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1. beancounter22765 Wed 21 Oct 2020 08:12PM UTC

   

   Here calls a wounded soul, searching for someone who wants substance over semblance. Someone who will look deeper than the assumptions and imaginings to the reality of the heart with it's edges, bruises, and scars. The desire for true connection, not appliqued illusions.

   So difficult in a world where we hide behind masks of socially acceptable behavior and ideas to avoid further wounds and scars. But still the heart cries for something more, something deeper, something true.

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2. 1. Memento__Mori Sun 01 Nov 2020 04:10PM UTC

      

      Your comments are more lovely than the work. It’s been difficult to respond, except to say “Post that as one of your works! Read it out loud. I have.” That strikes me as a little too intense, if it is, I am sorry.

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   2. 1. beancounter22765 Mon 02 Nov 2020 07:09AM UTC

         

         This poem resonated with me and you need not apologize for the intensity felt. I've been working on a one-shot titled "Not a Fan" that still doesn't feel ready. The initial germ of an idea came four years ago (two years before my daughter encouraged me to start writing). Comments, phrases in conversations, and poems like this have kept the idea alive and growing.

         It just hit me. That's an ironic title for a piece of fanfiction. (giggle, giggle, giggle. It must be getting late.)

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3. Saccharine_Seductress Fri 30 Oct 2020 03:07AM UTC

   

   Man, you made me confront the fact that I too have been projecting my idea of Mori onto him.

   He's usually projected on like a blank canvas. My poor sexy tree hides away inside himself :(

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4. 1. Memento__Mori Fri 30 Oct 2020 03:34AM UTC

      

      Is it too much, I wondered, the “you, reader” bit, it is not a fourth wall break, though it’s easily read that way. He is still putting things in writing, assuming somehow there might be a reader.

      I think a huge blanket “Thank You” is in order, your comments are moving more quickly than my self, ATM.

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5. JaredKleinman Sun 21 Mar 2021 09:06PM UTC

   

   This is so perfectly in character! It's a shame that Mori didn't really get much attention in the anime so I am all the more impressed by how you were able to create this! I imagine writing from Mori's perspective as extremely difficult :0

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6. 1. Memento__Mori Sun 21 Mar 2021 09:21PM UTC

      

      Most expect that writing him is easier, and I figure if he is considered "insert self here" or your construct not based on what we are given of him, it probably easier. I've said it is easier, but the more I tried to do what I thought I saw of Mori in-anime justice... albeit in the most internally wordy oddly-archaic at times in-poetry-for-some-reason way.

      Thanks-- I think usually people say that first, sorry, it's being a day and a poem is lurking. I wish I wrote the way I used to, as in, all the time. Instead I just have these plots or remembered points of an episode that give me a stanza while I am hauling trash or something, or possibly cringing at minor meltdowns I may have in comments. It is easier to keep saying "Alternate Universe!" regularly when writing him. ;-)

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7. Mal (Guest) Tue 23 Mar 2021 01:55AM UTC

   Oh no. This. This hit. Hit hard.

   Like Mori's Kendo. (*giggles while crying*)

   The idea that all of us are alone, especially when we are in love, resonates with me. I see it in how we build up our lover in our minds, fill in the gaps, make the pieces fit into what we want them to be. So much of falling in love, we do alone - thinking of that person, analyzing and reenacting previous interactions, fantasizing. And even as Mori laments?/recognizes?/expresses? that others don't see him as the whole, true person he is (and that they don't seem to WANT to, which is the real tragedy)... he's done the same to Haruhi. Calling her a goddess, held above all others. This knife cuts both ways.

   Maybe that's just due to my own introversion. It takes someone very dedicated to prying away my barriers to get me to admit my own thoughts and feelings. I'm very happy to have people like that in my life. I hope Mori finds similar solace, and that someone tells him he's Worthy just as he is - not only as the protector, but as a person.

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8. 1. Memento__Mori Tue 23 Mar 2021 03:25AM UTC

      

      Starting again, I replied to the second idea when you were crying and giggling. Not good.
      What you said, the whole "we're alone in our heads" idea in general, it is pretty harsh, it's also why I'm into language and sound and intonation, all of it... if we try to connect, it helps to have the tools. If you're especially hard to "get" or shell yourself up naturally, language is even more precious. So, what happens when next to no-one tries to get more out of a guy who says "hn"? Depends on the Takashi you see, you read or watch or imagine. I shouldn't be glad that it hit so hard when you explain why, honestly I was so focused on yeah, I left "Goddess" in there waiting to be called on it I skipped your first part because, gee, wonder who might want to write Takashi? In this case, wordy introvert who talks less in a week than most do in a day could be a good guess. Just sayin' --- tears and giggles are both appreciated, look out for yourself and treasure those friends, ok? Back to the first response (zero empathy isn't who I am, but I can be a dolt)

      Yes!!! Thanks for that. It is exactly what he does in the poems. Except when he's idealizing something real about her, which could be ok, as long as they communicate, possibly? It's ... well, you'll see. He has certain things even he's smart enough not to put on paper. At the rate you're going, you'll be there soon enough. Thank you for all your comments. This really is inspiring, even though I don't think I could write her long enough to do a companion series with what might be going on for her. I find her difficult to write, but we can't all do everything. I'm content to listen to her in the anime, or read her, and have fun with my version of the guys. You do catch the point, if he ever gets what he thinks he wants, what then?

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9. TempestuousEevee Fri 15 Apr 2022 02:25AM UTC

   

   Introversion and frequent introspection. He sees himelself as others see him. A belonging. Decor. Outward quite hides the inside violence.

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10. 1. Memento__Mori Sat 16 Apr 2022 06:31PM UTC

       

       Yes.
       And your comment is a poem.
       : )

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11. momstable Mon 17 Oct 2022 06:54AM UTC

    

    And aren't we all guilty of this, as we read (and/or write) the fan based fiction of our yearning souls? For are we not also hosted by these characters, invited to spend our time in their company, to let our imaginations run a bit wild (yes, that was intentional) in the stories we wed them to?

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