but kill in revenge.” 

“I’m trying to stop it tonight, Skadi.” He says, fingers flicking across the rock. Little golden lights dance in their path. “Your father is dead, and yes by our hands, but he is dead by his own as well. Killing us will not bring him back. It will not relieve your grief. But if you leave us alive, there are things we can do for you. Things that will offer you closure.” 

She pauses, and the flakes of snow pause too. A stillness that lingers even after she speaks. “What things?” 

He smiles, only to himself, and pushes off the stone. The golden glow flickers, then fades. “A family, divinity - you already have power, but this will elevate it to more. Perhaps even runecraft if you show the aptitude for it. Your father’s bones, and perhaps a way to honor him even after they’re gone. Anything you want, beyond our heads.”

Her arrow drops, this small incremental amount. “You are a fool.” 

He shrugs, walking steadily towards Thjazi’s burnt corpse. The wafting smoke has been stifled by Skadi’s snow. “Name your price. In fact, name three. Whatever you want will be yours, within reason.”

“You will try to bargain,” she says. 

“Of course I will. It’s in my nature.” He bends, and picks up Thjazi’s skull. It’s a horrible thing, trapped in mid-shape change, part bird and part giant, blackened and burnt. But in the sockets - oh yes, those hadn’t been destroyed yet. “His eyes are still here,” he muses. “There are things you can do with eyes.”

She is quiet, for a moment. He can feel the frost of her anger against his skin. Her voice is chilly, cold. “My first price,” she says, “is his body, all of it beyond his eyes. Those I want to be hung in the sky as stars.”

“Done,” he says. He plucks the eyes from Thjazi’s skull and writes runes across their surface. They burst into golden motes, and he looks up at the clouded sky. “Part your blizzard, Skadi, and see that your father is looking after you. I think he would have liked for you to be happy, don’t you?” 

“You have killed my happiness,” she retorts. But the blizzard parts, and she looks up. There in the sky, shining bright, are two golden stars. He watches as Skadi’s face twists, expression breaking, then freezing again in one smooth motion. “You spoke of family. You spoke of becoming a god. My family is dead, so if I must start anew, then I want to start it with Baldur as my husband.” 

His lips twitch. Of course, she wants Baldur. Everyone wants Baldur, his beautiful, kind, perfect son. Everyone with an inclination towards men wants Baldur. Why would Skadi be so different? If her father is gone, then her home will be empty. Might as well take the most perfect of gods to fill it as a husband. 

He bares his teeth, a grin, and lets his voice carry through the snow. “Just as I doubt your father would marry you to any random soul, I am not so eager to sell my son to any one person, no matter how strong they might be. But, if you can pass a trial of my choosing and win his hand that way, then I will be willing to part with him.”

Her eyes narrow into gold slits. The wind kicks up briefly. “What trial?” 

“I won’t tell you that,” he says, “but even if you fail to win Baldur, you will walk home from Asgard with a fine husband to fill the hole in your home. Not only that, but you will be welcome among the Gods of Asgard , and will be treated as kindly as one of our own. How does that sound, Skadi?” 

She considers this for a long moment, her eyes narrowed faintly. Then she nods. “Very well,” she says, frosty, “I accept your terms. My third price is simple, All-father. You should have no issue fulfilling it. I want Loki’s head on a pike.”

Like the request for Baldur’s hand in marriage, this one is hardly surprising. Loki was at every step of Skadi’s father’s death. She might not know all the details, but it isn’t hard to put together pieces. Loki is always at the heart of every mess, whether they had created it or whether they had solved it. 

“That is something I cannot do,” he says, tapping his fingers against the table. “Loki and I are oath-bound as siblings. And they have already been punished for this transgression once. Name another price.”

There’s a hiss in the wind. Slight, and cold, like the sound of a freezing snake. Skadi watches him with narrowed eyes, fury writ across her face. Then she smooths out her expression. Composes herself to coldness. “You and your gods have killed my family. You have killed my laughter. My last price is that you return my laughter to me. If you cannot, then our other deals are null and void, and I will not stop until all is ice.”

He watches her, for a long moment. Distantly, he hears one of his raven’s caw. Muninn. He smiles, sharp, amused. “As you wish, my dear. Come, into the halls of Asgard. Together, we will find you a husband.” He waves his hand, and the gates crack open. Skadi steps through like a dark winter wind. Within the halls of Asgard, the lights dim, the feasting quiets. 

They know something is about to happen now. 

He steps from the gate and towards Skadi. He holds out an arm for her, but she does not take it, her expression sharp and cold. Disgusted by him. He smiles urbanely, then starts towards the main hall. She follows after. The walk is silent, like the dead of night, when even the nocturnal animals are quiet.

He pushes open the doors of Asgard to the hall of warriors, bright and bold. The Valkyries move from table to table, serving the gods in the midst of their celebration. But they’re not celebrating right now. Their glazed gazes are focused on him, and Skadi beside him. He catches the hair of a flame disappearing into the shadows, and smiles. 

Loki’s making their escape, as expected, but he knows Loki better than either of them are willing to admit. Loki won’t be far. They could never ignore a spectacle. 

“Gods of Asgard,” he cries, words ringing off the rafters of his home. “I bring to you Skadi, Thjazi’s daughter. She has come to seek reparations for her father’s demise.”

Thor stands to his feet swift, for all he’s swaying heavily, face red with drink. “Let me at her father! I’ll kill her before she can.”

" No,” he says, raising his hand. “There will be no death today, just new beginnings. For the loss of her father, I have promised Skadi a husband and to have her laughter returned to her. First, we will find her a husband. I will not ask you to volunteer, but neither will I have her unfairly choose. But the choice will be hers.”

“Then how will she choose?” Njörðr asks. He’s a smart god, one of the sea. Patient compared to the fiery tempers of many here .

“Yes, All father,” Skadi says, her voice cold as ice. “How will I choose?” 

“By their legs, and their feet,” he says. He barely gives a pause for the incredulity that is sure to follow. “All male gods will line up behind the tapestries lining the walls. They will bare their calves and feet for Skadi to examine. Whichever set she chooses will be her husband.”

For a moment, silence. Pure, unfiltered, startled silence. Then, somewhere, the flicker of hysterical laughter. Loki. Of course, they would find this amusing.

Skadi turns on him, arrow knocked faster than he can track. It’s aimed at his remaining eye. “You mock me,” She hisses, eyes burning. 

“I do no such thing,” he returns, utterly calm, “picking a husband from his face or reputation does not guarantee a successful marriage. This way, you can tell them apart. One with strong calves will be physically capable of dealing with the harsh conditions of your home. A man with calloused feet will be an experienced hunter - something you two will share, I am sure. But if it is beauty you seek, attraction over similarities, then certainly the loveliest pair of feet will belong to the loveliest god.”

She considers this for a long moment, her eyes narrowed. The whole of Asgard seems to hold its breath. Then she eases her posture. The arrow returns to her quiver. Her face is ice as she turns to the lined up gods. “Then they better move swiftly, before I lose my patience.” 

Thor sputters, sharp. “ Father, you cannot be serious -”

“I am,” he says, “So move, all of you. Line up, and bare your legs and feet for the good lady Skadi to choose. She is to be one of us, and you will treat her with the respect that position entails.” 

“Not that it’s ever entailed much, eh, old man?” Loki calls. They’re still in their female form, only now she’s stopped hiding. She perches on one of the chairs close to the halls’ exit. Ready to bolt, but with a front row seat.

The air in the hall noticeably dips. He pretends not to notice, and instead gives Loki a smile. “You are male more often than not. Shall you retreat behind the curtains too?” 

“Oh, I think not,” Loki says. “I doubt the good lady Skadi would appreciate one such as I as her husband, and I’ve already got a wife, remember? You insisted I marry , so I could be properly welcomed among your ranks. It’s a thing the old man does. Quite infuriating, you’ll find, dear Skadi.” 

“The longer you talk,” Skadi says, “The more inclined I am to shoot . Odin convinced me to spare your head, but that does not mean I will continue to hold to that promise.” 

“Oh, how nice of the old man,” Loki says. The look she sends is poisonous. “I’ll make sure to remember it with everything else he has done for me.” 

He sighs, and turns away. The other gods have taken their places behind the tapestries. Only now is there the vague form of bodies behind the cloths, shins, and calves and feet left bare for examination. “Your husband awaits you, Skadi. Please, pay Loki no mind. She only has power when we give it to her. Focus instead on whom you will share your home with.”

Skadi’s glare is as cold as the ice she wields. But then she turns from him, and stalks to the tapestry and the hidden gods. Step by step, she walks along its row, eyes fixated on the feet there. She paces, stride even as a wolf , her eyes sharp. Minutes creep by. Finally, she points to one set of feet. “Him. This is the man I’ll take as my husband.”

The feet shift, an almost awkward, uncomfortable movement.

Loki’s laugh is wild. “Well now,” she sings, “Don’t drag the moment out! Let’s see who's the new ice princesses’ husband! Go on, old man. I know you’re dying to yank off the curtain and reveal the lucky man.” 

He sighs at Loki’s instigation , but raises his hands. Gold runes flick at the ends of his fingertips, and then the tapestry yanks up, pushed away from the other gods by an invisible wind. Standing before Skadi, her finger pointed at his feet, is not the Baldur she had been searching for. It is Njörðr, with his sun beaten skin and gray and silver flecked hair, eyes more green than gold. He smiles, and Skadi hisses, slight, spinning. “What trickery is this?” 

“None,” he lies, “you chose him yourself. I hope your marriage brings back joy to your halls, Skadi.” 

She glares at him, then turns to Njörðr. Njörðr smiles slightly, almost awkward. “If it suits you,” he says, “we can stay at your residence first. I am sure that we will manage to work out something that fits both of us.” 

She stares at him, for a long, long moment, eyes flicking over his face for any sign of drink, or cheer at her father’s death. There is none there . Njörðr’s skin is sunburned and weathered, but it is not flushed with drink. Of course not. Njörðr is Vaneir, not Aesir. Aesir have always been more battle hungry, ready to celebrate death. Vaneir, by and large, are a bit more peaceful. And Njörðr in particular, as a god of the sea, has feet sculpted from the surf. Far better feet than Baldur, for all his perfection, can lay claim to.

“Fine,” Skadi says, her shoulders relaxing a tad. “I will take this man as my husband. But you have your last promise to fulfill, Odin. If you cannot fulfill it, then this marriage means nothing. This man means nothing.” She turns then, and faces him, her gaze frosty. “So, bring back my laughter if you can.” 

“It will not be I who brings back your laughter,” he says. He drops his arms, and smiles, lacing his hands before him. “Before, you had asked for Loki’s head on a pike. Though that is not something I can give you, I will admit that this whole thing is Loki’s mess. Therefore, it is only fitting that she is the one to give you back your laughter.”
Loki freezes where she sits. Slowly, a scowl creeps along her face. “You’re fucking kidding me, old man-”

Skadi’s eyes light with surprise, then narrow in cold pleasure. She steps forwards, away from her soon-to-be husband, and asks. “And if she cannot give my laugh to me?” 

“Then you do whatever you wish with her,” he says, “After all, our agreements will be null and void if she cannot pull this off.” 

Skadi’s smile is slow and cruel. She turns to Loki then, and reaches back. Her fingers feather along her arrows, counting them. Selecting them. Should Loki fail, it is obvious who Skadi will target first. Her smile is sharp. “You heard the All-father, Loki. What joke do you have for me? What ploy or trick will you utilize, and then fail? Everyone knows the tale of Loki, whose only skill is to get into trouble too large for her to handle.”

Loki’s eyes flare, bright and golden and furious. And then the light goes out, and they’re no longer so gold, but the gray-gold of ash smothered embers. She slides off her seat, and at the moment it takes for her to get to her feet, she’s no longer a she, but a man. Tall, muscled, his hair barely long enough for the braids he favors. This form is closer to his giantish heritage, with its deep booming voice, low and pleasant to the ears.

“Oh yes,” he says, “We all know the tale of Loki. The giant brought in among the gods, brought in by Odin himself, sworn as blood brothers and then married into them. Told that he would be treated as a god - but his real role in this shabby excuse of a palace is so simple, even a mortal could play it.” 

Loki extends his hands up, and smiles. The silver scars around his lips flash against the brown of his skin. “I am the stranger! Let in, but never fitting. I am the troublemaker , the trickster, the liar. If something has gone wrong, obviously it’s Loki’s fault. Make Loki fix it. Don’t save Loki when he’s solved the issue and made his reparations, but those reparations have made more people hate him. Oh, the gods themselves have caused some sort of trouble! Who better to fix it but Loki? Who better to blame for it all going wrong but Loki? Who better to scorn, to hate, to threaten, and then to laugh when he’s injured or hated for doing what he does, than Loki? Loki, troublemaker , trickster, liar. Loki, god of chaos, of mischief, of ‘getting into trouble too large for him to handle’. Loki, Asgard's favorite little scapegoat.” 

“But it’s your lucky day, Skadi!” He sings, spinning around to face her. “Today, the old man isn’t wrong. He and Hoenir might have been with me, Thjazi might have taken the cuts of our meal meant for the God of Gods, the All father, but of course nothing could be blamed up on any of those three! This little escapade was my orchestration, top from bottom. I’ve already been threatened and nearly killed three times today, but what’s one more on the list? Loki, scapegoat, is used to such situations.” 

He smiles, and it is an ugly thing. Loki’s gray eyes flick past Skadi, to where he stands, and there is fury smoldering in their dead gray depths. Poison, with each word Loki shapes, spilling into the air. “The goddess Skadi is from the coldest reaches of the world, in a land that would put Jotunheim to shame. Everyone’s always found my tricks so entertaining, and the old man will never lift a finger to help me, but perhaps the ice princess would like a good old-fashioned show? If the old man would permit, give me use of one of Thor’s goats. They’ve yet to be put to death, this night, have they? I think they’ll be a valuable asset to my … act.” 

 

CasCu jerked awake, eyes flying open. For a moment, his vision swam. The white before him - the icy bricks of the ceiling - made no sense. He expected carved wood and warm lights. The air was too cold. The sounds of people talking were too quiet. It should have been louder. Drinking, roaring, words shot back and forth like an argument. There was a pit in his stomach, cold and dark. Gray eyes swam before his vision, burning with suppressed fury, suppressed hate. Gray eyes …

Kage? Had he dreamed of Kage?

No - that felt wrong in a way CasCu couldn’t name. He made a noise between his teeth and dragged a hand up, scrubbing his face. This wasn’t - wherever he thought he should be. This was - Skadi’s dungeon. They were still in Skadi’s dungeon. Mash, Gudao, and Napoleon were talking. There was another voice there. Softer, lighter, like a young woman’s - familiar. It was familiar. 

Freyja?

CasCu groaned and squeezed his aching eye shut. The voices cut out. Then Gudao - Gudako swam into his blurry vision. She was frowning at him. “CasCu, are you alright? You look … like a wreck.” 

“I’m fine,” he mumbled, the lie easy on his lips. He rubbed his face once, then opened his eye again, blinking it repeatedly to keep back the burning sensation. “Did someone new join us? I heard another voice.”

Gudako frowned, obviously debating pushing the point, before giving in. “Someone did join us,” she said. She stepped away from CasCu, giving him room to turn, and gestured to the young girl sitting on the opposite bed. She looked very familiar to someone CasCu knew, with her white hair and bright red-purple eyes, only dressed in patterned winter clothing. Illya. Kage’s Sister, one they had met briefly during an event. Shit.

“This,” Gudako said, “Is Sitonai. She’s a Proper Human History Servant that got caught by Skadi, and has been down here since . She… kinda hijacked my contract with Napoleon, so she’s technically my Servant too now.”

CasCu sighed and scrubbed his face. “Somehow, I’m not surprised. Hello, Sitonai.” But the name ‘Sitonai’ felt wrong. He kept on wanting to call her Illya, or something - gods, what had he thought? Freyja? Why the hell had that name popped up into the back of his mind? Gods, his head was aching.

“Sitonai was just telling us that she’s an Alter Ego,” Gudako said. She sat on the edge of CasCu’s cot, turned to Sitonai. “You said you had three goddesses in you, right?”

“That’s right,” Sitonai said. She beamed at all of them, clearly looking a little smug. “It’s impressive, but it can be really annoying. For one thing, they never shut up.”

Napoleon had left the other cot to Sitonai and Mash. He sat on the ground, arms crossed, lips pursed as he took in this information. He seemed to be having a hard time understanding it. CasCu didn’t blame him. “Really?” Napoleon asked. “How does that work?”

Sitonai placed a finger against her cheek and hummed. “Well … how can I put this… It’s like all these goddesses are roommates that are always fighting about something, with me and my snowy fields serving as their core. They’re all very seasoned goddesses, so it’s hard playing host to such a skirmish.”

Napoleon knuckled his forehead. “A skirmish between goddesses? I can’t even imagine that …”

“Chaldea has some records of Servants with multiple divine entities tied to their core,” Mash said, “but it’s rare, and hard to imagine for most people … you must be very impressive, Sitonai -”

“Call me, Illya,” Sitonai - Illya, said. CasCu’s temple pounded. Gods, Kage wasn’t going to like this one bit.

“Illya,” Mash hurried to correct, “but why are you only imprisoned? If you have three goddesses tied to your Spirit Core, I would imagine Skadi would see you as a threat. She’s lenient on us because we cannot hurt her, but you might be able too.”

“I don’t know,” Illya admitted. “Maybe she isn’t willing to kill a god, or maybe she wants to use me somehow? I have connections to the Holy Grail, so she might be able to use me to make this Lostbelt exist forever.”

“I think if that was the reason, she would have done that already,” Gudako said, frowning.

Napoleon nodded. “And we haven’t seen any of the structures or spell craft you would expect for a ritual to sacrifice a god.”

“I suppose that’s true,” Illya said, “Then maybe it’s because I’m her daughter?” 

Napoleon, Mash, and Gudako blinked. Pain throbbed through CasCu’s eye just as the dots connected. Three goddesses to her Spirit Origin. And for her to be summoned here, she must have had a connection to this land … or Skadi herself. “One of your goddesses is Freyja ,” he said, rasped out.

Illya blinked, then beamed at him. “You’re right. I am composed of three northern goddesses. Sitonai of the Ainu, Louhi of the Finns, and Freyja of the Norse. Of the three of them, I’d say Sitonai is my most dominant personality, but Freyja certainly plays a part. Now do you get it, Gudako?”

“You’re connected to a Norse God?” Gudako hazarded. “So Skadi spared you?”

“It’s more than the Norse God aspect,” CasCu said. The knowledge was right there, buzzing in the back of his head. “ Freyja was beloved by all gods, giants, and mortals, for she was the Goddess of beauty, wealth, and fertility. She even cried red gold. But her connection to Skadi comes through her father, Njörðr, god of the Sea. He and Skadi were married briefly, so according to that part of the myth, Skadi would have been Freyja ’s stepmother during that time period.”

Gudako raised an eyebrow. “So Skadi is keeping you alive because of that?” 

“Mhm,” Illya said, nodding. “I’m not sure how things went down in this Lostbelt, if this Skadi was every Freyja’s stepmother, or if something different happened, but the Freyja in me is saying that Skadi didn’t kill us because we are her daughter. Even if we aren’t the Freyja from this Lostbelt, even if the connection between us is between two different Histories, Skadi couldn’t kill me. A part of her sees me, and sees what she once had.”

For a moment, Gudako, Mash, and Napoleon were quiet. CasCu let the silence sink in, rubbing his temple. It made sense. Skadi was a harsh goddess, benefitting of her domain … but there was a warm part in her too. One that desired comfort, happiness, laughter. When her father had died, she’d been willing to give up her revenge for a husband, for a chance of happiness and life. Though she and Njörðr hadn’t remained husband and wife long, CasCu remembered her getting along with Freyja and Freyr, her twin brother.

“I’m sorry,” Gudako said, finally. “It must be odd for you and Freyja.”

“Well … a bit,” Illya admitted, “but there’s nothing fully wrong with it. She visits, sometimes, to speak to me. I think she’s very lonely here. Or she was very lonely, before Ophelia came. She has the Valkyries, but I don’t think it’s the same. She doesn’t like … being left behind.” 

“No, she doesn’t,” CasCu breathed, before he thought. Illya sent him a sharp glance, and he shook his head, shaking the question out of his mind. “So, Illya,” he said, “You’ve been here longer than us. Do you know any way out of here? Now that I’ve regained some mana, I should be able to undo the rune work on the bars -”

“Oh, you won’t be able to,” Illya said. “Skadi’s rune craft was implanted into her head by Odin himself during Ragnarök , and she has his ravens as well. The only way you’ll break out of this jail is if your runes are as strong as Odin’s are. Besides,” She smiled, bright, “Mash and Gudako are only mortal. If their protections fail, the cold will kill you. I can cast a warming spell on you two, if you’d like.” 

The two glanced at each other. Then Gudako nodded, smiling back at Illya. “I don’t mind,” She said. 

“Okay!” Illya waved her hand, then giggled, “That should have you nice and toasty in no time. Now you’ll be able to sleep soundly, even in a bed with ice blankets and snow pillows.”

“I do feel warmer,” Mash admitted, flexing her fingers. “You must be very powerful, to be able to cast that spell without chanting. Or even runecraft … how is she keeping you here, Illya?”

“Well,” Illya squirmed in her seat, “I’m not really a captive, right now. With three goddesses in my head, I can manipulate the runes on the bars for short periods of time. Louhi’s magic allows me to dream walk , so I know a lot about the castle and the people that live in it.”

“Oho, you don’t say,” Napoleon said. He seemed suddenly more interested. “What can you tell us about lover boy ?”

Illya blinked. “ Lover boy ?”

“Sigurd,” Gudako explained. “We know a bit about his myth, but he’s… very different than we imagined, and some things about him don’t line up. Is he really a Lostbelt Servant?”

“You’re sharp,” Illya breathed. She was silent for a moment, considering, before she shook her head. “Freyja knows about his story, but she won’t tell me whether they took place during the Age of Gods, or during the A.D. era. But she does say that the Heroic Spirit that serves the Crypter is not a Lostbelt Servant. His Spirit Origin comes from Proper Human History.”

CasCu jerked his head up, staring wide at Illya, in the flecks of gold in her red eyes. He could hear the murmurs of disbelief from the others, but those faded out into white noise. Freyja was saying that Sigurd’s Spirit Origin was from Proper Human History. That he was not a Lostbelt Servant, and a part of CasCu knew she was right - but it felt Wrong at the same time. The Sigurd that was not Sigurd was too powerful, too - too -

“His energy doesn’t belong to a Proper Human History Servant,” CasCu said, quietly. “It’s all wrong. I’m not doubting you, Illya, but - there’s something more going on here.” He hesitated. It sounded stupid. It felt stupid, to speak this without any evidence to back it up.

Gudako nodded him. “Yeah, CasCu?” 

He let out a sigh between his teeth. “My gut is telling me it’s not Sigurd. The Spirit Origin is right, the appearance and skill set is right, but his behavior and energy is all wrong. Honestly, it’s like he’s possessed, but I’ve got nothing to back it up but instinct.” 

“Far as I’m concerned,” Napoleon said, “This explains a lot.” He leaned back against the wall and crossed his arms over his chest, frowning. “Just look at how ridiculously strong he is. I know we’ll need to do something about him eventually, but -”

“Not eventually. First.”

They all paused, and then stared at Illya. She stared back at them, unwavering. “Sigurd’s the one keeping Paper Moon, and the Crypter with the eye patch knows where the Tree of Emptiness is. And Sigurd always goes where the Crypter goes, even her private quarters.”

“So … you’re saying to get the Paper Moon back, or even locate the tree, we’re going to have to defeat Sigurd,” Mash breathed.

“Then we have a serious problem,” Napoleon said. “This whole job got a whole hell of a lot stronger. Sigurd is stronger than us right now, and he didn’t even go full on out. We’re not completely out of options, but …”

“We need help,” Gudako said. She leaned forwards, her fingers laced before her, eyes frank on Illya. “Someone who knows his weaknesses. A trump card, you could say. Is there anything like that here?” 

Illya beamed. It was a particularly bright, nasty beam, one that made CasCu pause. “There is! It’s the final option that might get you out of this predicament. Of course, Sigurd and the Crypter put a really strong seal on it. So I want you to do your best to get it, and then fight him with everything you’ve got! Once you’ve defeated Sigurd and have the Paper Moon, you can make that Crypter lady tell you where the Tree of Emptiness is. You have to cut that tree down as soon as you can.”

“We can’t restore the world until it’s cut down,” Gudako said, something almost like agreement, though reluctant.

“But … I think at this point … reaching the Wandering Sea is more important,” Mash said. She looked hesitantly at Gudako, then at Gudako’s nod, continued, “That was our first plan when we got here. The main reason we were going to cut the Tree of Emptiness down was to lure Sigurd out.”

“You can’t,” Illya said. “The longer you wait, the more the Tree of Emptiness will grow. What will you do if it ends up completely taking root? You have to cut it down as soon as possible.”

“Makes sense,” Napoleon said, “The bigger it gets, the further down its roots go, the harder it will be to chop down.” 

“We’ll talk to the Director about this,” Gudako said, after a pause to consider it, “He’ll be ripping his hair out to know what’s going on anyway, and Grand Cavallo might be able to give us more information on the Sigurd situation.” 

“Don’t say I didn’t warn you,” Illya sang.

“So,” Napoleon said, “What’s this trick to fighting Sigurd? Some kind of artifact? Don’t tell us it’s a holy Grail - no, the queen probably would have used that. Hmmm.” He pressed his lips together, frowning in consideration.

“It’s a goddess.” Illya said, “There’s another Divinity here in this Lostbelt in addition to Skadi and I . She’s a part of Proper Human History, a part of humanity’s final attempt at resistance made manifest. That means she’ll definitely be on our side. I just sent her location data to your terminal.” She giggled, “I’ve never gotten to use Atlas Institute-style mage craft before!”

“Ah -” Mash checked Ortinax, then nodded. “I see the location. Thank you, Illya.”

“Of course!” Illya slipped off the bed, then brushed off her skirt with small, decisive motions. “But I think that it’s about time to wrap this up.” 

There was a click, slight and soft. The rasp of ice against ice. CasCu saw the spellcraft , a flash of silver that coated the air. There were runes there, yes, but other symbols he couldn’t see or name. Something stirred in the pit of his stomach. Hunger. In the first time in a long time, he lacked the knowledge to understand. 

“I wish I could come along,” Illya said, “but I’m afraid I need to stay here and go back to sleep. The queen may not want to see me as a threat now, but that will change if I defy her will and leave. So since I can’t come along, I threw in some hiding spells for free! Take care, and I hope to see you again sometime!”

“You will,” Gudako said. She stood, and held out a hand for Illya. “You’ve done a lot for us. Thank you.”

Illya stared at her hand, then shook it with a bright smile. “You’re welcome!”

 

Thanks to Illya’s three-goddess mage craft , CasCu’s runes were not needed. A part of him wanted to be miffed about that. More of him knew it was sensible. Though the transfer and sleep had helped him regain some mana, he wasn’t strong enough to be of much use right now. Taking apart those runes would have turned him into a one-trick pony. And right now, with the fuzzy bursts of pain in the back of his mind, he’d rather not be that at all.

Illya’s hiding spells were extremely useful, and very, very powerful. CasCu wasn’t a failure at hiding runes himself, but he preferred not to use them, and they weren’t as strong as spells tailored just for stealth. These, though - even knowing Napoleon, Gudako, and Mash were there, CasCu could only tell that they were through his connection to Gudako. Even Napoleon’s Servant signature was muffled into the quietest whisper. It was impressive.

But not impressive enough to stop someone who was obviously expecting them to escape, though.

She stood at the entrance to their exit - the same place they had come in from - dressed in the same black coat with fur trim and stupid fur hat she had been sporting in the Russian Lostbelt. Koyanskaya. One of the two that had led to the destruction of Chaldea. She stood there, smiling sharply, the pleased expression of a cat that had been handed a bowl of cream, hands planted on her hips.

“Well hello~ there~,” She sang, teeth bared in a sharp, bright grin. “Welcome to the Scandinavian Lostbelt! I couldn’t let you guys leave the castle without giving you a warm welcome~.”

At her words, the hiding spell Illya had cast shattered. Gudako, Mash, and Napoleon stood there. Mash was already ready for a fight, her Ortinax up, though at some point she’d attached the ski’s to her feet. Napoleon had followed her lead, cannon pointed at Koyanskaya. But it was Gudako who spoke, her teeth gritted tight. “What the hell are you doing here?” 

Koyanskaya seemed to find the sharp words delightfully amusing. She laughed, this skipping thing, before grinning at the trio. “As long as there’s a profit to be made, NFF services will be there~ though I was hoping someone else would take out the trash. But it seems if you want something right, then do it yourselves. You three -” She pointed, first at Gudako, then at the other two. “It’s time for you to hand over what you owe. This castle might be deserted and downright awful to live in, but in this world it’s on par with five-star hotel accommodations! Those don’t come cheep, you know. A short stay for two humans and a handful of heroic spirits should come up to five quadrillion QP!”

The statement was so outrageous that Mash actually took a shuffling step back. Gudako’s jaw dropped. “You’re charging us?!” She shrieked.

“A girl’s got to make money,” Koyanskaya shrugged, “But I understand that your funds might be limited right now. If you can’t pay in QP or Quartz, then I’ll settle for watching your agonizing death instead!” She turned, presenting her back to them, and raised her hands. “Okay, everyone! That’s enough chin-ups there in the woods. Come out and announce yourselves with a nice loud roar now!”

And the woods did roar. CasCu watched, exhausted, as jotunn after jotunn poured from the woods. Each one wore their icy masks. Each one had a NFF Services tattoo emblazoned in black ink on their chest. Gods, it was so many. Not exactly enough to make them turn tail and run, but it’d be difficult to deal with, and the only one in fighting condition was Scáthach , with Tesla maybe coming in second. They were outgunned.

And from the look on their faces, both Gudako and Koyanskaya knew it.

Napoleon adjusted his cannon. “Who is she?” he asked Gudako, “Some kind of beast tamer? Did she come down from the Bolshi Circus?” 

“She destroyed Chaldea,” Gudako retorted, her voice sharp. Her eyes flicked from side to side, counting the giants, the sharp, smiling woman in the middle. “Pawning off your dirty work to your subordinates?”

Shit. That was not the sound of ‘strategic retreat’ Gudako. Scáthach , Tesla, I think we’re going to need you,” CasCu sent out.

“Oh, we’re aware.” Tesla said. He and Scáthach stepped out, flanking Gudako on each side, lightning and spears ready.

Koyanskaya only laughed at them. “ Of course! Wrangling subordinates is what I do best. Besides, you three aren’t enough to motivate me personally. I don’t deal with the bottom of the barrel myself. If you want anything to do with me, you’re going to have to prove that you’re worth my time. Alright, Jotunn! Time to get to work! Special honors go to those who do an exceptional job, so make sure to kill them all!”

“There’s more in the trees,” Mash breathed. “Gudako, we can’t fight them all.”

Gudako’s expression grew tighter. Napoleon nudged her sharply with his elbow. “I can see you’ve got some history with her, but save it for later, Maître. There’s no reason to fight on her terms. Let me and Mash get you out of here, and we can come back another day and deal with her then. Just give the order, Maître.”

Gudako. Swore. Loud and viscous, before she threw herself behind Mash, onto her skis, and wrapped her arms around the Demi-Servant’s waist. “Napoleon, Tesla, activate your Noble Phantasms and clear us a fucking path! We’re getting out of here and getting back onto the road!” 

“That’s what we’re talking about, Maître!”

“As you wish, Master.” Tesla began to float into the air. He clapped his hands, thunder booming around him, lightning building in a corona. “Attention please.” 

Not to be outdone, Napoleon straightened. His cannon started its transformation. CasCu saw Scáthach ’s eyes narrow, before she sighed and stepped out of existence. Mash got ready to move, Gudako’s face pressed against her back. Koyanskaya smirked, then stepped into the mass of her rushing jotunn army, which was getting closer, closer, closer -

“O ancient gods, sleep! Now is the time we humans weave our own mythos! System Keraunos!”

“Rainbow, O rainbow, now’s the time to suspend the bridge of possibilities. Conquer the skies! Arc de Triomphe de l'Étoile!”

Twin beams of light burst from the Archers. It was impossible to see which one was quicker. Both hit the incoming giants head on. One, a blazing rainbow thing from Napoleon’s cannon. The other a burst of blue, black, and purple electrical light from Napoleon’s hands. Both engulfed the oncoming enemies immediately. The giants on the periphery of the attack jittered, then froze, wavering in place, smoking. Tesla’s stunning effect in action.

When the two violent Noble Phantasms cleared, the army of giants had a whole path carved through it, full of blackened bodies and snow that glittered with ash. In the wake of such noise, the silence seemed to swallow them. Mash looked sick. Gudako’s shoulders jerked, then she pressed her face against Mash’s shoulders. “GO!” 

Mash took off. The skis Grand Cavallo had dragged and forced the other inventors to create roared into action. Jets propelled the two at speeds hard to follow, all energy pushed into this initial thrust. Napoleon was on his own in a second, cannon reversing in his hands. An explosion from the end: he was propelled forwards in their wake, rapidly running over the still smoking bodies and ash. Tesla winked out of existence, in Spirit Form, and in Spirit Form, CasCu ran after them.

And then hesitated.

He turned back to the castle, and stared up at the ice. Koyanskaya gaped at them. CasCu waited for her to shoot. He knew she had a gun, knew she was close enough for sniping range. But then she smiled, this sharp, sly thing, and turned away from them with a shrug. Roared at her remaining jotunn to walk into the castle with her. 

That woman was going to be fucking trouble soon. CasCu knew it. He just hoped that, when the time came, they would be strong enough to deal with her.

He pulled his gaze away, and up towards the castle. The brilliant, beautiful, lonely castle of the Goddess and Lostbelt King, Skadi. Around the apex, two circling black dots: the ravens, Huginn and Muninn. Something sharp and hot stabbed through his chest. An angry, primal jealousy and possessiveness he couldn’t put his name too. His gaze fell to the place he knew the throne room must have been. The place Skadi had to be watching them. 

His eye hurt. His eye stung, and in the brief moment of blinding pain, CasCu thought he saw the layers of ice peel away. Thought he saw Skadi, sitting on her throne, surrounded by no one. Alone, as she had always hated to be. Her hand raised, and then covered one of her eyes. The same one that was hurting in his own sockets. And then she smiled, cold as ice, and mouthed three words.

“I see you.” 

CasCu jerked back. The pain in his socket died out, and with a quiet swear, he shook his head, shaking the illusions and the frozen sensation from the corners of his mind. Stop it. He didn’t have fucking time for this. With a growl, he ran his hand over his face, and turned his back on Skadi’s castle.

Notes:

Loki was not supposed to be so prominent in the dream. Loki was supposed to be quiet and in the background until it was their time to shine. They, as always, refused to cooperate asjdkfhaf but for those who are curious about how that myth ended - Loki was able to restore Skadi’s laughter to her! By tying one of Thor’s goats to his dick and being pulled around the halls of Asgard until he fell over screaming in pain. Some sources say into Skadi’s lap. Fun times are had in Asgard by all :)

And for those who are curious about the full deets of the whole incident, it kinda goes like this. Loki, Odin, and rando go camping in the woods. They’re hungry, so they kill an ox and try to cook it. It’s not cooking. They kill something else and try to cook it. Also not cooking. An eagle flies down (Skadi’s dad transformed) and tells them it’ll only cook if it gets a portion of the meal. So they agree, and Skadi’s dad eats all the best cuts in moments. When Loki gets angry and tries to hit him with a stick, Skadi’s dad grabs the stick, flies off, drags Loki through every tree and boulder in the woods until Loki agrees to bring him Idun, who holds the apples of youth and immortality. Loki returns to Odin and extra, who’ve been doing ??? the whole time Loki was suffering, and return to Asgard. Loki lures Idun out of asgard so Skadi’s dad can kidnap her, and when he’s returned and everyone’s started aging, is blamed for the incident. He borrows Freyja’s feather cloak to retrieve Idun, pissing off Skadi’s dad again, getting chased ALL the way back to Asgard, where Skadi’s dad is caught in a massive bonfire and then killed by the remaining gods. And then Skadi is understandably pissed.

(I still think it’s interesting that Odin, the All father, who traded an eye for knowledge and hung by a rope for nine days and nights to learn runecraft, not catching onto Skadi’s dad and instead allowing Loki to be yanked around everywhere, is an INTERESTING choice myth wise. But the norse gods get dunked on by magical giants all the time so tbh it almost tracks).

Anyway you should all read the Gospel of Loki by Joanne Harris it’s real good. Also watch the Overly Sarcastic Production about Loki, that one’s great too-

Chapter 8: Chapter 8

Summary:

A third goddess?? More likely than you think.

Notes:

Hey everyone!! Thank you all for your comments and kudos! I hope you enjoy, and have a wonderful day!

Chapter Text

They camped in another one of Napoleon’s boltholes . This one was too close to Skadi’s castle for CasCu’s liking, but they didn’t have much choice. Gudako’s mana preserves were dangerously low. They had to camp. She had to rest, and eat as much of those specialized trail rations - chock-full of mana by design - to regain what she mana she had spent in those consecutive fights. And Gudako being Gudako, she made everyone sit down so she could share them with everyone else as well.

Alter didn’t come out to eat. CasCu wasn’t too surprised. Alter’s presence had been a low hum in the back of his head, but every time he reached out, all he received in turn was pain and disinterest. CasCu would pull up some runes to ease that pain once he got his mana reserves up. Right now, the best thing for Alter was to stay in Spirit Form, where the pain of his curses was more nebulous, and didn’t cut as deep.

Everyone else was in solid form, though. Tesla had been … cornered, for lack of a better word, by Napoleon, whose interest had been greatly arisen by Tesla’s Noble Phantasm chant. The emperor was sitting beside the inventor right now, peppering him with boisterous questions, while Tesla attempted to eat his mana rich ration. He must have been pretty low on mana - at any other time, he would have gladly taken the chance to boast.

Gudako and Mash were sticking close together. They leaned against each other, Gudako’s head resting on Mash’s shoulder, Mash’s head resting lightly against hers. Gudako ate her food with mechanical bites. There was that hollow look in her eyes again, as if she was staring at something far, far away. In contrast, Mash looked deep in thought. She frowned at nothing, her brows slightly furrowed.

That left CasCu and Scáthach , sitting beside each other, eating their own rations. Scáthach hadn’t expended much mana today, something CasCu guessed she was displeased with, by the faint narrowed tilt to her eyes. Only one fight for her. No wonder she was so disappointed in the day’s turnout. Or perhaps it had been the truth of Skadi that caused that expression, that shadow in her eyes.

CasCu understood that all too well. Just thinking about the Goddess staring out of Scáthach ’s face made his stomach roil painfully in disgust, a tight wedge of fear lancing into his chest. To have no control of your own body, to have no sense of self, to be treated as nothing more than a puppet to be moved around by a being stronger than yourself - it was horrific. 

He couldn’t get it out of his head.

CasCu stared at his half-eaten ration. The first half had been devoured swiftly. It now sat in the pit of his stomach like lead. “You knew Skadi,” he said, slowly, “And Skadi knew you, even in this Lostbelt. How?”

“I think you can guess,” Scáthach murmured, her lips barely moving. The words were far too quiet.

CasCu stared at Gudako’s hallow expression. His stomach lurched. “Respectfully,” he said, “guessing isn’t enough, teacher. We need to know. I think - it might be important, here. Especially since she’s wearing your face.” 

The words were too sharp. Scathach didn’t take well to people being sharp with her. He’d meant for the words to be even, but the sight of Skadi in the back of his mind sent cold panic through him, chills sliding through his body. He sighed, and scrubbed his face. He should probably apologize. 

But to his surprise, Scáthach spoke. Her words were very measured. She stared at her ration, head tilted to the side. “Skadi was not happy in her marriage,” she said, “Njord was not an unpleasant husband, and she did not hate him, but she could not love him. The issue lied in the fact neither of them could stand each other’s lands. Njord was afraid of her cold mountains. Skadi hated his seas. She didn’t stay at his palace long, and instead traveled. Her travels took her to my Castle of Shadows.” 

CasCu straightened, and stared at her. Skadi sent him a look, wry. “I am telling you this,” she said, “because I believe you already know it. And you are right. Though this would be a good lesson to teach Gudako, this is not the place to do it. Skadi is a powerful opponent. The gods were afraid of her.”

“She caught them in a moment of vulnerability,” CasCu said. He frowned at himself. The words came from nowhere. Certainly not what the throne told him, of that myth. His eye ached, and he knuckled it.

“Perhaps,” Scáthach said, “but a warrior is all the more dangerous if they know the best times to strike. Skadi didn’t stay at my place for long, but she stayed long enough for me to learn about Norse runes. She did not use them herself - not beyond isa - but once I had the runes, I was able to connect them to what I knew of Celtic runes, and apply them to combat. Skadi left soon after, and I never heard from her again.”

It all made sense, so much sense, and CasCu wasn’t even sure why. He knuckled his eye again, harder. “She’s different from the one you knew. Not the same.”

“Correct,” Scáthach said, “but is that a surprise? The Skadi I met was still fresh from her father’s death. She was hurt, and didn’t like the Aesir or the Vanir. Yet a part of her still longed for love and life, enough that she set aside revenge to marry into the gods, on the off chance she could be happy again. I do not think she was pleased with her own choices, but had decided to live with them anyway. But this is not the Skadi from Human History. We do not know exactly what happened here. All we know is that she somehow survived Ragnarök , and is hiding in the body of my Lostbelt self. Of course, she would be different from the one I knew.” 

CasCu sighed, and took a listless bite of his ration. With each chew, a small burst of mana flickered around his body, electric. He shuddered. “I guess that’s true,” he said. “How are you going to deal with her?” 

“She’s a god, isn’t she?” Scáthach asked. She sounded bored again, her red eyes staring into nothing. “When Gudako gives the order, I will kill her. Though perhaps, this time I will die. A god in my body must be formidable.” She smiled, and this time it was all teeth and hunger, bloodlust.

 Of course, she’d be excited about the prospect.

CasCu just felt tired. A little cold. A little sick. “Doesn’t it …” He hesitated, floundering for the word, before he gave up, “creep you out?”

Scáthach considered him, for a long moment, before saying, “Should it? That Scáthach is not me. Her mind, her personality, has all been hollowed out to make room for Skadi’s own. If anything, I feel disappointed in her. She should have fought better. Resisted Skadi’s take-over . But I suppose that I do not know how I myself would fare against a mental attack like that, so I have no room to judge.” 

CasCu shuddered.

“Does it scare you, Setenta?” Scáthach asked, watching him. He couldn’t parse the expression on her face.

CasCu hesitated, then huffed. “I wouldn’t say scare,” he said, “But it makes me uneasy. If it was my face staring back, and someone else staring out of my eyes …” he shuddered again, his fingers clenching tight around his ration. His stomach twisted again, sick. His eye ached. “That loss of control would be horrible,” he mumbled. It must have been something like what Kage felt, when the Grail’s mud was first overtaking him.

“I do not think there is anything left of that Scáthach to care about her situation,” Scáthach said, a bit quieter. CasCu had nothing to say to that. He forced himself to eat his ration, bit by bit, little by little. Sometimes, when he was sitting beside Scáthach and talking like this, he felt younger, a little more like his Lancer selves. But the thought of what had happened to this Lostbelt’s Scáthach was enough to push that sensation away.

“Setenta,” Scáthach said, and it was that voice, the one she used when people were hiding things from her.

Even now, CasCu couldn’t help but react at that tone. He looked up, away from his ration, and met her gaze. “Yeah?”

“You stopped, when we were retreating from Skadi’s castle.” Scáthach said. Her eyes bored into him, sharper, evaluating. “Don’t ask me how I know, for I will not tell you You stopped. Why did you stop?” 

“She was watching us,” CasCu said. “Didn’t you see her? She was watching us escape Koyanskaya. She was watching Koyanskaya try to kill us.” 

Scáthach considered him for a longer moment. Her eyes half narrowed, before she looked away, a small sound escaping between her teeth. “I did not see that,” she said, “Skadi would have been hidden away behind layers of ice. I am surprised you did.”

“I’m surprised I did too,” CasCu admitted, “it was hard to see anything with the strength of the magecraft in that castle. But I saw her, watching us make our escape. And she -” he hesitated, slight.

“She what,” Scáthach prodded.

CasCu hesitated again. She’d done… something, at that moment . He knew she had. She’d made some gesture. Had said something - but the question of ‘what’ was curiously blank. He remembered seeing her. He remembered nothing else, as if the exact details had been carefully erased from his mind. The hairs on the back of his neck stood up. 

“Nothing,” he said, rushed, “but I thought it was weird that she didn’t stop us. Or Koyanskaya. She didn’t seem especially eager for us to die, so for her to just watch while that happened …” he trailed off, staring at his ration. It was an obvious deflection. He wondered if Scáthach would take it.

She considered him for another moment, as if weighing her options, before letting out a long breath. “I don’t think she cares whether we are in her captivity or not,” she said. “Either way, Skadi does not believe we pose a threat to her. As for Koyanskaya, I doubt the fox woman is under Skadi’s jurisdiction. Like in Russia, Koyanskaya is doing her own thing.”

“Skadi still has the power to stop her,” CasCu said.

“Does she?” Scáthach asked.

CasCu stared at her, for a long, long moment. But Scáthach was wearing that face, blank and unreadable, and CasCu was… he was tired. He looked away, and took another listless bite against his rations. The back of his head pounded, like the steady thrum of a heartbeat. With each swallow, his throat ached a bit more. He took his last bite, and balled the up the wrapper tight in his fist.

“I guess we’ll see,” he muttered, and stood to throw his wrapper away.

 

They left the camp in the morning, and headed towards the coordinates Illya had sent to Ortinax. CasCu wished they were headed back to the Shadow Border instead. He’d spent his long watch thinking, about Skadi, about Scáthach , about the odd blank spots in his minds, those dreams he couldn’t remember, the ache in his eye and the bruises around his throat. About Kage, a lot, of how he was doing. If Cu and Proto had continued pouring mana into those runes , so his hellion would live.

By the time the sun rose, and Gudako and Mash were on their feet, CasCu’s head felt like it was full of steel wool. A convoluted mess with danger of cutting whatever it touched. There was a pit in his stomach that he couldn’t explain. Too much shit was going on. He needed a break, and they had no choice but to push forwards.

He stayed in Spirit Form. Let his senses focus on the surroundings, but otherwise, let the conversations Mash, Gudako, and Napoleon were having fade out of existence. Just kept moving. One foot in front of the other. He kept on seeing Scáthach ’s expression in his minds eye, the way she was watching him, sharp and expectant. As if she knew something he didn’t. As if there was something wrong with him.

CasCu thought of Skadi’s face, of Scáthach ’s face looking back at him with Skadi’s expression, Skadi’s voice, and shuddered. 

“Galdhøpiggen -”

CasCu’s head jerked up so fast his neck hurt. Mash had uttered the word, and with frantic haste, he tuned into the conversation. They were talking about the coordinates Illya had sent them. Where that mountain was located, how the terrain differed from Proper Human History. CasCu didn’t care about those details. The name felt like a spike through him, pushing everything else to the back of his head.

Galdhøpiggen.

Galdhøpiggen, the highest summit in Norway. Galdhøpiggen, where the goddess they were searching for was entombed, kept constrained. Galdhøpiggen, which sounded so familiar and so strange, his mind twisting painfully around the words, like it was important, like it meant something, like it was the key to a puzzle he hadn’t realized existed. Galdhøpiggen, Galdhøpiggen, Galdhøpiggen -

CasCu stumbled, his feet skipping over the snow. He reached out for nothing, fingers swinging through tree branches then passing right through them. Spirit Form. Above him, the caw of ravens. The sound was stabilizing. He found his footing again, and let out a slow, slow breath. His head hurt, as if that pile of steel wool that was currently his brain had grown in proportion and scrapped against the confines of his skull.

And in that pain, clarity bloomed. Galdhøpiggen wasn’t the name he was looking for. It was Hindarfjall he was thinking of, the sleeping place of Brynhildr, first of the Valkyries and Odin’s daughter. In his pain and confusion, he had gotten the two confused. CasCu almost wanted to laugh. The pain in his eye was deep, and throbbing. Hindarfjall was not native to this area. That mountain was closer to Germany, not this far north. The only similarity was that they were both tall peaks, that they both held goddesses -

“Are you okay?”

CasCu blinked hard. Alter’s grunted words were hard to make out against his pounding head. The thoughts he’d been chasing scattered like snow battered by winds. The raven’s call assured him that they would come back. “I should be asking you that,” he said.

Alter grunted, grating. “I’m not the one in distress right now.” 

Shit. CasCu froze in his next step, thoughts twisting, before the realization struck. He growled softly, then ran his nonexistent hands through his nonexistent hair. The motion did nothing but sooth him. Helped to collect his mind. “Things have just been … finicky, in my head. I thought I recognized the mountain Gudako and Mash were talking about, but no such luck. I mistook it for something else.”

“And it distressed you.”

The words weren’t a question. CasCu pressed his lips together, and wondered how the fuck he would address it. If it were Cu or Proto asking it, he would know the answer. But it was Alter. Alter, who was supposed to be so deep in curses that he wouldn’t care what distress CasCu was feeling, should have been in too much pain to feel CasCu’s distress.

“You’re being weird,” Alter grunted. Scáthach knows it. Gudako’s catching on.”

“Not that weird,” CasCu murmured, some attempt at buying time. His mind raced and ached in equal measure. It was hard to think.

“Waking up with bruises around your neck is weird. Being distressed over something that’s not connected to either of us is weird. Lying to Gudako and Scáthach is weird.” Each word was cold and methodical, laid out one after another as if they were nothing but fact.

CasCu bristled, a tad. “I haven’t been lying.”

Alter was quiet for a moment. When he spoke, it was low. Not quite a rumble, but just edging that as well. “We both know what rope burns look and feel like. Specially around our throats - get those dreams enough from our Emiyas, remember? And when something’s going wrong in your head, you lie. You’ve lied ever since your summons. What makes right now any different? Something’s wrong , and you’re hiding it again.”

CasCu grit his teeth, wishing he could hear them grind. “I -”

“Kage wouldn’t stand for it.”

CasCu swallowed a curse. It was a nail in the coffin, and they both knew it. Kage might have acted an ass and a brat, but gods, he cared. He cared so much, and if he sensed anything was wrong, he’d be worse than a dog gnawing on a bone. He wouldn’t stop, wouldn’t rest, until he figured out what it was and fixed it. Just thinking about Kage directing that drive towards him made CasCu’s chest burn in familiar fondness.

He let out a soft breath, and let his shoulder’s slump. “Yeah, I know … but - Lugh’s truth, Alter, I don’t know what’s going on with me right now.”

Alter said nothing. CasCu was thankful. He needed the silence to order his thoughts, struggle to keep them in place. The sensation of steel wool had increased once more. There was a low buzz in the back of his head, and his eye ached as if someone had dug a knife into it. It was hard to work his throat to speak, to get the words out, as if something was constraining his windpipe and keeping him from speech.

“I don’t … remember my dreams. I know they’re not like normal dreams. They feel more like memories - but I have no recollection of them afterward , nothing but impressions. I’m jumping to conclusions I shouldn’t have the knowledge for. There’s - blank spots in my head. And my eye won’t stop fucking hurting -”

Too much. CasCu’s throat closed up, and he squeezed his eyes shut against the sudden onslaught of pain. He focused on breathing through it, slow and steady. It was more pain then Spirit Form normally gave him. It was hard to concentrate.

Alter continued to be quiet. For a long, long moment, he stayed quiet. And when he spoke, it was a rasp of a rumble, low and threatening. The voice of the Mad King, so often used but very effective when wielded. “We’re telling Gudako. No waiting around like you did with your nightmares before.”

“We can’t,” CasCu said, words pouring from his lips before he fully registered them. “Gudako needs to focus on this Lostbelt. It’s not like the Singularities, Alter. If Skadi decides to truly hunt us down, then we’re done for. We can’t risk Gudako being distracted. Whatever’s going on with my head can wait until this is over.”

For a moment, a long moment, Alter was silent. CasCu could practically feel him evaluating him, considering his words, weighing their truth. CasCu hesitated, then gave a little prod. “And honestly? It could be just stress. With Kage how he is … once he’s fixed, once he’s alright, this might all blow over. I’d rather not make a mountain out of a molehill until we’re certain it’s not a molehill.” 

Once more, nothing. CasCu wondered if he’d over done it - then Alter sighed, a rush of mental static. “Fine.”

One word. Either his energy had been completely taken from him by their conversation, or the depression was winning over any anger he might have felt. Maybe both. Likely both. CasCu let out a bit of a sigh, and closed his eyes, blocking out the world for a moment. Let himself exist in the staticky pain of his own mind, where his breathing echoed like someone was breathing with him.

 

They saw the light before they reached the castle.

The brilliant, burning light of fire. Of blues and oranges and reds and purples. All reaching towards the sky and playing around the trees, at the very summit of this mountain. With each step, they got closer to it. It burned hotter. With each step, they could see the outline of the castle within the flames. One made of crystal, or ice, untouched by the raging heat of the fires that surrounded it.

No wonder he’d reacted so viscerally to Galdhøpiggen. Because now, here in this Lostbelt, Galdhøpiggen had taken Hindarfjall’s place. Some part of him had been able to draw the connection between mountains, between stories, placing one where it had not been, mixing the two together to land on the right answer.
Gods, his eye really hurt.

Slowly, they came to a stop. Gudako held up her hand to block out the light, and squinted at the castle. Sweat glinted on her brow. “Fuck,” she breathed, “the air’s hot. We’re not even that close to it.” 

Napoleon nodded, and thudded his cannon into the ground. “The fire is definitely made with magecraft . Nothing else could keep it burning without melting the palace. It makes for one hell of a bounded field - but it’ll take more than a barrier of magecraft flame to keep this Heroic Spirit away! Especially since the goddess within might be the key to turning everything around!” He laughed at that, loud and boisterous.

“Gudako,” Mash said, stepping close to her. “I think - I think this is the Palace of Fire. Both in the poem ‘Sigrdrífumál’ of Poetic Edda and the Völsunga Saga mention a palace on the top of Mt. Hindarfjall, surrounded by a fiery hedge made from the shield of the gods. It was called the Palace of Fire. It's a Bounded Field created by Odin himself.”

No, it wasn’t. This wasn’t Odin’s work.

Napoleon spoke up before CasCu could. “This bounded field hasn’t been here since the Age of Gods,” he said. “At best, it’s an imitation. A bit of fancy magecraft that just looks the part. Your Caster could tell you. But you can see it too, mademoiselle. Look close, within the fire.”

Mash and Gudako exchanged brief glances. “I can’t see anything,” Gudako admitted.

Mash frowned, then leaned slightly forwards, her eyes squinting. The pain in CasCu’s eyes flared up, and he blinked hard, tears burning across his lashes. His sight readjusted, and then - shit. That wasn’t fucking promising.

“There are muspel giants in the flames!” Mash said, her voice spiking a bit in surprise. “Gudako, there’s a bunch of them, just like in the castle.” 

“Great,” Gudako muttered. “You know, for once I’d like an objective to be slightly easier to complete.” 

Napoleon laughed at her, like he knew just as well as anyone that that feat was impossible. “They’re probably on guard duty! Their legs are wrapped up in chains, and they’re walking through the flames like it’s absolutely nothing. Damned impressive, ain’t it? I love tough sorts who are proud of it!”

“Do you think Ophelia was the one who chained them?” Mash asked, her voice soft.

Napoleon hesitated. His cheer decreased, a bit . His expression more somber. “Whoever did it, they don’t have good taste. The old Jötunheimen highlands of myth weren't exactly the place to be for the likes of muspel giants. But either way, we’re going to have to burst our way through one way or another.”

“We’ll have to avoid using Noble Phantasms,” Gudako said. “I want to save those in case we hit something really dangerous. Scáthach , come on out, I know you’ve been itching for a fight. Napoleon, how many are there?”

“Around five of them,” Napoleon said, squinting into the flames. “And they’ve caught sight of us. You’re a rowdy bunch of giants, aren’t you?” He called those last words out, voice carrying across the snow. In answer, the giants roared. CasCu saw one of them leap towards them, then get cut off by the chain around its ankle.

“You said they were chained down,” Gudako said, brows furrowed in thought. “How are they chained?”

“They have pretty long leads,” Napoleon said. “Those leads do overlap, so if we aren’t careful we’ll be facing more than one at a time.” He puffed up a tad, eyes glinting eagerly. “And there might be more I’m not seeing.”

“Got it,” Gudako said, “Mash, how are you feeling?”

Mash took in a deep breath, then nodded sharply, drawing herself up straight. “Ortinax output is stable,” she reported, “Auto-maintenance function, activated. Amalgam Goad, standing by.” In other words, she was ready.

“Good,” Gudako breathed, “ Scáthach , what do you think?”

Scáthach stepped from thin air, one of her spears already in hand. “I think,” she said smoothly, “that their chains are probably designed to release when trouble occurs. We’ll have to hit hard and quick before the others reach us. With the three of us, it’s possible.”

“I’ll have everyone else on standby,” Gudako said, eyes narrowing. “Focus on the one in the middle. I want the shortest path to the castle. There’s no reason to go around if there are more in the flames we can’t see.”

Napoleon nodded, then lifted his cannon. “I’ll do what damage I can while the mademoiselles close the distance!” 

Scáthach made a noise between her teeth, dismissive. Napoleon’s cannon shot covered any retort she might have made. The cannonball struck one of the central giants hard in the leg, and it crumpled beneath them. In a flash, Scáthach was closing the distance, Mash on her heels. Scáthach reached the giant first, her spear lashing out to strike across its neck . Blood sprayed and burned away in the flames. If they were hurting her, she didn’t show it. Mash, however, wasn’t faring so well. She flinched back from the heat even as she moved forwards.

Gudako made a noise between her teeth. “CasCu,” She said, “I need you to take down that bounded field. If you can’t do that, then at least calm the flames down. That’s going to do more damage then the giants.”

CasCu stepped forwards out of Spirit Form. He waited a moment for the echoing sounds of Napoleon’s cannon to fade. Chains snapped. The remaining four giants rushed towards Scáthach and Mash’s location.

“Got it, Master,” CasCu said, then dropped to the snow. He closed his aching eye, and the world leapt into clarity. Like this, the snow practically glowed silver. He could feel the pulse of Skadi’s power through the powder, running all the way up to the base of the bounded field. That was different. There were runes there, at cardinal points - kaunan, thurisaz, and algiz were the main three - but the rest of it felt like modern magecraft. A mix of Skadi’s power and Ophelia’s then, or perhaps Not-Sigurd had helped Ophelia lay down the foundation.

No.

The person they were finding should be effective against Not-Sigurd. She would not be so easily trapped by his magecraft. More likely, this was Ophelia’s work, with Skadi or someone else providing some support. No wonder it appeared to have Odin’s power. Whoever had set this up had used Odin’s rune craft to help shape it - but it was not the same as Odin’s power in truth. CasCu could take it apart.

CasCu pushed himself up and lunged towards the flames. He heard another shot from Napoleon’s cannon. Another one of the muspel had fallen - down to three, then. They were taking them down slower than they had the bergasi and the jotun. Not too surprising, but it meant CasCu had to circle the fight to get to the first cluster of runes.

He could see them, write gold against the snow. The flames were burning the hottest around them, blazing with a ferocity that made his skin prickle. He shoved his hands into their depths and pressed his fingers against the runes. The resulting surge of power was freezing against his skin.  Skadi’s mana - no, someone different. Someone supported by Skadi’s power, but not Skadi herself. Still, it meant he wouldn’t be able to use isa to dismantle this.

Cu made a noise between his teeth, sharp. His head pulsed, painful, in tune with his heart. His fingers dragged patterns across the snow, gold filling in the spaces, reversing what was written. Perpo, to increase the strength of his own magecraft. Laguz, for water, directly contrasting Kaunan. Dagaz, for breakthrough. It wasn’t the complete opposite of thurisaz and algiz, but when he tied it with ansuz, he could change the meaning. Breakthrough to tear down. The runes began to flicker, and dim. CasCu didn’t wait to see if they failed completely. He was off like a shot to the next cluster.

Another giant had been taken down. Two left, fighting furiously. Napoleon had joined the melee, no longer taking potshots from afar. There was a sound in the air, high-pitched , like the whine of a swiftly flying object. CasCu pushed it out of his mind and pressed his fingers against the next rune cluster. The ground shook as another giant fell.

“Guys!” Gudako called, her voice rising over the chaos, “Watch out!”

There was something in her voice, high and sharp, panic and surprise, that made CasCu’s head jerk up. There was something approaching them, and approaching fast. Before he could react, it had impacted the ground. Snow blew into the air, obscuring sight. It cleared swiftly, revealing that thing - cone-shaped , silver with blue crystals, a large blue orb with a purple cross like a pupil in it - barrelling towards Gudako.

“GUDAKO!” Mash shrieked. She tried to disengage from her giant, but it wasn’t letting up. Scáthach was in position to strike , but she would be too slow -

Alter was there, a wash of color before Gudako; his tail smacked into her side and pushed her out of the way. CasCu had just enough time to throw isa, stillness, like a golden harpoon at the damn thing before it struck. His rune, panic cast, slowed it down. Not enough. It still hit Alter with enough force to send him stumbling back, that pointed tip drilling deep into his stomach. 

Cu’s own stomach dropped. His fingers flexed. Bile rose in the back of his mouth, and gods he didn’t have to feel Alter’s pain to know it, and know it well. He knew the feeling of gut wounds. How ripped up and strength drained and pain wracked the body became because of them. Alter was good. He was good, but with his curses in full effect -

The thing retreated out of Alter’s stomach, leaving a gaping hole where it had been. Alter folded, fell. Blood stained the snow. CasCu moved, feet pounding against white powder and into red. He saw the thing twist and start towards Gudako again. A giant fell; he heard the thump of it as it hit the ground, Mash’s cry as she ran to where Gudako was pushing herself up. Metal clanged against metal, an attack barely blocked.

CasCu fell beside Alter, knees buried in the snow, blood staining the blue of his robes purple. Again. Again. Something like laughter, high and hysterical, pitched in the back of his throat. He shoved his hands against Alter’s chest, fingers burning with golden light. Tears ran from his eye; his vision blurred. He could see the runes hanging in the air before him, golden, blazing. 

Kaunan, regeneration. Wunjo, comfort, to numb what pain he could. Naudiz, survival. Sowilo, the sun, health, wholeness. Dagaz, dawn, to power sowilo. Ansuz, Odin, to tie it all together. To make it fucking work. 

The wound begin to knit, slow, steady, flesh reaching out for flesh. Alter didn’t react. But his fingers weren’t fading - he wasn’t fucking fading - and his chest still rose and fell the stubborn fucking bastard he was. There was the booming rumble of thunder and cannon fire in the distance. Lights played across the snow in dizzying flashes of color. CasCu poured more mana through the runes, tears splattering across Alter’s skin and sizzling at the heat of the mana that ran through his body.

Bit by bit, the wound started to close. It started to shrink. CasCu let out half a sob. There was a burst of energy, a loud boom, a crash. Napoleon’s furious roar, “GET OUT OF HERE!” Then a hand hit CasCu’s shoulder. Mana poured through him, a small boost, but a boost nonetheless. Gudako.

“By my Command Seal,” she said, her hand joining CasCu’s on Alter’s chest. The Command Seals on the back of it began to glow. “Alter, you will not die on me, I command you to HEAL!”

The flash of mana was brilliant and burning. For a few seconds, CasCu couldn’t see. When the light cleared, Alter no longer had a gaping wound in his stomach. But there was still a wound, this deep puncture. CasCu sucked in a breath and started pouring mana into his runes again. Alter’s heartbeat felt stronger, his breathing more solid.
Gudako made a noise between her teeth, expression tight. “When we get to the Shadow Border, I’m changing him out,” she said. “He needs to see Nightingale.”

“He can’t keep doing this,” CasCu agreed, shaking. “He can’t fucking - he can’t take any more of this.” Neither of them could. Any more near death injuries and Alter’s curses would rip him apart. And if CasCu had to watch someone he cared for nearly die fucking again - he didn’t know. Gods, he didn’t know what he would do.

Another crash sounded. Breaking ice, a building collapsing. CasCu risked a glance to the side. Mash, Gudako, Scáthach , and Tesla stood there, watching as the ice palace behind the flames began cave in on itself. Napoleon lowered his smoking cannon and winced. “Aw shit.”

Gudako cursed, then pushed herself up. “What did you do?” 

“I just knocked that thing into the palace,” Napoleon said, wincing again, “What if that thing ends up eating our sleeping beauty? Or she gets buried when the palace collapses fully?”

Annoyance flared hot in CasCu’s chest. “It won’t,” he said, cold, “Neither of those things will happen. She’s not going to be so easy to damage.” Not like Alter, whose wound had retreated to the size of a quarter, skin healing over it in a scar. Not like Alter, still unconscious, so, so fragile like all mortals were. With a flick of his fingers, a burst of gold, he sent Alter back to Spirit Form to recuperate, then stood.

Scáthach was watching him, her eyes slightly narrowed. Mash made a noise between her teeth. “How can you be -”

Another boom, the burst, and crash of shattering ice. The thing flew out of the opposite side of the castle. Black blood trailed in rivulets down its form . It impacted the snow, hard, and then collapsed into motes of ice, which disappeared swiftly. And after it, following at a steady, unconcerned pace, a figure, stepping through the flames. 

“Good morning, Everyone.”

She had a soft voice, low and breathy, like the whisper of wind over snow. It matched her expression, gentle, and those purple eyes with the gold pupils, soft. Her hair half covered her face, and cut to fall like two wings encircling her, the outer layer a pure white, the inner blue and sparkling, like rippling water or a starry sky. Her armor was more decorative than anything, dark, with the same shimmer the inside of her hair carried. Crowning her head was a circlet of black bird wings; raven’s wings. The lance she carried was taller than her, with an oversized , heart shaped blade, purple and shimmering with starlight. She held it lightly in her hands, as if it weighed nothing.

CasCu sucked in a sharp, painful breath. He knew. He’d known that she would step from the fires, because it could be no one else but her. Yet he still hadn’t been prepared. Not for the swell of grief, regret, pain to settle in his chest like a cold, thorny ball.

“I am a daughter of Odin,” she breathed, her gaze meeting Gudako’s, “and the eldest of the Valkyries. Once I was both demigod and goddess of old. In Proper Human History, my story and praises were sung in the Poetic Edda and the Völsunga Saga. I am an avenger who once loved Sigurd, only to end up taking his life followed by my own. I am Brynhild , a Heroic Spirit, last Master of Humanity.”

 

They retreated away from the Palace of Flames before the commotion they made drew anything in. CasCu settled into Spirit Form, feeling - weirdly drawn and thin, as if stretched to breaking. He could feel Alter’s pain in the back of his mind, the crackling static of discomfort. It blended in with the fuzzy pain marking his thoughts. His eyes kept on drifting to Brynhild , who walked so lightly across the snow, feet barely making tracks behind her.

They’d been talking, as they walked. CasCu was having a hard time focusing and listening into them. In gray scale, Brynhild was no one special. All the opulence and shimmering colors were drained from her form. But he couldn’t help but feel like he knew her. Like there was something there he was missing. Something welled in his chest, bitter on the back of his tongue. 

Regret.

“Shield maiden Mash Kyrielight, Gudako,” she was saying, “I am prepared to devote myself, body and soul, to your journey to restore proper human history. That I am here in this Lostbelt means that there is someone with whom I must do battle … I am ready and willing to help you however I can, Gudako.” 

“We’ll be glad to have you,” Gudako said. She gave a small smile.

Brynhild dipped her head slightly, smiled in turn. It was a soft thing, solemn, and familiar enough CasCu wanted to bang his head against a tree. Why couldn’t he remember where he’d seen that smile before? 

“On my name, I swear to you, I’ll be of use,” Brynhild said. “My magecraft comes from Primordial Runes, bestowed to me by Odin himself. It is difficult for even powerful Heroic Spirits to resist their effects .”

“Oh ho ho?” Napoleon asked. He’d kept glancing at Brynhild with an appreciative gaze that made CasCu want to punch him. Napoleon’s smile was certainly large, almost expectant, hopeful. “Care to show off some of those runes, mademoiselle?”

“I don’t think we need a demonstration,” Gudako said. She frowned briefly at the ground. “None of us could resist Skadi when she used those runes on us. And we’ve had trouble with Sigurd’s death runes -” She stopped herself, too late.

Brynhild had frozen, the very tip of her spear resting against the snow, drawing a light furrow through the flakes. Her head dipped down. She took a soft breath, then let it out slowly. “I see,” she breathed, “then Sigurd is here, as I expected. Yes, that explains a great deal. I know what I must do now.”

Mash and Gudako paused, Napoleon stopping soon after them. Mash frowned. “Um … Brynhild?” 

Brynhild looked up, but her voice was very quiet. “When I first materialized in this Lostbelt, I wandered it aimlessly, without understanding why I was here. I went around defeating the giants who attacked me, before being sealed away by my sisters, as well as a woman calling herself a Crypter. From then on, I remained asleep in the palace protected by a Bounded Field modeled after those created by my father, Odin, until you woke me … Gudako, I must apologize to you in advance. Should I do battle with Sigurd, I hope you will forgive me if I embarrass myself.”

Napoleon whistled softly. Gudako frowned. “What’s that supposed to mean?” 

Brynhild’s fingers tightened on her spear. CasCu’s gut twisted tight with guilt. Her voice was very soft, as she spoke. “Romance is no fever. It does not stop until you burst into flame, and all that is left is ash. If a hero I am sworn to love comes close to me, I may just end up killing them. I love Sigurd, and I am also the one who killed him. That is why I am strong. When I see him, I am quite certain I won’t be able to restrain myself. I will do my best to resist my urges … but the possibility remains that I may end up going into a rage like a Berserker.”

For a moment, silence. Napoleon looked a bit stunned, and a small viscous part of CasCu was glad of it. More of him twisted up, though, at the quiet way Brynhild spoke. Defeated. Shameful. A thread of distaste that ran through her words, directed at herself. He didn’t like it.

“We’ll be careful if it ever comes to that,” Gudako said.

Mash nodded. “It’s still great to have you on our side.” 

Brynhild froze for a moment. And then she smiled, this smaller, but more real thing. “Thank you,” she said, “but it is possible this Sigurd is not a Servant from Proper Human History. He may not be the Sigurd I know, but someone else entirely with absolutely no knowledge of who I am. Even if that is the case, I’m sure -”

“I don’t know if I agree with that, Mademoiselle Valkyrie,” Napoleon said, his gaze finally focused and not wandering. “Illya said he might not belong to this Lostbelt, and I’m inclined to agree with her.” 

Mash blinked sharply. “Napoleon?”

Napoleon set his cannon into the snow and leaned against it, flourishing his hands. “Well, think about it, mademoiselle. This Lostbelt's been exactly the same ever since 1000 B.C. It's a world basically designed by and for Skadi. A world where the entire human population has been locked down for nearly three thousand years. No one here has any desires intense enough to create an evil dragon like Fafnir for Sigurd to slay. What's more, there's no economy to stimulate desire. Hell, there's not even any concept of a nation-state. If Sigurd had been born in this Lostbelt, he couldn’t have become a hero, as there would have never been an evil dragon for him to defeat!” He said this last bit with another flourish, obviously proud of his deduction.

Gudako blinked sharply. “You’re right,” she breathed, “That first Valkyrie we faced had mentioned that she’d never seen a hero’s spirit before. Hell, the very concept of Valhalla and the collection of souls has changed to accommodate the fact there are no heroes here.”

“A world without heroes,” Brynhild murmured.

“Except for you and me,” Napoleon winked, and CasCu swallowed a growl.

“And the other Servants I have summoned,” Gudako pointed out with a sigh. But she frowned, glancing at her wrist, then back behind them. “Speaking off, we need to get back to the Shadow Border. Alter needs Nightingale’s attention, and I’ll need to choose a Heroic Spirit to fill in his slot. Mash’s equipment could use some tuneups. Grand Cavallo, the Directer, and - well, everyone should be alerted to what’s happened since we’ve got in contact last.”

Mash nodded in agreement. “We should be able to contact them again if we return to the Lake Vänern area.”

“That’s near Village 23,” Napoleon mused. He closed his eyes briefly, then nodded decisively , opening them up with a grin. “Hey, Valkyrie lady. How are you at skiing? Don’t worry if you’re just starting out. I’ll be more than happy to take you by the hand, hold your waist, and show you how it’s done.”

A noise leapt into the back of CasCu’s throat, reflexive and annoyed. He bunched his fingers up, tight - but Brynhild only laughed her soft, breathy laugh. “You’re rather amusing, Emperor Napoleon. But I can’t, I mustn’t , I’m sorry. It is extremely dangerous for a qualified hero to get close to me.”

Napoleon just grinned. “Dangerous? Sounds thrilling! Don’t worry, I’m perfectly delighted to risk my life for a beautiful woman.”

“Even for Ophelia?” Mash asked.

“Of course!” Napoleon proclaimed. He grinned even wider, and CasCu scowled down at his invisible hands. His chest prickled, hot, with protectiveness. Brynhild was perfectly capable of protecting herself. If Napoleon did get too close, she probably would kill him. And yet - it was as if she was Finscoth, with suitor’s vying over her hand. CasCu wanted to beat Napoleon over his head with a staff.

Gods, there was something wrong with his head. Brynhild was not Finscoth. They weren’t anything similar. So why -

Brynhild was laughing again, soft and amused. The sound whisked away CasCu’s confusion as if it was nothing, as if it was just foolishness. “We were talking about skiing?” She reminded them, “I am not very comfortable with the sport, but don’t worry, I am quite comfortable traversing snow.”

“All right!” Napoleon laughed. He picked up his cannon, jumped back onto his skis. “Let’s get our new Grande Armée underway!”

Gudako and Mash exchanged glances. Then with a huff, Gudako stepped up behind mash, wrapping her arms around Mash’s waist, her feet sliding into the spots on those skis. “New Grande Armée , moving out!” She called .

 

To CasCu’s annoyance, they did not run straight towards the Shadow Border. Oh, they were headed in that direction, but Napoleon had encouraged them to stop at Village 67 first. The light was starting to fall again, night slowly encroaching on them, and he wanted to check in to gather some information.

The village itself was painfully similar in construction to Village 23, Gerda’s village. Too many children, too few adults. A wooden fence and a monstrous bounded field tied to it, obviously Skadi’s work. There was something else there too, a second bounded field that CasCu was having a hard time discerning. He kept on getting distracted by the way Gudako and Mash watched these playing kids. The darkness in their eyes. The way their hands linked together, fingers twisted up tight.

This was painful, for them. To see all this life that would be snuffed out at the end of the Lostbelt. CasCu moved between them and set his hands on their shoulders. He remained in Spirit Form, but he knew by their reflexive, small jerks that they felt the touch. He could only hope that they felt the comfort behind it too.

Napoleon came back not long after. He bent down to greet the kids that had crowded around Gudako and Mash, then sent them back off to playing with their friends back in the village. “What’s with the long faces, you two?” He asked, finishing the last bit of his trek towards their side, “This is your first time meeting these people! Turn those frowns upside down, travelling’s supposed to be fun!”

“It is fun,” Gudako said, her words a whisper of normal. She drew a deep breath, then looked at Napoleon, square in the eye. “What did you learn?”

Napoleon considered her a bit longer, before speaking. “It seems like it’s business as usual,” he said, “Nobody's seen any envoys flying around on patrol, or heard anything about giants acting up. Looks like we're safe for the moment.”

“If that’s the case, we should be able to get a good night’s sleep,” Mash said.

“Yup,” Napoleon nodded, “the only thing is, there’s a Bounded Field here. A new one.”

“CasCu pointed it out,” Gudako said. “It’s around the village’s gate and surrounding walls, right?” 

“Yes,” Brynhild said. She had finally managed to pull herself away from the group of children she had been entertaining. She half closed her eyes, then dipped her head. “With apologies for my presumptuousness … but I believe it is a powerful field designed to defend against outside enemies, like a great shield or impenetrable fortress. I can't make out the exact spell type, but I do know it is magecraft on a level fitting the Age of Gods. If nothing else, I can tell you it’s not based on runecraft .”

“Which would mean it’s not Skadi’s work,” Mash breathed.

Gudako frowned. “Then who did?”

“The only one here with non rune craft magecraft is Ophelia,” Mash said, her lips tugging into a frown, “But that can’t be right. Her specialty is summoning spells, not Bounded Fields. And Gudako and I haven’t been here before. So if none of us did it, then who could have possibly placed it?”

“Mulling over it isn’t going to get us anywhere,” Napoleon said. He stretched, then settled with a grin. “Let’s just take things easy here the rest of the day, and then pick things back up tomorrow -”

The comms link on Gudako’s wrist crackled. For a moment, there was nothing but hazy static. Gudako and Mash instantly converged around it, bending around it. “Director?” Gudako asked, a sliver of hazy hope in her voice.

“AHA!” Came Director Gordolf’s voice, staticy but there, “I knew I could do it if I tried! Shadow Border here, I trust you can hear me!”

“We hear you loud and clear, Director,” Gudako said, her voice almost raspy with relief.

Gordolf laughed. “Don't be so surprised. It's a miraculous coincidence. I have no earthly idea how we got reconnected. In this case, my abundant charm played no part whatsoever.” He paused, brief, then said, “Oh, and incidentally, it seems we will only stay connected for a few seconds more at best.”

Napoleon crowded around the comm link with Gudako and Mash, peering at the surface. “Who is this guy? That Gordolf you were telling me about?” 

“Hai, this is him,” Mash murmured.

Gordolf sputtered on the other end, and CasCu could practically feel the force of his scowl even if he didn’t see it. “This is no time for formalities!” Gordolf snapped. “Fujimaru, we have an emergency on our hands! The old Lake Vänern! A group of giants is headed towards the village where Gerda lives even as we speak! There's no way a bunch of children and young adults can fight them off. If the giants force their way inside, they'll kill the lot !”

Mash’s face went pale. Gudako froze, as if smacked.

“One of our Mystic Code drones only just picked it up,” Gordolf continued, “I don't know where you are right now, but you need to get there double time and rescue them. That village may be useless to us as a source of new information now, but it could still easily serve as a base for our allies. You must protect it at all costs!”

Chapter 9: Chapter 9

Summary:

*Flight of the Valkyries starts playing*

Notes:

Hey everyone!! Thank you so much for your comments and kudos!! I hope you all enjoy, and have a wonderful day!

 

TW: suicide via battle. From "And now, that inability to control their rage destroyed Thrud and Hildr." to "Ortlinde gasped, her hands covering her mouth." It's only a couple lines, but heads up, tis there!

Chapter Text

They moved, and moved swiftly, leaving Village 67 behind them. They skied through the onset of dusk, the painful blue of the sky slowly turning to warmer colors, redder, then darker and colder as night fell in earnest. While they moved, Gudako threw out ideas. Napoleon and Tesla would deal with the majority of the giants, with Brynhild and Mash holding the front line. CasCu and Scáthach would support as needed. 

The absence of Alter in that plan was painful. It was foolish - Alter was recovering, not dead, but still the emptiness where his name should have been hurt. CasCu couldn’t help but reach out to brush his mind against Alter’s. There was nothing but static. There, but not fully present. CasCu wondered if Alter was so deep into his curses that he didn’t even feel the touch.

Something curdled in CasCu’s stomach. He growled, low in his throat.

The night was light by the curling green lines of the aurora borealis. It lit the snow beneath them in soft, colorful arcs, painting the ground in watercolor. Even then, they could still see the lights of Village 23 before them. CasCu couldn’t make out much - a black shape with the diffused glow above it. 

Napoleon saw more. “The outer walls and gates are intact!” He called, “I don’t see anyone outside. If they made it in, they did so from the other side.”

“I don’t hear any fighting,” Brynhild said. Despite her lack of skis, she’d kept up well with them, near hovering as she zoomed over the snow. “If the giants got in, then we’re too late to save these people.”

Mash’s face paled. Gudako’s face flinched into Mash’s back, before she gripped Mash hard and called out. “Get closer! We’ll climb over the gate. It could be that they got in and are in the fields, and haven’t reached the town yet. We can’t waste any time.”

They picked up the pace, racing across the snow. The lights of Village 23 grew brighter. But it did not sound like it was in the middle of a giant invasion - it was too quiet for that. Quiet like night, or like everything was dead. 

As soon as they hit the wall, Napoleon and Brynhild were helping Mash and Gudako climb up. CasCu didn’t bother with climbing. He stepped through the wall in spirit form, and stared at this corner of the village. It was silent. Quiet. No destroyed houses, no bodies on the ground. Lights came diffused from windows - not the burn of torches. If there was blood in the air, he couldn’t smell it.

Napoleon thudded into the ground with an audible oomph, Gudako in his arms. Brynhild had a softer landing, and she set Mash down gently onto the ground, before looking up. “I saw nothing in the fields,” she said, “but we should still hurry. We should start by going to the center of the village.”

No one argued. They all moved, quiet and soft, but quick as well. The houses passed by, one after another. Some were dark. Some had lights in them. It was still quiet, deathly still. CasCu could only hope that Brynhild’s news was a good one. Or that they had somehow managed to reach this place before the giants did.

The center of the village was just as quiet as everything else. Mash looked around, gripping her shield tight. “I don’t see any people out and about,” she murmured, a rustle of a whisper, “maybe they’ve all holed up inside to stay safe?”

“Plenty of the houses have lights on,” Gudako agreed. She spun around in a circle, this frantic movement. “I don’t see any signs of an attack, or -” She cut herself off, biting her lip.

Brynhild glanced up suddenly. “Somebody’s coming,” she said, her voice soft, fingers tightening around her spear.

Gudako, Mash, Napoleon, and Brynhild fell into swift position, ready for a fight, an enemy. From one of the side alleys, darker than the rest of the streets, a small voice called out. “Wh-who’s there? I thought I heard voices … you shouldn’t be out this late! I know I can’t really talk, but …”

The voice was young, childish, and heavily accented. CasCu recognized it immediately.

Gerda.

Mash and Gudako froze. They were still frozen, when Gerda stepped out of the alleyway, her hands held close to her chest. She froze at the sight of them as well. For a moment, CasCu thought she would run away. After everything she’d seen Mash and Gudako do, CasCu wouldn’t be too surprised. 

But Gerda was made of sterner stuff. She swallowed hard, then drew herself up, her small chin tipping up. “I- what are you doing here?”

Mash and Gudako glanced at each other. It was Mash who spoke, her voice soft. “We came here to protect the village. We thought that there might be giants … on the way to attack it.” 

Gerda hesitated. She glanced at Brynhild, her gaze lingering on the feathered armor, her crown. Then her body relaxed. She gave both Gudako, Mash, and Napoleon a smile. “I’m glad you stopped fighting with the envoys,” she said, “I was - I was worried about you after that big fight … but it looks like it’s all okay now! But we shouldn’t be talking out here … why don’t you come inside?” 

That was not the reaction any of them had been expecting. If there were giants, then Gerda should have been more scared, ready to flinch back or fight at the name of them. But if they hadn’t come yet - that should have been the piece of information she latched onto. Gudako, Mash, Napoleon, and Brynhild looked at each other. CasCu could see them running the same calculations in their head. 

Gerda started off before they could answer, back into the shadows. After another few glances, the group followed after her. Gudako’s voice was soft, questioning. “Gerda, do you mind if I ask a question?”

Gerda’s shoulders flinched, then she looked down. “I’m not sure that I can answer it very well,” she mumbled, “I don’t know many things.” 

“Is that why you’re not running from us?”

They obviously weren’t the words Gudako meant to say. She flinched back, slight, and the look Mash sent her was shocked. Gerda stiffened, freezing. Her hands balled into her dress. Her voice was very small, very tiny. “I don’t - know why you were arguing with the envoys,” she says, her eyes hot, “but you’ve obviously stopped, and if you’re not dead, then you and the envoy’s must have made up … like I said, I don’t know much. So I have to go off what I know. And that’s what I know.” 

An assumption, then, in all the wrong ways. CasCu watched Gudako’s expression twist. Mash reached out, squeezing his hand. CasCu spoke, soft, to Gudako’s ears only, “She can’t know the truth.” 

“I know,” Gudako sent back. She breathed deep, then smoothed out her face. “Thank you, Gerda. That trust means an - it means a lot to us. Can you tell me if anything unusual happened today? Particularly from around sunset until now?”

Gerda blinked. She threw a glance over her shoulder, then resumed walking. “Right before sunset, a stranger came to the gate from outside,” she said, “The - the grown-ups offered shelter from the cold, but the stranger just said ‘No need for that, I am not cold’. But their clothes were all ragged, so we were worried. We invited them inside again, but they said that they were from Chaldea, and to not worry about them.” 

Gudako and Mash froze. Napoleon and Brynhild nearly ran into them. Napoleon’s hand fell on Gudako’s shoulder, giving her a tight squeeze. Mash’s voice was thick. “And then?”

Gerda glanced back again, then smiled. “After that, the stranger said a blessing for everyone in the village, then left.”

Mash made a noise between her teeth. Gudako’s fingers flexed on hers. “Did you see their face?” Gudako asked.

Gerda shook her head. “No, it was covered.”

“Just like in Russia,” Mash breathed. Gudako nodded slightly, her expression tight. Napoleon leaned forwards, but Gudako shook her head, mouthed a ‘we’ll tell you later’.

Gerda turned away and continued walking. The more they spoke, the more she seemed at ease. A part of CasCu was surprised … but should he have been? This girl had grown up with death at a young age as a constant. Though the death of the Valkyries must have been shocking and horrific, Brynhild was obviously one of them, and Gerda did not know Brynhild’s true loyalties or background. And it had been days, since that incident. She would have had time to think it over, to decide how she felt about it.

“Oh!” Gerda said, pausing again, “Laura did say she thought she heard really loud footsteps! We usually never hear loud footsteps except on ordained day, so she wasn’t sure if they belonged to giants or not … but she did say she could hear them before the stranger showed up.”

Napoleon gave a wise nod. “That stranger probably put up the bounded field and drove the giants away. I wouldn’t be surprised if he did that at Village 67 as well.” He hesitated, then his shoulders drooped, and he sighed. “Which means that we rushed all this way for nothing.” 

Brynhild shot him a look. “We should be pleased that no one got hurt,” she said, calm, “and that Gudako does not need to expend any more mana.”

Napoleon raised his hands swiftly. “Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind! It’s a good thing, it’s just …” he hesitated, searching for words, then shook his head.

“It’s fine,” Gudako said, glancing back at him, before looking at Gerda. “I wish I didn’t have to ask, but … do you mind if we stay the night? We’ll be gone in the morning, if you don’t want us to stay, but we just need a place to sleep …”

Gerda hesitated, and CasCu saw her eyes flash, uncertain - before she nodded, looking away. “I still have some soup left from dinner,” she murmured, “I don’t mind sharing.”

Mash gave her a small smile, thankful. “It’s appreciated, Gerda.” 

Gerda gave them a small smile in turn. It didn’t reach her eyes, but she had a good brave face, so no one pointed that out. Not that anyone would have, anyway.

 

Gerda served Gudako and Mash the remnants of her fish soup. Napoleon and Brynhild didn’t take any, despite Gerda’s objections, and they only narrowly escaped Gerda forcing the meal upon them. But Gudako and Mash ate, and listened to Gerda talk. At the beginning she was shy, uncertain, but slowly she gathered her strength and courage throughout the meal, opening up about village life since they had left the village. Once the food was done, she took the dishes away to clean.

Brynhild watched her go, her expression soft. “She’s a good girl,” she murmured, her voice soft.

“She is,” Gudako mumbled. Her expression held something like tired grief in it. She reached out, and Mash took her hand, gave a tight squeeze. Gudako swallowed, then looked up. “What can you tell me about the bounded field?” 

“Essentially, it’s the same as the one in Village 67,” Brynhild said, “powerful, but not based in rune craft. There’s only one difference.”

Napoleon nodded, his face grave. “It looks like the original bounded field had a small tear in it. Probably from our fight with the Valkyries. I’m guessing that’s what drew the giants to this town … so essentially, they cleaned up the mess we made.” He made a face, grimacing hard. “Not only that, but they did a great job of it! Not even an ant could get through now.”

“Not that there are ants outside the bounded field,” Brynhild murmured.

Napoleon laughed, sudden and bright. “Good point!” He glanced to Gudako and Mash. “How about you two? Any luck reaching the Border again?”

“Not yet,” Mash said, “I have tried reaching them multiple times, but I haven’t been able to get through.” 

“It’s probably the new bounded field,” Gudako said. “We could get through before, but it wasn’t a great connection at Village 67, and that one had the bounded field too …”

“That’s probably it,” Napoleon agreed.

They were all silent for a moment, the quiet rushing into fill the space where words had been. Gudako and Mash looked so tired, leaning against each other, eyes half closed. Gerda poked her head into the room, then spoke, her voice small, soft. “Um … Lady Mash, Lady Gudako, can I … talk to you?”

Gudako and Mash blinked, then looked up. “Of course,” Gudako said, immediately.

“I … realized something,” Gerda said, before stepping forwards, into the room. She stepped up to the table, then sat there, opposite of them. Her fingers tangled into her dress, and she glanced at them, uncertain. “Between you, Napoleon, that man at the gate, and the fight you had before… I think I understand now. There are other people out there beyond the envoys, which means … you and your friends aren’t really envoys, are you?” 

Mash hesitated. “I-”

“It’s alright,” Gerda said, rushing. “I guess it’s my fault that I made the assumption, but it really explains a lot of things.” She fell silent, for a moment, biting her lips. “Things were so crazy during ordained day, I just think … I wanted to say you two were very brave. I might not understand what all you were saying, why you were fighting, and I don’t like it that you fought against the envoys, but … I think it’s brave that you stood up for what you believed in … and I’m glad I finally got to tell you.” She smiled then, small and tiny.

Something in CasCu’s chest tightened. This girl was a good one, brave and strong and smart. Too strong, for someone who was still so young. He wished it didn’t have to be so. Wished she’d had a chance to grow up properly.

Gudako seemed stunned. She swallowed hard, licked her lips reflexively, like she was searching for an answer. Mash was quicker to answer, though her words were very soft. “… thank you, Gerda. That means a lot to us.” 

“Hai, it does,” Gudako breathed.

And Gerda? She smiled at them, small and warm and uncertain, but real. Brave, growing, changing into a new person with each interaction. Learning, as children were apt too. But CasCu could see in Gudako and Mash’s eyes the guilt, tight around the corners, dark in the depths of their pupils. Gerda had no future in this Lostbelt … but she would have even less of a future once they were done here. 

 

No one slept well that night. CasCu didn’t even try. Somehow, he knew that a dream would be waiting for him. It was the raised hairs at the back of his neck. A pain in his eye and around his throat. The premonition that he had gained when nightmares were all that greeted him when he slept. Instead, he kept watch in case those giants came back.

They didn’t. 

The night was quiet, and they were all left alone with their thoughts.

 

Grand Cavallo contacted them in the morning with a screech of feedback. Her voice was distant and crackling, but the excitement in it carried well and clear. “Testing, testing! Can you guys hear me alright?” 

Both Gudako and Mash jumped. Gerda, who had been gathering plates from breakfast, squeaked and ran from the room. Mash near lunged forwards, her fingers wrapping tight around Gudako’s wrist. “We can hear you!”

“Wonderful!” Grand Cavallo proclaimed. “I think these adjustments should help us stay connected.”

“That’s good to hear,” Gudako said. She relaxed a tad, her shoulders slumping. “It’s good to hear your voice.”

“Aww, thank you! It’s good to hear your voice too,” Grand Cavallo sang, pleased, “unfortunately we don’t have much time to sit and talk. We have a bit of an emergency right now, so we have to be quick!” 

“What’s the situation?” Gudako asked, straightening.

“The Shadow Border is currently under attack. We’re being chased by a bunch of winged humanoids!”

Gudako and Mash exchanged glances. Napoleon leaned forwards, his voice dipping quiet, to keep away from any prying ears. “That sounds like those mass-produced Valkyries,” he mused, thoughtful.

“I thought that might be the case!” Grand Cavello said, eagerly, “since we’re in Norse lands and all, the Valkyries were the first thing that - wait, did you say mass-produced?” She made a sound that Da Vinci would have, so long ago. Like an idea had struck her. “I like the sound of that. To have a whole fleet of mini Border’s at my command - Er - that can be a later project! We just got the Border’s controls back up and running this morning. So of course, the first thing our fearless leader decides is to take the Border outside our Bounded Field!” 

“You can’t blame this on me!” Gordolf cried. CasCu could hear the strain in his voice. “I was trying to find a place with better signal! Besides, you could have camouflaged us once we were mobile!”

“Anyway,” Grand Cavallo cut in, “That’s why we’ve been able to call you again, so it isn’t all bad news -” 

A boom, a crash, they all flinched back. Gordolf swore sharply. “Driving on these snow plains is so horrible!” He cried out, “It’s like one big sheet of ice!” Another boom, like an explosion.

“Director!” Mash cried out.

Gudako stood sharply. “Are you under attack right now?”

“Yup!” Grand Cavallo said, “We’re pretty much at our limit here! We’re about fifty kilometers west of Norrköping! Sending the coordinates now. If you can get here as quick as you can, that’d be appreciated!” 

Another screech of static. Gudako stared at her wrist, then glanced up. “The connection cut out,” she said, “We have to move, now. Gerda!”

“Y-yes?” Gerda asked, poking her head around the door. She’d probably been listening in on their conversation. CasCu wouldn’t be too surprised if that was the case. “Are… you off to help your friends?” She asked.

“We are,” Mash murmured. “Thank you for your hospitality, Gerda. Especially after everything you’ve been through.” 

Gerda gave a small smile. “Of course,” she said, “Just - be safe, please?”

“We will be,” Gudako said, “I promise.”

 

Gudako, Mash, Napoleon, and Brynhild moved at reckless speeds, racing over the snow with a swiftness hard to follow. CasCu could feel that same urgency pulling at his stomach. Kage was in the Shadow Border. Kage was in the Shadow Border, still injured, unable to defend himself. That fear tugged him forwards, the hot rush of possessiveness, desire to keep him safe. They couldn’t stop for anything.
Otherwise, it might be too late.

“We’re getting closer!” Mash cried out, one hand held in front of her, as if to make it easier to see where she was going.

Napoleon pointed. “Is it that big chunk of armor plating over there?”

CasCu followed the line of his finger. There, hard to see through the wind and the snow, was the careening shadow border. And following it, a flock of algiz runes. The Valkyries. CasCu’s chest tightened. He fingers curled in on each other, and he swallowed hard, hands shaking. That jostling couldn’t be good for the patients inside. He could only hope that nothing vital had been struck yet.

“Hai!” Gudako shouted. Her voice was stolen, swift, by the wind.

Napoleon laughed. “Magnifique! It's not so much a vehicle as it is a wondrous-armored transport!” He sounded truly delighted about it too.

“We’ll have to jump aboard,” Brynhild noted. She skated over the snow, her spear trailing a line of flakes behind her. Her eyes were sharp, focused on the shadow border and the Valkyries chasing after it. If she was conflicted about this task, she didn’t show it.

Napoleon laughed again. “What a great idea!”

“I’m not sure that I can make that jump!” Mash protested, her words rushed.

“Don’t worry,” Napoleon said, “I’ll help you two up.” He swept up beside Mash and Gudako, then grabbed both of them around their waists. It was a ridiculous sight, a man of Napoleon's stature carrying two women his size and bigger, one in each arm. His ski’s dug into the snow. He spun, then jumped. Mash and Gudako yelled as he flew through the air, landing heavily on the Shadow Border’s top. “And he sticks the landing!” He crowed, setting Gudako and Mash back down. He kept their hands on their shoulders, steadying. “Just don’t fall off, you two, it’s pretty windy!” 

“We won’t,” Gudako promised, her fingers bunching up slightly.

Brynhild landed lightly next to them. She stared up at the throng of circling Valkyries, each one identical to one another, besides small differences in face shape and hair color. So similar, so numerous. Her expression softened. “I knew about them,” she breathed, “I thought I understood… but seeing them here, like this, I cannot help but feel an ache in my heart. These are my soulless sisters … Valkyries made to be automata and nothing more.”

CasCu felt something inside him twist. It wasn’t his fault. But staring at the tired, saddened expression on Brynhild’s face, he couldn’t help but feel like some blame was his own. It made no sense. He couldn’t help it.

“They are fully equipped with systems and functionality that allow them to carry out their orders. In fact, that's all they have,” she said, her fingers tightening around her spear, eyes cast to the sky. “They do not have the uncertainty that comes with even the limited emotions we Valkyries were given. They might be highly functional and efficient … but I cannot see them as anything but tragic.” 

“How would you like us to deal with them?” Gudako asked, her voice soft.

Brynhild shook her head. She took a few steps forwards, her feet light and ghosting over the top of the Shadow Border. The blade off her spear seemed to give off a soft purple glow. “Can you hear me, my sisters? My poor, soulless sisters?” She called out, soft voice raised. Her fingers flicked at her side, and the wind whipped up, carrying her voice to the Valkyries watching them. Rune craft. “My True Name is Brynhild. I am the eldest of you. I am the one upon whom you were most likely based. I am asking you all to stand down. No matter what the circumstances of your births … I have no wish to do any of you harm. Please, leave.”

Since Brynhild had become visible, the Valkyries had stopped their attacks. After she spoke, they froze altogether. More than a dozen figures, each one a burning algiz rune, staring down at them. As one, they spoke, their voice a harmonious buzz. “Sister. Sister Brynhild. Sister. The elite commander who stands above us all. So she really does exist … Inexplicable. Inexplicable. We were only ordered to destroy this impure slab of metal … Inexplicable. Inexplicable. Commander units, we request additional orders regarding this situation. Sister. Sister Brynhild … means to fight us! Ridiculous. Impossible. Ridiculous. Impossible. Impossible. Impossible!”

If he listened hard, CasCu could just tell the individuals apart, the different inflections. And at the sound, something in CasCu’s chest broke. This was never what the Valkyries were supposed to be. Automata, yes, dedicated to their job and nothing above it. But there were supposed to hold rudimentary personalities, have some semblance of emotion. After Brynhild, he’d made sure that they had less free will, less ability to choose, but they were never this.

“What has she done to you,” He breathed, staring at the flock of Valkyries above them.

Brynhild’s voice carried high, singing over the sky, loud and clear like crystal. She gripped her spear tight. Her hair started to waft around her. “It is not impossible at all, my young sisters! So please, leave now. If you refuse … I will have no choice but to destroy you!”

The Valkyries hovered there. Stunned, debating. In the space of silence, Gudako’s voice rushed through their minds in a rumble of static. Scáthach , come out. Tesla, get some rest, and take Alter to the infirmary. Raikou, Nobunaga, come out. CasCu -”

“I’m staying,” CasCu said, before she could order him back. “I have to see this through.”

“And I ask that you do not interfere,” Brynhild said, her voice soft. “This is between me and them. I have to deal with my soulless sisters, even if it means destroying them. So please, Gudako, stay and watch, offer back up as needed, but let me deal with them.”

Alright,” Gudako said, “I still want those changes to rotation made, though. Mash, Napoleon, I want you to focus on protecting the Shadow Border. I don’t know how many more hits we can take, but having the Shadow Border injured again is a no-go . Got it?” 

“Aye aye, Maître !” Napoleon proclaimed.

“Hai,” Mash sent. She dug her feet into the Shadow Border’s roof, and planted her shield, waited. Waited.

After a moment, long, a single Valkyrie drifted down. Green tendrils of hair splayed out from under her hood. She said nothing, simply approached, the light from her wings blazing. She landed on the hood of the still moving Shadow Border - despite the way it twisted, spun, like the vehicle itself was trying to throw her off. She said nothing still as she attacked. 

Brynhild moved. The battle couldn’t even be called a battle - it was over in an instant. Two swipes of her spear, one to knock away the Valkyrie’s attack, the second to cut her in half. The Valkyrie disappeared before she hit the Shadow Border’s roof.

Brynhild was silent for a moment, before she looked up, staring at the circling flock. “Do you see the difference in our power?” She asked. “Know the grief of one of your sisters' destruction. Any further loss would be meaningless. I am sure another will be manufactured, but that is not the same as returning from death. It only means a new one will have been created in her place. Individually, your lives are so very finite. Now leave, my sisters. Please, don't make me destroy any more of you.”

Her plea was soft, gentle. The blade of her spear was still stained in blood. And for a moment, there was silence again. Silence, except for the rumble of the Shadow Border and the hum of the Valkyries wings as they kept up with the movement. The Shadow Border’s movements were becoming more erratic. Napoleon gripped Gudako’s shoulder, keeping her steady.

“I’m sorry sister, but we cannot leave.”

That voice - the breath left CasCu’s lungs. His hands shook. Gods, a part of him didn’t want to watch this. He couldn’t look away. 

“I’ve heard you before,” Brynhild murmured, looking up, eyes scanning the crowd.

“You mentioned a difference in power?” Thrud asked, her voice ringing through the air. “True, these mass-produced units are no match for you individually. But we do have numbers on our side! I wonder … How long can you last against a hundred mass-produced Valkyries, sister!? How about you, Chaldean dregs!?”

The speakers of the Shadow Border flared, static shattering the air. “Oh, you bet we’ll hang in there!” Grand Cavallo called, “We haven’t even gotten started! Especially now that we’ve had time to regroup!”

There was a screech as the emergency brake was struck. Gudako yelped. If it wasn’t for Mash and Napoleon, gripping on tight to her, she would have flown off the top of the Shadow Border. Napoleon laughed, something loud and delighted. “Seems like your Shadow Border still has some moves in it! How deviously clever of you! Not bad at all.” 

Gudako’s eyes widened. She grinned wide, sharp. “The escape route was planned.” She said, and there was something like a victory in the words, sharp, pleased surprise.

“You got it, maitre!” Napoleon said, setting her down, “You’ll see what your friends were up to very soon!”

Mash’s eyes widened. Her head shot up, in the direction the Shadow Border was hurtling. She gripped Gudako’s arm tight. “Senpai! Ortinax is picking up a group of giants close by!” 

Gudako’s eyes widened. She began to laugh, something bright and sporadic and startled, as if the penny had just dropped. CasCu felt it click too, a rush, his eyes widening, pain shooting through him. That clever little Grand Cavello - 

“I haven’t just been instructing people to fix up the border this whole time,” Grand Cavallo sang, with a downright devious little laugh, “I also figured the giants out! They're basically biological heat-seeking missiles. If something's warm, they go after it! Humans, animals, Heroic Spirits … They'll go after any of them! And the Valkyries? They’ve got artificial hearts, and their bodies are just as warm as a human’s!” 

A roar, splitting from the trees in front of them. It was hard to see with the speed they were going, especially in spirit form, but somehow that felt like it didn’t matter. CasCu could see the giants clearly as they stepped out from the forest, between the crystal trees, their icy beasts at their heels. Some of them held giant chunks of ice. The Shadow Border was a target - but the flock of Valkyries was more so. 

For a fleeting moment, CasCu thought of the troupe of Giants and Valkyries that had been working together - but this was obviously not the same. For the first thrown, bolder collided right with one of the Valkyries in the air, with enough force to turn her into a splatter of blood.

“You’re a genius, Grand Cavallo,” Gudako breathed.

“I know,” Grand Cavallo said, smug. “All this ruckus ought to draw more giants’ attention. So we should have the time to get a clean get away!”

“We need to use this time to find their commander,” Napoleon said. He’d lifted his cannon, pointed at the Valkyries. A fleet of them was hurtling towards the giants. More icy boulders shot through the air with terrifying speed. “I know Thrud’s here; we heard her voice. They wouldn’t bring a hundred of them here without someone to control them! She’s got to be up there somewhere! If we can find her, take her out, then the Queen’s forces will have taken a harsh blow. Victory will be ours!”

“I will focus on finding Thrud,” Brynhild said. She set her spear down, and cast her gaze to the sky. The wind tugged at her hair and her skirt, pushing her forwards, whipping cloth and strands upwards.

“Alright,” Gudako said. “Mash, focus on protecting Brynhild and myself. CasCu - you can stay, but you’re strictly on backup. I want Raikou and Nobunaga out now. Raikou, your job is the ones that make it to the top of the Shadow Border. Nobunaga, shoot as many angels as you want to out of the sky.” 

The two appeared in a swash of mana. Raikou stood there, balanced on the Shadow Border, her hair waving, electricity crackling across her blade. Beneath the sound, CasCu heard Napoleon whistle. But the Madness in Raikou’s eyes could not be ignored, the bloodlust and the grin. “Don’t worry, my dear,” she said, “mother will make sure you won’t have to look at these insects anymore.”

Nobunaga’s laugh was wild as she appeared. Unlike Raikou, she didn’t stand on the Shadow Border’s top. She stood on top of two of her muskets, a third hanging across her shoulders. Her grin was sharp, dangerous, and eager. “Like the Demon King of the Seventh Heaven could ignore such a command!” She cackled, and five more muskets appeared around her head, floating in place. “We’ll fill the snow with their bodies!”

How Kage had become friends with such a bloodthirsty menace, CasCu still had trouble understanding. But right now, Nobunaga’s particular buffs against divinity would be useful, even if - if -

It felt like his heart was breaking.

CasCu watched the Valkyries die. Napoleon’s cannon fire; Nobunaga’s guns. The thrown boulders of the jotunn, which tumbled from the sky hard enough to strike the Shadow Border’s roof with heavy impacts. The Valkyries didn’t roll over and take it - of course they didn’t. He didn’t design them to be passive. Some of them attacked the Shadow Border, only to be felled by Raikou’s blade. Other’s intercepted the giants, culling them, reducing the numbers throwing boulders.

The ground was littered with bodies and blood. Shattered bits of wings dusted the top of the Shadow Border. The Valkyries fought and died, and CasCu watched as their corpses disappear into golden motes. The real Valkyries would have just lain there, like living things. But these mass-produced things were more magecraft than flesh and blood, for all they gave off a heat signature similar to humans.

What wretched creatures. An abomination of his creations. 

Skadi had a lot to pay for.

“Well, what’s the word, beautiful Valkyrie?!” Napoleon cried, over another shot of his cannon, “Have you found your sister yet?”

Brynhild was quiet for a moment. She stood perfectly still, allowing Mash to move around her, protecting her from Valkyrie attacks and falling rocks. Gudako clung to her back for stability, as the Shadow Border’s movements had only become more frantic and wild. Yet Brynhild let none of this bother her. Her voice was very soft. “Almost,” she said.

“Don’t worry about anything but your search,” Gudako said. She gave Brynhild’s shoulder a pat. “With Mash keeping us safe, we’ve got nothing to worry about.”

Brynhild smiled, soft and slight. “Thank you. The determination you two hold is wonderful to behold. Though I hesitate to call it daring, your resolve shines bright nonetheless. It reminds me of the night sky, glittering with stars. Which is why I am free to cast my gaze far and wide. I have her. I see her.”

CasCu looked up, to the thronging Valkyries.

“Is it Thrud?” Napoleon asked.

CasCu’s throat closed. His knees felt weak, his fingers clenching on his sp- staff. His eye burned, painful sparking, and it was hard to breathe, hard to swallow. He saw her too, in the midst of the greatest clump. And he saw the two hanging right beside Thrud as well. Hildr, Ortlinde. All three had survived. And now they were all here to die.

Of course, they were. They had survived Ragnarök. But Ragnarök was supposed to be a new beginning, not just an end. Of course his three daughters would die here. Ragnarök was not something that could be escaped.

“It seems my beloved younger sisters have survived in this Lostbelt for a long, long time,” Brynhild murmured. He wondered if she was thinking the same thing he was. That this situation was fated. The irony of it.

“You’re right,” Napoleon said, a bit more solemn, barely heard over the constant rat-tat-tat of Nobunaga’s guns. “The three sisters that survived are the originals. The commanders. Skadi’s aides-de-camp. They were the models for all the other replica Valkyries, and they're the ones who lead them.”

Brynhild nodded. She glanced to Gudako, and spoke, soft. “No matter what happens, I want to deal with my younger sisters. Will you let me?”

Gudako hesitated, then nodded. “Yes. We’ll focus on keeping everything off of you.”

Brynhild smiled, small, then moved Gudako towards Mash. She plucked her spear from the top of the Shadow Border, and strode forwards, her gaze turned towards the sky. There was a lump in CasCu’s throat. His hands shook. He wanted to race forwards, to offer his help - his support, at the very least. But his whole body was frozen. Grounded in place. As if he’d been struck by Skadi all over again.

“Thrúd, Hildr, Ortlinde!” Brynhild called, her voice raised high, “Can you hear me, sisters? Come down here at once! I am willing to cast my spear at you from a distance if I must, but I would rather fight face-to-face. Is that not true for you, Thrúd? Hildr? Ortlinde? Do you not wish to see my face?”

For a moment, silence. Even the Valkyries seemed to falter. Then the three hurtled down to land on the Shadow Border’s top, Thrud in the middle. Light poured from her in violent gusts, spilling golden from her wings. “Why, sister?” She called, rasping, “Why would you side with the humans instead of us?”

The skies were clear now, the rest of the Valkyries moving to focus on the giants instead. It left an odd bubble of peace on top of the Shadow Border. Just the three Valkyries, staring at their older sister. Thrud stood in the middle, but Hildr and Ortlinde flanked her. They were easy to tell apart. Hildr, with the big black bow on her cloak, her armor less golden and decorated then Thrud’s, her hair a mop of wild strawberry curls, a face that was meant to be open and cheerful, but was currently tight with something like anger. Unlike her sisters, Ortlinde was bland, only her golden shield to tell her apart from the mass-produced Valkyries, her face hidden by her large white hood, strands of short black hair escaping from its edges. Nothing of her expression could be seen.

CasCu couldn’t breathe. He stared at them and couldn’t breathe.

Brynhild stared at them, her expression soft. Their names left her lips in a whisper, before she spoke, louder. “It's been ages for me since I last saw your faces. What about you? On that day … you were so preoccupied with sealing me away that you couldn’t even talk to me.”

“That’s right,” Thrud said; her fingers clenched tight around her spear. “As far as we’re concerned, you’re not our sister. You are from Proper Human History. You didn’t experience that broken Ragnarök, nor it’s scorching flames.”

“The gods and giants didn’t die in the ordained order,” Hildr said. Like Thrud, her voice was hard, tight. “Fate itself changed. Ragnarök took a different path then what had been laid out, and the world has been mad ever since.”

When compared to her sisters, Ortlinde just sounded quiet and sad. “So when we first saw you, we were overjoyed. You were our sister from proper human history, without the madness of our Ragnarök. We thought … we thought you would join us …”

“No, my sisters from another sky, that will never happen.” Brynhild’s expression was soft, sad, but stern nonetheless. “I am a Heroic Spirit of Humanity; I was only summoned here to restore it. I would be very happy to speak with you and share your thoughts and feelings on this matter … but I can never join your side.”

Thrud’s whole body shook. The spear in her hand began to hum, the low thrum of divine energy. It was familiar. CasCu’s whole chest ached, and pain pulsed through his eye. His fingers flexed on his staff - but still he couldn’t move. He could only watch, as Thrud yelled. “And that is why we put you to sleep! As long as you were asleep, we wouldn’t have to fight!”

“That’s right,” Ortlinde murmured, “if you had only stayed asleep … this all could have been avoided.”

“We never wanted to fight you!” Hildr yelled. Like Thrud, her whole body shook, but her voice shook too, trembling on the words. “Your face, your voice, everything about you is just like our sister from this Lostbelt! Is that not the case for you two? Do you consider us strangers that just look like your sister? Is that why you have no problem killing us?” 

