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The cold hit him first.
It wasn’t the sharp sting of winter that made Dean flinch—it was the way the air felt open, uncontained, slicing across his face like it had a grudge. It’s been years since he’d felt snow melt against his skin, since he’d heard the crunch of boots against frozen ground. The prison yard never counted. That wasn’t snow. That was just another wall, another kind of cage.
He adjusted the strap of the duffel bag slung over his shoulder, the only thing the state had handed back to him, filled with clothes that didn’t fit his body anymore and memories he didn’t want. His breath curled in the cold air as he walked the slow path toward the gates.
“Eight years,” he muttered under his breath, his voice hoarse from disuse. “Eight goddamn years.”
Eight years of silence in a cell. Eight years of keeping his head down, counting cracks in the ceiling, waiting for the day the lock finally clicked open. He told himself it was freedom waiting on the other side, but standing here now—hands shaking, pulse hammering—he wasn’t sure if the world out there was going to feel like freedom at all.
The iron gates groaned as they opened, heavy and final, and Dean stepped through them like a man crossing into enemy territory. Snowflakes clung to his lashes, his jacket, the lines of his mouth. Somewhere beyond the parking lot, his brother’s car idled, exhaust curling like smoke signals in the cold.
Dean swallowed hard, the taste of metal and fear still thick on his tongue. Don’t screw this up, he told himself. Not again.
***
The church was nearly empty.
Just the way Castiel preferred it.
The air inside was warmer than the streets, but not by much. Winter crept in through the cracks of the old stone building, the draft weaving around his ankles as if determined to remind him that the world outside was still moving, still cold, still indifferent. Candles flickered against the high arches, their smoke rising like whispered prayers too faint to reach heaven.
Castiel sat in the same pew he always chose—third from the back, left side. Alone. Always alone. He told himself it was easier that way, that silence was more merciful than company. But the truth pressed in on him heavier than the hymns, heavier than the carved crucifix that loomed over the altar: silence was all he had left.
His wedding band caught the light when he clasped his hands together, fingers pale against the worn wood. A habit. A reminder. A wound. The ring no longer warmed his skin; it hadn’t for years. The woman who’d once breathed life into his days was gone, leaving only this quiet shell of a man in her place.
He bowed his head as though in prayer, though words never came. Not anymore. His faith had withered with her. What remained wasn’t devotion, but discipline—coming here, sitting in the shadows, keeping the ritual alive because without it, there was nothing but the yawning pit of absence.
And still, beneath all the grief, there lingered something he despised admitting even to himself: want. A restless, shameful want that stirred whenever someone’s gaze lingered too long, whenever a stranger’s hand brushed too close. He buried it, smothered it, told himself he was not that man anymore. But the ache lived in his chest, an ember refusing to die.
The doors creaked open at the far end of the nave. Castiel didn’t look up. He didn’t need to. People came and went; they always did. None of them stayed.
He folded his hands tighter, nails biting into skin.
None of them ever stayed.
Outside, snow thickened, falling in slow, relentless sheets, covering the streets, the cars, the rooftops—erasing sharp edges and softening the world. Somewhere on the far side of town, Dean Winchester sat stiff in the passenger seat of his brother’s car, watching the world blur past the frosted window, his breath fogging the glass. Every mile carried him further from the bars that had caged him and closer to a future he wasn’t sure he wanted.
And across town, Castiel Novak remained in his pew, staring at the flicker of candlelight, the wax pooling like time running out. He told himself he would leave soon, step back into the cold, return to the empty house that waited for him. But for now, he lingered, his body rooted in place, as though some unseen hand pressed him to stay.
Neither man knew that their lives were already pulling toward each other—two restless orbits destined to collide. One carrying the weight of sins unspoken, the other shackled by grief too heavy to name. They had no reason yet to look for one another, no way of knowing that redemption and ruin would come dressed in the same face, the same eyes, the same unexpected touch.
And when they did finally meet—when Dean’s rough laugh cut through Castiel’s silence, when Castiel’s steady gaze held Dean still like a tether—it would be the beginning of something neither of them could undo.
Snow fell. Candles burned low. And somewhere in the spaces between freedom and loneliness, love was already waiting.