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    It's pretty simple. Karkat Vantas has long ago given up on himself and instead dedicated his life to protecting mankind from demons as a Grade 1 exorcist.

    It's not until he regretfully meets Dave Strider that everything starts to fall apart.

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    What if what they had wasn't enough? Karkat tries to sort things out.

    (Takes place kind of on Earth C but no real specific timeline?)

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    It's been nearly three nights since you've seen your moirail.

    The thought of you actually having a moirail, and of said moirail being Gamzee Makara of all trolls still hasn't fully sunk in yet. Then again, neither has most of the bullshit that’s transpired recently.

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    'This is how the composition goes: A hot summer day in LA, valiantly surfing the outdoors during The Heatwave. A wide, busy street with barely any shadow to take cover, midday sun that is. A li'l windy, building up to a monsoon maybe but days away from it. Cars pass, not too many. A huge habitational complex dominates the frame.'

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    It hurts.

    Every single fucking day hurts like a steamroller crushing over whatever microscopic pieces are left of your idiot fucking self worth as you smell and see and hear and taste the remnants if what was. You haven’t left your bed for shit except for class and basic necessities in nine fucking months. Dave dumped you two hundred seventy one days ago.

    Not that you’ve been keeping count. That would be cliche and completely ridiculous of you. You aren’t some girl in some romcom, despite the fact that you just got dumped by the love of your life-your fiance-your now ex-boyfriend of five wonderful fucking years. No, you’re just some stupid university student suffering through the existential dread of knowing nobody will ever love you like he did because you’re a shithead who doesn’t know how to not ruin things.

    You feel thirteen again, all self loathing and a depressive episode that has become more of a too long series than just an episode. It hurts. It hurts and you miss him.

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    2/?
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    Karkat has been dealing with a whirlwind of emotions lately, and his growing feelings for Dave only adds to his turmoil. He's not sure he's ready to accept the fact he's ready to move on from his first matesprit, after the tragedy that ensued not long after. It doesn't take long for said Strider to help him out of it though.

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    ”I’m so...motherfucking sorry...I shouldn’t have gotten all up in your shit like that. It wasn’t right of me,”

    You will never, not ever, feel guilty for what you did to the motherfucker, not when you think of the things he said, you can feel guilty for upsetting Karkat though, that’s not hard in the slightest. He holds you tighter still.

    You continue, “Karbro, you’re the strongest motherfucker I know and I never want you to think that your miraculous ass is anything but strong to me,”

    Karkat is crying harder now, but he pulls away from you and finally you see his face properly. It’s all puffy and covered in tears and he’s still beautiful. Hell, he may be even more beautiful than the very last time you saw him because you see none of that hate that was there before. The only thing in his ganderbulbs are love and sorrow and you want to kiss all that motherfucking sorrow out of him. Only three days apart and you realize how very much Karkat means to you, of course you thought you knew before, you thought that you understood how much pity you had stored up for him in your soul, but it turns out that there’s even more than you expected.

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    "(F)our minutes ago, a fire started. Almost as soon as the alarms shrieked, the ship became illuminated in colors warmer than rogue blood. Its steel walls caused the heat to cluster. Everything smoked and burned and you remembered, *Sollux couldn't fucking move.*

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    ”Forgive me father, for I have motherfuckin sinned.”

     

    You take your rosary into your hand and clutch it tight. You run your fingers over the intricate patterns carved into the beads and think of all your sins. It’s a sin that you failed your math test last Friday, it’s a sin that you got Tavbro to partake in your miraculous pies.

     

    ”I’ve done fallen all up in love with my best brother,”

     

    It is a sin that you are so miraculously, deeply in love with your best friend in the world.

     

    You love him so much that it makes your chest ache, you love him so much that your every moment together is made of so many miracles that you have to wonder if there is something better than the messiah himself and if that something is right in front of you. You remember when you thought you were in love with Tavbro, it was in middle school and you felt both a sense of shame and electric excitement. You wanted to wheel him everywhere, help him with his books, do anything you could to be around him. You remember how desperately in love he was-is-with Vriska. How your tiny little kid heart seemed to break and how your best friend took you into his arms and let you cry about it.