“I -” Brynhild fell silent. Her face twisted, slight, and CasCu could read the pain along her brow, the way her hands shook where she held her spear. Something in him flared, hot, protective anger. Finally, his limbs moved. He took a step - and froze again.

Napoleon had moved forwards. With the rest of the Valkyries no longer focusing their attention on the Shadow Border, his cannon shots had fallen off. Now he stepped up beside Brynhild, and set his cannon on the Shadow Border’s roof. “Don’t say another word,” he said, “you don’t need to. I’ll take it from here.”

Brynhild said nothing. She simply nodded, her head and gaze falling softly, taking this space to gather her emotions and words. Thrud took none of that time. She took another step forwards, the light around her blazing. “Step aside! This talk is for us and our sister alone! You have no idea what we have felt these thousands of years. You have no idea what it feels like to see the sister we once thought dead again - to have an eons long dream come true!”

“It seems like you’ve got feelings to spare,” Napoleon said. “So in that case, you out to be able to understand what I’m about to say. You say she doesn’t have a problem killing you? OF COURSE SHE DOES!” His voice was suddenly loud, booming, shouted. Thrud flinched back as if struck by the volume. “SHE DOESN’T WANT TO KILL ANYONE!”

He took a breath, deep, then continued, this time mercifully quieter. “There are exceptions to every rule. I wouldn’t hesitate to kill any scumbag I came across, but that doesn’t mean I don’t carry that burden of that death with me. That’s not how it works. Don’t you get it, mademoiselles? This isn’t the kind of thing you’re supposed to put into words. We shoulder the responsibility for every life we take. For everything we take. In the end, my Grande Armée was no different. We paid the price for every murder, every pillage. That’s how we warriors carry on. We don’t stop until we collapse, buried under that weight.”

“Yes,” Brynhild said, her voice soft. She stepped past Napoleon, one step, then another, then another. Her head lifted, high. “That is exactly how a warrior, a hero, should conduct herself. But I see that, after all the years in this Lostbelt, devoid of heroes that it is, you have forgotten that. One cannot be a true hero without battle, for it is there that one risks her life as a final resort. If you have forgotten that, then … then you are no longer fit to be called Valkyries, for you are no longer capable of guiding those souls.”

A pause, momentary, as the three Valkyries recoiled in shock. CasCu cast a brief gaze to Gudako and Mash, who stood there as if Napoleon and Brynhild’s words had hit them hard too - but his gaze was dragged back to the Valkyries as if by magnets. There was pride in his chest for Brynhild’s words, grief at the Valkyries faces: the rage and affront on Thrud and Hildr, the pain on Ortlinde’s, but Brynhild was right. They could no longer be called Valkyries. They no longer served their purpose.

Something in CasCu’s mind shut down. The grief dwindled out, as if it had never been there. Valkyries such as these didn’t deserve to carry the shields he had bestowed upon them, nor the spears replicated after his own Gungnir.

“We are the Valkyries!” Thrud screamed. She flew up, the light from her wings burning, her spear blazing bright. “We have defended this Lostbelt and the humans who live in it for thousands of years!”

“We are the last Valkyries left!” Hildr cried. She flew up to join her sister, right by Thrud’s side. “How dare you say we aren’t!”

“This is how we’ve lived our lives,” Ortlinde said, her voice a broken whisper compared to her sisters’ screams. “You may not be our sister, but you have no right to say that.” She flew up, to settle at Thrud’s other side.

“We will prove to you,” Thrud said, lifting her spear, pointing it at Brynhild, “That we are the true Valkyries here. Valkyrie to Valkyrie, sister to sister.”

“As you wish,” Brynhild said, sad, but strong. She lunged off the top of the Shadow Border, right towards her sisters. CasCu watched her arc, watched the impact and the first blur of traded blows and burning light, before looking away. He didn’t need to watch. He knew the outcome of this fight.

His gaze was drawn to Gudako and Mash, who had drawn close to Napoleon. Gudako’s voice was quiet, soft, but… almost hopeful. “Do you mean it? What you said about heroes?”

Napoleon blinked, then glanced at her. He grinned wide at her, puffed up his chest. “Of course I do! And you, Maître, and mademoiselle Mash, are the greatest of us all. We are emperors and Valkyries and heroic spirits, but we’re only this strong because we have human hearts. You two have the most human hearts I have ever seen. I have no doubt that you two are the greatest heroes and warriors the world has seen in a long time.”

Mash made a noise between her teeth. She tilted her head up, her eyes blazing. “I hope we can live up to that,” she said.

“Thank you,” Gudako nodded, before turning. “Raikou, Nobunaga, focus your efforts on the giants and Valkyries dealing with them. Don’t interrupt the fight, but make sure they don’t stray or hit the Shadow Border. Napoleon, will you do the same? Mash and I will stay here to support Brynhild.”

A series of agreements. Raikou jumped off the border, and Nobunaga flew off on her guns. Napoleon joined them. CasCu couldn’t help but smile, a tad. “Doing good, kid.” he sent to Gudako.

Gudako shook her head. “You should be with Kage.”

“I’ll see Kage soon,” he promised, “I just have a duty to watch this fight.” To see the end. Then he could see his love. The thought made warmth swell in his chest. He settled a tad, crooning. He would see Kage soon, after this. He would make sure that his brat was alright.

Gudako didn’t get a chance to answer. Ortlinde - the weakest of the sisters - hit the roof of the Shadow Border. Hildr and Thrud followed her with twin impacts. Brynhild descended after them, breathing slightly harder, blood dotting her cheek. The three sisters were far more damaged, armor wrent and blood drenching their clothes. 

Hildr made a noise between her teeth, groaning. “I don’t understand - Sister Brynhild, how can there be so much difference between -”

“Performance?” Ortlinde answered, as she got back to her feet. “Output? Equipment? No, it can’t be just that. There’s something else going on …”

Brynhild’s feet hit the top of the Shadow Border. Her voice was soft, but souring, like a song. “You fight well, Sisters. Better even then your specifications should allow. But one of the things I gained when meeting Sigurd was a human heart.” She raised her hand, and set it on her chest. Smiled, so small and sad. “It is something uncontrollable; something wholly different then our natural state. At times, the feelings it inspires can drive one to madness. Drastic mood swings. Wavering. Faulty functioning. Excessive heat. But now I see, that after these thousands of years, you have human hearts as well. Your spearmanship reflects that. Oh, my sisters, how happy I am to see it.”

Thrud had been in the middle of getting up. Her light flared, then dimmed. “What?”

Hildr just stared at Brynhild in confusion. “Huh?”

“Love,” Brynhild said, “Hate. Joy. Grief. They all flicker like flames in the wind. Sometimes they shrink to embers, but other times they explode into an all consuming blaze. But even the tiniest of embers show that there is something lurking within your circuits -”

“That’s not true!” Thrud screamed. She pushed to her feet, the light around her wings blazing brighter. There was a sound, like glass straining beneath a heavy weight, beginning to crack. “Don’t be ridiculous! We’re autonomous machines. We may now belong to Queen Skadi instead of Odin, but that doesn’t mean we’ve gained emotions!”

“Do you take us for human?” Hildr snapped. She joined her sister, her own corona of light growing. “We’d never allow something so unstable within ourselves!”

Ortlinde opened her mouth, then closed it. She looked away, expression tight, her whole body seeming to pull in on itself, her light dimming. The slight smile on Brynhild’s face shrunk, back into sadness. But she said nothing, as the light around Thrud and Hildr flared brighter, and brighter, the high whine of power beginning to fill the air.

Thrud laughed, this broken, harsh thing. “Oh, sister - our sister from Proper Human History! Why did it come to this? First you preach to us, then you tell us we’re not even Valkyries, and now you claim we’ve fallen like you!” 

There was a crack, shattered glass. CasCu flinched slightly as small black lines darted through Thrud’s wings like fractures. 

“I knew it” Thrud continued, heedless, “you have gone mad! Your mixed feelings towards Sigurd have twisted and tainted you! Once, you were our proud, unwavering sister. You gathered the souls of fallen heroes tirelessly - no more! Your affections have corrupted your mind!”

Another crack. More black fractures along Thrud’s wings. 

Ortlinde reached out. “Thrud- your magical energy is leaking - you need to calm down!”

“No!” Hildr cried. She hefted her spear, and with a crack, black marks appeared along her wings too. “Thrud’s right! This can’t stand - it can’t, it can’t, it can’t! We won’t take this! You die today, sister!” 

Thrud and Hildr through themselves forwards. They were faster than he remembered - their anger, their grief, whatever feelings now burned through their circuits increased their speed greatly. But their spearmanship was wild, off target, uncontrolled. Anger guided their strikes, instead of fueling them. Brynhild was able to block easily, though the force of their blows pushed her back. 

With each step, with each strike, Thrud and Hildr’s wings broke. Fractures at first, then little pieces falling off, dancing in their wake in little golden motes, before blackening and falling like ash to the ground. The coronas of light were painful around them, wavering and burning like the fires Brynhild had compared their emotions too. Unstable. Consuming, especially for those who didn’t know how to control them.

They were all right. Every one of them. Brynhild, Thrud, Hildr. The possibility for emotions did exist in each one of their circuits - they had been made that way, though as the first Valkyrie, Brynhild’s ability for them was so much greater. But at the same time, his Valkyries had never been equipped to understand those feelings. To control them. 

It made them human.

It had destroyed Brynhild.

And now, that inability to control their rage destroyed Thrud and Hildr.

Thrud was impaled first, upon the tip of Brynhild’s spear. It was a blow she could have blocked, could have dodged. He knew her capabilities. In her current state, it shouldn’t have hit. But Thrud let it, blood splattering across Brynhild’s spear, across the shadow border, from her mouth. The expression on her face was no longer rage. She was crying.

Hildr was a bolt of fading light, blackened wings, and pink hair. She did not head for Brynhild, did not attack like a part of him expected her too. Instead, she impaled herself along with Thrud, onto Brynhild’s spear. 

Ortlinde gasped, her hands covering her mouth. 

Thrud’s shield clattered onto the Shadow Border, followed by her spear. She gripped the heart shaped blade that bisected her, and spat blood onto the ground. “We’re not - like you,” she breathed, staring into Brynhild’s cold, sad face. “This fire - this fire that burns inside of us is so very, very ugly. We could never hope to be like you sister.” She laughed, a broken, half sobbed thing. She slumped against the heart shaped blade. “Even if you’re not from this history, you’re still our sister … you saw right through us. You always did … all we could ever do was follow you poorly.” 

“Yeah,” Hildr breathed. She pulled herself further onto the blade, and pressed her face against Thrud’s hair. Her shoulders shook - a laugh or sob, it was hard to tell. “You finally said it, Thrud. I feel the same way.” She looked up, into Brynhild’s face. “We can’t beat you. Even if our performance, output, and equipment surpass yours … there’s no way we could ever kill you … our beloved big sister.” She smiled, a thing full of bloody teeth, before letting her face fall into Thrud’s hair again. Her voice was tiny, smaller. “Let’s go out together, Thrud.”

“I’d like that,” Thrud breathed. She coughed, and blood spattered from her lips. “Ortlinde,” she breathed, no more than a whisper. “I’m sorry for dragging you into our self-destruction. But once sister woke, this one was inevitable. You’re not broken like us. You do not deserve this death. This heart, this envy - this death - is ours alone.”

Hildr smiled, a bloody thing. “We want you to follow your own heart as well,” she said, “I’m sure you have one too … so follow it, wherever it takes you.”

It started with their wings. Whatever remained of those bright gold bars crumpled into black shards and fell away until their bodies were as wingless as Brynhild’s were. Unlike the other Valkyries, they did not disappear. Of course, they didn’t. They were flesh and blood and circuitry, artificial and real all the same. Brynhild lowered her spear, and Hildr slid off it’s tip, Thrud sliding down to fall across her sister’s body. They lay there in a slowly growing pool of blood.

“I’m glad,” Brynhild said, her voice oh so quiet, “That you found yourselves in the end, my little sisters.” 

A quiet sob, a breath that was half cry. Ortlinde stepped forwards from where she had been standing, watching the fight. One hand still clutched the fabric of her half cape. The other reached out, to her sisters. “This can’t - ah - why did - sister Brynhild … why did they - I don’t understand -” She looked up. Tears shone on her face. “It’s like they - why did - it’s like they chose to die!” 

Brynhild took a step towards her, reaching out. “Ortlinde.”

Ortlinde let out another sob, then leapt away from Brynhild, into the sky. The rest of the Valkyries were gone; the Shadow Border had left them and the giants far behind. Ortlinde was a single algiz rune against the sky, burning even as she fled. Something heavy fell into the pit of CasCu’s stomach. He stared at the fallen sisters, then at Brynhild, as she slowly lowered her hand.

After she had killed Sigurd, Brynhild had slain herself. But she seemed to have no inclination to do so now. She just stared at Thrud and Hildr, then stepped away from their bodies, her shoulders shaking slightly. “Will you burn them?” she asked, soft. “A funeral pyre. It’s not what they would ask for, but I believe they will accept it if I ask it of them.”

“I will,” Gudako said. She stepped forwards, then reached out to set her hand on Brynhild’s shoulder. “I’m sorry.”

“Do not be,” Brynhild said, soft. “It was always going to end like this. Let us leave them here, under the sky, for now. We are moving fast enough that no birds will be attracted to their bodies. And they had always loved the sky.”

Gudako nodded, her hand falling to Brynhild’s arm, before leading her towards the hatch, Mash taking Brynhild’s other side. CasCu waited until the three were in the Shadow Border before he glanced around. It seemed that Nobunaga, Raikou, and Napoleon had made their way inside as well. 

He stepped out of Spirit Form, and stepped across the shadow border, until Thrud’s and Hildr’s blood was brushing against the bottom of his feet. He knelt, then tugged Thrud off Hildr, until the sisters were laying right by each other. He stared at them for a long moment. Then he reached out. His fingers brushed across their eyelids as he closed them.

Chapter 10: Chapter 10

Summary:

Rest chapter! In which nothing at all totally happens :))

Notes:

Hey everyone! Thank you so much for all your comments and kudos, and I hope you have a wonderful day!

Chapter Text

Nightingale bustled around Alter’s form, her Madness radiating waves off her that CasCu could almost feel. He wasn’t too surprised. Alter was still unconscious, sunk so deep in his curses that they literally pulsed across his chest. CasCu and Gudako had done all they could, and Alter had had time to rest in Spirit Form, but there was still a small wound on his stomach - not to mention however fucked up his insides were from that damn thing. 

But he would be fine. He would be. Nightingale might not have had the same access to equipment she did in Chaldea, but that didn’t mean shit. She made do. She was the type of person who always did.

Like Kage did.

CasCu sighed, and reached out to brush his hellion’s hair from his face. Kage didn’t look to be in pain. His skin was still pale, gray shadows smeared under his eyes, but it wasn’t twisted up in agony. His mouth was faintly parted. CasCu could hear him breathe, in and out, in and out, a regular thing. When he rested his hand on Kage’s chest, he could feel the inflation of it. In … and out. Up … and down. 

The runes he had placed before were still on Kage’s side, glowing softly blue. His other selves had kept them powered like he’d asked. A part of him itched that he could do better now. But the pain in CasCu’s head, the confusing emotions and thoughts and dreams and hurts, seemed to have faded in Kage’s presence. CasCu could breathe here, timing each one with his hellion’s breaths.

Still, the death runes crouched. CasCu could feel them pulsing beneath Kage’s skin, in tune with his curse. But his brat was a fighter. He’d be alright. CasCu knew it. CasCu believed in it, with all his heart.

Because he didn’t know what he’d do if Kage gave in.

CasCu leaned in and pressed his lips to Kage’s forehead. Kage was warm beneath his touch, which made a part of CasCu tighten in fear. Being warmer than a sun demigod was never a good thing. He pressed his fingers against Kage’s forehead and wrote isa in soft gold, letting it sink in. Something in Kage’s posture eased. His breathing seemed more even, in and out in that steady pattern. CasCu laid his head on Kage’s chest and breathed in with him.

In … and out.

In … and out.

In …

“You’re bruised.”

CasCu blinked, then looked up. Nightingale had finished with Alter. Bandages swathed his chest, and Irisviel knelt by his side, her healing magic doing it’s best to combat the tides of Alter’s curse. No doubt Nightingale had also injected something into him for the pain. He would be alright. The certainty was a warm wash of relief through CasCu’s tired mind. Alter would be alright.

But CasCu would not be, if the look in Nightingale’s eyes meant anything.

CasCu straightened, so he was sitting on the edge of Kage’s cot instead of laying on it. “It’s not that bad,” he said, “Been there a couple of days. It’s fading.”

“You should have used your runecraft to heal it.” She retorted, eyes flaring. Her hand reached out to grip his chin, tilting his head this way and that to get a better look at the injury. “Rope burns,” she said, in a monotonous voice, “consistent with those incorrectly hung at a gallows, where their necks do not snap , and they are left asphyxiating until death. This process can take up to days. In such victims, there is reduced blood flow to the extremities. Other symptoms include hoarse voice, sore throat, difficulty swallowing, shortness of breath, hyperventilation, asthma or worsening of it, anxiety, poor concentration, headache, blurry or reduced vision, and loss of consciousness.” She picked his hand up, examining it. “I see no indicators of reduced blood flow to extremities.”

“There was none,” CasCu said. He’d long since learned not to argue with Nightingale. She always got her way eventually. It was easier to just go along with her. “Hoarse voice, sore throat, and difficulty swallowing when it happened. Since then, I’ve had some shit concentration, a headache, and my vision’s been wonky - but it was being weird before this. This just made it worse.” 

“What caused it?” She asked, pulling out a penlight from somewhere. She held it up to his eyes, and he blinked back at the sudden bright light, fighting the sting of tears.

“Don’t know,” he said, “woke up with it. Told Gudako that it was the loop on my cloak. Don’t know what else it could be.”

“It’s not,” she said, monotone, “It’s too wide, and too rough. There’s fiber imprints against your skin.” She switched to the other eye, and CasCu flinched back sharply again. “Your right eye is reacting slower than your left,” she intoned, eyes narrowing, “Have you sustained any head injury?” 

“No,” CasCu shook his head. There was something cold in the pit of his stomach. Discomfort, fear, something else he couldn’t name. He didn’t like Nightingale picking at him like this, as if there was a scab somewhere here that she was intent on peeling away. He wanted to bat her hands away.

She retreated, leaving him behind to collect more gear. “We need an MRI scan,” she said, “but do not have the equipment for it. We must test for concussion and brain damage the old way, before diagnosing and treating you.”

“And what would you be treating me for?” CasCu asked. He glanced back to Irisviel. She was focused on Alter’s curses, her brows furrowed in concentration. She would be at that for a while. Alter’s curses were born of the Grail, but so was her power. It would take some time to see which Grail one out.

“Brain injury.” Nightingale said, her voice cold. She continued talking, listing the tests they would be doing, the ways to heal each process, in that rat-tat-tat tone she was known for. With each word, she veered further into that Madness that characterized her class, that characterized her. 

He didn’t listen. He raised his fingers and sketched runes across his throat, healing away the bruise and the damage beneath the skin. A few more sketched runes hung golden in the air, softly glowing, pulsing. Uraz, creativity. Perpo, mystery and magic. Those two were enough to craft the illusion he needed so Irisviel wouldn’t look over at them.

He stood, and followed Nightingale. She had gathered a clipboard, a pen, and was turning around. He was there to meet her. His fingers rested on her forehead, a gentle bump before she could react. Pain flared in his eye and golden runes lit across her forehead, a complex circle of them.

Mannaz, mind, intellect, memory. Perpo, hidden secrets, mystery. 

Ansuz, Odin. 

He pulled his fingers back. Nightingale’s face was blank, slack. Her hands set the clipboard and pen back down. He retreated away from her, and sat back on the cot, beside Kage. He made a short gesture  and released his runes. The illusion fell just as Nightingale blinked, and frowned. She raised her fingers to her head. “I was -”

“You were going to tell me how Kage was doing,” he said, soft and leading. “You’ve had a lot on your plate. Maybe you should rest, Nightingale. It wouldn’t do Gudako good if her nurse worked herself into exhaustion.”

Nightingale stared at him, before shaking her head. “I get adequate rest,” she retorted, bluntly, before walking over to his side. “Kage has been doing quite well, given his situation. He is fighting admirably. I believe that it would be possible to cut off the areas affected by the runes, and his innate stubbornness would push him through the procedure.”

A sharp pang of fear bust through CasCu. He fumbled for Kage’s hand, then held it tight, squeezing. “Runes don’t work like that,” he said, words tripping over each other in his haste to get them out. “Especially not primordial runes - cutting them away will do nothing but make his situation worse.”

Her eyes narrowed, flaring briefly with light. “I suppose you are the expert.”

CasCu wasn’t sure he trusted the way she said those words. He held Kage’s hand a bit tighter. “Thank you for looking after him,” he said. “I know he’s safe in your care.” Or at least, in Irisviel’s care.

Nightingale hummed, another long note, before turning from him. “Of course. I will heal him, even if it kills him. Now replenish your mana,” she said, “your supplies are low. If you insist on continuing to support Gudako in the field, then you must first ensure your own condition is optimal.”

“Yeah … I know,” CasCu said, sighing. He laid back down beside Kage, hand still holding his. Resumed watching Kage’s face and the way his chest rose and fell with his breaths. CasCu’s head felt hazy, but his throat no longer hurt, the bruises at his neck were no longer tender. Nightingale had probably healed it. CasCu couldn’t help but be relieved. If Kage had woken up and seen that, he would have freaked.

If Kage had woken up, that was. Right now, it seemed like him waking up would be a long time coming. CasCu would have traded anything for him to wake up sooner.

 

Proto and Cu nudged his mind a bit later, this brief touch of mental energy against his own. CasCu started slightly, his eyes blinking open. The rhythms of Kage’s steady breathing had almost been enough to send him to sleep. There was a burst of warmth in CasCu’s chest for his other selves. 

Thank Lugh. He didn’t want to sleep, right now.

“Can you repeat that?” CasCu sent out, reaching to thumb through Kage’s hair again. He’d already finger combed it once. He wanted to do it again.

“What, didn’t hear us?” Cu asked, “Where you asleep or something?”

Proto didn’t waste time with poking fun. He just asked, his voice a bit tiny. “How’s Alter doing? We - we heard. Do you think he’s up for a visit?”

CasCu sighed and pushed himself up. Alter’s condition hadn’t changed since the last time he’d looked. Bandages still dressed his torso, though there didn’t seem to be any blood - not any CasCu could see at least. But Alter’s curses seemed to have calmed down during CasCu’s time out of it. They no longer pulsed like angry lights against his skin. Irisviel must have been successful in calming them, then.

CasCu sighed and laid down again, fingers returning to Kage’s hair. “He’s going to be alright,” he sent, “His curses have been taken care of, and the wound treated. You know how stubborn he is - it’s nothing he can’t come back from … he’ll be pissed about being taken off the team once he wakes up, though.”

“Of course he’ll be,” Proto laughed, this tight little thing. “He always hates to be sidelined.”

“Don’t worry, Edge will enforce it,” Cu said dryly. He paused to let them all laugh, then continued. “It’s good to hear he’s going to be alright. But how about yourself? Rumors going around that there’s been some weird shit going on in your head.”

CasCu scowled. “And where did you hear that?”

Silence.

“Gudako?” He pressed, “Mash? Or was it Scáthach ?” That last one made both Proto and Cu take a reflexive flinch back. CasCu could feel it in his head, and he sighed heavily. “She’s one to speak. The Skadi in this Lostbelt wear’s Scáthach ’s face. Did she tell you about that?”

Another pause. Long and lasting. CasCu waited until one of the other’s replied, this quiet, admitted “No.”

“That’s what I thought,” CasCu sighed and tucked a bit closer to Kage. “She’s brushing it off, acting like it doesn’t bother her. Maybe it doesn’t - it is Scáthach we’re talking about after all. But maybe it does and she’s not showing it. This Lostbelt has thrown more ‘weird shit’ at her than it has at me, I think.”

Cu was ready to accept that answer. CasCu could feel it. Proto, though, was more used to CasCu’s tactics. He pressed forward, pushing. “You’re deflecting. What’s going on, CasCu? We can help.”

No, they couldn’t. CasCu was silent for a moment, trying to figure out a good way to answer that question. Words bloomed in his head, as if written by the hand of a pen master, far, far away. not much you can help with. It’s just damn weird, to see this place. It’s like Russia, but at least in Russia, there was a chance to live life the way you wanted too. A false future, but a future. Here, there’s not even that. It’s shitty. And seeing someone with Scáthach ’s face ruling and orchestrating the whole thing is even shittier.”

“Sounds like it.” Cu was quiet for a moment, then spoke again. “Are you sure you’re going to be alright out there? We could ask Gudako if one of us could come and help. Fill in Alter’s slot, for him.”

“I can fill him in well enough,” CasCu said, huffing, “And I think she’s decided to take Raikou. With a goddess as our final fight, Gudako’s bound to choose those that are good against Divinity. Is she trading Tesla out for Nobunaga?”

“Last I heard, she wasn’t,” Proto said. “She might though. Nobunaga’s real good against ancient foes like that. She’d probably try to take over the Lostbelt for herself, too.” It was a weak joke, but everyone couldn’t help but laugh anyway. It felt good to laugh, after everything.

CasCu settled in a bit more, grinning. “Tell Gudako to keep Nobunaga away from Napoleon. I don’t think anyone would be safe if the two of them officially met.”

“Another enthusiastic conqueror? Gods, Chaldea will burst at the seams if we get another one of those bastards.” 

Cu’s dry joke tugged another chuckle from CasCu, even as his grin fell. Chaldea was gone now. It was just the Shadow Border. They had no home, no hope, no nothing. They were stuck here, like this.

For now.

“Yeah,” CasCu said, a bit softer, “Another enthusiastic conqueror. Womanizer, too. Damn romantic man, which doesn’t fit his myth. But he’s one of those spirits. Like Edison.”

“Ah.” 

Really, it didn’t need much else explaining. Some Heroic Spirits were close to their original myth. Others, for whatever reason, were vastly different. Like Edison. Like Napoleon. Like CasCu himself. 

They settled there, into silence. CasCu eased back down to curl up by Kage’s side. His fingers threaded through Kage’s hair, over and over and over again. It might have been his imagination, but it seemed like Kage softened into the touch. CasCu’s own voice was soft as well. “Thank you for looking after him.”

“Of course,” Cu said.

“You know you can rely on us for anything,” Proto added, “we’re here for you.”

CasCu’s lips twitched slightly upwards. Oh, he knew that they were there for him. At some points, it could be quite fucking annoying. But gods, he wasn’t going to argue about that now. Not when it meant Kage would be well taken care off while he tied up loose ends. “Yeah,” he sent, “I know.”

 

As much as CasCu wanted too, he couldn’t stay by Kage’s side. The longer he laid there, curled up, watching his hellion breathe, the more exhausted he felt. If he stayed there, he was going to fall asleep, and there was a tiny part of CasCu that was afraid that - if he slept, he would no longer be the same when he woke up. 

So he took to Spirit Form, and went for a walk. He didn’t think about where he was going. He just moved, feet stepping through the hallways, and towards the outside hatch. Through the door, and up the bolted stairs, until he was on top of the Shadow Border. The vehicle was still moving, but in Spirit Form he couldn’t feel the way the wind pummeled, could only hear it whipping by in whistling gusts.

Night had fallen. The too large sun was gone from the sky, but it was still silvery and hazy, as if the light it cast had not completely been removed. It might have been CasCu’s imagination, but the tone seemed to be a bit more red than before. 

Like he’d expected, Brynhild was up here.

She stood by Thrud and Hildr’s bodies, her spear gripped tight in one hand. For all the wind buffeted her hair about, she herself barely budged. She just stood there, staring at her sisters. The sadness that so often clung to her features seemed greater, right now. Not quite like she was on the verge of tears … just the quiet sorrow, so heavy and deep, that was a part of Brynhild’s nature.

CasCu stepped out of Spirit Form. “Watching over their bodies?” he asked, quiet.

Brynhild glanced up at him. Her expression flickered, then settled. “Gudako’s Caster,” she said, her voice soft. 

“Yeah, I’m one of them.” He took a few steps closer, moving around the bodies of her fallen Sisters. He held out a hand for her to shake. “I’m CasCu. I’d say it’s good to meet you, Brynhild, but circumstances don’t ask for those words.” 

“No, they don’t.” She stared at his hand for a moment, then gave it a small shake. Her eyes bore into him, the gleam of her iris’ soft gold against the purple. “I do not believe we have met before?” The words were posed like a question.

“Not officially,” CasCu said, dropping his hand. 

“How odd… you seem familiar.” 

“I get that a lot,” CasCu said, the lie easy on his lips. “I’m … sorry about your sisters.” Those words felt odder. Part lie, part not. He was sorry, but not as sorry as he should be. The feeling was conflicting. He didn’t know what to do with it.

Brynhild stared at him for a long moment longer, then shook her head. She turned to watch Thrud and Hildr one more, her expression indescribably soft and sad. “I am not sorry,” she said, “I have always loved my sisters. Though I mourn their death, I also mourn the pain they went through, in this Lostbelt. I am glad to have lifted them from it … and I am glad that they had found their hearts in the end.” 

CasCu looked away from that expression. Stared at the fallen bodies on the ground. “Still … it’s never easy, killing a loved one. It’s a pain I know well … and I’m afraid it’s a pain you’re going to have to face again. Ortlinde is still out there. And -”

“Sigurd,” she finished for him. The word was all sigh, longing and wistful and horribly sad. She looked up towards the sky, her hair whipping out with the motion, like a set of unfurling wings. “I will see him, I will love him, and then I will kill him. Always, always, I will kill him … do you know the story, CasCu? Of our love and our death?” 

Yes. Every beat, as if he had watched it play out himself. “As much as the Throne gives me,” he said, quietly. “As much as any Heroic Spirit knows.”

She nodded, small, then opened her eyes. Her words were soft, so soft CasCu nearly missed them. “The only man I love is Sigurd , none other. No one, not one single solitary person, may touch him but me.” 

They were the words she had said on her deathbed . The words she had spoken after slaughtering Sigurd, his wife, Brynhild’s new husband, and their families. Both Sigurd and Brynhild had been victims in that tale - Sigurd’s memories had been stolen, his love for Brynhild locked away, so he would marry another woman. And without recognizing her, Sigurd had tricked Brynhild into marrying another man. And in her rage when she had found out, Brynhild had killed every single one of them, and then herself.

He could see her like she had been then. Her armor and clothes soaked in blood, her hair drenched in it. The tears and the rage in her eyes. Hysterical laughter and sobs. The hands that had shepherded so many Heroic Spirits to the halls of Valhalla, had supported the wrong warrior and earned Odin’s wrath, had loved Sigurd so fiercely and taught him runecraft before he lost everything of her, had gripped the shaft of the very spear she carried now and stabbed herself with it. He could see her smile as she died, small and relieved, finally peaceful in the flames of her anguish.

“I’m dangerous,” Brynhild said. She reached her hand up, towards the stars, her expression soft and longing. “I want to see Sigurd again. I want to embrace him. I want to kill him. After all this time, there is still a fire burning inside me, endlessly driving me to that. Even now that I’m a Heroic Spirit, a shadow projected by humanity, the version of me inscribed in the Throne is based on the moment I killed him, wreathed in flames of madness.”

CasCu stood silent, watching her. In a way, it felt like his heart was breaking. Brynhild sighed, then brought down her hand, closing her fingers into a fist over her chest. “That’s why I can kill him. That’s why I will kill him. It’s why I was able to kill my adoring little sisters … and why I was able to kill Sigurd before, despite my love for him.”

“But it still hurts,” CasCu said, “Gods, I know the feeling Brynhild. I’ve killed people I love before.” Ferdiad , Connla, their pains were etched into his Spirit Form, echoing and sharp. “It’s not easy. Even in madness, it still hurts.”

“It hurts more to know he might be doing horrible things here in this Lostbelt.” Brynhild said. Her hand dropped, fell to her side. “The Sigurd I loved was a good man. A just man. If he has fallen from that path, then I must save him.”

“By killing him,” CasCu finished for her.

She met his gaze, and nodded. “By killing him.”

Pride rose in CasCu’s chest, the warmth of it offset by a bitter spark of pain, of understanding. CasCu’s lover had fallen to his spear. So had his own son. So had Kage, at one point. CasCu hated killing those he loved… but sometimes it was necessary, and Brynhild held herself under the pressure of that job admirably. And yet …

“Do not be afraid,” he said, “if you still need someone to lean on. Gudako and Mash will be here for you. I’ll be here for you too, if you need me to.” 

Brynhild considered him, for a longer moment, before speaking. “You are not like the emperor. Your gaze holds no lust. So why, CasCu, are you so invested in my safety? There is no reason for you to be. At the end of this fight, once my Sigurd is dead, I will follow after him. There is no reason to be attached to me, beyond the simple bond forged between those fighting on the same sides.”

There was no meanness in those words, no sharp cuts meant for him. But CasCu had to look away anyway. He stared at nothing, for a long moment, gaze tracing the bodies of Thrud and Hildr. Their clothes were gently buffeted by the Shadow Border as it cut through the wind. Strands of their hair flew in the breeze. 

“I had a daughter,” CasCu said, soft. “Unlike my other selves, I was lucky enough to see her grow up. You remind me of her, a bit. I’m not exactly sure why, but … you do. Enough that I want to extend the same hand I would have extended to her.” 

Brynhild considered him, before dropping her gaze. She knelt, to tuck the strands of her sisters’ hair behind their ears. “Odin was not a particularly good father. Not cruel, but distant. As long as we followed our design, he was pleased with us. I do not think he liked my sisters as much as he liked me.”

“Gods are like that,” CasCu admitted. “My own da’s a god. He was never really present - gods, he only came for me once that I can think of, and even then it didn’t turn out very well. They think different from us, but I like to think … that godly fathers care, even if they do not show it. And I can’t imagine him not being proud of you.” 

She sighed, a soft breath. “I betrayed him,” she said. “Chose to aid the young warrior Agnar instead of the warrior he favored. In response, he stripped me of my divinity and cast me to earth, entombed me in a palace of flames. And that is where Sigurd found me. That is where we met, and fell in love.”

“If it’s any consolation,” CasCu said, the words numb on his lips. “Great anger can only come when care is involved.” 

“Perhaps,” she murmured, “but would you have done the same to your daughter?”

“No.” The answer came immediately. Somehow, it felt more … him than he felt in a while. Finscoth and him had had their disagreements - with their temperaments, of course they had - but he would have never done to her what Odin had done to Brynhild. He had no sympathy for any father who did.

“That is what I thought.” Brynhild sighed softly. She stood and tipped her head up, chin raised defiantly. “Odin is my father, but in many ways he is nothing more than my creator, just as he was the creator of Thrud and Hildr and Ortlinde. We were meant to be nothing but machines that collected souls, yet he still gave us the capability to feel - yet he made no effort to guide that, or teach us how those feelings were used. Perhaps if he had, I would not be mad like I am. Perhaps if he had, Thrud and Hildr would not have died this day … but I cannot help but be thankful, that he gave us this capability. It is better to burn than to freeze.” 

“Yeah, it is.” CasCu murmured. 

He stared at Thrud and Hildr, then reached out. His staff fell into his hand. He tapped it against the roof of the Shadow Border, and runes lit gold at the impact. Wunjo, for human companionship and connections, for comfort. Jeran, the reward for hard work. Algiz, divine protection and the energy of the Valkyrie . The three runes encircled the two sisters. A golden dome, soft and flickering, warm, surrounded their bodies. Grass burst beneath them, flowers against their cheeks, gentle touches. Their clothes were no longer buffeted by the winds, or the harshness of travel. 

They laid there, untouchable, peaceful, and he hoped whatever souls the Valkyries had were comforted.

“I would like to light their pyre,” CasCu said, “But if you would rather do the deed, then I will not stop you.” 

Brynhild stared at him. Her expression was very quiet, very soft. Then she turned away, murmured almost to herself. “Familiar indeed …” then, louder, “I want to light their pyre. But if you wish to help me build it, then I will not argue against the help.”

Cascu relaxed slightly. “Then I’ll help out.” 

Brynhild nodded, then turned to watch her sister’s bodies again. CasCu watched for a while himself, but slowly, his gaze drifted up to the sky. The studded stars, a pair of them brighter and more golden then the rest. The aurora borealis, spilling across the sky in ribbons of green and blue. And that silvery, almost red, haze that covered it all. 

 

CasCu made his way to Kage again. It felt odd, to be gone from his side for long. Like there was something going on in his head, a nervousness that he couldn’t fully ignore. It had been the sight of that sky that had done it. No matter how CasCu stared at it, the appearance of that haze was … off. Wrong. Made him think of ashes and smoke, of things burning away. 

Brynhild believed it was better to burn than to freeze. And she was right, in some aspects. Warmth was better than cold. Fire better than ice. But if they weren’t in moderation, they could and would destroy everything they came across.

Especially when one switched between them without warning. 

The thought left CasCu nervous. He made his way to his brat, and slid into the cot beside him, cuddling up and wrapping Kage in his arms, pressing his face against his hair. There wasn’t much of the night left. He could spend the rest of it like this, curled up, listening and feeling Kage breath. Assured that his hellion was okay and would continue to be so.

As long as Not-Sigurd could be taken down. And CasCu knew, deep in his bones, that Brynhild would manage it. She had before - but Sigurd was not Sigurd. There was something wrong with him. If Brynhild couldn’t - no. No. She would be able to. Even if the mind was not Sigurd’s, the body was, and that was all that mattered. It had to be.

It had to be.

CasCu breathed. He breathed, and listened to Kage breathe as well. Slowly, his mind settled. In the room, Alter was breathing too. Nightingale and Irisviel must have left to recuperate their mana, Alter’s treatment over. No doubt, though, Nightingale would come back around to check up on them both. And on Sherlock, CasCu supposed. He actually hadn’t seen that bastard since he arrived. Sherlock had probably been moved somewhere else.

Thank the gods. 

CasCu couldn’t explain the touch of relief that swelled in his chest, but it was there nonetheless . He sighed at himself, pressed his face more against Kage’s hair. “Miss you, a ghra. Head’s all fucked up. Wish you’d be here to set it straight for me.”

Nothing but soft breaths. CasCu hadn’t really expected Kage to wake up at that point, but gods … he squeezed his eyes shut, and held Kage a little tighter, curling against him. “Fight for me,” he murmured, soft. “It’s almost over, a ghra. You just have to fight for me.”

Kage might not have been able to hear him, but CasCu knew he’d fight. It was what Kage did best. His hellion didn’t give in easily.

“Setenta.”

CasCu’s eyes blinked open. He looked up from Kage’s hair, frowning. Scáthach ? Did you need something?”

“I think,” she said, “we need to talk. There has been something going on with you. I know Alter tried talking to you about it, but I do not believe he was capable of pushing far enough. Now, I can either come to you, or you can come to me.”

CasCu’s frown deepened. A coil of pain slithered around his eye. “Anything you have to say,” he said, “we can say like this.” Here, she could not attack him. Attempt to corner him, yes - but she would be unable to hurt him, in Nightingale’s domain. Like this, talking mentally, he could read her and she could read -

Him. 

“No.” Scáthach said, pressed, “I know your ways of avoidance, Setenta. But you’re not fully Setenta anymore, are you?” 

Silence. 

A heartbeat. Two. Three. He pushed himself up from the half-dead man’s body, and said, coldly, “You’re barking up the wrong tree, Scáthach .”

“No, I’m quite sure I’m not,” Scáthach said, her voice soft. Threatening. The low hiss of a blade as it cut through the air. “I know the energy of a God far better than most, and you are not talented enough in runecraft to send another Servant in Spirit Form. You react to things you have no connection too, and hold knowledge and wisdom that should be impossible. You are acting odd, Setenta. Being backed up by a being greater than yourself. And I don’t think you quite realize it.”

“What gives you that idea?” He asked, lips moving softly. It was odd, seeing out of two eyes instead of one. His vision was sharp, but not sharp enough. He closed his aching eye, and his vision flared. He saw the strands of mana in the air, twisting and turning, faint and fleeting. The telepathic connection he and Scáthach shared.

She was a wise woman, Scáthach . Confident in her abilities, dangerous. Her voice dropped a notch colder. “You are not my pupil.”

“You should stop prying where you’re not welcome, god killer.” He reached up, and wrapped his fingers around that thread of connection. “Count your lucky stars. This would be far worse if you were not needed for the battle ahead.” 

He snapped the thread between his fingers. It broke with a soft whump of air, a burst of mana against his skin. Pain echoed in his head, but it would be worse in hers. And before that strand of connection that lead to Scáthach faded, he shoved three runes into it, traveling along its length and straight into her mind.

Mannaz, for memory.

Ansuz.

Hagalaz, to shatter.

He waited for a moment longer, listening to the slow beat of his heart. He raised his hand, pressing it against his head as if it hurt. Waited for a response from Scáthach . Nothing. She still might have defended herself in time - he would have to keep an eye on her. God killers were troublesome. Skadi had made a menace, when she taught this woman runes. 

“Nightingale?” He said, aloud. “My head won’t stop hurting.”

She appeared in a wash, right by his side. Her eyes flared with lingering madness. “Symptoms?” Before he even had a chance to ask, she was checking him, light in his eyes and hand on thermometer shoved into his mouth to check his temperature. He let her, waiting, bit by bit. He knew how this would play out. She would find nothing, and then she would give him something for the pain. 

After that, she left. He turned to stare at the half-dead man, still sleeping on the bed. There was something familiar about his face. He reached down, and gripped his chin, tilted his head. This way, that way. Eyelids fluttered. The flash of black and gold, the soft pulse of the red curse along his skin.

“Loki would have liked your face,” he mused.

Then he laid down, and closed his eyes. 

 

This is the day he dies.

There is no sun in the sky, there are no stars . No light, but no darkness either. Just the soft twilight glow of winters, of fires in the different worlds, of the disaster that is befalling everything. He can see it all. Ygdrissil trembles beneath his feet, and he watches as the mountains quake, rocks falling, tress crashing, worlds being shaken down to their very roots. Can see the ramifications of those tremors as they rip through the worlds.

Fenrir’s chain snaps.

Jormungand, awakened from his slumber, rises and the seas rise with him.

And in the depths of hell, the moorings attached to the ship Naglfar snap. Though it seems a long, long distance away, he knows it will be here swiftly. After all, Loki is at its helm, and Loki has forever been quick in both their bad decisions and good, swift in all their actions and fast in carrying them out.

Above the gods of Asgard, the sky splits and cracks. Red, molten light spills out from the gap, bathing the scene in red. Soon, the Giants of Muspel, with Surtr leading them, will emerge from the sky and bring destruction in their wake.

Today is the day. The twilight of the gods. The end of the gods. He sees it all, hears it all, knows it all. The steps leading up to it - and the steps afterward . The end of the Age of Gods, and the beginning of the Age of Man. All they can do now is make sure that there is a world for them to live in.

Footsteps, behind him. Thor, stepping closer, his voice low and rumbling. He grips his hammer tight in hand. “Skadi has refused our call, father. She will not come to aid us.”

He is not surprised. 

The union between Skadi and the gods did not go as well as he had hoped. Though she is counted as one of them, and participates with their hunts, their fights, their parties, there has always been a distance that never closed. She did not care enough about them to come here today … but neither is she among the giants that threaten the wolds.

“She is not our enemy either,” he says, muses, “Keep watch, Thor. Your own battle approaches. Cast Skadi out of your mind. Jormungand is the one you must face.”

“He’ll be crushed beneath my heals, father,” Thor promises.

He does not have the strength to tell Thor that he will succeed. That he will walk seven steps from Jormungand, and then die from Jormungand’s venom. So he leaves Thor behind, and walks forwards, to the very edge of their ranks, and beyond. It is not just gods who stand here today. It is the Valkyries’, all geared up and ready. His daughters, Thrud, Hildr, and Ortlinde, and all the others that throng the skies. His einherjar, the warriors who have waited so long in Valhalla ’s halls, are here too, ready to follow his command. 

But there is one that is not.

For all Loki’s purpose in their ranks is over, he can still feel the gap in it, empty. Far away, on the ship Naglfar, Loki captains it and their army forwards. Their form is the most giantish he has seen it in a long time. Warm brown skin cracked open like lava to show glowing red beneath. Red hair that dances and flickers like fire, only to fade to white and gray smoke, intricately braided with beads and shinies. Their gold eyes glare out of gray sclera, embers in ash in a wasteland of scarring. 

Today, their form is superficially male. But that does not matter, because it is the shape and size that signals Loki’s intentions. They do not march against Asgard as a God, but as a Giant. As Loki left their kind to join him, Loki has now left him to join Surtr.

He traces two runes in the air. Raido. Mannaz. They hang gold in the air, then fade.

“There is still time to end this, Loki. Cast your anger aside. Join us. Fight for us. There is still time.”

The laugh that fills his mind is sharp and crackling, like static or flame. Loki has always been clever, but the sound of their voice now is downright mad. “Time! Time! Oh, Odin, sworn brother, blood brother, there is no time left! Face it, one eyed fool, old man of the gods, your time is all out! The eve of Ragnarök dawns, and finally, finally, there will be some payback for all your wretched deeds!”

“What wretched deeds are ours are also yours,” he returns. “If you wish to use that as your excuse, then come over here and face the consequences.”

“But I already have faced the consequences!” Loki shrieks into his mind, cackles widely and broken. “Don’t you remember what you did to me, old man? You killed my son and bound me up with his guts. You let Skadi hang that snake above my face. Oh, how long I laid there under the earth, constrained by my son’s intestines, my wife slaving to keep the venom from burning my features, but commanded not to properly interfere. Oh, Sigyn, whose bowl was always too small to save me!”

They are mad with pain, he thinks. In a way, it is not a surprise. Loki’s is a wild nature, a free being. Constraint would drive them mad. He supposes he should be sorry. And yet - “You brought that fate upon yourself. If you had kept your mouth silent at that feast, then no one would have seen fit to bind and burn you.”

Loki is silent, for a long, long moment. He can feel the crackle of their thoughts against the corners of his mind. The wild, broken, pained skipping of them. When they speak , it’s slow. “Do you remember, in the bygone days, we mixed our blood together? Do you remember, old man, or has that left you completely?” 

“I remember.” The words are soft. He does. He can still feel Loki’s palm against his own, the burn of their blood as they mixed. Muspel and God. Chaos and Order. Bound as brothers, and to treat each other as such. 

“Do you remember, claiming me as your brother? You said you would never drink ale unless it was brought to the both of us. You said the Gods of Asgard would welcome me. That I would serve a purpose there that I would not find elsewhere. That - as a brother, you would protect me, as I would protect you. Do you remember?”

“I remember,” he repeats, quiet.

“Where was that protection?” Loki shouted, their voice a roar. “Where was that protection, when I cut off Sif’s hair, and in recompense got her hair made of gold, encouraged the crafting of your spear, Freyr’s spear, and Thor’s hammer! Where was that protection, when you allowed those smiths to sew my mouth shut and your gods to laugh at my fate! Where was that protection when you gods denounced me for birthing your own steed, when it was your stupid bet that got me in that situation in the first place! Where was your protection, every miserable step of the way? Laughed and denounced and called perverted for being myself. Being threatened for every small misdemeanor and every harmless act. Every breath in your home of Asgard felt like my last! Your words of promise were nothing but a death threat!”

In the silence following their words, he waits. Waits for the ringing to end. The anger to die down. And in it, he speaks. Soft and quiet. “I said I would treat you as a brother. I, who have slain my own brothers before. It is not my fault that you did not see how obvious my intent was. You played a part in Asgard, Loki. A part you could play again.”

“I played your shadow,” they spat, venom. “I played your darkness. Oh, look at how beautiful the gods of Asgard shine, and how could they not? When they have wretched, disgusting, perverted, horrific, malicious Loki to compare against. I’m no saint, but you all -” a laugh here “- you all have only escaped being burned because of me. And I am done protecting you.”

He should have known it was impossible to reason with them. He sighs, and cuts the connection, and looks up at the sky. The crack is widening. And then, with violence, it shatters. A sword rips through the fabric of the sky. The metal of it is bright-hot, white-hot. Even from here, he can feel the heat of Surtr’s weapon.

And then Gjallarhorn blows.

 

CasCu woke with a jerk. His breath fluttered in the back of his throat, the race of adrenalin he couldn’t fully place. He stared, wide-eyed , at Kage. His hellion was tucked close, under his neck. CasCu clung to him, fingers in his shirt, tight. He couldn’t help staring at Kage’s hair, fluffy and soft from all the brushings it had been through, falling over his brat’s brows in unruly tufts.

For a moment, it didn’t look white. It looked like pale ash.

He sucked his breath between his teeth, and pressed his face into Kage’s hair. For a moment, he could only breathe like that. His eyes burned, his throat ached, and the scars from Chulainn’s dog so long ago were burning, burning, as if they were newly imprinted upon his flesh.

In short, he was a wreck. He didn’t want to move. Kage was here and breathing and everything in CasCu wanted to stay right beside him and listen to his breath, monitor his progress. 

Almost everything, that was.

“Have we stopped to build the pyre yet?” He asked, sending the words to Brynhild. 

It took a moment for her to reply. “We will be stopping soon. We’re close to a good place. I can feel it.”

“Alright,” CasCu said. He settled there, by his hellion a few moments longer, before leaning down to kiss his ashen hair. “I’ll have you healed up soon, a ghra. I promise.” Then he took to Spirit Form, leaving his brat on the bed behind him.

 

The place Brynhild chose was a small clearing, surrounded by crystal trees, the snow smooth and unbothered. The sun shown down on it in full. CasCu hadn’t been imagining things, last night. Even the light seemed faintly touched by red. Like a fire starting to grow. Like the ceiling of the world splitting open wide enough to pour forth Armageddon . He stared at it for a long moment, then reached up to wave at one of the raven’s watching. It took off towards Skadi’s castle in a flurry of feathers.

He wondered if she recognized the sight of that sun. Knew what it meant - but Skadi had not participated in Ragnarök like the other gods had. It was possible that she was clueless … or that there was something else going on.

CasCu shook his aching head, then turned away from the flying ravens. They needed wood for the pyre, and these crystal trees weren’t going to cut it. He plunged his hands into the snow, through the pulse of Skadi’s divinity, and touched the ground beneath. It leapt to him easily, answered the runes he boosted, and began to grow. 

A sapling pushed from the ground, slow and stead, swiftly growing bigger. Leaves blossomed green and turned brown as he watched, seasons passing at an abnormal rate for it.

Two thumps, as people landed. Brynhild carried Thrud in her arms. Hildr was being carried by Napoleon. Gudako and Mash followed after them both. Gudako’s voice was very soft. “Do you think we can burn what’s on the top of the Shadow Border?” 

“No,” CasCu said, shaking his head. “They’ll disappear now that the bodies have been moved. How much wood do you want, Brynhild?” 

Brynhild watched the tree grow. Her expression was very soft, very gentle, and very sad. But she didn’t look to be on the verge of tears. She just sighed, and shook her head, looking back down at Thrud’s body. “We do not have enough time to grow the trees for a proper pyre.” She murmured quietly. “So we’ll only take one, and make it last. It is not the wood that is important, but the flames.”

CasCu would have argued that the wood was important. The one he had chosen was an ash tree. It was tall now, taller than him, and growing thicker and wider with every moment. He poured more mana into it, tugging that same mana from the leylines beneath his feet. They pulsed in time with his heartbeat, the cycle of the seasons on the tree’s branches. Spring. Summer. Fall. Winter. Spring. Summer. Fall. Winter. Over and over and over again, until -

“That’s good,” Gudako said. “Any larger and it’ll take forever to chop up. Napoleon? That’s your job.” 

“But Maître -”

“No. I think … CasCu should hold Hildr for a moment.” CasCu stared at Gudako, and she smiled, a sad thing for a moment. “Brynhild told me you wanted to take part. I see no reason why you can’t hold her while Napoleon works on the tree.” 

“I’m not a woodsman!” Napoleon protested.

CasCu found himself smiling. “Thank you Gudako.” He pulled himself from the snow, and shook his hands off. Then he moved to Napoleon’s side. Despite his grumblings, the small emperor passed over Hildr too him without much argument. CasCu stood beside Brynhild, Hildr cradled in his arms, as Napoleon got to bringing down his tree.

They waited.

For a long moment, they waited.

“Are you going to be alright?” CasCu asked, his voice very soft.

Brynhild considered him, her head tipped to the side. Then she stared down at her sisters. Her soft expression hardened. She held Thrud tighter to her chest, then looked up, watching as Napoleon and Mash constructed the pyre. “I will be.” She said, and the words were soft, determined, sharp.

CasCu nodded, and looked away. This was the day. Today, everything would change. Today, this Lostbelt would fall, and he felt it down to his bones. 

When Mash and Napoelone stepped away from the pyre, Brynhild stepped forwards, CasCu at her side. They set Thrud and Hildr down beside each other. Brynhild fussed with the lay of their armor and the placement of their hair. CasCu hovered about them himself, before reaching out to trace a few runes across their foreheads. Ones for rest. Ones for peace.

They stepped back.

And then, with a flick of her finger, Brynhild set fire to the pyre. They stood there, watching the Valkyries burn. 

Chapter 11: Chapter 11

Summary:

It's the final countdown *kazoo plays*

Notes:

I'm Very busy tomorrow so you all get a surprise early update chapter! Thank you all for your comments and kudos, and I hope you all enjoy! Have a wonderful day!

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

This was going to be the final act. CasCu could feel it in his bones, in his eye. Everything that had been building up to this moment was about to crash, to burn. It would all fall apart this very day.

Above their heads, the sun glowed with its red-tinged, silver glow. The sight of it sent pangs of anger and resignation through him. Of course. He could see the pieces now, how they strung together. A puzzle that was slowly starting to take shape. How laughable it was, that no one else - not even Skadi - had yet to start putting it together.

No, that was a lie. That Sherlock could have put it together, if only he hadn’t been taken down by Not-Sigurd’s runes.

They were making their way towards Skadi’s castle, the Shadow Border flying fast over the snow. There had been few instances where they had to deal with groups of roving giants before they continued on their path, but those were all dealt with quickly. CasCu’s runes leapt easily to his fingers - far easier than they ever had before. 

He didn’t know why. It was also hard to care. The sooner Sigurd was dealt with, the quicker Kage was freed. He wanted to see his brat up and moving again.

Skadi’s castle loomed up into the distance. That beautiful ice structure, built into the mountain, cold and frigid and aloof. The singular bridge that lead up to it, alone. The power of her magecraft pulsed through the air, stealing CasCu’s breath. She had to know they were coming, her enemy. Why hadn’t she attacked yet? The Skadi he’d known would have defended her home with a viciousness that would put wolves to shame …

Unless she still didn’t take them seriously. How arrogant she had gotten, in her time as the sole God of Scandinavia. The people here couldn’t threaten her, the giants were completely under her control. Ragnarök could not repeat itself. They would come to her, and when they did, she would obliterate them. There was no reason to lift a finger until then.

And that would be her undoing.

Always, always, Gudako’s greatest strength was the fact people kept on underestimating her and Mash. CasCu wanted to laugh.

“There’s no turning back now!” Napoleon called, voice ringing joyous. He stood on the Shadow Border’s roof, one hand on Gudako’s shoulder, the other on Mash’s, steadying them both. “This time, we’re not sneaking in or getting captured. This time, we’re going in guns a blazing! It’s time to settle the score between the new Grande Armée and that demonic sword wielder once and for all!”

“We’ve got him this time,” Gudako agreed. “It doesn’t matter if it’s Sigurd in truth or not - as long as he’s using that Spirit Origin, then he’s done for.”

Mash nodded her assessment. She pointed out, down at the base of the bridge to where a large group of muspel giants was coming out. Each one wore one of Skadi’s masks - the things she was using to control those not of her blood. “They already know they’re here. Do you think it’s Skadi’s response to our approach?” 

“Nah,” Napoleon said. He patted her on the shoulder, then let both of them go. A step forwards; his cannon appeared in his hand with a swash of sparks. “If Skadi was greeting us, we’d be dead. I bet she just wants a show. So get out of the way, giants! We’re going through, whether you like it or not!” 

The last words were a bellow, echoing through the air. In return, the giants bellowed back. They started to rush forwards, much quicker than the chained ones that had guarded Brynhild’s flaming castle. 

Gudako stood firm in the face of them. She held out her hand, her voice sharp. “Napoleon, Tesla, CasCu, I want cover fire across the ground. Take down as many of those giants as you can. Scáthach and Raikou will flank the Shadow Border, taking down any who get close. Mash, you’re on defense. If there are boulders thrown, block them.” Then, mentally, “Brynhild, stay nice and tight inside. We’ll call you out when we need you.”

“A solid plan, Maître ! Now, let’s get to it!” 

Napoleon’s first cannon shot left Gudako no room to be surprised at the praise. CasCu appeared, his feet alighting on the Shadow Border’s roof. Runes danced on his fingertips, each one a golden burning light. He had his staff in one hand, but he barely needed it. His runes hung in the air, and with a mental push, they exploded into flame and roared forward towards the giants.

Ice would have been better, for muspel, but right now with so much in the balance, it would have been risky to utilize what Skadi could control. Fire was less effective, but in this body, it didn’t matter. Lugh’s blood, running through his veins, automatically made any light based or fire rune stronger than any others he could cast.

And oh, how he cast. 

CasCu’s magecraft leapt to his tune like never before. He didn’t even have to think about the combinations of runes he used to get the results he desired. They just came to him, and he wrote them into the air and pushed them out like it was second nature. The ice beasts the muspel giants fought with shattered. The giants fell like logs, right into Skadi’s snow, staining the white scarlet. They were close to the bridge now, so close -

Gudako grabbed onto Mash’s arm. “Alright, Napoleon - throw us up there! Tesla, Scáthach , keep on defending the Shadow Border from our enemies. Nobunaga, CasCu, Raikou, Brynhild - follow us! It’s time to bring the fight to them. Scáthach , reconvene with us once the Shadow Border is safe!”

“Hai!” Mash said. She grabbed onto Gudako as Napoleon laughed and grabbed them both around the waists.

“As you wish, Maître !” he crowed, and then he was throwing all three of them towards the icy bridge. They flew through the air, and landed with an obvious thud. 

CasCu followed after, his runes spinning through the air. He landed softly beside them. Nobunaga didn’t even land - this close to the Shadow Border, with Tesla about to switch out, it was alright to have more than their allotted slots - she stood on her guns, where she had apparated out of Spirit Form, grinning and cackling wildly. 

Brynhild landed behind them, soft, silent. She held her spear tight between her fingers, and drew in a deep breath, steadying. CasCu let out a soft croon for her.

The shapes of Not-Sigurd and Ophelia were clear to see, on the other side of the bridge. They were standing almost side to side, though Not-Sigurd was in front of her. His face was half showing, eyes burning red behind his glasses. His laugh was an ugly thing, low, disgusted, mocking.

“That’s it,” he said, “none of you has changed much, but I can see a lot more momentum in you now than you had before. You’ve done a lot with a little, humans and Heroic Spirits.”

“Hah!” Napoleon laughed. He raised his cannon, aimed it at Not-Sigurd. “It takes a Heroic Spirit to know a Heroic Spirit, ain’t that right, Mister Big Shot ?” 

Not-Sigurd laughed again, low and ugly. But he did not get the chance to reply, and Napoleon did not get the chance to shoot.

Brynhild pushed past Napoleon, swift. She stood there, the wind whipping through her hair, sending it dancing. Her hands were shaking. She held her spear in a tight, tight grip. “Sigurd,” she breathed, and it was a sigh, a plea, longing all wrapped up into one package too big for the word.

CasCu’s chest wrapped up tight, then hardened all at once. Her pain didn’t matter, right now. This was the only way to move forwards.

Not-Sigurd tipped his head, as if Brynhild’s appearance meant nothing to him. He hummed, this low thing. “The last time I saw you, you were being sealed away. You’re from Proper Human too, right? Well, that’s enough reason for us to fight.” He held out Gram, and one of his short swords appeared in his other hand. The stance was full of confidence. “Come at me, Brynhild, eldest of Valkyries and daughter of Odin. If you really are a demigod, then that makes you worth the effort of killing.”

Brynhild paused. Her expression grew sadder. “So it is true. I did not want to believe - but you speak as if I am a stranger.” 

The posture of Not-Sigurd flexed. What they could see of his expression shifted slightly, arrogance into a trace of amusement. “As far as I’m concerned, you are.”

Brynhild’s expression shifted again. Her grip on her spear tightened, a note of steel sliding through her words. Each one was a step down, a spiraling staircase descending into madness. “The change of your eye color is not enough to confuse my quarry. You are Sigurd, son of Sigmund. You are the warrior-king who excels in every regard. Every fiber of my being screams that you are the one I must love and kill. Your mind might be clouded, you may be turned against me, but I know you. I know you, my Sigurd, my Sigurd . You won’t mind dying now, right, my love? You know that now I’ve found you, I cannot rest until I kill you, right, my love? My love, my Sigurd?” 

Not-Sigurd’s expression grew chilly. He gripped Gram harder. “You’re going to die here today, Valkyrie.”

They moved, both at the same time and blindingly quick. Gudako didn’t even have time to shout her orders. Perhaps Brynhild could control herself no longer. Perhaps the thing that controlled Sigurd’s actions knew that - the longer Brynhild lived, the more likely the true Sigurd would push himself from the depths. It didn’t matter. What mattered was the clash of steel, of lance against swords, how their gazes were completely locked on one another's. They moved in a blur, impossible to follow, impossible to intercept, for Gudako-

And for Ophelia.

She stood there, across the bridge from them, her hand on her heart. Her uncovered eye flickered across the battlefield, keeping track of how the two danced, in sync despite Not-Sigurd’s difference. Occasionally, she would glance at Gudako and Mash. Her fingers flickered up to her eye patch - then a sound from above. The cry of a Halt ringing through the air.

CasCu’s head jerked up. Above them, a blazing algiz rune, singular, broken up into Ortlinde’s shape as she descended.

He wasn’t sure that any other sound would have caused Brynhild or Not-Sigurd to stop their duel to destruction. CasCu’s heart plummeted as Ortlinde, the last of his Valkyrie ’s, came to a rest on the bridge between Brynhild and Not-Sigurd. When she looked up, her eyes were missing their golden pupils. They glowed red - the same as Not-Sigurd’s.

Mash took a step forwards. Gudako caught her hand, then shook her head. Napoleon let out a soft breath. “I thought she might be a bit hung up about what had happened to her sisters,” he murmured, just to them.

Not-Sigurd slashed Gram through the air, his voice a growl. “Out of the way, doll. This Valkyrie is my kill.” 

“No,” Ortlinde breathed. “I cannot.”

Brynhild’s hand shook on her spear, gripping so tight CasCu swore he heard the knuckles creak. “Stand down, Ortlinde,” She said, pleaded, “You were there when our sisters made their final plea. There is no point in fighting me. You know this. No point - and no need. You cannot interfere in my dance with Sigurd. Stand down. Please.”

Ortlinde met Brynhild’s eyes. She did not stand down, only held her shield and spear steady. “Sister, I’ve been thinking about Thrud and Hildr’s last words. But I cannot understand it. I believe I feel something similar - but it is fleeting, too overwhelming to describe. That is why I am taking up my spear, like they did.”

“No,” Brynhild breathed. She took a step forwards, her spear raised.

“Force-expending combat functionality,” Ortlinde said, her voice devoid of that human touch, “Increasing output beyond safety limiters. Overload. Overload. Synchronizing magical energy with Gram. Initiating team combat.” Mana began to pour off of her. A crack ran through one of her wings.

Not-Sigurd cackled. “You’re planning on keeping up with me? You cheeky little thing! Well, it’ll be amusing to watch you try your best!”

He lunged - they both lunged at the same time. Gudako’s word was soft, quiet, but every single one of them heard it. “Go. Take them both down.”

They moved, all at once. Mash’s shield caught Ortlinde’s spear before it could cut through Brynhild’s exposed side. Napoleon’s cannon blast caught Ortlinde’s shield, sending her flying back. Then Raikou was there, her katana cutting through the air. Ortlinde blocked with ease, her eyes glowing brighter. She was flying all the faster, striking all the harder, the edges of her wings cracking under the strain. But unlike her sisters, she was not wild with rage. Unlike her sisters, she was synced up with Gram, able to keep up with her three opponents with ease.

Not-Sigurd didn’t even seem to care.

He matched Brynhild blow for blow. They were a terrifying dance, going back and forth, back and forth. Nobbunaga darted around them, the rat-tat-tat of her guns filling the air. The shots bounced off Not-Sigurd’s short sword - which had fractured and was spinning around him, defending him. Some of them bounced off of Brynhild’s own blade, swung up as if to defend her most loved.

“Hands off!” she said, her voice a roar. “He is mine! Mine to love, mine to kill. Oh my Sigurd, I will not let another but me touch you ever again!” Her spear swung around, sparking across the ice of the bridge, then across Not-Sigurd’s chest, skidding along the hastily placed Gram. She was pushing him, back, back, her attack a ferocious thing.

“Oh, jealousy is so not wabi sabi!” Nobunaga cried, aiming her muskets again.

“No-” CasCu bit off the word when Nobunaga glared at him. He lowered his voice. “We can’t distract her,” he said, “aim for the ice, upset Sigurd’s footing. I’ll slow him down - the main work has to be done by Brynhild. She won’t let anyone do it for her.”

“So not wabi sabi,” Nobunaga complained. But she re-aimed her guns anyway, and started shooting at the ice, creating cracks and pitfalls across it. CasCu held his staff tight, then slammed it into the ground, runes lighting up golden at the impact. The pits widened, turned to fall directly under Not-Sigurd’s feet.

The bastard just stepped over them like they weren’t even there. CasCu had to yank them out of the way before Brynhild - focused solely on Not-Sigurd - stepped into one and cracked her ankle. A flash of light, of steel - the fractured short sword shot away from its defense and blazed towards CasCu and Nobbu. Nobbu’s gun’s ducked and weaved to avoid it. CasCu’s defenses flared, and the shards shot off into the distance.

Not-Sigurd used the distraction to push his own attack. Gram swung up, clanging against Brynhild’s spear. He pushed, hard, and she was sent flying back. His short swords shot towards her like glass shards. Brynhild caught herself like a dancer, spinning across the ice. Her spear spun in a blazing arch around her, though it wasn’t a perfect defense. Blood coated her skin where Not-Sigurd’s strikes had landed, where those fractured blades had punctured skin. It didn’t slow her down. She lunged forwards again, headless of her injuries. Metal rang upon metal once more.

“You’ve grown stronger my love!” Brynhild cried, wild. There were tear tracks on her cheeks, a smile across her face. Another strike of her blade nearly sent Not-Sigurd flying back. 

He dug his feet into the ice, her strike barely moving him back. Behind his glasses, his eyes glowed red as flame. His expression was twisted, as if he was scowling behind his mask. Or maybe he was smiling. Something in CasCu’s gut dropped, at the smugness Not-Sigurd seemed to carry. It was all to easy to note how little Not-Sigurd was injured, compared to Brynhild’s red painted skin.

“Ah, what a magnificent hero,” Brynhildr laughed. She pushed her attack, punishing, but Not-Sigurd’s defense didn’t break. Her voice grew more erratic with each blocked blow, higher in delight and bloodlust. “Ah, what a magnificent man! In the face of such a confident warrior , I must answer in kind! My heart, my soul, I’ll set it ablaze for you my love! ODINSEAL PROTOTYPE ENGAGED!”

Mana burst across the bridge in a wave of power. Everyone was thrown back - Not-Sigurd, Nobunaga, Napoleon, Raikou, Mash, Ortlinde, CasCu. Both Ophelia and Gudako stumbled away from the onslaught of mana pouring off of Brynhild, the two runes that burned gold and purple over her head.

Algiz. Valkyrie.

Ansuz. Odin.

Brynhild lifted off the ground, her hair a torrent around her head. Purple-blue wings burst from her back - the same bar like shape that Ortlinde carried, that gave the Valkyries their signature algiz silhouette. But hers was not fractured. It studded in silver and golden stars, glowing with soft light. Her dark armored turned white and silver, growing in length and feathered in design. The whirlwind of mana whipped around her. Her spear grew in size, a purple Heart in the center of the storm.

“What’s going on!” Mash cried out. She had caught her feet, and had slammed her shield in front of Gudako. CasCu couldn’t help but note that Not-Sigurd had done much the same for Ophelia, who was watching this with wide eyes.

Ortlinde had caught herself midair , staying their for all the way her wings had fractured. “Odinseal prototype,” she said, her voice tight with fear. “A rune forged for Brynhild by Odin himself. None other has it. Sister, oh sister Brynhild, would you really go so far to defeat us?” There was a wild note there, desperation and pain. Grief.

CasCu felt gutted. He knew why.

The Odinseal wasn’t like the power up the other Valkyries gained when they lost their senses. It wasn’t just power beyond safety limiters. It was power that would kill her. Destroy her Spirit Origin. Consume her soul.

Brynhild didn’t land. The power eased down, and she drifted, floating just above the ice. Her eyes were wide and wild. She pointed her spear at Not-Sigurd and smiled, something beautiful and terrible all at once. “Forgive me for making you wait so long, my Sigurd, my love. I am finally ready to express my love and kill you again. Won’t you burn away with me my love? We’ll die together, as we’re meant to.”

Not-Sigurd’s fingers tightened on his sword. “What a shame,” he said, his voice flinty, “Here I thought we could still have some fun together, but then you went and pulled one of Odin’s tricks. I’ve had enough. No more play-fighting. Time to die.” 

“Hold it.” 

It was the first time Ophelia had spoken. Her voice was frost, her hand on Not-Sigurd’s shoulder. CasCu heard the grating whine beneath Brynhild’s teeth, her fury of having another woman touch her beloved. She stood there, fingers shaking on her spear. She made to move-

“Wait,” CasCu said. “Let her speak. Then you can kill them.” 

Brynhild said nothing, but she stilled. A fresh wave of tears cascaded down her cheeks and puddled in the corners of her smile. Power pulsed off of her in waves. He saw Ortlinde’s head jerk up. She stared at him with wide eyes.

“You’re only supposed to kill Servants, Saber.” Ophelia said. She squeezed his shoulder, tight. “Don’t make me repeat myself again.”

CasCu expected argument. Instead, all Not-Saber did was let out a growl, annoyed but not protesting.

Napoleon stepped up from where he’d landed after Brynhild’s release of power. He raised his voice, letting it carry. “Well, hello there, my beloved Ophelia! It seems like you’ve finally deigned us worthy of your speech? It’s good to hear your voice.”

“You haven’t changed a bit, Archer.” Ophelia’s hand fell to her side. “I should have killed you when we first met. But I do commend your efforts, even if I hate their results. You just had to bring Brynhild here, didn’t you?” 

Napoleon laughed in delight. “You honor me, ma chérie. Haha! It's enough to make me cry out of sheer gratitude! Unfortunately, though, it was not my feet alone. My maître and mademoiselle Mash helped out a great deal.”

Ophelia’s gaze flickered to Mash, and stayed there. There was an exchange between Mash and Gudako, brief, and CasCu couldn’t tell what they said - but he didn’t need to. Mash stepped up, her chin tipping up. “Ophelia,” she said.

“I see you’re here again,” Ophelia said. Her expression twisted, the faintest bit. “Why? Why did you come here, Mash?”

“It is our duty,” Mash said. Her voice was hard. “Even if we end up destroying this Lostbelt, we cannot give up on our own world. Just like the Yaga in their frozen world didn’t give up their survival. No matter what happens as a result, we’ve decided to hold our heads high and keep moving forwards.” 

“We have no other choice,” Gudako said. She stepped up, gripping onto Mash’s hand. “You have given us no other choice. No matter how many we have to kill, no matter how much those deaths weigh on our shoulders - these worlds weigh on our shoulders - we will keep on moving forwards until our world is safe.”

Ophelia stopped. Just for a moment, and CasCu saw her eyes darken. “ Like Master, like Servant, I see. I can practically see you both buckling under the weight of your guilt, yet you meet my gaze, unblinking. But I’m nothing like you. I could never be like you, Mash.” She took a breath, deep, and straightened. “But I will not step aside either. Wodime - Lord Kirischtaria made a decision, and I refuse to betray his faith in me!” She raised her hand to her eye patch , fingers brushing the black silk.

“Then there’s nothing to talk about,” Gudako said, her voice utterly flinty. “I’m sorry, Mash. Everyone - now!” 

Napoleon’s cannon boomed. He didn’t shoot towards Ophelia - of course he didn’t - but Not-Sigurd was there nonetheless, blocking the shot with Gram. Then Brynhild was upon him, a silver force of fury. Her attacks laid him that way and this, and though he defended well, each strike made her spear grow larger, her wings brighter and burning. Raikou moved to join them - Ortlinde was there, her face twisted up like she was holding back tears, her speed an equal to the Berserker’s. Nobunaga rose, her guns pointed down at Ophelia. The rat-tat-tat of musket fire filled the air.

Ophelia’s hand rose, and runes blazed in the air, creating a shield around her to deflect Nobunaga’s fire. Her fingers gripped her eye patch and yanked it off. Beneath her hair, her mystic eye glowed like silver fire - like the sun in the sky.

CasCu didn’t wait to see who she would target. There were any number of ones she could choose from. Brynhild was the most obvious, most likely, but Ophelia seemed invested in Mash’s safety, and might seek to keep her out of the fight again. Gudako was another possibility. She was the key link tying this fight together. If Ophelia severed that link, then they were all done for. There would be no coming back from a dead master.

He threw up his runes in rapid succession, each one gold and blazing. Thurisaz, iwaz, perbo, algiz, and ansuz. Ones for protection, for strength, tied together for magic resistance. It was thinner than he would have liked, spread out among the many targets. But it was up in time for Ophelia’s eye to flare.

“Phenomena, schufen auf,” she called out, over the chaos of the battle, “The Odinseal What a marvelous Primordial Rune! Ich will es niemals glänzen sehen! You shine too brightly. That's why this eye of mine refuses to see that possibility go any further.”

And Brynhild screamed.

It was a raw thing, high and shrieking, like a bird of prey that had been cut and flayed apart, been dragged open while still alive. CasCu felt it in his gut like fishhooks yanking through his stomach. He stumbled, his staff catching him. Dimly, he heard Ortlinde shout. Dimly, he heard Gudako and Mash, the answering fire of Ophelia’s voice, and Not-Sigurd’s cold laugh, his loud boasting. But over it all, CasCu heard her screaming.

And screaming. 

And screaming.

Her back arched with the pain, her hair blown away from her in a torrent of mana. Black cracks ran through her wings, shattering the galaxy sparkles that made up her power. Pieces began to fall. Her body shook, eyes wide, that sound of pain echoing from her lips. 

It was Sigurd’s name. Always, always Sigurd.

His protections had been too weak - or perhaps this was the effect of Ophelia’s eye on his Odinseal, just weakened. It didn’t matter. He had to do something. He lunged forwards, feet traversing the ground swiftly - not swift enough. He was blown back from the mana that escaped from Brynhild in waves, her runes reversing themselves. Algiz and Ansuz began to flicker out, like bad static.

Then, impossibly, Brynhild began to laugh. A mad, spiraling laugh, filled with pain and … warmth. With mad, burning love. The runes above her head stopped flickering. First Algiz. Then Ansuz. Her wings stopped cracking into shards. Light began to spill off of them in waves once more.

Ophelia took a hurried step back. Her eyes widened, mouth moving. CasCu couldn’t hear her say the words, but he saw them take form. Phenomena, schufen auf!

“No!” Brynhild cried, her voice loud and clear, free from the pain. “Your Mystic Eye will not lead me astray! Your eye cuts away the possibilities you don’t want, but there is only one possibility that exists here. And that is my Sigurd, dead by my spear! You cannot cut it away! I will not be denied. Even if it were Odin himself looking down upon me, I WILL STILL KILL SIGURD!”

“You’ll die!” Ortlinde screamed. “Sister, you’ll die! SISTER-”

Brynhild floated up, her hair streaming around her, her spear raised towards the sky. It was growing in size, giving of pulses of purple power. Distantly CasCu could hear Gordolf and Gudako’s voice, Mash’s and Ophelia’s. It was all faded out, like it was underwater. He didn’t need to hear it to know what they were saying. Didn’t need to hear it to know the order to retreat, to back up and stay out of Brynhild’s shock waves was coming.

Someone grabbed him and dragged him away. He couldn’t move himself.

All he could do was stare.

Not-Sigurd stood there, laughing. He made no move to guard himself. Just left himself wide open, Gram in one hand, his short sword in the other. CasCu could see the crinkle around the edge’s of his eyes. He was smiling, as if this whole thing was amusing, as if he did not believe Brynhild’s blow would strike.

And in that moment, CasCu knew that it both would and wouldn’t. It would hurt him. It would bring him down - but only momentarily. It would not kill him. Brynhild would burn herself to nothing and CasCu could do nothing. 

“To you, who walks the path of evil” Brynhild cried, “I offer up my fire, my madness, and my love! Till death do us apart … BRYNHILD ROMANTICA!

In that moment, she was beautiful, in that terrible way storms were beautiful, violent and destructive, but leaving people unable to do anything but watch. The stars on the underside of her hair glowed silver, as the galaxy across her wings spilled and coated the fractures and breaks, reforming them into solid bars. Her eyes glowed with golden light. 

In her hand, her spear transformed, growing longer, longer, longer, until it was four times her size. The blade itself changed - the purple crystal grew longer, more like a prong, and the base became a golden filigree heart, with spines the shape of sigurds spiky pauldrons pushing off of it. Blue feathers - the color of her hair - melded the base of that blade into the long, long, golden shaft, which she held in one hand easily, spinning it around until the blade faced Not-Sigurd.

Pride swelled in CasCu’s chest, followed by a heavy pang of grief, of dread. His eye ached, his throat burned. 

He thought he smelled smoke.

Brynhild and her spear crashed into Sigurd like a comet. Powerful, beautiful. Utterly devastating. Even from where he had been dragged, CasCu felt the shockwaves impact him. The boom of sound left his ears ringing, which blocked out anything anyone had been saying. There was a swell of light, brilliant and beautiful. A silver corona that burst towards the sky and then died in twinkling stars.

Skadi’s bridge was made of powerful stuff. The crater from brynhild’s blow was deep, but had not destroyed completely the bridge completely. In it, stood Brynhild, her spear implanted in Not-Sigurd’s chest. She was panting, her shoulders shaking, the runes above her head emitting a weaker light. The energy she had expended was tremendous, and it showed in the duller glow of her wings, in her ragged breathing. 

Not-Sigurd’s hand was wrapped around her blade, preventing it from plunging in too deep. He was laughing.

“Nice try,” he said, a sneer, as he pulled off her blade. His armor was rent , a bloody wound in his chest - but he moved like the wound meant nothing. “That Noble Phantasm of yours was definitely impressive. If I was fully Sigurd, I’d be dead. But unfortunately for you, it wants the soul of Sigurd, not his body. And I am not Sigurd. I’m not even one of those heroes you Valkyries long for.”

They’d known. They’d all known, and CasCu stared at that open hole in Not-Sigurd’s chest. He was not Sigurd, but the body was, the Spirit Origin was. He should be dead right now. Not - this. No one could do anything but stare.

It was the wrong thing to do. He knew it. He couldn’t help it.

Not-Sigurd took a step away from Brynhild, shoving her spear away. She stumbled in the broken crater, barely catching herself. Not-Sigurd turned from her like she was nothing, and roared. “Ophelia, release my second limiter. And do it quick, this Spirit Origin won’t last long. Personally, I don’t mind if -”

“No!” Ophelia’s cry was sharp. “I won’t allow that to happen. As long as you’re in this Lostbelt, you must remain my knight. And as my knight, you cannot loose.” She took a breath, let it out. Her gaze hardened. “Forced Spirit Origin Ascension, final limiter release. Vanquish all who would stand in our way.”

Mana burst around Not-Sigurd in twists of flame. It was a blaze of heat, burning, and his form was awash in color, obscured. He was laughing, loud and delighted, like this was all a fun game that was finally reaching its crescendo. CasCu caught the shape of his arm as it raised, the sparkle of Gram as it swung towards Brynhild. Fire trailed after the edge of that blade, which now burned bluer than the sky above them.

Gudako’s voice was a wordless shout. CasCu felt the burn of the Command Seal as it rushed by him. Brynhild blinked out of existence before Gram could strike, and popped back into existence beside Gudako. Her eyes were wide, shocked, the flame of madness in them gone. “He- He didn’t use a rune to make fire,” she said, “He’s not - you’re not Sigurd. Sigurd said he would never use fire. Sigurd - no. No, no, no, no, no! You aren’t him! You COULDN’T be him! Who are you?!” 

The flames around Not-Sigurd died down. He stepped out of the crater lightly as if it had never existed in the first place. The very air around him wavered with the heat. He wore a cape now, and it was buffeted around by the air from his flames. His full face was exposed, and his smile was razor sharp. He held Gram on one shoulder, his short sword on the other. His mana poured off of them in hot waves.

Waves like - 

 

The crack in the sky widens. And then, with violence, it shatters. A sword rips through the fabric of the sky. The metal of it is bright-hot, white-hot. Mana pours off of it in burning waves, scorching the ground and painting the sky a boiling red. Even from here, he can feel the heat of Surtr’s weapon.

 

CasCu bent double. His eye was burning - with a cry he dug his fingers into his socket, as if that could get rid of the sensation. He couldn’t breathe, air blocked off by something he couldn’t name. 

“What pitiful creatures humans are!” Not-Sigurd cackled. “If only you were a god, you would know what this fire in my soul signifies! Pitiful! Pitiful! Pitiful! How unsightly - I can’t stand to look at you any longer!” 

The air burned, as if it was the end of the world.

 

The air burns, for it is the end of the world. 

The giant that crawls out of the hole in the sky is larger than any he has seen before, for it is the king of the muspel giants, the most powerful. His body is made from flame and magma. Fires fall like rain from his exit from the sky, and pours across the land in a tidal wave of heat. The first leg comes out, and everything burns away, ash rising towards the sky.

He is Surtr, king of muspel giants, destruction incarnate.
And the sword he swings is death.

 

They were fighting. He could hear the sounds of clashing metal, of gunshots and cannon fire, of thunder. He could hear it all, but all he could do was wretch dryly as he came down to his own body. The name repeated in his head, over and over again. Surtr. Surtr. Surtr. He couldn’t breathe. Surtr. Surtr. Surtr.

Skadi had to feel it by now. There was no way she couldn’t.

There was a hand on the back of his shoulder, mana pushed thorough his circuits. Dimly, he could hear Gudako shouting at him. Something about being hit, something about taking damage. The words made no sense. He could only gag, and suck in breath, and try to catch his mind again. It felt like sand between his fingertips, slipping out before he could get a proper grasp. It felt too large to hold, memories not his own taking up too much room.

“Surtr,” he rasped out, through his raw throat.

“What?” Gudako asked, her fingers tightening on his shoulders.

“It’s Surtr,” CasCu choked out. He brushed her hand off, then used his staff to lever himself back to his feet. He was shaking, trembling, burning away. All he could do was stare at the battle, and say, numbly. “It’s Surtr. We’re fighting Surtr.”

And loosing.

Or- perhaps not.

CasCu stared at what he was watching, expression blank. Surtr was strong, and flames roared after every swing of Gram - but they were fighting back. They were standing their ground. Mash met his blade, block for blow, driven back only to leap forwards again. Nobunaga and Napoleon pelted him from afar, breaking down the defense of those spinning fragments of short sword. Raikou and Brynhild attacked from each side, pushing him back and forth, barely breaking through his armor, but still landing blows. They weren’t winning, by any means, but they weren’t loosing.

Gudako swore, briefly. “Are you sure, CasCu?”

“I’m sure,” CasCu rasped out.

He could see it, with every strike Surtr managed to make. The flames that blazed off of his sword, arcing in devastating blows, lashing out like hungry tongues. It was in the heat haze; the way the bridge seemed to glisten, as if Skadi’s ice was finally starting to melt. It was in the blisters that raised on arms and legs, the way armor gleamed and began to melt. The way Ortlinde hung in the air, staring at this, her mouth covered and her eyes wide in horror. His very presence. 

There was no one else he could be.

Gudako swore again, briefly. “Alright - Fuck, CasCu, we have to take him down. We can’t run away now. Not when we’re so close -”

“I know,” CasCu rasped out. He gripped her hand and gave it a squeeze, tight. “We’ll do what we need to do, and figure out what to do later.” 

“Alright,” she said. “I need your help. The aura will kill us before he does - CasCu, I know you hate him for what he did to Kage, but I need you to run support.”

“I know,” he rasped out. Gods, he knew, and the anger he felt seemed so distant. Surtr’s death was more important. CasCu straightened, planting his feet onto the ice, shoving his spear against it. The pain in his eye and throat had yet to die down. Memories clustered the edges of his mind like ravens.

“Leave it to me,” he said, voice cold.

Gudako nodded, then straightened. She stared at the battlefield, her expression tight, eyes flicking. Examining, but not panicking. Completely collected and in control. On the other side of it stood Ophelia. She held her hand to her chest, eyes wide as she watched this. There was a Command Seal already missing from her hand. There was an expression in her gaze, something that could have been fear. 

The two couldn’t have been more different. Ophelia, a mage with a powerful Mystic Eye, and a magecraft suited towards Summoning, but little experience. Gudako, a Master whose magecraft was negligible, but with more experiences then most commanders had under their belt. It showed, in their attitude as they watched the fight.

He smirked, sharp. 

Even if Surtr was powerful, Ophelia would not use him to his full capacity. She was too scared. What a fool. One shouldn’t be afraid to use the tools at their disposal. Gudako had learned that lesson long ago.

He slammed his staff into the ice, alighting circle after circle of runes. Just as Skadi controlled the ice, Surtr controlled fire. But Skadi wasn’t out here, and if she hadn’t lifted a finger yet, she wouldn’t. Isa blazed across the ice, burning cold gold. Flanking it was laguz, for water. Following that was jeran, for peace, and naudiz for endurance. They glowed around feet in arcing wafts of gold. 

Nine worlds.

Nine days.

Nine circles of runes.

Mana blazed around CasCu, a torrent, and then fell upon the battlefield of Surtr and CasCu’s allies. The flames of Surtr began to dim and waver. Burns and blisters smoothed out and healed. The heat haze began to diminish, the chill in the air, the water of the rune, and the peace instilled in the mana fighting the flames. It was an effort. He gritted his teeth and dug his feet into the ice, fingers straining against his staff. 

He felt Ophelia’s eyes flick. The realization across her expression. She cried out, and he couldn’t hear the words for the rush of mana, but he could feel the effects of the Command Seal fully present in the air.

Then Surtr was in front of him, Gram swinging in a blaze of blue. His eyes were filled with flame, his smile filled with sharp teeth. He laughed, a sound full of smoke and cinder. “I recognize you, old man! Bölverkr Gram!”

There was no time to dodge, no time to move. CasCu barely had time to yank back, feet stumbling across the ground. He saw the flicker of runes across the edge’s of Gram, the sword’s curse. He saw the flames that burst in its trail. He felt a bust of mana from close by - Gudako’s Mystic Code. 

Bölverkr Gram passed right through CasCu. The arc of blue light blazed across the bridge, burning a path across ice, snow, and into the mountain and far off trees. CasCu saw Surtr’s eyes widen in shock as CasCu solidified. He did so with bared teeth, a predatory grin. “Got you, bitch.” 

His staff might not have been a spear, but Gods, even as a Caster, CasCu had never let his spear work slip. 

The side of his staff smacked against Surtr’s face, knocking those damn glasses away and shattering them across the ice. A push of laguz showered the bastard in cold seawater , and the man retreated, sputtering sharply, a low growl threading out of his throat. His hand curled tighter around his sword, and in an instant he was recovered - but when it was one against six, an instant was a long time.

The space around them was lit up by gunfire. Bullets swerved around CasCu, but Surtr had no such protection. He retreated with a snarl, stumbling over his own feet, barely dancing around the cannon shot aimed in his direction. Raikou was there, swinging her sword - he blocked it with one of his short swords, but the burst of lightning from the blade was still enough to send him falling back, to where Brynhild and Mash trapped him, between lance and shield. 

CasCu watched Ophelia’s eyes widen. Her hand raised, the last Command Seal emblazoned in fiery red. “Saber! You cannot lose this!” 

“Shut it!” He roared back. The Command Seal’s energy poured into him, and fire burst around him. CasCu’s runes evaporated. Brynhild, Mash, and Raikou beat a hasty retreat before the flames that ate at the surface of the bridge ate them up too. Nobunaga’s gunfire was reduced to slag. 

Surtr was laughing, a wild, loud, delighted thing. “We’re just getting to the good part!” he crowed, “Stay out of this Ophelia! Keep your damn mouth shut!” The fires blazed out, leaving him standing there, wreathed in flame, wounds being sewn together by the heat. He rocketed forwards, right towards Gudako.

And Mash was there, right in his way. She slammed her shield down onto the ice, and screamed, “MOLD CAMELOT!”

It was hardly the most perfect Noble Phantasm, lacking the chant as it was. But that didn’t matter. All it had to do was be strong enough to stall Surtr’s flame born path, to strain and keep Gram at bay. Give enough time for Raikou to sweep Gudako out of Surtr’s way - and enough time for Brynhild to appear behind his back, spear lashing out.

At another time, Surtr probably would have been able to dodge. But Mash was in front, occupying his full attention, his flames blasting against the transparent walls of Camelot, just starting to flicker out. Surtr was grinning wild and violent, the light of victory in his eyes - then Brynhild’s spear was through his back and exiting out of his front, her face close to his ear, her hand on his shoulder, holding him steady as she shoved her heart shaped blade further into his body.

“SABER!” Ophelia’s cry was cut off, horrified. She paled. Her feet took a reflexive step away from the sight, then another.

“Can you feel that, you who wears Sigurd’s face?” She asked, her voice soft. “My spear has destroyed your armor, torn through your flesh, shattered your bones, and cut your Spirit Core in two. Every attack, every block, wore you down bit by bit. And now, at last, my spear has found its mark.”

She stepped away from him, yanking her blade out with a sick squelch. She was smiling, this faint thing, as the flames began to die out. Then her body collapsed against the ice; she no longer had the strength to hold herself up. Surtr was also too weak too move now, blood spilling across the ice. His eyes were bright red, his whole body shaking in smaller trembles, as if he was laughing.

“No,” Ophelia breathed. She took another step back Tears gathered in the corners of her eyes. She seemed on the verge of a nervous breakdown. “This isn’t possible - you can’t have lost. My knight wouldn’t - You can’t -”

Gudako’s comm link began to beep. Grand Cavallo’s voice sang from it in a burst of static. “Whatever you just did had an effect! The magical energy values are going wild - Gudako, you should get out of there!”

Gudako took a step back, Mash by her side. Her voice blasted through their minds. “Everyone, Spirit Form now.”

No one argued. CasCu fled to Spirit Form, eyes fixated on Surtr’s form as he laughed, and laughed, and laughed. He was pushing himself up. Impossibly, he was pushing himself up. Each movement ripped the wound in his chest further open. Blood spilled from his lips. His expression was pure madness. 

“Finally,” he rasped out, strings of spit and blood trailing from his teeth with each cackle, “Finally, someone has managed to piece my Spirit Core! How I’ve waited! Now that accursed Command Seal that kept me from taking my own life no longer matters!” 

Mash’s eyes flickered. “Ophelia?” 

Ophelia’s feet were tripping over themselves in their rush to move back. She was panicking - obviously so. All the blood had drained from her face. “No, no, no no - Phenomena, schufen auf! I won't let a new Saber be born from Sigurd's destroyed Spirit Core! Ich will es niemals glänzen sehen!”

Oh. 

Oh, shit.

CasCu felt the weight of his stupidity like a hammer blow. Surtr wasn’t just Not-Sigurd. It wasn’t just possession - Sigurd was trapping Surtr’s Spirit Origin within him. With Sigurd dead, Surtr could escape. How had he not seen it before? In the face of Ophelia’s panic, it seemed painstakingly obvious. He should have expected it from a mile away -

But he had not made the right sacrifices yet. He did not have the full extent of that wisdom, nor that magecraft. There were limits to what he could do, to what he could understand, as he was now. The puzzle pieces were there … and he had placed them down in all the wrong fucking spots. 

Surtr laughed, and stood, pushing himself up to his full extent using Gram. His grin was bloody and sharp. “Don’t bother, Ophelia. The Valkyrie was kind enough to show me how to get around that. I might be just another Phenomenon,” and here his grin was even sharper, “but I have a mind and soul.”

“No!” Ophelia stumbled, fell. Her gaze darted around, frantic, to land on Mash and Gudako. “Mash! I can’t stop him - once he breaks through Sigurd’s shell, it won’t be long before - I can’t stop him! I can’t! And after Lord Kirischtaria entrusted him to me- but the flames - they’re coming!”

The body of Sigurd fell. Ophelia’s hand rose, pointing up at the sky. At the sun. She screamed, a horrible, high-pitched , ringing backdrop as the hell in the sky unfolded.

The sun was no longer silver. 

It was a black hole, ringed in blue, with orange light blazing hot from its edges. Even here, CasCu could feel the heat against his cheeks. Gudako and Mash flinched back from it. Brynhild and Sigurd lay beside each other, neither able to move, one bleeding out and the other consumed by the mana of her runes. Napoleon moved to help Ophelia. Both of their faces were twisted up in pain, as if the heat of that black sun was unbearable to them. The ice on the bridge began to glitter, to glisten, water beading on it’s surface.

And the sun began to undulate.

CasCu’s breath caught. He had seen this sight before, in Kage’s memories. In Singularity F. A black hole in the sky. Burning liquid spilling out to gush along the ground.

But here, that burning liquid - looking so much like magma, and so much like that corrupted grail mud - spilled as a hand grasped the edge of that hole. It was a large hand, clawed, and formed of magma and fire. And it gripped the edge of that hole, and pushed out the beginnings of a body. The face, the shoulders, all born of flame and magma, horns flanking the head and blending into that mane of fiery hair. 

And all across the Scandinavia Lostbelt, giants roared as their fiery king pulled himself free of his prison.

Notes:

I'm not sure if I've mentioned this before, but I'm dropping this bit of lore now.

All true ‘divinities’ in this Lostbelt have bolded voices. This includes Skadi, Thrud, Hildr, Ortlinde (and the mass produced valkyries, though barely), and now that he has been released, Surtr. Brynhild’s voice turns bold when she releases the power of her rune because it Is a release of a divinity - Odin’s own. For a brief moment, she becomes a true divine being, like her sisters - but the cost of such power is the destruction of her own spirit origin.

Chapter 12: Chapter 12

Summary:

The enemy of your enemy is your friend. At least until they aren't.

Notes:

Thank you all so much for your comments and kudos!! I hope you all enjoy, and have a wonderful day!

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

Surtr’s climb from the sun was slow, difficult, as if even after all that has happened, there was still something preventing his escape. A part of CasCu understood what was going on. It saw the runecraft lining the circular edge of the sun, explained the processes that kept Surtr from running out and destroying everything he saw immediately. But the rest of CasCu was numb with horror and static. He could only watch, as Surtr slowly pulled further and further out of the hole in the sky.

Heat poured off the Fiery King of Giants in endless waves. The air itself wavered. Crystalline trees began to melt. In answer to Surtr’s flame, Skadi’s power flared, freezing cold and blazing ice. It pulsed beneath their feet, through the bridge, into the snow and their surroundings, and got nowhere.

What could a God do, against the walking end of the world?

Nothing but struggle.

Napoleon was talking. So was Mash. CasCu couldn’t hear it over the static in his brain. He heard Brynhild’s breathing, weak and fluttery, the damage her Spirit Origin had taken thanks to two primal runes in a row finally too much to bear. Sigurd’s body had yet to disappear, and curled towards her, as if an unconscious part of him was reaching out. CasCu listened as Ortlinde dove towards her sister, a cry of her name on her lips, rising through the air.

It was Sherlock’s voice that startled CasCu out of his shock. Partly because CasCu wasn’t expecting it. Partly because he sounded so rough - like a dead man walking, a ghost of himself. But still, he spoke, that familiar informative pattern. “I strongly advise you keep your distance. Fujimaru, your Mystic Code may have been outfitted to accommodate Russia’s extreme cold, but it is not nearly so effective against extreme heat. Make sure to stay where Ms. Kyrielight can protect you.”

The relief on Gudako’s face was palpable. She stood behind Mash, gripping onto her shoulder tight. “Alright. Everyone else, if you haven’t retreated to Spirit Form, do so now! If Mash is going to protect us from the heat, then we need to make sure she doesn’t have much to protect! Napoleon, this includes you.”

Napoleon opened his mouth to argue, but another waft of heat rolled over the bridge. Only the blaze of Skadi’s runes kept it from melting beneath their feet. He retreated into Spirit Form with a pop. CasCu was already in Spirit Form, so he didn’t have to move. Had a fuel view as Surtr’s knee came up, painstakingly slow, above the edge’s of his hole. The hole seemed to be fighting, shrinking and widening and shrinking like a pulsating heart.

In the background, he could hear Gordolf moaning about how no one would believe his reports. He could hear Sherlock’s acidic retort. Then Gordolf was yelling about getting them away, away, away as fast as the Shadow Border could carry them before the heat fried it. And then Napoleon’s laugh, his agreement. CasCu felt the tingle in his mind, Napoleon’s insults hurled towards Surtr, but too quiet for CasCu to pick up in all the noise.

Surtr’s voice, however, came loud and clear, burning the insides of CasCu’s mind like a hot poker.

“You will be the first to die, lover boy.”

With a surge, Surtr moved. He prevailed against the runes, the energies, pushing him back. A leg left the hole. Enough space to swing his sword. It wasn’t close enough to reach, hardly, but it didn’t matter. Waves of flames rocketed towards them with that swing. Mash slammed down her shield, screaming the name of her Noble Phantasm. Camelot surged into place, all bricks, and walls and the burning emblem of the round table in the middle of the construction.

Behind it, Mash protected everyone remaining. Gudako. Brynhild and Sigurd’s bodies. Ortlinde, and Ophelia. The edges of Mold Camelot burned away as soon as Surtr’s flames rushed past them. The rest of the strike warred against Mash’s walls. Mash slid back, her feet dragging tracks into the ice. Gudako was at her back, fingers pressed into her shoulders, forehead at the base of her neck. CasCu felt the flair of one of her Mystic Codes.

He would have helped himself, but in Spirit Form he was useless. He could only watch as the silver light of Skadi’s power flared. Ice wrapped around Mash’s feet, anchoring her in place. No longer was she driven back. No longer did Surtr’s flames threaten to burn through the walls of Camelot, and roast everyone behind them.

So Skadi was aware. She was fighting back, helping out, in her own way. She was keeping everything from melting in Surtr’s mere presence, keeping back the destruction his touch would bring - was pouring power into the runes of his cage, slowing down his coming.

And she wasn’t even born to be a mage. 

In a way, it was impressive, if her blindness hadn't led to this outcome. He should have spent a longer time pursuing her as a student. Should have forced the knowledge of the runes upon her, to see what sort of mage she could have become in his timeline, if this was the sort of feat she could accomplish now. Not just any God could hold back Surtr’s destructive power for three thousand years.

And not any Demi-Servant could hold back the attack of Surtr now. Yet Mash did. She flexed her legs and dug in her heals, with ice wrapped around her feet and Gudako at her back. She screamed as she pushed forwards, Camelot’s walls flickering, the bricks that made them up burning, burning, burning - yet still the structure stood strong. 

It still stood strong.

And Ophelia stared at it, her eyes wide, mouth partly open. There were the brush of tear tracks along her cheeks, glittering and evaporating in the heat. Her head dipped. CasCu heard the words, a soft breath under the fire and the sound of Mash’s cry. 

“You’re amazing, Mash.” Ophelia’s fingers bunched tight in her skirt. “I wish I could be like you.”

Ortlinde’s head jerked over at the sound. The robotic tone had returned to her voice, although CasCu could catch the high whine of stress that threaded through it. “It’s dangerous out here, Ophelia Phamrsolone. Please hurry inside the castle, while the King of Giants’ attention is focused on them.”

Ophelia drew in a deep breath. She stood, then reached up to pull her eye patch back over her eye. The tears were gone. The set of her face was determined. “No, Ortlinde. You go on ahead. This … this is my mess. I need to be the one who cleans it up.” 

She took a step forwards, and disappeared. Ortlinde cried out her name a moment too late. Ophelia blinked into existence up Surtr’s shoulder, wincing at the heat. Surtr’s attack stopped immediately. His hand reached out, as if to cover her. The sun flexed, then shrunk again. Immediately, Surtr roared, and began to draw his last leg out, his hand sheltering Ophelia the whole time.

In the silence after the attack, Mash nearly collapsed. Gudako caught her, holding Mash to her chest. There was a tightness in her voice. “Mash, can you withstand another attack?”

Mash panted, as if there was no air in her lungs, no oxygen in whatever she drew in. “I’m afraid that - this heat and pressure are so intense that-”

“The Ortinax is designed to be fire-resistant,” Grand Cavello chimed in. “It should be able to hold up in the face of extreme heat from the natural world. But it was never designed to with stand a being submerged in lava. You two are lucky to be standing. If not for all of Skadi’s magical energy, you’d be a goner. After all -”

“He’s not quite as hot as a star, but he is indeed close,” Sherlock said. It seemed that, now that he had healed enough that he could participate, he couldn’t stop himself from butting in. “But you cannot focus on that heat. Be wary of his Noble Phantasm. Surtr’s flaming sword is a divine construct born from a planet, it prioritizes life forms over all else - not even a deity from the Age of Gods could survive it.” 

“So good to hear Sherlock,” Gudako rasped. Her face pale and sweat slicked, and her arms shook where she held Mash up.

Napoleon laughed in their minds. “You should be proud, you two! We’re still standing tall after facing off with a being that kills entire worlds!” His voice rose, projected loud. “Hey Surtr! I figured a god killer like you would be way more impressive, but so far, you’ve been a big let-down . You’re nothing compared to the despair my Grande Armée and I felt in the Russian winter!”

Surtr froze. Gudako swore, pushing Mash up, and Mash shakily took to her feet, raised her shield once more. Then Surtr’s clawed foot was pulling from the hole, and was setting on the ground. His hand fell from the shoulder Ophelia stood on. He gripped his sword tight, and grinned. Even in Spirit Form, CasCu could feel the heat of his laugh.

“Winter, you say? All I have for you is fire.” 

He swung, again, that glowing, flaming sword arcing through the air. Released from his bonds, the light that raced towards them was brighter than. Mash cried out, and slammed her shield into the ice again. 

“MOLD CAMELOT!” 

Her scream was a ragged thing. She dug her feet into the ice, those icy struts that had kept her steady before rebuilding at a frantic pace. Gudako pressed against her back, pushing mana into her skin. But CasCu could see the effort it cost them. The blood smearing Gudako’s nose. The shake in Mash’s limbs, the grit of her teeth, as the flickering flames roared, and roared, and roared. 

Slowly, the ice making the bridge, the center of Skadi’s power, began to melt, increment by increment. 

CasCu watched as Ortlinde panicked. The way her eyes widened. The way she lunged forwards, out of the flames fully, and onto Sigurd and Brynhild. Watched as her eyes flickered between the two bodies, her hands flexing - then she landed by Sigurd. Her fingers rose. Gold runes flickered across them, his chest.

“You will not stop me.”

There was something like anger, in Surtr’s voice, this low edge of frustration. The flames that had played across Mash’s Camelot went from orange-blue to blue-white in an instance. Ice evaporated into steam. Mash screamed, the high keen of someone who could no longer hang on to a precipice. CasCu couldn’t see, for the blazing light. But he could still sense as Ortlinde’s runes went to work. He could sense the flare of a Spirit Origin, sudden and swift. 

He sure as hell heard it, that damned voice, roaring. “BOLVERKR GRAM!”

If Surtr’s noble phantasm was nothing but fire, then Sigurd’s was the opposite - cold, cursed ice. It was stronger too, than the Noble Phantasm of a Servant dancing on death’s door should have been. CasCu could feel Skadi’s energy in it, bolstering its strength. 

Gram’s blade cut through the worst of Surtr’s flames, splitting them to either side of Mash and Gudako. In the burst of energy, CasCu couldn’t see what happened. It was just mana, and heat, and flames, and by the time it was cleared - everyone was standing, and Surtr had turned, dismissive, walking towards the Northern Mountains as if they were nothing but insects to be left behind.

Perhaps Ophelia had convinced him to leave. CasCu didn’t know. His head was hurting, the smoke clogging his lungs. It was hard to think. Gods, he knew this feeling, too well from Kage’s dreams.

Mash and Gudako collapsed onto the remaining ice of the bridge. Mash was panting, this high, whining thing. Her shield fell from her fingertips. Her body shook with effort. “I - Gudako - are you?”

“I’m alright,” Gudako said. She looked up, stared at Sigurd. “You - saved us.”

Sigurd stood there, bent over, his fingers gripping the hilt of his blade. Then, slowly, he stood and turned. Each movement was painful - obvious, with how his body was still damaged, the hole in his chest still there, just stitched together in a gruesome array of runes. He shouldn’t have been moving. He gave a bloody smile, his eyes a gentle shade of blue. 

“I am glad to see you both safe,” he said. “I know you know who I am - but let me introduce myself properly, as I could not before.” He drew a breath, drew himself up. “I am a warrior and the wielder of the demonic sword Gram. I am the son of Sigmund and Hjördís, and I have manifested in this Lostbelt as a Saber. My true name is Sigurd, and I am glad that was able to protect you. I just wish I had been able to do so sooner.”

Gudako blinked. Her fingers raised, trembling to her throat. “You’re the one who stopped Surtr from cutting off my head,” she said.

Sigurd’s smile was small and wry. “I did manage to resist that once, yes.” 

Mash gaped at him. She blinked, repeatedly, as if she was having a hard time understanding what she was looking at. “But you - you were dead! Surtr escaped because we -”

“I did,” Sigurd said, his voice softer. “And I would still be dead if not for one brave Valkyrie, who decided to put aside her hatred for me, in favor of her fear of Surtr. And in return, I must help her sister.” 

Ortlinde. 

CasCu felt something in his gut drop. He looked around, wild - Ortlinde was no longer in the sky. She lay on the ground, curled up beside Brynhild, her face quiet in her death. Unlike her sisters, Ortlinde had not died to her rage … she had died to her love, and her determination for this world to survive. Healing Sigurd had pushed her beyond her limits. Her wings lay in shattered shards behind her … but the smile on her face was soft, and happy.

He’d missed her last moments, in the heat of Surtr’s attack. 

CasCu felt gutted. He stared at Ortlinde, and then at Brynhild. Unlike her sister, Brynhild was still breathing, but barely. It was not her wounds that were killing her, but the use of the primal runes that still glowed weakly over her head, flickering in and out. Her wings were starting to fade away into stardust. Her chest moved, up and down, in stuttering breaths. Golden blood trickled from the corners of her lips.

CasCu’s knees shook. He gripped onto his staff, and grabbed it hard, fingers digging into the wood. He could still see Brynhild from last night, her gaze cast towards the sky, soft and sad but filled with such determination.

Sigurd limped over to her side. He fell to her knees, and took her hands in his. The expression on his face was so full of love and adoration that CasCu wanted to smack him with his staff. Sigurd raised her fingers to his lips, kissed them softly, then began to write runes against her skin. CasCu saw them, as if they were writ across his own flesh.

Algiz, Valkyrie. Tiwaz, warrior. Gebo, love. Ingwaz, unity.

And Ansuz, to tie them all together.

“In Odin’s name, by the rune’s guidance, I ask that you awaken, my love.” Sigurd pressed his lips to Brynhild’s hand once more. His voice was soft. “Brynhild. My love, my external executioner, please open your eyes. I promise I will hold your Spirit Origin together. Even if we’re both damaged … I hope you open your eyes nonetheless, even if just for a little.”

Brynhild’s breathing seamed to have eased. Her eyelids flickered, then cracked open. She stared up at him, no recognition on her face. Then it bloomed. Her eyes widened. “Sigurd.”

Sigurd smiled. His hand moved to cup her cheek, hold her head steady. “Hello, my love.” 

“Ah,” Brynhild’s face twisted up, her expression cracking like the tears curling over her cheeks. “You can’t - you mustn’t - Please don’t come near me. I am the one destined to kill you … I can only resist the madness for so long … So please, stay away.”

“I cannot,” Sigurd breathed. “I would like to stay with you, my love. Let me?”

She kissed him. Or maybe it was Sigurd who leaned in to kiss her. Or perhaps they had both moved, fingers gripping onto each other tight like it was the end of the world. CasCu swallowed his growl and looked away. Gudako and Mash were watching this, smiling softly. There was the trace of Skadi’s mana in the air. And Surtr walked towards the Northern mountains, melting and burning behind him.

“I knew it,” Brynhild said. Never before had her voice been so joyful. “I was right. It really was someone else earlier, wasn’t it Sigurd?”

“It was.”

Brynhild laughed slightly, wild and delighted, but soft at the same time. “It’s really you. The man, the hero, I fell in love with.”

“If only that were true,” Sigurd breathed. Those words had CasCu looking over, to glance at them again. They were so close together, their foreheads pressed against one another. Niether appeared ready to move away. Sigurd’s face was downcast. “Then and now, I’ve shown myself too much of a fool to be your hero.”

“No,” Brynhild said, her voice a rush, her fingers curling on his cheek. “No, don’t say that. You protected me. You protected us. You protected the shield-maiden, and the girl fighting to save humanity. You kept this world’s hope alive, Sigurd. No hero could have done it better.”

She kissed him again, soft, and he kissed her back. The mana in the air seemed to tick up a notch. CasCu looked up, frowning. It was Skadi’s power, thrumming through the air, still thick and cold. It was Skadi’s … oh. That made a lot of sense, for all he hated it.

Sigurd pulled back, forehead pressed to hers. “I could have never done that with my little strength alone,” he murmured. “Her help was crucial. She’s also why your spear has yet to pierce me, despite coming face to face. It’s all thanks to her Godly power.”

“Skadi?” Gudako asked. She stood now, arm in arm with Mash, leaning heavily on each other.

“Indeed.”

Skadi’s voice was low in their minds, rolling with the timber Scáthach normally carried. CasCu shuddered slightly, then stilled. 

“If Surtr had brought his flaming sword down in earnest, my castle, my Scandinavia, would have been raised to the ground. And that is something I cannot abide. Chaldeans, Sigurd, Brynhild, you fought well. I commend your bravery and your valor. You all may enter my castle, so we may plan our next steps.”

The doors at the very end of the bridge swung open. Gudako and Mash looked at each other, then nodded. “Seems like we’re fully on the same side now,” Mash breathed.

“Strange bedfellows,” Gudako said. She glanced over, to Sigurd and Brynhild. “Will you two need help standing up?”

“No,” Brynhild said. She took Sigurd’s hand, and with his help, stood. Neither of them looked good. But they leaned against each other, solid. Her gaze landed on Ortlinde’s fallen form. She hesitated, before the joy on her face fell into sadness once more. She reached out a touch. “We should carry her inside.”

“I’ll do it,” CasCu said. He took to Spirit Form, then picked Ortlinde up in his arms. For all the weight of her armor, she was light. He stared down at her quiet face, and swallowed hard. Ortlinde, like her sisters, had found herself. But the price she had paid for that was too great. He looked up, and spoke softly. “Let’s go inside. Perhaps the queen will have a place for her to be put to rest.”

