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It was a dream you’ve had before. Always alone, always running. How you wish for warmth. Flashes of green that bring warmth and comfort.
I’ve had this dream before. It never makes any sense. Sayaka and Mami had died earlier. All that was left was the ice bitch and Him. He was always so warm.
He’s the only reason I didn’t become like her. How horrifying to hear the crack of gem giving as it is remade. Her song still haunts me. I remember how she was so, so lonely .
Mami tried to kill me. Would’ve hit my soul gem. Issei put her down.
The feeling of warmth, of him covered in blood and munching on her intestine, sharing some with me. A warm hearth, made from corpses.
He stayed with me. Homura just stared. Did nothing to help, only doing what he asked of her. He let me cling to him in bed, wrapped me in his wings. All of his eyes focused on me.
Then life continued like normal. We would train, he would break my bones, make me spit blood and would expose my brains. I would always ask for more. Running from my failures.
In the end, was it any surprise I fell in love with him? When he was there . When the sky was falling and all around me were living corpses. Was it any wonder that he burnt me so?
He was hugging me, and then he was pulling out my heart for his cakes. Yuma and Nagisa are cheering him on. The little buggers. Then we were in bed and he was tearing my skin into leather. I could never talk to him about when he got like this. He doesn't remember and Homura wants him to be happy. After all, if this is all it takes to be ẃ̶̢̞̖͖͚̖̭͖̳̟͚̥̫̣͈̿̈́͊͂͋͊͋̉̈́̊͌̍͘͜͠͝a̵̛̟̮̭̠͖̣͈̱̿̓̏̎̓̈́͒̈́̔͋͗͒̿r̸̢̧̡̗̮͖͚̲̺͙̳̺̯̖̿̿̉̏̅̚m̷̢̡͙̱͍̤̭̤͈͓̦̘̟̘̪̙͒͒͗̾́̀̓̈́͐̌̀̕͠ then its not much at all, isn't it.
“Stupid girl! You’re a cursed daughter! All of those people you tricked! That you led to the devil’s embrace! You’ve sold your soul to the devil and have doomed us all!”
Even when he’s not around, Father does haunt me. I watch Momo run into the fire. (No you wanted to walk her home that day.) Right is crushed into back, up is tricked into forward, left and down melt.
The storm always battered us around. Two kids, a failure, an ice bitch, a dragon too good for any of us.
The building barely missed me. I blocked the ribbons and dodged the muskets. I stabbed and finished off Sayaka the witch. Walpurgisnacht didn’t even have to block my spear. I swung down and finished off Mami the familiar.
I felt my legs being crushed. Watched a light be born. A
mountain
rises.
Six eyes of green pass judgment.
You are found
lacking
A roar of loss
The world ends in green light