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    **A rewrite of my fic by the same name: But the unabridged and extended edition! Many things have been changed between the fics. **

    Tony always assumed that he had done everything and everyone worth doing, but he was still empty and alone at the end of the day.

    Then one day he was asked if he had ever had "done" a troll.

    This led him down a path filled with shock, anguish, disturbing sights and bitter truths. But it also eventually led him to deep friendships, genuine happiness, a loving family and a self completing feeling of heroism.

    It also led to him saving generations of trolls who were treated as "pets" or slaves on earth. But that was a side benefit.

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    • Part 1 of TBL
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    Your name is Karkat Vantas, and you don't like parties, people, or socializing. So you have no idea why the hell you thought coming to Dave's homecoming party would be a fun way to spend your night. Oh yeah, it's cause said host of such party asked you to come, and for all the complaining you do about and to him, he is kind of one of your only friends. And maybe, you secretly really like hanging out with him. Well, perhaps since he's just as useless at this partying thing as you are and would rather just hang out in his bedroom with you, the night won't be so bad. At least he's brought a bottle of alcohol, and knowledge of a party game that he made up called Shots & Stories. Hell, maybe you'll even learn something about him, finally get a look at whatever hides behind his ironic persona and those sunglasses he never takes off.

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    Karkat is moping, convinced that he is a terrible excuse for a troll. Of course he unloads all of his baggage on Sollux, who is never not in the mood.
    Tavros worries, and his worry has found a new target: Eridan, since everyone seems to hate him now for some reason...

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    5/?
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    Someone stealing flowers from Dave and Jade’s front garden...

    ie. a collegestuck AU with everyone’s favourite soft boys

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    I was thinking about the fact that even with a sign & a lusus provided to him by the Sufferer cultists, Karkat would still grow up incredibly screwed up knowing that he had mutant blood when blood color is literally the entire basis of troll society and I wondered how that would lead to the character we meet in Hivebent, so I ended up writing this.

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    Rose and Dave Strider-Lalonde are heirs to their parents crime empire, masters of seductive persuasion at the ripe age of 17. Rose, a young woman who feels the constant need to know everything she can, stumbles upon the rumor of tenebrous creatures with a penchant for blood, and demands to know more. She quickly finds herself head over heels in the depths of a vampire romance.

    [DISCONTINUED]

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    Karkat come home, regretting everything he had just done. Gamzee, being his moirail, tries to coax it out of him, but to little avail.

    “I wanna feel like part of the troll world,” He whispered, “Please, Gamzee.”

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    Alternia has come to a peace treaty with Earth. But along with that treaty came about the birth of a sick business that involved the worst of the worst Alternian criminals to be sold as 'sentient sex toys' to Earth's most rich and famous. The condescension's sick way of getting rid of 'pests' while earning 'profit'.

    And as a troll with the blood of the lowest of all blood castes, where your very existence is a crime of the highest treason, there is no other fate you know.

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    "How can I not fall in love with the first person who's ever treated me with so much love and care? Tell me Kanaya, how can I leave a person like that?"

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    14/?
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    He's hidden his blood for so long that it takes revenge: he begins to remember.

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    1/?
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    3
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    50
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    6
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    Karkat Vantas is a mermaid. Honestly, what else could be more enchanting than that? For a cool kid like Dave, maybe its this whimsical fantasy like attribute that makes him want to learn more about Karkat. He wants to understand, and maybe appreciate how different their two worlds are. Whatever it is, Dave is determined to keep Karkat a constant in his life.

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    3,178
    Chapters:
    2/?
    Kudos:
    38
    Bookmarks:
    4
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    568
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    Каркат ненавидит всё сильнее и сильнее.

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    Русский
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    Chapters:
    1/1
    Kudos:
    17
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    103

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