“We should burn her where we burned Thrud and Hildr,” Brynhild breathed.

“We will,” Gudako said, “if we get a chance. Now let’s go. I want to figure out a plan before Surtr gets to wherever he’s going.”

 

Skadi no longer looked so smug. Nor did she look so chilly. She still sat on her throne, but her posture wasn’t of a languid wolf, a lazy predator. 

No. 

Her appearance had changed. Instead of her dress, she wore armor. This wasn’t the practical armor she had worn when she had marched upon Asgard's gates. This was fancier, showier, more benefitting a queen, and still carried the raven feather ruff her dress had. A chest plate, curved and embroidered, with pauldron, arm guards, and leg armor. Where there wasn’t metal, there was leather, a pale purple with darker stripes and silver studs. She still wore a skirt, but it was open at the front, and short enough to fight in.

The armor wasn’t the only change. She looked more like Skadi than Scáthach now. She seemed taller. Her hair was done up and out of her face, but was a lighter color than before, streaked with bands of softer purples, pinks, and blues. Her skin was paler, blue touched, and her eyes blazed brighter gold. The softer colors did not make her appear softer. No, she was just as harsh and cold as ice was.

And yet it didn’t scare Gudako into keeping quiet. She spoke as soon as greetings were had, her voice sharp, the same one that had carried them all through fight after fight. “The people in the villages … are they safe?”

Skadi was quiet for a moment, watching them. Then she straightened, and nodded her head. “I have sent the envoy’s to protect them,” she said, “with Surtr released, the giants will no longer listen to me. They hear the beat of Ragnarök. If their power approaches their power from the Age of Gods, the villages’ protections will only last so long.”

“Is there anything else you can do?” Gudako asked.

Skadi’s eyes flashed, her lips tightening. Perhaps it was the fact that Gudako dared to speak back. Perhaps it was the forced admittance of her own weakness - either way, she obviously didn’t like the words she had to say. “I cannot offer any more power to sustain them than I already am. To do so would be to let Scandinavia burn, and that is something I refuse to let happen.”

Gudako opened her mouth - only to be cut off by Sherlock, coming from Gudako’s comm link. His voice was politely bland, but CasCu didn’t like the prodding note to it. “I’m sure you have a lot of questions, Gudako, but first I believe we should thank Queen Skadi here. Your majesty, I am Sherlock Holmes from Chaldea. Let me start by offering my sincere thanks - not only help with surviving Surtr’s attack, but for also helping our injured personnel.” 

Skadi had yet to heal anyone, CasCu wanted to point out. But Skadi’s eyes narrowed, and her hand waved, runes lighting in the air. “Of course,” she said, smoothly, “Such a thing is simple, even in these circumstances.” 

A show of power, baited out. Such a clever bastard, that Sherlock Holmes. He would have to be very careful to avoid him, in case the sharp-eyed sage figured out something he had no right knowing.

Brynhild’s and Sigurd’s thanks were soft. Napoleon’s - who had flashed into existence again as soon as they had stepped into the castle - was as boisterous as he normally was. Mash was a bit softer, her fingers running over the edges of her shield in wonder. “You even restored the Ortinax and it’s components,” she noted.

“You cannot be expected to fight Surtr with faulty equipment,” Skadi retorted

Gudako swallowed hard at that. Her fingers flexed - then she took a deep breath, and let it out, long. “Thank you, your majesty,” she said, bowing. “It is hard to believe that you are being so nice to us, considering you know our motives.” 

“You are not strong enough to take down Surtr,” Skadi said, her voice vibrating through the halls. “Not as you are. Neither, unfortunately, am I. This act of mercy is an act of practicality, young Master. If Surtr does not die, then we all die instead. I will not abide the destruction of my Scandinavia. Do you understand?”

“I do,” Gudako said, bowing again. The lines were clear, this alliance temporary. They would deal with Surtr, and then, if Gudako continued to cut down the Tree of Emptiness, then Skadi would no longer hold back.

“We are most gracious for your mercy,” Sherlock said smoothly, “Now, if you mind - I have a few clarifying questions to ask. I wish to gain as clear an understanding of this situation as possible in order to determine our next course of action.”

Skadi’s eyes narrowed. She considered the comm link for a moment, before nodding. “Very well. Ask away.”

“Thank you, your majesty,” Sherlock said, “To begin, I presume that the fire on the northern mountains comes from Surtr?”

Gudako jerked slightly. Mash’s head yanked up, her eyes wide.

Skadi’s lips tightened. “They are his embers, depending on your perspective. The remnants of a Ragnarök I was not fully able to quench.” There was a tight knot in her voice there, anger, or disappointment - it was hard to tell.

“I see,” Sherlock hummed.

Mash’s head was spinning between them, back and forth. “E-excuse me, I’m sorry to interrupt, but may we ask you something, Holmes?”

“Of course.”

“Did you know about Surtr all along, Holmes?” Gudako asked. There was no anger in her voice, just … confusion. A touch of worry.

Sherlock didn’t sound repentant. “I was, at best, 20% certain. Giving voice to my suspicions at that point would only cause confusion, which is why I refrained from doing so. I was certain the man who attacked the Shadow Border was not fully Sigurd, but I was unable to convey that information at that time. That said … I should have found a way to warn you about the fire sooner. If not that, then at least about Surtr.”

“It would have been nice,” Gudako agreed, but there was no blame in her voice. 

“Indeed,” Sherlock said, and this time he actually sounded apologetic. “I cannot tell you how sorry I am for the trouble I have caused.”

“Do not be so shamed of yourself, sage of Proper Human History,” Skadi said, her voice ringing through the room. “The fires on those mountains are testament to my own weakness. The powers Odin gave me were not enough to rid this land of Twilight, and that is a fault I will carry upon my own shoulders until the end of times.”

“Odin’s power,” Sherlock repeated. Those words on his lips were hated. “Is that how you survived Ragnarök?” 

Skadi was quiet, for a long moment. She looked up, golden eyes flicking towards the ceiling of her castle. Her voice was hard, but there was a quiet to it that he didn’t like. “Huginn and Muninn are watching Surtr’s movements. If you wish to hear the tale, I will have time to tell you … but it is a long one, and one I do not like recounting.”

Gudako and Mash glanced to each other. Gudako swallowed, then looked at Skadi. “We would like to hear it,” She said, and with the words brought on the history of another world upon her shoulders.

“Very well,” Skadi said. She closed her eyes, a very human gesture, then opened them again. “Three thousand years ago, Ragnarök went awry. It was Surtr’s fault, in the end. Surtr. The dark one. He inherited Ymir’s destructive side above all else. The first giant, with his name almost all but erased from history. The Fiery King of Giants, strongest of all in Muspelheim. He was meant to trigger Ragnarök, signaling the end of the Age of Gods and paving the way for the future. But in this Lostbelt, he did not care for his destined fate.”

“Surtr refused to be content with ending the Norse Age of Gods. He wished to bring a true end … a cataclysm to end the world entirely. He killed and consumed Fenrir, the fearsome wolf of ruin whose breath could freeze anything in its path, a monster whose bones, muscles, and heart turned to ice when he ate half of Niflheim. Fenrir was supposed to be the one to kill Odin - but when he went to swallow the sun, Surtr fell upon him. Upon Fenrir’s consumption, the fiery king of giants also had the power of ice.”

“With this power, he killed and consumed Loki - trickster and traitor of the gods. Surtr did the same to the other Giant Kings. He consumed gods, and with this power, he attempted to connect to his true body - Muspelheim itself - to the sky through the hole left by the sun’s vacancy. By doing so, he hoped to bring the twilight to the gods, and to the world itself. The Nine Realms he destroyed, the planets he attempted to burn. The flames were devastating. In the end, only Odin and I were left.”

Skadi took a deep breath at that. She held herself well, through the story. Her gaze was cold and calm, her expression completely blank - but her hands told the true story. They were shaking, where they curled around her arm rests. These tiny trembles that rattled her fingers and wracked her arms.

“Odin spent all his power to seal away Muspelheim and Surtr with one final rune, leaving it hanging in the sky as a false sun. He then bestowed the last of his power to me before he too fell. The preceding fight with Surtr had left me damaged. I was forced to seek a body to host my mind - I had met a warrior woman, when I was married to Njord. She was more in tune with Rune Craft than I … so I possessed her, and made her mind my own. Only then could I, the remains of the gods, start cleaning up the mess Surtr had left behind.”

“It was horrific. Surtr’s rampage left much of the land ablaze. The blood that poured onto the ground, spilled by the wounds the gods had dealt before their deaths, remained aflame. Those flames consumed countless lives.  The humans were never my people - but as the last God, I had a duty to ensure that they remained. So I turned the vast majority of my power to extinguishing Surtr’s flames.”

“I blanketed this land with snow and ice, laden with magical energy. I created havens for humans to live in, and left the rest of this land to my brethren. Without Surtr to control them, they listened to my orders once more. But for humanity and giants to live in the same time and place, sacrifices had to be made. So I produced several hundred envoys using the three surviving Valkyries as a base.”

Despite her shaking hands, she said nothing that would incite sympathy. Despite her domain, Skadi had always hated being alone. Despite her responsibility towards humankind, Skadi had chosen a path that would not favor them, but would favor the giants that Skadi shared blood with. Her Scandinavia was neither a place for gods, nor was it a place for giants, nor was it a place for humans. It was a place of impossible balance, succeeded in the worst way.

And she was not apologetic about it. Nor did she ask for any sympathy for her plight. She simply spoke, and they listened. 

“With Surtr sealed away as a false sun, he became ineffectual as a Divine Spirit. Though he continued to exist in this world, he no longer had any power in it. Peace returned to Scandinavia, and for the past three thousand years, it has continued under my jurisdiction. Only recently, did a great tree extend its roots down from space … and Ophelia appeared before me, calling herself a Crypter.”

“I presume you are aware of what transpired after that. Ophelia told me she must grow that tree in order for this world to survive. She proved quite helpful to me - but that is beside the point. I never once suspected the knight that accompanied her was harboring the soul of my sworn enemy!” 

And finally, something in her voice beyond harsh chill. There was anger there, the same anger that had carried her to Asgard's gates after her father’s death. It was cold deep enough to cut, rage enough to make the walls of her icy castle tremble. If Ophelia had stood before them, no doubt Skadi would have stolen her breath, frozen her body, and then tossed her from the walls just to watch her shatter.

But he could tell that much of that anger was directed at Skadi herself, for missing what lay in plain sight before her. 

Surtr.

Everyone was quiet, at that moment, as if no one could quite figure out what to say. As for himself, CasCu almost felt cold. He stood there, with Ortlinde’s body in his arms, and stared up at this goddess who had fought against Surtr and established this world, alone, only to incredibly fuck it up and miss Surtr’s presence. Something cold curdled in his gut. 

Of course, it had ended like this. Skadi was not a goddess of humanity. She was not a kind goddess, nor was she a very good one, inclined to warmth and care. She was cold, and she was ice. She was survival that favored her loved ones. The Odin of this would must have been a fool, to gift her his divinity, if he wanted this world to flourish. 

Finally, Sherlock spoke. “I do not think Ophelia meant for this to happen,” he said, “I believe this was a summoning accident of some kind. No doubt she was using a system identical to Chaldea’s to materialize Sigurd’s Heroic Spirit, and a foreign entity happened to make its way into the mix. I imagine Surtr used her mystic eye as a catalyst - that eye is meant to see possibilities, after all. She must have caught sight of a lost history - a pruned phenomenon that would have been impossible in Proper Human History at some point.”

Skadi’s cold gaze landed on the comm link. Her fingers squeezed tight onto her throne. “Regardless of how he came to be, the fact remains that Surtr has returned to my land. And now he will stop at nothing to finish what he began: to merge with Muspelheim, and bring about the end of all things.”

“If that happens, there’s no telling what effect it might have outside this Lostbelt,” Grand Cavello piped up, “You do need to go into Void Space to escape a Lostbelt, so I don’t think the fire would leak beyond it … but I can’t be entirely certain.”

“And,” Gudako added, her voice tighter, “he still has Paper Moon. With that, he might be able to navigate his way out and into our world.”

For a moment, silence again, as Gudako’s words landed. Mash looked sick. Her expression was pale, hands shaking. She gripped onto Gudako tight, and Gudako leaned against her. CasCu glanced towards Brynhild and Sigurd. They leaned hard against each other, obviously exhausted, still weak … but they both looked ready for a fight.

Like before, Sherlock was the first to speak. “Your majesty,” he said, “may I propose an alliance? While the enemy of my enemy may not exactly be my friend, I do believe our chances of defeating Surtr would improve considerably by working together.”

“There is a reason I brought you into this castle,” Skadi returned. “Do not test my patience by issuing commands. You are here because I believe -”

Gudako’s comm link burst into sound, the screaming, loud, beep of the emergency signal. It was paired with ruckus from the comms link, people going crazy at the sound of renewed threat. A high whine in the air, a mana signature familiar. For a brief second, the image of Alter impaled flashed through CasCu’s mind. He shoved it away, bundled Ortlinde’s body closer to his chest, and threw himself to the side.

Grand Cavello’s voice rang out. “There’s a mass of magical energy flying towards us from the Northern Mountains! Wait - all of our instruments are working now? What happened?”

Skadi stood. In her hand appeared a dagger of ice, intricate carved with runes. Her look was dark; the knife she pointed towards the ceiling. “I simply adjusted my snow and ice to accommodate them. Now, destruction to my castle for my entertainment is one thing - to dare attack it is quite another!” 

A bright light, cold and pale blue, burst from the knife and towards the ceiling. CasCu caught the flicker of runes as he put Ortlinde down, right against the wall. He turned his gaze away, and started sketching the same runes he had sketched for Thrud and Hildr. A golden dome shimmered into appearance around Ortlinde. The ice began to burst into green growth, and small flowers spread their petals against Ortlinde’s clothes.

Then he looked up, towards Skadi’s barrier, and watched. His eye pulsed, and he saw the web of magic threaded across the ceiling. She was good. Three thousand years of carrying his other self’s runes had made her a good mage - and as the last Goddess and the King of this Lostbelt, she was more powerful than anything here - except Surtr, and the Tree she and Ophelia had been meant to nurture.

The ceiling and Skadi’s runes shattered.

Ice fell like glass fractals, spinning as they descended towards the floor. Mash yanked her shield over Gudako, and Sigurd tossed his cloak over him and Brynhild, shielding them both. Napoleon used his own cannon. Skadi’s knife spun, a shield of golden runes swirled around her as another of those things descended.

“It’s the same type of enemy we encountered on Mt. Galdhopiggen, Master!” Mash cried out, holding Gudako close to her.

Gudako grit her teeth. “Then we’ll have to deal with it quickly - Raikou!” 

“There is no need for that, Master of Chaldea.” Skadi retorted. Her knife rose, pointing at the floating, conical thing with its single eye. “You impudent thing! I am connected to the Tree of Emptiness, you seeds have no right nor reason to barge into my home! I, the King of this Lostbelt, command you to die!” 

CasCu could have told her that it wouldn’t have worked. Perhaps there once was a connection between them - by Hel, he could see it, thin and transparent, the ghost of what had once been there - but whatever remained was not enough for her to command their destruction and for them to reply. 

The Seed of the Tree of Emptiness - for that was what it was, a seed sent out by the tree that held this Lostbelt in place, a defense mechanism sent out once the tree had sprouted significantly - shot towards Skadi in a blur. It was the same move that had ruptured Alter’s stomach open. But despite her shock, despite the three thousand years since her last fight, Skadi’s reactions were still quick. A flick of her wrist, a cut of her dagger, and an icicle ruptured from the ground and destroyed the thing mid-flight.

“There are more incoming!” Mash cried out, warning. 

“Then they will die,” Skadi retorted. Chilly frost radiated off of her. Mist started to rise up from the floor. 

CasCu saw the shiver in Gudako’s form from the corner of his eye. He moved over, setting one hand on her shoulder, the other on Mash’s. “Might want to move away now,” he said, “I think Skadi’s going to take care of this.”

“Should queenie really be spending this much power?” Napoleon asked. He lowered his cannon and frowned. “She’s spending a lot of it on Surtr isn’t she? Perhaps we should give her a helping hand here.”

“I can hear ever word you’re saying, nameless Archer.” Skadi retorted. Fractals of ice rose up from the ground. She grabbed one, and it formed a bow in her hand. “But if these things will not heed the command of their King, then it is down to me to destroy them.” 

She knocked her knife, and its shape took form of an arrow. She released as soon as the second Seed cleared the ceiling. The arrow hit it dead center in a bloom and boom of ice. It rocketed backwards and slammed into the castle wall in a spiderweb of cracks. It fell lifeless. Another Seed shot from the ceiling in rapid succession.

This time the bolt of ice that shot through the Seed did not come from Skadi. Illya came out of a side tunnel, astride a large white bear. She had her fingers in its fur, her expression lightly teasing. “But you’re not their King anymore, stepmother. Haven’t you sensed that your connection’s been snapped?”

Skadi paused, briefly. The chill around her seemed to dissipate as she turned. “Freyja,” she said, and there was just a touch of warmth to her tone. Of course … Skadi was cold and harsh, but for family she could care. For family, she did.

“I’m going by Illya, right now, stepmother,” Illya said, beaming.

“I suppose you might be right,” Skadi said, her eyes narrowing. “Freyja would not have dared to wield ice like I do.” She flicked her finger, and the seed that had been attempting to slide into the room unnoticed was impaled from every direction as the ceiling closed in on it.

“Never mind, Raikou,” Gudako murmured, “I think we’ve got this in the bag. Napoleon? I don’t think you need to worry.” 

“I suppose it is nice to see Divine Spirits in action,” Napoleon sighed, walking over. There was just the tracest amount of a disgruntled huff in his voice. Out of the corner of his eye, CasCu caught Brynhild’s soft laugh, and Sigurd’s answering smile.

“Regardless,” Skadi said, ignoring them, “I must commend you. You did well to escape my dungeon. I should have expected nothing less.”

Illya shrugged, spinning some ice over her fingers. “I could have escaped whenever. The only reason I didn’t was because I knew you’d go all out to seal me away again, this time for good.” She clenched her fingers, and another layer of ice covered the patched ceiling and the Seed half embedded in it. “What happened, stepmother? I thought you were the Queen of Scandinavia. How did you not notice Ophelia cut your connection to the Tree of Emptiness?” 

Skadi’s eyes narrowed faintly. “I may be Queen, but keeping Surtr’s flames requires tremendous effort. It means I have little attention to gift trivial matters - though I suppose I should have realized sooner. These three thousand years have made me soft.” There was disgust, in that voice, cold.

“Um -” Mash paused, when everyone looked at her. She swallowed hard, then titled her head up. “I believed Ophelia might have been able to hide it from you, your majesty. Her specialty has always been in Spirits - be it the Summoning of them or the ties that bind them - her eye aside, I mean. I don’t think the bond between you and the Tree of Emptiness is quite the same, but she might have been able to -”

“Your attempt to console me is amusing, but unneeded.” Skadi said. She tapped her bow against her hand, then dismissed it. “I am the Queen of this world, and as it’s Queen, I must live up to my own faults. Governing everything was never my strong suit, and the lack of battle for three thousand years has dulled my senses. But if Ophelia did break my connection to my tree, there is only one she could have given it to instead.”

“Surtr,” Gudako said. 

“Correct,” Skadi agreed. “There’s no telling what disaster may ensue if Surtr were to absorb the tree’s power into himself.”

“Though it seems you might have some idea, your Majesty,” Sherlock said, this almost gentle nudge for an explanation.

Skadi’s glance to Gudako’s comm link was cold, displeased with his interruption. “To begin with, he would raze Scandinavia to the ground,” she said, “The sword he wields was forged by the planet itself. Its sole purpose is to rend the Age of Gods asunder, to wipe it from the very face of the earth. That power, combined with the Tree of Emptiness and your Paper Moon will only feed his desire for destruction … and will make it more likely that it will reach your own world.”

“She’s not wrong,” Grand Cavello said.

“Assuming his magical energy and spiritual rank increase to that degree,” Sherlock added. “Your Majesty, would you tell us where the Tree of Emptiness is located?”

Skadi said nothing, for a long moment. So Gudako said it for all of them, her voice calm, steady. “The Tree took root in the Northern Mountains, didn’t it? Where Surtr is heading.”

“It did,” Skadi said. “It took root just beyond them - though I have been using my magecraft to hide it this whole time.” Skadi started walking forwards down from her throne, her footsteps echoing harsh on the stairs. She was taller than Scáthach, but carried herself with the same measured grace. Each word was as sharp and pointed as a shot ice cycle.

“Enemies of my sworn enemy, humans and Heroic Spirits of Proper Human History, I accept your proposal of an alliance.” She stopped in front of Gudako, towering over her, and looked down. Her bearing was regal, but there was distance there. A coldness that had not dropped, and would probably never drop - not for them. “Our alliance, however, will be a temporary one. Do not forget that.”

“I won’t,” Gudako said. She did not step back from the Goddess’ presence. She met her gaze, and didn’t falter. “Just as long as you remember the same thing.”

Skadi barked out a harsh laugh, head thrown back. It was the baying of a wolf, brief and amused, before dying out. When her gaze fell again, her eyes were golden once more. “You are brave, Master of Humanity. So I will say this only once: Do not enter this alliance with the intent to hold anything back. Remember, Surtr defeated Odin himself. You must kill a killer of gods. You should appreciate the incredible difficulty of this task. Is that clear?”

“As crystal,” Gudako said. She held out her hand, and grinned. “Shall we shake on it, your majesty?”

Skadi stared at her, her expression cold, a touch amused. Then she reached down, grasped Gudako’s hand, and shook. It was probably the first time she had ever shaken a human’s hand. It was most certainly not the first time Gudako had shaken a goddess’ hand at a time that destruction loomed over them, with time ticking away with each footstep towards a world dooming goal.

Notes:

For those curious about how Sherlock is healed enough to participate - Grand Cavello and some of the inventors + nightingale, were able to rig up something to get him on his feet! It’s not a Permanent solution, and the longer he’s up, the harder he’ll crash … unless, Surtr dies before he does.

Chapter 13: Chapter 13

Summary:

Lets go, race time! Chaldeans v the Fiery King of Giants. The finish line? The end of the world. Who will cause it first?

Notes:

Hey everyone! Thank you all so much for your comments and kudos! I hope you enjoy, and have a wonderful day!

 

TW: descriptions of mutilation (not graphic) from "They were Phantasmal Beasts, and CasCu didn’t have the chance to count his breaths before they were upon him" to "He lifted his fingers from Gudako’s eyes"

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

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They retreated to the Shadow Border, leaving Skadi’s castle behind them. Everyone clustered inside the Bridge, with Tesla, Nobunaga, and Napoleon clinging to the top of the Shadow Border, up there in case any enemies decided to chase after them. 

And oh, they did. 

Under Surtr’s control, the Muspel giants Skadi had kept chained had escaped and were wrecking havoc across Scandinavia. All the giants were far more aggressive then they had been before, with the allure of the oncoming Ragnarök in their bones. The seeds from the Tree of Emptiness were out there too, and though the Border’s camouflage was working as well as it could, nobody wanted to risk another confrontation.

“There’s something new on the monitor,” one of the crew members - CasCu thought it was Meunière - said. He was bent over the radar, frowning.

“More enemies?” Gordolf snapped out. He was pacing the Bridge, back and forth, back and forth, in what limited space he had. Occasionally he returned to the main console , gripping the computer and stand that made up Gran Cavallo’s main monitor. There was sweat on his brow, and his hair was in disarray. It was easy to tell that the man wanted nothing more but to run away from this mess.

“N-no.” Meunière said. He looked up. “It looks like … birds.”

“Put them up on the monitor,” Holmes ordered. He was sitting in a seat, and wasn’t in good condition. CasCu had no fucking clue how the bastard was still standing, but it had to be some insane testament to Nightingale’s skills and Irisviel’s magecraft. Even then, the man still looked and sounded like death warmed over, and couldn’t stand for long.

“There’s no need,” Skadi said, her voice cold. She had shrunk her size to fit within the Shadow Border, but she stood at the bridge helm like she was in control. The monitors flashed by the destruction that had already been dealt to her world. “Those would be Huginn and Munnin, back from their reconnaissance.”

“So what did they find?” Gudako asked. She, too, was sitting down, and was in the process of eating and drinking one of the special mana filled ration packets and drinks. Mash was doing the same. The absent Command Seal on Gudako’s hand was more jarring then the two that still remained. 

“I cannot tell yet,” Skadi said, her voice a tad shorter. “They belonged to Odin originally, and I cannot communicate with them like he did. I must touch them to understand what knowledge they store and the things they have found.” She turned them, to face them all, her golden eyes cold. “But headless of their information, we need a plan.”

“And you have one?” Gordolf asked, voice louder, full of bluster and bravery. His fear of the goddess seemed to have disappeared in exchange for his fear for Surtr. 

“I do.” Skadi said. She crossed her arms, her eyes casting over them all, before falling on Gudako. “But I will need your Caster to help me execute it.” 

Something cold curdled in CasCu’s gut, then fell like a stone. It felt like, in a way, that he was plummeting with it. The whole world seemed to rush around him, words coming as if from underwater.
Gudako frowned. “What do you need CasCu for?”

Skadi paused, considering Gudako a moment, before she smiled. It was a cold, not-quite amused smile. “Surtr’s link to Muspel is as clear as the sun is in the sky - but the remnants of Odin’s runes still cling to the edges. Though the seal cannot be replaced, I believe that - by reactivating the runes, we will be able to weaken Surtr. But I do not have the skill to do that alone. Freyja will be more useful supporting your fight than supporting me. Your… CasCu will help me fill that gap.”

Gudako frowned. “I need a Caster in my group to run support.”

A beep, from Gran Cavallo. Her voice came through in a rush of static, thoughtful. “With the help of Skadi’s runes, and if the Shadow Border stays in the vicinity, you should be able to have a fifth Servant out there with you. That should help pad out the roster.”

“We will also have Napoleon, Brynhild, and Sigurd helping us too,” Mash added, her voice soft, her hand reaching out to squeeze Gudako’s hand.

Gudako considered this, for a moment. Then she looked up, and spoke. “Do you think you can do it, CasCu? I know it’s a lot, and you haven’t had the chance for a proper break this whole Lostbelt …”

He appeared, his staff gripped tight in his hands. His eyes met Skadi’s cold ones, briefly, before he looked down at his young Master. Gudako was watching him, waiting. If he said no, she would figure out something else. It was in her nature - adaptable, willing to compromise and change according to the situation.

“There is no one better suited to the job,” he said. “You have no other Casters that specialize in rune craft. I am the only one who can do it.” 

“Then you have him,” Gudako said, turning to Skadi, “Though I doubt either of you will be able to join the fight properly.”

“We won’t,” Skadi agreed. “Powering Odin’s runes will require all of our attention - but it will weaken him. Enough that we might have a chance to kill the killer of gods.” Her lips pulled at that, and it was impossible to tell if it was a smile or a scowl.

For a fleeting second, he was reminded of the giantess that marched upon Asgard. The cold danger of her fury. He saw it now, in this Skadi of a different world. It was a ghost of the woman he had known. Changed and twisted by different circumstances and three thousand years … but the roots of Skadi as a Goddess would always exist in the loss of what she loved, and the rage of her grief. 

Only now, she had the patience to control it. Had the intelligence to guide it where it was needed. He was looking forward to working with this calmer Skadi, who did her best to wield his runes, and had the audacity to command his birds and troops. He wanted to see right where those differences between the two Skadis were.

“It’s a good start to the plan,” Holmes said, fingers tapping against his knee. “But I would feel more comfortable knowing what Surtr’s status was now. You said Ophelia went with him, Mash?”

Mash hesitated, then nodded. “Hai, she did. I don’t … know what she’s planning, but I want to hope that she’ll help us in the end.”

“I have no hope for her,” Skadi said, turning to Gudako. “Tell that nameless Archer to open the hatch and let the birds in. I must see what they have found.”

“Absolutely not!” Gordolf glanced up, stopping in the middle of his pacing. His eyes were wide and wild. “There will be no birds in the bridge, damn it! We’re facing a crisis here - there’s no reason to invite things that can’t stay in their damn seats.”

“Much like yourself,” Skadi said coldly. The temperature in the bridge plummeted. Gordolf’s face went white.

“We’ll all go outside.” Gudako said. She slammed back the rest of her drink, and stood up. “I need to see what the situation out there is anyway. Skadi, CasCu, Mash, come with me. Maybe the others will want a break.” 

They filtered outside. CasCu took too Spirit Form, fingers tight around his staff. He didn’t like the way Skadi kept on looking at him. Cold, calculating … an edge of desperation and recognition he couldn’t understand, nor wanted pointed towards him. The sensation of being underwater had retreated slightly; sounds now filtered clearly to his ears. In its place was a pounding headache that wrapped his brain in a vice-like grip.

Outside was chaos. 

Giants, ice creatures, and seeds chased them. The Shadow Border was keeping ahead of them, but only thanks to the insane driving of whoever was at the wheel - which meant some part of Gran Cavallo was doing most of the work. Gudako nearly went flying, and had to grip onto Mash for support. Skadi barely budged, seemingly unmoved by the wild twists and turns the Shadow Border took.

Tesla and Nobunaga had disappeared. Perhaps Gudako had told them to take a rest, and let the other Archer’s handle it. Napoleon had obviously refused. But instead of two of Gudako’s servants, there was only one. Gilgamesh lounged in the throne he had summoned, a bored expression on his face as weapons of every type shot from the Gates of Babylon. Each hit left craters and the ruined bodies of their enemies.

“Fujimaru,” Gilgamesh said, his head lifting as they approached. His eyes were narrowed slits, almost bored. “You have much to answer for, making me waste my treasury on these mindless husks, and leaving me in the company of this mongrel.” 

“I’ll let you know that I’m no Mongrel!” Napoleon retorted. He crossed his arms over his chest, something like a scowl on his lips. “ Maître , can you tell that short, Japanese emperor and the inventor to come back? Their company is much better than this one! At least they’re capable of amusing jokes.”

Gudako closed his eyes briefly, then smiled. The smile she wore was bright and cheerful. She and Mash walked over to defuse the situation. CasCu - he looked away, and tuned them out, watching Skadi instead. She stood there, the wind whipping through her hair, the ravens circling, circling. It was odd. In a way, she seemed to be gathering her courage -

Huginn plunged down to perch on her right shoulder. Munnin took her left, beak moving through Skadi’s hair, preening. Skadi didn’t so much as stagger, as bend. CasCu watched as she closed her eyes, taking in a power that was never meant for her. Huginn and Munnin were tied to Odin - his birds, his messengers, his. Even with his runes, Skadi could not fully connect to them, and it showed.

A part of him was coldly pleased by that. Good. Skadi had taken too much of what was his, twisted it beyond repair, and let it loose into this broken land. His people, his Valkyries , his world. She would not do the same to his birds.

Skadi’s eyes flared open, blazing gold. She straightened, her hands raising to cup each raven. Frost crackled in her hair as she turned to Gudako, Mash, and the two bickering Heroic Spirits. “Master of Humanity,” she said, her voice frost, “We have run out of time. Surtr has swallowed the Tree of Emptiness and has regained the powers of Fenrir, the icy wolf of destruction. He is headed south, towards one of my villages.”

Both Heroic Spirits quieted immediately. Gudako turned to face Skadi. Her expression was tight. “Which one?” 

“The one on top of Lake Vänern ,” Skadi said. In a way, she was more like the Odin her powers belonged to. Cold and imposing. Uncaring as she said those words.

CasCu’s skin prickled, the back of his neck itching. He didn’t like that expression on her face. Not one bit.

Gudako raised her comms link to her mouth. “Did you here that Gran Cavallo? Change course immediately to Lake Vänern . We can’t waste any time.” There was something tight in her throat, a bead of fear CasCu didn’t like, but he knew why it was there.

That was Gerta’s village. That was where Surtr would begin his destruction. Gerta was doomed to die - the whole village was doomed to die - once they ended this Lostbelt, but that didn’t matter. That didn’t mean Gudako would just stand by and watch destruction reign.

The Shadow Border roared beneath them, turning sharply, snow spraying wildly. Despite the change in direction, Gran Cavallo still sounded to confused. “Why is he headed that way? That flaming sword of his is absurdly powerful. He could use it anywhere, and it’d still be just as destructive. So why go so far out of his way just for one village? Does he just want to watch it burn?”

“I doubt it,” Napoleon said. “He doesn’t care much about gods, Heroic Spirits, or humans. But I got an idea about why he’s doing it.” 

“Explain,” Gudako said. She gripped onto Mash tight, her expression cold. 

“He’s doing it to show off to his lady friend!” Napoleon said. He laughed then, though there was a note of strain to it. “Ophelia is still with him, remember? In his own twisted way, he cares for her - you saw how jealous he was of my advances, how he moved to keep her shielded from his flames. He wants her to see his destruction in full.” 

“You should have saved her when you had the chance,” Skadi said. Her voice rung, chimes and ice and chill.

Mash’s eyes widened. “What does that mean?”

“She is falling to Surtr’s curse,” Skadi said, her face expressionless. The birds on her shoulders watched them, their heads tipped to the side, eyes glowing the same gold as hers. “Surtr’s love is not a kind thing, not a warm thing. It is destruction incarnate. A flame that burns everything without any gentleness. Ophelia might have joined him with the intents to stop him from destroying this land, but the moment she came to his side, she was lost. Humans cannot hope to fight the desires of Gods. Surtr’s love is a curse, and she is going to burn to death with it.”

Mash’s face was pale. She gripped Gudako in horror, a whine sliding through her lips. Napoleon looked like he’d been smacked with a shovel. CasCu thought of his professions of love, his claims that he truly cared about Ophelia. The evidence of that was now written across his face. Napoleon might have made light of Surtr’s jealousy and desires, but the truth of how it affected him was clear in his horror.

“There has to be a way to save her,” Mash said, begged. Her fingers gripped Gudako hard. “Please - Ophelia’s … she doesn’t deserve this!”

“She is already gone,” Skadi retorted, her voice utterly flat. “There is little chance that she will escape from the fires by her own accord.”

“And if we offered a hand to her?” Napoleon asked, his fingers clenching on his cannon. “What about then, Skadi?”

“Perhaps then.”

“Then that is what we’ll do.” Napoleon slapped Mash’s back, then gripped her shoulder tight. “You and me, mademoiselle. We’ll go save her from that fiery bastard’s clutches. And that village too. It’s about time I stepped up and do my part - are you two prepared to step up with me?” 

Mash’s face flexed. Then she straightened, and gripped her shield tight. “Hai!”

 

They saw Surtr before they saw the village. He appeared on their screens, a massive shadow that nearly blocked out the sun. The colors of his form had changed. Now blue swirled along his flames, ice crackling in bits along his arms and chest. Fenrir’s powers manifesting into his own. Behind him was a trail of destruction. Skadi’s snow had melted; the mountains he had passed by had crumbled. With each step, something shattered. With each step, something burned. 

Gudako stood on the roof of the Shadow Border, her hand gripping her wrist tight. “Are you sure of this, Napoleon?” 

“I’m sure.” Napoleon said. He planted his cannon into the roof of the Shadow Border, and stared at the massive shadow Surtr created. “I need you all to focus on protecting the village first. Reaching Mademoiselle Ophelia is a task that must fall to me, and then to Mash - but we’ll lose her if we engage. Do you think you can hold back, Brynhild, Sigurd?”

Brynhild and Sigurd stood on the Shadow Border by each other’s side. Nightingale and Irisviel had done what they could for them, with Illya’s help, but between everyone else who needed it … that wasn’t much. It was likely that both Brynhild and Sigurd would die after this fight, but it was a future they seemed willing to brave.

“We’ll wait for her, emperor,” Brynhild said, her voice soft.

Sigurd nodded. “If you truly love her, you’ll reach her. With eyes like hers, she won’t miss it - you just have to make sure she can see it.” 

“Oh, she will.” Napoleon said. His grin was wide and vicious.

“Alright,” Gudako said. She took in a deep breath, then let it out. “Protecting the village comes first. Skadi, CasCu, I want you to tie Surtr to Odin’s runes whenever Napoleon pulls his shit. If we can save Ophelia, then Surtr will be vulnerable. We’ll have an easier time tying him to those runes then.” 

“A good plan,” Skadi said. She tapped her sharp, wand-like dagger against her hand. “But Mash will not withstand the blow of his sword alone - not like this. Before we feed the runes, I will bolster your strength and help block his blow. I believe Freyja will also be helpful in this.”

Mash gave Skadi a small smile. “Thank you.”

Illya sighed, tossing her hair over her shoulder. She sat at the very edge of the Shadow Border, swinging her legs. “I swear, stepmother, it’s Illya now. But you’re right. Leave it to me, Mash, and step-mother, Gudako.”

Gudako’s lips twitched. “Good. Everyone else? Stay in Spirit Form, I’ll call you when we’re ready. For now, we better move into position. Surtr’s about to swing.” 

She was right.

Surtr had raised his sword. The very tip of it pierced the sky, a sight so achingly familiar that CasCu’s eye and throat and heart hurt. It was a thing of black metal and white flame, made only more powerful by the Tree of Emptiness’ power. A swing that could destroy everything. But Surtr moved slowly. CasCu could not hear him speaking, but he knew that Surtr was speaking, gloating, to the woman on his shoulder.

In that moment, in that pause before the swing, Illya moved. There were no words for the spell she cast. She just threw her hands up, and it happened. CasCu felt the pulse of mana across his form, the rushing beat of the Holy Grail at Illya’s center - and then it came. The towering form of Hercules, shadowy and indistinct, bolting towards the village. 

“Berserker!” She cried, and somehow sounded more human than god, even with a Shadow Servant doing her bidding. It was a sound full of belief, childlike, determined, as if this one being could take on the whole world and come out on top. “Take it! Take it all on! I know you can do it, Berserker!” 

And he did.

CasCu felt the name of Surtr’s Noble Phantasm more than he heard it. “Loptr Lægjarn.” Surtr’s flaming sword, designed to destroy worlds. It swung down right as the shadowy form of Hercules crashed into the village. Swung down and collided as Hercules got close enough to block it, mid swing, body straining. He kept it from touching the village, the earth, the world it would have destroyed. The heat and light was enough to burn wisps of him away. He took it, but only for now, and not forever.

Illya cried out in pain. She gripped her shaking arm, one hand reached out. There was blood upon its back, in the shape of a pair of command seals. Blood spilled from her lips, poured from her nose, so painfully red against the pale purple of her clothes and the white of her face and hair and eyes. She gritted her teeth and forced her power through her Servant, taking the recoil of the blow upon herself. Something in CasCu jerked, painful against his chest. 

Kage would have hated the sight.

Then Skadi was there. Her fingers brushed along Illya’s hair, runes for peace glowing gold against the strands, before fading away. The pain on Illya’s face eased. Skadi stepped forwards, her ice encrusting her footsteps. Forwards, she stepped, off the Shadow Border and into the air. Her wand-like dagger raised.

“You threatened my world once, Surtr,” she said, “No more.”

She slashed her dagger through the air, runes trialing in its wake. Isa. Uraz. Thurisaz. Ansuz. Naudiz. Iwaz. Algiz. Together, they spun into a circle - and formed a shield. It was an exact replica of the ones Odin gave to his Valkyries , so, so long ago. With another cut of her dagger, the shield multiplied. They shot out in a fleet, as the Heroic Shadow blocking the falling blade began to crumble. The shields took its place, kept the shadowy form together together, and blocked the overflow of light and heat and utter destruction.

And yet, the shields still cracked. The heroic shadow still burned. Skadi’s cold face flexed in pain. She raised her hands, and ice shot from the ground, encircling the walls of the village in a bulb, then extended out to support the shields attempting to keep it and the world safe. “He’s broken through my shields before,” she said, her voice strained, “I have no guarantee I can keep him back now. If you are truly stepping up, Nameless Archer, do it now. Otherwise, it will be impossible to stop him.”

“Impossible?” Napoleon laughed at that. “ Ooh la la, Queenie! That sort of talk really gets me fired up.”

He stepped forwards, and his hands fell on Gudako and Mash’s shoulders. His voice lowered, softened - more personable, if possible. “ Maître , Mash, here’s a bit of trivia for you. When people talk about something being impossible, what they’re really talking about - what they’re really wishing for - is hope.”

“I don’t know much about Napoleon Bonaparte when he was alive … but at the height of his glory, people thought, ‘Maybe Emperor Napoleon could win this fight.’ And so that is what they wished for. When his glory began to fade, people thought, ‘Maybe we'd be happier without Emperor Napoleon around.’ So they wished for that too. Know what happened as a result? I made both wishes come true! How do you like them apples!?” He laughed, wild, then settled, his expression soft. “I granted the people's wish for me to win, and I granted the people's wish for me to fail. That's what it all came down to. That's who I am. The hero I am, the Heroic Spirit Napoleon that humanity inscribed, is a man who makes wishes happen! And there’s people wishing for me right here. You two, everyone in the Shadow Border, and someone who hasn’t realized it yet.”

“You’ll reach her,” Mash breathed.

“I will,” Napoleon promised.

“Thank you,” Gudako said. She reached up, and squeezed the hand on her shoulder. “For everything. Now go make those wishes come true.”

“Aye, Mairte, I will.” Napoleon stepped past them both, to the very edge of the Shadow Border. His cannon - so much larger than his own body, appeared in his hands. He raised it, took aim at the hulking figure beyond the sword straining against the protections inscribed upon this land, forced there by everyone else. His voice raised, carried far and wide. “OPHELIA! YOU’RE THE WHOLE REASON THAT I CAME HERE! THIS WORLD HAD NO WISHES FOR ME TO ANSWER - NONE BUT YOURS! I HEARD YOUR VOICE, YOUR PLEA, AND HERE IS MY ANSWER! I HAVE COME TO SAVE YOU, OPHELIA! SO YOU BETTER NOT LOOK AWAY, BECAUSE I! AM! HERE! ARC DE TRIOMPHE DE l'ÉTOILE!”

Through his speech, Napoleon’s cannon had been going through its steps for his Noble Phantasm. The barrel extending. The rainbow lights burning across the sides of the barrel. But the rainbow that shot from the cannon was nothing like the previous releases of his Noble Phantasm. This was pure, magical energy. It broke through Skadi’s divine shields, blazed past the disintegrating Hercules, and blasted into Surtr’s sword with enough force to send the King of Giants stumbling back, his swing interrupted. 

And it continued on to blast into Surtr’s face with the force of a wish. Of multiple wishes. Of a man taking the impossible and making it possible. With the energy to destroy that head in one go.

It would not last. Surtr would regenerate. A blow like this would slow him down, but it would not kill him, especially with the powers Surtr had absorbed and still had access too - but it didn’t matter. Because the light from Napoleon’s cannon was not stopping. The rainbow burned itself into place in the sky, a rictus of color, a scream against the impossible. With this much magical energy poured into this attack, Napoleon would not last. The edges of his body were already starting to fade away, flaking off into gold light. 

And yet he did not stop. The light continued to pour. Napoleon stared at his target, at the woman on Surtr’s shoulder, and smiled. It was the most genuine, warm smile CasCu had ever seen him wear. 

Maître, mademoiselle Mash,” Napoleon said, his voice raw with effort, “I want you two to keep moving. Move. One foot in front of the other. It's okay to hesitate. It's okay to be afraid. But don't stop. Right, left, forward, hell, even backward. Keep going wherever your mind takes you. But don't ever stop. Keep moving as long as you still draw breath. Wherever the living go, that's where humanity goes. You're never completely out of possibilities. There's always something you can do. You two destroyed the bands of light that threatened to incinerate the whole world, right?”

“We did,” Gudako said. There were tears in her eyes, but she listened to Napoleon’s goodbye like someone who had heard a thousand of them and more. For this was Napoleon’s goodbye. No one could spend this much mana on a Noble Phantasm and live. 

“Then there’s no reason you can't stop a sword threatening to do the same to this one,” Napoleon said. More of him was crumbling now. His hat was nothing but gold motes. And yet he kept talking, kept shooting, lit up by the rainbow that streaked the sky. “That's who we are. That's our history. Making something happen when all seems lost is what it is to be human! So keep moving, Maître , Mademoiselle Mash! Don’t let the atrocities you see on the way stop you. Seeing all that crap, and smiling like a damn fool, and moving forwards is sometimes all you foot soldier’s can do!” 

The light from Napoleon’s cannon blazed like a falling star. It was a final pulse of energy, a final defiant yell, a final wish answered. Napoleon collapsed into gold dust, rising towards the sky like the embers from a flame. But that final push of his cannon etched its way through the sky, turning the blue into a riot of color, smashing into Surtr with the force of everything Napoleon had carried within him.

The Fiery King of Giants stumbled back. His sword fell from limp fingers. A soundless cry - more mental then not - split the air with a curse, echoing the tolling crash of the last dredges of that shot. His hand rose, covering the smoking place his head had once been.

And on his shoulder, Ophelia blinked. Her hand rose to her head, then began to shake. With trembling legs, she got to her feet, and then took a step forwards. 

Surtr screamed. “OPHELIA!”

Ophelia fell from his shoulder, plummeted, a dark form streaking towards the ground. Surtr’s hands swiped at the air, but blind as he was, he could not catch her. He missed, and Ophelia kept on plummeting.

Mash and Gudako jumped off the Shadow Border. Illya followed after them, her feet skating over the air. Around them appeared the ones Gudako had chosen for this fight. Nobunaga, in her Berserker form. Tesla, Raikou, and Merlin. Brynhild and Sigurd followed after them. As a group, they raced towards the plummeting Ophelia.

CasCu swallowed the urge to say goodbye, and instead stepped up beside Skadi. His staff fell into his fingers, and he wrapped them tight around it. Above his head, the hole to Muspelhiem and the undulating circle of runes glowed. The after effects of Napoleon’s rainbow was just beginning to clear. A great well of calm opened up in CasCu’s chest, and he settled, raising his staff. 

“Are you ready, Skadi?” He asked, conversationally.

Skadi’s expression turned a tad more sly. “We will not get another shot … CasCu,” she said, then turned from him. She raised her dagger. The cold poured from her, rippling over his skin and his clothes. Above her head, Ansuz burned.

An odd feeling of amusement rose in the back of his throat. He wrapped his fingers around his staff, then plunged it down upon the Shadow Border’s roof. Lines of runes wrapped itself around the base. Ansuz, over and over and over again. Before they bound, they had to have a connection. Ansuz, ansuz, ansuz.

The ring around the black hole began to undulate, colors swirling in dizzying fractals of orange and blue. He could feel the drain of mana from him, slow and steady, as the light grew brighter, brighter, brighter - with each uptick in light, the pain in his eye grew sharper. It was getting harder to breathe. He gripped tighter to his staff, and poured more mana into the runes.

Ansuz. Ansuz. Ansuz.

Odin. Odin. Odin.

He could see, from the corner of his eye, Skadi doing the same. Her runes were a different color then his pure gold - with this much of her mana going into them, they were almost silver. He could see the way the world around her reacted to the power, ice growing in fits and bursts, the intensity of the silver in the sky growing sharper, easier to detect.

“We won’t be able to bind him yet,” he said. The words came through pain filled, gritted teeth. But it was true, and needed to be said. Surtr was bound to Ophelia, bound to the Tree of Emptiness. There were only so many things a creature could be tied to. Something had to break first. He had a sneaking suspicion that he knew what it would be.

“Do not lecture me, old man.” Skadi retorted, her voice sharp. “We will bind him when he becomes vulnerable - not a moment before or after.”

“And you know what runes to use?”

A flash of her eyes, blazing cold, and the gaze she sent his way was chilly with disgust. “I have decided,” she said, “not to participate in your games. I have already played too many parts in them. But if you continue to insinuate that I don’t know what I am doing, I will reveal exactly what you are to your Master. I doubt she would be happy to learn of the wolf lurking in her sheep’s clothing.”

He laughed. The harsh, barking laugh of a bird. “Keep your claws prepared for those who deserve them, Skadi. I mean no insult or harm - but if we are to work together here, we must be reading on the same page. The runes between your world and mine might differ, and that difference could mean life or death.”

“Do not play me for a fool,” she returned. “The difference between them is not that great - something you have no doubt noticed by now.”

He opened his mouth to reply - and was cut off by a scream of power, of pain. There were no words to that scream, none that were audible … but he could still hear them. Ophelia’s voice. Ophelia’s demand. Ophelia’s mana, pouring into the air and across the land. Shine, shine,sShine! Now is the time to shine brightest, my Sirius Light!

He felt the snap of Surtr’s bonds like a struck chord. He sucked in a sharp breath of the onslaught, mind trying to catch up with whatever Ophelia had just done. He closed his eye - the tie between her and Surtr was gone. Surtr’s connection to the Tree of Emptiness - severed. He was nothing more than an incredibly powerful Rogue Heroic Spirit now … and one without Independent Action to boot.

Skadi did not waste time. She cast her second string of runes with a force that blew snow everywhere. Isa, for stillness. Wunjo, for connection. Gebo, to bind. Some of those were a reach, but with the foundation of Ansuz, Odin, they could twist the runes into whatever they wanted. They burned there, in a knot tied with Ansuz, blazing silver and gold against the sky.

He added them to his own circle of runes, then added a cheeky Kauniz for fire, to tie them more effectively to Surtr’s presence. The sun in the sky undulated, a pulsing current, and then - trailing from the edges like sticky strings of rope - began to reach for Surtr. The Fiery King of Giants was just beginning to recover. He was screaming a name. 

“OPHELIA!”

The scream was both mental and physical, with enough rage and betrayal that he nearly buckled under the weight. Whatever Ophelia’s Sirus Light had done, it had clearly enraged the fiery bastard. It must have been like another Command Seal, only on a much stronger, more powerful scale. The sacrifice for that power must have been enormous. Her eye, at the very least, had to have been destroyed by the backlash from breaking her bond to her Servant.

Then the strings surrounding the hole to Muspelhiem touched the regenerating Surtr, and he had no more time for thinking, or wondering, or watching. The weight of that connection was a physical force, driving his breath from his lungs, blanking out his mind. Mana left him swifter then he could replenish, pouring down those runes and into the bindings they were trying to attach. His knees began to buckle underneath him.

Skadi’s presence and help didn’t seem to be doing much to alleviate the cost. She stood there on her icy step, her dagger held out in front of her - but otherwise, her body was utterly still, like an arrow that had been pulled taut , and was waiting for her chance to strike. Her jotunn heritage was showing itself again. Frost coated her skin, coalesced in her hair, caused each flap of her battle dress to crackle with ice. 

She was like a statue, in that way. A statue made of ice that would shatter at the first blow. How open she was like this, all her energy and focus on binding Surtr to his previous chains. He could practically hear the determination in her thoughts, could see what she was thinking writ plain across her face. 

This world shall finally have its revenge for what Surtr did during Ragnarök .

It was finally, finally, the Skadi he knew. The one who held her loved ones close so fiercely, and did everything she could to bring down revenge upon those that killed them. How long had she nursed this rage, hidden under her duty? Three thousand years, give or take a few. Anyone else would have cracked under the strain. But Skadi’s rage was as cold as her power, and it did not run out of fuel. It just marched, slowly, steadily, forwards, until it covered all that she saw. And now, it would cover Surtr too.

And his mana was not enough to help her.

Even this close to the Shadow Border, his mana was limited to what Gudako could give. And with Gudako focused on the battle - and it had commenced, he noticed. Surtr had regained his sword. From this angle, the servants that harrowed him looked like nothing but ants attacking a giant - there was only so much mana she could funnel his way. If he didn’t find another source, he’d be burnt out before he knew it.

And he couldn’t have that, could he? He hadn’t even had a chance to give proper introductions to his Master.

He cut off his runes. Skadi cried out, and the silver tendrils that had attached to Surtr’s body retreated. With a cry of Ophelia’s name, Surtr’s efforts doubled, no longer slowed down by the prison Odin had crafted to him.

He leapt off the Shadow Border, and onto the ground, feet digging into snow. With so much of Skadi’s power focused on the runes, the snow around his feet turned to slush. He sunk down until his toes touched dirt. There was a leyline there, thin and weak, pulsing under this village they were doing their best to protect. He plunged his staff into it, and yanked.

There were benefits of being a druid. Mana flowed into him willingly, and he reactivated his runes with ease. Ansuz. Isa. Wunjo. Gebo. Kaunan. Ansuz. They blazed around him in nine golden circles. He sucked in their power, then pushed them forwards. The silver strands around the black hole in the sky shot out once more, tangling around Surtr’s limbs, stalling his attacks, slowing him down.

The bastard had revived from Napoleon’s attack. His head was now intact, the flames that made him still burning, but the ice the Tree of Emptiness had gifted him seemed more fragile, was starting to melt like slag. Without the Tree of Emptiness, Surtr’s powers were waning. They, too, were constrained by the bindings to Odin’s runes, the prison in the sky. 

But it was not enough to keep him fighting.

Brynhild and Sigurd were the ones he did his best to keep track of. For so long, their dance had been turned against one another. Now, they danced together, and against an enemy. It was beautiful, in its own way. They parried together, struck together, spear and sword carving deep furrows along Surtr’s skin - furrows that healed up in a slow and steady process. Worse, they could not get too close, for each splash of Surtr’s blood sent flames licking against their skin and armor.

In that instance, Tesla and Merlin were doing better. Tesla could stay far away, his lightning blazing down upon Surtr’s head. It was hard to tell if the lightning did any damage, but the distance meant that Tesla wasn’t harmed in the process of attacking. Nobunaga had no such defense. She had switched to her Berserker form, and she was belting out lyrics of song as her guitar carved out chunks of flesh. Her swimsuit offered no protection from the flaming blood. At least Raikou’s armor gave her some. 

Merlin, of course, wasn’t attacking at all. His role had been deemed support only. The spells he cast were purely of healing and cleansing nature - a much needed when it was obvious that Surtr’s very presence was causing the world to warp and burn. Even weakened, even bound, his aura of destruction was killing them slowly.

Neither was Surtr static in the fight either. The tendrils to the sky might have prevented him from going full out, his mana might have been limited, his connection to the Tree severed, but Surtr was still the Fiery King of Giants. He towered over them. The damage they could do was minimal in the face of such a gigantic being - barely mitigated by Illya’s support, bringing Gudako and her Servants into the sky so they could strike more vital areas. 

Surtr’s skin was still armor of magma . His very presence was damaging. And he could still swing his sword, a blazing arch of destruction. It was not as powerful as the Noble Phantasm Napoleon had barely stopped. They could still dodge the strikes, and Mash was doing her best to block the blows, but flames burst out with every swing, seeking out Gudako and her Servants like hungry, flaming tongues.

“How impudent,” Surtr growled. His chest swelled, glowing between the gaps of his molten skin and armor. “How annoying. Fragile Fools of Proper Human History, seeing you buzz around like pests displeases me. You are all nothing but fuel for my fire!” 

He breathed, and his breath was a stream of heat, of flames, near blue and white in their ferocity. They consumed the air with a raging screech, devouring everyone in its path. Nobunaga. Brynhild. Sigurd. Mash, who tried to block them. Gudako. Fanning from the edges of the flames - flower petals, so similar to the ones Merlin’s illusions often let out. They caught fire, falling like burning cinders to the ground. Surtr started to laugh.

“BOLVERKR GRAM!”

Sigurd’s Noble Phantasm cut into Surtr from the side. It was a blaze of brilliant blue, a light that nearly swallowed the heat of Surtr’s flames. Surtr roared out in surprise pain, his sword lashing out in blind fury. He obviously had never experienced Merlin’s illusions before. They had left him open, they had left him vulnerable, and now he was injured. Now he was weak. 

And Gudako was too good a Master to let that opportunity slide.

Raikou’s cry of fury was a monstrous thing. Her sword raised - lightning shot down from the sky and into her. He couldn’t hear her chant, but he could feel it in the way the ground trembled. The blaze of purple lightning as her voice rose through the air “VENGEFUL LIGHTNING OF THE OX KING” and Surtr’s answering roar of fury in return.

Surtr’s response to this new pain was not to freeze up. With a snarl and a cry, he spun, his sword cutting through the air. It met Mash’s shield with a clang. The Demi-Servant cried out as she was pushed through the air - then whatever spell Illya had cast caught her; she stood strong, fighting the flaming sword, as sparks and tongues of fire rushed towards Raikou and her four clones, their weapons cutting through Surtr’s armor. It burned them away, one by one - just in time for Tesla’s lightning storm, System Keronous, to crash down upon his head.

It did not freeze him. Oh, it injured him, clear in the way he roared in pain, but it did not freeze him. It just made him angry, the fires in his eyes blazing, an all consuming hatred that seemed to eat up all he looked at. With a roar, he spun, again, his sword swinging in wilder, more powerful arcs. It was beginning to buzz, to heat up, his Noble Phantasm charging up once more. If he swung it, there would be no escape. They would not be able to survive. 

“NOBUNAGA THE ROCK ‘N’ ROLL!”

The ridiculous name for the Noble Phantasm could only belong to the giant skeleton born out of a burst of flame. Bones gleamed red. The sockets were dull and black - but the whole structure was plenty spry and nimble, and strong enough that it’s slug to Surtr’s face landed with enough force to send the Fiery King of Giants stumbling back. And for a second, two, it seemed to be working, a barrage of blows Surtr seemed unable to block. 

Then one of Surtr’s hands lashed out, gripped the skeleton’s skull between his fingers, and crushed. The skull exploded into fragments. The rest of the skeleton folded, slumped, and then dissapeared. 

Surtr’s face was covered in magma blood. The series of Noble Phantasms was finally starting to make a mark. There was something like panic in Surtr’s eyes, causing the blaze of them to be greater, causing them to flicker each and every way. “Who?!” It was a screech of fury and fear. “Who is the one who seeks to extinguish my flame? Who is the one who seeks to kill fire?”

His eyes landed on Gudako, who stood midair, some distance from her Servants but still close enough to assist.

“It’s you! You are the key, Master of Chaldea!”

Surtr’s arms moved. His voice was a cry of his Noble Phantasm, the searing heat of his flames blazing out. It was weaker than it should have been, between the mana already wasted, the ties to Odin’s prison, but it was still something meant to destroy worlds. Mash screamed out, Camelot forming around them midair. Behind it was Illya’s magecraft, Merlin’s swirled petals, the signs of an illusion. But Surtr was swinging the sword one-handed . The other was shoving a familiar rune through the air.

Kaunan. Hagalaz.

Fire. Death.

CasCu woke as from a dream. Within an eye blink , his body felt like his own again. There was no time to take in the jarring difference between perspectives, from the top of the Shadow Border to the ground. There was no time to wonder what had happened in the blank spaces of his mind during this fight. All he could do was scream out a warning, wild, more mental than physical, “BRYNHILD! HIS HAND!”

Perhaps Brynhild had already sensed Surtr’s intentions. Perhaps she had already been in the process of casting her Noble Phantasm once more. She was in the air, her spear crashing down upon Surtr’s shoulder, a cry of “BRYNHILDR ROMANTICA!” on her lips. Her giant spear cut into Surtr’s shoulder, cleaving magma and fire like it was butter, all the way through until it struck air again. Surtr’s arm fell, dissolving into smoke as it did.

But it was too late. The rune was already flying. Everyone else was focused on Surtr’s final, desperate Noble Phantasm. The rune struck.

“If I must fall, I will not die alone! Die, Master of Chaldea!”

They all felt the rune hit. It was like it hit themselves. Illya cried out, and her magecraft around Gudako failed. Their Master began to fall, flames starting up along the edges of her Mystic Code uniform. Mash called her name. Raikou screamed. Surtr cried out in delight at his success. The whole world began to blur as the connections between every one of Gudako’s Servants began to unravel. 

CasCu left his staff in the center of his rune circle, and ran. 

Raido blazed at his fingertips, bolstering his speed. His feet ate up the distance, the ground, and walls of the village a blur. His gaze was focused on the falling figure, the flames along her form starting to grow. It was like a collapsing star, the horrible descent to the ground. No one else could do anything. Surtr was putting up a last resistance. When he died, the death runes that were stealing Gudako’s life would cut out.

But if she died before he did, then they would all be lost.

And they couldn’t risk that.

Surtr’s runes were a curse, greater than the one that had struck Kage and Sherlock. They might not even die when Surtr did.

CasCu’s mind spun. It spun and spun and spun in circles, like a panicked wheel as he ran. What he could do? His runes weren’t strong enough. It had been all he could do to halt Kage’s progression into death. But Gudako - she was no Servant. She did not have the resistances Kage did. For all her strength and will, Gudako was so, so human … and therefore so, so utterly fragile.

Then CasCu was below the falling figure, and there was no time for thinking. He caught Gudako before she could hit the ground. Her clothes were aflame, but the durability of the mystic code meant that her skin had yet to start to burn. It didn’t matter. The ‘death’ of the rune had already struck. Her eyes were glazed over, her chest rising and falling in sporadic bursts. He could feel the raspiness of her breath as it started to fade away.

Frantically, CasCu set her down. Frantically, CasCu shut the battle out of his head, and wrote runes across her chest. Isa, to still the progress. Naudiz, for her survival. He couldn’t write anymore. The first two burned away in the flames of Surtr’s runes, still blazing a white-hot heat across Gudako’s chest. Her skin was starting to redden and burn.

He wasn’t powerful enough.

The thought struck him, hands shaking. The sounds of the battle faded out. All he could hear was Gudako’s raspy breathing, the gaps in between, stuttering and not as deep as it should have been. The threads between her and everything were starting to sever. It was all almost gone. With her death, the world would die. Kage would die. 

He needed to be stronger.

You need to make a sacrifice.

He needed to make a sacrifice. To give something up, in return for the power to save her, to heal her, to stop everything from crumbling.

CasCu looked up. The raven’s, Huginn and Muninn, were circling the battlefield. Two black dots in the sky. They would be down here if he asked. They would help if he asked. His hand rested on Gudako’s chest, feeling the rise and fall of her fading breaths. His other hand covered her eyes, so she could not see.

“Please,” he said, “help. I need you. I need -”

Me.

The ravens dive bombed him, speed too quick for the eyes too follow. Of course. Odin’s influence had made them more than birds. They were Phantasmal Beasts, and CasCu didn’t have the chance to count his breaths before they were upon him.

Muninn, memory, was first. Claws dug into CasCu’s eye, and he screamed with the pain. And at the touch, the burn, something in him unlocked. The spillage of images not from his own mind was enough to drown out the sound of the battle, drown out the sound of Gudako’s last breaths. It was a sweeping tide that rushed him off his feet, forcing context to everything. It was too much. He couldn’t see it all. But he could feel it, the overarching, amused, smug aura of a man who played with people like they were chess pieces, with no love nor care for how they saw him, only ordering them about in the way he saw fit, so they played their parts to the prophecies assigned to them.

Then Huginn, thought, was there, beak plunging into what remained of CasCu’s ruined eye. Blood ran down his face in a torrent. This pain was not as sharp or overwhelming as Muninn’s claws had been. There was no rush of memory, nor the feeling of an awareness of a puppet master that had always existed. Instead … everything calmed. CasCu’s panic ebbed. Realization and understanding bloomed through the pain. And as it did, everything snapped into clarity. He could see the bonds between Surtr and the sun, could see the bonds between Gudako and her Servants, so thin they were about to snap. He saw the seconds she had left. He saw the tie between Surtr and her, anchored by the cursed runes burning upon her chest, hurrying her death along.

He lifted his fingers from Gudako’s eyes, and gripped that string between his thumb and forefinger. Ingwaz, reversed, shattered that bond. Algiz and Hagalaz made sure the backlash didn’t hit Gudako. Surtr screamed his dying scream, a cry of Ophelia’s name, as the force of his own runes hit him. He began to crumble. 

He turned his attention to Gudako, and wrote three runes on her chest. 

Laguz, to cancel out Kaunan.

Iwaz, to counter Hagalaz. 

Sowilo, for her health, made all the more powerful from his bloodline. 

Gudako’s chest rose with sudden breath. The skin that had been burned begun to heal. The blood from his ruined eye dripped down and splattered across Gudako’s cheeks. Huginn and Muninn, their jobs completed, melted into his body and his Spirit Origin, their feathers lingering across his shoulders. Each and every single one of Gudako’s ties to her Servants blazed into sudden, brilliant light. Her eyes opened. 

And Surtr collapsed into ash.

Notes:

Hey! :D even more fun notes after all this fun stuff - when Gudako was dying, she Did indeed loose Servants. Servants that were newly Summoned, or did not have a strong bond with her (so in game terms, servants with bond one or less) died during that moment. Isn't this a lovely, fun story? :D

Chapter 14: Chapter 14

Summary:

CasCu gets a makeover in the final push to end this Lostbelt.

Notes:

Hey everyone!! Thank you all so much for your comments and kudos!! I've got a bit of an early chapter for ya, since I'm going to be out of town for the next week and the next chapter will probably end up being late. I hope you enjoy this chapter, and I hope you have a wonderful day!

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

Kage woke up.

He woke up with the sudden influx of breath, all his senses crashing down upon him in one blinding moment. He felt the pain in his side, the hum of runes on his skin. Heard the beep beep of the monitor, the sound of his own heartbeat in his ears, and the rush of air leaving his lungs. Against his skin, the rough texture of hospital sheets, paired with the tight wrap of bandages. And when his eyes snapped open, nothing but blinding light, and once that dimmed, the cold steel of the infirmary’s ceiling.

It was so much, too much all at once. Kage was left lying there, overwhelmed. His chest rose and fell rapidly. The pulsing burn of a curse against his side dwindled with each inhale, down to embers, down to nothing.

Sudden footsteps; a figure loomed in his vision. It was familiar enough that even stunned, a bolt of fear struck right through Kage and pinned him in place. Nightingale, her red eyes glowing, her uniform crisp and neat, even if her hair seemed damp with sweat and overwork. Her fingers plunged down to Kage’s neck, and paused there, resting right against his throat.

Shit. 

Kage did his best to remember how to breathe.

“It seems,” Nightingale intoned, “That Surtr has been defeated. Your heartbeat has stabilized, and the curse has dissipated. Proper healing is now possible.”

Surtr? The curse? The words swam around Kage in a painful blur. He didn’t remember shit about that. All he remembered was that bastard Sigurd, his sword swinging down towards his Master, and Kage’s desperate attempt at intervention. The pain, as that blade sliced through his flesh. CasCu’s panic - 

CasCu.

Kage jerked up, flailing his hands against Nightingale’s restraining grip. “CasCu,” He got out, “Where the fuck is CasCu -”

Something hit his arm, the sharp sting of a needle. Kage yelped. His arms grew sluggish. Nightingale considered him, for a long moment, before pushing him back against the bed. “I will not let your hysteria cause your wounds to rip open again. Sit, and rest, Kage. You will see him once you have healed.”

Kage swore at her, but his arms were heavy, and so was his tongue, so what came out of his mouth was a jumble of syllables that no one would have been able to make out but him.

 

He woke up again a little later, his mind fuzzy with fog. His side no longer hurt. When his hands, clumsy, patted at the spot of his injury, he felt nothing but unblemished skin. Healed, then, like Nightingale wanted. A seed of fury burned in the base of his throat, and Kage, with heavy movements, started to push himself up, bit by bit . Each movement made his head ache like someone had struck it repeatedly with a hammer.

Hands met his shoulder, this time far gentler than Nightingale’s rough grip. “Careful, Kage. You have been the precipice far too many times for my comfort. I don’t want to see you almost die again so soon.”

Kage froze. His head turned, incrementally. “Irisviel?” 

Irisviel smiled in answer to his question. She sat in the chair beside his bed, and he - had never seen his self-proclaimed mother looking so fucking tired. There were shadows under red her eyes. Her pale skin was nearly transparent, and her hair lacked all luster, hanging like a heavy see-through sheet. She smiled, a bloodless smile. “Of course,” she said, “Someone had to watch over you to satisfy Nightingale. She believed you would race away as soon as you woke up. I see she wasn’t wrong.”

Kage averted his eyes, and grumbled. Irisviel always had this effect on him, her gentle tone enough to drag down his acidity, her soft warmth enough to soften him. Still … “I need to find CasCu.”

“CasCu is on the field, right now,” Irisviel said, which did not fucking help Kage’s worry at all. “And you,” she added, “have walked the line between death and life for far too long to go to him now.”

“That doesn’t fucking matter,” Kage said, too close to a snap. “If CasCu’s in the field, then I should be there.”

Irisviel sighed, but there was a smile on her lips, and her hand reached up to brush over Kage’s hair. “I believe there is room in the Bridge to watch, if you insist,” she said, “but I insist on helping you there. I can fill you in on the way … and I doubt you have the energy to walk the full way by yourself.”

Those words dug at him, and Kage bit back a low growl of frustration. “Fine.”

Irisviel stood, then held out a hand for him. Kage took it, and with a grunt of effort, swam out of the blankets and got to his feet. Even with Irisviel helping, his limbs felt heavy, and exhaustion tugged at him. “Fuck,” he breathed, “How long was I out for?”

“A while,” Irisviel said. She tucked his arm into her own, and started forward, through the infirmary. “It’s been almost six days now? Maybe seven? Time flies by, I’m afraid, in the Shadow Border, and there’s been so much going on outside that I’ve almost lost track.”

Kage stumbled after her, eyeing the other cots of the infirmary. They were mostly empty, thank god - but one was full. Kage would recognize the hulking bulk of Alter anywhere, and that spiny, chitinous tail certainly wasn’t easy to look over. “Alter wasn’t on the roof with me,” he said, numb.

“No,” Irisviel said, “he was inturned later. He’s doing much better than he was - Nightingale doesn’t believe we’ll be holding him for much longer. And a bed is open for Sherlock. Now that Surtr’s curse has been lifted from him, he should be alright - but he has been pushing himself an awful lot these past few hours. He is liable to collapse soon.”

Kage’s brain spun painfully with the information. He swallowed hard. “What the fuck happened out there?”

“A lot,” Irisviel said, and then began to recount the actions and revelations of the past few days. The nature of this Lostbelt, the Servants, the people, and the enemies they had made along the way. The truth of Sigurd, and the rise of Surtr. Their alliance with the King, Skadi, and the somewhat alliance with the Crypter, Ophelia Phamrsolone. It was all such a blazing pile of shit that Kage’s head spun and threatened to crack open. 

“And CasCu’s been through all of this?” He rasped out.

“He insisted on it,” Irisviel said, “The only time he hasn’t been out on the field was when he was in here with you, resting, and helping Nightingale fight your curses. He’ll be glad to see you back on your feet … so please, don’t make all his effort for you fall to pieces.”

Kage’s hands were shaking. There was a growl in the back of his throat, tight. It was all such bullshit. A world where people couldn’t live beyond twenty, that children were forced to die if they had not born their own. And what? For the excuses of a Goddess who didn’t care about humanity? It made Kage’s blood boil. Every single one of these people would have been better off dead from the start -

No. 

No, he couldn’t think like that. He shouldn’t think like that.

Kage sucked in a breath between his teeth, harsh and painful, then buried the nails of his fingers into his palms. The pain helped clear his head. It helped him ignore the pounding, whispering of his curse. Once upon a time, those thoughts would have sent him into a panic, a spiral of self loathing. He was better now, able to push past them. 

“I won’t,” he said instead, roughly shoving open the door to the bridge. “But I will fucking make sure that the old man gets some sleep after all of this. Fucker obviously needs it, if he’s been working that hard.”

“He’s been working that hard for you,” Irisviel said. Kage could just about here the smile in her voice.

He grumbled, his cheeks flushing red. “Hai, hai,” he grumbled, and then stepped into the room, Irisviel stepping in after him.

It was immediately possible to tell the whole place was in a damn emergency situation. Chaldean staff rapidly read off of different screens, spitting out information about Gudako’s and Mash’s vitals. The screen of Grand Cavallo’s main computer was glowing bright blue, humming with light and power. It played off in sickly arcs against Gordolf’s skin - the bastard was pacing the floor rapidly, soaked with nervous sweat and his fingers dragging through his hair. Sherlock was sitting heavily in a seat. He was missing an arm, the sleeve of his coat pinned neatly over the stump, and looked like death warmed over. 

Kage figured he probably looked the same, so he wasn’t overly sympathetic. His eyes skipped over the tableau of woe and fear and worry, and landed on the monitors. They were close enough to the main event that the pictures they were showing were crystal clear. Kage assumed there had once been a massive giant of fiery destruction on them a bit ago. Now, though? Now it was just a pile of ash being blown away, and a molten sword melting into a pile of snow, far too close to this village then Kage liked.

But it was hard to care about all that, when Kage was focused on looking for his old man in this picture.

The first thing he saw was Gudako and Mash, bent over some fallen form. This Ophelia, he assumed. Knowing the luck of Chaldea, and the allies they normally made, Kage could only assume that she was dying after heroically saving all their asses. The soft words she and Mash were exchanging certainly lead credence to that.

Gudako’s Servants surrounded them in a half circle, singed and bleeding and pointing weapons at the woman watching them coldly. Kage recognized Nobunaga immediately, in her summer form - probably freezing her ass off. Merlin, too, was immediately recognizable. Tesla and Raikou? Not so much. Both seemed to have suffered heavy damage, burns peppering their faces and armor and coating them in a smattering of ash.

The woman they faced was completely new. She had to have been Skadi the King of this Lostbelt. She looked … a whole lot like Scáthach, and though Irisviel had mentioned the possession, it still made Kage’s head swim. But there were differences. This woman was taller, her hair pulled back, her skin speckled with frost, her armor more fancy than anything Kage had ever seen Scáthach even look at. The icy chill she radiated was completely different from Scáthach’s normal terrifying aura.

And, oh yeah, the fucking Tree of Emptiness sprawled behind her, it’s roots crashing through the village’s walls - leaving splintered ice and torn wood in it’s wake - sure helped with her identity too. If it was truly Scáthach , she would already be in the process of cutting that damned thing down.

But none of them was CasCu.

Kage frantically searched the field again. His gaze landed on two fingers, close the broken, icy  border of the village. They were both ushering people back inside, constructing a bounded field between the villagers - all so damned young - and the fight that was so obviously about to break out. Both knocked Kage’s breath out of his throat for different reasons.

One of them was Illya.

There was no other person it could be. Kage knew the fucking look of his sister. The white hair, the bright red eyes. The bear she rode and her clothes might have been strange, but she looked too much like Irisviel and Kiritsugu to be anyone else. And the gasp of Irisviel beside him certainly lent credence to that thought.

Which meant that the person beside Illya had to be CasCu.

His old man had changed - not completely unrecognizable, but so much that Kage’s eyes had skipped over him. The white fur of his cloak had been transformed - no longer did it look like wolf’s fur, instead it was black and inky, and resembled the feathery collar of Skadi’s armor. His hair too, was a bit different. Kage loved to tease CasCu about the silver in his hair, but despite his teasing, those silver hairs had been few and far between. CasCu’s hair looked almost fully silver now, with only the slightest trace of blue within its locks . And the runes he wrote through the air? They were gold.

What the hell.

CasCu didn’t have gold runes. His runes were blue - occasionally red or orange, if he was really pouring mana into them. But the damn runes that were hanging in the air now were gold, so bright gold that it nearly hurt to see. Kage’s gut swooped, then plummeted. He didn’t know what the fuck the change of color meant, but gods, something in him told him it was not a good fucking sign.

CasCu and Illya finished their work. They turned away from the bounded found and started walking back to the battlefield. Kage sucked in a breath like he’d been punched in the solar plexus. 

CasCu had been injured. One side of his face was coated in blood and scratches. A strip of cloth had been tied tight around his head, covering his one eye, runes lighting soft gold across it’s surface. But that hadn’t stopped the bleeding, because in splotches the blue cloth had turned purple with blood. Kage had seen enough wounds to know what that fucking meant. He’s seen enough head wounds to know the signs.

CasCu had lost an eye.

Somehow, beyond the other changes, that was what hit Kage the hardest. The whole world seemed to phase out of existence, everything beyond CasCu’s changed appearance. Kage stumbled forwards, feet tripping over one another, past Irisviel and further into the Bridge. Someone’s cane smacked into his legs, dragging him back into perception.

“You can’t go outside yet,” Sherlock said, his voice bland, his eyes a bit glazed over. 

“Oh fuck off,” Kage snapped. He stepped over the cane, and strode towards the hatch that led outside.

“No!” Gordolf said. He stepped in front of Kage, bristling with sweat slicked importance. “You cannot - Gudako only has enough energy to support five Servants safely - especially with the battle that is about to start. You cannot, and will not go outside!”

“And you,” Kage hissed, “can’t tell me what to do.” He made a move to shove the bastard out of the way.

Irisviel’s hand landed on Kage’s shoulder, stopping him in his tracks. She shook her head, soft. “If it was truly as bad as it looks, Gudako would have sent CasCu back inside. So please, Kage, wait for a little longer. I’m sure it looks worse than it actually is.”

Kage growled between his teeth. His eyes tracked the screen, where CasCu walked over to Mash, Gudako, and the rest of the Servants. He wasn’t watching them, which itched at Kage. Instead, that one eye was fixated on Skadi, watching her, as if he expected her to kill them as soon as possible.

“Fine,” Kage said, rasping out the word. This obviously wasn’t a fucking place he could barge into. But he swore that, if his old man collapsed, then he would blaze out there and drag him back inside, where Nightingale could heal him.

“Thank you,” Sherlock said, primly. “Now, sit down and watch. I don’t think we’ll have much of a grace period, now. Grand Cavello, how are Miss Phamrsolone’s vitals?” 

“Her … heartbeat has stopped,” Gran Cavallo said, her voice soft. “Ophelia Parisolome is no longer alive.” 

“Then our break is over,” Sherlock said.

Kage bit back everything he wanted to say, and sat down. Irisviel sat down beside of him, her hand taking his, giving it a tight squeeze. Gordolf spun away from them, and fixed his gaze on the screen. Gudako and Mash were standing up. Skadi watched them, ruthlessly cold. “Have your goodbye’s been said?”

“They have been,” Gudako said. She bowed, low. “Thank you, Skadi, for giving us the chance to say goodbye.”

“Consider it a reward for the hard work,” Skadi said. The next words she spoke were even lower, frigid, the cold bite of an angry winter, “monsters of Chaldea.”

Gudako took a step back, and around her, her Servants bristled. “Monsters?”

“Yes, monsters,” Skadi said slowly. From thin air, a knife formed in her palm, thin and delicate. She tapped it around against her hand, and like a rippling wave, frost rocketed out from where her feet touched the ground. It covered the melted portions of snow, raced under the groups feet, frosted over the Shadow Border’s cameras, and coated the bounded field surrounding the town. For a second, their vision was clouded, and all they got was crackly voices. “Now that you have defeated the Fiery King of Giants, monsters is the only way I can see you.”

Gran Cavallo beeped, over Gordolf’s building panic. “She’s cut off our communications again. We can hear, but we can’t talk to them.”

“It doesn’t matter,” Sherlock said. “Gudako has all she needs now.”

Mash’s flustered, panicked voice was clear to hear. “That’s not right! We could have never hoped to defeat Surtr on our own -”

“Exactly,” Skadi said. “That is exactly what is so frightening. You walk a razor's edge to accomplish the impossible, even without the Counter Force’s help. Despite the limited opportunities to create bonds, make friendships, gain power … you have done that tenfold . You have killed my giants, my envoys, and caused the death of my Valkyries. You have killed the living calamity and incited his Master to betray him. You will destroy the Lostbelts in order to restore your own world … Let me ask you this, Monsters of Proper Human History, how many lives do you fight for?”

“Billions,” Gudako said. There was something cold in her voice, tight. Kage new the sound and hated to hear it. “We fight for all of humanity, and if you counted the lives of all plants and animals, then you would be unable to count them at all.”

“So that is the responsibility you shoulder as you seek to end my Lostbelt.” For a moment, she was silent. The cameras were clearing up. Kage could see shapes now, better than before. Somehow, Skadi looked taller, as if she’d grown by a foot and a head. “Very well,” she said, and the last words were booming, shattering the frost that had covered the screens, “Then, for the responsibility I bear for my ten thousand subjects, I will take that unfathomably vast number of lives with my own hands. I refuse to let my world be wiped away by your own!”

Above Skadi’s head, the sky began to darken. The clouds were dark, and thick, the ugly color of a purpling bruise, near black in some places. It almost seemed to get darker, as Skadi continued to speak.

“For now, that Surtr has been defeated, there is a chance of tomorrow. My power will no longer be put to quenching his fires. It can be used for better things. The lives of humanity, the lives of my giantish kin, the lives of my envoy’s will have the chance to grow! And for that future, I will take away your world. If you would save your humanity, then kill me! Kill me, and cast us aside, Monsters of Proper Human History!”

With each word, the form of Skadi swelled and grew, until the trappings of Scáthach were almost nonexistent. The fancy battle gown melted away into armor of ice formed over chain mail and thick leathers. A cloak of raven’s feathers and wolf furs draped in heavy folds down her back. She was as tall as any giant. Her hair was still bound, but now it was held in place by an icy, silver crown. The knife in her hands had grown to spear length, and with the last of her declaration of war echoing through the air, she pointed at them. 

“For those of you who would trespass, for those of you who would take, you will feel my rage for the lost! ÍS FYLLT HARMLEIK!

Kage nearly leapt out of his own chair. The instruments of Chaldea were screaming their warning. He could hear Gordolf and Gran Cavallo desperately trying to get a line of communication through, but the connection had been snipped as easily as if it had been cut with an icy knife. Kage would have leapt right through the vehicle to grab his old man and drag him out of the way, if Irisviel hadn’t grabbed onto him, and dragged him back into seat with a pained gasp, a hiss of his name.

It didn’t matter what he did, anyway. Gudako was too experienced of a Master to miss an obvious lead up to a Noble Phantasm like that. There was a flash of red as the sky darkened above Skadi’s head. Mash jerked forwards as if on strings, her shield crashing down into the snow, a scream of “MOLD CAMELOT” on her lips. 

Camelot built swiftly, the shadowy figure of the holy city cascading upon itself, brick by brick, by brick, until it was a massive structure shading their group. Just in time, for the sky above Skadi’s head, those dark clouds that had gathered, broke open with a crack of thunder, snow, and hail beating down upon their heads. In midair, the hail changed, elongating into long spears that shot towards Mash’s hasty defenses. They cracked against the imaginary stones of Camelot, more and more pouring from the sky, but it did not stop the snow. 

And oh, did it snow.

In seconds, it was a blizzard, so thick and fast that Gordolf gave the order to switch the camera’s to heat seeking . The screen went black - then transformed into a riot of color. Most of it was deep blue and purple, with patches of black. There was the faint green-yellow of Ophelia’s body, and the warm red and yellow and white blobs that made up Gudako, Mash, CasCu, Nobunaga, Tesla, Raikou, Merlin, and Sigurd. As they watched, those blobs began to shrinks, reds turning to oranges, yellows turning to green.

“Gudako’s temperature is plummeting!” One of the staff yelled, “And so is Mash’s. Their mystic codes are unable to keep up with the temperature difference!”

Kage gripped his knees tight, tuning out Gordolf’s panic, the sharp replies of Sherlock and Gran Cavallo. His eyes were fixed on the one heat signature that wasn’t dwindling. It was CasCu, it had to be CasCu. The blood of his father, Lugh, God of the Sun, meant that his old man wouldn’t be stopped by a little snow storm - ice storm, what ever. He would do something. Out of everyone, he would be able to do something -

Everyone’s bodies were in green and yellow now, besides CasCu’s. Then the surge of mana cut out. There was a frantic shift in the camera’s lens, and for a split second they got an image of what had happened to the battlefield.

The walls of Mold Camelot had been frozen solid. Everyone else, Mash, Nobunaga, Illya, Gudako - they had been submerged under layers of ice and frost. The only one who had managed to escape such a fate was CasCu. He stood tall, his staff in his hand. 

Opposite of him, Skadi planted down her own spear. There was something like a cold sneer on her lips. “Of course,” she said, her voice full of derision. “It would be you who would escape my ice. Are you proud of yourself for dodging my fury once more?”

“Do not sell yourself so short,” CasCu said. There was something wrong in the cadence of his words. “It was a marvelous Noble Phantasm - it is almost surprising. I was not expecting a God to have such a skill.”

“Do not use your backhanded wit on me, old man,” Skadi’s spear rose. Around her, runes flickered into life, transforming into giant, jagged spikes. “I have been waiting for this moment for three thousand years. Consider this repayment for all you have done for me.”

CasCu’s eyes narrowed - and then the screen cut out. So did sound. For a second too long, Kage could only stare at the blackness on the monitors , before chaos once more erupted inside the Shadow Border. It was a cacophony of noise that Kage could barely make out. Only two things registered.

Sherlock’s raised eyebrow. A tired, “I see. How interesting.”

Gordolf, yelling at the top of his lungs. “Get Nightingale out there right now! No, I do not care how many Servants Gudako can keep out safely! If we don’t do this, she and the future of humanity will be dead! This is an order as the Director of Chaldea! I am Not letting her die! Now get Nightingale out there, and have her release her Noble Phantasm!”

The order rippled through the room, quieting the chaos. For a few seconds, Kage was actually glad for the bastard - that he had taken charge and cut through all the bullshit. Then Irisviel squeezed Kage’s hand, and fled from the room, on her way to fetch the Berserker.

It made sense. Being a frozen popsicle probably counted as a debuff of some sort of type, and Nightingale was one of the few who could remove them en masse. Her healing abilities would also be required, because Gudako’s vitals - the only things they hadn’t fucking lost connection to - were still dropping.

The next few moments felt like the longest moments in Kage’s time as a Servant. 

He sat there, shaking, his fingers biting into his palms, listening dimly to the occasional murmurs and terse quiet from the staff. The silence and blackness from outside made his chest clench in pain. Irisviel came back to report that Nightingale had raced outside as soon as she had heard ‘injured persons’. CasCu - who had to have been fighting Skadi this whole time - would have to keep the Goddess distracted so Nightingale could do her work. The only fucking reason Kage knew that his old man wasn’t dead was the fact that they weren’t already destroyed.

Skadi had come out of the gate swinging, and none of them had been prepared for it. Kage felt angry and sick and useless. He sat there, and let Irisviel grab onto his hand, giving it a gentle, comforting squeeze. 

Then, cheers from the crew. “Gudako’s vitals are stabilizing!” Someone called, and then someone else, “Temperatures outside are becoming average for this Singularity - they’ve pushed through the worst of this attack!”

And then, even better than all of that, Gudako’s voice in their mind, remarkably calm for someone who just nearly froze to death. “Tesla is retreating back to the Shadow Border. Scáthach , I want you out here.”

There were no jokes added onto the commands, just simple orders, and if nothing else told the severity of that situation, that did. Kage wanted to shake the people at the monitors and yell at them to get the feedback up. CasCu would have still been healed by Nightingale, but Kage still needed to know if he was alright. He needed to see the damn fucker, to make sure that he was alright - 

And then, with a soft beep, the sound turned back on. There was the sound of battle, the grunts, and pain, Gudako’s voice ringing over it all. And after that, with another beep, the camera turned back on. Kage skipped his eyes right over the damn battle with the fucking giant snow goddess, his eyes frantically searching the scene for his old man.

And there he was, CasCu, at the very edge of the battlefield. He wasn’t in good condition. Beyond his eye, his offscreen dance with Skadi had left him a bloody mess of gashes and bruises. Nightingale crouched over him, applying bandages and ointment and stitches in the record time that only she was capable of. 

A breath left Kage. He sunk into his seat, all the strength yanked from his limbs. Irisviel gave his hand another squeeze. When he followed her gaze, his eyes fell on Illya, astride her giant bear, dodging and weaving the massive spikes of ice Skadi was currently casting towards them with the painful accuracy of one who once hunted for a living.

It was like watching a train wreck in slow motion. No one could get close to her. Skadi’s ice came not only from the sky, but also from the ground, rupturing in jagged spikes and waves towards Gudako’s Servants. Her spear had been transformed into a bow - she knocked it with icy arrows, shooting with deadly accuracy. The only one she did not directly target with those arrows was Illya, who was spared the brunt of the attacks. Scáthach , the only one fresh, was faring well too. She had a nasty smile on her lips, dancing around, beating away the ice cycles she hadn’t dodged. If Skadi was surprised to see Scáthach there, she didn’t show it. Her face was a mask of icy determination.

Mash couldn’t jump to their defense. Skadi had not forgotten about Nightingale, or CasCu, or Gudako. Most of the shots she could spare were aimed in that direction. Arrows splintered off of Mash’s shield. Gudako raised her arm in front of her face to protect herself; her remaining Command Seal blazed on the back of her hand. 

Merlin had disappeared. Kage had no clue where the fucker had gone , but he was avoiding the main fight, probably on Gudako’s orders. Distantly, the deep beat of a bass guitar played, booming across the battlefield. One of Nobunaga’s skills activated. She was probably singing, but Kage couldn’t see or hear it. Her guitar cut through the icy spikes that shot towards her, some sort of defense, but she was still bleeding. She wasn’t the only one.

Raikou was heavily damaged. Kage didn’t know when she’d been hit, but at some point one of Skadi’s icy juts had cut right through her foot. There were slashes upon her arms and sides. The lighting that trailed from her sword was flickering and weak. She was a powerful Berserker - but a fucking glass cannon. Kage wasn’t sure how long she’d manage against this, when Skadi hadn’t even been fucking touched, yet.

“NOW, MERLIN!”

The shout rattled through Kage’s brain. He flinched back at the sound of it, and when he looked at the screen again, the battle had skipped. Merlin had appeared in the air behind Skadi - somehow bypassing her defenses, the bright glow of his sword swinging towards her neck. Skadi spun on her heel , her bow turned spear in an instant, and stabbed it right through his heart before his sword could finish the arc.

He disappeared into flowers, smiling nastily.

And the true Merlin appeared behind Nobunaga, his grin sly and wide, those violet eyes blazing in amusement. “Why, here’s a hero worth blessing,” he said, something near teasing. Golden light flickered to life beneath his fingers, then bathed Nobunaga’s form in solid gold.

Nobunaga laughed wildly. She didn’t bother thanking him - she never did. Instead, she raced forwards like a shot, her guitar held high. With each step, flame rippled from her feet, melting away the snow of the goddess. Skadi turned; she seemed unconcerned with Nobunaga’s approach. Her spear raised languidly, and icy spikes jutted towards Nobbu - then towards Scáthach and Raikou, trying to flank her. Scáthach dodged. Raikou’s hit her through the stomach, and sent her falling to the ground.

Nobunaga?

She stepped on the icy spike like it was a stepping stone. It melted beneath her bare feet. Her laughter was wild and skipping, as insane as it ever was. “Anyone who value their life should flee! Unleash the burning hell of eternity! Turn back into the ash of the three realms … I am the Demon King of the Sixth Heaven, ODA NOBUNAGA!

At the last words, the world around her and Skadi exploded into flame. CasCu caught the glimpse of Scáthach sweeping up Raikou’s form and fleeing from the burning field that was melting the snow, melting the ice around them. Nobbu’s guitar fell upon Skadi’s strike like a comet - one that Skadi blocked, her spear taking the brunt of the attack. 

But she was obviously not expecting the force behind it. Skadi fell to her knees. The spear in her hands cracked. Nobunaga’s guitar slammed through it and cleaved through Skadi’s armor and flesh, carving a wound through shoulder and chest. A burst of ice caught Nobunaga in the chest and sent her flying, guitar buried still in Skadi’s body, golden blood gushing through the down. Then Nobunaga’s giant skeleton appeared and hit Skadi so hard, the Norse Goddess of Ice of Snow flew into her Tree of Emptiness with enough force to make it shake, and collapsed at its roots.

Kage might have fucking cheered, at that point, throat raw with the sound of it. That was Nobunagu for you. Her power scaled to the age and power of the being she caught. The Demon King of the Sixth Heaven was no weakling when facing something of Skadi’s age and might - especially in this fucking place.

“Do not let up,” Gordolf said. He slammed his hands against Gran Cavallo’s pedestal. “Tell them not to let up! We can’t give Skadi the chance to regain her advantage!”

“Our communications are still out,” Gran Cavallo retorted. 

“They won’t be for long,” Sherlock said. “Skadi will not risk a loss here. She is fighting with her back against the line.” 

“So are we,” Gordolf said. His voice was shaking slightly.

Scáthach placed Raikou before Nightingale, for her to treat. CasCu was better now, nearly completely healed. Fresh bandages - tinged with blood, had been wrapped around his eye. He hobbled over to Gudako, and bowed his head, whispered softly in her ear. Gudako’s face flexed, as if she didn’t like what he had to say.

Skadi had pushed herself off the Tree of Emptiness. She staggered, her eyes blazing. Nobunaga’s giant skeleton still stood, even as its master groaned amongst her flames. Fury lit across Skadi’s face. Her hand smeared golden blood across the surface of the Tree of Emptiness. “You think,” she hissed, “to restart the embers of Ragnarök within this fight! Monsters of Chaldea, how low you fall, to make allies of those who would burn you!” 

Her voice rose on those last words, right along with the blaze of wind across the sky. She raised her hand again, held it high. “FOR THOSE WHO WOULD TAKE EVERYTHING FROM ME! ÍS FYLLT HARMLEIK!

They were expecting it this time. That was how Mash was able to get her Noble Phantasm up in time. It curved around her, Gudako, Raikou, Nightingale, Scáthach , and CasCu. Merlin, somehow, was just able to dodge behind the walls of Camelot, impossibly in the nick of time. Illya was lucky - the chunks of ice that rained down from the sky were not aimed at her, so she only suffered minimal damage.

Nobunaga though? She was caught right out in the open, and the force of Skadi’s fury was on her. Nobunaga’s giant skeleton barely reacted in time to shield her. Ice penetrated through it’s back, shattering its bones. The sheer cold froze the flames that made up Nobunaga’s field, cutting her Honnō-ji at its roots. In the onslaught, Nobunaga’s body was lost. Kage made a noise between his throat, frozen, as Skadi reached up and ripped Nobunaga’s guitar from her shoulder. Her wound froze over, a bandage of ice sealing it together. The guitar she shattered against the ground; she stood tall over it’s remains. 

At the end of the storm, when the hail had stopped falling, Nobunaga’s skeleton was nothing but a jumble of bones shot through with ice. Then, slowly, it began to crumble into golden motes. Ice fell and crashed against the ground, leaving the clear view of Nobunaga, bloodied and unconscious, her body tinged with blue.

Kage felt his gut drop. He gripped onto Irisviel tight, fingers digging into his arms. He saw, as if in a dream, Gudako order Nightingale to bring Nobunaga and Raikou inside to Irisviel. He saw Nightingale move, and the spear of ice that hurtled towards her as if in slow motion. He saw CasCu bring his staff down in an arc. 

Kage didn’t see the runes he wrote, but he sure as hell saw the lighting strike that shattered that ice cycle into rubble. Skadi’s eyes narrowed, her lips twisted in fury. Nightingale swept up Nobunaga and bolted for the Shadow Border, both of the other Berserkers tossed over her shoulders. Skadi’s hand was in the middle of raising. Her voice rose again - another noble phantasm? So soon? They weren’t fucking -

“STEPMOTHER, STOP!” 

The words came from Illya. She skidded before Skadi and everyone else, her hand raised up, her arms held high.

And Skadi froze, words on her lips. For a split second, she hesitated. For a split second, she simply stared at Illya, who stood there, a meat shield as Nightingale made her escape. Kage saw the flicker of purple, the gleam of a red spear, the gold runes and the pink petals that swirled around it, GÁE BOLG ALTERNATIVE!”

Scáthach ’s spear hurtled from her fingers at a speed too great to track, and a light too bright to look directly at. The after images of those runes and petals played in Kage’s eyes. CasCu and Merlin’s support, no doubt. 

Skadi had no time to dodge, move, or react. Gáe Bolg Alternative struck her right through her chest. She stumbled back, then froze as the thorns of Gáe Bolg worked their way through her flesh, pinning her in place. She stood there, a giant of ice and snow, her lips pulled back in a snarl, with Gáe Bolg Alternative protruding from her chest like a bright red pin. 

Scáthach landed lightly on the ground, spinning her copy between her fingers. Her face was bland, and cold, but there was a dark satisfaction glinting in the depths of her eyes. “Consider this the parting card of the body you wear,” she said, in the low tones of someone who was already considering this fight done. “The minute you forgot who your body belonged to, was the minute your death was sealed.”

Skadi’s expression flickered. With a snarl, she shifted forwards. Blood spilled golden across her icy armor, soaking into the chains and leathers. She spat it from her mouth. Each word she spoke sounded grated, and rough. “You will not claim this world so easily. I will not let you cross the countless corpses of our hopes, and dreams.”

Gudako stepped forwards. There was something quite on her face, a sadness that weighed heavy on her shoulders - but she carried it well. “There were no hopes or dreams here, Skadi. There was no tomorrow to look forwards to.”

Skadi laughed, a broken sounded thing. Her hand jerked up, to wrap around the spear in her chest. Blood burst from where the thorns inside her body ruptured her veins, staining her skin with gold. “What about my hopes and dreams?!” She said, a roar, a scream of pain. “What about the hope and dreams of my kin, the giants? What about the hope and dreams of those foolish children of Odin, those mortals who I still swore my servitude to? For three thousand years I have hoped and dreamed of a future for all of them! For three thousand years, I have suffered this endless loneliness, in the hope that one day, we will see the light of tomorrow!”

Mash flinched, and looked away from her, her fists balling at her sides. Merlin set his hands on her shoulder, then Gudako’s. Gudako swallowed hard, then lifted her chin. “I’m sorry,” she said, and then, “CasCu?”

CasCu stepped forwards. Past Illya, past Scáthach , and right towards Skadi. She was taller than him by nearly two heads, the blaze in her eyes something wild and desperate like a cornered wolf. She jerked against Scáthach ’s Noble Phantasm once more, and the ice that had coated her wound from Nobunaga shattered. Golden blood sprayed from the wound, trickled from her pores, and poured from her eyes like tears.

“You’ve done well with what you had, Skadi.” CasCu said. There was still something off in the way he said those words. “But it is time you stepped aside for Proper Human History. Now rest, Skadi, and do not resist.” Runes burned gold at his fingertips , and he reached up, almost comically high to brush them along her forehead.

Skadi fought. She jerked and seized against the constraints of Scáthach ’s Noble Phantasm. The ice and snow around her blazed with a final display of power, ice jerking up and shooting towards CasCu from every direction. CasCu’s protections blazed into existence, and the ice scattered every which way.

A desperate cry left her. “Sombrero will have you, even if I do not! And if it does not have you, then the ghosts of us will! You are cursed, Proper Human History. No step you take will be taken without the ghosts of those you’ve killed. One day, you will find that your own bloodied history has risen up to drag you do-”

CasCu’s runes blazed an impossible light. Skadi cut off mid-rant. Her eyes glazed over. She slumped against Scáthach ’s spear, her knees folding beneath her. And then like melting ice, the form of Skadi began to fall off. She lost two feet. Her armor broke into chunks and collapsed into the snow at her feet. All colors that made her - so pale, so crystalline - drained away, to be replaced by the colors of Scáthach .

The Scáthach that had hosted Skadi fell to the earth, nothing but a dead body. The Scáthach of Chaldea walked forwards, and grabbed Gáe Bolg Alternative, ripping it from her chest. She stood there, staring for a moment, before turning to Gudako. “It is over.” 

“No,” Gudako said, staring up at the giant tree of Emptiness. “There’s one more fight left. I want Paul Bunyan and Quetz out here. Illya, will you help me cut down this tree?”

Illya stared at the fallen body of her stepmother, then looked up. Her chin jutted out. She straightened. “I’ve yet to prove my worth properly,” she said, “so yes I will. Give me my order’s, Master.”

Kage turned from this display. He couldn’t watch this battle. Skadi’s passing had left him sick with the cruelty of it, even as a part of him chanted she would be better off that way, finally at rest. And Nobunaga was in the infirmary. He needed to see if she was still on the edge of death, or if she had pulled through.

CasCu would be alright, for a bit.

 

The infirmary was chaotic, between Nightingale and Irisviel’s work. Kage could feel the lingering hum of mana in the air from where Irisviel had set off her Noble Phantasm. He ignored the bustle, the screaming instruments, past Raikou’s bed and the people who clustered around it, and over to Nobunaga’s bedside.

The destruction of her guitar had shattered her Summer form. She was back in her normal military uniform, her hair spread out behind her, her cap at a rakish angle on her head. Her lips were just tinged with the lingering remnants of blue. A brief glance at her monitors showed that her heart and Spirit Origin were alright. She was just still fucking asleep. Kage threw himself onto a chair beside her cot, and let out a jittering breath.

“Irisviel said it was going to be alright,” said a voice in his head, “And Nightingale treated all the frost bite and hypothermia.”

“Serves her right for fighting in her swimsuit against a snow goddess,” Kage muttered. He opened one eye, and watched Nobunaga.

On the bed, Okita’s form took shape. She was sitting on the very edge of it, half curled up, an arm around her legs and her eyes downcast. “Nobbu is her own special brand of stupid,” she said, sighing. “But now that I know she’s going to pull through, I can go back to keeping Nobukatsu from bursting in here and holding a funeral.”

The words tugged a half laugh from Kage, rough and broken. “You can admit to being worried,” he said.

Okita flushed. “She was the one worried about you,” she said, “practically jumped at the chance of helping Gudako out with the people who hurt you. Couldn’t leave her subjects unavenged, she said. Spent a lot of time here too, waiting for you to wake up.” 

The words made Kage smile, a grim, tight thing. “Of course she fucking did.”

Okita hummed, one long note. She seemed hesitant to leave. Her hand reached out to brush along Nobunaga’s hand, before she pulled it back and tucked it around her legs with the other. “How is CasCu doing?” 

Kage saw the question for what it was: an excuse Okita could use to stay here longer. The relationship Okita and Nobbu had was nowhere in the dictionary. Half the time they were at each other’s throats, a fourth of the time they were in each other’s beds, and the last fourth of the time Nobbu was making grand declarations of loves through pranks that lead straight into fighting each other again. At this point in time, Kage wasn’t even fucking sure either Nobbu or Okita actually knew how to love in the normal way - and they certainly didn’t fucking know how to express it.

But there was still care there. Evidenced in the way Nobunaga always had handkerchiefs on hand for Okita’s cough. How Okita always seemed to smile, when Nobunaga around. How either of them reacted when the other got injured. In a way Kage didn’t want to fully understand, the two reminded him of himself and CasCu before they’d gotten their shit together. Mostly together. Whatever.

Kage sighed, and dragged his hands through his hair. “I don’t know,” he admitted, the sound rough on his throat. “Fuck, Okita - he lost an eye, and his appearance is different, and he’s talking weird too - but that’s just the shit I’ve heard from the monitor and comms links. I don’t actually fucking know how he’s doing … but I have a feeling it’s not fucking good.”

Okita frowned at that. “Nightingale was just with him. She might have an idea of what’s going on with him.” 

Kage made such a face behind his hands. “The last thing CasCu would thank me for is sicking Nightingale on him.” But at the same time … “She might know something. I’ll ask when she swings around to check on Nobunaga again.”

“Alright,” Okita said. She hesitated a moment, then stood, lightly. “I’ll see you around, Kage.”

“Hai, hai,” Kage said. “I’ll see you around too. Don’t worry about the fucking pipsqueak, I’ll tell her you were worried.”

“I was not worried,” Okita muttered, flushing, before she took to Spirit Form and left. 

Kage resisted the urge to laugh at her disappearance. He let his hand linger on his face, for a couple of moments, before he let it fall. He stared at Nobbu’s unconscious form, then sighed and reached out to pluck the hat from her head and set it upon his own. “How,” he groused, “you two have managed to keep this up this long is beyond me. Fucking stubborn bastards, aren’t ya? Eventually you won’t be able to keep on playing.” 

Nobunaga, of course, said nothing. No protests at having her hat stolen, no arguments against his words. Not even a laugh, proclaiming that it was the pot calling the kettle black and ‘it can’t be helped!’ Kage groaned faintly to himself, then dropped the hat back onto her head, covering her face. 

Nobbu, in return, snored.

Kage’s bit the side of his cheek to keep his lips from wobbling. “Don’t pull that on me,” he muttered to her. “Fucking hell, Nobbu. You just gotta - keep on living. And speak clearly for once in your damn life. For someone who likes to yammer about making your feelings known, you have a shit time actually showing them.” 

She said nothing. Kage curled up in his seat, and buried his face into his knees. It was useless. He was useless, sitting here like this. What did he think - that lecturing Nobbu was going to make her wake up and argue her innocence in the matter? What a bunch of bull crap .

Footsteps, slow and steady. Nightingale’s words, just a tinge of madness in her voice. “Kage, you are needed for a post examination. Please do not resist.” 

Kage glanced up at the Berserker’s form. The glow in her eyes assured him that he wasn’t getting a fucking choice in this matter. He swallowed, then sighed, pushing himself to his feet. “Alright,” he muttered, “But first, I want to know how CasCu’s doing. He didn’t - fucking look good, when I saw him on the monitor.”

Nightingale turned away from Nobunaga’s bed, and walked Kage towards a new cot. She turned, pointed to it. “Sit.” 

Kage followed after. “Well, that doesn’t fucking bode well.” 

“Sit,” she repeated. Her voice left no room for argument.

Kage fucking sat. He sat down, and stared at her, his fingers biting into his palms. “Is he fucking alright?” 

Nightingale stared at him, for a long moment, before speaking. “Gudako has instructed me to complete a full evaluation of CasCu right after this Lostbelt has been eradicated. Both mental, physical, and health of the Spirit Origin are to be examined. No matter my conclusions, his eye will be non-recoverable. Everything else, I believe, has a chance of healing. He will live.”

He’d live. 

But that wasn’t the answer to his question. Kage’s fingers bunched into fists. “But will he be alright?”

Another long stare, before she glanced away, and started her examination. “That will remain to be seen,” she said, her voice cold and measured. “He has been through much during this Lostbelt - hence the needs for a full examination.” 

“Even of his Spirit Origin?” Kage asked. His voice was a rasp; his throat, dry.

“Yes,” Nightingale said, and then refused to say any more on the subject. She focused exclusively on Kage’s exam, and after a few moments, Kage gave up on trying to pry the information from her. He sat there, numb, as she worked. 

Gudako believed that CasCu had been through so much through the course of this Lostbelt that he required a full medical examination. Mental. Physical. His Spirit Origin. His lost eye was just a hint of what had happened to him. His appearance had changed, his demeanor. The strength of his magecraft had grown too - Kage knew CasCu’s abilities like the back of his fucking hand; he shouldn’t have been able to hold himself against Skadi for that long without backup. Strong or not, no one could have fought that fucking monster alone.

But CasCu had.

CasCu had changed, and Kage fucking hated the idea of it. He wished he could take whatever had happened to him, and rip out the roots of it with his bare fingers. He would, if it was necessary. CasCu had done enough for him - Kage wasn’t going to back down when it came to CasCu in turn.

And as if the thought forced the world into action, the Shadow Border shook with a tremendous crash. The Tree of Emptiness had been felled. This Scandinavia, full of humans, Valkyries , giants, and one chilly goddess, was officially destroyed.

Notes:

And for those who are interested, I've got Skadi's skills and NP right here!

 

Skills:

- Jotunn Blood: Increase HP maximum (three turns), quick and arts up (three turns). If on snowy field, enemy debuff resist down.

- Odin’s Primordial Rune: Quick up (three turns), NP Gain (50%), apply random buffs (Heal, crit up, attack up, sure hit, evade) for one ally.

- Goddess of the Frozen Wastes: Apply Snowy Field (three turns). Increase defense (Three turns), apply debuff immunity (3 times, 3 turns), buff chance up (three turns), and attack up for all allies (3 turns).

NP: Rage for the Lost, Ís Fyllt harmleik!

- Deal heavy damage to all enemies. If on a snowy field, apply frozen debuff. (No actions until damaged. Once damaged, apply defense down (three turns), skill seal (three turns), and NP seal (three turns)). Apply defense up (three turns) and attack up (three turns) to self.

Chapter 15: Chapter 15

Summary:

It's a looong road trip to the Wandering Sea ...

Notes:

*kicks down a door* I'm baaack!! but thank you all so much for your comments and kudos! >:3c I hope you all enjoy, and have a wonderful day!

Chapter Text

Time passed, in that horrible way it did after disaster. Slowly, and all too quickly at once, with crystal clear patches and time that was a blur of confusion. It was a feeling Kage was far too familiar with.

After the Nightingale’s examination, Kage was practically strong-armed into Spirit Form by the fucking Director of all people. And the reason was obvious. The Gudako that walked into the Shadow Border was shaking from Mana loss, shadows under her eyes and the tangled strands of her hair greasy with sweat. And that was the least of the injuries she had suffered. She, Mash, and all the Servants that had helped her take down the Tree of Emptiness were all rushed to the infirmary - CasCu included.

Kage followed after them like an angry shadow. His gaze bored into CasCu’s back. There was something wrong with CasCu’s gait, and he didn’t like it. He moved like an old man - and Kage might have slung the term ‘old man’ around a lot, and CasCu might have had more silver in his hair then he liked to admit, and maybe he had back problems as well, but he had never moved as slowly, as old as this. 

It made alarm bells burn in the back of his head. Or maybe that was just his worry, chirring in his gut till he felt sick.

Still, he stood by , and watched as Nightingale and Irisviel got to work, the Shadow Border rumbling away beneath him. They were still moving, only this time, Kage knew it was not across the snowy fields of the Scandinavian Lostbelt. With the Tree gone, all that Scandinavia was would be gone as well. Instead, they must have been driving through the scorched earth.
It didn’t matter. The only thing that mattered was CasCu’s fucking exam.

And that didn’t come quickly. Mash and Gudako were treated first, and then put to rest in a cot. All the other Servants? They were treated, and then sent to Spirit Form. CasCu was the last one to be looked at, and even then, Nightingale and Irisviel had to take turns. Nightingale looked at his physical injuries - his eye, the gashes, and scratches and bruising along his body - while Irisviel looked at his spiritual ones, if there were any. Kage ached to be there beside CasCu, to jostle and help out - but he couldn’t.

Gods, he couldn’t even contact the bastard mentally either. Not while the exam was being conducted. It would have to wait.

He fucking hated waiting.

But he waited. He waited, while Nightingale cleaned and wrapped and stitched up wounds. She left his eye for last, and when she started treating that - Kage had to look away, bile rising in his throat. His own cursed eye ached in sympathy. Gods, CasCu would have to get used to being blind out of one eye, if Nightingale couldn’t regrow in some, miraculous way. And Kage had a sinking feeling from the mutters under her breath that she couldn’t.

One good thing did happen, as Kage watched and listened to this examination. Nobunaga woke up. Irisviel rushed to her side before the mini emperor could attract Nightingale’s attention, and hurried her into Spirit Form. Just sensing the aware presence of his friend was enough to make some tightly knotted part of Kage relax.

“You,” he sent to her, “need to stop fucking giving people scares. We’re not trying to repeat Honoji here, Nobbu.”

“It can’t be helped!” Came the retort, bright and cheerful, before she returned with a “but the worry of one of my vassals is always appreciated.”

“I wasn’t worried,” Kage said, like a liar, “but Okita was. She came to visit you. Held your hand and everything. And yet you fucking goofed up and missed it.”

“Aww,” Nobbu booed. 

Kage closed his eyes and sighed, before rubbing his fingers across his forehead. It was just the faint impression of a touch, since he couldn’t actually feel it, but gods he didn’t care. The repeated motion gave him some comfort, and he relaxed a tad with a sigh. Still … “You need to be more careful about which gods you piss off. How can you be the Demon King of the Sixth Heaven if you fall to a bit of ice?”

“Oh, not wabi sabi,” Nobunaga complained, “This Demon King of the Sixth Heaven took down two major entities one right after another!”

“You passed out.”

“I wouldn’t have if my power wasn’t split up by my Nobbus! So, it can’t be helped!”

Like always, arguing with Nobunaga was a futile endeavor that had Kage torn between stealing her hat and stowing it away in a place she couldn’t reach, and laughing. He shook his head slightly and settled for a crooked smile. “You should still fucking apologize to Okita for scaring her. And apologize to your brother too.”

“Hai, hai,” Nobunaga sighed, a long, drawn out thing. She was quiet for a moment after that, before the words burst from her mind, “How is he doing?”

“Bad enough that Gudako wanted a mental, physical, and spiritual examination,” Kage said. The words were quieter than he wanted them to be. He scowled at himself, hard, and then dragged his fingers through his hair. They didn’t hit any tangles, which meant that CasCu had to be with him at least part of the time while he was unconscious. “So not fucking good. And I can’t talk to him until Irisviel and Nightingale are done! It could be fucking days, Nobunaga. And he looks weird.”

“He did pull some crazy shit,” Nobunaga agreed, musing. “Some real rock-and-roll power while we were fighting Surtr.”

Kage’s eyebrow twitched. “Fucking explain, Nobunaga.”

For a moment, Nobunaga was quiet. When she spoke, there was a seriousness in her tone that she didn’t normally carry. A cold slick of fear curdled in Kage’s gut. Nobunaga didn’t do serious, she never did. “That Surtr hit Gudako with a death rune of some sort. She started falling, was on fire like it was her Honoji - I couldn’t see much, I was fighting at the time, but CasCu saved her. Those two birds that were flapping around - that ice queen called them Odin’s ravens - carved out his eye and then kinda - sunk into him. And then he saved her, and saved us as well. Soooo wabi sabi. I bet he’ll get an awesome eye patch out of it.”

If those last words were meant for comfort, they didn’t feel fucking comforting. Kage swallowed hard. Gudako had been hit by a Death Rune. It was a miracle they were all still hanging around. How many people had died at that moment of her dying? If it was Chaldea, they could have tallied that easily. But everyone here was in Spirit Form - the only way they would know who was dead was the next time they got a chance to look at the logs for the Servants. 

Gudako would be gutted.

Kage’s fingers dug tight into his palms. He scowled, hard. “I’m glad she’s alright,” he said, “but I’m worried about CasCu. He’s acting fucking weird. Look at him - he’s completely calm. No ounce of fear at all.”

It was true. Kage fell silent, a moment, for Nobunaga to watch CasCu, Nightingale, and Irisviel interact. CasCu was speaking now, telling Irisviel about that Illya look alike - though he kept on calling her Freyja. It was so fucking weird. There was none of the nerves people carried - CasCu carried - when dealing with Nightingale.

“I think most of the work is being done by Irisviel right now,” Nobunaga said. She hesitated a moment, then Kage felt the mental equivalent of a shoulder bump. “Chill out, Kage! We won! Hai, people might have been burned, and yeah, your boyfriend might have lost himself an eye, but the path to victory is paved in pain. We’ve won, and we’ll have a break to take care of each other before the next battle. CasCu’s resilient. He’s probably just acting weird because of the shock of this whole thing.”

Kage scowled. “We’re not boyfriends,” he muttered, and then, “I hope you’re right. Suppose I’ll feel fucking better when I can actually talk to him.”

“That’s something a boyfriend would say,” Nobunaga said, sniffing, and Kage debated throwing something at her.

It wasn’t as if they weren’t boyfriends. Quite frankly, in the scheme of things, he and CasCu had probably plunged straight from boyfriends into something more long term. But it wasn’t something either of them had ever fucking defined verbally, even if they did affirm it with every fucking action. Feelings, after all , were still fucking hard. And that certainly was something Nobunaga delighted in teasing him about. 

“Not the fucking time for joking, Nobbu,” Kage gritted out, scrubbing the space between his eyes. “Can’t I just worry about him without you getting ideas?” 

“Never,” Nobunaga chirruped. But she softened, just a tad. “He’ll be alright, Kage. He’s probably acting weird because Irisviel is doing the examination, right now. Irisviel is far, far less terrifying than Nightingale.” 

Kage let out a soft sound between his teeth. Nobunaga was probably right. Irisviel had taken over the exam, which meant they were starting to look at his mental and spiritual readings. Since she was practically a Grail, Irisviel was the best at reading Spirit Origins now they no longer had all the fancy fucking equipment Chaldea had boasted. And Irisviel was far less terrifying then Nightingale. 

“Perhaps,” he groused back, “but I’d still rather talk to him. And know what the fuck they found out.”

“We probably won’t know immediately,” Nobunaga said, “it’s information they’ll wait to release until Gudako is in better shape. It can’t be helped!”

“Hai, hai,” Kage muttered. Exhaustion hit him, sudden and hard. He slumped, pressing his hands against his forehead. “Go find Okita and your brother, and the rest of the gang, Nobbu. They need to know you’re alright. Don’t fucking argue with me about this. It’s not wabi sabi to keep them waiting.”

Nobunaga hesitated. He could fucking feel her hesitating. Then she sighed, and pulled away from him. “Hai, hai, but it’s not wabi sabi to mope the whole time either! Do something active! Distract your mind! He’ll be alright.” 

And then she was gone from the room, and Kage was left watching. It was impossible to tell if the sick feeling in his gut was just baseless fear, instinct, or the soft, quiet, pulse of his curse that whispered that it would have been easier for CasCu if he had just died, because things were about to get a hell of a lot worse for them both.

 

The exam with Irisviel took longer then Kage was expecting. Time passed, in that way it did, Kage’s mind full of static. He stared at CasCu, and Irisviel, noting every difference. CasCu acted like he always did around her - respectful. But there was something too respectful about it, like someone playing at that respect, and CasCu’s remaining eye tracked Irisviel with an evaluation that Kage didn’t like.

And that eye. That kept on tugging at Kage, small and steady. CasCu should have been reacting completely differently to suddenly no longer having two eyes, one eye ruined. He should be treating that side like a blind spot. But instead, CasCu acted perfectly normal, like nothing was fucking wrong, and it was - worrying.

Perhaps Nobunaga was right. Perhaps there was nothing wrong. But Kage had seen too much of CasCu horribly wounded, in shitty situations, to know how the bastard reacted. Perhaps it was the shock, perhaps it was something else, perhaps perhaps perhaps - 

Or perhaps nothing. Kage’s head hurt. He dug his fingers into his scalp and squeezed his eyes tight shut, breathing through his nose. He needed to calm down. Just fucking calm down.

“There we go,” Irisviel said, stepping back from CasCu’s side. Her eyes watched him, evaluating. “All done. How are you feeling?” 

“Better than before,” CasCu said. He pushed himself off the bed as if he was expecting his bones to ache. “You two are quite the healers.” 

“We do our best,” she said, giving him a half smile. “Though I’m afraid that it’s not always enough. The rest you’ll have to do in Spirit Form.”

“Seems a shame, when I have my runes.” 

Irisviel shook her head. “No runes, I’m afraid. We need everything we have left to tend to Gudako and Mash, and you have done enough, CasCu. Take a rest, talk to Kage. He’s been waiting for you anxiously since he woke up.” 

Kage flushed, hard, at that description. It made him sound like he was fucking pining, or some shit, and he wasn’t. Stupid. It was natural to be concerned about CasCu, after everything, after what they were, unnamed but still fucking cared for -

“I will,” CasCu said, and then took Spirit Form.

Irisviel blinked, as if she had expected more follow up. The silence, after CasCu’s disappearance, startled Kage as well. The bastard hadn’t asked how Kage was doing. Normally the bastard would do that. Would fuss and fret until he was sure Kage was alright, even though CasCu was the one with the fucking eye missing.

Kage hesitated, waiting. The silence seemed to stretch on. Then, with a mental curse, Kage reached out. “Hey, old man, did you stick around?”

“I thought I would for a bit,” CasCu said, the words too smooth, “Just in case Nightingale and Irisviel need help tending to our Master’s mana depletion. I assume you are doing better now that Surtr is dead?”

Kage didn’t answer immediately. He sat, staring at the space CasCu had just been occupying. Something sick rose in the back of his throat. “Yes, I’m better now that Surtr is dead,” he retorted, acidic, “No fucking shit about that. What about you? You weren’t the one tied to a goddamned Death Rune.”

“No, I wasn’t.”

Nothing else. Kage’s head pounded. He pressed his fingers against his temples. “What the fuck happened, CasCu?” He asked, and there was a plea in those words, something he couldn’t fully explain. 

There was a pause, consideration, before CasCu said. “I made a sacrifice to save Gudako’s life. Everyone else would have done the same.” 

“That doesn’t explain shit,” Kage said. The words burst out of him, high and thin and tight with stress. “CasCu, you lost an eye. There’s something going on with you. Something’s wrong, and you’re not telling me.” 

And maybe that hurt, a little, a lot. They’d gotten good, at telling each other when things were hurting them. It had been something they had both been working on, together. To have CasCu stop now when something was so clearly wrong fucking hurt like a goddamned bitch. 

He couldn’t see CasCu, but he could sense CasCu’s quiet, the soft debate of what to say. There was no rush to calm Kage down, nothing reassuring. What he said instead was: “I made a sacrifice. Part of that sacrifice was my eye, the other part was assimilating Huginn and Muninn into myself. They had a lot of thoughts and memories to share. They are still in the process of settling.”

An excuse.

What CasCu offered was an excuse. Kage’s hands shook, slightly, and he bunched them up into fists. “How the fuck did you manage that?” He asked, the words more acidic than he wanted, as if he could pull apart CasCu’s excuse and find the man he was beneath it.

“I don’t know,” CasCu said.

Kage knew CasCu’s lies. He knew them like the back of his fucking hand. He knew how well the old man could lie. How even he said the words, how calmly he did, how he could put inflection into them so they sounded like the truth. He also knew the ticks CasCu had. The slight shift in his eyes, in his smile. CasCu almost always smiled, when he lied. And Kage knew well the sound of them in CasCu’s mouth, and in Kage’s mind.

Right now? Kage couldn’t tell if CasCu was lying or not. His gut instinct said he was. But there was none of CasCu’s normal ticks, nothing to say he was lying. Kage was just left with the feeling that he was, and no fucking proof.

“I’m sorry, Kage,” CasCu said, “but it has been a taxing time. I think I’ll need some time to myself.”

“Alright,” Kage said, running on the autopilot that came with numb horror. He felt CasCu’s voice leave his brain, felt him recede away. It was so viscerally wrong that Kage just stood there, his hands dangling by his sides, letting it happen. 

CasCu had asked for time to himself. That wasn’t odd in of itself - both of them had times when they needed space. But not so soon after something like this. Not when one of them woke from a rune induced near death state. Not when one returned from a long campaign. They always drew close, always held each other, always fucking comforted each other. Even in Singularity F, they didn’t pull - whatever the fuck CasCu had just pulled.

And CasCu had called him Kage. Even now, CasCu rarely called him Kage. Sometimes it was brat. More often it was hellion . And frequently, it was some stupid endearment in Gaelic that made Kage’s ears and cheeks heat up in embarrassment. Between them, the use of ‘Kage’ was reserved for serious shit.

Kage’s knees felt weak. He sat down, hard, and stared at the infirmary. Raikou was waking up, and Nightingale was attending to her, Berserker to Berserker communication. Irisviel was by Gudako and Mash, helping to restore their mana levels through Grail magic or some shit. Kage wanted to grab her and ask her what the hell she had found in CasCu’s spiritual and mental evaluation. He wanted to shake Gudako awake and beg to know what had happened to CasCu while he was out of it.

But he couldn’t. Kage could only sit there, and swallow down the faint urge to throw up. 

 

It was going to be a while, before either Gudako or Mash woke up - or were even had the strength to talk. Kage knew that it would be a while, because fucking Director Gordolf came in to see they were awake, and then spent minutes fretting over them like a panicked, reluctant father figure. The scene was so ridiculous Kage wanted to rip it to shreds. So he left, before he made trouble and Nightingale threw him out by the ear.

He wanted to track down CasCu and ask him how he was doing. He wanted to take CasCu and hold him tight, breathe in his hair and shake in those warm arms. Wanted to grip him by the shoulders and yell at him for being so foolish, so reckless, so goddamned stupid, and then kiss him until the bastard remembered he had too much to live for, and he shouldn’t sacrifice such things willy-nilly .

But he fucking couldn’t, because he had no clue where his old man had gone, or if he’d even answer if Kage asked.

Another part of Kage wanted to find Nobunaga. To sit down and listen to her jokes and her stories, her reassurances, faulty as they could sometimes be. But Nobunaga would be acting stupidly soft with her girlfriend/not-girlfriend, and Kage didn’t want to deal with that shit. He also didn’t want to deal with her asking how CasCu was doing, or why Kage wasn’t with him, because all of those things were things she would fucking ask if Kage showed up empty-handed

So instead, Kage went to find Salter.

Salter wouldn’t care how CasCu was doing. Some days, Kage wasn’t even sure if Salter cared is he was alright. But that was how her particular brand of the Grail’s corruption worked. She was the king who had forsaken humanity to save her kingdom - part of that was having a limited range of emotion, and what little emotion she did have was reserved for only a few. Gudako. Mash, on occasion. Jalter. On occasion, Kage. Sometimes Edge, who was the only one of them who didn’t seem to care that Salter’s preference for food tended towards the greasy and the unhealthy, but filling.

But she was a great person to hang out with when Kage didn’t want questions asked, when he didn’t want anyone fucking prying, and when he needed time to fucking thing. Salter didn’t do talking, so much. Which was perfectly fine with Kage right now.

A small push of his mind got an answering ping, and then Kage was off, leaving the infirmary behind him.

It didn’t matter, which room Kage found Salter in, because practically all rooms beyond the infirmary and the bridge were the same, in the Shadow Border. What did matter was that the second he stepped in, he knew she was there. He could tell even in Spirit Form. Salter had that aura about her, cold and distant, that made his chest ache where she had punched through it with her sword, in Singularity F, so long ago. 

His curse still recognized the mana signature of the one who’d given it to him. It was part of the reason CasCu wasn’t always happy, to see Kage hanging around Salter. But Kage had a sneaking suspicion that CasCu wouldn’t have much to say about it right now. And that sneaking suspicion was enough to sit there, in Salter’s aura, and fucking breathe.

Breathe.

If Salter had noticed his presence, she didn’t comment. If Jalter was there - someone who was much more likely to complain about anything - she didn’t say anything either. The silence was heavy, but there was a horrible, strange comfort in Salter’s cold aura. One that, right now, allowed him to think.

CasCu was different. 

It went deeper than just the missing eye, the appearance. It was in the way he walked, in the way he talked - even the way he lied seemed to have subtly shifted. Maybe Nobunaga was right, and all these changes were nothing but the lingering remnants of trauma and stress. Maybe CasCu needed space right now to fully process what had happened to him, and then he would reach out later, seeking the comfort Kage would so readily offer.

And maybe something was off. Maybe something had gone wrong. If something had gone wrong, there were people who should have noticed, would have things to tell him about the whole damn situation. Alter, maybe. Scáthach for sure. 

But first, Kage needed to know what exactly Irisviel had found, in her spiritual and mental evaluation. Everything else could wait until after that. And that wouldn’t be answered until after Gudako had woken up. Which meant Kage had no choice but to fucking wait.

That was fine. He could wait, right fucking here, until the chance to get his answers appeared.

 

That chance came far later than Kage wanted.

After Gudao woke up, he was subjected to Nightingale’s intense examination. The same happened to Mash right after. Then, the two had to give their reports to Gordolf, who fucking grilled them like a sergeant , turning over every decision, every fight, every thing they had done since the beginning of the Singularity. 

Kage, who had been shadowing them since they had left the infirmary, scowled hard at this. The fucker could stand to give the two a bit of a goddamned break, for once in his sorry life.

But surprisingly, Gudao almost looked relieved to be dragged over the hot coals. And when Gordolf asked, his voice tight with stress, if he had anything else to add, Gudao nodded, and sat down. 

“Some of my connections to the Servants are gone,” he said, reaching out to grab Mash’s hand. “I can’t tell who, but I think - when I almost died to Surtr, some people disappeared. I don’t know, though. Can you tell whose still summoned, Gran Cavallo?”

Gordolf looked even paler, somehow, white behind hind his swirl of yellow hair. Sherlock - who still looked like death warmed over, but had somehow managed to fend off Nightingale’s advances - leaned forwards slightly. Gran Cavallo gave a soft beep. “I can’t scan the database right now,” she said, apologetic, “but I can ask BB to!”

“Is BB in the computer right now?”

“Of course~” Sang an entirely new voice from the console. Kage grit the back of his teeth until it hurt. “You’re demonic kohai~ has been in here the whole time, keeping things running while Gran Cavallo focuses on steering the Shadow Border through this isolated hell of ours~”

Mash made a small noise between her teeth. Gudao sighed. “That explains the driving from before,” he muttered, and then, “Could you tell me if anyone’s disappeared? I can’t - I know some have, but I don’t know how many, or who they are.” 

“As you wish, Senpai~! Be sure to reward me later, or I’ll make you regret it!” Then her voice was gone, and the room was left with Gudao’s tired sigh.

“I would not be surprised if some had disappeared with your near death,” Sherlock said. He no longer had two hands to lace his fingers together, so he tapped them restlessly against his knee instead. “If I had to guess, Mr. Fujimaru, the ones who disappeared were summoned in the week before the inspection and the subsequent Lostbelt. Any others who disappeared must have not been with us long, otherwise their bond with you would have been too strong to snap. Though if CasCu had been too slow, our casualties would have been far greater.” 

“They were already too great,” Gordolf snapped. “Any time Gudao is close to death, the casualties are too great. This is an order, Gudao! The next time you’re in a situation like that, stay out of the way and make sure you’re not targeted! As the Master, your safety must come first, no matter what. Do you understand me?”

Gudao’s face twisted up. He glanced away, and murmured, soft, “Hai.”

Mash squeezed his hand, and spoke. “I believe, Director, Sherlock, that it might be better to implement more protective measures for Gudao in his Mystic Codes? His - it was my failing, as his Demi-Servant, to not protect him like I should -”

“No,” Gudao said. He looked up, chin jutted out. “I made the decision to be that close to the fight. I told Mash where to fight - and you can’t block rune craft with a shield. I’ll learn better. Gran Cavallo, is such a mystic code possible?”

Maybe,” Gran Cavallo said, slow and a bit hesitant. “I’ve been working off the blueprints Da Vinci had in her backlog, but to create something like this, we’d need a Servant who excels at weaving mystics, not building them like the ones we have in here.”

“We’ll work on it when we have the chance, then. BB? Have you found out something?”

The AI gave a huff of annoyance. “It will take longer then a couple of minutes! This system isn’t as cooperative as Chaldea or the Moon Cell. It will take some time to go through all whose been summoned, and then compare it to whose still active. I’ll contact you when I’m done, ‘kay, Senpai~?” 

“Alright,” Gudao said. He swallowed hard, gave Mash’s hand a squeeze, then placed his head in his hands. “I have one last thing to report,” he says, his voice tired. “It’s about CasCu’s sacrifice, and … his condition, afterward . I have both Nightingale and Irisviel’s reports.”

Kage jerked to attention, his gaze focused on Gudao. Through this whole fucking thing, he’d been quiet, bludgeoning his curse into submission, forcing the whispers that Gudao, that everything would have been better off dead away. But now, those whispers were gone. All that mattered was this report.

“Physically,” Gudao said, “CasCu is remarkably healthy, for someone whose lost an eye. He doesn’t act like he lost it recently. The wound doesn’t look new either. Nightingale says it should offer him no trouble, but it won’t be able to be replaced either. There’s a magical seal in it, placed by Huginn and Munnin. It’s not something either she nor Irisviel can remove.”

Kage’s stomach plummeted. Sherlock leaned forwards, with a slight hum. Gordolf looked sick. Gran Cavallo gave a surprised beep. “Really? She can’t?”

“No,” Gudao said. “They’re the last remainder of that Lostbelt’s Phantasmal Beasts - the sacrifice CasCu paid to keep me alive. Irisviel’s report … is a little different. Physically, CasCu is stable. Spiritually …” he hesitated.

“Huginn and Munnin were absorbed into his Spirit Origin,” Sherlock said, leaning forwards a tad, something like a bright spark of curiosity in his eye. Kage wanted to punch it out of him. This wasn’t a science experiment they were talking about. It was CasCu.

And something was horribly fucking wrong with him. Kage felt a bit sick. How the fuck did Phantasmal Beasts get absorbed into a Heroic Spirit’s Spirit Origin ? It shouldn’t have been possible. 

Yes,” Irisviel said, stepping out of Spirit Form when it became clear that Gudao couldn’t follow through with the report, “and it’s affecting his Spirit Origin. I can’t be confident… but it felt like his Spirit Origin was wobbling between a Caster’s and an Alter Ego’s. I believe it will settle with some time, though I am not sure what Class he will settle in.”

“I don’t fully understand it,” Gudao admitted, “Alter Egos are supposed to be multiple dieties in one body, not this.”

Kage wanted to shout at how calm he sounded. He strangled the urge down. Now wasn’t the fucking time.

“They are,” Sherlock agreed. His fingers moved to steeple, then stopped, as if he suddenly remembered he didn’t have a second arm. He set down his hand with a sigh. “That is, I believe, why his Spirit Origin is oscillating. Huginn and Munnin were Odin’s ravens - they carry some of his Divinity, making that one god and two phantasmals . In that Scandinavia, though, they were also Skadi’s. She might not have laid full claim to them, but her use of them might have attached her mana signature to them as well. But I believe, that given time, his Spirit Origin will settle back into a Caster Class .”

Thank you, Sherlock,” Gudao said, before turning back to Irisviel. “Can you cover his mental health?”

“Yes.” Irisviel said. She tucked her hair behind her ear, then sighed heavily. “I’m no expert. Best I can tell, he’s doing remarkably well considering everything he’s been through. But he’s … quiet. Thinks a bit too much, smiles a bit too less. That - doesn’t mean anything at this point, honestly, with everything going on in his Spirit Core, really, so I think … his mental health will have to be reevaluated later.”

“I’ll make a note of it,” Gudao said, and then turned to Sherlock, his eyes narrowed, arms crossing over his chest.

Kage knew that signal. They were done talking about CasCu. He didn’t fucking want them to be done talking about CasCu. Everything Irisviel had just said was swirling through Kage’s brain in a sick, nauseating soup. CasCu’s Spirit Origin was changing. He’d fucking absorbed, somehow, two Phantasmal Beasts and possibly a bit of the Gods those fuckers had to belong too. Irisviel had noted something was wrong with him mentally as well, but she thought it would settle down soon. The mental check had to be done at another time because there was too much shit going down right now -

Kage’s teeth were grinding in the back of his skull, a low noise that made his ears ring painfully. He curled his fingers into fists, felt the bite of his nails against his palms, even through the fabric of his gloves. The pain centered him, a bit. Had him breathing a little less hard, and a little less heavy. Made the angry surge of his curse a little bit easier to deal with. And when his anger was under control, he let out a sharp breath between his teeth, and ran his hands through his hair. 

“I’m sorry, Kage,” Irisviel said. Her voice was a bit softer, a bit more gentle, the mental equivalent of a hand on his shoulder. “I wish I had better news for you.”

“You’re fine,” he rasped out, because taking his anger out on Irisviel was fucking unacceptable. “I just wish - that this was all fucking over, you know? I’m tired of shit happening to us. He doesn’t fucking deserve this.”

“I know.” 

Kage swallowed a knot of emotion in his throat, then let his hands drop. He could just barely see them, in Spirit Form - he probably saw them a hell of a lot better than many others saw their own hands, like this - but the web of red marks across the fingers of his left hand was easier to spot then every other detail. The blunt nails. The scared and nicked skin. He ached for CasCu, to slot his hands into the artifact’s, and hold on until they both were better.

“If it’s any consolation,” Irisviel said, her voice very quiet, “I think we’re closer to that infamous Wandering Sea than before - perhaps there, we will have the equipment and time to fully make sure he’s alright.”

“I hope so,” Kage said, his voice too quiet. Gods, he really, fucking hoped so. A safe spot that wasn’t a fucking, cramped vehicle rolling across a wasteland was something they all needed, at this point. But selfishly, Kage hoped they could find that Wandering Sea so he could grab CasCu’s shoulders, interrogate him properly, and then drag his fucking bastard into a long, long hug. 

Chapter 16: Chapter 16

Summary:

The Wandering Sea's digs are Not plush man. 0 out of 10 stars.

Notes:

Hey everyone! Thank you so much for your comments and kudos! I hope you enjoy this chapter, and have a wonderful day!!

Chapter Text

The Shadow Border made good time as it drove its way across the bleached earth and towards the North Sea. The couple of days it might have taken passed in a blur for Kage. It could only be split up into different periods. There were the periods of waiting, when he normally hung around Nobunaga or Salter, and there were the periods of time in which he reached out to CasCu and tried to get a response. Each time, he was rebuffed. 

CasCu’s head was hurting. He couldn’t stand to hear another voice in his head. He wouldn’t be good company. The excuses went on and on.

Perhaps they would have been more believable, if Kage wasn’t fully fucking aware that he and CasCu were capable of sharing a same space without talking or fighting. They’d done it multiple times before. Sitting with CasCu in comfortable silence was one of Kage’s favorite places to be - besides the kitchens. And after everything, Kage would have thought that CasCu would have welcomed his presence.

Irisviel was of a different mind. “He needs time,” she’d told Kage, on more than one occasion, “his head is no longer alone. Even if it feels like just two people to you, it will feel like more to him. Him needing time to readjust to his own mind is normal for this situation.”

Kage had retorted, a bit too acidic, if anything about this situation was normal, which had earned him one of Irisviel’s soft - but sharp - reply that it wasn’t, but that just meant he should respect CasCu’s wishes all the more. CasCu, afterall, would know what he needed to deal more than anyone else.

It itched painfully at Kage - but he could never stay mad at Irisviel for long. And she was probably right about CasCu needing time. Probably. The other Cus seemed to think so - apparently they too had reached out, and been rebuffed. Somehow, they hadn’t been concerned. It made Kage want to rip his hair out.

He would have asked Alter about it - except no one had heard from Alter after he’d been released from Nightingale. That wasn’t odd. Apparently he did that after strenuous campaigns - retreated into Spirit Form to fight the remnants of whatever lingering curses had flared up. In Chaldea, the Cus would have forced him out and helped him out with it. Here, they had no choice but to wait, so Kage got no input from Alter about CasCu’s behavior.

And it wasn’t bad enough that he was going to ask Edge about it.

Yet.

Things changed on their third day traversing the bleached earth. At least, Kage thought it was the third day. It was hard to tell - and quite fucking frankly, it didn’t matter either. What mattered was the alarm that ripped through the Shadow Border, the loud klaxon signaling their impending demise. Kage jerked out of whatever fugue he was in, and bolted towards the Bridge. 

Halfway there, the Shadow Border lurched.

Kage remembered how it had felt when the Shadow Border had been shot by that fox woman’s bazooka. This was completely different. It felt like something had dropped the Shadow Border into a lake. The floor went out from beneath his feet. He banged hard against the roof - and god , at another time Kage would have liked to know what material it had been made out of, to keep Servants in Spirit Form trapped - and fell once more to the ground. He lay there, groaning softly, head spinning.

“Attention all staff,” Gran Cavallo sang from the speakers, “It seems like the Shadow Border has driven straight into the North Sea without realizing it. We are doing all we can to return to the coast. Please remain calm, we’ve got this situation well in hand~”

On instinct, Kage reached out for CasCu’s mind. “Didn’t fucking feel like it was in hand. Did you see what happened, artifact?”

For a moment, a stupid, horrible moment, Kage thought CasCu wouldn’t respond. He thought that CasCu would stay silent, keep up the distance he’d been working to uphold. But then his mind brushed against Kage’s, and Kage swallowed the urge to swear in relief.

“The Shadow Border was driving towards the North Sea, before we fell in,” CasCu said. “We won’t be able to enter Zero Sail if we remain in the water, so our only hope is to find the coastline.” For all the dire situation, CasCu sounded remarkably calm, even, like the whole thing was under his control.

It made Kage itch. He scowled, got up, and started his way towards the bridge again. “And how the fuck can a Sea just appear without us recognizing it beforehand ? The Shadow Border isn’t fucking blind. Gran Cavallo and the people on the monitors would have noticed if we were fucking driving into a massive pile of water.”

“Well, obviously, this isn’t the North Sea.”

Kage paused. “What?”

CasCu spoke slowly, as if explaining a particularly confusing concept to a child. “Obviously, this cannot be the North Sea. If it was, we wouldn’t have driven right into it. So instead, we must have driven into the Wandering Sea instead. The Wandering Sea has no end and no beginning - it’s place is not a fixed location. We were just guided to drive into it right as it appeared.”

“Guided?!” Kage thought, for a second, of the message the Bridge had received. The Atlas Institute. It had fucking sent them here. “Are they trying to fucking drown us?”

“You’re quick to jump to conclusions,” CasCu noted, as if it wasn’t a well known fact. “They’ll let us in - I suspect they had no other way to reach us and bring us in. Now, be patient. All will be revealed in due time.” 

Then CasCu cut the connection, sharp and swift, and Kage was left swimming in the remnants of the conversation. It all jumbled together in one big mess. The Wandering Sea. CasCu’s patronizing tone. The Atlas Institute. How CasCu had acted, so blandly, like he didn’t recognize some of Kage’s normal reactions to events. The lack of hellion , or any of CasCu’s normal nicknames, in response to artifact.

Kage felt a bit sick.

He did not continue rushing towards the Bridge. Instead, he found a nice wall, and leaned against it. Slowly, he sank down to sit on the floor. He pressed his forehead against his knees, and breathed in slowly. His head wouldn’t stop swimming. That had been the longest conversation he and CasCu had since Kage had woken up and gods he - he wanted to call him again. He wanted to talk properly. 

He wanted to ask CasCu if he was alright, and get a proper fucking answer that wasn’t an excuse or a lie.

The alarms cut off. Gran Cavallo’s voice filtered once more through the halls. “False alarm, everyone! The Shadow Border is no longer sinking. In fact, we have reached the Wandering Sea, and are about to be taken in by the Atlas Institute! If all personnel would find seats and buckle up as we dock, that would be much appreciated~”

The speakers cut off with their customary crackle. Beneath Kage, the whole Shadow Border rocked as something grabbed onto it. Kage blinked hard, then reached out, “Hey CasCu, do you have a moment to talk?”

“Another time,” CasCu said, and then the connection cut off so quickly that Kage didn’t have a chance to reply.

But CasCu’s brisk response still lingered in his mind. Something hardened in Kage’s chest. CasCu would have never given a two word answer to a question like that. Especially when Kage used ‘CasCu’ instead of something else. There were things going on with CasCu, and Kage didn’t think that it was just the fucked up Spirit Origin . It felt like more.

And by god, Kage was going to find out what it was.

 

The inside of the Atlas Institute was the dream of a science fiction madman. There were so many pipes , beeping lights, arching ceilings, and copper plating that Kage wondered if Babbage had been Summoned here in a previous incarnation. From what Kage knew of the Father of Steam, this steampunk chamber, with its exit hatch and entrance to the Wandering Sea, would be right up his ally. 

The woman who was waiting for them did not fit the steampunk theme. Her suit was more modern - a purple vest with a caplet and gold trimming, a poofy white shirt with a green tie, a pleated white skirt. Her hat was dark, with green and gold piping; a tassel hanging from its top at a rakish angle. Her hair was drawn up in two big, purple ponytails. To cap it all off, her glasses were perfectly modern and sensible. She adjusted them as she grinned, and spoke, “I’m Sion Eltnam Sokaris. It’s nice to meet you, Master of Chaldea.”

Gudao stood there, Mash by his side. Kage almost winced. The two looked almost odd, their uniforms wrinkled and patched, compared to the pristine cleanliness Sion carried. They were also alone. Gordolf had demanded all staff remained inside, and Sherlock was unable to accompany them thanks to his wounds. Which meant that all of Gudao’s Servants had to follow in Spirit Form. It was such a thick congregation that Kage wouldn’t be fucking surprised if Sion had noticed it.

But Gudao took it in stride. He held out a hand, gave her a tight smile. “It’s nice to meet you too, Sion . Are you the one who sent out that message to us?”

“I sure am!” Sion said, giving his hand a firm shake, before pulling hers back. “I’m the alchemist the Atlas Institute positioned here to contact you. Oh, and I also made Trismegistus and the Paper Moon, so, I’m also here to collect all damages you owe me for copyright infringement!” She laughed, a hearty sound full of amusement.

Mash blinked, shocked. “What?” 

Gudao’s hand hung limp in the air. “You can’t be serious -”

“I sure am!” Sion ’s laughter faded out. She adjusted her glasses again. “You owe me a total of seven hundred and ninety million dollars. So you guys are totally boned! Whatever human rights you thought you had are gone. Do you know what this means, Gudao?” At the shake of his head, she continued. beaming, “It means I own you! Lock, stock, and barrel, baby!”

Mash took a step back. “But -”

“But nothing,” Sion said. She pulled out a sheath of papers from beneath her caplet . “Mind just signing this contract for me? It reads: I hereby confess to using Ms. Sion's intellectual property without express permission. I also absolutely saw the end of humanity and everything after that. Therefore, until repayment of said aforementioned unpayable debt, I, Fujimaru, do hereby offer up the following … my body, my soul, and each and every one of my worldly possessions, past present and future, throughout the universe, to Sion.” She shoved the papers into Gudao’s hands, and began to point at different areas. “Mind just signing here, here, here, here, and here? Initial there, too. Say, mind being modded? Are you into mecha? Bioengineering? A mixture of both? Aw, what the heck! We can just throw them all in!”

Gudao took a hasty step back, papers in tow, before Sion could thrust a pen into his fingers too. Mash had scrambled to get between them, though she looked totally lost on what to do. The comm link on Gudao’s arm was beeping widely - the director trying to get a word in edgewise no doubt.

Kage found himself almost relaxing. Sion ’s spiel had been rapid pace, but Kage had seen legal documents before. He might not have had the head for them - but he knew they tended to be more in depth and in detail than the one Sion had just waved around, especially when they came from Mages. He also knew the look in that woman’s eyes - it was the same sort of look Nobunaga had when she’d decided to pull a particularly ridiculous prank.

And Gudao knew it too.

“This isn’t a legally binding document,” he said, his voice dry. He held the papers back out to her, and didn’t reach for the pen. “Is this the greeting the Atlas Institute normally gives their guests? No wonder so many people stay away.”

Sion burst into cheerful laughter. She plucked the papers from his hands, and tucked them and the pen away. “Caught,” she says cheerfully. “I’ve been wanting to do that for a while now, since you guys have made me wait for so long. Thought it would be a great way to break the ice, and it worked, didn’t it?”

Mash looked a bit shell shocked. “I suppose it did …”

“Of course it did,” Sion said, setting her hand on her hips. “Now, properly this time - Welcome to the Wandering Sea, Chaldeans. I have a good idea of whom you guys are, and though I haven’t seen the outside world myself, I do know the general idea of what’s happened to Chaldea. Who's the one in charge currently? As important as you are, Gudao, I need to talk to an authority figure of some sort.”

The comm-link on Gudao’s wrist gave an eager beep, as if attempting to get their attention. Gudao ignored it. He seemed a bit frozen, hesitant. “Da Vinci was running Chaldea before everything happened,” he said, slowly, “you mean you don’t know -”

“I don’t,” Sion said, when he petered out. “I suppose my information must have a couple gaps here and there. I’ll have to get those ironed out. Information has little use if it’s completely full of holes!” 

“That makes sense,” Mash said, nodding softly. “Our current acting director was sent to us from the Mage’s Association. His name is -”

The hatches of the Shadow Border opened with a protesting screech. Gordolf rushed out, face flushed, hair slicked back and glistening, as if he had hastened to fix it back into place. The man who had panicked his way through every Lostbelt was gone - the smarm had been turned up tenfold. Behind him, Sherlock tottered out, leaning heavily on his cane, a small, amused smile on his lips.

“I,” Gordolf said, puffing his chest up imperiously as he walked forwards, “am Chaldea’s new director, Gordolf Musik!”

Sion blinked. Her eyebrow rose. “Oh?”

Gordolf preened at her attention, and Kage rolled his eyes so hard they hurt even in the confines of Spirit Form.

“I know that crest,” Gordolf said, “and I know that uniform. I see that you are indeed a mage of the Atlas Institute! Therefore, it should be easy for you to deduce the struggles my Chaldea has gone through since the destruction of our home base. But as you can see, we are alive, and kicking! No matter how poor the road conditions, or how dire the weather, or how far behind we may be, we will not retire before the race is over!” 

He seemed inordinately pleased with himself at the words, preening. Sherlock held a tight, secret smile across his lips. Gudao and Mash were obviously restraining a bit of laughter, though there was a shadow in their eyes, the renewed loss of all that were dead. 

Kage swallowed around the words he wanted to say, and glanced around the room again. He itched to leave and find a place to talk to CasCu properly. He didn’t dare. The Atlas Institute - this Sion - might have brought them here, but there were probably stipulations, shit that had to be said beforehand . Kage wasn’t going to fuck over Gudao’s chance to know what was going on. He could interrogate CasCu after they got the go ahead.

“Well, that’s good to hear,” Sion said, chipper, “Though honestly I’m not surprised you’re not dead.”

There was a moment of silence. Sherlock leaned a bit forwards on his cane. “Really now?” he asked, in the tone of mild curiosity.

Sion nodded. “Your odds were not great, but they weren’t zero either. I figured you guys would make it out of there, as long as you had a solid plan behind you. Not that much of a surprise, really. But the Servant beside you-” and here her eyes pinned onto Sherlock, “he’s the one who surprised me. I don’t think I’ve seen him in our records. Tell me, what is your name?”

 “Forgive me,” Sherlock said, his smile tight, eyes half closed. “I am Sherlock Holmes, a Ruler. As you are the great successor to the Atlas Institute, I trust that is all the introduction you require.”

Sion blinked. “Wait, you already know who I am?” 

“Sherlock,” and here Gudao’s voice was very dry, “has managed to get his hands on Atlas Institute records before. He’s touched Tri-Hermes … probably has the most knowledge of the Atlas Institute of anyone here - beyond yourself, of course.”

“Huh,” Sion said. She blinked, then shook herself. “If you managed to touch Tri-Hermes without going mad, then you must be the pinnacle of intelligent Servants! I can see you and I will get along quite well.”

Sherlock replied, something low and amused. Kage tuned the words out, his head jerking up. He felt, sudden, the flare of a Heroic Spirit, a presence that made itself known. Mash stiffened. Gudao glanced over, just as a man stepped from thin air, arms behind his back, startling blue eyes appraising them. 

“How much time are you going to waste talking, Sion ?” He asked, accent hard to pin down, “you wanted me to give this ship a tune up, right? Hurry up and get the crew off of it.” 

Gordolf sputtered. Sherlock raised an eyebrow. Mash stared, with bright wide eyes. Gudako took in the Servant for a couple seconds - the height, the broad shoulders, the dark skin, the black hair that faded to pale blue at the edges of his curls, the white turban and the nearly European design of his uniform - then held out his hand. “Hello,” he said, “My names Gudao. It’s nice to meet you!”

The man stared at him, but did not answer. His gaze drifted to the Shadow Border. One dark eyebrow twitched.

“So the Wandering Sea is capable of summoning Servants?” Sherlock asked, his voice smooth, fluted in question.

Sion grinned. “Yeup! I snuck a peek at Chaldea's system, came up with my own take on it, and somehow managed to summon Captain here! I needed someone who could watch my back and also make sure I would not break it. I mean, I could draw up blueprints all day on my own, but what good is that if nobody actually builds any of it, right?” She winked at that, so obviously pleased by her own deductions.

Mash blinked, stunned. “I'm still amazed that you managed to summon a Heroic Spirit somewhere besides Chaldea…”

“Well, I am pretty awesome,” Sion preened.

Gudao sucked in a harsh breath. He looked at her, quick. “Does that mean we will be able to perform Summons here?”

“The system might need a little bit of tweaking,” Sion admitted, “but otherwise, yes! You should be able too.”

Gudao sucked in another breath. His hand floundered for Mash’s, held it tight. It didn’t take a genius to know what he was thinking. Kage thought about all the fucking Servants that had been lost since the attack on Chaldea. The ones that died defending the base , so the staff could escape. The ones that had died when Surtr’s death rune had struck Gudao. This was a way to bring all of them back. 

A part of Kage thought that it would be better if Gudao left all those Heroic Spirits in their peaceful death. He shoved that part aside, and forced himself to focus on the relief obviously written across Gudao’s face. That was the important thing here.

“Thank you,” Gudao said.

“It doesn’t matter,” Captain - Sion ’s Servant - said. He strode past them, towards the Shadow Border. “ Sion , get everyone off this ship. It’s so painful, I can barely look at it, like watching coral reefs die. I can hear it crying in pain. If I don’t fix it, I’ll go insane. Get everyone off of it now, before I summon the others.”

Sion blinked, before laughing. “Well, you heard the Captain! He gets like this when he sees a ship almost beyond repair. Now, Director Gordolf, your people are welcome here. We have rooms, equipment, a mess hall, and a control center, and a Summoning chamber. The Atlas Institute has a lovely structure, which means it’s always as big as is needed. You should have space for everyone and your Servants!”

Gudao sagged against Mash. He gave Sion a small grin. “That’s wonderful to hear,” he said, “it’s been painful, telling them all to keep in Spirit Origin.”

“That won’t be necessary here!” Sion laughed. “Now come on - once we’ve got everyone situated, I’ll show you all the Command Center. I’m quite certain you’ll practically fall over from envy!”

 

Kage knew he should probably follow after Gudao, Mash, Gordolf, Sherlock, and the small computer that hosted Gran Cavallo while Captain fixed up the Shadow Border, to the Command Center. At this point, he could barely fucking care. He materialized inside the room he was planning to claim for CasCu and himself. 

It was so fucking different from their past home that it fucking hurt.

The theme was all steampunk and uncomfortable brutality so bad it put Chaldea’s rooms to shame. There was no wooden cabinets or bookshelves, no kitchenette or plants, or slightly larger bed to fit two. Hell, the room was barely big enough to fit two. Kage wondered if the rooms would change - Sion had implied that the number of rooms would at least change - and swallowed hard. It wasn’t the fucking same.

But it was a room. A place where he could grip on tight to CasCu and see if his old man was truly okay.

“Hey, artifact,” he sent out, “I’ve gotten a room for us. Come over when you have the chance, alright?”

There was a pause, quiet and too long, before CasCu spoke. “I’m with Gudao in the new Command Center. It might take a while. This Sion is quite a talker, and there is much about this new base for her to explain.”

Kage swore up a storm. He dug his fingers into his hair, and resisted the urge to yank out the strands. “Fuck Sion ! I haven’t been able to talk to you since shit went down. I haven’t seen you properly since Chaldea was destroyed! I miss you, old goat. I need to fucking know that you’re alright, otherwise I am fucking pushing you off this goddamned building!” 

The words ended in a shriek. Kage winced at the violence and anger that beaded beneath them, barely masked by the not-quite-a joke. If it had been CasCu - normal CasCu - there would have been a laugh, soft. Maybe a quiet reprimand. He would have come though, and swiftly, to Kage’s side. 

If it was normal CasCu, they wouldn’t even be having this fucking conversation.

Finally, CasCu spoke again. “I will be there as soon as we are done there.”

The strength went out from Kage’s legs. He sagged onto the bed, and pressed his face against his hands. “Alright,” he rasped out. “I’ll see you soon.” 

“You as well.”

The connection was cut. Kage sat there, struggling in the tangled knot of his own brain and emotions, before he reached out for another. “Nobbu. There is something wrong with CasCu. And it’s not the fucking shock.”

The best thing about having Nobunaga as a friend was that, when it mattered, she was quick and serious. Kage had barely finished speaking before she appeared in his room. Nobunaga’s manifestations could be fancy - this time she appeared in a wash of flame, her cloak spreading out behind her, her eyes bright beneath the fringe of her bangs. “You called?”

“Shit,” Kage breathed, and the relief of actually hearing someone warred with the fear tight in his throat. 

Some of the struggle must have shown on his face, because Nobunaga surged forwards. She bounced onto the bed beside him. Her cloak fluttered as she set it over his shoulders. One hand patted his shoulder and arm consolatory . “Couple troubles, hai?” She asked, voice almost a tease, though her eyes were searching. “Well, you’ve come to the best person! I happen to be an expert in these things.”

“I should punch you,” Kage rasped out, then gave in and pressed his face against her shoulder. “There’s something wrong with CasCu,” he mumbled, “he’s not fucking acting right. He should have stabilized by now, right? He should be back to fucking normal - but gods, Nobbu, he’s treating me like a fucking stranger.”

“Well that’s not wabi sabi,” Nobunaga said, wrapping her arms around him. “It’s hard to imagine CasCu treating you like that.”

Kage nodded mutely. He pressed his face more against her shoulder, and wrapped his arms around her. Nobunaga might have been ridiculously small, but she was stable, and she was warm. Ridiculously, that warmth made him want to cry. He missed CasCu’s warmth keenly, like a fucking lung. 

Not going to say that it can’t be helped?” Kage mumbled, after a moment of soaking in Nobunaga’s touch.

Nobunaga’s squeaky voice was too loud in his ear, but comforting in the way it grated. “That’s because it can be helped! Whatever is bothering CasCu, we can figure it out. And whatever it is, we’ll fix it, and then your boyfriend will be wabi sabi again! All it will take is a bit of stubbornness, patience, ingenuity, and the willingness to blaze our path into victory!” She laughed at that, the high, maniacal laughter that was so characteristic of her.

Kage didn’t know if he wanted to shake her, or smile. He settled on squeezing her until she squeaked. 

She patted his back, wheezing. “We’ll make it wabi sabi again, I promise you. And when have I ever lied?”

“Every day of your life,” Kage muttered, but he was smiling as he pulled back. “If - if there’s something wrong with him, and he doesn’t go back to normal, you’ll help me figure out what it is, right?” 

“I will,” Nobunaga assured. She beamed at him beneath the brim of his hat. “And then? We’ll burn it out of him. It will be glorious!”

She said the words in the way she did far too many others, which included ‘fire’, ‘explosions’, ‘murder’, ‘mayhem’, ‘world domination’, and ‘pranks.’ Kage knew that tone far too well. In most instances, he would reign back Nobunaga’s more destructive tendencies. Right now? He didn’t give a shit. Nobunaga could go as ham as she wanted, as long as Kage had his CasCu back by the end of it.

Kage’s mind was spinning. He nodded, once. “I’ll try to pry the information out of him when he comes here to talk. And if that doesn’t work, I’ll go find Alter and corner him. Talk to the other Cus, maybe Scáthach … definitely Mash and Gudako. Possibly I can get them to look at his Spirit Origin properly. This place has to have the fucking equipment for that.”

“Wabi Sabi!” Nobunaga crowed. She struck his shoulder with a small fist, encouraging. “A plan of attack!”

It was a plan of attack. But there was just one last thing left to get wrinkled out. Kage’s fingers flexed. He buried them into the fabric of his pants. “If - If CasCu decides he’s not going to stay the night, here with me, then I don’t want to be alone. Do you mind if I crash with you?”

Nobunaga froze. Her mouth hung slightly open, her eyes wide in something that might have been panic. 

Kage groaned. He knew that face. “You were planning on spending the night with Okita, weren’t you?”

“That has yet to be decided!” Nobunaga blustered, though her eyes were sharp and bright. “But if we do - it can’t be helped! And I don’t think you’d want to be around while … she chewed me out about being struck by that icy goddess!” She said the words glibly, but Kage knew there would be a lot more going on then a ‘chewing out’.

“I’d rather not,” he said, his voice bland, before he considered his other options. Salter would probably spend the night with Jalter … she might let him spend the night, but Kage had no inclination to know how Jalter would react to that invitation. Nobukatsu was an idea - but he wouldn’t stop fretting about Nobunaga being with Okita. Mori was … a problem that Kage didn’t want to full consider. The rest of the prank crew he wasn’t as close to, and he certainly wasn’t going to consider them safe enough to share space with.

That left him with one back up: the kitchens. Which was fine. He bet Gudao and Mash could use a meal in the morning, and he might as fucking well see what the kitchens of this place were packing, what supplies they were working with.

Nobunaga had pulled a bit away from him. She was considering him for a long moment, her eyes narrowed. “Are you sure? Lying’s not wabi sabi.” 

“You lie all the time,” Kage retorted, relaxing at that checkup.

She huffed at him, chest puffing out. “Your lies aren’t wabi sabi! Well?”

“I’ll be alright,” Kage said, and let out a sharp breath. “Figured out a plan at least. But … thanks, Nobbu. It’s appreciated.” As always, voicing his thanks made him squirm. But for this - listening to him, plotting with him - he’d give it as many times as she wanted.

But Nobunaga drunk in this one thanks like it was water, puffing up her chest and beaming with all her sharp teeth, a feral look in her eyes. “Of course!” She sang, “Whatever helps my best buddy out! Now, let’s figure out what’s going on with that old man, hai?” 

Kage let out a breath, then straightened. Something cold and hard and determined solidified in his chest. “Hai, lets.”

 

Nobunaga did her best to stick around. In the end, Kage had to shoo her away, which left him alone with his thoughts, and his fears. His fingers curled into the ridges of the bed. He sucked in a hard breath, and let it out slowly. Nobunaga’s presence was loud, brash, annoying - but reassuring. She made so much noise that it was hard to think of anything else. But now, alone, the fear that CasCu was too far out of reach tried to circle his heart.

Kage beat it back with a stick. He spent every day wrestling with the Grail’s fucking curse. He wasn’t going to let this stupid worry beat him. 

It meant that, when the door finally opened, and CasCu stepped inside, Kage didn’t flinch back. He just stared at his old man as the door swung softly shut behind him.

The differences were so obvious they hurt. Kage’s gaze lingered on the eye patch , the mantle of raven’s feathers, the dark, and silver clothes, the flecks of gold in his remaining one eye. The posture, stiff and waiting, like a warrior searching for an opening to strike. His hair gleamed almost white under the lights.

Kage licked his lips. “You can’t argue against your silver hairs now,” he noted, and hoped against hope that the protest would come.

CasCu’s voice was too smooth for protest, though the words suggested something like. “A side effect of taking in Huginn and Muninn’s power, nothing more.”

It was like something had drained the vitality - the life - from CasCu’s voice. The words were similar to what CasCu might have said, but the way he said them was completely wrong. It gave Kage the feeling of something watching from afar, unfeeling and uncaring.

Kage’s fingers flexed in the fabric of his pants. He soothed them out, scoffed. “Of course it is. How are you feeling? Damned Spirit Origin stable again?”

“As stable as it will ever be,” CasCu said smoothly. He made no move to sit, just stood in the middle of the room. The light flickered off his eye patch . It was a new one, trimmed in silver to match his clothes. Worked upon the leather were two stylized ravens. Kage had no fucking clue where he’d gotten it from.

“That’s fucking good to hear,” Kage said. He let out a sharp, slow breath. “You had us all worried there, artifact.”

“I know,” CasCu said, and then, “We will have time to talk fully about my transformation at leisure later. But for now, I believe that it would be better to focus on this place. It is quite different from Chaldea, and there are a few things of note that I feel would be important for you to know.”

Kage stayed quiet for a moment. The change of subject was obvious. He also didn’t believe CasCu when he said there would be time to talk later. But - he wasn’t going to push. Not yet, not right now. He could lead up to this slowly. So he nodded, and said, “Alright.”

CasCu turned away from Kage. His fingers ran along the metal walls, skipping over bolts and rivets where sheets of metal had been connected. His voice took on an odd tone. Like he was recounting from a notebook full of fond memories. “Like Chaldea, this place has a Command Center of immense power. Within it is the Spiritron Calculation Engine Trismegistus II. A mouthful of a name, but an important thing: in essence, it is a computer that can look at the future, calculate the likelihood of certain outcomes, and provide hints for a desired outcome to take effect. A thing like that could even work around prophesy, if it was used in the correct way, by the proper people.” 

He sounded downright wistful at that, longing. The tone was all wrong for CasCu. The hairs on the back of Kage’s neck stood up, and he shuddered, scowling. “Fucking powerful gizmo. What else was there?”

CasCu sent him a sharp look, almost disproving, before he continued moving. “The Wandering Sea itself is like a Singularity. That protects it from the influences that affects the world - that’s why it survived Goetia’s destruction of humanity, and how it survived the bleaching of the earth. This ability means we should also be able to use it to get from Lostbelt to Lostbelt with minimal trouble, though the Shadow Border will have to be out go between. Sion secured the Wandering Sea because she was able to predict this end of the world.”

“Great,” Kage muttered. 

Another look, sharp. “From there, she has been getting ready for our arrival. Creating a Summoning chamber, Summoning her own Servant, constructing a base of operations. This place is more powerful then Chaldea ever was, since it is connected to a Magecraft that dates back to the Age of Gods. That is why it is so accommodating of us, and how it can travel the way it does. But now that we are here, part of that power is being directed towards making us comfortable, and another part is being directed to fixing the Shadow Border.”

CasCu still spoke wistfully about that power, with a hunger Kage had never heard from him before. He resisted the urge to shudder, and scowled instead at the floor. “ Well , glad to know they’re on our side.” 

“They are,” CasCu agreed. He pulled his fingers from the wall, considering their nails for a second. “And also, Sion has offered to help construct Gran Cavallo a proper body while we get back onto our feet.”

Kage’s head jerked up. “What?!”

“I believe it was always Da Vinci’s intention to give Gran Cavallo a body,” CasCu continued, smoothly, “but she simply didn’t have the time. Gran Cavallo even has the blueprints for one stored within her database. She sounded quite delighted about the prospect, and Sion seemed eager for the challenge. I do believe some other inventor Servants will be helping out as well.”

Kage was flabbergasted. CasCu said the words so smoothly, like it was nothing but an afterthought. LikeGran Cavallo getting a body, Da Vinci’s last project being completed, wasn’t a huge deal. Kage could barely imagine how Gudao and Mash must be feeling right now. Hell, CasCu should have been delighted. He should have been smiling. But the expression on his face was downright bored.

It made Kage feel a bit sick.

“Why wasn’t that the first thing you said?” He asked, his voice a bit tight.

CasCu raised an eyebrow. “I didn’t think it was pertinent.” 

“Didn’t think it was -” Kage sputtered, rage rising in a way it hadn’t in a long time. He surged towards his feet and towards CasCu, his fingers digging into the fabric of his cloak. Somehow, even that fabric felt wrong. “How the fuck is it not pertinent ?! Did you get hit in the head old man? Get a concussion sometime during the damn fight? Or did your Spirit Origin get screwed in backwards after your birds ripped out your eye!” 

For a second - a split second, CasCu’s eyes widened. He saw something that might have been pain on CasCu’s face. The words Kage had spat out registered in his mind, and he swore, nearly flinching back and pulling away, apologizing - then CasCu spoke. His face and voice were calm again. “Perhaps they did. I will admit, many of my memories of Chaldea … are slightly muffled. It does alter my judgment.”

Alter his judgment. A part of Kage wanted to laugh hysterically. A bigger part of him wanted to cry. He swallowed the urge to apologize down, and loosened his grip in CasCu’s cloak. “CasCu - artifact - fuck, you’ve got to be honest with me. Are you alright? Don’t fucking lie, don’t wave this away, don’t fucking try to distract me with information again. It won’t work. Are you fucking alright?”

CasCu paused, brief, before his hand reached up. It covered Kage’s own, and it - was still warm. CasCu was still warm, and somehow, that made the urge to cry all the stronger. “I’m as alright as I will be,” he said, quiet. “When I fused with Huginn and Muninn, their memories were absorbed into my own. Things had to be pushed out for that to happen. Much of my memories of Chaldea are hazy, and memories of previous Summoning are almost nonexistent. It will take me some time to rebuild them.” 

Kage couldn’t formulate a reply; a choking noise sounded in the back of his throat, tight, because, because - if CasCu’s memories of past Summons were non-existent, he wouldn’t remember the Singularity they had been stuck in together. If his memories of Chaldea were hazy, then he wouldn’t understand fully who they were to each other, what they were to each other and how they acted. For CasCu it must have been like talking to a vaguely familiar stranger who kept on prying into his wellbeing.

Horribly, it made sense. It explained fucking everything. The change in appearance. The change in demeanor. CasCu’s distance. Why he stared at Kage with such a blank stare, without concern, without care. How he didn’t react with anger or hurt, didn’t use brat or hellion. How he spoke of things differently then he had in the past …

But at the same time - it fucking didn’t explain shit. Edge was riddled with more memory problems than CasCu could ever hope to have. And Kage didn’t spend much time with Edge - hell, he went out of the way to avoid it - but he knew something: despite Edge’s memory problems, he still managed to be the same person day to day. He still managed to care, even about the people he didn’t remember. Wasn’t his relationship with Alter fucking proof of that? So how could CasCu be so different?

He couldn’t. It was something that Kage grabbed onto with both hands. CasCu couldn’t be so different. Otherwise, everything they’d been, everything they were, was lost. And Kage wasn’t loosing shit.

He wanted to call out CasCu’s bullshit. He wanted to press, push that it wasn’t, try to dig in and figure out the truth - but he couldn’t, not right now. As much as Kage wanted to rush … rushing would only force CasCu to pull back. To dig deeper into the lie. 

As much as Kage hated it, he would have to wait, to be fucking patient. Which meant letting CasCu’s lie pass for now, and then taking all the clues given to him as CasCu’s guard dropped while he could. That’s what he should do. That’s what he had to do. It was the only thing he could do to figure out the truth of this matter.

So Kage swallowed his frustration, his fear, and balled up his shaking hands. “Alright,” he rasped out, even though it was anything but. “Alright. I’m sorry for pushing so much, CasCu. Is there anything I can do for you?”

There was something in CasCu’s eye that Kage didn’t like. It looked like victory. He would have missed it if he hadn’t been paying such close attention. “Just give me some time,” CasCu said, low, “and we’ll figure it out from there.”

“Alright,” Kage said. He took a step away, even though it fucking hurt. “I’ll be checking up on you. I might not mean much to you … but you mean a fucking lot to me, and I want to do everything I can to help you out. The room is yours. It’s the least fucking objectionable to your druid senses.” A fucking lie, but it was fine. It was fine.

CasCu scanned the room, as if evaluating it. Then he looked at Kage, and gave a small smile. A smile had never looked so wrong on CasCu’s face. “I think this room will work out quite well. Thank you.”

“You’re welcome,” Kage choked out. He took a step away from CasCu, towards the side, towards the door and freedom. “I’ll see you around, old man.”

“You as well,” CasCu said, smoothly. He did not turn to watch him.

Kage bolted out of the room, faster than he meant to. His feet pounded against the floor. He took to Spirit Form three steps into the hallway, sucking in harsh breaths between his teeth, eyes burning hot against his eyelids. Blind, struggling to breathe, he threw himself in the direction of the kitchen. At least this way no one would see him break down.

Chapter 17: Chapter 17

Summary:

Kage is doing his best Sherlock Holmes impression. He doesn't have the patience for this.

Notes:

Thank you all for your comments and kudos! I hope you all enjoy, and have a wonderful day!

Chapter Text

If there was something Kage was good at, it was bouncing back from pain.

Not that many people would call it that. Most people would call it ‘shattering into a million bits and then cutting the people who tried to pick him up’. CasCu had used those exact words once, after particular bad argument after a bought of the fucking curse. But no matter what it was called it, Kage was stubborn, and he wasn’t the type of person who let himself break and remain broken. He pushed forwards, one stubborn step at a time.

And his first step right now was to figure out what the fuck was up with CasCu’s head, and when exactly it had fucking started.

Kage thought about it, as he cooked, moving from one step to the next with frantic haste. The kitchens of the Wandering Sea weren’t as nice as Chaldea’s - of course they weren’t, they were stupid elite mages who probably didn’t spend much time eating proper food - but they were well stocked, so he had no lack of things to cook. And that was all he fucking needed, something to keep his hands occupied while he thought.

CasCu’s story made sense. It made a painful amount of sense. But it only made that much sense if CasCu’s problems had begun with Huginn and Muninn melding into him. If they hadn’t … then there was something else going on. Then CasCu was lying to him. Then everything he’d been saying was fucking bullshit. And from there, Kage could find out the truth.

So Kage would have to go to the people CasCu had been in the Lostbelt with. Gudao wasn’t an option - not right now, he’d be too busy, and the guy required some time to process everything. Mash would be in the same boat. Kage didn’t know Tesla well enough to sit the man down and interrogate him, and he doubted Tesla had been keeping a close eye on CasCu the whole damn time.

That left Scáthach and Alter as his only options. 

Neither of them were particularly comforting thought. Kage had no clue what Scáthach would ask of him as payment for the information. Alter had only, according to Irisviel, been there for a part of the Lostbelt. He might not have all the information. That meant Scáthach would be Kage’s best bet.

He stared at what he was cooking. It was simple. An assortment of breakfast pastries. He wasn’t even sure if Scáthach liked breakfast pastries - she seemed more a meat and murder and mead type of person to him. But he could try to make her something special for breakfast, and hope that it would be enough that she would tell him about the Lostbelt with minimal trouble.
Gods, he hoped that she knew something.

By all rights, she should. She was CasCu’s teacher. She knew him and the other Cus as only a teacher could. If things had changed during the Lostbelt - before the damned birds - she would have noticed. She had to have.

Kage gripped onto that faint hope as he cooked, swearing under his breath into the quiet of the Wandering Sea. If anyone heard, if anyone noticed, they didn’t comment or stick their head inside. They might have had better things to do. Or they might have been celebrating their first night in proper form since Chaldea was destroyed. Perhaps mourning properly for the first time since that day as well. Kage wished he could count himself among them.

But right now, he had a fucking job to do.

 

Scáthach was hard to find. Somehow, that shouldn’t have been surprising. When had anything ever been fucking easy for him? But Kage persevered, and he finally found her with some other damned teachers in some far back room, talking amongst themselves. It was like a teacher cult or some shit. At another time, Kage might have said something. Right now, he just gripped the tupperware full of food in his hands, stood within the entrance of the room, scowled, and waited for someone to notice.

“Did you need something?” Asked Chiron, who was of the teachers - a group that included him, Scáthach , Sima Yi, Zhuge Liang, and Kiichi Hogen - the least terrifying of the bunch. His expression was downright gentle for god’s sake .

“Yeah,” Kage said, gruff, “I needed to talk to Scáthach for a bit.” 

One of Scáthach ’s eyebrows rose. She considered Kage, then the box within his hands. “I was not aware we had anything to discuss,” she said, and though the question there wasn’t said outright, it was certainly implied.

It felt like all of their eyes were pinning him down now. Kage shoved down his uncomfortableness, scowled harder, and shrugged. “Yeah, well, we need to fucking talk about something.”

“About what?” 

“About CasCu.”

That got her attention. Her eyes narrowed faintly, before she stood in one smooth movement. She glanced briefly at the other assembled teachers, and spoke. “This will just take a few moments. If you will give me a second?” It was obviously said just for politeness’ sake. None of them had so much as made a move to stop her. 

Kiichi, on the other hand, waved one hand and laughed her obnoxious bird laugh. “Catch up with us later, Scath!” 

Scath. Kage didn’t even want to fucking know how close Scáthach and Kiichi were if Kiichi was able to give Scáthach a fucking nickname. That wasn’t his issue. That would never be his issue. CasCu could talk about it when he was back to normal, if he had a death wish , or if it had picked at his gossiping senses. For now, Kage just scowled, and stepped to the side, giving Scáthach room to walk out and into the hallway.

“I assume,” she said, her voice cold and calm, “that you would like to talk in a place where we cannot be overheard?” 

“Damn right,” Kage said.

“Follow me then.” 

She started off. Kage didn’t argue. While he had been cooking and fighting off fucking panic attacks and stupid worry, she had probably been scouring this place from head to toe. Warriors prerogative or some shit like that. Scáthach was the type of woman who liked to know the lay of the land so she could use it to her advantage. Kage wasn’t going to argue against it when it got them somewhere CasCu couldn’t overhear.

She led him to a room close to a boiler. It was stupid hot, and the boiler was loud with the constant pinging and popping of metal. The sound of it made Kage grit his teeth. It wasn’t a happy metal sound. He wondered, briefly, if the Wandering Sea had any actual knowledge of hands on work, or if the boilers were normally fixed with magecraft. The most likely answer didn’t fill him with much confidence.

“Babbage will want to look at that,” He grunted, scowling down at his tupperware of food.

Scáthach closed the door. She wrote a rune on it, then another. Kage had learned some rune craft from CasCu, enough to recognize the letters. Perbo for secrets, thurisaz for protection, the basics of a bounded field. But unlike CasCu’s soft blue - or even the more recent gold - Scáthach ’s runes were a deep purple color, almost black. A negative space in the door, slowly dissipating into the shadows. 

“Babbage is not who you wanted to talk about,” Scáthach said, turning. She crossed her arms over her chest, and considered him. 

There was something terrible about having Scáthach ’s attention fully trained on him. It wasn’t even that it was completely uncaring - there had to be some care there, maybe, tucked into the very corners of her eyes - but it was the fact that she looked at him so frankly. Stripped away his years, his experience, his excuses and all his words, until he was nothing but a child before her, stumbling to put together a valid argument.

“It’s not,” he stammered out, before he scowled and shoved the tupperware at her. “I brought you breakfast.” 

She considered him a moment, then reached out to take the tupperware . She held it lightly between her fingers. Her expression was very bland, very blank, considering. “Speak,” she said, after a long moment. 

Kage would take that. It was better than nothing. “There’s something wrong with CasCu,” he said, the words tripping on the way out of his mouth. “And I don’t think it started with the birds. He’s got all these excuses , and it feels like he’s fucking lying to me about why he’s being weird and -”

Scáthach had held up a finger. Kage cut himself off. “It has already been explained what is happening to CasCu,” she said, “I assume you were sitting in on that conversation.”

“I was,” Kage muttered, after a pause.

“That was Irisviel’s assessment of his status. Do you not believe her?” 

The question stole the arguments from Kage’s mouth. He swallowed hard, dry. “I - it’s not that simple. It’s just… he’s lighting up every instinct. According to Irisviel’s explanation - he should still be CasCu on some level. He should be acting like CasCu. Huginn, Muninn, Odin, Skadi - they should all be secondary influences. All the other Alter Ego’s are their own persons, not their gods, aren’t they? I mean, look at fucking Illya. She had a whole bunch of Goddesses in her, but she was still Illya … so CasCu should still be CasCu.” 

Slowly, Scáthach nodded. She didn’t say anything, still evaluating him with that cold, calculating look, like she was watching him attempt to score on a test. But she kept quiet. Emboldened, Kage continued.

“But that’s not the case. The few interactions I’ve had with him since then haven’t been like interacting with CasCu at all. And he says that’s because of Huginn and Muninn - but that doesn’t make sense . Shouldn’t the godly powers be more of an influence than the damned birds? He’s not … lying, not like he normally does, but he’s not telling the truth either , and I can’t help but feel like something's wrong.”

“And what,” she asked, “do you think is wrong?”

Kage floundered for a moment. His mouth worked - but in the end, he couldn’t say shit but “I don’t know.” 

Scáthach considered that for a moment, her head tilted to the side as she considered him. When she spoke, it was slow and soft, working the words around in her mouth. “This is quite the accusation,” she said. “And you have no guess as to what you’re accusing, as well as no proof and no evidence.” 

Each word made Kage feel a little more like shit. He swallowed hard, then scowled. “Which is why I’m here, talking to you.” 

“You want me to give you proof,” she repeated, her eyebrow slowly rising.

“Hai,” Kage said. He refused to quail in front of that look. He swallowed hard again, then straightened, forcing himself to meet her gaze. “I want you to tell me how CasCu was behaving during the Lostbelt. Was he fucking acting odd ? Was there anything wrong with him. I need those details, please.”

The please he forced from his lips before he could choke on it. Please was no longer as natural to him as it once was - he was no longer that stupid boy - but someone like Scáthach demanded it. And saying please was a small price to pay for getting answers.

It seemed to work too. Scáthach ’s head tipped slightly. She considered the tupperware full of food in her hands, then spoke. “CasCu showed no problems during the Lostbelt, beyond some issues adjusting to the land and the culture. That was understandable. The living conditions were not something any of us liked. It hit him harder than most.” 

She said each word slowly, as if she had to think about them. Her gaze wasn’t fully focused on Kage. Her eyes stared at the wall, or perhaps something distant and far away. Perhaps the damned Lostbelt itself. Something in Kage’s stomach swooped and plummeted.

“But beyond that shit?” he asked, pressing, “was there anything wrong with him? How he acted? Did anything happen to him that caused him to stop acting like himself - before the damned birds.”

Scáthach ’s eyes refocused. She looked at him, frank. “No.” 

Shit. Kage scrambled for something to say. “What about his runes?!” The words burst out of him, desperate.

Scáthach blinked. One eyebrow slowly rose. “His runes?”

“Hai,” he said, rushed. “They were blue before, sometimes orange or white depending on how much mana he poured into them - but they’re gold now. When did that change?” Certainly Scáthach had to know that, at least. She was his fucking teacher. She had taught CasCu those runes, knew the color of his magecraft. She would have noticed it when that color changed, right? 

Right?

Scáthach was still looking at him, but there was … something off in her gaze. Something almost … glazed. Hesitation. Had it always been there? Or had he just noticed? Kage couldn’t fucking tell. But when Scáthach said, “It happened after the birds,” Kage swore there was a question tacked onto the end. Like she wasn’t fully certain of the answer.

Kage swallowed hard. “After the birds,” he repeated.

And then that moment of hesitation, that almost glaze of confusion, lifted from Scáthach ’s eyes. She stared at him, frank. “After the birds,” she agreed. “Trust in Irisviel, she is a Grail, and she does not make mistakes when it comes to Spirit Origins. I am certain CasCu will return to normal given sometime . It is useless to hunt for evidence otherwise, when there is none. You’re stirring up trouble, Kage.” 

Kage’s fingers clenched tight. “I’m stirring up trouble?!” He hissed, fingers biting into his skin. “I’m not the one stirring up trouble! I’m just trying to find the fucking truth -”

“You have it.” Scáthach said. Her voice was cold, her eyes even colder. “There was nothing wrong with CasCu during the Lostbelt. Do you doubt my word?” 

“I -” Kage bit himself off, grinding his teeth together. He didn’t know. He didn’t fucking know. On one hand, he did - but he couldn’t tell if she was lying or not. She had no reason to lie. Perhaps she was lying and thought she was telling the truth. But the idea of Scáthach brainwashed was so farfetched that Kage struggled to comprehend it.

Brainwashed.

Gods, maybe he was going fucking insane. Or maybe he was paranoid. There was no fucking reason for Scáthach to be brainwashed, unless things were worse than he feared. And he hated the prickle that thought sent scattering across his skin. The dull way his curses pulsed at the idea. If things were worse than he feared, the CasCu was better off -

Kage sucked in a harsh, gasping breath. “No,” he rasped out, raw. “I don’t. Thank you for your time, Scáthach .” 

“You’re welcome,” she said, “is that all?” 

“Hai.” He could barely get the word out.

“Then have a good day,” Scáthach said. She nodded once, then left the boiler room. The door swung shut behind her. At her exit, those shadowy runes fizzled out of existence. Kage felt the pop in the air as the Bounded Field dispersed. The sudden rush of the popping, creaking boiler refilled his ears. It sounded like he felt.
Under too much pressure. About to blow.

Kage sank back against the wall. He let his head fall back against the wall and sucked in a sharp breath between his teeth, fingernails biting deeper into his palms. Scáthach had given him nothing. Nothing but a giant fucking dose of paranoia, the niggling sensation that something was wrong, and the effort of knocking of his curse to the back of his mind. Kage fought off its effects with sucked in breaths, and struggled to think.

He didn’t know what to make of that conversation. It felt like a waste of fucking time and energy. At the same time, it felt like something was there that he wasn’t seeing. Something was wrong, in her voice, in her stance. She’d been staring at the wall … since when did Scáthach stare at the wall instead of the person she was talking too? Kage didn’t know. He hadn’t interacted with her much. All he had to go on were stories from CasCu-

“Kage?”

Kage froze. His breath trapped in his throat, fragile as a baby bird.

“Kage?”  A bit more nervous than before.

He swallowed hard, then straightened. He let his hands ease, loose by his sides. “Hai, Gudao? Did you need something?”

“Yeah, I did,” Gudao said. Now that Kage had replied, his mental voice had eased a tad, more relaxed. “Do you think you can come over? I’d like to talk. We haven’t … had that chance, since you woke up. And I have some time now. So are you free?” 

Kage stared at his hands. Ran his fingers over his callouses and the crescents his nails had left in his skin. Gudao wanted to talk about something. Maybe it was CasCu. Maybe it was something else. But it gave Kage a chance to ask someone else about CasCu’s behavior. Something that would either verify Scáthach ’s story … or rip it to shreds. 

Either way, it was better than standing around here, doing nothing but drowning in his thoughts.

Kage pushed off the wall, then nodded. “Hai, I’m coming now.”

 

Gudao’s meeting place was a little room off of one of the many hallways twisting through the wandering sea. He’d managed to get a couple cups of coffee from somewhere, and was sitting at a table with one cup steaming gently between his hands. Mash was nowhere in sight. It was … odd. It had been a long time since Kage had seen Gudao be alone. There was something very wrong about it. Gudao wasn’t someone who stood alone. He always had people standing with him.

Kage hesitated at the threshold of the room. Gudao looked up, and gave a short smile. “Hey there,” he said, “are you coming in or staying out there?”

Kage scoffed and pushed his way inside. “I’m coming in,” he said, short. “Is anyone else here or is this a one on one chat?”

“One on one,” Gudao said. He shrugged, gave another smile that didn’t fully reach his eyes. “I thought you might prefer this to something else.”

Well fuck. That wasn’t promising. Kage kicked the nasty emotions that wanted to rise away, and walked over to sit across from Gudao. He crossed his arms and scowled. “That fucking bad?” he asked. 

“Not really. Want some coffee?” Gudao tipped his cup in Kage’s direction.

Kage eyed the free cup, but - after everything he wasn’t going to argue. He took it and sipped. It was still hot, but not bitter - Gudao had probably doctored it, which suited Kage’s tastes fucking fine.

When Gudao lowered the cup back down to the table, he spoke. “I … didn’t get to thank you, for what you did before. On the roof of the Shadow Border. If you hadn’t knocked me out of the way, I don’t - I don’t know if Sherlock's block had been enough. And I want to apologize, for putting you in that situation. I should have done better as a Master. I’m sorry.”

Shit.

Kage stared at Gudao, cup pressed against his lips. His Master had pushed his coffee cup out of the way so he could bow, deep. It was a deeply formal thing that Gudao didn’t normally do. It felt so damned wrong, prickled Kage in all the worse ways. 

His shoulders hunched, and he set his cup down. He scowled hard, looked away. “Fucking - stop that. Don’t fucking say sorry for that shit, alright? That wasn’t your goddamned fault.”

Gudao hesitated, then straightened. There was something like a bitter smile on his lips. “I under-estimated our enemy,” he said.

“Bullshit,” Kage snorted, glaring at the wall. “We all fucking underestimated him - but the only way we wouldn’t have underestimated him was if we fucking knew at the beginning that he was Surtr, right? No way we could have, so nothing we could have done. So don’t apologize. You did nothing wrong. Sherlock and I made our own damned choices in that fight, alright? Don’t fucking regret it.”

That got a laugh from Gudao, short and soft, but it sounded very much real. “You know? Sherlock said much the same thing … but alright. I retract my apology, but the thanks still stay . Thank you, Kage.” 

Shit. Kage slumped in his seat, flushing a bit for the thanks. He had a hard problem with that word, that ‘thanks’. CasCu slung it around too often to get a flustered rise out of him … or used to, at least. That thought made something bitter rise in the back of his throat. His “You’re welcome” was almost downright sullen because of it. He reached down to pick up his cup and take a loud slurp of his coffee.

Gudao paused. When he spoke, it was a bit softer. “Kage? Is everything alright? How are you feeling, after everything?” 

Kage snorted. “You want the truth?”

“Of course I do.”

That made Kage look at him, fully. Gudao had grabbed his cup of coffee again. He held it close, like he needed the warmth on his hands and the steam on his face. Despite the fact that time had passed since the end of the Lostbelt, he still managed to look like hell. His face was waxy. There were shadows under his eyes. A shaky tremble to his breath. And yet he looked at Kage with such expectant honesty that it almost hurt.

Kage huffed, and looked away again. “I’m not sure if I should tell you,” he muttered, “you’re holding the damned weight of the world on your shoulders. You don’t need to hold onto my baggage as well.”

“But I want to,” Gudao said, “As your Master, and as your friend. Kage, are you alright?”

Fuck this man. Sometimes Gudao reminded Kage too much of himself, when he had still been Emiya Shirou and stupid with it. Too kind, too caring, too ready to carry everyone’s burden. At times like this, it made Kage’s curses flare up. Gudao would be better off if he was dead. No more having to carry the weight of the world, and all the Servants meant to save it. He could finally rest.

But that wasn’t what Gudao wanted, so Kage swallowed with the urges until they were a small stone in the middle of his stomach with coffee so hot it nearly scalded his tongue.

“Physically?” Kage said, when his cup was done, “I don’t even feel where I was cut. My curses have been acting like shit though, but it’s nothing I can’t handle. Mentally … pretty shitty. I’d be better if CasCu was acting normally. He’s still fucking … off. I want him back to normal as quickly as possible.”

Gudao nodded. “I’m hoping now that we’re in a place with better technology, we can get his Spirit Origin to settle. He’s been … off since the fight.”

“So you noticed that?” Kage asked.

It came out more snarky and acidic then he wanted. He flinched back at the venom in the words, then at the look Gudao sent him. But the tone of Gudao’s voice was tiredly amused. “Of course I noticed he was acting weird. CasCu was one of my first Servants. This whole Alter Ego thing’s fucking him up in the head. With any luck we can get him settled back into his Caster Spirit Origin. I’m hoping that will get rid of any influences Odin or Skadi’s magecraft might be having on him.”

So Gudao believed Irisviel. For a brief moment, Kage thought about telling Gudao his theory - that the problems with CasCu were deeper than just the oscillating Spirit Origin. That there was something else going on … but caution stayed him, or perhaps it was just the fucking paranoia. Gudao had too much on his plate right now. If there was nothing going on, then Kage wasn’t going to make more work for him. 

But still …

“I hope so too,” Kage muttered. He dragged his hand through his hair and gritted at the tangles. He let his hand drop back down to the table with a thump. “How was … CasCu through the Lostbelt? I couldn’t be there for him, and he won’t tell me anything …” and Scáthach ’s information had been shit.

Gudao leaned back with his coffee held tight between his fingers. He took a sip as he thought, then lowered the cup again. “Well … he wasn’t too happy about the situation. And he was having dreams - I don’t know what of, but he’d act weird in the morning’s before mellowing down later. And there was one time -” He hesitated.

Something coiled in Kage’s gut. “What?” 

“You know how CasCu’s cloak has that long piece that holds the two ends of it together?” Gudao asked, making a couple motions of his hand to explain it.

Kage went cold. “I know,” he said. He knew that cloak far too well. He’d worn it often enough, and not just within Singularity F. It was something CasCu had been more than happy to relinquish, whenever Kage needed it.

“He … choked on it one night,” Gudao said, slowly. “Was apparently thrashing hard enough that it left a bruise on his neck - he was alright afterward !” Those last words were said in a rush, something on Kage’s face keying Gudao in that this was not the information he wanted to fucking hear.

CasCu had choked himself while he was asleep on his own damn cloak.

The sentence sounded so ludicrous that Kage barely understood it. CasCu didn’t thrash when he was having nightmares - or maybe he did, and the charms they both wore to prevent bad dreams had made it so Kage never saw that side of him. But the thought that CasCu would choke himself on his own cloak was… it was …

“You’re bullshitting me,” he breathed.

“I’m not,” Gudao said. He shook his head, soft and apologetic. “I’m sorry Kage, but that’s what happened. He seemed fine later though. Though -” he broke off, frowned a bit at his steaming coffee cup.

Kage’s stomach swooped. “But what?”

“Alter wanted to talk to me about something,” Gudao said. The words were slow. He looked up to meet Kage’s eyes again. “I’m not sure what about, but he didn’t get the chance during the Lostbelt, and I haven’t had the chance to check in on him since Nightingale released him from the infirmary.” 

Kage lasered in on the words. Alter had wanted to talk to Gudao about something. Kage would fucking sell his left arm if it wasn’t about CasCu. He stood, his chair rattling against the floor. “I’ll talk to him, then. Thanks, Gudao.”

“You’re welcome,” Gudao said. He hesitated, then looked up. “Kage … be careful. I want CasCu to win whatever war he’s fighting on the inside, and I know you care … but I don’t want anything fucking up his chances. So whatever information you figure out, you come to me first. You understand?”

Kage paused. He’d already turned halfway towards the door - now he stopped himself, and turned back to meet Gudao’s gaze. It was calm, calculating … but worried. Kage hadn’t obviously revealed his plan, and Gudao already had him figured the fuck out. He was too smart, Kage’s Master, and Kage knew - as much as he hated it - that Gudao was right.

“Alright,” he mumbled, his voice quiet, his lips barely moving. “I’ll keep it quiet, and consult you when I have something. Will you just… keep an eye out on your end? I think he’ll be more inclined to speak to you about anything than me, right now.”

Gudao’s expression softened. “I will.” 

Kage nodded. He turned fully away from his Master, and stalked out of the room. Neither of them exchanged pleasantries. Somehow, the situation felt wrong for that. Because it was CasCu on the line, and Kage knew very well that neither he, nor Gudao, were willing to risk losing the old man.

 

Kage had never really gone searching for Alter on purpose - for many fucking reasons - but the biggest one was that one of two major headaches tended to linger where Alter was. But if there was anything in the world that could make Kage face one of his other fucking selves, it was a threat to CasCu. 

So Kage mentally prodded people until he got the information about where Alter had made his rooms. He headed in that direction, fully expecting trouble to find him. It did, of course, manifesting into solid form before Kage could even knock on the damn door.

If seeing Emiya’s face caused Kage to descend into useless fury, the sight of Edge was an anger of a whole different sort. Less fiery, and more the shock of cold ice water, the sick feeling of incomprehension that settled while trying to decide exactly how angry he should be. Because where Emiya was just him but older, then Edge was all wrong.

If one ignored Kage’s curse, then Edge was the worst of the Emiyas mentally, and it wasn’t just the memory issues that made him so. A shell, with barely a scrap of personality - depending on how much he’d remembered that day - held together by the stupid stubbornness that carried them all. A stubbornness that had shattered, fully shattered, with the remains of his psyche thanks to Kiara’s influences. There was nothing left of him but a fucking weapon. Kage wasn’t sure if Edge was a Servant from a different timeline, or was simply himself thrown so far down the timeline of serving Alaya that there was nothing left of him. Either possibility made Kage feel sick. Sicker, for the fact that Edge didn’t seem to care about how fucked up he truly was. And every bit of that made Kage’s curses scream.

It wasn’t a feeling that Kage wanted, on top of everything else. He still swallowed down the urge to punch and settled for a scowl. “I need to see Alter.”

Edge’s face was a masterwork of not showing a single thing. Those gold eyes were blank and cold. Not a single one of the golden glue cracks along his face twitched at the words. His voice was emotionless. “No, you don’t.” 

Kage’s fingers curled at his sides. The sickness was starting to recede now, with the curse rising in its place, as it always did. Edge was an Emiya who most certainly would have been better off dead. “Yes, I do.”

“He’s not seeing anyone right now,” Edge retorted. “Not even the other Cus. You’re not getting in.” 

Kage swallowed hard around the lump in his throat. He struggled, a moment, to breathe, before he let out a sharp sound of repressed fury. “And why the fuck aren’t they allowed in?” He wondered, for a brief, petty moment, if Edge even remembered.

Apparently he did, because his answer was pretty damn swift. “He’s getting his curses under control,” Edge said. “They’re being hard to work with. I’m sure you understand the feeling.” His gaze lingered on the red that traced up Kage’s cheek.

Kage bit his cheek until blood flooded his mouth. When he was able to speak without lunging forwards and strangling Edge, he did so. “Well tell Alter, when he gets over his damn curses, that I need to talk to him. It’s about CasCu.”

“I’ll pass the message on,” Edge said, his voice bland.

For a moment, brief, Kage imagined how it would feel to slug Edge in the jaw. Seeing someone with his face always brought out the worst of him - it did for all versions of himself, he was sure. It was an effort to hold himself back. But he managed, turning and striding angrily down the hallway. With each step he felt the roadblocks he’d run up against.

Scáthach , with her odd blank gazes.

Gudao, and his story of CasCu choking on his cloak.

And Alter, who’d needed to talk to Gudao about something, but wasn’t talking to anyone because of his fucking curses. 

It was a sorry fucking list, and Kage knew it. There was almost nothing there he could use. For a brief, fleeting moment, Kage actually wished that he was Sherlock Holmes, who might have been able to put the damned pieces together to form some sort of picture. All Kage could get was a horrible, horrible feeling of doom incoming. 

He was no detective. He wasn’t sure he needed to be one, with everything that had happened and everything that would. But what he was was stubborn, and there was a way fucking forwards. And that way was through Edge, the goddamned door, and Alter’s fucking curses. There just had to be a way to do it that didn’t involve punching Edge through the door to get to Alter and his curses.

Kage walked through the Wandering Sea, mulling over his choices. As he walked, he took in the sights of people moving around. It felt like forever since he’d seen multiple Heroic Spirits in one area, all of them manifested. But they were here now, ones he knew, and ones he didn’t. They were all exploring the intricacies of this place, finding the important areas, like the kitchens, the Command Room, and the infirmary…

The infirmary. 

Kage stopped in his tracks. Around him, the whole world rushed by. He could feel people staring at him, but he ignored it. He couldn’t fucking believe that he hadn’t thought about it sooner. Alter had been in the infirmary for an injury, and CasCu had mentioned his curses always flared in response to getting hurt. Nightingale wouldn’t have let Alter go if he wasn’t stable - curses and all. So either her or Irisviel had calmed those curses, and they had flared up again … or they knew a way to make sure Alter pulled the rest of the way out.

And Kage could get a good fucking look at the equipment they had. He could see if they had the shit to do a proper examination of CasCu and his Spirit Origin, and if not, how long it would take for them to create that technology.

The shadow that had been clogging his mind fell away. Kage took in the hallway where he was for the first time. It looked like every other hallway in the Wandering Sea - unlike Chaldea, this place didn’t seem to have invested in signage. Well, it didn’t fucking matter. Kage reached out to grab someone, dragging their movements to a standstill. “Hey,” he said, “Do you know where the fuck they set up the infirmary?”

It was, to his surprise, one of the GudaGuda gang. Despite popular belief, he didn’t hang out around all of them, and most of the time he tried to avoid the ridiculous shit they got up to whenever Nobunaga managed to get herself a Grail. So it took him a moment to place the face to the name. But he knew the face, the wild white and black hair, and the spinning, dizzying yellow-green eyes.

Nagao Kagetora grinned at him with that mad gaze of hers. “Ah, Kage! You’re lucky I recognized you - I almost cut off that wrist of yours. You should announce yourself before you grab someone, especially here!” She laughed.

Kage wondered if she was drunk. There were some Servants where were always in a stage of being perpetually drunk. But it wasn’t important. He scowled. “Oh, shove it, skunk. Do you know were the infirmary has been set up?”

Nagao squawked. “Skunk?!” 

Kage scowled back at her. “Yes, skunk. Now, where the hell is the infirmary?”

She considered this, for a moment, before laughing. “Well, I’ve never been called skunk before! But the infirmary is located close to the new Command Room. Nightingale insisted it be placed closer than the previous one, just in case anyone ray shifted in critical condition!” She said this while laughing, like the idea was ridiculous.

Gods. He sometimes forgot just how much of Nobunaga’s ridiculous attitude affected the other people she got close to. Kage sighed, and stepped away from Nagao. “Thank you.” 

Nagao nodded, still grinning. “No problem! Tell Nobbu that I’m going to drink her scrawny arse under the table next time we meet. I found the alcohol!” She threw her head back and laughed again, as she walked away. Kage didn’t even have time to tell her that he certainly wasn’t going to tell Nobunaga that.

He groaned, and kneaded his forehead, then started walking again. Command Room, Command Room … that wasn’t too hard. A bit more questioning of a few more servants revealed that the Command room was located in the middle of the Wandering Sea, like the middle of a spiders web. A smart design, that made it easy to find. Kage took to Spirit Form so he could cut some of that time by jumping through walls.

He hadn’t been to the Command Room yet. CasCu hadn’t seen fit to explain what it had looked like, when he’d given a rundown of the information he’d learned there. Just thinking about that conversation made Kage’s chest tighten, his throat thicken. He swallowed hard, and forced himself to look around.

This Command Room was certainly more futuristic than the other had been. There was a cube in the middle. It looked like an enemy they sometimes encountered - those giant x’s of small blocks, only formed into a solid, three-dimensional , cube shape. It was possibly an interface, if the way it glowed spoke to anything. And the walls themselves were lined with deep grooves that glowed a soft blue. The whole vibe was very different from the almost steampunk design of the rest of the facility.

Kage also noticed a Summoning Circle to the side. It didn’t look like Chaldea’s, but it did mean that they had a chance to summon back those who had been lost … or those who were newly met. Perhaps … Marie would come back. CasCu would have clung to that hope, if he was acting normal, if he even fucking remembered Marie, and the times he’d spent as her friend.

Fucking hell. 

Kage spun around and stepped out of the Command Room. He struck down one hall, and when he came to nothing soon, turned into Spirit Form and started moving through the walls again, in circles, slowly expanding further and further from the Command Room.

Nagao had not lied. Within moments, he was entering the new and improved infirmary. It was a fancy place, full of clean beds and gleaming equipment. Nightingale was moving through the place like it was her kingdom and she was personally ensuring every bit of it was within working order. She probably was. Kage had no inclination to stop her.

Instead, he started looking around for Irisviel.

He knew that Irisviel had to be here - or that there was a good chance that she was. If she wasn’t, Kage would have to reach out to her mentally, and he didn’t think that reaching out mentally to anyone was a good idea with how his own mind was right now. So instead, he kept on moving, poking through the infirmary, silent and invisible, until he found her at the back cataloging supplies.

Kage stepped into solid form, words already tumbling from his lips. “Hey, Irisviel?” 

Irisviel did not shriek, which wasn’t too surprising. She was a Caster, and the Grail. She had probably sensed him a mile away. But she did turn, her expression softening in that way it always did. “Hello, Kage. Did you need something?” 

There was something about Irisviel that always made Kage feel a little young, and a little foolish, like the boy he hated. But it was something Kage couldn’t fight against. An aura that Irisviel just seemed to exclude. The tension began to run from him in increments. His shoulders slumped, and he sighed. “Hey,” he said, quiet, “I was wondering if you guys had a chance to check out Alter’s curse yet. Apparently it’s pretty fucking bad.”

Irisviel’s eyebrow rose briefly. She considered him, lips pursed, before she nodded slow. “He was released when his curse was deemed manageable,” she said. “Nightingale would not have let him go otherwise. Is there a reason you ask?” 

Shit. Kage made a sharp sound between his teeth, then let out a harsh breath. “I wanted to ask him about CasCu. Fucker is still … acting weird, and I’m … worried about him.” He shuffled awkwardly, face hot.

Irisviel smiled, soft. “He has still been acting weird, hasn’t he? Has he talked to you about it at all?”

“Not … really,” Kage let out a sharp laugh. “At this fucking point I don’t know if he’s avoiding me or what. I just wish I fucking k new what was going on with him.”

“Hopefully we should know soon,” Irisviel said. She took Kage’s hand, then led him to a chair to sit down. Kage let her guide his movements, then sat heavily upon the seat. She patted his hand, and smiled. “We’re hoping that, now that he will be in solid form most of the time, his Spirit Origin will stabilize. But we’ll need new equipment to be sure of that.”

Kage swallowed hard. “And how long will it take to get that equipment?” he asked. His voice came out far too small for his liking.

“A week, at minimum,” Irisviel said. She smiled, sadly. “I’m sorry Kage, but it will probably take longer. There are many things we have to do to establish ourselves.”

Kage didn’t want to fucking hear her apologies. His head rung with the fact that it would take a fucking week, at least, for CasCu to be examined again. To figure out what was actually going on with him. That realization made him sick. He wasn’t fucking sure he could last that long - if CasCu could last that long. It made his eyes burn. 

He sucked in a sharp, whistling breath between his teeth. “How do you normally get Alter’s curses down?” he asked, tight.

Irisviel blinked. “After leaving the infirmary?”

“Hai,” Kage rasped out. “There has to be a way. How the fuck do they get brought down to a more manageable level?”

Irisviel hummed. Her hand reached out, to pet gently along Kage’s hair. He didn’t have the strength to bat her away. A part of him sagged into it. “Well … normally that is left to the hands of those who care about him. Edge probably knows how. So would the other Chulainns … possibly Medb, but I doubt that anyone would let her get close at this time.”

“No shit,” Kage muttered. He leaned into her hand with a heavy sigh, eyes still burning. He’d have to talk to the other Chulainn’s then. Gods, he hoped Cu wasn’t with Emiya. Seeing Emiya was the last thing Kage needed today.

Irisviel patted his hand, this gentle thing. “Kage,” she said, her voice soft. “Alter’s curse is not your responsibility. CasCu would rather you take care of yourself first.”

Hai,” Kage mumbled. He scrubbed at his face, then let his hands drop. “But I just … need to make sure CasCu’s alright, before I’m alright. Not sure how fucking long I can deal with him being like … this.” 

“There will be lulls,” Irisviel said, her voice soft, “in making sure he is alright. Space in this week for you to take care of yourself. He would want you to take that time to yourself. To take care of yourself. You know this.”

“I know,” he mumbled, sighing. He leaned a bit, into her touch, and closed his eyes. Took a moment to breathe, slow and surely. She was right. He hated it, but she was right. He had to take breaks, take care of himself, otherwise he would have nothing left for CasCu. And he had to be strong for CasCu. Otherwise, everything would fucking fall apart.

He nodded, slowly, incrementally, then stood. “Alright,” he said. “I won’t burn myself out. But I’m still doing what the fuck I can.” 

Irisviel’s hand fell from his. The one on his hair thumbed at his brow, something that he couldn’t help but lean hard into. She considered him for a moment, then sighed. “As you wish,” she murmured, then smiled. It was a small thing, almost wry, a bit amused. “Emiya has been busy getting the kitchens ready for everyone. If you wish to speak to Cu, then your best time will be now.” 

“Alright,” Kage murmured. He dipped his head low. “Thank you, Irisviel.” 

“You’re welcome, Kage.” She reached up then, hand on his shoulder. Her touch was warm. He felt it sink into him, tendrils of mana curling underneath his skin, feather-light . The stress in his shoulders started to drain away, the tension in his back eased. He sagged into her touch, and she smiled, faint. “I will be here for you, when you need it.”

“I know,” Kage said. It was hard to forget, sometimes. He wasn’t used to,,, this. A mother’s support wasn’t exactly something he’d had often in life. But right now… right now he drank it in. Gods knew he was going to need the comfort for what was coming next.

 

And what came next was the Chulainns.

Or more specifically, Cu and Proto, since CasCu and Alter were currently out for the count. Irisviel had been kind enough to reach out to them, so now Kage was following her directions to a room that was almost a lounge of some sorts. Both Lancers were crouched over a table, perched on chairs and hunged in a way that would have broken the old man’s back. The table was covered in pens, binders, and a fuck ton of loose leaf paper.

Something tight roiled in Kage’s stomach. There was so much shit going on with CasCu, and apparently Alter couldn’t speak to someone for his curses, and these two idiots were playing arts and crafts. It was an unfair assessment. Kage knew that, knew that he’d have been even more unfair in his assessment if he hadn’t spent so much time with Irisviel. He still couldn’t help but be pissed. 

He pushed into the room, scowl hard on his lips. “What the hell are you two doing?” 

Cu and Proto looked up. If they were startled by Kage’s appearance, then neither of them showed it. Cu gave a loose wave, then looked back down at his paper. Proto - probably the one who knew his face was the least likely to make Kage think of another Emiya - also waved, but he was the one who spoke. “Hey, Kage. We’re working on something for CasCu. Irisviel said you needed something?

Proto’s almost cheer was disarming. After everything that had happened, Kage hadn’t expected it. He stood there, waffling, before he scowled and continued. “Yeah, I did. I need to know why you two aren’t helping Alter with his curses. Apparently he can’t talk to everyone because they’re too strong.”

There was a pause, brief. Proto cast an almost guilty look at his paper. Cu looked up. He set the paper down. “Edge is taking care of Alter right now,” he said, meeting Kage’s eyes. “He’s got as good a chance as we do in taking Alter out of his curses.”

Kage ground down on his back teeth until they creaked. “Really now?” 

“Yeah, really.” Cu said. He gave a sardonic grin. “Besides, he got stabbed through the gut. You know how we died, right? He’s kinda sensitive right now -” 

“Not that he’d admit it,” Proto added.

“- so we’re not going to rush it,” Cu finished, giving Proto a small look. “Alter’s getting his space, and Edge is taking care of him until he’s ready for us. Besides, what do you need to talk Alter for?”

Kage stared at them, a bit helplessly. The anger in his chest flickered, flared, and then gave up. In its place was exhaustion. He almost wished that he was beside Irisviel again, or perhaps sitting in Salter’s cold, uncaring aura. If this was Chaldea, if everything was normal, he would have gone to cling to CasCu. If CasCu wasn’t available - which was almost never, the bastard always made time for Kage - then Kage would have found Nobunaga instead.

CasCu wasn’t available now. So Kage would find Nobunaga, and he’d find a fucking distraction. Take care of himself, like Irisviel said. Gods, he’d barely started figuring shit out, and he was already fucking flagging.

Kage moved over to sit down hard at the table. He didn’t look at the pages, just stared at the shiny, coppery top. His own reflection stared back at him. The curses on his cheeks seemed to be glowing, pulsing in tune to his heartbeat. He flinched, yanked his gaze away, and looked up to meet Cu and Proto’s eyes. “I wanted,” he said, slow, “to ask him about CasCu.”

Understanding flashed in both their gazes. Cu nodded, slow. “He has been acting weird, hasn’t he?” 

“Hai,” Kage said, the word rushing out of him. Fucking finally, someone agreed with him, didn’t shrug it off like nothing was wrong. “I was going to ask Alter if anything had happened during the Lostbelt - beyond the fucking birds.”

“Fuck those birds,” Cu said, with emphasis. He was scowling, hard at the wall.

Something in those words struck something in Kage. He looked at Cu, sharp. “Did he tell you those birds had messed with his memory as well?”

Cu’s growl was answer enough. Proto nodded, weary. “Yeah, he did. That’s why we’re doing this.” He waved, briefly, at the pages and the binder. “If he’s right about the birds messing with his memory, then he’ll need help reconstructing what he lost. So we thought we’d write it all down for him.” 

Kage blinked. For the first time, he gave the pages a proper look. It was notebook paper. Written across the lines in scrawled ink was Cu’s and Proto’s handwriting - which was basically the same, if a bit different from CasCu’s. From this angle, Kage couldn’t read the words, but on Proto’s pages he could see the words ‘Singularity F’. Cu’s were harder to decipher. 

Understanding hit him, hard. His breath left his chest. “You’re reconstructing what he’s been through here at Chaldea,” he said.

“And more,” Cu said, a bit dry. “I’m covering everything during our life, and after I was summoned. Proto’s got everything since his summoning to Alter’s. We were going to ask Alter if he was willing to do that middle section. Between the three of us, we should be able to get most of CasCu’s memories and experiences on paper.” 

“We’re hoping it will help jostle his memories,” Proto said, a bit more forcefully cheerful, “And if - if they don’t come back, at least this way he can know everything that’s happened. Whose important to him, you know?” 

Kage sat there, stunned. Suddenly, the anger he had swung with at the beginning of this interaction looked incredibly stupid. This whole thing was - a good idea. Hell, he probably should have thought of it himself. If - if everything was like CasCu said it was, then this would be more useful then Kage running around and digging into things that lead fucking nowhere.

“Oh,” he said, a bit small.

“We got the idea from Edge,” Cu admitted. “He’s having to restart his journal, said he’d get Alter to help him on the stuff from Chaldea when he was feeling better. But, speaking of Alter … why were you going to ask him if something had happened to CasCu?” 

Both Proto and Cu focused in on Kage, waiting, expectant. Kage worked his mouth around the words, then let out a sharp breath. “I don’t - think he’s being fully honest with us,” he said, finally, words wrong in his mouth. “Shit just doesn’t - feel right, you know? I don’t think he’s lying, but I don’t think he’s telling the truth and - if there is something going on, I want to fucking know. I want to fucking help.”

It seemed so stupid, in the face of what Proto and Cu were already doing. But Proto was nodding, slow and small. “I … got that feeling too,” he admitted. “I’ve known CasCu the longest out of all of us, and he’s got tells when he’s lying. When he was talking about the birds and the amnesia and all that … it just felt wrong. Got no proof of it though. Fuuma isn’t sure either, so until we know for sure, we’ve got the binder for him.”

“And if it is wrong?” Kage asked, his voice thick.

“If it is wrong,” Cu said, and there was something harder in his voice, “then CasCu might need this binder more than ever. We’ll work on Alter once we’re done without sections of this binder, alright? And when he’s ready to talk, we’ll send him your way. Until then, there’s not much we can do but this.” He patted the papers in front of him with one hand.

Kage stared at the papers, his chest tight, throat thick. They were right. Until they figured out what was wrong, all they could fucking do was act on the information they had - the information CasCu had given them. 

Shit.

Kage swallowed hard, then looked away, towards the wall. “Do you have anyone covering the events before you appeared in Singularity F?”

Proto and Cu paused. He could feel their gaze on him, but he didn’t look. “Nope,” Cu said, “none of us was there.” The ‘but you’ went unsaid.

Kage didn’t need to hear it. He waggled his fingers at them, scowled hard. “Well then, give me some paper. That shit’s important. And … this is a good idea. Sorry I fucking yelled at you.” Those last words were said in a barely heard mumble.

Cu and Proto exchanged glances. Then a stack of papers landed before Kage, crisp and neat, followed by a pen. “Don’t sweat it,” Cu said, “we’re all a little bit crabby after everything. Just tell us if there’s anything we can do to help.”

“I will,” Kage mumbled, quiet. Then he ducked his head, snatched up the pen, and pressed the tip to the paper. Ink flowed from it, forming word after word, of their sorry story within Singularity F, and everything that would come from Kage’s own Summoning to Chaldea.

Chapter 18: Chapter 18

Summary:

Conspiracy Boards are the way of the future.

Notes:

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There was something cathartic in writing down everything Kage and CasCu had been through together. Kage left Cu and Proto behind with a stack of papers, and most of his anger spent. But it wasn’t exhaustion that slid into the gaps. Instead, something like steely hard determination cut through him. He walked away with the knowledge that - if he wasn’t right - there would still be a way to save CasCu.

He also walked away with the knowledge that, if he was right, he would have allies in this fight. Kage wasn’t alone in thinking CasCu had been behaving wrong. Cu and Proto could tell. Gudao had a suspicion. Nobunaga took his word for it. And after getting so much on paper, that was enough to make Kage feel like he wasn’t alone.

He just wished he knew that CasCu wasn’t alone either. 

That’s what itched at him, as he walked through the winding hallways. Where was CasCu spending his time? If he was dealing with the normal CasCu, that would be easy. The library, a tearoom , the gardens if this place had them. Now, Kage didn’t know. He had a hard time imagining that CasCu would stick around in Spirit Form. The man who had spoken to Kage in that room had been too invested in the make, the structure, and the secrets of the Wandering Sea…

The library. CasCu would be in the library, or skulking around the halls like Kage was now, only with far more nefarious intentions. 

Kage paused, and glanced up at the ceiling. He wondered at the time. The whole day was a blur in his fucking head - he’d spent too long working on his portion for CasCu’s binder. It might have been the middle of the night for all he knew. It had been long enough that the hallways were empty, as if they belonged to a ghost town.

Irisviel would have wanted him to relax, to breathe, to take care of himself. Kage had told himself he’d do so. 

But right now? That determination was pushing him forwards. He wanted something concrete out of today. He wanted to get a hint of what CasCu was doing, just so he could know where to find him in the future.

Kage took to Spirit Form and raced through the halls, towards the room he had foolishly picked out for himself and CasCu. If it was empty, he would go searching. If it wasn’t - then he knew CasCu was using the place, at the very least. And that meant Kage knew of at least one location the bastard would go.

He found himself in front of the door within minutes. He stood outside the room, breathing in slowly. His fingers curled at his sides; he bit the inside of his lip. The thought of seeing CasCu, knowing something was wrong without being able to help, made his insides twist. Gods, he’d been reduced to spying on the old man so quickly.

Not that he had much of a choice.

Kage swallowed hard, then stepped through the door, still in Spirit Form, nails biting into his palms. A part of him was terrified of what he would see. An empty room, abandoned. Perhaps another Servant that had moved in. Something, anything. But the sight that greeted him was so downright normal that it almost hurt to see.

CasCu sat there on the bed, one knee crossed over the other. There was a stack of books beside him. Currently, He was leisurely flipping through a thick tome, one eye scanning the pages, fingers resting lightly on the binding. The other side of his face was uncovered - Kage could see the horrible puckered, silvered scarring from where the ravens had pecked and clawed out his eye. There was nothing but a horrible pocket left.

In many ways the sight was so familiar that Kage nearly choked. How often had he seen CasCu on the bed, reading a book, smile small on his lips? Too often. Too often, Kage had joined him with a book of his own. But for all the similarities, there was something off about this. A bit of the picture that came across as viscerally wrong. It took a few moments to place it.

CasCu wasn’t smiling. His expression was that of concentration, brows slightly furrowed, lips faintly pursed. His eye was glowing with a gentle golden haze. And the dangling earrings were gone from his ears.

That last one made Kage freeze.

Those earrings were a gift from CasCu’s mother. That was why every single one of the Chulainn’s had them, besides Proto. He’d never seen CasCu take them off. Ever. Not while fighting, not while swimming, not while sleeping - and yet there they laid, on the side table beside him, cast there as if by an uncaring hand.

Ultimately, it was a small detail. So small that Kage had almost fucking missed it. But his eyes were drawn to those earrings, his breath stuck in the back of his throat. He made a soft, choking sound.
CasCu’s eye flickered at him, and the golden glow flared bright - but Kage was already gone, feet beating down the hallway, the image of those earrings engraved painfully into his mind.

 

Nobunaga had already lain claim to her room with a dangerously tight grip. It was hard to believe that this place was supposed to be a part of the Wandering Sea. It was too hot for one - a heat that made him think of the room by the boilers that Scáthach and him had talked in. It was also too fucking gold. Somewhere, somehow, Nobunaga had managed to gather golden paint and splattered it from floor to ceiling. The bed was gone, replaced by a futon and a beanbag, taking up just enough room that walking was difficult.

And taped to one wall was a giant black tarp, full of white notecards and brilliant red strings strung between them. Nobunaga stood before it, hands on her hips, looking quite proud of her work, as if it was something to be congratulated.

Kage stared at it blankly. “Is that what I fucking think it is?” 

“It is!” Nobunaga crowed, with delighted glee. 

“You put a conspiracy board in your room,” he said, slowly. He felt like he’d walked straight from a nightmare into a fever dream. All the fucking gold in the room was making him dizzy. He sat heavily upon the beanbag and stared. 

“No!” Nobunaga protested, holding a finger up. “This is not just a conspiracy board, my buddy, my pall. This is also the planning board! Issues, pranks, world domination, secrets, mystery, mayhem - it can all be tracked and planned right here! Isn’t it so wabi sabi?” She said the words with a loving sigh.

“It’s sure something,” Kage muttered, shaking his head slightly. Still - the gesture made him smile, amused warmth tugging at the very corner of his lips. She could dress the damn thing up in all the fancy words she wanted to use, but it was at the very heart of the matter, a conspiracy board. 

And right now, there was only one reason to have it.

Nobunaga summoned one of her long guns, and tapped it against her hand. “Now attention, Kage! Tonight, in the darkness of the Wandering Sea, we must structure our plot! You have been on an information gathering mission all day, hai?” 

“Hai,” he said, something like a sigh leaving him. It wasn’t protest at the theatrics. In a way, Nobunaga blowing this up like it was - well… whatever fucking thing this was almost made talking about the whole situation easier.

Nobunaga grinned. “Well then! Report, and I shall write it down!”

Kage sighed again, and then started recounting his findings from the past night and day. CasCu’s supposed amnesia. Scáthach ’s odd, blank looks during her tale of the Singularity. Gudao’s mention of CasCu waking up with bruises around his neck. Irisviel’s assessment of when the technology would be ready. Cu and Proto’s feeling that something wasn’t right. The earrings, set away on the side of the table. 

Nobunaga stepped away from the wall, her hands on her hips. With each of Kage’s words, she had written upon a notecard, and pinned it to the fabric. She considered it for a long moment, before glancing away with a shake of her head. “Well, it’s not a lot,” she mused.

Kage stiffened, a tad. “What the fuck do you mean it’s not a lot?”

Nobunaga pointed her finger at the ceiling. “Most of this stuff can be explained by the amnesia,” she said, “acting differently, seeming wrong to both you and the other Cus. Heck, even the earrings can be blamed on the amnesia. If he didn’t remember who they came from, why would he care about them?”

Kage gritted his teeth, anger surging through him briefly - but she was right. He swallowed it down, and then pointed at the notecard with Scáthach ’s name on it. “What about that?” He retorted, “ Scáthach doesn’t normally blank out and shit.”

Scáthach ’s weird,” Nobunaga said, shaking her head, “And she recently saw herself possessed by a goddess. Maybe she’s fucked up in the head right now. Face it, Kage, the only proof we have right now is the weird dream bruising - and even that has an excuse.”

“Not fucking helpful, Nobbu,” Kage hissed, “Not wabi sabi.”

Nobunaga summoned a gun so she could hop on it and sit down. “It can’t be helped,” she said, crossing her knees and leaning forwards, “Say the bruising wasn’t from his cloak. How else would you get bruises in your sleep?”

Kage muttered under his breath, then rubbed at his face. “Someone attacks you in your sleep,” he mumbles, “or you hurt yourself during it. Or -” he faltered.

“Or,” Nobbu said, “Something within the dream caused the wound to appear on his own skin. Like how Gudao has a chance of dying if he’s killed in one of his dreams.”

Kage paused at that. The thought sank into him, and he shuddered, biting his lip hard. “You think that - he dreamed of choking? Or - being hung?” He could barely get the word out.

“I think it’s a possibility,” Nobunaga said. Her gun took her up higher, and plucked another notecard from the wall. She held it up, then her pen, and begun writing. She slapped it on the wall, with the words “DREAM INJURY?” written in bold, then pinned it. She tied a red string between it, and then the card that mentioned CasCu’s neck bruises.

This was ridiculous. Kage laughed, a harsh thing, before running his fingers through his hair, ripping them through the tangles until it hurt. “We won’t be able to know that until Alter’s in a state to talk to!” he said, hysterical.

“Exactly.” Nobunaga said. She floated down to him, then flew over, like a miniature witch on a broom. Her hand landed on his shoulder, then squeezed. “Give him a day or two,” she murmured, soft, “until he wakes up, we’ll do reconnaissance. And once that’s done, and we have Alter’s testimony - then we’ll have something to build up an argument on. Wabi Sabi?”
Kage sucked in a shuttering breath, then nodded. “Hai,” he mumbled. “Hai. That’s about as wabi sabi as it’s going to get.”

“I know,” she said, and then a bit quieter, “I’m sorry.” 

Kage let out a breath, but didn’t reply. What could he fucking say? Nothing that really mattered in the long run.

 

The next few days were spent in a tired fugue, propelled only by Kage’s determination, and his worry. He spent the nights with Nobunaga, avoided the kitchens and his other self except for the brief times he knew it’d be clear, and spent time with Irisviel while dodging Nightingale. The rest of the time he spent trailing CasCu around in Spirit Form. In a way, it was like a fucking elaborate game of hide and seek. He’d have to find the bastard, and then avoid being spotted by him. It shouldn’t have been too hard to do in Spirit Form, but somehow, it felt like the old man was still capable of sensing him. Every time Kage started watching him, it was as if CasCu was able to give him the slip.

Nevertheless, there was a pattern Kage could see developing. CasCu spent a good fucking chunk of his time within the libraries, going through different books with a keen eye. He’d do this before bed the most - selecting a few books which he would then take to his room for the night. When he wasn’t in the library, he was exploring.

Kage wasn’t sure what the old man was looking for, but it sure felt like the bastard was looking for something. He examined every place he walked by with a keen eye, appraising it like he was just expecting it to pop open and it’s secrets to spill before him. He walked through the halls with purpose, and that purpose was to map every corner, explore every gap. He would figure out the innermost workings of the Wandering Sea by prying them open for his leisurely exploration.

It was fucking wrong. The library thing still read, a bit, like CasCu, but the fucking prying? That felt wrong. CasCu didn’t look for secrets like they belonged to him. He took the knowledge as it came. And now - now he was searching through this place like its purpose was to give everything to him.

And that wasn’t the only odd thing CasCu was doing. He was avoiding everyone he would have once searched out. Achilles, Vlad - hell, even Moriarty. Not that CasCu normally hung out around the suspicious bastard, but there was still some comradery there. This was… different. It was like he was cutting systematic ties with everyone he’d ever known and cared for. 

Even his other selves.

After they were finished with the book - or at least their sections, the Cus turned their attention to helping Alter out of his curses. Kage didn’t watch them very often. He didn’t want to know what they were doing, or how much Edge had helped out with. But whatever they were doing was fucking impressive, because it wasn’t long until Proto reached out.

Alter was willing to talk. 

 

Kage had never stepped foot into Alter’s rooms before. Certainly not during his time in Chaldea, and he’d never thought that - whatever place they settled in - him visiting Alter’s rooms would be any different. By things had changed since then, and now he walked into Alter’s room scowl on his lips. 

The first thing that stuck out to him where the labels. They were fucking everywhere, over every surface - even one on the fucking ceiling. It was Edge’s work, no doubt. Just the sight of them made Kage’s stomach twist. The second thing he noticed was how dark the room was, and the absolute pile of blankets that dominated the single room like a nest. Kage had no fucking clue how they, Alter, and Edge could share one space. He decided he wasn’t going to think about it too hard.

Alter was in the bed, a half form almost fully covered by the blankets. Cu and Proto where here too, though they had found various items to perch on - Proto the bed and Cu the dresser. Kage had no clue why they were here. His focus was on watching Alter watch him. 

“Edge said you wanted to talk to me?” Alter said, and his voice was the quiet rasp of someone who had been asleep for a long time and still wished to be so.

Kage gritted his back teeth. “Yeah, I do.” He paused, and fuck it the three pairs of red eyes were too much. He cracked a bit, asked. “What the fuck are Cu and Proto here for?” 

The two glanced each other. Cu nodded, and Proto grimaced. “We believe you,” he said, “about CasCu. Something’s wrong with him.” 

That. Was a new tune. Kage stared at them, mind trying to wrap around the sudden change in belief. Cu sighed, and dragged his hand through his hair. He must have read something on Kage’s face because he spoke. “We gave the binder to him,” he said, “it’s not complete, but we figured it was better than nothing, and getting it to him sooner rather than later would be better. He wasn’t … impressed. Hell, he looked like he thought it was fucking amusing. Like our efforts were all a joke to him.” The words were spat out, sharp and pain filled. 

Proto winced, fingers playing with the cuff of his sleeve. “And he hasn’t come to visit Alter, not once. Even if - even if it was just the memory, he should have at least checked in. Or asked Edge. Or something.”

Alter grunted in agreement. He sank deeper into his blankets. There was a rasp of spines against metal - Alter’s tail scrapping against the floor. “Fill me in.” The words gave no room for argument.

Not that there would have been any. Cu and Proto started speaking, one almost on top of the other, going through the steps of the Lostbelt since Alter’s injury, explaining the battles, the damage Gudao had taken, the sacrifice CasCu had made to save him … and what had happened to CasCu afterward . The oscillating Spirit Origin. The claims he had made, of the missing memories and their cause - all excuses for his sorry state.

Kage did not hop in with the things he had noticed - not fucking yet. He’d wait to bring that shit up.

Alter listened to it all, unblinking. A part of Kage wondered if the bastard was even keeping track of it. It was all so much it made Kage’s head spin. But as they spoke, the rasp of Alter’s tail scrapping against the floor became more and more prominent. He grunted. His teeth flashed briefly, bright against the shadow. “He’s lying.”

He’s lying.

The words were simple. Simple, and quiet, and Kage felt them in his soul. Alter didn’t say it like it was a suggestion. He said it like it was the truth. Kage didn’t fucking need to be convinced one bit.

Cu leaned forwards, frowning. “How do you know?” 

“Because,” Alter said, “he was acting fucking weird before all this was happening. Shit was getting to his head. Scatahch saw it.”

Scáthach ,” Kage said, his voice bitter, “said no such thing. I asked her about it. She said the situation was upsetting him.”

Alter scoffed. “Was fucking upsetting all of us - and no one else was acting as fucking weird as he was.”

There was so much conviction in Alter’s words, that it made something in Kage’s brain click. “The dream,” he said, in a rush, “Gudao said he’d woken up choking on his cloak. Were there more things like that happening?”

That got a laugh. It was harsh, and hard, and ragged, with no amusement to be found. Alter’s grin was a sharp thing, nothing but jagged teeth and a bit of anger too it. “He was lying then too. CasCu didn’t choke on his damn cloak. It was rope burn. Same sort of burn you’d get if you were hung. We’ve both seen it enough fucking times in our dreams to know what the damn thing looked like.” 

Dream injury.

Cu and Alter looked at Kage. Kage swallowed and scowled. They didn’t fucking have to remind him about what that meant. If he didn’t use the damned dream talisman, he probably would have woken up from his own dream of death - that night he’d been executed, hung. He knew just how slow that shit was if done improperly.

“What?” he said, sharper, “you think he dreamt of being hanged , and the fucking wound appeared on his neck?” He didn’t want to believe it. He knew, he fucking knew it was possible, but he didn’t want to believe it. 

“There’s stranger fucking things.” Alter rumbled, this not quite agreement, “and it wouldn’t be the first time it had happened to him. He was fucking complaining of eye pain before that as well. Was a fucking issue that didn’t seem to be letting up.”

Something cold slid through Kage. “Which eye,” he asked, and when Alter hesitated, he asked again, a bit more force to the words, “Which fucking eye?!” 

Alter growled at him, but his hand rose. A claw tapped beneath his right eye. “This one.” 

Kage’s gut dropped.

That was the same eye CasCu had lost to the damn birds. The same damn eye. How the fuck was that a coincidence? Sure, there was a fifty fucking percent chance - bastard only had two eyes, after all - but for it to be the same eye? To feel phantom pains in one, and then lose it later on? That felt like more. That felt fucking significant , in a way Kage couldn’t fully understand, but instinctually knew.

Cu made a breath between his teeth - this short, sharp sound. So he’d recognized it too. “Anything else?” 

“A lot,” Alter rumbled. His hand fell back to the sheets, claws curling in the fabric of them. “Fucking acting weird. Blanking out in places - knew stuff he wasn’t supposed to too. And kept on watching the damn birds. Named them too -” He cut himself off. A scowl deepened the corners of his lips.

Proto leaned forwards. “What did he name them?”

Kage already knew.

“Huginn and Munnin,” Alter said, his voice a low rumble. “Before we knew whose birds they were, he’d named them Huginn and Munnin. And he also knew there was something off with that damn Sigurd. Was acting weird around all the fucking Servants we were meeting too … just was fucking acting weird all over the damn place.”

Kage could say nothing. Neither, apparently, could Cu nor Proto. They all sat there, in the silence after Alter’s words, listening as their breathing rasped and echoed off the walls. Slowly, incrementally, the full implications of everything Alter had said began to sink in. 

Proto made a small noise between his teeth. “What the hell does this mean?” The words were very, very tiny.

“It means,” Kage said, his voice raw, “that CasCu has been fucking lying to us this whole damn time. Everything he’s said - all the excuses he’s thrown down - only work if he had changed since the damn birds clawed out his eye. But he was changing before fucking that, acting fucking weird before fucking that, so he’s been fucking lying -” 

Kage broke himself off, teeth buried in his bottom lip. He had to fight the urge to give into a sharp, shaking sob. Fucking hell. Gods. 

“Yeah - but what does that mean?!” Proto asked again, his voice a bit wild.

Kage - didn’t know. He fucking didn’t know, and he made a noise between his teeth, fingers flexing slightly. But he had no answers, could only stare helplessly at him. Alter growled and looked away. Cu glanced down at his own hands, then back up again. Somehow, his voice was the most even out of all of them. “It means,” he said, “something else is going on, and we better figure out what. You’ve already started on this, right Kage?”

Kage started. He stared at Cu, wide-eyed , before he nodded once. “I have,” he said. The words were a harsh whisper. “Nobbu and I have started a fucking conspiracy board for this.”

Proto made a noise between his teeth, tight and hysterical, before he laughed. It was not a happy laugh. “A conspiracy board?!” 

Anger surged, flared within Kage’s chest. He glared at Proto, snapped, “it was the only fucking thing we could think of! And it’s fucking more than you guys did, wasn’t it? At least it’s a fucking start , and we’re not working from fucking scratch!”

Proto’s laugh cut off with a whine. “We were doing plenty! We were trying to help him!”

“And it was -”

“Shut up.”

Alter’s voice was cold, and commanding, and cut through their budding argument like his spear through flesh. Kage bit himself off and glanced away. He watched from the corner of his eye as Proto did the same, something like tears glimmering in his eyes. Shit … Kage scowled at himself. Fucking hell. It wasn’t fucking Proto’s fault that he and Cu had decided to believe CasCu, that they had decided to work with what they had. It was stupid, and annoying, but they had done a good thing, and Kage had no fucking right to take out that anger on him - gods. What would CasCu say if he saw Kage like this?

That thought made Kage’s eyes burn.

“Sorry,” he muttered, his voice quiet, the words dragged out of him so, so silently. And after a moment, Proto nodded, and dragged his hands over his cheeks. 

Everyone was quiet for a bit longer, the silence tight and taut between them. Finally, Cu let out a breath. “Alter, you said Scáthach knew something was going on too? She hasn’t mentioned anything to us.”

Alter grunted, and hunkered down under his blankets. “She knew,” he said, “she was watching him too.”

“She didn’t mention it, when I asked her,” Kage said. His voice was too quiet, too small. He didn’t have the energy to give it the conviction it needed. “She said he’d been acting odd, but it was due to the nature of the damn Lostbelt. Didn’t mention the dreams or the phantom fucking injuries. Didn’t say he was being especially odd.”

“That’s not good,” Cu muttered. “Unless she’s being quiet about it for a reason. Think she thinks she’s being watched?”

Kage thought about the blank look in Scáthach ’s eyes, the almost hollow way she stared at the wall. The … hesitance in the way she answered some questions. That didn’t seem like a Scáthach who was being watched. That had seemed like a Scáthach that didn’t have answers she wanted … a horrible fear curdled in his chest. “Or she’d been forced to forget.”

Proto scrubbed his cheeks again, then let his hands drop. “Nothing could make Scáthach forget things,” he muttered, “you’d have to get the drop on her to do that, and no one gets a drop on Scáthach .”

“I did, once,” Alter mumbled, “during my Singularity. Nearly killed her. It’s not impossible, just unlikely.” 

“Great,” Cu said, before sighing. “So Scáthach either doesn’t think her information’s important, won’t say it because she’s being watched, or something wiped it from her mind. And if it’s that last thing - then whatever, or whoever, wiped it from her mind is probably the same thing that’s affecting CasCu.”

Kage’s gut curdled. He didn’t even want to think of something that was strong enough to get the better of Scáthach messing with CasCu as well. CasCu was strong, but he wasn’t fucking Scáthach strong. And if whatever had been going on started in that damn Lostbelt … “Was there anything in the Lostbelt that could have been affecting him?” he asked. “A god would have been strong enough to do all this shit.”

“All the gods but Skadi were dead,” Alter grunted.

“Irisviel said that he has a bit of Skadi’s power in him, now,” Proto pointed out, “and a bit of Huginn and Munnin’s, which means a bit of Odin’s power as well …” 

“I’m not fucking sure we can trust Irisviel’s readings,” Kage said, cutting over him. When they all looked at him, he scowled, harder. “Look, she’s the Grail - but she’s a Grail Conduit. There are ways to fuck with that - how the fuck do you think the damn thing gets corrupted in the first place? If whatever it was is strong enough to mess with Scáthach ’s head, then it would be strong enough to fox Irisiviel’s readings - especially when we can’t do a complete fucking scan because we don’t have the equipment. Part, if not all of what she said is probably another fucking lie , and she probably doesn’t even realize it.” 

And he hated it.

Proto made a frustrated sound between his teeth, dug his fingers into his hair, and collapsed against Alter’s side. Alter’s tail swept around him, curled there, the tip tapping against the sheets. His eyes half closed. “We’ll have to look into it ourselves.”

“No shit,” Cu sighed, and collapsed against Alter’s side. He side-eyed Kage. “That conspiracy board you and Nobbu have - is it something we can all add to? It might be useful to get an idea of what we’re all noticing.”

Kage stared at them with hot eyes. For a wild moment, he was jealous - of their comfortable ease with one another, the way they were able to cling and curl up against one another, and take comfort in each other’s presence. He didn’t have that with his other selves - not that he wanted it. He’d had it with CasCu, but that was a lost fucking cause. The only people he could do that with now were Nobunaga, and Salter.

He glanced away from them, fingers flexing slightly. “I’ll ask her,” he muttered, “but she might start charging you for access to her room.”

“That’s a risk I’m willing to take,” Cu said, and on the other side of Alter, Proto nodded in agreement.

Alter made a rumbling assent, dipping a bit deeper into his sheets. “We’ll have to be careful,” he said, “if whatever is affecting CasCu catches wind of what we’re doing, we might end up like Scáthach .” He opened one eye, and fixed them all with a cold gaze. “And none of us are particularly stealthy.”

Kage thought back to how CasCu would react to his presence, even while in Spirit Form. The occasional pauses, the glances back, the things that could almost be knowing looks. He grimaced. “Fucker acts like he has eyes on the back of his fucking head,” he grumbled, scowling. 

“I’ll ask Kotarou if he’s willing to tail him,” Proto said. “He’s got the patience and the skills for it … and he’s not so invested that he’ll risk himself in the pursuit.” He glanced a bit guiltily at Kage, “I’m sorry.” 

Kage scowled harder. “Whatever. You do that - I’m going to start fucking pushing the new equipment thing. And I’ll start looking into whatever the fuck could be doing this too him. Grail shit - fucking - something else.” Things he didn’t want to think about. He pushed forwards, continued. “Chaldea has to have records of something like this going on before. I’ll try to access them.” 

He couldn’t push hope into his voice, and it was a hope he didn’t see reflected on the faces of the other Cus. Cu looked away first, frowning. “I’ll go talk to Nobunaga and add all this stuff onto the board. Alter?”

Alter grunted. It looked like the bastard was now having to fight the allure of sleep. His eyes kept on opening and closing in a slow blinking pattern reminiscent of a comfortable cat. “I’ll ask him to visit,” he mumbled, “and I’ll see what I can find out. I told the bastard we’d have a long conversation after the Lostbelt anyway.”

“Then we have a plan of attack?” Proto asked, hopeful.

“Damn right we do,” Kage said. He stared at them again, the way they clung to each other, the way they drew strength from each other - in a way, their closeness itched at him wrongly, but there was also relief running through him, in a slow, steady, swiftly gaining current. He was no longer alone on this search.

Gods, it was a good fucking feeling.

 

Kage started with Salter, and he started with her for two fucking reasons. One: after his powwow with the Cus, he desperately needed someone to stand beside, to draw that comfort from, even if that person wasn’t the greatest at giving it. Two: the first thing he thought of with Spirits acting wrong was Grail corruption. 

He didn’t think what Cascu was going through was the same - not fully, at least. But it wasn’t the damn fucking birds for sure, and the land itself had been messed with by Surtr and Skadi, twisting the leylines, and with the damn Tree mixed in … well, CasCu drew his powers in part from the land. If he had tapped into the leylines and something nasty had been waiting in them, then it might be similar to Grail corruption. And Grail corruption was Salter’s damn specialty - she knew it far better than Kage himself. Sometimes, he swore that she could fucking sense it, and if she could … well, that could clear a bunch of shit up.

So Kage tracked her down, following that niggling feeling until her cold, almost comforting aura pulsed through the air. Kage felt his own curses pulse in soft answer. He swallowed hard, then followed after the aura, through twisting hallways and past empty rooms, until he found himself close to the cafeteria and kitchens.

Of course, she would be here. Kage had to restrain a slightly hysterical laugh.

He stepped into the cafeteria, glancing around. It was … strange. It felt like there had been too long a gap between now and when he’d been in here last, since he’d spent most of his time watching CasCu. But it had grown from the rag tag, bare-bones thing it was. The kitchen crew had torn the area down and turned it into something a bit more serviceable than a steam punk mess hall. There were certainly more tables for people to sit at.

It made something hard and painful in him pang and wish for Chaldea. The whole place looked as if someone had done their best to replicate that image without having a reference.

Scowling, he glanced away from the sight, and located Salter. She was alone for once, sitting at one table, a thick, sloppy burger held between her fingers. She was eating it with the ravenous hunger that could only come from someone who laid claim to draconic blood. Kage swerved, and walked over to her side.

Those cold, pale yellow eyes flickered to him. “My knight,” she said, burger held neatly between her fingers, the mess of it constrained between the buns and the plate.

“My king,” Kage murmured, bowing his head. 

“You may sit,” she said, and then turned back to her food. Kage sat across from her, fingers digging at his gloves. The sight of her burger made his own stomach twist. It had been a while since he’d eaten anything - and he wasn’t even sure it was hunger tugging at his stomach. It felt like something a bit more like nausea.

He pushed past it anyway. “Do you have some time for some questions, my king?” he asked, fingers twitching.

Salter’s eyes flickered to him. One finger rose to wipe ketchup from the corner of her mouth like a blood smear. “It depends,” she said evenly, “on the question. What is it you wish to know, my knight?”

Kage swallowed. His fingers twitched. “CasCu’s been acting odd,” he said, the words tight in his throat.

Salter made no comment. Her expression was cold, almost downright bored. He knew she didn’t care about CasCu - if he was acting odd, then that was no matter to her. Kage had still hoped that a part of her would recognize Kage’s own care though, and then react accordingly. But she just bit into her burger again.

His gaze dropped to the table. “There’s something wrong with him,” he said, quiet, “Something beyond what Irisviel described about his condition. I’m afraid that - that he’s been corrupted by a grail, somehow.”

That got Salter’s attention. She set her burger back onto her plate. “If he had been corrupted by the grail, we would see the marks. We all show the signs of our corruption.”

Kage nodded. She was right. Both Salter and Jalter were pale imitations of their other selves. Both Alter and Kage himself bore curse marks that writ and decorated their skin. Armor and clothing often took darker hues than the originals - in blacks and reds and purples. In each case, evidence of the grail’s mark was clear.

“He does some show signs,” Kage said - not completely a lie, but partially there. “His eye is gold instead of red, and his hair’s gone a paler shade of blue as well. And if he has curse marks, they could be hidden beneath his clothes. Alter’s are all over his chest and arms. Those areas on CasCu are covered.” 

Salter hummed one note that might have been assent. She pressed her finger against the seeds of her burger’s bun, and then began to pluck them off, one by one. “What does it change, if he is corrupted? Corruption is not something that can be fixed so easily.”

“Except in the fuck ton of singularities in which Gudao’s done just that,” Kage snapped, fingers flexing.

She leveled her gaze on him, and he bit himself off, restraining the rest of the words that wanted to bubble up. When she spoke, her voice was level. “Those were in Singularities, and we had the power and technology to do so - or loopholes within the structure of the events. This is different. We do not fight with a fully stocked base. If he has changed because of corruption, he might not be able to be … rescued.”

“But there’s a possibility that he can be, right?” Kage asked, the words coming out in something that could almost be considered a beg.

“I suppose they could,” she mused, glancing away from him. Her eyes scanned the long expanse of the new cafeteria. They narrowed in thought, then glanced at him, sharp as ever, “This is a foolish dream you’re chasing. What will you do if it all crashes down?”

He couldn’t answer, for a moment, his throat working with effort. When he did speak, it was a rasp, “I’m willing to take that risk. Done it before.”

“You didn’t know the consequences of failure, before.” She mused, watching him, her gaze lingering on his curse marks. He didn’t know how to reply to that. His throat locked up into a painful knot. Then she turned her gaze away, and picked up her burger once more. “I will look into the possibility of the grail’s corruption,” she said, “but corruption isn’t the only way to change a Servant.”

Kage froze. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

“Watch the Servants of Chaldea,” Salter said, “watch how they interact, how they shift - and watch, those that might have more than one mind in one body. See if there are any similarities. That situation is not too different from the one Irisviel described, is it? Perhaps there are connections there you can draw upon.”

He sat there, frozen by her words, as she returned to her meal. It didn’t take a genius to know the meaning behind her words. She meant the Pseudo-Servants. Those like Ishtar and Ereshkigal, or like Pavarti, or Zhang Li. The Spirits that had been summoned and then placed within a human vessel. In most cases, it was the Spirit that gained control. In some cases, it was the vessel that managed to be front and center. The one who was in control seemed to depend on if the Spirit was divine or human …

And with Huginn, Munnin, vestiges of Odin and Skadi in CasCu’s head - well, the answer of who would be on top in a situation like that was a painful, convoluted mess.
Kage felt a little sick. He didn’t want to imagine CasCu in a situation like that. But he knew - he knew that he had to. Had to consider all the possibilities, as much as even thinking about them made him want to throw up. 

“Hai, my king,” he mumbled, his words numb on his lips. 

“Good,” Salter said, then turned to focus on her burger once more. 

She said nothing, as Kage pushed himself out of his chair and left the cacophony of the cafeteria behind him. The promise of her help was cold comfort against the possibility she had brought up. He knew, logically, that it was one that he would have to consider. It was far more likely then the fucking grail. But while the grail was something they could fight, could win CasCu back from - the thought of possession was completely different. Kage wasn’t sure if there was a way to pull CasCu back from that.

So he didn’t think about it. He shoved the thought to the back of his head as he walked, until the last vestige of it was the tremble in his clenched fists.

Chapter 19: Chapter 19

Summary:

Cookies can solve everything, right?

Notes:

Hey everyone! Thank you so much for your comments and kudos! I hope you all enjoy, and hope you have a great day!

Chapter Text

Nobunaga’s conspiracy board had expanded with a ferocity that showcased their devotion to the case. Kage had contributed too many of the notes. Alter, Cu, and Proto had their own - and others, from Fuuma and Achilles, people who had been close to CasCu before everything had gone down. By now, the board was so covered in notes and red string that it looked as insane as any one of Nobunaga’s half-baked plans.

They had gathered in Nobunaga’s rooms, Kage, the Cus, and her, to discuss everything they had discovered so far and what it could possibly mean. The room wasn’t large enough for all five of them. Nobunaga had flown to the ceiling on one of her guns, and was using another as a pointer. The rest of them were forced to sit far to close for comfort, with Alter’s bulk taking up most of the bed and the space around it. Proto and Cu sat down before him, staring up at Nobunaga. Kage had been forced to curl up on the beanbag. The conspiracy board blurred into a mass of color before him.

“So!” Nobunaga called, rapping her gun against her hand, “We now have enough evidence to get a better idea of what’s going on with CasCu! President Kage, shall we begin the breakdown of evidence?”

Kage grimaced, and scrubbed his face with his hand. He was exhausted. Even delegating things and taking time to breathe hadn’t helped. He couldn’t sleep at night. Time was barely spent at the kitchens - he spent more time pulling his weight around trying to get the tech in the infirmary online. It meant risking time spent near Nightingale, which was fucking dangerous when he looked like the wreck he currently was. That act in of itself said enough about what mental state he was in.

“This,” he said, “is not a club meeting Nobbu. I’m not the president of shit.”

Nobunaga pointed the gun at him. “You are the one who brought this to attention, so you are the one who must give us permission to begin!”

Kage didn’t miss the way Cu shifted, as if to make sure Kage was covered by his protections in case Nobunaga’s gun misfired. Kage wasn’t concerned. He knew Nobbu’s guns - they didn’t fire unless she wanted them to fire. He just sighed, and ran his hand through his tangled hair. “Fine, fine. I, president Kage, give you permission to start this discussion.” He put as much sarcasm in his words as possible, and paired them with an eye roll. 

It made him feel marginally better.

Nobunaga ignored his attitude. “Wabi Sabi! Then we begin at the beginning.” She floated up, tapping her gun against the far corner of her conspiracy board. “During the Lostbelt, CasCu was experiencing odd dreams and phantom pains. Alter can attest to both of these, while Gudako can attest to the odd dreams. Scáthach , who was present for the entirety of the Lostbelt, attests to neither of these. She also doesn’t know when CasCu’s runes changed color - something Alter states happened during the Lostbelt, but before the birds and CasCu blended. So obviously,” she held her gun up, pointed at the ceiling, “something has tampered with Scáthach ’s memories. Most likely, it was CasCu himself.”

“CasCu’s runes aren’t powerful enough to break through Scáthach ’s protections,” Proto said, frowning. 

“They’re stronger now,” Cu said, shaking his head. “If Scáthach had dropped her guard, or was taken unawares, or he was simply too powerful, he might have managed. But CasCu wouldn’t have a reason to use them on her.”

“Unless he had something to hide,” Nobunaga said, pointing the gun at Cu as if in acknowledgement of his point. “And that brings me to the second half of the Lostbelt. But not the birds yet.” She paused, giving them all time to digest that, before she grinned. “You might remember that I was deployed while we were fighting Surtr and Skadi - and something I noticed was that Skadi was very clear she required CasCu’s help in restraining Surtr. She claimed she needed another rune caster, but if CasCu’s runes were not strong enough to take down Scáthach then , how could they be strong enough to restrain Surtr?”

She went quiet, aura radiating smugness, as they all stat there and sucked in the information. Kage made a soft noise between his teeth, faint and sharp. “They wouldn’t be,” he said, quiet, “unless Skadi knew something about CasCu that we didn’t.” 

“Exactly!” Nobunaga crowed, “and that brings us to the ravens. With their sacrifice and CasCu’s, his whole appearance and demeanor changed. And during that fight, when we were all frozen, what happened?” She pointed her finger at Kage.

Kage blinked at her, a bit stunned. “The- communication and cameras cut off.” He said, numbly. “But didn’t Skadi do that?” 

“Why should she? She had nothing to hide. But someone else did.” Nobunaga grinned at them, sharp, her gun poking against the papers repeatedly. “She and CasCu had a conversation between themselves as they fought, and CasCu didn’t want anyone else to know what they were talking about.”

“But he doesn’t … have that power,” Cu said, a bit quieter.

Alter grunted, the first words he’d spoken this whole time. “He would if he had a gods power. Which is what he claims he has now.”

“Exactly,” Nobunaga proclaimed, her gun swinging wide, banging against the wall. “According to CasCu and Irisviel’s preliminary readings, he’s got parts of Huginn, Muninn, Odin, and Skadi in him. He claims that those presences have pushed out his memories, causing him to act in the way he is - but that shouldn’t have caused such a drastic change in personality. It’s more like something doing the bare minimum to excuse their sudden appearance. All we know for sure is that he’s gotten an influx of Nordic power from somewhere. Which brings us to now, here in the Wandering Sea.”

She slapped her hand against her gun, then dismissed it. “Now, my generals! Bring me the reports of your efforts! What has CasCu been up to these previous days?”

“I thought you were the president,” Proto muttered, leaning closer towards Kage.

Kage scoffed. “It’s Nobbu. She was bound to take control over this meeting eventually.”

Nobunaga sent him a glare, and Kage fell silent. The outline of the situation had tanked his mood again. He wasn’t feeling fully up to snide remarks and poking anyway. All he wanted was a fucking answer … and it seemed like Nobunaga was building herself a case up to one. 

“Don’t make me point,” she threatened, after another long beat of silence. 

Alter grunted, his tail tip twitching along her bed. “I’ve only gotten to speak to him once, to see if he’d gotten through the binder yet. He’s been working on it.” He paused, for a split second, then continued. “This binder is going to give the thing pretending to be CasCu all the backstory he requires to start acting like real CasCu, so I’ve held off giving him my part.”

Kage caught the implications of those words. His head spun. He stared at Alter, a hollow pit in his stomach. “The thing?”

Alter grunted his affirmative. “He doesn’t smell like CasCu does. So either he’s so fucked up his smell’s changed, or it’s not CasCu.”

Gods - that - Kage made a noise in the back of his throat, tight. Just the thought that CasCu had somehow been - replaced made him sick. Nobunaga glanced to him, rose an eyebrow in silent question. Kage worked his jaw, then nodded to her, once, and she spun and pointed her gun at Cu. “Next!”

Cu grimaced, leaning back against the bed. “Achilles has noticed CasCu’s acting odd too, but they haven’t spent much time together. I’ve been checking with the other people CasCu spends time with … but it’s harder. He spent time with them more sporadically before shit went down. Not spending time with them now is hardly abnormal for him.”

Kage grimaced at Cu’s words. He hated that it was fucking true. CasCu wasn’t as big a social butterfly as Cu and Proto were - he preferred to spend his time reading. Doing calming, relaxing things. As a result, his social circle wasn’t as big. Fewer people who would notice that something was wrong with him. It made Kage sick to think about it.

“As for Scathach,” Cu hesitated, then continued, “I’ve been careful about approaching her. She’s been acting as if everythings fine. As far as I can see, she’s buying the story CasCu’s been passing around completely.”

“Not surprising,” Nobunaga said, before her gun swiveled to point at Proto. “Next!”

Proto made a face and scooted away from where Kage sat. The gun tracked his movements. He winced slightly, than spoke. “Kotarou’s been tailing CasCu’s movements,” he said, slow, “ and so far he hasn’t been discovered yet, but CasCu - he’s been poking into areas of the Wandering Sea that he has no place poking into. Secret hunting. Kotarou says he hasn’t broken into anything, but with the way CasCu’s been acting … really, it’s only a matter of time. He wants to know what he should do in CasCu does break into something he shouldn’t.” 

Sion will likely be able to tell,” Cu pointed out. “Isn’t this her place? She probably has safety measures for just that thing.”

“Maybe not,” Nobunaga mused, with a light far too bright in her eyes. “ Sion ’s been here by herself, hasn’t she? No reason for safety measures then … some of those secrets might be unguarded.” 

“It doesn’t matter,” Kage said, scowling. His words tasted bitter in his mouth. “What Fuuma shouldn’t do is confront him about it. If CasCu is fucking - manipulating Scáthach somehow, then he can do the same to Fuuma. He should fucking - call Gudako and Sion and probably fucking others so they can catch CasCu red-handed .” 

For a moment, silence as everyone took in those words. Kage sucked in a harsh breath between his teeth, and scrubbed at his face. His eyes were burning, painful and hot, and he - wanted to cry. Gods, he wanted to cry. He was fucking talking about setting CasCu to get caught breaking into the Wandering Seas’ secrets. It felt like the world was crumbling all fucking over again. Couldn’t they fucking catch a break?

A hand patted his shoulder, small and warm. Nobunaga’s. Her high-pitched voice spoke by his side. “You heard the president, Proto. Give Fuuma his orders, hai?”

“Yeah, I will,” Proto said, his voice a bit softer, quieter. It lacked all the energy it had carried with it a few moments ago. Kage resisted the strangled urge to scream.

Silence again, for a long moment. Nobunaga wasn’t the only one touching him now. It felt like one of the Cus had fallen against Kage’s side, pressed shoulder to shoulder, warmth seeping into his skin. The motion was so reminiscent of what CasCu would do that Kage did make a sound, tight and strangled in the back of his throat. 

But it also ignited his indignation. This as just the sort of fucking thing they would do with their Emiyas, and Kage wasn’t theirs. They weren’t his Cu. His Cu was out there, something horribly wrong with him, and he was sitting here sucking in savage breaths and trying not to cry - he growled, low and furious, then raised his head. “My turn?” 

“It can’t be helped,” Nobunaga said. 

Kage sucked in a sharper breath, then let it out in a rush. He shifted a bit away from Cu - which somehow stung more than if it had been Proto or Alter - and dug his fingers into his hands. Just breathe. Breathe, and fucking speak.

“Salter says that, whatever is affecting CasCu, it’s not the fucking Grail,” he said, “She sensed none of it’s corruption from him. She also said to look at the other Heroic Spirits whose Spirit Origins are … off. I’ve been looking, and it’s - fuck, there might be something there, but I haven’t found it yet. Not enough time to look. I’ve been focusing on the equipment for examinations, helping out where I can. Irisviel thinks it should take about three more days before it’s ready. Gudako has already ordered that a full examination of CasCu’s Spirit Origin will be the first thing they do with it.”

“Good,” Alter rumbled, once.

Kage nodded. “Irisviel had wanted to do another examination of him one on one … but he’s been dodging all attempts and Gudako’s been too busy to pin him down. They’re trying to connect Gudako to the mana pool of the Wandering Sea like she was connected to Chaldea. They’re also hoping to get the Summoning up and running in the next week.”

“That’s it!”

Nobunaga’s shriek was so loud, Kage nearly jumped out of his skin, and he was used to her voice pitching up to decibels only dogs could hear. Alter growled furiously, shrinking back against the bed. Both Proto and Cu scrambled back - and Kage wondered for a wild moment if they could hear her voice when it went that high.

“That’s what?” He retorted, pushing her head away from his ear.

“The Summoning Circle!” Nobunaga flew away from him, her gun speeding her across the room, a new gun pointing at her conspiracy board. “If Gudako manages to summon a Servant from that Lostbelt, then they might know what’s going on with CasCu!”

“Skadi won’t come,” Alter said, tail lashing against the bed. 

“But Brynhild and Sigurd might,” Cu mused, “and possibly the Valkyries - you think they’re in tune enough with Norse magecraft to figure out what’s going on with CasCu?”

“Wabi Sabi!” Nobunaga crowed in agreement. “Either that, or they’ll be able to give us a clue! Until then, we have to work on some  remaining theories -” she pointed to the board, banging the muzzle of her musket against each of the cards. “Possession, replacement, and the split spirit origin! One will be easier to rule out than the others, and that’s going to be replacement.” She beamed at them all, as if pleased by her assessment.

It wasn’t a wrong one, by any means. There was only three options left to them. Either CasCu had been completely replaced, or he was possessed by something, or he had fallen into a situation much like many of the Psuedo-Servants in Chaldea had. That last one aligned the most with the excuses CasCu was using now. Possession and replacement were different. 

As long as they could prove that CasCu was in there, then they could say something had possessed him or he had a split Spirit Origin. If they couldn’t, it was more likely that he’d been replaced by something. The first two they could work with. The last one made Kage sick with fear and worry and preemptive grief.

“So,” Proto asked, leading, “what are we going to do to prove it?”

“We start poking buttons!” Nobunaga cackled, spinning around and around on her gun in manic circles. “If we start pressing things that are guaranteed to get a reaction out of CasCu, then we’re bound to figure out if he’s still in there! That will be Kage and I’s job. You three!” Three guns appeared to point at the three Cus. “You will be doing research.”

Cu whined. “Really?” 

“Really,” Nobunaga leaned forwards, her smile wide. “We need to know what CasCu’s been searching for, and I bet he found the first steps in the library. We also need to know what’s got CasCu in its grips, or what could have replaced him. We’ve got hints right now, but the library will get us something more solid. Do you think you can do that?”

The Cus glanced at each other. Proto looked a little despairing; Cu’s face twisted up in disgust - but both of their expressions smoothed out, determination taking them over. Alter nodded once. “We will.”

Nobunaga’s hands clapped sharply together. Her grin was wide and dangerous, the sort of grin she wore right before she lit fire to something very, very explosive. And despite the absolute shit of a situation, Kage found himself taking comfort in that grin. It was a grin that got things done, no matter what.

“Wabi Sabi!” She crowed, “Then shoo! We will reconvene at a later date to go over what we have discovered about - this Not-CasCu. Kage and I need this space to plan!”

So they left. Alter first, in a wash of sparks as he took Spirit Form. Proto was also a bit hasty in his retreat, casting an almost nervous glance at Nobunaga’s guns as he did so. Cu was the slowest. He stopped on his way to the door. For a second, his hand lingered on Kage’s shoulder, warm. “You’re doing good,” he murmured. “CasCu would be happy.”

Kage flinched at the words, at the touch. His eyes strayed to the conspiracy board. “I know,” he mumbled, barely heard even to his own ears.

Cu nodded, and left. The room suddenly felt larger in the silence. Nobunaga floated down until her feet touched the floor. Her gun disappeared. She walked over to collapse by Kage’s side, her small body knocking into his. Unlike Cu’s touch, Nobunaga’s was entirely welcome. Kage sagged into her, and closed his eyes.

“That went well,” Nobunaga noted. “I told you delegation would get things done quicker.”

“You didn’t tell me shit,” Kage muttered.

Nobunaga laughed, this short, wild sound. “I suppose I didn’t!”

For a moment, they both sat there, quiet and breathing. Kage squeezed his eyes shut, then let it out in one long whoosh. He sagged a bit more against Nobunaga’s side. “Nobbu?” he asked, small.

“Hai?” 

“Which -” he stopped, worked his jaw, then swallowed, “Which one do you think is more likely? The possession, the spirit origin, or the replacement?”

Nobunaga didn’t hesitate. “The possession.” 

Kage swallowed hard, then turned to press his face into the fabric of her hat. It was a stupid hat - didn’t squish when he applied pressure, was rough against his cheeks, but it eased the painful urge to cry. 

Nobunaga gave him a moment, then continued talking. “We still, however, have to explore all avenues of answers. It could be a replacement - but whatever replaced him was affecting him before the swap happened. It’s just unlikely. We’ve practically already proven it can’t be a split Spirit Origin, because all the changes happened before he pulled in those new Spirit Origins - the only way it’d be that if this was here before the Lostbelt. Possession’s the better answer here, but harder to prove.”

“Unless he got replaced at the beginning of the Lostbelt,” Kage rasped out, swallowing hard. 

“Hai, hai! Then it can’t be helped,” Nobunaga nodded, then patted his hand. “But if it’s a replacement, even if it could fool Irisviel, it won’t be able to match the database with Sherlock comparing the readings. But if it’s possession - it’d be the same as Sigrid! Still reading as his Spirit Origin, even if it’s been slightly fucked with.”

“And if it is possession,” Kage asked, his voice small, “what do you think caused it?”

“Something in the Lostbelt, no doubt,” Nobunaga said, “but I have no clue what yet! So the best thing we can do is wait for the researchers to get their references! And the best thing we can do is prove that it’s not a replacement by drawing CasCu out.”

Kage nodded, shakily into her hat. When he said nothing, she elbowed him lightly in the side. “And the person whose going to be doing that is you,” she said, her voice softer. “After all, who knows him better? If there’s CasCu left in that mind, then he’ll be reaching out for you. You just have to keep your hand extended.”

“I’ve been giving him space,” Kage muttered, into her hat. “It’s what he wanted.”

“What he wanted,” Nobunaga says, with extreme lightness, “doesn’t matter anymore. It’s not wabi sabi! Can’t be helped. So you are going to need to be there for him, doing all the things that CasCu will respond to.”

It made sense. It made a lot of sense … and Kage hated that a part of him was fucking scared. And that made him angry. He scowled into the fabric of Nobunaga’s cap, gritted his back teeth. “And if it makes my curse flair up? If I -”

“Then use that curse!”

Kage yanked his head up, away from her. “Ex-fucking-scuse me?!” He shrieked. 

Nobunaga leapt to her feet, spinning to face him. Her teeth were bared in a feral grin. “You’re not fucking excused! Your curse is a pain in the ass, but it’s also a weapon! Just like the way I died is a weapon! Just like the way everyone else uses their own curses as a weapon! How do you think CasCu feels when it affects you? How do you think that CasCu would feel to see you reacting so badly to his personality swap that your curses were pushing you to kill him? He’d rebel, wouldn’t he? If there is a scrap of CasCu within that mind, then he’d fight tooth and nail to free himself just to make sure you didn’t suffer the pain of that curse. You’ve been keeping it in for so long - it’s time to let loose a little!”

“Are you kidding me!” Kage surged to his feet. “Nobunaga - if I let that loose I’ll fucking kill someone!” He knew it. He knew it to his fucking bones - if the web of lines around his arm and face, if that cursed mana was allowed to touch this world, then he would start , and he wouldn’t stop. Especially if he used it against CasCu. After all, if CasCu was better off dead, then wouldn’t everyone else be too?

“No, you won’t,” Nobunaga said, meeting his gaze. “I’ll be there, and so will Gudako. I will mobilize the troops to make sure everyone’s watching. Do my flames consume everything around me?” 

“Yes?!”

Nobunaga burst out laughing. “Only when I want them too!”

“That doesn’t matter!” Kage protested. He fumbled for a moment. His hand reached out to his arm, felt the pulse and web beneath his skin. His fingers dug into the flesh there, biting, as if he could rip it out. “I won’t use it, I won’t let it go,” he hissed, “ I wouldn’t fucking dare. I still remember what that curse made me think, makes me - I don’t - don’t want to become that thing again.”

She stared at him, her head tipped to the side, red eyes evaluating, like she couldn’t fully understand the words. Then again, how could she? This was Oda Nobunaga they were talking about here. She accepted everything she was, every aspect as her myth, and ran with it past the point of no return. Not using a weapon in her arsenal was simply something she was incapable of doing. But Kage was different. He couldn’t, he couldn’t.

And she must have seen it on his face. Her expression softened. “Hai, hai, it can’t be helped,” she agreed, and then, “there’s another way to pull him out.”

Kage paused, this brief thing. Bit by bit, he forced his hand to unclench from his arm. “How?” he asked, the words a rasp.

Nobunaga’s grin was sudden and bright and vicious as a blade. “With the prank love language of course!”

His mind went blank. He took a few moments, to process the words. He wet his lips, then nodded, slowly. “The prank love language.” He repeated, as if he couldn’t fully believe the words. He knew of the concept, he just didn’t know how the fuck it was supposed to apply here. And after the conversation they just had, his mind was having a hard time playing catchup with a concept so divorced from reality.

Nobunaga left his side, swift, and started rummaging around her room. “Of course it is! There’s nothing better for something like this.” She stumbled back from a drawer, a pamphlet held high above her head in triumph. Kage had no clue how one had managed to escape Chaldea’s devastation.

Knowing Nobunaga, she had probably inscribed the damn idea of the thing into one of her nobbus, and had used them to replicate it. Or she just constantly walked around with one tucked underneath her hat.

Kage gave into the urge to scrub his face. He sucked in a sharp breath between his teeth, then let it out in a sharp whoosh. “And how?” he asked, “is the prank love language applicable to this? I’m not confessing to him!”

Nobunaga danced back to him and plopped right against his side. “Because,” she said, like it was obvious, “It will pull CasCu out of the bastard. The prank love language is designed to showcase how much you know a person, hai? So you can use the pranks you know CasCu would hate the most - or even like the most - to get a reaction out of him! It will be so wabi sabi. That thing in his mind won’t know what hit him!”

Kage stared at her. “Are you … fucking admitting that your pranks piss people off?”

“No!” She squawked, “I’m admitting that you know that some of these pranks will piss CasCu off! Besides, wouldn’t it be delightful to cover that thing wearing his face in glitter? You can make its life hell, in return for your boyfriend. Not-CasCu won’t know what hit it!”

That … was an appealing thought. Kage found himself taking the pamphlet. Stupidly, he eased at the touch. The feeling of his fingers rustling through the pages, flipping through the different pranks, was familiar. Nobunaga … was right about this. He did know the pranks CasCu would genuinely hate. He did know the pranks CasCu found annoying. If he wasn’t going to use his curse, then this was another way to pull him out, and if it didn’t …

“People will know it’s not CasCu if he doesn’t react the way CasCu would,” Kage said. His fingers paused on the hair dye page. 

“It can’t be helped,” Nobunaga said, decidedly pleased. Her grin was as nasty as he’d ever seen it.

Kage nodded. He snapped the booklet shut, then tucked it into his pocket. “It’s better than the fucking curse,” he admitted, “but I’m not sure that I want to piss CasCu off if he’s being possessed. I’d rather try to pull him out other ways .”

Nobunaga leaned back against her bed with a wave of her hand, “I suppose,” she said, with a loud sigh, “it can’t be helped. All you got to do is be your normal annoying, stubborn self. That usually works at getting his head out of his arse.”

She was right about that. Kage found himself laughing, briefly, before he reached out and tugged her into another hug. She squeaked at the squeeze, then wrapped him up tight, her little fist pounding at his back. “Thank you,” he muttered, quiet between the slams. 

“Hai, hai,” she wheezed. 

Kage let go of her, pulling back. She squeezed his shoulder once, then let go and bounced up, holding her hand out for him. “Now,” she said, grinning sharply, “go get him tiger!”

Kage groaned, but he took her hand anyway, and let her pull him up. And as he did so, he felt something burning in his chest that hadn’t since this whole damn thing started. Hope. It was a flicker of fragile shit, and Kage knew better than to trust it - after all, hope had a stupid way of abandoning people when it was needed the most - but at the start of this meeting there’d been nothing but despair and spite. Now? Now they had a plan of attack. They had a way fucking forwards. 

And Kage was going to reach CasCu, no matter what it fucking took to do so.

 

His first step was to go to the kitchens. It felt like it’d been too long since he’d stepped into there with a plan. He saw, out of the corner of his eye, Emiya. He focused instead on Boudica, the human parts of the kitchen crew, saw out of the corner of his eye Raikou - no Tamamo Cat though, and with a horrid slick of shock, Kage realized he didn’t know if she was one of the ones who died in the attack on Chaldea or not. He certainly hadn’t seen her since they’d came to the Wandering Sea.

He shoved that thought out of his mind. He could find out when he had time to grieve, when everything with CasCu’s oddities was over with.

Kage gave a wide berth to Emiya, nodded to those that nodded to him, and booked it to Boudica’s side. “Hey, Boudica!”

Boudica looked up, eyes wide, though her faced softened immediately when she saw him. “Hello, Kage,” she said, “I feel like I haven’t seen you in a while.”

“I’ve been… fucking busy,” Kage said, “is there a corner of the kitchen that’s been left unclaimed? Preferably a place where I can bake?”

“The kitchens aren’t as large here as they are in Chaldea,” she warned, though it was a fact Kage already knew, “but I suppose no one is using the back corner regularly. Would you like some help with your baking?”

“No, thank you.” Kage said, heading towards that corner. “Thanks, Boudica.”

“You’re welcome,” she called after him. 

Kage stayed quiet instead of responding, and found his place in that corner. There wasn’t a lot of room - but that was fine. He wasn’t going to be cooking a lot… he just wanted enough for two, one of them with CasCu’s appetite. For a moment, he listened to the noise of these kitchens - the murmur of the kitchen staff, Raikou and Boudica’s voice, the disgruntled silence that always radiated from Emiya when Kage was near. Then Kage blocked it all out, and started to pull out his bowl, his whisk, and his pans. 

He fell, far too easily, into the familiar rhythm of cooking. And as he did, he found himself centering. That hope was still warm and fragile in his chest, but it felt like every movement nurtured it. CasCu was not a complex person - or at least he was always easily pleased by food. Some of his favorite deserts and baked goods were the easiest things to make - at least for Kage. And today, for CasCu, he would pull out the shortbread cookies.

It was a familiar pattern, comforting, and as he worked he could feel himself settling. This was a recipe he had cooked often for CasCu. It - along with sugar cookies, popcorn, and various other snacks - was one of the things they ate most during movies. 

Kage had no clue if the Wandering Sea had an entertainment center. Considering it was run by a group of mages - probably not. Then again, Chaldea had entertainment centers galore, so there was always a chance, though if there were any options available … well, it was a plan for another time. Kage didn’t want to push too hard. He just wanted to wake CasCu up, just to see if there was a flash there.

When he was done, he set the cookies gently in a Tupperware container, and picked it up in his hands. He reached out mentally. “Hey, Fuuma? Where’s Not-CasCu right now?”

It took a few moments to get a reply. “He is in the library,” Fuuma said, “reading. I do not know how long he will be here for. It seems as if he is searching for something.”

Probably a way into all of the Wandering Sea’s horrible secrets, Kage thought. But he didn’t give the words voice. Just nodded, and started out of the kitchen, Tupperware held carefully between his fingers. “Grand. I’m on my way.”

 

The library of the Wandering Sea had bought into the place’s steampunk aesthetic full force, no holds bared. There was a copper desk at the front, where a librarian would sit, though it was empty at the moment. Softly glowing screens adorned its surface. The rest of the library was copper and tin, molded in the same way the hanger and the rooms were, with pipes and rivets holding it all together. The bookshelves were metal and economical, and all the tomes stored upon them seemed thick, dusty. Textbooks and research materials - hardly anything that could be considered light reading. The tables and benches looked like they were ripped straight from a prison facility - cold, hard, and uncomfortable. The lights were dim, golden, and gave the whole thing an almost claustrophobic feeling.

It was the complete opposite of Chaldea ’s library, which was open and bright with the snowy white light constantly pouring from the windows, with chairs of all types and pillows and blankets inviting people to sit. This place looked like it demanded study, and to be uncomfortable while you learned. 

Kage hated it immediately. CasCu would have too, if he’d been fucking normal.

Kage walked up to the desk, and glanced down at it. No library assistant - instead, there was a screen, an automated assistant. It read, ‘HOW MAY I HELP YOU TODAY?’ with a list of options pulsing gently beneath it. 

Like hell was he going to use that. Kage passed by the desk and walked further into the library. The shelves seemed to swallow him up. The deeper he went, the darker it got - it was like the only light came from what bounced off the metal shells. If he wasn’t a Servant, and an Archer at that, he might have gotten fucking lost.

As it was, Kage still relied on Not-CasCu’s Servant presence to guide him. The old man hadn’t bothered to cover it up. In a way … it almost seemed like a taunt, a dare. Like he knew he was stepping on toes and didn’t care, confident in his abilities to get away with anything. It itched at the back of Kage’s mind. He squeezed his hands around the Tupperware , and continued forwards, turning around the last bookshelf to finally see him.

In the dark lighting, Not-CasCu’s newly silvered hair looked like it belonged to a ghost. Everything else about him - from the raven feathers to the darker clothes to the eye patch he wore - blended in with the shadow. He was half hidden by stacks of books, one open in front of him. A finger lay on the page. His remaining eye moved with a quickness that CasCu had never had before while reading, and in the dark it seemed to glow.

He didn’t look up as Kage moved over. He did speak though, quiet and composed. “Finally tired of watching me?” 

“Finally fucking tired of giving you space,” Kage retorted. “Obviously it’s not helping you at all. Finish that binder yet, old man?” 

Not-CasCu paused, briefly, and Kage wondered for a fleeting moment if Not-CasCu had somehow noticed Fuuma, despite Spirit Form and Presence Concealment combined. But then he raised his head, watching Kage for a moment, before his expression shifted - something more a facsimile of a smile CasCu might have used. “I have been working through it slowly,” he said, “though the writing leaves some to be desired. How have you found yourself these past days, Kage?”

Kage felt something sick and violent in the center of his chest and deep in his gut to hear those words. It was just like they worried - giving Not-CasCu that book had given him a guide on how to act like CasCu. He’d already learned to lie like CasCu, obviously, with a smile that didn’t reach his eyes. But his voice was still all too wrong.

Obviously hadn’t gotten to the part where they’d shacked up. A part of Kage couldn’t help but be relieved. If he heard one of CasCu’s nicknames from the mouth of this imposter, he would have thrown up.

“Like shit, obviously,” Kage said instead. He set the Tupperware down on the table, then shoved Not-CasCu’s books aside. Not-CasCu watched him sit with a bemused expression. Kage crossed his arms over his chest, let his leg reach out to knock his ankle into Not-CasCu’s warm one. That warmth gave him some strength, damn it. “Been missing you, old man,” he said, and met the fucker’s eye, hoped that inside his CasCu was looking out at him. Could hear him, and understood him.

“Have you now?” Not-CasCu said, his face a mask of bland amusement. He carefully closed his book, and then reached out to start restocking the ones that Kage knocked down. “You have an interesting way of showing it.”

“Damn right I do. You’ll learn all about it,” Kage said, and then picked up the Tupperware container and plopped it down in front of Not-CasCu. “For you, old goat.”

“Oh?” A single eyebrow. “I wasn’t aware that we were close enough to give presents.”

“You better fucking keep on reading that damn binder then,” Kage said, jaw tight. “Because that would have been fucking obvious pretty soon.”

“Perhaps I will,” Not-CasCu mused. He reached over, and opened the Tupperware . He paused. His fingers gave a faint twitch, before resting on the lip of the container. “Cookies?” 

“Your favorite,” Kage said, watching him closely. “Made by yours fucking truly . They’re not poisoned - but they might jog some of your damn memories if you’re still having trouble with them.” 

Not-CasCu let out a singular hum, before closing the Tupperware . “I will make sure to enjoy them at my leisure later.” He said, and it wasn’t - quite dismissive, but there was something in that tone that made Kage itch to punch the thing that wore CasCu’s face.

Kage leaned a bit forwards, across the table, and tacked a smile onto his face, too sharp. “Why not have some right now? It’s your only chance to rediscover a favorite desert, isn’t it? So why put it off until later?”

Something flickered in that old man’s face. A faint narrowing of the eyes. “Because,” he said, “I am reading. Certainly you have heard that you can’t bring food in the library.” 

“Whoops,” Kage said, “seems like I already broke that rule - not that this library had those rules posted.” He reached out, fingers snagging on the book Not-CasCu had been reading, and dragged it towards him.

Not-CasCu’s hand slammed down onto Kage’s own, stopping him. There was nothing friendly left in that gold eye. “What do you think you’re doing?”

There was threat there, soft and dangerous and just barely concealed. Kage thought of Scáthach ’s hesitation, of the fate that might befall him if he went too far. But he’d never been good at stopping when he could push. And Not-CasCu could hardly do something here, where people might be watching.

Kage bared his teeth at Not-CasCu. “You said you couldn’t eat because you were reading right? No book, no reading, so you can take a bite of that snack I made you. Unless,” Kage glanced down at the book, then back up to Not-CasCu, “you’re reading something I shouldn’t be looking at, old man.”

Not-CasCu stared at him. Kage met that gaze, waiting, waiting. The hand on his was heavy, as warm as CasCu’s usually was, but there was something in the way it gripped Kage’s that reminded him of a bird’s talons. His fingers were tipped in claws.

And then - he let out a little, soft laugh, and let go. “You are like them,” he said, more to himself than not, so quiet Kage barely caught it, and then, “Well, go ahead, give my book a look through … Kage. I’ll eat your cookies.”

That was … fucking unnerving. Kage dragged the book away, and watched as Not-CasCu settled back into his seat, and cracked the Tupperware open. There was a look of mirth in his eye, something wrong about the play of his lips, the way the corner tucked in. He found this amusing. And he wanted to Kage to know.

Cold cut through Kage’s stomach. Not-CasCu knew Kage knew something was off, and instead of cutting him off like he’d done Scáthach … he was letting Kage continue. Giving him crumbles. Being obvious. It was like he fucking wanted Kage to know that he wasn’t truely CasCu. Like it was a game that he was watching, drawing delight from how the players figured it out. It was a look that made Kage feel ill.

Kage dropped that gaze, and looked at the book Not-CasCu had been reading. He wasn’t too surprised to find that it was a book about architecture - specifically, secret passages. It was the sort of shit that would have sent CasCu passing out from boredom before this. Kage flipped through the pages, watched the different diagrams fly by, with their different lettering and small numbers. His fingers curled tight around the edges of the book.

“You looking for something, old man?” Kage asked, and tried to make it sound like a joke. It came out accusatory.

Not-CasCu played with a cookie instead of answering. He held it between his fingers, that almost-near smirk on his lips. Only when Kage was looking did he pop it into his mouth. He tilted his head back, closed with a hum. His throat bobbed with his swallow. There was nothing of the proper CasCu in the way he ate that.

Not-CasCu straightened, and stood. He clipped the top of the Tupperware in place, and then picked it up. “It’s exquisite,” he said, “ I can see why they were my favorite. May I have my book back now? I have plans on finishing it.”

Rage surged hot through Kage’s chest. He stood up swiftly, chair rattling across the ground, his hands slamming the book back down into the table. “No, you fucking can’t have it back! What the hell was that?”

“That?” Not-CasCu asked, his almost smirk growing, “That was me doing what you wanted. But I can see you’re a sore looser… makes sense, from what I have read in that binder.” He leaned over the table, and pulled the book from beneath Kage’s hand. For a moment, he was too close. His voice was all wrong, as it rushed past Kage’s ear. “Better luck next time.”

Better luck next time.

Kage stood there, stunned. The book slipped from his grasp. The sound of Not-CasCu’s footsteps began to move away from him, slow and deliberate, this unhurried movement. It felt like something in Kage had just shattered. He began to shake. His fingers dug into the metal of the damn table, and he heard it creak, dimple.

“You’ve changed your damn tune,” Kage said. He could barely recognize his own voice. There was a rush in his ears. His curses pulsed across his cheeks. 

Not-CasCu paused. His voice was low, and amused, and if Kage looked at him, he knew he would snap. So he didn’t. Just listened as Not-CasCu said, “What can I say? You’ve managed to intrigue me, Kage, and I think I’ll find your attempts quite a pleasant distraction from my main goals.”

Metal screeched. Kage could feel it bending beneath his fingertips. “What the fuck,” he rasped out, “have you done with CasCu?” 

“And what will you do if I don’t tell you?” There was a soft sound, almost like a sigh. Like a laugh.

Throw the damn desk at him. Kill him. CasCu was better off gone than in the clutches of an absolute bastard like this thing. He’d tell Gudako. Gudako’d be able to pry it out of Not-CasCu with a damn Command Seal, right? But Scáthach had fallen to this bastard’s power. Kage had no fucking illusions about the strength of rune craft against his Master. He was shaking harder. Metal cracked, buckled, and then his fingers punched through the table. Pain bloomed sharp in his hand.

“That’s what I thought,” Not-CasCu said. “You can do nothing, Kage. You are helpless. Any information you know is what I allow you to know. But there’s nothing interesting in a game where I have nothing to lose . So here’s a deal.”

“I don’t want it,” Kage rasped out.

“Don’t be too hasty,” Not-CasCu said. “If you can figure out the truth, then I’ll tell you what I’ve done with CasCu.”

Kage couldn’t say anything. It felt like the air had grabbed his throat and squeezed. That was admittance. It was admittance and the bastard didn’t even seem to care. 

“Say,” he continued, “meet me here in two days time. If you’ve figured it out by then, I’ll tell you the truth. If you haven’t … then I’ll wipe CasCu from your mind, and I will be the only CasCu you’ll have ever known. You won’t be missing him then, will you?”

Kage froze. “You can’t do that.”

“You’ll be surprised, at what I can do.”

Kage turned to stare at him. Not-CasCu stood there, between two shelves, books and Tupperware in his hands. The faint golden light painted him in stark contrast and shadow, half swallowed in darkness, with only parts of his hair and his face picked out in the light. That single golden eye glowed as he watched Kage. There was a smirk on his lips. It was the look of a puppeteer who’d gotten all his puppets in the right place, ready to watch them dance to his tune. 

Anger surged through Kage, red-hot and livid. His fingers clenched. Then he released the table, yanking his hand from the hole it had made so quickly the metal cut his skin again. This time, he didn’t feel the bloom of pain. He just felt the rage at this thing that wore CasCu’s face, who held answers just out of reach, right above a giant gulf.

He knew. He knew he should walk away. It was stupid, and idiotic, and fucking impulsive as shit. This was a poisoned apple, an Trojan horse. Not-CasCu promised answers, but what he would give was doom. If Kage lost, then this would all be for nothing. Kage wasn’t an idiot. Not-CasCu wouldn’t be saying this if he couldn’t pull whatever stunt he’d pull with Kage’s mind with every other person concerned about CasCu too. 

It was a trap, plain as fucking day. 

Kage held his bleeding hand out. Red dripped off his fingers and fell towards the floor. “Shake on it,” he said, sharp and vicious, the words near about hurting his mouth. “Shake on it, then we’ll have a deal.”

Not-CasCu considered him. And for a moment - Kage thought he saw a trace of panic in that eye, a flare of red, a desperate look - but it might have been wishful thinking, as it was gone in a flash and that look of amusement was back in place.

But it might also have been CasCu, reaching out towards him, warning him.

Too late. For Not-CasCu had crossed the space, and pressed his hand into Kage’s. His talon like fingers wrapped around Kage’s wrist. They shook, and Not-CasCu smiled. “We have a deal,” he said. He pulled his hand back, smearing blood upon the skin of them both, and then was gone, leaving Kage alone in the library with blood dripping from his hand and the heat of Not-CasCu’s palm against his skin.

Chapter 20: Chapter 20

Summary:

*Kronk voice* Oh yeah, it's all coming together

Notes:

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Chapter Text

The deal Kage had struck with Not-CasCu should have filled him with something - elation, relief, determination. And in some ways it had. There was a chance here. To get the answers he needed, a way to figure out what had happened … the price of failure, however, was so large that doom threatened everything. 

Kage had no illusions. His magic resistance was stretched thin, much of it focused on the curse that pulsed through his veins. He wasn’t sure he could resist whatever magecraft had ruined Scáthach ’s memory. And gods, Kage didn’t want to forget CasCu. But this chance was too damn good to pass up on. The doom, the fear, could kick it to the fucking curb. Kage had a fucking job to do.

And he had a starting point, right fucking here. Not-CasCu had forgotten his books. Not the one he’d fucking taken with him, obviously, but the stacks he’d been working through. It was a start, damn it, a start. Kage took his clothes to the blood on his skin, and then sat down. Each book was thicker than his wrist. Something twisted in his chest, then sunk. It was like staring at a pile of textbooks, dusty and heavy with age and importance.

Well, he didn’t have to read them to get an idea of what Not-CasCu had been searching for. Kage grabbed the first one and flipped to the back to read the synopsis.

It took a while for Kage to get through the damn synopsis, and even then, some fucking tomes didn’t have them. But a pattern was swift to emerge. Most of the books Not-CasCu were looking at were about modern styles of magecraft. Honestly, Kage was a bit fucking surprised that these had been a part of the Wandering Sea’s collection - most mages didn’t like sharing them. But what books weren’t about conceptual knowledge Kage couldn’t understand were about different styles of magecraft. It was the type of shit CasCu would have found impossibly boring before this shit.

Now, it made a pattern. Not-CasCu was searching for knowledge. Information he didn’t already know. So whatever was crouching within CasCu’s skin was a curious, nosey fucker, who loved learning above all else. 

Not much, but it was a start.

Kage sighed, then gathered the books up in his arms. He was halfway to the book return space when the back of his mind tingled. Proto’s voice floated through his conscious. The boy sounded… a bit startled, a bit hopeful, a bit confused. “Hey, Kage? Did you have a talk with CasCu?”

Something cold trickled into his gut. Kage’s footsteps quickened. “Just fucking encountered the bastard in the library. We had … a chat. He was looking at a lot of shit about architecture, conceptual shit, and modern magecraft. Not a good combo for how he’s been poking around things, is it?” 

“Oh.” Proto seemed to hesitate for a moment, as if uncertain.

Kage’s limited patience wore thin. “What?” He snapped, “Did the bastard say something?” 

“Y-yeah, he did,” Proto said, after another hesitation. “I don’t know what you said to him, but whatever it was… it worked. He apologized for how he’s been acting.” 

Kage’s feet stopped. For a second, he couldn’t breathe. The library around him yawned in its vastness; the books in his arms were suddenly too heavy. It felt as if his fingers had gone numb. His grip threatened to slip. “He what?” 

“He apologized,” Proto said, and there was something like hope in his voice. “He sounded - Kage, he sounded the most CasCu-like he’s sounded since the Lostbelt. Said he’d been reading through the binder - slowly, but he’d been reading - and that it was starting to awaken some things.” 

Something froze in Kage’s chest. His voice felt stiff to his own ears. “He’s a liar. You can’t fucking trust him.” 

“Yeah, but … what if it’s not a lie?” 

Proto’s voice held hope. A tiny bead of desperate hope and Kage wanted to drop these books and reach out and shake him, shake him hard. His fingers tightened, nails biting into the covers of those tomes Not-CasCu had been searching for. “Remember what Alter said? CasCu was fucking acting weird before the ravens hit him. He’s a liar, Proto. You can’t fucking trust a word that he says. That’s not -” His voice cut off, throat constricting.

“He is!” Proto said, his voice a rush, “I don’t - trust him. I don’t believe him … but what if everything that happened to him was Huginn and Munnin reaching out? It would make sense, wouldn’t it? CasCu wasn’t having any issues before the Lostbelt. If the birds were putting memories into his head before Surtr, then wouldn’t it explain everything? And if so, that means CasCu can come back. The binder will work.”

It wouldn’t, Kage wanted to say, because Not-CasCu had stopped playing. But Kage couldn’t speak - gods he could barely breathe. His mind felt constricted by a vice-like grip. His hand - the one that had shaken CasCu’s own, burned painful and hard. 

Proto seemed to take his silence for argument. He rushed to explain himself. “I’m not trying to say I believe him. I just… I want to believe it’s that simple, you know? That at the end of this, we’re all being paranoid, and CasCu will ultimately be alright. I’m still going to keep an eye on how he’s acting, but I hope … I hope it’s really that simple. I really fucking hope that CasCu’s coming back to us.” 

“It’s -” Kage managed to get out, and then pain exploded across his palm. He swore, jerked, the books tumbled from his grasp and stuck the floor in a litany of thumps. Kage half bowed over his hand, swearing at the stinging burn on it. He blinked harshly. His fingers spasmed, curled, as in the center of his palm, runes appeared in a blaze of gold. 

Isa, perbo.

Silence, hidden secrets.

And then in his ear, Not-CasCu’s voice, so soft and silky and quiet. “Now, now, brat, let’s not tell anyone else about our deal. Keep it between us, like the old days.” 

“Kage?” Proto’s voice, high and sharp in the back of Kage’s mind. “Kage, are you alright?” 

No, he wasn’t. Kage’s arm shook. He stared at the golden runes that had sunk into his skin. A binding. The fucker had placed a binding on him, and Kage hadn’t even noticed. Kage felt a bit sick. He swallowed dryly, and squeezed his hand shut, nails biting into the runes till it hurt. “I’m fine,” he shot back, “it’s fine. Do what you want. Just don’t fucking let your guard down, got it? You can have fucking hope , but it’s CasCu that’s at stake.” 

“I know,” Proto said, a bit sharper, and then he cut the connection. 

Kage’s ears rung. He sank to the floor, still gripping his hand. In his mind’s eye, he could still see Not-CasCu’s smirk, so full of amusement. This was why he’d been so willing to spill that he wasn’t CasCu, that he was someone else. Because he’d made sure that Kage couldn’t fucking talk. 

When had he placed the runes? When they were fighting over the book? The handshake to seal the deal? Rage rose up in Kage’s throat, and he tasted it like iron and smoke. “You fucking bastard,” he hissed.

“Have to be trickier than that,” Not-CasCu replied, and then he cut that connection too, leaving Kage’s head empty, alone.

And furious.

Tricky? Not-CasCu wanted tricky? Oh, Kage could do fucking tricky. He would fucking pull tricky. He’d fucking pull tricky until Not-CasCu was so thoroughly buried in glitter that he was choking on it, until he begged to be released from Kage’s tricks, until CasCu was given back on a fucking silver platter.

 

Kage broke into Nobunaga’s room in his classic way - stepping through the walls in Spirit Form, headless of what was actually going on within the room. Doing so had burned him the past. This time was different. Nobunaga wasn’t in here; the room was empty. Kage had the space to walk up to her massive conspiracy board, and locate the card with ‘POWERFUL RUNECRAFT’ on it, smack-dab in the middle of a cluster of red lines.

He projected a pen, and circled it a couple of times. The runes on his hand burned its warning, but it didn’t seem to stop him. He added a couple stars to the mix - still nothing. But when Kage moved to grab a card and write what deal he and Not-CasCu made - his hand flexed and seized. The pen toppled from his fingers and hit the floor, disappeared.

Fine then. If he couldn’t mentally say what was happening, then he couldn’t fucking say it physically. And if he couldn’t write it down, there had to be another way. A loophole, somewhere. Kage was going to find it, and he was going to destroy the fuck out of it. But for now, he had to start with something different. 

Kage started searching Nobunaga’s room, searching for her beloved Prank Love Language pamphlet. As he searched, he sent out, “Cu? How's that research going?” 

“Barely fucking started,” Cu said, he sounded aggrieved. “Alter’s had an easier time of it, so ask him. Has Proto spoken to you, yet?” 

“Hai, he did.”

“He didn’t sound like the bastard had used runes on him,” Cu said, and there was something musing in his voice. 

“Yeah, well, he’ll probably head your way next,” Kage retorted, “Don’t let him - don’t drop your guard. Proto’s hopes and dreams” - were for fucking idiots - “sound nice, but it's better to keep an eye on things before they get worse.” 

“You won’t hear me arguing,” Cu said, his voice dry. 

The connection cut. Kage pulled out the pamphlet from under the bed - he had no fucking clue why she was hiding this thing, it was her damn pride and joy - and sat with a grunt upon the covers. He rifled through the pages, letting the plans skim by his fingertips. This brought back memories. A part of him wanted to laugh hysterically.

“Alter?” Kage sent out instead, his mind reaching.

Nothing.

Well, shit. Kage reached out again, tried to snag some sort of fucking answer. “Alter, do you got a fucking moment?” 

“Busy,” came the grunt, and then Kage was cut off.

That made Kage pause, his fingers frozen where they rested on the pamphlet. That was wrong. Cu was busy - probably because of his damned Chaos Crew or Emiya distracting him. This was different. Alter was a loner. What the fuck did he have to be busy with? Edge? Fat chance of that. There must have been something else going -

Not-CasCu.

If Cu was busy with his friends, then he wouldn’t be a good target to work with. Alter, on the other hand, alone and vulnerable, would be. Be it the same game he was playing with Proto, or runecraft, Alter was alone and defenceless against fucking manipulations. Kage slammed the pamphlet closed, and shoved it into his pocket, jerking to his feet in the same rushed moment. He didn’t know how much time he had.

He hadn’t seen Alter earlier, when he’d been in the library. That didn’t mean much. Alter could have gotten there more recently. He could have also been fucking tucked in some corner or some shit. It didn’t matter. Kage had to get to him, before Not-CasCu did something, anything, to him.

Kage rushed out of Nobunaga’s room, slamming the door shut behind him. His footsteps echoed down the hallway as he moved. His mind reached out, snagged against Edge’s - he didn’t have time to let himself drown in the thought of talking to the fucker. “Where’s Alter?” 

A pause. It felt too long. Then Edge spoke again, bland. “I’m not his keeper. He’s busy with something.”

Translation, the fucker didn’t know or didn’t remember. Kage swore, then bolted in the direction of the library.

Not much had changed since Kage had been in here - the books were still piled onto the return cart, in the same halfhearted mess Kage had left them in. The library persisted in being horribly lit and horribly designed. It persisted still in appearing to have no one in there - but, after a second too long, there was the pause and beat of conversation, slow and steady. Kage swore to himself and rushed towards it.

And had to catch himself on a fucking bookshelf, when he caught a glimpse of who it was. Because it fucking wasn’t Alter and Not-CasCu. It was Medusa, talking softly with one of the other folk who worked in the library at Chaldea - Kage didn’t know their name, at the top of his fucking head. But the glares they sent him were enough to curdle milk. 

“Sorry,” he gritted out, and then walked away at a more stately pace. When he was out of their view, he moved quicker, glancing down each narrow bookshelf as he did so. 

Nothing, nothing, a pile of books on an abandoned table, nothing - Kage stepped back an isle. The pile of books was barely a pile - there were only one or two thrown on top of it. The titles were easy to read - Norse Myths. They were both about Norse and Scandinavian Myths. It didn’t take a genius to put two and two together.

Kage moved to the books, flipping hurriedly through the pages. Some of them carried small cuts, like they had been handled by a man with claws and no gentleness. Alter? It was fucking likely. Norse and Scandinavian myths was the perfect place to start research considering everything that had fucking happened. But Alter wasn’t here.

Kage swore to himself, and picked up the books, sliding them beneath his arm. He continued searching, but wherever he stopped , there was no one to be found. His chest was starting to constrict now. He reached out again, mental. “Alter? Where the fuck are you?”

Nothing. For the longest moment, nothing.

And then Alter spoke. His voice was rough, as if he was tired of being interrupted. Kage wanted to throw something at him. “I’m talking to CasCu,” he said, his voice short and sharp. “So, busy. Stop being a distraction.” 

Stop being a distraction. Kage wanted to throw these damn books at something. But no - no. he sucked in a deep breath, then let it out in a gust. If Alter was talking to Not-CasCu, then Kage was already too late. Calling and trying to pin the location would only make the situation fucking worse - and that would be by making Alter distracted, giving Not-CasCu that opportunity to use his runes.

Alter wasn’t like Proto. He wasn’t young, naive, or hopeful. He was someone who dealt with Medb on a regular basis, for gods sakes. He wouldn’t let Not-CasCu pull the wool over his eyes. And he wouldn’t be spelled either, unless he dropped his guard. And as long as Alter’s memories stayed intact , there was still a chance.

Kage glanced down at the books in his hand.

Whatever was pretending to be CasCu had to have come from the Lostbelt. Somewhere within these books was his answer. He was looking for a shape-shifter , or someone capable of possession … or he was looking more closely at the myths that surrounded the dead birds, Odin, and Skadi. Salter’s words came back to him, about the Servants of Chaldea that had more than one mind in a body.

And he had been watching. And there was a pattern.

For those that fell into the Alter-Ego class, the host seemed to be in control. And that made sense - the divinities that made them up were not a full thing, but a part of a thing. A fractured mess that the host controlled. But for those that fell into the more traditional classes …

Well, they came in two categories. Divine Servants and Pseudo-Servants . For the Pseudo-Servants , the hosts tended to be in control, and that was for the ease of information and adapting to this modern world. The Divine Servants were different. The divinity always fucking took over the host. It had happened with Ishtar and Rin, and then with Ereshkigal and Rin. With Parvarti and Sakura too. Skadi, and Scáthach . There might be hints of the host remaining, but the god was always in control.

They still didn’t know if CasCu’s Spirit Origin had settled, and they didn’t know which way it had gone - Caster or Alter Ego. For a wild fucking moment, Kage hoped it hadn’t settled, and then it would settle into an Alter Ego. At least then CasCu would have a chance of still being himself, if a little changed. If it was Caster…

Kage’s fingers pressed against the cover of the book. He scowled hard. Hope was for fucking fools, and he was being an idiot, falling into the same trap Proto was. The bastard had made it damn clear that CasCu wasn’t the one pulling the reigns. When they looked at his Spirit Origin, Kage would bet his right arm that it had settled back into Caster, which meant that - of the two divinities and two phantom spirits within him, only one could be in control.

And considering Skadi had already claimed Scáthach as a host, it probably wasn’t the fucking ice bitch.

“Contact me when you’re done with Not-CasCu,” Kage sent, turning from the library, keeping the books close. He had some damn reading to get through.

 

He read in Nobunaga’s room. It felt somehow right, to curl up in her beanbag with the conspiracy board watching him flip through the pages. He wanted to focus on the pages, wanted to get through them and nail down the culprit. His mind kept on twisting. His eyes pulled up to the conspiracy board. The red strings and paper didn’t make fucking sense - it blurred before his eyes in a giant mass.

It was likely that the thing controlled CasCu was Odin. It made fucking sense - you didn’t have to get far through a fucking Norse gods book before the king of gods was mentioned as the ‘one eyed god’. He had two ravens too - Huginn and Muninn. But according to what Kage had heard, all the gods but Skadi had died in Ragnarök . That was the dividing point of the Lostbelt. If Odin had survived, he probably should have shown up in the fucking three thousand years that had passed since then. He might not have been a benevolent god, but he would have made sure that Surtr wouldn’t have found a back door. 

His second thought was that somehow, Huginn and Munnin were controlling CasCu together. It made sense - the birds were Odin’s birds, and had survived Ragnarök when Odin hadn’t. They could have imparted the damn dreams upon CasCu … but if that was the question, why CasCu? Why hadn’t they imparted them into Gudao instead? That fucking made more sense than a random Servant. The birds were obviously stable - they’d had their own forms. They didn’t need to work through another … and they had been connected to Skadi. They would have no reason to help their enemies.

And Skadi just didn’t make any fucking sense overall. 

Kage briefly considered Loki, as a possibility. It seemed right up the trickster god’s alley. A brief glance of those myths certainly solidified Loki as a prankster, a troublemaker . He’d be just the type of person to possess someone, take the form of someone, and then make a deal to see if he could outsmart another. Foot in the mouth Loki. Loki the liar. Loki the shape-shifter . But Loki had died with the rest of the gods. 

If he was just going by Ragnarök , that meant none of the gods could have fucking possessed CasCu. Because none of them had survived. Which brought him to the goddamned birds again, and their connection to Odin.

The board of notes and red string was giving him a headache. Kage surged to his feet, then started tearing notes down. Not all of them - he just needed the background noise clear, to be able to look at the picture without looking at the things he knew was wrong. Notecards fluttered to the floor, landed there upon the gilded ground. After a second, Kage started to pull away Not-CasCu’s behavioral ticks. There were only so many ways that one could say a person was acting fucking wrong. He just needed to look at the fucking facts, the information.

And the facts were this: CasCu had odd dreams and phantom pains during the Lostbelt. One of them was of being hung. His eye was hurting. He knew information he shouldn’t have, like the names of the birds. Skadi had chosen him to help tie Surtr to his prison. CasCu had absorbed Huginn and Munnin to save Gudao from Surtr’s curse. Since then, he hadn’t been acting right, hadn’t been acting like CasCu.

It felt like something was missing. Kage wanted to grab his own head and shake it until it fell out. His gaze kept on catching on Skadi’s name. She’d wanted CasCu to help with the prison before he’d made the pact with the damn birds. If the birds were just giving information to him, memories, then that shouldn’t have mattered. But she’d wanted his help. Why the fuck had she wanted his help?

Unless there was already something wrong with CasCu. Something that increased his magecraft capabilities. His runes had changed color during the Lostbelt, after all. Information wouldn’t change that. Memories wouldn’t change that.

Kage sat heavily, and stared up at the mess of red strings and notecards. He was still staring, willing it all to make sense, when Alter finally touched his mind. “We’re free to talk,” he said, a grunt.

Shit. Kage pressed his lips together, and sucked in a sharp breath through his teeth. After a few moments, he pushed himself up. “Got a moment to speak in person?” He asked. If he had to stare at this conspiracy board a moment longer, his brain would explode.

“Yeah,” Alter grunted. 

“Great,” Kage pushed himself to his feet. After a second’s thought, he grabbed the books and tucked them under his arms. “Where too?” 

“Break room,” Alter said, grunting, “I’ll put up a bounded field.”

Kage didn’t bother replying. He was already leaving Nobunaga’s room, the books held tight in his hand. He had a sinking feeling that they might become useful.

 

The room Alter had chosen was well defended - Alter may have not been CasCu, but he, like the other Cus, knew a bit of spellwork . Kage could feel the prickle of the bounded field as he walked through it. He held the books tighter to him, walked swiftly to the table Alter was sitting at, then slammed the books down before him.

Alter’s gaze flickered to the books. Kage didn’t give him a chance to question. “Not-CasCu was talking to you about what?”

If the briskness was insulting, Alter didn’t show it. His gaze was very blank, very bland, considering in a way Kage wasn’t sure he liked. When Alter spoke, he did it with conviction. “He was apologizing,” he said, “for leaving me in the lurch with those curses. And asking when I would be done with my part of the binder.”

Kage’s breath caught in his throat. He sat down, heavy. “Bastard did the same for Proto,” he said, tight, “fucker’s out there trying to play his fucking angle until it works. But we know better.” They knew better. Alter knew better.

Alter shrugged, this loose thing. “He sounded like CasCu - more like CasCu than before. Spoke like him, walked like him. Said he’d been reading the binder. Helped with the remnants of the curse,” he said this last bit by tapping his chest. At the contact, a rune circle flared into life, gold and bright.

Kage’s stomach plummeted. “And you believed him?” He hissed.

Alter considered him, for a long, long moment. “Point is not to let him know, isn’t it? Until there’s enough evidence to bring the case to Gudao. Had no choice.”

If only he wasn’t fucking - right. Kage let out a sound between his teeth, sharp and hard. “He could have fucked with your memories.” 

“Could. Didn’t.” 

“And how do you know that?” Kage snapped, his voice fracturing. “How do you know that he hadn’t?”

“Because I’m still suspicious,” Alter retorted. This time, there was a touch more feeling in it. His tail rasped against the ground, once, twice, as he spoke. “I remember all the reasons to be suspicious. He’s making a good game, making his story more realistic, but he’s not taking away the evidence of the past.”

Kage stared at him, hot eyed and wanting to argue. But Alter knew his own memories better than Kage did. So Kage looked away, scowled down at the books on the table. “And how much do you believe him?”

“I don’t,” Alter said, “I just think this thing realizes we’re onto them, so it’s covering its tracks. And it’s confident. If it wasn’t, it would have used the runes.”

Kage made a soft noise between his teeth, but Alter - was right. Not-CasCu was going through people one by one, to convince them that he was still CasCu. Cu would be next, then Achilles, and all the other friends. Not-CasCu wouldn’t need his runes for everyone - no, he’d just need to be a good enough actor. And Kage hadn’t spread his worries far and wide either. All he needed to do was make Kage’s suspicion look stupid.

Kage swore, sharp, before looking up at Alter. “It can’t be what Not-CasCu said it is,” he said, “Skadi couldn’t be a part of him - not with how we left her off. The ravens, maybe - but Skadi wanted CasCu’s help with the runes before the birds got absorbed. So he … you’ve probably gotten further in these fucking books than I have. Do you have any idea of what it could have been?”

Alter stared at him. Then he took the books, and began to flip through them. “Odin,” he said, “and Loki are the biggest possibilities. But to be either of them, the thing claiming to be CasCu would have to be from Proper Human History, not the Lostbelt. Unless Skadi lied to us, or they kept hidden.”

“But this being from Proper Human History would mean - it was already a part of CasCu,” Kage said, and that wasn’t fucking possible. CasCu had always been CasCu. To imply that either Odin or Loki had been hiding in his Spirit Origin but had woken up due to the Lostbelt felt… insane, in a way. Made him feel sick.

Alter nodded once. “My next guess would be Baldur,” he said, tapping a new page. “He was Odin’s son, and died to Loki before Ragnarök . But he was prophesied to rise up after Ragnarök and start a new age. If that CasCu was possessed during the Lostbelt, then Baldur would have been the only divinity who could do so.”

That… made sense, though it felt wrong with what little Kage knew of Baldur’s myth. “He’d have the fucking means,” he agreed, “but I feel like we would fucking notice another damn god around.” 

“We should have anyway,” Alter said, cold.

Kage made a sharp noise between his teeth, but didn’t argue. Alter continued, dry and cold. “Hagen was a one eyed warrior from Norse myths, particularly dealing with Siegfried . But he wouldn't be in that Lostbelt for the same reasons there were no Human Heroic Spirits from that Lostbelt’s history. Of all our options, Odin’s story fits the best.”

“But he’d have to be from this history,” Kage said, a bit quiet.

“Or Skadi was lying,” Alter repeated. He closed the book, then pushed it towards Kage. “It’s getting late,” he said, cold, dismissive, “Go to bed. I’m going myself. We can figure it out in the morning.”

Kage wanted to argue that it wasn’t that easy. To go to bed would be to lose a day for the bet. But Alter’s words were ringing in his ears, along with all his own thoughts from earlier, a messy soup that Kage couldn’t fully comprehend … so he took the books and left, quiet and cold, flexing the hand Not-CasCu had branded with each step.

 

He did not sleep that night.

He stayed up reading, flipping through the pages of the book, the silence of the library all around him. Kage couldn’t help but be acutely aware of every little tick of the clock, every hour that disappeared. The Norse myths in the book were from Proper Human History, and from them … well, really it was like what he and Alter had talked about. The Odin from Proper Human History was an exact match for what was plaguing CasCu.

The one eyed, king of gods. An old man who had sacrificed himself twice over - once for the ability to be all knowing, a second time hanging himself for the ability to utilize magecraft. He was a mage god, a warrior god, and took on many disguises to blend into other places. Most of the stories about him spoke of his search for information.

It fit everything.

The dreams, the phantom pains, why Skadi had focused in on CasCu in the first place, how the birds had been able to assimilate to him, how he’d known their names in the first place. It even spoke to what he was doing here- continuously searching for knowledge and secrets. Every bit of it made sense.

Except for how.

If Not-CasCu was Proper Human History Odin, then he couldn’t have attached during the Lostbelt. He would have to have been there before that thing, and if so then why the fuck hadn’t he shown up before? It made sense. Everything Kage had read said that Odin wasn’t the sort of person to stand around and let CasCu run things. Kage should have noticed when Odin had taken over.

There should have been a moment where Odin had a chance to take over. A time when they met him, or was in a place he could appear, and Kage could think of… nothing for that. If Proper Human History Odin was the one pretending to be CasCu right now, then Kage had no clue when he got there, how he got there, and why he hadn’t acted until now.

Not-CasCu being from the Lostbelt just made the most damn sense. It was a time, a place, an opportunity. It gave all the basics needed for a takeover. But it couldn’t be Odin. It couldn’t be Skadi. It couldn’t be the fucking birds. Kage couldn’t think of anything it could be. He required someone from that Lostbelt, who knew it’s history, it’s myths, where it differentiated from this world’s own.

Maybe it was Baldur. Maybe Baldur had inherited Odin’s memories, his powers, which was why CasCu had dreamed what he had dreamed, had done what he had done, and was doing now. But the myths suggested that Baldur wouldn’t be such a bitch about it. Baldur didn’t seem like the type of person who … did whatever he was doing to CasCu.

If CasCu was even still there.

Kage growled, and dug his fingers into his hair. For a moment, he forced himself to focus on his surroundings. The library shelves crowding close. The few lights on glinting off of different sources. How cold and uncomfortable the bench was beneath his butt. Metal pressing hard against his elbows. It was a solid world, compared to the chaos of his mind, and the fear that curdled in the center of his chest.

Because he still hadn’t proven that CasCu was still there.

Sure, Not-CasCu’s bet implied that CasCu was still alive. But that didn’t say if CasCu’s body was still his own, if he lurked within the confines of his mind or had been removed entirely and stored in another space. There had been a brief flash of something in his face, before the deal had been made, but that wasn’t evidence, that wasn’t proof.

Kage had a day to figure out who Not-CasCu was. If he wasn’t successful, then it would all be for nothing. And he couldn’t rely on the technology to be done beforehand . He’d have to find out for himself. Which meant having to decide things now.

He stared at his books. The letters swam through his mind, twisting, turning. In his pocket sat the prank love language pamphlet, heavy. The curses pulsed along his arms. So many options. Choosing the wrong one meant dooming CasCu.

“A Divine Spirit needs a host,” Kage said, into the silence of the library. “If CasCu is still in there somewhere, then it has - it has to be Odin. If CasCu isn’t present within him, then it has to be some creature or thing from that Lostbelt. And if I’m fucking wrong … then I need a way to protect myself from the damn runes.” Or something that broke them.

 

In most situations, he would go to Medea to find something for this. Or look through his traced weapons until one fit the bill. But a weapon could only be used after the fucking fact, and Medea was good, but she was no divinity. He needed someone stronger. Someone divine, who could craft something protective, or was willing to let him borrow something for a time. So Kage didn’t look for Medea.

He started searching for where the pharaohs had set up.

It was the only quick answer he had. The pharaohs were, in a way, directly connected to divinity. They would have amulets of protection. One of them was a Caster - she might be able to make something for him in time. At the very least, he might be able to fucking trade - something. Anything. It was the only chance he fucking had.

Luckily, the pharaohs weren’t hard to find - even in the fucking middle of the night. They weren’t the type of people to be content with a simple room or two. It meant that Kage found their door embossed with a pyramid, stamped into the metal with burnished gold. It meant that, when he knocked - because like hell he was starting off on the wrong foot - someone spoke.

“Who dares demand entrance to the domain of the divine?”

Kage … didn’t recognize the voice. So fucking sue him. He didn’t hang around this goddamned group often, which meant the only time he’d have met them would be on Rayshift, and it had been a damn long time since they’d gone out for any supplies. So all he could tell about the voice was that it was female, which meant that he had narrowed the group down to two.

“It’s Kage,” he said, and after a beat, added, “your majesty. I come seeking help with an … issue.” 

Being polite grated on him. Waiting longer for a reply was worse. “Majesty,” came the response, “is for western kings, not Pharaohs. But you may come in, if you have brought proper gifts or offerings.” 

He hadn’t brought shit. Still, Kage pushed open the door to see a room - honestly not as changed as he’d expected it to be. If Nobbu had been able to modify her room so spectacularly and so quickly, a couple of pharaohs should have been able to do the same. But the walls and flooring was intact. It was the furniture that had changed, though there was still enough to prove that this room probably was once a common room of some kind. There were thrones in the back, plush pillows and cushions everywhere, a large feasting table with chairs, a couple plates, and steaming mugs of drink. 

And two women , who had been in the middle of conversation, now looking at him. They were both vaguely familiar in the way that meant he’d seen them around, but never spoken to them properly. They were both dark haired and dark skinned, though the time period and culture of their clothes were very different, one middle eastern and the other more Egyptian - with added tall ears like a jackal or a rabbit. Kage wracked his brain for names. 

“Well?” Asked the woman who had to be a Pharaoh, “Do you have offerings to excuse your interruption?”

Nicotris - that was her name, which meant that the woman she was taking tea with had to be Scheherazade. This was fucking perfect. Two Casters, both who should be capable of protection charms. He just had to be smart about how to address them - fucking rudeness would get him nothing here.

It felt like that removed a bit of his arsenal , but whatever.

Kage bowed, deep. “My apology, Pharaoh, Scheherazade, but my request is an urgent one. I did not have time to gather the offerings you deserve. So all I can present to you is this.” He pulled out the prank love language pamphlet, and set it down on the table, pushed it slowly towards them. 

In that grand scheme of things Scheherazade was relatively new . She stared at the pamphlet without comprehension. “And this is?” 

“Something made for those who have trouble with love,” Kage said, over Nicotris’ sharp noise of recognition. “It’s a guide on how to confess your feelings in an indirect manner . Nobunaga calls it her ‘prank love language’, but I find that it’s use is not in the pranks it outlines, but in the courage it gives you to do better at confessing than her.”

Not that he could really speak about that, but the point still stood. Scheherazade made a soft, curious noise, before she picked up the pamphlet and began to look through it. Nicotris stood. Her hand hit the table. “This is hardly a decent offering!” She said, her face tinged red. “I have heard of this pamphlet before, and I know it has caused distress among those of Chaldea! To insinuate that a Pharaoh like myself would stoop to such low means -”

“Nicotris,” Scheherazade gasped. She looked up, swift. “These pranks are dangerous! Why, one wrong move, and it could kill the intended target - whoever thought of using cannons in their confessions is a madman. These pranks must be stopped before they could seriously hurt someone.”

Kage resisted the urge to smirk. “It seems like,” he said, “the offering has already been accepted.”

Nicotris made a sharp noise between her teeth, glancing furiously between him and Scheherazade - but Scheherazade had already started reading, flipping through the pages with growing panic and worry, obviously engaged with the details of the pamphlet’s many, many pranks.

“Oh- fine,” Nicotris said, sitting back down with a huff. “I will graciously consider this payment for your insolence at interrupting us. I will hear your request - but fulfilling it will require a greater payment than this pamphlet covers!”

“Hai, Pharaoh,” Kage said. He straightened as well, fixed his gaze to hers. “I am in need of an amulet - one can protect me from harmful spellcraft.” 

That request made Nicotris pause. “Really now?” she asked, and she seemed almost intrigued. “It takes gumption to ask for a protective amulet from a Pharaoh. I’m not a one to churn out objects for anyone who desires them.”

Scheherazade paused, glanced at Nicotris. “You gave me one without my asking,” she said.

Nicotris flushed red. “No, no, no!” she said, “That is quite different! Besides, I made something that protected you from death, not just harmful spells. Death and undeath are easy. Harmful spells in general are different - not that I can’t do it! I’m a pharaoh. Nothing is so impossible that it’s out of my reach.” 

“So you can do it, then?” Kage asked.

“Of course I can!” Nicotris huffed, crossing her arms over her chest. “But your payment better be extravagant!”

Shit. Kage scrambled for a moment, before latching onto something. “How about cooking lessons, o great pharaoh? No doubt you have an excellent skill set in the kitchen, but I might be able to teach you some recipes you might not know, and would rather cook and share among friends.” 

Nicotris paused, and for a horrible, tight second, Kage thought that she would refuse. Then her eyes slid sidelong towards Scheherazade. “Fine,” she sniffed, “I find your offering worthy of my effort. I warn you though!” And with this, she held a finger up to him, “It might take a bit. And if you rush me, I won’t make it for you at all.”

Kage swallowed the curse that threatened to rise in the back of his throat. Instead, he bowed, and bowed deep. “As you wish, Pharaoh,” he murmured.

“I do!” Nicotris sniffed. She tilted her nose up a tad, flicked her hand in a dismissive gesture. “ Now begone. I would like to finish this tea in peace.”

Well, he wasn’t going to get far with that. Kage bit back the urge to swear - again - and then bowed - again - before retreating from the room. That was one play put into place. All he could hope that amulet would be done before he had to confront Not-CasCu. 

But that was fine. It was fucking fine. Kage straightened, rolled his shoulders, and let out a sharp, angry sound between his teeth. The amulet was in works - with any luck, it’d be done with soon. If not, then he’d - fuck, he didn’t know. He’d figure something out. But he’d spent enough time here. He still needed to do other things tonight, before tomorrow dawned.

“Fuuma,” Kage reached out, leaving the Pharaoh’s door behind him, “Where is Not-CasCu right now?”

It took a couple of moments for him to reply. “He’s in the back of the Wandering Sea, close to the closed off sections. He hasn’t broken into anything yet, but … ah … I believe that he will soon. He brought a book with him this time. I think he’s close to unlocking the mechanism that prevents this area from being accessed by others.”

Well shit. Kage clicked his tongue. “Keep an eye on him, will you?” 

“Hai, I will.” 

For a second, Kage continued walking down the corridor, towards the Wandering Sea storage rooms. Something occurred to him. He reached out again. “Hey, Fuuma, were you in the library earlier when I was talking to Not-CasCu?” 

“Hai, I was.” 

“Did you manage to listen in on our conversation?”

A pause, brief. It seemed like Fuuma was doing his best to gather his words, explain what he had heard. Finally, after too long, he spoke. “Sumimasen,” he murmured, “I was unable to make out what you two were talking about.”

Damn it.

Kage had figured that would be the case, but still … he thought, briefly, back to the way Not-CasCu had encouraged him out of the shadows. He’d known someone was watching him. Or suspected enough that he’d set up some field so Fuuma couldn’t hear their discussion. How the fuck Not-CasCu had been able to figure out, Kage didn’t have a clue, but …

It would have been easy for someone with an all-seeing eye, he was sure.

“Fine,” Kage said, “Keep on watching him, and don’t let him fucking notice you. Got it?” 

“I wouldn’t,” Fuuma said, just a tinge of professional pride in his voice. “But hai, your orders are understood.”  He cut the connection after that, and Kage didn’t chase it. He had better things to do.

 

Not-CasCu cared as much about his hygiene as Kage’s CasCu did. That was obvious - he’d managed to get shampoo, conditioner, and body wash , and there was evident use in the bottles as well, not as heavy as they should have been. There was barely enough room in the tiny bathroom for the shower and the toilet and the sink with the mirror and Kage and his supplies - but that was fine.

What was the saying? When the cat was away, the mice would play. Well, Not-CasCu shouldn’t have left his rooms vulnerable to attack. There’d been no bounded field to prevent Kage’s entrance, either to the bedroom or the bathroom. Then again, it wasn’t like Not-CasCu could put down a bounded field without drawing unwanted attention to himself and what he was doing. But it made him open to whatever fucking trick Kage wanted to play.

He didn’t need the prank love language pamphlet. Kage knew those schemes by heart. He knew what would piss CasCu off the most- and even better, Not-CasCu wouldn’t. He hadn’t gotten that far into the binder yet. He’d have no fucking clue how to react. It meant that any reaction that Kage recognized, no matter how small, would have to be from CasCu. 

Kage slid into the shower, and wedged himself into the small space. It was almost claustrophobic. He ignored that, and reached for the first bottle. Shampoo. He popped it open, set the cap aside, and pulled out the first packet. A rip, a tear, a pour - Kage projected a long, thin piece of metal and gave the shampoo a nice stir. Then he closed it up again, and grabbed the next bottle, did the same. And then the same to the next as well. 

He set the body wash carefully where he’d picked it up, dismissed the thin metal piece, and tucked the ripped up packets into his pant’s pocket. He stepped out of the shower, and moved towards the mirror.

It was large - and Kage looked at himself, just for a second. The tangled strands of his hair would have frustrated CasCu to no end. So would the faint trace of shadows under his eyes. The pulse of his curse and that one blackened sclera made fury rise in him, sharp and sudden and jagged. Kage swallowed it hard, and pulled the final tin from his pocket, cracked it open and dipped his finger inside.

“You asked for this,” Kage said, as he brought his fingers to the mirror, and began to write. “Just remember that, you fucking bastard. You asked for this - and I’m going to get him fucking back, no matter what.”

He pulled his hand away, let it drop to the side. For a second, he stared at himself, the face marred by the letters writ across the glass. His hand began to shake. He tightened his fingers into fists, bit his nails into his skin, then.

“If it’s the last thing I do.” 

Then he capped the tin, turned on the water, ripped off a portion of his cloak, and then began to wash the glass.

Chapter 21: Chapter 21

Summary:

Kage is a very tricky bastard. Unfortunately there's other tricky bastards out there too.

Notes:

Hey everyone! Thank you so much for you comments and kudos! I hope you all enjoy this chapter because I sure as hell did >:3c thanks once more, and have a wonderful day!

Chapter Text

Kage knew it might be a while until his trap was sprung. He also knew that this whole fucking thing wouldn’t work unless he was there, watching it happen. He wasn’t a skilled enough mage to set up an alarm system to let him know when this shit worked. It would have to be stakeout for him. So Kage mentally informed Nobunaga that it might be a while before he contacted her, and then settled in to wait. And wait. And wait.

If there was one good thing about Spirit Form, it was that time seemed different in it. Sometimes things dragged out impossibly long. Other times shit felt short, like there were gaps in the space between ‘then’ and ‘now’ that Kage’s brain had just fucking skipped over. And in a room where all Kage could do was watch the water droplets slowly dry upon the glass of the mirror, it was impossible to tell which was which and what was going on.

Eventually, the door to the bathroom creaked open, and Not-CasCu walked inside. Kage blinked, straightened, but didn’t move a muscle. If Not-CasCu had a way of telling when people were there even in Spirit Form, then Kage wasn’t going to give the game away. He held his breath, stood still, and watched.

There was something … off about Not-CasCu. A smile that didn’t fit on his lips, a calculation that didn’t match the action of someone entering the bathroom in his single eye. He raised his hands, and shook off his silver hair, and small particles rose from it, like a barely there cloud of dust.

A cold pit opened up in Kage’s stomach.

Not-CasCu had found something. Kage couldn’t contact Fuuma to confirm - not when he wanted to make sure Not-CasCu couldn’t locate him - but he could see the obvious in front of him when it was there. Not-CasCu had found a way into whatever secret he was digging up, and either that way in was covered in dust and cobwebs, or CasCu had started his explorations using that entrance.

Gods, he wished he could ask Fuuma. But he didn’t dare. All he could hope was that Fuuma had deemed the situation not critical enough to contact Gudako and Sion . That was a way better scenario then Not-CasCu turning his rune craft onto Fuuma, who had none of the protections Scáthach did.

Not-CasCu removed his earrings and set them onto the sink counter. His eye patch was next - it came away easily, and sat there glimmering under the bathroom light. He stepped away from the sink, and in a swath of sparks, his clothes were gone , and he was headed towards the shower stall. 

Kage watched him go, heart tight in his throat. There was an attention to detail to CasCu’s body beneath the robes that spoke to the theory of possession or split spirit origin. The silvered scars his life as a hero had left him - far fewer than Kage’s own, but more grievous in many ways. The nasty thing from when he’d been impaled by a spear through his gut, and the deep circle of teeth from the bite of Chulainn’s hound. That familiar red tattoo Kage had traced far too many times curled up Not-CasCu’s back, and there were blemishes on his skin that Kage had touched, had kissed.

In a way, the detail was too much. It made it seem like the body was CasCu’s - it had to be CasCu’s. There it was, the stupid sun shaped birthmark, low on his right shoulder. There it was, the silvered cut along his side that had been given to him by Ferdiad in their fateful last battle. No replacement could have known about those scars, unless they’d had plenty of time to examine CasCu’s body beforehand . And they hadn’t.

It was CasCu. CasCu’s body for damn sure. Now to see if his mind was somewhere in there too.

Not-CasCu stepped into the shower stall and closed the door behind him. Kage heard the shower head hiss as the water was turned on. He closed his eyes, and waited, waited. A part of him was completely unsure of whether this would work or not. But most people didn’t look too carefully at what was within their shampoo, conditioner, or body wash. But Not-CasCu was different, more perceptive than most …

If he was fucking Odin, then Kage had no fucking clue if he could even be pranked, like this. He hadn’t read a single myth about anyone who’d ever been able to beat the one-eyed old man in a game like this … but who the fuck washed their hair with their eyes open? Not anyone with hair as long as CasCu’s. And Kage didn’t need it all to stick. Just enough for CasCu to wake up and make his appearance.

The room was slowly starting to fill with steam, just as Kage had expected and hoped. Not-CasCu had kept CasCu’s inclination towards hot showers - not surprising for someone whose natural body heat made a normal person’s shower temperature seem cold in comparison. Droplets began to form on the outside of the shower curtains. Condensation began to fill the mirror, a slow and steady process.

Behind the shower stall door, Kage could just see the shape of Not-CasCu as he washed. He was using his shampoo - or conditioner - for his head was bowed and tipped to one angle, possibly to keep the soapy water away from his empty eye socket . Kage watched, feeling a bit lightheaded, his chest tight and uncomfortable. Not long now. All Not-CasCu had to do was notice-

The activity behind the stall paused. Kage watched as the shape knelt to brush fingers against the floor, pull the hand back as if to examine the dust. It would be hard to see properly, wet and damp, with the light so filtered as it was in this steamy room. There was a flare of light, bright and golden, as if from a suddenly drawn rune -

“KAGE!” 

The shriek was so full of CasCu that Kage nearly jerked out of his own skin. The shower stall door slammed open. CasCu surged out of the stall, the golden rune floating behind him obediently. Its light played off the glitter that coated the strands of silver hair. Every single one. The small, powdery type that was used in makeup and art, that never properly left no matter what you did. The glittered shampoo had left streaks of it across his cheeks, his back, and left more wherever those wet strands touched his skin.

But that wasn’t what stole Kage’s breath.

CasCu’s eyes were more red then he’d seen since before the Lostbelt. Not completely - they held a shimmer of divinity that didn’t fit the CasCu he knew well, but they were still red. And like CasCu would have, he beelined to the sink, swearing up a storm, hands palming through his hair as if to check the damage, only succeeding in spreading more glitter through his fingers … and then stopped, staring at the mirror.

And the words written in wax, resisting the condensation that clustered thanks to the hot shower Not-CasCu had taken.

Give me a sign.

It’d been Kage’s last resort, if CasCu hadn’t obviously shown himself to be there. As it was, Kage didn’t think he needed it anymore. The frantic way CasCu’s fingers carded through his glittering hair, the red in that familiar eye - even the way he stood spoke to the man he knew, and knew so well.

Then CasCu looked up, his gaze skipping wildly across the entirety of the room. “Kage,” he breathed, and there was so much in that word that Kage nearly choked. Yes, there were the touches of fury and surprise that had been there the first time he had roared, but at the same time it was filled with a heady mix of worry, fear, and hopeless affection. 

CasCu stumbled away from the sink, head spinning this way and that. “Kage,” he said, again, “Kage -”

His voice cut out. His body froze, shaking and trembling under the bathroom light. His single eye flickered briefly, gold to red then back to gold again. Kage wanted to lunge forwards and shake him until Not-CasCu fell out and CasCu was back again. But it was too late. The posture eased into the one Not-CasCu wore. His hands smoothed over his hair again, down the slick of it, collecting little bits of glitter as they went.

“I assume you’re watching this,” Not-CasCu said, “so I will say this much. You have still made a deal with me, and so you are bound by your word. The runes upon your hand ensures it so. If you fail to guess my identity, you know the consequences. And now, you will gain nothing from guessing the truth. Clever, amusing, but utterly useless. If anything, you have made your position worse.”

Kage said nothing. His fingers dug into the palms of his hands; his teeth bit harshly into his lip, but he said nothing, did nothing. He stayed in Spirit Form, and waited, waited. 

Not-CasCu did too, a silence that seemed to linger for far too long, before he spoke again. “You have not violated the terms of our agreement,” he said, “so I will not punish you for this. If anything, your courage makes this amusing. It is a stupid bravery worth any hero, but it is stupid nonetheless. Be very careful with what you do next, Kage. It is not your neck on the line if you push too far.”

Rage rushed through Kage, blinding hot. It took everything to hold it back. Not-CasCu waited a couple of moments longer, then started moving again. He washed his hands as free of glitter as they would come, and then summoned his clothes, let them settle across his body. Kage took vicious, petty pleasure in watching the glitter in Not-CasCu’s hair smear across his cloak and robes. 

Bastard would find that not even runecraft could fully remove glitter. Kage knew. CasCu had tried, a couple of times before, on a bet. And they’d both laughed themselves sick at the human ingenuity that beat ancient runecraft . The thought made Kage ache.

But CasCu was there. He was fucking there, somewhere within Not-CasCu. Trapped, probably, if the way Not-CasCu spoke meant anything. But he was there. And if he was fucking there, then Kage would grab him and pull him out, and goddammit he wouldn’t stop until his old man was safe in his arms.

For now, though, Kage had to leave CasCu behind. He couldn’t take CasCu with him, as much as he wished. So he left him behind, in the body Not-CasCu controlled, and hoped that CasCu would understand that this was only temporary. That now that they knew he was there, he could be rescued. That they would fucking rescue him. Kage wouldn’t take no for an answer.

But until then … he left. He left Not-CasCu to his glittery fate, fled the room and into the halls, something like hatred, victory, and determination resounding in his throat.

 

Kage waited for Nobunaga in her room. It was the only thing he could think to do. For all a part of him wanted to shout to the skies that Not-CasCu was a liar, that CasCu was still in there, somewhere - he didn’t want to risk it. Those words kept on coming back to him, soft and insidious. 

“It’s not your neck on the line if you push too far.” 

Kage didn’t want to give the fucker a chance to explain exactly what he meant about that. So he waited, pacing the room, watching the conspiracy board out of the corner of his eye. Nobunaga had taken his discarded notes and done some reorganizing of the whole thing - it was now split into two neat sections, during the Lostbelt and after the Lostbelt. Sure, some red strings ran between the two, but it was much easier to make sense of the whole damn thing now, instead of being overwhelmed by the chaotic structure. 

He couldn’t help but be relieved for her ability to take a bunch of discarded cards onto the floor, figure out what he meant by them, and then construct a picture out of it. Say what you will about her, but she got things done. Kage just had to do the same himself. He grabbed a couple cards, and wrote down the two remaining possibilities.

Lostbelt Odin.

Proper Human History Odin.

He pinned the two possibilities onto the board, one on top of the other, and sat down heavily. Stared at the words until his head started hurting. Then he stared a bit longer, until the door burst down with Nobunaga’s usual panash, her voice screeching into a halt as she realized Kage was there.

“Oh hey buddy!” She said. Kage didn’t turn to look at her, just gave her some time to kick out whoever that unfortunate soul was hanging out with her to the curb, then step inside. “How’s dragging CasCu out going ?”

“It worked,” Kage said. “He was out - for a brief fucking second, he was out Nobbu. I saw him. He’s in there.” 

“Then we can blow up the replacement theory!” Nobunaga’s door hissed closed. She sauntered up to that board, ripped the card off the wall, then set it aflame. A thin stream of smoke trickled off as the paper burned. Ash fell to the floor. She bounded over to Kage’s side, bounced once against the bed, and then leaned against him. “So!” She said, “which one pulled him out of Not-CasCu?” 

“The glitter shampoo,” Kage said.

Nobunaga’s laugh was sudden and raucous. It pulled his gaze away from the board, and he couldn’t help but grin at bit, at the delight in her eyes, the way she doubled over with her glee. “I told you it would work!” She said, her voice wild with it. “I told you!” 

“I shouldn’t have doubted it.” Kage said. He sagged against her side, let out a sharp breath, “unfortunately I’m not sure that we can trust everyone on our side.” 

Nobunaga wiped away tears of glee. “It can’t be helped! In war, you lose people, and sometimes those people are traitors. And this is most certainly war.” 

Kage scoffed at her, harsh. “Aren’t you going to ask me what I mean?” 

“Nope!” She said. “I can already guess! Not-CasCu caught wind of our group efforts and is picking us off, one by one, huh? Bet he started with his other selves too - the ones who most want to believe he is who he says he is.” 

Gods, she was far too fucking good at this. Kage made a noise between his teeth, scrubbing his face as he nodded. “Yeah … Proto wants to believe him. Alter is still suspicious. I don’t know how Cu feels about it yet, haven’t reached out to him.”

“I can do that,” Nobunaga said. She leaned against him, then pressed her fingers to her temples. For a few seconds her face was a mask of concentration - then she nodded, her fingers dropped. “He doesn’t know how to feel about it,” she chirped.

Kage groaned. “Of course he fucking doesn’t.”

Nobunaga patted his shoulder consolingly, then pointed to the board. “Now! What’s up with the two Odin's on the conspiracy board? I didn’t invite them!” 

“One of them has to be what’s possessing CasCu,” Kage said, before outlining everything he and Alter had been through, the reasons why it had to be Odin over everything else. Then he let out a breath, dragged his fingers through his hair with a growl. “I just don’t fucking know which Odin it is. Fucking - Lostbelt Odin could be possessing him. But if it’s a split Spirit Origin, then it has to be Proper Human History Odin, right?”

Nobunaga tipped her head, considering. “What makes you say that?” 

“Well -” Kage hesitated, then spoke, slow, as if to sound out the idea himself. “If it’s possession, then he had to get it from the Lostbelt. A split Spirit Origin means that we wouldn’t have sensed the god's presence - but it also needs a defining moment, like the birds taking his eye. But that couldn’t have been the defining moment since he was showing signs beforehand . So then … it would have had to happen to him before the Lostbelt, right?”

“Maybe,” Nobunaga said. She twirled her finger, and a Nobbu tumbled from her hair. She pointed it towards the conspiracy board, and they waited as the Nobbu tottered back to them with the two Odin cards in its hands. She plucked them from its fingers, and raised them high. “Want to take bets on who it is?”

Kage rubbed at his face. “Nobbu, this is not a betting matter.”

“It can’t be helped,” she sighed, then plucked the Lostbelt Odin card from the pile. “I think it’s Lostbelt Odin, and that it’s possession. You’re right - for it to be a Split Spirit Origin, there should have been a defining moment when the origin entered, and there were only two times that could have happened: the ravens, or upon his summoning, like with Surtr and Sigurd .”

“But that would mean he’s been - Odin this whole time,” Kage said. The thought made him sick, stomach twisting into uncomfortable knots.

“Wabi Sabi! Which is why it can’t be Proper Human History Odin!” Nobunaga held up the Proper Human History Card, “Otherwise, we should have been able to make the connection that he wasn’t fully CasCu sooner. A character like him wouldn’t have stayed quiet for so long without reason.” 

Kage nodded at her. It all made sense, and it felt - well, he wasn’t sure how it felt. He was sick with nerves and uncertainty, so all he could do was swallow and speak. “But that leaves the question - how the fuck did Lostbelt Odin possess CasCu with no one noticing?”

“If he did it early? Not too hard!” Nobunaga said, “if he did it the first time CasCu slept - after all, Skadi’s snow was blocking off the Shadow Border’s senses and communications. They would have been down to the Ortinax, and anyone else’s senses - and obviously he has enough power to fox that stuff. So he hitched a ride, took some time getting comfortable with the body, before taking over.”

“So he was alive,” Kage said. “That whole fucking time the bastard was alive.” The realization made his lips twist into a sour knot. Skadi had been struggling for a fuck ton long time because she thought the gods were dead - hell, Surtr had thought all the gods but Skadi were dead. But somehow, Odin had fucking survived, and then had looked at CasCu and thought him the perfect host. But …

“Why CasCu?” Kage asked, scowling. “That keeps on fucking catching on me - why fucking CasCu?”

“Probably the runes and class,” Nobunaga said, shrugging. “CasCu’s runecraft and class meant that he was the most appetizing host. Can’t be helped.”

“I should smack you for that.” Kage muttered.

Nobunaga grinned, bright and sharp for a brief moment. “That can’t be helped either!”

Kage thumped her head lightly, and she leaned back and laughed. Then she held out the card with the words ‘Proper Human History Odin’ and raised her eyebrow. Kage nodded, and with a snap, the card was igniting, burning to ash within her grip. She tossed the whole handful across the room, scattered black specks against the gold and tatami of the floor.

“Now,” she said, pleased, “We just have to figure out how to rip him out of there! Possession’s going too difficult to deal with - but there are a couple ways, aren’t there? Maybe another Caster can pull it out of him.”

“There’s always the grail,” Kage added, his mind fetching back to those bright golden cups. “Didn’t one of those fuckers appear recently?”

“Oh, Gudako would kill us if we used a Grail,” Nobunaga said, with a viciousness that meant she really fucking wanted to use a grail. It was the viciousness that meant any idea they were currently chasing was a bad fucking one. 

Kage backtracked as quick as he fucking could. “We’re getting ahead of ourselves,” he said, quick, “we need to fucking prove to Gudako that Odin’s fucking story is a bald-faced lie. And I’m not sure a conspiracy board, no matter how fucking nice, is going to be enough to convince her. We need proof.”

“It’s a planning board!” Nobunaga yelped, and when he glared at her, she rolled her eyes. “Oh, alright, fine. The planning board won’t be enough to convince Gudako … you said she’s already suspicious, hai?”

“If not suspicious, then worried,” Kage agreed, eyeing her. That vicious gleam hadn’t left her eyes.

“Wabi sabi!” Nobunaga said. She tossed the remaining card aside and jumped to her feet, bounding this way and that as she spun to face him. “So she’ll be awful quick to respond if she hears that poor, confused, CasCu was breaking into the Wandering Sea’s closed off sections, quite nicely stabbing the hand Sion has so graciously giving us~”

Kage’s head jerked. Something tight curled in his chest. “You want to set Odin up to take the fall of breaking into the secret parts of the Wandering Sea,” he said, incredulously. He couldn’t fucking believe her. But at the same time… it could also fucking work.

“It would hardly be setting up,” Nobunaga said, waving her hand about. “Unless he’s gotten permission, then he’s bound to be caught! It can’t be helped!”

“He hasn’t gotten permission,” Kage said, a bit numbly. “Otherwise he wouldn’t be skulking around all suspicious like.”

“Exactly!” Nobunaga crowed. She grabbed his hands and yanked him to his feet.

Kage stumbled up at the tug. His mind was far away, stuck on the dust and cobwebs that had been clinging to Not-CasCu before his shower. “We’ll have to be quick about gathering evidence,” he mumbled, “I don’t think it will be long before that fucker breaks into somewhere. And if he does… well, we have to be prepared. I think if we give him time, he’ll be able to weasel his damn way out of it.”

Nobunaga nodded. “We’ll have to tell someone,” she said, tapping her chin. “Someone high up … someone more than capable of setting a trap.”

“Sherlock,” Kage said, “It has to be him.”

It made the most sense. The man was a fucking detective - of course it would have to be him. And if they told him about Scáthach ’s inability to corroborate Alter’s story, then he could look into the possibility of her being mind controlled … quite frankly, Kage felt a bit stupid about not approaching him before. Sure, the bastard was recovering from being runed and having his arm cut off by Surtr, but Kage had hardly been in a better predicament.

“Then we better hop to it!” Nobunaga crowed. She raced towards the door, opened it with a jerk. “Let’s go!” 

Kage was just fast enough to grab her and pick her up before she could race out. “Oh, no you don’t,” he said, scowling, “If you appear with a story like this, Sherlock will think of it like it’s one of your damn pranks. I’m going, and I’m going alone. Got it?” 

Nobunaga hung from his grip by the scruff of her uniform. She scowled at him, crossed her arms over her chest. “Not wabi sabi!” She proclaimed, “I helped you build this case, I should help you present it!”

“And you can,” Kage said, “Later. Maybe to Gudako if it comes to that. But Sherlock has to take this seriously, damn it. Got it?” 

Nobunaga scowled harder at him. Kage scowled right back. Finally, she threw up her hands and snapped, “Fine! Fine! It’s so not wabi sabi, but fine! You’ll get to talk to Sherlock alone this time - but next time I’m coming along, got it?”

“It’s a deal,” Kage said. He set her down gently into her room, then moved towards the door in case she made an attempt for it.

She didn’t. She sat there, scowling, patting down her jacket and brushing off her hair. Then she stuck her nose up in the air and sniffed. “Well, while you do that, I’ll contact Cu and see where he stands on the whole thing. Maybe try to win back Proto. Definitely contact Fuuma and see how far Not-CasCu’s gotten along. Maybe try to mobilize some forces. This is not the end of my involvement!”

“I wouldn’t dream of it,” Kage said dryly, before stepping out into the hallway and shutting the door behind him.

 

“This is quite a tale you’ve spun,” Sherlock said, in the tone of someone who was in the middle of a fucking chess match , and contemplating his next moves. It was the type of tone that made Kage want to squirm in his seat and think back to how damaging his last prank was and what evidence he’d left behind. Considering his last prank wasn’t too fucking long ago, it wasn’t a very comforting feeling.

Kage resisted the urge to squirm where he sat. He did his best to fight it back with a scowl. “Well, it’s fucking true.”

Sherlock said nothing, in that way Sherlock did, with eyes half lidded and a half smile on his lips - the kind of smile that made one wonder where the fuck he’d gotten his drugs after everything they’d been through. Hell, considering all the shit they’d been through, the man did look better than he had at the end of the Lostbelt. He was no longer so pale, no longer so sick looking. The sleeve of his fancy suit was pinned neatly at his shoulder, where Surtr’s blade had cut deep through it. 

All in all, he looked better than Kage probably did, a fact Kage tried his best not to linger on. He sat there, swallowing gulps from his steaming cup of tea, in ironically the same room he’d talked to Gudako in, what felt so fucking long ago. The room hadn’t changed. Kage had. He felt like he was going to burst if Sherlock didn’t say something.

“Quite frankly,” Sherlock said, fingering his cup, “this is not a situation we’ve had to face before. Changes to a Spirit Origin in the middle of a situation is something that typically happens in smaller Singularities - but also fade away afterwards. Just take the instances of Summer Servants, for example. They’re like that only for brief periods of time, before returning to normal. Servants who do have deities tied to their Spirit Origins are summoned that way - they cannot exist otherwise.” 

“So?” Kage asked, gripping his cup tighter. He felt like, if this bastard didn’t get to the point, it would shatter.

“So,” Sherlock said, after taking a sip of tea, “what you’re outlining requires two things: One, for Odin to have taken over CasCu like Skadi had taken over Scáthach . Two, for Odin to have survived all three thousand years without Skadi realizing it - which is something highly improbably. Skadi had Odin’s power, and her awareness extended everywhere within that Lostbelt. If Odin had survived, then she would be aware of it. Since she did not, then Odin simply couldn’t have been there.” 

“So you’re saying I’m a fucking liar then,” Kage said. His hands shook. He set his cup down before he could break it, and focused on breathing through his nose, harsh breaths that left him shaking afterwards.

“No,” Sherlock said, “I believe that you are correct in some cases. CasCu has been acting far odder than his situation should allow. By now, his Spirit Origin should have stabilized, and his mentality should have returned to normal - but he keeps himself away from Irisviel so she cannot look at him, and more so , he has avoided every possible contact with me since the Lostbelt was destroyed. That speaks to something going on that he does not wish us to be aware of - which is concerning.” 

“Concerning,” Kage repeated. He was starting to realize why people got so frustrated at Sherlock so quickly. The bastard wouldn’t get to the fucking point.

“Concerning,” Sherlock said, “but not proof that he has been possessed by the Lostbelt Odin. However, of the four influences on his Spirit Origin, it is clear that the Odin influence is the strongest, which does not corroborate with his story. I do believe it is time for me to put CasCu on watch.”

Kage wanted to shake him. He fantasized it, briefly, thought about how nice it would be to see the bastard’s head rattle until his brain leaked from his ears - but he cut the thought off before it could bloom into action, instead sucked in a sharp breath between his teeth and let it out in a harsh hiss. “And if his story is proven as bullshit?” 

“Then that would change things,” Sherlock said. He’d been sipping his tea. Now he set the cup down to regard Kage, frankly, for a long few moments that made Kage want to squirm. “If,” he said, “CasCu was proven to be lying about his story, then of course an investigation into the truth would have to be put in operation. But he has not told his story to me directly, so I cannot tell if he’s lying.”

“And what about me?” Kage retorted, scowling. “Can you tell if I’m fucking lying?”

“I can tell you believe your order of events to be true,” Sherlock said. His fingers tapped, once against the table. Kage couldn’t tell if it was with boredom or intrigue. He wished he knew - gods, he almost preferred speaking to Moriarty. At least you knew that fucker was thinking about an evil plot.

“Well,” Kage hissed, after a moment of strangling down his basic instincts to throttle this man, “if you deign to open an investigation, you should talk to Alter about what he and CasCu experienced during that Lostbelt. And then you should talk to Scáthach , and see if there’s something wrong with her. But I’m not a fucking detective, so what the fuck would I know about it?” 

He stood, harsh, leaving his teacup jittering upon the table. Sherlock seemed unconcerned with his anger. He just sipped his tea again, then stood. “I will do a little digging of my own,” he said, “and I will ask Sion about her defenses of the Wandering Sea’s secrets. If she so permits, we can put up a guard, or a trap. But these things take time. Do try to be patient.”

“No shit,” Kage snarled. He’d been patient. He’d been a fuck ton of patient, with too much time spent where that bastard puppetted around his CasCu like a toy. He wasn’t going to be patient anymore. Kage spun around, and took to Spirit Form, leaving Sherlock behind him.

 

As much as Kage wanted to do something, there wasn’t much he could do until he met up with Not-CasCu and threw the truth in his face like a wet and stinky sock. Nicotris wouldn’t be done with his protection amulet yet, and the fucking Spirit Origin examination technology wouldn’t be done until tomorrow. It felt like there were a thousand balls that had been tossed up into the air, and Kage was stuck in the moment, the breath when they all hung there at the crest of their apex, waiting for them to crash down.

And as much as he hated it, Sherlock's words would not leave his mind. Particularly the bit about why it couldn’t be Lostbelt Odin doing the possessing. Because Sherlock was right - Odin had passed his power to Skadi. Skadi would have been able to sense his presence, and the small glimpse Kage had of the Ice Goddess certainly suggested she wouldn’t let that old one-eyed bastard stay hidden for three-thousand years. 

But that left no way Proper Human History Odin could possess CasCu. Like Sherlock said, deities had to be present at the summoning. Hell- Surtr was a perfect fucking example. Sigurd had a damned perfect spirit origin, but Surtr had hijacked the summons and taken him for a ride. If something like that had happened to CasCu, it would have been when he was summoned, and then - well -

It wouldn’t have been CasCu. It simply wouldn’t have been the CasCu that Kage had grown to love. So it had to be Lostbelt Odin. There was no other option.

His head ached just thinking about it. Kage headed towards the kitchen, head aching, stomach and heart in knots. He needed to cook. He needed to release some of this tension before he snapped … and take some time to think. To plan. Because he was playing with fucking fire, and though CasCu would never burn him, this Not-CasCu, this Odin, was different. He’d have no fucking problem following through on his end of the deal if Kage failed.

He needed … to be prepared, for that. Just in case . But first, he needed to cook.

 

The kitchens did their job. They always did their job, even if it took some fucking time to get there. Still, Kage found himself relaxing as time passed. Even the presence of his other self didn’t grate as badly as it had in the beginning. When he breathed, he breathed in the scents of spices and cooked meals. When he exhaled, some tension left him. And in the renewed calm of his mind, a plan bloomed. 

After the kitchens, Kage headed towards the storage areas once more. He’d found the glitter here, though why the fuck the mages of the Wandering Sea would need glitter, he had no clue. Then again, perhaps it was just another example of the Wandering Sea changing to fit their needs. Either way, it didn’t matter.

He found what he needed that first time. And after a bit more searching of the mechanical areas of the storage room, he found what he needed this time too. He didn’t trace it - like hell would he show his hand with that - but he slipped it into his pocket and walked through the halls of the Wandering Sea once more, making his winding way towards the Pharaoh's quarters. This time, he came with a gift prepared.

Kage knocked on the door, and said, “This is Kage speaking. I need to speak to Pharaoh Nicotris, if she’s in.”

There was a pause, brief. If there was a murmur of conversation to accompany with it, Kage didn’t hear that much. But the doorknob did twist, the handle shifting down, and then the door creaked open and swung inwards, revealing the room and those within it. Cleopatra sat at the table, sipping from her cup with delicate grace. On the throne sat Ozymandias , bright in all his glory. Nicotris was nowhere to be seen.

And the ones that had opened the door were cats. Bright, starlight speckled cats, that had fallen into a tumble of tails and paws and were blaming each other for it. Kage found himself staring at them. He’d heard about the phantasmal beast sphinx kittens before. He’d not gotten to see them, though, and probably for the fact that they were criminally fucking cute.

“You!” Ozymandias boomed, his voice filling the echo chamber, “Have come before the hall of the pharaohs with the intent to speak to one of our number! Your insolence is almost amusing. Have you brought a gift worthy of the Sun King, or is your amusement the only thing you shall be relying on?”

Shit. Kage bowed his head deep, didn’t look at Ozymandias or Cleopatra, who sipped from her cup of tea with a haughty air that certainly suggested she thought his attitude wasn’t amusing in the least. He gripped the book tighter between his fingers, than spoke. “I do carry a gift, but it is for Pharaoh Nicotris. She has agreed to do something very important for me, so I have come to offer her something in thanks. But if a gift is what you require for an audience, then I can offer nothing but a promise.”

Ozymandias burst into a laugh. It was a boisterous thing, loud and sun filled, and Kage could feel the heat cross his face as he scowled. His fingers gripped tighter upon the book. Cleopatra sipped her tea with an unaffected air. When she spoke, her voice was just as haughty as her air. “Promises are empty, and easily reneged.”

“But one who comes in swearing to fulfill one to me is amusement at its height,” Ozymandias said. “Now tell me, Archer, what your promise is. Perhaps then we will tell you where Pharaoh Nicotris has holed herself up.” 

Kage stared at his feet, where the starry kittens were bapping and lunging at each other, rolling in ridiculous antics across the floor. “I will make treats,” he said, “treats befitting the most powerful of creatures, o Pharaoh . Such young sphinx ’s will certainly need something to help them grow as strong as the one you use.”

Cleopatra paused. “Treats for the sphinx s?” She asked, almost wondering, but Kage could hear a note of something like anticipation in her voice. For all her proclamations of promises meaning nothing, she certainly seemed interested.

Ozymandias didn’t speak immediately. Kage could feel the weight and burn of his gaze across his shoulders, unyielding as the desert sun. He stood there, half bowed, hearing the beat of his heart in his ears. Sweat slicked his palm, slipping the book through his fingers. He tightened his grip, waited, barely daring to breathe.

Finally, Ozymandias spoke. “You will bring me these treats in two days time,” he said, “and if they are not favored by my sphinx kittens, then you shall face the mercy of his father. After all, words of empty air must have some weight behind them.”

Well - shit. Kage’s brain spun through everything he’d have to go through in the next couple of days - it was fine. He could make it. He could fucking make it. “Of course, O pharaoh.” He said, “I thank you for your kindness and willingness to listen to me.”

“Do not thank me! My generosity comes and goes with the sun, and in this place of cold and empty space, it will come less and less frequently. Live up to your word, Archer. Otherwise, your punishment will be strong indeed.” Ozymandias smiled, and Kage could feel the heat in the air for it. 

“Now,” Ozymandias said, “you will find Pharaoh Nicotris in the workshops of this forsaken place. Though the style of them is more modern, the essentials are the same to her workshops of old, and in that darkness she grows in strength. Be careful when you disturb her. She is fast working upon your request, and the magecraft of her God is not one to watch likely - the process itself awakens the dead, and insights decay in those standing near. She might not be able to tell friend from foe. Now go, Archer! And the next time we meet, bring me my sphinx s’ treats!”

 

If Ozymandias ’ words hadn’t been fucking terrifying already, the bounded field that thrummed off the door to the workshop Nicotris was using was a dark portent. It pulsed with power, sang when Kage reached out to touch it. The whole thing wasn’t quite fucking built of curses, but it promised nasty tidings to anything that interrupted her work.  

Kage was almost tempted to leave her to it. Obviously she didn’t want to be interrupted, and obviously she was still working on the damn thing. This pulsing field wouldn’t be here if she wasn’t. He should leave the cookbook with a note, and walk away, and then while away in the kitchens trying to make Sphinx treats until it was time to find Not-CasCu and tell him that Kage knew the truth.

At the same fucking time, a part of him didn’t want to leave this place without knowing if the amulet was going to be done in time. It was a tiny, stupid, terrified part of him. If, by some fucking way, he was wrong and the entity controlling Not-CasCu wasn’t Odin, or if Not-CasCu refused to take a general Odin as an answer, and wanted a distinction between Lostbelt Odin and Proper Human History Odin, then Kage was fucking screwed. Without this amulet, he’d lose CasCu forever.

Kage reached up to knock on the door, paused before his knuckles could touch the dark bounded field. Then he reached out with his mind, hesitant. Pharaoh Nicotris, do you have a moment?”

There was a sound in his head like a screech, or maybe it was the unholy cry of the damned. Kage flinched back, face twisting in pain. Nicotris’ voice came through it like a badly tuned radio - barely audible for the amount of static that crackled across the words. “No, I do not have a moment! Do you know how tricky protective amulets are? Especially ones that are out of my purview? Do NOT interrupt me again, or I will send you to speak with Anubis!”

Kage took a couple steps back, swore soundly, and stood there, at a loss. Ozymandias had not lied about her temperament. Kage was fucking stuck. There was a big fucking bulb of fear and anger in his throat - he forced himself to take a step back, then another, then another, until his back hit the opposite hallway wall. And there he stood, staring at the bounded field, cookbook in his slick hands.

He’d started this day with a fucking plan. And now it felt like everything was fucking unraveling . In the end, all he could do was lean against the cold hallway wall, and fight to breathe. Breathe past the fear, the nerves, and the slowly creeping up curse, answering the presence of Nicotris’ darker powers.

There was no fucking way he was getting in and out of that room with his head still screwed on in the right way.

So instead, Kage sat. He set the cookbook down, wrote a note upon its cover, doing his best to keep his hand steady as he formed the letters. I will be in the kitchen, meet me there when you’re done with it. If I’m not there, then contact me. I’ll do my best to pick it up as soon as I can. The book is for you. You should pick out a recipe you want to learn before your first lesson. Then he pushed himself to his feet, and leaned the book up against the wall, hoping that it would be the first damn thing Nicotris saw when she walked out of that room.

And then, Kage left the room behind him. He had no other fucking choice. He couldn’t just fucking wait and stew in silence. Interrupting and asking was a no-go . So all he could do was walk, step by step, back to the kitchens, where the hustle and bustle filled his ears and the different scents filled his nose. And there, he started looking up recipes for cat treats, like the stupid monotony of the situation would save him from the situation to come.

 

Nicotris did not come with the amulet.

The day passed. Kage looked up recipes for treats, tried to find ingredients for phantasmal beasts, and did his best to begin something that might eventually be a proper treat for a growing sphinx . He did it all, and did his best not to think about it. He did that all, and waited, and waited, and waited. But Nicotris did not reach out to him. She did not appear with an amulet in hand. And as the day came to its slow end, people emptying out of the kitchens, Kage knew that he had run out of fucking time.

He stood there, slowly wringing his hands dry on his towel. “Nicotris?” He sent out, a bit uncertain, a bit tight. “Can I collect the amulet now?”

Nothing. Nothing but the buzzing hum of a thousand flies collecting upon a desecrated corpse. Fuck. He really hadn’t thought that the amulet would take this long to take. Maybe he had overestimated her abilities. Maybe he had underestimated how hard it would be to create. Or maybe - fucking maybe - Nicotris hadn’t treated the thing like urgent priority, and had only recently gotten started on it.

It didn’t matter, either way. His time was up.

“Kage,” said a voice in his mind, slow and steady and roughly amused. Just the sound of it sent spiders crawling up Kage’s spine. “Are you ready?” 

Kage folded his towel up and hung it over the faucet. He scowled at nothing, his fingers pricking at the soft fabric. “Of course I am,” he scoffed, all bluster. “Where shall we meet?”

“Why not the library, since this is where it all begin? I’ll meet you there in say… twenty minutes. Don’t be late.”

And then he was gone, leaving Kage to grit his teeth, fingers curling up to bite into his palms. The library. A place that should have been a neutral meeting ground - but Kage had no illusions. It was a jibe, a show of power. Not-CasCu wasn’t concerned with where they did this, and he wasn’t concerned with anyone watching. Gods, if he knew Fuuma was there - the bastard could probably put up a bounded field to put anyone else to shame. Kage couldn’t rely on Fuuma. He couldn’t rely on anyone.

He would be alone.

Well, that was too fucking bad for Not-CasCu. He wouldn’t get what he wanted. Something hot and angry stirred within Kage’s chest. It burned, pulsing along his arm and cheek, making his eyes water. He blinked back the sharp sting of his curse, shoved it hard away, and then strode forwards. It was fucking time to call this bastard out on his shit.

 

The library was painstakingly empty. It was the type of empty that horror movies were made out of- yawning and painful. Kage felt the bounded field as soon as he entered that coppery, steampunk, horribly impersonal room. It tingled across his skin, let him in with a sound like a soft sigh. When he sucked in a breath, he tasted the effort that had been put into it. Runes glowed gold, outlining the doorway.

He doubted anyone else would have been allowed in. If Fuuma was here, then Kage couldn’t sense his presence. The silence and the emptiness caved in on him, threatening to strangle his breath - Kage shoved it away with the warmth of his anger, and called out into the emptiness, “Hey, old man! Too fucking scared to face me? Where the hell are you?” 

“That impatience of yours will be your undoing, you know,” said Not-CasCu, from Kage’s side. There was something like amusement in his tone. “And it will not save you here.”

Kage turned. Not-CasCu had come out from between the bookshelves, a large tome in his hands. As Kage watched, he closed it, and set it within the return cart. There was a fluidity to his movements that Kage didn’t like. For all there was something that spoke to age - a particular range of motion, as if from arthritic joints - he also moved like it wasn’t an impedance, a warrior that knew it’s body for all the aches and creaks, and stayed strong despite his age.

“Bullshit,” Kage said. He stood, stiff. “I don’t need to be fucking saved from you, asshole.” 

“After the trick you pulled? I think you should.” Not-CasCu ran a hand through his hair. By some miracle, he’d managed to wash most of the glitter out, but bits of it still strung to the silver strands. If it had been CasCu, the sight might have been enchanting. In this parody, it just made Kage ache to punch him. 

But for right now, all he could do properly was give a sneer. “Oh don’t fucking joke. The glitter doesn’t change shit.”

“Sure it does,” Not-CasCu mused. “It was a clever way of getting my host to answer you call … almost too clever, I think. As if guided by some mischievous spirit …” Not-CasCu smiled, something almost nasty and promised secrets between them.

Kage wanted to punch that too. He stood there, stiff, vibrating with the urge. “Well?” He said, sharply, “Going to admit that CasCu’s still in there? Since I’ve gotten what I wanted, I can leave whenever I want.”
“But you haven’t gotten what you wanted,” Not-CasCu said, his demeanor changing instantly. There was something colder about him now. More calculating. Play time was over. “You wanted to know what happened to your CasCu. And the only way you’ll know that is if you’ve guessed my name correctly. So … Kage, who am I?”

Kage stared at him, breathing hard. Took in the eye patch , the golden eye, the silver hair, the mantle of raven’s feathers. The almost clawed hands. The runes on the door. His fingers curled, and he shoved his hands within his pockets, careful not to jab them on anything. “Well, Odin, you haven’t been trying very hard to fucking hide who you are, have you?” 

Something shifted on Not-CasCu’s - Odin’s - face. It wasn’t quite like glee - but there was something of the shade there, bright and eager. Like a game that had just gotten interesting. “I’ll admit,” he said, “I was not trying very hard. At least … not for you. It was a mistake to overlook the other versions, but that is a mistake being rectified. As far as anyone is concerned, I am CasCu with a few … eccentricities, settling into my new role. No one has been quite as suspicious as you. I wonder why.”

He said those words like he already knew the answer. Kage had to resist the urge to step backwards. “So you agree that you’re Odin?” 

“Yes,” Odin said, “I am Odin, the All Father . One eyed, mage and warrior king of the Norse gods, and right now a Servant under the same Master as you.”

Kage had expected - he didn’t fucking know - more? From the reveal? A flare of power, a sudden revelation. But Odin stayed the same way he’d been, standing there at attention, but not threatening, not garnering any other aspect upon himself. Perhaps he didn’t fucking need it. Now that he’d said the words, Kage could feel the fucking power of him, this swell of his Spirit Origin not fully visible. But for a moment, the shadows were darker, the lights brighter, and there might have been the hallucination of two birds on his shoulders.

Kage sucked in a ragged breath. “If you’re Odin,” he said, fingers flexing. “What the fuck happened to CasCu?”

“Nothing has happened to CasCu,” Odin said, after what seemed an eternity of consideration. “If anything, it is more accurate to say that things have been returned to their rightful place. The persona has been brought back to heel, and with time, it will be dismantled, and I will remain as what should have been since the beginning.”

Kage stood there, staring. The words didn’t compute. His hands shook. Returned to rightful place? Persona? Dismantled? He felt sick. His voice rasped from his throat in a tight hiss. “What the fuck are you talking about?”

“I will put it in simple terms then,” Odin said, and all that amusement in his face, his voice, was gone. Instead, he was cold. He stared at Kage with that flinty, distant look, like he had evaluated him and found him lacking. “CasCu never existed in the first place. He is no alternate version of his other selves - he is a guise I have worn for too long, and now it is far past time to shake him off.”

Kage couldn’t fucking breathe.

He couldn’t fucking breathe.

He took a step back, then another, then another. His back hit the wall and the bounded field, and he couldn’t go any further. He stared at this Odin, wearing CasCu’s face, claiming that CasCu never existed, and shook. His nails broke skin. His curse surged within his blood, and he felt his lips pull back over his teeth. “What the fuck are you talking about?”

Odin was no longer looking at him. He had turned back to the cart of books to be returned, and was running his fingers over the spines, as if reading the lettering there. His voice was utterly unconcerned. “I saw the destruction of humanity,” he said, “and knew that the Master who fixed it would need guidance upon their path. I may have stewarded the approach of Ragnarök , in many ways hastened the end of the Age of Gods … but the Age of Humans was always my goal. I could not stand by and watch it be destroyed. So when Bazett McRemitz attempted to summon the Heroic Spirit of Cu Chulainn, I interceded with a made up Cu Chulainn of my own, and entered the summoning in his guise. You should be thankful. That is the only reason you were summoned there as well.”

“Like hell it was!” Kage’s anger surged against the constraints of his shock. He lunged off the wall, crossed the room in quick strides, and grabbed onto the clasp of Odin’s cloak. His fingers bunched tight in the fabric. He dragged the bastard over to face him, shaking with his rage. “I was Summoned there by Tohsaka Rin,” he hissed, “And the CasCu I met was CasCu! Not some half blind old man who claims that he never existed!”

Odin considered the hand gripping his collar. His talon-like fingers reached up, then began prying Kage off of him, finger by finger. “I will admit,” he mused, “That even in my age and my wisdom, there are things that take me by surprise. The conviction Bazett had for Cu Chulainn was one of them, and so was the draw of the catalyst she used. It meant that my mask was summoned as the main participant in the war, whereas I was forced to lurk in the recesses. This too wouldn’t have been a problem, if the presence of Cu Chulainn hadn’t forced the appearance of an Emiya Shirou. Neither of you might have been the originals, but the connection was strong enough to give CasCu the chance to take over - and once he had built a narrative for his past to fill in the gaps of his memory, I remained asleep. Mash registered CasCu’s Spirit Origin - with mine asleep within his - into her Shield, so when he was Summoned again, it was once more with CasCu at the forefront and me asleep. But the Lostbelt changed that. My birds changed that,” he smiled, something small and slight, before shoving Kage’s hand away. “Their presence awoke me once more, and I was able to regain control. Things are now as they were always meant to be in the beginning.”

“No,” Kage rasped out. “No - you’re fucking lying!” he shoved at Odin, hit his shoulders hard. The god didn’t budge. Just watched Kage, with that bright gold eye, as if he was comparing his reaction with someone else's. The curse surged under Kage skin, and he swore, hard, stumbled away before he could punch the fucker, rip his throat out - “You’re lying.” He rasped out, again. “You’re lying.”

“I’m not,” Odin said, “and the proof is your very own existence. After all - it should have been your proper self to have been summoned to that Singularity, correct? But even before your corruption, the two of you were different. It was my presence that caused you to be Summoned. I am the reason you are different.”

“Oh just shut the fuck up already!” Kage shrieked. His fingers curled around the hilts of his swords. He shook there, vision blurring, rush of blood through his ears. It encouraged him forwards, pushed him to take a step. “I should fucking cut out your tongue , you lying , one eyed, pathetic little bitch of a god -”

“But we’re both liars,” Odin said, his voice dryly amused, “aren’t we, Loki?”

Kage froze, his sword half raised, all that blood turned to ice in a second. Loki. He stared at Odin with wide eyes, body trembling - and all at once the sensation of the sword in hand hit him. The weight of the blade, the leather grip against his palm, the way it had been aimed to strike. He dropped both of them in a rush of sparks, and stumbled away from Odin, feeling sick with the words and the knowledge of the blood almost spilled.

Odin watched him go, and that gold eye seemed watchful, brighter, as if penetrating through the layers of Kage’s mind. “Oh,” he said, amused, “did you not know? My apologies.” he didn’t sound apologetic at all.

Kage’s chest heaved. His stomach twisted into knots. He made a noise into the palm of his hand, a bit into the sweat soaked skin as if that would pin him in place. When he’d gathered enough sense, he rasped, “What are you talking about?”

“Loki,” Odin said, almost…. Chiding. Like a teacher having to explain a concept they thought obvious to a very dim witted child, “has always delighted in ruining my plans, since Ragnarök . They would have sensed my summons, and would have influenced a summons of their own. Your shape is one they would have preferred, and your personality - well, you are certainly a liar, a trickster, and a suspicious thing all told. Even your background as a scapegoat would have resonated well with them. Like I created CasCu, Loki created you … the difference is he has yet to wake up.”

Kage couldn’t speak. He couldn’t breathe. His throat constricted airflow - he was choking on nothing, who body trembling as if struck. Odin stood there, utterly assured of his deduction, watching Kage with an almost expectant, waiting air. As if he was preparing for Kage to toss away his panic and reveal that, ah ha, he was Loki all along. 

But it wasn’t possible, he wouldn’t do it, because he wasn’t Loki. He wasn’t - right? If CasCu had been Odin this whole time, without knowing, then if Kage was - no. No. His mind spun. He stumbled back and hit the door shoulder first. It opened to spill him into the hallway, and Odin’s bounded field let him through with roil of runecraft. For a moment, Odin was visible, watching him with amusement - and then it was the gold of the bounded field, blocking out the sight of the library and the god within. Just the sight of the damn thing made Kage feel sicker. He stumbled down the hallway in a panic filled daze, Odin’s words pounding against his head, in beat with the recorder that thumped against his leg, tucked within his pocket and still taking in every desperate footstep, and every ragged breath.

 

Chapter 22: Chapter 22

Summary:

Chaldean's assemble!

Notes:

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Chapter Text

Kage’s flight from the library was directionless and full of the sick sense of panic. Odin’s words rang in his mind, a horrible cacophony he couldn’t outrun. Loki. It couldn’t be right. The bastard had to be lying. Loki. Every damn word out of his mouth had to be a lie. Loki. CasCu couldn’t have started out as a mere mask, and Kage couldn’t have a god sleeping in his own mind, waiting to wake up with the right stimuli.

He couldn’t. 

Like I created CasCu, Loki created you … the difference is he has yet to wake up.

Kage found a bathroom. He didn't know whose it was or where he was, but he found a damn toilet and threw up within it, his shoulders shaking, breath caught in his throat. He half wanted to cry. A part of him wanted to curse. He gripped the porcelain with shaking fingers, wrestled in savage gasps of breath, and did his best to shove the words away. Shove the whole damn end of that conversation away.
It wouldn’t go.

Odin hadn’t been hiding himself from Kage because he thought Kage was Loki. Hell, he probably hadn’t done much to act like CasCu because - because as far as he was concerned, CasCu didn’t exist. Everything he’d done since making the deal was to make Kage’s life harder. Because he thought Kage was Loki.

Kage laughed, a wild, tight sound. He sagged against the shower wall, and let the cold metal sink into his skin. The chill of it centered him. His laugh broke into a half sob. He dragged his fingers over his face, dug them into his hair, and tried to breathe. Each breath tasted like vomit. 

Would it even be possible to free CasCu? If Odin had been CasCu since the beginning, then Kage had no clue if it was possible. Doing so would - would hurt CasCu. Maybe destroy him. Doing the same to Kage, if he did indeed have a bit of Loki sleeping in his head - he made a sharp noise between his teeth, and bit back another helpless sound.

Just breathe. Just breathe, damn it.

Kage closed his eyes, and did his best to focus on a place far away from here, a happier time. Chaldea. CasCu and him, curled up and tangled on the couch, watching stupid movies and eating stupid snacks. Listening to his old man’s breath, the rise, and fall of his chest, the warm cadence of his voice. The silk of CasCu’s hair between his fingers. The certainty that, whatever they had, would last forever.

As long as Kage was willing to fight for it.

Kage took in another gulp of the cold Wandering Sea air. After a moment, when he was no longer shaking, he fumbled into his pocket and pulled out the heavy recorder. He clicked the button on the tape, and bared his teeth at the damn thing. “That’s right,” he said, to nothing but himself, “I fucking played you. Say what you want you goddamned bastard, do what you want you fucking bastard, but it’s over. I have you.”

It was a hollow victory.

Kage pushed himself up and slid the recorder back into his pocket. He stumbled to the sink, then ran the cold water. Splashed it across his face. The rivulets dripped down his cheeks, and he bent his head to suck the water from his palms, swished, and spat back into a sink. A couple more rinses meant that his mouth no longer tasted like sick. The cold on his skin steadied him. He turned the sink off, ran his hands through his hair, and turned away from the mirror before he could catch a glimpse of himself.

“Gudako,” he called out, his voice tight, “Sherlock, do either of you have some time to talk?”

There was a moment, a pause, a silence. And then Gudako’s voice came through the connection, thick and hazy with sleep. “Urhg, can’t it wait till morning?”

“It can’t,” Kage said. His hands shook slightly, and he took a deep breath, before moving to leave the bathroom. “It needs to be talked about now,” before Odin got suspicious about any fucking thing.

“Alright,” Gudako said. Kage could hear the yawn in her voice. 

“Shall we meet in the Command Room?” Sherlock suggested. “I shall bring tea.”

“No,” Kage said. The Command Room was too well known a location. He hesitated, then spoke again. “That room we spoke in last time, Sherlock. That will work fine.”

“Then I shall see you there,” Sherlock said, and cut the connection.

Gudako lingered a little bit longer. She sounded more awake now, the grogginess slipping from her tones. “Kage? Are you alright?”

Was he alright? The question almost made him laugh. No he wasn’t fucking alright. He wasn’t fucking alright at all. His CasCu was taken over by a god that had supposedly been there from the beginning, sleeping away while CasCu built a life for himself. Kage was supposedly in the same situation. It was all fucking wrong , and he wanted to cry and scream, his curse pulsing under his skin but pushing him nowhere, as if it too was confused. 

But the recorder sat heavy in his pocket. Odin’s confession, all the proof that Kage needed. So he sucked in a deep breath, and let it out slowly. “I will be, once this damn thing is over with,” he said.

Guadako was silent for a moment. “Alright,” she said, “I’ll be right there.” 

The connection cut off. Kage sucked in another breath, then summoned Carnwennan to hand. King Arthur’s dagger, a completely concealing presence. Because like hell was he going to fuck up and let Odin change his mind, and come for them all. It was too late in the game to choke now. Safe and secured with the dagger in his grip, Kage left the bathroom behind him, and headed out.

 

The recorder sat on the table, spilling out every damn word Odin had given to Kage. Kage let it play, staring into the depths of his tea, feeling a horrible mixture of rage and hopelessness. His expression looked back, shadows under eyes, bright curse along his face, eyes glowing with it. Was this a face Loki would have chosen? Kage couldn’t tell. All he could do was reach out and turn the recorder off after Odin was done talking, so they didn’t have to hear Kage’s resulting reaction.

“There you go,” he said, his voice a rasp. “Is that enough proof for you, Sherlock?” 

Sherlock sat there, prim and proper, his fingers curled around his mug of tea. “There are very few things that can beat a confession,” he said, “Especially when that confession is clearly unforced. His examination tomorrow should definitely prove if he was lying or not.”

If. Kage wanted to punch him. He didn’t have the energy too. But still … “You mean the tech will be ready tomorrow?”

“It should,” Sherlock said, and sipped his tea.

“Do you want an examination too?” Gudako asked, her voice small.

Kage looked at her. She was a mess - when she’d stepped into the room, she had looked half dead from exhaustion. Now there was something almost tight on her face, a fear that fit the one that Kage felt. She looked sick, her face pale, her eyes shadowed, hair tangled, skin dotted with sweat. Of course, she did. CasCu was one of the first Servants she had summoned. Sometimes Kage forgot that.

He looked away, staring at his cup. “Can we do that without Odin being suspicious?”

“I don’t think it will be too hard,” Gudako said. She gave Kage a tight smile. “It’s obviously weighing on you … and it will be a good test run of the equipment. If it notices something, then we’ll be able to pinpoint the Odin in CasCu easily. If it doesn’t … then Odin is either a liar, or seeing things that aren’t there, or possibly both.”

“And if it’s a false negative?” Kage asked. His hands were shaking now, little tremors that rocked the water. That thought was almost worse. That he’d be cleared from Loki’s shadow, only to have that bastard pop up in his mind anyway. It was the sort of thing nightmares were made of, and Kage didn’t need any more of those.

“Have you had any dreams lately?” Sherlock asked. He watched Kage, this long, considering glance, like he was a bug under a microscope to be studied.

Kage scowled, and shifted. “I haven’t been sleeping.”

“What about odd feelings and thoughts? Pains you cannot explain? A sudden inclination for trouble making - stronger than your normal one, of course,” Sherlock continued. His gaze never wavered.

“I haven’t had any of that,” Kage snapped. His shoulders were stiff, his body tight, as if expecting a blow - but instead, Sherlock eased back, and nodded, as if the words were confirmation of something he was already thinking.

“It is unlikely,” he says, “you are truly a Pseudo-Servant of Loki. It is clear that Odin woke up due to our Lostbelt in Scandinavia, and the presence of his birds would have only helped matters. I doubt there would be any bigger wake-up call for Loki than Odin’s presence. You have not been having any odd thoughts, phantom pains, or inclinations, which means that it is likely that you are simply who you are - Emiya Shirou, a Counter Guardian who happens to be cursed by the Grail. Loki is not a part of your makeup.”

Kage stared at him, eyes wide, mind blank at the words. It was as if they refused to register. His logic was sound. It made sense, if only Kage could understand it.

Gudako did. She sagged into her seat with a sigh. “Thank god,” she breathed, “I’d rather you stay you Kage.”

“You mean …” he stared at Sherlock, mind twisting, before he landed on an answer. “You don’t think I’m Loki?” he asked, a mix of incredulity and relief.

“I don’t,” Sherlock agreed. “The test should only confirm what I expect. To find that there is something crouching within your Spirit Origin would be highly irregular. Quite frankly, it is amazing that Odin was capable of concealing his presence so long - though no doubt that is due to his summons as a Heroic Spirit registered by Mash’s shield. But since you were Summoned from a Catalyst, you are closer to your truest sense than CasCu is. Any influence upon your Spirit Origin was one we should have found long ago.”

The words took a moment to sink in, but when they did, Kage collapsed against the table. The panic that had been trapped within his chest left him in a sudden gust of breath. He stared at nothing, blinking as the words caught up to him, eyes hot with the realization. Sherlock believed that Loki wasn’t a part of him. That Kage wasn’t a figment, created by a god, that had managed to gain a bit of its own sentience. That CasCu’s fate was not awaiting him.

And yet …

“Odin seemed convinced that I was Loki,” he said, looking up.

Sherlock sipped his tea. “Likely a mixture of similar personality traits, appearance, and his own wish for Loki to be here. In Norse Mythology, Loki was Odin’s sworn brother. Their myths are intertwined in many ways - some schools of thought even believe that Loki is a part of Odin given its own personality and name. Modern tellings of the legends always give the two a close connection, and often times set them as opposing forces. It is reasonable that he would expect Loki to follow him here to Chaldea, and was simply looking for someone to fit the bill. You just happened to, and your history with CasCu helped.”

“Do you think,” Gudako said, “that Loki will come? It’s just that this sort of shit that starts off an event, and Loki seems just the type to cause problems.”

“It’s possible, if we don’t take care of Odin soon,” Sherlock mused. 

“I’d rather take care of him,” Gudako said. She straightened in her seat, grabbed her cup, then drained it in one decisive moment. “First thing in the morning, we’ll take a look at Kage’s Spirit Origin, and make sure the tech’s working. After that, we’ll get Odin in there, and take a look at his Spirit Origin. Hopefully that will give us an idea of how to remove him, though -” she hesitated, made a face. “I’m not sure how that will look. It might be our best bet to put him back to sleep, so he’s no longer in control.”

Fury raced through Kage, white-hot . “Hell fucking no,” he snapped, fingers clenching on his cup. “That bastard needs out of his head. Do you know how fucked up CasCu will be after all of this? The last thing he needs is to know that that fucker is still inside him, and could come out at any moment.”

“I am inclined to agree with that,” Sherlock mused. “Now that the god has awakened , it will be hard to keep him quiet … and if we end up summoning more Norse heroes, like the Valkyries or Brynhild, then he is likely to wake up again.”

Gudako winced, looked down. “I know that, but -” she hesitated.

“But nothing!” Kage hissed. “We’re yanking that one eyed bastard out of him!” 

“Even if it kills him?” 

Kage froze. Even Sherlock paused, his head tilted as if he hadn’t considered that possibility. Gudako curled her fingers around her cup and dipped her head down, face shadowed by the curls of her bangs. “Depending on the structure of his Spirit Origin, attempting to remove Odin might destroy him,” she said, her voice small. “And I don’t want that. I know you don’t want that either.”

Kage couldn’t reply. It felt like the blood had left his body, leaving his head dizzy with the thought, the realization. She was right. If Odin was speaking the truth about CasCu’s construction, then the majority of CasCu’s Spirit Origin would be … Odin. Separating them ran the risk of destroying CasCu entirely. It made Kage sick to think about, his hands shaking, the curse pulsing up his arm in a soft whisper.

Sherlock’s no nonsense voice broke through the sound of its promises. “That is possible, but it is also possible that CasCu is salvageable. Our decision will have to wait until after our analysis of their Spirit Origin.”

“So, tomorrow,” Gudako breathed.

“Yes,” Sherlock agreed, “tomorrow.”

Kage nodded, mutely, his throat tight, words stuck deep within it. He stared down at his tea, saw the person within - and even though Sherlock’s words about the possibility of Loki’s possession helped, Gudako’s words about CasCu’s chances weighed heavily on it. He hated it. There had to be a way, some way, to get him back without hurting him.

There had to be.

 

Kage made his way to Nobunaga’s rooms. He didn’t particularly want to go - he was too exhausted, too drained to deal with her hyper energy - but he knew she needed to know everything that had happened so far. And gods, if he had to stand in the kitchen stress cooking and waiting one more fucking time, he was going to break and hit something. Very, very hard. So he stepped into Nobunaga’s room, and out of Spirit Form.

He was lucky. Nobunaga and Okita were here, but if they’d gotten up to anything, then they had long since stopped. Okita was curled up in the blankets, like a burrito of fabric. Nobunaga, contrarily, had thrown herself willy-nilly across the bed, her limbs pointing in every direction, her snores making the roof rattle. Kage avoided his gaze, projected a set of blankets, and dropped them on top of her.

Of course, that little bit of movement was enough to wake her up. She let out the loudest snore, before her eyes fluttered open, hazy but swiftly becoming aware. “Kage?”

“Hey,” Kage said. He drew away to sit on the beanbag, hard. “Sleep well?”

“Almost,” she sniffed, “then I woke up. But I suppose it couldn’t be helped.” She straightened, blankets falling everywhere. Kage avoided the sight again. “So?” She asked, her grin sharp, her tone quiet, “What do you need?”

“I need to give you an update on the situation,” Kage said. His hand flexed a moment, then he loosened it, let out a breath. “I got a confession out of Not-CasCu. I can’t tell you how, and I can’t tell you the details of it - but the recording is with Sherlock. Tomorrow we’ll be looking at the structure of his Spirit Origin, and from there, we can figure out how to get the bastard out of CasCu.”

“Really?” Nobunaga asked. Her voice rose into a squeak. “Wabi sabi!”

Beside her, Okita made a soft noise. They both fell silent, waiting for the Saber to settle down again. When she had, Nobunaga leaned forwards. Her voice couldn’t quite be called a whisper, but it was certainly quieter than it had been before. “Is there a reason you can’t tell me the deets?”

Kage flexed his hand again. The runes Odin had left hadn’t been lifted, and he’d learned through trial and error with Sherlock and Gudako that - while he couldn’t fucking talk about it, the recorder was safe to play. It had been a gamble worth taking,even with the damn runes keeping his own words about the meeting constrained.

“There is,” he settled on, ignoring the burn of pain, “but we can go over it later. I just - I don’t think this bastard will get out of CasCu easily, or gracefully. If it comes to it… will you help us subdue him?”

Nobunaga’s red eyes were a blaze of fire. She leaned forwards, and grinned. It was a wild thing, bright and sharp and flickering like flame. “Of course I will!”

“Without hurting CasCu,” Kage added, because when she looked like that, he had no choice but to add those words.

“Hai, Hai,” Nobunaga sighed, waving her hand slightly. “Without hurting CasCu. But the point is, you won’t be alone when you drag him out. You’ll have people beside you - myself included! It’ll be so wabi sabi.”

Kage still wasn’t sure of her fucking tone… but the promise made him relax. He sighed a bit, sagged against her. “Thank you,” he murmured, quiet.  

“Of course!” She slugged him lightly in the shoulder. “Only the best for my best bud. It can’t be helped!” 

It could, but here cheer made him smile a tad. He leaned against her a tad more, punches be damned. “Mind if I spend the rest of the night?” he asked, quieter, “It’s a shit night to be alone, today.”

“No problem,” Nobunaga said. She pointed at Okita, “but you probably won’t fit on the bed, and Okita’s a kicker. Take the beanbag?”

“Beanbag is fine with me,” Kage said. He collapsed against it, and a second later felt the weight of the blanket he had projected onto Nobunaga fall onto him. Despite everything, it made him smile, just a tad. “Thanks, Nobbu.”

“It can’t be helped,” she sang, flopping back onto the bed. A minute or two later, her snoring once more filled the room. It was a soothing sound, and Kage found himself easing into the beanbag. The exhaustion of every fucking thing caught up to him. Sleep took him before he had a chance to argue.

 

If he dreamed, he didn’t remember it. He also didn’t wake up to any phantom pains from mysterious sources - just the typical ones that came from a large man sleeping on a beanbag, with only a blanket for comfort. But the awkward position wasn’t what woke him up. It was a voice in his head, almost ragged with exhaustion, but triumphant in its success.

“I have finished your request!” Nicotris sang into his bleary mind. “Meet me in the Pharaoh's quarters, and it shall be passed to you!”

For a moment, Kage didn’t want to get up. He was still bleary with sleep, his body aching with the awkward position. The pendent was too late to be useful now … then again, if Odin decided to shut him up another way, then it could be beneficial to have it. And CasCu might need the security of such a thing, when they finally got him back. So Kage reluctantly pushed himself up, yawning and scrubbing his face, then took to Spirit Form.

It was depressingly easy to find the Pharaoh's meeting room, even in his exhausted state. Kage didn’t even bother to knock this time. Nicotris hadn’t gotten the pendent finished in time - like hell was he going to be polite on this little sleep either. He just appeared, scrubbing at his face, voice tight as he asked, “You rang?”

There was a shriek of surprise. Nicotris - who had been pacing the room in something like a burst of nervous energy, spun on her heel to point at him. “There you are!” She proclaimed. “I was just about to think you would be reneging on your deal!”

“I wasn’t going to,” Kage said, rubbing at his face again, “I still need the amulet. Did you get the book I was trying to give to you?” 

“I did,” she sniffed, “But don’t you dare think that counts as payment! I still want my cooking lessons.”

“You’ll get them,” Kage promised, “I just have a few things I need to finish first.” When she glared at him, his brain scrambled, tumbling over the words until he landed on, “my apologies, O’ Pharaoh .”

She considered those words for a second or two, before she sniffed and looked away. “Oh, very well. Here then, is the object of your desire. You better have some impressive recipes you’re planning to teach me. I won’t settle for anything less.”

“Of course,” Kage said, but his gaze was on the necklace she’d tossed lightly onto the table. It was a simple thing - metal chain, golden ankh. Kage could make out the slight indent of hieroglyphs along its curves. But the mana upon it was palpable, an almost visible dark aura. No fucking wonder she’d been at work so long.

If he’d been wearing that thing when he’d gone to talk to Odin the first time, there was no way the runes on Kage’s hand would have stuck. That pendent had to carry more mana than them. If it didn’t - then Odin was a fucking terrifying force that probably couldn’t be stopped by anything they threw at him.

He stepped forwards, and picked the ankh off the table. It hung glittering within his grasp, twisting and turning. Kage couldn’t read hieroglyphics , but if these small pictures played the same purpose as CasCu’s runes, then he was fucking covered. This close, the warmth of that mana curled around his skin. Despite the dark aura, there was something almost… comforting in it, like a weighted blanket.

“Well?” Nicotris sniffed, shifting a bit where she sat. “I expect that meets your standards?”

If there was a bit of nerves in her voice, Kage ignored them. He spun the ankh this way and that, before grasping it in his hands, holding it close. “It does,” he said.

“Good!” Nioctris said, “then you better bow down before me and offer your thanks as gratitude! This stuff doesn’t come easy - not that it was hard! Such work is easily within the reach of a Pharaoh!” 

“Of course,” Kage replied, dry. He traced the necklace briefly, then hung it around his neck. The protective power pulsed against his chest, thrumming like a second heartbeat. He drew in a deep breath, then let it out in a rush, before bowing deep to her. “Thank you, O’ Pharaoh , you have exceeded my expectations. As soon as I am done with my business, I will teach you all the recipes you desire. Until then, may I suggest browsing through the recipe book? I believe you might find things of interest there.”

“Do not presume to know a Pharaohs mind! But … I suppose I could give it a look. It would be a shame to doubt the word of an expert after all.” Nicotris waved a hand, dismissive, “Now go! I have forgone sleep and rest for this little pendent of yours, and I wish to catch up on it. I will contact you soon about your payment.”

“As you wish, O’ Pharaoh ,” Kage said. Bowing, he left the room behind him. The door closed shut, blocking out the sight of Nicotris and her tea at the table. It didn’t really matter anymore. Fuck, even the itch of being polite no longer fucking mattered. Kage reached up and held the pendent in hand, tight against his skin. Its protections brushed against Odin’s runes, and they buzzed painfully.

Not dismissed then. Fucky, but what he’d expected. However, should that damn bastard try to fucking do this to him again, then Kage would be protected. Just the fact the runes were reacting to the presence of the amulet showed how powerful a thing it was. Enough for this job … and hopefully enough for the rest of the day.

“Gudako,” he sent out, “Are you ready to do the examination?”

A pause, as if the long moment of someone who’d been asleep trying to form coherent thoughts with a brain that was half off. After a second or two, Gudako replied. “Give me an hour,” she mumbled, “then meet me there.”

“Alright,” Kage said. He cut the connection, and then started walking, his pendent still burning softly against his fingers.

 

The equipment for examining Spirit Origins was different from what Chaldea had. Kage had never stepped into the damn thing himself before, but to his understanding it had been a simple scanner. This thing looked like a fucking iron maiden, minus the spikes on the inside. A full casket with a bazillion screens and probes and wires, all hooked up to monitors that took up one wall. 

On one hand, it looked much less high-tech , and gave Kage the fucking hebee jebees. On the other hand, it looked imposing as shit, and if it did its job as well as it supposed to, then that was enough for him. He still gave it a bit of a wide berth when he entered the damn room though. The shape alone wrecked hell on what little claustrophobia he had.

Kage decided not to look at it while he didn’t have to. So he looked at other things, which meant Irisviel, who was the only one waiting within the room. She had been quiet, her eyes half closed, as if in deep meditation or some shit. But now they opened. She slid from her seat, and made her way over to him. Her fingers curled around his hands. “Hello, Kage,” she said, those red eyes searching his, “How are you feeling?”

That look made him squirm. He looked away from her, scowled hard at the wall. “As well as you might fucking expect. Did Gudako fill you in on the situation?” 

“Sherlock did,” Irisviel said. She reached up, and patted his cheek, this gentle thing. “You’ve been brave, Kage,” she murmurs, “I hope this gets you the answers you’re looking for.”

“So do I,” Kage said, his voice tight in the back of his throat. He scowled harder at the ground. “Does the damn thing work like it’s supposed to?”

“It should,” Irisviel assured, “Now come, have a seat and take some tea. You look like you could use it.”

He could. So he let Irisviel lead him to a side table tucked into the corner of the chamber. She’d been expecting him, obviously. The kettle on the table was kept warm with magecraft, the cream and sugar cool and fresh by the same. She sat, and Kage sat across from her, resisting the urge to squirm as she poured the tea.

“Who else is coming?” he asked instead.

“Sherlock and Gudako for one,” Irisviel said, “Possibly Mash. I believe Gran Cavallo is going to try to listen in on the computer system, and Director Gordolf will be informed of the results … and BB will be here too.”

Kage froze. “Are you fucking kidding me?”

“Unfortunately,” Irisviel said, just at touch dry, “I’m not.” She pushed his cup towards him, and he took it, scowling down at the liquid.

“Why that is just rude,” came a voice from the computers . One by one, they lit up, to take the pixilated face of BB. Kage wanted to punch it immediately. He hated how similar it looked to Sakura’s own. “Don’t you know I’m very important to this situation? This one of a kind kohai is the only one capable of making the comparisons you need, you know! You’d be completely lost without me.”

Irisviel let out a soft sigh. Kage scowled harder. “I’m starting to rethink this whole fucking thing already.”

There was a flash before the screens, an electric buzz - and then BB was out of them, standing before the consol. She moved, stopping in front of the table, and set her hand on her hip, sniffing sharply at him. “Oh please, it’s too late to do that. Besides, if we stop, you’ll never get the answers you want about your dear boyfriend~” She laughed, covering her smile with her hand, eyes briefly flashing red with excitement.

Kage made a noise between his throat, tight and sharp - Irisviel stopped him from rising, her fingers brushing cool and calming along his own. She looked at BB and smiled. It was a soft smile, but there was steel in it too. “Were you planning on joining us for tea, BB? I know computers and hot liquids don’t tend to mix, but I believe it would be rude not to offer.”

BB’s eyebrow twitched slightly. So did the corner of her mouth, like she couldn’t quite keep up her smile. “Just because I’m an AI doesn’t mean I can’t drink! There’s many things a final boss kohai like myself can do, especially with a physical body like this one!”

“Then please,” Irisviel said, “Take a seat, and we’ll pour you a cup of tea. Kage, will you be a dear?”

Kage gritted his teeth - then let out a breath, and projected another teacup. Irisviel had already effectively taken care of the situation. She had the kind of kindness that could be used as a weapon, effectively disarming people and giving her the chance to strike. So he placed the cup down, and let her pour the tea, while BB stood there and silently fumed, as if searching her algorithms for an appropriate response.

Finally, she moved to sit, crossing one leg over another and pushing the hair from her shoulder. “The drinks I tasted on the mooncell were far superior to the sort of things that any human can create. But since you’re merely a copy of a human, Irisviel, I will give yours a shot. But if it’s disgusting, I’ll have to punish you~”

Irisviel smiled, something a bit sharper. “I’m sure you would like to,” she said, before turning to Kage. “How is your cup?”

Quite frankly, he’d forgotten all about it with the damn AI’s interference. He picked it up, and took a sip. Irisviel was good at brewing tea. This one was a black tea with a mellow taste, and it made him relax, the tight knot of tension ease up. “It’s good,” he mumbled, before eying BB again. She was sitting in a carefully relaxed posture, playing with her damn cup of tea, but not drinking it. He swallowed back the urge to scowl. “So, what are you doing here?”

BB sniffed. “I’m not inclined to answer those that don’t beg me to help them.”

Kage gritted his back teeth. “I’m not going to fucking beg -”

“I asked her to be here,” came Gudao’s voice, as he stepped into the room, “So please don’t fight. It’s too early in the morning for that.”

All three of them turned to stare at Gudao, who was flanked by both Mash and Sherlock. He looked … tired, his hair a tousled mop, shadows under the eyes, but he’d gotten better at waking up when needed. There was an awareness to him. In his hands, he held a small tablet, which buzzed and beeped out with Gran Cavallo’s voice.

“BB,” she said, “is here to help with my analysis of Spirit Origins! My directive doesn’t include such fine-tuned comparisons - I’m more of an inventor and a getaway driver than anything else! Though I could analyze your Spirit Origins - I’m a genius after all, and nothing is beyond a genius - but BB can do it much quicker than I can.”

BB preened at the words. “Of course I can!” She sang, sliding from her chair to stand up and beam. “This devilish kohai can do anything she puts her mind to.”

“And it’s very much appreciated,” Gudao said. “Thank you, BB,” and while the damn AI preened, he turned to face Kage. “Are you ready?” he asked.

Kage downed the rest of his tea in a gulp, then forced himself to stand. “To be examined in that thing? Does it even work?”

“It does,” Gran Cavallo said, with the breezy confidence Da Vinci would have carried, “I oversaw the construction and the design myself! All you have to do is step right inside, and the scans will be carried out.”

“It will be a bit different from the Chaldea one,” Sherlock said. He stepped forwards, and placed a hand on the metal. “Since our situation is so vastly different, I thought to add some improvements -”

“They were mine!”

“My apologies,” Sherlock said, nodding his head to both Gran Cavallo and Gudao, “your improvements, though I made the suggestion. If possession and changing Spirit Origins is something we have to worry about, then I thought it would be better if we got a proper look at what was going on in there. So instead of being a scan from the outside, non-invasive , this will be a bit more intense.”

Kage stiffened a tad. “What is that supposed to mean?”

“Basically,” Gran Cavallo started, sounding decidedly pleased with herself, “You’re sent into a mindscape where you interact with your Spirit Origin directly! Using this method, you should be able to discover anything within it, be it awake or asleep. Don’t look so concerned - we did a quick run through last night.”

Mash nodded. “Hai,” she said, “I stepped inside for a brief scan and … I do not have a Spirit Origin, like you do, but when the machine was turned on, I was transferred into a landscape where I could look at myself. Though the shadow of Galahad was there, I could not detect his presence. So if you have anything in you, you should be able to meet it.”

“Well fuck,” Kage said, after a moment, “That doesn’t sound fucking creepy at all. So it’s just a mindscape, right?”
“It should be,” Gudao agreed.

Alright. That was fucking fine. Kage survived his mindscape every time he cast his Noble Phantasm. What was entering hell once more? He’d do it. He’d do it for CasCu in a fucking instant, claustrophobic looking iron maidens and all. So he sucked in a breath, and nodded, sharp. “Fine, then hook me up.”

“Not yet,” Irisviel said. She stood, and took Kage’s hands. “This process… it’s exhausting, and I know a bit of the demons you hold, so …” she leaned up, pressed a kiss against his forehead, the gentle mother’s touch. “A blessing,” she said as she pulled away, “to keep you safe against anything you face.”

Shit.

Kage blinked, and he blinked hard, as if to get the heat and wet away from his eyes. “Hai,” he said, throat tight. “Thanks…”

“You’re welcome,” Irisviel said. She smiled at him, gentle, before stepping away.

The touch of her kiss lingered, with the cool brush of air and mana against his skin. He swallowed hard once more, and then turned to face Gudao, Sherlock, and Mash. “I’m ready,” he said.

“Alright,” Gudao said. He turned to the computers, and set the tablet that held Gran Cavallo’s programming down. “BB? Can you jump into the computer? It’s time to start the opening sequence.” 

Gods, this thing had a fucking opening sequence. Kage swallowed hard, then tuned out BB’s response, the whole damn room. He moved to stand in front of the iron maiden looking thing, and waited, waited, counting the breaths between each moment. His hand reached up to grab the ankh at his chest, some small measure of comfort. He sucked in another breath, then another, and then another.

The doors to the damn contraption opened up with the hiss of pneumatics, as creepy as any torture device. But the inside of the thing …. Was surprisingly clean. The sides were flat, and smooth, and empty of devices. There was even cushioning to hold the body proper. In a way, it reminded him of the rayshift coffins Chaldea had used, which meant that there was probably a whole fucking lot of detail that Kage couldn’t see behind the cushions.

“So I just - fucking step in, huh?” He asked.

“Hai,” Mash said. She gave him a small smile. “I promise, it’s not as bad as it looks. We made sure it was as comfortable as possible.” 

Kage made a small, sharp noise between his teeth. “Yeah, sure, comfortable. Sure fucking looks like it.” 

Still, he wasn’t going to let this fucking stop him. He took a breath, then started forwards, feet covering the distance between him and the Spirit Origin scanner. After one last hesitation, he entered the compartment, and turned to face the room. Mash stood there, watching him, her expression something that was probably meant to be comforting. Gudao gave him two thumbs up. Sherlock was looking at the monitors, and Irisviel … she was smiling at him with something that was actually comforting, damn it.

Kage stepped back, and leaned into the cushions. There must have been something in them, because they were softer then they looked, and he found himself sinking into their touch, cradled by their warmth. He felt the prick of magecraft, the gentle thrum of machinery. The space was still claustrophobic as fuck, walls pressing in on every side, but the padding did its bit to help fight that.

“Kage, are you ready?” Gudao asked.

Kage licked his dry lips, then dropped his hand from his amulet. Let his body rest against the cushions, sag against them as he sighed. “Hai,” he said, his voice tight. “I’m ready.”

“Then Spirit Origin observation is starting … now.” 

There was a click, a soft beep, then the hiss of steam. The doors begin to close, the light that fell onto him draining to a trickle. Kage found himself panicking. His chest locked tight in his throat, breath trapped in that space. The light was just a sliver now, the doors closing fast upon themselves. Kage squeezed his eyes shut, took one final gulp -

And opened them as everything else fell away.

The touch of the Spirit Origin observation machine was gone. No more padding held him up. No more walls crowded close. The light was back, but it was the sick, filtered red light that Kage was so familiar with. The light that belonged to his reality marble. He sucked in a breath, slow and steady, and stared out across hell.

Kage had been right. The mindscape he’d been sent to was his fucking reality marble, with the rolling fields of rusty weapons and sands, the clouded and rusty skies, with the giant cogs that turned and churned oh so slowly within the sky, releasing small puffs of rust and dust that floated down up each rotation. It also fucking held pools of grail mud, dark purple red slick that ran rivers in the valley’s between weapon coated hills. The rusty sky made it light up like oil, just as corrosive and bad for your health. 

The damn Grail Mud had been there since his corruption. It had lingered in his reality marble, between jobs as a Counter Guardian, appearing every time he utilized this place as a fucking noble phantasm. It wasn’t the sort that corrupted people - as far as Kage had been able to tell, at least, but that didn’t matter. Just the sight of it was the constant reminder that he was not okay. It made his cursed arm shake, hand curled up tight and fingers biting into his palms.

But it wasn’t fucking evidence of Loki. It was something Kage had seen before, and would see again, damn it. He was just going to look around, and breathe. Breathe in this dusty, dry, rust tinged air, and look for any sign of anything that didn’t belong.

He wasn’t sure what he was looking for. How did one find an anomaly in their own damn Spirit Origin, if it had supposedly been there since the beginning? But if Loki was supposed to be a god within him … then he supposed the damn person themself would be here, somewhere among this hell. 

Kage sucked in a slow breath, then let it out in a rush. And then, he turned, and let himself slide down the first hill, jumping over the small stream of Grail Mud in front of him. He did his best not to look at his reflection, in the slick, in the hilts and blades of weapons, and just kept on moving. Up one hill, down another, across the mud and the dirt and the rust, with the cogs churning over his head endlessly.

There was nothing. As far as he wandered, there was nothing but the weapons he had traced over the years of being a Counter Guardian, and the corruption on the ground. Kage finally came to a rest on one of the hills. He sat heavily in the dirt, and stared out at his inner world, his inner hell. He wondered, for a damn second, how long he’d been in here. How long he’d stay in here. It was like the Counter Force all over again, time endless, unable to comprehend where and how he’d been.

Kage sagged against the dust. His hand hit the hilt of one of his weapons. Mindlessly, he pulled it out of the bank, and stared down at the shape of it. It - was unfamiliar to him. A dagger, clearly of Norse design, with runic inscriptions down the blade, and a Celtic knot on the hilt. He ran his thumb upon it, and some grime and rust fell off. The knot work surrounded something - a gem. It surrounded a gem, bright red and warm as fire, with a face with scarred lips etched into the facets -

Kage threw the knife away before he could get a better look. It skipped, flashing like fire across the hills, before plunging blade first into the dust and rust and another one. He scrambled to his feet, breathing hard, hands shaking. He didn’t remember that knife. He didn’t fucking remember that damn knife. Sure, he didn’t remember all the damn weapons he had collected over the years, but he didn’t remember that damn knife.

“What the fuck,” he breathed, and then louder, “What the fuck! Gudao! Gudao! Get me out of here. I need to get the fuck out of here!”

Nothing. For a long moment, spiraling, nothing. And then between blinks, he was out of hell and back into the damned Spirit Origin scanner. He surged forwards, hands hitting the wall, and under his touch the doors hissed open. He stumbled from that dark space, gasping, and sweat soaked, the sensation of that knife burned into his palm.

Aww ,” BB sang, her voice bursting from the speakers. “Did you scare yourself there? Shame. I can’t image it was very hard.”

“BB, now is not the time,” Gudao said.

Irisviel stepped forwards swiftly. She took Kage’s hands, frowning. “Are you alright?” 

“I’m -” Kage cut himself off, swore, then looked away. Breathed, forcing the air between his teeth, and then out the other side. “I’m alright,” he said, though the words were tight and reluctant. “It was just hell. And I found something that I didn’t fucking want to find.”

“A vestige of Loki,” Sherlock said, watching Kage for a long moment.

Kage made a noise between his teeth, tight, and refused to fucking nod, to bring it into being. Instead, he held out his hand, concentrated - a moment later a copy of that damned dagger fell into his fingers. He held it for a moment, before passing it to Gudao, who passed it to Mash, who looked at it for a couple of moments, before holding it to the face of Gran Cavallo’s tablet.

“A man with scared lips,” Gran Cavallo mused, “it matches Loki’s description and some of his myths, though the god has no specific weapons attributed to him. Does it have any divine mana, Mash?”

“I’m not sensing any,” Mash murmured. She flipped the dagger over in her fingers, considering it, before she looked up. “It’s just a dagger.”

“Well, it’s one I don’t fucking remember encountering before.” Kage said, sharp. His one hand seized onto Irisviel’s, holding tight, taking in his strength from her grip. He glared at Sherlock hard. “I thought you said that it was unlikely that there was a fucking Loki sitting in my head! I thought you said we’d find nothing!”

“I said that it is unlikely you are a Pseudo-Servant of Loki,” Sherlock said. He plucked the dagger from Mash’s hands, held it a moment, before holding it to Kage. “And this proves that you are not. If Loki had been a part of you, then he would have been in that mindscape. But he wasn’t, was he?”

Kage hesitated, then shook his head. 

“This,” Sherlock said, pulling the dagger back when it was obvious Kage wouldn’t take it, “simply suggests that you’ve either encountered Loki before, or a dagger that carries homage to him, and don’t remember it. Or, it could be an indication that Loki did have a hand in your manifestation … but nothing to the extent Odin had in CasCu’s. If I had to guess …” he hesitated, considering his words.

“Please do,” Gudao said, “we’ve already learned our lesson about keeping secrets, haven’t we Sherlock?”

“I suppose we have,” Sherlock said. He looked at Kage, met him in the eye. “If I were to make a hypothesis, I believe that you are entirely yourself. It is likely that Loki sensed Odin’s involvement in CasCu’s creation, and aligned things so that you were summoned instead of Emiya. But his involvement since then has amounted to nothing. You carry none of his abilities, none of his energies, and all that he has left is a hint that he might have been there … but this dagger cannot act as a way in, either. It carries none of his mana.”

“Just his face,” Kage muttered.

“Just his face,” Sherlock agreed. He held out the dagger again, waiting.

Kage hesitated, then took the dagger back. He stared at the faintly etched face in the ruby, his throat tight and constricted. After a moment, he glanced at Irisviel. “If Loki is a part of me,” he said, “you’ll sense it, right?”

“I will,” Irisviel said.

“Then let's do that, while BB’s still comparing the data from your scan with the data we had of your Spirit Origin before,” Gudao said. He moved to sit at the table, and patted the space beside him. His grin was soft, something meant to comfort, encourage. “It’ll be alright,” he said, like a promise.

Kage grumbled to himself… but he let the knife go, disappear, and moved to take a seat. Irisviel took the seat opposite of him. She reached out, and after a moment, Kage let his hands fall into hers, and be enfolded in her cold grip. Just beneath her skin, he could feel it, the soft thrumming power of the Grail. He sucked in a soft breath, and closed his eyes tight in expectation.

“I’m starting,” Irisviel said.

“Alright,” Kage mumbled, barely moving his lips.

The cool touch on his hands extended, up and up and up his arms. It curled in tendrils against his skin, then sunk beneath it, rushing up his bones and blood, in the back and forth motion of the tides. It stole his breath, made him still, as the cold extended through his body, coalescing in his center … and then retreating, as if swiftly drawn back. It trickled away from him, in bits and pieces, until he was warm and all the chill of her touch was constrained to her hands.

Kage waited a few moments more. That couldn’t be all. It couldn’t. 

But Irisviel pulled her hands away, patting his own briefly. “I didn’t sense anything divine in your Spirit Origins make up,” she said. “Nothing unexpected there, at least. So I believe that it’s as Sherlock said. If Loki had a hand in your appearance, it was very brief, and he did not linger. It is entirely possible he had no hand in it at all.”

Slowly Kage opened his eyes to stare at her. She was smiling, something that spoke of warmth and relief. Gudao was smiling larger too. His eyes sparkled. “BB? Got that analysis yet?”

“Of course I do!” BB sang, “this amazingly devilish kohai is capable of anything! Kage’s Spirit Origin has not changed one bit since he was registered, and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with it. Just one more broken Archer on the record. You better reward me well, Senpai! This job was downright boring.”

Kage blinked. The aftermath of her words left him dizzy and confused. He stared at Irisviel, and Gudao for a long moment. “So I don’t have Loki in me.”

“No Loki in you,” Irisviel agreed, smiling at him.

Kage sagged in relief, as if strings had been cut from his body. No Loki in him. Thank fucking god. But even better … he eyed Gudao. “This should work for CasCu, right?”

“It will work with CasCu,” Gudao said. He leaned forwards, and squeezed Kage’s hand. “Do you want us to wait, or shall we call him over now?”

“Now,” the word was a rush past Kage’s lips, desperate and hoping. “Let’s call him over now. I am not waiting one fucking moment longer.”

“Great,” Gudao said, and then closed his eyes.

 

Kage didn’t stick around physically. He took to Spirit Form, and waited for the bastard to appear. It felt like it took a while. But that meant Kage had plenty of time to sit down, wait, and roll over the information he’d just learned. His hand kept on reaching to summon that damn dagger - but he dismissed the notion. If that dagger had any scrap of Loki in it, then Odin would sense it, and he’d know this was a trap.

Maybe he already knew this was a fucking trap.

Kage let out a breath, slow between his teeth, hand flexing again. He had a dagger with Loki’s face in his arsenal , but he wasn’t Loki. Loki wasn’t in head. If they’d ever met - well, how would Kage even know? The bastard was a shape-shifter . They could have met on one of his many Counterforce jobs, and Loki could have been wearing a completely different face. Either way, it didn’t matter anymore.

Loki wasn’t in his head. He could focus on the problem in front of him.

Odin stepped into the room, moving CasCu’s body like CasCu would have. The traces of age in his walk had almost completely disappeared. The gray scale of Spirit Form suited the bastard. It drained all the life from him, turning his hair pure silver and his clothes black and gray. Even the shine of his one eye was muted. The sight of it drove in the fact that this? This wasn’t CasCu at all. Gray scale didn’t suit CasCu.

“So,” Odin said, pausing in the center of this room, “this is the Spirit Origin Scanner? It’s quite impressive work.”

“Why thank you,” Gran Cavallo preened, “I’m quite proud of it myself.”

“I am not surprised,” Odin stepped forwards, reaching out to run his fingers along the metal. Vocally, he sounded almost like CasCu. The right words chosen, the right infections. “Will this reveal what’s up with my Spirit Origin?” 

“That’s the hope,” Gudao said. “And on that, I know it’s been some time before I asked, but how are you feeling? Memories all in order?”

“They’re getting there,” Odin turned from the Spirit Origin scanner and gave Gudao a smile. “My other selves brought me a binder - I’ve slowly been working through it, and it’s shaken some things back into position. It feels like my Spirit Origin has stabilized as well, so this should be the last time we have to do this.”

It was such a good CasCu act that Kage found himself shaking with rage, fingernails biting into his skin, swallowing down his urge to fucking punch the bastard. No wonder Proto had hoped that CasCu was there, had wanted to believe in Odin’s words. If Kage didn’t know what he knew now, then he’d have wanted to bow down beneath it too. And that? Was a fucking terrifying thought.

But Gudao showed no concern, no conflict on his face. “Fingers crossed,” he said with a laugh, “though if it’s settled, we’ll have to sit down and update your Chaldean files. We don’t have a simulator here, but we might also scrounge up some other Heroic Spirits and see if we can have some spars to see how your skill set and power levels have changed.”

“Senpai,” Mash said, “I do not think Sion would approve of that.” 

“Well,” Sherlock mused, “There have to be some areas in the Wandering Sea strong enough to hold up to a Servant’s sparing session. Some of ours would go crazy if we didn’t have those spaces.”
“True enough,” Gudao said. “We’ll look into it. So, CasCu, are you ready?”

“Ready as I’ll ever be, I suppose.” Odin mused. “Is there anything I cannot bring into the chamber?” 

“Nope,” Gudao said. He turned to Mash, gave her a nod, and Mash turned to the console to type in the starting sequence. BB was being suspiciously quiet - either she’d left, or she had instructions not to be too loud. Either way, it meant that it took a few moments before the doors to the Spirit Origin scanner opened wide.

“Creepy,” Odin said, with a grin that fit CasCu’s face. “So I just step in?” 

“Yep,” Gudao said.

Odin nodded, once, then moved into the Spirit Origin Scanner. There was a moment, a pause as he turned and settled against the cushions, then the door begin to close behind him. The body of CasCu, and the Odin inside his mind, were blocked from sight. Mash turned back to the computer, and started the scan. Gudao stood there for a moment longer, watching the device. “He’s gotten good at pretending,” he said, for Kage’s mind only, “If you hadn’t brought that stuff to me, I’d have bought it.”

Kage fought the urge to squirm, but couldn’t resist the urge to growl. “Fucker’s too damn good at deceit. If he’d been like this from the beginning -”

“Then we wouldn’t be here,” Gudao agreed.

Kage didn’t even want to think about it, like that. He grimaced, then settled where he was waiting, and watched the monitors. He hadn’t gotten the chance to watch this, while he’d been trapped in the middle of hell. But now - now he got a good look. The first thing that had popped up on the screen was a full body scan of CasCu, and a map of what looked like mana circuits through them. Kage didn’t know what that map had looked like before the possession, but he bet there probably hadn't been a knot behind the eye that CasCu had lost.

Sherlock’s hand reached up to tap against that space. “A mystic eye,” he mused, “Or a lost one. It fits with the myth - a sacrificed eye for knowledge, and a hanging for power. You can see that his mana circuits cluster around his neck too. I don’t believe CasCu’s mana circuits used to follow this pattern.”

“They didn’t,” BB said. The computer beeped and whirred, then a copy of CasCu’s body appeared - only the circuits were different. They webbed out in a typical fashion, and BB said, smug, “They’re different from Skadi’s patterns too.” Another beep, another whir - this time a woman’s body on the screen, her circuits clustering around her hands and heart. 

“What does that mean?” Mash breathed. 

“It means that Skadi isn’t a part of CasCu’s current weave,” Sherlock said, “otherwise we’d see a more uniform distribution of his mana circuits. But instead, we have this - something that fit’s Odin’s myth, and no one’s else’s.”

“What about the composition of his Spirit Origin?” Gudao asked. He leaned forwards, frowning at the screen.

“Bringing that up now,” BB sang. Another beep, and then another map appeared on the screen . Kage couldn ’t fucking begin to read this one. The closest thing he could compare it to was potentially a pie chart, with fluctuating numbers and percentages swirling across the screen. But apparently, Gudao, Mash, and Sherlock could read the damn thing, because they all frowned as they considered it. Kage wished he fucking knew what it meant. He stood there, fighting the urge to bite his cheek, hands shaking in Spirit Form. Come on, come on, come on, make fucking sense -

The doors to the Spirit Origin Scanner opened with a hiss. Odin stumbled out of it, hand reaching for his staff. Kage made a moment - but no, it was just Odin leaning against it, taking deep breaths, fingers clinging to the wood. “I must say,” he said, “that isn’t a particularly pleasant experience. I hope I don’t have to do it again.”

Kage glanced towards the screens in a panic - the pictures on them had been replaced by other ones, but Kage could still see the spiraling numbers. The fucking thing hadn’t been done running yet. The scan wasn’t fucking complete. How the hell had he-

He’d shut down visuals and communications on the Shadow Border before. The thought made Kage sick.

“I hope so as well,” Gudao said. He moved to Odin’s side, and took his other arm, leading him towards the table. “How are you feeling? Mash said that it was exhausting.”

“Exhausted is a good word for it,” Odin said, with a wry smile Kage wanted to punch off his face. “That thing packs quite a punch. I wasn’t expecting the mindscape to be so visceral to all senses.”

There … was something off in the way he was speaking again. Kage found himself pausing, listening closer to the word choice, the inflation. Odin was speaking more like Odin and less like CasCu now. It was like something in that simulation had caused his persona to slip. Good. He hoped whatever it was, it had hurt the bastard.

Sherlock also moved to the table, to settle at one of the chairs. His eyes were fixed on Odin’s, calculating. “That is it’s purpose,” he said. “So, what did you end up seeing?”

Odin pressed his fingers together, as if in consideration. His gaze was far away. “A lot of snow,” he murmured, “it was like being trapped in Singularity F’s blizzard again. I suppose that must have been Skadi’s influence. There was a tree as well - I believe it was an ash tree. A man was hanging from it - It must have been Odin, I can’t imagine anyone else I might have come in contact with that it could have been. And there were birds in the tree branches.” He paused, quiet, before speaking again. “The birds were watching.”

He said the words like CasCu would have if they weren’t a lie. Like they were truth, and nothing else. Kage fucking doubted it. The tree and the birds? Maybe. But he bet that, instead of a snowy landscape, there’d been something else there, and the figure he’d met wouldn’t be Odin, but CasCu. Perhaps that was what had shaken the bastard so bad. Seeing that CasCu was still there, still aware … and hopefully fighting back.

“That goes along with our findings,” Sherlock said, “The position of your mana circuits has changed to be more orientated to your fingers, eye, and throat - which corresponds to the placement of both gods. The composition of your Spirit Origin has also changed dramatically. Initially, when you were summoned, you were mostly CasCu, with a slight distortion that tends to come from Heroic Spirits from alternative histories. Now, it has been broken up into multiple portions. CasCu is the largest part - but Odin is the next largest part, along with the birds. Skadi’s influence was there, but very slim.”

He said the words calmly, the perfect lie full of made up facts. If Kage didn’t know better, he would have believed Sherlock. But he did know better - and Odin would too. Kage flicked his gaze to Odin, his shoulders stiff, and wondered what the fuck he’d say. Supposedly, the charts on the screens corresponded Sherlock’s words. But Odin’s own experiences wouldn’t, and if he hadn’t been manipulating the damn machine from the beginning …

“You’re … lying, aren’t you?” Odin said. He gave a smile, so much like CasCu’s comforting ones that Kage wanted to punch him. “That’s not what you found at all, was it? You can tell me. I promise I won’t be upset.”

Gudao and Sherlock looked at each other. Then Gudao sighed, and ran his hand through his hair, expression tight. “Frankly, CasCu? We didn’t get to finish our reading. The numbers were still being calculated when the doors opened up. It’s entirely possible that they would have settled somewhere else, but what we have now corroborated your story. It’s … slightly concerning the scanner released you before they were finished calculating, though.”

“It could be a bug?” Mash suggested, from her place by the desk. “The scanner was only operational this morning - we can’t have hammered out all the idiosyncrasies yet.”

“You’re saying I’ll have to do this again,” Odin said.

“Possibly,” Sherlock said, “Once we’ve gotten the system looked and adjusted once more. Better to be safe than sorry, you see.”

“Of course,” Odin said. He gave Gudao a half smile. “Then I’ll be here when you need me too, as many times as you need me to.”

“Glad to hear it,” Gudao said, with a bit of a laugh. “But you’re free to head out now, unless you want Irisviel to look over your stuff again?”

No, thanks,” Odin said, shaking his head and standing up. “I’m not sure what she’ll discover that’s different from before. But my Spirit Origin - it’s seemed to have stabilized, right?” 

“It has,” Gudao said.

“Great,” Odin breathed, “I’ll make sure to tell the others. Is there anything else?”

“Nope,” Gudao said. He gave Odin a wide grin. “Go ahead CasCu. I’ll see you later, alright?”

“Alright,” Odin said. 

Then he was gone, using his staff as support. They waited for the doors to close behind him, then a couple of minutes afterward . Then Gudao’s smile slid away. Sherlock laced his fingers together, and set his chin on his hands. Kage, scowling, appeared. His hands were still shaking with rage.

“Mash?” Gudao asked.

“Hai,” she said, then turned to the computer. “BB, will you please pull up the true results of CasCu’s scan?” 

“It’ll cost you later,” BB warned, though the computer’s screen changed back to what they’d once been. For a second, Kage could do nothing but stare. The mana circuits clustered around CasCu’s throat and eyes. The pie chart looking fucker - it only had two colors, and one of them was pathetically small.

Gudao pushed himself up from the table and turned to look as well. “So, BB, what does the readings tell us?”

“Well~,” the AI sang, “it tells us that CasCu? Is royally screwed. His Spirit Origin might be stable, but 80% of it belongs to Odin. The remaining 20% matches the majority of CasCu’s old Spirit Origin. There’s also no more distortion. It seems that distortion from before was actually Odin’s presence within his Spirit Origin.”

20 percent.

The strength left Kage’s legs. He sagged down into a seat. 20 percent. That was how much of CasCu remained within his Spirit Origin. The rest was Odin. And like a portent of ill omen, BB continued talking. “Of course, we didn’t finish the scan, so it’s entirely possible there is even less of CasCu remaining! We also didn’t manage to get a good idea of how safe it would be to remove Odin. However, if I were to take an educated guess~” she laughed here, something far too amused, “CasCu probably can’t exist without Odin.”

“You’re lying,” the words were numb on Kage’s lips. 

“Nope~”

His rage burst, hot within the center of his chest. He surged to his feet, roar leaving his lips. “You’re lying! There’s no fucking way that can be it. Of course, he can survive without Odin there! He’s done it before, he can do it again!”

“Well~” BB sang, and oh how she sounded like she was enjoying this, “that was then, and this is now. If I had to guess, much of CasCu’s previous Spirit Origin was Odin’s, but since Odin wasn’t awake, it registered as CasCu’s. But I’m no genius. So take hope in aaallll the false hope you need, alright~?”

“YOU-”

“That’s enough.” Gudao’s voice cut through Kage’s half lunge towards the damn computer, stopping him in his tracks. “Gran Cavallo? What do you think ? This is more your wheelhouse than BB’s.”

Kage made a furious noise between his lips. A hand reached out, and took his - it was Irisviel’s. She had stepped out of Spirit Form. Slowly, she drew him in, pulling his head towards her shoulder. Kage sagged as if his strings had been cut. He sucked in great bits of breath, doing his best to calm down. His eyes were burning. It was hard to breath.

There was a bit of hesitance, from Gran Cavallo’s tablet. “Well … all other Heroic Spirits that share a Spirit Origin share it 50/50, and for that reason are able to operate without the other half for periods of time, though their abilities are greatly diminished. If we can remove CasCu from Odin, then … he probably won’t be able to fight anymore.”

If he even survived.

“That’s alright,” Gudao said. His shoulders were shaking, slight. Kage almost wanted to curse him out, for that to be his only sign of distress. “We’re not doing this because we’re missing CasCu’s firepower . We’re doing this because we’re missing CasCu. Having him back is enough. Sherlock, what do you think?”

Sherlock had not stood up. He sat, stupidly calm, at the table, still sipping from a cup of tea. He’d been taking in all this information with a chill that was infuriating. Kage wanted to break from Irisviel’s hold and bunch the bastard. But he also kinda fucking wanted to cry, so he just stood there, letting Irisviel hold him, her fingers stroking over his hair as they waited for Sherlock to respond.

“I believe,” Sherlock said, “that it is a risk we’ll have to take, if we want CasCu back. Naturally, Odin would be suspicious of us now. Either he’ll work to finish his search of the Wandering Sea, or he’ll move to wipe our minds of this whole encounter. In either case, we will have to stop him, and we will have to stop him swiftly, while he’s not expecting reparations.”

That made Kage pause, brief. “What the fuck does that mean?”

“It’s simple, isn’t it?” Sherlock swirled his tea, slight. “And the reason Odin hasn’t been acting from the beginning. To him, CasCu is nothing. It was a mask to wear, and then discarded - and in his mind, CasCu is no longer important. I believe he is just starting to contextualize that CasCu was important to people, and even then, he probably doubts that we will move to get rid of him. After all, having Odin on our side is much more beneficial then another Cu copy. But this belief will not last forever. So we must strike before he realizes that we are willing to get rid of him to get CasCu back.”

Kage’s head jerked up. He stared at Sherlock, then at Gudao, his eyes wide and burning. “When?” he rasped out, shaking in Irisviel’s grip. “When?” 

Gudao glanced at Sherlock, then at Mash. If there was conversation, it was mental, for Kage didn’t hear it. But then Gudao looked back at him, and gave something that might have been a smile, if it wasn’t so strained. “Let me talk to Sion first. But if all goes well? Then tonight.”

Chapter 23: Chapter 23

Summary:

Norse God v Chaldea round two LETS GO

Notes:

Thank you all for your wonderful comments and kudos! I hope you all enjoy, and have a wonderful day!

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Chapter Text

“So you’re saying that one of your Servants has been possessed by a god whose been hiding inside him this whole time, and now that god is trying to pry open the Wandering Sea’s secrets, hmm?” Sion asked. She sounded completely incredulous. Her head was tipped to the side, her finger placed on her chin. The expression she wore was complete bamboozlement. “Wow!” She said, “you guys haven’t even been here for that long, and you’re already creating such interesting trouble.”

“We’re sorry,” Gudao said. “If it’s any consolation, this has never happened to us before either. We’re still trying to adjust.” 

“Well,” Sion hummed, twining one of her purple pigtails around her finger, “it’s not like you meant for this to happen - we’ll see about forgiveness! But if your Servant is trying to break into the Wandering Sea’s secrets, then he needs to be stopped.” 

“Are there things there we shouldn’t know about?” Sherlock asked, in a tone that said he knew there were things they shouldn’t ask about.

Sion pressed her finger against the corner of her lips. “Let’s just say I’ll get into big trouble if there’s a break in under my watch, ‘kay?”

As silly as she said those words, there was something in her eyes that spoke to the fact that this was a serious matter. And that fit where the fuck they were meeting - another damn side room, not the Command Room. It was a place large enough for this whole group of people, which was impressive because there was a lot: Sion , Gudao, Mash, Sherlock, Gordolf, and the iPad for Gran Cavallo were just the physical beings. Kage was here too, in Spirit Form, and as far as he was aware, so was Irisviel, and Fuuma. 

Beyond the people, the room was similar to many of the other side rooms in the Wandering Sea, only the furniture had taken to a big rearrangement. Many of the tables were pushed together into one section of the room, to form a larger one, ringed with chairs , so everyone could sit. Upon the table sat a projector, which released a giant map of the Wandering Sea that nearly took up the whole damn room. It was a lot to stare at, a lot to take in, especially after the whole horrible mess of this morning.

“Speaking of breaking in,” Director Gordolf said, scowling at them all, “shouldn’t we be worried about him breaking in while we’re all distracted?”

Oh yes, Director Gordolf was in a fine fucking mood right now. The man had been nearly apalatic with shock when they’d delivered the news about Odin, and what the fuck he was doing and trying to discover. Even now there were a bunch of shadows around the director’s eyes, and a pale, sweaty sheen to his skin. But he’d recovered enough to organize this meeting, and had even managed to supply pastries that sat untouched on the table - even if he hadn’t stopped fucking shaking since this meeting started.

“The good news is,” Gudao said, raising a finger, “is that we won’t have to worry about him breaking into things while we’re talking. I’ve sicked the other Cus on him. They’ve swept him up for a day of ‘reconnecting’.” He hesitated, then lowered his hand, “I haven’t told them about what we’ve learned so far. I think it’ll be better for them if their view of Odin doesn’t change suddenly. It means he’s less likely to pick up on something being wrong.”

“Even though he’s likely suspicious,” Mash added. “But according to our sources, he typically does his explorations during the times of day when most other Servants are busy elsewhere, and he won’t be missed. Evening, getting into early night. It is unlikely that he would conduct his explorations now.” 

Director Gordolf let out a giant breath. “Well, good,” he huffed, “it means we have some time. I am assuming you have a plan?”

“We have a start of one,” Gudao said. 

“Wait a moment,” Sion said, “before we lay any plans, wouldn’t it be a good idea to know where he’s been going to find his secrets? The Wandering Sea has quite a few areas that are off limits, so he could be looking into any one of them. We need to know what he’s searching for before taking him down, you know?” 

“Luckily, we should be able to do just that,” Sherlock said. “There have been a few servants who have noticed his odd activity and have been tailing him. Fuuma, would you appear and give us your report?”

“Hai,” said Fuuma. He appeared without fanfare, the customary quiet appearance of many Assassin Heroic Spirits with high presence concealment. He sat there, kneeling, his head down, and waited.

Gudao smiled at him. “Go ahead and start, Kotarou. What do you have for us?”

“Ah -” Fuuma started, then stood, his shoulders back and his head tipped slightly up. “First off, I am afraid that I do not know the full validity of my own claims. There were points in time where the entity that called itself Odin set up bounded fields I could not cross, or listen in on. It is entirely likely that - with his abilities - he noticed that he was being followed, or simply suspected as such. But there was a pattern to when he used these bounded fields. If I may see the map?”

“Go ahead,” Sion said, waving her hand.

Fuuma nodded. He stepped forwards, and pointed. “The place he set up bounded fields the least was in the library - a total of two times. I assume that these were the times he spoke to Kage without wishing anyone else to hear the conversation. But there are three other locations he utilized the bounded fields more regularly. This section,” he pointed to the highest right corner of the map, “this section,” he pointed to the middle, the Command Room, “and this section,” he pointed to a space in the lower left corner. 

“The Command Room?” Gordolf sputtered.

“Hai,” Fuuma said, “but ah … I investigated the Command Room each time he left it, and it didn’t seem like anything had been tampered with. I believe Gran Cavallo and Miss Sion would have felt if it had, hai?”

“We would have,” Gran Cavallo agreed. “I didn’t notice anything being messed with.” 

“Besides,” Sion said, “Odin is from the time of the Norse Gods - he might have been able to mess with the Shadow Border’s instruments, but the tech within the Command Room is on another level. I doubt he’d be able to manipulate that so easily.”

“Still, we’ll do a diagnostics check to see if we notice anything out of whack,” Gran Cavallo added.

“That would be for the best,” Gudao said. He pointed to the two other positions on the map. “What about these two, Kotarou?” 

“The top right was the one Odin visited the least out of the last two,” Fuuma said, “ I do not … ah … have access to the maps, but I imagine it would be difficult to hide anything in a wall that enters into the Wandering Sea. Unless Miss Sion is purposefully excluding something from her maps, then something existing there would be extremely difficult. But to hide something in the middle of this facility would not be as difficult. So … ah … if I had to guess, that would be why the last location is the one that has his most intense focus.” 

“You’ve got great deductions there,” Sion said, cheerful, “Sherlock what do you think?”

“I believe,” Sherlock said, “he wouldn’t set up a bounded field around a space if there wasn’t something there to discover. So I think our question should be - what secrets does this facility have in these two areas, Sion ? And which one is the one he’s most likely going to work on tonight?”

Sion hesitated. Her eyebrow twitched. “Well …”

“You’re not allowed to tell us,” Gran Cavallo guessed, with something that almost sounded like a disappointed beep.

Sion gave a little laugh. “I’ve been gifted control of this place! I can’t go and spill the secrets of it this early.” 

“Well,” Gordolf snapped, “You have to! Otherwise, we won’t be able to determine which area Odin is targeting. You sharing some sort of information is vital to our capture of him, and returning that Servant back to his basic parameters!” 

Kage didn’t like Gordolf, for many fucking reasons, and the way the bastard said those words made his teeth grate and his hackles rise. But the fucker was also imposing, in his own damn way. Shoulders back, eyes burning, chest thrust out in his self-importance . It was as if he knew that Sion would argue, and was making sure that she would not be able to stand against his might. 

And Sion … gave in. She did it with a theatrical sigh, her shoulders slumping, blowing out a breath that rustled her bangs. “Fine! Fine, I’ll tell you, but I can’t give you the details! And you can’t let anyone know I told you, alright?”

“You’ve got yourself a deal,” Gudao said. “Thank you, Sion .”

Sion waved him off, then pointed at the far right corner. “This is the area you came in from - the Five Gates. They’re the five pillars that connect the Wandering Sea to the world, to time, and allow for communication and transportation. There’s the Gate of Preservation, the Gate of Advancement, the Gate of Rebirth, the Gate of Storage, and the Gate of Subordination. I’d imagine he’d have a hard time getting any of them to work, though.”

Sherlock didn’t ask for details. Perhaps he didn’t need to. He just tapped his hand against the final location on the map. “And this right here?”

Sion hesitated.

Gudao reached out a tad, his hand landing on her shoulder, giving it a small squeeze. “ Sion , please.”

“Alright, alright,” She said. She let out a long, slow breath between her teeth. “That right there is the entrance to the laboratories. No one’s in there right now, of course, at least not in this time - but that entrance leads to the below layers, where all the projects of the Wandering Sea are worked on and stored. And in that layer is also where we keep our greatest secrets - we call them the Concealed Laws of the Gods.”

He’d want that. Kage didn’t even have to look at Sion ’s face to know that Odin would want those concealed Laws of the Gods. Just the name of the damn things was enough. It was right up Odin’s fucking ally, the bastard. And if he was moving through abandoned - in this time, whatever the fuck that meant - laboratories to get there … no doubt the old bastard was practically tap dancing in glee.

“That’ll be it,” Sherlock said. “Now to know how much progress he’s made. Fuuma, do you have any hints as to that?”

Fuuma hesitated, before shaking his head. “No. All I can tell you is recently, he has returned with dust in his hair.”

“Then he’s likely going into the passages beneath this level,” Sherlock said, tapping that spot on the map. “And that means we set up a trap for him. As long as that everyone finds that acceptable.”

Sion pursed her lips, then shrugged. “As long as you don’t go into the tunnels, do what you want!” 

“I have an objection!” Gordolf sputtered, before anyone else could answer. “First off, what is the goal of this mission? How are we going to accomplish it? Do we have any idea of how to restrain this god without damage to the Wandering Sea, or our fighting capabilities. In case you have forgotten, we barely survived Skadi! She was simply utilizing Odin’s magecraft - fighting an Odin wielding his own magecraft without a proper way to defend against it is suicide!” 

“It would be,” Gran Cavallo said, “if Odin hadn’t admitted it to Kage that he’s on humanity’s side here. You listened to the recording. Odin forcefully summoned himself to help Gudao out. I doubt he’ll go back on that decision and try to kill him now.”

“But he could!” Gordolf sputtered. He waved his hands around, scowled hard. “Skadi nearly killed Gudao. We don’t know the skills Odin has - we didn’t get that much from the scan. We don’t know what he’s capable of. So we need to be prepared for anything!”

In any other instance, Gordolf’s cowardice and over caution would have pissed Kage off. Right now? He couldn’t help but fucking agree. Even now, just thinking of the casual coldness in Odin’s voice was enough to make him shake from rage and worry. He could still hear those damned words after the fucking prank Odin had spoke. Be very careful with what you do next, Kage. It is not your neck on the line if you push too far.

Kage didn’t think Odin would destroy Gudao. But he for sure fucking believed that if Odin thought it necessary , he would destroy what remained of CasCu without hesitation. And he might just fucking do that if they pushed him without preparing for the consequences.

“I know,” Gudao said, his voice soft. “But CasCu -” he hesitated, swallowed hard.

Mash’s hand landed on his shoulder. She gave him a slight squeeze, then looked up and met Gordolf’s gaze. “CasCu has been with us from the beginning,” she said. “He was the first rogue Servant Gudao had ever contracted with. He was the first one to be summoned in Chaldea. We can’t leave him like this.” 

Gudao took a deep breath. “The goal of this operation is to separate Odin from CasCu’s Spirit Origin. I don’t care if Odin just wants to help us out. I don’t care what he says about CasCu’s purpose. Even if CasCu’s creation is exactly what Odin says he is - that makes CasCu just like Alter and Jalter. An individual, with their own personality beyond what they were initially supposed to be. We’re not going to let Odin trample over that. If he wants to help us out, he can do it the same way anyone else does: by being Summoned directly.”

And just like that, Kage had a huge fucking bundle of respect and relief burning in his chest for Gudao. Sometimes, it was easy to forget just how Gudao worked. Especially in a situation like this - but this would have always been his decision. And Kage couldn’t help but be thankful for it. It meant a lot, to fucking hear it from his Master. To know that everyone was on the same page. To know that everyone would be working towards having CasCu back with them, safe and whole.

“Alright,” Gordolf said. He let out a sharp breath, and ran his hand through his hair. He looked moderately relieved, to have heard that there was a fucking goal here. “Now, to do that, we have to ensure that CasCu can survive without Odin’s influence. Gran Cavallo?”

There was a beep, slight, from the tablet. Gran Cavallo’s voice was soft, almost uncertain. “Well, I’ve run some figures and … I’m afraid that CasCu doesn’t have much of a chance of existing on his own. Alter and Jalter were registered as their own Spirit Origin’s. CasCu might be his own person, but his Spirit Origin isn’t his own - a Heroic Spirit can’t survive with only 20% of his Spirit Origin operational. If we want CasCu to live through this, then we have to tie him to an anchor that will keep him stable.”

There was a quiet there, and in the silence, Kage felt that familiar sickness rise up. His mind reeled at the thought of what that would do to CasCu. His curse thudded with it, that insidious promise at the back of his mind that if this were true, then CasCu was better off dead. 

But he’d been thinking about this, since Da Vinci last brought it up, earlier this day. He stepped out of Spirit Form, shoving one more body into this overcrowded space. Fuuma seemed to get the message - he disappeared, gone without a trace. Kage took his space at the table and slammed his fist upon the metal. “I’ll take care of that.”

There was a pause, brief. The only ones who didn’t look startled were Gudao and Sherlock. Gudao looked at Kage, and gave him a short nod. “Do you have a plan?”

“Hai,” Kage said, his throat tight, “I do.”

“Alright, we’ll trust you then,” Gudao said. He gave Kage a grin, a nod, and then turned to Gordolf. “Then Kage will be in charge of separating CasCu and Odin, and ensuring CasCu is stable afterward . Before that happens though, we need to be able to take Odin out - or at least manage to restrain him. Sion, since this place is supposed to be secret, I assume that there are traps around the entrance?” 

Sion blinked. “Well, yeah? But if Odin’s already made it past that entrance, he’s probably dismantled them all.”
“Well, remantle them then,” Gudao said. He pushed away from the table. There was that familiar light in his eyes, something bright and all together sharp, calculating. It was the same sort of look that he brought to missions. The look he used to win. “I want you to work with Moriarty. If anyone can cook up a devious trap, it’s him. We’ll get a bounded field around the area to minimalize the damage, and I’ll select a team for pinning Odin down. Does anyone have any objections?”

“Yes?!” Gordolf shrieked. “I still want you to be protected, Gudao! Your safety is still paramount to our cause.”

“I’ll have Mash to protect me,” Gudao said. 

He didn’t hesitate, with those words. His gaze was solid, sharp, his head tiled up as if to refute any argument that came their way. Gordolf opened his mouth to argue, and then shut it, when Gudao turned that glare at him.

“I trust her with my life,” Gudao said, “Mash is more than capable of protecting me. I know that, and I trust her.” 

Gordolf glanced at Mash, brief, before he let out a sharp sound between his teeth. “Very well then!” 

Mash stood there, her eyes wide, a touch hot. She reached out to take Gudao’s hand, and gave it a small squeeze. And though she didn’t say the words aloud, Kage could clearly read the ‘thank you’ in the way her lips shaped the words. A second chance, Kage guessed, against how she had failed to defend Gudao against Surtr’s runes. It was a sweet gesture. No doubt Mash would try extra hard to make up for it.

Still …

“I’d like to request someone to be put on the team,” Kage said, his fingers bunching up in the metal.

Gudao squeezed Mash’s hand once, then straightened. “Who?”

“Nobbu,” Kage said. “I know she’s not the most subtle - but she’s been supporting me from the beginning. And you know no one will be stronger than her against a being like this.”

Gudao gave him a grin, slight, understanding. “That won’t be an issue,” he promised. And then his grin widened, as if an idea had just been struck in his head. Kage didn’t know what the fuck that smile meant - but he knew damned well that it was good to see. It meant that Gudao had a plan, and if Gudao had a plan then …

Well Kage could at least imagine what it would be like to breathe easy.

 

Finding Nobunaga in the middle of the day was always a trial. Despite her self-proclaimed status as the Demon King of the Sixth Heaven, she was a menace and a gremlin. It meant that she could be fucking anywhere. And it was Kage’s job - after being released from the meeting once the details of the plan had been hammered out - to find her.

The good thing was, knowing Nobunaga like he did, he could figure out a good estimate of what she might be doing. The problem was, in this place so fucking different from Chaldea, he wasn’t sure where she would be doing her likely misdeeds.

It was past lunchtime . Not a lot of time to spare between now, and when they were supposed to spring the trap on Odin. Not much time to get the traps set up once more. Not much time for Moriarty to modify them in that horribly evil way the damned man was capable of. Not much time to find the people needed for this operation.

Then again, Gudao probably had an easier time of it. At least for everyone else. Kage just … he wanted to be the one to speak to Nobunaga. To give her an update on the situation. To tell her … about the things he hadn’t before. He might not have been able to speak about the meeting, but talking about Loki was obviously a safe bet and … a part of him wanted to get her opinion on it. The Spirit Origin Scanner and the resulting conversations had eased a lot of his worries, but a part of him, well …

The dagger kept prickling at him. That thing with Loki’s face. He didn’t trace every weapon he came across - okay, that was a lie. He traced most of the weapons he came across. But much of what he traced were weapons of power. That knife … it had to do something, and he didn’t know what it did, but it felt like it might be important. 

Or maybe he was overthinking things. His hands were shaking, throat tight, anticipation, and fear and worry a toxic mixture in his stomach. It might mean nothing. He needed Nobunaga to get him back on Solid ground.

And also for her to help him bake a shit ton of cat treats for the damned Pharaoh . He had a feeling that, whatever happened, he was going to be in no mood, or capability to bake them all tomorrow.

So searching for Nobunaga meant being quicker than not. Which meant mental connections. He cast his mind out, tossed his voice into the wind. “Oi, Nobbu! Where the hell are you at right now?”

It took a moment for her to reply. When she did, it was with a customary slyness, the type that spoke to being up to no good. “Why do you ask?”

“Because we need to talk,” Kage said, “About your plans tonight.”

There was a pause. A pause that lasted for far too fucking long. He narrowed his eyes slightly, sped up walking. He had a bad fucking feeling that he knew what would be happening. Nobunaga was in the middle of something, something that would take a long fucking time and get her into so much deep shit -

“Wabi Sabi!” Nobunaga cried, “you’re just in luck - my evening happens to be free. Where are we meeting to talk?”

Kage paused, brief. For a moment his throat constricted tight. He let out a sound between his teeth. “Are you sure about this?” He tested, “Once I get you in my sights I’m not letting go. Whatever the hell you’re doing, it can wait.”

“It can’t be helped!” Nobunaga laughed, her voice high and wild. “Shall we meet in my room? I think meeting in my room is a perfect plan! See you there!” 

Kage paused, for a moment, then two, before he let out a breath between his teeth and turned on his heel , started walking that way. In a few seconds, he was running. He couldn’t help himself. He just needed to - fucking move. Fucking get there, as quick as possible. And he was quick - quick enough that he beat Nobunaga there, that he stood in the empty shininess of her room, and the conspiracy board that still dominated that wall.

Kage sat hard onto her bed, letting out a sharp, slight sound between his teeth. A few seconds later, the door burst open; Nobunaga tumbled into the room, her hat balancing on her head somehow despite the literal flips. She bounced to her feet, spread her arms wide, and sang, “Ta Da~ I made it! Told you it couldn’t be helped!”

Her antics made him smile, brief. “I see that,” he said. “Thanks. Close the door, will you?”

She slammed the door shut, then pranced over to collapse onto the bed beside him. “So!” She sang, pointing a finger into the air, “I take it that Gudao is now mobilizing the forces, and they of course include mwa?” She poked herself in the chest, puffed herself up, and took on the smug expression of a pleased cat.

“Hai,” Kage agreed, with a snort.

“Wabi Sabi! Who else is joining us?” 

“I am, I don’t know who else.” When she looked at him, he shook his head, making a small noise between his teeth. “I figure Gudao is probably working on the roster right now, but he has a lot of shit on his hands - anyway, I wanted to warn you that I’ll be taking care of separating CasCu from Odin, and stabilizing him afterward . You and the rest will be restraining him.”

Nobunaga pressed her fingers against her chin and nodded theatrically. “It can’t be helped,” she agreed, “you’re the best for safely extracting him. How much fire am I to use?” 

“As little as possible,” Kage said.

“What?!” Nobunaga’s thoughtful posture shattered. “Why not? Sooo not wabi sabi! I’ve been itching to burn that god for what he’s done to you! Turn him into fuel for the flames of the Demon King of the Sixth Heaven! Ash for the new age! A corpse for my army to plunder!” She laughed, her customary, token demonic laughter, with its occasional, high-pitched squeaks and underlying crackle.

Kage waited until she had petered off, then said, “Yeah, well, I’m worried that doing that will fucking damage his Spirit Origin so much that I won’t be able to save CasCu. He’s only - fuck, Nobbu, he won’t be stable without Odin. We can’t risk damaging him more.” 

Nobunaga blinked. “What do you mean he wouldn’t be stable without Odin? He was before?” 

“Yeah, well,” Kage grimaced, scowling. “We saw how much of CasCu is left in his Spirit Origin. He’s not … he’s only …” he couldn’t say the words. He squeezed his eyes shut, and rubbed at his face hard, sucking in his breath through his teeth as if it could stabilize him.

Thank the gods Nobunaga gave up on understanding. She just reached up, and patted at his shoulder, this gentle thing. “Alright then,” she said, “I’ll do my best to keep the flames to a minimum. You better be happy with me, though! I don’t do this for just anyone. And you’ll fucking owe me so much!”

“At this point,” Kage muttered, “Who don’t I owe?”

She laughed at that, wild as was her wont, but not as wild as before. “In something like this? It can’t be helped.” 

“Yeah,” Kage sagged against her, a little bit, his eyes half closed , and his body leaned against hers. She supported him well. And for a moment or two, they sat in silence. It gave Kage’s swirling mind precious time to settle. Gave him time to breathe, in and out, in and out, slow and sure.

Of course Nobunga had to break it. “So why do you want me for the whole day? Surely I could have some free time to do - some important things.” 

The words were too rushed and an obvious lie . Kage wasn’t going to pry. “I need help making cat treats.”

“What?!”

Her shriek of surprise was certainly invigorating. His lips twitched. A laugh burst out of him, sudden, startling, and he couldn’t help but grin. “I did just say I had a shit ton of debts. Cat treats is one of them.”

“You’re Kidding!” Nobunaga proclaimed. Her hands waved around in wild circles. “Who do you owe? Fucking - Jaguar man?” 

It made him laugh harder, just a touch. A much, much fucking needed laugh. His shoulder shook with it. “No.” 

“Then who?” 

“Fucking -” he wheezed a moment, sucked in a breath between his teeth, “Fucking - Pharaoh with the star cats. Sphinx ’s. They’re sphinx treats. Fucking take it as a lesson - Never deal with the Pharaoh ’s, they’re so demanding. I don’t know how Gudao deals with them.”

“With cat treats, apparently,” Nobunaga said, huffing. “Honestly! And you want me to help you cook them?”

“When you put it like that -”

She burst out laughing, and he did too, sagging against her side in the process. She held him up, and he laughed and laughed and laughed, until he couldn’t breathe, until his eyes burned and tears leaked from them. Until he was convulsing, and she was collapsing, and all he could hear in his ears was their laughter. It might have been a touch hysterical. But after everything, it felt good to laugh.

“I’ll help you,” she said, when she’d gotten her mostly under control, her fingers wiping at her eyes. “Consider it payment for making me laugh that hard! Wabi sabi - Okita is never going to believe this.” 

“I’m not sure if I do,” Kage wheezed, leaned harder against her.

“It’s pretty unbelievable,” Nobunaga cackled, throwing her head back to laugh again. “Me! Making cat treats! You better pull your weight, for we’ll cook them in the fires of Honoji!”

“We are not,” he retorted, between another breath of a laugh. “But Gods, you’re right … this whole thing is unbelievable.” Not just the cooking, but everything. CasCu’s situation. Odin. The risks they would be taking tonight. Loki -

Loki.

Kage’s laughter collapsed in on itself. He leaned against Nobunaga, and stared at his hand. He could still feel the weight of the dagger, the press of the grip and the gleam of the gem in the hilt. In his minds eye, the reflection lay solely within the eyes of the carving. Winking, staring up at him, promising … something. 

“Hey Nobbu?” he asks, his voice small. 

Nobunga settled against him with a wide grin. “Yeah?” 

“Odin thinks I’m possessed by Loki.”

Nobunaga blinked. “Eh?” she said, and a second passed, two, three, before her voice rose in a bit of a shriek. “WHAT?!”

Kage grimaced, pulling away from her and rubbing at his ear. “ Fucking - careful there, you’ll burst my damn eardrum.”

“It can’t be helped!” She whirled on him, pinning him in place with a finger to his chest. “Back up. Odin thinks you’re Loki?? Explain!”

So Kage did. He explained as much as he could, with the rune on his hand. Odin dropping his guard around Kage because he thought Kage was Loki in the same way Odin had been CasCu. The Spirit Origin Scanner, and what they had found within it. The dagger. Sherlock’s deduction. And when he was done, he projected that dagger, felt the heavy weight of it in his palm, and showed her that design on the pommel .

“So,” he said, voice tight, “what do you think?” 

Nobunaga stared down at the dagger, her eyes squinted, before she huffed and straightened. Her mirth from earlier was gone completely. She stared at Kage with an evaluating look, calculating, as if she was trying to determine something within him. When she spoke, it was with a downright thoughtful tone. Thoughtful Nobunaga never meant anything more. “Who do you think knows Loki better? Sherlock? Or Odin?” 

Kage’s throat constricted tight. He curled his fingers tighter around the dagger. “But Loki wasn’t fucking in my head.” 

“You’re right,” Nobunaga said, nodding her head. “So you’re probably not possessed! But Odin’s probably right about one thing - Loki had a hand in your creation, and that -” she jabbed a finger at the dagger “- is proof. You don’t remember how it entered your phantasm, right?” 

“That’s right,” he mumbled, staring at her, stunned.

“Ever been to anywhere viking before?” She pressed.

“Once or twice,” he said, “but no one wielding daggers.” 

“So that,” she tapped the blade, and it thrummed briefly, “was a gift. Probably from Loki . The bastard didn’t have any weapons himself, but there are plenty of stories about him making shit, or getting shit made! He either formed you, or guided you, and then gave you this to deal with Odin, before whisking on his merry way. Honestly! Do you think he sounds like a guy who would stand around waiting to see the job done himself?” 

Kage hesitated, and stared down at the dagger. Thought of all the stories he’d read about Loki, before he swallowed and curled his fingers around it. “Only to fucking gloat and get hit with the consequences afterward . But he’s not - in my head. He’s not in my Spirit Origin. We checked. Do you - do you think he’s in the knife?” 

Nobunaga stared at him, a long, blank look. Kage grimaced at it. “Yeah,” he agreed, “probably not.” 

“Well,” Nobunaga said, “have you traced it yet?” 

No,” Kage admitted, small.

 She huffed at him, giving him a soft shove. “Well trace it! That’s the only way you’re ever going to get your answers, you know!”

Kage scowled at her, but she … was right, damn it. Of course, she was. He looked away from her, and held the knife in his hands. Took a moment, first. Just stared at it, taking in the detail work and the flash of the blade - and then he closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and let it out slow. “Trace on.”

His mana pulsed through the blade, and the blade’s mana … pulsed back. It was oddly warm against his fingers, like the gentle lick of a hearth fire. Kage wasn’t sure what he was expecting. Perhaps something like Carnewnnan, an enchantment for subterfuge and stealth. Perhaps something more powerful, something worthy of a god. But the mana within the blade was warm, and faint, but attention grabbing. It was the sort of mana that you knew what it was, but you didn’t know the name. It just sat there, on the tip of your tongue, and until you figured it out it would nag you forever -

Kage opened his eyes, and stared at the blade. He flexed his hands briefly, then stared at it a bit longer. “You’re kidding me,” he muttered. 

“Well?” Nobunaga pressed.

Kage just shook his head. He couldn’t fucking believe it. This blade - if it had come from Loki - was totally wrong. It was the sort of thing that grabbed all the attention. The sort of thing people couldn't’ stop thinking about, even long after. It was an enchantment of attraction, of attention, a magnetic draw that people would be drawn to - that Odin would be drawn to.

What had Odin said? That a similarity between Kage and Loki was that they were both scapegoats? Well this was a scapegoats blade. The sort of blade people blamed things on, pinned things on, because it was easy, and people wouldn’t be surprised if that blame was true. A troublemakers blade, through and through.

“Well?” Nobunaga asked, louder, right in his ear.

Kage yanked back, dismissing the blade. He scowled at her, and she waited, unrepentant, so he just sighed and rubbed at his head. “It’s just like you said,” he retorted, “there’s no Loki in it … but there’s something of his essence in it.”

And in its a own way, some of Kage’s own. He could use this blade, probably better than he could use many of the other blades within his collection. Those he’d copied. This fucking thing - he had the uncanny feeling that it had been made for him, for this instance, though how the fuck that was possible, he didn’t want to think about.

“Then you have it!” Nobunaga said, cackling. “Wabi Sabi! That’s your answer. Loki’s remaining impact on you is within that dagger - and I bet it’s meant for Odin.”

“It is,” Kage said. “But we can’t use it yet. Come on Nobbu,” he pushed himself to his feet, though the ghost of the blade lingered. “We’ve got cat treats to make.”

 

Cooking with Nobunaga was an experience Kage never wanted to repeat. She was more a detriment and a distraction than anything else. Too rowdy, too loud, too prone to setting the oven on too high and the time on too low. She was also prone to ‘taste testing’ the treats, and no amount of smacking with a spoon could dissuade her. But her sputters at the ruined batches certainly told him when things weren’t turning out well, and it also worked as a great way to keep his mind from other things, so in the end he had a few batches of treats that he thought would pass Ozymandias ’ judgment.

They left the kitchen without the cat treats, though. There was no time to deliver them to Ozymandias , for Gudao’s voice filled their mind, “We’re ready for you. Come to my location when you can.” So the treats were left with Boudica, with the promise that she would deliver them when she had a moment. Then both Kage and Nobunaga took to Spirit Form, and wound their ways through the halls of the Wandering Sea.

The location Gudao wanted them to go seemed, at first glance, no different from all the rest. A hallway, with rooms branching off of it. The specific one was a storage room - it was that one that supposedly held the entrance to the below ground laboratories. Kage… couldn’t tell anything different from this damn storage room than all the rest. The light was off, the corners shrouded in shadow, boxes stacked up in teetering piles of equipment. There was nothing here that said Odin had been visiting regularly.

“We’re here!” Nobunaga sang, her voice full of delight. 

“Then that makes everyone,” Gudao said. “I am here with Mash, Sherlock, and Sion - we’re beyond the secret entrance, protected by the traps. I want everyone to know that I won’t be able to watch the battle in person. They chose a stupidly good location for the entrance - but Sion will be broadcasting the battle too me, so I will still be able to give orders as needed.”

“That is for the best, Master,” said a voice, familiar, though Kage had a hard time placing it. “It would be bad if Odin struck out at you.”

“I know,” Gudao said, “Here’s the plan folks. We’re going to wait for Odin to come to us, and it might take a while. Once he gets close, he’ll put up a bounded field - Fuuma will let us know when that happens. Once Odin is within this room, Scheherazade will throw up a bounded field of her own, which should keep the facility safe from damage. Nobunaga, Martha, and Astolfo will focus on subduing and restraining Odin. Kage is in charge of separating Odin from CasCu. I have Nightingale on standby for any healing that might need to occur, but we don’t want any casualties, or any lasting damage, got it?” 

“Hai,” Kage said.

“Wabi sabi!” Nobunaga agreed.

“No problamo!” Astolfo sang.

“Of course,” said a voice that definitely sounded like Martha, just a shade too wild to be truthfully sincere, “We’ll do our best, Gudao.”

“Then we wait,” Gudao said.

And so they waited. Kage sat there, in the mess of boxes and storage supplies, and waited, waited. Time ticked by in slow, incremental moments. He closed his eyes, and breathed, slow and steady. If he focused hard enough, he could imagine Nobunaga beside him. She would be unnaturally still right now, eager for the fight, but not about to give up her position or advantage. Something in Kage’s heart lifted and crashed all at once.

Soon. No matter which way the tides turned, it would happen soon.

“Kotarou says the bounded field is up,” Gudao said.

Kage shifted slightly. His hands flexed. Already he could feel the press of Loki’s dagger against his hand, his skin, and he hadn’t even summoned it yet. It was like the thing was begging to be used. Soon, he told himself and the blade. Soon.

The door to the storage room creaked open. Light spilled across the floor, a long rectangle that trapped Odin’s stretched out shadow. He stood there within the doorway for a long moment, as if waiting himself. The light was at his back. It cast everything into deep shadow. When he tilted his head, his one eye flashed gold in the gloom.

And then he smiled, his teeth sharp and white. “If you are waiting to talk to me, then you have chosen quite a place. Please, show yourself.”

There was a moment, quiet and strained - then Scheherazade stepped out of the shadows and into the light. She held her staff tight between her fingers, and there was a shake to her arms that Kage couldn’t help but recognize as fear. Her chest rose and fell rapidly with panicked breaths, but there was a smile behind her veil, something small and polite and trembling. “Hello,” she said, “I am sorry, but I needed to talk to you in private. I do not mean to impose.”

Odin paused. His eye flashed once - and then his demeanor changed. He smiled. “A storyteller could never impose me, miss?”

“Scheherazade,” she said. Her fingers gripped her staff tighter.

“Ah,” Odin said, “The lady of a thousand stories. What a pleasure it is to meet you. Should you have come at any other time today, I would have been happy to entertain you. But my time tonight is limited. Tell me, why are you here?” 

There was a flash in his voice, the barely hidden implication of violence in his words, and just that was enough to send Scheherazade shaking. She bowed to him, a rushed thing. “I do not mean to give offense ,” She said, “I just… wished to speak to you. I know a thing or two about stories, and I can tell that you are a connoisseur of them. I have one I think you would enjoy, and I wish to tell it to you.” She looked up at him, something bright in her eyes. They looked like tears. “Please?” 

It wasn’t going to work. It shouldn’t have worked. This was fucking Odin, King of the Norse Gods, and Scheherazade was a terrified wreck before … kings. And in a rush, Kage remembered, or perhaps the Throne supplied. Scheherazade might have been deathly terrified of kings, but her skill set was tailored around them. Particularly male kings. Particularly ones who thirsted for knowledge and stories. 

Kage couldn’t fucking believe it. Sometimes, Gudao’s deviousness fucking terrified him. 

Odin paused once, then moved into the room. “A story, you say?” He asked, like silk over steel. “What sort of story do you wish to tell?” 

Scheherazade reached into her cleavage, and pulled out a scroll. The end of it rolled out from between her fingers, fell to the ground in a cascade of parchment and curled around her like a serpent. The words were numerous, line upon line of black ink, a thousand stories transcribed into one place. “A story of kings,” she read, her voice soft, “a story of gods. And it starts like all do: with once upon a time.” 

The words on the scroll lit with blue fire. Light blasted from her to each corner of the room. Kage had never seen a bounded field put up so fast. Within seconds, the whole room was coated in a gossamer of blue words. The open doorway was blocked off with blue inked letters, each space and corner packed densely with story. It covered the boxes, and filled the air, drifting around them like clouds, and within that same blink Scheherazade was gone.

For all her skills, Odin had not been stationary. His surprise had stalled him, but he still moved, spinning on his heel and sending runes spiraling from his fingertips. They crashed against the doorway with a splash of gold fire, then fizzled into nothing. Scheherazade’s bounded field stood up to it, still glowing, still burning, and in the aftermath, they appeared. Nobunaga, standing tall on one of the boxes. Martha, in her swimsuit Spirit Origin, her gauntlets gleaming under the light. Astolfo, standing in the corner from both of them, who hadn’t seemed to grasp the seriousness of the situation and was waving with an eager hand. “Yahoo!” 

Odin turned from the door. His staff fell into his hand, and it - had changed. The wood was dark, and etched into the top was the twined form of two ravens. There was something very wrong with his smile. “Very cleverly set up ambush, Gudao. Did Loki put you up to this? I am almost impressed. I assumed my runes would keep him quiet.”

Nobunaga clicked her fingers. Her guns blazed into existence around her. Her expression as wild, sharp, eyes glowing the bright red of coals about to catch flame. “So that’s what Kage wasn’t telling me! Rune craft just ain’t wabi sabi. Well, we’ll deal with that once we’re done dealing with you.”

Odin hummed. He tapped his staff once against the ground, as if to test the strength of Scheherazade’s bounded field. “If I killed you,” he said, as if in deep contemplation, “There will be an investigation.”

Nobunaga laughed, wild and sudden, a dare. Astolfo pouted. Kage heard a muttered ‘rude.’ But it was Martha who stepped forwards, tugging lightly at her gauntlets. “There’s not going to be any killing tonight,” she said, her voice smooth, her expression calm. “We’re here to deliver an ultimatum.”

“An ambush is hardly a place for an ultimatum.” Odin said, spreading his hands slightly. “Try again tomorrow. We can have a proper discussion over tea. It will end better for you.”

“Wooow,” Astolfo breathed. Suddenly, they raised their hand over their head, waving it from side to side. “What type of tea?” 

“Not happening!” Nobunaga shot over them. Her cackle was the wild crackle of flame. “You’re going to get out of that body, and leave CasCu with us. This’ll be your only warning!” 

“Shame,” Odin said, and tapped his staff against the floor again.

Kage didn’t see what he did. Odin didn’t fucking cast like CasCu would, with his hands, motions, runes lighting up and shooting off midair. Instead, they burst into a runic circle in the palace his staff made contact with the ground. There was a flash of gold light, then a burst of air, violent and forceful, a searing, physical wave of light and runecraft. Nobunaga was thrown off her feet, her and her guns blasted against the wall. Her guns disappeared . Runes clung to her body, gluing her to the stone and the words of the bounded field. Astolfo was hit with a yelp - they managed to twist, swift, only to be blasted right into one of the crates, stuck there like a rag doll with only one of their arms held awkwardly away from their body and the wood. 

The runes and force struck Martha too. She wasn’t thrown back by the blast. Her hands brushed off the runes as if they were mere annoyances. She tapped her knuckles together, cracked her neck. “Well, we tried diplomacy,” she said, sounding far too eager. “Lord grant me strength and forgiveness.”

And then she moved. She hit Odin like a sack of fucking bricks, the first gauntlet slamming past his side step and into the ground with enough force to send the words shaking. Odin stood slightly to the side of the blow, one eyebrow raised, his one eye glowing - he laughed, something low and husky. “Blessed by God,” he said, “how cute.” He spun his staff, slammed it at her head in a motion too quick to follow. 

Martha dodged, the staff swinging right by her head. Her heel spun around, nearly clipped Odin’s temple, but the fucker was fast for someone so old. His return blow was blurred; Martha blocked with her gauntlet, then returned with a rapid fire series that Kage couldn’t follow. Whatever happened next was a blur of metal and wood and limbs, and then suddenly Odin was flying across the room, crashing into a pile of storage crates that didn’t break under his weight to soften his landing.

“Forgive me, lord,” Martha said, “but this man will not understand until we beat that understanding into him.” She stepped forwards, gauntlets raised.

Odin was off his feet and blurring towards her. Runes glimmered along his arms and staff, burned beneath his feet. Kage knew those runes. He knew that speed, suddenly far too fast, the strength that Odin hit Martha with. She flew back, slamming into the wall with an impact that would have cracked it if it weren’t for the bounded field of words. Beside her, Scheherazade flinched, her fingers tightening around the scroll she’d been reading. A final rushed syllable - the runes binding Nobunaga snapped. Gunfire opened up across the room.

And scattered away from Odin. Astolfo yelped, their sword - which had they had been previously been using to hack at Odin’s runecraft - waving in a furious defense against the hail of bullets. Scheherazade popped back into Spirit Form, just in time. Martha swore as a bullet hit her shoulder - Odin was there, holding her head in his hands, digging his fingers into her temples, talons biting into her skin. Rune danced in lines upon her skin. “Let’s see,” Odin crooned, bullets flying around them both and careening off in odd directions, “how strong your belief in your god is, saint.” 

“Nobunaga, switch to your summer form now!” 

The order was immediately followed. Nobunaga’s guns spun around, and she yanked her sword out of her sheath. She lunged forwards, fire beading at the tip of it, swiftly overtaking the blade, her - and in a flash of flame, her swimsuit curled across her form. Her massive, bladed guitar swung towards Odin’s head.

Odin let go of Martha, tossing her to the ground, his staff swinging to knock away that guitar. His other hand raised, runes burning at the tips of his claws. Lightning burst into Nobunaga’s face, a brilliant arch too close to dodge.

Nobunaga hit the ground with a cry, rolling across the floor, her hair a frizz in every direction. Steam rose from her skin. Odin strode forwards, his expression far too calm for his blazing eye, the staff leveled in her direction. The runes along the wood burned bright gold. The two carved ravens pulled from the wood with a screech, and shot towards Nobunaga, two blurs with talons extended. Nobunaga barely threw herself out of the way in time. Odin turned from her, claws ripping through the air, runes spiraling into a fireball that shot towards Scheherazade , currently crouched beside Astolfo and breaking their bonds. 

Kage had no clue how Martha reached them before the flames did. But she did. She stood there, in front of them, gauntlets braced before her face. The flames hit her dead on, split where they touched metal, then roared past her and across the crates, the walls, scorching the blue words black. Under the roar of the flames, Scheherazade rushed to finish her chant, hands shaking, her voice trembling. The bonds holding Astolfo shattered. They moved.

Only an idiot would have raced through flames like that. Astolfo wasn’t an idiot, but they were damn insane, and so race they did, using their lance like as shield as they charged past Martha and towards Odin. 

Martha fell, steaming, blood trickling from her nose and the corners of her mouth. Runes flickered on and off by her temples, the lingering affects despite her insane magic resistance. On the other side of the room, Nobunaga was dancing a loosing battle against the two ravens, swinging her guitar against the diving, swooping birds. With each second, they grew bigger, more monstrous, shedding the disguises of simple birds. Gold gleamed in their eyes like divine coins. 

Astolfo hit Odin, their lance shooting out towards his feet - only to be blocked by a golden shield of runecraft. Odin spun his staff, pointed it at Astolfo, runes blazing at its tip. Astolfo didn’t dodge. They slammed his lance into the shield with a strength that made it crack. The lightning that shot from the staff to them was wild and jagged. Astolfo took it head on with a laugh, swinging their lance again with a blow that made the shield fracture. They lunged -

Odin jumped above the strike, and threw down another rune. It blazed above Astolfo, split into golden wires that descended like the bars of a gilded bird cage. Beneath their feet, roots erupted from the ground, thick and dark and thorny. Astolfo yelped as they dug into their skin, wrapping and binding again. Odin landed a few feet away, light as a fucking feather.

“Gudao -” Kage said, his voice tight.

“I know,” Gudao said. Their voice was calm, horribly so. “But wait, Kage. Wait.” 

Kage bit back a swear. His fingers clenched on nothing, then on something - Loki’s dagger, warm within the palm of his hand, solid even in Spirit Form. And Odin - twitched. It was a brief thing, but Kage saw it clearly, in this moment of quiet, paired with a slight flare of mana from the blade itself.

Then Astolfo ripped their arm free of one of the vines, and swung their lance again. It slammed into the bars of their cage, making them rattle. Odin spun, raised his hands. Two runes hung there, blazing bright. Uraz, strength and power. Hagalaz, loss.

Astolfo was strong - in short bursts, and certainly not when constrained by runes. They yelped when their next hit against the bars did nothing but jar their arm, the lance dropping from their fingers to disappear. The roots began a sudden flurry of growth up their body, wrapping up legs, arms, entombing them in a thorny grip. They struggled, writhing. “Hey!” They complained, “This is so cheating!” 

Odin glanced at them, then looked around the room. Astolfo, caged and swiftly being bound. Martha, struggling against the runes still clinging stubbornly too her, blood dotting the corners of her eyes now. Nobunaga, doing her best to avoid the damned draconic birds. The bastard almost had the gall to be disappointed . “After Skadi,” he said, “I expected more from you, Gudao.” 

“Well, we were trying to kill Skadi. We’re not trying to kill you - but you already know that, don’t you?” 

Gudao’s voice came from the suddenly revealed secret door, hidden away by the blue words, the shadows, and some other magecraft. He stepped into the room, his shoulders straight and chin tilted, eyes blazing. Mash stepped out beside him, gripping her shield tight between her fingers, determination clear.

“We’re going to get CasCu out of you,” Gudao said.

Odin gestured towards the room. “With a showing like this? Quite frankly, you couldn’t if you tried. This should only be proof to you that it is right to keep me here. I am a force you obviously need.”

“It’s not about need,” Gudao said, crossing his arms. “It’s about what we want. And what we want is CasCu.” 

Odin made a soft noise between his teeth, disappointed. He lowered his staff, pointed the tip at Gudao. “Tell me, Master of Chaldea, what do you think to accomplish here? The entity you call CasCu no longer exists, he never did in the first place. Your fight is a fool's errand with no useful end. All you will accomplish is losing the Servants you have sent against me.”

“You’re wrong,” Gudao said. He hadn’t budged, didn’t flinch, even though Mash had moved to protect him. He just spoke, his voice rebounding off the walls. “CasCu still exists. He might not have before you, but he does exist, as my Servant, and my friend. He’s still in there, and we will get him back.”

“Don’t be foolish,” Odin said, his voice colder. “There is no back for that mask. His time here is over, and you should be thankful for the strength that has replaced him.” 

“It’s not about strength,” Gudao returned, something sharper. “You can’t just possess our friend and expect us to act like he didn’t matter, like he didn’t exist! CasCu has been my Servant from the beginning. He’s an integral part of Chaldea, and -”

“In a situation no different from any other host to a divine spirit. You would not pull this trick with one of them.” 

“That’s because you’re wrong,” Gudao said. “Your position is different. My contract is with CasCu, Cu Chulainn Caster, not with you. If you want to help Chaldea out, then you can do it in a Spirit Origin that’s you from the beginning - not in one you take over later. Now give us back CasCu.” 

For a moment, Gudao and Odin stared at each other, neither one budging. Astolfo was almost completely wrapped up now, though that hadn’t stopped their complaining as they struggled. In the distance, Nobunaga failed a dodge. She swore as one of Odin’s ravens scored a hit. Somewhere in the room, there came a flare of mana. Kage sucked in a sharp breath between his teeth.

“A shame,” Odin said. “I forget sometimes that it is difficult for humanity to see sense, though I suppose it is occasionally part of your unique charm. But it is a pity your stubbornness will have cost you the lives of your Servants here. Not that you will remember that.” 

His staff jerked to the side, and Astolfo screamed. Kage didn’t see what happened within the cocoon of roots, but he heard the snap. He could take a guess. Astolfo’s form crumbled beneath the weight of the roots. The shot swiftly towards their throat and face. 

Odin’s staff moved again, swift and up. The runes that shot towards Gudao and Mash were too quick for Kage to follow - all he could tell was that they were like the first wave of runes Odin had cast, non-fatal . Of course not. Odin didn’t want the end of the world. He just wanted to bury CasCu’s memory and take his place as Gudao’s Servant, keep the damned Age of Humanity going -

The crack of a gauntlet against a hard, stubborn skull had never been so loud, or so beautiful.

Kage had been about to move, balanced on the balls of his feet, but at that sound, he froze. Odin staggered, his staff falling from his hands and his runes flying off course. Martha stood above him, breathing hard. Her eyes had cleared. The runes dancing around her temples were gone. She was burnt and blood and bruised, and yet still she stood tall.

“Oh, no you don’t,” she said, “We’re not done here. You’ve got a serious lesson to learn, troublemaker.” 

Odin made a sound between his teeth, a furious, utterly inhuman, rippling thing. He spun, hiss claws ripping through the air, runes trailing in their wake. There was a blast of lightning, bright white-hot, stronger than previous casts, towards Martha’s face. Martha ducked under most of it, and slugged him in the face. There was the crunch of bone upon metal, a cry of surprised pain and anger.

Kage swore again, and stepped out of Spirit Form, bolted toward Astolfo. Scheherazade wouldn’t be able to take care of those roots fast enough to save him. But he knew, he felt it in the dagger in his hand, pulsing softly beneath his fingers. He gripped it tight in his hand, projected a mace in the other, and slammed it against the bars of the cage. They shook under the onslaught, fractures radiating out from the sound. Within, Astolfo was making sharp, hurting sounds beneath their breath. Their head was tilted at an odd angle, chin against neck to protect it.

“Hate this part,” they said conversationally, “bondage is just not my thing.”

“Oh, shut up,” Kage hissed, and slammed the mace against the cage again. This time, there was a give. The bars to the cage shattered.

To his side, he heard the sound of blows being traded, the sharp ring of metal against skin, the roar of flame and bursts of electricity. He could feel the power carving through the air. Odin wasn’t playing around. If one of those things fucking hurt Martha - magic resistance or not, she’d be dead meat. And he couldn’t count on Nobunaga - it sounded like she was having trouble with the birds still. Kage swapped from mace to sword, hacking at the roots. They cut beneath his blows, wood chips flying, not fast enough. Not strong enough.

In his hand, the dagger pulsed. 

“Gudao -”

“Do it.” 

Gudao didn’t hesitate, not for a second. Kage couldn’t help but be so fucking thankful for that trust, his ability to adapt and understand what his Servants were doing, even in a situation like this. Kage could only fucking hope that this worked like he thought it did, otherwise they were probably fucking doomed.

“Don’t fail me now,” Kage rasped, “Loki.”

He dismissed the sword, and hefted Loki’s dagger. It felt suddenly more solid, hefty and comforting. The face in the gem seemed to wink and grin at him. Kage didn’t give it a second glance. Just brought the damn little dagger down upon Odin’s roots.

The effect was immediate. The blade cut through roots like butter, withering away the magecraft and wood. They fell from Astolfo, leaving them standing there, one leg broken, an arm held at a wrong angle. But there was a flare of strength in their eyes, and they were breathing, aware - and suddenly toppling forwards against Kage, the weight of them sending him sprawling -

Just in time for a flaming staff to swirl through the space Kage had just been. 

“There you are,” Odin hissed, something sharp and bright in his one eye. Like with Skadi and Scáthach , the veneer of CasCu was falling away. His hair was pure silver, swirling around like smoke. He bled gold, where he bled, and his claws were blackened with soot, face lined with age and rage. But there was something like glee there too, as if he’d made a guess and had been proven right. “I was waiting for you to show yourself, Loki.” 

Kage had no time to reply. Odin slammed down the swirling, flaming staff again. Kage barely had time to grab Astolfo and roll them, fingers gripping his knife tight. He left them there, wheezing, as he rose to his feet and threw himself away from another strike of the staff. Odin ignored Astolfo - he was after Kage, gaze focused on him. It was like the whole world had fallen away, and all that existed was them. 

In Kage’s hand, the blade pulsed, lazy and amused. 

“I knew this time would come,” Odin said, “if we just waited long enough. I know you have much to say, Loki. We never got to properly resolve our problems - but there’s time now. To finish what was begun so long ago.” 

His staff swung again - Kage ducked and swirled around it, barely keeping ahead of it. He could see Martha, a burned and steaming mess sagged against the wall, Gudao at her side. Astolfo was trying to get up, but their leg wouldn’t support them. Scheherazade read soft to them. Nobunaga had managed to strike down one of the birds. It was nothing but ash trailing off of her guitar, as the other squawked and shrieked its anger. 

There’d be no help from any of them. It was just him, and Odin, dancing through this fight.

“I’m not talking to you,” Kage swore, using Loki’s dagger to block the next swing of fire. For a second, the flames petered out, the staff jarring against wood. Kage felt the snap of something, somewhere, and watched as Odin’s eye widened with something that must have been twisted delight. 

Of course, it was. Wasn’t this full fucking circle? Odin had made Loki a god, brought him to the rank of the Guardians, and now … now Kage was working with Loki’s help and power to kick Odin out of CasCu and out of Chaldea They were finally duking it out. Closure on both sides of the argument.

“Why not?” Odin pressed, his staff pulling back, and then slamming down with a burst of lightning Kage barely dodged. “You never stopped your words from striking before. Perhaps you need a bit of encouragement then? For someone so good at complaining, you held your words an awful long time, until the drink loosened your tongue. I told you your vices would be the death of you.” 

“Oh, shut up!” Kage roared. He darted forwards, slashed out with the knife, felt the jarred block up his arm. “I’m not fucking talking to you! I want to fucking talk to CasCu, you sick, old, twisted, one-eyed bird fucker!” 

Odin blinked. And for a second, there was hesitation. A second, something like amusement for the words. A second - and Kage’s knife was swinging down, just as Odin’s hand flicked out, rune burning, bright and sudden and blinding. A wind blew Kage back, sent him tumbling back and into the boxes. His head rung with the blow. His fingers loosened, knife clattering against the ground. It disappeared in a burst of sparks.

Odin stepped forwards, slow and steady, a wolf approaching its prone prey. His staff pointed down at Kage - and then he froze. He blinked. “Oh,” he said, his voice almost a rush of a laugh, “that was a clever bit of sorcery, Loki. A shame. Perhaps, if you had focused on us, this would have turned out differently.” 

Lightning built at the tip of his staff, a crackling ball of bright white light. Kage felt the electricity burn against this skin. At the center of his chest, Nicotris’ amulet blazed into dark life, a protective coating that made the close proximity of Odin’s spellcraft hurt all the more. His hair stood on end. He sucked in a breath, pained and tight, coughed up something ragged and cursing. Blood soaked his lips and tongue.

And Odin - he didn’t strike. He froze, as if his whole body had locked up of its own accord. His brows furrowed. “You troublesome thing -”

“LEAVE MY BUDDY ALONE!” 

The broadside of Nobunaga’s guitar axe smacked into the side of Odin’s head. The impact of her blow sent Odin flying into a stack of crates, and their immovable form meant he was the one to suffer the pain of injury. The lightning on his staff went out with a cry. The touch of red in his eye was gone for an expression of pain and fury, the sudden rebirth of gold. He surged to his feet, claws raising with runes at their fingertips -

Martha was there, swift, her hands latching out onto Odin’s arms. He was too slow; she too fast. Kage couldn’t see the motion, but suddenly Odin was being slammed face-first into the crates, once, twice, his arms pinned behind his back, locked and trapped as she hammered him into Scheherazade’s bounded field. Then, just as suddenly, she swung around to face Kage and Nobunaga, Odin limp in her grip.

“NOW!” 

Kage didn’t need to be told twice. He bolted, dizzy and aching and wheezing, across the room. In his hand fell another dagger, different from the previous one. A Grecian style hilt. A purple ceremonial blade, curved and jagged, meant not for cutting into the flesh, but for carving into something far more intangible. 

In seconds, Kage was before Odin, the dagger raised. He caught a glimpse of Odin’s face, bloodied, teeth bared, the fury in that golden eye sudden and sharp and flaring. He saw the realization, as that eye that understood all magecraft caught the sight of the enchantment upon the blade. There was a brief struggle, as if he could break Martha’s grip and escape, or cast some rune in the split second it took for Kage to -

Give CasCu back to me, RULE BREAKER!” 

-plunge the dagger into Odin’s chest. To light them both up with a pain that ripped them to shreds and then remade them. Medea’s dagger ripped through Odin’s Spirit Form, destroyed the bonds between, and reforged them both. Kage couldn’t breathe through it, couldn’t think through it. All he could do was scream, and scream, and scream, and hold on. Hold on as the mana swirled around them. Hold on as Odin and CasCu’s Spirit Core was ripped apart and remade. 

Hold on, and hope that somewhere in that fucking mess of pain and mana and suffering, that CasCu was holding on just as tight as him. 

Notes:

For the people who caught onto rule breaker being an option- CONGRADULATIONS!! You were right!!

Chapter 24: Chapter 24

Summary:

Don't worry! Trauma actively being caused time is over.

Notes:

Hello everyone!! Thank you so much for all your comments and kudos! I hope you all enjoy, and have a wonderful day!

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Chapter Text

CasCu woke up.

He woke up the same way he had every other day he’d woken up since the Lostbelt: paralyzed and unable to move. The blankets on his chest were too heavy, the air in the room too thick; he could barely draw in breath. He lay there, waiting for him to wake up and move his body around, for everything to stay so horribly disconnected. He would feel Odin open his eyelids, and stare out across the room. Odin would move his body like it was his own, and CasCu would be unable to do anything about it, forced to watch as the bastard god made a mockery of his life, his body, his mind -

Except it didn’t.

CasCu woke up, and he lay there, waiting for Odin to wake alongside him and take control, but … nothing happened. His mind felt empty, in a hollow, scooped out way, but it wasn’t the emptiness of loss. It was the emptiness of something extra being removed. He lay there, and the sensations of where he was started to sink into him in a way they hadn’t in a long time. Like the world was real, and he was not kept distant from it.

He felt the blankets on his chest, heavy, but not constrained so. They rose and fell with his breaths. The sheets were rough against his skin, the air cool against his face.  There was the scent of medicine, almost overpowering. In his ear, the soft beeping of a machine. And beneath him, the bed seemed to dip, as if there was someone else on it with him. All, all painfully, brilliant and there, and Odin wasn’t -

CasCu opened his eye on his own accord, for the first time in what felt like forever.

The light was too bright. They hummed above his head in a slight buzz. There was a side of his vision that was missing - nothing but blackness. Odin had been used to the sensation. CasCu was not. He had to turn his head a painful way to see the screens reading out his vitals, beeping softly with each heartbeat. He was in a hospital. The infirmary ward. And Odin had yet to take control again.

CasCu’s breathing was starting to get faster. His eye burned. He blinked back the sensation, then turned his head again, to look at the other side of the bed, where - Kage lay. He lay there, half curled up, tucked at the very edge of the bed like his typically clingy habits would break CasCu. He looked a mess - shadows under his eyes, hair a tangled snarl, his hand flexing in his sleep. But he was there, so close, so painstakingly close, and CasCu made some sort of choked up noise because the last time he’d seen Kage-

The last time he’d seen Kage, Odin had been holding his staff at Kage’s face, the lightning rune flashing at his tip, and Kage had been looking up with such defiance, something bright and golden glowing at his throat and - pain. He remembered the pain, both Odin and his own. He remembered the body breaking, soul tearing pain of a Spirit Origin being ripped apart, the dagger meant to rupture and rebind bonds of magecraft shoved deep into his breath. He remembered Kage holding it. The desperation and the hope and the pleading that had been so prominent in his gaze.

And CasCu had answered. 

And then there had been nothing, until now, waking up in the infirmary with Kage beside him, his mind blissfully empty of Odin’s overpowering presence.

CasCu made a noise between his teeth, something like a choked off sob. It wasn’t loud - a whistle of breath, a shudder of his body, but it was enough. Kage’s bright eyes snapped open. He stared at CasCu a hazy moment, then swore. CasCu didn’t have time to ask, time to speak, because Kage was there, his arms around him tight, CasCu’s face in his chest, and he’d missed this, like a lung, like more. Being trapped in your head, by a being far too powerful to resist for long, was horribly, painfully, lonely.

CasCu broke. He broke against the feeling of Kage’s hug, the strength in his arms, the face in his hair, being held after so fucking long - he wrapped his arms around Kage and cried, felt Kage hold him even tighter in turn. He didn’t shush him, just held him, and rocked him gently back and forth, face in CasCu’s hair. That in of itself was enough to make him cry harder. Cry until he had nothing left, and his eye was aching from the tears, lungs raw and breath gone, and still Odin didn’t use the moment of weakness to take over again.

And that hit him over the head, made him cry raw even when there was nothing left. Odin was gone. Or at least he sure as hell felt like it. He wouldn’t have stood for this, would never have given CasCu this much free rein , unless he was gone or disposed of or something. His mind was empty where that massive power had sat, empty of his thoughts, his power, his machinations. In a way, it made CasCu feel terribly frail and vulnerable. More, it just made him feel relieved. He was gone.

He was gone.

And CasCu could cry into Kage’s arms and chest without anyone interrupting him. He did so, shaking, broken, his voice sharp and painful between his teeth. He curled his fingers into Kage’s shirt, held him tight, heaving for breath even after the tears had finished rocking him. And Kage held him. He held him, his voice soft, hand moving up and down his back in a rhythmic motion, easy to follow.

“Breathe with me, CasCu,” Kage said, “breathe with me.” 

CasCu breathed.

For the first time in a long time, he breathed breaths of his own accord. In when Kage did, out when Kage did, unsteady at first but slowly syncing up. Kage’s hands were large and warm and comforting, and CasCu could hear the heartbeat beneath his ears, and for all his eye burned, he breathed. And breathed. And breathed.

“I have you,” Kage murmured again. He held CasCu tighter - not tight enough to break him, but tight.

“I know,” CasCu muttered. His voice was ragged, his voice raw, but … he knew. He knew it, he’d seen it, he’d heard it. In every way Kage had refused Odin’s words, from the anger and the confrontations and the horrible prank, to the way he’d been there, during that fight, bringing down that dagger upon him - Kage had him. 

Despite his exhaustion, CasCu felt weepy still.

“Thank you,” he rasped out, his voice quiet, ragged. “Thank you. Thank you -”

Kage shushed him, quiet, holding him even tighter. He didn’t reply, and CasCu didn’t need him too. He clung to him, taking comfort in the tight, returned hold. It was all he could do to keep himself from drowning. Just hold on, and hold on tight, and listen to the rumble in Kage’s voice as he spoke. “You came for me,” he murmured, “it might have taken you forever and a day, and I might have come kicking and screaming, but you still made sure I was Summoned here. Of course, I wasn’t going to leave, you dumbass. I love you.” 

I love you.

CasCu blinked sharply, his vision going fuzzy all over again. Those weren’t words Kage had said often, and certainly not in that voice, all hazy and uncertain and small, quivering with his own tears, and yet strong at the same time. Certain. A little bit vicious, like his hellion typically was, and it broke something in CasCu. If it weren’t for the exhaustion he’d be crying all over again, he just knew it.

“Love you too,” he mumbled, his voice more rasp than not. And he heard Kage’s slight intake of breath, the rasp between the note. He didn’t have to see to know that his hellion was almost crying too. And CasCu … he had no energy to return the favor, no strength to pull away or reverse their position. All he could do was hold on tighter, and feel Kage hold on tighter in turn, rasping quietly into CasCu’s hair.

They lay like that, for a long time. CasCu had no clue what gods were working to keep Nightingale far from him, but he couldn’t put effort into figuring it out. All that mattered was holding on, and holding on tight, dragging in breath after breath and feeling his body settle once more. His own. After so long, his own.

And he couldn’t understand how, or why.

CasCu finally lifted his head. He looked up, and Kage looked down, and gods - his brat looked a wreck. CasCu knew he looked worse. His throat constricted tight upon the words. He hesitated, then shifted, pressing his forehead against Kage’s own. “Odin,” he asked, his voice a rasp, “What happened to?”

Kage didn’t answer immediately. His face twisted up, something between rage and exhaustion, and simply held CasCu tighter. When he spoke, his voice was small. “I don’t know. Fuck, CasCu - he disappeared after I used Rule Breaker. Sherlock might have an idea. All I know is that he’s not in you anymore, and that’s all I fucking care about.”

CasCu didn’t have answer for that. His voice was tangled tight in his throat, relief mixing with a fear that he didn’t want to fucking acknowledge, but couldn ’t ignore. Odin was gone from him. Odin was gone from him - but he had to go somewhere, and if he wasn’t in CasCu, then he was somewhere waiting for his moment to strike. CasCu had been in Odin’s head, felt his thoughts run through him like they were his own. Odin liked to pretend at playing chess, like he was in control of everything, but the minute things fell apart he was more than happy to be vengeful. It had happened to Loki. It had happened to Brynhild. And it could happen here too, to CasCu, to Gudao, to Kage.

CasCu hadn't realized his fingers were tightening in Kage’s shirt, but they were hurting now, the knuckles of his hand creaking. He heard Kage make a soft sound, tucking him closer. One hand fell on his cheek, a gentle, stabilizing touch that made CasCu blink back a sudden, sharp sting of tears. “It will be alright,” he murmured. 

“And if -” he couldn’t get the words out, didn’t want to think them. But he had to, had to get them out, barely forced them between gritted teeth. “And if he comes back for us?” 

“Then I’ll punch him in the face,” Kage retorted, the words so violent and growled that they couldn’t help but drag a laugh from CasCu, sharp and pained. And when it drained away, Kage spoke again, his voice softer. “I won’t let him take you over, CasCu. I won’t let him touch either of us.”

Gods, those words- it made his eye burn, and he pressed his face into Kage’s palm, sucking in a shaking breath. “You can’t promise that.”

“I can,” Kage said, and his voice was so, so painfully soft. He shifted a bit, away from CasCu, to pull something over his head. It hung bright and golden in the infirmary lights. An ankh, written in hieroglyphics, and when CasCu blinked, he could see the hazy aura of dark-golden mana that surrounded it. 

CasCu flinched away from the sight before he thought about it, body reacting to the sight of that aura. Then it was gone, Kage hiding the ankh within his palm, cursing softly between his teeth. “Shit - sorry, fuck - CasCu I didn’t mean -”

CasCu kept his eye tight shut. He sucked in a breath, sharp between his teeth. “It’s fine,” he said, “it’s fine. I just… didn’t expect to see the aura, is all.”

He felt Kage freeze, suddenly stiff on the bed. “You can see it?”

“Yeah,” he let out a breath, tight between his teeth, before sucking in another. It didn’t feel like it helped. There was a sudden rise of sick in the middle of his chest, hot and hard and painful. “I guess Odin left some things behind.”

“Shit,” Kage said. He set his hand down, then reached up to touch CasCu’s cheek with the other one. “It’s - fuck it’s alright, CasCu. We’ll figure it out.”

Figure out what, exactly? Kage wasn’t specific, and CasCu … CasCu couldn’t fucking blame him. What the fuck were they supposed to figure out? That CasCu was - that Odin had left something in him? That he was horribly fragile for flinching at the barest hint of an aura? That just the thought was enough to make him shake, just a tad, into Kage’s hand - he could say nothing about it. So he tucked his face into Kage’s hand, and sucked in a shaky breath , said the words he didn’t fully mean. “I know,” he mumbled, “I know.” 

Kage didn’t push. He just let out a sigh, and pressed his forehead to CasCu’s, thumbing his finger against CasCu’s cheek. “I’m sorry.” 

CasCu sucked in a shaky breath. He pressed his face more into Kage’s touch, and nodded, quietly. “I know,” he mumbled, his voice tight. “I know. So, what did you get me?”

It was too abrupt, a shift too sudden, and he knew Kage had caught on. But he didn’t say anything. He didn’t unball his fist either. He just let out a breath, and murmured, soft. “It’s a protective amulet,” he said, “I had it made to protect me from Odin’s spells - if the bastard is still hanging around, then this should keep him out of you. It’ll keep you safe, I fucking guarantee you that.” 

Gods - even after everything, that almost made CasCu laugh. It was a broken sound that escaped his throat. He reached up, gripped Kage tight. “You should keep on wearing it,” he said, holding on, hard, “just in case he’s sticking around. So he doesn’t go after you.” Because he could still fucking feel it, that rage within Odin’s chest at the last moment, the moment before the knife came down. It was a god’s rage, overwhelming, impossible to control. One that wouldn’t die down easily. 

“I’ll project another copy,” Kage promised, his voice soft. “Trust me, I’m not going to give that fucking bastard a chance to touch me.” 

That vitriol was enough to comfort, at least. CasCu sucked in a sharp breath, before nodding slightly, before he looked up, met Kage’s gaze. “Give me that projection,” he said, his voice tight and small. “If I have to see mana, then I’d rather it be yours.”

Kage’s expression softened. He leaned forwards, brushing his lips against CasCu’s cheek. The touch was so gentle, so soft, that CasCu nearly broke down all over again. He leaned into the kiss with a sigh. Kage lingered there, then pressed another against his other cheek, warm and lingering. “Alright,” he murmured against CasCu’s skin, “alright, I will.”

Kage leaned back, just a touch, and settled the ankh around his head. There was a flash of that dark mana, and then it was gone, tucked and hidden beneath his shirt. CasCu eased with the disappearance of that mana, dark, angry, touched with death. But then Kage held out his hand again, his voice soft as he murmured that familiar chant. “Trace on.” 

And there it was, in his hand, a copy of that ankh and the spell craft on it. There was still an odd sort of aura on it, dark and shadowy - but most of it was the solid metallic gray of Kage’s mana, coating the gold in a silver sheen. He held it out to CasCu, his voice soft. “Is this alright?”

CasCu swallowed hard, before nodding. “It is,” he said, even though the words were thick in his throat. 

“Okay,” Kage said. He took CasCu’s hand in his, poured the amulet into his palm. It felt like an amulet - solid and heavy, cold metal against his skin. CasCu took a breath, long and slow, then brought it up to clip around his neck. The mana burned slightly - not the promise of a threat, not an active defense, just his sensitivity flaring in response to the cold of the spell, so different from expected. The ankh settled on his chest like a weight.

Kage pulled back, just a bit, his hands curling around CasCu’s. “How does that feel?” He asked, his voice soft.

CasCu hesitated a moment, hand reaching up to touch the ankh. “It’s…. protective,” He said, tucking it into his shirt. “Who made it?”

“Nicotris,” Kage said. He made a face, sharp, “you would not believe the shit that I went through trying to get that.” 

“I’d believe it,” CasCu said, with just the barest hint of humor. But he hesitated, on the end of it, voice trailing away. He couldn’t keep it up. His eyes were still burning. He sucked in a soft breath between his teeth. 

“I’ll tell you all about it later,” Kage promised. He wrapped his arms around CasCu, and drew him back down. CasCu didn’t resist. They sagged against the infirmary bed, the pillows, and CasCu curled up against Kage, let out a breath. This was better, eased the sting in his eyes, had his body melting.

“How long do we have?” he murmured, his voice soft, “before people start coming in?”

“However long you need,” Kage mumbled, his voice soft. “Nightingale wants to do an examination, but Gudao’s holding her back. People will come in when you’re ready, not a moment fucking longer.” 

Thank Lugh. CasCu wasn’t prepared for that. He knew, he knew, that they would have the answers he required . But this was better. He required this moment, in Kage’s arms, to hold on and let his mind drift in a safety that wouldn’t be compromised by anything else. 

“Thank you,” he murmured, his voice barely audible, and it was a thanks for everything. For being here, right now, at this moment of vulnerability after awakening. For staying with CasCu, even after Odin had taken control. Fighting against Odin, not giving up, holding on and giving CasCu that chance to hold on too - everything, all of it. “Thank you.”

And Kage held CasCu closer, tucking his face against his hair. “You’re welcome,” he breathed, his voice soft, quiet, far too warm. And then again, even smaller, “I love you.”

And gods, CasCu’s eyes burned for that. He held him tighter, pressed his face against Kage’s neck. “I love you too, a ghra,” he murmured, rasped. “I love you too.”

Kage let out a sharp breath, a shake, and then held CasCu tighter. And for the longest moment, they lay like that. CasCu could let himself zone out, focus only on the touch of their bodies, the realness of this situation. He could feel the amulet pulse gently against his chest, didn’t know if that was a good thing or a bad thing, but he felt it. Better was the sensation of Kage’s arms around him, the face in his hair. Grounding, anchoring, until he no longer felt so fucking fragile, until his breaths felt steadier.

“You can send them in,” he mumbled, quite into Kage’s chest.

“Alright,” Kage said, after a moment. For a second he just lay there, quiet, silent, and then a door opened somewhere else, deep within the infirmary. CasCu took a deep breath, then pushed himself up. Kage helped him, with light touches to shoulder and arm, until they were settled side by side on the bed.

Gudao and Mash were making their way towards his bed rapidly, fast enough that it could almost be considered a run, if they weren’t so careful not to knock into anything. Sherlock trailed after them at a more stately pace. CasCu felt some cold slick of shock to realize he was still missing an arm. It was - well, he’d known that, but it was different to see it with his own eye instead of through Odin’s vision.

He didn’t get much time to consider it, because all of a sudden Gudao was there, his arms flying around CasCu and holding on tight. As hugs went, it wasn’t the largest, nor the strongest. But what it was was solid and warm, joined by Mash’s gentle touch by the shoulders. CasCu blinked hard, then wrapped an arm around Gudao, covered Mash’s hand with his own. 

“I’m alright,” he said, doing his best to keep his voice steady. It was rawer than he’d have liked, still rough with tears.

But they both took it at face value. “That’s good to hear,” Gudao said. He gave CasCu a gentle squeeze, then settled back, sitting on the edge of the bed. “It’s good to have you back,” a smile, small and wavering, “I missed you.”

“We both did,” Mash said. She squeezed his shoulder one more time, then sat on the other side of Gudao.

Well, shit. CasCu blinked again, rapidly, trying to keep the burn out of his eye. Any more crying, and Nightingale was going to kill him for dehydration. He let out a laugh, a little bit raw, a little bit broken. “I missed you both too,” he said, and then, softer, “I’m sorry - I wasn’t … I couldn’t -” he couldn’t finish the words, ended looking away. 

He felt Kage’s hand take his own, soft, though the squeeze he gave him was tight. But his brat stayed quiet, for one reason or another, and CasCu couldn’t help but be thankful. He squeezed Kage’s hand tight back, and blinked, waiting for Gudao’s reply.

“You have nothing to be sorry for,” Gudao said, shaking his head. “If anything, I should be apologizing to you. I feel like, well -” he hesitated, then blew out a large breath. “You wouldn’t have needed to sacrifice yourself to the birds if I had been paying better attention, had been quicker, or -”

“If I had defended him better,” Mash added, her voice softer.

Ach, these two. CasCu blinked, sharp, rapid, and let out a soft sound between his teeth. “This was neither of your two’s fault,” he said, “Odin didn’t get into me because of the birds - that was just his excuse. Don’t you dare blame yourselves for that.” 

Mash hesitated, then dipped her head low. “Hai.” 

Gudao gave him a smile, something almost wry, a bit tight. “As long as you don’t do the same, okay? No one’s blaming anyone here.”

“I,” Kage added, “am blaming no one but that fucking bastard, and if either of you think of blaming yourselves, I’ll start fucking bringing out the glitter. I still have some left over. I will fucking use it, damn it.”

The unexpectedness of Kage’s words - or perhaps the suddenness, as they were so fucking him - made the breath burst from CasCu’s chest in a half laugh. It was startled, swift, and not fully controlled. And then he heard Gudao’s sharp bark of a laugh, Mash’s soft giggle, and it tugged that laughter from him again, quiet and not fully amused, but there and present even if there was a hysterical tilt to it. He let the laughter sap his strength, sagged against Kage’s side, and closed his eyes. 

Let them think the renewed tears were from the laughter. He would be alright with that sort of excuse.

“Anything but that,” Gudao said, finally. He leaned against Mash with a slight grin, but slowly, his expression softened. He turned to face CasCu again. “How are you feeling?”

It had been a question CasCu had been expecting, yet dreading. He let the laughter peter off, sucked in a short breath. Kage wrapped an arm around him, hand rubbing gently against his shoulder, and CasCu closed his eye, drew strength from the touch. “Wrong,” he said, finally, “but in a good way. I’m … empty, but it’s an emptiness that assures me that I’m myself. And I feel …” he hesitated, searching for the word, “Fragile.” 

Gudao and Mash exchanged glances. Then Gudao looked at him, and gave a smile. It didn’t fully reach his eyes. “Well, you certainly look like yourself. Would you like a mirror to see?”

“Yes, please.”

“Sherlock?”

Sherlock hummed once, then stepped forwards. He plucked a small compact mirror from his jacket, and passed it to Gudao, who passed it to CasCu. CasCu took it in his hand, and breathed a moment. Just breathed, before he flicked the lid and opened it up, allowing the light to bounce off the reflective surface, and reveal his face.

A part of CasCu… had gotten used to Odin’s colors on his skin, Odin’s expression on his face. It was a tiny part of himself that CasCu hated. But now - well - he was back. His eye was red again, for all the other one was scarred beyond repair. His hair was no longer so palely silver - instead it was it’s proper shade of pale blue, no matter what smart mouthed brats had to say about it. His clothes had changed too. They were his again, his colors and his design, his hood lined with soft white fur instead of bristling raven’s feathers. His earrings were back on his ears, where they were supposed to be.

CasCu sucked in a sharp breath between his teeth, then closed the compact disk. His eyes burned. He blinked sharply to clear them, then gave Gudao, Sherlock, and Mash a small smile. “I’m myself again,” he said.

“You are,” Mash agreed. 

“And we’re all glad for it,” Gudao said. He gave a smile, gentle. “And this time, we’re going to do better. We’re going to make sure this won’t happen again.”

“It’d be appreciated,” CasCu said, trying to smile in turn. It felt a bit too watery. Kage’s hand found his, and gave a sharp squeeze. CasCu squeezed tight back.

Gudao looked like he was going to say something else. Sherlock spoke before he could, standing there all neat and prim, just a touch distant from them. “I believe,” he said, “it would calm CasCu’s mind to know his current situation? It is one thing to offer promises, but another to offer evidence. And CasCu’s new situation should be enough to keep him safe.”

That made CasCu blink. “My new situation?” he asked, voice tighter. He didn’t like the sound of that. New situations had done nothing but hurt him recently.

Gudao let out a breath. “Well … yeah, new situation. One is that you have to stay in the infirmary for the next few days. You’re in an extremely fragile existence right now, and we did… we did more damage than we wanted to, when attempting to subdue Odin. Sorry.”

“It’s fine,” CasCu said, numbly. He could still feel it, the pain of his injuries, ghost like and lingering. But it was worth it, and he wouldn’t be upset at that. He could still feel Odin’s cold thoughts when it came to them. He’d been prepared to wipe out everyone in that room, then completely rewrite Gudao and Mash’s memories. From there, he would puppet them around, find the rest that knew, and take those memories too. Cutting off CasCu’s ties, one by one, cold and economical, with such certainty that no one would be able to stand up to it.

Just thinking back to that thought made CasCu feel a touch sick. He swallowed, then glanced at Gudao. “So, what’s the news of this new situation?”

Gudao gave a little laugh, then glanced at Mash. She leaned against him, gentle, and Gudao sighed, turned to face CasCu in full. “When… when we managed to get a read on your Spirit Origin, we found out that there was - there was only 20% of you left, compared to … compared to Odin. A heroic Spirit can’t survive with only 20% of a Spirit Origin. So we needed something to act as your anchor. Kage - wanted to take care of that. Quite frankly, I’m still not sure how you managed.”

Kage gave a little bit of a soft laugh, tight and hard. He leaned against CasCu’s side, and when CasCu looked at him, held out his palm. In a flash, there was a dagger there. The blade a zigzag thing, the hilt dark, purple, and glowing. Just looking at it made CasCu feel slightly sick. “Rule Breaker,” Kage said, “Medea’s Noble Phantasm. It breaks and reforges magecraft bonds - I’ve seen her steal other Servants using it before. So I … stole you from Odin, and bound you to my own Spirit Origin.”

Kage was acting as his anchor. CasCu blinked at that, his eyes hot and burning. He leaned forwards, pressed his forehead against Kage’s, fingers tangling together tighter. “Thank you, a ghra,” he said, his voice soft and tight.

“You’re welcome,” Kage let his dagger disappear, then reached up, cupping the back of CasCu’s head, fingers curling through the strands of his hair. “I’m not sure how long this will last, if it’s just this Summoning or for longer, but we’re bound now.”

“And while you are,” Sherlock added, his voice bland, “Odin will not be able to interfere with you. For now, you two are like Rouyma and Oryo - CasCu, you are essentially acting as a familiar Kage has summoned. Like your bond to Odin was cut, so was your bond to Gudao. You are Kage’s Servant.”

Gods that - CasCu could barely wrap his head around the idea. “Better not use those Command Seals for anything horrible, hellion,” he said.

“I would never,” Kage promised, giving him a fractured smile.

CasCu gave a smile back, then pulled away from him, turned back to Gudao. “And you’re alright with that?”

“I am,” Gudao said, giving him a grin. “Better to have you here, be it as my Servant or as someone else’s.” 

“Though we will have to conduct some tests,” Mash added, her voice just a touch apologetic, “to see if you two still have your old skills, or if they have combined in some way. And…” she hesitated, then dipped her head, “I’m sorry, CasCu, but we should use the Spirit Origin Scanner on you again, just to check that there are no residuals of Odin within you. That should be able to detect them, once we have a complete scan.”

CasCu froze, brief, before relaxing against Kage and nodding. “I’d be glad for that,” he said, hesitating once, before pushing forwards. He had to know. “But … mind telling me what happened to Odin?” Because if CasCu had only been 20% of his own fucking Spirit Origin, then Odin, who had been 80%, had enough of the Spirit Origin to survive the split.

“Well, it’s simple,” Sherlock said, like it should be obvious. “Odin is a Divine Spirit. He could not stay Summoned without the use of a host or an anchor of his own. Without you acting as that anchor, he disappeared.” 

Oh. That… felt far too easy. CasCu let out a sound between his teeth, slight. “You’re joking,” he said, tight.

“Nope,” Gudao said, shaking his head. “Gran Cavallo is working with Sion to scan through the Wandering Sea to see if he found another anchor, but the chance of that is extremely low. Low enough that they’re predicting he’s not here anymore. He just… couldn’t survive without you, CasCu.” 

Gods, that was - that was so fucking ridiculous. CasCu made another noise, this burbling, slightly hysteric laugh that rose from his chest, hiccuping and high. Odin had disappeared when CasCu had been separated from him. For all the bastards proclamations, the belief he’d held so deep that CasCu could still feel it in the depths of his mind - just like CasCu wouldn’t have been able to survive without him, Odin hadn’t been able to survive without CasCu.

The laughter broke from him. He sagged against Kage’s side as the hysteria took over, making his body shake with twisted amusement. He couldn’t believe it. It was just fucking - like his luck. It was just fucking karma, at that point, such a stupid concept that so much of what Odin had said was a lie. He’d needed CasCu in the same way CasCu had needed Odin. If Odin had been different, if he’d been less prideful, less of a fucking jerk, then perhaps they could have worked together, learned to be a unit instead of whatever the fuck Odin had tried. But no. At that point Odin had fucking gotten himself killed -

CasCu didn’t realize he was crying, again, until Kage’s arms wrapped around him, tugged him close. He felt Gudao’s hand on his shoulder, Mash’s fingers capturing his own. They held him there, as he came down from the hysteria and tears, until CasCu was finally fucking able to speak. 

“Of course he did,” he rasped out, voice rough. “Of course he did.”

“Fucking deserved,” Kage agreed. He held CasCu a little tighter, and CasCu breathed into the hold.

“It was,” Gudao said, his voice softer. “I know that I’m not supposed to be biased against Servants but that - asshole will have to do a lot, if he ever wants to be welcomed into Chaldea proper.” 

That got a laugh out of CasCu, a bit broken, but real. Gods, it spoke to a lot, that Gudao wasn’t happy about the potentiality of Odin being a summoned. And there was that potential now. Odin had been registered as a Spirit Origin. He could appear, in that Summoning Circle, and the thought of it made CasCu feel a bit sick.

“Anyway,” Gudao said, a bit quieter, his voice a bit softer. “Odin is no longer a problem - and if he does appear in that Circle, we’ll have a plan ready. And we’ll keep him from you, got that?” He gave a smile, slight. “By now, I have practice in keeping Servants away from each other. And I can certainly do that long enough to give you time to recover.” 

Time to recover.

Time to recover, like this would be so simple to recover from. CasCu still kept on being surprised by the realness of sensation, the touch, and scrape of Kage’s skin against his own, the hum of the mana between them, a newly forged bond created by that copied Noble Phantasm. He still kept on feeling sick and weepy in turns, shocked and glad and - gods, he didn’t think this was something someone could recover from. Not easily. Not quickly.

But it was something understood, by the people here. Kage gripped his hand tight, bumped their foreheads together. “We’ll help out with it,” he murmured, his voice oh so soft, just a breath between them. “Got it?”

CasCu leaned against him, closed his eyes. “I know.” 

“And so will we,” Gudao added, “however you want to. If you’d like, I can ask around and see if I can find a Servant willing to act as a therapist. Chiron’s done the work before. He might be a good match if you’d like.” 

CasCu let out a breath, soft between his teeth. “I’ll think about it.” 

“Your damn other selves will help too, I’m sure,” Kage said, a grumble in his voice. “Fuckers are probably going to trip ass over teakettle in an attempt to make up for falling for Odin’s fucking lies-”

“That wasn’t -” CasCu bit himself off, squeezes his eyes shut. He could still feel it. His lips shaping the words he would have chosen if the situation were true, saying those words in that voice. He could still see it. The desperate hope and wish in Proto’s eyes, the quiet watchful gaze of Alter, the uncertain but wanting one in Cu’s. “Don’t blame them,” he said, his voice a touch smaller, “That wasn’t their fault.” 

Kage hesitated, brief, then sighed and leaned harder against ’s CasCu. “I know,” he mumbled, something half grumble. “But they’re still going to do what they can to help out. That’s the fucking point. You’re going to have people here. You’re going to have help to heal, even if it takes forever. Because gods knows it’s a slow fucking process. Gods know it never really stops. Just look at me CasCu. You’re not alone in this, and we’ll figure it out. Together.”

The last part was meant for CasCu, and CasCu only. He felt the warm words within his mind, the promise in Kage’s voice. He turned to look, and Kage looked back, and CasCu just took a moment to look at him. His brilliant, brave, foolhardy brat, with his eyes of gold and blackened sclera , his curse pulsing slowly up his cheek and down his neck. It was probably whispering to him right now, doing it’s best to encourage violence, encourage death, encourage that peace that wasn’t really a peace. 

Kage knew what it was like to be taken over. He knew, what it was like to have something else calling the shots, to be guided along a path by something greater. What it was like to be powerless. What it was like to be weak. And he knew just how hard it was to come back from that, and just how long healing tended to take. 

“Thank you,” CasCu murmured, pressing a kiss against his lips, warm and feather-light .

“You’re welcome,” Kage murmured back, a soft rush of breath against skin, real, warm, and solid. There.

It was a touch they lingered in, one CasCu drew strength from, small and fragile as that strength felt right now. The others were kind enough to give them a few moments. Then Gudao coughed, once into his hand. “Is there anything else you’d like to know about, CasCu?” 

“There is,” CasCu said. He pulled back, and met Kage’s eyes. “Odin was -” breathe, pause “- Odin was convinced that Loki was in you, or that you were something Loki had created, or - well … he believed you to be Loki, in some aspect, way, or form. Has that - has that been checked out yet? Or - stopped?” 

Because he didn’t want Kage to go through the same thing he did. Didn’t want him to be forced to go through that horrible experience of being imprisoned in one’s own body, trapped and unable to do anything but watch as an imposter tried to remake his life. CasCu couldn’t fucking stand the thought of Kage going through something like that again.

But Gudao grinned, sharp. “Already investigated,” he said.

“I’m Loki free,” Kage said, twining his fingers with CasCu’s and giving a wry smile. “Nothing but a single dagger to his name - and I haven’t even checked if I still have that dagger now. Trust me, I’m not fucking happy about that much … but it helped me save you, so I’m not going to get too angry about it. This time.” 

“This time?” CasCu asked. 

“If the fucker shows his face,” Kage said, “I’m punching it. Same goes for Odin. Only I’m punching his face with more than my fucking fist.”

It was so ridiculous, so relieving, so Kage that CasCu couldn’t help but laugh a little bit. He leaned forwards, resting his forehead against Kage’s shoulder, fingers tightening on his own. A smile lingered on his lips, fragile, but warm. “Then I have no more questions,” he said, his voice soft.

“Great,” Gudao said. “Because I’m not sure how much longer I can hold Nightingale back.” 

Ah, yes. CasCu squeezed his eyes shut, then let out a long sigh. “I guess I just have to deal with her.” 

“Good,” Gudao said, his voice bright, almost chipper, “because I really hope we didn’t do any permanent damage to you! Martha wants to apologize to you later, by the way.”

CasCu winced. Oh yes, he’d felt that, the bright stinging pain of a nose broken, a face bashed in repeatedly. “My nose better not have healed in crooked,” he muttered quietly to Kage. “I like my nose. I like looking like me.”

“Don’t worry, artifact,” Kage said, pressing a kiss against his forehead, “You look more like yourself than you have in a long fucking time.”

“Good,” CasCu said, soaking in the words. It felt like it had been far, far too fucking long since he’d been called artifact. “Stay with me while she works?” 

“Of course,” Kage murmured, holding onto his hand tighter. “Wouldn’t move for the fucking world.”

“Good,” CasCu breathed. He leaned against Kage, and leaned against him hard, settling his head against his shoulder. “Good.”

 

Nightingale’s exam was as exhausting as CasCu expected it to be. Gudao, Mash, and Sherlock were not allowed to stay. She practically had to chase Gudao and Mash out. Sherlock had needed no convincing - he’d been gone almost as soon as Nightingale appeared. No doubt the missing am was a trigger that blew every time she saw it. But that meant the force of her attention fell solely on CasCu and Kage, and once she’d been assured that Kage would only be staying, CasCu.

Her main focus was his mental state. Gods know she didn’t need to do much to help heal what remained of his outside wounds. A mention of lingering pain, the briefest wince, and then she was rushing to take care of those hurts until he no longer felt them. Once that was done, she started examining him in more depth. Using the light to gauge his eyes. Testing his ears. Having him stand and looking at his balance. Small exercises to gauge strength and reflexes. 

It was those tests that scared him the fucking most. His balance was off - and it was more than the missing eye, and having to remember his blind spot , adjust and account for objects he might not see. It was as if his whole body was subtly off. Like in some way, he’d forgotten to move the whole thing in smooth, continuous motions, without Odin pulling the strings. 

And it was more than his balance. It was his reflexes - too slow. It was the way he reacted, a moments pause after everything. He was back in his body. He could sense everything he should, think everything he needed to, do everything he wanted - but the smooth connections between mind and body had been disrupted, and hadn’t fully fucking reconnected. 

CasCu did his best not to let that terrify him, let the fear that they would never really connect cloud his actions and thoughts. But whenever he glanced to Nightingale, she was watching him with that far too intent look, scribbling away in a notepad. He wasn’t sure her silence was better than her usual rat-tat-tat speech, or worse.

To top it all off, his energy when he’d woken up hadn’t been the greatest. The tears, the conversations - all of it had worn him out. So when Nightingale returned him to the cot, where Kage still waited, CasCu sagged against him, forehead pressed against his shoulder.

“Shit - what the fuck happened?” 

If Nightingale was bothered by the sharpness in his voice, she didn’t show it. CasCu turned his head to watch her watch them, those eyes bright and glowing, swirling with such familiar madness. “His body is readjusting and relearning itself,” she said, “he will need time to rest. Depending on how long he takes to adjust, physical therapy might be recommended. Until then, the best thing he can do to heal is sleep. If you do not allow him to do so, I will remove you from the premises.” 

CasCu felt Kage stiffen beneath him. He fumbled a moment, grabbed his hand and squeezed. “It’s alright,” he murmured, soft.

Kage made a noise between his teeth, like a short, sharp whistle. “Fine,” he said. “Fine. He’ll sleep tonight.” 

“Good,” Nightingale said. Her posture seemed to ease, no longer spoke of such threat. “Then I will see you in the morning.”

“Yeah … goodnight, Nightingale.”

“Hai.” 

As good nights went, Kage’s wasn’t the most gracious. But it served well enough for Nightingale. She left, and CasCu leaned harder against Kage with a sigh. Kage seemed to understand. He lowered them down again, until they were lying once more upon the bed. A few wiggles, a few movements, and then they were tucked under the covers, warm and cocooned, safe from the world.

“How’d it go?” Kage asked, his voice soft.

“Not as well as I would have liked,” CasCu said. He sucked in a breath between his teeth, tight, then forced it out. Kept on breathing like that, slow and steady, an effort to keep himself calm. “Gudao’s right. I’m going to have to be here for a couple of days at least, maybe a little bit more. My body… it’s not responding how it should.”

“Shit,” Kage breathed. His hand rubbed up CasCu’s shoulder, then down it. “That fucking - it’s the worst when that happens.”

That got a laugh out of CasCu, tight and small. “You can say that again.”

“That’s the absolute fucking worst when that happens,” Kage repeated, giving the tiniest of grins back, though it fell soon after. “Trust me, I know.”

CasCu’s own laugh fell away. He curled his fingers into the fabric of Kage’s shirt, thumbing over the silver piping. Still in the armor the grail had gifted him, blackened and burnt, even the silver with its grayish sheen. “Yeah,” he breathed, “I know.” He took a moment, swallowed, then said. “But Nightingale thinks it’s something I should be able to recover, given time. I mean, you heard her. I just need … a lot of rest.”

“And how the fuck are you feeling about that?” Kage asked, too soft.

Like falling asleep would give Odin a window back in, an opportunity. Like waking up would mean waking up to find that he was no longer in control of his own body. That he would be forced to walk and talk and move and act like himself without being himself, and this time no one would notice. No one would find out until it was far too late to save him.

“Like shit,” CasCu summarized, quiet.

Kage nodded. His hand lifted, settled on CasCu’s cheek, thumbed over the arch of it. “Well, fuck Nightingale,” he murmured, “We’re Servants. We don’t have to go to sleep if we don’t want to - one night isn’t going to fucking kill us. I’ll ask Nobunaga to bring us a book, and we can fucking read together, or just sit here in silence, or some shit. Whatever you want to do. What do you say, artifact?”

CasCu blinked hard. His eyes burned. He curled his fingers tighter into Kage’s shirt… and then forced himself to release them. “I just… want to stay like this, for a bit,” he said. “Let me hold you?”

“Of course,” Kage breathed. He enfolded CasCu in his arms again, and CasCu did the same, wrapping his arms tight around Kage’s back and tucking his face into his shoulder, neck. Kage wasn’t much taller than him, but like this it certainly felt like there was a height difference, only made greater by the fact that Kage shifted to place his head on top of CasCu’s, chin in his hair. It made him smaller, sheltered, protected, and gods - so much of him needed that right now that he couldn’t help but sink in.

And for the longest time, they lay there. CasCu let his one eye close until it was a half circle, lashes brushing against the fabric of Kage’s shoulder. He felt Kage’s fingers curl within his hair, playing gently with the strands. Slowly, the rest of the world begin to fade out. It was just them, breathing in sync, together once more.

Despite himself - the fear, the worry, the slick understanding that he would have no chance if Odin was still there and waiting - the exhaustion caught up with him. And just before his eyes slipped shut fully, and sleep closed his vision with warm, dark fingers, he felt the brush of mana against his skin, the settling of a pendant against his chest - familiar. A projected replica of the talisman Medea had given him, so long ago, to ward off nightmares. 

A smile curled across his lips. And there, sheltered by his hellion , protected twice over by projected talismans, CasCu slid into sleep.

Notes:

He's BACK! CasCu is Back for good!! Now... now it's healing time pff

Chapter 25: Chapter 25

Summary:

New year new you!

Notes:

Hey everyone! Thank you all so much for your comments and kudos! I hope you enjoy, and have a happy new year!

Chapter Text

CasCu woke with the same sensation one does from a dream: confused, muddled, and disorientated. And for a horrible, heart stopping moment, he couldn’t feel himself. It was like he was swaddled in darkness, the sensations of his body kept away by a thick layer of fabric. His breath quickened. His stomach clenched - and then that fabric was dragged away, and all at once CasCu was thrown back into his own body, forced to feel it all in one devastating crash of overwhelming sensation.

The blankets above him and the bed beneath him. The soft beeping of the monitors, the rhythm of Kage’s breath. Lights, burning bright above his head. An arm solid around his middle, fingers tucked into his hair. A body curled a bit around him, as if it could protect him from all the horrors of the world. And two necklaces hanging against his chest, their mana pulsing gently against his skin.

If he opened his eye, just a crack, he could see the twin auras around them. The aura of the protection amulet was dark with cursed energy - Nicotris’ signature. Medea’s amulet was purple as well, but bright with white and gold, that glimmering trace of divinity that marked her magecraft as coming from the Age of the Gods from one with a trace of Divine blood.

The sight of both made his stomach clench, sick.

CasCu dragged his gaze up, to Kage’s sleeping face. That was a sight much better, easier to take in than the vestiges of his Magic Eye. Like always, Kage was softer, in his sleep. All the anger and brashness fallen away into something relaxed and warm. His lips were slightly parted, his eyelashes swept over his cheeks. Strands of his white hair fell in gentle tangles over his brow, casting shadows on his skin.

CasCu made a soft noise between his teeth. Tangled hair. Of course, it was. His hellion never learned.

He shifted, pushing himself slightly up so he could lean on one arm. Like yesterday, all his movements felt slightly too slow, as if there was a barrier between his mind and his muscles. It made his throat lock up. He tried to ignore it. Instead, he focused on sliding his hand through Kage’s hair, fingers working at the tangles that had clustered within the strands. There weren’t as many as he had feared - which showed that his hellion had been taking care of himself, thank Lugh - but there was still more than CasCu liked.

Kage’s body eased with the touch. He made a soft sound between his teeth, then tucked his face into CasCu’s side, near rolling into the motion. CasCu wondered when the last time his hellion had slept properly was … probably too long ago, knowing him. Workaholic tendencies. Hated sleeping without another there. CasCu knew him too fucking well to imagine he’d been sleeping much through this shit show.

So he stayed there, stroking his hand through Kage’s hair even after the tangles were all gone. It just felt … good. Damned good, to finally do something of his own accord, something soft and gentle and warm. Odin had -

He’d not been any of that.

CasCu made a sharp sound between his teeth, and swallowed the urge to cry. It was over. He wouldn’t have to feel that bastard’s thoughts in his mind, the sharp jaggedness of them, cutting and painful, with a cold distance and almost cruelty that CasCu never wanted to think about again.

It was better to focus on Kage, in this moment. Focus on his brilliant, stubborn a ghra, who hadn’t given up, who hadn’t let himself be scared away. Who’d waited and plotted and then pulled CasCu out of the goddamned bastard. Who’d offered that hand he could grab onto, in that moment of need.

“I love you,” he murmured, even if Kage couldn’t hear it. But CasCu … CasCu did. He needed to hear those words in the air, the rustle of his voice, and know that they were completely his own, derived from feelings that were his own. He smiled, murmured again, “I love you.”

Kage made a soft noise, and nuzzled into CasCu’s side again. Something in CasCu broke. He blinked hard, breathing through his nose, fingers curling more solidly through Kage’s hair. Gods - he never thought he’d get to feel this again, see the sight of a sleepy, befuddled, clinging Kage, and get to murmur the words and know - know that Kage would feel them, would return them, even if he never said them aloud.

But he had, this time. He had, and CasCu wanted to hold onto him so close, and never ever fucking let go again.

Footsteps, however, made him look up. Nightingale stood there, her eyes swirling with her typical madness, but there was something… frank in the way she was looking at him. Evaluating. “You are awake,” she said.

“I am,” CasCu returned.

“Good,” she said. “You have visitors - your other selves. Since you are awake, I will let them in one at a time - the minute they get rowdy, however, your visiting hours will be over, and I will kick them out. After you and they are done, then we will repeat yesterday's tests, and see if the disconnect has lessened . Do not argue.”

His other selves. CasCu blinked at that, sharp, before he lets out a breath between his teeth. His other selves … fucking hell. Gods. He wasn’t expecting this - more fool on him. Of course, they would be here, as soon as they could. But CasCu could still see them, with Odin parading him around, using his voice and his mannerisms. The blatant hope and worry on Proto’s face. Alter’s cold, blank, stare as he wrote runes along his stomach. The way Cu had looked at him, as if scared of saying anything, of deciding one thing over another.

Odin had played them. Just as he had played everyone else in Chaldea. Just as he had tried to play Kage. 

“Can -” CasCu took a moment, swallowed, “Can I choose who comes in first?” 

Nightingale paused, briefly. She stared at him for the longest moment, before she gave a nod. “Very well.”

She was being nice today. Or maybe there was something in her Madness Encouraging this softness - perhaps something telling her it would be best for a healing mind. CasCu didn’t know, and he didn’t care. He just let out a breath, and leaned a bit against the headboard of the bed. “I would like to talk to Alter first,” he mumbled, “and - and don’t tell them I chose who to talk to first, please.”

A long moment, too long. Nightingale’s expression was unreadable. Then she nodded, slight. “Very well. I will be back momentarily.” 

Then she was gone, her shoes clipping across the floor in her typical military pace. CasCu sagged against the bed, sinking his fingers back into Kage’s hair. He should probably wake him for this. But Kage looked… he looked so tired, so relaxed, that CasCu couldn’t bring himself to do so. Kage had done so much already. He could rest right now … CasCu was capable of facing his other selves.

Nightingale was quick to be back. Behind her trailed Alter, an imposing shadow almost two heads taller than her, his tail rasping back and forth against the floor. Alter was always good at hiding his emotions, but CasCu knew the movement of that tail, the agitation that must have caused it. He smiled, faint. “Hey there, big guy.”

Alter grunted in response. He walked around Nightingale to take a seat by CasCu’s bead. Alter had his hood up; his eyes glowed in the shadow it cast. “You’re yourself?”

Gods - that was Alter, blunt and to the point, asking the questions that CasCu least wanted to hear but were always the most important. He sagged a bit, curling his arm around Kage. “I am,” he said, his voice soft. “Or at least I think so. And everyone’s been assuring me that I’m myself - and I really want to believe them.”

A sound between his teeth, sharp, and considering. Alter leaned forwards, close to where CasCu sat and Kage lay, and breathed in sharply. He pulled back just as quick. “Smell like yourself.” 

CasCu blinked. “I what now?” he asked, just a touch incredulously.

“Smell like yourself,” Alter said. His tail rasped against the floor again.

It was such a ridiculous statement that CasCu almost laughed. He sank more against Kage, fingers running over his shoulder in small circles. “And how,” he asked, lips twitching slightly, “do I smell?”

Alter shrugged loosely. “Like sunlight. Plants and growing things. Earth. Odin didn’t smell like you. He smelled more of metal, of blood.”

Oh. 

CasCu blinked briefly, then again, sharper. He wasn’t sure why that made his eyes burn, threaten to water up. But it was like - well … Alter was capable of telling the difference by smelling the Odin on him. And he didn’t know . It was so ridiculous it was almost sad, and CasCu had to manage a few more breaths before he spoke. “You never believed him, did you?”

“He could act all the right ways, say all the right things, but he couldn’t change his scent,” Alter said, with another shrug. “That was enough.”

Of course, it was, for Alter. Of course, it was, and CasCu made a soft noise between his teeth. He had to breathe, wrestle those breaths in and out, to keep his composure. Alter’s tail swept around to brush briefly against his arm. CasCu blinked again, swallowed hard. “Thank you.” 

“Welcome,” Alter grunted.

For a moment, they sat there in silence, Alter’s tail close enough to offer that comforting presence. CasCu took a few moments to control himself, breathing quietly, before he glanced at Alter. Really looked at him. He felt his eye burn, his vision jump - but there was nothing on Alter’s skin, his stomach, and chest, where CasCu remembered Odin writing those runes.

“The runes,” he said, “Did you get them removed?” 

“No,” Alter said, tapping his tail against CasCu’s hand. “They disappeared when he did. Why? Know what they did?”

“Yeah,” CasCu let out a sharper sound between his teeth, rubbing his hand over his face. Gods - just get it out. “Sleeper runes, you could say. The second clause would have activated if you ever tried to fight him. It’d have… made you unable to fight.” 

“In polite terms,” Alter said.

“Yeah, in polite terms,” CasCu said, sighing.

“Mm,” Alter considered him for a moment, tail rasping against the floor again, before he spoke. “And you’re… alright?”

Was he alright? CasCu almost laughed again. Worse, that his instinct was to say yes, to toss it all away and take this offer, pretend that he was. But just the thought of lying was enough to have him shaking again. Odin had spewed enough lies from his lips, especially towards his other selves. CasCu … CasCu couldn’t do the same.

“Fuck,” he breathed, closing his eyes, “Fuck no, Alter, I’m not … I’m not alright. I might not be alright for a long time.”

Alter made a soft noise between his teeth, considering, before his tail tapped against CasCu’s hand, then settled there. “We’ll be here for you,” he said, “me and the others. Couldn’t do much before, but we can now.”

“That -” CasCu gave up, and closed his eyes. He nodded once, hands flexing on nothing. Alter seemed to get the message. He scooted the chair closer, and then set his large, clawed hand on CasCu’s shoulder. It had been so long since he’d felt the touch of one of his other selves - he had to choke back a breath. Just fought, for a few moments, to regain his composure, before he spoke again, “How are the others taking it?”

“Not well,” Alter scoffed. “Proto’s fit to bursting. He hates that he believed Odin - hasn’t stopped fucking kicking himself over it. Cu’s better. He didn’t believe Odin - he just wishes he’d done something more during it.”

“Not that there was much he could have done,” CasCu said, his voice quieter, softer. Gods… he hated him. Hated Odin, for doing this to him, for doing this to his other selves. His hands shook, slightly, and he buried them in the blankets, doing his best not to squeeze Kage’s shoulder too hard. “Can you send Proto in next? It sounds like he’ll need to talk to me.”

Alter scoffed, sharp. “Trying to take care of us already? Breathe, CasCu. We’ve got you, and we’ve got him.”

“I know,” CasCu said, “I just - please, Alter.”

A pause, brief. Alter seemed to consider him for a long, long moment. Then he nodded, and stood. “Alright.”

“Take care of him after we talk, alright?”

“No shit,” Alter snorted predictably, and CasCu couldn’t help but grin, brief.

Alter left, escorted out by Nightingale. CasCu sighed and leaned back against the headboard. Against his side, Kage shifted. He looked down, to see the curl of hair, the slight scrunch of a face. His heart softened. He reached down to run his fingers through Kage’s hair again, “Hey hellion,” he murmured, “you awake now?” 

“Been that way for a fucking while,” Kage grumbled. He shifted, then looked up at CasCu. There was still exhaustion in the lines of his face - but he looked better than yesterday. “Want me to give you some space?”

CasCu hesitated. The answer on his lips, his tongue, begging to speak was ‘no’. He didn’t want Kage to go. Didn’t want to lose the warmth and weight of him by his side. But with Proto coming in - well … CasCu sighed. “Probably for the best,” he said, crooning softly to him. “Will you come back afterward ?”

“As soon as you’re done with your other selves,” Kage promised. He pushed himself up, pressed his lips gently against CasCu’s own. “You’re doing good, artifact.”

“Appreciate it, hellion,” CasCu thought back to him, pressed forwards and lingering in that kiss. It was good, the warmth of him, the solidity even in that featherlight touch. CasCu had a moment or two to just linger, soak it in and allow the sensation to ingrain itself back into his body, before Nightingale’s footsteps sounded again, and the touch against his lips disappeared. When CasCu opened his eyes, Kage was gone.

But Nightingale was approaching, with Proto beside her. CasCu adjusted his pillows, leaned back, and waited. Proto looked… like a wreck. His face was pale and blotchy, eyes rimmed with red as if he’d been holding back tears. His hair wasn’t a rat’s nest, but CasCu doubted it was from his own efforts. That looked like Fuuma’s handiwork to him. Proto didn’t look like he was in shape enough to care for himself.

But oh, did Proto freeze when he saw him. His eyes went wide. CasCu saw him blink hard, fists curling up tight against his sides. 

“Hey there,” CasCu said, his voice soft. It was odd. Through this whole thing he’d felt like he was hanging on by threads, but the sight of Proto in such rough shape was just enough for him to start acting like he needed to. Like himself again. He gave a smile, careful. “How are you doing there?”

Proto made a noise between his teeth, and bolted toward him. CasCu had no time to react. His reflexes had never been quick enough to catch Proto without his runes, and that went double with the disconnect between body and mind that lingered. All he had time to do was blink, and then Proto’s arms were around his waist, his face pressed against CasCu’s shoulder, tears hot against his clothes. 

CasCu wrapped his arms around him, tight. “Hey there,” he breathed, quiet, “it’s alright. I’m alright.” 

“I’m sorry,” Proto said, the words a whisper. There was a choking noise tight between his teeth, and he griped CasCu till his ribs ache. “I’m sorry, CasCu. I’m so fucking sorry -”

Oh, Lugh …

CasCu softened. He pressed his face against Proto’s hair, and held him, rocking just a tad. Had believed Odin, Alter had said. Well, this seemed more than kicking himself over it to CasCu. Gods, Proto was a wreck, and - shit, he could figure out how he felt about that later. Right now, he just held onto him. Held on to him, and rocked him, and murmured, “It’s alright. I’m alright, Proto. I’m alright. It’s alright.”

“It’s not alright!”

The volume of Proto’s voice near startled him, shouted into his shoulder, reverberating through the fabric of his cloak. It was followed by a sob, rough and hard, another squeeze of Proto’s shaking arms.

“It’s not alright,” Proto said, quieter, his voice just a shadow of its former self, “I wasn’t there for you, I didn’t believe in you, I was just so, so fucking stupid -”

“Hey,” CasCu said. He gave Proto a rock, cut him off before he could spiral. “You weren’t stupid. You’re not stupid, Proto.”

“But I believed him,” Proto said, and the words were a ragged gasp. Then again, softer, “I wanted to believe him.”

CasCu had no words for that. He settled back a bit, and held Proto, tight against his chest, face against his shoulder. He continued rocking him, side to side, his fingers curled in Proto’s hair, doing his best to offer a comfort he knew Proto needed, but wasn’t fully sure that Proto wanted. Gods, CasCu didn’t know what to say. Because -

Well, Proto had believed Odin. He’d wanted to believe Odin. And that… it did hurt. Gods, CasCu wouldn’t say it aloud, but it did hurt, that Proto had allowed Odin to deceive him, had trusted and wanted so much that he’d become blind to the truth. But at the same time … he knew it wasn’t his fault. Gods, he’d sat in the back of his mind, banging on his mental bars, watching as Odin plucked memories and words and wove them into a fabric that people even those that knew CasCu well would believe …

CasCu had no illusions. If Odin had realized how much care the people who loved CasCu had for him, then Odin would have pretended from the beginning. He’d have played the part in a way that meant no one would have believed anything was different. Not Proto, not Cu, not Alter. Not even Kage, if Odin could have ignored whatever small pieces of Loki rested within the hellion’s Spirit Origin. It would have been a seamless take-over , and CasCu would have been trapped forever in his own mind, until even he started to wonder at his own existence.

So yes, it hurt. It hurt that Proto had believed Odin, had fallen into that delusion. But CasCu could not hold it against him - and certainly not as much as Proto was currently holding it against himself.

CasCu readjusted him, slightly, shifting his hand so he could stroke over Proto’s head, offer that extra little bit of comfort. “It’s not your fault,” he murmured, quiet, a promise he hoped Proto was willing to believe. 

Proto shook harder in his grip. “No one else believed him! It was just -” A broken sound, another sob - “It was just me.” 

CasCu’s heart broke a little, hearing Proto’s cries. They’d only gotten louder, were strong enough to shake his body like it had been caught up in some storm. CasCu held Proto tighter, and curled his fingers through his hair, rocking back and forth oh so gently, doing his best to comfort, assure. He crooned, soft and slow and gentle, and hoped it helped. He wasn’t sure what he could say, if there were even words that could be said. So he just held on. Held on, until Proto’s tears finally ran out, and he let out wretched, pathetic sounding, dry sobs into the soaked fabric of CasCu’s cloak.

“Proto,” CasCu murmured, his voice soft. “Follow my voice, alright? In … and out. In … and out. In … and out.” He breathed in, on each in, paused, and then let out the breath in a slow rush. On each word, with each breath, he rubbed Proto’s back, up and down, up and down, up … and down. 

Eventually, Proto started following along. He started breathing, in and out, in and out, along with CasCu. It wasn’t an easy process. It couldn’t beat the level of CasCu’s breakdown the day before, but it was close, and even after they had managed to reach equilibrium, CasCu didn’t let go, and Proto lay limp against him.

CasCu sighed, and rested his head against Proto’s hair. “It’s not your fault,” he said, his voice soft, quiet. “I know you feel like it is - but it’s not your fault. There were plenty who believed Odin’s tale. All that happened was he decided to put a little more effort into deceiving you, and Proto - gods, if our roles were reversed, I’m not sure if I would have spotted it either. He said all the right things to you. All the things I would have said, all the things you would have wanted to hear … he knew all the right steps. And he followed them.”

“And I fell for it,” Proto muttered, his voice tiny, quiet.

CasCu fell silent. He just… he didn’t know what to say. He lay there, holding Proto, listening to the raspy breaths of his other, younger self. It wasn’t that simple … but he knew how Proto saw things. Once upon a time, he’d seen them the same way himself. That didn’t mean choosing words was any easier. 

maybe you did,” CasCu said, his voice quieter, “but Proto? I think … that’s alright. I think that was better, than you not falling for it. Because if you hadn’t, well -” Proto wasn’t a good actor. Alter could act, if only because his normal face was already made for poker, but Proto? No way in hell. “Odin would have done the same thing he did to Scáthach ,” he said, quiet. “He would have forced you to believe him. Maybe he would have snuck other things into the rune craft as well. I’m glad that didn’t happen.”

“I’m not!” Proto cried. He pushed himself up, glared at CasCu, eyes hot and burning. “I wish I had been runed. At least that way I’d have an excuse for being such an idiot!”

“Proto -” CasCu bit back the urge to swear. He sucked in a breath between his teeth, sharp, and then let it out in a harsh sigh. “Please.”

There was a pause, brief, then Proto looked down. “Sorry,” he mumbled, his voice soft, quiet. “Are you still hurting?”

“Not physically,” CasCu said, “but it sure hurts watching you beat yourself up over something that wasn’t your fault.” Proto blinked, opened his mouth to speak. CasCu didn’t give him the chance to do so. “Look, maybe you shouldn’t have believed him. But he was fucking Odin. You weren’t walking away from that conversation unless you were thinking what he wanted you to think - and if you’re going to beat yourself up about it, you can do that by helping me out with something, alright?”

“Anything,” Proto said, desperate, immediate.

“I need you,” CasCu said, “to stop beating yourself up about it, alright? I’m going to need a lot of help getting back on my feet, and I can’t do that if I’m worrying about you. So I need you to take care of yourself, and forgive yourself. Think you can do that?” 

Proto paused, brief. And gods, the look of betrayal on his face could almost be funny, in any other situation. “You’re joking, right?”

“Nope,” CasCu said. “So I want you to promise me. Be easier on yourself, alright? That’s the best way you can help me out.”

“Gods, you -” Proto made a noise between his teeth, before he looked away. “You’re impossible,” he said, “You know that, right?” 

“I know,” CasCu said. “That’s not a promise.”

Proto swore at him, soundly, before he sighed. His shoulders slumped. “Fine. Fine, I’ll … I’ll try, alright? I’ll try.” 

“Thank you,” CasCu breathed. He opened his arms wide. “So,” he said, “I think we could both use one of these.”

Proto made a noise between his teeth, and then leaned forwards. His arms wrapped around CasCu again, and it was a hug that was almost a bit too tight, a touch too desperate. It was as if Proto was terrified of letting go, which was something … perhaps not the best sign, but CasCu couldn’t lie, he was holding onto Proto just as tight. He had to. There was no other choice. It felt like, if he loosened his grip, then Proto’s pain would come flooding back, and that wasn’t something CasCu would risk.

So they held each other, and held onto each other tightly, until Nightingale gave a short, sharp cough. “Visitation hours will soon end,” she said, leaving no room for argument. “If you wish to talk to Cu, then Proto must leave now.”

CasCu made a noise between his teeth. “Well, you heard the lady.”

“I guess so,” Proto muttered. He released CasCu, and reluctantly, CasCu pulled his grip away as well. Proto straightened, opened his mouth, then shut it. He looked away. “I’ll see you later?” He asked, as if afraid CasCu’s answer would be no.

“Of course,” CasCu said, his voice softer. 

Proto nodded, hesitated, then slipped off the bed. He was gone soon after that, Nightingale behind him. CasCu sagged back a bit, let out a sharper breath between his teeth. He took a moment to just lay there, his eyes half closed, working through the pain of the moment. His own hurt, Proto’s. It was so easy, to feel the words Odin had used on his own lips, to know the shape of them as if they were his own.

Proto had hoped. And for that hope, they had both been burnt. But like hell was CasCu going to take that out on him. Because it was not Proto’s fault for hoping - it was Odin’s for abusing that hope.

“Take care of him, will you, Alter?” CasCu asked.

“I will,” Alter promised.

CasCu nodded, once, then opened his eye. He could hear the footsteps approaching, saw the shapes of Cu and Nightingale approaching. Cu was swifter. He stepped with barely restrained speed, his gaze flicking over the way CasCu lay, his grin something that could be just shy of awkward. “Hey there,” he said, “You look like hell.”

“Thanks,” CasCu rasped out, “I feel like it.”

“No shit,” Cu moved closer, then sat down on the side of the bed, hand bumping against CasCu’s own. “And you’re stuck here in boredom town, aren’t you? I’ll bring you some books to read. Maybe an iPad or something so you can watch your movies.”

Thank the gods. CasCu opened his mouth - “Absolutely not,” Nightingale said, her voice sharp and cold, “His mind is still healing - blue light is an absolute no for him. He is also readjusting to one eye. He may practice reading in slow increments, with larger font, but straining the muscles within his remaining eye is forbidden. He will heal gradually - not at the pace you attempt to force upon him.”

Well shit. CasCu grimaced. “You heard the lady.” 

“Damn,” Cu said, “Sounds like all your fun is being restrained. Well, we’ll just have to swing by every day to keep you company. Can’t have you going stir-crazy over here.”

The words were so nonchalant that CasCu couldn’t help but laugh, even if it was a bit bitter, a bit small. “I guess so.”

“Damn right.” 

They fell silent, staring at each other. Unlike Alter, Cu hadn’t remained suspicious. But he hadn’t fully believed Odin like Proto had. His response had fallen somewhere in the middle. Of course, it had. Cu was further along than Proto was, adjacent to where Alter was. He was neither and both of them, and he was going to have a different reaction to Odin’s meddling. But Odin’s words were still convincing. 

Of course, they were. In a way, they were CasCu’s own.

Cu was quiet too, watching him. CasCu sighed a tad, and leaned further back against the bed. “It’s shit, isn’t it?” He asked, his voice soft. “This thing, it’s all just … fucking broken us.”

“I don’t think we’re broken,” Cu said, shaking his head. “Alter’s fine. Proto’s hurt, but he’ll heal. And you’ll heal too.”

It didn't feel like that. CasCu turned his gaze away from Cu, and stared out at the infirmary. Nightingale was watching him back. Her eyes seemed to be glowing, and he wondered… what she was thinking. Whether she was counting down the seconds until she closed visitation time, or if she was cataloging each and every one of CasCu’s movements, his responses, and comparing them to the healthy ones she had determined he should have. Just that image made him feel more fragile.

“Don’t think I didn’t notice you didn’t mention yourself,” CasCu said, his voice quieter.

Cu let out a sharp laugh. “Of course you noticed, you perceptive beggar.” He fell silent for a moment, and CasCu glanced at him out of the corner of his eye. Cu’s gaze was far away, his expression almost tired. “At first… I thought Kage’s belief that you weren’t yourself was just his way of reacting to how you changed. And then you kept being wrong and well - I wanted to believe him too. That there was something wrong with you, something we could fix. Because if that was true, then that meant the person you’d become was only temporary. That we could have you back properly. But then … you started acting like yourself again. And I’d wondered if I was just being fucking naive , and if you needed my support more than you needed my suspicion.”

CasCu hesitated. His fingers curled in on themselves, bunching up the fabric on the bed. He didn’t know what to say.

That didn’t matter. Cu didn’t give him the time to get a word in edgewise. He just tipped his head back and laughed. “And I’m pissed, you know? Pissed that I fell for it, that I didn’t go with my gut instinct. Pissed that I couldn’t help you out, that I and the others were regulated to the side lines - and I get why, you know? I know we weren’t the best match for a showdown with Odin, but I wish … I wish we’d been there. I wish we could have been there for you.”

Shit. 

CasCu looked away again. His eyes were burning, heat prickling the edges, making him suck sharp breaths between his teeth. “You’re here for me now,” he said, when he thought he could keep his voice steady. “And I’m thankful for that. And … I’m glad, that you weren’t there, in the fight. Seeing Odin go after Kage was too much. Seeing him go after you all as well …” He wouldn’t have been able to stand it.

“I know,” Cu said, his voice quiet. “I know.”

For a few moments, they just sat there, wrapped in their own silence. Then Cu flopped down beside CasCu. He flashed him a grin, something sharp and bright that didn’t fully reach his eyes. “But hey! We’re here now, and we’ll continue to be here for you. Whatever you need, alright? We’ll be ready to do it for you.”

The sudden switch from solemnity to false cheer was enough to make CasCu laugh, weak but amused. “That’s dangerous wording,” he said.

“Aww,” Cu sang, “I trust you not to take advantage of us. Besides! I know the others mean it too, every word.”

“Yeah,” CasCu said. He let out a longer breath, relaxed and settled there. “I know they do to.”

“Damn straight,” Cu said. He reached out , and patted CasCu’s hand. “So stop worrying about us, old man, and let us take care of you.”

“I’ll think about it,” CasCu muttered, to the tune of Cu’s laugh. They settled there again, sitting in that silence, before he finally worked up the urge to speak. “Has - has Scáthach asked about me at all?” 

That got Cu to pause, his face tightening ever so slightly. “Not… exactly. I think she’s… recovering? In her own way? She’s been quiet to all of us recently - which is normal for her, you know? But this is different.”

CasCu made a noise between his teeth, faint, tight. He didn’t know what to say to that. Cu was right. Scáthach was normally a bit distant, even when interacting with her. By and large, she only sought them out when she thought of something new to teach, or believed some of their fundamentals of fighting was lacking. And she, as always, was terrifying. But a part of CasCu … had hoped. Had hoped that she would care enough to come see how he was doing. But perhaps that was foolish of him.

Because he was not a Chulainn she’d ever taught.

CasCu shoved that thought away before it could go any farther. He banished it from his mind the best he could, bricked up the place it had been, and turned his gaze away. He couldn’t think like that. Lugh knew he wasn’t going to allow himself to think like that. So he did his best to focus on Cu, as he spoke. “Well, maybe check up on her? Out of all of you, she was spelled by Odin the longest. I figure that probably fucked her up a bit.”

“Probably,” Cu agreed, “It’s just hard imagining her - beaten, you know?”

“Yeah … I know what you mean,” CasCu said. He let out a sigh, looked away, his fingers rubbing against the fabric of the bedsheets. He didn’t know what to say, so he didn’t say anything at all, just sat there and wondered, wished… nothing. He wished nothing. He shook his head, opened his mouth -

“Visitation hours are over,” Nightingale said, her voice so sharp it practically shattered the silence. She took a step forwards, all threat. “If you do not remove yourself now, then I will remove you.”

“Hey! Don’t have to worry about me,” Cu said. In a rush, he stumbled to his feet, took a few steps back as if to mollify her. “I’ll see you tomorrow, alright CasCu?” 

“Yeah,” CasCu said, after a moment. “I’ll see you tomorrow. Goodbye, Cu.”

“See ya!” 

And then Cu was gone, racing out of the room before Nightingale could chase him out. CasCu watched him go, feeling… off kilter. He ached for someone in the space at his side, wished that it wouldn’t be so empty. That Kage would appear, and his warmth and his sharpness and his comfort would be there, something that CasCu could draw some - but it was too late. Nightingale was already approaching him, her madness clear and glowing in her eyes.

“Come, CasCu,” she said, “it is time for your examination. Do not resist. If you do, I will have to encourage your participation.”

“Yeah … yeah, I know,” CasCu said. He sighed, and pushed himself up, then slid slowly out of bed. Nightingale took his hand with an iron grip, and lead him away. CasCu found himself glancing back, towards the bed, and even further to the entrance of the infirmary, where he could see three figures just outside the door, talking amongst themselves.

 

The tests Nightingale did preceded almost exactly like the tests from yesterday. There was still a disconnect there, and it itched like CasCu, tight under his skin. It had felt good, in some ways, to talk to his other selves, to hear what they had been up too, but at the same time … it dug up things that he didn’t want to think about. 

Nightingale sensed it. She pushed at him - for a while - to focus, and he did his best, but eventually she left him there with a shake of her head and an order to rest. His healing would only be slower if he didn’t take proper care of his mental health. And then she was off - not far, hovering just in case he’d need help - but it was enough of a sense of privacy that Kage thought it's okay to apparate beside CasCu again.

“You look shitty, artifact,” Kage said, his voice far too soft, body settling into the space beside CasCu’s.

CasCu tucked up against him, and let out a breath. “Feel it,” he said, “did you stick around for the whole day?”

“I wish I could have,” Kage said, sighing. He wrapped an arm around CasCu, nuzzled close in. “Fucking - got stuck teaching Nicotris to cook. She’s not a good cook, artifact. Ancient Egypt caster pharaoh blessed by the gods skills and shit does not equal fantastical, divine, skills in fucking cooking.”

Kage sounded equal parts aggrieved, amused, and miserable. CasCu found himself chuckling into Kage’s chest, weak, but warmly amused. “I’m sure she’ll do fine under your tutelage, a ghra.”

There was a grumble, awkward and flushed. “If she can get over her damn pride, then maybe. I’m not made for teaching, you know that - you’d like helping me out with her more than you would being stuck in here.”

Gods that - CasCu blinked once, before letting out a sigh and nodding. “You’re probably right,” he said, “but anything would be better than this.”

“No shit.” Kage bumped his forehead against CasCu’s briefly. “How are you feeling, artifact?” 

CasCu was quiet for a moment. His fingers curled and flexed briefly; he let out a long breath. “I’m tired,” he said, his voice soft, “it was good to see my other selves, but they’re … well, we’re all fragile in different ways right now, and -” he fell silent, shifting one hand so he could stare at it. The spear and staff calluses, the pale skin that damn near glowed in the dark, the blunt tips of his fingernails…
It was all a facsimile. He was a facsimile, created by Odin. Odin hadn’t talked to CasCu much during it - but that - that had been a constant. CasCu had not been allowed to forget that he wasn’t real. Every time he tried to fight back, every time to reach out, Odin had pushed him back and to the side, for CasCu was just a mask that Odin no longer needed, a puppet he was no longer going to use.

And that meant that his other selves were no longer his other selves. CasCu was just merely a copy of a person that had existed. Everything he’d thought about himself before Singularity F - had been false. His whole life, false.

“Artifact,” Kage said, jostling him gently. “You better not be thinking of something stupid, right now.”

Odin had thought Kage false too. A mask for Loki, just as CasCu had been a mask for him.

CasCu grimaced slightly. “Not sure that it qualifies as stupid, hellion. Just… thinking through some shit.”

Kage made a noise that sounded wholly unbelieving. He bumped his head against CasCu’s, light. “Want to tell me about that shit?” 

“Not sure that I do,” CasCu said. He looked up at Kage, gave him a crook of his lips, something that might have passed for a smile. “It’s almost definitely something you’d consider stupid, hellion.” 

“Then let me guess what it is,” Kage considered for a moment, closing his eyes as if in deep concentration. CasCu felt the sudden, wild urge to laugh at him, and to lean up to kiss his forehead. Then Kage opened one eye, gazing CasCu critically. “Is it,” he said, “the fact that when Odin took over, your hair was completely silver, so you couldn’t fucking argue the accusations of being an old man?” 

The words were so out of the left field, yet so Kage, that CasCu couldn’t help but bark out a surprised laugh. “That bastard better not have left any damn silver hairs on my head,” he said, with feeling. 

“He didn’t,” Kage snorted, grinning, “You’re just as ambiguously old looking as you ever were.”

“Never was,” CasCu grumbled, but he was smiling despite himself.

“Keep telling yourself that, artifact,” Kage said, giving CasCu another grin, though it slid away, his expression softening. “So, are you going to tell me what’s actually bothering you? Or am I going to have to guess again?”

Ah, this hellion. CasCu looked away, and sighed. “I think you know,” he said. 

“I don’t want to assume,” Kage said, even quieter. “So CasCu? Do we want to talk about it? Or we could - fucking not talk about it. Could save it for a rainy day. We don’t have to do anything you’re not ready to, artifact.”

Gods, his brat … CasCu leaned up, and pressed his lips against Kage’s jaw. “Sweet,” he murmured.

“Not sweet,” Kage said, making a face.

“You are,” CasCu said. He eased back, and let out a long, quiet breath. “I know we touched on it briefly before, but  … How … were you created by Loki, Kage? Like Odin created me, did Loki - create you?”

In his arms, Kage froze. It was a sudden thing, stiff, and then all at once he relaxed with a hiss of breath between his teeth. “Gods, artifact, you sure as hell know the questions to ask first.”

“It’s the biggest one,” CasCu said, giving him a wry smile.

“Guess that’s true,” Kage agreed. He glanced at CasCu briefly, then sighed and bumped foreheads with him. “Well … not exactly. No one’s one hundred percent sure of the details, but it’s likely that Loki did influence my Spirit Origin - but unlike Odin, the only thing he left behind - has remained - is this.” 

Kage shifted, until his hand was between them. A flex of his palm, and then a dagger appeared within his fingers. CasCu sucked in his breath at the sight of the ruby, the winking face engraved upon it. Though he had none of the gut reaction Odin had, he could still feel everything Odin had felt upon seeing the dagger. The revulsion, the relief, the anger, the vicious glee - the feelings Odin had for Loki were complicated and tangled and poisoned. CasCu didn’t want them in his head, but they’d been the fire that had kept Odin’s attention, allowing the others to take Odin down.

And that dagger reflected it all.

CasCu made a choked off noise in the back of his throat, before reaching out to hide that winking face from view. “You’re positive?” he asked, his voice tight.

“Absolutely,” Kage said. He dismissed the dagger, bumped his forehead gently against CasCu’s again. “I’m me, no matter what. And CasCu, even after everything Odin said and did - you’re still CasCu too. It doesn’t matter if we were both nothing before this, or if he was a fucking liar that just twisted you until you could serve as a mask. It doesn’t matter. You’re still you, and that’s all I care about. It’s all everyone cares about, here.”

Gods - CasCu did his best to nod, pressing his forehead against Kage’s own. “I’ll do my best to remember,” he said, quiet. “But I can’t… I can’t make any promises. It’s …”

“Shit?” Kage offered, quiet.

“Worse than,” CasCu agreed. He shifted his face to tuck it against Kage’s neck, breathed in slowly and steady. “Thank you,” he said, quieter, “for being here.”

“I wouldn’t be anywhere fucking else,” Kage said. He held onto CasCu a bit tighter, tucked him right against him. “Not even the fucking Pharaoh or Nobbu could pull me away now. You’ve got me for as long as you want me, artifact.”

“Good,” CasCu said, wrapping his arms around Kage once more. “Because I need you here, hellion.”

“I’m here,” Kage promised, “I’m here.” 

He kissed CasCu’s forehead again, a gentle press of lips against skin, and CasCu let out a sharp, shaky sigh. He sagged into the touch, closing his eyes gently, doing his best to breathe in this moment, to let it sink in and banish the worries and fears that clung to his mind. The doubt. The uncertainty. Odin’s words - all of it, chased away by Kage’s solid presence, and the strength in his hold.

Chapter 26: Chapter 26

Summary:

Freedom! Freedom at last! Escape the clutches of the infirmary while you can!

Notes:

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Chapter Text

For the next few days, as CasCu slowly healed from his injuries, time fell into a familiar pattern. He would spend the nights with Kage, curled up against him and listening to his breathing, until he too eventually fell asleep. In the morning, visitor hours would start, and Nightingale would let CasCu’s other versions into the infirmary one by one. 

Alter was typically a quiet comfort, sitting by CasCu and just existing, giving him a chance to breathe in and out and get past the worries that did their best to plague his mind in the morning. Cu came in and gossiped about the state of the Wandering Sea, and all the drama that had been created from … well, everything . He was a constant source of information that CasCu drank like a sponge. Proto brought something new every day - food, games, books. It was obviously a way to make up for believing Odin, but CasCu hadn’t pushed him to stop too hard yet. He would in time though. Proto couldn’t continue like this.

In the afternoon, Nightingale worked with CasCu and his connection between body and mind. They did their exercises. She taught him ones he could use in bed. He’d never felt this - weak before. The disconnect between his body and his mind was still there, and though it felt like it was shrinking every day, the progress still felt … too slow to him. But if Nightingale was concerned, she didn’t show it. So CasCu didn’t say anything about it. She was the nurse, she knew better than him.

Kage always came back around dinner, with food alongside. He plastered himself against CasCu like he was never going to leave him again, and they ate together, soaking in that comforting touch. Sometimes, Gudako and Mash joined them. That was good. CasCu could listen to their cheer, their laughter, and breathe. He could breathe.

He was getting better at breathing.

But the doubts lingered there, the fears, and the knowledge that Odin had instilled within him. That CasCu’s existence was nothing but a farce. Kage was right, and CasCu knew it. It didn’t matter, because he was still CasCu, and everyone cared about him as CasCu, even when it meant … that all his memories were false, that the very foundations of his belief in himself had been ripped away from him.

So yeah, it hurt. Yeah, he did his best not to focus on it. He knew what Gudako would say. He knew what Kage would say, and they were right. It didn’t matter. He had a place here, mask or not. He had a home, friends, and people who loved him. What he was didn’t matter. What Odin had made him to be didn’t matter.

Except it did, in a way CasCu didn’t want to admit, and kept inside so carefully tight so it didn’t spill out onto everyone else.

 

“You have now recovered enough that you may leave the infirmary,” Nightingale said, her voice sharp, her eyes cutting. “But daily visits are required. You will continue your physical therapy. If you do not, your freedom will be revoked, and I will bring you back here to continue your treatment. You will not be allowed to leave unless healed.”

“I know the drill,” CasCu said, letting out a tired breath between his teeth. He was just thankful that he could finally leave this area. Bedrest had gotten far past old.

“Don’t worry,” Kage added, leaned against CasCu’s side, “if the artifact strains himself, I’ll carry him right back here. Scouts honor.” 

“You were never a scout,” CasCu told him, mentally.

He felt the tickle of Kage’s laugh in his mind. “No, but it sure sounds damn good when swearing to a terrifying nurse.” 

Couldn’t argue with that logic. And it seemed to work. Nightingale nodded, once, before turning to Kage. Obviously she had decided he was the one to speak to about this matter. “He must still rest in bed for most of the day, but small tasks will be allowed. Someone must watch him at all times, in case the disconnect with his body grows worse. In case of injury, bring him here immediately.” 

CasCu frowned. “Is that … possible?” 

“If you strain yourself,” Nightingale said, words punching just like bullets. “So do not hesitate to take breaks. Ensure those that you interact with do not go too rough on you. No fighting in any capacity.” At those last words, her eyes began to glow. She stepped forwards, her hand straying towards her gun.

CasCu held up his hands quickly. “I’m not my other selves,” he said, “don’t worry, I won’t be instigating any fights. That’s the hellion’s job.”

Kage had been watching him, his eyes slightly narrowed, considering, but he looked away at those words to scowl at Nightingale’s glare. “Don’t fucking worry, I’m not starting any damn fights when the artifact is healing. I can wait until he’s better.” 

“Good. I expect to see you tomorrow, 1pm sharp.” 

“Hai, hai.”

“Alright.” 

They left the infirmary, side by side, Nightingale watching them go. Kage’s hand was in his, and CasCu gripped it tight for support, using his staff like a cane. It was a relief, to know his staff would come so easily to his hand, that it’s design was the old one, and not the thing Odin had carried. Together, they hobbled out of the infirmity, and into the hall.

CasCu only had hazy recollections of what the Wandering Sea looked like, the snippets that his mind had snagged upon while being under Odin’s control. It made the curve of the hallway and the steampunk plated layers all the more painful. He didn’t like this place, a thing of machinery and magecraft, as far from Chaldea’s open windows and wind and snow swept view as one could get. There was no dirt beneath his feet here.

But more startling was the person who waited for them.

CasCu had almost expected his other selves to be out here. He knew for a fact Gudako and Mash would be here if they were free. Perhaps it would be one of the surviving members of the gossip gang. But it was none of them. Instead, leaning against the wall with her arms crossed over her chest, was Scáthach . She watched them with cool eyes.

Beside CasCu, Kage bristled. “What the fuck do you want?” 

Scáthach was unconcerned with his glare. Her eyes were on CasCu. “I would like to speak to you, Setenta.”

CasCu froze. Setenta. The use of his birth name hit all the worse when he now knew it was no longer really his name, that he had never really trained under Scatahch. But for all the fact that he was a mask, and all his memories were false, her glare and her words were still enough to make him snap to attention. “What about?” 

She considered him for a longer moment, gaze taking in the way she stood, the way she waited, oh so expectant. It was the stance she wore before a training session. “Your physical therapy,” she said, “I would replace Nightingale in conducting it.” 

“Oh hell no,” Kage growled, stepping in front of CasCu. “Like hell! You’re not fucking dragging him through one of your training sessions while he’s still recovering.” 

Scáthach gave him a look. It was a cold look, long and evaluating. “I did not say he would go through one of my training sessions. I said he would go through physical therapy with me. It would follow all procedures and rules that Nightingale gives me.” 

“Like hell it will -”

CasCu set his hand on Kage’s shoulder, and gave him a squeeze. Kage glanced to him, sudden and sharp, his eyes wide and a touch worried. CasCu gave him a smile in turn, and then looked at Scáthach . “Thank you for the offer,” he said.

“And do you accept?”

It was said in such a bland tone, expectant, and yet without pushing. CasCu just found himself staring at her, utterly lost. She wasn’t his Scáthach . Apparently, he’d never had a Scáthach to begin with … but she had never truly treated him any different from Cu, even if CasCu wasn’t her student either. And she had …

She had been one of the first to be affected by Odin. He remembered that now. The touch on hiss mind, the way she had been watching him - them - and the conclusion she had pulled. And the way Odin had shut her down, and ensured that she could not follow that path to its logical conclusion.

“Alright,” CasCu said, his voice soft. “I accept you asking Nightingale if you can help out with my physical therapy. But I would like to talk to you at some point.”

She considered that for a moment, watching him for a long, long second, before she looked away. “Very well,” she said, before moving to the infirmary. Within moments, she was past the door, out of sight, leaving both him and Kage in the hallway. Beneath his hand, Kage was rattling, a low growl in the back of his throat.

It made Cascu smile, brief. He leaned over to press a kiss to his cheek. “I’m alright,” he murmured.

“I know,” Kage muttered. He still didn’t sound happy.

Mm ,” CasCu slipped his hand down to take Kage’s in his own, giving it a tight squeeze. “So, are you going to show me to that room yet?”

Kage paused at that, before glancing to CasCu. His expression softened. He leaned in close, bumped their foreheads. “Not much of a room,” he mumbled, “I didn’t have the chance to make it ours before Odin took it over.” 

CasCu was quiet for a moment. He leaned into that touch, his eyes halfway closed, his breath slow and steady. It needed to be. Because there was a tight ball in his chest, afraid and ready to run, to curse. He didn’t want to see the room. He didn’t want to see a space that had been meant for him and Kage transformed by that fucking bastard, but at the same time …

He wanted that fucker out of his life. All of it. And he knew that ripping apart the room he had built and instilling his own in its place would help him there. Help him breathe. Help him have a bit of control in a time when he badly needed it.

“Alright,” He murmured. He gave Kage a grin, soft, a touch tight. “Lead the way, hellion.”

Kage stared at him for a moment, gaze flicking over his face, before he nodded. “Alright,” he said, “follow me.” 

 

The room was fucking ugly.

CasCu stood there, staring at this thing of metal and rivets, of pipes and boxy furniture. His senses screamed at him. His past as a druid might have been made up, and Lugh knew he wore metal on his body - but the sight of this place made him want to revolt. To take a step back and away. Chaldea hadn’t been much better, but at least it had been light, at least there had been space. This felt like they’d been shoved into a metal closet.

One that Odin had obviously made his home. 

The bed had been made, but in the way that clearly ordained a human touch. There were books stacked upon the beside table, taken from the library. Ones on secret entrances and architecture, on magic theory and magecraft, all the things CasCu saw and instantly hated. There was probably more - there had been more, in the structure of the room, he could vaguely remember rune craft to turn it into a place fitting of a god … but with Odin’s disappearance, that was all gone.

It felt like CasCu’s head. A shell, with a bit of what was once there remaining.

“Well fucking shit,” Kage said, scowling, “I was hoping there’d be more for us to rip apart. We could burn the sheets, if you want?” 

“I think there’s more in the bathroom,” CasCu said, his voice quiet. Then the rest of Kage’s sentence caught up with him, and he glanced over sharp towards him. “Is there even a place where we can burn this stuff?”

“I don’t know,” Kage said, scowling, “but we can find a place if you want to.”

CasCu took a moment, to just stare at the bedspread, before letting out a long breath. “Then let's do it,” he said, his voice sharp. “Let’s watch the damn thing burn.”

 

The books they took back to the library first. Kage carried them there, which CasCu was glad for, but it was CasCu who took them and dumped them onto the return shelf. He didn’t know what would happen next to them, and he didn’t care. They were out of his hands, not his problem anymore, and that? That felt fucking good.

They got rid of Odin’s personal care items as well - including the glittered shampoo and body wash with it’s horrible smell. CasCu took great pleasure in chucking them into one of the odd shoots that the Wandering Sea had, and watching the damn bottles disappear. Where they went, he didn’t care. All he cared was that they were gone, and far, far away. He’d never have to see those fucking things again.

Finally, it was the bedspreads turn. They ripped off the sheets, bundled up the blankets, stuffed the pillows under their arms. Kage had gotten a location from Nobunaga that was burn safe - CasCu wasn’t sure if he should be concerned or relieved that Nobunaga knew a location like that already. He chose relieved. He could worry about what atrocities she was planning later - and he knew that Kage would keep her under control. Somewhat.

He could worry about it if it ever came to that.

For now though, they stalked through the halls of the Wandering Sea, side by side, shoulders pressed together. CasCu leaned hard against Kage at certain intervals, drawing from his strength, his unbreaking stride. All the way until they were in the room Nobunaga had dubbed safe to burn in.

It was, ironically enough, the room Kage said they had entered the Wandering Sea in. CasCu supposed that meant that the smoke wouldn’t set off a thousand alarms, and instead be drawn out into that space of nothingness, where everything ceased to exist - even that smoke. Perhaps that was why it was safe. Or perhaps Nobunaga had pulled out a random location from her hat , and they were about to find out.

“Are you sure about this?” CasCu asked, glancing around at the hanger, the Shadow Border parked so closely. There were… a bunch of people swarming around it, all identical except for their uniforms. If he tilted his head, and let the world unfocus, he could see their aura, knew what they were. He did his best not to.

“What?” Kage asked, “The burning? Having second thoughts, artifact?”

CasCu blinked, then shook himself, adjusted the load in his grip. “No … just worried we’re about to set off a crap ton of alarms.”

“Well, if there’s one thing you can trust Nobbu with, it’s safe places to burn objects.” Kage said dryly. “She would be careful not to burn this place to the ground, it can’t be helped or not. So, artifact, choose a spot.” 

CasCu huffed at him, gently, but the wry assurance in Kage’s words had him smiling. He set off across the hanger, away from the Shadow Border and the familiars that swarmed it, and out towards the railing and what looked like - well, to his normal vision it looked like a hole. To what remained of Odin’s sight, it looked like a gate. CasCu had a bad feeling it was a bit of both.

He set down the blankets right beside it, then tossed the pillow on top of it. Kage was right beside him, doing the same with his load. For a second, they were silent, staring at the pile of fucking sheets. CasCu’s chest tightened. He curled his fingers, then reached for Kage’s hand. Kage grabbed his hand and held it tight, tight. 

“Do you want to do the honors, artifact?” Kage asked.

CasCu stayed quiet. He hadn’t - he hadn’t used his runes yet. He wasn’t even sure if he could. They were … they’d been a gift from Odin, in a sense. He’d been able to use them so well because they were from Odin. Cu, Proto, Alter - their abilities were a shadow compared to his. He had no clue how the rune craft would answer now that the bastard was gone from his mind, and CasCu was left behind like an empty shell.

20 percent of a Spirit Origin remained. The only reason he was standing was the Command Seals on Kage’s hand, the binding between them. Was 20% even enough for a Spirit Origin to be capable of rune craft? He didn’t know. He just didn’t know.

“CasCu?” Kage asked, soft.

“Yeah,” CasCu said. He shook himself, and held out his hand. “It’d be my pleasure.”

Shaking, his fingers sketched out a rune. Kaunan. It hung there, that crooked line, softly in the middle of the air, and - it seemed fainter. The gold was gone from its glow; all that remained was the soft blue of CasCu’s original rune craft . But it seemed weaker, not as bright - then it caught, and the pile of blankets and pillows lit with a whoosh of blue white flame.

CasCu couldn’t feel the heat. It couldn’t burn him, not with his bloodline , but oh did he soak in the sight of the remnants of the bed Odin had used burning. Those had been meant for him and Kage. Odin had taken them, taken his life, and used them both. And now they were burning, this vestige of a god, lighting and dancing and blowing away with the smoke, until there was nothing left but a pile of ash.

The familiars tending to the Shadow Border didn’t try to stop them. The alarms didn’t go off. The smoke just slipped through the gap that was a gate, and was gone. 

They were left staring, at the ash. It just sat there, a useless pile of gray and charcoal flakes, not even stirring with a faint breeze. After a moment, Kage stepped forwards, and kicked half of them into the gate that was a gap. “Fuck Odin,” he said, as they disappeared into the void of the Wandering Sea.

“Yeah,” CasCu said. He stepped forwards, and kicked the other half of the pile. Watched as the ashes spun as they fell, fell - and cut out, gone and distant. “Fuck Odin,” he repeated, quietly, and all of a sudden he didn’t want to be here, staring at this thing Odin would have killed to know the workings of. He turned, to look at Kage, and squeezed his hand. “So,” he said, “Where are we going to find replacement sheets. And in what color?”

Kage blinked at him, almost startled, before he smiled. It was good to see his hellion smile like that. “Any color but that horrible, shitty gray . Grey bedsheets. Who the fuck wants to sleep in a bed that looks like an iron plate? Not fucking me.”

“Not me either,” CasCu said, a huff of a laugh escaping him. He squeezed Kage’s hand again, leaned against him. “How about … green?” Green for the forest, for his druidic nature, for Ireland, and his home and the memories that he’d made up and the history that wasn’t truly his. Green, to remind himself that none of that mattered, and that he was still himself, even if it didn’t feel like it, sometimes. 

“Green sounds lovely,” Kage said. He leaned in, and brushed his lips against CasCu’s cheek, gentle and soft. “Maybe if we try hard enough, we can make something out of that room.”

“What?” CasCu asked, leaning into the touch. “Not enjoying all the metals?” 

“Not as much as I’ll enjoy having you comfortable,” Kage groused.

The words startled a laugh out of him, soft and quiet. CasCu found himself smiling. He leaned into kiss him, proper, and Kage kissed him back, just as soft and gentle and with such feeling that CasCu couldn’t help but feel grounded, the questions and worries about who he was and what he was gone without a trace. He knew they’d be back. But sinking into this touch, settling into it - this was better. So much better.

“I’d like the comfortable,” he murmured, when they parted. “Sick and tired of hospital beds.” 

“Let’s get you into one that’s not a hospital bed, then,” Kage murmured. He kissed CasCu’s cheek, and then - still holding his hand, led him off and away from what little ashes remained of Odin’s bedsheets and comfort.

 

Later, CasCu lay in Kage’s arms. He lay there quietly, his head on Kage’s chest, listening to the soft pounding of his heart, the rhythm of his breathing. It was good. CasCu could take this moment, and allow himself to be grounded, to be real, and he lay there feeling solid and loved, his fingers tracing the back of Kage’s hand, and the Command Seals that lay there, soft and solid. 

CasCu tugged his hand closer, just so he could see. He’s read theories - or Odin had - on the shapes Command Seals took. Whether the shape was connected to the Heroic Spirit, the Master, or the bond between them. It wasn’t something that CasCu had ever really thought about. It felt important now, with Kage holding his Command Seals. A part of CasCu wanted to know what they meant.

Like many Command Seals, the strokes of red on Kage’s hand were elaborate and intricate. Three strokes, each with swirls tying them together. At first, it looked like a dagger - fitting for the two weapons that had saved him. The blade fanned out then narrowed again into a tip, the space between the lines filled with swirled patterns. The two guards curved up and around the blade, tracing the edges at some distance. A pretty thing. If he unfocused his gaze, it looked …

It looked almost like a heart.

CasCu chuckled softly, then pressed his lips against the back of Kage’s hand. “That makes sense,” he murmured, his voice soft and warm. “It seems you’ve taken a dagger to my heart, a ghra.”

Kage, still asleep, said nothing. He just shifted a bit, and pressed his face into CasCu’s hair. CasCu let out a breath, then laced their fingers together, letting the sensation of the touch and connection sink deep into him.

His other selves, however, always had the best timing to interrupt. There was a grunt in CasCu’s mind, brief and sharp. “Got a moment?” 

It was Alter, those familiar bland tones. CasCu sighed and tucked his face a bit more against Kage’s chest. “A moment for what?”

“A celebration,” Alter said, dryly. “The others wanted to throw a big party for you, now that you’ve been released from the nightmare realm. I can tell them to piss off.” 

Of course, it would be. CasCu chuckled faintly, then shook his head. “No … no, I’ll come. Just give me a few seconds before I do.”

“Alright.”

The connection was cut. For a moment, CasCu just lay there, held safe and secure within Kage’s arms, their fingers laced together and Kage’s heartbeat beneath his ear. Then he raised his head, and kissed Kage’s forehead. “A ghra,” he murmured, “Are you going to wake up from your nap?”

Kage’s face wrinkled at the touch, and he turned his face slightly into the pillow. “Don’t wanna.” 

“Of course you don’t,” CasCu chuckled, before kissing his cheek. “But I want you to be awake enough to understand and remember when I say that my other selves are kidnapping me for a bit. Got that?” 

The arm around CasCu’s waist tightened. One of Kage’s eyes cracked open; he stared at CasCu from beneath a veil of white lashes. “They can fucking try,” he muttered, scowling. “I have you now.” 

“And you also have a Pharaoh to teach cooking too, remember? We can reconvene after you’re done there,” CasCu said, heart and chest far too warm. His hellion … his soft, protective hellion, who stared at him with such a hazy, confused look, like he was having a hard time understanding what CasCu was asking of him.

CasCu couldn’t help but kiss him, warm and soft. “Wake up, Kage,” he murmured.

Fine,” Kage finally muttered. He yawned once, a jaw cracking thing, before he started moving up. CasCu followed his direction, pushing himself off his brat, then to the edge of the bed, where he sat and stretched. He sighed for a moment, his back cracking, before stood to start gathering his clothes.

“You’re meeting your other selves?” Kage asked, after a moment or two. Apparently he’d woken up enough to ask. 

“We are,” CasCu said. “I’ll tell you where we are when I get there?” 

Kage nodded once, then reached out to gather his own stuff. His movements were still slow, weighed down by sleep. “Are you going to be alright on your way there?” He asked.

CasCu paused briefly. He took a moment, staring at his hands, before he curled them into fists and pushed himself to his feet. “Yeah,” he said, “I’ll be alright on my own.”

“Okay,” Kage murmured. He leaned over, and pressed his lips against CasCu’s temple. “Fuck Nicotris - you need me, just give me a shout, and I’ll be over for you, alright? Nicotris and her cooking can wait. And if Nightingale found out I let you wander by yourself, she’ll fucking kill me too.”

As if Kage wouldn’t be following him in Spirit Form anyway. CasCu couldn’t help but chuckle. He turned, and pressed a kiss against Kage in turn. “Be careful, hellion,” he said, “don’t let Nicotris or Nightingale hear you talking like that - we’ve dealt with enough gods already. We don’t need them adding themselves to the list.” 

“Guess so,” Kage made a face. “I’ll see you later, artifact?”

“Yeah,” CasCu agreed, smiling at the face he made. “I’ll see you later, hellion.”

 

The room his other selves in was one that branched off of the many twisting hallways. It had taken too long to get there, even in Spirit Form. The halls of the Wandering Sea were vast and convoluted. CasCu kept on getting twisted up. But finally, he found the room - another meeting area, with tables and chairs and food on a table, waiting and kept warm and fresh via runes. There were games on other tables, and his three other selves sitting, chatting, waiting.

For a moment, CasCu just stood there, watching them. Cu and Proto, balanced in chairs. Cu was chatting loudly, waving his hands around wildly. Proto was unusually quiet, watching Cu with odd expression. Alter wasn’t paying attention to either of them. He was… peeling oranges with his claws, and setting a stack of them carefully on a plate.

Two other selves, from proper myths. Another self that had been created from a grail, a twisted wish. And CasCu, a gods facsimile, built off a myth, all the gaps filled out in the delusion of a doll left without its puppet master. And gods, he couldn’t help but feel it, staring at his other selves, the proper versions.

CasCu took a deep breath, then another, before pushing all those feelings down and taking to his solid form. He tacked his smile onto his lips, and stepped forwards. “So,” he asked, “got room for another at that table?” 

His other selves looked at him, then moved. CasCu didn’t even get a chance to react. Suddenly they were there, hitting him from all sides. Proto’s arms around his waist, Cu’s tight around his shoulders. Alter stood there, to his other side, his hand on CasCu’s shoulder, tail curling around his back. In a second, CasCu was wrapped up by his other selves, and his thoughts and worries seemed so… they seemed so dumb, so fleeting, like this.

His eyes burned. He swallowed down the urge to laugh, then wrapped an arm around Proto, an arm around Cu, and leaned against Alter’s side. “Yeah,” he said, his voice quiet, “I think it’s pretty damn nice to be out of that place too. Can finally have more than one visitor at a time now, you know?” 

“Well, you’re our visitor now, so it’s still one,” Cu said, with a flash of a grin, warm and bright and amused.

The joke made CasCu laugh, rusty, but honest. “Yeah, suppose it is.” 

Proto laughed too, though there was a note in it, lingering and tight. “Speaking of the infirmary - we’ve got all the games Nightingale said we couldn’t bring into there. Card games, board games, food -”

“Emiya made it,” Alter supplied, his voice a low rumble.

“Considering you and your brat were busy~” Cu added, his voice all singsong.

CasCu flushed, then bumped his foreheads against Cu. “Yeah, yeah,” he said, “The food’s appreciated … what games did you bring?”

“A card deck,” Proto listed. He hesitated, then let go of CasCu and moved to the table, pulling up different boxes to show off. “Scrabble,” he added, “Monopoly, and Sorry. The options in this place aren’t great.” 

“Perhaps not Monopoly,” CasCu said. He slowly extracted himself from his other selves, and headed towards the table. He could smell the food now, the warm waft of scent. His stomach rumbled. “There’s been too much stress as it is.”

“Definitely not monopoly,” Alter grunted. He took his seat at the table and restarted peeling oranges.

“Card games?” Cu offered, sitting down. “We could play go fish or rummy or something else - unless CasCu’s luck stat has gone up. Then it wouldn’t be fair.”

The words were so ridiculous that CasCu couldn’t help but bark a laugh. “If anything,” he said, “it’s probably gone down.” 

“So it’ll be fair,” Cu said, with a relieved sigh.

Proto rolled his eyes at Cu, and set the Monopoly box to the side. “If we’re going to eat while we play, we should probably start with the card games? So we have space for them?” 

“Sounds like a plan to me,” CasCu said. He reached out a hand, made a gesture with his fingers. “Give me those cards, I’ll do my best to shuffle them.” 

The cards were passed over, the food portioned into plates, the board games set aside so they would have space to eat and play. The whole thing was so achingly familiar that CasCu’s eye threatened to burn. It was like Chaldea all over again. Breakfast, and gaming time. Just a time for them to fool around and be themselves, with themselves, teasing and laughing, in a place that wouldn’t judge anything they said, because the others were just as likely to say it and -

And it wasn’t the same, anymore. Because CasCu wasn’t the same.

The cards were dolled out, the food set before them. They played, this game of go fish, eating their food between rounds. The food was good as it always was - Emiya’s cooking allowed for no less. Their luck at the game was truly horrendous, and soon they all had more cards in hand then seemed physically possible. Like always, Cu, who had the worst luck of all of them, was swift to find himself in hot water with the deck.

But gods, it didn’t feel the same. CasCu felt like there was a disconnect there, between himself and his other selves. His own responses came too late, too off. He was slow on the uptake, his mind drifting, wondering if they noticed the disconnect too. It felt like Proto and Cu were both watching him with something like worry. Alter’s tail seemed to tap against his leg more than necessary.

It was stupid. He was definitely being stupid. It just felt… a tad suspicious when he won too. When they gathered the cards and laughed and set their empty plates aside, and started a new game, and CasCu realized they’d just eaten all of his favorite foods. 

Gods - it meant a lot. It should have meant a lot. But he couldn’t help but keep on thinking that he no longer … fully belonged. It was a thought he didn’t like. A thought he didn’t want to fully consider.

But it stayed there, as they continued to play. It sat there, in the back of his mind, as first Cu peeled off, the boxed games in tow, and then Proto, who picked up the card games and sent CasCu worried, hesitant looks as he left. It sat there, as Alter watched him, his tail swishing side to side, expression unreasonable.

It was the expression he wore when he was thinking about something. Always. CasCu sighed a bit, sinking into the chair, and gave Alter a small smile. “Do I want to know what it is this time?” he asked.

“Probably,” Alter said.

That wasn’t a comforting answer. CasCu straightened, and considered him back, pushing down his nerves. “What is it?” 

“You’re different,” Alter said. As always, he didn’t mince his words. He said them as he always said them - like they were the simple truth of a matter. “You act different around us. Like you’re not comfortable.” 

CasCu froze. He stared at Alter, and Alter stared back. Of course, he had noticed, it was Alter. CasCu sucked in a slow breath, then let it out, sinking back into his seat and rubbing at his face, fingers brushing his eye patch . “That obvious, huh?” 

“Not really,” Alter said, “Cu didn’t notice. Proto probably did.” 

Of course Proto had. He’d known CasCu the longest out of all of his other selves. And knowing Proto, it probably hadn’t done wonders for how he felt about believing Odin. Gods … this whole thing was starting to give CasCu a headache. He wanted to curl up in bed and snuggle his hellion until the pain went away.

“I don’t really want to talk about it,” CasCu said, dropping his hand and looking at Alter. 

Alter gave a loose shrug, unconcerned. “Alright.” 

“Good.”

They stared at each other for a moment longer. CasCu fought the urge to squirm. No one won staring competitions with Alter unless it was Edge. And CasCu knew Alter - he wouldn’t push, he wouldn’t press, he wouldn’t pick until CasCu spilled. He would just wait, steady and patient, like stone unbroken, wearing CasCu’s own walls down. 

CasCu looked away from him, lips pressed together in a frown. “I’m not … who I once was,” he said, finally, “or perhaps I was never what I thought I was. I am just… adjusting to the fact of my being, is all. It’s taking a bit to do so - will take a bit to do so.” 

Alter shrugged, once. “You’re like me,” he said, “Created. Takes a bit to get used to. Take the time you need.”

Gods, he made it sound so simple. CasCu almost wanted to laugh. He reached up, and scrubbed at his aching eye. Of course Alter understood. He wasn’t a proper Cu Chulainn either - had been created by Medb in a twisted version made to fit what she wanted. They were both things formed by the needs of others - both Cu Chulainns that had grown out of those molds and into something new.

CasCu just wasn’t sure where he’d go from here, now that he understood the full story behind his creation.

He sighed, and stood up. “It’ll get better eventually,” he said, running a hand over his hair. “But … thanks, Alter.” For the offer, the attempt at comfort … and for the understanding. CasCu may not be an original Cu Chulainn … but neither was Alter, and for all his mind was still torn up for everything true that was now known falsehood … knowing he wasn’t alone was a comfort. Knowing someone understood helped.

“Welcome,” Alter grunted. He stood as well, then stretched, whole body crackling, his tail straightening with the movement. When he settled, he looked at CasCu again. “ find me, when you’re ready.” 

“I will,” CasCu said, his voice softer. 

He turned, and left the room, taking deep, slow breaths. It was an open door Alter had given him, and CasCu knew it. He just … couldn’t have that conversation right now. For all the fears and everything lingered, clouding the back of his mind in cobwebs, he just … wasn’t ready to say the words out loud. Not to another version of himself. Not even to Alter.

 

Kage was waiting for CasCu in their room. There was a stack of books on the bedside table. He had one cracked open on his chest, flicking through the pages, lips pursed together. His eyes snapped up the minute CasCu entered, and he lunged to his feet, setting his book aside and moving to wrap his arms around CasCu. “Hey,” he said, soft.

CasCu sagged into the touch, returning the hug tight. “Hey,” he murmured back. “How are you doing, hellion?”

“Still regretting signing myself up for cooking lessons with a godly pharaoh ?” Kage asked, his voice wry and amused, before he sighed and gave CasCu another squeeze. “Otherwise, I’m doing alright. How was the time with your other selves?”

It was alright,” CasCu settled on, leaning more against him. “Feels odd, after everything … but that will change in time. Did you make a trip to the library?”

Kage didn’t press, and for that, CasCu was thankful. He just felt the nod of agreement against his hair. “Yeah, I did. Did you know the library people have already started taking control? Andersson, Medusa, Shakespeare , all the usual fucking ones. It’s like walking around in a minefield, but at least they know the damn layout. Got you some horror books.” 

CasCu blinked. He softened, leaning more against him. “Yeah? What sort of ones?” 

“The good shit,” Kage said, giving him a squeeze, before pulling him away and tugging him towards the bed. “Even managed to find one of your favorites. Don’t know what fucking mage here was a fan of horror, but glad we’re able to steel and use their shit now.”

CasCu let Kage tug him around, sitting down next to him and reaching out to pull one of the books off of the stack. The cover set a pang of nostalgia through him. He’d had this book in Chaldea too, on his personal bookshelves. He feathered his fingers across the cover, then laid his head on Kage’s shoulder. “Thank you,” he murmured.

“You’re welcome, artifact,” Kage said. He gave CasCu a squeeze, and gave him a smaller smile. “Figured after everything you could use the distraction. We both could.”

“Well, you figured right,” CasCu said, with a huff of a laugh. He leaned up, and pressed a kiss against Kage’s jaw. His brat was right … the distraction would do him good. And after everything, it would be nice to take some time to just relax and breathe and read. Especially when they could do it together.

Chapter 27: Chapter 27

Summary:

The Gossip ... it can't be stopped .... everyone prepare!

Notes:

Hey everyone! Thank you all so much for your comments and kudos! I hope you all enjoy this second to last chapter, and I hope you have a wonderful day!

Chapter Text

The Chulainns came to collect him in the morning. CasCu knew this, because waking up to the knock on the door meant that it had to be morning, even if there was no proper morning in this place. And there was only one group of people who would dare to wake him in the morning, when his hellion was curled against him, comfortable and warm and - most importantly of all - asleep.

CasCu closed his eyes and sighed. “Is the food really that good, here?” He asked.

“The place isn’t as large,” Cu responded, “but it’s the same cooks, isn’t it? Emiya’s food, Edge’s … not much of Kage’s though. He’s been spending too much time with you~. Heard that he was starting professional lessons, though! Achilles was curious.” 

The words tugged a burble of laughter from CasCu. He smiled against Kage’s hair. “How is Achilles doing, by the way? I haven’t heard from him.”

“He’s … distracted.” Cu said, slow, as if considering the words. “He’ll probably want to talk to you later, when he gets the chance. You know him - if he doesn’t act on something immediately, he gets distracted. Diarmuid does his best to keep him on track, but it’s Diar. They’re both prone to it - Diar just hides it better.” 

“Mhm,” CasCu let out a breath, fingers curling through Kage’s hair. Achilles … hadn’t come to see him, during the time of Odin’s control. Certainly a part of that was Odin’s own influence, avoiding those CasCu had held close. A part of it was absolutely the fact that Diarmuid and Achilles only admitted their love for each other after Chaldea was destroyed - they would have had no time to themselves. No time to spar either. And Chiron would want lessons, and the Chaos Crew would have chaos, and -

It was an endless list of distractions. That didn’t mean it still didn’t hurt. 

“Sooo?” Cu asked, a mental prod. “Are you joining us for breakfast?” 

CasCu let out a sigh between his teeth. “Yes, yes, just give me a moment.” 

Slowly, reluctantly, he pushed himself up and out of Kage’s grip. His hellion grumbled, and held onto him tighter. It was a familiar sight - CasCu had seen it before a dozen times. He smiled, faint, and reached for a pillow, dragging it close. His fingers settled onto the fabric. He began to trace down his runes -

And froze, his heart locked in his throat. His runes, Odin’s runes. Gods, he’d cast them once before, but that didn’t stop the pit in his stomach. One day - he hoped that pit would stop opening up. He would like to be able to cast his runes without thinking of the place he had gotten them from. His hands shook as he drew the symbols for the runes. It seemed to take a moment - then a burst of energy, and a blue glow, dancing along the patterns he’d written. Beneath his hands, the pillow warmed up. 

CasCu blinked hard, swallowed, then slid the pillow in the space between him and Kage. With that as a decoy, he was able to slip out of his hellion’s clinging grip. For a moment he just sat there at the edge of the bed, watching as Kage curled around the pillow, his face smoothing out into sleep once more. CasCu smiled soft. He reached out to brush the hair from Kage’s face, fingers lingering on his skin.

Then he stood up, and walked to his door. He opened it to stare blandly at the other Chulainn. “Did you ever imagine,” he said, his voice dry and a touch amused, “that I might want to sleep in today?”

“Well,” Cu said, “If you did, you should have said no! Now come on, before your brat wakes and throws something at me for taking you away.”

CasCu snorted, then stepped out of the room, closing the door carefully behind him. “He’d be right to.” 

“Rude,” Cu said, setting his hand on his chest with a grin. “And here we are bringing you to food! Good food that you haven’t had in forever. Besides, it’ll be good for you to get out and walking around again.” 

He was right there. CasCu made a face at him, then summoned his staff. “Then you better lead the way. The cafeteria wasn’t one of the bastard’s haunts.” 

“Thank gods for that,” Cu said, with feeling.

Cu set off. CasCu set off after him, using his staff to keep his balance. It wasn’t strictly necessary … but it did help, with the lag between body and mind. It meant he certainly had less of a chance of falling flat on his face. Bruising and a broken nose was not something he wished to attend physical therapy with - especially if Scáthach hadn’t been persuasive enough, and Nightingale was still there.

He didn’t want to think about that.

“So,” he said, instead, “how is the Chaos Crew doing?”

“Thankful that we finally have a place to punch each other?” Cu suggested. He glanced back at CasCu, and gave him a grin. “Fighting as stress relief and fun is needed, but when there’s no chance to do it after well - fucking everything that we’ve been through … let’s just say there’s a lot of shit bottled up that we’re glad to finally be able to work out. And we’ve even been good about not destroying any parts of the Wandering Sea!”

“That seems like a miracle,” CasCu said, dryly.

“Honestly?” Cu asked, rubbing the back of his head, “it kinda is. I know I might have thrown my weight around too much in those fights - but the others can take it. Just like I can. And even better, the Nemo Series has a nurse which means we didn’t need to go to Nightingale to get our wounds treated.”

The Nemo Series. CasCu blinked briefly, his eyebrow rising. “I … suppose I’ll learn what that is later,” he said, dry.

“You’ll see them,” Cu promised, “if you hadn’t already. It’s those people working on the Shadow Border.”

“I see.” CasCu murmured, thinking back to that space by the border, and the people who were familiars crawling on and around it, fixing and changing things up. The Nemo Series… it was such an odd name, but it fit what he’d seen. “I’ll keep it in mind.”

“Better,” Cu said. “Their Captain isn’t one of Guda’s Servants - he belongs to Sion , so we’ve got to be on our best behavior around them.”

CasCu wondered briefly if burning bedsheets and tossing their ashes into the void of space and time counted as ‘best behavior’. But if the Nemo Series wasn’t going to bring it up with anyone, he wasn’t going to either. And Nobunaga had said … well, he could blame it on her, if things got to that. Kage certainly wouldn’t hesitate to do the same.

“I’ll keep that in mind too,” he said, dryly. “But I’m in no condition to go looking around for trouble. I think I’m going be taking it easy for a bit.”

“That’s a first,” Cu said, throwing a grin over his shoulder, before turning to a set of doors. “But at least here, you can take it easy with good food!” And with that, he pushed open the doors, leaving a clear view of the cafeteria.

It was smaller than Chaldea’s, and because of that, it seemed that less people were trying to pack themselves into the room. It certainly wasn’t as crowded as Chaldea’s cafeteria, as small in comparison as it was. There were tables and chairs, all in that steampunk theme, and some areas were closed off - it looked like there might have been renovations planned to make the space larger. Instead of an open bar, there was a serving window. Emiya was there, serving plates to Proto and Alter.

“Seems they left it to us to get a table,” Cu said, glancing at CasCu with a raised eyebrow and a grin.

“That’s a lot of trust,” CasCu said, his voice light to match that grin, his gaze scanning over the room. He started off, heading towards a table in the corner. Alter would prefer to have a barrier between him and the crowd, and honestly … CasCu could use it too. After so long stuck in his own head, the Cafeteria felt … loud. Crowded.

He was thankful that most people weren’t looking over at him, even if there were a few glances. No doubt news of his situation had travelled - along with the rumors. Gods, without Marie, they must have been circulating like insane…

“Of course it’s a lot of trust,” Cu said, breaking CasCu out of his thoughts. “We trust you, don’t we? Nothing that’s happened has changed that.”

CasCu blinked, glanced sharply at Cu. Cu had a too innocent look on his face. CasCu couldn’t help a huff of an aggrieved laugh. “No?” he asked, dry.

“Nope,” Cu said. He started pulling out chairs, and then flopped into one. CasCu sat across from him, his back to the wall, leaving plenty of space for Alter to grab a seat beside him.

“Well,” CasCu said, settling down with a sigh. “I’m glad to hear that.”

“What, scared that it would change things?” Cu teased, grinning wider.

CasCu had no answer for that. No answer that wasn’t true, anyway, and he knew by the way Cu paused, by the way his own smile felt suddenly fragile, that Cu had picked up on it too. CasCu looked away from him, towards where Alter and Proto were headed their way holding plates piled high with food.

“So,” he said, “is there a limit to how much food you can have at one time? Or are you reaping the benefit of having an Emiya in the kitchens?” 

Cu hesitated, before shrugging and leaning back into his seat. “You know how it is - besides, Emiya made some stuff special for us.”

“Did he now?” CasCu asked. 

“He sure did,” Cu said. He gave CasCu a small grin, softer, warmer. “Said that he was going to feed you well since Kage hadn’t been in the kitchens to do so. His words, not mine.” 

They were so not Emiya’s words, but CasCu could play along. He gave a soft laugh. “Kage would fight him, if he heard that.” 

“Kage would fight anyone,” Alter grunted. He set down the first plate in front of CasCu, then the second one in front of his own seat, before he sat heavily.

Proto set a plate down before Cu, before dropping into his seat with his own plate. “He’s right,” Proto said, “Kage would fight anyone. Especially another Emiya.”

“One day,” Cu said, “we’re going to have to fix that. So then we can have massive family gatherings and Fergus can stop bothering us about never having massive meals with the whole family unit.”

“Of course,” Proto said, “the day that happens is the day pigs fly.”

It got a round of laughter from the table, even from CasCu, smiling a bittersweet thing. Proto was right. The day the Emiyas got along was the day pigs would fly. There was just… too much animosity there, from both Kage and Emiya. Even Edge - mostly uncaring about his other selves - had his moments. And CasCu couldn’t deny that, out of all three of them, his hellion had the toughest time.

But it was still something they could hope would change one day. Pigs flying, after all, wasn’t something completely ludicrous, considering everything Singularities tended to throw at them. Weirder things had happened.

CasCu’s smile slid mostly from his face. He pulled his plate closer to him, and breathed in the rich scents of breakfast. His hand wrapped carefully around his fork. “Thanks,” he said, after a moment or two, “for this. I do appreciate you dragging me out here to eat.”

“Welcome,” Alter grunted.

“Of course,” Cu said. His leg bumped cheerfully against CasCu’s. “What else would we be hear for?”

Proto hesitated, then looked down at his own food. His smile didn’t look so wide now, and CasCu was half afraid - but then Proto shrugged, looked up and grinned. “Like Cu said, or course. We help each other out, don’t we?” 

CasCu knew that smile. It was the smile he wore when he was lying. It didn’t fit right on Proto’s face.

CasCu sighed, and stretched out. His ankle bumped against Proto’s, and he set it there, left it there as both connection and comfort. “We do,” he said, soft, meeting Proto’s gaze. “Of course we do.” 

Even if he wasn’t… even if he wasn’t really a Cu Chulainn, he would still look out for the others. Just like this. Just like they had tried too, while he was caught in Odin’s grip, and they were trying to reach out to him. Just like they were doing now.

Proto’s expression softened. He looked back down at his food, and then shoved a bite into his mouth. It was like a signal to everyone else. Cu started eating, so did Alter. CasCu turned from them, and begin to eat as well, his head down and his ankles resting against both Proto’s and Cu’s, Alter big and warm by his side, though Alter’s tail seemed to be curved to give Proto that extra touch.

The warmth of the connection made CasCu’s eyes burn. So did the taste of the food, though it wasn’t the spices that caused it, but the effort that had been put in. Emiya’s food had a way of doing that. So did Kage’s. Gods, he couldn’t wait to eat Kage’s food again - whenever he got that chance, he was going to savor it. Knowing his hellion, it wouldn’t be long.

But mostly … mostly what made CasCu’s eyes water was his other selves, and their touch, and the offered comfort. Because it meant something. Even if he wasn’t a proper Cu Chulainn, it meant something. And gods, he was going to hold onto that with all he had. 

 

Kage came for him after breakfast, all sleep ruffled hair and hazy eyed, arms wrapping around CasCu’s waist and face planted into his shoulder. “You left me,” he muttered, tired and accusing, into CasCu’s cloak.

CasCu couldn’t help but grin at that, wrapping an arm around him and pressing a kiss against his temple. “Sorry,” he said, “blame the Chulainns. They wanted to have breakfast.” 

Kage lifted his head, and set his chin on CasCu’s shoulder. CasCu didn’t have to see it to know the glare Kage sent the other Chulainns, sharp and dangerous and threatening, as good as his hellion could give. “Did they?” 

“We did,” Cu said, completely unaffected by the glare. “It was a very good breakfast. Shame that you didn’t join us.” 

CasCu snorted at the scowl in Kage’s voice, “We were sleeping.” 

“I didn’t mind,” CasCu said, tilting his head to kiss his hellion’s cheek. “It was good,” he said, “and I’m looking forward to doing it again tomorrow.”

“Really?” Proto asked, a bit brighter, something hopeful.

CasCu’s smile grew softer. “Really,” he said, “besides, the a ghra I know would love to get into the kitchens earlier before he had to do his lessons with Pharaohs.” 

Kage groaned. As far as groans went, it was overly dramatic, which meant that it was practically agreement. He held CasCu tighter for a moment, then let go. “I suppose you’re right,” Kage said, “but only just. Freaking… you know, I think I’m giving out more than I received here. Should fucking make an official complaint about it.”

“You can certainly give it your best shot,” CasCu said, his voice dry. He doubted any Pharaoh would take an official complaint - even an easy-going one like Nicotris.

“You’re cooking for the Pharaohs?” Cu asked, “Sheesh, good luck with that.”

“Worse,” Kage said, grumbling and sighing dramatically, “Fucking giving one of them cooking lessons.” 

There was a pause. CasCu didn’t have to look to know the faces the other Chulainns’ were making. The surprise, the disgust, the faint grumbles of understanding of such misery. “Good luck,” Cu repeated, heart felt.

“Thanks,” Kage said, even drier, before straightening. He looked at CasCu, gaze measured. “Anyway, I had a knock on the door from fucking Scáthach of all people. She said that she and Nightingale will be doing your physical therapy, and that they’re waiting for you in the infirmary. And that you better not be late.”

“You’re doomed,” Proto breathed, pale. Cu nodded once in agreement. Alter just scoffed and looked to the side, which was basically his agreement as well.

CasCu swallowed. “And what classifies as late?”

“Don’t know,” Kage said. “I told her to fuck off and that you’d be there when you’d be there. You were doing important shit , and they could fucking wait. Don’t think she liked that answer, but it was one she took.”

Cu reached out and patted CasCu’s shoulder. “It was nice knowing you,” he said, “and we’d just gotten you back as well.”

“Thanks for the vote of confidence,” CasCu said dryly. He sighed, and glanced to Kage. “The infirmary, you said?”

“Hai,” Kage said, crossing his arms. “I can escort you there if you want.” 

“Probably for the best. If I’m going to be dragged over the coals, I’d rather have you at my side.” he looked at his other selves, Proto, Cu, and Alter, and gave them all something he hoped passed for a smile. “I’ll see you all later?” 

“Be careful,” Proto said, quiet, watching CasCu with such concerned eyes that it almost fucking hurt.

“I will,” CasCu promised, quiet and soft.

“Then we’ll see you,” Alter grunted, and then with one hand on Proto’s shoulder, and one hand on Cu’s, he steered them away. CasCu watched them go down the hall, soon disappeared behind the curve of it.

For a moment he and Kage stood there, in the middle of the hallway, Kage still steady against his side. When Kage spoke, it was very quiet, very soft… but hopeful. “How’d that go? Breakfast with them?” 

It went well,” CasCu said, after a moment.

Kage made a noise between his teeth. “And the thing you were worried about?”

He didn’t give name the thing, but CasCu didn’t need him too. He knew it well. That feeling of falseness, like he was a pretender in his own skin. That he didn’t belong at that table, with his other selves, because he wasn’t true in the ways that mattered … but breakfast had helped. The comfort had been there. And there was a tiny part of CasCu that was starting to realize and remember that - that even if he wasn’t a real Chulainn, that didn’t matter to the other Chulainns. They still cared despite it. And they would continue to do so.

“Working through it,” CasCu settled on. He leaned in, and pressed a kiss to Kage’s temple. “So, the infirmary?”

Kage hesitated, then sighed and leaned against him. “I suppose so,” he drew out, before reaching down and twining his fingers into CasCu’s. “Come on, artifact. I’ll lead the way there, alright?”

“Alright, hellion,” CasCu chuckled, and followed his lead.

 

The sight of both Scáthach and Nightingale waiting for him in the infirmary wasn’t a comforting one. If anything, it was downright terrifying. Scáthach ’s arms were crossed over her chest, and even though CasCu might not have been a proper Chulainn, that sight was enough to send panic bolting through his rib cage. Nightingale, beside her, reading through a checklist with the impatience of a woman with a patient dying before her, was almost worse.

“So,” CasCu said, keeping his voice light, “I am going to assume that this classifies as late.”

“It does,” Scáthach said, her voice biting, “But, considering the circumstances, I am willing to give you leeway - but only this once. If you are late tomorrow, it will be one hundred laps around the Wandering Sea for each minute.”

Kage made a sound between his teeth. CasCu felt the blood drain from his face. He didn’t even know how large the Wandering Sea was, but the way Scáthach said those words made him convinced that it was quite large. And in the shape that he was currently in … gods, was she trying to kill him?

Nightingale looked up from her clipboard. “Absolutely not,” she intoned, “if he is late, then it will be ten laps per minute. Any more would risk damaging his connection to his body. We cannot do physical therapy if he is exhausted from your training regime. That can come after he has reconnected his mind to his muscles.”

Scáthach ’s lips pursed. “Very well,” she said, after a too long moment.

CasCu didn’t know what was worse - watching Nightingale argue with Scáthach , or watching Scáthach give in. He glanced wildly at his hellion, and Kage just shook his head, and leaned in close, voice soft in CasCu’s mind. “Want me to stick around?” 

“Yes, please,” CasCu said. “I might need you to bail me out.”

“Always happy to do that,” Kage murmured, before pulling away and taking to Spirit Form. CasCu could still feel him close by though, a warmth that signaled that he was there, waiting and present, ready if CasCu needed him. Just that understanding made CasCu’s breathing easier, made his shoulders relax and his body loosen. They could do this. He could do this.

“So,” He said, giving both Scáthach and Nightingale a shade of a smile. “Where do we begin today?”

“With a physical,” Nightingale said, before Scáthach could speak. She pointed at one of the beds expectantly. “We will gauge where your current abilities are, before we determine what needs to be worked on. Are you prepared?” 

“I am,” CasCu said. 

“Good,” Nightingale said. Her eyes were glowing, the wild red of that familiar madness. “Then let us begin.”

 

All in all, physical therapy was not as … terrifying as Scáthach ’s introduction had promised him. Nightingale seemed to have taken the lead. Scáthach just watched, until it was time for her to offer her advice on the trainings that would be the best for improving his condition. And she had good advice - perhaps a little bit daunting, but Nightingale was swift to cut down anything she believed would injure CasCu more than helping him. 

Oddly enough, the most terrifying part was worrying that Nightingale and Scáthach would turn each other. But that’s what one got from having two such… intense personalities in the same room, and so often directly conflicting with one another. Nightingales impulse to heal and Scáthach ’s ruthless training system did not jive well with one another.

And at the same time …

At the same time, Scáthach felt oddly muted. She didn’t fit the memories he had of her, and even if CasCu couldn’t fully trust the memories, didn’t know which ones were real and which ones he’d made up, he knew the ones from her time in Chaldea. And she was not acting the way she had in Chaldea. 

The Scáthach he knew would have pushed more. The Scáthach he knew would have pressed more, fought back, until the threat of violence between the two women was thick as the blood they would almost spill. But Scáthach , she was … pulling back. Letting Nightingale lead, and it felt so viscerally wrong that CasCu was almost lost. He nearly messed up on some of his exercises because of it.

Scáthach was trying to be nice to him. Scáthach wasn’t a nice person. Yet here she was, trying to be nice to him, as what - an apology? He didn’t know. It felt so ridiculous, that Scáthach would be trying to apologize to him … but this would be the way she did it. Without saying the words, but meaning them full hearted.

CasCu left the physical therapy session feeling both settled and uncertain. He trusted in Nightingale’s choices and abilities. All the exercises and methods she’d chosen for them seemed like they would work - they made sense. And yet Scáthach … 

The question of Scáthach lingered in his mind, even after he left, his feet automatically taking him the path to his and Kage’s bedroom.

Kage appeared by his side soon after he left the infirmary. His hand reached out; CasCu took it, and gave it a squeeze, tight and didn’t let go. He waited until they were closer to their bedroom before saying, “I think that went alright.”

“It looked like it did,” Kage said.

“It felt like it did,” CasCu agreed. For a second, they walked in silence. His hand flexed, before he squeezed Kage’s tightly. “Did Scáthach seem … off to you?”

Kage glanced sharp at him. They were at the door to the bedroom now. He pushed it open with a frown on his face. “I don’t know her,” he said, “not like you and your other selves do - but she didn’t seem as … intense as she typically is? Or if so, intense in different ways. It was actually kinda fucking creepy. Nightingale seemed to have more energy.”

Creepy was a good word for it. Another one CasCu might have used was concerning. He let out a breath between his teeth, considering, before he stepped fully into their bedroom. “You’re right. And any world where Scáthach has less energy then Nightingale is a concerning one. I’ll tell the others about it. Gods knows one of them could cheer her up.”

Considering he wasn’t sure he was capable of it, anymore. Besides, Scáthach ’s version of ‘cheering up’ meant putting a student through horrible, traumatizing training, and that was something CasCu just wasn’t up to right now. But one of his other selves would be. Probably Proto. Gods knows he could use the distraction.

And that would give CasCu time to think about what to say to Scathach, when it finally came time for the two of them to talk.

“So sic em on her,” Kage says, dragging CasCu to the bed and flopping down upon it. “They can figure it out. Doesn’t have to be our fucking problem.”

CasCu chuckled as he was dragged down with him. “I’m quite certain this is my problem,” he said, “since this is probably her attempt at an apology to me.” He sagged against Kage’s side with a sigh.

Kage wrapped an arm around him, nuzzled into his hair. “Good.” 

CasCu made a noncommittal noise. He wasn’t sure that it was a good thing. What happened to Scáthach happened when - while the divide between him and Odin wasn’t fully formed. When Odin was waking up, was waiting for a chance to take over. Scáthach had stepped in at the wrong place, at the wrong time , to an enemy she wasn’t fully prepared for, in a battle Odin was ready for. And she’d suffered for it.

What happened hadn’t been her fault. She didn’t need to apologize for it.

CasCu sighed, and tucked his face into Kage’s shoulder. He breathed in the warmth and solidity of his hellion’s stubborn presence, then reached out mentally for another. “Hey, Proto? Got a moment?” 

The reply came almost immediately, rushed with Proto’s urge to help. “Yes, of course. What do you need?” 

“It’s Scáthach ,” CasCu said, his voice soft. “Do you think you could check up on her? I had a physical therapy session with her and Nightingale earlier , and she wasn’t… well, she didn’t seem to be enjoying it.” 

Scáthach ? Not enjoying a training session?” Proto asked, incredulous.

“Yeah, that’s what I said,” CasCu said, his mental chuckle just a touch better. “I don’t think - she’s doing well. So will you just check in on her?”

“Of course.” The reply was too swift for someone who knew damned well that checking up on Scáthach would result in a blistering, painful training session for them. But CasCu knew it was the answer that would have come anyway. Proto had been willing to do anything to help him, and as much as CasCu hated to abuse that need in this way … he knew that Proto would help Scáthach , and perhaps she would help him.

“Thank you,” he said, his voice soft. 

“You’re welcome,” Proto said, “I’ll tell you how it goes.” 

“Be appreciated.”

CasCu opened his eyes, and turned to look at Kage. Kage was watching him, some stupidly fond expression on his face, and CasCu could feel his own match it. He leaned up, and kissed the corner of Kage’s lips gently. “So,” he said, his voice soft. “When do you have to teach that Pharaoh to cook today?”

Kage made a noise between his teeth. “Gods, don’t remind me. I’ve got like,,, maybe an hour? If I’m lucky , and she doesn’t decide to ruin my schedule. Which she might. Because she’s a fucking pharaoh.” 

CasCu snorted, and kissed his jaw next. “Uh huh. And has she been making any progress so far?” 

Kage made a noise between his teeth, slight, before he let out a longer breath. “Yes? I mean - more than at the beginning. She’s actually started listening to me, and I think she legitimately wants to learn these recipes, so at least it means she’s driven.”

The words were said with such a grumble, but CasCu knew a proper compliment when he heard it. He chuckled, and pressed a kiss against the other side of Kage’s jaw. “Then I’ll take what little time I have with you while I can. Would you rather read or snuggle, a ghra?”

Kage leaned into the touch, shifting to kiss CasCu’s temple in turn. “Don’t know why we can’t do both,” he says, giving CasCu a grin, halfway teasing. “Unless you had a different type of snuggling in mind, artifact.”

The words dragged a snort from him. CasCu couldn’t help but laugh, and lean up to kiss him proper, just settled in the touch and comfort as Kage kissed back. Let the worries about Scáthach and Proto fall away, in favor of this moment.

“Nah,” he said, when the kiss was over, and he could pull back just far enough to see Kage’s face. “Reading and snuggling is good enough for me, hellion.”

“Then reading and snuggling it is,” Kage said, his agreement soft and warm, and CasCu thrummed for it.

 

Their hour of comfortable reading was interrupted by a knock on the door. CasCu debated ignoring it. Beside him, Kage shifted. CasCu watched as his expression tightened, a scowl curling solidly onto his lips - but then the person knocked again, and there was a soft call, young and feminine and familiar. “Hello? It’s Lilly. I was wondering if CasCu was in.” 

Lilly. CasCu lost his breath for a moment, and watched as Kage froze. Lily, the youngest version of Artoria Pendragon. Lily, the newest recruit to the gossip gang. Lily, who CasCu hadn’t seen since the destruction of Chaldea. 

“I could tell her to fuck off,” Kage suggested, his voice soft.

“No,” CasCu said, his voice quiet. “I want to talk to her.”

“Alright.”

CasCu sucked in a deep breath, then pushed himself to his feet, and walked to the door. He opened it up, and stared down at the young woman, who stared up at him. She was the same as ever, except … the haunted, tired look in her eyes, hidden behind her smile. The exhaustion and the tiredness didn’t suit her. 

“Hey,” CasCu said, “Did you need something?”

“Yes,” she said, and then moved to hug him. 

CasCu blinked sharply. Lily’s arms were tight around his waist, her fingers clenched into the fabric of his cloak. She held him tight, her body shaking slightly. Not crying, no, but the way she gripped him certainly implied that she’d shed tears at one point. 

CasCu let out a sound between his teeth, and wrapped his arms around her in turn. It always surprised him, how small Lily was. She had a big presence. Marie had had the same effect, a large presence with such a slight form. “I’m alright,” he murmured, his voice soft. “All in one piece and back in my head.” 

“Good,” Lily said. “When I heard the news, I was so worried … but Merlin said the problem would resolve itself. I wish he had told me the full story.”

“Lesson on you for believing in that bastard,” CasCu huffed.

“Of course I believed him! Merlin is my mentor, he’s guided me for so long and has continued to do so … I suppose he did not think I would be of any use in this. Sense I still have my training to complete,” she gave CasCu a watery smile, then pulled away. “But that’s passed now. I think we should all gather for tea. Do you think so?”

CasCu laughed a little bit. “Marie would have liked that,” he said, before glancing into the room, his eyebrow raised. “What do you say, hellion? Am I good to go?” 

Kage glanced up from his book. He smiled briefly, warm and touching, and CasCu couldn’t help but smile back. “Yeah … have fun, and give me a call if you need me.” 

“Will Nicotris even let you escape?” CasCu asked, his voice dry.

“I’ll figure out a way,” Kage said, his voice dry, gaze lingering on CasCu. “She sure as hell won’t be able to keep me from helping you out.”

“I know,” CasCu said, his voice softer. He turned back to Lily, who was smiling at this exchange, something warmer and smaller. CasCu smiled back. “Well, Miss Lily, lead the way.”

 

There was nothing special about the room Lily had selected. It was just as bland and boring as every other room in the Wandering Sea, complete with it’s steampunk theme. But it was also clear this room had been pre-chosen, for upon the table sat a teakettle full of steaming liquid. The fragrance was familiar. CasCu sucked in a sharp breath between his teeth.
Marie’s favorite. How the Wandering Sea had that stocked, CasCu didn’t know. But gods, it did make his eye ache.

“No Achilles yet?” He asked, moving to sit down.

Lily sat across from him, and shook her head. “I haven’t told him yet. Figured that, well -” She took a piece of her ponytail and began to play with it, chewing uncertain on the ends of the strands. “Do you want me to ask him to come?”

“Well,” CasCu said, “if this is supposed to be a meeting of the Gossip Gang, then it’s not a proper meeting without him.”

Lily’s eyes slid to the side. “It’s not a proper meeting without her, either,” she said, her voice quiet and soft.

No, no it wasn’t. 

CasCu sat quiet, staring at the table and the empty seat. Marie was gone. Lost, with so many other Spirits, defending their Chaldea in their flight from it. But CasCu could still imagine her sitting there, in one of her fancy hats, sipping her tea and lecturing him on how he needed to cheer up. There was still a lot going on, and someone need to keep an eye on the pulse of the Wandering Sea, to report to Guda if things went wrong.

He’d never questioned before, why he was so invested in general gossip when his other selves weren’t. Cu was happy to tease - but only when stuff applied to his friends. Proto was much the same, though sometimes he got interested in stuff that happened to acquaintances too. Alter couldn’t care less. And CasCu … CasCu cared about it more than all of them combined, and he’d never questioned why.

It seemed so clear now. This was - or had been - a reminder of Odin. The overpowering desire to know. The need to feel the pulse and flow of Chaldea’s rumors and lies and truths and relationships. A spider on a web, a king on the throne of information. This had been Odin’s originally, a bit of his personality slipping into what he’d constructed out of his own.

A part of CasCu half expected to hate that fact. Wanted to throw that realization away and never consider it again. But he didn’t. This had been Odin’s … but it had also been CasCu’s. CasCu had started this as a way to make sure Guda didn’t struggle being Master for so many Servants. And when Marie came along, she had transformed it into something so unrecognizable, and yet so effective. He couldn’t …

He couldn’t not acknowledge that.

“Let’s call Achilles,” CasCu said, after a moment. “She wouldn’t want us to fall apart for her passing, and we still have a role to play here.”

“Alright,” Lily said. She took a sip of her tea, then closed her eyes. CasCu didn’t hear anything … but he really didn’t need to.

There was a whoosh of air, a thump of the door, then Achilles was at the table with them. He sat there, bouncing with too much energy, his eyes flicking between CasCu and Lily with something that could have been nerves or excitement. “So,” he said, “getting the gang back together?”

“That’s the hope,” Lily said, giving him a small smile, “Though I was thinking … that maybe we just start with some tea, and some conversation with each other. I am not ready for gossip quite yet …”

“Me neither,” CasCu agreed, “but it’s a good idea to start planting our ear to the ground and listening to what’s going on. There’s bound to be a bunch of stuff I missed.”

“Oh, you missed so much,” Achilles agreed. He opened his mouth, hesitated, glancing at CasCu side long. He looked like he was debating saying something. CasCu gave him a half smile, and Achilles relaxed. “Are you ready to hear about all the insanity that's happened since we’ve arrived? This place is insane.”

“Has it been that much stuff?” CasCu asked, his voice a touch dry. “I didn’t notice.”

Achilles flinched briefly. Lily let out a soft, almost giggle. “It has been quite a mess,” she said. “Guda and Sion have … not quite been butting heads, but there’s certainly been a few interesting wrinkles in the power structure. Luckily, Director Gordolf seems to be stepping up to the plate and taking control of things?”

“Really now?” CasCu asked, gracefully ignoring Achilles’ flinch. “He didn’t seem the type to me.”

“Well, he has changed a lot, since his introduction to Chaldea.” Lily said, tapping her finger against her cheek thoughtfully. “Sometimes, he almost reminds me of Sir Kay. He has that … big brother vibe, in his own way. Always looking after everyone, even if he says it is to mostly to save his own skin.”

“I think that’s just called an asshole,” Achilles said, his voice dry. “An asshole with a side of softness.”

“Or perhaps a man putting on a bluster,” CasCu offered. “A … mask of a proper mage, if you would.” 

The word ‘mask’ didn’t come easy to his lips. It tasted bitter on his tongue, a reminder of what he was and wasn’t. And perhaps there was some of that bitterness in his voice. Lily’s gaze softened. She reached out and covered his hand. Achilles looked away.

“In either case,” Lily said, “I do not think I mind Director Gordolf being our Director anymore. He seems to have a vested interest in keeping Guda’s plate light, and that’s good enough for me. I just hope that the ruffles of the chain of command will be eased soon. I might still be in training, but I know this situation is not good for everyone.”

“Yeah,” CasCu said softly. He gave Lily a small smile, and turned her hand to give it a soft squeeze. “But there’s not much we can do about that. So as Marie would say … spill the tea. What’s going on in the Wandering Sea?”

 

The biggest news - unsurprisingly - was of CasCu’s … situation. Though people hadn’t been fully aware of what was going on while Odin was in control, the word had spread like wildfire after he was admitted to the infirmary. Beyond that, almost everything was oddly like Chaldea all over again. Petty squabbles, feelings left unaddressed or addressed. Achilles and Diarmuid had finally gotten together, and Diarmuid and Fionn had … made up - both things that had drawn Achilles’ away from CasCu’s situation. 

It wasn’t said like an excuse. CasCu tried not to take it as one.

The last thing that came up during their conversation was the Lostbelts.

Because the Lostbelts were fundamentally different from the Singularities Guda had corrected before. Those Singularities had been fixing humanity. The Lostbelts were … well, it was destroying a humanity - not their humanity, but a humanity that could have been. It was different. No one had died during the Singularities. But with each Lostbelt conquered, with each Lostbelt King destroyed and Tree of Emptiness cut down … those lives fell and possibilities fell on their shoulders.

The Russian Lostbelt. A cold place, a freezing place where only the strong could survive, and humanity would have perished if not for the fact of a mage who tied humanities blood with the blood of phantasmal beasts. 

The Scandinavian Lostbelt. Skadi’s desperate attempt at balancing her love for her homeland, with the responsibilities forced upon her by a different Odin. How humanity had suffered for her choices, her bias towards her kin, and her determination not to lose anything else. 

The lives those worlds laid claim to were now laid heavy upon the shoulders of Guda, Mash, and all in Chaldea. CasCu could feel them. He could still here Skadi’s voice, booming in her declaration of what she would do to protect her world. 

“Then, for the responsibility I bear for my ten thousand subjects, I will take that unfathomably vast number of lives with my own hands. I refuse to let my world be wiped away by your own!”

Just as they had taken the weight of her ten thousand subjects upon their shoulders. Just as they had taken the weight of the lives of the Russian Lostbelt upon their back. And they would keep on taking that weight, Lostbelt by Lostbelt, each humanity wiped out until there was none but their own left.

There was nothing heroic in this. It was just a desperate race for survival.

And all the Heroic Spirits in Chaldea knew it too. And now that they were in the Wandering Sea, in a place where they could talk and discuss this situation … discussions were being had. Divisions being made. There were Heroic Spirits who couldn’t see past the many being killed for their own world, who were worried about the monsters that might come from their determination to survive. There were Heroic Spirits that didn’t care about the monstrosities, and had no hesitation in committing to the path ahead.

“Guda is going to have to say something, soon.” Lily said. She looked down at her hands, her cup of tea. “I know we were all Summoned to help them save the world, but this is - the situation has changed.” 

“Let me guess,” CasCu said, his voice soft, “you don’t want to fight anymore.”

Lily’s head dropped. She stared at her reflection in her cup of tea. “I know… my older self will fight. She will do anything she must, no matter how much it hurts herself. She will not waver in carrying their deaths upon her shoulders … but I am not that. Not yet. I can not … I do not think I am capable of such feats yet. Guda has not made an announcement yet … but I think they will give people a choice. And when they do, I will be choosing not to fight.”

She said the words softly, as if half afraid of their rejection. CasCu felt his heart soften with that. “Don’t worry,” he said, his voice soft, “it’s strong, Lily, to hold onto such convictions. And it is not weak, to not want to participate in something like this.”

Lily nodded briefly. Her teeth chewed on her lip, before she looked up, sudden , and swift. “Of course, I will help where I can! I do not mind helping close Singularities, like we did in Chaldea. And this… this right here is a form of help. I want to help. I just can not -”

“We know,” Achilles said. He gave Lily a grin. “Don’t worry. Leave the killing to us assholes who can stand it.”

There are plenty of Servants here,” CasCu said, his voice soft. “Maybe not as many as we had before - but we can get there, won’t we? You said the Summoning Circle was up. That means we’ll have reinforcements … reinforcements who will have a better understanding of the situation they’re walking into. So it’s alright Lily, to not fight on the front lines, and help out in other ways. Gods know - Gods know that’s probably what I’ll be doing.”

Achilles blinked. “Really?”

“Yes,” CasCu said. He looked down at his cup of tea. He and Kage hadn’t talked about this - not with everything else that had happened, but CasCu knew what Kage’s answer would be, like the back of his hand. “I’m tied to Kage now - I won’t be able to fight without him by my side. And even then … this isn’t a situation Kage should fight in. It’s not a situation he’ll want to fight in. So I’ll be here with you Lily, doing what I can on the backlines. Will probably be working my ass off in the Infirmary for quite some time.”

“I suppose we will have to do our best from the back together,” Lily said, giving CasCu a bright smile.

“That’s right,” CasCu agreed. “We’ll leave the Lostbelts to those who can stand it, like Achilles over here.” He knocked his foot into Achilles’ leg lightly.

Achilles just shrugged, and didn’t argue. It was just a simple fact: Achilles didn’t care about enemies like he cared about his friends. His enemies might as well have been specks of dust on the wind, unless they’d done something to hurt him and his, and that was relatively hard to do. CasCu … well, he was much the same in some ways. The fight was good. Enemies might have had their own lives, their own loves, but at the end of the day they were still enemies. He cared a bit more about them than he would have if he was in his Lancer form -

Not that he had a Lancer form. Not properly. Not in the way he used to. CasCu let out a breath, and sank further back into his chair. He did his best to push thoughts like that from his mind. Still, they cropped up, like pesky weeds sprouting in all the cracks of his conscious.

Lily set her teacup down. The sound of china on china made CasCu jerk from his own thoughts, look up. Lily’s uncertainty had faded away - instead was the steely resolve that would so mark her older self. “Well, I will start spreading the word that I am looking for jobs for those that would prefer not to support instead of fight on the front lines. Otherwise - I suppose we keep an eye on the pulse? See how things turn out?”

“Sounds good to me,” Achilles said, shrugging. “Meeting every week?”

“Yeah,” CasCu said, letting out a breath. “Once a week to discuss what we’ve figured out sounds good to me.”

“Great,” Lily said. She stood, and started gathering the empty cups and the cutlery. She gave them both a smile. “Then I’ll see you soon?” 

“Yeah,” CasCu said, soon.

Lily left in a rustle of skirts, the door closing behind her. It felt as if there was a vacuum of space where she had been. Lily’s presence was bright, empowering, even if her uncertainty about her choices had been palpable … but the obvious lack of Marie’s presence was made all the clearer by Lily’s departure.

If Marie was here, the meeting wouldn’t have ended so soon. There would have been another round of tea, another round of cookies, another round of chatter about inane things. Lily was still young, and it was clear the Lostbelts were weighing heavily on her. CasCu was … gods, he wasn’t up to inane chatter today. And Achilles …

Achilles was watching him, something hesitant in his expression. CasCu sighed, then stretched out, kept his voice dry. “What is it, Achilles?” 

Achilles started briefly, then laughed. “Guess you’d catch onto me paying attention,” he said, making a face.

“You’re not very subtle,” CasCu said, dry.

“I’m trying!” Achilles squawked. He hesitated a moment, then groaned and looked away. He ran his hand over the back of his head. “Just… thinking about what to say about … the whole Odin shit, you know? For not checking in on you. For not … noticing.” 

“Yes, well,” CasCu said with a sigh, “ there were a lot of things going on. I’m sure you had stuff occupying your attention.”

“Yes, but still, I shouldn’t have just … up and ignored you for so long. Cu said you’d said you needed space, but still … shoulda checked in. Sorry I didn’t.” Achilles made a face, tight, and CasCu … CasCu couldn’t help but feel the oddest punch in his gut.

In so many ways, Odin’s plan hadn’t worked. Just look at everything he did with Kage: a disaster born of his own hope Loki was there somewhere. Yet in many ways, Odin’s plan had worked. At the beginning, there’d been that space given, Odin’s request. Achilles had honored that. He had no reason to be suspicious of it, especially since it was Cu passing on Odin’s message. CasCu couldn’t be angry at him for that.

But he could be tired. Gods, he could be tired.

“You’re forgiven,” he said, pushing himself to his feet with a sigh. “Let’s just hope there’s not another time like this, alright?” 

Achilles hesitated, then nodded with a sigh. “Yeah,” he said, his voice soft. “Sounds like a plan to me.” 

“Better,” CasCu said. He turned to head towards the door.

Achilles reached out, snagging his wrist before he could pass fully. “You’re … doing alright though, right? Doing better now?”

CasCu didn’t answer that immediately. That felt like a million-dollar question that he didn’t have an answer to. Because he wasn’t doing better, or perhaps he was in some sense. His mind was his own. His body was his own. Each second without Odin’s interference made that understanding more solid in his head. And yet - 

And yet he still wasn’t alright. There was a disconnect between his mind and his body that had yet to disappear. Gods, he was having to relearn his own body. Every other moment, he couldn’t help but be reminded that he was a mask, a shell, a facsimile of a Chulainn whose memories weren’t really real. Just an edited copy. A puppet that had snapped the strings and danced to their own tune until the puppet master reattached them. And he hated it. And no matter what Kage said, or the other Chulainn’s said … now that he understood he was a puppet, that knowledge was never going to go away.

“I’m getting there,” he said instead, and took to Spirit Form.

 

Kage was in the kitchens, still teaching Nicotris how to cook. No matter what Kage had said about the lessons … he didn’t seem like he was having a bad time. There was a recipe book between them, spread out on some fancy dish - it was probably too difficult a thing for a beginner, but Kage had always loved a challenge. 

Both Kage and Nicotris wore aprons. Nicotris also wore a band that kept her hair back, though it meant her ears were flicked back as well, as if in a state of worry. Yet her face held the concentrated look customary of a Pharaoh of her caliber dedicated to completing her task. No matter what Nicotris thought of herself compared to the other Pharaohs, she was the real deal. She did things her way, or not at all.

CasCu settled against the wall, watching the two work. Whatever issues they’d had at the beginning of their training sessions seemed to have mostly smoothed out. Of course, they had. Kage just liked to complain sometimes, and CasCu had a ridiculous fondness for listening to him rant. But it was clear that this was working out, if the lack of mistakes meant anything. 

By the end of it, Kage packaged up his portion of the cooking, and nodded once to Nicotris. His voice was gruff, a touch awkward. “You’re doing alright … passable. Not going to poison anyone today.”

“I haven’t poisoned anyone any day,” Nicotris said, huffing as she packed her own bit of food. “But it is good that you finally acknowledge my prowess. Soon, I will be capable of making a feat not even Lord Ozymandias could look up.”

‘Soon’ Kage mouthed behind her back, with an eye roll. He turned away, gathered the last of his things. “Keep it to Scheherazade for now,” he said, his voice dry. “Good night, Pharaoh.” 

Nicotris flushed, and didn’t reply. And despite everything, CasCu couldn’t help but raise an eyebrow and grin. He waited until Kage was outside the kitchen before manifesting by his side, leaning heavy on his staff. “Was that comment meant the way I think it was,” he said, half a tease, half curiosity.

Kage made a noise between his teeth. “What, one meeting in , and you’re already back to your gossiping ways, artifact?” 

“I have no clue what you’re talking about, hellion,” CasCu teased back, settling as they walked. In Kage speak, those words were practically a yes. So there was something going on between Nicotris and Scheherazade … he’d suspected for a while, but beyond his other selves, the romantic tanglings of Chaldea had always been more of Marie’s interest. But she would have been happy to know that information.

“I’m sure you don’t,” Kage said, his lips twitching into a faint smirk.

CasCu couldn’t help but lean in and press his lips to the corner of it, no matter the flush and the yelp Kage let out. CasCu pulled back with a smile, too fond and affectionate, but he really couldn’t care. “Well,” he said, “is that food for us?”

“It is,” Kage said, giving him a snort. “Figured you’d like to eat in our room … so how about it? Even managed a little bit of baking, between herding the Pharaoh around.”

CasCu snorted, his lips wide in a grin. “Don’t say it like that - you were enjoying teaching her. I could tell.”

“I have no fucking clue what you’re talking about.”

“Of course you don’t,” CasCu reached out, and Kage took his hand, fingers linking together gently.

Kage gave a squeeze, his lips twitching. “I sure don’t,” he said, and together, hand in hand, they moved back to their rooms. CasCu’s smile lingered on his lips, small, but full of that warmth that came with small moments like this. Because it was moments like this that made ever other one worth it.

Chapter 28: Chapter 28

Summary:

Words of Wisdom (?) always come from the most unexpected of sources.

Notes:

HEY EVERYONE! Oh boy, we're finally here - at the final chapter of this fic! I want to thank everyone whose come this far with me through it, and I'm so glad you've enjoyed everything! Those that came in from the beginning, those that jumped aboard while I was writing, and for those that have picked up this fic after it's completion - every single comment and kudo has been much appreciated. I hope you all enjoy, and I'll see you in the concluding notes!

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Chapter Text

CasCu woke naturally, the way one should - wrapped up in the arms of his hellion, listening to the sleepy protests as Kage did his best to fight the lure of wakefulness and lost. For a long few moments, he just lay there, watching Kage’s expressions go through tiny, incremental shifts as his brain started working. CasCu couldn’t help but thumb along his cheek, feel the way Kage twitched beneath his touch, then leaned into it.

Gods - it was such a simple thing. But CasCu’s heart couldn’t help but swell with warmth. Everything seemed so … well, it was all so fragile and all so dangerous and perhaps there were too many cobwebs and cracks in his head, but it all felt manageable, with Kage right beside him, watching him as he woke up. 

“Good morning,” CasCu breathed, when Kage’s eyes finally showed a sliver of yellow beneath his lashes.

“Mngh,” Kage mumbled back, which was about as coherent as he ever got when he woke up this early.

CasCu chuckled, and leaned in to press a kiss against his forehead. “I have breakfast with the Chulainns,” he murmured, his voice quiet, “and they haven’t collected me yet, so I bet they’re still waiting for my go ahead. Think you can wake up quick enough that you can walk me there, a ghra?”

Kage blinked at him. For a moment, his gaze looked covered in fog. Then his expression cleared. One hand reached up to rub hard at his eyes. He yawned, wide, before he began to slowly, reluctantly, push himself free of the warm blankets and pillows. “Guess I can,” he mumbled, scrubbing at his face.

CasCu watched him. Just … watched him, and couldn’t help to feel the warm-sharp bundle of relief that he had the chance to see Kage’s attempts at waking up. He smiled as he pushed himself out of bed. “Appreciated,” he said, voice warm.

“Mhm,” Kage mumbled. He scrubbed his face, then stumbled to the small bathroom - likely to splash cold water on himself to wake himself up.

CasCu chuckled, and tipped his head back, eye closed. For a second, he just… took stock of himself. It felt like he was moving easier, that his body was responding in closer connection to his thoughts - it wasn’t anything like it had been, but it was a start. He could feel the pulses of the talismans against his chest - no doubt if he looked down, he would see the twin aura’s beneath his cloak.

But he didn’t look down. He didn’t let himself think about the power of that mystic eye. It wouldn’t ruin his morning.

Yo ,” he said, sending the words out to the Chulainn’s. “Have you had breakfast yet?”

“Nope!” Came Cu’s eager reply, “We’re waiting for you to be released from the clutches of your brat. That is happening soon, right? I’m getting hungry.”

CasCu couldn’t help but grin. “We’ll be at the cafeteria soon,” he promised, “the hellion is escorting me there.”

“Do you need an escort?” Proto asked, his voice a touch more uncertain than Cu’s own.

“Nightingale doesn’t want me wandering around alone,” CasCu said, his voice dry, “but don’t worry about it, I’ll be fine. See you guys soon.” 

He cut the connection before Proto could ask anything else. In the bathroom, there was the rush of running water, then the sudden silence as it was turned off. Kage wandered back out into the bedroom, looking slightly refreshed. That didn’t stop him from yawning. “Ready, artifact?” 

“Ready,” CasCu said, and stood.

 

Nightingale … had probably been onto something, when she’d said he needed a lot of bed rest and to be escorted around by people in case his body betrayed him. CasCu hadn’t exactly meant to be walking around so much these past two days , but things had a way of happening … and he felt it now, burning a little in his legs as he walked with Kage to the cafeteria. Enough that it was noticeable, to the people who knew him.

Are you alright ?” Kage asked, his voice a whisper, his hand light on CasCu’s arm.

“Alright,” CasCu murmured back. “Probably going to try to take it easier today if I can …”

“I’ll scare away anyone who doesn’t let you,” Kage murmured back, his voice quiet and soft, but full of threat.

It made CasCu smile. He leaned in to press a kiss to Kage’s cheek and watch it turn red. “Thanks, a ghra.”

“Welcome,” Kage mumbled, with a little, embarrassed huff, looking away.

CasCu chuckled, and turned from him. They continued walking to the cafeteria, Kage’s hand light on his elbow, supporting him, helping him forwards. It wasn’t too long before they reached the doors that signified the room. And outside of them, standing there, a touch awkward and looking down the hallways, was Proto.

Kage made a noise sharp between his teeth. CasCu patted his hand briefly. “It’s alright,” he murmured, quiet.

“I know that,” Kage hissed. He still didn’t sound too gracious.

CasCu let out a soft sound, squeezed Kage’s hand once, then raised his own. “Proto!” He called, “good morning.” 

Proto jerked off the wall in a fumble of pinwheeling arms - either he’d been deep asleep or lost in thought, and CasCu could take a guess as to which. Proto spun on his heel, and waved, his grin stretching his lips but not reaching his eyes. “Morning!” he called, “figured I’d be your escort from here on out … got the table set up and everything for you …” he laughed, awkward, his gaze flitting away from him.

CasCu softened. He gave Kage’s hand one more squeeze, then stepped away from him. “I promise I’m not that fragile,” he said.

“Sure you aren’t,” Kage said dryly. He leaned up, brushed his lips across CasCu’s cheek. “I’ll see you in a little bit, artifact,” he said, his voice far too soft and warm, and part of CasCu couldn’t help but melt to hear it.

“Yeah,” he breathed, pressing a kiss back, “in a little bit.” 

Then Kage was gone, disappearing into the cafeteria - probably to head to the kitchens. He ignored Proto as he brushed by him. CasCu let out a breath, then summoned his staff, leaned against it. “You look like hell,” he said, conversationally.

“Thanks,” Proto said. He hesitated, kicking at the ground. “Do you want my arm?”

“Nah,” CasCu said, “I have my staff … but if I fall you’re more than welcome to cushion the landing.” He made it a joke, light and amused, nothing serious to be found in it. Proto let out a little, rough laugh.

“Yeah,” He said, “I’ll be sure to do so.”

Snorting, CasCu nodded once, and Proto turned to lead the way into the cafeteria. CasCu walked after him, leaning on his staff, watching the back of the youngest Chulainn. His back was stiff, but he walked loosely enough, and CasCu … he had to ask, as they moved to their table. Couldn’t help but ask. 

“How are you doing?” 

For a brief moment, Proto paused. Then he collapsed into a chair. Cu and Alter had already brought the food over, but neither of them were visible. They’d taken the moment to scatter. Not surprising - they all knew each other’s cues, when something was going on and a talk was being had, even if it was mental.

CasCu sank into the seat opposite of Proto and waited for his reply. It took a few moments to come. “Well … better than you, I bet?” Proto offered.

“Somehow doubt that,” CasCu replied, his voice dry. “I think we can both be not doing well in different ways … you don’t owe me anything, you know. And you don’t have to act like you do either.” 

And that was the crux of the matter, the reason for Proto’s stiffness, the way everything he did read wrong. He was still beating himself up over it. And though CasCu had told him it was alright … well, he knew just as well as Proto that sometimes words weren’t enough. Sometimes healing from mistakes took longer than a few assurances.

I know,” Proto admitted, sinking down into his seat with a grumble. “It’s just - I know you don’t need it. I know you have plenty of people helping you out … but I want to help. I want to do my part.”

Like he handn’t been able to, when Odin had been in control.

CasCu let out a soft breath between his teeth, then nodding gently. “Alright,” he said, “I’ll need help moving from place to place - Nightingale’s orders. You think you could escort me when the hellion isn’t available?”

Proto shot up, eyes wide with relief. “Yes! I can. Gods - any specific places you want me to escort you too?” 

“No,” CasCu said, shaking his head, his lips twitching just slightly. He’d been right. That was the best way to help Proto out. “I’ll let you know when I need your help. But until then -” he pointed to the food, raised his eyebrow, and said this part aloud, “Shall we start eating? It’s almost too late for this to be called breakfast.”

There was a bamph of air as Cu appeared in the spot next to Proto. “Never too late for breakfast!” He argued, cheerfully.

Alter made a soft noise of agreement, but otherwise didn’t respond. His appearance had been much quieter. He sat, already reaching for one of the plates of food. His tail curved around CasCu’s back, a solid presence that CasCu couldn’t help but take comfort from.

Proto gave a grin, wry, and this time - this time it did reach his eyes. CasCu let out a relieved little breath. “Well,” Proto says, “it seems like there’s not much of a choice being given to us, huh?”

“With this group?” CasCu said dryly, “you know there never really is.” 

Cu squawked his protest, and Alter let out a rumble of what might have been amusement or agreement. Proto let out a laugh, and CasCu dipped his head with a grin, focused on finishing the food in front of him, still warm from when it had been passed over to whoever had brought it to the table.

And for a second, he felt… right. Like he belonged. That fog, that fear, that not being a proper Chulainn would keep him away from the others, felt as fragile as morning mist, easily burned away by the rays of the growing dawn.

 

Kage was there to escort CasCu to the infirmary. CasCu slid his arm into Kage’s as they walked, feeling the steady stride of his hellion, keeping him stable as they walked. He could feel Kage’s eyes on him, and his lips twitched slightly. “Yes?” 

Kage made a noise between his teeth, then leaned against him. “Nothing,” he said, “You just look better, artifact.”

“Well then,” CasCu said, “I’m glad to hear it.” 

Kage chuckled, and bumped his forehead against CasCu’s. CasCu grinned, then bumped back. They continued walking, comfortable by each other’s side. CasCu sucked in a deep breath between his teeth, and then let it out in a rush. “I’m going to try to talk to Scáthach today,” he said. 

Kage made a soft noise between his teeth. “You sure that’s a great idea?”

“Sure that I need to,” CasCu said, shaking his head. “Especially if she’s going to act as weird as she was yesterday. Figured that it’s better to clear the air between her and I, you know?” 

“Everyone’s problems but your own, huh?” Kage asked. There was just a touch of fond amusement in his voice.

CasCu let out a breath, before leaning in and nuzzling Kage’s cheek. “You know me so well, a ghra,” he said, dry.

Kage grumbled, going red. “Well of course I do,” he muttered, “someone has to.”

So they did. CasCu settled by Kage’s side, smiling a touch more. They crossed the distance between cafeteria and infirmary swiftly. It wasn’t long at all before they arrived at the doors, and CasCu stood there, knowing that inside, both Nightingale and Scatahch waited for him. A part of him didn’t want to go in. It was better out here, by Kage’s side, feeling his warmth and that steady comfort his presence offered.

“Ready?” Kage murmured.

“Never,” CasCu sighed. He leaned into Kage’s side a touch more. “So,” he said, “I’ll see you later then?” 

“Call for me, and I’ll be there,” Kage said, bumping heads.

“Appreciated, hellion,” CasCu murmured. He bumped foreheads back, then stepped away from Kage’s side, using his staff to keep himself moving forwards. A glance back, a smile, and then he was pushing the doors open. 

Inside, Nightingale and Scáthach were in the middle of talking. It seemed a heated argument, and CasCu wondered dryly if there was going to be an implosion thanks to their differing styles of treatment. It was something that seemed imminent, and definitely something he wanted to avoid. But then both sets of red eyes turned to stare at him, critical, and evaluating. CasCu sucked in a deep breath, and stood a bit straighter.

“Hey,” he said, “I’m not late this time, am I?” 

“You are,” Scáthach said, her lips pursed. He could practically see her fighting against the urge to put down a reprimand, a punishment, and then a goal for his next step in training. Somehow, she resisted - another sign that things were not alright with her.

Nightingale had no hesitates. She took one look at CasCu, then pointed to the bed. “Your condition is worse. Sit. We will begin with the physical exam.”

CasCu sighed, then hobbled over to the bed she’d pointed to. “Yes ma’am.” He knew better than to argue when she looked like that. Besides… maybe if they started with the physical exam, he wouldn’t be put too hard through his paces afterward .

 

CasCu groaned softly as Scáthach lead him through his closing stretches. Whatever Scáthach and Nightingale had argued about, it was clear that they’d worked out this much at least - Nightingale had given Scáthach a strict set of parameters to follow when it came to his physical therapy, and Scáthach was following them to the letter.

Perhaps even she was scared of the Berserker.

That was a foolish flight of fancy. More likely, she’d realized if she fought too much, Nightingale simply wouldn’t let her help out here, and that was something it seemed Scáthach wasn’t willing to risk. So Scáthach had listened to Nightingale’s assessment of CasCu’s health - in some ways better, for the connection between his body and mind was stronger, but in some ways worse, because he had already worn his body out - quietly, and the physical therapy session reflected Nightingale’s advice … or threats, if one was being honest.

But that didn’t mean the air between them was any less strained. CasCu did his stretches with an eye on her, watching her watch him, and feeling the tension tight enough to snap. Finally, when he eased back from his latest stretch, he spoke. 

Scáthach ,” he said, “I mentioned before that we needed to have a talk.”

“You did,” she said.

“Well, can we have that talk now? It feels like … that this is about the time for it.” He doubted they would find another time where it was just them, like this. A space to talk about everything that had happened before things erupted.

Scáthach considered him for a longer moment, before nodding once. “Very well,” she said, and there was something in her voice, like she wasn’t appreciative of having to say the words without a fight before them. Scáthach wasn’t the type to give up information easy. 

“You … keep on doing this,” CasCu said, letting out a breath between his teeth. “Are you … Scáthach , you know you don’t have to apologize for what Odin did for you, right? It wasn’t your fault.”

There was a pause, brief, and Sacathach face flickered. There was a moment, wild and sharp, where CasCu thought he had crossed the line. Any second now, Scathach would boot his backside out of the room, Nightingale be damned. Any moment now -

“I am not a fool, CasCu, and nor am I so easy to blame myself when things go wrong,” she said. She leaned back against the wall, and crossed her arms over her chest. Her face was curiously blank again, her voice utterly bland. “It is simple. Like the Scáthach who allowed herself to be taken over by Skadi, I grew overconfident , and allowed Odin to shatter my perception of him. Had I been smarter in my approach, then things would have turned out differently. It is my mistake, and one I will not repeat.”

That was not an answer to what he’d been trying to say. He took a moment, picking his words before he spoke. “And as a penance,” he said, “you’re sitting here, helping Nightingale with physical therapy.” 

“It’s hardly penance,” Scáthach scoffed, “it is my duty as your teacher to continue teaching you when you need my guidance. You need my guidance now, and so I will offer my assistance. Do not presume that I am being apologetic for anything.” 

CasCu just. Stared at her. Stared at her, and felt … like he’d been sideswiped , briefly, by her words. And his own came out without a thought. “But you’re not my teacher.”

There was a pause. Scáthach slowly straightened. Her red eyes burned into him, and even if CasCu wasn’t really a Chulainn, even if he was just a fake Odin had made, there was enough of him that was real enough to read that look clearly. It was enough to make him panic, to run his mouth, words tumbling in excuses like he was still fourteen and under her guidance and care and her rage.

“I’m not saying you’re not my teacher,” he said, in a rush, “just that I’m not - well, I’m not really Cu Chulainn, am I? So you were never my teacher, and so you don’t really have - well you don’t really have a reason to do this -”

Scáthach ’s fist descended with perfect precision and speed. CasCu was shocked out of his own ramble by the cuff to his ear. He stared at her, his eyes wide, and she stared back at him with the cold, calculating fury he was so used to. “Clearly,” she said, “We do need to have a talk, though it is not what you believe this talk to be about. Do you understand me?”

“Yes, teacher,” CasCu said, numb and automatic.

“Good,” Scáthach eased back, though the fierceness in her eyes hadn’t faded. “You, CasCu, are still my student, because you are a Cu Chulainn. Perhaps not the one I trained in this world, but that does not matter, for you are still a Cu Chulainn, and that makes you my student. You were built on a scaffolding - your base self is true, and everything you have made of yourself has continued to be true. If you insist that it is not, then I will have to beat you down and build you up as my student once more. Do you understand me?”

CasCu stared at her.

Scáthach leaned forwards again. Her voice was sharper, expectant. “Do. You. Understand. Me. Setenta?”

“Yes, teacher.”

The words lept to his lips before he fully thought about them, solid and warm and… well, real. Because he did understand, a touch in part. In just one paragraph Scáthach had torn into his fears, laid them bare, and then told him frankly how ridiculous they were. It wasn’t the type of thing that helped people move on, in the typical kind of sense but …

CasCu had been built on a scaffolding.

Those words stuck with him. He had built on a scaffolding. Odin had needed a base, and that base is what Bazett had Summoned. Everything after that base - that was what the falsehood Odin had created. And when Odin had slept in the back of his mind, that is what CasCu had filled out. If CasCu had been built on a scaffolding, then that scaffolding was Cu Chulainn’s life, and CasCu had just … made it look like a house.

It was - he didn’t know what it was. The image of a house sat there in CasCu’s mind, a home full of the things he had placed in there. Both the false things - the memories he had created to fill in the gaps - and the true things - every moment he’d spent in Chaldea, the memories of Fuyuki and the Singularities he’d been through. 

The house wasn’t empty. It was a home.

“Good,” Scáthach said. She settled back, crossing her arms over her chest. “You are the same as Alter is. Alter is still my student, so my student you will remain. Do not presume to insult my choices and my decisions, Setenta.”

“I won’t, teacher,” CasCu said. His voice came out a bit steadier, even if it was still a touch dazed. His mind was still trying to wrap around the words. It felt like clarity, in a way. It felt a little like hope, in the way only Scáthach could deliver.

“Good.” Scáthach ’s hand hit his head, and she gave his hair a rough ruffle. “Now, return to your stretches. We still have things to complete today, and I will not have you lagging behind on your schedule.”

CasCu’s head ducked down with the ruffle. For a moment, he said nothing, blinking into space as if to make her actions make sense. But it was just … well, it was Scáthach ’s way of saying she cared, and after a moment, he lifted his head, and nodded. “Alright, Scáthach ,” he said, and the words felt more stable in his mouth.

Scáthach , leaning back once more with her arms crossed, looked just a touch more pleased with herself, and with him.

 

CasCu left the infirmary with strict orders from Nightingale not to overdo it. If he did not commit to bed rest this day, then she would revoke his freedom, and he would stay within the infirmary until she was satisfied with his recovery. CasCu knew damn well she meant it. So he called mentally called for Proto, and when he appeared, took his arm and hobbled his way to his room.

“So,” Proto said, grinning just a touch, “we’re all meeting up in your room to have another gaming day, then?”

“If you want to,” CasCu said, smiling at Proto’s eagerness. “Or we could watch a movie - Kage and I don’t have a TV, but Nightingale hadn’t said anything about -”

“Hey everyone,” that was Gudao’s voice, thrumming through the bonds and connections of Chaldea, “Could everyone come to the Command Room? I have an announcement I need to make.”

“Well then,” CasCu said, considering this for a moment. “That was quick. Do you think Nightingale will mind if I participate in this meeting?” 

“Hey, don’t look at me,” Proto said. He turned them in the direction of the Command Room, and they started that way down the hall. “But if you’re worried about it, then take to Spirit Form. At least that way she won’t know you’re there?”

“Nightingale always knows,” CasCu said dryly.

Proto snorted in agreement. For a little bit, they walked in silence, before Proto asked, “So what did you mean by that was quick? I wasn’t expecting an announcement of some sort.”

“Lily, Achilles and I talked about it yesterday,” CasCu said, shaking his head. “I won’t say what about … it’ll be up to Gudao to explain the situation in the way he chooses, but this meeting is one we’ve needed to have since the first Lostbelt. I was expecting Gudao to wait a little bit longer, but …” he hesitated a moment, then sighed. “Honestly, I don’t fully know how long we’ve been here. Perhaps this is past due.”

“Or perhaps,” Proto suggested, “he’s simply been distracted? There’s been a lot of things going on.”

Besides your own situation, were the words Proto didn’t say, but CasCu knew anyway. He huffed, and nodded, lips pursed in thought. “There has been … hopefully we get a bit of a break before something else that requires our attention pops up. I’m not sure that recent events count as a break.”

“They most certainly don’t,” Proto said, with a sigh.

CasCu agreed with that sigh. He kept quiet, until they had reached the Command Room … and then he took to Spirit Form. It wasn’t just because he was wary of Nightingale seeing him; it was also the size of the room that informed the decision. Chaldea had an area large enough where all the Servants could gather in solid form. The Wandering Sea, however, had nothing like that. Mages weren’t known for big gatherings, or team building exercises. There would be no more movie nights, no more funny shirt days …

CasCu let out a breath, a quiet one to mourn all lost for their absence. But he knew new things would rise in their wake. Gudao wasn’t the sort to take a loss like that laying down. Something would be brought up to replace what was gone.

The Command Room near wavered with the amount of Heroic Spirits packed between the walls. It certainly seemed packed with the remainder of the Chaldean staff stuffed inside as well. Gudao and Mash were nearly obstructed with all the people in the way. Sion, Sherlock, Director Gordolf, and the iPad that held Gran Cavallo’s voice were less disguised by the crowd - possibly because people didn’t want to be close to them. But Mash and Gudao … well, those two looked tired. They looked like two people who had been forced to come to a very hard decision that they both hated very much.

“It’s happening,” Achilles said.

“Yeah,” CasCu agreed. “Kage? You in here yet?” 

“Where the fuck else would I be, artifact?” 

The touch of Kage’s voice was welcome, even if it was a bit acidic, in its own way. He must have been interrupted in the middle of his cooking. The thought brought a smile to CasCu’s lips, even in Spirit Form. “Where are you in the room? I’d like to be close, right now.”

“By the left corner,” Kage said, his voice a touch softer. 

CasCu’s smile lingered. He made his way to the left corner, and even if he didn’t know where his hellion was exactly, couldn’t see him properly … he knew well that he was close by. “Hey,” he said, his voice soft. 

“Hey,” Kage returned, “You know what this is about, artifact?”

“Might,” CasCu said, “If I’m right, it’s about the state of the Lostbelts, and what we’ll be doing about them. I know it’s a conversation some of the other Servants have been having, or at least thinking about it. Gudao … well, Gudao, Mash, and the others will have had no choice but to consider it too.”

“Fucking great,” CasCu heard Kage’s sigh rush past him. “I’m not going to like this, am I?” 

“No, you’re not.” 

“Well shit.” 

They fell into silence. The whole room did, the faint hubbub of Heroic Spirits and staff members getting settled falling still. Even in Spirit Form, CasCu could see that… there was less than there had been. Those gone thanks to the raid that had destroyed Chaldea. But there was even less than what had been lost, and CasCu … CasCu’s brain took a moment to understand. When Gudao died, when he’d sacrificed himself to save him -

His breath caught.

How many had been lost? Gods, if only he’d been quicker. If only they had all paid closer attention to what Surtr was planning. If only … 

“Hey, everyone,” Gudao called out. He had a voice that had learned to project over battlefields, but in this smaller room, echoing, he hardly needed it. He gave a smile, small, one that didn’t fully reach his eyes. “There’s an important matter we all have to discuss, and it’s … well, things have finally settled in on the administration’s side, and we can finally bring up the nature of the Lostbelts for discussion. I’m sorry it’s taken us this long to have this conversation. We’ll begin with Sherlock and Sion ’s explanation of what we’re fighting, and then move onto what the Director and Gran Cavallo believe we should do. Mash and I will give our testaments at the end, and then … then I will leave the final decisions up to you all. You’re the ones doing this for us - I would be a horrible Master if I didn’t give you a choice.”

He was wrong, about that. A typical master wouldn’t have given them a choice. By mage standards, Gudao was quite a horrible Master. But that was what made him beloved by so many here. It’s why CasCu was certain many would continue fighting for her, no matter their personal preferences.

“Well then,” Sion said, clapping her hands together, “I’ll suppose I’ll begin! The forces of the Wandering Sea have been hard at work adding parts to our facilities, and to recreate Chaldea’s infostructure! We’ve only got a few things left to add now, and those sections that are being reworked are currently closed off. But soon we’ll have a fully functioning, Wandering Sea Chaldean base! We’re also capable of Summoning new Heroic Spirits finally! Isn’t that wonderful?”

There was a pause, brief, before a murmur rushed through the crowd. CasCu let out a slow breath between his teeth. No wonder Gudao had been so busy recently. There were a lot of changes that needed to be made, things to be done, set up and prepared for everything that was about to go down.

Sion beamed at everyone’s reactions. “I want to thank everyone for their efforts in making the Wandering Sea a more accommodating place! Now, we wanted to update everyone about what we have determined of the Lostbelts.”

Sherlock stepped forwards. He glanced across the room, his hand resting lightly on his cane. “The Lostbelts,” he said, “are the histories that have been pruned from our world, for they have reached a dead end. Humanity could no longer move forwards. The world was static, no longer evolving, and would go nowhere. The divergence point of each Lostbelt is different, but after diverging, they continue into modern day. Sion has determined that each of these Lostbelts are different in their strengths.”

“We’re calling that strength Lostbelt Depth,” Sion said, waving a hand. Gran Cavallo’s iPad gave a beep, then a map appeared above the screen, projected in midair and blazing there. It was a map of the world, with different sized dots scattered across it. “Lostbelt depth,” she said, “is determined by how different their history is from ours, and that determines the strength. For example, Russia and Scandinavia had the least Lostbelt depth - Russia had less though, as it was essentially still humanity with some extra bits, while Scandinavia was Humanity on life support. Britain and Mesoamerica are odd - I’m certain that they will self-destruct , as their histories are too incompatible to ours. Which leaves China, India, and the Atlantic.” 

“The Atlantic,” Sherlock said, pointing to it, “is the greatest threat as of right now. It’s got the strongest Lostbelt Depth, and it’s tree of emptiness is spreading through the atmosphere of earth. It is likely that the Crypter that controls it is Kirschtaria Wodime.”

“And it is clear,” Director Gordolf said, his chest swelled up in self-importance . “That that is where we must go next. It is the greatest threat to us, and also the home base of the Crypter’s leader. We are going to bring the fight to them, and take them out! Once that has been accomplished, the China and Indian Lostbelts can be taken care of as needed.”

“To do that though,” Gran Cavallo added, with a beep, “the Shadow Border is going to have to go through extensive modifications. The Atlantic Lostbelt is in the middle of the ocean - and it seems to still have an ocean! And that means we have to be prepared for sea travel. These modifications will take a month to complete, which means a month for us to recover our energies and prepare for the upcoming fight! And speaking of the upcoming fights … Gudao has an announcement, about a choice everyone has to face in the upcoming month.”

Gudao and Mash stepped forwards, and everyone gave them space to stand. For a second, two, they stood before everyone, silent. And CasCu could see the exhaustion that laid heavy on both their shoulders, the way their hands were twined together and the support they drew from each other’s presence. No doubt everyone could feel it too. No one spoke as they waited for the two to speak.

Gudao let out a breath, and opened his eyes. “I won’t lie to anyone,” he said, “by doing this, we’re dooming the Lostbelt’s. Yes, they’re dead end histories. Yes, it is to save the world, but by doing this - we’re killing worlds. We’re killing everything that calls those worlds home. Plants, animals, people … their lives are on our hands. And we can’t look away from that. We can’t look away from the histories and people we are casting aside, we have to …”

“We have to carry pieces of them with us,” Mash said, her voice soft. “The world has forgotten them, but Senpai and I - Gudao and I have determined that we are not going to let them be forgotten. We’ve started writing down what we knew of the Lostbelts. The world, the cultures, the people, so even after they’re gone, they’ll be remembered.”

“But it’s hard,” Gudao said. He stared at everyone, his eyes burning. “I know it’s hard - and that’s why Mash and I are doing this. We won’t become numb to the atrocities we are committing. We love our world, and we’re - we’re committed to burning the others , so our world can survive. But I also know that this … this isn’t what everyone else signed up for. And there are enough of you still that you get a choice.”

“I want you all to think, and think hard, about what you want to do. If you would rather fight the Lostbelt’s directly, or support Chaldea from behind, or if this is something you cannot support and would like to be dismissed. I don’t blame anyone for their decision, and I will have no one peer pressuring people into making one decision or another. I just ask that, once you have figured out what you want to do, that you get back to me and Mash, so I know.”

He sucked in a breath, then let it out in a slow rush, giving everyone a small smile. “And I want to finish this off with a thank you. Thank you everyone, for joining me on this journey. And I hope, that if you decide on staying, that these Lostbelts will be the end of it. That we’ll finally be able to see our world restored without threat. Meeting dismissed.” 

And for all those words rang through the room … no one moved. Not the staff members, who stared at Gudao with wide eyes. Not the watery waver of Heroic Spirits, their bodies packed into the room, who the question was truly directed towards. CasCu found himself quieted too. He stared at Gudao, his expression tight, something like burning pride in his chest. Gods, Gudao and Mash had grown so much since he’d first helped them out.

He wished he could bring them peace. He wished they could get a break, and that the threats would stop coming for them. It’s what they needed. It’s what they deserved.

CasCu turned his head slightly. His ghostly fingers felt around, but bumped against nothing. “Kage?” he asked, his voice soft. “You’re my Master now. What I do depends on what you wish to do, from now on.” 

“Fuck,” Kage said, his voice a rasp, “That’s a big pressure, CasCu.”

“I know. I’m sorry.” CasCu reached again for a hand he couldn’t feel, and let out a soft, quiet breath. “Talk about it in the room. Where we can see each other?”

A moment of quiet, before Kage let out a long sigh. “Fuck - yeah. Yeah. just give me a few moments to clear some things up first, alright?”

“Alright.” And CasCu would tell Proto too, that was unlikely to be happening tonight. 

 

CasCu waited on the bed, his hands rubbing over his wolf head pendent. His eye burned into the ceiling, tracing the twisting pipes, as swirled and chaotic as the cacophony in his mind. Scathach’s words still lingered, the comparison to CasCu being a home built on a scaffolding. It made him think of this room, in a way. Just a boring room, used by CasCu briefly, but now being replaced by everything that was Kage and CasCu. A home together. A fresh stare. It felt… good, better, to think of himself like that.

But most of all, he was thinking about the Lostbelts. It made his chest go tight, his stomach churn in uncertain worry. He didn’t … well, he didn’t think this conversation would go badly. But it was one that they needed to have … after all, Kage was right. It was unfair, that they were tied together, that CasCu had no choice but to go along with whatever Kage chose when it came to the Lostbelts. The decision shouldn’t have to fall on Kage’s shoulders.

But CasCu would much rather this problem than all their other problems.

Kage came in later, pushing the door open, then sliding it shut behind him. He looked … tired, shadowed, and held his arm in the wrong way. CasCu pushed himself up, his voice a gentle croon. “Hey, hellion,” he murmured.

“Hey, artifact,” Kage said. He moved to sit at CasCu’s side, and leaned against him, head resting on his shoulder. 

CasCu curled an arm around him, and turned his face to bury his nose in Kage’s locks of hair. For a long few moments, he didn’t move, just soaked it in, the touch and the comfort, before he murmured. “We don’t - the choice doesn't have to be up to you. It can be something we both want.”

Kage shook his head slightly, his voice tight. “No - fucking, I’ve already made my decision, artifact. You’re not going to like it.” 

“It’s to be back up support, right?” CasCu asked, and chuckled when Kage’s head jerked up to stare at him. “I figured that it would be that … I figured the Lostbelts would be too much like Counterforce work for you to be comfortable. And that -”

“My curse would flare up?” Kage said, scowling.

“Yeah,” CasCu said. He reached down, and took Kage’s hand in his own. He thumbed over his knuckles, gave it a gentle squeeze. Beneath his finger, he felt the lazy pulse of that curse, hungry and eager for blood. CasCu’s voice stayed soft.“I was worried that in that situation, your curse would act out. And I know that’s something you want to avoid.” 

Kage made a noise between his teeth. His fingers squeezed tight onto CasCu’s, holding on as if it were some sort of lifeline. He turned his head, and pressed his face against CasCu’s shoulder with a rasp. “It would feed them,” he said, “Gods, killing a whole world is what it wants. Those worlds - they’re dead ends for a reason, artifact. The people in them aren’t happy. They aren’t peaceful. Some way or another, they’re struggling. And the only way they’ll be at rest is if they’re all dead -”

Kage cut himself off. His fingers bit painfully into CasCu’s hand, before he relaxed his grip and thumbed over his skin. “I can’t do it,” he said. “I can’t fucking do that, because if I give in in that way, then it’s going to be Gudao and Mash on the line. It’s a slippery fucking slope that I can’t go down, CasCu, I just - can’t -”

“I know,” CasCu said, his voice softer, soothing. He reached up and thumbed a hand-over Kage’s cheek. “I know, you don’t have to explain anything to me, Kage. Not anything at all. This is what I was expecting, and I’m not upset. I’m more than happy to stay with you here, and support in what ways I can from the back.”

“Gods,” Kage let out a breath, harsh, before looking at him, his smile crooked. “You’re too damned good for me, CasCu.” 

“Not at all,” CasCu said. He grinned back at him. “You deserve every little bit of that goodness, a ghra.” 

Kage muttered, his cheeks heating underneath CasCu’s hand. Then he pushed forwards, and kissed him soft, warm, hand cupping CasCu’s cheeks. “Right back at you, artifact,” he mumbled, before dragging CasCu down to lay on the bed proper, curling up by his side. His voice was quiet. “You’re staying for the rest of the day, right?” 

“Yeah, I am,” CasCu said. He curled his arm around Kage, and let out a breath of a croon. “Nightingale got on my case about not resting enough. Will you be staying the day with me, a ghra?” 

“Of course I will,” Kage said, his voice soft. He leaned up, and pressed his lips against CasCu’s jaw. “Not going fucking anywhere.” 

“Thank god,” CasCu said. He smiled into Kage’s hair, and held his hellion close.

They lay like that, for a long time, eyes half closed and just soaking in the touch and comfort the other brought. The world had been destroyed, and they would have to destroy others to kill it back. But it was for reasons like this that they fought. The small things, like a loved ones touch, the comfort of them close by.  A lover’s smile, a family member’s laugh, a friend’s grin - their world was full of shit, but it was full of moments like this, and that made it worth fighting for, even if their fight would be from the back lines.

Even if they were both scarred up, in such painful ways. Kage would never not be cursed. His curse had persisted after Fuyuki, through every summoning and through the Counterforce itself. CasCu … well, he doubted that the damages that Odin had wrought upon his psyche would ever truly fade. But scars like that were something one learned to live with. Kage had learned how to live with his, and CasCu was learning to live with his own, and as long as they stayed together, and held onto each other, it would be okay.

It would be okay. 

CasCu held his hellion close, and knew that, together, they would be alright. 

Notes:

For these concluding notes, I've got a bunch of super special stuff, both pertaining to CasCu and Kage's skill set, their future, annnnnd the future of everyone's least favorite norse god: Odin! Hope you all enjoy!

First off: Kage and CasCu’s joint Spirit Origin Abilities!

Skills:
Lover’s Protection : Grants Evasion (3 attacks, 3 turns), Increases defense (3 turns) and gain critical stars.
Primordial Rune: Increase critical damage (3 turns), increase debuff resistance (3 turns), NP Gain (50%).
Corrupted Projection: Increases Quick performance (1 turn), Arts performance (1 turn), and Buster performance (1 turn), increase attack (3 turns), inflict curse on one’s self (100 damage per turn, 3 turns).

NP: Burning Bladeworks
Apply ignore defense (1 turn), and increase buster performance by 20% (1 turn). Deal heavy damage to all enemies. Apply defense down (three turns), attack down (three turns), Inflict burn (500, 3 turns), and Inflict Curse (500, 3 turns).

Second off: What the fuck happened to Odin?

Well, Odin does indeed come back! In FGO cannon, CasCu was an envoy of Odin in both Singularity F, then entered the British Lostbelt and wove himself into the past - Still as an envoy of Odin. In Servant Shenanigans, after Odin was kicked out of CasCu’s body, he stewed in the throne/Valhalla/wherever divine spirits go, before forcefully summoning himself into the British Losbelt. He makes a new mask for himself, but keeps control of it from the beginning.

Though he is Very pissy with Guda and treats them with barely concealed hostility - Odin is ultimately a Deity on humanity’s side. An unpleasant one for sure, but his goals do still align with keeping humanity alive, so he does help them out through the course of the Lostbelt. At the end of it he might have even bonded a little … whose to say ….

Third off: What happens with Kage and CasCu?

The path to recovery is very long and rocky, but with the support of everyone around them, CasCu is able to move past his demons! But as you might suspect, it does take.... a while, and there's always lingering issues that comes with what Odin put CasCu through. It just felt right to end the story on this note, where everyone is starting a new chapter into the Lostbelt Journey then on a different note. As the Lostbelts progress, the two stick together, CasCu working in the infirmities, Kage in the kitchens, both offering their support from the back.

As for past the Wandering Sea and Chaldea… well, if you’ve ever read Walk a Mile, then you might know what happens to them *Wink* Kage used Rule Breaker on CasCu, so their Spirit Origin is very much like Ryouma and Oryo’s … including the being tied to each other through anything, even the Counter Force

I want to thank you all once more, and I’ll see you in the next instalment of Servant Shenanigans: Shimosa Edition! Thank you all so much once more, and I hope you have a wonderful day!!

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